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-THE SENATOR'S BRIDE
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-MRS. ALEX
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- =16--The Fatal Card. By Haddon Chambers and B. C. Stephenson.=
- =15--Doctor Jack. By St. George Rathborne.=
- 14--Violet Lisle. By Bertha M. Clay.
- 13--The Little Widow. By Julia Edwards.
- 12--Edrie's Legacy. By Mrs. Georgie Sheldon.
- 11--The Gypsy's Daughter. By Bertha M. Clay.
- 10--Little Sunshine. By Francis S. Smith.
- 9--The Virginia Heiress. By May Agnes Flemming.
- 8--Beautiful but Poor. By Julia Edwards.
- 7--Two Keys. By Mrs. Georgie Sheldon.
- 6--The Midnight Marriage. By A. M. Douglas.
- 5--The Senator's Favorite. Mrs. Alex. McVeigh Miller.
- 4--For a Woman's Honor. By Bertha M. Clay.
- 3--He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not. By Julia Edwards.
- 2--Ruby's Reward. By Mrs. Georgie Sheldon.
- 1--Queen Bess. By Mrs. Georgie Sheldon.
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-THE SENATOR'S BRIDE.
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-by
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-Mrs. ALEX. McVEIGH MILLER.
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-NEW YORK:
-STREET & SMITH, Publishers,
-31 Rose Street.
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-Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1887,
-BY STREET & SMITH,
-In the Office of the Librarian of Congress, at Washington, D. C.
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-THE SENATOR'S BRIDE.
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-
-
- CHAPTER I. THE FALL OF A METEOR.
- CHAPTER II. TOO LATE.
- CHAPTER III. "SWEETHEART, GOOD-BY."
- CHAPTER IV. RENUNCIATION
- CHAPTER V. WHAT THE WINNER'S HAND THREW BY.
- CHAPTER VI. LULU.
- CHAPTER VII. "I HATE IT--I HATE HER!"
- CHAPTER VIII. "BUT AS FOR HER, SHE STAID AT HOME."
- CHAPTER IX. "WHEN A WOMAN WILL, SHE WILL."
- CHAPTER X. AT THE CAPITOL.
- CHAPTER XI. "IT MAY BE FOR YEARS, AND IT MAY BE FOREVER."
- CHAPTER XII. "FATE HAS DONE ITS WORST."
- CHAPTER XIII. ON THE OCEAN.
- CHAPTER XIV. "IN HIS HEART CONSENTING TO A PRAYER GONE BY."
- CHAPTER XV. "HOPE SPRINGS ETERNAL IN THE HUMAN BREAST."
- CHAPTER XVI. "SMILING AT GRIEF."
- CHAPTER XVII. "TO BE, OR NOT TO BE."
- CHAPTER XVIII. "OTHER REFUGE HAVE I NONE."
- CHAPTER XIX. A NEW YEAR'S GIFT.
- CHAPTER XX. WEDDING CARDS.
- CHAPTER XXI. "RUE."
- CHAPTER XXII. ON TIPTOE FOR A FLIGHT.
- CHAPTER XXIII. IN MEMPHIS.
- CHAPTER XXIV. LULU TO HER MOTHER.
- CHAPTER XXV. THE PATHOS OF A QUIET LIFE.
- CHAPTER XXVI. LULU TO HER MOTHER.
- CHAPTER XXVII. "NEARER MY GOD TO THEE."
- CHAPTER XXVIII. LULU TO HER MOTHER.
- CHAPTER XXIX. LAST WORDS.
- CHAPTER XXX. "BABY FINGERS, WAXEN TOUCHES."
- CHAPTER XXXI. AT HER FEET.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-THE FALL OF A METEOR.
-
- "Once those eyes, full sweet, full shy,
- Told a certain thing to mine;
- What they told me I put by,
- Oh, so careless of the sign.
- Such an easy thing to take,
- And I did not want it then;
- Fool! I wish my heart would break--
- Scorn is hard on hearts of men."
-
- --JEAN INGELOW.
-
-
-It was 1866, on the evening of a lovely spring day, and my heroine was
-gathering flowers in one of the loveliest of the lovely gardens of that
-sea-port city, Norfolk, Virginia.
-
-A lovely garden indeed, with its spacious area, its graveled walks
-and fountains, its graceful pavilions, its beautiful flowers, and the
-tasteful villa that rose in the midst of this terrestrial paradise
-looked very attractive outlined whitely against the dark green of
-the lofty grove of trees stretching far into its rear. Built on the
-suburbs of the city, in the portion of it known as Ocean View, you
-could scarcely have imagined a fairer prospect than that which met the
-eyes of the two gentlemen who idly smoked and talked on the wide piazza
-fronting the sea.
-
-The sun was setting in a blue May sky, sinking slowly and sadly beneath
-the level of the sea, while far away, just faintly outlined by its
-fading beams, glimmered the white sails and tapering spars of an
-outward-bound ship. How lonely it looked on that vast ocean in the
-fading light,
-
- "Like the last beam that reddens over one--
- That sinks with those we love below the verge."
-
-To a poetic mind, the sight suggested many exquisite similitudes, and
-Bruce Conway took the cigar from between his lips and mused sadly as
-befitted the occasion, till the voice of his companion jarred suddenly
-on his dreamy mood.
-
-"Bruce, my boy, will you favor me with the earthly name of the
-white-robed divinity whom I have observed for the last half-hour
-flitting about this paradisiacal garden? Since my advent here at noon
-to-day, I have not had the pleasure of meeting my amiable hostess, yet
-I am persuaded that this youthful creature cannot be your aunt."
-
-"Smitten at sight--eh, Clendenon?" answered Mr. Conway, with an attempt
-at archness. "That, my dear fellow, is my aunt's companion, Miss Grey.
-She is coming this way, and I'll introduce you."
-
-He puffed away indolently at his fragrant cigar, while the young girl
-of whom he had spoken came up the broad avenue that led to the piazza
-steps, bearing on her arm a dainty basket heaped high with flowers
-and trailing vines that overflowed the edges of her basket and clung
-lovingly about her white robe. She was, perhaps, seventeen years of
-age, and endowed with a rare and peerless loveliness. A Mary of Scots,
-a Cleopatra might have walked with that stately, uplifted grace, that
-rare, unstudied poetry of motion. Slender, and tall, and lithe, with
-her pale gold ringlets and marvelous fairness was combined so much
-innocent sweetness that it brought the guest to his feet in involuntary
-homage and admiration, while Mr. Conway himself tossed away his cigar,
-and, hastening to meet her, took the flowery burden from her arm, and
-assisted her up the steps.
-
-"Miss Grey, allow me to present to you my friend, Captain Clendenon,"
-he said, in his graceful, off-hand way.
-
-"Perfectly beautiful, faultily faultless!" murmured the captain to
-himself, as he bowed over the delicate hand she shyly offered.
-
-With quiet grace she accepted the chair he placed for her, and, taking
-up a great lapful of flowers, answered a question Mr. Conway asked:
-
-"Yes, your aunt's headache is better, and she will be down this
-evening. These flowers are for the drawing-room. You know how she loves
-to see a profusion of flowers about the house through the whole season."
-
- "'Ah! one rose--
- One rose, but one, by those fair fingers culled,
- Were worth a hundred kisses pressed on lips
- Less exquisite than thine.'"
-
-It was like Bruce Conway's graceful impudence to quote those lines,
-smiling up into the Hebe-like face of the girl. He was the spoiled
-darling of fortune, the handsome idol of the fair sex, as perfect in
-his dark, manly beauty as she in her opposite angelic type. Yet she
-hesitated, trifling saucily with her flowers, and half denying the rose
-he craved.
-
-"I am chary of giving away roses obtained at the price of so many
-thorns," said she, holding up a taper finger with a dark-red scratch
-marking a zigzag course over its whiteness. "Gather your roses
-yourself, sir."
-
-"If I might gather those that blossom on your cheeks, I might take the
-risk of the thorns," he answered, daringly.
-
-The roses referred to deepened to vivid crimson, the golden lights
-in the pansy-colored eyes sent a fiery gleam along the black-fringed
-lashes, as she answered, indignantly:
-
-"You forget yourself, and presume, sir."
-
-"I did, indeed, but you know my idle habit of jesting. Pardon me."
-
-"Willingly, so that the offense is not repeated," she answered, more
-gently, as she continued at her task, grouping the flowers into
-tasteful bouquets, and ending by a fragrant gift to each gentleman of
-a tiny posy for his button-hole, that restored sociability and brought
-back the ease that had marked the first of the interview.
-
-"And to-morrow, Bruce," said the captain, presently, "I shall see
-the last of you for years, if not forever. What possesses you to go
-wandering off to Europe in this mad fashion?"
-
-A smothered cry of astonishment caused him to look at Grace Grey. She
-was looking straight at Bruce Conway, the rose-bloom dying away from
-her cheeks, and the beautiful eyes, eager, questioning, startled, with
-a woman's love looking out of them, and a woman's love revealed, alas!
-too plainly, in that mute gaze.
-
-Conway's dark eyes met hers for a moment with answering love in their
-dark depths. Only a moment, though, and then they wavered and fell, and
-he indifferently answered her mute question:
-
-"You look surprised, _ma petite_. Well, it is true that I leave here
-to-morrow for an extended tour over Europe. I have long thought of it,
-and the time has come at last."
-
-No answer. She could not have spoken if life or death had hung on
-a single sentence from those sweet lips, from whence the rose-tint
-had faded, leaving them cold and white, and drawn as if in pain. She
-gathered up her fragrant burdens and carried them into the house,
-leaving a momentary shocked silence behind her.
-
-Presently the captain spoke, in the calm, assured tone in which we
-chide a dear and intimate friend:
-
-"Bruce, have you been flirting with that pretty, innocent child?"
-
-Conway fidgeted a little, but he answered nonchalantly enough:
-
-"Why do you ask? Have you fallen in love with her?"
-
-"I was not speaking of myself; we will keep to the subject, if you
-please. She _loves_ you." His voice grew tender, reverential.
-
-"Well?"
-
-That simple monosyllable might have expressed many things. In Bruce
-Conway's non-committal tone it meant nothing.
-
-"You will marry her?"
-
-"Why, no."
-
-The words came out with a jerk, as if they must be said, and the sooner
-the better. The purple twilight hid his face and expression, yet the
-captain persevered:
-
-"Yet you love her?"
-
-"Taking your assertion for granted," said Conway, coolly, "is that any
-reason why I should marry Miss Grey?"
-
-"It seems one to me."
-
-"Very probably; but, _mon ami_, your view on this, as on many other
-things, are old-fashioned and absurd, or, at least, behind the times
-we live in. Do you happen to know, old fellow, that I have completely
-run through my handsome fortune, and that my 'great expectations' as my
-aunt's solo heir and favorite are all I have to depend on?"
-
-"I know it. What then?"
-
-"'What then?'" boyishly mimicking the sober tone of the older man.
-"If I must tell you, Clen, my aunt has positively interdicted me from
-making love to her fair companion. I might be courteously polite,
-soberly kind--nothing more, on pain of disinheritance and eternal
-banishment from my relative's imperious presence."
-
-"You have disobeyed her."
-
-"Not I. I have debarred myself from that exquisite pleasure, and kept
-strictly to the letter of my aunt's command. I have never told her
-I loved her, never addressed her a single word of love, save in the
-ideal, poetical quotations to which she can attach no real meaning.
-I am not to blame," talking a little savagely; "and I suffer, too. I
-must go away. It is madness for me to stay here longer, and cruel to
-her. My heart aches for her--she is so fair, so pure, so trusting. I
-dare not stay here another day, or I should break through Aunt Conway's
-prohibition and tell her all that is in my heart. But once away from
-the sight of her maddening beauty, I can forget her, and returning home
-some time, take possession of my handsome inheritance, and thank my
-lucky stars for the decision I made to-day."
-
-"Think a moment, dear friend. Is it not just as possible that a day may
-come when you shall bitterly regret that decision? When for the sake
-of the loving, trusting, friendless child you desert to-day, you would
-peril not only your hopes of present fortune and earthly prosperity,
-but your aspirations for a brighter world?"
-
-"Why pursue a useless subject? I have let you have your say out,
-and heard you in patience. Now hear me. I do love Grace Grey so
-passionately that, having had everything I wanted heretofore in life,
-it is a hard struggle to be compelled to resign her. But though I feel
-that I am acting almost a villainous part, I cannot incur my aunt's
-penalty. Love of ease and luxury is inherent in my nature, and I would
-not resign the power of gratifying these propensities for the sake
-of any woman's love. Even if I risked all to do the love-in-cottage
-romance, what have I left to offer Miss Grey along with my name and
-love?"
-
-"Your broad breast to shield her; your clear brain and strong arms to
-toil for her."
-
-"Mere visionary fancies! I am too indolent to work with head or hands.
-My vocation is that of an idler. I shall go to Europe, see all that is
-to be seen, shiver foggy London, plunge head and soul into the gay and
-giddy circles of dear delightful Paris, return, inherit Aunt Conway's
-fortune, marry some heiress of her choosing, and live happy ever after."
-
-"I doubt it. Good-night."
-
-"Come back--you are not going? I shall drive you into town after
-tea--my aunt expects to see you--Clendenon, I say!"
-
-He hurried down the walk after the tall, proud form stalking coldly
-away, and stopped him with a hand upon his shoulder.
-
-"Clen, are you angry with me? Don't think of it! You know there are
-some subjects on which we never agree. I am sorry I did not hear your
-expostulations with more patience. That is saying more than I would say
-to any other man living, but I don't forgot that it is for me you wear
-that empty sleeve across your breast--that you gave freely to save my
-worthless life the strong arm that was worth more than a dozen such men
-as I. And are we to separate at last for a woman's sake?"
-
-It was true. They had shared the same camp-fire, slept under the same
-scanty blanket, battled side by side in the far-famed gray uniform,
-and when death threatened the one the strong arm of the other had been
-raised to shield him. Had it been necessary he would have given his
-life as freely as he gave his strong left arm.
-
-He could not forget in a moment the friendship of years, but he
-yielded half-reluctantly to the detaining hand that drew him back to
-the house.
-
-"I confess that I go back with you unwillingly," he said, in his grave,
-frank way. "You have shown me a new phase of your character, Bruce, and
-I do not in the least admire it. I trust yet to hear you repudiate your
-decision as unworthy of yourself as well as unjust to the girl whose
-sacred love you have trifled with."
-
-"Perhaps I may yet," was the hurried reply. "I am so divided between
-conflicting emotions that I scarcely know my own mind yet. I may yet
-decide as you wish me to do."
-
-Part of this was said to conciliate his friend, and part of it was
-true, for Bruce Conway did not err when he said that he scarcely know
-his own mind. The most of his failings and follies, as of a great many
-other people, arose from this amiable trait in his character.
-
-He had not decided when the pleasant social ceremony of the nine
-o'clock tea was over, and leaving Captain Clendenon deep in converse
-with his stately hostess, he beguiled the younger lady into a walk down
-to the sea-shore. There standing, arm in arm, on the pebbly beach,
-he almost made up his mind. For she was _so_ beautiful, and he loved
-beauty. A love of beauty was inherent in his luxurious nature, and
-Grace Grey was the fairest creature he had ever beheld as she lifted
-her shy glance to his in the brilliant moonlight, while as yet neither
-had spoken a word.
-
-Why need they have spoken? It needed but that his hand should seek
-and hold hers in that lingering clasp that tells the all and all of
-love. But the soft breeze went sighing past like a spirit, the eternal
-sea surged strangely on, the stars burned, and the moon went under a
-transient cloud, while far away in the southern heavens a great red
-_meteor_ flamed out and shone brilliantly among the silver stars. Both
-saw it at once, and both uttered an affected cry of surprise--affected,
-I say, because I do not think anything would have surprised them then,
-they were so absorbed in each other, so happy and yet so unhappy, as
-they stood together there, their young hearts throbbing "so near and
-yet so far."
-
-She did not dream as she watched that fiery orb of light that her
-future hung on its transient beaming. She knew, with a woman's keen
-intuition, that he had brought her there to learn her fate. What it
-was to be she could not guess. Certainly she did not think that the
-man beside her had staked their two futures on the hazard of a meteor,
-and that when it paled and faded from the stormy sky he whispered to
-himself: "As was my love for her! Burning and comet-like as was that
-meteor, it shall fade as soon and leave me free."
-
-Was it? Did the future prove so? Tenderly--more tenderly than he had
-ever done--he lifted the thin white drapery, half falling from her
-shoulders, and folded it closely about her.
-
-"How heavily the dew falls," he said, kindly. "We had better return to
-the house."
-
-Mrs. Conway looked curiously up as the pair came slowly into the
-drawing-room, and was content with what her keen glance read in the
-faces that wore the light mask of indifferent smiles.
-
-"Gracie, child," in her most affable way, "don't let our guest leave us
-without the rare treat of hearing you sing. Captain Clendenon, will you
-turn the music for her?"
-
-"The attraction of Grace's music, its greatest charm, lies in its
-wonderful pathos and expressiveness," condescended the haughty hostess,
-as the guest's firm lip softened while listening to the spirit-like
-melodies that sobbed and wailed along the piano keys, answering to the
-touch of the skillful fingers and the sweet voice.
-
-At length she selected an old song, and with a single glance at Conway,
-sang the first stanza through:
-
- "Sweetheart, good-by! the fluttering sail
- Is set to bear me far from thee;
- And soon before the favoring gale
- My ship shall bound upon the sea.
- Perchance, all desolate and forlorn,
- These eyes shall miss thee many a year;
- But unforgotten every charm,
- Though lost to sight to mem'ry dear!"
-
-The wounded young heart could sustain itself no longer. She rose
-and passed hastily from the room. It was her farewell to her
-unworthy lover. When he left home in the early dawn, amid the tearful
-lamentations of his adoring aunt, Miss Grey had not arisen from her
-feverish slumbers.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-TOO LATE.
-
- Ay, I saw her--we have met--
- Married eyes how sweet they be!
- Are you happier, Margaret,
- Than you might have been with me?
- Come, but there is naught to say,
- Married eyes with mine have met,
- Silence, oh! I had my day!
- Margaret! Margaret!--JEAN INGELOW.
-
-
-Mrs. Conway was not wearing the willow for her wandering nephew. On
-the contrary, her elegant rooms constantly witnessed merry gatherings,
-where mirth and music reigned supreme. She was still a handsome woman,
-still a brilliant woman, and the world of society, fashion, and folly
-held her as one of its leaders. The delicate state of her health had
-improved, she had dispensed with her fair companion, and on a sweet
-spring night, just four years from the date of the beginning of this
-story, she was giving a splendid ball in honor of the wife of the
-distinguished and handsome Senator Winans, of Virginia.
-
-The elite of Norfolk was gathered there, the house was garnished with
-wreaths and garlands of flowers, till the long drawing-rooms opening
-into each other looked like fast succeeding vistas of intoxicating
-bloom. Music rose voluptuously overall, and the proud hostess moved
-among her guests looking handsome as a picture, and young for her
-fifty-four years, in the sea-green silk and misty laces that accorded
-so well with her dark eyes and hair, and sweetly smiling mouth.
-
-But under all her brightness and gayety Mrs. Conway carried an uneasy
-pang in her proud heart. It was the neglect of her idolized nephew.
-She had never had any children of her own, and at the death of her
-husband the orphan boy of her only brother crept into her heart, and
-held the only place in it that was worth having; for the heart of a
-fashionable fine lady, I take it, has little room to spare from the
-vanities of dress and fashion; but whatever vacant room there remained
-in Mrs. Conway's, it all belonged to her self-exiled nephew, and for
-many months no news had come of the traveler. He had roved from one end
-of Europe to the other, and wearied of it all, but still talked not of
-coming home, and his aunt missed him sadly. He had been unfeignedly
-fond of her. He was her nearest living relative, her chosen heir, and
-she wanted him home for the few remaining years of her life. But with
-the underlying strength of her proud heart she kept those feelings to
-herself, and none were the wiser for them.
-
-And in the midst of the music and dancing a stranger crept to the
-door of the anteroom, and looked anxiously in--Bruce Conway. A little
-thinner, a little bronzed by travel, a little more grave looking, but
-every bit as handsome as the dashing young follow who had gambled with
-a meteor for his chance of happiness and--lost.
-
-Was he looking for his aunt? Twice she passed near enough to have
-touched him with her hand, but he smiled and let her pass on, not
-dreaming of his near presence.
-
-At last his eyes encountered what they sought, and, half unconsciously,
-he drew nearer, and scanned the peerless vision framed in the door-way
-of the conservatory, in the soft but brilliant light of the wax-lights
-half-hidden in flowers.
-
-Was she a creature of this lower earth? He had thought, that spring
-four years ago, with Grace Grey at seventeen, leaning on his arm,
-looking into his face in the moonlight, that she was more a creature
-of heaven than earth. He thought so again to-night, as he looked
-at her leaning there under the arch of flowers that framed the
-conservatory door. He thought of all the living loveliness, the
-sculptured perfection, the radiant beauty that seemed to breathe
-on the canvas--all he had seen in his wanderings from shore to
-shore--and nothing he could recall was half so glorious as Grace Grey
-at twenty-one, in her calm repose, standing quietly looking on at the
-scene, seeming herself, to the fascinated eyes that beheld her, like a
-young angel strayed away from paradise.
-
-Mr. Conway slipped around and entered the room by a side door in the
-rear of where she stood. At sound of his footstep she turned slowly and
-looked at him carelessly, then looking again, threw up one hand. Was
-she going to faint? Not she! Her face whitened, her pansy-violet eyes
-grew black with intense emotion, but without a tremor she offered the
-little cold hand he had dashed away from him so long before. It was as
-cold now as it had been then--had it never been warm since, he wondered.
-
-"Welcome home!" he heard in the remembered music of her voice.
-
-"Oh, Grace, my darling, my wronged little love!" He knew his own mind
-at last, and was down on his knees before she could prevent him,
-passionately entreating, "My darling, will you forgive me, and give
-yourself to me? I have come home to make reparation for the past. I
-never knew how dear you were, how entirely I loved you, till the ocean
-rolled between us."
-
-For a moment the silence of unspeakable emotion fell between them; she
-struggled for speech, waving her hand for him to pause, while over her
-pure, pale face a flood of indignant crimson warmly drifted.
-
-"Rise, sir," she answered, at last, in low, proud tones, "such words
-are an insult to me!"
-
-"And why? Oh! Grace, can you not forgive me, can you not love me? You
-loved me once, I know. Don't send me away. Promise that I may still
-love you, that you will be my worshiped wife!"
-
-She did not laugh at him, as you or I might have done, my reader. It
-was not in the nature of the girl Bruce Conway had scorned for her
-low estate to be anything but sweet and merciful. She looked at him,
-still faintly flushed and excited, but answered with unconsciously
-straightening figure, and a firm but gentle dignity peculiar to her
-always:
-
-"Possibly you are not aware, Mr. Conway, that your words of love are
-addressed to one who is already a wife--and mother."
-
-Mr. Conway had never fainted in his life, but with a feeling that sense
-and strength were giving way, he rose, and, dropping into a chair,
-white as death, looked at the young creature whose quiet assertion of
-matronly dignity had fallen on his ears like a death-warrant. And as
-he looked, with that strange power we have of discriminating details
-even in the most eventful hours, he noticed many things that went
-far to prove the truth of her words. He had left her poor and almost
-friendless, her richest dress a simple white muslin, and scarcely
-another piece of jewelry than the simple trinket of gold and pearls
-that clasped the frill of lace at her white throat. To-night she
-wore a sweeping robe of costly white silk, with flouncings of real
-lace, that was worth a small fortune in itself. There were diamonds
-on the wavering swell of her white bosom, depending from the pearly
-ears, scintillating fire from her restless taper wrists, clasping her
-statuesque throat like sunshine glowing on snow. She was wealthy,
-prosperous, beloved now, he read in the restful peace that crowned her
-innocent brow; and bitterest thought of all to the man who had loved
-and deserted her--another man called her _his wife_--another man's
-child called her mother.
-
-While she stood with that flush of offended wifely dignity burning
-hotly on her pure cheek, while he looked at her with a soul's despair
-written on his handsome features, a gentleman entered the room carrying
-an ice. He was tall and splendidly handsome, his countenance frank,
-and pleasant, but a slight frown contracted his brow as he took in the
-scene, and it did not clear away as the lady said, distantly:
-
-"Mr. Conway, allow me the pleasure of presenting to you my husband,
-Senator Winans."
-
-Both gentlemen bowed ceremoniously, but neither offered the hand.
-Mr. Conway hated Winans already, and the gentleman thus honored felt
-intuitively that he should hate Conway. So their greeting was of the
-briefest. The discomfited traveler turned and walked over to the Hon.
-Mrs. Winans.
-
-"I beg your pardon," he said, in low, earnest tones; "I did not
-know--had not heard the least hint of your marriage."
-
-He was gone the next moment. Senator Winans looked inquiringly at his
-beautiful young wife. She did not speak; he fancied she shrank a little
-as he looked at her, but as he set down the ice on a small flower-stand
-near by, she took up the little golden spoon and let a tiny bit of the
-frozen cream melt on her ruby lip, while a faint smile dimpled the
-corners of her mouth.
-
-"My love," he said, lifting the small, white hand, and toying with its
-jeweled fingers, "are you ill? Your hand is cold as ice."
-
-"I never felt better in my life," smiling up into his questioning
-eyes, and nestling the small hand still closer in his. "The cold
-cream chilled me after dancing so much, or," her natural truthfulness
-asserting itself, "I may be a little nervous, and that makes my hands
-cold."
-
-"And what has made you nervous to-night?" his tone unconsciously stern
-and his thoughts full of the dark, despairing face that had looked up
-from the depths of the arm-chair at his queenly looking wife.
-
-"Nothing," she answered, dreamily, while a swift flush burned on her
-cheek, and she turned away a little petulantly and began to trifle with
-the ice again.
-
-"I beg your pardon, but it was something, and that something was the
-man who has just left us. Who and what is he?"
-
-"Mr. Bruce Conway, nephew and heir of our hostess. He has been abroad
-four years, I think, and but just returned."
-
-"An old acquaintance of yours, then?"
-
-"Well, yes."
-
-She turned toward him with marvelous sweetness and self-command.
-
-"During my stay with Mrs. Conway I was naturally brought frequently in
-contact with her nephew. I found him a pleasant acquaintance."
-
-"Nothing more--was he not a lover?"
-
-His beautiful dark eyes seemed to burn into her soul, so full were they
-of jealous pain and sudden doubt.
-
-She came up to him, crossing her round white arms over one of his,
-looking up at him with an arch, merry smile.
-
-"I really cannot say, since he never confessed to a tender passion for
-me. The difference in our stations precluded anything of the sort.
-You must remember that there are few men like you, my loyal love, who
-stooped to lift a beggar-maid to share your throne."
-
-Her eyes were misty and full of unshed tears, partly out of gratitude
-and love for him, and partly--she could not help it--because she was
-conscious of a sharp, agonized remembrance of a night four years
-before, the very thought of which made her turn white and cold as death
-as she leaned upon her husband's arm.
-
-One hand beneath her dimpled chin lifted her face to meet his gaze. She
-met it sweetly and frankly, but he knew her well enough to know that
-the intense blackness of her dilated eyes denoted deep emotion.
-
-"Tell me the truth, Gracie," he entreated. "That man looked at you as
-no mere acquaintance ever looked at a woman--looked at you as he had no
-right to look at the wife of another man! What mystery is this you are
-trying to withhold from me? If you refuse to answer what I have a right
-to know you force me to seek satisfaction from him."
-
-He was terribly in earnest. The baleful fire of doubt and jealousy
-burned in his eagle gaze, and startled the young creature who read its
-language with a vague doubt creeping into her soul. She did not want to
-deceive her husband--still less did she want to tell him the truth for
-which he asked.
-
-"Spare me!" she entreated. "There is nothing to tell, my love--nothing
-of any consequence, I mean. It would but annoy you to hear it, mortify
-me to tell it," and once more the warm blush of insulted matronly pride
-tinged the girlish cheek with crimson.
-
-"For all that I insist upon having an explanation of the scene I
-witnessed here after leaving you scarcely a minute before!"
-
-Unconsciously to himself he shook off the small hands that clasped his
-arm in his eager interest and excitement. She did not replace them,
-but, folding both her arms across her breast, lifted her pale, earnest
-face to his.
-
-Her answer came low and sweet, though perhaps a trifle impatient, as
-though the subject seemed to her scarcely worth this "wordy war."
-
-"Well, then, Mr. Bruce Conway startled me very much by entering here
-quite suddenly and making me an offer of his hand, declaring that he
-had learned to love me while abroad. I checked him by telling him that
-I was a wife and mother. You heard his apology to me--he did not know
-of my marriage. That is all there is to tell."
-
-He looked at her and half smiled at thought of Conway's discomfiture;
-but the passing merriment was displaced in a moment by the sharp pain
-tugging at his heart-strings. He had the jealous Southern nature to
-perfection. He could not endure even the thought that another had ever
-enshrined in his heart the image of Grace, his lovely girl-bride. So
-sharp a pang tore his heart that he could not move nor speak.
-
-"Paul, my husband"--she looked up at him as wondrously fair in his eyes
-as she had been in Bruce Conway's, and with a timid grace that was
-infinitely becoming to her--"surely you do not blame me. I could not
-help it. I am sorry it has happened. I cannot say more."
-
-It was not in human nature to withstand the mute pleading of her
-manner, or the soft gaze that met his own. He stooped and touched his
-lips to her pure brow.
-
-"Let us go, love," he said. "I confess that I shall feel better away
-from here and in our pleasant home."
-
-"But this reception was given for us. Our hostess will feel offended at
-so early a departure."
-
-"I will tell her we were called away--that is, unless you wish to
-remain."
-
-"No, indeed; I would rather be at home with my precious baby; and your
-wishes are always mine, Paul."
-
-How exquisitely she tempered wifely submission and obedience with
-gentleness and love! If there was a cross in her life, she wreathed it
-over with flowers. Her soothing voice fell like the oil of peace on the
-troubled waters of his soul.
-
-Long after their adieus to their hostess had been spoken, and his arm
-had lovingly lifted her into her carriage, Bruce Conway's eyes watched
-vacantly the spot where she had vanished from his sight, while that
-haggard wanness of despair never left his face. Never until the hour
-in which he knew her irrevocably lost to him did he realize how deeply
-rooted in his soul his love had been. Amid all the glories of the
-old world he had felt that life was a desert without her, and in the
-Arabian deserts the knowledge had dawned slowly upon him, that even
-here her mere presence would have created a paradise of bliss. Far
-away from her, unconsciously to her, he had mentally renounced his
-anticipated inheritance, and come home with the fixed intention of
-winning her, and toiling, if need be, cheerfully for her.
-
-Not a thought of disappointment, not a possibility of her marriage
-had crossed his mind. It was left to this hour, when he stood there
-listening to the slow crunch of her carriage wheels that seemed
-grinding over his heart as they rolled away, to know his own heart
-truly, and to feel how much better than he knew himself his friend had
-known him when he said, on almost the same spot where he now stood
-alone:
-
-"Is it not just as possible that the day may come when for the sake of
-the loving, trusting, friendless child you desert to-day, you would
-peril not only your hopes of present fortune and future prosperity, but
-your aspirations for a brighter world?"
-
-It had come. Passionate heart, undisciplined temper, unsatisfied
-yearnings clamored fiercely for the woman who had loved him as he would
-never be loved again. He would have given then, in his wild abandonment
-to his love and despair, all his hopes of fortune, his dreams of fame,
-his chances of futurity, to have stood for one hour in the place of the
-man who, even then in his beautiful home, clasped wife and child in one
-embrace to his noble heart, while he thanked God for the treasure of a
-pure woman's love.
-
-A touch on his shoulder, a voice in his ear jarred suddenly on his
-wild, semi-savage mood.
-
-"Be a man, Bruce, old fellow, be a man. It is too late for unavailing
-regrets. Call all your manhood to your aid."
-
-"Clendenon, is it you?" He turned and wrung his friend's hand with a
-grip that must have pained him. "Have you come to exult over my misery
-with the stereotyped 'I told you so?'"
-
-"Can you think it of me? Bruce, I have watched you for the last five
-minutes, and I understand your feelings. From my soul I pity you!"
-
-"Don't! Sympathy I cannot bear--even from you, old boy. Clen, how long
-has it been--when was she,"--a great gulp--"married?"
-
-"More than eighteen months ago Senator Winans saw her first at one
-of your aunt's receptions, where she was brought forward to perform a
-difficult sonata for a musical party. He saw and loved (what man could
-see her and not love her?) There was a brief courtship, a brilliant
-marriage, under the rejoicing auspices of your aunt, and the beautiful
-Hon. Mrs. Winans was the belle of last season in Washington, as her
-husband was one of the most notable members of the Senate. She has been
-'the fashion' ever since."
-
-"So she was like all other women, after all," sneered Conway,
-in jealous rage. "Sold herself. So much beauty, intellect, and
-frivolity--for a brilliant establishment, a proud name, and high
-position."
-
-"I think not. They live very happily, I am told. He is worthy any
-woman's love, and has won hers, no doubt. And, Bruce, I don't think
-anything could make her worldly or calculating. As much of the angel is
-about her as is possible for mortal to possess."
-
-Conway looked suddenly up into the handsome, inscrutable face of the
-speaker.
-
-"Clen, _mon ami_, if it had to be any one else than me, I wish it had
-been you that had married her. You are deserving of any blessing that
-can come into a good man's life."
-
-"Thanks," his friend answered, simply, and moved aside to make way for
-Mrs. Conway, who swept out on the piazza and up to the side of her
-nephew. Somehow the news of his return had been noised about the rooms,
-and she had come to seek him, vexed and mortified that he had not come
-to her, but still very happy to know that he was there at all.
-
-"My dear boy," she said, as she clasped his hand and took the gallant
-kiss he offered, "this is, indeed, a joyful surprise. Will you come up
-into my boudoir, where we can have a quiet chat to ourselves, before
-your many friends claim your attention?"
-
-Silent and moody he followed her. Once within the quiet seclusion of
-her own special apartment, and she turned upon him with a sudden storm
-of reproaches.
-
-"Bruce, what is all this I hear? That gossiping old maid, Miss Lavinia
-Story, has spread from one guest to the other a sensational report of
-your meeting Mrs. Winans in the conservatory just now, and proposing
-to her under the impression that she was still Miss Grey, my late
-companion. It can't be true of you; don't say it is, and make me
-ashamed of you in the very hour of your return. You could not have been
-guilty of such rashness and stupidity. Give me authority to deny it to
-our friends."
-
-"I can't do it." He was always rather laconic in his way of speaking,
-and he answered her now in a moody, don't-care, scarcely respectful
-sort of style, without even looking at her. "It's all true, every word
-of it, and more besides."
-
-"Bruce, Bruce, what madness!"
-
-"Was it? Well, I suppose you did not expect as much manliness as that
-even from one who had been so ready to sell himself for your gold.
-But I could not do it, Aunt Conway. You know well enough that I loved
-her. That was why you were so willing I should go away. But I did not
-forget her so easily as I thought I would. My love only strengthened
-with time until I resolved to resign my claims to your fortune, come
-home, win her, and work for her like a man. I came, saw her, forgot all
-about the proprieties, and spoke at once. I didn't stop to think why
-she wore silk instead of muslin, diamonds instead of flowers. I saw
-only her heavenly, sweet face, and blundered straight into--making a
-laughing-stock of myself for all your acquaintance!"
-
-"Exactly!" groaned Mrs. Conway. "Miss Story eavesdropped--she pretends
-to have heard it purely accidentally. The old--"
-
-"News-carrier!" grimly suggested her nephew, finding her at a loss for
-a word.
-
-"You may well say that! She will have it all over Norfolk to-morrow.
-Oh! how it mortifies my pride to have anything occur to disgrace me so!
-Bruce, I could almost find it in my heart to curse you!"
-
-"And I you! You are to blame for it all. But for you and your foolish
-pride of wealth and position, I might have wooed and won her; but while
-I wavered in my shameful vacillation and selfishness, a better and
-nobler man has stepped in between us! You are proud to welcome _him_,
-proud to do him honor; proud to welcome her in her beauty and grace,
-now that you have put her forever out of my reach. But you are well
-repaid to-night. Look at my blasted hopes and ruined life, and curse
-yourself, your gold, everything that has come between two loving hearts
-and sundered them forever!"
-
-He threw the words at her like a curse, stepped outside the door, and
-slammed it heavily after him.
-
-She saw him no more that night.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-"SWEETHEART, GOOD-BY."
-
- "Alas! how light a cause may move
- Dissension between hearts that love!"
-
-
-"You may go, Norah," said Grace Winans, looking up from the child on
-her breast at the sleepy-eyed nurse. "If I need you again I can ring
-the bell;" and, smiling, Norah bowed and withdrew.
-
-It was almost twelve o'clock, and Grace had exchanged her ball-dress
-for a white _neglige_, and sat in the nursery, holding her babe in her
-arms, and smiling thoughtfully down at the tiny, winsome face. Mother
-and child made a wondrously fair picture in the soft shade of the
-wax-lights, that burned with subdued brightness in the dainty, airy,
-white-hung room. The girlish mother leaned a little forward as she sat
-in the low rocking-chair, her bright curls falling over the loosely
-flowing white dress like a golden glory. Her pure, innocent eyes
-looked down at the babe that nestled in her arms, and a low murmur of
-tenderness escaped her lips.
-
-"My Birdie! my baby!"
-
-"Still sitting up, Grace?"
-
-It was the voice of her husband entering to pay his nightly visit to
-the little bright-eyed babe--sole heir of his proud name and wealth.
-
-"I am not tired," she answered, in her fresh young voice, "and our
-little darling is so sweet I cannot bear to lay him down. Only look at
-him, Paul!"
-
-
-Paul Winans bent down and clasped mother and child in one fond embrace.
-
-"My two babes!" he whispered.
-
-A sunny smile broke over the young wife's face. The pet name pleased
-her, for she was still scarcely more than a child in her quick
-appreciation of affection, and, like a child, she could scarcely have
-understood an affection that did not express itself in tender epithets
-and warm caresses. She nestled her bright head against his arm, sighing
-softly in the fullness of her content.
-
-Tender and trustful as a little child, always ready to sacrifice her
-own wishes to those of others, only asking to love and be loved, our
-pretty Grace made a charming wife and mother. Prosperity had not
-spoiled her warm heart nor her clear judgment, and the greatest aim
-of her loving life was to please her noble husband in all things--her
-highest ambition to be to him always, as she was then, the guiding star
-of his life.
-
- "Some flowers of Eden we still inherit,
- But the trail of the serpent is over them all."
-
-Over this exquisite picture of domestic peace and love broke the
-storm-cloud and the tempest. It was but a moment after Paul Winans
-kissed his happy wife before the stillness of the midnight hour was
-broken by a sound that rose from the street below, and was directly
-beneath the window.
-
-First, a mournful guitar prelude; then a man's voice singing in the
-very accents of despair, and he finished the song of which Grace had
-sung the first stanza for him four years before:
-
- "Sweetheart, good-by! One last embrace!
- O cruel fate! two souls to sever!
- Yet in this heart's most sacred place
- Thou, thou alone, shalt dwell forever!
-
- "And still shall recollection trace
- In fancy's mirror, ever near,
- Each smile, each tear, that form, that face--
- Though lost to sight, to mem'ry dear!"
-
-Husband and wife listened in unbroken silence to the strain. The
-senator's arm tightened about his wife and child, and she sat mute and
-still, every line of her face as moveless as if carved from marble. But
-as the lingering notes died away, her hand sought and touched the tiny
-blue-and-silver tassel that depended from the bell-cord, and sent its
-low tinkle through the house.
-
-Norah, who always answered the nursery-bell, came in after the lapse of
-a moment. To her Mrs. Winans said, in a voice that sounded stern and
-cold for her silver-sweet tones:
-
-"Norah, go to the front door and tell that madman that he had better
-move on--that the family do not wish to be disturbed by such nonsense
-at this hour of the night."
-
-The woman withdrew obediently.
-
-Paul Winans turned, and walked restlessly up and down the room.
-
-"So he dares come and serenade my wife directly under my window!"
-
-His dark eyes blazed, his cheeks flamed, and his hand involuntarily
-clenched itself.
-
-Grace looked up at him, still immovably calm and silent; but a slight
-nervous movement of her arm showed that she heard and understood. She
-looked up questioningly as Norah appeared in the door-way.
-
-"He was gone, ma'am, before I got down to the door."
-
-"Very well; you may go, then."
-
-And, as before, Norah went out, with her small courtesy, and left the
-pair alone.
-
-"Grace!"
-
-"Well, dear?"
-
-Her voice had the same sweet cadence as usual, and her smile was as
-gentle as ever when she looked up at the princely form before her. His
-voice, his look, showed his insulted pride and outraged heart. Her only
-trace of emotion showed in marble pallor and darkening eyes.
-
-"I do not understand this!" his voice slow and intense. "I thought I
-had found a pearl so pure and isolated that no other man's eyes had
-ever looked on it to covet its beauty for himself. That was my highest
-glory. Fame, fortune, pleasure were nothing to me in comparison with my
-pride in my wife, and that pride was the greater because a passionately
-jealous nature like mine is only satisfied in holding the first place
-in the beloved heart. And this I thought I held in yours. To-night I
-learn for the first time that long before I ever met you another man
-looked on you to love you; perhaps you loved him."
-
-His voice died away in a throb of passionate pain. He leaned against
-the rosewood, lace-draped crib, and looked down at her with their
-child in her arms, hoping she would deny it. She did not. Dead silence
-fell between them, and her soft eyes never wavered in their frank,
-upward look at him. They met his calmly, expectantly, their starry,
-inscrutable depths telling no secrets.
-
-"Grace!"
-
-"What is it, Paul?"
-
-"Say something--you are so cold--anything to allay the fire that burns
-in my veins. I think I am mad to-night."
-
-"My dearest, what can I say more than I have already told you? Mr.
-Conway proposed to me under a most mortifying mistake. I am not
-answerable for a man's infatuation with a fair face. I do not know what
-has induced him to make such a demonstration here to-night. Possibly
-he is under the influence of wine, and hardly knows the folly he is
-perpetrating; possibly we may never see or hear of him after this. Let
-us dismiss him from our thoughts."
-
-Spoken so sweetly, so calmly, so indifferently. Her seeming calmness
-subdued and quelled momentarily his stormy feelings, as a strong,
-well-balanced mind always curbs a fitful, unquiet one.
-
-"Then you do not care for him, Grace?"
-
-She was threading her slim fingers meditatively through the dark curls
-that clustered on the brow of her child. She glanced up, her snow-white
-cheek flushing a fitful scarlet, her voice and look full of proud
-reproach.
-
-"Paul, you are speaking to the mother of your child."
-
-That quiet dignity recalled him to a sense of what was due to his wife.
-His brow cleared, his voice softened, as he answered:
-
-"I beg your pardon, Gracie, dearest. I ought to have known your pure
-heart better than to insult it by a doubt. Your heart, I know, is mine
-now, or you would never have been my wife. I know your pure honor and
-truth too well to think otherwise. But oh, my love, my sweet wife, if I
-knew--if I knew that your warm, true heart had ever throbbed with one
-sigh of love for another, I should, even though it had happened before
-I ever saw you, never again know one happy moment. You may think it
-is jealous madness--it may be--but it is inherent in my nature, and I
-cannot help it. I repeat that I could never, never be happy again."
-
-No answer. Grace Winans' white arms wreathed themselves around her
-baby, pressing it closer, as if to still the sharp pang that struck
-home to her very heart. A faint shiver thrilled her, and rising, she
-laid the little sleeper in its downy nest, smiling a little sadly as
-she looked, but smiling still, for this tiny rosebud was the sweetest
-and most wonderful thing that had ever come into her lonely life.
-Deeply as she had loved the first object of her young affections,
-purely and truly as she loved her gifted husband, the strongest,
-deepest, most intense passion of her life was her maternal love. Some
-one has written half jestingly that "the depths of a woman's love can
-never be sounded till a baby is dropped into her heart," but it is
-true of the majority of women. It was especially true of Grace Winans.
-That little, rosy, lace-robed slumberer, small as it was, enshrining
-a human soul, was the idol of the young mother's life. Perhaps she
-was excusable. It was the only thing that had ever loved her purely
-and unselfishly. She could scarcely recollect her parents, she could
-not recall any one who had ever lavished on her such love as this
-child gave her, so devoted, so unreasoning, so absorbing; and deeply,
-unselfishly as she loved her husband, she loved his child better,
-though no word nor sign ever betrayed the fact to his jealous eyes. She
-reached up to him now, and drew him to her side, holding his arm about
-her waist with both dimpled white hands.
-
-"My darling," she whispered, "don't be so unreasonable. You have no
-_cause_ to be jealous, none at all. My whole heart is yours--yours and
-the baby's. You must have faith in me, Paul--have faith in me, and
-trust me as you do your own heart."
-
-Drawing his moody face down to hers she kissed him with child-like
-simplicity. At the persuasive touch of those tender lips his brow
-cleared, his listless clasp tightened around her, and both arms held
-her strained closely to his breast, his lips raining kisses on her
-brow, her cheeks, her lips, even her fair golden hair.
-
-"Now you are like yourself," the musical voice whispered gladly.
-"You will not be jealous and unhappy again. I am yours alone, dear
-one--heart, and soul, and body--your own loving, happy little wife."
-
-The sunshine on her face was tenderly reflected on his. She was so
-sweet and winsome, so womanly, yet withal so child-like and oh, _so_
-beautiful! His strange, unusual mood was not proof against the witchery
-of her loveliness, her flowing hair, the subtle perfume breathing from
-her garments, the tenderness of her words and looks.
-
-"I don't think another man in the world has such a precious wife!" he
-said.
-
-And though she knew that every man's private opinion regarding his own
-wife was the same, she took heart at his words of praise, and laughed
-archly. They two were that novel sight "under the sun," a pair of
-married lovers. Why need he have gone back to the forbidden subject?
-Ah! why have we always "done that which we ought not to have done?"
-Because he wanted to make himself miserable, I suppose. There is no
-other reason I can assign for his persistence; and, as for that, there
-is no reason whatever in a jealous man. "He is simply jealous for he is
-jealous," and where Shakespeare could not find a reason for a thing,
-how can I?
-
-"Gracie, may I ask you one question?"
-
-"You may--certainly."
-
-"And will you answer it truthfully?
-
-"If I answer it at all," she gravely made answer, "it must needs be
-truthfully, for I could not reply to you otherwise. But why ask a
-question at all? I do not care to question you of your past; why should
-you question me of mine? Let past and future alone, Paul. The present
-only is ours--let us enjoy it."
-
-And heedless of the warning shadow that fell across her pathetic face,
-he persevered:
-
-"Only tell me this, my precious wife. This Bruce Conway, who went
-away to Europe to learn that he loved you, and came back to tell you
-so. Gracie, in that past time when you knew him--before you ever knew
-me--did you--tell me truly, mind--did you ever love him?"
-
-The question she had dreaded and shrunk from all the time! She knew it
-would come, and now that it had, what could she say?
-
-How easy it would have been to confess the truth to a less passionate
-and jealous mind. It was no sin, not even a fault in her, and she was
-not afraid to tell him save with the moral cowardice that makes one
-dread the necessary utterance of words that must inflict pain. What
-harm was there in that dreamy passion that had cast its glamour over a
-few months of her girlhood? It was unkind in him to probe her heart so
-deeply. She dared not own the truth to him if its telling were to make
-him unhappy! And along with this feeling there was another--the natural
-shrinking of a proud woman from laying bare the hidden secrets of her
-soul, pure though they be, to mortal sight. A woman does not want to
-tell her husband, the man who loves her, and believes her irresistible
-to all, that another man has been proof against her charms, that the
-first pure waters of love's perennial fountain had gushed at the touch
-of another, who let the tide flow on unheeding and uncaring, and a man
-has no business to ask it. But where does the line of man's "little
-brief authority" cross its boundaries? We have never found out yet.
-It is left, perhaps, for some of the fair and curious ones of our sex
-who are "strong-minded" in their "day and generation" to solve that
-interesting problem.
-
-So, Gracie, debarred by confession by so many and grave considerations,
-in desperation, parried the question.
-
-"Paul, do you know that I am sleepy and tired, while you are keeping me
-up with such idle nonsense? If we must begin at this late day to worry
-over our past loves and dreams, suppose you begin first by telling me
-how many separate ladies you loved before you ever met me! Come, begin
-with the first on the list."
-
-"It begins and ends with--yourself," he said, gravely and firmly.
-
-"Like the story of Mrs. Osgood's Evelyn," she rejoined, smiling, and
-beginning to hum lightly:
-
- "It began with--'My Evelyn fairest!'
- It ended with--'Evelyn best!'
- And epithets fondest and dearest,
- Were lavished between on the rest."
-
-Then breaking off, she says more seriously and softly:
-
-"Then try to think that is the same with me. Don't worry over such idle
-speculations. I am tired and half sick, dear."
-
-"Gracie, you drive me to desperation. I asked you a simple
-question--why do you try to evade it?"
-
-"Because it is unfair to me. I haven't asked you any such ridiculous
-questions. I won't submit to be catechised so, positively, I won't!
-Don't be angry, dear. I am sure the slightest reflection on your part
-will convince you that I am right. I have partly forgotten the past;
-have ignored it anyhow, not caring to look back any further in my
-life than the two years in which I have known and loved you. All the
-happiness I ever really knew has been showered on me by your lavish
-hand. Be content in knowing that and spare me, Paul."
-
-"I thank you, Grace, for your sweet tribute to me, but I asked you a
-question and I am--waiting for your answer."
-
-"I thought I had answered you plainly enough, Paul. Why will you
-persist in making us both unhappy?"
-
-"Gracie, will you answer or not?"
-
-"Oh, darling! you have worried me into a nervous chill. I am cold as
-ice," and to prove the truth of her words she pressed two icy little
-hands upon his cheek, and for the first time in his life he pushed his
-fairy away from him.
-
-"You must not trifle with me, Grace."
-
-"You still insist on it, Paul?"
-
-"I still insist on it."
-
-"At the risk of your own unhappiness?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-She looked at him sadly as she leaned across the crib near him, but not
-touching him.
-
-"Paul," she ventured, suddenly, "even supposing that I had loved
-another before I ever met you, what difference can that make to you? I
-love you truly now."
-
-"So much difference, my wife, that I think I could never again be
-happy if I knew you had ever loved another than myself; but I cannot
-bear this suspense. I ask you nothing about other men. I only ask you,
-_did_ you ever love Bruce Conway?"
-
-She could not utter a falsehood; she could not escape his keen,
-persistent questioning; she must be frank with him and hope for the
-best. That was the only way the poor little heart reasoned then; so
-with down-dropped eyes, and a sound in her ears that recalled the
-whisper of the ocean in her ears one parting night, she drew a little
-farther away from him, and answered, in a hushed, low voice, much like
-a chidden child's:
-
-"_I did._"
-
-A silence fell between them so hushed that she could hear her own heart
-beat. He had put up his hand to his face, and she could not see his
-features nor guess what effect her words had on him.
-
-"Paul," she ventured, almost frightened at the sound of her own voice
-in the stillness, "don't think of it any more. I was nothing but a
-simple, dreaming child, and it is just as natural for a young girl to
-fancy herself in love with the first handsome young man who flatters
-her as it is for our baby there in his crib to cut his teeth and have
-the measles when he grows older. It seems absurd to make yourself
-miserable over so trifling a thing. I didn't like him so very much,
-indeed I didn't. I soon learned how unworthy he was of any woman's
-love. He is a fickle, wavering, unprincipled man, who never knows his
-own mind, unworthy a second thought of yours, my noble husband."
-
-Unflattering verdict! but a true one. She understood the man who had
-trifled with her young heart almost better than he did himself. In that
-time when he had wavered so fatally between his pride and his happiness
-she had fathomed his very soul with her suddenly awakened perceptions,
-and she understood him well. She could look back now and thank Heaven
-for what had seemed then a calamity scarcely to be borne. What it had
-cost her only Heaven knew, for in her way she was a proud woman, and
-never "wore her heart on her sleeve;" but nobody stops to question how
-hard a struggle has been so that victory crowns it at last. To the
-world it matters little who of its toiling, striving atoms have been
-patient pilgrims to
-
- "That desert shrine
- Which sorrow rears in the black realm--Despair!"
-
-so that they return with palms of victory in their hands and the cross
-of honor upon their breasts. And Gracie, too, had fought a battle in
-her life and conquered; if it left ineffaceable scars they were hidden
-in her heart and left no token upon her fair, inscrutable face.
-
-He made no reply to her wistful defense.
-
-She went up to him and touched his hand with hers, still intent on
-making peace with this proud, impatient spirit. He only put her very
-gently but firmly away from him, and in a moment after turned suddenly
-and left the room. She heard him go down to his study, close his door,
-and fall heavily into a chair.
-
-Then her repressed impatience and anger broke out, as she paced back
-and forth, like a spirit, in her flowing hair and long white robe.
-
-"The idiot! the madman! to come back here after all this time, and
-throw the shadow of that unhappy love all over my future life! Did he
-think that I had no pride? that I would bear coldness, carelessness,
-neglect, and be glad to meet him after four years had passed, and say
-yes to the question that in all honor he should have asked before he
-went? I think I could spurn him with my foot if he knelt before me
-again as he did to-night!"
-
-How she scorned him! How superb she was in her just anger and
-resentment! Her changeful eyes darkened and flashed with pride, her lip
-curled, her cheek glowed, her light step seemed to spurn the floor.
-
-"Mamma, mamma!" The soft, frightened voice of her child, waking
-suddenly from his rosy sleep, recalled her to herself. In an instant
-she was by his side, bending over him, kissing his brow, his lips, his
-hands, his hair, in a passion of grieving tenderness.
-
-"My darling, my comfort, my pretty boy! I am so glad that you _are_
-a boy! You will never know the pains, the penalties, the trials and
-crosses of a woman's life. If you were a little girl, and I knew that
-if you lived you must bear all that I have borne and must still endure,
-I could bear to see you dead rather than live to say, as I have done:
-'Mother, why didn't you let me die when I was a little child?'"
-
-The little clock on the marble mantel chimed out the hour of three in
-soft musical notes. She lifted the child in her arms, and, passing into
-her sleeping apartment, laid him down on her own bed, for she never
-slept without her treasure in her arms. Then, kneeling by his side, she
-whispered a brief, agonized petition to Heaven before laying her tired
-form down in the snowy nest of linen and lace.
-
-When the soft summer dawn began to break faintly over the earth, Paul
-Winans rose up from his tiresome vigils and stole up stairs with a
-noiseless footstep that did not waken her from her exhausted sleep.
-Her child nestled close to her heart, and her lips, even in her fitful
-slumber, were pressed upon his brow just as she had fallen asleep. The
-long curls of her golden hair flowed over both, and wrapped them in a
-mantle of sunshine. Her face wore a look of remembered pain and grief
-that went to his heart, as kissing both so softly that they did not
-stir, he laid a note upon the pillow, and went down the stairs and out
-into the street.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-RENUNCIATION
-
- "Am I mad that I should cherish that which bears but bitter fruit?
- I will pluck it from my bosom, though my heart be at the root!"
-
- --TENNYSON.
-
-
-A misty, overcast morning dawned gloomily after the night of Mrs.
-Conway's ball. In spite of it the lady rose early. She had not slept
-at all, and, nervous and depressed, she roamed over the disordered
-house, from which the servants were busily removing the _debris_ of the
-evening's entertainment. Every moment she expected to see her nephew
-enter, and as the day wore on and he failed to present himself, her
-impatience brooked control no longer, and she sent a messenger into
-Norfolk to the National Hotel, his usual stopping-place in the city,
-to inquire after him.
-
-The boy's swift horse carried him into the city and back in two hours.
-He came into the lady's presence bowing and grinning, the very picture
-of a sleek, good-natured, well-fed darkey.
-
-"Did you see him, John?"
-
-"Yaas'm, I see him," grinned John, his hands in his pockets
-complacently jingling the nickels his young master had just bestowed on
-him.
-
-"You gave him my message? What did he say?"
-
-"Yaas'm; he say as how"--here John stopped jingling his nickels long
-enough to make a low dip of his woolly head, as befitting the proper
-deliverance of the message he had--"he will do heself de hon'r ob
-takin' tea wid you dis even."
-
-"Was that all he said?"
-
-"All he says to you, ma'am--he ast me how come I stay 'long wid ole
-mis' all dis time, and not go off like do rest of de little nigs? I
-tell him----"
-
-Here John stopped to chuckle softly at the remembrance.
-
-"Well, you told him what?"
-
-"As how old mis' couldn't git 'long 'thout me nohow," and here John
-turned and made a hasty exit in obedience to a "Go along, you impudent
-little monkey!" from the said "ole mis'."
-
-He was at the gate that evening, ready to take his master's horse when
-he cantered up in the gloom of the overcast sunset.
-
-"Glad to see you, Marse Bruce. Hopes you've come to stay. De ole place
-nuvver seemed like home without you," said the young darkey, who as
-a boy had blacked Bruce Conway's boots, run his errands, served as
-an escape-valve for all his ill humors, and withal adored him, now
-welcoming him home with the hearty affection that was so deeply rooted
-in his simple nature.
-
-Freedom had not spoiled John in the least--possibly because so far as
-kind treatment and almost unlimited indulgence went, he had been _free_
-all his life.
-
-But the young man merely threw him the reins, and with a careless "Take
-good care of him, John," walked off in the direction of the house.
-
-"Humph!" commented the merry little darkey, as he led the horse off
-to the stable. "Sulky! I dersay he's come to give the madam fits for
-lettin' of his sweetheart git married afore he come back. Serves him
-right, though. Why didn't he marry her fust, and take her 'long wid him
-to that furrin parts? Poor, pretty little dear! she did look just like
-an angel las' night, and they do say Marse Bruce took on some when he
-seen her."
-
-For the servants had all been woefully disappointed when Bruce hurried
-off to Europe without the grand wedding that the cook had prophesied
-would take place between himself and Miss Grey; and the story of
-the last night's _contretemps_ having been duly rumored from parlor
-to kitchen, was the all-absorbing subject of comment between cook,
-chambermaid, and boy-of-all-work--their sympathies and indignation
-being in such a fluctuating state just now that they could hardly
-decide who was the most deserving of their sympathy--the young man who,
-as they phrased it, had gone off and apparently jilted his sweetheart,
-or the young lady whom he had returned to find had really jilted him.
-
-And the young man who was furnishing food for so much feminine gossip
-and conjecture that day, quite heedless of it all, walked on up the
-steps and into the stately presence of his expectant aunt.
-
-She came forward very cordially, concealing any possible annoyance she
-felt under an appearance of affection. She began to see that reproaches
-and anger were not the way to bring this vacillating, reckless young
-fellow to his senses.
-
-"I trust you are feeling well after your fatigue of last evening," he
-pleasantly observed, as they shook hands.
-
-"No, I cannot say that I am. I have had no sleep, and felt worried and
-anxious about you, my dear boy."
-
-"I am sorry to have caused you any such annoyance," he answered,
-repentantly, throwing himself wearily among the cushions of a luxurious
-sofa--"very sorry, indeed, Aunt Conway. I am not worth being a source
-of anxiety to any one."
-
-The inflection of sadness and weariness in his tone touched her heart,
-and swept away all lingering resentments. She looked at him as he lay
-among the bright embroidered cushions, looking so handsome, yet so worn
-and hopeless, and her womanly pity found vent in the simple words:
-
-"My poor boy!"
-
-"Don't pity me!" he answered, impatiently. "I am not deserving of pity,
-and I don't want it. A man must sink very low, indeed, to become the
-object of a woman's pity."
-
-What a strange mood he was in! Accustomed to him as she was, she could
-not fathom him this evening. She folded her hands in her lap and
-looked at him wistfully. He grew restless under her gaze, shifting his
-position so that the light should not strike on his features.
-
-"You sent for me to give me a scolding, I suppose," he said, with a
-short, dry laugh. "I am here to receive it."
-
-"I did not," she answered. "I sent for you because this is your home,
-and I want you to stay with me if you will. It is very lonely here with
-no one of my kindred, Bruce, and I am getting to be quite an old woman
-now. Why cannot you give me the solace of your company and affection
-for my few remaining years?"
-
-"My affection!"
-
-No words can do justice to the reckless cynicism of his look and tone.
-
-"Aunt Conway, I have very little affection to give any one. My heart
-seems dead in my bosom. I came home, so full of noble resolves, so full
-of hope, that my downfall has almost banished reason from its throne.
-And as for my company, I fear I cannot even give you that. I owe it to
-myself, to you, more than all to the wife of Senator Winans, to take
-myself away from here, where no sight of me can recall my injustice to
-her, and my crowning folly of last night."
-
-"Bruce!"
-
-"Well?"
-
-"You shall not talk so--shall not leave me again. Let Mrs. Winans
-alone. You have been in banishment three--nay, four years for her
-already. You shall not go again. Norfolk is surely large enough for
-you two to live in without crossing the path of each other. As for
-what happened last night, it is rather mortifying, but it will soon be
-forgotten. Stay with me, Bruce; there are plenty of beauties in Norfolk
-who will soon teach you to forget Mrs. Winans."
-
-"Forget her! Is it likely, when the prevailing topic of Norfolk is the
-lovely Mrs. Winans, the brilliant Mrs. Winans, the accomplished Mrs.
-Winans, with her accomplishments of fashion and folly? It seems quite
-the fashion to talk about her now. No, Aunt Conway, you cannot dissuade
-me from my purpose. I shall go away from here until I can learn to be
-a man. Here I renounce my ill-fated love for her, and pledge myself to
-forget her as an honorable man should do."
-
-His aunt looked at him, her regret and pain mingled with admiration. He
-looked so noble, so proud, so manly as he spoke, that for a moment she
-felt a pang at the thought of the wrong she had done; for that she had
-done wrong she knew full well. She had known of her nephew's passionate
-love for Grace Grey and knew that with her he would have found all the
-happiness that is vouchsafed to mortals. But for a scruple of worldly
-pride and position she had separated them, punishing herself thereby;
-for in the long years of his banishment she had felt too truly that she
-had, in tearing apart those two loving hearts, bitterly wounded her
-own. The repressed longing for her boy, the pain of knowing herself
-unloved and uncared for, had been a daily thorn in her heart, a wound
-
- "No after gladness
- Could ever wholly heal."
-
-For a moment, as she looked at him in his manly beauty and brave
-renunciation, a better impulse stirred her heart, and thinking of
-the fair young creature who had made such sunlight in this dreary,
-splendid home, a vague wish came into her soul that she had let them
-have their way, and not so rudely sundered what God had joined together.
-
-Too late! When we take it upon ourselves to shape the life-destinies of
-others we must not expect to undo our work when we find it completed
-and unsatisfactory to us. When we see the hearts that our intermeddling
-has bruised and torn go from us hungry and empty we must not expect
-them to turn to us for the happiness we denied them.
-
-Oh, fathers and mothers, maneuvering sisters, aunts, and relatives,
-when the young birds are mating and building, why cannot you let them
-alone? Why cannot you understand that your special experience and
-wisdom were given you by God for your guidance alone, and that every
-one cannot walk the same chalked-out path, that every thinking, living
-mind must choose for itself whether or not it be wisely or well?
-
-"As we make our beds we lie" has passed into a truth, but is it likely
-that any other will make it better for us than we try to do for
-ourselves? To be plain, no one has a right to dictate to us the way we
-are to walk in life; or, if they have, why has God given to every one
-of us thinking, reasoning, yearning minds, capable of knowing what we
-want and what we need better than any one can know for us?
-
-"Bruce," she said, gently, "I have wronged you, you know. It was wrong
-of me to tempt you with my gold to desert the girl you loved, and who
-loved you. I never felt until this hour how basely I had acted. If I
-could undo my work I would. But I trust you may yet find happiness,
-and that the memory of all this suffering may pass from your soul as
-rain-drops from a rose, leaving it brighter and lovelier after the
-storm."
-
-"Nay," he said, smiling faintly and sadly, "since you have descended to
-simile, let me remind you that there are two sides thereto. How often
-have I seen in this lovely garden of yours the crushed rose-leaves
-covering the ground, rain-beaten, pallid, and torn, as the storm had
-passed and left them. So it is most likely to be with me."
-
-"I trust not. At any rate, Bruce, I ask your forgiveness. It is asking
-much, I know, when I reflect that but for me you would have wedded the
-girl you loved, and who, through my fault, is irrevocably lost to you.
-But you are all I have to love--all I have to love! Don't deny me."
-
-"I do not," he answered, slowly. "Don't blame yourself entirely Aunt
-Conway. Blame my weak, wavering, vacillating will, that made me
-hesitate between Grace Grey and the noble inheritance you offered me.
-We are about equal, I think. I sold myself--you bought me!"
-
-Oh, Grace, you are avenged! Deeply as you scorned him your contempt was
-not deeper than that which in this hour he felt for himself.
-
-"I thank you, Bruce, dear boy, that you do not accord me all the blame,
-though I feel I fully deserve it. Let us change the subject to one more
-pleasant."
-
-"In one moment, but first I have a confession to make. You may hear it
-from others, so I would like you to hear it first from me. You know
-that I am truthful, though unstable, and you can believe just what I
-say--not all the varnished reports you may hear."
-
-"Go on," she said anxiously, as he paused.
-
-"Well, then, I left you last night in a bad state of mind. I was mad,
-I think--simply mad--and in Norfolk I took more wine than was good
-for me. I swore to myself that I would not give up Grace. I hated her
-husband for having won her--I hated the child that calls _her_ mother
-and _him_ father--I hated you for separating us, and I swore that as
-she had loved me once she should love me again. Under the influence of
-this madness I took a guitar and sung under the window of the grand
-Winans' mansion a love-song--yes, aunt," laughing a little as she
-recoiled in dismay, "I dared to sing a love-song--I dared to serenade
-the married belle of society and queen of beauty with a love-song she
-had sung for me on the eve of our parting four years ago."
-
-"Oh, Bruce! what have you done?"
-
-"Gotten myself into a difficulty, perhaps. The question is, did they
-hear me, or were they all asleep? If they heard and know me, I have
-undoubtedly provoked the wrath of that haughty Senator who calls her
-his own. I propose to extricate myself from this dilemma by leaving the
-place as quietly as I returned; not through cowardice, Aunt Conway, I
-won't have you think that," his eye flashed proudly, "but because I
-have caused her trouble enough already. I'll not stay here to bring
-further trouble and comment upon her. I won't have her pure name
-dragged through the scandal of an affair of honor. The only thing is to
-go away--that is the only reparation I can make, to go away and forget
-her, and be myself forgotten."
-
-There was much that was noble in him yet; much that was high-toned,
-chivalric, high-spirited, and tender--all of it, alas, marred by that
-vacillating will, that wavering, doubting nature that was so long in
-making its mind up, and when made up soon changed it again.
-
-The tea-bell suspended further converse on the subject. He gave her his
-arm in courtly fashion, and they descended to the dining-room, both
-too preoccupied to observe the curious kindly black faces that peeped
-at them from obscure stations, eager to see the handsome young master
-they remembered so well, and to see how he looked "since he'd come back
-and found his sweetheart married and gone," as if people wore their
-hearts in their faces. Ah, if they did what a gruesome looking crowd
-would meet us whithersoever we went.
-
-Dainty and elegant as was the evening meal, I think Bruce Conway and
-his handsome old aunt scarcely did justice to it. Her callous, worldly
-heart was stirred as it had not been for years. For Bruce, I think he
-might as well have eaten chips for all he enjoyed the spring chicken,
-the pickled oysters, the rosy ham, and warmly-browned biscuit, the
-golden honey and preserves, the luscious fruits, the fragrant tea
-and chocolate. Across the glimmer of flowers, and silver, and dainty
-cut-glass, and edibles, a shadowy form sat in the vacant chair at the
-opposite side of the table, which had been the wonted place of the
-rosy reality. A girl's fair face looked across at him, her white hands
-trifled with the silver knife and fork, reached the preserve across
-to him, poured the cream into his tea, showed him a dozen kindly
-attentions, and once he said, absently, "No, I thank you, Grace," and
-looked up into the shiny black face of John, who was changing his
-plates for him, and who nearly exploded with repressed laughter, but
-said, with mock earnestness, and a pretense of misapprehension:
-
-"Ole mis' nuvver say Grace afore meals, Marse Bruce, cepen' 'tis when
-de minister stays to tea, sir."
-
-"Leave the room, you young scamp," said Mr. Conway, irascibly, and
-John went, nothing loth to indulge himself in a fit of laughter at the
-expense of his beloved young "Marse Bruce." But the little incident
-served to make Bruce more wide-awake, and rousing himself to realities
-the pansy-eyed phantom fled away from Mrs. Conway's well-appointed
-table.
-
-"That boy is a perfect clown," complained the lady; "he's not fit to
-wait on the table at all. I shall have to secure a good dining-room
-servant."
-
-Mrs. Conway had said this so often that there was small danger of its
-being put into execution. She was attached in a great degree to the
-servants around her, all of whom had belonged to her in the days of
-slavery, and who when "set free," during the war, had, unlike the
-majority of the freedmen who sought new homes, promptly taken service
-at extravagant wages from their whilom mistress and owner. John had
-grown up to his seventeenth year in the service of his indulgent "ole
-miss," and he was fully persuaded of the interesting fact that she
-"couldn't do 'thout him, nohow."
-
-After tea the two repaired to the brightly lighted drawing-room.
-The dull damp day rendered the closed shutters rather agreeable
-than otherwise, and shut out thus, from the sight of much that
-would have pained him, the young man made an effort to entertain
-his aunt, narrating many of his adventures abroad, and interesting
-an unthought-of listener, who was lazily curled up outside the door
-listening to the sprightly converse of the returned traveler.
-
-"Wonder if all dat _kin_ be true," pondered John, dubiously; "but
-course 'tis, if Marse Bruce says so. John Andrew Jackson Johnson, you
-ain't fitten to be a Conway nigger if you can't believe what your young
-gentleman tells," and thus apostrophizing himself, John relapsed into
-silence. Nevertheless, his mouth and eyes during the next hour were
-often extended to their utmost capacity, and I fear that if any other
-than Bruce Conway had presumed to relate such remarkable things, John
-would have been tempted to doubt his veracity.
-
-A sharp peal of the door-bell compelled him to forego his pleasant
-occupation to answer it. He came back with a card on a silver salver.
-
-"Gentl'man to see Marse Bruce; showed him into libr'y, sir; he wished
-to see you 'lone, sir," announced John, with much dignity.
-
-Mr. Conway took the card, and Mrs. Conway looked over his shoulder.
-
-"Captain Frank Fontenay, U. S. A.," he read aloud, and Mrs. Conway said:
-
-"A military gentleman--who is he, Bruce? I don't know him."
-
-"Nor I," said her nephew, grimly.
-
-He was white as marble, but his dark eyes never wavered in their firm,
-cold glitter. Whatever else he was, Bruce Conway was not a coward. He
-gently released himself from his aunt's detaining hand.
-
-"I will go and see this gentleman," he said.
-
-"Oh, Bruce!"--she clung to him in a nervous, hysterical tremor--"I feel
-as if something dreadful were going to happen. Don't see him at all."
-
-He smiled at her womanly fears.
-
-"My dear aunt, don't be hysterical. John, call Mrs. Conway's maid
-to attend her. Aunt Conway, there is nothing to alarm you--nothing
-at all;" and, putting her back on her sofa, he went out to meet his
-unbidden guest.
-
-The captain was a fine-looking man, of perhaps forty years, blue-eyed,
-blonde-haired, and much be-whiskered. He stood very courteously in the
-middle of the floor, hat in hand, as Bruce entered the library.
-
-"Mr. Conway?" he interrogated, smoothly.
-
-"At your service, sir," said Bruce.
-
-"Mr. Conway," said the gentleman, with a glittering smile that showed
-all his lovely white teeth, "I am the bearer to you of a message from
-Senator Winans. My friend, sir, considers himself insulted by you, and
-demands such satisfaction as all gentlemen accord each other."
-
-He placed an open note in Mr. Conway's hand, who silently perused it.
-
-It was a challenge to fight a duel.
-
-"Any friend of yours can call on me to-morrow at three to settle the
-preliminaries," suggested the blonde captain, placidly smiling up into
-Mr. Conway's impassive face, and taking his acceptance for granted.
-
-"Very well, sir; I will send a friend of mine to you quite punctually
-at three to-morrow. Is that satisfactory for the present?"
-
-"Quite so, sir; very much so, sir," smoothly returned Captain Fontenay,
-bowing his quite imposing military presence out.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-WHAT THE WINNER'S HAND THREW BY.
-
- "Here are a few of the unpleasant'st words
- That ever blotted paper."--SHAKESPEARE.
-
- "Farewell!--a word that hath been and must be,
- A sound that makes us linger--yet, farewell!"
-
- --BYRON'S CHILDE HAROLD.
-
-
-Grace Winans waked from her troubled sleep with a vague presentiment of
-impending evil. She heard the small clock on the mantel chiming seven,
-and looked about her half bewildered.
-
-The shaded taper burned faintly in the room, and the gray morning light
-stole dimly through the closed shutters and lace curtains. Her baby lay
-on her arm, sleeping sweetly in his warm white nest. She raised her
-head a little, only to sink back wearily with a dull, fevered throbbing
-in her temples, and a sharp pang of remembrance that forced a low cry
-from her lips:
-
-"Oh, Paul!"
-
-Where was he? She thought of the study, and with a pang at fancy of his
-tiresome vigil, eased the baby lightly off her arm, and tucking him
-softly round, donned dressing-gown and slippers, and stole gently down
-stairs, rapped slightly at the door, then opened it and entered.
-
-The light still burned in the room, looking garish and wan in the pale
-beams of morning; the easy-chair was drawn near the writing-table, but
-vacant. She glanced around her. He was not there, and no trace of him
-remained.
-
-The young wife slowly retraced her steps.
-
-"He will come presently," she whispered to herself, "but I wonder where
-he is;" and as she bent over little Paul, laying her round, white arm
-on the pillow, the sharp edge of the note grazed her velvet-like skin.
-She looked at it, shrinking, afraid, it seemed, to touch it for the
-moment; then, with a terrible effort over herself, her trembling hand
-took it up, her shady, violet eyes ran over the contents:
-
- "Oh Grace!" it read, "you know that I adore you--too well, too well!
- for I cannot bear to live with you and know that your heart--the
- heart I thought so wholly and entirely mine--has ever held the image
- of another! You should have told me of this before we married. You
- wronged me bitterly, Gracie, but I will not upbraid you. Still,
- until I can learn to curb this jealous passion of mine, I will not,
- cannot remain where you are. I should only render you miserable. You
- and my boy will remain in my home--remember, I command this--and
- you will draw on my banker as usual for what sums you may need or
- want. I do not limit you in anything, my wife, my own idolized
- wife--please yourself in all things, do as you like, and try to be
- content and happy. If I can ever overcome this jealous madness--can
- ever reconcile myself to knowing that I was _second_ instead of first
- in your pure heart, I will come to you, but not till then. Try to be
- happy with our little boy, and forgive your own, erring, unhappy
-
- "PAUL."
-
-White and still as marble, the deserted wife sat holding that
-mad note in her hand, looking before her into vacancy, moveless,
-speechless--yes, and pallid as she would ever be in her coffin.
-
-A terrible, overwhelming sense of her desolation rushed upon her;
-but, strangely enough, her first thoughts were not of her husband in
-his jealous grief, but of herself--of the scandal, the disgrace, the
-nine-days' wonder that would follow all this. She knew her husband well
-enough to know that once his mad resolve was taken it would be adhered
-to.
-
-He was no Bruce Conway, with wavering, doubting will, that could be
-blown aside by a passing breeze. Firm, proud, sensitive, but unbending
-as adamant, was Paul Winans when once his resolution was taken. No one
-knew it better than his wife, though he had ever been kind and loving
-to her.
-
-A dumb horror settled on her soul as she realized the meaning of his
-letter. He blamed her as having willfully deceived him. She had not
-meant to do so; she had not thought it a matter of any moment to Paul
-Winans whether or not she had loved before she met him. Other men would
-not have cared--why should he? He had not questioned her, had taken
-her past for granted. How could she tell him of that unsought, scorned,
-neglected love that had darkly shadowed the joy of her young girlhood?
-He was unjust to her. She felt it keenly in the midst of her sufferings.
-
-Were all men like these two whom she had loved, she questioned herself,
-mournfully. Not one of them was worthy of a true woman's love--no, not
-one.
-
-It had come to this--a deserted wife--through no fault of hers was this
-tribulation brought on her. She felt that the world had used her hardly
-and cruelly. The passion and pride that underlie firm yet sweet natures
-like hers, surged up to the surface and buoyed her up above the raging
-billows of grief and sorrow. She felt too indignant to weep. She had
-almost wept her heart out long ago. She meant to sit still with folded
-hands and tranquil heart, and let the cold, harsh world go by heedless
-of its pangs, as it was of hers.
-
-Her husband was using her cruelly in bringing this unmerited disgrace
-upon her and her child. She half resolved to flee far away with her boy
-where he could never find her in the hour when shame and repentance
-should drive him back to her side. It was but for a moment. Then she
-remembered the brief sentence in his note that commanded her to remain
-in his home, and then her resolution wavered; for when Grace Grey had
-taken that solemn oath before God to "love, honor, and _obey_," she had
-meant to keep her word.
-
-Poor child! for hers was a strangely complex nature--a blending of the
-child and woman that we often meet in fine, proud feminine natures, and
-never wholly understand.
-
-A hundred conflicting emotions surged madly through her as she sat
-there, motionless and pale, until moment after moment went by, and
-the overtaxed brain, the overwrought heart gave way, and blessed
-unconsciousness stole upon her. With her hands folded loosely in her
-lap over that cruel note, a sharp despair shadowed forth in that lovely
-face, the stately head fell forward and rested heavily on the pillow
-beside the child, whose rosy, unconscious slumber was unbroken, as
-though the hovering wings of angels brooded above him and his forsaken
-mother.
-
-Norah found her thus when the cooing voice of the awakened babe
-reached her ears in the nursery. His pretty black eyes were sparkling
-with glee, his rosy lips prattled baby nothings, his dimpled, white
-fingers were twisted in the bright curls of his mother's hair as they
-swept luxuriantly over the pillow.
-
-With all the art of his babyhood he was trying to win a response from
-his strangely silent mother.
-
-She came back to life with a gasping sigh, as Norah dashed a shower of
-ice-water into her face, opened her eyes, said, "Don't, Norah, don't!"
-and drifted back to the realms of unconsciousness; and so deep was
-the swoon that this time all the restoratives of the frightened Norah
-failed for a long time of any effect.
-
-"Looks like she's dead!" muttered the Irishwoman, divided between her
-care for the child's mother and the child itself, who began to grow
-fretful from inattention and hunger.
-
-Better for her if she had been, perhaps. There are but few women who
-find the world so fair that the grave is not held as a refuge for their
-tired souls and bodies. But Grace came back, with a little gasping
-sigh, to the life that had never held much attraction for her, and with
-a trembling arm drew her baby to her breast.
-
-"Poor little Paul!" she quavered, "he is hungry and fretful. Go and
-get his bath ready, Norah. I can't think how I came to faint. I feel
-well enough now, and it is quite unusual to me to lose consciousness so
-easily."
-
-She was herself again. Pride sat regnant on her brow, on her curling
-lip, in her quiet eyes. It held her up when the poor heart felt
-like breaking. She had learned the lesson long ago--learned it too
-thoroughly to forget.
-
-So the day passed quietly away. She had briefly explained to the
-curious servants that their master had been called off by an emergency
-that required his absence from home. She did not know at what time he
-would return--he did not know himself yet. In the meantime all would go
-on in the house as usual. And with this miserable subterfuge, for which
-she despised herself, the young wife tried to shield her husband's name
-from the sharp arrows of censure.
-
-Two or three visitors were announced that evening, but she quietly
-declined seeing company; and so one of the longest days of her life
-wore to its close, as even the longest, dreariest days will, if we only
-have patience to wait.
-
-She was not patient, nor yet impatient. A dull, reckless endurance
-upheld her in that and succeeding days of waiting that passed the same.
-She heard nothing from her husband. In the excited, unnatural state of
-her mind, smarting under the sense of injustice and wrong, it seemed to
-her that she did not care to hear.
-
-She spent her time altogether with her little son, never seeing company
-nor going out. When Norah took the child out for his daily airing
-and ride through the fresh air, she whiled away the time till his
-return by reckless playing on the grand piano or organ, in the elegant
-drawing-room. She could not settle herself to reading, sewing, or any
-other feminine employment. She filled up the great blank that had come
-into her life as best she might with the sublime creations of the old
-masters.
-
-Sometimes the very spirit of mirth and gayety soared in music's melting
-strains from the grand piano; sometimes the soul of sadness and despair
-wailed along the organ chords, but the fair face kept its changeless,
-impassive calm through all, while the white fingers flew obedient to
-her will. Sometimes she tried to sing, but the spirit of song was
-wanting. She could not even sing to her child, could scarcely speak,
-and started sometimes at the hollow echo of her own sweet voice.
-
-And thus a dreary week passed away. But even this semblance of calm and
-repose was destined to be rudely broken. Miss Lavinia Story effected an
-entrance one day, being determined not to be kept out any longer by the
-stereotyped "not at home;" and with her tenderest smile she took both
-hands of Mrs. Winans in hers, and looked with deep solicitude into her
-calmly beautiful face.
-
-"Dear friend, you must forgive me for this intrusion, but I felt that I
-must see you, must condole with you in your trying situation. You are
-very pale, my dear, looking wretched I may say, but you bear up well,
-remarkably well, I think, considering everything."
-
-Mrs. Winans invited her visitor to a seat with freezing politeness and
-hauteur. Then she went back to her place on the music-stool.
-
-"I was playing when you came in," she remarked, coolly. "If you will
-tell me what music you like, Miss Lavinia, I will play for you."
-
-"Not for the world would I lacerate your feelings so much," sighed the
-old maid, putting her lace handkerchief to her eyes to wipe away a tear
-that was not there. "What, when all Norfolk is sympathizing with you
-in your distress and mortification, and commiserating you, shall I be
-heartless enough to beg you to play for me, even though you are bearing
-up so sweetly and wonderfully. No, my love, don't exert yourself for
-me. I understand your feelings, and only wish to sympathize with
-you--not to be a source of annoyance."
-
-"I beg your pardon, Miss Lavinia"--the soft eyes looked gravely at her,
-the fair face keeping its chilling calm, the musical voice its polite
-indifference--"I did not know myself so honored by the good people of
-Norfolk, and really, I must say their commiseration is wasted in a bad
-cause, and I do not know what has given them occasion for its exercise.
-When I need sympathizers and 'Job's comforters,' I will seek them. At
-present I do not feel their need."
-
-"Dear me! how high and mighty Mrs. Conway's companion has got to
-be," thought Miss Lavinia, spitefully, but she only said: "My dear,
-I am glad to see you bear up so well. Your strength of mind is quite
-remarkable. Now, had such a thing happened to me I feel sure I should
-have been extremely ill from shame and terror. But," with a simper, "I
-am such a timid, nervous girl. With your beauty and notoriety you have
-no doubt grown accustomed to this kind of thing, and do not mind it.
-But my sympathy is truly great for your little boy."
-
-"Miss Story!"--her hostess whirled around on the music-stool, an
-ominous fire blazing under her long dark lashes--"I pass over your
-contemptible innuendoes to myself as unworthy my notice, but will
-you kindly inform me what you are talking about--that is if you know
-yourself, for I assuredly do not."
-
-What superb anger there was in her look and tone. It was scarcely like
-her to be so irritable, but she was not herself this evening. The tamed
-leopard, when goaded too hard, sometimes turns on its keeper, and the
-gentlest heart has a spark of fire smoldering in its depths that may
-be rudely stirred into a destructive flame. Miss Lavinia recoiled
-timorously from the fire that blazed in those wondrous dark eyes.
-
-"I beg your pardon, Mrs. Winans," she answered, smoothly. "I did not
-know you were so angry about it, though, of course, you feel irritated
-about it, as every right-minded person must feel. I think myself Mr.
-Conway has acted unbecomingly. You had a right to change your mind in
-his absence if you liked, and it _was_ silly in him to make such ado
-about it all, when the best plan was to let it all blow over."
-
-"Do you mean to insinuate that I was affianced to Mr. Conway during
-his absence, and threw him over for a wealthier rival, Miss Story?"
-demanded Grace, indignantly.
-
-"That is what rumor assigns as the cause of the late 'unpleasantness,'
-to call it by a mild name," returned the persevering spinster,
-carefully taking down mental notes of the conversation to report to her
-gossips.
-
-"Then rumor is, as usual, mistaken. Mr. Conway never has been, never
-can be, more than the merest acquaintance to me," answered Mrs. Winans,
-briefly and coldly.
-
-"Indeed! Thank you, my dear friend, for reposing such implicit
-confidence in me. I am glad to know the truth of the matter, and to be
-able to tell people that you are not the heartless flirt they try to
-make you out. Mr. Conway's folly is indeed reprehensible, and he no
-doubt deserves all he suffers."
-
-All he suffers! The pale listener wondered if he suffered half so much
-as she did. What was his selfish disappointment to the disgrace, the
-trouble, the sorrow he had brought on her and her innocent baby. Her
-heart hardened toward him as she listened.
-
-"Let us drop the subject," she said, proudly. "Mr. Conway is hardly
-worth being the protracted subject of our conversation. It were better
-had he remained on the other side of the ocean."
-
-"That's the truth," said Miss Lavinia, briskly. "The foolish fellow. To
-come all the way home to be shot down for a woman who never even cared
-for him, and a married woman at that."
-
-"To be shot down did you say, Miss Story? I confess I do not understand
-you. Will you explain yourself? You have been talking in enigmas all
-this time."
-
-Mrs. Winans rose from her seat, and taking a step forward, looked at
-the incorrigible old gossip, her red lips half apart, her dusk-blue
-orbs alight, her whole appearance indicative of eager, repressed
-excitement.
-
-"Why, you seem surprised," said the spinster, maliciously. "Why Mrs.
-Winans, didn't you know of the almost fatal termination of the duel?
-Ah, that accounts for your calmness and composure. I thought you were
-not utterly heartless. I see it all. They have kept the papers from
-you."
-
-"The duel! What duel?"
-
-"Why, the duel between your husband and Bruce Conway, to be sure,"
-answered Miss Lavinia, in surprise at Grace's apparent stupidity.
-
-"Miss Story, do you mean to tell me that there has been a duel between
-these two--my husband and Mr. Conway?"
-
-"Why, certainly there has. Haven't I been talking about it ever since
-I came in here? And is it possible that you knew nothing at all of the
-affair?"
-
-"I did not." Very low and sad fell the words from her white lips, and
-she leaned one arm on the grand piano to steady her graceful figure.
-"Miss Story, my husband--he was unhurt, I trust?"
-
-"He was not injured at all, and I hear has left the city, but that
-unfortunate Mr. Conway fell at the first fire, and is very seriously
-wounded, they say. Indeed, I believe the surgeon has small hopes of his
-recovery. It's very sad, very shocking. It ought to be a warning to all
-young men not to go falling in love with other men's wives."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-LULU.
-
- "There is many a maiden more lovely by far,
- With the step of a fawn and the glance of a star;
- But heart there was never more tender and true
- Than beats in the bosom of darling Lulu."
-
- --OSGOOD.
-
-
-Go with me, my reader, not many squares distant from that stately
-Winans' mansion, to an humbler home--a small brick edifice standing
-near to the street, and bearing over a side-door a small sign, with
-the name of Willard Clendenon, Attorney-at-law, inscribed thereon in
-very handsome gilt letters. But we have no business to transact with
-the gallant captain, so we will not even look into his dusty office,
-but pass on up the stairs, and without even knocking, enter the
-guest-chamber of the house.
-
-It is a large, airy, prettily appointed chamber, but the shutters are
-closely akimboed, the lace curtains are drooped over the windows, and
-the quiet air of a sick-room pervades the apartment. On the low, white
-bed that occupies the center of the apartment is the recumbent figure
-of a man, in whose handsome features, even though his eyes are closed
-in a death-like sleep, we recognize Bruce Conway. He looks like marble
-as he lies there, his black hair flowing back from his broad, white
-brow, his closed eyes encircled with purplish rings, the dark mustache
-slightly shading his mouth, only revealing more plainly the deathly
-pallor and suffering of the lips.
-
-Standing by the side of the bed, Captain Clendenon looks down at him
-with infinite pity and tenderness in his dark-gray orbs.
-
-And standing by the captain's side is a little figure that looks
-fairy-like by contrast with his manly proportions. She clings to his
-arm as he stands there, and her brown head leans lightly against him,
-her fair girlish face wearing a look of sadness and pain as she gazes
-at the sufferer's sleeping face.
-
-"Oh, Brother Willie," she whispers, "I am so sorry for him! Oh, it is
-so dreadful!"
-
-And then her red lips quiver like a grieved child's, and two pearly
-tears start on her cheeks, and, rolling down, are lost in the ruffles
-on the breast of her blue morning-dress.
-
-Captain Clendenon did not answer. He looked down at the quiet, handsome
-face that the surgeon thought might never wake from that death-like
-sleep, or if it did, it might only be to take on the deeper sleep of
-eternity. He had lain like that all day--it was noon now.
-
-The duel had taken place a few days before, at a little distance out of
-Norfolk. The captain had done everything in his power to prevent the
-terrible affair, but in vain; had refused the application of Bruce
-that he should become his second, in the hope that he might be enabled
-to compromise the affair by prevailing on Bruce to offer Winans an
-apology for his untimely serenade.
-
-Bruce had changed his mind about going away, and chose to feel offended
-at the view taken by the captain of the whole affair; so he left him
-out of his councils, and the duel came off without the captain's
-knowledge or consent. A mere accident had brought the matter to his
-knowledge at almost the hour appointed for it, and hurrying off to the
-scene of action, he had arrived only in time to see him fall at the
-first fire.
-
-The appointed place was seven miles from Mrs. Conway's residence,
-and after the surgeon had dressed the wound and declared its serious
-nature, the captain took the right of an old friend to convey him to
-his own home in Norfolk, which was nearer, more especially as the
-surgeon thought the last lingering hope of recovery would be destroyed
-by jolting him over seven miles to his home at Ocean View.
-
-That was how he came to be lying there in that pleasant chamber, with
-Captain Clendenon's pretty sister crying her brown eyes out over him.
-
-"Poor boy! poor Bruce!" he murmured. "How the bitter consequences of
-his wrong-doing has followed him! And now, in all probability, he must
-die; yet, after all," thought this loyal heart, "it cannot be so very
-hard to die for her."
-
-The noiseless entrance of his pleasant-faced mother made him look up.
-Taking a seat by the bed, she quietly dismissed them from the room.
-
-"I will watch by him myself," she said, kindly, "and the fewer in the
-room the better, you know. Both of you go and rest yourselves."
-
-They both withdrew with lingering steps, and eyes that seemed loth to
-quit that pale sleeper, but quietly obedient to their mother's wishes,
-and content in knowing that she would do for him all that lay in human
-power.
-
-But down in the quiet little parlor the brother and sister sat down to
-talk it all over.
-
-"Oh, brother! what did Mrs. Conway say when you told her?"
-
-"Went off into strong hysterics. The maid had to put her to bed. I sent
-the doctor out there as I rode in town."
-
-"How dreadful! all she had to love, poor, proud old lady; how I pity
-her!" and the little maiden's tears flowed afresh from her sympathizing
-soul.
-
-"She may thank herself for the most of it," he answered, half bitterly.
-"Why did she tempt his weak mind with her wealth and pride? She knew
-better than any one else how wavering a will was his. Why did she
-continually thwart all his best impulses?"
-
-"But, brother, he ought to have had more manliness. But it is too
-late to blame him now. I wonder if Mrs. Winans knows--how she feels
-about it? Do you know, brother Willie, I would give much to see this
-wonderful woman whose beauty has only been for bane. You have seen her.
-Is she so very beautiful? What is she like?"
-
-"Like nothing you ever saw, little Lulu--like some fair saint, or
-angel."
-
-The passion in his heart broke through his words. A faint red flushed
-his brown cheek, and his eyes drooped as his sister looked up with
-soft, astonished gaze.
-
-"Why, brother, did you love her, too?
-
-"That is the first time you have accused me of loving any one but
-yourself, little sister," he answered, lightly, parrying the question.
-
-"Well, tell me this, brother. Did you ever go to see her at all? Did
-you like her--did she like you?"
-
-"I went there sometimes--not often," his glance falling with
-unconscious pathos on the empty sleeve that lay between him and any
-aspiration toward woman's love. "I liked her very much indeed. She
-was very sweet and attractive, very obliging always. She liked me a
-little; I suppose, as a mere friend. I never presumed to ask for a
-deeper regard. I knew she loved Bruce. I felt, Lulu, it seemed to me
-then, in her dark days, every pang that struck home to that trusting
-and deceived young heart. I felt sorry for her, and admired her for the
-brave yet womanly strength that carried her through that bitter ordeal.
-I rejoiced with her when she married a better man than Bruce and seemed
-to have forgotten the past."
-
-The tender brown eyes looked gravely at him as he spoke, reading his
-heart with a woman's quick intuition. She put both arms about his neck
-and touched her lips to the noble brow over which the brown curls
-fell so carelessly. The mute caress told him that she understood and
-sympathized in his unspoken grief. The man's heart in him could not
-bear it. He rose, putting her kindly and gently aside.
-
-"Lulu, she has a noble husband; a handsome, generous fellow, a 'man
-among men,' but he is marred almost as much by his unreasoning jealousy
-as is Bruce by his unstable character. I pity her. She is worthy of
-confidence and all respect. It is an honor to any man to have loved her
-even though hopelessly."
-
-"And Senator Winans has left her, they say, Brother Willie?"
-
-"So rumor says," he answered, meditatively.
-
-"Why don't you see him, brother, and talk with him, and try to make him
-look at things fairly? It seems a pity she should suffer so, through no
-fault of hers, too. My heart aches for her in her loneliness."
-
-He did not answer. He was walking slowly up and down the floor, pausing
-now and then to look out of the window which overlooked the Elizabeth
-River and the wharves crowded with the shipping of all nationalities.
-His sister rose and paced the floor, also, her young heart full of
-sympathy for the four people whose life-paths crossed each other so
-strangely and sadly. She shuddered and hoped she would never love.
-Of the three men who each loved Grace Winans in his own fashion, she
-wondered which was the most unhappy; the husband who had stained his
-hands in human blood for his selfish passion; Bruce Conway who was
-dying for her, or her brother whose heart was silently breaking for
-her. The little maiden who was all unversed in the lore of life found
-herself bewildered in the maze of metaphysics into which she was
-drifting. She sat herself down with a sigh, and thought of the handsome
-face lying so deathly white up stairs, and half wishing her mother had
-not banished her from the room.
-
-"Lulu!"
-
-"Yes, Brother Willie."
-
-He was looking at her as she looked up at him with a flitting blush
-on her round, dimpled face. She was wonderfully pretty, this Lulu
-Clendenon, with her arch brown eyes, and pink and white skin, the wavy
-brown hair that was gathered in a soft, loosely braided coil at the
-back of her small head, and her blue lawn dress, with its frillings,
-and flutings, and puffings, was very becoming, setting off the
-whiteness of her throat and wrists as no other color ever does for a
-pretty woman.
-
-"Well," she said, as he did not answer her first reply.
-
-"My little sister, I won't have you tangling your brain up with useless
-speculations over things that must happen as long as the world stands
-and men and women live, and breathe, and have their being. Don't let me
-see that pretty brow all puckered up again. What would mother and I do
-if our household fairy became dull, and dreamy, and philosophical."
-
-"Brother Willie, am I always to be a child?"
-
-"Always, my sweet? Why how old are you--sixteen?"
-
-"I am nineteen, brother, and this Mrs. Winans of whom all Norfolk is
-raving, who is a wife and mother--she, it is said, is barely more than
-twenty."
-
-"Yes, love; but the loss of parents and friends forced Grace Grey into
-premature womanhood and premature responsibilities; she took up the
-cross early, but you, dear little one----"
-
-A low tinkle of the door-bell cut short whatever else he meant to say,
-and he answered the summons himself. It was a messenger from Mrs.
-Conway to inquire concerning her nephew. He sent back a message that
-he still lay sleeping quietly. For the rest of the day the house was
-besieged with callers and inquirers from all parts of the city, and
-Captain Clendenon found himself kept busy in replying.
-
-In the midst of it all, in his deep grief and anxiety for his friend's
-life, in his pity and sympathy for the exiled duelist, a fair face
-brooded over all his thoughts, a pang for a woman's suffering struck
-coldly to his heart. To know that she was mourning alone, bowed to
-earth in her unmerited sorrow and shame, was the height and depth of
-bitterness to the man who loved her tenderly and purely as he did his
-own little sister.
-
-And the spring day wore to its close, and the silence of the balmy
-spring night, with its wandering breeze of violets, its mysterious
-stare, fell over all things. The string of inquirers from among the
-friends of the wounded man thinned out, the surgeon came and went, and
-still Bruce Conway lay locked in that strange pallid sleep on whose
-waking so many hearts hung with anxiety and dread.
-
-At ten o'clock the captain admitted John, who had come to seek fresh
-tidings for his mistress. His honest black face looked up in vague,
-awe-struck grief at the captain's mournful features.
-
-"Oh, marse cap'en!" he pleaded, "lemme see him, if you please, sir,
-once more before he dies!"
-
-"Be very quiet, then," said the captain, "and it will do no harm for
-you to go in."
-
-The black boy went in with footfalls noiseless as the captain's own.
-Lulu and her mother were there, one on each side of the bed, watching
-the sleeper with anxious eyes. They looked up at the strange face of
-the boy as he paused and gazed at the still, white face on the pillow.
-His dark skin seemed to grow ashen white as he looked, his thick, ugly
-lip quivered convulsively, and two tears darted from his black eyes
-and rolled down upon his breast. He gazed long and mournfully, seeming
-to take in every lineament of that beloved face; then, as he turned
-reluctantly away, stooped carefully down, and touched his rough lips
-tenderly and lightly on the cold, white hand that lay outside of the
-coverlid.
-
-"Twas a hand that never struck me, and was always kind to me," he
-murmured, mournfully, as he went out, followed by the injunction
-from Mrs. Clendenon to report that Mr. Conway was still in the same
-condition--sleeping quietly.
-
-Lulu looked down at the hand lying so still and lifeless on the
-counterpane. A tear-drop that had fallen from the eyes of the poor
-black boy lay on it, shining purely as a pearl in the subdued light.
-Lulu would not wipe it away. It was a precious drop distilled from the
-fountain of unselfish love and sorrow; it seemed to plead mutely to the
-girl for the man who lay there so still and pale, unable to speak for
-himself.
-
-"There must have been much good in the poor young man," she thought,
-impulsively, "or his servants would not have loved him like that."
-
-By and by she stole down to her brother, who was still pacing, with
-muffled footfalls, the parlor floor. He turned to her, inquiringly.
-
-"Well?" he queried.
-
-"No change yet--not the slightest."
-
-"Probably there will not be until midnight. I trust it will be
-favorable, though we have no grounds to expect it. The surgeon fears
-internal hemorrhage from that great bullet-wound in the side--it
-narrowly escaped the heart. He will be here again to-night before the
-crisis comes."
-
-Once more comes a low, muffled door-bell. Lulu drops into an arm-chair,
-shivering, though the night is warm. Willard goes to the door.
-
-Presently he comes back, ushering in a stranger. She rises up, thinking
-as a matter of course that this is the surgeon.
-
-"My sister, Lulu, Senator Winans," said her brother's quiet tones.
-
-Lulu nearly dropped to the floor in astonishment and terror. She was
-very nervous to-night--so nervous that she actually trembled when he
-lightly touched her hand, and she almost pushed his away, thinking,
-angrily, that that firm white hand had done Bruce Conway to death.
-
-He was not so terrible to look at, though, she thought, as with woman's
-proverbial curiosity she furtively scanned the tall, fine figure.
-
-He was very young to fill such a post of honor in his country--he
-certainly did not look thirty--and the fine white brow, crowned by
-curling, jet-black hair, might have worn a princely crown and honored
-it in the wearing. Beautiful, dusk-black eyes, gloomy now as a starless
-midnight, looked at her from under slender, arched, black brows. The
-nose was perfectly chiseled, of Grecian shape and profile; the mouth
-was flexible and expressive--one that might be sweet or stern at will;
-the slight, curling mustache did not hide it, though his firm chin was
-concealed by the dark beard that rippled luxuriantly over his breast.
-
-It was a face that breathed power; whose beauty was thoroughly
-masculine; that was mobile always; that might be proud, or passionate,
-or jealous--never ignoble. Altogether he was a splendidly handsome man.
-Lulu could not help acknowledging this to herself--the very handsomest
-man she had ever seen in her life. But for all that, after she had
-politely offered him a chair, she retreated as far as possible from
-his vicinity. Why had he come there in his proud, strong manhood and
-beauty, and Bruce Conway lying up stairs like _that_? He did not take
-the offered seat, but merely placing one hand on the back of it, looked
-from her to her brother.
-
-"I feel that this is an unwelcome intrusion, Captain Clendenon," he
-said, slowly, and in soft, sad tones, that thrilled the girl's heart,
-in spite of the anger she felt for him, "but I cannot help it, though
-you may not believe me when I tell you that it was so impossible for me
-endure the suspense and horror of to-night that I have come here to beg
-you for news of the man whom I have almost murdered."
-
-Black eyes and gray ones met each other without wavering. Soul met
-soul, and read each other by the fine touchstone of a fellow-feeling.
-Even in his anger for his friend, Willard Clendenon could not withhold
-a merited kindly answer.
-
-"I do believe you," he answered, quietly, "and am glad you came,
-though I can tell you nothing satisfactory. The patient has slept all
-day--still sleeps---- he will awaken to life or death. We are only
-waiting."
-
-"Waiting!" That word chilled the fiery, impulsive soul of Paul Winans
-into a dumb horror. Waiting!--for what! To see his work completed. What
-had he done? Taken in cold blood a human life that at this moment, in
-his swift remorse and self-accusation, he would have freely given his
-own to save; in the height of his jealous madness committed a deed from
-which his calmer retrospection revolted in horror. He looked from one
-to the other in pale, impotent despair. He had gone his length--the
-length of human power and passion--now God's hand held the balance.
-
-"Then, at least, you will let me wait," he said. "If he dies, I shall
-surrender myself up to justice. If he lives, I shall all the sooner
-know that I am not a murderer."
-
-"You shall stay, certainly, and welcome," Willard said, cordially,
-touched by the evident suffering of the other.
-
-"Very well; I will sit here and wait, with thanks. I do not deserve
-this kindness."
-
-Lulu stole from the room, leaving them alone together, and resumed
-her place up stairs. The patient slept calmly on, her mother placidly
-watching him. Once or twice her brother looked quietly in, and as
-quietly withdrew. There was something on his mind that must be spoken.
-He turned once and looked at his companion as he sat upright in his
-chair, still and pale almost as his victim lay up stairs.
-
-"Winans," he said, slowly, "we have known each other for a long time,
-and I knew your wife long before you ever met her, and knew her but to
-reverence her as a pearl among women. Will you pardon me if I confess
-to an interest in her that lends me to inquire frankly if you think you
-are doing her justice?"
-
-"Clendenon, I know that I am not. I know that I am unworthy of
-her--pure, injured angel that she is--but what can I do? I dare not
-remain near her. I should but make her miserable. It maddens me, in
-my jealous bitterness, when I remember that young, fair, and sweet as
-she was when I first met her, the pure page of her heart had already
-been inscribed with the burning legend of a first love. Her first love
-lost to me, her second only given to me, I cannot bear! When I can
-overcome this fiery passion, and if Bruce Conway lives, I will return
-to her--not till then."
-
-"You are wrong, my friend--bitterly wrong. Think of what she suffers,
-of the scandal, the conjecture that your course will create. You should
-be her defender, not leave her defenseless to meet the barbed arrows of
-caviling society. Return to your injured wife, Winans. Take the candid
-advice of one who esteems you both. It is so hard on her. She suffers
-deeply, I feel."
-
-"Clendenon, hush! You madden me, and cannot shake my firm
-resolve--would that I had never met her."
-
-"Possibly she might have been happier," Clendenon says, with sudden
-scathing sarcasm, "but I will say no more. It is not my province to
-come between man and wife. May God have more mercy on her than you
-have!"
-
-The words pierced that proud heart deeply. The erring, passionate man
-arose and looked at the other in his calm, truthful scorn, and burning
-words leaped to his lips.
-
-"Clendenon, you don't know what you are talking of. You blame me for
-what I cannot overcome. Do you know where I was born? Under the burning
-skies of Louisiana. The hot blood of the fiery South leaps through my
-veins, the burning love of the Southern clime pours its flood-tide
-through my heart, the passionate jealousy of the far South fires my
-soul. I cannot help my nature. I cannot entirely control nor transform
-it into a colder, calmer one. Blame me if you will, think me unmanly if
-you will, but I have told you the truth. It shall be the study of my
-life to bring this madness into subjection. Till then I will not hold
-my wife in my arms, will not kiss her dear lips. It is for the best. I
-will not frighten her from me forever by showing her how like a madman
-I can be under the influence of my master-passion."
-
-Slowly, slowly the hours wore on until midnight. Mrs. Clendenon fell
-into a light doze in the sick-room, but Lulu was still watching that
-still form. The shaded lamps burned dimly, the room was full of
-shadows, the strange silence and awe that fill a room at an hour like
-this brooded solemnly over all things.
-
-Poor Lulu looked at her mother. The sweet old face, framed in its soft
-lace cap, was locked in such gentle repose the girl had not the heart
-to awaken her. It grew so lonely she wished her brother would return to
-the room.
-
-Presently she bent forward and looked into Conway's face, and laid her
-hand tenderly on his brow; it felt warmer and more natural; he stirred
-slightly. Before she could move her hand his white lids unclosed, the
-dark eyes looked at her with the calm light of reason in their depths.
-
-"Gracie, is it you?" he whispered, faintly.
-
-"Not Gracie--Lulu," she answered.
-
-"Not Gracie--Lulu?" he slowly murmured after her, and wearily closed
-his eyes.
-
-"I think he will live," said a voice above her.
-
-She looked up. Her brother and the surgeon had come in so quietly she
-had not heard them. She rose from her wearisome vigil and glided softly
-down stairs, moved by a divine impulse of pity for the pale watcher
-below.
-
-"I think it is life," she said, simply.
-
-He sprang up and looked at her, two stars dawning in the dusk eyes, a
-glory shining on his darkly handsome face.
-
-"Thank God!" he cried, "I am not a murderer!"
-
-And strangely as he had come he was gone.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-"I HATE IT--I HATE HER!"
-
- "When first I saw my favorite child,
- I thought my jealous heart would break,
- But when the unconscious infant smiled,
- I kissed it for its mother's sake." --BYRON.
-
-
-With the rosy dawn of the summer day consciousness returned to Bruce
-Conway--a dazed, half-consciousness, though, that only took in part of
-the scene, and a memory that only held Grace Winans. He muttered of her
-in his distracted slumbers; he waked and asked for her with a piteous
-anxiety that went to Lulu's tender heart.
-
-"Had we better send for her?" she wistfully queried of her brother.
-
-"No, indeed, little sister; it would only complicate matters. She would
-not come; he does not deserve it. Poor boy! I am sorry, but we can do
-nothing."
-
-"Nothing, brother?"
-
-"To bring her here, I mean. Try to reason with him, Lulu, and talk him
-out of this feverish fancy."
-
-"Grace--Gracie!" came in a whisper from the bed.
-
-Lulu was by him in an instant.
-
-"Will not I do as well as Grace?"
-
-"No." His pallid brow contracted in a vexed frown. "Go away; you are
-not Grace."
-
-"No, but I am Willard's sister. Cannot you like me a little for
-his sake, and not worry yourself so much?" she asked, gently and
-persuasively.
-
-"Cannot you get Grace to come--won't you try?" he whispered, in a faint
-voice.
-
-A low tinkle of the door-bell seemed to echo his words. Half raising
-his handsome head, he looked at her eagerly.
-
-"That may be Grace now," he said. "Won't you go and see?"
-
-"Yes," she answered, gently, though she sighed as she went; "I will go
-and see."
-
-She started in astonishment when she opened the door. Outside was a
-pleasant-faced Irishwoman, dressed plainly and neatly, with a pretty
-babe in her arms. It was Mrs. Winans' nurse and child.
-
-Grace had learned from Miss Story where Bruce was, and when Norah went
-out to take the little boy for his morning airing, she had directed her
-to call and inquire of Captain Clendenon how Mr. Conway was getting on.
-
-Norah introduced herself and her business briefly and clearly, and Lulu
-invited her in and gave her a seat.
-
-"And this is Mrs. Winans' baby?" she said, taking the beautiful boy
-from the nurse's arms and kissing his rosy face. "How lovely he is!"
-
-Little Paul smiled fearlessly back at her, and something in the dark
-flash of his eyes so vividly recalled his father that she thought
-suddenly of Bruce Conway waiting up stairs for her.
-
-"I will bring my brother down to tell you exactly how Mr. Conway is,"
-she said; and turning away with the little bundle of lace, and cambric,
-and laughing babyhood in her arms, she went back to Bruce Conway's room.
-
-Her brother looked surprised at the strange little visitor. She smiled
-and went up to the bedside, holding triumphantly up the tiny baby that,
-quite unabashed by the strange scene, jumped, and crowed, and smiled
-brilliantly at Bruce.
-
-"Mrs. Winans did not come, but she sent her representative, Mr.
-Conway," she said, thinking it would please him to see the pretty
-child. "This is her son."
-
-"Her son!" Bruce Conway's eyes dwelt a moment on that picture of rosy
-health and beauty, and a shudder shook him from head to foot. "Her
-child! his child! Take it away from me, Miss Clendenon. I hate it! I
-hate her!"
-
-Lulu recoiled in terror at the sharp, angry tones and the jealous pain
-and madness that gleamed in his eyes. She turned away surprised and
-frightened at the mischief she had done, and was about to leave the
-room.
-
-"Lulu, let me see the baby," said her brother's voice, as she reached
-the door.
-
-His tones wore strangely moved, and as he came across to her she noted
-the faint flush that colored his high forehead. He took it in his arms
-and looked long and earnestly at the little face, finding amid its
-darker beauty many infantile beauties borrowed from the fair lineaments
-of its mother.
-
-"God bless you, little baby," he said, touching reverent lips to the
-innocent brow, with a prayer in his heart for her whose brow was so
-mirrored in that of her child that he flushed, then paled, as he kissed
-it, thinking of hers that his lips might never press.
-
-He loved the child for its mother's sake.
-
-Bruce hated it for its father's sake.
-
-It was a fair exponent of the character of the two men.
-
-He gave it quietly back to Lulu, but she, explaining her errand sent
-him to tell Norah, with the child in his arms, while she went back to
-soothe the irritated invalid.
-
-"I am sorry," she began, penitently, "I would not have brought the
-babe, but I thought, I fancied, that you would like it for its mother's
-sake. Forgive me."
-
-The moody anger in his eyes cleared at sound of her magical,
-silver-sweet tones.
-
-"Forgive _me_," he said, feebly. "I was a brute to speak to a lady
-so--but I was not myself. You don't understand a man's feelings in such
-a case, Miss Clendenon. Thank you for that forgiving smile."
-
-He caught up the little hand gently straightening his tumbled pillows,
-and with feeble, pallid gallantry, touched it to his lips. A shiver of
-bitter-sweet emotion thrilled the young girl as she hastily drew it
-away.
-
-"You must not talk any more," she said, gently, "or brother will scold,
-and the surgeon, too. Brother will be back in a minute, so be quiet.
-Don't let anything occupy your mind, and try, do, to go to sleep
-and rest."
-
-She put her finger to her lip and nodded archly at him.
-
-He smiled back, and half-closing his eyes, lay looking at her as she
-took a chair at the other end of the room, and busied herself with a
-bit of fancy work.
-
-"How pretty she is," he thought, vaguely, and when he fell into a
-fitful slumber, her fair face blent with Grace's in his dreams, and
-bewildered him with its bright, enchanting beauty.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-"BUT AS FOR HER, SHE STAID AT HOME."
-
- To aid thy mind's development, to watch
- The dawn of little joys, to sit and see
- Almost thy very growth, to view thee catch
- Knowledge of objects, wonders yet to see!
- To hold thee lightly on a gentle knee,
- And print on thy soft cheek a parent's kiss.
-
- --BYRON'S CHILDE HAROLD.
-
-
-To Bruce Conway the months of slow and tardy convalescence seemed like
-dead weights on his impatient, restless soul; to Grace Winans, in her
-splendid but strangely silent home, where but few guests were received,
-and which she rarely left, time passed as it did to Mariana in the
-Moated Grange. But for all that, the summer passed like a painful
-dream, and the "melancholy days" had come; "time does not stop for
-tears."
-
-Mrs. Conway had prevailed on Bruce to compromise his intention of going
-abroad again by spending the winter with her amid the gayeties of
-Washington--the "Paris of America."
-
-How far a pretty face had influenced him in making this decision
-it is impossible to say; but Mrs. Conway, in her gratitude to the
-Clendenons for their kindness to her idol, had fairly worried them
-into consenting to let Lulu pass the winter with her in the gay
-capital city. For Lulu it may be said that no persuasion was needed
-to obtain her consent, and how far her fancy for a handsome face had
-influenced _her_, we will not undertake to say either. However this
-may be, the Washington newspapers duly chronicled for the benefit of
-fashionable society the interesting intelligence that the elegant Mr.
-Bruce Conway, the hero of the much talked of Norfolk duel, and his
-still brilliant aunt, Mrs. Conway--both so well known in Washington
-circles--had taken a handsome suite of rooms at Willard's Hotel for the
-winter. And the newspapers--which will flatter any woman in society,
-be she fair or homely--added the information that Mrs. Conway had one
-of the belles of Norfolk for her guest--the lovely Miss C.--concluding
-with the stereotyped compliment that her marvelous beauty and varied
-accomplishments would create a stir in fashionable society; and thus
-was Lulu Clendenon launched on the sea of social dissipation.
-
-A deep flush of shame and annoyance tinged the girl's dimpled cheeks,
-as leaning back in a great sleepy hollow of a chair in their private
-parlor, skimming lightly over the "society news," she came upon this
-paragraph about a week after their arrival.
-
-Bruce Conway, lounging idly in an opposite chair, marked that sudden
-rose-flush under his half-closed lids, and wondered thereat.
-
-On her pallid cheek and forehead came a color and a light.
-
-"As I have seen the rosy red flushing in the Northern night," he
-spouted, in his old non-commital fashion of quoting Tennyson to pretty
-girls.
-
-She glanced across at him, her color brightening, "all the spirit
-deeply dawning in the dusk of hazel eyes," but she uttered no word.
-
-"Well, Brownie, what is it?" he queried, giving her the name he often
-called her for her nut-brown hair and eyes.
-
-"This."
-
-She folded down the paragraph and tossed it across to him, with a
-willful pout of her red lips, and watched with solicitude for the
-sympathetic indignation she expected to read in his eyes.
-
-He finished it, and laughed.
-
-"Umph! Some people wake up and find themselves famous. Well, what is
-the matter with that? Is not the notice sufficiently flattering?"
-
-"It is not that!" She sprang up and began walking excitedly up and down
-the floor. "I do not like it--I--it is a shame to drag a young girl's
-name before the public that way. It puts a modest girl to the blush.
-A 'stir in society,' indeed!" her lip curling, a comical anger in
-her brown eyes. "I have a great mind to go home to mamma and Brother
-Willie."
-
-Bruce Conway opened his sleepy eyes in polite amazement at this
-home-bred girl, whose pure modesty recoiled from what was so grateful
-to the ears of most modern belles.
-
-"Well, but you are a novelty," he laughed. "In these days of women's
-rights, and shoddyism, and toadyism, and all the rest of the isms!
-Why, the majority of the belles of society would give their ears for a
-notice like that! That is why they court the journalists--assiduously
-inviting them to receptions, soirees, and the like. They always
-expect a flaming compliment. And new arrivals are always honored by a
-flattering notice. The thing is quite _a la mode_."
-
-"Well, I do not like it. I think it is an abominable fashion,"
-persisted the little maiden.
-
-"I agree with you," said Bruce, seriously. "It is 'brushing the
-delicate bloom from the grape.' But don't air such opinions in public,
-Lulu, or Barnum will be wanting you for one of his curiosities."
-
-His glance turned from her and roved down the society column--then
-he rose, his face a trifle paler, and crossing to the window, read
-a paragraph almost directly beneath the one which had incited the
-indignant protest of the little Norfolk beauty.
-
-"And by the way, society will miss its most brilliant jewel from its
-setting, in the absence of the youthful and lovely Hon. Mrs. Winans, of
-Norfolk. Rumor reports that the fair lady is so devoted to her infant
-son that, with the concurrence of the indulgent Senator, she gladly
-foregoes the dissipations of fashionable life to watch the budding and
-unfolding of his infantile charms."
-
-And it, this grandiloquent style society, which knew perfectly well all
-about the difference between Senator Winans and his lovely wife, was
-informed that he did not intend to bring her to Washington during the
-ensuing session of Congress.
-
-Conway ground his firm white teeth.
-
-"So he dares show the world how he neglects her," crushing the paper
-viciously in his hand as though it were Paul Winans himself. "Poor
-Gracie--poor wronged and injured girl!" sighing deeply. "Neither Winans
-nor I was worthy of her."
-
-Lulu, who had resumed her seat, looked up wondering at the clouded brow
-and unintelligibly muttered words. He smiled, subduing his emotion by a
-strong effort of will.
-
-"You have not told me yet what are your plans for to-day--ah! here
-comes my lady aunt. Dear madam, will you kindly designate what are your
-plans for to-day, and command your humble servant?"
-
-Mrs. Conway smiled her brightest smile on her idol.
-
-"Let me see," glancing at her watch: "only ten o'clock. You can be off
-for your morning cigar and stroll on the avenue--when you come back we
-will have decided."
-
-He rose, handsome, smiling, _debonaire_, but desperately ennuied, and
-glad, if truth must be told, to get away. Small talk was a bore to
-him just then, in his perturbed mood. He picked up Lulu's embroidered
-handkerchief that she had carelessly let fall to the floor, and
-presenting it with a jaunty "by-by," went his way followed by their
-admiring eyes. He was his aunt's acknowledged idol; Lulu's unconscious
-one.
-
-Mrs. Conway plunged at once into the subject of amusements for the day.
-
-"Let us see--there is Mrs. R's reception at two--we musn't fail them.
-You will see the _creme de la creme_ there, my dear. When we get away
-we will have a drive over to the little city of Alexandria; at six,
-dinner; at eight, the opera; at twelve, you and Bruce shall have an
-hour for the German at Mrs. Morton's ball, and then--well, home again."
-
-"Quite an attractive programme," smiled her companion, from the depths
-of the "sleepy hollow."
-
-Mrs. Conway smiled musingly, as she fixed her dark eyes on the pattern
-of autumn-tinted leaves that trailed over the velvet carpet.
-
-"Yes," she said, with the indifference of one who is used to it
-all, "it is last season over again; it is all very charming to one
-unaccustomed to the round. Poor Gracie was here last winter--these, by
-the by, were her rooms then, the handsomest suite in the hotel--we went
-everywhere together. She enjoyed it all so much."
-
-A look of interest warmed the listless gaze of Lulu. The pet curiosity
-of her soul was Grace Winans, heightened, perhaps, by an indefinable
-jealousy that went far back into the past, when Grace Grey's
-violet-pansy eyes had been the stars of Bruce Conway's adoration. She
-said, regretfully:
-
-"Is it not a wonder that I have never seen Mrs. Winans? And there is no
-one I would like so much to see. Is she so very beautiful?"
-
-"'Perfectly beautiful, faultily faultless,'" was Mrs. Conway's warmly
-accorded praise, "and as lovely in mind as in person. She inherits both
-qualities, I believe, from her mother, who was, I have heard, the most
-amiable and beautiful woman in Memphis to the day of her death."
-
-"Ah! Is Mrs. Winans not a Virginian, then?"
-
-"No, only by adoption. Her father was a slave-holder before the
-war--one of the out and out aristocrats of Memphis. He was a colonel
-in the Confederate army, and killed at the head of his regiment during
-the first of the war. He was a very noble young fellow, I believe, and
-devoted to his wife and little daughter. The wife died broken-hearted
-at his loss, and left this little Grace to the care of relatives, who
-placed her in a boarding-school, where she remained until the close of
-the war freed the slaves her father left her, and she was penniless. I
-advertised about this time for a companion; she answered, and I engaged
-her. She has been in Virginia ever since. She was just sixteen when she
-came to me--a charming child--she is about twenty-one now."
-
-A tender throb of sympathy stirred Lulu's heart as she listened.
-Brought up in the warm fold of a mother's love, caressed, petted,
-beloved, all her life, she could vaguely conjecture how sad and
-loveless had been the brief years of Grace Grey's life.
-
-"I regret that Bruce's unfortunate affair has, in some sort, put an end
-to our intimacy," Mrs. Conway went on, pensively. "I was fond of Grace,
-and had grown so used to her in her long stay with me, that she seemed
-almost like one of my own family. I would have been proud of her as my
-daughter. She might have been something almost as dear but for--well,
-let us call it an error of judgment on my part and my nephew's." She
-paused a moment, sighed deeply, and concluded with, "I would like you
-to know her, Lulu. Your brother admired her very much, I think."
-
-"I think he did," Lulu answered, simply.
-
-"Next week Congress convenes," said the older lady, brightening; "then
-I shall take you quite frequently to the capitol to hear the speeches
-of the eminent men. Winans will be there, I presume. I hear he has been
-traveling all summer, but he must, of course, be here in time for the
-session. He is quite a brilliant speaker, and was excessively admired
-last session."
-
-"Has all the far-famed Louisiana eloquence and fire, I presume?" says
-Lulu, curiously.
-
-"Yes, although he has been many years away from there, but he has the
-hot temper and unreasoning jealousy of the extreme South, as one may
-see from his cruel treatment of his wife and child."
-
-"I have just seen him," said Bruce's voice at the door.
-
-"Seen whom?"
-
-"Winans, to be sure, the man you're talking of," sauntering in and
-flinging his handsome person recliningly on the divan and looking
-extremely bored and fatigued in spite of the shy smile that dawned on
-Lulu's lip at his entrance.
-
-"Where did you see him?" Mrs. Conway queried, in some surprise and
-anxiety.
-
-"Oh, tearing down the avenue on a magnificent black horse as if he were
-going to destruction as fast as the steed would carry him--that is just
-his reckless way though."
-
-"You recognized each other?" his aunt made haste dubiously to inquire.
-
-"Oh, certainly," says Bruce, with a light smile. "I threw away my cigar
-to make him a polite bow; he returned it with a freezing salutation,
-but there was something in his face that would have stirred a tender
-heart like Brownie's here into pity for him, though stronger ones like
-mine, for instance, acknowledge no such sentimental feelings."
-
-"How did he look?" queried Brownie, unmoved by his half-jesting
-allusion to her.
-
-"Like a proud man who was trampling on the heart he had torn from his
-bosom to save his pride; pale, cynical, melancholy, defiant--pshaw!
-That sounds like a novel, doesn't it, Lulu?"
-
-"Poor Paul Winans!" she answered only; but the compassion in her voice
-for him was not so great as the pained sympathy that looked out of her
-speaking glance for Bruce Conway.
-
-For Lulu saw with preternaturally clear vision, the struggle that was
-waging in the young man's soul; saw how truth, and honor and every
-principle of right were battling for one end--the overthrow of the love
-that having struck down its intertwining roots in his soul for years,
-was hard to be torn up. She pitied him--and, ah! pity is so near akin
-to love.
-
-Something of her pity he read in her expressive face, and straightway
-set himself to work to dispel her gloom. Bruce never could bear to see
-the face of a beauty overshadowed.
-
-"Brownie, have you tried that new song I sent you yesterday?"
-
-Lulu confessed she had not.
-
-"Try it now, then," he answered, rising, and throwing open the piano.
-
-She rose, smiling and happy once more, and took the seat at the piano.
-He leaned by her side to turn the pages, and presently their voices
-rose softly together in a sweet and plaintive love-song. But his heart
-was full of another, and, as he turned the pages for Lulu with patient
-gallantry, he remembered how he had turned them for another, how his
-voice had risen thrillingly with hers in sweeter songs than this,
-mingling with her bird-like notes as it never should "mingle again."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-"WHEN A WOMAN WILL, SHE WILL."
-
- "Although
- The airs of Paradise did fan the house,
- And angels offic'd all, I will be gone!"
-
- --SHAKESPEARE.
-
- "And underneath that face, like summer's oceans,
- Its lip as noiseless, and its cheek as clear,
- Slumbers a whirlwind of the heart's emotions,
- Love--hatred--pride--hope--sorrow--all, save fear."
-
- --FITZ-GREEN HALLECK.
-
-
-It was January, and the keen, cold sea-air swept over Norfolk,
-freezing the snow as it fell, and chilling the very marrow of the
-few pedestrians whom necessity compelled to be abroad that inclement
-morning. The fast-falling flakes obscured everything from view, but
-Mrs. Winans stood at a window of her elegant home gazing wistfully out
-at the scene, though the richly appointed room, the fragrance of rare
-exotic flowers that swung in baskets from the ceiling, the twitter of
-two restless mockingbirds, all invited her gaze to linger within. But
-the delicious warmth, the exquisite fragrance, the sweet bird-songs,
-held no charm for the fair and forlorn young wife to-day. Now and then
-she moved restlessly, disarranging the fleecy shawl of soft rose-color
-that was thrown about her shoulders, and turning at last, she began to
-walk swiftly across the floor, wringing her little white hands in a
-sort of impotent pain.
-
-"I can't bear this, and I won't!" stopping suddenly, and stamping a
-tiny slippered foot on the velvet carpet that scarcely gave back the
-sound. "I am to stay here because _he_ says so; because he chooses
-to desert me. He wearies, perhaps, of his fetters. Why cannot I go
-to Washington, if I choose, for a few days anyhow? I could go up to
-the capitol vailed, and see _his_ face, hear his voice once more.
-Ah, heaven! that I should have to steal near enough to _see him_! My
-darling--beloved, though so cruel to me--how can I bear this and live?
-I must, must go--must look in for the last time in life, on your dear,
-too cruelly dear face!"
-
-The violet eyes brightened strangely as the words fell from her lips
-whose firm curves showed a fixed resolution.
-
-"Yes," she whispered to herself, firmly, "I _will_ go!"
-
-What was it that seemed to clutch at her heart like an icy hand,
-freezing in her veins the warm blood that but a moment before had
-bounded with passionate joy at thought of seeing her husband again?
-What meant that chill presentiment of evil that seemed to whisper to
-her soul, "You are wrong--do not go!"
-
-"I _will_ go!" she said again, as if in defiance of that inward
-monitor, and folding her arms across her breast, she resumed her slow
-walk across the floor.
-
-The pretty shawl fell from her shoulders, and lay, like a great
-brilliant rose, unheeded on the floor; the long, sweeping train of her
-blue cashmere morning-dress flowed over it as she walked, the white
-ermine on her breast and at her throat trembling with the agitated
-throbs of her heart. Her pure, pale cheek, her eyes darkening under
-their black lashes, the white, innocent brow, the mobile lips, all
-showed the trace of suffering bravely borne; but now the patient
-spirit, tried too deeply, rose within her in desperate rebellion.
-
-For this one time she would take her own way, right or wrong. Go to
-Washington she would, see her husband, herself unseen, once more,
-she would; then she would go back to her dull, wearisome life--her
-rebellion extended no farther than that. But she wanted, oh, so much,
-to see how he looked; to see if suffering had written its dreary line
-on his face as on hers; to see him because--well--because her whole
-warm, womanly heart hungered, thirsted for a sight of the dusk-proud
-beauty of her husband's face.
-
-The honest Irish face of Norah, entering with little Paul, clouded as
-she took in the scene. She had grown wise enough to read the signs of
-emotion in the face of the young lady, and now she saw the stamp of
-pain too plainly written there to be misunderstood.
-
-"Pretty mamma!" lisped the toddling baby, stumbling over the pink
-shawl in his eagerness to grasp the skirt of the blue dress in his baby
-fingers.
-
-She stooped and lifted her idol in her arms, pressing him closely and
-warmly to her aching heart.
-
-"What should I do without my baby, my darling? Why, I should die," she
-cried, impulsively, as she sunk among a pile of oriental cushions and
-began to play with the little fellow, her soft laugh blending with his
-as he caught at her long sunny curls, his favorite playthings, and
-wound them like golden strands about his fingers.
-
-The shadow of her clouded life never fell upon her child. In her
-darkest hours she was always ready to respond to his mirth, to furnish
-new diversion for his infant mind, though sometimes her heart quailed
-with a great pang of bitterness as the laughing dark eyes, so like his
-father's, looked brightly up into her face.
-
-But sad as her life was, it would have been unendurable without her
-baby. He was so bright, so intelligent, so full of rosy, sturdy health
-and beauty. The slowly increasing baby-teeth, the halting baby-walk,
-the incoherent attempts at speech, were all sources of daily interest
-to Grace, who was ardently fond of babies in general, and her own in
-particular. And this baby did for Grace Winans what many another baby
-has done for many another wretched wife--saved her heart from breaking.
-
-"Norah," she said, looking suddenly up with a flitting blush, "what do
-you say to a trip to Washington next week, after this snow-storm is
-quite cleared away--do you think it would be safe for little Paul?"
-
-"Hurt him! I think not. He is so strong and healthy; but has the
-Senator written for you to come on?" asked Norah, eagerly.
-
-"No"--her brow clouded, and that warm flush hung out its signal-flag on
-her cheek again--"he has not. I do not mean for him to know anything
-about it. I shall stay but a day or two, only taking you and baby; then
-we shall return as quietly as we went, and no one be the wiser; and
-now, Norah, baby is falling asleep, take him to his nursery, and bring
-me the Washington papers, if they have come in yet."
-
-"They came hours ago; it is eleven o'clock, Mrs. Winans, and you have
-taken no breakfast yet. Won't you have it sent up here to you?" said
-the kind-hearted nurse, solicitously.
-
-"Have I not taken breakfast? I believe I do not want any; I have
-been thinking so intently I have lost my appetite, and was actually
-forgetting that I had not breakfasted," then noting the pained look
-that shaded Norah's face, "Oh, well, you may bring me a glass of milk
-with the papers."
-
-But Norah, after depositing her sleeping burden in his crib in the
-nursery, brought with the papers a waiter holding a cup of warm cocoa,
-a broiled partridge, stewed oysters, warm muffins and fresh butter, the
-specified glass of milk crowning all. Depositing the waiter on a little
-marble table, she wheeled up a comfortable chair and installed Mrs.
-Winans therein.
-
-"You are to take your breakfast first," she said, with the authority of
-a privileged domestic, "then you can read the papers."
-
-She laid them on a stand by the side of her mistress and softly
-withdrew to the nursery. And lifting the glass of milk to her lips
-with one hand, Grace took up the Washington _Chronicle_ with the other
-and ran her eyes hastily over the columns, devouring the bits of
-Congressional news.
-
-As she read her cheek glowed, her pearly teeth showed themselves in a
-smile half-pleased, half-sorrowful. Praise of her husband could not but
-be dear to her, but her pride in him was tempered by the thought that
-he cared not that she--his wife--should be witness of and sharer in his
-triumphs.
-
-And turning away from the record of his brilliant speech on Southern
-affairs, she glanced indolently down the column of society news,
-recognizing among the names of women who stood high in the social scale
-many who had been among her most intimate friends the preceding winter.
-She had been the queen of them all then, reigning by right of her
-beauty and intellect no less than by her wealth and high position--best
-of all, queen of her husband's heart--and as the thought of all
-that she had been "came o'er the memory of her doom," the dethroned
-queen sprang from her chair and paced the floor again, burning with
-passionate resentment, stirred to her soul's deepest depths with the
-bitter leaven of scorn, not less a queen to-day though despoiled of her
-kingdom.
-
-And thus one vassal, still loyal, found her as the servant ushered him
-quite unceremoniously into the bright little parlor, startling her for
-a moment as he came forward, a few wisps of snow still clinging to his
-brown curls, and melting and dripping down upon his shoulders in the
-pleasant warmth diffused around.
-
-She glanced at him, shrank back an instant, then came forward with
-rising color and extended hand.
-
-"Captain Clendenon! This is indeed a pleasant and very welcome
-surprise."
-
-He bowed low over the slim white hand, murmured some inarticulate words
-of greeting, and stooped to replace the shawl that still lay unheeded
-where she had dropped it on the floor.
-
-"Allow me," he said, with grave courtesy, and folded it with his one
-arm very carefully, though perhaps awkwardly, about her shoulders.
-
-Then a momentary embarrassing silence ensued, during which he had
-seated himself in a chair indicated by her, and opposite the one into
-which she had languidly fallen.
-
-In that silence she glanced a little curiously at the face whose dark
-gray eyes had not yet lifted themselves to hers. She had not seen him
-in some months before, and he looked a little altered now--somewhat
-thinner, a trifle more serious, but still frank and noble, and with
-an indescribable respect and sympathy in the clear, honest eyes that
-lifted just then and met her glance full.
-
-"I must ask your pardon for intruding on the entire seclusion that you
-preserve, Mrs. Winans," he said, with the slight pleasant smile she
-remembered so well. "The fact that I am your husband's lawyer, and that
-I come on business, must plead my excuse."
-
-She bowed, then rallied from her surprise sufficiently to say that an
-old and valued friend like Captain Clendenon needed no excuse to make
-him welcome in her home.
-
-A faint flush of gratification tinged his white forehead an instant,
-then faded as a look of pain on the lovely face before him showed that
-some indefinable dread of his mission to her filled her mind.
-
-"I am not the bearer of any ill news," he hastened to remark.
-
-"Ah! thank you--I am glad," the fading color flowing back to her lips,
-"we women are so nervous at thought of ill news--and--and I get so
-depressed sometimes--I suppose all women do--that I can conjure up all
-sorts of terrors at that word--the woman's bugbear--'business.'"
-
-"Yes, I presume all women _do_ get depressed who preserve such
-inviolate seclusion as you do, Mrs. Winans," he answered, gravely, "and
-that brings me to my object in coming here this morning. I had a letter
-from your husband yesterday, in which he made special mention of you
-in alluding to various reports which have reached him relative to your
-utter retirement from society."
-
-"Well," she asked, coldly, as he paused, a little disconcerted by her
-steady gaze, and by his consciousness of touching on a delicate subject.
-
-"And," he went on, "your husband seemed annoyed, or rather fearful that
-your health might suffer from such unwonted seclusion. He begged me to
-speak with you on the subject, and assure you that he would rather hear
-that you took pleasure in the society of your friends, and passed your
-time in walking, driving, and, in short, all the usual pursuits that
-are so conducive to your health and the diversion of your mind from
-brooding over troubles that cannot at present be remedied."
-
-A faint sarcastic curve of her red lip betrayed her contempt before it
-breathed in her voice:
-
-"Is that all?"
-
-"Not quite," he flushed again beneath her steady gaze, and said,
-abruptly, "Mrs. Winans, I trust you do not blame me for fulfilling your
-husband's trust. It is not intended, either by him or myself to wound
-you, and I have undertaken it, not--well, because I thought I could
-express his wishes regarding you, to you better than another."
-
-"I am not thinking of blaming you," she said, gently, "not at all. I
-thank you for your kindness; I do indeed. Captain Clendenon, you should
-know me well enough to think better of me than that implied. Please go
-on."
-
-"There is but little more," he answered, more at ease. "You will
-recollect, I suppose, having signified to Senator Winans a wish to
-revisit the home of your childhood?"
-
-She slightly bowed her head.
-
-"He merely wished me to tell you that should you still desire it, you
-are at liberty to visit Memphis now, or whenever you wish to do so, to
-remain as long as you please."
-
-He rose at the last word, and she rose also, pale, proud, defiant,
-woman-like, having the "last words."
-
-"Ah, indeed! I may go to Memphis, then, if it so please me?"
-
-"Yes, Mrs. Winans;" and taking a step forward, he looked down at the
-fair face that he saw for the first time shaded with contempt and
-anger. "You are not angry?"
-
-A mutinous quiver of the red lip answered him; just then it seems
-impossible for her to speak. A great, choking lump seems to rise into
-her throat, and prevent her from speech. Her heart is in a whirl of
-contending emotions--joy that her husband remembers and cares for her
-comfort--grief, pain, indignation evoked by his message--he is willing
-she should go far away from him, he is indifferent about seeing her,
-while she--she has been so wild to see him.
-
-While she stands thus, the captain says, in his grave, singularly sweet
-tones:
-
-"Mrs. Winans, I have known you so long, and am so much older, and
-perhaps, wiser, than you--I have learned wisdom knocking around this
-hard old world, you know--that you will pardon a word of advice from
-an old friend, as you were kind enough to call me just now. Try and
-overlook what seems to you injustice in your husband. His course toward
-you seems to him the wiser one, and he is perhaps the best judge
-of what was right for him--in this lately expressed wish of his he
-seems actuated solely by a desire for your comfort and happiness--he
-wishes ardently that you may content yourself during the period of his
-voluntarily enforced absence. Think as kindly as you can of him. I am
-sure that all this tangled web of fate will come straight and plain at
-last."
-
-She responded to his wistful smile with another, as chill and pale as
-moonlight.
-
-"Thank you; and, Captain Clendenon, you may tell your correspondent
-that I shall avail myself of his gracious permission to visit another
-city--not Memphis. I have no desire to visit there at present."
-
-He looked down at the sweet, flushed, mutinous face with a yearning
-pity in his eyes, and a great throb of pain at his heart--the anguish
-of a man who sees a woman that is dear to him bowed beneath sufferings
-that he cannot alleviate.
-
-All he could do was to clasp the small hand in sympathetic farewell,
-and beg her earnestly to call on him if ever she needed a friend's
-services.
-
-"Since you will not go to Memphis," he said, relinquishing the small
-hand.
-
-"No, I will not go--at least, not now," she answered, supplementing the
-harsh reply by a very gentle good-by.
-
-When she _did_ go, Paul Winans would have given all he possessed on
-earth to have recalled that freely accorded consent.
-
-"I like Captain Clendenon so much," she wrote, in daintiest of Italian
-text, that night, within the sacred pages of her journal. "There is
-something so supremely noble about him, and to-day he looked at me so
-sorrowfully, so kindly, as I have fancied a dear brother or sister
-might do, had I ever been blessed with one. I used to shrink at seeing
-him; he brought back the first great shock of my life so vividly,
-and does still, though not so painfully as of old. It is only like
-touching the spot where a pain has been now--'what deep wound ever
-healed without a scar?' And I do not mind it now, though the unspoken
-sympathy in his great gray eyes used to wound my proud spirit deeply.
-I don't think he ever dreamed of it, though. Mrs. Conway used to think
-that he liked me excessively. I don't know--I think she was mistaken. I
-cannot fancy Willard Clendenon loving any woman except with the calm,
-superior love of a noble brother for a dear little sister. And he has
-a sister, though I have never seen her--charmingly pretty, Norah says
-she is. I believe I should like to know her, if she is at all like her
-brother. But all women, as a rule, are so frivolous--or, at least,
-all those whom fate has thrown in my way. At least, I should like to
-have a brother like this quiet, unselfish captain--this sterling,
-irreproachable character with the ring of the true metal about it--and
-a sister like what I fancy his pretty sister must be. Oh, Paul, were
-you not so cruel my poor heart would not be throwing out its bruised
-tendrils so wildly, seeking for some sure support on which to lean its
-fainting strength. It is so hard to stand alone----"
-
-She closed the book abruptly at a sound of baby laughter from the
-nursery, and gliding into the room stood looking at Norah's busy
-movements. She was giving Master Paul his nightly bath on the rug in
-front of the fire. Up to his white and dimpled shoulders, in the marble
-bath of perfumed water, the little fellow was laughing and enjoying
-the fun to his heart's content. It won the child-like young mother to
-laughter too. She seated herself on a low ottoman near him, and watched
-the dear little baby, with its graceful, exquisite limbs flashing
-through the water, a rosy, perfect little Cupid, and something like
-content warmed her chilled and perturbed spirit.
-
-"I can never be utterly desolate while I have him," she murmured,
-running her taper, jeweled fingers through the clustering rings of his
-dark hair.
-
-Norah, looking across at her mistress, asked, timidly, if she were
-quite resolved on going to Washington next week.
-
-Mrs. Winans' soft eyes fixed themselves on the bright anthracite fire
-in the grate, as if an answer to the question might be evoked from its
-mystic hearth. Her baby seized the opportunity thus afforded to catch
-the nearest end of one of her floating ringlets, and dip it in the bath
-with mischievous fingers. She caught it from his fingers with a fitful
-smile, and began wringing the water from the golden tendrils, and
-asking absently:
-
-"What was it you asked me, Norah?"
-
-"I asked if you really intended visiting Washington next week,"
-explained Norah, clearly and intelligibly. She was an educated
-Irishwoman, and did not affect the brogue of her countrymen.
-
-"Yes, I certainly do so intend," decisively this time, and leaning a
-little forward, twisting the damp curl into a hundred glittering little
-spirals, she went on: "for a few days only though, as I believe I told
-you this morning."
-
-"You will not take much baggage, then, I suppose?"
-
-"No," smiling at the baby's antics in the water, and dodging the drops
-he mischievously splashed in her direction, "only a small trunk with
-necessary changes for baby and myself. I certainly shall not stay more
-than three days at the most."
-
-_Shall not?_ On the mystic page of our irrevocable destiny our resolves
-are sometimes translated crosswise, and _will_ sometimes becomes _will
-not_, and _shall not_ oft becomes _shall_! We, who cannot see a moment
-beyond the present hour, undertake in the face of God to say what we
-shall or shall not do in the unknown future! But poor human hearts,
-
- "Feeble and finite, oh! what can we know!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-AT THE CAPITOL.
-
- "Alone she sat--alone! that worn-out word,
- So idly spoken and so coldly heard;
- Yet all that poets sing and grief hath known,
- Of hopes laid waste, knells in that word--alone!"
-
- --THE NEW TIMON.
-
- "How changed since last her speaking eye
- Glanced gladness round the glittering room;
- Where high-born men were proud to wait,
- And beauty watched to imitate."
-
- --BYRON.
-
-
-It was a crisp, cold, sunny morning toward the last of January, and
-all the world--at least, all the Washington world--was packed in the
-Senate galleries at the capitol, the occasion being the speech of one
-of the master minds of the Senate on a very important subject that was
-just then agitating the country North and South. But we have nothing
-to do with this brilliant speech. We will leave the gentlemen in the
-Reporters' Gallery to report it in irreproachable short-hand. For
-ourselves we are looking for friends of ours who have eddied thither
-with the crowd, and are occupying seats on the east side, where they
-command a good view of the Senate floor. There they are--Mrs. Conway
-in black silk, bonnet to match, gold eye-glasses, and the yellowest
-and costliest of real lace shading throat and wrists--an out-and-out
-aristocrat from the tip of her streaming ostrich plume to her small
-kid boot. Near her sits Lulu Clendenon, the brilliant center of many
-admiring eyes. The little Norfolk beauty has become a noted belle under
-the chaperonage of Mrs. Conway, and to-day she looks rarely beautiful
-in her brown silk dress, with soft facings and trimmings of seal-brown
-velvet, her soft brown furs, and a sash of fringed scarlet silk at
-her throat, confining the soft lace frill. Her great velvet-brown
-eyes hold two restless stars, her round cheeks are dashed with fitful
-scarlet, all her nut-brown hair is arranged on the top of her head in
-a mass of lustrous braids, and one long heavy ringlet floats over her
-sloping shoulder. The daintiest little hat of seal-brown velvet, with
-the scarlet wing of a bird fluttering one side crowns the small head,
-whose stately poise is grace itself. Bruce Conway, languid, handsome,
-elegant, in attendance on the little beauty, is the envy of half the
-Washington fops.
-
-They sit dutifully still and listen to the learned harangue from the
-Senator on the floor below, admire his tropes, follow his gestures,
-wonder how much longer he is going to continue, until Bruce, who has
-come there every day that week, and listened to "that sort of thing"
-till he wearies of it all, loses his interest in the subject, and
-allows his appreciative glance to wander over the galleries at the
-beaming faces of the "fair."
-
-"Lots of pretty girls here," he whispers to Lulu.
-
-"Yes," she murmurs back, then stifling a pretty yawn. "What a long
-speech this is! Don't you think so?" bending one ear to him and the
-other to the speaker.
-
-"Awfully slow," he answers, glancing at his watch. "Oh! I say, did I
-tell you, Brownie, or did you know that Winans is expected to reply to
-this speech?"
-
-"No. Is he?" she asks, eagerly.
-
-"Yes; and the other is winding up his peroration now, I think. Ah!
-there he sits down, and there is my lordly Winans rising now--how
-kingly he looks!" says Bruce, in honest admiration of the man who is
-his enemy.
-
-Lulu settled herself for strict attention, as did every one else, a
-low hum of admiration echoed through the galleries, and then silence
-fell as the musical, resonant voice of Paul Winans filled the grand
-old Senate Chamber, weakening the strong points of his opponent in the
-political field with clear practical reasoning, handling his subject
-skillfuly and well, keen shafts of wit and sarcasm flashing from his
-lips, his dark eyes burning with inspiration, his whole frame expanding
-with the fiery eloquence that carried his audience along with him on
-its sparkling tide. He had never spoken so ably and brilliantly before,
-and low murmured praises echoed on all sides from the audience and the
-members, and pencils flew fast in the Reporters' Gallery.
-
-Lulu sat still and speechless, charmed with the eloquence of the
-speaker, her eyes shining, her full red lips apart. At some argument
-more telling than the rest, something that appealed forcibly to her
-clear mind, she turned instinctively to seek sympathy in the eyes of
-Bruce Conway, only to discover, with dismay, that he was not looking
-at her nor the speaker. His face was strangely white, his eyes were
-looking across at the opposite gallery at some one--a pretty girl Lulu
-judged from the expression of rapt interest he wore. Silently her
-glance followed his, roving over the sea of faces till it found the
-focus of his, and this is what she saw:
-
-Near to, and on the right of the Reporters' Gallery, a lady leaning
-forward against the railing, her dark, passionately mournful eyes
-following Paul Winans with deep, absorbing interest. All the faces of
-fair women around her paled into insignificance as Lulu looked at that
-pale, clear profile, as classically chiseled, as "faultily faultless,"
-as if cut in white marble by some master-hand; the vivid line of the
-crimson lips, the black, arched brows so clearly defined against the
-pure forehead, the ripple of pale-gold hair that, escaping its jeweled
-comb at the back, flowed in a cascade of brightness over the black
-velvet dress, that fitted so closely and perfectly to the full yet
-delicate figure as to reveal the perfection of gracefulness to the
-watcher. A tiny mask vail of black lace that she wore had been pushed
-unconsciously back over the top of her little black velvet hat, and so
-she sat in her pure, melancholy loveliness before the eyes of the girl
-who interpreted Bruce Conway's look aright, and knew before she asked a
-word that this could be no other than the being she had so long wished
-to gaze upon--the fair, forsaken wife, the beautiful and determined
-recluse--Grace Winans.
-
-She touched his arm with an effort, her heart throbbing wildly, her
-breath coming in a sort of gasp.
-
-"Will you tell me the earthly name of the divinity who absorbs your
-flattering notice?"
-
-He started violently and looked round like one waking from a dream. Her
-voice in its tones was much like her brother's, and she had used almost
-his very words at Ocean View when he first saw Grace. No effort of his
-will could subdue his voice into its ordinary firmness, as he answered:
-
-"Oh, that is the Hon. Mrs. Paul Winans."
-
-And Lulu answered, with an unconscious sigh:
-
-"I could not have imagined any one so perfectly lovely."
-
-"Grace here--is it possible?" commented Mrs. Conway, lifting her
-eye-glass to stare across at the young wife. "Well, really, I wonder
-what has happened, and why she is here, and where she is staying? I
-must find out and call."
-
-In which laudable desire she continued to gaze across, trying to catch
-the young lady's eye; but Mrs. Winans had neither eyes nor ears for any
-one but her husband. Her whole soul was intent on him, and when the
-speech came to an end she remained in the same rapt, eager position
-until, just as he was resuming his seat amid the prolonged applause,
-one of those strange psychological impressions that inform one of the
-intense gaze of another caused him to look up, and his dark eyes, still
-blazing with eloquent excitement, met the deep, impassioned gaze of her
-violet orbs, swimming in unshed tears; he sank into his seat as if shot.
-
-As for her, she started up, horrified at having betrayed her presence,
-and was trying to get out of the thronged gallery when a sudden request
-to have the galleries cleared while the Senate went into executive
-session set all the crowd on their feet and moving toward the doors.
-Mingling with them and quite unaccustomed to visiting the capitol
-unaccompanied, Grace found herself suddenly alone, and quite lost in a
-maze of corridors far away from the moving throng of people. Perplexed
-and frightened at she knew not what, she hurried on, only losing
-herself more effectually, seeing no outer door to the vast, wandering
-building, and, strangely enough, meeting no one of whom to learn the
-way out, until as she desperately turned into yet another long corridor
-she stumbled against a gentleman coming in the opposite direction.
-Looking up she met the surprised eyes of Bruce Conway, and remembering
-only that she wanted to get out of that place, that she was in trouble,
-and that he had been her friend, her white detaining hand caught
-nervously at his coat-sleeve.
-
-"Oh, Mr. Conway," she almost sobbed, "I have lost my way and cannot get
-out of the capitol; will you set me right?"
-
-Before a word had passed his lips, while she yet stood with her dark,
-uplifted, appealing eyes burning in Conway's soul, a quick, ringing
-step came along the corridor, and Paul Winans stood beside them,
-towering over both in his kingly height and beauty.
-
-And the untamed devil of a jealous nature rose in his eyes and shone
-out upon the two.
-
-"Great God!" he breathed, in tones of concentrated passion, "Grace
-Winans, are you as false as this?"
-
-The small hand fell nervelessly from Conway's coat-sleeve and
-transferred itself to her husband's arm, her eyes lifted proudly,
-gravely to his.
-
-"I am not false," she answered, in a ringing voice; "you know that I am
-not, Paul."
-
-"Am I to disbelieve my eyes?" he questioned, in fiery tones. "I saw you
-in the gallery--here in Washington, without my knowledge or consent--I
-go to seek you and place you under proper protection, and find you--you
-_my_ wife--clinging to this man's arm, your eyes uplifted in such
-graceful adoration as would make your fortune on the tragic stage--and
-yet you are not _false_! It would seem that Mr. Conway has not suffered
-enough at my hands already."
-
-The latent nobility in Bruce Conway's nature passed over the taunt
-unnoticed in his solicitude for the young creature who stood trembling
-between them, beloved by each, rendered so fatally unhappy by both.
-
-"Senator Winans," he said, coldly, but earnestly and remarkably for one
-of his wavering nature, "there is no need for this scene. I encountered
-your wife in a purely accidental manner only this moment. She could
-not find her way out, and requested me to show her the entrance. She
-was frightened and alarmed, and had you not come up as you did, I
-should have complied with her wish, placed her in her carriage, and
-left her. I could not do less for any lady who needed my momentary
-protection. This is all for which you have to upbraid Mrs. Winans,
-whom, pardon me, you have injured enough already."
-
-Senator Winans passed over the concluding home thrust, and bowed coldly
-but disbelievingly. He turned to his wife, still burning with resentful
-anger, but the words he would have spoken faltered on his lips as he
-looked at her.
-
-She had removed her hand from his arm, and fallen back a pace or two
-from him, her slender figure thrown back, the trailing folds of her
-rich black velvet robe sweeping far behind her on the marble floor. Her
-small hands hung helpless at her sides, her fair face looked stony in a
-fixed despair that seemed as changeless as the expression on the marble
-face of the statue that stood in a niche near by.
-
-Poor child! Her heart was aching with its unmerited humiliation. Here
-stood the man who had won her young heart in earlier days, only to
-cast it aside as a worthless toy, a mute witness of the same thing
-re-enacted by another, and that other one who had promised to love,
-cherish, and protect her through all the storms of life. To her proud,
-sensitive soul it was like the bitterness of death to stand there as
-she stood between these two men.
-
-"Well, madam, I am waiting to hear what you have to say for yourself,"
-her husband said, coldly.
-
-She whirled toward him, a sudden contempt burning under her black
-lashes, her voice cool, clear, decisive.
-
-"This: that I do not choose to stand here and bandy words with you,
-Senator Winans, exposed to the comment of any chance passer-by.
-Whatever more on the subject you can have to say to me I will hear at
-my private parlor at Willard's Hotel this evening between eight and
-nine o'clock, if you will do me the honor to call. At present, if one
-of you gentlemen will take me to my carriage, which is in waiting, I
-will put an end to this scene."
-
-She looked quite indifferently from one to the other, feeling all her
-latent pride rise hotly to the surface, as neither stirred for an
-instant. Then her lawful master drew her hand through his arm, with
-the cold deference he might have accorded a stranger. She bowed to Mr.
-Conway, and was led away and placed in the carriage that awaited her,
-without a word on either side.
-
-And Bruce went back to his aunt and Lulu, whom he had left talking with
-some friends in the rotunda. He said nothing to them, however, of the
-scene that had just occurred.
-
-But the fact of Mrs. Winans' presence at the capitol was very well
-known by this time. Some of her "dear five hundred" friends had seen
-her when the little mask vail had been unconsciously thrown back in her
-eager excitement, and those who had not seen her were told by those
-who had. Many eyes curiously followed the hero of that long past love
-affair, whose shadow still brooded so pitilessly over Grace Winans'
-life, as he moved away by the side of the brown-eyed belle to whom
-society reported him as _affianced_.
-
-"What next?" he queried, smiling down into the slightly thoughtful face.
-
-"I don't know--that is--I believe Mrs. Conway spoke of the Art Gallery
-next," she answered, listlessly.
-
-"After luncheon, though. We go to the hotel first for lunch,"
-interposed Mrs. Conway, briskly, who not being young, nor in love, was
-blessed with a good appetite. "After that the Art Gallery, and there is
-that masquerade ball, you know, to-night."
-
-"As if our daily life were not masquerade enough," he thinks, with
-smothered bitterness, as he attends them down the terraced walks to the
-park, thence to the avenue, for they decide on walking to the hotel,
-Lulu having a penchant for promenading the avenue on sunny days like
-this when all the city is doing likewise.
-
-"For I like to look at people's faces," she naively explains to the
-young man, "and build up little romances from the materials culled
-thereby."
-
-"Ah, a youthful student of human nature! Can you read faces?" he
-retorts, brusquely.
-
-"Sometimes, I fancy, but very imperfectly," she says, flushing a
-little under his keen gaze, as she walks on, her silken skirts sweeping
-the avenue, in the perfection of grace.
-
-"Read mine, then," he answers, half jestingly, half curious as to her
-boasted power, as they fall a little behind the elder lady.
-
-"I cannot," she answers, "I would not attempt it."
-
-"Nay," he insists, "fair seeress, read me even one expression that has
-crossed my tell-tale face to-day--come, I want to test your power."
-
-"Well," she answers, half-reluctantly, "once to-day in the gallery,
-there was a look on your face--flitting and momentary, though--that
-reminded me of this line which I have somewhere read:
-
- "'Despair that spurns atonement's power.'"
-
-"Was I right?" looking away from him half-sorry that she had said it,
-and fearful of wounding him.
-
-And "silence gave consent."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-"IT MAY BE FOR YEARS, AND IT MAY BE FOREVER."
-
- "Enough that we are parted--that there rolls
- A flood of headlong fate between our souls."
-
- --BYRON.
-
-
-Between eight and nine o'clock Grace had specified as the hour when her
-husband might call--and the French clock on the mantel of her private
-parlor at Willard's hotel chimed the half-hour sharply as he was
-ushered in by an obsequious waiter.
-
-The room was entirely deserted--no, a child was toddling uncertainly
-across the floor, jingling in its baby hand that infantile source of
-delight an ivory rattler, with multitudinous silver bells attached
-thereto.
-
-What discordance will not a mother endure and call it music for the
-baby's sake?
-
-One searching glance, and Paul Winans had his child in his arms,
-clasped close to his hungry, aching heart.
-
-His boy! _his!_ Long months had flown away since he had looked on the
-face of his child, and now he held him close, his proud, bearded lip
-pressed to the fragrant lips of the babe, his breath coming thick and
-fast, his jealous, passionate heart heaving with deep emotion.
-
-But the child started back, frightened at the bearded face of the
-stranger, and his low cry of fear struck reproachfully to his father's
-soul.
-
-"A stranger to my own child," he muttered, bitterly. "Why, my baby, my
-baby, do you not know your own papa?"
-
-"Mamma! papa!" repeated the child, and with a sunny, fearless smile, he
-stroked the noble brow that bent over him.
-
-Grace had taught his baby lips to love the name of "papa," and now
-at the very sound his terror was removed, and he nestled closer in
-the arms that held him as though the very name were a synonym for
-everything that was sweet and gentle.
-
-The unhappy mother entering at that moment with pride and reserve
-sitting regnant on her brow, reeled backward at that sight, with a
-quivering lip, and pale hands clasped above her wildly throbbing heart.
-
-It was but for a moment. As he turned to the rustle of her silken robe,
-with their child clasped in one strong arm, she came forward slowly,
-very slowly, but standing before him at last with bowed head and hands
-clasped loosely together.
-
-Captain Clendenon had said of her long before, that as much of an angel
-as was possible for mortal to possess was about her. I don't know about
-its being so much angel--I, who know women better than the captain
-did, think that the best of them have quite sufficient of the opposite
-attribute about them; but, at this moment, all of the angel within her
-was roused by the sight of her husband with their child in his arms.
-
-A moment before her soul had been charged with desperate anger and
-rebellion--now her face wore a soft, sad tenderness, her lifted eyes
-the clear glory of a suppliant angel's.
-
-"Oh, my husband," she breathed, in low, intense accents, "you have
-scorned all words of mine, turned away from me with my defense
-unheard--let the pure love of our innocent babe plead for its innocent
-mother!"
-
-It was like the low plaint for forgiveness from a wayward child that
-comes sobbing home to its mother with its small fault to confess--and
-she was so child-like, so very young, so very wretched. A sharp thrill
-of agonized pity and self-reproach made his firm lip quiver as he
-looked down at her, fiery love and hate struggling in his soul. A wild
-impulse to clasp her to his bosom--to crush against his sore heart all
-that pale yet glowing beauty, for one moment rushed over him, to be
-sharply dispelled by the memory of his jealous vow, and he answered
-not, but gazed on her for speechless moments, marking with eyes that
-had hungered weary months for a sight of her, every separate charm that
-distinguished this fatally fairest of women.
-
-And she was looking very lovely to-night. Her entire absence of color,
-while it robbed her of one charm, bestowed another. That glowing yet
-perfect pallor of impassioned melancholy--that dark brilliance of
-eyes that could, but would not weep--made her beauty more luring than
-before; for a sorrowful face always appeals most directly to the heart.
-
-She wore a dress he had always admired--a dinner-dress of pale,
-creamy-hued silk, shading, as the lustrous folds fell together, into
-pale wild-rose tints. A fragrant, half-blown tea-rose blossomed against
-her whiter throat, among frills of snowy lace, and a slender cross of
-pearls and diamonds depended from a slight golden chain that swung
-almost to her slim, girlish waist; a bandeau of rare pearls clasped
-on her brow with a diamond star held her golden hair in place, and
-gave the last touch that was wanting to make her fairly royal in her
-loveliness.
-
-This was _his_ wife! In all his jealous love and hatred, that name
-thrilled his soul like a pćan of triumph. All that beauty was his, his
-own; but--the undying thought thrilled him like a sword thrust--it
-might have been another's, had that other asked it first.
-
-That other! he had seen her clinging to his arm that day, her magical
-eyes uplifted to his in deep emotion. In the anger that rose at the
-remembrance, he forgot the passionate pride and love that had shown on
-him from the gallery that morning--forgot everything but that later
-scene; and as it rushed vividly back to his mind, he put his hand to
-his face and groaned aloud.
-
-And still she stood mute, moveless, with that hunted look deepening on
-her face, as no word or sign betrayed his answer.
-
-"You will not even answer me!" she moaned, at last.
-
-"It needs not his love to plead your cause, Grace," he answered, in
-heart-wrung accents. "While I thought that your only fault was in
-deceiving me before our marriage, my own love pleaded unceasingly
-for you, my every effort was directed to the destruction of my fiery
-jealousy and anger toward you. I was succeeding. God knows this is
-true. The message I sent you by Captain Clendenon was the outgrowth of
-that milder mood. In all probability I should soon have returned to
-you--glad to call you mine, even though I knew you to have once loved
-another. _Once!_ My God! how little I knew of the dark reality! how
-little I dreamed of your deception until I saw you here to-day--with
-him!"
-
-"Oh! not _with him_!" she cried, in indignant denial--"oh! not _with
-him_! I had met him but that moment, and by the merest accident. Paul,
-was I to blame for that?"
-
-"Mamma, pretty mamma!" lisped the baby, reaching his arms to her
-in vague alarm at the papa who was grieving her so, and, with cold
-deference, he laid him in his mother's arms, as he answered:
-
-"Not to blame for meeting him accidentally, of course, Grace; but you
-were to blame for stopping him, for clinging to him, for looking into
-his eyes as you did, knowing what you did of the feelings existing
-between himself and me--deeply to blame."
-
-"I was frightened," she pleaded. "I did not think--it would have
-happened just the same had it been a stranger, and not Mr. Conway."
-
-"Ah, no!" he sneered, beside himself with jealous passion. "I have
-learned, too late, that your marriage with me was one of ambition and
-pride. There was love in the look you gave him, Grace--such love as you
-have never accorded me."
-
-He was walking excitedly up and down the floor, never even glancing
-at her. She sighed bitterly, pillowing her burning cheek against her
-child, as though to gather strength before she spoke again.
-
-"You are mistaken; it was fright, alarm, foolish nervousness; not love,
-God knows; anything else but that! I do not know how to please you,
-my husband. You are fearfully, causelessly jealous--oh! what _did_ you
-want me to do?"
-
-"I did not want you to touch him; I did not want you to speak to him or
-notice him. I _am_ jealous, Grace," stopping suddenly beside her, and
-gathering all her long fair ringlets into his hands, and lifting one
-bright tendril caressingly to his lips--"so jealous that I am almost
-angry with the very winds when they dare lift this treasured glory from
-your shoulders."
-
-She trembled so violently that she was forced to put down the child on
-a cushion at her feet. As she turned, with a mute gesture, as if to
-throw herself into his arms, he dropped the golden mass from his hands
-and coldly turned away.
-
-"I would like to know, madam," after a long pause, his voice ringing,
-clear, cold, steady, from the opposite side of the room, "why you chose
-to come to Washington at all--knowing it to be against my wishes--what
-object could you possibly have had, unless it were to see him?"
-
-That cruel insult struck the warm fountain of tears, too oft repressed
-by the proud, loving young wife. Her face dropped in her hands, bright
-tears falling through her fingers; her voice came to him mournfully
-earnest through its repressed sobs and moans:
-
-"Because, oh! because I wanted to see _you_, Paul, so much--oh, so
-much!--that I felt I could brave your blame--dare all your anger, but
-to look on your dear face once more! I hoped you would not see me. I
-did not know you could be so cruel and unjust to me, or I would have
-fought harder against the temptation to come."
-
-Moving toward her, he half opened his arms, then dropped them again at
-his sides, with something like a moan.
-
-"Oh, God, if I could only believe you!"
-
-"And do you not?" she asked, slowly.
-
-"I cannot. The miserable doubt that you have never loved me, the fear
-that your marriage with me arose from selfish considerations while your
-heart was in the keeping of one who valued it so little then, however
-much he may now--Gracie, with all these torturing doubts on my soul, I
-try to believe you, and--I cannot."
-
-"Once for all," she says, still patiently, "let me tell you, whether
-you credit or not, Paul, that my love for Bruce Conway compared with my
-love for you was as moonlight unto sunlight, or as water unto wine. He
-was the ideal of my silly, inexperienced girlhood--nay, childhood--he
-_never_ could have been the choice of my maturer years. You are all I
-can ask for in perfection of manliness, saving this unhappily jealous
-nature, and my whole heart is yours. I did not marry you for any
-selfish consideration, except that I loved you and wanted always to be
-near that strong, true, noble heart, sheltered by its warm affection.
-Paul, can you believe these things if I tell you so on my very knees?"
-
-He flung himself away from her with a heart-wrung sigh.
-
-"God help my jealous nature, I cannot!"
-
-"And you will leave me again after this--indefinitely--or forever?"
-leaning her elbow on the low marble mantel, and looking at him with a
-sort of wistful wonder in her tear-wet eyes.
-
-"I must. My vow is recorded--I cannot help myself--it must be
-fulfilled."
-
-She smiled slightly, but with something in her smile that half maddened
-him. The tears were quite dry on her lashes, her cheeks were pink as
-rose-leaves, her bosom rose and fell more calmly. The smile that played
-on her lips was not "all angel" now. She had sued for the last time to
-her unjust lord.
-
-"Since this is your decision," she answered, in calm tones, that belied
-her tortured heart, "would it not be as well to separate altogether?
-Would not your freedom be better insured by a complete divorce from one
-who has so deeply deceived you that it seems impossible to trust her
-again? I confess that it is irksome to me to live upon the splendors
-your wealth supplies while I am an exile and an alien from your heart.
-Once fairly divorced, and we could go away--my baby and I--and never
-trouble you again. I have worked for myself before; I am sure I can do
-it again."
-
-He glared at her speechless, her cool, quiet words stinging him
-sharply, and widening the gulf between them. Before it was a turbulent
-stream; now a rushing river.
-
-"And then you might be Bruce Conway's wife," he says, bitterly, at
-last, "and be happy ever after in his love. Is that what you mean, fair
-lady?"
-
-"Oh, no, no, no! I should never marry again! I should not want to--nor
-dare to! Oh, Heaven, what has love ever brought me but agony?" with a
-despairing gesture of her clenched white hand.
-
-"Ta, ta!" he says, with a light, sarcastic laugh. "You should not
-judge the future by the past. You 'may be happy yet,' as one of your
-songs prettily expresses it. Certainly, you may have a divorce if you
-wish, only,"--stooping to lift his boy in his arms--"in that case, you
-know, the law will give this dear little fellow into my sole care and
-keeping; though, of course, the blissful bride of Conway will not miss
-the child of the man she never loved."
-
-If that last taunt struck home she did not betray it, save that she
-whitened to her lips as she slowly reiterated his words.
-
-"The law would take my baby from me?"
-
-"Yes, of course; that is the law of the land--do you still desire to
-have a divorce?"
-
-"Oh, God, no! I never did, except for your sake. I felt myself to be a
-burden on your unwilling hands, on your unwilling heart, and I simply
-could not bear the thought. But my baby--don't take him from me, Paul!
-I have suffered until I thought I could bear no more, and that, oh!
-that would be death. He is all I have to love me now."
-
-She caught her child from his arms and held him strained to her beating
-heart, feeling for the first time the awful agony of a mother's dread
-of losing her loved one. Her husband looked at her with no trace of his
-feelings written on his still face, and merely said:
-
-"Do not fear; I shall not take him from you, unless in the event to
-which we have alluded. But I hope you will let me see him while he is
-so near me. When do you propose to leave Washington?"
-
-"On the day after to-morrow. I only came yesterday."
-
-"Ah! then I shall look for Norah, to-morrow--you have Norah with you?"
-
-"Yes, of course."
-
-"Then I shall expect Norah and my baby to call on me quite punctually,
-at ten to-morrow. I want to see all I can of the little fellow while he
-is here."
-
-He penciled his address on a card, and laid it on the marble mantel.
-She watched him mutely as he turned toward her, thinking gravely to
-herself what a great, grand, kingly nature was marred by the jealous
-passion that laid waste the fair garden of this man's soul.
-
-"Hear me now, Grace, and understand that what I wrote you in my parting
-note is still my wish. You will remain in our home with our little boy;
-command my banker for unlimited sums, and be as happy as you can. Do
-not, I beg of you, seek to see me again."
-
-"No," she answers, slowly and proudly; "the next time, _you will seek
-me_!"
-
-"Indeed, I hope so," he gravely answers, "so do not worry, and think as
-kindly of me as you can until we meet again."
-
-"Until we meet again," she murmurs, under her breath.
-
-"Until we meet again," he repeats, with a lingering look, and a deep,
-low bow.
-
-She makes a pained, impatient gesture. He turns and goes out, humming
-with a cruel lightness that breaks her heart, the sad refrain of an old
-song:
-
- "It may be for years, and it may be forever."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-"FATE HAS DONE ITS WORST."
-
- "I touch this flower of silken leaf my earlier days that knew,
- Its soft leaves wound me with a grief whose balsam never grew."
-
- --EMERSON.
-
-
-Four o'clock striking in Mrs. Conway's parlor, and our three friends
-variously disposed therein; Mrs. Conway trifling with some light affair
-of fancy work, in bright-colored Berlin wool; Bruce with the daily
-paper; Lulu, a trifle restless, and sitting before the piano, striking
-low, wandering chords and symphonies, turning now and then an impatient
-glance at the newspaper that diverts the gentleman's attention from
-her. Women are invariably jealous of newspapers.
-
-"What a nice thing it is to be interested in politics," she says,
-petulantly, at last.
-
-He is deeply immersed in a synopsis of the speech of Senator Winans,
-having missed it the preceding day by being absorbed in contemplation
-of the Senator's wife; but he looks up to retort, lightly:
-
-"What a nice thing it is to be a belle and take on airs."
-
-She pouts, with a toss of her small head, then smiles.
-
-"Meaning me?" she queries.
-
-"Meaning you," he answers, glancing at the white fingers that go
-straying over the keys, waking a low accompaniment, to which she sings,
-softly:
-
- "Violets, roses,
- Sweet-scented posies,
- Who'll buy my roses,
- All scattered with dew?"
-
-"Meaning the mammoth bouquet that came this morning with the captain's
-compliments?" he interrupts her to ask, with a glimmer of fun in his
-dark eye.
-
-She breaks off, laughing, half-blushing, and saucily retorting:
-
-"Indeed, no. Were I ever so avaricious a flower-vendor I could not part
-with the gift of the gallant captain."
-
-"By the way," he says, suddenly and mischievously ("by the way" being
-a byword of the captain under discussion), "it strikes me as rather
-droll that such a charming flirtation should have sprung up between you
-and Captain Frank Fontenay--the man who tried to help kill me, and the
-little fairy who helped cure me."
-
-"Ah, yes, now I think of it," with an infinitesimal shudder, "he _was_
-Senator Winans' second in that affair. Well," saucily this, "you could
-not have been _seconded_ by a finer gentleman."
-
-He rises and saunters over to her side, out of reach of Mrs. Conway's
-ears, who is near the window (exactly what Lulu wishes him to do). Long
-ago he has read, like an open page, the pure, adoring heart of this
-girl--no vanity in him, for it is so palpable to all; to a certain
-degree he loves her, admires her fresh, young beauty, her sunny ways;
-means certainly some day to make her his wife; and something under her
-surface gayety now that reveals a wistful, unsatisfied yearning touches
-him to greater tenderness than he has ever felt for her before. As he
-bends to speak she turns her head, with a deepening flush; the movement
-wafts to him the subtle fragrance of a white rose worn in her brown
-hair, and the words she longs to hear die unspoken on his lips. What is
-there in the fragrance of a flower that can pierce one deeper than a
-sword-thrust with the sweet-bitterness of memory? What kinship does it
-bear to the roses that blossomed in other days, in other hands that we
-have loved? Who can tell?
-
-Impatiently he disengages it from its becoming brown setting and tosses
-it far from him.
-
-"Never wear white roses where I am, Lulu; I cannot bear their
-perfume--it absolutely sickens me. I like you best in scarlet. It suits
-your piquant beauty best."
-
-"Did _she_ wear white roses?" she queries, with inexpressible
-bitterness, and reaching conclusions with a woman's quick wit.
-
-"_She_ wore white roses--yes," he answers, slowly, as if impelled by
-some power stronger than his own volition; "and, Lulu, she sat one
-evening with her lap full of white roses, and her hands glanced among
-them as white as they--you have heard the whole story before--and the
-only really cowardly act of my life, the only dastardly speech of my
-life, was made then--oh, Heaven! I shall never forget the eyes she
-lifted to my face; white roses always stir me with remorse--always
-breathe the funereal air of dead hopes."
-
-"It is a sin to love her so--now," she whispered, under her breath.
-
-"I know, I know; but cannot you understand, Lu, that this is remorse
-that has built its habitation over the grave of love? Another love is
-rising in my heart above the wreck of my earlier one, but my regret for
-what _I_ caused her to suffer then--for what I have unwittingly caused
-her to bear since--is, and must ever be, unceasing."
-
-"You need not grieve so deeply," she urges, trying to comfort him. "She
-found consolation--she has 'learned to love another.'"
-
-"Yes, my loss was his gain, but still the influence of what I did in
-the past throws its blighting consequence over her life; but let us
-not speak of it, Lulu. There are themes more pleasant to me--ah, if I
-mistake not," glancing out of a near window, "there's the captain's
-faultless equipage outside--do you drive with him this evening?"
-
-"I believe I did promise him," she says, reluctantly, and the next
-moment the fine-looking captain is ushered in, and Bruce goes back to
-his former seat.
-
-Coolly polite are the greetings between the two gentlemen. The words
-that pass between them are of the briefest, while Lulu goes for her
-wrappings.
-
-He smiles, as standing at the window he meets her regretful smile, and
-knows how much rather she had been with him than dashing off in that
-handsome phaeton.
-
-She carries that smile in her heart as they whirl down the avenue, past
-the White House, and off by a pretty circuitous route for the little
-city of Georgetown. There is a glow on her cheek, a sweet, serious
-light in her eyes, a slight abstraction in her manner, that charms her
-companion. He bends near her, a sparkle in his blue eyes, a gratified
-smile on his lips, for he fancies that he has called that added charm
-to her face.
-
-She has taken his heart by storm, and before she can realize it, he
-has capitulated and laid the spoils of war at her feet--namely, the
-battered old heart of a forty-year-old captain in the U. S. A., a
-brown-stone front on Capitol Hill, and fifty thousand dollars.
-
-She looks up in utter amaze at the fair blonde face of the really
-handsome veteran, with its rippling beard and sunny expression of
-good-humor, then her eyes fall, and she softly laughs at his folly in
-the charmingly incredulous way with which some women refuse an offer.
-
-"My dear sir, you do me too much honor, and I would not for the world
-exchange my maiden freedom for 'a name and a ring.'"
-
-The captain is not so very much disheartened. He is of a sanguine
-temperament, and says he will not despair yet--in short, means to try
-again at some fitting future period; and she, leaning back, listless,
-half sorry for him, and a little flattered at his preference, wishes
-with all her heart that this were Bruce Conway instead.
-
-"Ah! by the way," he breaks in presently, "there is a rumor--I beg your
-pardon if I offend--but is it true, as society declares, that you are
-to marry Conway?"
-
-Her heart gives a great muffled throb, that almost stifles her, then
-the small head lifts erect and calm.
-
-"It is not a fact--at least, I am not aware of it--unless, indeed,
-society means to marry us willy-nilly."
-
-"Society has made worse matches," he lightly rejoins. "Conway is a
-prize in the market matrimonial--Miss Clendenon certainly has no peer!"
-
-She laughs. Indeed, it is one of her charming ways that she laughs at
-everything that can be possibly laughed at, and since her laugh is most
-musical, and her teeth twin rows of pearls, we can excuse her--ah, how
-much nonsense we pardon to youth and beauty!
-
-"Ah, by the way," (this favorite formula), "talking of Conway reminds
-me of my friend, Winans--in the Senate, you know. A strange affair that
-of his child--don't you think so?"
-
-She is busy fighting the wind, that blows the long loose strands of her
-solitary brown ringlet all over her pink cheeks, and turns half-way to
-him, the sunny smile utterly forsaking her lip, answering vaguely and
-in some surprise:
-
-"What about it? I have heard nothing."
-
-"Have not?--ah!" as they turn a corner and come upon a lovely view of
-the noble Potomac. "There you have a fine view, Miss Clendenon."
-
-She looks mechanically.
-
-"Yes, it is grand, but--but what did you say about the child of Senator
-Winans?"
-
-"Ah, yes, I was going to tell you, I had not forgotten," he smiled.
-"Why, it seems that his wife was in the city, and he called on her last
-evening at the hotel where she is stopping--he told me, poor fellow,
-in confidence that they parted more bitterly alienated than before.
-I blame him, though, the most. I know his hot temper, you see, Miss
-Lulu--and he desired her to send the child and nurse around to his
-hotel this morning, that he might see as much as possible of the child
-before she returned to Norfolk, as she designed doing to-day."
-
-"Well?" she breathes eagerly.
-
-She is twisting the wayward ringlet round and round one taper finger
-and listening with absorbing interest as he goes on.
-
-"Well, Norah O'Neil, the nurse, took the child very punctually to its
-father at ten o'clock this morning. He received them in his private
-parlor that opened on a long handsome hall, where similar parlors
-opened in a similar manner. And--but this cannot be interesting to you,
-Miss Clendenon, since you do not know the parties."
-
-"On the contrary, I am deeply interested," she said. "Go on if you
-please."
-
-"Well, it seems that Winans kept the little thing so long with him that
-it began to grow hungry and fretful. Winans suggested that Norah, the
-nurse, you know, should go down to the lower regions of the hotel and
-bring up some warm milk and crackers for the hungry child. She went,
-attended by a waiter Winans summoned for the purpose, and remained
-some time--ah! Miss Clendenon, here we are on Prospect Hill with a
-charming sea-view before us--and there--you see that romantic-looking
-cottage not a stone's throw from us--that is the home of the well-known
-novelist, Mrs. Southworth."
-
-"Ah!" she said, brightly, turning a look of deep interest at the spot.
-"But about the child--what happened while the nurse was gone?"
-
-"In a moment, Miss Lulu," touching whip to the prancing iron-gray
-ponies and setting them off at a dashing rate. "Yes, as I was saying,
-Winans played with the child that kept fretting for Norah and the milk,
-and I dare say he grew tired of playing the nurse--I should in his
-place, I know--and thought of taking a comfortable smoke. He left the
-baby sitting on a divan, stopped into his dressing-room, selected a
-good weed, lighted it, and stepped back again."
-
-"And what happened then?" Lulu inquired.
-
-"Would you believe it!--the little thing that could no more than toddle
-by itself--that he had left but a moment before, sitting on the divan,
-fretting for Norah and its milk--it was gone."
-
-"Gone--where?" asked Lulu, staring blankly at him.
-
-"The Lord in heaven knows, Miss Clendenon. Winans ran to the door--it
-had stood ajar all the time for fresh air--and looked up and down the
-hall for him, in vain though. Then the nurse came up with the milk, and
-they began to search together, called up the waiters, alarmed the whole
-house, in fact; and all was useless. Every room was searched, every one
-inquired of, but not a trace of the child was found; he was clearly
-not in the house. I happened in just then and joined in the search. At
-four this evening the search had become widespread; two detectives have
-scoured the city, and it seems impossible to throw the least light on
-the affair. Winans is perfectly wild about it--never saw a man suffer
-so."
-
-"Oh, how dreadful!" breathed Lulu, "and who broke it to _her_--the
-wretched mother?"
-
-"Norah absolutely refused to go to her with news which she said must
-certainly kill her. Winans shrunk from the task in the same desperate
-horror. She does not know it yet, and he clings to a hope of finding
-it before dark, and sending it back by Norah as though nothing had
-happened; but I fear he will fail. Little Paul has undoubtedly been
-stolen for the sake of a ransom, no doubt, or his fine clothes; and it
-is probable they will get him back, but scarcely to-day."
-
-"Oh, poor unhappy Grace!" murmured Lulu, and all her miserable,
-half-indefinable jealousy of the beautiful woman melted in a hot rain
-of tears for the terribly bereaved young mother.
-
-The captain, greatly surprised at this feminine outburst, was really
-at a loss to offer consolation. Having all a man's horror of woman's
-tears, he let the sudden rain-storm have its way, and then hazarded a
-remark:
-
-"Why, you do not know her; I beg your pardon, do you?"
-
-"No," brushing away the pearly drops with a dainty lace-bordered
-handkerchief. "I have seen her, heard her trouble, and take a very deep
-interest in her, and," as she dried the last tear and looked pensively
-up, "I am such a baby that my tears are ready on all occasions."
-
-"An April day," is his oft-quoted comment, "'all smiles and tears.'"
-
-Silence falls. Captain Fontenay looks a little sad, intensely
-thoughtful, evidently revolving something in his mind.
-
-"You speak of having heard of Mrs. Winans' troubles," he ventured at
-last. "Mrs. Conway is one of her friends, I believe?"
-
-"Yes, she has known Mrs. Winans for years--loves and admires her
-greatly."
-
-"Perhaps then," pulling his mustache doubtfully, as they drive slowly
-on, and looking anxious as to how his remark will be received, "perhaps
-since Winans and the nurse both are so reluctant to carry the news to
-Mrs. Winans--perhaps Mrs. Conway would be a proper person to break it
-to her--that is if she would undertake the painful task."
-
-"I am sure she would do so; painful as it would be to her I feel she
-would rather it were her than a stranger; she could tell it more gently
-than one unaccustomed to Grace--I call her Grace because I have gotten
-into the familiar habit from hearing Mrs. Conway call her so," she
-said, apologetically.
-
-"Then, if you think so," he makes answer, "I will call on our return
-and ask her to do so, seeing Winans afterward to let him know of her
-willingness to assume the unpleasant task. Then, if he thinks best, I
-will call and take Mrs. Conway to her hotel."
-
-They drove back, and broke the sad news to Mrs. Conway. Shocked,
-surprised, and grieved as she was, she eschewed for once the nerves of
-a fashionable, and professed herself willing and anxious to go to the
-bereaved young mother.
-
-At seven o'clock that evening the captain called for her.
-
-"No tidings of him yet," he said, "and Winans is anxious you should
-go to her at once and break it with all possible tenderness, with the
-assurance that he expects at any hour to find the baby and bring it to
-her. Norah will come back after it is told. Poor lady! fate has done
-its worst for her."
-
-At the door of Grace's room let us pause, dear reader. We have heard
-the moan of that aching, tortured heart so often, as she quailed
-before the shafts of fate, that we dare not look on the agony whose
-remembrance will haunt even the callous heart of the fashionable and
-world-worn Mrs. Conway through all her future years. It was the agony
-of Rachel weeping for her children, and would not be comforted, because
-they were not.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-ON THE OCEAN.
-
- "Wan was her cheek
- With hollow watch, her mantle torn,
- Red grief and mother's hunger in her eye."
-
- --TENNYSON'S "PRINCESS."
-
- "There is none
- In all this cold and hollow world, no fount
- Of deep, strong, deathless love, save that within
- A mother's heart."
-
- --HEMANS.
-
-
-At dusk of the next day Paul Winans walked impatiently up and down
-the floor of his room at the Arlington House. He was waiting for the
-appearance of Keene, the best detective in the District, who had
-promised to meet him at six o'clock that evening, to report progress.
-
-Norah had gone back to her suffering mistress the night before, and a
-vague report that had reached Winans to-day relative to Grace's illness
-weighed heavily on him, as, with clasped hands and a beating heart, he
-walked up and down, restlessly, striving with his agony.
-
-Remorse was busy with his soul. In this great shock that had come upon
-him and his wife he lost sight of his own personal grievance, and
-thought only of her, forgetting his hot rage of two nights before, and
-thinking only that the breach his senseless jealousy had made between
-their two hearts was now immeasurably widened by the hand of fate. In
-some sort he felt himself an innocent agent in the child's loss, and
-scarcely dared hope for his wife's forgiveness.
-
-"Come in," he said, pausing, as a knock echoed on the door with
-military precision. "Ah! Fontenay, is it you? I expected Keene, the
-detective. Come in--sit down."
-
-Captain Fontenay did as requested, turning a silent look of
-commiseration on his friend.
-
-"I have just come from calling on Miss Clendenon," he observed, "and
-learned that Mrs. Conway has not yet returned from Mrs. Winans'
-hotel. In fact, I believe she thinks best to remain with her until
-she gets better. She has, as Miss Lulu informed me, taken rooms for
-herself, and Miss Clendenon, of course, who is to rejoin her there this
-evening--Conway remaining at his hotel."
-
-"Ah! that is kind of Mrs. Conway," said Winans, surprisedly. "I should
-not have expected so much kind feeling from one who has always appeared
-to me a mere cold-hearted devotee of fashion and pleasure."
-
-"The devil is not as black as he is painted," the captain quotes,
-sententiously.
-
-"This Miss Clendenon seems a pleasant, or rather, a sweet little
-creature," mused the Senator, aloud; "one of the sort of women, I
-think--don't you?--who is worthy the devoted affection of any one."
-
-"I think so," says the captain, with enthusiasm.
-
-"I was thinking"--musingly this--"that I would like her to know my
-wife--like to see a cordial friendship grow up between the two. Grace
-has never had an intimate female friend. She is singularly quiet,
-reticent, and reserved with every one. It would, I think, be something
-of a comfort to her to be brought into familiar intercourse with
-Willard Clendenon's sister. She needs the sympathy and society of one
-of her own sex."
-
-"Let us hope they may become friends," says the captain, heartily.
-
-"But, Fontenay, this illness of Grace--I heard a rumor of it
-to-day--our unfortunate affairs are by this time a town-talk. She is
-not seriously out of sorts, I presume, and I am not brave enough to go
-there now, and look on the desolation I have wrought."
-
-Fontenay walked across the room and laid his hand on the other's arm,
-gravely and sympathizingly.
-
-"No--yes," he says; "well, the truth is, Winans, I hate to be the
-bearer of the tidings, but the fact is simply this: Mrs. Winans'
-excessive agitation and grief have culminated in what the physician
-calls a serious attack of brain fever."
-
-"Great Heaven! what have I done?"
-
-The strong man reeled backward as if from a blow just as another
-professional rap sounded on the door.
-
-"Come in," he says, with a strong effort at self-control.
-
-This time it was Keene. Slender, small, and shrewd-looking, he fits
-his name, and his name fits him. He bows to both gentlemen, leisurely
-taking the seat he is offered.
-
-"Anything new?" he is asked.
-
-"A moment, if you please. Senator, if you will be so kind as to order
-up the chamber-maid who attends the ladies' parlors on this floor, I
-will ask her a few questions."
-
-Winans rang the bell violently.
-
-"You do not suppose _she_ has stolen the child?" he queries, a little
-astonished.
-
-"Not at all," Mr. Keene smiled cheerfully back.
-
-A white-aproned waiter answered the bell just then, Winans gave the
-desired order, and resumed his moody walk again, until interrupted
-by the entrance of the maid he had summoned. A rather pretty and
-pleasant-faced girl she was, neatly dressed, and with a due modicum
-of modesty, for the color came into her smooth, round cheek, and she
-looked down and trifled with her apron-string as Mr. Keene smiled
-approval at her.
-
-"What is your name, my girl?"
-
-"Annie Brady, sir."
-
-"Ah, yes. Well, Miss Annie, you preside over the ladies' rooms on this
-floor? Attend to the ladies, I mean?"
-
-"Oh! yes, sir."
-
-"Well, Annie, I have heard--you can tell me if it is true--did any of
-the ladies you have been waiting on in this hotel leave here yesterday
-for a foreign port?"
-
-The pretty Irish girl reflected.
-
-"Yes, sir," with a small courtesy; "and indade I believe there was wan."
-
-"You believe. Are you quite _certain_?"
-
-"Yes, sir, I am quite certain. It were the poor English lady whose room
-was opposite this one--number 20, sir."
-
-She half-opened the door and indicated number 20 with her finger.
-
-"Just across the hall."
-
-"The _poor_ English lady; and why do you call her poor?" asked the
-detective, curiously, while the two gentlemen listened in silence, and
-the girl herself edged nearer the door in surprise and bewilderment
-commingled. "Was she in bad circumstances?"
-
-"Why, no, sir, not that way; she seemed quite comfortable so far as
-money went. It were her mind, sir," said the girl, tapping her forehead
-significantly. "She seemed not quite right here, sir."
-
-"And what sort of a lady was she, and what was her name?"
-
-"Her name? It was Mrs. Moreland, sir, and she looked about thirty year
-old--a pretty little blue-eyed lady, quite broken down with trouble and
-grief. She came on here a few days ago from New York, and was going
-home to her friends in London."
-
-"Ah! and was she alone? Did she talk with you much, and tell you the
-cause of her trouble?"
-
-"She did talk to me sometimes. She seemed lonely and unsettled-like,
-and I thought it did her good to talk to some wan of her trials. A sore
-heart, ye know, sir, is all the betther for telling its griefs over to
-a sympathizing heart," said Annie, apologetically.
-
-"Yes," said Keene, a little impatiently, "but you have not told us what
-her trouble was."
-
-"To be sure," answered Annie, good-humoredly. "She had come over some
-two years since from London with her husband to seek a better fortune,
-and just when they were so snugly settled down in a dear little home
-in Brooklyn, and beginning to do well in the world, and wan little
-baby-bird come to make sunshine in the home, the husband and baby
-sickened and died, wan after the other, sir, and the poor heart-broken
-widdy is just going back to her friends almost crazy with the grief of
-it all," concluded Annie, quite breathless with her long speech.
-
-A sparkle of blue lightning flashed in Keene's eyes.
-
-"She had lost a child, you said?"
-
-"Yes, sir, a pretty boy, scarce a year old. She showed me a photograph
-of them all--five little ones she had lost, he the last of them
-all--black-eyed, curly-headed little beauties they were--like their
-poor father, she said."
-
-"And she was inconsolable at the loss of the baby?"
-
-"Yes, sir; she fretted for it all the long days, sir--not quite right
-in her head, she was not, I know, but," said Annie, wiping away a
-glittering tear from her pink cheek, "it were pitiful like to see her
-a tossing on the sofa, and moaning, and like as not laughing wildly as
-she talked of baby Earle, as she called him."
-
-"Seemed insane, you think?" asked Keene, in his quick, short manner.
-
-"Not like that," answered Annie, with mild wonder at the gentleman's
-pertinacious curiosity, "but a little out of her mind--you've heard of
-people being melancholy mad, sir."
-
-"Yes, oh, yes," said Keene, "and so you said good-by to this
-interesting little widow yesterday at about between eleven and twelve
-o'clock, and she left here and took the steamer for Liverpool?"
-
-"She did go away at that time, sir, but I told her good-by earlier as
-my duties called me to another part of the building. She told nobody
-good-by. Indeed, all the waiters in the house--she always had a kind
-word for them, ye see--they all wondered they did not see her go out,
-and so missed saying good-by to her."
-
-"But her baggage, Annie? How did her baggage go down?"
-
-"Oh! her passage was taken, and her baggage sent to the steamer,
-yesterday."
-
-"Yes; thank you, Miss Annie, and I believe that is all I want to ask
-you this evening."
-
-Senator Winans supplemented Keene's thanks with a banknote, and Annie
-went bowing and smiling back to the regions whence she came.
-
-The three men looked at each other, Keene breaking the ominous silence
-that had fallen:
-
-"This is what I came to tell you, Senator Winans. Mrs. Moreland is on
-the ocean with your little boy. I have already telegraphed to Liverpool
-to have her stopped when she lands there. I have found that a woman
-answering her description left on the steamer yesterday with a child
-answering the description of yours; with the cunning of insanity that
-poor creature probably saw the child at the moment of leaving, and
-kidnapped it with the thought that it was her own."
-
-He turned away, inured as he was to sorrow, from the white anguish of
-the father's face.
-
-"It is very probable you will get him back; don't give up all as lost,"
-he said, cheerfully.
-
-"I will not," the stern energy of the man asserting itself. "We will
-follow them on the next steamer, and track every inch of ground till
-we find him. Every dollar I own shall be expended if necessary. But,
-oh, Heaven! I cannot--his mother--she is ill, wretched--perhaps
-death-stricken. I dare not leave here."
-
-"I don't know that it is necessary to follow them," Keene said,
-doubtfully. "If they get him in Liverpool, he can be sent home in the
-captain's care. You will not care, I suppose, to punish her. She is
-probably half insane, and under a natural hallucination that it was her
-own, and abducted it."
-
-"No, poor creature! she has already suffered enough," said Winans,
-pityingly.
-
-"Ah, by the way, Winans," here interposed the captain, "why not call
-and see your wife to-night, and learn if her illness is too serious to
-admit of your leaving; she may be better, and you at liberty to go. It
-seems the best thing under the circumstances, in my humble judgment,
-that you should pursue this woman as speedily as is possible."
-
-"Perhaps so. Then, Mr. Keene, I suppose we can do nothing more till
-to-morrow. If you will call on me at an early hour in the morning we
-will discuss the best steps to be taken in the matter."
-
-And there being no more to say on the subject, the detective bowed
-himself out, leaving the two friends alone together.
-
-"Fontenay, I am afraid to go to her. She would spurn me from her
-presence; I deserve it."
-
-He strode across the room, and began stirring the coal fire, shaking
-down the ashes, and tearing open its burning heart, just as wounded
-love and bitter pain and yearning were sweeping the ashes of pride and
-jealousy from his, and showing him the living fire that burned undimmed
-below.
-
-"You can but try," said the gallant captain. "'Faint heart never won
-fair lady.'"
-
-And Winans resolved to "try."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-"IN HIS HEART CONSENTING TO A PRAYER GONE BY."
-
- "The boon for which we gasp in vain,
- If hardly won at length, too late made ours,
- When the soul's wing is broken, comes like rain."
-
- --HEMANS.
-
- "Fare thee well! Yet think awhile
- On one whose bosom bleeds to doubt thee;
- Who now would rather trust than smile,
- And die with thee than live without thee."
-
- --MOORE.
-
-
-Sitting at her window watching the radiant day hiding its blushes on
-the breast of night, Lulu Clendenon's heart was full of a strange,
-aching pain. She had, as Captain Fontenay had told Winans, removed
-to the hotel where Mrs. Conway had taken rooms, to remain until Mrs.
-Winans recovered from her attack of impending brain fever.
-
-As yet she had not seen Mrs. Winans, no one being permitted to enter
-the sick-room excepting those who were in close attendance on the
-patient; and, truth to tell, Lulu was lonely. She missed Bruce Conway.
-For many weeks now the twilight hour had been the pleasantest of the
-day to her, for it had been passed in his company. Now as she sat at
-the window, cuddled up in a great easy-chair, her cheek pressed down in
-the hollow of her little white hand, her wistful brown eyes watching
-the fairy hues of sunset, Lulu was waking to a realization of her own
-heart.
-
-The little sister that Captain Clendenon had wanted to keep a child
-forever was a child no longer. Love--the old, old story, old as the
-world, and yet new and sweet as the blushing flowers of to-day's
-blossoming--had opened for her the portals of a broader existence, and
-Lulu was learning the strength and depth of her woman's heart first by
-its intense aching.
-
-According to the verdict of the world, it is a woman's shame to love
-unsought; and yet I think that that is scarcely love which waits to
-be given leave to love. Flowers blossom of their own sweet will, and
-often as not their sweetest perfume rises under the heedless feet that
-trample them down. It is much so with the human heart. It gives love,
-not where it is asked always, but often where it is uncared for and
-unknown; and the cold steel of disappointment is but to such love as
-the knife that digs round the roots of our flowers--it makes the fibers
-strike deeper in the soil of the heart.
-
- "Successful love may sate itself away,
- The wretched are the faithful."
-
-Lulu wished idly that she were floating in ether on the top of that
-gold-tinged cloud that rose in the far west, wave on wave, over masses
-of violet, rose, and crimson; or that she might have laid her hot cheek
-against that white drift that looked like a chilly bank of snow, and
-cooled the fever that sent its warm flushes over her face.
-
-The pretty lip trembled a little, and Lulu felt as if she wanted to go
-home, like a tired and weary child, to her mother.
-
-Mrs. Conway's light footsteps, as she entered softly, startled her from
-her painful reverie. She roused up into a more dignified posture, and
-inquired touching the state of the young patient.
-
-"She has been delirious to-day, but is now for the time being quite
-rational, though still and silent. I want to take you to see her, my
-dear. You will have to help nurse her (we cannot leave her solely to
-the care of that nurse and the doctor--it would be cruel), and it is
-better to have her get acquainted with you now, and accustomed to
-seeing you about her room. You can come now, if you please, dear. I
-have spoken to her of you, and she will be prepared to see you."
-
-Lulu rose from her easy-chair, shook out her tumbled skirts, trying to
-shake off a portion of her heart's heaviness at the same time, and
-smoothing her dark braids a little, followed her friend.
-
-But her heart rose to her throat as they crossed the threshold of the
-sick-room, and stood in the presence of a woman who had always been
-such an object of interest to her.
-
-The fading winter sunshine glimmered into the apartment and shone on
-Norah, where she sat, grave and anxious-looking, at the side of the
-low French bed, whose sweeping canopy of lace thrown back over the top
-revealed the form of Grace Winans lying under the silken coverlet, like
-some rare picture, her cheeks flushed scarlet with fever, the white
-lids drooping over her brilliant eyes, her arms thrown back over her
-head, her small hands twisted in the bright drift of golden hair that
-swept back over the embroidered pillow.
-
-"Dear Grace," Mrs. Conway said, softly, "this is my young friend, Lulu,
-Mrs. Winans, Miss Clendenon."
-
-Slowly the sweeping lashes lifted, and the melancholy gaze dwelt on
-Lulu's face, but the lips that opened to speak only trembled and shut
-again in that set, firm line with which proud women keep back a sob.
-One little hand came down from over her head, and was softly laid
-in Lulu's own. As it lay there, warm, feverish, fluttering like a
-wounded bird, the young girl's heart swelled with a throb of passionate
-sympathy.
-
-She bent impulsively and pressed her cool, dewy lips on the fevered
-brow of the other, while she registered a vow in her unselfish soul,
-that she would stand between Grace Winans and every sorrow that effort
-or sacrifice of hers could avert.
-
-How potent is the spell of sympathy! The light pressure of those soft
-lips touched a chord in Grace's tortured heart that never in after
-years ceased to vibrate. Her husband had spoken truly in saying that
-she had no intimate woman-friend, but it was scarcely her fault.
-Her nature was a singularly pure and elevated one; the majority of
-the women she knew had few feelings in common with her, and she was
-too much superior to them not to be an object of envy rather than a
-congenial friend to most. She had found a kindred spirit at last in the
-sister of Willard Clendenon; and if the shifting current of fate had
-ordered her life otherwise than what it was--had she married Willard
-Clendenon, maimed, comparatively poor, unskilled in the current coin of
-worldly compliment though he was, she would have found her soul-mate.
-But these strange mistakes lie scattered all along the path of life,
-and it is true that matches, if made in heaven, sometimes get woefully
-mismatched coming down.
-
-"Her fever is getting higher," Mrs. Conway said, as she anxiously
-fingered the blue-veined wrist.
-
-It rose higher and higher; delirium set in, and in restless visions the
-young mother babbled of her lost child; she was seeking him--seeking
-him everywhere, through the wide, thronged avenues of Washington, the
-long corridors of the capitol, the dull, narrow streets of Norfolk,
-by the moonlit shores of Ocean View; and the red light of a meteor in
-the sky was blinding her so that she could not see; and when it faded
-she was in darkness--and now burning reproaches scorched the sweet
-lips with their fiery breath, and Paul Winans' name was whispered,
-but with inexpressible bitterness. The impression on her mind,
-strengthened by his words at their last interview, was that he had
-intentionally secreted her baby to punish her in some sort for what
-seemed to him faults in her. He had struck a blow at her heart where
-it was most vulnerable; she had told him it would be her death, and
-he had wanted her to die; and this dismal refrain haunted her fevered
-slumbers through long hours. In vain Norah cooled the burning head
-with linen strips, holding masses of powdered ice; the white arms
-tossed restlessly, the lips still babbled incoherent grief and anger;
-the physician came, watched her for an hour, went through the formula
-of prescribing, and shaking his head and promising to see her in the
-morning, went his way; and the hours went on--it was ten o'clock, and
-quieter slumbers seemed to fall upon the worn-out patient; she talked
-less incoherently, tossed and moaned less often.
-
-"A gentleman to see Mrs. Conway," was announced by the subdued voice of
-a servant at the door.
-
-Supposing that it was her nephew, she glided softly out, returning
-in ten minutes, to find Grace feebly tossing again and staring with
-wide-open eyes at every object in the dimly lighted room. She bent
-over her and tried to fix her wavering attention.
-
-"My dear, will you see your husband? Senator Winans desires an
-interview with you."
-
-Something in the name seemed to fix and hold her wandering thoughts.
-She half-lifted herself, resting on her elbow and sweeping her hand
-across her brow.
-
-"My husband--did you say that?"
-
-"Yes; listen, dear. He has come to see you, and is waiting in the
-parlor. May I bring him in? Will you see him?"
-
-A flash of hope in the fever-bright violet eyes, a hopeful ring in the
-trembling voice:
-
-"The baby--he has brought the baby?"
-
-"No, not yet; he hopes to soon," taking the small hands and softly
-caressing them with hers, "indeed, you are mistaken, Gracie, in
-thinking, dear child, that he is deceiving you in this matter. He is in
-great distress, longs to tell you so, and to try to comfort you; say
-that you will see him."
-
-"No, not I; you do not know him--he is so cruel. Oh, my poor heart!"
-clasping her hands across her heaving breast, "He has come to triumph
-in my anguish, to laugh at the wreck he has made of my life."
-
-"Not so, Gracie, dear little one, he has come to sympathize with
-you--won't you let him come?"
-
-"No, no, never!" rising straight up and shaking herself free of Mrs.
-Conway's detaining hand, the delirium clouding her brain again. "Oh,
-never till he comes to me with our baby in his arms will I look upon
-his face again. Tell him this, and say that if he entered that door I
-would most surely spring from that window rather than look on his face
-with its smile of triumph at my suffering."
-
-She fell back, exhausted and quite delirious now, and Mrs. Conway
-turned with a heavy heart to carry the ill tidings to the man who
-waited in the next room. She was spared that pain. The clear, bell-like
-voice, sharpened by anger and scorn that was strange to that gentle
-spirit, had penetrated the next room, and he knew his doom and felt
-it to be just, as he stood in the middle of the floor, his hands
-clasped behind him, his head bowed on his breast, a perfect picture of
-humiliation and despair.
-
-"I have heard," he said, with a ghastly smile, as her fingers touched
-his arm.
-
-"My poor boy!" she said.
-
-"It is just," he said, in a whisper of intense pain. "God knows I
-merit worse at her hands, but, all the same, it goes hard with me--the
-worse because, as I told you just now, I leave for Europe to-morrow in
-quest of our child. Oh! Mrs. Conway, take care of her while I am gone.
-Don't--don't let her die!"
-
-"She shall not die," said Lulu's soft, low tones, as she glided into
-the room and up to his side. "I will--we all will--do everything to
-keep her for you until you come back to make her happiness your chief
-care in life hereafter. She must not, will not, die!"
-
-He looked up, caught her hand, and touched it gratefully to his lips.
-
-"God bless you for those words, Miss Clendenon! You always come with
-renewed life and promises of hope. Oh! watch over her well, I entreat
-you; and, oh! teach her, if you can, to think less harshly of me. May
-God forgive me for my folly and wickedness to her, and give me a chance
-to retrieve the past by the future."
-
-The two ladies looked at each other, deeply moved.
-
-"I am coming back at the very earliest possible day after I recover my
-child," he went on; "but never till then. I have heard my doom from her
-own lips." Then he stopped, too deeply pained for words, and with only
-a heart-wrung "good-by," was gone.
-
-"The next time _you will seek me_," she had said, at their last fatal
-interview.
-
-There are many thoughtless words spoken that afterward seem like
-prophecies.
-
-Mrs. Conway and Lulu went back to the room where they were doomed to
-watch for many long weeks yet to come over the sick-bed where life and
-death were waging fierce warfare over a life-weary, reckless victim.
-But the "balance so fearfully and darkly hung" that a touch may turn
-the scale toward "that bourne whence no traveler returns," wavered, and
-dropped its pale burden back into the arms of those who loved her; and,
-shadowy, wasted, and hopeless, Grace Winans took up the cross of her
-life again, with all the sunshine gone out of it, the only comfort left
-to her bruised heart that "comfort scorned of devils"--that comfort
-that is "sorrow's crown"--"remembering happier things."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-"HOPE SPRINGS ETERNAL IN THE HUMAN BREAST."
-
- "Ah! one rose,
- One rose, but one by those fair fingers culled,
- Were worth a hundred kisses, pressed on lips
- Less exquisite than thine."
-
- --TENNYSON'S "GARDENER'S DAUGHTER."
-
-
-It is the latter part of the month of February, and Norfolk is waking
-up from its winter torpor. Our friends who wintered in Washington are
-all at home again. Mrs. Conway and her well-beloved nephew are located
-once more at Ocean View. Mrs. Winans, only just recovered from her
-severe and lengthy illness, is once more established in her handsome
-residence in Cumberland street, and has prevailed on Miss Clendenon to
-spend the first few weeks after their return with her--Mrs. Clendenon,
-though lonely without her, willingly giving up those weeks of her
-daughter's treasured society to the fair woman of whom both son and
-daughter speak in terms of such unqualified praise.
-
-They are very fond of each other--Grace and Lulu--and, indeed, the fair
-mistress of that grand home feels as if life will be a blank indeed
-when Lulu, too, leaves her, for her pleasant company helps to dispel
-the aching sense of waiting and suspense that broods drearily over her
-own heart.
-
-Senator Winans has not returned to the United States--indeed, seems
-in no haste to return--for he has resigned his seat in Congress, and
-writes that he will never return until accompanied by the child so
-strangely lost.
-
-At present the fate of that little child is wrapped in impenetrable
-mystery. The detectives in Liverpool who were watching for the
-arrival of the steamer there, were eluded by the cunning of his poor,
-half-insane abductor, and not a trace of her afterward could be
-found, though the story was widely circulated in the prominent papers,
-munificent rewards offered for his restoration to his father, and the
-best detectives employed to hunt the woman down. In vain.
-
-Whether the little Paul yet lived was a matter of doubt to many who
-considered the subject carefully, and remembered how irresponsible, how
-poorly fitted to take care of the tenderly nurtured babe, was the poor,
-grief-stricken, demented creature. But Winans remained abroad, resolved
-that he would never give up the search nor return home until success
-crowned his efforts. And with him, to make a resolve was generally to
-keep it.
-
-As for Grace, the first sharp agony of her grief being past, a sort
-of apathy settled upon her, a quietude that appeared to infold her so
-closely it seemed as if joy or pain could never touch her more. Very
-still and quiet, though sweet, and gently observant of the cares of
-others, she glided through the elegant rooms of her strangely quiet and
-solitary home, and books and music, and long, lonely drives, shared
-only by Lulu, formed the only objects of her daily occupation. Health
-returned to her so slowly that life seemed slipping from her grasp
-by gradual declining, and the fair cheek, never very rosy, wore the
-settled shadow of an inward strife, the girlish lip a quiet resolution
-that moved the gazer to wonder.
-
-And for Lulu, also, a slight paleness has usurped the place of the
-brilliant roses she carried to Washington. The starry brown eyes hold
-a grave thoughtfulness new to their soft depths, and sometimes, when
-suddenly spoken to, the girl starts, as if her thoughts had strayed
-hundreds of miles away, though the truth of the matter is they never
-strayed further than Ocean View, where the handsome object of their
-thoughts dawdled life away, "killing time" and thought as best he
-might, and seldom coming into Norfolk--"recruiting after a fatiguing
-season," he was wont to say, when rallied on the subject by his
-numerous friends in the city, and had Lulu been at her mother's, he
-would very possibly have called occasionally to see her, but while she
-staid with Grace she was debarred the pleasure of seeing him, for Bruce
-never expected to cross the threshold of the house that called Mrs.
-Winans its mistress, and where Lulu sat one bright, sunny morning,
-toward the last of the month of February. As is often the case,
-February had borrowed a windy day from March, and the "homeless winds"
-shrieked around the corners, and moaned dismally in the trees that were
-just putting out the safest and greenest of velvet buds, and Lulu,
-sitting alone in the cozy morning parlor, idly turning the pages of a
-new volume, started up in surprise and pleasure as a servant ushered
-"dear brother Willie" quite unexpectedly into the room.
-
-"So glad to see you," she said, brightly, putting both hands in his
-one, and rising on tiptoe for a kiss.
-
-He stooped and gave her a dozen before he accepted the chair she placed
-for him beside her own.
-
-"Mother is well? I haven't seen her these two days," she queries,
-anxiously.
-
-"Mother is well--yes, and sent her love."
-
-"Now," she chattered, laying aside her book, and concentrating all her
-attention on him, "give me all the news."
-
-"Well, Lulu, all the news I have is soon told. I am come to bid you
-good-by. Winans has been urging me so earnestly in his letters to join
-him abroad in his search for the little Paul, that I have not the heart
-to refuse, if I wished, which I do not, and I start to-night. There is
-no use putting it off, and I do not need to. The only thing I regret
-is that this will curtail your stay with Mrs. Winans, as mother cannot
-spare us both at once, and will want to have you with her to console
-her anxieties while 'with a smile at her doleful face, her Willie's on
-the dark blue sea.' Still, dear little sister, you can spend much of
-your time with Mrs. Winans, which I hope you will do."
-
-"I certainly will do so," she gravely promises.
-
-"It is solely for her sake that I go," he concluded. "Otherwise I do
-not care for the trip, and it rather encroaches on my business at this
-time. But if I can help lift the cloud from her life, no effort of mine
-shall be wanting. _Noblesse oblige_, you know, little sister."
-
-She glanced up into the soft, serious, gray eyes, that met her gaze so
-kindly with a smothered sigh.
-
- "How noble and calm was that forehead,
- 'Neath its tresses of dark curling hair;
- The sadness of thought slept upon it,
- And a look that a seraph might wear."
-
-"My darling," he bent and looked into the face that lay against his
-shoulder, "you are not well--you do not look like my bright, happy
-bird. What is it--what has troubled you?"
-
-"Nothing; indeed it is nothing. I have the least bit of a headache, but
-it is wearing off in the joy of seeing you," she answered, smiling a
-little, and then, woman-like, touched by a sympathizing word, breaking
-into tears and sobbing against his shoulder.
-
-He put his arm around her, inexpressibly shocked and pained.
-
-"Something _has_ troubled you, and I know it. Tell me, Lulu, or I
-cannot be content to cross the ocean leaving you with some untold grief
-in your happy young heart. Come, you do not have any secrets from
-brother Willie."
-
-"No, no, it is nothing, dear brother, but I am so nervous of late--have
-learned to be a fashionable lady, you know," smiling faintly to allay
-his anxiety, "and I am so shocked to think you are going away--so far,
-and so _soon_--how long do you mean to stay?"
-
-"I cannot tell. I shall write to you often, anyhow, so that you and
-mother shall not miss me so much. I shall throw all my powers into this
-undertaking. And, Lulu, I think--that is--I should like to see _her_
-and say good-by--if you think she would see any one?"
-
-"She would see you, certainly; she is very fond of you; talks often
-of you. You can go down into the conservatory; she was there a little
-while since. I know she is there still. After you tell her good-by, you
-will come back to me--will you?"
-
-"Yes, dear," he answered, as he rose and left her, passing on through
-the continuation of the elegant suite of rooms leading out to the door
-of the conservatory and glancing in for her he sought.
-
-She was there. He caught his breath with a pang as he saw the slender
-figure standing under a slim young palm tree, looking like a sculptured
-image of thought with her downcast eyes and gravely quiet lips. A
-furred, white morning robe of fine French merino, girded at the waist
-by silken white cords and tassels, fell softly about her form and
-trailed its sweeping length on the marble floor. There were faint blue
-shadows around the glorious eyes, though they may have been but the
-shadow of the sweeping black lashes--there was a glow but no color on
-the pure, fragile cheek, and a dumb suggestion of quiet martyrdom in
-the droop of the hands that loosely clasped each other, as
-
- "Stiller than chiseled marble standing there,
- A daughter of the gods, divinely tall,
- And most divinely fair,"
-
-the eyes of Captain Clendenon dwell on her for a moment with a mist
-before their sight, and then--but then she lifted the sweeping lids of
-those rare pansy-vailed eyes, and looked up at him.
-
-The ghost of a smile touched her lips as she gave him her hand.
-
-"It seems a long time since I saw you," she said, "though it really is
-not two months."
-
-"Sometimes," he answered, gravely, "so much suffering can be crowded
-into two months that it may well seem two centuries."
-
-"Ah! yes." She set her lips suddenly in the straight line with which
-she was wont to keep back a sob. After a moment, "Have you seen Lulu?"
-
-"Yes, I have seen her," going over patiently, and at more length, the
-information he had just given his sister, talking this time brightly
-and cheerfully. "I feel almost assured he will be found; he must
-be--'there is no such word as fail,' you know, in the 'lexicon of
-youth,'--and I think you are giving up too easily. You will undermine
-your health already weakened by your severe illness. Why, you have the
-appearance of one who has given up all hope."
-
-"And I have," she calmly made answer.
-
-"That is simply suicidal," he said, trying to rouse her into hope with
-all the strength of his strong, true nature.
-
-"You are so kind, Captain Clendenon," she flashed a blinding ray of
-gratitude from her dusk eyes upon him, "so kind to go and look for
-him--my baby--believe me, I never, never can forget it, though I feel
-that all search will be in vain--still, still, it is so kind, so noble
-in you to do all this, and I know you are doing it for me," laying her
-small hand mechanically on his coat-sleeve in a childish fashion she
-had, and keeping the grateful eyes still on his face.
-
-"Mrs. Winans," he answered, quite gravely, "I would go to the ends of
-the earth to serve you--any man who knows your unmerited sufferings,
-and appreciates you as well as I do, could not do less, I think."
-
-"Thank you," she murmured, with the faintest quiver in the music of her
-voice.
-
-"And now," he spoke less gravely, and more brightly, "I think I must be
-saying good-by. Is there anything I can do for you on the other side of
-the Atlantic--any commission for Parisian finery--any message for your
-husband?"
-
-"Nothing--thanks," she answered, decisively.
-
-He sighed, but did not urge the matter.
-
-"You are not going to send me to Europe without one flower, and so rich
-in floral blessings?" his glance roving over the booming wilderness of
-beauty and fragrance all around her.
-
-"No, indeed, but you are not going yet. You will certainly stay to
-luncheon, will you not?"
-
-"I cannot--thanks!"
-
-"You shall have all the flowers you want. What are your favorites? Pray
-help yourself to all you fancy, and welcome," she urged, earnestly.
-
-He glanced around. Everything rare, and sweet, and bright he could
-think of, glowed lavishly around him, but the only white rose that had
-blown that day she had quite mechanically broken and placed on her
-breast.
-
-"I only want one flower. I like white roses best," he answers.
-
-She turned her head, bending forward to see if any were there, and one
-of her long, fair curls swept across and tangled itself in a thorny
-bush beside her. She caught it impatiently away, leaving a tangle of
-broken gold strands on the thorny stem. Before she turned back to him
-he had broken off the spray and hid it in his breast.
-
-"There is not a rose," lifting regretful eyes to his face, "excepting
-this one I wear. I carelessly broke it, but it is still fresh. You are
-welcome to that, if you will have it," she said, sweetly.
-
-"If you please."
-
-She disengaged it, and put it in his hand. He retained hers a moment.
-
-"Thanks, and--good-by."
-
-"Good-by," her voice said, regretfully, then added: "Oh! Captain
-Clendenon, find him for me, if you can! Oh, try your best!"
-
-"I pledge you my word I will," he answered, "but promise me that you
-will have faith in my endeavor; that you will live in hope."
-
-"Oh! I cannot, I cannot! I feel that I can never hope again!" she
-cried, but with a brightening glance.
-
-"But you will," he answered, cheerily. "Health, and hope, and love
-will all come back to you in time. 'Hope springs eternal in the human
-breast.' God bless you, and good-by."
-
-Their hands met a moment in a strong, friendly clasp; her violet orbs
-dusk and dewy with feeling; her voice scarce audible as it quivered:
-
-"Good-by!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-"SMILING AT GRIEF."
-
- "Come, rouse thee, dearest; 'tis not well
- To let the spirit brood
- Thus darkly o'er the cares that swell
- Life's current to a flood."
-
- --MRS. DINNIES.
-
- "And if I laugh at any mortal thing,
- 'Tis that I may not weep; and if I weep,
- 'Tis that our nature cannot always bring
- Itself to apathy, which we must steep
- First in the icy depths of Lethe's spring
- Ere what we least wish to behold will sleep."
-
- --BYRON.
-
-
-"Lulu, I have come to take you for a drive," said Grace Winans, as
-she glided lightly into Miss Clendenon's sanctum, looking fair and
-fresh, and smiling, in faultless summer costume of frilled and fluted
-white muslin, and the daintiest of gray kid driving-gloves, for it is
-six months since Captain Clendenon went to Europe, and the last days
-of August are raining their burning sunshine on the sea-girt city of
-Norfolk.
-
-But Lulu's room, cool, fresh, inviting, a very bower of innocent
-maidenhood--offers an exquisite relief from the burning heat and
-general parched look of the world outside. A cool, white India matting
-covers the floor; the chairs are light graceful affairs of willow-work;
-the windows are shaded with curtains of pale green silk and lace,
-swaying softly in the faint breeze that stirs the trees outside. A
-few rare paintings adorn the creamy-hued walls--pictures of cool
-woodland dells and streams, with meek-eyed cows standing knee-deep
-in meadow grass; a charmingly romantic sketch of the Chesapeake Bay,
-and over the white, dainty-covered lounge, where Lulu is reclining
-at ease, a picture of a cross, to which a slender form, with a vail
-of sweeping hair, clings with dark, uplifted eyes that breathe the
-spirit of the inscription beneath: "Helpless to thy cross I cling."
-A vase of fragrant and beautifully arranged flowers adorns the marble
-center-table where the poems of Tennyson, Hemans, Owen Meredith, and
-all the authors, peculiarly the favorites of young ladies, are ranged
-in bindings of green and gold. Lulu, herself, lying idly with white
-arms clasped over her head, her face like a rose, her dainty white
-morning-dress loosely flowing, "a single stream of all her soft brown
-hair poured on one side," looked as if Rose, the "Gardener's Daughter"
-had stepped down out of Tennyson and laid herself down to rest.
-
-"To drive--where?" she asked, as she rose to a sitting posture, and
-"wound her looser hair in braid."
-
-"To Ocean View, to call on Mrs. Conway. My neglect of her since her
-great kindness to me in my illness is really unpardonable, so we will
-drive down this morning, make a long, informal call, stay to luncheon,
-and drive back in the cool of the afternoon."
-
-"Hum! is not nine miles a long distance to drive this warm day?" asks
-Lulu, rising and flitting into her dressing-room, the door of which
-stands open beyond.
-
-"What! Through the cool leafy arches of the woods, with the birds
-singing, the bees humming, the flowers wasting their perfume for our
-sole benefit, the spirit of summer abroad in the air--it will be
-exquisite!" Mrs. Winans answers gayly, as she floats up and down the
-room, and, pausing before a mirror, settles her broad straw hat a
-little more jauntily on her waving ringlets.
-
-"Sit down, won't you?" Lulu calls, from the dressing-room, where she is
-attiring herself in fresh white robes similar to those of Grace.
-
-"I thank you, no," she is answered back. "I am fidgety. I am
-restless--not in the mood for keeping quiet. I prefer to walk about."
-
-"Ah! Hysterical, I presume--is that it?" questions Lulu's rosy lips at
-the door, glancing at her with gently solicitous eyes.
-
-"I dare say," not pausing in her restless walk, and Lulu, looking
-closer under the light mask of gayety, reads with a sigh traces of
-unrest in the fair, proud face.
-
-It is a peculiarity of Grace's constitution or temperament that she can
-never keep still under the pressure of excitement or trouble. She is
-always in a quiver, and even when sitting down she is always rocking
-or tapping her foot, or perhaps it is only in the convulsive pressure
-of her pearly teeth on her red lips that she betrays inward unrest. I
-cannot give any psychological nor physical reason for this. I only know
-that it is so, and Lulu had found out this characteristic of Grace long
-ago.
-
-"Darling," she says, coming into the room, swinging her broad straw hat
-by its blue ribbons. "Darling, what is it that troubles you?--anything
-new?"
-
-"Anything new?" Mrs. Winans laughs, provokingly. "Lulu, dearest, is
-there anything new under the sun?"
-
-"I am certain the sun never shone on anything before as rare as
-yourself," Lulu answers, with winning affection, lifting the small,
-half-gloved hand to her tender lips.
-
-Mrs. Winans pulls it away, and dashes it across eyes that look
-suspiciously misty and dark.
-
-"Don't, Lulu, you silly child! You are always making me cry."
-
-"And I wish I could," she answers. "I am tired of this surface gayety,
-my liege lady. Oh, I am going to talk plainly! You don't mean it--I
-know how you suffer, Grace, darling, bravely as you repress it, and I
-know, too, that you would feel better if you let it all blow over in
-a great passionate storm--rain! But you won't. You have been living
-the last few months in a whirl of gayety and pretended pleasure, and
-damming up the fountain of feeling, till now it is breaking over all
-your frail barriers of pride and scorn, and you will not give it way,
-and it is bearing you on its current--where, oh! dearest, where?"
-
-"Hush!" came in a stifled moan, from behind the hands that hid the
-girlish wife's convulsed face. "You shall not talk so--I cannot bear
-it!"
-
-"But I must, love," and Lulu's arm stole around the convulsed form
-that still held itself proudly erect, as if disdaining human help and
-sympathy. "I must, and you will forgive poor Lulu, for it is her duty,
-and I must be less your devoted friend than I am if I did not speak.
-Oh, you know you are not taking the right course to procure oblivion
-of your sad and grievous troubles! It does not make you happy to whirl
-through the thoughtless rounds of society amusements and pleasures; it
-does not make you happy nor contented to dazzle men's eyes and hearts
-with your inaccessible beauty, when seas are rolling between you and
-the only man in whose eyes you care to seem fair. Darling, I know
-when you go back to your silent home your heart sinks heavier by the
-contrast; I know that when you lay this lovely head upon its pillow you
-recall, with agony, the time when your baby's cheek was pillowed there
-against your own----"
-
-"Oh, Heaven!" shuddered the listener, "be silent, Lulu. You will drive
-me mad. I cannot, cannot bear the least reference to my child! Only
-just now, as I drove up Main street in my little phaeton, taking a
-silly sort of triumph to myself at the sensation created by my pretty
-face and cream-white ponies, I met the funeral of a little child on its
-way to the cemetery--the casket was covered with lilies and roses--and,
-oh, Lulu, I thought of my own little one, and its probable fate! and,
-oh, I wished my heart would break! Why, why does not God let me die!"
-and, shivering with repressed agony, the young wife suffered Lulu to
-hold her in her close-clasped arms, while she wept and moaned on her
-breast.
-
-And Lulu, wise in her young experience, let the saving tears flow on,
-until Mrs. Winans lifted her head and said, mournfully;
-
-"Oh, Lulu, you should not reproach me for trying to fill up in some way
-the great blank in my life as best I can! I dare not brood alone over
-my vacant heart and wretched doom, for I should go mad. I must seek
-diversion, oblivion!--what would you have me do?"
-
-Lulu's brown eyes lifted to the picture that hung over the lounge.
-
-"Gracie," she said impressively, "is there no other way to fill up your
-vacant heart and life than by utter abandonment to the pleasures of the
-social world?"
-
-The listener's eyes followed hers.
-
-"'Simply to Thy cross I cling,'" she repeated listlessly.
-
-"If you must have a salve for your wounded heart," Lulu went on, as
-she toyed with the bright curls that lay against her shoulder still,
-"there is nothing on earth that so fills up vacant heart and life as
-the cross of Christ the Crucified; Gracie, do you ever pray?"
-
-"I am too wretched," she answered, hopelessly.
-
-"Too wretched! Oh, Gracie, dear friend, do you forget how in the
-darkest hours our Lord spent in the Garden of Gethsemane that, _being
-in an agony, He prayed more earnestly_? It is in hours of the deepest
-suffering that we should pray most. When we feel that earth offers
-no consolation, where can we look but to heaven? And the blessing of
-God _must_ follow such prayers, since Christ himself has set us the
-example," continued the young mentor, earnestly.
-
-"No blessings ever follow my prayers," answered the mourner, with her
-eyes fixed sadly, through a mist of tears, on the figure that clung
-"helpless" to the cross, "even when I pray, which I do--sometimes."
-
-"You do not pray in the right spirit, then," said her friend, gently
-but firmly. "You do not expect a blessing to follow your prayers, and
-we are only healed by faith, not by the simple act of prayer, but by
-the faith that breathes in it. If you asked a blessing nightly, it
-would follow prayer, be sure. Remember His promise, 'Ask and it shall
-be given you, seek and ye shall find.'"
-
-"I know, I know," answered Grace, mournfully; "but heaven and earth
-alike seem to have no mercy on me. Come, Lulu, my little ponies
-are impatient waiting so long," and pausing a moment to bathe her
-tear-stained face in a basin of perfumed water, she floated down the
-stairs, followed by the sweet little preacher.
-
-"Now, then," with a forced laugh, as they disposed the elegant blue
-silk carriage-robe over their white dresses to keep out the summer
-dust, and dashed off in the exquisite little phaeton that was the envy
-of all Norfolk; "now, then, we are off like the wind for Ocean View."
-
-She was a skillful driver, and the beautiful, spirited little ponies
-knew no law but her will. They flew like the wind, as she had said;
-but as they rode on out of the narrow streets of Norfolk, and into
-the cool, shady forest road, the sunshine glinting down through
-interstices of the trees, the leafy boughs bending till they swept
-against the brims of their broad straw hats--in the midst of all her
-idle and incessant chatter, she heard one low sentence ringing in her
-ears, and an involuntary prayer was rising in her heart: "Lord, teach
-me to feel that simply to Thy cross I cling." She had been too proud
-almost to humble herself even before the throne of God; she had felt
-that God himself was unjust to her, and willful and wretched, she had
-gone on her darkened way, asking no pity from God nor man. To-day, the
-kind words of Lulu had stirred a chord in her thoughtful heart that
-vibrated painfully as the question forced itself on her mind: "Have I
-been unjust to and neglectful of my God?" In a mind so pure and clearly
-balanced as was hers, the seeds of evil could not take very deep root,
-and the word spoken "in season" by the gentle Lulu was beginning to
-bear fruit already, though Lulu dreamed not of it, as she kept time
-with the stream of light and careless words her companion unceasingly
-kept up.
-
-"Let me drive," she said, at last, noting the unwonted rose-tint that
-colored the fair cheek, and thinking it was the effect of fatigue; "you
-have been driving nearly an hour, and it will be another hour before
-we see Ocean View," and taking the reins with gentle force, drove on;
-while the other, relieving her fair hands of their damp driving-gloves,
-folded them across her lap, and laying back her head, gave herself
-up to mournful retrospection, watching the blue heavens smiling over
-their heads, the play of the sunshine on the leaves and flowers as
-they flashed past, and the transient glimpses of the sea now and then
-glimmering through openings in the woods. Lulu's gaze dwelt pityingly
-on the fair face that looked so child-like as it lay back against the
-silken cushioning of the phaeton, the long black lashes shading the
-flushed cheek, the golden locks, moist with the warmth of the day,
-clustering in short, spiral rings all about the pearl-fair forehead,
-whose blue veins were so distinctly outlined that Lulu could see how
-they throbbed with the intensity of her thoughts. There was so much
-fire and spirit, combined with sweetness in that face; its exquisite
-chiseling, its full yet delicate lips, its round, dimpled chin, the
-small, sensitive nostril, the perfection of dainty coloring and
-expression, that Lulu could well understand how this beauty, joined to
-so sweet a soul, could hold men willing captives, and at thought of her
-brother, Lulu sighed deeply, and to shake off the depression that was
-creeping over her, she said, gayly:
-
-"A penny for your thoughts, lady fair."
-
-The black lashes fluttered upward, and the pansy eyes met Lulu's own
-with such impotent anguish in their soft depths that the girl started.
-
-"Darling, what can you possibly be thinking of?"
-
-"Of nothing that need alarm you, my dearest," answered Grace, summoning
-a smile to her lips as she said, "and here we are at last at Ocean
-View."
-
-"And there is John to take the horses," jumping lightly out, and
-shaking her tumbled skirts. "Is Mrs. Conway at home, John?"
-
-"Ya'as'm, ole miss is at home," answered John, with a grin of delight,
-as the fairy idol of the Conway retainers sprang lightly out, and
-stood looking listlessly about her, nodding graciously to John as she
-followed Lulu's example by shaking out her innumerable white frills and
-embroideries, and leading the way to the house.
-
-"Clar to gracious!" John said, looking open-mouthed after them, "if she
-don't grow mo' angelical every day of her life! Shouldn't wonder if she
-took wings any day and flew away to heben. T'other's pretty enough for
-anything, but _she_--oh! _she's_ a fitter mate for de _President_!"
-
-With which compliment he led away the ponies for food and water.
-
-Mrs. Conway was charmed at the arrival of her two favorites.
-
-"Just thinking of you both," she said, in her graceful way. "Talk of
-angels and you'll see their wings."
-
-The young ladies pleasantly returned the compliment as they refreshed
-themselves with the iced wine and sponge cake she had ordered for them
-immediately after their long and tiresome drive.
-
-"And, indeed, Grace," she said, with some concern, "you do not look
-as well as you should be doing by this time--really seem harassed
-and worn. I am afraid you are too gay. I hear so frequently of your
-appearance in social gatherings and society in general, that I hope
-you are not overtaxing your strength."
-
-"I think not," Mrs. Winans answered, with her grave, sweet dignity. "My
-constitution is superb, you know."
-
-"I should say it was," Mrs. Conway said, "after all it survived in
-Washington. Still you are not looking over strong now. Your drive in
-the warm sun has wearied you. Won't you go up to your old room and lie
-down to rest?"
-
-"No, thank you; I am feeling very well;" and Lulu, seeing the rapid
-flutter of Grace's fan, knew she was getting excited and nervous,
-and interposed with some trifling remark that diverted the attention
-of their amiable hostess, who remembered then to ask when Captain
-Clendenon had written, and how he was progressing in his mission abroad.
-
-"He writes hopefully," Lulu answered, checking a sigh; "has nothing
-definite, but still keeps on with the search, which he thinks must at
-last be crowned with success."
-
-"Let us hope so," Mrs. Conway said, fervently.
-
-Presently our old friend, Bruce, saunters in, handsome, perfumed,
-elegant as ever. He bows low to Mrs. Winans, offers a light
-congratulation on her improving health, and shakes hands with Lulu,
-who is blushing "celestial rosy red," for she has not seen him for a
-month before, and her fluttering pulses move unsteadily, her whole
-frame quivers with subdued ecstasy. Oh! love, conquerer of all hearts,
-whether high or lowly, what a passionate, blissful pain thou art!
-
-"And you had the energy to drive out here this sweltering day?" in
-subdued surprise he queries.
-
-"Yes, giving Mrs. Winans the credit of planning the trip--her energy is
-untiring in creating pleasurable surprises for my benefit."
-
-Grace turns aside from her chatter with her hostess to acknowledge the
-compliment with a passing, fond smile on her favorite.
-
-"If I remember rightly," Mr. Conway bows slightly toward her, "Mrs.
-Winans has always had a quiet fund of energy in her composition that is
-a reproach to many who are stronger physically, but, alas! weaker in
-mental gifts. I am, unfortunately, Miss Lulu, one of those unstable
-ones who shall not excel in anything."
-
-Mrs. Winans never glances that way. She holds her small head high, her
-underlying pride never more noticeable than now as she goes on talking
-with Mrs. Conway, languidly fanning herself the while.
-
-Is memory busy at her heart? We think not, or if it is she would not
-go back to those happy, idly dreaming hours this spot recalls could
-they bestow all the happiness they promised then, and denied her. So
-often in our maturer experience we see the wisdom of God in withholding
-gifts we craved, whose attainment could but disappoint expectation and
-anticipation.
-
-Bruce Conway would make Lulu, with her loving capacity of twisting
-love's garlands over wanting capabilities, a very happy wife--he never
-could have quite filled up the illimitable depths of Grace's heart, nor
-crowned her life with the fullness of content.
-
-"Will you go to see our flowers?" he asks, bending to Lulu with one of
-his rarely sweet smiles. "You favor my aunt so seldom in this way that
-I must needs do the honors in as great perfection as is possible to
-me--one never expects any great quota of perfection from my indolence,
-you know."
-
-She smiles as she dons again the broad straw hat that, by Mrs. Conway's
-request, she has laid aside, and rises to go.
-
-He rises, too--oh, how peerless in her eyes, in his suit of cool white
-linen, and his graceful indolence.
-
-"I am going to rifle your flower-garden of its sweets, Mrs. Conway,"
-she says, lightly, as she follows him out on the broad piazza, down the
-steps, and into that exquisite garden that lay budding and glowing in
-the burning August sunshine.
-
- "Ah, life is sweet when life is young,
- And life and love are both so long!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-"TO BE, OR NOT TO BE."
-
- Ah, me! what matter? The world goes round.
- And bliss and bale are but outside things;
- I never can lose what in him I found,
- Though love be sorrow with half-grown wings;
- And if love flies when we are young,
- Why life is still not long--not long.
-
- --MISS MULOCH.
-
-
-"It has been almost a month since I saw you," Conway says, drawing the
-small hand of Lulu within his arm as they saunter down a shady path
-where the crape myrtle boughs meet over their heads, showering pink
-blossoms in prodigal sweetness beneath their feet.
-
-No answer. She is looking ahead at a little bird hopping timidly about
-the path, and only turns to him when he goes on pathetically:
-
-"I have missed you so much."
-
-"You know where I lived," she answers, dryly.
-
-An amused smile outlines itself around the corners of his handsome
-mouth.
-
-"So you think it is solely my own fault that I have missed you--have
-not seen you. Well, perhaps it is--yet----"
-
-"Yet what?"
-
-"Oh, nothing--it does not matter."
-
-"No, I suppose not," she responds, a little scornfully. "Nothing seems
-to matter much to you, Mr. Conway. I believe you have found the fabled
-Lotos. It would suit you, and such as you,
-
- "In the hollow Lotos land to live and lie reclined
- On the hills like gods together, careless of mankind."
-
-"Whew! since when has my little Brownie learned to be sarcastic?" he
-queries, in genuine astonishment, trying to look into her face, but it
-is turned away from him, and she is idly stripping the thorns from the
-stem of a rose she has just broken. Ah! if she could only as easily
-eradicate the thorns that rankle in her gentle heart!
-
-"Why don't you talk to me?" he says, pettishly.
-
-"And have I not been talking?" turning an innocent, unconscious face
-toward him, a piquant smile on her lips.
-
-"I know, but without taking any interest," he says, in an injured tone.
-"Don't you care to talk? Are you weary of me?"
-
-"Weary of you!" she laughs. "Ah! that gives me a pretext to quote
-poetry to you," and she repeats, with a very faint tremor in her voice,
-the delicious lines of Mrs. Osgood:
-
- "Weary of you! I should weary as soon
- Of a fountain playing its low lute tune,
- With its mellow contralto lapsing in
- Like a message of love through this worldly din."
-
-He looks down into the faintly flushed face with a light, triumphant
-smile she does not see. He knows as well, and better than herself, how
-much she means the poetry that she has repeated in that light, jesting
-tone.
-
-"Thank you," he answers only. "I wish I could think you meant it."
-
-She stoops suddenly and breaks off a half-dozen great purplish velvet
-pansies from a bed on the side of the patch, and puts them into his
-hands.
-
-"'There's pansies--that's for thoughts,'" she says, gayly. "Think what
-you will."
-
-"May I think that you love me?" he queries, audaciously, as only Bruce
-Conway can do.
-
-"I have said think what you will," she answers, growing suddenly
-crimson. "But why are you throwing my pansies away?"
-
-A faint flush crimsons his fair forehead, too. Their eyes look at each
-other as he answers:
-
-"I--I do not like pansies; they are too sad. Sometimes when I stroll
-down this path with my morning cigar, Lu, they look up at me bathed in
-glittering dew, and--I am not romantic, child, but they always remind
-me of blue eyes swimming in tears."
-
-"They always remind me of the velvet darkness of Grace Winans' eyes,"
-she says, meditatively.
-
-"'There's _rue_!'" he says, and is suddenly silent. The little,
-irresistible feminine shaft has struck home.
-
-He looks down at the flickering sunshine lying in spots on the graveled
-path, and reflects on the acute perceptions of woman--this little
-woman--in particular. She sees his pain, and is sorry.
-
-"I wonder"--stirring up a little drift of pink blossoms on the path
-with the tip of her small slippered foot--"I wonder if all our
-life-path is to be flower-strewn!"
-
-A light flashes into his handsome dark eyes as he clasps in his the
-small hand lying within his arm.
-
-"Lulu dearest," he murmurs, "if you will promise to walk hand in hand
-with me through life, your path shall be strewn with all the flowers
-love's sunshine can warm into life."
-
-A shiver thrills her from head to foot; the blue heavens darken above
-her head; the warm and fragrant air that rushes down the myrtle avenue
-sickens her almost to fainting. Passionate bliss is always closely
-allied to passionate pain.
-
-"'To be, or not to be!'" he questions softly, bending over the drooping
-form, though he feels very sure in his heart what the answer will be.
-
-She is silent, leaning more heavily on his arm, her face growing white
-and mournful.
-
-"Dear, am I to take silence for consent?" he persists, as though
-talking to a petulant child who is going to yield, he knows. "I asked
-you is it to be or not to be?"
-
-"_Not._"
-
-She outdoes his usual laconics in this specimen of brevity. It is fully
-a minute before he recovers from his astonishment enough to laugh:
-
-"Don't jest with me, Lulu, I am in earnest."
-
-"So am I."
-
-For answer he lifts her face and scrutinizes it closely. The soft gaze
-meets his--half-happy, half-grieved--like a doubtful child's.
-
-"You are not in earnest, Lulu. You do love me--you will be my wife?"
-
-"I cannot."
-
-He stops still under a tall myrtle and puts his arm around her slim,
-girlish waist.
-
-"Brownie, willful, teasing little fairy that you are--you cannot, you
-will not deny that you love me--can you, honestly, now?"
-
-"I have not denied it--have I?" her gaze falling before his.
-
-"Not in so many words, perhaps; but you refuse to be my wife--if you
-loved me, how could you?"
-
-"If I loved you I would still refuse."
-
-"Brownie, _why_?"
-
-"Because----"
-
-"That is a woman's reason. Give me a better one."
-
-"How can I, a woman, give you a better one?" she answers, evasively,
-tilting the brim of her hat a little further over her face. She does
-not want him to see the white and red flushes hotly coming and going.
-
-"Because a better one is due me," he persists, his earnestness
-strengthened by her refusal. "Surely, a man, when he lays his heart,
-and hand, and fortune at a lady's feet, deserves a better reason for
-his refusal than '_because_.'"
-
-Her cheek dimples archly a moment, but she brightens as she says,
-almost inaudibly:
-
-"Well, then, it is because you do not love me."
-
-"Lulu, silly child, why should I ask you to be my wife then? I do love
-you--as love goes nowadays--fondly and truly."
-
-"Ah! that is it," she cries, bitterly, "as love goes nowadays--and I do
-not want such love--my heart, where it loves, resigns its whole ardent
-being, and it will not take less in return."
-
-"And have I offered you less?"--reproachfully this.
-
-She nods in silence.
-
-"Lulu, dear, unreasonable child that you are--why do you think that I
-do not love you? Be candid with me and let us understand one another. I
-will not be offended at anything you say to me."
-
-"Nothing?"
-
-"Nothing! If you can show just cause why and wherefore such a thing as
-my not loving you can be, I surely cannot be offended."
-
-"I know you love me a little," she returns, trying hard to speak
-lightly and calmly, "but I also know, dear Bruce, that your heart, it
-may be unconsciously to yourself, still retains too much of its old
-feeling for one I need not name, for you to love me as I should like to
-be loved. Understand that I am not blaming you for this, but you know
-in your heart, Bruce, that were she free, and would she listen to your
-suit, you would not look twice at poor me."
-
-Another home-thrust! He stands fire like a soldier, rallies, and meets
-her with another shot.
-
-"This from you, Lulu! I did not think it in you to twit me with loving
-another man's wife!"
-
-"I did not mean it that way," she answers, flushed and imploringly.
-"I meant--only meant to show you, Bruce, that I could not--oh! that I
-cared too much for you to be happy with you unless your love was strong
-and deep as mine."
-
-"I did not think you could be so jealous and exacting, child."
-
-"I am not jealous nor exacting. I am only true to my woman's nature,"
-she answers, sweetly and firmly.
-
-"Nonsense!" he answers, brusquely, "let all that pass--I do love you,
-Brownie, not as I loved her, I own it. But you are so sweet and lovable
-that it will be easy for you to fill up my heart, to the exclusion of
-all other past love. Try it and see, dear. Promise me that you will
-give yourself to me."
-
-"I cannot."
-
-"Is that final?"
-
-"Final!" she gasped, as white as her dress, and leaning unwillingly
-against his shoulder.
-
-"Why, Brownie, child, dearest, look up--heavens! she is fainting,"
-cried Bruce, and taking her in his arms, he ran into a little pavilion
-near by, and laying her down on the low, rustic bench within, opened
-the gold-stoppered bottle of salts that swung by a golden chain to her
-belt, and applied it to her nostrils.
-
-She struggled up to a sitting posture and drew a long breath, while
-tears rolled over her cheeks. Both lily white hands were uplifted to
-prevent another application of the pungent salts.
-
-"Don't please," she said, "you are taking away all the breath I have
-left."
-
-"You deserve some such punishment for your cruelty to me," he retorts,
-in a very good humor with himself and her, for he feels he has done his
-duty in his second love affair, and if she will not marry him, why that
-is her own affair, and he cheerfully swallows his chagrin, and also a
-spice of genuine regret as he smiles down at her.
-
-"I am going back, if you please." She steps out of the pavilion while
-speaking, and he attends her. As they walk silently on he gathers a
-flower here and there, the rarest that blow in the garden, and putting
-them together they grow into a graceful bouquet before they reach
-the house. Then he presents it with the kindest of smiles and quite
-ignoring the unkind cut she has given his vanity.
-
-She takes it, thanks him, and notes with quick eyes that no roses, no
-white ones at least, nor pansies are there--those flowers are sacred to
-memory, or, perchance, remorse.
-
-"We may be friends at least?" he queries, trying to look into the eyes
-that meet his unwillingly. And "always, I hope," she answers, as they
-reach the piazza steps.
-
-Mrs. Winans is at the piano singing for her hostess. A dumb agony
-settles down on Lulu's racked heart as the rich, sweetly trained voice
-floats out to them as they ascend the steps, blending its music with
-the deep melancholy notes of old ocean in the plaintive words of an old
-song that is a favorite of Mrs. Conway's:
-
- "Oh! never name departed days,
- Nor vows you whispered then,
- O'er which too sad a feeling plays
- To trust their tones again.
- Regard their shadows round you cast
- As if we ne'er had met--
- And thus, unmindful of the past,
- We may be happy yet."
-
-"Let us take that for an augury, little one," he says, cheerfully; "'we
-may be happy yet.'"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-"OTHER REFUGE HAVE I NONE."
-
- "There's a stone--the Asbestos--that flung in the flame,
- Unsullied comes forth with a color more sure--
- Thus shall virtue, the victim of sorrow and shame,
- Refined by the trial, forever endure." --OSGOOD.
-
-
-Mrs. Winans sat in her dressing-room before the mirror in the softest
-of easy-chairs, the daintiest of dressing-gowns, under the skillful
-hands of Norah, whom she had retained as her personal attendant.
-
-It was a chilly night in November, but a soft warmth pervaded the
-rooms, which were heated by Latrobe stoves in the basement of the
-house, and the light, and fragrance, and beauty within seemed even more
-delightful by contrast with the cold winds that whistled sharply and
-sullenly without. A look of sadness was noticeable on Norah's rosy face
-as with gentle touches she brushed out the long curls of Grace's hair
-that crinkled and waved in spite of all effort to straighten it.
-
-"Norah," Mrs. Winans had said, a moment before, "it is the fifteenth
-day of November--do you recollect? Little Paul--dear little baby--is
-two years old to-night."
-
-"And sure did I not recollect?" answered Norah, brushing away a
-quick-starting tear; "but did not speak of it to you hoping it had
-escaped your own memory."
-
-"As if I could forget," murmured Grace, looking down, and beginning to
-slip the diamond ring that blazed on her taper finger nervously off and
-on; "as if I could forget."
-
-"'Tis so strange he can't be found," mused Norah, keeping time to her
-words with the brush that she was plying on that lovely hair, "and
-such a great reward offered by his father for his restoration--forty
-thousand dollars--why that's a fortune itself. Mrs. Winans, have you
-heard nothing of the matter lately?"
-
-"Miss Clendenon received a letter from her brother yesterday--she came
-around to tell me this morning--in which he stated there was positively
-not the slightest cue yet. The supposition is that--oh, Norah, think of
-it!--is that my little boy is _dead_. Captain Clendenon is coming home
-by Christmas--he has been in Europe ever since February, now, and even
-he, hopeful as he was, has given up the search in vain!"
-
-"And your husband, ma'am? Has he also given up the search? Is he, too,
-coming home?" asked Norah, cautiously.
-
-"He has put the whole affair in the hands of skillful detectives to
-be kept up six months longer; then if unsuccessful to be abandoned as
-hopeless. Captain Clendenon has the management of his business affairs,
-and will take charge of this as of the others. Senator Winans himself,
-Norah, has gone over to Paris--to France."
-
-"To France?" Norah echoes in surprise, "why there is a war there--the
-French are fighting the Dutch."
-
-"Yes, there is a war there," comes the low reply, "my husband is
-by birth a Louisianian, Norah, and partly, I believe, of French
-extraction--his whole sympathies are with that nation. He has joined
-the French army and is gone to fight the Germans--ah! there goes my
-ring--pick it up, Norah. It has rolled away under the sofa."
-
-Norah obeys and in silence replaces the ring on the little hand that in
-spite of the warmth pervading the room is cold and icy as she takes it
-in hers.
-
-"You are nervous," she ventures to say, watching the still, impassive
-face, "will you take some valerian, wine, or something?"
-
-"Nothing, Norah," but, all the same, Norah goes out and comes back with
-a silver salver holding a small Venetian goblet of ruby wine.
-
-"Just a few drops," she urges with loving voice, and touching the glass
-to the pale lips.
-
-"I think you always take your own way, Norah," her mistress answers, as
-she takes the goblet and drains it obediently. "Now, finish my hair,
-please, and you can go. It is almost eleven o'clock."
-
-Silently Norah obeys, gathering up the shining mass in her hands, and
-twisting it into a burnished coil at the back of the small head where
-she confines it with a diminutive silver comb. Then with a wistful
-sigh, and pitying backward glance, she says good-night and Grace is
-left alone.
-
-Alone! how cruelly alone! All her life-time now it seems to her she
-will be thus solitary. She leans her small head back, and stares
-vacantly at the face whose wondrous beauty is reflected there in the
-mirror, and a light scornful smile curves her lips as she thinks:
-
- "Is this the form--
- That won his praise night and morn?
- She thought: my spirit is here alone,
- Walks forgotten, and is forlorn."
-
-Rising suddenly she threw up the window and looked out into the night.
-A gust of cold wind and rain blew into her face. She faced it a moment,
-then, shutting down the window and dropping the crimson curtains
-together, passed into her sleeping apartment. But she could not rest.
-Her downy pillows might have been a bed of thorns. She rose, and
-gliding across the floor and, pausing one moment in grave irresolution,
-put her hand on the sliding door of the adjoining nursery, pushed it
-open and entered by the light that streamed from her own apartment.
-
-All was still and silent here. Shadows lay on everything as heavy as
-those that clouded her life. She stood gazing mutely around her for an
-instant; then, with a low, smothered sob of agony, rushed forward, and
-pushing up the sweeping Valenciennes canopy of the rosewood crib that
-stood in the center of the room, buried her face in the small pillow
-that still held the impress of a baby's head.
-
-Then silence fell. Some women carry beneath a calm, perhaps smiling,
-face, a deeper pain than was ever clothed in words or tears. The
-acme of human suffering crushes, paralyzes some hearts into terrible
-silence. It was thus with Grace. Her sorrow had sunk to the bottom of
-the sea of anguish, so deep that not a ripple on the surface, not a
-sparkling drop, leaped up to show where it fell.
-
-Ten, fifteen, twenty minutes went by. She lifted her face at last--as
-white and chill as that of the dead, but lighted by
-
- "Melancholy eyes divine,
- The home of woe without a tear."
-
-She comes to this room as to a grave. Over the grave of the child of
-her heart she may never kneel. She fancies it in her mind sometimes
-away off under foreign skies, lying in the shadow of some frowning
-English church, with not a flower on its low mound, unless Nature, more
-loving than cold humanity, has dropped it there like a jewel in the
-grass. She sees the sunshine lying on it in the quiet days, hears the
-birds--the only thing that ever sings in a graveyard--warbling matin
-songs and vesper hymns in the ivy that clings to the imaginary old
-church. _There_ she may never kneel--here are gathered all her simple
-mementoes of him--
-
- "Playthings upon the carpet,
- And dainty little shoes--
- With snow-white caps and dresses
- That seem too fair to use."
-
-There is the crib where she has watched his rosy slumbers; there in
-the corner is the little bathing-tub where she has seen the dimpled
-struggling limbs flashing through the diamond spray of cold water,
-like polished marbles; there upon the wall, smiling down at her in its
-infantile beauty and joy, hangs the pictured semblance of the face that
-her foreboding heart whispers to her is moldering into kindred dust
-beneath the coffin-lid. This room is to her alike a shrine and a grave.
-
-How it rains!
-
-In the dead, unhappy night, when the rain is on the roof, with what
-vivid distinctness does memory recall scenes and hopes that are past.
-Poor Grace hears the winds and the rain as they hold their midnight
-revels outside, and shudders as the thronging ghosts of memory flit by.
-Her brief and exquisite wedded happiness, her love for the dark-eyed
-husband who has wronged her so cruelly--she shudders and tries to put
-these thoughts away.
-
-But she cannot. She has tried before. So long as her child was left,
-with "baby fingers" to "press him from the mother's breast," she had
-tried to put her husband away from her heart; tried to be content
-with his darling little prototype; tried with all the strength of her
-resolute young soul to crush her love for him. But there are some
-things that the strongest and bravest of us cannot do. Love is "beyond
-us all;" the battle is not always to the strong; success does not
-always crown the bravest efforts. It is something to know that they who
-fail are sometimes braver than they who succeed.
-
-Now, when the little child that was such a darling comfort to her sad,
-lonely life is so rudely wrested from that yearning heart, her thoughts
-irresistibly center about the father of her child. She had loved her
-baby best--the maternal love was more deeply developed in her than the
-conjugal--but even then her husband had been blessed with a fervent,
-tender worship that is the overflow of only such deep, strong natures
-as hers--natures prodigal of sweetness. Latterly, when the terrible
-news that he had six months before joined the army of France had come
-to her with all its terrible possibilities, she had only begun to
-fathom the depths of her unsounded love for him. It amazed herself--she
-put it from her with angry pain, and rushed into the whirl of social
-life to keep herself from thinking; wore the mask of smiles above her
-pain, and sunned herself in the light of admiring eyes, but though
-fashion and pride and station bowed low to the Senator's deserted
-wife, acknowledging her calm supremacy still, though sympathy and
-curiosity--(softly be it spoken) met her with open arms, though the
-wine-cup circled in the gay and brilliant coterie, it held no Lethean
-draught for her, and weary and heart-sick she turned from it all, and
-sought oblivion in the seclusion of home, and the ever welcome company
-of cheerful Lulu Clendenon. But her heart would not be satisfied thus.
-Failing in its earthly love and hope, true to itself through all her
-mistakes and follies, the heaven-born soul yearned for more than all
-this to fill up its aching vacancy, for more than all this to bind
-round the tortured heart and keep it from breaking.
-
-"Where shall I turn?" she asked herself, as with folded arms she paced
-the floor with rapid steps, keeping time to the falling rain outside
-that poured in swift torrents as "though the heart of heaven were
-breaking in tears o'er the fallen earth." Human love, human ties seemed
-lost to her, earth offered no refuge from her suffering. Poor, wronged,
-and tortured young spirit, "breathing in bondage but to bear the ills
-she never wrought"--where could she turn but to Him who pours the oil
-of comfort on wounds that in His strange providence may grow to be
-"blessings in disguise?"
-
-She paused in the middle of the floor, lifting her eyes mournfully
-upward, half-clasping her hands, wavered an instant, then falling on
-her knees, lifted reverent hands and eyes, while from her lips broke
-the humble rhymic prayer:
-
- "Other refuge have I none,
- Helpless to Thy cross I cling;
- Cover my defenseless head
- With the shadow of Thy wing."
-
-Surely, if "He giveth his angels charge concerning us," that pure,
-heart-wrung petition floated upward on wings seraphic.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-A NEW YEAR'S GIFT.
-
- "And why, if we must part, Lulu!
- Why let me love you so?
- Nay, waste no more your sweet farewells,
- I _cannot_ let you go--
- Not let you go, Lulu!
- I cannot let you go!" --MRS. OSGOOD.
-
-
-On the following Christmas morning Mrs. Clendenon, Mrs. Winans and
-Lulu, together with the returned captain, all attended divine service
-at the Protestant Episcopal Church.
-
-It seems strange how many of us become recognized members of the Church
-of Christ under religious conviction, without ever having any great and
-realizing sense of the saving power of God, not only in the matter of
-the world beyond, but in the limitless power of sustaining us among the
-trials of this.
-
-This had been peculiarly the case with our heroine. She had for
-years been a member of the Episcopal Church, and, as the world goes,
-a dutiful member. But religion had been to her mind too much in the
-abstract, too much a thing above and beyond her to be taken into her
-daily life in the part of a comforter and sustainer. She had gone to
-the world for consolation in the hour of her trial. It had failed her.
-To-day as the glorious old "Te Deum" rose and soared grandly through
-the arches of the temple of worship, filling her soul with sublime
-pathos, she began to see how He, who had dimly held to her the place
-of a Saviour in the world beyond, is an ever-present Comforter and
-sustainer in the fateful Gethsemane of this probationary earth.
-
-Captain Clendenon, as he sat by her side and heard the low, musical
-voice as it uttered the prayerful responses to the Litany, thought
-her but little lower than the angels. She in her deep and newly
-roused humility felt herself scarcely worthy to take the name of a
-long misunderstood Saviour on her lips. Few of the congregation who
-commented, on dispersing, relative to the pearl-fair beauty and elegant
-apparel of the Senator's deserted wife, fathomed the feelings that
-throbbed tumultuously beneath that pale calm bearing as they left the
-sacred edifice.
-
-"Lulu," she queried later, as up in the young lady's dressing-room they
-had laid aside their warm wrappings and furs. "Lulu, what do you do for
-Christ?"
-
-Lulu turned about in some surprise:
-
-"What do I do for Christ?" she repeated. "Oh, Gracie, too little, I
-fear."
-
-"'Tell me," she persisted.
-
-"Well, then, I have my Sabbath-school class, my list of Christ's poor,
-whom I visit and aid to the best of my ability, my missionary fund, and
-finally, Gracie, dearest, whatever my hand 'findeth to do,' I try to do
-with all my might."
-
-Gracie stood still, twisting one of the long curls that swept to her
-waist over one diamond-ringed white finger.
-
-"Darling, why do you ask?" Lulu said, with her arm about the other's
-waist.
-
-The fair cheek nestled confidingly against Lulu's own.
-
-"I want to help you, if you will let me--let me go with you on your
-errands for Christ. I belong to the world no longer. Show me how to
-fill up the measure of my days with prayerful work for the Master."
-
-One pearly drop from Lulu's eyes fell down on the golden head that had
-pillowed itself on her breast.
-
-"God, I thank Thee," she murmured, "that there is joy in heaven to-day
-over the lamb that has come into the fold."
-
-She whispered it to Brother Willie that day at a far corner of the
-parlor when they happened to be alone for a moment together.
-
-He glanced across at the slender, stately figure standing at the window
-between the falling lace curtains, looking wistfully out.
-
-"It is natural," he said. "A nature so pure, so strong, so devotional
-as hers must needs have more than the world can give to satisfy its
-immortal cravings. Poor girl! she is passing through the fire of
-affliction. Let us thank God that she is coming out _pure gold_."
-
-After awhile, when Lulu had slipped from the room, leaving them
-alone together, he crossed over to her side, and began telling her
-of his experiences and adventures abroad. She listened, pleased and
-interested, soothed by his kind, almost brotherly tone.
-
-"You do not ask me after Winans," said he, playfully, at last.
-
-She did not answer, save by a heightened flush.
-
-"You did not know that through his reckless bravery, his gentleness and
-humanity to his men, he has risen to the rank of general in the army of
-France?" A soldierly flash in the clear gray eyes.
-
-"Yes," she answered in a low voice; "I have seen it in the newspapers."
-
-"You have? Then you have seen also that he----"
-
-He paused, looking down at her quiet face in some perplexity and doubt.
-
-"That he--what?" she asked, looking up at him, and growing slightly
-pale.
-
-"I do not know how to tell you, if you do not know," his eyes, full of
-grave compassion, fixed on hers.
-
-One of her small hands groped blindly out, and clung firmly to his arm.
-
-"Captain Clendenon, I know that the Franco-Prussian war is ended. Is
-that what you mean? Is he--my husband--is he coming home--to America?"
-
-She read in his eyes the negative she felt she could not speak.
-
-"Tell me," she said, desperately, "if he is not coming home, what is
-it? I am braver than you think. I can bear a great deal. Is he--is
-he--_dead_?"
-
-"May God have mercy on your poor, tired little soul," he answered,
-solemnly. "It is more than we know. In the last great battle, General
-Winans was wounded near unto death, and left on the field. When search
-was made for him he was not found. Whatever his fate was--whether he
-was buried, unshrouded and uncoffined, like many of those poor fellows,
-in an unknown grave, or whether an unknown fate met him, is as yet
-uncertain. We hope for the best while we fear the worst."
-
-One hand still lay on his coat-sleeve--the other one followed it,
-clasped itself over it, and she laid her white face down upon them,
-creeping closer to him as if to shield herself against his strong, true
-heart from the storms that beat on her frail woman-life. One moment he
-felt the wild throb of her agonized heart against his own; then all was
-still. Lifting the lifeless form on his arm, he laid it on a sofa and
-called to Lulu:
-
-"I had to tell her!" he exclaimed. "She did not bear it as well as we
-hoped. I am afraid I have killed her."
-
-Ah! grief seldom kills. If it did, this fair world would not have so
-many of us striving, busy atoms struggling for its possession.
-
-She came back to life again, lying still and white in Lulu's loving
-arms. Captain Clendenon and his mother went out and left them together.
-They would not intrude on the sore heart whose wound they could not
-heal.
-
-"After all we can hope still," Lulu said, cheerily. "All is uncertainty
-and mere conjecture. We can still hope on, until something more
-definite is known."
-
-"Hope," repeated the listener, mournfully.
-
-"Hope, yes," was the firm reply. "Hope and pray. One of Brother
-Willie's favorite maxims is that hope springs eternal in the human
-breast!"
-
-"I can bear it," came softly from the other. "I have borne so much, I
-can still endure. With God's help I will be patient under all."
-
-"Whom He loveth He chasteneth," answered Lulu.
-
- * * * * *
-
-When New Year's Day came with its social gayeties, receptions, and
-friendly calls, one of Lulu's latest and most surprising visits was
-from our old friend, Bruce Conway. He had not called on her for a long
-time, and she had heard that he was in Washington. The warm blood
-suffused her face as she stood alone in the parlor, with his card in
-her hand, and it grew rosier as he entered, and with his inimitable,
-indolent grace, paid the compliments of the season.
-
-"You do not ask me where I have been these many days," he said, as he
-sipped the steaming mocha she offered him in the daintiest of China
-cups. She never offered her friends wine.
-
-"I had heard that you were in Washington," she answered, apologetically.
-
-"Right--and what was I doing there? Can you undertake to guess?"
-
-"I am sure it is beyond me." This with her most languid air. "Flirting,
-perhaps."
-
-A light smile curves his mustached lip. Certainly this little beauty,
-he thinks, is "good at guessing."
-
-"Have your callers been many to-day?" he asked.
-
-"Quite a number of my friends have called--all, I think. I expect no
-more this evening," she answers, demurely.
-
-"I am glad of that. I shall have you all to myself, Lulu--willful,
-indifferent still, since you will not ask my object in Washington, I
-will e'en tell you anyhow."
-
-"Go on--I am listening."
-
-Putting down the cup he had finished, he seated himself on the sofa by
-her side, good-humoredly taking no notice of the fact that she moved a
-little farther away from him.
-
-"How pretty you are looking, _ma belle_. Your blue silk is the
-loveliest shade--so becoming; your laces exquisite. Scarlet geraniums
-in your hair--ah! Lulu, for whose sake?"
-
-"Not for yours," she flashes, with a hot remembrance that he has always
-liked her in scarlet geraniums.
-
-A slow smile dawns in his eyes--his lips keep their pretense of gravity.
-
- "Her hair is braided not for me,
- Her eye is turned away."
-
-he begins to hum.
-
-"All this is not telling me what mischief you were at in Washington?"
-she interrupts.
-
-"Oh," trying to look demure, but woefully failing, "no mischief at
-all--only paying off old scores--spoiling Fontenay's fun for him as he
-did for me last winter.
-
- "Satan finds some mischief still
- For idle hands to do."
-
-"Miss Clendenon, you are hard on a poor follow. Why don't you ask _her_
-name; if she is pretty; if she is in the 'set;' if she is rich; and so
-on, _ad infinitum_?"
-
-"I hardly care to know," she answers, with pretty unconcern.
-
-"Hardly care to know--now, really? I shall tell you anyhow. Well, she
-is an heiress; is pretty; in her second Washington season; father in
-the banking business, and Fontenay, despairing of winning you, has
-transferred his 'young affections' to her. She rather likes him--will
-marry him, perhaps, but then----"
-
-"But then?"
-
-"She likes me, too, and I have teased the gallant captain considerably.
-Oh, the drives I have had with the fair Cordelia, the gas-light
-flirtations; the morning strolls to the capitol; the art-gallery;
-everywhere, in short, where you went with the major. I am not sure but
-she would throw him over for me altogether."
-
-Her heart sinks within her. Has his fickle love turned from her so soon
-to this "fair Cordelia?" Better so, perhaps, for her in the end; but
-now--oh! she has never loved him so well as at this moment, sitting
-beside her in his dusk patrician beauty, with a certain odd earnestness
-underlying his flippant manner.
-
-"Mrs. Conway is well, I hope?" she says, to change that painful
-conversation.
-
-"Is well?--yes, and misses you amid the gay scenes of the capital. What
-have _you_ been doing secluded here in your quiet home, little saint?"
-
-"Oh! nothing particularly."
-
-"You have not been falling in love, have you?"
-
-"Why?" with an irrepressible blush.
-
-"I wanted to know--that is all. Brownie, Aunt Conway, and I are going
-abroad this spring to stay, oh, ever so long."
-
-He is watching her narrowly. She knows it, and changes her sudden start
-into one of pretty affected surprise.
-
-"Oh, indeed! Will wedding cards and the 'fair Cordelia' bear you
-company?"
-
-"Not if some one else will. Brownie, cannot you guess why I have come
-here this evening?" his voice growing eagerly earnest, a genuine love
-and earnestness shining in his eyes.
-
-"To make a New Year's call, I guess," she answers, with innocent
-unconsciousness in her large dark eyes, and the faintest dimples around
-her lips.
-
-"Guess again, Brownie?"
-
-"I cannot; I have not the faintest idea," turning slightly from him.
-
-"Then, Brownie," taking her unwilling hand in his. "I have come to ask
-you for a New Year's gift."
-
-A scarlet geranium is fastened in with the lace at her throat. She
-plucks it out and holds it toward him with a mischievous smile.
-
-"Will you take this? I am sorry it is all I have to offer."
-
-He takes the hand that holds the flower and puts it to his lips.
-
-"It is all I ask; so your heart comes with it."
-
-Vainly she tries to draw back; he holds the small hand tighter, bending
-till his breath floats over her forehead.
-
-"Lulu, I did not come here for the gift of a hot-house flower, though
-coming from you it is dearer than would be a very flower from those
-botanical gardens that are the glory of Washington. I wanted a rarer
-flower--even yourself."
-
-Her face is hidden in one small hand. In low tones she answers:
-
-"I thought this matter was settled long ago. Did I not tell you no?"
-
-There is a long pause. Presently he answers, with a wondrous patience
-for him:
-
-"You did, and rightly _then_, for I did not fully appreciate your pure
-womanly affection. I thought I could easily win you, and having lost
-you I loved you more. Lulu, I am woefully in earnest. Refuse me now,
-and you, perhaps, drive me away from you for years--it may be forever.
-I love you more than I did then--a thousand times better."
-
-Still she is silent.
-
-"Brownie," he pleads, "I am not so fickle as you think me. I have
-fancied many pretty women, but only loved two--Grace Grey and yourself.
-My love for her is a thing of the past, and has to do with the past
-only--'echoes of harp-strings that broke long ago'--my love for you
-is a thing of the present, and will influence my whole future. You
-can make of me a nobler man than what I am. Willard is willing, your
-mother is willing, I have asked them both. Brownie, let us make of that
-Continental trip a wedding tour?"
-
-Her shy eyes lifted, meeting in his a deeper love than she has ever
-expected to see in them for her.
-
-"Let me see," he goes on, "Aunt Conway and I are going to Europe in
-June--that is time enough for you to get ready. Think of it, Brownie, I
-am to be gone months and months. Can you bear to let me go alone?"
-
-"No, I cannot," she sobs, hiding her face against his shoulder; and
-Bruce takes her in his arms and kisses her with a genuine fondness,
-prizing her, after the fashion of most men, all the better because she
-was so hard to win.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-WEDDING CARDS.
-
- "Now she adores thee as one without spot,
- Dreams not of sorrow to darken her lot,
- Joyful, yet tearful, I yield her to thee;
- Take her, the light of thy dwelling to be."
-
-
-Fair Lulu found so little time amid the preparations that went so
-swiftly forward for her marriage that she was very glad to avail
-herself of Grace's offered assistance in looking after her poor people,
-her missionary box, &c., and so the lonely and depressed young creature
-found something to occupy her time as well as to fill up her thoughts.
-She was of great assistance, too, to Lulu in the selection and purchase
-of the bridal trousseau in which she took a pleasant feminine interest.
-
-Lulu, who deferred always to her friend's exquisite taste, would suffer
-nothing to be purchased until first pronounced _comme il faut_ by Mrs.
-Winans; and Bruce Conway, who had returned in the midst of the season
-from Washington, and haunted Lulu's steps with lover-like devotion,
-declared that his most dangerous rival in Lulu's heart was Mrs. Winans.
-
-The old yearning passion he had felt for Grace had passed into a
-dream of the past; something he never liked to recall, because there
-was something of pain about it still like the soreness of an old
-wound--"what deep wound ever healed without a scar?" But they were very
-good friends now--not cordial--they would never be that, but still very
-pleasant and genial to each other.
-
-Mrs. Conway, who was very well pleased to see Bruce about to marry,
-wished it to be so, Lulu wished it to be so; and these two who had been
-so much to each other, and who were so little now, tried, and succeeded
-in overcoming a certain embarrassment they felt, and for Lulu's sake,
-and not to shadow her happiness, endured each other's presence.
-
-"Mrs. Winans," he had said one day, when some odd chance had left them
-alone together in Lulu's parlor, "it is an unpleasant thing to speak
-of. Yet I have always wanted to tell you how, from the very depths of
-my soul, I am sorry that any folly of mine has brought upon you so much
-unmerited suffering. Can you ever forgive me?"
-
-She glanced up at him from the small bit of embroidery that occupied
-her glancing white fingers, her eyes a thought bluer for the moment
-with the stirring of the still waters that flowed through the dim
-fields of memory and the pure young spirit came up a moment to look at
-him through those serene orbs.
-
-"Can I, yes," she answered, gravely. "When I pray, nightly, that Our
-Father will forgive me my trespasses as I forgive those who trespass
-against me, my heart is free from ill-feeling toward any one. How else
-could I expect to be forgiven?"
-
-And Lulu's entrance, with a song on her happy lips, had put an end to
-the conversation that was never again revived between them.
-
-And days, and weeks, and months went by and brought June. In that month
-the wedding was to be, and Lulu and her mother, beginning to realize
-the parting that loomed up so close before them, began to make April
-weather in the home that had been all sunshine.
-
-But "time does not stop for tears." The fateful day came when Lulu,
-in her white silk dress, and floating vail and orange blossoms, stood
-before the altar and took on her sweet lips the vow to be faithful
-until death do us part, and, as in a dream, she was whirled back to her
-home to the wedding reception and breakfast, after which she was to
-depart on that European tour.
-
-Is there any need to describe it all? Do not all wedding breakfasts
-look and taste very nearly alike? Do not all our dear "five hundred
-friends" say the same agreeable things when they congratulate us? Is
-it not to be supposed that the bridal reception of the charming Miss
-Clendenon and the elegant Bruce Conway is _comme il faut_? We are not
-good at describing such things, dear reader, so we will leave it all to
-your imagination, which we know will do it ample justice. We want to
-follow Captain Clendenon and Mrs. Winans as they slowly promenade the
-back parlor where the wedding gifts are displayed for the pleasure of
-the wedding guests.
-
-"Now, is not that an exquisite set of bronzes?" she is saying, with her
-hand lightly touching his arm. "And that silver tea-service from the
-Bernards--is it not superb? That statuette I have never seen equaled.
-Ah, see! there is the gift of Major Fontenay, that ice-cream set in
-silver, lined with gold. That is generous in him--is it not, poor
-fellow?"
-
-"To my mind, that exquisitely bound Bible is the prettiest thing in the
-collection," he returns.
-
-"It is beautiful. That is from her Sunday-school children. This ruby
-necklace, set in gold and pearls, is from Mrs. Conway----"
-
-"And this?" he touches a sandal-wood jewel casket, satin-lined,
-and holding a pair of slender dead-gold bracelets with monograms
-exquisitely wrought in diamonds--"this is----"
-
-"My gift to Lulu."
-
-"Oh! they are beautiful, as are all the things. But, do you know, Mrs.
-Winans, that I am so old-fashioned in my ideas that I do not approve
-of the habit of making wedding presents--no, I do not mean where
-friendship or love prompts the gift--but the indiscriminate practice,
-you understand!"
-
-"You are right; but in the case of your sister, Captain Clendenon, I
-think that the most of her very pretty collection of wedding gifts are
-the spontaneous expressions of genuine affection and respect. Lulu is
-very much beloved among her circle of friends."
-
-"You, at least," he says, reflectively, "will miss her greatly. You
-have so long honored her by your preference for her society and
-companionship. How will you fill up the long months of her absence?"
-
-She sighs softly.
-
-"She has left me a precious charge--all her poor to look after, her
-heathen fund, her sewing society--much that has been her sole charge
-heretofore, and which I fear may be but imperfectly fulfilled by me.
-Still I will do my best."
-
-"You always do your best, I think, in all that you undertake," says
-this loyal heart.
-
-"Whatever is worth doing at all is worth doing well, I think," she
-answers, with a faint flush evoked by his quiet meed of praise.
-
-Then people begin to flock in to look at the wedding gifts and at Grace
-Winans, who is the loveliest thing of all. She has on a wedding garment
-in the shape of pale violet silk, with overdress of cool muslin,
-trimmed with Valenciennes, white kid gloves and turquois ornaments
-set in pearls. The wedding guests wore their bonnets, and she had a
-flimsy affair of white lace studded with pansies on the top of her
-graceful head. Her dress was somewhat after the style of fashionable
-half-mourning. She had selected it purposely because not knowing if she
-were wife or widow a more showy attire was repugnant to her feelings.
-
-"This," she said, touching a costly little prayer-book with golden
-cross, monogram, and clasps. "This, I fancy, is from you."
-
-"You are right," he answered. "This set of the poets so handsomely
-bound is from mother. But are you not weary of looking at all these
-things? Shall we not go and find Lulu?"
-
-"By the way," she says, idly, as they slowly pass through the politely
-staring throng, exchanging frequent nods and smiles with acquaintances,
-and occasional compliments with more intimate friends, "there is a
-report--have you heard it?--from Memphis, Tennessee--of the _yellow
-fever_."
-
-"Yes," he answers, slowly. "I have heard the faintest rumor of it,"
-looking down with a cloud in his clear eyes at the fair inscrutable
-face. "Are you worried about it? I remember to have heard you say your
-nearest relatives were there."
-
-"Only distant relatives," she answers, composedly. "I am no more
-worried about them than about the other inhabitants of that city. My
-relatives had little sympathy for me in the days of my bereavement and
-destitution, and though one may overlook and forgive such things one
-does not easily forget."
-
-He was looking at her all the time she was speaking, though her eyes
-had not lifted to his. On the sweet, outwardly serene face he saw the
-impress of a growing purpose. What it was he dared not whisper to his
-own heart.
-
-The cloud only leaves his brow when they reach his radiant sister. She
-stands beneath a bridal arch of fragrant white blossoms, roses, and
-lilies, and orange blossoms dropping their pendant leaves down over
-her head as she receives the congratulations and adieus of her friends
-before she goes to change her bridal robe for the traveling-dress in
-which she is to start for the other shores of the Atlantic. Conway is
-beside her, nonchalant, smiling, handsome, very well satisfied with
-himself and the world. As his glance falls on the fair, pensive face of
-the Senator's deserted wife, the smile forsakes his lip, one sigh is
-given to the memory of "what might have been," and turning again to his
-young bride, the past is put away from him forever, and he is content.
-
-And presently the new-made Mrs. Conway flits up stairs with Gracie, to
-array herself in the sober gray traveling-silk.
-
-Grace parts the misty folds of the bridal vail and kisses the
-pearl-fair forehead.
-
-"Oh, darling!" she whispers, "may God be very good to you--may he bless
-you in your union with the man of your choice."
-
-Lulu's tears, always lying near the surface, begin to flow.
-
-"Oh, Gracie," she says, suddenly, "if all should not be as we fear--if
-I should chance to see your husband on the shores of Europe, may I tell
-him--remember he has suffered so much--may I tell him that you take
-back the words you said in the first agony of your baby's loss?"
-
-"What was it I said?" asked Gracie, with soft surprise.
-
-"Do you not remember the night you were taken ill, when you were half
-delirious, and he came to see you----"
-
-"_Did_ he come to see me?" interrupts Grace.
-
-"Certainly--don't you remember? You were half delirious, and you
-fancied your husband had hidden away the child to worry you, and you
-said----"
-
-"I said--oh, what did I say, Lulu?" breathed the listener, impatiently.
-
-Lulu stopped short, looking, in surprise, at the other.
-
-"Gracie, is it possible that you were entirely delirious, and that you
-recollect nothing of your husband's visit and your refusal to see him?"
-
-"This is the first I ever knew of it," said Grace, sadly; "but go on,
-Lulu, and tell me, please, what I did say."
-
-"You refused to see him, though entreated to do so by Mrs. Conway; you
-said you would never see him--never, never--unless he came with the
-missing child in his arms."
-
-"Did I say all that, Lulu?" asked Grace, in repentant surprise.
-
-"All that, and more. You said that if he attempted to enter your room
-you would spring from the window--and he was in the parlor; he heard
-every word from your own lips."
-
-"Oh, Lulu, I must have been delirious; I remember nothing of all
-that, and it has, perhaps, kept him from me all the time," came in
-a moan from the unhappy young creature, as she leaned against the
-toilet-table, with one hand clasping her heart.
-
-Lulu caught up a bottle of eau-de-cologne and showered the fine,
-fragrant spray over the white face, just as Mrs. Clendenon hurried in.
-
-"My darling, do you know you should have been down stairs before this
-time--hurry, do."
-
-And too much absorbed in her own grief to observe the ill-concealed
-agitation of Mrs. Winans, or attributing it to her sorrow at losing
-Lulu, the mother assisted the young bride to change her white silk for
-her traveling one.
-
-Then for one moment Lulu flung herself in passionate tears on her
-friend's breast, with a hundred incoherent injunctions and promises,
-from which she was disturbed by the entrance of Mrs. Conway, radiantly
-announcing that the carriage waited and they had no time to spare. And
-Lulu, lingering only for a blessing from her mother's lips, a prayerful
-"God bless you" from her brother's, went forth with hope on her path,
-love in her heart, and the sunshine on her head, to the new life she
-had chosen.
-
-When the last guest had departed, the "banquet fled, the garland dead,"
-Mrs. Winans removed her bonnet, and spent the remainder of the day in
-diverting the sad mother whose heart was aching at the loss of her
-youngest darling.
-
-"It seems as if all the sunshine had gone out of the house with her,"
-Willard said, sadly, to Grace, as they stood looking together at the
-deserted bridal arch that seemed drooping and fading, as if in grief
-for the absent head over which it had lately blossomed. "I fancied we
-should keep our baby with us always in the dear home nest; but she
-is gone, so soon--a wife before I had realized she had passed the
-boundaries of childhood."
-
-"The months of absence will pass away very quickly," she said, gently,
-trying to comfort him as best she could, "and you will have her back
-with you."
-
-"I don't know," he said, with a half-sob in his manly voice, lifting
-a long, trailing spray of white blossoms that an hour before he had
-seen resting against the dear brown head of his sister, touching it
-tenderly to his lips--"I don't know, Mrs. Winans. I don't believe in
-presentiments--I am not at all superstitious--but to-day, when I kissed
-my sister's lips in farewell, a chill crept through my frame, a voice,
-that seemed as clear and distinct as any human voice, seemed to whisper
-in my ear, '_Never again on this side of eternity!_' _What_ did it
-mean?"
-
-Ah! Willard Clendenon--that the fleshly vail that separates your
-pure spirit from the angels is so clear that a gleam of your near
-immortality glimmered through!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-"RUE."
-
- "Hope, cheated too often when life's in its spring,
- From the bosom that nursed it forever takes wing;
- And memory comes as its promises fade
- To brood o'er the havoc that passion has made."
-
- --C. F. HOFFMAN.
-
-
-The gossips of Norfolk are weary of wondering at the vagaries of the
-Hon. Mrs. Winans. They admired and envied her very much in the _role_
-of queen of beauty and fashion; they are simply amazed when she glides
-before the foot-lights in the garb of a "ministering angel."
-
-When she first began to aid and assist Miss Clendenon in her charitable
-undertakings they thought it only natural, in view of the sudden
-intimacy that had sprung up between the two, that the one should be
-found wherever the other was. But it was quite a different thing when
-the Senator's lovely and exclusive wife assumed those duties alone.
-Society, wounded by her quiet and almost complete withdrawal from its
-fascinations, set it down to a lack of a new sensation, and predicted
-that as soon as the novelty wore out Mrs. Winans would seek some newer
-and fresher hobby.
-
-But quietly oblivious to it all, the young lady went her way, smoothing
-with gentle advice and over thoughtful bounty many a thorny path where
-poverty walked falteringly on, lending a patient and sympathetic
-ear to the grievous complaints that rose from the homes of want and
-distress, strangely gentle to all little children, careful of their
-needs, thoughtful of their future, dropping the gentle promises of
-Christ along darkened paths barren of such precious seeds, and often
-society was scandalized by the not unfrequent sight of the young lady
-taking out for an airing on the cool, breezy suburbs or sea-shore some
-puny child or ailing adult from the haunts of poverty and making them
-comfortable by her side in that darling little phaeton that all Norfolk
-ran to their windows to gaze at when it passed.
-
-Miss Lavinia Story--dear old spinster!--undertook to interview the lady
-on the subject of her going so far in alleviating the "fancied wants
-and grievances of those wretched poor trash," and was fairly driven
-from the field when Mrs. Winans, with a glimmer of mischief under her
-black lashes and a very serious voice asked her if her leisure would
-admit of her joining the sewing society, of which she was manager.
-
-"For indeed," said Grace, half playfully, half in earnest, "we are in
-want of workers very badly. A lady from 'our set' volunteered very
-kindly last week as operator on the sewing-machine I donated the
-society, and they are so dreadfully in want of basters. Surely, Miss
-Lavinia, you will enlist as baster--that, if not more. Think of the
-poor people who need clothing so badly, and say 'yes.'"
-
-"I? I would not spoil _my_ eyesight with everlasting stitching for poor
-people, who are always lazy and shiftless, and smell of onions," said
-Miss Story, loftily.
-
-"I beg your pardon, I am sure," smoothly returned her merciless
-tormentor. "I forgot that your eyesight cannot be as strong as it once
-was. Perhaps you would not object to becoming a visitor of the sick, or
-something of that sort."
-
-"My eyesight not as strong as it once was?" returned the lady, in
-perceptible anger. "You mistake very much, Mrs. Winans; my eyes are as
-young as they ever were" (she was fifty at the least), "but I can use
-them to better advantage than by wearing them out in the service of
-your sewing circle."
-
-"It _is_ rather tedious--this endless stitching," confessed the zealous
-advocate of the sewing society, "but perhaps you would not object to
-taking a little sewing at home occasionally--little dresses or aprons,
-and such trifling things for the little folks--even that would be a
-help to us in the present limited number of workers--won't you try to
-help us out that much?"
-
-Miss Lavinia adjusted her spectacles on her high Roman nose, the better
-to annihilate with a flashing glance the persistent young lady whom
-she felt dimly persuaded in her own mind was "laughing in her sleeve
-at her," and Mrs. Winans, with the pearly edge of one little tooth
-repressing the smile that wanted to dimple on her lip, sat demurely
-expectant.
-
-"I did not call on you, Mrs. Winans, I assure you, to solicit a
-situation as seamstress. I never allow myself to be brought into
-personal contact with the filthy and odious poor. I do my share in
-taking care of them by contributing to the regular poor fund of the
-church."
-
-"Oh, indeed?" said the listener, still unmoved and demure. "I am sure
-it is very considerate of you and very comforting to the poor people
-besides."
-
-"I think, my dear," answered Miss Lavinia, pacified by the rather
-equivocal compliment, "that it would be better for you to confine
-yourself to the same plan. Let those who have not our refined and
-delicate instincts minister to those of the poor class who are really
-deserving of pity and of assistance, while we can do our part just as
-well by placing our contributions in the hands of some worthy person
-who can undertake its proper distribution. It hardly looks well for a
-lady of your standing to be brought into such frequent and familiar
-intercourse with the vulgar and low people to be met in the homes of
-poverty, if you will pardon such plain speaking from an old friend and
-well-wisher."
-
-"And so you will not undertake to help us sew," persisted the placid
-little tormentor, as the rustle of Miss Story's brown silk flounces
-announced impending departure.
-
-"No, indeed--quite out of the question," answered the irate spinster,
-as she hurried indignantly away to report to her gossips, and only
-sorry that it was out of her power or that of any of her peers to
-socially ostracize the self-possessed young advocate of the sewing
-society.
-
-"The most persistent little woman you ever saw," she said. "I fairly
-thought she'd have coaxed me into that low sewing-circle, or sent me
-away with a bundle of poor children's rags to mend. I won't undertake
-to advise her again in a hurry; and my advice to all of her friends is
-to let her alone. She is 'joined to her idols.'"
-
-And the "persistent little woman" ran up stairs and jotted down a
-spirited account of her pleasant sparring with the spinster in her
-friendly, even sympathetic journal--the dear little book to which was
-confided the gentle thoughts of her pure young heart.
-
-"Dear little book," she murmured, softly fluttering the scented leaves
-and glancing here and there at little detatched jottings in her pretty
-Italian text, "how many of my thoughts, nay hopes and griefs are
-recorded here."
-
-Now and then a smile dawns in her blue eyes, and anon her sweet lip
-quivers as the written record of a joy or grief meets her gaze. Looking
-back over earlier years, the pleasures of the fleeting hours, the
-dawning hopes of maidenhood, the deep, wild sorrow of her slighted
-love, she suddenly pauses, her finger between the pages, and says to
-herself with a half-sad smile:
-
-"And this was about the time when I fancied myself a poet. Why have I
-not torn this out long ago? I wonder why I have kept this foolish rhyme
-all these years?"
-
-In soft, murmuring tones she read it aloud, a faint inflection of scorn
-running through her low, musical voice:
-
- RUE!
-
- "Violets in the spring
- You gave me with the dew-tears in their eyes,
- I said, in faint surprise:
- Love do not tearful omens round them cling?
- You answered: Pure as dew
- Our new-born love, no omens sad have we
- From morning violets, save that love shall be
- Forever fresh and new.
-
- "Roses, through summer's scope,
- You brought me when the violets were flown--
- Flushed, like the dawn--full-blown;
- No folded leaves where hope could 'live in hope,'
- I moaned; the perfume soon departs;
- The scented leaves fall from the thorny stem.
- You said: But they were sun-kissed, child, what then?
- The fragrance lingers yet within our hearts.
-
- "November's 'flying gold'
- Drives through the 'ruined woodlands,' drift on drift,
- Nor violet nor rose, your later gift,
- Love's foolish, sun-kissed story has been told.
- Dear, were you false or true?
- I know not--only this: Love had its blight;
- Nor dews nor fragrance fill my heart to-night--
- But only--_Rue_!
-
- "OCEAN VIEW, November, 1866."
-
-"Rue!" she repeats, with a low, bitter laugh; "ah, me, I have been
-gathering a harvest of _rue_ all my life."
-
-The leaves fall together over the sorrowful, girlish rhyme, the book
-drops from her hand, and, sighing, she throws herself down on a low
-divan of cushioned pale blue silk, looking idly out of the open window
-at the evening sky glowing with the opalescent hues of a summer's
-sunset.
-
-"I daresay it's quite natural to make a dunce of one's self once in
-a life-time," she muses, "and I presume there is a practical era in
-every one's life. All the same I wish it had never come to me; the
-consequences have followed me through life."
-
-Her small hand goes up to her throat, touching the spring of the
-pearl-studded locket she wears there. The lid flying open shows the
-dusk glory of Paul Winans' pictured face smiling on her through a mist
-of her own tears.
-
-"And I drove you from me. Lulu says I did it; spoke my own doom with
-fever-parched, delirious lips! _Why_ did they believe me? Why did they
-not tell me of it long ago? They should have known I could not have
-been so cruel! All this time you have thought I hated you, all this
-time I have thought you hated me! You _did_ come; you did want to make
-peace with your wronged though willful wife. It is joy to know that
-though too late for hope even. Why did I go to Washington? Why did I
-go in defiance of his will? All might have been well with us ere this.
-Both of them--the darling baby and the darling father--might have
-been mine now. Instead--oh, Heaven, Paul dearest, you will never know
-now--unless, perchance, you are in heaven--how deeply, how devotedly I
-loved you! Who is to blame? Ah, me! It is all _rue_!"
-
-A moment her lips trembled against the pictured face, then she shuts it
-with a snap, and lies with closed eyes and compressed lips, thinking
-deeply and intensely, as "hearts too much alone" always think. But with
-the passing moments her sudden heart-ache softens a little. Rousing
-herself she walks over to the window, saying, with a faint, fluttering
-sigh:
-
-"Ah, well! 'Fate is above us all.'"
-
-How sweet the air is! The salt breeze catches the odor of the
-mignonette in her window, and wafts it to her, lifting the soft tresses
-from her aching temples with its scented breath, and with the sublime
-association that there is in some faint flower perfumes and grief, the
-bitter leaven at her heart swells again with all the painful luxury of
-sorrow.
-
-"I am so weary of it all--life's daily treadmill round! What is it
-worth? How is it endurable when love is lost to us?"
-
-Ah! poor child! Love is not all of life. When love is lost life's cares
-and duties still remain. We _must_ endure it. Well for us that God's
-love is over all.
-
-Some thought like this calms the seething waves of passion in her
-heart. She picks up her journal from the floor where it had fallen,
-and listlessly tears out the page that holds the simple rhyme of her
-girlhood's folly. Leaning on the window she takes it daintily between
-her fingers and tears it into tiny bits that scatter like snow-flakes
-down on the graveled path of the garden below.
-
-"Loved by two," she says, musingly. "What was Bruce Conway's love
-worth, I wonder? Or Paul Winans' either, for that matter? The one
-fickle, unstable, the other jealous, proud, unbending as Lucifer! Not
-quite my ideal of perfect love, either one of them! After all, what is
-any man's love worth, I wonder, that it should blight a woman's life?"
-
-Loved by three she might have said, but she did not know. How much the
-fleshly vail between our spirits hides from our finite eyes. How often
-and often a purer, better, stronger love than we have ever known is
-laid in silence at our feet, over which we walk blinded and never know
-the truth.
-
-And yet by some odd chance, nay, rather unconscious prescience, she
-thinks of Willard Clendenon, recalling his words on the day of his
-sister's marriage:
-
-"Never again on this side of eternity."
-
-"What did it mean?" she mused aloud. "It was strange at the least. I
-trust no harm will come to Lulu, little darling. She is still well and
-happy, or at least her letters say so." And drawing from her pocket a
-letter lately received from Lulu, she ran over its contents again with
-all a woman's innocent pleasure in re-reading letters.
-
-"How happy she seems," a faint smile curving the perfect lips; "and how
-devoted is Mr. Conway; how her innocent, joyous, loving heart mirrors
-itself in her letters! Sunshine, roses, honeymoon, bliss. Ah, me," with
-a light sigh chasing the smile away, "how evanescent are all things
-new and sweet; like that sky late aglow with the radiance of day, now
-darkening with the shades of twilight."
-
-Norah comes in to light the gas, and is gently motioned away.
-
-"Not yet, Norah. I have a fancy to sit in the twilight. You can come in
-later."
-
-And Norah goes obediently.
-
-Then she incloses the perfumed pink epistle in the dainty envelope
-bearing the monogram of the newly made wife, and laying it aside
-rests her head upon her hands, watching with dusk pained eyes the
-shadows that darken over the sky and over her golden head as she
-sits alone, her heart on fire with that keenest refinement of human
-suffering--"remembering happier things." All her brightness, all
-her love lies behind her in the past, in the green land of memory.
-The present holds no joy, the future no promise. The dimness of
-uncertainty, of doubt, of suspense, lies darkly on the present hour,
-the hopelessness of hope clouds the future. Heaven seems so far away
-as she lifts her mournful gaze to the purple, mysterious twilight
-sky, life seems so long as she remembers how young she is, and what
-possibilities for length of days lie before her. What wonder that her
-brave, long-tried strength fails her a little, that her sensitive
-spirit quails momentarily, and the angel of the human breast, hope,
-
- "Comes back with worn and wounded wing,
- To die upon the heart she could not cheer."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-ON TIPTOE FOR A FLIGHT.
-
- "If it be a sin to love thee,
- Then my soul is deeply dyed
- With a stain more dark than crimson,
- That hath all the world defied;
- For it holds thine image nearer
- Than all else this earth hath given,
- And regarded thee as dearer
- Almost than its hopes of heaven!"
-
-
-A period of three months goes by after Lulu's marriage, swiftly to
-those who are gone, slowly to those who remain. Mrs. Clendenon, in
-quiet household employments, in prayerful study of her Bible, fills up
-the aching void of her daughter's absence. Grace, in pursuance of the
-charge Lulu has left her, finds much of her leisure employed in scenes
-and undertakings that gently divert her mind from her own troubles to
-those of others. Under it all, the wound that time has only seared
-lies hidden, as near as she can hide it, from the probing of careless
-fingers.
-
-Captain Clendenon shuts himself up in his dusty law office with his
-red-tape documents and law books. Of late he has covered himself with
-glory in the winning of a difficult suit at law, and Norfolk is loud
-in praise of the one-armed soldier, the maimed hero who has grown into
-such an erudite lawyer. He takes the adulation very quietly. "The
-time has passed when he sighed for praise." A shadow lies darkly on
-his life--the shadow of Grace Winans' unhappiness. In that strong,
-pure heart of his, no thought of himself, no selfish wish for his own
-happiness ever intrudes. Had peace folded his white wings over her fair
-head she would long ago have become to his high, honorable heart, a
-thing apart from his life, as something fair and lovely that was dead;
-and with her safe in the shelter of another man's love he would have
-tutored his heart to forget her. As it was, when he looked on the fair
-face that was to him but a reflex of the saintly soul within, his whole
-soul yearned over her; his love, which had in it more of heaven than
-earth, infolded her within the sphere of its own idolizing influence.
-She became to him, not the fair, fascinating, but sometimes faulty
-mortal woman the world saw in her, but rather a goddess, a creature
-most like
-
- "That ethereal flower--
- No more a fabled wonder--
- That builds in air its azure bower,
- And floats the starlight under.
- Too pure to touch our sinful earth,
- Too human yet for heaven,
- Half-way it has its glorious birth,
- With no root to be riven."
-
-Such worship as this has always been the attribute of the purest, most
-unselfish love.
-
-He sat alone in his office one day, his head bowed idly over
-Blackstone, his thoughts far away, when the sharp grating of wheels
-on the street outside startled him into rising and glancing out of
-the window. _She_ was springing from her little pony-phaeton, and in
-another moment came flitting down the steps and into the room like a
-ray of sunshine.
-
-"Moping, are you?" she asked with her head on one side, and a glimmer
-of her old-time jaunty grace.
-
-"Not exactly," he answered, cheerfully bowing over the gloved hand she
-extended with frank sweetness--"only thinking; our life is too short
-for moping."
-
-She might have added:
-
- "I myself must mix with action
- Lest I wither by despair."
-
-"Are you busy?" glancing, as he offered her a seat, at the table
-littered with books and papers.
-
-"Not at all; I am at your service," he replied.
-
-"I want to talk to you; but--excuse me--your office looks so
-gloomy--makes me _blue_," she shivered a little. "Is your mother quite
-well?"
-
-"Quite well--thanks. Will you not go up and see her?--or shall I bring
-her down?"
-
-"Thanks--neither, I believe. I saw her a day or two since, and I am
-come on business now. Captain Clendenon, is it quite _comme il faut_
-for a lady to ask you to take a drive? If so, my phaeton is at your
-service. I want to ask you something; I cannot here. Some of your
-tiresome clients may disturb me."
-
-The soft appealing eyes and voice work their will with this
-infatuated man. If she had asked him to lie down under the hoofs
-of her cream-white ponies and be trampled on, I fear he would have
-done it. A man's love for a woman sometimes rises above its ordinary
-ridiculousness into the sublimity of pathos, and how little it is for
-him to consent to sit by her side and hear those magical tones, perhaps
-give some advice to that ever restless young spirit. He calls his
-office boy, takes his hat, and goes. Presently they are rolling over
-one of Norfolk's handsome drives, and censorious people, looking from
-their windows, exchange opinions that Mrs. Winans is "rather fast."
-
- "Alas! for the rarity
- Of Christian charity
- Under the sun."
-
-"I have been over to Portsmouth this morning," she says, in the midst
-of their small talk. "It is rather a nice little jaunt over there on
-the ferry-boat over the Elizabeth River--don't you think so?"
-
-"Yes, I do think so; had you a nice time?"
-
-"I don't know--yes, I suppose so. I visited some friends, and we went
-down and saw the beautiful grounds of the Naval Hospital--what a
-handsome building it is! The pride of Portsmouth. And what romantic
-grounds! I sat there a long time and looked at the sea."
-
-To what is all this idle chatter leading, he wonders, seeing perfectly
-well with what consummate art she is leading the subject whither she
-wants it to go.
-
-"We were all talking of that dreadful fever at Memphis," she resumes,
-constrainedly. "What swift progress it is making! The newspaper
-accounts of it are just terrible--heart-rending, indeed; and they are
-so fearfully in need of nurses and money. I have sent them a small
-sum--a mere 'drop in the ocean.'"
-
-"So have I," he answers, white to the lips. He knows what is coming.
-
-She gives him a flitting glance, fanning herself energetically the
-while. A useless proceeding, for the sea-breeze, that flutters her fair
-curls like golden banners, is simply delicious.
-
-"I heard something about you over there," she ventures. "One always has
-to go abroad to hear news from home, you know."
-
-"Very likely; you can hear anything you want to over there. Little
-Portsmouth is the hot bed of gossip," he answers, smiling dryly.
-
-"Well, for that matter, all places are," she returns. "But you do not
-ask what it was that I heard?"
-
-"Is it worth the repetition?"
-
-"I think so, but you are not interested, I see;" and she leans back
-with some displeasure--a pout on the curve of her crimson lip.
-
-He rouses himself, all penitence and forced gallantry.
-
-"I beg your pardon, Mrs. Winans. Any remark from yourself cannot fail
-to be interesting."
-
-"I heard--I wonder you did not tell me of it yourself--that you and
-your mother are going next week to Memphis to help to nurse the fever
-patients."
-
-No answer.
-
-"Is this true?"
-
-Her eyes are seeking his. He looks down on her, answering constrainedly:
-
-"It is perfectly true, Mrs. Winans."
-
-"Why have you kept it from me?" in some wonder this.
-
-"We intended telling you, of course, before we left; but it is
-such a harrowing topic--the sufferings of those poor yellow fever
-patients--that I have hesitated in mentioning it to you."
-
-"Was that your only reason?"
-
-No answer. He cannot bear to speak.
-
-"I know," she resumes, "why you have not told me. You feared I would
-want to go, too, and so kept it from me in your good, true, brotherly
-love; but in this case," smiling willfully up into his disturbed face,
-"your painstaking has been 'Love's Labor Lost.' I have been making my
-mind up to go all along, and now I mean to make the trip there under
-the protection of your mother and yourself--if you will permit me."
-
-The murder is out. She looks away from him demurely, waiting his reply.
-It comes, full of a shocked horror.
-
-"Mrs. Winans, are you mad?"
-
-"Not at all; are you? I am quite as strong, quite as able to help those
-poor sufferers, as your mother is; and yet you do not think she is
-mad," she answers, half offended.
-
-"No; for she has had the fever, and so have I. You have heard of the
-fever that desolated Norfolk and Portsmouth in 1855? Mother and I
-both had the _yellow fever_ in its worst form then, so you see it is
-perfectly safe and our bounden duty for us to go to the relief of those
-poor sufferers. But you are frail and delicate yourself. You have
-never had the fever; you are not acclimated there, and would only fall
-a victim. It would be a sort of disguised suicide, for you would be
-voluntarily rushing into the jaws of death."
-
-"No, no," she answered, half bitterly. "I bear a charmed life. Nothing
-seems to check the current of my doomed existence. And you forget that
-Memphis is my native home. I lived there the first sixteen years of
-my life, and am quite accustomed to the peculiar climate. And what if
-death should come? It would only be to 'leave all disappointment, care,
-and sorrow, and be at rest forever,' But no, I shall not die. I have
-borne illness, suffering, sorrow--everything that breaks the heart,
-and snaps the frail threads of existence--yet here I am still, quite
-healthy, passably rosy, and willing to devote my strength to those
-who need it. I have been 'through the fire,' Captain Clendenon, and
-really," with a subdued smile, "I think I am _fireproof_."
-
-"Some are refined in the furnace of affliction," he repeats, very
-gently.
-
-Soothed by the softly spoken words, she asks, timidly:
-
-"Tell me if I may go under your care?"
-
-"If you _will_ go, I shall be most happy to take all the annoyances of
-travel off your hands; but, little friend, think better of it, and give
-up this mad, quixotic scheme."
-
-"Do you think it such a mad scheme?" she asks, mortified and
-humiliated. "Do you think I could do no good to those poor suffering
-victims who need gentle womanly tending so badly? Do you think the
-sacrifice of my ease, and luxury, and comfort, would count as nothing
-with Christ? If you think this, Captain Clendenon, tell me so frankly,
-and I will remain in Norfolk--not otherwise."
-
-There is nothing for him to urge against this appeal. She touches up
-the ponies with her slim, little whip, lightly and impatiently. They
-are off, like the wind, for home again, as he makes the last appeal he
-can think of to this indomitable young spirit.
-
-"News may come of your husband at any time, Mrs. Winans. Were you
-to go, and he, returning, found you gone, he would be most bitterly
-displeased. Remember, it was his express desire that you should remain
-in your home here. I beg your pardon, if I seem persistent, but it
-is only through friendly interest in you and yours that I take the
-liberty."
-
-"Ah! but," a gleam of triumph lightening under her black lashes, "you
-forget that I have my husband's consent to visit Memphis? You brought
-it to me. I'm returning to the home of my childhood. I am not violating
-any command or desire of his."
-
-"Once more," he says, desperately "let me beg you not to think, for
-the sake of all those who love you, all you love, of going to that
-plague-stricken city."
-
-"It is useless." She set her lips firmly. "I am sorry to refuse
-your request, but the call of duty I must obey. My arrangements are
-all made. Norah is to stay and to take care of my home. My visit to
-Portsmouth this morning was for the purpose of leaving Lulu's precious
-charge in the hands of a dear Christian friend; so," trying to win him
-to smile by an affected lightness, "you may tell your mother she will
-have company she did not anticipate, though you were so ungallant as to
-persuade me not to come."
-
-"When a woman will she will."
-
-She carried her point against the entreaties of all her friends,
-and in less than two weeks, three dusty travelers--weary in body,
-but very strong in prayerful resolves and hopes--were entered as
-assistants in nursing in one of the crowded hospitals of the desolated,
-plague-stricken city of Memphis.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-IN MEMPHIS.
-
-
- "To be found untired,
- Watching the stars out by the bed of pain,
- With a pale cheek, and yet a brow inspired,
- And a true heart of hope, though hope be vain,
- Meekly to bear with wrong, to cheer decay,
- And, oh! to love through all things--therefore pray."
-
- --HEMANS.
-
-One of Grace's first acts after reaching Memphis was to inquire for
-her relatives, whom she had not seen, and but seldom heard from, since
-leaving Memphis, in her sixteenth year, to make her own way in the hard
-world. Not that she owed them much affection, or any gratitude--only
-the natural respect and remembrance of kinship induced her to seek
-them out. But her efforts were not crowned with success, for she
-learned that they had been among the first of the native families to
-flee the city at the approach of the pestilence, and Grace was greatly
-disappointed thereat.
-
-For a few weeks her voluntarily assumed duties were arduous and
-embarrassing in the extreme. Mrs. Clendenon and Willard, having had
-the fever themselves, and having been witnesses of its ravages in their
-own city, entered at once with confidence and experience on the task of
-caring for the poor victims who filled the hospitals, and even private
-houses. To Grace it was all new, and strange, and terrible, and though
-her will was strong, her sensitive spirit quailed at the horrors she
-daily saw, so unused was she to these scenes, and so diffident of her
-own powers for service, that she half doubted her abilities, and was,
-for a time, overwhelmed by the feeling which we have all experienced at
-times of willingness to perform duties from which we are deterred by
-ignorance, or lacking self-confidence.
-
-But this feeling was not long suffered to deter her from usefulness.
-Laborers were too sadly needed in the terrible harvest of death, and
-as her increasing familiarity with the details of the awful disease
-rendered her more efficient, she became an invaluable nurse to the
-patients, and a reliable and prized aid to the physician of the ward
-where she was placed.
-
-The Clendenons were in the same hospital, and in the performance of
-their several duties the trio often met, when a sweet sentence of
-praise from the lady, and a cheerful word of encouragement from him,
-went far to keep up her flagging spirits, and stimulate her to renewed
-exertions.
-
-Her strong, healthy constitution upheld her well in those days; for the
-fiery scourge rolled on and on like some great prairie fire, hourly
-seizing fresh victims, and erecting its everlasting monuments in the
-long rows of new-made graves in the cemeteries that swelled upward,
-side by side, close and many, like the green billows of old ocean, save
-that they gave back no solemn, tolling dirge, to tell where youth and
-love, hope and beauty, old age and infancy, joy and sorrow, went down
-to the stillness of the grave.
-
-In the universal suffering, the universal grief of those around her,
-the anguish of those bereaved of whole families, of friends the young
-lady put away her own griefs from her heart, and threw herself, heart,
-and soul, and body, into her work; and, though her two friends were
-doing precisely the same thing, they pleaded, expostulated, scolded and
-warned in turn.
-
-All in vain; for a rock would have flown from "its firm base" as soon
-as Grace Winans from the position she has taken. She had, as she
-pathetically protested, so little to live for, that she was all the
-more willing and desirous to sacrifice herself for the sake of saving
-others who had more ties in life than herself.
-
-"That is a poor policy," Mrs. Clendenon argued, stoutly. "You have no
-right to commit a moral suicide, however few your ties in life may be.
-Your life is God's, and He has some plan in life for you, or He would
-not have placed you on the earth."
-
-"And this may have been His plan for me, then," persisted the candidate
-for self-sacrificial honors. "He may have meant for me to take up this
-very cross. I have been brought to it by many subtle windings."
-
-"I do not know," Mrs. Clendenon answers, with sweet seriousness, "that
-God gives it to us to fathom exactly what are His plans for us. I think
-He means for us to take proper care of the health and strength He has
-given us, and to do His will in all things as near as we can, leaving
-to Him the fulfillment of the grand plan under which, by His fixed
-laws, every created being is a necessary and responsible agent."
-
-And Grace answers only by silence and sadness. For Captain Clendenon,
-he has long ceased to argue the question with her willful spirit,
-having very implicit confidence in the grand old adage that
-
- "When a woman will, she will--you may depend on't!
- And when she won't, she won't--and there's an end on't!"
-
-"Oddly enough," he says, trying to change the conversation from its
-theological turn, "I met with an old comrade to-day--one of the boys
-from my company--a Virginian, and one of the bravest in the regiment.
-He had drifted down here since the war."
-
-"What was he doing to-day? Nursing in the hospital?" Mrs. Clendenon
-asks, curiously.
-
-"_Dying_ in the hospital," the captain answers, with a break in his
-clear voice. "Down with the fever--died this evening."
-
-"Poor boy!" his mother said, pityingly, and a tear in the younger
-woman's eye echoed it.
-
-"The worst of it is," the captain goes on, "he leaves a poor, timid
-little wife, and two rosebuds of children--the mother as childish and
-fragile as the rest."
-
-"And what is to become of her?" query both ladies at once.
-
-"I want to send her home to her relatives. She was a Richmond girl.
-I remember meeting her there once when my company passed through on
-its way to Manassas. Arthur, poor fellow! invited me to call on her.
-She was then a charming little creature, very different from the
-heart-broken little thing she is now. Mother, I would like it very
-much if you would call on her to-morrow, and try to comfort her a
-little--she seems so friendless and desolate. You, too, Mrs. Winans, if
-you can conveniently do so."
-
-Both ladies expressed a desire to visit the bereaved young widow and
-her little ones.
-
-"Then I will take you down there to-morrow," he said, gratefully, with
-a smile in his honest gray eyes. "Ah! how it pains me to meet, as one
-must frequently do here, old friends and old faces, only to close the
-lids over eyes that have been so dear! Poor Arthur! poor boy! but it is
-one of the sad inevitable experiences of life."
-
-"Grace, my love," Mrs. Clendenon went on to say, "I have Doctor
-Constant's authority to forbid your appearance at the hospital
-to-night. He says you are so unremitting in attentions to his patients
-that there is danger of your falling sick, and our losing your valuable
-services altogether, if you persist in taking no rest at all."
-
-In the quiet hotel at which all three are registered they are seated at
-supper in the small private dining-room. The round, neatly appointed
-table at which they sit is loaded with luxuries to which they are
-doing but meager justice. It is late in October, and a small fire
-burns on the hearth, tempering the slightly chilly air, and lending
-cheerfulness to the room. Bright gas-light glimmers down on crimson
-carpets, curtains, chairs, that throw into vivid relief the faces of
-our three friends--pale all of them, and thin, earnest, and full of
-thoughtful gravity. It is no child's play, this nursing the yellow
-fever patients in houses and hospitals. These faces bear the impress
-of sleepless nights and days, and the silver threads on the elder
-lady's brow are more abundant, while in Captain Clendenon's curly brown
-locks one or two snow-flakes from the winter of care, not time, are
-distinctly visible. There are slight hollows in the smooth cheeks of
-Grace, faint blue circles around her large eyes, and no color at all in
-her face except the vivid line of her red lips. She looks like a little
-Quakeress in the pale gray dress that clings closely about the slight
-figure, relieved only by white frills at throat and wrists. All her
-bright hair is drawn back in soft waves from her face, and confined at
-the back with a silver arrow that lets it fall in a soft, bright mass
-of natural curls below the waist--lovely still, though pallid, sad, and
-worn; and in this quiet nun-like garb, with a beauty that grows daily
-less earthly, and more heavenly.
-
-The pensive shade of a smile dwells on her lip a moment as she looks
-across on Mrs. Clendenon in mute rebellion at the physician's mandate.
-
-"You need not look defiance," the lady returns, "for I shall add my
-commands to those of Doctor Constant. This is Thursday, and you have
-not slept a single night this week, while I have had two nights' rest.
-My dear child, listen to reason, and remain at the hotel to-night and
-get some sleep."
-
-"I am not so very tired. I can hold out to watch to-night."
-
-"Oh, of course! and die at your post. What can you be thinking of,
-Grace? Flesh and blood cannot stand such a strain. You must take
-needful rest, or you will fall a victim to the fever through sheer
-exhaustion."
-
-"I cannot rest," she answered, wearily. "It is a physical impossibility
-for me to take rest and sleep when I know how many are suffering and
-needing attention that I could render them."
-
-"There are others who will supply your place," interposed the captain.
-"I learned this evening that you were at two death-beds to-day. This,
-I think, is too much strain on your nervous system, and did I dare I
-should add my commands to the rest that you remain in your room and
-take needful repose to-night. As it is, I can only offer my earnest
-entreaties."
-
-The resolute look on her face relaxes a little. She looks up to this
-quiet, clear-headed captain much as Lulu does; has great respect for
-his judgment; wishes sometimes that he were her brother, too--that her
-tired young heart might rest against his brave and grand strength. He
-sees the half-relenting in her face, and desists for fear of saying too
-much.
-
-"Two death-beds!" Mrs. Clendenon echoes. "Why, Allie Winters was only
-taken ill last night, and you have been nursing her ever since. Gracie,
-you don't mean to tell me that Allie Winters is dead--so soon!"
-
-"She died this evening with her arms about my neck," Grace answers, in
-low, pained tones. "She had the fever in its worst and most rapid form."
-
-"Ah, me, that poor child! So young, so sweet, so beautiful, and
-scarcely sixteen, I think. Was it not hard to be taken away from this
-bright world so young?" sighed Mrs. Clendenon.
-
-"Well, opinions may differ as to that," Mrs. Winans answers, half
-bitterly. "The most fervent prayer I breathed over her still form was
-one of thankfulness that she was taken perhaps from 'evil to come.' She
-was the last of the family. They have all died with the fever. She was
-poor, and almost friendless--beautiful--and beauty is often the cause
-of poverty. Had she lived her life must inevitably have been a sad one.
-Better, perhaps, that she is at rest."
-
-She pushes back her chair, folds her napkin, and makes a motion to
-rise. Mrs. Clendenon remonstrates.
-
-"Gracie, you have not taken a mouthful, child."
-
-"No, but I have taken my cocoa. Andrew," sinking listlessly back into
-her chair, and speaking to the white-aproned waiter, "you may give me
-another cup."
-
-"There seems to be no abatement of the fever?" she says,
-interrogatively, to the captain, as she balances her spoon on the edge
-of her cup.
-
-"On the contrary," his grave face growing graver, "the number of
-victims is daily augmented."
-
-Her grieved sigh is echoed by Mrs. Clendenon's as they rise from the
-table. The next moment a sharp rap sounds at the door. Andrew opens it,
-admitting Doctor Constant himself--fine-looking, noble, with the snows
-of sixty earnest winters on his head and on the beautiful beard flowing
-over his breast--genial, cheerful, gentle, as a physician should always
-be--he makes a bow to our three friends, but declines to be seated at
-all.
-
-"I have but a moment. I came out of my rounds to make sure that Mrs.
-Winans does not go out to-night," and as an eager remonstrance formed
-itself on her lip, he said, resolutely: "It is no use; you must not
-think of going. It is imperative that you should sleep. You are not
-more than half alive now."
-
-"But, doctor, there are so many who need me," she says, with a last
-endeavor to go.
-
-"Others can take your place. We had new and fresh nurses to come
-in to-day. Pardon me if I appear persistent, madam, but I was your
-mother's family physician, and thoroughly understood her condition.
-Your own resembles it in a high degree, and I warn you that you have
-stood as much as you can without rest. You are your own mistress, of
-course, and can do as you please; but if you go to-night you are very
-apt to fall from exhaustion."
-
-"Very well," she answers, wearily, as if not caring to contest the
-point longer. "Since I do not wish to commit suicide, I will stay at
-home and rest to-night."
-
-"That is right. Your nervous system is disordered, and needs
-recuperation. You will feel better to-morrow, and may come back to the
-hospital. As for Mrs. Clendenon and the captain, they may come back
-to-night."
-
-She does not really know how tired she is until she goes up to her room
-and throws herself on the lounge, face downward, like a weary child,
-to rest. But, exhausted as she is, it is hours before she sleeps.
-Nervous temperaments like hers are not heavy sleepers. After long
-seasons of wakefulness she finds it almost impossible to regain the
-habit of natural repose. Now she lies quite still, every tense nerve
-quivering with weariness, but with eyelids that seem forced open by
-some intangible power, and busy, active brain that repeats all the
-exciting scenes of the past week. When twelve o'clock sounds sharply on
-the still of the night she rises, chilled and unrefreshed, and crouches
-over the dying fire that has smoldered into ashes on the hearth long
-since. She looks down at it vacantly, with a passing thought that it
-is like her life, from which the sunshine and brightness have faded
-long since, leaving only the chill whiteness of despair. Often in still
-moments like these her young heart rises in half angry bitterness, and
-beats against the bars of life, longing to be free. "Only half alive,"
-Dr. Constant had said to her, and patient and long-suffering as she
-was, I fear it had sent a half-thrill of joy to her bosom. Life held
-so little for her, was so full of repressed agony and pathos, pressed
-down its heavy crosses so reluctantly on her fair young shoulders,
-and sometimes even the love of God failed to fill up that empty heart
-that hungered, as every human soul must, while bounded in human frame,
-for human, mortal, tangible love. Resignation to her fate she tried
-sedulously to cultivate, and succeeded generally. Only in hours like
-this, when oppressed with a sense of her great loneliness, the past
-rushed over her, with all its sweet and bitter memories, and was put
-away from her thoughts with uncontrollable rebellion against--_what_
-she scarcely dared speak, since a higher power than mortal ruled the
-affairs of her destiny.
-
-"God help me!" she murmured, as, pushing up a window-sash, she leaned
-out and looked at the quiet city of Memphis lying under the starry
-midnight sky, silent save for the occasional rumble of wheels in the
-distance telling the watcher that the work of death still went grimly
-on--the dead being hustled out of the way to make room for the sick and
-dying.
-
-The chilly night air, the cold white glimmer of the moon and stars,
-cooled the feverish blood that throbbed in her temples, a soft awe
-crept into her heart--the deep, all-pervading presence of God's
-infinity; and as she shut down the window and went back to the lounge,
-her pained, half-bitter retrospections were overflowed by something of
-that "peace which passeth all understanding."
-
-Sleep fell on her very softly--a deep, refreshing slumber--from which
-only the morning sunshine aroused her. She rose with renewed energy for
-her labor of love, and kept at her post for weeks afterward, with only
-occasional seasons of rest and sleep. Her superb organism kept her up
-through it all, aided and abetted by her unfaltering will. Through it
-all there came no tidings of her husband or child. Letters came often
-from the absentees in Europe, but without mention of either, and Grace
-began to feel herself a widow indeed.
-
-The Clendenons, too, were indefatigable in their exertions for the
-victims of the fever. They were always devoted and earnest in their
-efforts, and kept a watchful care, too, over Grace, whose zeal and
-willingness often outran her strength and power of endurance.
-
-Mrs. Clendenon's gentle, placid old face began to look many months
-older, but it was in Willard that the greatest change was perceptible.
-His cheerful spirit never flagged, but gradually the two women who
-loved him each in her own way, began to see that the tall, fine form
-grew thinner and slighter, the face paler, and a trifle more serious,
-while silver threads began to sprinkle themselves thickly in his dark
-hair. He was wearing out his strong young manhood in hard, unremitting
-toil, and leaving his constitution enfeebled and open to the attacks of
-disease. The idolizing heart of his mother noted all this with secret
-alarm, and she would fain have persuaded him to retire from his arduous
-duties and return to Norfolk. His gentle but firm refusal checked all
-allusion to the matter, and, as the weeks wore away, and the fever
-began to lose its hold and abate its virulence, she hoped that they
-would soon be released from their wearing tasks, and allowed time for
-recuperation.
-
-The contents of a letter received more than two months previous from
-Lulu weighed also on Mrs. Clendenon's mind, and she could not, as she
-often did in other matters, seek the sympathy of Grace, as Lulu had
-desired she should not know anything of it. So Mrs. Clendenon bore her
-burden of anxiety all alone, save for Him who carries the half of all
-our burdens.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV.
-
-LULU TO HER MOTHER.
-
- "Even to the delicacy of their hands
- There was resemblance, such as true blood wears."
-
- --BYRON.
-
-
- "LONDON, ENG., November 16th, 1873.
-
- "Dear, dearest mother, whom I long so much to see that it seems
- impossible to write you, sitting tamely here, all that is in my
- heart, how can I express my grief and anxiety at hearing that you
- are still in that terribly stricken city, and that there seems no
- present prospect of the abatement of that awful epidemic? Oh,
- mother, how could you go--you, and brother Willie, and Grace--all
- my dear ones--when you knew what anguish it must cause me in my
- absence? I know that it is right--know that it is a Christian's
- bounden duty to comfort the sick and afflicted, and I honor you each
- in my whole heart for such noble, self-sacrificing devotion as you
- are displaying. But oh, how my heart is aching with the dread! Oh,
- mother, what if one of you should be taken away? Oh, I cannot, cannot
- bear the thought! And yet a strange _presentiment_ weighs on me
- that on one or the other of your dear faces I will never look again
- in this world. Bruce, dear Bruce, who is so kind and loving to me,
- tells me these are only homesick fancies. Aunt Conway persuades me
- that I am only nervous and depressed, and that my fancies are but
- the result of my feeble condition of health just now; but am certain
- that it is more than all this. I pray that it may not be, but my
- whole heart sinks with a sense of prophetic dread, and if Bruce would
- only consent, I should at once return to the United States and join
- you in Memphis; but neither he nor Aunt Conway will listen to such
- a thing--their plans being made to spend a portion of the winter in
- Italy, certainly--and the chances are I shall not see you, my sweet
- mamma, until spring, though how I shall survive our separation so
- long I cannot tell. I miss you--oh, I miss you so much! and I have
- wished for you so often! Even dear Bruce cannot make up to me my loss
- in you.
-
- "I suppose it is not necessary to describe all that I have seen
- in this great city, as Brother Willie's letters from here were so
- exhaustive and entertaining that they have left no new field of
- description on which to waste my spare stock of adjectives.
-
- "But, mother, I am so demure and quiet in my tastes that I care very
- little for all the glories of the old world, and I pine to go to you,
- and to be at home again, much to my dear husband's chagrin, who is
- disappointed that I do not enter with more enthusiasm into all the
- beauties of art and nature that we have seen in our travels. Mrs.
- Conway applauds everything, but I believe it is the fashion to do
- so--is it not? and _she_ is _so_ fashionable, you know! I honestly
- appreciate all I see that is appreciable, I think, but not with the
- keen pleasure of most travelers. I am a home-bird, I suppose--one of
- the little timid brown birds that hop contentedly about the quiet
- garden paths, and though having wings, do not care to fly.
-
- "'The world of the affections is my world,
- Not that of man's ambition.'"
-
- "Mother, do you remember when I wrote you from Brighton, England,
- about the little child in whom I was so strangely interested?--whose
- great resemblance to some one of whom I could not think puzzled and
- interested me so? Well, I have met again with the little darling
- here, and have visited his grandparents at their elegant villa
- just outside the city--very old people, I believe I wrote you they
- were--and devoted to this child, who is, so I am told, the last
- of the race and name, which has been in its time a very noble, as
- it is now, a very old one. They are very wealthy and very proud
- people--the old baronet, Sir Robert Willoughby, the haughtiest old
- aristocrat I ever met. His wife, Lady Marguerite, is of a sweeter,
- gentler type, yet, I fancy, very much in awe of her stern lord.
- Little Earle--the heir of this great wealth and proud title--is one
- of the most interesting little children I ever saw--wonderfully
- bright and intelligent. He has taken a flattering liking to me, and
- is always, when in my company, exerting his childish powers for my
- entertainment. We visit quite frequently--"charming people," Aunt
- Conway calls them. The little boy prattles to me, sometimes in an
- incoherent sort of fashion, of his mother, who seems to be a sort of
- faint, almost forgotten image in his baby mind. He is not more than
- three or four years old--well grown for his age. I have observed
- (Bruce, teasing fellow, says I have only fancied it,) that they do
- not like to hear the little boy speak of his mother. They never
- mention her themselves, and I have been given to understand that she
- is dead, but they have never said so in plain terms. The little one
- does not at all resemble his grandparents.
-
- "I commented casually on this to Lady Marguerite one day, and she
- answered no, that, to her great regret, the child resembled his
- father's family most, and she colored, and looked so annoyed, that
- I felt sorry I had said so much, and tried to mend the matter by
- saying that he had more the appearance of an American child than an
- English one. She flushed even deeper than before, and said that
- she had never been in America, and never to her knowledge seen an
- American child, but that Earle's parents were in that country at the
- time of his birth, and remained there some time after, which probably
- accounted for his American look--she did not know. We said no more
- on the subject, but the slight mystery that seemed to surround it
- made me think of it all the more; and, mother, now I will tell you
- why I have taken such an interest in the child. Aunt Conway and Bruce
- jestingly declare me a monomaniac on this subject, though they do
- not pretend to deny the fact of the likeness, which struck me the
- very first time I saw him. Mother, this little baronet that is to
- be, this little English child, with his long line of proud ancestry,
- his haughty, blue-eyed grandparents, his fragile, blue-eyed mother,
- whose picture I have seen in their picture-gallery--this little
- dark-eyed boy is enough like Paul and Grace Winans to be the _child
- they lost so strangely in Washington two years ago_! He has the
- rarely beautiful dark eyes, the dazzling smile of Senator Winans, the
- very features, expression, peculiar gestures, and seraphic fairness
- of Grace. It was a long time before this united likeness became clear
- to me. Then it dawned on me like a flash of lightning, and now I am
- continually reminded of dear Grace in the features and expressions
- of this little child. It perplexes and worries me, although Bruce
- assures me that it can only be one of those accidental resemblances
- that we meet sometimes at opposite sides of the world. Can this be
- so? It puzzles me, anyhow, and I heartily wish that the missing
- Senator--or General Winans he is now, you know--were here. I should
- certainly give him a glimpse of little Earle Willoughby (he bears
- the name of his grandparents by their wish), who is his living
- image, and then we should 'see what we should see.' But it seems
- that the prevailing belief in his death must be true for the papers
- now speak of it as a settled fact, and give him the most honorable
- mention. Poor, poor Grace! how my very heart bleeds at thought of her
- bereavement, and her beautiful, unselfish devotion to the cause of
- 'suffering, sad humanity.' Dear mother, please do not mention to her
- what I have written about the child. She cannot bear to have little
- Paul's name mentioned to her, and no wonder, poor, suffering, brave
- heart! But, mother, darling, I mean to get at the bottom of the
- slight mystery that enshrouds those people. If I discover anything
- worth writing I will mention it in my next letter to you.
-
- "Aunt Conway and Bruce join me in love to you all. My warmest love to
- brother Willie and Grace, to both of whom I shall shortly write. Be
- careful of your health, dearest mother, I beg, and write early and
- often to your devoted daughter,
-
- "LULU C. CONWAY."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV.
-
-THE PATHOS OF A QUIET LIFE.
-
- "Oh, being of beauty and bliss! seen and known
- In the depths of my soul, and possessed there alone!
- My days know thee not; and my lips name thee never;
- Thy place in my poor life is vacant forever.
- We have met; we have parted. No more is recorded
- In my annals on earth."
-
- --FROM LUCILLE.
-
-
-Captain Clendenon is taking an afternoon cigar.
-
-He has stepped out of the hospital, where, thank God! there are fewer
-patients and less need of him now, for a stroll in the fresh air, and
-while he meanders down the principal thoroughfare, he lights a Havana
-and enjoys his walk.
-
-In financial panics one sees a crowded thoroughfare, with people
-rushing hither and thither, and blockading the banks; in pestilential
-panics one sees silent, deserted streets, and dreary, deserted-looking
-buildings. This is all that meets Willard's gaze as he stops on the
-corner, man-fashion, and looks idly up and down at the occasional
-passers-by, for human faces are the exception, not the rule. Now and
-then a man goes by, looks hard at him, and nods respectfully. He is
-very well known here as the noted Norfolk lawyer who has so nobly
-volunteered in the cause of suffering humanity. Not a woman but looks
-twice at the tall figure, with its fine military bearing, its handsome
-head, set so grandly on its broad shoulders, its empty, pathetic
-coat-sleeve pinned across the left breast.
-
-Old death has been at work here. Those whom he has not mowed down
-with his awful scythe have fled, terrified, beyond his present
-harvest-field. There are places of business closed--some of whose
-owners are abroad in other cities, others of whom are holding commerce
-now with the worm and the grave. Here and there a school-house
-is closed, the most of whose little pupils have gone to learn of
-the angels. It is the dreariness of desolation, and as he puffs
-meditatively away, these familiar lines of Hemans come into his
-thoughts:
-
- "Leaves have their time to fall,
- And flowers to wither at the north-wind's breath,
- And stars to set, but all,
- Thou hast all seasons for thine own, oh, death!
- We know when moons shall wane,
- When summer birds from far shall cross the sea,
- When autumn's hue shall touch the golden grain--
- But who shall tell us when to look for thee?"
-
-"A penny for your thoughts, Captain Clendenon," says a fresh, young
-voice, and a small hand taps him on the shoulder.
-
-He turns with a start. One of the dusky-eyed belles of Memphis, with
-whom he has a casual acquaintance, has stopped to chat with him--a
-tall, handsome young lady in a mannish costume of navy-blue velvet,
-double-breasted English walking-jacket, a mannish hat set jauntily on
-her black hair, and a set of Grecian features, and large, black eyes.
-
-His gray eyes light momentarily.
-
-"Ah! Miss De Vere, this _is_ a pleasure! About the thoughts--they were
-not worth your inquiry."
-
-"I am the best judge of that," and something in her tones, not her
-careless words, imply that all his thoughts are precious to her.
-
-He tosses his cigar away, and turning, asks, politely:
-
-"Are you out for a stroll? May I walk with you?"
-
-"Am I out for a stroll? Yes, but on my way home now. You may see me
-there with pleasure."
-
-They walk on together down the quiet street, and her cheek flushes a
-warmer red as she chatters softly to him, he rather listening than
-talking. It is his way.
-
-"I thought you were out of the city--at the North," he says, in answer
-to some remark. "Your father told me two months ago he meant to take
-his family away from the pestilence."
-
-"And so we were. We have but just gotten back since the fever began to
-lose its hold. How brave you were to stay here! Ugh!" she shuddered a
-little, "that terrible fever! Do you know people say that you are a
-hero?"
-
-"Do they?"
-
-A low laugh ripples over his serene, finely cut lips. He wears no
-beard, no mustache, and every flitting emotion shows itself about his
-mobile mouth.
-
-She sees a careless sort of surprise on his face now--nothing more.
-
-"Don't you care for it? It is so pleasant to be praised," she says, in
-some wonder.
-
-"I don't know--is it?"
-
-"Is it not? Do you mean to say that you attach no value to fame--fame
-that is won by good deeds?"
-
-"I don't know," he answers again, in an absent way. "I might have done
-it in my younger days--scarcely now. I like to do good for its own
-sake--not for any praise that may follow it."
-
-"I know--I have heard at least," she stammered, with strange timidity,
-"that you lost your arm to--to save another man's life! Is it so,
-Captain Clendenon--did you give your arm for his life?" her dusky eyes
-kindling with a passionate hero-worship, that is characteristic of
-Southern women.
-
-"Yes, I gave my arm for his life," he says, grimly. "I might as
-well have given him my life, for when I buried my left arm on the
-battle-field at Chancellorsville I buried with it all the hopes that
-make a man's life worth the living."
-
-"And why?" an unspoken sympathy on her pretty face. "What hopes can
-there be that your misfortune can possibly destroy?"
-
-They turn a corner into a side street, where her home lies, meeting a
-group coming toward them, a man with a bright-faced wife clinging to
-one arm, a little laughing child by the other hand, and two others
-following after. His glance marks them out a moment, then meets hers,
-as he quotes, half-sadly:
-
- "'Domestic happiness! thou only bliss
- Of Paradise that has survived the fall.'
-
-"Miss De Vere, cannot you suppose that a man getting into the 'sere and
-yellow leaf'--I am almost six-and-thirty years old--must feel the need
-of some 'fair spirit for his minister?' And," his glance falling, hers
-following, on his empty sleeve, "what woman could I ask to give herself
-to half a man?"
-
-She slackens her pace to look up at him, in genuine honest astonishment.
-
-"Captain Clendenon, you have never been so quixotic, so absurdly
-chivalrous as to think that any woman would not feel honored to cast
-her lot with yours in spite of your honorable misfortune--yes, if you
-had lost both your arms in the army as nobly as you have lost one!"
-
-"Thank you! thank you!" he answers, deeply moved, and seeing the sudden
-waves of hot color breaking over the warm Southern beauty of her face,
-he looks blindly away and thinks what a noble-hearted girl she is, and
-how he has misjudged her in thinking her a fine, fashionable flirt, as
-all along he had been doing, when he thought of her at all, which was
-but seldom.
-
-And then they are at the steps of the elegant De Vere mansion, and she
-gently invites him to enter. He shakes his head.
-
-"I thank you; but I will continue my stroll. One gets so little fresh
-air indoors, and I have been so confined lately. To-day I am off duty,
-and making the most of it. My respects to the family."
-
-"Oh!" she says, turning, with her foot on the marble step. "May I ask
-you one question?"
-
-"A dozen, if you please," he returned, gallantly.
-
-"It is only this: It is a current report here that the Hon. Mrs.
-Winans, who came down here with your party to help nurse the fever
-patients, is, or was, Miss Grace Grey of this city--do you know if this
-is true?" lifting eager, inquiring eyes to his face.
-
-"Yes, it is certainly true," and she sees some sort of a change pass
-over his face--what, she cannot fathom.
-
-"Indeed!" she says, in quick surprise and pleasure. "I knew her
-intimately as a child; we were next-door neighbors"--she nods at the
-handsome residence standing next to her own, and he looks at it with
-tender interest--"and afterward we were in boarding-school together. I
-always liked her so much. Will you give her Stella De Vere's love, and
-tell her I will come and see her if she will let me?"
-
-"I certainly will, with pleasure," and they shake hands and say good-by
-again, and she runs up the steps of her father's stately home, pausing
-in the door-way as he turns away.
-
-"He _is_ a hero," she says, with a dreamy light in her dark eyes. "How
-I _could love_ him, if----"
-
-She shuts the door, half-sighing, and goes in.
-
-For him, he walks away, stopping a moment in front of the next-door
-house to light a fresh cigar, and glancing at the green grounds, with
-their graveled paths, goes away with a fancy in his mind of a fairy
-child with violet eyes and golden curls at play beside the marble
-fountain under its dashing spray.
-
-Grace Grey!
-
-He walks on down the lonely street, his heart full of Grace Grey, not
-Grace Winans; full of the child and girl whose light steps have danced
-down this street in happier days--not the Senator's sad-eyed wife--he
-has no right to think of _her_. But this fairy, winning child, this
-innocent, joyous maiden, who grows into shape and life in his loving
-imagination--she is his own, his very own, to hold in his "heart of
-hearts," to think of, to idealize, to worship. He creates in his own
-mind the goddess she was, goes back from the days when he first knew
-her to those earlier days when Stella De Vere knew her. Then an idle
-remembrance of Stella's praise of him sets him thinking. Was it true?
-Would any woman have loved him as well with his one arm as with two?
-Would Grace have done it had he tried to win her? For a moment a
-half-wish that he had tried, that he had won her for his own idolized
-wife, overwhelmed him.
-
-"She might have been quietly content with me," he thinks. "At least
-she should never have known the suffering, the passionate pathos that
-darkens her young life now."
-
-Too late! "Her place in his poor life is vacant for ever," and, as
-Grace has said once, he repeats:
-
-"Fate is above us all."
-
-He goes back to his visions of the child and maiden again; his heart
-thrills with passionate fondness for the happy child, the lovely girl
-whose dual lives have merged into the shadowed life of beautiful Grace
-Winans. Fancies come and go, the "light that never was on sea nor land"
-shining over his mild pictures of what "might have been," and never
-opium-eater's visions were fairer than the ideal dreams that go curling
-up in the blue, fantastic smoke-wreaths of Captain Clendenon's cigar.
-
-Sunset drives him to his hotel, chilled and thoughtful. The winter
-sunshine, pleasant enough in this southern city, in its declining, has
-left a chill in the air that seems to strike to his heart. At the door
-he tosses away the remains of that magic cigar and goes up to his room,
-where a cheerful fire throws its genial warmth over everything, and
-brings out the stale odor of cigar smoke that clings to him. He throws
-off his coat, and in his white shirt-sleeves, pours fresh water from
-the pitcher into the basin.
-
-"Phew!" he says, in disgust, "how smoky I am!" pushing back his neat
-linen cuff and bending over, in manly fashion, to dip head and hand
-into the water; he gives a slight cough, then, gasping, bends lower,
-while a crimson stream flows fast from his lips into the crystal water,
-turning it all to blood.
-
-Again and again that slight cough, again and again that warm tide
-flowing from his lips--and yet he seems not in the least surprised, not
-in the least alarmed, only steadies himself, with his hand pressed on
-the edge of the wash-stand, and watches the flowing life-stream, his
-face growing white as marble.
-
-Then the stream thins, grows less and less, and less, and gradually
-ceases. Taking up a glass of fresh water he rinses his mouth of
-the blood, and standing, looking down at the scarlet flood in the
-wash-basin, says thoughtfully, but not fearfully:
-
-"This is the second time I have done it. I think I will see Dr.
-Constant to-morrow."
-
-A tap at the door.
-
-"Mother must not _know_," he says, and hurriedly laying a large towel
-over the wash-basin, is sitting comfortably in front of his fire when
-he calls out:
-
-"Come in."
-
-It is Mrs. Clendenon, just come in from the hospital, her gentle face
-flushed from walking, a placid smile on her lip.
-
-"Willard, are you here? Gracie and I have but just come in and missed
-you--why, how pale you are--are you sick?"
-
-"No, not sick. I have but just come in also. I was out walking and came
-in chilled--have not thawed out yet."
-
-"Oh, Willard, my boy!" she cries, in a horrified tone, "what is that?"
-
-A great spat of blood he had not observed stained his spotless linen
-cuff; she turned dead white as she saw it.
-
-"It is nothing," he answers, with his handkerchief at his lips, but he
-draws it away dashed with minute streaks of blood; "sit down, mother,
-dear, don't get nervous, don't get excited."
-
-She is leaning over his chair, her arm around his shoulder, her eyes
-full of piteous mother's love and fear fixed on his pale face.
-
-"My son, what does it mean?"
-
-"Mother, nothing much. I have only had a slight hemorrhage from the
-lungs--from over-exertion, I presume. It is all over now; but to make
-all sure I will consult Doctor Constant to-morrow, and I will be more
-careful of my health and strength hereafter, I promise you."
-
-"Oh, I knew you were killing yourself," she wailed; "I knew it!"
-
-"Don't, mother--don't talk so wildly. It was for the best, I assure
-you; it had to come. I shall be very much better after this; Doctor
-Constant will tell you so," he says, tenderly, to the wild-eyed mother,
-who is white with fear for her boy, and with all a woman's physical
-horror at the sight of blood.
-
-She glances around her vacantly, then suddenly walks across the room,
-lifting the towel from the wash-basin. She looks with reeling brain and
-dazed eyes on that scarlet tide, and turns on her son a look of awful
-horror and anguish--such anguish as a mother's heart can feel--down,
-down, down in its fathomless, illimitable depths. He comes forth and
-steadies her reeling form with his one arm about her waist, looking
-down at her with those earnest, beautiful gray eyes.
-
-"Oh, mother, don't look so--don't grieve so! I tell you, certainly, I
-shall be better after this. I have only lost a little blood. Cheer up,
-little mother. Doctor Constant shall give me a tonic, and make it all
-right. You won't tell Mrs. Winans? I would rather she did not know. She
-would worry over it, too, and there is nothing to alarm either of your
-tender hearts."
-
-He did get better of it, though Doctor Constant shook his head
-warningly when he met him still at his labors in the hospital. Grace
-knew nothing of it, by his wish, and in February a letter from
-Lulu, who had spent a portion of the winter in Italy, filled Mrs.
-Clendenon with the same perplexities, doubts, and hopes that agitated
-Lulu's heart in her far away home in London, which, with its foggy
-atmosphere and chilly rains, made itself peculiarly disagreeable to
-the young American lady who pined for the clear, pure atmosphere and
-health-giving sea-breeze of her own native home, while she gently
-deferred to the wishes of her husband and his aunt, and remained abroad
-until it pleased them to turn their faces homeward.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI.
-
-LULU TO HER MOTHER.
-
- "Tis strange but true; for truth is always strange,
- Stranger than fiction." --BYRON.
-
-
- "LONDON, ENG., March 20th, 1874.
-
- "I promised to write you, dear mother if I should discover anything
- of interest relating to the little child of whom I wrote you in the
- autumn; and thanks to dear Bruce (who pretended not to take any
- interest in the matter at all) I have something to write you which,
- if nothing more comes of it, is certainly one of the strangest
- coincidences that ever happened. Mrs. Conway and Bruce think it can
- be only a coincidence, but my hopeful heart whispers that it may be
- more. But I will tell you of it, mother dearest, and leave you to
- judge for yourself.
-
- "In the first place, then, my dear Bruce used only to be amused at
- my fondness for and interest in the child that bore such marked
- resemblance to two of my friends, though he could not but admit the
- likeness himself. But after he became convinced, as I was, that there
- was some mystery or some secret about the little one's parentage,
- he, quite unknown to me (not wishing to arouse hopes that might be
- disappointed in the end), set about making inquiries in a quiet and
- cautious manner, which brought to light the facts I am about to
- relate.
-
- "I suppose it is hardly necessary I should remind you, mother, that
- the Englishwoman, Mrs. Moreland, who stole little Paul Winans from
- the hotel in Washington, D. C., and was traced to the steamer that
- left for England, told the servant-girl there that she had buried
- her husband in New York, as also a little girl and boy one year old,
- and that he was the last child of five. You will also remember that
- the girl, Annie Grady, and other waiters in the hotel thought that
- Mrs. Moreland was not quite right in her mind--that is to say, she
- was on the verge of insanity, and it was supposed that, under some
- hallucination that the child was her own, she kidnapped little Paul,
- and, with a lunatic's proverbial cunning, succeeded in getting away
- with him.
-
- "Now, mother, this is what Bruce has discovered. First, that Sir
- Robert and Lady Marguerite Willoughby never had but one child, a fair
- and gentle young daughter, who mortally offended them by eloping with
- and marrying her drawing-master, a young man with the beauty of a
- Greek god and the humble station and sheer poverty which is too often
- the birthright of such beauty. For this offense she was disinherited
- and exiled forever from the presence of her haughty patrician father.
- It is said that the gentle mother would gladly have forgiven the
- erring child and made the best of the _mesalliance_, but Sir Robert's
- will being law, she had no choice but to abide by it. Secondly,
- that the disinherited daughter and her poor and handsome husband
- led a precarious existence in London for ten years, during which
- time four children were successively born to them and died; all this
- time the cruel parents of the willful daughter refusing her appeal
- for forgiveness. At the death of the last child the unfortunate but
- devoted pair concluded to try their fortune in America, whither
- they accordingly went, settling in New York. There another child
- was born to them, and fortune, long unpropitious, began to smile
- on the loving pair, when the sudden death of the husband left the
- timid young mother a widow and a stranger, with a fatherless child.
- The shock nearly unsettled her reason, and she waited only for the
- burial of her husband before she started for England with her baby,
- and on reaching here, presented herself, homeless, friendless, almost
- destitute, before her cruel parents, with an ill and fretful babe in
- her arms. They would have been inhuman to have turned her away. She
- was taken back to their home and hearts, but too late, for she was
- barely sane enough to give an incoherent account of her husband's
- death in America before her melancholy madness reached such a violent
- stage that they were compelled to remove her to a lunatic asylum,
- where she still remains, a hopeless maniac.
-
- "The child, whose dark beauty and lack of resemblance to his mother's
- family they attributed to a perfect likeness of its deceased father,
- they received into their home and hearts, and formally adopted as
- their own, since they two, being really the last of his race, this
- child was the only one left to perpetuate the name and title of the
- proud Willoughbys. Remorse for the part they acted to their unhappy
- daughter leads them to preserve entire silence as to her and the
- sad story I have been telling you. All this Bruce learned from one
- who is intimate with the family, and, indeed, the story is well
- known in London, though they never mention it to strangers. But her
- parents, of course, knowing of her life while in New York, have not
- the slightest doubt of the little boy being their grandchild, the son
- of their daughter, Christine, and her husband, Earle Moreland. You
- will remember, mother, that the kidnapper of Grace's little son was
- registered at the Washington hotel as Mrs. Earle Moreland. I think
- we only need to prove that Mrs. Moreland's child died in New York
- to claim this little child of Grace. But I leave you to draw all
- inferences, dear mother, and I know that you will agree with me that
- there is more than coincidence in the case.
-
- "All that I have told you Bruce discovered before we went to Italy.
- Now that we have returned he intends to push the matter further and
- try to get at the truth of the whole affair. I do not yet know what
- steps he will take in the matter, but pray with me, my own beloved
- mother, that 'the truth may be made manifest,' and that dear, patient
- Grace may have her child restored to her, for I feel certain that
- this darling little boy, of whom we are all so fond, is her own
- child. And, oh! what a pleasure it will be to me to see him restored
- to her by any instrumentality of mine.
-
- "Still I think it best to keep her in ignorance of all this yet
- awhile; for uncertainty and suspense on this subject now would be,
- I know, more than she could bear; and, besides, we cannot yet know
- what the end may be. I will send you further tidings as soon as we
- have any. You can tell brother Willie of it all. His clear, prudent
- judgment may be of use to us, but he is not to let Grace know.
-
- "I am almost counting the days, mother, between this and the happy
- day that shall bring me to your dear, loving arms again! I miss you
- _so_ much, and brother Willie, and dear Gracie, too.
-
- "I had intended to tell you of my pleasant time at Lady T----'s
- reception, my dining at the embassy, and many other interesting
- things, which I will have to postpone until my next, as my husband is
- now waiting to take me for a drive, and I, as of old, dear mother, am
- so fond of driving. How I used to like dear Grace's little phaeton!
-
- "Bruce and Aunt Conway both join me in love to all, and both are
- well, but beginning, I believe, like myself, to feel a little
- homesick.
-
- "My warmest love to dear Gracie and my darling brother Willie, and,
- mother, dear, do, do, all of you, take care of your health, and don't
- kill yourselves in that awful Memphis, and do not fail to write at
- earliest convenience to your
-
- "Devoted daughter,
-
- "LULU C. CONWAY."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII.
-
-"NEARER MY GOD TO THEE."
-
- "The heavier cross the easier dying.
- Death is a friendlier face to see;
- To life's decay one bids defying,
- From life's distress one then is free!
- Ah! happy he, with all his loss,
- Whom God hath set beneath the cross."
-
-
-To Captain Clendenon, who lay tossing on the bed of sickness his mother
-had long foreboded, the news that Lulu's letter brought was cheering
-in the highest degree. His clear judgment brought him to the same
-conclusion as his sister, and had he been well he would have instantly
-started for New York to take up the missing links in the old quest for
-the lost child of Grace. But just as the fever epidemic had come to an
-end, and the three jaded nurses were thinking of a return to Norfolk,
-the weakness that had been growing on him for months culminated in an
-attack of typhoid fever, that dire enemy of an enfeebled system. He
-had lain for two weeks now consumed with fever, tortured with pain,
-and inwardly chafing because the two patient women, who had thought
-their labors for the sick ended for the season, were now indefatigably
-devoted to the task of lightening, as far as mortal power could do, his
-intense suffering.
-
-Doctor Constant came and went with the last days of March, going out
-always with a look that Mrs. Clendenon and Grace--who had learned to
-read his countenance--felt almost hopeless at seeing. Weeks passed,
-and the strange fever that seemed playing "fast and loose" with the
-patient--that rises and falls, but never goes--kept its fiery hold
-on its victim. His mother was always by his side, mixing medicines,
-pouring cooling drinks, watching and noting every fluctuation of the
-disease with the grave, sad patience we often note in elderly women
-who have grown so used to affliction that they bear it with a fortitude
-impossible to younger women like Grace, who fretted and chafed and
-grieved at the slow disease that held her friend in its tenacious
-grasp. Yet she was only second in her exertions for him to the
-mother. It was her small, soft hand that bathed the burning forehead
-in sprinkling ice-water and pungent perfume; her hand that fluttered
-the grateful palm-leaf fan that kept such fresh and pure air around
-the bedside; her hand that was always ready and willing to undertake
-anything that promised relief, or even alleviation; her presence that
-lent sunshine to the darkened chamber, where the angels of life and
-death were striving for Willard Clendenon's soul.
-
-Pretty Stella De Vere, hearing of his illness, called often to inquire
-about him, and sent daily gifts of hot-house flowers and fruits to
-tempt the delicate appetite, and in the solitude of her own soul knew
-that a dear, dear hope was fading from her life forever.
-
-Sometimes, when the hot, delirious fever fell, and reason held her
-throne against the enemy, the young man's heart ached at the sight
-of the pale, worn faces that always wore a cheerful smile for his
-waking hours. In the contest that was waging he felt very sure which
-would come off conqueror; but with the fortitude which had marked his
-life, he kept his opinions to himself, unwilling to grieve his mother
-and Grace, and unwilling to hasten Lulu's return on account of the
-investigation she was pursuing, much as he longed to see her. One
-unsatisfied wish troubled his feverish hours, and lent a wistful light
-to his eyes that Grace could not bear to see. Had it pleased God to
-restore his health, he would have liked to have gone to London and have
-brought back her child to her, that he might have had the pleasure of
-reviving hope in her desolate heart. Still it was a comfort to know
-that it would almost certainly be brought back to her some time. With
-this thought he must content himself, and he did as well as he was able.
-
-"I am wearing you both out," he said, sadly, one day, to the two who
-were trying to hide beneath cheerful smiles the heart-ache which a
-recent visit from Doctor Constant had left, his grave face showing his
-opinion too plainly. "This long illness, after all you have endured,
-is unpardonable in me. Mother, why not have a nurse for me, and allow
-yourself and Mrs. Winans some rest?"
-
-The trembling hand of the gray-haired mother fluttered down like a
-blessing on the burning brow of her eldest-born--the son who had always
-been a blessing to her from the hour when his baby lips stirred the
-mother-love into life within her breast until now, when the hand that
-had smoothed her widowed path so gently, lay still and wasted on the
-counterpane, never to take up life's burden again.
-
-"Always unselfish," she answered, in faltering tones. "No, Willie, dear
-boy, I cannot delegate to others the dear task of soothing your hours
-of pain."
-
-"Nor can I," supplemented Grace, laying an impulsive, clasping hand on
-the thin one that rested outside the counterpane. "I have put myself
-in Lulu's place, and it is as a sister that I claim the privilege of
-waiting on you."
-
-"Thanks," he answered, deeply moved, and Mrs. Clendenon, with an
-irrepressible sob, went gliding from the room.
-
-"Oh, about Lulu," she says, with assumed carelessness to hide her real
-feelings. "Why is it you won't consent to have your mother send for her
-to come on while you are so sick? Don't you want to see her?"
-
-"Don't I?" a wistful pain in his dark eyes. "Dear little sister Lulu,
-how I long to see her I cannot tell you! But why hasten her? She is
-coming shortly anyhow. She may be in time to see me; if not, we still
-shall meet again some time. She will come to me."
-
-"Don't talk that way," she says, in distress and pain. "You will get
-better as soon as this fever breaks."
-
-"Or worse," he amends. "You know a crisis must come then, Mrs. Winans,
-whether for better or worse, we cannot now tell. But we all know--you,
-mother, and the doctor, though you try to hide it from me--that the
-indications point to the worst. Yesterday, I had slight hemorrhage from
-the lungs again."
-
-"Don't talk so," she pleads again. "How can any of us--the doctor,
-even--tell what will be the result of the crisis? We hope for the best.
-Do you not remember how ill I was in Washington with brain fever, and
-how Lulu would not let them shave off my long curls? No one thought I
-would recover, yet I did. So, I trust, will you."
-
-"Yes, if it so please God; but I think, Mrs. Winans, that He is going
-to be very merciful, and take me to Himself."
-
-"Going to be very merciful," she repeats, with a grave wonder in
-her large eyes, as at something new and strange. She cannot at all
-understand how this quiet heart that has always seemed to her so
-untouched by any great joy or grief, can be so eagerly content in going
-"home." "Why, you do not want to die so young. The world needs good
-men like you so much that God will not take you yet! Why, what can you
-mean?"
-
-"Just this, Mrs. Winans," he lifts his honest gray eyes to her
-fair face--his fever is falling, and he seems quite cool, though
-earnest--"that God, when he puts a life-long sorrow on our hearts,
-usually compensates for it by giving us a brief span in which to endure
-it. Sorrow like yours, that may be turned into joys again, He lets us
-live to bear. Crosses like mine, that may be blessing, but never joy,
-He lets one lay down early at the foot of the Great White Throne."
-
-Sweeping lashes shade her cheeks to hide her great surprise. She asks
-nothing of Captain Clendenon's cross, though till now she has never
-dreamed of its existence.
-
-"Some lost love," she guesses, with ready sympathy in her heart, and
-answers, sadly:
-
-"Sorrows like mine can never turn into joys, _mon ami_."
-
-"They can, they will," he cries, in glad excitement. "I know, I feel,
-that one of your lost ones, at least, will be restored to you."
-
-"Oh! what can you mean?"
-
-In eager hope she rises, looking down at him with eyes that would fain
-read the secret he had almost betrayed.
-
-"Sit down," he answers, in calmer tones, "and forgive me for startling
-you so. I only meant that I felt like this, dear friend; and I do feel
-as if the shadows are passing from your life, and that, ere long, all
-will be well with you. It is given sometimes, you know, to dying eyes
-to see very clearly."
-
-A flashing drop from her blue eyes falls down upon the hand that still
-lies under the soft clasp of hers, and in low tones she answers:
-
-"Hush, now, you had better not talk any more. I fear you will overtask
-your strength. I am going to read some for you."
-
-And closing his eyes he listens peacefully to the sweet, tremulous
-voice that reads the fourteenth chapter of St. John, beginning:
-
- "Let not your heart be troubled."
-
-And thus the days pass by, each one stealing a hope from the watcher's
-heart, and so many hours from Willard's life. Their patience does not
-waver, nor does his quiet courage. He knows that the world is fair
-outside, that the Southern sky is blue and bright--that flowers are
-blossoming, that birds are singing--knows, too, that all "Creation's
-deep musical chorus, unintermitting, goes up into Heaven," and is fain
-to go with it. Very bravely and contentedly he breasts the dark waters,
-knowing that a strong arm upholds him, even His who said to the ocean's
-tumult:
-
- "Peace, be still!"
-
-Mrs. Clendenon has written to Lulu that he is ill, but ere that long
-delayed letter reaches her his wasted frame may perchance "be out of
-pain, his soul be out of prison;" for it is the last of March now, and
-Doctor Constant and his consulting physicians think that the fever
-is almost broken, and the crisis near at hand. What the result will
-be they almost certainly know, but still whisper feeble hope to the
-agonized heart of the mother, whose yearning prayer goes up to God that
-He will spare her first-born.
-
-He does not always answer such prayers in the way that seems good to
-us. But all the same, He who is Maker of all things, Judge of all
-things, judges best for us poor finite reasoners.
-
- "Who knows the Inscrutable design?
- Blessed be He who took and gave--
- Why should your mother, Charles, not mine.
- Be weeping o'er her darling's grave?"
-
-"Why? ah, why?" The answer to such queries we shall find written
-in letters of light, perchance, within the pearly gates of the new
-Jerusalem.
-
-Closer and closer yet grew the fond tie between mother and son as
-the long days waned to the lovely Southern twilight. Many gentle
-conversations blessed the absent sister from whom another letter came
-on the third of April, to say that no letters from home had reached her
-for a month; so she was still ignorant of that fatal illness her tender
-heart had foreboded mouths before. One portion of the letter which
-she specially desired her brother to read, he was too ill to see for
-several days after its reception. Not until after that night at whose
-eve Doctor Constant said sadly to his mother:
-
-"The fever is gone. It will be decided to-night. We shall know in the
-morning."
-
-And the grave-yard twilight brightened into starry night--the softest,
-balmiest Southern night--and three watched by the bedside, for Doctor
-Constant came, too, to share that vigil, in the strong, friendly love
-he felt for the man who had worked so bravely for the death-stricken in
-that doomed city. Hand in hand Gracie and the mother watched, each torn
-with the agony of dread, for Grace had taken him into her deep heart as
-a dear and faithful brother, and felt that one more pleasure would be
-buried for her in Willard Clendenon's early grave.
-
-So the hours wore on; the mystic midnight came--passed--and in the
-morning they _knew_.
-
-"It is the will of God," Doctor Constant said, holding the weeping
-mother's hand fast in his, and speaking in the strong assurance and
-resignation of a Christian faith. "He is wise and just, and knows the
-right better than you or I, dear friend. Be strong, for the end is
-near; the angels will come for him at sunset."
-
- * * * * *
-
-"Willard, dear son, there is a letter from your sister that she wished
-you to read. Are your eyes strong enough, or shall I read it for you?"
-
-Lying back among his pillows, as white as they, very much wasted, with
-the dark curls waving back from the high, pale brow, and a very quiet
-peace in his grave, sweet eyes, Willard takes that letter, and reads
-it, slowly and painfully through.
-
-A dimness crosses his vision as he holds it more than once, and a
-remembrance comes to him as he notes the clear, running chirography,
-of how his own hand once guided the little fingers that traced these
-lines in their first labored efforts to write. But the light of a very
-sweet content irradiates his face as he turns its pages. If there is
-aught that can heighten the content of these, his dying hours, it is
-the story that is told in the pages of his sister's letter--the fair
-and tenderly loved young sister whom he will see no more until, as
-redeemed souls, they clasp each other on the sunny shores that are
-laved by the surf rolling up from the shadowless river.
-
- "We part forever?--o'er my soul is sadness,
- No more the music of thy voice shall glide
- Low with deep feeling till a passionate gladness
- Thrilled to each tone, and in wild tears replied.
-
- "'We meet in Paradise!' To hallowed duty
- Here with a loyal, a heroic heart,
- Bind we our lives--that so divinest beauty
- May bless that heaven where naught our souls can part."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII.
-
-LULU TO HER MOTHER.
-
- "The earth has nothing like a she epistle,
- And hardly heaven--because it never ends." --BYRON.
-
-
- "LONDON, ENG., April 3, 1874
-
- "Such a joyful thing has happened, dear mother, that I could scarcely
- believe my own ears when (now more than two weeks ago) Bruce came in
- and told me General Winans was in London, not dead at all, and only
- just returned from France, where he had remained until thoroughly
- cured of the wound which had left him for dead on the dreadful
- battle-field. It seems that he was removed from the field by a poor
- and devoted young French soldier, a private in the ranks, and carried
- to a secure though humble place, where he was attended by a skillful
- old Frenchwoman who dressed his wounds with real surgical skill, and
- took care of him through a long period of convalescence, he having
- two protracted relapses and nearly losing his life, sure enough. The
- reason he was so carefully concealed by the old woman and her nephew,
- was through fear of the Germans, as the war ended with that battle,
- you remember, and the conquerors had things all their own way. When
- quite recovered he rewarded the kind couple and left for London, and
- had been here but two days when Bruce met him quite accidentally on
- the street. You remember his old feud with Bruce, dear mother?
-
- "Well, my dear husband tells me that he drew up his fine, princely
- figure, and would have passed him without recognition had not Bruce,
- with a resolution quite foreign to his easy nature, absolutely
- button-holed the proud fellow, and told him, all in a breath, about
- his marriage and his bridal-tour, and invited him to see Aunt Conway
- and me at our hotel. Of course, in view of Bruce's being married, he
- forgave him all he at present held against him, and came, nothing
- loth, to see us, and was so delighted--not more than I, though, I
- will admit. We kept him all the evening, and heard from his own lips
- the romantic story of his joining and fighting in the army of France,
- and of his rescue from death by the young French private. I used
- to be half afraid of him, but now I think, mother, he is the most
- fascinating and admirable gentleman I ever met--you know such an odor
- of romance and adventure clings about him.
-
- "He had a perfect torrent of questions to ask me about Grace. All of
- them I answered to the best of my ability, but I was not, I confess,
- prepared for his great agony when I told him she was at Memphis,
- nursing the fever patients there. Mother, I never saw a human being
- turn so pallid as he did. He sat quite still for a while, his hand
- pressed to his brow, and only once I heard a sort of moan from
- his lips, that sounded like, 'Oh, Grace, you have indeed avenged
- yourself!' I hastened to assure him that the fever had abated, and
- the nurses were all returning to their homes, and I expected Grace,
- as also you and brother Willie, would soon return to Norfolk. And,
- mother, I felt so sorry for him that I at once blurted out the story
- of the little boy, Earle Willoughby. Oh, such happy, incredulous
- excitement I never saw in any one before. Bruce had to tell it all
- over to him. I was both laughing and crying during my relation of
- it--'silly child!' as Aunt Conway says. Well, he and Bruce entered at
- once upon an investigation that has resulted in restoring hope and
- happiness to two that I love, and in making warm friends and allies
- of those two men who once stood up on Norfolk's outskirts to try to
- murder each other, with fiery hatred in their hearts.
-
- "But time has changed all that. My Bruce is a better man to-day than
- he was then, and General Winans is reasonable, less fiery, less
- causelessly jealous. Painful experience has taught both of them
- wisdom.
-
- "Oh, mother, it is all as I expected. I am so happy in the happiness
- that is to come to our beautiful Grace; my whole heart throbs with
- such joyous emotion,
-
- "'I could laugh out as children laugh
- Upon the hills at play.'
-
- "General Winans and Bruce lost no time in calling on the Willoughbys
- to acquaint them with their suspicions. They found them away from
- home. Investigation disclosed the fact that they had been summoned
- to the mad-house of which their daughter, poor Christine Moreland,
- was an inmate. She was very ill, and, as I am told many lunatics
- do, recovered sense and reason when the cold hand of death was laid
- upon her. She sent for her parents to confess the crime, the full
- knowledge and remembrance of which first rushed upon her in that
- hour. Bruce and General Winans followed them at once to the asylum,
- which was an elegant and private one in high repute. They had no need
- to tell their story. Sir Robert and Lady Marguerite knew all, were in
- possession of all proofs, and in all their desolation gave back the
- child, without an objection, to its rejoicing father. He has his own
- again, and lacks but Grace's presence and forgiveness to make him the
- happiest man in the world.
-
- "But, mother, there seems some reactionary power in the laws of this
- world that makes the sorrows of some the prices of others' happiness.
- The grief of that lonely old pair, so suddenly despoiled of all they
- looked on as kindred to them is something mournfully pathetic. Old,
- and sad, and worn, as they looked, bending over the costly casket
- that held poor little Mrs. Moreland, at the imposing funeral, I shall
- never cease to compassionate them. Little Paul, or Earle, as he will
- continue to be called, and his father, are their guests now, as they
- cannot bear to give up the little boy until the last moment. But Sir
- Robert, in his attachment to his little adopted son, intends making
- him his sole heir, since the property is not entailed, and there is
- no kin. General Winans has promised--with the proviso of his wife's
- consent--that his son shall always bear the name of Earle Willoughby
- Winans. General Winans has promised to visit them this summer again,
- bringing his wife, if she will come. Gracie, you know, mother, has
- never been abroad, and General Winans wants to bring her over here
- for an extended tour.
-
- "How my pen has run on jumbling up statements in happy, inextricable
- confusion! But, mother, you must all be at home in May, for in May we
- shall all be with you once again--oh, joyful thought!
-
- "But, mother, Gracie, dear, patient, long-suffering darling, is not
- to know anything about the child until we come home. General Winans
- wishes it. He wants to bring her the joyful tidings in his arms, and
- who can blame him? Mrs. Conway thinks it perfectly natural and right,
- so does Bruce, so do I--and do not you think so, too, dear mother?
-
- "The rest of the story--about General Winans being alive, and coming
- home so soon--I want her to know. And, mother, I would like brother
- Willard to tell her of it. He will take such pleasure in it! was
- always so fond of her, so desirous of her happiness, that I want the
- good news to come to her from his lips, because I think he would like
- it to be so.
-
- "Dear, dear brother Willie! Mother, I think sometimes that he is not
- as happy as the rest of us. He has never said so--it may be only my
- fancy--but my heart holds always such a great, unutterable tenderness
- for him, and a sort of sacred reverence, as for some unspoken grief
- of his. How happy I am that, God willing, I shall soon be folded
- again to his dear, loving heart!
-
- "Mother, do try to induce Gracie to take proper rest and sleep, so
- as to regain her bright looks before we got home. She is never less
- than lovely, but I want her to be at her best for the eyes of her
- husband. For, mother, I do like him so much--indeed, he is a fine,
- frank, noble follow, one whom you will like, I know. And he and Bruce
- are quite good friends, so that there will be no more envyings,
- jealousies, and such like, but the brooding dove of peace over our
- hearts and homes, I trust, forever.
-
- "I am so happy at thought of seeing you all again, and at all that
- has happened, that I am too nervous, too glad, or too something, to
- write more. Aunt Conway, looking over my shoulder at this, says it is
- hysterical. I am not sure it is not; so, mother, dear, try to evolve
- order out of this confused chaos of facts, and we will tell the story
- more lengthily and intelligibly when we all get home, which, thank
- Heaven, will be very soon. I have had no letter from you for a month.
- Why is it?
-
- "With tendered regards to all, I am your devoted daughter,
-
- "LULU C. CONWAY.
-
- "P. S.--General Winans would write to Grace, but fears repulse in
- spite of my assurances to the contrary. He tells me he must ask
- pardon only on his knees for the irreparable suffering he has caused
- her gentle spirit. Perhaps he is right--I cannot tell. Once more with
- fondest love, _au revoir_.
-
- "LULU."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX.
-
-LAST WORDS.
-
- "As the bird to its sheltering nest,
- When the storm on the hills is abroad.
- So his spirit has flown from this world of unrest,
- To repose on the bosom of God."
-
- --W. H. BURLEIGH.
-
- "Who has not kept some trifling thing,
- More prized than jewels rare,
- A faded flower, a broken ring,
- A tress of golden hair?"
-
-
-"Grace, love, will you go to Willard? He has something to say to you."
-
-The southern sun hung low in the western heavens; the day was
-excessively warm for April, and a little cloud in the sky, "no bigger
-than a man's hand," foreboded a shower. Grace turned from the window
-where she stood watching the shifting white clouds in the blue sky, and
-went back to the room from which she had stolen to hide the bitter pain
-at her heart.
-
-A very solemn silence hung about the white-draped chamber. The window
-shutters were open to admit the balmy air, and a slanting ray of
-sunshine had stolen in and brightened the top of the sick man's pillow,
-touching into golden radiance the dark locks pushed away from his brow.
-The wan and wasted face wore a beautiful serenity that was not of
-earth. "God's finger" had "touched him" very gently, but palpably.
-
-Grace bent over him, taking his cold white hand in hers with voiceless
-emotion. She had grown so fond of him in a warm, sisterly fashion,
-reverenced his brave, pure, upright spirit so highly that it seemed to
-her a close and kindred soul was winging its way from her side to the
-bright beyond, leaving her more alone and desolate than ever.
-
-"It is almost over," he said, looking up at her with the reflex of a
-smile in the beautiful dark-gray orbs that kept their luminous radiance
-to the last.
-
-She answers not. How can she break with the sounds of human grief the
-brooding peace that shines on the pathway of this departing spirit? Her
-voice, the sweetest one he will ever hear on this side of eternity,
-rises low but firm in one of the old-fashioned hymns the old-fashioned
-captain loved:
-
- "Fear not, I am with thee. O be not dismay'd,
- I, I am thy God, and will still give thee aid;
- I'll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,
- Upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand.
-
- "When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
- The rivers of grief shall not thee overflow;
- For I will be with thee thy troubles to bless,
- And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress."
-
-"Amen," he whispers, lowly. "His rod and His staff they comfort me."
-
-Silence falls for a brief space. He is gathering his fainting strength
-for the words that come slowly from his lips:
-
-"I have been the bearer to you of unwelcome tidings so often, Mrs.
-Winans, that it absolutely pains me now to recall it."
-
-"Do not recall it," she rejoins, earnestly. "Why should you? The power
-overruling such things is higher than we are. You have been a comforter
-to me more often than you know of--take only that thought with you."
-
-He smiles as she re-arranges his pillows, lifting his head so that
-his faint breath comes more evenly. The stray end of one of her long
-silken curls falls over his breast an instant, and he touches it with a
-caressing hand.
-
-"It is given to me," he answers, "to bear you good tidings before I go.
-Your memories of me--will not thus be all unpleasant ones."
-
-The eager remonstrance forming itself on her lip dies unspoken as he
-goes on:
-
-"You have borne sorrow with a very brave heart, Gracie--have been, as
-you once told me, and as I really think, _fireproof_! Can you bear joy
-as well?"
-
-She cannot possibly speak. Something rising in her throat literally
-chokes her breath.
-
-"Little sister, be strong. Lulu has written--well, that your
-husband--that Winans is in London, alive and well--and is coming home
-to you--in May."
-
-There is utter silence. She is quiet always, in pain or pleasure. He
-sees only her small hands clasping each other close, and her violet
-eyes--those unerring indices of her feelings--growing dusk black under
-the lashes. But something in the curve of her firm lip does not satisfy
-him. He feebly lifts his hand to touch hers.
-
-"You will not be hard and unforgiving? It is not like Grace Winans
-to be that. Promise me that you will forgive him freely! If he acted
-wrongly he has suffered for it. It is so easy to go wrong--to err is
-human, you know."
-
-No wavering in that sternly curved red lip shows acquiescence. His
-voice rises higher, with a throb of pain in it:
-
-"'If ye forgive not men their trespasses how shall my Father which is
-in heaven forgive you?' Gracie, say 'I promise.'"
-
-All the sudden hot anger against the husband she had loved--the husband
-who had wronged her, and left desolate the sweetest years of her
-life--fades out of her heart. The words falter as hollowly from her
-lips as from his:
-
-"I promise."
-
-"Thanks. May God bless you--and--and make all your future years happy
-ones. Mother--call mother, please."
-
-She puts a little cordial to the panting lips and tearfully obeys.
-
-On her knees at the other side of the bed the anguished mother listens
-to the tender message to the absent sister, the soft words of comfort,
-the low farewell. With the last kiss of her son on her lips she buries
-her face speechlessly in his pillow.
-
-"Gracie, will _you_ raise me a little?"
-
-She bends with one arm under his shoulders, the other across his
-breast, and lifts him so that his head rests comfortably against her
-shoulder--an easy task, fragile and wearied as she is, for he has
-wasted in the grasp of that destroying fever until he is scarcely more
-than a wan shadow of himself.
-
-Bending to look into his face, she asks, softly:
-
-"Willard, are you easy now?"
-
-"Quite _easy_," he answers, in a strangely contented tone, with such
-a tender caress in it that Grace starts; and as he falters "good-by,"
-she bends with a sudden impulse and just touches her lips to his in a
-pure thrill of sisterly affection and grief; his glance lifts to hers
-an instant and remains fixed; a quivering sigh, a scarcely perceptible
-shudder, and Willard Clendenon's spirit has flown out of the earthly
-heaven of her arms to the higher heaven of his soul.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Later, as Grace lay weeping in her own room, the bereaved mother came
-gliding in. The soft flame of a wax candle lent a faint, pure light to
-the room, and showed her gentle face, free from tears, but seamed with
-a touching resignation beautiful in the extreme. What a mournful pathos
-lies in the grief of an old face! It is more eloquent than tears, even
-as silence can be more eloquent than speech.
-
-Sitting on the edge of Grace's lounge, gently smoothing the disheveled
-curls with her cool fingers, it would seem as if the younger woman were
-the mourner, she the comforter.
-
-"God knows best," she says, with a Christian's strong reliance; and
-then she added, pathetically: "And it has come to me suddenly, Gracie,
-child, that my poor boy was not, perhaps, quite happy, or, at least,
-that some grief, at which we never guessed, was mingled with the quiet
-thread of his life."
-
-A sudden memory of words of his came into Grace's mind.
-
-"God, when He puts a life-long sorrow on our hearts, usually
-compensates for it by giving us a brief span of life in which to endure
-it."
-
-"He deserved to be happy," she answered, warmly. "He was so good, so
-true. If any merited perfect content, it was your son."
-
-"You have seen him sometimes in the whirl of gay society, Grace; did
-you ever notice in him any peculiar attachment for a woman?"
-
-"Never," Grace answered, wondering. "He was courteously polite,
-deferentially chivalrous to all, but seemed attached to none in
-particular. Why do you ask?"
-
-"Because I found this--I would show it to none but you, Grace--on his
-poor dead heart. It tells its own sad story."
-
-She put into the young girl's hand a broad, flat gold locket, swinging
-by a slight gold chain. Almost as if she touched a coffin-lid, Grace
-moved the spring.
-
-It flew open. No woman's pictured face smiled back at her--the upper
-lid had a deeply cut inscription, _February_, 1871--in the other deeper
-side lay a dead white rose, its short, thorny stem wound about with a
-tangle of pale-gold hair.
-
-That was all. A sudden memory stirred at Grace's heart, and it all came
-back to her. The winter morning in her conservatory at Norfolk--the
-white rose on her breast, the tangled, broken curl, the gentle good-by.
-Warm flushes of irrepressible color surged up to her pale face, and
-with a sudden shocked horror Mrs. Clendenon glanced from the stem of
-the withered rose to the soft curls she was mechanically smoothing.
-
-It was enough. "My poor boy!" she murmured and taking Grace Winans in
-her tender, forgiving, motherly arms, kissed her forehead.
-
-And the tie between the two women never grew less close and warm. The
-still form they carried home to Norfolk to lay in its grave was a
-mutual sorrowful tie between them forever.
-
-Stella De Vere came next day, heavily vailed, on her father's arm, and
-kissed Captain Clendenon in his coffin, leaving a bouquet of lilies on
-his pulseless breast.
-
-But at early morning's dawn a slender, white-robed form bent over him,
-all her golden tresses sweeping over the heart that lay under its
-treasured keepsake still, and a sister's pained and tender kiss rested
-warmly on the sealed lips whose untold secret had come so strangely
-into her keeping.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX.
-
-"BABY FINGERS, WAXEN TOUCHES."
-
- "My heart grew softer as I gazed upon
- That youthful mother as she soothed to rest,
- With a low song, her loved and cherished one,
- The bud of promise on her gentle breast;
- For 'tis a sight that angel ones above
- May stoop to gaze on from their bowers of bliss,
- When Innocence upon the breast of Love
- Is cradled in a sinful world like this."
-
- --AMELIA B. WELBY.
-
-
-The telegraphic message that flashed across the ocean to Lulu Conway
-with such mournful tidings never reached her; she was already on the
-ocean, homeward bound, having just received the letter that told of
-Willard's illness at Memphis. It was not until she reached home in May,
-and was safely domiciled at Ocean View, that Bruce went into Norfolk
-and brought back the sad-faced mother, whose mourning weeds were the
-first indication to Lulu of her bitter bereavement.
-
-Mrs. Winans, too, was domiciled safely at home again, to the great
-delight of honest Norah, who had been left in entire charge of the
-stately Winans' mansion, and had fretted herself almost to a shadow in
-anticipation of losing her mistress by that "fatal yellow fever." Even
-now Norah was hardly morally convinced that this were really she. But
-as the days went by and the young lady's cheek began to gather color
-and roundness again, and her soft, unwonted laugh to wake the sweeping
-echoes of the large, silent house, Norah's doubts were displaced by
-joyful certainty, and she began to hope that a happier life for the
-young lady was presaged by her returning smile and lighter spirits.
-
-Norah did not know that the hope springing softly in the wife's heart
-had such sure foundation to build upon. Grace had withheld from her the
-fact that General Winans was coming home in May, and Norah's secret
-thoughts and misgivings on this subject were many.
-
-Poor Norah had never forgiven herself for the loss of the little child
-that had been left in its father's care to be so strangely spirited
-away. She reproached herself always, in her sensitive soul feeling
-herself entirely to blame, and humbly wondering sometimes how Mrs.
-Winans could abide the sight of her, much less her daily personal
-attendance; while Mrs. Winans herself, always just, gentle, and
-considerate to her domestics as to others, never blamed her in the
-least, really was fond of the honest creature, and in her sensitive
-dread of new faces around, would not have consented to be deprived of
-Norah. Indeed, her whole domestic staff had entered her service when
-she came as a bride to Senator Winans' new and beautiful home, and were
-likely to remain as long as they behaved passably well. She never drew
-a tight rein on the poor creatures, following as nearly as she could,
-in her daily life, the golden rule.
-
-A charmingly affectionate billet from Mrs. Conway, the morning
-succeeding their return to Ocean View, invited Grace to come out and
-see them, as they were all in the deepest grief for the poor, dear
-captain--Lulu, indeed, being excessively shocked and ill, with the
-physician in close attendance.
-
-The afternoon found Gracie springing from her phaeton at the gates of
-Ocean View, where John, as of old, met her with an adoring smile on his
-dark visage.
-
-"And what is the news with you, John?" she asked, good-naturedly, as
-she saw that some unusual news agitated his shallow brain. "What have
-you been doing all this time with yourself?"
-
-"Only jist gittin' married, Miss Grace," he responded, with a
-glittering smile, "to jist the prettiest yaller gal ole mis' eber
-owned! You 'members of Julie, de chambermaid?"
-
-Grace supplemented her uncontrollable smile with a solid congratulation
-in the shape of a bridal gift from her well-filled porte-monnaie, and
-swept on to the house.
-
-Mrs. Conway and her nephew met her in the hall, both unaffectedly glad
-to see her, and in the midst of much whispering, they left Bruce below,
-and went up to Lulu's chamber.
-
-It was so dark in here that Grace, coming directly in from the May
-sunshine, at first saw nothing; then, as the gloom cleared away a
-little, she distinguished Mrs. Clendenon's black-robed form sitting
-near the bed where Lulu lay, white, and still, and grief-stricken,
-under the white draperies, with a tiny mite of a girl-baby (prematurely
-hurried into the world by grief that oftenest hurries people out of it)
-on her arm.
-
-She stooped and kissed the quivering lips that tried to speak, but
-could not; and, indeed, what could either say that breathed aught of
-comfort to that shocked and distressed young spirit whose life hung
-vibrant on a quivering thread? Silence was perhaps the best comforter
-then, and Grace took the little newcomer in her arms, and gently
-diverted the young mother's thoughts by tracing vague resemblances to
-its handsome parents in the pink and infinitesimal morsel of life--and
-what a power there is in a simple baby-life sometimes!
-
-Lulu's pain was softened momentarily by this idle feminine chatter and
-small talk so vigorously maintained, and her tears remained awhile
-unwept in their fountains, while now and then a low whisper to her old
-friend showed how welcome and appreciated was that visit.
-
-"If baby lives," she murmured in an undertone to Grace, "we mean to
-call it _Grace Willard_, for you--and--brother," with a falter over the
-name. "I think he would have liked it so."
-
-And Mrs. Winans has hard work to keep back her own tears at the
-memories that flow while she holds Lulu's mite of a girl in her
-arms--thronging memories of her own early days of motherhood--her
-nestling baby-boy, her darling so rudely torn from her breast. She is
-glad when the afternoon wanes and it is time to go for she cannot bear
-to sit there smiling and outwardly content with that heavy, aching
-heart.
-
-"Gracie"--Lulu draws her down to whisper with pink lips against her
-ear--"you may expect him--General Winans--at any hour. He gets into
-Norfolk to-day. We traveled from Europe together, but he had to stop in
-Washington on business, and gets here this evening, I think. Will you
-be glad, dear?"
-
-She cannot answer. Her heart is in a great whirl of painful feelings.
-Her baby! She wants _her_ baby! The unhealed wound in the mother-heart
-will not be satisfied thus. Lulu's motherhood has thrilled that aching
-chord afresh; the years that have passed are but a dream, and she
-longs to hold her rosy, laughing boy again to her tortured breast.
-Mother-love never grows cold nor dead, mother-grief never can be healed
-nor even seared. It "lives eternal" in the mother's breast, the most
-exquisite joy, the most exquisite searching pain the human heart can
-know.
-
-"You are going to be so happy," Lulu whispers again in her loving
-tone, "and, Gracie," with a fluttering sigh. "I have been so happy in
-anticipating your happiness!"
-
-Touched to the depths of her warm heart Grace bends to leave a tender
-kiss on the pale brow, and promising to come again, goes out. Her
-adieus are hastily made to the rest, and once more in the little pony
-phaeton she skims over the miles between her and home. The bright roses
-that blossom on her cheeks are sources of undisguised admiration to
-Norah, who opines that Mrs. Winans ought to drive every evening.
-
-"Never mind about that, Norah," she answers, indifferently; "only
-please brush my curls over fresh, and give me a pretty white muslin
-dress to wear this evening."
-
-And Norah obeys in secret wonder at her mistress' suddenly-developed
-vanity.
-
-She is lovely enough to be vain when Norah turns her off her hands as
-"finished." All that golden glory of ringlets ripples away from the
-fair, pure brow enchantingly, sweeping to her dainty waist in a sweet
-girlish fashion. A faint flush covers her cheeks, two stars burn in
-the violet depths of her eyes, her lips are unwontedly tender and
-sweet. The slim, perfect figure is draped in the misty folds of a snowy
-muslin, whose loose sleeves falling open, leave bare her dimpled white
-arms and hands. The low frill of misty lace leaves the white curve of
-her throat exposed, with no other ornament than a tea-rose budding
-against its lovely whiteness. So as lovely as one can fancy Eve, fresh
-from the hands of her Creator, the beautiful, unhappy, wronged young
-wife passed from her dressing-room and into that lovely shrine of her
-garnered griefs that saw what the world saw not--the desolation of that
-sensitive heart--the nursery of her loved, lost baby!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI.
-
-AT HER FEET.
-
- "But all in vain, to thought's tumultuous flow
- I strive to give the strength of glowing words;
- The waves of feeling, tossing to and fro,
- In broken music o'er my heart's loose chords,
- Give but their fainting echoes from my soul,
- As through its silent depths their wild, swift currents roll."
-
- --AMELIA B. WELBY.
-
- "Hope's precious pearl in sorrow's cup,
- Unmelted at the bottom lay,
- To shine again when all drunk up,
- The bitterness should pass away."
-
- --MOORE'S LOVES OF THE ANGELS.
-
-
-She pushes back the sliding-doors between her own room and this one,
-letting the soft, clear light flood its dim recesses, opens the windows
-admitting the balmy sea breeze and the moonlight. Divided then between
-suspense and pain she throws upward the lace canopy and stands leaning
-once more over the empty crib that seems to her now more like a grave.
-
-"It was May, 1870, when we quarreled here over baby's crib," she muses
-to herself, "and it seems as if years, and years, and years have gone
-over my head--yet this is only May, 1874. Ah! me."
-
-Did minutes or hours go by? She never knew as she steadied her soul
-against the rushing, headlong waves of memory that threatened to engulf
-her in its chilling tide. She had put the past away from her in the
-excitement of other pursuits and other aims, and now--now it came
-back, relentless, remorseless, sweeping her quivering heart-strings,
-atuning all her sensitive nerves to pain.
-
-_Would_ he come? Her helpless heart throbbed a passive denial. _If_ he
-came, as Lulu had asked her, _would_ she be glad?
-
-She scarcely knew. She loved him--loved him with a pure, deep love
-that having once given its pledge to last till death, no earthly power
-could alter. Hers was a very strong and faithful devotion, but human
-resentment must hold a small place in the human breast as long as life
-lasts. And Grace Winans, brave, patient, tried by fire as she had been,
-was still only mortal. If he came, strengthened, purified, enobled by
-suffering and sad experience, they must still meet, she thinks, with
-a sharp heart-pang, as over a _grave_--the grave of their child; the
-winsome baby whom she sees in fancy at his childish play on the nursery
-rug, toddling over the floor, laughing in her arms, catching at her
-long, bright curls--what shall she say to the man whose folly has
-deprived her of all this joy, when he comes to ask forgiveness?
-
-"God help me!" she moans, and drops her hopeless head upon her hands.
-
-"Gracie!"
-
-Does her heart deceive her ears? She glances shyly up, sees _him_
-standing not three feet from her, and he lifts the little child by his
-side, and tossing him into the crib, growing too small for his boyish
-proportions, says, wistfully:
-
-"Gracie, I have brought him back to you to plead his father's cause."
-
-One long look into the boyish beauty of that face that has not outgrown
-its infantile bloom, and her arms are about the little form, though
-silent in her joy as in her grief no word escapes her lips.
-
-"Mamma, my own lovely mamma!" the little boy lisps, tutored thereto no
-doubt by his father's wisdom, and her only answer is in raining kisses,
-smiles and tears.
-
-It is so long before she thinks of the silent father that when she
-turns it is only to find him kneeling at her feet. On the dusk beauty
-of that proud face she sees the sharp traces of suffering, weariness,
-almost hopelessness. He takes the small hand that falls passive to her
-side, touching it lightly to his feverish lips.
-
-"Gracie," she hears in the low, strong accents of despair, "there
-is nothing I can say for myself--I am at your foot to hear my doom!
-Whatever you accord me, it cannot be utter despair, since I am blessed
-beyond measure in having looked even once more on your beloved face."
-
-For minutes she looked down on that bowed head in silence. All the love
-and pride, all the good and evil in her nature are warring against each
-other. Shall she let the cruel past go by, or shall she--and then,
-between her and these tumultuous thoughts, rises the face of one who
-is an angel in heaven--her lips part to speak, and close mutely; she
-smiles, then slowly falling like the perfuming petals of a great white
-rose, her white robes waver to the floor, and her small hand flutters
-down on his shoulder, and she is kneeling beside him.
-
-He looks up with an unspoken prayer of thanksgiving on his mobile
-features, and twines strong, loving arms about the form that has fallen
-unconscious against his breast.
-
- * * * * *
-
-General Winans takes his wife abroad to escape the "nine days wonder."
-Norah goes with them, in charge of little Earle, her face glowing like
-a miniature sun with delight at the way that "things," in her homely
-phraseology "have turned out."
-
-They visit the adopted grandparents of little Earle, and are _feted_
-and flattered by them, until sweet Grace in the fullness of her own
-happiness and her compassion for them, promises them an annual visit.
-_Deo volent_, from the small idol of her heart and theirs.
-
-And, "by the way," in Paris--"dear, delightful Paris"--where they
-sojourn awhile, they meet--who else but Major Frank Fontenay, U. S. A.,
-"doing the honeymoon" in most approved style with the "fair Cordelia,
-the banker's heiress." And thus has the susceptible major consoled
-himself for Lulu's rejection. It is needless to say that these two
-couples uniting, "do" the tour of Europe in the most leisurely and
-pleasant manner, and are duly favored with honors and attentions.
-
-Latest advises from Norfolk report the Winans and Conway families as on
-the happiest terms. Rumor says, indeed, that the two young mothers have
-prospectively betrothed the fragile little brown-eyed Grace Willard to
-the handsome young Earle Willoughby, the hopeful heir of two fortunes.
-"However these things be," we leave them to the future, which takes
-care of itself.
-
- * * * * *
-
-And far down a shady path in one of Norfolk's lovely cemeteries there
-rises a low green grave, over which a costly white marble shaft, never
-without its daily wreath of fresh white roses through all of summer's
-golden days, tapers sadly against the blue sky, telling all who care to
-know that
-
- WILLARD CLENDENON,
- AGED 36,
- RESTS HERE.
-
- "Nature doth mourn for thee. There is no need
- For man to strike his plaintive lyre and fail,
- As fail he must if he attempts thy praise."
-
-
- [THE END]
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-_A Novelization of the Celebrated Play_,
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-A GENTLEMAN FROM GASCONY.
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-BY BICKNELL DUDLEY
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-_OPINIONS OF THE PRESS_:
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-romantic love tale as "A Gentleman from Gascony," by Bicknell Dudley,
-which Street & Smith publish in yellow covers, while deserving of
-more substantial garb. The story is a formidable rival of Mr. Stanley
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-_Louisville Courier-Journal_: It is a thoroughly readable novel that
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-of "A Gentleman from Gascony." Although the title recalls Stanley
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-in the time of Henri of Navarre, they are not alike, save in the fact
-that both the "Gentleman of France," and the "Gentleman from Gascony"
-are heroes in the fullest sense of the term from a romantic standpoint.
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-_Pittsburgh Press_: Bicknell Dudley has written another story, based
-on French history, around the time of the St. Bartholomew massacre.
-It is a tale of adventure with a single hero, who embodies in himself
-the wile of an Aramis, the strength of a Porthos, and the gallantry of
-a D'Artagnan. The adventures of the Chevalier de Puycadere are, even
-if impossible in these days, still redolent of the times of knight
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-he was an illustrious chevalier both in love and war, he was certainly
-no chevalier d'industrie, and happily comes out triumphant.
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-courage, of good blood but impoverished estates, who comes to Paris to
-seek his fortune. This he accomplishes after many adventures, sometimes
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-Gabrielle de Vrissac, a maid of honor to the Queen of Navarre, and the
-Gascon, Raoul de Puycadere. Many historical characters figure among
-them--Henri of Navarre, Marguerite de Valois, Catherine de Medicis, and
-Charles IX., and Admiral Coliquy. The author, Bicknell Dudley, exhibits
-literary ability of the very first order.
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-adventures.
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-Transcriber's note:
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-This story was originally serialized in Street & Smith's _New York
-Weekly_ from July 4, 1881 to September 26, 1881.
-
-Added table of contents.
-
-Some inconsistent hyphenation (e.g. "chambermaid" vs. "chamber-maid")
-has been retained from the original.
-
-Archaic spellings ("vail", "staid", etc.) retained from the original.
-
-Several missing periods and a letter 'y' (probably attributable to
-light printing) have been added to the "Catalogue" on the inside front
-cover.
-
-Page 14, corrected comma to period after "husband, Senator Winans."
-
-Page 16, inserted "as" into "cold as death."
-
-Page 17, corrected "you" to "your" in "your wishes are always mine,
-Paul."
-
-Page 18, added missing close single quote after "I told you so?"
-
-Page 22, corrected typographical error "peaae" in "domestic peace
-and love."
-
-Page 24, corrected comma to period after "I think I am mad to-night."
-
-Page 31, added missing close single quote after "when I was a little
-child?"
-
-Page 32, corrected "ole miss'" to "ole mis'" for consistency in 'from
-the said "ole mis'."' Corrected Mars to Marse in "Glad to see you,
-Marse Bruce." Corrected typographical error "commennted" in "commented
-the merry little darkey."
-
-Page 35, corrected "Gray" to "Grey" in "passionate love for Grace
-Grey." Corrected typographical error "worldy" in "scruple of worldly
-pride." Removed unnecessary comma after "splendid" in "dreary,
-splendid home."
-
-Page 42, corrected typographical error "tesolve" in "resolve was
-taken."
-
-Page 43, corrected "Gray" to "Grey" in "when Grace Grey had."
-
-Page 46, added missing close quote after "Miss Story!" Changed "you" to
-"your" in "your contemptible innuendoes."
-
-Page 50, grammatical mismatch between "consequences" and "has" retained
-from original.
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-Page 51, corrected "had have" to "have had" in "ought to have had more
-manliness."
-
-Page 54, added missing quote before "or his servants would not."
-Removed unnecessary comma after "honest black face."
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-Page 56, added missing quote after "Waiting!" Corrected "William" to
-"Willard" in "Willard Clendenon could not withhold."
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-Page 57, corrected typographical error "conjucture" in "the scandal,
-the conjecture."
-
-Page 61, removed duplicate "and" from "and try, do."
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-Page 62, corrected "Child Harold" to "Childe Harold" at head of chapter
-VIII.
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-Page 64, changed "wrong" to "wronged" in "poor wronged and injured
-girl."
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-Page 65, retained unusual contraction "musn't" from original.
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-Page 67, corrected typographical error "your" in "the man you're
-talking of."
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-Page 68, changed ! to ? after "that new song I sent you yesterday?"
-
-Page 70, removed stray period and space before question mark in "her
-husband again?"
-
-Page 72, corrected typographical error "privilged" in "privileged
-domestic."
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