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Thus did the first doubt invade her heart. +It was of him she was thinking still, and always. But there was the +doubt. If he could have stood this supreme test of isolation, of the +world's laughter and scorn, although it would have made her own heavy +burden of responsibility heavier, yet could she still have rejoiced. +That he should crumble was the greatest of her punishments. + +Was he crumbling? In these months she could not quite be sure, and she +tried to shut her eyes when the little pieces fell off, to remind herself +that she must make allowances for the severity of his disappointment. +Spring was here, the spring to which he had so eagerly looked forward, +and yet the listlessness with which he went about his work was apparent. +Sometimes he did not appear at breakfast, although Honora clung with +desperation to the hour they had originally fixed: sometimes Mr. Manning +waited for him until nearly ten o'clock, only to receive curt dismissal. +He went off for long rides, alone, and to the despair of the groom +brought back the horses in a lather, with drooping heads and heaving +sides; one of them he ruined. He declared there wasn't a horse in the +stable fit to give him exercise. + +Often he sat for hours in his study, brooding, inaccessible. She had the +tennis-court rolled and marked, but the contests here were pitifully- +unequal; for the row of silver cups on his mantel, engraved with many +dates, bore witness to his athletic prowess. She wrote for a book on +solitaire, but after a while the sight of cards became distasteful. With +a secret diligence she read the reviews, and sent for novels and memoirs +which she scanned eagerly before they were begun with him. Once, when +she went into his study on an errand, she stood for a minute gazing +painfully at the cleared space on his desk where once had lain the papers +and letters relative to the life of General Angus Chiltern. + +There were intervals in which her hope flared, in which she tasted, +fearfully and with bated breath, something that she had not thought to +know again. It was characteristic of him that his penitence was never +spoken: nor did he exhibit penitence. He seemed rather at such times +merely to become normally himself, as one who changes personality, +apparently oblivious to the moods and deeds of yesterday. And these +occasions added perplexity to her troubles. She could not reproach him-- +which perhaps in any event she would have been too wise to do; but she +could not, try as she would, bring herself to the point of a discussion +of their situation. The risk, she felt, was too great; now, at least. +There were instances that made her hope that the hour might come. + +One fragrant morning Honora came down to find him awaiting her, and to +perceive lying on her napkin certain distilled drops of the spring +sunshine. In language less poetic, diamonds to be worn in the ears. The +wheel of fashion, it appeared, had made a complete revolution since the +early days of his mother's marriage. She gave a little exclamation, and +her hand went to her heart. + +"They are Brazilian stones," he explained, with a boyish pleasure that +awoke memories and held her speechless. "I believe it's very difficult, +if not impossible, to buy them now. My father got them after the war and +I had them remounted." And he pressed them against the pink lobes of her +ears. "You look like the Queen of Sheba." + +"How do you know?" she asked tremulously. "You never saw her." + +"According to competent judges," he replied, "she was the most beautiful +woman of her time. Go upstairs and put them on." + +She shook her head. An inspiration had come to her. + +"Wait," she cried. And that morning, when Hugh had gone out, she sent +for Starling and startled him by commanding that the famous Lowestoft set +be used at dinner. He stared at her, and the corners of his mouth +twitched, and still he stood respectfully in the doorway. + +"That is all, Starling." + +"I beg pardon, madam. How--how many will there be at the table?" + +"Just Mr. Chiltern and I," she replied. But she did not look at him. + +It was superstition, undoubtedly. She was well aware that Starling had +not believed that the set would be used again. An extraordinary order, +that might well have sent him away wondering; for the Lowestoft had been +reserved for occasions. Ah, but this was to be an occasion, a festival! +The whimsical fancy grew in her mind as the day progressed, and she +longed with an unaccustomed impatience for nightfall, and anticipation +had a strange taste. Mathilde, with the sympathetic gift of her nation, +shared the excitement of her mistress in this fete. The curtains in the +pink bedroom were drawn, and on the bed, in all its splendour of lace and +roses, was spread out the dinner-gown-a chef-d'oeuvre of Madame +Barriere's as yet unworn. And no vulgar, worldly triumph was it to +adorn. + +Her heart was beating fast as she descended the stairway, bright spots of +colour flaming in her cheeks and the diamonds sparkling in her ears. A +prima donna might have guessed her feelings as she paused, a little +breathless on the wide landing under the windows. She heard a footstep. +Hugh came out of the library and stood motionless, looking up at her. +But even those who have felt the silence and the stir that prefaces the +clamorous applause of the thousands could not know the thrill that swept +her under his tribute. She came down the last flight of steps, slowly, +and stopped in front of him. + +"You are wonderful, Honora !" he said, and his voice was not quite under +control. He took her hand, that trembled in his, and he seemed to be +seeking to express something for which he could find no words. Thus may +the King have looked upon Rosamond in her bower; upon a beauty created +for the adornment of courts which he had sequestered for his eyes alone. + +Honora, as though merely by the touch of his hand in hers, divined his +thought. + +"If you think me so, dear," she whispered happily, "it's all I ask." + +And they went in to dinner as to a ceremony. It was indeed a ceremony +filled for her with some occult, sacred, meaning that she could not put +into words. A feast symbolical. Starling was sent to the wine-cellar to +bring back a cobwebbed Madeira near a century old, brought out on rare +occasions in the family. And Hugh, when his glass was filled, looked at +his wife and raised it in silence to his lips. + +She never forgot the scene. The red glow of light from the shaded +candles on the table, and the corners of the dining room filled with +gloom. The old butler, like a high priest, standing behind his master's +chair. The long windows, with the curtains drawn in the deep, panelled +arches; the carved white mantelpiece; the glint of silver on' the +sideboard, with its wine-cooler underneath,--these, spoke of generations +of respectability and achievement. Would this absorbed isolation, this +marvellous wild love of theirs, be the end of it all? Honora, as one +detached, as a ghost in the corner, saw herself in the picture with +startling clearness. When she looked up, she met her husband's eyes. +Always she met them, and in them a questioning, almost startled look that +was new. "Is it the earrings?" she asked at last. "I don't know," he +answered. "I can't tell. They seem to have changed you, but perhaps +they have brought out something in your face and eyes I have never seen +before." + +"And--you like it, Hugh?" + +"Yes, I like it," he replied, and added enigmatically, "but I don't +understand it." + +She was silent, and oddly satisfied, trusting to fate to send more +mysteries. + +Two days had not passed when that restlessness for which she watched so +narrowly revived. He wandered aimlessly about the place, and flared up +into such a sudden violent temper at one of the helpers in the fields +that the man ran as for his life, and refused to set foot again on any +of the Chiltern farms. In the afternoon he sent for Honora to ride with +him, and scolded her for keeping him waiting. And he wore a spur, and +pressed his horse so savagely that she cried out in remonstrance, +although at such times she had grown to fear him. + +"Oh, Hugh, how can you be so cruel!" + +"The beast has no spirit," he said shortly. "I'll get one that has." + +Their road wound through the western side of the estate towards misty +rolling country, in the folds of which lay countless lakes, and at length +they caught sight of an unpainted farmhouse set amidst a white cloud of +apple trees in bloom. On the doorstep, whittling, sat a bearded, unkempt +farmer with a huge frame. In answer to Hugh's question he admitted that +he had a horse for sale, stuck his knife in the step, rose, and went off +towards the barn near by; and presently reappeared, leading by a halter a +magnificent black. The animal stood jerking his head, blowing and pawing +the ground while Chiltern examined him. + +"He's been ridden?" he asked. + +The man nodded. + +Chiltern sprang to the ground and began to undo his saddle girths. A +sudden fear seized Honora. + +"Oh, Hugh, you're not going to ride him!" she exclaimed. + +"Why not? How else am I going to find out anything about him?" + +"He looks--dangerous," she faltered. + +"I'm tired of horses that haven't any life in them," he said, as he +lifted off the saddle. + +"I guess we'd better get him in the barn," said the farmer. + +Honora went behind them to witness the operation, which was not devoid of +excitement. The great beast plunged savagely when they tightened the +girths, and closed his teeth obstinately against the bit; but the farmer +held firmly to his nose and shut off his wind. They led him out from the +barn floor. + +"Your name Chiltern?" asked the farmer. + +"Yes," said Hugh, curtly. + +"Thought so," said the farmer, and he held the horse's head. + +Honora had a feeling of faintness. + +"Hugh, do be careful!" she pleaded. + +He paid no heed to her. His eyes, she noticed, had a certain feverish +glitter of animation, of impatience, such as men of his type must wear +when they go into battle. He seized the horse's mane, he put his foot +in the stirrup; the astonished animal gave a snort and jerked the bridle +from the farmer's hand. But Chiltern was in the saddle, with knees +pressed tight. + +There ensued a struggle that Honora will never forget. And although she +never again saw that farm-house, its details and surroundings come back +to her in vivid colours when she closes her eyes. The great horse in +every conceivable pose, with veins standing out and knotty muscles +twisting in his legs and neck and thighs. Once, when he dashed into the +apple trees, she gave a cry; a branch snapped, and Chiltern emerged, +still seated, with his hat gone and the blood trickling from a scratch on +his forehead. She saw him strike with his spurs, and in a twinkling +horse and rider had passed over the dilapidated remains of a fence and +were flying down the hard clay road, disappearing into a dip. A +reverberating sound, like a single stroke, told them that the bridge at +the bottom had been crossed. + +In an agony of terror, Honora followed, her head on fire, her heart +pounding faster than the hoof beats. But the animal she rode, though a +good one, was no match for the great infuriated beast which she pursued. +Presently she came to a wooded corner where the road forked thrice, and +beyond, not without difficulty,--brought her sweating mare to a stand. +The quality of her fear changed from wild terror to cold dread. A hermit +thrush, in the wood near by, broke the silence with a song inconceivably +sweet. At last she went back to the farm-house, hoping against hope that +Hugh might have returned by another road. But he was not there. The +farmer was still nonchalantly whittling. + +"Oh, how could you let any one get on a horse like that?" she cried. + +"You're his wife, ain't you?" he asked. + +Something in the man's manner seemed to compel her to answer, in spite of +the form of the question. + +"I am Mrs. Chiltern," she said. + +He was looking at her with an expression that she found incomprehensible. +His glance was penetrating, yet here again she seemed to read compassion. +He continued to gaze at her, and presently, when he spoke, it was as +though he were not addressing her at all. + +"You put me in mind of a young girl I used to know," he said; "seems like +a long time ago. You're pretty, and you're young, and ye didn't know +what you were doin,' I'll warrant. Lost your head. He has a way of +gittin' 'em--always had." + +Honora did not answer. She would have liked to have gone away, but that +which was stronger than her held her. + +"She didn't live here," he explained, waving his hand deprecatingly +towards the weather-beaten house. "We lived over near Morrisville in +them days. And he don't remember me, your husband don't. I ain't +surprised. I've got considerable older." + +Honora was trembling from head to foot, and her hands were cold. + +"I've got her picture in there, if ye'd like to look at it," he said, +after a while. + +"Oh, no!" she cried. "Oh, no!" + +"Well, I don't know as I blame you." He sat down again and began to +whittle. "Funny thing, chance," he remarked; "who'd a thought I should +have owned that there hoss, and he should have come around here to ride +it?" + +She tried to speak, but she could not. The hideous imperturbability of +the man's hatred sickened her. And her husband! The chips fell in +silence until a noise on the road caused them to look up. Chiltern was +coming back. She glanced again at the farmer, but his face was equally +incapable, or equally unwilling, to express regret. Chiltern rode into +the dooryard. The blood from the scratch on his forehead had crossed his +temple and run in a jagged line down his cheek, his very hair (as she had +sometimes seen it) was damp with perspiration, blacker, kinkier; his eyes +hard, reckless, bloodshot. So, in the past, must he have emerged from +dozens of such wilful, brutal contests with man and beast. He had beaten +the sweat-stained horse (temporarily--such was the impression Honora +received), but she knew that he would like to have killed it for its +opposition. + +"Give me my hat, will you?" he cried to the farmer. + +To her surprise the man obeyed. Chiltern leaped to the ground. + +"What do you want for him?" he demanded. + +"I'll take five hundred dollars." + +"Bring him over in the morning," said Chiltern, curtly. + +They rode homeward in silence. Honora had not been able to raise her +voice against the purchase, and she seemed powerless now to warn her +husband of the man's enmity. She was thinking, rather, of the horror of +the tragedy written on the farmer's face, to which he had given her the +key: Hugh Chiltern, to whom she had intrusted her life and granted her +all, had done this thing, ruthlessly, even as he had satisfied to-day his +unbridled cravings in maltreating a horse! And she thought of that other +woman, on whose picture she had refused to look. What was the essential +difference between that woman and herself? He had wanted them both, he +had taken them both for his pleasure, heedless of the pain he might cause +to others and to them. For her, perhaps, the higher organism, had been +reserved the higher torture. She did not know. The vision of the girl +in the outer darkness reserved for castaways was terrible. + +Up to this point she had, as it were, been looking into one mirror. Now +another was suddenly raised behind her, and by its aid she beheld not a +single, but countless, images of herself endlessly repeated. How many +others besides this girl had there been? The question gave her the +shudder of the contemplation of eternity. It was not the first time +Honora had thought of his past, but until today it had lacked reality; +until to-day she had clung to the belief that he had been misunderstood; +until to-day she had considered those acts of his of the existence of +which she was collectively aware under the generic term of wild oats. +He had had too much money, and none had known how to control him. Now, +through this concrete example of another's experience, she was given to +understand that which she had strangely been unable to learn from her +own. And she had fancied, in her folly, that she could control him! +Unable as yet to grasp the full extent of her calamity, she rode on by +his side, until she was aware at last that they had reached the door of +the house at Highlawns. + +"You look pale," he said as he lifted her off her horse. The demon in +him, she perceived, was tired. + +"Do I?" + +"What's the matter?" + +"Nothing," she answered. + +He laughed. + +"It's confoundedly silly to get frightened that way," he declared. +"The beast only wants riding." + +Three mornings later she was seated in the garden with a frame of fancy +work. Sometimes she put it down. The weather was overcast, langourous, +and there was a feeling of rain in the air. Chiltern came in through the +gaffe, and looked at her. + +"I'm going to New York on the noon train," he said. + +"To New York?" + +"Yes. Why not?" + +There's no reason why you shouldn't if you wish to," she replied, picking +up her frame. + +"Anything I can get you?" he asked. + +"No, thank you." + +"You've been in such a deuced queer mood the last few days I can't make +you out, Honora." + +"You ought to have learned something about women by this time," she said. + +"It seems to me," he announced, "that we need a little livening up." + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +THE RENEWAL OF AN ANCIENT HOSPITALITY + +There were six letters from him, written from a club, representing the +seven days of his absence. He made no secret of the fact that his visit +to the metropolis was in the nature of a relaxation and a change of +scene, but the letters themselves contained surprisingly little +information as to how he was employing his holiday. He had encountered +many old friends, supposedly all of the male sex: among them--most +welcome of surprises to him!--Mr. George Pembroke, a boon companion at +Harvard. And this mention of boon companionship brought up to Honora a +sufficiently vivid idea of Mr. Pembroke's characteristics. The extent of +her knowledge of this gentleman consisted in the facts that he was a +bachelor, a member of a prominent Philadelphia family, and that time +hung heavy on his hands. + +One morning she received a telegram to the effect that her husband would +be home that night, bringing three people with him. He sent his love, +but neglected to state the names and sexes of the prospective guests. +And she was still in a quandary as to what arrangements to make when +Starling appeared in answer to her ring. + +"You will send the omnibus to the five o'clock train," she said. "There +will be three extra places at dinner, and tea when Mr. Chiltern arrives." + +Although she strove to speak indifferently, she was sure from the way the +old man looked at her that her voice had not been quite steady. Of late +her curious feeling about him had increased in intensity; and many times, +during this week she had spent alone, she had thought that his eyes had +followed her with sympathy. She did not resent this. Her world having +now contracted to that wide house, there was a comfort in knowing that +there was one in it to whom she could turn in need. For she felt that +she could turn to Starling; he alone, apparently, had measured the full +depth of her trouble; nay, had silently predicted it from the beginning. +And to-day, as he stood before her, she had an almost irresistible +impulse to speak. Just a word-a human word would have been such a help +to her! And how ridiculous the social law that kept the old man standing +there, impassive, respectful, when this existed between them! Her +tragedy was his tragedy; not in the same proportion, perhaps; +nevertheless, he had the air of one who would die of it. + +And she? Would she die? What would become of her? When she thought of +the long days and months and years that stretched ahead of her, she felt +that her soul would not be able to survive the process of steady +degradation to which it was sure to be subjected. For she was a +prisoner: the uttermost parts of the earth offered no refuge. To-day, +she knew, was to see the formal inauguration of that process. She had +known torture, but it had been swift, obliterating, excruciating. And +hereafter it was to be slow, one turn at a time of the screws, squeezing +by infinitesimal degrees the life out of her soul. And in the end--most +fearful thought of all--in the end, painless. Painless! She buried her +head in her arms on the little desk, shaken by sobs. + +How she fought that day to compose herself, fought and prayed! Prayed +wildly to a God whose help, nevertheless, she felt she had forfeited, +who was visiting her with just anger. At half-past four she heard the +carriage on the far driveway, going to the station, and she went down +and walked across the lawn to the pond, and around it; anything to keep +moving. She hurried back to the house just in time to reach the hall as +the omnibus backed up. And the first person she saw descend, after Hugh, +was Mrs. Kame. + +"Here we are, Honora," she cried. "I hope you're glad to see us, and +that you'll forgive our coming so informally. You must blame Hugh. +We've brought Adele." + +The second lady was, indeed, none other than Mrs. Eustace Rindge, +formerly Mrs. Dicky Farnham. And she is worth--even at this belated +stage in our chronicle an attempted sketch, or at least an attempted +impression. She was fair, and slim as a schoolgirl; not very tall, not +exactly petite; at first sight she might have been taken for a +particularly immature debutante, and her dress was youthful and rather +mannish. Her years, at this period of her career, were in truth but +two and twenty, yet she had contrived, in the comparatively brief time +since she had reached the supposed age of discretion, to marry two men +and build two houses, and incidentally to see a considerable portion of +what is known as the world. The suspicion that she was not as innocent +as a dove came to one, on closer inspection, as a shock: her eyes were +tired, though not from loss of sleep; and her manner--how shall it be +described to those whose happy lot in life has never been to have made +the acquaintance of Mrs. Rindge's humbler sisters who have acquired--more +coarsely, it is true--the same camaraderie? She was one of those for +whom, seemingly, sex does not exist. Her air of good-fellowship with men +was eloquent of a precise knowledge of what she might expect from them, +and she was prepared to do her own policing,--not from any deep moral +convictions. She belonged, logically, to that world which is disposed +to take the law into its own hands, and she was the possessor of five +millions of dollars. + +"I came along," she said to Honora, as she gave her hand-bag to a +footman. "I hope you don't mind. Abby and I were shopping and we ran +into Hugh and Georgie yesterday at Sherry's, and we've been together ever +since. Not quite that--but almost. Hugh begged us to come up, and there +didn't seem to be any reason why we shouldn't, so we telephoned down to +Banbury for our trunks and maids, and we've played bridge all the way. +By the way, Georgie, where's my pocket-book?" + +Mr. Pembroke handed it over, and was introduced by Hugh. He looked at +Honora, and his glance somehow betokened that he was in the habit of +looking only once. He had apparently made up his mind about her before +he saw her. But he looked again, evidently finding her at variance with +a preconceived idea, and this time she flushed a little under his stare, +and she got the impression that Mr. Pembroke was a man from whom few +secrets of a certain kind were hid. She felt that he had seized, at a +second glance, a situation that she had succeeded in hiding from the +women. He was surprised, but cynically so. He was the sort of person +who had probably possessed at Harvard the knowledge of the world of a +Tammany politician; he had long ago written his book--such as it was--and +closed it: or, rather, he had worked out his system at a precocious age, +and it had lasted him ever since. He had decided that undergraduate +life, freed from undergraduate restrictions, was a good thing. And he +did not, even in these days, object to breaking something valuable +occasionally. + +His physical attributes are more difficult to describe, so closely were +they allied to those which, for want of a better word, must be called +mental. He was neither tall nor short, he was well fed, but hard, his +shoulders too broad, his head a little large. If he should have happened +to bump against one, the result would have been a bruise--not for him. +His eyes were blue, his light hair short, and there was a slight baldness +beginning; his face was red-tanned. There was not the slightest doubt +that he could be effectively rude, and often was; but it was evident, for +some reason, that he meant to be gracious (for Mr. Pembroke) to Honora. +Perhaps this was the result of the second glance. One of his name had +not lacked, indeed, for instructions in gentility. It must not be +thought that she was in a condition to care much about what Mr. Pembroke +thought or did, and yet she felt instinctively that he had changed his +greeting between that first and second glance. + +"I hope you'll forgive my coming in this way," he said. "I'm an old +friend of Hugh's." + +"I'm very glad to have Hugh's friends," she answered. + +He looked at her again. + +"Is tea ready?" inquired Mrs. Kame. "I'm famished." And, as they walked +through the house to the garden, where the table was set beside the stone +seat: "I don't see how you ever can leave this place, Honora. I've +always wanted to come here, but it's even more beautiful than I thought." + +"It's very beautiful," said Honora. + +"I'll have a whiskey and soda, if I may," announced Mrs. Rindge. "Open +one, Georgie." + +"The third to-day," said Mr. Pembroke, sententiously, as he obeyed. + +"I don't care. I don't see what business it is of yours." + +"Except to open them," he replied. + +"You'd have made a fortune as a barkeeper," she observed, +dispassionately, as she watched the process. + +"He's made fortunes for a good many," said Chiltern. + +"Not without some expert assistance I could mention," Mr. Pembroke +retorted. + +At this somewhat pointed reference to his ancient habits, Chiltern +laughed. + +"You've each had three to-day yourselves," said Mrs. Rindge, in whose +bosom Mr. Pembroke's remark evidently rankled, "without counting those +you had before you left the club." + +Afterwards Mrs. Kame expressed a desire to walk about a little, a +proposal received with disfavour by all but Honora, who as hostess +responded. + +"I feel perfectly delightful," declared Mrs. Rindge. "What's the use of +moving about?" And she sank back in the cushions of her chair. + +This observation was greeted with unrestrained merriment by Mr. Pembroke +and Hugh. Honora, sick at heart, led Mrs. Kame across the garden and +through the gate in the wall. It was a perfect evening of early June, +the great lawn a vivid green in the slanting light. All day the cheerful +music of the horse-mowers had been heard, and the air was fragrant with +the odour of grass freshly cut. The long shadows of the maples and +beeches stretched towards the placid surface of the lake, dimpled here +and there by a fish's swirl: the spiraeas were laden as with freshly +fallen snow, a lone Judas-tree was decked in pink. The steep pastures +beyond the water were touched with gold, while to the northward, on the +distant hills, tender blue lights gathered lovingly around the copses. +Mrs. Kame sighed. + +"What a terrible thing it is," she said, "that we are never satisfied! +It's the men who ruin all this for us, I believe, and prevent our +enjoying it. Look at Adele." + +Honora had indeed looked at her. + +"I found out the other day what is the matter with her. She's madly in +love with Dicky." + +"With--with her former husband?" + +"Yes, with poor little innocent Dicky Farnham, who's probably still +congratulating himself, like a canary bird that's got out of a cage. +Somehow Dicky's always reminded me of a canary; perhaps it's his name. +Isn't it odd that she should be in love with him?" + +"I think," replied Honora, slowly, "that it's a tragedy." + +"It is a tragedy," Mrs. Kame hastily agreed. "To me, this case is one +of the most incomprehensible aspects of the tender passion. Adele's idea +of existence is a steeplechase with nothing but water-jumps, Dicky's to +loiter around in a gypsy van, and sit in the sun. During his brief +matrimonial experience with her, he nearly died for want of breath--or +rather the life was nearly shaken out of him. And yet she wants Dicky +again. She'd run away with him to-morrow if he should come within +hailing distance of her." + +"And her husband?" asked Honora. + +"Eustace? Did you ever see him? That accounts for your question. He +only left France long enough to come over here and make love to her, and +he swears he'll never leave it again. If she divorces him, he'll have to +have alimony." + +At last Honora was able to gain her own room, but even seclusion, though +preferable to the companionship of her guests, was almost intolerable. +The tragedy of Mrs. Rindge had served--if such a thing could be--to +enhance her own; a sudden spectacle of a woman in a more advanced stage +of desperation. Would she, Honora, ever become like that? Up to the +present she felt that suffering had refined her, and a great love had +burned away all that was false. But now--now that her god had turned to +clay, what would happen? Desperation seemed possible, notwithstanding +the awfulness of the example. No, she would never come to that! And +she repeated it over and over to herself as she dressed, as though to +strengthen her will. + +During her conversation with Mrs. Kame she had more than once suspected, +in spite of her efforts, that the lady had read her state of mind. For +Mrs. Kame's omissions were eloquent to the discerning: Chiltern's +relatives had been mentioned with a casualness intended to imply that no +breach existed, and the fiction that Honora could at any moment take up +her former life delicately sustained. Mrs. Kame had adaptably chosen the +attitude, after a glance around her, that Honora preferred Highlawns to +the world: a choice of which she let it be known that she approved, while +deploring that a frivolous character put such a life out of the question +for herself. She made her point without over-emphasis. On the other +hand, Honora had read Mrs. Kame. No very careful perusal was needed to +convince her that the lady was unmoral, and that in characteristics she +resembled the chameleon. But she read deeper. She perceived that Mrs. +Kame was convinced that she, Honora, would adjust herself to the new +conditions after a struggle; and that while she had a certain sympathy in +the struggle, Mrs. Kame was of opinion that the sooner it was over with +the better. All women were born to be disillusionized. Such was the +key, at any rate, to the lady's conduct that evening at dinner, when she +capped the anecdotes of Mr. Pembroke and Mrs. Rindge and even of Chiltern +with others not less risque but more fastidiously and ingeniously +suggestive. The reader may be spared their recital. + +Since the meeting in the restaurant the day before, which had resulted +in Hugh's happy inspiration that the festival begun should be continued +indefinitely at Highlawns, a kind of freemasonry had sprung up between +the four. Honora found herself, mercifully, outside the circle: for such +was the lively character of the banter that a considerable adroitness was +necessary to obtain, between the talk and--laughter, the ear of the +company. And so full were they of the reminiscences which had been +crowded into the thirty hours or so they had spent together, that her +comparative silence remained unnoticed. To cite an example, Mr. Pembroke +was continually being addressed as the Third Vice-president, an allusion +that Mrs. Rindge eventually explained. + +"You ought to have been with us coming up on the train," she cried to +Honora; "I thought surely we'd be put off. We were playing bridge in +the little room at the end of the car when the conductor came for our +tickets. Georgie had 'em in his pocket, but he told the man to go away, +that he was the third vice-president of the road, and we were his +friends. The conductor asked him if he were Mr. Wheeler, or some such +name, and Georgie said he was surprised he didn't know him. Well, the +man stood there in the door, and Georgie picked up his hand and made it +hearts--or was it diamonds, Georgie?" + +"Spades," said that gentleman, promptly. + +"At any rate," Mrs. Rindge continued, "we all began to play, although we +were ready to blow up with laughter, and after a while Georgie looked +around and said, 'What, are you there yet?' My dear, you ought to have +seen the conductor's face! He said it was his duty to establish +Georgie's identity, or something like that, and Georgie told him to get +off at the next station and buy Waring's Magazine--was that it, Georgie?" + +"How the deuce should I know?" + +"Well, some such magazine. Georgie said he'd find an article in it on +the Railroad Kings and Princes of America, and that his picture, +Georgie's, was among the very first!" At this juncture in her narrative +Mrs. Rindge shrieked with laughter, in which she was joined by Mrs. Kame +and Hugh; and she pointed a forefinger across the table at Mr. Pembroke, +who went on solemnly eating his dinner. "Georgie gave him ten cents with +which to buy the magazine," she added a little hysterically. "Well, +there was a frightful row, and a lot of men came down to that end of the +car, and we had to shut the door. The conductor said the most outrageous +things, and Georgie pretended to be very indignant, too, and gave him the +tickets under protest. He told Georgie he ought to be in an asylum for +the criminally insane, and Georgie advised him to get a photograph album +of the high officials of the railroad. The conductor said Georgie's +picture was probably in the rogue's gallery. And we lost two packs of +cards out of the window." + +Such had been the more innocent if eccentric diversions with which they +had whiled away the time. When dinner was ended, a renewal of the bridge +game was proposed, for it had transpired at the dinner-table that Mrs. +Rindge and Hugh had been partners all day, as a result of which there was +a considerable balance in their favour. This balance Mr. Pembroke was +palpably anxious to wipe out, or at least to reduce. But Mrs. Kame +insisted that Honora should cut in, and the others supported her. + +"We tried our best to get a man for you," said Mrs. Rindge to Honora. +"Didn't we, Abby? But in the little time we had, it was impossible. The +only man we saw was Ned Carrington, and Hugh said he didn't think you'd +want him." + +"Hugh showed a rare perception," said Honora. + +Be it recorded that she smiled. One course had been clear to her from +the first, although she found it infinitely difficult to follow; she was +determined, cost what it might, to carry through her part of the affair +with dignity, but without stiffness. This is not the place to dwell upon +the tax to her strength. + +"Come on, Honora," said Hugh, "cut in." His tone was of what may be +termed a rough good nature. She had not seen him alone since his return, +but he had seemed distinctly desirous that she should enjoy the +festivities he had provided. And not to yield would have been +to betray herself. + +The game, with its intervals of hilarity, was inaugurated in the library, +and by midnight it showed no signs of abating. At this hour the original +four occupied the table for the second time, and endurance has its +limits. The atmosphere of Liberty Hall that prevailed made Honora's +retirement easier. + +"I'm sure you won't mind if I go to bed," she said. "I've been so used +to the routine of--of the chickens." She smiled. "And I've spent the +day in the open air." + +"Certainly, my dear," said Mrs. Kame; "I know exactly how one feels in +the country. I'm sure it's dreadfully late. We'll have one more rubber, +and then stop." + +"Oh, don't stop," replied Honora; "please play as long as you like." + +They didn't stop--at least after one more rubber. Honora, as she lay in +the darkness, looking through the open square of her window at the silver +stars, heard their voiced and their laughter floating up at intervals +from below, and the little clock on her mantel had struck the hour of +three when the scraping of chairs announced the breaking up of the party. +And even after that an unconscionable period elapsed, beguiled, +undoubtedly, by anecdotes; spells of silence--when she thought they had +gone--ending in more laughter. Finally there was a crash of breaking +glass, a climax of uproarious mirth, and all was still. . . + +She could not have slept much, but the birds were singing when she +finally awoke, the sunlight pouring into her window: And the hands of her +clock pointed to half-past seven when she rang her bell. It was a relief +to breakfast alone, or at least to sip her coffee in solitude. And the +dew was still on the grass as she crossed the wide lawn and made her way +around the lake to the path that entered the woods at its farther end. +She was not tired, yet she would have liked to have lain down under the +green panoply of the forest, where the wild flowers shyly raised sweet +faces to be kissed, and lose herself in the forgetfulness of an eternal +sleep; never to go back again to an Eden contaminated. But when she +lingered the melody of a thrush pierced her through and through. At last +she turned and reluctantly retraced her steps, as one whose hour of +reprieve has expired. + +If Mrs. Rindge had a girlish air when fully arrayed for the day, she +looked younger and more angular still in that article of attire known as +a dressing gown. And her eyes, Honora remarked, were peculiarly bright: +glittering, perhaps, would better express the impression they gave; as +though one got a glimpse through them of an inward consuming fire. Her +laughter rang shrill and clear as Honora entered the hall by the rear +door, and the big clock proclaimed that the hour was half-past eleven. +Hugh and Mr. Pembroke were standing at the foot of the stairs, gazing +upward. And Honora, following their glances, be held the two ladies, +in the negligee referred to above, with their elbows on the railing of +the upper hall and their faces between their hands, engaged in a lively +exchange of compliments with the gentlemen. Mrs. Kame looked sleepy. + +"Such a night!" she said, suppressing a yawn. "My dear, you did well to +go to bed." + +"And to cap it all," cried Mrs. Rindge, "Georgie fell over backwards in +one of those beautiful Adam chairs, and there's literally nothing left of +it. If an ocean steamer had hit it, or a freight tram, it couldn't have +been more thoroughly demolished." + +"You pushed me," declared Mr. Pembroke. + +"Did I, Hugh? I barely touched him." + +"You knocked him into a cocked hat," said Hugh. "And if you'd been in +that kimono, you could have done it even easier." + +"Georgie broke the whole whiskey service,--or whatever it is," Mrs. +Rindge went on, addressing Honora again. "He fell into it." + +"He's all right this morning," observed Mrs. Kame, critically. + +"I think I'll take to swallowing swords and glass and things in public. +I can do it so well," said Mr. Pembroke. + +"I hope you got what you like for breakfast," said Honora to the ladies. + +"Hurry up and come down, Adele," said Hugh, "if you want to look over the +horses before lunch." + +"It's Georgie's fault," replied Mrs. Rindge; "he's been standing in the +door of my sitting-room for a whole half-hour talking nonsense." + +A little later they all set out for the stables. These buildings at +Highlawns, framed by great trees, were old-fashioned and picturesque, +surrounding three sides of a court, with a yellow brick wall on the +fourth. The roof of the main building was capped by a lantern, the home +of countless pigeons. Mrs. Rindge was in a habit, and one by one the +saddle horses were led out, chiefly for her inspection; and she seemed to +Honora to become another woman as she looked them over with a critical +eye and discussed them with Hugh and O'Grady, the stud-groom, and talked +about pedigrees and strains. For she was renowned in this department of +sport on many fields, both for recklessness and skill. + +"Where did you get that brute, Hugh?" she asked presently. + +Honora, who had been talking to Pembroke, looked around with a start. +And at the sight of the great black horse, bought on that unforgettable +day, she turned suddenly faint. + +"Over here in the country about ten miles," Chiltern was saying. +"I heard of him, but I didn't expect anything until I went to look at +him last week." + +"What do you call him?" asked Mrs. Rindge. + +"I haven't named him." + +"I'll give you a name." + +Chiltern looked at her. "What is it?" he said. + +"Oblivion," she replied: + +"By George, Adele," he exclaimed, "you have a way of hitting it off!" + +"Will you let me ride him this afternoon?" she asked. + +"I'm a--a candidate for oblivion." She laughed a little and her eyes +shone feverishly. + +"No you don't," he said. "I'm giving you the grey. He's got enough in +him for any woman--even for you: And besides, I don't think the black +ever felt a side saddle, or any other kind, until last week." + +"I've got another habit," she said eagerly. "I'd rather ride him astride. +I'll match you to see who has him." + +Chiltern laughed. + +"No you don't," he repeated. "I'll ride him to-day, and consider it +to-morrow." + +"I--I think I'll go back to the house," said Honora to Pembroke. +"It's rather hot here in the sun." + +"I'm not very keen about sunshine, either," he declared. + +At lunch she was unable to talk; to sustain, at least, a conversation. +That word oblivion, which Mrs. Rindge had so aptly applied to the horse, +was constantly on her lips, and it would not have surprised her if she +had spoken it. She felt as though a heavy weight lay on her breast, and +to relieve its intolerable pressure drew in her breath deeply. She was +wild with fear. The details of the great room fixed themselves indelibly +in her brain; the subdued light, the polished table laden with silver and +glass, the roses, and the purple hot-house grapes. All this seemed in +some way to be an ironic prelude to disaster. Hugh, pausing in his +badinage with Mrs. Rindge, looked at her. + +"Cheer up, Honora," he said. + +"I'm afraid this first house-party is too much for her," said Mrs. Kame. + +Honora made some protest that seemed to satisfy them, tried to rally +herself, and succeeded sufficiently to pass muster. After lunch they +repaired again to the bridge table, and at four Hugh went upstairs to +change into his riding clothes. Five minutes longer she controlled +herself, and then made some paltry excuse, indifferent now as to what +they said or thought, and followed him. She knocked at his dressing-room +door and entered. He was drawing on his boots. "Hello, Honora," he +said. + +Honora turned to his man, and dismissed him. + +"I wish to speak to Mr. Chiltern alone." + +Chiltern paused in his tugging at the straps, and looked up at her. + +"What's the matter with you to-day, Honora?" he asked. "You looked like +the chief mourner at a funeral all through lunch." + +He was a little on edge, that she knew. He gave another tug at the boot, +and while she was still hesitating, he began again. + +"I ought to apologize, I know, for bringing these people up without +notice, but I didn't suppose you'd object when you understood how +naturally it all came about. I thought a little livening up, as I said, +wouldn't, hurt us. We've had a quiet winter, to put it mildly." He +laughed a little. "I didn't have a chance to see you until this morning, +and when I went to your room they told me you'd gone out." + +"Hugh," she said, laying her hand on his shoulder. "It isn't the guests. +If you want people, and they amuse you, I'm--I'm glad to have them. And +if I've seemed to be--cold to them, I'm sorry. I tried my best--I mean I +did not intend to be cold. I'll sit up all night with them, if you like. +And I didn't come to reproach you, Hugh. I'll never do that--I've got no +right to." + +She passed her hand over her eyes. If she had any wrongs, if she had +suffered any pain, the fear that obsessed her obliterated all. In spite +of her disillusionment, in spite of her newly acquired ability to see him +as he was, enough love remained to scatter, when summoned, her pride to +the winds. + +Having got on both boots, he stood up. + +"What's the trouble, then?" he asked. And he took an instant's hold of +her chin--a habit he had--and smiled at her. + +He little knew how sublime, in its unconscious effrontery, his question +was! She tried to compose herself, that she might be able to present +comprehensively to his finite masculine mind the ache of today. + +"Hugh, it's that black horse." She could not bring herself to pronounce +the name Mrs. Rindge had christened him. + +"What about him?" he said, putting on his waistcoat. + +"Don't ride him!" she pleaded. "I--I'm afraid of him--I've been afraid +of him ever since that day. + +"It may be a foolish feeling, I know. Sometimes the feelings that hurt +women most are foolish. If I tell you that if you ride him you will +torture me, I'm sure you'll grant what I ask. It's such a little thing +and it means so much--so much agony to me. I'd do anything for you--give +up anything in the world at your slightest wish. Don't ride him!" + +"This is a ridiculous fancy of yours, Honora. The horse is all right. +I've ridden dozens of worse ones." + +"Oh, I'm sure he isn't," she cried; "call it fancy, call it instinct, +call it anything you like--but I feel it, Hugh. That woman--Mrs. +Rindge--knows something about horses, and she said he was a brute." + +"Yes," he interrupted, with a short laugh, "and she wants to ride him." + +"Hugh, she's reckless. I--I've been watching her since she came here, +and I'm sure she's reckless with--with a purpose." + +"You're morbid," he said. "She's one of the best sportswomen in the +country--that's the reason she wanted to ride the horse. Look here, +Honora, I'd accede to any reasonable request. But what do you expect me +to do?" he demanded; "go down and say I'm afraid to ride him? or that my +wife doesn't want me to? I'd never hear the end of it. And the first +thing Adele would do would be to jump on him herself--a little wisp of a +woman that looks as if she couldn't hold a Shetland pony! Can't you see +that what you ask is impossible?" + +He started for the door to terminate a conversation which had already +begun to irritate him. For his anger, in these days, was very near the +surface. She made one more desperate appeal. + +"Hugh--the man who sold him--he knew the horse was dangerous. I'm sure +he did, from something he said to me while you were gone." + +"These country people are all idiots and cowards," declared Chiltern. +"I've known 'em a good while, and they haven't got the spirit of mongrel +dogs. I was a fool to think that I could do anything for them. They're +kind and neighbourly, aren't they?" he exclaimed. "If that old rascal +flattered himself he deceived me, he was mistaken. He'd have been +mightily pleased if the beast had broken my neck." + +"Hugh!" + +"I can't, Honora. That's all there is to it, I can't. Now don't cut up +about nothing. I'm sorry, but I've got to go. Adele's waiting." + +He came back, kissed her hurriedly, turned and opened the door. She +followed him into the hallway, knowing that she had failed, knowing that +she never could have succeeded. There she halted and watched him go down +the stairs, and stand with her hands tightly pressed together: voices +reached her, a hurrah from George Pembroke, and the pounding of hoofs on +the driveway. It had seemed such a little thing to ask! + +But she did not dwell upon this, now, when fear was gnawing her: how she +had humbled her pride for days and weeks and months for him, and how he +had refused her paltry request lest he should be laughed at. Her +reflections then were not on his waning love. She was filled with the +terror of losing him--of losing all that remained to her in the world. +Presently she began to walk slowly towards the stairs, descended them, +and looked around her. The hall, at least, had not changed. She +listened, and a bee hummed in through the open doorway. A sudden +longing for companionship possessed her-no matter whose; and she walked +hurriedly, as though she were followed, through the empty rooms until she +came upon George Pembroke stretched at full length on the leather-covered +lounge in the library. He opened his eyes, and got up with alacrity. + +"Please don't move," she said. + +He looked at her. Although his was not what may be called +a sympathetic temperament, he was not without a certain knowledge of +women; superficial, perhaps. But most men of his type have seen them in +despair; and since he was not related to this particular despair, what +finer feelings he had were the more easily aroused. It must have been +clear to her then that she had lost the power to dissemble, all the +clearer because of Mr. Pembroke's cheerfulness. + +"I wasn't going to sleep," he assured her. "Circumstantial evidence is +against me, I know. Where's Abby? reading French literature?" + +"I haven't seen her," replied Honora. + +"She usually goes to bed with a play at this hour. It's a horrid habit-- +going to bed, I mean. Don't you think? Would you mind showing me about +a little?" + +"Do you really wish to?" asked Honora, incredulously. + +"I haven't been here since my senior year," said Mr. Pembroke. "If the +old General were alive, he could probably tell you something of that +visit--he wrote to my father about it. I always liked the place, +although the General was something of a drawback. Fine old man, +with no memory." + +I should have thought him to have had a good memory," she said. + +"I have always been led to believe that he was once sent away from +college in his youth,--for his health," he explained significantly. +"No man has a good memory who can't remember that. Perhaps the battle +of Gettysburg wiped it out." + +Thus, in his own easy-going fashion, Mr. Pembroke sought to distract her. +She put on a hat, and they walked about, the various scenes recalling +incidents of holidays he had spent at Highlawns. And after a while +Honora was thankful that chance had sent her in this hour to him rather +than to Mrs. Kame. For the sight, that morning of this lady in her +dressing-gown over the stairway, had seemingly set the seal on a growing +distaste. Her feeling had not been the same about Mrs. Rindge: Mrs. +Kame's actions savoured of deliberate choice, of an inherent and +calculating wickedness. + +Had the distraction of others besides himself been the chief business of +Mr. Pembroke's life, he could not have succeeded better that afternoon. +He must be given this credit: his motives remain problematical; at length +he even drew laughter from her. The afternoon wore on, they returned to +the garden for tea, and a peaceful stillness continued to reign about +them, the very sky smiling placidly at her fears. Not by assuring her +that Hugh was unusual horseman, that he had passed through many dangers +beside which this was a bagatelle, could the student of the feminine by +her side have done half so well. And it may have been that his success +encouraged him as he saw emerging, as the result of his handiwork, an +unexpectedly attractive--if still somewhat serious-woman from the gloom +that had enveloped her. That she should still have her distrait moments +was but natural. + +He talked to her largely about Hugh, of whom he appeared sincerely fond. +The qualities which attracted Mr. Pembroke in his own sex were somewhat +peculiar, and seemingly consisted largely in a readiness to drop the +business at hand, whatever it might be, at the suggestion of a friend to +do something else; the "something else," of course, to be the conception +of an ingenious mind. And it was while he was in the midst of an +anecdote proving the existence of this quality in his friend that he felt +a sudden clutch on his arm. + +They listened. Faintly, very faintly, could be heard the sound of hoof +beats; rapid, though distant. + +"Do you hear?" she whispered, and still held his arm. + +"It's just like them to race back," said Pembroke, with admirable +nonchalance. + +"But they wouldn't come back at this time--it's too early. Hugh always +takes long rides. They started for Hubbard's--it's twelve miles." + +"Adele changes her mind every minute of the day," he said. + +"Listen!" she cried, and her clutch tightened. The hoof beats grew +louder. "It's only one--it's only one horse!" + +Before he could answer, she was already halfway up the garden path +towards the house. He followed her as she ran panting through the +breakfast room, the dining room, and drawing-room, and when they reached +the hall, Starling, the butler, and two footmen were going out at the +door. A voice--Mrs. Kame's--cried out, "What is it?" over the stairs, +but they paid no heed. As they reached the steps they beheld the slight +figure of Mrs. Rindge on a flying horse coming towards them up the +driveway. Her black straw hat had slipped to the back of her neck, her +hair was awry, her childish face white as paper. Honora put her hand to +her heart. There was no need to tell her the news--she had known these +many hours. + +Mrs. Rindge's horse came over the round grass-plot of the circle and +planted his fore feet in the turf as she pulled him up. She lurched +forward. It was Starling who lifted her off--George Pembroke stood by +Honora. + +"My God, Adele," he exclaimed, "why don't you speak?" + +She was staring at Honora. + +"I can't!" she cried. "I can't tell you--it's too terrible! +The horse--" she seemed to choke. + +It was Honora who went up to her with a calmness that awed them. + +"Tell me," she said, "is he dead?" + +Mrs. Rindge nodded, and broke into hysterical sobbing. + +"And I wanted to ride him myself," she sobbed, as they led her up the +steps. + +In less than an hour they brought him home and laid him in the room in +which he had slept from boyhood, and shut the door. Honora looked into +his face. It was calm at last, and his body strangely at rest. The +passions which had tortured it and driven it hither and thither through a +wayward life had fled: the power gone that would brook no guiding hand, +that had known no master. It was not until then that she fell upon him, +weeping . . . . + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +IN WHICH MR. ERWIN SEEK PARIS + +As she glanced around the sitting-room of her apartment in Paris one +September morning she found it difficult, in some respects, to realize +that she had lived in it for more than five years. After Chiltern's +death she had sought a refuge, and she had found it here: a refuge in +which she meant--if her intention may be so definitely stated--to pass +the remainder of her days. + +As a refuge it had become dear to her. When first she had entered it she +had looked about her numbly, thankful for walls and roof, thankful for +its remoteness from the haunts of the prying: as a shipwrecked castaway +regards, at the first light, the cave into which he has stumbled into the +darkness-gratefully. And gradually, castaway that she felt herself to +be, she had adorned it lovingly, as one above whose horizon the sails of +hope were not to rise; filled it with friends not chosen in a day, whose +faithful ministrations were not to cease. Her books, but only those +worthy to be bound and read again; the pictures she had bought when she +had grown to know what pictures were; the music she had come to love for +its eternal qualities--these were her companions. + +The apartment was in the old quarter across the Seine, and she had found +it by chance. The ancient family of which this hotel had once been the +home would scarce have recognized, if they had returned the part of it +Honora occupied. The room in which she mostly lived was above the corner +of the quiet street, and might have been more aptly called a sitting-room +than a salon. Its panels were the most delicate of blue-gray, +fantastically designed and outlined by ribbings of blue. Some of them +contained her pictures. The chairs, the sofas, the little tabourets, +were upholstered in yellow, their wood matching the panels. Above the +carved mantel of yellowing marble was a quaintly shaped mirror extending +to the high ceiling, and flanked on either side by sconces. The carpet +was a golden brown, the hangings in the tall windows yellow. And in the +morning the sun came in, not boisterously, but as a well-bred and +cheerful guest. An amiable proprietor had permitted her also to add a +wrought-iron balcony as an adjunct to this room, and sometimes she sat +there on the warmer days reading under the seclusion of an awning, or +gazing at the mysterious facades of the houses opposite, or at infrequent +cabs or pedestrians below. + +An archway led out of the sitting-room into a smaller room, once the +boudoir of a marquise, now Honora's library. This was in blue and gold, +and she had so far modified the design of the decorator as to replace the +mirrors of the cases with glass; she liked to see her books. Beyond the +library was a dining room in grey, with dark red hangings; it overlooked +the forgotten garden of the hotel. + +One item alone of news from the outer world, vital to her, had drifted +to her retreat. Newspapers filled her with dread, but it was from a +newspaper, during the first year of her retirement, that she had learned +of the death of Howard Spence. A complication of maladies was mentioned, +but the true underlying cause was implied in the article, and this had +shocked but not surprised her. A ferment was in progress in her own +country, the affairs of the Orange Trust Company being investigated, and +its president under indictment at the hour of his demise. Her feelings +at the time, and for months after, were complex. She had been moved to +deep pity, for in spite of what he had told her of his business +transactions, it was impossible for her to think of him as a criminal. +That he had been the tool of others, she knew, but it remained a question +in her mind how clearly he had perceived the immorality of his course, +and of theirs. He had not been given to casuistry, and he had been +brought up in a school the motto of which he had once succinctly stated: +the survival of the fittest. He had not been, alas, one of those to +survive. + +Honora had found it impossible to unravel the tangled skein of their +relationship, and to assign a definite amount of blame to each. She did +not shirk hers, and was willing to accept a full measure. That she had +done wrong in marrying him, and again in leaving him to marry another +man, she acknowledged freely. Wrong as she knew this to have been, +severely though she had been punished for it, she could not bring herself +to an adequate penitence. She tried to remember him as he had been at +Silverdale, and in the first months of their marriage, and not as he had +afterwards become. There was no question in her mind, now that it was +given her to see things more clearly, that she might have tried harder, +much harder, to make their marriage a success. He might, indeed, have +done more to protect and cherish her. It was a man's part to guard a +woman against the evils with which she had been surrounded. On the other +hand, she could not escape the fact, nor did she attempt to escape it, +that she had had the more light of the two: and that, though the task +were formidable, she might have fought to retain that light and infuse +him with it. + +That she did not hold herself guiltless is the important point. Many of +her hours were spent in retrospection. She was, in a sense, as one dead, +yet retaining her faculties; and these became infinitely keen now that +she was deprived of the power to use them as guides through life. She +felt that the power had come too late, like a legacy when one is old. +And she contemplated the Honora of other days--of the flesh, as though +she were now the spirit departed from that body; sorrowfully, poignantly +regretful of the earthly motives, of the tarnished ideals by which it had +been animated and led to destruction. + +Even Hugh Chiltern had left her no illusions. She thought of him at +tunes with much tenderness; whether she still loved him or not she could +not say. She came to the conclusion that all capacity for intense +feeling had been burned out of her. And she found that she could permit +her mind to rest upon no period of her sojourn at Grenoble without a +sense of horror; there had been no hour when she had seemed secure from +haunting terror, no day that had not added its mite to the gathering +evidence of an ultimate retribution. And it was like a nightmare to +summon again this spectacle of the man going to pieces under her eyes. +The whole incident in her life as time wore on assumed an aspect bizarre, +incredible, as the follies of a night of madness appear in the saner +light of morning. Her great love had bereft her of her senses, for had +the least grain of sanity remained to her she might have known that the +thing they attempted was impossible of accomplishment. + +Her feeling now, after four years, might be described as relief. To +employ again the figure of the castaway, she often wondered why she of +all others had been rescued from the tortures of slow drowning and thrown +up on an island. What had she done above the others to deserve +preservation? It was inevitable that she should on occasions picture to +herself the years with him that would have stretched ahead, even as the +vision of them had come to her that morning when, in obedience to his +telegram, she had told Starling to prepare for guests. Her escape had +indeed been miraculous! + +Although they had passed through a ceremony, the conviction had never +taken root in her that she had been married to Chiltern. The tie that +had united her to him had not been sacred, though it had been no less +binding; more so, in fact. That tie would have become a shackle. Her +perception of this, after his death, had led her to instruct her attorney +to send back to his relatives all but a small income from his estate, +enough for her to live on during her lifetime. There had been some +trouble about this matter; Mrs. Grainger, in particular, had surprised +her in making objections, and had finally written a letter which Honora +received with a feeling akin to gratitude. Whether her own action had +softened this lady's feelings, she never understood; she had cherished +the letter for its unexpectedly charitable expressions. Chiltern's +family had at last agreed to accept the estate on the condition that the +income mentioned should be tripled. And to this Honora had consented. +Money had less value than ever in her eyes. + +She lived here in Paris in what may be called a certain peace, made no +demands upon the world, and had no expectations from it. She was now in +half mourning, and intended to remain so. Her isolation was of her own +choice, if a stronger expression be not used. She was by no means an +enforced outcast. And she was even aware that a certain sympathy for her +had grown up amongst her former friends which had spread to the colony of +her compatriots in Paris; in whose numbers there were some, by no means +unrecognized, who had defied the conventions more than she. Hugh +Chiltern's reputation, and the general knowledge of his career, had no +doubt aided to increase this sympathy, but the dignity of her conduct +since his death was at the foundation of it. Sometimes, on her walks +and drives, she saw people bowing to her, and recognized friends or +acquaintances of what seemed to her like a former existence. + +Such had been her life in Paris until a certain day in early September, +a month before this chapter opens. It was afternoon, and she was sitting +in the balcony cutting a volume of memoirs when she heard the rattle of a +cab on the cobbles below, and peered curiously over the edge of the +railing. Although still half a block away, the national characteristics +of the passenger were sufficiently apparent. He was an American--of that +she was sure. And many Americans did not stray into that quarter. The +length of his legs, for one thing, betrayed him: he found the seat of the +fiacre too low, and had crossed one knee over the other. Other and less +easily definable attributes he did not lack. And as he leaned against +the faded blue cushions regarding with interest the buildings he passed, +he seemed, like an ambassador, to convert the cab in which he rode into +United States territory. Then she saw that it was Peter Erwin. + +She drew back her head from the balcony rail, and tried to sit still and +to think, but she was trembling as one stricken with a chill. The cab +stopped; and presently, after an interval, his card was handed her. She +rose, and stood for a moment with her hand against the wall before she +went into the salon. None of the questions she had asked herself were +answered. Was she glad to see him? and what would be his attitude +towards her? When she beheld him standing before her she had strength +only to pronounce his name. + +He came forward quickly and took her hand and looked down into her face. +She regarded him tremulously, instinctively guessing the vital importance +of this moment for him; and she knew then that he had been looking +forward to it in mingled hope and dread, as one who gazes seaward after +a night of tempest for the ship he has seen at dusk in the offing. What +had the tempest done to her? Such was his question. And her heart +leaped as she saw the light growing in his eyes, for it meant much to her +that he should see that she was not utterly dismantled. She fell; his +own hand tremble as he relinquished hers. He was greatly moved; his +voice, too, betrayed it. + +"You see I have found you," he said. + +"Yes," she answered; "--why did you come?" + +"Why have I always come to you, when it was possible?" he asked. + +"No one ever had such a friend, Peter. Of that I am sure:' + +"I wanted to see Paris," he said, "before I grew too decrepit to enjoy +it." + +She smiled, and turned away. + +"Have you seen much of it?" + +"Enough to wish to see more." + +"When did you arrive?" + +"Some time in the night," he said, "from Cherbourg. And I'm staying at a +very grand hotel, which might be anywhere. A man I crossed with on the +steamer took me there. I think I'd move to one of the quieter ones, the +French ones, if I were a little surer of my pronunciation and the +subjunctive mood." + +"You don't mean to say you've been studying French!" + +He coloured a little, and laughed. + +"You think it ridiculous at my time of life? I suppose you're right. +You should have seen me trying to understand the cabmen. The way these +people talk reminds me more of a Gatling gun than anything I can think +of. It certainly isn't human." + +"Perhaps you have come over as ambassador," she suggested. "When I saw +you in the cab, even before I recognized you, I thought of a bit of our +soil broken off and drifted over here." + +Her voice did not quite sustain the lighter note--the emotion his visit +was causing her was too great. He brought with him into her retreat not +so much a flood of memories as of sensations. He was a man whose image +time with difficulty obliterates, whose presence was a shining thing: so +she had grown to value it in proportion as she had had less of it. She +did inevitably recall the last time she had seen him, in the little +Western city, and how he had overwhelmed her, invaded her with doubts and +aroused the spirit which had possessed her to fight fiercely for its +foothold. And to-day his coming might be likened to the entrance of a +great physician into the room of a distant and lonely patient whom amidst +wide ministrations he has not forgotten. She saw now that he had been +right. She had always seen it, clearly indeed when he had been beside +her, but the spirit within her had been too strong, until now. Now, when +it had plundered her soul of treasures--once so little valued--it had +fled. Such were her thoughts. + +The great of heart undoubtedly possess this highest quality of the +physician,--if the statement may thus be put backhandedly,--and Peter +Erwin instinctively understood the essential of what was going on within +her. He appeared to take a delight in the fancy she had suggested; that +he had brought a portion of the newer world to France. + +"Not a piece of the Atlantic coast, certainly," he replied. "One of the +muddy islands, perhaps, of the Mississippi." + +"All the more representative," she said. "You seem to have taken +possession of Paris, Peter--not Paris of you. You have annexed the seat +of the Capets, and brought democracy at last into the Faubourg." + +"Without a Reign of Terror," he added quizzically. + +"If you are not ambassador, what are you?" she asked. "I have expected +at any moment to read in the Figaro that you were President of the United +States." + +"I am the American tourist," he declared, "with Baedeker for my Bible, +who desires to be shown everything. And I have already discovered that +the legend of the fabulous wealth of the Indies is still in force here. +There are many who are willing to believe that in spite of my modest +appearance--maybe because of it--I have sailed over in a galleon +filled with gold. Already I have been approached from every side by +confidential gentlemen who announced that they spoke English--one of them +said 'American'--who have offered to show me many things, and who have +betrayed enough interest in me to inquire whether I were married or +single." + +Honora laughed. They were seated in the balcony by this time, and he had +the volume of memoirs on his knee, fingering it idly. + +"What did you say to them?" she asked. + +"I told them I was the proud father of ten children," he replied. "That +seemed to stagger them, but only for a moment. They offered to take us +all to the Louvre." + +"Peter, you are ridiculous! But, in spite of your nationality, you don't +look exactly gullible." + +"That is a relief," he said. "I had begun to think I ought to leave my +address and my watch with the Consul General . . . ." + +Of such a nature was the first insidious rupture of that routine she had +grown to look upon as changeless for the years to come, of the life she +had chosen for its very immutable quality. Even its pangs of loneliness +had acquired a certain sweet taste. Partly from a fear of a world that +had hurt her, partly from fear of herself, she had made her burrow deep, +that heat and cold, the changing seasons, and love and hate might be +things far removed. She had sought to remove comparisons, too, from the +limits of her vision; to cherish and keep alive, indeed, such regrets as +she had, but to make no new ones. + +Often had she thought of Peter Erwin, and it is not too much to say that +he had insensibly grown into an ideal. He had come to represent to her +the great thing she had missed in life, missed by feverish searching in +the wrong places, digging for gold where the ground had glittered. And, +if the choice had been given her, she would have preferred his spiritual +to his bodily companionship--for a while, at least. Some day, when she +should feel sure that desire had ceased to throb, when she should have +acquired an unshakable and absolute resignation, she would see him. It +is not too much to say, if her feeling be not misconstrued and stretched +far beyond her own conception of it, that he was her one remaining +interest in the world. She had scanned the letters of her aunt and uncle +for knowledge of his doings, and had felt her curiosity justified by a +certain proprietorship that she did not define, faith in humankind, or +the lack of it, usually makes itself felt through one's comparative +contemporaries. That her uncle was a good man, for instance, had no such +effect upon Honora, as the fact that Peter was a good man. And that he +had held a true course had gradually become a very vital thing to her, +perhaps the most vital thing; and she could have imagined no greater +personal calamity now than to have seen him inconsistent. For there are +such men, and most people have known them. They are the men who, +unconsciously, keep life sweet. + +Yet she was sorry he had invaded her hiding-place. She had not yet +achieved peace, and much of the weary task would have to be done over +after he was gone. + +In the meantime she drifted with astounding ease into another existence. +For it was she, and not the confidential gentlemen, who showed Peter +Paris: not the careless, pleasure-loving Paris of the restaurants, but of +the Cluny and the Carnavalet. The Louvre even was not neglected, and as +they entered it first she recalled with still unaccustomed laughter his +reply to the proffered services of the guide. Indeed, there was much +laughter in their excursions: his native humour sprang from the same well +that held his seriousness. She was amazed at his ability to strip a sham +and leave it grotesquely naked; shams the risible aspect of which she had +never observed in spite of the familiarity four years had given her. +Some of his own countrymen and countrywomen afforded him the +greatest amusement in their efforts to carry off acquired European +"personalities," combinations of assumed indifference and effrontery, and +an accent the like of which was never heard before. But he was neither +bitter nor crude in his criticisms. He made her laugh, but he never made +her ashamed. His chief faculty seemed to be to give her the power to +behold, with astonishing clearness, objects and truths which had lain +before her eyes, and yet hidden. And she had not thought to acquire any +more truths. + +The depth of his pleasure in the things he saw was likewise a revelation +to her. She was by no means a bad guide to the Louvre and the +Luxembourg, but the light in her which had come slowly flooded him with +radiance at the sight of a statue or a picture. He would stop with an +exclamation and stand gazing, self-forgetful, for incredible periods, and +she would watch him, filled with a curious sense of the limitations of an +appreciation she had thought complete. Where during his busy life had +he got this thing which others had sought in many voyages in vain? + +Other excursions they made, and sometimes these absorbed a day. It was a +wonderful month, that Parisian September, which Honora, when she allowed +herself to think, felt that she had no right to. A month filled to the +brim with colour: the stone facades of the houses, which in certain +lights were what the French so aptly call bleuatre; the dense green +foliage of the horse-chestnut trees, the fantastic iron grills, the Arc +de Triomphe in the centre of its circle at sunset, the wide shaded +avenues radiating from it, the bewildering Champs Elysees, the blue +waters of the Seine and the graceful bridges spanning it, Notre Dame +against the sky. Their walks took them, too, into quainter, forgotten +regions where history was grim and half-effaced, and they speculated on +the France of other days. + +They went farther afield; and it was given them to walk together down +green vistas cut for kings, to linger on terraces with the river far +below them, and the roofs of Paris in the hazy distance; that Paris, +sullen so long, the mutterings of which the kings who had sat there must +have heard with dread; that Paris which had finally risen in its wrath +and taken the pleasure-houses and the parks for itself. + +Once they went out to Chantilly, the cameo-like chateau that stands +mirrored in its waters, and wandered through the alleys there. Honora +had left her parasol on the parapet, and as they returned Peter went to +get it, while she awaited him at a little distance. A group was chatting +gayly on the lawn, and one of them, a middle-aged, well-dressed man +hailed him with an air of fellowship, and Peter stopped for a moment's +talk. + +"We were speaking of ambassadors the other day," he said when he joined +her; "that was our own, Minturn." + +"We were speaking of them nearly a month ago," she said. + +"A month ago! I can't believe it!" he exclaimed. + +"What did he say to you?" Honora inquired presently. + +"He was abusing me for not letting him know I was in Paris." + +"Peter, you ought to have let him know!" + +"I didn't come over here to see the ambassador," answered Peter, gayly. + +She talked less than usual on their drive homeward, but he did not seem +to notice the fact. Dusk was already lurking in the courtyards and +byways of the quiet quarter when the porter let them in, and the stone +stairway of the old hotel was almost in darkness. The sitting-room, with +its yellow, hangings snugly drawn and its pervading but soft light, was a +grateful change. And while she was gone to--remove her veil and hat, +Peter looked around it. + +It was redolent of her. A high vase of remarkable beauty, filled with +white roses, stood on the gueridon. He went forward and touched it, and +closed his eyes as though in pain. When he opened them he saw her +standing in the archway. + +She had taken off her coat, and was in a simple white muslin gown, with a +black belt--a costume that had become habitual. Her age was thirty. The +tragedy and the gravity of her life during these later years had touched +her with something that before was lacking. In the street, in the +galleries, people had turned to look at her; not with impudent stares. +She caught attention, aroused imagination. Once, the year before, she +had had a strange experience with a well-known painter, who, in an +impulsive note, had admitted following her home and bribing the +concierge. He craved a few sittings. Her expression now, as she +looked at Peter, was graver than usual. + +"You must not come to-morrow," she said. + +"I thought we were going to Versailles again," he replied in surprise. +"I have made the arrangements." + +"I have changed my mind. I'm not going." + +"You want to postpone it?" he asked. + +She took a chair beside the little blaze in the fireplace. + +"Sit down, Peter. I wish to say something to you. I have been wishing +to do so for some time." + +"Do you object if I stand a moment?" he said. "I feel so much more +comfortable standing, especially when I am going to be scolded." + +"Yes," she admitted, "I am going to scold you. Your conscience has +warned you." + +"On the contrary," he declared, "it has never been quieter. If I have +offended; it is through ignorance." + +"It is through charity, as usual," she said m a low voice. "If your +conscience be quiet, mine is not. It is in myself that I am +disappointed--I have been very selfish. I have usurped you. I have +known it all along, and I have done very wrong in not relinquishing you +before." + +"Who would have shown me Paris?" he exclaimed. + +"No," she continued, "you would not have been alone. If I had needed +proof of that fact, I had it to-day--" + +"Oh, Minturn," he interrupted; "think of me hanging about an Embassy and +trying not to spill tea!" And he smiled at the image that presented. + +Her own smile was fleeting. + +"You would never do that, I know," she said gravely. + +"You are still too modest, Peter, but the time has gone by when I can be +easily deceived. You have a great reputation among men of affairs, an +unique one. In spite of the fact that you are distinctly American, you +have a wide interest in what is going on in the world. And you have an +opportunity here to meet people of note, people really worth while from +every point of view. You have no right to neglect it." + +He was silent a moment, looking down at her. She was leaning forward, +her eyes fixed on the fire, her hands clasped between her knees. + +"Do you think I care for that?" he asked. + +"You ought to care," she said, without looking up. "And it is my duty to +try to make you care." + +"Honora, why do you think I came over here?" he said. + +"To see Paris," she answered. "I have your own word for it. +To--to continue your education. It never seems to stop." + +"Did you really believe that?" + +"Of course I believed it. What could be more natural? And you have +never had a holiday like this." + +"No," he agreed. "I admit that." + +"I don't know how much longer you are going to stay," she said. "You +have not been abroad before, and there are other places you ought to go." + +"I'll get you to make out an itinerary." + +"Peter, can't you see that I'm serious? I have decided to take matters +in my own hands. The rest of the time you are here, you may come to see +me twice a week. I shall instruct the concierge." + +He turned and grasped the mantel shelf with both hands, and touched the +log with the toe of his boot. + +"What I told you about seeing Paris may be called polite fiction," he +said. "I came over here to see you. I have been afraid to say it until +to-day, and I am afraid to say it now." + +She sat very still. The log flared up again, and he turned slowly and +looked at the shadows in her face. + +"You-you have always been good to me," she answered. "I have never +deserved it--I have never understood it. If it is any satisfaction for +you to know that what I have saved of myself I owe to you, I tell you so +freely." + +"That," he said, "is something for which God forbid that I should take +credit. What you are is due to the development of a germ within you, a +development in which I have always had faith. I came here to see you, I +came here because I love you, because I have always loved you, Honora." + +"Oh, no, not that!" she cried; "not that!" + +"Why not?" he asked. "It is something I cannot help, something beyond +my power to prevent if I would. But I would not. I am proud of it, and +I should be lost without it. I have had it always. I have come over to +beg you to marry me." + +"It's impossible! Can't you see it's impossible?" + +"You don't love me?" he said. Into those few words was thrown all the +suffering of his silent years. + +"I don't know what I feel for you," she answered in an agonized voice, +her fingers tightening over the backs of her white hands. "If reverence +be love--if trust be love, infinite and absolute trust--if gratitude be +love--if emptiness after you are gone be a sign of it--yes, I love you. +If the power to see clearly only through you, to interpret myself only by +your aid be love, I acknowledge it. I tell you so freely, as of your +right to know. And the germ of which you spoke is you. You have grown +until you have taken possession of--of what is left of me. If I had only +been able to see clearly from the first, Peter, I should be another woman +to-day, a whole woman, a wise woman. Oh, I have thought of it much. The +secret of life was there at my side from the time I was able to pronounce +your name, and I couldn't see it. You had it. You stayed. You took +duty where you found it, and it has made you great. Oh, I don't mean to +speak in a worldly sense. When I say that, it is to express the highest +human quality of which I can think and feel. But I can't marry you. You +must see it." + +"I cannot see it," he replied, when he had somewhat gained control of +himself. + +"Because I should be wronging you." + +"How?" he asked. + +"In the first place, I should be ruining your career." + +"If I had a career," he said, smiling gently, "you couldn't ruin it. +You both overestimate and underestimate the world's opinion, Honora. +As my wife, it will not treat you cruelly. And as for my career, as you +call it, it has merely consisted in doing as best I could the work that +has come to me. I have tried to serve well those who have employed me, +and if my services be of value to them, and to those who may need me in +the future, they are not going to reject me. If I have any worth in the +world, you will but add to it. Without you I am incomplete." + +She looked up at him wonderingly. + +"Yes, you are great," she said. "You pity me, you think of my loneliness." + +"It is true I cannot bear to picture you here," he exclaimed. "The +thought tortures me, but it is because I love you, because I wish to take +and shield you. I am not a man to marry a woman without love. It seems +to me that you should know me well enough to believe that, Honora. There +never has been any other woman in my life, and there never can be. I +have given you proof of it, God knows." + +"I am not what I was," she said, "I am not what I was. I have been +dragged down." + +He bent and lifted her hand from her knee, and raised it to his lips, a +homage from him that gave her an exquisite pain. + +"If you had been dragged down," he answered simply, "my love would have +been killed. I know something of the horrors you have been through, as +though I had suffered them myself. They might have dragged down another +woman, Honora. But they have strangely ennobled you." + +She drew her hand away. + +"No," she said, "I do not deserve happiness. It cannot be my destiny." + +"Destiny," he repeated. "Destiny is a thing not understandable by finite +minds. It is not necessarily continued tragedy and waste, of that I am +certain. Only a little thought is required, it seems to me, to assure us +that we cannot be the judges of our own punishment on this earth. And of +another world we know nothing. It cannot be any one's destiny to throw +away a life while still something may be made of it. You would be +throwing your life away here. That no other woman is possible, or +ever can be possible, for me should be a consideration with you, Honora. +What I ask of you is a sacrifice--will you make me happy?" + +Her eyes filled with tears. + +"Oh, Peter, do you care so much as that? If--if I could be sure that I +were doing it for you! If in spite--of all that has happened to me, I +could be doing something for you--!" + +He stooped and kissed her. + +"You can if you will," he said. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Sought to remove comparisons, too + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK MODERN CHRONICLE, V8, BY CHURCHILL *** + +*********** This file should be named wc44w10.txt or wc44w10.zip ************ + +Corrected EDITIONS of our eBooks get a new NUMBER, wc44w11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, wc44w10a.txt + +This eBook was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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