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You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms of -the Project Gutenberg License included with this eBook or online at -www.gutenberg.org. If you are not located in the United States, you'll have -to check the laws of the country where you are located before using this ebook. - -Title: An Eye for an Eye - Big Blue Book no. B-24 - -Author: Clarence Darrow - -Release Date: January 30, 2017 [EBook #54074] - -Language: English - -Character set encoding: UTF-8 - -*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK AN EYE FOR AN EYE *** - - - - -Produced by Richard Tonsing and the Online Distributed -Proofreading Team at http://www.pgdp.net (This file was -produced from images generously made available by The -Internet Archive) - - - - - - -</pre> - - -<div class='tnotes covernote'> - -<p class='c000'><strong>Transcriber's Note:</strong></p> - -<p class='c000'>The cover image was created by the transcriber and is placed in the public domain.</p> - -</div> - -<table class='table0' summary='BIG BLUE BOOK NO.'> -<colgroup> -<col width='91%' /> -<col width='8%' /> -</colgroup> - <tr> - <td class='c001'><span class='large'>BIG BLUE BOOK NO.</span><br />Edited by E. Haldeman-Julius</td> - <td class='c002'><strong><span class='xlarge'>B–24</span></strong></td> - </tr> -</table> - -<div> - <h1 class='c003'>An Eye for an Eye</h1> -</div> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div><span class='large'>Clarence Darrow</span></div> - <div class='c004'><span class='large'>HALDEMAN-JULIUS COMPANY</span></div> - <div><span class='large'>GIRARD, KANSAS</span></div> - </div> -</div> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c005'> - <div>Copyright, 1905, by</div> - <div>Clarence Darrow</div> - <div class='c004'>Printed in the United States of America</div> - </div> -</div> - -<div class='ph1'> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c005'> - <div>AN EYE FOR AN EYE</div> - </div> -</div> - -</div> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_3'>3</span> - <h2 class='c006'>I</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_003.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -When Hank Clery left the switch-yards in the outskirts of -Chicago he took the street car and went down town. He was -going to the county jail on the north side of the river. Hank -had never been inside the jail though he had been arrested a -number of times and taken to the police court, escaping luckily with a -small fine which his mother had contrived to pay. She was one of -the best washerwomen of the whole neighborhood, and never without -work. All the officers knew that whenever Hank got into trouble his -mother would pay the fine and costs. Hank had often been arrested, -but he was by no means a bad fellow. He lived with his old Irish -mother and was very fond of her and often brought his wages home -if none of the boys happened to be near when the pay-car came around. -Hank was a switchman in one of the big railroad yards in Chicago. -Of course, he and his companions drank quite a little, and then their -sports and pastimes were not of the gentlest sort; for that matter -neither was their work—climbing up and down running cars and turning -switches just ahead of a great locomotive and watching to make -sure which track was safe where the moving cars and engines were -all around—did not tend to a quiet life. Of course, most people think -that no man will work in a switch-yard unless he drinks. Perhaps no -man would drink unless he worked in a switch-yard or some such place.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Well, on this day Hank was going to the jail, not on account of -any of his own misdeeds, but on an errand of mercy. The night before, -the priest had come to Hank’s home and told him that his old friend, -Jim Jackson, had begged for him to visit the jail. Hank at first refused, -but the priest told him that Jim had no friends and was anxious to -have a few minutes’ talk with him before he died; Jim had some message -that he wanted to give Hank that he could not leave with anyone -else. Hank knew that Jim was to be hanged on Friday, and he had -thought about it a good deal in the last few days and wished that it -was over. He had known Jim for a long time; they had often been -out together and sometimes got drunk together. Jim once worked in -the yards, but one night one of the other boys was struck by the -Limited as it pulled out on the main track, and Jim and Hank gathered -him up when the last Pullman coach had rolled over him; and after that -Jim could never go back to the yards; so he managed to get an old -horse and wagon and began peddling potatoes on the street.</p> - -<p class='c000'>One evening Hank took up the paper, and there he saw a headline -covering the whole page and a little fine print below telling how -Jim had killed his wife with a poker. Hank did not understand how -this could be true, but as the evidence seemed plain he made up his mind -that Jim had really always been a demon, but that he had managed to -<span class='pageno' id='Page_4'>4</span>keep it hidden from his friends. Hank really did not want to go to the -jail to see Jim; somehow it seemed as if it was not the same fellow -that he used to know so well, and then he was afraid and nervous -about talking with a man who was going to be hanged next day. But -the priest said so much that finally Hank’s mother told him she thought -he ought to go. So he made up his mind that he would stand it, -although he was a great deal more afraid and nervous than when he -was turning switches in the yard. After the priest left the house Hank -went down to the alderman and got a pass to go inside the jail. He -always went to the alderman for everything; all the people thought that -this was what an alderman was for and they cared nothing about anything -else he did.</p> - -<p class='c000'>When Hank got down town he went straight across the Dearborn -Street bridge to the county jail. It was just getting dusk as he came up -to the great building. The jail did not look a bit like a jail. It was -a tall grand building, made of white stone, and the long rows of windows -that cover the whole Dearborn Street side looked bright and -cheerful with the electric lights that were turned on as Hank came up -to the door. If it had not been for the iron-bars across the windows -he might have thought that he was looking at a bank or a great wholesale -warehouse. Hank stepped into the large vestibule just inside the -shelter of the big front door. Along each side was a row of people -sitting on benches placed against the wall. He did not wait to look -closely at this crowd; in fact, he could not have done so had he tried, -for Hank was no artist or philosopher and was neither subtle nor deep. -He saw them just as he would have seen a freight car stealing down -the track to catch him unawares. He did notice that most of these -watchers were women, that many of them were little children, and that -all looked poor and woe-begone. They were the same people that Hank -saw every day out by the yards, living in the rumble of the moving -trains and under the black clouds of smoke and stench that floated over -their mean homes from the great chimneys and vats of the packing -houses. Most of the women and children had baskets or bundles in -their arms, and sat meek and still waiting for the big key to turn in -the great iron lock of the second door.</p> - -<p class='c000'>When Hank went up to this door someone inside pushed back -a little slide, showed his face at the peep-hole, and asked him who he -was and what he wanted. Hank shoved the alderman’s letter through -the little window and the door opened without delay. This was not -the first time that the gloomy gate had turned on its hinges under the -magic of that name, both for coming in and going out.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Inside the little office was the same motley, helpless crowd of -people, the same sad-faced women and weary children standing dazed -and dejected with their poor baskets and bundles in their arms. Some -were waiting to be taken through this barred door, while others had -just returned and were stopping until the turnkey should open the -outside gate and let them go.</p> - -<p class='c000'>In a few minutes a guard came to Hank and asked if he was -the man who brought the alderman’s note. On receiving the reply, the -guard told him that the alderman was all right and it was worth while -to be his friend. That was the way he got his job and he always stuck -<span class='pageno' id='Page_5'>5</span>by his friends. Then the guard unlocked another door and took Hank -to the elevator where he was carried to the fourth story. Here he was -let off on an iron floor directly in front of a great door made of iron -bars. The turnkey quickly unlocked and opened this door and let Hank -and the guard into what seemed a long hall with iron floor, ceiling and -walls. Nothing but iron all around. Along one side of the hall were -more iron bars, and a wire netting ran from the ceiling to the floor. -Along the whole length of this wire netting was a row of the same -kind of people Hank had seen below. They were packed close to the -grating, and crowding and pushing to get up to the screening. Most -of these were women, here and there one of them holding a little child -by the hand and one with a baby in her arms. On the other side Hank -saw a row of men pressing just as closely to the netting, most of these -looking pale and ill. The evening was hot and not a breath of fresh -air was anywhere about. The peculiar odor of the prison, more sickening -that the stock yards stench which Hank always, breathed, was so -strong that he could not tell whether he smelled it or tasted it.</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guards were rushing noisily around among the visitors and -inmates, passing bundles and baskets out and in, calling the names of -the prisoners to be taken from their cells inside and brought down to -the wire netting to get a glimpse of some relative or friend. Hank -was bewildered by it all and for a few minutes stood almost dazed, -wondering what it meant and what good purpose it all served.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Next to him stood a woman, perhaps forty years of age; in one -hand she held a basket, and by the other the hand of a little girl about -nine years old. The woman was dressed in a loose, ill-fitting gown -and on her head was a black sailor hat. Behind the wire screen was -a man of about her own age. He wore only black trousers, suspenders, -a grayish woolen shirt and old shoes. The man and woman stood with -their fingers touching through the netting. Hank heard the man say -that he did not know what to do, that the good lawyers charged so -much that he couldn’t have them, and the ones who came to the jail -did more harm than good. It was funny that you couldn’t do anything -without a lawyer. One of the prisoners, who was a smart man -and had been there a good many times, had told him that the best way -was to plead guilty and ask the mercy of the court; that he thought the -judge might let him off with a two hundred dollar fine—“you know -the State’s Attorney gets the money.” Hank heard the woman answer -that maybe to pay the fine was the best way after all; as soon as he -was arrested she took Gussy out of the high school, and Gussy was -now working in the department store and thought Aggie could get in as -a cash girl; of course Aggie was too young, but still she was pretty -large for her age and might get through, as Gussy knew the floorwalker -very well—he stopped at the house to visit one evening that -week and was real nice.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I’ve been scrubbing in the Masonic Temple nights, but it’s pretty -hard work and I am getting so large I am afraid I can’t keep it up -much longer. You know I’ll be sick next month. There are a few -things in the house yet and I might get a little money on them, and -then there are the Maloneys next door; you know we were always -fighting, but after you went away they seemed kind of sorry and -<span class='pageno' id='Page_6'>6</span>have been awfully good to us, and I think they might help us a little, -although they haven’t got much themselves——”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank couldn’t stop to hear all they said, and besides he felt as if -he had no right to stand and listen, so he let his eye wander on down -the line. Just beyond he saw an old bent, gray-haired woman with a -long black veil and spotless black gown. She was crying and talking to -a young man inside the grating. He heard her ask, “How could you -have done it?” and heard him answer, “Mother, I don’t know, but -somehow I didn’t seem to think about it at the time.” Just beyond -were a man and a woman and it was so hard for them to get close to -the screen that the man held a little baby up in his arms to look over the -people in front. The child looked in wonder and then held out its hands -and shouted with delight, “Mamma, there’s papa. Papa, have you been -here all the time? Why don’t you come back home?” Young girls, -too, pressed closely up to the screen, each with that look at the youth -inside that neither the wise nor the foolish have ever failed to understand. -The prison bars and the laws that placed their lovers outside -the pale had no power to change their feeling, only to deepen and -intensify their love.</p> - -<p class='c000'>While Hank stood in the corridor a number of men called from -the inside: “Pardner, have you got any tobacco?” Hank hastily gave -away all he had, and thought that if he should ever come back he -would buy as much as he could before his visit. But his musing was -soon interrupted by the guard tapping him on the shoulder and telling -him he was ready. Then another turnkey opened a barred door and -let him inside the wicket. Here he stood in a narrow hallway with -still another big locked door in front. Soon this was swung open, and -at last Hank stood inside the bars and the nettings with a great throng -of coatless, hatless men all talking, laughing, chewing and smoking, -and walking by twos and threes, up and down the room. Hank had -always supposed that these men were different from the ones he knew -and had fancied that he would be afraid to be with such a crowd, but -when he got inside, somehow he did not think of them as burglars and -pickpockets; they seemed just like other men, except that they were -a little paler and thinner and more bent. Some of these men spoke to -Hank, asking him for tobacco or for money. He saw one man whom -he knew very well, one of his neighbors that he supposed was out of -town; and he quickly noticed that this man tried to keep out of his -sight. Hank had never thought that he was bad, and could not but -wonder how he happened to be here.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank looked around for Jim, but was told that he was upstairs -locked in his cell. The guard explained that the death-watch had been -set on him and that for some time no one had left him day or night. -He was to be hanged in the morning before sunrise. He himself had -gone around that day and handed written invitations to the judges to -be present. Some of them had asked him whether they could get in -a few friends who wanted to go and see the hanging. The guard said -they had over a thousand applications for tickets; that it was one of -the most popular hangings they’d ever had in the jail. He supposed -this was because Jackson had killed his wife and the newspapers had -said so much about it.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_7'>7</span>He could not help feeling sorry for Jackson. Of course, he supposed -he was awfully wicked or he wouldn’t have killed his wife, but -since he had come to know Jackson he had found him a perfect gentleman -and very kind and obliging, and he acted like a good fellow. It -really seemed kind of tough to hang a man. He had seen a good many -men hung and was getting kind of tired of it. He believed he would -go out in the country fishing somewhere tomorrow instead of staying -to see it done. They never needed so many guards on that day because -all the prisoners were kept locked up in their cells.</p> - -<p class='c000'>As Hank went along, the guard chatted to him in the most friendly -way. He pointed over to the courtyard where there were some long -black beams and boards, and said that was where they were going to -hang Jackson, that the carpenters would put up the scaffold in the -night. The murderers’ row where Jim was kept was around on the -side where he couldn’t see the carpenters put up the scaffold. It used -to be right in front but it had been changed. The guard said he didn’t -see much difference, because the men could hear it and they knew just -what it was, and anyhow they never could sleep the last night unless -they took something. He told Hank that after they got through he -would take him down to the office and show him a piece of the rope -that they used to hang the Anarchists, and the one they used on Pendergast, -who killed Carter Harrison, and the one they had for the -car-barn murderers. It was the very best rope they could get; some -people wouldn’t know it from clothes-line but it was a good deal finer -and more expensive.</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guard said it was strange how these men acted before they -were hanged.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“You wouldn’t hardly know them from the prisoners who were -in jail working out a fine,” he explained. “They don’t seem to mind -it very much or talk about it a great deal. Of course, at first they -generally kind of think that the Supreme Court is going to give them -a new trial; their lawyers tell them so. But half the time this is so -that their friends will get more money to pay for carrying the cases -up; though I must say that some of the lawyers are good fellows and -do all they can to help them. Sometimes some of the lawyers that -have the worst reputations are really better than the others. Then -after the Supreme Court decides against them, they have a chance to -go to the governor and the Board of Pardons. Of course this isn’t -much use, but somehow they always think it will be, and the case is -never really decided until the last day and that kind of helps to keep -them up. Now, there’s Jackson; I took him the telegram about an hour -ago and he read it and it didn’t seem to make much difference. He -just said, ‘Well, I s’pose that’s all.’ And then he picked it up and read -it again and said, ‘Well, the lawyer says he’s going back to the governor -at midnight. Something might happen then; will the office be open if -any telegram comes?’ I told him that it would and he says, ‘Well, I -presume that it’s no use; but where there’s life there’s hope.’ I s’pose -the lawyer just said that to kind of brace him up and that he took the -night train back to Chicago, but I didn’t tell Jim so. Well, anyhow, -I’m going to see that he has a good breakfast. We always give ‘em -anything they want, either tea or coffee, ham and eggs, bacon, steak, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_8'>8</span>beans, potatoes, wheat cakes and molasses, almost anything you can -think of. Of course most of ‘em can’t eat much, but some of ‘em take -a pretty big breakfast. It really don’t do any good, only the taste of -it goin’ down; they are always dead before it has a chance to digest. -A good many of ‘em feel rather squeamish in the morning and drink a -good deal before they start out. We always give ‘em all they want to -drink; most of ‘em are really drunk when they are hung. But I think -that’s all right, don’t you? There were some temperance people once -that made a row about it, but I think that’s carrying temperance entirely -too far myself.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I didn’t mean to gossip with you so much, but I thought -maybe you would like to know something about it and so long as the -alderman sent you over I wanted to do all I could for you. Give my -respects to the alderman. I guess he’ll be a candidate next spring. He -says he won’t, but I think he will. He always knows what he’s doing. -All he wants is to throw them reform guys off the track. They might -know that they couldn’t beat him. Our people out there don’t care anything -about municipal ownership and Civil Service Reform, and things -like that. What they want is turkeys on Thanksgiving and to be helped -out of the lock-up and pardoned out of the Bridewell and found jobs. -That’s what they want, and there ain’t an alderman in town that tends -to the business of his ward better than ours, and we don’t care whether -the railroads and gas companies give him money or not. We don’t -expect him to work for nothin’ and don’t want him to; and what do -we care about the streets? None of us has horses and the fellows that -wants ‘em ought to pay for ‘em. Well, here’s Jackson, and I’ll tell the -guard to let you stay with him all you want to; he’s a good fellow and -will do what I want. You can say anything you please to Jackson and -he can talk to you all he wants to; the guard won’t listen if he knows -you’re all right, but it isn’t any more than fair, anyhow, for this is his -last night.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank listened to the guard without being impatient for, in the -first place, he felt as if he had made a new friend, and he liked him; -he was such a good talker and told him so much that was new and he -didn’t seem the least bit stuck up, although he had such a good job. -Then all the time he felt nervous and uneasy about meeting Jackson; -the Jackson he knew was not a criminal but a good fellow who used -to play pool and drink beer and go to primaries, while this man was a -murderer who was to be hung next day; then again he didn’t seem a -real man, but a sort of ghost, so that Hank had a good deal the feeling -he used to know as a child when he went past a graveyard, or that -he felt in a morgue, or when he went to look at some dead friend.</p> - -<p class='c000'>When he came up to the cell Jackson was smoking a cigar and -talking with the guard. At the first glance the uneasy feeling passed -away. It was the same Jim Jackson that he knew, except thinner and -paler than when he saw him last. Before the guard had time to speak -Jackson reached out his hand, smiled and said “Hello, Hank, I’m -awful glad you came. I’ve been looking for you all the afternoon.” -Hank took his hand without the least feeling that it was the hand of a -murderer. It was only the old friend and comrade he had known.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_9'>9</span>The guard unlocked the door and told Hank to go in. Then he -said:</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Now, you folks talk all you want to. I won’t hear a single word -you say. I’ll sit out here and if there is anything I can do, let me -know.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank went into the little cell. On one side was an iron shelf and -on this a straw tick and some bed clothing. A little wash-stand and -slop-pail stood in one corner, a chair was near the stand, and a few -pictures taken from colored supplements were on the white walls. The -guard handed in another chair and the two friends sat down. At first -there was a short, painful silence. It was plain that both had been -thinking what to say and neither knew just how to begin. Hank had -thought that he would ask Jim how he happened to kill his wife; he -thought he ought to talk with him and tell him how terrible it was. He -believed that perhaps this was his duty toward a fellow-being standing -so near the presence of his Maker. Then, too, he had the feeling that -unless he really told Jim what he thought about his crime, it would be -almost the same as being an accessory to the act. In fact, when Hank -was going to the jail he had a vague idea that his only right to visit -Jim was to preach to him in some way. He would almost have thought -it a crime to meet him on equal terms.</p> - -<p class='c000'>After they sat down Jim was again the first to speak. “My room -here’s pretty crowded but I guess it’ll do for tonight. Make yourself -just as comfortable as possible for I’d like to have you stay with me -as long as you can. It’s a little lonesome you know. The guard’s a -good fellow. He visits with me every night and is as friendly as he -can be. He told me that he was in jail himself once for burglary, but -you mustn’t say anything about it. His lawyer got him out, but he -says he was really guilty. That was a good many years ago. He says -he believes if he had gone to the penitentiary he would never have -amounted to anything, but as soon as he got out of jail he turned over -a new leaf and made up his mind to make something of himself, and -just see where he is now. He is an awful kind fellow. I know he -feels sorry for me. He gives me all the cigars I want and all the -privileges he can. There’s a guard here in the daytime that I don’t -like; he was appointed by the Citizens’ Association. He’s strict and -awful good. He’s always asking me questions about myself, says he’s -getting statistics for the association. He seems to think that it must -have been whisky that made me do it, and he gives me tracts; of course -that’s all right, but still you’d think that once in a while he’d say something -else to a fellow, or at least give him a cigar. Some way he -don’t seem to have any feeling. I s’pose he’s a good deal better than -the other guard but I don’t like him near so well.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But that wasn’t what I got you here for. I really wanted to talk -with you. You see no one that I knew has been to see me since I -came. I don’t s’pose I ought to expect they would. I used to know a -good many fellers who went to jail but I never went to see ‘em. I -always kind of thought they wa’n’t fit for me to associate with, and -I s’pose that’s the way most people believe. But since I came here somehow -it don’t look quite the same. Maybe that’s on account of what I -done. I told the priest I thought you’d come because we was always -<span class='pageno' id='Page_10'>10</span>such good friends, and he told me he would go and see you. He’s -been awful good to me although I never went to church any when I -was out. He talks to me as if I was just like other people. Of course -he tells me I done wrong, and I know I did, but he don’t tell me as if -I was the only one that ever done wrong, and as if he and everyone -else was so much different, and as if he couldn’t see how I done it. -He talks just as if my soul was worth as much as anybody’s and as -if I’d have a better chance afterward than I ever had before. Anyhow -he’s done me lots of good and I honestly believe he’s made me a better -man, and if I only had a chance to do anything now I’d amount to -something; but of course I can’t. But still, I wanted to tell you a few -things that I couldn’t even tell him, for you know that, no matter how -good he is, he somehow seems different from you; you know I kind -of feel as if you was just like me. You’ll excuse me, I know, for saying -this, bein’ as the time is so short.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“You remember about my boy. Now of course I always was a -rough fellow and never did quite right ever before that, but still I -guess you know I always loved that kid. Strange thing, he’ll be four -years old tomorrow on the very day—well, poor little fellow, I hope -he don’t know nothing about it. You remember the time that kid -had the croup and how we thought he couldn’t get well, and you know -I went down to the yard to tell you about it and how bad I felt. I -almost wish now he’d died, but maybe that’s wicked and God will take -care of the kid better’n he did of me. Well, I haven’t heard a word -about that boy since I came to the jail, or since I left him at the house -that night, except a little bit in court and what that good guard says. -He kind of holds out that he’s in some kind of an orphan asylum where -he’s gettin’ plenty to eat and where he’ll learn what’s right and wrong, -and be a good man, and that’s all right, but I’d like to know where the -kid is. He says if I thought so much of him I ought to have showed -it before, and I s’pose I ought; but I did think lots of him; just as -much as them rich folks think of their boys. I want him to be taken -care of and to be educated and grow up to be a good man, and maybe -it’s a good deal better if he never knows anything about his father, but -somehow I can’t help wantin’ him to know who I was and don’t want -him to think of me just like the newspapers and everybody else does. -I wouldn’t want him to grow up like that guard, even if he is real -good. And you see there wa’n’t any one but you that I could send for -and tell them just how it all happened. No one yet has ever known -how it was, and everybody says I was to blame and that I’m a demon -and a monster, and I thought maybe if I explained the whole thing to -you, just as it was, you could see that I wa’n’t so much to blame; -anyhow that there was some excuse for what I done, and then some -time when the boy’s growed up he’d know that I wa’n’t so bad as everyone -says I was.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course I know you can’t, for I know you’re poor like me, -but so many times when I thought about the boy I thought that -maybe you and your mother might raise him just the way I would -have done; and then your mother was always so good to all of us. -I remember how she used to raise the little geese down along the -canal if anything happened to the old goose; don’t you remember -<span class='pageno' id='Page_11'>11</span>about that? My, but them was fine times, wa’n’t they? Of course -if you could do it I don’t know but the alderman would help you; -anyhow he’d get free books and clothes off’n the county when he -went to school. How are politics up in the ward? Is he goin’ to -run again? I never hear anything only what I get out of the papers -and they’re all against him, but I think he’ll show ‘em yet. Wish I -was out so I could help. But I must go on with what I brought -you to hear. I’m goin’ to tell you the whole story just exactly as it -is, and you know that I wouldn’t tell you a lie tonight with what -they are goin’ to do in the mornin’. I can’t make you understand -unless I commence clear at the beginnin’, but I know you won’t -mind, seein’ it’s my last time.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_12'>12</span> - <h2 class='c006'>II</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_012.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -You know I was born in Chicago and never was out of it but -once until the night it happened. I don’t know anything about -my father and mother except what my aunt told me. You know -she raised me, and I can’t make any complaint about the way -she done it. I was real small when I went to live with her. She stayed -all alone down on the canal. I guess you knew me when I was livin’ -with her. She worked hard, but, of course, ladies of that kind don’t get -much. She used to go over to the south side to do washin’ and to clean -houses, and things like that, and sometimes when I was small she took me -along. They were awful nice houses where we went. That’s how I got to -know so much about the way rich people live. When I got bigger, she -used to send me to school. I was pretty steady in school and got -clear up to the sixth grade. I know it must have been awful hard -for her to send me the way she earnt her money, but she seemed to -think as much of me as if I’d been her own boy. She could have -got along better, but every time she got five or ten dollars laid up it -seemed as if there was a funeral of some of the neighbors and she -had to club in and hire a carriage, and that took her money almost -as fast as she could earn it.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“You remember how we used to play around the canal in them -days. It smelled pretty bad but we didn’t seem to mind it much. -We used to sail boats and go in swimmin’ and catch frogs and do -‘most everything. There was quite a gang of us boys that lived there. -It don’t seem as if any of ‘em ever amounted to very much. Most -of ‘em are in the stock yards or switchin’ or doin’ somethin’ like -that. The only ones that I can think of that growed up down there -and amounted to anything is the alderman and Bull Carmody, who -went to the legislature. They call both of ‘em Honor’ble, you know. -I guess anybody is honor’ble who ever had an office or tried to get -one. Us boys used to get arrested quite a good deal. Of course we -was pretty tough, you know that. We was always in some devilment. -All of us rushed the can and chewed tobacco; then we fought -a good deal and used to play ‘round the cars. Some of the boys -would break into ‘em; but I never stole anything in my life unless -you count coal off’n the cars, and I don’t know how we could have -got along in the winter without that. Anyhow I guess nobody thinks -anything of stealin’ coal off’n cars.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But I don’t s’pose there’s any use goin’ over my whole history. -I don’t know as it has anything to do with it anyway, only it kind of -seems to me that I never had a very good chance and as if mebbe -things would’ve been different if I had.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, you remember when my aunt died I had got to be about -fourteen. Then I found a job out to the stock yards. I never liked -that work; I used to see so much killin’. At first I felt sorry for -the cattle and the hogs, and especially for the sheep and calves—they -<span class='pageno' id='Page_13'>13</span>all seemed so helpless and innocent—but after I’d been there awhile -I got used to seein’ their throats cut and seein’ blood around everywhere, -all over the buildings and in the gutters, and I didn’t think -any more about it. You know I stayed there quite a while. Then I -went to work for the railroad company. First I was in the freight -house unloadin’ cars. This was pretty rough, heavy work, but I -didn’t mind it much; you know I was always kind of stout. Then I -thought I’d like to work in the yards; it would give me more air and -not be quite so confinin’. So I got a job as switchman, same as you. -Well, you know all about that work. It ain’t the nicest thing in the -world to be a switchman. Of course if they’d make the couplers all -alike then there wouldn’t be so much danger; but you know when -one of them safety couplers comes against one of the old kind that -the boys call ‘man killers’ it’s pretty dangerous business. Then, of -course, when a car is run down a switch and you have to couple it -onto another car just as it bumps in, it’s kind of dangerous too. Of -course, the rules say you must use a stick to put the link into the -drawhead, but nobody ever uses a stick; you know all the boys would -laugh at a feller that used a stick. There ain’t nothin’ to do but to -go in between the cars and take hold of the link and put it in. If -anything happens to be wrong with the bumpers and they slip past, -of course you get squeezed to death; or, if you miss the link, or it -gets caught or anything, your head or arm is liable to be smashed -off. Then you’ve got to watch all the time, for if you stub your toe -or forget for a second, you’re gone. I kind of think that the switch-yards -make a feller reckless and desperate, and I don’t believe that a -man that works in the switch-yards or stock yards looks at things -quite the same as other people. Still you know them fellers ain’t -bad. You’ve seen ‘em cry when they went home to tell a lady how -her man had been run over, or tell some old woman about how her -boy had got hurt, and you know we always helped the boys out and -we didn’t have much money either.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“You remember we was workin’ together in the yards when the -strike come on. I was in debt, just as I always have been. Somehow -I never could keep out of debt; could you? The rich people -say it’s because we drink so much, but I’d like to see them try to -live on what we get. Why, you know we hardly ever go to the -theater, and if we do we go up in the gallery. I never had a job of -work done on my teeth in my life except once when I paid a quarter -to get one pulled. Do you s’pose any of us would ever think we -could get a gold fillin’ in our teeth? Now that suit of clothes over -on the bed is the first whole suit of new clothes I ever had. The -guard brought ‘em in a little while ago, and I’m to put ‘em on in the -mornin’. But I guess they won’t do me much good. I’d rather they -had taken the money and give it to the kid for a rockin’ horse or -candy.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But I was tellin’ about the strike. My, the way I go on! I -guess it’s because this is the first time I’ve had a chance to say anything -to anyone since it happened, and of course it’ll be my last. As -soon as I got back my lawyer told me not to talk to anyone, but I -<span class='pageno' id='Page_14'>14</span>don’t see what difference it would have made—them detectives -seemed to know everything and a good deal more, they knew more -about me than I ever knew about myself.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“You remember all of us went out on the strike. I guess most -of the boys was in debt, but they all struck just the same. The papers -abused us and said we hadn’t any right to strike; that we hadn’t -any grievance, and it was worse for us to strike on that account. -Now it seemed to me that it was better to strike for the Pullman -people than for ourselves—it didn’t seem so selfish; but the papers -and the judges didn’t look at it that way. Of course the strike was -pretty hard on all of us. I got into the lock-up before it was over, -though I never meant to do nothin’. I guess I did hit a scab over -the head, but he was comin’ to take our job. It’s queer how everybody -looks at things a different way. Now I never thought it was -so awful bad to hit a scab who was takin’ another man’s job. Of -course I know some of ‘em are poor and have families, but so have -the strikers got families and we was strikin’ to help all the poor -people. If you read the newspapers and hear what the judges say -you would think hittin’ scabs was worse’n murder. I don’t s’pose -it’s just right, but I don’t hardly see what else is to be done. You -remember that scab, don’t you, that worked with us on the road, and -you remember when he got his leg cut off, and how all the boys -helped him, and the railroad fought his case and beat him, and yet -they always seemed to think more of him than any of the rest of us. -Now it seems to me there’s lots of things worse’n hittin’ scabs. If I -was one of them packers I know I’d give a lot of meat to poor people -instead of fixin’ every way I could to make ‘em pay so much, -but the rich people don’t seem to think there’s anything wrong -about that, but it’s awful to hit a scab or to strike.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, you know after the strike was over none of us could get -a job anywhere, but finally I changed my name and managed to get -in again. I believe the yard master knew who I was and felt kind -of sorry for me. Anyhow I got the job. Then you know the time -Jimmy Carroll got run over by that limited train. I sort of lost my -nerve. I wouldn’t have thought about it if all the cars hadn’t run -over him; but when we had to pick up his head and his legs and his -arms and his body all in different places, I somehow got scared and -couldn’t switch any more. So I quit the yards. But I’ve been runnin’ -along so over things that really don’t have anything to do with -the case that I’ve almost forgot the things I wanted to tell you about. -But just wait a minute; I hear someone comin’ down the corridor -and I want to see who it is. No, it’s only one of the guards. I -didn’t know but possibly my lawyer might have sent—but I guess -it’s no use.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Let me see; I was goin’ to tell you about gettin’ married. You -knew her, Hank. You remember when we got a job again after the -strike and you know the little restaurant where we used to board? -Well, you remember she was waitin’ on the table. All the boys -knew her and they all liked her too; she was always real friendly and -jolly with all of us, but she was all right. Of course she couldn’t -<span class='pageno' id='Page_15'>15</span>have got much wages there for it was only a cheap place where the -railroad boys et, but somehow she always seemed to keep herself -fixed up pretty well. I never thought much about her, only to kind -of jolly her like the rest of the boys, until the time she got that red -waist and done her hair up with them red ribbons. I don’t know -anything about how it was, but them seemed to ketch my eye and I -commenced goin’ with her, and used to get off as early as I could -from the yards, and when she got through washin’ the supper things -we used to go out and take street-car rides, and go for walks in the -parks, and stay out late almost every night.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Finally I made up my mind that I wanted to settle down and -have a home. Of course I knew ‘twould be more confinin’, but then -I thought ‘twould be better. So one night when we was out walkin’ -I kind of brought it ‘round some way and asked her to marry me. -I was surprised when she said she would, because she was so much -nicer than me or any of the rest of the boys; but she said she would -right straight off, and then I asked when it had better be and she -said she didn’t see any use waitin’, so long as it was goin’ to be -done. Of course, I hadn’t thought of its comin’ right away, and I -wa’n’t really prepared because I was considerable in debt and would -like to’ve paid up first. I told her how I was fixed and she said that -didn’t make any difference, that she’d always heard that two could -live as cheap as one, and she was savin’ and a good manager and -it wouldn’t cost us much to start, for she’d noticed the signs in the -street cars about four rooms furnished for ninety-five dollars with -only five dollars down, and we wouldn’t need but three rooms anyway. -Then, after I’d asked her to marry me and had made up my -mind to do it there wa’n’t no excuse for waitin’, so the next Sunday -we went over to St. Joe and got married. She asked me if I didn’t -think that was just as good as any way.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When we come back we rented three rooms down near the -yards for ten dollars a month, and went down to the store to buy -the furniture, but the clerk made us think that so long as we was -just startin’ and I had a good job we ought to get better things than -the ninety-five dollars, so we spent one hundred and fifty dollars and -agreed to pay ten dollars a month, and the furniture was to be theirs -until it was paid for.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, we started in to keep house and got along pretty well at -first. She was a good housekeeper and savin’ and I kind of liked -bein’ married. Of course, it cost us a little more’n I expected, and -when I came to buy clothes and shoes and pay grocery bills I found -that two couldn’t live as cheap as one, but I hadn’t any doubt but -that she thought they could. I guess all women does. Then I got -hurt and was laid off for two months and couldn’t pay the installments, -and got behind on my rent, and got in debt at the store, and -this made it pretty hard. When I went to work I paid all I had, but -somehow I never could catch up.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, about that time the kid was born, and then we had to -have the doctor and I had to get a hired girl for a week, for I wanted -to do everything I could for her, and that all kept me back. Then -<span class='pageno' id='Page_16'>16</span>they commenced threatenin’ to take the furniture away, and every week -the collector came ‘round and I did all I could, but somehow I -couldn’t make it come out even.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I s’pose you don’t see what all this has got to do with my killin’ -her, and I don’t think I quite see myself, but still I want to tell it -all. Sometimes I think if I hadn’t been so poor and in debt I never -would have done it, and I don’t believe I would. I was so much in -debt that I felt sorry when I knew we was goin’ to have the child. -I didn’t see how we could bring it up and make anything out of it, -and how it could ever have any better chance than I had. And then -she’d been doin’ a little work to help out on the furniture, and I knew -that she couldn’t do any more after that. But still as soon as the -child was born I was always glad of it, and used to think more about -him than anyone else, and I would have done anything I could for -him. She liked him, too, and was always good to him, and no matter -what I say about her I can’t say that she didn’t treat the boy all right.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, after the kid was about a year old we began to have -trouble. She was always complainin’ that I didn’t bring home -enough money. She said I went ‘round too much nights and that I -drank too much beer and chewed too much tobacco and smoked too -much, and she complained ‘most all the time, and then I got mad and -we had a row. I don’t mean to blame her, ‘specially after what happened, -and since I’ve been here so long doin’ nothin’ but countin’ the -days and waitin’ for my lawyer to come, I’ve had time to think of -ever’thing a good deal more than I ever did before. And I don’t say -she was to blame. I s’pose it was hard for her, too. Of course, the -rooms was small and they was awful hot in the summer and cold in -the winter, and then the collectors was always comin’ ‘round, and I -used to be tired when I got home, and I was so blue that I said -things without really knowin’ that I said ‘em. Ain’t you done that -when somebody was talkin’ to you and your mind was on somethin’ -else, kind of answered ‘em back without knowin’ what they said or -what you said? I presume I was cross a good many times and -mebbe it was as hard for her as ‘twas for me. Of course, I used to -wish I’d never got married and that I was boardin’ back there to the -restaurant when I didn’t have all the debts; and I s’pose she’d been -better off back there too, waitin’ on the table; anyhow she always -looked better in them days than she did after we was married, so I -guess she must have got more money at the restaurant than I gave -her. But after the boy was born I never really wished we wa’n’t -married, for I always thought of him and knew he never would have -been born if we hadn’t got married; but of course, that didn’t keep -us from fightin’. I don’t mean that we fought all the time. Sometimes -when I got home she was as nice as she could be, and had -supper all ready, and we’d read the newspaper and talk and have a -real good time; but then, again somethin’ would happen to put us -out and we’d fight. I can’t say that she always begun it. I guess -I begun it a good many times. I found fault because the bills was -too big and the way things was cooked, and the way she looked, and, -of course, if I said anything she got mad and answered back. I’ve -<span class='pageno' id='Page_17'>17</span>thought a lot about our fights and that awful one we had last, and -I don’t believe one of ‘em would have happened if it hadn’t been for -the money. Of course, I s’pose other people would make some other -excuses for their fights and that no one would be to blame if you -would let ‘em tell it themselves, but I’m ‘most sure that if I’d only -been gettin’ money enough to keep a hired girl and live in a good -place, and get good clothes and dress her and the boy the way they -ought to have been, and not get in debt, we wouldn’t have fought.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The debts kep’ gettin’ bigger all the time and I begun to get -scared for fear the furniture would be took away—we hadn’t paid -more’n half up and then there was a good deal of interest. I went -one day to see a lawyer, but he didn’t tell me anything that done me -any good and I had to pay him ten dollars out of my next month’s -wages, so that made me all the worse off. Lawyers get their money -awful easy, don’t they? I always wished I could be a lawyer and if -I had my life to live over again I would be one if I could.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It seemed as if things kep’ gettin’ worse at home and I stayed -out a good many nights because I didn’t want a row for I knew -there’d be one as soon as I got home. So far most of our fightin’ -had been only jawin’ back an’ forth. Once she threw a dish at me -and I slapped her in the face, but didn’t hurt her, and I guess she -didn’t try hard to hit me with the dish; anyhow if she had wanted -to she was near enough so she could.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“One night though, I come home pretty late. I’d been out with -the boys to a caucus and we had drunk quite a bit. The alderman -was running again and had got us a keg of beer. I didn’t really -know what I was doin’ when I came in. I was hopin’ she’d be in bed -but she was waitin’ for me when I come in and said: ‘There comes -my drunkard again. This is a pretty time of night to get home! -You’d better go back to your drunken cronies and stay the rest of -the night,’—and a lot of more things like that. I told her to shut -up and go to bed, but that made her madder and then she called me -a lot of names. I told her to stop or I’d choke her, but she kep’ right -on talkin’, callin’ me a drunkard and all kinds of names, and tellin’ -me how I’d treated her and the boy; I couldn’t make her keep still; -the more I threatened her the more she talked. Finally she said, -‘You cowardly brute, I dare you to touch me!’ and she kind of come -right up to where I was. Of course I didn’t really half think what -I was doin’, but I drawed off and hit her in the face with my fist. I -guess I hit her pretty hard; anyhow she fell on the floor, and I ran -up to her to pick her up, but she said, ‘Leave me alone, you coward,’ -and then I was madder’n ever and I kicked her. The next day she -went to the police court and had me arrested. The judge was awful -hard on me, told me if he had his way ‘bout it he’d have a law made -to have wife-beaters whipped with a cat-o’-nine tails in the public -square, and he fined me one hundred dollars.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course I hadn’t any money so I went to jail, but in a day -or two she went to the judge and cried and told him I was all right -when I wasn’t drunk and she got me out. I never thought that -judge done right to lecture me the way he did. I don’t think that strikin’ -<span class='pageno' id='Page_18'>18</span>your wife is as bad as strikin’ your child, and still ‘most everybody -does that. Most women can defend themselves but a little child -can’t do anything. Still, of course, I don’t defend strikin’ your wife, -only one word kind of brings on another and it sounds different in -the newspaper from what it really is.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, after I got home from the jail we talked it over together -and made up our minds we’d better part. Things had gone so bad -with us that we thought it wa’n’t worth while to try any more and -mebbe we’d both be better off alone. She was real sensible about it -and was goin’ to keep the boy. I promised to give ‘em half my -wages and was to see him whenever I wanted to.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When we got our minds made up we went to see about a -lawyer. She’d been goin’ over to the Settlement a good deal for advice -and they’d been good to us but they didn’t like me; they blamed -me for ever’thing that happened, and of course them settlement -ladies wa’n’t none of ‘em married and they couldn’t understand how -a feller would drink or fight with his wife. They didn’t know what -allowance a woman has to make for a man, same as a man does for -a woman—only a different kind. When she told ‘em what we were -goin’ to do they all said, ‘No, you mustn’t do that. You must make -the best of it and stay together’; they said that even if I promised -to give her half my money I never would do it, but would go off and -she’d never see me again. If they knew anything about what I -thought of the boy they wouldn’t have said it. Then they said it -would be a disgrace and that it would disgrace the child. I wish -now we’d done it anyway. It would have been better for the child -than it is now. Then she went to see the priest. We were -both born Catholics, although we hadn’t paid much attention to -it. That was the reason we went to St. Joe to get married. The -priest told her that she mustn’t get a divorce, that divorces wa’n’t -allowed except on scriptural grounds. Of course we couldn’t get -it on them grounds. There never was nothin’ wrong with her—I’ll -always say that—and as for me I don’t think she ever suspected -anything of that kind. Even if I had wanted to I never had any -money, and besides I’ve had to work too hard all my life for anything -like that. Then when I went to the lawyer he said it would -cost fifty dollars, but I hadn’t any fifty dollars. So we made up our -minds to try it again. I don’t see, though, why they charge fifty -dollars. If a divorce is right a man ought not to have it just because -he’s got fifty dollars when a poor man can’t get it at all.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It was a little better for a while. We both had a scare and -then when we talked of quittin’ I s’pose we thought more of each -other. Anyhow we’d lived together so long that we’d kind of got in -the habit of it. But still it didn’t last long; I don’t believe ‘twas -right for us to stay together after all that had happened and the way -we felt and had lived up to that time. If we’d only separated then—but -we didn’t, and it’s no use talkin’ about it now.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It was just about this time that Jimmy Carroll was killed and -she didn’t want me to work in the yards after that. She was ‘most -as ‘fraid as I was so we made up our minds that I’d quit. It was -<span class='pageno' id='Page_19'>19</span>then that I went to peddlin’; but wait a minute before I tell that, -let’s go and speak to the guard.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The two men got up and went to the iron door and looked out -through the bars at the shining electric lights in the corridors. The -guard sat near the door talking with the prisoner in the next cell. -He looked up and put two cigars through the grates.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Is there anything I can do for you, Jackson?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No, I guess not. Nothin’ more has come from him, has -there?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No, but it’s early yet.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I guess it’s no use.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The men looked out a moment at the iron corridor and then -lighted their cigars and sat down. Hank could hardly speak. Somehow -this simple contact with his old friend had driven away all the -feeling of the crime that he had brought with him to the jail. He -no longer thought of him as Jackson, the wife-murderer, but as Jim, -the boy he once knew and the man that had worked in the switch-yards -and grown up by his side.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Out in the street they heard a steady stream of carriages and -the merry laugh of men and women passing by. Hank listened to -the voices and asked who they were.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Oh, the people drivin’ past in their carriages to the theater. -You know all the northside swells drive down Dearborn Avenue -past the jail. I wonder if they ever think of us in here, or if they -know what is goin’ to be done tomorrow. I s’pose if they do they -think it’s all right. What a queer world it is. Do you s’pose one of -them was ever in here? Well, I don’t believe I’d be either if only -I’d had their chance.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The two men sat stripped almost to the skin; the putrid prison -air soaked into Hank at every pore. The sweat ran from his face -and he felt as if the great jail were a big oven filled with the damned -and kept boiling hot by some infernal imps. Here and there along -the big corridors they heard the echo of a half demoniac laugh, a few -couplets of a ribald song, and the echoing sound of the heavy boots -of a guard walking up and down the iron floor. Silently they smoked -their cigars almost to the end and then Jim again took up his story.</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_20'>20</span> - <h2 class='c006'>III</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_020.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -When I made up my mind to quit the railroad I looked ‘round -for somethin’ else to do. It was kind of hard times just then -and a good many were out of work and I couldn’t find anything -that suited me. Of course I never had much schoolin’ and -‘twa’n’t every kind of job I could hold anyhow. I went back out to the -stock yards, but they was layin’ off men and there wa’n’t anything there. -One mornin’ I went over to see Sol Goldstein. He was a nice old man -that we used to buy potatoes of. He told me that he was gettin’ so old -and kind of sick that he thought he’d have to give up peddlin’ and let -his boys take care of him the rest of his time. He said he didn’t think it -would be very long anyhow, and they could do that much for him so long -as he’d done so much for them. He said as I hadn’t any job why didn’t I -buy his horse and express wagon and go to peddlin’. I could take his -license, that hadn’t run out yet, and go right along over his route. I told -him I hadn’t any money to buy his horse and wagon with, but he told -me that didn’t make any difference, I could pay for ‘em when I earnt -the money. So I made a bargain; got the horse and wagon and -harness and two old blankets for fifty dollars. Of course they wa’n’t -worth much: the horse had a ringbone and the heaves and kind of -limped in one of its hind legs. Goldstein said that was on account -of a spavin, but he told me there was another one comin’ on the -other hind leg and as quick as that got a little bigger he’d stop -limpin’ because he couldn’t favor both hind legs to once. Goldstein -said the ringbone had been killed and the heaves wouldn’t bother -him much. All I had to do was to wet the hay before I fed him. So -I bought the rig. I didn’t know nothin’ about horses but I knew -what Goldstein said was all right for we’d been friends a long time.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I went down to Water Street and bought a load of potatoes -and went to work. I haven’t time to tell you all about my peddlin’: -anyhow it ain’t got much to do with the case, not much more’n any -of the rest. My lawyer always said any time I told him anything, -‘Well, what’s that got to do with your killin’ her?’ and the judge said -about the same thing whenever we asked any questions. He -couldn’t see that anything I ever done had anything to do with it -except the bad things. He let ‘em prove all of them and they looked -a good deal worse when they was told in court and in the newspapers -than they seemed when I done ‘em. I guess there ain’t nobody -who’d like to hear every bad thing they ever done told right -out in public and printed in the newspapers. I kind of think ‘twould -ruin anyone’s character to do that, ‘specially if you wa’n’t allowed to -show the goods things you’d done.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I hadn’t been peddlin’ very long until an inspector asked me -for my license and I showed it to him, and he said that it wa’n’t any -good, that I couldn’t use Goldstein’s license; that it was just for him, -and that I must stop peddlin’ until I went down to the City Hall -<span class='pageno' id='Page_21'>21</span>and paid twenty-five dollars for another one. I didn’t know where -to get the twenty-five dollars; anyhow I don’t see why anyone -should have to pay a license for peddlin’; nobody but poor people -peddles and it’s hard enough to get along without payin’ a license. -Anybody don’t have to pay a license for sellin’ things in a store and -I don’t think it’s fair. But I went and seen the alderman and told -him about it, and he said he could get it fixed and to go right on just -as if nothin’ had happened and if anyone bothered me again to send -‘em to him. So I went right ahead. I don’t know what he done but -anyhow I wa’n’t bothered any more until Goldstein’s license had -run out.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Peddlin’ is kind of hard work. You’ve got to get up before -daylight and go down and get your potatoes and veg’t’bles and things, -then you have to drive all over and ask everyone to buy, and -most people won’t take anything from you ‘cause you’re a peddler -and they’re ‘fraid you’ll cheat ‘em. Of course we do cheat a little -sometimes. We get a load of potatoes cheap that’s been froze, and -then again we get a lot of figs that’s full of worms and roll ‘em in -flour and then sell ‘em out, but all figs is full of worms, and I guess -‘most everything else is, even water, but it’s all right if you don’t -know or think anything about it. And of course, half of the year -it’s awful hot drivin’ ‘round the streets and the other half it’s awful -cold, and sometimes it rains and snows and you get all wet and cold, -and it ain’t very healthy either. Most peddlers have the consumption, -but then there’s lots of poor people has consumption. It’s -funny, too, about where you can sell stuff; you’d think you ought to -go where people has got money but this ain’t no use; they never will -buy nothin’ of peddlers and they won’t even let you drive on their -high-toned streets, even after you’ve paid a license. If you want to -sell anything you’ve got to go among the poor people. Of course -they can’t buy very much, but then they pay more for what they -get. It’s queer, ain’t it, the way things are fixed; them as works hardest -has to pay the most for what they eat, and gets the poorest stuff at -that. Did you ever go and look at one of them meat markets on the south -side? Do you s’pose that they’d take any of the meat that’s in ours? -They might buy it for their dogs and cats but they wouldn’t eat it -themselves.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Once in a while I used to take the kid along with me when I -was sellin’ things, and he always liked to go, but if it commenced -to rain or turned cold I had to go back with him, and then he always -got tired before night. So I didn’t take him very often. I kind of -laid out to take him when she done the washin’, so he’d be out of -her way, and he used to kind of like to drive, and I amused him a -good deal that way.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I think mebbe I made about as much peddlin’ as I did on the -railroad, but not any more, after I paid for my horse feed and the -rent of the barn and gettin’ the wagon and harness fixed once in a -while. Anyhow I didn’t get out of debt any faster, and the furniture -men kept threatenin’ me until I went to one of them chattel-mortgage -fellers and borrowed the money and mortgaged all I had and -<span class='pageno' id='Page_22'>22</span>paid five dollars for makin’ out the papers and five percent a month -for the money. This didn’t seem like so very much but it counts up -pretty fast when you come to pay it every month. Then one day -my horse up and died. I didn’t know what was the matter with -him. He seemed all right at night and in the mornin’ he was dead. -I didn’t know what to do at first so I went and seen the alderman. -He gave me a letter to some men who run a renderin’-plant and I -went out there and bought an old horse for five dollars. It was one -they was goin’ to kill, and it seemed too bad to make him work any -more; still I guess he’d rather work than be killed; that’s the way -with people and I guess horses is about like people. I always thought -that horses had about the worst time there is; they can’t never do -anything they want to, they have to get up just when you tell ‘em to -and be tied in a stall and eat just what you give ‘em and depend on -you to bring ‘em water. Even when they’re goin’ along the road -they can’t turn out for a mud hole but have to go just where you -want ‘em to and never have a chance to do anything but work.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“This horse wa’n’t much good but I managed to use him in my -business. The boys would holler at me and ask me if I was goin’ to -the bone-yard or the renderin’-plant, and once or twice one of the -humane-officers stopped me and came pretty near takin’ it away -and killin’ it, but nobody ever saw me abusin’ it, and I fed it all I -could afford. I remember one night in the winter, about the coldest -night we had, I heard it stampin’ and I couldn’t go to sleep. I knew -it was stampin’ because it was so cold. We didn’t have any too -much cover ourselves, but it worried me so much I got up and -went out to the barn and strapped an old blanket on the horse and -then came back and went to bed. I guess this was the other horse -though, the one that died, for I didn’t have this last one over a -winter. But I don’t know as it makes any difference which horse -it was.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I can’t tell you all about my peddlin’, it ain’t worth while, -and I must go on and tell you about how it happened. It was on the -26th day of November. You remember the day. There’s been a lot -said about it in the newspapers. It was just three days before -Thanksgivin’. I remember I was thinkin’ of Thanksgivin’, for we’d -been livin’ pretty poorly, not very much but potatoes, for it was a -rather hard fall on all us poor folks. I always hated to take the -money for the things I sold but I couldn’t help it. You know I -couldn’t give things away as if I was Rockefeller or Vanderbilt. -Well, I knew we was goin’ to get a turkey from the alderman -Thanksgivin’, just two days later, and I should have thought that -would have cheered me up, but it didn’t. That mornin’ it was pretty -cold when I got up. It was the first snow of the season, one of them -blindin’, freezin’ days that we get in November, and then, of course, -I wa’n’t used to the cold weather and wa’n’t dressed for it either. -I didn’t have much breakfast for we didn’t have much stuff in the -house. She got up and fried some potatoes and a little pork and -that was about all, and then I hitched up the old horse and drove -away. No one else was on the street. There wa’n’t generally, when -<span class='pageno' id='Page_23'>23</span>I started after my loads in the mornin’. The old horse didn’t like -to go either; he kind of pulled back on the hitch strap when I led him -out of the barn, the way you sometimes see horses do when they -hate to go anywhere or leave the barn. I s’pose horses is just like -us about bein’ lazy and sick, and havin’ their mean days, only they -can’t do anything about it. Well, I went down and got my load. In -the first place I had some trouble with the Dago where I got the -potatoes; they were pretty good ones but had been nipped a little -by the frost in the car, and he couldn’t have sold ‘em to the stores, -at least to any of the stores on the north side or the south side. They -was just such potatoes as had to go to us poor folks and most likely -to peddlers, and he wanted to charge me just about as much as if -they was all right. I told him that I’d some trouble in sellin’ ‘em and -I ought to make somethin’ off’n ‘em. He said I’d get just as much -as I could for any kind, and I told him that I might possibly, but if I -was goin’ to pay full price I wanted my customers to have just as -good potatoes as anyone got, and besides I might lose some of my -customers by sellin’ them that kind of potatoes. Then he dunned -me for what I owed him and threatened not to trust me any more -and by the time I left with my load I was worried and out of sorts, -and made a poor start for the day.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I drove over along Bunker Street, among the sheeneys, -and commenced calling ‘po-ta-toes.’ Nobody much seemed to buy. -A few people came out and picked ‘em all over and tried to jew me -down, and mebbe bought half a peck. I don’t know how they -thought I could make any money that way. Still the people was all -poor; most of ‘em worked in the sweat-shops and hadn’t any money -to waste on luxuries. I worked down Maxwell Street and things -didn’t get much better. It seemed as if everybody was out there -sellin’ potatoes, and it was awful cold, and I hadn’t any coat on, and -the horse was shiverin’ every time we stopped. Of coarse I always -put the blanket on him if we stayed long, but the blanket was pretty -old and patched. Then I drove down south, where the people lives -that work in the stock yards. It went some better down there but -not very much; anyhow I didn’t get any warmer. Along toward -noon I hitched the horse under a shed and gave him a few oats and -I went into the saloon and bought a glass of whiskey and took four -or five of them long red-hots that they keep on the counter. They -tasted pretty good and I never stopped to think what they was made -of; whether they was beef, or pork, or horse, or what, though you -know everybody always says they work in all the old horses that -don’t go to the renderin’-plant and some that does, but they was -good enough for me and was hot, and when I went away I felt better -and I guess the old horse did, too. Well, I drove on down around -the streets and did the best I could. I remember one place where -an old lady came out and said she hadn’t had anything to eat since -yesterday and there wa’n’t nothin’ in the house, and I up and gave -her half a peck, though I couldn’t hardly afford to do it. You know -that half a peck was more to me than it is to Rockefeller when he -gives a million to the school, but my lawyer wouldn’t let me prove -<span class='pageno' id='Page_24'>24</span>it when I tried; he said the judge would only laugh if he ever mentioned -it. The newspapers never printed a word about it either, although -I kind of thought it might lighten up the people’s feelin’ -some and help me a bit; but they did prove all about the time I struck -her and some other things I wa’n’t on trial for, although my lawyer -objected all he could and said I wa’n’t on trial for ‘em, which I -wa’n’t; but the judge said no, of course I wa’n’t, but they’d show -malice, so they went in and was printed in the newspapers, and the -jury looked awful at me, but I bet every one of ‘em had done most -as bad. When I gave the old woman the half peck of potatoes she -called on all the saints to bless me to the end of my days. I felt kind -of better as I went away, and thought mebbe they’d do somethin’ -for me, and this wa’n’t more than seven or eight hours before it happened.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course, most folks would think that anyone like me -wouldn’t have given away a half a peck of potatoes, but they don’t -really understand them things; you’ve got to do a thing before you -can know all about it. If I was makin’ the laws I wouldn’t let anyone -be on a jury and try a feller for murder unless he’d killed someone. -Most fellers don’t know anything about how anyone kills a -person and why they do it, and they ain’t fit to judge. Now, of -course, most everybody would think that anyone who had killed -anyone, unless it was in war or somethin’ like that, was bad through -and through; they wouldn’t think that they could ever do anything -good; but here I give away that half peck of potatoes just because -I knew the lady was poor and needed ‘em—and I see things every -day here in jail that shows it ain’t so. Just a little while ago one of -the prisoners was took down with small-pox and everyone was -scared, and another prisoner who was in here for burglary went to -the ward and nursed him and took care of him, and took the disease -and died. And most all of the fellers will do anything for each other. -The other day there were five fellers on trial for robbin’ a safe, and -the State’s Attorney done all he could to get one of ‘em to tell on -another feller who hadn’t been caught or indicted, and he promised -every one of ‘em that he wouldn’t do a thing with ‘em if they’d tell, -and he couldn’t get a word out of any of ‘em, and they went to the -penitentiary, just because they wouldn’t tell; and the State Attorney -and the judge all of ‘em seemed to think that if they could get -one feller to tell on someone else that he’d be the best one of the lot -and ought to be let out. If you’d just stay here a few days and -see some of the wives and fathers and mothers come into the jail -and see how they’d cry and go on over some of these people, and -tell how good they was to them, it would open your eyes. They -ain’t one of them people, unless it’s me, that don’t have someone -that loves ‘em, and says they’ve been awful good to ‘em and feel -sorry for ‘em and excuses ‘em, and thinks they’re just like everybody -else. Now there was them car-barn murderers that killed so -many people and robbed so much. Everyone wanted to tear ‘em to -pieces and no one had a single good word for ‘em, but you’d ought -to seen Van Dine’s mother and how she hung on to her boy and cried -<span class='pageno' id='Page_25'>25</span>about him and loved him and told how many good thing’s he done, -just like anyone else; and then that Niedemeyer, who tried to kill -himself so he couldn’t get hung, you know he went to a detective -and confessed a lot of crimes, so that the detective could get the -money after he was hung, and the detective agreed to divide the -money with his mother. If you was here a while you’d find these -fellers doin’ just as many things to help each other as the people -on the outside. It’s funny how human nature is, how anybody can -be so good and so bad too. Now I s’pose most people outside can’t -see how a murderer or a burglar can do anything good any more -than the poor people down our way can see how Rockefeller can -charge all of us so much for his oil and then give a million dollars -to a church or a school.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“There was feller came over here to the jail to talk to our -Moral Improvement Club and he had some queer ideas. Most of -the prisoners rather liked what he said and still they thought he -was too radical. I never heard any such talk before and I don’t quite -see how they let him do it, but I’ve thought about what he said a -good deal since then and think mebbe there’s somethin’ in it. He -was a good deal different from the other ones that come. Most of -‘em tell us about our souls and how we can all make ‘em white if -we only will. They all tell us that we are a bad lot now; but he kind -of claimed that the people inside the jail was just like the people -outside, only not so lucky; that we done things because we couldn’t -help it and had to do ‘em, and that it’s worse for the people on the -outside to punish the people on the inside than to do the things we -done. Now, I hain’t had anything to do but think about it and what -I done, and it don’t seem as if I could help it. I never intended to -kill anybody but somehow everything just led up to it, and I didn’t -know I was gettin’ into it until it was done, and now here I am. Of -course, when I was out I used to rail about these criminals and think -they was awful bad just the same as everyone else did, but now I -see how they got into it too, and how mebbe they ain’t so bad; even -them car-barn murderers,—if they’d been taken somewhere out west -on a ranch where they could have had lots of air and exercise and -not put in school which wa’n’t the place for boys like them, I believe -they’d ‘ve come out all right and been like most other boys and sobered -down after they got older. I really think if they’d been taken -away they’d ‘ve tried to be good and if they’d been given plenty of -exercise, like herdin’ cattle and things like that, mebbe it would have -been just as good as to kill ‘em. Anyhow there was them Younger -boys and Frank James who killed so many people and they are out -now and all right. Nobody’s afraid of ‘em and they won’t likely -never do anything of that kind any more.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But I’m gettin’ clear off’n my subject again, just as I always -am. I was tellin’ you about that day. Well, after I gave the lady -the half peck of potatoes I went on peddlin’, but didn’t seem to sell -much. I ought to ‘ve got through by two or three o’clock. It was -a long enough day for me, and the horse, too, but I had so many -potatoes left that I couldn’t stop, so I kept on. I got down around -<span class='pageno' id='Page_26'>26</span>Thirty-fifth Street and was pretty cold and went into a saloon -where I saw one of the boys. One of ‘em was runnin’ for the legislature -and he asked us all to take a drink, and of course we did; -then he asked us to take another and we done that; and in a few -minutes that feller that was runnin’ for the senate, he come in and -he asked us all to take a drink and of course we done that, and he -said a few words about the election and how he hoped we all would -vote for him, and we told him we would, and that as near as we -could find out all the boys was with him, that the other feller was -a kind of stiff anyhow. He went out, and then, just as I was leavin’, -the feller that was runnin’ against him, he come in and he set ‘em up -a couple of times and said he hoped we was all with him, and of -course we told him we was, and then he went away. Well, of -course, I took whiskey every time because I was cold and that kind -of warmed me up. Then I went out to the wagon again and drove -on down Thirty-fifth Street to sell the rest of the potatoes. Finally -the horse began to go lame, and seemed pretty tired, and I turned -back toward the house, peddlin’ on the way. I guess I didn’t sell -anything after I left Thirty-fifth Street, though I kept callin’ out -until my voice got kind of husky and all stopped up. I guess it was -the cold air that I wa’n’t used to yet. The snow was comin’ down -pretty fast as I drove along and the wind was blowin’ quite a bit in -my face and it was a bad night. It commenced gettin’ dark pretty -soon after. You know the days are short along the last of November.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I kep’ thinkin’ about the cold weather. I always hated -winter anyhow, and I hadn’t expected ‘twould turn cold quite so -quick and of course I wa’n’t ready for it. I couldn’t seem to think -of anything but the winter. I s’pose that was the reason I done the -things I did afterward. I got to thinkin’ about the house and how -many cracks there was in it and how much coal it took to heat it. -Then I began to think about the price of coal and how it’s cheaper -in the summer than in the winter, and how the price keeps goin’ up -so much a month all the time until winter, so, of course, all the rich -people can get their coal in the summer when it was cheap and leave -the poor people to get it in the winter when it got high. Then I -thought how everything seemed to be against the poor and how you -couldn’t get on no matter what you done.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I hadn’t got my potatoes more’n two-thirds sold out and I -didn’t have any good place to keep ‘em. I couldn’t afford to take -chances of ‘em gettin’ frost-bitten any more. You know how easy -potatoes freeze. You have to watch out while you’re peddlin’ ‘em -in the fall and winter and some days you don’t dare take ‘em out -at all. Before I got home I thought I’d have another drink so I -stopped at a saloon where they always had the pollin’ place and -where a good many politicians usually hung out; and I found some -of the boys there, and the fellow that was runnin’ for assessor was -in the saloon. He asked us all to drink a couple o’ times, and then -he told us how easy he was in assessin’ the poor people’s property, -and asked us to vote for him. We all said we would, and then -<span class='pageno' id='Page_27'>27</span>he told us how he was assessor last year and how he’d stuck it onto -the rich people and the corporations and how they was all against -him this year. We all liked that, and then he gave us another drink. -I was gettin’ so I felt it just a little, but of course I wa’n’t drunk. I -could walk all right and talk pretty straight. I don’t suppose I’d -taken more’n ten or twelve drinks in all day, and you know that -won’t hurt anybody. I don’t know what I would’ve done such a -cold day if it hadn’t been for the drinks. Oh, yes, in the last place -they got to talkin’ about the alderman and said as how he wa’n’t -goin’ to give out any turkeys this year. I didn’t like that and some -of the fellers had quarreled about ‘em and then some of ‘em had -been givin’ ‘em to us and we didn’t see what right he had to quit. -They said the reason he wa’n’t goin’ to give ‘em was because a lot -of the fellers had quarreled about ‘em and then some of ‘em had -taken his turkeys and voted the other ticket, and some people had -found fault with him because they didn’t get any turkey, and it -looked as if he was losin’ votes instead of makin’ ‘em. Well, I’d -been dependin’ on the turkey and it made me feel a little blue, for -I didn’t know how I was goin’ to get anything for Thanksgivin’, and -I didn’t think that you could have much of a Thanksgivin’ just on -potatoes and mebbe a little pork. So I wa’n’t feelin’ none to good -when I got on the wagon and drove away from the last place. It -seemed as if everything had turned against me and I didn’t know -what I was goin’ to do. It’s funny how much difference luck makes -with a feller. You know somethin’ can happen in the mornin’ and -make you feel good all day, and then again somethin’ will go wrong -and no matter what you are doin’ it seems as if there was a sort of -a weight pullin’ down on you. Well, I felt kind of blue as I drove -home. I don’t think I could hardly have kept up only for the whiskey -I’d drunk. I was kind of wonderin’ what it was all for and I didn’t -see any reason for anything, or any chance that anything would be -any better, or any real reason for livin’.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Before I went to the house I drove up to the barn and unhitched -the horse and led him in, and then I run the wagon in, and -took the potatoes out and put ‘em under a little bag of hay that I -had in the corner, and threw the horse blanket over ‘em. Then I -unharnessed the horse and bedded him down and gave him some hay -and a little oats. I’d watered him at one of the last places I stopped—one -of them troughs they have in front of saloons. Then after I -got the horse tended to I went into the house.”</p> - -<hr class='c008' /> - -<p class='c000'>Hank got up and went to the door and spoke to the guard. He -was still sitting on the stool and talking to the prisoner in the next -cell. Once more he handed Hank a cigar.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Give one to Jim,” he said. “I can’t do much more for him, -poor devil; I’m awful sorry.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim came up and took the cigar and looked down at the guard.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I don’t s’pose nothin’ has come for me, has there?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No, not yet,” was the answer.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I presume it’s’ no use.”</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_28'>28</span>Just then the noise of pounding and driving nails and low voices -was heard over in the court yard.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“What’s that?” Hank asked.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Don’t you know! That’s the fellers buildin’ the scaffold; they -always do it the night before. Strange, ain’t it; somehow it don’t seem -to me as if it was really me that was goin’ to be hung on it; but I -s’pose it is. Now, isn’t it strange about the governor; just one word -from him could save my life. I’d think he’d do it, wouldn’t you? -I s’pose he don’t really think how it seems to me. I know I’d do it, no -matter what anyone had done.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But it’s gettin’ late and I must go on with my story or I won’t -get it finished before—before you have to go. It’s pretty hard to tell -all ‘bout this part, but I’m goin’ to tell it to you honest and not make -myself any better’n I am. I’ve thought about this a good deal when -I’ve tried to account for how I done it, and I guess I can tell everything -that happened. When I look at it now it seems years ago, almost -a lifetime, not as if it was last November. I guess it’s because so much -has happened since then. It seems, too, as if it wa’n’t me that was -doin’ it, but as if ‘twas someone else. I guess that’ll make it easier -for me to tell; anyhow, I want you to know how it was, and then some -time you can tell the boy, if you think it’s the right thing to do.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_29'>29</span> - <h2 class='c006'>IV</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_029.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -I forgot to tell you about the steak. I don’t see how I left -that out, for, really, that’s what caused the whole trouble. It -beats all what little things will do, don’t it? Now, lots o’ times -in my life it has seemed as if the smallest things had the most -to do with me. There was that red waist, for instance, that she wore that -day she was waitin’ on the table. I ‘most know I never would have paid -any attention to her if it hadn’t been for that red waist. And then that -beefsteak—in one way I’m goin’ to get hung on account of that beefsteak. -How many times since that I’ve just wished I hadn’t stopped and bought -it. But you see I was feelin’ cold all day, and when I come ‘round -Thirty-fifth Street the wind kind of got in my face worse’n it had done -before, and it sort of struck me through the chest too; my legs didn’t feel -it quite so much, because they had the blanket over ‘em. Well, just as I -got up to the second corner there was a saloon right in front of me. This -was before I got to the corner when I met the senators, and I thought I’d -go in and get a drink; and then right on the other side was that meat -market and there was a lot of chickens and steak and things hangin’ in -the window, and they looked mighty good, for I hadn’t had much to eat -all day. At first I thought I’d go and get a drink, and then I thought I -could get enough steak for supper for just about what the drink would -cost, and the steak would do the most good, and besides she and the kid -could have some of that, and I thought it would make her feel pleasanter -and liven her up a bit. We hadn’t been gettin’ along any too well for -some time.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“So I pulled up the horse a minute and went into the shop and -asked the butcher about the steak hangin’ in the window, and he told -me that it was sixteen cents a pound and that it was a sirloin steak. I -thought that was most too much and asked him if he hadn’t some -cheaper kind. He said yes, that a rump steak was just as good, and -he showed me one of them and the whole piece came to fifteen cents—just -the price of a glass of whiskey—and I bought it and rolled it up -in a piece of brown paper and went away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Now I was tellin’ about this to the good guard that likes to get -statistics for the Citizens’ Association, and I told him it was the beefsteak -that brought me here, and that if I had only got the whisky instead -of the steak it wouldn’t have happened, but he argued the other way, -and then when I stuck to my story he got kind of mad about it and -said it was them drinks I had with the senators and the assessor that -really done it, and if it hadn’t been for the drinks I’d have known better, -and he said he was goin’ to put it down that way, and I’m sure he -did. I hain’t no doubt but a good many of the figgers we see about -penitentiaries and things is got up the same way.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, when I unhitched the horse and got him tended to and the -potatoes covered up and all, I took the steak and started for the house. -You know where I live—the barn is just back of the cottage, and there’s -<span class='pageno' id='Page_30'>30</span>a kind of little alley behind the barn and then the switch-yards come in; -the railroad curves up toward the house after it passes the barn so -it gets pretty near the kitchen. Of course, the trains bother us a good -deal and the switch engines are goin’ back and forth all the time, and -the house is pretty old and not very big, but all them things has to be -taken into consideration in the rent, and I got it enough cheaper to -make up. I presume that’s the reason no poor people live out on the -avenues, because the rents is so high, and in one way mebbe the switch -tracks is a good thing, for if it wa’n’t for them I’d had to go out to -the stock yards to live, and I’d rather have the engines and the smoke -than the smell. Some of them Settlement people are tryin’ to have a -park made, out along the tracks right close to where we lived. Of -course, flowers and grass would be nice, but I s’pose if they got the -park some fellers would come along and pay more rent than we could -afford and then we’d have to go out to the stock yards. It seems as -if us poor people gets the worst of it no matter how you fix it. But -I’m takin’ an awful long while to get into the house; seems as if I’m -tellin’ you everything I’ve thought of ever since I’ve been locked up -here in jail. It’s mighty good of you to set and listen, and I’ll always -remember it as long as I live, though I guess that ain’t sayin’ much.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I come up to the door I heard the kid cryin’ and she was -scoldin’ him about somethin’ he’d done and tellin’ him to go in the -bedroom and stay till supper was ready and to quit his squallin’ or -she’d thrash him. Of course, generally, she was good to him, and I -don’t mean to say she wa’n’t, but sometimes she got out of patience -with him, same as all women does, I s’pose. Of course you have to -make allowances for her. She dassent let the boy go to play back -of the house, for there was the yards and the cars, and you know children -always goes ‘round cars; then she couldn’t let him go in front for -the electric road was there, and you know about that little boy bein’ -run over a year ago down at the corner. Then there’s buildin’s on -both sides of us, so she had to have the kid right in the house all the -time less’n she went out with him, and of course he got kind of tired -settin’ in the house all day with nothin’ to do but look out in front and -see the switch engines. Still I sometimes thought she was crosser to -him than she ought to have been at that.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I opened the door she was just takin’ the boy into the bedroom. -In a minute she come out and kind of slammed the door hard, -and said, ‘Well, you’ve got home, have you?’ I said yes, I’d got home. -That’s every word I said. Then she said it was a pity that them -drunken friends of mine couldn’t keep me out all night spendin’ the -money for whisky that I ought to use in the house. I told her that I -hadn’t spent no money for whisky. She said ‘Yes, your face looks it, -and your breath smells it.’ Then I told her that I did take one drink -but the assessor bought it for me. Then she landed into the assessor, -and told me I was in pretty company goin’ ‘round with him; that Mrs. -McGinty had told her all about what kind of a man he was and she -didn’t want to hear any more about him. Then I asked her about when -supper would be ready, and she said she hadn’t begun to get it yet, -that she’d been doin’ the washin’ and had that brat of mine to take care -<span class='pageno' id='Page_31'>31</span>of all day, and she’d get the supper when she got ready. Of course -I was hungry and cold, and that made me kind of mad, only I didn’t -say much, but laid the beefsteak on the table and unrolled it so’s she -could see it. I thought mebbe that would kind of tempt her, and I -told her she’d better cook it and fry a few potatoes. She made some -remark about the steak, and about how I’d better got a soup bone, or -a chicken, or somethin’ cheaper, and no wonder I was in debt with all -the money I spent for whisky, and when I did bring anything home to -eat it had to be somethin’ that cost a good deal more’n I could afford. -Then I said that this was a rump steak and only cost fifteen cents, and -she said I could get a soup bone that weighed six or seven pounds for -that, and I hadn’t any business to throw away my money. Then she -kind of stopped for a few minutes and took the steak out into the -kitchen. Where we’d been was in the settin’ room. I went in to see the -kid a few minutes and kind of quieted him down, and so long as he laid -on the bed and seemed kind of like as if he’d go to sleep I shut the bedroom -door and come out again. Then I picked up the paper and read -about the alderman not goin’ to run any more, and that was the real reason -why he wa’n’t goin’ to give us any more turkeys; then I looked at -the sportin’ page and then I read a long story about a feller that had -killed someone and left ‘em dead in the house, and then run away, and -how they’d found ‘em dead and had offered a thousand dollars reward -for the feller who killed the other one. Then I read about a murder trial -that they was just havin’ and how the jury had found the feller guilty -and he was goin’ to be hung, and how he never moved a muscle, and -how his mother screamed and fell over in a swoond when the clerk read -the verdict. While I was readin’ she kept comin’ out and into the settin’ -room, bringin’ dishes and things to set the table. You know we generally -et in the settin’ room. Ev’ry time she come in she kind of glared -at me, but I let on not to notice her.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Pretty soon I smelt the steak fryin’ and went out in the kitchen. -When I got out there I found the steak fryin’ in the skillet all right and -her just takin’ up the tea kettle to pour water on it. Now this made me -mad, for that wa’n’t no way to fry steak. You know yourself that you -lose all the flavor of the steak by pourin’ water on it; that makes it -more like boiled meat than it does like beefsteak. I just saw her in time, -and I called out, ‘What are you doin’? Put down that kettle. Don’t you -know better’n to pour water on beefsteak?’ She said, ‘You shut up and -go back in the settin’ room, or I’ll pour the water on you.’ I said, ‘No, -you won’t; put down that kettle. How many times have I told you -better’n to pour water on steak? It’s hard enough for me to get the -money for a steak without lettin’ you spoil it that way.’ I started to -grab her hand, but before I could reach it she tipped the nozzle over into -the skillet and poured a lot of water in, and the steam and hot water and -grease kind of spattered up in my face. I don’t know whether I struck -her or not; anyhow I grabbed the kettle, and when the nozzle turned -round some of the hot water got onto me, and burned me a little. I put -the kettle down and said, ‘Damn you, what do you mean by spoilin’ the -steak every time I get it? If you ever do a thing like that again, I’ll cut -your throat.’</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_32'>32</span>“Now, of course, I hadn’t no idea of cuttin’ her throat, no matter -how often she done it. ‘Twas just a way I had of showin’ how mad I was -about what she’d done. You see she done it a-purpose for I’d told her -plenty of times before, and I told her then before any of the water got -into the skillet, and she just poured it in to spite me. Then she said, ‘You -drunken loafer, I’d like to see you try to cut my throat. I just dare you -to do it. You don’t need to wait until you bring home another steak; -ain’t likely I’ll be here by the time you bring home any more steak. I -don’t care what the Settlement people and the priest say about it, I’m -going to quit you. I’ve stood this thing just as long as I’m goin’ to,’ and -she fairly screamed, just on purpose, so the neighbors could hear.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Now I didn’t want them to know we was fightin’, and I seen that -she was so mad she couldn’t control herself and didn’t care who heard -or what happened. The neighbors had come in once before, but they’d -got pretty well used to our fights. But I thought it had gone about far -enough and the steak couldn’t be helped, so I went back into the settin’ -room and picked up the paper. In a few minutes she come in and says, -‘Well, come, your old steak’s ready, you’ve made so much fuss about it -you’d better come and eat it and let it shut your mouth.’ And she went -on into the bedroom and got the kid. I drew up my chair and set down -to the table. She put the kid into the high chair and then she set down -on the other side. I cut up the steak and give each of ‘em a piece with -some fried potatoes, then we had some bread and butter and some tea. -She poured out the tea and handed me a cup. There wa’n’t any milk for -the tea and I asked her why that was. She told me she didn’t have any -money to buy tickets, and if I wanted milk I’d better leave some money -to buy tickets instead of spending it all for whiskey. I didn’t make much -of any answer to this but commenced eatin’ my steak. Besides bein’ -boiled it was cooked almost to a crisp, and you couldn’t hardly tell -whether it was beefsteak or what it was; all the taste was out of it and -gone into the water and the steam. I put some of the gravy on the potatoes; -this was better’n the steak and tasted more like beef. I et up the -potatoes and the steak and a few pieces of bread and butter, and cut up the -kid’s steak and showed him how to hold his knife so’s to eat without -cuttin’ himself, and I didn’t say a word to her and she didn’t say a word -to me. Of course, I could see by the way she looked that she was mad, -and I presume she could see that I was, too; and probably both of us -thought it was just as well not to say anything, ‘specially so long as the -kid was there. All the time I was eatin’ I kept thinkin’ about the way -she’d poured the water into the steak and spoilt it, and how I’d been -lookin’ forward to it ever since I bought it on Thirty-fifth Street, and -the more I thought of it the madder I got. If it had been the first time -I don’t think I’d have minded it near so much, but I’d told her about it -ev’ry time I brought home a steak, and it seemed as if always we had -a row pretty near as big as this, and every time she managed to pour the -water into it and spoil it in spite of all that I could do. And this time it -had been just the same thing again. Anyone would have been mad if -they’d been in my place; don’t you think so yourself?</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I finished my supper without sayin’ a word to her, and she -didn’t say a word to me, and then I got up and went back into the settin’ -room and picked up the paper and commenced readin’ again. In a minute -<span class='pageno' id='Page_33'>33</span>she come along through with the kid and took him into the bedroom -to put him to bed. After she’d been in there a while she came out and -shut the door, and stood up for a minute lookin’ over toward me. I -thought she was waitin’ for me to speak, so I just kept my eyes on the -paper like as if I was readin’, but I wa’n’t. I hadn’t cooled off a great -deal since she poured the water on the steak, and could see that she -hadn’t neither, so I thought mebbe it was as well to have it out, but I -was goin’ to wait for her to begin. Of course, I hadn’t no idea then of -doin’ anything like what I did. I was just mad and reckless and didn’t -care much, and would keep thinkin’ of the steak, and you know all the -time I was thinkin’ I could feel a kind of prickin’ up in my head, as if a -lot of needles was runnin’ up toward my hair. I s’pose it was the blood -runnin’ up there. That feller that I told you about that was talkin’ to -us over here kind of made out that a man was a good deal like a machine, -or an engine of some kind, and when the steam was turned on -he had to go. He said that if the blood was pumped up in the head it -made us do things; it made some people write poetry, and some make -speeches, and some sing, and some fight, and some kill folks, and they -couldn’t really help it if they was made that way and the blood got -pumped up in the head. I believe there’s a good deal in it. You know -when the blood don’t circulate down in your feet they get cold and kind -of dead, and then if you put ‘em into a pail of hot water or even cold -water, and then rub ‘em hard with a towel, they get prickly and red, -and you can feel the blood comin’ back to ‘em and feel ‘em wake up -again.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I set perfectly still while she stood by the mantel-piece. -First she picked up one thing and then another and kind of dusted ‘em -and put ‘em back. She done this till she had dusted ever’thing on the -mantel-piece, and all the time she would be lookin’ over toward me, -but I kept my eyes down on the paper and pretended to be readin’. I -knew that she didn’t dust the things because she wanted to dust, for she -always dusted in the mornin’ just after she swept. I knew she did it -because she was nervous and mad, and was waitin’ for me to begin. Of -course, sometimes when you are mad the longer you wait the more you -get over it, and then sometimes the longer you wait the madder you get. -It’s like a boiler not usin’ any of its steam while the fire is goin’; if it -waits long enough somethin’s got to happen.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Finally, after she got everything dusted she looked over straight -at me and says, ‘Are you goin’ to read that paper all night?’ I told her -I was if I wanted to, that it was none of her business how long I read -it; there was a part of it that I’d like to give her to read if she wanted -to; it was the cookery department, and had a recipe for frying steak. -Of course, there wa’n’t no such thing in the paper, and I just made it up -and said it to be sassy, and I knew I shouldn’t have been throwin’ it up -to her, but I was so mad I really didn’t think how ‘twould sound. Then -she said she didn’t want any advice from me or the paper either, about -cookin’, and she wanted me to understand that the cookin’ was none of -my business and she’d tend to that herself in her own way, and if ever I -interfered again she’d leave me and take the kid with her. She said she -learned cookin’ long before she ever knew me. Then I said I thought -she could make money by startin’ a cookin’ school; all them rich folks -<span class='pageno' id='Page_34'>34</span>on Prairie Avenue would come over to get her to learn them how to fry -steak. She said she guessed she knew more ‘bout fryin’ steak than I -did, and when I boarded at the restaurant I was mighty glad to get steak -fried that way, and I only grumbled about it now because I was so mean -and didn’t know how to treat a woman, and a man like me never had -no right to have a decent wife. Then I said I wished I hadn’t; I’d be a -mighty sight better off by myself than livin’ with her and havin’ her -spoil everything that came in the house, and I wished I was back boardin’ -in the restaurant where she found me. She said I didn’t wish it half so -much as she did, that she got along a good deal better when she was -waitin’ on the table than she had since she married me; then she had a -chance to get out once in a while and see someone and have a good -time, but now she stayed to home from one year’s end to another lookin’ -after me and my brat. I told her I guessed the brat was just as much -hers as it was mine, and I didn’t think that was any way to speak about -the boy. Of course I really knew that she didn’t say it because she had -anything against him, but just because she was mad at me. She always -liked him, and I can’t make any complaint of the way she treated him, -and I want him to know it when we’re both dead, and I don’t want him -to get any idea that she wa’n’t perfectly square. I kind of want you to -fix it, if you can, so ‘twon’t look to him as if either of us was to blame, -but I guess that won’t be an easy thing to do.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I said she was mighty glad to give up the job she had at the -restaurant to marry me. She said I asked her to get married, that she -didn’t ask me. Then I told her that, of course, she didn’t ask me, but -she gave me a mighty good chance, and that I believed she just got that -red waist and fixed up her hair the way she did to ketch me, and when I -spoke to her about marryin’ it didn’t take her very long to throw up her -job, and take me so she could get supported without doin’ anything. -Then she said that if she spent any money to get that red waist to ketch -me she was throwin’ it away, and that if I thought she ever worked for -anyone else as hard as she did for me and my brat that I was mistaken, -and it didn’t make any difference what she done, I never gave her any -thanks or did anything for her. If I ever had any time I spent it with -them drunken loafers and politicians and never went anywhere with her; -that she wa’n’t no better’n a slave, and what was she doin’ it all for; -pretty soon she’d be old long before her time. Her looks was all gone -now, and she hadn’t even had a new dress for over a year. I told her -that I didn’t know what she wanted of looks, she never was a prize -beauty and ‘twa’n’t very like anybody’d ever be fool enough to marry her -again, if anything happened to me. And she said if she ever got rid of -me there wouldn’t be much danger of her marryin’ anyone else, she -had men enough to last as long as she lived; that all they ever thought -of was what they could get to eat and drink, that I’d made more fuss -over that miser’ble beefsteak than anyone would over their soul, and -she didn’t see why she ever stood it from me, and she was just as good -as I ever was and knew just as much, and worked a good deal harder, -and didn’t run ‘round nights and get drunk and spend all the money with -a lot of loafers, and be in debt all the time and have the collector runnin’ -after me. I told her I had just about enough of that kind of talk, and -wouldn’t stand no more of it from her; it was bad enough for her to -<span class='pageno' id='Page_35'>35</span>burn up the beefsteak and spoil it without blackguardin’ me and callin’ -me names; she was mighty glad to get the clothes and the grub I bought -her and to live in my house and have me work hard every day in the -cold to get money while she just stayed to home and played with the kid, -and if she said another word to me I’d smash her face. Then she said, -‘Yes, you miserable wife-beater, you kicked me once, didn’t you, but you -needn’ think you can kick me or lay hands on me again. I ain’t afraid of -you nor any of your low-lived drunken crew!’ Then she kind of reached -back to the mantel and took hold of a plaster Paris lady I’d bought of a -peddler, just as if she was goin’ to throw it at me, same as she throwed -that dish once before. I seen what she was doin’ and I grabbed her arm -and said, ‘You damned bitch, don’t try that on me’; and I gave her a -kind of shove over toward a chair and she missed the chair and fell on -the floor.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course, you know I didn’t really mean anything when I called -her a damned bitch; that is, I didn’t mean any such thing as anyone -might think from them words. You know us fellers down to the yards -don’t think very much about usin’ that word, and we never really mean -anything by it. But I don’t think ‘twas a very nice word to use and have -always been sorry I said it, even if I did kill her.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, she jumped up off’n the floor and made towards the table, -like she’d grab a knife, and by this time I had a prickly feelin’ runnin’ -all through my head and up into my hair, and I didn’t really think of -anything but just about her and what she was doin’. I don’t believe I -even thought about the kid in there on the bed. Mebbe if I had I -wouldn’t have done it.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, when she made for the table that way, I just run over between -her and the table, and said, ‘Damn you, if you move another step -I’ll knock your damned brains out!’ Them’s the very words I said. I -didn’t really think what I’d do, but of course I was mad and didn’t -mean to give up to her, and wanted to show her who was boss, and that’s -all I thought about. Then she come right up to me and sort of throwed -her arms back behind her, and throwed her head back, and her hair -hung down all kind of loose, and her eyes glared like electric lights, -and she looked right at me and just yelled so I thought the people could -hear her all over the ward. And she said, ‘Kill me! you miserable -drunken contemptible wife-beater; kill me, I just dare you to kill me! -Kill me if you want to and then go in there and kill the boy, too; you’d -better make a good job of it while you’re at it! Kill me, you coward, -why don’t you kill me?’</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Just then I happened to look down by the stove and seen the coal -pail, and there was the poker in the pail. The poker was long and -heavy. Of course I hadn’t ever thought anything about the poker, but -I looked down there and seen it, and she kept yellin’ right at me, ‘Kill -me! Kill me!’ I said: ‘Shut up your mouth, damn you, or I will kill -you!’ But she just yelled back, ‘Why don’t you do it! Kill me! Kill -me! You miserable dirty coward! Kill me!’ Then I looked down at -the poker and I just reached and grabbed it, and swung back as hard -as ever I could.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_36'>36</span>“Her face was kind of turned up toward me. I can see it now -just as plain—I s’pose I’ll see it when I’m standin’ up there with the -black cap over my eyes. She just leaned back and looked up as I swung -my arm and she said: ‘Kill me! Kill me!’ And I brought it down just -as hard as ever I could right over her forehead,—and she fell down -on the floor.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_37'>37</span> - <h2 class='c006'>V</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_037.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -“You might go and talk to the guard a little bit, I’ll be all right -in a few minutes. You know this is the first time I’ve ever -told it, and I guss I’m a bit worked up.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank got up, without looking at Jim’s face. His own was -white as a corpse. He moved over to the little iron door and spoke to -the guard.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Could you give me a drink of water—or could you make it whiskey? -I’m sure that would be better for Jim.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guard passed him a flask, and told him to just keep it. Hank -took a drink himself and handed it to Jim.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I guess ‘twould do me good. I believe if I was out of here -I wouldn’t never take any more, but I don’t see any use stoppin’ now; -anyhow I’ll need a lot of it in the mornin’. Just ask the guard if any -word has come for me. I s’pose he’d told me, though, if it had.” Jim -held the bottle to his mouth long enough to drink nearly half of what -was left.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank looked out at the silent corridors. Over in the court he could -still hear the hammer and the voices of the workmen; from the upper -tiers, the wild shriek of an insane man called on someone to save him -from an imaginary foe. A solitary carriage rolled along the pavement -and the voices of two or three men singing came up from the street -below. A faint breath from the lake just stirred the heavy prison smell -that seemed dense enough to be felt. The guard asked him how he was -managing to pass the night. Hank answered that it was going much -faster than he had thought.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Poor fellow,” said the guard, “I’ll be kind of lonesome when he’s -gone. He’s been a good prisoner.” This was the highest character that -a guard could give.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, Hank, if you are ready now, I’ll go on with my story. That -whiskey kind of braced me up, and I s’pose you needed it too, after -listenin’ so long. I must hurry, for I ain’t near through with what I -wanted to say. I’ve thought lots about how I hit her, and I s’pose I -ought to think it was awful, and it looks so to me now, and still it -didn’t seem so then. I can’t help thinkin’ of what that feller said to us -in his speech. He claimed that punishin’ people didn’t do no good; that -other people was just as likely to kill someone if you hung anybody, -as they would be if you let ‘em go, and he went on to say that they used -to hang people for stealin’ sheep and still just as many sheep got stole -and probably more’n there was after they done away with it. I don’t -s’pose I ever should have thought anything about it if I hadn’t killed -her, but, of course, that made me think a lot. I’m sure that I wouldn’t -do such a thing again; I wouldn’t be near so likely to do it as I was -before, because now I know how them things commence, and I’m awful, -awful sorry for her too. There wa’n’t no reason why she should die, -and why I should have killed her, and if there was anything I could do -to change it, of course I would.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_38'>38</span>“But I can’t really see how hangin’ me is goin’ to do any good. If it -was I might feel different, but it ain’t. Now, all my life I always read -about all the murders in the newspapers and I read about all the trials -and hangin’s, and I always kind of wished I could go and see one. But -I never thought I’d go this way. Why, I was readin’ about a murder -and how a feller was found guilty and sentenced to be hung just before -I killed her. And do you s’pose I thought anything about it? If there’d -been forty scaffolds right before my eyes I’d have brought down that -poker just the same. I don’t believe anyone thinks of gettin’ hung when -they do it; even if they did think of it they’d plan some way to get -‘round it when they made up their mind to do the killin’. But they -don’t think much about it. I believe sometimes that the hangin’ makes -more killin’. Now look at them car-barn fellers; they just went out and -killed people regardless, same as some men go out to shoot game. I don’t -believe they’d ‘ve done it if it hadn’t been so dangerous. And then you -know when they hung the whole three of ‘em at once, and one feller cut -his own throat so as to cheat ‘em, and they took him right up and hung -him, too, though he was so weak they had to carry him onto the scaffold, -and the doctors done ever’thing they could do to keep him from -dyin’ just so’s they could hang him. Well, you know they hadn’t any -more’n finished them until another gang of young fellers commenced -doin’ just the same kind of thing, and they are in jail now for murder, -and you know one of ‘em came in here one day and looked at the other -ones before he done the killin’. I half believe that all the fuss they -made ‘bout them fellers and hangin’ ‘em and printin’ it all in the newspapers -did more to make the other ones do it than anything else. But I -s’pose there ain’t no use hangin’ ‘em unless you put it all in the newspapers, -for it won’t scare anyone from doin’ it unless people know they -are hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But, of course what I think about it don’t make any difference, so -I’d better hurry on. Well, after she fell over I stood still for a few -minutes waitin’ for her to get up. Of course I thought she’d get right -up again, and mebbe come back at me. But she didn’t move. Then I -thought she was scarin’ me, and I just sat down for a few minutes to -show her that I wa’n’t goin’ to be fooled in no such way. Still she -didn’t stir. Then I commenced to be half scart and half mad. I didn’t -think it was right to try to make me believe I had done anything like -that. So I said, ‘When you’ve laid there long enough you’d better get -up.’ Then I said, ‘What’s the use of playin’ theater, you can’t fool me. -I’m goin’ to bed and when you get ready you can come along.’ But I -didn’t go to bed; I just sat still a little longer, and then I stepped over -by her head and looked down at it, and I thought it didn’t look right, -and then I was scart in earnest. Just then I heard the kid cry, and I -didn’t want him to come out, so I locked the outside door and took a -good look to see that all the curtains was clear down, and went in to -see the kid. I lit a candle in the bedroom and talked with him a little; -told him ever’thing was all right and to go to sleep, and I’d come in -again in a minute or two. Then I went back to the settin’ room to -see her.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Before I looked at her face I looked down to her feet to see if -maybe they hadn’t moved, for I didn’t want to look at her face if I -<span class='pageno' id='Page_39'>39</span>could help it. And I thought mebbe this would be the best way. But -the feet was just where they was before; then I looked at her hands -and they hadn’t moved, so I knew I just had to look at her face. I hadn’t -examined her very close before, I was so scart, and I never could look -at blood or dead folks, but of course this was different; so I got down -on the floor close up to her face, and I seen the great welt along her -forehead and top of her head and across the temple, and ‘twas all covered -with blood and a lot of it had got on the floor. Her eyes was wide -open. I knew they didn’t see anything. They looked just as if they’d -been turned to glass, before she’d had time to shut ‘em. I felt of her -wrist to see if her pulse was goin’. At first I thought it wa’n’t, and -then I thought I felt it go a little, and I never felt so good in all my life. -I pushed my finger down harder, but I couldn’t get it again. Then I -felt of her heart and it was just the same way. I leaned over to her -ear, and asked her to please wake up, that I was awful sorry, and I didn’t -know what I was doin’, and if she’d just speak I’d be good to her all -my life and do ever’thing I could for her, and then I asked her to do it -on account of the boy, but still she didn’t move. Of course I was almost -scart to death by this time; first I thought I’d call the neighbors and -send for a doctor and then I thought that was no use. If she wa’n’t -dead I didn’t need him, and if she was I must try to do somethin’ so -no one would find it out. Then I began to think what could be done to -bring her to. I never had much experience with people that got hurt, -except the ones I’d seen at the railroad, and I wa’n’t just sure what to -do with anyone in this fix. But I’d read somethin’ about it somewhere, -and so I went into the back room and drew some water into a pail and -took an old cloth and got down on the floor and commenced washin’ -her head. But I couldn’t see the first sign of life. Then I looked -around for some whiskey and found a little in a bottle in the closet and -poured some in her mouth, but it all run right out, and she didn’t move.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course I never went to school very much but no matter how -good an education I had I don’t s’pose I could tell you how I felt so -you’d know it yourself. I never s’posed I’d do anything to get into any -trouble, and I always thought I was different from criminals. But here -I was in the house with her dead, and I’d killed her, and what would -happen to me? I just pictured the headlines in the newspapers and the -boys callin’ ‘all about the Jackson murder,’ and me tried for murder and -hung, and the kid goin’ ‘round the rest of his life knowin’ that his father -had killed his mother and then got hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“At first I just set paralyzed and sort of held my head in my hands -and moaned, and wondered if mebbe it wa’n’t a dream and if I couldn’t -wake up, and then I thought I’d go and give myself up to the police -and be done with it, and then I thought I might just as well kill myself, -so I went and got an old razor, that I used to shave with sometimes, -and tried to get up my nerve to cut my throat. But somehow I couldn’t -put the edge over my wind-pipe. I wish though now that I had. Did -you ever try to kill yourself? Them people that say it’s only cowards -that kill themselves don’t know what they’re talkin’ about. I’d like to -see them try it once. I’d have killed myself only I didn’t have the nerve. -It wa’n’t because I cared anything about livin’; but I just couldn’t cut -my own throat. Then I thought mebbe she wa’n’t dead, and I’d look -<span class='pageno' id='Page_40'>40</span>again. So I done just the way I had before,—commenced at her feet -to see if they’d moved, then when I got up to her hands I thought one of -‘em had moved, and my heart just gave a great big jump. Then I remembered -that I’d picked it up, when I’d felt for her pulse and had put -it down in a different place. Then I looked up to her face and it was -just the same. It was white as a sheet, all except the long red and black -welt and the blood, and her eyes wide open, and lookin’ right straight -up to the ceilin’ starin’ just like a ghost. Then I felt of her hands and -feet, and they was cold as ice and she was stiff, and I knew it was all -off and she was dead.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“If you don’t mind I’ll just take a little more of that whiskey before -I go on; the whole thing’s been a little wearin’ on me and I think -it’ll brace me up a bit. You’d better have some, too. That guard is a -good feller, considerin’ the place he’s in. I believe if you hadn’t come -I’d told my story to him. I didn’t feel as if I could go without tellin’ -someone how it really was. You see no one ever made the least bit of -allowance for me in the trial, and I got tired of talkin’ to my lawyer all -the time. He always said that what I told him didn’t amount to anything, -and he was so well educated that he couldn’t understand me -anyhow.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I was sure that she was dead, I just throwed myself over -on the floor, and laid my face flat down on my arm and give up. I’m -sure I cried and I thought they could hear me next door, but I guess -they didn’t. Anyhow I cried without payin’ any attention to ‘em. I -must have laid this way for ten or fifteen minutes without once lookin’ -up, and she was right close to me, and I could just reach out my hand -and touch her. And I hadn’t begun to think what I’d do. Then after -I’d laid a while, I just thought mebbe I’d ought to pray. It had been a -long while since I’d prayed. Of course, I hadn’t paid much attention to -such things when I was all right; I guess there ain’t many people that -does, except women and children, but I always really believed in it, just -the same as I do now. I kind of thought that God knew that I wasn’t -wicked enough to kill her, and have all this trouble, and bring all that -misery on the kid; so I thought I’d try him. I didn’t know much about -prayers except only the ones I’d learnt long ago, and they didn’t any of -‘em seem to fit this case. But I didn’t need to know any prayers; I -just got down on my knees and prayed myself. I begged God to have -her come back; I told him how good she was, and how the boy needed -her and what a hard time I’d always had, same as I told you, only not -near so long, and I apologized the best I could for not goin’ to church -more reg’lar and not ever prayin’ to him, and I asked him to forgive me -for the time I kicked her, and the other things I’d done, and I promised -if he only would let her come back I’d always be good and take care -of her and the boy, and never do anything wrong and always go to church -and confessional, and love God and Jesus and the Virgin and all the -saints, and quit politics and drinkin’, and do right. I prayed and prayed, -and I meant it all, too. And I don’t believe it was all for myself, ‘though -I s’pose most of it was, but I really felt awful sorry for her, as I have -ever since, and I felt awful sorry for the boy, who never had anything -at all to do about it all.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then after I quit prayin’ I got up slow, thinkin’ that it might have -<span class='pageno' id='Page_41'>41</span>done some good, and that mebbe she’d be all right, so I started in, just -as I had before, with her feet to see if they’d moved. I s’pose the reason -I done this way was that if I saw her head first and knew she was -dead ‘twould be all off the first thing; and when I commenced with her -feet I always had some hope till I got clear up to her head. Well, her -feet hadn’t moved a bit. Then I went to her hands, and they was just -in the same place, and I began to feel it wa’n’t any use to look at her -head; but I did. And there it was just as white as that plaster-Paris -lady, and her eyes lookin’ straight up.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I felt sure ‘twas all off. I’d done everything I could think -of, and I’d prayed just as hard as I knew how, and I was sure no one -ever meant it more’n I did or wanted it any more, and I knew, of -course, God had seen the whole thing and could do it if he wanted to -and that he didn’t want to, and that she was clear dead. I kind of half -set and half laid down on the floor a little while longer, tryin’ to think -about it and what I was goin’ to do. But I couldn’t make any plans; -I kep’ thinkin’ about how it had all happened, and it begun to seem as -if it wa’n’t really me that hit her with the poker, but as if both of us -was somebody else and I was sort of dreamin’ about it all. Ain’t you -ever had them kind of feelin’s when somethin’ awful has happened? But, -of course, nothin’ like that ever happened to you. I thought most about -that beefsteak, and how I stopped and bought it, and didn’t go in and -get a drink, and all the time it seemed to me just as if that was where -I made my big mistake. And then I thought how awful near I come to -goin’ into the saloon instead of the butcher-shop, and then some of the -time I’d kind of feel as if mebbe I was goin’ into the saloon after all, -and it wa’n’t goin’ to happen. Don’t you know how it is when anybody’s -died or anything happened? You think about everything that’s done, -so as to see if mebbe you can’t make it come out some other way after -all? Well, that’s the way I done about every little thing, and every word -we both spoke till I hit her with the poker. Another thing where I -almost missed killin’ her was that poker; that coal pail didn’t belong in -the settin’ room at all, but ought to have been in the kitchen, and I don’t -know how it ever got in there. Mebbe the boy lugged it in for a drum. -You know he didn’t have many playthings, or mebbe she started a little -fire in the settin’ room, for ‘twas the first cold day. I don’t see how it -could have been that either, for she was washin’ that day and wouldn’t -have any time to set in there. But I don’t know as it makes any difference; -the coal pail was in the settin’ room and the poker was in the pail, -and they was right before my eyes at the time. If they hadn’t been I -never would’ve used the poker. When she stood up and told me to kill -her, I’d most likely struck her with my fists and that would only knocked -her down. But anyhow it didn’t do any good to go over it, for I couldn’t -go into the saloon instead of the butcher-shop, and I couldn’t get that -coal pail out of the settin’ room, and it had all been done—and she was -dead! And I’d killed her! After I’d went over this a long time I made -myself stop so I could do somethin’ that would be some use, for I knew -there was lots to be done before mornin’, and I hadn’t a minute to lose. -I knew I must get up off’n the floor and try to act like a man, and not -give up, no matter how bad it was. But before I got up I thought I’d -just take one more look to make sure that there wa’n’t no use. So I -<span class='pageno' id='Page_42'>42</span>went over her again, just as I’d done before, and it came out the same -way anyhow. I didn’t much think it was any use then and would’ve -just about as soon begun at the head and got through with it right away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After I had looked her over again I got up and set down in a chair -to make up my mind what to do. I hadn’t been there very long when I -knew I couldn’t figure it out; ‘twas too much for me the way I was, -and so I thought I’d just quit tryin’ and do a few things first. And then -I wondered what time ‘twas. I hadn’t thought anything about the time -before, but I s’posed it must be almost mornin’ for just then I heard an -express wagon drive along the street, and anyhow it seemed an awful -long while since I got home. The clock was right up on the mantel-piece -and tickin’ loud, but I hadn’t thought of lookin’ at it before and -didn’t even know it was in the room. I looked up and seen it was goin’ -and that ‘twas only a quarter to twelve. I was surprised that it wa’n’t -no later, and wondered how it could be, and just then it struck and I -kind of kep’ count because I was sort of thinkin’ of the clock and it -stopped strikin’ at nine. Then I thought somethin’ must be wrong with -the clock too, and I looked back again and seen that I’d made a mistake -in the hands and ‘twas only nine o’clock. I couldn’t believe this was so, -but the clock was goin’ all right. Then I kind braced up a little and -thought what was to be done. First, I looked ‘round the room. I told -you, didn’t I, that we et in the settin’ room? It was a settin’ room and -a dinin’ room both. Sometimes we et in the kitchen, but that was pretty -small. The table stood there with the dirty dishes just as we’d got -through eatin’. There was the plates and knives and forks, and the teacups -and the big platter with some of that steak left, and the gravy -gettin’ kind of hard like lard all ‘round it. The coal pail was there and -standin’ ‘round the table where we’d set to eat, except the rockin’ chair -which was over by the stove. I looked at all them things, and then I -looked down at the floor, and there she lay with her head over toward -the closet door and her feet up almost under the table. It was an awful -sight to look at her on the floor, but there wa’n’t nothin’ else to do, so I -looked her all over as careful as I had before, then I got kind of scart; -I hadn’t never been in a room alone with anyone that was dead, except -at the morgue; but, of course, this was worse than anything of that kind. -I’d always heard more or less about ghosts and haunted houses and -things like that, and didn’t believe anything of the kind, but they seemed -to come back now when I looked over where she was layin’. I was -afraid of ever’thing, not of people but of ghosts and things I couldn’t -tell nothin’ about. I knew she was dead and must have gone somewhere, -and most likely she was right ‘round here either in the bedroom lookin’ -at the boy or out here seein’ how I felt and what I was goin’ to do with -her. Just then I heard somethin’ move over by the closet and it scart -me almost to death. I knew it must be her and couldn’t bear to see her -unless she could come to life on the floor. Finally I looked around to -where I heard the noise and then I seen it was the curtain; the window -was down a little at the top. I went and put up the window, and then -hated to turn ‘round and look back where she lay. Then I went to the -bedroom door and opened it about half way just so the light wouldn’t -fall on the bed and wake him up, but so I could hear him breathe and it -wouldn’t be quite so lonesome. Ever’thing was awful still and like a -<span class='pageno' id='Page_43'>43</span>ghost except the clock, after I got to thinkin’ of it. Then it ticked so -loud I was almost ‘fraid they’d hear it in the next house. When I got -the bedroom door open I thought I must do somethin’ about her and -the room before I made up my mind what plan to take about myself.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“First I went and hunted up the cat. I’d always heard about that, -so I went into the kitchen and there she was sleepin’ under the stove. I -couldn’t help wishin’ I was the cat, although I had never thought of any -such thing before. Then I took her in my hand and went to the outside -door and threw her out in the yard and shut the door tight. Then I -came back in the settin’ room and thought about what had to be done. -I looked over again at her and then I saw her eyes still lookin’ right up -at the ceilin’, and round and shinin’ like glass marbles. I thought that -wa’n’t the way they ought to be and that all the dead folks I’d ever -seen had their eyes shut. So I went over and got down by her head and -kind of pushed the lids over her eyes, same as I’d always heard they did, -and put some nickels on ‘em to keep ‘em down. I don’t know how I -done it, but I felt as if it had to be done, and, of course, they wa’n’t -no one else to do it, and nobody knows what they can do until they -have to. And then I saw that there was a good deal of blood on her -face, and I wanted her to look decent though I didn’t know then what -would be done with her, and I went into the kitchen to the sink and -got a pan of water and some soap and an old towel, and washed all the -blood off that I could find, and wiped her face careful to make her look -as well as I could. Once or twice while I was doin’ it I kind of felt -down to her heart, but I knew it wa’n’t no use. Still I thought it couldn’t -do any hurt, and that God might’ve thought I wa’n’t scart enough so he -waited; but I didn’t feel nothin’ there. Then I kind of smoothed back -her hair like I’d seen her do sometimes. ‘Twas all scattered round on -the floor and pretty full of blood. I couldn’t very well get the blood out, -but I fixed the hair all back together the best I could. Then I noticed -that her jaw kind of hung down and I pushed it up and tied a towel -around it to keep it there, and then she looked pretty well, except that -great long gash over her face and head where the poker went.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I thought I’d have to fix up the room and the floor a little -bit. I sort of pushed back the chairs and the table so I could get a little -more room, and then moved her a little way and straightened her out -some. First before I moved her I got that paper I’d been readin’ and -laid it on the floor and then I took up her shoulders and lifted ‘em over to -one side and laid her head on the paper. Then I moved the rest of her -over to match her head and shoulders. There was a lot of blood on the -floor where she’d been, and I knew I had to do somethin’ about that.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“There was a nice Japanese rug on the floor, and her head had -struck just on the edge of it over by the door. I’d bought her the rug -for a Christmas present last year, and she liked it better’n anything she -had in the house, but it was beginnin’ to wear out some. A part of the -blood was on the floor and a part on the rug. So I went and got another -pan of water and the soap and towel and washed the floor; then I -washed the rug the best I could, and lifted it up and washed in under it, -and then threw away the water and got some more and washed it all -over again. When I seen that the last water was a little bloody I thought -mebbe I’d better go over it again, so I got some more water and went over -<span class='pageno' id='Page_44'>44</span>it the third time, then I threw the water out and washed the towel as -good as I could, and went back in and looked ‘round the room to see if -there was anything else to do. Just then I noticed the poker that I -hadn’t thought of before. I took it to the kitchen and washed it all -over and then dried it and then put it in the stove and covered it with -ashes, and then laid it down on the hearth; then I went back in and seen -that ever’thing was finished and that she was all right, and there wa’n’t -nothin’ to do except to make my plans. But before I go on and tell you -what I done with her, let me speak to the guard a minute.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank and Jim got up once more and looked out through the bars. -The guard was still sitting on the stool and asked what he could do.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“What time is it?” said Jim.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Oh, it’s early yet, only a little after twelve,” he replied. “Wouldn’t -you like a little more whiskey? I’ve got another bottle here, and I can -get all I want down to the office. If I was you I’d drink it. I don’t -think whiskey does any hurt. I’m always arguing with that other guard -about it. He’s bug-house on whiskey.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim took the whiskey and then turning to the guard, with an anxious -face, said, “You’re sure nothin’ has come for me?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No, there’s nothin’ come.” But after a few minutes he added, “I’ll -go over to the telephone pretty soon and call up the telegraph office -and make sure.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim’s face brightened a little at this. “I’m much obliged. It might -be sent to me, and it might be sent to the jailer or the sheriff. You’d -better ask for all of us.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_45'>45</span> - <h2 class='c006'>VI</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_045.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -“That whiskey makes me feel better. I’ve been takin’ a good -deal tonight and I s’pose I’ll take more in the mornin’. That’s -one reason why I’m drinkin’ so much now. First I thought I -wouldn’t take any tomorrow—or—I guess it’s today, ain’t it? -It don’t seem possible; but I s’pose it is. I thought I’d show the newspapers -and people that’s been tellin’ what a coward I was to kill a woman! -but now I think I’ll take all I possibly can. I guess that’s the best way. -It don’t make no difference—if I take it they’ll say I’m a coward -and if I don’t, it’s only bravado. Most people takes so much that -they almost have to be carried up, and they don’t hardly know. I -guess that’s the best way. Some people take somethin’ to have a -tooth pulled, and I don’t see why they shouldn’t for a thing like -this. Mebbe the whiskey makes me talk more’n I meant to, and -tell you a lot of things that hain’t nothin’ to do with the case, but -it’s pretty hard for me to tell what has and what hain’t.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After I got her laid out and the floor cleaned, I set down a -minute to think what I’d do next. First I thought I’d go in and -get the kid and take him away, and leave her there, and I guess -now that would have been the best way, and they wouldn’t found -it out so quick. But then I thought the people next door, or the -postman, or milkman, or somebody, would come along in the -mornin’ and find her there, and I couldn’t get far with the kid. -Besides I only had about ten dollars and I knew that wouldn’t last -long. Then I thought I’d just go out and jump onto one of the freight -trains they was makin’ up in the yards, and leave her and the kid -both; then I couldn’t bear to think of him wakin’ up and comin’ out -into the settin’ room and findin’ her there. He wouldn’t know what -it meant and would be scart to death and ‘twouldn’t be right. Then -so long as I couldn’t do either one, I had to get her out, but I didn’t -know how to do it, and what was I goin’ to do with her when I got -her out. First I thought I’d try to put her in the sewer, and then I -knew someone would find her there for that had been tried before; -then I studied to see what else I could think of.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Finally I happened to remember a place she and I went once -picnickin’, just after we was married. I don’t know how I happened -to remember it, ‘cept that I couldn’t think of anything to do, and -then I was kind of goin’ over our life, and it seemed as if that was -the nicest day we ever had. One of the boys had been tellin’ me -about the new street car lines that run way off down through Pullman -and South Chicago, and out into the country, and how nice it -was out there away from all the houses. So one Sunday we went -over to the street cars and started out. I don’t know whether we -found the right place or not, but I remember just when we was -goin’ to turn somewhere to go to Pullman or South Chicago we saw -<span class='pageno' id='Page_46'>46</span>some trees off in a field, and thought that would be a nice place to -go and set in the shade and eat the lunch we’d brought along. So -we went over under the trees, and then I saw some rock further -over, and then she and I went over where they was and there was -a great deep pond with big stones all ‘round the edge. I heard that -it was an old stone quarry that had got filled up with water. But it -was awful deep and big, and we set down under a little tree on top -of one of them big rocks and let our feet hang over the sides, and -the water was way down below, and I said to her just in fun, ‘Now, -if I wanted to get rid of you, I could just push you over here and -no one would ever know anything about it.’ She kind of laughed at -the idea and said if I ever wanted to get rid of her I wouldn’t have -to push her off any rock, that she’d go and jump in somewhere herself, -and I told her if I ever wanted her to I’d let her know, and for -her to just wait till I did. And we went all ‘round the pond, and I -threw stones in it and tried to see how near across I could throw, -and we stayed ‘round until it was time to take the car and go home. -And I don’t believe I ever had a better time. Now and then when we -was friendly or had got over a fight, we used to talk about goin’ -back there again, but we never did.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, after thinkin’ of ever’thing I could, I made up my mind -that the best thing was for me to put her on the express wagon and -take her out there, if I could find the place. I didn’t believe anybody -would ever know anything about it, and if they did ‘twould be a long -time and they wouldn’t know who she was.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I thought it might be dangerous gettin’ her out of the -house and gettin’ the wagon out on the street that time of night. -If anyone seen us they’d be suspicious and want to know what I was -doin’, and then I was afraid the policeman would be watchin’ for -suspicious people and things along the street. But I didn’t see anything -else to do, and I knew I had to take chances anyway and would -most likely get caught in the end. I looked at the clock and found -‘twas only ten, and I felt as if that was too early to start out. The -people next door wouldn’t be abed and if they ever saw me carryin’ -her out they couldn’t help noticin’ it. So I set down and waited. -You hain’t no idea how slow the time goes in such a case. I just -set and heard that clock tick, and the boy breathin’ in the other -room; it seemed as if every tick was just fetchin’ me that much -nearer to the end—and I s’pose mebbe that’s so, whether we’ve -killed anyone or not, but you don’t never think of it unless it’s some -place where you’re waitin’ for someone to die, or somethin’ like that. -Then of course I kept thinkin’ of ever’thing in my whole life, and -I went over again how I’d done it, but I couldn’t make it come out -any different no matter how hard I tried.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I wondered what I was goin’ to do next, and how long -‘twould be before they’d ketch me, and if I’d stand any show to get -out, if I got ketched. Of course, I thought I’d have to run away. -I never seemed to think of anything but that. I guess ever’body -runs away when they do any such thing; ‘tain’t so much bein’ safer, -but they want to get away. It don’t seem as if they’d ever be any -<span class='pageno' id='Page_47'>47</span>chance anymore where it’s done. But I couldn’t just figger out -where to go. Of course, I knew I’d take the cars. There ain’t any -other way to travel if you want to go quick. Then I thought I’d -have a long enough time to figger it out while I was takin’ that -drive down across the prairie. Anyhow I’d need somethin’ to think -about while I was goin’.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“That feller that talked to us in the jail said the real reason why -they hung people and locked ‘em up was to get even with ‘em, to -make ‘em suffer because they’d done somethin’. He said all the -smart men who’d studied books claimed that hangin’ and punishin’ -didn’t keep other people from doin’ things. But if it’s done to make -anyone suffer they ain’t any use in doin’ it at all. I never suffered -so much since as I did when I was settin’ there and thinkin’ all -about it, and what I was goin’ to do, and what would become of the -kid, and how she was dead, and ever’thing else. You know it takes -quite a while to get used to a thing like that, and while I was -settin’ there beginnin’ to realize what it all meant, it was awful! -If I’d only had the nerve I’d just cut my throat and fell right over -alongside of her. A good many people does that and I wish I could’ve. -But every time I thought of it I kind of hung back. I don’t ever -want any more such nights; I’d rather they’d hang me and be done -with it. I didn’t suffer so much when I was runnin’ away or gettin’ -caught, or bein’ tried; even when I was waitin’ for the verdict to -come in; nor I didn’t suffer so much waitin’ for the Supreme Court -or the Governor, or even since they give up hope and I can hear ‘em -puttin’ that thing up over there in the courtyard.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I don’t s’pose hangin’ will hurt so very much after all. The -main thing is, I want ‘em to hurry after they start out. Of course, -I’ll be pretty drunk, and won’t know much about what they’re -doin’, and I don’t s’pose they’ll take long after I put on them clothes -until it’s all over. Goin’ from here to the place won’t hurt, though -I s’pose it’ll be pretty hard work walkin’ up the ladder and seein’ -that rope hangin’ over the beam, and knowin’ what it’s for. But I -s’pose they’ll help me up. And then strappin’ my hands and feet’ll -take some time. But they don’t need to do that with me for I shan’t -do a thing;—still mebbe if they didn’t I’d kind of grab at the rope -when they knocked the door out from under my feet. I might do that -without knowin’ it. So I s’pose it’s just as well. It must be kind of -sickish when they tie the rope ‘round your neck, and when they -pull that cap over your head, and you know you ain’t never goin’ -to see anything again. I don’t s’pose they’ll wait long after that; -they oughtn’t to. You won’t feel anything when you’re fallin’ down -through, but it must hurt when you’re pulled up short by the neck. -But that can’t last long, can it? They do say the fellers kicks a good -deal after they’re hung, but the doctors say they don’t really feel it, -and I s’pose they know, but I don’t see how they can all be so smart -about ever’thing; they hain’t never been hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I s’pose the priest will be here; he’s a trump, and I think more -of him than I ever did before. He’s been a great help to me, and I -don’t know what I’d done without him. Of course, he talks religion -<span class='pageno' id='Page_48'>48</span>to me, but he’s kind of cheerful and ain’t always making out that -I’m so much worse than anyone else ever was. I ain’t much afraid -‘bout God; somehow I kind of feel as if He knows that I’ve always -had a pretty tough time, and that He’ll make allowances on account -of a lot of them things that the judge ruled out, and He knows how -I’ve suffered about it all and how sorry I be for her and the kid, -and He’ll give me a fair show. Still sometimes I can’t help wonderin’ -if mebbe there ain’t nothin’ in all of it, and if I hain’t got through -when my wind’s shut off. Well, ‘scuse me, I didn’t want to make -you feel bad, but I’ve thought about it so much and gone over it so -many times that it don’t seem as if it was me, but that someone -else was goin’ to get hung; but I hain’t no right to tell it to anybody -else, and I didn’t mean to.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I set there and waited and waited, until about eleven -o’clock, and then I thought mebbe ‘twould be safe enough to start, -just then the boy woke up, and I heard him say ‘Mamma,’ and it -kind of gave me a start, and I hurried in and asked him what he -wanted and he said he wanted a drink of water, and I came out to -the kitchen sink and got it and took it back and gave it to him. -Then he asked me what time it was, and I told him about eleven -o’clock, and he asked me why I had my clothes on and where mamma -was, and I told him we hadn’t gone to bed yet, and for him to turn -over and go to sleep, and he said a few more words and then dropped -off.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I went out to the barn to hitch up the rig. The horse was -layin’ down asleep, and I felt kind of mean to wake him, for I knew -he was about played out anyhow; but it couldn’t be helped, so I got -him up and put on the harness. I s’pose he didn’t know much about -the time, and thought he was goin’ down to Water Street after a -load of potatoes. I didn’t bring any lantern; I knew the barn so well -I could hitch up in the dark. Then I took the hay off’n the potatoes -and put it in the bottom of the wagon to lay her on, and then run -the wagon out and turned it ‘round and backed it in again. I ‘most -always hitched up outside the barn for there was more room outdoors, -but I didn’t want to be out there any more’n I could help, so -I thought I’d get all ready in the barn so I could just drive away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I got the horse all harnessed and the bits in his mouth, -and ever’thing ready to hitch up, and then went back in the house. -I’d been thinkin’ that I’d better take one more look, not that ‘twould -do any good but just because it might. You know when you’ve lost -a knife, or a quarter, or anything, and you look through all your -pockets and find it ‘tain’t there, and then go back and look through -all of ‘em again and don’t find it; then you ain’t satisfied with that -and mebbe you keep a lookin’ through ‘em all day, even when you -know ‘tain’t there. Well, that’s the way I felt about her, only I -s’pose a good deal worse, so when I got in I looked her over again -just the same way’s I had before. I felt for her pulse and her heart -but ‘twa’n’t no use. Then I got my old overcoat and my hat and got -ready to start, but before I left I thought I’d just look out once to -see if the folks in the next house was abed, and I found they wa’n’t, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_49'>49</span>for there was a light in the kitchen right next to mine, and I knew -‘twould never do to carry that kind of a bundle out the back door -while they was up. So I waited a little while until the light went -out and ever’thing was still, and then put on my coat and hat and -picked her up in my arms. It was an awful hard thing to do, but -there wa’n’t nothin’ else for it, so I just kind of took my mind off’n -it and picked her up. When I got her kind of in my arms one of -her arms sort of fell over, and her legs kind of hung down like they -was wood, and then I see I had to fasten ‘em some way or I couldn’t -never carry her. It wa’n’t like a live person that can stay right -where they want to; it was more like carryin’ an arm full of wood -that would scatter all around unless you get it held tight.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I laid her down and found some string and tied her arms -tight around her body, and then fastened her ankles together. Then -I went into the bedroom and got a quilt off’n our bed and rolled her -up in that. You know at my trial they made out that ‘twas bad for -me to tie her that way, and if I hadn’t been awful wicked I wouldn’t -have done it. But I can’t see anything in that; there wa’n’t no other -way to do it. Then they said it was awful bad the way I took her -off and the place I dumped her, and the newspapers made that out -one of the worst things about it all; but I tried to think up something -else to do and I couldn’t, and there she was dead, and I had -to do the best I could. I washed her and fixed her all up before I -went away, and if there’d been anything else I could have done I -know I would.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I got her fixed up, I went to the door and looked out, -and I saw some drunken fellers goin’ along in the alley, so I waited -a minute for them; and then I got her in my arms and opened the -door and then turned off the light and went out and shut the door -as soft as I could. It wa’n’t but a few steps to the barn, but I hurried -as fast as I could, and just as I was takin’ the first step I heard the -most unearthly screech that scart me so I ‘most dropped her; but in -a minute I knew it was only a train pullin’ into the yards and I hurried -to get to the barn before the engine come up.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I guess nobody saw me, and I got her in the wagon and -laid her on the hay. I fixed her head to the end and her feet reachin’ -up under the seat. I didn’t want her head so near me in that long -drive down over the prairie. Then I covered her up the best I could -with one of the old horse blankets, so it wouldn’t look suspicious if -anyone seen me.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I tell you it was awful pokerish out there in the barn, worse -than in the house, for I had a light there. I didn’t want to stay in -the barn a minute longer than I could help, so I hurried and hitched -the old horse onto the wagon, then went out to the alley and looked -up and down to see if anyone was there. Then I got on the seat and -put a blanket around me and drove off. I was afraid the neighbors -would notice me drive out of the barn, but they didn’t. The moon -hadn’t quite got up and there couldn’t anyone see unless they was -right close. When I got about a block away I seen a policeman -<span class='pageno' id='Page_50'>50</span>walkin’ ‘long the street and goin’ up to pull a box. Of course I was -scart; he looked at me kind of suspicious like, and looked at the -wagon to see what was in there, but it was rather dark and I braced -up the best I could and drove right ‘long and he didn’t say nothin’. -Then I found a lot of fellers that was comin’ down the street makin’ -a lot of noise. They was a gang of politicians that had been goin’ -round to the saloons and was pretty full. I was afraid some of ‘em -might know me, but they didn’t pay any attention and I went along -up to the corner of Halsted and turned south. I knew Halsted was -a pretty public street, but the roads was better and I had a long way -to go, so I thought I might just as well chance that.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I got along down about Twenty-ninth Street and met a gang -of fellers that was makin’ a lot of noise singin’ and talkin’, and braggin’ -and tellin’ what they could do. I was a little ‘fraid of ‘em, not -because I thought they’d hurt me, but I didn’t know but what they’d -see what was in the wagon. When I come up to ‘em they told me to -stop, that they was the ‘Bridgeport threshers’ and no one had any -right there but them, and they wanted to know what reason I had -to be out at that time o’ night. I told ‘em I was just gettin’ home, -that I’d been kep’ late up town. Then one of ‘em said, ‘What you -got in the wagon?’ and I said, ‘Potatoes.’ Then one feller said, ‘Let’s -see ‘em,’ and started for the wagon. But another one spoke up and -said, ‘Oh, Bill, leave him alone, he’s all right.’ And then they all -started up another road and went away. That was a pretty narrow -escape and I was ‘most scart to death for fear they’d look under the -blanket. I met a good many teams but nothin’ more happened till I -got down to Fifty-fifth Street Boulevard, where I turned east to go -over to the Vincennes road.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“By this time the moon had come up and it was about as light -as day. It had stopped snowin’ and the wind had gone down but it -was awful cold. I never saw a nicer night. You could see everything -almost as well as daylight. I hurried the old horse as much as I -could, but he couldn’t go fast. He hadn’t got much rested from the -day before. Every once in a while I looked back at the load. I kind -of hated to look, but I couldn’t help it. The blanket commenced to -kind of take her shape so it looked to me as if anyone would know -that someone was under there. So I got out and moved the blanket -and fixed it up more on one side. But I didn’t look at her. Then I -drove on across to Vincennes road and turned south. Every once -in a while I’d meet someone, and I was afraid all the time that -something would happen, but it didn’t and I drove on. The moon -got clear up high and I could see everything on the road and around -the wagon, and see where her feet came through under the seat and -almost touched mine, and could see all the horse blanket that covered -her up. I hadn’t got far down the Vincennes road until I -thought the blanket had changed its shape and was lookin’ just like -her again so I got out and fixed it up and went back and drove on.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“While I was goin’ ‘long I kep’ thinkin’ what I was goin’ to do -and I s’pose it was the cold that made me think I’d better go south. -I always did hate cold weather, and this winter I thought I’d have -<span class='pageno' id='Page_51'>51</span>to stay out and run ‘round from one place to another, if I didn’t get -caught the first thing.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I thought I must take the horse and wagon back home, -and I wanted to see that the boy was all right; so I thought it might -bother me to go clear out to that quarry and get away from Chicago -before daylight. But anyhow I could go until one o’clock and then -get back by three, and probably ketch a train before mornin’.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After a while I begun to have a queer idea about her. I thought -I could feel her lookin’ right at me,—kind of feel her eyes. I drove -on, and said it was all bosh and she couldn’t do it, and I looked -down at her feet and I seen they was in the same place, but still I -couldn’t get over that feelin’. I thought she was lookin’ at me all -the time, and I kind of ‘magined I could hear her say, ‘Where ‘re you -takin’ me? Where are you takin’ me? Where are you takin’ me?’ -just about the same as when she said, ‘Kill me! Kill me! Kill me!’ -and no matter what I done, or how hard I tried, I could feel her -lookin’ and hear them words in my ears.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“By this time I was gettin’ ‘way down the Vincennes road. You -know it gets wide ‘way down south, and it ain’t much built up nor -very well paved. There’s a lot of road-houses along the street; most -of ‘em was open and a good many fellers was ‘round ‘em, just as -they always is ‘round saloons. I’d like to have had a drink, for I -was awful cold and scart, but I didn’t dare go in, though I did stop -at a waterin’-trough in front of one of the places and watered the -horse. He was pretty well blowed and was hot. I had urged him -pretty hard and the road was heavy. Wherever there was mud it -was frozen so stiff that it could almost hold up, and still let you -break through, the very worse kind of roads for a horse to go on.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After I got him watered I went on and kep’ meetin’ lots of -wagons. I never had no idea how many people traveled nights before. -I s’posed I wouldn’t see anyone, but I met a wagon ever’ little ways -and I was always afraid when I passed ‘em. A great many of ‘em -hollered out, ‘Hello, pardner,’ or ‘What you got to sell,’ or anything, -to be sociable, and I would holler back the best I could, generally -stickin’ to ‘Potatoes,’ when they asked me about my load. I thought -I knew potatoes better’n anything else, and would be more at home -with ‘em if anything was said.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I hadn’t got far after I watered the horse before her eyes -began to bother me again. Then I kept hearin’ them words plainer -than I had before. Then I got to thinkin’ about all the things I had -heard and read about people who were dead, and about murders, -and that seemed to make it worse’n ever. Then I began to think of -the things I’d read about people that were put away for dead, when -they wa’n’t dead at all, and about mesmerism, and hypnotism, and -Christian Science, but I knew none of them things was done the way -she’d been killed. Then I remembered about trances, and how -people was give up for dead sometimes for days, and even buried -and then come to life, and about how people had dug up old graveyards -and found out where lots of people had moved around after -they’s dead. And then I thought I heard her say, ‘You thought -<span class='pageno' id='Page_52'>52</span>you’d killed me! You thought you’d killed me! You thought you’d -killed me!’ And the further I went the plainer it sounded. Finally -I began to think ‘twas so and of course I hoped it was, and I kep’ -thinkin’ it more’n more and couldn’t get it out of my head. Of course, -I looked around at the houses and the trees and fences and at -the moon. It had clouded up a little with them kind of lightish heavy -clouds you’ve seen that run so fast; they was just flyin’ along over -the sky and across the moon, and I was wishin’ I could go ‘long with -‘em and get away from it all, and then the voice would come back, -‘Where are you takin’ me? Where are you takin’ me? Where are you -takin’ me? You thought you’d killed me! You thought you’d killed -me! You thought you’d killed me!’ And I felt so sure she wa’n’t -dead that I couldn’t stand it any more, and I looked at her feet, but -they hadn’t moved, and then I stopped the horse and got off’n the -wagon and went back to the hind end and lifted up the blanket kind -of slow. For I felt as if I’d stand more chance that way than if I -did it all at once, and I got the blanket up, and then I got hold of the -quilt just by the edge and kind of pulled it back so as to uncover her -face, and just then the moon came out from behind a cloud and -shone right down in her face, almost like day, and she looked just as -white as a ghost, and the bandage had come off her jaw and it hung -clear down, and her mouth was open, and I knew she was dead.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I threw the things back and jumped onto the wagon, half -crazy, and hurried on.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It was gettin’ now where there wa’n’t no more houses, and I -hardly ever met any teams, and I was gettin’ clear out on the prairies, -and I looked at my old silver watch and saw it was close to one -o’clock, and I thought mebbe I might just as well get through with -it now as to wait any longer. So I looked along at the fields to find a -good place, and after a while I saw where there was a great big -field full of hummocks. It looked as if they’d been diggin’ for gravel -or somethin’ of that kind, and I thought that was as good a place as -any. So I looked up and down the road, and saw no one comin’, and -I drove the old horse up in the fence corner and got off the wagon, -and then I fixed a good place to get over, and fastened the quilt a -little better, and took her in my arms and started as fast as ever -I could. I went past the fence and run over to the first hummock, -but the hole didn’t look very deep, and there was some more further -over. So I went to them, but they wa’n’t deep enough either. Then -I looked ‘round and saw one bigger’n the rest and went there. I -laid her down and looked over. The moon was shinin’ all right, and -I could see that the hole was pretty big and deep. I laid her down -lengthwise ‘long the bank, and then took one more feel of her heart -and ‘twas just the same. Then I fastened the quilt a little tighter, -lifted her clear over to the edge, and held her head and feet in a straight -line so she’d roll down the hill all right, and then I give her a shove -and turned and run away.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_53'>53</span> - <h2 class='c006'>VII</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_053.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -“Well, I hadn’t any more’n started to run till I heard a splash -I knew she’d got to the water all right and there wa’n’t -nothin’ for me to do but hurry home.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I went right back to the wagon and climbed upon the seat -and turned ‘round. The old horse was pretty tired but he seemed -some encouraged, bein’ as he’d turned home. Horses always does, -no matter how poor a place they has to stay. I urged him ‘long -just as fast as I could; didn’t stop for nothin’ except to give him -some water at a trough down on Halstead Street, and went right -home. Then I put him in the stable and took care of him, and -throwed some hay in the manger. So long as I hadn’t any oats I -emptied about a bushel of potatoes in with the hay. I thought they -wouldn’t be any use to me any more, and they’d keep him quiet a -while and mebbe do him some good.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I went in the house, and struck a match and lit the lamp. -I didn’t ‘low to stay long for I’d got my plans all thought out comin’ -home, but I just wanted to look into the room and see the kid. I -glanced ‘round and ever’thing seemed all right, except I thought I’d -better take the coal pail out in the kitchen. Then I looked at the -floor and the rug and I couldn’t see no blood; and the water had -pretty near dried up. Then I opened the bedroom door and looked -at the kid. He was sleepin’ all right, just as if he hadn’t been awake -once all night. He was layin’ on one side with his face lookin’ out -toward me, and was kind of smilin’ pleasant-like and his hair was all -sweaty and curly. You’ve seen the kid. You know he’s got white -curly hair just as fine as silk. That’s one thing he got from her.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I couldn’t hardly bear to go away and leave him, but -there wa’n’t nothin’ else to do. I guess I would have kissed him if I -hadn’t been ‘fraid he’d wake up, but I never was much for kissin’; -kissin’ depen’s a good deal on how you’re raised. I guess rich people -kiss a good deal more’n poor people, as a general rule, but I don’t -know as they think any more of their children. Well, I just looked -at him a minute and shut the door and went out. Then I noticed -the whiskey bottle on the table that I brought out to try to wake her; -I hadn’t thought of it before; and I picked it up and drank what was -left, and turned and blew out the lamp and went away. That’s the -last I ever seen of the kid, or the house.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I went right over to the yards to see about trains. There wa’n’t -nothin’ standin’ ‘round there and I didn’t like to ask any questions, -so I went down to the other end and see ‘em switchin’ some cars as -if they was makin’ up a train, and I walked out in the shadow of a -fence until they’d got it all made up and I felt pretty sure ‘twas goin’ -south. I knew them cars and engines pretty well. Then I jumped -in a box car that was about in the middle of the train. There was a -great big machine of some kind in the car, so there was plenty of -<span class='pageno' id='Page_54'>54</span>room left for me, and I snuggled down in one corner and dozed off. -I don’t think I’d been sleepin’ long till a brakeman come past with -a lantern and asked me who I was and where I was goin’. I told -him I was goin’ south to get a job, and wanted to get down as far as -Georgia if I could, for my lungs wa’n’t strong and the doctors had -advised a change of climate. I had read about the doctors advisin’ -rich people to have a change of climate, but of course I hadn’t ever -heard of their tellin’ the poor to do any such thing. I s’pose because -it wouldn’t do no good and they couldn’t afford to leave their jobs -and go. But I didn’t see why that wasn’t a good excuse. He asked -me if I had any whiskey or tobacco, and I said no, and he told me -that I oughtn’t to get on a train without whiskey or tobacco, and I -promised not to again, and then he let me go.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It was just gettin’ streaks of light in the east, and I thought I -might as well go ahead and prob’ly I’d better ride till noon anyhow, -as nothin’ much could happen before that time. Then I went off to -sleep again. The sun was pretty high before I woke up. I looked at -my watch to see what time it was but found I’d forgot to wind it the -night before and it had run down. Well, I concluded it was just as -safe to stay on the car so long as it was goin’ south and so I didn’t -get off all day, except to run over to a grocery when the train -stopped once and get some crackers and a few cigars. I thought I’d -have ‘em when the brakeman come ‘round, and then I fixed myself -for the night. I was pretty well beat out and didn’t have much trouble -goin’ to sleep, though of course I couldn’t get it out of my head any -of the time, and would wake up once in a while and wonder if it -wa’n’t all a dream till I found myself again and knew it was all true.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I’d found out that the car I was in was goin’ to Mississippi and -made out that it was for some saw mill down there. It was switched -‘round once or twice in the day, and I think once in the night, and -was put on other trains, and the new brakeman had come ‘round at -different times. After I got the cigars I gave ‘em one whenever -they come ‘round and this kep’ ‘em pretty good natured. And so -long as the car had switched off and I made up my mind they -wouldn’t find her the first day, I thought mebbe I’d better stay right -in it and go to Mississippi. I didn’t know nothin’ ‘bout Mississippi, -except that it was south and a long ways off and settled with niggers, -and that they made lumber down there. I used to see a good many -cars from Mississippi when I was switchin’ in the yards. The car -was switched off quite a bit, and didn’t go very fast, and it was four -days before they landed it in Mississippi.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“They stopped right in the middle of the woods, and I made up -my mind that this was about as good a place to stay as anywhere, if -I could get a job, and I thought it wouldn’t be a bad plan to try -where they was sendin’ the machine. It had been so easy for me to -get down to Mississippi that I began to think that mebbe my luck -had changed, and that the Lord had punished me all he was goin’ to. -So I went up to the mill and asked for a job. The foreman told me -he’d give me one if I didn’t mind workin’ with niggers. I told him I -didn’t care anything ‘bout that, I guessed they was as good as I was. -<span class='pageno' id='Page_55'>55</span>So I started in. My whiskers was beginnin’ to grow out some. You -know I always kep’ ‘em shaved off, and now they was comin’ out all -over my face, and I made up my mind to let ‘em grow. I went to -work loadin’ saw logs onto a little car that took ‘em down into the -mill. A great big stout nigger worked with me, and we took long -poles and rolled the logs over onto the cars, and then it was rolled -down into the mill and another one come up in its place. I found -the only chance to board was in the big buildin’ where all the hands -lived. I thought this wa’n’t a bad place. Most of the people boardin’ -there was niggers, but there was a few white fellers, and I naturally -got acquainted with ‘em.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I’d been there a week or two when someone brought a Chicago -paper into the house. It was covered with great big headlines and -had my picture on the front page. It told all ‘bout some boys findin’ -her and about the neighbors hearin’ me call her a damned bitch, and -about the kid wakin’ up in the mornin’ and goin’ out in the street -to hunt its ma. Then it offered a thousand dollars reward in great -big letters.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“My whiskers had grown out a good deal and I didn’t look so -very much like the picture. Anyhow I don’t think newspaper pictures -look much like anybody. Still, of course, I was awful scart at -that. My best chum read the piece all over out loud to me after we -got through work, and he said it beat all what a place Chicago was; -that such things as that was always happenin’ in Chicago; and that -Jackson must have been an awful bad man—wouldn’t I hate to meet -him out in the woods some place! A man like that would rather kill -anybody than eat. I didn’t say much about it, but of course I didn’t -contradict him. But I simply couldn’t talk very much myself. He -said he wished he could get the one thousand dollars, but no such -luck would ever come to him.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I’d come there I said my name was Jones, because ‘twas -the easiest one I could think of; there was a butcher right near us -that was named Jones, and it popped into my head at the time. -Some of ‘em asked me where I was from, and I told ‘em Cincinnati. -I didn’t know much about Cincinnati, except that we used to get cars -from there, and so I knew something ‘bout the roads that went to it. I -managed to get hold of the paper and burn it up without anyone -seein’ me. But after it came I didn’t feel so easy as I did before. I -stayed there about a month workin’ at the mill and pickin’ up what -I could about the country, and then I began to think my chum was -gettin’ suspicious of me. He kep’ askin’ me a good many questions -about what I’d worked at and where’bouts I had worked, and how I -got there from Cincinnati and a lot of questions about the town, and -I thought he was altogether too inquisitive, and of course I would -have told him so if I had dared. Finally I thought the other fellers -was gettin’ suspicious, too, and I thought they kind of watched me -and asked a good many questions. So one time right after I got my -pay I made up my mind to leave. I didn’t wait to say nothin’ to -anyone, but jumped onto a freight train, and went on about fifty -miles or so south to a railroad crossin’ and then I jumped off, and -<span class='pageno' id='Page_56'>56</span>took another train east. Along next day I saw a little town where -there was another saw mill, so I stopped off and asked for a job. -I didn’t have no trouble goin’ to work, so long as I was willin’ to -work with the niggers, and I stayed there two or three weeks, same -as the other place, and then I thought the boss began to notice me. -He asked me a lot of questions about where I come from, and ‘most -everything else he could think of. I told him I come from St. Louis, -but I didn’t know much more ‘bout that place than I did ‘bout Cincinnati, -and I guess he didn’t neither. But as soon as pay-day come -I made up my mind I’d better start, so I took the few duds I’d got -together and jumped on another train goin’ further yet, and went -away. Finally I stopped at a little town that looked rather nice and -started out to get a job.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Ever since I got off the first train I always looked pretty -sharp at everyone to make out whether they was watchin’ me or not. -Then I always got hold of all the newspapers I could find to see -if there was anything more about me. I found another Chicago -paper in the depot, and it still had my picture and the offer of a -thousand dollars reward, and said I must have took one of the freight -trains that left the yards, and would most likely be in the south or -in the west. I didn’t like to stay there any longer after seein’ that -paper, but I managed to fold it up the best I could, and just as quick -as I got a chance I tore it to pieces and threw it away. Then I -thought mebbe I’d better get back away from the railroad. So I seen -an old darkey that looked kind of friendly and I asked him about the -country. He told me a good deal about it and I started out to walk -to where he said there was some charcoal pits. I found the place and -managed to get a chance to work burnin’ wood and tendin’ fires. It -was awful black sooty work, but I didn’t care nothin’ about that. -The main thing with me was bein’ safe. I had a pardner who worked -with me keepin’ up the fires and lookin’ after the pits at night, and -it looked kind of nice with the red fires of the pits lightin’ up the -woods and ever’thing all ‘round lookin’ just like a picture. When we -got through in the mornin’ you couldn’t tell us from darkies, we was -so covered with smoke and burnt wood. We boarded in a little -shanty with an old nigger lady that fed us on hominy and fried -chicken, and we didn’t have much of any place to sleep that was -very good.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After I’d been there two or three days I got pretty well -acquainted with my pardner. One day he asked me where I was -from. I never said nothin’ to anybody ‘bout where I came from, -or where I was goin’, or asked them any questions about themselves. -I just worked steady at my job, and all I thought of was -keepin’ still in hopes it would wear off in time, and I could start -over new. I used to dream a good deal about her and the boy, and -sometimes I’d think we was back there in Chicago all livin’ together -and ever’thing goin’ all right. Then I would dream that I was out -with the boys to a caucus, or goin’ ‘round the saloons campaignin’ -with the alderman. Then I’d dream about fightin’ her and hittin’ -her on the head with the poker, and it seemed as if I throwed her -<span class='pageno' id='Page_57'>57</span>in Lake Michigan. Then I’d dream about the boy and my learnin’ -him his letters, and his bein’ with me in the wagon when we was -peddlin’ potatoes, and about the horse, the old one that died, and -the last one I got at the renderin’-place. Then I’d kind of get down -to the peddlin’, and go over the whole route in my sleep, hollerin’ -out ‘po-ta-toes!’ all along the streets on the west side where I used -to go, and the old Italian women and the Bohemian ladies and all -the rest would be out tryin’ to get ‘em cheaper and tellin’ me how -I’d charged too much. Then I seen the old lady that I give the half -peck to, and could hear her ask all the saints to bless me. Then I -stopped into the butcher-shop and got the steak, and ever’thing I -ever done kep’ comin’ back to me, only not quite the same as it is in -real life. You know how ‘tis in a dream; you want to go somewhere -and somethin’ kind of holds your leg and you can’t go. Or you want -to do somethin’ and no matter how hard you try somethin’ is always -gettin’ in front of you and hinderin’ you and keepin’ you back. Well, -that’s the way ‘twas with all my dreams; nothin’ turned out right and -I always come back to where I killed her and throwed her in the lake, -till I was almost ‘fraid to go to sleep, and then I was ‘fraid I’d -holler or talk in my sleep. And my chum slep’ in the same room -with me and I was ‘fraid mebbe he’d find it out, so I never dared to -go to sleep until after he did, and then I was always ‘fraid I’d holler -and say somethin’ and wake him up and that he’d find out ‘bout me -and what I’d done.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, as I was sayin’, after I’d been there three or four days we -was down to the pits one night tendin’ to the fires, and we got to -talkin’ and tellin’ stories to pass the time away, and at last he asked -me where I was from, and I said St. Louis. He said he was from the -north too; I didn’t ask him where he’d come from, but he told me -Chicago. I was almost scart to death when he mentioned the place. -I didn’t ask no questions nor say a word, but he kep’ on talkin’ so -I kind of moved’ round a little and leaned up against a pine tree -so’s the light couldn’t shine right in my face, for I didn’t know what -he might say. He told me that he come down here every winter for -his health; that Chicago was so cold and changeable in the winter; -that he worked in the stock-yards when he was there and he always -went back just as soon as he dared, that there wa’n’t no place in the -world like Chicago, and he was always awful lonesome when he was -away, and he wouldn’t ever leave it if he could only stand the -climate. He said there was always somethin’ goin’ on in Chicago; a -feller could get a run for his money no matter what kind of a game -he played; that if he wanted to have a little sport, there was the pool-rooms -and plenty of other places; that if he didn’t have much -money he could get a little game in the back end of a cigar store, or -he could shoot craps; if he wanted a bigger game there was Powers’ -& O’Brien’s and O’Leary’s, and if that wa’n’t enough, then there -was the Board of Trade. There was always lots of excitement in -Chicago, too. There was races and elections and always strikes, and -ever’thing goin’ on. Then there was more murders and hangin’s in -Chicago than in any other city. Take that car-barn case; it couldn’t -<span class='pageno' id='Page_58'>58</span>never have happened anywhere except in Chicago. And the Luetgert -case, where the feller boiled his wife up in the sausage-vat so -that there wa’n’t nothin’ left but one or two toe-nails, but one doctor -identified her by them, and swore they was toe-nails and belonged -to a woman about her size; one of ‘em had seen her over at a picnic -and remembered her, and he was pretty sure that the toe-nails was -hers. Then that Jackson case was the latest; that happened just a -little while before he left, and the papers was full of that one. -Jackson was a peddler and he went ‘round all day and drunk at all -the saloons just so he could get up nerve enough to kill her. He -thought she had some property and he’d get it if she was out of the -way, so he killed her and took her off and put her in a hole where -he thought no one could find her; but they did, and now one of the -papers had offered a thousand dollars reward for him, and they were -lookin’ for him all over the United States. He said as how he took a -Chicago paper and kep’ posted on everything and read it every day -and wouldn’t be without it for a minute. And then he asked me if I -hadn’t never been to Chicago, and why I didn’t go. I told him -mebbe I would some time, but I’d always been kind of ‘fraid to go. -I didn’t say much but got the subject changed as soon as possible, -and managed to put in the rest of the night the best I could, and -then went home, and after he’d gone to sleep I packed my valise -and paid the nigger lady and told her I had enough of that job and -started off afoot without waitin’ for my pay.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I went straight down the road for two or three miles till I -come to where another road crossed, then I turned off to the left. -I didn’t have any reason for turnin’, except it seemed as if that -would take me more out of the way. I didn’t see anyone along the -road except now and then some old nigger. I walked several miles, -and there didn’t ‘pear to be no one livin’ on the road except niggers -with little shanties same as the one I left in Chicago. I stopped once -and asked an old darkey lady for somethin’ to eat and she give me -some fried chicken and a piece of corn bread and I sat and et it, and -a whole lot of woolly-headed little pickaninnies sat and looked at me -every mouthful. One of ‘em was about the size of my kid, and made -me think of him a good deal; but he didn’t look nothin’ like him. I -guess ‘twas just because he was a boy and about the age of mine. -After I et the chicken and the bread I started on and traveled all day -without seein’ anyone, except niggers, or stoppin’ anywhere except -to get a drink in a little stream. When it begun to be dark I commenced -to think what I’d do for the night, and watched out for a -place to stay. So after while I saw an old shack ‘side of the road and -went in. There was some straw and I was so tired that I laid down -and went right to sleep.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“All night I dreamed about bein’ follered. First I thought I was -out in a woods and some hounds was chasin’ me, and I heard ‘em -bayin’ way back on my trail and knew they’s comin’ for me. I run -to a little stream and follered it up same as I used to read in Indian -stories, and then started on again, and after a while I didn’t hear ‘em -any more. Then first thing I knew they commenced bayin’ again and -<span class='pageno' id='Page_59'>59</span>I could tell that they’d struck my trail, so I run just as fast as ever I -could and the bayin’ kep’ gettin’ louder’n’ louder, and I run through -bushes and brush and ever’thing, and they kep’ gainin’ on me till -they was so close that I got to a little tree where I could almost -reach the branches and I got hold of ‘em and pulled myself up and -got ahead of the hounds, but they come up and set down around the -tree and howled and howled so they’d be heard all through the -woods, and I knew it was all up with me; and then I woke up and -found that I was in the barn and no one ‘round except a cow or a -horse that was eatin’ over in a corner. So I tried to go to sleep again. -Then I dreamed that the policemen and detectives was after me, and -first it seemed as if I was runnin’ down a street and the police was -right behind, and then I turned down an alley and they hollered to me -to stop or they’d shoot, but I didn’t stop, and they shot at me and -hit me in the leg, and I fell down and they come up and got me, and -then it seemed as if I was on the cars and detectives was follerin’ me -ever’where, and whenever I stopped them detectives somehow knew -where I was, and they’d come to the place, and I got away and went -somewhere else, and then they’d turn up there, all ready to arrest -me, and I couldn’t go anywhere except they’d follow me. And I kind -of saw her face, and she seemed to be follerin’ me too, only she -didn’t seem to have any legs or much of anything, except just her -face and a kind of long white train and she just come wherever I -was, without walkin’ or ridin’, but just come, and she always seemed -to know just the right place no matter how careful I hid, and when -they got all ready to nab me I woke up. By that time it was daylight -and there was a darkey there in the barn feedin’ a mule, and he -said, ‘Hello, boss!’ just as friendly, and asked me where I was goin’. -I told him I was lookin’ for a job, and he told me he thought that -over about four miles to the town I could get a job. So I told him -all right, and asked him if he could give me somethin’ to eat. He -took me into the house and gave me some chicken and some corn-cakes -and told me if I would wait a while he’d hitch up the mule and -take me into town, that he was goin’ anyway. I thanked him and -told him I was in a hurry to get to work, and guessed I wouldn’t -wait. I’d got so I was ‘fraid to talk with anybody. I thought they’d -ask me where I was from, and tell me somethin’ ‘bout Chicago, and -mebbe show me a newspaper with my picture in it.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then I went on down the road till I come to a nice town in the -middle of big pine trees. It was full of fine white houses and a few -brick stores, and two or three great big hotels. I asked a nigger what -the place was and he told me it was Thompson, and was a winter -resort for Yankees who come there for their lungs; that they spent -lots of money and that was what made the place so big.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I always liked to talk with the niggers; they never asked me -any questions, and I never was ‘fraid that they’d been in Chicago, -and I didn’t really think they took any of the papers, for they didn’t -know how to read. Well, I just took one look at Thompson and -then went as far from the hotels as I could, and kep’ away from -the stores, for I was sure the place was full of people from Chicago, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_60'>60</span>and that all the newspapers would be there, too. I didn’t stop a -minute over where all the nice houses was. I seen lots of people out -on the porches and settin’ in hammocks and loafin’ ‘round, and I -knew they was from Chicago. Then I went along across a little -stream and come to a lot of poor tumbled-down houses and tents, and I -knew they was the niggers’ quarters, so I went into a little store kep’ -by an old fat nigger lady and bought a bag of crackers and asked her -about the roads.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Before this I made up my mind to go to Cuba. I remembered -readin’ all about it at the time of the war, when a lot of them stock-yards -boys went to fight, and I thought that I’d be so far away that -I might be safe, so I knew that I had to go to the Gulf of Mexico, -and I kep’ on that way. I didn’t dare to take the railroads any more, -but just thought I’d walk, so I kep’ straight on down the road all day -until I got a long ways from Thompson. I didn’t dare to stop for -work, for I’d got it into my head that everyone was after me, and if -I waited any more I’d get caught. My shoes was gettin’ pretty near -wore out and I knew they wouldn’t last much longer, and I hadn’t -got more’n four dollars left, and I knew if I didn’t come to the Gulf -pretty soon I’d just have to go to work.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“That night I stopped at another old shack, and had about the -same kind of dream I did the night before, only I was runnin’, and -every time I pretty near got away a cramp would come in my leg -and pull me back and give ‘em a chance to ketch me, and they seemed -to come just the same without runnin’ or flyin’, or anything, and -always she’d come just where I was. Still I got through the night -and a nigger lady gave me somethin’ to eat, and I went on.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I began to look awful ragged and shabby. My coat was torn -and awful old and black where I’d been workin’ in the charcoal pit. -I’d changed my shirt, and washed the one I had on in a little stream, -but the buttons was gettin’ off and I was tyin’ em up with strings. -My pants was all wore out ‘long the bottom, and my shoes pretty -near all knocked to pieces. As for my stockin’s—you couldn’t call ‘em -stockin’s at all, and I’d made up my mind to get a new pair the next -store I come to, but I didn’t like to stop in town.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Along about noon I got to a little place and, of course, I was -lookin’ pretty bad. Some o’ the dogs commenced barkin’ at me as -soon as ever I got into town. I stopped at a house to get somethin’ -to eat, and a white lady come to the door and told me to go ‘way, -that I was a tramp, and that she’d set the dog on me, and I ran as -fast as I could. I went down the street and a good many boys follered -me, and I began to get scart; so I went through the town as fast as -I could, but I see some people was follerin’ after me, and one that -rode on a horse. So I took to the fields and made for a clump of -trees that I saw off to the right. I run just as fast as ever I could -and when I looked back I saw some people was follerin’ me through -the field. I went straight to the woods and ran through ‘em, and -got pretty badly scratched up, and my clothes tore worse’n they -was before. Then I run into a swamp just beyond and two or three -<span class='pageno' id='Page_61'>61</span>men ran ‘round on the other side of the swamp and I knew it was -all up, and I might just as well surrender and go back.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I was so scart I didn’t care much what they done, so when -the one in front asked me to surrender or he’d shoot, I come out to -where he was, and he put his hand on me kind of rough and said I -was under arrest for bein’ a tramp, and to come with him.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then he took me back to town with all the men follerin’ and -when we got up into the edge of the place ‘most all the boys, black -and white, turned in and follered too. They took me to a little -buildin’ over on the side of the town, and went down stairs into the -cellar and opened an iron door and put me in. There wa’n’t no light -except one window which was covered with iron bars, and they locked -the door and went away and left me there alone.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_62'>62</span> - <h2 class='c006'>VIII</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_062.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -“I was locked up in the cellar for a long time before anyone -came to talk with me. I looked ‘round to see if there was any -chance to get out, but I seen it couldn’t be done. I thought it -wa’n’t hardly worth while to try. Honestly it seemed a kind of -relief to be ketched and know I didn’t have to run any more. I didn’t -know why they arrested me, but I s’posed they just thought I’d done -something and they’d try to find out what it was, so I thought about -what I’d do, and made up my mind I hadn’t better say much.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After a while some fellers come down to see me and took me -up in the office. One of ‘em was the marshal and another was a -lawyer or police-judge or somethin’ of that kind. They said they -wanted to fill out some sort of a paper about who I was and where -I come from and what my business was and who my father and -mother was, and what my religion was, and whether I ever drank, -or smoked cigarettes, and the color of my hair and eyes, and how -much I weighed, and a lot of things like that. So I told ‘em I was -from St. Louis, and guessed at the rest of the answers the best I -could. Only I told ‘em I never knew who my father and mother was. -They wa’n’t satisfied with my answers and fired a lot more questions -at me. And then they told me they thought I lied, and they’d -put me in the lock-up until mornin’, so they put me back there and -give me a plate o’ scraps for supper, and a straw bed to sleep on, -and then went away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Somehow I slept better that night than I had since I’d run -away. I rather thought it was all up and only a question of time -when I’d get back here, but I knew where I stood and wa’n’t so -scart. I’ve slep’ fine ever since I was here, only the time when the -jury was out and when I was waitin’ for the Supreme Court, and -some special times like that. As near as I can find out most of ‘em -does when they know it’s all off, just like people with a cancer or -consumption, or when they’re awful old. They get used to it and -sleep just the same unless they have a pain, or somethin’. They -don’t lay awake thinkin’ they’re goin’ to die. And after all, I guess -if people done that there wouldn’t any of ‘em sleep much. For ‘tain’t -very long with anybody, and bein’ sentenced to death ain’t much -differ’nt from dyin’ without a sentence. Of course, I s’pose it’s a -little shorter and still that ain’t always the case. There’s two fellers -that I knew died since I come here; one of ‘em had pneumonia, and -the other was a switchman that thought the engine was on the -other side-track. John Murphy was his name. Still—I guess my -time’s pretty near come now.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, in the mornin’ the marshal came in and brought me some -breakfast. Then he took me up to the office again. He waited a few -minutes till the judge come, and then they commenced firin’ questions -at me. They asked me how I got from St. Louis to where I was, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_63'>63</span>That kind of puzzled me, for I didn’t exactly know where I was. -I answered it the best I could; but I know I didn’t get it right. They -told me I hadn’t got over lyin’ and I’d have to be shut up some more. -Then they asked me what public buildin’s there was in St. Louis. I -made a guess and told ‘em the court-house and state-house. They -laughed at this, and said St. Louis wa’n’t the capital of Missouri. -And of course I didn’t argue with ‘em about that. Then they wanted -to know how I come there and I said I walked. And they wanted to -know what places I come through and I couldn’t tell ‘em. Then -they asked me where I had walked, and I couldn’t tell ‘em that; and -they asked me how far I’d walked, and I told ‘em not very far, -and they laughed at my clothes and shoes and said they was ‘most -wore out, and they didn’t believe it, and told me again that they -thought I was lyin’ and I’d have to stay there till I learnt how to -tell the truth. Then I got mad and said I hadn’t done nothin’ and -they hadn’t any right to keep me, and I wouldn’t answer any more -questions; that they didn’t believe anything I said anyhow and it -wa’n’t any use, and to go ahead and do what they pleased with me.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then the marshal went to his desk and got a lot of photographs -and hand-bills tellin’ about murderers and robbers and burglars and -pickpockets and ever’thing else, that was sent to him from all over -the country, and he took ‘em and looked ‘em all over and then looked -at me. Then he sorted out a dozen or so and stared at me more particular -than before. I seen what he had in his hand; I seen one of -‘em was my picture; only I was smooth-faced and now my whiskers -had got long. He made me take off my clothes and looked me over -careful, and found where I had broke my leg the time that I caught -my foot between the rails when I thought I was goin’ to be run over. -You remember the time? I wish now I had. Then he let me put on -my clothes, and he went over all the descriptions just as careful as -he could, and he found that the hand-bill told about a broken leg; -then he looked at my face again, and then he asked me when I’d -shaved last, and I told him I never shaved. Then he wanted to know -how tall I was, and I told him I didn’t know, so he measured me by -standin’ me up ‘gainst the wall and markin’ the place. I tried to -scrooch down as much as I could without him noticin’ it; but he -said it was just ‘bout what the hand-bill had it. Then he asked me -how much I weighed, and I told him I hadn’t been weighed for -years. So he called someone to help him, and they put some han’cuffs -on one arm and fastened the other to the marshal and took me -over to a store, and made me stand on the scales till I got weighed. -He said I weighed just a little bit less than the hand-bill made it, -and that if I’d walked from Chicago that would account for the difference. -Then he looked over my clothes, but he couldn’t find any -marks on ‘em.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then he sent down for the barber and told him to shave me. -I objected to that and told him he hadn’t any right to do it; that I -wasn’t charged with any crime, and he said it didn’t make no difference, -he was goin’ to do it anyway. So I knew it wa’n’t no use, -and I set down and let the barber shave me. Of course I knew it -<span class='pageno' id='Page_64'>64</span>would all be up as soon as I got shaved. But I didn’t care so very -much if it was; it wa’n’t any worse than runnin’ all the time and -bein’ ‘fraid of ever’-one you met and knowin’ you’d be ketched at -last.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, after the barber got through shavin’ me, the marshal -took the picture and held it up ‘side of my face, and anyone could see -‘twas me. He was so glad he almost shouted. And he told the police -judge that he’d got one of the most dangerous criminals in the whole -United States, and he was entitled to one thousand dollars reward. -I never see a boy feel so good over anythin’ as he did over ketchin’ -me. He said that now he could pay off the mortgage on his house -and get his girl piano lessons, and run for sheriff next fall. When -he told me I was Jackson, I denied it and said I never knew anything -about Chicago, and was never there in my life. He didn’t pay -any attention to this, but wired to Chicago, givin’ a full description -of me. Of course, it wa’n’t long before he got back word that I was -Jackson, and to hold me till they sent someone down.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After the marshal found out who I was he treated me a good -deal better’n before. He got me nice fried chicken ‘most every meal, -and always coffee or tea and corn-cakes, and I couldn’t complain of -the board. Then he got my clothes washed and give me some new -pants and shoes and fixed me up quite nice. He come in and visited -with me a good deal and seemed real social and happy. He give me -cigars to smoke and sometimes a drink o’ whiskey, and treated me -as if he really liked me. I expect he couldn’t help feelin’ friendly to -me, because he thought of that one thousand dollars, and that he -wouldn’t’ve got it if I hadn’t killed her, and in one way a good deal -as if I done it on his account. Of course he wa’n’t really glad I done -it, but so long as I done it, he was glad I come his way. I s’pose he -hadn’t anything against me any more’n a cat has against a mouse -that it ketches and plays with till it gets ready to eat it up. His -business was ketchin’ people just like the cat’s is ketchin’ rats. -Seems to me, though, I’d hate to be in his business, even if it is a bad -lot you’ve got to ketch. Still he watched me closer’n ever, even if -he was good to me. He didn’t mean to let that thousand dollars get -away. He kep’ someone ‘round the jail all the time, and he got some -extra bars on the windows, and when he come to see me or talk with -me he always brought someone with him so I couldn’t do anything -to him. He needn’t worried so much, for I was clean tired out and -discouraged, and I felt better in there than I had any time since I -killed her. Bein’ out of jail ain’t necessar’ly liberty. If you’re ‘fraid -all the time and have got to dodge and keep hid and can’t go where -you want to and are runnin’ away all the time, you might just as -well be shut up, for you ain’t free.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Soon as the marshal found out who I was, it didn’t take the -news long to travel ‘round the town, and it seemed as if ever’one -there come to the lock-up to see me. The boys used to come up -‘round the windows and kind of stay back, as if they thought I might -reach out and ketch ‘em, but I always kep’ as far away as I could. -Then the people would come down with the marshal to the cell -<span class='pageno' id='Page_65'>65</span>when he brought my supper and look at me to see me eat, and try to -get me to come up and talk to ‘em and watch me same as you’ve -seen ‘em look at bears when they was feedin’ up at Lincoln Park, -and they’d point to me and say, ‘That’s him; just see his for’head. -Wouldn’t I hate to get caught out alone with him? Anyone could -see what he is by lookin’ at him. I bet they make short work of him -when they get him to Chicago!’ I always kep’ back as far as I could -for I didn’t want to be seen. No one had ever looked at me or paid -any attention to me before, or said anything about me, and I hadn’t -ever expected to have my name or picture in the paper, or to have -people come and see me, and anyhow not this way.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course, I knew well enough that it wouldn’t last long, and -that they’d be here for me in two or three days. I can’t tell you just -how I felt. I knew I was caught, and that there wa’n’t much chance -for me. I knew all the evidence would be circumstantial, still I knew -I done it, and luck never had come my way anyhow, so I didn’t have -much hopes that ‘twould now. Then I began to feel as if it might as -well be over. If I was goin’ to be hung, I might just as well be hung -and done with it. There wa’n’t any kind of a show for me any more, -and it wa’n’t any use to fight. Then I began to figger on how long -‘twould take. I knew there was cases where it took years, but I -always thought them cases must have been where they had lots of -money and could hire high-priced lawyers. And I hadn’t got any -money, and the newspapers had said so much about my case that I -was sure that they wouldn’t give me much chance or any more than -the law allowed.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, inside of two days some fellers come down from the -sheriff’s office in Chicago. I didn’t know either one of ‘em, but they -had all kinds of pictures and descriptions and said there wa’n’t any -doubt about who I was, and said I might as well own up and be done -with it. But I didn’t see any use of ownin’ up to anything, so I -wouldn’t answer any questions or say much one way or another. -Then they explained to me that they hadn’t any right to take me -out of the state without a requisition from the gov’nor, and it would -take a week or so to get that, and I might just as well go back with -them without puttin’ ‘em to this bother; that it always looked better -when anyone went back themselves, and anyhow I’d be kep’ here -in jail till they got a requisition. So I told ‘em all right, I’d just as -soon go back to Chicago as anywhere, and I hadn’t done nothin’ -that I had to be ‘fraid of, and was ready to go as soon as they was. -So they stayed till the next mornin’ and then han’-cuffed me and -put me between ‘em and led me down to the depot. Before I left the -lock-up the marshal give me a good breakfast and some cigars and -shook hands with me, and said he hoped I’d have a pleasant journey.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I went down to the depot it seemed as if the whole -town, black and white, had turned out to see me, and ever’one was -pointin’ to me and sayin’, ‘That’s him; that’s him.’ ‘He looks it, -don’t he?’ And pretty soon the train come up and the officers and -conductor kep’ the crowd back while they took me into the smokin’-car. -It seemed as if ever’one in the car and on the whole train knew -<span class='pageno' id='Page_66'>66</span>who I was and just what I’d done, and they all come up to the -smokin’-car to get a look at me, and pass remarks about me, and -ever’one seemed glad to think I was caught and was goin’ to be -hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It ain’t no use to tell you all about the trip home. It didn’t -take me as long to come back as it did to go ‘way. At pretty near ever’ -station there was a crowd out to see the train, and all of ‘em tried to -get a look at me. The conductor and brakemen all pointed me out -and the people come to the doors and stood up before the window -and did ever’thing they could think of to see me. The detectives -treated me all right. They gave me all I could eat and talked with -me a good deal. They didn’t ask many questions, and told me I -needn’t say any more’n I had a mind to, but they told me a good -deal about politics and how that the alderman was runnin’ again, and -all that was goin’ on in Chicago, and where all they’d been huntin’ -for me since I run away. I had to sit up at night. One of ‘em kep’ -han’-cuffed to me all night and another han’cuff was fastened to the -seat. I don’t s’pose they could’ve made it any more comfortable and -see that I didn’t run away. But still I don’t ever want to take that -kind of a ride again and I s’pose I never will.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I felt queer when we began to get back into Chicago. In some -ways I always liked the city; I guess ever’one does, no matter how -rough it is. And I couldn’t help feelin’ kind of good to see the -streets and fac’tries and shops again; and still I felt bad, too. I knew -that ever’one in the town was turned against me, and I didn’t have a -friend anywhere. We’d got the Chicago papers as we’d come along -and they was full of all kinds of stories and pictures about me, and -some things that I’d said, ‘though I’d never talked a word to anyone.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The papers said that they hoped there’d be none of the usual -long delays in tryin’ my case, that I was a brutal murderer, and -there wa’n’t no use of spendin’ much time over me. Of course, I -ought to have a fair and impartial trial, but I ought to be hung -without delay, and no sentimental notoriety-huntin’ people ought to -be allowed to see me. They wished that a judge could be found who -had the courage to do his duty, and do it right off quick. I had -already been indicted, and there wa’n’t nothin’ to do but place me -on trial next day, and the verdict would be reached in a few days -more. It was unfortunate that the law allowed one hundred days -before a murderer could be hung after trial; that the next legislature -must change it to ten days; that would be plenty of time for anyone -to show that a mistake had been made in their trial, even if he was -locked up all the time. The papers said how that the Anti-Crimes -Committee was to be congratulated on havin’ found a good lawyer -to assist the state in the prosecution, and that the lawyer was a -good public spirited man and ought to be well paid for his disagreeable -work.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The papers told all about the arrest down in Georgia, and how -the marshal and a force of citizens followed me into the swamp and -what a desperate fight I made, and how many people I’d knocked -<span class='pageno' id='Page_67'>67</span>down and ‘most killed, until I was finally overpowered and taken in -irons to the county jail.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I can’t make you understand how I felt when they was bringin’ -me into town. We come along down the old canal where we used to -stone the frogs and the geese and all along the places where us boys -used to play. Then we come down through the yards where I used -to work, and right past the house where I left that night with the -kid sleepin’ in the bedroom. That was the hardest part of all the -trip, and I tried to turn away when we come down along back of the -barn by the alley; but it seemed as if something kind of drew my -eyes around that way, and I couldn’t keep ‘em off’n the spot. And I -thought about ever’thing I done there just in a flash, and even wondered -how long the old horse was tied in the barn before they found -him, and whether he got all the potatoes et up before he was took -away. But I looked away as quick as I could and watched all the -streets as we passed, to see if I could see anyone I knew. I felt -pretty sure that I wouldn’t leave Chicago again, and I guess I never -will.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Pretty soon they pulled into the big depot, and the train -stopped and we got off. I wa’n’t expectin’ nothin’ in the station, -but when we landed the whole place was filled back of the gate, -and I could see that they was looking for me. The crowd was about -like one that I was in down there once when McKinley come to -Chicago. A squad of policemen come down to meet us, and they got -us in the middle of the bunch and hurried us into a patrol wagon. -I could hear the crowd sayin’, ‘That’s him; that’s the murderer; let’s -lynch him!’—‘He don’t deserve a trial! Let’s hang him first and -then try him’—‘The miserable brute!’ ‘The contemptible coward!’—I -guess if it hadn’t been for all the policemen I’d have been lynched, -and mebbe ‘twould have been just as well. ‘Twouldn’t have taken so -long, nor cost so much money. Anyhow, I wish now they’d done it -and then it would be all over; and now—well, ‘twon’t be long.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“There was a lot of people in the street and every one of ‘em -seemed to know who was in the patrol-wagon, and they walked all -the way over, and lots of little boys follered the wagon clear to the -jail; then the newsboys on the street kep’ yellin’, ‘All ‘bout the capture -of Jim Jackson! Extra paper!’ and it seemed as if the whole -town was tryin’ to kill me. Somehow I hadn’t realized how ‘twas as -I come ‘long, and, in fact, ever since I went away. Of course, I knew -how bad the killin’ was, and how ever’one must feel, and how I -wished I hadn’t done it, and how I’d have done anything on earth -to make it different, but all the time I’d been away from the people -that knew all about it, and I didn’t somehow realize what they’d do. -But when I come back and seen it all I felt just as if there was a big -storm out on the lake and I was standin’ on the shore and all the waves -was comin’ right over me and carryin’ me away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, they didn’t lose any time but drove as fast as they could -down Dearborn Street over the bridge to the county jail. Then -they hustled me right out and took me straight through the crowd -up to the door; the Dearborn Street door (that’s the one you came -<span class='pageno' id='Page_68'>68</span>in, I s’pose), and they didn’t wait hardly a minit to book me, but -hurried me up stairs and locked me in a cell, and I haven’t seen the -outside of the jail since, and I don’t s’pose I ever will.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim stopped as if the remembrance of it all had overpowered -him. Hank didn’t know what to say, so he got up and walked a few -turns back and forth along the cell, trying to get it all through his -clouded mind. Such a night as this he had never dreamed of, and he -could not yet realize what it meant. The long story and the intense -suffering seemed to have taken all the strength that Jim had left.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank turned to him with an effort to give him some consolation. -“Say, Jim, don’t take it too hard. You know there ain’t much -in it for any of us, and most people has more trouble than anything -else. Lay down a little while; you can tell me the rest pretty soon.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No,” Jim answered, “I ain’t got through; I can’t waste any -time. It must be gettin’ along toward mornin’, and you see I don’t -know just when it’ll be. They seem to think it’s treatin’ us better -if they don’t tell us when, only just the day. Then you know, they -can come in any time after midnight. They could break in now if -they wanted to, but I s’pose they’ll give me my breakfast first, -though they won’t wait long after that. Well, I ain’t got any right to -complain, and I don’t mean to, but I s’pose I feel like anyone else -would.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Just then a strange dull sound echoed through the silent corridors. -Hank started with a nervous jerk. It sounded like a rope or -strap suddenly pulled up short and tight.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“What’s that?” Hank asked. Jim’s face was pale for a moment, -and his breath was short and heavy.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Don’t you know? That’s the bag of sand.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“What bag of sand?” Hank asked.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Why, they always try the rope that way, to see if it’s all right. -If they don’t, it’s liable to break, and they’d have to hang ‘em over -again. They take a bag of sand that weighs just about the same as -a man and tie the rope to the sand, and then knock the door out and -the sand falls. I guess the rope’s all right; I hope so. I don’t want -‘em to make any mistake. It’ll be bad enough to be hung once. I -wonder how I’ll stand it. I hope I don’t make a scene. But I don’t -really think anyone ought to be blamed no matter what they do -when they’re gettin’ hung, do you?</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It seems to me, though, that they might be a better way to -kill anyone. I think shootin’ would be better’n this way. That’s the -way they kill steers down to the stock-yards and I don’t believe the -Humane Society would let ‘em hang ‘em up by the neck. I should -think ‘twould be better to take some cell that’s air-tight and put ‘em -to bed in there and then turn on the gas. But I s’pose any way would -seem bad enough. Did you ever stop to think how you’d like to die? -I guess nobody could pick any way that they wanted to go, and -mebbe we’d all rather take chances; but I don’t believe anybody’d -pick hangin’. It seems to me the very worst way anybody could -die. I wonder how they commenced it in the first place. Well, I -can’t help it by thinkin’ it over. I’ve done that often enough already, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_69'>69</span>goodness knows. I believe I’ll ask the guard for another drink before -I tell any more.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guard came at the first call.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Sure, you can have all the whiskey you want. I was just down -to the office a little while ago. Take this bottle. I think it’s pretty -smooth, but it’s a little weak. Guess the clerk poured some water in, -thinkin’ it was goin’ to the ladies’ ward. You’d better take a pretty -big drink to do you any good.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim thanked him as he took the bottle, and then inquired:</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Did you go down to the telephone again to see whether there -had anything come over to the telegraph office?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No—I didn’t,” the guard answered, “but I’ll go back pretty -soon. They keep open all night. It’s early yet, anyhow.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim offered the bottle to his friend. Hank took a good drink, -which he needed after the excitement of the night. Then he passed -the bottle back to Jim.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“If I was you I’d drink all that’s left; it’s good, but it’s pretty -weak, all right. I’m sure you’d feel better to take it all.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim raised it to his lips, tipped his head back and held the bottle -almost straight until the last drop had run slowly down his throat.</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_70'>70</span> - <h2 class='c006'>IX</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_070.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -Jim laid the bottle on the bed and then sat down on his chair.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“My head begins to swim some but I guess I can finish -the story all right. I know I’m pretty longwinded. Still I guess -I can’t talk very much more if I wanted to. I’m glad the whiskey’s -beginnin’ to get in its work; I don’t believe I’ll have much trouble -gettin’ so drunk that I won’t know whether I’m goin’ to a hangin’ or a -primary.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Let me see; oh, yes, they hustled me into a cell and locked me up. -I guess they thought best not to waste much time, for a good many -people had got together on the outside.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I think ‘twas on Friday they put me in. There wa’n’t nothin’ -done on Saturday; but on Sunday they let us all go to church up -in the chapel. They kep’ me pretty well guarded as if I might do -somethin’ in the church, but there wa’n’t no way to get out if I -wanted to. The preacher told us about the prodigal son, and how -he repented of all his wanderin’s and sins and come back home, and -how glad his father was to see him, and how he treated him better’n -any of the rest that hadn’t never done wrong. He said that’s the way -our Heavenly Father would feel about us, if we repented, and that it -didn’t matter what we’d done—after we repented we was white as -snow. One of the prisoners told me he was gettin’ kind of tired of the -prodigal son; that ‘most every preacher that come told about the -prodigal son just as if that story had been meant specially for them.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Some of the prisoners seemed to like to go to church; some -acted as if they understood all about it, and wanted to do better, -and some of ‘em seemed to go so as to get out of their cells. Anyhow -I s’pose the people that run the jail thought ‘twas a good thing -and believed it was all so. But I know one feller that killed a man—he -was kind of half-witted—and was tried the same as the rest of -us when they had that crusade against crime. Of course they sentenced -him to death. He got religion and used to pray all the time, -and used to talk religion to all the rest of the fellers, and ever’one -said that he was really sorry and was fully converted and was as -pure as a little child. But they took him out and hung him anyway. -It don’t quite seem as if they believed what the preacher said themselves, -or they wouldn’t hang a feller when he’s turned right, and -when God was goin’ to treat him like all the rest after he gets to -heaven.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When I went back to my cell, I begun thinkin’ about what I’d do. -Of course I knew you can’t get any show without a lawyer, and I knew -that I might just as well not have any as to have one that wa’n’t smart. -I didn’t know any lawyer except the one that charged me ten dollars for -nothin’, and of course I wouldn’t have him. But one of the guards was -kind of nice and friendly to me and I thought I’d ask him. He told me -<span class='pageno' id='Page_71'>71</span>that gettin’ a lawyer was a pretty hard matter. Of course, my case -was a celebrated one, and would advertise a lawyer, but the best ones -didn’t need no advertisin’ and the others wa’n’t no good. He told me -that Groves was the best fighter, but it wa’n’t no use to try to get him -for he’d got more’n he could do, and most of his time was took up prosecutin’ -people for stealin’ coal from the railroads, except once in a while -when some rich banker or politician got into trouble. Then he took a -good slice of what he’d got saved up. I asked him ‘bout some others -and he told me the same story of all the rest that amounted to anything. -I told him I hadn’t got no money, and I thought the horse and wagon -and furniture was took on the chattel-mortgage before this, and he said -he s’posed the court would have to appoint someone and I might just -about as well defend myself.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Monday mornin’ they come to the jail and told me I had to go -before the judge. I didn’t s’pose ‘twould come so soon, for I knew -somethin’ about how slow the courts was. You remember when Jimmy -Carroll was killed by the railroad? Well, that’s more’n three years ago, -and the case ha’n’t been tried yet. I was su’prised and didn’t know what -to do, but there wa’n’t much to do. They come after me and I had to -go; so I put on my coat and vest and they han’-cuffed me to a couple -of guards, and took me through some alleys and passages and over some -bridges inside the buildin’, and first thing I knew they opened a door -and I came into a room packed full of people, and the judge settin’ up -on a big high seat with a desk in front of him, and lookin’ awful solemn -and kind of scareful. As soon as I stepped in there was a buzz all over -the room, and ever’body reached out their necks, and kind of got up on -their chairs and looked at me. The guards took off my han’-cuffs and -set me down in a chair ‘side of a big table. And then one of ‘em set -back of me and another one right to my side.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“They waited a few minutes till ever’one got still, and then some -feller got up and spoke to the judge and said ‘People against Jackson.’ -The judge looked at me and said, just as solemn and hard as he could, -‘Jackson, stand up.’ Of course I done what he said, and then he looked -the same way and said, ‘Are you guilty or not guilty?’ Of course I -was kind of scared before all of them people; I’d never been called up -in a crowd before, except a few times when I said a few words in the -union where I knew all the boys. But these people were all against me, -and anyhow it was an awful hard place to put a feller, so I stood still a -minit tryin’ to think what I ought to say, and whether someone was -there that I could talk to. Finally the judge spoke up and says, ‘The -prisoner pleads not guilty.’ ‘Jackson, have you a lawyer?’ and then I -said: ‘I hain’t got no lawyer.’ Then he asked if I wanted him to appoint -one, and I told him I wished he would. He asked me who I’d -have. Of course I thought I could choose anyone I wanted, so I said -Groves. Then he laughed and ever’one else laughed, and he said he -guessed Groves had too much to do to bother with me. So I chose one -or two more names I’d heard of, and he said none of ‘em would do it -neither. Then he said he’d give me till tomorrow to make up my mind -who I wanted, and he told the bailiff to take me back to jail. So they -put the han’-cuffs on and we went back through the alleys and over the -bridges to the jail. When I got to my cell I asked the guard what he -<span class='pageno' id='Page_72'>72</span>thought I ought to do about a lawyer, and he said that lots of lawyers -had give him their cards and asked him to hand them to the prisoners -and told him they would divide the fee, if they got any. They mostly -wa’n’t much good for the business. He said there was one young feller -who seemed pretty smart, but he hadn’t never had a case, but he’d -probably work hard to get his name up. I told him that it didn’t seem -as if a lawyer ought to commence on a case like mine, and he said that -wouldn’t make any difference, most of the murder cases was defended -by lawyers that was just startin’. There wa’n’t hardly anyone who was -tried but was too poor to have a good lawyer. Then I told him to send -me the young lawyer, and he did.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The lawyer wa’n’t a bad feller, and he seemed interested in the -case, and was the first person I’d seen since I done it who wanted to -help me. Of course I could see he was new at the business, like one of -them green-horns that comes in the yards the first time and brings a -stick to couple cars with; but I liked his face and seen he was honest. -It didn’t seem quite fair, though, that I should have a lawyer that hadn’t -never had a case. I didn’t believe they’d take a young feller who was -just out of a medicine-college and set him to cut off a leg all by himself, -the first thing, or even take a country-jake and let him kill steers at -the stock-yards, but I didn’t see no way to help it, and I thought mebbe -if I didn’t take him I’d do worse instead of better. He asked me all -about the case and seemed disappointed when I told him how it was; -he said he was afraid there wa’n’t much show, unless he claimed insanity. -I told him I didn’t see how he could make out that I was crazy; that I -thought self-defense or somethin’ like that would be better. He said he’d -think it over till tomorrow, and talk with some of the professors at the -college, and be in court in the mornin’. The next day they come for -me right after breakfast, and put on the han’-cuffs and took me to court -again. The same kind of a crowd was there as the day before, and I -was pretty badly scart; but my lawyer was at the table with me, and -he spoke to me real friendly, and that made me feel a little better. Then -the judge called the case, and asked if I had a lawyer, and my lawyer -spoke up and said he was goin’ to defend me; so the judge said all right, -and asked if the other side was ready. They said they was, and that -they wanted the case tried right off. Then the judge asked my lawyer -if he was ready and he said ‘no,’ that he’d just come into the case and -hadn’t had no chance to get it ready. Then the lawyer on the other -side said that I was notified yesterday that I must be ready today and -I didn’t have anything to do but get ready; that they wanted to try it -now; that next week he wanted to go to a picnic, and the week after to a -convention, and it must be done now; then, there had been so many -murders that no one was safe in Chicago, and the whole public was -anxious to see the case tried at once. Besides there wa’n’t any defense. -I had killed her and run away, and wa’n’t entitled to any consideration.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“My lawyer said it wouldn’t be right to put me on trial without a -chance to defend myself, that I couldn’t get away yesterday to look up -witnesses, and I had a right to a reasonable time; that he wanted at -least four weeks to prepare the case. This seemed to make the judge -mad. He said there wa’n’t no excuse for any delay, but as this was -such a clear case he wanted to give me every chance he could, so he -<span class='pageno' id='Page_73'>73</span>would continue till next Monday. Then I was took back to the jail, -and my lawyer met me over there and I told him ever’ place I went the -day I done it, and ever’one I saw, and all about her, and what she’d -done to make me mad, and he said he’d go out himself and look it up, -and do what he could, but he was ‘fraid there wa’n’t no chance. The -papers had said so much and the citizens had got up a Crime Committee, -and ever’one who was tried either went to the penitentiary or got hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Ever’day the lawyer would come and ask me something ‘bout the -case, and tell me what he’d found out. He said he couldn’t get any -witnesses to say anything; that the man where I got the beefsteak was -‘fraid to come and testify; that someone had been there from the State’s -Attorney’s office and most scart him to death, and he was ‘fraid of -gettin’ into trouble and gettin’ mixed up with it himself, and anyway he -didn’t see as he’d do the case any good if he came. He said he couldn’t -find anything that helped him a bit. He’d been to the house, but the -poker and everything that would do any good had been taken by the -state, and he didn’t know which way to turn. He kep’ comin’ back to -my insanity, and asked me if any of my parents or grand-parents, or -uncles or aunts or cousins, or anyone else was crazy. I told him I didn’t -know anything ‘bout them but I didn’t think it was any use to try that. -I knew what I was doin’, all right. Then he told me if I had a hundred -dollars he could get a good doctor to swear I was crazy; but I hadn’t -any hundred dollars of course, and besides I never thought ‘twould do -much good. So I told him that he wa’n’t to blame for it, and to just -do the best he could, and I’d be satisfied whichever way it went. I didn’t -expect much myself anyhow. He said he’d have me plead guilty and the -judge would most likely give me a life-sentence, only since this crusade -against crime the judges dassent do that; there was so much said about -it in the newspapers, and they was all ‘fraid of what the papers said. -He told me that he didn’t believe it was anything more than second-degree -murder anyhow, but there wa’n’t any chance now, the way public -opinion was.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I begun to get pretty well acquainted with the prisoners in the jail -and some of ‘em was real nice and kind and wanted to do all they could -to help ever’one that was in trouble. Of course some of ‘em was pretty -desp’rate, and didn’t seem to care much for anything. Then there was -some that had been in jail ten and fifteen times, and been in the penitentiary, -and ever’where, and just as soon as they got out they got right -back in again; they didn’t seem to learn anything by goin’ to prison, -and it didn’t seem to do them any hurt. They said they’d just as soon -be there as anywhere else.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But one thing I noticed a good deal that I never thought anything -about until that feller come and spoke, that was how that the outsiders -was really the ones that got punished the worst. It was sickenin’ to -see how some of them poor women would cry and take on because their -man was in jail, and how they’d work and scrub night and day and -nearly kill themselves to earn money to get him out; and then the little -children that come to see their fathers, how they’d stay out of school -and work in the packin’-houses and laundries and do anything for a -little money to help them out. Hones’ly I believe if anyone stays ‘round -here for a week he’ll see that the people that ain’t done nothin’ is punished -<span class='pageno' id='Page_74'>74</span>a good deal more’n the others. Why, there was one awful pretty-lookin’ -girl used to come here to see her father, and the fellers told me -that she was studyin’ music or somethin’ like that, and her father was -put in jail on a fine, and she came here to see him every day, and done -all she could to earn the money to get him out, but she couldn’t do it, -and finally she went into one of them sportin’ houses down on Clark -Street, and lived there long enough to get the money. I don’t know, -of course, whether it’s so, but I don’t see why not. Lots of the girls -go to the department stores and laundries and stock-yards and they ain’t -much harder places on a girl’s health. Anybody’ll do everything they -can to earn money to save anyone they care for.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, the week went away pretty fast. I didn’t s’pose ‘twas so -hard to get a case continued. You know that Carroll case? You -remember we quit our work four or five times and lost our pay, and -the judge continued it just because the lawyer had somethin’ else to do. -But I knew ‘twouldn’t be no use for me to try to get mine continued any -more. And I didn’t care much. I was gettin’ so I’d just about as soon -be done with it as not, and still I was pretty sure I’d be hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The next Monday mornin’ I was taken into court the same way, -and the han’-cuffs was unlocked, and I was set down to the table by -my lawyer. One guard set just back of me and the other at the side. -Someone started a story that a gang of Bridgeport toughs was comin’ -to rescue me, but of course there wa’n’t nothin’ in it. I didn’t have a -friend that even come to see me—but the newspapers all printed the story, -and, of course, that was against me too.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“When the judge called the case, he asked if we was ready, and -my lawyer said he needed more time; that he’d done all he could to get -ready, but he hadn’t had time. But the judge wouldn’t pay a bit of attention -to him, and said he must go to trial at once, and told the bailiff to -call a jury. So the bailiff called the names of twelve men and they -took their seats in two rows of chairs along one side of the room. Ever’ -one of ‘em looked at me as if he didn’t like to be in the same room where -I was. Then the lawyers commenced askin’ ‘m questions—where they -lived, and how long they had lived there, and where they lived before, -and how much rent they paid, and what they worked at, and how long -they’d worked there, and what they’d done before, and what their fathers -done, and where they come from, and was they dead, and if they was -married, and how many times, and if they had children, and how many, -and how old, and if they was boys or girls, and if the children went to -school, and what they studied, and if they belonged to the church, and -what one, and if they belonged to any societies or lodges or labor unions, -or knew anyone, or read the papers, or didn’t believe in hangin’ people, -and if they believed in ‘circumstantial evidence,’ and if they’d hang on -circumstantial evidence, and if they believed in the law—and a lot of -other things that I can’t remember. If anyone didn’t believe in hangin’ -he was let go right away; and if they didn’t believe in circumstantial -evidence they didn’t keep ‘em either.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The other lawyer asked questions first and it didn’t take him -very long to get the ones that he wanted. Ever’one said he believed in -hangin’, and they all said they’d hang anybody on circumstantial evidence. -After he got through my lawyer questioned ‘em. They all said -<span class='pageno' id='Page_75'>75</span>that they’d read all about the case, and had formed an opinion about it—and -they all looked at me as if they had. Then my lawyer objected -to ‘em, and the judge said to each one, ‘Well, even if you have formed -an opinion, don’t you think you could lay that aside and not pay any -attention to it, and try the case on the evidence and give the prisoner -the benefit of the doubt? Don’t you think that in spite of the opinion -you could presume him innocent when you begin?’ Most of ‘em said -they could; one of ‘em said he couldn’t. Then the judge lectured him -for not bein’ able to give anyone a fair trial, no matter who he was, -and said we’d have to take the others, and told us to go ahead and get -another one. So my lawyer tried another one and found him just like -the rest. But the judge made us take him anyway. He said they was -perfectly fair jurors, and we couldn’t expect to get men that sympathized -with crime.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It ain’t any use to tell you all about gettin’ the jury, and then I -hain’t got time. Both sides had a right to strike off twenty without any -reason at all, only that they didn’t like ‘em. We took a long time to -get a jury. We didn’t get much of any until after we had struck off -‘most all of our twenty. All the jurors seemed to have made up their -minds, but pretty nearly all of ‘em said it didn’t make any difference; -they could give me a fair trial even if their minds was made up.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I noticed that they struck off workin’-men and Catholics, and -people that didn’t have any religion, and foreigners, and I noticed my -lawyer struck off Baptists, and Presbyterians, and Swedes, and G. A. -R.’s. It took three or four days to get the jury, and then we hadn’t -any more challenges left, and so we had to take ‘em. Pretty near -ever’one of ‘em said they’d read all about the case in all the papers and -had their minds made up. I knew, of course, that meant they was -against me. But still they all said that didn’t make no difference if they -had got their minds made up, they could forget their opinions and go -at the case as if they believed I was innocent. But ever’one of ‘em said -he believed in hangin’, and all of ‘em said that circumstantial evidence -was good enough for him. I set there ‘side of the table with my lawyer -and looked ‘em over, and tried to make up my mind what they was -thinkin’ of, but they wa’n’t one of ‘em would look at me when they -knew I was lookin’, and I could see from the way they did that they -was sure all the time that I done it, and ought to swing. Of course, I -know it’s the law that when a feller’s placed on trial they’re s’posed to -be innocent, but I knew that the judge and all them twelve men felt -sure I was guilty or I wouldn’t have been there. Of course I done it. -I don’t know anything that would’ve done any good, but all the same -it’s pretty tough to be tried by a jury when they think you ought to be -hung before they commence.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“After they got the jury the other lawyer told ‘em about the case, -and he made it awful black. I don’t know how he ever found out all -the things he said. Of course a good many of ‘em was true and a good -many wa’n’t true, but he made out that I was the worst man that ever -lived. The judge listened to ever’ word he said and looked over to me -ever’ once in a while, as if he wondered how I ever could’ve done it, and -was glad that I was where I belonged at last. The jury watched ever’ -word the lawyer said, and looked at me ever’ once in a while to see how -<span class='pageno' id='Page_76'>76</span>I stood it. Of course it was mighty hard, but I done the best I could. -When he got through the judge asked my lawyer what he had to say, -and he said he wouldn’t tell his side now. Then they commenced puttin’ -in the evidence.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I s’pose you read all about it at the time, but the papers always -gave me the worst of it, and the evidence wa’n’t near so bad as it -looked in the papers. Of course they proved about the boy goin’ out -the next mornin’ to the neighbors, and cryin’ for his pa and ma, and -about ever’one lookin’ all over for us without findin’ us nor any trace -of either one, and about the horse and wagon both lookin’ as if it -had been out all night. And then the folks as lived next door told -about hearin’ me say ‘you damned bitch,’ and hearin’ someone fall, -though they didn’t think much of it then as they’d heard so many -rows before. And then they told about findin’ a piece of brown paper -covered with blood, and then they brought in a doctor, or someone -who said he’d examined it with a magnifyin’ glass and it was -human blood. He wa’n’t quite sure whether it was a gentleman -or a lady; but he knew ‘twas one or the other. Then they brought -in the paper and handed it to the jury, and passed it down along -both rows, and ever’one took it in his hand and felt it, and looked -at it just as if they never had seen any paper like that before, and -wanted to make sure ‘twas paper and not cloth. Of course the -minute I seen it I knew it was the paper that had the beefsteak in -it, and I told my lawyer what it was. An’ I got right up to say -something and the judge looked at me just as cross and says ‘Set -down and keep still; you’ve got a lawyer to talk for you, and if you -say anything more, I’ll send you to jail.’ Of course I was scart to -hear him speak to me that way before the jury and the whole room -full of people, and I knew that it would show ever’one that the judge -was against me. Some of the papers next day made out that I -jumped up and was goin’ to run away when I seen the bloody paper.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“My lawyer had another doctor examine a piece of the paper -that night, and he said it was a cow or an ox, but he wouldn’t come -and testify to it unless I’d give him a hundred dollars, but of course -I didn’t have that. The court room was awful still when they passed -around that paper; you could hear the jurors breathe and they held -their heads down as if they felt sorry about somethin’. And after -they’d looked it all over the lawyer took it, and the judge says: -‘Let me see that paper,’ and he put on his spectacles and looked it -all over, first on one side and then on the other. He had a little bit -of a magnifyin’ glass in one hand, and he put it over the paper and -looked at it through the glass, and then he looked at me just as -solemn as if it was a funeral, and I seen it was all up with me. Of -course, I told my lawyer just where I got it and what it was, and -he went down to the butcher shop and seen the man, but the man -was ‘fraid to come, and said he didn’t remember ‘bout the steak nor -about me; he guessed he’d seen me—I used to come down that way -to peddle—but he couldn’t tell whether I was in the shop that night -or not.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then they brought the boys who had found her in a pool of -<span class='pageno' id='Page_77'>77</span>water out on the prairie two or three days after, and they brought -some of the clothes she had on. They was all covered with mud, -and they passed ‘em all around to the jury and the judge, just the -same as they did the paper. Of course, these did look pretty bad, -and they made me feel kind of faint, for I’d thought about her a good -deal the last few days, and dreamed about her almost every night, -and sometimes I’d dream that ever’thing was all right, and then wake -up and remember just how ‘twas. I don’t know which is worse: to -dream that the thing was done and see it all before you, just as if -you were doin’ it all over again, and then wake up and know it was -a dream, and then know it was so, or to dream that you’re livin’ together -all right and are happy, and then wake up and find that’s a -dream, and you’re in jail for murder and can’t never get out alive.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then they proved about how the poker just fit into the place -in her head, and how it was took back into the kitchen and put into -the ashes again, so ‘twouldn’t show, and how far I drove that day, -and ever’ saloon I stopped into on the way, and just how much I -drank, and ever’thing I done, except the beefsteak I bought and -that half peck of potatoes that I gave away to the old lady. Then -they proved all about my runnin’ away, and where I’d been, and -what I’d done, and my changin’ my name, and the way I was caught.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“A good many times my lawyer objected to something that they -tried to prove, or to something that the other feller was sayin’, but -ever’ time the judge decided ‘gainst my lawyer, and he ‘most always -seemed kind of mad when my lawyer said anything. The other one -was a good deal the smartest; ever’one said he wanted to be a judge, -and he took all the murder cases he could get, and they called him -the ‘hangin’ lawyer,’ because ever’one he had anything to do with -got hung.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“There was always a big crowd in the court room ever’ day, -and a lot of people waitin’ outside to get in, and there was always -some awfully nice dressed ladies settin’ up there with the judge ever’ -day, and they had a sort of glass in their hands, and they’d hold it -up in front of their eyes and look at me through the glass just like -the judge looked at the paper.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It took about two days for their side to call all the witnesses -they had, and finally their lawyer got up just as solemn and said -that was their case.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then the judge give them a few minutes recess for ever’body -to walk around a little, and ever’one looked at me, just as they’d done -all the time. When they come to order the judge told us to go on -with our side. My lawyer turned to me and said he didn’t see what -use it was to prove anything, and we might just as well let the case -go the way it was. I said I ought to go on the stand and tell about -that paper, and how it was nothin’ but the one that come around the -beef, and he said they wouldn’t believe me if I said it. And anyhow -it wouldn’t make any difference. If I once got on the stand they’d -get me all mixed up and the first thing I knew I’d tell ‘em all about -ever’thing, and so far as witnesses went he couldn’t find anyone to do -me any good.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_78'>78</span>“I thought ‘twould look pretty bad not to give any evidence at -all, and he said he knew that but ‘twould look a mighty sight worse -if we put any in. So my lawyer got up and ever’one watched to see -what he was goin’ to do, and then he just said ‘May it please the -court, we have concluded not to put in any evidence.’ And ever’one -commenced to whisper, and to look at me, and to look ‘round, and -the judge looked queer and kind of satisfied, and said then if there -was no evidence on our side they would take a recess till mornin’ -when they could argue the case. Of course, after I went back to the -cell and got to thinkin’ it over I could see that it was all off more’n -ever, but I didn’t see that the lawyer could have done any different.”</p> - -<hr class='c008' /> - -<p class='c000'>Here Jim got up and went to the grating and called to the guard.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I’m gettin’ a little tired and fagged out and it ain’t worth while -to go to bed. Won’t you just give me some more whiskey?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guard came up to the door. “Of course, you can have all -the whiskey you want,” he said. “Here’s a bottle I’ve just fetched -up from the office. You’d better drink that up and then I’ll get -you some more.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim took a long drink at the bottle, and then passed it to his -friend. Hank was glad to have something to help him through the -ordeal, which had been hard for him to bear.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Presently the guard came back to the grating and asked Jim -what he wanted for breakfast.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It ain’t breakfast time yet, is it?” Jim gasped.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“No, but I’m going to the office after a while and I want to -give the order when I go. You’d better tell me now. You can have -‘most anything you want. You can have ham and eggs, or bacon or -steak, and tea or coffee, and bread and butter and cakes; or all of ‘em—or -anything else you want.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I guess you’d better bring me ham and eggs. I don’t -seem to care for steak, and I don’t think I want any coffee. I’d -rather have a cocktail. You’d better bring me plenty more whiskey -too when you come. You know I hain’t slept any and I’m kind of -nervous. I guess it’ll be better if I don’t know much about it; don’t -you?”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Sure thing,” the guard answered back. “We’ve got some -Scotch whiskey over there that’s all right. I’ll bring you some of -that. All the boys takes that. I don’t think you’ll be troubled -much after a good drink of that Scotch. I guess you’d better hurry -up a little bit with what you want to say. I don’t like to hurry you -any, but I’m afraid they’ll be along with the breakfast after while, -and they don’t allow any visitors after that.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>The guard turned to leave, but before he had gone far, Jim -called out, “You’d better telephone over to the telegraph office, -hadn’t you? Somethin’ might have come maybe.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“All right, I’ll do that,” the guard answered back, “and Jim, I -guess you might as well put on them new clothes before breakfast; -they’ll look better’n the old ones—to eat in.”</p> - -<div class='chapter'> - <span class='pageno' id='Page_79'>79</span> - <h2 class='c006'>X</h2> -</div> - -<div class='c007'> - <img class='drop-capi' src='images/i_079.jpg' width='100' alt='' /> -</div><p class='drop-capi_8'> -Jim drank the remnant of whiskey in the bottle he was holding, -draining it to the last drop. As he sat in his chair he leaned -against the side of the cell.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“My—how many bottles of this stuff I’ve drunk tonight. -It’s a wonder I ain’t dead already. I don’t believe I could keep up -only I’ve got to finish my story. But this cell begins to swim -‘round pretty lively; I guess it ain’t goin’ to take much to finish me. -Think a little of that Scotch will just about do the job. I don’t care -what anyone says, I’m goin’ to get just as drunk as I can. I sha’n’t -live to see what they say in the newspapers and it won’t make any -difference when I’m dead. I don’t know as I ought to eat anything; -it might kind of keep it from actin’, but still I might as well. I -guess the Scotch’ll do it all right anyway.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, there ain’t very much more to tell, and I guess you’re -glad. It’s been a tough night on you, poor feller. I hope no one’ll -ever have to do it for you. But, say—you’ve done me lots of good! -I don’t know how I’d put in the night, if you hadn’t come!</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well—the last mornin’ they took me over to court, the room -was jammed more’n ever before, and a big crowd was waitin’ outside. -I heard the other lawyer say that the judge’s platform looked -like a reception; anyhow it was full of ladies with perfectly grand -clothes, and most of ‘em would hold their glasses up to look at me. -The other lawyer didn’t say much in his first speech, only to tell -how it was all done, and how they had proved that everything happened -in Cook County, and what a high office the jury had.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then my lawyer talked for me. I didn’t really see how he -could have done any better and the papers all said he done fine. Of -course there wa’n’t much to say. I done it, and what more was -there to it? And yet I s’pose a lawyer is educated so he can talk all -right on either side. Well, my lawyer went on to make out that no -one had seen it done, that the evidence was all circumstantial, and -no one ever ought to be hung on circumstantial evidence. He went -on to show how many mistakes had been made on circumstantial -evidence, and he told about a lot of cases. He told the jury about -one that I think happened in Vermont where two farmers was seen -goin’ out in the field. They hadn’t been very good friends for a long -time. Someone heard loud voices and knew they was fightin’. -Finally one of ‘em never come back and afterwards some bones or -somethin’ was found, that the doctors said was a farmer’s bones. -Well, they tried that farmer and found him guilty, and hung him. -And then years afterwards the other man come back. And he’d just -wandered off in a crazy fit. And after a while another doctor found -out that them bones was only sheep bones, and they’d hung an innocent -man. He told a lot of stories of that kind, and some of the -jury seemed to cry when he told ‘em, but I guess they was cryin’ -for the Vermont man and not for me.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_80'>80</span>“After my lawyer got through the other lawyer had one more -chance, and he was awful hard on me. He made out that I was the -worst man that ever lived. He claimed that I had made up my mind -to kill her long ago, just to get rid of her, and that I went ‘round to -all the saloons that day and drank just to get up my nerve. Then -he claimed that I took a bottle of whiskey home and drank it up and -left the empty bottle on the table, and I took that just to nerve me -up. He made more out of the brown paper than he did of anything -else, and told how I burned all the rest of the evidence but had forgot -to burn this, and how I’d gone into the kitchen and got the -poker out of the stove and come back into the settin’-room and killed -her, and then took it back; and how cold-blooded I was to take her, -after I’d killed her, and go and dump her into that hole away out on -the prairie, and how I’d run away, and how that proved I’d killed -her, and then he compared me with all the murderers who ever lived -since Cain, ‘most, and showed how all of ‘em was better’n I was, -and told the jury that nobody in Chicago would be safe unless I was -hung; and if they done their duty and hung me there wouldn’t be -any more killin’ in Chicago after this. I can’t begin to tell you what -all he said; but it was awful! Once in a while when it was too bad, -my lawyer would interrupt, but the judge always decided against -me and then the other lawyer went on worse’n before. The papers -next day told how fast I changed color while he was talkin’, and -what a great speech he made, and they all said he ought to be a -judge because he was so fearless.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It took the crowd some time to quiet down after he got through -and then the judge asked the jury to stand up, and they stood up, -and he read a lot of stuff to ‘em, tellin’ ‘em about the case. ‘Most -all that he read was ‘gainst me. Sometimes I thought he was readin’ -one on my side, and he told ‘em how sure they must be before they -could convict, and then he’d wind up by sayin’ they must be sure it -was done in Cook County. Of course there never was any doubt -but what it all happened in Cook County. When the judge got -through ‘twas most night, and he told the bailiff to take charge of -the jury, so he took ‘em and the clothes and the brown paper with -the blood out in the jury room, and they han’-cuffed me and took -me back to my cell.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I don’t believe I ever put in any night that was quite so hard -on me—exceptin’ mebbe the night I done it—as that one when the -jury was out. I guess ever’one thought they wouldn’t stay long. I -couldn’t see that any of ‘em ever looked at me once as if they cared -whether I lived or died. I don’t believe that they really thought I -was a man like them; anyhow ever’-one thought they would sentence -me to hang in just a few minutes. I s’posed myself that they’d -be in before supper. My lawyer come over to the jail with me, because -he knew how I felt. And anyhow he was ‘most as nervous -as I was. After a while they brought me in my supper, and the -lawyer went out to get his. Then the guard told me the jury had -gone to supper, and he guessed there was some hitch about it, -though ever’one thought the jury wouldn’t be out long. After a -<span class='pageno' id='Page_81'>81</span>while the lawyer came back, and he stayed and talked to me until -nine or ten o’clock, and the jury didn’t come in, so he went to see -what was the matter, and come back and said he couldn’t find out -anything, only that they hadn’t agreed.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, he stayed till twelve o’clock, and then the judge went -home, and we knew they wa’n’t goin’ to come in till mornin’. I -couldn’t sleep that night, but walked back and forth in the cell a -good bit of the time. You see it wa’n’t this cell. The one I had -then was a little bigger. I’d lay down once in a while, and sometimes -I’d smoke a cigar that the guard gave me. Anyhow I couldn’t -really sleep, and was mighty glad when daylight come. In the -mornin’, kind of early, I heard that jury had agreed and I knew that -‘twas bad for me. The best that could happen would be a disagreement. -I hadn’t allowed myself to have much hope any of the time, -but I knew that now it was all off.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Still I waited and didn’t quite give up till they took me back -to the courtroom. Then when ever’one had got their places the -jury come in, lookin’ awful solemn, and the judge looked sober and -fierce-like, and he said, ‘Gentlemen of the Jury, have you agreed on -your verdict?’ And the foreman got up and said, ‘We have.’ Then -the judge told the foreman to give the verdict to the clerk. He -walked over to the row of chairs and the man at the end of the bottom -row reached out his hand and gave the paper to him. The people -in the room was still as death. Then the clerk read, ‘We, the -jury, find the defendant guilty, and sentence him to death.’ I set -with my head down, lookin’ at the paper; I expected it, and made up -my mind not to move. Ever’one in the courtroom sort of give a -sigh. I never looked up, and I don’t believe I moved. The papers -next day said I was brazen and had no feelin’, even when the jury -sentenced me to death.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“The judge was the first one to speak. He turned to the jury -and thanked ‘em for their patriotism and devotion, and the great -courage they’d shown by their verdict. He said they’d done their -duty well and could now go back to their homes contented and -happy. And he says: ‘Mr. Sheriff, remove the prisoner from the -room.’ Of course, I hadn’t expected nothin’, and still I wa’n’t quite -sure—the same as now, when I think mebbe the governor’ll change -his mind. But when the verdict was read and they said it was death, -somehow I felt kind of dazed. I don’t really remember their puttin’ -the han’-cuffs on me, and takin’ me back to jail. I don’t remember -the crowd in the courtroom, or much of anything until I was locked -up again, and then my lawyer come and said he would make a motion -for a new trial, and not to give up hope. My lawyer told me -that the reason they was out so long was one man stuck out for -sendin’ me to the penitentiary for life instead of hangin’ me. We -found out that he used to be a switchman. I s’pose he knew what -a hard life I had and wanted to make some allowances. The State’s -Attorney said he’d been bribed, and the newspapers had lots to say -about investigatin’ the case, but there wa’n’t nothin’ done about it. -But I s’pose mebbe it had some effect on the next case.</p> - -<p class='c000'><span class='pageno' id='Page_82'>82</span>“There wa’n’t nothin’ more done for two or three days. I just -stayed in my cell and didn’t feel much like talkin’ with anyone. -Then my lawyer come over and said the motion for a new trial -would be heard next day. In the mornin’ they han’cuffed me and -took me back as usual. There was a lot of people in the courtroom, -though not so many as before. My lawyer had a lot of books, and -he talked a long while about the case, and told the judge he ought to -give me a new trial on account of all the mistakes that was made -before. And after he got done the judge said he’d thought of this -case a great deal both by day and by night, and he’d tried to find a -way not to sentence me to death, but he couldn’t do it, and the motion -would be overruled. Then he said, ‘Jackson, stand up.’ Of -course I got up, because he told me to. Then he looked at me -awful savage and solemn and said, ‘Have you got anything to say -why sentence should not be passed on you?’ and I said ‘No!’ Then -he talked for a long time about how awful bad I was, and what a -warnin’ I ought to be to ever’body else; and then he sentenced me -to be removed to the county-jail and on Friday, the thirteenth day -of this month—that’s today—to be hanged by the neck till dead, and -then he said, ‘May God have mercy on your soul!’ After that he -said, ‘Mr. Sheriff, remove the prisoner. Mr. Clerk, call the next case.’ -And they han’-cuffed me and brought me back.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I don’t know why the judge said, ‘May God have mercy on -your soul!’ I guess it was only a kind of form that they have to go -through, and I don’t think he meant it, or even thought anything -about it. If he had, I don’t see how he really could ask God to have -mercy on me unless he could have mercy himself. The judge didn’t -have to hang me unless he wanted to.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, the lawyer come in and told me he ought to appeal the -case to the Supreme Court, but it would cost one hundred dollars -for a record, and he didn’t know where to get the money. I told him -I didn’t know either. Of course I hadn’t any and told him he might -just as well let it go; that I didn’t s’pose it would do any good -anyhow. But he said he’d see if he could find the money somehow -and the next day he come in and said he was goin’ to give half out -of his own pocket, and he’d seen another feller that didn’t want his -name mentioned and that thought a man oughtn’t to be hung without -a chance; he was goin’ to give the other half. Of course I felt -better then, but still I thought there wa’n’t much chance, for ever’body -was against me, but my lawyer told me there was a lot of -mistakes and errors in the trial and I ought to win.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, he worked on the record and finally got it finished, a -great big kind of book that told all about the case. It was only finished -a week ago, and I s’posed anyone could take his case to the -Supreme Court if he had the money; but my lawyer said no, he -couldn’t, or rather he said yes, anyone could take his case to the -Supreme Court, but in a case like mine, where I was to be hung I’d -be dead before the Supreme Court ever decided it, or even before it -was tried. Then he said the only way would be if some of the judges -looked at the record and made an order that I shouldn’t be hung -<span class='pageno' id='Page_83'>83</span>until after they’d tried the case, but he told me it didn’t make any -difference how many mistakes the judge had made, or how many -errors there was, they wouldn’t make any order unless they believed -I hadn’t done it. He said that if it had been a dispute about a horse -or a cow, or a hundred dollars, I’d have a right to go to the Supreme -Court, and if the judges found any mistakes in the trial I’d have -another chance. But it wa’n’t so when I was tried for my life.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, when he’d explained this I felt sure ‘twas all off, and I -told him so, but he said he was goin’ to make the best fight he could -and not give up till the end. He said he had a lot at stake himself, -though not so much as I had. So he took the record and went to the -judges of the Supreme Court and they looked it over, and said mebbe -the judge that tried me did make some mistakes, and mebbe I didn’t -have a fair trial, but it looked as if I was guilty and they wouldn’t -make any order. So my case never got into the Supreme Court after -all and the hundred dollars was wasted.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, when my lawyer told me, of course I felt blue. I’d built -some on this, and it begun to look pretty bad. It seemed as if -things was comin’ along mighty fast, and it looked as if the bobbin -was ‘most wound up. When you know you’re going to die in a week -the time don’t seem long. Of course if a feller’s real sick, and gets -run down and discouraged, and hasn’t got much grip on things, he -may not feel so very bad about dyin’, for he’s ‘most dead anyway, -but when a feller’s strong, and in good health, and he knows he’s -got to die in a week, it’s a different thing.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Then my lawyer said there was only one thing left, and that -was to go to the gov’nor. He said he knew the gov’nor pretty well -and he was goin’ to try. He thought mebbe he’d change the sentence -to imprisonment for life. When I first come to jail I said I’d rather -be hung than to be sent up for life, and I stuck to it even when the -jury brought in their verdict, but when it was only a week away I -begun to feel different, and I didn’t want to die, leastwise I didn’t -want to get hung. So I told him all the people I knew, though I -didn’t think they’d help me, for the world seemed to be against me, -and the papers kept tellin’ what a good thing it was to hang me, and -how the State’s Attorney and the jury and the judge had been awful -brave to do it so quick. But I couldn’t see where there was any -bravery in it. I didn’t have no friends. It might have been right, -but I can’t see where the brave part come in.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“But every day the lawyer said he thought the gov’nor would -do somethin’, and finally he got all the names he could to the petition, -and I guess it wa’n’t very many, only the people that sign all -the petitions because they don’t believe in hangin’; and day before -yesterday, he went down to Springfield to see the gov’nor.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, I waited all day yesterday. I didn’t go out of the cell -for exercise because I couldn’t do anything and I didn’t want ‘em -to see how nervous I was. But I tell you it’s ticklish business waitin’ -all day when you’re goin’ to be hung in the mornin’ unless somethin’ -happens. I kep’ askin’ the guard what time ‘twas, and when I heard -anyone comin’ up this way I looked to see if it wa’n’t a despatch, -<span class='pageno' id='Page_84'>84</span>and I couldn’t set down or lay down, or do anything ‘cept drink -whiskey. I hain’t really been sober and clear-headed since yesterday -noon, in fact, I guess if I had been, I wouldn’t kep’ you here all night -like this. I didn’t hardly eat a thing, either, all day, and I asked the -guard about it a good many times, and he felt kind of sorry for me but -didn’t give me much encouragement. You see they’ve had a guard right -here in front of the door all the time, day and night, for two weeks. -That’s called the death watch, and they set here to see that I don’t kill -myself, though I can’t see why that would make any great difference so -long as I’ve got to die anyhow.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, ‘long toward night the guard came and brought me that new -suit of clothes over on the bed, and I guess I’ve got to put ‘em on pretty -quick. Of course, the guard’s been as nice as he could be. He didn’t -tell me what they’s for, but I knew all the same. I know they don’t -hang nobody in their old clothes. I s’pose there’ll be a good many people -there, judges and doctors and ministers and lawyers, and the newspapers, -and the friends of the sheriff, and politicians, and all, and of course it -wouldn’t look right to have me hung up there before ‘em all in my old -clothes,—it would be about like wearin’ old duds to a party or to church—so -I’ve got to put on them new ones. They’re pretty good, and they -look as if they’re all wool, don’t you think?</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, a little while after they brought me the clothes, I seen the -guard come up with a telegram in his hand. I could see in his face it -wa’n’t no use, so of course I wa’n’t quite so nervous when I read it. -But I opened it to make sure. The lawyer said that the gov’nor wouldn’t -do nothin’. Then, of course, ‘twas all off. Still he said he’d go back -about midnight. I don’t know whether he meant it, or said it to brace -me up a little and kind of let me down easier.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Of course, the gov’nor could wake up in the night and do it, if he -wanted to, and I s’pose such things has been done. I’ve read ‘bout ‘em -stoppin’ it after a man got up on the scaffold. You remember about -the gov’nor of Ohio, don’t you? He come here to Chicago to some -convention, and a man was to be hung in Columbus that day, and the -gov’nor forgot it till just about the time, and then he tried for almost -an hour to get the penitentiary on the long distance telephone, and he -finally got ‘em just as the man was goin’ up on the scaffold. Such -things has happened, but of course, I don’t s’pose they’ll happen to me. -I never had much luck in anything, and I guess I’ll be hung all right.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“It seems queer, don’t it, how I’m talkin’ to you here, and the guard -out there, and ever’body good to me, and in just a little while they’re -goin’ to take me out there and hang me! I don’t believe I could do it, -even if I was a sheriff and got ten thousand dollars a year for it, but I -s’pose it has to be done.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, now I guess I’ve told you all about how ever’thing happened -and you und’stand how it was. I s’pose you think I’m bad, and I don’t -want to excuse myself too much, or make out I’m any saint. I know I -never was, but you see how a feller gets into them things when he ain’t -much different from ever’body else. I know I don’t like crime, and I -don’t believe the other does. I just got into a sort of a mill and here I -am right close up to that noose.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“There ain’t anyone ‘specially that I’ve got to worry about, ‘cept -<span class='pageno' id='Page_85'>85</span>the boy. Of course it’s awful hard for a poor feller to start, anyhow, -unless he’s real smart, and I don’t know how ‘twill be with the boy. We -always thought he was awful cunnin’; but I s’pose most parents does. -But I don’t see how he’d ever be very smart, ‘cause I wa’n’t and neither -was his mother. As I was sayin’, ‘twould be awful hard for him anyhow, -but now when he’s growed up, and anyone tells him about how -his mother was murdered by his father, and how his father got hung -for it, and they show him the pictures in the paper and all that, I don’t -see how he’ll ever have any show. It seems as if the state had ought -to do somethin’ for a child when the state kills its father that way, but -it don’t unless they sends him to a poor house, or something like that.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Now, I haven’t told you a single lie—and you can see how it all -was, and that I wa’n’t so awful bad, and that I’m sorry, and would be -willin’ to die if it would bring her back. And if you can, I wish you’d -just kind of keep your eye on the boy. I guess it’ll be a good deal -better to change his name and not let him nor anyone else know anything -about either of us. A good many poor people grow up that way. -I don’t really know nothin’ ‘bout my folks. They might’ve been hung -too, for all I know. But you kind of watch the boy and keep track of -him, and if he comes up all right and seems to be a smart feller and -looks at things right, and he gets to wonderin’ about me, and you think -‘twill do any good you can tell him just what you feel a mind to, but -don’t tell him ‘less’n you think it will do him good. Of course, I can’t -never pay you in any way for what you’ve done for me, but mebbe you’ll -think it’s worth while for a feller that hain’t a friend in the world, and -who’s got to be hung so quick.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank struggled as hard as he could to keep back the tears. He was -not much used to crying, but in spite of all his efforts they rolled down -his face.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, Jim, old feller,” he said. “I didn’t know how it was—when -I come I felt as if you’d been awful bad, and of course I know it wa’n’t -right, but somehow I know it might have happened to me, or ‘most anybody, -almost, and that you ain’t so bad. I can’t tell you anything about -how I feel, but I’m glad I come. It’s done me good. I don’t think I’ll -ever feel the same about the fellers that go to jail and get hung. I don’t -know’s they could help it any more’n any of us can help the things we -do. Anyhow, I sha’n’t never let the boy out of my mind a single minit, -and I’ll do as much for him as if he was mine. I’ll look him up the first -thing I do. I don’t know about changin’ his name, I’ll see. Anyhow, if -he ever gets to hear a bit of it, I’ll see he knows how it was.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim wrung Hank’s hand for a minute in silence, and then said: -“And just one word more, Hank; tell him not to be poor; don’t let him -get married till he’s got money, and can afford it, and don’t let him go -in debt. You know I don’t believe I ever would have done it if I hadn’t -been so poor.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank drew back his hand and stepped to the grated door and looked -out along the gloomy iron corridors and down toward the courtyard -below. Then he looked up at the tiers of cells filled with the hapless -outcasts of the world. On the skylight he could see the faint yellowish -<span class='pageno' id='Page_86'>86</span>glow that told him that the day was about to dawn. The guard got up -from his stool and passed him another flask of whiskey.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Here, you’d better get Jim to drink all he can,” he whispered, -“for his time is almost up.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank took a little sip himself, and then motioned Jim to drink. -Jim took the bottle, raised it to his mouth and gulped it down, scarcely -stopping to catch his breath. Then he threw the bottle on the bed and -sat down on his chair. With the story off his mind it was plain that -the whiskey was fast numbing all his nerves. He was not himself when -he looked up again.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“I guess mebbe I’d better change my clothes, while I have a chance,” -he said. “I don’t want anyone else to have to do it for me, and I want -to look all right when the thing comes off.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>A new guard came up to the door, unlocked it and came in. He -nodded to Hank and told him he must go.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“His breakfast is just comin’ up and it’s against the rules to have -anyone here at the time. The priest will come to see him after he gets -through eatin’.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Over in the corridor where Hank had seen the beams and lumber -he could hear the murmur of muffled voices, evidently talking about -the work. Along the corridor two waiters in white coats were bringing -great trays filled with steaming food.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Slowly Hank turned to Jim and took his hand.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, old fellow,” he said, “I’ve got to go. I see you’re all right, -but take that Scotch whiskey when it comes; it won’t do you any hurt. -I’ll look after everything just as I said. Good-bye.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Jim seemed hardly to hear Hank’s farewell words.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Well, good-bye.”</p> - -<p class='c000'>Hank went outside the door and the guard closed and locked it as -he turned away.</p> - -<p class='c000'>Then Jim got up from his chair and stumbled to the door.</p> - -<p class='c000'>“Hank! Hank! S’pose—you—stop at the—telegraph—office—the -Western Union—and the—Postal—all of ‘em—mebbe—might—be somethin’——”</p> - -<p class='c000'>“All right,” Hank called back, “I will! 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HUDSON</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Green Mansions.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Purple Land.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>D. H. LAWRENCE</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Rainbow.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Sons and Lovers.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>GEORGE MEREDITH</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Diana of the Crossways.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Ordeal of Richard Feverel.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>WALTER PATER</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Renaissance.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Marius the Epicurean.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>ARTHUR SCHNITZLER</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Anatol</strong>, Green Cockatoo, and -Living Hours.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Bertha Garlan.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>AUGUST STRINDBERG</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Married.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Miss Julie</strong>, The Creditor, The -Stronger Woman, Motherly -Love, Paria and Simoon.</p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>LEO TOLSTOY</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Redemption</strong>, Power of Darkness -and Fruits of Culture.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Death of Ivan Ilyitch</strong>, Polikushka, -Two Hussars, -Snowstorm, and Three -Deaths.</p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>IVAN TURGENEV</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Fathers and Sons.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Smoke.</strong></p> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div>MISCELLANEOUS</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Modern American Poetry.</strong> Ed. -Conrad Aiken.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Seven That Were Hanged</strong> -and the Red Laugh. Leonid -Andreyev.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Short Stories</strong> by Honore de -Balzac (Don Juan, Christ -in Flanders, Time of the -Terror, Passion in the Desert, -Accursed House, Atheist’s -Mass, etc.).</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Prose and Poetry.</strong> Baudelaire.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Art of Aubrey Beardsley</strong> (64 -Reproductions).</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Art of Rodin</strong> (64 Reproductions).</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Jungle Peace.</strong> William Beebe.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Zuleika Dobson.</strong> Max Beerbohm.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>In the Midst of Life</strong> (Stories). -Ambrose Bierce.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Poems of William Blake.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Wuthering Heights.</strong> Emily -Bronte.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>House With the Green Shutters.</strong> -George Douglas Brown.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Love’s Coming of Age.</strong> Edward -Carpenter.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Alice in Wonderland</strong>, Through -the Looking-Glass and -Hunting of the Snark. -Lewis Carroll.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Autobiography of Benvenuto -Cellini.</strong></p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Rothschild’s Fiddle.</strong> Anton -Chekhov.</p> - -<p class='c019'><strong>Man Who Was Thursday.</strong> -G. 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State ...................</td> - </tr> -</table> -<div class='pbb'> - <hr class='pb c009' /> -</div> - -<p class='c012'><em>The Author of “Sanity in Sex,” “Rational Sex Series,” “The -Caveman Within Us,” and other works relating to sex and -personality, sets forth in this single volume a well-rounded, -practical exposition of sexual problems.</em></p> - -<div class='ph2'> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c005'> - <div>SEX</div> - <div class='c009'><em>and the</em></div> - <div class='c009'>LOVE-LIFE</div> - </div> -</div> - -</div> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c004'> - <div><em>By</em></div> - <div class='c009'>WILLIAM J. FIELDING</div> - </div> -</div> - -<p class='drop-capa0_0_6 c000'>There is not a man or woman but will find in this book -a clarifying light shed on many perplexing questions relating -to sex and the love-life. Even the specialized student will -find the work replete with illuminating facts and useful information, -soundly interpreted. It lays special emphasis on -realizing the potentialities of the love-life in marriage and -its delicate treatment of these intimate problems is a distinctive -feature of the book. The contents of the book as outlined -in the following pages indicates the scope and comprehensiveness -of the work.</p> - -<div class='ph2'> - -<div class='nf-center-c1'> -<div class='nf-center c005'> - <div>TABLE OF CONTENTS-–322 PAGES</div> - </div> -</div> - -</div> - -<p class='c022'><strong>I. Sex and Life</strong>—Meeting Life’s Vital -Problems—Best Preparation for Life—Countless -Manifestations of Sex—Sexual Phenomena—Evils -Traced to Ignorance—Primitive -Methods of Reproduction—Asexual Reproduction—Sex -Makes the Whole World Akin—Sexual -Reproduction—Secondary Sexual -Characters—Sex More Specialized in Higher -Orders—The Two Paramount Urges—Hunger -and the Sex Impulse—Savages’ Attitude -Toward Sex—Ancient Sexual Practices—Sex -Symbolism—Phallicism—Nature Worship—Venus -Cults—Sacred Prostitution—Lingam -and Yoni Symbols—Sexual Coldness—Congenital -Frigidity—False Frigidity—Effecting -a Cure—Sidetracked Sex Energy—Results of -Faulty Education—Puritanical Principles—Celibacy—Ecclesiastical -Law—Theological -Influence—-“Sins of the Flesh”—Early Ascetic -Ideals—Error of Sex Denial—Celibacy -Not a Normal Life—Effects of Sexual Suppression.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>II. Development of the Love-Life</strong>—Stages -of Sexual Development—Friendship and Love—Esthetic -Significance of Sex—Love the -Refinement of Sexual Impulse—Altruism -and Self-Sacrifice—Sex Life of the Child—Sexual -Instincts Manifested from Birth—Stages -of Progress—The Detumescence Instinct—The -Autoerotic Stage—Sucking, an -Erotic Pleasure—Erogenous (Love-producing) -Zones—Narcissism—The Legend of -Narcissus—Self-love—Prepubescence—Love -in Childhood—Childhood’s Sex Interests Repressed—Sublimation—Erotic -Compensation—Cultural -Accomplishments—Adolescence—The -Boy and Girl—Physical and Psychic -Manifestations—What Impels to Love—The -Parent Image—Copying Psychological Patterns—Ego -and Sex Ideals—The Love-Object—Fixations—Peculiarities -of the Love-Life—Psychic -Impotence—Frigid Wives—Fetichism—Sexual -Significance of Fetiches—Exhibitionism—Normal -and Abnormal Traits—Sexual -Curiosity—Sadism and Masochism—Homosexuality—Psychological -Problems—Environmental -Factors—Homosexual Feelings -Repressed.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>III. Man’s Sexual Nature</strong>—Comparison of -the Male and Female—Represent Different -Types of Eroticism—Anatomy and Physiology -of Male Sex Organs—The Penis—The -Glands—The Prepuce—Circumcision—The -Testes—The Vas Deferens—The Epididymis—The -Seminal Vesicles—Cowper’s Glands—Prostate -Gland—Urethra—The Seminal -Fluid—Semen—Spermatozoa—Internal Chemistry—Ductless -Glands—The Hormones—Interstitial -Glands—Chemical Aspects of Sex—The -Endocrine System—Thyroid—Parathyroid—Pituitary—Adrenals—Thymus—Pineal—Pancreas—Insulin—Activity -of -Male Sex Organs—Nocturnal (night) Emissions—A -Normal Episode—Diurnal (day) -Emissions—Man’s “Change of Life”—A -Preparation for Senescence—Period of Sexual -Decline—The Don Juan—A Constructive -Period Ahead.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>IV. Woman’s Sexual Nature</strong>—Sexual Instinct -in Woman—Woman’s Sexual Organization -More Complex Than Man’s—Feminine -Eroticism More Highly Ramified—Woman’s -Emotional Nature—Strength of -Sexual Impulse—Woman Sexually Conservative—Variations -in Sexual Impulse—Sexual -Desire Outlasts the Reproductive Life—Anatomy -and Physiology of Female Organs—The -Ovaries—Graafian Follicles—Process -of Ovulation—Fallopian Tubes—Salpingitis—The -Uterus (Womb)—The Vagina—The Hymen—The -Vulva—Bartholin Glands—The -Pelvis—The Mammary Glands—The Internal -Secretions—Normal Effects at Puberty—Effects -of Deficiency of Secretions—Menstruation—Symptoms -of Initial Appearance—Hygiene -of Menstruation—Disorders Due to -Constipation—Re-establishing Premature -Cessation of Flow—The Menopause.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>V. Preparation for Marriage</strong>—Looking -Forward to Marriage—Importance of Preparation—Confusion -of Ideals—Innocence and -Modesty—Prudery—Marriage: Past and Future—Dual -Moral Code—Status of Monogamy—Polygamy -and Promiscuity—Fictitious -Chivalry—True Love Must Be Free—Woman’s -Intellectual Liberation—Its Beneficial -Effects—The Realities of Marriage—Courtship -As a Preparation—Not an Educational -Substitute—Period of Intimate Association—Tactless -Lovers in Courtship—The -Vehement Wooer and Defensive Partner—Courtship -a Continual Preparation—The -Pairing Hunger—Length of Engagements—Long -Engagements Often Injurious—Proper -Age to Marry—Economic Hindrance -at Most Favorable Period—Consanguineous -Marriage, or Marriage of Blood -Relatives—Between First and Second Cousins—Not -Harmful in Itself—Unless Family -History Is Bad—Hereditary Traits Accentuated -in Offspring of Blood Relatives—Either -Good or Bad Latent Traits May Be -Marked in Children.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>VI. Sex Hygiene in Marriage</strong>—The Conjugal -Relations—Expressing Love Deepens -the Love Feeling—Love Cannot Be Separated -from Sexuality—Courtship and Married -Lovers—Wooing As an Essential Preparation—The -Consummation of Love—Woman -Must Be Wooed Before Every Act -of Coitus—Characteristics of Feminine Nature—Woman’s -Role In the Sex Relations—The -Sex Act Means More to the Female—Woman’s -Subconscious Maternal Solicitude—Benefits -of Sexual Expression—Key to -Happiness in Marriage—Greater Longevity -of Married Women—The Sexual Initiation -of the Bride—Coitus the Fulfilment of a -Natural Law—One of the Most Beautiful -and Sacred Phenomena of Life—Gives Marriage -Its Wonderful Potentialities—Overcoming -Sexual Coldness—Keeping Romance -in Marriage—Jealousy the Destroyer—Frequency -of Sex Relations—Intercourse During -Menstruation—Intercourse During Pregnancy.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>VII. Woman’s Love-rights</strong>—Right -of Female to Enjoyment of Sexual Function—Recognized -Among Savages—Erotic Impact -of “Marriage by Capture”—The Erogenous -(Love-producing) Zones and Their -Significance in Woman’s Love-Life—Sensual -Feeling of the Skin—Woman the Affectionate -Sex—Effects of Unsatisfactory Marital -Life—Woman Craves Love and Affection—“Love - Has to Go to School”—The Bridal -Night—Its Difficulties and Their Solution—Hygiene -of the Honeymoon—Reciprocity in -the Sex Relations—Mutual Rights of the -Husband and Wife.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>VIII. Birth Control in Relation to the -Love-Life</strong>—What Birth Control Really Means—Ignorant - Confusion with Abortion—Legal -Proscription of Contraception—Ban on Contraceptive -Information Fosters Abortion—Religious -Prejudice Against Contraception—Individual -Clergymen Advocate Birth Control—Morality - of Birth Control—Immorality -of Excessive Child-bearing. Fallacy of Intercourse -for Reproduction Only—Sexual -Union Has a Value Aside from Procreation—Not - Purely a Physical or Animal -Function—Continuous Child-bearing a Primitive -Practice—Trusting to “Instinct” and -“Nature”—Fear of Pregnancy, and Marital -—Coercion for a Morbid Ideal -by Opponents of Birth Control.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>IX. The Hygiene of Pregnancy</strong>—The -Phenomenon of Conception—The Beginning -of Pregnancy—How to Calculate Date of -Confinement—Ely’s Table and Other Methods—Most -Favorable Time of Conception—Changes -in the Pregnant Woman—Signs and -Symptoms of Pregnancy—Probable and Direct -Signs—Embryology—Month-by-Month -Development of the Fetus—Labor Pains and -Parturition—Maternal Impressions—Their -Superstitions—Prenatal Care—Rest and Exercise—Diet—Care -of Teeth—Care of the -Nipples—How Sex Is Determined—Superstitions -About Influencing Sex of the Child—Sex -Development in the Embryo—The -Chromosome Hypothesis of Sex Determination—Sex -Determined by the Male Fertilizing -Element—Sex Determination and Twins.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>X. The Menopause—Beginning a New -Epoch of Life</strong>—The End of the Reproductive -Period—Not the End of the Sexual Life—Age -at Which Menopause Occurs—Various -Manifestations of Approach—Premature Menopause, -and Its Treatment—Retarded Menopause—Characteristic -Symptoms of Climacteric—Sudden -Cessation of Menstruation—Other -Common Symptoms—Menstrual Irregularity—Obesity—Cardiac -or Heart Troubles—Digestive -Disturbances—Disorders of -the Skin—Pruritus—Cancer and Other -Growths—Nervous and Mental Disorders—Climacteric -Psychosis—Remarks on “The -Dangerous Age”—Casting Out Fear—A Constructive -Period Ahead—Woman’s Greater -Vitality and Longevity—Hygiene of the -Menopause—Bathing—Exercise—Diet—Other. -Precautions for Health—Sexual Life After -the Climacteric—Increased Sexual Desire in -Post-Menopause Period.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>XI. Sexual Disorders of Women</strong>—Sexual -Basis of Nervous Disorders—Neurasthenia—Anxiety -Neurosis—Hysteria—Results of Unsatisfactory -Marital Relations—Factors in -Marriage That Influence Sexual Life—Sterility, -or Barrenness—One-Child Sterility—Frigidity, -or Sexual Coldness—Disorders Due -to Abstinence—<strong>Coitus Interruptus</strong>—Common -Disturbances of Women—Leucorrhea—Menstrual -Disorders—Dysmenorrhea—Menorrhagia—Amenorrhea—Abortion: Spontaneous, -Induced (Illegal or Criminal), and Therapeutic—Displacements -of the Womb—Nymphomania—Masturbation—Exaggerated -Statement of Its Evils—Why It Is a Bad -Habit in Growing Boys and Girls.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>XII.—Sexual Disorders of Men</strong>—Nervous -Disturbances—Fatigue from Mental Effort -Alone a Rare Phenomenon—Sexual Factors -in Neuroses—Nervous Breakdown from Suppressing -Sexual Life—Sexual Determinants -of Anxiety Neurosis—Sexual Neurasthenia; -Hereditary and Acquired—Neurasthenia Not -So Much Actual Nervous Debility As Lack -of Control—<strong>Coitus Interruptus</strong> a Factor in -Male Neurasthenia—Sexual Impotence and -Sterility—Impotence Resulting from Continence-Absolute -and Irremediable Sterility—Relative -and Transient Sterility—Prostatitis—Azoospermia—Aspermatism—Satyriasis—Masturbation—Confusion -with “Onanism”—Prevalence Among Animals—Opinions -of Some Famous Medical Scientists.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>XIII. Venereal Diseases</strong>—Universality of -Venereal Diseases—Gonorrhea—The Most -Prevalent of Adult Infectious Diseases—Discovery -of the Germ, and Its Description—Symptoms -of the Disease—Infection of Innocent -Wives—Effects of Gonorrhea on -Women—“Honeymoon Appendicitis”—Gonorrhea -Vulvo-vaginitis—Racial Effects of -Gonorrhea—Gonorrhea As a Factor in Male -Sterility—Ophthalmia Neonatorum—Syphilis—Description -of Its Germ—Symptoms of -the Different Stages—Becomes a Constitutional -Disease—Ravages of the Tertiary -Stage—Locomotor Ataxia and Paresis -Among Late Effects—Hereditary Syphilis—May -Be Cured If Properly Treated in Time—Chancroid -or “Soft Sore”—Gangrenus -Balanitis—Prostitution—Prostitutes Largely -subnormal—Clandestine Prostitution.</p> - -<p class='c012'><strong>XIV. 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