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- A MODERN MEPHISTOPHELES
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- AND
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- A WHISPER IN THE DARK
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- LOUISA M. ALCOTT’S NOVELS.
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- MOODS.
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- WORK, a Story of Experience.
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- A MODERN MEPHISTOPHELES, and A WHISPER IN THE DARK.
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- 3 vols. 16mo. $1.50 each.
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- ROBERTS BROTHERS, Publishers,
- BOSTON.
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- A
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- MODERN MEPHISTOPHELES
-
- AND
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- A WHISPER IN THE DARK
-
- BY LOUISA M. ALCOTT
-
- AUTHOR OF “MOODS;” “WORK, A STORY OF EXPERIENCE;”
- “LITTLE WOMEN,” ETC.
-
- [Illustration: QUI LEGIT REGIT.]
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- BOSTON
- ROBERTS BROTHERS
- 1889
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- _Copyright, 1877, 1889_
- BY ROBERTS BROTHERS
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- University Press
- JOHN WILSON AND SON, CAMBRIDGE
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- “_The Indescribable,
- Here it is done:
- The Woman-Soul leadeth us
- Upward and on!_”
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- Second Part of FAUST.
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-
- A MODERN MEPHISTOPHELES.
-
-
-
-
- I.
-
-
-Without, a midwinter twilight, where wandering snowflakes eddied in the
-bitter wind between a leaden sky and frost-bound earth.
-
-Within, a garret; gloomy, bare, and cold as the bleak night coming down.
-
- * * * * *
-
-A haggard youth knelt before a little furnace, kindling a fire, with an
-expression of quiet desperation on his face, which made the simple
-operation strange and solemn.
-
-A pile of manuscript lay beside him, and in the hollow eyes that watched
-the white leaves burn was a tragic shadow, terrible to see,—for he was
-offering the first-born of heart and brain as sacrifice to a hard fate.
-
-Slowly the charcoal caught and kindled, while a light smoke filled the
-room. Slowly the youth staggered up, and, gathering the torn sheets,
-thrust them into his bosom, muttering bitterly, “Of all my hopes and
-dreams, my weary work and patient waiting, nothing is left but this.
-Poor little book, we’ll go together, and leave no trace behind.”
-
-Throwing himself into a chair, he laid his head down upon the table,
-where no food had been for days, and, closing his eyes, waited in stern
-silence for death to come and take him.
-
-Nothing broke the stillness but the soft crackle of the fire, which
-began to flicker with blue tongues of flame, and cast a lurid glow upon
-the motionless figure with its hidden face. Deeper grew the wintry gloom
-without, ruddier shone the fateful gleam within, and heavy breaths began
-to heave the breast so tired of life.
-
-Suddenly a step sounded on the stair, a hand knocked at the door, and
-when no answer came, a voice cried, “Open!” in a commanding tone, which
-won instant obedience, and dispelled the deathful trance fast benumbing
-every sense.
-
-“The devil!” ejaculated the same imperious voice, as the door swung
-open, letting a cloud of noxious vapor rush out to greet the
-new-comer,—a man standing tall and dark against the outer gloom.
-
-“Who is it? Oh! come in!” gasped the youth, falling back faint and
-dizzy, as the fresh air smote him in the face.
-
-“I cannot, till you make it safe for me to enter. I beg pardon if I
-interrupt your suicide; I came to help you live, but if you prefer the
-other thing, say so, and I will take myself away again,” said the
-stranger, pausing on the threshold, as his quick eye took in the meaning
-of the scene before him.
-
-“For God’s sake, stay!” and, rushing to the window, the youth broke it
-with a blow, caught up the furnace, and set it out upon the snowy roof,
-where it hissed and glowed like an evil thing, while he dragged forth
-his one chair, and waited, trembling, for his unknown guest to enter.
-
-“For my own sake, rather: I want excitement; and this looks as if I
-might find it here,” muttered the man with a short laugh, as he watched
-the boy, calmly curious, till a gust of fresh air swept through the
-room, making him shiver with its sharp breath.
-
-“Jasper Helwyze, at your service,” he added aloud, stepping in, and
-accepting courteously the only hospitality his poor young host could
-offer.
-
-The dim light and shrouding cloak showed nothing but a pale, keen face,
-with dark penetrating eyes, and a thin hand, holding a paper on which
-the youth recognized the familiar words, “Felix Canaris.”
-
-“My name! You came to help me? What good angel sent you, sir?” he
-exclaimed, with a thrill of hope,—for in the voice, the eye, the hand
-that held the card with such tenacious touch, he saw and felt the
-influence of a stronger nature, and involuntarily believed in and clung
-to it.
-
-“Your bad angel, you might say, since it was the man who damned your
-book and refused the aid you asked of him,” returned the stranger, in a
-suave tone, which contrasted curiously with the vigor of his language.
-“A mere chance led me there to-day, and my eye fell upon a letter lying
-open before him. The peculiar hand attracted me, and Forsythe, being in
-the midst of your farewell denunciation, read it out, and told your
-story.”
-
-“And you were laughing at my misery while I was making ready to end it?”
-said the youth, with a scornful quiver of the sensitive lips that
-uttered the reproach.
-
-“We all laugh at such passionate folly when we have outlived it. You
-will, a year hence; so bear no malice, but tell me briefly if you can
-forget poetry, and be content with prose for a time. In plain words, can
-you work instead of dream?”
-
-“I can.”
-
-“Good! then come to me for a month. I have been long from home, and my
-library is neglected; I have much for you to do, and believe you are the
-person I want, if Forsythe tells the truth. He says your father was a
-Greek, your mother English, both dead, and you an accomplished,
-ambitious young man who thinks himself a genius, and will not forgive
-the world for doubting what he has failed to prove. Am I right?”
-
-“Quite right. Add also that I am friendless, penniless, and hopeless at
-nineteen.”
-
-A brief, pathetic story, more eloquently told by the starvation written
-on the pinched face, the squalor of the scanty garments, and the despair
-in the desperate eye, than by the words uttered with almost defiant
-bluntness.
-
-The stranger read the little tragedy at a glance, and found the chief
-actor to his taste; for despite his hard case he possessed beauty,
-youth, and the high aspirations that die hard,—three gifts often
-peculiarly attractive to those who have lost them all.
-
-“Wait a month, and you may find that you have earned friends, money, and
-the right to hope again. At nineteen, one should have courage to face
-the world, and master it.”
-
-“Show me how, and I _will_ have courage. A word of sympathy has already
-made it possible to live!” and, seizing the hand that offered help,
-Canaris kissed it with the impulsive grace and ardor of his father’s
-race.
-
-“When can you come to me?” briefly demanded Helwyze, gathering his cloak
-about him as he rose, warned by the waning light.
-
-“At once, to-night, if you will! I possess nothing in the world but the
-poor clothes that were to have been my shroud, and the relics of the
-book with which I kindled my last fire,” answered the youth, with eager
-eyes, and an involuntary shiver as the bitter wind blew in from the
-broken window.
-
-“Come, then, else a mightier master than I may claim you before dawn,
-for it will be an awful night. Put out your funeral pyre, Canaris, wrap
-your shroud well about you, gather up your relics, and follow me. I can
-at least give you a warmer welcome than I have received,” added Helwyze,
-with that sardonic laugh of his, as he left the room.
-
-Before he had groped his slow way down the long stairs the youth joined
-him, and side by side they went out into the night.
-
-A month later the same pair sat together in a room that was a dream of
-luxury. A noble library, secluded, warm, and still; the reposeful
-atmosphere that students love pervaded it; rare books lined its lofty
-walls: poets and philosophers looked down upon their work with immortal
-satisfaction on their marble countenances; and the two living occupants
-well became their sumptuous surroundings.
-
-Helwyze leaned in a great chair beside a table strewn with books which
-curiously betrayed the bent of a strong mind made morbid by physical
-suffering. Doré’s “Dante” spread its awful pages before him; the old
-Greek tragedies were scattered about, and Goethe’s “Faust” was in his
-hand. An unimpressive figure at first sight, this frail-looking man,
-whose age it would be hard to tell; for pain plays strange pranks, and
-sometimes preserves to manhood a youthful delicacy in return for the
-vigor it destroys. But at a second glance the eye was arrested and
-interest aroused, for an indefinable expression of power pervaded the
-whole face, beardless, thin-lipped, sharply cut, and colorless as ivory.
-A stray lock or two of dark hair streaked the high brow, and below shone
-the controlling feature of this singular countenance, a pair of eyes,
-intensely black, and so large they seemed to burden the thin face.
-Violet shadows encircled them, telling of sleepless nights, days of
-languor, and long years of suffering, borne with stern patience. But in
-the eyes themselves all the vitality of the man’s indomitable spirit
-seemed concentrated, intense and brilliant as a flame, which nothing
-could quench. By turns melancholy, meditative, piercing, or
-contemptuous, they varied in expression with startling rapidity, unless
-mastered by an art stronger than nature; attracting or repelling with a
-magnetism few wills could resist.
-
-Propping his great forehead on his hand, he read, motionless as a
-statue, till a restless movement made him glance up at his companion,
-and fall to studying him with a silent scrutiny which in another would
-have softened to admiration, for Canaris was scarcely less beautiful
-than the Narcissus in the niche behind him.
-
-An utter contrast to his patron, for youth lent its vigor to the
-well-knit frame, every limb of which was so perfectly proportioned that
-strength and grace were most harmoniously blended. Health glowed in the
-rich coloring of the classically moulded face, and lurked in the
-luxuriant locks which clustered in glossy rings from the low brow to the
-white throat. Happiness shone in the large dreamy eyes and smiled on the
-voluptuous lips; while an indescribable expression of fire and force
-pervaded the whole, redeeming its beauty from effeminacy.
-
-A gracious miracle had been wrought in that month, for the haggard youth
-was changed into a wonderfully attractive young man, whose natural ease
-and elegance fitted him to adorn that charming place, as well as to
-enjoy the luxury his pleasure-loving senses craved.
-
-The pen had fallen from his hand, and lying back in his chair with eyes
-fixed on vacancy, he seemed dreaming dreams born of the unexpected
-prosperity which grew more precious with each hour of its possession.
-
-“Youth surely _is_ the beauty of the devil, and that boy might have come
-straight from the witches’ kitchen and the magic draught,” thought
-Helwyze, as he closed his book, adding to himself with a daring
-expression, “Of all the visions haunting his ambitious brain not one is
-so wild and wayward as the fancy which haunts mine. Why not play fate,
-and finish what I have begun?”
-
-A pause fell, more momentous than either dreamed; then it was abruptly
-broken.
-
-“Felix, the time is up.”
-
-“It is, sir. Am I to go or stay?” and Canaris rose, looking
-half-bewildered as his brilliant castles in the air dissolved like mist
-before a sudden gust.
-
-“Stay, if you will; but it is a quiet life for such as you, and I am a
-dull companion. Could you bear it for a year?”
-
-“For twenty! Sir, you have been most kind and generous, and this month
-has seemed like heaven, after the bitter want you took me from. Let me
-show gratitude by faithful service, if I can,” exclaimed the young man,
-coming to stand before his master, as he chose to call his benefactor,
-for favors were no burden yet.
-
-“No thanks, I do it for my own pleasure. It is not every one who can
-have antique beauty in flesh and blood as well as marble; I have a fancy
-to keep my handsome secretary as the one ornament my library lacked
-before.”
-
-Canaris reddened like a girl, and gave a disdainful shrug; but vanity
-was tickled, nevertheless, and he betrayed it by the sidelong glance he
-stole towards the polished doors of glass reflecting his figure like a
-mirror.
-
-“Nay, never frown and blush, man; ‘beauty is its own excuse for being,’
-and you may thank the gods for yours, since but for that I should send
-you away to fight your dragons single-handed,” said Helwyze, with a
-covert smile, adding, as he leaned forward to read the face which could
-wear no mask for him, “Come, you shall give me a year of your liberty,
-and I will help you to prove Forsythe a liar.”
-
-“You will bring out my book?” cried Canaris, clasping his hands as a
-flash of joy irradiated every lineament.
-
-“Why not? and satisfy the hunger that torments you, though you try to
-hide it. I cannot promise success, but I _can_ promise a fair trial; and
-if you stand the test, fame and fortune will come together. Love and
-happiness you can seek for at your own good pleasure.”
-
-“You have divined my longing. I do hunger and thirst for fame; I dream
-of it by night, I sigh for it by day; every thought and aspiration
-centres in that desire; and if I did not still cling to that hope, even
-the perfect home you offer me would seem a prison. I _must_ have it; the
-success men covet and admire, suffer and strive for, and die content if
-they win it only for a little time. Give me this and I am yours, body
-and soul; I have nothing else to offer.”
-
-Canaris spoke with passionate energy, and flung out his hand as if he
-cast himself at the other’s feet, a thing of little worth compared to
-the tempting prize for which he lusted.
-
-Helwyze took the hand in a light, cold clasp, that tightened slowly as
-he answered with the look of one before whose will all obstacles go
-down,—
-
-“Done! Now show me the book, and let us see if we cannot win this time.”
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-
- II.
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-
-Nothing stirred about the vine-clad villa, except the curtains swaying
-in the balmy wind, that blew up from a garden where mid-summer warmth
-brooded over drowsy flowers and whispering trees. The lake below gleamed
-like a mirror garlanded about with water-lilies, opening their white
-bosoms to the sun. The balcony above burned with deep-hearted roses
-pouring out their passionate perfume, as if in rivalry of the purple
-heliotrope, which overflowed great urns on either side of the stone
-steps.
-
-Nothing broke the silence but the breezy rustle, the murmurous lapse of
-waters upon a quiet shore, and now and then the brief carol of a bird
-waking from its noontide sleep. A hammock swung at one end of the
-balcony, but it was empty; open doors showed the wide hall tenanted only
-by statues gleaming, cool and coy, in shadowy nooks; and the spirit of
-repose seemed to haunt the lovely spot.
-
-For an hour the sweet spell lasted; then it was broken by the faint,
-far-off warble of a woman’s voice, which seemed to wake the sleeping
-palace into life; for, as if drawn by the music, a young man came
-through the garden, looking as Ferdinand might, when Ariel led him to
-Miranda.
-
-Too beautiful for a man he was, and seemed to protest against it by a
-disdainful negligence of all the arts which could enhance the gracious
-gift. A picturesque carelessness marked his costume, the luxuriant curls
-that covered his head were in riotous confusion; and as he came into the
-light he stretched his limbs with the graceful abandon of a young
-wood-god rousing from his drowse in some green covert.
-
-Swinging a knot of lilies in his hand, he sauntered up the long path,
-listening with a smile, for as the voice drew nearer he recognized both
-song and singer.
-
-“Little Gladys must not see me, or she will end her music too soon,” he
-whispered to himself; and, stepping behind the great vase, he peered
-between the plumy sprays to watch the coming of the voice that made his
-verses doubly melodious to their creator’s ear.
-
-Through the shadowy hall there came a slender creature in a quaint white
-gown, who looked as if she might have stepped down from the marble
-Hebe’s pedestal; for there was something wonderfully virginal and fresh
-about the maidenly figure with its deep, soft eyes, pale hair, and
-features clearly cut as a fine cameo. Emerging from the gloom into a
-flood of sunshine, which touched her head with a glint of gold, and
-brought out in strong relief the crimson cover of the book, held
-half-closed against her breast, she came down the steps, still singing
-softly to herself.
-
-A butterfly was sunning its changeful wings on the carved balustrade,
-and she paused to watch it, quite unconscious of the picture she made,
-or the hidden observer who enjoyed it with the delight of one whose
-senses were keenly alive to all that ministers to pleasure. A childish
-act enough, but it contrasted curiously with the words she sung,—fervid
-words, that seemed to drop lingeringly from her lips as if in a new
-language; lovely, yet half learned.
-
-“Pretty thing! I wish I could sketch her as she stands, and use her as
-an illustration to that song. No nightingale ever had a sweeter voice
-for a love-lay than this charming girl,” thought the flattered listener,
-as, obeying a sudden impulse, he flung up the lilies, stepped out from
-his ambush, and half-said, half-sung, as he looked up with a glance of
-mirthful meaning,—
-
- “Like a high-born maiden
- In a palace tower,
- Soothing her love-laden
- Soul in secret hour,
- With music sweet as love which overflows her bower.”
-
-The flowers dropped at her feet, and, leaning forward with the supple
-grace of girlhood, she looked down to meet the dangerous dark eyes,
-while her own seemed to wake and deepen with a sudden light as beautiful
-as the color which dawned in her innocent face. Not the quick red of
-shame, nor the glow of vanity, but a slow, soft flush like the shadow of
-a rosy cloud on snow. No otherwise disconcerted, she smiled back at him,
-and answered with unexpected aptness, in lines that were a truer
-compliment than his had been,—
-
- “Like a poet hidden
- In the light of thought,
- Singing hymns unbidden,
- Till the world is wrought
- To sympathy with hopes and fears it heeded not.”
-
-It was this charm of swift and subtle sympathy which made the girl seem
-sometimes like the embodied spirit of all that was most high and pure in
-his own wayward but aspiring nature. And this the spell that drew him to
-her now, glad to sun himself like the butterfly in the light of eyes so
-clear and candid, that he could read therein the emotions of a maiden
-heart just opening to its first, half-conscious love.
-
-Springing up the steps, he said with the caressing air as native to him
-as his grace of manner. “Sit here and weave a pretty garland for your
-hair, while I thank you for making my poor verses beautiful. Where did
-you find the air that fits those words so well?”
-
-“It came itself; as the song did, I think,” she answered simply, as she
-obeyed him, and began to braid the long brown stems, shaping a chaplet
-fit for Undine.
-
-“Ah! you will never guess how that came!” he said, sitting at her feet
-to watch the small fingers at their pretty work. But though his eyes
-rested there, they grew absent; and he seemed to fall into a reverie not
-wholly pleasant, for he knit his brows as if the newly won laurel wreath
-sat uneasily upon a head which seemed made to wear it.
-
-Gladys watched him in reverential silence till he became conscious of
-her presence again, and gave her leave to speak, with a smile which had
-in it something of the condescension of an idol towards its devoutest
-worshipper.
-
-“Were you making poetry, then?” she asked, with the frank curiosity of a
-child.
-
-“No, I was wondering where I should be now if I had never made any;” and
-he looked at the summer paradise around him with an involuntary shiver,
-as if a chill wind had blown upon him.
-
-“Think rather what you will write next. It is so lovely I want more,
-although I do not understand all this,” touching the book upon her knee
-with a regretful sigh.
-
-“Neither do I; much of it is poor stuff, Gladys. Do not puzzle your
-sweet wits over it.”
-
-“That is because you are so modest. People say true genius is always
-humble.”
-
-“Then, I am not a true genius; for I am as proud as Lucifer.”
-
-“You may well be proud of such work as this;” and she carefully brushed
-a fallen petal from the silken cover.
-
-“But I am _not_ proud of that. At times I almost hate it!” exclaimed the
-capricious poet, impetuously, then checked himself, and added more
-composedly, “I mean to do so much better, that this first attempt shall
-be forgotten.”
-
-“I think you will never do better; for this came from your heart,
-without a thought of what the world would say. Hereafter all you write
-may be more perfect in form but less true in spirit, because you will
-have the fear of the world, and loss of fame before your eyes.”
-
-“How can you know that?” he asked, wondering that this young girl, so
-lately met, should read him so well, and touch a secret doubt that kept
-him idle after the first essay, which had been a most flattering
-success.
-
-“Nay, I do not know, I only feel as if it must be so. I always sing best
-when alone, and the thought of doing it for praise or money spoils the
-music to my ear.”
-
-“I feel as if it would be possible to do _any thing_ here, and forget
-that there is a world outside.”
-
-“Then it is not dull to you? I am glad, for I thought it would be,
-because so many people want you, and you might choose many gayer places
-in which to spend your summer holiday.”
-
-“I have no choice in this; yet I was willing enough to come. The first
-time is always pleasant, and I am tired of the gayer places,” he said,
-with a _blasé_ air that ill concealed how sweet the taste of praise had
-been to one who hungered for it.
-
-“Yet it must seem very beautiful to be so sought, admired, and loved,”
-the girl said wistfully, for few of fortune’s favors had fallen into her
-lap as yet.
-
-“It is, and I was intoxicated with the wine of success for a time. But
-after all, I find a bitter drop in it, for there is always a higher step
-to take, a brighter prize to win, and one is never satisfied.”
-
-He paused an instant with the craving yet despondent look poets and
-painters wear as they labor for perfection in “a divine despair;” then
-added, in a tone of kindly satisfaction which rung true on the sensitive
-ear that listened,—
-
-“But all that nonsense pleases Helwyze, and he has so few delights, I
-would not rob him of one even so small as this, for I owe every thing to
-him, you know.”
-
-“I do not know. May I?”
-
-“You may; for I want you to like my friend, and now I think you only
-fear him.”
-
-“Mr. Canaris, I do not dislike your friend. He has been most kind to me,
-I am grieved if I seem ungrateful,” murmured Gladys, with a vague
-trouble in her artless face, for she had no power to explain the
-instinctive recoil which had unconsciously betrayed itself.
-
-“Hear what he did for me, and then it may be easier to show as well as
-to feel gratitude; since but for him you would have had none of these
-foolish rhymes to sing.”
-
-With a look askance, a quick gesture, and a curious laugh, Canaris
-tossed the book into the urn below, and the heliotrope gave a fragrant
-sigh as it closed above the treasure given to its keeping. Gladys
-uttered a little cry, but her companion took no heed, for clasping his
-hands about his knee he looked off into the bloomy wilderness below as
-if he saw a younger self there, and spoke of him with a pitiful sort of
-interest.
-
-“Three years ago an ambitious boy came to seek his fortune in the great
-city yonder. He possessed nothing but sundry accomplishments, and a
-handful of verses which he tried to sell. Failing in this hope after
-various trials, he grew desperate, and thought to end his life like poor
-Chatterton. No, not like Chatterton,—for this boy was not an impostor.”
-
-“Had he no friend anywhere?” asked Gladys,—her work neglected while she
-listened with intensest interest to the tale so tragically begun.
-
-“He thought not, but chance sent him one at the last hour, and when he
-called on death, Helwyze came. It always seemed to me as if,
-unwittingly, I conjured from the fire kindled to destroy myself a genie
-who had power to change me from the miserable wretch I was, into the
-happy man I am. For more than a year I have been with him,—first as
-secretary, then _protégé_, now friend, almost son; for he asks nothing
-of me except such services as I love to render, and gives me every aid
-towards winning my way. Is not that magnificent generosity? Can I help
-regarding him with superstitious gratitude? Am I not rightly named
-Felix?”
-
-“Yes, oh yes! Tell me more, please. I have led such a lonely life, that
-human beings are like wonder-books to me, and I am never tired of
-reading them.” Gladys looked with a rapt expression into the face
-upturned to hers, little dreaming how dangerous such lore might be to
-her.
-
-“Then you should read Helwyze; he is a romance that will both charm and
-make your heart ache, if you dare to try him.”
-
-“I dare, if I may, because I would so gladly lose my fear of him in the
-gentler feeling that grows in me as I listen.”
-
-Canaris was irresistibly led on to confidences he had no right to make,
-it was so pleasant to feel that he had the power to move the girl by his
-words, as the wind sways a leaf upon its delicate stem. A half-fledged
-purpose lurked in a dark corner of his mind, and even while denying its
-existence to himself, he yielded to its influence, careless of
-consequences.
-
-“Then I will go on and let compassion finish what I have begun. Till
-thirty, Helwyze led a wonderfully free, rich life, I infer from hints
-dropped in unguarded moments,—for confidential moods are rare. Every
-good gift was his, and nothing to alloy his happiness, unless it was the
-restless nature which kept him wandering like an Arab long after most
-men have found some ambition to absorb, or some tie to restrain, them.
-From what I have gathered, I know that a great passion was beginning to
-tame his unquiet spirit, when a great misfortune came to afflict it, and
-in an hour changed a life of entire freedom to one of the bitterest
-bondage such a man can know.”
-
-“Oh, what?” cried Gladys, as he artfully paused just there to see her
-bend nearer, and her lips part with the tremor of suspense.
-
-“A terrible fall; and for ten years he has never known a day’s rest from
-pain of some sort, and never will, till death releases him ten years
-hence, perhaps, if his indomitable will keeps him alive so long.”
-
-“Alas, alas! is there no cure?” sighed Gladys, as the violet eyes grew
-dim for very pity of so hard a fate.
-
-“None.”
-
-A brief silence followed while the shadow of a great white cloud drifted
-across the sky, blotting out the sunshine for a moment.
-
-All the flowers strayed down upon the steps and lay there forgotten, as
-the hands that held them were clasped together on the girl’s breast, as
-if the mere knowledge of a lot like this lay heavy at her heart.
-
-Satisfied with his effect, the story-teller was tempted to add another
-stroke, and went on with the fluency of one who saw all things
-dramatically, and could not help coloring them in his own vivid fancy.
-
-“That seems very terrible to you, but in truth the physical affliction
-was not so great as the loss that tried his soul; for he loved ardently,
-and had just won his suit, when the misfortune came which tied him to a
-bed of torment for some years. A fall from heaven to hell could hardly
-have seemed worse than to be precipitated from the heights of such a
-happiness to the depths of such a double woe; for she, the beautiful,
-beloved woman proved disloyal, and left him lying there, like
-Prometheus, with the vulture of remembered bliss to rend his heart.”
-
-“Could he not forget her?” and Gladys trembled with indignation at the
-perfidy which seemed impossible to a nature born for self-sacrifice.
-
-“He never will forget or forgive, although the man she married well
-avenged him while he lived, and bequeathed her a memory which all his
-gold could not gild. _Her_ fate is the harder now; for the old love has
-revived, and Helwyze is dearer than in his days of unmarred strength. He
-knows it, but will not accept the tardy atonement; for contempt has
-killed _his_ love, and with him there is no resurrection of the dead. A
-very patient and remorseful love is hers: for she has been humiliated in
-spirit, as he can never be, by the bodily ills above which he has risen
-so heroically that his courage has subdued the haughtiest woman I ever
-met.”
-
-“You know her, then?” and Gladys bent to look into his face, with her
-own shadowed by an intuition of the truth.
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“I am afraid to listen any more. It is terrible to know that such
-bitterness and grief lie hidden in the hearts about me. Why did you tell
-me this?” she demanded, shrinking from him, as if some prophetic fear
-had stepped between them.
-
-“Why did I? Because I wished to make you pity my friend, and help me put
-a little brightness into his hard life. You can do it if you will, for
-you soothe and please him, and few possess the power to give him any
-comfort. He makes no complaint, asks no pity, and insists on ignoring
-the pain which preys upon him, till it grows too great to be concealed;
-then shuts himself up alone, to endure it like a Spartan. Forgive me if
-in my eagerness I have said too much, and forget whatever troubled you.”
-
-Canaris spoke with genuine regret, and hoped to banish the cloud from a
-face which had been as placid as the lake below, till he disturbed it by
-reflections that affrighted her.
-
-“It is easy to forgive, but not to forget, words which cannot be unsaid.
-I was so happy here; and now it is all spoilt. She was a new-made
-friend, and very kind to me when I was desolate. I shall seem a
-thankless beggar if I go away before I have paid my debt as best I can.
-How shall I tell her that I must?”
-
-“Of whom do you speak? I gave no name. I thought you would not guess.
-Why must you go, Gladys?” asked the young man, surprised to see how
-quickly she felt the chill of doubt, and tried to escape obligation,
-when neither love nor respect brightened it.
-
-“I need give no name, because you know. It is as well, perhaps, that I
-have guessed it. I ought not to have been so content, since I am here
-through charity. I must take up my life and try to shape it for myself;
-but the world seems very large now I am all alone.”
-
-She spoke half to herself, and looked beyond the safe, secluded garden,
-to the gray mountains whose rough paths her feet had trod before they
-were led here to rest.
-
-Quick to be swayed by the varying impulses which ruled him with
-capricious force, Canaris was now full of pity for the trouble he had
-wrought, and when she rose, like a bird startled from its nest, he rose
-also, and, taking the hand put out as if involuntarily asking help, he
-said with regretful gentleness,—
-
-“Do not be afraid, we will befriend you. Helwyze shall counsel and I
-will comfort, if we can. I should not have told that dismal story; I
-will atone for it by a new song, and you shall grow happy in singing
-it.”
-
-She hesitated, withdrew her hand, and looked askance at him, as if one
-doubt bred others. An approaching footstep made her start, and stand a
-moment with head erect, eye fixed, and ear intent, like a listening
-deer, then whispering, “It is she; hide me till I learn to look as if I
-did not know!”—Gladys sprung down the steps, and vanished like a wraith,
-leaving no token of her presence but the lilies in the dust, for the
-young man followed fleetly.
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-
- III.
-
-
-A woman came into the balcony with a swift step, and paused there, as if
-disappointed to find it deserted. A woman in the midsummer of her life,
-brilliant, strong, and stately; clad in something dusky and diaphanous,
-unrelieved by any color, except the pale gold of the laburnum clusters,
-that drooped from deep bosom and darkest hair. Pride sat on the
-forehead, with its straight black brows, passion slept in the Southern
-eyes, lustrous or languid by turns, and will curved the closely folded
-lips of vivid red.
-
-But over all this beauty, energy, and grace an indescribable blight
-seemed to have fallen, deeper than the loss of youth’s first freshness,
-darker than the trace of any common sorrow. Something felt, rather than
-seen, which gave her the air of a dethroned queen; conquered, but
-protesting fiercely, even while forced to submit to some inexorable
-decree, whose bitterest pang was the knowledge that the wrong was
-self-inflicted.
-
-As she stood there, looking down the green vista, two figures crossed
-it. A smile curved the sad mouth, and she said aloud, “Faust and
-Margaret, playing the old, old game.”
-
-“And Mephistopheles and Martha looking on,” added a melodious voice,
-behind her, as Helwyze swept back the half-transparent curtain from the
-long window where he sat.
-
-“The part you give me is not a flattering one,” she answered, veiling
-mingled pique and pleasure with well-feigned indifference.
-
-“Nor mine; yet I think they suit us both, in a measure. Do you know,
-Olivia, that the accidental reading of my favorite tragedy, at a certain
-moment, gave me a hint which has afforded amusement for a year.”
-
-“You mean your fancy for playing Mentor to that boy. A dangerous task
-for you, Jasper.”
-
-“The danger is the charm. I crave excitement, occupation; and what but
-something of this sort is left me? Much saving grace in charity, we are
-told; and who needs it more than I? Surely I have been kinder to Felix
-than the Providence which left him to die of destitution and despair?”
-
-“Perhaps not. The love of power is strong in men like you, and grows by
-what it feeds on. If I am not mistaken, this whim of a moment has
-already hardened into a purpose which will mould his life in spite of
-him. It is an occupation that suits your taste, for you enjoy his beauty
-and his promise; you like to praise and pamper him till vanity and love
-of pleasure wax strong, then you check him with an equal satisfaction,
-and find excitement in curbing his high spirit, his wayward will. By
-what tie you hold him I cannot tell; but I know it must be something
-stronger than gratitude, for, though he chafes against the bond, he
-_dares_ not break it.”
-
-“Ah, that is my secret! What would you not give if I would teach you the
-art of taming men as I once taught you to train a restive horse?”—and
-Helwyze looked out at her with eyes full of malicious merriment.
-
-“You have taught me the art of taming a woman; is not that enough?”
-murmured Olivia, in a tone that would have touched any man’s heart with
-pity, if with no tenderer emotion.
-
-But Helwyze seemed not to hear the reproach, and went on, as if the
-other topic suited his mood best.
-
-“I call Canaris my Greek slave, sometimes, and he never knows whether to
-feel flattered or insulted. His father was a Greek adventurer, you know
-(ended tragically, I suspect), and but for the English mother’s legacy
-of a trifle of moral sense, Felix would be as satisfactory a young
-heathen as if brought straight from ancient Athens. It was this peculiar
-mixture of unscrupulous daring and fitful virtue which attracted me, as
-much as his unusual beauty and undoubted talent. Money can buy almost
-any thing, you know; so I bought my handsome Alcibiades, and an
-excellent bargain I find him.”
-
-“But when you tire of him, what then? You cannot sell him again, nor
-throw him away, like a book you weary of. Neither can you leave him
-neglected in the lumber-room, with distasteful statues or bad pictures.
-Affection, if you have it, will not outlast your admiration, and I have
-much curiosity to know what will become of your ‘handsome Alcibiades’
-then.”
-
-“Then, my cousin, I will give him to you, for I have fancied of late
-that you rather coveted him. You could not manage him now,—the savage in
-him is not quite civilized yet,—but wait a little, and I will make a
-charming plaything for you. I know you will treat him kindly, since it
-is truly said, Those who have served, best know how to rule.”
-
-The sneer stung her deeply, for there was no humiliation this proud
-woman had not suffered at the hands of a brutal and unfaithful husband.
-Pity was as bitter a draught to her as to the man who thus cruelly
-reminded her of the long bondage which had left an ineffaceable blight
-upon her life. The wound bled inwardly, but she retaliated, as only such
-a woman could.
-
-“Love is the one master who can rule and bind without danger or
-disgrace. I shall remember that, and when you give me Felix he will find
-me a gentler mistress than I was ten years ago—to you.”
-
-The last words dropped from her lips as softly as if full of tender
-reminiscence, but they pricked pride, since they could not touch a
-relentless heart. Helwyze betrayed it by the sombre fire of his eye, the
-tone in which he answered.
-
-“And I will ask of you the only gift I care to accept,—your new
-_protégée_, Gladys. Tell me where you found her; the child interests me
-much.”
-
-“I know it;” and, stifling a pang of jealous pain, Olivia obeyed with
-the docility of one in whom will was conquered by a stronger power.
-
-“A freak took me to the hills in March. My winter had been a vain chase
-after happiness, and I wanted solitude. I found it where chance led
-me,—in this girl’s home. A poor, bleak place enough; but it suited me,
-for there were only the father and daughter, and they left me to myself.
-The man died suddenly, and no one mourned, for he was a selfish tyrant.
-The girl was left quite alone, and nearly penniless, but so happy in her
-freedom that she had no fears. I liked the courage of the creature; I
-knew how she felt; I saw great capacity for something fine in her. I
-said, ‘Come with me for a little, and time will show you the next step.’
-She came; time has shown her, and the next step will take her from my
-house to yours, unless I much mistake your purpose.”
-
-Leaning in the low, lounging chair, Helwyze had listened motionless,
-except that the fingers of one thin hand moved fitfully, as if he played
-upon some instrument inaudible to all ears but his own. A frequent
-gesture of his, and most significant, to any one who knew that his
-favorite pastime was touching human heart-strings with marvellous
-success in producing discords by his uncanny skill.
-
-As Olivia paused, he asked in a voice as suave as cold,—
-
-“My purpose? Have I any?”
-
-“You say she interests you, and you watch her in a way that proves it.
-Have you not already resolved to win her for your amusement, by some
-bribe as cunning as that you gave Canaris for his liberty?”
-
-“I have. You are a shrewd woman, Olivia.”
-
-“Yet she is not beautiful;” and her eye vainly searched the inscrutable
-countenance, that showed so passionless and pale against the purple
-cushion where it leaned.
-
-“Pardon me, the loveliest woman I have seen for years. A beautiful,
-fresh soul is most attractive when one is weary of more material charms.
-This girl seems made of spirit, fire, and dew; a mixture rare as it is
-exquisite, and the spell is all the greater because of its fine and
-elusive quality. I promise myself much satisfaction in observing how
-this young creature meets the trials and temptations life and love will
-bring her; and to do this she must be near at hand.”
-
-“Happy Gladys!”
-
-Olivia smiled a scornful smile, but folded her arms to curb the
-rebellious swelling of her heart at the thought of another woman nearer
-than herself. She turned away as she spoke; but Helwyze saw the quiver
-of her lips, and read the meaning of the piercing glance she shot into
-the garden, as if to find and annihilate that unconscious rival.
-
-Content for the moment with the touch of daily torture which was the
-atonement exacted for past disloyalty, he lifted the poor soul from
-despair to delight by the utterance of three words, accompanied by a
-laugh as mirthless as musical,—
-
-“Happy Felix, rather.”
-
-“Is _he_ to marry her?” and Olivia fronted him, glowing with a sudden
-joy which made her lovely as well as brilliant.
-
-“Who else?”
-
-“Yourself.”
-
-“I!” and the word was full of a bitterness which thrilled every nerve
-the woman had, for an irrepressible regret wrung it from lips sternly
-shut on all complaint, except to her.
-
-“Why not?” she cried, daring to answer with impetuous warmth and candor.
-“What woman would not be glad to serve you for the sake of the luxury
-with which you would surround her, if not for the love you might win and
-give, if you chose?”
-
-“Bah! what have I to do with love? Thank Heaven my passions are all
-dead, else life would be a hell, not the purgatory it is,” he said,
-glancing at his wasted limbs, with an expression which would have been
-pathetic, had it not been defiant; for that long discipline of pain had
-failed to conquer the spirit of the man, and it seemed to sit aloof,
-viewing with a curious mixture of compassion and contempt the slow ruin
-of the body which imprisoned it.
-
-With an impulse womanly as winning, Olivia plucked a wine-dark rose from
-the trellis nearest her, and, bending towards him, laid it in his hand,
-with a look and gesture of one glad to give all she possessed, if that
-were possible.
-
-“Your love of beauty still survives, and is a solace to you. Let me
-minister to it when I can; and be assured I offer my little friend as
-freely as I do my choicest rose.”
-
-“Thanks; the flower for me, the friend for Felix. Young as he is, he
-knows how to woo, and she will listen to his love-tale as willingly as
-she did to the highly colored romance he was telling her just now. You
-would soon find her a burden, Olivia, and so should I, unless she came
-in this way. We need do nothing but leave the young pair to summer and
-seclusion; they will make the match better and more quickly than we
-could. Then a month for the honeymoon business, and all can be
-comfortably settled before October frosts set in.”
-
-“You often say, where women are is discord; yet you are planning to
-bring one into your house in the most dangerous way. Have you no fears,
-Jasper?”
-
-“Not of Gladys; she is so young, I can mould her as I please, and that
-suits me. She will become my house well, this tender, transparent little
-creature, with her tranquil eyes, and the sincere voice which makes
-truth sweeter than falsehood. You must come and see her there; but never
-try to alter her, or the charm will be destroyed.”
-
-“You may be satisfied: but how will it be with Felix? Hitherto your sway
-has been undivided, now you must share it; for with all her gentleness
-she is strong, and will rule him.”
-
-“And I, Gladys. Felix suits me excellently, and it will only add another
-charm to the relation if I control him through the medium of another. My
-young lion is discovering his power rapidly, and I must give him a Una
-before he breaks loose and chooses for himself. If matters must be
-complicated, I choose to do it, and it will occupy my winter pleasantly
-to watch the success of this new combination.”
-
-While he talked, Helwyze had been absently stripping leaf after leaf
-from the great rose, till nothing but the golden heart remained
-trembling on the thorny stem.
-
-Olivia had watched the velvet petals fall one by one, feeling a sad
-sympathy with the ill-used gift; yet, as the last leaf fluttered to the
-ground, she involuntarily lifted up her hand to break another, glad if
-even in the destruction of so frail a thing he could find a moment’s
-pleasure.
-
-“No, let them hang; their rich color pleases best among the green; their
-cloying perfume is too heavy for the house. A snowdrop, leaning from its
-dainty sheath undaunted by March winds, is more to my taste now,” he
-said, dropping the relics of the rose, with the slow smile which often
-lent such significance to a careless word.
-
-“I cannot give you that: spring flowers are all gone long ago,” began
-Olivia, regretfully.
-
-“Nay, you give me one in Gladys; no spring flower could be more delicate
-than she, gathered by your own hand from the bleak nook where you found
-her. It is the faint, vernal fragrance of natures, coyly hidden from
-common eye and touch, which satisfies and soothes senses refined by
-suffering.”
-
-“Yet you will destroy it, like the rose, in finding out the secret of
-its life. I wondered why this pale, cold innocence was so attractive to
-a man like you. There was a time when you would have laughed at such a
-fancy, and craved something with more warmth and brilliancy.”
-
-“I am wiser now, and live here, not here,” he answered, touching first
-his forehead then his breast, with melancholy meaning. “While my brain
-is spared me I can survive the ossification of all the heart I ever had,
-since, at best, it is an unruly member. Almost as inconvenient as a
-conscience; that, thank fortune, I never had. Yes; to study the
-mysterious mechanism of human nature is a most absorbing pastime, when
-books weary, and other sources of enjoyment are forbidden. Try it, and
-see what an exciting game it becomes, when men and women are the pawns
-you learn to move at will. Goethe’s boyish puppet-show was but a symbol
-of the skill and power which made the man the magician he became.”
-
-“An impious pastime, a dearly purchased fame, built on the broken hearts
-of women!” exclaimed Olivia, walking to and fro with the noiseless step
-and restless grace of a leopardess pacing its cage.
-
-Helwyze neither seemed to see nor hear her, for his gloomy eyes stared
-at a little bird tilting on a spray that swung in the freshening wind,
-and his thoughts followed their own path.
-
-“‘Pale, cold innocence.’ It _is_ curious that it should charm me. A good
-sign, perhaps; for poets tell us that fallen angels sigh for the heaven
-they have lost, and try to rise again on the wings of spirits stronger
-and purer than themselves. Would they not find virtue insipid after a
-fiery draught of sin? Did not Paradise seem a little dull to Dante, in
-spite of Beatrice? I wish I knew.”
-
-“Is it for this that you want the girl’s help?” asked Olivia, pausing in
-her march to look at him. “I shall wait with interest to see if she
-lifts you up to sainthood, or you drag her down to your level, where
-intellect is God, conscience ignored, and love despised. Unhappy Gladys!
-I should have said, because I cannot keep her from you, if I would; and
-in your hands she will be as helpless as the dumb creatures surgeons
-torture, that they may watch a living nerve, count the throbbing of an
-artery, or see how long the poor things will live bereft of some vital
-part. Let the child alone, Jasper, or you will repent of it.”
-
-“Upon my word, Olivia, you are in an ominously prophetic mood. I hear a
-carriage; and, as I am invisible to all eyes but your gifted ones,
-pardon me if I unceremoniously leave the priestess on her tripod.”
-
-And the curtain dropped between them as suddenly as it had been lifted,
-depriving the woman of the one troubled joy of her life,—companionship
-with him.
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-
- IV.
-
-
-“Felix, are you asleep?”
-
-“No, sir, only resting.”
-
-“Have you been at work?”
-
-“Decidedly; I rowed across the lake and back.”
-
-“Alone?”
-
-“Gladys went with me, singing like a mermaid all the way.”
-
-“Ah!”
-
-Both men were lounging in the twilight; but there was a striking
-difference in their way Of doing it. Canaris lay motionless on a couch,
-his head pillowed on his arms, enjoying the luxury of repose, with the
-_dolce far niente_ only possible to those in whose veins runs Southern
-blood. Helwyze leaned in a great chair, which looked a miracle of
-comfort; but its occupant stirred restlessly, as if he found no ease
-among its swelling cushions; and there was an alert expression in his
-face, betraying that the brain was at work on some thought or purpose
-which both absorbed and excited.
-
-A pause followed the brief dialogue, during which Canaris seemed to
-relapse into his delicious drowse, while Helwyze sat looking at him with
-the critical regard one bestows on a fine work of art. Yet something in
-the spectacle of rest he could not share seemed to annoy him; for,
-suddenly turning up the shaded lamp upon his table, he dispelled the
-soft gloom, and broke the silence.
-
-“I have a request to make. May I trouble you to listen?”
-
-There was a tone of command in the courteously worded speech, which made
-Canaris sit erect, with a respectful—
-
-“At your service, sir.”
-
-“I wish you to marry,” continued Helwyze, with such startling abruptness
-that the young man gazed at him in mute amazement for a moment. Then,
-veiling his surprise by a laugh, he asked lightly,—
-
-“Isn’t it rather soon for that, sir? I am hardly of age.”
-
-“Geniuses are privileged; and I am not aware of any obstacle, if _I_ am
-satisfied,” answered Helwyze, with an imperious gesture, which seemed to
-put aside all objections.
-
-“Do you seriously mean it, sir?”
-
-“I do.”
-
-“But why such haste?”
-
-“Because it is my pleasure.”
-
-“I will not give up my liberty so soon,” cried the young man, with a
-mutinous flash of the eye.
-
-“I thought you had already given it up. If you choose to annul the
-agreement, do it, and go. You know the forfeit.”
-
-“I forgot this possibility. Did I agree to obey in all things?”
-
-“It was so set down in the bond. Entire obedience in return for the
-success you coveted. Have I failed in my part of the bargain?”
-
-“No, sir; no.”
-
-“Then do yours, or let us cancel the bond, and part.”
-
-“How can we? What can I do without you? Is there no way but this?”
-
-“None.”
-
-Canaris looked dismayed,—and well he might, for it seemed impossible to
-put away the cup he had thirsted for, when its first intoxicating
-draught was at his lips.
-
-Helwyze had spoken with peculiar emphasis, and his words were full of
-ominous suggestion to the listener’s ear; for he alone knew how much
-rebellion would cost him, since luxury and fame were still dearer than
-liberty or honor. He sprung up, and paced the room, feeling like some
-wild creature caught in a snare.
-
-Helwyze, regardless of his chafing, went on calmly, as if to a willing
-hearer, eying him vigilantly the while, though now his own manner was as
-persuasive as it had been imperative before.
-
-“I ask no more than many parents do, and will give you my reasons for
-the demand, though that was not among the stipulations.”
-
-“A starving man does not stop to weigh words, or haggle about promises.
-I was desperate, and you offered me salvation; can you wonder that I
-clutched the only hand held out to me?” demanded Canaris, with a world
-of conflicting emotions in his expressive face, as he paused before his
-master.
-
-“I am not speaking of the first agreement, that was brief as simple. The
-second bargain was a more complicated matter. You were not desperate
-then; you freely entered into it, reaped the benefits of it, and now
-wish to escape the consequences of your own act. Is that fair?”
-
-“How could I dream that you would exact such obedience as this? I am too
-young; it is a step that may change my whole life; I must have time,”
-murmured Canaris, while a sudden change passed over his whole face, his
-eye fell before the glance bent on him, as the other spoke.
-
-“It need not change your life, except to make it freer, perhaps happier.
-Hitherto you have had all the pleasure, now I desire my share. You often
-speak of gratitude; prove it by granting my request, and, in adding a
-new solace to my existence, you will find you have likewise added a new
-charm to your own.”
-
-“It is so sudden,—I do desire to show my gratitude,—I have tried to do
-my part faithfully so far,” began Canaris, as if a look, a word, had
-tamed his high spirit, and enforced docility sorely against his will.
-
-“So far, I grant that, and I thank you for the service which I desire to
-lessen by the step you decline to take. I have spoilt you for use, but
-not for ornament. I still like to see you flourish; I enjoy your
-success; I cannot free you; but I _can_ give you a mate, who will take
-your place and amuse me at home, while you sing and soar abroad. Is that
-sufficiently poetical for a poet’s comprehension?” and Helwyze smiled,
-that satiric smile of his, still watching the young man’s agitated
-countenance.
-
-“But why need _I_ marry? Why cannot”—there Canaris hesitated, for he
-lacked the courage to make the very natural suggestion Olivia had done.
-
-Helwyze divined the question on his lips, and answered it with stern
-brevity.
-
-“That is impossible;” then added, with the sudden softening of tone
-which made his voice irresistibly seductive, “I have given one reason
-for my whim: there are others, which affect you more nearly and
-pleasantly, perhaps. Little more than a year ago, your first book came
-out, making you famous for a time. You have enjoyed your laurels for a
-twelvemonth, and begin to sigh for more. The world has petted you, as it
-does any novelty, and expects to be paid for its petting, else it will
-soon forget you.”
-
-“No fear of that!” exclaimed the other, with the artless arrogance of
-youth.
-
-“If I thought you would survive the experiment, I would leave you to
-discover what a fickle mistress you serve. But frost would soon blight
-your budding talent, so we will keep on the world’s sunny side, and
-tempt the Muse, not terrify her.”
-
-Nothing could be smoother than the voice in which these words were said;
-but a keen ear would have detected an accent of delicate irony in it,
-and a quick eye have seen that Canaris winced, as if a sore spot had
-been touched.
-
-“I should think marriage would do that last, most effectually,” he
-answered, with a scornful shrug, and an air of great distaste.
-
-“Not always: some geniuses are the better for such bondage. I fancy you
-are one of them, and wish to try the experiment. If it fails, you can
-play Byron, to your heart’s content.”
-
-“A costly experiment for some one.” Canaris paused in his impatient
-march, to look down with a glance of pity at the dead lily still knotted
-in his button-hole.
-
-Helwyze laughed at the touch of sentiment,—a low, quiet laugh; but it
-made the young man flush, and hastily fling away the faded flower, whose
-pure loveliness had been a joy to him an hour ago. With a half docile,
-half defiant look, he asked coldly,—
-
-“What next, sir?”
-
-“Only this: you have done well. Now, you must do better, and let the
-second book be free from the chief fault which critics found,—that,
-though the poet wrote of love, it was evident he had never felt it.”
-
-“Who shall say that?” with sudden warmth.
-
-“I, for one. You know nothing of love, though you may flatter yourself
-you do. So far, it has been pretty play enough, but I will not have you
-waste yourself, or your time. You need inspiration, this will give it
-you. At your age, it is easy to love the first sweet woman brought near
-you, and almost impossible for any such to resist your wooing. An early
-marriage will not only give heart and brain a fillip, but add the new
-touch of romance needed to keep up the world’s interest in the rising
-star, whose mysterious advent piques curiosity as strongly as his work
-excites wonder and delight.”
-
-Composure and content had been gradually creeping back into the
-listener’s mien, as a skilful hand touched the various chords that
-vibrated most tunefully in a young, imaginative, ardent nature. Vivid
-fancy painted the “sweet woman” in a breath, quick wit saw at once the
-worldly wisdom of the advice, and ambition found no obstacle impassable.
-
-“You are right, sir, I submit; but I claim the privilege of choosing my
-inspirer,” he said, warily.
-
-“You have already chosen, if I am not much mistaken. A short wooing, but
-a sure one; for little Gladys has no coquetry, and will not keep you
-waiting for her answer.”
-
-“Gladys is a child,” began Canaris, still hesitating to avow the truth.
-
-“The fitter mate for you.”
-
-“But, sir, you are mistaken: I do not love her.”
-
-“Then, why teach her to love you?”
-
-“I have not: I was only kind. Surely I cannot be expected to marry every
-young girl who blushes when I look at her,” he said, with sullen
-petulance, for women had spoilt the handsome youth, and he was as
-ungrateful as such idols usually are.
-
-“Then, who?—ah! I perceive; I had forgotten that a boy’s first
-_tendresse_ is too often for a woman twice his age. May I trouble you?”
-and Helwyze held up the empty glass with which he had been toying while
-he talked.
-
-Among the strew of books upon the table at his elbow stood an antique
-silver flagon, coolly frosted over by the iced wine it held. This
-Canaris obediently lifted; and, as he stooped to fill the rosy bowl of
-the Venetian goblet, Helwyze leaned forward, till the two faces were so
-close that eye looked into eye, as he said, in one swift sentence, “It
-was to win Olivia for _yourself_, then, that you wooed Gladys for _me_,
-three hours ago?”
-
-The flagon was not heavy, but it shook in the young man’s grasp, and the
-wine overflowed the delicate glass, dyeing red the hand that held it.
-One face glowed with shame and anger; the other remained unmoved, except
-a baffling smile upon the lips, that added, in mild reproach,—
-
-“My Ganymede has lost his skill; it is time I filled his place with a
-neat-handed Hebe. Make haste, and bring her to me soon.”
-
-Mutely Canaris removed all traces of the treacherous mishap, inwardly
-cursing his imprudent confidences, wondering what malignant chance
-brought within ear-shot one who rarely left his own apartments at the
-other end of the villa; and conscious of an almost superstitious fear of
-this man, who read so surely, and dragged to light so ruthlessly, hidden
-hopes and half-formed designs.
-
-Vouchsafing no enlightenment, Helwyze sipped the cool draught with an
-air of satisfaction, continuing the conversation in a tone of
-exasperating calmness.
-
-“Among other amusing fables with which you beguiled poor Gladys, I think
-you promised counsel and comfort. Keep your word, and marry her. It is
-the least you can do, after destroying her faith in the one friend she
-possessed. A pleasant, but a dangerous pastime, and not in the best
-taste; let me advise you to beware of it in future.”
-
-There was a covert menace in the tone, a warning in the significant grip
-of the pale fingers round the glass, as if about to snap its slender
-stem. Canaris was white now with impotent wrath, and a thrill went
-through his vigorous young frame, as if the wild creature was about to
-break loose, and defy its captor.
-
-But the powerful eye was on him, with a spark of fire in its depths, and
-controlled till words, both sweet and bitter, soothed and won him.
-
-“I know that any breath of tenderness would pass by Olivia as idly as
-the wind. You doubt this, and a word will prove it. I am not a tyrant,
-though I seem such; therefore you are free to try your fate before you
-gratify my whim and make Gladys happy.”
-
-“You think the answer will be ‘No?’” and Canaris forgot every thing but
-the hope which tempted, even while reason told him it was vain.
-
-“It always has been; it always will be, if I know her.”
-
-“Will be till _you_ ask.”
-
-“Rest easy; I am done with love.”
-
-“But if she answers ‘Yes’?”
-
-“Then bid good-bye to peace,—and me.”
-
-The answer startled the young lover, and made him shrink from what he
-ardently desired; for the new passion was but an enthralment of the
-senses, and he knew it by the fine instinct which permits such men to
-see and condemn their lower nature, even while yielding to its sway.
-
-But pride silenced doubt, and native courage made it impossible to shun
-the trial or accept the warning. His eye lit, his head rose, and he
-spoke out manfully, though unconsciously he wore the look of one who
-goes to lead a forlorn hope,—
-
-“I shall try my fate to-night, and, if I fail, you may do what you like
-with me.”
-
-“Not a coward, thank Heaven!” mused Helwyze, as he looked after the
-retreating figure with the contemptuous admiration one gives to any
-foolhardy enterprise bravely undertaken. “He must have his lesson, and
-will be the tamer for it, unless Olivia takes me at my word, and humors
-the boy, for vengeance’ sake. That would be a most dramatic
-complication, and endanger my winter’s comfort seriously. Come, suspense
-is a new emotion; I will enjoy it, and meantime make sure of Gladys, or
-I may be left in the lurch. A reckless boy and a disappointed woman are
-capable of any folly.”
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-
- V.
-
-
-Helwyze folded black velvet _paletôt_ about him, stroked the damp hair
-off his forehead, and, with hands loosely clasped behind his back, went
-walking slowly through the quiet house, to find the bright drawing-room
-and breezy balcony already deserted.
-
-No sound of voice or step gave him the clew he sought; and, pausing in
-the hall, he stood a moment, his finger on his lip, wondering whither
-Gladys had betaken herself.
-
-“Not with them, assuredly. Dreaming in the moonshine somewhere. I must
-look again.”
-
-Retracing his noiseless steps, he glanced here and there with eyes which
-nothing could escape, for trifles were significant to his quick wit; and
-he found answers to unspoken queries in the relics the vanished trio
-left behind them. Olivia’s fan, flung down upon a couch, made him smile,
-as if he saw her toss it there when yielding half-impatiently to the
-entreaties of Canaris. An ottoman, pushed hastily aside, told where the
-young lover sat, till he beguiled her out to listen to the pleading
-which would wax eloquent and bold under cover of the summer night. The
-instrument stood open, a favorite song upon the rack, but the glimmering
-keys were mute; and the wind alone was singing fitfully. A little hat
-lay in the window, as if ready to be caught up in glad haste when the
-summons came; but the dew had dimmed the freshness of its azure ribbons,
-and there was a forlorn look about the girlish thing, which told the
-story of a timid hope, a silent disappointment.
-
-“Where the deuce is the child?” and Helwyze cast an ireful look about
-the empty room; for motion wearied him, and any thwarting of his will
-was dangerous. Suddenly his eye brightened, and he nodded, as if well
-pleased; for below the dark drapery that hung before an arch, a fold of
-softest white betrayed the wearer.
-
-“Now I have her!” he whispered, as if to some familiar; and, parting the
-curtains, looked down upon the little figure sitting there alone, bathed
-in moonlight as purely placid as the face turned on him when he spoke.
-
-“Might one come in? The house seems quite deserted, and I want some
-charitable soul to say a friendly word to me.”
-
-“Oh, yes! What can I do, sir?” With the look of a suddenly awakened
-child, Gladys rose up, and involuntarily put out her hand as if to heap
-yet more commodiously the pillows of the couch which filled the alcove;
-then paused, remembering what Canaris had told her of the invalid’s
-rejection of all sympathy, and stood regarding him with a shy, yet
-wistful glance, which plainly showed the impulse of her tender heart.
-
-Conscious that the surest way to win this simple creature was by
-submitting to be comforted,—for in her, womanly compassion was stronger
-than womanly ambition, vanity, or interest,—Helwyze shed a reassuring
-smile upon her, as he threw himself down, exclaiming, with a sigh of
-satisfaction, doubly effective from one who so seldom owned the
-weariness that oppressed him,—
-
-“Yes: you shall make me comfortable, if you kindly will; the heat
-exhausts me, and I cannot sleep. Ah, this is pleasant! You have the gift
-of piling pillows for weary heads, Gladys. Now, let the moonlight make a
-picture of you, as it did before I spoilt it; then I shall envy no man.”
-
-Pleased, yet abashed, the girl sank back into her place on the wide
-window ledge, and bent her face over the blooming linden spray that lay
-upon her lap, unconsciously making of herself a prettier picture than
-before.
-
-“Musing here alone? Not sorrowfully, I hope?”
-
-“I never feel alone, sir, and seldom sorrowful.”
-
-“‘They never are alone that are accompanied with noble thoughts;’ yet it
-would not be unnatural if you felt both sad and solitary, so young, so
-isolated, in this big, bad world of ours.”
-
-“A beautiful and happy world to me, sir. Even loneliness is pleasant,
-because with it comes—liberty.”
-
-The last word fell from her lips involuntarily; and, with a wonderfully
-expressive gesture, she lifted her arms as if some heavy fetter had
-newly dropped away.
-
-Ardent emphasis and forceful action both surprised and interested
-Helwyze, confirming his suspicion that this girlish bosom hid a spirit
-as strong as pure, capable of deep suffering, exquisite happiness,
-heroic effort. His eye shone, and he gave a satisfied nod; for his first
-careless words had struck fire from the girl, making his task easier and
-more attractive.
-
-“And how will you use this freedom? A precious, yet a perilous, gift for
-such as you.”
-
-“Can any thing so infinitely sweet and sacred be dangerous? He who
-planted the longing for it here, and gave it me when most needed, will
-surely teach me how to use it. I have no fear.”
-
-The bent head was erect now; the earnest face turned full on Helwyze
-with such serene faith shining in it, that the sneer died off his lips,
-and something like genuine compassion touched him, at the sight of such
-brave innocence tranquilly confronting the unknown future.
-
-“May nothing molest, or make afraid. While here, you are quite safe;—you
-_do_, then, think of going?” he added, as a quick change arrested him.
-
-“I do, sir, and soon. I only wait to see how, and where.”
-
-It was difficult to believe that so resolute a tone could come into a
-voice so gentle, or that lips whose shape was a smile could curl with
-such soft scorn. But both were there; for the memory of that other
-woman’s story embittered even gratitude, since in the girl’s simple
-creed disloyalty to love was next to disloyalty to God.
-
-Helwyze watched her closely, while his fingers fell to tapping idly on
-the sofa scroll; and the spark brightened under the lids that contracted
-with the intent expression of concentrated sight.
-
-“Perhaps I can show you how and when. May I?” he asked, assuming a
-paternal air, which inwardly amused him much.
-
-Gladys looked, hesitated, and a shade of perplexity dimmed the clear
-brightness of her glance, as if vaguely conscious of distrust, and
-troubled by its seeming causelessness.
-
-Helwyze saw it, and quickly added the magical word which lulled
-suspicion, roused interest, and irresistibly allured her fancy.
-
-“Pardon me; I should not have ventured to speak, if Felix had not hinted
-that you began to weary of dependence, as all free spirits must; your
-own words confirm the hint; and I desired to share my cousin’s pleasure
-in befriending, if I might, one who can so richly repay all obligation.
-Believe me, Gladys, your voice is a treasure, which, having discovered,
-we want to share between us.”
-
-If the moonlight had been daybreak, the girl’s cheek could not have
-shown a rosier glow, as she half-averted it to hide the joy she felt at
-knowing Canaris had taken thought for her so soon. Her heart fluttered
-with tender hopes and fears, like a nestful of eager birds; and,
-forgetting doubt in delight, she yielded to the lure held out to her.
-
-“You are most kind: I shall be truly grateful if you will advise me,
-sir. Mrs. Surry has done so much, I can ask no more, but rather hasten
-to relieve her of all further care of me.”
-
-“She will be loth to lose you; but the friend of whom I am about to
-speak needs you much, and can give you what you love better even than
-kindness,—independence.”
-
-“Yes: that is what I long for! I will do any thing for daily bread, if I
-may earn it honestly, and eat it in freedom,” leaning nearer, with
-clasped hands and eager look.
-
-“Could you be happy to spend some hours of each day in reading, singing
-to, and amusing a poor soul, who sorely needs such pleasant comforting?”
-
-“I could. It would be very sweet to do it; and I know how, excellently
-well, for I have had good training. My father was an invalid, and I his
-only nurse for years.”
-
-“Fortunate for me in all ways,” thought Helwyze, finding another reason
-for his purpose; while Gladys, bee-like, getting sweetness out of
-bitter-herbs, said to herself, “Those weary years had their use, and are
-not wasted, as I feared.”
-
-“I think these duties will not be difficult nor distasteful,” continued
-Helwyze, marking the effect of each attraction, as he mentioned it with
-modest brevity. “It is a quiet place; plenty of rare books to read, fine
-pictures to study, and music to enjoy; a little clever society, to keep
-wits bright and enliven solitude; hours of leisure, and entire liberty
-to use them as you will. Would this satisfy you, Gladys, till something
-better can be found?”
-
-“Better!” echoed the girl, with the expression of one who, having asked
-for a crust, is bidden to a feast. “Ah, sir, it sounds too pleasant for
-belief. I long for all these lovely things, but never hoped to have
-them. Can I earn so much happiness? Am I a fit companion for this poor
-lady, who must need the gentlest nursing, if she suffers in the midst of
-so much to enjoy?”
-
-“You will suit exactly; have no fear of that, my good child. Just be
-your own happy, helpful self, and you can make sunshine anywhere. We
-will talk more of this when you have turned it over in that wise young
-head of yours. Olivia may have some more attractive plan to offer.”
-
-But Gladys shook “the wise young head” with a decided air, as piquante
-as the sudden resolution in her artless voice.
-
-“I shall choose for myself; your plan pleases me better than any Mrs.
-Surry is likely to propose. She says I must not work, but rest and enjoy
-myself. I will work; I love it; ease steals away my strength, and
-pleasure seems to dazzle me. I must be strong, for I have only myself to
-lean upon; I must see clearly, for my only guide is my own conscience. I
-_will_ think of your most kind offer, and be ready to accept it whenever
-you like to try me, sir.”
-
-“Thanks; I like to try you now, then; sit here and croon some drowsy
-song, to show how well you can lull wakeful senses into that blessed
-oblivion called sleep.”
-
-As he spoke, Helwyze drew a low seat beside the couch, and beckoned her
-to come and take it; for she had risen as if to go, and he had no mind
-to be left alone yet.
-
-“I am so pleased you asked me to do this, for it is my special gift.
-Papa was very stubborn, but he always had to yield, and often called me
-his ‘sleep compeller.’ Let me drop the curtain first, light is so
-exciting, and draws the insects. I shall keep them off with this pretty
-fan, and you will find the faint perfume soothing.”
-
-Full of the sweetest good-will, Gladys leaned across the couch to darken
-the recess before the lullaby began. But Helwyze, feeling in a mood for
-investigation and experiment, arrested the outstretched hand, and,
-holding it in his, turned the full brilliance of his fine eyes on hers,
-asking with most seductive candor,—
-
-“Gladys, if _I_ were the friend of whom we spoke, would you come to me?
-You compel truth as well as sleep, and I cannot deceive you, while you
-so willingly serve me.”
-
-A moment she stood looking down into the singular countenance before her
-with a curious intentness in her own. A slight quickening of the breath
-was all the sign she gave of a consciousness of the penetrative glance
-fixed upon her, the close grasp of his hand; otherwise unembarrassed as
-a child, she regarded him with an expression maidenly modest, but quite
-composed. Helwyze keenly enjoyed these glimpses of the new character
-with which he chose to meddle, yet was both piqued and amused by her
-present composure, when the mere name of Felix filled her with the
-delicious shamefacedness of a first love.
-
-It was a little curious that during the instant the two surveyed each
-other, that, while the girl’s color faded, a light red tinged the man’s
-pale cheek, her eye grew clear and cold as his softened, and the small
-hand seemed to hold the larger by the mere contact of its passive
-fingers.
-
-Slow to arrive, the answer was both comprehensive and significant, but
-very brief, for three words held it.
-
-“Could I come?”
-
-Helwyze laughed with real enjoyment.
-
-“You certainly have the gift of surprises, if no other, and it makes you
-charming, Gladys. I fancied you as unsophisticated as if you were eight,
-instead of eighteen, and here I find you as discreet as any woman of the
-world,—more so than many. Where did you learn it, child?”
-
-“From myself; I have no other teacher.”
-
-“Ah! ‘instinct is a fine thing, my masters.’ _You_ could not have a
-better guide. Rest easy, little friend, the proprieties shall be
-preserved, and you _can_ come, if you decide to do me the honor. My old
-housekeeper is a most decorous and maternal creature, and into her
-keeping you will pass. Felix pleased me well, but his time is too
-valuable now; and, selfish as I am, I hesitate to keep for my own
-comfort the man who can charm so many. Will you come, and take his
-place?”
-
-Helwyze could not deny himself the pleasure of calling back the
-tell-tale color, for the blushes of a chaste woman are as beautiful as
-the blooming of a flower. Quickly the red tide rose, even to the brow,
-the eyes fell, the hand thrilled, and the steady voice faltered
-traitorously, “I could not fill it, sir.”
-
-Still detaining her, that he might catch the sweet aroma of an opening
-heart, Helwyze added, as the last temptation to this young Eve, whom he
-was beguiling out of the safe garden of her tranquil girlhood into the
-unknown world of pain and passion, waiting for womankind beyond,—
-
-“Not for my own sake alone do I want you, but for his. Life is full of
-perils for him, and he needs a home. I cannot make one for him, except
-in this way, for my house is my prison, and he wearies of it naturally.
-But I _can_ give it a new charm, add a never-failing attraction, and
-make it homelike by a woman’s presence. Will you help me in this?”
-
-“I am not wise enough; Mrs. Surry is often with you: surely she could
-make it homelike far better than I,” stammered Gladys, chilled by a
-sudden fear, as she remembered Canaris’ face as he departed with Olivia
-an hour ago.
-
-“Pardon; that is precisely what she cannot do. Such women weary while
-they dazzle, the gentler sort win while they soothe. We shall see less
-of her in future; it is not well for Felix. Take pity on _me_, at least,
-and answer ‘Yes.’”
-
-“I do, sir.”
-
-“How shall I thank you?” and Helwyze kissed the hand as he released it,
-leaving a little thorn of jealousy behind to hoodwink prudence,
-stimulate desire, and fret the inward peace that was her best
-possession.
-
-Glad to take refuge in music, the girl assumed her seat, and began to
-sing dreamily to the slow waving of the green spray. Helwyze feigned to
-be courting slumber, but from the ambush of downcast lids he stole
-sidelong glances at the countenance so near his own, that he could mark
-the gradual subsiding of emotion, the slow return of the repose which
-made its greatest charm for him. And so well did he feign, that
-presently, as if glad to see her task successfully ended, Gladys stole
-away to the seclusion of her own happy thoughts.
-
-Busied with his new plans and purposes, Helwyze waited till his patience
-was rewarded by seeing the face of Canaris appear at the window, glance
-in, and vanish as silently as it came. But one look was enough, and in
-that flash of time the other read how the rash wooing had sped, or
-thought he did, till Olivia came sweeping through the room, flung wide
-the curtains, and looked in with eyes as brilliant as if, they had
-borrowed light of the fire-flies dancing there without.
-
-“A fan, a cigarette, a scarlet flower behind the ear, and the Spanish
-donna would be quite perfect,” he said, surveying with lazy admiration
-the richly colored face, which looked out from the black lace, wrapped
-mantilla-wise over the dark hair and whitely gleaming arms.
-
-“Is the snowdrop gone? Then I will come in, and hear how the new
-handmaid suits. I saw her at her pleasing task.”
-
-“So well that I should like to keep her at it long and often. Where is
-Felix?”
-
-His words, his look, angered Olivia, and she answered with smiling
-ambiguity,—
-
-“Out of his misery, at last.”
-
-“Cruel as ever. I told him it would be so.”
-
-“On the contrary, I have been kind, as I promised to be.”
-
-“Then his face belied him.”
-
-“Would it please you, if I had ventured to forestall your promised gift,
-and accepted all Felix has to offer me, himself. I have my whims, like
-you, and follow them as recklessly.”
-
-Helwyze knit his brows, but answered negligently, “Folly never pleases
-me. It will be amusing to see which tires first. I shall miss him; but
-his place is already filled, and Gladys has the charm of novelty.”
-
-“You have spoken, then?”
-
-“Forewarned, forearmed; I have her promise, and Felix can go when he
-likes.”
-
-Olivia paled, dropped her mask, and exclaimed in undisguised alarm,—
-
-“There is no need: I have no thought of such folly! My kindness to Felix
-was the sparing him an avowal, which was simply absurd. A word, a laugh,
-did it, for ridicule cures more quickly and surely than compassion.”
-
-“I thought so. Why try to fence with me, Madama? you always get the
-worst of it,” and Helwyze made the green twig whistle through the air
-with a sharp turn of the wrist, as he rose to go; for these two, bound
-together by a mutual wrong, seldom met without bitter words, the dregs
-of a love which might have blest them both.
-
-He found Felix waiting for him, in a somewhat haughty mood; Olivia
-having judged wisely that ridicule, though a harsh, was a speedy cure
-for the youthful delusion, which had been fostered by the isolation in
-which they lived, and the ardent imagination of a poet.
-
-“You were right, sir. What are your commands?” he asked, controlling
-disappointment, pique, and unwillingness with a spirit that won respect
-and forbearance even from Helwyze, who answered with a cordial warmth,
-as rare as charming,—
-
-“I have none: the completion of my wish I leave to you. Consult your own
-time and pleasure, and, when it is happily accomplished, be assured I
-shall not forget that you have shown me the obedience of a son.”
-
-Quick as a child to be touched, and won by kindness, Canaris flushed
-with grateful feeling and put out his hand impulsively, as he had done
-when selling his liberty, for now he was selling his love.
-
-“Forgive my waywardness. I _will_ be guided by you, for I owe you my
-life, and all the happiness I have known in it. Gladys shall be a
-daughter to you; but give me time—I must teach myself to forget.”
-
-His voice broke as he stumbled over the last words, for pride was sore,
-and submission hard. But Helwyze soothed the one and softened the other
-by one of the sympathetic touches which occasionally broke from him,
-proving that the man’s heart, was not yet quite dead. Laying his hand
-upon the young man’s shoulder, he said in a tone which stirred the
-hearer deeply,—
-
-“I feared this pain was in store for you, but could not save you from
-it. Accept the gentle comforter I bring you, for I have known the same
-pain, and _I_ had no Gladys.”
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-
- VI.
-
-
-So the days went by, fast and fair in outward seeming, while an
-undercurrent of unquiet emotion rolled below. Helwyze made no sign of
-impatience, but silently forwarded his wish, by devoting himself to
-Olivia; thereby making a green oasis in the desert of her life, and
-leaving the young pair to themselves.
-
-At first, Canaris shunned every one as much as possible; but sympathy,
-not solitude, was the balm he wanted, and who could give it him so
-freely as Gladys? Her mute surprise and doubt and grief at this
-capricious coldness, after such winning warmth, showed him that the
-guileless heart was already his, and added a soothing sense of power to
-the reluctance and regret which by turns tormented him.
-
-Irresistibly drawn by the best instincts of a faulty but aspiring nature
-to that which was lovely, true, and pure, he soon returned to Gladys,
-finding in her sweet society a refreshment and repose Olivia’s could
-never give him. Love he did not feel, but affection, the more helpful
-for its calmness; confidence, which was given again fourfold; and
-reverence, daily deepening as time showed him the gentle strength and
-crystal clarity of the spirit he was linking to his own by ties which
-death itself could not sever. But the very virtues which won, also made
-him hesitate, though rash enough when yielding to an attraction far less
-noble. A sense of unworthiness restrained him, even when reluctance had
-passed from resignation to something like desire, and he paused, as one
-might, who longed to break a delicate plant, yet delayed, lest it should
-wither too quickly in his hand.
-
-Helwyze and Olivia watched this brief wooing with peculiar interest.
-She, being happy herself, was full of good hope for Gladys, and let her
-step, unwarned, into the magic circle drawn around her. He sat as if at
-a play, enjoying the pretty pastoral enacted before him, content to let
-“summer and seclusion” bring the young pair together as naturally and
-easily as spring-time mates the birds. Suspense gave zest to the new
-combination, surprise added to its flavor, and a dash of danger made it
-unusually attractive to him.
-
-Canaris came to him one day, with a resolute expression on his face,
-which rendered it noble, as well as beautiful.
-
-“Sir, I will not do this thing; I dare not.”
-
-“Dare not! Is cowardice to be added to disobedience and falsehood?” and
-Helwyze looked up from his book with a contemptuous frown.
-
-“I will not be sneered out of my purpose; for I never did a braver,
-better act than when I say to you, ‘I dare not lie to Gladys.’”
-
-“What need of lying? Surely you love her now, or you are a more
-accomplished actor than I thought you.”
-
-“I have tried,—tried too faithfully for her peace, I fear; but, though I
-reverence her as an angel, I do _not_ love her as a woman. How can I
-look into her innocent, confiding face, and tell her,—she who is all
-truth,—that I love as she does?”
-
-“Yet that is the commonest, most easily forgiven falsehood a man can
-utter. Is it so hard for _you_ to deceive?”
-
-Quick and deep rose the hot scarlet to Canaris’s face, and his eyes
-fell, as if borne down by the emphasis of that one word. But the
-sincerity of his desire brought courage even out of shame; and, lifting
-his head with a humility more impressive than pride or anger, he said,
-steadily,—
-
-“If this truth redeems that falsehood, I shall, at least, have recovered
-my own self-respect. I never knew that I had lost it, till Gladys showed
-me how poor I was in the virtue which makes her what she is.”
-
-“What conscientious qualm is this? Where would this truth-telling bring
-you? How would your self-respect bear the knowledge that you had broken
-the girl’s heart? for, angel as you call her, she has one, and you have
-stolen it.”
-
-“At your bidding.”
-
-“Long before I thought of it. Did you imagine you could play with her,
-to pique Olivia, without harm to Gladys? Is yours a face to smile on a
-woman, day after day, and not teach her to love? In what way but this
-_can_ you atone for such selfish thoughtlessness? Come, if we are to
-talk of honor and honesty, do it fairly, and not shift the
-responsibility of your acts upon my shoulders.”
-
-“Have I done that? I never meant to trouble her. Is there no way out of
-it but this? Oh, sir, I am not fit to marry her! What am I, to take a
-fellow-creature’s happiness into my hands? What have I to offer her but
-the truth in return for her love, if I must take it to secure her
-peace?”
-
-“If you offer the truth, you certainly _will_ have nothing else, and not
-even receive love in return, perhaps; for her respect may go with all
-the rest. If I know her, the loss of that would wound her heart more
-deeply than the disappointment your silence will bring her now. Think of
-this, and be wise as well as generous in the atonement you should make.”
-
-“Bound, whichever way I look; for when I meant to be kindest I am
-cruel.”
-
-Canaris stood perplexed, abashed, remorseful; for Helwyze had the art to
-turn even his virtues into weapons against him, making his new-born
-regard for Gladys a reason for being falsely true, dishonorably tender.
-The honest impulse suddenly looked weak and selfish, compassion seemed
-nobler than sincerity, and present peace better than future happiness.
-
-Helwyze saw that he was wavering, and turned the scale by calling to his
-aid one of the strongest passions that rule men,—the spirit of
-rivalry,—knowing well its power over one so young, so vain and
-sensitive.
-
-“Felix, there must be an end of this; I am tired of it. Since you are
-more enamoured of truth than Gladys, choose, and abide by it. I shall
-miss my congenial comrade, but I will not keep him if he feels my
-friendship slavery. I release you from all promises: go your way, in
-peace; I can do without you.”
-
-A daring offer, and Helwyze risked much in making it; but he knew the
-man before him, and that in seeming to set free, he only added another
-link to the invisible chain by which he held him. Canaris looked
-relieved, amazed, and touched, as he exclaimed, incredulously,—
-
-“Do you mean it, sir?”
-
-“I do; but in return for your liberty I claim the right to use mine as I
-will.”
-
-“Use it? I do not understand.”
-
-“To comfort Gladys.”
-
-“How?”
-
-“You do not love her, and leave her doubly forlorn, since you have given
-her a glimpse of love. I must befriend her, as you will not; and when
-she comes to me, as she has promised, if she is happy, I shall keep
-her.”
-
-“As _fille adoptive_.”
-
-Canaris affirmed, not asked, this; and, in the changed tone, the
-suspicious glance, Helwyze saw that he had aimed well. With a smile that
-was a sneer, he answered coldly,—
-
-“Hardly that: the paternal element is sadly lacking in me; and, if it
-were not, I fear a man of forty could not adopt a girl of eighteen
-without compromising her, especially one so lonely and so lovely as poor
-little Gladys.”
-
-“You will marry her? Yet when I hinted it, you said, ‘Impossible!’”
-
-“I did; but then I did not know how helpful she could be, how glad to
-love, how easy to be won by kindness. _Ennui_ drives one to do the
-rashest things; and when you are gone, I shall find it difficult to fill
-your place. ’Tis a pity to tie the pretty creature to such a clod. But,
-if I can help and keep her in no other way, I may do it, remembering
-that her captivity would be a short one; it should be my care that it
-was a very light one while it lasted.”
-
-“But she loves _me_!” exclaimed Canaris, with jealous inconsistency.
-
-“I fear so; yet you reject her for a scruple. Hearts are easily caught
-in the rebound; and who will hold hers more gently than I? Olivia will
-tell you I _can_ be gentle when it suits me.”
-
-The name stung Canaris, where pride was sorest; and the thought, that
-this man could take from him both the woman whom he loved and the girl
-who loved him, roused an ignoble desire to silence the noble one. He
-showed it instantly, for his eye shot a quick glance at the mirror; a
-smile that was almost insolent passed over his face; and his air was
-full of the proud consciousness of youth, health, comeliness, and
-talent.
-
-“Thanks for my freedom; I shall know how to use it. Since I may tell
-Gladys the truth, I do not dread her love so much; and will atone
-generously, if I can. I think she will accept poverty with me rather
-than luxury with you. At least she shall have her choice.”
-
-“Well said. You will succeed, since you possess all the gifts which win
-women except wealth and”—
-
-“Stop! you shall _not_ say it,” cried Canaris, hotly. “Are you possessed
-of a devil, that you torment me so?” He clenched his hands, and walked
-fast through the room, as if to escape from some fierce impulse.
-
-A certain, almost brutal, frankness characterized the intercourse of
-these men at times; for the tie between them was a peculiar one, and
-fretted both, though both clung to it with strange tenacity. With equal
-candor and entire composure Helwyze answered the excited question.
-
-“We are all possessed, more or less; happy the man who is master. My
-demon is a bad one; for your intellectual devil is hard to manage, since
-he demands the best of us, and is not satisfied or cheated as easily as
-some that are stronger, yet less cunning. Yours is ambition,—an
-insatiable fellow, who gives you no rest. I had a fancy to help you rule
-him; but he proves less interesting that I thought to find him, and is
-getting to be a bore. See what you can do, alone; only, when he gets the
-upper hand again, excuse me from interfering: once is enough.”
-
-Canaris made no reply, but dashed out of the room, as if he could bear
-no more, leaving Helwyze to throw down his book, muttering impatiently,—
-
-“Here is a froward favorite, and excitement with a vengeance! He will
-not speak yet; for with all his fire he is wary, and while he fumes I
-must work. But how? but how?”
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- VII.
-
-
-A storm raged all that night; but dawn came up so dewy and serene, that
-the world looked like a child waking after anger, with happy smiles upon
-its lips, penitential tears in its blue eyes.
-
-Canaris was early astir, after a night as stormy within as without,
-during which he had gone through so many alternations of feeling, that,
-weary and still undecided, he was now in the mood to drift whithersoever
-the first eddy impelled him. Straight to Gladys, it seemed; and, being
-superstitious, he accepted the accident as a good omen, following his
-own desire, and calling it fate.
-
-Wandering in the loneliest, wildest spot of all the domain, he came upon
-her as suddenly as if a wish had brought her to the nook haunted for
-both by pleasant memories. Dew-drenched her feet, hatless her head; but
-the feet stood firmly on the cliff which shelved down to the shore
-below, and the upturned head shone bright against the deep blue of the
-sky. Morning peace dwelt in her eyes, morning freshness glowed on her
-cheek, and her whole attitude was one of unconscious aspiration, as she
-stood there with folded hands and parted lips, drinking in the
-storm-cooled breeze that blew vigorous and sweet across the lake.
-
-“What are you doing here so early, little dryad?” and Canaris paused,
-with an almost irresistible desire to put out his arms and hold her,
-lest she fly away, so airy was her perch, so eager her look into the
-boundless distance before her.
-
-“Only being happy!” and she looked down into his face with such tender
-and timid joy in her own, he hardly had need to ask,—
-
-“Why, Gladys?”
-
-“Because of this,” showing a string of pearls that hung from her hand,
-half-hidden among the trailing bits of greenery gathered in her walk.
-
-“Who gave you that?” demanded Canaris, eying it with undisguised
-surprise; for the pearls were great, globy things, milk-white, and so
-perfect that any one but Gladys would have seen how costly was the gift.
-
-“Need you ask?” she said, blushing brightly.
-
-“Why not? Do you suspect me?”
-
-“You cannot deceive me by speaking roughly and looking stern. Who but
-you would put these in my basket without a word, and let me find them
-there when I laid my work away last night? I was so pleased, so proud, I
-could not help keeping them, though far too beautiful for me.”
-
-Then Canaris knew who had done it; and his hand tightened over the
-necklace, while his eye went towards the lake, as if he longed to throw
-it far into the water. He checked himself, and, turning it about with a
-disdainful air, said, coldly,—
-
-“If _I_ had given you this, it should have been quite perfect. The cross
-is not large nor fine enough to match the chain. Do you see?”
-
-“Ah, but the little cross is more precious than all the rest! That is
-the one jewel my mother left me, and I put it there to make my rosary
-complete;” and Gladys surveyed it with a pretty mixture of devout
-affection and girlish pleasure.
-
-“I’ll give you a better one than this,—a string of tiny carved saints in
-scented wood, blessed by holy hands, and fit to say prayers like yours
-upon. You will take it, though my gift is not half so costly as his?” he
-said, eagerly.
-
-“Whose?”
-
-“Helwyze gave you that.”
-
-“But why?” and Gladys opened wide her clear, large eyes in genuine
-astonishment.
-
-“He is a generous master; your singing pleases him, and he pays you so,”
-replied Canaris, bitterly.
-
-“He is not my master!”
-
-“He will be.”
-
-“Never! I shall not go, if I am to be burdened with benefits. I will
-earn my just due, but not be overpaid. Tell him so.”
-
-Gladys caught back the chain, unclasped the cross, and threw the pearls
-upon the grass, where they lay, gleaming, like great drops of frozen
-dew, among the green. Canaris liked that; thought proudly, “_I_ have no
-need to bribe;” and hastened to make his own the thing another seemed to
-covet. Drawing nearer, he looked up, asking, in a tone that gave the
-question its true meaning,—
-
-“May _I_ be your master, Gladys?”
-
-“Not even you.”
-
-“Your slave, then?”
-
-“Never that.”
-
-“Your lover?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“But I can give you nothing except myself.”
-
-“Love is enough;” and finding his arms about her, his face, warm and
-wistful, close to hers, Gladys bent to give and take the first kiss,
-which was all they had to bestow upon each other.
-
-Singularly unimpassioned was the embrace in which they stood for a brief
-instant. Canaris held her with a clasp more jealous than fond; Gladys
-clung to him, yet trembled, as if some fear subdued her joy; and both
-vaguely felt the incompleteness of a moment which should be perfect.
-
-“You do love me, then?” she whispered, wondering at his silence.
-
-“Should I ask you to be my wife if I did not?” and the stern look melted
-into an expression of what seemed, to her, reproach.
-
-“No; ah, no! I fancied that I might have deceived myself. I am so young,
-you are so kind. I never had a—friend before;” and Gladys smiled shyly,
-as the word which meant “lover” dropped from her lips.
-
-“I am not kind: I am selfish, cruel, perhaps, to let you love me so. You
-will never reproach me for it, Gladys? I mean to save you from ills you
-know nothing of; to cherish and protect you—if I can.”
-
-Verily in earnest now; for the touch of those innocent lips reminded him
-of all his promise meant, recalled his own unfitness to guide or guard
-another, when so wayward and unwise himself. Gladys could not understand
-the true cause of his beseeching look, his urgency of tone; but saw in
-them only the generous desire to keep safe the creature dearest to him,
-and loved him the more for it.
-
-“I never can think you selfish, never will reproach you but will love
-and trust and honor you all my life,” she answered, with a simplicity as
-solemn as sincere; and, holding out the hand that held her dead mother’s
-cross, Canaris pledged his troth upon it with the mistaken chivalry
-which makes many a man promise to defend a woman against all men but
-himself.
-
-“Now you can be happy again,” he said, feeling that he had done his best
-to keep her so.
-
-She thought he meant look out upon the lake, dreaming of him as when he
-found her; and, turning, stretched forth her arms as if to embrace the
-whole world, and tell the smiling heaven her glad secret.
-
-“Doubly happy; then I only hoped, now I _know_!”
-
-Something in the exultant gesture, the fervent tone, the radiant face,
-thrilled Canaris with a sudden admiration; a feeling of proud
-possession; a conviction that he had gained, not lost; and he said
-within himself,—
-
-“I am glad I did it. I will cherish her; she will inspire me; and good
-_shall_ come out of seeming evil.”
-
-His spirits rose with a new sense of well-being and well-doing. He
-gathered up the rejected treasure, and gave it back to Gladys, saying
-lightly,—
-
-“You may keep it as a wedding-gift; then he need give no other. He meant
-it so, perhaps, and it will please him. Will you, love?”
-
-“If you ask it. But why must brides wear pearls? They mean tears,” she
-added, thoughtfully, as she received them back.
-
-“Perhaps because then the sorrows of their lives begin. Yours shall not:
-I will see to that,” he promised, with the blind confidence of the
-self-sacrificing mood he was in.
-
-Gladys sat down upon the rock to explore a pocket, so small and empty
-that Canaris could not help smiling, as he, too, leaned and looked with
-a lover’s freedom.
-
-“Only my old chain. I must put back the cross, else I shall lose it,”
-laughed Gladys, as she brought out a little cord of what seemed woven
-yellow silk.
-
-“Is it your hair?” he asked, his eye caught by its peculiar sunshiny
-hue.
-
-“Yes; I could not buy a better one, so I made this. My hair is all the
-gold I have.”
-
-“Give it to me, and you wear mine. See, I have an amulet as well as
-you.”
-
-Fumbling in his breast, Canaris undid a slender chain, whence hung a
-locket, curiously chased, and tarnished with long wear. This he unslung,
-and, opening, showed Gladys the faded picture of a beautiful, sad woman.
-
-“That is my Madonna.”
-
-“Your mother?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Mine now.” The girl touched it with her lips, then softly closed and
-laid it on her lap.
-
-Silently Canaris stood watching her, as she re-slung both poor but
-precious relics, while the costlier one slipped down, as if ashamed to
-lie beside them. He caught and swung it on his finger, thinking of
-something he had lately read to Helwyze.
-
-“Kharsu, the Persian, sent a necklace to Schirin, the princess, whom he
-loved. She was a Christian, and hung a cross upon his string of pearls,
-as you did,” he said aloud.
-
-“But I am not a princess, and Mr. Helwyze does not love me; so the
-pretty story is all spoiled.”
-
-“This thing recalled it. _I_ have given you a necklace, and you are
-hanging a cross upon it. Wear the one, and use the other, for my sake.
-Will you, Gladys?”
-
-“Did Schirin convert Kharsu?” asked the girl, catching his thought more
-from his face than his words; for it wore a look of mingled longing and
-regret, which she had never seen before.
-
-“That I do not know; but you must convert me: I am a sad heathen,
-Helwyze says.”
-
-“Has _he_ tried?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Then I will!”
-
-“You see I’ve had no one to teach me any thing but worldly wisdom, and I
-sometimes feel as I should be better for a little of the heavenly sort.
-So when you wear the rosary I shall give you—‘Fair saint, in your
-orisons be all my sins remembered;’” and Canaris put his hand upon her
-head, smiling, as if half-ashamed of his request.
-
-“I am no Catholic, but I _will_ pray for you, and you shall not be lost.
-The mother in heaven and the wife on earth will keep you safe,”
-whispered Gladys, in her fervent voice, feeling and answering with a
-woman’s quickness the half-expressed desire of a nature conscious of its
-weakness, yet unskilled in asking help for its greatest need.
-
-Silently the two young lovers put on their amulets, and, hand in hand,
-went back along the winding path, till they reached the great eglantine
-that threw its green arches across the outlet from the wood. All beyond
-was radiantly bright and blooming; and as Canaris, passing first to hold
-back the thorny boughs, stood an instant, bathed in the splendor of the
-early sunshine, Gladys exclaimed, her face full of the tender idolatry
-of a loving woman,—
-
-“O Felix, you are so good, so great, so beautiful, if it were not
-wicked, I should worship you!”
-
-“God forbid! Do not love me too much, Gladys: I do not deserve it.”
-
-“How can I help it, when I feel very like the girl who lost her heart to
-the Apollo?” she answered, feeling that she never could love _too much_.
-
-“And broke her heart, you remember, because her god was only a stone.”
-
-“Mine is not, and he will answer when I call.”
-
-“If he does not, he will be harder and colder than the marble!”
-
-When Canaris, some hours later, told Helwyze, he looked well pleased,
-thinking, “Jealousy is a helpful ally. I do not regret calling in its
-aid, though it has cost Olivia her pearls.” Aloud he said, with a
-gracious air, which did not entirely conceal some secret anxiety,—
-
-“Then you have made a clean breast of it, and she forgives all
-peccadilloes?”
-
-“I have not told her; and I will not, till I have atoned for the meanest
-of them. May I ask you to be silent also for her sake?”
-
-“You are wise.” Then, as if glad to throw off all doubt and care, he
-asked, in a pleasantly suggestive tone,—
-
-“The wedding will soon follow the wooing, I imagine, for you make short
-work of matters, when you do begin?”
-
-“You told me to execute your wish in my own way. I will do so, without
-troubling Mrs. Surry, or asking you to give us your blessing, since
-playing the father to orphans is distasteful to you.”
-
-Very calm and cool was Canaris now; but a sense of wrong burned at his
-heart, marring the satisfaction he felt in having done what he believed
-to be a just and generous act.
-
-“It is; but I will assume the character long enough to suggest, nay,
-_insist_, that however hasty and informal this marriage may be, you will
-take care that it _is_ one.”
-
-“Do you mean that for a hint or a warning, sir? I have lied and stolen
-by your advice; shall I also betray?” asked Canaris, white with
-indignation, and something like fear; for he began to feel that whatever
-this man commanded he must do, spite of himself.
-
-“Strong language, Felix. But I forgive it, since I am sincere in wishing
-well to Gladys. Marry when and how you please, only do not annoy me with
-another spasm of virtue. It is a waste of time, you see, for the thing
-is done.”
-
-“Not yet; but soon will be, for you are fast curing me of a too tender
-conscience.”
-
-“Faster than you think, my Faust; since to marry without love betrays as
-surely as to love without marriage,” said Helwyze to himself, expressing
-in words the thought that had restrained the younger, better man.
-
-A week later, Canaris came in with Gladys on his arm, looking very like
-a bride in a little bonnet tied with white, and a great nosegay of all
-the sweet, pale flowers blooming in the garden that first Sunday of
-September.
-
-“Good-bye, sir; we are going.”
-
-“Where, may I ask? To church?”
-
-“We have been;” and Canaris touched the ungloved hand that lay upon his
-arm, showing the first ring it had ever worn.
-
-“Ah! then I can only say, Heaven bless you, Gladys; a happy honeymoon,
-Felix, and welcome home when—you are tired of each other.”
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-
- VIII.
-
-
-“Home at last, thank Heaven!” exclaimed Canaris, as the door opened,
-letting forth a stream of light and warmth into the chilly gloom of the
-October night. Gladys made no answer but an upward look, which seemed to
-utter the tender welcome he had forgotten to give; and, nestling her
-hand in his, let him lead her through the bright hall, up the wide
-stairway to her own domain.
-
-“As we return a little before our time, we must not expect a jubilee.
-Look about you, love, and rest. I will send Mrs. Bland presently, and
-tell Helwyze we are come.”
-
-He hurried away, showing no sign of the _ennui_ which had fitfully
-betrayed itself during the last week. Gladys watched him wistfully, then
-turned to see what home was like, with eyes that brightened beautifully
-as they took in the varied charms of the luxurious apartments prepared
-for her. The newly kindled light filled the room with a dusky splendor;
-for deepest crimson glowed everywhere, making her feel as if she stood
-in the heart of a great rose whose silken petals curtained her round
-with a color, warmth, and fragrance which would render sleep a “rapture
-of repose.” Womanlike, she enjoyed every dainty device and sumptuous
-detail; yet the smile of pleasure was followed by a faint sigh, as if
-the new magnificence oppressed her, or something much desired had been
-forgotten.
-
-Stepping carefully, like one who had no right there, she passed on to a
-charming drawing-room, evidently intended for but two occupants, and all
-the pleasanter to her for that suggestion. Pausing on the threshold of
-another door, she peeped in, expecting to find one of those scented,
-satin boudoirs, which are fitter for the coquetries of a Parisian belle,
-than for a young wife to hope and dream and pray in.
-
-But there was no splendor here; and, with a cry of glad surprise, its
-new owner took possession, wondering what gentle magic had guessed and
-gathered here the simple treasures she best loved. White everywhere,
-except the pale green of the softly tinted walls, and the mossy carpet
-strewn with mimic snowdrops. A sheaf of lilies in a silver vase stood on
-the low chimney-piece above the hearth, where a hospitable fire lay
-ready to kindle at a touch; and this was the only sign of luxury the
-room displayed. Quaint furniture, with no ornament except its own grace
-or usefulness, gave the place a homelike air; and chintz hangings, fresh
-and delicate as green leaves scattered upon snow could make them, seemed
-to shut out the world, securing the sweet privacy a happy woman loves.
-
-Gladys felt this instantly, and, lifting her hand to draw the pretty
-draperies yet closer, discovered a new surprise, which touched her to
-the heart. Instead of looking out into the darkness of the autumn night,
-she found a little woodland nook imprisoned between the glass-door and
-the deep window beyond. A veritable bit of the forest, with slender
-ferns nodding in their sleep, hardy vines climbing up a lichened stump
-to show their scarlet berries, pine-needles pricking through the moss,
-rough arbutus leaves hiding coyly till spring should freshen their
-russet edges, acorns looking as if just dropped by some busy squirrel,
-and all manner of humble weeds, growing here as happily as when they
-carpeted the wood for any careless foot to tread upon.
-
-These dear familiar things were as grateful to Gladys as the sight of
-friendly faces; and, throwing wide the doors, she knelt down to breathe
-with childish eagerness the damp, fresh odors that came out to meet her.
-
-“How sweet of him to make such a lovely nest for me, and then slip away
-before I could thank him,” thought the tender-hearted creature, with
-tears in the eyes that dwelt delightedly upon the tremulous maiden-hair
-bending to her touch, and the sturdy grasses waking up in this new
-summer.
-
-A sound of opening doors dispelled her reverie; and with girlish
-trepidation she hastened to smooth the waves of her bright hair, assume
-the one pretty dress she would accept from Olivia, and clasp the bridal
-pearls about her neck; then hastened down before the somewhat dreaded
-Mrs. Bland appeared.
-
-It pleased her to go wandering alone through the great house, warmed and
-lighted everywhere; for Helwyze made this his world, and gathered about
-him every luxury which taste, caprice, or necessity demanded. A
-marvellously beautiful and varied home it seemed to simple Gladys, as
-she passed from picture-gallery to music-room, eyed with artless wonder
-the subdued magnificence of the _salon_, or paused enchanted in a
-conservatory whose crystal walls enclosed a fairyland of bloom and
-verdure.
-
-Here and there she came upon some characteristic whim or arrangement,
-which made her smile with amusement, or sigh with pity, remembering the
-recluse who tried to cheer his solitude by these devices. One recess
-held a single picture glowing with the warm splendor of the East. A
-divan, a Persian rug, an amber-mouthed _nargileh_, and a Turkish coffee
-service, all gold and scarlet, completed the illusion. In another
-shadowy nook tinkled a little fountain guarded by one white-limbed
-nymph, who seemed to watch with placid interest the curious
-sea-creatures peopling the basin below. The third showed a study-chair,
-a shaded lamp, and certain favorite books, left open, as if to be taken
-up again when the mood returned. In one of these places Gladys lingered
-with fresh compassion stirring at her heart, though it looked the least
-inviting of them all. Behind the curtains of a window looking out upon
-the broad street on which the mansion faced stood a single chair, and
-nothing more.
-
-“He shall not be so lonely now, if I can interest or amuse him,” thought
-Gladys, as she looked at the worn spot in the carpet, the crumpled
-cushion on the window-ledge; mute witnesses that Helwyze felt drawn
-towards his kin, and found some solace in watching the activity he could
-no longer share.
-
-Knowing that she should find him in the library, where most of his time
-was spent, she soon wended her way thither. The door stood hospitably
-open; and, as she approached, she saw the two men standing together,
-marked, as never before, the sharp contrast between them, and felt a
-glow of wifely pride in the young husband whom she was learning to love
-with all the ardor of a pure and tender soul.
-
-Canaris was talking eagerly, as he turned the leaves of a thin
-manuscript which lay between them. Helwyze listened, with his eyes fixed
-on the speaker so intently that it startled the new-comer, when, without
-a sound to warn him of her approach, he turned suddenly upon her with
-the smile which dazzled without warming those on whom it was shed.
-
-“I have been chiding this capricious fellow for the haste which spoils
-the welcome I hoped to give you. But I pardon him, since he brings the
-sunshine with him,” he said, going to meet her, with genuine pleasure in
-his face.
-
-“I could not have a kinder welcome, sir. I was glad to come; Felix
-feared you might be needing him.”
-
-“So duty brought him back a week too soon? A poet’s honeymoon should be
-a long one; I regret to be the cause of its abridgment.”
-
-Something in the satirical glimmer of his eye made Gladys glance at her
-husband, who spoke out frankly,—
-
-“There were other reasons. Gladys hates a crowd, and so do I. Bad
-weather made it impossible to be romantic, so we thought it best to come
-home and be comfortable.”
-
-“I trust you will be; but I have little to offer, since the attractions
-of half a dozen cities could not satisfy you.”
-
-“Indeed, we should be most ungrateful if we were not happy here,” cried
-Gladys, eagerly. “Only let me be useful as well as happy, else I shall
-not deserve this lovely home you give us.”
-
-“She is anxious to begin her ministrations; and I can recommend her, for
-she is quick to learn one’s ways, patient with one’s whims, fruitful in
-charming devices for amusement, and the best of comrades,” said Canaris,
-drawing her to him with a look more grateful than fond.
-
-“From that speech, and other signs, I infer that Felix is about to leave
-me to your tender mercies, and fall to work upon his new book; since it
-seems he could not resist making poetry when he should have been making
-love. Are you not jealous of the rival who steals him from you, even
-before the honeymoon has set?” asked Helwyze, touching the little
-manuscript before him.
-
-“Not if she makes him great, and I can make him happy,” answered Gladys,
-with an air of perfect content and trust.
-
-“I warn you that the Muse is a jealous mistress, and will often rob you
-of him. Are you ready to give him up, and resign yourself to more
-prosaic companionship?”
-
-“Why need I give him up? He says I do not disturb him when he writes. He
-allowed me to sit beside him while he made these lovely songs, and watch
-them grow. He even let me help with a word sometimes, and I copied the
-verses fairly, that he might see how beautiful they were. Did I not,
-Felix?”
-
-Gladys spoke with such innocent pride, and looked up in her husband’s
-face so gratefully, that he could not but thank her with a caress, as he
-said, laughing,—
-
-“Ah, that was only play. I’ve had my holiday, and now I must work at a
-task in which no one can help me. Come and see the den where I shut
-myself up when the divine frenzy seizes me. Mr. Helwyze is jailer, and
-only lets me out when I have done my stint.”
-
-Full of some pleasurable excitement, Canaris led his wife across the
-room, threw open a door, and bade her look in. Like a curious child, she
-peeped, but saw only a small, bare _cabinet de travail_.
-
-“No room, you see, even for a little thing like you. None dare enter
-here without my keeper’s leave. Remember that, else you may fare like
-Bluebeard’s Fatima.” Canaris spoke gayly, and turned a key in the door
-with a warning click, as he glanced over his shoulder at Helwyze. Gladys
-did not see the look, but something in his words seemed to disturb her.
-
-“I do not like this place, it is close and dark. I think I shall not
-want to come, even if you _are_ here;” and, waiting for no reply, she
-stepped out from the chill of the unused room, as if glad to escape.
-
-“Mysterious intuition! she felt that we had a skeleton in here, though
-it is such a little one,” whispered Canaris, with an uneasy laugh.
-
-“Such a sensitive plant will fare ill between us, I am afraid,” answered
-Helwyze, as he followed her, leaving the other to open drawers and
-settle papers, like one eager to begin his work.
-
-Gladys was standing in the full glare of the fire, as if its cheerful
-magic could exorcise all dark fancies. Helwyze eyed the white figure for
-an instant, feeling that his lonely hearthstone had acquired a new
-charm; then joined her, saying quietly,—
-
-“This is the place where Felix and I have lived together for nearly two
-years. Do you like it?”
-
-“More than I can tell. It does not seem strange to me, for he has often
-described it; and when I thought of coming here, I was more curious to
-see this room than any other.”
-
-“It will be all the pleasanter henceforth if Felix can spare you to me
-sometimes. Come and see the corner I have prepared, hoping to tempt you
-here when he shuts us out. It used to be his; so you will like it, I
-think.” Helwyze paced slowly down the long room, Gladys beside him,
-saying, as she looked about her hungrily,—
-
-“So many books! and doubtless you have read them all?”
-
-“Not quite; but you may, if you will. See, here is your place; come
-often, and be sure you never will disturb me.”
-
-But one book lay on the little table, and its white cover, silver
-lettered, shone against the dark cloth so invitingly that Gladys took it
-up, glowing with pleasure as she read her own name upon the volume she
-knew and loved so well.
-
-“For me? you knew that nothing else would be so beautiful and precious.
-Sir, why are you so generous?”
-
-“It amuses me to do these little things, and you must humor me, as Felix
-does. You shall pay for them in your own coin, so there need be no sense
-of obligation. Rest satisfied I shall get the best of the bargain.”
-Before she could reply a servant appeared, announced dinner, and
-vanished as noiselessly as he came.
-
-“This has been a bachelor establishment so long that we are grown
-careless. If you will pardon all deficiencies of costume, we will not
-delay installing Madame Canaris in the place she does us the honor to
-fill.”
-
-“But I am not the mistress, sir. Please change nothing; my place at home
-was very humble; I am afraid I cannot fill the new one as I ought,”
-stammered Gladys, somewhat dismayed at the prospect which the new name
-and duty suggested.
-
-“You will have no care, except of us. Mrs. Bland keeps the machinery
-running smoothly, and we lead a very quiet life. My territory ends at
-that door; all beyond is yours. I chiefly haunt this wing, but sometimes
-roam about below stairs a little, a very harmless ghost, so do not be
-alarmed if you should meet me.”
-
-Helwyze spoke lightly, and tapped at the door of the den as he passed.
-
-“Come out, slave of the pen, and be fed.”
-
-Canaris came, wearing a preoccupied air, and sauntered after them, as
-Helwyze led the new mistress to her place, shy and rosy, but resolved to
-do honor to her husband at all costs.
-
-Her first act, however, gave them both a slight shock of surprise; for
-the instant they were seated, Gladys laid her hands together, bent her
-head, and whispered Grace, as if obeying a natural impulse to ask
-Heaven’s blessing on the first bread she broke in her new home. The
-effect of the devoutly simple act was characteristically shown by the
-three observers. The servant paused, with an uplifted cover in his hand,
-respectfully astonished; Canaris looked intensely annoyed; and Helwyze
-leaned back with the suggestion of a shrug, as he glanced critically
-from the dimpled hands to the nugget of gold that shone against the
-bended neck. The instant she looked up, the man whisked off the silver
-cover with an air of relief; Canaris fell upon his bread like a hungry
-boy, and Helwyze tranquilly began to talk.
-
-“Was the surprise Felix prepared for you a satisfactory one? Olivia and
-I took pleasure in obeying his directions.”
-
-“It was lovely! I have not thanked him yet, but I shall. You, also, sir,
-in some better way than words. What made you think of it?” she asked,
-looking at Canaris with a mute request for pardon of her involuntary
-offence.
-
-Glad to rush into speech, Canaris gave at some length the history of his
-fancy to reproduce, as nearly as he could, the little room at home,
-which she had described to him with regretful minuteness; for she had
-sold every thing to pay the debts which were the sole legacy her father
-left her. While they talked, Helwyze, who ate little, was observing
-both. Gladys looked more girlish than ever, in spite of the mingled
-dignity and anxiety her quiet but timid air betrayed. Canaris seemed in
-high spirits, talking rapidly, laughing often, and glancing about him as
-if glad to be again where nothing inharmonious disturbed his taste and
-comfort. Not till dessert was on the table, however, did he own, in
-words, the feeling of voluptuous satisfaction which was enhanced by the
-memory that he had been rash enough to risk the loss of all.
-
-“It is not so very terrible, you see, Gladys. You eat and drink like a
-bird; but I know you enjoy this as much as I do, after those detestable
-hotels,” he said, detecting an expression of relief in his young wife’s
-face, as the noiseless servant quitted the room for the last time.
-
-“Indeed I do. It is so pleasant to have all one’s senses gratified at
-once, and the common duties of life made beautiful and easy,” answered
-Gladys, surveying with feminine appreciation the well-appointed table
-which had that air of accustomed elegance so grateful to fastidious
-tastes.
-
-“Ah, ha! this little ascetic of mine will become a Sybarite yet, and
-agree with me that enjoyment _is_ a duty,” exclaimed Canaris, looking
-very like a young Bacchus, as he held up his wine to watch its rich
-color, and inhale its bouquet with zest.
-
-“The more delicate the senses, the more delicate the delight. I suspect
-Madame finds her grapes and water as delicious as you do your olives and
-old wine,” said Helwyze, finding a still more refined satisfaction than
-either in the pretty contrast between the purple grapes and the white
-fingers that pulled them apart, the softly curling lips that were the
-rosier for their temperate draughts, and the unspoiled simplicity of the
-girl sitting there in pearls and shimmering silk.
-
-“When one has known poverty, and the sad shifts which make it seem mean,
-as well as hard, perhaps one does unduly value these things. I hope I
-shall not; but I do find them very tempting,” she said, thoughtfully
-eying the new scene in which she found herself.
-
-Helwyze seemed to be absently listening to the musical chime of silver
-against glass; but he made a note of that hope, wondering if hardship
-had given her more of its austere virtue than it had her husband.
-
-“How shall you resist temptation?” he asked, curiously.
-
-“I shall work. This is dangerously pleasant; so let me begin at once,
-and sing, while you take your coffee in the drawing-room. I know the
-way; come when you will, I shall be ready;” and Gladys rose with the
-energetic expression which often broke through her native gentleness.
-Canaris held the door for her, and was about to resume his seat, when
-Helwyze checked him:—
-
-“We will follow at once. Was I not right in my prediction?” he asked, as
-they left the room together.
-
-“That we should soon tire of each other? You were wrong in that.”
-
-“I meant the ease with which you would soon learn to love.”
-
-“I have not learned—yet.”
-
-“Then this vivacity is a cloak for the pangs of remorse, is it?” and
-Helwyze laughed incredulously.
-
-“No: it is the satisfaction I already feel in the atonement I mean to
-make. I have a grand idea. _I_, too, shall work, and give Gladys reason
-to be proud of me, if nothing more.”
-
-Something of her own energy was in his mien, and it became him. But
-Helwyze quenched the noble ardor by saying, coldly,—
-
-“I see: it is the old passion under a new name. May your virtuous
-aspirations be blest!”
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-
- IX.
-
-
-Helwyze was right, and Canaris found that his sudden marriage did
-stimulate public interest wonderfully. There had always been something
-mysterious about this brilliant young man and his relations with his
-patron; who was as silent as the Sphinx regarding his past, and
-tantalizingly enigmatical about his plans and purposes for the future.
-The wildest speculations were indulged in: many believed them to be
-father and son; others searched vainly for the true motive of this
-charitable caprice; and every one waited with curiosity to see the end
-of it. All of which much amused Helwyze, who cared nothing for the
-world’s opinion, and found his sense of humor tickled by the ludicrous
-idea of himself in the new _rôle_ of benefactor.
-
-The romance seemed quite complete when it was known that the young poet
-had brought home a wife whose talent, youth, and isolation seemed to
-render her peculiarly fitted for his mate.
-
-Though love was lacking, vanity was strong in Canaris, and this was
-gratified by the commendation bestowed on the new ornament he wore; for
-as such simple Gladys was considered, and shone with reflected lustre,
-her finer gifts and graces quite eclipsed by his more conspicuous and
-self-asserting ones.
-
-With unquestioning docility she gave herself into his hands, following
-where he led her, obeying his lightest wish, and loving him with a
-devotion which kept alive regretful tenderness when it should have
-cherished a loyal love. He gladly took her into all the gayety which for
-a time surrounded them, and she enjoyed it with a girl’s fresh delight.
-He showed her wise and witty people whom she admired or loved; and she
-looked and listened with an enthusiast’s wonder. He gave her all he had
-to give, novelty and pleasure; though the one had lost its gloss for
-him, and too much of the other he was forced to accept from Helwyze’s
-hands. But through all the experiences that now rapidly befell her,
-Gladys was still herself; innocently happy, stanchly true,
-characteristically independent, a mountain stream, keeping its waters
-pure and bright, though mingled with the swift and turbid river which
-was hurrying it toward the sea.
-
-Curiosity being satisfied, society soon found some fresher novelty to
-absorb it. Women still admired Canaris, but marriage lessened his
-attractions for them; men still thought him full of promise, but were
-fast forgetting the first successful effort which had won their
-applause; and the young lion found that he must roar loud and often, if
-he would not be neglected. Shutting himself into his cell, he worked
-with hopeful energy for several months, often coming out weary, but
-excited, with the joyful labor of creation. At such times there was no
-prose anywhere; for heaven and earth were glorified by the light of that
-inner world, where imagination reigns, and all things are divine. Then
-he would be in the gayest spirits, and carry Gladys off to some hour of
-pleasant relaxation at theatre, opera, or ball, where flattery refreshed
-or emulation inspired him; and next day would return to his task with
-redoubled vigor.
-
-At other times his fickle mistress deserted him; thought would not soar,
-language would not sing, poetry fled, and life was unutterably “flat,
-stale, and unprofitable.” Then it was Gladys, who took possession of
-him; lured him out for a brisk walk, or a long drive into a wholesomer
-world than that into which he took her; sung weary brain to sleep with
-the sweetest lullabies of brother bards; or made him merry by the
-display of a pretty wit, which none but he knew she could exert. With
-wifely patience and womanly tact she managed her wayward but beloved
-lord, till despondency yielded to her skill, and the buoyant spirit of
-hope took him by the hand, and led him to his work again.
-
-In the intervals between these fits of intellectual intoxication and
-succeeding depression, Gladys devoted herself to Helwyze with a
-faithfulness which surprised him and satisfied her; for, as she said,
-her “bread tasted bitter if she did not earn it.” He had expected to be
-amused, perhaps interested, but not so charmed, by this girl, who
-possessed only a single talent, a modest share of beauty, and a mind as
-untrained as a beautiful but neglected garden. This last was the real
-attraction; for, finding her hungry for knowledge, he did not hesitate
-to test her taste and try her mental mettle, by allowing her free range
-of a large and varied library. Though not a scholar, in the learned
-sense of the word, he had the eager, sceptical nature which interrogates
-all things, yet believes only in itself. This had kept him roaming
-solitarily up and down the earth for years, observing men and manners;
-now it drove him to books; and, as suffering and seclusion wrought upon
-body and brain, his choice of mute companions changed from the higher,
-healthier class to those who, like himself, leaned towards the darker,
-sadder side of human nature. Lawless here, as elsewhere, he let his mind
-wander at will, as once he had let his heart, learning too late that
-both are sacred gifts, and cannot safely be tampered with.
-
-All was so fresh and wonderful to Gladys, that her society grew very
-attractive to him; and pleasant as it was to have her wait upon him with
-quiet zeal, or watch her busied in her own corner, studying, or sewing
-with the little basket beside her which gave such a homelike air, it was
-still pleasanter to have her sit and read to him, while he watched this
-face, so intelligent, yet so soft; studied this mind, at once sensitive
-and sagacious, this nature, both serious and ardent. It gave a curious
-charm to his old favorites when she read them; and many hours he
-listened contentedly to the voice whose youth made Montaigne’s worldly
-wisdom seem the shrewder; whose music gave a certain sweetness to
-Voltaire’s bitter wit or Carlyle’s rough wisdom; whose pitying wonder
-added pathos to the melancholy brilliancy of Heine and De Quincy.
-Equally fascinating to him, and far more dangerous to her, were George
-Sand’s passionate romances, Goethe’s dramatic novels, Hugo and Sue’s
-lurid word-pictures of suffering and sin; the haunted world of
-Shakespeare and Dante, the poetry of Byron, Browning, and Poe.
-
-Rich food and strong wine for a girl of eighteen; and Gladys soon felt
-the effects of such a diet, though it was hard to resist when duty
-seconded inclination, and ignorance hid the peril. She often paused to
-question with eager lips, to wipe wet eyes, to protest with indignant
-warmth, or to shiver with the pleasurable pain of a child who longs, yet
-dreads, to hear an exciting story to the end. Helwyze answered
-willingly, if not always wisely; enjoyed the rapid unfolding of the
-woman, and would not deny himself any indulgence of this new whim,
-though conscious that the snow-drop, transplanted suddenly from the free
-fresh spring-time, could not live in this close air without suffering.
-
-This was the double life Gladys now began to lead. Heart and mind were
-divided between the two, who soon absorbed every feeling, every thought.
-To the younger man she was a teacher, to the elder a pupil; in the one
-world she ruled, in the other served; unconsciously Canaris stirred
-emotion to its depths, consciously Helwyze stimulated intellect to its
-heights; while the soul of the woman, receiving no food from either,
-seemed to sit apart in the wilderness of its new experience, tempted by
-evil as well as sustained by good spirits, who guard their own.
-
-One evening this divided mastery was especially felt by Helwyze, who
-watched the young man’s influence over his wife with a mixture of
-interest and something like jealousy, as it was evidently fast becoming
-stronger than his own. Sitting in his usual place, he saw Gladys flit
-about the room, brushing up the hearth, brightening the lamps, and
-putting by the finished books, as if the day’s duties were all done, the
-evening’s rest and pleasure honestly earned, eagerly waited for. He well
-knew that this pleasure consisted in carrying Canaris away to her own
-domain; or, if that were impossible, she would sit silently looking at
-him while he read or talked in his fitful fashion on any subject his
-master chose to introduce.
-
-The desire to make her forget the husband whose neglect would have
-sorely grieved her if his genius had not been his excuse in her eyes for
-many faults, possessed Helwyze that night; and he amused himself by the
-effort, becoming more intent with each failure.
-
-As the accustomed hour drew near, Gladys took her place on the footstool
-before the chair set ready for Felix, and fell a musing, with her eyes
-on the newly replenished fire. Above, the unignited fuel lay black and
-rough, with here and there a deep rift opening to the red core beneath;
-while to and fro danced many colored flames, as if bent on some eager
-quest. Many flashed up the chimney, and were gone; others died
-solitarily in dark corners, where no heat fed them; and some vanished
-down the chasms, to the fiery world below. One golden spire, tremulous
-and translucent, burned with a brilliance which attracted the eye; and,
-when a wandering violet flame joined it, Gladys followed their motions
-with interest, seeing in them images of Felix and herself, for childish
-fancy and womanly insight met and mingled in all she thought and felt.
-
-Forgetting that she was not alone, she leaned forward, to watch what
-became of them, as the wedded flames flickered here and there, now
-violet, now yellow. But the brighter always seemed the stronger, and the
-sad-colored one to grow more and more golden, as if yielding to its
-sunshiny mate.
-
-“I hope they will fly up together, out into the wide, starry sky, which
-is their eternity, perhaps,” she thought, smiling at her own eagerness.
-
-But no; the golden flame flew up, and left the other to take on many
-shapes and colors, as it wandered here and there, till, just as it
-glowed with a splendid crimson, Gladys was forced to hide her dazzled
-eyes and look no more. Turning her flushed face away, she found Helwyze
-watching her as intently as she had watched the fire, and, reminded of
-his presence, she glanced toward the empty chair with an impatient sigh
-for Felix.
-
-“You are tired,” he said, answering the sigh. “Mrs. Bland told me what a
-notable housewife you are, and how you helped her set the upper regions
-to rights to-day. I fear you did too much.”
-
-“Oh, no, I enjoyed it heartily. I asked for something to do, and she
-allowed me to examine and refold the treasures you keep in the great
-carved wardrobe, lest moths or damp or dust had hurt the rich stuffs,
-curious coins, and lovely ornaments stored there. I never saw so many
-pretty things before,” she answered, betraying, by her sudden animation,
-the love of “pretty things,” which is one of the strongest of feminine
-foibles.
-
-He smiled, well pleased.
-
-“Olivia calls that quaint press from Brittany my bazaar, for there I
-have collected the spoils of my early wanderings; and when I want a
-_cadeau_ for a fair friend, I find it without trouble. I saw in what
-exquisite order you left my shelves, and, as you were not with me to
-choose, I brought away several trifles, more curious than costly, hoping
-to find a thank-offering among them.”
-
-As he spoke, he opened one of the deep drawers in the writing-table, as
-if to produce some gift. But Gladys said, hastily,—
-
-“You are very kind, sir; but these fine things are altogether too grand
-for me. The pleasure of looking at and touching them is reward enough;
-unless you will tell me about them: it must be interesting to know what
-places they came from.”
-
-Feeling in the mood for it, Helwyze described to her an Eastern bazaar,
-so graphically that she soon forgot Felix, and sat looking up as if she
-actually saw and enjoyed the splendors he spoke of. Lustrous silks
-sultanas were to wear; misty muslins, into whose embroidery some
-dark-skinned woman’s life was wrought; cashmeres, many-hued as rainbows;
-odorous woods and spices, that filled the air with fragrance never blown
-from Western hills; amber, like drops of frozen sunshine; fruits, which
-brought visions of vineyards, olive groves, and lovely palms dropping
-their honeyed clusters by desert wells; skins mooned and barred with
-black upon the tawny velvet, that had lain in jungles, or glided with
-deathful stealthiness along the track of human feet; ivory tusks that
-had felled Asiatic trees, gored fierce enemies, or meekly lifted princes
-to their seats.
-
-These, and many more, he painted rapidly; and, as he ended, shook out of
-its folds a gauzy fabric, starred with silver, which he threw over her
-head, pointing to the mirror set in the door of the _armoire_ behind
-her.
-
-“See if that is not too pretty to refuse. Felix would surely be inspired
-if you appeared before him shimmering like Suleika, when Hatem says to
-her,—
-
- “‘Here, take this, with the pure and silver streaking,
- And wind it, Darling, round and round for me;
- What is your Highness? Style scarce worth the speaking,
- When thou dost look, I am as great as He.’”
-
-Gladys did look, and saw how beautiful it made her; but, though she did
-not understand the words he quoted, the names suggested a sultan and his
-slave, and she did not like either the idea or the expression with which
-Helwyze regarded her. Throwing off the gauzy veil, she refolded and put
-it by, saying, in that decided little way of hers, which was prettier
-than petulance,—
-
-“My Hatem does not need that sort of inspiration, and had rather see his
-Suleika in a plain gown of his choosing, than dressed in all the
-splendors of the East by any other hand.”
-
-“Come, then, we must find some better _souvenir_ of your visit, for I
-never let any one go away empty-handed;” with that he dipped again into
-the drawer, and held up a pretty bracelet, explaining, as he offered it
-with unruffled composure, though she eyed it askance, attracted, yet
-reluctant, a charming picture of doubt and desire,—
-
-“Here are the Nine Muses, cut in many-tinted lava. See how well the
-workman suited the color to the attribute of each Muse. Urania is blue;
-Erato, this soft pink; Terpsichore, violet; Euterpe and Thalia, black
-and white; and the others, these fine shades of yellow, dun, and drab.
-That pleases you, I know; so let me put it on.”
-
-It did please her; and she stretched out her hand to accept it,
-gratified, yet conscious all the while of the antagonistic spirit which
-often seized her when with Helwyze. He put on the bracelet with a
-satisfied air; but the clasp was imperfect, and, at the first turn of
-the round wrist, the Nine Muses fell to the ground.
-
-“It is too heavy. I am not made to wear handcuffs of any sort, you see:
-they will not stay on, so it is of no use to try;” and Gladys picked up
-the trinket with an odd sense of relief; though poor Erato was cracked,
-and Thalia, like Fielding’s fair Amelia, had a broken nose. She rose to
-lay it on the table, and, as she turned away, her eye went to the clock,
-as if reproaching herself for that brief forgetfulness of her husband.
-Half amused, half annoyed, and bent on having his own way, even in so
-small a thing as this, Helwyze drew up a chair, and, setting a Japanese
-tray upon the table, said, invitingly,—
-
-“Come and see if these are more to your taste, since fine raiment and
-foolish ornaments fail to tempt you.”
-
-“Oh, how curious and beautiful!” cried Gladys, looking down upon a
-collection of Hindoo gods and goddesses, in ebony or ivory: some
-hideous, some lovely, all carved with wonderful delicacy, and each with
-its appropriate symbol,—Vishnu, and his serpent; Brahma, in the sacred
-lotus; Siva, with seven faces; Kreeshna, the destroyer, with many
-mouths; Varoon, god of the ocean; and Kama, the Indian Cupid, bearing
-his bow of sugar-cane strung with bees, to typify love’s sting as well
-as sweetness. This last Gladys examined longest, and kept in her hand as
-if it charmed her; for the minute face of the youth was beautiful, the
-slender figure full of grace, and the ivory spotless.
-
-“You choose him for your idol? and well you may, for he looks like
-Felix. Mine, if I have one, is Siva, goddess of Fate, ugly, but
-powerful.”
-
-“I will have no idol,—not even Felix, though I sometimes fear I may make
-one of him before I know it;” and Gladys put back the little figure with
-a guilty look, as she confessed the great temptation that beset her.
-
-“You are wise: idols are apt to have feet of clay, and tumble down in
-spite of our blind adoration. Better be a Buddhist, and have no god but
-our own awakened thought; ‘the highest wisdom,’ as it is called,” said
-Helwyze, who had lately been busy with the Sâkya Muni, and regarded all
-religions with calm impartiality.
-
-“These are false gods, and we are done with them, since we know the true
-one,” began Gladys, understanding him; for she had read aloud the life
-of Gautama Buddha, and enjoyed it as a legend; while he found its mystic
-symbolism attractive, and nothing repellent in its idolatry.
-
-“But do we? How can you prove it?”
-
-“It needs no proving; the knowledge of it was born in me, grows with my
-growth, and is the life of my life,” cried Gladys, out of the fulness of
-that natural religion which requires no revelation except such as
-experience brings to strengthen and purify it.
-
-“All are not so easily satisfied as you,” he said, in the sceptical tone
-which always tried both her patience and her courage; for, woman-like,
-she could feel the truth of things, but could not reason about them. He
-saw her face kindle, and added, rapidly, having a mind to try how firmly
-planted the faith of the pretty Puritan was: “Most of us agree that
-Allah exists in some form or other, but we fall out about who is the
-true Prophet. You choose Jesus of Nazareth for yours; I rather incline
-to this Indian Saint. They are not unlike: this Prince left all to
-devote his life to the redemption of mankind, suffered persecutions and
-temptations, had his disciples, and sent out the first apostles of whom
-we hear; was a teacher, with his parables, miracles, and belief in
-transmigration or immortality. His doctrine is almost the same as the
-other; and the six virtues which secure Nirvâna, or Heaven, are charity,
-purity, patience, courage, contemplation, and wisdom. Come, why not take
-him for a model?”
-
-Gladys listened with a mixture of perplexity and pain in her face, and
-her hand went involuntarily to the little cross which she always wore;
-but, though her eye was troubled, her voice was steady, as she answered,
-earnestly,—
-
-“Because I have a nobler one. My Prince left a greater throne than yours
-to serve mankind; suffered and resisted more terrible persecution and
-temptation; sent out wiser apostles, taught clearer truth, and preached
-an immortality for all. Yours died peacefully in the arms of his
-friends, mine on a cross; and, though he came later, he has saved more
-souls than Buddha. Sir, I know little about those older religions; I am
-not wise enough even to argue about my own: I can only believe in it,
-love it, and hold fast to it, since it is all I need.”
-
-“How can you tell till you try others? This, now, is a fine one, if we
-are not too bigoted to look into it fairly. Wise men, who have done so,
-say that no faith—not even the Christian—has exercised so powerful an
-influence on the diminution of crime as the old, simple doctrine of
-Sâkya Muni; and this is the only great historic religion that has not
-taken the sword to put down its enemies. Can you say as much for yours?”
-
-“No; but it is worth fighting for, and I _would_ fight, as the Maid of
-Orleans did for France, for this is my country. Can you say of _your_
-faith that it sustained you in sorrow, made you happy in loneliness,
-saved you from temptation, taught, guided, blessed you day by day with
-unfailing patience, wisdom, and love? I think you cannot; then why try
-to take mine away till you can give me a better?”
-
-Seldom was Gladys so moved as now, for she felt as if he was about to
-meddle with her holy of holies; and, without stopping to reason, she
-resisted the attempt, sure that he would harm, not help, her, since
-neither his words nor example had done Felix any good.
-
-Helwyze admired her all the more for her resistance, and thought her
-unusually lovely, as she stood there flushed and fervent with her plea
-for the faith that was so dear to her.
-
-“Why, indeed! You would make an excellent martyr, and enjoy it. Pity
-that you have no chance of it, and so of being canonized as a saint
-afterward. That is decidedly your line. Then, you won’t have any of my
-gods? not even this one?” he asked, holding up the handsome Kama, with a
-smile.
-
-“No, not even that. I will have only one God, and you may keep your
-idols for those who believe in them. My faith may not be the oldest, but
-it _is_ the best, if one may judge of the two religions by the happiness
-and peace they give,” answered Gladys, taking refuge in a very womanly,
-yet most convincing, argument, she thought, as she pointed to the
-mirror, which reflected both figures in its clear depths.
-
-Helwyze looked, and though without an atom of vanity, the sight could
-not but be trying, the contrast was so great between her glad, young
-face, and his, so melancholy and prematurely old.
-
-“Satma, Tama—Truth and Darkness,” he muttered to himself; adding aloud,
-with a vengeful sort of satisfaction in shocking her pious nature,—
-
-“But _I_ have no religion; so that defiant little speech is quite thrown
-away, my friend.”
-
-It did shock her; for, though she had suspected the fact, there was
-something dreadful in hearing him confess it, in a tone which proved his
-sincerity.
-
-“Mr. Helwyze, do you really mean that you believe in nothing invisible
-and divine? no life beyond this? no God, no Christ to bless and save?”
-she asked, hardly knowing how to put the question, as she drew back
-dismayed, but still incredulous.
-
-“Yes.”
-
-He was both surprised, and rather annoyed, to find that it cost him an
-effort to give even that short answer, with those innocent eyes looking
-so anxiously up at him, full of a sad wonder, then dim with sudden dew,
-as she said eagerly, forgetting every thing but a great compassion,—
-
-“O sir, it is impossible! You think so now; but when you love and trust
-some human creature more than yourself, then you will find that you do
-believe in Him who gives such happiness, and be glad to own it.”
-
-“Perhaps. Meantime _you_ will not make me happy by letting me give you
-any thing; why is it, Gladys?”
-
-The black brows were knit, and he looked impatient with himself or her.
-She saw it, and exclaimed with the sweetest penitence,—
-
-“Give me your pardon for speaking so frankly. I mean no disrespect; but
-I cannot help it when you say such things, though I know that gratitude
-should keep me silent.”
-
-“I like it. Do not take yourself to task for that, or trouble about me.
-There are many roads, and sooner or later we shall all reach heaven, I
-suppose,—if there is one,” he added, with a shrug, which spoiled the
-smile that went before.
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- X.
-
-
-Gladys stood silent for a moment, with her eyes fixed on the little
-figures, longing for wisdom to convince this man, whom she regarded with
-mingled pity, admiration and distrust, that he could not walk by his own
-light alone. He guessed the impulse that kept her there, longed to have
-her stay, and felt a sudden desire to reinstate himself in her good
-opinion. That wish, or the hope to keep her by some new and still more
-powerful allurement, seemed to actuate him as he hastily thrust the gods
-and goddesses out of sight, and opened another drawer, with a quick
-glance over his shoulder towards that inner room.
-
-At that instant the clock struck, and Gladys started, saying, in a tone
-of fond despair,—
-
-“Where _is_ Felix? Will he never come?”
-
-“I heard him raging about some time ago, but perfect silence followed,
-so I suspect he caught the tormenting word, idea, or fancy, and is busy
-pinning it,” answered Helwyze, shutting the drawer as suddenly as he
-opened it, with a frown which Gladys did not see; for she had turned
-away, forgetting him and his salvation in the one absorbing interest of
-her life.
-
-“How long it takes to write a poem! Three whole months, for he began in
-September; and it was not to be a long one, he said.”
-
-“He means this to be a masterpiece, so labors like a galley-slave, and
-can find no rest till it is done. Good practice, but to little purpose,
-I am afraid. Poetry, even the best, is not profitable now-a-days, I am
-told,” added Helwyze, speaking with a sort of satisfaction which he
-could not conceal.
-
-“Who cares for the profit? It is the fame Felix wants, and works for,”
-answered Gladys, defending the absent with wifely warmth.
-
-“True, but he would not reject the fortune if it came. He is not one of
-the ethereal sort, who can live on glory and a crust; his gingerbread
-must not only be gilded, but solid and well-spiced beside. You adore
-your poet, respect also the worldly wisdom of your spouse, madame.”
-
-When Helwyze sneered, Gladys was silent; so now she mused again, leaning
-on the high back of the chair which she longed to see occupied. He mused
-also, with his eyes upon the fire, fingers idly tapping, and a furtive
-smile round his mouth, as if some purpose was taking shape in that busy
-brain of his. Suddenly he spoke, in a tone of kindly interest, well
-knowing where her thoughts were, and anxious to end her weary waiting.
-
-“Perhaps the poor fellow has fallen asleep, tired out with striving
-after immortality. Go and wake him, if you will, for it is time he
-rested.”
-
-“May I? He does not like to be disturbed; but I fear he is ill: he has
-eaten scarcely any thing for days, and looks so pale it troubles me. I
-will peep first; and if he is busy, creep away without a word.”
-
-Stepping toward the one forbidden, yet most fascinating spot in all the
-house, she softly opened the door and looked in. Canaris was there,
-apparently asleep, as Helwyze thought; for his head lay on his folded
-arms as if both were weary. Glancing over her shoulder with a nod and a
-smile, Gladys went in, anxious to wake and comfort him; for the little
-room looked solitary, dark, and cold, with dead ashes on the hearth, the
-student lamp burning dimly, and the food she had brought him hours ago
-still standing untasted, among the blotted sheets strewn all about. At
-her first touch he looked up, and she was frightened by the expression
-of his face, it was so desperately miserable.
-
-“Dear, what is it?” she asked, quickly, with her arms about him, as if
-defying the unknown trouble to reach him there.
-
-“Disappointment,—nothing else;” and he leaned his head against her,
-grateful for sympathy, since she could give no other help.
-
-“You mean your book, which does not satisfy you even yet?” she said,
-interpreting the significance of the weary, yet restless, look he wore.
-
-“It never will! I have toiled and tried, with all my heart and soul and
-mind, if ever a man did; but I cannot do it, Gladys. It torments me, and
-I cannot escape from it; because, though it is all here in my brain, it
-_will not_ be expressed in words.”
-
-“Do not try any more; rest now, and by and by, perhaps, it will be
-easier. You have worked too hard, and are worn out; forget the book, and
-come and let me take care of you. It breaks my heart to see you so.”
-
-“I was doing it for your sake,—all for you; and I thought this time it
-would be very good, since my purpose was a just and generous one. But it
-is not, and I hate it!”
-
-With a passionate gesture, Canaris hurled a pile of manuscript into the
-further corner of the room, and pushed his wife from him, as if she too
-were an affliction and a disappointment. It grieved her bitterly; but
-she would not be repulsed; and, holding fast in both her own the hand
-that was about to grasp another sheaf of papers, she cried, with a tone
-of tender authority, which both controlled and touched him,—
-
-“No, no, you shall not, Felix! Put me away, but do not spoil the book;
-it has cost us both too much.”
-
-“Not you; forgive me, it is myself with whom I am vexed;” and Canaris
-penitently kissed the hands that held his, remembering that she could
-not know the true cause of his effort and regret.
-
-“I _shall_ be jealous, if I find that I have given you up so long in
-vain. I must have something to repay me for the loss of your society all
-this weary time. I have worked to fill your place: give me my reward.”
-
-“Have you missed me, then? I thought you happy enough with Helwyze and
-the books.”
-
-“Missed you! happy enough! O Felix! you do not know me, if you think I
-_can_ be happy without you. He is kind, but only a friend; and all the
-books in the wide world are not as much to me as the one you treat so
-cruelly.” She clasped tightly the hands she held, and looked into his
-face with eyes full of unutterable love. Such tender flattery could not
-but soothe, such tearful reproach fail to soften, a far prouder, harder
-man than Canaris.
-
-“What reward will you have?” he asked, making an effort to be cheerful
-for her sake.
-
-“Eat, drink, and rest; then read me every word you have written. I am no
-critic; but I would try to be impartial: love makes even the ignorant
-wise, and I shall see the beauty which I know is in it.”
-
-“I put you there, or tried; so truth and beauty should be in it. Some
-time you shall hear it, but not now. I could not read it to-night,
-perhaps never; it is such a poor, pale shadow of the thing I meant it to
-be.”
-
-“Let me read it,” said a voice behind them; and Helwyze stood upon the
-threshold, wearing his most benignant aspect.
-
-“You?” ejaculated Canaris; while Gladys shrunk a little, as if the
-proposition did not please her.
-
-“Why not? Young poets never read their own verses well; yet what could
-be more soothing to the most timorous or vain than to hear them read by
-an admiring and sympathetic friend? Come, let me have my reward, as well
-as Gladys;” and Helwyze laid his hand upon the unscattered pile of
-manuscript.
-
-“A penance, rather. It is so blurred, so rough, you could not read it;
-then the fatigue,”—began Canaris, pleased, yet reluctant still.
-
-“I can read any thing, make rough places smooth, and not tire, for I
-have a great interest in this story. He has shown me some of it, and it
-_is_ good.”
-
-Helwyze spoke to Gladys, and his last words conquered her reluctance,
-whetted her curiosity; he looked at Canaris, and his glance inspired
-hope, his offer tempted, for his voice could make music of any thing,
-his praise would be both valuable and cheering.
-
-“Let him, Felix, since he is so kind, I so impatient that I do not want
-to wait;” and Gladys went to gather up the leaves, which had flown
-wildly about the room.
-
-“Leave those, I will sort them while you begin. The first part is all
-here. I am sick of it, and so will you be, before you are through. Go,
-love, or I may revoke permission, and make the bonfire yet.”
-
-Canaris laughed as he waved her away; and Gladys, seeing that the cloud
-had lifted, willingly obeyed, lingering only to give a touch to the
-dainty luncheon, which was none the worse for being cold.
-
-“Dear, eat and drink, then _my_ feast will be the sweeter.”
-
-“I will; I’ll eat and drink stupendously when you are gone; I wish you
-_bon appetit_,” he said, filling the glass, and smiling as he drank.
-
-Contented now, Gladys hurried away, to find Helwyze already seated by
-the study-table, with the manuscript laid open before him. He looked up,
-wearing an expression of such pleasurable excitement, that it augured
-well for what was coming, and she slipped into the chair beside the one
-set ready for Canaris on the opposite side of the hearth, still hoping
-he would come and take it. Helwyze began, and soon she forgot every
-thing,—carried away by the smoothly flowing current of the story which
-he read so well. A metrical romance, such as many a lover might have
-imagined in the first inspiration of the great passion, but few could
-have painted with such skill. A very human story, but all the truer and
-sweeter for that fact. The men and women in it were full of vitality and
-color; their faces spoke, hearts beat, words glowed; and they seemed to
-live before the listener’s eye, as if endowed with eloquent flesh and
-blood.
-
-Gladys forgot their creator utterly, but Helwyze did not; and even while
-reading on with steadily increasing effect, glanced now and then towards
-that inner room, where, after a moment of unnecessary bustle, perfect
-silence reigned. Presently a shadow flickered on the ceiling, a shadow
-bent as if listening eagerly, though not a sound betrayed its approach
-as it seemed to glide and vanish behind the tall screen which stood
-before the door. Gladys saw nothing, her face being intent upon the
-reader, her thoughts absorbed in following the heart-history of the
-woman in whom she could not help finding a likeness to herself.
-
-Helwyze saw the shadow, however, and laughed inwardly, as if to see the
-singer irresistibly drawn by his own music. But no visible smile
-betrayed this knowledge; and the tale went on with deepening power and
-pathos, till at its most passionate point he paused.
-
-“Go on; oh, pray go on!” cried Gladys, breathlessly.
-
-“Are you not tired of it?” asked Helwyze; with a keen look.
-
-“No, no! You are? Then let me read.”
-
-“Not I; but there is no more here. Ask Felix if we _may_ go on.”
-
-“I must! I will! Where is he?” and Gladys hurried round the screen, to
-find Canaris flung down anyway upon a seat, looking almost as excited as
-herself.
-
-“Ah,” she cried, delightedly, “you could not keep away! You know that it
-is good, and you are glad and proud, although you will not own it.”
-
-“Am I? Are you?” he asked, reading the answer in her face, before she
-could whisper, with the look of mingled awe and adoration which she
-always wore when speaking of him as a poet,—
-
-“Never can I tell you what I feel. It almost frightens me to find how
-well you know me and yourself, and other hearts like ours. What gives
-you this wonderful power, and shows you how to use it?”
-
-“Don’t praise it too much, or I shall wish I had destroyed, instead of
-re-sorting, the second part for you to hear.” Canaris spoke almost
-roughly, and rose, as if about to go and do it now. But Gladys caught
-his hand, saying gayly, as she drew him out into the fire-light with
-persuasive energy,—
-
-“That you shall never do; but come and enjoy it with us. You need not be
-so modest, for you know you like it. Now I am perfectly happy.”
-
-She looked so, as she saw her husband sink into the tall-backed chair,
-and took her place beside him, laughing at the almost comic mixture of
-sternness, resignation, and impatience betrayed by his set lips, silent
-acquiescence, and excited eyes.
-
-“Now we are ready;” and Gladys folded her hands with the rapturous
-contentment of a child at its first fairy spectacle.
-
-“All but the story. I will fetch it;” and Helwyze stepped quickly behind
-the screen before either could stir.
-
-Gladys half rose, but Canaris drew her down again, whispering, in an
-almost resentful tone,—
-
-“Let him, if he will; you wait on him too much. I put the papers in
-order; he will read them easily enough.”
-
-“Nay, do not be angry, dear; he does it to please me, and surely no one
-could read it better. I know you would feel too much to do it well,” she
-answered, her hand in his, with its most soothing touch.
-
-There was no time for more. Helwyze returned, and, after a hasty
-resettling of the manuscript, read on, without pausing, to the story’s
-end, as if unconscious of fatigue, and bent on doing justice to the
-power of the _protégé_ whose success was his benefactor’s best reward.
-At first, Gladys glanced at her husband from time to time; but presently
-the living man beside her grew less real than that other, who, despite a
-new name and country, strange surroundings, and far different
-circumstances, was so unmistakably the same, that she could not help
-feeling and following his fate to its close, with an interest almost as
-intense as if, in very truth, she saw Canaris going to his end. Her
-interest in the woman lessened, and was lost in her eagerness to have
-the hero worthy of the love she gave, the honor others felt for him;
-and, when the romance brought him to defeat and death, she was so
-wrought upon by this illusion, that she fell into a passion of sudden
-tears, weeping as she had never wept before.
-
-Felix sat motionless, his hand over his eyes, lips closely folded, lest
-they should betray too much emotion; the irresistible conviction that it
-_was_ good, strengthening every instant, till he felt only the
-fascination and excitement of an hour, which foretold others even more
-delicious. When the tale ended, the melodious voice grew silent, and
-nothing was heard but the eloquent sobbing of a woman. Words seemed
-unnecessary, and none were uttered for several minutes, then Helwyze
-asked briefly,—
-
-“Shall we burn it?”
-
-As briefly Canaris answered “No;” and Gladys, quickly recovering the
-self-control so seldom lost, looked up with “a face, clear shining after
-rain,” as she said in the emphatic tone of deepest feeling,—
-
-“It would be like burning a live thing. But, Felix, you must not kill
-that man: I cannot have him die so. Let him live to conquer all his
-enemies, the worst in himself; then, if you must end tragically, let the
-woman go; she would not care, if he were safe.”
-
-“But she is the heroine of the piece; and, if it does not end with her
-lamenting over the fallen hero, the dramatic point is lost,” said
-Helwyze; for Canaris had sprung up, and was walking restlessly about the
-room, as if the spirits he had evoked were too strong to be laid even by
-himself.
-
-“I know nothing about that; but I feel the moral point would be lost, if
-it is not changed. Surely, powerful as pity is, a lofty admiration is
-better; and this poem would be nobler, in every way, if that man ends by
-living well, than by dying ignominiously in spite of his courage. I
-cannot explain it, but I am sure it is so; and I will not let Felix
-spoil his best piece of work by such a mistake.”
-
-“Then you like it? You would be happy if I changed and let it go before
-the world, for your sake more than for my own?”
-
-Canaris paused beside her, pale with some emotion stronger than
-gratified vanity or ambitious hope. Gladys thought it was love; and,
-carried out of herself by the tender pride that overflowed her heart and
-would not be controlled, she let an action, more eloquent than any
-words, express the happiness she was the first to feel, the homage she
-would be the first to pay. Kneeling before him, she clasped her hands
-together, and looked up at him with cheeks still wet, lips still
-tremulous, eyes still full of wonder, admiration, fervent gratitude, and
-love.
-
-In one usually so self-restrained as Gladys such joyful abandonment was
-doubly captivating and impressive. Canaris felt it so; and, lifting her
-up, pressed her to a heart whose loud throbbing thanked her, even while
-he gently turned her face away, as if he could not bear to see and
-receive such worship from so pure a source. The unexpected humility in
-his voice touched her strangely, and made her feel more deeply than ever
-how genuine was the genius which should yet make him great, as well as
-beloved.
-
-“I will do what you wish, for you see more clearly than I. You _shall_
-be happy, and I _will_ be proud of doing it, even if no one else sees
-any good in my work.”
-
-“They will! they must! It may not be the grandest thing you will ever
-do, but it is so human, it cannot fail to touch and charm; and to me
-that is as great an act as to astonish or dazzle by splendid learning or
-wonderful wit. Make it noble as well as beautiful, then people will love
-as well as praise you.”
-
-“I will try, Gladys. I see now what I should have written, and—if I
-can—it shall be done.”
-
-“I promised you inspiration, you remember: have I not kept my word?”
-asked Helwyze, forgotten, and content to be forgotten, until now.
-
-Canaris looked up quickly; but there was no gratitude in his face, as he
-answered, with his hand on the head he pressed against his shoulder, and
-a certain subdued passion in his voice,—
-
-“You have: not the highest inspiration; but, if _she_ is happy, it will
-atone for much.”
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-
-
-And Gladys _was_ happy for a little while. Canaris labored doggedly till
-all was finished as she wished. Helwyze lent the aid which commands
-celerity; and early in the new year the book came out, to win for itself
-and its author the admiration and regard she had prophesied. But while
-the outside world, with which she had little to do except through her
-husband, rejoiced over him and his work, she, in her own small world,
-where he was all in all, was finding cause to wonder and grieve at the
-change which took place in him.
-
-“I have done my task, now let me play,” he said; and play he did, quite
-as energetically as he had worked, though to far less purpose. Praise
-seemed to intoxicate him, for he appeared to forget every thing else,
-and bask in its sunshine, as if he never could have enough of it. His
-satisfaction would have been called egregious vanity, had it not been so
-gracefully expressed, and the work done so excellent that all agreed the
-young man had a right to be proud of it, and enjoy his reward as he
-pleased. He went out much, being again caressed and fêted to his heart’s
-content, leaving Gladys to amuse Helwyze; for a very little of this sort
-of gayety satisfied her, and there was something painful to her in the
-almost feverish eagerness with which her husband sought and enjoyed
-excitement of all kinds. Glad and proud though she was, it troubled her
-to see him as utterly engrossed as if existence had no higher aim than
-the most refined and varied pleasure; and she began to feel that, though
-the task was done, she had not got him back again from that other
-mistress, who seemed to have bewitched him with her dazzling charms.
-
-“He will soon have enough of it, and return to us none the worse.
-Remember how young he is; how natural that he should love pleasure
-overmuch, when he gets it, since he has had so little hitherto,” said
-Helwyze, answering the silent trouble in the face of Gladys; for she
-never spoke of her daily increasing anxiety.
-
-“But it does not seem to make him happy; and for that reason I sometimes
-think it cannot be the best kind of pleasure for him,” answered Gladys,
-remembering how flushed and weary he had been when he came in last
-night, so late that it was nearly dawn.
-
-“He is one who will taste all kinds, and not be contented till he has
-had his fill. Roaming about Europe with that bad, brilliant father of
-his gave him glimpses of many things which he was too poor to enjoy
-then, but not too young to remember and desire now, when it is possible
-to gratify the wish. Let him go, he will come back to you when he is
-tired. It is the only way to manage him, I find.”
-
-But Gladys did not think so; and, finding that Helwyze would not speak,
-she resolved that she would venture to do it, for many things disturbed
-her, which wifely loyalty forbade her to repeat; as well as a feeling
-that Helwyze would not see cause for anxiety in her simple fears, since
-he encouraged Felix in this reckless gayety.
-
-Some hours later, she found Canaris newly risen, sitting at his
-_escritoire_ in their own room, with a strew of gold and notes before
-him, which he affected to be counting busily; though when she entered
-she had seen him in a despondent attitude, doing nothing.
-
-“How pale you look. Why will you stay so late and get these weary
-headaches?” she asked, stroking the thick locks off his forehead with a
-caressing touch.
-
- “‘Too late I stayed, forgive the crime;
- Unheeded flew the hours;
- For lightly falls the foot of time,
- That only treads on flowers.’”
-
-sang Canaris, looking up at her with an assumption of mirth, sadder than
-the melancholy which it could not wholly hide.
-
-“You make light of it, Felix; but I am sure you will fall ill, if you do
-not get more sleep and quieter dreams,” she said, still smoothing the
-glossy dark rings of which she was so proud.
-
-“_Cara mia_, what do you know about my dreams?” he asked, with a hint of
-surprise in the manner, which was still careless.
-
-“You toss about, and talk so wildly sometimes, that it troubles me to
-hear you.”
-
-“I will stop it at once. What do I talk about? Something amusing, I
-hope,” he asked, quickly.
-
-“That I cannot tell, for you speak in French or Italian; but you sigh
-terribly, and often seem angry or excited about something.”
-
-“That is odd. I do not remember my dreams, but it is little wonder my
-poor wits are distraught, after all they have been through lately. Did I
-talk last night, and spoil your sleep, love?” asked Canaris, idly piling
-up a little heap of coins, though listening intently for her reply.
-
-“Yes: you seemed very busy, and said more than once, ‘Le jeu est fait,
-rien ne va plus.’ ‘Rouge gagne et couleur,’—or, ‘Rouge perd et couleur
-gagne.’ I know what those words mean, because I have read them in a
-novel; and they trouble me from your lips, Felix.”
-
-“I must have been dreaming of a week I once spent in Homberg, with my
-father. We don’t do that sort of thing here.”
-
-“Not under the same name, perhaps. Dear, do you ever play?” asked
-Gladys, leaning her cheek against the head which had sunk a little, as
-he leaned forward to smooth out the crumpled notes before him.
-
-“Why not? One must amuse one’s self.”
-
-“Not so. Please promise that you will try some safer way? This is
-not—honest.” She hesitated over the last word, for his tone had been
-short and sharp, but uttered it bravely, and stole an arm about his
-neck, mutely asking pardon for the speech which cost her so much.
-
-“What is? Life is all a lottery, and one must keep trying one’s luck
-while the wheel goes round; for prizes are few and blanks many, you
-know.”
-
-“Ah, do not speak in that reckless way. Forgive me for asking questions;
-but you are all I have, and I must take care of you, since no one else
-has the right.”
-
-“Or the will. Ask what you please. I will tell you any thing, my visible
-conscience;” and Canaris took her in the circle of his arm, subdued by
-the courageous tenderness that made her what he called her.
-
-“Is that all yours?” she whispered, pointing a small forefinger rather
-sternly at the money before him, and sweetening the question with a
-kiss.
-
-“No, it is yours, every penny of it. Put it in the little drawer, and
-make merry with it, else I shall be sorry I won it for you.”
-
-“That I cannot do. Please do not ask me. There is always enough in the
-little drawer for me, and I like better to use the money you have
-earned.”
-
-“Say, rather, the salary which _you_ earn and _I_ spend. It is all
-wrong, Gladys; but I cannot help it!” and Canaris pushed away his
-winnings, as if he despised them and himself.
-
-“It is my fault that you did this, because I begged you not to let Mr.
-Helwyze give me so much. I can take any thing from you, for I love you,
-but not from him; so you try to make me think you have enough to gratify
-my every wish. Is not that true?”
-
-“Yes: I hate to have you accept any thing from him, and find it harder
-to do so myself, than before you came. Yet I cannot help liking play;
-for it is an inherited taste, and he knows it.”
-
-“And does not warn you?”
-
-“Not he: I inherit my father’s luck as well as skill, and Helwyze enjoys
-hearing of my success in this, as in other things. We used to play
-together, till he tired of it. There is nothing equal to it when one is
-tormented with _ennui_!”
-
-“Felix, I fear that, though a kind friend, he is not a wise one. Why
-does he encourage your vices, and take no interest in strengthening your
-virtues? Forgive me, but we all have both, and I want you to be as good
-as you are gifted,” she said, with such an earnest, tender face, he
-could not feel offended.
-
-“He does not care for that. The contest between the good and evil in me
-interests him most, for he knows how to lay his hand on the weak or
-wicked spots in a man’s heart; and playing with other people’s passions
-is his favorite amusement. Have you not discovered this?”
-
-Canaris spoke gloomily, and Gladys shivered as she held him closer, and
-answered in a whisper,—
-
-“Yes, I feel as if under a microscope when with him; yet he is very kind
-to me, and very patient with my ignorance. Felix, is he trying to
-discover the evil in me, when he gives me strange things to read, and
-sits watching me while I do it?”
-
-“_Gott bewahre!_—but of this I am sure, he will find no evil in you, my
-white-souled little wife, unless he puts it there. Gladys, refuse to
-read what pains and puzzles you. I will not let him vex your peace. Can
-he not be content with me, since I am his, body and soul?”
-
-Canaris put her hastily away, to walk the room with a new sense of wrong
-hot within him at the thought of the dangers into which he had brought
-her against his will. But Gladys, caring only for him, ventured to add,
-with her kindling eyes upon his troubled face,—
-
-“I will not let him vex _your_ peace! Refuse to do the things which you
-feel are wrong, lest what are only pleasures now may become terrible
-temptations by and by. I love and trust you as he never can; I will not
-believe your vices stronger than your virtues; and I will defend you, if
-he tries to harm the husband God has given me.”
-
-“Bless you for that! it is so long since I have had any one to care for
-me, that I forget my duty to you. I am tired of all this froth and
-folly; I will stay at home hereafter; that will be safest, if not
-happiest.”
-
-He began impetuously, but his voice fell, and was almost inaudible at
-the last word, as he turned away to hide the expression of regret which
-he could not disguise. But Gladys heard and saw, and the vague fear
-which sometimes haunted her stirred again, and took form in the bitter
-thought, “Home is not happy: am I the cause?”
-
-She put it from her instantly, as if doubt were dishonor, and spoke out
-in the cordial tone which always cheered and soothed him,—
-
-“It shall be both, if I can make it so. Let me try, and perhaps I can do
-for you what Mr. Helwyze says I have done for him,—caused him to forget
-his troubles, and be glad he is alive.”
-
-Canaris swung round with a peculiar expression on his face.
-
-“He says that, does he? Then he is satisfied with his bargain! I thought
-as much, though he never condescended to confess it to me.”
-
-“What bargain, Felix?”
-
-“The pair of us. We were costly, but he got us, as he gets every thing
-he sets his heart upon. He was growing tired of me; but when I would
-have gone, he kept me, by making it possible for me to win you for
-myself—and him. Six months between us have shown you this, I know, and
-it is in vain to hide from you how much I long to break away and be free
-again—if I ever can.”
-
-He looked ready to break away at once, and Gladys sympathized with him,
-seeing now the cause of his unrest.
-
-“I know the feeling, for I too am tired of this life; not because it is
-so quiet, but so divided. I want to live for you alone, no matter how
-poor and humble my place may be. Now I am so little with you, I
-sometimes feel as if I should grow less and less to you, till I am
-nothing but a burden and a stumbling-block. Can we not go, and be happy
-somewhere else? must we stay here all our lives?” she asked, confessing
-the desire which had been strengthening rapidly of late.
-
-“While he lives I must stay, if he wants me. I cannot be ungrateful.
-Remember all he has done for me. It will not be long to wait, perhaps.”
-
-Canaris spoke hurriedly, as if regretting his involuntary outburst, and
-anxious to atone for it by the submission which always seemed at war
-with some stronger, if not nobler, sentiment. Gladys sat silent, lost in
-thought; while her husband swept the ill-gotten money into a drawer, and
-locked it up, as if relieved to have it out of sight. Soon the cloud
-lifted, however; and going to him, as he stood at the window, looking
-out with the air of a caged eagle, she said, with her hand upon his
-arm,—
-
-“You are right: we _will_ be grateful and patient; but while we wait we
-must work, because in that one always finds strength and comfort. What
-can we do to earn the wherewithal to found our own little home upon when
-this is gone? I have nothing valuable; have you?”
-
-“Nothing but this;” and he touched the bright head beside him, recalling
-the moment when she said her hair was all the gold she had.
-
-Gladys remembered it as well, and the promise then made to help him,
-both as wife and woman. The time seemed to have come; and, taking
-counsel of her own integrity, she had dared to speak in the “sincere
-voice that made truth sweeter than falsehood.” Now she tried, in her
-simple way, to show how the self-respect he seemed in danger of losing
-might be preserved by a task whose purpose would be both salvation and
-reward.
-
-“Then let the wit inside this head of mine show you how to turn an
-honest penny,” she began, unfolding her plan with an enthusiasm which
-redeemed its most prosaic features. “Mr. Helwyze says that even the best
-poetry is not profitable, except in fame. That you already have; and
-pride and pleasure in the new book is enough, without spoiling it by
-being vexed about the money it may bring. But you can use your pen in
-other ways, before it is time to write another poem. One of these ways
-is the translation of that curious Spanish book you were speaking of the
-other day. That will bring something, as it is rare and old; and you,
-that have half a dozen languages at your tongue’s end, can easily find
-plenty of such work, now that you do not absolutely need it.”
-
-“That sounds a little bitter, Gladys. Don’t let my resentful temper
-spoil your sweet one.”
-
-“I am learning fast; among other things, that to him who hath, more
-shall be given; so you, being a successful man, may hope for plenty of
-help from all _now_, though you were left to starve, when a kind word
-would have saved you so much suffering,” Gladys answered, not bitterly,
-but with a woman’s pitiful memory of the wrongs done those dearest her.
-
-“God knows it would!” ejaculated Canaris, with unusual fervor.
-
-“Mr. Helwyze remembers that, I think; and this is perhaps the reason why
-he is so generous now. Too much so for your good, I fear; and so I
-speak, because, young as I am, I cannot help trying to watch over you,
-as a wife should.”
-
-“I like it, Gladys. I am old, in many things, for my years, but a boy
-still in love, and you must teach me how to be worthy of all you give so
-generously and sweetly.”
-
-“Do I give the most?”
-
-“All women do, they say. But go on, and tell the rest of this fine plan
-of yours. While I use my polyglot accomplishments, what becomes of you?”
-he asked, hastily returning to the safer subject; for the wistful look
-in her eyes smote him to the heart.
-
-“I work also. You are still Mr. Helwyze’s _homme d’affaires_, as he
-calls you; I am still his reader. But when he does not need me, I shall
-take up my old craft again, and embroider, as I used at home. You do not
-know how skilful I am with the needle, and never dreamed that the
-initials on the handkerchiefs you admired so much were all my work. Oh,
-I am a thrifty wife, though such a little one!” and Gladys broke into
-her clear child’s laugh, which seemed to cheer them both, as a lark’s
-song makes music even in a cloud.
-
-Canaris laughed with her; for these glimpses of practical gifts and
-shrewd common sense in Gladys were very like the discovery of a rock
-under its veil of moss, or garland of airy columbines.
-
-“But what will _he_ say to all this?” asked the young man, with a
-downward gesture of the finger, and in his eye a glimmer of malicious
-satisfaction at the thought of having at least one secret in which
-Helwyze had no part.
-
-“We need not tell him. It is nothing to him what we do up here. Let him
-find out, if he cares to know,” answered Gladys, with a charmingly
-mutinous air, as she tripped away to her own little room.
-
-“He _will_ care, and he _will_ find out. He has no right; but that will
-not stop him,” returned Canaris, following to lean in the door-way, and
-watch her kneeling before a great basket, from which she pulled reels of
-gay silk, unfinished bits of work, and fragments of old lace.
-
-“See!” she said, holding up one of the latter, “I can both make and
-mend; and one who is clever at this sort of thing can earn a pretty
-penny in a quiet way. Through my old employer I can get all the work I
-want; so please do not forbid it, Felix: I should be so much happier, if
-I might?”
-
-“I will forbid nothing that makes you happy. But Helwyze will be
-exceeding wroth when he discovers it, unless the absurdity of beggars
-living in a palace strikes him as it does me.”
-
-“I am not afraid!”
-
-“You never saw him in a rage: I have. Quite calm and cool, but rather
-awful, as he withers you with a look, or drives you half wild with a
-word that stings like a whip, and makes you hate him.”
-
-“Still I would not fear him, unless I _had_ done wrong.”
-
-“He makes you feel so, whether you have or not; and you ask pardon for
-doing what you know is right. It is singular, but he certainly does make
-black seem white, sometimes,” mused Canaris, knitting his brows with the
-old perplexity.
-
-“I am afraid so;” and Gladys folded up a sigh in the parcel of rosy
-floss she laid away. Then she chased the frown from her husband’s face
-by talking blithely of the home they would yet earn and enjoy together.
-
-Conscious that things were more amiss with him than she suspected,
-Canaris was glad to try the new cure, and soon found it so helpful, that
-he was anxious to continue it. Very pleasant were the hours they spent
-together in their own rooms, when the duties they owed Helwyze were
-done; all the pleasanter for them, perhaps, because this domestic league
-of theirs shut him out from their real life as inevitably as it drew
-them nearer to one another.
-
-The task now in hand was one that Canaris could do easily and well; and
-Gladys’s example kept him at it when the charm of novelty was gone.
-While he wrote she sat near, so quietly busy, that he often forgot her
-presence; but when he looked up, the glance of approval, the encouraging
-word, the tender smile, were always ready, and wonderfully inspiring;
-for this sweet comrade grew dearer day by day. While he rested she still
-worked; and he loved to watch the flowery wonders grow beneath her
-needle, swift as skilful. Now a golden wheat-ear, a scarlet poppy, a
-blue violet; or the white embroidery, that made his eyes ache with
-following the tiny stitches, which seemed to sow seed-pearls along a
-hem, weave graceful ciphers, or make lace-work like a cobweb.
-
-Something in it pleased his artistic sense of the beautiful, and soothed
-him, as did the conversation that naturally went on between them.
-Oftenest he talked, telling her more of his varied life than any other
-human being knew; and in these confidences she found the clew to many
-things which had pained or puzzled her before; because, spite of her
-love, Gladys was clear-sighted, even against her will. Then she would
-answer with the story of her monotonous days, her lonely labors, dreams,
-and hopes; and they would comfort one another by making pictures of a
-future too beautiful ever to be true.
-
-Helwyze was quick to perceive the new change which came over Felix, the
-happy peace which had returned to Gladys. He “did care, and he did find
-out,” what the young people were about. At first he smiled at the girl’s
-delusion in believing that she could fix a nature so mercurial as that
-of Canaris, but did not wonder at his yielding, for a time at least, to
-such tender persuasion; and, calling them “a pair of innocents,” Helwyze
-let them alone, till he discovered that his power was in danger.
-
-Presently, he began to miss the sense of undivided control which was so
-agreeable to him. Canaris was as serviceable as ever, but no longer made
-him sole confidant, counsellor, and friend. Gladys was scrupulously
-faithful still, but her intense interest in his world of books was much
-lessened: for she was reading a more engrossing volume than any of
-these,—the heart of the man she loved. Something was gone which he had
-bargained for, thought he had secured, and now felt wronged at
-losing,—an indescribable charm, especially pervading his intercourse
-with Gladys; for this friendship, sweet as honey, pure as dew, had just
-begun to blossom, when a chilly breath seemed to check its progress,
-leaving only cheerful service, not the spontaneous devotion which had
-been so much to him.
-
-He said nothing; but for all his imperturbability, it annoyed him, as
-the gnat annoyed the lion; and, though scarcely acknowledged even to
-himself, it lurked under various moods and motives, impelling him to
-words and acts which produced dangerous consequences.
-
-“Pray forgive us, we are very late.”
-
-“Time goes so fast, we quite forgot!” exclaimed Felix and Gladys both
-together, as they hurried into the library, one bright March morning,
-looking so blithe and young, that Helwyze suddenly felt old and sad and
-bitter-hearted, as if they had stolen something from him.
-
-“I have learned to wait,” he said, with the cold brevity which was the
-only sign of displeasure Gladys ever saw in him.
-
-In remorseful silence she hastened to find her place in the book they
-were reading; but Canaris, who seemed bubbling over with good spirits,
-took no notice of the chill, and asked, with unabated cheerfulness,—
-
-“Any commissions, sir, beside these letters? I feel as if I ‘could put a
-girdle round the earth in forty minutes,’ it is such a glorious,
-spring-like day.”
-
-“Nothing but the letters. Stay a moment, while I add another;” and,
-taking up the pen he had laid by, Helwyze wrote hastily,—
-
- “TO OLIVIA AT THE SOUTH:—
-
- “The swallows will be returning soon; return with them, if you
- can. I am deadly dull: come and make a little mischief to amuse
- me. I miss you.
-
- JASPER.”
-
-Sealing and directing this, he handed it to Canaris, who had been
-whispering to Gladys more like a lover than a husband of half a year’s
-standing. Something in the elder man’s face made the younger glance
-involuntarily at the letter as he took it.
-
-“Olivia? I promised to write her, but I”—
-
-“Dared not?”
-
-“No: I forgot it;” and Canaris went off, laughing at the _grande
-passion_, which now seemed very foolish and far away.
-
-“This time, I think, you _will_ remember, for I mean to fight fire with
-fire,” thought Helwyze, with a grim smile, such as Louis XI. might have
-worn when sending some gallant young knight to carry his own
-death-warrant.
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- XII.
-
-
-Olivia came before the swallows; for the three words, “I miss you,”
-would have brought her from the ends of the earth, had she exiled
-herself so far. She had waited for him to want and call her, as he often
-did when others wearied or failed him. Seldom had so long a time passed
-without some word from him; and endless doubts, fears, conjectures, had
-harassed her, as month after month went by, and no summons came. Now she
-hastened, ready for any thing he might ask of her, since her reward
-would be a glimpse of the only heaven she knew.
-
-“Amuse Felix: he is falling in love with his wife, and it spoils both of
-them for my use. He says he has forgotten you. Come often, and teach him
-to remember, as penalty for his bad taste and manners,” was the single
-order Helwyze gave; but Olivia needed no other; and, for the sake of
-coming often, would have smiled upon a far less agreeable man than
-Canaris.
-
-Gladys tried to welcome the new guest cordially, as an unsuspicious dove
-might have welcomed a falcon to its peaceful cote; but her heart sunk
-when she found her happy quiet sorely disturbed, her husband’s place
-deserted, and the old glamour slowly returning to separate them, in
-spite of all her gentle arts. For Canaris, feeling quite safe in the
-sincere affection which now bound him to his wife, was foolhardy in his
-desire to show Olivia how heart-whole he had become. This piqued her
-irresistibly, because Helwyze was looking on, and she would win _his_
-approval at any cost. So these three, from divers motives, joined
-together to teach poor Gladys how much a woman can suffer with silent
-fortitude and make no sign.
-
-The weeks that followed seemed unusually gay and sunny ones; for April
-came in blandly, and Olivia made a pleasant stir throughout the house by
-her frequent visits, and the various excursions she proposed. Many of
-these Gladys escaped; for her pain was not the jealousy that would drive
-her to out-rival her rival, but the sorrowful shame and pity which made
-her long to hide herself, till Felix should come back and be forgiven.
-Helwyze naturally declined the long drives, the exhilarating rides in
-the bright spring weather, which were so attractive to the younger man,
-and sat at home watching Gladys, now more absorbingly interesting than
-ever. He could not but admire the patience, strength, and dignity of the
-creature; for she made no complaint, showed no suspicion, asked no
-advice, but went straight on, like one who followed with faltering feet,
-but unwavering eye, the single star in all the sky that would lead her
-right. A craving curiosity to know what she felt and thought possessed
-him, and he invited confidence by unwonted kindliness, as well as the
-unfailing courtesy he showed her.
-
-But Gladys would not speak either to him or to her husband, who seemed
-wilfully blind to the slowly changing face, all the sadder for the smile
-it always wore when his eyes were on it. At first, Helwyze tried his
-gentlest arts; but, finding her as true as brave, was driven, by the
-morbid curiosity which he had indulged till it became a mania, to use
-means as subtle as sinful,—like a burglar, who, failing to pick a lock,
-grows desperate and breaks it, careless of consequences.
-
-Taking his daily walk through the house, he once came upon Gladys
-watering the _jardinière_, which was her especial care, and always kept
-full of her favorite plants. She was not singing as she worked, but
-seriously busy as a child, holding in both hands her little watering-pot
-to shower the thirsty ferns and flowers, who turned up their faces to be
-washed with the silent delight which was their thanks.
-
-“See how the dear things enjoy it! I feel as if they knew and watched
-for me, and I never like to disappoint them of their bath,” she said,
-looking over her shoulder, as he paused beside her. She was used to this
-now, and was never surprised or startled when below stairs by his
-noiseless approach.
-
-“They are doing finely. Did Moss bring in some cyclamens? They are in
-full bloom now, and you are fond of them, I think?”
-
-“Yes, here they are: both purple and white, so sweet and lovely! See how
-many buds this one has. I shall enjoy seeing them come out, they unfurl
-so prettily;” and, full of interest, Gladys parted the leaves to show
-several baby buds, whose rosy faces were just peeping from their green
-hoods.
-
-Helwyze liked to see her among the flowers; for there was something
-peculiarly innocent and fresh about her then, as if the woman forgot her
-griefs, and was a girl again. It struck him anew, as she stood there in
-the sunshine, leaning down to tend the soft leaves and cherish the
-delicate buds with a caressing hand.
-
-“Like seeks like: you are a sort of cyclamen yourself. I never observed
-it before, but the likeness is quite striking,” he said, with the slow
-smile which usually prefaced some speech which bore a double meaning.
-
-“Am I?” and Gladys eyed the flowers, pleased, yet a little shy, of
-compliment from him.
-
-“This is especially like you,” continued Helwyze, touching one of the
-freshest. “Out of these strong sombre leaves rises a wraith-like
-blossom, with white, softly folded petals, a rosy color on its modest
-face, and a most sweet perfume for those whose sense is fine enough to
-perceive it. Most of all, perhaps, it resembles you in this,—it hides
-its heart, and, if one tries to look too closely, there is danger of
-snapping the slender stem.”
-
-“That is its nature, and it cannot help being shy. I kneel down and look
-up without touching it; then one sees that it has nothing to hide,”
-protested Gladys, following out the flower fancy, half in earnest, half
-in jest, for she felt there was a question and a reproach in his words.
-
-“Perhaps not; let us see, in my way.” With a light touch Helwyze turned
-the reluctant cyclamen upward, and in its purple cup there clung a newly
-fallen drop, like a secret tear.
-
-Mute and stricken, Gladys looked at the little symbol of herself,
-owning, with a throb of pain, that if in nothing else, they _were_ alike
-in that.
-
-Helwyze stood silent likewise, inhaling the faint fragrance while he
-softly ruffled the curled petals as if searching for another tear.
-Suddenly Gladys spoke out with the directness which always gave him a
-keen pleasure, asking, as she stretched her hand involuntarily to shield
-the more helpless flower,—
-
-“Sir, why do you wish to read my heart?”
-
-“To comfort it.”
-
-“Do I need comfort, then?”
-
-“Do you not?”
-
-“If I have a sorrow, God only can console me, and He only need know it.
-To you it should be sacred. Forgive me if I seem ungrateful; but you
-cannot help me, if you would.”
-
-“Do you doubt my will?”
-
-“I try to doubt no one; but I fear—I fear many things;” and, as if
-afraid of saying too much, Gladys broke off, to hurry away, wearing so
-strange a look that Helwyze was consumed with a desire to know its
-meaning.
-
-He saw no more of her till twilight, for Canaris took her place just
-then, reading a foreign book, which she could not manage; but, when
-Felix went out, he sought one of his solitary haunts, hoping she would
-appear.
-
-She did; for the day closed early with a gusty rain, and the sunset hour
-was gray and cold, leaving no after-glow to tint the western sky and
-bathe the great room in ruddy light. Pale and noiseless as a spirit,
-Gladys went to and fro, trying to quiet the unrest that made her nights
-sleepless, her days one long struggle to be patient, just, and kind. She
-tried to sing, but the song died in her throat; she tried to sew, but
-her eyes were dim, and the flower under her needle only reminded her
-that “pansies were for thoughts,” and hers, alas! were too sad for
-thinking; she took up a book, but laid it down again, since Felix was
-not there to finish it with her. Her own rooms seemed so empty, she
-could not return thither when she had looked for him in vain; and,
-longing for some human voice to speak to her, it was a relief to come
-upon Helwyze sitting in his lonely corner,—for she never now went to the
-library, unless duty called her.
-
-“A dull evening, and dull company,” he said, as she paused beside him,
-glad to have found something to take her out of herself, for a time at
-least.
-
-“Such a long day! and such a dreary night as it will be!” she answered,
-leaning her forehead against the window-pane, to watch the drops fall,
-and listen to the melancholy wind.
-
-“Shorten the one and cheer the other, as I do: sleep, dream, and
-forget.”
-
-“I cannot!” and there was a world of suffering in the words that broke
-from her against her will.
-
-“Try my sleep-compeller as freely as I tried yours. See, these will give
-you one, if not all the three desired blessings,—quiet slumber,
-delicious dreams, or utter oblivion for a time.”
-
-As he spoke, Helwyze had drawn out a little _bonbonnière_ of
-tortoise-shell and silver, which he always carried, and shaken into his
-palm half a dozen white comfits, which he offered to Gladys, with a
-benign expression born of real sympathy and compassion. She hesitated;
-and he added, in a tone of mild reproach, which smote her generous heart
-with compunction,—
-
-“Since I may not even try to minister to your troubled mind, let me, at
-least, give a little rest to your weary body. Trust me, child, these
-cannot hurt you; and, strong as you are, you will break down if you do
-not sleep.”
-
-Without a word, she took them; and, as they melted on her tongue, first
-sweet, then bitter, she stood leaning against the rainy window-pane,
-listening to Helwyze, who began to talk as if he too had tasted the
-Indian drug, which “made the face of Coleridge shine, as he conversed
-like one inspired.”
-
-It seemed a very simple, friendly act; but this man had learned to know
-how subtly the mind works; to see how often an apparently impulsive
-action is born of an almost unconscious thought, an unacknowledged
-purpose, a deeply hidden motive, which to many seem rather the child
-than the father of the deed. Helwyze did not deceive himself, and owned
-that baffled desire prompted that unpremeditated offer, and was ready to
-avail itself of any self-betrayal which might follow its acceptance, for
-he had given Gladys hasheesh.
-
-It could not harm; it might soothe and comfort her unrest. It surely
-would make her forget for a while, and in that temporary oblivion
-perhaps he might discover what he burned to know. The very uncertainty
-of its effect added to the daring of the deed; and, while he talked, he
-waited to see how it would affect her, well knowing that in such a
-temperament as hers all processes are rapid. For an hour he conversed so
-delightfully of Rome and its wonders, that Gladys was amazed to find
-Felix had come in, unheard for once.
-
-All through dinner she brightened steadily, thinking the happy mood was
-brought by her prodigal’s return, quite forgetting Helwyze and his
-bitter-sweet bonbons.
-
-“I shall stay at home, and enjoy the society of my pretty wife. What
-have you done to make yourself so beautiful to-night? Is it the new
-gown?” asked Canaris, surveying her with laughing but most genuine
-surprise and satisfaction as they returned to the drawing-room again.
-
-“It is not new: I made it long ago, to please you, but you never noticed
-it before,” answered Gladys, glancing at the pale-hued dress, all broad,
-soft folds from waist to ankle, with its winter trimming of swan’s down
-at the neck and wrists; simple, but most becoming to her flower-like
-face and girlish figure.
-
-“What cruel blindness! But I see and admire it now, and honestly declare
-that not Olivia in all her splendor is arrayed so much to my taste as
-you, my Sancta Simplicitas.”
-
-“It is pleasant to hear you say so; but that alone does not make me
-happy: it must be having you at home all to myself again,” she
-whispered, with shining eyes, cheeks that glowed with a deeper rose each
-hour, and an indescribably blest expression in a face which now was both
-brilliant and dreamy.
-
-Helwyze heard what she said, and, fearing to lose sight of her, promptly
-challenged Canaris to chess, a favorite pastime with them both. For an
-hour they played, well matched and keenly interested, while Gladys sat
-by, already tasting the restful peace, the delicious dreams, promised
-her.
-
-The clock was on the stroke of eight, the game was nearly over, when a
-quick ring arrested Helwyze in the act of making the final move. There
-was a stir in the hall, then, bringing with her a waft of fresh, damp
-air, Olivia appeared, brave in purple silk and Roman gold.
-
-“I thought you were all asleep or dead; but now I see the cause of this
-awful silence,” she cried. “Don’t speak, don’t stir; let me enjoy the
-fine tableau you make. Retsch’s ‘Game of Life,’ quite perfect, and most
-effective.”
-
-It certainly was to an observer; for Canaris, flushed and eager, looked
-the young man to the life; Helwyze, calm but intent, with his finger on
-his lip, pondering that last fateful move, was an excellent Satan; and
-behind them stood Gladys, wonderfully resembling the wistful angel, with
-that new brightness on her face.
-
-“Which wins?” asked Olivia, rustling toward them, conscious of having
-made an impressive entrance; for both men looked up to welcome her,
-though Gladys never lifted her eyes from the mimic battle Felix seemed
-about to lose.
-
-“I do, as usual,” answered Helwyze, turning to finish the game with the
-careless ease of a victor.
-
-“Not this time;” and Gladys touched a piece which Canaris in the hurry
-of the moment was about to overlook. He saw its value at a glance, made
-the one move that could save him, and in an instant cried “Checkmate,”
-with a laugh of triumph.
-
-“Not fair, the angel interfered,” said Olivia, shaking a warning finger
-at Gladys, who echoed her husband’s laugh with one still more exultant,
-as she put her hand upon his shoulder, saying, in a low, intense voice
-never heard from her lips before,—
-
-“I have won him; he is mine, and cannot be taken from me any more.”
-
-“Dearest child, no one wants him, except to play with and admire,” began
-Olivia, rather startled by the look and manner of the lately meek, mute
-Gladys.
-
-Here Helwyze struck in, anxious to avert Olivia’s attention; for her
-undesirable presence disconcerted him, since her woman’s wit might
-discover what it was easy to conceal from Canaris.
-
-“You have come to entertain us, like the amiable enchantress that you
-are?” he asked, suggestively; for nothing charmed Olivia more than
-permission to amuse him, when others failed.
-
-“I have a thought,—a happy thought,—if Gladys will help me. You have
-given me one living picture: I will give you others, and she shall sing
-the scenes we illustrate.”
-
-“Take Felix, and give us ‘The God and the Bayadere,’” said Helwyze,
-glancing at the young pair behind them, he intent upon their
-conversation, she upon him. “No, I will have only Gladys. You will act
-and sing for us, I know?” and Olivia turned to her with a most engaging
-smile.
-
-“I never acted in my life, but I will try. I think I should like it for
-I feel as if I could do any thing to-night;” and she came to them with a
-swift step, an eager air, as if longing to find some outlet for the
-strange energy which seemed to thrill every nerve and set her heart to
-beating audibly.
-
-“You look so. Do you know all these songs?” asked Olivia, taking up the
-book which had suggested her happy thought.
-
-“There are but four: I know them all. I will gladly sing them; for I set
-them to music, if they had none of their own already. I often do that to
-those Felix writes me.”
-
-“Come, then. I want the key of the great press, where you keep your
-spoils, Jasper.”
-
-“Mrs. Bland will give it you. Order what you will, if you are going to
-treat us to an Arabian Night’s entertainment.”
-
-“Better than that. We are going to teach a small poet, by illustrating
-the work of a great one;” and, with a mischievous laugh, Olivia
-vanished, beckoning Gladys to follow.
-
-The two men beguiled the time as best they might: Canaris playing softly
-to himself in the music-room; Helwyze listening intently to the sounds
-that came from behind the curtains, now dropped over a double door-way
-leading to the lower end of the hall. Olivia’s imperious voice was
-heard, directing men and maids. More than once an excited laugh from
-Gladys jarred upon his ear; and, as minute after minute passed, his
-impatience to see her again increased.
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- XIII.
-
-
-After what would have seemed a wonderfully short time to a more careless
-waiter, three blows were struck, in the French fashion, and Canaris had
-barely time to reach his place, when the deep blue curtains slid
-noiselessly apart, showing the visible portion of the hall, arranged to
-suggest a mediæval room. An easy task, when a suit of rusty armor
-already stood there; and Helwyze had brought spoils from all quarters of
-the globe, in the shape of old furniture, tapestry, weapons, and
-trophies of many a wild hunt.
-
-“What is it?” whispered Canaris eagerly.
-
-“An Idyl of the King.”
-
-“I see: the first. How well they look it!”
-
-They did; Olivia, as
-
- “An ancient dame in dim brocade;
- And near her, like a blossom, vermeil-white,
- That lightly breaks a faded flower-sheath,
- Stood the fair Enid, all in faded silk.”
-
-Gladys, clad in a quaint costume of tarnished gray and silver damask,
-singing, in “the sweet voice of a bird,”—
-
- “Turn, Fortune, turn thy wheel, and lower the proud;
- Turn thy wild wheel through sunshine, storm, and cloud;
- Thy wheel and thee we neither love nor hate.
-
- “Turn, Fortune, turn thy wheel with smile and frown;
- With that wild wheel we go not up nor down;
- Our hoard is little, but our hearts are great.
-
- “Smile and we smile, the lords of many lands;
- Frown and we smile, the lords of our own hands;
- For man is man and master of his fate.
-
- “Turn, turn thy wheel above the staring crowd;
- Thy wheel and thou art shadows in the cloud;
- Thy wheel and thee we neither love nor hate.”
-
-There was something inexpressibly touching in the way Gladys gave the
-words, which had such significance addressed to those who listened so
-intently, that they nearly forgot to pay the tribute which all actors,
-the greatest as the least, desire, when the curtain dropped, and the
-song was done.
-
-“A capital idea of Olivia’s, and beautifully carried out. This promises
-to be pleasant;” and Helwyze sat erect upon the divan, where Canaris
-came to lounge beside him.
-
-“Which comes next? I don’t remember. If it is Vivien, they will have to
-skip it, unless they call you in for Merlin,” he said, talking gayly,
-because a little conscience-stricken by the look Gladys wore, as she
-sung, with her eyes upon him,—
-
- “Our hoard is little, but our hearts are great.”
-
-“They will not want a Merlin; for Gladys could not act Vivien, if she
-would,” answered Helwyze, tapping restlessly as he waited.
-
-“She said she could do ‘_any thing_’ to-night; and, upon my life, she
-looked as if she might even beguile you ‘mighty master,’ of your
-strongest spell.”
-
-“She will never try.”
-
-But both were mistaken; for, when they looked again, the dim light
-showed a dark and hooded shape, with glittering eyes and the semblance
-of a flowing, hoary beard, leaning half-hidden in a bower of tall shrubs
-from the conservatory. It was Olivia, as Merlin; and, being of noble
-proportions, she looked the part excellently. Upon the wizard’s knee sat
-Vivien,—
-
- “A twist of gold was round her hair;
- A robe of samite without price, that more exprest
- Than hid her, clung about her lissome limbs,
- In color like the satin-shining palm
- On sallows in the windy gleams of March.”
-
-In any other mood, Gladys would never have consented to be loosely clad
-in a great mantle of some Indian fabric, which shimmered like woven
-light, with its alternate stripes of gold-covered silk and softest wool.
-Shoulders and arms showed rosy white under the veil of hair which swept
-to her knee, as she clung there, singing sweet and low, with eyes on
-Merlin’s face, lips near his own, and head upon his breast:—
-
- “In Love, if Love be Love, if Love be ours,
- Faith and unfaith can ne’er be equal powers;
- Unfaith in aught is want of faith in all.
-
- “It is the little rift within the lute
- That by and by will make the music mute,
- And ever widening, slowly silence all.
-
- “The little rift within the lover’s lute,
- Or little pitted speck in garner’d fruit,
- That, rotting inward, slowly moulders all.
-
- “It is not worth the keeping: let it go:
- But shall it? Answer, darling, answer ‘No;’
- And trust me not at all or all in all.”
-
-There Gladys seemed to forget her part, and, turning, stretched her arms
-towards her husband, as if in music she had found a tongue to plead her
-cause. The involuntary gesture recalled to her that other verse which
-Vivien added to her song; and something impelled her to sing it,
-standing erect, with face, figure, voice all trembling with the strong
-emotion that suddenly controlled her:—
-
- “My name, once mine, now thine, is closelier mine,
- For fame, could fame be mine, that fame were thine;
- And shame, could shame be thine, that shame were mine;
- So trust me not at all or all in all.”
-
-Down fell the curtain there, and the two men looked at one another in
-silence for an instant, dazzled, troubled, and surprised; for in this
-brilliant, impassioned creature they did not recognize the Gladys they
-believed they knew so well.
-
-“What possessed her to sing that? She is so unlike herself, I do not
-know her,” said Canaris, excited by the discoveries he was making.
-
-“She is inspired to-night; so be prepared for any thing. These women
-will work wonders, they are acting to the men they love,” answered
-Helwyze, warily, yet excited also; because, for him, a double drama was
-passing on that little stage, and he found it marvellously fascinating.
-
-“I never knew how beautiful she was!” mused Canaris, half aloud, his
-eyes upon the blue draperies which hid her from his sight.
-
-“You never saw her in such gear before. Splendor suits her present mood,
-as well as simplicity becomes her usual self-restraint. You have made
-her jealous, and your angel will prove herself a woman, after all.”
-
-“Is that the cause of this sudden change in her? Then I don’t regret
-playing truant, for the woman suits me better than the angel,” cried
-Canaris, conscious that the pale affection he had borne his wife so long
-was already glowing with new warmth and color, in spite of his seeming
-neglect.
-
-“Wait till you see Olivia as Guinevere. I know she cannot resist that
-part, and I suspect she is willing to efface herself so far that she may
-take us by storm by and by.”
-
-Helwyze prophesied truly; and, when next the curtains parted, the
-stately Queen sat in the nunnery of Almesbury, with the little novice at
-her feet. Olivia _was_ right splendid now, for her sumptuous beauty well
-became the costly stuffs in which she had draped herself with the
-graceful art of a woman whose physical loveliness was her best
-possession. A trifle _too_ gorgeous, perhaps, for the repentant
-Guinevere; but a most grand and gracious spectacle, nevertheless, as she
-leaned in the tall carved chair, with jewelled arms lying languidly
-across her lap, and absent eyes still full of love and longing for lost
-Launcelot.
-
-Gladys, in white wimple and close-folded gown of gray, sat on a stool
-beside the “one low light,” humming softly, her rosary fallen at her
-feet,—
-
- “the Queen looked up, and said,
- ‘O maiden, if indeed you list to sing
- Sing, and unbind my heart, that I may weep.’
- Whereat full willingly sang the little maid,
-
- Late, late, so late! and dark the night and chill!
- Late, late, so late! but we can enter still.
- Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.
-
- No light had we: for that we do repent,
- And, learning this, the bridegroom will relent.
- Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.
-
- No light, so late! and dark and chill the night!
- O let us in, that we may find the light!
- Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.
-
- Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet?
- O let us in, tho’ late, to kiss his feet!
- No, no, too late! ye cannot enter now.”
-
-Slowly the proud head had drooped, the stately figure sunk, till, as the
-last lament died away, nothing remained of splendid Guinevere but a
-hidden face, a cloud of black hair from which the crown had fallen, a
-heap of rich robes quivering with the stormy sobs of a guilty woman’s
-smitten heart. The curtains closed on this tableau, which was made the
-more effective by the strong contrast between the despairing Queen and
-the little novice telling her beads in meek dismay.
-
-“Good heavens, that sounded like the wail of a lost soul! My blood runs
-cold, and I feel as if I ought to say my prayers,” muttered Canaris,
-with a shiver; for, with his susceptible temperament, music always
-exerted over him an almost painful power.
-
-“If you knew any,” sneered Helwyze, whose eyes now glittered with
-something stronger than excitement.
-
-“I do: Gladys taught me, and I am not ashamed to own it.”
-
-“Much good may it do you.” Then, in a quieter tone, he asked, “Is there
-any song in ‘Elaine’? I forget; and that is the only one we have not
-had.”
-
-“There is ‘The Song of Love and Death.’ Gladys was learning it lately;
-and, if I remember rightly, it was heart-rending. I hope she will not
-sing it, for this sort of thing is rather too much for me;” and Canaris
-got up to wander aimlessly about, humming the gayest airs he knew, as if
-to drown the sorrowful “Too late! too late!” still wailing in his ear.
-
-By this time Gladys was no longer quite herself: an inward excitement
-possessed her, a wild desire to sing her very heart out came over her,
-and a strange chill, which she thought a vague presentiment of coming
-ill, crept through her blood. Every thing seemed vast and awful; every
-sense grew painfully acute; and she walked as in a dream, so vivid, yet
-so mysterious, that she did not try to explain it even to herself. Her
-identity was doubled: one Gladys moved and spoke as she was told,—a
-pale, dim figure, of no interest to any one; the other was alive in
-every fibre, thrilled with intense desire for something, and bent on
-finding it, though deserts, oceans, and boundless realms of air were
-passed to gain it.
-
-Olivia wondered at her unsuspected power, and felt a little envious of
-her enchanting gift. But she was too absorbed in “setting the stage,”
-dressing her prima donna, and planning how to end the spectacle with her
-favorite character of Cleopatra, to do more than observe that Gladys’s
-eyes were luminous and large, her face growing more and more colorless,
-her manner less and less excited, yet unnaturally calm.
-
-“This is the last, and you have the stage alone. Do your best for Felix;
-then you shall rest and be thanked,” she whispered, somewhat anxiously,
-as she placed Elaine in her tower, leaning against the dark screen,
-which was unfolded, to suggest the casement she flung back when
-Launcelot passed below,—
-
- “And glanced not up, nor waved his hand,
- Nor bade farewell, but sadly rode away.”
-
-The “lily maid of Astolat” could not have looked more wan and weird than
-Gladys, as she stood in her trailing robes of dead white, with loosely
-gathered locks, hands clasped over the gay bit of tapestry which
-simulated the cover of the shield, eyes that seemed to see something
-invisible to those about her, and began her song, in a veiled voice, at
-once so sad and solemn, that Helwyze held his breath, and Canaris felt
-as if she called him from beyond the grave:—
-
- “Sweet is true love, tho’ given in vain, in vain;
- And sweet is death, who puts an end to pain;
- I know not which is sweeter, no, not I.
-
- Love, art thou sweet? then bitter death must be;
- Love, thou art bitter; sweet is death to me.
- O Love, if death be sweeter, let me die.
-
- Sweet love, that seems not made to fade away,
- Sweet death, that seems to make us loveless clay,
- I know not which is sweeter, no, not I.
-
- I fain would follow love, if that could be;
- I needs must follow death, who calls for me:
- Call and I follow, I follow! let me die!”
-
-Carried beyond self-control by the unsuspected presence of the drug,
-which was doing its work with perilous rapidity, Gladys, remembering
-only that the last line should be sung with force, and that she sung for
-Felix, obeyed the wild impulse to let her voice rise and ring out with a
-shrill, despairing power and passion, which startled every listener, and
-echoed through the room, like Elaine’s unearthly cry of hapless love and
-death.
-
-Olivia dropped her asp, terrified; the maids stared, uncertain whether
-it was acting or insanity; and Helwyze sprung up aghast, fearing that he
-had dared too much. But Canaris, seeing only the wild, woful eyes fixed
-on his, the hands wrung as if in pain, forgot every thing but Gladys,
-and rushed between the curtains, exclaiming in real terror,—
-
-“Don’t look so! don’t sing so! my God, she is dying!”
-
-Not dying, only slipping fast into the unconscious stage of the hasheesh
-dream, whose coming none can foretell but those accustomed to its use.
-Pale and quiet she lay in her husband’s arms, with half-open eyes and
-fluttering breath, smiling up at him so strangely that he was bewildered
-as well as panic-stricken. Olivia forgot her Cleopatra to order air and
-water; the maids flew for salts and wine; Helwyze with difficulty hid
-his momentary dismay; while Canaris, almost beside himself, could only
-hang over the couch where lay “the lily-maid,” looking as if already
-dead, and drifting down to Camelot.
-
-“Gladys, do you know me?” he cried, as a little color came to her lips
-after the fiery draught Olivia energetically administered.
-
-The eyes opened wider, the smile grew brighter, and she lifted her hand
-to bring him nearer, for he seemed immeasurably distant.
-
-“Felix! Let me be still, quite still; I want to sleep. Good-night,
-good-night.”
-
-She thought she kissed him; then his face receded, vanished, and, as she
-floated buoyantly away upon the first of the many oceans to be crossed
-in her mysterious quest, a far-off voice seemed to say, solemnly, as if
-in a last farewell,—
-
-“Hush! let her sleep in peace.”
-
-It was Helwyze; and, having felt her pulse, he assured them all that she
-was only over-excited, must rest an hour or two, and would soon be quite
-herself again. So the brief panic ended quietly; and, having lowered the
-lights, spread Guinevere’s velvet mantle over her, and re-assured
-themselves that she was sleeping calmly, the women went to restore order
-to ante-room and hall, Canaris sat down to watch beside Gladys, and
-Helwyze betook himself to the library.
-
-“Is she still sleeping?” he asked, with unconcealable anxiety, when
-Olivia joined him there.
-
-“Like a baby. What a high-strung little thing it is. If she had strength
-to bear the training, she would make a cantatrice to be proud of,
-Jasper.”
-
-“Ah, but she never would! Fancy that modest creature on a stage for all
-the world to gape at. She was happiest in the nun’s gown to-night,
-though simply ravishing as Vivien. The pretty, bare feet were most
-effective; but how did you persuade her to it?”
-
-“I had no sandals as a compromise: I therefore insisted that the part
-_must_ be so dressed or undressed, and she submitted. People usually do,
-when I command.”
-
-“She was on her mettle: I could see that; and well she might be, with
-you for a rival. I give you my word, Olivia, if I did not know you were
-nearly forty, I should swear it was a lie; for ‘age cannot wither nor
-custom stale’ my handsome Cleopatra. We ought to have had that, by the
-by: it used to be your best bit. I could not be your Antony, but Felix
-might: he adores costuming, and would do it capitally.”
-
-“Not old enough. Ah! what happy times those were;” and Olivia sighed
-sincerely, yet dramatically, for she knew she was looking wonderfully
-well, thrown down upon a couch, with her purple skirts sweeping about
-her, and two fine arms banded with gold clasped over her dark head.
-
-Helwyze had flattered with a purpose. Canaris was in the way, Gladys
-might betray herself, and all was not safe yet; though in one respect
-the experiment had succeeded admirably, for he still tingled with the
-excitement of the evening. Now he wanted help, not sentiment, and,
-ignoring the sigh, said, carelessly,—
-
-“If all obey when you insist, just make Felix go home with you. The
-drive will do him good, for he is as nervous as a woman, and I shall
-have him fidgeting about all night, unless he forgets his fright.”
-
-“But Gladys?”
-
-“She will be the better for a quiet nap, and ready, by the time he
-returns, to laugh at her heroics. He will only disturb her if he sits
-there, like a mourner at a death-bed.”
-
-“That sounds sensible and friendly, and you do it very well, Jasper; but
-I am impressed that something is amiss. What is it? Better tell me; I
-shall surely find it out, and will not work in the dark. I see mischief
-in your eyes, and you cannot deceive me.”
-
-Olivia spoke half in jest; but she had so often seen his face without a
-mask, that it was difficult to wear one in her presence. He frowned,
-hesitated, then fearing she would refuse the favor if he withheld the
-secret, he leaned towards her and answered in a whisper,—
-
-“I gave Gladys hasheesh, and do not care to have Felix know it.”
-
-“Jasper, how dared you?”
-
-“She was restless, suffering for sleep. I know what that is, and out of
-pity gave her the merest taste. Upon my honor, no more than a child
-might safely take. She did not know what it was, and I thought she would
-only feel its soothing charm. She would, if it had not been for this
-masquerading. I did not count on that, and it was too much for her.”
-
-“Will she not suffer from the after-effects?”
-
-“Not a whit, if she is let alone. An hour hence she will be deliciously
-drowsy, and to-morrow none the worse. I had no idea it would affect her
-so powerfully; but I do not regret it, for it showed what the woman is
-capable of.”
-
-“At your old tricks. You will never learn to let your fellow-creatures
-alone, till something terrible stops you. You were always prying into
-things, even as a boy, when I caught butterflies for you to look at.”
-
-“I never killed them: only brushed off a trifle of the gloss by my
-touch, and let them go again, none the worse, except for the loss of a
-few invisible feathers.”
-
-“Ah! but that delicate plumage is the glory of the insect; robbed of
-that, its beauty is marred. No one but their Maker can search hearts
-without harming them. I wonder how it will fare with yours when He looks
-for its perfection?”
-
-Olivia spoke with a sudden seriousness, a yearning look, which jarred on
-nerves already somewhat unstrung, and Helwyze answered, in a mocking
-tone that silenced her effectually,—
-
-“I am desperately curious to know. If I can come and tell you, I will:
-such pious interest deserves that attention.”
-
-“Heaven forbid!” ejaculated Olivia, with a shiver.
-
-“Then I will _not_. I have been such a poor ghost here, I suspect I
-shall be glad to rest eternally when I once fall asleep, if I can.”
-
-Weary was his voice, weary his attitude, as, leaning an elbow on either
-knee, he propped his chin upon his hands, and sat brooding for a moment
-with his eyes upon the ground, asking himself for the thousandth time
-the great question which only hope and faith can answer truly.
-
-Olivia rose. “You are tired; so am I. Good-night, Jasper, and pleasant
-dreams. But remember, no more tampering with Gladys, or I must tell her
-husband.”
-
-“I have had my lesson. Take Felix with you, and I will send Mrs. Bland
-to sit with her till he comes back. Good-night, my cousin; thanks for a
-glimpse of the old times.” Such words, uttered with a pressure of the
-hand, conquered Olivia’s last scruple, and she went away to prefer her
-request in a form which made it impossible for Canaris to refuse. Gladys
-still slept quietly. The distance was not long, the fresh air grateful,
-Olivia her kindest self, and he obeyed, believing that the motherly old
-woman would take his place as soon as certain housewifely duties
-permitted.
-
-Then Helwyze did an evil thing,—a thing few men could or would have
-done. He deliberately violated the sanctity of a human soul, robbing it
-alike of its most secret and most precious thoughts. Hasheesh had lulled
-the senses which guarded the treasure; now the magnetism of a potent
-will forced the reluctant lips to give up the key.
-
-Like a thief he stole to Gladys’ side, took in his the dimpled hands
-whose very childishness should have pleaded for her, and fixed his eyes
-upon the face before him, untouched by its helpless innocence, its
-unnatural expression. The half-open eyes were heavy as dew-drunken
-violets, the sweet red mouth was set, the agitated bosom still rose and
-fell, like a troubled sea subsiding after storm.
-
-So sitting, stern and silent as the fate he believed in, Helwyze
-concentrated every power upon the accomplishment of the purpose to which
-he bent his will. He called it psychological curiosity; for not even to
-himself did he dare confess the true meaning of the impulse which drove
-him to this act, and dearly did he pay for it.
-
-Soon the passive palms thrilled in his own, the breath came faint and
-slow, color died, and life seemed to recede from the countenance,
-leaving a pale effigy of the woman; lately so full of vitality. “It
-works! it works!” muttered Helwyze, lifting his head at length to wipe
-the dampness from his brow, and send a piercing glance about the shadowy
-room. Then, kneeling down beside the couch, he put his lips to her ear,
-whispering in a tone of still command,—
-
-“Gladys, do you hear me?”
-
-Like the echo of a voice, so low, expressionless, and distant was it,
-the answer came,—
-
-“I hear.”
-
-“Will you answer me?”
-
-“I must.”
-
-“You have a sorrow,—tell it.”
-
-“All is so false. I am unhappy without confidence,” sighed the voice.
-
-“Can you trust no one?”
-
-“No one here, but Felix.”
-
-“Yet he deceives, he does not love you.”
-
-“He will.”
-
-“Is this the hope which sustains you?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“And you forgive, you love him still?”
-
-“Always.”
-
-“If the hope fails?”
-
-“It will not: I shall have help.”
-
-“What help?”
-
-No answer now, but the shadow of a smile seemed to float across the
-silent lips as if reflected from a joy too deep and tender for speech to
-tell.
-
-“Speak! what is this happiness? The hope of freedom?”
-
-“It will come.”
-
-“How?”
-
-“When you die.”
-
-He caught his breath, and for an instant seemed daunted by the truth he
-had evoked; for it was terrible, so told, so heard.
-
-“You hate me, then?” he whispered, almost fiercely, in the ear that
-never shrank from his hot lips.
-
-“I doubt and dread you.”
-
-“Why, Gladys, why? To you I am not cruel.”
-
-“Too kind, alas, too kind!”
-
-“And yet you fear me?”
-
-“God help us. Yes.”
-
-“What is your fear?”
-
-“No, no, I will _not_ tell it!”
-
-Some inward throe of shame or anguish turned the pale face paler,
-knotted the brow, and locked the lips, as if both soul and body revolted
-from the thought thus ruthlessly dragged to light. Instinct, the first,
-last, strongest impulse of human nature, struggled blindly to save the
-woman from betraying the dread which haunted her heart like a spectre,
-and burned her lips in the utterance of its name. But Helwyze was
-pitiless, his will indomitable; his eye held, his hand controlled, his
-voice commanded; and the answer came, so reluctantly, so inaudibly, that
-he seemed to divine, not hear it.
-
-“What fear?”
-
-“Your love.”
-
-“You see, you know it, then?”
-
-“I do not see, I vaguely feel; I pray God I may never know.”
-
-With the involuntary recoil of a guilty joy, a shame as great, Helwyze
-dropped the nerveless hands, turned from the mutely accusing face, let
-the troubled spirit rest, and asked no more. But his punishment began as
-he stood there, finding the stolen truth a heavier burden than baffled
-doubt or desire had been; since forbidden knowledge was bitter to the
-taste, forbidden love possessed no sweetness, and the hidden hope,
-putting off its well-worn disguise, confronted him in all its ugliness.
-
-An awesome silence filled the room, until he lifted up his eyes, and
-looked at Gladys with a look which would have wrung her heart could she
-have seen it. She did not see; for she lay there so still, so white, so
-dead, he seemed to have scared away the soul he had vexed with his
-impious questioning.
-
-In remorseful haste, Helwyze busied himself about her, till she woke
-from that sleep within a sleep, moaned wearily, closed the unseeing
-eyes, and drifted away into more natural slumber, dream-haunted, but
-deep and quiet.
-
-Then he stole away as he had come, and, sending the old woman to watch
-Gladys, shut himself into his own room, to keep a vigil which lasted
-until dawn; for all the poppies of the East could not have brought
-oblivion that night.
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- XIV.
-
-
-It seemed as if some angel had Gladys in especial charge, bringing light
-out of darkness, joy out of sorrow, good out of evil; for no harm came
-to her,—only a great peace, which transfigured her face till it was as
-spiritually beautiful, as that of some young Madonna.
-
-Waking late the next day she remembered little of the past night’s
-events, and cared to remember little, having clearer and calmer thoughts
-to dwell upon, happier dreams to enjoy.
-
-She suspected Helwyze of imprudent kindness, but uttered no reproach,
-quite unconscious of how much she had to forgive; thereby innocently
-adding to both the relief and the remorse he felt. The doubt and dread
-which had risen to the surface at his command, seemed to sink again into
-the depths; and hope and love, to still the troubled waters where her
-life-boat rode at anchor for a time.
-
-Canaris, as if tired of playing truant, was ready now to be forgiven;
-more conscious than ever before that this young wife was a possession to
-be proud of, since, when she chose, she could eclipse even Olivia. The
-jealousy which could so inspire her flattered his man’s vanity, and made
-her love more precious; for not yet had he learned all its depth, nor
-how to be worthy of it. The reverence he had always felt increased
-fourfold, but the affection began to burn with a stronger flame; and
-Canaris, for the first time, tasted the pure happiness of loving another
-better than himself. Glad to feel, yet ashamed to own, a sentiment whose
-sincerity made it very sweet, he kept it to himself, and showed no sign,
-except a new and most becoming humility of manner when with Gladys, as
-if silently asking pardon for many shortcomings. With Helwyze he was
-cold and distant, evidently dreading to have him discover the change he
-had foretold, and feeling as if his knowledge of it would profane the
-first really sacred emotion the young man had known since his mother
-died.
-
-Anxious for some screen behind which to hide the novel, yet most
-pleasurable, sensations which beset him, he found Olivia a useful
-friend, and still kept up some semblance of the admiration, out of which
-all dangerous ardor was fast fading. She saw this at once, and did not
-regret it: for she had a generous nature, which an all-absorbing and
-unhappy passion had not entirely spoiled.
-
-Obedience to Helwyze was her delight; but, knowing him better than any
-other human being could, she was troubled by his increasing interest in
-Gladys, more especially since discovering that the girl possessed the
-originality, fire, and energy which were more attractive to him than her
-youth, gentleness, or grace. Jealousy was stronger than the desire to
-obey; and, calling it compassion, Olivia resolved to be magnanimous, and
-spare Gladys further pain, letting Canaris return to his allegiance, as
-he seemed inclined to do, unhindered by any act of hers.
-
-“The poor child is so young, so utterly unable to cope with me, it is
-doubly cruel to torment her, just to gratify a whim of Jasper’s. Better
-make my peace handsomely, and be her friend, than rob her of the only
-treasure she possesses, since I do not covet it,” she thought, driving
-through the May-day sunshine, to carry Jasper the earliest sprays of
-white and rosy hawthorn from the villa garden, whither she had been to
-set all in order for the summer.
-
-Helwyze was not yet visible; and, full of her new design, Olivia
-hastened up to find Gladys, meaning by some friendly word, some
-unmistakable but most delicate hint, to reassure her regarding the
-errant young husband, whom she had not yet learned to hold.
-
-There was no answer to her hasty tap, and Olivia went in to seek yet
-further. Half-way across the larger apartment she paused abruptly, and
-stood looking straight before her, with a face which passed rapidly from
-its first expression of good-will to one of surprise, then softened,
-till tears stood in the brilliant eyes, and some sudden memory or
-thought made that usually proud countenance both sad and tender.
-
-Gladys sat alone in her little room, her work lying on her knee, her
-arms folded, her head bent, singing to herself as she rocked to and fro,
-lost in some reverie that made her lips smile faintly, and her voice
-very low. She often sat so now, but Olivia had never seen her thus; and,
-seeing, divined at once the hope which lifted her above all sorrow, the
-help sent by Heaven, when most she needed it. For the song Gladys sang
-was a lullaby, the look she wore was that which comes to a woman’s face
-when she rocks her first-born on her knee, and above her head was a new
-picture, an angel, with the Lily of Annunciation in its hand.
-
-The one precious memory of Olivia’s stormy life was the little daughter,
-who for a sweet, short year was all in all to her, and whose small grave
-was yearly covered with the first spring flowers. Fresh from this secret
-pilgrimage, the woman’s nature was at its noblest now; and seeing that
-other woman, so young, so lonely, yet so blest, her heart yearned over
-her,—
-
- “All her worser self slipped from her
- Like a robe,”—
-
-and, hurrying in, she said, impulsively,—
-
-“O child, I wish you had a mother!”
-
-Gladys looked up, unstartled from the calm in which she dwelt. Olivia’s
-face explained her words, and she answered them with the only reproach
-much pain had wrung from her,—
-
-“_You_ might have been one to me.”
-
-“It is not too late! What shall I do to prove my sincerity?” cried
-Olivia, stricken with remorse.
-
-“Help me to give my little child an honest father.”
-
-“I will! show me how.”
-
-Then these two women spent a memorable hour together; for the new tie of
-motherhood bridged across all differences of age and character, made
-confession easy, confidence sweet, friendship possible. Yet, after all,
-Gladys was the comforter, Olivia the one who poured out her heart, and
-found relief in telling the sorrows that had been, the temptations that
-still beset her, the good that yet remained to answer, when the right
-chord was touched. She longed to give as much as she received; but when
-she had owned, with a new sense of shame, that she was merely playing
-with Canaris for her own amusement (being true to Helwyze even in her
-falsehood), there seemed no more for her to do, since Gladys asked but
-one other question, and that she could not answer.
-
-“If he does not love you, and, perhaps, it is as you say,—only a poet’s
-admiration for beauty,—what _is_ the trouble that keeps us apart? At
-first I was too blindly happy to perceive it; now tears have cleared my
-eyes, and I see that he hides something from me,—something which he
-longs, yet dares not tell.”
-
-“I know: I saw it long ago; but Jasper alone can tell that secret. He
-holds Felix by it, and I fear the knowledge would be worse than the
-suspicion. Let it be: time sets all things right, and it is ill
-thwarting my poor cousin. I have a charming plan for you and Felix; and,
-when you have him to yourself, you may be able to win his confidence,
-as, I am sure, you have already won his heart.”
-
-Then Olivia told her plan, which was both generous and politic; since it
-made Gladys truly happy, proved her own sincerity, secured her own peace
-and that of the men whose lives seemed to become more and more
-inextricably tangled together.
-
-“Now I shall go to Jasper, and conquer all his opposition; for I know I
-am right. Dear little creature, what is it about you that makes one feel
-both humble and strong when one is near you?” asked Olivia, looking down
-at Gladys with a hand on either shoulder, and genuine wonder in the eyes
-still soft with unwonted tears.
-
-“God made me truthful, and I try to keep so; that is all,” she answered,
-simply.
-
-“That is enough. Kiss me, Gladys, and make me better. I am not good
-enough to be the mother that I might have been to you; but I _am_ a
-friend; believe that, and trust me, if you can?”
-
-“I do;” and Gladys sealed her confidence with both lips and hand.
-
-“Jasper, I have invited those children to spend the summer at the villa,
-since you have decided for the sea. Gladys is mortally tired of this
-hot-house life, so is Felix: give them a long holiday, or they will run
-away together. Mrs. Bland and I will take care of you till they come
-back.”
-
-Olivia walked in upon Helwyze with this abrupt announcement, well
-knowing that persuasion would be useless, and vigorous measures surest
-to win the day. Artful as well as courageous in her assault, she
-answered in that one speech several objections against her plan, and
-suggested several strong reasons for it, sure that he would yield the
-first, and own the latter.
-
-He did, with unexpected readiness; for a motive which she could not
-fathom prompted his seemingly careless acquiescence. He had no thought
-of relinquishing his hold on Canaris, since through him alone he held
-Gladys; but he often longed to escape from both for a time, that he
-might study and adjust the new power which had come into his life,
-unbidden, undesired. Surprise and disappointment were almost
-instantaneously followed by a sense of relief when Olivia spoke; for he
-saw at once that this project was a wiser one than she knew.
-
-Before her rapid sentences were ended, the thought had come and gone,
-the decision was made, and he could answer, in a tone of indifference
-which both pleased and perplexed her,—
-
-“Amiable woman, with what helpful aspirations are you blest. Seeing your
-failure with Felix, I have been wondering how I should get rid of him
-till he recovers from this comically tardy passion for his wife. They
-can have another and a longer honeymoon up at the villa, if they like:
-the other was far from romantic, I suspect. Well, why that sphinx-like
-expression, if you please?” he added, as Olivia stood regarding him from
-behind the fading hawthorn which she forgot to offer.
-
-“I was wondering if I should ever understand you, Jasper.”
-
-“Doubtful, since I shall never understand myself.”
-
-“You ought, if any man; for you spend your life in studying yourself.”
-
-“And the more I study, the less I know. It is very like a child with a
-toy ark: I never know what animal may appear first. I put in my hand for
-a dove, and I get a serpent; I open the door for the sagacious elephant,
-and out rushes a tiger; I think I have found a favorite dog, and it is a
-wolf, looking ready to devour me. An unsatisfactory toy, better put it
-away and choose another.”
-
-Helwyze spoke in the half-jesting, half-serious way habitual to him; but
-though his mouth smiled, his eyes were gloomy, and Olivia hastened to
-turn his thoughts from a subject in which he took a morbid interest.
-
-“Fanciful, but true. Now, follow your own excellent advice, and find
-wholesome amusement in helping me pack off the young people, and then
-ourselves. It is not too early for them to go at once. Canaris can come
-in and out as you want him for a month longer, then I will have all
-things ready for you in the old cottage by the sea. You used to be happy
-there: can you not be so again?”
-
-“If you can give me back my twenty years. May-day is over for both of
-us; why try to make the dead hawthorn bloom again? Carry out your plan,
-and let the children be happy.”
-
-They _were_ very happy; for the prospect of entire freedom was so
-delicious, that Gladys had some difficulty in concealing her delight,
-while Canaris openly rejoiced when told of Olivia’s offer. All
-dinner-time he was talking of it; and afterward, under pretence of
-showing her a new plant, he took his wife into the conservatory, that he
-might continue planning how they should spend this unexpected holiday.
-
-Helwyze saw them wandering arm in arm; Canaris talking rapidly, and
-Gladys listening, with happy laughter, to his whimsical suggestions and
-projects. Their content displeased the looker-on; but there was
-something so attractive in the flower-framed picture of beauty, youth,
-and joy, that he could not turn his eyes away, although the sight
-aroused strangely conflicting thoughts within him.
-
-He wished them gone, yet dreaded to lose the charm of his confined life,
-feeling that absence would inevitably become estrangement. Canaris never
-would be entirely his again; for he was slowly climbing upward into a
-region where false ambition could not blind, mere pleasure satisfy, nor
-license take the place of liberty. He had not planned to ruin the youth,
-but simply to let “the world, the flesh, and the devil” contend against
-such virtues as they found, while he sat by and watched the struggle.
-
-As Olivia predicted, however, power was a dangerous gift to such a man;
-and, having come to feel that Canaris belonged to him, body and soul, he
-was ill-pleased at losing him just when a new interest was added to
-their lives.
-
-Yet losing him he assuredly was; and something like wonder mingled with
-his chagrin, for this girl, whom he had expected to mould to his will,
-exerted over him, as well as Canaris, a soft control which he could
-neither comprehend nor conquer. Its charm was its unconsciousness, its
-power was its truth; for it won gently and held firmly the regard it
-sought. She certainly did possess the gift of surprises; for, although
-brought there as a plaything, “little Gladys,” without apparent effort,
-had subjugated haughty Olivia, wayward Felix, ruthless Helwyze; and none
-rebelled against her. She ruled them by the irresistible influence of a
-lovely womanhood, which made her daily life a sweeter poem than any they
-could write.
-
-“Why did I not keep her for myself? If she can do so much for him, what
-might she not have done for me, had I been wise enough to wait,” thought
-Helwyze, watching the bright-haired figure that stood looking up to the
-green roof whence Canaris was gathering passion-flowers.
-
-As if some consciousness of his longing reached her, Gladys turned to
-look into the softly lighted room beyond, and, seeing its master sit
-there solitary in the midst of its splendor, she obeyed the
-compassionate impulse which was continually struggling against doubt and
-dislike.
-
-“It must seem very selfish and ungrateful in us to be so glad. Come,
-Felix, and amuse him as well as me,” she said, in a tone meant for his
-ear alone. But Helwyze heard both question and answer.
-
-“I have been court-fool long enough. ’Tis a thankless office, and I am
-tired of it,” replied Canaris, in the tone of a prisoner asked to go
-back when the door of his cell stands open.
-
-“_I_ must go, for there is Jean with coffee. Follow, like a good boy,
-when you have put your posy into a song, which I will set to music by
-and by, as your reward,” said Gladys, turning reluctantly away.
-
-“You make goodness so beautiful, that it is easy to obey. There is my
-posy set to music at once, for you are a song without words, _cariña_;”
-and Canaris threw the vine about her neck, with a look and a laugh which
-made it hard for her to go.
-
-Jean not only brought coffee, but the card of a friend for Felix, who
-went away, promising to return. Gladys carefully prepared the black and
-fragrant draught which Helwyze loved, and presented it, with a sweet
-friendliness of mien which would have made hemlock palatable, he
-thought.
-
-“Shall I sing to you till Felix comes to give you something better?” she
-asked, offering her best, as if anxious to atone for the sin of being
-happy at the cost of pain to another.
-
-“Talk a little first. There will be time for both before he remembers us
-again,” answered Helwyze, motioning her to a seat beside him, with the
-half-imperative, half-courteous, look and gesture habitual to him.
-
-“He will not forget: Felix always keeps his promises to me,” said
-Gladys, with an air of gentle pride, taking her place, not beside, but
-opposite, Helwyze, on the couch where Elaine had laid not long ago.
-
-This involuntary act of hers gave a tone to the conversation which
-followed; for Helwyze, being inwardly perturbed, was seized with a
-desire to hover about dangerous topics: and, seeing her sit there, so
-near and yet so far, so willing to serve, yet so completely mistress of
-herself, longed to ruffle that composure, if only to make her share the
-disquiet of which she was the cause.
-
-“Always?” he said, lifting his brows with an incredulous expression, as
-he replied to her assertion.
-
-“I seldom ask any promise of him, but when I do, he always keeps it. You
-doubt that?”
-
-“I do.”
-
-“When you know him as well as I, you will believe it.”
-
-“I flatter myself that I know him better; and, judging from the past,
-should call him both fickle and, in some things, false, even to you.”
-
-Up sprung the color to Gladys’s cheek, and her eyes shone with sudden
-fire, but her voice was low and quiet, as she answered quickly,—
-
-“One is apt to look for what one wishes to find: _I_ seek fidelity and
-truth, and I shall not be disappointed. Felix may wander, but he will
-come back to me: I have learned how to hold him _now_.”
-
-“Then you are wiser than I. Pray impart the secret;” and, putting down
-his cup, Helwyze regarded her intently, for he saw that the spirit of
-the woman was roused to defend her wifely rights.
-
-“Nay, I owe it to you; and, since it has prevailed against your
-enchantress, I should thank you for it.”
-
-The delicate emphasis on the words, “your enchantress,” enlightened him
-to the fact that Gladys divined, in part at least, the cause of Olivia’s
-return. He did not deny, but simply answered, with a curious contrast
-between the carelessness of the first half of his reply, with the vivid
-interest of the latter,—
-
-“Olivia has atoned for her sins handsomely. But what do you owe _me_? I
-have taught you nothing. I dare not try.”
-
-“I did not know my own power till you showed it to me; unintentionally,
-I believe, and unconsciously, I used it to such purpose that Felix felt
-pride in the wife whom he had thought a child before. I mean the night I
-sang and acted yonder, and did both well, thanks to you.”
-
-“I comprehend, and hope to be forgiven, since I gave you help or
-pleasure,” he answered, with no sign of either confusion or regret,
-though the thought shot through his mind, “Can she remember what came
-after?”
-
-“Questionable help, and painful pleasure, yet it was a memorable hour
-and a useful one; so I pardon you, since after the troubled delusion
-comes a happy reality.”
-
-There was a double meaning in her words, and a double reproach in the
-glance which went from the spot where she had played her part, to the
-garland still about her neck.
-
-“Your yoke is a light one, and you wear it gracefully. Long may it be
-so.”
-
-Helwyze thought to slip away thus from the subject; for those accusing
-eyes were hard to meet. But Gladys seemed moved to speak with more than
-her usual candor, as if anxious to leave no doubts behind her; and,
-sitting in the self-same place, uttered words which moved him even more
-than those which she had whispered in her tormented sleep.
-
-“No, my yoke is not light;” she said, in that grave, sweet voice of
-hers, looking down at the mystic purple blossom on her breast, with the
-symbols of a divine passion at its heart. “I put it on too ignorantly,
-too confidingly, and at times the duties, the responsibilities, which I
-assumed with it weigh heavily. I am just learning how beautiful they
-are, how sacred they should be, and trying to prove worthy of them. I
-know that Felix did not love as I loved, when he married me,—from pity,
-I believe. No one told me this: I felt, I guessed it, and would have
-given him back his liberty, if, after patient trial, I had found that I
-could not make him happy.”
-
-“Can you?”
-
-“Yes, thank God! not only happy, but good; and henceforth duty is
-delight, for I can teach him to love as I love, and he is glad to learn
-of me.”
-
-Months before, when the girl Gladys had betrayed her maiden tenderness,
-she had glowed like the dawn, and found no language but her blushes; now
-the woman sat there steadfast and passion-pale, owning her love with the
-eloquence of fervent speech; both pleading and commanding, in the name
-of wifehood and motherhood, for the right to claim the man she had won
-at such cost.
-
-“And if you fail?”
-
-“I shall not fail, unless you come between us. I have won Olivia’s
-promise not to tempt Felix’s errant fancy with her beauty. Can I not win
-yours to abstain from troubling his soul with still more harmful trials?
-It is to ask this that I speak now, and I believe I shall not speak in
-vain.”
-
-“Why?”
-
-Helwyze bent and looked into her face as he uttered that one word below
-his breath. He dared do no more; for there was that about her,
-perilously frank and lovely though she was, which held in check his
-lawless spirit, and made it reverence, even while it rebelled against
-her power over him.
-
-She neither shrank nor turned aside, but studied earnestly that unmoved
-countenance which hid a world of wild emotion so successfully, that even
-her eyes saw no token of it, except the deepening line between the
-brows.
-
-“Because I am bold enough to think I know you better even than Olivia
-does; that you are not cold and cruel, and, having given me the right to
-live for Felix, you will not disturb our peace; that, if I look into
-your soul, as I looked into my husband’s, I shall find there what I
-seek,—justice as well as generosity.”
-
-“You shall!”
-
-“I knew you would not disappoint me. For this promise I am more grateful
-than words can express, since it takes away all fear for Felix, and
-shows me that I was right in appealing to the heart which you try to
-kill. Ah! be your best self always, and so make life a blessing, not the
-curse you often call it,” she added, giving him a smile like sunshine, a
-cordial glance which was more than he could bear.
-
-“With you I am. Stay, and show me how to do it,” he began, stretching
-both hands towards her with an almost desperate urgency in voice and
-gesture.
-
-But Gladys neither saw nor heard; for at that moment Felix came through
-the hall singing one of the few perfect love songs in the world,—
-
- “Che farò senza Eurydice.”
-
-“See, he does keep his promise to me: I knew he would come back!” she
-cried delightedly, and hurried to meet him, leaving Helwyze nothing but
-the passion-flowers to fill his empty hands.
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-
- XV.
-
-
-“Back again, earlier than before. But not to stay long, thank Heaven! By
-another month we will be truly at home, my Gladys,” whispered Canaris,
-as they went up the steps, in the mellow September sunshine.
-
-“I hope so!” she answered, fervently, and paused an instant before
-entering the door; for, coming from the light and warmth without, it
-seemed as dark and chilly as the entrance to a tomb.
-
-“You are tired, love? Come and rest before you see a soul.”
-
-With a new sort of tenderness, Canaris led her up to her own little
-bower, and lingered there to arrange the basket of fresh recruits she
-had brought for her winter garden: while Gladys lay contentedly on the
-couch where he placed her, looking about the room as if greeting old
-friends; but her eyes always came back to him, full of a reposeful
-happiness which proved that all was well with her.
-
-“There! now the little fellows sit right comfortably in the moss, and
-will soon feel at home. I’ll go find Mother Bland, and see what his
-Serene Highness is about,” said the young man, rising from his work,
-warm and gay, but in no haste to go, as he had been before.
-
-Gladys remembered that; and when, at last, he left her, she shut her
-eyes to re-live, in thought, the three blissful months she had spent in
-teaching him to love her with the love in which self bears no part.
-Before the happy reverie was half over, the old lady arrived; and, by
-the time the young one was ready, Canaris came to fetch her.
-
-“My dearest, I am afraid we must give up our plan,” he said, softly, as
-he led her away: “Helwyze is so changed, I come to tell you, lest it
-should shock you when you see him. I think it would be cruel to go at
-once. Can you wait a little longer?”
-
-“If we ought. How is he changed?”
-
-“Just worn away, as a rock is by the beating of the sea, till there
-seems little left of him except the big eyes and greater sharpness of
-both tongue and temper. Say nothing about it, and seem not to notice it;
-else he will freeze you with a look, as he did me when I exclaimed.”
-
-“Poor man! we will be very patient, very kind; for it must be awful to
-think of dying with no light beyond,” sighed Gladys, touching the cross
-at her white throat.
-
-“A Dante without a Beatrice: I am happier than he;” and Canaris laid his
-cheek against hers with the gesture of a boy, the look of a man who has
-found the solace which is also his salvation.
-
-Helwyze received them quietly, a little coldly, even; and Gladys
-reproached herself with too long neglect of what she had assumed as a
-duty, when she saw how ill he looked, for _his_ summer had not been a
-blissful one. He had spent it in wishing for her, and in persuading
-himself that the desire was permissible, since he asked nothing but what
-she had already given him,—her presence and her friendship. It was her
-intellect he loved and wanted, not her heart; that she might give her
-husband wholly, since he understood and cared for affection only: her
-mind, with all its lovely possibilities, Helwyze coveted, and reasoned
-himself into the belief that he had a right to enjoy it, conscious all
-the while that his purpose was a delusion and a snare. Olivia had
-mourned over the moody taciturnity which made a lonely cranny of the
-cliffs his favorite resort, where he sat, day after day, watching, with
-an irresistible fascination, the ever-changing sea,—beautiful and bitter
-as the hidden tide of thought and feeling in his own breast, where lay
-the image of Gladys, as placid, yet as powerful, as the moon which ruled
-the ebb and flow of that vaster ocean. Being a fatalist for want of a
-higher faith, he left all to chance, and came home simply resolved to
-enjoy what was left him as long and as unobtrusively as possible; since
-Felix owed him much, and Gladys need never know what she had prayed
-_not_ to know.
-
-Sitting at the table, as they sat almost a year ago, he watched the two
-young faces as he had done then, finding each, unlike his own, changed
-for the better. Gladys was a girl no longer; and the new womanliness
-which had come to her was of the highest type, for inward beauty lent
-its imperishable loveliness to features faulty in themselves, and
-character gave its indescribable charm to the simplest manners. Helwyze
-saw all this; and perceiving also how much heart had already quickened
-intellect, began to long for both, and to grudge his pupil to her new
-master.
-
-Canaris seemed to have lost something of his boyish comeliness, and had
-taken on a manlier air of strength and stability, most becoming, and
-evidently a source of pardonable pride to him. At his age even three
-months could work a serious alteration in one so easily affected by all
-influences; and Helwyze felt a pang of envy as he saw the broad
-shoulders and vigorous limbs, the wholesome color in the cheeks, and
-best of all, the serene content of a happy heart.
-
-“What have you been doing to yourself, Felix? Have you discovered the
-Elixir of Life up there? If so, impart the secret, and let me have a
-sip,” he said, as Canaris pushed away his plate after satisfying a
-hearty appetite with the relish of a rustic.
-
-“Gladys did,” he answered, with a nod across the table, which said much.
-“She would not let me idle about while waiting for ideas: she just set
-me to work. I dug acres, it seemed to me, and amazed the gardener with
-my exploits. Liked it, too; for she was overseer, and would not let me
-off till I had done my task and earned my wages. A wonderfully pleasant
-life, and I am the better for it, in spite of my sunburn and blisters;”
-and Canaris stretched out a pair of sinewy brown hands with an air of
-satisfaction which made Gladys laugh so blithely it was evident that
-their summer had been full of the innocent jollity of youth, fine
-weather, and congenial pastime.
-
-“Adam and Eve in Eden, with all the modern improvements. Not even a tree
-of knowledge or a serpent to disturb you!”
-
-“Oh, yes, we had them both; but we only ate the good fruit, and the
-snake did not tempt me!” cried Gladys, anxious to defend her Paradise
-even from playful mockery.
-
-“He did me. I longed to kill him, but my Eve owed him no grudge, and
-would not permit me to do it; so the old enemy sunned himself in peace,
-and went into winter quarters a reformed reptile, I am sure.”
-
-Canaris did not look up as he spoke, but Helwyze asked hastily,—
-
-“I hope you harvested a few fresh ideas for winter work? We ought to
-have something to show after so laborious a summer.”
-
-“I have: I am going to write a novel or a play. I cannot decide which;
-but rather lean toward the latter, and, being particularly happy, feel
-inclined to write a tragedy;” and something beside the daring of an
-ambitious author sparkled in the eyes Canaris fixed upon his patron. It
-looked too much like the expression of a bondman about to become a
-freeman to suit Helwyze; but he replied, as imperturbably as ever,—
-
-“Try the tragedy, by all means: the novel would be beyond you.”
-
-“Why, if you please?” demanded Canaris, loftily.
-
-“Because you have neither patience nor experience enough to do it well.
-Goethe says: ‘In the novel it is _sentiments_ and _events_ that are
-exhibited; in the drama it is _characters_ and _deeds_. The novel goes
-slowly forward, the drama must hasten. In the novel, some degree of
-scope may be allowed to chance; but it must be led and guided by the
-sentiments of the personages. Fate, on the other hand, which, by means
-of outward, unconnected circumstances, carries forward men, without
-their own concurrence, to an unforeseen catastrophe, can only have place
-in the drama. Chance may produce pathetic situations, but not tragic
-ones.’”
-
-Helwyze paused there abruptly; for the memory which served him so well
-outran his tongue, and recalled the closing sentence of the
-quotation,—words which he had no mind to utter then and there,—“Fate
-ought always to be terrible; and it is in the highest sense tragic, when
-it brings into a ruinous concatenation the guilty man and the guiltless
-with him.”
-
-“Then you think I _could_ write a play?” asked Canaris, with affected
-carelessness.
-
-“I think you could act one, better than imagine or write it.”
-
-“What, I?”
-
-“Yes, you; because you are dramatic by nature, and it is easier for you
-to express yourself in gesture and tone, than by written or spoken
-language. You were born for an actor, are fitted for it in every way,
-and I advise you to try it. It would pay better than poetry; and that
-stream _may_ run dry.”
-
-Gladys looked indignant at what she thought bad advice and distasteful
-pleasantry; but Canaris seemed struck and charmed with the new idea,
-protesting that he would first write, then act, his play, and prove
-himself a universal genius.
-
-No more was said just then; but long afterward the conversation came
-back to him like an inspiration, and was the seed of a purpose which,
-through patient effort, bore fruit in a brilliant and successful career:
-for Canaris, like many another man, did not know his own strength or
-weakness yet, neither the true gift nor the power of evil which lay
-unsuspected within him.
-
-So the old life began again, at least in outward seeming; but it was
-impossible for it to last long. The air was too full of the electricity
-of suppressed and conflicting emotions to be wholesome; former relations
-could not be resumed, because sincerity had gone out of them; and the
-quiet, which reigned for a time, was only the lull before the storm.
-
-Gladys soon felt this, but tried to think it was owing to the contrast
-between the free, happy days she had enjoyed so much, and uttered no
-complaint; for Felix was busy with his play, sanguine as ever, inspired
-now by a nobler ambition than before, and happy in his work.
-
-Helwyze had flattered himself that he could be content with the harmless
-shadow, since he could not possess the sweet substance of a love whose
-seeming purity was its most delusive danger. But he soon discovered “how
-bitter a thing it is to look into happiness through another man’s eyes;”
-and, even while he made no effort to rob Canaris of his treasure, he
-hated him for possessing it, finding the hatred all the more poignant,
-because it was his own hand which had forced Felix to seize and secure
-it. He had thought to hold and hide this new secret; but it held him,
-and would not be hidden, for it was stronger than even his strong will,
-and ruled him with a power which at times filled him with a sort of
-terror. Having allowed it to grow, and taken it to his bosom, he could
-not cast it out again, and it became a torment, not the comfort he had
-hoped to find it. His daily affliction was to see how much the young
-pair were to each other, to read in their faces a hundred happy hopes
-and confidences in which he had no part, and to remember the confession
-wrung from the lips dearest to him, that his death would bring to them
-their much-desired freedom.
-
-At times he was minded to say “Go,” but the thought of the utter blank
-her absence would leave behind daunted him. Often an almost
-uncontrollable desire to tell her that which would mar her trust in her
-husband tempted him; for, having yielded to a greater temptation, all
-lesser ones seemed innocent beside it; and, worse than all, the old
-morbid longing for some excitement, painful even, if it could not be
-pleasurable, goaded him to the utterance of half truths, which irritated
-Canaris and perplexed Gladys, till she could no longer doubt the cause
-of this strange mood. It seemed as if her innocent hand gave the touch
-which set the avalanche slipping swiftly but silently to its destructive
-fall.
-
-One day when Helwyze was pacing to and fro in the library, driven by the
-inward storm which no outward sign betrayed, except his excessive pallor
-and unusual restlessness, she looked up from her book, asking
-compassionately,—
-
-“Are you suffering, sir?”
-
-“Torment.”
-
-“Can I do nothing?”
-
-“Nothing!”
-
-She went on reading, as if glad to be left in peace; for distrust, as
-well as pity, looked out from her frank eyes, and there was no longer
-any pleasure in the duties she performed for Canaris’s sake.
-
-But Helwyze, jealous even of the book which seemed to absorb her, soon
-paused again, to ask, in a calmer tone,—
-
-“What interests you?”
-
-“‘The Scarlet Letter.’”
-
-The hands loosely clasped behind him were locked more closely by an
-involuntary gesture, as if the words made him wince; otherwise unmoved,
-he asked again, with the curiosity he often showed about her opinions of
-all she read,—
-
-“What do you think of Hester?”
-
-“I admire her courage; for she repented, and did not hide her sin with a
-lie.”
-
-“Then you must despise Dimmesdale?”
-
-“I ought, perhaps; but I cannot help pitying his weakness, while I
-detest his deceit: he loved so much.”
-
-“So did Roger;” and Helwyze drew nearer, with the peculiar flicker in
-his eyes, as of a light kindled suddenly behind a carefully drawn
-curtain.
-
-“At first; then his love turned to hate, and he committed the
-unpardonable sin,” answered Gladys, much moved by that weird and
-wonderful picture of guilt and its atonement.
-
-“The unpardonable sin!” echoed Helwyze, struck by her words and manner.
-
-“Hawthorne somewhere describes it as ‘the want of love and reverence for
-the human soul, which makes a man pry into its mysterious depths, not
-with a hope or purpose of making it better, but from a cold,
-philosophical curiosity. This would be the separation of the intellect
-from the heart: and this, perhaps, would be as unpardonable a sin as to
-doubt God, whom we cannot harm; for in doing this we must inevitably do
-great wrong both to ourselves and others.’”
-
-As she spoke, fast and earnestly, Gladys felt herself upon the brink of
-a much-desired, but much-dreaded, explanation; for Canaris, while owning
-to her that there _was_ a secret, would not tell it till Helwyze freed
-him from his promise. She thought that he delayed to ask this absolution
-till she was fitter to bear the truth, whatever it might be; and she had
-resolved to spare her husband the pain of an avowal, by demanding it
-herself of Helwyze. The moment seemed to have come, and both knew it;
-for he regarded her with the quick, piercing look which read her purpose
-before she could put it into words.
-
-“You are right; yet Roger was the wronged one, and the others deserved
-to suffer.”
-
-“They did; but Hester’s suffering ennobled her, because nobly borne;
-Dimmesdale’s destroyed him, because he paltered weakly with his
-conscience. Roger let his wrong turn him from a man into a devil, and
-deserves the contempt and horror he rouses in us. The keeping of the
-secret makes the romance; the confession of it is the moral, showing how
-falsehood can ruin a life, and truth only save it at the last.”
-
-“Never have a secret, Gladys: they are hard masters, whom we hate, yet
-dare not rebel against.”
-
-His accent of sad sincerity seemed to clear the way for her, and she
-spoke out, briefly and bravely,—
-
-“Sir, _you_ dare any thing! Tell me what it is which makes Felix obey
-you against his will. He owns it, but will not speak till you consent.
-Tell me, I beseech you!”
-
-“Could you bear it?” he asked, admiring her courage, yet doubtful of the
-wisdom of purchasing a moment’s satisfaction at such a cost; for, though
-he could cast down her idol, he dared not set up another in its place.
-
-“Try me!” she cried: “nothing can lessen my love, and doubt afflicts me
-more than the hardest truth.”
-
-“I fear not: with you love and respect go hand in hand, and some sins
-you would find very hard to pardon.”
-
-Involuntarily Gladys shrunk a little, and her eye questioned his
-inscrutable face, as she answered slowly, thinking only of her husband,—
-
-“Something very mean and false _would_ be hard to forgive; but not some
-youthful fault, some shame borne for others, or even a crime, if a very
-human emotion, a generous but mistaken motive, led to it.”
-
-“Then this secret is better left untold; for it would try you sorely to
-know that Felix _had_ been guilty of the fault you find harder to
-forgive than a crime,—deceit. Wait a little, till you are accustomed to
-the thought, then you shall have the facts; and pity, even while you
-must despise, him.”
-
-While he spoke, Gladys sat like one nerving herself to receive a blow;
-but at the last words she suddenly put up her hand as if to arrest it,
-saying, hurriedly,—
-
-“No! do not tell me; I cannot bear it yet, nor from you. He shall tell
-me; it will be easier so, and less like treachery. O sir,” she added, in
-a passionately pleading tone, “use mercifully whatever bitter knowledge
-you possess! Remember how young he is, how neglected as a boy, how
-tempted he may have been; and deal generously, honorably with him,—and
-with me.”
-
-Her voice broke there. She spread her hands before her eyes, and fled
-out of the room, as if in his face she read a more disastrous confession
-than any Felix could ever make. Helwyze stood motionless, looking as he
-looked the night she spoke more frankly but less forcibly: and when she
-vanished, he stole away to his own room, as he stole then; only now his
-usually colorless cheek burned with a fiery flush, and his hand went
-involuntarily to his breast, as if, like Dimmesdale, he carried an
-invisible scarlet letter branded there.
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- XVI.
-
-
-Neither had heard the door of that inner room open quietly; neither had
-seen Canaris stand upon the threshold for an instant, then draw back,
-looking as if he had found another skeleton to hide in the cell where he
-was laboring at the third act of the tragedy which he was to live, not
-write.
-
-He had heard the last words Gladys said, he had seen the last look
-Helwyze wore, and, like a flash of lightning, the truth struck and
-stunned him. At first he sat staring aghast at the thing he plainly saw,
-yet hardly comprehended. Then a sort of fury seized and shook him, as he
-sprang up with hands clenched, eyes ablaze, looking as if about to
-instantly avenge the deadliest injury one man could do another. But the
-half savage self-control adversity had taught stood him in good stead
-now, curbing the first natural but reckless wrath which nerved every
-fibre of his strong young body with an almost irresistible impulse to
-kill Helwyze without a word.
-
-The gust of blind passion subsided quickly into a calmer, but not less
-dangerous, mood; and, fearing to trust himself so near his enemy,
-Canaris rushed away, to walk fast and far, unconscious where he went,
-till the autumnal gloaming brought him back, master of himself, he
-thought.
-
-While he wandered aimlessly about the city, he had been recalling the
-past with the vivid skill which at such intense moments seems to bring
-back half-forgotten words, apparently unnoticed actions, and unconscious
-impressions; as fire causes invisible letters to stand out upon a page
-where they are traced in sympathetic ink.
-
-Not a doubt of Gladys disturbed the ever-deepening current of a love the
-more precious for its newness, the more powerful for its ennobling
-influence. But every instinct of his nature rose in revolt against
-Helwyze, all the more rebellious and resentful for the long subjection
-in which he had been held.
-
-A master stronger than the ambition which had been the ruling passion of
-his life so far asserted its supremacy now, and made it possible for him
-to pay the price of liberty without further weak delay or unmanly
-regret.
-
-This he resolved upon, and this he believed he could accomplish safely
-and soon. But if Helwyze, with far greater skill and self-control, had
-failed to guide or subdue the conflicting passions let loose among them,
-how could Canaris hope to do it, or retard by so much as one minute the
-irresistible consequences of their acts? “The providence of God cannot
-be hurried,” and His retribution falls at the appointed time, saving,
-even when it seems to destroy.
-
-Returning resolute but weary, Canaris was relieved to find that a still
-longer reprieve was granted him; for Olivia was there, and Gladys
-apparently absorbed in the tender toil women love, making ready for the
-Christmas gift she hoped to give him. Helwyze sent word that he was
-suffering one of his bad attacks, and bade them all good-night; so there
-was nothing to mar the last quiet evening these three were ever to pass
-together.
-
-When Canaris had seen Olivia to the winter quarters she inhabited near
-by, he went up to his own room, where Gladys lay, looking like a child
-who had cried itself to sleep. The sight of the pathetic patience
-touched with slumber’s peace, in the tear-stained face upon the pillow,
-wrung his heart, and, stooping, he softly kissed the hand upon the
-coverlet,—the small hand that wore a wedding-ring, now grown too large
-for it.
-
-“God bless my dearest!” he whispered, with a sob in his throat. “Out of
-this accursed house she shall go to-morrow, though I leave all but love
-and liberty behind me.”
-
-Sleepless, impatient, and harassed by thoughts that would not let him
-rest, he yielded to the uncanny attraction which the library now had for
-him, and went down again, deluding himself with the idea that he could
-utilize emotion and work for an hour or two.
-
-The familiar room looked strange to him; and when the door of Helwyze’s
-apartment opened quietly, he started, although it was only Stern, coming
-to nap before the comfortable fire. Something in Canaris’s expectant air
-and attitude made the man answer the question his face seemed to ask.
-
-“Quiet at last, sir. He has had no sleep for many nights, and is fairly
-worn out.”
-
-“You look so, too. Go and rest a little. I shall be here writing for
-several hours, and can see to him,” said Canaris, kindly, as the poor
-old fellow respectfully tried to swallow a portentous gape behind his
-hand.
-
-“Thank you, Mr. Felix: it would be a comfort just to lose myself. Master
-is not likely to want any thing; but, if he should call, just step and
-give him his drops, please. They are all ready. I fixed them myself: he
-is so careless when he is half-asleep, and, not being used to this new
-stuff, an overdose might kill him.”
-
-Giving these directions, Stern departed with alacrity, and left Canaris
-to his watch. He had often done as much before, but never with such a
-sense of satisfaction as now; and though he carefully abstained from
-giving himself a reason for the act, no sooner had the valet gone than
-he went to look in upon Helwyze, longing to call out commandingly,
-“Wake, and hear me!”
-
-But the helplessness of the man disarmed him, the peaceful expression of
-the sharp, white features mutely reproached him, the recollection of
-what he would awaken to made Canaris ashamed to exult over a defeated
-enemy; and he turned away, with an almost compassionate glance at the
-straight, still figure, clearly defined against the dusky background of
-the darkened room.
-
-“He looks as if he were dead.”
-
-Canaris did not speak aloud, but it seemed as if a voice echoed the
-words with a suggestive emphasis, that made him pause as he approached
-the study-table, conscious of a quick thrill of comprehension tingling
-through him like an answer. Why he covered both ears with a sudden
-gesture, he could not tell, nor why he hastily seated himself, caught up
-the first book at hand and began to read without knowing what he read.
-Only for an instant, however, then the words grew clear before him, and
-his eyes rested on this line,—
-
- “σύ θην ἃ χρῄζεις, ταῦτ’ ἐπιγλωσσᾷ Διός.”[1]
-
-Footnote 1:
-
- “Thy ominous tongue gives utterance to thy wish.”
-
- ÆSCHYLUS.
-
-He dropped the book, as if it had burnt him, and looked over his
-shoulder, almost expecting to see the dark thought lurking in his mind
-take shape before him. Empty, dim, and quiet was the lofty room; but a
-troubled spirit and distempered imagination peopled it with such vivid
-and tormenting phantoms of the past, the present and the future, that he
-scarcely knew whether he was awake or dreaming, as he sat there alone,
-waiting for midnight, and the spectre of an uncommitted deed.
-
-His wandering eye fell on a leaf of paper, lying half-shrivelled by the
-heat of the red fire. This recalled the hour when, in the act of burning
-that first manuscript, Helwyze had saved him, and all that followed
-shortly after.
-
-Not a pleasant memory, it seemed; for his face darkened, and his glance
-turned to a purple-covered volume, left on the low chair where Gladys
-usually sat, and often read in that beloved book. A still more bitter
-recollection bowed his head at sight of it, till some newer, sharper
-thought seemed to pierce him with a sudden stab, and he laid his
-clenched hand on the pile of papers before him, as if taking an oath
-more binding than the one made there nearly three years ago.
-
-He had been reading Shakespeare lately, for one may copy the great
-masters; and now, as he tried with feverish energy to work upon his
-play, the grim or gracious models he had been studying seemed to rise
-and live before him. But one and all were made subject to the strong
-passions which ruled him; jealousy, ambition, revenge, and love wore
-their appropriate guise, acted their appropriate parts, and made him one
-with them. Othello would only show himself as stabbing the perfidious
-Iago; Macbeth always grasped at the air-drawn dagger; Hamlet was
-continually completing his fateful task; and Romeo whispered, with the
-little vial at his lips,—
-
- “Oh, true apothecary!
- Thy drugs are quick.”
-
-Canaris tried to chase away these troubled spirits; but they would not
-down, and, yielding to them, he let his mind wander as it would, till he
-had “supped full of horrors,” feeling as if in the grasp of a nightmare
-which led him, conscious, but powerless, toward some catastrophe
-forefelt, rather than foreseen. How long this lasted he never knew; for
-nothing broke the silence growing momently more terrible as he listened
-to the stealthy tread of the temptation coming nearer and nearer, till
-it appeared in the likeness of himself, while a voice said, in the
-ordinary tone which so often makes dreams grotesque at their most
-painful climax,—
-
-“Master is so careless when half-asleep; and, not being used to this new
-stuff, an overdose might kill him.”
-
-As if these words were the summons for which he had been waiting,
-Canaris rose up suddenly and went into that other room, too entirely
-absorbed by the hurrying emotions which swept him away to see what
-looked like a new phantom coming in. It might have been the shade of
-young Juliet, gentle Desdemona, poor Ophelia, or, better still the
-_eidolen_ of Margaret wandering, pale and pensive, through the baleful
-darkness of this _Walpurgis Nacht_.
-
-He did not see it; he saw nothing but the glass upon the table where the
-dim light burned, the little vial with its colorless contents, and
-Helwyze stirring in his bed, as if about to wake and speak. Conscious
-only of the purpose which now wholly dominated him, Canaris, without
-either haste or hesitation, took the bottle, uncorked, and held it over
-the glass half-filled with water. But before a single drop could fall a
-cold hand touched his own, and, with a start that crushed the vial in
-his grasp, he found himself eye to eye with Gladys.
-
-Guilt was frozen upon his face, terror upon hers; but neither spoke, for
-a third voice muttered drowsily, “Stern, give me more; don’t rouse me.”
-
-Canaris could not stir; Gladys whispered, with white lips, and her hand
-upon the cup,—“Dare I give it?”
-
-He could only answer by a sign, and cowered into the shadow, while she
-put the draught to Helwyze’s lips, fearing to let him waken now. He
-drank drowsily, yet seemed half-conscious of her presence; for he looked
-up with sleep-drunken eyes, and murmured, as if to the familiar figure
-of a dream,—
-
-“Mine asleep, his awake,” then whispering brokenly about “Felix, Vivien,
-and daring any thing,” he was gone again into the lethargy which alone
-could bring forgetfulness.
-
-Gladys feared her husband would hear the almost inaudible words; but he
-had vanished, and when she glided out to join him, carefully closing the
-door behind her, a glance showed that her fear was true.
-
-Relieved, yet not repentant, he stood there looking at a red stain on
-his hand with such a desperate expression that Gladys could only cling
-to him, saying, in a terror-stricken whisper,—
-
-“Felix, for God’s sake, come away! What are you doing here?”
-
-“Going mad, I think,” he answered, under his breath; but added, lifting
-up his hand with an ominous gesture, “I would have done it if you had
-not stopped me. It would be better for us all if he were dead.”
-
-“Not so; thank Heaven I came in time to save you from the sin of
-murder!” she said, holding fast the hand as yet unstained by any blood
-but its own.
-
-“I _have_ committed murder in my heart. Why not profit by the sin, since
-it is there? I hate that man! I have cause, and you know it.”
-
-“No, no, not all! You shall tell me every thing; but not now, not here.”
-
-“The time has come, and this is the place to tell it. Sit there and
-listen. I must untie or cut the snarl to-night.”
-
-He pointed to the great chair; and, grateful for any thing that could
-change or stem the dangerous current of his thoughts, Gladys sank down,
-feeling as if, after this shock, she was prepared for any discovery or
-disaster. Canaris stood before her, white and stern, as if he were both
-judge and culprit; for a sombre wrath still burned in his eye, and his
-face worked with the mingled shame and contempt warring within him.
-
-“I heard and saw this afternoon, when you two talked together yonder,
-and I knew then what made you so glad to go away, so loath to come back.
-_You_ have had a secret as well as I.”
-
-“I was never sure until to-day. Do not speak of that: it is enough to
-know it, and forget it if we can. Tell your secret: it has burdened you
-so long, you will be glad to end it. _He_ would have done so, but I
-would not let him.”
-
-“I thought it would be hard to tell you, yet now my fault looks so small
-and innocent beside his, I can confess without much shame or fear.”
-
-But it was not easy; for he had gone so far into a deeper, darker world
-that night, it was difficult to come to lesser sins and lighter
-thoughts. As he hesitated for a word, his eye fell upon the
-purple-covered book, and he saw a way to shorten his confession.
-Catching up a pen, he bent over the volume an instant, then handed it to
-Gladys, open at the title-page. She knew it,—the dear romance, worn with
-much reading,—and looked wonderingly at the black mark drawn through the
-name, “Felix Canaris,” and the words, “Jasper Helwyze,” written boldly
-below.
-
-“What does it mean?” she asked, refusing to believe the discovery which
-the expression of his averted face confirmed.
-
-“That I am a living lie. He wrote that book.”
-
-“He?”
-
-“Every line.”
-
-“But not the other?” she said; clinging to a last hope, as every thing
-seemed falling about her.
-
-“All, except half a dozen of the songs.”
-
-Down dropped the book between them,—now a thing of little worth,—and,
-trying to conceal from him the contempt which even love could not
-repress, Gladys hid her face, with one reproach, the bitterest she could
-have uttered,—
-
-“O my husband! did you give up honor, liberty, and peace for so poor a
-thing as that?”
-
-It cut him to the soul: for now he saw how high a price he had paid for
-an empty name; how mean and poor his ambition looked; how truly he
-deserved to be despised for that of which he had striven to be proud.
-Gladys had so rejoiced over him as a poet, that it was the hardest task
-of all to put off his borrowed singing-robes, and show himself an
-ordinary man. He forgot that there was any other tribunal than this, as
-he stood waiting for his sentence, oppressed with the fear that out of
-her almost stern sense of honor she might condemn him to the loss of the
-respect and confidence which he had lately learned to value as much as
-happiness and love.
-
-“You must despise me; but if you knew”—he humbly began, unable to bear
-the silence longer.
-
-“Tell me, then. I will not judge until I know;” and Gladys, just, even
-in her sorrow, looked up with an expression which said plainer than
-words, “For better, for worse; this is the worse, but I love you still.”
-
-That made it possible for him to go on, fast and low, not stopping to
-choose phrases, but pouring out the little story of his temptation and
-fall, with a sense of intense relief that he was done with slavery for
-ever.
-
-“Neither of us coolly planned this thing; it came about so simply and
-naturally, it seemed a mere accident.—And yet, who can tell what _he_
-might have planned, seeing how weak I was, how ready to be tempted.—It
-happened in that second month, when I promised to stay; he to help me
-with my book. It was _all_ mine then; but when we came to look at it,
-there was not enough to fill even the most modest volume; for I had
-burnt many, and must recall them, or write more. I tried honestly, but
-the power was not in me, and I fell into despair again; for the desire
-to be known was the breath of my life.”
-
-“You will be, if not in this way, in some other; for power of some sort
-_is_ in you. Believe it, and wait for it to show itself,” said Gladys,
-anxious to add patience and courage to the new humility and sincerity,
-which could not fail to ennoble and strengthen him in time.
-
-“Bless you for that!” he answered, gratefully, and hurried on. “It came
-about in this wise: one day my master—he was then, but is no longer,
-thank God!—sat reading over a mass of old papers, before destroying
-them. Here he came upon verses written in the diaries kept years ago,
-and threw them to me, ‘to laugh over,’ as he said. I did not laugh: I
-was filled with envy and admiration, and begged him to publish them. He
-scorned the idea, and bade me put them in the fire. I begged to keep
-them, and then,—Gladys, I swear to you I cannot tell whether I read the
-project in his face, or whether my own evil genius put it into my
-head,—then I said, audaciously, though hardly dreaming he would consent,
-‘You do not care for fame, and throw these away as worthless: I long for
-it, and see more power in these than in any I can hope to write for
-years, perhaps; let me add them to mine, and see what will come of it.’
-‘Put your own name to them, if you do, and take the consequences,’ he
-answered, in that brusque way of his, which seems so careless, yet is so
-often premeditated. I assented, as I would have done to any thing that
-promised a quick trial of my talent; for in my secret soul I thought
-some of my songs better than his metaphysical verses, which impressed,
-rather than charmed me. The small imposture seemed to amuse him; I had
-few scruples then, and we did it, with much private jesting about
-Beaumont and Fletcher, literary frauds, and borrowed plumage. You know
-the rest. The book succeeded, but he saved it; and the critics left me
-small consolation, for my songs were ignored as youthful ditties, his
-poems won all the praise, and _I_ was pronounced a second Shelley.”
-
-“But he? Did he claim no share of the glory? Was he content to let you
-have it all?” questioned Gladys, trying to understand a thing so foreign
-to her nature that it seemed incredible.
-
-“Yes; I offered to come down from my high place, as soon as I realized
-how little right I had to it. But he forbade me, saying, what I was fool
-enough to believe, that my talent only needed time and culture, and the
-sunshine of success to ripen it; that notoriety would be a burden to
-him, since he had neither health to sustain nor spirits to enjoy it;
-that in me he would live his youth over again, and, in return for such
-help as he could give, I should be a son to him. That touched and won
-me; now I can see in it a trap to catch and hold me, that he might amuse
-himself with my folly, play the generous patron, and twist my life to
-suit his ends. He likes curious and costly toys; he had one then, and
-has not paid for it yet.”
-
-“This other book? Tell me of that, and speak low, or he may hear us,”
-whispered Gladys, trembling lest fire and powder should meet.
-
-With a motion of his foot Canaris sent the book that lay between them
-spinning across the hearth-rug out of sight, and answered, with a short,
-exultant laugh,—
-
-“Ah! there the fowler was taken in his own snare. I did not see it then,
-and found it hard to understand why he should exert himself to please
-you by helping me. I thought it was a mere freak of literary rivalry;
-and, when I taxed him with it, he owned that, though he cared nothing
-for the world’s praise, it _was_ pleasant to know that his powers were
-still unimpaired, and be able to laugh in his sleeve at the deluded
-critics. That was like him, and it deceived me till to-day. Now I know
-that he begrudged me your admiration, wanted your tears and smiles for
-himself, and did not hesitate to steal them. The night he so adroitly
-read _his_ work for mine, he tempted me through you. I had resolved to
-deserve the love and honor you gave me; and again I tried, and again I
-failed, for my romance was a poor, pale thing to his. He had read it;
-and, taking the same plot, made it what you know, writing as only such a
-man could write, when a strong motive stimulated him to do his best.”
-
-“But why did you submit? Why stand silent and let him do so false a
-thing?” cried poor Gladys, wondering when the end of the tangle would
-come.
-
-“At first his coolness staggered me; then I was curious to hear, then
-held even, against my will, by admiration of the thing—and you. I meant
-to speak out, I longed to do it; but it was very hard, while you were
-praising me so eloquently. The words were on my lips, when in his face I
-saw a look that sealed them. He meant that I should utter the
-self-accusation which would lower me for ever and raise him in your
-regard. I could not bear it. There was no time to think, only to feel,
-and I vowed to make you happy, at all costs. I hardly thought he would
-submit; but he did, and I believed that it was through surprise at being
-outwitted for the moment, or pity towards you. It was neither: he
-fancied I had discovered his secret, and he _dared_ not defy me then.”
-
-“But when I was gone? You were so late that night: I heard your voices,
-sharp and angry, as I went away.”
-
-“Yes; that was _my_ hour, and I enjoyed it. He had often twitted me with
-the hold he had on my name and fame, and I bore it; for, till I loved
-you, they were the dearest things I owned. That night I told him he
-_should not_ speak; that you should enjoy your pride in me, even at his
-expense, and I refused to release him from his bond, as he had, more
-than once, refused to release me: for we had sworn never to confess till
-both agreed to it. Good heavens! how low he must have thought I had
-fallen, if I could consent to buy your happiness at the cost of my
-honor! He did think it: that made him yield; that is the cause of the
-contempt he has not cared to hide from me since then; and that adds a
-double edge to my hatred now. I was to be knave as well as fool; and
-while I blinded myself with his reflected light, he would have filched
-my one jewel from me. Gladys, save me, keep me, or I shall do something
-desperate yet!”
-
-Beside himself with humiliation, remorse, and wrath, Canaris flung
-himself down before her, as if only by clinging to that frail spar could
-he ride out the storm in which he was lost without compass or rudder.
-
-Then Gladys showed him that such love as hers could not fail, but, like
-an altar-fire, glowed the stronger for every costly sacrifice thrown
-therein. Lifting up the discrowned head, she laid it on her bosom with a
-sweet motherliness which comforted more than her tender words.
-
-“My poor Felix! you have suffered enough for this deceit; I forgive it,
-and keep my reproaches for the false friend who led you astray.”
-
-“It was so paltry, weak, and selfish. You _must_ despise me,” he said,
-wistfully, still thinking more of his own pain than hers.
-
-“I do despise the sin, not the dear sinner who repents and is an honest
-man again.”
-
-“But a beggar.”
-
-“We have each other. Hush! stand up; some one is coming.”
-
-Canaris had barely time to spring to his feet, when Stern came in, and
-was about to pass on in silence, though much amazed to see Gladys there
-at that hour, when the expression of the young man’s face made him
-forget decorum and stop short, exclaiming, anxiously,—
-
-“Mr. Felix, what’s the matter? Is master worse?”
-
-“Safe and asleep. Mrs. Canaris came to see what I was about.”
-
-“Then, sir, if I may make so bold, the sooner she gets to bed again the
-better. It is far too late for her to be down here; the poor young lady
-looks half-dead,” Stern whispered, with the freedom of an old servant.
-
-“You are right. Come, love;” and without another word Canaris led her
-away, leaving Stern to shake his gray head as he looked after them.
-
-Gladys _was_ utterly exhausted; and in the hall she faltered, saying,
-with a patient sigh, as she looked up the long stairway, “Dear, wait a
-little; it is so far,—my strength is all gone.”
-
-Canaris caught her in his arms and carried her away, asking himself,
-with a remorseful pang that rent his heart,—
-
-“Is this the murder I have committed?”
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- XVII.
-
-
-“Stern!”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“What time is it?”
-
-“Past two, sir.”
-
-“What news? I see bad tidings of some sort in that lugubrious face of
-yours; out with it!”
-
-“The little boy arrived at dawn, sir,” answered old Stern, with a
-paternal air.
-
-“What little boy?”
-
-“Canaris, Jr., sir,” simpered the valet, venturing to be jocose.
-
-“The deuce he did! Precipitate, like his father. Where is Felix?”
-
-“With her, sir. In a state of mind, as well he may be, letting that
-delicate young thing sit up to keep him company over his poetry stuff,”
-muttered Stern, busying himself with the shutters.
-
-“Sit up! when? where? what are you maundering about, man?” and Helwyze
-himself sat up among the pillows, looking unusually wide-awake.
-
-“Last night, sir, in the study. Mr. Felix made me go for a wink of
-sleep, and when I came back, about one, there sat Mrs. Canaris as white
-as her gown, and him looking as wild as a hawk. Something was amiss, I
-could see plain enough, but it wasn’t my place to ask questions; so I
-just made bold to suggest that it was late for her to be up, and he took
-her away, looking dazed-like. That’s all I know, sir, till I found the
-women in a great flustration this morning.”
-
-“And I slept through it all?”
-
-“Yes, sir; so soundly, I was a bit anxious till you waked. I found the
-glass empty and the bottle smashed, and I was afraid you might have
-taken too much of that _choral_ while half-asleep.”
-
-“No fear; nothing kills me. Now get me up;” and Helwyze made his toilet
-with a speed and energy which caused Stern to consider “_choral_” a
-wonderful discovery.
-
-A pretence of breakfast; then Helwyze sat down to wait for further
-tidings,—externally quite calm, internally tormented by a great anxiety,
-till Olivia came in, full of cheering news and sanguine expectations.
-
-“Gladys is asleep, with baby on her arm, and Felix adoring in the
-background. Poor boy! he cannot bear much, and is quite bowed down with
-remorse for something he has done. Do you know what?”
-
-As she spoke, Olivia stooped to pick up a book half-hidden by the fringe
-of a low chair. It lay face downward, and, in smoothing the crumpled
-leaves before closing it, she caught sight of a black and blotted name.
-So did Helwyze; a look of intelligence flashed over his face, and,
-taking the volume quickly, he answered, with his finger on the
-title-page,—
-
-“Yes, now I know, and so may you; for if one woman is in the secret, it
-will soon be out. Felix wrote that, and it is true.”
-
-“I thought so! One woman _has_ known it for a long time; nevertheless,
-the secret was kept for your sake;” and Olivia’s dark face sparkled with
-malicious merriment, as she saw the expression of mingled annoyance,
-pride, and pleasure in his.
-
-“My compliments and thanks: you are the eighth wonder of the world. But
-what led you to suspect this little fraud of ours?”
-
-“I did not, till the last book came; then I was struck here and there by
-certain peculiar phrases, certain tender epithets, which I think no one
-ever heard from your lips but me. These, in the hero’s mouth, made me
-sure that you had helped Canaris, if not done the whole yourself, and
-his odd manner at times confirmed my suspicion.”
-
-“You have a good memory: I forgot that.”
-
-“I have had so few such words from you that it is easy to remember
-them,” murmured Olivia, reproachfully.
-
-It seemed to touch him; for just then he felt deserted, well knowing
-that he had lost both Felix and Gladys; but Olivia never would desert
-him, no matter what discovery was made, or who might fall away. He
-thanked her for her devotion, with the first ray of hope given for
-years, as he said, in the tone so seldom heard,—
-
-“You shall have more henceforth; for you are a staunch friend, and now I
-have no other.”
-
-“Dear Jasper, you shall never find me wanting. _I_ will be true to the
-death!” she cried, blooming suddenly into her best and brightest beauty,
-with the delight of this rare moment. Then, fearing to express too much,
-she wisely turned again to Felix, asking curiously, “But why did you let
-this young daw deck himself out in your plumes? It enrages me, to think
-of his receiving the praise and honor due to you.”
-
-He told her briefly, adding, with more than his accustomed bitterness,—
-
-“What did _I_ want with praise and honor? To be gaped and gossiped about
-would have driven me mad. It pleased that vain boy as much as fooling
-the public amused me. A whim, and, being a dishonest one, we shall both
-have to pay for it, I suppose.”
-
-“What will he do?”
-
-“He has told Gladys, to begin with; and, if it had been possible, would
-have taken some decisive step to-day. He can do nothing sagely and
-quietly: there must be a dramatic _dénouement_ to every chapter of his
-life. I think he has one now.” Helwyze laughed, as he struck back the
-leaves of the book he still held, and looked at the dashing signature of
-his own name.
-
-“_He_ wrote that, then?” asked Olivia.
-
-“Yes, here, at midnight, while I lay asleep and let him tell the tale as
-he liked to Gladys. No wonder it startled her, so tragically given. The
-sequel may be more tragic yet: I seem to feel it in the air.”
-
-“What shall _you_ do?” asked Olivia, more anxiously than before; for
-Helwyze looked up with as sinister an expression as if he knew how
-desperate an enemy had stood over him last night, and when his own turn
-came, would be less merciful.
-
-“Do? Nothing. They will go; I shall stay; tongues will wag, and I shall
-be tormented. I shall seem the gainer, he the loser; but it will not be
-so.”
-
-Involuntarily his eye went to the little chair where Gladys would sit no
-longer, and darkened as if some light had gone out which used to cheer
-and comfort him. Olivia saw it, and could not restrain the question that
-broke from her lips,—
-
-“You do love her, Jasper?”
-
-“I shall miss her; but you shall take her place.”
-
-Calm and a little scornful was his face, his voice quite steady, and a
-smile was shed upon her with the last welcome words. But Olivia was not
-deceived: the calmness was unnatural, the voice _too_ steady, the smile
-too sudden; and her heart sank as she thanked him, without another
-question. For a while they sat together playing well their parts, then
-she went away to Gladys, and he was left to several hours of solitary
-musing.
-
-Had he been a better man, he would not have sinned; had he been a worse
-one, he could not have suffered; being what he was, he did both, and,
-having no one else to study now, looked deeply into himself, and was
-dismayed at what he saw. For the new love, purer, yet more hopeless than
-the old, shone like a star above an abyss, showing him whither he had
-wandered in the dark.
-
-Sunset came, filling the room with its soft splendor; and he watched the
-red rays linger longest in Gladys’s corner. Her little basket stood as
-she left it, her books lay orderly, her desk was shut, a dead flower
-drooped from the slender vase, and across the couch trailed a soft white
-shawl she had been wont to wear. Helwyze did not approach the spot, but
-stood afar off looking at these small familiar things with the
-melancholy fortitude of one inured to loss and pain. Regret rather than
-remorse possessed him as he thought, drearily,—
-
-“A year to-morrow since she came. How shall I exist without her? Where
-will her new home be?”
-
-An answer was soon given to the last question; for, while his fancy
-still hovered about that nook, and the gentle presence which had
-vanished as the sunshine was fast vanishing, Canaris came in wearing
-such an expression of despair, that Helwyze recoiled, leaving
-half-uttered a playful inquiry about “the little son.”
-
-“I have no son.”
-
-“Dead?”
-
-“Dead. I have murdered both.”
-
-“But Gladys?”
-
-“Dying; she asks for you,—come!” No need of that hoarse command; Helwyze
-was gone at the first word, swiftly through room and hall, up the stairs
-he had not mounted for months, straight to that chamber-door. There a
-hand clutched his shoulder, a breathless voice said, “Here _I_ am
-first;” and Canaris passed in before him, motioning away a group of
-tearful women as he went.
-
-Helwyze lingered, pale and panting, till they were gone; then he looked
-and listened, as if turned to stone, for in the heart of the hush lay
-Gladys, talking softly to the dead baby on her arm. Not mourning over
-it, but yearning with maternal haste to follow and cherish the creature
-of her love.
-
-“Only a day old; so young to go away alone. Even in heaven you will want
-your mother, darling, and she will come. Sleep, my baby, I will be with
-you when you wake.”
-
-A stifled sound of anguish recalled the happy soul, already half-way
-home, and Gladys turned her quiet eyes to her husband bending over her.
-
-“Dear, will he come?” she whispered.
-
-“He is here.”
-
-He was; and, standing on either side the bed, the two men seemed
-unconscious of each other, intent only upon her. Feebly she drew the
-white cover over the little cold thing in her bosom, as if too sacred
-for any eyes but hers to see, then lifted up her hand with a beseeching
-glance from one haggard face to the other. They understood; each gave
-the hand she asked, and, holding them together with the last effort of
-failing strength, she said, clear and low,—
-
-“Forgive each other for my sake.”
-
-Neither spoke, having no words, but by a mute gesture answered as she
-wished. Something brighter than a smile rested on her face, and, as if
-satisfied, she turned again to Canaris, seeming to forget all else in
-the tender farewell she gave him.
-
-“Remember, love, remember we shall be waiting for you. The new home will
-not be home to us until you come.”
-
-As her detaining touch was lifted, the two hands fell apart, never to
-meet again. Canaris knelt down to lay his head beside hers on the
-pillow, to catch the last accents of the beloved voice, sweet even now.
-Helwyze, forgotten by them both, drew back into the shadow of the deep
-red curtains, still studying with an awful curiosity the great mystery
-of death, asking, even while his heart grew cold within him,—
-
-“Will the faith she trusted sustain her now?”
-
-It did; for, leaning on the bosom of Infinite Love, like a confiding
-child in its father’s arms, without a doubt or fear to mar her peace, a
-murmur or lament to make the parting harder, Gladys went to her own
-place.
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-
- XVIII.
-
-
-“For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come. Is this one?” was the
-vague feeling, rather than thought, of which Helwyze was dimly
-conscious, as he lay in what seemed a grave, so cold, so dead he felt;
-so powerless and pent, in what he fancied was his coffin. He remembered
-the slow rising of a tide of helplessness which chilled his blood and
-benumbed his brain, till the last idea to be distinguished was, “I am
-dying: shall I meet Gladys?” then came oblivion, and now, what was this?
-
-Something was alive still—something which strove to see, move, speak,
-yet could not, till the mist, which obscured every sense, should clear
-away. A murmur was in the air, growing clearer every instant, as it rose
-and fell, like the muffled sound of waves upon a distant shore.
-Presently he recognized human voices, and the words they uttered,—words
-which had no meaning, till, like an electric shock, intelligence
-returned, bringing with it a great fear.
-
-Olivia was mourning over him, and he felt her tears upon his face; but
-it was not this which stung him to sudden life,—it was another voice,
-saying, low, but with a terrible distinctness,—
-
-“There is no hope. He may remain so for some years; but sooner or later
-the brain will share the paralysis of the body, and leave our poor
-friend in a state I grieve to think of.”
-
-“No!” burst from Helwyze, with an effort which seemed to dispel the
-trance which held his faculties. Stir he could not, but speak he did,
-and opened wide the eyes which had been closed for hours. With the
-unutterable relief of one roused from a nightmare he recognized his own
-room, Olivia’s tender face bent over him, and his physician holding a
-hand that had no feeling in it.
-
-“Not dead yet;” he muttered, with a feeble sort of exultation, adding,
-with as feeble a despair and doubt, “but _she_ is. Did I dream that?”
-
-“Alas, no!” and Olivia wiped away her own tears from the forehead which
-began to work with the rush of returning memory and thought.
-
-“What does this numbness mean? Why are you here?” he asked, as his eye
-went from one face to the other.
-
-“Dear Jasper, it means that you are ill. Stern found you unconscious in
-your chair last night. You are much better now, but it alarmed us, for
-we thought you dead,” replied Olivia, knowing that he would have the
-truth at any cost.
-
-“I remember thinking it was death, and being glad of it. Why did you
-bring me back? I had no wish to come.”
-
-She forgave the ingratitude, and went on chafing the cold hand so
-tenderly, that Helwyze reproached no more, but, turning to the
-physician, demanded, with a trace of the old imperiousness coming back
-into his feeble voice,—
-
-“Is this to be the end of it?”
-
-“I fear so, Mr. Helwyze. You will not suffer any more, let that comfort
-you.”
-
-“My body may not, but my mind will suffer horribly. Good heavens, man,
-do you call this death in life a comfortable end? How long have I got to
-lie here watching my wits go?”
-
-“It is impossible to say.”
-
-“But certain, sooner or later?”
-
-“There is a chance,—your brain has been overworked: it must have rest,”
-began the doctor, trying to soften the hard facts, since his patient
-would have them.
-
-“Rest! kill me at once, then; annihilation would be far better than such
-rest as that. I will not lie here waiting for imbecility,—put an end to
-this, or let me!” cried Helwyze, struggling to lift his powerless right
-hand; and, finding it impossible, he looked about him with an impotent
-desperation which wrung Olivia’s heart, and alarmed the physician,
-although he had long foreseen this climax.
-
-Both vainly tried to soothe and console; but after that one despairing
-appeal Helwyze turned his face to the wall, and lay so for hours.
-Asleep, they hoped, but in reality tasting the first bitterness of the
-punishment sent upon him as an expiation for the sin of misusing one of
-Heaven’s best gifts. No words could describe the terror such a fate had
-for him, since intellect had been his god, and he already felt it
-tottering to its fall. On what should he lean, if that were taken? where
-see any ray of hope to make the present endurable? where find any
-resignation to lighten the gloom of such a future?
-
-Restless mind and lawless will, now imprisoned in a helpless body,
-preyed on each other like wild creatures caged, finding it impossible to
-escape, and as impossible to submit. Death would not have daunted him,
-pain he had learned to endure; but this slow decay of his most precious
-possession he could not bear, and suffered a new martyrdom infinitely
-sharper than the old.
-
-How time went he never knew; for, although merciful unconsciousness was
-denied him, his thoughts, like avenging Furies, drove him from one
-bitter memory to another, probing his soul as he had probed others, and
-tormenting him with an almost supernatural activity of brain before its
-long rest began. Ages seemed to pass, while he took no heed of what went
-on about him. People came and went, faces bent over him, hands
-ministered to him, and voices whispered in the room. He knew all this,
-without the desire to do so, longing only to forget and be forgotten,
-with an increasing irritation, which slowly brought him back from that
-inner world of wordless pain to the outer one, which must be faced, and
-in some fashion endured.
-
-Olivia still sat near him, as if she had not stirred, though it was
-morning when last he spoke, and now night had come. The familiar room
-was dim and still, every thing already ordered for his comfort, and the
-brilliant cousin had transformed herself into a quiet nurse. The
-rustling silks were replaced by a soft, gray gown; the ornaments all
-gone; even the fine hair was half-hidden by the little kerchief of lace
-tied over it. Yet never had Olivia been more beautiful; for now the
-haughty queen had changed to a sad woman, wearing for her sole ornaments
-constancy and love. Worn and weary she looked, but a sort of sorrowful
-content was visible, a jealous tenderness, which plainly told that for
-her, at least, there was a drop of honey even in the new affliction,
-since it made him more her own than ever.
-
-“Poor soul! she promised to be faithful to the death; and she will
-be,—even such a death as this.”
-
-A sigh, that was almost a groan, broke from Helwyze as the thought came,
-and Olivia was instantly at his side.
-
-“Are you suffering, Jasper? What can I do for you?” she said, with such
-a passionate desire to serve or cheer, that he could not but answer,
-gently,—
-
-“I am done with pain: teach me to be patient.”
-
-“Oh, if I could! we must learn that together,” she said, feeling with
-him how sorely both would need the meek virtue to sustain the life
-before them.
-
-“Where is Felix?” asked Helwyze, after lying for a while, with his eyes
-upon the fire, as if they would absorb its light and warmth into their
-melancholy depths.
-
-“Mourning for Gladys,” replied Olivia, fearing to touch the dangerous
-topic, yet anxious to know how the two men stood toward one another; for
-something in the manner of the younger, when the elder was mentioned,
-made her suspect some stronger, sadder tie between them than the one she
-had already guessed.
-
-“Does he know of this?” and Helwyze struck himself a feeble blow with
-the one hand which he could use, now lying on his breast.
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“What does he say of me?”
-
-“Nothing.”
-
-“I must see him.”
-
-“You shall. I asked him if he had no word for you, and he answered, with
-a strange expression, ‘When I have buried my dead I will come, for the
-last time.’”
-
-“How does he look?” questioned Helwyze, curious to see, even through
-another’s eyes, the effect of sorrow upon the man whom he had watched so
-long and closely.
-
-“Sadly broken; but he is young and sanguine: he will soon forget, and be
-happy again; so do not let a thought of him disturb you, Jasper.”
-
-“It does not: we made our bargain, and held each other to it, till he
-chose to break it. Let him bear the consequences, as I do.”
-
-“Alas, they fall on him far less heavily than on you! He has all the
-world before him where to choose, while you have nothing left—but me.”
-
-He did not seem to hear her, and fell into a gloomy reverie, which she
-dared not break, but sat, patiently beguiling her lonely watch with sad
-thoughts of the twilight future they were to share together,—a future
-which might have been so beautiful and happy, had true love earlier made
-them one.
-
-Another day, another night, then there were sounds about the house which
-told Helwyze what was passing, without the need of any question. He
-asked none; but lay silent for the most part, as if careless or
-unconscious of what went on around him. He missed Olivia for an hour,
-and when she returned, traces of tears upon her cheeks told him that she
-had been to say farewell to Gladys. He had not spoken that name even to
-himself; for now an immeasurable space seemed to lie between him and its
-gentle owner. She had gone into a world whither he could not follow her.
-A veil, invisible, yet impenetrable, separated them for ever, he
-believed, and nothing remained to him but a memory that would not die,—a
-memory so bitter-sweet, so made up of remorse and reverence, love and
-longing, that it seemed to waken his heart from its long sleep, and
-kindle in it a spark of the divine fire, whose flame purified while it
-consumed; for even in his darkness and desolation he was not forgotten.
-
-Late that day Canaris came, looking like a man escaped from a great
-shipwreck, with nothing left him but his life. Unannounced he entered,
-and, with the brevity which in moments of strong feeling is more
-expressive than eloquence, he said,—
-
-“I am going.”
-
-“Where?” asked Helwyze, conscious that any semblance of friendship, any
-word of sympathy, was impossible between them.
-
-“Out into the world again.”
-
-“What will you do?”
-
-“Any _honest_ work I can find.”
-
-“Let me”—
-
-“No! I will take nothing from you. Poor as I came, I will go,—except the
-few relics I possess of her.”
-
-A traitorous tremor in the voice which was stern with repressed emotion
-warned Canaris to pause there, while his eye turned to Olivia, as if
-reminded of some last debt to her. From his breast he drew a little
-paper, unfolded it, and took out what looked like a massive ring of
-gold; this he laid before her, saying, with a softened mien and accent,—
-
-“You were very kind,—I have nothing else to offer,—let me give you this,
-in memory of Gladys.”
-
-Only a tress of sunny hair; but Olivia received the gift as if it were a
-very precious one, thanking him, not only with wet eyes, but friendly
-words.
-
-“Dear Felix, for her sake let _me_ help you, if I can. Do not go away so
-lonely, purposeless, and poor. The world is hard; you will be
-disheartened, and turn desperate, with no one to love and hope and work
-for.”
-
-“I must help myself. I am poor; but not purposeless, nor alone.
-Disheartened I may be: never desperate again; for I _have_ some one to
-love and hope and work for. She is waiting for me somewhere: I must make
-myself worthy to follow and find her. I have promised; and, God helping
-me, I will keep that promise.”
-
-Very humble, yet hopeful, was the voice; and full of a sad courage was
-the young man’s altered face,—for out of it the gladness and the bloom
-of youth had gone for ever, leaving the strength of a noble purpose to
-confront a life which hereafter should be honest, if not happy.
-
-Helwyze had not the infinite patience to work in marble; the power to
-chisel even his own divided nature into harmony, like the sculptor, who,
-in the likeness of a suffering saint, hewed his own features out of
-granite. He could only work in clay, as caprice inspired or circumstance
-suggested; forgetting that life’s stream of mixed and molten metals
-would flow over his faulty models, fixing unalterably both beauty and
-blemish. He had found the youth plastic as clay, had shaped him as he
-would; till, tiring of the task, he had been ready to destroy his work.
-But the hand of a greater Master had dropped into the furnace the gold
-of an enduring love, to brighten the bronze in which suffering and time
-were to cast the statue of the _man_. Helwyze saw this now, and a pang
-of something sharper than remorse wrung from him the reluctant words,—
-
-“Take, as my last gift, the fame which has cost you so much. I will
-never claim it: to me it is an added affliction, to you it may be a
-help. Keep it, I implore you, and give me the pardon _she_ asked of
-you.”
-
-But Canaris turned on him with the air of one who cries, “Get thee
-behind me!” and answered with enough of the old vehemence to prove that
-grief had not yet subdued the passionate spirit which had been his
-undoing,—
-
-“It is no longer in your power to tempt me, or in mine to be tempted, by
-my bosom sin. Forsythe knows the truth, and the world already wonders. I
-will earn a better fame for myself: keep this, and enjoy it, if you can.
-Pardon I cannot promise yet; but I give you my pity, ‘for her sake.’”
-
-With that—the bitterest word he could have uttered—Canaris was gone,
-leaving Helwyze to writhe under the double burden imposed by one more
-just than generous. Olivia durst not speak; and, in the silence, both
-listened to the hasty footsteps that passed from room to room, till a
-door closed loudly, and they knew that Canaris had set forth upon that
-long pilgrimage which was in time to lead him up to Gladys.
-
-Helwyze spoke first, exclaiming, with a dreary laugh,—
-
-“So much for playing Providence! You were right, and I _was_ rash to try
-it. Goethe could make his Satan as he liked; but Fate was stronger than
-I, and so comes ignominious failure. Margaret dies, and Faust suffers,
-but Mephistopheles cannot go with him on his new wanderings. Still, it
-holds—it holds even to the last! My end comes too soon; yet it is true.
-In loving the angel I lose the soul I had nearly won; the roses turn to
-flakes of fire, and the poor devil is left lamenting.”
-
-Olivia thought him wandering, and listened in alarm; for his thoughts
-seemed blown to and fro, like leaves in a fitful gust, and she had no
-clew to them. Presently, he broke out again, still haunted by the real
-tragedy in which he had borne a part; still following Canaris, whose
-freedom was like the thought of water to parched Tantalus.
-
-“He will do it! he will do it! When or how, who shall say? but, soon or
-late, she will save him, since he believes in such salvation. Would that
-I did!”
-
-Perhaps the despairing wish was the seed of a future hope, which might
-blossom into belief. Olivia trusted so, and tried to murmur some
-comfortable, though vague, assurance of a love and pity greater even
-than hers. He did not hear her; for his eyes were fixed, with an
-expression of agonized yearning, upon the sky, serene and beautiful, but
-infinitely distant, inexorably dumb; and, when he spoke, his words had
-in them both his punishment and her own,—
-
-“Life before was Purgatory, now it is Hell; because I loved her, and _I_
-have no hope to follow and find her again.”
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- A WHISPER IN THE DARK.
-
-
-As we rolled along, I scanned my companion covertly, and saw much to
-interest a girl of seventeen. My uncle was a handsome man, with all the
-polish of foreign life fresh upon him; yet it was neither comeliness nor
-graceful ease which most attracted me; for even my inexperienced eye
-caught glimpses of something stern and sombre below these external
-charms, and my long scrutiny showed me the keenest eye, the hardest
-mouth, the subtlest smile I ever saw,—a face which in repose wore the
-look which comes to those who have led lives of pleasure and learned
-their emptiness. He seemed intent on some thought that absorbed him, and
-for a time rendered him forgetful of my presence, as he sat with folded
-arms, fixed eyes, and restless lips. While I looked, my own mind was
-full of deeper thought than it had ever been before; for I was
-recalling, word for word, a paragraph in that half-read letter:—
-
- “At eighteen Sybil is to marry her cousin, the compact having
- been made between my brother and myself in their childhood. My
- son is with me now, and I wish them to be together during the
- next few months, therefore my niece must leave you sooner than I
- at first intended. Oblige me by preparing her for an immediate
- and final separation, but leave all disclosures to me, as I
- prefer the girl to remain ignorant of the matter for the
- present.”
-
-That displeased me. Why was I to remain ignorant of so important an
-affair? Then I smiled to myself, remembering that I did know, thanks to
-the wilful curiosity that prompted me to steal a peep into the letter
-that Madame Bernard had pored over with such an anxious face. I saw only
-a single paragraph, for my own name arrested my eye; and, though wild to
-read all, I had scarcely time to whisk the paper back into the reticule
-the forgetful old soul had left hanging on the arm of her chair. It was
-enough, however, to set my girlish brain in a ferment, and keep me
-gazing wistfully at my uncle, conscious that my future now lay in his
-hands; for I was an orphan and he my guardian, though I had seen him but
-seldom since I was confided to madame a six years’ child. Presently my
-uncle became cognizant of my steady stare, and returned it with one as
-steady for a moment, then said, in a low, smooth tone, that ill accorded
-with the satirical smile that touched his lips,—
-
-“I am a dull companion for my little niece. How shall I provide her with
-pleasanter amusement than counting my wrinkles or guessing my thoughts?”
-
-I was a frank, fearless creature, quick to feel, speak, and act, so I
-answered readily,—
-
-“Tell me about my cousin Guy. Is he as handsome, brave, and clever as
-madame says his father was when a boy?”
-
-My uncle laughed a short laugh, touched with scorn, whether for madame,
-himself, or me I could not tell, for his countenance was hard to read.
-
-“A girl’s question and artfully put; nevertheless I shall not answer it,
-but let you judge for yourself.”
-
-“But, sir, it will amuse me and beguile the way. I feel a little strange
-and forlorn at leaving madame, and talking of my new home and friends
-will help me to know and love them sooner. Please tell me, for I’ve had
-my own way all my life, and can’t bear to be crossed.”
-
-My petulance seemed to amuse him, and I became aware that he was
-observing me with a scrutiny as keen as my own had been; but I smilingly
-sustained it, for my vanity was pleased by the approbation his eye
-betrayed. The evident interest he now took in all I said and did was
-sufficient flattery for a young thing, who felt her charms and longed to
-try their power.
-
-“I, too, have had my own way all my life; and as the life is double the
-length, the will is double the strength of yours, and again I say no.
-What next, mademoiselle?”
-
-He was blander than ever as he spoke, but I was piqued, and resolved to
-try coaxing, eager to gain my point, lest a too early submission now
-should mar my freedom in the future.
-
-“But that is ungallant, uncle, and I still have hopes of a kinder
-answer, both because you are too generous to refuse so small a favor to
-your ‘little niece,’ and because she can be charmingly wheedlesome when
-she likes. Won’t you say yes now, uncle?” and, pleased with the daring
-of the thing, I put my arm about his neck, kissed him daintily, and
-perched myself upon his knee with most audacious ease.
-
-He regarded me mutely for an instant, then holding me fast deliberately
-returned my salute on lips, cheeks, and forehead, with such warmth that
-I turned scarlet and struggled to free myself, while he laughed that
-mirthless laugh of his till my shame turned to anger, and I imperiously
-commanded him to let me go.
-
-“Not yet, young lady. You came here for your own pleasure, but shall
-stay for mine, till I tame you as I see you must be tamed. It is a short
-process with me, and I possess experience in the work; for Guy, though
-by nature as wild as a hawk, has learned to come at my call as meekly as
-a dove. Chut! what a little fury it is!”
-
-I was just then; for exasperated at his coolness, and quite beside
-myself, I had suddenly stooped and bitten the shapely white hand that
-held both my own. I had better have submitted; for slight as the foolish
-action was, it had an influence on my after life as many another such
-has had. My uncle stopped laughing, his hand tightened its grasp, for a
-moment his cold eye glittered and a grim look settled round the mouth,
-giving to his whole face a ruthless expression that entirely altered it.
-I felt perfectly powerless. All my little arts had failed, and for the
-first time I was mastered. Yet only physically; my spirit was rebellious
-still. He saw it in the glance that met his own, as I sat erect and
-pale, with something more than childish anger. I think it pleased him,
-for swiftly as it had come the dark look passed, and quietly, as if we
-were the best of friends, he began to relate certain exciting adventures
-he had known abroad, lending to the picturesque narration the charm of
-that peculiarly melodious voice, which soothed and won me in spite of
-myself, holding me intent till I forgot the past; and when he paused I
-found that I was leaning confidentially on his shoulder, asking for
-more, yet conscious of an instinctive distrust of this man whom I had so
-soon learned to fear yet fancy.
-
-As I was recalled to myself, I endeavored to leave him; but he still
-detained me, and, with a curious expression, produced a case so quaintly
-fashioned that I cried out in admiration, while he selected two
-cigarettes, mildly aromatic with the herbs they were composed of, lit
-them, offered me one, dropped the window, and leaning back surveyed me
-with an air of extreme enjoyment, as I sat meekly puffing and wondering
-what prank I should play a part in next. Slowly the narcotic influence
-of the herbs diffused itself like a pleasant haze over all my senses;
-sleep, the most grateful, fell upon my eyelids, and the last thing I
-remember was my uncle’s face dreamily regarding me through a cloud of
-fragrant smoke. Twilight wrapped us in its shadows when I woke, with the
-night wind blowing on my forehead, the muffled roll of wheels sounding
-in my ear, and my cheek pillowed upon my uncle’s arm. He was humming a
-French _chanson_ about “Love and Wine, and the Seine to-morrow!” I
-listened till I caught the air, and presently joined him, mingling my
-girlish treble with his flute-like tenor. He stopped at once, and, in
-the coolly courteous tone I had always heard in our few interviews,
-asked if I was ready for lights and home.
-
-“Are we there?” I cried; and looking out saw that we were ascending an
-avenue which swept up to a pile of buildings that rose tall and dark
-against the sky, with here and there a gleam along its gray front.
-
-“Home at last, thank Heaven!” And springing out with the agility of a
-young man, my uncle led me over a terrace into a long hall, light and
-warm, and odorous with the breath of flowers blossoming here and there
-in graceful groups. A civil, middle-aged maid received and took me to my
-room, a bijou of a place, which increased my wonder when told that my
-uncle had chosen all its decorations and superintended their
-arrangement. “He understands women,” I thought, handling the toilet
-ornaments, trying luxurious chair and lounge, and ending by slipping my
-feet into the scarlet and white Turkish slippers, coquettishly turning
-up their toes before the fire. A few moments I gave to examination, and,
-having expressed my satisfaction, was asked by my maid if I would be
-pleased to dress, as “the master” never allowed dinner to wait for any
-one. This recalled to me the fact that I was doubtless to meet my future
-husband at that meal, and in a moment every faculty was intent upon
-achieving a grand toilette for this first interview. The maid possessed
-skill and taste, and I a wardrobe lately embellished with Parisian gifts
-from my uncle which I was eager to display in his honor.
-
-When ready, I surveyed myself in the long mirror as I had never done
-before, and saw there a little figure, slender, yet stately, in a dress
-of foreign fashion, ornamented with lace and carnation ribbons which
-enhanced the fairness of neck and arms, while blonde hair, wavy and
-golden, was gathered into an antique knot of curls behind, with a
-carnation fillet, and below a blooming dark-eyed face, just then radiant
-with girlish vanity and eagerness and hope.
-
-“I’m glad I’m pretty!”
-
-“So am I, Sybil.”
-
-I had unconsciously spoken aloud, and the echo came from the doorway
-where stood my uncle, carefully dressed, looking comelier and cooler
-than ever. The disagreeable smile flitted over his lips as he spoke, and
-I started, then stood abashed, till beckoning, he added in his most
-courtly manner,—
-
-“You were so absorbed in the contemplation of your charming self, that
-Janet answered my tap and took herself away unheard. You are mistress of
-my table now: it waits; will you come down?”
-
-With a last touch to that unruly hair of mine, a last, comprehensive
-glance and shake, I took the offered arm and rustled down the wide
-staircase, feeling that the romance of my life was about to begin. Three
-covers were laid, three chairs set, but only two were occupied, for no
-Guy appeared. I asked no questions, showed no surprise, but tried to
-devour my chagrin with my dinner, and exerted myself to charm my uncle
-into the belief that I had forgotten my cousin. It was a failure,
-however, for that empty seat had an irresistible fascination for me, and
-more than once, as my eye returned from its furtive scrutiny of napkin,
-plate, and trio of colored glasses, it met my uncle’s and fell before
-his penetrative glance. When I gladly rose to leave him to his wine,—for
-he did not ask me to remain,—he also rose, and, as he held the door for
-me, he said,—
-
-“You asked me to describe your cousin: you have seen one trait of his
-character to-night; does it please you?”
-
-I knew he was as much vexed as I at Guy’s absence, so quoting his own
-words I answered saucily,—
-
-“Yes; for I’d rather see the hawk free than coming tamely at your call,
-uncle.”
-
-He frowned slightly, as if unused to such liberty of speech, yet bowed
-when I swept him a stately little curtsey and sailed away to the
-drawing-room, wondering if my uncle was as angry with me as I was with
-my cousin. In solitary grandeur I amused myself by strolling through the
-suite of handsome rooms henceforth to be my realm, looked at myself in
-the long mirrors, as every woman is apt to do when alone and in costume,
-danced over the mossy carpets, touched the grand piano, smelt the
-flowers, fingered the ornaments on _étagère_ and table, and was just
-giving my handkerchief a second drench of some refreshing perfume from a
-filigree flask that had captivated me, when the hall door was flung
-wide, a quick step went running upstairs, boots tramped overhead,
-drawers seemed hastily opened and shut, and a bold, blithe voice broke
-out into a hunting song in a tone so like my uncle’s that I
-involuntarily flew to the door, crying,—
-
-“Guy is come!”
-
-Fortunately for my dignity, no one heard me, and hurrying back I stood
-ready to skim into a chair and assume propriety at a minute’s notice,
-conscious, meanwhile, of the new influence which seemed suddenly to gift
-the silent house with vitality, and add the one charm it needed,—that of
-cheerful companionship. “How will he meet me? and how shall I meet him?”
-I thought, looking up at the bright-faced boy, whose portrait looked
-back at me with a mirthful light in the painted eyes and a trace of his
-father’s disdainful smile in the curves of the firm-set lips. Presently
-the quick steps came flying down again, past the door, straight to the
-dining-room opposite, and, as I stood listening with a strange flutter
-at my heart, I heard an imperious young voice say rapidly,—
-
-“Beg pardon, sir, unavoidably detained. Has she come? Is she bearable?”
-
-“I find her so. Dinner is over, and I can offer you nothing but a glass
-of wine.”
-
-My uncle’s voice was frostily polite, making a curious contrast to the
-other, so impetuous and frank, as if used to command or win all but one.
-
-“Never mind the dinner! I’m glad to be rid of it; so I’ll drink your
-health, father, and then inspect our new ornament.”
-
-“Impertinent boy!” I muttered, yet at the same moment resolved to
-deserve his appellation, and immediately grouped myself as effectively
-as possible, laughing at my folly as I did so. I possessed a pretty
-foot, therefore one little slipper appeared quite naturally below the
-last flounce of my dress; a bracelet glittered on my arm as it emerged
-from among the lace and carnation knots; that arm supported my head. My
-profile was well cut, my eyelashes long, therefore I read with face half
-averted from the door. The light showered down, turning my hair to gold;
-so I smoothed my curls, retied my snood, and, after a satisfied survey,
-composed myself with an absorbed aspect and a quickened pulse to await
-the arrival of the gentlemen.
-
-Soon they came. I knew they paused on the threshold, but never stirred
-till an irrepressible, “You are right, sir!” escaped the younger. Then I
-rose prepared to give him the coldest greeting, yet I did not. I had
-almost expected to meet the boyish face and figure of the picture; I
-saw, instead, a man comely and tall. A dark moustache half hid the proud
-mouth; the vivacious eyes were far kinder, though quite as keen as his
-father’s, and the freshness of unspoiled youth lent a charm which the
-older man had lost for ever. Guy’s glance of pleased surprise was
-flatteringly frank, his smile so cordial, his “Welcome, cousin!” such a
-hearty sound, that my coldness melted in a breath, my dignity was all
-forgotten, and before I could restrain myself I had offered both hands
-with the impulsive exclamation,—
-
-“Cousin Guy, I know I shall be very happy here! Are you glad I have
-come?”
-
-“Glad as I am to see the sun after a November fog.”
-
-And, bending his tall head, he kissed my hand in the graceful foreign
-fashion he had learned abroad. It pleased me mightily, for it was both
-affectionate and respectful. Involuntarily I contrasted it with my
-uncle’s manner, and flashed a significant glance at him as I did so. He
-understood it, but only nodded with the satirical look I hated, shook
-out his paper and began to read. I sat down again, careless of myself
-now; and Guy stood on the rug, surveying me with an expression of
-surprise that rather nettled my pride.
-
-“He is only a boy, after all; so I need not be daunted by his inches or
-his airs. I wonder if he knows I am to be his wife, and likes it.”
-
-The thought sent the color to my forehead, my eyes fell, and despite my
-valiant resolution, I sat like any bashful child before my handsome
-cousin. Guy laughed a boyish laugh as he sat down on his father’s
-footstool, saying, while he warmed his slender brown hands,—
-
-“I beg your pardon, Sybil. (We won’t be formal, will we?) But I haven’t
-seen a lady for a month, so I stare like a boor at sight of a silk gown
-and high-bred face. Are those people coming, sir?”
-
-“If Sybil likes, ask her.”
-
-“Shall we have a flock of people here to make it gay for you, cousin, or
-do you prefer our quiet style better; just riding, driving, lounging,
-and enjoying life, each in his own way? Henceforth it is to be as you
-command in such matters.”
-
-“Let things go on as they have done, then. I don’t care for society, and
-strangers wouldn’t make it gay to me, for I like freedom; so do you, I
-think.”
-
-“Ah, don’t I!”
-
-A cloud flitted over his smiling face, and he punched the fire, as if
-some vent were necessary for the sudden gust of petulance that knit his
-black brows into a frown, and caused his father to tap him on the
-shoulder with the bland request, as he rose to leave the room,—
-
-“Bring the portfolios and entertain your cousin; I have letters to
-write, and Sybil is too tired to care for music to-night.”
-
-Guy obeyed with a shrug of the shoulder his father touched, but lingered
-in the recess till my uncle, having made his apologies to me, had left
-the room; then my cousin rejoined me, wearing the same cordial aspect I
-first beheld. Some restraint was evidently removed, and his natural self
-appeared. A very winsome self it was, courteous, gay, and frank, with an
-undertone of deeper feeling than I thought to find. I watched him
-covertly, and soon owned to myself that he was all I most admired in the
-ideal hero every girl creates in her romantic fancy; for I no longer
-looked upon this young man as my cousin, but my lover, and through all
-our future intercourse this thought was always uppermost, full of a
-charm that never lost its power.
-
-Before the evening ended Guy was kneeling on the rug beside me, our two
-heads close together, while he turned the contents of the great
-portfolio spread before us, looking each other freely in the face, as I
-listened and he described, both breaking into frequent peals of laughter
-at some odd adventure or comical mishap in his own travels, suggested by
-the pictured scenes before us. Guy was very charming, I my blithest,
-sweetest self, and when we parted late, my cousin watched me up the
-stairs with still another, “Good-night, Sybil,” as if both sight and
-sound were pleasant to him.
-
-“Is that your horse Sultan?” I called from my window next morning, as I
-looked down upon my cousin, who was coming up the drive from an early
-gallop on the moors.
-
-“Yes, bonny Sybil; come and admire him,” he called back, hat in hand,
-and a quick smile rippling over his face.
-
-I went, and, standing on the terrace, caressed the handsome creature,
-while Guy said, glancing up at his father’s undrawn curtains,—
-
-“If your saddle had come, we would take a turn before ‘my lord’ is ready
-for breakfast. This autumn air is the wine you women need.”
-
-I yearned to go, and when I willed the way soon appeared; so careless of
-bonnetless head and cambric gown, I stretched my hands to him, saying
-boldly,—
-
-“Play young Lochinvar, Guy; I am little and light; take me up before you
-and show me the sea.”
-
-He liked the daring feat, held out his hand, I stepped on his boot toe,
-sprang up, and away we went over the wide moor, where the sun shone in a
-cloudless heaven, the lark soared singing from the green grass at our
-feet, and the September wind blew freshly from the sea. As we paused on
-the upland slope, that gave us a free view of the country for miles, Guy
-dismounted, and, standing with his arm about the saddle to steady me in
-my precarious seat, began to talk.
-
-“Do you like your new home, cousin?”
-
-“More than I can tell you!”
-
-“And my father, Sybil?”
-
-“Both yes and no to that question, Guy; I hardly know him yet.”
-
-“True, but you must not expect to find him as indulgent and fond as many
-guardians would be to such as you. It’s not his nature. Yet you can win
-his heart by obedience, and soon grow quite at ease with him.”
-
-“Bless you! I’m that already, for I fear no one. Why, I sat on his knee
-yesterday and smoked a cigarette of his own offering, though madame
-would have fainted if she had seen me; then I slept on his arm an hour,
-and he was fatherly kind, though I teased him like a gnat.”
-
-“The deuce he was!” with which energetic expression Guy frowned at the
-landscape and harshly checked Sultan’s attempt to browse, while I
-wondered what was amiss between father and son, and resolved to
-discover; but, finding the conversation at an end, started it afresh, by
-asking,—
-
-“Is any of my property in this part of the country, Guy? Do you know I
-am as ignorant as a baby about my own affairs; for, as long as every
-whim was gratified and my purse full, I left the rest to madame and
-uncle, though the first hadn’t a bit of judgment, and the last I
-scarcely knew. I never cared to ask questions before, but now I am
-intensely curious to know how matters stand.”
-
-“All you see is yours, Sybil,” was the brief answer.
-
-“What, that great house, the lovely gardens, these moors, and the forest
-stretching to the sea? I’m glad! I’m glad! But where, then, is your
-home, Guy?”
-
-“Nowhere.”
-
-At this I looked so amazed, that his gloom vanished in a laugh, as he
-explained, but briefly, as if this subject were no pleasanter than the
-first,—
-
-“By your father’s will you were desired to take possession of the old
-place at eighteen. You will be that soon; therefore, as your guardian,
-my father has prepared things for you, and is to share your home until
-you marry.”
-
-“When will that be, I wonder?” and I stole a glance from under my
-lashes, wild to discover if Guy knew of the compact and was a willing
-party to it. His face was half averted, but over his dark cheek I saw a
-deep flush rise, as he answered, stooping to pull a bit of heather,—
-
-“Soon, I hope, or the gentleman sleeping there below will be tempted to
-remain a fixture with you on his knee as ‘madame my wife.’ He is not
-your own uncle, you know.”
-
-I smiled at the idea, but Guy did not see it; and seized with a whim to
-try my skill with the hawk that seemed inclined to peck at its master, I
-said demurely,—
-
-“Well, why not? I might be very happy if I learned to love him, as I
-should, if he were always in that kindest mood of his. Would you like me
-for a little mamma, Guy?”
-
-“No!” short and sharp as a pistol shot.
-
-“Then you must marry and have a home of your own, my son.”
-
-“Don’t, Sybil! I’d rather you didn’t see me in a rage, for I’m not a
-pleasant sight, I assure you; and I’m afraid I shall be in one if you go
-on. I early lost my mother, but I love her tenderly, because my father
-is not much to me, and I know if she had lived I should not be what I
-am.”
-
-Bitter was his voice, moody his mien, and all the sunshine gone at once.
-I looked down and touched his black hair with a shy caress, feeling both
-penitent and pitiful.
-
-“Dear Guy, forgive me if I pained you. I’m a thoughtless creature, but
-I’m not malicious, and a word will restrain me if kindly spoken. My home
-is always yours, and when my fortune is mine you shall never want, if
-you are not too proud to accept help from your own kin. You are a little
-proud, aren’t you?”
-
-“As Lucifer, to most people. I think I should not be to you, for you
-understand me, Sybil, and with you I hope to grow a better man.”
-
-He turned then, and through the lineaments his father had bequeathed him
-I saw a look that must have been his mother’s, for it was womanly,
-sweet, and soft, and lent new beauty to the dark eyes, always kind, and
-just then very tender. He had checked his words suddenly, like one who
-has gone too far, and with that hasty look into my face had bent his own
-upon the ground, as if to hide the unwonted feeling that had mastered
-him. It lasted but a moment, then his old manner returned, as he said
-gayly,—
-
-“There drops your slipper. I’ve been wondering what kept it on. Pretty
-thing! They say it is a foot like this that oftenest tramples on men’s
-hearts. Are you cruel to your lovers, Sybil?”
-
-“I never had one, for madame guarded me like a dragon, and I led the
-life of a nun; but when I do find one I shall try his mettle well before
-I give up my liberty.”
-
-“Poets say it is sweet to give up liberty for love, and they ought to
-know,” answered Guy, with a sidelong glance.
-
-I liked that little speech, and recollecting the wistful look he had
-given me, the significant words that had escaped him, and the variations
-of tone and manner constantly succeeding one another, I felt assured
-that my cousin was cognizant of the family league, and accepted it, yet,
-with the shyness of a young lover, knew not how to woo. This pleased me,
-and, quite satisfied with my morning’s work, I mentally resolved to
-charm my cousin slowly, and enjoy the romance of a genuine wooing,
-without which no woman’s life seems complete,—in her own eyes, at least.
-He had gathered me a knot of purple heather, and as he gave it I smiled
-my sweetest on him, saying,—
-
-“I commission you to supply me with nosegays, for you have taste, and I
-love wild-flowers. I shall wear this at dinner in honor of its giver.
-Now take me home; for my moors, though beautiful, are chilly, and I have
-no wrapper but this microscopic handkerchief.”
-
-Off went his riding-jacket, and I was half smothered in it. The hat
-followed next, and as he sprung up behind I took the reins, and felt a
-thrill of delight in sweeping down the slope with that mettlesome
-creature tugging at the bit, that strong arm round me, and the happy
-hope that the heart I leaned on might yet learn to love me.
-
-The day so began passed pleasantly, spent in roving over house and
-grounds with my cousin, setting my possessions in order, and writing to
-dear old madame. Twilight found me in my bravest attire, with Guy’s
-heather in my hair, listening for his step, and longing to run and meet
-him when he came. Punctual to the instant he appeared, and this dinner
-was a far different one from that of yesterday, for both father and son
-seemed in their gayest and most gallant mood, and I enjoyed the hour
-heartily. The world seemed all in tune now, and when I went to the
-drawing-room I was moved to play my most stirring marches, sing my
-blithest songs, hoping to bring one at least of the gentlemen to join
-me. It brought both, and my first glance showed me a curious change in
-each. My uncle looked harassed and yet amused, Guy looked sullen and
-eyed his father with covert glances.
-
-The morning’s chat flashed into my mind, and I asked myself, “Is Guy
-jealous so soon?” It looked a little like it, for he threw himself upon
-a couch and lay there silent and morose; while my uncle paced to and
-fro, thinking deeply, while apparently listening to the song he bade me
-finish. I did so, then followed the whim that now possessed me, for I
-wanted to try my power over them both, to see if I could restore that
-gentler mood of my uncle’s, and assure myself that Guy cared whether I
-was friendliest with him or not.
-
-“Uncle, come and sing with me; I like that voice of yours.”
-
-“Tut, I am too old for that; take this indolent lad instead, his voice
-is fresh and young, and will chord well with yours.”
-
-“Do you know that pretty _chanson_ about ‘Love and Wine, and the Seine
-to-morrow,’ cousin Guy?” I asked, stealing a sly glance at my uncle.
-
-“Who taught you that?” and Guy eyed me over the top of the couch with an
-astonished expression which greatly amused me.
-
-“No one; uncle sang a bit of it in the carriage yesterday. I like the
-air, so come and teach me the rest.”
-
-“It is no song for you, Sybil. You choose strange entertainment for a
-lady, sir.”
-
-A look of unmistakable contempt was in the son’s eye, of momentary
-annoyance in the father’s, yet his voice betrayed none as he answered,
-still pacing placidly along the room,—
-
-“I thought she was asleep, and unconsciously began it to beguile a
-silent drive. Sing on, Sybil; that Bacchanalian snatch will do you no
-harm.”
-
-But I was tired of music now they had come, so I went to him, and,
-passing my arm through his, walked beside him, saying with my most
-persuasive aspect,—
-
-“Tell me about Paris, uncle; I intend to go there as soon as I’m of age,
-if you will let me. Does your guardianship extend beyond that time?”
-
-“Only till you marry.”
-
-“I shall be in no haste, then, for I begin to feel quite homelike and
-happy here with you, and shall be content without other society; only
-you’ll soon tire of me, and leave me to some dismal governess, while you
-and Guy go pleasuring.”
-
-“No fear of that, Sybil; I shall hold you fast till some younger
-guardian comes to rob me of my merry ward.”
-
-As he spoke, he took the hand that lay upon his arm into a grasp so
-firm, and turned on me a look so keen, that I involuntarily dropped my
-eyes lest he should read my secret there. Eager to turn the
-conversation, I asked, pointing to a little miniature hanging underneath
-the portrait of his son, before which he had paused,—
-
-“Was that Guy’s mother, sir?”
-
-“No, your own.”
-
-I looked again, and saw a face delicate yet spirited, with dark eyes, a
-passionate mouth, and a head crowned with hair as plenteous and golden
-as my own; but the whole seemed dimmed by age, the ivory was stained,
-the glass cracked, and a faded ribbon fastened it. My eyes filled as I
-looked, and a strong desire seized me to know what had defaced this
-little picture of the mother whom I never knew.
-
-“Tell me about her, uncle; I know so little, and often long for her so
-much. Am I like her, sir?”
-
-Why did my uncle avert his eyes as he answered,—
-
-“You are a youthful image of her, Sybil.”
-
-“Go on please, tell me more; tell me why this is so stained and worn;
-you know all, and surely I am old enough now to hear any history of pain
-and loss.”
-
-Something caused my uncle to knit his brows, but his bland voice never
-varied a tone as he placed the picture in my hand and gave me this brief
-explanation:—
-
-“Just before your birth your father was obliged to cross the Channel, to
-receive the last wishes of a dying friend; there was an accident; the
-vessel foundered, and many lives were lost. He escaped, but by some
-mistake his name appeared in the list of missing passengers; your mother
-saw it, the shock destroyed her, and when your father returned he found
-only a motherless little daughter to welcome him. This miniature, which
-he always carried with him, was saved with his papers at the last
-moment; but though the sea-water ruined it he would never have it copied
-or retouched, and gave it to me when he died in memory of the woman I
-had loved for his sake. It is yours now, my child; keep it, and never
-feel that you are fatherless or motherless while I remain.”
-
-Kind as was both act and speech, neither touched me, for something
-seemed wanting. I felt, yet could not define it, for then I believed in
-the sincerity of all I met.
-
-“Where was she buried, uncle? It may be foolish, but I should like to
-see my mother’s grave.”
-
-“You shall some day, Sybil,” and a curious change came over my uncle’s
-face as he averted it.
-
-“I have made him melancholy, talking of Guy’s mother and my own; now
-I’ll make him gay again if possible, and pique that negligent boy,” I
-thought, and drew my uncle to a lounging-chair, established myself on
-the arm thereof, and kept him laughing with my merriest gossip, both of
-us apparently unconscious of the long dark figure stretched just
-opposite, feigning sleep, but watching us through half-closed lids, and
-never stirring except to bow silently to my careless “Good-night.”
-
-As I reached the stairhead, I remembered that my letter to madame, full
-of the frankest criticisms upon people and things, was lying unsealed on
-the table in the little room my uncle had set apart for my boudoir;
-fearing servants’ eyes and tongues, I slipped down again to get it. The
-room adjoined the parlors, and just then was lit only by a ray from the
-hall lamp. I had secured the letter, and was turning to retreat, when I
-heard Guy say petulantly, as if thwarted yet submissive,—
-
-“I _am_ civil when you leave me alone; I _do_ agree to marry her, but I
-won’t be hurried or go a-wooing except in my own way. You know I never
-liked the bargain, for it’s nothing else; yet I can reconcile myself to
-being sold, if it relieves you and gives us both a home. But, father,
-mind this, if you tie me to that girl’s sash too tightly I shall break
-away entirely, and then where are we?”
-
-“I should be in prison and you a houseless vagabond. Trust me, my boy,
-and take the good fortune which I secured for you in your cradle. Look
-in pretty Sybil’s face, and resignation will grow easy; but remember
-time presses, that this is our forlorn hope, and for God’s sake be
-cautious, for she is a headstrong creature, and may refuse to fulfil her
-part if she learns that the contract is not binding against her will.”
-
-“I think she’ll not refuse, sir; she likes me already. I see it in her
-eyes; she has never had a lover, she says, and according to your account
-a girl’s first sweetheart is apt to fare the best. Besides, she likes
-the place, for I told her it was hers, as you bade me, and she said she
-could be very happy here, if my father was always kind.”
-
-“She said that, did she? little hypocrite! For your father, read
-yourself, and tell me what else she babbled about in that early
-_tête-à-tête_ of yours.”
-
-“You are as curious as a woman, sir, and always make me tell you all I
-do and say, yet never tell me any thing in return, except this business,
-which I hate, because my liberty is the price, and my poor little cousin
-is kept in the dark. I’ll tell her all, before I marry her, father.”
-
-“As you please, hot-head. I am waiting for an account of the first love
-passage, so leave blushing to Sybil and begin.”
-
-I knew what was coming and stayed no longer, but caught one glimpse of
-the pair, Guy in his favorite place, erect upon the rug, half-laughing,
-half-frowning as he delayed to speak, my uncle serenely smoking on the
-couch; then I sped away to my own room, thinking, as I sat down in a
-towering passion,—
-
-“So he does know of the baby betrothal and hates it, yet submits to
-please his father, who covets my fortune,—mercenary creatures! I can
-annul the contract, can I? I’m glad to know that, for it makes me
-mistress of them both. I like you already, do I? and you see it in my
-eyes. Coxcomb! I’ll be the thornier for that. Yet I do like him; I do
-wish he cared for me, I’m so lonely in the world, and he can be so
-kind.”
-
-So I cried a little, brushed my hair a good deal, and went to bed,
-resolving to learn all I could when, where, and how I pleased, to render
-myself as charming and valuable as possible, to make Guy love me in
-spite of himself, and then say yes or no, as my heart prompted me.
-
-That day was a sample of those that followed, for my cousin was by turns
-attracted or repelled by the capricious moods that ruled me. Though
-conscious of a secret distrust of my uncle, I could not resist the
-fascination of his manner when he chose to exert its influence over me;
-this made my little plot easier of execution, for jealousy seemed the
-most effectual means to bring my wayward cousin to subjection. Full of
-this fancy, I seemed to tire of his society, grew thorny as a briar rose
-to him, affectionate as a daughter to my uncle, who surveyed us both
-with that inscrutable glance of his, and slowly yielded to my dominion
-as if he had divined my purpose and desired to aid it. Guy turned cold
-and gloomy, yet still lingered near me as if ready for a relenting look
-or word. I liked that, and took a wanton pleasure in prolonging the
-humiliation of the warm heart I had learned to love, yet not to value as
-I ought, until it was too late.
-
-One dull November evening as I went wandering up and down the hall,
-pretending to enjoy the flowers, yet in reality waiting for Guy, who had
-left me alone all day, my uncle came from his room, where he had sat for
-many hours with the harassed and anxious look he always wore when
-certain foreign letters came.
-
-“Sybil, I have something to show and tell you,” he said, as I garnished
-his button-hole with a spray of heliotrope, meant for the laggard, who
-would understand its significance, I hoped. Leading me to the
-drawing-room, my uncle put a paper into my hands, with the request,—
-
-“This is a copy of your father’s will; oblige me by reading it.”
-
-He stood watching my face as I read, no doubt wondering at my composure
-while I waded through the dry details of the will, curbing my impatience
-to reach the one important passage. There it was, but no word concerning
-my power to dissolve the engagement if I pleased; and, as I realized the
-fact, a sudden bewilderment and sense of helplessness came over me, for
-the strange law terms seemed to make inexorable the paternal decree
-which I had not seen before. I forgot my studied calmness, and asked
-several questions eagerly.
-
-“Uncle, did my father really command that I should marry Guy, whether we
-loved each other or not?”
-
-“You see what he there set down as his desire; and I have taken measures
-that you _should_ love one another, knowing that few cousins, young,
-comely, and congenial, could live three months together without finding
-themselves ready to mate for their own sakes, if not for the sake of the
-dead and living fathers to whom they owe obedience.”
-
-“You said I need not, if I didn’t choose; why is it not here?”
-
-“I said that? Never, Sybil!” and I met a look of such entire surprise
-and incredulity it staggered my belief in my own senses, yet also roused
-my spirit, and, careless of consequences, I spoke out at once,—
-
-“I heard you say it myself the night after I came, when you told Guy to
-be cautious, because I could refuse to fulfil the engagement, if I knew
-that it was not binding against my will.”
-
-This discovery evidently destroyed some plan, and for a moment threw him
-off his guard; for, crumpling the paper in his hand, he sternly
-demanded,—
-
-“You turned eavesdropper early; how often since?”
-
-“Never, uncle; I did not mean it then, but, going for a letter in the
-dark, I heard your voices, and listened for an instant. It was
-dishonorable, but irresistible; and, if you force Guy’s confidence, why
-should not I steal yours? All is fair in war, sir, and I forgive as I
-hope to be forgiven.”
-
-“You have a quick wit and a reticence I did not expect to find under
-that frank manner. So you have known your future destiny all these
-months, then, and have a purpose in your treatment of your cousin and
-myself?”
-
-“Yes, uncle.”
-
-“May I ask what?”
-
-I was ashamed to tell; and, in the little pause before my answer came,
-my pique at Guy’s desertion was augmented by anger at my uncle’s denial
-of his own words the ungenerous hopes he cherished, and a strong desire
-to perplex and thwart him took possession of me, for I saw his anxiety
-concerning the success of this interview, though he endeavored to
-repress and conceal it. Assuming my coldest mien, I said,—
-
-“No, sir, I think not; only I can assure you that my little plot has
-succeeded better than your own.”
-
-“But you intend to obey your father’s wish, I hope, and fulfil your part
-of the compact, Sybil?”
-
-“Why should I? It is not binding, you know, and I’m too young to lose my
-liberty just yet; besides, such compacts are unjust, unwise. What right
-had my father to mate me in my cradle? how did he know what I should
-become, or Guy? how could he tell that I should not love some one else
-better? No! I’ll not be bargained away like a piece of merchandise, but
-love and marry when I please!”
-
-At this declaration of independence my uncle’s face darkened ominously,
-some new suspicion lurked in his eye, some new anxiety beset him; but
-his manner was calm, his voice blander than ever as he asked,—
-
-“Is there then, some one whom you love? Confide in me, my girl.”
-
-“And if there were, what then?”
-
-“All would be changed at once, Sybil. But who is it? Some young lover
-left behind at madame’s?”
-
-“No, sir.”
-
-“Who, then? You have led a recluse life here. Guy has no friends who
-visit him, and mine are all old, yet you say you love.”
-
-“With all my heart, uncle.”
-
-“Is this affection returned, Sybil?”
-
-“I think so.”
-
-“And it is not Guy?”
-
-I was wicked enough to enjoy the bitter disappointment he could not
-conceal at my decided words, for I thought he deserved that momentary
-pang; but I could not as decidedly answer that last question, for I
-would not lie, neither would I confess just yet; so, with a little
-gesture of impatience, I silently turned away, lest he should see the
-tell-tale color in my cheeks. My uncle stood an instant in deep thought,
-a slow smile crept to his lips, content returned to his mien, and
-something like a flash of triumph glittered for a moment in his eye,
-then vanished, leaving his countenance earnestly expectant. Much as this
-change surprised me, his words did more, for, taking both my hands in
-his, he gravely said,—
-
-“Do you know that I am your uncle by adoption and not blood, Sybil?”
-
-“Yes, sir; I heard so, but forgot about it,” and I looked up at him, my
-anger quite lost in astonishment.
-
-“Let me tell you, then. Your grandfather was childless for many years,
-my mother was an early friend, and when her death left me an orphan, he
-took me for his son and heir. But two years from that time your father
-was born. I was too young to realize the entire change this might make
-in my life. The old man was too just and generous to let me feel it, and
-the two lads grew up together like brothers. Both married young, and
-when you were born a few years later than my son, your father said to
-me, ‘Your boy shall have my girl, and the fortune I have innocently
-robbed you of shall make us happy in our children.’ Then the family
-league was made, renewed at his death, and now destroyed by his
-daughter, unless—Sybil, I am forty-five, you not eighteen, yet you once
-said you could be very happy with me, if I were always kind to you. I
-can promise that I will be, for I love you. My darling, you reject the
-son, will you accept the father?”
-
-If he had struck me, it would scarcely have dismayed me more. I started
-up, and snatching away my hands hid my face in them, for after the first
-tingle of surprise an almost irresistible desire to laugh came over me,
-but I dared not, and gravely, gently he went on,—
-
-“I am a bold man to say this, yet I mean it most sincerely. I never
-meant to betray the affection I believed you never could return, and
-would only laugh at as a weakness; but your past acts, your present
-words, give me courage to confess that I desire to keep my ward mine for
-ever. Shall it be so?”
-
-He evidently mistook my surprise for maidenly emotion, and the
-suddenness of this unforeseen catastrophe seemed to deprive me of words.
-All thought of merriment or ridicule was forgotten in a sense of guilt,
-for if he feigned the love he offered it was well done, and I believed
-it then. I saw at once the natural impression conveyed by my conduct; my
-half confession and the folly of it all oppressed me with a regret and
-shame I could not master. My mind was in dire confusion, yet a decided
-“No” was rapidly emerging from the chaos, but was not uttered; for just
-at this crisis, as I stood with my uncle’s arm about me, my hand again
-in his, and his head bent down to catch my answer, Guy swung himself
-gayly into the room. A glance seemed to explain all, and in an instant
-his face assumed that expression of pale wrath so much more terrible to
-witness than the fiercest outbreak; his eye grew fiery, his voice
-bitterly sarcastic, as he said,—
-
-“Ah, I see; the play goes on, but the actors change parts. I
-congratulate you, sir, on your success, and Sybil on her choice.
-Henceforth I am _de trop_, but before I go allow me to offer my wedding
-gift. You have taken the bride, let me supply the ring.”
-
-He threw a jewel-box upon the table, adding, in that unnaturally calm
-tone that made my heart stand still:
-
-“A little candor would have spared me much pain, Sybil; yet I hope you
-will enjoy your bonds as heartily as I shall my escape from them. A
-little confidence would have made me your ally, not your rival, father.
-I have not your address; therefore I lose, you win. Let it be so. I had
-rather be the vagabond this makes me than sell myself, that you may
-gamble away that girl’s fortune as you have your own and mine. You need
-not ask me to the wedding, I will not come. Oh, Sybil, I so loved, so
-trusted you!”
-
-And with that broken exclamation he was gone.
-
-The stormy scene had passed so rapidly, been so strange and sudden,
-Guy’s anger so scornful and abrupt, I could not understand it, and felt
-like a puppet in the grasp of some power I could not resist; but as my
-lover left the room I broke out of the bewilderment that held me,
-imploring him to stay and hear me.
-
-It was too late, he was gone, and Sultan’s tramp was already tearing
-down the avenue. I listened till the sound died, then my hot temper rose
-past control, and womanlike asserted itself in vehement and voluble
-speech: I was angry with my uncle, my cousin, and myself, and for
-several minutes poured forth a torrent of explanations, reproaches, and
-regrets, such as only a passionate girl could utter.
-
-My uncle stood where I had left him when I flew to the door with my vain
-cry; he now looked baffled, yet sternly resolved, and as I paused for
-breath his only answer was,—
-
-“Sybil, you ask me to bring back that headstrong boy; I cannot; he will
-never come. This marriage was distasteful to him, yet he submitted for
-my sake, because I have been unfortunate, and we are poor. Let him go,
-forget the past, and be to me what I desire, for I loved your father and
-will be a faithful guardian to his daughter all my life. Child, it must
-be,—come, I implore, I command you.”
-
-He beckoned imperiously as if to awe me, and held up the glittering
-betrothal ring as if to tempt me. The tone, the act, the look put me
-quite beside myself. I did go to him, did take the ring, but said as
-resolutely as himself,—
-
-“Guy rejects me, and I have done with love. Uncle, you would have
-deceived me, used me as a means to your own selfish ends. I will accept
-neither yourself nor your gifts, for now I despise both you and your
-commands;” and, as the most energetic emphasis I could give to my
-defiance, I flung the ring, case and all, across the room; it struck the
-great mirror, shivered it just in the middle, and sent several loosened
-fragments crashing to the floor.
-
-“Great heavens! is the young lady mad?” exclaimed a voice behind us.
-Both turned and saw Dr. Karnac, a stealthy, sallow-faced Spaniard, for
-whom I had an invincible aversion. He was my uncle’s physician, had been
-visiting a sick servant in the upper regions, and my adverse fate sent
-him to the door just at that moment with that unfortunate exclamation on
-his lips.
-
-“What do you say?”
-
-My uncle wheeled about and eyed the new-comer intently as he repeated
-his words. I have no doubt I looked like one demented, for I was
-desperately angry, pale and trembling with excitement, and as they
-fronted me with a curious expression of alarm on their faces, a sudden
-sense of the absurdity of the spectacle came over me; I laughed
-hysterically a moment, then broke into a passion of regretful tears,
-remembering that Guy was gone. As I sobbed behind my hands, I knew the
-gentlemen were whispering together and of me, but I never heeded them,
-for as I wept myself calmer a comforting thought occurred to me; Guy
-could not have gone far, for Sultan had been out all day, and though
-reckless of himself he was not of his horse, which he loved like a human
-being; therefore he was doubtless at the house of an humble friend near
-by. If I could slip away unseen, I might undo my miserable work, or at
-least see him again before he went away into the world, perhaps never to
-return. This hope gave me courage for any thing, and dashing away my
-tears I took a covert survey. Dr. Karnac and my uncle still stood before
-the fire, deep in their low-toned conversation; their backs were toward
-me, and, hushing the rustle of my dress, I stole away with noiseless
-steps into the hall, seized Guy’s plaid, and, opening the great door
-unseen, darted down the avenue.
-
-Not far, however; the wind buffeted me to and fro, the rain blinded me,
-the mud clogged my feet and soon robbed me of a slipper; groping for it
-in despair, I saw a light flash into the outer darkness; heard voices
-calling, and soon the swift tramp of steps behind me. Feeling like a
-hunted doe, I ran on, but before I had gained a dozen yards my shoeless
-foot struck a sharp stone, and I fell half-stunned upon the wet grass of
-the wayside bank. Dr. Karnac reached me first, took me up as if I were a
-naughty child, and carried me back through a group of staring servants
-to the drawing-room, my uncle following with breathless entreaties that
-I would be calm, and a most uncharacteristic display of bustle.
-
-I was horribly ashamed; my head ached with the shock of the fall, my
-foot bled, my heart fluttered, and when the doctor put me down the
-crisis came, for as my uncle bent over me with the strange question, “My
-poor girl, do you know me?” an irresistible impulse impelled me to push
-him from me, crying passionately,—
-
-“Yes, I know and hate you; let me go! let me go, or it will be too
-late!” then, quite spent with the varying emotions of the last hour, for
-the first time in my life I swooned away.
-
-Coming to myself, I found I was in my own room, with my uncle, the
-doctor, Janet, and Mrs. Best, the housekeeper, gathered about me, the
-latter saying, as she bathed my temples,—
-
-“She’s a sad sight, poor thing, so young, so bonny, and so unfortunate.
-Did you ever see her so before, Janet?”
-
-“Bless you, no, ma’am; there was no signs of such a tantrum when I
-dressed her for dinner.”
-
-“What do they mean? did they never see any one angry before?” I dimly
-wondered, and presently, through the fast disappearing stupor that had
-held me, Dr. Karnac’s deep voice came distinctly, saying,—
-
-“If it continues, you are perfectly justified in doing so.”
-
-“Doing what?” I demanded sharply, for the sound both roused and
-irritated me, I disliked the man so intensely.
-
-“Nothing, my dear, nothing,” purred Mrs. Best, supporting me as I sat
-up, feeling weak and dazed, yet resolved to know what was going on. I
-was “a sad sight” indeed; my drenched hair hung about my shoulders, my
-dress was streaked with mud, one shoeless foot was red with blood, the
-other splashed and stained, and a white, wild-eyed face completed the
-ruinous image the opposite mirror showed me. Every thing looked blurred
-and strange, and a feverish unrest possessed me, for I was not one to
-subside easily after such a mental storm. Leaning on my arm, I scanned
-the room and its occupants with all the composure I could collect. The
-two women eyed me curiously yet pitifully; Dr. Karnac stood glancing at
-me furtively as he listened to my uncle, who spoke rapidly in Spanish as
-he showed the little scar upon his hand. That sight did more to restore
-me than the cordial just administered, and I rose erect, saying
-abruptly,—
-
-“Please, everybody, go away; my head aches, and I want to be alone.”
-
-“Let Janet stay and help you, dear; you are not fit,” began Mrs. Best;
-but I peremptorily stopped her.
-
-“No, go yourself, and take her with you; I’m tired of so much stir about
-such foolish things as a broken glass and a girl in a pet.”
-
-“You will be good enough to take this quieting draught before I go, Miss
-Sybil.”
-
-“I shall do nothing of the sort, for I need only solitude and sleep to
-be perfectly well,” and I emptied the glass the doctor offered into the
-fire. He shrugged his shoulders with a disagreeable smile, and quietly
-began to prepare another draught, saying,—
-
-“You are mistaken, my dear young lady; you need much care, and should
-obey, that your uncle may be spared further apprehension and anxiety.”
-
-My patience gave out at this assumption of authority; and I determined
-to carry matters with a high hand, for they all stood watching me in a
-way which seemed the height of impertinent curiosity.
-
-“He is not my uncle! never has been, and deserves neither respect nor
-obedience from me! I am the best judge of my own health, and you are not
-bettering it by contradiction and unnecessary fuss. This is my house,
-and you will oblige me by leaving it, Dr. Karnac; this is my room, and I
-insist on being left in peace immediately.”
-
-I pointed to the door as I spoke; the women hurried out with scared
-faces; the doctor bowed and followed, but paused on the threshold, while
-my uncle approached me, asking in a tone inaudible to those still
-hovering round the door,—
-
-“Do you still persist in your refusal, Sybil?”
-
-“How dare you ask me that again? I tell you I had rather die than marry
-you!”
-
-“The Lord be merciful to us! just hear how she’s going on now about
-marrying master. Ain’t it awful, Jane?” ejaculated Mrs. Best, bobbing
-her head in for a last look.
-
-“Hold your tongue, you impertinent creature!” I called out; and the fat
-old soul bundled away in such comical haste I laughed, in spite of
-languor and vexation.
-
-My uncle left, me, and I heard him say as he passed the doctor,—
-
-“You see how it is.”
-
-“Nothing uncommon; but that virulence is a bad symptom,” answered the
-Spaniard, and closing the door locked it, having dexterously removed the
-key from within.
-
-I had never been subjected to restraint of any kind; it made me reckless
-at once, for this last indignity was not to be endured.
-
-“Open this instantly!” I commanded, shaking the door. No one answered,
-and after a few ineffectual attempts to break the lock I left it, threw
-up the window and looked out; the ground was too far off for a leap, but
-the trellis where summer-vines had clung was strong and high, a step
-would place me on it, a moment’s agility bring me to the terrace below.
-I was now in just the state to attempt any rash exploit, for the cordial
-had both strengthened and excited me; my foot was bandaged, my clothes
-still wet; I could suffer no new damage, and have my own way at small
-cost. Out I crept, climbed safely down, and made my way to the lodge as
-I had at first intended. But Guy was not there; and, returning, I boldly
-went in at the great door, straight to the room where my uncle and the
-doctor were still talking.
-
-“I wish the key of my room,” was my brief command. Both started as if I
-had been a ghost, and my uncle exclaimed,—
-
-“You here! how in Heaven’s name came you out?”
-
-“By the window. I am no child to be confined for a fit of anger. I will
-not submit to it; to-morrow I shall go to madame; till then I will be
-mistress in my own house. Give me the key, sir.”
-
-“Shall I?” asked the doctor of my uncle, who nodded with a whispered,—
-
-“Yes, yes; don’t excite her again.”
-
-It was restored, and without another word I went loftily up to my room,
-locked myself in, and spent a restless, miserable night. When morning
-came, I breakfasted above stairs, and then busied myself packing trunks,
-burning papers, and collecting every trifle Guy had ever given me. No
-one annoyed me, and I saw only Janet, who had evidently received some
-order that kept her silent and respectful, though her face still
-betrayed the same curiosity and pitiful interest as the night before.
-Lunch was brought up, but I could not eat, and began to feel that the
-exposure, the fall, and excitement of the evening had left me weak and
-nervous, so I gave up the idea of going to madame till the morrow; and,
-as the afternoon waned, tried to sleep, yet could not, for I had sent a
-note to several of Guy’s haunts, imploring him to see me; but my
-messenger brought word that he was not to be found, and my heart was too
-heavy to rest.
-
-When summoned to dinner, I still refused to go down; for I heard Dr.
-Karnac’s voice, and would not meet him, so I sent word that I wished the
-carriage early the following morning, and to be left alone till then. In
-a few minutes, back came Janet, with a glass of wine set forth on a
-silver salver, and a card with these words,—
-
-“Forgive, forget, for your father’s sake, and drink with me, ‘Oblivion
-to the past.’”
-
-It touched and softened me. I knew my uncle’s pride, and saw in this an
-entire relinquishment of the hopes I had so thoughtlessly fostered in
-his mind. I was passionate, but not vindictive. He had been kind, I very
-wilful. His mistake was natural, my resentment ungenerous. Though my
-resolution to go remained unchanged, I was sorry for my part in the
-affair; and remembering that through me his son was lost to him, I
-accepted his apology, drank his toast, and sent him back a dutiful
-“Good-night.”
-
-I was unused to wine. The draught I had taken was powerful with age,
-and, though warm and racy to the palate, proved too potent for me. Still
-sitting before my fire, I slowly fell into a restless drowse, haunted by
-a dim dream that I was seeking Guy in a ship, whose motion gradually
-lulled me into perfect unconsciousness.
-
-Waking at length, I was surprised to find myself in bed, with the
-shimmer of daylight peeping through the curtains. Recollecting that I
-was to leave early, I sprang up, took one step and remained transfixed
-with dismay, for the room was not my own! Utterly unfamiliar was every
-object on which my eyes fell. The place was small, plainly furnished,
-and close, as if long unused. My trunks stood against the wall, my
-clothes lay on a chair, and on the bed I had left trailed a fur-lined
-cloak I had often seen on my uncle’s shoulders. A moment I stared about
-me bewildered, then hurried to the window,—it was grated!
-
-A lawn, sere and sodden, lay without, and a line of sombre firs hid the
-landscape beyond the high wall which encompassed the dreary plot. More
-and more alarmed, I flew to the door and found it locked. No bell was
-visible, no sound audible, no human presence near me, and an ominous
-foreboding thrilled cold through nerves and blood, as, for the first
-time, I felt the paralyzing touch of fear. Not long, however. My native
-courage soon returned, indignation took the place of terror, and
-excitement gave me strength. My temples throbbed with a dull pain, my
-eyes were heavy, my limbs weighed down by an unwonted lassitude, and my
-memory seemed strangely confused; but one thing was clear to me, I must
-see somebody, ask questions, demand explanations, and get away to madame
-without delay.
-
-With trembling hands I dressed, stopping suddenly, with a cry; for,
-lifting my hands to my head, I discovered that my hair, my beautiful,
-abundant hair, was gone! There was no mirror in the room, but I could
-feel that it had been shorn away close about face and neck. This outrage
-was more than I could bear, and the first tears I shed fell for my lost
-charm. It was weak, perhaps, but I felt better for it, clearer in mind
-and readier to confront whatever lay before me. I knocked and called.
-Then, losing patience, shook and screamed; but no one came or answered
-me, and, wearied out at last, I sat down and cried again in impotent
-despair.
-
-An hour passed, then a step approached, the key turned, and a hard-faced
-woman entered with a tray in her hand. I had resolved to be patient, if
-possible, and controlled myself to ask quietly, though my eyes kindled,
-and my voice trembled with resentment,—
-
-“Where am I, and why am I here against my will?”
-
-“This is your breakfast, miss; you must be sadly hungry,” was the only
-reply I got.
-
-“I will never eat till you tell me what I ask.”
-
-“Will you be quiet, and mind me if I do, miss?”
-
-“You have no right to exact obedience from me, but I’ll try.”
-
-“That’s right. Now all I know is that you are twenty miles from the
-Moors, and came because you are ill. Do you like sugar in your coffee?”
-
-“When did I come? I don’t remember it.”
-
-“Early this morning; you don’t remember because you were put to sleep
-before being fetched, to save trouble.”
-
-“Ah, that wine! Who brought me here?”
-
-“Dr. Karnac, miss.”
-
-“Alone?”
-
-“Yes, miss; you were easier to manage asleep than awake, he said.”
-
-I shook with anger, yet still restrained myself hoping to fathom the
-mystery of this nocturnal journey.
-
-“What is your name, please?” I meekly asked.
-
-“You can call me Hannah.”
-
-“Well, Hannah, there is a strange mistake somewhere. I am not ill—you
-see I am not—and I wish to go away at once to the friend I was to meet
-to-day. Get me a carriage and have my baggage taken out.”
-
-“It can’t be done, miss. We are a mile from town, and have no carriages
-here; besides, you couldn’t go if I had a dozen. I have my orders, and
-shall obey ’em.”
-
-“But Dr. Karnac has no right to bring or keep me here.”
-
-“Your uncle sent you. The doctor has the care of you, and that is all I
-know about it. Now I have kept my promise, do you keep yours, miss, and
-eat your breakfast, else I can’t trust you again.”
-
-“But what is the matter with me? How can I be ill and not know or feel
-it?” I demanded, more and more bewildered.
-
-“You look it, and that’s enough for them as is wise in such matters.
-You’d have had a fever, if it hadn’t been seen to in time.”
-
-“Who cut my hair off?”
-
-“I did; the doctor ordered it.”
-
-“How dared he? I hate that man, and never will obey him.”
-
-“Hush, miss, don’t clench your hands and look in that way, for I shall
-have to report every thing you say and do to him, and it won’t be
-pleasant to tell that sort of thing.”
-
-The woman was civil, but grim and cool. Her eye was unsympathetic, her
-manner business-like, her tone such as one uses to a refractory child,
-half-soothing, half-commanding. I conceived a dislike to her at once,
-and resolved to escape at all hazards, for my uncle’s inexplicable
-movements filled me with alarm. Hannah had left my door open, a quick
-glance showed me another door also ajar at the end of a wide hall, a
-glimpse of green, and a gate. My plan was desperately simple, and I
-executed it without delay. Affecting to eat, I presently asked the woman
-for my handkerchief from the bed. She crossed the room to get it. I
-darted out, down the passage, along the walk, and tugged vigorously at
-the great bolt of the gate, but it was also locked. In despair I flew
-into the garden, but a high wall enclosed it on every side; and as I ran
-round and round, vainly looking for some outlet, I saw Hannah,
-accompanied by a man as gray and grim as herself, coming leisurely
-toward me, with no appearance of excitement or displeasure. Back I would
-not go; and, inspired with a sudden hope, swung myself into one of the
-firs that grew close against the wall. The branches snapped under me,
-the slender tree swayed perilously, but up I struggled, till the wide
-coping of the wall was gained. There I paused and looked back. The woman
-was hurrying through the gate to intercept my descent on the other side,
-and close behind me the man, sternly calling me to stop. I looked down;
-a stony ditch was below, but I would rather risk my life than tamely
-lose my liberty, and with a flying leap tried to reach the bank; failed,
-fell heavily among the stones, felt an awful crash, and then came an
-utter blank.
-
-For many weeks I lay burning in a fever, fitfully conscious of Dr.
-Karnac and the woman’s presence; once I fancied I saw my uncle, but was
-never sure, and rose at last a shadow of my former self, feeling
-pitifully broken, both mentally and physically. I was in a better room
-now, wintry winds howled without, but a generous fire glowed behind the
-high closed fender, and books lay on my table.
-
-I saw no one but Hannah, yet could wring no intelligence from her beyond
-what she had already told, and no sign of interest reached me from the
-outer world. I seemed utterly deserted and forlorn, my spirit was
-crushed, my strength gone, my freedom lost, and for a time I succumbed
-to despair, letting one day follow another without energy or hope. It is
-hard to live with no object to give zest to life, especially for those
-still blest with youth, and even in my prison-house I soon found one
-quite in keeping with the mystery that surrounded me.
-
-As I sat reading by day or lay awake at night, I became aware that the
-room above my own was occupied by some inmate whom I never saw. A
-peculiar person it seemed to be; for I heard steps going to and fro,
-hour after hour, in a tireless march, that wore upon my nerves, as many
-a harsher sound would not have done. I could neither tease nor surprise
-Hannah into any explanation of the thing, and day after day I listened
-to it, till I longed to cover up my ears and implore the unknown walker
-to stop, for Heaven’s sake. Other sounds I heard and fretted over: a low
-monotonous murmur, as of some one singing a lullaby; a fitful tapping,
-like a cradle rocked on a carpetless floor; and at rare intervals cries
-of suffering, sharp but brief, as if forcibly suppressed. These sounds,
-combined with the solitude, the confinement, and the books I read, a
-collection of ghostly tales and weird fancies, soon wrought my nerves to
-a state of terrible irritability, and wore upon my health so visibly
-that I was allowed at last to leave my room.
-
-The house was so well guarded that I soon relinquished all hope of
-escape, and listlessly amused myself by roaming through the unfurnished
-rooms and echoing halls, seldom venturing into Hannah’s domain; for
-there her husband sat, surrounded by chemical apparatus, poring over
-crucibles and retorts. He never spoke to me, and I dreaded the glance of
-his cold eye, for it looked unsoftened by a ray of pity at the little
-figure that sometimes paused a moment on his threshold, wan and wasted
-as the ghost of departed hope.
-
-The chief interest of these dreary walks centred in the door of the room
-above my own, for a great hound lay before it, eying me savagely as he
-rejected all advances, and uttering his deep bay if I approached too
-near. To me this room possessed an irresistible fascination. I could not
-keep away from it by day, I dreamed of it by night, it haunted me
-continually, and soon became a sort of monomania, which I condemned, yet
-could not control, till at length I found myself pacing to and fro as
-those invisible feet paced over head. Hannah came and stopped me, and a
-few hours later Dr. Karnac appeared. I was so changed that I feared him
-with a deadly fear. He seemed to enjoy it; for in the pride of youth and
-beauty I had shown him contempt and defiance at my uncle’s, and he took
-an ungenerous satisfaction in annoying me by a display of power. He
-never answered my questions or entreaties, regarded me as being without
-sense or will, insisted on my trying various mixtures and experiments in
-diet, gave me strange books to read, and weekly received Hannah’s report
-of all that passed. That day he came, looked at me, said, “Let her
-walk,” and went away, smiling that hateful smile of his.
-
-Soon after this I took to walking in my sleep, and more than once woke
-to find myself roving lampless through that haunted house in the dead of
-night. I concealed these unconscious wanderings for a time, but an
-ominous event broke them up at last, and betrayed them to Hannah.
-
-I had followed the steps one day for several hours, walking below as
-they walked above; had peopled that mysterious room with every mournful
-shape my disordered fancy could conjure up; had woven tragical romances
-about it, and brooded over the one subject of interest my unnatural life
-possessed with the intensity of a mind upon which its uncanny influence
-was telling with perilous rapidity. At midnight I woke to find myself
-standing in a streak of moonlight, opposite the door whose threshold I
-had never crossed. The April night was warm, a single pane of glass high
-up in that closed door was drawn aside, as if for air; and, as I stood
-dreamily collecting my sleep-drunken senses, I saw a ghostly hand emerge
-and beckon, as if to me. It startled me broad awake, with a faint
-exclamation and a shudder from head to foot. A cloud swept over the
-moon, and when it passed the hand was gone, but shrill through the
-keyhole came a whisper that chilled me to the marrow of my bones, so
-terribly distinct and imploring was it.
-
-“Find it! for God’s sake find it before it is too late!”
-
-The hound sprang up with an angry growl; I heard Hannah leave her bed
-near by, and, with an inspiration strange as the moment, I paced slowly
-on with open eyes and lips apart, as I had seen “Amina” in the happy
-days when kind old madame took me to the theatre, whose mimic horrors I
-had never thought to equal with such veritable ones. Hannah appeared at
-her door with a light, but on I went in a trance of fear; for I was only
-kept from dropping in a swoon by the blind longing to fly from that
-spectral voice and hand. Past Hannah I went, she following; and, as I
-slowly laid myself in bed, I heard her say to her husband, who just then
-came up,—
-
-“Sleep-walking, John; it’s getting worse and worse, as the doctor
-foretold; she’ll settle down like the other presently, but she must be
-locked up at night, else the dog will do her a mischief.”
-
-The man yawned and grumbled; then they went, leaving me to spend hours
-of unspeakable suffering, which aged me more than years. What was I to
-find? where was I to look? and when would it be too late? These
-questions tormented me; for I could find no answers to them, divine no
-meaning, see no course to pursue. Why was I here? what motive induced my
-uncle to commit such an act? and when should I be liberated? were
-equally unanswerable, equally tormenting, and they haunted me like
-ghosts. I had no power to exorcise or forget. After that I walked no
-more, because I slept no more; sleep seemed scared away, and waking
-dreams harassed me with their terrors. Night after night I paced my room
-in utter darkness,—for I was allowed no lamp,—night after night I wept
-bitter tears wrung from me by anguish, for which I had no name; and
-night after night the steps kept time to mine, and the faint lullaby
-came down to me as if to soothe and comfort my distress. I felt that my
-health was going, my mind growing confused and weak, my thoughts
-wandered vaguely, memory began to fail, and idiocy or madness seemed my
-inevitable fate; but through it all my heart clung to Guy, yearning for
-him with a hunger that would not be appeased.
-
-At rare intervals I was allowed to walk in the neglected garden, where
-no flowers bloomed, no birds sang, no companion came to me but surly
-John, who followed with his book or pipe, stopping when I stopped,
-walking when I walked, keeping a vigilant eye upon me, yet seldom
-speaking except to decline answering my questions. These walks did me no
-good, for the air was damp and heavy with vapors from the marsh; for the
-house stood near a half-dried lake, and hills shut it in on every side.
-No fresh winds from upland moor or distant ocean ever blew across the
-narrow valley; no human creature visited the place, and nothing but a
-vague hope that my birthday might bring some change, some help,
-sustained me. It did bring help, but of such an unexpected sort that its
-effects remained through all my after-life. My birthday came, and with
-it my uncle. I was in my room, walking restlessly,—for the habit was a
-confirmed one now,—when the door opened, and Hannah, Dr. Karnac, my
-uncle, and a gentleman whom I knew to be his lawyer, entered, and
-surveyed me as if I were a spectacle. I saw my uncle start and turn
-pale; I had never seen myself since I came, but, if I had not suspected
-that I was a melancholy wreck of my former self, I should have known it
-then, such sudden pain and pity softened his ruthless countenance for a
-single instant. Dr. Karnac’s eye had a magnetic power over me; I had
-always felt it, but in my present feeble state I dreaded, yet submitted
-to it with a helpless fear that should have touched his heart,—it was on
-me then, I could not resist it, and paused fixed and fascinated by that
-repellent yet potent glance. Hannah pointed to the carpet worn to shreds
-by my weary march, to the walls which I had covered with weird,
-grotesque, or tragic figures to while away the heavy hours, lastly to
-myself, mute, motionless, and scared, saying, as if in confirmation of
-some previous assertion,—
-
-“You see, gentlemen, she is, as I said, quiet, but quite hopeless.”
-
-I thought she was interceding for me; and, breaking from the
-bewilderment and fear that held me, I stretched my hands to them, crying
-with an imploring cry,—
-
-“Yes, I _am_ quiet! I _am_ hopeless! Oh, have pity on me before this
-dreadful life kills me or drives me mad!”
-
-Dr. Karnac came to me at once with a black frown, which I alone could
-see; I evaded him, and clung to Hannah, still crying frantically,—for
-this seemed my last hope,—
-
-“Uncle, let me go! I will give you all I have, will never ask for Guy,
-will be obedient and meek if I may only go to madame and never hear the
-feet again, or see the sights that terrify me in this dreadful room.
-Take me out! for God’s sake take me out!”
-
-My uncle did not answer me, but covered up his face with a despairing
-gesture, and hurried from the room; the lawyer followed, muttering
-pitifully, “Poor thing! poor thing!” and Dr. Karnac laughed the first
-laugh I had ever heard him utter as he wrenched Hannah from my grasp and
-locked me in alone. My one hope died then, and I resolved to kill myself
-rather than endure this life another month; for now it grew clear to me
-that they believed me mad, and death of the body was far more preferable
-than that of the mind. I think I _was_ a little mad just then, but
-remember well the sense of peace that came to me as I tore strips from
-my clothing, braided them into a cord, hid it beneath my mattress, and
-serenely waited for the night. Sitting in the last twilight I thought to
-see in this unhappy world, I recollected that I had not heard the feet
-all day, and fell to pondering over the unusual omission. But, if the
-steps had been silent in that room, voices had not, for I heard a
-continuous murmur at one time: the tones of one voice were abrupt and
-broken, the other low, yet resonant, and that, I felt assured, belonged
-to my uncle. Who was he speaking to? what were they saying? should I
-ever know? and even then, with death before me, the intense desire to
-possess the secret filled me with its old unrest.
-
-Night came at last; I heard the clock strike one, and, listening to
-discover if John still lingered up, I heard through the deep hush a soft
-grating in the room above, a stealthy sound that would have escaped ears
-less preternaturally alert than mine. Like a flash came the thought,
-“Some one is filing bars or picking locks: will the unknown remember me
-and let me share her flight?” The fatal noose hung ready, but I no
-longer cared to use it, for hope had come to nerve me with the strength
-and courage I had lost. Breathlessly I listened; the sound went on,
-stopped, a dead silence reigned; then something brushed against my door,
-and, with a suddenness that made me tingle from head to foot like an
-electric shock, through the keyhole came again that whisper, urgent,
-imploring, and mysterious,—
-
-“Find it! for God’s sake find it before it is too late!” then fainter,
-as if breath failed, came the broken words, “The dog—a lock of
-hair—there is yet time.”
-
-Eagerness rendered me forgetful of the secrecy I should preserve, and I
-cried aloud, “What shall I find? where shall I look?” My voice,
-sharpened by fear, rang shrilly through the house, Hannah’s quick tread
-rushed down the hall, something fell, then loud and long rose a cry that
-made my heart stand still, so helpless, so hopeless was its wild lament.
-I had betrayed and I could not save or comfort the kind soul who had
-lost liberty through me. I was frantic to get out, and beat upon my door
-in a paroxysm of impatience, but no one came; and all night long those
-awful cries went on above, cries of mortal anguish, as if soul and body
-were being torn asunder. Till dawn I listened, pent in that room which
-now possessed an added terror; till dawn I called, wept, and prayed,
-with mingled pity, fear, and penitence, and till dawn the agony of that
-unknown sufferer continued unabated. I heard John hurry to and fro,
-heard Hannah issue orders with an accent of human sympathy in her hard
-voice; heard Dr. Karnac pass and repass my door, and all the sounds of
-confusion and alarm in that once quiet house. With daylight all was
-still, a stillness more terrible than the stir; for it fell so suddenly,
-remained so utterly unbroken, that there seemed no explanation of it but
-the dread word death.
-
-At noon Hannah, a shade paler, but grim as ever, brought me some food,
-saying she forgot my breakfast, and when I refused to eat, yet asked no
-questions, she bade me go into the garden and not fret myself over last
-night’s flurry. I went, and, passing down the corridor, glanced
-furtively at the door I never saw without a thrill; but I experienced a
-new sensation then, for the hound was gone, the door was open, and, with
-an impulse past control, I crept in and looked about me. It was a room
-like mine, the carpet worn like mine, the windows barred like mine;
-there the resemblance ended, for an empty cradle stood beside the bed,
-and on that bed, below a sweeping cover, stark and still a lifeless body
-lay. I was inured to fear now, and an unwholesome craving for new
-terrors seemed to have grown by what it fed on: an irresistible desire
-led me close, nerved me to lift the cover and look below,—a single
-glance,—then, with a cry as panic-stricken as that which rent the
-silence of the night, I fled away, for the face I saw was a pale image
-of my own. Sharpened by suffering, pallid with death, the features were
-familiar as those I used to see; the hair, beautiful and blonde as mine
-had been, streamed long over the pulseless breast, and on the hand,
-still clenched in that last struggle, shone the likeness of a ring I
-wore, a ring bequeathed me by my father. An awesome fancy that it was
-myself assailed me; I had plotted death, and, with the waywardness of a
-shattered mind, I recalled legends of spirits returning to behold the
-bodies they had left.
-
-Glad now to seek the garden, I hurried down, but on the threshold of the
-great hall-door was arrested by the sharp crack of a pistol; and, as a
-little cloud of smoke dispersed, I saw John drop the weapon and approach
-the hound, who lay writhing on the bloody grass. Moved by compassion for
-the faithful brute whose long vigilance was so cruelly repaid, I went to
-him, and, kneeling there, caressed the great head that never yielded to
-my touch before. John assumed his watch at once, and leaning against a
-tree cleaned the pistol, content that I should amuse myself with the
-dying creature, who looked into my face with eyes of almost human pathos
-and reproach. The brass collar seemed to choke him as he gasped for
-breath, and, leaning nearer to undo it, I saw, half hidden in his own
-black hair, a golden lock wound tightly round the collar, and so near
-its color as to be unobservable, except upon a close inspection. No
-accident could have placed it there; no head but mine in that house wore
-hair of that sunny hue,—yes, one other, and my heart gave a sudden leap
-as I remembered the shining locks just seen on that still bosom.
-
-“Find it—the dog—the lock of hair,” rung in my ears, and swift as light
-came the conviction that the unknown help was found at last. The little
-band was woven close, I had no knife, delay was fatal, I bent my head as
-if lamenting over the poor beast and bit the knot apart, drew out a
-folded paper, hid it in my hand, and rising strolled leisurely back to
-my own room, saying I did not care to walk till it was warmer. With
-eager eyes I examined my strange treasure-trove; it consisted of two
-strips of thinnest paper, without address or signature, one almost
-illegible, worn at the edges and stained with the green rust of the
-collar; the other fresher, yet more feebly written, both abrupt and
-disjointed, but terribly significant to me. This was the first,—
-
- “I have never seen you, never heard your name, yet I know that
- you are young, that you are suffering, and I try to help you in
- my poor way. I think you are not crazed yet, as I often am; for
- your voice is sane, your plaintive singing not like mine, your
- walking only caught from me, I hope. I sing to lull the baby
- whom I never saw; I walk to lessen the long journey that will
- bring me to the husband I have lost,—stop! I must not think of
- those things or I shall forget. If you are not already mad, you
- will be; I suspect you were sent here to be made so; for the air
- is poison, the solitude is fatal, and Karnac remorseless in his
- mania for prying into the mysteries of human minds. What devil
- sent you I may never know, but I long to warn you. I can devise
- no way but this; the dog comes into my room sometimes, you
- sometimes pause at my door and talk to him; you may find the
- paper I shall hide about his collar. Read, destroy, but obey it.
- I implore you to leave this house before it is too late.”
-
-The other paper was as follows:—
-
- “I have watched you, tried to tell you where to look, for you
- have not found my warning yet, though I often tie it there and
- hope. You fear the dog, perhaps, and my plot fails; yet I know
- by your altered step and voice that you are fast reaching my
- unhappy state; for I am fitfully mad, and shall be till I die.
- To-day I have seen a familiar face; it seems to have calmed and
- strengthened me, and, though he would not help you, I shall make
- one desperate attempt. I may not find you, so leave my warning
- to the hound, yet hope to breathe a word into your sleepless ear
- that shall send you back into the world the happy thing you
- should be. Child! woman! whatever you are, leave this accursed
- house while you have power to do it.”
-
-That was all; I did not destroy the papers, but I obeyed them, and for a
-week watched and waited till the propitious instant came. I saw my
-uncle, the doctor, and two others, follow the poor body to its grave
-beside the lake, saw all depart but Dr. Karnac, and felt redoubled
-hatred and contempt for the men who could repay my girlish slights with
-such a horrible revenge. On the seventh day, as I went down for my daily
-walk, I saw John and Dr. Karnac so deep in some uncanny experiment that
-I passed out unguarded. Hoping to profit by this unexpected chance, I
-sprang down the steps, but the next moment dropped half-stunned upon the
-grass; for behind me rose a crash, a shriek, a sudden blaze that flashed
-up and spread, sending a noisome vapor rolling out with clouds of smoke
-and flame. Aghast, I was just gathering myself up, when Hannah fled out
-of the house, dragging her husband senseless and bleeding, while her own
-face was ashy with affright. She dropped her burden beside me, saying,
-with white lips and a vain look for help where help was not,—
-
-“Something they were at has burst, killed the doctor, and fired the
-house! Watch John till I get help, and leave him at your peril!” then
-flinging open the gate she sped away.
-
-“Now is my time,” I thought, and only waiting till she vanished, I
-boldly followed her example, running rapidly along the road in an
-opposite direction, careless of bonnetless head and trembling limbs,
-intent only upon leaving that prison-house far behind me. For several
-hours I hurried along that solitary road; the spring sun shone, birds
-sang in the blooming hedges, green nooks invited me to pause and rest,
-but I heeded none of them, steadily continuing my flight, till spent and
-footsore I was forced to stop a moment by a wayside spring. As I stooped
-to drink, I saw my face for the first time in many months, and started
-to see how like that dead one it had grown, in all but the eternal peace
-which made that beautiful in spite of suffering and age. Standing thus
-and wondering if Guy would know me, should we ever meet, the sound of
-wheels disturbed me. Believing them to be coming from the place I had
-left, I ran desperately down the hill, turned a sharp corner, and before
-I could check myself passed a carriage slowly ascending. A face sprang
-to the window, a voice cried “Stop!” but on I flew, hoping the traveller
-would let me go unpursued. Not so, however; soon I heard fleet steps
-following, gaining rapidly, then a hand seized me, a voice rang in my
-ears, and with a vain struggle I lay panting in my captor’s hold,
-fearing to look up and meet a brutal glance. But the hand that had
-seized me tenderly drew me close, the voice that had alarmed cried
-joyfully,—
-
-“Sybil, it is Guy! lie still, poor child, you are safe at last.”
-
-Then I knew that my surest refuge was gained, and, too weak for words,
-clung to him in an agony of happiness, which brought to his kind eyes
-the tears I could not shed.
-
-The carriage returned; Guy took me in, and for a time cared only to
-soothe and sustain my worn soul and body with the cordial of his
-presence, as we rolled homeward through a blooming world, whose beauty I
-had never truly felt before. When the first tumult of emotion had
-subsided, I told the story of my captivity and my escape, ending with a
-passionate entreaty not to be returned to my uncle’s keeping, for
-henceforth there could be neither affection nor respect between us.
-
-“Fear nothing, Sybil; madame is waiting for you at the Moors, and my
-father’s unfaithful guardianship has ended with his life.”
-
-Then with averted face and broken voice Guy went on to tell his father’s
-purposes, and what had caused this unexpected meeting. The facts were
-briefly these: The knowledge that my father had come between him and a
-princely fortune had always rankled in my uncle’s heart, chilling the
-ambitious hopes he cherished even in his boyhood, and making life an
-eager search for pleasure in which to drown his vain regrets. This
-secret was suspected by my father, and the household league was formed
-as some atonement for the innocent offence. It seemed to soothe my
-uncle’s resentful nature, and as years went on he lived freely, assured
-that ample means would be his through his son. Luxurious,
-self-indulgent, fond of all excitements, and reckless in their pursuit,
-he took no thought for the morrow till a few months before his return. A
-gay winter in Paris reduced him to those straits of which women know so
-little; creditors were oppressive, summer friends failed him, gambling
-debts harassed him, his son reproached him, and but one resource
-remained, Guy’s speedy marriage with the half-forgotten heiress. The boy
-had been educated to regard this fate as a fixed fact, and submitted,
-believing the time to be far distant; but the sudden summons came, and
-he rebelled against it, preferring liberty to love. My uncle pacified
-the claimants by promises to be fulfilled at my expense, and hurried
-home to press on the marriage, which now seemed imperative. I was taken
-to my future home, approved by my uncle, beloved by my cousin, and, but
-for my own folly, might have been a happy wife on that May morning when
-I listened to this unveiling of the past. My mother had been melancholy
-mad since that unhappy rumor of my father’s death; this affliction had
-been well concealed from me, lest the knowledge should prey upon my
-excitable nature and perhaps induce a like misfortune. I believed her
-dead, yet I had seen her, knew where her solitary grave was made, and
-still carried in my bosom the warning she had sent me, prompted by the
-unerring instinct of a mother’s heart. In my father’s will a clause was
-added just below the one confirming my betrothal, a clause decreeing
-that, if it should appear that I inherited my mother’s malady, the
-fortune should revert to my cousin, with myself a mournful legacy, to be
-cherished by him whether his wife or not. This passage, and that
-relating to my freedom of choice, had been omitted in the copy shown me
-on the night when my seeming refusal of Guy had induced his father to
-believe that I loved him, to make a last attempt to keep the prize by
-offering himself, and, when that failed, to harbor a design that changed
-my little comedy into the tragical experience I have told.
-
-Dr. Karnac’s exclamation had caused the recollection of that clause
-respecting my insanity to flash into my uncle’s mind,—a mind as quick to
-conceive as fearless to execute. I unconsciously abetted the stratagem,
-and Dr. Karnac was an unscrupulous ally, for love of gain was as strong
-as love of science; both were amply gratified, and I, poor victim, was
-given up to be experimented upon, till by subtle means I was driven to
-the insanity which would give my uncle full control of my fortune and my
-fate. How the black plot prospered has been told; but retribution
-speedily overtook them both, for Dr. Karnac paid his penalty by the
-sudden death that left his ashes among the blackened ruins of that house
-of horrors, and my uncle had preceded him. For before the change of
-heirs could be effected my mother died, and the hours spent in that
-unhealthful spot insinuated the subtle poison of the marsh into his
-blood; years of pleasure left little vigor to withstand the fever, and a
-week of suffering ended a life of generous impulses perverted, fine
-endowments wasted, and opportunities for ever lost. When death drew
-near, he sent for Guy (who, through the hard discipline of poverty and
-honest labor, was becoming a manlier man), confessed all, and implored
-him to save me before it was too late. He did, and when all was told,
-when each saw the other by the light of this strange and sad
-experience,—Guy poor again, I free, the old bond still existing, the
-barrier of misunderstanding gone,—it was easy to see our way, easy to
-submit, to forgive, forget, and begin anew the life these clouds had
-darkened for a time.
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-Home received me, kind madame welcomed me, Guy married me, and I was
-happy; but over all these years, serenely prosperous, still hangs for me
-the shadow of the past, still rises that dead image of my mother, still
-echoes that spectral whisper in the dark.
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- <div class='c000'><span class='xxlarge'>A WHISPER IN THE DARK</span></div>
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- <li>MOODS.
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- <li class='c000'>WORK, a Story of Experience.
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- <h1 class='c003'><span class='small'>A</span> <br /> <br /> <span class='sc'>Modern Mephistopheles</span> <br /> <br /> <span class='xsmall'>AND</span> <br /> <br /> <span class='sc'>A Whisper in the Dark</span></h1>
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- <div><span class='sc'>By</span> LOUISA M. ALCOTT</div>
- <div class='c000'><span class='sc'>Author of “Moods;” “Work, a Story of Experience;”</span></div>
- <div><span class='sc'>“Little Women,” etc.</span></div>
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- <div class='line'>“<i>The Indescribable,</i></div>
- <div class='line in2'><i>Here it is done:</i></div>
- <div class='line'><i>The Woman-Soul leadeth us</i></div>
- <div class='line in2'><i>Upward and on!</i>”</div>
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- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in4'><span class='small'>Second Part of <span class='sc'>Faust</span>.</span></div>
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- <div><span class='pageno' id='Page_7'>7</span><span class='xxlarge'>A MODERN MEPHISTOPHELES.</span></div>
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-</div>
-
-<div>
- <h2 class='c004'>I.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Without, a midwinter twilight, where
-wandering snowflakes eddied in the bitter
-wind between a leaden sky and frost-bound
-earth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Within, a garret; gloomy, bare, and cold as the
-bleak night coming down.</p>
-
-<hr class='c007' />
-
-<p class='c006'>A haggard youth knelt before a little furnace,
-kindling a fire, with an expression of quiet desperation
-on his face, which made the simple
-operation strange and solemn.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A pile of manuscript lay beside him, and in
-the hollow eyes that watched the white leaves
-burn was a tragic shadow, terrible to see,—for he
-was offering the first-born of heart and brain as
-sacrifice to a hard fate.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Slowly the charcoal caught and kindled, while
-a light smoke filled the room. Slowly the
-youth staggered up, and, gathering the torn
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_8'>8</span>sheets, thrust them into his bosom, muttering
-bitterly, “Of all my hopes and dreams, my weary
-work and patient waiting, nothing is left but this.
-Poor little book, we’ll go together, and leave no
-trace behind.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Throwing himself into a chair, he laid his head
-down upon the table, where no food had been for
-days, and, closing his eyes, waited in stern silence
-for death to come and take him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Nothing broke the stillness but the soft crackle
-of the fire, which began to flicker with blue
-tongues of flame, and cast a lurid glow upon the
-motionless figure with its hidden face. Deeper
-grew the wintry gloom without, ruddier shone
-the fateful gleam within, and heavy breaths began
-to heave the breast so tired of life.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Suddenly a step sounded on the stair, a hand
-knocked at the door, and when no answer came,
-a voice cried, “Open!” in a commanding tone,
-which won instant obedience, and dispelled the
-deathful trance fast benumbing every sense.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The devil!” ejaculated the same imperious
-voice, as the door swung open, letting a cloud of
-noxious vapor rush out to greet the new-comer,—a
-man standing tall and dark against the outer
-gloom.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who is it? Oh! come in!” gasped the youth,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_9'>9</span>falling back faint and dizzy, as the fresh air
-smote him in the face.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I cannot, till you make it safe for me to enter.
-I beg pardon if I interrupt your suicide; I
-came to help you live, but if you prefer the other
-thing, say so, and I will take myself away again,”
-said the stranger, pausing on the threshold, as
-his quick eye took in the meaning of the scene
-before him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“For God’s sake, stay!” and, rushing to the
-window, the youth broke it with a blow, caught
-up the furnace, and set it out upon the snowy
-roof, where it hissed and glowed like an evil
-thing, while he dragged forth his one chair, and
-waited, trembling, for his unknown guest to enter.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“For my own sake, rather: I want excitement;
-and this looks as if I might find it here,” muttered
-the man with a short laugh, as he watched
-the boy, calmly curious, till a gust of fresh air
-swept through the room, making him shiver with
-its sharp breath.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Jasper Helwyze, at your service,” he added
-aloud, stepping in, and accepting courteously the
-only hospitality his poor young host could offer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The dim light and shrouding cloak showed
-nothing but a pale, keen face, with dark penetrating
-eyes, and a thin hand, holding a paper on
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_10'>10</span>which the youth recognized the familiar words,
-“Felix Canaris.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My name! You came to help me? What
-good angel sent you, sir?” he exclaimed, with a
-thrill of hope,—for in the voice, the eye, the
-hand that held the card with such tenacious
-touch, he saw and felt the influence of a stronger
-nature, and involuntarily believed in and clung
-to it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your bad angel, you might say, since it was
-the man who damned your book and refused the
-aid you asked of him,” returned the stranger, in
-a suave tone, which contrasted curiously with the
-vigor of his language. “A mere chance led me
-there to-day, and my eye fell upon a letter lying
-open before him. The peculiar hand attracted
-me, and Forsythe, being in the midst of your
-farewell denunciation, read it out, and told your
-story.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And you were laughing at my misery while
-I was making ready to end it?” said the youth,
-with a scornful quiver of the sensitive lips that
-uttered the reproach.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“We all laugh at such passionate folly when
-we have outlived it. You will, a year hence; so
-bear no malice, but tell me briefly if you can
-forget poetry, and be content with prose for a
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_11'>11</span>time. In plain words, can you work instead of
-dream?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I can.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Good! then come to me for a month. I have
-been long from home, and my library is neglected;
-I have much for you to do, and believe you are
-the person I want, if Forsythe tells the truth.
-He says your father was a Greek, your mother
-English, both dead, and you an accomplished,
-ambitious young man who thinks himself a
-genius, and will not forgive the world for doubting
-what he has failed to prove. Am I right?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Quite right. Add also that I am friendless,
-penniless, and hopeless at nineteen.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A brief, pathetic story, more eloquently told by
-the starvation written on the pinched face, the
-squalor of the scanty garments, and the despair
-in the desperate eye, than by the words uttered
-with almost defiant bluntness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The stranger read the little tragedy at a
-glance, and found the chief actor to his taste;
-for despite his hard case he possessed beauty,
-youth, and the high aspirations that die hard,—three
-gifts often peculiarly attractive to those
-who have lost them all.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Wait a month, and you may find that you
-have earned friends, money, and the right to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_12'>12</span>hope again. At nineteen, one should have
-courage to face the world, and master it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Show me how, and I <em>will</em> have courage. A
-word of sympathy has already made it possible
-to live!” and, seizing the hand that offered help,
-Canaris kissed it with the impulsive grace and
-ardor of his father’s race.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When can you come to me?” briefly demanded
-Helwyze, gathering his cloak about him as
-he rose, warned by the waning light.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At once, to-night, if you will! I possess
-nothing in the world but the poor clothes that
-were to have been my shroud, and the relics of
-the book with which I kindled my last fire,”
-answered the youth, with eager eyes, and an
-involuntary shiver as the bitter wind blew in
-from the broken window.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Come, then, else a mightier master than I
-may claim you before dawn, for it will be an
-awful night. Put out your funeral pyre, Canaris,
-wrap your shroud well about you, gather up your
-relics, and follow me. I can at least give you a
-warmer welcome than I have received,” added
-Helwyze, with that sardonic laugh of his, as he
-left the room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Before he had groped his slow way down the
-long stairs the youth joined him, and side by
-side they went out into the night.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_13'>13</span>A month later the same pair sat together in
-a room that was a dream of luxury. A noble
-library, secluded, warm, and still; the reposeful
-atmosphere that students love pervaded it; rare
-books lined its lofty walls: poets and philosophers
-looked down upon their work with immortal
-satisfaction on their marble countenances;
-and the two living occupants well became their
-sumptuous surroundings.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze leaned in a great chair beside a table
-strewn with books which curiously betrayed the
-bent of a strong mind made morbid by physical
-suffering. Doré’s “Dante” spread its awful pages
-before him; the old Greek tragedies were scattered
-about, and Goethe’s “Faust” was in his hand.
-An unimpressive figure at first sight, this frail-looking
-man, whose age it would be hard to tell;
-for pain plays strange pranks, and sometimes
-preserves to manhood a youthful delicacy in return
-for the vigor it destroys. But at a second
-glance the eye was arrested and interest aroused,
-for an indefinable expression of power pervaded
-the whole face, beardless, thin-lipped, sharply
-cut, and colorless as ivory. A stray lock or
-two of dark hair streaked the high brow, and
-below shone the controlling feature of this singular
-countenance, a pair of eyes, intensely black,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_14'>14</span>and so large they seemed to burden the thin
-face. Violet shadows encircled them, telling of
-sleepless nights, days of languor, and long years
-of suffering, borne with stern patience. But in
-the eyes themselves all the vitality of the man’s
-indomitable spirit seemed concentrated, intense
-and brilliant as a flame, which nothing could
-quench. By turns melancholy, meditative, piercing,
-or contemptuous, they varied in expression
-with startling rapidity, unless mastered by an
-art stronger than nature; attracting or repelling
-with a magnetism few wills could resist.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Propping his great forehead on his hand, he
-read, motionless as a statue, till a restless movement
-made him glance up at his companion,
-and fall to studying him with a silent scrutiny
-which in another would have softened to admiration,
-for Canaris was scarcely less beautiful
-than the Narcissus in the niche behind him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>An utter contrast to his patron, for youth
-lent its vigor to the well-knit frame, every limb
-of which was so perfectly proportioned that
-strength and grace were most harmoniously
-blended. Health glowed in the rich coloring
-of the classically moulded face, and lurked in the
-luxuriant locks which clustered in glossy rings
-from the low brow to the white throat. Happiness
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_15'>15</span>shone in the large dreamy eyes and smiled
-on the voluptuous lips; while an indescribable
-expression of fire and force pervaded the whole,
-redeeming its beauty from effeminacy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A gracious miracle had been wrought in that
-month, for the haggard youth was changed into
-a wonderfully attractive young man, whose natural
-ease and elegance fitted him to adorn that
-charming place, as well as to enjoy the luxury
-his pleasure-loving senses craved.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The pen had fallen from his hand, and lying
-back in his chair with eyes fixed on vacancy, he
-seemed dreaming dreams born of the unexpected
-prosperity which grew more precious with each
-hour of its possession.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Youth surely <em>is</em> the beauty of the devil, and
-that boy might have come straight from the
-witches’ kitchen and the magic draught,”
-thought Helwyze, as he closed his book, adding
-to himself with a daring expression, “Of all the
-visions haunting his ambitious brain not one is
-so wild and wayward as the fancy which haunts
-mine. Why not play fate, and finish what I have
-begun?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A pause fell, more momentous than either
-dreamed; then it was abruptly broken.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Felix, the time is up.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_16'>16</span>“It is, sir. Am I to go or stay?” and Canaris
-rose, looking half-bewildered as his brilliant
-castles in the air dissolved like mist before a
-sudden gust.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Stay, if you will; but it is a quiet life for
-such as you, and I am a dull companion. Could
-you bear it for a year?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“For twenty! Sir, you have been most kind
-and generous, and this month has seemed like
-heaven, after the bitter want you took me from.
-Let me show gratitude by faithful service, if I
-can,” exclaimed the young man, coming to stand
-before his master, as he chose to call his benefactor,
-for favors were no burden yet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No thanks, I do it for my own pleasure. It
-is not every one who can have antique beauty
-in flesh and blood as well as marble; I have a
-fancy to keep my handsome secretary as the one
-ornament my library lacked before.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris reddened like a girl, and gave a disdainful
-shrug; but vanity was tickled, nevertheless,
-and he betrayed it by the sidelong
-glance he stole towards the polished doors of
-glass reflecting his figure like a mirror.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nay, never frown and blush, man; ‘beauty is
-its own excuse for being,’ and you may thank
-the gods for yours, since but for that I should
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_17'>17</span>send you away to fight your dragons single-handed,”
-said Helwyze, with a covert smile, adding,
-as he leaned forward to read the face which
-could wear no mask for him, “Come, you shall
-give me a year of your liberty, and I will help
-you to prove Forsythe a liar.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will bring out my book?” cried Canaris,
-clasping his hands as a flash of joy irradiated
-every lineament.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why not? and satisfy the hunger that torments
-you, though you try to hide it. I cannot
-promise success, but I <em>can</em> promise a fair trial;
-and if you stand the test, fame and fortune
-will come together. Love and happiness you
-can seek for at your own good pleasure.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have divined my longing. I do hunger
-and thirst for fame; I dream of it by night, I
-sigh for it by day; every thought and aspiration
-centres in that desire; and if I did not still
-cling to that hope, even the perfect home you
-offer me would seem a prison. I <em>must</em> have it;
-the success men covet and admire, suffer and
-strive for, and die content if they win it only for
-a little time. Give me this and I am yours, body
-and soul; I have nothing else to offer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris spoke with passionate energy, and
-flung out his hand as if he cast himself at the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_18'>18</span>other’s feet, a thing of little worth compared to
-the tempting prize for which he lusted.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze took the hand in a light, cold clasp,
-that tightened slowly as he answered with the
-look of one before whose will all obstacles go
-down,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Done! Now show me the book, and let us
-see if we cannot win this time.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_19'>19</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>II.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Nothing stirred about the vine-clad villa,
-except the curtains swaying in the balmy
-wind, that blew up from a garden where mid-summer
-warmth brooded over drowsy flowers
-and whispering trees. The lake below gleamed
-like a mirror garlanded about with water-lilies,
-opening their white bosoms to the sun. The
-balcony above burned with deep-hearted roses
-pouring out their passionate perfume, as if in
-rivalry of the purple heliotrope, which overflowed
-great urns on either side of the stone steps.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Nothing broke the silence but the breezy
-rustle, the murmurous lapse of waters upon a
-quiet shore, and now and then the brief carol of
-a bird waking from its noontide sleep. A hammock
-swung at one end of the balcony, but it
-was empty; open doors showed the wide hall
-tenanted only by statues gleaming, cool and coy,
-in shadowy nooks; and the spirit of repose
-seemed to haunt the lovely spot.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>For an hour the sweet spell lasted; then it was
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_20'>20</span>broken by the faint, far-off warble of a woman’s
-voice, which seemed to wake the sleeping palace
-into life; for, as if drawn by the music, a young
-man came through the garden, looking as Ferdinand
-might, when Ariel led him to Miranda.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Too beautiful for a man he was, and seemed to
-protest against it by a disdainful negligence of
-all the arts which could enhance the gracious
-gift. A picturesque carelessness marked his
-costume, the luxuriant curls that covered his
-head were in riotous confusion; and as he came
-into the light he stretched his limbs with the
-graceful abandon of a young wood-god rousing
-from his drowse in some green covert.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Swinging a knot of lilies in his hand, he sauntered
-up the long path, listening with a smile, for
-as the voice drew nearer he recognized both song
-and singer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Little Gladys must not see me, or she will
-end her music too soon,” he whispered to himself;
-and, stepping behind the great vase, he peered
-between the plumy sprays to watch the coming
-of the voice that made his verses doubly melodious
-to their creator’s ear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Through the shadowy hall there came a slender
-creature in a quaint white gown, who looked as
-if she might have stepped down from the marble
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_21'>21</span>Hebe’s pedestal; for there was something wonderfully
-virginal and fresh about the maidenly
-figure with its deep, soft eyes, pale hair, and
-features clearly cut as a fine cameo. Emerging
-from the gloom into a flood of sunshine, which
-touched her head with a glint of gold, and brought
-out in strong relief the crimson cover of the
-book, held half-closed against her breast, she
-came down the steps, still singing softly to herself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A butterfly was sunning its changeful wings
-on the carved balustrade, and she paused to watch
-it, quite unconscious of the picture she made, or
-the hidden observer who enjoyed it with the delight
-of one whose senses were keenly alive to
-all that ministers to pleasure. A childish act
-enough, but it contrasted curiously with the words
-she sung,—fervid words, that seemed to drop
-lingeringly from her lips as if in a new language;
-lovely, yet half learned.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Pretty thing! I wish I could sketch her as
-she stands, and use her as an illustration to that
-song. No nightingale ever had a sweeter voice
-for a love-lay than this charming girl,” thought
-the flattered listener, as, obeying a sudden impulse,
-he flung up the lilies, stepped out from his
-ambush, and half-said, half-sung, as he looked up
-with a glance of mirthful meaning,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in10'><span class='pageno' id='Page_22'>22</span>“Like a high-born maiden</div>
- <div class='line in12'>In a palace tower,</div>
- <div class='line in10'>Soothing her love-laden</div>
- <div class='line in12'>Soul in secret hour,</div>
- <div class='line'>With music sweet as love which overflows her bower.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>The flowers dropped at her feet, and, leaning
-forward with the supple grace of girlhood, she
-looked down to meet the dangerous dark eyes,
-while her own seemed to wake and deepen with
-a sudden light as beautiful as the color which
-dawned in her innocent face. Not the quick red
-of shame, nor the glow of vanity, but a slow, soft
-flush like the shadow of a rosy cloud on snow. No
-otherwise disconcerted, she smiled back at him,
-and answered with unexpected aptness, in lines
-that were a truer compliment than his had
-been,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in10'>“Like a poet hidden</div>
- <div class='line in12'>In the light of thought,</div>
- <div class='line in10'>Singing hymns unbidden,</div>
- <div class='line in12'>Till the world is wrought</div>
- <div class='line'>To sympathy with hopes and fears it heeded not.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was this charm of swift and subtle sympathy
-which made the girl seem sometimes like the
-embodied spirit of all that was most high and
-pure in his own wayward but aspiring nature.
-And this the spell that drew him to her now,
-glad to sun himself like the butterfly in the light
-of eyes so clear and candid, that he could read
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_23'>23</span>therein the emotions of a maiden heart just
-opening to its first, half-conscious love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Springing up the steps, he said with the
-caressing air as native to him as his grace of
-manner. “Sit here and weave a pretty garland
-for your hair, while I thank you for making my
-poor verses beautiful. Where did you find the
-air that fits those words so well?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It came itself; as the song did, I think,” she
-answered simply, as she obeyed him, and began
-to braid the long brown stems, shaping a chaplet
-fit for Undine.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah! you will never guess how that came!”
-he said, sitting at her feet to watch the small
-fingers at their pretty work. But though his
-eyes rested there, they grew absent; and he
-seemed to fall into a reverie not wholly pleasant,
-for he knit his brows as if the newly won laurel
-wreath sat uneasily upon a head which seemed
-made to wear it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys watched him in reverential silence till
-he became conscious of her presence again, and
-gave her leave to speak, with a smile which had
-in it something of the condescension of an idol
-towards its devoutest worshipper.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Were you making poetry, then?” she asked,
-with the frank curiosity of a child.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_24'>24</span>“No, I was wondering where I should be now
-if I had never made any;” and he looked at the
-summer paradise around him with an involuntary
-shiver, as if a chill wind had blown upon
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Think rather what you will write next. It
-is so lovely I want more, although I do not understand
-all this,” touching the book upon her
-knee with a regretful sigh.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Neither do I; much of it is poor stuff,
-Gladys. Do not puzzle your sweet wits over it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is because you are so modest. People
-say true genius is always humble.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then, I am not a true genius; for I am as
-proud as Lucifer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You may well be proud of such work as
-this;” and she carefully brushed a fallen petal
-from the silken cover.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But I am <em>not</em> proud of that. At times I
-almost hate it!” exclaimed the capricious poet,
-impetuously, then checked himself, and added
-more composedly, “I mean to do so much better,
-that this first attempt shall be forgotten.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I think you will never do better; for this
-came from your heart, without a thought of what
-the world would say. Hereafter all you write
-may be more perfect in form but less true in
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_25'>25</span>spirit, because you will have the fear of the
-world, and loss of fame before your eyes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How can you know that?” he asked, wondering
-that this young girl, so lately met, should
-read him so well, and touch a secret doubt that
-kept him idle after the first essay, which had
-been a most flattering success.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nay, I do not know, I only feel as if it must
-be so. I always sing best when alone, and the
-thought of doing it for praise or money spoils
-the music to my ear.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I feel as if it would be possible to do <em>any
-thing</em> here, and forget that there is a world outside.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then it is not dull to you? I am glad, for I
-thought it would be, because so many people
-want you, and you might choose many gayer
-places in which to spend your summer holiday.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have no choice in this; yet I was willing
-enough to come. The first time is always
-pleasant, and I am tired of the gayer places,”
-he said, with a <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>blasé</i></span> air that ill concealed how
-sweet the taste of praise had been to one who
-hungered for it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yet it must seem very beautiful to be so
-sought, admired, and loved,” the girl said wistfully,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_26'>26</span>for few of fortune’s favors had fallen into
-her lap as yet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is, and I was intoxicated with the wine of
-success for a time. But after all, I find a bitter
-drop in it, for there is always a higher step to
-take, a brighter prize to win, and one is never
-satisfied.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He paused an instant with the craving yet
-despondent look poets and painters wear as they
-labor for perfection in “a divine despair;” then
-added, in a tone of kindly satisfaction which rung
-true on the sensitive ear that listened,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But all that nonsense pleases Helwyze, and
-he has so few delights, I would not rob him of
-one even so small as this, for I owe every thing
-to him, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do not know. May I?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You may; for I want you to like my friend,
-and now I think you only fear him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mr. Canaris, I do not dislike your friend.
-He has been most kind to me, I am grieved if
-I seem ungrateful,” murmured Gladys, with a
-vague trouble in her artless face, for she had no
-power to explain the instinctive recoil which had
-unconsciously betrayed itself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hear what he did for me, and then it may
-be easier to show as well as to feel gratitude;
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_27'>27</span>since but for him you would have had none of
-these foolish rhymes to sing.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With a look askance, a quick gesture, and a
-curious laugh, Canaris tossed the book into the
-urn below, and the heliotrope gave a fragrant
-sigh as it closed above the treasure given to its
-keeping. Gladys uttered a little cry, but her
-companion took no heed, for clasping his hands
-about his knee he looked off into the bloomy
-wilderness below as if he saw a younger self there,
-and spoke of him with a pitiful sort of interest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Three years ago an ambitious boy came to
-seek his fortune in the great city yonder. He
-possessed nothing but sundry accomplishments,
-and a handful of verses which he tried to sell.
-Failing in this hope after various trials, he grew
-desperate, and thought to end his life like poor
-Chatterton. No, not like Chatterton,—for this
-boy was not an impostor.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Had he no friend anywhere?” asked
-Gladys,—her work neglected while she listened
-with intensest interest to the tale so tragically
-begun.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He thought not, but chance sent him one
-at the last hour, and when he called on death,
-Helwyze came. It always seemed to me as if,
-unwittingly, I conjured from the fire kindled to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_28'>28</span>destroy myself a genie who had power to change
-me from the miserable wretch I was, into the
-happy man I am. For more than a year I have
-been with him,—first as secretary, then <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>protégé</i></span>,
-now friend, almost son; for he asks nothing
-of me except such services as I love to
-render, and gives me every aid towards winning
-my way. Is not that magnificent generosity?
-Can I help regarding him with superstitious
-gratitude? Am I not rightly named Felix?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, oh yes! Tell me more, please. I
-have led such a lonely life, that human beings
-are like wonder-books to me, and I am never
-tired of reading them.” Gladys looked with a
-rapt expression into the face upturned to hers,
-little dreaming how dangerous such lore might
-be to her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you should read Helwyze; he is a
-romance that will both charm and make your
-heart ache, if you dare to try him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I dare, if I may, because I would so gladly
-lose my fear of him in the gentler feeling that
-grows in me as I listen.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris was irresistibly led on to confidences
-he had no right to make, it was so pleasant to
-feel that he had the power to move the girl by
-his words, as the wind sways a leaf upon its delicate
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_29'>29</span>stem. A half-fledged purpose lurked in a
-dark corner of his mind, and even while denying
-its existence to himself, he yielded to its
-influence, careless of consequences.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then I will go on and let compassion finish
-what I have begun. Till thirty, Helwyze led a
-wonderfully free, rich life, I infer from hints
-dropped in unguarded moments,—for confidential
-moods are rare. Every good gift was his,
-and nothing to alloy his happiness, unless it was
-the restless nature which kept him wandering
-like an Arab long after most men have found
-some ambition to absorb, or some tie to restrain,
-them. From what I have gathered, I know that
-a great passion was beginning to tame his unquiet
-spirit, when a great misfortune came to
-afflict it, and in an hour changed a life of entire
-freedom to one of the bitterest bondage such a
-man can know.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Oh, what?” cried Gladys, as he artfully
-paused just there to see her bend nearer, and her
-lips part with the tremor of suspense.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A terrible fall; and for ten years he has
-never known a day’s rest from pain of some
-sort, and never will, till death releases him ten
-years hence, perhaps, if his indomitable will
-keeps him alive so long.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_30'>30</span>“Alas, alas! is there no cure?” sighed
-Gladys, as the violet eyes grew dim for very pity
-of so hard a fate.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“None.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A brief silence followed while the shadow of
-a great white cloud drifted across the sky, blotting
-out the sunshine for a moment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>All the flowers strayed down upon the steps
-and lay there forgotten, as the hands that held
-them were clasped together on the girl’s breast,
-as if the mere knowledge of a lot like this lay
-heavy at her heart.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Satisfied with his effect, the story-teller was
-tempted to add another stroke, and went on
-with the fluency of one who saw all things dramatically,
-and could not help coloring them in
-his own vivid fancy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That seems very terrible to you, but in truth
-the physical affliction was not so great as the
-loss that tried his soul; for he loved ardently,
-and had just won his suit, when the misfortune
-came which tied him to a bed of torment for
-some years. A fall from heaven to hell could
-hardly have seemed worse than to be precipitated
-from the heights of such a happiness to
-the depths of such a double woe; for she, the
-beautiful, beloved woman proved disloyal, and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_31'>31</span>left him lying there, like Prometheus, with the
-vulture of remembered bliss to rend his heart.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Could he not forget her?” and Gladys trembled
-with indignation at the perfidy which seemed
-impossible to a nature born for self-sacrifice.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He never will forget or forgive, although the
-man she married well avenged him while he lived,
-and bequeathed her a memory which all his gold
-could not gild. <em>Her</em> fate is the harder now; for
-the old love has revived, and Helwyze is dearer
-than in his days of unmarred strength. He
-knows it, but will not accept the tardy atonement;
-for contempt has killed <em>his</em> love, and with
-him there is no resurrection of the dead. A
-very patient and remorseful love is hers: for she
-has been humiliated in spirit, as he can never be,
-by the bodily ills above which he has risen so
-heroically that his courage has subdued the
-haughtiest woman I ever met.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You know her, then?” and Gladys bent to
-look into his face, with her own shadowed by an
-intuition of the truth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am afraid to listen any more. It is terrible
-to know that such bitterness and grief lie hidden
-in the hearts about me. Why did you
-tell me this?” she demanded, shrinking from
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_32'>32</span>him, as if some prophetic fear had stepped between
-them.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why did I? Because I wished to make you
-pity my friend, and help me put a little brightness
-into his hard life. You can do it if you will,
-for you soothe and please him, and few possess
-the power to give him any comfort. He makes
-no complaint, asks no pity, and insists on ignoring
-the pain which preys upon him, till it grows
-too great to be concealed; then shuts himself up
-alone, to endure it like a Spartan. Forgive me
-if in my eagerness I have said too much, and forget
-whatever troubled you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris spoke with genuine regret, and hoped
-to banish the cloud from a face which had been
-as placid as the lake below, till he disturbed it
-by reflections that affrighted her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is easy to forgive, but not to forget, words
-which cannot be unsaid. I was so happy here;
-and now it is all spoilt. She was a new-made
-friend, and very kind to me when I was desolate.
-I shall seem a thankless beggar if I go away before
-I have paid my debt as best I can. How
-shall I tell her that I must?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Of whom do you speak? I gave no name.
-I thought you would not guess. Why must you
-go, Gladys?” asked the young man, surprised to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_33'>33</span>see how quickly she felt the chill of doubt, and
-tried to escape obligation, when neither love nor
-respect brightened it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I need give no name, because you know. It is
-as well, perhaps, that I have guessed it. I ought
-not to have been so content, since I am here
-through charity. I must take up my life and
-try to shape it for myself; but the world seems
-very large now I am all alone.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She spoke half to herself, and looked beyond
-the safe, secluded garden, to the gray mountains
-whose rough paths her feet had trod before they
-were led here to rest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Quick to be swayed by the varying impulses
-which ruled him with capricious force, Canaris
-was now full of pity for the trouble he had
-wrought, and when she rose, like a bird startled
-from its nest, he rose also, and, taking the hand
-put out as if involuntarily asking help, he said
-with regretful gentleness,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do not be afraid, we will befriend you. Helwyze
-shall counsel and I will comfort, if we can.
-I should not have told that dismal story; I will
-atone for it by a new song, and you shall grow
-happy in singing it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She hesitated, withdrew her hand, and looked
-askance at him, as if one doubt bred others.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_34'>34</span>An approaching footstep made her start, and
-stand a moment with head erect, eye fixed, and
-ear intent, like a listening deer, then whispering,
-“It is she; hide me till I learn to look as if I
-did not know!”—Gladys sprung down the steps,
-and vanished like a wraith, leaving no token of
-her presence but the lilies in the dust, for the
-young man followed fleetly.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_35'>35</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>III.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>A woman came into the balcony with a
-swift step, and paused there, as if disappointed
-to find it deserted. A woman in the
-midsummer of her life, brilliant, strong, and
-stately; clad in something dusky and diaphanous,
-unrelieved by any color, except the pale
-gold of the laburnum clusters, that drooped from
-deep bosom and darkest hair. Pride sat on the
-forehead, with its straight black brows, passion
-slept in the Southern eyes, lustrous or languid
-by turns, and will curved the closely folded lips
-of vivid red.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But over all this beauty, energy, and grace an
-indescribable blight seemed to have fallen, deeper
-than the loss of youth’s first freshness, darker
-than the trace of any common sorrow. Something
-felt, rather than seen, which gave her the
-air of a dethroned queen; conquered, but protesting
-fiercely, even while forced to submit to
-some inexorable decree, whose bitterest pang
-was the knowledge that the wrong was self-inflicted.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_36'>36</span>As she stood there, looking down the green
-vista, two figures crossed it. A smile curved
-the sad mouth, and she said aloud, “Faust and
-Margaret, playing the old, old game.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And Mephistopheles and Martha looking
-on,” added a melodious voice, behind her, as
-Helwyze swept back the half-transparent curtain
-from the long window where he sat.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The part you give me is not a flattering
-one,” she answered, veiling mingled pique and
-pleasure with well-feigned indifference.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nor mine; yet I think they suit us both, in
-a measure. Do you know, Olivia, that the accidental
-reading of my favorite tragedy, at a certain
-moment, gave me a hint which has afforded
-amusement for a year.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You mean your fancy for playing Mentor to
-that boy. A dangerous task for you, Jasper.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The danger is the charm. I crave excitement,
-occupation; and what but something of
-this sort is left me? Much saving grace in
-charity, we are told; and who needs it more than
-I? Surely I have been kinder to Felix than the
-Providence which left him to die of destitution
-and despair?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Perhaps not. The love of power is strong
-in men like you, and grows by what it feeds on.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_37'>37</span>If I am not mistaken, this whim of a moment
-has already hardened into a purpose which will
-mould his life in spite of him. It is an occupation
-that suits your taste, for you enjoy his
-beauty and his promise; you like to praise and
-pamper him till vanity and love of pleasure wax
-strong, then you check him with an equal satisfaction,
-and find excitement in curbing his high
-spirit, his wayward will. By what tie you hold
-him I cannot tell; but I know it must be something
-stronger than gratitude, for, though he
-chafes against the bond, he <em>dares</em> not break
-it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, that is my secret! What would you
-not give if I would teach you the art of taming
-men as I once taught you to train a restive
-horse?”—and Helwyze looked out at her with
-eyes full of malicious merriment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have taught me the art of taming a
-woman; is not that enough?” murmured
-Olivia, in a tone that would have touched any
-man’s heart with pity, if with no tenderer emotion.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Helwyze seemed not to hear the reproach,
-and went on, as if the other topic suited
-his mood best.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I call Canaris my Greek slave, sometimes,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_38'>38</span>and he never knows whether to feel flattered or
-insulted. His father was a Greek adventurer,
-you know (ended tragically, I suspect), and but
-for the English mother’s legacy of a trifle of
-moral sense, Felix would be as satisfactory a
-young heathen as if brought straight from ancient
-Athens. It was this peculiar mixture of
-unscrupulous daring and fitful virtue which
-attracted me, as much as his unusual beauty
-and undoubted talent. Money can buy almost
-any thing, you know; so I bought my handsome
-Alcibiades, and an excellent bargain I find
-him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But when you tire of him, what then? You
-cannot sell him again, nor throw him away, like
-a book you weary of. Neither can you leave
-him neglected in the lumber-room, with distasteful
-statues or bad pictures. Affection, if you
-have it, will not outlast your admiration, and I
-have much curiosity to know what will become
-of your ‘handsome Alcibiades’ then.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then, my cousin, I will give him to you, for
-I have fancied of late that you rather coveted
-him. You could not manage him now,—the
-savage in him is not quite civilized yet,—but
-wait a little, and I will make a charming plaything
-for you. I know you will treat him kindly,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_39'>39</span>since it is truly said, Those who have served, best
-know how to rule.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The sneer stung her deeply, for there was no
-humiliation this proud woman had not suffered
-at the hands of a brutal and unfaithful husband.
-Pity was as bitter a draught to her as to the
-man who thus cruelly reminded her of the long
-bondage which had left an ineffaceable blight
-upon her life. The wound bled inwardly, but
-she retaliated, as only such a woman could.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Love is the one master who can rule and
-bind without danger or disgrace. I shall remember
-that, and when you give me Felix he
-will find me a gentler mistress than I was ten
-years ago—to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The last words dropped from her lips as softly
-as if full of tender reminiscence, but they pricked
-pride, since they could not touch a relentless
-heart. Helwyze betrayed it by the sombre fire
-of his eye, the tone in which he answered.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And I will ask of you the only gift I care
-to accept,—your new <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>protégée</i></span>, Gladys. Tell
-me where you found her; the child interests
-me much.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I know it;” and, stifling a pang of jealous
-pain, Olivia obeyed with the docility of one in
-whom will was conquered by a stronger power.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_40'>40</span>“A freak took me to the hills in March. My
-winter had been a vain chase after happiness,
-and I wanted solitude. I found it where chance
-led me,—in this girl’s home. A poor, bleak
-place enough; but it suited me, for there were
-only the father and daughter, and they left me
-to myself. The man died suddenly, and no one
-mourned, for he was a selfish tyrant. The girl
-was left quite alone, and nearly penniless, but so
-happy in her freedom that she had no fears. I
-liked the courage of the creature; I knew how
-she felt; I saw great capacity for something fine
-in her. I said, ‘Come with me for a little, and
-time will show you the next step.’ She came;
-time has shown her, and the next step will take
-her from my house to yours, unless I much mistake
-your purpose.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Leaning in the low, lounging chair, Helwyze
-had listened motionless, except that the fingers
-of one thin hand moved fitfully, as if he played
-upon some instrument inaudible to all ears but
-his own. A frequent gesture of his, and most
-significant, to any one who knew that his favorite
-pastime was touching human heart-strings
-with marvellous success in producing discords
-by his uncanny skill.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As Olivia paused, he asked in a voice as suave
-as cold,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_41'>41</span>“My purpose? Have I any?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You say she interests you, and you watch
-her in a way that proves it. Have you not
-already resolved to win her for your amusement,
-by some bribe as cunning as that you gave
-Canaris for his liberty?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have. You are a shrewd woman, Olivia.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yet she is not beautiful;” and her eye
-vainly searched the inscrutable countenance,
-that showed so passionless and pale against
-the purple cushion where it leaned.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Pardon me, the loveliest woman I have seen
-for years. A beautiful, fresh soul is most attractive
-when one is weary of more material
-charms. This girl seems made of spirit, fire,
-and dew; a mixture rare as it is exquisite, and
-the spell is all the greater because of its fine and
-elusive quality. I promise myself much satisfaction
-in observing how this young creature
-meets the trials and temptations life and love
-will bring her; and to do this she must be near
-at hand.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Happy Gladys!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia smiled a scornful smile, but folded her
-arms to curb the rebellious swelling of her heart
-at the thought of another woman nearer than
-herself. She turned away as she spoke; but
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_42'>42</span>Helwyze saw the quiver of her lips, and read
-the meaning of the piercing glance she shot into
-the garden, as if to find and annihilate that unconscious
-rival.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Content for the moment with the touch of
-daily torture which was the atonement exacted
-for past disloyalty, he lifted the poor soul from
-despair to delight by the utterance of three
-words, accompanied by a laugh as mirthless as
-musical,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Happy Felix, rather.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is <em>he</em> to marry her?” and Olivia fronted him,
-glowing with a sudden joy which made her
-lovely as well as brilliant.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who else?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I!” and the word was full of a bitterness
-which thrilled every nerve the woman had, for
-an irrepressible regret wrung it from lips sternly
-shut on all complaint, except to her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why not?” she cried, daring to answer with
-impetuous warmth and candor. “What woman
-would not be glad to serve you for the sake of
-the luxury with which you would surround her,
-if not for the love you might win and give, if
-you chose?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bah! what have I to do with love? Thank
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_43'>43</span>Heaven my passions are all dead, else life would
-be a hell, not the purgatory it is,” he said, glancing
-at his wasted limbs, with an expression
-which would have been pathetic, had it not been
-defiant; for that long discipline of pain had failed
-to conquer the spirit of the man, and it seemed
-to sit aloof, viewing with a curious mixture of
-compassion and contempt the slow ruin of the
-body which imprisoned it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With an impulse womanly as winning, Olivia
-plucked a wine-dark rose from the trellis nearest
-her, and, bending towards him, laid it in his hand,
-with a look and gesture of one glad to give all
-she possessed, if that were possible.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your love of beauty still survives, and is a
-solace to you. Let me minister to it when I
-can; and be assured I offer my little friend as
-freely as I do my choicest rose.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Thanks; the flower for me, the friend for
-Felix. Young as he is, he knows how to woo,
-and she will listen to his love-tale as willingly as
-she did to the highly colored romance he was
-telling her just now. You would soon find
-her a burden, Olivia, and so should I, unless
-she came in this way. We need do nothing
-but leave the young pair to summer and seclusion;
-they will make the match better and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_44'>44</span>more quickly than we could. Then a month
-for the honeymoon business, and all can be
-comfortably settled before October frosts set
-in.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You often say, where women are is discord;
-yet you are planning to bring one into your
-house in the most dangerous way. Have you
-no fears, Jasper?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not of Gladys; she is so young, I can mould
-her as I please, and that suits me. She will
-become my house well, this tender, transparent
-little creature, with her tranquil eyes, and the sincere
-voice which makes truth sweeter than falsehood.
-You must come and see her there; but
-never try to alter her, or the charm will be destroyed.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You may be satisfied: but how will it be
-with Felix? Hitherto your sway has been undivided,
-now you must share it; for with all her
-gentleness she is strong, and will rule him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And I, Gladys. Felix suits me excellently,
-and it will only add another charm to the relation
-if I control him through the medium of
-another. My young lion is discovering his
-power rapidly, and I must give him a Una before
-he breaks loose and chooses for himself.
-If matters must be complicated, I choose to do
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_45'>45</span>it, and it will occupy my winter pleasantly to
-watch the success of this new combination.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>While he talked, Helwyze had been absently
-stripping leaf after leaf from the great rose, till
-nothing but the golden heart remained trembling
-on the thorny stem.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia had watched the velvet petals fall one
-by one, feeling a sad sympathy with the ill-used
-gift; yet, as the last leaf fluttered to the ground,
-she involuntarily lifted up her hand to break
-another, glad if even in the destruction of so
-frail a thing he could find a moment’s pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, let them hang; their rich color pleases
-best among the green; their cloying perfume is
-too heavy for the house. A snowdrop, leaning
-from its dainty sheath undaunted by March
-winds, is more to my taste now,” he said, dropping
-the relics of the rose, with the slow smile
-which often lent such significance to a careless
-word.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I cannot give you that: spring flowers are all
-gone long ago,” began Olivia, regretfully.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nay, you give me one in Gladys; no spring
-flower could be more delicate than she, gathered
-by your own hand from the bleak nook where
-you found her. It is the faint, vernal fragrance
-of natures, coyly hidden from common eye and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_46'>46</span>touch, which satisfies and soothes senses refined
-by suffering.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yet you will destroy it, like the rose, in finding
-out the secret of its life. I wondered why
-this pale, cold innocence was so attractive to a
-man like you. There was a time when you
-would have laughed at such a fancy, and craved
-something with more warmth and brilliancy.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am wiser now, and live here, not here,” he
-answered, touching first his forehead then his
-breast, with melancholy meaning. “While my
-brain is spared me I can survive the ossification
-of all the heart I ever had, since, at best, it is
-an unruly member. Almost as inconvenient as
-a conscience; that, thank fortune, I never had.
-Yes; to study the mysterious mechanism of
-human nature is a most absorbing pastime, when
-books weary, and other sources of enjoyment
-are forbidden. Try it, and see what an exciting
-game it becomes, when men and women are the
-pawns you learn to move at will. Goethe’s boyish
-puppet-show was but a symbol of the skill
-and power which made the man the magician he
-became.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“An impious pastime, a dearly purchased
-fame, built on the broken hearts of women!” exclaimed
-Olivia, walking to and fro with the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_47'>47</span>noiseless step and restless grace of a leopardess
-pacing its cage.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze neither seemed to see nor hear her,
-for his gloomy eyes stared at a little bird tilting
-on a spray that swung in the freshening wind,
-and his thoughts followed their own path.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“‘Pale, cold innocence.’ It <em>is</em> curious that it
-should charm me. A good sign, perhaps; for
-poets tell us that fallen angels sigh for the heaven
-they have lost, and try to rise again on the wings
-of spirits stronger and purer than themselves.
-Would they not find virtue insipid after a fiery
-draught of sin? Did not Paradise seem a little
-dull to Dante, in spite of Beatrice? I wish I
-knew.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is it for this that you want the girl’s help?”
-asked Olivia, pausing in her march to look at
-him. “I shall wait with interest to see if she
-lifts you up to sainthood, or you drag her down
-to your level, where intellect is God, conscience
-ignored, and love despised. Unhappy Gladys! I
-should have said, because I cannot keep her from
-you, if I would; and in your hands she will be as
-helpless as the dumb creatures surgeons torture,
-that they may watch a living nerve, count the
-throbbing of an artery, or see how long the poor
-things will live bereft of some vital part. Let
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_48'>48</span>the child alone, Jasper, or you will repent of
-it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Upon my word, Olivia, you are in an ominously
-prophetic mood. I hear a carriage; and,
-as I am invisible to all eyes but your gifted
-ones, pardon me if I unceremoniously leave the
-priestess on her tripod.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>And the curtain dropped between them as
-suddenly as it had been lifted, depriving the
-woman of the one troubled joy of her life,—companionship
-with him.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_49'>49</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>IV.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>“Felix, are you asleep?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, sir, only resting.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Have you been at work?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Decidedly; I rowed across the lake and
-back.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Alone?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys went with me, singing like a mermaid
-all the way.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Both men were lounging in the twilight; but
-there was a striking difference in their way Of
-doing it. Canaris lay motionless on a couch, his
-head pillowed on his arms, enjoying the luxury
-of repose, with the <span lang="it" xml:lang="it"><i>dolce far niente</i></span> only possible
-to those in whose veins runs Southern blood.
-Helwyze leaned in a great chair, which looked a
-miracle of comfort; but its occupant stirred restlessly,
-as if he found no ease among its swelling
-cushions; and there was an alert expression in
-his face, betraying that the brain was at work on
-some thought or purpose which both absorbed
-and excited.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_50'>50</span>A pause followed the brief dialogue, during
-which Canaris seemed to relapse into his delicious
-drowse, while Helwyze sat looking at him
-with the critical regard one bestows on a fine
-work of art. Yet something in the spectacle
-of rest he could not share seemed to annoy him;
-for, suddenly turning up the shaded lamp upon
-his table, he dispelled the soft gloom, and broke
-the silence.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have a request to make. May I trouble
-you to listen?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was a tone of command in the courteously
-worded speech, which made Canaris sit
-erect, with a respectful—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At your service, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I wish you to marry,” continued Helwyze,
-with such startling abruptness that the young
-man gazed at him in mute amazement for a
-moment. Then, veiling his surprise by a laugh,
-he asked lightly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Isn’t it rather soon for that, sir? I am hardly
-of age.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Geniuses are privileged; and I am not aware
-of any obstacle, if <em>I</em> am satisfied,” answered Helwyze,
-with an imperious gesture, which seemed
-to put aside all objections.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you seriously mean it, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_51'>51</span>“I do.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But why such haste?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Because it is my pleasure.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will not give up my liberty so soon,” cried
-the young man, with a mutinous flash of the
-eye.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I thought you had already given it up. If
-you choose to annul the agreement, do it, and
-go. You know the forfeit.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I forgot this possibility. Did I agree to obey
-in all things?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It was so set down in the bond. Entire
-obedience in return for the success you coveted.
-Have I failed in my part of the bargain?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, sir; no.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then do yours, or let us cancel the bond, and
-part.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How can we? What can I do without you?
-Is there no way but this?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“None.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris looked dismayed,—and well he might,
-for it seemed impossible to put away the cup he
-had thirsted for, when its first intoxicating
-draught was at his lips.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze had spoken with peculiar emphasis,
-and his words were full of ominous suggestion to
-the listener’s ear; for he alone knew how much
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_52'>52</span>rebellion would cost him, since luxury and fame
-were still dearer than liberty or honor. He sprung
-up, and paced the room, feeling like some wild
-creature caught in a snare.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze, regardless of his chafing, went on
-calmly, as if to a willing hearer, eying him vigilantly
-the while, though now his own manner
-was as persuasive as it had been imperative before.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I ask no more than many parents do, and
-will give you my reasons for the demand, though
-that was not among the stipulations.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A starving man does not stop to weigh
-words, or haggle about promises. I was desperate,
-and you offered me salvation; can you
-wonder that I clutched the only hand held out
-to me?” demanded Canaris, with a world of
-conflicting emotions in his expressive face, as
-he paused before his master.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am not speaking of the first agreement,
-that was brief as simple. The second bargain
-was a more complicated matter. You were
-not desperate then; you freely entered into it,
-reaped the benefits of it, and now wish to
-escape the consequences of your own act. Is
-that fair?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How could I dream that you would exact
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_53'>53</span>such obedience as this? I am too young; it is
-a step that may change my whole life; I must
-have time,” murmured Canaris, while a sudden
-change passed over his whole face, his eye
-fell before the glance bent on him, as the other
-spoke.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It need not change your life, except to make
-it freer, perhaps happier. Hitherto you have had
-all the pleasure, now I desire my share. You
-often speak of gratitude; prove it by granting
-my request, and, in adding a new solace to my
-existence, you will find you have likewise added
-a new charm to your own.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is so sudden,—I do desire to show my
-gratitude,—I have tried to do my part faithfully
-so far,” began Canaris, as if a look, a word,
-had tamed his high spirit, and enforced docility
-sorely against his will.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So far, I grant that, and I thank you for the
-service which I desire to lessen by the step
-you decline to take. I have spoilt you for use,
-but not for ornament. I still like to see you
-flourish; I enjoy your success; I cannot free
-you; but I <em>can</em> give you a mate, who will take
-your place and amuse me at home, while you
-sing and soar abroad. Is that sufficiently poetical
-for a poet’s comprehension?” and Helwyze
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_54'>54</span>smiled, that satiric smile of his, still watching
-the young man’s agitated countenance.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But why need <em>I</em> marry? Why cannot”—there
-Canaris hesitated, for he lacked the courage
-to make the very natural suggestion Olivia had
-done.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze divined the question on his lips, and
-answered it with stern brevity.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is impossible;” then added, with the
-sudden softening of tone which made his voice
-irresistibly seductive, “I have given one reason
-for my whim: there are others, which affect you
-more nearly and pleasantly, perhaps. Little
-more than a year ago, your first book came out,
-making you famous for a time. You have enjoyed
-your laurels for a twelvemonth, and begin
-to sigh for more. The world has petted you, as
-it does any novelty, and expects to be paid for
-its petting, else it will soon forget you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No fear of that!” exclaimed the other, with
-the artless arrogance of youth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If I thought you would survive the experiment,
-I would leave you to discover what a
-fickle mistress you serve. But frost would soon
-blight your budding talent, so we will keep on
-the world’s sunny side, and tempt the Muse, not
-terrify her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_55'>55</span>Nothing could be smoother than the voice in
-which these words were said; but a keen ear
-would have detected an accent of delicate irony
-in it, and a quick eye have seen that Canaris
-winced, as if a sore spot had been touched.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I should think marriage would do that last,
-most effectually,” he answered, with a scornful
-shrug, and an air of great distaste.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not always: some geniuses are the better for
-such bondage. I fancy you are one of them,
-and wish to try the experiment. If it fails, you
-can play Byron, to your heart’s content.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A costly experiment for some one.” Canaris
-paused in his impatient march, to look down
-with a glance of pity at the dead lily still knotted
-in his button-hole.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze laughed at the touch of sentiment,—a
-low, quiet laugh; but it made the young man
-flush, and hastily fling away the faded flower,
-whose pure loveliness had been a joy to him an
-hour ago. With a half docile, half defiant look,
-he asked coldly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What next, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Only this: you have done well. Now, you
-must do better, and let the second book be free
-from the chief fault which critics found,—that,
-though the poet wrote of love, it was evident he
-had never felt it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_56'>56</span>“Who shall say that?” with sudden warmth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I, for one. You know nothing of love, though
-you may flatter yourself you do. So far, it has
-been pretty play enough, but I will not have you
-waste yourself, or your time. You need inspiration,
-this will give it you. At your age, it is
-easy to love the first sweet woman brought near
-you, and almost impossible for any such to resist
-your wooing. An early marriage will not only
-give heart and brain a fillip, but add the new touch
-of romance needed to keep up the world’s interest
-in the rising star, whose mysterious advent
-piques curiosity as strongly as his work excites
-wonder and delight.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Composure and content had been gradually
-creeping back into the listener’s mien, as a
-skilful hand touched the various chords that
-vibrated most tunefully in a young, imaginative,
-ardent nature. Vivid fancy painted the
-“sweet woman” in a breath, quick wit saw at
-once the worldly wisdom of the advice, and ambition
-found no obstacle impassable.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are right, sir, I submit; but I claim the
-privilege of choosing my inspirer,” he said,
-warily.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have already chosen, if I am not much
-mistaken. A short wooing, but a sure one; for
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_57'>57</span>little Gladys has no coquetry, and will not keep
-you waiting for her answer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys is a child,” began Canaris, still hesitating
-to avow the truth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The fitter mate for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But, sir, you are mistaken: I do not love
-her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then, why teach her to love you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have not: I was only kind. Surely I
-cannot be expected to marry every young girl
-who blushes when I look at her,” he said, with
-sullen petulance, for women had spoilt the handsome
-youth, and he was as ungrateful as such
-idols usually are.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then, who?—ah! I perceive; I had forgotten
-that a boy’s first <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>tendresse</i></span> is too often for a
-woman twice his age. May I trouble you?”
-and Helwyze held up the empty glass with
-which he had been toying while he talked.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Among the strew of books upon the table at
-his elbow stood an antique silver flagon, coolly
-frosted over by the iced wine it held. This
-Canaris obediently lifted; and, as he stooped
-to fill the rosy bowl of the Venetian goblet,
-Helwyze leaned forward, till the two faces were
-so close that eye looked into eye, as he said,
-in one swift sentence, “It was to win Olivia for
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_58'>58</span><em>yourself</em>, then, that you wooed Gladys for <em>me</em>,
-three hours ago?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The flagon was not heavy, but it shook in the
-young man’s grasp, and the wine overflowed the
-delicate glass, dyeing red the hand that held it.
-One face glowed with shame and anger; the other
-remained unmoved, except a baffling smile upon
-the lips, that added, in mild reproach,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My Ganymede has lost his skill; it is time I
-filled his place with a neat-handed Hebe. Make
-haste, and bring her to me soon.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Mutely Canaris removed all traces of the
-treacherous mishap, inwardly cursing his imprudent
-confidences, wondering what malignant
-chance brought within ear-shot one who rarely
-left his own apartments at the other end of the
-villa; and conscious of an almost superstitious
-fear of this man, who read so surely, and dragged
-to light so ruthlessly, hidden hopes and half-formed
-designs.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Vouchsafing no enlightenment, Helwyze
-sipped the cool draught with an air of satisfaction,
-continuing the conversation in a tone of
-exasperating calmness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Among other amusing fables with which
-you beguiled poor Gladys, I think you promised
-counsel and comfort. Keep your word, and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_59'>59</span>marry her. It is the least you can do, after
-destroying her faith in the one friend she possessed.
-A pleasant, but a dangerous pastime,
-and not in the best taste; let me advise you to
-beware of it in future.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was a covert menace in the tone, a
-warning in the significant grip of the pale
-fingers round the glass, as if about to snap its
-slender stem. Canaris was white now with
-impotent wrath, and a thrill went through his
-vigorous young frame, as if the wild creature
-was about to break loose, and defy its captor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But the powerful eye was on him, with a
-spark of fire in its depths, and controlled till
-words, both sweet and bitter, soothed and won
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I know that any breath of tenderness would
-pass by Olivia as idly as the wind. You doubt
-this, and a word will prove it. I am not a
-tyrant, though I seem such; therefore you are
-free to try your fate before you gratify my whim
-and make Gladys happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You think the answer will be ‘No?’” and
-Canaris forgot every thing but the hope which
-tempted, even while reason told him it was vain.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It always has been; it always will be, if I
-know her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_60'>60</span>“Will be till <em>you</em> ask.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Rest easy; I am done with love.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But if she answers ‘Yes’?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then bid good-bye to peace,—and me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The answer startled the young lover, and
-made him shrink from what he ardently desired;
-for the new passion was but an enthralment of
-the senses, and he knew it by the fine instinct
-which permits such men to see and condemn
-their lower nature, even while yielding to its
-sway.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But pride silenced doubt, and native courage
-made it impossible to shun the trial or accept
-the warning. His eye lit, his head rose, and he
-spoke out manfully, though unconsciously he
-wore the look of one who goes to lead a forlorn
-hope,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall try my fate to-night, and, if I fail, you
-may do what you like with me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not a coward, thank Heaven!” mused Helwyze,
-as he looked after the retreating figure
-with the contemptuous admiration one gives to
-any foolhardy enterprise bravely undertaken.
-“He must have his lesson, and will be the tamer
-for it, unless Olivia takes me at my word, and
-humors the boy, for vengeance’ sake. That
-would be a most dramatic complication, and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_61'>61</span>endanger my winter’s comfort seriously. Come,
-suspense is a new emotion; I will enjoy it, and
-meantime make sure of Gladys, or I may be left
-in the lurch. A reckless boy and a disappointed
-woman are capable of any folly.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_62'>62</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>V.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Helwyze folded black velvet <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>paletôt</i></span>
-about him, stroked the damp hair off his
-forehead, and, with hands loosely clasped behind
-his back, went walking slowly through the quiet
-house, to find the bright drawing-room and
-breezy balcony already deserted.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>No sound of voice or step gave him the clew
-he sought; and, pausing in the hall, he stood a
-moment, his finger on his lip, wondering whither
-Gladys had betaken herself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not with them, assuredly. Dreaming in the
-moonshine somewhere. I must look again.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Retracing his noiseless steps, he glanced here
-and there with eyes which nothing could escape,
-for trifles were significant to his quick wit; and
-he found answers to unspoken queries in the
-relics the vanished trio left behind them.
-Olivia’s fan, flung down upon a couch, made him
-smile, as if he saw her toss it there when yielding
-half-impatiently to the entreaties of Canaris.
-An ottoman, pushed hastily aside, told where the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_63'>63</span>young lover sat, till he beguiled her out to listen
-to the pleading which would wax eloquent and
-bold under cover of the summer night. The
-instrument stood open, a favorite song upon
-the rack, but the glimmering keys were mute;
-and the wind alone was singing fitfully. A
-little hat lay in the window, as if ready to be
-caught up in glad haste when the summons
-came; but the dew had dimmed the freshness
-of its azure ribbons, and there was a forlorn look
-about the girlish thing, which told the story of a
-timid hope, a silent disappointment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where the deuce is the child?” and Helwyze
-cast an ireful look about the empty room; for
-motion wearied him, and any thwarting of his
-will was dangerous. Suddenly his eye brightened,
-and he nodded, as if well pleased; for
-below the dark drapery that hung before an
-arch, a fold of softest white betrayed the wearer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Now I have her!” he whispered, as if to
-some familiar; and, parting the curtains, looked
-down upon the little figure sitting there alone,
-bathed in moonlight as purely placid as the face
-turned on him when he spoke.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Might one come in? The house seems
-quite deserted, and I want some charitable soul
-to say a friendly word to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_64'>64</span>“Oh, yes! What can I do, sir?” With the
-look of a suddenly awakened child, Gladys rose
-up, and involuntarily put out her hand as if to
-heap yet more commodiously the pillows of the
-couch which filled the alcove; then paused,
-remembering what Canaris had told her of the
-invalid’s rejection of all sympathy, and stood
-regarding him with a shy, yet wistful glance,
-which plainly showed the impulse of her tender
-heart.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Conscious that the surest way to win this
-simple creature was by submitting to be comforted,—for
-in her, womanly compassion was
-stronger than womanly ambition, vanity, or
-interest,—Helwyze shed a reassuring smile
-upon her, as he threw himself down, exclaiming,
-with a sigh of satisfaction, doubly effective from
-one who so seldom owned the weariness that
-oppressed him,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes: you shall make me comfortable, if you
-kindly will; the heat exhausts me, and I cannot
-sleep. Ah, this is pleasant! You have the gift
-of piling pillows for weary heads, Gladys. Now,
-let the moonlight make a picture of you, as it did
-before I spoilt it; then I shall envy no man.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Pleased, yet abashed, the girl sank back into
-her place on the wide window ledge, and bent
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_65'>65</span>her face over the blooming linden spray that lay
-upon her lap, unconsciously making of herself
-a prettier picture than before.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Musing here alone? Not sorrowfully, I
-hope?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never feel alone, sir, and seldom sorrowful.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“‘They never are alone that are accompanied
-with noble thoughts;’ yet it would not be unnatural
-if you felt both sad and solitary, so
-young, so isolated, in this big, bad world of ours.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A beautiful and happy world to me, sir.
-Even loneliness is pleasant, because with it
-comes—liberty.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The last word fell from her lips involuntarily;
-and, with a wonderfully expressive gesture, she
-lifted her arms as if some heavy fetter had
-newly dropped away.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Ardent emphasis and forceful action both
-surprised and interested Helwyze, confirming
-his suspicion that this girlish bosom hid a spirit
-as strong as pure, capable of deep suffering,
-exquisite happiness, heroic effort. His eye
-shone, and he gave a satisfied nod; for his first
-careless words had struck fire from the girl,
-making his task easier and more attractive.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And how will you use this freedom? A
-precious, yet a perilous, gift for such as you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_66'>66</span>“Can any thing so infinitely sweet and sacred
-be dangerous? He who planted the longing
-for it here, and gave it me when most needed,
-will surely teach me how to use it. I have no
-fear.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The bent head was erect now; the earnest face
-turned full on Helwyze with such serene faith
-shining in it, that the sneer died off his lips,
-and something like genuine compassion touched
-him, at the sight of such brave innocence tranquilly
-confronting the unknown future.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“May nothing molest, or make afraid. While
-here, you are quite safe;—you <em>do</em>, then, think of
-going?” he added, as a quick change arrested
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do, sir, and soon. I only wait to see how,
-and where.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was difficult to believe that so resolute a
-tone could come into a voice so gentle, or that
-lips whose shape was a smile could curl with
-such soft scorn. But both were there; for the
-memory of that other woman’s story embittered
-even gratitude, since in the girl’s simple creed
-disloyalty to love was next to disloyalty to God.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze watched her closely, while his fingers
-fell to tapping idly on the sofa scroll; and the
-spark brightened under the lids that contracted
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_67'>67</span>with the intent expression of concentrated
-sight.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Perhaps I can show you how and when.
-May I?” he asked, assuming a paternal air,
-which inwardly amused him much.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys looked, hesitated, and a shade of perplexity
-dimmed the clear brightness of her glance,
-as if vaguely conscious of distrust, and troubled
-by its seeming causelessness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze saw it, and quickly added the magical
-word which lulled suspicion, roused interest,
-and irresistibly allured her fancy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Pardon me; I should not have ventured to
-speak, if Felix had not hinted that you began to
-weary of dependence, as all free spirits must;
-your own words confirm the hint; and I desired
-to share my cousin’s pleasure in befriending, if
-I might, one who can so richly repay all obligation.
-Believe me, Gladys, your voice is a treasure,
-which, having discovered, we want to share
-between us.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>If the moonlight had been daybreak, the girl’s
-cheek could not have shown a rosier glow, as
-she half-averted it to hide the joy she felt at
-knowing Canaris had taken thought for her so
-soon. Her heart fluttered with tender hopes
-and fears, like a nestful of eager birds; and, forgetting
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_68'>68</span>doubt in delight, she yielded to the lure
-held out to her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are most kind: I shall be truly grateful
-if you will advise me, sir. Mrs. Surry has done
-so much, I can ask no more, but rather hasten
-to relieve her of all further care of me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She will be loth to lose you; but the friend
-of whom I am about to speak needs you much,
-and can give you what you love better even
-than kindness,—independence.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes: that is what I long for! I will do any
-thing for daily bread, if I may earn it honestly,
-and eat it in freedom,” leaning nearer, with
-clasped hands and eager look.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Could you be happy to spend some hours of
-each day in reading, singing to, and amusing a
-poor soul, who sorely needs such pleasant comforting?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I could. It would be very sweet to do it;
-and I know how, excellently well, for I have had
-good training. My father was an invalid, and I
-his only nurse for years.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Fortunate for me in all ways,” thought Helwyze,
-finding another reason for his purpose;
-while Gladys, bee-like, getting sweetness out of
-bitter-herbs, said to herself, “Those weary
-years had their use, and are not wasted, as I
-feared.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_69'>69</span>“I think these duties will not be difficult nor
-distasteful,” continued Helwyze, marking the
-effect of each attraction, as he mentioned it with
-modest brevity. “It is a quiet place; plenty of
-rare books to read, fine pictures to study, and
-music to enjoy; a little clever society, to keep
-wits bright and enliven solitude; hours of leisure,
-and entire liberty to use them as you will.
-Would this satisfy you, Gladys, till something
-better can be found?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Better!” echoed the girl, with the expression
-of one who, having asked for a crust, is bidden
-to a feast. “Ah, sir, it sounds too pleasant for
-belief. I long for all these lovely things, but
-never hoped to have them. Can I earn so
-much happiness? Am I a fit companion for
-this poor lady, who must need the gentlest nursing,
-if she suffers in the midst of so much to
-enjoy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will suit exactly; have no fear of that,
-my good child. Just be your own happy, helpful
-self, and you can make sunshine anywhere.
-We will talk more of this when you have turned
-it over in that wise young head of yours. Olivia
-may have some more attractive plan to offer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Gladys shook “the wise young head”
-with a decided air, as piquante as the sudden
-resolution in her artless voice.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_70'>70</span>“I shall choose for myself; your plan pleases
-me better than any Mrs. Surry is likely to propose.
-She says I must not work, but rest and
-enjoy myself. I will work; I love it; ease steals
-away my strength, and pleasure seems to dazzle
-me. I must be strong, for I have only myself to
-lean upon; I must see clearly, for my only guide
-is my own conscience. I <em>will</em> think of your
-most kind offer, and be ready to accept it whenever
-you like to try me, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Thanks; I like to try you now, then; sit
-here and croon some drowsy song, to show how
-well you can lull wakeful senses into that blessed
-oblivion called sleep.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As he spoke, Helwyze drew a low seat beside
-the couch, and beckoned her to come and take
-it; for she had risen as if to go, and he had no
-mind to be left alone yet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am so pleased you asked me to do this, for
-it is my special gift. Papa was very stubborn,
-but he always had to yield, and often called
-me his ‘sleep compeller.’ Let me drop the
-curtain first, light is so exciting, and draws the
-insects. I shall keep them off with this pretty
-fan, and you will find the faint perfume soothing.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Full of the sweetest good-will, Gladys leaned
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_71'>71</span>across the couch to darken the recess before
-the lullaby began. But Helwyze, feeling in a
-mood for investigation and experiment, arrested
-the outstretched hand, and, holding it in his,
-turned the full brilliance of his fine eyes on hers,
-asking with most seductive candor,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys, if <em>I</em> were the friend of whom we
-spoke, would you come to me? You compel
-truth as well as sleep, and I cannot deceive you,
-while you so willingly serve me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A moment she stood looking down into the
-singular countenance before her with a curious
-intentness in her own. A slight quickening of
-the breath was all the sign she gave of a consciousness
-of the penetrative glance fixed upon
-her, the close grasp of his hand; otherwise unembarrassed
-as a child, she regarded him with
-an expression maidenly modest, but quite composed.
-Helwyze keenly enjoyed these glimpses
-of the new character with which he chose to
-meddle, yet was both piqued and amused by
-her present composure, when the mere name of
-Felix filled her with the delicious shamefacedness
-of a first love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was a little curious that during the instant
-the two surveyed each other, that, while the
-girl’s color faded, a light red tinged the man’s
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_72'>72</span>pale cheek, her eye grew clear and cold as his
-softened, and the small hand seemed to hold
-the larger by the mere contact of its passive
-fingers.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Slow to arrive, the answer was both comprehensive
-and significant, but very brief, for three
-words held it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Could I come?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze laughed with real enjoyment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You certainly have the gift of surprises, if no
-other, and it makes you charming, Gladys. I
-fancied you as unsophisticated as if you were
-eight, instead of eighteen, and here I find you
-as discreet as any woman of the world,—more
-so than many. Where did you learn it, child?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“From myself; I have no other teacher.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah! ‘instinct is a fine thing, my masters.’
-<em>You</em> could not have a better guide. Rest easy,
-little friend, the proprieties shall be preserved,
-and you <em>can</em> come, if you decide to do me the
-honor. My old housekeeper is a most decorous
-and maternal creature, and into her keeping you
-will pass. Felix pleased me well, but his time
-is too valuable now; and, selfish as I am, I hesitate
-to keep for my own comfort the man who
-can charm so many. Will you come, and take
-his place?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_73'>73</span>Helwyze could not deny himself the pleasure
-of calling back the tell-tale color, for the blushes
-of a chaste woman are as beautiful as the blooming
-of a flower. Quickly the red tide rose, even
-to the brow, the eyes fell, the hand thrilled, and
-the steady voice faltered traitorously, “I could
-not fill it, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Still detaining her, that he might catch the
-sweet aroma of an opening heart, Helwyze
-added, as the last temptation to this young Eve,
-whom he was beguiling out of the safe garden
-of her tranquil girlhood into the unknown world
-of pain and passion, waiting for womankind
-beyond,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not for my own sake alone do I want you,
-but for his. Life is full of perils for him, and he
-needs a home. I cannot make one for him, except
-in this way, for my house is my prison, and
-he wearies of it naturally. But I <em>can</em> give it a
-new charm, add a never-failing attraction, and
-make it homelike by a woman’s presence. Will
-you help me in this?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am not wise enough; Mrs. Surry is often
-with you: surely she could make it homelike
-far better than I,” stammered Gladys, chilled
-by a sudden fear, as she remembered Canaris’
-face as he departed with Olivia an hour ago.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_74'>74</span>“Pardon; that is precisely what she cannot
-do. Such women weary while they dazzle, the
-gentler sort win while they soothe. We shall
-see less of her in future; it is not well for Felix.
-Take pity on <em>me</em>, at least, and answer ‘Yes.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How shall I thank you?” and Helwyze
-kissed the hand as he released it, leaving a little
-thorn of jealousy behind to hoodwink prudence,
-stimulate desire, and fret the inward peace that
-was her best possession.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Glad to take refuge in music, the girl assumed
-her seat, and began to sing dreamily to
-the slow waving of the green spray. Helwyze
-feigned to be courting slumber, but from the
-ambush of downcast lids he stole sidelong glances
-at the countenance so near his own, that he could
-mark the gradual subsiding of emotion, the slow
-return of the repose which made its greatest
-charm for him. And so well did he feign, that
-presently, as if glad to see her task successfully
-ended, Gladys stole away to the seclusion of her
-own happy thoughts.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Busied with his new plans and purposes, Helwyze
-waited till his patience was rewarded by
-seeing the face of Canaris appear at the window,
-glance in, and vanish as silently as it came. But
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_75'>75</span>one look was enough, and in that flash of time
-the other read how the rash wooing had sped,
-or thought he did, till Olivia came sweeping
-through the room, flung wide the curtains, and
-looked in with eyes as brilliant as if, they had
-borrowed light of the fire-flies dancing there
-without.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A fan, a cigarette, a scarlet flower behind
-the ear, and the Spanish donna would be quite
-perfect,” he said, surveying with lazy admiration
-the richly colored face, which looked out from
-the black lace, wrapped mantilla-wise over the
-dark hair and whitely gleaming arms.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is the snowdrop gone? Then I will come
-in, and hear how the new handmaid suits. I
-saw her at her pleasing task.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So well that I should like to keep her at it
-long and often. Where is Felix?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>His words, his look, angered Olivia, and she
-answered with smiling ambiguity,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Out of his misery, at last.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Cruel as ever. I told him it would be so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“On the contrary, I have been kind, as I
-promised to be.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then his face belied him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Would it please you, if I had ventured to
-forestall your promised gift, and accepted all
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_76'>76</span>Felix has to offer me, himself. I have my
-whims, like you, and follow them as recklessly.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze knit his brows, but answered negligently,
-“Folly never pleases me. It will be
-amusing to see which tires first. I shall miss
-him; but his place is already filled, and Gladys
-has the charm of novelty.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have spoken, then?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Forewarned, forearmed; I have her promise,
-and Felix can go when he likes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia paled, dropped her mask, and exclaimed
-in undisguised alarm,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There is no need: I have no thought of such
-folly! My kindness to Felix was the sparing
-him an avowal, which was simply absurd. A
-word, a laugh, did it, for ridicule cures more
-quickly and surely than compassion.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I thought so. Why try to fence with me,
-Madama? you always get the worst of it,” and
-Helwyze made the green twig whistle through
-the air with a sharp turn of the wrist, as he rose
-to go; for these two, bound together by a mutual
-wrong, seldom met without bitter words, the
-dregs of a love which might have blest them
-both.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He found Felix waiting for him, in a somewhat
-haughty mood; Olivia having judged wisely that
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_77'>77</span>ridicule, though a harsh, was a speedy cure for
-the youthful delusion, which had been fostered
-by the isolation in which they lived, and the
-ardent imagination of a poet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You were right, sir. What are your commands?”
-he asked, controlling disappointment,
-pique, and unwillingness with a spirit that won
-respect and forbearance even from Helwyze,
-who answered with a cordial warmth, as rare
-as charming,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have none: the completion of my wish I
-leave to you. Consult your own time and
-pleasure, and, when it is happily accomplished,
-be assured I shall not forget that you have
-shown me the obedience of a son.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Quick as a child to be touched, and won by
-kindness, Canaris flushed with grateful feeling
-and put out his hand impulsively, as he had
-done when selling his liberty, for now he was
-selling his love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Forgive my waywardness. I <em>will</em> be guided
-by you, for I owe you my life, and all the happiness
-I have known in it. Gladys shall be a
-daughter to you; but give me time—I must
-teach myself to forget.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>His voice broke as he stumbled over the last
-words, for pride was sore, and submission hard.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_78'>78</span>But Helwyze soothed the one and softened the
-other by one of the sympathetic touches which
-occasionally broke from him, proving that the
-man’s heart, was not yet quite dead. Laying
-his hand upon the young man’s shoulder, he
-said in a tone which stirred the hearer deeply,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I feared this pain was in store for you, but
-could not save you from it. Accept the gentle
-comforter I bring you, for I have known the
-same pain, and <em>I</em> had no Gladys.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_79'>79</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>VI.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>So the days went by, fast and fair in outward
-seeming, while an undercurrent of unquiet
-emotion rolled below. Helwyze made no sign of
-impatience, but silently forwarded his wish, by
-devoting himself to Olivia; thereby making a
-green oasis in the desert of her life, and leaving
-the young pair to themselves.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At first, Canaris shunned every one as much
-as possible; but sympathy, not solitude, was the
-balm he wanted, and who could give it him
-so freely as Gladys? Her mute surprise and
-doubt and grief at this capricious coldness, after
-such winning warmth, showed him that the
-guileless heart was already his, and added a
-soothing sense of power to the reluctance and
-regret which by turns tormented him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Irresistibly drawn by the best instincts of a
-faulty but aspiring nature to that which was
-lovely, true, and pure, he soon returned to
-Gladys, finding in her sweet society a refreshment
-and repose Olivia’s could never give him.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_80'>80</span>Love he did not feel, but affection, the more helpful
-for its calmness; confidence, which was given
-again fourfold; and reverence, daily deepening as
-time showed him the gentle strength and crystal
-clarity of the spirit he was linking to his
-own by ties which death itself could not
-sever. But the very virtues which won, also
-made him hesitate, though rash enough when
-yielding to an attraction far less noble. A sense
-of unworthiness restrained him, even when reluctance
-had passed from resignation to something
-like desire, and he paused, as one might,
-who longed to break a delicate plant, yet delayed,
-lest it should wither too quickly in his hand.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze and Olivia watched this brief wooing
-with peculiar interest. She, being happy herself,
-was full of good hope for Gladys, and let her step,
-unwarned, into the magic circle drawn around
-her. He sat as if at a play, enjoying the pretty
-pastoral enacted before him, content to let
-“summer and seclusion” bring the young pair
-together as naturally and easily as spring-time
-mates the birds. Suspense gave zest to the
-new combination, surprise added to its flavor,
-and a dash of danger made it unusually attractive
-to him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris came to him one day, with a resolute
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_81'>81</span>expression on his face, which rendered it noble,
-as well as beautiful.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sir, I will not do this thing; I dare not.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dare not! Is cowardice to be added to disobedience
-and falsehood?” and Helwyze looked
-up from his book with a contemptuous frown.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will not be sneered out of my purpose; for
-I never did a braver, better act than when I say
-to you, ‘I dare not lie to Gladys.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What need of lying? Surely you love her
-now, or you are a more accomplished actor than
-I thought you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have tried,—tried too faithfully for her
-peace, I fear; but, though I reverence her as an
-angel, I do <em>not</em> love her as a woman. How can
-I look into her innocent, confiding face, and tell
-her,—she who is all truth,—that I love as she
-does?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yet that is the commonest, most easily forgiven
-falsehood a man can utter. Is it so hard
-for <em>you</em> to deceive?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Quick and deep rose the hot scarlet to Canaris’s
-face, and his eyes fell, as if borne down by the
-emphasis of that one word. But the sincerity of
-his desire brought courage even out of shame;
-and, lifting his head with a humility more impressive
-than pride or anger, he said, steadily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_82'>82</span>“If this truth redeems that falsehood, I shall,
-at least, have recovered my own self-respect. I
-never knew that I had lost it, till Gladys showed
-me how poor I was in the virtue which makes
-her what she is.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What conscientious qualm is this? Where
-would this truth-telling bring you? How would
-your self-respect bear the knowledge that you had
-broken the girl’s heart? for, angel as you call
-her, she has one, and you have stolen it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At your bidding.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Long before I thought of it. Did you imagine
-you could play with her, to pique Olivia,
-without harm to Gladys? Is yours a face to
-smile on a woman, day after day, and not teach
-her to love? In what way but this <em>can</em> you atone
-for such selfish thoughtlessness? Come, if we
-are to talk of honor and honesty, do it fairly, and
-not shift the responsibility of your acts upon my
-shoulders.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Have I done that? I never meant to trouble
-her. Is there no way out of it but this? Oh,
-sir, I am not fit to marry her! What am I, to
-take a fellow-creature’s happiness into my hands?
-What have I to offer her but the truth in return
-for her love, if I must take it to secure her
-peace?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_83'>83</span>“If you offer the truth, you certainly <em>will</em> have
-nothing else, and not even receive love in return,
-perhaps; for her respect may go with all the
-rest. If I know her, the loss of that would wound
-her heart more deeply than the disappointment
-your silence will bring her now. Think of this,
-and be wise as well as generous in the atonement
-you should make.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bound, whichever way I look; for when I
-meant to be kindest I am cruel.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris stood perplexed, abashed, remorseful;
-for Helwyze had the art to turn even his virtues
-into weapons against him, making his new-born
-regard for Gladys a reason for being falsely true,
-dishonorably tender. The honest impulse suddenly
-looked weak and selfish, compassion seemed
-nobler than sincerity, and present peace better
-than future happiness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze saw that he was wavering, and turned
-the scale by calling to his aid one of the strongest
-passions that rule men,—the spirit of rivalry,—knowing
-well its power over one so young, so
-vain and sensitive.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Felix, there must be an end of this; I am
-tired of it. Since you are more enamoured of
-truth than Gladys, choose, and abide by it. I
-shall miss my congenial comrade, but I will not
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_84'>84</span>keep him if he feels my friendship slavery. I
-release you from all promises: go your way, in
-peace; I can do without you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A daring offer, and Helwyze risked much in
-making it; but he knew the man before him, and
-that in seeming to set free, he only added another
-link to the invisible chain by which he held him.
-Canaris looked relieved, amazed, and touched, as
-he exclaimed, incredulously,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you mean it, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do; but in return for your liberty I claim
-the right to use mine as I will.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Use it? I do not understand.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“To comfort Gladys.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You do not love her, and leave her doubly
-forlorn, since you have given her a glimpse of
-love. I must befriend her, as you will not; and
-when she comes to me, as she has promised, if
-she is happy, I shall keep her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“As <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>fille adoptive</i></span>.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris affirmed, not asked, this; and, in the
-changed tone, the suspicious glance, Helwyze
-saw that he had aimed well. With a smile that
-was a sneer, he answered coldly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hardly that: the paternal element is sadly
-lacking in me; and, if it were not, I fear a man
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_85'>85</span>of forty could not adopt a girl of eighteen without
-compromising her, especially one so lonely
-and so lovely as poor little Gladys.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will marry her? Yet when I hinted it,
-you said, ‘Impossible!’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I did; but then I did not know how helpful
-she could be, how glad to love, how easy to be
-won by kindness. <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>Ennui</i></span> drives one to do the
-rashest things; and when you are gone, I shall
-find it difficult to fill your place. ’Tis a pity to
-tie the pretty creature to such a clod. But, if I
-can help and keep her in no other way, I may do
-it, remembering that her captivity would be a
-short one; it should be my care that it was
-a very light one while it lasted.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But she loves <em>me</em>!” exclaimed Canaris, with
-jealous inconsistency.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I fear so; yet you reject her for a scruple.
-Hearts are easily caught in the rebound; and
-who will hold hers more gently than I? Olivia
-will tell you I <em>can</em> be gentle when it suits me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The name stung Canaris, where pride was
-sorest; and the thought, that this man could
-take from him both the woman whom he loved
-and the girl who loved him, roused an ignoble
-desire to silence the noble one. He showed it
-instantly, for his eye shot a quick glance at the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_86'>86</span>mirror; a smile that was almost insolent passed
-over his face; and his air was full of the proud
-consciousness of youth, health, comeliness, and
-talent.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Thanks for my freedom; I shall know how
-to use it. Since I may tell Gladys the truth, I
-do not dread her love so much; and will atone
-generously, if I can. I think she will accept
-poverty with me rather than luxury with you.
-At least she shall have her choice.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Well said. You will succeed, since you
-possess all the gifts which win women except
-wealth and”—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Stop! you shall <em>not</em> say it,” cried Canaris,
-hotly. “Are you possessed of a devil, that you
-torment me so?” He clenched his hands, and
-walked fast through the room, as if to escape
-from some fierce impulse.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A certain, almost brutal, frankness characterized
-the intercourse of these men at times;
-for the tie between them was a peculiar one, and
-fretted both, though both clung to it with strange
-tenacity. With equal candor and entire composure
-Helwyze answered the excited question.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“We are all possessed, more or less; happy
-the man who is master. My demon is a bad
-one; for your intellectual devil is hard to manage,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_87'>87</span>since he demands the best of us, and is not satisfied
-or cheated as easily as some that are stronger,
-yet less cunning. Yours is ambition,—an insatiable
-fellow, who gives you no rest. I had a
-fancy to help you rule him; but he proves less
-interesting that I thought to find him, and is
-getting to be a bore. See what you can do,
-alone; only, when he gets the upper hand again,
-excuse me from interfering: once is enough.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris made no reply, but dashed out of the
-room, as if he could bear no more, leaving Helwyze
-to throw down his book, muttering impatiently,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Here is a froward favorite, and excitement
-with a vengeance! He will not speak yet; for
-with all his fire he is wary, and while he fumes I
-must work. But how? but how?”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_88'>88</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>VII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>A storm raged all that night; but dawn
-came up so dewy and serene, that the
-world looked like a child waking after anger,
-with happy smiles upon its lips, penitential tears
-in its blue eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris was early astir, after a night as stormy
-within as without, during which he had gone
-through so many alternations of feeling, that,
-weary and still undecided, he was now in the
-mood to drift whithersoever the first eddy impelled
-him. Straight to Gladys, it seemed; and,
-being superstitious, he accepted the accident as
-a good omen, following his own desire, and calling
-it fate.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Wandering in the loneliest, wildest spot of all
-the domain, he came upon her as suddenly as if
-a wish had brought her to the nook haunted for
-both by pleasant memories. Dew-drenched her
-feet, hatless her head; but the feet stood firmly
-on the cliff which shelved down to the shore
-below, and the upturned head shone bright
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_89'>89</span>against the deep blue of the sky. Morning
-peace dwelt in her eyes, morning freshness
-glowed on her cheek, and her whole attitude
-was one of unconscious aspiration, as she stood
-there with folded hands and parted lips, drinking
-in the storm-cooled breeze that blew vigorous
-and sweet across the lake.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What are you doing here so early, little
-dryad?” and Canaris paused, with an almost
-irresistible desire to put out his arms and hold
-her, lest she fly away, so airy was her perch,
-so eager her look into the boundless distance
-before her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Only being happy!” and she looked down
-into his face with such tender and timid joy in
-her own, he hardly had need to ask,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why, Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Because of this,” showing a string of pearls
-that hung from her hand, half-hidden among the
-trailing bits of greenery gathered in her walk.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who gave you that?” demanded Canaris,
-eying it with undisguised surprise; for the
-pearls were great, globy things, milk-white, and
-so perfect that any one but Gladys would have
-seen how costly was the gift.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Need you ask?” she said, blushing brightly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why not? Do you suspect me?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_90'>90</span>“You cannot deceive me by speaking roughly
-and looking stern. Who but you would put
-these in my basket without a word, and let me
-find them there when I laid my work away
-last night? I was so pleased, so proud, I could
-not help keeping them, though far too beautiful
-for me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then Canaris knew who had done it; and his
-hand tightened over the necklace, while his eye
-went towards the lake, as if he longed to throw
-it far into the water. He checked himself, and,
-turning it about with a disdainful air, said,
-coldly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If <em>I</em> had given you this, it should have been
-quite perfect. The cross is not large nor fine
-enough to match the chain. Do you see?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, but the little cross is more precious
-than all the rest! That is the one jewel my
-mother left me, and I put it there to make my
-rosary complete;” and Gladys surveyed it with a
-pretty mixture of devout affection and girlish
-pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I’ll give you a better one than this,—a string
-of tiny carved saints in scented wood, blessed
-by holy hands, and fit to say prayers like yours
-upon. You will take it, though my gift is not
-half so costly as his?” he said, eagerly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_91'>91</span>“Whose?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Helwyze gave you that.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But why?” and Gladys opened wide her
-clear, large eyes in genuine astonishment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is a generous master; your singing
-pleases him, and he pays you so,” replied Canaris,
-bitterly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is not my master!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He will be.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never! I shall not go, if I am to be burdened
-with benefits. I will earn my just due, but not
-be overpaid. Tell him so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys caught back the chain, unclasped the
-cross, and threw the pearls upon the grass, where
-they lay, gleaming, like great drops of frozen dew,
-among the green. Canaris liked that; thought
-proudly, “<em>I</em> have no need to bribe;” and hastened
-to make his own the thing another seemed
-to covet. Drawing nearer, he looked up, asking,
-in a tone that gave the question its true meaning,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“May <em>I</em> be your master, Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not even you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your slave, then?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never that.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your lover?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_92'>92</span>“But I can give you nothing except myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Love is enough;” and finding his arms
-about her, his face, warm and wistful, close to
-hers, Gladys bent to give and take the first kiss,
-which was all they had to bestow upon each
-other.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Singularly unimpassioned was the embrace in
-which they stood for a brief instant. Canaris
-held her with a clasp more jealous than fond;
-Gladys clung to him, yet trembled, as if some
-fear subdued her joy; and both vaguely felt the
-incompleteness of a moment which should be
-perfect.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You do love me, then?” she whispered,
-wondering at his silence.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Should I ask you to be my wife if I did not?”
-and the stern look melted into an expression of
-what seemed, to her, reproach.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No; ah, no! I fancied that I might have
-deceived myself. I am so young, you are so kind.
-I never had a—friend before;” and Gladys
-smiled shyly, as the word which meant “lover”
-dropped from her lips.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am not kind: I am selfish, cruel, perhaps,
-to let you love me so. You will never reproach
-me for it, Gladys? I mean to save you from ills
-you know nothing of; to cherish and protect you—if
-I can.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_93'>93</span>Verily in earnest now; for the touch of those
-innocent lips reminded him of all his promise
-meant, recalled his own unfitness to guide or
-guard another, when so wayward and unwise
-himself. Gladys could not understand the true
-cause of his beseeching look, his urgency of tone;
-but saw in them only the generous desire to keep
-safe the creature dearest to him, and loved him
-the more for it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never can think you selfish, never will reproach
-you but will love and trust and honor
-you all my life,” she answered, with a simplicity
-as solemn as sincere; and, holding out the hand
-that held her dead mother’s cross, Canaris
-pledged his troth upon it with the mistaken
-chivalry which makes many a man promise to
-defend a woman against all men but himself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Now you can be happy again,” he said, feeling
-that he had done his best to keep her so.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She thought he meant look out upon the lake,
-dreaming of him as when he found her; and, turning,
-stretched forth her arms as if to embrace
-the whole world, and tell the smiling heaven her
-glad secret.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Doubly happy; then I only hoped, now I
-<em>know</em>!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something in the exultant gesture, the fervent
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_94'>94</span>tone, the radiant face, thrilled Canaris with a
-sudden admiration; a feeling of proud possession;
-a conviction that he had gained, not lost; and
-he said within himself,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am glad I did it. I will cherish her; she
-will inspire me; and good <em>shall</em> come out of seeming
-evil.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>His spirits rose with a new sense of well-being
-and well-doing. He gathered up the rejected
-treasure, and gave it back to Gladys, saying
-lightly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You may keep it as a wedding-gift; then he
-need give no other. He meant it so, perhaps,
-and it will please him. Will you, love?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If you ask it. But why must brides wear
-pearls? They mean tears,” she added, thoughtfully,
-as she received them back.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Perhaps because then the sorrows of their
-lives begin. Yours shall not: I will see to that,”
-he promised, with the blind confidence of the
-self-sacrificing mood he was in.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys sat down upon the rock to explore a
-pocket, so small and empty that Canaris could
-not help smiling, as he, too, leaned and looked
-with a lover’s freedom.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Only my old chain. I must put back the
-cross, else I shall lose it,” laughed Gladys, as she
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_95'>95</span>brought out a little cord of what seemed woven
-yellow silk.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is it your hair?” he asked, his eye caught
-by its peculiar sunshiny hue.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes; I could not buy a better one, so I made
-this. My hair is all the gold I have.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Give it to me, and you wear mine. See, I
-have an amulet as well as you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Fumbling in his breast, Canaris undid a
-slender chain, whence hung a locket, curiously
-chased, and tarnished with long wear. This he
-unslung, and, opening, showed Gladys the faded
-picture of a beautiful, sad woman.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is my Madonna.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your mother?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mine now.” The girl touched it with her
-lips, then softly closed and laid it on her lap.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Silently Canaris stood watching her, as she
-re-slung both poor but precious relics, while the
-costlier one slipped down, as if ashamed to lie
-beside them. He caught and swung it on his
-finger, thinking of something he had lately read
-to Helwyze.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Kharsu, the Persian, sent a necklace to
-Schirin, the princess, whom he loved. She was
-a Christian, and hung a cross upon his string
-of pearls, as you did,” he said aloud.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_96'>96</span>“But I am not a princess, and Mr. Helwyze
-does not love me; so the pretty story is all
-spoiled.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This thing recalled it. <em>I</em> have given you a
-necklace, and you are hanging a cross upon it.
-Wear the one, and use the other, for my sake.
-Will you, Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Did Schirin convert Kharsu?” asked the
-girl, catching his thought more from his face
-than his words; for it wore a look of mingled
-longing and regret, which she had never seen
-before.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That I do not know; but you must convert
-me: I am a sad heathen, Helwyze says.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Has <em>he</em> tried?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then I will!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You see I’ve had no one to teach me any
-thing but worldly wisdom, and I sometimes feel
-as I should be better for a little of the heavenly
-sort. So when you wear the rosary I shall give
-you—‘Fair saint, in your orisons be all my sins
-remembered;’” and Canaris put his hand upon
-her head, smiling, as if half-ashamed of his
-request.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am no Catholic, but I <em>will</em> pray for you,
-and you shall not be lost. The mother in
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_97'>97</span>heaven and the wife on earth will keep you
-safe,” whispered Gladys, in her fervent voice,
-feeling and answering with a woman’s quickness
-the half-expressed desire of a nature conscious
-of its weakness, yet unskilled in asking help for
-its greatest need.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Silently the two young lovers put on their
-amulets, and, hand in hand, went back along the
-winding path, till they reached the great eglantine
-that threw its green arches across the outlet
-from the wood. All beyond was radiantly
-bright and blooming; and as Canaris, passing
-first to hold back the thorny boughs, stood an
-instant, bathed in the splendor of the early sunshine,
-Gladys exclaimed, her face full of the
-tender idolatry of a loving woman,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“O Felix, you are so good, so great, so
-beautiful, if it were not wicked, I should worship
-you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“God forbid! Do not love me too much,
-Gladys: I do not deserve it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How can I help it, when I feel very like the
-girl who lost her heart to the Apollo?” she
-answered, feeling that she never could love <em>too
-much</em>.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And broke her heart, you remember, because
-her god was only a stone.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_98'>98</span>“Mine is not, and he will answer when I call.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If he does not, he will be harder and colder
-than the marble!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>When Canaris, some hours later, told Helwyze,
-he looked well pleased, thinking, “Jealousy
-is a helpful ally. I do not regret calling
-in its aid, though it has cost Olivia her pearls.”
-Aloud he said, with a gracious air, which did not
-entirely conceal some secret anxiety,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you have made a clean breast of it, and
-she forgives all peccadilloes?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have not told her; and I will not, till I have
-atoned for the meanest of them. May I ask you
-to be silent also for her sake?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are wise.” Then, as if glad to throw
-off all doubt and care, he asked, in a pleasantly
-suggestive tone,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The wedding will soon follow the wooing, I
-imagine, for you make short work of matters,
-when you do begin?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You told me to execute your wish in my
-own way. I will do so, without troubling Mrs.
-Surry, or asking you to give us your blessing,
-since playing the father to orphans is distasteful
-to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Very calm and cool was Canaris now; but a
-sense of wrong burned at his heart, marring the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_99'>99</span>satisfaction he felt in having done what he believed
-to be a just and generous act.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is; but I will assume the character long
-enough to suggest, nay, <em>insist</em>, that however hasty
-and informal this marriage may be, you will take
-care that it <em>is</em> one.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you mean that for a hint or a warning,
-sir? I have lied and stolen by your advice; shall
-I also betray?” asked Canaris, white with indignation,
-and something like fear; for he began to
-feel that whatever this man commanded he must
-do, spite of himself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Strong language, Felix. But I forgive it,
-since I am sincere in wishing well to Gladys.
-Marry when and how you please, only do not
-annoy me with another spasm of virtue. It is a
-waste of time, you see, for the thing is done.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not yet; but soon will be, for you are fast
-curing me of a too tender conscience.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Faster than you think, my Faust; since to
-marry without love betrays as surely as to love
-without marriage,” said Helwyze to himself, expressing
-in words the thought that had restrained
-the younger, better man.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A week later, Canaris came in with Gladys
-on his arm, looking very like a bride in a little
-bonnet tied with white, and a great nosegay
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_100'>100</span>of all the sweet, pale flowers blooming in the
-garden that first Sunday of September.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Good-bye, sir; we are going.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where, may I ask? To church?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“We have been;” and Canaris touched the
-ungloved hand that lay upon his arm, showing
-the first ring it had ever worn.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah! then I can only say, Heaven bless
-you, Gladys; a happy honeymoon, Felix, and
-welcome home when—you are tired of each
-other.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_101'>101</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>VIII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>“Home at last, thank Heaven!” exclaimed
-Canaris, as the door opened, letting
-forth a stream of light and warmth into the
-chilly gloom of the October night. Gladys made
-no answer but an upward look, which seemed to
-utter the tender welcome he had forgotten to
-give; and, nestling her hand in his, let him lead
-her through the bright hall, up the wide stairway
-to her own domain.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“As we return a little before our time, we
-must not expect a jubilee. Look about you,
-love, and rest. I will send Mrs. Bland presently,
-and tell Helwyze we are come.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He hurried away, showing no sign of the
-<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>ennui</i></span> which had fitfully betrayed itself during the
-last week. Gladys watched him wistfully, then
-turned to see what home was like, with eyes
-that brightened beautifully as they took in the
-varied charms of the luxurious apartments prepared
-for her. The newly kindled light filled
-the room with a dusky splendor; for deepest
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_102'>102</span>crimson glowed everywhere, making her feel as
-if she stood in the heart of a great rose whose
-silken petals curtained her round with a color,
-warmth, and fragrance which would render sleep
-a “rapture of repose.” Womanlike, she enjoyed
-every dainty device and sumptuous detail; yet
-the smile of pleasure was followed by a faint
-sigh, as if the new magnificence oppressed her,
-or something much desired had been forgotten.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Stepping carefully, like one who had no right
-there, she passed on to a charming drawing-room,
-evidently intended for but two occupants,
-and all the pleasanter to her for that suggestion.
-Pausing on the threshold of another door, she
-peeped in, expecting to find one of those scented,
-satin boudoirs, which are fitter for the coquetries
-of a Parisian belle, than for a young wife to
-hope and dream and pray in.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But there was no splendor here; and, with a
-cry of glad surprise, its new owner took possession,
-wondering what gentle magic had guessed
-and gathered here the simple treasures she
-best loved. White everywhere, except the pale
-green of the softly tinted walls, and the mossy
-carpet strewn with mimic snowdrops. A sheaf
-of lilies in a silver vase stood on the low chimney-piece
-above the hearth, where a hospitable
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_103'>103</span>fire lay ready to kindle at a touch; and this
-was the only sign of luxury the room displayed.
-Quaint furniture, with no ornament except its
-own grace or usefulness, gave the place a homelike
-air; and chintz hangings, fresh and delicate as
-green leaves scattered upon snow could make
-them, seemed to shut out the world, securing
-the sweet privacy a happy woman loves.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys felt this instantly, and, lifting her hand
-to draw the pretty draperies yet closer, discovered
-a new surprise, which touched her to the
-heart. Instead of looking out into the darkness
-of the autumn night, she found a little woodland
-nook imprisoned between the glass-door and the
-deep window beyond. A veritable bit of the
-forest, with slender ferns nodding in their sleep,
-hardy vines climbing up a lichened stump to
-show their scarlet berries, pine-needles pricking
-through the moss, rough arbutus leaves hiding
-coyly till spring should freshen their russet
-edges, acorns looking as if just dropped by
-some busy squirrel, and all manner of humble
-weeds, growing here as happily as when they
-carpeted the wood for any careless foot to tread
-upon.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>These dear familiar things were as grateful
-to Gladys as the sight of friendly faces; and,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_104'>104</span>throwing wide the doors, she knelt down to
-breathe with childish eagerness the damp, fresh
-odors that came out to meet her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How sweet of him to make such a lovely nest
-for me, and then slip away before I could thank
-him,” thought the tender-hearted creature, with
-tears in the eyes that dwelt delightedly upon the
-tremulous maiden-hair bending to her touch,
-and the sturdy grasses waking up in this new
-summer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A sound of opening doors dispelled her reverie;
-and with girlish trepidation she hastened
-to smooth the waves of her bright hair, assume
-the one pretty dress she would accept from
-Olivia, and clasp the bridal pearls about her
-neck; then hastened down before the somewhat
-dreaded Mrs. Bland appeared.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It pleased her to go wandering alone through
-the great house, warmed and lighted everywhere;
-for Helwyze made this his world, and
-gathered about him every luxury which taste,
-caprice, or necessity demanded. A marvellously
-beautiful and varied home it seemed to simple
-Gladys, as she passed from picture-gallery to
-music-room, eyed with artless wonder the subdued
-magnificence of the <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>salon</i></span>, or paused enchanted
-in a conservatory whose crystal walls
-enclosed a fairyland of bloom and verdure.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_105'>105</span>Here and there she came upon some characteristic
-whim or arrangement, which made her
-smile with amusement, or sigh with pity, remembering
-the recluse who tried to cheer his
-solitude by these devices. One recess held a
-single picture glowing with the warm splendor
-of the East. A divan, a Persian rug, an amber-mouthed
-<i>nargileh</i>, and a Turkish coffee service,
-all gold and scarlet, completed the illusion. In
-another shadowy nook tinkled a little fountain
-guarded by one white-limbed nymph, who seemed
-to watch with placid interest the curious sea-creatures
-peopling the basin below. The third
-showed a study-chair, a shaded lamp, and certain
-favorite books, left open, as if to be taken
-up again when the mood returned. In one
-of these places Gladys lingered with fresh compassion
-stirring at her heart, though it looked
-the least inviting of them all. Behind the curtains
-of a window looking out upon the broad
-street on which the mansion faced stood a
-single chair, and nothing more.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He shall not be so lonely now, if I can interest
-or amuse him,” thought Gladys, as she looked
-at the worn spot in the carpet, the crumpled
-cushion on the window-ledge; mute witnesses
-that Helwyze felt drawn towards his kin, and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_106'>106</span>found some solace in watching the activity he
-could no longer share.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Knowing that she should find him in the
-library, where most of his time was spent, she
-soon wended her way thither. The door stood
-hospitably open; and, as she approached, she
-saw the two men standing together, marked, as
-never before, the sharp contrast between them,
-and felt a glow of wifely pride in the young husband
-whom she was learning to love with all the
-ardor of a pure and tender soul.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris was talking eagerly, as he turned the
-leaves of a thin manuscript which lay between
-them. Helwyze listened, with his eyes fixed on
-the speaker so intently that it startled the new-comer,
-when, without a sound to warn him of her
-approach, he turned suddenly upon her with the
-smile which dazzled without warming those on
-whom it was shed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have been chiding this capricious fellow for
-the haste which spoils the welcome I hoped to
-give you. But I pardon him, since he brings the
-sunshine with him,” he said, going to meet her,
-with genuine pleasure in his face.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I could not have a kinder welcome, sir. I
-was glad to come; Felix feared you might be
-needing him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_107'>107</span>“So duty brought him back a week too soon?
-A poet’s honeymoon should be a long one; I
-regret to be the cause of its abridgment.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something in the satirical glimmer of his eye
-made Gladys glance at her husband, who spoke
-out frankly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There were other reasons. Gladys hates a
-crowd, and so do I. Bad weather made it impossible
-to be romantic, so we thought it best to
-come home and be comfortable.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I trust you will be; but I have little to offer,
-since the attractions of half a dozen cities could
-not satisfy you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Indeed, we should be most ungrateful if we
-were not happy here,” cried Gladys, eagerly.
-“Only let me be useful as well as happy, else I
-shall not deserve this lovely home you give us.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She is anxious to begin her ministrations;
-and I can recommend her, for she is quick to
-learn one’s ways, patient with one’s whims, fruitful
-in charming devices for amusement, and
-the best of comrades,” said Canaris, drawing her
-to him with a look more grateful than fond.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“From that speech, and other signs, I infer
-that Felix is about to leave me to your tender
-mercies, and fall to work upon his new book;
-since it seems he could not resist making poetry
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_108'>108</span>when he should have been making love. Are
-you not jealous of the rival who steals him from
-you, even before the honeymoon has set?” asked
-Helwyze, touching the little manuscript before
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not if she makes him great, and I can make
-him happy,” answered Gladys, with an air of
-perfect content and trust.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I warn you that the Muse is a jealous mistress,
-and will often rob you of him. Are you ready to
-give him up, and resign yourself to more prosaic
-companionship?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why need I give him up? He says I do not
-disturb him when he writes. He allowed me to
-sit beside him while he made these lovely songs,
-and watch them grow. He even let me help
-with a word sometimes, and I copied the verses
-fairly, that he might see how beautiful they were.
-Did I not, Felix?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys spoke with such innocent pride, and
-looked up in her husband’s face so gratefully,
-that he could not but thank her with a caress, as
-he said, laughing,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, that was only play. I’ve had my holiday,
-and now I must work at a task in which no one
-can help me. Come and see the den where I
-shut myself up when the divine frenzy seizes me.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_109'>109</span>Mr. Helwyze is jailer, and only lets me out when
-I have done my stint.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Full of some pleasurable excitement, Canaris
-led his wife across the room, threw open a door,
-and bade her look in. Like a curious child, she
-peeped, but saw only a small, bare <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>cabinet de
-travail</i></span>.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No room, you see, even for a little thing like
-you. None dare enter here without my keeper’s
-leave. Remember that, else you may fare like
-Bluebeard’s Fatima.” Canaris spoke gayly, and
-turned a key in the door with a warning click, as
-he glanced over his shoulder at Helwyze. Gladys
-did not see the look, but something in his words
-seemed to disturb her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do not like this place, it is close and dark.
-I think I shall not want to come, even if you <em>are</em>
-here;” and, waiting for no reply, she stepped
-out from the chill of the unused room, as if glad
-to escape.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mysterious intuition! she felt that we had a
-skeleton in here, though it is such a little one,”
-whispered Canaris, with an uneasy laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Such a sensitive plant will fare ill between
-us, I am afraid,” answered Helwyze, as he followed
-her, leaving the other to open drawers
-and settle papers, like one eager to begin his
-work.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_110'>110</span>Gladys was standing in the full glare of the
-fire, as if its cheerful magic could exorcise all
-dark fancies. Helwyze eyed the white figure for
-an instant, feeling that his lonely hearthstone had
-acquired a new charm; then joined her, saying
-quietly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This is the place where Felix and I have
-lived together for nearly two years. Do you like
-it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“More than I can tell. It does not seem
-strange to me, for he has often described it; and
-when I thought of coming here, I was more
-curious to see this room than any other.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It will be all the pleasanter henceforth if
-Felix can spare you to me sometimes. Come
-and see the corner I have prepared, hoping to
-tempt you here when he shuts us out. It used
-to be his; so you will like it, I think.” Helwyze
-paced slowly down the long room, Gladys beside
-him, saying, as she looked about her hungrily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So many books! and doubtless you have read
-them all?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not quite; but you may, if you will. See,
-here is your place; come often, and be sure you
-never will disturb me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But one book lay on the little table, and its
-white cover, silver lettered, shone against the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_111'>111</span>dark cloth so invitingly that Gladys took it up,
-glowing with pleasure as she read her own name
-upon the volume she knew and loved so well.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“For me? you knew that nothing else would
-be so beautiful and precious. Sir, why are you
-so generous?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It amuses me to do these little things, and
-you must humor me, as Felix does. You shall
-pay for them in your own coin, so there need be
-no sense of obligation. Rest satisfied I shall
-get the best of the bargain.” Before she could
-reply a servant appeared, announced dinner, and
-vanished as noiselessly as he came.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This has been a bachelor establishment so
-long that we are grown careless. If you will
-pardon all deficiencies of costume, we will not
-delay installing Madame Canaris in the place
-she does us the honor to fill.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But I am not the mistress, sir. Please
-change nothing; my place at home was very
-humble; I am afraid I cannot fill the new one as
-I ought,” stammered Gladys, somewhat dismayed
-at the prospect which the new name and duty
-suggested.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will have no care, except of us. Mrs.
-Bland keeps the machinery running smoothly,
-and we lead a very quiet life. My territory ends
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_112'>112</span>at that door; all beyond is yours. I chiefly
-haunt this wing, but sometimes roam about
-below stairs a little, a very harmless ghost, so
-do not be alarmed if you should meet me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze spoke lightly, and tapped at the door
-of the den as he passed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Come out, slave of the pen, and be fed.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris came, wearing a preoccupied air, and
-sauntered after them, as Helwyze led the new
-mistress to her place, shy and rosy, but resolved
-to do honor to her husband at all costs.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Her first act, however, gave them both a
-slight shock of surprise; for the instant they
-were seated, Gladys laid her hands together,
-bent her head, and whispered Grace, as if obeying
-a natural impulse to ask Heaven’s blessing
-on the first bread she broke in her new home.
-The effect of the devoutly simple act was characteristically
-shown by the three observers. The
-servant paused, with an uplifted cover in his
-hand, respectfully astonished; Canaris looked
-intensely annoyed; and Helwyze leaned back
-with the suggestion of a shrug, as he glanced
-critically from the dimpled hands to the nugget
-of gold that shone against the bended neck. The
-instant she looked up, the man whisked off the
-silver cover with an air of relief; Canaris fell
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_113'>113</span>upon his bread like a hungry boy, and Helwyze
-tranquilly began to talk.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Was the surprise Felix prepared for you a
-satisfactory one? Olivia and I took pleasure in
-obeying his directions.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It was lovely! I have not thanked him yet,
-but I shall. You, also, sir, in some better way
-than words. What made you think of it?” she
-asked, looking at Canaris with a mute request
-for pardon of her involuntary offence.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Glad to rush into speech, Canaris gave at
-some length the history of his fancy to reproduce,
-as nearly as he could, the little room at
-home, which she had described to him with regretful
-minuteness; for she had sold every thing
-to pay the debts which were the sole legacy her
-father left her. While they talked, Helwyze,
-who ate little, was observing both. Gladys
-looked more girlish than ever, in spite of the
-mingled dignity and anxiety her quiet but timid
-air betrayed. Canaris seemed in high spirits,
-talking rapidly, laughing often, and glancing
-about him as if glad to be again where nothing
-inharmonious disturbed his taste and comfort.
-Not till dessert was on the table, however, did
-he own, in words, the feeling of voluptuous
-satisfaction which was enhanced by the memory
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_114'>114</span>that he had been rash enough to risk the loss
-of all.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is not so very terrible, you see, Gladys.
-You eat and drink like a bird; but I know you
-enjoy this as much as I do, after those detestable
-hotels,” he said, detecting an expression of
-relief in his young wife’s face, as the noiseless
-servant quitted the room for the last time.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Indeed I do. It is so pleasant to have all
-one’s senses gratified at once, and the common
-duties of life made beautiful and easy,” answered
-Gladys, surveying with feminine appreciation
-the well-appointed table which had that air of
-accustomed elegance so grateful to fastidious
-tastes.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, ha! this little ascetic of mine will become
-a Sybarite yet, and agree with me that
-enjoyment <em>is</em> a duty,” exclaimed Canaris, looking
-very like a young Bacchus, as he held up his
-wine to watch its rich color, and inhale its bouquet
-with zest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The more delicate the senses, the more delicate
-the delight. I suspect Madame finds her
-grapes and water as delicious as you do your
-olives and old wine,” said Helwyze, finding a
-still more refined satisfaction than either in the
-pretty contrast between the purple grapes and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_115'>115</span>the white fingers that pulled them apart, the
-softly curling lips that were the rosier for their
-temperate draughts, and the unspoiled simplicity
-of the girl sitting there in pearls and shimmering
-silk.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When one has known poverty, and the sad
-shifts which make it seem mean, as well as hard,
-perhaps one does unduly value these things. I
-hope I shall not; but I do find them very tempting,”
-she said, thoughtfully eying the new scene
-in which she found herself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze seemed to be absently listening to
-the musical chime of silver against glass; but he
-made a note of that hope, wondering if hardship
-had given her more of its austere virtue than it
-had her husband.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How shall you resist temptation?” he asked,
-curiously.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall work. This is dangerously pleasant;
-so let me begin at once, and sing, while you take
-your coffee in the drawing-room. I know the
-way; come when you will, I shall be ready;”
-and Gladys rose with the energetic expression
-which often broke through her native gentleness.
-Canaris held the door for her, and was
-about to resume his seat, when Helwyze checked
-him:—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_116'>116</span>“We will follow at once. Was I not right in
-my prediction?” he asked, as they left the room
-together.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That we should soon tire of each other?
-You were wrong in that.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I meant the ease with which you would soon
-learn to love.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have not learned—yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then this vivacity is a cloak for the pangs
-of remorse, is it?” and Helwyze laughed incredulously.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No: it is the satisfaction I already feel in
-the atonement I mean to make. I have a grand
-idea. <em>I</em>, too, shall work, and give Gladys reason
-to be proud of me, if nothing more.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something of her own energy was in his mien,
-and it became him. But Helwyze quenched the
-noble ardor by saying, coldly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I see: it is the old passion under a new
-name. May your virtuous aspirations be blest!”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_117'>117</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>IX.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Helwyze was right, and Canaris found
-that his sudden marriage did stimulate
-public interest wonderfully. There had always
-been something mysterious about this brilliant
-young man and his relations with his patron;
-who was as silent as the Sphinx regarding his
-past, and tantalizingly enigmatical about his
-plans and purposes for the future. The wildest
-speculations were indulged in: many believed
-them to be father and son; others searched
-vainly for the true motive of this charitable
-caprice; and every one waited with curiosity to
-see the end of it. All of which much amused
-Helwyze, who cared nothing for the world’s opinion,
-and found his sense of humor tickled by the
-ludicrous idea of himself in the new <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>rôle</i></span> of
-benefactor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The romance seemed quite complete when it
-was known that the young poet had brought
-home a wife whose talent, youth, and isolation
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_118'>118</span>seemed to render her peculiarly fitted for his
-mate.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Though love was lacking, vanity was strong in
-Canaris, and this was gratified by the commendation
-bestowed on the new ornament he wore;
-for as such simple Gladys was considered, and
-shone with reflected lustre, her finer gifts and
-graces quite eclipsed by his more conspicuous
-and self-asserting ones.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With unquestioning docility she gave herself
-into his hands, following where he led her, obeying
-his lightest wish, and loving him with a
-devotion which kept alive regretful tenderness
-when it should have cherished a loyal love. He
-gladly took her into all the gayety which for a
-time surrounded them, and she enjoyed it with a
-girl’s fresh delight. He showed her wise and
-witty people whom she admired or loved; and she
-looked and listened with an enthusiast’s wonder.
-He gave her all he had to give, novelty and
-pleasure; though the one had lost its gloss for
-him, and too much of the other he was forced to
-accept from Helwyze’s hands. But through all
-the experiences that now rapidly befell her,
-Gladys was still herself; innocently happy,
-stanchly true, characteristically independent,
-a mountain stream, keeping its waters pure and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_119'>119</span>bright, though mingled with the swift and turbid
-river which was hurrying it toward the sea.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Curiosity being satisfied, society soon found
-some fresher novelty to absorb it. Women still
-admired Canaris, but marriage lessened his attractions
-for them; men still thought him full
-of promise, but were fast forgetting the first
-successful effort which had won their applause;
-and the young lion found that he must roar loud
-and often, if he would not be neglected. Shutting
-himself into his cell, he worked with hopeful
-energy for several months, often coming out
-weary, but excited, with the joyful labor of creation.
-At such times there was no prose anywhere;
-for heaven and earth were glorified by
-the light of that inner world, where imagination
-reigns, and all things are divine. Then he would
-be in the gayest spirits, and carry Gladys off
-to some hour of pleasant relaxation at theatre,
-opera, or ball, where flattery refreshed or emulation
-inspired him; and next day would return to
-his task with redoubled vigor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At other times his fickle mistress deserted
-him; thought would not soar, language would
-not sing, poetry fled, and life was unutterably
-“flat, stale, and unprofitable.” Then it was
-Gladys, who took possession of him; lured him
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_120'>120</span>out for a brisk walk, or a long drive into a
-wholesomer world than that into which he took
-her; sung weary brain to sleep with the sweetest
-lullabies of brother bards; or made him
-merry by the display of a pretty wit, which
-none but he knew she could exert. With wifely
-patience and womanly tact she managed her
-wayward but beloved lord, till despondency
-yielded to her skill, and the buoyant spirit of
-hope took him by the hand, and led him to his
-work again.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>In the intervals between these fits of intellectual
-intoxication and succeeding depression,
-Gladys devoted herself to Helwyze with a faithfulness
-which surprised him and satisfied her;
-for, as she said, her “bread tasted bitter if she
-did not earn it.” He had expected to be amused,
-perhaps interested, but not so charmed, by this
-girl, who possessed only a single talent, a modest
-share of beauty, and a mind as untrained as a
-beautiful but neglected garden. This last was
-the real attraction; for, finding her hungry for
-knowledge, he did not hesitate to test her taste
-and try her mental mettle, by allowing her free
-range of a large and varied library. Though
-not a scholar, in the learned sense of the word,
-he had the eager, sceptical nature which interrogates
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_121'>121</span>all things, yet believes only in itself.
-This had kept him roaming solitarily up and
-down the earth for years, observing men and
-manners; now it drove him to books; and, as
-suffering and seclusion wrought upon body and
-brain, his choice of mute companions changed
-from the higher, healthier class to those who, like
-himself, leaned towards the darker, sadder side
-of human nature. Lawless here, as elsewhere,
-he let his mind wander at will, as once he had
-let his heart, learning too late that both are
-sacred gifts, and cannot safely be tampered
-with.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>All was so fresh and wonderful to Gladys,
-that her society grew very attractive to him;
-and pleasant as it was to have her wait upon
-him with quiet zeal, or watch her busied in her
-own corner, studying, or sewing with the little
-basket beside her which gave such a homelike
-air, it was still pleasanter to have her sit and
-read to him, while he watched this face, so intelligent,
-yet so soft; studied this mind, at once
-sensitive and sagacious, this nature, both serious
-and ardent. It gave a curious charm to his old
-favorites when she read them; and many hours
-he listened contentedly to the voice whose youth
-made Montaigne’s worldly wisdom seem the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_122'>122</span>shrewder; whose music gave a certain sweetness
-to Voltaire’s bitter wit or Carlyle’s rough wisdom;
-whose pitying wonder added pathos to the melancholy
-brilliancy of Heine and De Quincy. Equally
-fascinating to him, and far more dangerous to
-her, were George Sand’s passionate romances,
-Goethe’s dramatic novels, Hugo and Sue’s lurid
-word-pictures of suffering and sin; the haunted
-world of Shakespeare and Dante, the poetry of
-Byron, Browning, and Poe.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Rich food and strong wine for a girl of eighteen;
-and Gladys soon felt the effects of such
-a diet, though it was hard to resist when duty
-seconded inclination, and ignorance hid the
-peril. She often paused to question with eager
-lips, to wipe wet eyes, to protest with indignant
-warmth, or to shiver with the pleasurable pain
-of a child who longs, yet dreads, to hear an exciting
-story to the end. Helwyze answered
-willingly, if not always wisely; enjoyed the rapid
-unfolding of the woman, and would not deny
-himself any indulgence of this new whim,
-though conscious that the snow-drop, transplanted
-suddenly from the free fresh spring-time,
-could not live in this close air without suffering.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>This was the double life Gladys now began to
-lead. Heart and mind were divided between
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_123'>123</span>the two, who soon absorbed every feeling,
-every thought. To the younger man she was
-a teacher, to the elder a pupil; in the one world
-she ruled, in the other served; unconsciously
-Canaris stirred emotion to its depths, consciously
-Helwyze stimulated intellect to its
-heights; while the soul of the woman, receiving
-no food from either, seemed to sit apart in
-the wilderness of its new experience, tempted
-by evil as well as sustained by good spirits, who
-guard their own.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>One evening this divided mastery was especially
-felt by Helwyze, who watched the
-young man’s influence over his wife with a
-mixture of interest and something like jealousy, as
-it was evidently fast becoming stronger than his
-own. Sitting in his usual place, he saw Gladys
-flit about the room, brushing up the hearth,
-brightening the lamps, and putting by the finished
-books, as if the day’s duties were all done,
-the evening’s rest and pleasure honestly earned,
-eagerly waited for. He well knew that this
-pleasure consisted in carrying Canaris away to
-her own domain; or, if that were impossible, she
-would sit silently looking at him while he read
-or talked in his fitful fashion on any subject his
-master chose to introduce.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_124'>124</span>The desire to make her forget the husband
-whose neglect would have sorely grieved her if
-his genius had not been his excuse in her eyes
-for many faults, possessed Helwyze that night;
-and he amused himself by the effort, becoming
-more intent with each failure.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As the accustomed hour drew near, Gladys
-took her place on the footstool before the chair
-set ready for Felix, and fell a musing, with her
-eyes on the newly replenished fire. Above, the
-unignited fuel lay black and rough, with here
-and there a deep rift opening to the red core
-beneath; while to and fro danced many colored
-flames, as if bent on some eager quest. Many
-flashed up the chimney, and were gone; others
-died solitarily in dark corners, where no heat fed
-them; and some vanished down the chasms, to the
-fiery world below. One golden spire, tremulous
-and translucent, burned with a brilliance which
-attracted the eye; and, when a wandering violet
-flame joined it, Gladys followed their motions
-with interest, seeing in them images of Felix
-and herself, for childish fancy and womanly insight
-met and mingled in all she thought and
-felt.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Forgetting that she was not alone, she leaned
-forward, to watch what became of them, as the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_125'>125</span>wedded flames flickered here and there, now
-violet, now yellow. But the brighter always
-seemed the stronger, and the sad-colored one to
-grow more and more golden, as if yielding to its
-sunshiny mate.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I hope they will fly up together, out into the
-wide, starry sky, which is their eternity, perhaps,”
-she thought, smiling at her own eagerness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But no; the golden flame flew up, and left the
-other to take on many shapes and colors, as it
-wandered here and there, till, just as it glowed
-with a splendid crimson, Gladys was forced to
-hide her dazzled eyes and look no more. Turning
-her flushed face away, she found Helwyze
-watching her as intently as she had watched the
-fire, and, reminded of his presence, she glanced
-toward the empty chair with an impatient sigh
-for Felix.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are tired,” he said, answering the sigh.
-“Mrs. Bland told me what a notable housewife
-you are, and how you helped her set the upper
-regions to rights to-day. I fear you did too much.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Oh, no, I enjoyed it heartily. I asked for
-something to do, and she allowed me to examine
-and refold the treasures you keep in the great
-carved wardrobe, lest moths or damp or dust had
-hurt the rich stuffs, curious coins, and lovely
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_126'>126</span>ornaments stored there. I never saw so many
-pretty things before,” she answered, betraying,
-by her sudden animation, the love of “pretty
-things,” which is one of the strongest of feminine
-foibles.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He smiled, well pleased.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Olivia calls that quaint press from Brittany
-my bazaar, for there I have collected the spoils
-of my early wanderings; and when I want a
-<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>cadeau</i></span> for a fair friend, I find it without trouble.
-I saw in what exquisite order you left my shelves,
-and, as you were not with me to choose, I
-brought away several trifles, more curious than
-costly, hoping to find a thank-offering among
-them.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As he spoke, he opened one of the deep drawers
-in the writing-table, as if to produce some
-gift. But Gladys said, hastily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are very kind, sir; but these fine things
-are altogether too grand for me. The pleasure
-of looking at and touching them is reward enough;
-unless you will tell me about them: it must be
-interesting to know what places they came from.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Feeling in the mood for it, Helwyze described to
-her an Eastern bazaar, so graphically that she soon
-forgot Felix, and sat looking up as if she actually
-saw and enjoyed the splendors he spoke of.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_127'>127</span>Lustrous silks sultanas were to wear; misty
-muslins, into whose embroidery some dark-skinned
-woman’s life was wrought; cashmeres,
-many-hued as rainbows; odorous woods and
-spices, that filled the air with fragrance never
-blown from Western hills; amber, like drops of
-frozen sunshine; fruits, which brought visions of
-vineyards, olive groves, and lovely palms dropping
-their honeyed clusters by desert wells; skins
-mooned and barred with black upon the tawny
-velvet, that had lain in jungles, or glided with
-deathful stealthiness along the track of human
-feet; ivory tusks that had felled Asiatic trees,
-gored fierce enemies, or meekly lifted princes to
-their seats.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>These, and many more, he painted rapidly; and,
-as he ended, shook out of its folds a gauzy fabric,
-starred with silver, which he threw over her
-head, pointing to the mirror set in the door of
-the <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>armoire</i></span> behind her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“See if that is not too pretty to refuse. Felix
-would surely be inspired if you appeared before
-him shimmering like Suleika, when Hatem says
-to her,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“‘Here, take this, with the pure and silver streaking,</div>
- <div class='line in2'>And wind it, Darling, round and round for me;</div>
- <div class='line'>What is your Highness? Style scarce worth the speaking,</div>
- <div class='line in2'>When thou dost look, I am as great as He.’”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_128'>128</span>Gladys did look, and saw how beautiful it made
-her; but, though she did not understand the
-words he quoted, the names suggested a sultan
-and his slave, and she did not like either the idea
-or the expression with which Helwyze regarded
-her. Throwing off the gauzy veil, she refolded
-and put it by, saying, in that decided little way
-of hers, which was prettier than petulance,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My Hatem does not need that sort of inspiration,
-and had rather see his Suleika in a
-plain gown of his choosing, than dressed in all
-the splendors of the East by any other hand.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Come, then, we must find some better <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>souvenir</i></span>
-of your visit, for I never let any one go away
-empty-handed;” with that he dipped again into
-the drawer, and held up a pretty bracelet, explaining,
-as he offered it with unruffled composure,
-though she eyed it askance, attracted, yet
-reluctant, a charming picture of doubt and desire,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Here are the Nine Muses, cut in many-tinted
-lava. See how well the workman suited the color
-to the attribute of each Muse. Urania is blue;
-Erato, this soft pink; Terpsichore, violet; Euterpe
-and Thalia, black and white; and the others,
-these fine shades of yellow, dun, and drab. That
-pleases you, I know; so let me put it on.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_129'>129</span>It did please her; and she stretched out her
-hand to accept it, gratified, yet conscious all the
-while of the antagonistic spirit which often seized
-her when with Helwyze. He put on the bracelet
-with a satisfied air; but the clasp was imperfect,
-and, at the first turn of the round wrist,
-the Nine Muses fell to the ground.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is too heavy. I am not made to wear handcuffs
-of any sort, you see: they will not stay on,
-so it is of no use to try;” and Gladys picked up
-the trinket with an odd sense of relief; though
-poor Erato was cracked, and Thalia, like Fielding’s
-fair Amelia, had a broken nose. She rose
-to lay it on the table, and, as she turned away,
-her eye went to the clock, as if reproaching herself
-for that brief forgetfulness of her husband.
-Half amused, half annoyed, and bent on having
-his own way, even in so small a thing as this,
-Helwyze drew up a chair, and, setting a Japanese
-tray upon the table, said, invitingly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Come and see if these are more to your taste,
-since fine raiment and foolish ornaments fail to
-tempt you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Oh, how curious and beautiful!” cried Gladys,
-looking down upon a collection of Hindoo gods
-and goddesses, in ebony or ivory: some hideous,
-some lovely, all carved with wonderful delicacy,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_130'>130</span>and each with its appropriate symbol,—Vishnu,
-and his serpent; Brahma, in the sacred lotus; Siva,
-with seven faces; Kreeshna, the destroyer, with
-many mouths; Varoon, god of the ocean; and
-Kama, the Indian Cupid, bearing his bow of
-sugar-cane strung with bees, to typify love’s sting
-as well as sweetness. This last Gladys examined
-longest, and kept in her hand as if it charmed
-her; for the minute face of the youth was beautiful,
-the slender figure full of grace, and the ivory
-spotless.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You choose him for your idol? and well you
-may, for he looks like Felix. Mine, if I have one,
-is Siva, goddess of Fate, ugly, but powerful.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will have no idol,—not even Felix, though
-I sometimes fear I may make one of him before I
-know it;” and Gladys put back the little figure
-with a guilty look, as she confessed the great
-temptation that beset her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are wise: idols are apt to have feet of
-clay, and tumble down in spite of our blind adoration.
-Better be a Buddhist, and have no god but
-our own awakened thought; ‘the highest wisdom,’
-as it is called,” said Helwyze, who had
-lately been busy with the Sâkya Muni, and regarded
-all religions with calm impartiality.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“These are false gods, and we are done with
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_131'>131</span>them, since we know the true one,” began Gladys,
-understanding him; for she had read aloud the
-life of Gautama Buddha, and enjoyed it as a
-legend; while he found its mystic symbolism
-attractive, and nothing repellent in its idolatry.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But do we? How can you prove it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It needs no proving; the knowledge of it
-was born in me, grows with my growth, and is
-the life of my life,” cried Gladys, out of the fulness
-of that natural religion which requires no
-revelation except such as experience brings to
-strengthen and purify it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All are not so easily satisfied as you,” he
-said, in the sceptical tone which always tried both
-her patience and her courage; for, woman-like,
-she could feel the truth of things, but could not
-reason about them. He saw her face kindle,
-and added, rapidly, having a mind to try how
-firmly planted the faith of the pretty Puritan was:
-“Most of us agree that Allah exists in some
-form or other, but we fall out about who is the
-true Prophet. You choose Jesus of Nazareth
-for yours; I rather incline to this Indian Saint.
-They are not unlike: this Prince left all to devote
-his life to the redemption of mankind, suffered
-persecutions and temptations, had his
-disciples, and sent out the first apostles of whom
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_132'>132</span>we hear; was a teacher, with his parables, miracles,
-and belief in transmigration or immortality.
-His doctrine is almost the same as the other;
-and the six virtues which secure Nirvâna, or
-Heaven, are charity, purity, patience, courage,
-contemplation, and wisdom. Come, why not
-take him for a model?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys listened with a mixture of perplexity
-and pain in her face, and her hand went involuntarily
-to the little cross which she always
-wore; but, though her eye was troubled, her
-voice was steady, as she answered, earnestly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Because I have a nobler one. My Prince
-left a greater throne than yours to serve mankind;
-suffered and resisted more terrible persecution
-and temptation; sent out wiser apostles,
-taught clearer truth, and preached an immortality
-for all. Yours died peacefully in the arms
-of his friends, mine on a cross; and, though
-he came later, he has saved more souls than
-Buddha. Sir, I know little about those older
-religions; I am not wise enough even to argue
-about my own: I can only believe in it, love it,
-and hold fast to it, since it is all I need.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How can you tell till you try others? This,
-now, is a fine one, if we are not too bigoted to
-look into it fairly. Wise men, who have done
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_133'>133</span>so, say that no faith—not even the Christian—has
-exercised so powerful an influence on the
-diminution of crime as the old, simple doctrine
-of Sâkya Muni; and this is the only great historic
-religion that has not taken the sword to
-put down its enemies. Can you say as much
-for yours?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No; but it is worth fighting for, and I <em>would</em>
-fight, as the Maid of Orleans did for France,
-for this is my country. Can you say of <em>your</em>
-faith that it sustained you in sorrow, made
-you happy in loneliness, saved you from temptation,
-taught, guided, blessed you day by day
-with unfailing patience, wisdom, and love? I
-think you cannot; then why try to take mine
-away till you can give me a better?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Seldom was Gladys so moved as now, for she
-felt as if he was about to meddle with her holy
-of holies; and, without stopping to reason, she
-resisted the attempt, sure that he would harm,
-not help, her, since neither his words nor example
-had done Felix any good.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze admired her all the more for her
-resistance, and thought her unusually lovely, as
-she stood there flushed and fervent with her
-plea for the faith that was so dear to her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why, indeed! You would make an excellent
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_134'>134</span>martyr, and enjoy it. Pity that you have
-no chance of it, and so of being canonized as a
-saint afterward. That is decidedly your line.
-Then, you won’t have any of my gods? not even
-this one?” he asked, holding up the handsome
-Kama, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, not even that. I will have only one
-God, and you may keep your idols for those who
-believe in them. My faith may not be the oldest,
-but it <em>is</em> the best, if one may judge of the
-two religions by the happiness and peace they
-give,” answered Gladys, taking refuge in a very
-womanly, yet most convincing, argument, she
-thought, as she pointed to the mirror, which reflected
-both figures in its clear depths.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze looked, and though without an atom
-of vanity, the sight could not but be trying, the
-contrast was so great between her glad, young
-face, and his, so melancholy and prematurely
-old.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Satma, Tama—Truth and Darkness,” he
-muttered to himself; adding aloud, with a
-vengeful sort of satisfaction in shocking her
-pious nature,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But <em>I</em> have no religion; so that defiant little
-speech is quite thrown away, my friend.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It did shock her; for, though she had suspected
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_135'>135</span>the fact, there was something dreadful
-in hearing him confess it, in a tone which proved
-his sincerity.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mr. Helwyze, do you really mean that you
-believe in nothing invisible and divine? no life
-beyond this? no God, no Christ to bless and
-save?” she asked, hardly knowing how to put
-the question, as she drew back dismayed, but
-still incredulous.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He was both surprised, and rather annoyed, to
-find that it cost him an effort to give even that
-short answer, with those innocent eyes looking
-so anxiously up at him, full of a sad wonder,
-then dim with sudden dew, as she said eagerly,
-forgetting every thing but a great compassion,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“O sir, it is impossible! You think so now;
-but when you love and trust some human creature
-more than yourself, then you will find that
-you do believe in Him who gives such happiness,
-and be glad to own it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Perhaps. Meantime <em>you</em> will not make me
-happy by letting me give you any thing; why is
-it, Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The black brows were knit, and he looked
-impatient with himself or her. She saw it, and
-exclaimed with the sweetest penitence,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_136'>136</span>“Give me your pardon for speaking so frankly.
-I mean no disrespect; but I cannot help it when
-you say such things, though I know that gratitude
-should keep me silent.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I like it. Do not take yourself to task for
-that, or trouble about me. There are many
-roads, and sooner or later we shall all reach
-heaven, I suppose,—if there is one,” he added,
-with a shrug, which spoiled the smile that went
-before.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_137'>137</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>X.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Gladys stood silent for a moment, with
-her eyes fixed on the little figures, longing
-for wisdom to convince this man, whom she
-regarded with mingled pity, admiration and distrust,
-that he could not walk by his own light
-alone. He guessed the impulse that kept her
-there, longed to have her stay, and felt a sudden
-desire to reinstate himself in her good opinion.
-That wish, or the hope to keep her by some
-new and still more powerful allurement, seemed
-to actuate him as he hastily thrust the gods
-and goddesses out of sight, and opened another
-drawer, with a quick glance over his shoulder
-towards that inner room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At that instant the clock struck, and Gladys
-started, saying, in a tone of fond despair,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where <em>is</em> Felix? Will he never come?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I heard him raging about some time ago, but
-perfect silence followed, so I suspect he caught
-the tormenting word, idea, or fancy, and is busy
-pinning it,” answered Helwyze, shutting the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_138'>138</span>drawer as suddenly as he opened it, with a
-frown which Gladys did not see; for she had
-turned away, forgetting him and his salvation in
-the one absorbing interest of her life.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How long it takes to write a poem! Three
-whole months, for he began in September; and
-it was not to be a long one, he said.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He means this to be a masterpiece, so labors
-like a galley-slave, and can find no rest till it is
-done. Good practice, but to little purpose, I am
-afraid. Poetry, even the best, is not profitable
-now-a-days, I am told,” added Helwyze, speaking
-with a sort of satisfaction which he could not
-conceal.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who cares for the profit? It is the fame
-Felix wants, and works for,” answered Gladys,
-defending the absent with wifely warmth.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“True, but he would not reject the fortune if
-it came. He is not one of the ethereal sort, who
-can live on glory and a crust; his gingerbread
-must not only be gilded, but solid and well-spiced
-beside. You adore your poet, respect also the
-worldly wisdom of your spouse, madame.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>When Helwyze sneered, Gladys was silent;
-so now she mused again, leaning on the high
-back of the chair which she longed to see occupied.
-He mused also, with his eyes upon the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_139'>139</span>fire, fingers idly tapping, and a furtive smile
-round his mouth, as if some purpose was taking
-shape in that busy brain of his. Suddenly he
-spoke, in a tone of kindly interest, well knowing
-where her thoughts were, and anxious to end
-her weary waiting.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Perhaps the poor fellow has fallen asleep,
-tired out with striving after immortality. Go
-and wake him, if you will, for it is time he
-rested.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“May I? He does not like to be disturbed;
-but I fear he is ill: he has eaten scarcely any
-thing for days, and looks so pale it troubles me.
-I will peep first; and if he is busy, creep away
-without a word.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Stepping toward the one forbidden, yet most
-fascinating spot in all the house, she softly
-opened the door and looked in. Canaris was
-there, apparently asleep, as Helwyze thought; for
-his head lay on his folded arms as if both were
-weary. Glancing over her shoulder with a nod
-and a smile, Gladys went in, anxious to wake
-and comfort him; for the little room looked
-solitary, dark, and cold, with dead ashes on the
-hearth, the student lamp burning dimly, and the
-food she had brought him hours ago still standing
-untasted, among the blotted sheets strewn
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_140'>140</span>all about. At her first touch he looked up,
-and she was frightened by the expression of his
-face, it was so desperately miserable.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear, what is it?” she asked, quickly, with
-her arms about him, as if defying the unknown
-trouble to reach him there.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Disappointment,—nothing else;” and he
-leaned his head against her, grateful for sympathy,
-since she could give no other help.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You mean your book, which does not satisfy
-you even yet?” she said, interpreting the significance
-of the weary, yet restless, look he wore.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It never will! I have toiled and tried, with
-all my heart and soul and mind, if ever a man
-did; but I cannot do it, Gladys. It torments
-me, and I cannot escape from it; because, though
-it is all here in my brain, it <em>will not</em> be expressed
-in words.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do not try any more; rest now, and by and
-by, perhaps, it will be easier. You have worked
-too hard, and are worn out; forget the book, and
-come and let me take care of you. It breaks my
-heart to see you so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I was doing it for your sake,—all for you;
-and I thought this time it would be very good,
-since my purpose was a just and generous one.
-But it is not, and I hate it!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_141'>141</span>With a passionate gesture, Canaris hurled a
-pile of manuscript into the further corner of the
-room, and pushed his wife from him, as if she
-too were an affliction and a disappointment. It
-grieved her bitterly; but she would not be repulsed;
-and, holding fast in both her own the
-hand that was about to grasp another sheaf of
-papers, she cried, with a tone of tender authority,
-which both controlled and touched him,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, no, you shall not, Felix! Put me away,
-but do not spoil the book; it has cost us both
-too much.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not you; forgive me, it is myself with
-whom I am vexed;” and Canaris penitently
-kissed the hands that held his, remembering
-that she could not know the true cause of his
-effort and regret.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I <em>shall</em> be jealous, if I find that I have given
-you up so long in vain. I must have something
-to repay me for the loss of your society all this
-weary time. I have worked to fill your place:
-give me my reward.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Have you missed me, then? I thought you
-happy enough with Helwyze and the books.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Missed you! happy enough! O Felix! you
-do not know me, if you think I <em>can</em> be happy
-without you. He is kind, but only a friend; and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_142'>142</span>all the books in the wide world are not as much
-to me as the one you treat so cruelly.” She
-clasped tightly the hands she held, and looked
-into his face with eyes full of unutterable love.
-Such tender flattery could not but soothe, such
-tearful reproach fail to soften, a far prouder,
-harder man than Canaris.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What reward will you have?” he asked,
-making an effort to be cheerful for her sake.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Eat, drink, and rest; then read me every
-word you have written. I am no critic; but I
-would try to be impartial: love makes even the
-ignorant wise, and I shall see the beauty which
-I know is in it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I put you there, or tried; so truth and beauty
-should be in it. Some time you shall hear it, but
-not now. I could not read it to-night, perhaps
-never; it is such a poor, pale shadow of the
-thing I meant it to be.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let me read it,” said a voice behind them;
-and Helwyze stood upon the threshold, wearing
-his most benignant aspect.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You?” ejaculated Canaris; while Gladys
-shrunk a little, as if the proposition did not
-please her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why not? Young poets never read their
-own verses well; yet what could be more soothing
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_143'>143</span>to the most timorous or vain than to hear
-them read by an admiring and sympathetic
-friend? Come, let me have my reward, as well
-as Gladys;” and Helwyze laid his hand upon the
-unscattered pile of manuscript.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A penance, rather. It is so blurred, so rough,
-you could not read it; then the fatigue,”—began
-Canaris, pleased, yet reluctant still.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I can read any thing, make rough places
-smooth, and not tire, for I have a great interest
-in this story. He has shown me some of it, and
-it <em>is</em> good.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze spoke to Gladys, and his last words
-conquered her reluctance, whetted her curiosity;
-he looked at Canaris, and his glance inspired
-hope, his offer tempted, for his voice could make
-music of any thing, his praise would be both
-valuable and cheering.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let him, Felix, since he is so kind, I so impatient
-that I do not want to wait;” and Gladys
-went to gather up the leaves, which had flown
-wildly about the room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Leave those, I will sort them while you begin.
-The first part is all here. I am sick of it,
-and so will you be, before you are through. Go,
-love, or I may revoke permission, and make the
-bonfire yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_144'>144</span>Canaris laughed as he waved her away; and
-Gladys, seeing that the cloud had lifted, willingly
-obeyed, lingering only to give a touch to the
-dainty luncheon, which was none the worse for
-being cold.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear, eat and drink, then <em>my</em> feast will be
-the sweeter.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will; I’ll eat and drink stupendously when
-you are gone; I wish you <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>bon appetit</i></span>,” he said,
-filling the glass, and smiling as he drank.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Contented now, Gladys hurried away, to find
-Helwyze already seated by the study-table, with
-the manuscript laid open before him. He looked
-up, wearing an expression of such pleasurable
-excitement, that it augured well for what was
-coming, and she slipped into the chair beside
-the one set ready for Canaris on the opposite
-side of the hearth, still hoping he would come
-and take it. Helwyze began, and soon she forgot
-every thing,—carried away by the smoothly
-flowing current of the story which he read so
-well. A metrical romance, such as many a lover
-might have imagined in the first inspiration of
-the great passion, but few could have painted
-with such skill. A very human story, but all
-the truer and sweeter for that fact. The men
-and women in it were full of vitality and color;
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_145'>145</span>their faces spoke, hearts beat, words glowed;
-and they seemed to live before the listener’s eye,
-as if endowed with eloquent flesh and blood.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys forgot their creator utterly, but Helwyze
-did not; and even while reading on with
-steadily increasing effect, glanced now and then
-towards that inner room, where, after a moment
-of unnecessary bustle, perfect silence reigned.
-Presently a shadow flickered on the ceiling, a
-shadow bent as if listening eagerly, though not
-a sound betrayed its approach as it seemed to
-glide and vanish behind the tall screen which
-stood before the door. Gladys saw nothing,
-her face being intent upon the reader, her
-thoughts absorbed in following the heart-history
-of the woman in whom she could not help finding
-a likeness to herself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze saw the shadow, however, and
-laughed inwardly, as if to see the singer irresistibly
-drawn by his own music. But no visible
-smile betrayed this knowledge; and the tale
-went on with deepening power and pathos, till
-at its most passionate point he paused.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Go on; oh, pray go on!” cried Gladys,
-breathlessly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Are you not tired of it?” asked Helwyze;
-with a keen look.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_146'>146</span>“No, no! You are? Then let me read.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not I; but there is no more here. Ask
-Felix if we <em>may</em> go on.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I must! I will! Where is he?” and Gladys
-hurried round the screen, to find Canaris flung
-down anyway upon a seat, looking almost as
-excited as herself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah,” she cried, delightedly, “you could not
-keep away! You know that it is good, and
-you are glad and proud, although you will not
-own it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Am I? Are you?” he asked, reading the
-answer in her face, before she could whisper,
-with the look of mingled awe and adoration
-which she always wore when speaking of him
-as a poet,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never can I tell you what I feel. It almost
-frightens me to find how well you know me and
-yourself, and other hearts like ours. What gives
-you this wonderful power, and shows you how to
-use it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Don’t praise it too much, or I shall wish I
-had destroyed, instead of re-sorting, the second
-part for you to hear.” Canaris spoke almost
-roughly, and rose, as if about to go and do it
-now. But Gladys caught his hand, saying gayly,
-as she drew him out into the fire-light with persuasive
-energy,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_147'>147</span>“That you shall never do; but come and enjoy
-it with us. You need not be so modest, for
-you know you like it. Now I am perfectly
-happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She looked so, as she saw her husband sink into
-the tall-backed chair, and took her place beside
-him, laughing at the almost comic mixture of
-sternness, resignation, and impatience betrayed
-by his set lips, silent acquiescence, and excited
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Now we are ready;” and Gladys folded her
-hands with the rapturous contentment of a child
-at its first fairy spectacle.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All but the story. I will fetch it;” and Helwyze
-stepped quickly behind the screen before
-either could stir.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys half rose, but Canaris drew her down
-again, whispering, in an almost resentful tone,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let him, if he will; you wait on him too
-much. I put the papers in order; he will read
-them easily enough.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nay, do not be angry, dear; he does it to
-please me, and surely no one could read it better.
-I know you would feel too much to do it well,”
-she answered, her hand in his, with its most
-soothing touch.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was no time for more. Helwyze returned,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_148'>148</span>and, after a hasty resettling of the manuscript,
-read on, without pausing, to the story’s
-end, as if unconscious of fatigue, and bent on
-doing justice to the power of the <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>protégé</i></span> whose
-success was his benefactor’s best reward. At
-first, Gladys glanced at her husband from time
-to time; but presently the living man beside
-her grew less real than that other, who, despite
-a new name and country, strange surroundings,
-and far different circumstances, was so unmistakably
-the same, that she could not help feeling
-and following his fate to its close, with an interest
-almost as intense as if, in very truth, she saw
-Canaris going to his end. Her interest in the
-woman lessened, and was lost in her eagerness
-to have the hero worthy of the love she gave,
-the honor others felt for him; and, when the
-romance brought him to defeat and death, she
-was so wrought upon by this illusion, that she
-fell into a passion of sudden tears, weeping as
-she had never wept before.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Felix sat motionless, his hand over his eyes,
-lips closely folded, lest they should betray too
-much emotion; the irresistible conviction that
-it <em>was</em> good, strengthening every instant, till
-he felt only the fascination and excitement of
-an hour, which foretold others even more delicious.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_149'>149</span>When the tale ended, the melodious
-voice grew silent, and nothing was heard but
-the eloquent sobbing of a woman. Words seemed
-unnecessary, and none were uttered for several
-minutes, then Helwyze asked briefly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Shall we burn it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As briefly Canaris answered “No;” and
-Gladys, quickly recovering the self-control so
-seldom lost, looked up with “a face, clear shining
-after rain,” as she said in the emphatic tone
-of deepest feeling,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It would be like burning a live thing. But,
-Felix, you must not kill that man: I cannot
-have him die so. Let him live to conquer all
-his enemies, the worst in himself; then, if you
-must end tragically, let the woman go; she
-would not care, if he were safe.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But she is the heroine of the piece; and, if it
-does not end with her lamenting over the fallen
-hero, the dramatic point is lost,” said Helwyze;
-for Canaris had sprung up, and was walking
-restlessly about the room, as if the spirits he
-had evoked were too strong to be laid even by
-himself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I know nothing about that; but I feel the
-moral point would be lost, if it is not changed.
-Surely, powerful as pity is, a lofty admiration is
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_150'>150</span>better; and this poem would be nobler, in every
-way, if that man ends by living well, than by
-dying ignominiously in spite of his courage. I
-cannot explain it, but I am sure it is so; and
-I will not let Felix spoil his best piece of work
-by such a mistake.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you like it? You would be happy if I
-changed and let it go before the world, for your
-sake more than for my own?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris paused beside her, pale with some
-emotion stronger than gratified vanity or ambitious
-hope. Gladys thought it was love; and,
-carried out of herself by the tender pride that
-overflowed her heart and would not be controlled,
-she let an action, more eloquent than any
-words, express the happiness she was the first
-to feel, the homage she would be the first to pay.
-Kneeling before him, she clasped her hands together,
-and looked up at him with cheeks still
-wet, lips still tremulous, eyes still full of wonder,
-admiration, fervent gratitude, and love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>In one usually so self-restrained as Gladys
-such joyful abandonment was doubly captivating
-and impressive. Canaris felt it so; and,
-lifting her up, pressed her to a heart whose
-loud throbbing thanked her, even while he
-gently turned her face away, as if he could not
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_151'>151</span>bear to see and receive such worship from so
-pure a source. The unexpected humility in his
-voice touched her strangely, and made her feel
-more deeply than ever how genuine was the
-genius which should yet make him great, as well
-as beloved.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will do what you wish, for you see more
-clearly than I. You <em>shall</em> be happy, and I <em>will</em>
-be proud of doing it, even if no one else sees any
-good in my work.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“They will! they must! It may not be the
-grandest thing you will ever do, but it is so
-human, it cannot fail to touch and charm; and
-to me that is as great an act as to astonish or
-dazzle by splendid learning or wonderful wit.
-Make it noble as well as beautiful, then people
-will love as well as praise you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will try, Gladys. I see now what I
-should have written, and—if I can—it shall be
-done.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I promised you inspiration, you remember:
-have I not kept my word?” asked Helwyze,
-forgotten, and content to be forgotten, until
-now.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris looked up quickly; but there was
-no gratitude in his face, as he answered, with
-his hand on the head he pressed against his
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_152'>152</span>shoulder, and a certain subdued passion in his
-voice,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have: not the highest inspiration; but,
-if <em>she</em> is happy, it will atone for much.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_153'>153</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XI.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>And Gladys <em>was</em> happy for a little while.
-Canaris labored doggedly till all was
-finished as she wished. Helwyze lent the aid
-which commands celerity; and early in the new
-year the book came out, to win for itself and its
-author the admiration and regard she had prophesied.
-But while the outside world, with which
-she had little to do except through her husband,
-rejoiced over him and his work, she, in her own
-small world, where he was all in all, was finding
-cause to wonder and grieve at the change which
-took place in him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have done my task, now let me play,” he
-said; and play he did, quite as energetically as
-he had worked, though to far less purpose.
-Praise seemed to intoxicate him, for he appeared
-to forget every thing else, and bask in its sunshine,
-as if he never could have enough of it.
-His satisfaction would have been called egregious
-vanity, had it not been so gracefully expressed,
-and the work done so excellent that all
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_154'>154</span>agreed the young man had a right to be proud
-of it, and enjoy his reward as he pleased. He
-went out much, being again caressed and fêted
-to his heart’s content, leaving Gladys to amuse
-Helwyze; for a very little of this sort of gayety
-satisfied her, and there was something painful
-to her in the almost feverish eagerness with
-which her husband sought and enjoyed excitement
-of all kinds. Glad and proud though she
-was, it troubled her to see him as utterly engrossed
-as if existence had no higher aim than
-the most refined and varied pleasure; and she
-began to feel that, though the task was done,
-she had not got him back again from that other
-mistress, who seemed to have bewitched him with
-her dazzling charms.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He will soon have enough of it, and return
-to us none the worse. Remember how young
-he is; how natural that he should love pleasure
-overmuch, when he gets it, since he has had so
-little hitherto,” said Helwyze, answering the
-silent trouble in the face of Gladys; for she
-never spoke of her daily increasing anxiety.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But it does not seem to make him happy;
-and for that reason I sometimes think it cannot
-be the best kind of pleasure for him,” answered
-Gladys, remembering how flushed and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_155'>155</span>weary he had been when he came in last night,
-so late that it was nearly dawn.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is one who will taste all kinds, and not
-be contented till he has had his fill. Roaming
-about Europe with that bad, brilliant father
-of his gave him glimpses of many things which
-he was too poor to enjoy then, but not too young
-to remember and desire now, when it is possible
-to gratify the wish. Let him go, he will
-come back to you when he is tired. It is the
-only way to manage him, I find.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Gladys did not think so; and, finding that
-Helwyze would not speak, she resolved that she
-would venture to do it, for many things disturbed
-her, which wifely loyalty forbade her to repeat;
-as well as a feeling that Helwyze would not
-see cause for anxiety in her simple fears, since
-he encouraged Felix in this reckless gayety.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Some hours later, she found Canaris newly
-risen, sitting at his <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>escritoire</i></span> in their own room,
-with a strew of gold and notes before him, which
-he affected to be counting busily; though when
-she entered she had seen him in a despondent
-attitude, doing nothing.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How pale you look. Why will you stay so
-late and get these weary headaches?” she
-asked, stroking the thick locks off his forehead
-with a caressing touch.</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'><span class='pageno' id='Page_156'>156</span>“‘Too late I stayed, forgive the crime;</div>
- <div class='line in2'>Unheeded flew the hours;</div>
- <div class='line'>For lightly falls the foot of time,</div>
- <div class='line in2'>That only treads on flowers.’”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>sang Canaris, looking up at her with an assumption
-of mirth, sadder than the melancholy which
-it could not wholly hide.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You make light of it, Felix; but I am sure
-you will fall ill, if you do not get more sleep and
-quieter dreams,” she said, still smoothing the
-glossy dark rings of which she was so proud.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“<span lang="it" xml:lang="it"><i>Cara mia</i></span>, what do you know about my
-dreams?” he asked, with a hint of surprise in
-the manner, which was still careless.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You toss about, and talk so wildly sometimes,
-that it troubles me to hear you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will stop it at once. What do I talk
-about? Something amusing, I hope,” he asked,
-quickly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That I cannot tell, for you speak in French
-or Italian; but you sigh terribly, and often seem
-angry or excited about something.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is odd. I do not remember my
-dreams, but it is little wonder my poor wits
-are distraught, after all they have been through
-lately. Did I talk last night, and spoil your
-sleep, love?” asked Canaris, idly piling up a
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_157'>157</span>little heap of coins, though listening intently
-for her reply.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes: you seemed very busy, and said more
-than once, ‘<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Le jeu est fait, rien ne va plus.</span>’
-‘<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Rouge gagne et couleur</span>,’—or, ‘<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Rouge perd
-et couleur gagne</span>.’ I know what those words
-mean, because I have read them in a novel;
-and they trouble me from your lips, Felix.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I must have been dreaming of a week I once
-spent in Homberg, with my father. We don’t
-do that sort of thing here.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not under the same name, perhaps. Dear,
-do you ever play?” asked Gladys, leaning her
-cheek against the head which had sunk a little,
-as he leaned forward to smooth out the crumpled
-notes before him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why not? One must amuse one’s self.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not so. Please promise that you will try
-some safer way? This is not—honest.” She
-hesitated over the last word, for his tone had
-been short and sharp, but uttered it bravely,
-and stole an arm about his neck, mutely asking
-pardon for the speech which cost her so much.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What is? Life is all a lottery, and one
-must keep trying one’s luck while the wheel
-goes round; for prizes are few and blanks
-many, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_158'>158</span>“Ah, do not speak in that reckless way.
-Forgive me for asking questions; but you are all
-I have, and I must take care of you, since no one
-else has the right.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Or the will. Ask what you please. I will
-tell you any thing, my visible conscience;” and
-Canaris took her in the circle of his arm, subdued
-by the courageous tenderness that made
-her what he called her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is that all yours?” she whispered, pointing a
-small forefinger rather sternly at the money before
-him, and sweetening the question with a kiss.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, it is yours, every penny of it. Put it in
-the little drawer, and make merry with it, else I
-shall be sorry I won it for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That I cannot do. Please do not ask me.
-There is always enough in the little drawer for
-me, and I like better to use the money you have
-earned.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Say, rather, the salary which <em>you</em> earn and <em>I</em>
-spend. It is all wrong, Gladys; but I cannot
-help it!” and Canaris pushed away his winnings,
-as if he despised them and himself.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is my fault that you did this, because I
-begged you not to let Mr. Helwyze give me so
-much. I can take any thing from you, for I love
-you, but not from him; so you try to make me
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_159'>159</span>think you have enough to gratify my every wish.
-Is not that true?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes: I hate to have you accept any thing
-from him, and find it harder to do so myself,
-than before you came. Yet I cannot help liking
-play; for it is an inherited taste, and he
-knows it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And does not warn you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not he: I inherit my father’s luck as well as
-skill, and Helwyze enjoys hearing of my success
-in this, as in other things. We used to play
-together, till he tired of it. There is nothing
-equal to it when one is tormented with <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>ennui</i></span>!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Felix, I fear that, though a kind friend, he is
-not a wise one. Why does he encourage your
-vices, and take no interest in strengthening your
-virtues? Forgive me, but we all have both, and
-I want you to be as good as you are gifted,” she
-said, with such an earnest, tender face, he could
-not feel offended.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He does not care for that. The contest between
-the good and evil in me interests him most,
-for he knows how to lay his hand on the weak or
-wicked spots in a man’s heart; and playing with
-other people’s passions is his favorite amusement.
-Have you not discovered this?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris spoke gloomily, and Gladys shivered
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_160'>160</span>as she held him closer, and answered in a
-whisper,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, I feel as if under a microscope when
-with him; yet he is very kind to me, and very
-patient with my ignorance. Felix, is he trying
-to discover the evil in me, when he gives me
-strange things to read, and sits watching me
-while I do it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“<span lang="de" xml:lang="de"><i>Gott bewahre!</i></span>—but of this I am sure, he
-will find no evil in you, my white-souled little
-wife, unless he puts it there. Gladys, refuse to
-read what pains and puzzles you. I will not let
-him vex your peace. Can he not be content
-with me, since I am his, body and soul?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris put her hastily away, to walk the room
-with a new sense of wrong hot within him at
-the thought of the dangers into which he had
-brought her against his will. But Gladys, caring
-only for him, ventured to add, with her kindling
-eyes upon his troubled face,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will not let him vex <em>your</em> peace! Refuse
-to do the things which you feel are wrong, lest
-what are only pleasures now may become terrible
-temptations by and by. I love and trust you
-as he never can; I will not believe your vices
-stronger than your virtues; and I will defend
-you, if he tries to harm the husband God has
-given me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_161'>161</span>“Bless you for that! it is so long since I have
-had any one to care for me, that I forget my
-duty to you. I am tired of all this froth and
-folly; I will stay at home hereafter; that will be
-safest, if not happiest.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He began impetuously, but his voice fell, and
-was almost inaudible at the last word, as he
-turned away to hide the expression of regret
-which he could not disguise. But Gladys heard
-and saw, and the vague fear which sometimes
-haunted her stirred again, and took form in the
-bitter thought, “Home is not happy: am I the
-cause?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She put it from her instantly, as if doubt were
-dishonor, and spoke out in the cordial tone which
-always cheered and soothed him,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It shall be both, if I can make it so. Let
-me try, and perhaps I can do for you what Mr.
-Helwyze says I have done for him,—caused him
-to forget his troubles, and be glad he is alive.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris swung round with a peculiar expression
-on his face.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He says that, does he? Then he is satisfied
-with his bargain! I thought as much, though
-he never condescended to confess it to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What bargain, Felix?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The pair of us. We were costly, but he got
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_162'>162</span>us, as he gets every thing he sets his heart upon.
-He was growing tired of me; but when I would
-have gone, he kept me, by making it possible for
-me to win you for myself—and him. Six
-months between us have shown you this, I
-know, and it is in vain to hide from you how
-much I long to break away and be free again—if
-I ever can.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He looked ready to break away at once, and
-Gladys sympathized with him, seeing now the
-cause of his unrest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I know the feeling, for I too am tired of this
-life; not because it is so quiet, but so divided.
-I want to live for you alone, no matter how poor
-and humble my place may be. Now I am so
-little with you, I sometimes feel as if I should
-grow less and less to you, till I am nothing but
-a burden and a stumbling-block. Can we not
-go, and be happy somewhere else? must we stay
-here all our lives?” she asked, confessing the
-desire which had been strengthening rapidly of
-late.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“While he lives I must stay, if he wants me.
-I cannot be ungrateful. Remember all he has
-done for me. It will not be long to wait, perhaps.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris spoke hurriedly, as if regretting his
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_163'>163</span>involuntary outburst, and anxious to atone for it
-by the submission which always seemed at war
-with some stronger, if not nobler, sentiment.
-Gladys sat silent, lost in thought; while her husband
-swept the ill-gotten money into a drawer,
-and locked it up, as if relieved to have it out of
-sight. Soon the cloud lifted, however; and going
-to him, as he stood at the window, looking out
-with the air of a caged eagle, she said, with her
-hand upon his arm,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are right: we <em>will</em> be grateful and patient;
-but while we wait we must work, because
-in that one always finds strength and comfort.
-What can we do to earn the wherewithal to
-found our own little home upon when this is
-gone? I have nothing valuable; have you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing but this;” and he touched the
-bright head beside him, recalling the moment
-when she said her hair was all the gold she had.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys remembered it as well, and the promise
-then made to help him, both as wife and
-woman. The time seemed to have come; and,
-taking counsel of her own integrity, she had
-dared to speak in the “sincere voice that made
-truth sweeter than falsehood.” Now she tried,
-in her simple way, to show how the self-respect
-he seemed in danger of losing might be preserved
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_164'>164</span>by a task whose purpose would be both
-salvation and reward.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then let the wit inside this head of mine
-show you how to turn an honest penny,” she
-began, unfolding her plan with an enthusiasm
-which redeemed its most prosaic features. “Mr.
-Helwyze says that even the best poetry is not
-profitable, except in fame. That you already
-have; and pride and pleasure in the new book is
-enough, without spoiling it by being vexed about
-the money it may bring. But you can use your
-pen in other ways, before it is time to write
-another poem. One of these ways is the translation
-of that curious Spanish book you were
-speaking of the other day. That will bring
-something, as it is rare and old; and you, that
-have half a dozen languages at your tongue’s
-end, can easily find plenty of such work, now
-that you do not absolutely need it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That sounds a little bitter, Gladys. Don’t
-let my resentful temper spoil your sweet one.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am learning fast; among other things, that
-to him who hath, more shall be given; so you,
-being a successful man, may hope for plenty of
-help from all <em>now</em>, though you were left to starve,
-when a kind word would have saved you so
-much suffering,” Gladys answered, not bitterly,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_165'>165</span>but with a woman’s pitiful memory of the wrongs
-done those dearest her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“God knows it would!” ejaculated Canaris,
-with unusual fervor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mr. Helwyze remembers that, I think; and
-this is perhaps the reason why he is so generous
-now. Too much so for your good, I fear; and so
-I speak, because, young as I am, I cannot help
-trying to watch over you, as a wife should.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I like it, Gladys. I am old, in many things,
-for my years, but a boy still in love, and you
-must teach me how to be worthy of all you give
-so generously and sweetly.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do I give the most?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All women do, they say. But go on, and
-tell the rest of this fine plan of yours. While I
-use my polyglot accomplishments, what becomes
-of you?” he asked, hastily returning to the
-safer subject; for the wistful look in her eyes
-smote him to the heart.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I work also. You are still Mr. Helwyze’s
-<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>homme d’affaires</i></span>, as he calls you; I am still his
-reader. But when he does not need me, I shall
-take up my old craft again, and embroider, as
-I used at home. You do not know how skilful I
-am with the needle, and never dreamed that the
-initials on the handkerchiefs you admired so
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_166'>166</span>much were all my work. Oh, I am a thrifty wife,
-though such a little one!” and Gladys broke
-into her clear child’s laugh, which seemed to
-cheer them both, as a lark’s song makes music
-even in a cloud.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris laughed with her; for these glimpses
-of practical gifts and shrewd common sense in
-Gladys were very like the discovery of a rock
-under its veil of moss, or garland of airy columbines.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But what will <em>he</em> say to all this?” asked the
-young man, with a downward gesture of the
-finger, and in his eye a glimmer of malicious
-satisfaction at the thought of having at least
-one secret in which Helwyze had no part.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“We need not tell him. It is nothing to him
-what we do up here. Let him find out, if he
-cares to know,” answered Gladys, with a charmingly
-mutinous air, as she tripped away to her
-own little room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He <em>will</em> care, and he <em>will</em> find out. He has
-no right; but that will not stop him,” returned
-Canaris, following to lean in the door-way, and
-watch her kneeling before a great basket, from
-which she pulled reels of gay silk, unfinished
-bits of work, and fragments of old lace.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“See!” she said, holding up one of the latter,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_167'>167</span>“I can both make and mend; and one who is
-clever at this sort of thing can earn a pretty
-penny in a quiet way. Through my old employer
-I can get all the work I want; so please do not
-forbid it, Felix: I should be so much happier, if
-I might?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will forbid nothing that makes you happy.
-But Helwyze will be exceeding wroth when he
-discovers it, unless the absurdity of beggars living
-in a palace strikes him as it does me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am not afraid!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You never saw him in a rage: I have. Quite
-calm and cool, but rather awful, as he withers
-you with a look, or drives you half wild with a
-word that stings like a whip, and makes you hate
-him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Still I would not fear him, unless I <em>had</em> done
-wrong.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He makes you feel so, whether you have or
-not; and you ask pardon for doing what you
-know is right. It is singular, but he certainly
-does make black seem white, sometimes,” mused
-Canaris, knitting his brows with the old perplexity.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am afraid so;” and Gladys folded up a
-sigh in the parcel of rosy floss she laid away.
-Then she chased the frown from her husband’s
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_168'>168</span>face by talking blithely of the home they would
-yet earn and enjoy together.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Conscious that things were more amiss with
-him than she suspected, Canaris was glad to try
-the new cure, and soon found it so helpful, that
-he was anxious to continue it. Very pleasant were
-the hours they spent together in their own
-rooms, when the duties they owed Helwyze were
-done; all the pleasanter for them, perhaps, because
-this domestic league of theirs shut him out
-from their real life as inevitably as it drew them
-nearer to one another.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The task now in hand was one that Canaris
-could do easily and well; and Gladys’s example
-kept him at it when the charm of novelty was
-gone. While he wrote she sat near, so quietly
-busy, that he often forgot her presence; but when
-he looked up, the glance of approval, the encouraging
-word, the tender smile, were always ready,
-and wonderfully inspiring; for this sweet comrade
-grew dearer day by day. While he rested
-she still worked; and he loved to watch the
-flowery wonders grow beneath her needle, swift
-as skilful. Now a golden wheat-ear, a scarlet
-poppy, a blue violet; or the white embroidery,
-that made his eyes ache with following the tiny
-stitches, which seemed to sow seed-pearls along
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_169'>169</span>a hem, weave graceful ciphers, or make lace-work
-like a cobweb.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something in it pleased his artistic sense of
-the beautiful, and soothed him, as did the conversation
-that naturally went on between them.
-Oftenest he talked, telling her more of his varied
-life than any other human being knew; and in
-these confidences she found the clew to many
-things which had pained or puzzled her before;
-because, spite of her love, Gladys was clear-sighted,
-even against her will. Then she would
-answer with the story of her monotonous days,
-her lonely labors, dreams, and hopes; and they
-would comfort one another by making pictures
-of a future too beautiful ever to be true.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze was quick to perceive the new change
-which came over Felix, the happy peace which
-had returned to Gladys. He “did care, and he
-did find out,” what the young people were about.
-At first he smiled at the girl’s delusion in believing
-that she could fix a nature so mercurial
-as that of Canaris, but did not wonder at his
-yielding, for a time at least, to such tender persuasion;
-and, calling them “a pair of innocents,”
-Helwyze let them alone, till he discovered that
-his power was in danger.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Presently, he began to miss the sense of undivided
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_170'>170</span>control which was so agreeable to him.
-Canaris was as serviceable as ever, but no longer
-made him sole confidant, counsellor, and friend.
-Gladys was scrupulously faithful still, but her intense
-interest in his world of books was much lessened:
-for she was reading a more engrossing
-volume than any of these,—the heart of the man
-she loved. Something was gone which he had
-bargained for, thought he had secured, and now
-felt wronged at losing,—an indescribable charm,
-especially pervading his intercourse with Gladys;
-for this friendship, sweet as honey, pure as dew,
-had just begun to blossom, when a chilly breath
-seemed to check its progress, leaving only cheerful
-service, not the spontaneous devotion which
-had been so much to him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He said nothing; but for all his imperturbability,
-it annoyed him, as the gnat annoyed the
-lion; and, though scarcely acknowledged even to
-himself, it lurked under various moods and motives,
-impelling him to words and acts which
-produced dangerous consequences.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Pray forgive us, we are very late.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Time goes so fast, we quite forgot!” exclaimed
-Felix and Gladys both together, as
-they hurried into the library, one bright March
-morning, looking so blithe and young, that
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_171'>171</span>Helwyze suddenly felt old and sad and bitter-hearted,
-as if they had stolen something from
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have learned to wait,” he said, with the
-cold brevity which was the only sign of displeasure
-Gladys ever saw in him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>In remorseful silence she hastened to find
-her place in the book they were reading; but
-Canaris, who seemed bubbling over with good
-spirits, took no notice of the chill, and asked,
-with unabated cheerfulness,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Any commissions, sir, beside these letters?
-I feel as if I ‘could put a girdle round the earth
-in forty minutes,’ it is such a glorious, spring-like
-day.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing but the letters. Stay a moment,
-while I add another;” and, taking up the pen he
-had laid by, Helwyze wrote hastily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c008'>“<span class='sc'>To Olivia at the South</span>:—</p>
-
-<p class='c008'>“The swallows will be returning soon; return
-with them, if you can. I am deadly dull: come
-and make a little mischief to amuse me. I miss
-you.</p>
-
-<div class='c009'><span class='sc'>Jasper.</span>”</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>Sealing and directing this, he handed it to
-Canaris, who had been whispering to Gladys
-more like a lover than a husband of half a year’s
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_172'>172</span>standing. Something in the elder man’s face
-made the younger glance involuntarily at the
-letter as he took it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Olivia? I promised to write her, but I”—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dared not?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No: I forgot it;” and Canaris went off,
-laughing at the <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>grande passion</i></span>, which now
-seemed very foolish and far away.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This time, I think, you <em>will</em> remember, for I
-mean to fight fire with fire,” thought Helwyze,
-with a grim smile, such as Louis XI. might
-have worn when sending some gallant young
-knight to carry his own death-warrant.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_173'>173</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Olivia came before the swallows; for the
-three words, “I miss you,” would have
-brought her from the ends of the earth, had she
-exiled herself so far. She had waited for him to
-want and call her, as he often did when others
-wearied or failed him. Seldom had so long a
-time passed without some word from him; and
-endless doubts, fears, conjectures, had harassed
-her, as month after month went by, and no
-summons came. Now she hastened, ready for
-any thing he might ask of her, since her reward
-would be a glimpse of the only heaven she
-knew.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Amuse Felix: he is falling in love with his
-wife, and it spoils both of them for my use. He
-says he has forgotten you. Come often, and teach
-him to remember, as penalty for his bad taste
-and manners,” was the single order Helwyze
-gave; but Olivia needed no other; and, for the
-sake of coming often, would have smiled upon a
-far less agreeable man than Canaris.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_174'>174</span>Gladys tried to welcome the new guest cordially,
-as an unsuspicious dove might have welcomed
-a falcon to its peaceful cote; but her heart
-sunk when she found her happy quiet sorely disturbed,
-her husband’s place deserted, and the
-old glamour slowly returning to separate them, in
-spite of all her gentle arts. For Canaris, feeling
-quite safe in the sincere affection which now
-bound him to his wife, was foolhardy in his
-desire to show Olivia how heart-whole he had
-become. This piqued her irresistibly, because
-Helwyze was looking on, and she would win <em>his</em>
-approval at any cost. So these three, from
-divers motives, joined together to teach poor
-Gladys how much a woman can suffer with
-silent fortitude and make no sign.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The weeks that followed seemed unusually
-gay and sunny ones; for April came in blandly,
-and Olivia made a pleasant stir throughout the
-house by her frequent visits, and the various
-excursions she proposed. Many of these Gladys
-escaped; for her pain was not the jealousy that
-would drive her to out-rival her rival, but the
-sorrowful shame and pity which made her long
-to hide herself, till Felix should come back and
-be forgiven. Helwyze naturally declined the
-long drives, the exhilarating rides in the bright
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_175'>175</span>spring weather, which were so attractive to the
-younger man, and sat at home watching Gladys,
-now more absorbingly interesting than ever. He
-could not but admire the patience, strength, and
-dignity of the creature; for she made no complaint,
-showed no suspicion, asked no advice,
-but went straight on, like one who followed with
-faltering feet, but unwavering eye, the single
-star in all the sky that would lead her right. A
-craving curiosity to know what she felt and
-thought possessed him, and he invited confidence
-by unwonted kindliness, as well as the unfailing
-courtesy he showed her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Gladys would not speak either to him or
-to her husband, who seemed wilfully blind to the
-slowly changing face, all the sadder for the smile
-it always wore when his eyes were on it. At
-first, Helwyze tried his gentlest arts; but, finding
-her as true as brave, was driven, by the morbid
-curiosity which he had indulged till it became a
-mania, to use means as subtle as sinful,—like
-a burglar, who, failing to pick a lock, grows
-desperate and breaks it, careless of consequences.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Taking his daily walk through the house, he
-once came upon Gladys watering the <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>jardinière</i></span>,
-which was her especial care, and always kept
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_176'>176</span>full of her favorite plants. She was not singing
-as she worked, but seriously busy as a child,
-holding in both hands her little watering-pot to
-shower the thirsty ferns and flowers, who turned
-up their faces to be washed with the silent
-delight which was their thanks.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“See how the dear things enjoy it! I feel as
-if they knew and watched for me, and I never
-like to disappoint them of their bath,” she said,
-looking over her shoulder, as he paused beside
-her. She was used to this now, and was never
-surprised or startled when below stairs by his
-noiseless approach.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“They are doing finely. Did Moss bring in
-some cyclamens? They are in full bloom now,
-and you are fond of them, I think?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, here they are: both purple and white,
-so sweet and lovely! See how many buds this
-one has. I shall enjoy seeing them come out,
-they unfurl so prettily;” and, full of interest,
-Gladys parted the leaves to show several baby
-buds, whose rosy faces were just peeping from
-their green hoods.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze liked to see her among the flowers;
-for there was something peculiarly innocent and
-fresh about her then, as if the woman forgot her
-griefs, and was a girl again. It struck him anew,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_177'>177</span>as she stood there in the sunshine, leaning down
-to tend the soft leaves and cherish the delicate
-buds with a caressing hand.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Like seeks like: you are a sort of cyclamen
-yourself. I never observed it before, but the
-likeness is quite striking,” he said, with the slow
-smile which usually prefaced some speech which
-bore a double meaning.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Am I?” and Gladys eyed the flowers,
-pleased, yet a little shy, of compliment from
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This is especially like you,” continued Helwyze,
-touching one of the freshest. “Out of
-these strong sombre leaves rises a wraith-like
-blossom, with white, softly folded petals, a rosy
-color on its modest face, and a most sweet perfume
-for those whose sense is fine enough to
-perceive it. Most of all, perhaps, it resembles
-you in this,—it hides its heart, and, if one tries
-to look too closely, there is danger of snapping
-the slender stem.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is its nature, and it cannot help being
-shy. I kneel down and look up without touching
-it; then one sees that it has nothing to hide,”
-protested Gladys, following out the flower fancy,
-half in earnest, half in jest, for she felt there was
-a question and a reproach in his words.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_178'>178</span>“Perhaps not; let us see, in my way.” With
-a light touch Helwyze turned the reluctant cyclamen
-upward, and in its purple cup there clung
-a newly fallen drop, like a secret tear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Mute and stricken, Gladys looked at the little
-symbol of herself, owning, with a throb of pain,
-that if in nothing else, they <em>were</em> alike in
-that.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze stood silent likewise, inhaling the
-faint fragrance while he softly ruffled the curled
-petals as if searching for another tear. Suddenly
-Gladys spoke out with the directness which
-always gave him a keen pleasure, asking, as she
-stretched her hand involuntarily to shield the
-more helpless flower,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sir, why do you wish to read my heart?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“To comfort it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do I need comfort, then?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you not?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If I have a sorrow, God only can console
-me, and He only need know it. To you it
-should be sacred. Forgive me if I seem ungrateful;
-but you cannot help me, if you would.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you doubt my will?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I try to doubt no one; but I fear—I fear
-many things;” and, as if afraid of saying too
-much, Gladys broke off, to hurry away, wearing
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_179'>179</span>so strange a look that Helwyze was consumed
-with a desire to know its meaning.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He saw no more of her till twilight, for Canaris
-took her place just then, reading a foreign
-book, which she could not manage; but, when
-Felix went out, he sought one of his solitary
-haunts, hoping she would appear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She did; for the day closed early with a gusty
-rain, and the sunset hour was gray and cold,
-leaving no after-glow to tint the western sky and
-bathe the great room in ruddy light. Pale and
-noiseless as a spirit, Gladys went to and fro,
-trying to quiet the unrest that made her nights
-sleepless, her days one long struggle to be patient,
-just, and kind. She tried to sing, but the
-song died in her throat; she tried to sew, but
-her eyes were dim, and the flower under her
-needle only reminded her that “pansies were for
-thoughts,” and hers, alas! were too sad for
-thinking; she took up a book, but laid it down
-again, since Felix was not there to finish it with
-her. Her own rooms seemed so empty, she
-could not return thither when she had looked for
-him in vain; and, longing for some human voice
-to speak to her, it was a relief to come upon Helwyze
-sitting in his lonely corner,—for she never
-now went to the library, unless duty called her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_180'>180</span>“A dull evening, and dull company,” he said,
-as she paused beside him, glad to have found
-something to take her out of herself, for a time
-at least.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Such a long day! and such a dreary night
-as it will be!” she answered, leaning her forehead
-against the window-pane, to watch the
-drops fall, and listen to the melancholy wind.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Shorten the one and cheer the other, as I do:
-sleep, dream, and forget.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I cannot!” and there was a world of suffering
-in the words that broke from her against her will.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Try my sleep-compeller as freely as I tried
-yours. See, these will give you one, if not all
-the three desired blessings,—quiet slumber, delicious
-dreams, or utter oblivion for a time.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As he spoke, Helwyze had drawn out a little
-<span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>bonbonnière</i></span> of tortoise-shell and silver, which he
-always carried, and shaken into his palm half
-a dozen white comfits, which he offered to Gladys,
-with a benign expression born of real sympathy
-and compassion. She hesitated; and he added,
-in a tone of mild reproach, which smote her
-generous heart with compunction,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Since I may not even try to minister to
-your troubled mind, let me, at least, give a little
-rest to your weary body. Trust me, child, these
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_181'>181</span>cannot hurt you; and, strong as you are, you
-will break down if you do not sleep.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Without a word, she took them; and, as they
-melted on her tongue, first sweet, then bitter, she
-stood leaning against the rainy window-pane,
-listening to Helwyze, who began to talk as if
-he too had tasted the Indian drug, which “made
-the face of Coleridge shine, as he conversed like
-one inspired.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It seemed a very simple, friendly act; but this
-man had learned to know how subtly the mind
-works; to see how often an apparently impulsive
-action is born of an almost unconscious thought,
-an unacknowledged purpose, a deeply hidden
-motive, which to many seem rather the child
-than the father of the deed. Helwyze did not
-deceive himself, and owned that baffled desire
-prompted that unpremeditated offer, and was
-ready to avail itself of any self-betrayal which
-might follow its acceptance, for he had given
-Gladys hasheesh.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It could not harm; it might soothe and comfort
-her unrest. It surely would make her forget
-for a while, and in that temporary oblivion perhaps
-he might discover what he burned to know.
-The very uncertainty of its effect added to the
-daring of the deed; and, while he talked, he
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_182'>182</span>waited to see how it would affect her, well knowing
-that in such a temperament as hers all
-processes are rapid. For an hour he conversed
-so delightfully of Rome and its wonders, that
-Gladys was amazed to find Felix had come in,
-unheard for once.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>All through dinner she brightened steadily,
-thinking the happy mood was brought by her
-prodigal’s return, quite forgetting Helwyze and
-his bitter-sweet bonbons.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall stay at home, and enjoy the society of
-my pretty wife. What have you done to make
-yourself so beautiful to-night? Is it the new
-gown?” asked Canaris, surveying her with
-laughing but most genuine surprise and satisfaction
-as they returned to the drawing-room again.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is not new: I made it long ago, to please
-you, but you never noticed it before,” answered
-Gladys, glancing at the pale-hued dress, all
-broad, soft folds from waist to ankle, with its
-winter trimming of swan’s down at the neck
-and wrists; simple, but most becoming to her
-flower-like face and girlish figure.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What cruel blindness! But I see and admire
-it now, and honestly declare that not Olivia
-in all her splendor is arrayed so much to my
-taste as you, my Sancta Simplicitas.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_183'>183</span>“It is pleasant to hear you say so; but that
-alone does not make me happy: it must be
-having you at home all to myself again,” she
-whispered, with shining eyes, cheeks that glowed
-with a deeper rose each hour, and an indescribably
-blest expression in a face which now was
-both brilliant and dreamy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze heard what she said, and, fearing to
-lose sight of her, promptly challenged Canaris
-to chess, a favorite pastime with them both. For
-an hour they played, well matched and keenly
-interested, while Gladys sat by, already tasting
-the restful peace, the delicious dreams, promised
-her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The clock was on the stroke of eight, the
-game was nearly over, when a quick ring arrested
-Helwyze in the act of making the final move.
-There was a stir in the hall, then, bringing with
-her a waft of fresh, damp air, Olivia appeared,
-brave in purple silk and Roman gold.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I thought you were all asleep or dead; but
-now I see the cause of this awful silence,” she
-cried. “Don’t speak, don’t stir; let me enjoy
-the fine tableau you make. Retsch’s ‘Game of
-Life,’ quite perfect, and most effective.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It certainly was to an observer; for Canaris,
-flushed and eager, looked the young man to the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_184'>184</span>life; Helwyze, calm but intent, with his finger
-on his lip, pondering that last fateful move,
-was an excellent Satan; and behind them stood
-Gladys, wonderfully resembling the wistful angel,
-with that new brightness on her face.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Which wins?” asked Olivia, rustling toward
-them, conscious of having made an impressive
-entrance; for both men looked up to welcome
-her, though Gladys never lifted her eyes from
-the mimic battle Felix seemed about to lose.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do, as usual,” answered Helwyze, turning
-to finish the game with the careless ease of a
-victor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not this time;” and Gladys touched a piece
-which Canaris in the hurry of the moment was
-about to overlook. He saw its value at a glance,
-made the one move that could save him, and in
-an instant cried “Checkmate,” with a laugh of
-triumph.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not fair, the angel interfered,” said Olivia,
-shaking a warning finger at Gladys, who echoed
-her husband’s laugh with one still more exultant,
-as she put her hand upon his shoulder, saying, in
-a low, intense voice never heard from her lips
-before,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have won him; he is mine, and cannot be
-taken from me any more.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_185'>185</span>“Dearest child, no one wants him, except to
-play with and admire,” began Olivia, rather
-startled by the look and manner of the lately
-meek, mute Gladys.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Here Helwyze struck in, anxious to avert
-Olivia’s attention; for her undesirable presence
-disconcerted him, since her woman’s wit might
-discover what it was easy to conceal from Canaris.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have come to entertain us, like the amiable
-enchantress that you are?” he asked, suggestively;
-for nothing charmed Olivia more
-than permission to amuse him, when others
-failed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have a thought,—a happy thought,—if
-Gladys will help me. You have given me one
-living picture: I will give you others, and she
-shall sing the scenes we illustrate.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Take Felix, and give us ‘The God and the
-Bayadere,’” said Helwyze, glancing at the young
-pair behind them, he intent upon their conversation,
-she upon him. “No, I will have
-only Gladys. You will act and sing for us, I
-know?” and Olivia turned to her with a most
-engaging smile.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never acted in my life, but I will try. I
-think I should like it for I feel as if I could do
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_186'>186</span>any thing to-night;” and she came to them
-with a swift step, an eager air, as if longing to
-find some outlet for the strange energy which
-seemed to thrill every nerve and set her heart
-to beating audibly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You look so. Do you know all these
-songs?” asked Olivia, taking up the book
-which had suggested her happy thought.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There are but four: I know them all. I will
-gladly sing them; for I set them to music, if they
-had none of their own already. I often do that
-to those Felix writes me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Come, then. I want the key of the great
-press, where you keep your spoils, Jasper.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mrs. Bland will give it you. Order what you
-will, if you are going to treat us to an Arabian
-Night’s entertainment.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Better than that. We are going to teach a
-small poet, by illustrating the work of a great
-one;” and, with a mischievous laugh, Olivia vanished,
-beckoning Gladys to follow.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The two men beguiled the time as best they
-might: Canaris playing softly to himself in the
-music-room; Helwyze listening intently to the
-sounds that came from behind the curtains, now
-dropped over a double door-way leading to the
-lower end of the hall. Olivia’s imperious voice
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_187'>187</span>was heard, directing men and maids. More than
-once an excited laugh from Gladys jarred upon
-his ear; and, as minute after minute passed, his
-impatience to see her again increased.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_188'>188</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XIII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>After what would have seemed a wonderfully
-short time to a more careless waiter,
-three blows were struck, in the French fashion,
-and Canaris had barely time to reach his place,
-when the deep blue curtains slid noiselessly
-apart, showing the visible portion of the hall, arranged
-to suggest a mediæval room. An easy
-task, when a suit of rusty armor already stood
-there; and Helwyze had brought spoils from all
-quarters of the globe, in the shape of old furniture,
-tapestry, weapons, and trophies of many a
-wild hunt.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What is it?” whispered Canaris eagerly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“An Idyl of the King.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I see: the first. How well they look it!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>They did; Olivia, as</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in14'>“An ancient dame in dim brocade;</div>
- <div class='line'>And near her, like a blossom, vermeil-white,</div>
- <div class='line'>That lightly breaks a faded flower-sheath,</div>
- <div class='line'>Stood the fair Enid, all in faded silk.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys, clad in a quaint costume of tarnished
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_189'>189</span>gray and silver damask, singing, in “the sweet
-voice of a bird,”—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Turn, Fortune, turn thy wheel, and lower the proud;</div>
- <div class='line'>Turn thy wild wheel through sunshine, storm, and cloud;</div>
- <div class='line'>Thy wheel and thee we neither love nor hate.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Turn, Fortune, turn thy wheel with smile and frown;</div>
- <div class='line'>With that wild wheel we go not up nor down;</div>
- <div class='line'>Our hoard is little, but our hearts are great.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Smile and we smile, the lords of many lands;</div>
- <div class='line'>Frown and we smile, the lords of our own hands;</div>
- <div class='line'>For man is man and master of his fate.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Turn, turn thy wheel above the staring crowd;</div>
- <div class='line'>Thy wheel and thou art shadows in the cloud;</div>
- <div class='line'>Thy wheel and thee we neither love nor hate.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was something inexpressibly touching
-in the way Gladys gave the words, which had
-such significance addressed to those who listened
-so intently, that they nearly forgot to pay
-the tribute which all actors, the greatest as the
-least, desire, when the curtain dropped, and the
-song was done.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A capital idea of Olivia’s, and beautifully
-carried out. This promises to be pleasant;”
-and Helwyze sat erect upon the divan, where
-Canaris came to lounge beside him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Which comes next? I don’t remember.
-If it is Vivien, they will have to skip it, unless
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_190'>190</span>they call you in for Merlin,” he said, talking
-gayly, because a little conscience-stricken by
-the look Gladys wore, as she sung, with her eyes
-upon him,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Our hoard is little, but our hearts are great.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>“They will not want a Merlin; for Gladys
-could not act Vivien, if she would,” answered
-Helwyze, tapping restlessly as he waited.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She said she could do ‘<em>any thing</em>’ to-night;
-and, upon my life, she looked as if she might even
-beguile you ‘mighty master,’ of your strongest
-spell.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She will never try.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But both were mistaken; for, when they
-looked again, the dim light showed a dark and
-hooded shape, with glittering eyes and the
-semblance of a flowing, hoary beard, leaning
-half-hidden in a bower of tall shrubs from the
-conservatory. It was Olivia, as Merlin; and,
-being of noble proportions, she looked the
-part excellently. Upon the wizard’s knee sat
-Vivien,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“A twist of gold was round her hair;</div>
- <div class='line'>A robe of samite without price, that more exprest</div>
- <div class='line'>Than hid her, clung about her lissome limbs,</div>
- <div class='line'>In color like the satin-shining palm</div>
- <div class='line'>On sallows in the windy gleams of March.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_191'>191</span>In any other mood, Gladys would never have
-consented to be loosely clad in a great mantle
-of some Indian fabric, which shimmered like
-woven light, with its alternate stripes of gold-covered
-silk and softest wool. Shoulders and arms
-showed rosy white under the veil of hair which
-swept to her knee, as she clung there, singing
-sweet and low, with eyes on Merlin’s face, lips
-near his own, and head upon his breast:—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“In Love, if Love be Love, if Love be ours,</div>
- <div class='line'>Faith and unfaith can ne’er be equal powers;</div>
- <div class='line'>Unfaith in aught is want of faith in all.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“It is the little rift within the lute</div>
- <div class='line'>That by and by will make the music mute,</div>
- <div class='line'>And ever widening, slowly silence all.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“The little rift within the lover’s lute,</div>
- <div class='line'>Or little pitted speck in garner’d fruit,</div>
- <div class='line'>That, rotting inward, slowly moulders all.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“It is not worth the keeping: let it go:</div>
- <div class='line'>But shall it? Answer, darling, answer ‘No;’</div>
- <div class='line'>And trust me not at all or all in all.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>There Gladys seemed to forget her part, and,
-turning, stretched her arms towards her husband,
-as if in music she had found a tongue to
-plead her cause. The involuntary gesture recalled
-to her that other verse which Vivien
-added to her song; and something impelled her
-to sing it, standing erect, with face, figure, voice
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_192'>192</span>all trembling with the strong emotion that suddenly
-controlled her:—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“My name, once mine, now thine, is closelier mine,</div>
- <div class='line'>For fame, could fame be mine, that fame were thine;</div>
- <div class='line'>And shame, could shame be thine, that shame were mine;</div>
- <div class='line'>So trust me not at all or all in all.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>Down fell the curtain there, and the two men
-looked at one another in silence for an instant,
-dazzled, troubled, and surprised; for in this
-brilliant, impassioned creature they did not
-recognize the Gladys they believed they knew
-so well.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What possessed her to sing that? She is so
-unlike herself, I do not know her,” said Canaris,
-excited by the discoveries he was making.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She is inspired to-night; so be prepared for
-any thing. These women will work wonders,
-they are acting to the men they love,” answered
-Helwyze, warily, yet excited also; because, for
-him, a double drama was passing on that little
-stage, and he found it marvellously fascinating.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never knew how beautiful she was!”
-mused Canaris, half aloud, his eyes upon the
-blue draperies which hid her from his sight.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You never saw her in such gear before.
-Splendor suits her present mood, as well as simplicity
-becomes her usual self-restraint. You
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_193'>193</span>have made her jealous, and your angel will prove
-herself a woman, after all.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is that the cause of this sudden change in
-her? Then I don’t regret playing truant, for
-the woman suits me better than the angel,”
-cried Canaris, conscious that the pale affection
-he had borne his wife so long was already glowing
-with new warmth and color, in spite of his
-seeming neglect.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Wait till you see Olivia as Guinevere. I
-know she cannot resist that part, and I suspect
-she is willing to efface herself so far that she
-may take us by storm by and by.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze prophesied truly; and, when next
-the curtains parted, the stately Queen sat in the
-nunnery of Almesbury, with the little novice at
-her feet. Olivia <em>was</em> right splendid now, for her
-sumptuous beauty well became the costly stuffs
-in which she had draped herself with the graceful
-art of a woman whose physical loveliness was
-her best possession. A trifle <em>too</em> gorgeous, perhaps,
-for the repentant Guinevere; but a most
-grand and gracious spectacle, nevertheless, as
-she leaned in the tall carved chair, with jewelled
-arms lying languidly across her lap, and
-absent eyes still full of love and longing for lost
-Launcelot.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_194'>194</span>Gladys, in white wimple and close-folded gown
-of gray, sat on a stool beside the “one low light,”
-humming softly, her rosary fallen at her feet,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in6'>“the Queen looked up, and said,</div>
- <div class='line in2'>‘O maiden, if indeed you list to sing</div>
- <div class='line'>Sing, and unbind my heart, that I may weep.’</div>
- <div class='line'>Whereat full willingly sang the little maid,</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in2'>Late, late, so late! and dark the night and chill!</div>
- <div class='line'>Late, late, so late! but we can enter still.</div>
- <div class='line'>Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>No light had we: for that we do repent,</div>
- <div class='line'>And, learning this, the bridegroom will relent.</div>
- <div class='line'>Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>No light, so late! and dark and chill the night!</div>
- <div class='line'>O let us in, that we may find the light!</div>
- <div class='line'>Too late! too late! ye cannot enter now.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet?</div>
- <div class='line'>O let us in, tho’ late, to kiss his feet!</div>
- <div class='line'>No, no, too late! ye cannot enter now.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>Slowly the proud head had drooped, the stately
-figure sunk, till, as the last lament died away,
-nothing remained of splendid Guinevere but a
-hidden face, a cloud of black hair from which
-the crown had fallen, a heap of rich robes quivering
-with the stormy sobs of a guilty woman’s
-smitten heart. The curtains closed on this
-tableau, which was made the more effective by
-the strong contrast between the despairing
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_195'>195</span>Queen and the little novice telling her beads in
-meek dismay.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Good heavens, that sounded like the wail of
-a lost soul! My blood runs cold, and I feel as if
-I ought to say my prayers,” muttered Canaris,
-with a shiver; for, with his susceptible temperament,
-music always exerted over him an almost
-painful power.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If you knew any,” sneered Helwyze, whose
-eyes now glittered with something stronger than
-excitement.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do: Gladys taught me, and I am not
-ashamed to own it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Much good may it do you.” Then, in a
-quieter tone, he asked, “Is there any song in
-‘Elaine’? I forget; and that is the only one we
-have not had.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There is ‘The Song of Love and Death.’
-Gladys was learning it lately; and, if I remember
-rightly, it was heart-rending. I hope she
-will not sing it, for this sort of thing is rather
-too much for me;” and Canaris got up to wander
-aimlessly about, humming the gayest airs he
-knew, as if to drown the sorrowful “Too late!
-too late!” still wailing in his ear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>By this time Gladys was no longer quite herself:
-an inward excitement possessed her, a wild
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_196'>196</span>desire to sing her very heart out came over her,
-and a strange chill, which she thought a vague
-presentiment of coming ill, crept through her
-blood. Every thing seemed vast and awful;
-every sense grew painfully acute; and she walked
-as in a dream, so vivid, yet so mysterious, that
-she did not try to explain it even to herself. Her
-identity was doubled: one Gladys moved and
-spoke as she was told,—a pale, dim figure, of
-no interest to any one; the other was alive in
-every fibre, thrilled with intense desire for something,
-and bent on finding it, though deserts,
-oceans, and boundless realms of air were passed
-to gain it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia wondered at her unsuspected power,
-and felt a little envious of her enchanting gift.
-But she was too absorbed in “setting the stage,”
-dressing her prima donna, and planning how to
-end the spectacle with her favorite character of
-Cleopatra, to do more than observe that Gladys’s
-eyes were luminous and large, her face growing
-more and more colorless, her manner less and
-less excited, yet unnaturally calm.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This is the last, and you have the stage
-alone. Do your best for Felix; then you shall
-rest and be thanked,” she whispered, somewhat
-anxiously, as she placed Elaine in her tower,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_197'>197</span>leaning against the dark screen, which was unfolded,
-to suggest the casement she flung back
-when Launcelot passed below,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in4'>“And glanced not up, nor waved his hand,</div>
- <div class='line'>Nor bade farewell, but sadly rode away.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>The “lily maid of Astolat” could not have looked
-more wan and weird than Gladys, as she stood
-in her trailing robes of dead white, with loosely
-gathered locks, hands clasped over the gay bit of
-tapestry which simulated the cover of the shield,
-eyes that seemed to see something invisible to
-those about her, and began her song, in a veiled
-voice, at once so sad and solemn, that Helwyze
-held his breath, and Canaris felt as if she called
-him from beyond the grave:—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“Sweet is true love, tho’ given in vain, in vain;</div>
- <div class='line'>And sweet is death, who puts an end to pain;</div>
- <div class='line'>I know not which is sweeter, no, not I.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>Love, art thou sweet? then bitter death must be;</div>
- <div class='line'>Love, thou art bitter; sweet is death to me.</div>
- <div class='line'>O Love, if death be sweeter, let me die.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>Sweet love, that seems not made to fade away,</div>
- <div class='line'>Sweet death, that seems to make us loveless clay,</div>
- <div class='line'>I know not which is sweeter, no, not I.</div>
- </div>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>I fain would follow love, if that could be;</div>
- <div class='line'>I needs must follow death, who calls for me:</div>
- <div class='line'>Call and I follow, I follow! let me die!”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_198'>198</span>Carried beyond self-control by the unsuspected
-presence of the drug, which was doing its work
-with perilous rapidity, Gladys, remembering only
-that the last line should be sung with force, and
-that she sung for Felix, obeyed the wild impulse
-to let her voice rise and ring out with a shrill,
-despairing power and passion, which startled
-every listener, and echoed through the room, like
-Elaine’s unearthly cry of hapless love and death.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia dropped her asp, terrified; the maids
-stared, uncertain whether it was acting or insanity;
-and Helwyze sprung up aghast, fearing that
-he had dared too much. But Canaris, seeing
-only the wild, woful eyes fixed on his, the hands
-wrung as if in pain, forgot every thing but
-Gladys, and rushed between the curtains, exclaiming
-in real terror,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Don’t look so! don’t sing so! my God, she
-is dying!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Not dying, only slipping fast into the unconscious
-stage of the hasheesh dream, whose coming
-none can foretell but those accustomed to its
-use. Pale and quiet she lay in her husband’s
-arms, with half-open eyes and fluttering breath,
-smiling up at him so strangely that he was
-bewildered as well as panic-stricken. Olivia
-forgot her Cleopatra to order air and water; the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_199'>199</span>maids flew for salts and wine; Helwyze with
-difficulty hid his momentary dismay; while Canaris,
-almost beside himself, could only hang
-over the couch where lay “the lily-maid,” looking
-as if already dead, and drifting down to Camelot.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys, do you know me?” he cried, as a
-little color came to her lips after the fiery
-draught Olivia energetically administered.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The eyes opened wider, the smile grew
-brighter, and she lifted her hand to bring him
-nearer, for he seemed immeasurably distant.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Felix! Let me be still, quite still; I want
-to sleep. Good-night, good-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She thought she kissed him; then his face
-receded, vanished, and, as she floated buoyantly
-away upon the first of the many oceans to be
-crossed in her mysterious quest, a far-off voice
-seemed to say, solemnly, as if in a last farewell,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hush! let her sleep in peace.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was Helwyze; and, having felt her pulse, he
-assured them all that she was only over-excited,
-must rest an hour or two, and would soon be
-quite herself again. So the brief panic ended
-quietly; and, having lowered the lights, spread
-Guinevere’s velvet mantle over her, and re-assured
-themselves that she was sleeping calmly,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_200'>200</span>the women went to restore order to ante-room
-and hall, Canaris sat down to watch beside
-Gladys, and Helwyze betook himself to the
-library.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is she still sleeping?” he asked, with unconcealable
-anxiety, when Olivia joined him
-there.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Like a baby. What a high-strung little
-thing it is. If she had strength to bear the
-training, she would make a cantatrice to be
-proud of, Jasper.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, but she never would! Fancy that modest
-creature on a stage for all the world to gape
-at. She was happiest in the nun’s gown to-night,
-though simply ravishing as Vivien. The
-pretty, bare feet were most effective; but how
-did you persuade her to it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I had no sandals as a compromise: I therefore
-insisted that the part <em>must</em> be so dressed or
-undressed, and she submitted. People usually
-do, when I command.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She was on her mettle: I could see that;
-and well she might be, with you for a rival. I
-give you my word, Olivia, if I did not know you
-were nearly forty, I should swear it was a lie;
-for ‘age cannot wither nor custom stale’ my
-handsome Cleopatra. We ought to have had
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_201'>201</span>that, by the by: it used to be your best bit. I
-could not be your Antony, but Felix might: he
-adores costuming, and would do it capitally.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not old enough. Ah! what happy times
-those were;” and Olivia sighed sincerely, yet
-dramatically, for she knew she was looking
-wonderfully well, thrown down upon a couch,
-with her purple skirts sweeping about her, and
-two fine arms banded with gold clasped over her
-dark head.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze had flattered with a purpose. Canaris
-was in the way, Gladys might betray herself,
-and all was not safe yet; though in one respect
-the experiment had succeeded admirably, for he
-still tingled with the excitement of the evening.
-Now he wanted help, not sentiment, and, ignoring
-the sigh, said, carelessly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If all obey when you insist, just make Felix
-go home with you. The drive will do him good,
-for he is as nervous as a woman, and I shall
-have him fidgeting about all night, unless he forgets
-his fright.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She will be the better for a quiet nap, and
-ready, by the time he returns, to laugh at her
-heroics. He will only disturb her if he sits
-there, like a mourner at a death-bed.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_202'>202</span>“That sounds sensible and friendly, and you
-do it very well, Jasper; but I am impressed that
-something is amiss. What is it? Better tell
-me; I shall surely find it out, and will not work
-in the dark. I see mischief in your eyes, and
-you cannot deceive me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia spoke half in jest; but she had so often
-seen his face without a mask, that it was difficult
-to wear one in her presence. He frowned, hesitated,
-then fearing she would refuse the favor if
-he withheld the secret, he leaned towards her
-and answered in a whisper,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I gave Gladys hasheesh, and do not care to
-have Felix know it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Jasper, how dared you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She was restless, suffering for sleep. I know
-what that is, and out of pity gave her the
-merest taste. Upon my honor, no more than a
-child might safely take. She did not know
-what it was, and I thought she would only feel
-its soothing charm. She would, if it had not
-been for this masquerading. I did not count on
-that, and it was too much for her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Will she not suffer from the after-effects?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not a whit, if she is let alone. An hour
-hence she will be deliciously drowsy, and to-morrow
-none the worse. I had no idea it would
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_203'>203</span>affect her so powerfully; but I do not regret it,
-for it showed what the woman is capable of.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At your old tricks. You will never learn to
-let your fellow-creatures alone, till something
-terrible stops you. You were always prying
-into things, even as a boy, when I caught butterflies
-for you to look at.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never killed them: only brushed off a trifle
-of the gloss by my touch, and let them go again,
-none the worse, except for the loss of a few invisible
-feathers.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah! but that delicate plumage is the glory of
-the insect; robbed of that, its beauty is marred.
-No one but their Maker can search hearts without
-harming them. I wonder how it will fare
-with yours when He looks for its perfection?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia spoke with a sudden seriousness, a
-yearning look, which jarred on nerves already
-somewhat unstrung, and Helwyze answered, in
-a mocking tone that silenced her effectually,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am desperately curious to know. If I can
-come and tell you, I will: such pious interest
-deserves that attention.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Heaven forbid!” ejaculated Olivia, with a
-shiver.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then I will <em>not</em>. I have been such a poor
-ghost here, I suspect I shall be glad to rest eternally
-when I once fall asleep, if I can.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_204'>204</span>Weary was his voice, weary his attitude, as,
-leaning an elbow on either knee, he propped his
-chin upon his hands, and sat brooding for a
-moment with his eyes upon the ground, asking
-himself for the thousandth time the great question
-which only hope and faith can answer truly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia rose. “You are tired; so am I. Good-night,
-Jasper, and pleasant dreams. But remember,
-no more tampering with Gladys, or I must
-tell her husband.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have had my lesson. Take Felix with you,
-and I will send Mrs. Bland to sit with her till he
-comes back. Good-night, my cousin; thanks
-for a glimpse of the old times.” Such words,
-uttered with a pressure of the hand, conquered
-Olivia’s last scruple, and she went away to prefer
-her request in a form which made it impossible
-for Canaris to refuse. Gladys still slept
-quietly. The distance was not long, the fresh air
-grateful, Olivia her kindest self, and he obeyed,
-believing that the motherly old woman would
-take his place as soon as certain housewifely
-duties permitted.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then Helwyze did an evil thing,—a thing few
-men could or would have done. He deliberately
-violated the sanctity of a human soul, robbing
-it alike of its most secret and most precious
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_205'>205</span>thoughts. Hasheesh had lulled the senses which
-guarded the treasure; now the magnetism of a
-potent will forced the reluctant lips to give up
-the key.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Like a thief he stole to Gladys’ side, took in
-his the dimpled hands whose very childishness
-should have pleaded for her, and fixed his eyes
-upon the face before him, untouched by its helpless
-innocence, its unnatural expression. The
-half-open eyes were heavy as dew-drunken
-violets, the sweet red mouth was set, the agitated
-bosom still rose and fell, like a troubled sea
-subsiding after storm.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>So sitting, stern and silent as the fate he believed
-in, Helwyze concentrated every power
-upon the accomplishment of the purpose to
-which he bent his will. He called it psychological
-curiosity; for not even to himself did he dare
-confess the true meaning of the impulse which
-drove him to this act, and dearly did he pay
-for it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Soon the passive palms thrilled in his own, the
-breath came faint and slow, color died, and life
-seemed to recede from the countenance, leaving a
-pale effigy of the woman; lately so full of vitality.
-“It works! it works!” muttered Helwyze, lifting
-his head at length to wipe the dampness from
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_206'>206</span>his brow, and send a piercing glance about the
-shadowy room. Then, kneeling down beside the
-couch, he put his lips to her ear, whispering in a
-tone of still command,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys, do you hear me?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Like the echo of a voice, so low, expressionless,
-and distant was it, the answer came,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I hear.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Will you answer me?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I must.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have a sorrow,—tell it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All is so false. I am unhappy without
-confidence,” sighed the voice.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Can you trust no one?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No one here, but Felix.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yet he deceives, he does not love you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He will.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is this the hope which sustains you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And you forgive, you love him still?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Always.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If the hope fails?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It will not: I shall have help.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What help?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>No answer now, but the shadow of a smile
-seemed to float across the silent lips as if reflected
-from a joy too deep and tender for
-speech to tell.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_207'>207</span>“Speak! what is this happiness? The hope
-of freedom?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It will come.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When you die.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He caught his breath, and for an instant
-seemed daunted by the truth he had evoked;
-for it was terrible, so told, so heard.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You hate me, then?” he whispered, almost
-fiercely, in the ear that never shrank from his
-hot lips.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I doubt and dread you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why, Gladys, why? To you I am not cruel.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Too kind, alas, too kind!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And yet you fear me?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“God help us. Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What is your fear?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, no, I will <em>not</em> tell it!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Some inward throe of shame or anguish
-turned the pale face paler, knotted the brow,
-and locked the lips, as if both soul and body
-revolted from the thought thus ruthlessly
-dragged to light. Instinct, the first, last, strongest
-impulse of human nature, struggled blindly
-to save the woman from betraying the dread
-which haunted her heart like a spectre, and
-burned her lips in the utterance of its name.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_208'>208</span>But Helwyze was pitiless, his will indomitable;
-his eye held, his hand controlled, his voice commanded;
-and the answer came, so reluctantly,
-so inaudibly, that he seemed to divine, not
-hear it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What fear?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your love.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You see, you know it, then?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do not see, I vaguely feel; I pray God I
-may never know.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With the involuntary recoil of a guilty joy,
-a shame as great, Helwyze dropped the nerveless
-hands, turned from the mutely accusing
-face, let the troubled spirit rest, and asked no
-more. But his punishment began as he stood
-there, finding the stolen truth a heavier burden
-than baffled doubt or desire had been; since forbidden
-knowledge was bitter to the taste, forbidden
-love possessed no sweetness, and the
-hidden hope, putting off its well-worn disguise,
-confronted him in all its ugliness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>An awesome silence filled the room, until he
-lifted up his eyes, and looked at Gladys with a
-look which would have wrung her heart could
-she have seen it. She did not see; for she lay
-there so still, so white, so dead, he seemed to
-have scared away the soul he had vexed with his
-impious questioning.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_209'>209</span>In remorseful haste, Helwyze busied himself
-about her, till she woke from that sleep within a
-sleep, moaned wearily, closed the unseeing eyes,
-and drifted away into more natural slumber,
-dream-haunted, but deep and quiet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then he stole away as he had come, and, sending
-the old woman to watch Gladys, shut himself
-into his own room, to keep a vigil which
-lasted until dawn; for all the poppies of the East
-could not have brought oblivion that night.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_210'>210</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XIV.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>It seemed as if some angel had Gladys in
-especial charge, bringing light out of darkness,
-joy out of sorrow, good out of evil; for no
-harm came to her,—only a great peace, which
-transfigured her face till it was as spiritually
-beautiful, as that of some young Madonna.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Waking late the next day she remembered
-little of the past night’s events, and cared to remember
-little, having clearer and calmer thoughts
-to dwell upon, happier dreams to enjoy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She suspected Helwyze of imprudent kindness,
-but uttered no reproach, quite unconscious
-of how much she had to forgive; thereby innocently
-adding to both the relief and the remorse
-he felt. The doubt and dread which had risen
-to the surface at his command, seemed to sink
-again into the depths; and hope and love, to still
-the troubled waters where her life-boat rode at
-anchor for a time.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris, as if tired of playing truant, was
-ready now to be forgiven; more conscious than
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_211'>211</span>ever before that this young wife was a possession
-to be proud of, since, when she chose, she
-could eclipse even Olivia. The jealousy which
-could so inspire her flattered his man’s vanity,
-and made her love more precious; for not yet had
-he learned all its depth, nor how to be worthy of
-it. The reverence he had always felt increased
-fourfold, but the affection began to burn with a
-stronger flame; and Canaris, for the first time,
-tasted the pure happiness of loving another
-better than himself. Glad to feel, yet ashamed
-to own, a sentiment whose sincerity made it
-very sweet, he kept it to himself, and showed no
-sign, except a new and most becoming humility
-of manner when with Gladys, as if silently asking
-pardon for many shortcomings. With Helwyze
-he was cold and distant, evidently dreading
-to have him discover the change he had foretold,
-and feeling as if his knowledge of it would profane
-the first really sacred emotion the young
-man had known since his mother died.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Anxious for some screen behind which to
-hide the novel, yet most pleasurable, sensations
-which beset him, he found Olivia a useful friend,
-and still kept up some semblance of the admiration,
-out of which all dangerous ardor was fast
-fading. She saw this at once, and did not
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_212'>212</span>regret it: for she had a generous nature, which
-an all-absorbing and unhappy passion had not
-entirely spoiled.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Obedience to Helwyze was her delight; but,
-knowing him better than any other human being
-could, she was troubled by his increasing interest
-in Gladys, more especially since discovering
-that the girl possessed the originality, fire, and
-energy which were more attractive to him than
-her youth, gentleness, or grace. Jealousy was
-stronger than the desire to obey; and, calling it
-compassion, Olivia resolved to be magnanimous,
-and spare Gladys further pain, letting Canaris
-return to his allegiance, as he seemed inclined
-to do, unhindered by any act of hers.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The poor child is so young, so utterly unable
-to cope with me, it is doubly cruel to torment
-her, just to gratify a whim of Jasper’s. Better
-make my peace handsomely, and be her friend,
-than rob her of the only treasure she possesses,
-since I do not covet it,” she thought, driving
-through the May-day sunshine, to carry Jasper the
-earliest sprays of white and rosy hawthorn from
-the villa garden, whither she had been to set all
-in order for the summer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze was not yet visible; and, full of her
-new design, Olivia hastened up to find Gladys,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_213'>213</span>meaning by some friendly word, some unmistakable
-but most delicate hint, to reassure her
-regarding the errant young husband, whom she
-had not yet learned to hold.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was no answer to her hasty tap, and
-Olivia went in to seek yet further. Half-way
-across the larger apartment she paused abruptly,
-and stood looking straight before her,
-with a face which passed rapidly from its first
-expression of good-will to one of surprise, then
-softened, till tears stood in the brilliant eyes,
-and some sudden memory or thought made that
-usually proud countenance both sad and tender.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys sat alone in her little room, her work
-lying on her knee, her arms folded, her head bent,
-singing to herself as she rocked to and fro, lost
-in some reverie that made her lips smile faintly,
-and her voice very low. She often sat so now,
-but Olivia had never seen her thus; and, seeing,
-divined at once the hope which lifted her above
-all sorrow, the help sent by Heaven, when most
-she needed it. For the song Gladys sang was a
-lullaby, the look she wore was that which comes
-to a woman’s face when she rocks her first-born
-on her knee, and above her head was a new
-picture, an angel, with the Lily of Annunciation
-in its hand.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_214'>214</span>The one precious memory of Olivia’s stormy
-life was the little daughter, who for a sweet,
-short year was all in all to her, and whose small
-grave was yearly covered with the first spring
-flowers. Fresh from this secret pilgrimage, the
-woman’s nature was at its noblest now; and
-seeing that other woman, so young, so lonely,
-yet so blest, her heart yearned over her,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“All her worser self slipped from her</div>
- <div class='line'>Like a robe,”—</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>and, hurrying in, she said, impulsively,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“O child, I wish you had a mother!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys looked up, unstartled from the calm
-in which she dwelt. Olivia’s face explained her
-words, and she answered them with the only reproach
-much pain had wrung from her,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“<em>You</em> might have been one to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is not too late! What shall I do to prove
-my sincerity?” cried Olivia, stricken with remorse.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Help me to give my little child an honest
-father.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will! show me how.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then these two women spent a memorable
-hour together; for the new tie of motherhood
-bridged across all differences of age and character,
-made confession easy, confidence sweet,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_215'>215</span>friendship possible. Yet, after all, Gladys was
-the comforter, Olivia the one who poured out
-her heart, and found relief in telling the sorrows
-that had been, the temptations that still beset
-her, the good that yet remained to answer, when
-the right chord was touched. She longed to
-give as much as she received; but when she
-had owned, with a new sense of shame, that she
-was merely playing with Canaris for her own
-amusement (being true to Helwyze even in her
-falsehood), there seemed no more for her to do,
-since Gladys asked but one other question, and
-that she could not answer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If he does not love you, and, perhaps, it is as
-you say,—only a poet’s admiration for beauty,—what
-<em>is</em> the trouble that keeps us apart? At
-first I was too blindly happy to perceive it; now
-tears have cleared my eyes, and I see that he
-hides something from me,—something which he
-longs, yet dares not tell.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I know: I saw it long ago; but Jasper alone
-can tell that secret. He holds Felix by it, and
-I fear the knowledge would be worse than the
-suspicion. Let it be: time sets all things right,
-and it is ill thwarting my poor cousin. I have
-a charming plan for you and Felix; and, when
-you have him to yourself, you may be able to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_216'>216</span>win his confidence, as, I am sure, you have
-already won his heart.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then Olivia told her plan, which was both
-generous and politic; since it made Gladys truly
-happy, proved her own sincerity, secured her
-own peace and that of the men whose lives
-seemed to become more and more inextricably
-tangled together.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Now I shall go to Jasper, and conquer all
-his opposition; for I know I am right. Dear
-little creature, what is it about you that makes
-one feel both humble and strong when one is
-near you?” asked Olivia, looking down at Gladys
-with a hand on either shoulder, and genuine
-wonder in the eyes still soft with unwonted
-tears.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“God made me truthful, and I try to keep so;
-that is all,” she answered, simply.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That is enough. Kiss me, Gladys, and make
-me better. I am not good enough to be the
-mother that I might have been to you; but I
-<em>am</em> a friend; believe that, and trust me, if you
-can?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do;” and Gladys sealed her confidence with
-both lips and hand.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Jasper, I have invited those children to
-spend the summer at the villa, since you have
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_217'>217</span>decided for the sea. Gladys is mortally tired of
-this hot-house life, so is Felix: give them a long
-holiday, or they will run away together. Mrs.
-Bland and I will take care of you till they come
-back.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia walked in upon Helwyze with this
-abrupt announcement, well knowing that persuasion
-would be useless, and vigorous measures
-surest to win the day. Artful as well as courageous
-in her assault, she answered in that one
-speech several objections against her plan, and
-suggested several strong reasons for it, sure
-that he would yield the first, and own the
-latter.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He did, with unexpected readiness; for a motive
-which she could not fathom prompted his
-seemingly careless acquiescence. He had no
-thought of relinquishing his hold on Canaris,
-since through him alone he held Gladys; but
-he often longed to escape from both for a time,
-that he might study and adjust the new power
-which had come into his life, unbidden, undesired.
-Surprise and disappointment were almost
-instantaneously followed by a sense of
-relief when Olivia spoke; for he saw at once
-that this project was a wiser one than she
-knew.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_218'>218</span>Before her rapid sentences were ended, the
-thought had come and gone, the decision was
-made, and he could answer, in a tone of indifference
-which both pleased and perplexed her,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Amiable woman, with what helpful aspirations
-are you blest. Seeing your failure with
-Felix, I have been wondering how I should get
-rid of him till he recovers from this comically
-tardy passion for his wife. They can have
-another and a longer honeymoon up at the
-villa, if they like: the other was far from romantic,
-I suspect. Well, why that sphinx-like
-expression, if you please?” he added, as Olivia
-stood regarding him from behind the fading
-hawthorn which she forgot to offer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I was wondering if I should ever understand
-you, Jasper.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Doubtful, since I shall never understand
-myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You ought, if any man; for you spend your
-life in studying yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And the more I study, the less I know. It
-is very like a child with a toy ark: I never
-know what animal may appear first. I put in
-my hand for a dove, and I get a serpent; I open
-the door for the sagacious elephant, and out
-rushes a tiger; I think I have found a favorite
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_219'>219</span>dog, and it is a wolf, looking ready to devour me.
-An unsatisfactory toy, better put it away and
-choose another.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze spoke in the half-jesting, half-serious
-way habitual to him; but though his mouth
-smiled, his eyes were gloomy, and Olivia hastened
-to turn his thoughts from a subject in
-which he took a morbid interest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Fanciful, but true. Now, follow your own
-excellent advice, and find wholesome amusement
-in helping me pack off the young people, and
-then ourselves. It is not too early for them to
-go at once. Canaris can come in and out as you
-want him for a month longer, then I will have
-all things ready for you in the old cottage by the
-sea. You used to be happy there: can you not
-be so again?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If you can give me back my twenty years.
-May-day is over for both of us; why try to make
-the dead hawthorn bloom again? Carry out
-your plan, and let the children be happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>They <em>were</em> very happy; for the prospect of
-entire freedom was so delicious, that Gladys had
-some difficulty in concealing her delight, while
-Canaris openly rejoiced when told of Olivia’s
-offer. All dinner-time he was talking of it; and
-afterward, under pretence of showing her a new
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_220'>220</span>plant, he took his wife into the conservatory,
-that he might continue planning how they should
-spend this unexpected holiday.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze saw them wandering arm in arm;
-Canaris talking rapidly, and Gladys listening,
-with happy laughter, to his whimsical suggestions
-and projects. Their content displeased the
-looker-on; but there was something so attractive
-in the flower-framed picture of beauty, youth,
-and joy, that he could not turn his eyes away,
-although the sight aroused strangely conflicting
-thoughts within him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He wished them gone, yet dreaded to lose the
-charm of his confined life, feeling that absence
-would inevitably become estrangement. Canaris
-never would be entirely his again; for he was
-slowly climbing upward into a region where false
-ambition could not blind, mere pleasure satisfy,
-nor license take the place of liberty. He had
-not planned to ruin the youth, but simply to let
-“the world, the flesh, and the devil” contend
-against such virtues as they found, while he sat
-by and watched the struggle.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As Olivia predicted, however, power was a
-dangerous gift to such a man; and, having come
-to feel that Canaris belonged to him, body and
-soul, he was ill-pleased at losing him just when a
-new interest was added to their lives.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_221'>221</span>Yet losing him he assuredly was; and something
-like wonder mingled with his chagrin, for
-this girl, whom he had expected to mould to his
-will, exerted over him, as well as Canaris, a soft
-control which he could neither comprehend nor
-conquer. Its charm was its unconsciousness, its
-power was its truth; for it won gently and held
-firmly the regard it sought. She certainly did
-possess the gift of surprises; for, although
-brought there as a plaything, “little Gladys,”
-without apparent effort, had subjugated haughty
-Olivia, wayward Felix, ruthless Helwyze; and
-none rebelled against her. She ruled them by
-the irresistible influence of a lovely womanhood,
-which made her daily life a sweeter poem than
-any they could write.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why did I not keep her for myself? If she
-can do so much for him, what might she not
-have done for me, had I been wise enough to
-wait,” thought Helwyze, watching the bright-haired
-figure that stood looking up to the green
-roof whence Canaris was gathering passion-flowers.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As if some consciousness of his longing
-reached her, Gladys turned to look into the
-softly lighted room beyond, and, seeing its master
-sit there solitary in the midst of its splendor, she
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_222'>222</span>obeyed the compassionate impulse which was
-continually struggling against doubt and dislike.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It must seem very selfish and ungrateful in
-us to be so glad. Come, Felix, and amuse him
-as well as me,” she said, in a tone meant for his
-ear alone. But Helwyze heard both question
-and answer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have been court-fool long enough. ’Tis a
-thankless office, and I am tired of it,” replied
-Canaris, in the tone of a prisoner asked to go
-back when the door of his cell stands open.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“<em>I</em> must go, for there is Jean with coffee.
-Follow, like a good boy, when you have put your
-posy into a song, which I will set to music by
-and by, as your reward,” said Gladys, turning
-reluctantly away.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You make goodness so beautiful, that it is
-easy to obey. There is my posy set to music at
-once, for you are a song without words, <span lang="es" xml:lang="es"><i>cariña</i></span>;”
-and Canaris threw the vine about her neck, with
-a look and a laugh which made it hard for her
-to go.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Jean not only brought coffee, but the card of
-a friend for Felix, who went away, promising to
-return. Gladys carefully prepared the black and
-fragrant draught which Helwyze loved, and presented
-it, with a sweet friendliness of mien
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_223'>223</span>which would have made hemlock palatable, he
-thought.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Shall I sing to you till Felix comes to give
-you something better?” she asked, offering her
-best, as if anxious to atone for the sin of being
-happy at the cost of pain to another.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Talk a little first. There will be time for
-both before he remembers us again,” answered
-Helwyze, motioning her to a seat beside him,
-with the half-imperative, half-courteous, look and
-gesture habitual to him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He will not forget: Felix always keeps his
-promises to me,” said Gladys, with an air of
-gentle pride, taking her place, not beside, but
-opposite, Helwyze, on the couch where Elaine
-had laid not long ago.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>This involuntary act of hers gave a tone to the
-conversation which followed; for Helwyze, being
-inwardly perturbed, was seized with a desire to
-hover about dangerous topics: and, seeing her
-sit there, so near and yet so far, so willing to serve,
-yet so completely mistress of herself, longed to
-ruffle that composure, if only to make her share
-the disquiet of which she was the cause.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Always?” he said, lifting his brows with an
-incredulous expression, as he replied to her assertion.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_224'>224</span>“I seldom ask any promise of him, but when
-I do, he always keeps it. You doubt that?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When you know him as well as I, you will
-believe it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I flatter myself that I know him better;
-and, judging from the past, should call him
-both fickle and, in some things, false, even to
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Up sprung the color to Gladys’s cheek, and
-her eyes shone with sudden fire, but her voice
-was low and quiet, as she answered quickly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“One is apt to look for what one wishes to
-find: <em>I</em> seek fidelity and truth, and I shall not be
-disappointed. Felix may wander, but he will
-come back to me: I have learned how to hold
-him <em>now</em>.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you are wiser than I. Pray impart the
-secret;” and, putting down his cup, Helwyze regarded
-her intently, for he saw that the spirit
-of the woman was roused to defend her wifely
-rights.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nay, I owe it to you; and, since it has prevailed
-against your enchantress, I should thank
-you for it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The delicate emphasis on the words, “your
-enchantress,” enlightened him to the fact that
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_225'>225</span>Gladys divined, in part at least, the cause of
-Olivia’s return. He did not deny, but simply
-answered, with a curious contrast between the
-carelessness of the first half of his reply, with the
-vivid interest of the latter,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Olivia has atoned for her sins handsomely.
-But what do you owe <em>me</em>? I have taught you
-nothing. I dare not try.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I did not know my own power till you showed
-it to me; unintentionally, I believe, and unconsciously,
-I used it to such purpose that Felix felt
-pride in the wife whom he had thought a child
-before. I mean the night I sang and acted
-yonder, and did both well, thanks to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I comprehend, and hope to be forgiven, since
-I gave you help or pleasure,” he answered, with
-no sign of either confusion or regret, though the
-thought shot through his mind, “Can she remember
-what came after?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Questionable help, and painful pleasure, yet
-it was a memorable hour and a useful one; so
-I pardon you, since after the troubled delusion
-comes a happy reality.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>There was a double meaning in her words,
-and a double reproach in the glance which went
-from the spot where she had played her part, to
-the garland still about her neck.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_226'>226</span>“Your yoke is a light one, and you wear it
-gracefully. Long may it be so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze thought to slip away thus from the
-subject; for those accusing eyes were hard to
-meet. But Gladys seemed moved to speak with
-more than her usual candor, as if anxious to
-leave no doubts behind her; and, sitting in the
-self-same place, uttered words which moved him
-even more than those which she had whispered
-in her tormented sleep.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, my yoke is not light;” she said, in that
-grave, sweet voice of hers, looking down at the
-mystic purple blossom on her breast, with the
-symbols of a divine passion at its heart. “I
-put it on too ignorantly, too confidingly, and at
-times the duties, the responsibilities, which
-I assumed with it weigh heavily. I am just
-learning how beautiful they are, how sacred they
-should be, and trying to prove worthy of them.
-I know that Felix did not love as I loved, when
-he married me,—from pity, I believe. No one
-told me this: I felt, I guessed it, and would
-have given him back his liberty, if, after patient
-trial, I had found that I could not make him
-happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Can you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, thank God! not only happy, but good;
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_227'>227</span>and henceforth duty is delight, for I can teach
-him to love as I love, and he is glad to learn
-of me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Months before, when the girl Gladys had
-betrayed her maiden tenderness, she had glowed
-like the dawn, and found no language but her
-blushes; now the woman sat there steadfast
-and passion-pale, owning her love with the
-eloquence of fervent speech; both pleading
-and commanding, in the name of wifehood and
-motherhood, for the right to claim the man she
-had won at such cost.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And if you fail?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall not fail, unless you come between us.
-I have won Olivia’s promise not to tempt Felix’s
-errant fancy with her beauty. Can I not win
-yours to abstain from troubling his soul with
-still more harmful trials? It is to ask this that
-I speak now, and I believe I shall not speak in
-vain.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze bent and looked into her face as he
-uttered that one word below his breath. He
-dared do no more; for there was that about her,
-perilously frank and lovely though she was,
-which held in check his lawless spirit, and made
-it reverence, even while it rebelled against her
-power over him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_228'>228</span>She neither shrank nor turned aside, but
-studied earnestly that unmoved countenance
-which hid a world of wild emotion so successfully,
-that even her eyes saw no token of it,
-except the deepening line between the brows.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Because I am bold enough to think I know
-you better even than Olivia does; that you are
-not cold and cruel, and, having given me the
-right to live for Felix, you will not disturb our
-peace; that, if I look into your soul, as I looked
-into my husband’s, I shall find there what I seek,—justice
-as well as generosity.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You shall!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I knew you would not disappoint me. For
-this promise I am more grateful than words can
-express, since it takes away all fear for Felix,
-and shows me that I was right in appealing to
-the heart which you try to kill. Ah! be your
-best self always, and so make life a blessing, not
-the curse you often call it,” she added, giving
-him a smile like sunshine, a cordial glance which
-was more than he could bear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“With you I am. Stay, and show me how
-to do it,” he began, stretching both hands towards
-her with an almost desperate urgency in
-voice and gesture.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Gladys neither saw nor heard; for at
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_229'>229</span>that moment Felix came through the hall singing
-one of the few perfect love songs in the
-world,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“<span lang="it" xml:lang="it">Che farò senza</span> Eurydice.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>“See, he does keep his promise to me: I
-knew he would come back!” she cried delightedly,
-and hurried to meet him, leaving Helwyze
-nothing but the passion-flowers to fill his empty
-hands.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_230'>230</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XV.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>“Back again, earlier than before. But not
-to stay long, thank Heaven! By another
-month we will be truly at home, my Gladys,”
-whispered Canaris, as they went up the steps, in
-the mellow September sunshine.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I hope so!” she answered, fervently, and
-paused an instant before entering the door; for,
-coming from the light and warmth without, it
-seemed as dark and chilly as the entrance to a
-tomb.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are tired, love? Come and rest before
-you see a soul.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With a new sort of tenderness, Canaris led her
-up to her own little bower, and lingered there to
-arrange the basket of fresh recruits she had
-brought for her winter garden: while Gladys
-lay contentedly on the couch where he placed
-her, looking about the room as if greeting old
-friends; but her eyes always came back to him,
-full of a reposeful happiness which proved that all
-was well with her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_231'>231</span>“There! now the little fellows sit right comfortably
-in the moss, and will soon feel at home.
-I’ll go find Mother Bland, and see what his
-Serene Highness is about,” said the young man,
-rising from his work, warm and gay, but in no
-haste to go, as he had been before.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys remembered that; and when, at last,
-he left her, she shut her eyes to re-live, in
-thought, the three blissful months she had spent
-in teaching him to love her with the love in
-which self bears no part. Before the happy
-reverie was half over, the old lady arrived; and,
-by the time the young one was ready, Canaris
-came to fetch her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My dearest, I am afraid we must give up our
-plan,” he said, softly, as he led her away: “Helwyze
-is so changed, I come to tell you, lest it
-should shock you when you see him. I think it
-would be cruel to go at once. Can you wait a
-little longer?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If we ought. How is he changed?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Just worn away, as a rock is by the beating
-of the sea, till there seems little left of him except
-the big eyes and greater sharpness of both
-tongue and temper. Say nothing about it, and
-seem not to notice it; else he will freeze you
-with a look, as he did me when I exclaimed.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_232'>232</span>“Poor man! we will be very patient, very kind;
-for it must be awful to think of dying with no
-light beyond,” sighed Gladys, touching the cross
-at her white throat.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A Dante without a Beatrice: I am happier
-than he;” and Canaris laid his cheek against
-hers with the gesture of a boy, the look of a man
-who has found the solace which is also his salvation.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze received them quietly, a little coldly,
-even; and Gladys reproached herself with too
-long neglect of what she had assumed as a duty,
-when she saw how ill he looked, for <em>his</em> summer
-had not been a blissful one. He had spent it in
-wishing for her, and in persuading himself that
-the desire was permissible, since he asked nothing
-but what she had already given him,—her
-presence and her friendship. It was her intellect
-he loved and wanted, not her heart; that
-she might give her husband wholly, since he understood
-and cared for affection only: her mind,
-with all its lovely possibilities, Helwyze coveted,
-and reasoned himself into the belief that he had
-a right to enjoy it, conscious all the while that
-his purpose was a delusion and a snare. Olivia
-had mourned over the moody taciturnity which
-made a lonely cranny of the cliffs his favorite resort,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_233'>233</span>where he sat, day after day, watching, with an
-irresistible fascination, the ever-changing sea,—beautiful
-and bitter as the hidden tide of thought
-and feeling in his own breast, where lay the
-image of Gladys, as placid, yet as powerful, as the
-moon which ruled the ebb and flow of that vaster
-ocean. Being a fatalist for want of a higher
-faith, he left all to chance, and came home
-simply resolved to enjoy what was left him as long
-and as unobtrusively as possible; since Felix
-owed him much, and Gladys need never know
-what she had prayed <em>not</em> to know.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Sitting at the table, as they sat almost a
-year ago, he watched the two young faces as he
-had done then, finding each, unlike his own,
-changed for the better. Gladys was a girl no
-longer; and the new womanliness which had
-come to her was of the highest type, for inward
-beauty lent its imperishable loveliness to features
-faulty in themselves, and character gave its indescribable
-charm to the simplest manners.
-Helwyze saw all this; and perceiving also how
-much heart had already quickened intellect, began
-to long for both, and to grudge his pupil to her
-new master.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris seemed to have lost something of his
-boyish comeliness, and had taken on a manlier air
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_234'>234</span>of strength and stability, most becoming, and
-evidently a source of pardonable pride to him.
-At his age even three months could work a serious
-alteration in one so easily affected by all
-influences; and Helwyze felt a pang of envy as
-he saw the broad shoulders and vigorous limbs,
-the wholesome color in the cheeks, and best of
-all, the serene content of a happy heart.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What have you been doing to yourself,
-Felix? Have you discovered the Elixir of Life
-up there? If so, impart the secret, and let me
-have a sip,” he said, as Canaris pushed away
-his plate after satisfying a hearty appetite with
-the relish of a rustic.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Gladys did,” he answered, with a nod across
-the table, which said much. “She would not let
-me idle about while waiting for ideas: she just
-set me to work. I dug acres, it seemed to me,
-and amazed the gardener with my exploits.
-Liked it, too; for she was overseer, and would
-not let me off till I had done my task and
-earned my wages. A wonderfully pleasant life,
-and I am the better for it, in spite of my sunburn
-and blisters;” and Canaris stretched out a
-pair of sinewy brown hands with an air of satisfaction
-which made Gladys laugh so blithely it
-was evident that their summer had been full of
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_235'>235</span>the innocent jollity of youth, fine weather, and
-congenial pastime.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Adam and Eve in Eden, with all the modern
-improvements. Not even a tree of knowledge or
-a serpent to disturb you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Oh, yes, we had them both; but we only ate
-the good fruit, and the snake did not tempt me!”
-cried Gladys, anxious to defend her Paradise
-even from playful mockery.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He did me. I longed to kill him, but my
-Eve owed him no grudge, and would not permit
-me to do it; so the old enemy sunned himself in
-peace, and went into winter quarters a reformed
-reptile, I am sure.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris did not look up as he spoke, but
-Helwyze asked hastily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I hope you harvested a few fresh ideas for
-winter work? We ought to have something to
-show after so laborious a summer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have: I am going to write a novel or a
-play. I cannot decide which; but rather lean
-toward the latter, and, being particularly happy,
-feel inclined to write a tragedy;” and something
-beside the daring of an ambitious author
-sparkled in the eyes Canaris fixed upon his
-patron. It looked too much like the expression
-of a bondman about to become a freeman to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_236'>236</span>suit Helwyze; but he replied, as imperturbably
-as ever,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Try the tragedy, by all means: the novel
-would be beyond you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why, if you please?” demanded Canaris,
-loftily.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Because you have neither patience nor experience
-enough to do it well. Goethe says:
-‘In the novel it is <em>sentiments</em> and <em>events</em> that
-are exhibited; in the drama it is <em>characters</em> and
-<em>deeds</em>. The novel goes slowly forward, the drama
-must hasten. In the novel, some degree of scope
-may be allowed to chance; but it must be led
-and guided by the sentiments of the personages.
-Fate, on the other hand, which, by means of outward,
-unconnected circumstances, carries forward
-men, without their own concurrence, to an
-unforeseen catastrophe, can only have place in
-the drama. Chance may produce pathetic situations,
-but not tragic ones.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze paused there abruptly; for the memory
-which served him so well outran his tongue,
-and recalled the closing sentence of the quotation,—words
-which he had no mind to utter
-then and there,—“Fate ought always to be
-terrible; and it is in the highest sense tragic,
-when it brings into a ruinous concatenation the
-guilty man and the guiltless with him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_237'>237</span>“Then you think I <em>could</em> write a play?” asked
-Canaris, with affected carelessness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I think you could act one, better than imagine
-or write it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What, I?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, you; because you are dramatic by nature,
-and it is easier for you to express yourself
-in gesture and tone, than by written or spoken
-language. You were born for an actor, are
-fitted for it in every way, and I advise you to try
-it. It would pay better than poetry; and that
-stream <em>may</em> run dry.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys looked indignant at what she thought
-bad advice and distasteful pleasantry; but Canaris
-seemed struck and charmed with the new
-idea, protesting that he would first write, then
-act, his play, and prove himself a universal
-genius.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>No more was said just then; but long afterward
-the conversation came back to him like an
-inspiration, and was the seed of a purpose which,
-through patient effort, bore fruit in a brilliant
-and successful career: for Canaris, like many
-another man, did not know his own strength or
-weakness yet, neither the true gift nor the
-power of evil which lay unsuspected within
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_238'>238</span>So the old life began again, at least in outward
-seeming; but it was impossible for it to
-last long. The air was too full of the electricity
-of suppressed and conflicting emotions to be
-wholesome; former relations could not be resumed,
-because sincerity had gone out of them;
-and the quiet, which reigned for a time, was
-only the lull before the storm.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys soon felt this, but tried to think it was
-owing to the contrast between the free, happy
-days she had enjoyed so much, and uttered no
-complaint; for Felix was busy with his play,
-sanguine as ever, inspired now by a nobler ambition
-than before, and happy in his work.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze had flattered himself that he could
-be content with the harmless shadow, since he
-could not possess the sweet substance of a love
-whose seeming purity was its most delusive danger.
-But he soon discovered “how bitter a thing
-it is to look into happiness through another man’s
-eyes;” and, even while he made no effort to rob
-Canaris of his treasure, he hated him for possessing
-it, finding the hatred all the more poignant,
-because it was his own hand which had forced
-Felix to seize and secure it. He had thought
-to hold and hide this new secret; but it held
-him, and would not be hidden, for it was
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_239'>239</span>stronger than even his strong will, and ruled
-him with a power which at times filled him with
-a sort of terror. Having allowed it to grow, and
-taken it to his bosom, he could not cast it out
-again, and it became a torment, not the comfort
-he had hoped to find it. His daily affliction
-was to see how much the young pair were to
-each other, to read in their faces a hundred
-happy hopes and confidences in which he had
-no part, and to remember the confession wrung
-from the lips dearest to him, that his death
-would bring to them their much-desired freedom.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At times he was minded to say “Go,” but the
-thought of the utter blank her absence would
-leave behind daunted him. Often an almost
-uncontrollable desire to tell her that which
-would mar her trust in her husband tempted
-him; for, having yielded to a greater temptation,
-all lesser ones seemed innocent beside it; and,
-worse than all, the old morbid longing for some
-excitement, painful even, if it could not be
-pleasurable, goaded him to the utterance of half
-truths, which irritated Canaris and perplexed
-Gladys, till she could no longer doubt the cause
-of this strange mood. It seemed as if her
-innocent hand gave the touch which set the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_240'>240</span>avalanche slipping swiftly but silently to its
-destructive fall.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>One day when Helwyze was pacing to and fro
-in the library, driven by the inward storm which
-no outward sign betrayed, except his excessive
-pallor and unusual restlessness, she looked up
-from her book, asking compassionately,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Are you suffering, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Torment.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Can I do nothing?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She went on reading, as if glad to be left in
-peace; for distrust, as well as pity, looked out
-from her frank eyes, and there was no longer
-any pleasure in the duties she performed for
-Canaris’s sake.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Helwyze, jealous even of the book which
-seemed to absorb her, soon paused again, to ask,
-in a calmer tone,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What interests you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“‘The Scarlet Letter.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The hands loosely clasped behind him were
-locked more closely by an involuntary gesture,
-as if the words made him wince; otherwise unmoved,
-he asked again, with the curiosity he
-often showed about her opinions of all she
-read,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_241'>241</span>“What do you think of Hester?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I admire her courage; for she repented, and
-did not hide her sin with a lie.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you must despise Dimmesdale?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I ought, perhaps; but I cannot help pitying
-his weakness, while I detest his deceit: he
-loved so much.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So did Roger;” and Helwyze drew nearer,
-with the peculiar flicker in his eyes, as of a
-light kindled suddenly behind a carefully drawn
-curtain.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At first; then his love turned to hate, and
-he committed the unpardonable sin,” answered
-Gladys, much moved by that weird and wonderful
-picture of guilt and its atonement.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The unpardonable sin!” echoed Helwyze,
-struck by her words and manner.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hawthorne somewhere describes it as ‘the
-want of love and reverence for the human soul,
-which makes a man pry into its mysterious depths,
-not with a hope or purpose of making it better,
-but from a cold, philosophical curiosity. This
-would be the separation of the intellect from the
-heart: and this, perhaps, would be as unpardonable
-a sin as to doubt God, whom we cannot
-harm; for in doing this we must inevitably do
-great wrong both to ourselves and others.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_242'>242</span>As she spoke, fast and earnestly, Gladys felt
-herself upon the brink of a much-desired, but
-much-dreaded, explanation; for Canaris, while
-owning to her that there <em>was</em> a secret, would not
-tell it till Helwyze freed him from his promise.
-She thought that he delayed to ask this absolution
-till she was fitter to bear the truth, whatever it
-might be; and she had resolved to spare her
-husband the pain of an avowal, by demanding it
-herself of Helwyze. The moment seemed to
-have come, and both knew it; for he regarded
-her with the quick, piercing look which read her
-purpose before she could put it into words.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are right; yet Roger was the wronged
-one, and the others deserved to suffer.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“They did; but Hester’s suffering ennobled
-her, because nobly borne; Dimmesdale’s destroyed
-him, because he paltered weakly with his
-conscience. Roger let his wrong turn him from
-a man into a devil, and deserves the contempt
-and horror he rouses in us. The keeping of the
-secret makes the romance; the confession of it is
-the moral, showing how falsehood can ruin a
-life, and truth only save it at the last.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never have a secret, Gladys: they are hard
-masters, whom we hate, yet dare not rebel
-against.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_243'>243</span>His accent of sad sincerity seemed to clear the
-way for her, and she spoke out, briefly and
-bravely,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sir, <em>you</em> dare any thing! Tell me what it is
-which makes Felix obey you against his will.
-He owns it, but will not speak till you consent.
-Tell me, I beseech you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Could you bear it?” he asked, admiring her
-courage, yet doubtful of the wisdom of purchasing
-a moment’s satisfaction at such a cost; for,
-though he could cast down her idol, he dared not
-set up another in its place.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Try me!” she cried: “nothing can lessen my
-love, and doubt afflicts me more than the hardest
-truth.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I fear not: with you love and respect go
-hand in hand, and some sins you would find very
-hard to pardon.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Involuntarily Gladys shrunk a little, and her
-eye questioned his inscrutable face, as she answered
-slowly, thinking only of her husband,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Something very mean and false <em>would</em> be
-hard to forgive; but not some youthful fault,
-some shame borne for others, or even a crime, if
-a very human emotion, a generous but mistaken
-motive, led to it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then this secret is better left untold; for it
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_244'>244</span>would try you sorely to know that Felix <em>had</em>
-been guilty of the fault you find harder to forgive
-than a crime,—deceit. Wait a little, till you are
-accustomed to the thought, then you shall have
-the facts; and pity, even while you must despise,
-him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>While he spoke, Gladys sat like one nerving
-herself to receive a blow; but at the last words
-she suddenly put up her hand as if to arrest it,
-saying, hurriedly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No! do not tell me; I cannot bear it yet, nor
-from you. He shall tell me; it will be easier
-so, and less like treachery. O sir,” she added,
-in a passionately pleading tone, “use mercifully
-whatever bitter knowledge you possess!
-Remember how young he is, how neglected as
-a boy, how tempted he may have been; and
-deal generously, honorably with him,—and with
-me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Her voice broke there. She spread her hands
-before her eyes, and fled out of the room, as if in
-his face she read a more disastrous confession
-than any Felix could ever make. Helwyze stood
-motionless, looking as he looked the night she
-spoke more frankly but less forcibly: and when
-she vanished, he stole away to his own room, as
-he stole then; only now his usually colorless
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_245'>245</span>cheek burned with a fiery flush, and his hand
-went involuntarily to his breast, as if, like Dimmesdale,
-he carried an invisible scarlet letter
-branded there.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_246'>246</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XVI.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>Neither had heard the door of that inner
-room open quietly; neither had seen Canaris
-stand upon the threshold for an instant, then
-draw back, looking as if he had found another
-skeleton to hide in the cell where he was laboring
-at the third act of the tragedy which he was to
-live, not write.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He had heard the last words Gladys said, he
-had seen the last look Helwyze wore, and, like a
-flash of lightning, the truth struck and stunned
-him. At first he sat staring aghast at the thing
-he plainly saw, yet hardly comprehended. Then
-a sort of fury seized and shook him, as he sprang
-up with hands clenched, eyes ablaze, looking as
-if about to instantly avenge the deadliest injury
-one man could do another. But the half savage
-self-control adversity had taught stood him in
-good stead now, curbing the first natural but
-reckless wrath which nerved every fibre of his
-strong young body with an almost irresistible
-impulse to kill Helwyze without a word.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_247'>247</span>The gust of blind passion subsided quickly
-into a calmer, but not less dangerous, mood; and,
-fearing to trust himself so near his enemy,
-Canaris rushed away, to walk fast and far, unconscious
-where he went, till the autumnal
-gloaming brought him back, master of himself,
-he thought.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>While he wandered aimlessly about the city,
-he had been recalling the past with the vivid
-skill which at such intense moments seems to
-bring back half-forgotten words, apparently unnoticed
-actions, and unconscious impressions;
-as fire causes invisible letters to stand out upon
-a page where they are traced in sympathetic
-ink.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Not a doubt of Gladys disturbed the ever-deepening
-current of a love the more precious
-for its newness, the more powerful for its ennobling
-influence. But every instinct of his
-nature rose in revolt against Helwyze, all the
-more rebellious and resentful for the long subjection
-in which he had been held.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A master stronger than the ambition which
-had been the ruling passion of his life so far
-asserted its supremacy now, and made it possible
-for him to pay the price of liberty without further
-weak delay or unmanly regret.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_248'>248</span>This he resolved upon, and this he believed
-he could accomplish safely and soon. But if
-Helwyze, with far greater skill and self-control,
-had failed to guide or subdue the conflicting
-passions let loose among them, how could Canaris
-hope to do it, or retard by so much as
-one minute the irresistible consequences of their
-acts? “The providence of God cannot be hurried,”
-and His retribution falls at the appointed
-time, saving, even when it seems to destroy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Returning resolute but weary, Canaris was
-relieved to find that a still longer reprieve was
-granted him; for Olivia was there, and Gladys
-apparently absorbed in the tender toil women
-love, making ready for the Christmas gift she
-hoped to give him. Helwyze sent word that he
-was suffering one of his bad attacks, and bade
-them all good-night; so there was nothing to
-mar the last quiet evening these three were ever
-to pass together.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>When Canaris had seen Olivia to the winter
-quarters she inhabited near by, he went up to
-his own room, where Gladys lay, looking like a
-child who had cried itself to sleep. The sight
-of the pathetic patience touched with slumber’s
-peace, in the tear-stained face upon the pillow,
-wrung his heart, and, stooping, he softly kissed
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_249'>249</span>the hand upon the coverlet,—the small hand
-that wore a wedding-ring, now grown too large
-for it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“God bless my dearest!” he whispered, with a
-sob in his throat. “Out of this accursed house
-she shall go to-morrow, though I leave all but
-love and liberty behind me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Sleepless, impatient, and harassed by thoughts
-that would not let him rest, he yielded to the uncanny
-attraction which the library now had for
-him, and went down again, deluding himself
-with the idea that he could utilize emotion and
-work for an hour or two.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The familiar room looked strange to him; and
-when the door of Helwyze’s apartment opened
-quietly, he started, although it was only Stern,
-coming to nap before the comfortable fire.
-Something in Canaris’s expectant air and attitude
-made the man answer the question his
-face seemed to ask.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Quiet at last, sir. He has had no sleep for
-many nights, and is fairly worn out.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You look so, too. Go and rest a little. I
-shall be here writing for several hours, and can
-see to him,” said Canaris, kindly, as the poor old
-fellow respectfully tried to swallow a portentous
-gape behind his hand.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_250'>250</span>“Thank you, Mr. Felix: it would be a comfort
-just to lose myself. Master is not likely to want
-any thing; but, if he should call, just step and
-give him his drops, please. They are all ready.
-I fixed them myself: he is so careless when he
-is half-asleep, and, not being used to this new
-stuff, an overdose might kill him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Giving these directions, Stern departed with
-alacrity, and left Canaris to his watch. He had
-often done as much before, but never with such
-a sense of satisfaction as now; and though he
-carefully abstained from giving himself a reason
-for the act, no sooner had the valet gone than
-he went to look in upon Helwyze, longing to
-call out commandingly, “Wake, and hear me!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But the helplessness of the man disarmed
-him, the peaceful expression of the sharp, white
-features mutely reproached him, the recollection
-of what he would awaken to made Canaris
-ashamed to exult over a defeated enemy; and
-he turned away, with an almost compassionate
-glance at the straight, still figure, clearly defined
-against the dusky background of the darkened
-room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He looks as if he were dead.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris did not speak aloud, but it seemed as
-if a voice echoed the words with a suggestive
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_251'>251</span>emphasis, that made him pause as he approached
-the study-table, conscious of a quick thrill of
-comprehension tingling through him like an
-answer. Why he covered both ears with a sudden
-gesture, he could not tell, nor why he hastily
-seated himself, caught up the first book at hand
-and began to read without knowing what he
-read. Only for an instant, however, then the
-words grew clear before him, and his eyes rested
-on this line,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line'>“σύ θην ἃ χρῄζεις, ταῦτ’ ἐπιγλωσσᾷ Διός.”<a id='r1' /><a href='#f1' class='c010'><sup>[1]</sup></a></div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>He dropped the book, as if it had burnt him,
-and looked over his shoulder, almost expecting
-to see the dark thought lurking in his mind
-take shape before him. Empty, dim, and quiet
-was the lofty room; but a troubled spirit and
-distempered imagination peopled it with such
-vivid and tormenting phantoms of the past, the
-present and the future, that he scarcely knew
-whether he was awake or dreaming, as he sat
-there alone, waiting for midnight, and the spectre
-of an uncommitted deed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>His wandering eye fell on a leaf of paper,
-lying half-shrivelled by the heat of the red fire.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_252'>252</span>This recalled the hour when, in the act of burning
-that first manuscript, Helwyze had saved
-him, and all that followed shortly after.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Not a pleasant memory, it seemed; for his face
-darkened, and his glance turned to a purple-covered
-volume, left on the low chair where
-Gladys usually sat, and often read in that beloved
-book. A still more bitter recollection
-bowed his head at sight of it, till some newer,
-sharper thought seemed to pierce him with a
-sudden stab, and he laid his clenched hand on
-the pile of papers before him, as if taking an
-oath more binding than the one made there
-nearly three years ago.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He had been reading Shakespeare lately, for
-one may copy the great masters; and now, as he
-tried with feverish energy to work upon his play,
-the grim or gracious models he had been studying
-seemed to rise and live before him. But
-one and all were made subject to the strong
-passions which ruled him; jealousy, ambition,
-revenge, and love wore their appropriate guise,
-acted their appropriate parts, and made him one
-with them. Othello would only show himself
-as stabbing the perfidious Iago; Macbeth always
-grasped at the air-drawn dagger; Hamlet was
-continually completing his fateful task; and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_253'>253</span>Romeo whispered, with the little vial at his
-lips,—</p>
-<div class='lg-container-b c000'>
- <div class='linegroup'>
- <div class='group'>
- <div class='line in12'>“Oh, true apothecary!</div>
- <div class='line'>Thy drugs are quick.”</div>
- </div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris tried to chase away these troubled
-spirits; but they would not down, and, yielding
-to them, he let his mind wander as it would, till
-he had “supped full of horrors,” feeling as if in
-the grasp of a nightmare which led him, conscious,
-but powerless, toward some catastrophe
-forefelt, rather than foreseen. How long this
-lasted he never knew; for nothing broke the
-silence growing momently more terrible as he
-listened to the stealthy tread of the temptation
-coming nearer and nearer, till it appeared in the
-likeness of himself, while a voice said, in the
-ordinary tone which so often makes dreams
-grotesque at their most painful climax,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Master is so careless when half-asleep; and,
-not being used to this new stuff, an overdose
-might kill him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As if these words were the summons for which
-he had been waiting, Canaris rose up suddenly
-and went into that other room, too entirely absorbed
-by the hurrying emotions which swept
-him away to see what looked like a new phantom
-coming in. It might have been the shade of
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_254'>254</span>young Juliet, gentle Desdemona, poor Ophelia,
-or, better still the <i>eidolen</i> of Margaret wandering,
-pale and pensive, through the baleful darkness
-of this <span lang="de" xml:lang="de"><i>Walpurgis Nacht</i></span>.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He did not see it; he saw nothing but the
-glass upon the table where the dim light burned,
-the little vial with its colorless contents, and
-Helwyze stirring in his bed, as if about to wake
-and speak. Conscious only of the purpose
-which now wholly dominated him, Canaris,
-without either haste or hesitation, took the
-bottle, uncorked, and held it over the glass
-half-filled with water. But before a single drop
-could fall a cold hand touched his own, and,
-with a start that crushed the vial in his grasp,
-he found himself eye to eye with Gladys.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Guilt was frozen upon his face, terror upon
-hers; but neither spoke, for a third voice muttered
-drowsily, “Stern, give me more; don’t
-rouse me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris could not stir; Gladys whispered, with
-white lips, and her hand upon the cup,—“Dare
-I give it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He could only answer by a sign, and cowered
-into the shadow, while she put the draught to
-Helwyze’s lips, fearing to let him waken now.
-He drank drowsily, yet seemed half-conscious of
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_255'>255</span>her presence; for he looked up with sleep-drunken
-eyes, and murmured, as if to the familiar
-figure of a dream,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mine asleep, his awake,” then whispering
-brokenly about “Felix, Vivien, and daring any
-thing,” he was gone again into the lethargy
-which alone could bring forgetfulness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys feared her husband would hear the
-almost inaudible words; but he had vanished,
-and when she glided out to join him, carefully
-closing the door behind her, a glance showed
-that her fear was true.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Relieved, yet not repentant, he stood there
-looking at a red stain on his hand with such a
-desperate expression that Gladys could only cling
-to him, saying, in a terror-stricken whisper,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Felix, for God’s sake, come away! What are
-you doing here?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Going mad, I think,” he answered, under his
-breath; but added, lifting up his hand with an
-ominous gesture, “I would have done it if you
-had not stopped me. It would be better for us
-all if he were dead.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not so; thank Heaven I came in time to
-save you from the sin of murder!” she said,
-holding fast the hand as yet unstained by any
-blood but its own.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_256'>256</span>“I <em>have</em> committed murder in my heart. Why
-not profit by the sin, since it is there? I hate
-that man! I have cause, and you know it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, no, not all! You shall tell me every
-thing; but not now, not here.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The time has come, and this is the place to
-tell it. Sit there and listen. I must untie or
-cut the snarl to-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He pointed to the great chair; and, grateful
-for any thing that could change or stem the
-dangerous current of his thoughts, Gladys sank
-down, feeling as if, after this shock, she was prepared
-for any discovery or disaster. Canaris
-stood before her, white and stern, as if he were
-both judge and culprit; for a sombre wrath still
-burned in his eye, and his face worked with the
-mingled shame and contempt warring within
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I heard and saw this afternoon, when you two
-talked together yonder, and I knew then what
-made you so glad to go away, so loath to come
-back. <em>You</em> have had a secret as well as I.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I was never sure until to-day. Do not speak
-of that: it is enough to know it, and forget it if
-we can. Tell your secret: it has burdened you
-so long, you will be glad to end it. <em>He</em> would
-have done so, but I would not let him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_257'>257</span>“I thought it would be hard to tell you, yet
-now my fault looks so small and innocent beside
-his, I can confess without much shame or fear.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But it was not easy; for he had gone so far
-into a deeper, darker world that night, it was difficult
-to come to lesser sins and lighter thoughts.
-As he hesitated for a word, his eye fell upon the
-purple-covered book, and he saw a way to shorten
-his confession. Catching up a pen, he bent
-over the volume an instant, then handed it to
-Gladys, open at the title-page. She knew it,—the
-dear romance, worn with much reading,—and
-looked wonderingly at the black mark drawn
-through the name, “Felix Canaris,” and the
-words, “Jasper Helwyze,” written boldly below.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What does it mean?” she asked, refusing
-to believe the discovery which the expression of
-his averted face confirmed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That I am a living lie. He wrote that book.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Every line.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But not the other?” she said; clinging to a
-last hope, as every thing seemed falling about
-her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All, except half a dozen of the songs.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Down dropped the book between them,—now
-a thing of little worth,—and, trying to conceal
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_258'>258</span>from him the contempt which even love could
-not repress, Gladys hid her face, with one reproach,
-the bitterest she could have uttered,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“O my husband! did you give up honor,
-liberty, and peace for so poor a thing as that?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It cut him to the soul: for now he saw how
-high a price he had paid for an empty name;
-how mean and poor his ambition looked; how
-truly he deserved to be despised for that of which
-he had striven to be proud. Gladys had so rejoiced
-over him as a poet, that it was the hardest task
-of all to put off his borrowed singing-robes, and
-show himself an ordinary man. He forgot that
-there was any other tribunal than this, as he
-stood waiting for his sentence, oppressed with
-the fear that out of her almost stern sense of
-honor she might condemn him to the loss of the
-respect and confidence which he had lately
-learned to value as much as happiness and love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You must despise me; but if you knew”—he
-humbly began, unable to bear the silence
-longer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Tell me, then. I will not judge until I
-know;” and Gladys, just, even in her sorrow,
-looked up with an expression which said plainer
-than words, “For better, for worse; this is the
-worse, but I love you still.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_259'>259</span>That made it possible for him to go on, fast
-and low, not stopping to choose phrases, but
-pouring out the little story of his temptation and
-fall, with a sense of intense relief that he was
-done with slavery for ever.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Neither of us coolly planned this thing; it
-came about so simply and naturally, it seemed a
-mere accident.—And yet, who can tell what <em>he</em>
-might have planned, seeing how weak I was, how
-ready to be tempted.—It happened in that second
-month, when I promised to stay; he to help me
-with my book. It was <em>all</em> mine then; but when
-we came to look at it, there was not enough to
-fill even the most modest volume; for I had
-burnt many, and must recall them, or write more.
-I tried honestly, but the power was not in me,
-and I fell into despair again; for the desire to
-be known was the breath of my life.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will be, if not in this way, in some
-other; for power of some sort <em>is</em> in you. Believe
-it, and wait for it to show itself,” said Gladys,
-anxious to add patience and courage to the new
-humility and sincerity, which could not fail to
-ennoble and strengthen him in time.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bless you for that!” he answered, gratefully,
-and hurried on. “It came about in this wise:
-one day my master—he was then, but is no
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_260'>260</span>longer, thank God!—sat reading over a mass
-of old papers, before destroying them. Here he
-came upon verses written in the diaries kept
-years ago, and threw them to me, ‘to laugh
-over,’ as he said. I did not laugh: I was filled
-with envy and admiration, and begged him to
-publish them. He scorned the idea, and bade
-me put them in the fire. I begged to keep
-them, and then,—Gladys, I swear to you I cannot
-tell whether I read the project in his face,
-or whether my own evil genius put it into my
-head,—then I said, audaciously, though hardly
-dreaming he would consent, ‘You do not care
-for fame, and throw these away as worthless:
-I long for it, and see more power in these than
-in any I can hope to write for years, perhaps;
-let me add them to mine, and see what will come
-of it.’ ‘Put your own name to them, if you do,
-and take the consequences,’ he answered, in that
-brusque way of his, which seems so careless, yet
-is so often premeditated. I assented, as I would
-have done to any thing that promised a quick
-trial of my talent; for in my secret soul I
-thought some of my songs better than his metaphysical
-verses, which impressed, rather than
-charmed me. The small imposture seemed to
-amuse him; I had few scruples then, and we
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_261'>261</span>did it, with much private jesting about Beaumont
-and Fletcher, literary frauds, and borrowed
-plumage. You know the rest. The book succeeded,
-but he saved it; and the critics left me
-small consolation, for my songs were ignored as
-youthful ditties, his poems won all the praise,
-and <em>I</em> was pronounced a second Shelley.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But he? Did he claim no share of the glory?
-Was he content to let you have it all?” questioned
-Gladys, trying to understand a thing so
-foreign to her nature that it seemed incredible.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes; I offered to come down from my high
-place, as soon as I realized how little right I
-had to it. But he forbade me, saying, what I was
-fool enough to believe, that my talent only
-needed time and culture, and the sunshine of
-success to ripen it; that notoriety would be a
-burden to him, since he had neither health to
-sustain nor spirits to enjoy it; that in me he
-would live his youth over again, and, in return
-for such help as he could give, I should be a
-son to him. That touched and won me; now
-I can see in it a trap to catch and hold me, that
-he might amuse himself with my folly, play the
-generous patron, and twist my life to suit his
-ends. He likes curious and costly toys; he had
-one then, and has not paid for it yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_262'>262</span>“This other book? Tell me of that, and
-speak low, or he may hear us,” whispered
-Gladys, trembling lest fire and powder should
-meet.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With a motion of his foot Canaris sent the
-book that lay between them spinning across the
-hearth-rug out of sight, and answered, with a
-short, exultant laugh,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah! there the fowler was taken in his own
-snare. I did not see it then, and found it hard
-to understand why he should exert himself to
-please you by helping me. I thought it was a
-mere freak of literary rivalry; and, when I taxed
-him with it, he owned that, though he cared
-nothing for the world’s praise, it <em>was</em> pleasant
-to know that his powers were still unimpaired,
-and be able to laugh in his sleeve at the deluded
-critics. That was like him, and it deceived me
-till to-day. Now I know that he begrudged me
-your admiration, wanted your tears and smiles
-for himself, and did not hesitate to steal them.
-The night he so adroitly read <em>his</em> work for mine,
-he tempted me through you. I had resolved to
-deserve the love and honor you gave me; and
-again I tried, and again I failed, for my romance
-was a poor, pale thing to his. He had read it;
-and, taking the same plot, made it what you
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_263'>263</span>know, writing as only such a man could write,
-when a strong motive stimulated him to do his
-best.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But why did you submit? Why stand
-silent and let him do so false a thing?” cried
-poor Gladys, wondering when the end of the
-tangle would come.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“At first his coolness staggered me; then I
-was curious to hear, then held even, against my
-will, by admiration of the thing—and you. I
-meant to speak out, I longed to do it; but it
-was very hard, while you were praising me so eloquently.
-The words were on my lips, when in
-his face I saw a look that sealed them. He
-meant that I should utter the self-accusation
-which would lower me for ever and raise him
-in your regard. I could not bear it. There was
-no time to think, only to feel, and I vowed to
-make you happy, at all costs. I hardly thought
-he would submit; but he did, and I believed that
-it was through surprise at being outwitted for
-the moment, or pity towards you. It was neither:
-he fancied I had discovered his secret, and he
-<em>dared</em> not defy me then.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But when I was gone? You were so late
-that night: I heard your voices, sharp and angry,
-as I went away.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_264'>264</span>“Yes; that was <em>my</em> hour, and I enjoyed it.
-He had often twitted me with the hold he had
-on my name and fame, and I bore it; for, till
-I loved you, they were the dearest things I
-owned. That night I told him he <em>should not</em>
-speak; that you should enjoy your pride in
-me, even at his expense, and I refused to
-release him from his bond, as he had, more
-than once, refused to release me: for we had
-sworn never to confess till both agreed to it.
-Good heavens! how low he must have thought
-I had fallen, if I could consent to buy your happiness
-at the cost of my honor! He did think
-it: that made him yield; that is the cause of
-the contempt he has not cared to hide from me
-since then; and that adds a double edge to my
-hatred now. I was to be knave as well as fool;
-and while I blinded myself with his reflected
-light, he would have filched my one jewel from
-me. Gladys, save me, keep me, or I shall do
-something desperate yet!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Beside himself with humiliation, remorse, and
-wrath, Canaris flung himself down before her, as
-if only by clinging to that frail spar could he
-ride out the storm in which he was lost without
-compass or rudder.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then Gladys showed him that such love as
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_265'>265</span>hers could not fail, but, like an altar-fire, glowed
-the stronger for every costly sacrifice thrown
-therein. Lifting up the discrowned head, she
-laid it on her bosom with a sweet motherliness
-which comforted more than her tender words.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My poor Felix! you have suffered enough
-for this deceit; I forgive it, and keep my
-reproaches for the false friend who led you
-astray.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It was so paltry, weak, and selfish. You
-<em>must</em> despise me,” he said, wistfully, still thinking
-more of his own pain than hers.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I do despise the sin, not the dear sinner who
-repents and is an honest man again.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But a beggar.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“We have each other. Hush! stand up;
-some one is coming.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris had barely time to spring to his feet,
-when Stern came in, and was about to pass on
-in silence, though much amazed to see Gladys
-there at that hour, when the expression of the
-young man’s face made him forget decorum and
-stop short, exclaiming, anxiously,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mr. Felix, what’s the matter? Is master
-worse?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Safe and asleep. Mrs. Canaris came to see
-what I was about.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_266'>266</span>“Then, sir, if I may make so bold, the sooner
-she gets to bed again the better. It is far too
-late for her to be down here; the poor young
-lady looks half-dead,” Stern whispered, with the
-freedom of an old servant.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are right. Come, love;” and without
-another word Canaris led her away, leaving Stern
-to shake his gray head as he looked after them.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Gladys <em>was</em> utterly exhausted; and in the hall
-she faltered, saying, with a patient sigh, as she
-looked up the long stairway, “Dear, wait a little;
-it is so far,—my strength is all gone.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Canaris caught her in his arms and carried
-her away, asking himself, with a remorseful pang
-that rent his heart,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is this the murder I have committed?”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_267'>267</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XVII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>“Stern!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What time is it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Past two, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What news? I see bad tidings of some sort
-in that lugubrious face of yours; out with it!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The little boy arrived at dawn, sir,” answered
-old Stern, with a paternal air.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What little boy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Canaris, Jr., sir,” simpered the valet, venturing
-to be jocose.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The deuce he did! Precipitate, like his
-father. Where is Felix?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“With her, sir. In a state of mind, as well he
-may be, letting that delicate young thing sit up
-to keep him company over his poetry stuff,”
-muttered Stern, busying himself with the shutters.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sit up! when? where? what are you maundering
-about, man?” and Helwyze himself sat
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_268'>268</span>up among the pillows, looking unusually wide-awake.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Last night, sir, in the study. Mr. Felix
-made me go for a wink of sleep, and when I
-came back, about one, there sat Mrs. Canaris as
-white as her gown, and him looking as wild as a
-hawk. Something was amiss, I could see plain
-enough, but it wasn’t my place to ask questions;
-so I just made bold to suggest that it was late
-for her to be up, and he took her away, looking
-dazed-like. That’s all I know, sir, till I found
-the women in a great flustration this morning.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And I slept through it all?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, sir; so soundly, I was a bit anxious till
-you waked. I found the glass empty and the
-bottle smashed, and I was afraid you might
-have taken too much of that <i>choral</i> while half-asleep.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No fear; nothing kills me. Now get me
-up;” and Helwyze made his toilet with a speed
-and energy which caused Stern to consider
-“<i>choral</i>” a wonderful discovery.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A pretence of breakfast; then Helwyze sat
-down to wait for further tidings,—externally
-quite calm, internally tormented by a great anxiety,
-till Olivia came in, full of cheering news
-and sanguine expectations.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_269'>269</span>“Gladys is asleep, with baby on her arm, and
-Felix adoring in the background. Poor boy!
-he cannot bear much, and is quite bowed down
-with remorse for something he has done. Do
-you know what?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As she spoke, Olivia stooped to pick up a
-book half-hidden by the fringe of a low chair.
-It lay face downward, and, in smoothing the
-crumpled leaves before closing it, she caught
-sight of a black and blotted name. So did Helwyze;
-a look of intelligence flashed over his
-face, and, taking the volume quickly, he answered,
-with his finger on the title-page,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, now I know, and so may you; for if
-one woman is in the secret, it will soon be out.
-Felix wrote that, and it is true.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I thought so! One woman <em>has</em> known it for
-a long time; nevertheless, the secret was kept
-for your sake;” and Olivia’s dark face sparkled
-with malicious merriment, as she saw the expression
-of mingled annoyance, pride, and pleasure
-in his.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My compliments and thanks: you are the
-eighth wonder of the world. But what led you
-to suspect this little fraud of ours?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I did not, till the last book came; then I
-was struck here and there by certain peculiar
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_270'>270</span>phrases, certain tender epithets, which I think
-no one ever heard from your lips but me. These,
-in the hero’s mouth, made me sure that you had
-helped Canaris, if not done the whole yourself,
-and his odd manner at times confirmed my suspicion.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have a good memory: I forgot that.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have had so few such words from you
-that it is easy to remember them,” murmured
-Olivia, reproachfully.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It seemed to touch him; for just then he
-felt deserted, well knowing that he had lost
-both Felix and Gladys; but Olivia never would
-desert him, no matter what discovery was made,
-or who might fall away. He thanked her for
-her devotion, with the first ray of hope given for
-years, as he said, in the tone so seldom heard,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You shall have more henceforth; for you
-are a staunch friend, and now I have no other.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear Jasper, you shall never find me wanting.
-<em>I</em> will be true to the death!” she cried,
-blooming suddenly into her best and brightest
-beauty, with the delight of this rare moment.
-Then, fearing to express too much, she wisely
-turned again to Felix, asking curiously, “But
-why did you let this young daw deck himself
-out in your plumes? It enrages me, to think
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_271'>271</span>of his receiving the praise and honor due to
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He told her briefly, adding, with more than
-his accustomed bitterness,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What did <em>I</em> want with praise and honor?
-To be gaped and gossiped about would have
-driven me mad. It pleased that vain boy as
-much as fooling the public amused me. A whim,
-and, being a dishonest one, we shall both have
-to pay for it, I suppose.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What will he do?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He has told Gladys, to begin with; and, if it
-had been possible, would have taken some decisive
-step to-day. He can do nothing sagely and
-quietly: there must be a dramatic <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>dénouement</i></span>
-to every chapter of his life. I think he has one
-now.” Helwyze laughed, as he struck back the
-leaves of the book he still held, and looked at
-the dashing signature of his own name.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“<em>He</em> wrote that, then?” asked Olivia.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, here, at midnight, while I lay asleep
-and let him tell the tale as he liked to Gladys.
-No wonder it startled her, so tragically given.
-The sequel may be more tragic yet: I seem to
-feel it in the air.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What shall <em>you</em> do?” asked Olivia, more
-anxiously than before; for Helwyze looked up
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_272'>272</span>with as sinister an expression as if he knew how
-desperate an enemy had stood over him last
-night, and when his own turn came, would be
-less merciful.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do? Nothing. They will go; I shall stay;
-tongues will wag, and I shall be tormented. I
-shall seem the gainer, he the loser; but it will
-not be so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Involuntarily his eye went to the little chair
-where Gladys would sit no longer, and darkened
-as if some light had gone out which used
-to cheer and comfort him. Olivia saw it, and
-could not restrain the question that broke from
-her lips,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You do love her, Jasper?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall miss her; but you shall take her
-place.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Calm and a little scornful was his face, his
-voice quite steady, and a smile was shed upon
-her with the last welcome words. But Olivia
-was not deceived: the calmness was unnatural,
-the voice <em>too</em> steady, the smile too sudden; and
-her heart sank as she thanked him, without
-another question. For a while they sat together
-playing well their parts, then she went away to
-Gladys, and he was left to several hours of solitary
-musing.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_273'>273</span>Had he been a better man, he would not have
-sinned; had he been a worse one, he could not
-have suffered; being what he was, he did both,
-and, having no one else to study now, looked
-deeply into himself, and was dismayed at what
-he saw. For the new love, purer, yet more
-hopeless than the old, shone like a star above
-an abyss, showing him whither he had wandered
-in the dark.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Sunset came, filling the room with its soft
-splendor; and he watched the red rays linger
-longest in Gladys’s corner. Her little basket
-stood as she left it, her books lay orderly, her
-desk was shut, a dead flower drooped from
-the slender vase, and across the couch trailed a
-soft white shawl she had been wont to wear.
-Helwyze did not approach the spot, but stood
-afar off looking at these small familiar things
-with the melancholy fortitude of one inured to
-loss and pain. Regret rather than remorse
-possessed him as he thought, drearily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A year to-morrow since she came. How
-shall I exist without her? Where will her new
-home be?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>An answer was soon given to the last question;
-for, while his fancy still hovered about that
-nook, and the gentle presence which had vanished
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_274'>274</span>as the sunshine was fast vanishing, Canaris
-came in wearing such an expression of despair,
-that Helwyze recoiled, leaving half-uttered a
-playful inquiry about “the little son.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have no son.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dead?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dead. I have murdered both.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But Gladys?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dying; she asks for you,—come!” No
-need of that hoarse command; Helwyze was
-gone at the first word, swiftly through room and
-hall, up the stairs he had not mounted for
-months, straight to that chamber-door. There
-a hand clutched his shoulder, a breathless voice
-said, “Here <em>I</em> am first;” and Canaris passed in
-before him, motioning away a group of tearful
-women as he went.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze lingered, pale and panting, till they
-were gone; then he looked and listened, as if
-turned to stone, for in the heart of the hush
-lay Gladys, talking softly to the dead baby on
-her arm. Not mourning over it, but yearning
-with maternal haste to follow and cherish the
-creature of her love.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Only a day old; so young to go away alone.
-Even in heaven you will want your mother, darling,
-and she will come. Sleep, my baby, I will
-be with you when you wake.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_275'>275</span>A stifled sound of anguish recalled the happy
-soul, already half-way home, and Gladys turned
-her quiet eyes to her husband bending over her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear, will he come?” she whispered.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is here.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He was; and, standing on either side the bed,
-the two men seemed unconscious of each other,
-intent only upon her. Feebly she drew the
-white cover over the little cold thing in her
-bosom, as if too sacred for any eyes but hers to
-see, then lifted up her hand with a beseeching
-glance from one haggard face to the other.
-They understood; each gave the hand she asked,
-and, holding them together with the last effort
-of failing strength, she said, clear and low,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Forgive each other for my sake.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Neither spoke, having no words, but by a
-mute gesture answered as she wished. Something
-brighter than a smile rested on her face,
-and, as if satisfied, she turned again to Canaris,
-seeming to forget all else in the tender farewell
-she gave him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Remember, love, remember we shall be
-waiting for you. The new home will not be
-home to us until you come.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As her detaining touch was lifted, the two
-hands fell apart, never to meet again. Canaris
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_276'>276</span>knelt down to lay his head beside hers on the
-pillow, to catch the last accents of the beloved
-voice, sweet even now. Helwyze, forgotten by
-them both, drew back into the shadow of the
-deep red curtains, still studying with an awful
-curiosity the great mystery of death, asking,
-even while his heart grew cold within him,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Will the faith she trusted sustain her now?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It did; for, leaning on the bosom of Infinite
-Love, like a confiding child in its father’s arms,
-without a doubt or fear to mar her peace, a
-murmur or lament to make the parting harder,
-Gladys went to her own place.</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_277'>277</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>XVIII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>“For in that sleep of death, what dreams
-may come. Is this one?” was the vague
-feeling, rather than thought, of which Helwyze
-was dimly conscious, as he lay in what seemed
-a grave, so cold, so dead he felt; so powerless
-and pent, in what he fancied was his coffin. He
-remembered the slow rising of a tide of helplessness
-which chilled his blood and benumbed his
-brain, till the last idea to be distinguished was,
-“I am dying: shall I meet Gladys?” then came
-oblivion, and now, what was this?</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something was alive still—something which
-strove to see, move, speak, yet could not, till the
-mist, which obscured every sense, should clear
-away. A murmur was in the air, growing
-clearer every instant, as it rose and fell, like
-the muffled sound of waves upon a distant
-shore. Presently he recognized human voices,
-and the words they uttered,—words which had
-no meaning, till, like an electric shock, intelligence
-returned, bringing with it a great fear.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_278'>278</span>Olivia was mourning over him, and he felt her
-tears upon his face; but it was not this which
-stung him to sudden life,—it was another voice,
-saying, low, but with a terrible distinctness,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There is no hope. He may remain so for
-some years; but sooner or later the brain will
-share the paralysis of the body, and leave our
-poor friend in a state I grieve to think of.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No!” burst from Helwyze, with an effort
-which seemed to dispel the trance which held
-his faculties. Stir he could not, but speak he
-did, and opened wide the eyes which had been
-closed for hours. With the unutterable relief
-of one roused from a nightmare he recognized
-his own room, Olivia’s tender face bent over
-him, and his physician holding a hand that had
-no feeling in it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not dead yet;” he muttered, with a feeble
-sort of exultation, adding, with as feeble a
-despair and doubt, “but <em>she</em> is. Did I dream
-that?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Alas, no!” and Olivia wiped away her own
-tears from the forehead which began to work
-with the rush of returning memory and thought.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What does this numbness mean? Why are
-you here?” he asked, as his eye went from one
-face to the other.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_279'>279</span>“Dear Jasper, it means that you are ill. Stern
-found you unconscious in your chair last night.
-You are much better now, but it alarmed us, for
-we thought you dead,” replied Olivia, knowing
-that he would have the truth at any cost.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I remember thinking it was death, and being
-glad of it. Why did you bring me back? I had
-no wish to come.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>She forgave the ingratitude, and went on
-chafing the cold hand so tenderly, that Helwyze
-reproached no more, but, turning to the physician,
-demanded, with a trace of the old imperiousness
-coming back into his feeble voice,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is this to be the end of it?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I fear so, Mr. Helwyze. You will not suffer
-any more, let that comfort you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“My body may not, but my mind will suffer
-horribly. Good heavens, man, do you call this
-death in life a comfortable end? How long
-have I got to lie here watching my wits go?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is impossible to say.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But certain, sooner or later?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There is a chance,—your brain has been
-overworked: it must have rest,” began the doctor,
-trying to soften the hard facts, since his patient
-would have them.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Rest! kill me at once, then; annihilation
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_280'>280</span>would be far better than such rest as that. I
-will not lie here waiting for imbecility,—put an
-end to this, or let me!” cried Helwyze, struggling
-to lift his powerless right hand; and, finding
-it impossible, he looked about him with an
-impotent desperation which wrung Olivia’s heart,
-and alarmed the physician, although he had long
-foreseen this climax.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Both vainly tried to soothe and console; but
-after that one despairing appeal Helwyze turned
-his face to the wall, and lay so for hours.
-Asleep, they hoped, but in reality tasting the
-first bitterness of the punishment sent upon
-him as an expiation for the sin of misusing one
-of Heaven’s best gifts. No words could describe
-the terror such a fate had for him, since intellect
-had been his god, and he already felt it tottering
-to its fall. On what should he lean, if that were
-taken? where see any ray of hope to make the
-present endurable? where find any resignation
-to lighten the gloom of such a future?</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Restless mind and lawless will, now imprisoned
-in a helpless body, preyed on each other
-like wild creatures caged, finding it impossible
-to escape, and as impossible to submit. Death
-would not have daunted him, pain he had learned
-to endure; but this slow decay of his most precious
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_281'>281</span>possession he could not bear, and suffered
-a new martyrdom infinitely sharper than the old.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>How time went he never knew; for, although
-merciful unconsciousness was denied him, his
-thoughts, like avenging Furies, drove him from
-one bitter memory to another, probing his soul
-as he had probed others, and tormenting him
-with an almost supernatural activity of brain before
-its long rest began. Ages seemed to pass,
-while he took no heed of what went on about
-him. People came and went, faces bent over
-him, hands ministered to him, and voices whispered
-in the room. He knew all this, without
-the desire to do so, longing only to forget and
-be forgotten, with an increasing irritation, which
-slowly brought him back from that inner world
-of wordless pain to the outer one, which must
-be faced, and in some fashion endured.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia still sat near him, as if she had not
-stirred, though it was morning when last he
-spoke, and now night had come. The familiar
-room was dim and still, every thing already ordered
-for his comfort, and the brilliant cousin
-had transformed herself into a quiet nurse. The
-rustling silks were replaced by a soft, gray gown;
-the ornaments all gone; even the fine hair was
-half-hidden by the little kerchief of lace tied over
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_282'>282</span>it. Yet never had Olivia been more beautiful;
-for now the haughty queen had changed to a
-sad woman, wearing for her sole ornaments constancy
-and love. Worn and weary she looked,
-but a sort of sorrowful content was visible, a
-jealous tenderness, which plainly told that for
-her, at least, there was a drop of honey even in
-the new affliction, since it made him more her
-own than ever.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Poor soul! she promised to be faithful to
-the death; and she will be,—even such a death
-as this.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A sigh, that was almost a groan, broke from
-Helwyze as the thought came, and Olivia was
-instantly at his side.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Are you suffering, Jasper? What can I do
-for you?” she said, with such a passionate desire
-to serve or cheer, that he could not but answer,
-gently,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am done with pain: teach me to be
-patient.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Oh, if I could! we must learn that together,”
-she said, feeling with him how sorely
-both would need the meek virtue to sustain the
-life before them.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where is Felix?” asked Helwyze, after
-lying for a while, with his eyes upon the fire, as
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_283'>283</span>if they would absorb its light and warmth into
-their melancholy depths.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Mourning for Gladys,” replied Olivia, fearing
-to touch the dangerous topic, yet anxious to
-know how the two men stood toward one another;
-for something in the manner of the
-younger, when the elder was mentioned, made
-her suspect some stronger, sadder tie between
-them than the one she had already guessed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Does he know of this?” and Helwyze struck
-himself a feeble blow with the one hand which
-he could use, now lying on his breast.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What does he say of me?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I must see him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You shall. I asked him if he had no word
-for you, and he answered, with a strange expression,
-‘When I have buried my dead I will come,
-for the last time.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How does he look?” questioned Helwyze,
-curious to see, even through another’s eyes, the
-effect of sorrow upon the man whom he had
-watched so long and closely.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sadly broken; but he is young and sanguine:
-he will soon forget, and be happy again;
-so do not let a thought of him disturb you,
-Jasper.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_284'>284</span>“It does not: we made our bargain, and held
-each other to it, till he chose to break it. Let
-him bear the consequences, as I do.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Alas, they fall on him far less heavily than
-on you! He has all the world before him
-where to choose, while you have nothing left—but
-me.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He did not seem to hear her, and fell into a
-gloomy reverie, which she dared not break, but
-sat, patiently beguiling her lonely watch with
-sad thoughts of the twilight future they were to
-share together,—a future which might have been
-so beautiful and happy, had true love earlier
-made them one.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Another day, another night, then there were
-sounds about the house which told Helwyze what
-was passing, without the need of any question.
-He asked none; but lay silent for the most
-part, as if careless or unconscious of what went
-on around him. He missed Olivia for an hour,
-and when she returned, traces of tears upon her
-cheeks told him that she had been to say farewell
-to Gladys. He had not spoken that name
-even to himself; for now an immeasurable space
-seemed to lie between him and its gentle owner.
-She had gone into a world whither he could not
-follow her. A veil, invisible, yet impenetrable,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_285'>285</span>separated them for ever, he believed, and nothing
-remained to him but a memory that would not
-die,—a memory so bitter-sweet, so made up of
-remorse and reverence, love and longing, that it
-seemed to waken his heart from its long sleep,
-and kindle in it a spark of the divine fire, whose
-flame purified while it consumed; for even in
-his darkness and desolation he was not forgotten.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Late that day Canaris came, looking like a
-man escaped from a great shipwreck, with nothing
-left him but his life. Unannounced he
-entered, and, with the brevity which in moments
-of strong feeling is more expressive than eloquence,
-he said,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am going.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where?” asked Helwyze, conscious that any
-semblance of friendship, any word of sympathy,
-was impossible between them.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Out into the world again.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What will you do?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Any <em>honest</em> work I can find.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let me”—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No! I will take nothing from you. Poor as
-I came, I will go,—except the few relics I possess
-of her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A traitorous tremor in the voice which was
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_286'>286</span>stern with repressed emotion warned Canaris
-to pause there, while his eye turned to Olivia,
-as if reminded of some last debt to her. From
-his breast he drew a little paper, unfolded it, and
-took out what looked like a massive ring of gold;
-this he laid before her, saying, with a softened
-mien and accent,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You were very kind,—I have nothing else
-to offer,—let me give you this, in memory of
-Gladys.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Only a tress of sunny hair; but Olivia received
-the gift as if it were a very precious one,
-thanking him, not only with wet eyes, but friendly
-words.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear Felix, for her sake let <em>me</em> help you, if I
-can. Do not go away so lonely, purposeless, and
-poor. The world is hard; you will be disheartened,
-and turn desperate, with no one to love and
-hope and work for.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I must help myself. I am poor; but not
-purposeless, nor alone. Disheartened I may be:
-never desperate again; for I <em>have</em> some one to
-love and hope and work for. She is waiting for
-me somewhere: I must make myself worthy to
-follow and find her. I have promised; and, God
-helping me, I will keep that promise.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Very humble, yet hopeful, was the voice; and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_287'>287</span>full of a sad courage was the young man’s altered
-face,—for out of it the gladness and the bloom
-of youth had gone for ever, leaving the strength
-of a noble purpose to confront a life which hereafter
-should be honest, if not happy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze had not the infinite patience to work
-in marble; the power to chisel even his own
-divided nature into harmony, like the sculptor,
-who, in the likeness of a suffering saint, hewed
-his own features out of granite. He could only
-work in clay, as caprice inspired or circumstance
-suggested; forgetting that life’s stream of
-mixed and molten metals would flow over his
-faulty models, fixing unalterably both beauty and
-blemish. He had found the youth plastic as
-clay, had shaped him as he would; till, tiring of
-the task, he had been ready to destroy his work.
-But the hand of a greater Master had dropped
-into the furnace the gold of an enduring love, to
-brighten the bronze in which suffering and time
-were to cast the statue of the <em>man</em>. Helwyze
-saw this now, and a pang of something sharper
-than remorse wrung from him the reluctant
-words,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Take, as my last gift, the fame which has
-cost you so much. I will never claim it: to me
-it is an added affliction, to you it may be a help.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_288'>288</span>Keep it, I implore you, and give me the pardon
-<em>she</em> asked of you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But Canaris turned on him with the air of one
-who cries, “Get thee behind me!” and answered
-with enough of the old vehemence to prove that
-grief had not yet subdued the passionate spirit
-which had been his undoing,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is no longer in your power to tempt me,
-or in mine to be tempted, by my bosom sin.
-Forsythe knows the truth, and the world already
-wonders. I will earn a better fame for myself:
-keep this, and enjoy it, if you can. Pardon I
-cannot promise yet; but I give you my pity,
-‘for her sake.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With that—the bitterest word he could have
-uttered—Canaris was gone, leaving Helwyze to
-writhe under the double burden imposed by one
-more just than generous. Olivia durst not speak;
-and, in the silence, both listened to the hasty
-footsteps that passed from room to room, till a
-door closed loudly, and they knew that Canaris
-had set forth upon that long pilgrimage which
-was in time to lead him up to Gladys.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Helwyze spoke first, exclaiming, with a dreary
-laugh,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So much for playing Providence! You were
-right, and I <em>was</em> rash to try it. Goethe could
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_289'>289</span>make his Satan as he liked; but Fate was
-stronger than I, and so comes ignominious failure.
-Margaret dies, and Faust suffers, but Mephistopheles
-cannot go with him on his new wanderings.
-Still, it holds—it holds even to the last!
-My end comes too soon; yet it is true. In loving
-the angel I lose the soul I had nearly won;
-the roses turn to flakes of fire, and the poor
-devil is left lamenting.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Olivia thought him wandering, and listened
-in alarm; for his thoughts seemed blown to and
-fro, like leaves in a fitful gust, and she had no
-clew to them. Presently, he broke out again,
-still haunted by the real tragedy in which he had
-borne a part; still following Canaris, whose freedom
-was like the thought of water to parched
-Tantalus.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He will do it! he will do it! When or
-how, who shall say? but, soon or late, she will
-save him, since he believes in such salvation.
-Would that I did!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Perhaps the despairing wish was the seed of a
-future hope, which might blossom into belief.
-Olivia trusted so, and tried to murmur some
-comfortable, though vague, assurance of a love
-and pity greater even than hers. He did not
-hear her; for his eyes were fixed, with an expression
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_290'>290</span>of agonized yearning, upon the sky,
-serene and beautiful, but infinitely distant, inexorably
-dumb; and, when he spoke, his words
-had in them both his punishment and her
-own,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Life before was Purgatory, now it is Hell;
-because I loved her, and <em>I</em> have no hope to follow
-and find her again.”</p>
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='nf-center-c1'>
-<div class='nf-center c001'>
- <div><span class='pageno' id='Page_291'>291</span><span class='xxlarge'>A WHISPER IN THE DARK.</span></div>
- </div>
-</div>
-
-<div class='pbb'>
- <hr class='pb c000' />
-</div>
-
-<div class='chapter'>
- <span class='pageno' id='Page_293'>293</span>
- <h2 class='c004'>A WHISPER IN THE DARK.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class='drop-capa0_0_0_4 c005'>As we rolled along, I scanned my companion covertly,
-and saw much to interest a girl of seventeen.
-My uncle was a handsome man, with all the
-polish of foreign life fresh upon him; yet it was neither
-comeliness nor graceful ease which most attracted me;
-for even my inexperienced eye caught glimpses of
-something stern and sombre below these external
-charms, and my long scrutiny showed me the keenest
-eye, the hardest mouth, the subtlest smile I ever saw,—a
-face which in repose wore the look which comes
-to those who have led lives of pleasure and learned
-their emptiness. He seemed intent on some thought
-that absorbed him, and for a time rendered him forgetful
-of my presence, as he sat with folded arms, fixed
-eyes, and restless lips. While I looked, my own mind
-was full of deeper thought than it had ever been before;
-for I was recalling, word for word, a paragraph in that
-half-read letter:—</p>
-
-<p class='c008'>“At eighteen Sybil is to marry her cousin, the compact having
-been made between my brother and myself in their childhood. My
-son is with me now, and I wish them to be together during the
-next few months, therefore my niece must leave you sooner than
-I at first intended. Oblige me by preparing her for an immediate
-and final separation, but leave all disclosures to me, as I prefer
-the girl to remain ignorant of the matter for the present.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_294'>294</span>That displeased me. Why was I to remain ignorant
-of so important an affair? Then I smiled to
-myself, remembering that I did know, thanks to the
-wilful curiosity that prompted me to steal a peep into
-the letter that Madame Bernard had pored over with
-such an anxious face. I saw only a single paragraph,
-for my own name arrested my eye; and, though wild to
-read all, I had scarcely time to whisk the paper back
-into the reticule the forgetful old soul had left hanging
-on the arm of her chair. It was enough, however, to
-set my girlish brain in a ferment, and keep me gazing
-wistfully at my uncle, conscious that my future now
-lay in his hands; for I was an orphan and he my guardian,
-though I had seen him but seldom since I was
-confided to madame a six years’ child. Presently
-my uncle became cognizant of my steady stare, and
-returned it with one as steady for a moment, then said,
-in a low, smooth tone, that ill accorded with the satirical
-smile that touched his lips,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am a dull companion for my little niece. How
-shall I provide her with pleasanter amusement than
-counting my wrinkles or guessing my thoughts?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was a frank, fearless creature, quick to feel, speak,
-and act, so I answered readily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Tell me about my cousin Guy. Is he as handsome,
-brave, and clever as madame says his father was when
-a boy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle laughed a short laugh, touched with scorn,
-whether for madame, himself, or me I could not tell, for
-his countenance was hard to read.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A girl’s question and artfully put; nevertheless I
-shall not answer it, but let you judge for yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_295'>295</span>“But, sir, it will amuse me and beguile the way. I
-feel a little strange and forlorn at leaving madame, and
-talking of my new home and friends will help me to
-know and love them sooner. Please tell me, for I’ve
-had my own way all my life, and can’t bear to be
-crossed.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My petulance seemed to amuse him, and I became
-aware that he was observing me with a scrutiny as
-keen as my own had been; but I smilingly sustained
-it, for my vanity was pleased by the approbation his
-eye betrayed. The evident interest he now took in
-all I said and did was sufficient flattery for a young
-thing, who felt her charms and longed to try their
-power.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I, too, have had my own way all my life; and as
-the life is double the length, the will is double the
-strength of yours, and again I say no. What next,
-mademoiselle?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He was blander than ever as he spoke, but I was
-piqued, and resolved to try coaxing, eager to gain my
-point, lest a too early submission now should mar my
-freedom in the future.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But that is ungallant, uncle, and I still have hopes
-of a kinder answer, both because you are too generous
-to refuse so small a favor to your ‘little niece,’ and
-because she can be charmingly wheedlesome when she
-likes. Won’t you say yes now, uncle?” and, pleased
-with the daring of the thing, I put my arm about his
-neck, kissed him daintily, and perched myself upon his
-knee with most audacious ease.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He regarded me mutely for an instant, then holding
-me fast deliberately returned my salute on lips, cheeks,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_296'>296</span>and forehead, with such warmth that I turned scarlet
-and struggled to free myself, while he laughed that
-mirthless laugh of his till my shame turned to anger,
-and I imperiously commanded him to let me go.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Not yet, young lady. You came here for your
-own pleasure, but shall stay for mine, till I tame you
-as I see you must be tamed. It is a short process with
-me, and I possess experience in the work; for Guy,
-though by nature as wild as a hawk, has learned to
-come at my call as meekly as a dove. Chut! what a
-little fury it is!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was just then; for exasperated at his coolness, and
-quite beside myself, I had suddenly stooped and bitten
-the shapely white hand that held both my own. I had
-better have submitted; for slight as the foolish action
-was, it had an influence on my after life as many another
-such has had. My uncle stopped laughing, his hand
-tightened its grasp, for a moment his cold eye glittered
-and a grim look settled round the mouth, giving to his
-whole face a ruthless expression that entirely altered it.
-I felt perfectly powerless. All my little arts had failed,
-and for the first time I was mastered. Yet only physically;
-my spirit was rebellious still. He saw it in the
-glance that met his own, as I sat erect and pale, with
-something more than childish anger. I think it pleased
-him, for swiftly as it had come the dark look passed,
-and quietly, as if we were the best of friends, he began
-to relate certain exciting adventures he had known
-abroad, lending to the picturesque narration the charm
-of that peculiarly melodious voice, which soothed
-and won me in spite of myself, holding me intent till
-I forgot the past; and when he paused I found that
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_297'>297</span>I was leaning confidentially on his shoulder, asking
-for more, yet conscious of an instinctive distrust of
-this man whom I had so soon learned to fear yet
-fancy.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As I was recalled to myself, I endeavored to leave
-him; but he still detained me, and, with a curious
-expression, produced a case so quaintly fashioned that
-I cried out in admiration, while he selected two cigarettes,
-mildly aromatic with the herbs they were
-composed of, lit them, offered me one, dropped the
-window, and leaning back surveyed me with an air
-of extreme enjoyment, as I sat meekly puffing and
-wondering what prank I should play a part in next.
-Slowly the narcotic influence of the herbs diffused
-itself like a pleasant haze over all my senses; sleep, the
-most grateful, fell upon my eyelids, and the last thing
-I remember was my uncle’s face dreamily regarding me
-through a cloud of fragrant smoke. Twilight wrapped
-us in its shadows when I woke, with the night wind
-blowing on my forehead, the muffled roll of wheels
-sounding in my ear, and my cheek pillowed upon my
-uncle’s arm. He was humming a French <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>chanson</i></span>
-about “Love and Wine, and the Seine to-morrow!” I
-listened till I caught the air, and presently joined him,
-mingling my girlish treble with his flute-like tenor.
-He stopped at once, and, in the coolly courteous tone I
-had always heard in our few interviews, asked if I was
-ready for lights and home.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Are we there?” I cried; and looking out saw that
-we were ascending an avenue which swept up to a pile
-of buildings that rose tall and dark against the sky, with
-here and there a gleam along its gray front.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_298'>298</span>“Home at last, thank Heaven!” And springing out
-with the agility of a young man, my uncle led me over
-a terrace into a long hall, light and warm, and odorous
-with the breath of flowers blossoming here and there
-in graceful groups. A civil, middle-aged maid received
-and took me to my room, a bijou of a place, which
-increased my wonder when told that my uncle had
-chosen all its decorations and superintended their
-arrangement. “He understands women,” I thought,
-handling the toilet ornaments, trying luxurious chair
-and lounge, and ending by slipping my feet into the
-scarlet and white Turkish slippers, coquettishly turning
-up their toes before the fire. A few moments I
-gave to examination, and, having expressed my satisfaction,
-was asked by my maid if I would be pleased to
-dress, as “the master” never allowed dinner to wait
-for any one. This recalled to me the fact that I was
-doubtless to meet my future husband at that meal, and
-in a moment every faculty was intent upon achieving a
-grand toilette for this first interview. The maid possessed
-skill and taste, and I a wardrobe lately embellished
-with Parisian gifts from my uncle which I was
-eager to display in his honor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>When ready, I surveyed myself in the long mirror as
-I had never done before, and saw there a little figure,
-slender, yet stately, in a dress of foreign fashion, ornamented
-with lace and carnation ribbons which enhanced
-the fairness of neck and arms, while blonde
-hair, wavy and golden, was gathered into an antique
-knot of curls behind, with a carnation fillet, and below
-a blooming dark-eyed face, just then radiant with girlish
-vanity and eagerness and hope.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_299'>299</span>“I’m glad I’m pretty!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So am I, Sybil.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I had unconsciously spoken aloud, and the echo came
-from the doorway where stood my uncle, carefully
-dressed, looking comelier and cooler than ever. The
-disagreeable smile flitted over his lips as he spoke, and
-I started, then stood abashed, till beckoning, he added
-in his most courtly manner,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You were so absorbed in the contemplation of your
-charming self, that Janet answered my tap and took
-herself away unheard. You are mistress of my table
-now: it waits; will you come down?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With a last touch to that unruly hair of mine, a
-last, comprehensive glance and shake, I took the offered
-arm and rustled down the wide staircase, feeling
-that the romance of my life was about to begin.
-Three covers were laid, three chairs set, but only two
-were occupied, for no Guy appeared. I asked no questions,
-showed no surprise, but tried to devour my chagrin
-with my dinner, and exerted myself to charm my
-uncle into the belief that I had forgotten my cousin.
-It was a failure, however, for that empty seat had an
-irresistible fascination for me, and more than once, as
-my eye returned from its furtive scrutiny of napkin,
-plate, and trio of colored glasses, it met my uncle’s and
-fell before his penetrative glance. When I gladly rose
-to leave him to his wine,—for he did not ask me to
-remain,—he also rose, and, as he held the door for me,
-he said,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You asked me to describe your cousin: you have
-seen one trait of his character to-night; does it please
-you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_300'>300</span>I knew he was as much vexed as I at Guy’s absence,
-so quoting his own words I answered saucily,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes; for I’d rather see the hawk free than coming
-tamely at your call, uncle.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He frowned slightly, as if unused to such liberty of
-speech, yet bowed when I swept him a stately little
-curtsey and sailed away to the drawing-room, wondering
-if my uncle was as angry with me as I was with
-my cousin. In solitary grandeur I amused myself by
-strolling through the suite of handsome rooms henceforth
-to be my realm, looked at myself in the long
-mirrors, as every woman is apt to do when alone and
-in costume, danced over the mossy carpets, touched the
-grand piano, smelt the flowers, fingered the ornaments
-on <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>étagère</i></span> and table, and was just giving my handkerchief
-a second drench of some refreshing perfume from
-a filigree flask that had captivated me, when the hall
-door was flung wide, a quick step went running upstairs,
-boots tramped overhead, drawers seemed hastily
-opened and shut, and a bold, blithe voice broke out
-into a hunting song in a tone so like my uncle’s that I
-involuntarily flew to the door, crying,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Guy is come!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Fortunately for my dignity, no one heard me, and
-hurrying back I stood ready to skim into a chair and
-assume propriety at a minute’s notice, conscious, meanwhile,
-of the new influence which seemed suddenly to
-gift the silent house with vitality, and add the one
-charm it needed,—that of cheerful companionship.
-“How will he meet me? and how shall I meet him?”
-I thought, looking up at the bright-faced boy, whose
-portrait looked back at me with a mirthful light in the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_301'>301</span>painted eyes and a trace of his father’s disdainful smile
-in the curves of the firm-set lips. Presently the quick
-steps came flying down again, past the door, straight
-to the dining-room opposite, and, as I stood listening
-with a strange flutter at my heart, I heard an imperious
-young voice say rapidly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Beg pardon, sir, unavoidably detained. Has she
-come? Is she bearable?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I find her so. Dinner is over, and I can offer you
-nothing but a glass of wine.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle’s voice was frostily polite, making a curious
-contrast to the other, so impetuous and frank, as if
-used to command or win all but one.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never mind the dinner! I’m glad to be rid of it;
-so I’ll drink your health, father, and then inspect our
-new ornament.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Impertinent boy!” I muttered, yet at the same
-moment resolved to deserve his appellation, and immediately
-grouped myself as effectively as possible, laughing
-at my folly as I did so. I possessed a pretty foot,
-therefore one little slipper appeared quite naturally
-below the last flounce of my dress; a bracelet glittered
-on my arm as it emerged from among the lace and carnation
-knots; that arm supported my head. My profile
-was well cut, my eyelashes long, therefore I read
-with face half averted from the door. The light showered
-down, turning my hair to gold; so I smoothed my
-curls, retied my snood, and, after a satisfied survey,
-composed myself with an absorbed aspect and a quickened
-pulse to await the arrival of the gentlemen.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Soon they came. I knew they paused on the threshold,
-but never stirred till an irrepressible, “You are
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_302'>302</span>right, sir!” escaped the younger. Then I rose prepared
-to give him the coldest greeting, yet I did not.
-I had almost expected to meet the boyish face and
-figure of the picture; I saw, instead, a man comely and
-tall. A dark moustache half hid the proud mouth; the
-vivacious eyes were far kinder, though quite as keen as
-his father’s, and the freshness of unspoiled youth lent a
-charm which the older man had lost for ever. Guy’s
-glance of pleased surprise was flatteringly frank, his
-smile so cordial, his “Welcome, cousin!” such a hearty
-sound, that my coldness melted in a breath, my dignity
-was all forgotten, and before I could restrain myself
-I had offered both hands with the impulsive exclamation,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Cousin Guy, I know I shall be very happy here!
-Are you glad I have come?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Glad as I am to see the sun after a November
-fog.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>And, bending his tall head, he kissed my hand in the
-graceful foreign fashion he had learned abroad. It
-pleased me mightily, for it was both affectionate and
-respectful. Involuntarily I contrasted it with my
-uncle’s manner, and flashed a significant glance at him
-as I did so. He understood it, but only nodded with
-the satirical look I hated, shook out his paper and
-began to read. I sat down again, careless of myself
-now; and Guy stood on the rug, surveying me with an
-expression of surprise that rather nettled my pride.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is only a boy, after all; so I need not be daunted
-by his inches or his airs. I wonder if he knows I am
-to be his wife, and likes it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The thought sent the color to my forehead, my eyes
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_303'>303</span>fell, and despite my valiant resolution, I sat like any
-bashful child before my handsome cousin. Guy laughed
-a boyish laugh as he sat down on his father’s footstool,
-saying, while he warmed his slender brown hands,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I beg your pardon, Sybil. (We won’t be formal,
-will we?) But I haven’t seen a lady for a month, so I
-stare like a boor at sight of a silk gown and high-bred
-face. Are those people coming, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If Sybil likes, ask her.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Shall we have a flock of people here to make it gay
-for you, cousin, or do you prefer our quiet style better;
-just riding, driving, lounging, and enjoying life, each
-in his own way? Henceforth it is to be as you command
-in such matters.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let things go on as they have done, then. I don’t
-care for society, and strangers wouldn’t make it gay to
-me, for I like freedom; so do you, I think.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, don’t I!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A cloud flitted over his smiling face, and he punched
-the fire, as if some vent were necessary for the sudden
-gust of petulance that knit his black brows into a
-frown, and caused his father to tap him on the shoulder
-with the bland request, as he rose to leave the
-room,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bring the portfolios and entertain your cousin; I
-have letters to write, and Sybil is too tired to care for
-music to-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Guy obeyed with a shrug of the shoulder his father
-touched, but lingered in the recess till my uncle, having
-made his apologies to me, had left the room; then
-my cousin rejoined me, wearing the same cordial
-aspect I first beheld. Some restraint was evidently
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_304'>304</span>removed, and his natural self appeared. A very winsome
-self it was, courteous, gay, and frank, with an
-undertone of deeper feeling than I thought to find. I
-watched him covertly, and soon owned to myself that
-he was all I most admired in the ideal hero every girl
-creates in her romantic fancy; for I no longer looked
-upon this young man as my cousin, but my lover, and
-through all our future intercourse this thought was
-always uppermost, full of a charm that never lost its
-power.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Before the evening ended Guy was kneeling on the
-rug beside me, our two heads close together, while he
-turned the contents of the great portfolio spread before
-us, looking each other freely in the face, as I listened
-and he described, both breaking into frequent peals of
-laughter at some odd adventure or comical mishap in
-his own travels, suggested by the pictured scenes before
-us. Guy was very charming, I my blithest, sweetest
-self, and when we parted late, my cousin watched me
-up the stairs with still another, “Good-night, Sybil,”
-as if both sight and sound were pleasant to him.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is that your horse Sultan?” I called from my
-window next morning, as I looked down upon my
-cousin, who was coming up the drive from an early
-gallop on the moors.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, bonny Sybil; come and admire him,” he called
-back, hat in hand, and a quick smile rippling over his
-face.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I went, and, standing on the terrace, caressed the
-handsome creature, while Guy said, glancing up at his
-father’s undrawn curtains,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If your saddle had come, we would take a turn
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_305'>305</span>before ‘my lord’ is ready for breakfast. This autumn
-air is the wine you women need.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I yearned to go, and when I willed the way soon
-appeared; so careless of bonnetless head and cambric
-gown, I stretched my hands to him, saying boldly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Play young Lochinvar, Guy; I am little and light;
-take me up before you and show me the sea.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He liked the daring feat, held out his hand, I stepped
-on his boot toe, sprang up, and away we went over the
-wide moor, where the sun shone in a cloudless heaven,
-the lark soared singing from the green grass at our feet,
-and the September wind blew freshly from the sea.
-As we paused on the upland slope, that gave us a free
-view of the country for miles, Guy dismounted, and,
-standing with his arm about the saddle to steady me in
-my precarious seat, began to talk.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you like your new home, cousin?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“More than I can tell you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And my father, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Both yes and no to that question, Guy; I hardly
-know him yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“True, but you must not expect to find him as
-indulgent and fond as many guardians would be to
-such as you. It’s not his nature. Yet you can win
-his heart by obedience, and soon grow quite at ease
-with him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bless you! I’m that already, for I fear no one.
-Why, I sat on his knee yesterday and smoked a cigarette
-of his own offering, though madame would have
-fainted if she had seen me; then I slept on his arm an
-hour, and he was fatherly kind, though I teased him
-like a gnat.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_306'>306</span>“The deuce he was!” with which energetic expression
-Guy frowned at the landscape and harshly checked
-Sultan’s attempt to browse, while I wondered what
-was amiss between father and son, and resolved to
-discover; but, finding the conversation at an end,
-started it afresh, by asking,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is any of my property in this part of the country,
-Guy? Do you know I am as ignorant as a baby about
-my own affairs; for, as long as every whim was gratified
-and my purse full, I left the rest to madame and
-uncle, though the first hadn’t a bit of judgment, and
-the last I scarcely knew. I never cared to ask questions
-before, but now I am intensely curious to know
-how matters stand.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All you see is yours, Sybil,” was the brief answer.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What, that great house, the lovely gardens, these
-moors, and the forest stretching to the sea? I’m
-glad! I’m glad! But where, then, is your home,
-Guy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nowhere.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At this I looked so amazed, that his gloom vanished
-in a laugh, as he explained, but briefly, as if this
-subject were no pleasanter than the first,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“By your father’s will you were desired to take possession
-of the old place at eighteen. You will be that
-soon; therefore, as your guardian, my father has prepared
-things for you, and is to share your home until
-you marry.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When will that be, I wonder?” and I stole a
-glance from under my lashes, wild to discover if Guy
-knew of the compact and was a willing party to it.
-His face was half averted, but over his dark cheek I
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_307'>307</span>saw a deep flush rise, as he answered, stooping to pull
-a bit of heather,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Soon, I hope, or the gentleman sleeping there below
-will be tempted to remain a fixture with you on his
-knee as ‘madame my wife.’ He is not your own uncle,
-you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I smiled at the idea, but Guy did not see it; and
-seized with a whim to try my skill with the hawk
-that seemed inclined to peck at its master, I said demurely,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Well, why not? I might be very happy if I
-learned to love him, as I should, if he were always in
-that kindest mood of his. Would you like me for a
-little mamma, Guy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No!” short and sharp as a pistol shot.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Then you must marry and have a home of your
-own, my son.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Don’t, Sybil! I’d rather you didn’t see me in a
-rage, for I’m not a pleasant sight, I assure you; and
-I’m afraid I shall be in one if you go on. I early lost
-my mother, but I love her tenderly, because my father
-is not much to me, and I know if she had lived I should
-not be what I am.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Bitter was his voice, moody his mien, and all the
-sunshine gone at once. I looked down and touched
-his black hair with a shy caress, feeling both penitent
-and pitiful.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dear Guy, forgive me if I pained you. I’m a
-thoughtless creature, but I’m not malicious, and a
-word will restrain me if kindly spoken. My home is
-always yours, and when my fortune is mine you shall
-never want, if you are not too proud to accept help
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_308'>308</span>from your own kin. You are a little proud, aren’t
-you?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“As Lucifer, to most people. I think I should not
-be to you, for you understand me, Sybil, and with you
-I hope to grow a better man.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He turned then, and through the lineaments his
-father had bequeathed him I saw a look that must
-have been his mother’s, for it was womanly, sweet, and
-soft, and lent new beauty to the dark eyes, always kind,
-and just then very tender. He had checked his words
-suddenly, like one who has gone too far, and with that
-hasty look into my face had bent his own upon the
-ground, as if to hide the unwonted feeling that had
-mastered him. It lasted but a moment, then his old
-manner returned, as he said gayly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“There drops your slipper. I’ve been wondering
-what kept it on. Pretty thing! They say it is a foot
-like this that oftenest tramples on men’s hearts. Are
-you cruel to your lovers, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I never had one, for madame guarded me like a
-dragon, and I led the life of a nun; but when I do find
-one I shall try his mettle well before I give up my
-liberty.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Poets say it is sweet to give up liberty for love,
-and they ought to know,” answered Guy, with a sidelong
-glance.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I liked that little speech, and recollecting the wistful
-look he had given me, the significant words that
-had escaped him, and the variations of tone and manner
-constantly succeeding one another, I felt assured
-that my cousin was cognizant of the family league, and
-accepted it, yet, with the shyness of a young lover,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_309'>309</span>knew not how to woo. This pleased me, and, quite
-satisfied with my morning’s work, I mentally resolved
-to charm my cousin slowly, and enjoy the romance of a
-genuine wooing, without which no woman’s life seems
-complete,—in her own eyes, at least. He had gathered
-me a knot of purple heather, and as he gave it I
-smiled my sweetest on him, saying,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I commission you to supply me with nosegays, for
-you have taste, and I love wild-flowers. I shall wear
-this at dinner in honor of its giver. Now take me
-home; for my moors, though beautiful, are chilly, and
-I have no wrapper but this microscopic handkerchief.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Off went his riding-jacket, and I was half smothered
-in it. The hat followed next, and as he sprung up
-behind I took the reins, and felt a thrill of delight in
-sweeping down the slope with that mettlesome creature
-tugging at the bit, that strong arm round me, and the
-happy hope that the heart I leaned on might yet learn
-to love me.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The day so began passed pleasantly, spent in roving
-over house and grounds with my cousin, setting my
-possessions in order, and writing to dear old madame.
-Twilight found me in my bravest attire, with Guy’s
-heather in my hair, listening for his step, and longing
-to run and meet him when he came. Punctual to the
-instant he appeared, and this dinner was a far different
-one from that of yesterday, for both father and son
-seemed in their gayest and most gallant mood, and I
-enjoyed the hour heartily. The world seemed all in
-tune now, and when I went to the drawing-room I
-was moved to play my most stirring marches, sing my
-blithest songs, hoping to bring one at least of the gentlemen
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_310'>310</span>to join me. It brought both, and my first
-glance showed me a curious change in each. My
-uncle looked harassed and yet amused, Guy looked
-sullen and eyed his father with covert glances.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The morning’s chat flashed into my mind, and I
-asked myself, “Is Guy jealous so soon?” It looked a
-little like it, for he threw himself upon a couch and lay
-there silent and morose; while my uncle paced to and
-fro, thinking deeply, while apparently listening to the
-song he bade me finish. I did so, then followed the
-whim that now possessed me, for I wanted to try my
-power over them both, to see if I could restore that
-gentler mood of my uncle’s, and assure myself that Guy
-cared whether I was friendliest with him or not.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Uncle, come and sing with me; I like that voice
-of yours.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Tut, I am too old for that; take this indolent lad
-instead, his voice is fresh and young, and will chord
-well with yours.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you know that pretty <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>chanson</i></span> about ‘Love and
-Wine, and the Seine to-morrow,’ cousin Guy?” I asked,
-stealing a sly glance at my uncle.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who taught you that?” and Guy eyed me over
-the top of the couch with an astonished expression
-which greatly amused me.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No one; uncle sang a bit of it in the carriage yesterday.
-I like the air, so come and teach me the
-rest.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It is no song for you, Sybil. You choose strange
-entertainment for a lady, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A look of unmistakable contempt was in the son’s
-eye, of momentary annoyance in the father’s, yet his
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_311'>311</span>voice betrayed none as he answered, still pacing placidly
-along the room,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I thought she was asleep, and unconsciously began
-it to beguile a silent drive. Sing on, Sybil; that Bacchanalian
-snatch will do you no harm.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>But I was tired of music now they had come, so I
-went to him, and, passing my arm through his, walked
-beside him, saying with my most persuasive aspect,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Tell me about Paris, uncle; I intend to go there
-as soon as I’m of age, if you will let me. Does your
-guardianship extend beyond that time?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Only till you marry.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall be in no haste, then, for I begin to feel quite
-homelike and happy here with you, and shall be content
-without other society; only you’ll soon tire of me,
-and leave me to some dismal governess, while you and
-Guy go pleasuring.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No fear of that, Sybil; I shall hold you fast till
-some younger guardian comes to rob me of my merry
-ward.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As he spoke, he took the hand that lay upon his arm
-into a grasp so firm, and turned on me a look so keen,
-that I involuntarily dropped my eyes lest he should
-read my secret there. Eager to turn the conversation,
-I asked, pointing to a little miniature hanging
-underneath the portrait of his son, before which he had
-paused,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Was that Guy’s mother, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, your own.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I looked again, and saw a face delicate yet spirited,
-with dark eyes, a passionate mouth, and a head
-crowned with hair as plenteous and golden as my own;
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_312'>312</span>but the whole seemed dimmed by age, the ivory was
-stained, the glass cracked, and a faded ribbon fastened
-it. My eyes filled as I looked, and a strong desire
-seized me to know what had defaced this little picture
-of the mother whom I never knew.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Tell me about her, uncle; I know so little, and
-often long for her so much. Am I like her, sir?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Why did my uncle avert his eyes as he answered,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are a youthful image of her, Sybil.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Go on please, tell me more; tell me why this is so
-stained and worn; you know all, and surely I am old
-enough now to hear any history of pain and loss.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Something caused my uncle to knit his brows, but
-his bland voice never varied a tone as he placed the
-picture in my hand and gave me this brief explanation:—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Just before your birth your father was obliged to
-cross the Channel, to receive the last wishes of a dying
-friend; there was an accident; the vessel foundered,
-and many lives were lost. He escaped, but by some
-mistake his name appeared in the list of missing passengers;
-your mother saw it, the shock destroyed her,
-and when your father returned he found only a motherless
-little daughter to welcome him. This miniature, which
-he always carried with him, was saved with his papers
-at the last moment; but though the sea-water ruined it
-he would never have it copied or retouched, and gave
-it to me when he died in memory of the woman I had
-loved for his sake. It is yours now, my child; keep it,
-and never feel that you are fatherless or motherless
-while I remain.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Kind as was both act and speech, neither touched me,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_313'>313</span>for something seemed wanting. I felt, yet could not
-define it, for then I believed in the sincerity of all I
-met.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where was she buried, uncle? It may be foolish,
-but I should like to see my mother’s grave.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You shall some day, Sybil,” and a curious change
-came over my uncle’s face as he averted it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I have made him melancholy, talking of Guy’s
-mother and my own; now I’ll make him gay again if
-possible, and pique that negligent boy,” I thought, and
-drew my uncle to a lounging-chair, established myself
-on the arm thereof, and kept him laughing with my
-merriest gossip, both of us apparently unconscious of
-the long dark figure stretched just opposite, feigning
-sleep, but watching us through half-closed lids, and
-never stirring except to bow silently to my careless
-“Good-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As I reached the stairhead, I remembered that my
-letter to madame, full of the frankest criticisms upon
-people and things, was lying unsealed on the table in
-the little room my uncle had set apart for my boudoir;
-fearing servants’ eyes and tongues, I slipped down
-again to get it. The room adjoined the parlors, and
-just then was lit only by a ray from the hall lamp. I
-had secured the letter, and was turning to retreat, when
-I heard Guy say petulantly, as if thwarted yet submissive,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I <em>am</em> civil when you leave me alone; I <em>do</em> agree to
-marry her, but I won’t be hurried or go a-wooing except
-in my own way. You know I never liked the bargain, for
-it’s nothing else; yet I can reconcile myself to being sold,
-if it relieves you and gives us both a home. But, father,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_314'>314</span>mind this, if you tie me to that girl’s sash too tightly
-I shall break away entirely, and then where are
-we?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I should be in prison and you a houseless vagabond.
-Trust me, my boy, and take the good fortune which I
-secured for you in your cradle. Look in pretty Sybil’s
-face, and resignation will grow easy; but remember
-time presses, that this is our forlorn hope, and for God’s
-sake be cautious, for she is a headstrong creature, and
-may refuse to fulfil her part if she learns that the contract
-is not binding against her will.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I think she’ll not refuse, sir; she likes me already.
-I see it in her eyes; she has never had a lover, she says,
-and according to your account a girl’s first sweetheart
-is apt to fare the best. Besides, she likes the place, for
-I told her it was hers, as you bade me, and she said
-she could be very happy here, if my father was always
-kind.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“She said that, did she? little hypocrite! For your
-father, read yourself, and tell me what else she babbled
-about in that early <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>tête-à-tête</i></span> of yours.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are as curious as a woman, sir, and always make
-me tell you all I do and say, yet never tell me any thing
-in return, except this business, which I hate, because
-my liberty is the price, and my poor little cousin is kept
-in the dark. I’ll tell her all, before I marry her, father.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“As you please, hot-head. I am waiting for an account
-of the first love passage, so leave blushing to
-Sybil and begin.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I knew what was coming and stayed no longer, but
-caught one glimpse of the pair, Guy in his favorite
-place, erect upon the rug, half-laughing, half-frowning
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_315'>315</span>as he delayed to speak, my uncle serenely smoking
-on the couch; then I sped away to my own room,
-thinking, as I sat down in a towering passion,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“So he does know of the baby betrothal and hates it,
-yet submits to please his father, who covets my fortune,—mercenary
-creatures! I can annul the contract,
-can I? I’m glad to know that, for it makes me mistress
-of them both. I like you already, do I? and you
-see it in my eyes. Coxcomb! I’ll be the thornier for
-that. Yet I do like him; I do wish he cared for me,
-I’m so lonely in the world, and he can be so kind.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>So I cried a little, brushed my hair a good deal, and
-went to bed, resolving to learn all I could when, where,
-and how I pleased, to render myself as charming and
-valuable as possible, to make Guy love me in spite of
-himself, and then say yes or no, as my heart prompted
-me.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>That day was a sample of those that followed, for
-my cousin was by turns attracted or repelled by the
-capricious moods that ruled me. Though conscious of
-a secret distrust of my uncle, I could not resist the
-fascination of his manner when he chose to exert its
-influence over me; this made my little plot easier of
-execution, for jealousy seemed the most effectual means
-to bring my wayward cousin to subjection. Full of
-this fancy, I seemed to tire of his society, grew thorny
-as a briar rose to him, affectionate as a daughter to my
-uncle, who surveyed us both with that inscrutable glance
-of his, and slowly yielded to my dominion as if he had
-divined my purpose and desired to aid it. Guy turned
-cold and gloomy, yet still lingered near me as if ready
-for a relenting look or word. I liked that, and took a
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_316'>316</span>wanton pleasure in prolonging the humiliation of the
-warm heart I had learned to love, yet not to value as I
-ought, until it was too late.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>One dull November evening as I went wandering up
-and down the hall, pretending to enjoy the flowers, yet
-in reality waiting for Guy, who had left me alone all day,
-my uncle came from his room, where he had sat for
-many hours with the harassed and anxious look he
-always wore when certain foreign letters came.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sybil, I have something to show and tell you,” he
-said, as I garnished his button-hole with a spray of
-heliotrope, meant for the laggard, who would understand
-its significance, I hoped. Leading me to the
-drawing-room, my uncle put a paper into my hands,
-with the request,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This is a copy of your father’s will; oblige me by
-reading it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He stood watching my face as I read, no doubt wondering
-at my composure while I waded through the
-dry details of the will, curbing my impatience to reach
-the one important passage. There it was, but no word
-concerning my power to dissolve the engagement if I
-pleased; and, as I realized the fact, a sudden bewilderment
-and sense of helplessness came over me, for the
-strange law terms seemed to make inexorable the paternal
-decree which I had not seen before. I forgot my
-studied calmness, and asked several questions eagerly.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Uncle, did my father really command that I should
-marry Guy, whether we loved each other or not?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You see what he there set down as his desire; and
-I have taken measures that you <em>should</em> love one another,
-knowing that few cousins, young, comely, and
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_317'>317</span>congenial, could live three months together without
-finding themselves ready to mate for their own sakes,
-if not for the sake of the dead and living fathers to
-whom they owe obedience.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You said I need not, if I didn’t choose; why is it
-not here?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I said that? Never, Sybil!” and I met a look of
-such entire surprise and incredulity it staggered my
-belief in my own senses, yet also roused my spirit, and,
-careless of consequences, I spoke out at once,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I heard you say it myself the night after I came,
-when you told Guy to be cautious, because I could refuse
-to fulfil the engagement, if I knew that it was not
-binding against my will.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>This discovery evidently destroyed some plan, and
-for a moment threw him off his guard; for, crumpling
-the paper in his hand, he sternly demanded,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You turned eavesdropper early; how often since?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Never, uncle; I did not mean it then, but, going
-for a letter in the dark, I heard your voices, and listened
-for an instant. It was dishonorable, but irresistible;
-and, if you force Guy’s confidence, why should
-not I steal yours? All is fair in war, sir, and I forgive
-as I hope to be forgiven.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have a quick wit and a reticence I did not
-expect to find under that frank manner. So you have
-known your future destiny all these months, then, and
-have a purpose in your treatment of your cousin and
-myself?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, uncle.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“May I ask what?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was ashamed to tell; and, in the little pause before
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_318'>318</span>my answer came, my pique at Guy’s desertion was augmented
-by anger at my uncle’s denial of his own words
-the ungenerous hopes he cherished, and a strong desire
-to perplex and thwart him took possession of me, for
-I saw his anxiety concerning the success of this interview,
-though he endeavored to repress and conceal it.
-Assuming my coldest mien, I said,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, sir, I think not; only I can assure you that my
-little plot has succeeded better than your own.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But you intend to obey your father’s wish, I hope,
-and fulfil your part of the compact, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Why should I? It is not binding, you know, and
-I’m too young to lose my liberty just yet; besides, such
-compacts are unjust, unwise. What right had my father
-to mate me in my cradle? how did he know what I
-should become, or Guy? how could he tell that I should
-not love some one else better? No! I’ll not be bargained
-away like a piece of merchandise, but love and
-marry when I please!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At this declaration of independence my uncle’s face
-darkened ominously, some new suspicion lurked in his
-eye, some new anxiety beset him; but his manner was
-calm, his voice blander than ever as he asked,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is there then, some one whom you love? Confide
-in me, my girl.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And if there were, what then?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“All would be changed at once, Sybil. But who is
-it? Some young lover left behind at madame’s?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who, then? You have led a recluse life here.
-Guy has no friends who visit him, and mine are all old,
-yet you say you love.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_319'>319</span>“With all my heart, uncle.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Is this affection returned, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I think so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“And it is not Guy?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was wicked enough to enjoy the bitter disappointment
-he could not conceal at my decided words,
-for I thought he deserved that momentary pang; but
-I could not as decidedly answer that last question,
-for I would not lie, neither would I confess just yet;
-so, with a little gesture of impatience, I silently turned
-away, lest he should see the tell-tale color in my cheeks.
-My uncle stood an instant in deep thought, a slow
-smile crept to his lips, content returned to his mien,
-and something like a flash of triumph glittered for a
-moment in his eye, then vanished, leaving his countenance
-earnestly expectant. Much as this change surprised
-me, his words did more, for, taking both my
-hands in his, he gravely said,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you know that I am your uncle by adoption
-and not blood, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, sir; I heard so, but forgot about it,” and I
-looked up at him, my anger quite lost in astonishment.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let me tell you, then. Your grandfather was
-childless for many years, my mother was an early
-friend, and when her death left me an orphan, he took
-me for his son and heir. But two years from that time
-your father was born. I was too young to realize the
-entire change this might make in my life. The old
-man was too just and generous to let me feel it, and
-the two lads grew up together like brothers. Both
-married young, and when you were born a few years
-later than my son, your father said to me, ‘Your boy
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_320'>320</span>shall have my girl, and the fortune I have innocently
-robbed you of shall make us happy in our children.’
-Then the family league was made, renewed at his death,
-and now destroyed by his daughter, unless—Sybil, I
-am forty-five, you not eighteen, yet you once said you
-could be very happy with me, if I were always kind to
-you. I can promise that I will be, for I love you. My
-darling, you reject the son, will you accept the father?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>If he had struck me, it would scarcely have dismayed
-me more. I started up, and snatching away my hands
-hid my face in them, for after the first tingle of surprise
-an almost irresistible desire to laugh came over me, but
-I dared not, and gravely, gently he went on,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I am a bold man to say this, yet I mean it most
-sincerely. I never meant to betray the affection I believed
-you never could return, and would only laugh at
-as a weakness; but your past acts, your present words,
-give me courage to confess that I desire to keep my
-ward mine for ever. Shall it be so?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He evidently mistook my surprise for maidenly emotion,
-and the suddenness of this unforeseen catastrophe
-seemed to deprive me of words. All thought of merriment
-or ridicule was forgotten in a sense of guilt, for if
-he feigned the love he offered it was well done, and I
-believed it then. I saw at once the natural impression
-conveyed by my conduct; my half confession and the
-folly of it all oppressed me with a regret and shame I
-could not master. My mind was in dire confusion, yet
-a decided “No” was rapidly emerging from the chaos,
-but was not uttered; for just at this crisis, as I stood
-with my uncle’s arm about me, my hand again in his,
-and his head bent down to catch my answer, Guy
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_321'>321</span>swung himself gayly into the room. A glance seemed
-to explain all, and in an instant his face assumed that
-expression of pale wrath so much more terrible to witness
-than the fiercest outbreak; his eye grew fiery, his
-voice bitterly sarcastic, as he said,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, I see; the play goes on, but the actors change
-parts. I congratulate you, sir, on your success, and
-Sybil on her choice. Henceforth I am <span lang="fr" xml:lang="fr"><i>de trop</i></span>, but
-before I go allow me to offer my wedding gift. You
-have taken the bride, let me supply the ring.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He threw a jewel-box upon the table, adding, in that
-unnaturally calm tone that made my heart stand still:</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“A little candor would have spared me much pain,
-Sybil; yet I hope you will enjoy your bonds as heartily
-as I shall my escape from them. A little confidence
-would have made me your ally, not your rival, father.
-I have not your address; therefore I lose, you win.
-Let it be so. I had rather be the vagabond this makes
-me than sell myself, that you may gamble away that
-girl’s fortune as you have your own and mine. You
-need not ask me to the wedding, I will not come. Oh,
-Sybil, I so loved, so trusted you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>And with that broken exclamation he was gone.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The stormy scene had passed so rapidly, been so
-strange and sudden, Guy’s anger so scornful and abrupt,
-I could not understand it, and felt like a puppet
-in the grasp of some power I could not resist; but as
-my lover left the room I broke out of the bewilderment
-that held me, imploring him to stay and hear
-me.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was too late, he was gone, and Sultan’s tramp was
-already tearing down the avenue. I listened till the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_322'>322</span>sound died, then my hot temper rose past control, and
-womanlike asserted itself in vehement and voluble
-speech: I was angry with my uncle, my cousin, and
-myself, and for several minutes poured forth a torrent
-of explanations, reproaches, and regrets, such as only
-a passionate girl could utter.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle stood where I had left him when I flew to
-the door with my vain cry; he now looked baffled, yet
-sternly resolved, and as I paused for breath his only
-answer was,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sybil, you ask me to bring back that headstrong
-boy; I cannot; he will never come. This marriage
-was distasteful to him, yet he submitted for my sake,
-because I have been unfortunate, and we are poor.
-Let him go, forget the past, and be to me what I desire,
-for I loved your father and will be a faithful guardian
-to his daughter all my life. Child, it must be,—come,
-I implore, I command you.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>He beckoned imperiously as if to awe me, and held
-up the glittering betrothal ring as if to tempt me. The
-tone, the act, the look put me quite beside myself. I
-did go to him, did take the ring, but said as resolutely
-as himself,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Guy rejects me, and I have done with love. Uncle,
-you would have deceived me, used me as a means to
-your own selfish ends. I will accept neither yourself
-nor your gifts, for now I despise both you and your
-commands;” and, as the most energetic emphasis I
-could give to my defiance, I flung the ring, case and
-all, across the room; it struck the great mirror, shivered
-it just in the middle, and sent several loosened
-fragments crashing to the floor.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_323'>323</span>“Great heavens! is the young lady mad?” exclaimed
-a voice behind us. Both turned and saw Dr. Karnac,
-a stealthy, sallow-faced Spaniard, for whom I had an
-invincible aversion. He was my uncle’s physician,
-had been visiting a sick servant in the upper regions,
-and my adverse fate sent him to the door just at that
-moment with that unfortunate exclamation on his
-lips.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What do you say?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle wheeled about and eyed the new-comer
-intently as he repeated his words. I have no doubt
-I looked like one demented, for I was desperately angry,
-pale and trembling with excitement, and as they fronted
-me with a curious expression of alarm on their faces,
-a sudden sense of the absurdity of the spectacle came
-over me; I laughed hysterically a moment, then broke
-into a passion of regretful tears, remembering that Guy
-was gone. As I sobbed behind my hands, I knew the
-gentlemen were whispering together and of me, but I
-never heeded them, for as I wept myself calmer a comforting
-thought occurred to me; Guy could not have
-gone far, for Sultan had been out all day, and though
-reckless of himself he was not of his horse, which he
-loved like a human being; therefore he was doubtless
-at the house of an humble friend near by. If I could
-slip away unseen, I might undo my miserable work, or
-at least see him again before he went away into the
-world, perhaps never to return. This hope gave me
-courage for any thing, and dashing away my tears I
-took a covert survey. Dr. Karnac and my uncle still
-stood before the fire, deep in their low-toned conversation;
-their backs were toward me, and, hushing the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_324'>324</span>rustle of my dress, I stole away with noiseless steps
-into the hall, seized Guy’s plaid, and, opening the great
-door unseen, darted down the avenue.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Not far, however; the wind buffeted me to and fro,
-the rain blinded me, the mud clogged my feet and soon
-robbed me of a slipper; groping for it in despair, I saw
-a light flash into the outer darkness; heard voices calling,
-and soon the swift tramp of steps behind me.
-Feeling like a hunted doe, I ran on, but before I had
-gained a dozen yards my shoeless foot struck a sharp
-stone, and I fell half-stunned upon the wet grass of the
-wayside bank. Dr. Karnac reached me first, took me
-up as if I were a naughty child, and carried me back
-through a group of staring servants to the drawing-room,
-my uncle following with breathless entreaties
-that I would be calm, and a most uncharacteristic display
-of bustle.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was horribly ashamed; my head ached with the
-shock of the fall, my foot bled, my heart fluttered, and
-when the doctor put me down the crisis came, for as
-my uncle bent over me with the strange question, “My
-poor girl, do you know me?” an irresistible impulse
-impelled me to push him from me, crying passionately,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, I know and hate you; let me go! let me go,
-or it will be too late!” then, quite spent with the varying
-emotions of the last hour, for the first time in my
-life I swooned away.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Coming to myself, I found I was in my own room,
-with my uncle, the doctor, Janet, and Mrs. Best, the
-housekeeper, gathered about me, the latter saying, as
-she bathed my temples,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_325'>325</span>“She’s a sad sight, poor thing, so young, so bonny,
-and so unfortunate. Did you ever see her so before,
-Janet?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Bless you, no, ma’am; there was no signs of such
-a tantrum when I dressed her for dinner.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“What do they mean? did they never see any
-one angry before?” I dimly wondered, and presently,
-through the fast disappearing stupor that had held me,
-Dr. Karnac’s deep voice came distinctly, saying,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“If it continues, you are perfectly justified in doing
-so.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Doing what?” I demanded sharply, for the sound
-both roused and irritated me, I disliked the man so
-intensely.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing, my dear, nothing,” purred Mrs. Best, supporting
-me as I sat up, feeling weak and dazed, yet
-resolved to know what was going on. I was “a sad
-sight” indeed; my drenched hair hung about my shoulders,
-my dress was streaked with mud, one shoeless
-foot was red with blood, the other splashed and stained,
-and a white, wild-eyed face completed the ruinous image
-the opposite mirror showed me. Every thing
-looked blurred and strange, and a feverish unrest possessed
-me, for I was not one to subside easily after such
-a mental storm. Leaning on my arm, I scanned the
-room and its occupants with all the composure I could
-collect. The two women eyed me curiously yet pitifully;
-Dr. Karnac stood glancing at me furtively as he
-listened to my uncle, who spoke rapidly in Spanish as
-he showed the little scar upon his hand. That sight
-did more to restore me than the cordial just administered,
-and I rose erect, saying abruptly,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_326'>326</span>“Please, everybody, go away; my head aches, and I
-want to be alone.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Let Janet stay and help you, dear; you are
-not fit,” began Mrs. Best; but I peremptorily stopped
-her.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“No, go yourself, and take her with you; I’m tired
-of so much stir about such foolish things as a broken
-glass and a girl in a pet.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You will be good enough to take this quieting
-draught before I go, Miss Sybil.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I shall do nothing of the sort, for I need only solitude
-and sleep to be perfectly well,” and I emptied the
-glass the doctor offered into the fire. He shrugged his
-shoulders with a disagreeable smile, and quietly began
-to prepare another draught, saying,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You are mistaken, my dear young lady; you need
-much care, and should obey, that your uncle may be
-spared further apprehension and anxiety.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My patience gave out at this assumption of authority;
-and I determined to carry matters with a high hand,
-for they all stood watching me in a way which seemed
-the height of impertinent curiosity.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“He is not my uncle! never has been, and deserves
-neither respect nor obedience from me! I am the best
-judge of my own health, and you are not bettering it
-by contradiction and unnecessary fuss. This is my
-house, and you will oblige me by leaving it, Dr. Karnac;
-this is my room, and I insist on being left in peace
-immediately.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I pointed to the door as I spoke; the women hurried
-out with scared faces; the doctor bowed and followed,
-but paused on the threshold, while my uncle approached
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_327'>327</span>me, asking in a tone inaudible to those still hovering
-round the door,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Do you still persist in your refusal, Sybil?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How dare you ask me that again? I tell you I had
-rather die than marry you!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“The Lord be merciful to us! just hear how she’s
-going on now about marrying master. Ain’t it awful,
-Jane?” ejaculated Mrs. Best, bobbing her head in for
-a last look.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hold your tongue, you impertinent creature!” I
-called out; and the fat old soul bundled away in such
-comical haste I laughed, in spite of languor and vexation.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle left, me, and I heard him say as he passed
-the doctor,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You see how it is.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Nothing uncommon; but that virulence is a bad
-symptom,” answered the Spaniard, and closing the door
-locked it, having dexterously removed the key from
-within.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I had never been subjected to restraint of any kind;
-it made me reckless at once, for this last indignity was
-not to be endured.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Open this instantly!” I commanded, shaking the
-door. No one answered, and after a few ineffectual
-attempts to break the lock I left it, threw up the window
-and looked out; the ground was too far off for a
-leap, but the trellis where summer-vines had clung was
-strong and high, a step would place me on it, a moment’s
-agility bring me to the terrace below. I was
-now in just the state to attempt any rash exploit, for
-the cordial had both strengthened and excited me; my
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_328'>328</span>foot was bandaged, my clothes still wet; I could suffer
-no new damage, and have my own way at small cost.
-Out I crept, climbed safely down, and made my way to
-the lodge as I had at first intended. But Guy was not
-there; and, returning, I boldly went in at the great door,
-straight to the room where my uncle and the doctor
-were still talking.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I wish the key of my room,” was my brief command.
-Both started as if I had been a ghost, and my
-uncle exclaimed,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You here! how in Heaven’s name came you out?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“By the window. I am no child to be confined for
-a fit of anger. I will not submit to it; to-morrow I
-shall go to madame; till then I will be mistress in my
-own house. Give me the key, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Shall I?” asked the doctor of my uncle, who nodded
-with a whispered,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, yes; don’t excite her again.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It was restored, and without another word I went
-loftily up to my room, locked myself in, and spent a
-restless, miserable night. When morning came, I breakfasted
-above stairs, and then busied myself packing
-trunks, burning papers, and collecting every trifle Guy
-had ever given me. No one annoyed me, and I saw
-only Janet, who had evidently received some order that
-kept her silent and respectful, though her face still
-betrayed the same curiosity and pitiful interest as the
-night before. Lunch was brought up, but I could not
-eat, and began to feel that the exposure, the fall, and
-excitement of the evening had left me weak and nervous,
-so I gave up the idea of going to madame till the
-morrow; and, as the afternoon waned, tried to sleep, yet
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_329'>329</span>could not, for I had sent a note to several of Guy’s
-haunts, imploring him to see me; but my messenger
-brought word that he was not to be found, and my
-heart was too heavy to rest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>When summoned to dinner, I still refused to go down;
-for I heard Dr. Karnac’s voice, and would not meet
-him, so I sent word that I wished the carriage early
-the following morning, and to be left alone till then.
-In a few minutes, back came Janet, with a glass of wine
-set forth on a silver salver, and a card with these words,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Forgive, forget, for your father’s sake, and drink
-with me, ‘Oblivion to the past.’”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>It touched and softened me. I knew my uncle’s
-pride, and saw in this an entire relinquishment of the
-hopes I had so thoughtlessly fostered in his mind. I
-was passionate, but not vindictive. He had been kind,
-I very wilful. His mistake was natural, my resentment
-ungenerous. Though my resolution to go remained
-unchanged, I was sorry for my part in the affair; and
-remembering that through me his son was lost to him,
-I accepted his apology, drank his toast, and sent him
-back a dutiful “Good-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I was unused to wine. The draught I had taken was
-powerful with age, and, though warm and racy to the
-palate, proved too potent for me. Still sitting before
-my fire, I slowly fell into a restless drowse, haunted by
-a dim dream that I was seeking Guy in a ship, whose
-motion gradually lulled me into perfect unconsciousness.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Waking at length, I was surprised to find myself in
-bed, with the shimmer of daylight peeping through the
-curtains. Recollecting that I was to leave early, I
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_330'>330</span>sprang up, took one step and remained transfixed with
-dismay, for the room was not my own! Utterly unfamiliar
-was every object on which my eyes fell. The
-place was small, plainly furnished, and close, as if long
-unused. My trunks stood against the wall, my clothes
-lay on a chair, and on the bed I had left trailed a fur-lined
-cloak I had often seen on my uncle’s shoulders.
-A moment I stared about me bewildered, then hurried
-to the window,—it was grated!</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>A lawn, sere and sodden, lay without, and a line of
-sombre firs hid the landscape beyond the high wall
-which encompassed the dreary plot. More and more
-alarmed, I flew to the door and found it locked. No
-bell was visible, no sound audible, no human presence
-near me, and an ominous foreboding thrilled cold
-through nerves and blood, as, for the first time, I felt
-the paralyzing touch of fear. Not long, however. My
-native courage soon returned, indignation took the
-place of terror, and excitement gave me strength. My
-temples throbbed with a dull pain, my eyes were heavy,
-my limbs weighed down by an unwonted lassitude, and
-my memory seemed strangely confused; but one thing
-was clear to me, I must see somebody, ask questions,
-demand explanations, and get away to madame without
-delay.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>With trembling hands I dressed, stopping suddenly,
-with a cry; for, lifting my hands to my head, I discovered
-that my hair, my beautiful, abundant hair, was
-gone! There was no mirror in the room, but I could
-feel that it had been shorn away close about face and
-neck. This outrage was more than I could bear, and
-the first tears I shed fell for my lost charm. It was
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_331'>331</span>weak, perhaps, but I felt better for it, clearer in mind
-and readier to confront whatever lay before me. I
-knocked and called. Then, losing patience, shook and
-screamed; but no one came or answered me, and, wearied
-out at last, I sat down and cried again in impotent
-despair.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>An hour passed, then a step approached, the key
-turned, and a hard-faced woman entered with a tray
-in her hand. I had resolved to be patient, if possible,
-and controlled myself to ask quietly, though my eyes
-kindled, and my voice trembled with resentment,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Where am I, and why am I here against my will?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“This is your breakfast, miss; you must be sadly
-hungry,” was the only reply I got.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I will never eat till you tell me what I ask.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Will you be quiet, and mind me if I do, miss?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You have no right to exact obedience from me, but
-I’ll try.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“That’s right. Now all I know is that you are twenty
-miles from the Moors, and came because you are ill.
-Do you like sugar in your coffee?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“When did I come? I don’t remember it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Early this morning; you don’t remember because
-you were put to sleep before being fetched, to save
-trouble.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Ah, that wine! Who brought me here?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Dr. Karnac, miss.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Alone?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, miss; you were easier to manage asleep than
-awake, he said.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I shook with anger, yet still restrained myself hoping
-to fathom the mystery of this nocturnal journey.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_332'>332</span>“What is your name, please?” I meekly asked.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You can call me Hannah.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Well, Hannah, there is a strange mistake somewhere.
-I am not ill—you see I am not—and I wish to go
-away at once to the friend I was to meet to-day. Get
-me a carriage and have my baggage taken out.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“It can’t be done, miss. We are a mile from town,
-and have no carriages here; besides, you couldn’t go if
-I had a dozen. I have my orders, and shall obey ’em.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But Dr. Karnac has no right to bring or keep me
-here.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Your uncle sent you. The doctor has the care of
-you, and that is all I know about it. Now I have kept
-my promise, do you keep yours, miss, and eat your
-breakfast, else I can’t trust you again.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“But what is the matter with me? How can I be
-ill and not know or feel it?” I demanded, more and
-more bewildered.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You look it, and that’s enough for them as is wise
-in such matters. You’d have had a fever, if it hadn’t
-been seen to in time.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Who cut my hair off?”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“I did; the doctor ordered it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“How dared he? I hate that man, and never will
-obey him.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Hush, miss, don’t clench your hands and look in
-that way, for I shall have to report every thing you say
-and do to him, and it won’t be pleasant to tell that sort
-of thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The woman was civil, but grim and cool. Her eye
-was unsympathetic, her manner business-like, her tone
-such as one uses to a refractory child, half-soothing,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_333'>333</span>half-commanding. I conceived a dislike to her at once,
-and resolved to escape at all hazards, for my uncle’s
-inexplicable movements filled me with alarm. Hannah
-had left my door open, a quick glance showed me
-another door also ajar at the end of a wide hall, a
-glimpse of green, and a gate. My plan was desperately
-simple, and I executed it without delay. Affecting
-to eat, I presently asked the woman for my handkerchief
-from the bed. She crossed the room to get
-it. I darted out, down the passage, along the walk,
-and tugged vigorously at the great bolt of the gate,
-but it was also locked. In despair I flew into the garden,
-but a high wall enclosed it on every side; and as
-I ran round and round, vainly looking for some outlet,
-I saw Hannah, accompanied by a man as gray and
-grim as herself, coming leisurely toward me, with no
-appearance of excitement or displeasure. Back I would
-not go; and, inspired with a sudden hope, swung myself
-into one of the firs that grew close against the
-wall. The branches snapped under me, the slender
-tree swayed perilously, but up I struggled, till the wide
-coping of the wall was gained. There I paused and
-looked back. The woman was hurrying through the
-gate to intercept my descent on the other side, and
-close behind me the man, sternly calling me to stop.
-I looked down; a stony ditch was below, but I would
-rather risk my life than tamely lose my liberty, and
-with a flying leap tried to reach the bank; failed, fell
-heavily among the stones, felt an awful crash, and then
-came an utter blank.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>For many weeks I lay burning in a fever, fitfully conscious
-of Dr. Karnac and the woman’s presence; once
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_334'>334</span>I fancied I saw my uncle, but was never sure, and rose
-at last a shadow of my former self, feeling pitifully
-broken, both mentally and physically. I was in a
-better room now, wintry winds howled without, but
-a generous fire glowed behind the high closed fender,
-and books lay on my table.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I saw no one but Hannah, yet could wring no intelligence
-from her beyond what she had already told, and
-no sign of interest reached me from the outer world.
-I seemed utterly deserted and forlorn, my spirit was
-crushed, my strength gone, my freedom lost, and for a
-time I succumbed to despair, letting one day follow
-another without energy or hope. It is hard to live
-with no object to give zest to life, especially for those
-still blest with youth, and even in my prison-house I
-soon found one quite in keeping with the mystery that
-surrounded me.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>As I sat reading by day or lay awake at night, I
-became aware that the room above my own was occupied
-by some inmate whom I never saw. A peculiar
-person it seemed to be; for I heard steps going to and
-fro, hour after hour, in a tireless march, that wore upon
-my nerves, as many a harsher sound would not have
-done. I could neither tease nor surprise Hannah into
-any explanation of the thing, and day after day I listened
-to it, till I longed to cover up my ears and implore
-the unknown walker to stop, for Heaven’s sake.
-Other sounds I heard and fretted over: a low monotonous
-murmur, as of some one singing a lullaby; a fitful
-tapping, like a cradle rocked on a carpetless floor; and
-at rare intervals cries of suffering, sharp but brief, as if
-forcibly suppressed. These sounds, combined with the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_335'>335</span>solitude, the confinement, and the books I read, a collection
-of ghostly tales and weird fancies, soon wrought
-my nerves to a state of terrible irritability, and wore
-upon my health so visibly that I was allowed at last to
-leave my room.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The house was so well guarded that I soon relinquished
-all hope of escape, and listlessly amused myself
-by roaming through the unfurnished rooms and echoing
-halls, seldom venturing into Hannah’s domain; for there
-her husband sat, surrounded by chemical apparatus,
-poring over crucibles and retorts. He never spoke to
-me, and I dreaded the glance of his cold eye, for it
-looked unsoftened by a ray of pity at the little figure
-that sometimes paused a moment on his threshold,
-wan and wasted as the ghost of departed hope.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The chief interest of these dreary walks centred in
-the door of the room above my own, for a great hound
-lay before it, eying me savagely as he rejected all advances,
-and uttering his deep bay if I approached too
-near. To me this room possessed an irresistible fascination.
-I could not keep away from it by day, I dreamed
-of it by night, it haunted me continually, and soon
-became a sort of monomania, which I condemned, yet
-could not control, till at length I found myself pacing
-to and fro as those invisible feet paced over head.
-Hannah came and stopped me, and a few hours later
-Dr. Karnac appeared. I was so changed that I feared
-him with a deadly fear. He seemed to enjoy it; for
-in the pride of youth and beauty I had shown him
-contempt and defiance at my uncle’s, and he took an
-ungenerous satisfaction in annoying me by a display
-of power. He never answered my questions or entreaties,
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_336'>336</span>regarded me as being without sense or will,
-insisted on my trying various mixtures and experiments
-in diet, gave me strange books to read, and
-weekly received Hannah’s report of all that passed.
-That day he came, looked at me, said, “Let her walk,”
-and went away, smiling that hateful smile of his.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Soon after this I took to walking in my sleep, and
-more than once woke to find myself roving lampless
-through that haunted house in the dead of night. I
-concealed these unconscious wanderings for a time, but
-an ominous event broke them up at last, and betrayed
-them to Hannah.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I had followed the steps one day for several hours,
-walking below as they walked above; had peopled that
-mysterious room with every mournful shape my disordered
-fancy could conjure up; had woven tragical
-romances about it, and brooded over the one subject of
-interest my unnatural life possessed with the intensity
-of a mind upon which its uncanny influence was telling
-with perilous rapidity. At midnight I woke to find
-myself standing in a streak of moonlight, opposite the
-door whose threshold I had never crossed. The April
-night was warm, a single pane of glass high up in that
-closed door was drawn aside, as if for air; and, as I stood
-dreamily collecting my sleep-drunken senses, I saw a
-ghostly hand emerge and beckon, as if to me. It
-startled me broad awake, with a faint exclamation and
-a shudder from head to foot. A cloud swept over the
-moon, and when it passed the hand was gone, but shrill
-through the keyhole came a whisper that chilled me
-to the marrow of my bones, so terribly distinct and
-imploring was it.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_337'>337</span>“Find it! for God’s sake find it before it is too
-late!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The hound sprang up with an angry growl; I heard
-Hannah leave her bed near by, and, with an inspiration
-strange as the moment, I paced slowly on with open
-eyes and lips apart, as I had seen “Amina” in the
-happy days when kind old madame took me to the
-theatre, whose mimic horrors I had never thought to
-equal with such veritable ones. Hannah appeared at
-her door with a light, but on I went in a trance of
-fear; for I was only kept from dropping in a swoon
-by the blind longing to fly from that spectral voice and
-hand. Past Hannah I went, she following; and, as
-I slowly laid myself in bed, I heard her say to her husband,
-who just then came up,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sleep-walking, John; it’s getting worse and worse,
-as the doctor foretold; she’ll settle down like the other
-presently, but she must be locked up at night, else the
-dog will do her a mischief.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The man yawned and grumbled; then they went,
-leaving me to spend hours of unspeakable suffering,
-which aged me more than years. What was I to find?
-where was I to look? and when would it be too late?
-These questions tormented me; for I could find no
-answers to them, divine no meaning, see no course to
-pursue. Why was I here? what motive induced my
-uncle to commit such an act? and when should I be
-liberated? were equally unanswerable, equally tormenting,
-and they haunted me like ghosts. I had no power
-to exorcise or forget. After that I walked no more,
-because I slept no more; sleep seemed scared away,
-and waking dreams harassed me with their terrors.
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_338'>338</span>Night after night I paced my room in utter darkness,—for
-I was allowed no lamp,—night after night I
-wept bitter tears wrung from me by anguish, for which
-I had no name; and night after night the steps kept
-time to mine, and the faint lullaby came down to me
-as if to soothe and comfort my distress. I felt that
-my health was going, my mind growing confused and
-weak, my thoughts wandered vaguely, memory began
-to fail, and idiocy or madness seemed my inevitable
-fate; but through it all my heart clung to Guy, yearning
-for him with a hunger that would not be appeased.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At rare intervals I was allowed to walk in the neglected
-garden, where no flowers bloomed, no birds
-sang, no companion came to me but surly John, who
-followed with his book or pipe, stopping when I stopped,
-walking when I walked, keeping a vigilant eye upon
-me, yet seldom speaking except to decline answering
-my questions. These walks did me no good, for the
-air was damp and heavy with vapors from the marsh;
-for the house stood near a half-dried lake, and hills
-shut it in on every side. No fresh winds from upland
-moor or distant ocean ever blew across the narrow valley;
-no human creature visited the place, and nothing
-but a vague hope that my birthday might bring some
-change, some help, sustained me. It did bring help,
-but of such an unexpected sort that its effects remained
-through all my after-life. My birthday came, and with
-it my uncle. I was in my room, walking restlessly,—for
-the habit was a confirmed one now,—when the
-door opened, and Hannah, Dr. Karnac, my uncle, and
-a gentleman whom I knew to be his lawyer, entered,
-and surveyed me as if I were a spectacle. I saw my
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_339'>339</span>uncle start and turn pale; I had never seen myself
-since I came, but, if I had not suspected that I was
-a melancholy wreck of my former self, I should have
-known it then, such sudden pain and pity softened his
-ruthless countenance for a single instant. Dr. Karnac’s
-eye had a magnetic power over me; I had always felt
-it, but in my present feeble state I dreaded, yet submitted
-to it with a helpless fear that should have
-touched his heart,—it was on me then, I could not
-resist it, and paused fixed and fascinated by that repellent
-yet potent glance. Hannah pointed to the carpet
-worn to shreds by my weary march, to the walls which
-I had covered with weird, grotesque, or tragic figures
-to while away the heavy hours, lastly to myself, mute,
-motionless, and scared, saying, as if in confirmation of
-some previous assertion,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“You see, gentlemen, she is, as I said, quiet, but quite
-hopeless.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>I thought she was interceding for me; and, breaking
-from the bewilderment and fear that held me, I
-stretched my hands to them, crying with an imploring
-cry,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Yes, I <em>am</em> quiet! I <em>am</em> hopeless! Oh, have pity
-on me before this dreadful life kills me or drives me
-mad!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Dr. Karnac came to me at once with a black frown,
-which I alone could see; I evaded him, and clung to
-Hannah, still crying frantically,—for this seemed my
-last hope,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Uncle, let me go! I will give you all I have, will
-never ask for Guy, will be obedient and meek if I may
-only go to madame and never hear the feet again, or
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_340'>340</span>see the sights that terrify me in this dreadful room.
-Take me out! for God’s sake take me out!”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>My uncle did not answer me, but covered up his face
-with a despairing gesture, and hurried from the room;
-the lawyer followed, muttering pitifully, “Poor thing!
-poor thing!” and Dr. Karnac laughed the first laugh
-I had ever heard him utter as he wrenched Hannah
-from my grasp and locked me in alone. My one hope
-died then, and I resolved to kill myself rather than
-endure this life another month; for now it grew clear
-to me that they believed me mad, and death of the
-body was far more preferable than that of the mind. I
-think I <em>was</em> a little mad just then, but remember well
-the sense of peace that came to me as I tore strips from
-my clothing, braided them into a cord, hid it beneath
-my mattress, and serenely waited for the night. Sitting
-in the last twilight I thought to see in this unhappy
-world, I recollected that I had not heard the
-feet all day, and fell to pondering over the unusual
-omission. But, if the steps had been silent in that
-room, voices had not, for I heard a continuous murmur
-at one time: the tones of one voice were abrupt and
-broken, the other low, yet resonant, and that, I felt
-assured, belonged to my uncle. Who was he speaking
-to? what were they saying? should I ever know? and
-even then, with death before me, the intense desire to
-possess the secret filled me with its old unrest.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Night came at last; I heard the clock strike one, and,
-listening to discover if John still lingered up, I heard
-through the deep hush a soft grating in the room
-above, a stealthy sound that would have escaped ears
-less preternaturally alert than mine. Like a flash came
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_341'>341</span>the thought, “Some one is filing bars or picking locks:
-will the unknown remember me and let me share her
-flight?” The fatal noose hung ready, but I no longer
-cared to use it, for hope had come to nerve me with
-the strength and courage I had lost. Breathlessly I
-listened; the sound went on, stopped, a dead silence
-reigned; then something brushed against my door,
-and, with a suddenness that made me tingle from head
-to foot like an electric shock, through the keyhole
-came again that whisper, urgent, imploring, and mysterious,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Find it! for God’s sake find it before it is too
-late!” then fainter, as if breath failed, came the broken
-words, “The dog—a lock of hair—there is yet time.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Eagerness rendered me forgetful of the secrecy I
-should preserve, and I cried aloud, “What shall I find?
-where shall I look?” My voice, sharpened by fear,
-rang shrilly through the house, Hannah’s quick tread
-rushed down the hall, something fell, then loud and
-long rose a cry that made my heart stand still, so helpless,
-so hopeless was its wild lament. I had betrayed
-and I could not save or comfort the kind soul who had
-lost liberty through me. I was frantic to get out, and
-beat upon my door in a paroxysm of impatience, but
-no one came; and all night long those awful cries
-went on above, cries of mortal anguish, as if soul and
-body were being torn asunder. Till dawn I listened,
-pent in that room which now possessed an added
-terror; till dawn I called, wept, and prayed, with mingled
-pity, fear, and penitence, and till dawn the agony
-of that unknown sufferer continued unabated. I heard
-John hurry to and fro, heard Hannah issue orders with
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_342'>342</span>an accent of human sympathy in her hard voice; heard
-Dr. Karnac pass and repass my door, and all the sounds
-of confusion and alarm in that once quiet house. With
-daylight all was still, a stillness more terrible than the
-stir; for it fell so suddenly, remained so utterly unbroken,
-that there seemed no explanation of it but the
-dread word death.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>At noon Hannah, a shade paler, but grim as ever,
-brought me some food, saying she forgot my breakfast,
-and when I refused to eat, yet asked no questions, she
-bade me go into the garden and not fret myself over
-last night’s flurry. I went, and, passing down the corridor,
-glanced furtively at the door I never saw without
-a thrill; but I experienced a new sensation then, for
-the hound was gone, the door was open, and, with an
-impulse past control, I crept in and looked about me.
-It was a room like mine, the carpet worn like mine,
-the windows barred like mine; there the resemblance
-ended, for an empty cradle stood beside the bed, and
-on that bed, below a sweeping cover, stark and still a
-lifeless body lay. I was inured to fear now, and an
-unwholesome craving for new terrors seemed to have
-grown by what it fed on: an irresistible desire led me
-close, nerved me to lift the cover and look below,—a
-single glance,—then, with a cry as panic-stricken as
-that which rent the silence of the night, I fled away,
-for the face I saw was a pale image of my own. Sharpened
-by suffering, pallid with death, the features were
-familiar as those I used to see; the hair, beautiful and
-blonde as mine had been, streamed long over the pulseless
-breast, and on the hand, still clenched in that last
-struggle, shone the likeness of a ring I wore, a ring
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_343'>343</span>bequeathed me by my father. An awesome fancy that
-it was myself assailed me; I had plotted death, and,
-with the waywardness of a shattered mind, I recalled
-legends of spirits returning to behold the bodies they
-had left.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Glad now to seek the garden, I hurried down, but on
-the threshold of the great hall-door was arrested by
-the sharp crack of a pistol; and, as a little cloud of
-smoke dispersed, I saw John drop the weapon and
-approach the hound, who lay writhing on the bloody
-grass. Moved by compassion for the faithful brute
-whose long vigilance was so cruelly repaid, I went to
-him, and, kneeling there, caressed the great head that
-never yielded to my touch before. John assumed his
-watch at once, and leaning against a tree cleaned the
-pistol, content that I should amuse myself with the
-dying creature, who looked into my face with eyes of
-almost human pathos and reproach. The brass collar
-seemed to choke him as he gasped for breath, and, leaning
-nearer to undo it, I saw, half hidden in his own
-black hair, a golden lock wound tightly round the
-collar, and so near its color as to be unobservable,
-except upon a close inspection. No accident could
-have placed it there; no head but mine in that house
-wore hair of that sunny hue,—yes, one other, and my
-heart gave a sudden leap as I remembered the shining
-locks just seen on that still bosom.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Find it—the dog—the lock of hair,” rung in my
-ears, and swift as light came the conviction that the
-unknown help was found at last. The little band was
-woven close, I had no knife, delay was fatal, I bent my
-head as if lamenting over the poor beast and bit the
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_344'>344</span>knot apart, drew out a folded paper, hid it in my hand,
-and rising strolled leisurely back to my own room,
-saying I did not care to walk till it was warmer. With
-eager eyes I examined my strange treasure-trove; it
-consisted of two strips of thinnest paper, without
-address or signature, one almost illegible, worn at the
-edges and stained with the green rust of the collar;
-the other fresher, yet more feebly written, both abrupt
-and disjointed, but terribly significant to me. This
-was the first,—</p>
-
-<p class='c008'>“I have never seen you, never heard your name, yet I know
-that you are young, that you are suffering, and I try to help you
-in my poor way. I think you are not crazed yet, as I often am;
-for your voice is sane, your plaintive singing not like mine, your
-walking only caught from me, I hope. I sing to lull the baby
-whom I never saw; I walk to lessen the long journey that will
-bring me to the husband I have lost,—stop! I must not think of
-those things or I shall forget. If you are not already mad, you
-will be; I suspect you were sent here to be made so; for the air
-is poison, the solitude is fatal, and Karnac remorseless in his
-mania for prying into the mysteries of human minds. What
-devil sent you I may never know, but I long to warn you. I can
-devise no way but this; the dog comes into my room sometimes,
-you sometimes pause at my door and talk to him; you may find
-the paper I shall hide about his collar. Read, destroy, but obey
-it. I implore you to leave this house before it is too late.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>The other paper was as follows:—</p>
-
-<p class='c008'>“I have watched you, tried to tell you where to look, for you
-have not found my warning yet, though I often tie it there and
-hope. You fear the dog, perhaps, and my plot fails; yet I know
-by your altered step and voice that you are fast reaching my
-unhappy state; for I am fitfully mad, and shall be till I die.
-To-day I have seen a familiar face; it seems to have calmed
-and strengthened me, and, though he would not help you, I shall
-make one desperate attempt. I may not find you, so leave my
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_345'>345</span>warning to the hound, yet hope to breathe a word into your sleepless
-ear that shall send you back into the world the happy thing
-you should be. Child! woman! whatever you are, leave this
-accursed house while you have power to do it.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>That was all; I did not destroy the papers, but I
-obeyed them, and for a week watched and waited till
-the propitious instant came. I saw my uncle, the doctor,
-and two others, follow the poor body to its grave
-beside the lake, saw all depart but Dr. Karnac, and felt
-redoubled hatred and contempt for the men who could
-repay my girlish slights with such a horrible revenge.
-On the seventh day, as I went down for my daily walk,
-I saw John and Dr. Karnac so deep in some uncanny
-experiment that I passed out unguarded. Hoping to
-profit by this unexpected chance, I sprang down the
-steps, but the next moment dropped half-stunned upon
-the grass; for behind me rose a crash, a shriek, a sudden
-blaze that flashed up and spread, sending a noisome
-vapor rolling out with clouds of smoke and flame.
-Aghast, I was just gathering myself up, when Hannah
-fled out of the house, dragging her husband senseless
-and bleeding, while her own face was ashy with
-affright. She dropped her burden beside me, saying,
-with white lips and a vain look for help where help
-was not,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Something they were at has burst, killed the doctor,
-and fired the house! Watch John till I get help,
-and leave him at your peril!” then flinging open the
-gate she sped away.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Now is my time,” I thought, and only waiting till
-she vanished, I boldly followed her example, running
-rapidly along the road in an opposite direction, careless
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_346'>346</span>of bonnetless head and trembling limbs, intent only
-upon leaving that prison-house far behind me. For
-several hours I hurried along that solitary road; the
-spring sun shone, birds sang in the blooming hedges,
-green nooks invited me to pause and rest, but I heeded
-none of them, steadily continuing my flight, till spent
-and footsore I was forced to stop a moment by a wayside
-spring. As I stooped to drink, I saw my face for
-the first time in many months, and started to see how
-like that dead one it had grown, in all but the eternal
-peace which made that beautiful in spite of suffering
-and age. Standing thus and wondering if Guy would
-know me, should we ever meet, the sound of wheels
-disturbed me. Believing them to be coming from the
-place I had left, I ran desperately down the hill, turned
-a sharp corner, and before I could check myself passed
-a carriage slowly ascending. A face sprang to the
-window, a voice cried “Stop!” but on I flew, hoping
-the traveller would let me go unpursued. Not so,
-however; soon I heard fleet steps following, gaining
-rapidly, then a hand seized me, a voice rang in my
-ears, and with a vain struggle I lay panting in my
-captor’s hold, fearing to look up and meet a brutal
-glance. But the hand that had seized me tenderly
-drew me close, the voice that had alarmed cried joyfully,—</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Sybil, it is Guy! lie still, poor child, you are safe at
-last.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then I knew that my surest refuge was gained, and,
-too weak for words, clung to him in an agony of happiness,
-which brought to his kind eyes the tears I could
-not shed.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'><span class='pageno' id='Page_347'>347</span>The carriage returned; Guy took me in, and for a
-time cared only to soothe and sustain my worn soul
-and body with the cordial of his presence, as we rolled
-homeward through a blooming world, whose beauty I
-had never truly felt before. When the first tumult
-of emotion had subsided, I told the story of my captivity
-and my escape, ending with a passionate entreaty
-not to be returned to my uncle’s keeping, for
-henceforth there could be neither affection nor respect
-between us.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>“Fear nothing, Sybil; madame is waiting for you at
-the Moors, and my father’s unfaithful guardianship has
-ended with his life.”</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Then with averted face and broken voice Guy went
-on to tell his father’s purposes, and what had caused
-this unexpected meeting. The facts were briefly these:
-The knowledge that my father had come between him
-and a princely fortune had always rankled in my
-uncle’s heart, chilling the ambitious hopes he cherished
-even in his boyhood, and making life an eager search
-for pleasure in which to drown his vain regrets. This
-secret was suspected by my father, and the household
-league was formed as some atonement for the innocent
-offence. It seemed to soothe my uncle’s resentful
-nature, and as years went on he lived freely, assured
-that ample means would be his through his son. Luxurious,
-self-indulgent, fond of all excitements, and reckless
-in their pursuit, he took no thought for the morrow
-till a few months before his return. A gay winter in
-Paris reduced him to those straits of which women
-know so little; creditors were oppressive, summer
-friends failed him, gambling debts harassed him, his
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_348'>348</span>son reproached him, and but one resource remained,
-Guy’s speedy marriage with the half-forgotten heiress.
-The boy had been educated to regard this fate as a
-fixed fact, and submitted, believing the time to be far
-distant; but the sudden summons came, and he rebelled
-against it, preferring liberty to love. My uncle
-pacified the claimants by promises to be fulfilled at my
-expense, and hurried home to press on the marriage,
-which now seemed imperative. I was taken to my
-future home, approved by my uncle, beloved by my
-cousin, and, but for my own folly, might have been a
-happy wife on that May morning when I listened to
-this unveiling of the past. My mother had been melancholy
-mad since that unhappy rumor of my father’s
-death; this affliction had been well concealed from me,
-lest the knowledge should prey upon my excitable
-nature and perhaps induce a like misfortune. I believed
-her dead, yet I had seen her, knew where her
-solitary grave was made, and still carried in my bosom
-the warning she had sent me, prompted by the unerring
-instinct of a mother’s heart. In my father’s will a
-clause was added just below the one confirming my
-betrothal, a clause decreeing that, if it should appear
-that I inherited my mother’s malady, the fortune
-should revert to my cousin, with myself a mournful
-legacy, to be cherished by him whether his wife or not.
-This passage, and that relating to my freedom of
-choice, had been omitted in the copy shown me on the
-night when my seeming refusal of Guy had induced
-his father to believe that I loved him, to make a last
-attempt to keep the prize by offering himself, and,
-when that failed, to harbor a design that changed
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_349'>349</span>my little comedy into the tragical experience I have
-told.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Dr. Karnac’s exclamation had caused the recollection
-of that clause respecting my insanity to flash into
-my uncle’s mind,—a mind as quick to conceive as fearless
-to execute. I unconsciously abetted the stratagem,
-and Dr. Karnac was an unscrupulous ally, for love
-of gain was as strong as love of science; both were
-amply gratified, and I, poor victim, was given up to be
-experimented upon, till by subtle means I was driven
-to the insanity which would give my uncle full control
-of my fortune and my fate. How the black plot prospered
-has been told; but retribution speedily overtook
-them both, for Dr. Karnac paid his penalty by the sudden
-death that left his ashes among the blackened ruins
-of that house of horrors, and my uncle had preceded
-him. For before the change of heirs could be effected
-my mother died, and the hours spent in that unhealthful
-spot insinuated the subtle poison of the marsh into
-his blood; years of pleasure left little vigor to withstand
-the fever, and a week of suffering ended a life of
-generous impulses perverted, fine endowments wasted,
-and opportunities for ever lost. When death drew
-near, he sent for Guy (who, through the hard discipline
-of poverty and honest labor, was becoming a manlier
-man), confessed all, and implored him to save me
-before it was too late. He did, and when all was told,
-when each saw the other by the light of this strange
-and sad experience,—Guy poor again, I free, the old
-bond still existing, the barrier of misunderstanding
-gone,—it was easy to see our way, easy to submit, to
-<span class='pageno' id='Page_350'>350</span>forgive, forget, and begin anew the life these clouds had
-darkened for a time.</p>
-
-<p class='c006'>Home received me, kind madame welcomed me, Guy
-married me, and I was happy; but over all these years,
-serenely prosperous, still hangs for me the shadow of
-the past, still rises that dead image of my mother, still
-echoes that spectral whisper in the dark.</p>
-
-<hr class='c011' />
-<div class='footnote' id='f1'>
-<p class='c006'><span class='label'><a href='#r1'>1</a>.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>“Thy ominous tongue gives utterance to thy wish.”</p>
-<div class='c012'><span class='sc'>Æschylus.</span></div>
-</div>
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