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-PATIENCE SPARHAWK AND HER TIMES
-
-A Novel
-
-by
-
-GERTRUDE ATHERTON
-
-Author of “A Whirl Asunder,” “The Doomswoman,”
-“Before the Gringo Came,” etc.
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-John Lane: The Bodley Head
-London and New York
-1897
-
-Copyright, 1895,
-By Gertrude Atherton.
-
-Copyright, 1897,
-By John Lane.
-
-All rights reserved.
-
-University Press:
-John Wilson and Son, Cambridge, U.S.A.
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-
- Book I
- Book II
- Book III
- Book IV
- Book V
-
-
-
-
- TO
- M. PAUL BOURGET,
-
-Who alone, of all foreigners, has detected, in its full significance,
-that the motive power, the cohering force, the ultimate religion of that
-strange composite known as “The American,” is Individual Will. Leaving
-the ultra-religious element out of the question, the high, the low, the
-rich, the poor, the man, the woman of this section of the Western world,
-each, consciously or unconsciously, believes in, relies on himself
-primarily. In the higher civilisation this amounts to intellectual
-anarchy, and its tendency is to make Americans, or, more exactly, United
-Statesians, a New Race in a sense far more portentous than in any which
-has yet been recognised. As M. Bourget prophesies, destruction, chaos,
-may eventuate. On the other hand, the final result may be a race of
-harder fibre and larger faculties than any in the history of
-civilisation. That this extraordinary self-dependence and independence
-of certain traditions that govern older nations make the quintessential
-part of the women as of the men of this race I have endeavoured to
-illustrate in the following pages.
-
- G. A.
-
-
-
-
- Patience Sparhawk and Her Times
-
-
-
-
- BOOK I
-
-
- I
-
-“Oh, git up! Git up! Did you ever see such an old slug? Billy! _Will_
-you git up?”
-
-“What’s the use of talking to him?” drawled a soft, inactive voice. “You
-know he never goes one bit faster. What’s the difference anyhow?”
-
-“Difference is my mother wants these groceries for supper. We’re all out
-of sugar ’n flour ’n beans, and the men’s got to eat.”
-
-“Well, as long as he won’t go, just be comfortable and don’t bother.”
-
-“I wish I could be as easy-going as you are, Rosita, but I can’t: I
-suppose it’s because I’m not Spanish. Guess I’ve got some Yankee in me,
-if I am a Californian.” The little girl leaned over the dash-board of
-the rickety buggy, thumping with her whip-stump the back of the aged
-nag. Billy was blind, uncertain in the knees, and as languid as any
-_caballero_ that once had sighed at _doña’s_ feet in these dim pine
-woods. As far back as Patience could remember he had never broken his
-record, and his record was two miles an hour. In a few moments she set
-the whip in the socket with an irritable thump, wound the reins about
-it, and sat down on the floor beside her companion. For some reason best
-known to themselves, the girls preferred this method of disposition when
-Billy led the way,—perhaps because he had an errant fondness for the
-roughest spots of the rough road, making the high seat as uneasy and
-precarious as thrones are still; perhaps because Patience rebelled at
-habit, and in all her divagations was blindly followed by her Spanish
-friend.
-
-Billy ambled up and down the steep roads of the fragrant pine woods on
-the hills behind Monterey, and the girls gave him no further heed.
-Patience’s long plait having been shaken loose in her wild lurches over
-the dash-board, she swung about, dangled her legs out of the buggy, and
-commanded Rosita to braid her hair. The legs she kicked recklessly
-against the wheel were not pretty. They were long and thin, clothed with
-woollen stockings darned and wrinkled, and angled off with copper-toed
-boots. She wore a frock of faded gingham, and chewed the strings of a
-sunbonnet.
-
-“Don’t pull so, and do hurry,” she exclaimed as the Spanish girl’s deft
-slow fingers moved in and out of the scanty wisps.
-
-“I’m not pulling, Patita, dear, and you know I can’t hurry. And I’m just
-thinking that your hair is the colour of ashes.”
-
-“I know it,” said Patience, gloomily, “but maybe it’ll be yellow when I
-grow up. Do you remember Polly Collins? When she graduated she had hair
-the colour of a wharf rat, and when she came back from San Francisco the
-next year it was as yellow as the hills in summer.”
-
-“I don’t care for yellow hair,” and Rosita moved her dark head with the
-slow rotary motion which was hers by divine right.
-
-“Oh, you’re pretty,” said Patience, sarcastically. “You want to be told
-so, I suppose—There! you pulled my hair on purpose, you know you did,
-Rosita Thrailkill.”
-
-“I didn’t, Patita. Don’t fire up so.” And Rosita, who was the most
-amiable of children, tied the end of the braid with a piece of tape,
-rubbed her blooming cheek against the pale one, and was forgiven.
-
-Patience drew herself into the buggy and braced her back against the
-seat. Her face had little more beauty than her legs. It was colourless
-and freckled. The mouth was firm, almost dogged, as if the contest with
-life had already begun. Her brows and lashes were several shades darker
-than her hair, but her eyes, wide apart and very bright, were a light,
-rather cold grey. The nose alone was a beautiful feature, straight and
-fine; and the hands, although rough and sunburned, were tapering and
-slender, and very flexible.
-
-In her red frock, the highly-coloured little Spanish girl glowed like a
-cactus blossom beside a neglected weed. Her plump face was full of
-blood; her large dark eyes were indolent and soft. Patience’s eyes
-comprehended everything within their radius in one flashing glance;
-Rosita’s, even at the tender age of fifteen, looked unswerving
-disapproval of all exertion, mental or physical.
-
-“I wonder if your mother is drunk?” she asked in her slow delicious
-voice.
-
-“Likely,” said Patience, with frowning resignation. “But let’s talk of
-something more agreeable. Isn’t this perfume heavenly?”
-
-The dark solemn woods were ravishing with the perfumes of spring, the
-perfume of wild violet and lilac and lily, and the faint sweet odour the
-damp earth gives up as the sun goes down. From above came the strong
-bracing scent of the pines. Now and again the wind brought a salt whiff
-from the ocean. No birds carolled, but the pines sang their eternal
-dirge.
-
-“What’s your ideal?” demanded Patience.
-
-“Ideal? What ideal?”
-
-“Why, of man, of course.”
-
-“Oh, man!” contemptuously. “I haven’t thought much about men. I don’t
-read novels like you do. I wish somebody would die and leave me a
-thousand dollars so I could live in San Francisco and have a new dress
-every day and go to the theatre every night. Miss Galpin says we mustn’t
-think about boys, and I don’t—perhaps because the boys in Monterey are
-so horrid.”
-
-“Boys? Who said anything about boys?” The chrysalis elevated her
-patrician nose. “I mean men.”
-
-“Well, you’re mean to turn up your nose at boys. They like you a good
-deal better than they do me, and a good many of the other girls.”
-
-“That’s funny, isn’t it? and I not pretty. But I suppose it’s because I
-talk. You just sit still and look pretty, and that’s not very
-entertaining. I read in a novel that men like that; but boys have got to
-be entertained. Goodness gracious! Don’t I know it? When I was at
-Manuela’s party the other night in my old washed muslin frock and plaid
-sash, didn’t I talk my throat sore to make them forget that I was the
-worst dressed girl in the room and had the most freckles? Of course the
-girls didn’t forget—nor some other things—” with a bitter lowering of
-the lids—“but the boys did. Somehow I feel as if men would always be my
-friends, if I’m not pretty.”
-
-“What do you know about men, anyhow? You’re only fifteen, and you’ve
-never met any but old Mr. Foord, and the farm hands and store keepers,
-who,” aristocratically, “don’t count.”
-
-“Haven’t I read novels? Haven’t I read Thackeray and Dickens and Scott
-and ‘Jane Eyre’ and ‘Wuthering Heights’ and Shakespeare and Plutarch’s
-Lives, and the life of Napoleon and Macaulay’s ‘History of England’ and
-Essays—those all ain’t novels, but they write about men, real men, too.
-I’ve made my ideal out of a lot of them put together, and I’ll never
-marry till I find him.”
-
-“Well, I’d like to know where you’ll find him in Monterey,” said the
-practical Rosita. “Miss Galpin says you’re too romantic, and that it’s a
-pity, because you’re the brightest girl in the school.”
-
-“Did Miss Galpin say that?” Patience took a brass pin out of her frock
-and extracted a splinter from her thumb with a fine air of indifference;
-but the pink flooded her cheek. “She’s always reading Howells and James,
-and says they’d keep anybody from being romantic. But that’s about all
-I’ve got, so I think I’ll hold on to it.”
-
-The sun dropped below the horizon as they jolted out of the woods and
-down the steep road toward Carmel Valley. They reached a ledge, and
-Patience, forgetful of hungry men and an irascible parent, called:
-“Whoa!” to which Billy responded with an alacrity reserved for such
-occasions only.
-
-“I never get tired of this,” she said. “Do you?”
-
-“It’s pretty,” said Rosita, indifferently. “Why are you so fond of
-scenery—nature, as Miss Galpin calls it—I wonder?”
-
-“I don’t know,” said Patience, and at that age she did not. She was
-responsive but dumb. She gazed down and out and upward with a pleasure
-that never grew old. A great bleak mountain loomed on the other side of
-the valley. It was as steep as if the ocean had gnawed it flat, but only
-the peaceful valley lay under; out in the ocean it tapered to an immense
-irregular mass of rock over which the breakers leapt and fought. Carmel
-River sparkled peacefully beneath its moving willows. The blue bay
-murmured to the white sands with the peace of evening. Close to the
-little beach the old Mission hung its dilapidated head. Through its
-yawning arches dark objects flitted; mould was on the yellow walls; from
-yawning crevice the rank grass grew. Only the tower still defied
-elements and vandals, although the wind whistled through its gaping
-windows and the silver bells were no more. The huts about the church had
-collapsed like old muscles, but in their ruin still whispered the story
-of the past.
-
-“Isn’t it splendid to think that we have a ruin!” exclaimed Patience.
-
-“It’s a ruin sure enough; but there’s uncle Jim. He must think we’re
-dead.”
-
-A prolonged “Halloa!” came from the valley, and Patience, with a sigh,
-bade Billy “Git up,” which he did in the course of a moment.
-
-“Halloa, you youngsters, why don’t you hurry?” cried a nasal voice.
-“I’ve been waiting here an hour.”
-
-“Coming,” said Patience. “It’s too bad he had to wait.”
-
-“Oh, he smoked and swore, so he’s all right,” said Rosita, who had not
-taken the trouble to reply. None of the girls was allowed to visit
-Patience at her house; but Mrs. Thrailkill, who was fond of her
-daughter’s chosen friend, and pitiful in her indolent way, often allowed
-Patience to drive Rosita as far as the branching of the roads, where the
-Kentucky uncle met his niece and took her to his farm.
-
-In the dusk below a wagon and two horses could be seen, and a big man
-under a wide straw hat, sitting on the upper rail of a fence, his heels
-hooked to the rail below. Patience inferred that he was chewing tobacco
-and expectorating upon the poppies.
-
-“Well, I reckon!” he exclaimed as the buggy reached the foot of the
-hill. “You two do beat all. Do you s’pose I’ve got nothing better to do
-than moon round pikes waiting on kids like you? How’s your ma, Rosita?
-Well, Patience, I won’t keep you—much obliged for giving my lazy
-Spanish niece a lift. Come on now; supper’s ready ’n after.”
-
-The two little girls kissed each other affectionately. Mr. Thrailkill
-lifted Rosita down, and Patience turned Billy in the direction of a
-fiery eye and a dim column of smoke under the mountain. The evening
-seemed very quiet after the rattle of Mr. Thrailkill’s team had become a
-part of the distance. Only the roar of the surf, the moaning of the
-pines, the harsh music of the frogs, the thousand vocal mysteries of
-night—not a sound of man. Patience, after her fashion, rehabilitated
-the Mission and peopled the valley with padres and Indians; but when
-Billy came to a sudden halt, she sprang prosaically to the ground and
-let down the bars of her mother’s ranch. After she had replaced them she
-took hold of Billy’s bridle, and endeavoured, by jerks and
-expostulation, to induce him to move more rapidly. The road now lay
-through a ploughed field stretching gloomily on the east to the horizon,
-where the stars seemed dropping into the dark. Cows roamed at will, or
-lay heavily in their first sleep. Here and there an oak thrust out its
-twisted arms, its trunk bent backward by ocean winds. The house soon
-became plainly outlined, a long unpainted wooden story-and-a-half
-structure, the type of ranch house of the second era. Castilian roses
-clambered up the unpainted front. Clumps of gladiolus, pinks, and
-fuschias struggled with weeds in the front garden. Beyond was a number
-of out-buildings.
-
-When Patience reached the porch she dropped Billy’s bridle, lifted out
-the sugar, and stepping to the kitchen window, looked through it for a
-moment before opening the door. Her mother was very drunk.
-
-
- II
-
-The room into which Patience frowned was a large rough kitchen of the
-old familiar type. The rafters were festooned with cobwebs, through
-which tin cans and aged pails were visible, and an occasional bundle of
-rags. The board walls were unplastered and unpainted. Out of the uneven
-floor, knots had dropped to the cellar below. The door of a cupboard,
-built against the wall with primitive simplicity, stood open, revealing
-a motley collection of cans, bottles, and cracked dishes. Pots and pans
-were heaped on a shelf traversing two sides of the room. A table was
-loaded with odds and ends, in the midst of which place had been made for
-a lamp.
-
-Over a large stove a woman was frying bacon and eggs. She wore a brown
-calico garment, torn and smudged. Her fine black hair, sprinkled with
-ashes, hung raggedly above magnificent dark eyes, blinking in a crimson
-face. The thin nostrils and full mouth were twitching. In her ruin she
-was still a beautiful woman, and she moved her tall bloated form with
-the pride of race, despite the alcohol in her veins.
-
-On a broken chair by the stove sat a young man in the overalls and
-flannel shirt of a farm hand. His hair was clipped to his skull with
-colourless result; his large red under lip curved down into a yellow
-beard. In a long low room adjoining the kitchen a half dozen other men
-were seated on benches about a table covered with white oilcloth and
-chipped crockery. They also wore overalls and flannel shirts; and they
-were bearded and seamed and brown. The Californian sun soon burns the
-juices out of the flesh that defies it.
-
-Patience flung open the kitchen door and threw the sugar on the table.
-
-“Oscar,” she said peremptorily to the man by the stove, “take Billy
-round to the barn and put him up, and bring in the flour and the beans.
-They’re under the seat.” The man went out, muttering angrily, and she
-turned to her mother, who had begun a tirade of abuse. “Keep quiet,” she
-said. “So you’re drunk again? I thought you promised me that you
-wouldn’t drink again for a week. Where did you get it?”
-
-“Couldn’t help it,” muttered the woman, cowed by the bitter contempt in
-her small daughter’s eyes, and thrusting a long fork into the sputtering
-fat.
-
-“Where did you get it?”
-
-“Couldn’t help it.”
-
-Patience opened the package of sugar with a jerk, and filling two bowls
-with the coarse brown stuff carried them into the next room and set them
-at opposite ends of the table. The men ceased talking as she entered,
-and saluted her respectfully. They felt vaguely sorry for her; but they
-were afraid of her, and she was not a favourite with them. Her mother,
-“Madge,” as they called her to a man, they worshipped, despite or
-because of her peccability. They went down before her deathless
-magnetism, her coarse good nature, her spurious kind-heartedness. It was
-only when very drunk that she became violent and vituperative, and even
-then she fascinated them. Patience told herself proudly that she had no
-attraction for “common men”—that she repelled them. Not being a seer,
-she was saved the foreknowledge of a fatal gift in operation.
-
-She took the large coffee-pot from the back of the stove and filled the
-men’s cups with its thick fluid. Her mother’s rolling eyes followed her
-with a malignant sparkle. She was afraid of her daughter, and resentment
-had eaten deep into her perverted nature. Patience filled a plate with
-bread and apple sauce, and went into the parlour to eat her supper in
-solitude. She took all her meals in this room, which with little
-difficulty she appropriated to her exclusive use: it was very small. She
-kept it in fairly good order: she was not the tidiest of children. But
-the old brussels carpet was clean, barring the corners, and the
-horsehair furniture had been mended here and there with shoe thread. As
-it still prickled, however, Patience had made a cushion for the clumsy
-rocker out of an elderly gown which she had found in a trunk in the
-garret with other relics of finery. She occupied the rocker impartially
-whether eating or reading. The marble-topped table also served for
-dining and study.
-
-In a forlorn old bookcase were her only treasures, the few books, mostly
-classics, which John Sparhawk had reserved when a succession of failures
-had forced him to sell his library to Mr. Foord. In one corner was a
-large family Bible on a small table. It was old and worn. Its gilt edges
-shone dimly through a cobweb of infinite pains.
-
-On the papered walls were two large coloured photographs of Mr. and Mrs.
-Sparhawk, taken apparently when each was close on thirty years. The
-woman’s face bore traces of dissipation even then, and the red mouth was
-very sensual. But the cheeks were still delicate and there were no bags
-under the large flaming eyes. The bare neck and arms and half revealed
-bust were superb; the poise of the head, the curve of the short upper
-lip, the fine arched nostril, were the delicate insignia of race; the
-pride stamped on every feature was that of birth, not of defiance. The
-man had a slender upright figure and a finely modelled head and face.
-The deeply set eyes were cold and piercing, but between the stern curves
-of the mouth there was much passion. Patience had studied these faces,
-but she was as innocent as if she had been bred in a cloister, and their
-mystery baffled while it allured her.
-
-She ate her supper with a hearty appetite. Her mother’s lapses, being
-accepted as part of the routine of existence, rarely depressed her
-spirits. Nevertheless she frowned heavily as turbulent sounds pierced
-the thin partition, not so much at her mother’s iniquity, as at the
-prospect of being obliged to wash the supper dishes. The expected crash
-came, and she ran into the kitchen. Her mother lay prone. Two of the men
-lifted her immediately and carried her up the narrow stair. Patience
-sullenly attacked the dishes. She dumped them into a large pan of hot
-water, stirred them gingerly with a cloth fastened to a stick, drained
-the water off, poured in a fresh pailful, and dried them hastily. She
-filled the frying-pan with water and set it on the hottest part of the
-stove to cook itself clean. Occasionally she coughed with angry
-significance: the men in the next room were invisible behind a grey fog
-of their own puffing. She spattered her clean pinafore, blackened her
-hands, and devoutly wished herself alone on a desert island where she
-could live on cocoanuts and bananas. At such times she forgot the few
-compensations of her unfortunate life and felt herself only the
-poverty-stricken drudge, the daughter of Madge Sparhawk.
-
-
- III
-
-Who Madge Sparhawk was before she married the Yankee rancher had at one
-time been an absorbing topic for dispute in Monterey. One gossip averred
-that she had been the dashing leader of the lower ten thousand of San
-Francisco, another that she had come from the Eastern States as the
-mistress of a wealthy man who had wearied and cast her off; a third
-confidently affirmed that she had been a brilliant New York woman of
-fashion who had gone wrong through love of drink, and been sent under an
-assumed name to California by her afflicted family; a fourth swore that
-she had been an actress, a fifth that she had been the high-tempered
-queen of a gambling house. On one point all agreed: she was
-disreputable, and John Sparhawk was a fool to marry her. However, they
-were somewhat disappointed that they saw so little of her. They were not
-called upon to snub nor tolerate her. She rarely came into the town;
-never excepting on horseback with her husband, when her splendid beauty
-drew masculine Monterey from its perch on the fence tops,—where it sat
-and smoked and murmured the hours away,—and gathered it about her,
-stirring the diluted rill of _caballero_ blood.
-
-As far as the little world of Monterey could learn through the gossip of
-servants, she was a helpful wife to a devoted husband who patiently
-strove with the fiend that possessed her. When he was killed by the
-accidental discharge of a gun her grief was so violent that only a
-prolonged carouse could assuage it. Subsequently she recovered, and with
-occasional advice from Mr. Foord attempted to run the farm. As John
-Sparhawk had made no will, she was her child’s legal guardian, the
-absolute mistress for eight years of what property her husband had left.
-There was a little ready money, the dairy was remunerative, and the
-ranch well stocked. But that was five years ago. Her habits had grown
-upon her; the ranch was mortgaged and run down, the stock decreased by
-half.
-
-Patience had rebelled heavily at her father’s death, and wondered, with
-childish logic, why, if one parent had to die, it could not have been
-her mother. Her father’s manner had been cold, repellent, like her own;
-but that his nature was deep and passionate even her young mind had
-never doubted. She felt it in the close clasp of his arms as he held her
-before him on his horse when galloping about the ranch; in his sudden
-infrequent caress; in the strong pressure of his hand as they wandered
-through the woods or along the shore at night, not a word spoken between
-them.
-
-It was not until after his death that she made acquaintance with her
-social separateness. He had begun her education himself. Her only girl
-companion was Rosita Thrailkill, the niece of a neighbour, whom her
-father would not permit her to visit in Monterey. John Sparhawk’s only
-friends were the Thrailkill brothers and Mr. Foord, an elderly
-gentleman, who had lived in Monterey under the old régime, lost his
-fortune in the great Bonanza time, and returned to the somnolent town to
-end his days with his library, the memory of his dead Spanish wife, and
-a few old friends, world-forgotten like himself. He lived in the
-dilapidated Custom House on the rocks at the edge of the town, and
-Patience had ruled his establishment since her baby days. It was the
-only house in Monterey she was permitted to enter, and she entered it as
-often as she could. A hundred times she had sat with the old gentleman
-on the upper corridor and listened to the story of the capture of
-Monterey by the United States fleet in 1846; stared breathlessly at the
-crumbling fort—the _castillo_—on the hill above Junipero Serra’s
-cross, as Mr. Foord verbally restored its former impregnability.
-
-He told her tales of the days of light and life and joy when Monterey
-was the capital of the Californians, and the Americans were not yet
-come,—stories of love and revenge and the great free play of the
-primitive passions, unpared by modern civilisation. For her those old
-adobe houses in the town were alive once more with dark-eyed _doñas_ and
-magnificently attired _caballeros_. Behind the high walls of the old
-gardens fans fluttered among the Castilian roses and dueñas stealthily
-prowled. The twisted streets were gay again with the court life of the
-olden time, the grand parades of the governors, the triumphant returns
-from the race on the restless silver-trapped steeds.
-
-Every house had its history, and Patience knew them all. She wandered
-with Mr. Foord along the dusty streets, lingered before the garden
-walls, over which she could see and smell the nasturtiums and the sweet
-Castilian roses. But gone were the _caballeros_ and the _doñas_. They
-lay in the little cemetery of the _padres_ on the hill, over beyond the
-yellow church which marked a corner of the old _presidio_, and well on
-the road to a great hotel whose typical life was vastly different from
-that old romantic time. They lay under their stones, forgotten. The
-thistles and wild oats rioted under the gnarled old oaks. The new-comer
-never paused to glance at the worn carvings on the thick rough slabs.
-
-Behind the garden walls a few brown old women lived alone, too practical
-to brood upon an enchanted past. Cows nibbled in the _plaza_ where once
-the bull and the bear had fought while the gay jewelled people screamed
-with delight. Gone was the tinkle of the guitar, the flutter of fan, the
-graceful woman hastening down the street half hidden in her mantilla,
-the lovely face behind the grating. The screaming of the sea-gulls, the
-moaning of the pines, the roar of the surf, alone remained the same,
-careless of change or decay. Wooden houses crowded between the old
-adobes. Most of the Spanish families were half American: their women had
-preferred the enterprising intruder to the indolent _caballero_. Arcadia
-was no more. The old had kissed the hand of the new, and spawned a
-hybrid.
-
-After John Sparhawk’s death, Mr. Foord persuaded his widow to send
-Patience to the public school. The little girl was delighted. She had
-looked with envious longing at the stone building, painted a beautiful
-pink, which stood well up on the hill at the right of the town and was
-still known by the imposing name of Colton Hall; it had been built by
-the first American _alcalde_, and was a court house for a brief while.
-
-But it was not long before Patience learned the bitter lesson that she
-was not as other girls, despite the fact that at that time she was well
-dressed and that she drifted naturally to the head of her classes.
-School girls are coarse and cruel. Children are the periodical relapse
-of civilisation into savagery. These girls of Monterey excluded Patience
-from their games and recess conversations, and intimated broadly that
-her mother was not respectable.
-
-At first Patience gave them little heed. She loved study, and was of a
-wild happy nature beneath her prim exterior. Moreover, Rosita was her
-loyal friend; and one of the older girls, Manuela Peralta, who had a
-kind and independent heart, sheltered her as much as she could. But
-Patience was too bright and observing to remain long in ignorance of her
-hostile environment. When the awakening came her young soul was filled
-with rage and bitterness. The full meaning of their innuendoes she was
-too ignorant to understand, but that she was regarded as a pariah was
-sufficiently evident.
-
-Little as she loved her mother, a natural impulse sent her to her only
-remaining parent with the story of her wrongs. Mrs. Sparhawk became
-violently indignant and shortly after very drunk. The subject was never
-mentioned between them again; nor did Patience speak of it with any one
-but Rosita, whom she regarded as a second, beloved, and somewhat
-inferior self. But her soul cried out for the strength that only a man’s
-strong soul can give to woman at any age; and the man that had prayed to
-live and defend her lay with the forgotten Californians on the hill.
-
-Mr. Foord divined her trouble, and did what he could to make her life
-endurable, although her shy reserve forbade any intimacy beyond the old
-friendship. Miss Galpin, her teacher, made no secret of the fact that
-Patience was her favourite scholar, and encouraged her to study and read
-and forget.
-
-Patience indulged in no further outbreak, even to herself. She
-cultivated a cold and impassive exterior, an air of rigid indifference,
-and studied until her small head ached. She was not old enough to
-analyse; it was instinct only that made her assume callousness; but in
-her young vague way she grappled with the social problem. She did not
-approve of Mrs. Sparhawk any more than others did; but Mrs. Sparhawk’s
-daughter behaved herself, and stood at the head of her classes, and had
-been assured again and again that she “looked like a little lady:”
-therefore she was at a loss to comprehend why Patience Sparhawk was not
-as good as other girls. There was Panchita McPherson, who lied profusely
-and whose mother sat in the sun all day and baked herself like an old
-crocodile, while her husband sat on the fence by the Post Office and
-smoked a pipe from the first of January until the thirty-first of
-December. Yet Panchita was of the _haute noblesse_, and treated Patience
-as she would a rag-picker. Francesca Montez never knew a lesson and was
-so vulgar that she brought the blush to Patience’s cheek; but she lived
-in an adobe mansion which once had been the scene of princely splendour,
-and gave two parties a year. The American girls had not even the
-prestige of the past; they could not reckon up a great-grandfather
-between them, much less peeling portraits of _caballeros_ and trunks of
-splendid finery; but they were bright and aggressive, and made
-themselves a power in the school.
-
-As Patience grew older she compelled the respect of her mates, and they
-ceased to annoy her. The consciousness of social supremacy never faded,
-not for an instant; but even tying a tin can to a dog’s tail becomes
-monotonous in time, and they had numberless little interests to absorb
-them. If Patience had been a rollicking emotional child she would
-doubtless have kissed herself into popularity and been treated to much
-good-natured patronage; but she scorned placation, and grew more
-reserved as the years went by. She accepted her fate, and discovered
-that there were times and hours when her mother, schoolmates, and social
-problems could be forgotten. Her spirits were naturally buoyant, and her
-mind grew philosophical; but as Mr. Foord once observed to Miss Galpin,
-“her start in life had been all wrong, and it would matter more with her
-than with some others.”
-
-
- IV
-
-After Patience had put the kitchen in order she went up to her room. She
-slept at one end of the house, her mother at the opposite. Several of
-the hired men occupied a dormitory between; the rest slept over the
-dairy.
-
-She lit her candle and began to undress, then extinguished the flame
-suddenly and went down stairs and out of the house. She felt sullen and
-heavy and depressed, and knew the remedy.
-
-The moon was at the full; the great ploughed fields were a sea of
-silver; the dark pines on the hills opened their aisles to cataracts of
-crystal, splashing through the green uplifted arms. Strange shadows
-moved amidst the showers of cold light, twisting rhythmically under the
-touch of the night wind.
-
-Patience loved nature too passionately to fear her in any mood or hour.
-She sped over the rough field, climbed the fence, and walked hastily
-toward the Mission, pausing now and again to inhale the rich perfumes of
-Spring. The ruin looked like the skeleton of a mammoth caught in a
-phantom iceberg. Even the dark things that haunted it were touched to
-beauty by the silver light pouring through the storm-beaten rose window
-over the massive doors, into the abysms between the arches.
-
-Patience skirted the long body of the church with haste; mouldering
-skeletons lay under the floor, and like all imaginative minds she had a
-lively horror of the dead. She entered the open doorway and ascended the
-steep spiral stair in the tower. The steps were cut from solid stone and
-were worn by the trampling of many feet. As she neared the top she
-called,—
-
-“Tu wit! Tu woo!” and was promptly answered.
-
-As her chin appeared above the floor of the little room, where the
-moonlight came through hollow casements, an old grey owl, a large wise
-solemn owl, advanced from the wall with slow and stately step; and
-despite his massive dignity there was expectancy in his mien.
-
-“Poor Solomon,” said Patience, contritely. “I forgot your supper.” She
-climbed into the room and attempted to pat his head; but when he saw
-that the hand was empty, he flapped his wings, and turning his back upon
-her, retired to the wall, blinking indignantly.
-
-Patience laughed, then sighed, and sank on her knees before the low
-window overlooking the ocean. The blue bay still whispered to the white
-sands sparkling like diamond dust in the moonlight, the yellow stars
-winking in its clear depths. But the ocean was uneasy, and hurtled
-reiterantly in great deep-throated waves at the rocky shore as if its
-giant soul were in final rebellion against this conventional war with a
-passive foe. About Point Lobos its voice waxed trumpet-toned. It
-shouldered itself into mighty waves and tossed the spray into writhing
-shapes. Everything else was at rest. The great forces of nature were the
-angry prisoners of the tides. The moon grinned in his superior way. The
-little stars seemed to say: “Up here we are quite composed, and as vain
-as pretty women. If you would only keep quiet you would make such a fine
-large looking-glass.”
-
-As Patience gazed out upon the beautiful scene, her young mind shifted
-its impressions. She forgot her life, and began to dream in a vague
-sweet way. Not of a lover. Despite the fact that she had manufactured a
-composite which occupied a pedestal in her imagination, she thought
-little about love. Her reveries were a wandering of her ego through the
-books she had read, environed by the nature whom she knew only in lovely
-profile. Had she lived her fifteen years on the sterile plains of
-Soledad, she might perhaps have been as harsh and bitter as its sands,
-her soul as grey, so susceptible was she to the subtle influence of
-great externals. But Monterey had saved her, and on nights like this she
-felt as if she too were flooded with crystal light, now and again
-clouded by something which perturbed, yet vibrated like the music of the
-pines.
-
-When in a particularly romantic mood, she imagined herself Mariana in
-the “Moated Grange,” or hummed “The Long Long Weary Day,” and tried to
-feel sad, but could not. She never felt sad in her tower, with the owl
-on guard and the slighted dead in the church below. Sometimes she took
-herself to task for not having a proper amount of sentiment, but
-concluded that no one could be unhappy when so high above the world and
-all its hateful details. Occasionally she looked longingly at the
-perpendicular mountain: it was many times higher than her tower; but she
-was a lazy little thing, and would not climb.
-
-As she knelt, gazing out on the ocean, or up at the spangled night, she
-was a very different-looking being from the sharp practical child that
-had exhorted old Billy and berated her mother. The loosened hair clung
-softly about her pale face, whose freckles the kind moon with his white
-brush painted out. Her mouth had relaxed its stern lines. Her eyes were
-full of the moon’s shimmer, and of something else,—the struggling light
-of a developing soul.
-
-Patience’s soul had taken care of itself and showed virility in spite of
-the forces at war against it. What the little battling spark strove for,
-puzzled Patience even at that unanalytical age. Religion—Christianity,
-to be more exact—said nothing to her; it appealed to no want in her;
-even the instinct was lacking. John Sparhawk had clung to the rigid
-faith of his fathers with a desperation which Patience, child as she
-was, had half divined. He had had prayers night and morning, and
-compelled his daughter to learn her catechism and many chapters of the
-Bible. After his death Mr. Foord took her to church on Sunday mornings
-and occasionally read her a little lecture. She listened respectfully,
-but felt no interest.
-
-Nevertheless, when alone in her tower at night, when she had set her
-foot on its lowest step with deliberate intent to get as high above the
-earth as she could, she was conscious of an upreaching of the spiritual
-entity within her, a wordless demand for the something higher and holier
-of which the supreme beauty of the Universe is symbolical.
-
-
- V
-
-The next morning, Patience, after helping her convalescent parent to get
-breakfast, stood on the porch debating whether she should go over to Mr.
-Thrailkill’s ranch and see Rosita or spend the day in Mr. Foord’s
-library.
-
-The scholars of Colton Hall had a week’s vacation, and how to make the
-most of seven long days of freedom in exquisite spring weather was a
-serious question.
-
-As she hesitated she bethought herself of Solomon. She ran to the safe,
-and gingerly extracting a piece of raw meat wrapped it in a newspaper,
-and went over to the Mission. The owl had not moved, apparently, from
-the spot where he had taken his indignant stand the night before. When
-he scented the meat, however, he walked majestically forward, and taking
-no notice whatever of Patience, began at once upon the meal she spread
-at his feet.
-
-Patience had decided in favour of the library, and started leisurely for
-Monterey. The ocean rested heavily after its labour of the night,
-swinging forward at long intervals with deep murmur, or throwing an
-occasional iridescent cloud of spray about Point Lobos. The keen air
-sparkled under a flood of golden light. The earth was green with the
-deep rich green of spring. Great bunches of it sprang from even the
-ragged mountain side, and long blades struggled to life between the
-broken tiles of the old Mission. Patience crossed the valley through
-beds of golden poppies and pale blue baby-eyes struggling with infantile
-pertinacity to raise themselves above the waving grass. She plucked a
-poppy and held her nose in the great cup that covered half her face. She
-liked the slight languor its heavy perfume induced.
-
-She climbed the hill, and the woods shut out the world. Patience forgot
-her destination and wandered happily and aimlessly in the dim fragrance.
-She plucked some pine needles, and rubbing their juices free pressed her
-hands about her face. On the whole she preferred their pungent freshness
-to the poppy.
-
-After a time she began to skip over the carpet of yellow violets and to
-sing in a high childish treble. She was only a happy little girl with
-her lungs full of oxygen, her veins warmed by the sun, her heart
-exhilarated with the surpassing beauty of the morning. She threw pebbles
-at the squirrels and laughed loudly when they scampered up the stately
-trees. Spiritual problems did not trouble her, and social trials were
-forgotten.
-
-She dawdled away the earlier hours of the morning in the woods, then
-descending the hill on the town side, regained her severe and elderly
-demeanour. The ocean was not visible here, but a bay bluer than sapphire
-curved into sands whiter than marble dust. The sun shone down on the
-red-tiled white adobes, on the high garden walls pink with Castilian
-roses, as gaily as in the old Arcadian time. But alas! it shone also on
-cheap wooden cottages and shops which had invaded even the hill on the
-right, where once a few stately mansions stood alone.
-
-The town was very quiet. It was always quiet. Some holy unheard voice
-seemed ever saying “Hush!” As Patience walked down Alvarado Street to
-the Custom House, she saw a slender brown woman watering the roses
-behind her garden wall. She had been the belle of Monterey in her time,
-“La Tulita,” and tradition had it that she still watered a rose-bush
-which General Sherman had planted.
-
-On the next block several dark lads sat on a fence in the approved
-Montereño style, smoking _cigaritos_. As Patience passed they lifted
-their caps as gallantly as ever _caballero_ had done, although they did
-not fling them at her feet.
-
-She saw no one else until she reached the Custom House. Mr. Foord stood
-on the corridor that overhung the rocks. He was a large round-shouldered
-man, with a benign face the colour of aging marble and a brow of the old
-time intellectual type. The eyes behind his spectacles were dim and
-kind. The lower part of his face was humorous and stern. He wore a silk
-hat, a well-brushed suit of broadcloth, and carried a gold-headed cane.
-
-“You’re going to town!” cried Patience.
-
-“I am,” he said smiling, “and I suppose you are going to read your eyes
-out in the library. Well, I’ll not be back until to-morrow, so you’ll
-have things all your own way. Tell Lola to cook you some dinner. I must
-be off.”
-
-“Bring me a box of candy,” she commanded, as she stood on tiptoe to give
-him the little peck she called a kiss. It was her mark of supreme
-consideration.
-
-He promised, and she went into the library, a large room opening on the
-corridor, where many a great ball had been given in the days before and
-after the Americans came. A half dozen old-fashioned bookcases, crowded
-with books, stood against the walls of the low room. The books were
-bound in spotted calf or faded cloth, black cloth with peeling gilt
-letters. One large case contained John Sparhawk’s library, and Patience
-knew that it was practically hers. The floor was covered with a thick
-red carpet. A large easy-chair was drawn before the deep fire-place, in
-which a huge log crackled: it was still winter within adobe walls.
-
-“Altogether,” thought the philosopher of fifteen, as she flung her
-sunbonnet on the floor, “I guess that so long as I’ve got my tower and
-the woods and this room, I’m not so badly off as some.”
-
-She roamed about the room, opening the doors of the bookcases in turn.
-One case had been filled with books selected for her especial use, but
-Mr. Foord had not forbidden her the freedom of the others, being wiser
-than many guardians. Nevertheless, certain books were placed on top
-shelves, their titles concealed beneath the moulding of the case, and
-Patience had looked speculatively at them more than once. To-day they
-exerted a peculiar fascination. And it was rarely that she was alone in
-the library.
-
-She possessed an investigating and tentative mind, and this forbidden
-territory appealed eloquently to her unruly will. But to get them out
-was not an easy task. They were tightly packed, and the moulding was
-like unto a prison bar. But Patience was a person of resource. She gave
-one of the books a smart thump, and it slanted inward. She inserted her
-thumb under its lifted edge and worried it out. It was a small volume
-bound in black, its lettering worn away. She opened it and glanced
-curiously at the titlepage. “Boccaccio’s Decameron” winked invitingly.
-The pages were spotted with yellow. The drawings looked as if the
-stories might be reasonably interesting.
-
-Patience curled herself in the deep window-seat, quite sure that she had
-found a treasure. The book had a furtive and apologetic air. “I have
-grown old, at least,” it seemed to say. “I am but an elderly rake, and
-can only mumble of the past.”
-
-She read a few stories, then put the book back in its place with a
-resentful shove. Being wholly without the knowledge for which Eve pined,
-the stories were stupid and meaningless to her. She took down a thick
-volume bound in ragged calf. On the back was one large word, “Byron.”
-The leaves of this book were spotted too, but on the leaves were poems,
-and she loved poetry. Even when it was uninteresting she enjoyed the
-rhythm. She returned to the window-seat, and child-like, looked at the
-pictures first. The portrait of Byron she fell in love with immediately,
-and knocking her composite off its pedestal, lifted that proud
-passionate face to the station of honour.
-
-There was an immense-eyed picture of the Bride of Abydos which she
-thought looked like Rosita, and one of the Corsair dashing in upon his
-segregated love:—
-
- “My own Medora, sure thy song is sad!”
-
-Francesca and Paola gazed at each other across a table:—
-
- “That day no further leaf we did uncover.”
-
-A castle which looked older than the book loomed massively from the
-page:—
-
- “Lake Leman lies by Chillon’s walls.”
-
-Never having heard of Byron, she was unable to enlarge her knowledge at
-once with his most celebrated creations; but she liked the looks of
-Conrad and Medora, and plunged into their fortunes. She read every line
-of the poem, and when she had finished she read it over again. Then she
-stared at the breakers booming to the rocks on the opposite horn of the
-crescent, her eyes expanded and filled with a wholly new light. She
-might be unlettered in woman’s wisdom, but the transcendent passion, the
-pounding vitality of the poet, carried straight to intuition. The
-insidious elixir drifted into the crystal stream. That incomparable
-objectivity sang the song of songs as distinctly into her brain as had
-it gathered the sounds of life for twenty years. Her cheeks were
-flushed, her eyes were bright. She felt as if she were a musical
-instrument upon which some divine unknown music were vibrating; and as
-she was wont to feel in the tower—but with a substratum of something
-quite different. She was filled with a soft tumult which she did not in
-the least comprehend, and happy. She looked almost beautiful.
-
-After a time she read “The Bride of Abydos,” and dreamed over that until
-she discovered that she was hungry. She had forgotten to order dinner,
-and went to the kitchen to beg a crust.
-
-Lola, large, unwhaleboned, vibrating porcinely with every motion, her
-brown coarsely moulded face beaming with good nature, her little black
-eyes full of temper and kindness, her black hair in a neat small knot,
-an unspotted brown and yellow calico garment secluding her person, stood
-at a sink in a kitchen as brilliantly clean as a varnished boot. Even
-the corners shone like glass, Patience often observed with a sigh. The
-two tables were scrubbed daily. The stove was black, the windows white.
-Not a pan nor a dish save those in the sink was in sight.
-
-Patience made a sudden dash, a leap, and alighted on Lola’s back,
-encircling the yielding waist with her supple legs. The woman emitted a
-hoarse shriek, then laughed and pinched the legs. Patience plunged her
-cold hands into the creases of Lola’s neck, gathering a quantity into
-the palms. She was unrebuked. There were a few persons that loved
-Patience, and Lola was of them.
-
-“_Pobrecita!_” she exclaimed. “You are cold, no?”
-
-“_Mucho frizo_,” murmured Patience, sliding the back of her hands down
-the mountainous surface of Lola’s. “And hungry, _madre de dios_.”
-
-“Hungry? You no have the dinner? When you coming?”
-
-“Hours ago, Lola. How cruel of you not to call me to dinner! How mean
-and piggish to eat it all yourself!”
-
-“Ay, no call me the names. How I can know you are here _si_ you no tell?
-Why you no coming here straight before going to the _librario_?”
-
-“I forgot, Lola _mia_; and then I became—interested. But do give me
-something to eat.”
-
-“_Si._” And with Patience still on her back Lola waddled to the cupboard
-and lifted down the remains of a corn cake rolled about olives and
-cheese and peppers.
-
-“An _enchilada_!” said Patience. “Good.”
-
-Lola warmed the compound, and spread a napkin on a corner of one of the
-tables; then, suddenly unloosening Patience’s arms and legs, tumbled her
-headlong into a chair, laughing sluggishly as she ambled off. Patience
-ate the steaming _enchilada_ as heartily as had Byron never been. In a
-moment she begged for a cup of chocolate.
-
-“_Si_,” said Lola, “I have some scrape already;” and she brewed
-chocolate in a little earthen pot, then beat it to froth with her
-_molinillo_. Patience kicked her heels together with delight, and sipped
-it daintily while Lola stood by with fat hands on fat hips in reflex
-enjoyment.
-
-“Like it, _niña_?”
-
-“You bet.” Then after a moment she asked dreamily: “Lola, were you ever
-in love?”
-
-“_Que!_ Sure. Was I not marry? Poor my Pedro! How he lika the
-_enchilada_ and the chocolaty; and the lard cakes and the little pig
-cooking with onions. And now the worms eating him. Ay, yi!” and Lola sat
-herself upon a chair and wept.
-
-
- VI
-
-As Patience walked home through the woods subsequently to a long
-afternoon with Byron, she was hazily sensible that she had stepped from
-one phase of girlhood into another. She had an odd consciousness of
-gazing through a veil of gauze upon an exquisite but unfamiliar
-landscape over which was a dazzle of sunlight. She by no means
-understood the mystery of her nature as yet; she was technically too
-ignorant; but instinct was awake, and she felt somewhat as when she had
-drained the poppy cup for long. She was in that transition state when
-for the first and last time passion is poetry.
-
-She arrived home in time to get supper. Mrs. Sparhawk was unexpectedly
-sober, and very cross.
-
-“My land, Patience Sparhawk!” she exclaimed, as her daughter opened the
-door and untied her sunbonnet, “seems to me you might help cook dinner
-in vacation instead of being off all day reading books or playing with
-that Spanish girl.”
-
-“Seems to me,” said Patience, restored to her practical self, “that as
-you’re twice as big as I am and twice as strong, you’re pretty well able
-to get it yourself. And as it’s your fault there ain’t any servant in
-this house, I don’t see why I should make one of myself for you. Seems
-to me you’re fixed up.”
-
-Mrs. Sparhawk blushed, and smoothed her hair consciously. The hair had
-been washed, and was decorated with a red bow. She wore a garment of
-turkey red calico with a bit of cheap lace at the throat and wrists. Her
-face was plastered with a whitewash much in vogue. She looked handsome,
-but evil, and Patience stared at her with an uneasiness she was not able
-to analyse. She turned away after a moment.
-
-“I’d put on an apron,” she remarked drily. “You might get spots on that
-gorgeous window curtain dress of yours.”
-
-At that moment the man Oscar entered the room. He uttered a note of
-admiration which made Patience turn about sharply. He was gazing upon
-Mrs. Sparhawk’s enhanced charms with an expression which Patience did
-not understand, but which filled her with sudden fury.
-
-“Here!” she exclaimed roughly, “go into the dining room until supper’s
-ready. This kitchen ain’t big enough for three.”
-
-The man moved his eyes and regarded her angrily.
-
-“Who’s boss here?” he demanded.
-
-“It’s not your place to ask questions. You’re hired to work outside, and
-when you come into this house there’s only one place for you. Now go
-into the other room.” Her eyes were flashing, and she had drawn up her
-shoulders. The man backed away from her much as dogs do when cats give
-warning.
-
-“That girl gives me a chill. I hate her,” he muttered to his mistress.
-
-Mrs. Sparhawk gave a loud laugh which covered her embarrassment, and
-slapped him heartily on the shoulder. “Go in, go in,” she said. “What’s
-the use of family quarrels?”
-
-The man slunk away, and Patience went about her work with vicious
-energy. She fried liver and baked biscuits while her mother stirred the
-steaming cherries and brewed tea. When supper was ready she filled
-Oscar’s plate first and served him last, not hating herself in the least
-for her spite and spleen. After Mrs. Sparhawk had taken her place at the
-head of the table even her exuberant beauty could not dispel the frown
-on the hired man’s brow, until, to Patience’s disgust, she divined the
-cause of his surliness, and deftly exchanged her plate for his.
-
-
- VII
-
-That night Patience did not go to her tower, but wandered over the dark
-fields, a drooping forlorn little figure in the crawling shadows. She
-felt dull and tired and disheartened. By nine o’clock she was asleep.
-She awoke as fresh as the morning. When Mr. Foord returned from San
-Francisco in the afternoon he found her curled in the easy-chair by his
-fire. She started guiltily as he entered, then tossed her head
-defiantly, let Byron slide to the floor, and went forward to kiss him.
-
-As he was about to take the chair she had occupied he espied the fallen
-volume. He lifted it hastily.
-
-“What is this?” he demanded.
-
-Patience blushed furiously, but set her lips with an expression he
-understood.
-
-“It’s Byron, and I’m going to read it all. I’ve read a lot.”
-
-He shifted the book from one hand to the other for a moment, his face
-much perturbed. Finally he laid it on the table, merely remarking:
-“Sooner or later, sooner or later.”
-
-Patience offered him a piece of the candy he had brought her; but he
-preferred his pipe, and she perched herself on the arm of his chair and
-ate half the contents of her box without pause. She had not yet learned
-the subtle delights of the epicure, and to enjoy until capacity was
-exhausted was typical of her enthusiastic temperament. When she could no
-longer look upon the candy without a shudder she climbed to the old
-gentleman’s shoulder and scratched his bald pate with her ragged nails.
-It was her emphatic way of expressing gratitude, and beloved by Mr.
-Foord above pipe and _enchilada_.
-
-Patience took Byron home with her that evening, Mr. Foord merely
-shrugging his shoulders. After supper she read until dark, then hid the
-book under the bed and went over to the tower. She ran up the twisted
-stair, and astonished the owl by clasping him in her arms and kissing
-him passionately. He manifested his disapproval by biting at her
-shoulder fiercely. She shrieked and boxed his ears smartly. He flapped
-his large wings wildly. A battle royal was imminent in that sacred tower
-where once the silver bells had called the holy men to prayer. But
-Patience suddenly broke into a laugh and sank on her knees by the
-window, while Solomon retreated to the wall, and regarded her with a
-round unwinking stare, brooding over problems which he did not in the
-least understand.
-
-Patience brooded also, but her lids drooped, and she barely saw the
-beauty of ocean and rock and spray. The moon was not yet up, and the
-half revealed intoning sea was full of mystery.
-
-She was conscious that her mood was not quite what it had been during
-her last visit. All of that was there—but more. She felt higher above
-the earth than ever before, but more conscious of its magnetism.
-Something hummed along her nerves and stirred in her veins. Her musings
-shaped to definite form, inasmuch as they assumed the semblance of man.
-Inevitably Byron was exhumed for duty; and if his restless soul were
-prowling space and Carmel Valley, his famous humour, desuetous in
-Eternity, must have echoed in the dull ears of roaming shapes.
-
-Beside the white face of the child was the solemn and hebraic visage of
-the owl. Some outworn chord of Solomon’s youth may have been stirred by
-his friend’s tumultuous greeting, for he had stepped, with the dignity
-of his years, to her side, and stood regarding, with introspective
-stare, the reflection of the rising moon.
-
-Patience did not see him. She was gazing upon Byron, whose moody
-passionate face was distinctly visible among the stars. Alas! her vision
-was suddenly obscured by a hideous black object. A bat flew straight at
-Carmel tower. Patience sprang to her feet, tossed her skirt over her
-head, and fled down the stair. The owl stepped to the stair’s head and
-gazed into the winding darkness, his eyes full of unutterable nothing.
-
-
- VIII
-
-On Monday school re-opened, and Patience was late as usual. She loitered
-through the woods, conning her lessons, having been too much occupied
-with her poet to give them attention before. As she ascended the steps
-of the schoolhouse the drone of the Lord’s Prayer came through the open
-window, and she paused for a moment on the landing, swinging her bag in
-one hand and her tin lunch-pail in the other.
-
-She was not a picturesque figure. Her sunbonnet was of faded blue calico
-dotted with white. The meagre braid projecting beneath the cape was tied
-with a shoe string. The calico frock was faded and mended and much too
-short, although the hem and tucks had been let out. The copper-toed
-boots were of a greyish-green hue, and the coarse stockings wrinkled
-above them. The nails of her pretty brown hands looked as if they had
-been sawed off. But the eyes under the old sunbonnet were dreamy and
-happy. The brain behind was full of new sensations. In the sparkling
-atmosphere was an electric thrill. The day was as still as only the days
-of Monterey can be. The pines, and the breakers had never intoned more
-sweetly.
-
-A voluminous A—men! startled Patience from her reverie. She went
-hastily within, hung her bonnet and pail on a peg, and entered the
-schoolroom, smiling half deprecatingly half confidently, at Miss Galpin.
-The young teacher’s stern nod did not discompose her. As she passed
-Rosita she received a friendly pinch, and Manuela looked up and smiled;
-but while traversing the width of the room to her desk she became aware
-of something unfriendly in the atmosphere. As she took her seat she
-glanced about and met the malevolent eyes of a dozen turned heads. One
-girl’s lip was curled; another’s brows were raised significantly, as
-would their owner query: “What could you expect?”
-
-Patience blushed until her face glowed like one of the Castilian roses
-on the garden wall opposite the window. “They’ve found out about Byron,”
-she thought. “Horrors, how they’ll tease me!”
-
-School girls have a traditional habit of “willing” each other to “miss”
-when in aggressive mood. To-day some twenty of the girls appeared to
-have concerted to will that Patience should forget what little lore she
-had gathered on her way to school. Patience, always sensitive to
-impressions, was as taut as the strings of an Æolian harp from her
-experience of the past week. Such natures are responsive to the core to
-the psychological power of the environment, and once or twice this
-morning Patience felt as if she must jump to her feet and scream. But
-even at that early age she divined that the sweetest revenge is success,
-and she strove as she had never striven before to acquit herself with
-credit.
-
-All morning the silent battle went on. Miss Galpin, who was beloved of
-her pupils because she was pretty and dressed well, was a graduate of
-the San Francisco High School, and an excellent teacher. Frankly as she
-liked Patience she had never shown her any partiality in the schoolroom;
-but to-day, noting the antagonism that was brought to bear on the girl,
-she exerted all her cleverness to assist her in such subtle fashion that
-Patience alone should appreciate her effort. In consequence, when the
-morning session closed, Patience wore the doubtful laurels and the bad
-blood was black.
-
-As the girls trooped down into the yard Rosita laid her arm about
-Patience and endeavoured to lead her away. Manuela conferred in a low
-tone with the foe, voice and gestures remonstrant. But there was blood
-in the air, and Patience squared her shoulders and awaited the
-onslaught. Incidentally she inspected her nails and copper toes.
-
-Several of the girls walked rapidly up to her. They were smiling
-disagreeably.
-
-“Can’t you keep her at home?” asked one of them.
-
-“Think she’ll marry him?” demanded another.
-
-Patience, completely taken aback, glanced helplessly from one to the
-other.
-
-“What do you mean?” she asked.
-
-“Come, Patita,” murmured Rosita, on the verge of tears.
-
-Manuela exclaimed: “You are fiends, _fiends_!” and walked away.
-
-“Mean? Do you mean to say she got off without you knowing it?”
-
-“Knowing what?” A horrible presentiment assailed Patience. Her fingers
-jerked and her breath came fast.
-
-“Why,” said Panchita McPherson, brutally, “your mother was in here
-Saturday night with her young man and regularly turned the town upside
-down. They were thrown out of three saloons. Can’t you keep her at
-home?”
-
-Patience stared dully at the girls, her dry lips parted. She knew that
-they had spoken the truth. She had gone to bed early on Saturday night.
-Shortly afterward she had heard the sound of buggy wheels and Billy’s
-uncertain gait. Many hours later she had been awakened by the sound of
-her mother stumbling upstairs; but she had thought nothing of either
-incident at the time.
-
-Panchita continued relentlessly, memories of many class defeats rushing
-forward to lash her spleen: “You’ll please understand after this that we
-don’t care to have you talk to us, for we don’t think you’re
-respectable.” Whereupon the other girls, nodding sarcastically at
-Patience, entwined their arms and walked away, led by the haughty Miss
-McPherson.
-
-For a few moments Patience hardly realised how she felt. She stood
-impassive; but a cyclone raged within. All the blood in her body seemed
-to have rushed to her head, to scorch her face and pound in her ears.
-She wondered why her hands and feet were cold.
-
-“Come, Patita, don’t mind them,” said Rosita, putting her arm round her
-comrade. “The mean hateful nasty—_pigs!_” Never before had the indolent
-little Californian been so vehement; but Patience slipped from her hold,
-and running through a gate at the back of the yard crouched down on a
-box. Rosita’s words had broken the spell. She was filled with a volcano
-of hate. She hated the girls, she hated Monterey, she hated life; but
-above all she hated her mother.
-
-After a time all the hate in her concentrated on the woman who had made
-her young life so bitter. She had never liked her, but not until the
-dreadful moments just past had she realised the full measure of her
-inheritance. The innuendoes she had not understood, but it was enough to
-know that her mother had disgraced her publicly and insulted her
-father’s memory. Her schoolmates she dismissed from her mind with a
-scornful jerk of the shoulders. She had beaten them too easily and often
-in the schoolroom not to despise them consummately. They could prick but
-not stab her.
-
-The bell rang; but she had an account to settle, and bonnetless she
-started for home.
-
-Mrs. Sparhawk was sitting on the porch reading a novel when Patience
-walked up to her, snatched the book from her hand, and flung it into a
-rose-tree. The woman was sober, and quailed as she met her daughter’s
-eyes. Patience had walked rapidly under a hot sun. Her face was scarlet,
-and she was trembling.
-
-“I hate you!” she sobbed. “I hate you! It doesn’t do any good to tell
-you so, but it does me good to say it.”
-
-The girl looked the incarnation of evil passions. She was elemental
-Hate, a young Cain.
-
-“I wish you were dead,” she continued. “You’ve ruined every bit of my
-life.”
-
-“Why—what—what—” mumbled the woman. But the colour was coming to her
-face, and her eyes were beginning to glitter unpleasantly.
-
-“You know well enough what. You were in town drunk on Saturday night,
-and were in saloons _with a farm hand_. To make a brute of yourself was
-bad enough—but to go about with a common man! Are you going to marry
-him?”
-
-Mrs. Sparhawk laughed. “Well, I guess not.”
-
-Patience drew a quick breath of relief. “Well, that’s what they’re
-saying—that you’re going to marry him—a man that can’t read nor write.
-Now look here, I want one thing understood—unless you swear to me
-you’ll not set foot in that town again I’ll have you put in the Home of
-the Inebriates—There! I’ll not be disgraced again; I’ll do it.”
-
-Mrs. Sparhawk sprang to her feet, her face blazing with rage. “You will,
-will you?” she cried. She caught the girl by the shoulders, and shaking
-her violently, boxed first one ear, then the other, with her strong
-rough hands. For an instant Patience was stunned, then the blood boiled
-back to her brain. She screamed harshly, and springing at her mother
-clutched her about the throat. The lust to kill possessed her. A red
-curtain blotted even the hated face from sight. Instinctively she
-tripped her mother and went down on top of her. The crash of the body
-brought two men to the rescue, and Patience was dragged off and flung
-aside.
-
-“My land!” exclaimed one of the men, his face white with horror. “Was
-you going to kill your ma?”
-
-“Yes, that she was,” spluttered Mrs. Sparhawk, sitting up and pulling
-vaguely at the loose flesh of her throat. “She’d have murdered me in
-another minute.”
-
-Patience by this time was white and limp. She crawled upstairs to her
-room and locked the door. She sank on the floor and thought on herself
-with horror.
-
-“I never knew,” she reiterated, “that I was so bad. Why, I’m fifteen,
-and I never wanted to kill even a bird before. I wouldn’t learn to
-shoot. I’d never drown a kitten. When the Chinaman stuck a red-hot poker
-through the bars of the trap and burnt ridges in the live rat I screamed
-and screamed. And now I’ve nearly killed my mother, and wanted to. Who,
-who would have thought it?”
-
-When she was wearied with the futile effort to solve the new problem,
-she became suddenly conscious that she felt no repentance, no remorse.
-She was horrified at the sight of the black veins in her soul; but she
-felt a certain satisfaction at having unbottled the wrath that consumed
-her, at having given her mother the physical equivalent of her own
-mental agony. Over this last cognisance of her capacity for sin she
-sighed and shook her head.
-
-“I may as well give myself up,” she thought with young philosophy. “I am
-what I am, and I suppose I’ll do what I’m going to do.”
-
-She went downstairs and out of the house. She passed a group of men;
-they stared at her in horror. Then another little seed from the vast
-garden of human nature shot up to flower in Patience’s puzzled brain.
-She lifted her head with an odd feeling of elation: she was the
-sensation of the hour.
-
-She went out on Point Lobos and listened to the hungry roar of the
-waves, watched the tossing spray. Nature took her to her heart as ever,
-and when the day was done she was normal once more. She returned to the
-house and helped to get supper, although she refused to speak to her
-equally sullen parent.
-
-
- IX
-
-It was several days before the story reached Monterey. When it did, the
-girls treated Patience to invective and contumely, but delivered their
-remarks at long range. The mother of Manuela said peremptorily that
-Patience Sparhawk should never darken the doors of the Peralta mansion
-again, and even Mrs. Thrailkill told the weeping Rosita that the
-intimacy must end.
-
-Miss Galpin was horrified. When school was over she took Patience firmly
-by the hand and led her up the hill to her boarding-place, the widow
-Thrailkill’s ancestral home. The long low adobe house was traversed from
-end to end by a pillared corridor. It was whitewashed every year, and
-its red tiles were renewed at intervals, but otherwise the march of
-civilisation had passed it by. Mrs. Thrailkill, large and brown, with a
-wart between her kind black eyes, and a handsome beard, was rocking
-herself on the corridor. When she recognised the teacher’s companion she
-arose with great dignity and swung herself into the house.
-
-Miss Galpin led Patience down the corridor to a room at the end, and
-motioned her to a chair. Several magazines lay on a table, and Patience
-reached her hand to them involuntarily; but Miss Galpin took the hand
-and drew the girl toward her. The young teacher’s brown eyes wore a very
-puzzled expression. Even her carefully regulated bang had been pushed
-upward with a sudden dash of the hand. She was only twenty-two, and her
-experience of human nature was limited. Her ideas of life were
-accumulated largely from the novels of Mr. Howells and Mr. James, whom
-she revered; and neither of these gentlemen photographed such characters
-as Patience. It had probably never occurred to them that Patiences
-existed. She experienced a sudden thrill of superiority, then craved
-pardon of her idols.
-
-“Patience, dear,” she said gently, “is this terrible story true?”
-
-“Yes, ma’am,” said Patience, standing passively at Miss Galpin’s knee.
-
-“You actually tried to kill your mother?”
-
-“Yes, ma’am.”
-
-Miss Galpin gasped. She waited a moment for a torrent of excuse and
-explanation; but Patience was mute.
-
-“And you are not sorry?” she faltered.
-
-“No, ma’am.”
-
-“Oh, Patience!”
-
-“I’m sorry you feel so badly, ma’am. Please don’t cry,” for the
-estimable young woman was in tears, and mentally reviling her
-preceptors.
-
-“How can I help feeling terribly, Patience? You break my heart.”
-
-“I’m sorry, dear Miss Galpin.”
-
-“Patience, don’t you love God?”
-
-“No, ma’am, not particularly. Leastways, I’ve never thought much about
-it.”
-
-“You little heathen!”
-
-“No, ma’am, I’m not. My father was very religious. But please don’t talk
-religion to me.”
-
-“Patience, I don’t know what to make of you. I am in despair. You’re not
-a bad girl. You give me little trouble, and I’ve always said that you
-had finer impulses than any girl I’ve ever known, and the best brain.
-You ought to realise better than any girl of your age the difference
-between right and wrong. And yet you have done what not another girl in
-the school would do, inferior as they are—”
-
-“How do you know, ma’am? I never thought I would. Neither did you think
-I would. You can’t tell what you’ll do till you do it.”
-
-Miss Galpin was distracted. She resumed hurriedly:
-
-“I want you to be a good woman, Patience,—a good as well as a clever
-woman. And how can you be good if you don’t love God?”
-
-“Are all people good the same way?”
-
-“Well, it all comes to the same thing in the end.” Miss Galpin blessed
-the evolution of verbiage.
-
-“Are all religious people good?”
-
-“Certainly.”
-
-“These girls are religious, especially the Spanish ones, and they’ve
-behaved to me like devils. So have their mothers, and some of them go to
-five o’clock mass.”
-
-“Girls are undisciplined, and mothers often have a mistaken sense of
-duty.”
-
-“You are good, and Mr. Foord is good,” pursued the terrible child. “But
-you’d be just as good if you weren’t religious. It’s born in you, and
-you’re refined and kind-hearted. Those people are just naturally vulgar,
-and religion won’t make them any better.”
-
-Miss Galpin drew the girl suddenly to her lap and kissed her. “I’m
-terribly sorry for you, dear,” she said. “I wish I understood you
-better, and could help you, but I don’t. I never knew any one in the
-least like you. I worry so about your future. People that are not like
-other people don’t get along nicely in this world. And you have such
-impulses! But I love you, Patience, and I’ll always be your friend. Will
-you remember this?”
-
-Patience was undemonstrative, but she kissed Miss Galpin warmly and
-arranged her bang.
-
-“Now, let’s talk about something else,” she said. “Are you going to get
-up those private theatricals for the night that school closes?”
-
-Miss Galpin sighed and gave up the engagement. “Yes,” she said. Then,
-hesitatingly: “Do you wish to take part?”
-
-“No, of course I don’t. I’ll have nothing more to do with those girls
-than I can help. You can bet your life on that. But I can help drill
-Rosita. What’s the play?”
-
-“I’ll read it to you.” Miss Galpin took a pamphlet from a drawer and
-read aloud the average amateur concoction. Rosita was to take the part
-of an indolent girl with the habit of arousing herself unexpectedly. In
-one act she would have to dash to the front of the stage and dance a
-parlour breakdown.
-
-“I am afraid Rosita cannot act,” said Miss Galpin, in conclusion, “but
-she is so pretty I couldn’t leave her out.”
-
-“Rosita can act,” said Patience, emphatically. “I’ve seen her imitate
-every actress that has been here, and take off pretty nearly every crank
-in Monterey. And Mrs. Thrailkill can teach her one of the old
-Californian dances—and a song. Rosita has a lovely voice, almost as
-pretty as a lark’s.”
-
-“Really? Well, I’ll talk to Mrs. Thrailkill and persuade her to forgive
-you, and then you can come here every afternoon and drill Rosita. And
-now will you promise me to be a good little girl?”
-
-“Yes, ma’am—leastways I’ll try. Good-bye,” and Patience gave her a
-little peck, seized her sunbonnet, and went hurriedly out.
-
-“I suppose,” she thought as she sauntered down the hill, “I’d better go
-and have it out with Mr. Foord. It’s got to come, and the sooner it’s
-over the better. Poor man, I’ll make it as easy for him as I can. It’ll
-be harder on him than on me, for I’m used to it now.”
-
-The old gentleman was walking up and down the corridor as she turned the
-corner of the custom house. He looked very yellow and feeble, and
-supported himself with a stick.
-
-“Oh, Patience!” he exclaimed.
-
-For the first time Patience felt inclined to cry, but her aversion to
-display feeling controlled her. She merely approached and stood before
-him, swinging her sunbonnet.
-
-“Don’t let us talk about it,” he said hastily. “I have something else to
-say to you. Sit down.”
-
-They sat down side by side on a bench.
-
-“You know,” the old gentleman continued, “I have a half-sister in the
-east—Harriet Tremont, her name is—in Mariaville-on-Hudson, New York.
-She is the best woman in the world, the most sinless creature I ever
-knew, yet full of human nature and never dull. She is very religious,
-has given up her life to doing good, and has some eccentric notions of
-her own. She writes me dutifully twice a year, although we have not met
-for thirty, and in her last letter she told me she intended to adopt a
-child, rescue a soul as she called it, and furthermore that she should
-adopt the child of the most worthless parents she could discover in her
-work among the worthless. Since—lately—I have been thinking strongly
-of sending you to her. You must get away from here. You must have a
-chance in life. If you remain here you will grow up bitter and hard, and
-the result with your brain and temperament may be terrible. You are
-capable of becoming a very bad or a very good woman. You are still
-young—but there is no time to lose. Should you care to go?”
-
-“Of course I should,” cried Patience, enchanted with the idea of an
-excursion into unknown worlds. Then her face fell. “But I shouldn’t like
-to be adopted. That is too much like charity.”
-
-“Is the ranch entirely mortgaged?”
-
-Patience nodded.
-
-“Well, let us look at it as a business proposition. You will be little
-expense to her—she is fairly well off; and one more in the household
-makes no appreciable difference. You will attend the public schools with
-the view to become a teacher, and when you are earning a salary you can
-repay her for what little outlay she may have made. Do you see?”
-
-“Yes. I don’t mind if you look at it that way.”
-
-“I’ll see your mother in a day or two. You don’t think she’ll object, do
-you?”
-
-“Object? What has she got to say about it?”
-
-“A great deal, unfortunately. She is your legal guardian. But she
-doesn’t love you, and I think can be persuaded. I shall miss you, my
-dear. What shall I do without my bright little girl?”
-
-Patience nestled up to him, and the two strangely assorted companions
-remained silent for a time watching the seagulls sweep over the blue
-bay. Then Mr. Foord drifted naturally into the past, and Patience grew
-romantic once more.
-
-
- X
-
-That night Patience felt no inclination for either bed or tower. She
-wandered over the field, entered the pine forest, and walked to the
-coast. The tall straight trees grew close together; their aisles were
-very gloomy. From the ground arose the ominous voices of the night, and
-the wind in the treetops moaned heavily. But Patience was not afraid.
-She revelled in the vast dark silence, and felt that the world was all
-her own.
-
-As she left the forest she saw great clouds of spray tossed high into
-the starry dark, heard the ocean rush at the outlying rocks, breaking
-into mist or leaping to the shore. The sea lions were talking loudly;
-the seagulls, huddled on the high points of the coast, scolded hoarsely.
-
-On the edge of the forest was a cabin. Patience walked toward it. She
-knew the old man that lived there. He was evidently awake, for the open
-window was yellow with light. As she passed it on her way to the door
-she glanced within. Her skin turned cold; her hair stiffened. A sheeted
-corpse lay on the bed. Candles burned at head and foot. Patience, brave
-as she was, abjectly feared the corpse. She believed that she could
-survive a ghost, but she knew that if shut up with a dead body for ten
-minutes she should go mad. To-night she would have fled shrieking were
-it not that the room had a living occupant.
-
-In a chair beside the bed sat a man gazing at the floor, his chin
-dropped to his chest. He wore rough clothes, but they were the
-affectations of the gentleman, not the garb of the dead man and his
-friends. Nor had Patience ever seen so noble a head. The profile was
-beautiful, the expression mild and intellectual, and most melancholy.
-
-Patience forgot her terror as she wondered who the stranger could be;
-but in a moment it was renewed tenfold. Down the ocean road from
-Monterey came a wild hideous yell. The man by the corpse raised his head
-apprehensively, rose as if to flee, then sank wearily to his chair
-again. The clatter of hoofs on the hard road mounted above the thunder
-of the waves. Patience staring into the dark suddenly saw the leaping
-fire of torches, and a moment later tall figures riding recklessly. The
-yelling was incessant and demoniac.
-
-“The man murdered Jim and they’re lynchers,” thought Patience. She
-glanced about wildly. A small tree stood near. She scampered up the
-trunk like a squirrel, and hid in the branches. None too soon. In
-another moment those terrible figures were screaming and gesticulating
-before the hut.
-
-The smoky flames revealed an extraordinary sight to Patience’s distended
-eyes. These men were bearded like the men of modern civilisation, even
-their hair was properly cut; but they wore the garments of Greece and
-Japan, flowing robes of white and red; one dark sinister-looking being
-upheld a glittering helmet.
-
-Patience rubbed her eyes. Did she dream over her Byron? But no mortal,
-none but the sheeted dead, could have slept and dreamed in that infernal
-clamour. Only the man by the bed sat immobile. He did not raise his
-head. Out of the pandemonium of sound Patience at last distinguished one
-word: “Charley! Charley!” If “Charley” were the man within the hut he
-gave no sign; nor when they threw back their heads and as from one
-throat gave forth a rattling volume of ribald laughter.
-
-Suddenly Patience, who, seeing no rope, began to recover her courage,
-noticed that one of the men had ridden beneath her tree, taking no part
-in this singular drama. Once he turned his head, and an aquiline
-profile, fine and strong, with black hair falling above it, was sharply
-revealed against the red glare. Impulsively Patience leaned down and
-touched his shoulder. He looked up with a start, and saw a small white
-face among the leaves.
-
-“What on earth is this?” he asked. “Is it a child?” His voice was rich
-and deep, with a gentle hint of brogue.
-
-“What are they?” asked Patience. “Are they real devils, or only men? And
-are they going to kill him?”
-
-The man laughed. “I certainly should ask the same question if I had not
-happened to come with them. Oh, they won’t do any murder, unless they
-happen to frighten some one to death. They’re members of the Bohemian
-Club of San Francisco—newspaper men and artists—who are down here on a
-lark.”
-
-“Who’s the man in there by him, and why do they yell at him so?”
-
-“Oh, he is a solitary spirit, a man of genius. He got tired of them and
-gave them the slip to-night. This is revenge.”
-
-“They have the Estrada house on Alvarado Street,” said Patience. “I
-heard they were here.” Then she noticed that her companion wore the
-common garb of American civilisation. “Why aren’t you rigged up, too?”
-she asked.
-
-“Oh, I’m hardly one of them. I’m only an Eastern man—a New Yorker—and
-am staying at Del Monte for a day or two. I rode over to see them this
-afternoon, and they insisted upon my staying for dinner. What on earth
-are you doing here by yourself at this time of night?”
-
-Patience explained. Then she added wistfully, “I shall be frightened to
-death going home through those woods alone. I’ll imagine that that
-corpse and those dreadful-looking men are behind me at every step.”
-
-“Just drop onto my horse and I’ll take you home. I’m pretty tired of all
-this.” He raised his arms and lifted her down, placing her in front of
-him. “Lucky I had an English saddle,” he said, and as he bent his head
-Patience could see that he was smiling. “Oh!” he added abruptly, “I have
-seen you before. Now—tell me where to go.”
-
-Patience directed him, and they cantered away unobserved.
-
-“Where did you see me?” she asked, “and how odd that you should remember
-_me_!”
-
-“You have wonderful eyes. Although I’m an Irishman I won’t go so far as
-to say they are pretty, but they look as if they had been born to see so
-much. It would be difficult to forget them. Upon me soul you are
-actually trembling. Did you never have a compliment before?”
-
-“Never! And I guess I’ll remember it longer than you remember my eyes.
-Where did you see me?”
-
-“I was standing at the window of the house in Alvarado Street when you
-came along from school with a dozen or more of the girls. You all
-stopped to gaze at a passing circus troupe, and—I noticed you first
-because you stood a little apart from the others.”
-
-“I usually do,” said Patience, drily.
-
-He did not add that, attracted by the eagerness of her gaze and her
-rapid changes of expression, he had asked who she was, and that a
-Montereño present had related the family history and her own notable
-performances in no measured terms. “She’s got bad blood in her and the
-temper of Old Nick himself. She’ll come to no good, homely as she is,”
-the man had concluded. “Curious enough, the boys all like her and would
-spark her if they got a show; but she’s hell-set on gettin’ an education
-at present and doesn’t notice them much.”
-
-Patience made him talk on for the pleasure of hearing his voice. “Are
-you a real Irishman?” she asked.
-
-“Well, I’ve been an American for twenty years, but there’s a good deal
-of Irish left in me yet, especially in me tongue.”
-
-“I’d keep it, if I were you. It’s nicer even than the Spanish. Do you
-think our voices are horrid?”
-
-“I think that if you’d pitch yours a little lower it would be an
-improvement,” he said, smiling. And Patience registered a vow which she
-kept. In after years when great changes had come upon her, her voice was
-envied and emulated.
-
-As they left the forest and entered Carmel Valley Patience pointed to
-her home, then suddenly took the reins from his hand and directed the
-horse toward the Mission. The waning moon hung over the ocean, and the
-Mission stood out boldly.
-
-“Come up to my tower,” said Patience; “the view is _something_! That
-will be your reward. I never took any one there before.”
-
-“All right,” he said, “I may as well make a night of it.” He tethered
-his horse and followed her up the spiral stair.
-
-“Solomon is not here,” she said regretfully. “He’s out foraging. Now!”
-
-The young man walked to the window and inspected the view. Patience
-regarded him with rapt admiration. He was tall and strong and well
-dressed. She had never dreamed that anything romantic could really
-happen to her; and as she was sure that it would be her last experience
-as well as her first, she suddenly felt depressed and miserable, her
-imagination leaping to the finish.
-
-He turned and met her eyes. “What are you thinking of?” he asked.
-
-But Patience was too shy to tell him, and asked him if he liked the
-view.
-
-“It’s a jolly view and no mistake. You’re not a happy child, are you?”
-he added, abruptly. With the enthusiasm and spontaneous kindness of his
-Irish blood he had conceived the idea of dropping a seed in this plastic
-soil, and was feeling his way toward the right spot.
-
-“I don’t know that I am,” said Patience, haughtily. “I suppose some of
-those people told you things.”
-
-“Well, they did, that’s a fact. But you mustn’t get angry with me,
-please, for upon me word I like you better than any one I’ve met in
-California.”
-
-“Don’t you live here?”
-
-“My home is in New York, and I return to-morrow.”
-
-“Oh! Well, I don’t see how I should interest you.”
-
-“You do, though, and that’s all there is to it. I’m neither as cautious
-as an Englishman nor as practical as an American—though God rest the
-two of them; I mean nothing to their detriment. But there’s a force in
-you, and force doesn’t go to waste, although it’s more often than not
-misdirected. I can feel yours myself; and I’m told that you’re the
-cleverest girl in the town as well as the proudest and most ambitious.
-Now, what do you intend to do with yourself?”
-
-“I suppose I’ll be a teacher; and if Mrs. Sparhawk has no objections I
-may go East soon and live with a religious old lady.”
-
-“Well, that’s not so bad; only I doubt if that life will suit you any
-better than this.” He put his finger under her chin and turned her face
-to the light. “I am a lawyer, you know,” he added, “and features and
-lines and curves mean a good deal to me. You’ve got a good will, begad,
-and like all first-class American women, you’ll keep your head up until
-you drop. And you have all her faculty of beginning life over again
-several times, if necessary. You’ll never rust nor mould, nor write
-polemical novels if things don’t go your way. You’ve got a good strong
-brain behind those eyes, and although you’ll make mistakes of various
-sorts, you’ll kick them behind you when you’re done with them, begin
-over and be none the worse. Remember that no mistake is irrevocable;
-that there are as many to-morrows as yesterdays; that only the incapable
-has a past. It is all a matter of will as far as the world is concerned,
-and ideals as far as your own soul goes. No matter how often
-circumstances and your own weakness compel you to let go your own
-private ideals, deliberately put them back on their pedestal the moment
-you have recovered balance, and make for their attainment as if nothing
-had happened. Then you’ll never acquire an aged soul and never lose your
-grip. Can you remember all that?”
-
-“You bet I can.”
-
-He laughed. “I believe you. I might add: Don’t love the wrong man, but
-I’ll not throw away good advice. You’ll not be wholly guided by reason
-in those matters. I will merely say, Rub the first experience in hard
-and let a long while elapse before your second, or it will be the
-greater mistake of the two. Your reactions will be very violent, I
-should say. Well, I’ll be going now.”
-
-“I’d rather you’d stay and talk.”
-
-“Would you? Well, being a lawyer, I know where to stop. Besides, I’ll
-have all those fellows after me if I stay too long. We’ll doubtless meet
-again. The world is small these days.”
-
-Patience followed him reluctantly down the stair, and he walked beside
-her across the valley, leading his horse. When they reached the
-farmhouse he shook hands with her warmly, wished her good luck, and rode
-away. She ran up to her room, and, lighting a candle, transcribed his
-words into an old copybook.
-
-
- XI
-
-Miss Galpin expostulated with Mrs. Thrailkill to such effect that
-Patience spent two hours each afternoon in the family garret rehearsing
-Rosita while the astonished rats took refuge in the chimney. Patience
-could not act, but she had dramatic appreciation and an intellectual
-conception of any part not beyond her years. Rosita was not
-intellectual, but, as Patience had discerned, the spirit of Thalia was
-in her. She quickly became enamoured of her unsuspected resources and at
-the prospect of exhibiting herself on a platform. Not only did she rouse
-herself to something like exertion, but she faithfully followed the
-instructions of her strenuous teacher and discovered a talent for posing
-and little tricks of manner all her own. Her mother taught her the song
-and dance, which were to be the sensation of the evening.
-
-It was on the fourth day that Patience, returning home late in the
-afternoon, met Mr. Foord in the woods. The old gentleman looked sad and
-perplexed, and Patience sprang upon the step of his buggy and demanded
-to know what was the matter.
-
-“It’s very odd,” he said, “but she won’t let you go.”
-
-“Won’t let me go?” cried Patience, furiously. “Well, I’ll go anyhow.”
-
-“You can’t, my dear. The law won’t let you.”
-
-“Do you mean to say that the law won’t protect me from that woman?”
-
-“I am afraid she has the best of it.” He recalled the woman’s angry
-cunning face, as he had pleaded with her, and shook his head. “You see
-she was never in the town in that condition before. The men out there
-are so devoted to her that—so she has informed me—they would swear to
-a man that they had never seen her drunk. And, you see, she’s never
-abused you—the only time she struck you she had provocation—you must
-admit that. You are under her control until you are eighteen, and I
-don’t see that we can do anything. I’m very sorry. I never felt so
-defeated in my life.”
-
-“But for gracious goodness sake why won’t she let me go? I’m no good to
-speak of about the place, and she certainly isn’t keeping me for love.”
-
-“Well—I think it’s revenge. She remarked that she had a chance to pay
-up and she’d do it.”
-
-“I’ll just run away, that’s all.”
-
-“The law would bring you back, and arrest me for abduction.”
-
-“I hate the law,” said Patience, gloomily. “Seems to me I’m always
-finding something new to hate.”
-
-“You must not hate, my child,” and he quoted the Bible dutifully,
-although in entire sympathy with her. “That is what I am so afraid
-of—that you will become hard and bitter. I want to save you from that.
-Well, perhaps she’ll relent. I shall see her again and again. I must go
-on, Patience.”
-
-She kissed him and walked sullenly homeward. As she entered the kitchen
-her mother looked up and laughed. Her face was triumphant and malignant.
-
-“You don’t go,” she said. “Not much. I’ve got the whip hand this time
-and I’ll keep it. Here you’ll stay until you’re eighteen—”
-
-Patience turned abruptly and ran upstairs. As she locked her door she
-thought with some satisfaction: “Now that I know myself I can control
-myself. If I’d jumped on her then she’d have fallen in the stove.”
-
-As her imagination had not dwelt at great length upon the proposed
-change the disappointment was not as keen as it might have been, much as
-she desired to leave Monterey. Moreover, she was occupied with Rosita
-and the coming examinations. And did she not have her Byron? She rose at
-dawn and read him. In the evening she went over to the tower and
-declaimed him to the grey ocean whose passions were eternal. The owl,
-who regarded Byron as a great bore, closed his eyes when she began and
-went to sleep. Sometimes—when the sun rode high—she sat upon the
-rubbish over Junipero Serra’s bones, and with one eye out for rats and
-snakes and tarantulas, conned a new poem. She liked the contrast between
-the desolation and death in the old ruin and the warm atmosphere of the
-poetry. As often Byron was unheeded, and she dreamed of the mysterious
-stranger who had so magnetised her that she had forgotten to ask his
-name. She had only to close her eyes to hear his voice, to recall the
-words which seemed forever moving in one or other chamber of her mind,
-to see the profile which she admired quite as much as Byron’s. As for
-the voice, it had a possessing quality which made her understand the
-wherefore of the thrilling notes of the male bird in spring-time. She
-invested her ambitious young lawyer with all the dark sardonic
-melancholic fascinations of Lara, Conrad, Manfred, and Don Juan. The
-wild sweet sting of spring was in her veins. Her mind was full of vague
-illusions, very lovely and very strange, shifting of outline and wholly
-inexplicable.
-
-
- XII
-
-On the afternoon of the last day of school several of the girls
-decorated the hall with garlands and flags. Carpenters erected a stage,
-and Patience arranged the “properties.” When the great night arrived and
-Monterey in its best attire crowded the room, no curtain in the sleepy
-town had ever been regarded with more complacent expectation. The
-Montereñas were thoroughly satisfied with their offspring, and
-performances of any sort were few.
-
-The programme was opened by Manuela, who wore an old pink satin frock of
-her mother’s cut short and trimmed with a flounce of Spanish lace. Her
-brown shining face looked good will upon all the world as she recited
-“The Wreck of the Hesperus.” Then came a dialogue in which all the
-little participants wore white frocks and crimped hair.
-
-Meanwhile, in the dressing-room, Rosita was limp in Patience’s arms.
-
-“Oh, Patita!” she gasped, “I can’t! I can’t! I’m frightened to death!
-What shall I do?”
-
-“Do?” cried Patience, angrily, who was so excited herself that she
-pumped Rosita’s arms up and down as if the unfledged Thespian had just
-been rescued from the bay. “Do? You must brace up. When you get there
-you’ll be all right. And you _must not_ get stage fright. Rosita, you
-_must_ make a success. Remember you’ve got the star part. Don’t, _don’t_
-make a fool of yourself.”
-
-“Oh, if you could only hold my hand,” wailed Rosita.
-
-“Well, I can’t, and that’s the end of it. Now! brace up quick.” The
-prompter was calling in a loud whisper,—
-
-“Miss Thrailkill, be ready when I say, ‘Life.’”
-
-“_Ay, dios de mi alma_,” almost sobbed Rosita.
-
-Patience dragged her to the wings and held her there. When the cue was
-spoken she gave her a hard pinch, then a shove. Rosita gasped and
-disappeared.
-
-Patience slipped round into the audience, her heart in her throat, her
-eyes black with excitement. If Rosita broke down she felt that she
-should have hysterics.
-
-At first Rosita had nothing to say. Upon entering she had merely to
-fling herself upon a divan in an indolent attitude whilst the others
-carried on a spirited dialogue. Patience saw that she had managed to get
-to the sofa without falling prone, but also observed that her bosom was
-heaving. Nevertheless, when her time came she managed to drawl her
-lines, although with as little expression as she told her rosary.
-Patience stamped her foot audibly.
-
-But as the play progressed it was evident that Rosita was recovering her
-poise. When she finally had to come forward she moved with all the
-indolent grace of her blood, and delivered her little speech with such
-piquant fire that the audience applauded loudly. And with that clatter
-of feet and hands a new light sprang into the Spanish girl’s eyes, an
-expression half of surprise, half of transport. From that time on she
-acted in a manner which astonished even her instructor.
-
-She looked exquisitely pretty. Her white rounded neck and arms were
-bare. Her black soft hair hung to her knees, unbound, caught back above
-one little ear with a pink rose. Her dress was of black Spanish lace
-covered with natural roses. On her tiny feet she wore a pair of black
-satin slippers which had belonged to her grandmother and twinkled many a
-time to the music of El Son.
-
-When, upon being twitted with her indolence, she suddenly sprang to the
-front of the stage, and after singing an old Spanish love-song to the
-music of her own guitar, danced El Son with all the rhythmic grace of
-the beautiful women of the old gay time, she was no longer an actress
-but an impersonator. The more the delighted audience applauded the more
-poetically she danced, the more significantly her long eyes flamed. Once
-when the applause deafened she swayed as if intoxicated. As the dance
-finished, her red lips were parted. She was panting slightly.
-
-When the curtain fell Patience rushed into the dressing-room and
-embraced her rapturously. “Rosita!” she cried, “you were simply,
-mag-_nif_-icent.”
-
-Rosita, who was trembling violently, hung about Patience’s neck.
-
-“Oh, Patita!” she gasped. “I was in heaven. I never was so happy. You
-don’t know what it is to have a hundred people thinking of nothing but
-you and applauding as if they were mad. Oh, I’m going to act, act, act
-forever! I never want to do anything else. And isn’t my skin white? I
-wish I had two necks and four arms.”
-
-
- XIII
-
-The next morning prizes were distributed. Patience took most of them,
-but Rosita was still the sensation of the hour, although she had not
-passed an examination. At noon she had a luncheon party. She sat at the
-head of her table in a white dotted Swiss frock and Roman sash, and
-talked faster than she had ever talked in her life before. Altogether
-she was by no means the Rosita of twenty-four hours ago.
-
-Mrs. Thrailkill had prepared a luncheon of old time Spanish dishes, and
-hovered, large and brown and placid, about a table loaded with chickens
-under mounds of yellow rice, _tamales_, and _dulces_. Patience, between
-Manuela and a young cousin of Rosita’s, was not unhappy. Her prizes lay
-on the window seat, she liked good things, and was infected with the
-gaiety of the hour. True, she wore her old muslin frock and a plaid sash
-made from an ancient gown of her mother’s, and the rest of the girls
-looked like a bed of newly blossomed flowers; but at fifteen the spirits
-rise high above trifles.
-
-When she started for home she was as light of heart as her more favoured
-mates; but in the wood a dire affliction smote her. One of her teeth
-began to ache. She had seen her mother many times with head tied up and
-distorted face, and had wondered scornfully how any one could make a
-fuss about a mere tooth. Now, however, when her own suddenly felt as if
-impaled on a needle, she uttered a loud wail, and ran toward home as
-fast as her legs could carry her. She found her mother similarly
-afflicted, and a bottle of drops on the kitchen table. Mrs. Sparhawk
-condescended to apply the remedy, and the agony left as suddenly as it
-had come.
-
-After supper Patience went over to her tower, and as ever floated
-between Carmel Valley and the stars, enveloped with warm ether, which
-swirled to towers and turrets inhabited by a projection of herself which
-she saw only as a lover. Unfortunately all this rapture was enacted in a
-strong draught. Even Solomon uttered a sound once or twice which
-resembled a sneeze. Again Patience’s tooth was punctured by a red-hot
-needle. Her castles vanished. She caught her cheek with her hand,
-stumbled down the winding stair, and flew across the valley, the needle
-developing into a screw.
-
-The house was quiet, the kitchen dark. She lit a candle and searched
-frantically for the drops. They were not to be found. Then it occurred
-to her that her mother must have taken them to her room, and she ran up
-the stair.
-
-
- XIV
-
-At dawn next morning Patience found herself on the summit of the
-mountain behind the house. Her progress thither had skimmed the surface
-of memory and left no trace.
-
-The sea was grey, the sky was grey. A grey mist moved in the valley.
-Beyond, the wood on the hill loomed in faint black outline. The birds in
-the trees, the seagulls on the rocks, the very ocean itself, were locked
-in the heavy sleep of early morning. Once, from the tower of the
-Mission, came the plaintive hooting of the owl.
-
-After a time Patience plucked a number of stickers from her stockings,
-and wiped blood from her torn hands with a large leaf wet with dew. She
-clasped her hands inertly about her knees and stared down upon the
-ocean. Horror was in her sunken eyes. The skin of her face looked faded
-and old. Her nose and chin were as pinched as the features of the dead.
-She did not look like the same child. Nor was she.
-
-Her eyes closed heavily, her head dropped. She roused herself. She felt
-that she had no right to do anything again so natural as to sleep. But
-suddenly she toppled over and lay motionless; until the sun sent its
-slanting rays under her eyelids. Then she stretched herself lazily,
-rubbing her eyes, and smiling as children do when waking. But the smile
-froze to a ghastly grin.
-
-She raised herself stiffly and descended the mountain, clinging to the
-brush, the stones rolling from beneath her feet. She ran across the
-valley and plunged into the pine woods, but did not linger in those
-fragrant aisles.
-
-When she reached the edge of the town she paused and half turned back;
-but there was one thing she dreaded more than to meet the people of
-Monterey, and she went on.
-
-She skirted the town and made her way toward the Custom House by a
-roundabout path. She passed a group of boys, and averted her head with a
-gesture of loathing. One boy, a gallant admirer, ran after her.
-
-“Patience!” he cried, “wait a minute.” But Patience took to her heels
-and never paused until she reached the Custom House. The perplexed
-knight stood still and whistled.
-
-“Well,” he exclaimed to his jeering comrades, “I always knew Patience
-Sparhawk was a crank, but this lets _me_ out.”
-
-Patience stood for a few moments on the rocks, then went slowly to the
-library and opened the door. Mr. Foord sat by the fire. He looked up
-with a smile.
-
-“Ah, it’s you,” he said. “I’m very proud of you.—Why, what’s the
-matter?”
-
-Patience, her eyes fixed on the floor, took a chair opposite him.
-
-“What is it, Patience?”
-
-She did not look up. She could not. Finally she moved her face from him
-and stared at the mantel.
-
-“I’ve left home,” she said. “I’d like to stay here for a while.”
-
-“Why, of course you can stay here. I’ll tell Lola to put a cot in her
-room. But what is the matter? Has your mother been drinking again?”
-
-“I don’t know.”
-
-“Has she struck you again?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Well, what is it, my dear child? You know that you are always more than
-welcome here; but you must have some excuse for leaving home.”
-
-“I have an excuse. I can’t tell it. Please don’t say anything more about
-it. I don’t think she’ll send for me.”
-
-“Well, well, perhaps you’ll tell me after a time. Meanwhile make
-yourself at home.”
-
-He was much puzzled, but reflected that Patience was not like other
-children; and he knew Mrs. Sparhawk’s commanding talent for making
-herself disagreeable. Still, he was shocked at her appearance; and as
-the day wore on and she would not meet his eye, but sat staring at the
-floor, his uneasy mind glimpsed ugly possibilities. At dinner she ate
-little and did not raise her eyes from her plate, although she made a
-few commonplace remarks.
-
-At four o’clock Billy, the buggy, and a farm hand stopped before the
-Custom House. The man handed a note to Lola, asking her to give it to
-Patience.
-
-The note read:
-
- You come home—hear? If you don’t, I’ll see that you do.
-
- M. SPARHAWK.
-
-Patience went out to the man, who still sat in the buggy. “Tell her,”
-she said, looking at Billy, “that I’m not going home,—not now nor at
-any other time. Just make her understand that I mean it.”
-
-The man stared, but nodded and drove off.
-
-
- XV
-
-At midnight Patience was awakened by a frantic clamour in the street.
-“Those dreadful Bohemians,” she thought sleepily, then sat up with
-thumping heart.
-
-“They say your name, _niña_, no?” said Lola, whose sonorous slumbers had
-also been disturbed.
-
-Patience slipped to the floor and looked through the window. The moon
-flooded the old town. The ruined fort on the hill had never looked more
-picturesque, the pines above more calm. In the hollow near the blue
-waters the white arms of Junipero Serra’s cross seemed extended in
-benediction. The old adobes were young for the hour. One might fancy
-Isabel Herrara walking down from the long house on the hill, her
-_reboso_ fluttering in the night wind, old Pio Pico, glittering with
-jewels, beside her.
-
-And in the wide street before the Custom House, surrounded by a hooting
-mob, the refuse of the saloons, was a cursing gesticulating woman. Her
-black hair was unbound, her garment torn. She flung her fists in the
-face of those that sought to hold her.
-
-“Patience Sparhawk!” she shrieked. “Patience Sparhawk! Come down here to
-your mother. Come down here this minute. Come, I say,” and a volley of
-oaths followed, greeted with a loud cackling laugh by the rabble.
-
-Patience saw Mr. Foord, clad in his dressing-gown, go forth. She flung
-on her clothes hastily and ran down the stair. Her mother and Mr. Foord
-were in the kitchen.
-
-“Oh, she’ll come back,” Mrs. Sparhawk was saying. “I’ll see to that. How
-do you like a row under your windows? Well, I’ll come here every night
-unless she comes home. You’ll put me in the Home of the Inebriates, will
-you? Think she’ll like to have that said of her mother when she’s grown
-up? Not Patience Sparhawk. I know her weak point. She’s as proud as
-hell, and I’m not afraid of going to any Home of the Inebriates.”
-
-Patience pushed open the door. “I’m going with you,” she said. “Now get
-out of this house as fast as you can.”
-
-“Oh, Patience,” exclaimed Mr. Foord. His old cheeks were splashed with
-tears.
-
-“Oh, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry,” said Patience, her hands clenching and
-quivering. “I didn’t think she’d do this, or I wouldn’t have stayed.
-What a return for all your kindness!”
-
-“Patience,” said the old gentleman, “promise me that you will come to
-see me to-morrow. Promise, or I shall not let you go. She can do her
-worst.”
-
-“Well, I’ll come.”
-
-She ordered her mother to follow her out of the back door that they
-might avoid the expectant mob. Mrs. Sparhawk walked unsteadily, but
-received no assistance from her daughter. If she had fallen, Patience
-could not have forced herself to touch her. Had the woman been a reeling
-mass of physical corruption, a leper, a small-pox scab, the girl could
-not have shrunken farther from her.
-
-They did not speak until they ascended the hill behind the town and
-entered the woods. Patience never recalled that night without inhaling
-the balsamic odour of the pines, the heavy perfume of forest lilies,
-without seeing the great yellow stars through the uplifted arms of the
-trees. It was a night for love, and its guest was hate.
-
-No more terrible conversation ever took place between mother and
-daughter. After that night they never spoke again.
-
-
- XVI
-
-The next morning Patience, after breakfast, carried a pair of tongs and
-a newspaper up to her room. She spread the newspaper on the table, then
-with the tongs extracted Byron from beneath the bed and laid it on the
-paper. She wrapped it up and tied it securely without letting her hands
-come in contact with the cover. That same afternoon she carried the book
-to the Custom House and threw it behind a row of tall volumes in one of
-the cases. Long after, Mr. Foord found it there and wondered. He was not
-at home when she arrived. When he returned she was deep in his
-arm-chair, reading Gibbon’s “Rome.” He was not without tact, and
-determined at once to ignore the events of the previous day and night.
-
-“What!” he exclaimed, “are you really giving poor old Gibbon a trial at
-last? And after all your abuse? But perhaps you won’t find him so dry,
-after all.”
-
-“I wish to read what is dry,” said Patience. “I’m going to take a course
-in ancient history.”
-
-“No more poetry and novels?”
-
-“Not a line.” She spoke harshly, and compelled herself to meet Mr.
-Foord’s eyes. Her own were as hard and as cold as steel. All the soft
-dreaming light of the past two months had gone out of them. They were
-the eyes neither of a girl nor of a woman. They looked the eyes of a
-sexless intellect.
-
-Patience had done the one thing which a girl of fifteen can do when
-crushed with problems; she had twitched her shoulders and flung them
-off. She comprehended that her intellect was her best friend, and
-plunged her racked head into the hard facts which required utmost
-concentration of mind. The sweet vague dreams of the past were turned
-from in loathing. If she thought of them at all it was with fierce
-resentment that she had become conscious of her womanhood. The stranger
-was thrust out of memory. She went no more to the tower. The owl hooted
-in his loneliness, and she drew the bed-clothes over her ears. When she
-walked through the woods, to and from the town, she recited Gibbon in
-synopsis. She spent the day in Mr. Foord’s library, returning home in
-time to get supper. She did her household duties mechanically, and the
-eyes of mother and daughter never met. The man Oscar kept out of her
-way.
-
-Miss Galpin had gone to San Francisco and would return no more: she was
-to marry. Rosita was visiting in Santa Barbara. Manuela, now a young
-lady, was devoting the greater part of her time to the Hotel Del Monte,
-where the flower and vegetables of San Francisco gather in summer. She
-went up to the tanks in the morning and to the dances in the evening;
-and informed Patience, one day as they met on the street, that she was
-having a perfectly gorgeous time, and had met a man who was too lovely
-for words.
-
-The long hot days and the foggy nights wore slowly away. Patience grew
-thinner, her face harder. Mr. Foord did his best to divert her, but his
-resources were limited. She peremptorily forbade him to allude to the
-romance of Monterey, and he took her out in his old buggy and talked of
-Gibbon’s “Rome.”
-
-Once they drove through the grounds of Del Monte,—the trim artificial
-grounds that are such an anomaly in that valley of memories. On the long
-veranda of the great hotel of airy architecture people sat in the bright
-attire of summer. Matrons rocked and gossiped; girls talked eagerly to
-languid youths that sat on the railing. It was all as unreal to Patience
-as the fairy-land of her childhood, when she had hunted for fays and
-elves in the wood. She stared at the scene angrily, for the first time
-feeling the sting of the social bee.
-
-“A vain frivolous life those people lead,” remarked Mr. Foord, who
-disapproved of The World. “A waste of time and God’s best gifts, which
-makes them selfish and heartless. Empty heads and hollow hearts.”
-
-But Patience, gazing at those girls in their gay dainty attire, the like
-of which she had never seen before, experienced a sudden violent wish to
-be of them, empty head, hollow heart, and all. They looked happy and
-free of care. The very atmosphere of the veranda seemed full of colour
-and music. Above all, they were utterly different from Patience
-Sparhawk, blessed and enviable beings. Even the frivolity of the scene
-appealed to her, so sick unto death of serious things.
-
-
- XVII
-
-One day, late in September, Patience, as usual, left Monterey at half
-past four in order to reach home in time to cook the supper. Nature had
-smiled for so many successive days that she wondered if the lips so
-persistently set must not soon strain back and reveal the teeth. The
-sun, poised behind the pine woods, flooded them with yellow light. As
-Patience walked through the soft radiance she set her teeth and recalled
-the chapters of Thiers’ “French Revolution,” through which she had that
-day plodded. But her head felt dull. She realised with a quiver of
-terror that she was beginning to feel less like an intellect and more
-like a very helpless little girl. Once she discovered her curved arm
-creeping to her eyes. She flung it down and shook her head angrily. Was
-she like other people?
-
-Mingling with the fragrance of the pines it seemed to her that she smelt
-smoke. She hoped that her woods were not on fire. She walked slowly,
-indisposed as ever to return home, the more so to-day as she felt
-herself breaking.
-
-“I wish the sun would not grin so,” she thought. “I’ll be glad when
-winter comes.”
-
-The smell of smoke grew stronger. She left the woods. A moment later she
-stood, white and trembling, looking down upon Carmel Valley. The
-Sparhawk farmhouse was a blazing mass of timbers. A volume of smoke, as
-straight and full as a waterspout, stood directly above it. Men were
-running about. Their shouts came faintly to her.
-
-Patience pressed her hands convulsively to her eyes. She clutched her
-head as if to tear out the terrible hope clattering in her brain, then
-ran down the hill and across the valley, feeling all the while as if
-possessed by ten thousand devils.
-
-“Oh, I’m bad, bad, bad!” she sobbed in terror. “I don’t, I don’t!”
-
-As she reached the scene the roof fell in. She glanced hastily about.
-The men, withdrawn to a safe distance, were gathered round the man
-Oscar. One was binding his hands and face. As they saw Patience they
-turned as if to run, then stood doggedly.
-
-“Where is she?” Patience asked.
-
-There was an instant’s pause. The crackling of the flames grew louder,
-as if it would answer. Then one of the men blurted out: “Burnt up in her
-bed. She was drunk. We was all in the field when the fire broke out.
-When we got here Oscar tried to get at her room with a ladder, but it
-was no go. Poor old Madge.”
-
-Patience without another word turned and ran back to the woods. She ran
-until she was exhausted, more horrified at herself than she had been at
-any of her unhappy experiences. After a time she fell among the dry pine
-needles, her good, as she expressed it, still trying to fight down her
-bad. She felt that the demon possessing her would have sung aloud had
-she not held it by the throat. She conjured up all the horrible details
-of her mother’s death and ordered her soul to pity; but her brain
-remarked coldly that her mother had probably felt nothing. She imagined
-the charred corpse, but it only offended her artistic sense.
-
-Finally she fell asleep. The day was far gone when she awoke. She lay
-for a time staring at the dim arches above her, listening to the night
-voices she had once loved so passionately. At last she drew a deep sigh.
-
-“I might just as well face the truth,” she said aloud. “I’m glad, and
-that’s the end of it. It’s wicked and I’m sorry; but what is, is, and I
-can’t help it. We’re not all made alike.”
-
-
- XVIII
-
-Patience was once more installed in Lola’s room. Mr. Foord applied for
-letters of guardianship, which were granted at once. But as he had
-feared, she was left without a penny. He wrote to his half-sister,
-asking her if she would take charge of his ward. Miss Tremont replied in
-enthusiastic affirmation. Miss Galpin invited Patience to spend two
-weeks with her in San Francisco, offering to replenish the girl’s
-wardrobe with several of her own old frocks made over.
-
-Those two weeks seemed to Patience the mad whirl of excitement of which
-she had read in novels. She had never seen a city before, and the very
-cable cars fascinated her. To glide up and down the hills was to her the
-poetry of science. The straggling city on its hundred hills, the crowded
-streets and gay shop windows, the theatres, the restaurants, China Town,
-the beautiful bay with its bare colorous hills, surprised her into
-admitting that life appeared to be quite well worth living after all.
-When she returned to Monterey she talked so fast that Mr. Foord clapped
-his hands to his ears, and Rosita listened with expanded eyes.
-
-“Ay, if I could live in San Francisco!” she said, plaintively. “I acted
-all summer, Patita, but I got tired of the same people, and I want to go
-to the big theatres and see the real ones do it. I’d like to hear a
-great big house applauding, only I’d be so jealous of the leading lady.”
-
-Patience was to start, immediately after Christmas, by steamer for New
-York. Mr. Foord spent the last days giving her much good advice. He said
-little of his own sorrow to part from her. Once he had been tempted to
-keep her for the short time that remained to him, but had put the
-temptation aside with the sad resignation of old age. He knew Patience’s
-imperative need of new impressions in these her plastic years.
-
-The day before she left she went over to Carmel to say good-bye to
-Solomon. He flapped his wings with delight, although he could not see
-her, and nestled close to her side in a manner quite unlike his haughty
-habit. Patience thought he looked older and greyer, and his wings had a
-dejected droop. She took him in her arms with an impulse of tenderness,
-and this time he did not repulse her.
-
-“Poor old Solomon,” she said, “I suppose you are lonely and forlorn in
-your old age, but this old tower wouldn’t be what it is without you.
-It’s too bad I can’t write to you as I can to my two or three other
-friends, and you’ll never know I haven’t forgotten you, poor old
-Solomon. Oh, dear! Oh, dear! I wonder if owls do suffer too. You look so
-wise and venerable, perhaps you are thinking that lonely old age is
-terrible—as I know Mr. Foord does.”
-
-Solomon pecked at her mildly. Her gaze wandered out over the ocean. She
-wondered if a thousand years had passed since she had dreamed her
-dreams. Their very echoes came from the mountains of space.
-
-When she went away Solomon followed her to the head of the stair. She
-looked upward once and saw him standing there, with drooping wings and
-head a little bent. The darkness of the stair gave him vision, and he
-fluttered his wings expectantly, as she paused and lifted her face to
-him. But when she did not return he walked with great dignity to his
-accustomed place against the wall, nor even lifted up his voice in
-protest.
-
-The next morning Rosita accompanied her to the station and wept loudly
-as the train approached. But Patience did not cry until she stood in her
-stateroom with Mr. Foord.
-
-
-
-
- BOOK II
-
-
- I
-
-Patience watched the dusty hills of San Francisco, the sparkling bay
-alive with sail and spar, the pink mountains of the far coast range, the
-brown hills opposite the grey city, willowed and gulched and bare, the
-forts on rock and points, until the wild lurching of the steamer over
-the bar directed her attention to the unhappy passengers. In a short
-while she had not even these to amuse her, nothing but a grey plain and
-empty decks. At first she felt a waif in space; but soon a delightful
-sense of independence stole over her, of freedom from all the ills and
-responsibilities of life. The land world might have collapsed upon its
-fiery heart, so little could it affect her while that waste of waters
-slid under the horizon.
-
-The few passengers came forth restored in a day or two. A husband and
-wife and several children did not interest Patience; neither did the
-captain’s wife, in whose charge she was. A young girl with a tangle of
-yellow hair under a sailor hat was more inviting, but she flirted
-industriously with the purser and took not the slightest notice of
-Patience. Her invalid mother reclined languidly in a steamer chair and
-read the novels of E. P. Roe.
-
-The only other passenger was an elderly gentleman who read books in
-white covers neatly lettered with black which fascinated Patience. She
-was beginning to long for books. The invalid lent her a Roe, but she
-returned it half unread. As the old gentleman had never addressed her,
-did not seem to be aware of her existence, she could hardly expect a
-similar courtesy from him.
-
-She was glowering upon universal stupidity one morning when he appeared
-on deck with a carpet bag, from which, after comfortably establishing
-himself in his steamer chair, he took little white volume after little
-white volume. Patience’s curiosity overcame her. She went forward slowly
-and stood before him. He looked up sharply. His black eyes, piercing
-from their shaggy arches, made her twitch her head as if to fling aside
-some penetrative force. His very beard, silver though it was, had a
-fierce sidewise twist. His nose was full nostrilled and drooped
-scornfully. The spectacles he wore served as a sort of lens for the fire
-of his extraordinary eyes.
-
-“Well?” he said gruffly.
-
-“Please, sir,” said Patience, humbly, “will you lend me a book?”
-
-“Book? I don’t carry children’s literature round with me.”
-
-“I don’t read children’s literature.”
-
-“Oh, you don’t? Well, not ‘The Chatterbox,’ I suppose; but I have
-nothing of Pansy’s nor yet of The Duchess.”
-
-“I wouldn’t read them if you had,” cried Patience, angrily. “Perhaps
-I’ve read a good many books that you haven’t re-read so long ago
-yourself. I’ve read Dickens and Thackeray and Scott, and,” with a
-shudder, “Gibbon’s ‘Rome’ and Thiers’ ‘French Revolution.’”
-
-“Oh, you have? Well, I beg your pardon. Sit down, and I’ll see if I can
-find something for a young lady of your surprising attainments.”
-
-Patience, too pleased to resent sarcasm, applied herself to his elbow.
-
-“Why are they all bound alike?” she asked.
-
-“This is the Tauchnitz edition of notable English and American books.
-How is this?” He handed her a volume of Grace Aguilar.
-
-“No, sir! I’ve tried her, and she’s a greater bore than Jane Austen.”
-
-“Oh, you want a love story, I suppose?” His accentuation was fairly
-sardonic.
-
-“No, I don’t,” she said with an intonation which made him turn and
-regard her with interest. Then once more he explored his bag.
-
-“Will this suit you?” He held out a copy of Carlyle’s “French
-Revolution.”
-
-Patience groaned. “Didn’t I tell you I’d just read Thiers’?”
-
-“This isn’t Thiers’. Try it.” And he took no further notice of her.
-
-Patience opened the volume, and in a few moments was absorbed. There was
-something in the storm and blare of the style which struck a responsive
-chord. She did not raise her head until dinner time. She scarcely spoke
-until she had finished the volume, and then only to ask for the second.
-For several days she felt as if the atmosphere was charged with
-dynamite, and jumped when any one addressed her. The owner of the
-Tauchnitz watched her curiously. When she had finished the second volume
-she told him that she did not care for anything more at present. She
-leaned over the railing most of the day, watching the waves. Toward
-sunset the gentleman called peremptorily,—
-
-“Come here.”
-
-Patience stood before his chair.
-
-“Well, what do you think of it?” he demanded. “Tell me exactly what your
-impressions are.”
-
-“I feel as if there was an earthquake in my skull and all sorts of
-pictures flying about, and exploded pieces of drums and trumpets, and
-kings and queens. I think Carlyle must have been made on purpose to
-write the French Revolution. It was—as if—there was a great picture of
-it made on the atmosphere, and when he was born it passed into him.”
-
-“Upon my word,” he said, “you are a degree or two removed from the
-letters of bread and milk. You are a very remarkable kid. Sit down.”
-
-Patience took the chair beside him. “He made my head ache,” she added.
-“I feel as if it had been hammered.”
-
-“I don’t wonder. Older heads have felt the same way. What’s your name?”
-
-“Patience Sparhawk.”
-
-“Tell me all about yourself.”
-
-“Oh, there isn’t much to tell,” and she frowned heavily.
-
-“Don’t look so tragic—you alarm me. I’m convinced there is a great
-deal. Come, I want to know.”
-
-Patience gave a few inane particulars. The old gentleman snorted. “It’s
-evident you’ve never been interviewed,” he said grimly. “Now, I’ll tell
-you who I am, and then you won’t mind talking about yourself. There’s
-nothing so catching as egotism. My name is James E. Field. I own one of
-the great newspapers of New York, of which I am also editor-in-chief. Do
-you know what that means? Well, if you don’t, let me tell you. It is to
-be a man more powerful than the President of the United States, for he
-can make presidents, which is something the president himself can’t do.
-He knows more about people’s private affairs than any of intimate
-relationship; he has his finger on the barometer of his readers’ brain;
-he can make them sensational or sober, intellectually careless or
-exacting; he can keep them in ignorance of all that is best worth
-knowing of the world’s affairs, by snubbing the great events and
-tendencies of the day and vitiating their brain with local crimes and
-scandals, or he can illumine their minds and widen their brain cells by
-not only enlarging upon what every intelligent person should wish to
-know, but by making such matter of profound interest; he can ignore
-science, or enlighten several hundred thousand people; he can add to the
-happiness of the human race by exposing abuses and hidden crime, or he
-can accept hush money and let the sore fester; he can lash the unrest of
-the lower classes, or chloroform it; he can use the sledge hammer, the
-rapier, and the vitriol, or give over his editorial page to windy
-nothings; he can demolish political bosses, or prolong their career. In
-short, his power is greater than Alexander’s was, for he is a general of
-minds instead of brute force.”
-
-“My goodness gracious!” exclaimed Patience. “What sort of a paper have
-you got?”
-
-He laughed. “Wait until you’ve lived in New York awhile and you’ll find
-out. Its name is the ‘Day,’ and it has made a president or two, and made
-one or two others wish they’d never been born. By the way, I didn’t tell
-you much about myself, did I? The auxiliary subject carried me away. I’m
-married, and have several sons and daughters, and am off for a rest—not
-from the family but from the ‘Day.’ I’ve been round the world. That will
-do for the present. Tell me all about Monterey.”
-
-With consummate skill he extracted the history of her sixteen years. On
-some points she fought him so obstinately that he inferred what she
-would not tell. He ended by becoming profoundly interested. He was a man
-of enthusiasms, which sometimes wrote themselves in vitriol, at others
-in the milk of human kindness. His keen unerring brain, which Patience
-fancied flashed electric search lights, comprehended that it had
-stumbled upon a character waging perpetual war with the pitiless Law of
-Circumstance, and that the issue might serve as a plot for one of the
-mental dramas of the day.
-
-“Your experience and the bad blood in you, taken in connection with your
-bright and essentially modern mind, will make a sort of intellectual
-anarchist of you,” he said. “I doubt if you take kindly to the domestic
-life. You will probably go in for the social problems, and ride some
-polemical hobby for eight or ten years, at the end of which time you
-will be inclined to look upon your sex as the soubrettes of history.
-Your enthusiasm may make you a faddist, but your common sense may aid
-you in the perception of several eternal truths which the women of
-to-day in their blind bolt have overlooked.”
-
-A moment later he repented his generalisations, for Patience had
-demanded full particulars. Nevertheless, he gave her many a graphic
-outline of the various phases of current history, and was the most
-potent educational force that she had yet encountered. She preferred him
-to books and admired him without reserve, trotting at his heels like a
-small dog. His unique and virile personality, his brilliant and
-imperious mind, magnetised the modern essence of which she was made.
-There was nothing of the old-fashioned intellectual type about him. He
-might have induced the coining of the word “brainy,”—he certainly typed
-it. Although he had the white hair and the accumulated wisdom of his
-years, he had the eyes of youth and the fist of vigour at any age. One
-day when two natives looked too long upon Patience’s blondinity, as she
-and Mr. Field were exploring a banana grove during one of their brief
-excursions on shore, he cracked their skulls together as if they had
-been two cocoanuts.
-
-Patience laughed as the blacks dropped sullenly behind. “How funny that
-they should admire me,” she said. “I’m not pretty.”
-
-“Well, you’re white. Besides, there is one thing more fascinating than
-beauty, and that is a strong individuality. It radiates and magnetises.”
-
-“Have I all that?” Patience blushed with delight.
-
-He laughed good-naturedly. “Yes, I’ll stake a good deal that you have.
-You may even be pretty some day; that is, if you ever get those freckles
-off.”
-
-Inherent as was her passion for nature, she enjoyed the rich beauty of
-the tropics the more for the companionship of a mind skilled in
-observation and interpretation. It was her first mental comprehension of
-the law of duality.
-
-As they approached New York harbour Mr. Field said to her: “I think I’ll
-have to make a newspaper woman of you. When you have finished your
-education, don’t think of settling down to any such humdrum career as
-that of the school-teacher. Come to me, and I’ll put you through your
-paces. If I’m not more mistaken than I’ve been yet, I’ll turn out a
-newspaper woman that will induce a mightier blast of woman’s horn. Think
-you’d like it?”
-
-“I’d like to be with you,” said Patience, on the verge of tears.
-“Sha’n’t I see you again till I’m eighteen?”
-
-“No, I don’t want to see or hear from you again until you’ve kneaded
-that brain of yours into some sort of shape by three years of hard
-study. Then I’ll go to work on a good foundation. You haven’t told me if
-you’ll take a try at it.”
-
-“Of course I will. Do you think I want to be a school-teacher? I should
-think it would be lovely to be a newspaper woman.”
-
-“Well, it isn’t exactly lovely, but it is a good training in the art of
-getting along without adjectives. Now look round you and I’ll explain
-this harbour; and don’t you brag any more about your San Francisco
-harbour.”
-
-They entered through The Narrows, between the two toy forts. A few lone
-sentries paced the crisp snow on the heights of Staten Island, and
-looked in imminent danger of tumbling down the perpendicular lawns. The
-little stone windows of the earthen redoubts seemed to wink confidently
-at each other across the water, and loomed superciliously above the
-forts on the water’s edge. Long Island, had the repose of a giant that
-had stretched his limbs in sleep, unmindful of the temporary hamlets on
-his swelling front. Staten Island curved and uplifted herself
-coquettishly under her glittering garb and crystal woods. Far away the
-faint line of the New Jersey shore, looking like one unbroken city on a
-hundred altitudes, hovered faintly under its mist. The river at its base
-was a silver ribbon between a mirage and a stupendous castle of seven
-different architectures surmounted by a golden dome—which same was New
-York and the dome of a newspaper. Then a faint fairy-like bridge,
-delicate as a cobweb, sprang lightly across another river to a city of
-walls with windows in them—which same was Brooklyn. Under the shadow of
-the arches was a baby island fortified with what appeared to be a large
-Dutch cheese out of which the mice had gnawed their way with much
-regularity. The great bay, blue as liquid sapphire, was alive with craft
-of every design: rowboats scuttled away from the big outgoing steamers;
-sails, white as the snow on the heights, bellied in the sharp wind;
-yellow and red ferry boats gave back long symmetrical curves of white
-smoke; gaunt ships with naked spars lay at rest. On Liberty Island the
-big girl pointed solemnly upward as if reminding the city on the waters
-of the many mansions in the invisible stars. Snow clouds were scudding
-upward from the east, but overhead there was plentiful gold and blue.
-
-Patience gazed through Mr. Field’s glass, enraptured, and promised not
-to brag. As they swung toward the dock he laid his hand kindly on hers.
-
-“Now don’t think I’m callous,” he said, “because I part from you without
-any apparent regret. You are going to be in good hands during the rest
-of your early girlhood, and I could be of no assistance to you; and I am
-a very busy man. Let me tell you that you have made this month a good
-deal shorter than it would otherwise have been; and when we meet again
-you won’t have to introduce yourself. There are my folks, and there goes
-the gang-plank. Good-bye, and God bless you.”
-
-
- II
-
-Patience leaned over the upper railing, looking at the expectant crowd
-on the wharf, wondering when the captain would remember her. She felt a
-strong inclination to run after Mr. Field. As he receded up the wharf,
-surrounded by his family, he turned and waved his hand to her.
-
-“Why couldn’t he have been Mr. Foord’s brother or something?” she
-thought resentfully. “I think he might have adopted me.”
-
-As the crowd thinned she noticed two elderly women standing a few feet
-from the vessel, alternately inspecting the landed passengers and the
-decks. One was a very tall slender and graceful woman, possessed of that
-subtle quality called style, despite her unfashionable attire. In her
-dark regular face were the remains of beauty, and although nervous and
-anxious, it wore the seal of gentle blood. Her large black eyes
-expressed a curious commingling of the spiritual and the human. She was
-probably sixty years old. At her side was a woman some ten years
-younger, of stouter and less elastic figure, with a strong dark kind
-intelligent face and an utter disregard of dress. She carried several
-bundles.
-
-“Oh, hasn’t she come?” cried the elder woman. “Can she have died at sea?
-I am sure the dear Lord wouldn’t let anything happen to her. Dear
-sister, _do_ you see her?”
-
-The other woman, who was also looking everywhere except at Patience,
-replied in a round cheerful voice: “No, not yet, but I feel sure she is
-there. The captain hasn’t had time to bring her on shore. The Lord tells
-me that it is all right.”
-
-“One of those is Miss Tremont,” thought Patience, “I may as well go
-down. They appear to be frightfully religious, but they have nice
-faces.”
-
-She ran down to the lower deck, then across the gang-plank.
-
-“I’m Patience Sparhawk,” she said; “are you—” The older woman uttered a
-little cry, caught her in her arms, and kissed her. “Oh, you dear little
-thing!” she exclaimed, and kissed her again. “How I’ve prayed the dear
-Lord to bring you safely, and He has, praise His holy name. Oh, I am so
-glad to see you. I do love children so. We’ll be so happy together—you
-and I and Him—and, oh, I’m so glad to see you.”
-
-Patience, breathless, but much gratified, kissed her warmly.
-
-“Don’t forget me,” exclaimed the other lady. She had a singularly hearty
-voice and a brilliant smile. Patience turned to her dutifully, and
-received an emphatic kiss.
-
-“This is my dear friend, my dear sister in the Lord, Miss Beale,
-Patience,” said Miss Tremont, flurriedly, “and she wanted to see you
-almost as much as I did.”
-
-“Indeed I did,” said Miss Beale, breezily. “I too love little girls.”
-
-“I’m sure you’re both very kind,” said Patience, helplessly. She hardly
-knew how to meet so much effusion. But something cold and old within her
-seemed to warm and thaw.
-
-“You dear little thing,” continued Miss Tremont. “Are you cold? That is
-a very light coat you have on.”
-
-Patience was not dressed for an eastern winter, but her young blood and
-curiosity kept her warm.
-
-“Here comes the captain,” she said. “Oh, no, I’m all right. I like the
-cold.”
-
-The captain, satisfying himself that his charge was in the proper hands,
-offered to send her trunk to Mariaville by express, and Patience, wedged
-closely between the two ladies, boarded a street car.
-
-“You know,” exclaimed Miss Tremont, “I knew the Lord would bring you to
-me safely in spite of the perils of the ocean. Every night and every
-morning I prayed: _Dear_ Lord, don’t let anything happen to her,—and I
-knew He wouldn’t.”
-
-“Does He always do what you tell Him?” asked Patience.
-
-“Almost everything I ask Him,—that is to say, when He thinks best. Dear
-Patience, if you knew how He looks out for me—and it is well He sees
-fit, for dear knows I have a time taking care of myself. Why, He even
-takes care of my purse. I’m always leaving it round, and He always sends
-it back to me—from counters and trains and restaurants and everywhere.
-And when I start in the wrong direction He always whispers in my ear in
-time. Why, once I had to catch a certain train to Philadelphia, where I
-was to preside at a convention, and I’d taken the wrong street car, and
-when I jumped off and took the right one, the driver said I couldn’t
-possibly get to the ferry in time. So I just shut my eyes and prayed;
-and then I told the driver that it would be all right, as I had asked
-the Lord to see that I got there in time. The driver laughed, and said:
-‘W-a-a-l, I guess the Lord’ll go back on you this time.’ But I caught
-that ferry-boat. _He_—the Lord—made it five minutes late. And it’s
-always the same. He takes care of me, praised be His name.”
-
-“You must feel as if He were your husband,” said Patience, too gravely
-to be suspected of irreverence.
-
-“Why, He is. Doesn’t the Bible say—” But the car began to rattle over
-the badly paved streets, and the quotation was lost.
-
-Patience looked eagerly through the windows at purlieus of indescribable
-ugliness; but it was New York, a city greater than San Francisco, and
-she found even its youthful old age picturesque. The dense throng of
-people in Sixth Avenue and the immense shop windows induced expressions
-of rapture.
-
-“You don’t live here, do you?” she said with a sigh.
-
-“Oh, Mariaville is much nicer than New York,” replied Miss Beale, in her
-enthusiastic way. “I hate a great crowded city. It baffles you so when
-you try to do good.”
-
-“Still they do say that reform work is more systematised here, dear
-sister.”
-
-“Forty-second Street,” shouted the conductor, and they changed cars. A
-few moments later they were pulling out of the Grand Central Station for
-Mariaville.
-
-Miss Beale had asked the conductor to turn a seat, and Patience faced
-her new friends. As they left the tunnel she caught sight of a tiny bow
-of white ribbon each wore on her coat.
-
-“Why do you wear that?” she asked.
-
-“Why, we’re W. C. T. U’s,” replied Miss Beale.
-
-“Wctus?”
-
-“Temperance cranks,” said Miss Tremont, smiling.
-
-“Temperance cranks?”
-
-“Why, have you never heard of the Woman’s Christian Temperance Union?”
-asked Miss Beale, a chill breathing over her cordial voice. “The
-movement has reason to feel encouraged all through the West.”
-
-“I’ve never heard of it. They don’t have it in Monterey, and I’ve not
-been much in San Francisco.”
-
-“She’s such a child,” said Miss Tremont. “How could she know of it out
-there? But now I know she is going to be one of our very best Y’s.”
-
-“Y’s?” asked Patience, helplessly. She wondered if this was the “fad”
-Mr. Field had predicted for her, then recalled that he had alluded once
-to the “Temperance movement,” but could not remember his explanation, if
-he had made any. Doubtless she had evaded a disagreeable topic. But now
-that it was evidently to be a part of her new life she made no attempt
-to stem Miss Tremont’s enthusiasm.
-
-“The Y’s are the young women of the Union; we are the W’s. It is our
-lifework, Patience, and I am sure you will become as much interested in
-it as we are, and be proud to wear the white ribbon. We have done so
-much good, and expect to do much more, with the dear Lord’s help. It is
-slow work, but we shall conquer in the end, for He is with us.”
-
-“What do you do,—forbid people to sell liquor?”
-
-Both ladies laughed. They were not without humour, and their experience
-had developed it. “No,” said Miss Tremont, “we don’t waste our time like
-that.” She gave an enthusiastic account of what the Union had
-accomplished. Her face glowed; her fine head was thrown back; her dark
-eyes sparkled. Patience thought she must have been a beautiful girl. She
-had a full voice with odd notes of protest and imperious demand which
-puzzled her young charge. One would have supposed that she was
-constantly imploring favours, and yet her air suggested natural hauteur,
-unexterminated by cultivated humility.
-
-“I should think it was a good idea,” said Patience, with perfect
-sincerity.
-
-“Oh, there’s dear Sister Watt,” cried Miss Tremont, and she rose
-precipitately, and crossing the aisle sat down beside a careworn
-anxious-eyed woman who also wore the white ribbon.
-
-“Come over by me until Miss Tremont comes back,” said Miss Beale, with
-her brilliant smile. “Tell me, don’t you love her already? Oh, you have
-no idea how good she is. She is heart and soul in her work, and just
-lives for the Lord. She sometimes visits twenty poor families a week,
-besides her Temperance class, her sewing school, her Bible Readings, her
-Bible class, and all the religious societies, of which she is the most
-active worker. She is also the Mariaville agent for the Society for
-Prevention of Cruelty to Children, and trustee of the Bible Society. You
-should hear her pray. I have heard all the great revivalists, but I have
-never heard anything like Miss Tremont’s prayers. How I envy you living
-with her! You’ll hear her twice a day, and sometimes oftener. She has a
-nice house on the outskirts of Mariaville. Her father left it to her
-twenty years ago, and she dedicated it to the Lord at once. It is
-headquarters for church meetings of all sorts. She has a Bible reading
-one afternoon a week. Any one can go, even a servant, for Miss Tremont,
-like all true followers of the Lord, is humble.”
-
-Patience reflected that she had never seen any one look less humble than
-Miss Beale. In spite of her old frock she conveyed with unmistakable if
-unconscious emphasis that she possessed wealth and full knowledge of its
-power.
-
-“You look so happy,” Patience said, her curiosity regarding Miss Tremont
-blunted for the present. “Are you?”
-
-“Happy? Of course I am. I’ve never known an unhappy moment in my life.
-When my dear parents died, I only envied them. And have I not perfect
-health? Is not every moment of my time occupied?—why, I only sleep six
-hours out of the twenty-four. And Him. Do I not work for Him, and is He
-not always with me?”
-
-“They are so funny about God,” thought Patience. “She talks as if He
-were her beau; and Miss Tremont as if He were her old man she’d been
-jogging along with for forty years or so.—Do you live alone?” she
-asked.
-
-“Yes—that is, I board.”
-
-“And don’t you ever feel lonesome?”
-
-“Never. Is not He always with me?” Her strong brown face was suddenly
-illuminated. “Is He not my lover? Is He not always at my side,
-encouraging me and whispering of His love, night and day? Why, I can
-almost hear His voice, feel His hand. How could I be lonesome even on a
-desert island with no work to do?”
-
-Patience gasped. The extraordinary simplicity of this woman of fifty
-fascinated her whom life and heredity had made so complex. But she moved
-restlessly, and felt an impulse to thrust out her legs and arms. She had
-a sensation of being swamped in religion.
-
-“I shouldn’t think you’d like boarding,” she said irrelevantly.
-
-“I don’t like it particularly, but it gives me more time for my work. I
-make myself comfortable, I can tell you, for I have my own bed with two
-splendid mattresses,—my landlady’s are the hardest things you ever
-felt,—and all my own furniture and knick-knacks. And I have my own tub,
-and every morning even in dead of winter, I take a cold bath. And I
-don’t wear corsets—”
-
-“Mariaville,” called the conductor.
-
-“Oh, here we are,” cried Miss Tremont. She made a wild dive for her
-umbrella and bag, seized Patience by the hand, and rushed up the aisle,
-followed leisurely by Miss Beale.
-
-The snow was falling heavily. Patience had watched it drift and swirl
-over the Hudson, and should have liked to give it her undivided
-attention.
-
-As they left the station they were greeted by a chorus of shrieks: “Have
-a sleigh? Have a sleigh?”
-
-“What do you think, sister?” asked Miss Tremont, dubiously. “Do you
-think Patience can walk two miles in this snow? I don’t like to spend
-money on luxuries that I should give to the Lord.”
-
-“Perhaps the sleigh man needs it,” said Patience, who had no desire to
-walk two miles in a driving storm.
-
-“We’d better have a sleigh,” said Miss Beale, decidedly. “We will each
-pay half.”
-
-“But why should you pay half,” said Miss Tremont, in her protesting
-voice, “when there are three of us?”
-
-“I will pay for myself,” said Patience. “Mr. Foord gave me a twenty
-dollar gold piece, and I haven’t spent it.”
-
-“Oh, dear child!” exclaimed Miss Tremont. “As if I’d let you.”
-
-“Come, get in,” said Miss Beale; “we’ll be snowed under, here.”
-
-And a few minutes later Patience, on the front seat, was enjoying her
-first sleigh-ride. She slid down under the fur robe, and winking the
-snow stars from her lashes, looked out eagerly upon Mariaville. The town
-rose from the Hudson in a succession of irregular precipitous terraces.
-The trees were skeletons, the houses old, but the effect was very
-picturesque; and the dancing crystals, the faint music of bells from far
-and near, the wide steep streets, delighted a mind magnetic for novelty.
-
-They left Miss Beale before a pretty house, standing in a frozen garden,
-then climbed to the top of a hill, slid away to the edge of the town,
-and drew rein before an old-fashioned white one-winged house, which
-stood well back in a neglected yard behind walnut-trees and hemlocks.
-Beyond, closing the town, were the stark woods. Opposite was a prim
-little grove in which the snow stars were dancing.
-
-“Here we are,” said Miss Tremont, climbing out. “Welcome home, Patience
-dear.” She paid the man, and hurried down the path. The door was opened
-by an elderly square-faced woman, who looked sharply at Patience, then
-smiled graciously.
-
-“Patience, this is Ellen. She takes good care of me. Come in. Come in.”
-
-The narrow hall ran through the main building, and was unfurnished but
-for a table and the stair. Miss Tremont led the way into a large double
-room of comfortable temperature, although no fire was visible. Bright
-red curtains covered the windows, a neat black carpet sprinkled with
-flowers the floor. The chairs were stiffly arranged, but upholstered
-cheerfully, the tables and mantels crowded with an odd assortment of
-cheap and handsome ornaments. The papered walls were a mosaic of family
-portraits. In the back parlour were a bookcase, a piano piled high with
-hymn-books, and a dozen or so queer little pulpit chairs. A door opened
-from the front parlour into a faded but hospitable dining-room.
-
-Patience for the first time in her life experienced the enfolding of the
-home atmosphere, an experience denied to many for ever and ever. She
-turned impulsively, and throwing her arms about Miss Tremont, kissed and
-hugged her.
-
-“Somehow I feel all made over,” she said apologetically, and getting
-very red. “But it is so nice—and you are so nice—and oh, it is all so
-different!”
-
-And Miss Tremont, enraptured, first wished that this forlorn homely
-little waif was her very own, then vowed that neither should ever
-remember that she was not, and half carried her up to the bedroom
-prepared for her, a white fresh little room overlooking the shelving
-town.
-
-
- III
-
-The next afternoon a sewing woman came and cut down an old-fashioned but
-handsome fur-lined cloak of Miss Tremont’s to Patience’s diminutive
-needs. When Miss Tremont returned home, after a hard day’s work, she
-brought with her a hood, a pair of woollen gloves, and a pair of
-arctics; and Patience felt that she could weather a New York winter.
-
-But Patience gave little attention to her clothes. When she was not
-watching the snow she was studying the steady stream of people who
-called at all hours, and invariably talked “church” and “temperance.”
-The atmosphere was so charged with religion that she was haunted by an
-uneasy prescience of a violent explosion during which Miss Tremont and
-her friends would sail upward, leaving her among the débris.
-
-Her coat finished, she went in town with Miss Tremont to Temperance
-Hall. The snow had ceased to fall. The sun rode solitary on a cold blue
-sky, the ground was white and hard. The bare trees glittered in their
-crystal garb, icicles jewelled the eaves of the houses. The telegraph
-wires, studded with pendent spheres, looked like a vast diamond necklace
-of many strings which only Nature was mighty enough to wear. The hills
-were snowdrifts. The Hudson, far below, moved sluggishly under great
-blocks of ice. The Palisades were black and white. Miss Tremont and
-Patience walked rapidly, their frozen breath waving before them in
-fantastic shapes. It was all very delightful to Patience, who thrust her
-hands into her deep pockets and would have scorned to ride. At times she
-danced; new blood, charged with electricity, seemed shooting through her
-veins. Miss Tremont’s older teeth clattered occasionally. She bent
-forward slightly, her brow contracted over eyes which seemed ever
-seeking something, her long legs carrying her swiftly and with
-surprising grace. Patience had solved the enigma of her voice after
-hearing her pray, and she supposed that her eyes were on loyal watch for
-the miseries of the world.
-
-After a time they descended an almost perpendicular hill to the business
-part of the town. Beyond a few level streets the ground rose again,
-wooded and thickly built upon. On the left was another hill, which, Miss
-Tremont informed her, was Hog Heights, the quarter of the poor.
-
-The streets in the valley twisted and doubled like the curves of an
-angry python. In the centre was a square which might have been called
-Rome, since all ways led to it.
-
-Temperance Hall, a building of Christian-like humility, stood on a back
-street flanked by many low-browed shops. On the first floor were the
-parlour, reading-room, and refectory, on the second a large hall, on the
-third bedrooms. The hall was already half full of boys and girls, kept
-in order by the matron, Mrs. Blair, a middle-aged woman with the
-expression of one who stands no nonsense.
-
-“Now, Patience,” said Miss Tremont, “you listen attentively, and next
-time you can take Mrs. Blair’s place.”
-
-The occasion was the weekly assemblage of the Loyal Legion children, who
-were being educated in the ways of temperance. Miss Tremont opened with
-the Lord’s Prayer, which she invested with all its meaning; then the
-children sang from a temperance hymn-book, and the lesson began. Miss
-Tremont read a series of questions appurtenant to the inevitable results
-of unholy indulgence, to which Mrs. Blair read the answers, which in
-turn were repeated by the children. Then they sang “Down with King
-Alcohol,” a minister came in and made a dramatic address, and the
-children, some of whom were attentive and some extremely naughty, filed
-out.
-
-“I only come on alternate Fridays,” said Miss Tremont, as they went
-downstairs; “Sister Beale takes the other. Come and see our
-reading-room. These are our boarders,” indicating several prim old maids
-that sat in the front room by the window.
-
-In the dining-room a half dozen tramps were imbibing free soup. The
-reading-room was empty.
-
-
- IV
-
-Before a week had passed Patience was so busy that her old life slept as
-heavily as a bear in winter. She passed her difficult examinations and
-entered the High School, selecting the three years course, which
-included French, German, mathematics, the sciences, literature, and
-rhetoric.
-
-The recesses and evenings were spent in study, the afternoons in
-assisting Miss Tremont; occasionally she snatched an hour to write to
-her friends in California. Besides the temperance work, she had a class
-in the church sewing school, kept the books of various societies, and
-occasionally visited the poor on Hog Heights. The work did not interest
-her, but she was glad to satisfactorily repay Miss Tremont’s
-hospitality. But had she wished to protest she would have realised its
-uselessness: she was carried with the tide. It might be said that Miss
-Tremont was the tide. Her enthusiasm had no reflex action, and tore
-through obstacles like a mill-race. When night came she was so weary
-that more than once Patience offered to put her to bed; but the offer
-was declined with a curious mixture of religious fervour and hauteur.
-Miss Tremont had none of the ordinary vanity of woman, but she resented
-the imputation that she could not work for the Lord as ardently at sixty
-as she had at forty.
-
-When she prayed Patience listened with bated breath. A torrent of
-eloquence boiled from her lips. All the shortcomings and needs of
-unregenerate Mariaville, individual and collective, were laid down with
-a vehement precision which could leave the Lord little doubt of His
-obligations. The Temperance Cause was rehearsed with a passion which
-would have thrilled the devil. Sounding through all was a wholly
-unselfconscious note of command, as when one pleads with the pocket of
-an intimate friend for some worthy cause.
-
-Patience saw so many disreputable people at this time that her mother’s
-pre-eminence was extinguished. They had a habit of commanding the
-hospitalities of Miss Tremont’s barn, sure of two meals and a night’s
-lodging. Miss Tremont insisted upon their attendance at evening prayers,
-and Patience assumed the task of persuading them to clean up. Her
-methods were less gentle than Miss Tremont’s: when they refused to wash
-she turned the hose on them.
-
-Projected suddenly into the dry bracing cold of an eastern winter she
-quickly became robust. Before spring had come, her back was straight and
-a faint colour was in her rounding cheeks. If there had been time to
-think about it, or any one to tell her, she would have discovered that
-she was growing pretty. But at this time, despite the distant advances
-of the High School boys, Patience found no leisure for vanity. Sometimes
-she paused long enough to wonder if she had any individuality left; if
-environment was not stronger than heredity after all; if immediate
-impressions could not ever efface those of the past, no matter how
-deeply the latter may have been etched into the plastic mind. But she
-was quite conscious that she was happy, despite the vague restlessness
-and longings of youth. She loved Miss Tremont with all the sudden
-expansion of a long repressed temperament endowed with a tragic capacity
-for passionate affection. In Monterey the iron mould of reserve into
-which circumstance had forced her nature, had cramped and warped what
-love she had felt for Mr. Foord and Rosita; but in this novel
-atmosphere, where love enfolded her, where everybody respected her, and
-knew nothing of her past, where there was not a word nor an occurrence
-to remind her of the ugly experiences of her young life, she quickly
-became a normal being, living, belatedly, along the large and generous
-lines of her nature.
-
-She had no friends of her own age with whom to discuss the problems dear
-to the heart of developing woman. The girls at the High School rarely
-talked during recess, and she left hurriedly the moment the scholars
-were dismissed for the day. The “Y’s” she persistently refused to join,
-as well as the young people’s societies of Miss Tremont’s church.
-
-“I’ll be your helper in everything,” she said to her perplexed guardian;
-“but those girls bore me, and, you know, I really haven’t time for
-them.”
-
-And Miss Tremont, despite the fact that Patience gave no sign of
-spiritual thaw, was the most doting of old maid parents. After the first
-few weeks she ceased to dig in Patience’s soul for the stunted seeds of
-Christianity, finding that she only irritated her, and trusting to the
-daily sprinkling of habit and example to promote their ultimate growth.
-
-
- V
-
-With summer came a cessation of school, Loyal Legion, and sewing school
-duties; but the Poor took no vacation and gave none. Nevertheless,
-Patience had far more leisure, and borrowed many books from the town
-library. She read much of Hugo and Balzac and Goethe, and in the new
-intellectual delight forgot herself more completely than in her work.
-
-Moreover, the town was very beautiful in summer, and she spent many
-hours rambling along the shadowy streets whose venerable trees shut the
-sunlight from the narrow side ways. The gardens too were full of trees;
-and the town from a distance looked like a densely wooded hillside, a
-riot of green, out of which housetops showed like eggs in a nest. Over
-some of the steep old streets the maples met, growing denser and denser
-down in the perspective, until closed by the flash of water.
-
-The woods on the slope of the Hudson were thick with great trees
-dropping a leafy curtain before the brilliant river, and full of
-isolated nooks where a girl could read and dream, unsuspected of the
-chance pedestrian.
-
-After one long drowsy afternoon by a brook in a hollow of the woods,
-Patience returned home to find a carriage standing before the door. It
-was a turnout of extreme elegance. The grey horses were thoroughbreds; a
-coachman in livery sat on the box; a footman stood on the sidewalk. She
-looked in wonder. Miss Tremont had no time for the fine people of
-Mariaville, and they had ceased to call on her long since. Moreover,
-Patience knew every carriage in the town, and this was not of them.
-
-She went rapidly into the house, youthfully eager for a new experience.
-Miss Tremont was seated on the sofa in the front parlour, holding the
-hand of a tall handsomely gowned woman. Patience thought, as she stood
-for a moment unobserved, that she had never seen so cold a face. It was
-the face of a woman of fifty, oval and almost regular. The mouth was a
-straight line. The clear pale eyes looked like the reflection of the
-blue atmosphere on icicles. The skin was as smooth as a girl’s, the
-brown hair parted and waved, the tall figure slender and superbly
-carried. She was smiling and patting Miss Tremont’s hand, but there was
-little light in her eyes.
-
-As Patience entered, she turned her head and regarded her without
-surprise; she had evidently heard of her. Miss Tremont’s face illumined,
-and she held out her hand.
-
-“This is Patience,” she said triumphantly. “I haven’t told you half
-about the dear child. Patience, this is my cousin, Mrs. Gardiner Peele.”
-
-Mrs. Gardiner Peele bent her head patronisingly, and Patience hated her
-violently.
-
-“I am glad you have a companion,” said the lady, coldly. “But how is it
-you haven’t the white ribbon on her?”
-
-Miss Tremont blushed. “Oh, I can’t control Patience in all things,” she
-said, in half angry deprecation. “She just won’t wear the ribbon.”
-
-Mrs. Peele smiled upon Patience for the first time. It was a wintry
-light, but it bespoke approval. “I wish she could make you take it off,”
-she said to her relative. “That dreadful, dreadful _badge_. How can you
-wear it?—you—”
-
-“Now, cousin,” said Miss Tremont, laughing good-naturedly, “we won’t go
-over all that again. You know I’m a hopeless crank. All I can do is to
-pray for you.”
-
-“Thank you. I don’t doubt I need it, although I attend church quite as
-regularly as you could wish.”
-
-“I know you are good,” said Miss Tremont, with enthusiasm, “and of
-course I don’t expect everybody to be as interested in Temperance as I
-am. But I do wish you loved the world less and the Lord more.”
-
-Mrs. Peele gave a low, well modulated laugh. “Now, Harriet, I want you
-to be worldly for a few minutes. I have brought you back two new gowns
-from Paris, and I want you, when you come to visit me next week, to wear
-them. I have had them trimmed with white ribbon bows so that no one will
-notice one more or less—”
-
-“I’m not ashamed of my white ribbon,” flashed out Miss Tremont, then
-relented. “You dear good Honora. Yes, I’ll wear them if they’re not too
-fashionable.”
-
-“Oh, I studied your style. And let me tell you, Harriet Tremont, that
-fashionable gowns are what you should be wearing. It does provoke me so
-to see you—”
-
-But Miss Tremont leaned over and kissed her short. “Now what’s the use
-of talking to an old crank like me? I’m a humble servant of my dear
-Lord, and I couldn’t be anything else if I had a million. But you dear
-thing, I’m so glad to see you once more. You do look so well. Tell me
-all about the children.”
-
-Patience, quite forgotten, listened to the conversation with deep
-interest. There was a vague promise of variety in this new advent. As
-she watched the woman, who seemed to have brought with her something of
-the atmosphere of all that splendid existence of which she had longingly
-read, she was stirred with a certain dissatisfaction: some dormant chord
-was struck—as on the day she drove by Del Monte. When Mrs. Peele arose
-to go, she thought that not Balzac himself had ever looked upon a more
-elegant woman. Even Patience’s untrained eye recognised that those long
-simple folds, those so quiet textures, were of French woof and make. And
-the woman’s carriage was like unto that of the fictional queen. She
-nodded carelessly to Patience, and swept out. When Miss Tremont returned
-after watching her guest drive away, Patience pounced upon her.
-
-“_Who_ is she?” she demanded. “And _why_ didn’t you tell me you had such
-a swell for a cousin?”
-
-“Did I never tell you?” asked Miss Tremont, wonderingly. “Why, I was
-sure I had often talked of Honora. But I’m so busy I suppose I forgot.”
-
-She sat down and fanned herself, smiling. “Honora Tremont is my first
-cousin. We used to be great friends until she married a rich man and
-became so dreadfully fashionable. The Lord be praised, she has always
-loved me; but she lives a great deal abroad, and spends her winters,
-when she is here, in New York. They have a beautiful place on the
-Hudson, Peele Manor, that has been in the family for nearly three
-hundred years. Mr. Peele is an eminent lawyer. I don’t know him very
-well. He doesn’t talk much; I suppose he has to talk so much in Court.
-I’ve not seen the children for a year. I always thought them pretty
-badly spoiled, particularly Beverly. May isn’t very bright. But I always
-liked Hal—short for Harriet, after me—better than any of them. She is
-about nineteen now. May is eighteen and Beverly twenty-four.
-
-“Then there is Honora, cousin Honora’s sister Mary’s child, and the
-tallest woman I ever saw. Her parents died when she was a little thing
-and left her without a dollar. Honora took her, and has treated her like
-her own children. Sometimes I think she is very much under her
-influence. I don’t know why, but I never liked her. She is Beverly’s
-age. Oh!” she burst out, “just think! I have got to go to Peele Manor
-for a week. I promised. I couldn’t help it. And oh, I do dread it. They
-are all so different, and they don’t sympathise with my work. Much as I
-love them I’m always glad to get away. Wasn’t it kind and good of her to
-bring me two dresses from Paris?”
-
-Patience shrewdly interpreted the prompting of Mrs. Peele’s generosity,
-but made no comment.
-
-Miss Tremont drew a great sigh: “My temperance work—my poor—what will
-they do without me? Maria Twist gets so mad when I don’t read the Bible
-to her twice a week. Patience, you will have to stay in Temperance Hall.
-I shouldn’t like to think of you here alone. I do wish Honora had asked
-you too—”
-
-“I wouldn’t go for worlds. When do you think your dresses will come? I
-do so want to see a real Paris dress.”
-
-“She said they’d come to-morrow. Oh, to think of wearing stiff tight
-things. Well, if they are uncomfortable or too stylish I just won’t wear
-them, that’s all.”
-
-“You just will, auntie dear. You’ll not look any less fine than those
-people, or I’ll not go near Hog Heights.”
-
-Miss Tremont kissed her, grateful for the fondness displayed. “Well,
-well, we’ll see,” she said.
-
-But the next day, when the two handsome black gowns lay on the bed of
-the spare room, she shook her head with flashing eyes.
-
-“I won’t wear those things,” she cried. “Why, they were made for a
-society woman, not for an humble follower of the Lord. I should be
-miserable in them.”
-
-Patience, who had been hovering over the gowns,—one of silk grenadine
-trimmed with long loops of black and white ribbon, the other of satin
-with a soft knot of white ribbon on the shoulder and another at the back
-of the high collar,—came forward and firmly divested Miss Tremont of
-her alpaca. She lifted the heavy satin gown with reverent hands and
-slipped it over Miss Tremont’s head, then hooked it with deft fingers.
-
-“There!” she exclaimed. “You look like a swell at last. Just what you
-ought to look like.”
-
-Miss Tremont glanced at the mirror with a brief spasm of youthful
-vanity. The rich fashionable gown became her long slender figure, her
-unconscious pride of carriage, far better than did her old alpaca and
-merino frocks. But she shook her head immediately, her eyes flashing
-under a quick frown.
-
-“The idea of perching a white bow like a butterfly on my shoulder and
-another at the back of my neck, as if I had a scar. It’s an insult to
-the white ribbon. And this collar would choke me. I can’t breathe. Take
-it off! Take it off!”
-
-“Not until I have admired you some more. You look just grand. If the
-collar is too high, I’ll send for Mrs. Best, and we’ll cut it off and
-sew some soft black stuff in the neck—although I just hate to. Auntie
-dear, don’t you think you could stand it?”
-
-Miss Tremont shook her head with decision. “I couldn’t. It hurts my old
-throat. And how could I ever bend my head to get at my soup? And these
-bows make me feel actually cross. If the dress can be made comfortable
-I’ll wear it, for I’ve no right to disgrace Honora, nor would I hurt her
-feelings by scorning her gowns; but I’ll not stand any such mockery as
-these flaunting white things.”
-
-Patience exchanged the satin for the grenadine gown. This met with more
-tolerance at first, as the throat was finished with soft folds, and the
-white ribbon was less demonstrative.
-
-“It floats so,” said Patience, ecstatically. “Oh, auntie, you _are_ a
-beauty.”
-
-“I a beauty with my ugly scowling old face? But this thing is like a
-ball dress, Patience—this thin stuff! I prefer the satin.”
-
-“You will wear this on the hot evenings. All thin things are not made
-for the ball-room. You needn’t look at yourself like that. I only wish
-I’d ever be half as pretty. Auntie, why didn’t you ever marry?”
-
-Miss Tremont’s face worked after all the years. Memories could not die
-in so uniform a nature.
-
-“My youth was very sad,” she said, turning away abruptly. “I only talk
-about it with the dear Lord.” And Patience asked no more questions.
-
-
- VI
-
-The dressmaker was sent for, and the satin gown divested of its collar.
-Miss Tremont ruthlessly clipped off the beautiful French bows and sewed
-a tiny one of narrow white ribbon in a conspicuous place on the left
-chest. The grenadine was decorated in like manner. Patience wailed, and
-then laughed as she thought of Mrs. Gardiner Peele. She wished she might
-be there to see that lady’s face.
-
-Miss Tremont changed her mind four times as to the possibility of
-leaving Mariaville for a week of sinful idleness, before she was finally
-assisted into the train by Patience’s firm hand. Even then she abruptly
-left her seat and started for the door. But the train was moving.
-Patience saw her resume her seat with an impatient twitch of her
-shoulders.
-
-“Poor auntie,” she thought, as she walked up the street; “but on the
-whole I think I pity Mrs. Peele more.”
-
-Her bag had been sent to Temperance Hall, and she went directly there,
-and to her own room. As the day was very warm, she exchanged her frock
-for a print wrapper, then extended herself on the bed with “’93.” It was
-her duty to assuage the wrath of Maria Twist, but she made up her mind
-that for twenty-four hours she would shirk every duty on her calendar.
-
-But she had failed to make allowance for the net of circumstance. She
-had not turned ten pages when she heard the sound of agitated footsteps
-in the hall. A moment later Mrs. Blair opened the door unceremoniously.
-Her usually placid face was much perturbed.
-
-“Oh, Miss Patience,” she said, “I’m in such a way. Late last night a
-poor man fell at the door, and I took him in as there was no policeman
-around. I thought he was only ill, but it seems he was drunk. He’s been
-awake now for two hours, and is awful bad—not drunk, but suffering.”
-
-“Why don’t you send for the doctor?” asked Patience, lazily.
-
-“I have, but he’s gone to New York and won’t be back till night. The man
-says he can doctor himself—that all he wants is whisky; but of course I
-can’t give him that. Do come over and talk to him. Miss Beale is over at
-White Plains, and I don’t know what to do.”
-
-Patience rose reluctantly and followed the matron to the side of the
-house reserved for men. As she went down the hall she heard groans and
-sharp spasmodic cries. Mrs. Blair opened a door, and Patience saw an
-elderly man lying in the bed. His grey hair and beard were ragged, his
-eyes dim and bleared, his long, well-cut but ignoble face was greenishly
-pale. He was very weak, and lay clutching at the bed clothes with limp
-hairy hands. As he saw the matron his eyes lit up with resentment.
-
-“I didn’t come here to be murdered,” he ejaculated. “It’s the last place
-I’d have come to if I’d known what I was doing. But I tell you that if I
-don’t have a drink of whisky I’ll be a dead man in an hour.”
-
-“I can’t give you that,” said Mrs. Blair, desperately. “And you know you
-only think you need it, anyhow. We try to make men overcome their
-terrible weakness; we don’t encourage them.”
-
-“That’s all right, but you can’t reform a man when his inside is on fire
-and feels as if it were dropping out—but my God! I can’t argue with
-you, damn you. Give it to me.”
-
-“I’m of the opinion that he ought to have it,” said Patience.
-
-The man turned to her eagerly. “Bless you,” he said. “It’s not the taste
-of it I’m craving, miss; it’s relief from this awful agony. If you give
-it to me, I swear I’ll try never to touch a drop again after I get over
-this spree. It’ll be bad enough to break off then, but it’s death now.”
-
-Mrs. Blair looked at him with pity, but shook her head.
-
-“I’ve been here seven years,” she said to Patience, “and the ladies have
-yet to find one fault with me. I don’t dare give it to him. Besides, I
-don’t believe in it. How can what’s killing him cure him? And it’s a
-sin. Even if the ladies excused me—which they wouldn’t—I’d never
-forgive myself.”
-
-“I’ll take the responsibility,” said Patience. “I believe that man will
-die if he doesn’t have whisky.”
-
-The man groaned and tossed his arms. “Oh, my God!” he cried.
-
-Mrs. Blair shuddered. “Oh, I don’t know, miss. If you will take the
-responsibility—I can’t give it to him—where could you get it?”
-
-“At a drug store.”
-
-“They won’t sell it to you—we’ve got a law passed, you know.”
-
-“Then I’ll go to a saloon.”
-
-“Oh, my! my!” cried Mrs. Blair, “you’d never do that?”
-
-“The man is in agony. Can’t you see? I’m going this minute.”
-
-The door opened, and Miss Beale entered. She looked warm and tired, but
-came forward with active step, and stood beside the bed. A spasm of
-disgust crossed her face. “What is the matter, my man?” she asked. “I am
-sorry to see you here.”
-
-“Give me whisky,” groaned the man.
-
-Miss Beale turned away with twitching mouth.
-
-“The man is dying. Nothing but whisky can save him,” said Patience. “If
-you called a doctor he would tell you the same thing.”
-
-“What?” said Miss Beale, coldly, “do you suppose that he can have whisky
-in Temperance Hall? Is that what we are here for? You must be crazy.”
-
-“But you don’t want him to die on your hands, do you?” exclaimed
-Patience, who was losing her temper.
-
-“My God!” screeched the man, “I am in Hell.”
-
-“My good man,” said Miss Beale, gently, “it is for us to save you from
-Hell, not to send you there.”
-
-“I’ll be there in ten minutes.” His voice died to an inarticulate
-murmur; but he writhed, and doubled, and twisted, as men may have done
-when fanatics tortured in the name of religion.
-
-“Good heavens, Miss Beale,” cried Patience, excitedly, “you can’t set
-yourself up in opposition to nature. That man must have whisky. If he
-were younger and stronger it wouldn’t matter so much; but can’t you see
-he hasn’t strength to resist the terrible strain? The torture is killing
-him, eating out his life—”
-
-“Oh, it is terrible!” exclaimed the matron. “Perhaps it is best—”
-
-“Mrs. Blair!” Miss Beale turned upon her in consternation. Then she bent
-over the man.
-
-“You can’t have whisky,” she said gently; “not if I thought you were
-really dying would I give it to you. If it is the Lord’s will that you
-are to die here you must abide by it. I shall not permit you to further
-imperil your soul. Nor could that which has not the blessing of God on
-it be of benefit to you. Alcohol is a destroyer, both of soul and of
-body—not a medicine.”
-
-The man’s knees suddenly shot up to his chest; but he raised his head
-and darted at her a glance of implacable hate.
-
-“Damn you,” he stuttered. “Murderer—” Then he extended rigid arms and
-clutched the bed clothes, his body twitching uncontrollably.
-
-Miss Beale looked upon him with deep compassion. “Poor thing,” she
-exclaimed, “is not this enough to warn all men from that fiend?” She
-laid her hand on the man’s head, but he shook it off with an oath.
-
-“Whisky,” he cried. “O my God! Have these women—_women!_—no pity?”
-
-“I’m going for whisky—” said Patience.
-
-Miss Beale stepped swiftly to the door, locked it, and slipped the key
-into her pocket.
-
-“You will buy no whisky,” she said sternly. “I will save you from that
-sin.” Suddenly her face lit up. “I will pray,” she said solemnly, “I
-will pray that this poor lost creature may recover, and lead a better
-life—”
-
-“I swear I’ll never touch another drop after I’m out of this if you’ll
-give it to me now—”
-
-“If it be the Lord’s will that you shall live you will not die,” said
-Miss Beale. “I will pray, and in His mercy He may let you live to
-repent.”
-
-She fell upon her knees by the bed, and clasping her hands, prayed
-aloud; while the man reared and plunged and groaned and cursed, his
-voice and body momentarily weaker. Miss Beale’s prayers were always very
-long and very fervid. She was not eloquent, but her deep tear-voiced
-earnestness was most impressive; and never more so than to-day, when she
-flung herself before the throne of Grace with a lost soul in her hand. A
-light like a halo played upon her spiritualised face, her voice became
-ineffably sweet. Gradually, in her ecstatic communion with, her intimate
-nearness to her God, she forgot the man on the bed, forgot the flesh
-which prisoned her soaring soul, was conscious only of the divine light
-pouring through her, the almost palpable touch of her lover’s hand.
-
-Suddenly Patience exclaimed brutally: “The man is dead.”
-
-Miss Beale arose with a start. She drew the sheet gently over the
-distorted face. “It is the Lord’s will,” she said.
-
-After Patience was in her own room and had relieved her feelings by
-slamming the door, she sat for a long time staring at the pattern of the
-carpet and pondering upon the problem of Miss Beale.
-
-“Well,” she thought finally, “_she’s_ happy, so I suppose it’s all
-right. No wonder she’s satisfied with herself when she lives up to her
-ideals as consistently as that. I think I’ll label all the different
-forms of selfishness I come across. There seems to be a large variety,
-but all put together don’t seem to be a patch to having fun with your
-ideals. Miss Beale would be the most wretched woman in Westchester
-county if she’d given that man whisky and saved his life.”
-
-
- VII
-
-The man was buried with Christian service at Miss Beale’s expense, and
-her serene face wore no shadow. The following day she said to Patience:
-“I spent nearly all of the last two nights in prayer, and I almost heard
-the Lord’s voice as He told me I did right.”
-
-“You ought to write a novel,” said Patience, drily, but the sarcasm was
-lost. In a moment Patience forgot Miss Beale: the postman handed her two
-letters, and she went up to her room to read them.
-
-The first she opened was from Miss Tremont.
-
- PEELE MANOR, Friday.
-
- Oh my dear darling little girl, how I wish, _how_ I wish I were
- with you and my work once more. I ought to be happy because they
- are all so kind, but I’m not. I feel as if I were throwing away
- one of the few precious weeks I have left to give to the Lord
- (arrange for a prayer meeting on Wednesday, the day of my
- return, and we’ll have a regular feast of manna). Do you miss
- me? I think of you every moment. You should have seen dear
- Cousin Honora’s face when I came down to dinner in the black
- satin. She didn’t say anything, she just _looked_ at the bow,
- and I felt sorry for her. But I know I am right. Hal giggled and
- winked at me. (I do love Hal!) Honora Mairs said so sweetly
- after Cousin Honora had left the room: “Dear Cousin Harriet, I
- think you are so brave and consistent to wear the little white
- bow of your cause. It is so _like_ you.” Was not that sweet of
- her? Beverly has very heavy eyebrows, and he raised them at my
- ribbon, and turned away his head as if it hurt his eyes. He is a
- very elegant young gentleman, and his mother says he is a great
- stickler for form, whatever that may mean. (They speak a
- different language here anyway. I don’t understand half what
- they say. Hal talks slang all the time.) I don’t like Beverly as
- much as I did, although he’s quite the handsomest young man I
- ever saw and very polite; but he smokes cigarettes all the time
- and big black cigars. When I told him that five hundred million
- dollars were spent annually on tobacco, he got up and went off
- in a huff. May is just a talkative child—I never heard any one
- talk so much in my life,—and about nothing but gowns and young
- men and balls and the opera. Beverly talks about horses all the
- time, and Hal thinks a great deal of society, although she
- listens to me very sweetly when I talk to her about my work.
- Yesterday she said: “Why, Cousin Harriet, you’re a regular steam
- engine. It must be jolly good fun to carry a lot of sinners to
- heaven on an express train.” I told her it was a freight train,
- and it certainly is, as you know, Patience dear. She replied:
- “Well, if you get there all the same, a century more or less
- doesn’t make any difference. You must be right in it with the
- Lord.” That was the only time I’d heard the dear Lord’s name
- mentioned since I arrived, so I didn’t scold her. But Patience,
- dear, I hope you’ll never use slang. I’ve talked to Hal about
- you, and she says she’s coming to see you.
-
- Honora doesn’t use slang. She is very stately and dignified, and
- Cousin Honora (it’s very awkward when you’re writing for two
- people to have the same name, isn’t it?) holds her up as a model
- for the girls. Hal and she _fight_. I can’t call it anything
- else, although Honora doesn’t lose her temper and Hal does. Hal
- said to me (of Honora) yesterday (I use her own words, although
- they’re awful; but if I didn’t I couldn’t give you the same idea
- of her): “She’s a d—— hypocrite: and she wants to marry
- Beverly, but she won’t,—not if I have to turn matchmaker and
- marry him to a variety actress. She makes me wild. I wish she’d
- elope with the priest, but she’s too confoundedly clever.” Isn’t
- it dreadful—Honora is a Catholic. She became converted last
- year. Perhaps that’s the reason I can’t like her. But even the
- Catholic religion teaches charity, for she said to me this
- morning: “Poor Hal is really a good-hearted child, but she’s
- worldly and just a little superficial.”
-
- They haven’t any company this week—how kind of Cousin Honora to
- ask me when they are alone! I wish you were here to enjoy the
- library. It is a great big room overlooking the river, and the
- walls are covered with books—three or four generations of them.
- Mr. Peele is intellectual, and so is Honora; but the others
- don’t read much, except Hal, who reads dreadful-looking yellow
- paper books written in the French language which she says are
- “corkers,” whatever that may mean. I do wish the dear child
- would read her Bible. I asked her if I gave her a copy if she’d
- promise me to read a little every day, and she said she would,
- as some of the stories were as good as a French novel. So I
- shall buy her one.
-
- We sit in the library every evening. In the morning we sit in
- the Tea House on the slope and Honora embroiders Catholic Church
- things, Cousin Honora knits (she says it’s all the fashion), May
- _talks_, and Hal reads her yellow books and tells May to “let
- up.” I sew for my poor, and they don’t seem to mind that as much
- as the white ribbon. They say that they always sew for the poor
- in Lent. Hal says it is the “swagger thing.” In the afternoon we
- drive, and I do think it such a waste of time to be going, going
- nowhere for two hours.
-
- Well, Patience, I shall be with you on Wednesday, praise the
- Lord. Come to the train and meet me, and be sure to write me
- about _everything_. How is Polly Jones, and old Mrs. Murphy, and
- Belinda Greggs? Have you read to Maria Twist, and taken the
- broth to old Jonas Hobb? Give my love to dear sister Beale, and
- tell her I pray for her. With a kiss from your old auntie, God
- bless you,
-
- HARRIET TREMONT.
-
-“Dear old soul,” thought Patience. “I think I know them better than she
-does, already. She is worth the whole selfish crowd; but I should like
-to know Hal. Beverly must be a chump.”
-
-
- VIII
-
-The other letter was from Rosita. Patience had not heard from her for a
-long while. Three months previously, Mr. Foord had written of Mrs.
-Thrailkill’s death, and mentioned that Rosita had gone to Sacramento to
-visit Miss Galpin—now Mrs. Trent—until her uncle, who had returned to
-Kentucky, should send for her.
-
- Oh, Patita! Patita! [the letter began], what do you think? _I am
- on the stage._ I had been crazy to go on ever since _that
- night_. A theatrical man was in Monterey just before mamma’s
- death, and he told me they were always wanting pretty corus
- girls at the Tivoli; so after the funeral I told everybody I was
- going to stay with Miss Galpin until Uncle Jim sent for me—I
- hated to lie, but I had to—and I went up to San Francisco and
- went right to the Tivoli. He took me because he said I was
- pretty and had a fresh voice. I had to ware tights. You should
- have seen me. At first I felt all the time like stooping over to
- cover up my legs with my arms. But after a while I got used to
- it, and one night we had to dance, and everybody said I was the
- most graceful. The manager said I was a born dancer and actress.
- The other day what do you think happened? A New York manager was
- here and heard me sing,—I had a little part by that time,—and
- he told me that if I took lessons I could be a prima donna in
- comic opera. He said I not only was going to have a lovely
- voice, but that I had a new style (Spanish) and would take in
- New York. He offered to send me to Paris for a year and then
- bring me out in New York if I’d give him my word—I’m too young
- to sign a contract—that I wouldn’t go with any other manager.
- At first my manager, who is a good old sole (I didn’t tell you
- that I live with him and his wife, and that their awful good to
- me and stand the fellers off), wouldn’t have it; but after a
- while he gave in—said I’d have to go the pace sooner or later
- (whatever that means), and I might as well go it in first class
- style. His wife, the good old sole, cried. She said I was the
- first corus girl she’d ever taken an interest in, but somehow it
- would be on her conscience if I went wrong. But I’m not going
- wrong. I don’t care a bit for men. There was a bald-headed old
- fool who used to come and sit in the front row every night and
- throw kisses to me, and one night he threw me a bouquet with a
- bracelet in it. I wore the bracelet, for it was a beauty with a
- big diamond in it; but I never looked at him or answered any of
- his notes, and Mr. Bell—the manager—wrote him he’d punch his
- head if he came near the stage door. No, all I want is to act,
- act, act, and sing, sing, sing, and dance, dance, dance, and
- have beautiful cloths and jewels and a carriage and two horses.
- Mr. Soper has told me ten times since I’ve met him that “virtue
- in an actress pays,” and he’s going to send a horrid old woman
- with me to Paris, as if I’d bother with the fools anyhow. I’m
- sure I can’t see what Mrs. Bell cries about if I’m going to be
- famous and make a lot of money. Anyhow, I’m going. I do so want
- to see you, Patita dear. Maybe you can come up to the steamer
- and see me off. I wonder if you have changed. I’m not so very
- tall; but they all say my figure is good. Mr. Soper says it will
- be divine in a year or two, but that I may be a cow at thirty,
- so I’d better not lose any time. Good-bye. Good-bye. I want to
- give you a hundred kisses. How different our lives are! Isn’t
- yours dreadfully stupid with that old temprance work? And just
- think it was you who taught me to act first! Mr. Soper says I
- must cultivate the Spanish racket for all it’s worth, and that
- he expects me to be more Spanish in New York than I was in
- Monterey. He is going to get an opera written for me with the
- part of a Spanish girl in it so I can wear the costume. He says
- if I study and do everything he tells me I’ll make a _furore_.
- _Hasta luego_—Patita _mia_.
-
- ROSITA ELVIRA FRANCESCA THRAILKILL.
-
- P. S.—I’m to have a Spanish stage name, “La Rosita,” I guess.
- Mr. Soper says that Thrailkill is an “anti-climax,” and would
- never “go down.”
-
-
- IX
-
-Patience read this letter with some alarm. All that she had heard and
-read of the stage made her apprehensive. She feared that Rosita would
-become fast, would drink and smoke, and not maintain a proper reserve
-with men. Then the natural independence of her character asserted
-itself, and she felt pride in Rosita’s courage and promptness of action.
-She even envied her a little: her life would be so full of variety.
-
-“And after all it’s fate,” she thought philosophically. “She was cut out
-for the stage if ever a girl was. You might as well try to keep a bird
-from using its wings, or Miss Beale and auntie from being Temperance. I
-wonder what my fate is. It’s not the stage, but it’s not this,
-neither—not much. Shouldn’t wonder if I made a break for Mr. Field some
-day. But I couldn’t leave auntie. She’s the kind that gets a hold on
-you.”
-
-She did her duty by Hog Heights during Miss Tremont’s brief holiday, but
-did it as concisely as was practicable. She found it impossible to
-sympathise with people that were content to let others support them,
-giving nothing in return. Her strong independent nature despised
-voluntary weakness. It was her private opinion that these useless
-creatures with only the animal instinct to live, and not an ounce of
-grey matter in their skulls, encumbered the earth, and should be quietly
-chloroformed.
-
-Despite her love for Miss Tremont, she breathed more freely in her
-absence. She was surfeited with religion, and at times possessed with a
-very flood of revolt and the desire to let it loose upon every church
-worker in Mariaville. But affection and gratitude restrained her.
-
-
- X
-
-Miss Tremont returned on Wednesday morning. She stepped off the train
-with a bag under one arm, a bundle under the other, and both arms full
-of flowers.
-
-“Oh, you darling, you darling!” she cried as she fell upon Patience.
-“How it does my heart good to see you! These are for you. Hal picked
-them, and sent her love. Aren’t they sweet?”
-
-“Lovely,” said Patience, crushing the flowers as she hugged and kissed
-Miss Tremont. “Here, give me the bag.”
-
-Miss Tremont would go to Temperance Hall first, then to call upon Miss
-Beale, but was finally guided to her home. The trunk had preceded them.
-Patience unpacked the despised gowns, while listening to a passionate
-dissertation upon the heavy trial they had been to their owner.
-
-“I think you had a good time all the same,” she said. “You look as if
-you’d had, at any rate. You’ve not looked so well since I came. That
-sort of thing agrees with you better than tramping over Hog Heights—”
-
-“It does not!” cried Miss Tremont. “And I am so glad to get back to my
-work and my little girl.”
-
-“And the Lord,” supplemented Patience.
-
-“Oh, He was with me even there. Only He didn’t feel so near.” She sighed
-reminiscently. “But I’ve brought pictures of the children to show you.
-Let us go down to the parlour where it’s cooler, and then we’ll stand
-them in a row on the mantel. They’re the first pictures I’ve had of them
-in years.” She caught a package from the tray of her trunk, in her usual
-abrupt fashion, and hurried downstairs, Patience at her heels.
-
-Miss Tremont seated herself in her favourite upright chair, put on her
-spectacles, and opened the package. “This is Hal,” she said, handing one
-of the photographs to Patience. “I must show you her first, for she’s my
-pet.”
-
-Patience examined the photograph eagerly. It was a half length of a girl
-with a straight tilted nose, a small mouth with a downward droop at the
-corners, large rather prominent eyes, and sleek hair which was in
-keeping with her generally well-groomed appearance. She wore a tailor
-frock. Her slender erect figure was beautifully poised. In one hand she
-carried a lorgnette. She was not pretty, but her expression was frank
-and graceful, and she had much distinction.
-
-“I like her. Any one could see she was a swell. What colour hair has
-she?”
-
-“Oh, a kind of brown. Her eyes are a sort of grey. Here is May. She
-always has her photographs coloured.”
-
-“Oh, she’s a beauty!” The girl even in photograph showed an exquisite
-bit of flesh and blood. The large blue eyes were young and appealing
-under soft fall of lash. The mouth was small and red, the nose small and
-straight. Chestnut hair curled about the small head and oval face. The
-skin was like tinted jade. It was the face of the American aftermath.
-She wore a ball gown revealing a slender girlish neck and a throat of
-tender curves.
-
-“She is a real beauty,” said Miss Tremont. “Poor Hal says, ‘she can’t
-wear her neck because she hasn’t got any.’ Did you ever hear such an
-expression?”
-
-“Hal looks as if she had a good figure.”
-
-Miss Tremont shook her head. “I don’t approve of all Hal does—she pads.
-She doesn’t seem to care much who knows it, for when the weather’s very
-warm she takes them out, right before your eyes, so it isn’t so bad as
-if she were deceitful about it. Here is Beverly.”
-
-Patience looked long at the young man’s face. This face too was oval,
-with a high intellectual forehead, broad black brows, and very regular
-features. The mouth appeared to pout beneath the drooping moustache. The
-expression of the eyes was very sweet. It was a strong handsome face,
-high-bred like the others, but with a certain nobility lacking in the
-women.
-
-“He is said to be the handsomest young man in Westchester County, and
-he’s quite dark,” said Miss Tremont. “What do you think of him?”
-
-“He is rather handsome. Where is Honora?”
-
-“She never has pictures taken. But, dear me, I must go out and see
-Ellen.”
-
-Patience disposed the photographs on the mantel, then, leaning on her
-elbows, gazed upon Beverly Peele. The Composite, Byron, the Stranger,
-rattled their bones unheard. She concluded that no knight of olden time
-could ever have been so wholly satisfactory as this young man. Romance,
-who had been boxed about the ears, and sent to sleep, crept to her old
-throne with a sly and meaning smile. Patience began at once to imagine
-her meeting with Beverly Peele. She would be in a runaway carriage, and
-he would rescue her. She would be skating and fall in a hole, and he
-would pull her out. He would be riding to hounds in his beautiful pink
-coat (which was red) and run over her.
-
-She pictured his face with a variety of expressions. She was sure that
-he had the courage of a lion and the tenderness of some women.
-Unquestionably he had read his ancestors’ entire library—“with that
-forehead,”—and he probably had the high and mighty air of her favourite
-heroes of fiction. In one of her letters Miss Tremont had remarked that
-he loved children and animals; therefore he had a beautiful character
-and a kind heart. And she was glad to have heard that he also had a
-temper: it saved him from being a prig. Altogether, Patience, with the
-wisdom of sixteen and three quarters, was quite convinced that she had
-found her ideal, and overlooked its extreme unlikeness to the Composite,
-which was the only ideal she had ever created. A woman’s ideal is the
-man she is in love with for the time being.
-
-She went up to her room, and for the first time in her life critically
-examined herself in the mirror. With May Peele and one or two beauties
-of the High School in mind, she decided with a sigh that _she_ was no
-beauty.
-
-“But who knows,” she thought with true insight, “what I’d be with
-clothes? Who could be pretty in a calico dress? My nose is as straight
-as May’s, anyhow, and my upper lip as short. But to be a real beauty
-you’ve got to have blue eyes and golden or chestnut hair and a little
-mouth, or else black eyes and hair like Rosita’s. My eyes are only grey,
-and my hair’s the colour of ashes, as Rosita once remarked. There’s no
-getting over that, although it certainly has grown a lot since I came
-here.”
-
-Then she remembered that Rosita had once decorated her with red ribbons
-and assured her that they were becoming. She ran down to the best spare
-room, and, divesting a tidy of its scarlet bows, pinned them upon
-herself before the mirror, which she discovered was more becoming than
-her own. The brilliant colour was undoubtedly improving—“And, my
-goodness!” she exclaimed suddenly, “I do believe I haven’t got a freckle
-left. It must be the climate.”
-
-“What on earth are you doing?” said an abrupt voice from the doorway.
-
-Patience started guiltily, and restored the bows to the tidy.
-
-“Oh, you see,” she stammered, “May is so pretty I wanted to see if I
-could be a little less homely.” Patience was truthful by nature, but the
-woman does not live that will not lie under purely feminine provocation.
-Otherwise she would not be worthy to bear the hallowed name of woman.
-
-“Nonsense,” said Miss Tremont, crossly, “I thought you were above that
-kind of foolishness. You, must remember that you are as the Lord made
-you, and be thankful that you were not born a negro or a Chinaman.”
-
-“Oh, I am,” said Patience.
-
-
- XI
-
-Thereafter, Patience roamed the woods munching chestnuts and dreaming of
-Beverly Peele. Hugo and Balzac and Goethe were neglected. Her brain wove
-thrilling romances of its own, especially in the night to the sound of
-rain. She never emerged from the woods without a shortening of the
-breath; but even Hal did not pay the promised call; nor did Beverly dash
-through the streets in a pink coat, a charger clasped between his knees.
-
-“Well, it’s fun to be in love, anyhow,” she thought. “I’ll meet him some
-time, I know.”
-
-Much to her regret she was not permitted to go to New York to see Rosita
-off. Miss Tremont had a morbid horror of the stage, and after Patience’s
-exhibition of vanity was convinced that “actress creatures” would exert
-a pernicious influence.
-
-And, shortly after, Patience received news which made her forget Rosita
-and even Beverly Peele for a while. Mr. Foord was dead. Patience had
-hoarded his twenty dollar gold piece because he had given it to her. She
-bought a black hat and frock with it, and felt as sad as she could at
-that age of shifting impressions. A later mail brought word that he had
-left her John Sparhawk’s library, which could stay in the Custom House
-until she was able to send for it, and a few hundred dollars which would
-remain in a savings bank until she was eighteen. He had nothing else to
-leave except his books, which went to found a town library. All but
-those few hundreds had been sunken in an annuity. Miss Tremont was quite
-content to be overlooked in the girl’s favour.
-
-By the time Patience was ready to return to Beverly Peele the new term
-opened, and the uncompromising methods of the High School left no time
-for romance. Once more her ambition to excel became paramount, and she
-studied night and day. She had no temptation to dissipate, for she was
-not popular with the young people of Mariaville. The Y’s disapproved of
-her because she would not don the white ribbon; and the church girls,
-generally, felt that except when perfunctorily assisting Miss Tremont
-she held herself aloof, even at the frequent sociables. And they were
-scandalised because she did not join the church, nor the King’s
-Daughters, nor the Christian Endeavor.
-
-The High School scholars liked her because she was “square,” and
-cordially admired her cleverness; but there were no recesses in the
-ordinary sense, and after school Miss Tremont claimed her. Even the boys
-“had no show,” as they phrased it. Occasionally they lent her a hand on
-the ice; but like all Californians, she bitterly felt the cold of her
-second winter, and in her few leisure hours preferred the fire.
-
-Sometimes she looked at Beverly Peele’s picture with a sigh and some
-resentment. “But never mind,” she would think philosophically, “I can
-fall in love with him over again next summer.” When vacation came she
-did in a measure take up the broken threads of her romance, but they had
-somewhat rotted from disuse.
-
-Rosita wrote every few weeks, reporting hard work and unbounded hope.
-“The _dueña_,” as she called her companion, “was an old devil,” and
-never let her go out alone, nor receive a man; but she “didn’t care,”
-she had no time for nonsense, anyhow. She was learning her part in the
-Spanish opera, which had been written for her, and it was “lovely.”
-
-“It must be a delightful sensation to have your future assured at
-seventeen,” thought Patience. “Mine is as problematical as the outcome
-of the Temperance cause. I have had one unexpected change, and may have
-more. If it were not for Rosita’s letters I should almost forget those
-sixteen years in California. I certainly am not the same person. I
-haven’t lost my temper for a year and a half, and I don’t seem to be
-disturbed any more by vague yearnings. Life is too practical, I
-suppose.”
-
-Miss Tremont did not visit the Gardiner Peeles this summer: they spent
-the season in travel. Late in the fall Rosita returned to America. She
-wrote the day before she sailed. That was the last letter Patience
-received from her. Later she sent a large envelope full of clippings
-descriptive of her triumphal début; thereafter nothing whatever.
-Patience, supposing herself forgotten, anathematised her old friend
-wrathfully, but pride forbade her to write and demand an explanation.
-
-She noticed with spasms of terror that Miss Tremont was failing. The
-rush and worry of a lifetime had worn the blood white, and the
-nerve-force down like an old wharf pile. But Miss Tremont would not
-admit that she had lost an ounce of strength. She arose at the same hour
-and toiled until late. When Patience begged her to take care of herself,
-she became almost querulous, and all Patience could do was to anticipate
-her in every possible way. But when school reopened she had little time
-for anything but study. She was to finish in June, and the last year’s
-course was very difficult.
-
-She graduated with flying colours, and Miss Tremont was so proud and
-excited that she took a day’s vacation. A week later Patience hinted
-that she thought she should be earning her own living; but Miss Tremont
-would not even discuss the subject. She fell into a rage every time it
-was broached, and Patience, who would have rebelled, had Miss Tremont
-been younger and stronger, submitted: she knew it would not be for long.
-
-
- XII
-
-Patience was languid all summer, and lay about in the woods, when she
-could, reading little and thinking much. Her school books put away
-forever, she felt for the first time that she was a woman, but did not
-take as much interest in herself as she had thought she should. She
-speculated a good deal upon her future career as a newspaper woman, and
-expended two cents every morning upon the New York “Day.” But she forgot
-to study it in the new interest it created: she had just the order of
-mind to succumb to the fascination of the newspaper, and she read the
-“Day’s” report of current history with a keener pleasure than even the
-great records of the past had induced. She longed for a companion with
-whom to talk over the significant tendencies of the age, and gazed upon
-Beverly Peele’s dome-like brow with a sigh.
-
-Once, in the Sunday issue, she came upon a column and a half devoted to
-Rosita, “The Sweetheart of the Public,” “The Princess Royal of Opera
-Bouffe.” The description of the young prima donna’s home life, personal
-characteristics, and footlight triumphs, was further embellished by a
-painfully _décolleté_ portrait, a lace night gown, a pair of wonderfully
-embroidered stockings, and a rosary.
-
-Patience read the article twice, wondering why fame realised looked so
-different from the abstract quality of her imagination.
-
-“Somehow it seems a sort of tin halo,” she thought. Then her thoughts
-drifted back to Monterey, and recalled it with startling vividness.
-“Still even if I haven’t forgotten it, it is like the memory of another
-life. Its only lasting effect has been to make me hate what is coarse
-and sinful; and dear auntie, even if she hasn’t converted me, has
-developed all my good.
-
-“I wonder if Rosita has been in love, and if that is the reason she has
-forgotten me. But she hasn’t married, so perhaps it’s only adulation
-that has driven everything else out of her head.” And then with her eyes
-on the river, which under the heavy sky looked like a stream of
-wrinkling lead from which a coating of silver had worn off in places,
-she fell to dreaming of Beverly Peele and an ideal existence in which
-they travelled and read and assured each other of respectful and
-rarefied affection.
-
-Early in the winter the influenza descended upon America. Mr. Peele, his
-wife wrote, was one of the first victims, and the entire family took him
-to Florida. One night, a month later, Miss Tremont returned from Hog
-Heights and staggered through her door.
-
-“Oh,” she moaned, as Patience rushed forward and caught her in her arms,
-“I feel so strangely. I have pains all over me, and the queerest feeling
-in my knees.”
-
-“It’s the grippe,” said Patience, who had read its history in the “Day.”
-She put Miss Tremont to bed, and sent for the doctor. The old lady was
-too weak to protest, and swallowed the medicines submissively. She
-recovered in due course, and one day slipped out and plodded through the
-snow to Hog Heights. She was brought home unconscious, and that night
-was gasping with pneumonia.
-
-There was no lack of nurses. Miss Beale and Mrs. Watt, who had helped to
-care for her during the less serious attack, returned at once, and many
-others called at intervals during the day and night.
-
-Patience sat constantly by the bed, staring at the face so soon to be
-covered from all sight. She wanted to cry and scream, but could not. Her
-heart was like lead in her breast.
-
-At one o’clock on the second night, she and Miss Beale were alone in the
-sick room. Mrs. Watt was walking softly up and down the hall without.
-
-Miss Tremont was breathing irregularly, and Patience bent over her with
-white face. Miss Beale began to sob.
-
-“Is it not terrible, terrible,” she ejaculated, “that she
-should die like this, she whose deathbed should have been so
-beautiful,—unconscious, drugged—morphine, which is as accursed as
-whisky—”
-
-“I am glad of it. It would be more horrible to see her suffer.”
-
-“I don’t want to see her suffer—dear, dear Miss Tremont. But she should
-have died in the full knowledge that she was going to God. Oh! Oh!” she
-burst out afresh. “How I envy her! It’s my only, only sin, but I can’t
-help envying those who are going to heaven. I can’t wait. I do so want
-to see the beautiful green pastures and the still waters—and oh, how I
-want to talk with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob!”
-
-Patience flung her head into her lap and burst into a fit of laughter.
-
-
- XIII
-
-An hour later she went downstairs and turned up all the lights. Mrs.
-Watt had gone to the next house to telephone for the undertakers. When
-she returned she went upstairs to Miss Beale. Patience could hear the
-two women praying. That was the only sound in the terrible stillness.
-She paced up and down, wringing her hands and gasping occasionally. Her
-sense of desolation was appalling, although as yet she but half realised
-her bereavement.
-
-Suddenly she heard the sound of runners on the crisp snow. They stopped
-before the gate. She ran shuddering to the window. The moon flooded the
-white earth. Two tall black shadows came down the path. They trod as if
-on velvet. Even on the steps and porch they made no sound. They knocked
-as death may knock on a human soul, lightly, meaningly. Patience dragged
-herself to the door and opened it. The long narrow black men entered and
-bent their heads solemnly. Patience raised her shaking hand, and pointed
-to the floor above. The men of death bowed again, and stole upward like
-black ghosts. In a few moments they stole down again and out and away.
-Patience rushed frantically through the rooms to the kitchen, where she
-fell upon Ellen, dozing by the fire, and screamed and laughed until the
-terrified woman flung a pitcher of water on her, then carried her
-upstairs and put her to bed.
-
-
- XIV
-
-A week later Patience wandered restlessly about the lonely house. The
-hundreds of people that had thronged it had gone at last, even Miss
-Beale and Mrs. Watt.
-
-She had cried until she had no tears left, and rebelled until reason
-would hear no more. Her nerves felt blunt and worn down.
-
-Yesterday Miss Tremont’s lawyer had told her that after a few
-unimportant bequests she was to have the income of the dead woman’s
-small estate until she married, after which she would have nothing and
-the Temperance cause all. She was therefore exempt from the pettiest and
-severest of life’s trials. Miss Tremont had also left a letter, begging
-her to devote herself to a life of charity and reform. But Patience had
-at last revolted. She realised how empty had been her part, how
-torrential the impulsion of Miss Tremont.
-
-The great world outside of Mariaville pressed upon her imagination,
-gigantic, rainbow-hued, alluring. It beckoned with a thousand fingers,
-and all her complex being responded. She longed for a talent with which
-to add to its beauty, and thought no ill of it.
-
-She had sat up half the night thinking, and this morning she felt doubly
-restless and lonely. She wanted to go away at once, but as yet she had
-made no plans; and plans were necessary. She was too tired to go to Mr.
-Field and apply for work; and she knew that her delicate appearance
-would not commend itself to his approval. She went to the mirror in the
-best spare bedroom and regarded herself anxiously. Her black-robed
-figure seemed very tall and thin, her face white and sharp.
-
-“Even red bows—” she began; then her memory tossed up Rosita. “Oh,” she
-thought, “if I could only see her,—see some one I care a little for. I
-believe I’ll go—there may have been some reason—her letters may have
-miscarried—I must see somebody.”
-
-She ran upstairs, put on her outing things, and walked rapidly to the
-station. The sharp air electrified her blood. The world was full of
-youth and hope once more. She forgot her bereavement for the hour. She
-hoped Rosita would ask her to visit her: the popular young prima donna
-must have drawn many brilliant people about her.
-
-When she reached New York she inquired her way to “Soper’s Opera House,”
-obtained Rosita’s address, and took the elevated train up town. She
-found the great apartment house with little difficulty, and was
-enraptured with its marble floors and pillars, its liveried servants and
-luxurious elevator.
-
-“I certainly had rich ancestors,” she thought, “and I am sure they were
-swells. I have a natural affinity for all this sort of thing.”
-
-She was landed at the very top of the house. The elevator boy directed
-her attention to a button, then slid down and out of sight, leaving
-Patience with the delightful sensation of having stepped upon a new
-stratum, high and away from the vast terrestrial cellar.
-
-A trim French maid opened the door. She stared at Patience, and looked
-disinclined to admit her. But Patience pushed the door back with
-determined hand.
-
-“I wish to see La Rosita,” she said in French.
-
-“But madame is not receiving to-day.”
-
-“She will see me, I am sure. Tell her that Miss Sparhawk is here.”
-
-The woman admitted her reluctantly, and left her standing in an
-anteroom, passing between heavy portières. Patience followed, and
-entered a large drawing-room furnished with amber satin and ebony: a
-magnificent room, heavy with the perfume of great baskets of flowers,
-and filled with costly articles of decoration. The carpet was of amber
-velvet. Not a sound of street penetrated the heavy satin curtains.
-
-An indefinable sensation stole over Patience’s mind, a ghost whose
-lineaments were blurred, yet familiar. She felt an impulse to turn and
-run, then twitched her shoulders impatiently, and approaching other
-portières, parted them and glanced into the room beyond.
-
-It was evidently a boudoir, a fragrant fairy-like thing of rose and
-lace.
-
-In a deep chair, clad in a _robe de chambre_ of rose-coloured silk,
-flowing open over a lace smock and petticoat, lay Rosita. Her dense
-black hair was twisted carelessly on top of her head and confined with a
-jewelled dagger. One tiny foot, shod in a high-heeled slipper of
-rose-coloured silk, was conspicuous on a low _pouf_. The flush of youth
-was in her cheek, its scarlet in her mouth. The large white lids lay
-heavily on the languorous eyes. In one hand she held a pink cigarette in
-a jewelled holder. She spoke in a low tantalising voice to a man who sat
-before her, leaning eagerly forward.
-
-The maid had evidently not succeeded in gaining her attention. Patience,
-conquering another impulse to run, pushed the hangings aside and
-entered. Rosita sprang to her feet, the blood flashing to her hair; but
-her eyes expanded with pleasure.
-
-“Patita! Patita!” she stammered, then caught Patience in her arms. As
-both girls looked as if about to weep, the man hurriedly departed.
-
-The girls hugged each other as of old; then Rosita divested Patience of
-her wraps and told the astonished maid to take them out of sight.
-
-“Now that you are here, you shall stay,” she said, “stay a long, long
-while. Have you had luncheon?”
-
-“No—but I’m not—yes, I am, though, come to think of it. Get me
-something to eat. Rosita, how good it is to see you again! Why, why
-didn’t you write to me?”
-
-“O—h; I will tell you, perhaps; but you must have luncheon first. I
-take a late breakfast, just after rising, so it will be a few minutes
-before yours is ready.” She rang a bell and gave an order to the maid,
-then pushed Patience into the deepest and softest chair in the room.
-
-“Now,” she said, smiling affectionately, “lie back and be comfortable;
-you look tired. Oh, Patita, I am so glad to see you. Isn’t it like old
-times?”
-
-With a grace which long practice had made a fine art, she sank upon one
-end of a divan, and back among a mass of cushions. Her white arms lay
-along the pillows in such careless wise as to best exhibit their
-perfection; her head dropped backward slightly, revealing the round
-throat. The attitude was so natural as to suggest that she had ceased to
-pose.
-
-Patience stared at her, wondering if it could be the same Rosita. All
-the freshness of youth was in that beautiful face and round voluptuous
-form, but she looked years and years and years older than the Rosita of
-Monterey. Patience suddenly felt young and foolish and green. The world
-that had been so great and wonderful to her imagination seemed to have
-shrunken to a ball, to be tossed from one to the other of those white
-idle hands.
-
-“What has changed you so?” she asked abruptly.
-
-Rosita gave the low delicious laugh of which Patience had read in the
-New York “Day.” She relit her cigarette and blew a soft cloud.
-
-“I will tell you after luncheon. You are the only person I would never
-fib to. I believe those grey eyes of yours are the only honest eyes in
-the world. Why are you in black?”
-
-Patience told her, and was drawn on to speak of herself and her life.
-Rosita shuddered once or twice, an adorable little French shudder, and
-cast upward her glittering hands, whose nails Patience admired even more
-than their jewels.
-
-“_Dios de mi alma!_” she cried finally. “What an existence!—I cannot
-call it life. I should have jumped into the river. That life would drive
-me mad, and I do not believe that it suits you either.”
-
-She spoke with a Spanish accent, and with the affected precision of a
-foreigner that has carefully learned the English language. Her monotony
-of inflection was more effective than animation.
-
-“No, it doesn’t,” said Patience, “and I have no intention of pursuing
-it. I’m going to be a newspaper woman.”
-
-Rosita gave forth a sound that from any other throat would have been a
-shriek.
-
-“A newspaper woman! And then you will come and interview me. How droll!
-I shall have to become eccentric, so that I can furnish you with
-‘stories,’ as they call them. I have been pumped dry. When the newspaper
-women have run out of everything else they come to me, and they love me
-because I am good-natured, and turn my things upside down for them. I
-never refuse to see them, so they have never written anything horrid
-about me. Oh, I can tell you I have learned a great many lessons since I
-left Monterey. But here is your luncheon. While you are eating it I will
-do something for you that I have never done for any one else off the
-stage: I will sing to you.”
-
-The maid placed a silver tray on a little table, and while Patience ate
-of creamed oysters and broiled partridge, Rosita sang as the larks of
-paradise may sing when angels awake with the dawn. Once Patience glanced
-hastily upward, half expecting to see the notes falling in a golden
-shower. When she expressed her admiration, Rosita’s red lips smiled
-slowly away from the white sharp little teeth.
-
-“Do you like it, Patita _mia_?” she asked with bewitching graciousness.
-“Yes, I can sing. I have the world at my feet.”
-
-She resumed her languid attitude on the divan. “_Bueno_,” she said, “now
-I am going to tell you all about it. People are always a little heavy
-after eating; I waited on purpose. But you must promise not to move
-until I get through. Will you?”
-
-“Yes,” said Patience, uncomfortably. “I hope it is nothing very
-dreadful.”
-
-“That all depends upon the way you look at things. It will seem odd to
-tell it to you. You used to be the one to do what you felt like and tell
-other people that if they did not like it they could do the other thing;
-but I suppose you are W. C. T. U’d.”
-
-“No, I’m not. Go on.”
-
-“Well, I will.” She paused and laughed lightly. “Funny world. We do not
-usually tell this sort of story to a woman, but you and I are different.
-_Bueno._
-
-“I went to Paris and studied hard. Yes, I am lazy yet, but I had made up
-my mind to be a great, great, great success. I had what in insane people
-is called the fixed idea, and the American in me conquered the Spanish.
-Everybody praised my voice. No one said it was the greatest voice in the
-world, nor even better than two or three others over there; but I had no
-discouragement. I attracted a great deal of attention from men, but the
-_dueña_ never let them get a word with me, and I did not care. I used to
-wonder at the stories told about some of the other girls, and did not
-half understand. Two sold themselves; but why? with a fortune in one’s
-throat. Others fell in love, and talked about the temperament of the
-artist, but I could not understand that nonsense either.
-
-“_Bueno_, at the end of the time Soper came over and bought me eight
-trunks full of the most beautiful clothes you ever saw,—mostly for the
-stage, but lots for the house and street. He said I was a first-class
-investment, and worth the outlay. When he heard me sing he shook all
-over. I ought to tell you that I had been kept on short allowance, and
-had had very dowdy clothes, which broke my heart.
-
-“_Bueno_, we came home. On the steamer, Soper treated me like a father,
-but never let me talk to a man. Either he or the _dueña_ was at my heels
-all the time. He is a coarse-looking man, but I really liked him because
-he had been so good to me, and there was something very attractive about
-him. When we reached New York the _dueña_ left us. She said she was
-going straight to Philadelphia to her home. Soper and I got in another
-cab and drove to an apartment on Broadway. I did not know until the next
-day that it was his apartment. That was in the evening. The next
-morning, while I was at a late breakfast, he sent me a note, saying that
-he would call in an hour and have a business talk with me. I was
-practising my scales when he came in, and he clapped his hands and
-offered me a chair. He drew one up for himself, and then said in a
-perfectly business-like voice:—
-
-“‘When I ran across you I knew that you only needed training to become a
-queen of opera bouffe, and to make a fortune for some one besides
-yourself. I also saw that you were going to become a beautiful woman. I
-made up my mind that I would own both the woman and the artist. Don’t
-look like a little tigress—still, I’m glad you can look that way,—you
-may be able to do Carmen yet. Don’t misunderstand me. I am not a
-villain, merely a practical man with an eye to beauty. I have no idea of
-letting you get under the influence of any other man,—not even if you
-weren’t so pretty. Let me console you by telling you that for the sort
-of woman you are there is no escape. You were made to drive men mad, and
-for the comic opera stage. That sort of combination might as well get
-down to business as early in the game as possible: it saves time.
-
-“‘Had I never discovered you, you would have drifted from company to
-company, gone the pace with nothing to show for it, and worn out your
-youth at one-night stands. I saved you from a terrible fate. You know
-the rest. You know what you owe me. You have developed even beyond my
-hopes, but—mark you this—I have not advertised you in any way. You are
-as unknown as on the day you left California. If you mount the high
-horse and say: ”Sir, you are a villain. Go to, go to!“ I shall merely
-turn you loose without your trunks. You may imagine that with your voice
-and beauty you could get an engagement anywhere. So you could—without
-advertising, without an opera, and without a theatre of your own. Every
-existing troupe has its own prima donna; you would have to take a second
-or third rate part,—and unquestionably in a travelling troupe. There is
-no place for you in New York but the one I propose to create. Lillian
-Russell practically owns the Casino, and will, unless all signs fail,
-for many years. She would not tolerate you on the same stage five
-minutes; neither would any prima donna who had any influence with her
-manager,—and they mostly have. Your career would be exactly what it
-would have been if I had not met you,—full of hardships and change and
-racing about the country; arriving at six in the evening, singing at
-eight, leave the next morning at four, get what sleep you could on the
-train. That’s about the size of it. You’d be painting inside of a year,
-if not wearing plumpers. And what you’re mad at now, you’d be looking
-upon as a matter of course then, and grateful for the admiration.
-
-“‘Moreover, no success is worth a tinker’s dam that ain’t made in New
-York,—I think I wrote you that on an average of once a month. If you
-show that you have horse sense, and will sign a contract with me for
-five years, I’ll make you the rage in New York inside of two months. Now
-it is success or failure: you can take your choice. I’ll be here
-to-morrow at ten.’ And he was gone before I could speak.
-
-“_Bueno_, after I had gotten over being fearfully mad I sat down and
-thought it all over. I knew that all he said was true. I had heard too
-much in Paris. He had kept writing me that virtue paid in an actress to
-keep me straight, but I had heard the opposite about nine hundred times.
-_Bueno_, I was in a trap. I had made up my mind to succeed. I had even
-worked for it,—and you know how much that meant with me. I made up my
-mind that succeed I would, no matter what the price. It is one of two
-things in this world,—success or failure,—and if you fail nobody cares
-a hang about your virtue.
-
-“You know I never was sentimental nor romantic. Soper had made a plain
-business proposition in a practical way that I liked. If he had gone on
-like a stage lover it would have been much harder. And after all I would
-be no worse than a society girl who sells herself to a rich husband. So,
-after turning it over for twenty-four hours—or all the time I was
-awake—I concluded not to be a fool, but La Rosita, Queen of Opera
-Bouffe. When he called I merely shrugged my shoulders and said
-‘_Bueno_.’ He laughed, and said I would certainly succeed in this world;
-that the beautiful woman with the cool calculating brain always got
-there. So—here I am. What do you think of it?”
-
-During this recital her voice had not for one instant broken nor
-hardened. She told her story in the soft sweet languid voice of Spain;
-she might have been relating an idyl of which she was the Juliet and
-Soper the Romeo.
-
-Patience stared at her with wide eyes and dry lips.
-
-“And you have never regretted it?” she asked; “you don’t care?”
-
-Rosita raised her beautiful brows. “Regret? Well, no, I should say not.
-Have I not realised my dreams and ambition? Am I not rich and famous and
-happy instead of a scrambling nobody? Regret?—No—rather. What is more,
-I know how to save. A good many of us have learned that lesson. When I
-have lost voice and youth I shall be rich,—rich. We do not end in a
-garret, like in the old days. And I do not drink, and I rest a great
-deal—it will be a long time before I go off. Besides, there are the
-beauty doctors—Oh, no, I am not regretting. And Soper is getting tired
-of me, I am happy to say.”
-
-Patience rose and went into the room where the maid had carried her hat
-and jacket. It was a bedroom, a white nest of lace and velvet. When she
-returned she said: “I should like to go home and think it over. I feel
-queer and stunned. You have taken me so completely by surprise that I
-can hardly think.”
-
-Rosita coloured angrily.
-
-“You are shocked, I suppose,” she said with a sneer. “I should think—”
-She paused abruptly. She was still an amiable little soul.
-
-Patience understood perfectly, and turned a shade paler. “I told you
-that I did not understand how I felt. In fact, I hardly ever know just
-how I feel about anything. I suppose it is because I have the sort of
-mind that is made to analyse, and I haven’t had experience enough to
-know how. And I never judge any one. Why should I? Why should we judge
-anybody? We are not all made alike. I couldn’t do what you have done,
-but that is no reason why I should condemn you. That would be absurd. If
-any one else had told me this story I should only have been
-interested—I am so curious about everything. But you see you are the
-only girl friend I ever had, and that is what makes me feel so
-strangely. Good-bye;” and she hurriedly left the room.
-
-
- XV
-
-When she reached home she forgot her horror of death chambers, and went
-to Miss Tremont’s room and flung herself on the bed. She did not
-cry—her tears had all been spent; but she felt something of the
-profound misery of the last year in Monterey. During the intervening
-years she had seen little of the cloven hoof of human nature; the
-occasional sin over on Hog Heights hardly counted; creatures of the
-lower conditions had no high lights to make the shadows startling. But
-to-day the horror of old experiences rushed over her; she was filled
-with a profound loathing of life, of human nature.
-
-So far, of love, in its higher sense—if it possessed such a part—she
-had seen nothing; of sensuality, too much. True, she had spent two weeks
-with Miss Galpin, during that estimable young woman’s engagement; but
-Miss Galpin took love as a sort of front-parlour, evening-dress affair,
-and Patience had not deigned to be interested. She had speculated
-somewhat over Miss Tremont’s early romance, but could only conclude that
-it was one of those undeveloped little histories that so many old maids
-cherish.
-
-She recalled all the love stories she had read. Even the masters were
-insipid when they attempted to portray spiritual love. It was only when
-they got down to the congenial substratum of passion that they wrote of
-love with colour and fire. Was she to believe that it did not
-exist,—this union of soul and mind? Her dreams receded, and refused to
-cohere. She wondered, with natural egoism, if any girl of her age had
-ever received so many shocks. She was on the threshold of life, with a
-mass of gross material out of which to shape her mental attitude to
-existing things. True, she had met only women of relative sinlessness
-during these last years, but their purity was uninteresting because it
-was that of people mentally limited, and possessed of the fad of the
-unintellectual. Moreover, they had their erotism, the oddest, most
-unreal, and harmless erotism the world has known in the last two
-thousand years; and after all quite incidental: her keen eyes had long
-since observed that the old maids were far more religious than the
-married women, that the girls cooled perceptibly to the great
-abstraction as soon as a concrete candidate was approved.
-
-She longed passionately for Miss Tremont. All her old restlessness and
-doubt had returned with the flight of that ardent absorbing personality.
-She wished that she could have been remodelled; for, after all, the dear
-old lady, whatever her delusions, had been happy. But she was still
-Patience Sparhawk; she could only be thankful that Miss Tremont had
-cemented her hatred of evil.
-
-She rose abruptly, worn out by conjectures and analysis that led
-nowhere, and went out into the woods.
-
-“Oh,” she said, lifting her arms, “this at least is beautiful.”
-
-The ground was hard and white and sparkling. The trees were crystal,
-down to the tiniest twig. They glittered iridescently under the level
-rays of the sun descending upon the Palisades on the far side of the
-Hudson. The river was grey under great floating blocks of ice. Groves of
-slender trees in the hollows of the Palisades looked like fine bunches
-of feathers. On the long slopes the white snow lay deep; above, the dark
-steeps were merely powdered, here and there; on the high crest the woods
-looked black.
-
-She walked rapidly up and down, calmed, as of old, by the beauty of
-nature, but dreading the morrow and the recurring to-morrows. Suddenly
-through those glittering aisles pealed the rich sonorous music of the
-organ. The keys were under the hands of a master, and the great notes
-throbbed and swelled and rolled through the winter stillness in the
-divine harmonies of “The Messiah.” Patience stood still, shaking a
-little. On a hill above the wood a large house had been built recently;
-the organ must be there.
-
-The diamond radiance of the woods was living melody. The very trees
-looked to bow their crystal heads. The great waves of harmony seemed
-rolling down from an infinite height, down from some cathedral of light
-and stars.
-
-The ugly impressions of the day vanished. The sweet intangible longing
-she had been used to know in Carmel tower flashed back to her. What was
-it? She recalled the words of the Stranger. It was long since she had
-thought of him. She closed her eyes and stood with him in the tower. His
-voice was as distinct as the notes of the organ. She felt again the
-tumult of her young half-comprehending mind. Was not life all a matter
-of ideals? Were not the bad and the good happy only if consistent to a
-fixed idea? Did she make of herself such a woman as the Stranger had
-evoked out of the great mass of small feminity, could she not be
-supremely happy with such a man? Where was he? Was he married? He seemed
-so close—it was incredible that he existed for another woman. Who more
-surely than she could realise the purest ideal of her imaginings,—she
-with her black experience and hatred of all that was coarse and evil?
-She closed her eyes to her womanhood no longer. It thrilled and shook
-her. If he would come—She trembled a little.
-
-All men were henceforth possible lovers. Unless the Stranger appeared
-speedily his memory must give way to the definite. The imperious demands
-of a woman’s nature cannot be satisfied with abstractions. The ideal
-which he stood for would lend a measure of itself to each engaging man
-with whom she exchanged greeting.
-
-
- XVI
-
-“Miss Patience!” cried a strident voice.
-
-Patience turned with a violent start. Ellen was a large blotch on the
-white beauty of the wood.
-
-“There’s a young lady to see you. She didn’t give her name as I
-remember.”
-
-Patience followed the servant resentfully. The world was cold and dull
-again. But when she recognised the Peele coachman and footman on the
-handsome sleigh before the door she forgot her dreams, and went eagerly
-into the house.
-
-A girl was standing before the mantel, regarding through a lorgnette a
-row of photographs. She turned as she heard footsteps, and came forward
-with a cordial smile on her plain charming face. She wore a black cloth
-frock and turban which made Patience feel dowdy as Rosita’s magnificence
-had not.
-
-“I am Hal,” she said, “and you are Patience, of course. I hope you have
-heard as much of me as I have of you. Dear old girl, I was awfully fond
-of her. You look so tired—are you?”
-
-“A little. It is so good of you to come. Yes, I’ve heard a very great
-deal of you.”
-
-“I’ll sit down, thank you. Let’s try this sofa. I’ve already tried the
-chairs, and they’re awful. But I suppose dear old Harriet never sat down
-at all. I wonder if she’ll be happy in heaven with nothing to do.”
-
-Patience smiled sympathetically. “She ought to be glad of a rest, but I
-don’t believe she is.”
-
-“She thought we were all heathens—dear old soul; but I did love her.
-What was the trouble? We only had one short letter from Miss Beale. Do
-tell me all about it.”
-
-Miss Peele had an air of reposeful alertness. She leaned forward
-slightly, her eyes fixed on Patience’s with flattering attention. She
-looked a youthful worldling, a captivating type to a country girl. Her
-voice was very sweet, and exquisitely modulated. Occasionally it went
-down into a minor key.
-
-“What shall you do with yourself, now?” she asked anxiously, when
-Patience had finished the brief story. “I am so interested in you. I
-don’t know why I haven’t called before, except that I never find time to
-do the things I most care for; but I have wanted to come a dozen times,
-and when we returned yesterday and heard of the dear old girl’s death I
-made up my mind to come at once. And I’m coming often. I know we shall
-be such good friends. I’m so glad she left you her money so you won’t
-have to work. It must be so horrid to work. I’m going to ask mamma to
-ask you to visit us. She’s feeling rather soft now over Cousin Harriet’s
-death, so I’ll strike before she gets the icebergs on. She isn’t
-pleasant then. I’ll tell her you don’t wear the white ribbon yet—” She
-broke into a light peal of laughter. “Poor mamma! how she used to
-suffer. Cousin Harriet’s white bow was the great cross of her life. It
-will go far toward reconciling her—Don’t think that my parent is
-heartless. She merely insists upon everything belonging to her to be
-_sans reproche_. That’s the reason we don’t always get along. What
-lovely hair you have—a real _blonde cendrée_. It’s all the rage in
-Paris. And that great coil is beautiful. Tell me, didn’t you find that
-Temperance work a hideous bore?”
-
-“Oh, yes, but no one could resist Miss Tremont.”
-
-“Indeed one couldn’t. I believe she’d have roped me in if I’d lived with
-her; but I’m a frivolous good-for-nothing thing. You look so serious. Do
-you always feel that way?”
-
-Patience smiled broadly. “Oh, no. I often feel that I would be very
-frivolous indeed if circumstances would permit. It must be very
-interesting.”
-
-“You get tired of yourself sometimes—I mean I do. Are you very
-religious?”
-
-“I am not religious at all.”
-
-“Oh, how awfully jolly. I do the regulation business, but it is really
-tragic to carry so much religion round all the time. I wonder how Cousin
-Harriet and the Lord hit it off, or if they liked each other better at a
-distance? I corresponded once with the brother of a school friend for a
-year, and when I met him I couldn’t endure him. Those things are very
-trying. I am going to call you Patience. May I? And if ever you call me
-Miss Peele you’ll be sorry. How awfully smart you’d look in gowns. My
-colouring is so commonplace. If I didn’t know how to dress, and hadn’t
-been taught to carry myself with an air, I’d be just nothing—no more
-and no less. But you have such a lovely nose and white skin—and that
-hair! You are aristocratic looking without being swagger. I’m the other
-way. You can acquire the one, but you can’t the other. When you have
-both you’ll be out of sight.
-
-“What fun it would be,” she rambled on in her bright inconsequential
-way, “if Bev should fall in love with you and you’d marry him. Then I’d
-have such fun dressing you, and we’d get ahead of my cousin Honora
-Mairs, whom I hate, and who, I’m afraid, will get him. Propinquity and
-flattery will bring down any man—they’re such peacocks. But I’ll bring
-him to see you. You ought to have a violet velvet frock. I’d bet on Bev
-then. But, of course, you can’t wear colours yet, and that dead black is
-wonderfully becoming. Can I bring him up in a day or two?”
-
-“Oh, yes,” said Patience, smiling as she recalled her brief periods of
-spiritual matrimony with Beverly Peele; “by all means. I’ll be so glad
-to meet all of you. And you are certainly good to take so much interest
-in me.”
-
-“I am the angel of the family. Well, I must be off, or I’ll have to dine
-all by me lonely. None of the rest of the family uses slang: that is the
-reason I do. May is a grown-up baby, and never disobeyed her mamma in
-her life. Honora is a classic, and only swears in the privacy of her
-closet when her schemes fail. Mother—well, you’ve seen mother. As you
-may imagine, she doesn’t use slang. Papa doesn’t talk at all, and Bev is
-a prig where decent women are concerned. So, you see, I have to let off
-steam somehow, and as I haven’t the courage to be larky, I read French
-novels and use bad words.”
-
-She rose and moved toward a heavy coat that lay on a chair. “Well,
-Patience—what a funny lovely old-fashioned name you have—I’m going to
-bring Bev to see you as a last resource. I’ve tried him on a dozen other
-girls, but it was no go. I’ll talk you up to him meanwhile—I’ll tell
-him that you are one of the cold haughty indifferent sort, and yet
-withal a village maiden. He admires blondes, and you’re such a natural
-one. We’ll come up Sunday on horseback. Now be sure to make him think
-you don’t care a hang whether he likes you or not—he’s been so run
-after. Isn’t it too funny? I did not come here on matchmaking thoughts
-intent, but I do like you, and we could have such jolly good fun
-together. I’ll teach you how to smoke cigarettes—”
-
-“But Miss Peele—Hal—you know—I don’t want to marry your brother—I
-have never even seen him—much as I should like to live with you—I’d
-even smoke cigarettes to please you—but really—”
-
-“Oh, I know, of course. I can only hope for the best, and Bev certainly
-is fascinating. At least he appears to be,” and she smiled oddly; “but
-being a man’s sister is much like being his valet, you know. Would you
-mind helping me into this coat?
-
-“I hate these heavy fur things,” she said petulantly. “Oh, thanks—they
-don’t suit my light and airy architecture, and I can’t get up any
-dignity in them at all. I need fluffy graceful French things. You’d look
-superb in velvet and furs and all that sort of thing. Well,
-bye-bye,—no,—_au revoir_.”
-
-She took Patience’s face between her hands and lightly kissed her on
-either cheek.
-
-“Don’t be lonesome,” she said. “I’d go frantic in this house. Can’t I
-send you some books? I’ve a lot of naughty French ones—”
-
-“No!” said Patience, abruptly, “I don’t want them. Don’t think I’m a
-prig,” she added, hastily, as a look of apprehension crossed Miss
-Peele’s face; “but I had a hideous shock to-day, and I don’t want to
-read anything similar at present—”
-
-“Oh, tell me about it. How could you have a shock in Mariaville?”
-
-“I didn’t. It was in New York—”
-
-“Oh, was it real wicked? Did you have an adventure? Do tell me—Well,
-don’t, of course, if you don’t want to, only I’m so interested in you.
-Well, I must, must go;” and despite the furs she moved down the walk
-with exceeding grace. As she drove off she leaned out of the sleigh and
-waved her hand.
-
-“Oh!” thought Patience, “I’m so glad she came. It was like fresh air
-after a corpse covered with sachet bags.” And then she went to the
-mantel and gazed upon Beverly Peele.
-
-
- XVII
-
-When Sunday came Patience dressed herself with unusual care. It did not
-occur to her that people in different spheres of life arose at different
-hours, and she expected her guests any time after eight o’clock.
-
-Of course she must wear unrelieved black, but after prolonged regard in
-the becoming mirror of the best spare room, she decided that it rather
-enhanced her charms, now that a week’s rest had banished the circles
-from her eyes and cleared her skin.
-
-She had coiled her soft ashen hair loosely on the top of her head,
-pulling it out a little about her face—she wore no bangs. Her restless
-eyes were dark and clear and sparkling, her mouth pink. She carried her
-slender figure with a free graceful poise. The carriage of her head was
-almost haughty. Her hips had a generous swell. Her hands and teeth were
-very white.
-
-“I certainly have a look of race,” she thought, “if I’m not a beauty.
-I’d give a good deal to know that my ancestors really did have good
-blood in their veins. I don’t care so much for money, but I’d like to be
-sure of that.”
-
-After breakfast she wandered about restlessly. She had known few moments
-of peace since Miss Peele’s visit. The train had been fired, and her
-being was in a tumult. Beverly Peele, the Stranger, and the vague ideals
-of her earlier girlhood were inextricably mixed. The result was a being
-before whom she trembled with mingled rapture and terror. Her vivid
-imagination had evoked a distinct entity, and the love scenes that had
-been enacted between the girl and this wholly satisfactory eidolon were
-such as have time out of mind made life as it is seem a singularly
-defective composition to the wondering mind of woman.
-
-At times she was terrified at the rich possibilities of her nature, so
-little suspected. The revelation gave her vivid comprehension of woman’s
-tremendous power for sacrifice and surrender, possibilities of which she
-had read with much curiosity, but little sympathy. For those women she
-felt a warm honour, a fierce desire to espouse their cause. For Rosita
-she had only loathing and contempt.
-
-It was not only passion that was awake. Sentiment, that finer child of
-the brain, and the sweet faint feeling which assuredly lingers about the
-region of the heart, whatever its physical cause may be, were there in
-full measure to lend their potent lashings to that primeval force which
-is as mighty in some women as in some men. It is doubtful if a woman
-ever loves a man when in his arms with the same exaltation of soul and
-passion which she feels for that creation of her brain that he little
-more than suggests, and that is only wholly hers when the man himself is
-absent. Imagination in woman is as arbitrary as desire in man, and she
-is beaten down and crushed by this imperious and capricious brain-imp so
-many times in her life that the wonder is she is not driven to the hopes
-and illusions of religion, or to humour, long before the skin has
-yellowed and the eye paled.
-
-And when the imagination has full sway, when the man has not been
-beheld, when he has been invested with every quality dear to the heart
-of the generously endowed woman, when, indeed, all eidola blend, and she
-has a confused vision of an immense and mighty force bearing down upon
-her which shall sweep every tradition out of existence and annihilate
-the material world, then assuredly man himself would do well to retire
-into obscurity and curse his shortcomings.
-
-It was four o’clock, and she had been through the successive stages of
-hope, despair, hope, melancholia, hope, and resignation, before she
-heard the sharp clatter of hoofs on the road. She ran to the dining-room
-window, her heart thumping, and peered through the blind. They were
-coming! Hal sat her horse like a swaying reed, but the young man on the
-large chestnut rode in the agonised fashion of the day. He was of medium
-height, she saw, compactly and elegantly built, and the beauty of his
-face had defied the photographer’s art.
-
-Patience ran to the kitchen and told Ellen to answer the bell
-immediately, then sat down by the stove to compose herself. She was
-still trembling, and wished to appear cold and stately, as Hal had
-recommended. When Ellen returned and announced the visitors, she sprang
-up, patted her hair, pulled down the bodice of her gown, and then, with
-what dignity she could muster, went forth to meet her fate. She did wish
-she had a train. It was so difficult to be stately in a skirt that
-cleared the ground.
-
-As she entered the parlour Mr. Peele was standing by the opposite door.
-His riding gear was very becoming. Patience noted swiftly that his eyes
-were a spotted brown and that his mouth pouted under the dark moustache.
-
-Hal came forward with both hands extended. “We have come, you see,” she
-said, “and we had to make a wild break to do it—had a lot of company;
-but I was bound to come. Patience, this is Beverly. He’s quite frantic
-to meet you. It was all I could do to keep him away until to-day.”
-
-The young man bowed in anything but a frantic manner, and stood
-gracefully until the girls were seated. Then he took a chair and
-caressed his moustache, regarding Patience attentively.
-
-“Would you mind if Bev smoked?” asked Hal. “He is just wild for a cigar.
-We had to ride so hard to keep warm that he didn’t have a chance, and
-he’s a slave to the weed.”
-
-Patience glanced swiftly at the door, half-expecting to see the
-indignant wraith of Miss Tremont, then, almost reluctantly, gave the
-required permission. Mr. Peele promptly lit a cigar. Patience wondered
-if he would ever speak. Perhaps he did not think it worth his while. He
-looked very haughty.
-
-“We had a perfectly beautiful ride,” said Hal, in her plaintive voice.
-“I’d rather be on a horse than on an ocean steamer, and I do love to
-travel. You look ever so much better than you did, Patience. You must
-have needed a rest.”
-
-Mr. Peele removed his cigar. “Perhaps that was what she had been
-_im_patiently waiting for,” he remarked.
-
-Patience stared at him. Her eyes expanded. Something seemed crumbling
-within her.
-
-“Oh, Bev, you do make me so tired,” said his sister. “I tell him
-eighteen times a day that punning is the lowest form of wit, but he’s
-incorrigible. I suppose it’s in the blood, and I’m glad it broke out in
-him instead of in me. It is well to be philosophical in this life—”
-
-“When you can’t help yourself—” interrupted Mr. Peele, easily.
-
-Patience felt it incumbent upon her to make conversation, although her
-thoughts were dancing a jig.
-
-“You have a beautiful horse,” she said to the young man.
-
-His eyes lit up with enthusiasm. “Isn’t she a beauty?” he exclaimed.
-“She’s taken two prizes and won a race. She’s the daughter—”
-
-“Patience doesn’t know anything about horses,” interrupted Hal. “What
-does she care whose daughter Firefly is?”
-
-“Oh, I’m very much interested,” faltered Patience.
-
-“Are you really?” cried Mr. Peele, with a smile so beautiful that
-Patience caught her breath. “I’ve got the rarest book in the country on
-horses—beautiful pictures—coloured—I’ll bring it up and explain it to
-you. Tell you a lot of stories about famous horses.”
-
-“I shall be delighted.”
-
-“Do you ride?”
-
-“I used to ride a pony, but I haven’t been on a horse for so long I’ve
-almost forgotten what it’s like.”
-
-“That’s too bad. There’s nothing like it. Makes you feel so good. When I
-have dyspepsia I just jump on Firefly, and I’m all right in less than no
-time. I take a canter for dyspepsia—although I can’t—er—always feel
-at home that way. Ahem!”
-
-Patience wanted to tear her hair. It was with an effort that she kept
-her face from convulsing with disgust. She caught sight of the young
-man’s intellectual brow, and, without any premonitory consciousness,
-laughed aloud. Mr. Peele smiled back with the pleasure of appreciated
-wit, and resumed his cigar.
-
-“Bev isn’t such a fool as he looks,” remarked Hal, airily. “Just have
-patience with him. We all have our little failings.”
-
-Patience sat as if turned to clay. She could not talk. All her natural
-animation had deserted her. She wished they would go and leave her
-alone. But Hal pulled off her riding gloves, and made herself
-comfortable on the sofa. As she rattled on, Patience noticed how
-beautiful her nails were. She turned her own hands over so that the
-palms lay upward.
-
-“Never mind,” said young Peele, in a low tone. “They’re much prettier.”
-
-“What’s that?” cried Hal. “What are you blushing about, Patience? How
-lovely it is to blush like that. I’ve forgotten how—and I’m only
-twenty-two. There’s tragedy for you. It’s not that I’ve had so many
-compliments about my beauty, nor yet about my winning ways,—which are
-my strong point,—but I found so much to blush about when I was first
-launched upon this wicked world that I exhausted my capacity. And Bev
-always did tell such naughty stories—” She paused abruptly. “Dear me!
-perhaps I’ve made a bad break, and prejudiced you against my brother;
-and I want you to be good friends so that we can have jolly times
-together. Perhaps you have an ideal man—a sort of Sir Galahad. I
-haven’t sounded you yet.”
-
-“Sir Galahad is not my ideal,” said Patience, with the quick scorn of
-the woman who is born with intuitive knowledge of man. “I could not find
-anything interesting in an elongated male infant.”
-
-“Oh, how lovely!” cried Hal. “Give me the man of the world every time. I
-tell you, you appreciate the difference when you have to entertain ’em.
-And the elongated infant, as you put it, never understands a woman, and
-she has no use for that species whatever. He doesn’t even want to
-understand her, and a woman resents that as a personal insult. The bad
-ones hurt sometimes, but they’re interesting; and when you learn how to
-manage them it’s plain sailing enough. Mrs. Laurence Gibbs—a friend of
-mamma’s, awfully good, goes in for charity and all that sort of
-thing—said the other day that at the rate women were developing and
-advancing, the standard of men morally would have to be raised. But I
-said ‘Not much!’ that the development of woman meant that women were
-becoming more clever, not merely bright and intellectual, and that
-clever women would demand cleverness and fascination in man above all
-else; and that Sir Galahads were not that sort. It’s experience that
-makes a man interesting to us women,—they represent all we’d like to be
-and don’t dare. If they were like ourselves—if they didn’t excite our
-imaginations—we wouldn’t care a hang for them. Mrs. Gibbs was
-horrified, of course, and told me I didn’t know what I was talking
-about. But I said I guessed it was the other way. I’m not clever—not by
-a long sight,—and if I can’t stand a prig I know a clever woman can’t
-and won’t.”
-
-“I’m so glad I’m not a prig,” murmured Mr. Peele.
-
-“Oh, you’re a real devil. If you were clever now, you’d have to be shut
-up to protect society; but as it is, you just go on your good looks, so
-you’re not as dangerous as some.”
-
-She rattled on, not giving the others a chance for more than a stray
-remark. Patience, listening with deep curiosity to this new philosophy,
-became aware of an increasing desire to turn her eyes to the man that
-had so bitterly disappointed her. A direct potent force seemed to
-emanate from him. It was her first experience of man’s magnetism, but
-she knew that he possessed it to a remarkable degree. When he finally
-shot out an insignificant remark she felt, in the excuse it gave her to
-turn to him, a sensation of positive relief. He was leaning back in his
-chair, in the easy attitude of a man that has been too accustomed to
-luxury all his life to look uncomfortable in any circumstances. With his
-picturesque garb, his noble, beautiful face, his subtle air of elegance
-and distinction, he looked the ideal hero of girlhood’s dreams. Patience
-wondered what Nature had been about, then recalled the many tricks of
-that capricious dame made famous in history, the round innocent faces of
-the worst boys in the Loyal Legion class, the saintly physiognomy of a
-Mariaville minister who had recently fallen from grace.
-
-Peele was watching her out of his half-closed eyes, and as she met them
-he smiled almost affectionately. Patience averted her head quickly,
-angry that she had felt an impulse to respond, and fixed her attention
-on Hal. “Dear old Cousin Harriet,” that young woman was remarking, “how
-I do wish that I were even sorrier than I am that she is dead. I try to
-think it’s because I saw so little of her; but I know it’s just because
-I’m so beastly selfish. I don’t care a hang for anything that doesn’t
-affect my own happiness—”
-
-“You’re not selfish,” interrupted Patience, indignantly.
-
-“Oh, but I am,” said Miss Peele, with a comical little air of disgust
-which sat as gracefully upon her as all her varying moods and manners.
-“I get up thinking what I can get out of the day, and I go to bed glad
-or mad according to what the day has done for me. I don’t go in for
-Church work like Honora—dear Honora!—nor am I always doing some pretty
-little thing for people like May. I suppose you think I’m an angel
-because I came to see you. I assured myself at great length that it was
-my duty—but it was plain curiosity, no more nor less; and now I like
-you awfully, better than any woman I ever met—and I do so want you to
-come and visit us, but—”
-
-“Couldn’t you come and stay with me?” asked Patience, hurriedly. She had
-no desire to visit Mrs. Gardiner Peele. “You know you have more or less
-company, and I should be very quiet for a while. And oh! I should so
-like to have you.”
-
-“Oh, I’d love to! I’ll come and stay a week. I’m so sick of the whole
-family, Bev included. We won’t be going anywhere for three months out of
-respect for Cousin Harriet—mamma is very particular about those
-things—and I can get away as well as not. I’ll come on Tuesday,—can I?
-Bev will come up occasionally and see how I’m getting on—won’t you,
-Bevvy, dear?”
-
-“I’d much rather you would not be here,” said Mr. Peele, calmly.
-
-“Oh—really—well, we’re all young yet. I’m coming all the same. I
-suppose we must be going. We have to get home to dress for dinner, you
-know.”
-
-She rose, and drew on her gloves. Her brother stood up immediately and
-helped her into her covert coat. “Well, Patience,” she said, kissing her
-lightly, “you’ll see me on Tuesday. I’ll come by train, and wire you
-beforehand. Mamma’ll raise Cain, but I’ll manage it. It’s only
-occasionally she’s too much for me. The cold glare of those blue eyes of
-hers freezes my marrow at times and takes all the starch out of me. It’s
-awful to have been brought up under that sort of eye. When Honora
-marries it’s the sort of eye she’ll have. She cultivates the angelic at
-present. Have I talked you to death, Patience? So good of you to ask me
-to come.”
-
-Peele held out his hand, and Patience could do no less than lay hers
-within it. As it closed she resisted an impulse to nestle her own more
-closely into that warm grasp. He held her hand longer than was
-altogether necessary, and she felt indignantly that she had no desire to
-draw it away.
-
-“That’ll do for one day,” said Hal, drily. “Come along, Beverly Peele.
-We won’t get home for coffee at this rate.”
-
-When they had gone Patience threw herself on the sofa and burst into
-tears, then laughed suddenly. “I feel like the heroine of a tragedy,”
-she thought. “And the tragedy is a pun!”
-
-
- XVIII
-
-Hal arrived on Tuesday afternoon. Patience for twenty-four hours after
-Beverly Peele’s visit looked upon life through grey spectacles. She had
-an impression of being a solitary figure on a sandy waste, illimitable
-in extent. Life was ugly practical reality. It frightened her, and she
-cowered before it, hating the future, her blood chilled, her nerves
-blunt, her brain stagnant.
-
-But by Tuesday morning, being young and buoyant, she revived, and roamed
-through the woods, entirely loyal to the Stranger. She made up her mind
-that she would find him, that he could not be married. He must have
-waited for her. “Oh!” she thought, “if I could not believe that
-something existed in this world as I have imagined it, some man good
-enough to love and look up to, I believe I’d jump into the river. At
-least I have heard Him talk. He could not be a disappointment, like that
-hollow bronze. If there are many men in the world like Beverly Peele I
-don’t wonder women are in revolt. Women start out in life with big
-ideals of man, and if they are disappointed I suppose they unconsciously
-strive to make themselves what they should have found in man. But it is
-unnatural. It seems to me that man must be able to give woman the best
-she can find in life, whether he does or not. Something in civilisation
-has gone wrong.”
-
-“I’ve been so restless,” she said to Hal, as the girls sat on the edge
-of the bed in the spare room, holding each other’s hand. “If you had not
-been coming I’d have gone to New York before this and seen Mr. Field,
-the editor of the ‘Day’—He promised me once he’d make a newspaper woman
-of me—”
-
-“A what?” cried Hal. “What on earth do you want to be a newspaper woman
-for?”
-
-“Well, I must be something. I couldn’t live out of Mariaville on my
-income, and the few hundred dollars Mr. Foord left me, and I don’t know
-of anything else I want to be.”
-
-“You are going to be Mrs. Beverly Peele,” said Hal, definitely. “Beverly
-has the worst attack of my recollection. He has simply raved about you.
-Tell me, don’t you like him?”
-
-Patience said nothing.
-
-Hal leaned forward and turned Patience’s face about. “Don’t you like
-him?” she asked in a disappointed tone. “Tell me. Please be frank. I
-hate people who are not.”
-
-“Well, I’ll confess it—I was disappointed in him. You see, I’d thought
-about him a good deal—several years, if you want to know the truth—and
-I was sure he was an intellectual man—”
-
-Hal threw back her head and gave a clear ringing laugh. “Bev
-intellectual! That’s too funny. I don’t believe he ever read anything
-but a newspaper and horse literature in his life. But we all think he’s
-bright. I think it my duty to tell you that he has a fearful temper.
-He’s always been mamma’s pet, and she never would cross him, so he flies
-into regular tantrums when things don’t go to suit him; but on the whole
-he’s pretty good sort. Don’t you think he’s good-looking?”
-
-“Oh, wonderfully,” said Patience, glad to be enthusiastic.
-
-“Well, I’m sure you’ll like him when you’ve forgotten the ideal and got
-used to the real. Do please try to like him, for I’m bent on having you
-for a sister-in-law.”
-
-“Well, I’ll try,” said Patience, laughing.
-
-“You have no idea,” continued the astute Miss Peele, “how many girls
-have been in love with him. I’ve known girls that looked like marble
-statues—the marble statue with the snub nose; that’s our swagger New
-York type, you know,—well, I’ve seen them make perfect idiots of
-themselves about him. But so far he’s rather preferred the ladies that
-don’t visit at Peele Manor. I’ve brought some cigarettes. Can I smoke?”
-
-“You can just do anything you like.”
-
-“Thanks. Well, I think I’ll begin by lying down on this soft bed. It’s
-way ahead of the chairs and sofa in the parlour.”
-
-She exchanged her frock for a _peignoir_, and extended herself on the
-bed. Patience sat beside her in a rocking chair, her troubles forgotten.
-
-“By the way,” said Hal, suddenly removing her cigarette, “what was the
-shock you had the other day? Tell me.”
-
-“Well, I will,” and Patience told the story of Rosita from beginning to
-end. Hal listened with deep interest.
-
-“That’s a stunner,” she said, “and worth coming to Mariaville for. The
-little rip. She didn’t tell you half. I’ll bet my hopes of a tiara on
-that. But she does dance and sing like an angel. And so you were
-children together? How perfectly funny! Now tell me your history, every
-bit of it.”
-
-Patience hesitated, then impulsively told the story, omitting few
-particulars.
-
-Miss Peele’s cigarette was allowed to go out. “Well, well,” she said,
-when Patience had finished. “Fate did play the devil with you, didn’t
-she? I’m so glad you’ve told me. I’ll tell the family what I like, and
-you keep quiet. I have the inestimable gift of selection. You poor
-child! I’m so glad you fell in with Cousin Harriet; and now you are
-going to be happy for the rest of your life. Oh, it’s so good to be here
-in this quiet place. I’m so tired of everybody. Sometimes I get a
-fearful disgust. The same old grind, year after year. If I could only
-fall in love; but when I do I know it’ll be with a poor man. I never did
-have any luck.”
-
-“Wouldn’t you marry him?”
-
-Hal shook her wise young head. “I don’t know. You never can tell what
-you’ll do when you get that disease; but I do know that I’d be miserable
-if I did. Money, and plenty of it, is necessary to my happiness. You see
-we’re not so horribly rich. Papa gives mamma and May and me two thousand
-dollars each a year, and his income comes mostly from his practice. We
-haven’t anything else but a little house in town, and Peele Manor—which
-of course we’ll never sell—and a big farm adjoining. Bev runs that, and
-has the income from it—about three thousand dollars a year. When he
-wants more mamma gets it for him, and when he’s married of course he’ll
-have a lot more. Two thousand stands me in very well now, but as a
-married woman I want nothing under thirty thousand a year—and that’s a
-modest ambition enough. You can’t be anybody in New York on less. Oh,
-dear—life is a burden.”
-
-“Your woes are not very terrible,” said Patience, drily.
-
-“Oh, you’d think so if you were me. We suffer according to our
-capacities and point of view. What is comedy to one is tragedy to
-another. If I had to wear the same clothes for two seasons I’d be as
-miserable as a defeated candidate for the Presidency. Beer makes one man
-drunk and champagne another. Bev, by the way, never drinks. He’s rather
-straight than otherwise. What’s your ideal of a man, by the way? Of
-course you have an ideal.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know,” said Patience, vaguely. “A man with a big brain and
-a big heart and a big arm.”
-
-Miss Peele laughed heartily. “You are not exacting in your combinations,
-not in the least.”
-
-The week passed delightfully to Patience, although Hal became rather
-restless toward the end. She arranged Patience’s hair in six different
-fashions, then decided that the large soft coil suited her best.
-Patience’s nails were manicured, she was taught how to smoke cigarettes,
-and select extracts from French novels were read to her. Hal was an
-accomplished gossip, and regaled her hostess with all the whispered
-scandals of New York society. She was a liberal education.
-
-Beverly did not call, nor did he write, and Hal anathematised him
-freely.
-
-“But I have my ideas on the subject,” she said darkly. “Just you wait.”
-
-
- XIX
-
-On the evening of Hal’s departure, as Patience was braiding her hair for
-the night, there was a sharp ring at the bell, and a few moments later
-Ellen came upstairs with a card inscribed “Mr. Beverly Peele.” Patience
-felt disposed to send word that she had retired, so thoroughly had she
-lost interest in the young man; but reflecting that he had probably
-ridden ten miles on a cold night to see her, told Ellen to light all the
-burners in the parlour, and twisted up her hair.
-
-As she went downstairs she saw a heavy overcoat on the hall table.
-
-“If it had occurred to me that he had come by train,” she thought, “I’d
-have let him go home again.”
-
-He came forward with his charming smile, looking remarkably handsome in
-his evening clothes.
-
-“It was kind of you to come,” she said, too unsophisticated to feel
-embarrassed at receiving a man at night in a house where she lived alone
-with a servant. “Of course you knew how lonely I must be.”
-
-“Hal is good company, isn’t she?” he asked, holding her hand and staring
-hard at her. “But I should think she’d miss you more than you’d miss
-her.”
-
-Patience withdrew her hand abruptly. Her face wore its accustomed cold
-gravity, contradicted by the eager eyes of youth. “Won’t you sit down? I
-hope Hal has missed me, but she has hardly had time to tell you so.”
-
-“Hasn’t she? She has had several hours, and I suppose you know by this
-time how fast she can talk. She’s awfully bright, don’t you think so?”
-
-“Indeed she is.”
-
-“She isn’t a beauty like May, nor intellectual like Honora, but you
-can’t have everything—that is, everybody can’t.”
-
-“Does any one?” asked Patience, indifferently.
-
-“Hal says you are the cleverest woman she has ever met,—and—”
-
-“I’m afraid Hal is carried away by the enthusiasms of the moment,” said
-Patience, as he paused. She was highly gratified, nevertheless.
-
-“—you are the prettiest woman I ever saw,” he continued, as if she had
-not spoken.
-
-“Oh, nonsense!” exclaimed Patience, angrily, but the colour flew to her
-face.
-
-“I mean it,” and indisputably his eyes spoke admiration. “I’ve thought
-of no one else since I was here. I haven’t come before, because there’s
-nothing in calling on your sister, and that’s what it would have
-amounted to. But, you see, I’m here the very night she left.”
-
-“You are very flattering.” Patience was beginning to feel vaguely
-uncomfortable. She realised that the lore gathered from novels was
-valueless in a practical emergency, and longed for the experience of
-Hal. “I understand that you are considered fascinating, and I suppose
-most women do like to be flattered.”
-
-“I never paid a woman a compliment before in my life,” he said,
-unblushingly. “You don’t look a bit like any woman I ever saw. Hal says
-you look like a ‘white star on a dark night,’ and that’s about the size
-of it. You have such lovely hair and skin. I’ve always rather admired
-plump women, but your slenderness suits you—”
-
-“Oh, please talk about something else! I am not used to such stuff, and
-I don’t like it. Suppose you talk about yourself.” (She had read that
-man could ever be beguiled by this bait.) “Are you as fond of travel as
-Hal is?”
-
-“I never travel,” he said shortly. “When I find a comfortable place I
-stay in it. Westchester County suits me down to the ground.”
-
-“You mean to say that you can travel and don’t? that you don’t care at
-all to see the beautiful things in Europe?”
-
-“Oh, my mother always brings home a lot of photographs and things, and
-that’s all I want of it. I never could understand why Americans are so
-restless. I’m sick of the very sound of Europe, anyway.”
-
-“Are you fond of New York?”
-
-“New York is the centre of the earth, and full of pretty—interesting
-things, dontcherknow? I’ve had some gay times there, I can tell you. But
-I’ve settled down now, and prefer Westchester County to any place on
-earth. I’d rather be behind or on a horse than anything else.”
-
-“Don’t you care for society?”
-
-“I hate it. One winter was enough for me. Wild horses wouldn’t drag me
-into a ball-room again. Of course when the house is full of company in
-summer I like that well enough. I play billiards with the men and
-spoon—flirt with the girls and the pretty married women; but I’m just
-as contented when they’ve all cleared out.”
-
-“Do you mean to say that you stay in the country by yourself all winter?
-What do you do? Read?”
-
-“N-o-o-o. I don’t care much about books. We have a big farm and I run
-it, and I skate and drive and ride and smoke—Oh, there’s plenty to do.
-Occasionally I go to town and have a little fun.”
-
-“What do you call fun if you don’t like society,—the theatre?”
-
-“The theatre!” he laughed. “I never sat out a play in my life. Oh, I
-don’t know you well enough to tell you everything yet. Sometime, I’ll
-tell you a lot of funny things.”
-
-“Perhaps you enjoy the newspapers in winter,” said Patience, hastily.
-
-“Oh, I read even the advertisements. The papers are all the reading any
-man wants. There are two or three good sensational stories every day.”
-
-“I don’t read those,” said Patience, disgustedly. This idol appeared to
-be clay straight up to his hair. “I like to read the big news and Mr.
-Field’s editorials.”
-
-“Oh, you need educating. I read those too—not Field; he’s too much for
-me. But I didn’t come here to talk about newspapers—”
-
-“Won’t you smoke a cigar?”
-
-“No, thanks. I smoked all the way down, and in the cab too, for that
-matter—”
-
-“Are the horses standing out there in the cold? Wouldn’t you like to
-tell him to take them to the barn?”
-
-“I suppose he can look after his own horses. They’re nothing but old
-hacks, anyhow.” He leaned forward abruptly and took her hand, pressing
-it closely. “Oh!” he said. “I’ve been wild to see you again.”
-
-Patience attempted to jerk her hand away, acutely conscious of a desire
-to return his clasp. She did the worst thing possible, but the only
-thing that could be expected: she lost her head. “I don’t like you to do
-that,” she exclaimed. “Let me go! What do you mean, anyhow?”
-
-“That you are the loveliest woman I ever saw. I have been wild about
-you—” He had taken her other hand, and his face was close to hers. He
-had lowered his lids slightly.
-
-“And you think that because I am alone here you can say what you like?”
-she cried passionately. “You would not dare act like this with one of
-your mother’s guests!”
-
-“Oh, wouldn’t I?” He laughed disagreeably. “But what is the use of being
-a goose—”
-
-Patience sprang to her feet, overturning her chair: but she only
-succeeded in pulling him to his feet also; he would not release her
-hands.
-
-“I wish you would leave the house,” she said, stamping her foot. “If you
-don’t let me go, I’ll call Ellen.”
-
-“Oh, don’t make a goose of yourself. And I’m not afraid of a servant.
-I’m not going to murder you—nor anything else. Only,—do you drive all
-men wild like this?”
-
-“I don’t know anything about men,” almost sobbed Patience, “and I don’t
-want to. Will you go?”
-
-“No, I won’t.” He released her hands suddenly; and, as she made a spring
-for the door, flung his arms about her. She ducked her head and fought
-him, but he kissed her cheeks and brow and hair. His lips burnt her
-delicate skin, his powerful embrace seemed absorbing her. She was filled
-with fury and loathing, but the blood pounded in her ears, and the very
-air seemed humming. The man’s magnetism was purely animal, but it was a
-tremendous force.
-
-“You are a brute, a beast!” she sobbed. “Let me go! Let me go!”
-
-“I won’t,” he muttered. He too had lost his head. “I’ll not leave you.”
-He strove to reach her mouth. She managed to disengage her right arm,
-and clinching her hand hit him a smart blow in the face. He laughed, and
-caught her hand, holding it out at arm’s length.
-
-“Ellen!” she cried. As she lifted her head to call he was quick to see
-his advantage. His mouth closed suddenly on hers.
-
-The room swam round her. She ceased to struggle. Her feet had touched
-that nether world where the electrical forces of the universe appear to
-be generated, and its wonder—not the man—conquered her. She shook
-horribly. She felt a tumultuous impulse to spring upon her ideals and
-beat them in the face.
-
-Heavy footfalls sounded in the kitchen hall.
-
-“There is Ellen!” she gasped, wrenching herself free. The man stamped
-his foot. He looked hideous.
-
-“Go!” said Patience. “Go, just as fast as you can, and don’t you ever
-come here again. If you do, it won’t do you any good, for you’ll not see
-me.”
-
-And she ran upstairs and locked her door loudly.
-
-
- XX
-
-For some time she walked rapidly up and down, pressing her hands to her
-hot face. Chaos was in her. She could not think. She only felt that she
-wanted to die, and preferred the river. She poured water into a basin
-and plunged her face into it again and again. The water had the chill of
-midwinter, and sent the blood from her brain; but she felt no cleaner.
-Still, her brain was no longer racing like a screw out of water, and she
-sat down to think. It was her trend of mind to face all questions with
-the least possible delay, and she looked at herself squarely.
-
-“So,” she thought, “I am the daughter of Madge Sparhawk, after all. The
-horror of that night left me as I was made. Three years with the best
-woman the sun ever shone on only put the real me to sleep for a time.
-All my ideals were the vagaries of my imagination, a sort of unwritten
-book, of the nature of those that geniuses write, who spend their
-leisure hours in debauchery. I am no better than Rosita. I have not even
-the excuse of love—if I had—if it had been Him—I might
-perhaps—perhaps—look upon passion as a natural thing. Certainly it is
-not disagreeable,” and she laughed unpleasantly. “But I despised this
-man. He has not the brain of a calf nor the principle of a savage, and
-yet it is he that made me forget every ideal I ever cherished. If I met
-Him now, I would not insult him with the gift of myself. . . .
-
-“If Beverly Peele came in here now I verily believe that I should kiss
-him again. What—what is human nature made of? I have the blood of
-refined and enlightened ancestors in my veins—I know that. I have seen
-nothing of sexual sin that did not make me abhor it. Barring my mother,
-I had the best of influences in Monterey, and I knew the difference. I
-have—or had—a natural tendency toward all that was refined and
-uplifting. I was even sure I had a soul. My brain is better, and better
-furnished, than that of the average woman of my age. And yet, at the
-first touch, I crumble like an old corpse exposed to air. I am simply a
-body with a mental annex, and the one appears to be independent of the
-other.
-
-“Is the world all vile?” she continued, resuming her restless walk.
-“This man attacked me as if he had no anticipation of a rebuff. And yet
-I am the friend of his sister, the adopted daughter of his mother’s
-cousin, and, he has every reason to think, of irreproachable life. If
-the world—his mother’s world—were not full of such women as he
-imagined me to be—he would never have taken so much for granted. He
-acted as if he thought me a fool, and I appear to be remarkably green. I
-am certainly learning. Oh—the brute! the brute!” And she flung herself
-on the bed and burst into violent weeping, which lasted until she was so
-exhausted that she fell asleep without disrobing.
-
-
- XXI
-
-The next morning her head ached violently. She started for the woods,
-but turned back. They held her lost ideals. She sat all day by the
-window, looking at the Hudson, listless, and mentally nauseated.
-
-During the afternoon a special messenger brought a note of abject
-apology from Beverly Peele. She burnt it half read and told the man
-there was no answer. There is only one thing a woman scorns more than a
-man’s insult, and that is his apology.
-
-The next day he called, but was refused admission by the sturdy Ellen.
-Patience spent the day on Hog Heights. On the following day he called
-again, with the same result. The next day Hal came.
-
-“What is the row between you and Bev?” she exclaimed, before she had
-seated herself. “He says you’ve taken a dislike to him, and is in the
-most beastly temper about it. I never saw him so cut up. He’s sent me
-here to patch it up and give you this letter. Do tell me what is the
-matter?”
-
-“Well, I’ll tell you,” said Patience, grimly. “The idea of his sending
-his sister to patch it up!” And she gave an account of Mr. Peele’s
-performance, woman-like omitting her own momentary forbearance.
-
-Hal listened with an amused smile. “So Bev made a bad break,” she
-remarked when Patience had concluded. “I’m not surprised, for he’s
-pretty hot-headed, and head over ears in love. You mustn’t take life so
-tragically. I’ve had several weird experiences myself, although I’m not
-the kind that men lose their head about as a rule; only given the hour
-and the occasion, some men will lose their head about any woman. Perhaps
-I should have said New York men. They are a rare and lovely species.
-They admire God because he made himself of their gender and knew what he
-was about when he invented woman. I was out on a sleighing party one
-moonlight night last winter, and on the back seat with a man I’d never
-seen out of a ball-room before. The way that man’s legs and arms flew
-round that sleigh made my hair curl. You see, a lot of us are fast, but
-then plenty of us are not. The trouble is that the men can’t
-discriminate, as we look pretty much alike on the outside. They’re not a
-very clever lot—our society men—and they don’t learn much until
-they’ve been taught. Then when they are forced to believe in your virtue
-they feel rather sorry for you, and later on are apt to propose—if you
-have any money. Bev would propose to you if you were living in a tent
-and clad in a gunny sack. He would have preferred things the other
-way—it’s so much less trouble—but as he can’t, he won’t stop at any
-such trifling nuisance as matrimony. Oh, men are a lovely lot! Still,
-the world would be a pretty stupid place without them. You’ll learn to
-manage them in time, and then they’ll only amuse you. They are not
-really so bad at heart—they’ve been badly educated. I know four married
-women of the type we call ‘friskies,’ whom my mother would shudder at
-the thought of excluding from her visiting list, and whom I’d bet my new
-Paquin trunk, several men I know have had affairs with. So what can you
-expect of a man?”
-
-“Is the world rotten?” asked Patience, in disgust.
-
-“It’s just about half and half. I know as many good women as bad. Half
-the women in society are good wives and devoted mothers. The other half,
-girls and married women, old and young, are no better than your Rosita.
-Sometimes their motives are no higher. Usually, though, it’s craving for
-excitement. I don’t blame those much myself. The most fascinating woman
-I know is larky. She as much as told me so. Some of the confessions I’ve
-had from married women would make you gasp. Well—let’s quit the
-subject. Promise me you’ll forgive Bev.”
-
-“I shall not. I hate him. I shall never look at him again if I can help
-it.”
-
-“Oh, dear, dear, you are young! And I do so want you for a sister. May
-is such a fool, and I do hate Honora.”
-
-“You wouldn’t have me loathe myself for the sake of being your sister, I
-suppose?”
-
-“Of course I wouldn’t have you marry Bev if you couldn’t like him; but I
-believe you really do, only things haven’t turned out as you planned in
-that innocent little skull of yours. Bev is a good fellow, as men go.
-You’ll get used to him and his kind in the course of time, and then
-you’ll enjoy life in a calm practical way.”
-
-“Is there no other way?” asked Patience, bitterly.
-
-“Not in my experience. And if you stay here in your woods you’ll get
-tired of your ideals after a while. You can’t live on ideals—the human
-constitution isn’t made that way. If it was there’d be no such thing as
-society. We’d live in caves and bay the moon. So you’d better come into
-the world, Patience dear, and accept it as it is, and drain it for all
-it’s worth.”
-
-“Oh, hush! You are too good to talk like that.”
-
-“Good?—what is good? I am the result of my surroundings—a little
-better than some, a little worse than others. So was Cousin Harriet. So
-is La Rosita. I’m not cynical. I merely see life—my section of
-it—exactly as it is. If you become a newspaper woman you’ll probably
-receive a succession of shocks. As nearly as I can make out they’re
-about like us—half and half. I became quite chummy with a newspaper
-woman, once, crossing the Atlantic. She was awfully pretty, and, as
-nearly as one woman can judge of another, perfectly proper. She related
-some wild and weird experiences she had had with men. Yours would
-probably be wilder and weirder, as you appear to be possessed of an
-unholy fascination; and in a year or two you’ll be a beauty. All you
-want is a little more figure and style—or rather clothes.”
-
-“Well, if I’m to have wild and weird experiences I prefer to have them
-with men of brains, not with a lot of empty-headed society men.”
-
-“Don’t generalise too freely, my dear. There are newspaper men and
-newspaper men,—according to this girl I’ve just told you of. Some are
-brainy, some are merely bright; some are gentlemen, most are common
-beyond words. And, as she said—after you’ve worked with man in his
-shirt sleeves, you don’t have many illusions about the animal left.”
-
-“I have not one, and I lost them in an hour. Your brother is supposed to
-be a gentleman with a long array of ancestors, and he acted like a wild
-Indian.”
-
-“My dear, he merely lost his head. That was a compliment to you, and you
-should not be too hard on a man in those circumstances. He won’t do it
-again, I’m sure of that. He has some control. I warned him before he
-came not to pun, and he says he didn’t, not once. Now, tell me one
-thing—Don’t you like him just a little?”
-
-“No,” said Patience; but she flushed to her hair, and Hal, with her
-uncanny wisdom, said no more.
-
-
- XXII
-
-The next day Patience went to the woods for the first time since Beverly
-Peele’s onslaught. A natural reaction had lifted her spirits out of the
-slough, and she turned to nature, as ever. She could never be the same
-again, she thought with a sigh; and once more she must readjust herself.
-She wondered if any girl had ever done so much readjusting in an equal
-number of years.
-
-The woods were no longer a scene of enchantment. The ice had melted. The
-trees were grey and naked again. The ground was slush, and nasty to walk
-upon.
-
-“But the spring must come in time,” she thought; “and then perhaps I’ll
-feel new too—but not the same, for like the spring I shall have other
-seasons behind me.
-
-“But—perhaps—who knows?—I may be the better for knowing myself. I was
-in a fool’s paradise before. Perhaps I was in danger of becoming an
-egoist, and imagining myself made of finer fibre than other women. Great
-writers show that the same brute is in all of us, and I can believe it.
-Some work it off in religion, but the majority don’t. There seems to be
-some tremendous magnetic force in the Universe that makes the human race
-nine-tenths Love—for want of a better name. Circumstances and ancestors
-determine the direction of it. It seems too bad that Civilisation has
-not done more for us than to give us the analytical mind which
-understands and rebels, and no more, at the inheritance of the savage.
-But now that I know myself, perhaps I can go forward more surely on the
-path to the higher altitudes of life. I should like to be as good as
-auntie, and worldly-wise beside.
-
-“I suppose my horrid experience with this man will make me more exacting
-with all men. I think I could not blunder into matrimony, as some women
-do. I feel as if I never wanted to see another man, but that impression
-will pass—all impressions appear to pass. I may even want to meet Him
-after a time, and perhaps he will forgive. Shouldn’t be surprised if
-he’d want a good deal of forgiveness himself. Meanwhile I can work, and
-learn all I can of what life means, anyway. I’ll go to Mr. Field—”
-
-The soft ground echoed no footfalls, but Patience suddenly became aware
-that some one was approaching her. She turned, and saw Beverly Peele.
-
-
-
-
- BOOK III
-
-
- I
-
-“I do hope you’ll make a hit, Patience,” said Hal, regarding her
-critically. “The public, even the little public of a garden party, is a
-thing you can’t bet on, but you certainly are stunning. If ever papa
-loses his fortune, in the curious American way, I shall follow the ever
-seductive example of the English aristocracy and go in for dressmaking.
-That frock is a triumph of art, if I do say it myself.”
-
-Patience revolved slowly before the Psyche mirror which stood between
-two open windows in one corner of Hal’s pretty terra-cotta bedroom. She
-too was pleased with the airy concoction of violet and white. On a chair
-lay a picture hat, another bird of the same feather. Hal placed it on
-Patience’s head, a little back, and the violet velvet of the interior
-made a very effective frame for the soft ashen hair and white skin.
-
-“You certainly carry yourself well,” continued Hal, “and before long you
-will acquire an air. Always keep in mind that _that_ is the most
-important thing in life—our life—to acquire. But you look like a lily,
-a purple and white forest lily.”
-
-“I haven’t the faintest idea what to talk to fashionable people about.”
-
-“Don’t be too clever—don’t frighten the men and antagonise the women.
-You see, you’re not known at all, so people won’t begin by being afraid
-of you—as they would if they knew all that went on in that pretty skull
-of yours. Just be Mrs. Beverly Peele. Nobody would ever suspect Bev of
-marrying a clever woman. You can’t do the artless and infantile, like
-May: your face is too strong; but you can be unsophisticated, and that
-always goes.”
-
-“I’m not unsophisticated!”
-
-“Oh, don’t look like that. All the light seems to go out of your skin. I
-mean give everybody the impression that you have everything to learn,
-and that each, individually, can teach it all. It’s awfully fetching.
-That is what has made May’s success. Of course you wouldn’t be another
-May, if you could; but you want to begin at the beginning—don’t you
-know? You must let society feel that it gives you everything, tells you
-everything. Then it will love you. But if it suspects that you are
-alien—the least little bit—then there will be the devil to pay. Of
-course a few of the best sort would like you, but I’m set on your making
-a hit.”
-
-“I’m afraid I’ll never take,” said Patience, with a sigh, “but I am wild
-to see Vanity Fair, all the same. It must be great fun—all that
-brilliancy and life. But somehow I don’t feel in tune with the people I
-have met, so far.”
-
-“Oh, that’s natural. You are not acclimatised yet, so to speak. Society
-is a distinctly foreign country to those that have not been brought up
-in it. Just sit down on the edge of that chair and rest while I take a
-look at myself.”
-
-“White is certainly my day colour,” she continued, revolving in her turn
-before the mirror. “It is wonderful how it clears the skin, especially
-with a touch of blue near the face. Pink would make me as yellow as
-October, and green would suggest thirty-five. Your grey matter will be
-spared the wear and tear of The Study of Colour, but if I hadn’t reduced
-it to a fine art, I’d have had to turn literary or something when May
-came out.”
-
-“You look just like a fairy! I never saw anything so dainty.”
-
-“Oh, of course; I’m so little and light that I have to work the fairy
-racket for all it’s worth. It’s a heavenly day, isn’t it? The country’s
-got its best spring clothes on, sure enough.”
-
-The girls leaned out of each of the windows in turn, scrutinising the
-grounds. In front and on both sides of the house the land rolled away in
-great irregular waves. Woods were in the sudden hollows, on the lofty
-knolls; between, shelving expanses of green, bare but for an occasional
-oak or elm. Beside the driveway was a long narrow avenue of elms, down
-which two might pace shoulder to shoulder, and no more. In a deep hollow
-on the right was the orchard, a riot of pink and white. The immediate
-grounds were small and trim, and fragrant with the flowers of
-civilisation; out on the hills beyond the wild-flowers and tall grass,
-the locust and hawthorn, had their way. Behind all flowed the Hudson
-under the green Palisades, its surface gay with sail and steamboat.
-
-A dancing booth had been erected on one of the lawns, and the musicians
-were already assembling under the silken curtains.
-
-“It looks very well,” said Hal, “and you couldn’t have a more perfect
-day for your _début_. Not that I care much for garden parties; the fresh
-air makes me sleepy, and there’s no concentration, as it were—as there
-is in a ball-room, don’t you know? But mamma decreed that the world
-should make your acquaintance out of doors, and that is the end of it. I
-wonder if you’ll manage to induce Bev to go to town for the winter.”
-
-“I hope so! It will be horribly dull to stay here all winter, with all
-of you away.”
-
-“That’s an edifying sentiment for a bride of three months. However, I
-agree with you. I’d go mad shut up in a country house in winter with the
-most fascinating man that ever breathed. And the dickens of it is, mamma
-always takes his part, whether he’s wrong or right. She’ll preach wifely
-duty to you until you’d live on a desert island to get rid of her.”
-
-“I’ve heard her,” said Patience, gloomily.
-
-“I wondered if that was what she was at in the library yesterday. When
-mamma has her chin well up and her lower lip well out I can tell at long
-range that she’s embracing the cause of virtue. But she tackled you
-rather early in the game, considering you haven’t made any notable break
-as yet.”
-
-“I wouldn’t go driving with Beverly yesterday,—the sun makes my head
-ache,—and I’d also begged him to take me to the theatre to see Rosita,
-and he wouldn’t.”
-
-“Oh, you’ll never get Bev to the theatre. We’ll go by ourselves to a
-matinée. However, it’s better than being a newspaper woman on several
-dollars a week—come now, own up?”
-
-“I enjoyed Florida and New Orleans and Canada immensely.”
-
-“That was a tremendous concession for Bev to make—he detests
-travelling. He certainly is in love; but I imagine he expects you to
-live on that same concession for some time to come—thinks it’s your
-turn to do the self-sacrificing act. Such is man. Anyhow, I’m glad it’s
-all turned out so comfortably, and that you are here, and that all is
-settled—”
-
-“I want to ask you something. I couldn’t get it out of Beverly. Did your
-mother make a very violent objection to his marrying me? Of course I am
-a social nobody, and she must have made great plans for her only son.
-She didn’t say anything when she came to call; but, you see, she didn’t
-call until three days before the wedding, and Beverly’s and your excuses
-were not very good.”
-
-“Oh, of course she raised Cain,” said Miss Peele, easily; “that was to
-be expected. But papa put his foot down and said he was glad to have
-Beverly marry a clever woman: it might be the making of him. And _I_
-just fought! Of course I’d told papa that you were as high bred as any
-woman in America, and that you’d look a swell in less than no time. That
-weighed heavy with him, for, in his opinion, God may have made himself
-first, but he made the Peeles next, and no mistake. And Bev! He went
-into the most awful tantrums you ever saw. I think that was what brought
-mamma round—she was afraid he’d burst a blood-vessel. When she wrote
-and asked Miss Beale to live with you I knew the day was won. And now
-that you are Mrs. Beverly Peele she’ll respect you accordingly, although
-you’ll have some lively tussles. But make her think you adore Bev, and
-you’ll pull through. Suppose we go down now. Tra-la-la! I wish it were
-over.”
-
-
- II
-
-The girls descended the twisted stair into the wide hall. All the doors
-and windows were open, and the soft air blew through the great house,
-lifting the lace and silken curtains.
-
-A girl, looking like a large butterfly, in her yellow frock, was
-fluttering about the hall amidst the palms and the huge vases of
-flowers. Her skin was of matchless tints, her large blue eyes as
-guileless as those of an infant.
-
-“Oh! Oh!” she cried, as Hal and Patience reached the first landing, “how
-perfectly sweet! Hal, is my frock all right in the back? My things never
-fit quite as well as yours do. Isn’t Patience too fetching for words? I
-wish I was just white like that. How perfectly funny that we should be
-giving a garden party for Bev’s wife! Who would have thought it last
-year? Isn’t it odd how things do happen? And hasn’t Honora been
-perfectly lovely about it? I always knew she didn’t care. I wonder if
-any decent men will come up! It’s so hard—Hal, _does_ my frock wrinkle
-in the back?”
-
-“Oh, no, no,” drawled Hal, without looking at her. She glanced at the
-tall clock in an angle. “They’ll be here in ten minutes, now—Oh—h—h!”
-
-A portière was pushed aside, and a girl entered the hall from a dark
-background of books and heavy curtains. She was far above the ordinary
-height of woman, and extremely slender. Golden hair clustered about a
-long face, pale rather than white. The large azure eyes had the
-extraordinary clarity of childhood, and an expression of perfect purity.
-The nose was long, the mouth thin, but well curved and very red. She
-wore a clinging gown of white crêpe and a large knot of blue
-wild-flowers at her belt. She moved slowly forward, managing her long
-limbs with much dexterity, but could hardly be called graceful. Patience
-thought her the most beautiful woman she had ever seen, and murmured her
-admiration to Hal, who snorted in a gentle, ladylike way.
-
-“They will be here in a moment, I suppose,” said Honora, wearily. “I
-think I shall not go out. I’ll stay in the drawing-room and entertain
-the older people. Some one must attend to them, and I really prefer the
-house.”
-
-“You are always so amiable,” said Hal, drily, “and you certainly won’t
-get freckled.”
-
-“It is true that I don’t like freckles,” said Honora, calmly, “and I do
-like the older people. Even you, when you have a few white hairs, may
-become more or less interesting. Patience, dear, you look very lovely.
-You must let me kiss you.” She bent her cool lips to the brow of the
-bride, swaying over her. Her voice could not be described by any
-adjective devoid of the letter L. It was liquid, silvery, cold, light.
-
-“She certainly is a stunning-looking woman,” said Hal, as Honora passed
-into the drawing-room, “but she’s a whole rattlesnake, and no mistake.
-I’ve never seen her strike real hard yet; she merely spits occasionally,
-and always in that amiable way. You can imagine how subtle she is, and
-what a dangerous force such self-control is. I shall never understand
-how she failed to get Bev.”
-
-“Perhaps, as May suggests, she didn’t want him.”
-
-“Oh, didn’t she! Just wait! you’ll hear from her yet. There’s the
-whistle. The train’ll be here in three minutes. Let us group ourselves
-gracefully under Peele the First.”
-
-They went into the large white drawing-room, whose old-fashioned
-woodwork was as it had been nearly three hundred years ago, even to the
-heavy shutters over the small-paned windows. The ceiling was fretted
-with floral designs, executed in _papier mâché_, surrounding a _bas
-relief_ of “our well beloved Whyte Peele,” who had received the grant of
-these many acres from James the First. All the woodwork was painted
-white, and carved. The furniture, modern, but of colonial design, was
-upholstered in pale pink and blue.
-
-Beyond a side hall was a long dining-room panelled to the ceiling in
-oak, and hung on all sides with dead and living Peeles. The carved oaken
-table was spread with the light unsubstantial feast of the modern time.
-Adjoining the dining-room were two small reception-rooms looking upon
-the terrace at the back of the rambling old house. In the middle of this
-hall, under the carved twisted stair, was a round enclosure whose door
-opened upon a well, from whence a secret passage led to the river.
-
-Mrs. Peele swept across the hall from the dining-room, and raising her
-lorgnette, considered Patience.
-
-“You look very well,” she said, coldly. “Don’t get nervous, please; it
-is the one thing for which people have no toleration. Where is Beverly?”
-
-“He has gone for a drive. You know he does not like entertainments.”
-Patience’s nerves were muttering, and her mother-in-law’s admonition was
-not of the nature of balm.
-
-Mrs. Peele raised her brows. “It is odd that a bride should have so
-little influence over her husband,” she remarked; and Patience was now
-in that equable frame of mind which carries one through the severe
-ordeals of life.
-
-How she did live through that ordeal of introduction to some five
-hundred people she never knew. Fortunately, all but the neighbours
-arrived on the special train which had been sent for them, and there was
-little for her to do but smile and bend her head as Mrs. Peele named her
-new daughter-in-law to her guests.
-
-And whatever might be that exalted dame’s private opinion of her son’s
-choice, whatever methods she might employ in untrammelled domestic hours
-to make her disapproval felt, to the world she assumed her habitual air
-of being supremely content with all that pertained to the house of
-Peele. Had Patience been the daughter of a belted earl she could not
-have been presented to New York with a haughtier pride, a calmer
-assumption that New York must embrace with gratitude and enthusiasm this
-opportunity to meet the daughter-in-law of the Gardiner Peeles.
-
-Her manner gave Patience confidence after a time. Her own pride had
-already conquered diffidence; and trying as the long ordeal was, she
-thrilled a little at the sudden realisation of half-formed ambitions.
-There was no taint of the snob in her; some echo-voice of other
-generations lifted itself out of the inherited impressions which had
-moulded her brain cells, and protested against its descendant ranking
-below the first of the land.
-
-Many of the guests were politely indifferent to the honour provided for
-them; the girls stared at her in a manner calculated to upset any
-_débutante’s_ equilibrium; but the gracious kindness of others and the
-languid admiration of the men kept her in poise.
-
-The neighbours arrived shortly after the train, and it was an hour
-before the greater part of the company had dispersed over the grounds,
-and Patience could sit down. Mrs. Peele remained in the drawing-room
-with some eight or ten people, and as Hal and May had both disappeared,
-Patience stayed with her mother-in-law, not knowing where to go.
-
-She thought the girls very forbidding with their pert noses and keen
-eyes, although she admired their luminous skin and splendid grooming,
-striking even in the airy attire of spring. The older women looked as if
-they would patronise her did Mrs. Peele withdraw her protecting wing,
-and one man, passing the window, inserted a monocle and regarded her
-deliberately. Suddenly Patience experienced a sensation of profound
-loneliness. No force in life is surer of touch than the subtle play of
-spirit on spirit, and Patience read that these people did not like her
-and never would, that they recognised the alien who would regard their
-world spectacularly, never acquire their comic seriousness.
-
-“Are you fond of golf, Mrs. Peele?” asked one girl, languidly.
-
-“I never have played golf.”
-
-The girl raised her brows. “Really! Are you fond of tennis?”
-
-“I have never played tennis.” Patience repressed a smile as the girl
-looked frankly shocked. Still the guest was evidently determined to be
-amiable.
-
-“I hope you don’t think it frivolous?”
-
-“Oh, no, I should like to learn all those things very much.”
-
-“Well, Miss Peele can teach you. She is awfully clever at all those
-things. Don’t you think Miss Mairs looks like Mary Anderson?”
-
-“Mary Anderson?”
-
-“Yes, the actress, you know.”
-
-“I have never seen her.”
-
-The girl was visibly embarrassed. Another, who looked as if harbouring a
-grin in her straight little mouth, came to the rescue.
-
-“Oh, I do think Mr. Peele is so good-looking,” she exclaimed, with a
-fine show of animation. “We all think you are to be congratulated.”
-
-Patience smiled at the frank rudeness of this remark, and said nothing.
-
-“You know Amy Murray was wild about him. She’s not here to-day, I
-notice. We did think it too bad that he wouldn’t go out. Some of the
-girls have met him here, but I never have. They say he is awfully
-fascinating.”
-
-“Oh, yes, he is fascinating,” said Patience.
-
-“What have you been doing with yourself if you have never learned to
-golf nor play tennis?” asked another girl, insolently. She was a tall
-girl, with a wooden face, a tight mouth, and an “air.”
-
-“Oh, I read, mostly,” said Patience, with an extremely bored air.
-
-The mother of the third girl turned swiftly and smiled at the bride, a
-humorous smile in which there was some pity. Patience had observed her
-before. She was a tall woman with a slender figure of extreme elegance.
-Her dark bright face was little older than her daughter’s. Her ease of
-manner was so great that it was almost self-conscious.
-
-“Oh, say!” she exclaimed, “don’t think we’re all like that. The girls
-don’t have much time to read—that’s true—but after they settle down
-they do, really. Hal reads French novels—the little reprobate!—We read
-French novels too, but a lot else besides. Oh, really! Outsiders—the
-people that only know society through the newspapers, don’t you
-know?—misjudge us terribly, really. Some of the brightest women of the
-world are in New York society—why shouldn’t they be? And if the girls
-don’t study it’s their own fault; they certainly have every opportunity
-under the sun. I was made to study. My father was old-fashioned, and had
-no nonsense about him. I always say I was educated beyond my brains, but
-I’d rather have it that way than the other. Now, I assure you I read
-everything. I have a standing order on the other side with an English
-and a French book-seller, to send me every book the minute it attracts
-attention—”
-
-“Oh, you’re real intellectual, you are,” drawled Hal’s mocking voice.
-
-The lady turned with a start and a little flush.
-
-“Oh, Hal!” she cried gaily, “how you do take the starch out of one.”
-
-“You’ve got enough to stock a laundry, so you needn’t worry. I’ve come
-to rescue my fair sister-in-law before you talk her to death. Come,
-Patience.”
-
-Patience arose with alacrity, and followed her out of the house.
-
-“Don’t you like her?” she asked.
-
-“Oh, immensely. She’s as bright as a woman can be who has so little time
-to think about it. She’s a tall and majestic pillar of Society, you
-know, and she carries it—the intellect, not the pillar—round like a
-chip on her shoulder. That makes me weary at times. I’ve heard her talk
-for an hour without stopping. The only thing that makes me forgive her
-is her slang. We have a match occasionally.”
-
-“Her daughter doesn’t look as if she used slang.”
-
-“Oh, she doesn’t. She’s no earthly use whatever. Are you enjoying
-yourself?”
-
-“Not particularly. But it’s a lovely scene.”
-
-The lawns, and knolls, and woods were kaleidoscopic with fashionettes in
-gay attire, shifting continually. There were not men enough to mar the
-brilliant effect. The music of birds soared above the chatter of girls,
-the sound of wood and brass. The river flashed away into the distance, a
-silver girdle about Earth’s green gown.
-
-“Yes, very pret,” said Hal. “But come, I’m going to introduce you to my
-latest.”
-
-“You didn’t tell me that you had a latest.”
-
-“I’ve only met him a few times—he’s from Boston. I expect I forgot
-about him.”
-
-They were walking over the lawns toward the Tea House, a long low rustic
-building which stood on the edge of the slope. A hubbub of voices
-floated through the windows, peals of laughter, affected shrieks.
-
-“A lot of my intimates are there,” said Hal. “I’ve managed to get them
-together. May is doing the hostess act with her accustomed grace and
-charm, and I’m taking a half hour off.”
-
-They went round to the front of the house and entered. It was an airy
-structure of polished maple. Little tables, each with a delicate
-tea-service, were scattered about with artistic irregularity; round the
-wall ran a divan, luxurious, but not too low for whaleboned forms. On
-this the girls were stiffly lounging. The men were more at their ease.
-All were smoking, the girls daintily, but firmly.
-
-“Hal! Hal! sweet Queen Hal!” cried one of the young men, rising to his
-feet. “I’ve been keeping this place—directly in the middle—for you.
-See, it shall be a throne.” He piled three cushions atop, and with
-exaggerated homage led her forward amidst the ejaculatory applause of
-the others.
-
-“Isn’t Norry too witty?” said one girl to Patience, as she made room for
-her, “and so original! Whoever else would have thought of such a
-thing?—although Hal ought to be a queen, don’t you think so? We just
-rave about her. Do you smoke? try my kind.”
-
-Patience, thankful that at last she could do something like these
-people, accepted the cigarette. During her three months’ trip she had
-not smoked, as Beverly thought it shocking.
-
-“Mr. Wynne,” cried Hal, suddenly, “come over here and talk to my
-sister-in-law. Patience, this is the young man from Boston, famous as
-the only New Englander whose ancestors did not come over on the ‘May
-Flower.’”
-
-A man with a smooth serious face rose from his cushions and came
-forward.
-
-“Awfully good-looking,” murmured the girl who had proffered the
-cigarette, “and wonderfully smart, considering he’s not a New Yorker.
-It’s too bad he’s so beastly poor, for he’s terribly _épris_ with Hal.”
-
-The young man, who had paused a moment to speak with Hal, inserted
-himself as best he could between Patience and her new acquaintance.
-
-“I am glad you are here,” murmured the bride. “You do not look quite at
-home, and I am not, either.”
-
-He smiled with instant sympathy. “Oh, I don’t care very much for
-society, and I don’t like to see women smoke. It’s an absurd prejudice
-to have in these progressive days, but I can’t help it.”
-
-“You mean you don’t like to see Miss Peele smoke,” said Patience,
-mischievously.
-
-He flushed, then laughed. “Well, perhaps that is it. They are all
-charming, these girls, but there is something about Miss Peele that
-distinguishes her. Did you ever notice it?”
-
-“Oh, yes. She is herself, and these others are twelve for a dozen.”
-
-“That is it.” He glanced about at the girls in their bright gowns, which
-clung to their tiny waists and hips, their narrow chests and modest
-busts, with the wrinkleless perfection that has made the modern milliner
-the god he is. Their polished skin and brilliant shallow eyes, their
-elegant sexless forms, their haughty poise and supercilious air, laid
-aside among themselves but always in reserve, their consciousness of
-caste, were the several parts of a unique and homogeneous effect, which,
-Patience confided to Mr. Wynne, must mark out the New York girl in
-whatever wilds she trod.
-
-“Oh, it does,” he said. “The New York girl is _sui generis_, and so
-thoroughly artificial a product that it seems incredible she can exist
-through another generation. I will venture to predict that the species
-will be extinct in three, and that American women of a larger and more
-human type will gradually be drawn into New York, and found a new race,
-so to speak. Why, it seems to me that the children of these women must
-be pigmies—imagine one of those girls being the mother of a man. It is
-well that New York is not America.”
-
-Involuntarily Patience’s eyes wandered to Hal. Her waist was as small,
-her figure as unwomanly as the others.
-
-“It is true,” said Wynne, answering her thought; “but she is so charming
-that one is quite willing she should do nothing further for the human
-race.”
-
-Patience burst into a light laugh.
-
-“What’s the matter?” asked Wynne.
-
-“It suddenly struck me—the almost comical difference between these
-girls and the ‘Y’s,’ and the ‘King’s Daughters.’ It does not seem
-possible that such types can exist within ten miles of each other. I
-should explain that I have passed the last three years in a country
-town.”
-
-“It is odd how religion holds its own in those small places. It is
-opera, theatre, balls, Browning societies, everything to those people
-shut out of the manifold distractions of cities. Religion seems to be
-the one excitement of the restricted life. Human nature demands some
-sort of emotional outlet—”
-
-“What on earth are you two talking about?” cried the girl on the other
-side. “Will you have another cigarette, Mrs. Beverly?—that is what we
-shall all call you, you know. Mr. Wynne, please talk to me a while.
-Isn’t this Tea House too sweet?”
-
-“It is more,—it is angelic,” said Wynne, gravely.
-
-“Oh! you’re guying!” Even her voice pouted. “Oh! please shake those
-ashes off my gown—quick!—thanks. Oh, your eyes are grey. I thought
-they were brown. I’m afraid of grey eyes, aren’t you, Mrs. Beverly—Oh,
-dear! your eyes are grey too. What ever shall I do?” and she cast up her
-hands. Even her sleek hair seemed to quiver.
-
-“It is the misfortune of the American race to run to grey eyes,” said
-Wynne. “Habit should have steeled you by this time—”
-
-“Oh, he made a pun! he made a pun!” cried the girl.
-
-“I did not!—I beg pardon, but I never did such a thing in my life,”
-cried Wynne, indignantly; and Patience felt suddenly depressed, although
-she too had found a friend in habit.
-
-Hal rose while the girl was lisping mock apologies.
-
-“I’ve got to go,” she said. “Isn’t it hateful? But I must go and do my
-duty. Patience, you must come too. Why are you blocking the doorway, Mr.
-Wynne?”
-
-“I am going with you.”
-
-“Really? Well, bye-bye;” and the three went off, followed by a gentle
-chorus of regrets.
-
-“Patience, my dear,” said Hal, “there is a group of people over there
-looking hideously bored. You go and cheer them up, while I do my duty by
-those austere and venerable dames who are staring through their
-lorgnettes at the dining-room windows—”
-
-“Oh, Hal, I can’t! Don’t send me to those people alone. What can I say
-to them?”
-
-“Patience, my dear, this is a world of woe. One day you will be
-châtelaine of this place and be giving garden-parties on your own
-account, so you’d better take the kindergarten course, and be thankful
-for the chance. Go on.”
-
-Patience walked unwillingly over to a group of four women seated under a
-drooping oak. She had forgotten the names of nine tenths of the guests,
-but she recognised Mrs. Laurence Gibbs, a plain rather dowdy little
-woman with sad face and abstracted gaze. Beside her on the rustic seat
-was a woman who gave a dominant impression of teeth: they fairly flashed
-in the shadows. In a chair sat a woman of remarkable prettiness. She
-would have been a beauty had her features been larger, so regular were
-they, so sweet her expression, so soft her colouring of pink and white
-and brown, so tall and full her figure. In another chair was a young
-woman of no beauty but much distinction. Her prematurely white hair was
-curled and tied at the base of her head with a black ribbon, realising
-an eighteenth century effect. Her face was dark and brilliant. She sat
-forward, her slim figure full of suppressed energy. She had been talking
-with much animation, but as Patience approached she paused abruptly. The
-pretty woman burst into a merry laugh.
-
-“Mrs. Lafarge was just remarking what hideous bores garden parties are,”
-she said audaciously.
-
-“Oh, you needn’t mind me,” said Patience, sitting down on the grass, as
-there was no other seat. “I quite agree with you.”
-
-“Oh, that’s awfully good of you, Mrs. Peele,” said Mrs. Lafarge, “and
-awfully mean of you, Mary Gallatin. Of course this is one of the
-loveliest places on the Hudson, and I love to come here; but there are
-not enough men. That’s the whole trouble.”
-
-“That always seems to be the cry with you American women,” said she of
-the teeth. “You have no resources. You should be independent of men.
-They seem to be of you.”
-
-“Perhaps you are driven to resources in Russia,” said Mrs. Gallatin,
-sweetly, “but your observation is faulty. We are spoiled over here, and
-that is the reason we grumble occasionally.”
-
-“You see we haven’t a large leisure class, as you have,” said Mrs.
-Gibbs, hastily.
-
-“I really think the reason men avoid garden parties is that they are
-afraid they might be betrayed into sentiment,” broke in Mrs. Lafarge.
-“They do protect themselves so fiercely. How did you ever make Tom
-Gallatin propose, Mary dear? He had the most ideal bachelor apartment in
-New York, and entrenched himself as in a fortress.”
-
-“Oh, one or two fall by the wayside every year, you know, and this time
-Gally happened to stumble over me. Poor Gally, he told me yesterday that
-he hadn’t seen me to speak to for a month. The idea of the lower classes
-grumbling. I should like to know who works as hard as we do. How do you
-manage to do the society and the charity, both?” she asked of Mrs.
-Gibbs. “Does Mr. Gibbs ever see _you_?”
-
-“I never neglect my husband,” said Mrs. Gibbs, sternly. “When I must
-neglect anything it is society. I came to-day because I longed for a
-glimpse of the country, and I have not been able to go to Woody Cliffs
-yet—the poverty is so terrible this year. I wish you would come with me
-sometime and see for yourself—”
-
-“God forbid! I never could stand the smells. I give my pastor so much a
-year, and I really think that’s doing one’s share. Of course if you like
-it, it’s another thing.”
-
-“Like it!” cried the Russian. “You speak as if it were her pastime. I
-cannot express how gratifying it is to me to meet a serious woman
-occasionally in New York society.”
-
-“I had a lovely time in Petersbourg,” murmured Mrs. Gallatin. “I never
-met an offensive Russian inside of the country. Poor America!”
-
-“I don’t understand,” said the foreigner, stiffly.
-
-“Oh, I am sure you understand English—you express yourself so clearly.
-We all weep over America occasionally, you know. It is a sort of dumping
-ground for foreigners,—who sit at our feet, and abuse us.”
-
-“One is at liberty to abuse insolence,” said the Russian, with
-suppressed wrath, “and the women of New York are the most insolent I
-have ever met.”
-
-“Oh, not among ourselves—not really. We think it insolent in outsiders
-to elbow their way in—”
-
-“Mary! Mary!” cried Mrs. Gibbs. “I hear that you spent some years with
-Miss Harriet Tremont,” she continued, addressing Patience. “She passed
-her entire life in charitable work, did she not?”
-
-“Oh, she did, and she enjoyed it too. Don’t you?”
-
-Mrs. Gallatin laughed softly.
-
-“Enjoy it?” said Mrs. Gibbs. “I never have looked at it in that way. I
-think it my duty to aid my miserable fellow beings, and I am thankful
-that I am able to aid them.”
-
-“Odd, the fads different people have,” murmured Mrs. Gallatin. “Now mine
-is Russians. What is yours, Leontine?”
-
-“Oh, Mary, you deserve to be shaken,” exclaimed Mrs. Lafarge, as the
-Russian sprang to her feet and stalked away.
-
-“I can’t help it. She’s a boor, and I wish she’d go back and live with a
-Cossack. Foreigners are all very well on their native heath, but as soon
-as they are transplanted to this side and treated with common decency
-they become intolerable. They grovel at our feet, swell because we
-receive them, and sneer at us behind our backs.”
-
-“I think you have a way of irritating them, my dear,” said Mrs. Gibbs.
-“You are a very naughty girl. Won’t you sit up here by me, Mrs. Peele? I
-am afraid the ground is damp. I shall ask you some time to explain to me
-Miss Tremont’s methods. I often feel sadly at sea.”
-
-“Oh, dear!” said Patience, “I doubt if I know them. I just followed her
-blindly. I may as well confess it—I didn’t take a very great interest
-in the work.”
-
-“Oh, how lovely!” cried Mrs. Gallatin.
-
-“I am sorry that I have made a mistake,” said Mrs. Gibbs, stiffly.
-
-“Oh, well—you know—there is such a thing as getting too much of
-anything—”
-
-“Is there?” Mrs. Gibbs rose, and shook out her skirts with an absent
-air. “I think I will go over and talk to Mrs. Peele;” and she walked
-away with an awkward gait, her head bent forward. She certainly did not
-have an “air.”
-
-“Dear! dear!” exclaimed Mrs. Gallatin. “Just think! you have lost the
-interest of Mrs. Laurence Gibbs. She might have invited you to her
-exciting musicales or her cast-iron dinners.”
-
-“Oh, don’t abuse her,” said Mrs. Lafarge. “She is a harmless little
-soul, and does what she thinks is right.”
-
-“She is happier too,” said Patience, her thoughts in Mariaville. “It is
-odd, but they always are. I think it’s because they’ve unconsciously
-cultivated the supremest and most inspired form of egoism, and naturally
-they get a tremendous amount of joy out of it—”
-
-“Hear! Hear!” cried Mrs. Gallatin. “She analyses!”
-
-“My dear, you mustn’t do that out loud,” said Mrs. Lafarge. “You’ll be a
-terrible failure if you do.”
-
-“That would be a pity, because you are so pretty,” said Mrs. Gallatin,
-smiling. “I’ve been staring at you whenever I’ve had the chance, and you
-don’t know how many charming things I’ve heard said of you this
-afternoon.”
-
-“Oh, have you really?” asked Patience, warming instantly, as much to the
-kindly sympathy as to the agreeable words.
-
-“Indeed I have. That violet against your hair and skin makes a perfect
-picture of you. _N’est-ce pas_, Leontine?”
-
-“It certainly does.”
-
-“I think you are both very kind,” said Patience, with a young impulse to
-be frank. “I feel so out of it all. You see this is my first experience
-of this sort of thing, and some of those girls have made me feel like a
-barbarian.”
-
-“They’d be glad of your freshness, not only of looks but of mind,” said
-Mary Gallatin. “I should think it would be a blessed relief to have some
-other sort of interest but just this,” and she swept out her arm
-disdainfully. “That’s the reason I go, go, all the time. I don’t dare
-think. When you have no talent, and are not intellectual, and not
-frantic about your husband, what are you to do? There’s no other
-resource, in spite of that Russian prig. I’d give a good deal to be
-beginning it all again at eighteen.”
-
-“There is no spice in life without violent contrasts,” said Mrs.
-Lafarge. “That’s the real reason why so many of our good young friends
-are larky. The trouble with this world is that although there is variety
-enough in it, each variety travels in a different orbit. The social
-scheme is all wrong, somehow.”
-
-“True! True!” said Mrs. Gallatin, plaintively. “But I see they are about
-to eat. The open air always makes me hungry. That is variety enough for
-the present.”
-
-As they crossed the lawn she laid her arm about Patience’s waist. “Bev
-doesn’t like society,” she said, “and I’m afraid you’re not in any
-danger of satiety; but don’t think out loud when you are in it. Leontine
-never does, do you, Leontine? And she is clever too. It must be
-delightful to be clever. Heigh-ho! Well, you must be sure to come to see
-me anyhow. I feel positive we shall be friends. Come some morning at
-eleven. That is just after I have had my tub and am back in bed again. I
-love to see my friends then. Oh, dear, we must scatter. There are not
-two seats together anywhere. Bye-bye.”
-
-
- III
-
-“Thank God they’re gone.” Hal divested herself of her tight smart frock,
-got into a lawn gown, lit a cigarette, and extended herself on the divan
-in her bedroom. “Well, Patience, how did you like it?”
-
-“I don’t think I made the hit you expected.”
-
-“N-o-o-o, you didn’t exactly create a _furore_; but I don’t know that
-any one could do that with so much oxygen round: makes peoples so
-drowsy, don’t you know? But you were admired awfully. And then you are
-an unconventional beauty, and that always takes longer. Now, May made a
-howling sensation, but people are tired of her already. That type
-doesn’t wear. My plain phiz wears much better, because there was never
-any chance of reaction with me. Oh, dear, here comes Bev.”
-
-A knock, and in response to Hal’s languid invitation, Beverly entered.
-He was in evening clothes, and as handsome as ever; but he looked rather
-sulky.
-
-“You might have met me when I got home,” he said to his wife. “I haven’t
-seen you since luncheon.”
-
-“Tragic!” exclaimed Hal.
-
-“I was so tired I just drifted in here and fell in a heap,” said
-Patience, apologetically. “My skull feels empty, and aches inside and
-out.”
-
-“Then you don’t like society?” said Mr. Peele, eagerly.
-
-“Oh, very much indeed! I think it is delightful, delightful! Only the
-first time is rather trying, you know. I met some charming people, and
-want to meet them again.”
-
-Peele grunted, and lit his cigar. His eyes devoured his wife’s fair
-face. Patience looked at Hal.
-
-“My mother says you carried yourself very well,” remarked Mr. Peele,
-gracefully; “that after the first you were quite at your ease. That was
-one reason I went away: I was so afraid you’d break down, or something.”
-
-Patience flushed angrily, but made no reply. She had learned that even a
-slight dispute would move her husband to a violent outbreak.
-
-“She looked more to the manor born than half the guests,” said Hal, “and
-if you took her out next winter she’d become the rage—”
-
-“I don’t wish my wife to be the rage! And she is going to stay here. If
-she loves me as much as I love her she’ll be as contented with my
-society as I am with hers.”
-
-“As if any woman ever loved a man as much as he loved her,” remarked
-Miss Peele. “I am sure Patience is no such idiot.”
-
-“What?” cried Beverly. Patience rose hastily.
-
-“I think I’ll go and brush my hair,” she said, moving to the door; but
-he sprang to his feet and stood in front of her.
-
-“Tell me!” he cried, his voice shaking. “Don’t you love me as much as I
-love you?”
-
-“Oh, Beverly,” she said, impatiently, “how can you get into such tempers
-about nothing? You have asked me if I loved you about nine thousand
-times since we were married. How am I to know how much you love me? Have
-you a plummet and line about you?”
-
-“You are dodging the question. And you have never asked me if I loved
-you—not once—”
-
-Patience slipped past him and ran down the hall to her room. Before she
-could close the door he was beside her. He caught her in his arms and
-kissed her violently.
-
-“I shall always be mad about you,” he said. “And I believe you are
-growing cold. You have not been the same lately. Sometimes I think that
-you shrink from me as you did at first. Tell me what I have done. I’d
-sell my soul to keep you. If you are tired of me, I’ll kill myself—”
-
-She disengaged herself. “Listen,” she said; “I’ve tried to explain—but
-you don’t seem to understand—that I didn’t want to fall in love with
-you—not in that way. That should not come first. Then when I found
-myself made of common clay, I said that I would forget that I had ever
-been Patience Sparhawk, and begin life again as Mrs. Beverly Peele.
-Novelty helped me; and when one is travelling, one’s ego appears to be
-dissolved into the changing scene—one is simply a sensitised plate. But
-now I am beginning to feel like Patience Sparhawk again, and it
-frightens me a little.”
-
-Beverly, to whom the larger part of these remarks were pure Greek,
-blanched to the lips.
-
-“Then you regret it,” he stammered.
-
-“I didn’t say that. I only mean that I seem to spend life readjusting
-myself; and that now I seem to be all at sea again.”
-
-“You don’t love me any longer! Oh, God!” and he flung himself on the
-floor, and burying his face in a chair, groaned aloud.
-
-Patience was disgusted, but his suffering, primary as it was, touched
-her. Moreover, her broad vein of philosophy was active once more. She
-was by no means prepared to leave him—the tide was ebbing very slowly.
-She sat down on the chair, and lifted his face to her lap. “There,” she
-said, “I am sorry I spoke. You don’t seem to understand me. If you did,
-though, this scene could never have occurred. But I love you—of
-course—and I do not regret it. So get up and bathe your eyes. It is
-after seven o’clock.”
-
-He kissed her hands, his face glowing again. The words were all
-sufficient to him. “Then if you love me you will see how happy I’ll make
-you,” he exclaimed. “I’ll never leave you a minute I can help; but if
-you stop loving me I’ll make life hell for you.”
-
-“I thought you said you’d kill yourself.”
-
-“Well, I would, but I’d get square with you first.”
-
-“Well, suppose you go into your own room now, and let me dress for
-dinner.”
-
-
- IV
-
-The summer passed agreeably enough. Circumstances prevented Beverly
-bestowing an undue amount of his society on his wife, and until a woman
-is wholly tired of a man she retains her self respect. Moreover,
-Patience chose to believe herself in love with him: “it had been in her
-original estimate of herself that she had been at fault.” She persuaded
-herself that she loved him as much as she could love any man, and she
-did her pathetic best to shed some glimmer of spiritual light into a man
-who might have been compounded in a laboratory, so little soul was in
-him. But despite the clay which was hers, she loved it a great deal for
-a time in loving it at all, for that was her nature.
-
-She went to several other garden-parties, and found them more amusing
-than her own, although the young men that frequented them were quite
-uninteresting: even Beverly scintillated by contrast, for he, at least,
-had a temper; these more civilised youths appeared to have no emotions
-whatever.
-
-Peele Manor was full of company all summer. Patience found the married
-men more entertaining than the younger ones, although they usually made
-love to her; but after she had outgrown her surprise and disapproval of
-their direct and business-like methods, it amused her to fence with
-them. They had more self-control than Beverly Peele, and were a trifle
-more skilful, but their general attitude was, as she expressed it to
-Hal: “There’s no time to lose, dontcherknow! Life is short, and New
-York’s a busy place. What the deuce is there to wait for? Sentiment? Oh,
-sentiment be hanged! It takes too much time.”
-
-Hal was an accomplished hostess, and allowed her guests little time to
-make love or to yawn. There were constant riding and driving and
-yachting parties, picnics and tennis and golf. In the evening they
-danced, romped, or had impromptu “Varieties.”
-
-Patience was fascinated with the life, although she still had the sense
-of being an alien, and moments of terrible loneliness. But she was too
-much of a girl not to take a girl’s delight in the dash and glitter and
-picturesqueness of society. She was not popular, although she quickly
-outgrew any external points of difference; but the essential difference
-was felt and resented.
-
-On the whole there was concord between herself and her mother-in-law.
-Mr. Peele she barely knew. His family saw little of him. He had not
-attended the wedding. When Patience had arrived at Peele Manor after her
-trip, he had kissed her formally, and remarked that he hoped she “would
-make something of Beverly.”
-
-He was an undersized man with scant iron grey hair whose tint seemed to
-have invaded his complexion. His lips were folded on each other so
-closely, that Patience watched them curiously at table: when eating they
-merely moved apart as if regulated by a spring; their expression never
-changed. His eyes were dark and rather dull, his nose straight and fine,
-his hands small and very white. He was not an eloquent man at the bar;
-he owed his immense success to his mastery of the law, to a devilish
-subtlety, and to his skill at playing upon the weak points of human
-nature. No man could so adroitly upset an “objection,” no man so terrify
-a witness. It was said of him that he played upon a jury with the
-consummate art of a great musician for his instrument. He rarely lost a
-case.
-
-His voice was very soft, his manners exquisite. He was never known to
-lose his temper. His cold aristocratic face looked the sarcophagus of
-buried passions.
-
-He deeply resented his children’s failure to inherit his brain, but in
-his inordinate pride of birth, forgave them, for they bore the name of
-Peele. Hal was his favourite, for she, at least, was bright.
-
-May admired her sister-in-law “to death,” as she phrased it, and bored
-her with attentions. Patience preferred Honora, who puzzled and repelled
-her, but assuredly could not be called superficial, although her claims
-to intellectuality were based upon her preference for George Eliot and
-George Meredith to the lighter order of fiction, and upon her knowledge
-of the history of the Catholic Church.
-
-One day, as Patience was crossing the lawn in front of the house, May
-called to her from the hall, beckoning excitedly. She and Hal and Honora
-were standing by a table on which was a saucer half full of what
-appeared to be dead leaves. As Patience entered, May lifted the saucer
-to her sister-in-law’s nostrils.
-
-“Why? What?” asked Patience, then paused.
-
-“Oh,—what a faint, delicious, far-away perfume,” she said after a
-moment. “What is it?”
-
-May dropped the saucer and clapped her hands. Hal laughed as if much
-gratified. Honora’s eyes wandered to the landscape with an absent and
-introspective regard.
-
-“What is it?” asked Patience again.
-
-“Why, it’s dried strawberry leaves,” said May. “Don’t you know that they
-say in the South that you can’t perceive their perfume unless every drop
-of blood in your veins is blue? The common people can’t smell it at
-all.”
-
-Patience blushed and moved her head disdainfully, but she thrilled with
-pleasure.
-
-“Won’t you come up and see my room?” said Honora, softly. “You’ve never
-called on me yet, and I think I have a very pretty room.”
-
-“Oh, I’ll be delighted,” said Patience, who was half consciously
-avoiding Beverly: Peele Manor was without guests for a few hours.
-
-“Now you must tell me if you like my room as much as you do me,” said
-Honora, who looked more like an angel than ever, in a white mull frock
-and blue sash. Her manner to Patience was evenly affectionate, with an
-undercurrent of subtle sadness and reproach.
-
-As she opened the door of her room, Patience exclaimed with admiration.
-The ceiling was blue, frescoed with golden stars, the walls with
-celestial visions. A blue carpet strewn with lilies covered the floor,
-fluttering curtains of blue silk and white muslin, the old windows. From
-the dome of the brass bedstead mull curtains hung like clouds. A faint
-odour of incense mixed with the sweet perfumes of summer.
-
-“Is it not beautiful?” said Honora, in a rapt voice. “It makes me think
-of heaven. Does it not you? It was dear Aunt Honora’s last Christmas
-gift to me. It was so sweet of her, for of course I am only the poor
-cousin.”
-
-Patience looked at her, wondering, as she had often done, whether the
-girl were a fool, or deeper than any one of her limited experience.
-Honora rarely talked, but she had reduced listening to a fine art, and
-was a favourite in society. Whether she had nothing to say, or whether
-she had divined that her poverty would make eloquence unpardonable,
-Patience had not determined. One thing was patent, however: she managed
-her aunt, and her wants were never ignored.
-
-“Now,” she said softly, “I am going to show you something that I don’t
-show to every one—but you are dear Beverly’s wife.” She folded a screen
-and revealed an altar covered with cloth of silver, antique
-candlesticks, and heavy silver cross.
-
-“My faith which sustains me in all the trials of life,” whispered
-Honora, crossing herself. “Ah, if I could have made dear Beverly a
-convert. Once he seemed balancing—but he slipped away. I have tried to
-win Hal and May to the true faith too; but we were always so much more
-to each other—Beverly and I,—playmates from childhood. I think I know
-him better than anybody in the world.”
-
-Patience felt an interloper, a thief and an alien, but out of her new
-schooling answered carelessly: “Oh, he is awfully fond of you, but I
-don’t think he is inclined to be religious. This room is too sanctified
-to speak above a whisper in. Come to my room and talk to me awhile.”
-
-Honora opened a door by the head of her bed, and they passed through a
-large lavatory, then through Beverly’s room to that of the bride, a
-square room whose windows framed patches of Hudson and Palisade, and
-daintily furnished in lilac and white. A photograph of Miss Tremont hung
-between the windows. On one side were shelves containing John Sparhawk’s
-library.
-
-Beverly arose from a deep chair, where he had been smoking and glowering
-upon the Hudson. Patience caught Honora firmly by the waist and pushed
-her into the most comfortable chair in the room, then with much skill
-engaged her in a discussion with Beverly upon the subject of music, the
-one subject besides horse which interested him.
-
-
- V
-
-In August the girls went to Newport, and Patience became very tired of
-her mother-in-law. May returned engaged to a wealthy Cuban, who had been
-dancing attendance on her blondinitude for some months past, and Mrs.
-Peele became so amiable that she forgot to lecture her daughter-in-law
-or irritate her with the large vigilance of her polaric eyes. The girls
-left again for Lenox and Tuxedo. On the first of January the family
-moved to their town house for the winter.
-
-Patience was alone with her husband.
-
-During the first three days of this new connubial solitude it snowed
-heavily. Beverly could not ride nor drive, and wandered restlessly
-between the stable and the library, where his wife sat before the
-blazing logs.
-
-There were some two thousand volumes at Peele Manor. Patience had had no
-time to read since her marriage, but on the morning of the family’s
-departure she made for the library, partly in self defence, partly with
-pleasurable anticipation. She hoped that Beverly would succumb to the
-charms of the stable, where there were many congenial spirits and a
-comfortable parlour; but she had barely discovered Heine’s prose and had
-read but ten pages of the “Reisebilder,” when the door opened, and he
-came in. She merely nodded, and went on reading. She was barely
-conscious of his presence, for Heine is a magician, and she was already
-under his spell.
-
-“Well, you might shut up your book and talk to me,” said Beverly,
-pettishly, flinging himself into a chair opposite her. “This is a nice
-way to treat a fellow on a stormy day.”
-
-“Oh, you read too,” murmured Patience.
-
-“No, I will not. I want to talk to you.”
-
-Patience closed the book over her finger and looked at him impatiently.
-Then an idea occurred to her, and she spoke with her usual
-impulsiveness.
-
-“Look, Beverly,” she said, “you and I have to spend many months alone
-together, and if we are to make a success of matrimony we must be
-companions, and to be companions we must have similar tastes. Now I’ll
-make a bargain with you: I’ll try to like horses if you’ll try to like
-books. On pleasant days I’ll ride and drive with you, and when it storms
-we’ll read together here in the library. I am sure you will like it
-after a time. If you find it tiresome to read to yourself I’ll read
-aloud. I don’t mind, and then we can talk it over.”
-
-“All right,” said Beverly. “Anything you say. What’s that you’re reading
-now?”
-
-“Heine’s prose. He is wonderful—such a style and such sardonic wit, and
-such exquisite thoughts. I’ll begin all over again. Now light a cigar
-and make yourself comfortable.”
-
-For a half hour she read aloud, and then Mr. Peele remarked,—
-
-“Hang it! The skating is spoiled for a week.”
-
-“Oh, Beverly, you haven’t been listening.”
-
-“Well, I don’t like it very much. He skips around so. Besides, I always
-did hate Germans. Give me America every time.”
-
-“Well, read something American then,” said Patience, crossly.
-
-“You find something and read it to me. I like to hear your voice, even
-if I can’t keep my mind on it. Wait a while though. I guess I’ll go and
-see how the stable is getting on.”
-
-He bent down to kiss his wife, but she was once more absorbed, and did
-not see him. He snatched the book from her with an oath and flung it
-across the room. She sprang to her feet with flashing eyes, pushed him
-aside with no gentle hand, and ran after the book.
-
-“You sha’n’t read that book!” he cried. “The idea of forgetting your
-husband for a book—_a book_! You are a lovely wife! You are a disgrace
-to the name! You would rather read than kiss your husband! I’ll lock
-this room up, damned if I don’t.”
-
-“I’ll go and live with Miss Beale and do Temperance work,” sobbed
-Patience. “I won’t live with you.”
-
-“Oh, you won’t—what? What did I marry you for? My God! What did I marry
-you for? My life is hell, for I’m no fool. I know you don’t love me. You
-married me for my money.”
-
-“I wish I had,” she exclaimed passionately, then controlled herself. “I
-hope we are not going to squabble in the usual commonplace way. I shall
-not, at any rate. If you lose your temper, you can have the quarrel all
-to yourself. I shall not pay any attention to you. Now go out to the
-stable and cool off, and when you come back I’ll read something else to
-you.”
-
-“Do you love me?”
-
-“Oh, yes—yes.”
-
-And Beverly disappeared, slamming the door behind him.
-
-“I wonder if any one on earth has such a temper,” she thought. “And
-people believe that vulgarity and lack of control are confined to the
-lower classes! What is the matter with civilisation anyhow? I can only
-explain my own remarkable aberration in this way: youthful love is a
-compound of curiosity, a surplus of vitality, and inherited
-sentimentalism. It is likely to arrive just after the gamut of
-children’s diseases has run its course. Of course the disease is merely
-a complacent state of the system until the germ arrives, which same is
-the first attractive and masterful man. All diseases run their course,
-however. I could not be more insensible to Beverly Peele’s dead
-ancestors out in the vault than I am to him. No woman is capable of
-loving at nineteen. She is nothing but an overgrown child, a chaos of
-emotions and imagination. There ought to be a law passed that no woman
-could marry until she was twenty-eight. Then, perhaps a few of us would
-feel less like—Well, there is nothing to do but make the best of it,
-regard life as a highly seasoned comedy, in which one is little more
-than a spectator, after all—and at present I have Heine.”
-
-Beverly did not return for an hour. When he did she rose at once, and
-running her eye along the shelves, selected a volume of Webster’s
-Speeches.
-
-“You like politics,” she said; “and all of us should read the great
-works of our great men. I’ll read the famous Seventh of March Speech.”
-
-And she did, Beverly listening with considerable attention. When she had
-finished he remarked enthusiastically,—
-
-“Do you know what that speech has made me make up my mind to do? I’m
-going to run for the Senate, and make speeches like that myself.”
-
-Patience merely stared at him. She wondered if he were really something
-more than a fool; if there was a sort of post-graduate course.
-
-“What makes you look at me like that? Don’t you think I can?”
-
-“Well—” She hardly knew what to say.
-
-“Well! Is that the way you encourage a fellow? You are a nice wife. Here
-my father has been at me all my life to do something, and just as soon
-as I make up my mind, my wife laughs at me.”
-
-“I didn’t laugh at you.”
-
-“Well, it’s all the same. If I never do anything, it’ll be your fault.”
-
-“Go to the Senate just as fast as ever you can get there. And you might
-as well spend the rest of the day studying Webster; but suppose you read
-to yourself for a while: my throat is tired.”
-
-“I don’t like to read to myself.”
-
-“Well, anyhow, I hear Lawson coming. Luncheon is ready.”
-
-The table in the dining-room had been divested of its leaves, and the
-young couple sat only a few feet apart. The room had once been a
-banqueting-hall. It was very large and dark. The white light filtered
-meagrely through the small panes. The wind moaned through the naked
-elms.
-
-“The country is awfully dull in winter,” remarked Patience. “I wish we
-were in town.”
-
-“That’s a beautiful speech to make to a husband. I don’t mind so long as
-you are here.”
-
-“Of course I am deeply flattered,” and she smiled upon him. There seemed
-nothing else to do.
-
-“Damn it!” cried Beverly, “this steak is as thin as a plate and burnt to
-a cinder. Patience, I do wish you’d give some of your attention to
-housekeeping and less to books. It is your place to see that things are
-properly cooked, now that Honora is gone.”
-
-“Oh, dear. I don’t know anything about cooking, or housekeeping,
-either.”
-
-“Well, then, I’d be much obliged if you’d learn as quickly as possible.
-Take this steak out,” he said to the maid, “and bring some cold beef or
-ham. Damn it! I might have known that when Honora went away I’d have
-nothing fit to eat, with this new cook.”
-
-But Patience refused to continue the conversation, and when the ham and
-beef came he ate of them with such relish that his good-nature returned
-as speedily as it had departed.
-
-During the afternoon the scene of the morning was repeated with
-variations, and the same might be said of the two following days. Then
-came an interval of sleighing and skating. Then rain turned the snow to
-slush, and once again Beverly exhibited the characteristics of a caged
-tiger.
-
-“I shall have nervous prostration before the winter is over,” thought
-Patience, who was still determined to take the situation humorously,
-still refused to face her former self. “I do wish the family would come
-back, mother-in-law and all.”
-
-Occasionally, despite Beverly’s indignant protests, she went to town for
-the day, and shopped or paid calls with Hal. On one occasion they went
-to see Rosita. That “beautiful young prima donna of ever increasing
-popularity” wore black gauze over gold-coloured tights, and acted and
-sang and danced and allured with consummate art. The opera house was
-two-thirds crowded with men, although there was the usual matinée
-contingent of girls and young married women.
-
-“Well,” thought Patience, “she’s way ahead of me, for she’s made a
-success of herself, at least, and is not bothered with scruples and
-regrets.”
-
-The winter dragged along as slowly as if time had lamed the old man,
-then fallen asleep. The relations between Patience and Beverly became
-very strained. His frequent tempers were alternated by sulks. He was
-genuinely unhappy, for limited as he was, mentally and spiritually, he
-was very human; and in his primitive way he loved his wife.
-
-Patience’s resolution to go through life as a cynical humourist, deaf
-and blind to the great wants of her nature, died hard, but it died at
-last. Monotony accentuated fact, and the time came when pretence failed
-her, and she visibly shrank from his lightest caress. The tide of horror
-and loathing had risen slowly, but definitely. He threatened to kill
-her, to commit suicide, to get a divorce; but his threats did not
-disturb her. He was too weak to kill himself, too proud to make himself
-ridiculous in the divorce courts, and too much in love to put her beyond
-his reach. What sustained her was the hope that his passion would die a
-natural death, and that they would then go their diverse ways as other
-married people did,—that had come to seem to her the most blessed
-meaning of the holy state of matrimony. Then she could enjoy her books,
-and he would permit her to spend the winters in New York, or in travel.
-
-Beverly’s affections, however, showed no sign of dissolution.
-
-
- VI
-
-One afternoon in March, Patience, glancing out of the library window,
-saw Hal coming up the lawn from the path that led down the slope to the
-station. She suppressed a war-whoop with which she and Rosita had been
-used to awake the echoes of the Californian hills, opened the window,
-and vaulted out.
-
-“Well,” cried Miss Peele, as Patience ran toward her, “you do look glad
-to see me, sure enough. Bev can’t be very exciting, for you don’t look
-as if it were me particularly—just somebody. Oh, matrimony! matrimony!
-I envy the women that have solved the problem in some other way—the
-journalists and artists, and authors and actresses, and even the
-suffragists, God rest them. Hello, there’s Bev. He looks as if he were
-about to cry. What have you been doing to him?”
-
-“I left him writing an order for some new kind of horse-feed,” said
-Patience, indifferently. Her husband stood at the window, staring
-gloomily at the beaming faces. When the girls entered the room he had
-gone.
-
-“He looks as if he had just been let out of the dark room. Do you beat
-him? What do you suppose my mother will say?”
-
-“Oh, I suppose he’s bored too. You see it’s nearly three months now. I
-tried to make him read, but after the third day he went to sleep.”
-
-Hal drew a low chair to the fire, close to the one Patience occupied.
-She laughed merrily.
-
-“Fancy your trying to make Bev intellectual! That would be a good
-subject for a one-act farce. Well, I’ve come up here to tell you
-something, and to talk it over. I, too, am contemplating matrimony.”
-
-“Oh, don’t!” cried Patience.
-
-“I believe that is usually the advice of married people, but the world
-goes on marrying itself just the same. But my problem is much more
-complicated than the average, for there are two men in the question.”
-
-“Two? You don’t mean to say you don’t know your own mind?”
-
-“That is exactly the fact in the case. You remember Reginald Wynne?
-Well, Patience, I do like that man. I never liked any man one tenth as
-much. I might say he’s the only serious man I’ve ever met, the only one,
-to put it in another way, that I ever could take seriously as a man. He
-has brains—he’s a lawyer, you know, and they say very fine things of
-him—and he is so kind, and _strong_. When I am with him I don’t feel
-frivolous and worldly and one of a dozen. If I have any better nature
-and any apology for a brain, they are on top then. He is the last sort
-of man I ever thought I’d fall in love with, but it takes us some years
-to become acquainted with ourselves, doesn’t it? I do respect him so,
-and it is such a novel sensation. He even makes me read. Fancy! And I’ve
-even promised him that I won’t read any more French novels, excepting
-those he selects, nor smoke cigarettes. So, you see, I am in love.
-
-“But, Patience,” she continued with tragic emphasis, “he hasn’t a
-red—and I know I’d be miserable, poor. When papa saw which way the wind
-was blowing, he took me into the library and told me that although he
-made fifty thousand dollars a year, we spent nearly all of it, and that
-he should not have much to leave besides his life insurance—one hundred
-thousand—which of course would go to mamma. It is a matter of honour
-never to sell this place, and the revenue from the farm—which is to go
-to Beverly—would keep it up in a small way. The town house is to be
-May’s and mine; but what will that amount to? May and I have always
-pretty well understood that if we want to keep on having the things that
-habit has made a necessity to us, we must marry rich men! Oh, dear! Oh,
-dear!”
-
-“Well, the other man?”
-
-“He has appeared on the scene lately. He is not the usual alternative by
-any means, for he is very attractive in his way. He has the manners of
-the man of the world, a _fin de siècle_ brain, and the devil in his eye.
-He is rather good-looking and tremendously good form. And, my dear, he
-has three cold millions. Think what I should be with three millions!
-Fancy me in Boston on three or four hundred dollars a month. Oh,
-Patience, what shall I do?” And Hal, the most undemonstrative of women,
-laid her head on Patience’s knee and sobbed bitterly.
-
-“I had to come to see you, Patience,” she continued after a moment. “I
-have no one else; I could never have said a word of this to mamma or
-May. And I like you better than any one in the world except Reginald
-Wynne. And you seem to understand things. Do tell me what to do.”
-
-“Do this: Be true to your ideals. If love means, and has always meant
-more to you than anything else in the world, marry Reginald Wynne. If
-money and power and luxury are the very essentials of happiness to you,
-marry the other man. No temporary aberration can permanently divert
-one’s paramount want from its natural course. As soon as the novelty has
-gone, the ego swings back to its old point of view as surely as water
-does that has been temporarily dammed. There is only one thing that
-persists, and that is the ideal,—that habit of mind which is bred of
-heredity and environment, even where care or consciousness is lacking.
-It is as relentless and pitiless as the law of cause and effect. I
-believe it would outlive a very leprosy of the soul. And it makes no
-difference whether that ideal be great or small, high or low, its hold
-is precisely the same, for it is individuality itself. Rosita is happy
-because she has realised her ideal. Miss Tremont was happy because she
-lived up to hers. Miss Beale was supremely satisfied with herself when
-she let a man die whom she might have saved by smirching her ideals. The
-religionists are happy generally, not through communion with the
-presiding deity, as they imagine, but because they have arbitrarily
-created a sort of spiritual Blackstone whom they delight to obey. The
-author is happy when he toils, even without hope of reward. Martyrs have
-known ecstasy—But one could go on for a week. Don’t marry Wynne if you
-feel that you would be unhappy in poverty after the first few months;
-and if you feel that great wealth without love would be misery, don’t
-marry the other.”
-
-“Oh, I could like Latimer Burr well enough,” said Hal, staring gloomily
-at the fire; “and after a time I suppose I’d forget. You see, I have
-been in love so short a time that the wrench would be a good deal less
-violent than the wrench from luxury—I’d soon get over it, I expect. But
-I do like him—I never thought I could feel like this.”
-
-Patience fondled the sleek head, but she was not in a mood to feel in
-sympathy with love. The only thing that to her seemed of paramount
-importance was to fix a clear eye on the future.
-
-“You see,” she said, “the present is ever with us, and the past recedes
-farther and farther. If the rich man can give you what you most want,
-time will make you forget the very sensation of love. If you marry Wynne
-and the love goes, you will have equal difficulty to recall it, and
-nothing to compensate in the present.”
-
-“I’m not afraid that it would go; but I know that I should be thoroughly
-miserable poor, and make him miserable too. I do love it all so—all
-that money means—why, one can’t even be well groomed without money. It
-has gone to make up nine-tenths of my composition; the other tenth is
-only a bit of miserable wax. But I love this new feeling, and I never
-believed that anything could be so sweet. Oh, dear; I’ll have to dry up.
-Here comes Bev.”
-
-“Remember this,” said Patience, “and let it console you: however you
-feel or are torn, you’ll do one thing only,—follow along the line of
-least resistance.”
-
-Beverly entered and kissed his sister affectionately. Her back was to
-the light, and he did not notice her swollen eyes.
-
-“Well, you are looking hilarious,” she remarked in her usual flippant
-tones. “Has Tammany gone lame, or Mrs. Langtry refused to take her five
-bars?”
-
-“My wife doesn’t love me!” Beverly had brooded upon his wrongs for two
-months. Hal’s words were as a match to a mine.
-
-“Oh!” exclaimed Patience, springing to her feet, “don’t let us have a
-scene for Hal’s benefit. Do cultivate a little good taste, if good sense
-is too far beyond you.”
-
-Her words were not soothing, and Beverly exploded in one of his most
-violent passions. He tore up and down the room, banging his fist
-alternately on the table, the mantel, and the books, and once he hit the
-panel of a door so heavy a blow that it sprang. Patience sat down and
-turned her back. Hal endeavoured to stop him; but he had found a
-listener, and would discharge his mind of its accumulated virus. He told
-the tale of the winter in spasmodic gusts, hung and fringed with oaths.
-Finally he flung himself out of the room, shouting all the way across
-the hall.
-
-For a moment there was an intense and meaning silence between the two
-women; then Hal stood up and laid her palms to her head.
-
-“Patience!” she said, “Patience! this is awful. What have I done? Oh,
-does it really mean anything? I have seen Bev go into tempers all my
-life—but—Tell me, please—does this really mean anything—”
-
-“Whether it does or does not it need not worry you beyond warning you
-against mistakes on your own account. I married with my eyes open, and I
-can take care of myself. Don’t marry your rich man unless you like him
-well enough to pretend to like him a good deal more. If you do, you’ll
-end by loathing him and yourself—and what is more, he’ll know it.”
-
-“Oh, no, I don’t think I am as intense as you are—but what do you
-suppose makes Beverly such a wild animal? We are none of us like that,
-and never have been, as far as I know, although some of the old boys
-were pretty gay, not to say lawless. But for two or three generations we
-seem to have been a fairly well-conducted lot. Beverly is almost a
-freak.”
-
-Patience crossed the room, and lifting down a volume of Darwin’s
-“Descent of Man” read from the chapter on Civilised Nations:—
-
- “‘With mankind some of the worst dispositions which
- occasionally, without any assignable cause, make their
- appearance in families, may perhaps be reversions to a savage
- state from which we are not removed by very many generations.’”
-
-
- VII
-
-Two weeks later Patience received a letter from Hal which induced no
-surprise.
-
- The die is cast [it read]. Reginald Wynne has gone back to
- Boston, and I am going to marry Latimer Burr. On the first of
- April we sail for Europe—mamma and May and I—to get our
- things.
-
- Don’t imagine that I am doing the novel-heroine act, and
- sprinkling my pillow o’ nights. I did feel terribly, and I’ll
- never love any other man; but the thing is done, and done for
- the best, and that is the end of it. What you said about
- following along the line of least resistance is as sure as love
- and fate and a good many other things; for what Latimer Burr can
- give me I want more than what Reginald Wynne can give me, and it
- drew me like a magnet. And the other thing you said is equally
- true,—that the only joy in life is to pursue your ideals to the
- bitter end. Mine are not lofty, but they are _me_, and that is
- all there is to it. I shall not weep it out, because I’ve no
- beauty to lose, and weeping does no earthly good, anyway. If it
- would give Wynne Burr’s fortune I’d drown New York.
-
- We’ll be back on the first of June. We’re only going over to
- order things. I wish you joy of Honora. It’s too bad Bev is so
- much in love with you, or you might switch him off on to her.
- Oh, Patience, dear, you don’t know how much I’ve thought about
- you. It hurts me _hard_ to think that you are unhappy. I feel as
- guilty as a murderer, but really I thought you’d get along. So
- many women had been in love with Bev, I thought you would be,
- too. I don’t think it had ever occurred to me that women
- sometimes had a soul. If I had known as much then as I do now
- I’d have done all I could to keep you apart, for Beverly Peele
- certainly has not the attenuated ghost of a soul.
-
- But Patience, dear, do stand it out. Don’t, _don’t_ get a
- divorce. Remember that all over the world women are as miserable
- as you are, and as I might be if I would let myself go. Now, at
- least, you have compensations; and when I am married I’ll do
- everything I can to make life gay and pleasant for you; but
- don’t make a horrid vulgar newspaper scandal and leave yourself
- without resources. This world is a pretty good place after all
- when you are on top, but it must be hell underneath.
-
- Lovingly HAL.
-
-
- VIII
-
-The day Mrs. Peele and her daughters sailed for France Mr. Peele and his
-niece returned to the Manor. Honora kissed Patience on either cheek.
-
-“Oh, I am so glad to come back to my lovely room, and to see you,
-Patience dear,” she said wearily. “We have had such a gay winter, and I
-am so tired. Dear me, how fresh and sweet you look in that white frock.
-I just long to get into thin things.”
-
-When Mr. Peele came up in the evening he narrowed his lids as he kissed
-Patience, and regarded her critically. “Well, how does Beverly wear in a
-three months’ _tête-à-tête_?” he asked. “Gad! I shouldn’t care to try
-it.”
-
-“Oh,” she said flushing, “we didn’t talk much. He had the farm and the
-horses to attend to, you know, and I had the library. Oh, I am so glad
-you have that library.”
-
-He laughed aloud, with the harsh notes of a voice unused to such music.
-
-“I see you have had a Paul and Virginia time, as Hal would say. I’m
-sorry you’ve put your foot in it, for even you can’t make anything of
-him; but make the best of it. Don’t leave him—Hal has told me
-something, you see. It was best that she should. There must be no
-scandal. If he makes too great a nuisance of himself come to me; and if
-he cuts off your allowance at any time just let me know, and I’ll see
-that you have all the money you want. He doesn’t own the farm. I like
-you. You’re a clever woman. If you’d been my daughter I’d have been
-proud of you.”
-
-And whether he really found pleasure in his daughter-in-law’s society,
-or whether he merely thought it politic to lighten her burden, from that
-time until the return of the family he devoted his evenings to her. He
-was deeply read, and Patience, after years of mental loneliness, was
-grateful for his companionship, although personally he antagonised her.
-He was a mentality without heart or soul, and she knew that he would
-sacrifice her as readily as he accepted her if it better suited his
-purpose.
-
-She clung to Honora during the day and read aloud to her in the Tea
-House, while that devoted young Catholic embroidered for the village
-church or sewed for the poor of her beloved priest. Father O’Donovan, a
-young man with a healthy serious face and a clear eye, frequently joined
-them. Every morning the girls rode or sailed. Beverly frequently made
-one of the party, and Patience and Honora exercised all their tact to
-keep him in good humour. In the evening he played duets with his cousin.
-Her touch was as light and hollow as an avalanche of icicles from the
-roof, he pounded the piano as if it were a prize fighter’s chest.
-
-One evening Patience did not go downstairs until a few moments before
-dinner was announced. As she entered the library she saw that a stranger
-stood at the window with Mr. Peele. The priest was present, and she
-shook hands with him before going over to greet the stranger and her
-father-in-law. While she was agreeing with him that Honora in her white
-robe and blue sash looked exactly like an angel, the man at the window
-turned, and she recognised Mr. Field. She ran forward and held out her
-hand.
-
-“Oh! Oh!” she cried. “I’m so glad to see you again. I’ve wanted and
-wanted to.”
-
-He took her hand, smiling, but regarded her with the keen gaze she so
-well remembered.
-
-“Bless my soul,” he said, “but you have changed. It is not too much to
-say that you have improved. Even the freckles have gone, I see. I
-thought I was to make a newspaper woman of you. I felt rather cross when
-you married. But this life certainly agrees with you. You look quite the
-_grande dame_—quite—ah! Good evening, sir,” as Beverly entered and was
-presented. Mr. Field darted a glance from one to the other, his mouth
-twitching sardonically.
-
-He sat at Patience’s right during dinner, and they talked constantly.
-Beverly was sulky, and said nothing. Mr. Peele rarely talked at table,
-even to Patience. Honora and the priest conversed in a solemn undertone.
-It is doubtful if two courses had been served before the terrible old
-man understood the situation.
-
-“There’s tragedy brewing here,” he thought, grimly. “That fellow has the
-temper of a fiend in the skull of a fool, and this girl is not the
-compound I take her to be if she lives a lie very long for the sake of
-champagne and truffles. I’d give a good deal to foresee the outcome.
-Unless I’m all wrong there’ll be a two column story on the first page of
-the ‘Day’ some fine morning. Well, she’ll have its support, right or
-wrong. She’s a brick, and he’s the sort of fellow a man always wants to
-kick.—What is that?” he asked of the priest, who had begun a story that
-suddenly appealed to Mr. Field’s editorial instinct.
-
-“A physician over at Mount Vernon, who stands very high in his
-profession, has been accused of poisoning his wife. She died in great
-agony, and her mother insisted upon a post-mortem. Her stomach was full
-of strychnine. He maintains that she threatened to commit suicide
-repeatedly, and that he is innocent; but opinion is against him, and
-people seem to think that the jury will convict him. I knew both, and I
-feel positive of his innocence.”
-
-“Undoubtedly he is innocent,” said Mr. Field. “No physician of ordinary
-cleverness would bungle like that. Strychnine! absurd! Why, there are
-poisons known to all physicians and chemists which absolutely defy
-analysis. I don’t doubt that more than one doctor has put his wife out
-of the way, and the world none the wiser.”
-
-“Is that true?” said Patience, eagerly, leaning forward. Her curious
-mind leapt at any new fact. “What are they like?”
-
-“That I can’t say. That is a little secret known to the fraternity only,
-although I don’t doubt they give their friends the benefit of their
-knowledge occasionally. Indubitably a large proportion of murderers are
-never discovered—unless they discover themselves, like the guilty pair
-in ‘Thérèse Raquin.’”
-
-“Oh, they belonged to the cruder order of civilisation,” said Patience,
-lightly. “I am sure that if I committed a murder, I should not be
-bothered by conscience if I had felt myself justified in committing it.
-It seems to me that if the development of the intellect means anything
-it means the casting out of inherited prejudices. Of course I don’t
-believe in murder,” she continued, carried away as ever by the pleasure
-of abstract reasoning, “but if a man of the world and of brains, after
-due deliberation, makes way with a person who is fatal to his happiness
-or his career, then I think he must have sufficient development of
-mental muscle to scorn remorse. The highest intelligences are
-anarchistic.”
-
-“Undoubtedly there are those that have reached that point of
-civilisation,” said Mr. Field, “but for my part, I have not. Although I
-keep abreast of this extraordinary generation, my roots are planted
-pretty far down in the old one. But assuredly if I did feel the
-disposition to murder, and succumbed, I’d cover up my tracks.”
-
-“Do these poisons give pain? Are they mineral or vegetable?”
-
-As Mr. Field was about to answer, a peculiar expression crossed his
-face, and Patience, following his eyes, looked at Beverly. Her husband
-was staring at her with his heavy brows together, the corners of his
-mouth drawn down in an ugly sneer. To her horror and disgust she felt
-the blood fly to her hair. At the same time she became conscious that
-Mr. Peele, the priest, and Honora were exchanging glances of surprise.
-Beverly gave an abrupt unpleasant laugh, and pushing his chair violently
-back, left the room. Patience glanced appealingly about, then dropped
-her glance to her plate. She felt as if the floor were dissolving
-beneath her feet.
-
-
- IX
-
-A week later, after a pleasant morning in the Tea House with Honora and
-Father O’Donovan, she left it to go to the library. As she turned the
-corner of the house she saw Beverly standing close to one of the
-windows.
-
-“What are you doing there?” she asked in surprise.
-
-His brows were lowered and his skin looked black, as it always did when
-his angry passions were risen.
-
-“I’ve been watching you and that priest,” he said savagely, following
-her as she retreated hastily out of earshot of the people in the Tea
-House. “I saw you exchanging glances with him! Now I know why you want
-to know so much about poisons—”
-
-“Are you insane?” she cried. “What on earth are you talking about?”
-
-“No, I’m not insane—by God! You’re in love with that priest, and I know
-it. But I’m on the watch—”
-
-“Oh,—you—you—” stammered Patience. She could not speak. Her face was
-crimson with anger and disgust. In her husband’s eyes she was an image
-of guilt. He burst into a sneering laugh.
-
-“You think I’m a fool, I suppose, because I don’t know anything about
-books. But a woman said once that I had the instincts of the devil, and
-I’ve no idea of—”
-
-Patience found her tongue. “You poor fool,” she said. “It was ridiculous
-of me to pay any attention whatever to you; but I am not used to being
-insulted, even by you. And remember that I am not used to any display of
-imagination in you. As for _love_—” the scorn with which she uttered
-the word made even him wince—“do not worry. You have made me loathe the
-thing. I could not fall in love with a god. Don’t have the least fear
-that I shall be unfaithful to you. I couldn’t!”
-
-She walked away, leaving Beverly trembling and speechless. When she
-reached her room she locked the doors and sobbed wildly.
-
-“Oh, what shall I do? What shall I do?” she thought. “I can’t stand it
-any longer. I believe I really would kill him if I stayed. I feel as if
-my nature were in ruins. I hate myself! I loathe myself! I’ll leave this
-very day!”
-
-But she had said the same thing many times. Why does a woman hesitate
-long before she leaves the man who has made life shocking to her?
-Indolence, abhorrence of scandal, shame to confess that she has made a
-failure of her life, above all, lack of private fortune and the
-uncertainty of self-support. For whatever the so-called advanced woman
-may preach, woman has in her the instinct of dependence on man,
-transmitted through the ages, and a sexual horror of the arena. Patience
-let the days slip by, hoping, as women will, that the problem would
-solve itself, that Beverly Peele would die, or become indifferent, or
-that she would drift naturally into some other sphere.
-
-
- X
-
-Mrs. Peele and the girls returned with the June roses; the house was
-filled with guests at once. The Cuban had gone to his islands for the
-summer, and May chose to wear the willow and occasionally to weep upon
-Patience’s unsympathetic shoulder; but as frequently she consoled
-herself with the transient flirtation. Hal, apparently, was her old gay
-self. She did not mention Wynne’s name, and Patience was equally
-reticent.
-
-“I should be the last to remind any woman of what she wished to forget,”
-she thought. “And love—what does it amount to anyhow? If He came I
-believe I should hate him, because once I felt something like passion
-for him too.”
-
-She had looked forward with some curiosity to meeting Latimer Burr. He
-also had been in Paris. He followed his lady home on the next steamer,
-and immediately upon his return came to Peele Manor. Patience did not
-meet him until dinner. She sat beside him, and at once became acutely
-aware that he was a man of superlative physical magnetism. She
-proscribed him accordingly—magnetism was a repellent force at this
-stage of her development. She was rather surprised that she could feel
-it again, so completely had Beverly’s evaporated.
-
-Burr was a tall heavily built man about forty years old. He carried
-himself and wore his clothes as only a New York man can. His face was
-florid and well modelled, his mouth and half closed eyes sensual. But
-his voice and manners were charming. He appeared to be deeply in love
-with Hal, and his voice became a caress when he spoke to her. Patience
-did not like his type, but she forgave him individually because he was
-fond of Hal and appeared to possess brains.
-
-She fell into conversation with him, and his manner would have led her
-to believe that while she spoke neither Hal nor any other woman existed.
-To this Patience gave little attention: she had met that manner before;
-it was pleasant, and she missed it when lacking; but she had practised
-it too often herself to feel more than its passing fascination. His
-eyes, however, were more insistently eloquent than his manner, and their
-eloquence was of the order that induced discomposure.
-
-Patience at times looked very lovely, and she was at her best to-night.
-Her white skin was almost transparent, and the wine had touched her
-cheeks with pink. The sadness of her spirit had softened her eyes. Her
-gown of peacock blue gauze fitted her round elastic figure very firmly,
-and her bare throat and neck and arms were statuesque. She had by no
-means the young married woman look, but she had some time since acquired
-an “air,” much to Hal’s satisfaction. To all appearances she was a girl,
-but her figure was womanly. Although about five feet six, and built on a
-more generous plan than the average New York woman, she walked with all
-their spring and lightness of foot. Her round waist looked smaller than
-it was; she never laced. Lately she had discovered that she “had an
-arm,” as Hal would have phrased it, and the discovery had given her such
-satisfaction that she had forgotten her troubles for the hour, and sent
-for a dressmaker to take the sleeves out of her evening gowns.
-
-Mr. Burr also discovered it, and murmured his approval as caressingly as
-were he addressing his prospective bride.
-
-“The milk-white woman!” he ejaculated softly. “The milk-white woman!”
-
-“Can’t you get any farther?” asked Patience. “If you were a poet now,
-that would make a good first line for a rhapsody—to Hal, for instance.”
-
-He laughed indulgently. “How awfully bright you are. I am afraid of
-you.” But he did not look in the least afraid. “You are to be my sister,
-you know. We must become friends at once.”
-
-“And flattery is the quickest and surest way of establishing the
-fraternal relation? Well, you are quite right; but just look at my hair
-for a change, will you?” (She felt as if her skin must be covered with
-red spots.) “Or my profile. They are also good points.”
-
-“They are exquisite. I have rarely seen a woman so beautiful.”
-
-“Dear! Dear! How relieved you must be to feel that you can keep your
-hand in without straying too far from Peele Manor. And there is also
-Honora.”
-
-“I don’t admire Miss Mairs. She is too tall, and her nose is too long.”
-
-“Poor dear Honora! But how well you understand women! What tact! I like
-you so much better than I did before.”
-
-He laughed again in his indulgent way. “You mustn’t guy me. It is your
-fault if I pay you too many compliments. You are a very fascinating
-woman.”
-
-“You are wonderfully entertaining. What must you be when you are in
-love! What do you and Hal talk about?”
-
-“Isn’t Hal a dear little girl? I do love her. I never loved a woman so
-much in my life—never proposed before. She is so bright. She keeps me
-amused all the time. I always said I’d never marry a woman that didn’t
-amuse me, and I’ve kept my word. It isn’t so much what she says, don’t
-you know, as the way she says it. Dear little girl!”
-
-On this subject they could agree, and Patience kept him to it as long as
-possible.
-
-After dinner Burr went with Mr. Peele into the library. Patience,
-passing through the room, found them talking earnestly upon the great
-question of the day,—the financial future of the country. She paused a
-moment, then sat down. To her surprise she found that Burr was master of
-his subject, and possessed of a gift of words which fell little short of
-eloquence.
-
-The argument lasted an hour, during which Patience sat with her elbows
-on the table, her chin on her folded hands, her eager eyes glancing from
-one to the other. Occasionally she smiled responsively as Burr made some
-felicitous phrase. When the discussion was over, Mr. Peele left the
-room. Burr arose at once and seated himself beside her.
-
-“I never talked so well,” he said. “You inspired me;” and he took her
-hand in the matter-of-fact manner she knew so well.
-
-“You talked quite as well before you saw me—”
-
-“I knew you were there—”
-
-“Kindly let me have my hand. I have only two—”
-
-“Nonsense! Let me hold your hand. I want to! I am going to—Why are
-you—”
-
-“Haven’t you Hal’s hand?”
-
-“Oh, my God! You don’t expect me to go through life holding one woman’s
-hand? Hal is the most fascinating woman in the world, and I love
-her—but I want you to let me love you, too.”
-
-“It is quite immaterial to me whether you love me or not; and, I think,
-if you want plain English, that you are a scoundrel.”
-
-“Oh, come, come. You—_you_—must know more of the world than to talk
-like that. Why am I a scoundrel?” He looked much amused.
-
-“You are engaged to one woman and are making love to another.”
-
-“Well, what of that so long as she doesn’t know it? I shall be the most
-uxorious and indulgent of husbands—but faithful—that is not to be
-expected.”
-
-“You must have great confidence in me. Suppose I describe this scene and
-conversation to Hal?”
-
-“You will not,—not out of regard for me, but because you love Hal—dear
-little girl! And you are one of the few women devoid of the cat
-instincts. That long-legged girl, now, has a whole tiger inside of her,
-but you have only the faults of the big woman. I hope you have their
-weaknesses.”
-
-“Well, you shall never know if I have. Please let go my hand.”
-
-He flung it from him. “Oh, well,” he said, haughtily, “I hoped we should
-be friends, but if you will have it otherwise, so be it;” and he stalked
-out, and devoted himself to Hal for the rest of the evening.
-
-
- XI
-
-“Funny world,” thought Patience. She shrugged her beautiful young
-shoulders cynically, and went forth to do her duty by the guests. As she
-passed out of the front door to join some one of the scattered groups on
-the lawns, she heard a voice which made her pause and tap her forehead
-with her finger. It was a rich deep voice, with a vibration in it, and a
-light suggestion of brogue. She turned to the drawing-room, whence it
-came. A man in riding clothes was talking to Mrs. Peele, who was
-listening with a bend of the head that meant much to Patience’s trained
-eye. The man had an athletic nervous figure, suggestive of great
-virility and suppressed force, although it was carried with a fine
-repose. The thick black hair on his large finely shaped head glinted
-here and there with silver. His profile was aquiline, delicately cut and
-very strong, his mouth, under the slight moustache, neither full nor
-thin, and both mobile and firm, the lips beautifully cut. The eyes,
-deeply set, were not large, and were of an indefinite blue grey, but
-piercing, restless, kind, and humourous. There were lines about them,
-and a deep line on one side of his mouth. His lean face had a touch of
-red on its olive. He might have been anywhere between thirty-five and
-forty.
-
-Patience recognised him and trembled a little, but with excitement, not
-passion. She had understood herself for once when she had said that in
-her present conditions she was incapable of love. Beverly Peele would
-have to go down among the memories before his wife could shake her
-spirit free, and turn with swept brain and clear eyes to even a
-conception of the love whose possibilities dwelt within her.
-
-But she was fully alive to the picturesqueness of meeting this man once
-more, and suddenly became possessed of the spirit of adventure. There
-must be some sort of sequel to that old romance.
-
-She withdrew to the shadow of a tree, where she could watch the
-drawing-room through the window. Burr entered, slapped the visitor on
-the back, and bore him away to the dining-room, presumably to have a
-drink. When they returned, Mr. Peele was in the room. He shook hands
-with the stranger more heartily than was his wont. In a few moments he
-crossed over to the library, and Patience, seeing that her early hero
-would be held in conversation for some time to come, followed her
-father-in-law and asked casually who the visitor was.
-
-“Oh, that’s Bourke, Garan Bourke, the legal idol,” sarcastically, “of
-Westchester County. In truth he’s a brilliant lawyer enough, and one of
-the rising men at the New York bar, although he will go off his head
-occasionally and take criminal cases. I don’t forgive him that, if he
-_is_ always successful. However, we all have our little fads. I suppose
-he can’t resist showing his power over a jury. I heard an enthusiastic
-youngster assert the other day that Bourke whips up a jury’s grey matter
-into one large palpitating batter, then moulds it with the tips of his
-fingers while the jury sits with mouth open and spinal marrow paralysed.
-Personally, I like him well enough, and rather hoped he and Hal would
-fancy each other. But he doesn’t seem to be a marrying man. You’d better
-go over and meet him. He’ll just suit you.”
-
-Patience returned to her post. Burr had disappeared, Bourke was talking
-to half a dozen women. In a few moments he rose to go. Patience went
-hastily across the lawns to the narrow avenue of elms by the driveway.
-No two were billing and cooing in its shadows, and Beverly was in bed
-with a nervous headache.
-
-The moon was large and very brilliant. One could have read a newspaper
-as facilely as by the light of an electric pear. As Bourke rode to the
-main avenue a woman came toward him. He had time to think her very
-beautiful and of exceeding grace before she surprised him by laying her
-hand on his horse’s neck.
-
-“Well?” she said, looking up and smiling as he reined in.
-
-“Well?” he stammered, lifting his hat.
-
-“I am too heavy to ride before you now.”
-
-He stared at her perplexedly, but made no reply.
-
-“Still if I were up a tree—literally, you know—and a band of terrible
-demons were shouting at a man beside a corpse—”
-
-“What?” he said. “Not you?—not you? That homely fascinating little
-girl—no, it cannot be possible—”
-
-“Oh, yes,” lifting her chin, coquettishly. “I have improved, and grown,
-you see. I was more than delighted when I saw you through the window. It
-was rather absurd, but I disliked the idea of going in to meet you
-conventionally—”
-
-He laid his hand strongly on hers, and she treated him with a passivity
-denied to Latimer Burr.
-
-“I am going to tie up my horse and talk to you a while, may I?” America
-and the law had not crowded all the romance out of his Irish brain, and
-he was keenly alive to the adventure. He had forgotten her name long
-since, and it did not occur to him that this lovely impulsive girl was
-the property of another man; but although he had lived too long, nor yet
-long enough, to lose his heart to the first flash of magnetism from a
-pretty woman, yet his blood was thrilled by the commingling of
-spirituality and deviltry in the face of this high-bred girl who cared
-to give the flavour of romance to their acquaintance. He saw that she
-was clever, and he had no intention of making a fool of himself; but he
-was quite willing to follow whither she cared to lead. And it was night
-and the moon was high; the leaves sang in a crystal sea; a creek
-murmured somewhere; the frogs chanted their monotonous recitative to the
-hushed melodies and discords of the night world; the deep throbbing of
-steamboats came from the river.
-
-He tied his horse to a tree, and they entered the avenue.
-
-“You told me that it was a small world, and that we should probably meet
-again,” she said; “and I never doubted that we should.”
-
-“Oh, I never did either,” he exclaimed. He was racking his brains to
-recall the conversation which had passed between them a half dozen years
-ago, and for the life of him could not remember a word; but he was a man
-of resource.
-
-“I am glad that it is at night,” he continued, “even if the scene is not
-so charming as Carmel Valley from that old tower. How beautiful the
-ocean looked from there, and what a jolly ride we had in the pine
-woods!”
-
-She understood perfectly, and grinned in the dark.
-
-“Ah! I remember I gave you some advice,” he exclaimed with suspicious
-abruptness. “I thought afterward that it was great presumption on my
-part.”
-
-“I wonder if you had an ideal of your own in mind when you spoke?”
-
-“An ideal?” He cursed his memory and floundered hopelessly. Even his
-Irish wit for once deserted him.
-
-“Oh, I hoped you had not forgotten it. Why, I have made a little ‘Night
-Thoughts’ of what you said, and it has been one of the strongest forces
-in my development. Shall I repeat it to you?”
-
-“Oh, please.” He was blushing with pleasure, but sore perplexed.
-
-And she repeated his comments and advice, word for word.
-
-“Is it possible that you remember all that? I am deeply flattered.” And
-he was, in fact.
-
-“What more natural than that I should remember? I was a lonely little
-waif, full of dreams and vague ideals, and with much that was terrible
-in my actual life. I had never talked with a young man before—a man of
-seventy was my only experience of your sex, barring boys, that don’t
-count. And you swooped down into my life in the most picturesque manner
-possible, and talked as no one in my little world was capable of
-talking. So, you see, it is not so remarkable that I retain a vivid
-impression of you and your words. I was frightfully in love with you.”
-
-“Oh—were you? Were you?” He was very much at sea. It was true that she
-had paid him the most subtle tribute one mind can pay to another, but
-her very audacity would go to prove that she was a brilliant coquette.
-He had a keen sense of the ridiculous, and he was still a little afraid
-of her. He took refuge on the broad impersonal shore of flirtation,
-where the boat is ever dancing on the waves.
-
-“If you felt obliged to use the past tense you might have left that last
-unsaid.”
-
-“Oh, there are a thousand years between fifteen and twenty-one. I am
-quite another person, as you see.”
-
-“You are merely an extraordinary child developed; and you have carried
-your memory along with you.”
-
-“Oh, yes, the memory is there, and the tablets are pretty full; but
-never mind me. I want to know if your ideals are as strong now as I am
-sure they were then—if any one in this world manages to hold onto his
-ideals when circumstances don’t happen to coddle them.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know,” he said. “I’m afraid I haven’t thought much about
-them since that night. I doubt if I’d given too much thought to them
-before. Deep in every man’s brain is an ideal of some sort, I imagine,
-but it is seldom he sits down and analyses it out. He knows when he’s
-missed it and locked the gates behind him, and perhaps, occasionally, he
-knows when he’s found it—or something approximating it. We are all the
-victims of that terrible thing called Imagination, which, I sometimes
-think, is the sudden incursion of a satirical Deity. I have not
-married—why, I can hardly say. Perhaps because there has been some
-vague idea that if I waited long enough I might meet the one woman; but
-partly, also, because I have had no very great desire to marry. I keep
-bachelor’s hall over on the Sound, and the life is very jolly and free
-of small domestic details. There are so many women that give you almost
-everything you want—or at least four or five will make up a very good
-whole—that I have never yet faced the tremendous proposition of going
-through life expecting one woman to give me everything my nature and
-mind demand. But there are such women, I imagine,” he added abruptly,
-trying to see her face in one of the occasional splashes of moonlight.
-
-“A very clever woman—Mrs. Lafarge; perhaps you know her—said to me the
-other day, that many men and women of strong affinity took a good deal
-of spirituality with them into marriage, but soon forgot all about
-it—matrimony is so full of reiterant details, and everything becomes so
-matter of course. Do you think that is true?”
-
-“I am afraid it is. The imagination wears blunt. The Deity is sending
-his electricity elsewhere—to those still prowling about the shores of
-the unknown. Perhaps if one could keep the danger in mind—if one were
-unusually clever—I don’t know. I fancy civilisation will get to that
-point after a while. Unquestionably the companionship of man and woman,
-when no essentials are lacking, is the one supremely satisfying thing in
-life. If we loved each other, for instance—on such a night—it seems to
-me that we are in tune—”
-
-“But we don’t love each other, as it happens, and we met about three
-quarters of an hour ago. We’ll probably hate each other by daylight.”
-
-“Oh, I hope not,” he said, accepting the ice-water. “But tell me what
-your ideals were. I hope they have proved more stable than mine.”
-
-“Oh, mine were a sort of yearning for some unseen force in nature; I
-suppose the large general force from which love is a projection. Every
-mortal, except the purely material, the Beverly Peele type, for
-instance, has an affinity with something in the invisible world, an
-uplifting of the soul. Christianity satisfies the great mass, hence its
-extraordinary hold. Do you suppose the real link between the soul of man
-and the soul of nature will ever be established?”
-
-He laughed a little, piqued, but amused. “You are very clever,” he said,
-“and this is just the hour and these are just the circumstances for
-impersonal abstractions. Well—perhaps the link will be established when
-we have lived down this civilisation and entered upon another which has
-had drilled out of it all the elements which plant in human nature the
-instincts of cupidity and sordidness and envy and political corruption,
-and all that goes to make us the aliens from nature that we are. About
-all that keeps us in touch with her now are our large vices. There is
-some tremendous spiritual force in the Universe which projects itself
-into us, making man and nature correlative. What wonder that
-man—particularly an imaginative and intelligent child—should be
-affected and played upon by this Mystery? What wonder that the heathens
-have gods, and the civilised a symbol called the Lord God?—a concrete
-something which they can worship, and upon which unburden the load of
-spirituality which becomes oppressive to matter? It is for the same
-reason that women fall in love and marry earlier than men, who have so
-many safety-valves. On the other hand, men who have a great deal of
-emotional imagination and who can neither love nor accept religion take
-refuge in excess. It is all a matter of temperament. Cold-blooded
-people—those that have received a meagre share of this great vital
-force pervading the Universe, which throws a continent into convulsions
-or a human being into ecstasy—such, for instance, are religious only
-because their ancestors were,—their brain is pointed that way. Their
-blood has nothing to do with it, as is the more general case—for
-Christianity is pre-eminently sensuous.”
-
-“What do you suppose will take its place? The world is bound to become
-wholly civilised in time; but still human nature will demand some sort
-of religion (which is another word for ideality), some sort of
-lodestar.”
-
-“A superlative refinement, I think; a perfected æstheticism which shall
-by no means eradicate the strong primal impulses; which shall, in fact,
-create conditions of higher happiness than now exist. Do we not enjoy
-all arts the more as they approach perfection? Does not a nude appeal
-with more subtle strength to the senses the more exquisite its beauty,
-the more entire its freedom from coarseness? When people strive to place
-human nature on a level with what is highest in art and in nature
-itself, the true religion will have been discovered. So far, man himself
-is infinitely below what man has achieved. It is hard to believe that
-genius is the result of any possible combination of heredity. It would
-seem that it must, like its other part, imagination, be the direct and
-more permanent indwelling of the supreme creative force—as if the
-creator would lighten his burden occasionally, and shakes off rings
-which float down to torment favoured brains.”
-
-“I always knew that I should love to hear you talk,” murmured Patience.
-
-His hand closed over hers. He drew it through his arm and held it
-against his heart, which was beating irregularly.
-
-“And I haven’t talked so much nor such stuff to a woman since God made
-me. I believe that I could talk to you through twenty years. You have
-said enough to-night to make me hope that our minds have been running
-along the same general lines. Tell me—honestly—no coquetry—has what I
-said that night had the slightest effect in your development?”
-
-She told the tale of the day in the crystal woods, giving a sufficiently
-comprehensive sketch of the events which had led up to it to make her
-the more keenly interesting to the man whose brain was beginning to
-whirl a little.
-
-“If you had come at that moment,” she concluded, “I would have gone with
-you to the end of the earth. I have a pretty strong personality, but
-there was a good deal of wax in me then, and if you could have gotten it
-between your hands I think that what you moulded would have closely
-resembled your ideal—the impression you had already made had so
-strongly coloured and trained my imagination. But,” she continued
-hastily, and glancing anxiously to the far distant end of the avenue,
-“you see my life changed immediately after that, and I went into the
-world and became hard and bitter and cynical. I have no ideals left, and
-I do not want any—I have seen too much—”
-
-“Hush!” he said passionately, “I do not believe a word of it. Why, that
-was not two years ago, and you are still a young girl. Have you loved
-any one else?” he asked abruptly, his voice less steady.
-
-“No!”
-
-He was too excited to note the meaning of her emphasis. He was only
-conscious that he was very close to a beautiful woman who allured him in
-all ways as no one woman had ever done before.
-
-“You are full of a girl’s cynicism,” he said; “you have seen just enough
-to make you think you know the world—to accept the superficial for the
-real. You—you yourself are an ideal. All you need is to know yourself,
-and I am going to undertake the task of teaching you—do you hear? If I
-fail—if I have made a mistake—if it is only the night and your beauty
-that have gone to my head—well and good; but I shall have the
-satisfaction of having tried—of knowing—”
-
-“No, no! No, no!” she said. “You must not come here again. I do not want
-to see you again—”
-
-“Nonsense! You have some sentimental foolish idea in your head,—or
-perhaps you are engaged to some man who can give you great wealth and
-position. I shall not regard that, either. If I feel to you by daylight
-as I do now, I’ll have you—do you understand?”
-
-Patience opened her lips to tell him the truth, then cynically made up
-her mind to let matters take their course. At the same time she was
-bitterly resentful that she should feel as she did, not as she had once
-dreamed of feeling for this man.
-
-“Very well,” she said, “I shall be here for a while.”
-
-“And I shall see you in the course of a day or two. I’m going now.
-Good-night.” He let her arm slip from under his, but held her hand
-closely. “And even if it so happened that I never did see you again, I
-should thank you for the glimpse you have given me of a woman I hardly
-dared dream existed.”
-
-When he had gone she anathematised fate for a moment, then went back to
-her guests.
-
-
- XII
-
-Latimer Burr was evidently a man upon whom rebuff sat lightly. The next
-morning he came suddenly upon Patience in a dark corner, and tried to
-kiss her. Whenever the opportunity offered he held her hand, and once,
-to her infinite disgust, he planted his foot squarely on hers under the
-dinner table. A few hours later they happened to be alone in one of the
-small reception-rooms.
-
-“Look here,” exclaimed Patience, wrathfully, “will you let me alone?”
-
-“No, I won’t,” he said good-naturedly. “Jove! but you are a beauty!”
-
-She wore a gown of white mull and lace, trimmed with large knots of
-dark-blue velvet. She had been talking all the evening with Mr. Peele,
-Mr. Field, and Burr, and was somewhat excited. Her lips were very pink,
-her eyes very bright and dark. She held her head with a young triumph in
-beauty and the intellectual tribute of clever men.
-
-“Hal would be delighted. She has always wanted me to become the
-fashion.”
-
-“You never will be that, for there are not enough brainy men in society
-to appreciate you. If all were like myself, you would be wearied with
-the din of admiration—”
-
-“There’s nothing like having a good opinion of oneself.”
-
-“Why not? I don’t set up to be an intellectual man—intellectual men are
-out of date; but I’m a brainy man, and I’d like to know how I’m to help
-being aware of the fact. I certainly don’t claim to be pretty, so you
-can’t say I’m actually wallowing in conceit.”
-
-Patience was forced to laugh. “Oh, you’d do very well if you’d exercise
-as much sense in regard to women as you do to affairs. Just answer me
-one question, will you? Are you so amazingly fascinating that women have
-the habit of succumbing at the end of the second interview?”
-
-“I never set up to be an ass.”
-
-“But your manner is quite assured. You seem very much surprised that I
-don’t tumble into your arms and say ‘Thank you.’ Oh, you New York men
-are so funny!”
-
-“Well, answer me one question—you don’t love your husband, do you?”
-
-“No, I don’t.”
-
-“Do you like me?”
-
-“I would if you wouldn’t make such an idiot of yourself. You certainly
-are very agreeable to talk to.”
-
-He came closer, his lids falling. The fine repose of his manner was a
-trifle ruffled. “Do you love anybody else?” he asked.
-
-“I do not.”
-
-“Then let me love you.”
-
-“I shall not.”
-
-“Then if you don’t love your husband and you like me and will not let me
-love you, you must have a lover.”
-
-Patience burst into brief hilarity.
-
-“Is that the logic of your kind?”
-
-“A beautiful woman that does not love her husband always loves another
-man.”
-
-“Or is willing to be loved by the first man that happens to have no
-other affair on hand.”
-
-“You have said that you like me.”
-
-“I didn’t say I loved you!”
-
-“I’d make you!”
-
-“Oh!” with a deep contempt he was incapable of understanding, “you
-couldn’t. But tell me another thing; I’m very curious. Has it never
-occurred to you that a woman must be wooed, that it is somewhat
-necessary to arouse sentiment and feeling in her before she is willing
-to advance one step? Why, you and your kind demand her off-hand in a way
-that is positively funny. What has become of all the old traditions?”
-
-“Oh, bother,” he said. “Life is too short to waste time on old-fashioned
-nonsense. If a man wants a woman he says so, and if she’s sensible and
-likes him she meets him half way. Men and women of the world know what
-they want.”
-
-“That is all there is to love then? It no longer means anything else
-whatever?”
-
-“Oh—you are all wrong. If you were not a spiritual woman I wouldn’t
-cross the room to win you. One can buy the other sort. It is your
-spirituality, your intellectuality, that fascinates me as much as your
-beauty.”
-
-“What do you know about spirituality?” she said contemptuously. “I don’t
-like to hear you speak the word. You desecrate it.”
-
-He flushed purple. “There are few things I don’t understand—and a good
-deal better than you do, perhaps.”
-
-“You have a clever man’s perception, that is all. Association with all
-sorts of women has taught you the difference between them. But what
-could you give a spiritual woman? Nothing. You have not a shrunken
-kernel of soul. The sensual envelope is too thick; your brain too
-crowded with the thousand and one petty experiences of material life.
-You are as ingenuous as all fast men, for the women you have spent your
-life running after make no demands upon subtlety—”
-
-“Take care,” he said angrily; “you are going too far. I tell you I have
-as much soul as any man living.”
-
-“Perhaps. I doubt if any man has much. Men give women nothing, as far as
-I can see. If we want companionship there seems nothing to do but to
-descend to your level and grovel with you.”
-
-“I would never make you grovel. I would reverence—”
-
-“Oh, rot!” she cried, stamping her foot. “What a fool—and worse—the
-average woman must be. You have no idea how ingenuously you are giving
-away the women of society. And soul! The idea of a man who pretends to
-love the woman he is engaged to and is making love to another, and that
-her sister-in-law and most intimate friend, claiming to have a soul!
-Have you no sense of humour? I say nothing about honour, as I wish to be
-understood, if possible; but you are clever enough to see the ridiculous
-in most things—Please don’t walk over me. There is plenty of room. And
-the windows are open, you know—”
-
-“Yes, and I am here,” cried a furious voice, and Beverly sprang into the
-room.
-
-Patience stepped back with a faint exclamation. Burr turned white.
-Beverly was shaking with rage. His face was almost black; there were
-white flecks on his nostrils.
-
-“I kept quiet,” he articulated, “to hear every word. You dog!” to Burr.
-“I may be pretty bad, but I’d never do what you have done. And as for
-you,” he shook his fist at his wife, “you were only leading him on. If I
-could only have held myself in another moment I’d have seen you in his
-arms. Get out of this house,” he roared, “both of you. You’ll never
-marry my sister. I’m going to tell her this minute—”
-
-Burr sprang forward and caught him by the collar; but Beverly was not a
-coward. He turned, flinging out his fist, and the two men grappled.
-Patience closed the door and glanced out of the window. No one was near.
-Voices floated up from the cliffs. Burr was the more powerful man of the
-two, and in a moment had flung Beverly, panting, into a chair.
-
-“Keep him here,” said Patience, rapidly, and she left the room.
-
-“Man is certainly still a savage, a brute,” she thought. “What is the
-matter with civilisation?”
-
-As she crossed the lawn, she met one of the servants.
-
-“Go and find Miss Hal, and ask her to come here,” she said. A few
-moments later her sister-in-law hurried up from the cliffs.
-
-“What is it?” she called cheerily. “Has Bev had an apoplectic fit?”
-
-“Beverly has been making a greater fool of himself than usual,” said
-Patience, as the girls met, “and I want to see you before he does. I was
-standing in one of the reception-rooms talking to Mr. Burr after Mr.
-Field and Mr. Peele had gone out, and he had on all his manner and was
-telling me how beautiful I was, in his usual after dinner style, when
-Beverly leaped through the window like the wronged husband in the
-melodrama and accused us of making love. He threatened to come and tell
-you, and he and Mr. Burr wrestled like two prize-fighters. If Beverly
-were put on the witness stand he’d be obliged to admit that Mr. Burr had
-not so much as touched my hand. I suppose you will believe me?”
-
-Hal gave her light laugh. “Certainly, my dear, certainly; although if I
-were a man I should fall in love with you myself. I wouldn’t bet on
-Latimer, but I would on you—so don’t worry your little head. Do you
-suppose I expect a man with that mouth and those eyes to be faithful to
-me? Still, I must say that I should have given him credit for more
-decency than to make love to my sister-in-law—”
-
-“He didn’t! I swear he didn’t.”
-
-“Oh, of course not! Nor will he make love to every pretty woman he finds
-himself alone with for five minutes. He can’t help it, poor thing. Let
-us go and talk to the gentlemen.”
-
-As they entered the little room she exclaimed airily, “Been making a
-fool of yourself again, Bev? No, don’t speak. Patience has told me all
-about it. I have every confidence in her and Latimer. Better go and take
-a spin with Tammany. Latimer, you really must mend your manners. They’re
-too good. From a distance a stranger would really think you were making
-love when you are swearing at the heat. Now, come down to the Tea House.
-Good-night, Bevvy dear.”
-
-And she went off between her lover and her sister-in-law, leaving her
-brother to swear forth his righteous indignation.
-
-That night Patience opened the door of her husband’s room for the first
-time. Beverly, who had just entered, was so astonished that the wrath he
-had carefully nourished fell like quicksilver under a cool wave, and he
-stared at her without speaking.
-
-“I wish to tell you,” said his wife, “that you were entirely justified
-in being angry to-night. I could have suppressed Burr by a word, but I
-chose to lead him on to gratify my curiosity. Hal wishes to marry him,
-and I am determined that she shall. If I had admitted the truth to her
-or permitted you to enlighten her, her self-respect would have forced
-her to break the engagement. That would have been absurd, for the match
-is exactly what she wants, and she is not marrying with illusions. But
-you have been treated inconsiderately, and I apologise for my share in
-it. Will you forgive me?”
-
-“Of course I’ll forgive you,” said Beverly, eagerly. “I wasn’t angry
-with you, anyhow—only with that scoundrel. But I never believed you’d
-do this. Do you care for me a little?”
-
-Patience averted her face that she might not see the expression on his.
-Despite her loathing of him she gave him a certain measure of pity. With
-all the preponderance of the savage in him and the limitations of his
-intelligence he had his own capacity for suffering, and to-night he
-stood before her crushed under the sudden reaction, his eyes full of the
-dumb appeal of shrinking brutes.
-
-“If we are going to live peacefully don’t let us discuss that subject,”
-she said gently. “We have both missed it, and I sometimes think that you
-are more to be pitied than I am. However, I shall not flirt—I promise
-you that. Good-night.”
-
-That was the last of Mr. Burr’s illegal love-making at Peele Manor. He
-had had a fright and a lesson, and he forgot neither.
-
-
- XIII
-
-“Garan Bourke is coming to dinner to-night,” said Hal, the next day.
-“It’s the hardest thing in the world to get him; he never goes anywhere;
-but he half promised mamma, when he called the other night, that he’d
-come some day this week, and he wrote yesterday, saying he’d dine with
-us to-day. I want you to meet him. He is awfully clever, and when he
-talks I want to close my eyes and listen to his voice. If the dear girls
-ever get the vote and do jury duty, all he’ll have to do will be to
-quote law. He needn’t take the trouble to sum up. His voice will do the
-business every time.”
-
-Patience, in a French gown of black chiffon, was very beautiful that
-night. She did not go down to dinner until every one was seated. Bourke
-sat next to Mrs. Peele. Her own chair was near the end of the opposite
-side of the long table. For a time she did not look at Bourke. When she
-did she met his eyes; and knew by their expression that some one had
-told him she was the wife of Beverly Peele.
-
-After dinner he went with Mr. Peele and Burr into the library. Patience
-was about to follow a party of young people down to the bluff, when Mr.
-Field drew her arm firmly through his.
-
-“You are not going to desert your court?” he said. “Why, you don’t
-suppose I come up here to talk to Peele, do you? If you go out with
-those boys I’ll never come here again.” And he led her into the library.
-
-It was nearly twelve o’clock when she found herself alone with Bourke.
-The others had gone out, one by one. She had made no attempt to follow
-them. She sat with defiant eyes and inward trepidation. Bourke regarded
-her with narrowed eyes and twitching nostrils.
-
-“So you are married?” he said at last.
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“And you deliberately made a fool of me?”
-
-“No—no—I did nothing deliberately that night—no—I acted on impulse.
-And all that I said was quite true. Of course I should have told you—”
-
-“But it would have spoiled your comedy.”
-
-“No—no—don’t think that. I see that I was dishonest—I am not making
-excuses—I never thought you’d become really interested—”
-
-“I am not breaking my heart. Don’t let that worry you. The mere fact of
-your dishonesty is quite enough to break the spell—for you are not the
-woman I imagined you to be. I was merely worshipping an ideal for the
-hour. Do you love your husband?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Then you are a harlot,” he said, deliberately. “It only needed that.”
-He rose to his feet and looked contemptuously at her scarlet face. “At
-all events it was an amusing episode,” he said. “Good-night.”
-
-
- XIV
-
-It was a matter of comment before the summer was over, both among the
-guests at Peele Manor and the neighbours, that Mr. and Mrs. Beverly
-Peele had come to the parting of the ways. As the young man’s
-infatuation was as notable as his wife’s indifference, he received the
-larger share of sympathy. The married men championed Patience and
-expressed it in their time-honoured fashion; and although they worried
-her she looked forward with terror to the winter: she would willingly
-have taken them all to board and trusted to their wives to keep them in
-order.
-
-Beverly had confided his woes long since to his mother. She declined to
-discuss the subject with her daughter-in-law, but treated her with a
-chill severity. Fortunately they were gay that summer, and Patience had
-much to do. Hal and May were absorbed in preparations for their wedding,
-and the duties of hostess fell largely on her shoulders.
-
-Late in the fall there was a double wedding under the medallion of Peele
-the First. Immediately thereafter May went to Cuba; and Hal to Europe,
-to pay a series of visits. Mrs. Peele continued to entertain, and was
-obliged to confess that her daughter-in-law was very useful, and in
-deportment above reproach. Outwardly Patience looked almost as cold a
-woman of the world as herself, and gave no evidence of the storms
-brewing within; but one day she hung out a signal. Mrs. Peele announced
-that she should go to town on the first of December. Patience followed
-her into her bedroom and closed the door.
-
-“May I speak to you a moment alone?” she asked.
-
-“Certainly,” said Mrs. Peele, frigidly. “Will you sit down?”
-
-She herself took an upright chair, and suggested, Patience thought, a
-judge on his bench.
-
-“I want to go to town with you this winter.”
-
-“I should be happy to have my dear son with me, and I will not deny that
-you are a great help to me; but Beverly is as strongly opposed as ever
-to city life. I asked him myself to go down for the winter, but he
-refused. He is one of Nature’s own children, and loves the country.”
-
-“He certainly is very close to Nature in several of her moods. But I
-wish to go whether he does or not.”
-
-“You would leave your husband?” Mrs. Peele spoke with meditative scorn.
-
-“It will be better for both of us not to be shut up here together for
-another winter. I—I will not answer for the consequences.”
-
-“Is that a threat?”
-
-“You can take it as you choose.”
-
-“Do you not love my son?”
-
-“No, I do not.”
-
-“And you are not ashamed to make such an admission?”
-
-“Would you prefer to have me lie about it?”
-
-“It is your duty to love your husband.”
-
-“That proposition is rather too absurd for argument, don’t you think so?
-Will you persuade Beverly to let me go with you to town?”
-
-“I shall not. You should be glad, overjoyed, to have such a husband. You
-should feel grateful,” she added, unburdening her spite in the vulgarity
-which streaks high and low, “that he loved you well enough to overlook
-your lack of family and fortune—”
-
-But Patience had left the room.
-
-That evening she went to her father-in-law and stated her case. She
-spoke calmly, although she was bitter and sore and worried. “I cannot
-stay here with Beverly this winter,” she continued. “I need not explain
-any farther. Mrs. Peele will not consent to my going to town with her.
-But couldn’t I live abroad? I could do so on very little. I should care
-nothing for society if I could live my life by myself. I should be quite
-contented with books and freedom. But I cannot stay here with Beverly
-alone again.”
-
-Mr. Peele shook his head. “It wouldn’t do. I understand; but it would
-only result in scandal, and I don’t like scandal. We have never gone to
-pieces, like so many great New York families. Our women have been proud
-and conservative, and have not used their position to cloak their
-amours. I have perfect confidence in you, of course; but if you went to
-Europe and left Beverly raging here, people would say that you had gone
-to meet another man. Moreover, it would do no good. Beverly would follow
-you. And he will give you no cause for divorce: he has the cunning
-peculiar to the person of ugly disposition and limited mentality. No,
-try to stand it. Remember that all the humours of human nature have
-their limit. Beverly will become indifferent in time. Then he will let
-you come to us. I intend to take a rest in a year or two and go abroad,
-and I shall be glad to have you with us. I do not mind telling you that
-you are the brightest young woman I have ever known—and Mr. Field has
-said the same thing.”
-
-But Patience was not in a mood to bend her neck to flattery. She shook
-her head gloomily.
-
-“If I have any brain, cannot you see that I suffer the more? Mr. Peele,
-I cannot stay here with Beverly! Do you know that sometimes I have felt
-that I could kill him? I am afraid of myself.”
-
-“Hush! Hush! Don’t say such things. You excitable young women are
-altogether too extravagant in your way of expressing yourselves. Words
-carry a great deal farther than you have any idea of—take an old
-lawyer’s word for it. Now try to stand it. In fact, you must stand it.
-I’ll do all I can. I’ll leave a standing order with Brentano to send you
-all the new books, and I’ll insist upon your coming up every week or so
-to have some amusement. But for God’s sake make no scandal.”
-
-
- XV
-
-On the first of December Patience and Beverly were alone once more. The
-weather was fine, and Beverly temporarily absorbed in breaking in a colt
-on his private track. Patience spent the first day wandering about the
-woods, tormented by her thoughts. She remembered with passionate regret
-the old crystal woods where she had been a girl of dreams and ideals.
-Her ideals were in ruins. The hero of her dreams had told her a hideous
-truth that had made her hate him and more abundantly despise herself.
-She longed ardently to get away to a mountain top, a hundred miles from
-civilisation. Nature had been her friend in the old Californian days,
-and the green or white beauty of her second environment had satisfied
-her in that peaceful intermediate time. But Westchester County, although
-exquisitely pretty, lacked grandeur and the suggestion of colossal
-throes in remote ages with which every stone in California is eloquent.
-That was what she wanted now. But there was no prospect of getting away.
-Did she have enthusiasm enough left to leave summarily she had little
-money. She was very extravagant, and left the larger part of her
-quarterly allowance with New York shops and milliners and dressmakers;
-but she knew that the end was approaching, and listlessly awaited it.
-
-Heavy with rebellious disgust she returned to the house and went
-mechanically to the library. For a while she did not read; she felt no
-impulse to do so. But after a time she took down a book in desperation,
-a volume of a new edition de luxe of “Childe Harold.” She had not read
-it during her brief Byronic fever, and had not opened the poet since.
-Gradually she forgot self. She began with the third canto, and when she
-had finished the fourth she discovered that her spirits were lighter, a
-weight had risen from her brain. She had always regarded “notes” as an
-evidence of the amateur reader, but to-day she scrawled on a fly-leaf of
-Mr. Peele’s new morocco edition:—
-
- “As the Christian goes to his God for help, the intellectual, in
- hours of depression and disgust and doubt go to the great
- Creators of Literature, those master minds that lift our own
- temporarily above the terrible enigma of the commonplace, and
- possess us to the extinction of personal meditation. Are not
- these genii as worthy of deification by the higher civilisation
- as was Jesus Christ—their brother—by the great illogical
- suffering mass of mankind? ‘Faith shall make ye whole,’ said
- Christ; ‘come unto me, all ye that are heavy laden.’ ‘Develop
- your brain, and I will give you self-oblivion, philosophy, and a
- soul of many windows,’ say the great masters of thought and
- style, the stupendous creative imaginations.”
-
-Beverly came home in high good humour; his colt had showed his blood,
-and nearly pulled him out of the break-cart. Patience endeavoured to
-appear interested, and he was so pleased that the atmosphere during
-dinner was quite domestic. Afterward he went to sleep on a sofa by the
-library fire, and his wife read.
-
-A week passed more placidly than Patience had expected. Beverly was
-evidently under stress to make himself agreeable. His wife suspected
-that he had had a long and meaning conference with his father. In truth
-he was desperately afraid that she would leave him. Patience did not
-know whether she hated him most when he was amiable or violent; but she
-hated herself more than she hated him.
-
-“I think I’ll go to town and see Rosita,” she thought one morning as she
-awakened. “It seems to me that she is the fittest companion I could
-find.”
-
-At the breakfast-table she appeared in a tailor frock and turban, and
-informed Beverly that she was going to town to pay some visits. Beverly
-looked at her for a moment with black face, then dropped his eyes
-without comment. He recalled his father’s advice.
-
-“What train shall you come home in?” he asked after a moment. “I’ll go
-down to the station to meet you.”
-
-“I cannot say. I shall be back to dinner.”
-
-“Aren’t you going to kiss me good-bye?” he asked sullenly, when she was
-about to open the front door. She hesitated a moment, then raised her
-face, closing her eyes, lest he should see the impulse to strike him. He
-saw the hesitation and turned away with an oath, then ran after her,
-flung his arms about her and kissed her. She walked down to the station
-with burning face, rubbing her mouth and cheeks violently, careless of
-the wide-eyed regard of two gardeners.
-
-
- XVI
-
-When she arrived at Rosita’s the maid admitted her without protest, not
-recognising in this elegant young woman the countrified girl of two
-years before. She left Patience in the dark drawing-room, but returned
-in a moment and announced that Madame would see Mrs. Peele at once.
-Patience followed the woman through the boudoir and bedroom to the
-bath-room, a classic apartment of pink tiles. The tub was merely one
-corner of the room walled off with tiles; and in it, covered from throat
-to foot with a sheet, her head on a silken strap, lay Rosita. By her
-side sat a girl in a fashionable ulster and large hat, a note-book and
-pencil on her lap. Rosita looked like a dark-haired Aphrodite, and was
-as fresh as a rose. A maid had just dried one pink and white hand, and
-she held it out to Patience.
-
-“Patita! Patita! Patita!” she said with her sweet drawl and accent, and
-without a trace of resentment in her soft heavy eyes. “Where, where have
-you been all these years? Miss Merrien, this is my oldest and dearest
-friend, Mrs. Beverly Peele [she pronounced the name with visible pride].
-Patita, this is Miss Merrien of the ‘Day.’ She is interviewing me.”
-
-Patience flushed as she bent her head to the young woman, who regarded
-her with conspicuous amazement, and whose nostrils quivered a little, as
-if she scented a “story.” She was a pretty girl with a dark rather worn
-face, a frank eye, and a nervous manner.
-
-“Patita, sit down there just for a moment while I look at you. Then we
-will go into the other room. I could not wait to see you. _Dios de mi
-alma_, but you have changed, Patita _mia_. Who would ever have thought
-that you would be such a beauty and such a swell. Gray cloth and
-chinchilla! Just think, Miss Merrien, we used to wear sunbonnets and
-copper-toed boots, and drove an old blind horse that would not go off a
-walk.”
-
-“May I put that down?” asked the girl, eagerly.
-
-“Oh, please don’t,” exclaimed Patience. Miss Merrien’s face fell. Then
-she smiled, and said good-naturedly, “All right, I won’t.”
-
-“And now Patita is a swell,” pursued Rosita, as if no interruption had
-occurred, “and I am a famous _prima donna_. Such is life. Patita, do you
-know that I have two hundred thousand dollars invested?”
-
-“Really?”
-
-“_Si, señorita!_ Oh, my price has gone up, Patita _mia_,” and she
-laughed her low delicious laugh.
-
-Miss Merrien smiled. “A man shot himself for that laugh the other day—I
-suppose you read about it,” she said.
-
-“No, I did not. I have read the newspapers irregularly of late—the
-‘stories,’ at least.”
-
-“It is true,” said Rosita, complacently. “Oh, Patita, life is so lovely.
-To think that we both had such great destinies! _Pobre_ Manuela, and
-Panchita, and all the rest! _Bueno_, go into the bedroom, both of you,
-and I will be there in ten minutes.”
-
-Patience and Miss Merrien seated themselves in the white bower of velvet
-and lace.
-
-“Please do not put me into your story,” said Patience, hastily. “It
-would not do—you see my husband would not like it—but we are old
-friends, and I wanted to see her.”
-
-Miss Merrien nodded intelligently. With the suspicion of her craft she
-leaped to the conclusion that the fashionable young woman came to her
-disreputable friend for an occasional lark.
-
-“Oh, I promise you. If you hadn’t asked me I should though. It would
-make a fine story.”
-
-“Tell me,” said Patience abruptly, “do you like being a newspaper woman?
-Is it very hard work?”
-
-“Yes, it’s hard work,” Miss Merrien answered in some surprise; “but then
-it is the most fascinating, I do believe, in the whole world. I have a
-family and a home out West, and I could go back and be comfortable if I
-wanted to; but I wouldn’t give up this life, with all its grind and
-uncertainty, for that dead and alive existence. I only go out there once
-a year to rest. I came on here for an experiment, to see a little of the
-world. I had a dreadful time catching on; once I thought I’d starve, for
-I was bound I wouldn’t write home for money; but I hung on and got
-there. And I’m here to stay.”
-
-“Oh, is it really so pleasant? Sometimes I wish I were a newspaper
-woman.”
-
-“You? You? I never saw anybody that looked less like one.”
-
-“I am very strong. I am naturally pale, that is all.”
-
-“Oh, your skin is lovely: it’s that warm dead white. I wasn’t thinking
-of that. But you look like the princess that felt the pea under sixteen
-mattresses.”
-
-“One adapts one’s self easily to luxury. I have only had it two years. I
-do like it certainly. Nevertheless, I’d like to be a newspaper woman.
-You look tired; are you?”
-
-“Yes, I am, Mrs. Peele. It’s hard work, if it is fascinating; for
-instance, I’ve chased about this entire week for stories that haven’t
-panned out for a cent. I haven’t made ten dollars. I came up here as a
-last resource. La Rosita is always good-natured, and I hoped she’d have
-a story for me. But all I’ve got is a crank that’s following her about
-threatening to kill her if she doesn’t marry him, and that’s such a
-chestnut. If I could only fake something I know she’d let it go, but my
-imagination’s worn to a thread—”
-
-The portière was pushed aside, and Rosita entered. She wore a glistening
-night-robe of silk and lace and ribbon under a yellow plush bath gown.
-Her dense black hair fell to her knees. She slid into bed and ordered
-her maid to admit the manicure. An old woman, looking like a witch and
-clad in shabby black, came in and took a chair beside the bed. The maid
-brought a crystal bowl and warm water, and a golden manicure set, and
-Rosita held forth her incomparable arm with its little Spanish hand. She
-lay with indolent grace among the large pillows.
-
-“You certainly are a beauty,” exclaimed Miss Merrien, enthusiastically.
-
-Rosita smiled with much pleasure. “I love to hear a woman say that, and
-I shall make good copy for many years yet. I shall not fade like most
-Spanish women. Oh, I have learned many secrets.”
-
-“I wish you hadn’t told them to me, and then I should still have them to
-write about. They made a great story.”
-
-“_Dios! Dios!_” said Rosita, plaintively, “I wish we could think of
-something. I hate to send you away with nothing at all. I love to be
-written about. Patita, can’t you think of something?”
-
-“Now, Mrs. Peele,” said Miss Merrien, “let us see if you are a good
-fakir. That is one of the first essentials of being a successful
-newspaper woman.”
-
-“Oh, dear! Is it? If I could fake I’d make books. I’d like that even
-better. Rosita, did you ever tell the newspapers about that time I
-coached you for your first appearance on any stage, and the great hit
-you made?”
-
-“What is that?” asked Miss Merrien, sharply.
-
-“I never thought of it. Patita, you tell the story.”
-
-This Patience did, while Miss Merrien wrote rapidly in shorthand,
-pausing occasionally to exclaim with rapture.
-
-“Oh, my good angel sent me here this morning,” she said when Patience
-had finished. “I won’t mention your name, of course, but you won’t mind
-my saying that you are one of the Four Hundred.”
-
-“I don’t suppose there is any objection. I am such an obscure member of
-it that no one will suspect me. Only don’t give any details.”
-
-“Oh, I won’t, indeed I won’t.” She slipped her book into her muff and
-rose to go. “You don’t know how much obliged I am. I’ll do as much for
-you some day. If ever you want to be written up, let me know.”
-
-“I never should want to be in the newspapers.”
-
-“Oh, there’s no telling. You haven’t had a taste of it yet. Well,
-good-morning,” and she went out.
-
-Patience leaned back in her luxurious chair, and watched the old woman
-polish the pretty nails. Rosita babbled, and Patience watched her face
-closely. Its colouring was as fresh, its contours as perfect as ever,
-but there was a faint touch of hardness somewhere, and the eyes held
-more secrets than they had two years ago. They were the eyes of the
-wanton. For a moment Patience forgot her surroundings. Her mind flew
-back to the old days, to the rickety buggy with the two contented
-innocent little girls, then, by a natural deflection, to her tower and
-her dreams. She longed passionately for the old Mission, and wondered if
-Solomon were still alive. Then she thought of Bourke, and came back to
-the present with a shudder. The woman had gone.
-
-“What is the matter?” asked Rosita. “Is it true—what the men say—that
-you are not happy with your husband?”
-
-“I hate him,” said Patience.
-
-“Why don’t you get a divorce?”
-
-“I have no grounds.”
-
-“No grounds? Fancy a wife having no grounds!”
-
-“I have not the slightest doubt of his faith.”
-
-“Send him to me.”
-
-“Oh, Rosita! How can you be so coarse?”
-
-“No-o-o-o! You are my old friend. I would do anything for you. Think it
-over, Patita _mia_.”
-
-“I do not need to think it over. I would never do so vile a thing as
-that. Have you no refinement left?”
-
-“What earthly use would I have for refinement? Patita, you are such a
-baby, and you always had ideals and things. Have you got them yet?”
-
-“No,” said Patience, rising abruptly. “I haven’t. Good-bye.”
-
-“Good-bye, Patita dear,” said Rosita, with unruffled good humour, “and
-if ever you are in trouble come here and I will take you in. I would
-even lend you money, and if you knew me you would know how much I loved
-you to do that. There is not another person living I would give a five
-cent piece to.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-When Patience reached the sidewalk she filled her lungs with fresh air,
-then looked at her watch. It was only a half after twelve, and she
-decided to call on Mary Gallatin. She had never yet paid that charming
-young fashionette the promised morning call, although she had attended
-one or two of her afternoon receptions.
-
-She told the coachman to drive to the house in Fifty-seventh Street,
-then threw herself back on the seat and laughed, a long unpleasant
-laugh. She tapped first one foot and then the other, with increasing
-nervousness.
-
-“What fools we mortals be to cry for the unattainable,” she said,
-addressing the little mirror opposite. “Probably that young newspaper
-woman envies me bitterly. So, doubtless, do many others. Why on earth am
-I longing for what I’ll never find, instead of making the best of a bad
-bargain and the most of my position? I think I’ll find my way out of the
-difficulty with the average woman’s solution: I’ll take a lover.”
-
-The carriage stopped before a house with the breadth of stoop which in
-New York means plentiful wealth. She waited in the drawing-room while
-the cautious butler went up to see if his mistress would receive this
-stranger. He returned in a moment and conducted her up to a door at the
-front of the house. Patience entered a large room whose light was so
-subdued that for a moment she could see only vaguely outlined forms.
-
-“Oh, Mrs. Beverly, how dear of you,” cried a sweet voice, and Patience
-groped her way round the angle of a large bed and saw Mrs. Gallatin
-sitting against a mass of pillows. “I’m so glad you came this morning.
-I’m feeling so blue. I’ve twisted my foot, you know, and my friends are
-so kind to me. Mr. Rutger, give Mrs. Peele a chair. Mrs. Beverly, you
-know Mr. Rutger and Mr. Maitland and Mr. Owen, do you not? There is
-Leontine.”
-
-The three young men, who had risen as she entered, bowed and resumed
-their seats. Mrs. Lafarge threw her a kiss from the depths of a chair by
-the fire.
-
-Patience sat down and glanced about her while Mrs. Lafarge finished an
-anecdote she had been telling. Her eyes became accustomed to the light,
-and in a moment she saw things quite distinctly. The large room was
-furnished in Empire style, the walls and windows and the great mahogany
-and brass bedstead covered with crimson satin damask. There were only a
-few pieces of heavy furniture, in the room, but like the bed they were
-magnificent. Each brass carving told a different story.
-
-Mrs. Gallatin, smiling, exquisite, wore a cambric gown, less elaborate
-than Rosita’s but more dainty. Her shining hair was drawn modishly to
-the top of her head and confined with a pink porcelain comb, carved into
-semblance of wild roses. A pink silk shawl slipped from her shoulders.
-Another wild rose was at her throat. On her hands she wore rubies only.
-
-The story Mrs. Lafarge told was slightly naughty, and all laughed
-heartily at its conclusion. Patience had heard too many naughty stories
-in the last two years to be shocked; but when one of the young men began
-another he was promptly hissed down.
-
-“You are not going to tell that before Mrs. Beverly,” said Mary
-Gallatin. “She is quite too frightfully proper. But we’re awfully fond
-of her all the same,” and she patted Patience’s hand while her lovely
-young face contracted in a charming scowl. Patience wondered if she had
-a lover—Mr. Gallatin was a dapper little man—and if that was why she
-looked so happy. She glanced speculatively at the men, and wondered if
-she could fall in love with one of them. But they were very ordinary New
-York youths of fashion, high of shoulder, slow of speech, large of
-epiglottis, vacuous of expression. She shook her head unconsciously.
-
-“Why, what on earth are you thinking about?” cried Mrs. Gallatin, with
-her silvery laugh. “That wasn’t a shake of disapproval, was it?”
-
-“Oh, no, no!” said Patience, hastily. “Something occurred to me, and I
-forgot I was not alone. You see, I am so much alone that I’ve even
-gotten into the habit of thinking out loud.” She felt that she was a
-restraint—the suppressed young man had relapsed into moody
-silence—and, as soon as she reasonably could, rose to go. Mrs. Gallatin
-kissed her warmly and Mrs. Lafarge came forward and kissed her also; but
-Patience detected a faint note of relief in their voices, and went
-downstairs feeling more depressed than ever. “There seems to be no place
-for me,” she thought. “I must be out of tune with everything.”
-
-She went to her father-in-law’s house in Eleventh Street and found Mrs.
-Peele and Honora gowned for expected luncheon guests. The former
-apologised coldly for not being able to ask her to join them, but “there
-was only room in the dining-room for eight.” Honora rippled regret, and
-Patience felt that she should disgrace herself with tears if she did not
-get out of the house. She went directly to the station, intending to
-return home, but as the train approached Peele Manor she turned her back
-squarely on the old house and decided to go on to Mariaville and see
-Miss Beale. She remembered with satisfaction that she knew at least one
-wholesome thoroughly sincere woman, however misguided.
-
-When she reached the station she concluded to walk to the house. She
-felt nervous and excited. Her cheeks burned and her temples ached a
-little. She had taken no nourishment that day but a cup of coffee and a
-roll, and her head felt light. It was now two o’clock.
-
-When she had gone a little more than half way she lifted her eyes and
-saw Miss Beale coming toward her with beaming face, one hand ready to
-wave.
-
-“Why, Patience!” she cried, as they met. “I’m so glad to see you. I’m
-just going to kiss you if it is on the street. I can’t say I thought
-you’d forgotten me, for you’ve sent me money for my poor every time I
-begged for it; but I did think you’d never come to see me.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-Patience had no excuse to offer, so wisely attempted none, but returned
-Miss Beale’s embrace heartily. The older woman’s face was brilliant with
-pleasure.
-
-“Dear me, how pretty you have grown! What a colour! I’m so glad to see
-you looking so well. How happy dear Miss Tremont would be to see you
-now. She was always afraid you would be delicate. But we can’t wish her
-back, can we, Patience?”
-
-“There’s no use wishing anything undone. Where are you going?”
-
-“Where I am going to take you. Now, don’t ask any questions, but just
-come along.”
-
-Patience, hoping that the destination was a fair where she could get
-luncheon, followed submissively, and evaded Miss Beale’s personal
-inquiries as best she could.
-
-“How does the Temperance Cause get on?” she asked at length.
-
-“Oh, just the same! Just the same!” said Miss Beale, with a cheerful
-sigh. “One makes slow progress in this wicked world; all we can do is to
-trust in the Lord and do our humble best. Mariaville has three new
-saloons, and the father of one of my scholars beat him nearly to death
-the other day for coming to the Loyal Legion class; but we’ll win in the
-end.”
-
-“Meanwhile are you as much interested as ever?” asked Patience,
-curiously.
-
-“Oh, my!” Miss Beale gave an almost hilarious laugh. “Well, I should
-think so. How could I ever lose interest in the Lord’s work? Why, I
-never even get discouraged.”
-
-“It has occurred to me, sometimes—since I have been away and met all
-sorts of people—that if you really were Temperance you might have more
-chance of success.”
-
-“If we were what?”
-
-“Temperance in the actual meaning of the word. You’re not, you know;
-you’re teetotalists. That is the reason you antagonise so many thousands
-of men who might be glad to help you with their vote otherwise. The
-average gentleman—and there are thousands upon thousands of him—never
-gets drunk, and enjoys his wine at dinner and even his whiskey and
-water. He doesn’t see any reason why he shouldn’t have it, and there
-isn’t any. It adds to the pleasures of life. Those are the people that
-really represent Temperance, and naturally they have no sympathy with a
-movement that they consider narrow-minded and an unwarrantable
-intrusion.”
-
-Miss Beale shook her head vigorously. “It is a sin to touch it!” she
-exclaimed, “and sooner or later they will all be drunkards, every one of
-them. The blessing of God is not on alcohol, and it should be banished
-from the face of the earth.”
-
-Patience was in a perverse and almost ugly mood. “Tell me,” she said,
-“how do you reconcile your animosity to alcohol with the story of
-Christ’s turning the water into wine at the wedding feast?”
-
-“It wasn’t wine,” said Miss Beale, triumphantly; “it was grape juice.
-Wine takes days to ferment, so the water couldn’t possibly have become
-wine all in a minute.”
-
-Patience burst into laughter. “But, Miss Beale, it was a miracle anyhow,
-wasn’t it? If he could perform a miracle at all it would have been as
-easy to make wine out of water as grape juice.”
-
-Miss Beale shook her head emphatically and set her lips. “I _know_ that
-the Lord never would have offered wine to anybody; but grape juice is
-delightful, and he probably knew it, and they called it wine. That is
-all there is to it.”
-
-“Oh,” exclaimed Patience, forgetting the Temperance question, as Miss
-Beale turned into a path and walked toward the side entrance of the
-First Presbyterian Church, “are we going here?”
-
-“Yes, this is just where we are going. There is a special meeting of the
-Y’s and Christian Endeavourers of Mariaville and White Plains and two or
-three other places. Ah! I’ve caught you now, you naughty girl.”
-
-Patience turned away her face and frowned heavily. All her old dislike
-of religion, almost forgotten during the past two years, surged up above
-the impulsion of her fermenting spirit. She felt the old impatience, the
-old intolerance.
-
-“Do you want me to go in there?” she asked. “I came to see you.”
-
-“Oh, you’re not going to get out of it,” cried Miss Beale, gayly. “And I
-know you better than you know yourself. I know you always wanted to give
-yourself to the Lord, only you are too proud.”
-
-Patience stared at her, wondering if she had so far forgotten herself as
-to indulge in a little joke at the expense of her idols; but Miss Beale
-was looking at her with kind, earnest eyes. Patience laughed, and
-shrugged her shoulders.
-
-“Well, I’ll go in to please you; but I hope it won’t be too long, for
-I’m horribly hungry.”
-
-“Dear, dear! Why didn’t you come a little earlier? But it won’t be more
-than two hours, and then I’ll have a hot luncheon prepared for you.”
-
-She led Patience through the large church parlour and straight up to a
-table, lifting a chair as she passed the front row of seats.
-
-“I don’t want to sit here,” whispered Patience, hurriedly; but Miss
-Beale pushed her into the chair, and seated herself beside her, at the
-back of the table.
-
-“I am going to preside, and you are the guest of honour,” she said.
-“Young ladies,” she continued, smiling at the rows of bright and serious
-faces, “I am sure you will all be glad to see Patience again. I know she
-is glad to see you.”
-
-Patience arose and bowed awkwardly, then sat down and tapped the floor
-with her foot. The young women looked surprised and pleased. One and all
-smiled encouragingly, sure that she had been converted at last. Many of
-the faces were bright with youth and even mischief; others were careworn
-and aging. Not one of them but looked happy.
-
-Patience under her calm exterior began to seethe and mutter once more.
-Once she almost laughed aloud as she thought of the effect upon these
-simple-minded girls if the hell within her were suddenly made manifest.
-
-The meeting opened at once. Miss Beale offered a prayer, in which she
-implored that they all might love the Lord the more. Hymns were sung,
-the Bible read, and reports by the various secretaries and treasurers.
-Then one serious and not unintelligent-looking woman of thirty read a
-platitudinous paper beginning: “Some one has said, ‘The time will come
-when it will be the proudest boast of every man and woman to say “I am
-an American.”’ I say that the time will come when it will be the
-proudest boast of every man and woman to say, ‘I am a Christian.’”
-
-All regarded the reader with eyes of affection and approval. Each word
-Patience, in her abnormal state of mind, took as a personal insult to
-Intellect. She felt furiously resentful that in this Nineteenth Century
-with its educational facilities, its libraries full of the achievements
-of great masters of thought, there should be so low a standard of
-intellectuality in the middle classes. Even the fashionable women,
-frivolous as they were, were brighter, and keener to pierce outworn
-traditions. They might not be thinkers, but they had a species of
-lightning in their brain which rent superstition and gave them
-flashlight glimpses of life in its true proportions.
-
-The girls began to give experiences. One had just joined the Y’s, and
-she related with tears the story of her struggle between the World and
-the Church, and her thankfulness that at last she had been permitted to
-decide in favour of the Lord. Patience remembered her as the vapid
-daughter of rather wealthy parents who in her own day had been devoted
-to society and young men. She was very faded. Many of the girls wept in
-sympathy, and Miss Beale mopped her eyes several times.
-
-An extremely pretty girl stood up, a girl with black hair and pale blue
-eyes and rich pink colour. Patience regarded her satirically, thinking
-what a beauty she would be if properly gowned. Miss Beale, noting her
-interest, patted her hand and smiled.
-
-“I just want to say,” began the girl, with deep earnestness, “that every
-day of my life I have greater confidence that the Lord loves me and
-hears what I ask Him. You know that I write the reports of the Y. W. C.
-T. U., and of course I have to get them printed for nothing. So when I
-sit down to write them I just ask the Lord to tell me what to say and
-how to say it, and all the way to the office I keep asking Him to tell
-me what to say to the editor so that he will print it and help our great
-cause along. And, girls, he prints it every time, and only yesterday he
-said to me: ‘I like your stuff because it’s direct and to the point, no
-gush, no rhetoric—it’s plain horse sense.’ Now, girls, you need not
-think I say that to compliment myself. I just say it to prove that the
-Lord writes those newspaper articles, not I.”
-
-Patience put her handkerchief to her face and shook convulsively. She
-bit her lips to keep from laughing aloud; she wanted to scream.
-
-Suddenly she became conscious of a deep murmur. Supposing it to be of
-disapproval, she straightened her mouth and dropped her handkerchief;
-but her face was scarlet, her eyes full of tears. The girls were leaning
-forward, regarding her earnestly. Miss Beale leaned over and placed her
-arm about her.
-
-“Speak,” she said softly. “Don’t be afraid.”
-
-“What on earth are you thinking about?” gasped Patience.
-
-“Tell us what is in your heart,” said Miss Beale, in a tremulous voice.
-
-And, “Tell us! Tell us!” came from the girls.
-
-“You don’t know what you are saying,” said Patience, freeing herself
-angrily. “Let me go.” She was trembling with excitement. Her head felt
-very light. The blood was pounding in her ears. She started to her feet,
-meaning to rush to the door; but Miss Beale was too quick for her. She
-caught her firmly by the waist and led her to the middle of the space at
-the head of the room.
-
-“I know she will speak,” said Miss Beale. “Patience, we all feel our
-awful responsibility. If you speak out now, you will be saved. If your
-timidity overcomes you, you may go hence and never hear His knock
-again.”
-
-“Speak! Speak!” came with solemn emphasis from the Y’s.
-
-“Oh, well, I’ll speak,” cried Patience. “And suppose you hear me out. It
-will be only polite, since you have forced me to speak. You have always
-misunderstood me. I am by no means indifferent to the God you worship. I
-have the most exalted respect and admiration for this tremendous
-creative force behind the Universe, a respect so great that I should
-never presume to address him as you do in your funny little egoism. Do
-you realise that this magnificent Being of whose essence you have not
-the most approximate idea, is the Creator, not only of this but of
-countless other worlds and systems, and furthermore of the psychic and
-physical laws that govern them and of the extraordinary mystery of which
-we are a part, and which has its most subtle expression in the Space
-surrounding us? And yet you, atoms, pigmies, tiny individual
-manifestations of a great correlative force called human nature, you
-presume to address this stupendous Being, and stand up and kneel down
-and talk to It, to imagine that It listens to your insignificant
-wants,—that It writes newspaper articles! Is it Christianity that has
-destroyed the sense of humour in its disciples?
-
-“In each of you is a shaft from the great dominating Force—that is
-quite true, and it is for you to develop that force—character—and rely
-upon it, not upon a spiritual lover, as weak women do upon some
-unfortunate man. What good does all this religious sentimentality do
-you? Your brains are rotting. You have nothing to talk about to
-intelligent men. No wonder the men of small towns get away as soon as
-they can, and seek the intelligent women of lower strata. Men are
-naturally brighter than women, and girls of your sort deliberately make
-yourselves as limited and colourless as you can. Go, make yourselves
-companions for men, if you would make the world better, if you must
-improve the human race. Study the subjects that interest them, that fill
-their life; study politics and the great questions of the day, that you
-may lead them to the higher ethical plane on which nature has placed
-you. Quit this erotic sentimentalising over an abstract being to whom
-you must be the profoundest joke of his civilisation—”
-
-“Hush!” shrieked Miss Beale. For some moments Patience had been obliged
-to raise her voice above the angry mutterings of her audience. One or
-two were sobbing hysterically. Miss Beale’s cry was the signal for the
-explosion of pent-up excitement.
-
-“Go! Go!” cried the girls. “Go out of this church! Blasphemer! Shame!
-Shame!”
-
-Patience looked out undaunted upon the sea of flushed angry faces, which
-a few moments before had been all peace and love. She shrugged her
-shoulders, bowed to Miss Beale, who was staring at her with horrified
-eyes in a livid face, and walked toward the door. The girls pressed her
-forward, lest she should speak again.
-
-“We have a right as churchwomen to hate you,” cried one, “for we are
-told to hate the devil, and you are he incarnate.”
-
-Patience refused to accelerate her steps, but reached the door in a
-moment. As she was about to pass out a joyous face was uplifted to hers.
-It belonged to a girl still sitting. Her lap was piled with loose sheets
-of paper. There was an excited smirch of lead on her cheek. Even as she
-raised her head and spoke she continued writing. “That was a corker,”
-she whispered, “the biggest story I’ve had in weeks.” It was Miss
-Merrien.
-
-
- XVII
-
-Patience was an early riser, and had usually read the “Day” through
-before Beverly lounged downstairs, sleepy and cross and masculine. On
-the morning after her day of varied experience she took the newspaper
-into the library and read the first page leisurely, as was her habit.
-The news of the world still interested her profoundly. Then she read the
-editorials, and, later, glanced idly at the headlines of the “stories.”
-The following arrested her startled eye:
-
- AN EARTHQUAKE IN MARIAVILLE!
- THE GOOD PEOPLE ARE OUTRAGED!
- A SENSATION BY THE BEAUTIFUL AND BRILLIANT
- MRS. BEVERLY PEELE!
-
-The story covered two thirds of a column. Patience read it three times
-in succession without stopping to comment. It was graphically told, much
-exaggerated, and as carefully climaxed as dramatic fiction. And it was
-interesting reading. Patience decided that if it had not been about
-herself she should have given it more than passing attention. Her beauty
-and grace and elegance, her grand air, were described with enthusiasm.
-Every possible point of contrast was made to the serious and
-unfashionable Y’s.
-
-At first Patience was horrified. She wondered what Mr. and Mrs. Peele
-would say. Beverly’s comments were not within the limitations of doubt.
-
-“I’m in for it,” she thought. Then she smiled. She felt the same thrill
-she had experienced when the men looked askance at her after her assault
-upon her mother. The Ego ever lifts its head at the first caress, and
-quickly becomes as insatiable as a child for sweets. Patience glanced at
-the article to note how many times her name—in small capitals—sprang
-forth to meet her eyes. She imagined Bourke reading it, and Mrs.
-Gallatin, and Mrs. Lafarge, and many others, and wondered if strangers
-would find it interesting; then, suddenly, she threw back her head and
-laughed aloud.
-
-“What fools we mortals be!” she thought. “And the President of the
-United States has dozens of paragraphs written about him every day. And
-actors and writers are paragraphed _ad nauseam_. If a woman is run over
-in the street she has a column, and if she goes to a hotel and commits
-suicide, she has two, and is a raving beauty. Rosita is persecuted for
-stories. The Ego ought to have its ears boxed every morning, as some
-old-fashioned people switch their children. Well, here comes Beverly.”
-
-Her husband entered, and for the first time in many months she sprang to
-her feet and gave him a little peck on his cheek. He was so surprised
-that he forgot to pick up the newspaper, and followed her at once into
-the dining-room. During the meal she talked of his horses and his farm,
-and even offered to take a drive with him. He was going to White Plains
-to look at some blooded stock which was to be sold at auction, and
-promptly invited her to accompany him; but her diplomacy had its limits,
-and she declined. However, he went from the table in high good humour.
-When she left him in the library, a few moments later, he was arranging
-the scattered sheets of the “Day,” without his accustomed comments upon
-“the infernal manner in which a woman always left a newspaper.”
-
-Patience went up to her room and wrote a note of apology to Miss Beale.
-She was half way through a long letter to Hal when she heard Beverly
-bounding up the stair three steps at a time.
-
-“The cyclone struck Peele Manor at 10.25,” she said, looking at the
-clock. “Sections of the fair—”
-
-Beverly burst in without ceremony.
-
-“What the hell does this mean?” he cried, brandishing the newspaper. His
-dilating nostrils were livid. The rest of his face was almost black.
-
-“Beverly, you will certainly have apoplexy or burst a blood vessel,”
-said his wife, solicitously. “Think of those that love you and preserve
-yourself—”
-
-“Those that love me be damned! The idea of my wife—_my wife_—being the
-heroine of a vulgar newspaper story! Her name out in a headline! Mrs.
-Beverly Peele! My God!”
-
-“God was the cause of the whole trouble,” said Patience, flippantly. “I
-thought the young women were entirely too intimate with him. The
-spectacle conjured of The Almighty with his sleeves rolled up grinding
-out copy at five dollars per column was too much for me. I have the most
-profound admiration and respect for the Deity, and felt called upon to
-defend him—the others seemed so unconscious of insult—”
-
-“This is no subject for a joke,” cried Beverly, who had sworn steadily
-through these remarks. “I don’t care a hang if you had a reason or not
-for making a public speech—Christ!—it’s enough that you made it, that
-your name’s in the paper—my wife’s name! What will my father and mother
-say?”
-
-“They will not swear. A few of the Peeles are decently well bred.”
-
-“No one ever gave them cause to swear before. You’ve turned this family
-upside down since you came into it. You’ve been the ruin of my life. I
-wish to God I’d never seen you.”
-
-“I sincerely wish you hadn’t. What had you intended to make of your life
-that I have interfered with?”
-
-“If I’d married a woman who loved me I’d have been a better man.”
-
-“I wonder how many weak men have said that since the world began! You
-were twenty-six when I married you, and I cannot see that there has been
-any change in kind since, although there certainly is in degree. If you
-had married the ordinary little domestic woman, you would have been
-happier, but you would not have been better, for you possess neither
-soul nor intelligence. But I am perfectly willing to give you a chance
-for happiness. Give me my freedom, and look about you for a doll—”
-
-“Do you mean to say that you want a divorce?”
-
-“I think you know just how much I do.”
-
-“Well, you won’t get it—by God! Do you understand that? You’ve no
-cause, and you’ll not get any.”
-
-“There should be a law made for women who—who—well, like myself.”
-
-Her husband was incapable of understanding her. “Well, you just remember
-that,” he said. “You don’t get a divorce, and you keep out of the
-newspapers, or you’ll be sorry,” and he slammed the door and strode
-away.
-
-A quarter of an hour after Patience heard the wheels of his cart. At the
-same time the train stopped below the slope. A few moments later she saw
-Miss Merrien come up the walk. The maid brought up the visitor’s card,
-and with it a note from Mr. Field.
-
- DEAR MRS. BEVERLY [it read],—Forgive me—but you are a woman of
- destiny, or I haven’t studied people sixty years for nothing. I
- chose to be the first—the scent of the old war-horse for news,
- you know. Peele will be furious, but I can’t bother about a
- trifle like that. Just give this young woman an interview, and
- oblige your old friend
-
- J. E. F.
-
-Patience started to go downstairs, then turned to the mirror and
-regarded herself attentively. She looked very pretty, remarkably so, as
-she always did when the pink was in her cheeks; but her morning gown was
-plain and not particularly becoming. She changed it, after some
-deliberation, for a house-robe of pearl grey silk with a front of pale
-pink chiffon hanging straight from a collar of cut steel. The maid had
-brought her some pink roses from the greenhouse; she fastened one in the
-coil of her soft pale hair. Then she smiled at her reflection, shook out
-her train, and rustled softly down the stair.
-
-Miss Merrien exclaimed with feminine enthusiasm as she entered the
-library.
-
-“Oh, you are the loveliest woman to write about,” she said. “I do a lot
-of society work; and I am so tired of describing the conventional
-beauty. And that gown! I’m going to describe every bit of it. Did it
-come from Paris?”
-
-“Yes,” said Patience, amused at her immediate success. “My mother-in-law
-brought it to me last summer—but perhaps you had better not mention
-Mrs. Peele in your story.”
-
-“Well, I won’t, of course, if you don’t want me to. I have written the
-story about La Rosita for the Sunday ‘Day,’ and I did not hint at your
-identity. It made a good story, but not as good as the one about you.
-Mr. Field wrote me a note this morning, complimenting me, and told me to
-come up here and interview you. I hope you don’t mind very much.”
-
-“I haven’t the faintest idea whether I do or not. How do you do it?”
-
-“Well, you see, I’ll just ask you questions and you answer them, and
-I’ll put it all down in shorthand, and then when I go to the office I’ll
-thresh it into shape. You can be sure that I won’t say anything that
-isn’t pleasant, for I really never admired any one half so much.”
-
-“Very well, you interview me, and then I’ll interview you. I have some
-questions to ask also.”
-
-“I’ll tell you anything you like. This story, by the way, is to be in
-the Sunday issue on the Woman’s Page. Now we’ll begin. Were you always
-an unbeliever? Tell me exactly what are your religious opinions.”
-
-“Oh, dear me! You are not going to write a serious analysis of me?”
-
-“Yes, but I’ll give it the light touch so that it won’t bore anybody. It
-is to be called ‘A Society Woman Who Thinks,’ and will be read with
-interest all over America.”
-
-“But I am not a society woman.”
-
-“Well, you’re a swell, and that’s the same thing, for this purpose
-anyhow. The Gardiner Peeles are out of sight, and I have heard lots of
-times how beautifully you entertain in summer and how charmingly you
-gown yourself. Tell me first—what do you think of this everlasting
-woman question? I hate the very echo of the thing, but we’ll have to
-touch on it.”
-
-“Oh, I haven’t given much thought to it, except as a phase of current
-history. One thing is positive, I think: we must adjust our individual
-lives without reference to any of the problems of the moment,—Womanism,
-Socialism, the Ethical Question, the Marriage Question, and all the
-others that are everlasting raging. He that would be happy must deal
-with the great primal facts of life—and these facts will endure until
-human nature is no more. Moreover, however much she may reason, nothing
-can eradicate the strongest instinct in woman—that she can find
-happiness only through some man.”
-
-“Good,” said Miss Merrien. “I’d have thought the same thing if I’d ever
-had time. Now tell me if you have any religion at all.”
-
-“I suppose I should be called an anarchist. Don’t be alarmed: I mean the
-philosophical or spiritual anarchist, not these poor maniarchists that
-are merely an objectionable variety of lunatics. The religious situation
-is this, I think: Jesus Christ does not satisfy the intellectual needs
-of the Nineteenth Century. And yet, indisputably, the religionists are
-happier than the multiplying scores that could no more continue in the
-old delusion than they could worship idols or torture the flesh.
-Civilisation needs a new prophet, and he must be an anarchist,—one who
-will teach the government of self by self, the government of man’s
-nature by will, which in its turn is subservient to the far seeing
-brain. Human nature is anarchic in its essence. The child never was born
-that was brought to bend to authority without effort. We are still
-children, or we should not need laws and governments.”
-
-“Wait till I get that down.”
-
-“Of course these are only individual opinions. I don’t claim any value
-for them, and should never have thought of airing them if you hadn’t
-asked me. For my part I’m glad I live in this imperfect chaotic age.
-When we can all do exactly as we please and won’t even remember how to
-want to do anything wrong—Awful!”
-
-“But you said the advanced thinkers needed this new religion to make
-them happy.”
-
-“Their happiness will consist in the tremendous effort to reach the
-difficult goal. That will take centuries, just as the spiritualised
-socialism of Jesus Christ has taken twenty centuries, and only
-imperfectly possessed one third of the globe. When anarchy is a cold
-hard fact—well, I suspect the anarchists will suddenly discover that
-_ennui_ is in their vitals, and will gently yawn each other to death.
-Then the tadpoles will begin over again; or perhaps there will then be
-mental and moral developments that we in our present limitations cannot
-conceive. Haven’t you had enough?”
-
-“No, no. I’ve a dozen questions more.”
-
-Miss Merrien, like all good newspaper reporters, was an amateur lawyer
-and a harmless hypnotist. In an hour she had extracted Patience’s views
-of society, books, dress, public questions, and the actors in the great
-national theatre, the Capitol at Washington.
-
-“Oh, this is magnificent,” she announced, when the pages had been
-folded. “Now can I look at the house?”
-
-“We will have luncheon first. No, don’t protest. I am delighted. Mr.
-Peele is away for the day, otherwise I fear you would not have had this
-interview.”
-
-“Oh, you don’t believe in the submission of wives, then?”
-
-“I’ve never thought much about it,” said Patience, indifferently. “There
-is too much fuss made about it all. When a man commands his wife to do a
-thing she does not care to do, and when a woman does what she knows will
-displease her husband, it is time for them to separate.”
-
-“Oh, that is too simple. It wouldn’t do to reduce the woman question to
-a rule of three. What would all the reformers do? And the poor polemical
-novelists! Oh, these are the famous portraits, I suppose?”
-
-“You can look at them if the luncheon is bad,” said Patience, as they
-took their seats at table. “I’m not a very good housekeeper, although I
-actually did take some lessons of Miss Mairs. And sometimes I forget to
-order luncheon. I did to-day.”
-
-But the luncheon proved to be a very good one, and Miss Merrien did it
-justice, while Patience explained the portraits. Afterward she showed
-her guest over the lower part of the house. Then they went back to the
-library, and Patience had her interview.
-
-“Tell me exactly how does a woman begin on a newspaper?” she asked.
-
-“Oh, different ones have different experiences,” said Miss Merrien,
-vaguely. “Sometimes you have letters, and are put on as a fashion or
-society reporter, or to get interviews with famous women, or to go and
-ask prominent people their opinion on a certain subject—for a
-symposium, you know; like ‘What Would You do if You Knew that the World
-was to End in Three Days?’ or, ‘Is Society Society?’ I have written
-dozens of symposiums. Sometimes you do free-lance work, just pick up
-what you can and trust to luck to catch on. But of course you must have
-the nose for news. I was at a matinée one day and sat in front of two
-society women. Between the acts they talked about a prominent woman of
-their set who was getting a divorce from her husband so quietly that no
-newspaper had suspected it. They also joked about the fact that her
-lawyer was an old lover. I knew this was a tip, and a big one. I wrote
-all the names on my cuff, and before the matinée was over I was down at
-the ‘Day’ and had turned in my tip to the City editor. He sent a
-reporter to the lawyer to bluff him into admitting the truth. The next
-day we had a big story, and after that the editor gave me work
-regularly.”
-
-“How much do you make a week?”
-
-“Sometimes forty, sometimes not twenty; but I average pretty well and
-get along. Still, when you have to lay by for sickness and vacations,
-and put about one half on your back it doesn’t amount to much. You see,
-a newspaper woman must dress well, must make a big bluff. If she doesn’t
-look successful she won’t be, to say nothing of the fact that she
-couldn’t get inside a smart house if she looked shabby. And then she’s
-got to eat good nourishing food, or she never could stand the work. Of
-course there’s got to be economy somewhere, so I live in a hall bedroom
-and make my own coffee in the morning. Still, I don’t complain, for I do
-like the work. If I had to go back home I’d ruin the happiness of the
-entire family.”
-
-“What do you look forward to?—I mean what ultimate? You don’t want to
-be a reporter always, I suppose. Everybody is striving for some top
-notch.”
-
-“Oh, maybe I’ll become Sunday editor, or I might fall in with somebody
-that wanted to start a woman’s newspaper, or magazine—you never can
-tell. There aren’t many good berths for women. Of course there are a
-good many very bright newspaper women, and it’s a toss up who goes to
-the top.”
-
-“You don’t seem to take matrimony into consideration.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t deny I get so tired sometimes that I’d be only too glad to
-have a man take care of me. I guess we all look forward to that, more or
-less. I think I’d always work, but not so hard. It would make all the
-difference in the world if you knew some one else was paying the bills.
-And then, you see, we go to pieces in eight or ten years. A man is good
-for hard newspaper work until he’s forty, but we women are made to be
-taken care of, and that’s a fact. We take turns having nervous
-prostration. I haven’t had it yet, but I’m looking cheerfully forward to
-it.”
-
-“Now I want to tell you,” said Patience, “that I am going to be a
-newspaper woman.”
-
-“Oh, nonsense, Mrs. Peele! Excuse me, but you belong here. Your rôle is
-that of the châtelaine in exquisite French gowns and an air half of
-languor, half of pride. You were not made for work.”
-
-“That is very pretty, but I suspect you don’t want to lose me for copy.”
-
-“Well, I don’t deny it. I wish you’d keep the ball rolling, and give me
-a story a month.”
-
-“I’m afraid I’ve given you my last. In a week or two I shall be a
-châtelaine in a pink and grey gown no longer, but a humble applicant for
-work in Mr. Field’s office.”
-
-“Is it possible that you mean it?”
-
-“Do I look as if I were joking?”
-
-“You don’t look unhappy—Pardon me—but—but—does he beat you?”
-
-“Oh, no,” said Patience, laughing outright, “he doesn’t beat me. I have
-better grounds for desertion than that. Do you think you would do me a
-favour? I shall have to slip away. He would never let me go with a
-trunk. I am going to ask you to let me send you a box of things every
-few days. That will excite no comment among the servants, as we are
-always sending clothes to the poor. May I?”
-
-“Of course you may. I’ll do everything I can to help you. But—I can’t
-imagine you out of this environment. Don’t you hate to give it up,—all
-this luxury, this ease, this atmosphere?”
-
-“Yes, I like it all. I’m a sybarite, fast enough. But I’ve weighed it
-all in the balance, and Peele Manor stays up. I have a hundred dollars
-or so, and that will last me for a time. I’ll give it to you to take
-care of for me. I never was wealthy, but I have no idea of economy. I
-don’t think I should like a hall room though. Are the others so very
-expensive?”
-
-“They are if you have a good address, and that’s very important. And you
-want to be in a house with a handsome parlour.”
-
-“I have no friends,—none that will come to see me.”
-
-“Oh, you’ll make friends. You’re an awfully sweet woman. I can’t bear to
-think—Well, there’s no use saying any more about it. I expect you’re
-the sort that knows your own mind. I should like to keep on seeing you a
-great lady, but if you can’t be a happy one I suppose you are right.
-Well, I’ll stand by you through thick and thin, and I’ll show you the
-ropes. Now I must get back to the office and work up my story. Here’s my
-address. There’s a spare room on the floor above mine. If you’re in dead
-earnest I’d better take it right away; then I can unpack your things and
-hang them up. But—but—do you really mean it?”
-
-“Of course I do.”
-
-“You know Mr. Field personally, don’t you?”
-
-“Very well, indeed; and he told me when I was sixteen that he should
-make a newspaper woman of me.”
-
-“Oh, well, then, you’ll have a lot of push, and your road won’t be as
-hard as some—not by a long shot. About six out of every ten newspaper
-women either go to the wall or to the bad. It is a mixture of knack and
-pluck as much as brains that carries the favoured minority through. You
-have brains and pluck, and you’ll have push, so you ought to get there.
-About the knack of course I can’t tell. Good-bye.”
-
-
- XVIII
-
-The evening mail brought from Mrs. Peele to her son a note which he read
-with a rumbling accompaniment, then tossed to Patience.
-
- “Do you intend to permit your wife to disgrace your family?” it
- read. “If I had my way that abominable paper, the ‘Day,’ should
- never enter this house—nor any other paper that dealt in
- personalities. I literally writhe every time I see my name—your
- father’s honoured name—in the society columns. You may, then,
- perhaps, imagine my feelings when your father handed me the
- ‘Day’ this morning with his finger on that outrageous column. He
- was speechless with wrath, and will personally call Mr. Field to
- account. I am in bed with a violent headache, in consequence,
- and dictating this letter to Honora. But although I deeply feel
- for you, my beloved son, I must _insist_ that you assert your
- authority with your wrong-headed wife and command her to refrain
- from disgracing this family. I don’t wish to reproach you, but I
- cannot help saying that it is _always_ a dangerous experiment to
- marry beneath one. This girl is not one of us, she never can be;
- for, not to mention that we know nothing whatever of her family,
- she comes from that dreadful savage _new_ Western country. In
- spite of the fact that she has been clever enough to
- superficially adapt herself to our ways, I always knew that she
- would break out somewhere—I always said so to Honora. But I
- don’t wish to add to your own sorrow. I know how you, with all
- your proud Peele reserve, must feel. Only, my son, use your
- authority in the future.”
-
-Patience finished this letter with a disagreeable lowering of the brows.
-She made no comment, however, but opened a book and refused to converse
-with her husband.
-
-On Sunday morning she found three columns on the Woman’s Page of the
-“Day” devoted to her beauty, her intellect, her gowns, and her opinions.
-It was embellished with a photograph of Peele Manor and a sketch of
-herself, which Miss Merrien had evidently made from memory. When Beverly
-came down she handed the newspaper to him at once, to read the story
-with the raw temper of early morning. She hoped that Mrs. Peele would
-read it in similar conditions.
-
-After he had gone through the headlines he let the newspaper fall to the
-floor, and stared at her with a face so livid that for a moment she felt
-as if looking upon the risen dead. Then gradually it blackened, only the
-nostrils remaining white.
-
-“So you deliberately defy me?” he articulated.
-
-“Yes,” she said, watching him narrowly. She thought that he might strike
-her.
-
-“You did it on purpose to drive me crazy?”
-
-“I had no object whatever, except that it pleased me to be interviewed.
-Understand at once that I shall do exactly as I please in all things.
-This is not the country for petty household tyrants. I don’t doubt there
-are many men in this world whom I should be glad to treat with deference
-and respect if I happened to be married to one of them; but with men
-like you there is only one course to take. I have asked you to let me
-live abroad. If you consent to this, it may save you a great deal of
-trouble in the future; for, I repeat, I shall in all things do exactly
-as I choose.”
-
-“We’ll see whether you will or not,” he roared. “You’ll do as I say, or
-I’ll lock you up.”
-
-“Oh, you will not lock me up. You are way behind your times, Beverly.
-There is no law in the United States to compel me to obey you.”
-
-“I’ll stop your allowance. You’ll never get another cent from me.”
-
-“That has nothing whatever to do with it. Now, I ask you for the last
-time, Will you let me travel?”
-
-“No!” he shouted, and he rushed from the room.
-
-
-
-
- BOOK IV
-
-
- I
-
-Miss Merrien lived in West Forty-fourth Street, near Broadway. Ten days
-after her visit to Peele Manor Patience rang the door-bell of the house
-that was to be her new home, one of a long impersonal row.
-
-The maid that answered her ring handed her a note from Miss Merrien, and
-conducted her up to a hall room on the third floor. Patience closed the
-door, and looked about her with the sensation of the shipwrecked. For a
-moment she was strongly tempted to flee back to Peele Manor. The room
-was about eight feet square, and furnished with a folding-bed, which was
-likewise a bureau, and with a washstand, a table, and two chairs. The
-furniture and carpet were new, and there were pretty blue and white
-curtains on the window. Nevertheless the tiny room with its modern
-contrivances was the symbol of poverty and struggle and an entirely new
-existence. Her second impulse was to sit down on a chair and cry; but
-she set her teeth, and read Miss Merrien’s note instead.
-
- I am so sorry not to be able to meet you [it read]; but I am a
- slave, you know. Before I was out of bed this morning I received
- an assignment to go to a woman’s club meeting at eleven. But
- I’ll get back in time to go down to the shop with you. Don’t get
- blue—if you can help it. Remember that every woman feels the
- same way when she first makes the break for self-support; and
- that your chances are better than those of most. There’s a
- little restaurant round the corner—the maid will show
- you—where you can get your luncheon. _Au revoir._ I’m so glad
- the sun is out.
-
- ANNA CHETWYNDE MERRIEN.
-
- P. S. Your clothes are in the closet in the hall. The key is in
- the washstand drawer.
-
-Patience felt in better cheer after reading Miss Merrien’s kindly
-greeting, but the day dragged along very heavily. She went out and
-bought all the newspapers, and studied them attentively for hints; but
-they did not tell her inexperience anything, and after a time she let
-them fall to the floor and sat staring at the blank windows opposite.
-For the first time doubts assailed her. She had been so full of young
-confidence, and pride in her brains and health and courage, that she had
-not regarded the issue of her struggle with the world in the light of a
-problem; but face to face with the practical details, she felt short of
-breath and weak in the knees.
-
-At two o’clock Miss Merrien came in, looking very tired. There were
-black scoops under her eyes, and the lines about her mouth were strongly
-accentuated. But she smiled brightly as Patience rose to greet her.
-
-“Well, you are here,” she said. “I changed my mind fifty times about
-your coming, but on the whole I thought you would. Fortunately I have
-nothing on hand for this afternoon. I’ll rest, and then go down with you
-to the shop. Oh, I am so tired, my dear. Can I lie down on your bed
-awhile?”
-
-“I shall be delighted to learn how to open it,” said Patience, who was
-wondering if her fair face was to become scooped and lined.
-
-Miss Merrien deftly manipulated the bed, loosened her frock, and flung
-herself full length.
-
-“I spent all day yesterday and half the night tramping over Brooklyn
-hunting up facts in the case of that girl who was found dead in a
-tenement-house bed in a grand ball gown. A great story that, but it has
-done me up. Tell me—how do you feel?”
-
-“Oh, I’m glad I’m here, but I wish it was six months from now.”
-
-“Of course you do. That’s the way we all feel. But you’ll soon swing
-into place, and be too busy to think. I do wish you could get work in
-the office, so that you could keep regular hours and meals, and not lose
-your good looks; but there’s no berth of that sort. I tell you it is a
-sad day when a girl under twenty-five sees the lines coming. The
-Revolting Sisterhood say that the next century is to be ours; but I
-doubt it. Men lighten our burdens a little now, but I’m afraid they’ll
-hate us if we worry and supplant them any further. Well, I’m going to
-take a nap. Wake me promptly at 3.10.”
-
-She closed her eyes and fell asleep immediately. The lines grew fainter
-as she slept, and the hair fell softly about her face. Patience
-reflected gratefully that three months of absolute leisure and peace of
-mind would give back to the girl all her freshness and rounded contours.
-At ten minutes past three she awakened her. Miss Merrien sat up with a
-sigh.
-
-“I feel better, though. Cultivate those cat-naps. They refresh you
-wonderfully. Now, we’ll go.”
-
-
- II
-
-They went down town on the Elevated, leaving it at Park Row. Patience
-was so much interested in the great irregular mass of buildings
-surrounding City Hall Square, at the dense throngs packing the crooked
-side streets, at the fakirs with their nonsensical wares, at the
-bewildering array of gilt newspaper names on the rows and stories of
-polished windows, that she forgot her errand for the moment, and was
-nearly run over.
-
-“Yes, this is the heart of New York, sure enough,” assented Miss
-Merrien. “All those big buildings over there are on the famous Newspaper
-Row. Brooklyn Bridge is just behind. This is the Post Office on the
-right, and that flat building in the square is the City Hall. I tell you
-when you get down here, the rest of New York, including all the smart
-folk, seems pretty insignificant.”
-
-“Oh,” exclaimed Patience, with a sudden sinking of the heart, “there is
-the ‘Day’ building.”
-
-“That is our shop. Now, brace up.”
-
-Patience needed the admonition. She forgot City Hall Park. All her
-doubts returned, with others in their wake. She knew something of the
-snobbery of the world. As Mrs. Beverly Peele she had been an object of
-respectful interest to Mr. Field. What would she be as an applicant for
-work? True, he had been kind to her when she was a small nobody, but
-that might have been merely a caprice.
-
-They climbed up two narrow stairs in an ugly old building, and entered a
-large gas-lit room full of desks. Many young men were writing or moving
-about; several were in their shirt sleeves.
-
-“This is the City room,” said Miss Merrien, “and these are the
-reporters. Those men in that little room there are the editors and
-editorial writers. Mr. Field’s room is just beyond. Now send your card
-in by this boy. The Chief’s harder to see than the President of the
-United States, but I guess he’ll see you.”
-
-Patience gave the boy her card, and at the end of half an hour, during
-which she was much stared at by some of the men and totally ignored by
-others, the boy returned and conducted her to Mr. Field’s office.
-
-It was a typical editor’s den of the old-fashioned type. A big desk
-covered with papers, a revolving chair, and one other chair completed
-the furniture. A large cat was walking about, switching its tail. The
-floor was bare. The light straggled down between the tall buildings
-surrounding, and entered through small windows. It was Mr. Field’s pride
-to have the greatest newspaper and the most unpretentious “shop” in the
-United States.
-
-He rose as Patience entered, his eyes twinkling.
-
-“Well,” he said, as he handed her the extra chair, “there’s a mighty row
-on, isn’t there? Peele has been here, and now we do not speak as we pass
-by. But we hadn’t had a good woman sensation for a month. I tried to
-explain that to Peele, but it didn’t seem to impress him. I suppose
-you’ve come to beg for mercy.”
-
-“No—I haven’t come for that.”
-
-“Why, what is the matter? I never saw you look the least bit rattled
-before. You are always the young queen with a court of us old fellows at
-your feet. But tell me; you know there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you.”
-
-Patience drew a long breath of relief.
-
-“Oh, you make it easier—I’ve been horribly frightened. But I’ll get to
-the point—I suppose you’re very busy down here. Can I have ten
-minutes?”
-
-He laughed. “We are usually what you might call busy in this office, but
-you may have twenty minutes. Take your time.”
-
-“Well, it’s this: I’ve left Peele Manor for good and all, and I want to
-be a newspaper woman.”
-
-Mr. Field’s shaggy white brows rushed up his forehead. His black eyes
-expanded.
-
-“My God! What did you make such a break as that for?”
-
-“There are many reasons. I can’t give them all. But all the same I’ve
-left, and I’m not going back.”
-
-“Well, your reasons must be good, for you had a delightful position, and
-you became it. Are you sure you are not acting rashly?”
-
-“I’ve thought and thought and thought about it. I can’t understand why I
-didn’t leave before. I suppose my ideas and intentions didn’t
-crystallise until I met Miss Merrien. She has been very kind. I sent my
-clothes to her by degrees; she engaged a room for me in her house; we
-are going to cook together; and I have given her what money I have to
-take care of.”
-
-“Well, well, you have acted deliberately. I don’t know that I am so much
-surprised, after all, and I’ll say nothing to persuade you to go back. I
-respect your courage and independence, and I’ll do all I can. I haven’t
-the slightest idea what you can do, but we’ll find out.” He leaned
-forward and patted her hand. Patience had one moment of painful
-misgiving, but again she had misjudged him. “If you get discouraged,
-just remember that the old man at the helm is your friend and won’t let
-you go under.”
-
-“I’m sure you’re awfully good,” said Patience, tears of contrition and
-gratitude in her eyes. “I knew you would.”
-
-Mr. Field touched a bell. A boy entered.
-
-“If Mr. Steele is still in the office ask him to step here,” said the
-chief.
-
-“Steele is the editor of the Evening ‘Day,’” he explained, “and has a
-remarkable faculty for discovering other people’s abilities.”
-
-Patience expected to see a man of middle years and business-like
-demeanour. She stared in amazement as a young man under thirty entered
-and was presented. He was closely built, but held himself carelessly.
-His smooth rather square face was very pale, and despite the
-irregularity of feature, bore an odd resemblance to the Greek fauns. The
-mouth was large and full, the eyes large, dark blue, and very cold. His
-fashionable attire accentuated the antiquity of his face and head.
-
-“Mr. Steele,” said Mr. Field, “this is Mrs. Beverly Peele, of whom you
-have heard so much lately. She has made up her mind to support herself.
-When she was a little girl I told her that I should one day make a
-newspaper woman of her, and she has come to hold me to my word—much to
-my satisfaction. I put her in your hands, and feel confident you will
-make a success of her.”
-
-Patience expected to see a look of blank surprise cross the young
-editor’s face, but she did not know the modern newspaper youth. Mr.
-Steele could not have displayed less emotion had the new-comer been a
-young woman with letters from Posy County, Illinois. He merely bowed to
-her, then to his chief. Patience rose at once.
-
-“I won’t keep you,” she said to Mr. Field. “I’ll only thank you again,
-and promise to work as hard as Miss Merrien.”
-
-“I haven’t the slightest doubt of your success. Always remember that,”
-said Mr. Field. Patience saw Mr. Steele’s eyebrow give a slight
-involuntary jerk; but it was immediately controlled, and he bowed her
-through the door.
-
-“We had better go upstairs to the evening room,” he said. “There is no
-one there at present.”
-
-Patience followed him up a precipitous stairway into a walled-off
-section of the composing-room.
-
-“Sit down,” he said politely, but Patience for the first time in her
-life felt terrified and humble. This young man, of whom she had never
-heard before, had the air of a superior being, omnipotent in her
-destiny. His manner conveyed that he was not one whit impressed by the
-fact that she had stepped down from the Sacred Reservation, took not the
-faintest interest in her as a pretty woman. She was merely a young
-person particularly recommended by his chief, and as such it was his
-duty to give her consideration.
-
-He took a chair opposite her own, and she felt as if those classic
-guileless eyes were exploring her innermost brain.
-
-“What can you do?” he asked coldly.
-
-“Oh, nothing,” she said desperately, “absolutely nothing. I suppose you
-feel like remarking that the ‘Day’ is not a kindergarten.”
-
-“Well, it certainly is not. Nevertheless, as Mr. Field thinks that you
-have ability, and wishes you to write for his paper, I, of course, shall
-do all I can to abet him. I shall begin by giving you a few words of
-advice. Have you a good memory; or should you prefer to write them
-down?”
-
-He spoke very slowly, as if he had a deep respect for the value of
-words.
-
-“I have read a great deal,” said Patience, proudly, “and my memory is
-very good indeed.”
-
-There was a faint twitching of one corner of Mr. Steele’s mouth, but he
-continued in the same business-like tone:—
-
-“Read the ‘Day’ through carefully, morning and evening. Observe the
-style in which facts are presented, and the general tone and atmosphere
-of the paper. Cultivate that general style, not your own. Remember that
-you are not on this newspaper to make an individual reputation, but to
-become, if possible, a unit of a harmonious whole, and to give the
-public the best news in the style to which this newspaper has accustomed
-it. When you are sent on an assignment remember that you are to gather
-facts—facts. Keep your eyes open, and cultivate the faculty of
-observation for all it is worth. When you have gathered these facts put
-them into as picturesque a shape as you choose—or as you can. But no
-rhetoric, no rhapsodies, no flights, no theories. If the facts admit of
-being treated humorously, treat them in that way, by all means,—that
-is, if you can imitate a man’s humour, not a woman’s flippancy. A good
-many women can. And never forget that it must not be your humour but the
-inherent humour of the subject. Be concise. When you feel disposed to
-say a thing in ten words say it in five. That is all I can think of at
-present. Be here at eight o’clock to-morrow, and I will give you an
-assignment.”
-
-He rose, and Patience felt herself dismissed. She sat for a minute
-looking at him with angry eyes. Not even in the early days of her
-married life had she been so patronised as by this unknown young man.
-She felt as if he had plucked her individuality out with his thumb and
-finger and contemptuously tossed it aside.
-
-“Is anything the matter?” he asked indifferently, although one corner of
-his mouth twitched again.
-
-“No!” Patience sprang to her feet and ran down the stair, at the
-imminent risk of breaking her neck. Miss Merrien was waiting for her.
-
-“Why, what on earth is the matter?” she exclaimed.
-
-“Oh, let us get out into the air! Come, and then I’ll tell you.”
-
-But they were not able to converse until seated in the Elevated Train.
-Then Patience exclaimed with an accent of cutting sarcasm,—
-
-“Who, _who_ is Mr. Steele?”
-
-Miss Merrien smiled broadly. “Oh, I see. Did he patronise you? You must
-get used to editors. Remember they are monarchs in a small way, and love
-their power—the more because their dominion is confined within four
-walls. But Morgan Steele is one of the kindest men in the office. I’d
-rather work for him than for any one. He puts on an extra amount of side
-on account of his youth, but the reporters all adore him. He won’t keep
-an incompetent man two days, and during those two days the man’s life is
-a burden; but he is always doing good turns to the boys he likes. When
-you know him you’ll like him.”
-
-“I think him an insolent young cub, and if I didn’t hate to bother Mr.
-Field I’d refuses to write for him. What on earth is a youngster like
-that in such a responsible position for?”
-
-“Oh, my dear, this is the young man’s epoch. Just cast your eyes over
-the United States and even England, and think of the men under thirty
-that are editors and authors and special writers and famous artists and
-leaders of enterprises. They are burnt out at forty, but they begin to
-play a brilliant part in their early twenties. I heard a man say the
-other day of another man who is only twenty-six and supposed to be
-ambitious: ‘Well, he’d better hump himself. He’s no chicken.’ A man
-feels a failure nowadays if he hasn’t distinguished himself before
-thirty.”
-
-“They are certainly distinguished for conceit.”
-
-“Oh, when you get used to newspaper men you’ll like them better than any
-men you’ve known. What is objectionable is counteracted by their brains
-and their intimate and wonderfully varied knowledge of life. A newspaper
-man who is at the same time a gentleman, is charming. It is true they
-have no respect for anybody nor anything. They believe in no woman’s
-virtue and no man’s honesty—under stress. Their kindness—like Morgan
-Steele’s—is half cynical, and they look upon life as a thing to be
-lived out in twenty years—and then dry rot or suicide. But no men know
-so well how to enjoy life, know so thoroughly its resources, or have all
-their senses so keenly developed, particularly the sense of humour,
-which keeps them from making fools of themselves. No man can feel so
-strongly for a day, and that after all is the philosophy of life. All
-this makes them very interesting, although, I must confess, I should
-hate to marry one. It seems to be a point of honour among them to be
-unfaithful to their wives; however, I imagine, the real reason is that
-no one woman has sufficient variety in her to satisfy a man who sees
-life from so many points of view daily that he becomes a creature of
-seven heads and seven hearts and seven ideals. Now, tell me all about
-your interviews with Mr. Field and Morgan Steele.”
-
-Patience told the tale, and Miss Merrien raised her eyebrows at its
-conclusion. “Well, you need not lie awake nights trembling for the
-future. You are in for push and no mistake. If the Chief has taken you
-under his wing in that fashion you can be sure that Morgan Steele will
-work you for all that is in you, whether he wants to or not.” Suddenly
-she laughed, and leaning over looked quizzically at Patience. “You vain
-girl,” she said, “you are piqued because Morgan Steele did not succumb
-as other men—including Mr. Field—have done to your beauty and charm.
-But I’ll tell you this, by way of consolation: it is a point of
-etiquette—or prudence—among editors never to pay the most commonplace
-attentions to, or manifest the slightest interest in the women of the
-office. It would not only lead to endless complications, but would
-impair the lordlings’ dignity: in other words, they would be guyed. So
-cheer up. You haven’t gone off since this morning. I see three men
-staring at you in true Elevated style.”
-
-Patience laughed. “Well, I will admit that I have no respect whatever
-for a man that is unappreciative of the charms of woman. I’d like to
-give Mr. Steele a lesson, but I won’t. I wouldn’t condescend. I’ll be as
-business-like as he is. He knew why I was angry to-day, I am afraid, but
-he won’t see me angry again. Why is Mr. Field so much nicer?”
-
-“Oh, he owns the paper.”
-
-
- III
-
-Patience’s indignation had worn itself out by bedtime. When Miss Merrien
-left her for the night she locked her door and spread her arms out with
-an exultant sense of freedom. She seemed to feel the ugly weight of the
-past two years fall from her, and to hear it go clattering down the
-quiet streets. Her sense of humour and the liveliness of her mind had
-saved her from morbidity at any time, although she had not escaped
-cynicism. She now felt that she could turn her back squarely on the
-past, that she was not a woman whose mistakes and dark experiences would
-corrode the brain and spirit, ruining present and future. She could not
-make the same mistake again; and it was better to have made it in early
-youth when the etchery of experience eats the copper of the ego more
-lightly. The future seemed to her to be full of infinite possibilities.
-She could be her own fastidious dreaming idealising self again. New
-friends dotted the dusk like stars. She felt ten years away from the man
-to whom she had nodded a careless good-bye that morning. A vague
-pleasurable loneliness assailed her, the instinct of plurality. Then she
-laughed suddenly and went to bed.
-
-The next morning, at eight o’clock, after a cup of black coffee to
-stiffen her nerves, she presented herself in the evening room of the
-“Day.” Two men and a woman were writing at little tables. Mr. Steele in
-his shirt sleeves was at his desk, reading copy. She sat down, priding
-herself that her face was as impassive as his own. In a few moments he
-called her to his desk.
-
-“You have read in the newspapers, I suppose, of this crusade of Dr.
-Broadhead, the fashionable Presbyterian clergyman, against the voting of
-Immigrants?” he asked.
-
-“Of course.”
-
-“Well, he is doing his best to get the women of New York to help him,
-and is holding his first meeting this morning in Cooper
-Union—eleven-thirty. One of our best men will go to report the
-addresses, but I want you to go and sit in the audience, and observe how
-many fashionable women are there, what they wear, and what degree of
-interest they appear to take in the proceedings. Above all, I want you
-to keep your eyes and ears open for any significant fact which may or
-may not appear. It usually does. That is all.—Well, what do you want?”
-This to the office boy.
-
-Patience went slowly downstairs, feeling as if she had been sent out to
-discover the North Pole with a chart and a row-boat. When she reached
-Cooper Union, two hours later, and found herself for the moment an
-integer of one of the many phases of current history, she forgot the
-agonising travail of the “news sense,” and became so deeply interested
-that she observed the many familiar faces abstractedly, and, later,
-“faked” their costumes.
-
-She hurried to her room before the meeting was over and wrote her
-“story.” It concluded thus:—
-
- “Some four hundred women were present, at half-past eleven in
- the morning; the hour indicating that they were women of
- leisure, which in its turn presupposes the large measure of
- education and refinement, and a general superiority over the
- toiling millions. They were very enthusiastic. When Dr.
- Broadhead entered the applause was deafening. They interrupted
- him every few minutes. When he sat down, and Mr. Lionel Chambers
- came forward he, too, was warmly welcomed, for his popularity is
- well established. He smiled, and began something like this:—
-
- “‘Ladies: Dr. Broadhead has left me little to say. I being
- somewhat versed in politics, however, in other words, in hard
- fighting with the enemy, he believes that I may be able to give
- you a little useful advice.’ (Applause and cries of ‘Yes! Yes!’)
- ‘Now, ladies, there are several points upon which I must ask
- your attention.’ (No man ever had more serious attention.) ‘I
- will check them off in detail. First of all, ladies, my advice
- to you is to—’ (every ear went forward)—‘is—to—pray.’
-
- “He paused. There was an intense and disgusted silence, with the
- exception of one or two muttered exclamations of impatience.
- _There were just four hundred women in the city of New York who
- were beyond that sort of thing._ He saw his mistake at once,
- blundered on confusedly, recovered himself, and gave them much
- sound, practical advice which they received with every mark of
- gratitude.”
-
-She hastened down to the office, her eyes shining with the proud delight
-of authorship. Steele looked busier than any one she had ever seen, but
-he asked sharply:
-
-“Got anything?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Let me see it. Skip the descriptive part.”
-
-She handed him the latter part of her story, and he ran his eye hastily
-over it. A gleam shot from his eyes, but he compressed his lips.
-
-“That’s not bad—but I don’t know that I dare print it. The religious
-hypocrisy of this country beats that of England, strange as it may
-appear. However, I’ll think it over. Come down to-morrow morning.”
-
-The article was printed, and the result was a shower of protesting
-letters from clergymen and religious women. Patience was sent to
-interview a number of representative women, of various spheres of life,
-on the subject, and found herself fairly launched. She hardly had time
-to realise whether she liked the work or not, but when she was not too
-tired, concluded that she did. As this phase wore off, she developed
-considerable enthusiasm, and felt her bump of curiosity enlarge.
-
-She practically forgot the past, except to wonder occasionally that she
-heard nothing from the Peeles. Upon her arrival in New York, on the
-morning of her departure from Peele Manor, she had mailed a note to
-Beverly, which merely announced that she had left him, never to return.
-He was the sort of a man to put the matter in the hands of a detective,
-but so far—and the weeks were growing into a month—he had given no
-sign of any kind. She cared little for the cause of his silence,
-however; she was too thankful for the fact. Occasionally Steele gave her
-a brief word of praise, and she was more delighted than she had ever
-been at the admiration of man.
-
-
- IV
-
-Patience sprang out of bed, full of the mere joy of living. She felt as
-happy as a wild creature of the woods, and for no reason whatever. She
-longed for Rosita’s voice that she might carol, and wondered if it were
-possible that she had ever thought herself the most miserable of women.
-The small room would not hold her, and she went out and took a long walk
-in the sharp white air; it was Sunday, and she was not obliged to go to
-the office.
-
-When she returned, the servant told her that a gentleman awaited her in
-the parlour. She turned cold, but went defiantly in. The visitor was Mr.
-Field, and the revulsion of feeling was so great, and her exuberance of
-spirits so undiminished, that she ran forward, threw her arms about his
-neck, and kissed him.
-
-“I am so happy I must kiss some one,” she said, “and after all you are
-the right person, for it is owing to you that I am happy.”
-
-“Well! well!” he said laughing, “I am delighted; and also relieved that
-you did not take it into your head to do that down at the office. I’ve
-just dropped in to ask after your health and to say good-bye. How do you
-stand it?”
-
-“Oh, I am well. I never felt so well. I get tired, but I sleep it off. I
-made twenty-five dollars last week, and I celebrated the occasion by
-coming home in a cab. Oh, I can tell you I feel all made over, and Peele
-Manor seems prehistoric.”
-
-“You always did live at a galloping rate mentally. You are doing first
-rate—not but what you’ll do better a year from now. There’s pulse in
-your stuff. Keep your enthusiasm as long as you can. Nothing takes its
-place. Here’s something for you.”
-
-A messenger boy had entered with a note.
-
-“For me?”
-
-“For Mrs. Beverly Peele.”
-
-“Oh, dear!” she exclaimed, “it has come. This is from Mr. Peele. Do let
-me read it—I can’t wait.”
-
-She tore the envelope open and read hastily:—
-
- DEAR PATIENCE,—On the night of the day of your departure from
- Peele Manor, my son came up to us in a distracted condition. He
- had also contracted the grippe. The combination of disorders
- produced delirium and serious illness. For that reason and
- others we have not endeavoured to communicate with you. In fact,
- I only ascertained yesterday that you were working for Mr.
- Field, who I consider has further betrayed my friendship in
- associating himself with you in your insubordination.
-
- Of course you are at liberty to act as you choose. The laws of
- this country are wretchedly inadequate regarding the authority
- of the husband. But one thing I insist upon: that you call upon
- us and make a definite statement of what you purpose to do. If
- you have repented and wish to return to us, we will overlook
- this wretched mistake. If you intend definitely to leave your
- husband and to follow the disgraceful life of a reporter on a
- sensational newspaper, you owe it to us to come here in person
- and define your position. The family with which you have allied
- yourself, my dear young woman, is not one to be dismissed with a
- note of three lines.
-
- I particularly request that you call at three o’clock this
- afternoon.
-
- Yours truly
- GARDINER PEELE.
-
-Patience handed the note to Mr. Field, who read it with much interest.
-
-“Go by all means,” he said; “otherwise they will annoy you with petty
-persecutions, and Beverly will haunt the ‘Day.’ Keep up all your pluck,
-and remember that this is a free country, and that they can compel you
-to do nothing you do not wish to do. You are mistress of the situation,
-and can call upon me for proof that you are supporting yourself
-adequately.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t want to go. I never want to look at one of them again. I’d
-just managed to forget them all.”
-
-“But you must go. It would look cowardly if you didn’t; and, when you
-come to think of it, you certainly do owe them some sort of explanation.
-Poor Peele! he must have actually suffered at being treated in such
-cavalier fashion.”
-
-“Oh, well, I’ll go! I’ll go! But I wish I’d never seen them.”
-
-“You don’t look at all pretty with that face, and I shall run. By the
-way, I came to tell you that I start for Paris to-morrow to join my
-wife, who has been on the other side for some months. Otherwise she
-would have called before this. Steele will take care of you.”
-
-
- V
-
-When Patience went up to her room she slammed the door, closed the
-window violently, then sat down and beat a tattoo on the floor with her
-heels. Her spirits were still high, but cyclonic. She would willingly
-have smashed things, and felt no disposition to sing.
-
-Nevertheless she rang the bell of the house in Eleventh Street at three
-o’clock. The butler bowed solemnly, and announced that the family
-awaited her in the library. Patience, piqued that they were assured of
-her coming, was half inclined to turn back, then shrugged her shoulders,
-walked down the hall, and through the dining-room to the library in the
-annex.
-
-The afternoon sun irradiated the cheerful room, but Beverly, with sunken
-eyes and pallid face, sat huddled by the fire. He sprang to his feet as
-Patience entered, then turned away with a scowl and sank back in his
-chair. His mother sat opposite. She merely bent her head to Patience,
-then turned her solicitous eyes to her son’s face. Honora came forward
-and kissed her sweetly. Mr. Peele did not shake hands with her, but
-offered her a chair by the long table. Patience took it, and experienced
-a desire to laugh immoderately. They had the air of a Court of Inquiry,
-and appeared to regard her as a delinquent at the bar.
-
-Mr. Peele sat in his revolving chair, tipped a little back. He had
-crossed his legs and leaned his elbows on the arms of the chair,
-pressing his finger tips lightly together.
-
-“Now,” he said coldly, “we are ready to hear you.”
-
-“I have nothing in particular to say. I gave you fair warning, and you
-refused to listen, or to let me go abroad and so avoid publicity. I
-therefore took the matter in my own hands and went.”
-
-“You ignore your duty to your husband; your marriage vows?”
-
-“There is only one law for a woman to acknowledge, and that is her self
-respect.”
-
-“The husband that loves you is entitled to no consideration?”
-
-“Not when he exercises none himself. I refuse to admit that any human
-being has the right to control me unless I voluntarily submit myself to
-that control.”
-
-“Are you aware that you are uttering the principles of anarchy?”
-
-“Well, the true anarchists of this world are not the bomb throwers. When
-a man and woman are properly married there is no question of authority
-or disobedience; but a woman is a common harlot who lives with a man
-that makes her curse the whole scheme of creation.”
-
-Honora lifted a screen and hid her face. Beverly muttered inaudible
-remarks. Mrs. Peele lifted her eyebrows and curled her mouth. Mr. Peele
-moved his head slowly back and forth.
-
-“I shall not attempt to contradict any of your remarkable theories,” he
-said. “It is apparent that you are imbued with all the pernicious
-thought of the time. I am thankful that it is not my destiny to live
-among the next generation of women. Will you kindly tell me how you
-should have acted in this matter if you had had children?”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know! I have thought of that. No woman should have a child
-until she has been married three years. By that time she would know
-whether or not she had made a mistake.”
-
-“And what shall you do if you are unable to support yourself?”
-
-“Starve. No one has a right to live that the world has no use for, that
-can give the world nothing. Man’s chief end is not bread and butter. If
-I can give the world anything it will be glad to give me a living in
-return. If I am a failure I’ll walk out of existence as quietly as I
-altered my life. But I haven’t the slightest doubt of my ability to take
-care of myself.”
-
-Mr. Peele pressed his lips together. The old man and the young woman
-regarded each other steadily, the one with malevolence in his eye, the
-other with defiance in hers. In that moment Mr. Peele hated her, and she
-knew it. She had made him feel old and a component part of the decaying
-order of things, while she represented the insolent confidence of youth
-in the future.
-
-“Women make too much fuss,” continued Patience. “If they don’t like
-their life why don’t they alter it quietly, without taking it to the
-lecture platform or the polemical novel? If they don’t like the way man
-governs why don’t they educate their sons differently? They can do
-anything with the plastic mind. I am sure it could be proved that most
-corrupt politicians and bad husbands had weak or careless mothers. If
-the men of a country are bad you can be sure the women are worse—”
-
-Beverly sprang to his feet, overturning his chair. “Damn it!” he cried.
-“You can talk all you like, but you are mine and I’ll have you.”
-
-Patience turned and fixed her angry eyes on his face. “Oh, no, you will
-not. Your father will tell you that I am quite free.”
-
-Mr. Peele gave a short dry laugh. “She has the best of it,” he said.
-“You cannot compel her to return to you, and she has the air of one who
-has tasted of the independence of making money—”
-
-“Then I’ll dog her steps. I’ll make life hell for her—”
-
-“You will do nothing of the sort, sir. Much as I disapprove of this
-young woman’s course, she has in me an unwilling abettor. I shall not
-have my domestic affairs made food for the newspapers and their hordes
-of vulgar readers. Field would take up her cause and hound me to my
-grave. You will keep quiet, and in the course of time get a divorce of
-which no one will be the wiser until you marry again. If the gossip does
-not get into the papers it will not rise above a murmur. If you add to
-my annoyance I shall turn you out of Peele Manor and cut you off without
-a cent. You will not pretend that you can support yourself.”
-
-Patience rose. “If you have nothing more to ask I shall go,” she said.
-“Beverly can bring his suit as soon as he chooses. It will go by
-default.”
-
-Beverly flung off his mother’s restraining arm and rushed forward. “You
-shall not go!” he cried.
-
-“Don’t touch me!” cried Patience; but before she could reach the door
-Beverly had caught her in his arms. Excitement gave him strength. He
-held her with hard muscles and kissed her many times.
-
-The ugly temper she had kept under control broke loose. She lifted her
-hand and struck him violently on the mouth. Her face too was convulsed,
-but with another passion. She felt as if the past month had been
-annihilated.
-
-“Will you let me go?” she gasped. “Oh, how I hate you!” Then as he
-kissed her again, “I could kill you! I could kill you!” She flung
-herself free, and shaking with passion faced the scandalised family.
-
-“You had better keep him out of the way,” she said. “Do you know that
-once I nearly killed my own mother?”
-
-
- VI
-
-Patience slept little that night. Her head ached violently. When she
-presented herself at the office Steele sent her to report a morning
-lecture. It was dull, and she fell asleep. When she returned to the
-office Steele happened to be alone.
-
-“I have no report,” she said. “I fell asleep. That is all I have to
-say.”
-
-For a few seconds he stared at her, then turned on his heel. In a moment
-he came back. “The next time you do that,” he said, “hunt up the
-reporter of some other newspaper and get points from him. First-class
-reporters always stand in together. Here’s a good story badly written
-that has come up from Honduras. Take it home and revamp it, and let me
-have it to-morrow.”
-
-“You are awfully good. I thought you would tell me to go, and I
-certainly deserve to.”
-
-“You certainly do, but we won’t discuss the matter further.”
-
-That was an unhappy week for Patience, and she lost faith in her star. A
-great foreign actress, whom she was sent to interview, haughtily refused
-to be seen, and the next morning capriciously sent for a reporter of the
-“Eye,” the hated rival of the “Day.” She was put on the trail of a
-fashionable scandal and failed to gather any facts. She was sent to
-interview a strange old woman, supposed to have a history, who lived on
-a canal boat, and became so interested in the creature that she forgot
-all about the “Day,” and did not appear at Mr. Steele’s desk for three
-days. When she did he looked sternly at her guilty face, although the
-corners of his mouth twitched.
-
-“I’m delighted to see you have not forsaken us,” he said sarcastically.
-“May I ask if the canal boat woman quite slipped your memory?”
-
-“N-o-o. I have been there ever since.”
-
-“Indeed?” His ears visibly twitched. “That alters the case. Did you get
-the story out of her?”
-
-Patience looked at him steadily for a moment, then dropped her eyes.
-
-“There is nothing to tell,” she answered.
-
-Steele sprang to his feet.
-
-“Come out here,” he said. He led her into a corner of the
-composing-room, and they sat down on a bench.
-
-“Now tell me,” he said peremptorily. “What have you heard? You have news
-in your eye. I see it.”
-
-“I have nothing to tell.”
-
-“Suppose you tell the truth. You have the story, and you won’t give it
-up. Why not?”
-
-“Well—you see—she confided in me—she said I was the only woman who
-had given her a decent word in twenty years; and if I told the story she
-would be in jail to-morrow night. Do you think I’d be so low as to tell
-it?”
-
-“Sentimentality, my dear young woman, is fatal to a newspaper reporter.
-Suppose the entire staff should go silly; where would the ‘Day’ be?”
-
-“It might possibly be a good deal more admirable than it is now.”
-
-“We won’t go into a discussion of theory _v._ practice. I want that
-story.”
-
-“You won’t get it.”
-
-“Indeed.” He looked at her with cold angry eyes. “The trouble is that
-you have not been made to feel what the discipline of a newspaper office
-is—”
-
-Patience leaned forward and smiled up audaciously into his face. “You
-would do exactly the same thing yourself,” she said; “so don’t scold any
-more. I admit that you frighten me half to death, but all the same I
-know that you would never send a poor old woman to prison—not to be
-made editor-in-chief.”
-
-He reddened, and looked anything but pleased at the compliment. “Do you
-know that you have just said that I am a jay newspaper man?” he asked.
-
-But Patience only continued to smile, and in a moment he smiled back at
-her, then, with an impatient exclamation, left her and returned to his
-desk.
-
-
- VII
-
-Two months later Steele asked her to come to the office at six o’clock,
-an hour at which the evening room was empty, and suggested that she
-should give up reporting, and start a column of paragraphs.
-
-“I should like it better, of course,” said Patience, after he had fully
-explained the requirements of the new department. “I was going to tell
-you that I _would not_ go to that Morgue again.”
-
-“Oh, you wouldn’t? Well, you stood it rather longer than I thought you
-would.”
-
-“And I’m tired of interviewing insolent conceited people. Oh, by the
-way, I should thank you for all these nice things you’ve just said to
-me.”
-
-He dropped his business-like manner suddenly. “How do you stand it?” he
-asked. Then in reply to her look of surprise: “Oh, you know, the Chief,
-when he went away, told me to look out for you.”
-
-Patience immediately became the charming woman accustomed to the homage
-of man. Steele’s pre-eminence was gone from that moment.
-
-“I am remarkably well, thank you, considering how you have bullied
-me—and I can tell you that I did not fancy at all being ordered about
-by such an infant.”
-
-“Oh! Thanks! But when a man’s too polite he doesn’t get anything done
-for him—not in this business. And is it a crime to be an editor before
-you are thirty?”
-
-“Oh, you have reason to be proud of yourself.”
-
-“You mean that I have the big head. Well, that is the disease of the
-age, you know. It would never do for a newspaper man to get a reputation
-for eccentricity. You’ll have it yourself inside of six months if these
-paragraphs are a success.”
-
-“Never! I scorn to be so unoriginal.”
-
-“Well, we’ll encourage your sentiments, and keep you as the office
-curio; but I didn’t really bully you, did I?”
-
-“Oh, I’ll admit that you were kinder than I deserved, once in a while:
-when I fell asleep at the lecture, for instance.”
-
-He laughed heartily. “That was the richest joke. There was absolutely
-nothing to say to you. If you only stood at the end of a long
-perspective of this business and could fully appreciate the humour of
-that situation! An experienced reporter, if he couldn’t have lied out of
-it, or borrowed news, would never have shown up. You looked like a
-naughty child expecting to have its ears boxed.”
-
-“Oh, yes, Miss Merrien guyed me for a whole week; I know all about that
-now. And now that you’ve come down off your pedestal I’ll thank you for
-all your patience and good training. If I’ve learned to write I owe it
-to your blue pencil; and I don’t need to be told by Miss Merrien that
-you’ve saved me from a great deal of hard work.”
-
-He smiled charmingly. There were times when he looked like an old man
-with the mask of youth; to-day he looked a mere boy. “Oh, any one would
-do as much for you, even if the Chief hadn’t given orders. You are an
-unusual woman, you know. You proved that—but, of course, I have no
-right to speak to you of that.” He stood up suddenly and held out his
-hand. “Well, be good to yourself,” he said. “If you feel yourself
-breaking, take a rest.”
-
-“I wonder,” she thought, as she went downstairs, “if that young man
-knows he betrayed the fact that he has been thinking a good deal about
-me? He certainly is an interesting youth, and I should like to know him
-better.”
-
-Patience did not find her paragraphs as easy as she expected. It was one
-thing to work on a given idea, and another to supply idea and execution
-both; but after a time her sharpened brain grew more magnetic and life
-fuller of ideas than of lay figures. The men in the office frequently
-gave her tips, and one clever young reporter, who worshipped her from
-afar, fell into the daily habit of presenting her with a slip of
-suggestions.
-
-Her choicest paragraphs were usually edited by Steele’s ruthless hand,
-and now and again she was moved to wrath. Upon such occasions Mr. Steele
-merely smiled, and she was forced to smile in return or retire with the
-sulks.
-
-
- VIII
-
-Patience was writing busily in her little bedroom. The March winds were
-howling down the street. Her door opened, and a very elegant young woman
-entered.
-
-“Hal!” cried Patience.
-
-“You dear bad girl!”
-
-They kissed a half dozen times, then sat down and looked at each other.
-Hal had quite the young married woman air, and held herself with a mien
-of conscious importance, entirely removed from conceit: she was _grande
-dame_, and the late object of attentions from smart folks abroad.
-
-“Well, how are you?” asked Patience. “Oh, but I am glad to see you. Tell
-me all about yourself. When did you get back?”
-
-“Day before yesterday. I’ve returned with thirty-two trunks, the
-loveliest jewels you ever saw, and quite a slave of a husband. I must
-say I never thought Latimer would keep up such a prolonged bluff, but he
-fills the rôle as if he’d been husbanding all his life. Oh, no. Don’t
-look at me like that. I’ve forgotten it, and I’ve no regrets. _Mon
-Dieu!_ To think that I might be in Boston on four hundred a month! I
-shall be a leader, my dear. You can do as much with a hundred and fifty
-thousand a year as you can with a million, for you can only spend just
-so much money anyhow. All that the big millionaires get out of their
-wealth is notoriety. Nobody’d remember about them if it wasn’t for the
-newspapers. But you bad bad girl! What have you been and gone and done?
-Why didn’t you wait for me? I would have rescued you.”
-
-“Oh, you couldn’t, Hal dear. I didn’t want to be rescued for a day or a
-month. I’ve run away for good and all.”
-
-“But, Patience, what an alternative! Do you mean to say you live in this
-cubby-hole?”
-
-“I’m mighty happy in this cubby-hole, I can tell you; happier than I
-ever was at Peele Manor.”
-
-“That certainly was the mistake of my life. However, you’ve solved the
-problem more promptly than most women do. The celerity with which you
-untied that knot when you set about it moved me to admiration. By the
-way, do you know that Bev is ill?”
-
-“Is he? What is the matter?”
-
-“I don’t know exactly,—one of those organic afflictions that men are
-always getting. How uninteresting men are when their interior
-decorations get out of gear. And they always will talk about them.
-Latimer is ever groaning with his liver; but no wonder. I’ve had to eat
-so much rich stuff to keep him from feeling lonesome that I’ve actually
-grown fat. Well, we don’t know what is the matter with Bev, yet. The
-doctor says it’s a result of the influenza. He has some pain, and makes
-an awful fuss, like all men.”
-
-“Where are you going to stay, now?”
-
-“I am at the Holland, but will spend the summer at the Manor and the
-fall at Newport. Our house on the Avenue—opposite the park, you
-know—will be finished by winter. That house will be a jewel. I got the
-most beautiful things abroad for it. Then you will come and live with
-me.”
-
-Patience shook her head.
-
-“It wouldn’t do, and you will see it. I belong to another sphere now;
-but I can see you sometimes.”
-
-“Well, put up that stuff, and come to the Holland and dine with me. You
-can finish up to-night. I have yards and yards to talk to you about.
-I’ll never give you up,—remember that.”
-
-
- IX
-
-When the hot days and nights of summer came Patience did not find
-routine and the hunt as fascinating sport as when the electric thrill of
-cooler seasons was in the air. Her paragraphs acquired some reputation,
-and her mind grew tense in the effort to keep them up to a high
-standard, and to prepare at least one surprise a day. She grew thin and
-nervous, and began to wonder what life and herself would be like five
-years hence. Mr. Field and Steele helped her as much as they dared, and
-she managed to make about fifty dollars a week: her success gave Mr.
-Field the excuse to pay her special rates. It never occurred to her to
-give up, and she assured Hal that she would have nervous prostration
-four times a year before she would return to Peele Manor.
-
-There were times when she passionately longed for the isolation of a
-mountain top. Nature had been part of her very individuality for all the
-years of her life until this last, and a forested mountain top alone was
-the antithesis of Park Row. She sometimes had a whimsical idea that her
-grey matter was becoming slowly modelled into a semblance of that famous
-precinct. She loved it loyally; but the isolation of high altitudes sent
-their magnetism to another side of her nature. She was getting farther
-and farther away from herself in the jealous absorption of her
-work,—the skurrying practical details of her life. She felt that she
-could no longer forecast what she should do under given circumstances,
-that something in her was slowly changing. What the result would be she
-could not predict; and she craved solitude and the opportunity to study
-herself out.
-
-In August Mrs. Field took her to her house in the Berkshire hills.
-Although she had no solitude there, she returned much refreshed, and did
-good work all winter. Steele she never saw outside of the office, but he
-managed to treat her with a certain knightliness, and she lay awake,
-occasionally, thinking about him. Hard work and the practical side of
-life had disposed of a good deal of her romance, but she was still given
-to vagaries. Steele’s modernity fascinated her. No other epoch but this
-extraordinary last quarter of the nineteenth century could have produced
-him.
-
-She was a great favourite in the office. Again a thaw had succeeded a
-second glacier period, induced by entire change of environment, and she
-liked nearly everybody she knew, and became a most genial and expansive
-young woman. She often laughed at herself, and concluded that she would
-never strike the proper balance until she fell in love (if she ever
-did), when the large and restless currents of her nature would unite and
-find their proper destination. She had no “weird experiences.” Her
-abounding feminity appealed to the chivalry of the gentlemen among whom
-she was thrown, and she was clever enough not to flirt with them, to
-treat them impartially as good comrades. The second-class men detested
-her, and were not conciliated: the underbred newspaper man touches a
-lower notch of vulgarity than any person of similar social degree the
-world over.
-
- * * * * *
-
-One morning she awoke about four o’clock,—that is, her mind awoke; her
-body was still too full of sleep to move to the right or left. It was
-one of her favourite sensations, and she lay for a time meditating upon
-the various pleasures, great and small, which are part of man’s
-inheritance.
-
-Suddenly she became conscious that it was raining. She had moved into a
-back room on the second floor. Beside one window was a tin roof upon
-which the rain poured with heavy reiterance. In the back yard was a
-large ailanthus tree which lifted itself past her windows to the floor
-above. A light wind rustled it. The rain pattered monotonously upon its
-wide leaves, producing a certain sweet volume of sound.
-
-It was long since she had listened to rain in the night. It was
-associated in her mind with the vague sweet dreams of girlhood and with
-her life in Carmel Valley. She had loved to wander through the pine
-woods when the winter rains were beating through the uplifted arms,
-swirling and splashing in the dark fragrant depths. It said something to
-her then, she hardly knew what, nor when it roared upon the roof of the
-old farmhouse, or flung itself through the windows of Carmel tower, as
-she and Solomon huddled close to the wall.
-
-But when it had beaten upon the roof of her little room in Miss
-Tremont’s house it had sung the loneliness of youth into her soul,
-murmured of the great joy to which every woman looks forward as her
-birthright. Hard worked and absorbed as she may have been during the
-day, if the rain awoke her in the night, it was to dreams of love and of
-nothing else, and of the time when she should no longer be alone.
-
-This morning she listened to the rain for a time, then moved suddenly to
-her side, her eyes opening more widely in the dark. The rain said
-nothing to her. She listened to it without a thrill, with no longing,
-with no loneliness of soul, and no vague tremor of passion.
-
-Nothing in her unhappy experience had so forcibly brought home to her
-the changes which her inner self had undergone in the last few years.
-Life was a hard clear-cut fact; she could no longer dream. Imagination
-had taken itself out of her and gone elsewhere, into some brain whose
-dear privilege it was to have a long future and a brief past.
-
-The tears scalded her eyes. She cursed Beverly Peele. She wished she had
-remained in Monterey. There, at least, she would never have married any
-one, for there was no one to marry.
-
-“Even if my life had been a success,” she thought, “if Beverly Peele had
-been less objectionable, or had died, and I had had the world at my
-feet, it would be too high a price to pay. Not even to care that one is
-alone when the rain is sweeping about with that hollow song! To think
-and dream of nothing beyond the moment! To have accepted life with
-cynical philosophy, and feel no desire to shake the Universe with a
-great passion! To be beyond the spell of the rain is to be a thousand
-years old, and a thousand centuries away from the cosmic sense. I wish I
-were dead.”
-
-And there were other moods. Sometimes the devil which is an integral
-part of all strong natures—of woman’s as well as of man’s, and no
-matter what her creed—awoke and clamoured. There were four or five men
-in the office whom she liked well enough when absent, and in whom the
-lightning of her glance would have changed friendship to passion. Why
-she resisted the temptation which so fiercely assailed her at times she
-never knew. Conventions did not exist for her impatient mind excepting
-in so far as they made life more comfortable; she had in full measure
-youth’s power to know and to give joy, and she owed no one loyalty. And
-at this time she imaged no future: she had lost faith in ideals. It was
-only at brief intervals that there came a sudden passionate
-desire—almost a flash of prophetic insight—for the one man who must
-exist for her among the millions of men. And this, if anything, took the
-place of her lost ideals and conquered the primal impulses of her
-nature. Or was it a mere matter of destiny? Woman is a strange and
-complex instrument. She is as she was made, and it is not well to
-condemn her even after elaborate analysis.
-
-
- X
-
-One morning in May, Hal came in before Patience was out of bed. She sat
-down on a chair and tapped the floor with her foot.
-
-“I come charged with a message, a special mission, as it were,” she
-said. “I hardly know where to begin.”
-
-“Well?”
-
-“Don’t look at me like that, or I’ll never have the courage to go on.
-Bev is desperately ill,—not in bed, but he has the most frightful
-pains: his disease, which has been threatening for a year, has
-developed. It may or may not be fatal. The doctor says it certainly will
-be unless he has peace of mind, and he is fretting after you like a big
-baby. The grippe seems to have broken the back of his temper, and he is
-simply a great calf bleating for its parent. It would be ridiculous if
-it were not serious. You’d better come back to us, Patience.”
-
-“I won’t.”
-
-“I knew you would say exactly that; but when you think it over you will
-come. Remember that the doctor practically says that you can either save
-or prolong his life. Mamma is simply distracted. You know she adores
-Bev, and she broke down completely last night and told me to come and
-beg you to return. You know what that means: you’ll have nothing to fear
-from her.”
-
-“Oh, I can’t go back! I can’t! I think I should die if I went back.”
-
-“We don’t die so easily, my dear. Now, I’ll go and let you think it
-over,” and the diplomat kissed Patience and retired.
-
-Patience endeavoured to put the matter out of her mind, but it harassed
-her through her day’s duties, and her work was bad. Steele told her as
-much the next afternoon when she came into the office late, intending to
-write there instead of at home. Her room was haunted by Beverly’s pallid
-face and sunken eyes.
-
-“Oh, well,” she said, flinging herself down before a table, “perhaps
-it’s the last, so it doesn’t matter.”
-
-“Why? What do you mean? You do look pale. Are you ill?”
-
-Patience hesitated a moment, then told him of the complication. He
-listened, without comment, looking down upon the skurrying throngs.
-
-“I suppose I must go,” she said in conclusion. “Anyway I feel that I
-shall go, whether I want to or not.”
-
-He came over to the table and regarded her with his preternatural
-seriousness.
-
-“Yes,” he said, “you will go. It will be like you.”
-
-“Oh, I am no angel. It’s not that—please! It’s—don’t you know there
-are some good acts you can’t help? Not only do traditions and
-conventions drive you into them, but your own selfishness—I haven’t the
-courage to be lashed by my conscience. If I could give that morphine, do
-you think I’d go?”
-
-He smiled. “Do you analyse everything like that? However, I choose to
-keep to my illusions. I think that you have magnificent theories, but
-act very much like other people. Can I go up and see you sometimes? I
-may have a chance to know you, now.”
-
-She put up her hand and took his impulsively. “Yes, come,” she said.
-“That is the only thing that will make life supportable.”
-
-
- XI
-
-She went home and wrote the following letter to Beverly Peele:—
-
- “I will return to Peele Manor and remain while you are seriously
- ill, under the following conditions: (1) That you pay me what
- you would be obliged to pay a trained nurse; (2) That you will
- treat me on that basis absolutely. My feeling toward you has
- undergone no change. I am not your wife. But as your physician
- holds me responsible for your life, I will be your nurse on the
- terms stated above.”
-
-The next day she received this telegram:—
-
- Come. Terms agreed to.
-
- BEVERLY PEELE.
-
-She was received by the various members of the household with infinite
-tact. Mrs. Peele’s cold blue eyes sheltered an angry spark, but she
-behaved to her errant daughter-in-law exactly as if matrimonial
-vacations were orthodox and inevitable. Honora kissed her sweetly, and
-asked her if the roses were not beautiful. When Mr. Peele came home he
-said, “Ah, good-evening.” Beverly, who had evidently been coached, did
-not offer to kiss her, but immediately explained every detail of his
-disease. Hal and her husband were in the North Carolina mountains.
-
-Beverly was not a good actor, and his eyes followed his wife with
-kaleidoscopic expression. She frequently encountered hungry admiration
-and angry resentment; and if he had made up his mind to abide by her
-decree he as clearly evidenced that he considered her his salaried
-property: he demanded her constant attendance. He looked so wan and
-hopeless that Patience was moved to pity, and even to tenderness, and
-devoted herself to his care.
-
-For the first two weeks she felt hourly as if she must pack her trunk
-and flit back to the “Day.” She longed for a very glimpse of the grimy
-men in the composing-room, and felt that the sight of Morgan Steele in
-his shirt sleeves would give more spiritual satisfaction than the green
-and grey of the Palisades.
-
-The life at Peele Manor seemed doubly flat after her emancipation. At
-the breakfast table, Mrs. Peele and Honora discussed their small
-interests. At luncheon, Beverly—who arose late—gave the details of his
-night. At dinner there was little conversation of any sort. The
-mornings, and the afternoons from four to six—when Beverly drove with
-his mother and Honora—were Patience’s own. Although discontented, she
-was by no means unhappy: she was out of bondage forever. If Beverly grew
-better she could return to the “Day” after a reasonable time had
-elapsed.
-
-She spent most of her leisure rambling over the hills in idle reverie or
-meditating upon her checkered life. She gave a good deal of thought to
-the many phases of life which had flashed before her startled eyes in
-the last year, but was too young not to be more interested in herself
-than in problems, however momentous. Still, she did not feel much more
-intimate with herself than she had felt in Park Row.
-
-She frequently wondered with some pique and much disapproval that she
-heard nothing from Morgan Steele. The few glimpses she had caught of the
-nature behind the mask tempted her to idealise him, and she finally
-succumbed. One night she awoke to the fact that she had been walking the
-stars with him, discussing the mysteries of the Universe. She pictured
-the smile with which he would regard the workings of her imagination,
-were they revealed to him, and recalled his business-like demeanour, his
-shirt sleeves, his Park Row vocabulary, and his impatient scorn of
-“damned slush.”
-
-It happened to be midnight when these later thoughts arrived, and she
-laughed aloud.
-
-“What are you laughing at?” demanded a querulous voice from the next
-room.
-
-“Nothing.”
-
-“Nothing? Do you suppose I’m an idiot? Tell me what you were laughing
-at.”
-
-“Go to sleep, go to sleep.”
-
-“I can’t go to sleep. You lie there and laugh while I lie here and
-suffer.”
-
-“Why didn’t you say you were suffering? Do you want the morphine?”
-
-“No, I don’t.”
-
-An hour later Patience was roused from her first heavy sleep.
-
-“Patience! Patience! Oh, my God! My God! My God!”
-
-Patience stumbled out of bed and into her dressing-gown and slippers,
-shaking her head vigorously to dispel the vapours in her brain.
-
-“Yes, yes!” she said. “I’m coming. Do please don’t make such a fuss.
-You’ll wake up everybody—”
-
-“Not make a fuss! Oh, I wish you had it for a minute—”
-
-Patience ran into the lavatory and turned up the gas. The night was very
-warm, and the door leading into Honora’s room stood wide. The light fell
-full on her face. Patience saw that her eyes were open.
-
-“I hope Beverly didn’t wake you up,” she said. “He does make such a
-noise.”
-
-“I was awake. I never sleep well in warm weather. I don’t envy you,
-though.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t mind if only I don’t make a terrible mistake some night and
-give him an overdose. He takes particular pains to wait until I am in my
-first sleep and then I hardly know what I am doing. There! this is the
-third time I have dropped the wretched stuff. What is the good of drop
-bottles, anyway?”
-
-“Why don’t you use the hypodermic?”
-
-“I can’t. It would make me ill to puncture people. And this does him as
-much good.” She set the bottle down impatiently, drew a basin full of
-cold water, dashed it over her face, then dropped the dose and took it
-to Beverly.
-
-“Stay with me,” he commanded. “You know it doesn’t take effect at once,
-and I feel better if I hold your hand.” She sat down beside him and
-nodded sleepily until the morphine did its work.
-
-
- XII
-
-The next afternoon, a few moments after Beverly had gone for his drive,
-Morgan Steele’s card was brought up to Patience. She had imagined that
-this first call would induce a mild thrill of nerve, but she merely
-remarked to the butler: “Tell him I will be down in a moment,” walked to
-the long mirror in the corner, and shook out her violet and white
-organdie skirts. Her long hair was braided and tied with a lavender
-ribbon.
-
-“I look very well,” she thought, and went downstairs.
-
-Steele awaited her in the drawing-room, and, as she entered, was
-standing with his head thrown back, regarding the medallion of Whyte
-Peele. She noted anew how well he dressed and carried his clothes. He
-looked quite at home in the drawing-room of Peele Manor. Her first
-remark followed in natural sequence,—
-
-“How odd not to see you in your shirt sleeves.”
-
-He turned with a start and a sudden warmth in his face.
-
-“Oh, well, I hope you’ll never see me that way again. How charming you
-look in that frock and with your hair in that braid! _I_ always imagine
-_you_ in prim tailor things, with your hair tucked out of sight under a
-stiff turban. This is lovely. You look like a little girl. Those awful
-dress reformers should see you.”
-
-“It’s a comfort to think that the She-males cannot exterminate the
-artistic sense. Let us go into the library.”
-
-“Is there a large comfortable chair there? These are impressive but
-unpleasant. Perhaps you would not suspect it, but I love a comfortable
-chair and a cigar better than anything in life.”
-
-“One thing I do suspect—that we shall have to become acquainted all
-over again. You are not exactly like a fallen angel outside of the
-office, but you certainly have not patronised me for five minutes.”
-
-“Oh, you can take your revenge now and patronise me. Hang the shop! I
-don’t want to think about it.”
-
-In the library he critically inspected every chair, selected one that
-pleased him, and drawing it to the open window sank into it with a deep
-sigh of content. Patience gave him permission to smoke, and a moment
-later he looked so happy that she laughed aloud.
-
-“You may laugh,” he said plaintively, “but you have less imagination
-than I thought if you don’t understand what this is to a man after Park
-Row. After an hour of that water and your muslin frock, I shall go back
-as refreshed as if my brain had taken a cold bath.”
-
-“I’d fly back to the office this minute if I could. I’ve felt like a
-bottle of over-charged champagne for two weeks.”
-
-“You have the enthusiasm of youth. When you are my age—sixty-five—you
-will be thankful for the _dolce far niente_ of a colonial manor. This
-sort of life suits you—you are a born châtelaine. You have lost your
-tired expression, and are actually stouter. Besides, I want to come up
-here to see you.”
-
-“Will you come often?”
-
-“As often as you will let me. I am free every afternoon, you know, and
-if I followed my tactless inclination I’d come seven times a week.
-However, don’t look alarmed; I’m only coming once a week—” He sat up
-suddenly, his eyes sparkling. “By Jove!” he exclaimed. “What a beauty!”
-
-Patience followed his eyes, which were directed ardently upon a
-sail-boat skimming up the river.
-
-“Are you fond of sailing?” she asked.
-
-“Am I? I could live in a boat. I’d rather be in a boat than—than even
-talking to you.”
-
-“Well, you shall be inside of a boat in five minutes,” she said
-good-naturedly. “Wait until I get my hat and gloves!”
-
-“Being only the nurse,” she said, as they walked down the wooded slope
-to the boathouse, “I don’t know that I have any right to take liberties,
-but I will, all the same. I feel that it is an act of charity.”
-
-“It certainly is, and you really are an angel.—She’s a good boat,” he
-said approvingly, a few moments later, as he unreefed the sail.
-
-Patience arranged the cushions and made herself comfortable, and they
-shot up the river in a stiff breeze. She watched Steele curiously. He
-looked as happy as a schoolboy. His hat was on the back of his head, his
-eyes shone. Once as he threw back his head and laughed, he bore an
-extraordinary resemblance to the Laughing Faun.
-
-“I’ve lived in a boat for a whole summer,” he said, “and never seen a
-woman nor wanted to, nor a man neither, for that matter. There are three
-months in the year when I want nothing better in life than this.” His
-large cool eyes moved slowly to hers. “Still,” he added, “I do believe
-it’s an improvement to have you here. What fun if we had a little yacht
-and could sail like this all summer! I think we’d hit it off, don’t you?
-We shouldn’t either of us talk too much.”
-
-Patience laughed. It was impossible to coquet with Steele. He took no
-notice of it. “I should be afraid you’d tip me over if you got tired of
-me.”
-
-“I shouldn’t get tired of you,” he said seriously. “I never met a woman
-I liked half as much. You’re lovely to look at, and your mind is so
-interesting to study. Guess I’d better come about.”
-
-They sailed for two hours. The wind fell, and they talked in a desultory
-fashion. They discovered that they had the same literary gods, and
-occasionally Steele waxed enthusiastic. He had read more than most men
-of forty; nor was there anything youthful about the fixity of his
-opinions.
-
-“Oh, dear!” said Patience, suddenly, “why did we never meet before? I
-like you better than any one I ever knew. I’ve been hunting all my life
-for a mental companion.”
-
-“So have I,” he said, smiling at her in his half cynical way, “and now
-I’ve found you I don’t propose to let you go; not even next winter.”
-
-He confided to her that he had written a good deal, although he had
-published nothing. Patience wondered where he had found time to
-accomplish so much.
-
-“I’m going to bring up some of my stuff and read it to you,” he said.
-“You can take that as a compliment if you like, for I’ve only shown it
-to one other person—a man.”
-
-“Now, I know why you like me! You are going to study me.”
-
-“Well, it’s partly that,” he replied coolly. “You are a new type—to me
-at any rate, and I shall probably know a good deal more after I have
-known you a year or so than I do now. Who is that? What an
-amiable-looking person!”
-
-Patience followed his glance. Beverly stood at the foot of the slope,
-with distorted face.
-
-“Oh, dear,” she said, “that is Mr. Peele. I am afraid he is going to be
-disagreeable. Of course I am not obliged to stay—but in a way I am.”
-
-Steele ran the boat into the dock, handed her out, and reefed the sail
-before he spoke. Then he turned and looked at her squarely.
-
-“Would you rather I did not come?” he asked.
-
-“No! No! I want you to come. I’ll think it over and write you—or—I
-wonder if you are horrid like most men and would misunderstand me if I
-asked you always to come on a certain day and meet me in that wood up
-there, instead of going to the house?”
-
-“Look here,” he said in his old business-like tone, “just let me set
-your mind at rest. I haven’t the slightest intention of making love to
-you. In the first place I am just now tired and sick of that sort of
-thing—a state a man does get into occasionally, although a woman will
-never believe it. In the second place I like to think of you as _sui
-generis_; a woman on a pedestal. It is very refreshing. A week from
-to-day I’ll be in that wood, and I’ll stay there from four to six
-whether you come or not. There comes my train.”
-
-“You must flag it. Hurry. I’ll expect you Thursday.”
-
-
- XIII
-
-“Who is that man?” thundered Beverly, as she crossed the track behind
-the train.
-
-Patience raised her eyebrows. “What have you to do with my visitors?”
-
-“You sha’n’t receive men, and you sha’n’t sail in my boat.”
-
-“Of course the boat is yours. I shall not use it again.”
-
-“You are my nurse.”
-
-“Your nurse is always ready to be dismissed,” and she walked up the
-slope, taking no further notice of him.
-
-Hal returned the following week; and, as Beverly improved steadily, the
-house was filled with company once more. Whenever Patience hinted that
-she was no longer required, Beverly immediately went to bed and rent the
-air; but as a matter of fact his attacks were growing less and less
-frequent.
-
-Patience, in the circumstances, was not impatient to return to work
-until the hot weather was over. Her position was very pleasant, Hal was
-ever her loyal friend, and she saw Morgan Steele once a week.
-
-The wood was a wild place on a slope of the bluff some distance above
-the house. Its underbrush made it unpopular with the guests of Peele
-Manor. Steele left the train at the regular station a mile up the road
-and walked back without encounter. In the heart of the dark cool little
-wood Patience swung two hammocks and filled them with pillows. Steele
-lay full length in his and looked comfortable and happy, a cigar ever
-between his lips. Patience, in hers, sat in as dignified an attitude as
-she could assume.
-
-“Does it make you feel romantic?” he said one day, looking at her
-quizzically.
-
-“What do you mean?” she asked, flushing a little.
-
-“Oh, I think you have a queer romantic sentimental streak through your
-modernity—or had. I’ve been wondering if there was any of it left.”
-
-“I never told you.”
-
-“No, but you suggest it. Tell me: didn’t you once have ideals and that
-sort of thing?”
-
-“I don’t see how you can even guess it, for I have none now.”
-
-“Oh, yes, you have. You won’t when you’re thirty, but you have all sorts
-of kiddish notions stored away yet in that brain of yours.” He had seen
-Peele a few days before in the train, and knew the history of their
-courtship quite as well as if she had related it to him, but he was
-curious to know what she had been before. He drew her on until she told
-him the story of the tower and the owl.
-
-That little picture pleased his artistic sense, but when she described
-her girlish ideals and dreams he threw back his head and laughed loud
-and long.
-
-“What would I have done with you if I had met you then?” he said,
-looking with intense amusement at her half angry face. “I should have
-run, I expect. You are a thousand times more interesting now.”
-
-“Not to myself.”
-
-“Of course not, because you are less of an egoist, and draw a larger
-measure of your individuality from your environment. But you are real
-now, where before you were unreal—you were a sort of waxwork with
-numerous dents. The two extremes in this world are nature and
-civilisation. Children belong by right to nature, and she holds on to
-them as long as possible. When civilisation gets hold of them she
-proceeds to pick out with a pair of tweezers all but the primal
-passions; and the result is the only human variety capable of enjoying
-life.”
-
-“Don’t you believe in ideals?” asked Patience, rather wistfully.
-
-“Of course not,” he said contemptuously. “Life is what it is, and you
-can’t alter it. And as we are only just so big and have only just so
-many years in which to get over a limited surface of this mighty
-complication called Life, all we can do is to keep our eyes open, and
-pick out here and there what appeals to our taste most strongly,
-swallowing the disagreeable majority as philosophically as possible.
-When you know the world—and yourself—you can’t have ideals, and the
-sooner you quit wasting time thinking about them the sooner you begin to
-enjoy life. And remember that we live but from day to day—we may be a
-cold cadaver to-morrow. Life is a game of chance. To set up ideals is as
-purposeless as to waste this life preparing for an impossible next. Omar
-expressed it better than I can when he said:—
-
- “‘To-morrow? Why, to-morrow I myself may be
- With yesterday’s seven thousand years.’”
-
-“You have certain ideals though,” said Patience. “You are intellectually
-ambitious; and you say that you never run after a merely pretty face,
-and never wasted time on any sort of woman unless she had brains; and
-the men at the office say that you are scrupulously square in money
-matters. So that I can’t see that you are altogether without ideals.”
-
-“Those are mere matters of taste and worldly sense. I aim for nothing
-that is impossible. When I think I want a thing I set about to
-accomplish it. If I find that it is impossible I quit without further
-loss of time. You don’t suppose I have an ideal woman, do you? How can
-any man that knows women?—although he may often succumb to a happy
-combination. When I was exactly twelve my Sunday School teacher
-forestalled any inclination I might have developed to idealise woman. I
-met her once after I was grown, by the way, and it did me good to tell
-her what I thought of her. That is where you women have the advantage of
-us. It is so long before you know man at all that after you do it is
-hard work making him over as he is. The woman never lived that
-understood man by intuition. That is the reason a woman so seldom has
-any fascination but that of mere youth until she’s pretty well on to
-thirty. You, of course, have had an exceptional experience, but you are
-a good deal of a kid yet.”
-
-
- XIV
-
-Morgan Steele was a type of the precocious young United States newspaper
-man which only this end of the century has evolved: Preternaturally wise
-in the way of the world and the nature of woman; with young blood and
-cold judgment; wary, deliberate, calculating; full of kind impulses;
-generous with his money, yet careful of it; ready to make cold-blooded
-use of a man to-day and offer him a free lodging to-morrow; possessed of
-more self-control than the Club man of forty; without sentimentality,
-yet with a certain limited power of loving; having a thorough
-appreciation of the finer as of the coarser shades of woman; incapable
-of a blind supreme rush of feeling, through the habit of eternal
-analysis; placidly and philosophically content with the present, and
-fully expecting to be laid away in the past at forty; _blasé_, yet full
-of boyish delight in outdoor sport; having faith in no woman, yet
-treating the lowest with a cynical kindness and consideration which was
-part of his philosophy.
-
-One night he faced the question of his relationship to Patience with his
-usual deliberation.
-
-He lay on a divan in his bachelor quarters: a long room with bedroom and
-bath attached. The walls of the living-room were covered with red paper,
-the doors and windows hung with Smyrna cloth. A rug half covered the
-stained floor. Between the windows was a large desk covered with papers.
-A long table was strewn thick with magazines. Small bookcases were
-filled with the works of Omar, Whitman, Emerson, Hugo, Heine, Dumas,
-Maupassant, Bourget, Pater, Dobson, Herrick, Ibsen, Zola, Landor,
-Rabelais, Stevenson, Kipling. On the mantel there was a number of
-photographs and a notable absence of legs. The walls were covered with
-artists’ sketches.
-
-“The summer will pass harmlessly enough,” he thought. “I only see her
-once a week, and her husband is likely to be hidden in the brush; but
-when she returns to town in the winter I shall find myself calling on
-her every night. I’m not stuck on matrimony, but I certainly should like
-her for a companion in a little house or double apartment where there
-would be plenty of elbow room and some chance of keeping up the
-illusions. I think it would be some years before I should tire of her,
-and I think I could love her a good deal. Why in thunder doesn’t the man
-die? She’s too good for anything else. It would be a terrible pity—the
-details smirch so. A novelist would remark at this point, ‘And yet he
-never thought of sparing her.’ No, my dear fictionist, we don’t, nor if
-she loved me would she thank me for sparing her. And yet it would be a
-pity. She is like some delicate wild-flower that has been transplanted.
-I should like to offer her the best one can, instead of practically
-remarking: ‘My dear, this brain racket is worked out for the present.
-We’ll return to it later, or not at all.’
-
-“It is often a clever thing for those that love and cannot marry to part
-when the shock comes: they coddle the misery and have a glorious time
-suffering. But that would not do for us. We live in the thick and rush
-of life, and have no time to sit down with memories, hardly time enough
-to realise an ache. We must have our day in fact or not at all; and
-afterward, thank God, there is again no time for memories. Well, this is
-only the eighth of July. By winter that intolerable nuisance may be in
-the family vault.”
-
-
- XV
-
-People remarked that summer that Patience looked unusually well. At
-times her eyes had a certain liquid softness, at others they sparkled
-wickedly. Her colour was beautiful and her manner and conversation full
-of animation.
-
-It was on a hot August afternoon that Patience and Steele, in the green
-shades of their wood, suddenly met each other’s eyes and burst out
-laughing.
-
-“We are in love,” said Patience.
-
-“Well—yes—I suppose we are.”
-
-“I feel very light-minded over this unexpected _dénouement_. I had
-imagined all sorts of dramatic climaxes; but the unexpected always will
-happen in this life—more’s the pity.”
-
-“Did you expect we should not fall in love?”
-
-“I did not think about it at all for a time—just drifted. But as the
-situation is so serious it is as well to take it humourously. What are
-we going to do about it?”
-
-He had removed his cigar, and was regarding her with his contemplative
-stare. “I have thanked your complicated ancestors more than once for
-your large variety of moods. I am glad and sorry that you have spoken:
-sorry, because this was very pleasant; glad that the discussion of ways
-and means should take place here instead of in town. I shall be brutally
-frank. How long is your husband likely to live?”
-
-“He may live for twenty years. I heard the doctors—they have a
-consultation every once in a while—tell Mrs. Peele so the other day. He
-is much better. On the other hand, he might take a turn for the worse
-any day.”
-
-“Then you must persuade him to give you a divorce.”
-
-“Oh, dear, I am afraid that is out of the question. I’ve thought of it;
-but—you don’t know him.”
-
-“You are a clever woman: now look up your resources. Enlist the family
-on your side. Tell them that you are about to leave, never to return,
-and that you are on the road to become a famous newspaper woman; that if
-they will persuade your husband to give you a divorce you will drop
-their name; otherwise that it will be dinned in their ears for the next
-twenty years. Tell them that we intend to let you sign hereafter. That
-ought to fetch them, as they appear to look upon the newspaper business
-with shuddering horror. And persuade them that Beverly needs a good
-domestic little wife who would gladden his declining years.”
-
-“I’m sorry I feel in this mood,” said Patience, abruptly. “I should far
-rather it had been the other way—the usual way. I suppose I am
-possessed with what Poe calls The Imp of the Perverse.”
-
-“My dear girl, I need not remind you that it is just as well and a good
-deal better. You need a shaking to wake you up, though. You imagine that
-you are awake already, but you are not—not by a long sight. You have
-buried your nature five fathoms deep. Well, time is up. I must be off.
-Think over what I have said. Good-bye.”
-
-
- XVI
-
-On the following Thursday morning Patience walked slowly over to where
-Beverly sat under a tree on one of the lawns, reading a newspaper. She
-had made up her mind to adopt Steele’s advice, but had deferred the evil
-moment as long as possible.
-
-“Beverly,” she said abruptly, sitting down in front of him, “I want to
-speak to you.”
-
-He laid down the newspaper and regarded her with eager admiration. She
-had carefully selected the most unbecoming frock she possessed, a sickly
-green, and twisted her hair in a fashion to distort the fine lines of
-her head. Nevertheless, she looked as fresh as the morning, and her eyes
-sparkled with excitement.
-
-“What is it?” he asked. “Oh, why—why—”
-
-“Never mind! I am going to have a business talk with you, and please
-don’t get excited. If you do, you’ll be sure to have a pain, you know.”
-
-“Well, what is it? It doesn’t do a fellow any good to keep him in
-suspense.”
-
-“On the first of November I am going away—”
-
-“You are not!”
-
-“And I shall not come back—not in any circumstances. You have proved
-that your attacks are more or less under your own control. A sojourn at
-some foreign baths will probably cure you. I have given you all of my
-life that I intend to give you. I know that self-sacrifice is the ideal
-of happiness of some women, but it is not mine. When I leave here on the
-first of November it will be forever. There is no inducement, material
-nor sentimental, that will bring me back. Do you understand that much
-clearly?”
-
-He burst into a volley of oaths, and beat his knees with his fists.
-Patience continued as soon as she could be heard:—
-
-“Now, it can do you no possible good to retain a legal hold on me, nor
-can you care to hear of your name becoming familiar in Park Row. Give me
-my freedom, and I will take my own name—”
-
-“You’ll get no divorce,” he roared, “now nor ever. Do you understand
-that? I’ll brace up and live until I’m ninety—by God I will! I’ll go
-abroad and live at a water cure. You’ll never be the wife of any other
-man. Do you understand that?”
-
-“Oh, Beverly,” she said, breaking suddenly, “don’t be cruel,—don’t!
-What good can it do you? Give me my freedom.”
-
-He grasped her wrists. His eyes were full of rage and malevolence. “Do
-you want to marry some one else?” he asked. “Some damned newspaper man,
-I suppose.”
-
-Patience stood up and shook him off. “If ever I do marry another man,”
-she said cuttingly, “you may be sure he will have brains this time, and
-that he will also be a gentleman. The most vulgar persons I have ever
-known have been socially the most highly placed.”
-
-As she moved away he sprang after her and caught her arm. “Now look
-here,” he said hoarsely, “you’ll neither marry, nor will you have a
-lover, unless you want all New York to know it. The moment you leave
-this place a detective goes after you. You’ll do nothing that I don’t
-know. I may not have brains, but I’ll get the best of you all the same.”
-
-Patience flung him off and went straight to Mrs. Peele. Her
-mother-in-law watched her with narrowed eyes until she had finished,
-then remarked unexpectedly: “I shall do my best to make my son divorce
-you. If you intend to leave us I prefer that the rupture should be
-complete. As you suggest, I have no desire to see the name of Peele
-signed to newspaper articles. Moreover, I believe I can persuade my son
-to marry again,—a woman of his own station, who will not desecrate the
-name of wife; and who,” with sudden violence, “will give this house an
-heir.” She paused a moment to recover herself, then continued more
-calmly: “I have talked the matter over with my husband, and he agrees
-with me. Of course, you will expect no alimony.”
-
-“I don’t want alimony. I make more with my pen than Beverly ever allowed
-me.”
-
-The red came into Mrs. Peele’s face. “My son was quite as generous as
-was to be expected. Moreover, he had the right to demand that his wife
-should not come to him empty handed. I shall speak to Beverly.”
-
-An hour later Patience met Mrs. Peele in the side hall. The older woman
-looked flushed and excited. “I have had a most terrible interview with
-Beverly,” she exclaimed. “I can do nothing with him. You little fool,
-why didn’t you swear that you did not want to marry another man? Heaven
-knows I should prefer to have you take another name as soon as possible;
-but you have ruined your chances by letting Beverly suspect the truth.”
-
-Patience sank upon a chair, and sat for a long while staring straight
-before her. She felt the incarnation of rage and hate. Her lovely face
-was set and repellent. She came to herself with a start, and wondered if
-she had ever had any womanly impulses.
-
-She had never wanted anything in her life as much as she wanted to marry
-Morgan Steele. His very unlikeness to all her old ideals fascinated her,
-and she was convinced that she was profoundly in love. She could hardly
-imagine what life with him would be like, and was the more curious to
-ascertain; and the obstacles enraged her impatient spirit.
-
-The butler left the dining-room to announce luncheon.
-
-“Send mine up to my room,” she said. As she reached the first landing of
-the stair she turned to him suddenly. “Tell John to go to New York this
-afternoon, and have Mr. Beverly’s morphine bottle filled. He took the
-last last night and he may need it again before I go down myself. Don’t
-fail to tell him. The bottle is in the lavatory.”
-
-That afternoon she met Steele at the edge of the wood.
-
-“I could not keep still,” she said. “My brain feels on fire.”
-
-He drew her hand through his arm and held it tenderly. “What is it?” he
-asked. “Did you speak, and was it disagreeable?”
-
-“I’ll tell you in a minute. Just now it is enough to feel you here.”
-
-“I can only stay an hour. I should not have come at all, but I could not
-stay away.”
-
-When they reached the hammocks Patience flung herself into hers and told
-the story of the morning with dramatic indignation. Then, insensibly,
-she drifted into the story of her married life, and described her
-intense hatred and loathing of her husband.
-
-“It was all my own fault,” she said in conclusion. “I married him with
-my eyes open; but all the same I hate him. Sometimes I felt, and feel
-yet, fairly murderous. I seem to have a terrible nature—does it make
-you hate me?”
-
-He laughed. “No, I don’t hate you, and you know it quite as well as I
-do. You have wonderful possibilities—but I can’t quite make up my mind
-that I am the man—”
-
-“Oh, yes, you are. I could love you as much as I hate Beverly Peele.”
-
-“Well, if you think so it amounts to the same thing, for a while at
-least. I shall come again in a few days. I’ll write you. If your husband
-cannot be induced to change his mind I’ll talk to you about a paper that
-has been offered to me in Texas; but if you prefer it the other way,
-I’ll leave you alone without a word.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know! There are some words I hate,—the words free-love and
-adultery. I don’t want to be exploited in the newspapers, and I don’t
-want to be insulted by my landlord. After all, expediency is the source
-of all morality. My life with you would be a thousand times better than
-it was with Beverly Peele; but I suspect that we can’t violate certain
-moral laws that heredity has made part of our brain fibre, without
-ultimate regret, even when we keep the world in ignorance. I suffered
-horribly once, although I had not defied the conventions. But I think we
-must have everything, or the large share of herself that Nature has
-given each of us rebels,—in other words, the ideal is not complete.”
-
-“When you are very much in love,” he said dryly, “you won’t analyse.”
-
-Contrary to her habit, she remained in the wood for some time after he
-left her. Suddenly she was aroused from her reverie by a peculiar heavy
-sound, as of a man crawling. She listened intently, her hair stiffening:
-the house was a quarter of a mile away. The sound continued steadily.
-She sprang to her feet and fled from the wood. As she ran up the hill
-beyond, she glanced fearfully over her shoulder. A man shot from the
-lower edge of the wood and ran toward the stables.
-
-
- XVII
-
-An hour after midnight Patience ran into Honora’s room and shook her
-violently.
-
-“Honora! Honora!” she cried, “something is the matter with Beverly. I
-can’t wake him up.”
-
-Honora stretched herself languidly. Her eyelids fluttered a moment, then
-lifted. She said sleepily:
-
-“What is it, Patience?”
-
-“Beverly! Go to him—quick—while I wake up Mr. and Mrs. Peele, and send
-for the doctor. He dropped his own morphine to-night, and he must have
-taken too much.”
-
-A few moments later there was an alarmed group of people at Beverly
-Peele’s bedside, and the butler could be heard at the telephone
-demanding the doctor.
-
-Mr. Peele was in his pyjamas, and Patience struggled with an importunate
-desire to tell him that his hair stood on end. Mrs. Peele’s back hair
-was in a scant braid; the front locks were on pins. Her skin looked
-pallid and old. Honora, as usual, looked like a vision from heaven. Hal
-and her husband were in Newport, and there were no guests at Peele
-Manor.
-
-“Are you sure,” asked Mr. Peele, as precisely as if his hair was parted
-in the middle and plastered on each side, “that anything is the matter?
-Does not the morphine always put him to sleep?”
-
-“Not at once. You see he takes it internally, and it’s twenty minutes or
-half an hour before it takes effect. During that time he always groans,
-for he never takes it until the last minute. I heard him get up and
-return to bed; and then I knew something must be the matter because he
-was so quiet—”
-
-“How could you let him drop it himself?” exclaimed Mrs. Peele,
-passionately. “How could you? What are you here for?”
-
-“I offered to drop it for him, but he wouldn’t let me. I didn’t insist,
-as he always put it off—and we had had a quarrel—”
-
-“My poor son!”
-
-“Well, something’s got to be done,” said Mr. Peele. “I don’t like the
-way he’s beginning to breathe. There are one or two things we can do
-until the doctor comes.”
-
-He raised Beverly’s arms above the head, brought them down and pressed
-them into the chest, repeating the act twenty or thirty times. Beverly
-meanwhile was breathing stertorously.
-
-“Can’t I do something?” cried his mother, distractedly.
-
-“I think we had better walk him,” said Mr. Peele, whose mouth was
-tightening. “Call Hickman.”
-
-The butler was waiting in the hall, and came at once. He helped Mr.
-Peele to lift the young man from the bed. The stalwart figure hung
-limply between them: he was as collapsed as the new dead. Mr. Peele and
-Hickman walked him up and down the long line of rooms, shaking him
-vigorously from time to time; but they would have produced as much
-effect upon the bolster. Mrs. Peele had sunk into a chair. She sat with
-compressed lips, and dilating eyes fixed upon Patience. Honora knelt
-beside her, patting her hand. After a time she arose, liberated Mrs.
-Peele’s hair from its braid and steels, and arranged it with deft hands,
-fetching some of her own amber pins.
-
-Patience sat on the edge of the bed. She was beginning to feel
-hopelessly sleepy. The day’s excitement had sapped her nerves. It was
-now nearly two o’clock, and she had not slept. Beverly had been ill the
-night before and given her little rest. She felt bitterly ashamed of
-herself; but every few moments she was obliged to cover her face with
-her handkerchief to conceal a yawn. Once or twice her head dropped
-suddenly.
-
-The last time she sat up with a gasp. Mrs. Peele groaned. The two men
-had entered with their burden. Beverly’s face was blue, and he breathed
-infrequently.
-
-“His body is bathed in a cold perspiration,” said Mr. Peele. “Will that
-doctor never come?”
-
-“O my God!” murmured Mrs. Peele.
-
-Patience left the bed and sat on the sill of the window. The night was
-very hot and still. A shuddering horror took possession of her. A
-palpable presence seemed skimming the dark gulf under the window. She
-sat with distended eyes, half expecting to see a long arm reach past her
-and pluck the soul from the unconscious man on the bed. She closed her
-eyes and put her fingers in her ears. When she removed them she drew a
-long breath.
-
-“The doctor is coming,” she said. “I hear the wheels.”
-
-“Did you make him understand what was the matter?” asked Mr. Peele of
-the butler.
-
-“Yes, sir. He said he would bring everything necessary.”
-
-When the doctor came in he bent over the sick man and lifted his
-eyelids.
-
-“It is morphine poisoning, sure enough,” he said. “Have some black
-coffee made. I shall use the electricity meanwhile. Better telegraph to
-New York. I don’t like this case, and don’t want it alone.”
-
-Patience watched them mechanically for an hour, then slipped into her
-own room and into her bed. Nature had conquered her. Another moment, and
-she would have fallen to the floor in sleep.
-
-Four hours later she was awakened by a vigorous shaking of her shoulder.
-
-She sat upright and glanced about wildly. “What is it? What is the
-matter?” she cried. “I had such a horrible dream. I thought Beverly was
-drowning me—holding me down under the water—”
-
-“Your husband is dead,” said the doctor. “Do you wish to go to him?”
-
-Patience shrank under the bedclothes, pulling them about her head. After
-the doctor had gone she ran over to a spare room, opened all the windows
-to admit light, then went to bed and slept until late in the day.
-
-
-
-
- BOOK V
-
-
- I
-
-The editor-in-chief of the New York “Eye” sat in the large
-revolving-chair in his private room, dictating to a typewriter answers
-to the great pile of letters on the desk before him. He opened one
-letter after another with expert swiftness, glanced over it, gave it a
-few lines of response, or tossed it, half read, into a wastebasket. But
-although his heed to duty was alert, his brow was contracted, and he was
-carrying on a double train of thought. The subconsciousness was not
-pleasant.
-
-Arnold Sturges was one of the most remarkable men in New York. Not
-thirty-three, he had been editor-in-chief of one of the great newspapers
-of the United States for a year and a half. He had elected journalism as
-the safety-valve for a superabundant nervous energy and a means to
-gratify ambition and love of power. Although possessed of a little
-fortune he had begun his career on the city staff. As a reporter he had
-worked as hard as if twenty-five dollars a week stood between him and
-starvation. He had risen rapidly from one editorship to another, and
-still no half naked man down in the printing-rooms worked more lustily.
-His rushing career was by no means due to work alone, nor yet to his
-superlative cleverness: it was said of him that he could smell news a
-week off, and not only ahead but backward; by which was meant that he
-knew the subtle and valuable relation that old news occasionally holds
-to that of the moment. Naturally, he had made many brilliant and
-memorable coups.
-
-When friends had blocked his way he had thrust them aside as lightly as
-he seemed to spurn less material obstacles. Body and brain he was the
-dauntless servant of the “Eye;” its personality was his; his very nerves
-were tuned to its sensational policy. He lived for it, and would have
-died for it. He hardly regarded himself as an individual, although his
-fine intellect, his bold executive ability, his splendid suggestions,
-had been large factors in the success of the paper.
-
-Cold, cruel, charming, calculating, enthusiastic, audacious,
-unscrupulous, fearless, relentless, brilliant, executive, had he been a
-factor in the French Revolution his name would have become infamously
-immortal. As it was, he was supreme in the field he had deliberately
-chosen ten years before, immediately after graduating from Harvard with
-such honours that the faculty had sent for and severally congratulated
-him upon his future.
-
-He lived with a soubrette with whom he spent his evenings, playing
-_parchisi_.
-
-To-day he was in a serious quandary. Three days before he had paid
-fifteen hundred dollars for a scandalous story relative to one of the
-most fashionable families in Westchester County,—a story which bore
-truth on the face of it, but which he had not yet published, as it was
-necessary to go through the form of verification. The family meanwhile
-had heard of the sale, and brought tremendous pressure to bear upon him
-to suppress the story: the owner of the “Eye” was travelling in Europe.
-Lawyers had called and harangued. A woman had gone to his apartment and
-wept at his feet. A man had flourished a pistol. For tears and threats
-he cared nothing, but it had occurred to him when too late that the
-owner of the “Eye” purposed to build in Westchester County and had
-aspirations to the Country Club. Despite the fact that the story would
-make the sensation of the day, the owner might be moved to fury. On the
-other hand, he had paid fifteen hundred dollars for the facts, and must
-justify himself. It was the first time in his career that he had made a
-serious mistake, and he was in a cold rage.
-
-The man would have given pleasure to a physiognomist; he was a type so
-marked, so essentially modern, that an amateur could not have misplaced
-him, as one easily could so commonplace a type as Beverly Peele. His
-forehead was full and wide, his grey eyes piercing, restless, hard as
-ice. The nose was finely cut, the mouth licentious, the face thin and
-sallow. At each extremity of the jaw was an abnormal development of
-muscle. His small thin figure was as lithe as a panther, and so crowded
-with pure nerve force that it seemed to shed electricity. His attire was
-fashionable and elegant. In flannel shirt and overalls he would still
-have looked a product of the higher civilisation.
-
-The door opened. He wheeled about with a frown, then smiled pleasantly.
-
-“Oh, it’s you, Van,” he said. “I’ll be through in a minute. Sit down.”
-
-The man that had entered bore so striking a resemblance to Sturges that
-the two men might have been twins. He was, in fact, three years younger
-than his brother. Yet there were some points of difference. Van
-Cortlandt Sturges’ mouth was a straight line, his hair was many shades
-lighter, almost flaxen, and he was several inches taller. But the
-expression of the upper part of the two faces was identical. He, too,
-had left Harvard with high honours, and ambition devoured him. Although
-only thirty he was District Attorney of Westchester County. But as yet
-his fame had not gone beyond its borders, although within them his dry
-incisive bitter eloquence had carried many juries. Criminals in their
-cells thought on him with terror. He had sent several men to the chair,
-but no man that had been defended by Garan Bourke. People said of him
-lightly that he would not go out of his way to be President of the
-United States until he had thrashed Bourke on his own ground.
-
-“I’d like ten minutes as soon as possible,” he said. “I have an
-important communication to make.”
-
-“I’ll hear it now.” To the typewriter: “You can go. Don’t return until I
-ring, and tell Tom to stand in front of the door and admit no
-one.—Well, what is it?”
-
-“Have you made up your mind to publish that Westchester County scandal?”
-
-“How do you know anything about that?”
-
-“They sent for me yesterday and besought me to use my influence with
-you. I am engaged to the woman’s sister.”
-
-“The devil you are! This is bad—bad. But I can’t do anything. I paid
-fifteen hundred dollars for that story.”
-
-“I know you did. If I could give you a better, would you let that go?”
-
-“Wouldn’t I? It’s a white elephant. I thought you didn’t know me so
-little as to come here with sentiment. Fire away.”
-
-“Of course you remember the Gardiner Peeles, although you never go
-anywhere. You went to one or two children’s parties there when you were
-a kid. Well, Beverly Peele died suddenly night before last, supposedly
-of an overdose of morphine administered by himself. Now, old Lewis, the
-family physician, is a great friend of mine, and likely to be
-communicative in his cups. Last night he dined with me, and after he was
-pretty well loaded told me a remarkable yarn. It seems that Mrs. Beverly
-had not been on good terms with her husband since the early days of
-their marriage, and had threatened to leave him from time to time. He
-treated her well, and was desperately in love with her. She, as far as
-is known, had nothing against him but personal dislike. She is said to
-have frequently expressed hatred of him in violent terms. Well, winter
-before last she left him, came to New York, and went to work on the
-‘Day.’ The Peeles did everything to induce her to return, but she only
-consented to go back temporarily this summer to nurse her husband, who
-had been attacked with a chronic but not immediately fatal complaint.
-Meanwhile it seems she had fallen in love with some one, and she met him
-every Thursday in a wood. Jim, a stable boy, who had been brought up on
-the place and was devoted to Beverly Peele, watched her, but said
-nothing to his master, as he was cautiously waiting for some proof of
-criminality. On the afternoon of Peele’s death there was a tremendous
-scene between the lovers: young Mrs. Peele telling a furious story of
-her husband’s refusal to give her divorce, of his threat to have her
-watched, to expose her if she took a lover, and to live until ninety if
-he had to go abroad and live at a foreign spa. She reiterated that she
-hated him, and had frequently had the impulse to murder him. The lover
-invited her to go to Texas, and she demurred, as she disliked scandal.
-Jim told this story to Lewis when driving him home from the
-death-bed,—his own horse had cast a shoe,—and the doctor advised him
-to keep quiet.
-
-“The night after the interview between the lovers—or rather the
-following morning—Peele died of an overdose of morphine. She says he
-took it himself; but it is a remarkable fact that never before—not in a
-single instance—had he dropped the morphine himself. He had had a nurse
-from the first, and when the pain was on he shook like a leaf. And
-yet she asserts that she did not drop it that particular night, and
-adds—by way of explanation—that they had had a violent quarrel and
-he had refused to let her wait on him. While he was dying and the
-others were working over him, she behaved in the most heartless
-manner,—deliberately went to bed in the next room and went to sleep.
-When Lewis awakened her, however, and told her that Peele was dead, she
-displayed symptoms of abject terror, and tore across the hall and locked
-herself in another room. Now, what do you think of it?”
-
-Sturges’ eyes were glittering like smoked diamonds. “My God!” he cried.
-“That’s a grand story! a corker! I’ll have Bart Tripp, the best
-detective reporter in New York, up there inside of two hours. Between
-whiskey and gold he’ll get every fact out of the servants they’ve got.
-It’s worth two of the other. A young, beautiful, swagger woman accused
-of murdering her husband, and that husband a Peele of Peele Manor! The
-‘Eye’ will be read in the very bowels of the earth.”
-
-“And I shall conduct the case for the prosecution.”
-
-“The ‘Eye’ will let people know it. Don’t worry about that. Does Lewis
-remember that he told you?”
-
-“Not a word.”
-
-
- II
-
-On the following Sunday Patience arose early. Beverly had been in the
-family vault down in the hollow for a week. She had wished to leave
-immediately after the funeral, but had remained at the insistence of
-Hal, who had returned at once, and was doubly depressed by her brother’s
-death and the gloomy house. Mrs. Peele had gone to bed with a violent
-attack of neuralgia some days ago, and had not risen since. Honora was
-in constant attendance. Mr. Peele never opened his lips except to ask
-for what he wanted. Burr, as a matter of course, spent the days in New
-York or at a private club house in the neighbourhood.
-
-Patience had moved into a room adjoining Hal’s. She kept the light
-burning all night.
-
-“I’ll be all right when I get back to New York,” she said, “but I have a
-horror of death. I can’t help it.”
-
-“Who hasn’t?” asked Hal. “I wish I were a man—or could be as selfish as
-one.”
-
-On this Sunday morning Patience rose after a restless night, and went
-downstairs as soon as she was dressed. The “Day” and the “Eye”—Burr’s
-favorite newspaper—lay on a table in the hall. She carried them into
-the library and turned them over listlessly, then remembered that a
-great Westchester County scandal had been promised for the Sunday “Eye”
-by the issue of the day before, and that Hal and Burr were on the alert,
-suspecting that they half knew the story already.
-
-She opened the “Eye” and glanced at the headlines of the first page. In
-the place of honour, the extreme left hand column, she found her story:
-
- WAS IT MURDER?
- AN OLD MANOR HOUSE IN WESTCHESTER COUNTY MAY
- HAVE BEEN THE THEATRE OF A GREAT CRIME!
- A YOUNG WIFE SUSPECTED OF THE FOUL DEED!
-
-Patience read ten lines. Then she stumbled to her feet, spilling the
-papers to the floor. Her skin felt cold and wet, her knees trembled, her
-hands moved spasmodically. Something within her seemed disintegrating.
-
-She got to the door and up to her room. Aside from the horror which sat
-in each nerve centre and jabbered, she was conscious of but one idea:
-she must fly. She flung off her robe and put on the black frock she had
-bought out of deference to the family’s grief. She scratched herself and
-thrust the buttons into the wrong holes, but she could call no one to
-her assistance. She was thankful it was so early; she could get away
-without encountering any of the family. She was about to put on her
-black bonnet when her muddled consciousness emitted another flash and
-bade her disguise herself; detectives would have orders to search for a
-woman in weeds. She tore off the mourning frock, dropping it to the
-floor, and got herself into a grey one, then pinned on a grey hat
-trimmed with pink flowers. She thrust a few things into a bag, and ran
-down the stair. She reached the station in time to flag the 8.30 train
-for New York. Some one else boarded the same train, but she did not see
-him.
-
-Having accomplished her flight, her thoughts travelled to the objective
-point. Inevitably her woman’s instinct turned to the man whose duty it
-was to protect her. She convinced herself femininely that if she could
-reach him all would be well; he not only loved her, but he was so
-amazingly clever.
-
-At the station in New York she walked deliberately to a cab and gave the
-man Morgan Steele’s address. She looked neither to the right nor to the
-left, consequently did not see that the man who had boarded the train at
-Peele Manor stood at her elbow when she gave the order, and followed her
-immediately.
-
-When the cab reached the house in which Morgan Steele lived, she
-dismissed it and ran up the steps. She rang again and again, pacing the
-narrow stoop in an agony of fear and impatience. At the end of ten
-minutes an irritable half dressed Frenchman came shuffling down the
-stairs. There were no curtains on the door, and the man’s expression
-struck new terror to her heart.
-
-“What is it?” he asked surlily, as he opened the door.
-
-“I—I—must see Mr. Steele.”
-
-“Mr. Steele is asleep. He does not receive visitors at this hour.”
-
-“I must see him.” Her cheeks were flaming under the man’s scrutiny.
-“Here,” she opened her purse and gave him a bill, then pushed him aside
-and ran upstairs. She remembered that Steele had told her that his rooms
-were on the second floor, front. The halls were as dark as midnight. She
-had to feel with her hands for a door. There was one at the end facing
-the hall. She knocked so loudly that Steele sprang out of bed.
-
-“What is it?” he cried.
-
-“It is I. Open the door—quick!”
-
-Steele made no reply until he opened a door at the side of the hall. He
-had tied himself into a bath robe.
-
-“Good heavens!” he said, “why have you come here? Are you mad?”
-
-“Oh, I think I am. Lock the door—quick. Oh, haven’t you heard? Didn’t
-you know about it before? The ‘Day’ is right next door to the ‘Eye.’ Why
-didn’t you warn me?”
-
-“What on earth are you talking about? What has happened? Do sit down and
-calm yourself.”
-
-“The ‘Eye’ is out with a big story that I murdered Beverly Peele. That
-is what is the matter.”
-
-“What? Oh, you poor child! The damned rascals! But you shouldn’t have
-come here. Don’t you know that the ‘Eye’ will watch every move you make?
-It takes the clever woman to do the wrong thing, every time!”
-
-He went to the window and peered out, then clenched his teeth, and
-raising his arm brought it down violently.
-
-“They can’t put me in prison, can they?”
-
-He pressed his finger to a bell. “I must read what they have to say.
-They are very wary, and never would have printed such a story unless
-they had had a good deal of circumstantial evidence. But they will need
-a terrible lot to convict you. Don’t worry.”
-
-“Oh, how can you be so cool?”
-
-“Some one has to be cool, my dear girl. If you cannot think I must think
-for you.” A man has not much sentiment at that hour of the morning;
-still, Steele had sympathy in his nature, and was profoundly disturbed.
-
-The servant came up with the newspapers, and Steele ordered coffee and
-rolls from the restaurant below. He threw himself into a chair, opened
-the “Eye,” and read the story through deliberately, word for word, while
-Patience walked nervously up and down the room. When he had finished he
-laid the newspaper on the table.
-
-“It’s a damned bad case,” he said.
-
-“You don’t believe I did it, do you?”
-
-He looked at her for a moment with his peculiarly searching gaze. “No,”
-he said, “you didn’t do it. You’d be even more interesting if you had.
-But that’s not the question. We’ve got to make others believe you didn’t
-do it. The first thing for you to do is to go directly back to Peele
-Manor. Tell them you came up to see Miss Merrien and to engage rooms.
-Anything you like—only go back there and wait. If you are arrested, it
-must be from there, and there must be no suggestion of fear on your
-part—you must brace up and carry it off.”
-
-The waiter entered with the coffee and rolls, and Steele made her drink
-and eat.
-
-“It is 9.45,” he said. “You can catch a train that goes between ten and
-eleven.”
-
-When Patience had finished she drew on her gloves. “I’ll go,” she said,
-“and I’ll try to do as you say. I’ve made a fool of myself, but I won’t
-again—I promise. I can be as cold as stone, you know. That’s the New
-England part of me. And so long as I know that you care I sha’n’t break
-down—in public at least.”
-
-“Oh, I care fast enough—poor little woman. Here, leave that bag, for
-heaven’s sake. You mustn’t go back with that.”
-
-
- III
-
-When Patience arrived at Peele Manor she knew before she reached the
-house that her story had been read and told. The gardener turned on his
-heel as she passed him and walked hastily away. A new stable boy stared
-at her until she thought his eyes would fly from their sockets.
-
-As she entered the front door, Hal ran forward and threw her arms about
-her.
-
-“Oh, Patience! Patience!” she sobbed hysterically. “That brutal paper!
-How could they do such a thing? Have they no heart nor soul?”
-
-“You don’t believe it then?” said Patience, gratefully.
-
-“Of course I don’t believe it—believe such a thing of _you_! Oh, I’m so
-glad you’ve come back. They were all sure you’d run away; but I knew you
-hadn’t. It is only the guilty that hide—But why on earth did you put on
-that grey frock?”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know. How can one know what one’s doing—What does your
-father say?”
-
-The girls were in one of the small reception-rooms. Hal removed
-Patience’s hat and gloves.
-
-“Oh, this has been the most terrible day of my life,” she said
-evasively. “But you must be prudent, Patience dear. You must wear
-black—What is it?”
-
-A servant had entered the room.
-
-“Mr. Peele would like to see Mrs. Beverly in the library!”
-
-Patience rose and shook herself a little, as if she would shake her
-nerves into place. Hal’s face flushed, and she turned away.
-
-As Patience crossed the hall she met Latimer Burr. He held out his hand
-and pressed hers warmly.
-
-“This is terrible, Patience,” he said; “but remember that Hal and I are
-always your friends. If the worst comes to the worst I’ll send you my
-attorney. Remember that, and don’t engage any one else, for he’s one of
-the ablest criminal lawyers in the country.”
-
-“Oh, you are good!” she said. She smiled even through the grateful tears
-which sprang to her eyes. Burr had grown a visible inch. His chest and
-lips were slightly extended.
-
-Mr. Peele sat in a large chair, his elbows on the arms, his finger-tips
-lightly pressed together. As Patience stood before him she felt as if
-transfixed by two steel lances.
-
-“You murdered my son.”
-
-“I did not.” Her courage came back to her under the overt attack.
-
-“You murdered my son. The evidence is conclusive to me as a lawyer—and
-to my knowledge of you. My error was that I regarded your threats as
-feminine ravings. I wish you to leave my house at once—within the hour.
-I shall not have you arrested, but if you are I shall appear against
-you; and I have some evidence, as you will admit. You have dishonoured
-an ancient house,” he continued with cold passion, “and you have left it
-without an heir. Its name, after nearly three hundred years in this
-country alone, must die with me. If you had borne a son I should move
-heaven and earth to get you out of the country, but now I hope to heaven
-you’ll go to the chair.”
-
-Patience shuddered and chilled, but she answered: “You despised your
-son, and you should be thankful that he left no second edition of
-himself.”
-
-“He was my son, and the last of his name. Now, kindly leave this house.”
-
-Patience went up to her room and began to pack her trunk. Hal followed,
-and when she heard what her father had said cried bitterly. She helped
-Patience to pack, assisted her into the black clothes, then walked to
-the station with her and stood conspicuously on the platform, waving her
-hand as the train moved off.
-
-
- IV
-
-Patience went directly to her old quarters in Forty-Fourth Street. She
-told the cabman not to lift her trunk down until she ascertained if
-there was a vacant room in the house. The bell was answered by a maid
-that had been there in her time. The girl stifled a scream and fled.
-Patience shut the door behind her with a hand that trembled again, and
-went slowly upstairs to Miss Merrien’s room. A solemn voice answered her
-knock. When she opened the door Miss Merrien sprang up and came forward.
-Her face was drawn, her eyes were red.
-
-“Oh, Mrs. Peele!” she cried.
-
-“Do you believe it? If you do, I’ll go at once.”
-
-“Of course I don’t believe it! How can you ask me? Sit down. How good of
-you to come here. Tell me—are you terribly frightened?”
-
-“No, I don’t think I am now. Why should I be? If I am so unlucky as to
-have been tossed up in the news hat of the ‘Eye,’ I cannot help it; and
-I suppose this is only the beginning. If I have to go to jail I have to,
-and that is the end of it; but they cannot possibly convict me, for I am
-innocent.”
-
-“Oh, you always were the bravest woman I ever knew. It is like
-you—Come.”
-
-The door opened, and the landlady entered and closed it carefully behind
-her. She was a tall thin elderly woman with a refined face stamped with
-commercial unquiet. Her grey hair was piled high. Her voice was low, and
-well modulated. She looked at Patience out of faded blue eyes in which
-there was a faint sparkle of resentment.
-
-“I see that you have a trunk on your cab, Mrs. Peele,” she said, “I am
-very sorry that I have no room.”
-
-“I had no intention of asking you for a room,” said Patience, haughtily.
-“I merely came to call on Miss Merrien; and as I have only a few moments
-to spare, I should be obliged if you would leave us alone.”
-
-The landlady retired in disorder, and Miss Merrien exhausted her
-vocabulary of invective.
-
-“What is the use?” said Patience. “She is right. In the struggle for
-bread and butter it must be self first, last, and always. If it were
-known—as it would be—that I had been arrested from her house every
-other lodger would leave. Well, I must go roof-hunting.” She laughed
-suddenly. “If I do go to jail I suppose you’ll come to interview me. I
-hope so. Good-bye.”
-
-Miss Merrien, although not a demonstrative girl, kissed her
-affectionately. “The ‘Day’ will defend you for all it’s worth—you know
-that. And I needn’t say anything about myself.”
-
-Patience told her cabman to drive to the Holland House, but when he
-stopped there she did not get out. Reflection had convinced her that no
-hotel in New York would take her in. She dared not give a false name
-lest her motive should be misconstrued. She put her head out of the
-window and gave the man Rosita’s address.
-
-“There is no other way,” she thought. “I cannot live in a cab. Mrs.
-Field would take me in, but I have no right to make such a test of
-friendship as that.”
-
-Rosita received her with open arms. She was looking very beautiful in
-flowing nainsook and lace, and exhaled a new and delicious perfume.
-
-“Patita! Patita _mia_!” she purred. “_Pobrecita!_ Who would have thought
-that this would happen to my _lili_.” (Her accent was more pronounced
-than ever.)
-
-“Can I stay with you until they arrest me, or this blows over?”
-
-“You shall stay with me forever. ‘Are we not bound by the ties of
-childhood?’ That is a line in my new opera. Isn’t it funny? Ay, Patita,
-I am so sorry.” And she sent down for the trunk and removed Patience’s
-hat.
-
-
- V
-
-The next morning Patience was awakened by Rosita’s ecstatic voice. She
-opened her eyes to see her hostess standing at the bedside, the “Eye” in
-her hand, her face radiant.
-
-“Patita!” she cried. “Read it—there is a whole column about you and
-me.”
-
-Patience sat up in bed. “Is that why you were so glad to have me come
-here?” she asked.
-
-“Patita! Do not look at me like that. Oh, if I could only look that way
-when I am stage mad!—but they always say I look like an angry baby. Of
-course, that was not the reason, Patita _mia_; but it is heavenly to be
-written about; do not you think so? And, of course, every new story
-about me—and such a sensation as this—means a perfect rush—”
-
-“Give me the paper, please.”
-
-She read the column while Rosita pattered back to her room and ate her
-dainty breakfast. Every move she had made on the day before was
-chronicled. On another page an editorial commented on the facts of her
-having visited a young man’s apartment, and finally taken refuge with
-the notorious Spanish woman.
-
-She dressed herself hastily in her black garments, and locked and
-strapped her trunk. “I’ll go straight down and give myself up,” she
-thought. “It’s what I ought to have done yesterday. It’s eleven o’clock.
-I wish it were nine. Come.”
-
-“Two gentlemen to see madame,” said the maid.
-
-“What—who—what do they look like?”
-
-“Like policemen, and yet not, madame.”
-
-Patience gasped. Her knees gave way. Again she experienced that horrible
-feeling of disintegration. Her untasted breakfast stood on a table by
-the bed. She hastily drank a cup of black coffee, then walked steadily
-to the drawing-room.
-
-“You have come for me?” she asked of the men.
-
-“Yes, ma’am.”
-
-“Where am I to go?”
-
-“To the jail at White Plains, Westchester County. You are arrested on
-charge of murder;” and he displayed the warrant.
-
-Patience touched the bell button. “Take my trunk downstairs to the cab,”
-she said to the butler. Then she stepped to the portières and said
-good-bye to Rosita.
-
-“She’s a cool one,” said one man to the other. “She done it.”
-
-They went down in the elevator. As they left it, one of the men preceded
-her, the other followed close. Both entered the cab with her. She felt
-that they were regarding her with the frank curiosity of their kind, and
-kept her eyes fixed on the street with an expressionless stare. On the
-train they gave her a seat to herself, each taking the outside of
-another, one before and one behind. The passengers did not suspect the
-meaning of the party. She saw no one she knew. It was not the line that
-passed Peele Manor. For small mercies she was duly thankful. She
-guessed, however, that a meagre wiry black-eyed young man on the
-opposite side of the aisle, a man with a mean sharp common face, was
-Bart Tripp. He stared at her until she thought she should scream aloud,
-or, what would be almost as fatal, relax the proud calm of her face. It
-was with a sigh of profound relief that she stepped from the train at
-White Plains.
-
-“We won’t meet no one,” said one of the detectives, as they entered the
-hack. “The sheriff’s got ready for you, I guess; he was wired yesterday;
-but we took good care not to say what train we was coming on, so there
-wouldn’t be no crowd. Feeling’s pretty high against you, I guess.”
-
-As they drove through the ugly little town, Patience wondered why it was
-called White Plains. She had never seen a more undulating country. One
-or two of the environing hills were almost perpendicular. She also
-noticed with the minute observance of persons approaching crises, that
-the court house was a big handsome building of grey stone, and decided
-that she liked its architecture. The extension behind, one of the
-keepers told her, was the jail.
-
-She was escorted before a police justice, who read the charge and
-explained such privileges as the law allowed her; then to the sheriff’s
-office, where she was registered. A crowd of men were in the office.
-They watched her with deep but respectful attention, as she answered the
-many questions put to her, but she managed to maintain her impassive
-demeanour. There was a buzz of excitement by this time all through the
-court house, and a little of it began to communicate itself to her. The
-few that are sustained through life’s trials by public interest are
-immeasurably fortunate. Before the sheriff—who could not have treated
-her with more consideration were she a dethroned queen—had finished,
-word had gone up into the court room, and a sudden trampling on the back
-stair indicated that the case in hand had lost its interest.
-
-“That’s all,” said the sheriff, hurriedly. “Guess you’d better get
-along.—Tarbox,” he called.
-
-A short stout man with a ruddy kind face came forward, offered Patience
-his arm, pushed his way through the crowd of men in the hall, and led
-her out of a back door and down a long yard beside the jail. At the end
-of the building he inserted a key in a lock.
-
-“Go right up, ma’am,” he said politely, and she ascended a narrow flight
-of stairs. At its head he unlocked another door, and again they
-ascended, again a door was unlocked. Then Patience stepped into a long
-low clean well-lighted room. In the middle of its length was a stove
-over which a kettle boiled. On a bench sat four women. At each end and
-on one side were low grated windows. On the other side were a number of
-grated doors.
-
-The man led Patience to the upper end of the room and swung open the
-door of the corner cell. It was a large cell, and had it not been for
-the low window with its iron bars would have been in no wise different
-from any room of simple comfort. A red carpet covered the floor. The bed
-in the corner was fresh and spotless. The rest of the furniture was new
-and convenient. There were even a large rocker and a student’s lamp.
-Over the door a curtain had been hung.
-
-“Why!” exclaimed Patience, “are all prison cells like this?”
-
-“No, ma’am, they’re not; but you see when we have a lady—which isn’t
-often—we do what we can to make her feel at home. We can’t afford to
-forget that this is the swell county of New York, you know. And of
-course you’re the finest person we’ve ever had. You’ll be treated well
-here,—you needn’t worry about that. I’ll order one of them girls
-outside to wait on you.”
-
-“You are very good.” For the first time tears threatened.
-
-“Well, I’ll try to be to you, ma’am. I’m John Tarbox, deputy sheriff,
-jailor, warden, and all the rest of it. I shall look after you. I’ll
-call twice a day, and anything you want you’ll get. If any of them
-hussies out there get to fighting just sing out the window, and I’ll
-lock them up.”
-
-“You won’t lock me in?”
-
-“Oh, no—there’s no need for that. This cell’s no stronger than the
-whole place. Well, make yourself comfortable. I’ll send over to the
-hotel to get a lunch for you. You must be hungry. Keep a stiff upper
-lip.”
-
-Patience, when she was alone, drew a long breath and looked about her.
-The cheerful room, the unexpected kindness of the sheriffs, had raised
-her spirits. She took off her hat and tossed it on the bed.
-
-“I may as well take the situation humourously,” she thought. “It helps
-more than anything else in life, I’ve discovered. This can’t last
-forever, and they can’t convict me. The serious people of this world
-have always struck me as being the most farcical. So here goes my ninth
-or tenth lesson in philosophy. Such is life.”
-
-After luncheon Mag, the improvised maid, unpacked the trunk and shook
-out the pretty garments with many expressions of rapture. Patience gave
-her a red frock, and the girl was her slave thenceforth.
-
-The afternoon hours revolved like a clogged wheel in a muddy stream.
-Excitement and novelty kept horror at bay, but she knew that it lurked,
-biding its time.
-
-When night came she lit the lamp and tried to read a magazine that
-Tarbox had brought her; but it fell from her hands again and again. Her
-ears acted independently of her will. She had never known so terrible a
-stillness. The women had gone to bed at half past seven. No voice came
-from the distant street. The silence of eternity seemed to have
-descended upon those massive walls.
-
-She was in jail!
-
-She sprang to her feet, shuddering; then set her teeth and knelt by the
-window.
-
-The heat waves of August hid the stars. Beyond the jail-yard was a mass
-of buildings, but no light in any window. Now and again a tramp came
-forth from his quarters on the ground floor and strolled about the yard,
-smoking his pipe; but he made no sound, and in his grey dilapidation
-looked like a parodied ghost. One of the women cursed loudly in her
-sleep, then collapsed into silence. An engine whistle shrieked,
-hilarious with freedom, but the rattle of the train was too distant to
-carry to straining ears.
-
-She clutched the bars and shook them, then crouched, trembling and
-gasping. She dropped forward, resting her face on her arms. Her fine
-courage retreated, and mocked her. She had no wish to recall it. She
-longed passionately for the strong arm and the strong soul of a man. The
-independence and self-reliance which Circumstance had implanted, seemed
-to fade out of her; she was woman symbolised. No shipwrecked mariner was
-ever so desolate; for nothing in all life is so tragic as a woman forced
-to stand and do battle alone.
-
-It was only when she arose, shivering and exhausted, and groped her way
-to bed, that it occurred to her that in those appalling moments she had
-not thought of Morgan Steele.
-
-
- VI
-
-In the morning she awoke with a start and a chill, and sprang out of
-bed, governed by an impulse to fling herself against the bars. But sleep
-had refreshed her, and she sat down and reasoned herself into courage
-and hope once more. The tussle with the world develops the iron in a
-woman’s blood, and Patience’s experiences of the last year and a half
-stood her in good stead now. When the girl came in to arrange her room
-and Tarbox brought her breakfast, the commonplace details completed her
-poise. The morning mail brought her letters from Steele and Hal.
-
- DEAR GIRL [Steele’s ran],—You are blue and frightened and
- lonesome. I wish I were there to cheer you up. But the first day
- will be the worst. Remember that liberty is not far off. They
- cannot convict you. I shall see you a few hours after you get
- this.
-
- M. S.
-
- Oh, Patience dear [Hal had written], it has come! I wish I could
- tell you how terribly I feel. But cheer up, old girl. It will
- come out all right—I know it will. Latimer is hustling me out
- of the country so I cannot appear as a witness—he says I would
- do you more harm than good. But he will stay and see you
- through. His attorney will call on you at once. I send you a box
- to cheer you up a little. Do write to me, and always remember
- that I am your sister
-
- HAL.
-
-The box arrived an hour later. It contained her silver toilet-set, and
-all the paraphernalia of a well-groomed and pretty woman, a bottle of
-cologne, a box of candy, eight French novels, a large box of handsome
-writing paper, and a bolt of black satin ribbon. Patience arranged the
-toilet-set on the bureau, halved the candy with the women, then sat down
-with a volume of Bourget. When Tarbox came up an hour later with a card
-she was still reading, and quite herself.
-
-“Well,” he said, “I’m glad, I am, to see you so contented and so cool,”
-he added, mopping his brow. “This gent is below. He says he’s one of the
-lawyers in the case. I hoped you’d have Bourke. He’s the smartest man in
-Westchester County! Shall I tell him to come up, or would you like to
-see him down in the sheriffs office? Anything to please you.”
-
-“Oh, here, by all means, if he doesn’t mind the stairs.”
-
-Tarbox gazed at her admiringly. “Well, ma’am,” he ejaculated, “you are
-cool, but I for one believe it’s the coolness of innocence. You never
-did murder!” and he walked hastily away as if ashamed of his enthusiasm.
-
-The lawyer’s card bore the name of Eugene A. Simms. He came up at once,
-a short thick-set man of thirty, with a square shrewd dogged face, a low
-brow, a snub nose, and black brilliant hard eyes. He came in with a
-bustling aggressive business-like air, scanning Patience as if he
-expected to find all the points of the case written upon her. Patience
-conceived an immediate and violent dislike to him.
-
-“Will you sit down?” she said stiffly. “You are Mr. Burr’s lawyer, I
-believe.”
-
-“Oh, no. That’s Bourke. He has charge of the case. I’m getting it up. I
-shall attend the coroner’s inquest and get the case in shape for Mr.
-Bourke to conduct.”
-
-The blood rose to Patience’s hair and receded to her heart, which
-changed its time; but she asked no questions.
-
-Simms leaned forward and fixed her with his unpleasant eyes. “Be
-perfectly frank with me,” he said, abruptly. “It’s best. We can’t work
-in the dark. We’ll pull you through; that’s what we are here for.”
-
-“You take it for granted that I am guilty, I suppose?”
-
-“I’m bound to say that all the revealed facts point that way. But of
-course that makes no difference to us. In fact, the harder a case is the
-better Bourke likes it—”
-
-“Does Mr. Bourke believe that I am guilty?”
-
-“I haven’t discussed it with him. He merely called me in, put the facts
-in my hands, and told me to go to work. I haven’t seen him since.”
-
-“I will be perfectly frank with you,” said Patience, who had recovered
-herself. “I did not murder Mr. Peele. I am not wholly an idiot. If I had
-wished to poison him do you suppose I would have selected the drug I was
-known to administer?”
-
-“You might have done it in a moment of passion. You had had a quarrel
-with him that night.”
-
-“So much the more reason why I would not make such a fatal mistake. It
-is quite true that when in a passion I frequently expressed the wish to
-kill him. I will also tell you that one night when dropping the morphine
-I was seized with an uncontrollable impulse to give him a double dose. I
-dropped twenty-six drops. But fortunately it takes some time to do that,
-and meanwhile the impulse weakened, and I anathematised myself as a
-fool. No man nor woman of respectable brains ever made a mistake like
-that.”
-
-“What is your own theory?”
-
-“I hardly believe that he committed suicide. I think that he was wild
-with pain, and did not count the drops. He was probably half blind. On
-the other hand, he was capable of anything when in a rage.”
-
-Mr. Simms scraped the floor with his boot-heels and beat a tattoo on his
-knee with his fingers. “Very well,” he said at last. “We take your word,
-of course. Now tell me as nearly as you can, every circumstance of that
-night, and give me a general idea of your relations with him and your
-reasons for leaving him. It is going to be one of the biggest fights
-this State has ever seen, and we want all the help you can give us.”
-
-After he had gone Patience fell into a rage. Why had not Bourke come
-himself instead of sending his underling? If he hesitated to meet her
-after the abominable words he had used that second night at Peele Manor
-why had he undertaken her case at all? Her pride revolted at the thought
-of being defended by him, of owing her life to him. Once she was at the
-point of writing him a haughty note declining to accept his services;
-but Latimer Burr’s kindness deserved a more gracious acknowledgment.
-Again, she took up her pen to inform him that unless he apologised he
-must understand that she could have no relations with him; but her
-lively fear of making herself ridiculous came to the rescue, and she
-threw the pen aside. She resumed her novel, but it had lost its flavour.
-Bourke’s face was on every page. The interview in the elm walk wrote
-itself between the French lines; and the subsequent conversation in the
-library danced in letters of red. She hated Bourke the more bitterly
-because he had once been something more to her than any other man had
-been. She worked herself into such a bad humour that she almost snubbed
-Miss Merrien and a “Day” artist who came to interview and sketch her;
-and when Morgan Steele arrived, late in the afternoon, she was as
-perverse and unreasonable as if the widowed châtelaine of Peele Manor
-with the world at her feet. He understood her mood perfectly, although
-not the cause of it, and guyed her into good humour and her native sense
-of the ridiculous.
-
-“Oh, I do like you,” she said. “You understand me so. Any other man
-would go off in a huff. And I won’t always be like this. I suppose I am
-nervous and upset and all the rest of it. Who wouldn’t be? And you know
-I am tremendously fond of you.”
-
-“I know you are,” he said dryly. “As you will have ample time for
-reflection and meditation in the next few months, you will find out just
-how fond. But I am more glad than I can say to find you in this mood. It
-is as healthy as irritability in illness. I am even willing to be
-sacrificed.”
-
-Patience put out her hand and patted his soft hair with a spasm of
-genuine affection. “You are the dearest boy in the world,” she said,
-“and I do love you. For all your uncanny wisdom and cold-blooded
-philosophy you are just a big lovable good-natured boy.”
-
-“Just the kind of fellow a woman would like to have for a brother, in
-short.”
-
-“No! No! I think it will be the most charming thing in the world to be
-married to you. You are such a compound. You will interest me forever.
-Most people are such bores after a little.”
-
-“If you hadn’t started out in life with ideas upside-down, you would
-really love me in loving me no more than you do now. But ideals and the
-fixed idea have got to be worked out to the bitter end, as you are fond
-of remarking. In reality, happiness means a comfortable state of affairs
-between a man and a woman with plenty of brains, philosophy, and
-passion, who are wholly congenial in these three matters, and have
-chucked their illusions overboard. However, we won’t discuss the matter
-any further at present. How do you like being the sensation of the day?”
-
-“Am I?”
-
-“Are you? Every newspaper in town had a big story this morning, and of
-course the news has gone all over the country. Nothing else is to be
-heard in the trains or in Park Row. Oh, you will have plenty to sustain
-you. Lots of women would give their heads to be in your place.”
-
-He dined with her and remained until eight o’clock. After he had gone,
-Patience sat for some time lost in a pleasurable reverie. He always left
-her in a good humour, and she unquestionably loved him. Few women could
-help loving Morgan Steele. She sighed once as she reflected that love
-was not the tremendous passion she had once imagined it to be; in all
-her dreams she had never pictured it as a restful and tranquillising
-element; but she conceded that Steele’s philosophy was correct.
-
-And if he did not inspire her with a mightier passion it was her fault,
-not his. Miss Merrien had told her of one brilliant newspaper woman who
-had made a wilful idiot of herself on his behalf, and of a popular and
-gifted actress who at one time had taken to haunting the “Day” office,
-much to the enjoyment of his fellow editors and to his own futile wrath.
-
-“No,” she thought, “I made a mistake once, and the shock was so great
-that it either benumbed or stunted me; or else the imaginary me was
-killed and the real developed. And after such a marriage I doubt if
-there are depths or heights left in one’s nature.”
-
-Then her mind drifted to her predicament, and she wondered that the
-workings of fear had so wholly ceased. “I suppose it is because that man
-is going to defend me,” she said, ruthlessly, at last. “They say he
-could save a man that had been caught driving a knife into another man’s
-heart with a hammer; so it is quite natural that I should feel safe.”
-
-
- VII
-
-The next day a box of books and periodicals arrived from Steele. Rosita
-thoughtfully subscribed to a clipping bureau, and sent Patience daily a
-heavy package of “stories,” editorials, and telegrams of which she was
-the heroine. Patience became so bewildered over the contradictory
-descriptions of her personal appearance, the various versions of her
-marital drama, the hundred and one theories for the murder and defence,
-the ingenious analyses of her character, and the conflicting information
-regarding her girlhood, that she wondered sometimes if a person could
-come forth from the hands of so many creators and retain any original
-birthmarks. The “Eye” telegraphed to its correspondent in San Francisco
-to investigate her childhood, and the correspondent evidently
-interviewed all her old enemies. Her mother’s happy career was detailed
-with glee, and her own “sulky, moody, eccentric, murderous propensities”
-were brilliantly epitomised. The story was entitled “She Tried To Murder
-Her Mother,” and the “Eye’s” perfervid joy at this discovery throbbed in
-an editorial.
-
-The story was copied the length and breadth of the United States; but it
-is only fair to add that Mr. Field’s eloquent leaders in her defence
-were as widely quoted.
-
-Miss Beale came to see her at once, and after a few tears and an
-emphatic warning that “this terrible ordeal was the logical punishment
-of her blasphemy of and disrespect to the Lord,” announced her intention
-to sit by her during the trial, and let the jury see what a president of
-the W. C. T. U. thought of a prisoner whose life was in their hands.
-Patience told her that she loved her, and indeed was deeply grateful.
-
-She spent her mornings reading the newspapers and attending to her
-correspondence. Tarbox always paid her a short call, and usually
-discoursed of Garan Bourke, whom he admired extravagantly. For a half
-hour before luncheon she permitted her fellow prisoners to sit before
-her in a wondering semi-circle while she manicured her nails and drew
-vivid word-pictures of the superior comforts incident upon the
-resignation of alcohol. With the exception of Mag they were
-weather-beaten creatures, with hollow eyes and weak pathetic mouths.
-They admired Patience superlatively. She was touched by their devotion,
-and occasionally read them the funny stories in the illustrated
-weeklies. They listened with open mouth and voiceless laughter, which,
-however, expressed itself vocally when the stories were told in Irish or
-German dialect. Patience gave them the papers, and they pasted the
-pictures on the walls of the corridor. Never before had the female ward
-of the White Plains Jail presented so festive an appearance. When the W.
-C. T. U. ladies came to sing to the prisoners they were inclined to be
-horrified; but Patience assured them that love of art, however
-manifested, was a hopeful sign.
-
-She was very comfortable. She had saved a thousand dollars,—to be
-exact, Miss Merrien had saved them for her,—and she could command all
-the small luxuries of prison life. The ugly walls of her cell had been
-draped with red cloth, and a low bookcase was rapidly filling with the
-literature of the moment. She would never have consented to save those
-thousand dollars had not Miss Merrien represented that by judicious
-economy she could manage to spend every third year abroad. They did her
-good service now; she could accept great favours, but not small ones.
-Graceful tributes were to be expected by every charming woman; but if
-she had been dependent upon friends for the small comforts of her daily
-life she would have gone without them.
-
-The W’s and Y’s of Mariaville forgave her, and brought her flowers,
-tracts, and spiritual admonitions. She received the former with
-gratitude and the latter with grace. Miss Merrien came as often as her
-duties permitted, and so did all the other newspaper women she had ever
-known or heard of. She was interviewed for nearly every newspaper in the
-Union, and in most cases treated with sensational kindness. Many
-strangers and a few old friends called.
-
-Steele came regularly once a week. He dared not come oftener. The “lover
-in the case” was still a mystery, and it was as well that he should
-remain so. Five other newspaper men lived in his house; therefore
-Patience’s visit had told Bart Tripp nothing beyond the fact that she
-had indubitably called on a young man at his apartments at a quarter
-past nine in the morning.
-
-But despite the fact that much of her time was occupied Patience grew
-very restless and nervous, after the novelty wore off. She spent hours
-pacing up and down the corridor, and every evening after dark Tarbox
-took her out in the jail-yard for a walk; but she had been used to long
-walks and hours in the open air all her life, and no woman ever lived
-less suited to routine and restraint of any sort. Fear did not return,
-although the coroner’s jury had pronounced her guilty and she had been
-indicted by the Grand Jury.
-
-
- VIII
-
-When the dark days of winter came little light struggled through the low
-grating, and she was obliged to keep her lamp burning most of the time.
-Steele sent her one with a rose-coloured shade which shed a cheerful
-light but hurt her eyes. When the storms began visitors came
-infrequently. Moreover, as public interest cannot be kept at concert
-pitch for any length of time, there was less and less about her in the
-newspapers. Steele, who understood the intimate relationship between
-public interest and the resignation of a prisoner, assured her that when
-her trial came off in March she would once more be the popular news of
-the day.
-
-At first the monotony of the long silent winter days was intolerable.
-But gradually, by such short degrees, that she hardly realised the
-change taking place within her, she grew to love her solitude and to be
-grateful for it. For the first time since she had left Monterey her
-hours were absolutely her own. She had longed for the solitude of a
-forested mountain top. From her prison window she could see the naked
-tops of a clump of trees above the buildings opposite, and even her
-obedient imagination could not expand them to primeval heights; but at
-least she had solitude and not a petty detail to annoy her.
-
-She sometimes wondered if it mattered where one spent the few years of
-this unsatisfactory life. Nothing was of permanent satisfaction.
-Strongly as she had been infatuated with newspaper work the interest
-would have lasted only just so long. She found her modernity slipping
-from her, herself relapsing into the dreaming child of the tower with
-vague desire for something her varied experience of the world had not
-helped her to find. Inevitably she came to know herself and the large
-demands of her nature, and as inevitably she said to Morgan Steele one
-day,—
-
-“I think you have known all along that it was a mistake.”
-
-“Yes,” he said, “I have known it.”
-
-“You have everything—everything,—good looks and distinction, brains
-and modernity, magnetism of a queer cold sort, knowledge of women and
-kindness of heart—I cannot understand. But the spark, the response, the
-exaltation is not there,—the splendid rush of emotion. I love you, but
-not in the way that makes matrimony marriage.”
-
-He looked at her with his peculiar smile, an expansion of one corner of
-his mouth which gave him something of the expression of a satyr. “You
-were badly in need of a companion, and you found one in me. You wanted
-to be understood, and I understood you. You wanted sympathy, and I
-sympathised with you; but I am not the man, and I have never for one
-moment deluded myself.”
-
-“Then why would you have allowed me to drift into matrimony with
-you?—as I should have done if I had not come here.”
-
-“Because the experiment would have been no more dangerous than most
-matrimonial experiments. And it would have been very delightful for a
-time.”
-
-“I should have loved you a good deal,” she said musingly, “and habit is
-a tremendous force. And I should never have permitted myself to
-recognise a mistake again—if the decisive step had been taken. Tell
-me—” she added abruptly, “do you believe that if I had married you that
-you would always have loved me?”
-
-“I certainly should never have been so unwise as to promise to, for that
-is something no man can foretell. The chances are that I should not. All
-phases of feeling are temporary,—all emotions, all desires, all
-fulfilment. Life itself is temporary.”
-
-“Should you have been true to me?”
-
-“O-h-h, how in thunder can a man answer a question like that? That is
-something he never knows till the time comes. If he is sensible he
-wastes no time making resolutions, and if he is honest he makes no
-promises.”
-
-“You do not love me,” she exclaimed triumphantly.
-
-“I am merely more honest, perhaps more analytical than most men,—that
-is all. The man who swears he will love forever the woman that pleases
-him most is simply talking from the depths of ignorance straight up
-through his hat. No man knows anything—what he will do or feel
-to-morrow. He knows nothing of himself until his time comes to die, and
-then he knows blamed little.”
-
-Patience shook her head. “I don’t know. You may be right in the
-analysis, but I think you lose a good deal. Love may be a species of
-insanity, but the man whose brain is crystal is not to be envied by the
-man whose brain can scorch reason and thought at times. You may save
-yourself heartbreak, but you miss heaven. If you are a type of the
-future, woman will change too. Man has been at woman’s feet throughout
-the centuries. You and your kind will place her on an exact level with
-yourselves and teach her that love means a comfortable coupling of
-personalities. Something primitive has gone out of you. You have every
-ingredient in your make-up except love. Liking and passion don’t make
-love. When it fades out of man altogether chivalry and homage will go
-with it. You would do a great deal for me, but you are incapable of any
-splendid self-sacrifice. You are entirely selfish, although in the most
-charming way.”
-
-“You are quite right,” he said smiling, “I have not much love in me;
-just enough to make life a comfortable and pleasant sojourn, but not
-enough to induce a regret were I obliged to toss it over to-morrow—”
-
-“Nor to make it a life of bitter misery did I leave it.”
-
-“No—to be perfectly frank I should not be bitterly miserable. I should
-regret—but I should work and readjust myself. I have never yet given a
-glance to the past. I give few to the future. No man gets more out of
-the present—”
-
-“I won’t be loved like that,” said Patience, passionately.
-
-He leaned forward and took her hand, patting it gently. “You have depths
-and heights in your nature which I fully appreciate but which I could
-never stir nor satisfy,” he said. “Some man will. It won’t be all that
-you expect—you have too much imagination—but you will have your day.
-With your nature that is inevitable. I am sorry to give you up. You are
-the most delightful woman I shall ever know. And if you had married me
-things would probably have gone along satisfactorily enough. I should
-have kept your mind occupied and talked to you about yourself—those are
-the secrets of success in matrimony.”
-
-“Marriage with you would be like playing at matrimony. I want a home and
-husband and children. I have seen enough to know that unless one is a
-fanatic like Miss Tremont or Miss Beale, or the temporary result of a
-new and forced civilisation like Hal, or a mercenary wanton like
-Rosita—in short, if one is woman _par excellence_, and most of us,
-clever or otherwise, even gifted, usually are, nothing else is worth the
-toil and perplexity of being alive. But you mustn’t leave me,” she added
-hurriedly; “I can’t stand it here if you don’t come to see me.”
-
-“I shall come exactly as I have done. Why not? Our love-making has
-barely progressed beyond friendship: we shall hardly recognise any
-change. I should feel lost if I could not have a talk with you once in a
-while. I intend to have that for the rest of my life. It isn’t usually
-the man that proposes the brother racket, but I merely define the basis
-upon which we have really stood all along.”
-
-After he had gone Patience drew a long sigh of relief. The first
-terrible mistake of her life was buried with Beverly Peele. A second had
-been averted. Something seemed rebuilding within her: the undeflected
-continuation of the little girl in the tower. For the first time she
-understood herself as absolutely as mortal can; and she paid a tribute
-to the zigzag of life which had helped her to that final understanding.
-
-
- IX
-
-On the third of February she received a letter, the handwriting of whose
-address made her change colour: she had seen it once on Mrs. Peele’s
-desk. It was the first communication of any sort that she had received
-from the man who was to defend her life. She opened the letter with
-angry curiosity.
-
- MY DEAR MRS. PEELE, [it read],—You will pardon me I am sure for
- not having called before this when I tell you that I have had a
- rush of civil cases which have hardly given me time for sleep
- and have kept me constantly in New York. And of course you have
- understood that there was really nothing I could do until my
- able confederate, Mr. Simms, had gathered in and digested all
- the facts in the case. Now, however, I am free, and the time has
- come when I shall be obliged to see you twice a week until the
- first of March. I have worked the harder in order to be at
- liberty to devote myself wholly to your case. Need I add how
- absolute that devotion will be, my dear Mrs. Peele, or how
- entirely every resource I possess shall be at your service?
-
- At two o’clock on Monday I shall be in the sheriff’s private
- office with Mr. Simms and my assistant, Mr. Lansing. Will you
- kindly meet us there?
-
- With highest regard, I am, dear Mrs. Peele,
-
- Yours faithfully,
- GARAN BOURKE.
-
-Patience read this carefully worded epistle twice, then laughed and
-shrugged her shoulders.
-
-“I am glad he has declared himself,” she thought. “Of course I should
-have ignored the past, but it is a relief to think that there will be no
-awkwardness.”
-
-
- X
-
-On Monday at two o’clock Tarbox came up to her cell to escort her down
-to the sheriff’s office.
-
-“Bourke’s there, and I never saw him looking better,” he said, rubbing
-his hands. “Oh, he’ll pull you through. Don’t you worry.”
-
-Patience was very nervous, but her years of self-repression and her
-experience at Peele Manor had forged a key with which she could at times
-lock nerve and muscle into subjection. As she entered the sheriff’s
-office she smiled upon Mr. Bourke as graciously as any young and
-beautiful woman would be expected to smile upon a great lawyer enlisted
-in her service.
-
-Bourke came forward with the same ballast, although the red was in his
-face.
-
-“It was better for you to come down here,” he said. “There could be no
-privacy in your cell, and we must have absolute privacy for these
-meetings. Of course you know that we are going to rehearse you. Mrs.
-Peele, this is my assistant, Mr. Lansing.” He indicated a good-looking
-well-dressed young fellow, with boyish blue eyes and a tilted nose. She
-liked him at once and gave him her hand. Mr. Simms had risen as she
-entered, and they had nodded distantly.
-
-“Take this chair, Mrs. Peele,” continued Bourke. “Yes. This is the first
-of many rehearsals. We shall keep them up until the trial. You will
-imagine yourself on the witness stand. Mr. Simms, whom, fortunately, you
-don’t like, is the district attorney, Lansing is the judge, I am the
-counsel for the defence. I shall make the direct examination, and then
-Mr. Simms will cross-examine you with all the subtlety, the venom, and
-the irritating minutiæ of a district attorney determined to make himself
-immortal. I think we have outlined with reasonable completeness all that
-will or can be asked you, so that you can hardly be taken off your
-guard: you must be prepared to give direct answers without suspicious
-promptness, and avoid saying anything that could be misconstrued.”
-
-“Must I go on the stand?” asked Patience, fearfully. “I thought one was
-not obliged to, and I shall be so nervous.”
-
-Bourke shook his head emphatically. “The judge might reiterate a hundred
-times to the jury that your failure to go on the witness stand should
-not be counted against you, and still it would count—more than
-anything. It is something a jury never overlooks. These rehearsals are
-to keep you from being nervous, as much as anything else.”
-
-“Do you believe I am innocent?” asked Patience, giving way to an
-uncontrollable impulse.
-
-“I do—both personally and professionally.”
-
-Simms laughed. “Bourke is so enthusiastic,” he said, “that if he had
-made up his professional mind that you were innocent, the personal would
-follow suit.”
-
-“No, but I do,” said Bourke, laughing, and looking at Patience with eyes
-which for the moment were more kind than keen. “Now, here goes.”
-
-When the two hours’ rehearsal were over she was very pale. “I did not
-know the case could look so black,” she said.
-
-“It is a black case,” said Simms.
-
-“Do you really take so much interest?” she asked Bourke, curiously. “You
-make me feel as if the issue were yours and not mine. Or is that only
-your professional pride?”
-
-“Bourke is the most ambitious man at the New York bar,” said Simms.
-
-“And the most human,” added Lansing.
-
-Patience smiled at the young man and turned to Bourke, whose eyes were
-twinkling. “I take a very deep personal interest in your case,” he said
-gallantly.
-
-“Bourke is an Irishman,” said Simms, with sarcasm.
-
-“We’ll excuse you,” said Bourke. “You know you have business with
-Sturges,” and Simms gathered up his papers and retired, followed by
-Lansing. As the door closed Bourke’s face changed. He became serious at
-once.
-
-“Mrs. Peele,” he said, “it would be foolish and unkind to conceal from
-you the fact that you are in a very grave position. I have never known a
-more damaging chain of circumstantial evidence. The only jury we can
-possibly get together, the only men in Westchester County who will know
-nothing about the case, will be farmers and small tradespeople. These
-men are narrow minded, unworldly, religious, bigoted people who will
-look with horror upon a woman accused of murder; who will be surlily
-prejudiced against you because you did not love your husband, and
-because you left him; and above all they are likely to think you should
-be executed if for no other reason than because,”—He hesitated. The
-blood came into his face. “Tell me, is it true? I don’t believe it. I
-can’t believe it—”
-
-“That I had a lover? No, I did not have a lover. If that spy reports
-exactly what he heard, he must himself prove that I did not. I liked—I
-do like—a man, a former editor of mine, immensely. At that time I
-believed myself in love with him; but I was as mistaken as I suppose all
-impulsive and mentally lonely people are once or oftener in their
-lifetimes. Although he visits me now we have come to a complete
-understanding. I shall not marry him.”
-
-Bourke looked at the floor for a moment. “Yes,” he said finally. “Yes.
-That is a great point, of course. Well—as a rule I can do anything I
-like with a jury in Westchester County; I know and have known for twenty
-years almost every man within forty miles; but we shall have to go out
-into the highways and byways for talesmen: your case has attracted
-almost universal attention. It is just possible, therefore, that the
-jury may convict you—Don’t be frightened—Don’t look like
-that—please!—If that happens I shall take the case to the General
-Term, and failing that, to the Court of Appeals. One way or another I
-shall get you off—I pledge you my life on that,” he added vehemently.
-“Will you put your faith in me and keep up?”
-
-“I am sure no woman could help it,” said Patience, smiling graciously.
-
-That night, somewhat to her amusement, she thought on Bourke with a
-certain sweet tremor until she fell asleep. She did not yet love him,
-but he satisfied her imagination; and he was the first man that ever
-had.
-
-
- XI
-
-Patience was rehearsed eight or ten times, Mr. Simms cross-examining by
-a different method upon each occasion, racking his brain for new points
-with which to confound her. She began to feel quite at ease on the
-witness stand, and equal to the coming tilt with the district attorney.
-Aside from a natural nervousness she felt no fear of the approaching
-crisis, rather an excited interest. The papers were booming her again,
-and she would have been less than American had she not appreciated her
-position as heroine of the most sensational drama of the day.
-
-In the last week of February, however, she received information which
-induced her first misgiving: Miss Beale was down with pneumonia. That
-superlatively healthy person loved fresh air only less than she loved
-the Lord, and slept with her windows open in mid-winter. Despite habit
-she invariably caught cold when travelling, as the one window of a small
-sleeping-room was likely to be at the head of her bed. She had defied
-Nature once too often.
-
-When Patience told Mr. Bourke of Miss Beale’s illness, the red streaked
-his face, as it had a habit of doing when he was disturbed. They were
-alone in the office.
-
-“Will it make much difference?” she asked anxiously.
-
-“Oh, no, I hope not; only she would have been a great card. She is known
-and respected throughout the county, and I should have dinned her in the
-ears of the jury. But you should have some woman with you. Is there no
-one else?”
-
-Patience shook her head. “No one that would be of use. I have few women
-friends. Women don’t like me much, I think. Mrs. Burr was my most
-intimate friend, but her husband naturally wanted to keep her out of the
-affair, and sent her off to Europe.”
-
-“It is odd. I cannot think of you as friendless. You attract and
-antagonise more strongly than any one I ever saw.”
-
-He was staring hard at her, and she turned her head away, colouring
-slightly. It was the first time they had been alone since the initial
-rehearsal, although he and the other lawyers had often lingered, after
-business was over, to talk with her. Apparently she and he were the best
-of friends, and their former acquaintance had not been recognised by a
-glance.
-
-“I wonder if we really are friends,” he said abruptly, then shook his
-shoulders slightly, as if, having made the plunge, he would not retreat.
-
-Patience beat her fingers lightly on the desk, but did not turn her face
-to him.
-
-“Our relationship is very agreeable,” she said coolly. “I am delighted
-that Mr. Simms, for instance, is not my counsel.”
-
-There was a moment’s suggestive silence, and then he said: “I
-understand. I can be nothing but counsel to you until I apologise. I
-have not done so before because there is no excuse to offer. I can only
-explain: you had deceived and outwitted and made a fool of me, and I was
-furious. Moreover, I was horribly disappointed. I am perfectly well
-aware that all that is no excuse. I was bitterly ashamed afterwards, and
-far more furious with myself than I had been with you. I have never
-ceased to deplore it. We might at least have been friends—”
-
-“Ah, you forgave me then?” asked Patience, looking at his flushed face
-with a smile. He had never looked more awkward nor more attractive.
-
-“Oh, yes; my offence was so much worse, you see, I had to.”
-
-“Well,” she said, giving him her hand gracefully, “we will forgive each
-other.”
-
-He accepted her hand promptly and evinced no disposition to relinquish
-it. “You are so cold, though,” he said ruefully. “Your forgiveness is
-merely indifference. But of course,” hastily, “you are absorbed in much
-weightier matters than friendship. I can imagine how insignificant all
-other episodes of your past must seem—”
-
-“Oh, if it were not for you I might have been here before to-day, and in
-a much worse predicament. I doubt if I should have left him as soon as I
-did if it had not been for your unpleasant truths. I was drifting, and
-also drifting toward morbidity, where I might have been capable of
-anything. If I had really killed him and been arrested I should have
-said so, and even you could not have saved me.”
-
-“Oh, it would have been easier: I could have got you off on the plea of
-insanity. But am I really a link in the chain? I am egoistical—and
-interested—enough to be—pleased.”
-
-“Oh, yes,” she said, laughing a little. “You have had a good deal more
-to do with forging some of the links than you imagine.”
-
-His hand was beginning to tremble, and she withdrew her own. He did not
-attempt to recapture it, and for a moment they regarded each other
-defensively. He had avoided the mistake of mistakes for thirty-six
-years, and the very flavour of romance about his experience with this
-woman made him wary. She had been mistaken twice and had ordered her
-imagination to sleep. Something within him pulled her, but none knew
-better than she the independent activity of sex. Still, like all women,
-fire was dear to her fingers. His eyes had a gleam in them which made
-her experience keenly the pleasurable sensation of danger.
-
-“Did you know that night that I had forgotten our conversation in the
-tower?” he said, laughing uneasily. “Well, I will admit that I had, but
-I certainly remember the conversation in the elm walk—every word of it.
-It was a singular conversation,” he continued hurriedly. “I have not
-found her yet, by the way. What is love, anyhow? Something always seems
-to be lacking. I have wanted a good many women, but there were shallows
-somewhere.”
-
-Patience had taken a chair and was fanning herself slowly. She answered
-with a judicial air, as of one deciding some abstract point to which she
-had given exhaustive study: “The lack is spiritual emotion. People of
-strong natures who are really in love are shaken by a passion that for
-the time being demands no physical expression. It is only when it
-subsides, in fact, that the other manifests itself. On the other hand,
-the unimpassioned, the physically meagre, are incapable of even
-imagining such an exaltation of emotion. It is the supreme convulsion of
-mystery. And it must be impossible to feel it more than once in a
-lifetime—for more than one person, I mean.”
-
-“Have you ever felt it?” he asked abruptly. He was sitting opposite her,
-his brows drawn together, regarding her intently. Her cool impersonality
-nonplussed him.
-
-“No.”
-
-“Then how do you know?”
-
-“From the organ. If one wants to read the riddle of human nature let him
-listen to the organ for ten minutes. It lashes the soul—the emotional
-nature—up to its utmost possibilities. One knows instinctively—that
-is, if one is given to reasoning at all; for instincts are dead letters
-without analysis—that only one other force can cause a mightier tumult,
-a greater exaltation. Those that do not reason mistake it for a desire
-to spread their wings and fly to the throne of grace.”
-
-Bourke set his lips and looked at the floor. “Of course you are right,”
-he said. “A man would never know that until he had felt it. It takes a
-woman to divine it. Perhaps it is as well he doesn’t know it—there is
-one disappointment the less in life if such moments never come to him;
-and I doubt if they come to many. Either the savage is too strong in
-most of us, or we never come within range of the responsive spark. I
-have held that if there is any meaning at all in the progress of man out
-of barbarism it is that he shall become a brain with a refinement and
-intensity of passion which shall give happiness without disgust. But you
-go beyond me.”
-
-“Oh, we are both right,” said Patience, rising. “We are much better off
-than our ancestors. I like so much to talk to you. When I am free you
-must come to see me often.”
-
-“I shall, indeed. How gracefully you fan yourself. I never saw any one
-use the fan in exactly the same way.”
-
-“I learned how from the old Spanish women in Monterey. They hold the
-thumb outwards, you know. That makes all the difference in the world.
-_Au revoir._”
-
-
- XII
-
-The trial began on the eighth of March. Patience slept ill the night
-before, and arose early. She looked forward to the day’s ordeal with
-mingled nervousness and curiosity. Her faith in Bourke was complete, and
-her mind was of the order that craves experience. She could not divest
-herself of the idea that she was about to play the part of heroine in a
-great human drama. And assuredly there has been no such theatre as the
-court room since the world began.
-
-She dressed herself with extreme care, in a tailor frock and toque of
-black and white. The costume was becoming, but she shook her head at her
-reflection in the mirror: hers was not the type of beauty to appeal to
-the class of men in whose hands her life would be; rather they would
-resent its cold pride, its manifest of race and civilisation. She
-remembered her youthful satisfaction in the fact that “common men did
-not like her.” Rosita or Honora would carry a jury by storm, but she was
-too subtle to appeal to men outside of her own social sphere. Tarbox
-liked her because she was game and dependent on him for comfort: it was
-doubtful if he thought her pretty. He came up at ten minutes to ten. He
-wore a new suit of clothes, and looked excited and impatient.
-
-“There’s a lot of swells come,” he said without preliminary; “some from
-New York and some from the county. We’ve got ’em up in the gallery, and
-they look fine in their new spring clothes, I tell you. First time I
-ever seen swells in this court house. I rather thought they didn’t go in
-for that kind of thing.”
-
-“They go in for fads, and you can as easily tell where lightning will
-strike next as what will be the next fad to possess fashionable women.
-Where is Mr. Bourke?”
-
-“Up in the court room, I guess. Ready?”
-
-A few moments later he led her up the stair at the back of the court
-room. A crowd of men at the door parted to let her enter, staring at her
-with eager curiosity. As she walked down the room to her seat beside her
-counsel she was conscious of a deep level of men’s faces below and a
-tier of high-bred faces and bright spring gowns in the gallery above.
-She felt as if she were being shot upon a battery of eyes, and an
-impulse to turn and run; she looked like a black and white effigy of
-pride.
-
-The large handsome room was tinted a pale blue and stencilled about the
-mouldings. The Bench and panelling behind it, the desks and tables, were
-of black walnut. Four long windows on each side of the room revealed the
-naked trees of March and the cheerless landscape. On the right of
-Patience’s chair was the empty jury box, before her the Bench. In the
-space thus formed—flanked on the other side by the talesmen summoned
-for the trial and at the back by the audience—was a right angle of long
-study tables, three or four round tables, and many chairs. Every chair
-was occupied. Writing pads lay on the smaller tables. Patience
-recognised several of the reporters. By one of the long tables before
-the jury box sat Bourke, Simms, and Lansing. The former whispered to her
-that many of the men within the rail were eminent lawyers who had come
-to hear the case tried.
-
-The judge sat alone on the Bench: an old man with pink face and head and
-neck, a close band of silver hair at the base of his skull. His face was
-narrow, his upper lip long. On either side of his mouth was a deep rut.
-The nose was coarse and strong, the eyes behind the spectacles
-humourous, severe, and a little sly. His silver chin-tuft was shaped
-like the queen of hearts.
-
-Just below the Bench, beside one of the long tables, sat a man whom
-Patience did not notice at once, but to whom, as the judge called the
-court to order, she turned suddenly, conscious of a fixed gaze. He sat
-with one arm along the table, the other hand absently rolling a piece of
-paper. His narrowed eyes were regarding her with cold speculation.
-Patience shuddered. She knew that he was Sturges, the district attorney.
-Tarbox had told and retold the history of his jealousy of Bourke, and
-his registered vow to win one of the great legal battles of which they
-were occasionally chief combatants. And this was the greatest! The man’s
-face was set. He looked like a fate.
-
-The clerk called a name. A man shuffled into the jury box. Sturges stood
-up and put the usual questions. He spoke with exaggerated courtesy.
-Occasionally he smiled: a mechanical smile, as if an invisible string
-connected each corner of his mouth with a manipulator at the back of his
-head. His voice was soothing and cultivated, his manner almost
-deferential to the humble man in the box. Patience followed every motion
-and word with fascinated attention. When he asked the talesman if he had
-“any conscientious scruples regarding capital punishment as practised in
-this State,” she felt the touch of icy fingers and her feet slipping
-into an open grave. Bourke, who divined her sensations, smiled
-encouragingly; and after she had heard the question some fifty times,
-she ceased to attach any personal meaning to it.
-
-They were four days impannelling the jury. The first time Patience stood
-up to face an accepted juror she regarded the hairy and ill-kept farmer
-with such haughty and disdainful eyes that Bourke whispered hurriedly:
-“For God’s sake don’t look at them like that or they’ll send you up out
-of spite. Remember that this class of people is always at war with its
-betters.”
-
-“I can’t help it,” said Patience. “It’s humiliating to think of being at
-the mercy of men like that.”
-
-When the box was filled at last she regarded the occupants attentively.
-They were hard-featured men of middle age, with long bare upper lip and
-compressed mouth. Their grey skin was furrowed with lines of care and
-hardship, their chin whiskers grizzled and scant. Their eyebrows stood
-out over faded eyes in wrinkled sockets. But what excited Patience’s
-wonder was the small size of the heads. She had never seen twelve heads
-so little. They were hardly an advance upon their hairy ancestors.
-Throughout the trial she furtively watched the twelve faces of those
-twelve meagre heads. Never once did their expression, stolid and set,
-change. At night they haunted her. She awoke in the morning with a
-violent start, seeing them for a moment in a row on the foot board of
-her bed. She speculated, at times, upon the lives of those men, those
-pinched grubbing lives, and felt for them a sort of terrified pity. What
-a mere glimpse of the world she had had, after all, and what ugly strata
-it had! What was the matter with civilisation?
-
-
- XIII
-
-On the fourth day the district attorney opened the case with an address
-to the jury which was a masterpiece of temperate statement and damning
-suggestion. He dwelt long upon the remarkable points of the case: the
-youth and beauty and intelligence and social position of the defendant,
-the distinguished family which had been plunged into sorrow and disgrace
-by her crime, the extraordinary interest the crime had excited
-throughout the civilised world. He then gave a running account, clear
-and straightforward and decisive, of what the prosecution would prove,
-and concluded with a cold, terse, but reiterated warning that the
-prisoner at the bar was entitled to no sympathy because of her sex and
-position; that he and the jury were there for one purpose only: to
-consider the facts of the case and to do their plain duty, utterly
-regardless of consequences to the individual. Every word was chosen and
-weighed, and told like the ring of a steel hammer on a steel plate.
-
-Dr. Lewis was then called to prove the fact of Beverly Peele’s death,
-and his vigorous story weighed heavily in the scales against the
-defence. The moment the district attorney sat down Bourke was on his
-feet. For a moment he stood lifting and shaking the loose cloth of the
-table beside him; then asked one or two random questions which put the
-witness for the prosecution quite at his ease. In the course of a moment
-the witness began to writhe, and at the end of five minutes manifested
-his consciousness of the fact that he was a small country practitioner,
-to be regarded by any intelligent jury with contempt. Nevertheless, it
-was impossible to shake his testimony.
-
-He was followed by the New York physician, a man of eminence, who had
-assisted at the death-bed, then by the coroner. The fact of young
-Peele’s death being firmly established in the jury box, a chemist was
-put upon the stand to testify that he had found morphine in the stomach
-of the deceased. He was worried and badgered and ridiculed and derided
-by Bourke, who temporarily infected everybody in the court room with his
-scorn of the exercise of chemistry as applied to morphine in the stomach
-of a dead man, but held his ground, having been maltreated in a like
-manner many times before. Following, came a civil engineer, who
-described the grounds and general position of Peele Manor to the jury;
-and the testimony for the day was over.
-
-The next morning the prosecution passed on to the motive. Honora was the
-first witness called. She wore a black frock and hat, and looked
-dignified and sad. In her clear childlike voice she described to the
-jury her moment of confusion and horror when awakened from a profound
-sleep by the prisoner; told the mournful story of the unavailing
-attempts at resuscitation; and hesitatingly admitted, in full detail,
-the unmistakable indifference of the wife. To the latter testimony Mr.
-Bourke “objected,” as he had done to similar testimony by the doctors,
-but the objection was over-ruled by the judge. She also admitted having
-seen from her window the defendant returning from town after her early
-visit on the morning of the “Eye” story, inappropriately attired in grey
-and pink, and having discovered the newspapers in confusion on the
-library floor before any other member of the household except the
-prisoner had arisen. She related Patience’s previous complaint that her
-husband always waited until she was in her first heavy sleep before
-demanding the morphine, and her fear lest she should some night give him
-an overdose. The jury must have been small headed indeed, to fail to
-understand the district attorney’s insinuations regarding the prisoner’s
-deep-laid scheme to avert suspicion.
-
-As Honora gave her testimony Patience saw Mr. Bourke’s eyes sparkle. She
-knew that some pregnant idea had flashed into that lightning-like brain.
-As the district attorney took his seat he rose slowly and smiled
-sociably at Honora. She bent her head slightly; she had always liked
-him.
-
-“Miss Mairs,” he said haltingly, his eyes wandering to the judge, as if
-in search of inspiration, his hand flirting the loose cloth of the
-table, “you are sure that Mrs. Peele wore a gray gown to New York that
-morning?”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“And the condition of the newspapers seemed to you to indicate great
-agitation of mind?”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“Yes, yes. And she returned in an hour or two, you say?”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“Miss Mairs!” he thundered, turning suddenly upon her and pointing a
-rigid finger straight at her startled face, “are you sure that you were
-asleep when Mrs. Peele awakened you on the night of Beverly Peele’s
-death?”
-
-Patience drew her breath sharply. She closed her eyes. Honora had not
-been asleep that night! The certainty came to her as suddenly and as
-positively as it had come to Bourke.
-
-For the fraction of a moment Honora hesitated. Every man and woman in
-the court room was breathless. Several had started to their feet.
-
-“Quite sure,” she replied finally, and that silver shallow voice did not
-falter.
-
-“You are _sure_ that you heard no one go to the lavatory that night,
-before Mrs. Peele spoke to you?” He hurled the words at her as the Great
-Judge might hurl the final sentence on Judgment Day.
-
-“Sure.”
-
-“Was your door open that night?”
-
-“I don’t remember.”
-
-Patience leaned over and whispered to Lansing, who sprang forward and
-whispered to Bourke.
-
-“The night was hot,” continued Bourke. “Were you not in the habit of
-leaving your door open on hot nights?”
-
-“Sometimes.”
-
-“Was it not always your custom?”
-
-“Not always. When I thought of it I opened the door, but I frequently
-forgot it.”
-
-“Yes! Yes! You are quite sure you cannot remember whether or not it was
-open on that night?”
-
-“I cannot remember.”
-
-“Do you remember any other nights on which Mrs. Peele went to the
-lavatory to drop the morphine?”
-
-“Yes, sir; a great many.”
-
-“But of this all important night you remember nothing?”
-
-“No, sir.”
-
-“Yes! Mrs. Peele never was called upon to drop the morphine until after
-twelve o’clock. Were you in the habit of lying awake until late?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“But on this night you went to sleep early?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“You heard or saw—you are on your oath, remember—nothing whatever
-until Mrs. Peele called you?”
-
-“Nothing.”
-
-“You can go.—She is lying,” he whispered to Patience. “Damn her, I’ll
-make her speak yet if I have to throttle it out of her.”
-
-Mr. Peele was the witness next called. He was treated with extreme
-diffidence by the district attorney, and even the judge gave him a
-fraternal smile. He told the story of the momentous night with parental
-indignation finally controlled, then, in spite of repeated “objections”
-and constant nagging, the significant tale of wifely indifference and
-desertion, and read to the jury “that cruel letter written to a dying
-man” the day before the defendant returned to nurse her husband. He
-repeated with the dramatic effect of the legal actor those dark
-insinuations of the prisoner: “You had better let me go! I feel that I
-shall kill him if I stay!” And later in the town house when she had
-struck her husband in the face: “You had better keep him out of my way.
-Do you know that once I tried to kill my own mother?”
-
-He told of her eager interest in untraceable poisons one night when the
-subject of murder had come up at the dinner-table, her cold-blooded
-analysis of human motives.
-
-Then he passed on to the painfully significant history of the day before
-the death: her demand for a divorce; her fury at her husband’s refusal;
-her acknowledgment that she had quarrelled violently with the deceased a
-short time before calling the family to his death-bed.
-
-As he spoke Patience’s blood congealed. The woman he depicted was enough
-to inspire any jury with horror. It was herself and not herself, a
-Galatea manufactured by a clever lawyer.
-
-But it was Mr. Bourke’s privilege to give the Galatea a soul. Despite
-the older man’s greater legal experience, his superior wariness and
-subtlety, he was forced to admit that his son was a fool; that his son’s
-wife was a woman of brilliant intellect driven to desperation at being
-tied down to a fool; that so long as she had lived with him she had done
-her duty; that when she had returned as his nurse she had fulfilled her
-part of the contract to the letter; that never had she given her husband
-cause for real jealousy; that the witness himself had made a companion
-of her, and that he had been bitterly disappointed in his son.
-
-The terrible facts could not be stricken out, but Mr. Peele,
-nevertheless, was made to pass the most uncomfortable hours of his life.
-“And in spite of these threats,” exclaimed Bourke, with the accentuation
-of one addressing an idiot at large, “in spite of the precision with
-which you remembered them, you permitted your family to implore her to
-return and become your son’s nurse; you permitted her to sleep in a room
-communicating with his, where, in a fit of passion—if she is the woman
-you profess to believe her to be—she could have murdered him in the
-dead of night with a carving knife or a hatchet, before any one—even
-the lightly sleeping Miss Mairs—could have flown to the rescue; you
-permitted her—” he turned suddenly and faced the jury, then wheeled
-about and regarded Mr. Peele with scornful inquiry—“you permitted her
-to drop morphine for your son, and to have unrestrained access to the
-drug, knowing that he in his agony would swallow whatever she gave him
-without question. Will you kindly explain to the jury whether this mode
-of proceeding was ingenuousness on your part, or criminal connivance?”
-
-Mr. Peele’s under lip pressed the upper almost to the septum of his
-nose. His eyes half closed and glittered unpleasantly; but he controlled
-himself and answered,—
-
-“I paid no attention to her threats at the time.”
-
-“Ah! You did not believe in them? You admit that?”
-
-“I classed them with the usual hysterical ravings of women. That was my
-error.”
-
-“State, if you please, your specific reasons for your change of mind.
-You will hardly, as a lawyer, claim to have been converted to the
-defendant’s capacity for crime by the mere fact that your son died of an
-overdose of morphine?”
-
-And throughout the long day Mr. Bourke hectored him, fighting him, point
-by point, smashing to bits his testimony relative to the events of the
-day preceding the death, evidence to which he was not an eye-witness,
-which he had received at second hand from his wife and son. The “cruel
-letter written to a dying man” was disposed of in a similar manner.
-
-“You believed your son to be in a precarious condition when you
-counselled them to send for your son’s wife?”
-
-“I did.”
-
-“But you believed with the doctors that if she returned, thereby
-bringing him peace of mind as well as tender care, he had excellent
-chances for life?”
-
-“I did.”
-
-“And Mrs. Burr was instructed to present that phase of the question to
-the defendant, with all the force of which she was capable?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“And the defendant so understood it?”
-
-“I suppose she did.”
-
-“And yet you assert that this purely business-like letter, written by a
-self-respecting woman, was addressed to a dying man, while at the same
-time you assert that this man could be cured by the gratification of a
-whim, and that you had taken particular pains to make the defendant
-aware of the fact!”
-
-When Mr. Peele finally left the stand, he looked battered and limp.
-
-
- XIV
-
-As soon as the court had opened on the following morning, Mrs. Peele was
-called. She looked haughtily askance at the worn Bible as the clerk
-rattled off the oath, bent her head as would she whiff upon what
-plebeian lips had touched so often and so evidently, and took the
-witness chair as were she mounting a throne. She was apparelled in
-crape. Only her intimate friends could have told whether the backward
-bend of her head was due to the weight of her veil or the weight of her
-ancestors. At first she stared at the district attorney with haughty
-resentment, as, for the benefit of the humble jury, he curtly asked her
-several direct questions; but remembering that he was “a Sturges,” and
-also recalling her husband’s admonitions, she unbent, and even
-condescended to address the jury. Her tale of the night in no wise
-differed from her husband’s; but her accentuation of Patience’s dark
-threats and marital deficiencies was all her own. Her suggestion of a
-lover in the case caused a sudden movement in the jury box, although the
-stolid faces did not relax. Under cross-examination much of her
-testimony was as effectually demolished as her husband’s had been.
-
-Two maid servants followed. They testified to violent quarrels between
-the young couple. Then the butler testified to the reiterant and
-emphatic command of the prisoner on the day before the death to send to
-New York for morphine.
-
-The prosecution produced its trump card: the stable boy who had spied
-upon the interviews between the prisoner and the mysterious lover. The
-man had evidently been carefully rehearsed—as Bourke later on pointed
-out to the jury—for his memory of the eight or ten interviews he had
-witnessed needed little refreshing. His “best recollection” was given
-glibly and ungrammatically. He dilated upon the young man’s remarkable
-personal beauty, and observed that it far outshone his beloved Mr.
-Beverly’s. They had talked principally of books in all but the last two
-interviews, but had looked perfectly happy. His account of the last two
-interviews created a profound impression in the court room, even the
-jury leaning forward slightly. The judge frowned and wheeled his chair
-sharply when the man gave the gist of the prisoner’s matter-of-fact
-objection to living with a man who was not her husband.
-
-Mr. Bourke’s rich voice had never rung with deeper indignation and
-disgust, never shaped itself to more cutting sarcasm than when he made
-the man see himself and the jury see him as a coward, a cur, a spy, a
-liar, an eager schemer for an innocent woman’s life. “You felt it your
-duty,” he concluded, “to spy upon a woman of irreproachable reputation
-who met a friend in an open wood in broad daylight—Yes, yes,” with all
-the lingering scornful emphasis which only he could give that simple
-word. “You never felt yourself a cowardly scoundrel meddling in what was
-none of your business—No! No!” He turned to the jury with the passion
-still upon his face, but when he took his seat he smiled encouragingly
-to his admiring young client.
-
-“Wouldn’t he make an actor?” whispered Simms. “I never saw him do the
-lofty indignation act with finer effect.”
-
-“Well, he would be a great actor, at least,” retorted Patience, “and I
-am convinced that you would be a very small one.”
-
-“Just wait,” said Simms, angrily. “I’ve got to talk to this jury about
-you in a day or two, and if you don’t forget I ever doubted you I’ll eat
-my hat. The best lawyer’s the best fakir, and a few days from now you’ll
-see what an ambitious man I am.”
-
-“Miss Rosita Thrailkill,” called the district attorney when the court
-opened next morning. The audience stood up to a man.
-
-A plump willowy Spanish figure undulated behind the jury box, kissed the
-Bible reverently, and ascended the witness stand. Rosita was clad in
-black and yellow, a mantilla in place of a hat, and many diamonds. She
-looked as pretty and as naughty as possible. As she met Patience’s eyes,
-she wafted her a kiss, and the prisoner groaned in spirit. She gave her
-name and birthplace with melodious caressing accent and her marked
-precision of speech. Yes, the defendant had been her dear friend, her
-best friend, her only intimate friend. Yes, with unaffected reluctance,
-Mrs. Sparhawk had been disreputable, and Patience had once attempted her
-life. Yes, she was the prima donna of light opera known as La Rosita.
-Did she appear before the public in tights and scant attire? Yes, why
-not? Had she not had a number of lovers? Objected to and sustained.
-Flashing indignation of soft Spanish eyes. Did she not have the
-reputation of being a woman of loose and lawless life? Objected to and
-sustained. Angry rattle of fan. Was it not in her house that the
-prisoner was arrested? Yes, it was! and she loved her Patita and would
-always give her shelter.
-
-When the district attorney sat down with an ugly smile on his thin
-mouth, Bourke, muttering anathema, rose to his feet.
-
-“Was there ever a whisper against your reputation when you were a
-school-girl in Monterey and most intimate with the prisoner?”
-
-“No, _señor_!” cried Rosita, paying no attention to the objection. “I
-was a child, and could not even endure boys.”
-
-“How many times have you seen the defendant since you left Monterey?”
-
-Rosita cast up her eyes, then tapped the sticks of her fan successively
-as she spoke.
-
-“Once she came to see me just after—ah—WCTU died; then once just
-before she left Mr. Peele; then that day the ‘Eye’ came out and said she
-had done this so horrible thing. _Ay, dios!_”
-
-“She has called upon you three times only, then, since you were children
-in Monterey, since you have been the Rosita of the public; in the last
-five years, in short?”
-
-“_Si, señor_—yes, sir.”
-
-“How long did she remain upon her first visit?”
-
-“Oh, only a little while. I told her something that shocked her, for she
-was always so proper.”
-
-“What did you tell her?”
-
-“Objected to,” cried the district attorney.
-
-“Objection sustained,” snapped the judge.
-
-“How long did she remain on her second visit?”
-
-“About a half hour. I never knew what she came at all for. She just
-floated in and out.” Rosita waved her arm with enchanting grace.
-
-“Did she tell you why she came the third time?”
-
-“Because she had no other place to go to. She said no hotel would take
-her in.”
-
-“She said that her old landlady had refused to admit her, did she not?”
-
-“_Si, señor._”
-
-“Yes, yes!—and that in her terrible extremity she naturally turned to
-the friend of her childhood?”
-
-“_Si!_” and Rosita wept.
-
-“But that she should not have gone to your house if there had been any
-possibility of obtaining entrance to a hotel, or if she had not been
-turned out of her father-in-law’s house?”
-
-“_Ay, yi!_ yes.”
-
-“That is all. You can go.”
-
-During the rest of that day and the two following days the experts for
-the prosecution had the stand. The innumerable questions asked by the
-district attorney, the technical details of the cross-examinations, the
-constant interruptions, and the minutiæ of the evidence emptied the
-court room after the first hour, and even Patience became bored, and
-fell to thinking of other things, not forgetting to pity those twelve
-puzzled little heads in the jury box.
-
-The gist of the evidence was that there was enough morphine in Beverly
-Peele’s stomach to kill two men.
-
-
- XV
-
-“Our turn has come,” said Lansing to Patience on the morning after the
-expert testimony was concluded. “We are confident of success now.”
-
-“But the facts are hideous, and they have painted me black.”
-
-“Mr. Bourke scraped off a good deal, and he’ll have the rest off before
-he gets through. If he could only make that lying woman open her mouth!
-You’ve borne yourself splendidly. Keep in good condition for the witness
-stand. Are you frightened?”
-
-“No,” she said, smiling at Bourke gratefully. “Not a bit.”
-
-Simms opened the case for the defence.
-
-He had a harsh strident voice. He gesticulated as if practising for a
-prize fight, doubling back and springing forward. He cleared his throat
-with vicious emphasis and rasped his heels upon the floor. His
-statements were dry and matter-of-fact, his language bald; but he made a
-direct vigorous and enthusiastic speech. The jury was informed that it
-was there to save the life of one of the most brilliant and high-minded
-young women of the age,—a woman utterly incapable of murder or of any
-violent act, a woman with the mild and meditative mind of the student.
-That it would be proved not only that she was far too clever to take
-life by such clumsy methods, but that she had no object, as she had
-gained her liberty, and the lover was a myth. The whole prosecution was
-a malignant and personal prosecution of an innocent but too gifted woman
-by an absurdly conceited family that had resented her superior
-intelligence. This and much more of fact and fancy. But Patience, with
-perverse feminity, liked him none the better, and would not even look at
-him when he sat down.
-
-Mr. Field was the first witness for the defence. Although compelled
-under cross-examination to admit the prisoner’s interest in subtle
-poisons, he managed to convey to the jury that it was merely the result
-of an unusually brilliant and inquiring mind, a thought born of the
-moment, of his suggestion. He gave the highest tribute to her
-cleverness, her work on his paper, and to her reputation.
-
-Latimer Burr was called next, and spoke with enthusiasm of her
-“unfailing submission to a man of abominable and savage temper until
-submission ceased to be a virtue.” He had never heard her utter any
-threats to kill. Yes, it was true that he had engaged counsel for
-defence. He believed in her thoroughly.
-
-Miss Merrien, her landlady, and Mrs. Blair were put on the stand next
-morning, and the good character they gave Patience was unshaken by the
-nagging of the district attorney. Mr. Tarbox testified to her demeanour
-of innocence during her imprisonment.
-
-“But the defence is weak all the same,” whispered Patience to Lansing.
-“Not a word can be said in rebuttal. Only Mr. Bourke’s eloquence can
-save me.”
-
-“Good character goes a long way,” replied Lansing. “You have no idea of
-its weight with a jury, particularly with a jury of this kind.”
-
-Patience was put on the witness stand next. The supreme effort to
-overcome nervousness gave her an icy and repellent demeanour. Never had
-she held her back as erect, her head as high. She kept her eyelids half
-lowered, and spoke with scarcely any change of inflection. She told the
-story of the night as she had told it in rehearsal many times. There had
-been a quarrel an hour before she heard the deceased get up and go to
-the lavatory. She offered to drop his morphine, and he replied with an
-oath that she should never do another thing for him as long as he lived,
-that he hoped she would leave the house by the first train next morning.
-His sudden silence upon his return to his bed excited her apprehension,
-and she called the family.
-
-When Bourke sat down and the district attorney arose and confronted her
-she shivered suddenly. Bourke’s rich strong voice and kind magnetic gaze
-had given her courage, but this man with his eyes like grey ice, his
-mechanical smile, and cold smooth voice conjured up a sudden awful
-picture of the execution room at Sing Sing. Her insight appreciated with
-exactitude the pitiless ambition of the man, knew that he stood pledged
-to his future to send her to her death. He made her admit all the
-damning facts of the evidence against her, the facts which stood out
-like phosphorescent letters on a black wall, and to acknowledge her
-abhorrence of the man that had been her husband. But all this had been
-anticipated: at least he could not confuse her.
-
-Again two days and a part of a third were monopolised by experts. These
-two illustrious chemists testified, through the same bewildering mass of
-detail as that employed by their equally illustrious predecessors, that
-there was not enough morphine in Beverly Peele’s stomach to kill a cat.
-
-There was a short interval, after the second expert had been permitted
-to leave the stand, during which Bourke and Simms and Lansing conferred
-together, preparatory to the summing up of the former. As Bourke was
-about to rise, the district attorney stood up, cleared his throat, and
-said: “One moment, please. Will Miss Honora Mairs kindly take the
-stand?”
-
-Bourke was on the alert in an instant. “The case for the prosecution has
-closed,” he said.
-
-“This is by special permission of the Court,” replied the district
-attorney, coldly.
-
-As Honora ascended the stand there was a deep murmur of admiration. She
-looked like an angel, nothing less. She wore a white lawn frock, girt
-with a blue sash; a large white leghorn lined with azure velvet, against
-which the baby gold of her hair shone softly. Her great blue eyes had
-the clear calm serenity of a young child. Patience drew her breath in a
-series of short gasps. Bourke sat with clenched hands.
-
-“We understand,” said the district attorney, severely, “that you did not
-tell all you knew the other day, and that you have signified your
-willingness to now tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the
-truth. Is this true?”
-
-Honora bowed her head with an expression of deep humility, as a child
-might that had been justly rebuked.
-
-“You had not slept at all upon that fatal night?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Your door was open?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“You did see somebody enter the lavatory?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Whom did you see?”
-
-There was a moment’s breathless silence, during which Patience wondered
-if a clock had ever ticked so loudly, or if the sun had ever shone with
-so vicious a glare.
-
-“Whom did you see?” repeated the district attorney.
-
-“The prisoner.”
-
-“What did she do?”
-
-“She dropped some thirty or forty drops of morphine, I should say, then
-half filled the glass with water, as usual.”
-
-“You did not see the deceased go to the lavatory that night.”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Nor any one else until the defendant called you?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“That is all.”
-
-Mr. Bourke sprang to his feet, his nostrils dilating, his fine face
-quivering with unassumed scorn and indignation.
-
-“You admit that you perjured yourself the other day?”
-
-“I could not make up my mind to—”
-
-“Never mind what you had not made up your mind to do. You admit that you
-perjured yourself?”
-
-“Yes,” gently.
-
-“That in other words you lied.”
-
-“Yes, sir.” Her voice was like the quiver of a violin.
-
-“What proof are we to have that you are not lying now?”
-
-“I am not lying. My conscience gave me no rest.”
-
-“It will give you more, I suppose, if you will have succeeded in
-swearing away the life of an innocent woman. Yes, yes!—Exactly how long
-did Mrs. Peele remain in the lavatory?”
-
-“I cannot remember. Five or ten minutes.”
-
-“State the exact time.”
-
-“Perhaps five.”
-
-“And a few moments later when she ran into your room you pretended to be
-asleep: Why did you assume sleep; what reason had you for lying at that
-time?”
-
-“I had dropped off.”
-
-“You had been sufficiently wide awake five minutes before to note
-precisely all these other things, and then had promptly fallen into a
-sound sleep. Is that your usual habit?”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“Did you speak to the prisoner when she came into the lavatory?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“Were not you in the habit of holding a conversation with her upon such
-occasions?”
-
-“Yes, sir.”
-
-“Why did you not address her on that night?”
-
-“I was very sleepy, and had nothing in particular to say.”
-
-“But you were not too sleepy to note carefully all the details in the
-evidence you have just given. You can go,—and to the devil,” he
-muttered. He thrust his hands into his pockets and wheeled about,
-looking at Patience with such intensity of gaze that she moved suddenly
-forward. Her face was pale, but her eyes blazed with rage. Bourke
-glanced at the clock.
-
-“It is twenty minutes to one,” he said. “I would ask your honour to
-adjourn until two. I must have time to digest this new testimony. Its
-remarkable glibness prevented me from giving it the running deliberation
-that it demanded.”
-
-The judge sulkily dismissed the court. As Patience passed out of the
-room with Tarbox she heard the word “angel” more than once, and knew
-that it did not refer to her.
-
-Patience was not conscious of fear as she ate her luncheon. Her heart
-was black with rage. “I’d willingly murder _her_,” she thought, “and my
-conscience wouldn’t trouble me the least little bit.”
-
-
- XVI
-
-Immediately after recess Mr. Bourke began his summing up. He commenced
-quietly, shaking the loose cloth of the table in an absent manner. His
-language was colloquial as he spoke to the jury of its grave
-responsibilities, and complimented it upon the “unusual intelligence
-which it had so far made evident.” He passed naturally to the subject in
-hand, and dwelt eloquently upon the character of the defendant, of her
-lonely pathetic youth, her high ideals, her remarkable intelligence, her
-ignorance of the world which had led her to fall in love with the first
-handsome and attractive man that had addressed her.
-
-His voice rose to tragic pitch as he dwelt upon the terrible awakening
-of such a woman, bound for life to such a man,—a sensual, ill-tempered,
-selfish brute, who was a disgrace to the nineteenth century.
-
-He depicted two years of uncomplaining wifely devotion (until Patience
-became lost in admiration of the defendant), the husband’s frantic rages
-about nothing, his unrecognition of her superiority, his ignorant
-determination to make her his slave—his plaything—she, a woman whom
-such men as James E. Field and Gardiner Peele delighted to honour.
-
-Then he dropped again into pathos (which never for a moment degenerated
-into bathos) and described the desolate life of such a woman in an empty
-frivolous brainless society (faint murmur and indignant rustle in the
-gallery), a society of idle people with neither soul nor intelligence,
-but who squandered the money wrested from the People, the great People,
-of whom the Gentlemen of the Jury were twelve worthy and doubtless long
-suffering members.
-
-It was not until he had emphasised and recapitulated with every resource
-of his splendid vocabulary, every modulation of his glorious voice, by
-controlled and telling gesture, by sudden tremendous bursts of
-indignation, the married life of the prisoner, that he passed to the day
-and night of the tragedy. He began with the morning, and dwelt upon
-every detail of the day. Before he reached midnight he had Beverly Peele
-in a frame of mind for both suicide and murder. He sent him to bed with
-black skin and white flecked nose and chaos in his heart. With a
-magnificent burst of scorn he quoted his shameful language when his wife
-had offered to get him the morphine, the oaths he had used to a “refined
-and elegant and patient woman.” Then he took him to the lavatory, showed
-him jerking the stopper from the morphine bottle, and recklessly pouring
-a fourth of its contents into a glass. “He knew that he had to die
-anyhow, and he could at least die happy in a hideous revenge.” In brief
-and vivid phrase he cited several similar instances in legal history.
-
-Then he returned to Peele Manor and denounced the jealous woman who for
-five years had nursed fury in her heart, and who, on the witness stand,
-here, Gentlemen of the Jury, conceived, at the unfortunate suggestion of
-the speaker, the frightful revenge upon a woman who had treated her with
-unvarying kindness. She did not speak at once, partly because her lying
-tale needed rehearsing, partly because she believed that the case for
-the prosecution would win without her. But when she saw that the case
-for the prosecution was wholly lost she arrayed herself like an angel,
-that she might the better impose upon the unworldly Gentlemen of the
-Jury, and swore away a woman’s life.
-
-The several assertions on the defendant’s part that she felt disposition
-to murder he tore to rags and flung in the face of the jury. Had not
-every high tempered person—could not the Gentlemen of the Jury recall
-having exclaimed in bitter moments: “I wish you were dead! I could kill
-you!” With deep regret and remorse he would confess that he had used
-similar expressions many times.
-
-Then with consummate skill he dilated upon the impossibility of so
-clever a woman as the defendant doing aught so stupid as to murder in
-the manner of the accusation. When there was nothing left to say on this
-subject he expatiated upon the lack of motive with a technical and
-personal brilliancy which made even the cross-grained old judge lean
-forward with a cynical smile.
-
-The interviews, even the final ones, with the mysterious stranger, he
-treated with contempt, although the contempt was sufficiently long drawn
-out to impress the jury with every most insignificant detail. It, was
-the mere longing for companionship of a lonely woman: that was the
-beginning and the end of it. The lover, the intention of either to
-marry, he disposed of with a vehemence which made Simms twist about
-suddenly and look at Lansing; but the young man was regarding his chief
-with rapt admiration.
-
-Not so much as the scraping of a boot heel was heard in the court room.
-Patience glanced at the district attorney. His face was set and sullen.
-
-After every possible point had been considered Bourke concluded with an
-appeal so stirring, so ringing, so thrilling that every person in the
-court room except the district attorney sat forward and held his breath.
-No such burst of passion had ever been heard in that room before.
-Patience covered her face with her hands. Her heart beat suffocatingly.
-The blood pounded in her ears; but not one note of that wonderful voice,
-not one phrase of fire, escaped her.
-
-Is there any possible condition in which a man can appear to such
-supreme advantage as when pleading for the life of a fellow being, more
-particularly of a young and beautiful woman? How paltry all the
-time-worn rescues of woman from sinking ship and runaway horse and
-burning house. A great criminal lawyer standing before the jury box with
-a life in his hand has the unique opportunity to display all the best
-gifts ever bestowed upon man: genius, brain, passion, heart, soul,
-eloquence, a figure instinct with grace and virility, a face blazing
-with determination to snatch a man or woman from the most awful of
-dooms.
-
-And all in two short hours.
-
-If those in the court room for whom the case had no personal interest
-were at Bourke’s feet, hanging upon his words, adoring him for the
-moment, what were the feelings of the woman for whom he was making so
-desperate and manly a fight? She forgot her danger, forgot everything
-but the man, the reckless joy of loving, of being swept out of her calm
-orbit at last. Her analytical brain was dulled, her arms ached, her
-heart shook her body.
-
-As Bourke made a few supplementary remarks calculated to take the wind
-out of the district attorney’s sails,—references to the young man’s
-ambition, his youthful eagerness to become famous, what the winning of
-such a great case would mean to him, and to his remarkable cleverness
-and skill with a jury,—Patience heard Simms say to Lansing: “My God!
-Bourke has surpassed even himself. Even he never got as high as that
-before.”
-
-“He’s the greatest man in the country, God bless him!” said Lansing.
-
-As Bourke finally dropped upon his chair he turned to Patience. Their
-eyes met and lingered; and in that moment each passed into the other’s
-keeping.
-
-
- XVII
-
-Sturges lost no time taking his stand before the jury box. It was the
-hour of his life, but he was not nervous. His long thin figure leaning
-toward the box as he rested his finger tips on the table, showed as fine
-a repose of nerve as of brain. His clear-cut face with the cruel mouth
-and pleasant smile was calm and unclouded.
-
-He began by defending himself against Mr. Bourke’s remarks, and asserted
-with convincing emphasis that when he had taken the oath of office he
-had left his personal ambition behind him with his personal interests,
-and had given himself body and soul and brain to the People of
-Westchester County. Then he made an equally earnest statement of the
-grave responsibilities of a district attorney, his solemn duty to the
-People, the necessity to smother all promptings of humanity that he
-might do what was best for the People—“The greatest good of the
-greatest number.”
-
-Then he painted Patience as black as Bourke had enamelled her white.
-With masterly ingenuity he made each juror feel what an awful being a
-bad woman was, an unloving undutiful wife; what a curse each man of them
-would writhe under had Fate played him as scurvy a trick as it had
-played poor Beverly Peele; that no unloved husband’s life would be safe
-were not such women exploited and punished, that if the Gentlemen of the
-Jury were weak enough to consider her sex they might be imperilling the
-lives of countless thousands. For the matter of that, he reiterated,
-crime had no sex.
-
-He took up each detail of the story, and in the light of his
-interpretation Patience was the modern Lucretia Borgia and Beverly Peele
-an injured, peaceable, affectionate husband, who had been sacrificed by
-an abandoned woman to whom he had given his honoured name, his fortune,
-and his love.
-
-He scarcely raised his voice. There was no passion in his utterance; but
-he manufactured a mosaic, bit by bit, each fragment fitting so exactly
-that the design was without crevice or crack. He demonstrated
-mathematically that the tardy evidence of Miss Mairs had been
-superfluous; that the chain of circumstantial evidence was symmetrical
-and complete, and that no possible motive beyond duty to her conscience
-could be attributed to her. With devilish adroitness, without a direct
-phrase, he managed to filter into those twelve small brains the secret
-of the inspired eloquence of the eminent counsel for the defence,—in
-behalf of his young and beautiful client.
-
-While he was talking, the skeleton trees beyond the windows grew dim of
-outline, the mass of colour in the gallery faded. An official came out
-of the library behind the court room and lit the tall gas lamps on
-either side of the bench. The judge looked like a bas-relief in pink and
-silver against the dark panelling of the background. The rest of the
-room was in shadow. The light of the near jet fell full upon Sturges’
-stern face.
-
-Patience’s life from “its fiendish childhood” was rehearsed with such
-consecutive logic that crime at some point of such a woman’s career was
-inevitable. The only wonder was that it had not been committed sooner.
-The threats, he demonstrated, whether uttered in moments of passion or
-not, were the significant output of a brooding mind. The “cruel letter
-to a dying man” was read with slow and indignant emphasis. Then the
-events of the fatal day and night, the quarrels, the prisoner’s fury at
-being denied a divorce, the deceased’s threat to live twenty years to
-spite her, her carefully rehearsed and absurd story that her husband had
-dropped the morphine himself,—something he knew himself physically
-incapable of doing,—the equal absurdity of his suicide when a greater
-revenge lay in his hands, her brutal indifference while he lay dying,
-were deliberately gone over with passionless and insidious effect. The
-quiet half-lit room was oddly in keeping with the deadly methods of the
-man.
-
-When he had made the most of her flight on the morning of the “Eye”
-story, he paused a moment, during which the rising wind could be heard
-in the trees. Within, there was no sound. No one seemed breathing.
-Bourke and Patience were in deep shadow. With an instinct of protection
-he clasped his hand suddenly about hers.
-
-Sturges resumed, with lowered and vibrating voice:
-
-“And—where—Gentlemen of the Jury,—was—this—woman—arrested?——_In
-the house of a harlot!_” He paused another half moment. “In the house of
-her oldest friend, La Rosita, one of the most abandoned women in
-America.”
-
-Bourke’s hand twitched spasmodically. Simms twisted his neck, and shot
-at Lansing an uneasy glance. Patience shuddered. For the moment she
-forgot Bourke. She felt as if a cobra were folding her about,—very
-slowly, and gently, and inexorably.
-
-When Sturges sat down the jury was told to rise. The judge stood under
-one of the lamps and read them his charge. He explained that unless they
-could find the prisoner guilty of murder in the first degree—of
-deliberate premeditated murder—they must acquit her. As the final
-quarrel had taken place an hour before the killing it was obviously
-impossible that she could have dropped the morphine in a moment of
-excitement; and a verdict of self-defence would be equally absurd. He
-also charged them that they were to consider the law in the case and
-nothing but the law,—that human sympathy must have no place in their
-verdict.
-
-Bourke was too able a lawyer not to have the last word. As the judge sat
-down, he arose with several sheets of manuscript, and for twenty minutes
-asked the judge to charge the jury so and so, practically recapitulating
-all the strong points of the defence. The judge answered mechanically,
-“I so charge,” and at last the patient jury was conducted out of the
-court room and locked up. Bourke was surrounded at once.
-
-As Tarbox, with Patience on his arm, left the court house and its crowd
-behind him, he exclaimed, “By God, that was a great speech of Bourke’s!
-There never has been a summing up like that in my time before, not even
-by him. But he’s the smartest man in Westchester County! Hanged if I
-don’t think he’s the smartest man in the State of New York. He’ll be in
-the United States Senate yet.”
-
-
- XVIII
-
-After dinner Patience went back to the court room to remain until ten
-o’clock, at which time the jury, if it had not come to a decision, would
-be locked up for the night. She sat surrounded by her counsel and the
-lawyers that had taken so deep an interest in the case. Bourke sat very
-close to her, and once or twice as she met his eyes she forgot the
-terrible moment to come. Few people were in the court house. No one
-expected a verdict that night.
-
-It was exactly at half-past nine that the jury filed solemnly in.
-Patience’s knees jerked suddenly upward. She lost her breath for a
-moment. Bourke leaned over her and took her hand, regardless of the
-curious people surrounding them.
-
-“Be brave. Be brave,” he said hurriedly. “Now is the time for all your
-pride and disdain.”
-
-When she was ordered to stand up and face the jury, she did so with an
-air so collected and so haughty that even Simms murmured: “By Jove, she
-is a thoroughbred.”
-
-There was a moment of horrible and vibrating silence, during which
-Patience’s brain reiterated hilariously: “Twelve little Jurymen all in a
-row. Twelve little heads all in a row.” Then the foreman was asked for
-the verdict. He cleared his throat, and without moving a muscle of his
-face, remarked,—
-
-“Guilty.”
-
-The district attorney sat down suddenly and hid his face with a
-convulsive hand. Patience resumed her seat with a mien as stolid as that
-of the twelve jurors. Bourke’s face blanched, but he sprang to his feet
-and demanded that the jury be polled. Each solemn “Yes,” twelve and
-unhesitating, sounded like a knell. Then Bourke demanded a Stay, which
-was granted by the impassive judge, and Patience was led through the
-silent crowd from the court room to her cell. Tarbox escorted her
-mutely, his face turned away. At the door of her cell he attempted to
-speak, but gave it up and retreated hastily.
-
-Patience threw off her hat and sat down on the edge of the bed. The
-verdict, she knew now, had not been a surprise. But she thought little
-of the verdict. She was waiting for something else. It came in a moment.
-She heard a quick impatient step on the ground below, then a rapid
-ascent of stair, a word or two at the door, Tarbox’s retreating step.
-
-Bourke was in the cell. His face was white, but that of Patience as she
-rose and confronted him was not.
-
-“I don’t care!” she said. “I don’t care! I believe I am happier than any
-woman alive.”
-
-The red sprang to his face. He took her outstretched hands and held them
-to lips and eyes for a moment, then caught her in his arms and kissed
-her until the rest of the world lay dull, and all life was in that quiet
-cell.
-
-
- XIX
-
-A year later they took her to Sing Sing. The General Term had refused
-her a new trial, the Court of Appeals had sustained the lower court.
-Bourke had won nothing but additional glory.
-
-He did not go with her to Sing Sing. She saw him alone for an hour
-before Tarbox came to take her away. Her composure was greater than his.
-He was torn with horror and defeat, and his surpassing love for the
-woman. Not that he had given up hope by any means, nor the fight; but he
-knew the fearful odds, and he cursed the law which he had outwitted and
-played with so often and so brilliantly.
-
-“I wish we were back in the middle ages,” he said savagely, “when a man
-took his rights and regulated justice by brute force. We are not half
-men now that we are under the yoke of a thing that operates blindly, and
-strikes by chance where it should strike, in nine cases out of ten. Good
-God! Good God! it seems incredible that I can _let_ you go, that I shall
-stand by and see Tarbox lead you away. Think of the combined intellect
-of the world and the centuries having done no more for man than that. I
-must stand aside and see you go to a hideous cell in the Death House—O
-my God!”
-
-He had awakened the woman down to the depths; to-day he called to life
-the maternal instinct in her. She put her arms about him with the
-passionate strength of one who would transmit courage and hope through
-physical pressure.
-
-“Listen,” she said; “I don’t mind one cell more than another—and I
-know, I _know_, that you will save me. I feel it. I am not going to die.
-You are a man of genius. Everybody says that—everybody—I know that you
-will have an inspiration at the last minute. And I have been happy,
-happy, happy! Don’t forget that—not ever. I would go through twenty
-times what I have suffered in all my life for this past year. Don’t you
-think I can live on that for a month or two? Why, I can feel your touch,
-the pressure of your arms for hours after you leave me. I shall be with
-you every minute—”
-
-He threw back his head, shaking it with a brief violent motion
-characteristic of him.
-
-“Very well,” he said, “very well; it is not for me to be weak when you
-are strong. Perhaps it is because the prize is so great that the fight
-is so long and desperate. Oh, you wonderful woman!
-
-“Tell me,” he said after a moment, “that it has all been as perfect to
-you as to me. I want to hear you say that, but I know it, I know it.”
-
-“Oh,—I—I—”
-
- * * * * *
-
-Tarbox came and took her away. He looked as if he had lost home and
-friends and fortune, and did not speak from White Plains to Sing Sing.
-The details of the trip interested her less than such details are
-supposed to interest the condemned that look their last on sky and land;
-her head ached, and the glare of the Hudson blinded her; but as the
-train neared Sing Sing she opened her eyes suddenly, then sat forward
-with a note of admiration.
-
-The river was covered with a dense rosy mist which half obscured the
-opposite shore, giving it the effect of an irregular group of islands.
-Above was a calm lake of yellow fire surrounded by heavy billows of
-boiling gold; beyond, storm clouds, growing larger and darker.
-
-As they drove, a few moments later, to the prison, the great grey
-battlemented pile was swimming in the same rosy glow. Patience murmured
-satirically:
-
- “‘The splendour falls on castle walls.’”
-
-Tarbox looked at her in amazement. “Oh,” he said, “how do you manage
-it?”
-
-“All hope is not gone,” she replied; “there is still the governor.” But
-she knew how slender that hope was. The governor was on the eve of
-re-election; public feeling was multiplied against her; the “Eye” was
-clamouring for her life, and strutting like a turkey cock; the “Eye” and
-Tammany Hall were one; the governor was the creature of Tammany Hall.
-
-The warden was in his office. He greeted her with elaborate politeness,
-albeit puffed with alcohol and pride. She handed him what valuables she
-had not presented to Tarbox, and answered his questions in a manner not
-calculated to placate his Irish dignity. Then she turned to say good-bye
-to Tarbox, but he had disappeared. The head-keeper, a big kindly man,
-who pressed her arm in a paternal manner, led her down long echoing
-corridors, past rows and tiers of cells, and yards full of Things in
-striped garments, and talked to her in the manner one adopts to a
-frightened child, until she said:—
-
-“I am not going to have hysterics; nor am I at all sure that I am to be
-executed—but please don’t imagine that I don’t appreciate your
-kindness.”
-
-“Well, I like that,” he said. “To tell the truth the prospect of having
-a woman here has half scared me out of my wits. But if you won’t take
-on, I’ll do everything I can to make you comfortable. We’ve put a woman
-servant in there to wait on you. I hope myself it won’t be for long. The
-evidence is pretty black, but some of us has our opinion all the same.”
-
-“Must I go into the Death House? I think I shouldn’t mind it so much if
-they’d put me anywhere else.”
-
-“I’m afraid you must, ma’am. That’s the custom in these parts.” He
-opened a door with a huge key, and Patience did not need to be told that
-she was in the famous Death House.
-
-A long corridor with a high window at either end; on one side a row of
-cells separated from the main corridor by an iron fence sufficiently
-removed from the cells to make space for a narrow promenade. Where the
-middle cell should have been was a dark arched stone passage terminated
-by a stout oaken door. Patience knew that it led to the execution room.
-Two guards walked up and down the corridor. At the end, a sullen-looking
-woman stood over a stove, making tea.
-
-“You’ve got the house all to yourself,” said the keeper, with an attempt
-at jocularity. “If there’d been any men here I guess you’d have been
-sent to Dannemora, but it’s always Sing Sing for the swells, when it’s
-possible, you know.”
-
-He opened the gate of the iron fence and led her down to the cell at the
-extreme end. It was large and well lighted, but very different from the
-cell at White Plains.
-
-“Are you going to lock me in?” she asked.
-
-“Yes, ma’am, I must. If everything ain’t comfortable, just let me know.”
-
-The key grated in the lock. The head-keeper with an encouraging smile
-walked away. Patience crouched in a corner, for the first time fully
-realising the awfulness of her position, her imagination leaping to the
-room beyond the passage. What did it look like, that horrible chair? How
-long—how long—the hideously practical details of electric
-execution—the awful mystery of it—the new death to which imagination
-had not yet become accustomed—
-
-There was no sound but the monotonous pacing of the death watch. The
-world beyond those stone walls might have sprung away into space,
-leaving the great beautiful prison alone on a whirling fragment.
-
-She sprang to her feet and clenched her hands. “I’ll not go mad and make
-an everlasting fool of myself,” she thought. “If I have to die, I’ll die
-with my head up and my eyes dry. If I have the blood of the aristocrat
-in me I’ll prove it then, not die like a flabby woman of the people. The
-people! O God, how I hate the people!”
-
-
- XX
-
-A great petition was sent to the governor. It was signed uniformly by
-men and women of the upper class.
-
-It is not the aristocrats that do the electing in the United States. The
-lower classes were against her to a man. Her personality enraged them;
-her unreligion, her disdainful bearing, her intellect, her position,
-antagonised the superstitious and ambitious masses more than her crime.
-Inevitable result: the governor refused to pardon.
-
-Honora returned to Peele Manor from town in April. Bourke’s attempts to
-see her were frustrated by a bodyguard of servants. He took up his
-residence in the little village adjoining the grounds. He hardly knew
-what he hoped. But Honora Mairs was the last and only resource, and he
-could not keep away from her vicinity. He did not go to Sing Sing. It
-had been agreed between himself and Patience that he should stay away:
-they had no desire to communicate through iron bars.
-
-The execution was set for the seventh of May. On the evening of the
-sixth, while walking down the single street of the village Bourke came
-face to face with the new priest of the district.
-
-“Tim Connor!” he exclaimed, forgetting for the moment, in the sudden
-retrospect which this man’s face unrolled, the horror that held him.
-
-“Well, it’s me, sure enough, Garan, and I’ve been hunting for you these
-two days. I heard you were here, but faith, I’ve been busy!—not to say
-I’ve been away for two weeks.”
-
-“How long have you been here?”
-
-“Six months, come June, it is since I left old Ireland; and I’m wanting
-to tell you that the creek we used to wade in is as tempting to the boys
-as ever, and that the bog you pulled me out of has moved on a mile and
-more. Twenty times I’ve been for going across the country to call on you
-and have a good grip of the hand, and to bless you again for letting me
-live to do good work; but I was caught in a net here—But what’s the
-matter—Are you ill?—Oh, sure! sure! This terrible business! I
-remember! Poor young thing!”
-
-He laid his arm about the shoulders of the other man and guided him to
-his house. There, in his bare little study, he brewed an Irish toddy,
-and the two men drank without a spoken toast to the old times when they
-had punched each other’s head, fought each other’s battles, and shared
-each other’s joys, two affectionate rollicking mischievous Irish lads.
-
-The priest spoke finally.
-
-“Nothing else is talked of here in the village,” he said; “but you don’t
-hear a word of it mentioned over at the house.”
-
-“What house?”
-
-“Peele Manor, to be sure.”
-
-“Do you go there?”
-
-“Occasionally—to dine; or to talk with Miss Mairs. We are amiable
-friends, although she doesn’t confess to me.”
-
-Bourke raised his head slowly. Something seemed to swirl through his
-heavy heart.
-
-“Is Honora Mairs a Catholic?” he asked.
-
-“She is indeed, and, like all converts, full to the brim and running
-over.”
-
-Bourke leaned forward, his hand clinching about his chin, his elbow
-pressing his knee with such force that his arm vibrated. He had been
-raised a Catholic—he knew its grip. His mind was trained to grasp
-opportunities on the moment, to work with the nervous yet mathematical
-rapidity of electric currents. And like all great lawyers he was a great
-actor.
-
-“Tim,” he said meditatively, “I’m feeling terribly bad over that poor
-girl I couldn’t save.”
-
-“Sure and I should think you would, Garan. My heart’s breaking for her
-myself.”
-
-“Did you read the trial, Tim?”
-
-“No, faith, I didn’t. I’ve been too busy with these godless folk. Sure
-they get away from us priests when they get into America. It’s only one
-more drop to hell.”
-
-“You’re right, Tim, you’re right. You always saw things at a glance. But
-I’ve got a great work for you to do,—a great work for you and for the
-Church.”
-
-“You have, Garan? You have? Out with it, my boy.”
-
-“Do you remember the time when Paddy Flannagan was accused of murdering
-his old grandmother for the sake of the money in her stocking?”
-continued Bourke, in the same half absent tone, and lapsing gradually
-into brogue. “He was convicted, you know, and the whole town was set on
-him, and we two boys were the worst of the lot. Do you remember how we
-used to hoot under his jail window at night? And then, quite by
-accident, at the last minute, two days before he was going to be hanged,
-you discovered the man that had committed the murder, and you ran as
-fast as your legs could carry you to save Paddy, shouting all the
-way,—and that it was the happiest day of your life?”
-
-“Yes, yes!” exclaimed the priest, his face aglow. Bourke had thrown
-himself back in his chair, his eyes dwelling on his old friend with a
-smile of affectionate satisfaction.
-
-“It’s a grand thing to save a human life, isn’t it, Tim?”
-
-“It is, indeed; the grandest, next to saving an immortal soul.”
-
-“I’m going to give you a chance to do both,—the soul of one woman and
-the life of another.”
-
-“Garan, Garan, what do you mean?”
-
-“Just let me tell you a few things first, a few things you don’t know
-already.” He gave a concise but picturesque and thrilling account of
-Patience’s life and of her trial. As he repeated Honora’s testimony, the
-priest, who had followed his recital with profound interest, leaned
-forward with sombre brows.
-
-“That woman lied,” concluded Bourke, abruptly.
-
-“I’m afraid so. I’m afraid so.”
-
-“And if she doesn’t open her accursed perjured lips between now and
-to-morrow morning at eleven o’clock, that woman up there—” he caught
-the priest’s shoulders suddenly, his face contracting with agony—“the
-woman I love, Tim, will be murdered. My God, man, don’t you see what
-you’ve got to do?”
-
-
- XXI
-
-Honora was lying on a couch in her celestial bedroom. No incense burned.
-The screen was folded closely about the altar. The windows were open.
-The pure air of spring, the peaceful sounds of night,—disturbed now and
-again by the hideous shriek of an engine,—the delicate perfume of
-flowers, played upon her irritated senses. She held a bottle of smelling
-salts in her hand. On the table beside her was a jolly looking bottle of
-Benedictine.
-
-There was a tap at the door. Honora answered wearily. A maid entered.
-
-“It’s Father Connor, miss, and he wants to see you particular.”
-
-“Tell him I cannot see him—no, tell him to come up.”
-
-She rose hurriedly and smoothed her hair. Mr. and Mrs. Peele had gone
-South. She was alone in the house, and welcomed the brief distraction of
-the priest’s visit.
-
-“You will pardon me for asking you to come up here,” she said as he
-entered. “But I am in dishabille, and I did not want to keep you
-waiting. How kind of you to come!”
-
-“Sure it is always a pleasure to see you anywhere, Miss Mairs,” he said,
-taking the seat she indicated. “What should I do without you in this
-godless place?”
-
-Several candles burned. The moonlight wandered in, making a ghastly
-combination. Honora lay back in her chair, looking very pale and
-beautiful. The priest’s profile was toward her for a moment after he
-ceased speaking, a strong lean determined profile. She watched it
-warily. But he turned suddenly to her and smiled, and told her an absurd
-episode of one of his village delinquents.
-
-“Faith, Miss Mairs,” he concluded, “you’ve got to help me. They’re too
-much for one poor priest. I’m not one to flatter, but your face would be
-enough to make a sinner think of heaven—sure it’s the face of an angel!
-Between the two of us and with the Grace of God we’ll reform the village
-and drive the dirty politicians into the Church or out of the country.”
-
-Honora smiled radiantly, and held out her hand. “I will work with you,”
-she said. “I intend to devote my life to the Church.”
-
-He held her hand closely, in a strong masculine clasp.
-
-“I believed it of you. But why don’t you go to confession, my child?”
-
-The muscles under Honora’s fair skin contracted briefly, and she
-attempted to withdraw her hand; but the priest held it closely.
-
-“I shall go to you next week.”
-
-“To-night,” he said with soft insistence; “to-night. Do you know it was
-that brought me here to-night? I’ve been knowing ever since I came that
-something troubled you—was eating your heart out—but I didn’t like to
-speak. I thought every day you would come to me, and I didn’t like to
-intrude. But to-night I said, ‘I will!’ I couldn’t get up my courage
-when I first came in; but I’m glad I’ve spoken, for I know you’ll be
-after confessing now. Poor girl! But remember, dear child, the comfort
-and consolation our blessed Church has for every sinner. Come.”
-
-Honora turned her face away, and shook her head.
-
-The priest put out a long arm, and grasping the screen drew it away from
-the altar. Then he leaned forward, and laying his hands on her shoulders
-drew her slowly forward and pressed her to her knees. He laid his hand
-on her head.
-
-“Confess,” he said, solemnly.
-
-And Honora suddenly burst into wild sobbing, and confessed that Beverly
-Peele had dropped his own morphine that night, that his shaking hand had
-refused to obey his will, and that, blind with pain, he had poured a
-fourth of the contents into the glass, mixed it with water, and gulped
-it down; that she had not gone to his assistance because she wished him
-to die, and the responsibility to fall upon his wife.
-
-Then she sprang to her feet and smote her hands together.
-
-“I did not intend to confess until all was over, but—I—Oh—it has been
-horrible here alone these two days—but I would not yield to
-superstition and go away—and you found me in a weak moment.”
-
-She walked up and down the room, talking the more rapidly, the more
-unreservedly, as the priest made no comment. And after all the years of
-immobility it was joy to speak out everything in her crowded heart and
-brain.
-
-“Oh, I am not a monster, I am not abnormal, I am merely a result. It
-began—when did it begin? I was a child when I came here—I remember
-little that happened before—it has always been the _rôle_ of the poor
-cousin, I remember no other—no other! never! never! I had to learn
-patience at an age when other children are clamouring for their little
-desires. I had to learn humility when other children—while I watched my
-cousins take all the goods and joys of childhood as their divine right.
-While their little world was at their feet I was learning to cringe and
-watch and wait and smile upon people I hated, and listen to people that
-bored me to death, and suffer vicariously for all the shortcomings of
-the Peele family when my aunt was in one of her cold rages. It was early
-that I learned the lesson that if I would occupy a supportable position
-in life I must ‘work’ people; I must cultivate will and tact—how I hate
-the loathsome word—and study the natures of those about me, and play
-upon them; that I must acquire absolute self repression, be a sort of
-automaton, that, being once wound up properly, never makes a false move.
-I believe that was one thing which drove me to the Catholic Church,—the
-unspeakable relief that I should find in confession,—that and one other
-thing—”
-
-She paused abruptly, and pressed her hands to her face, to which the
-blood had sprung.
-
-“I loved Beverly Peele,” she continued violently. “I do not know when it
-began; when I was old enough to fall in love, I suppose, and that is
-young enough with a woman. When we were children we used to play at
-being married. Even after he was grown and was rather wild, he used to
-come back to me in the summer time and tell me that he cared for no one
-else. I knew all his faults, his weaknesses, his limitations, mental and
-moral and spiritual,—none better. But I loved him. I worshipped him. He
-was not even a companion to me, for I was always intellectually
-ambitious. Not a taste but music did we have in common. I have seen him
-in raging tempers that would make any other woman despise him—when he
-seemed an animal, a savage. But nothing made any difference to me. A
-woman loves or she does not love—that is the beginning and the end.
-There is no more relation between cause and effect in an infatuated
-woman’s mind than—Oh, well, I can’t be finding similes.
-
-“One night he came in here. The next night I kissed the pillow his head
-would lie on. For a year I was happy; for another I alternated between
-joy and anguish, jealousy and peace, despair and hope. Then a year of
-misery, during which he brutally cast me off. It was that which drove me
-to the Catholic Church—not only the peace it promised, but the
-knowledge that with baptism my sin would be washed away—for when
-happiness went remorse began. I have not a brain of iron, like that
-woman he married. She could snap her past in two and fling it behind
-her. She could snap her fingers at moral laws, if it suited her purpose,
-and know no regret, provided she had had nothing to regret meanwhile.
-That was one reason why I hated her.
-
-“Oh, how I hated her! How I hated her! Beverly never had any reserve,
-and he made love to her before my eyes. He was infatuated. His affection
-for me was an incidental fancy compared to his mad passion for that
-woman. And month after month! Month after month! And I loved him still!
-
-“I never dared say to myself that when the time came I should have
-vengeance, for such a resolution I should be obliged to confess; and the
-priest would make me promise to thrust it out, or refuse me absolution.
-But down in my heart I knew that when the hour came the temptation would
-conquer. It came first when I let him drink the morphine. And when I saw
-her in court, when her lover gave me that sudden suggestion, when I knew
-that I could send her to that horrible chair—” She threw out her arms
-and laughed hysterically, “O God, I was almost happy again.”
-
-The priest rose and stood before her. There were tears in his eyes.
-
-“Poor woman!” he said. “Poor woman!”
-
-Honora’s face convulsed, but she shut her lips resolutely and tapped the
-floor with her foot.
-
-“There is pardon and peace in the Church,” he continued softly; “and not
-only for the sake of that poor girl at Sing Sing, battling to-night with
-horror and terror, sleepless, listening to the solemn tramp of the death
-watch, counting the hours that are marching her to that hideous death,
-but for the future peace of your own soul, speak out and save her. Think
-of the years of torment, of remorse, when you will not have the
-excitement of the present, the pressure of your wrongs to sustain you.
-Speak out, and I will give you absolution, and your soul shall know
-peace.”
-
-But Honora threw back her head and laughed.
-
-“No! No!” she said. “I am not so weak as that. I have no intention of
-going to pieces at the last moment. It is only her death that will give
-me peace.”
-
-He bent his long body backward, drawing himself up to his full imposing
-height.
-
-“And have you thought of what will be the penalty?” he said, in a low
-voice, and with an intonation that was almost a chant.
-
-She shuddered, but dragged her eyes away.
-
-“I don’t care!” she said passionately. “I don’t care!”
-
-“You are sure?” he said, in the same voice.
-
-She drew two short breaths. “Oh, go away and leave me,” she said. “Why
-did you come here? I did not intend to confess until all was over.”
-
-“And you expected absolution?”
-
-“I would have done any penance. I would have burnt my flesh with red-hot
-irons—”
-
-He gave a short, scornful laugh.
-
-“The Church wants no such makeshift penances,” he said passionately. “It
-has no use for the sinner that commits deliberate crime to-day and comes
-cringing and triumphant to the confessional to-morrow. We have no use
-for such as you,” he suddenly shouted, flinging out his arm and pointing
-his index finger at her. “You are a disgrace to the Church, a pollution;
-you are the lips of the leper upon the pure body of a Saint. We have no
-place for such as you. We have only one method by which to deal with you
-and such as you—” He curved his body, and his voice fell to a hollow
-monotone: “Ex-commu-nica-tion.”
-
-The woman stared at him with pale distended eyes, no breath issuing from
-her dry lips, then sank to the floor, a miserable, collapsed, quivering
-heap. The priest went to the window and called to a man who stood on the
-walk below.
-
-
- XXII
-
-Bourke was pacing up and down among the trees, his eyes seldom absent
-from the man standing motionless in front of the house, or from the
-light in Honora Mairs’ window. He struck a match every few moments and
-looked at his watch. He lit a cigar, then found himself biting rapidly
-along its length with vicious energy. He flung it away and lit another,
-puffed at it violently, then let it fall to the ground as he pressed his
-hands suddenly to his eyes, shutting out the picture of Patience in her
-cell.
-
-All the agony and doubt and despair of the past year were crowded into
-this hour. Would the priest succeed? Was he clever enough to outwit a
-clever and implacable woman? If he had only caught her in a moment of
-weakness. But was there any weakness in that organisation of knit and
-tempered steel? “He’ll blarney her,” he thought, with sudden hope,—“but
-bah! you can’t blarney a snake. That will go so far with her and no
-farther. Only acting can save us. If he can act well enough to fill the
-stage on which this terrible tragedy is set, and conquer that woman’s
-imagination, he can save my poor girl, but not otherwise.”
-
-His hands clutched the bushes as he passed. He kicked the gravel from
-his feet. He cursed aloud, not knowing what he was saying. He felt an
-intolerable thirst; his eyeballs burned; his heart hammered
-spasmodically.
-
-He looked at his watch. It was twelve o’clock. His spinning brain
-conceived the wild project of forcing himself up to that lighted room at
-the corner of the house and putting the woman to the torture. And at
-that moment he saw the priest lean out of the window and speak to the
-notary public, who immediately entered the house.
-
-A half hour later the priest came out of the front door and toward him.
-He held a paper in his hand.
-
-Bourke was waiting at the door. He took the affidavit from the priest,
-glanced over it, and thrust it into his pocket.
-
-“Come,” he said. “I’ll get one of the men here to hitch up a team and
-drive us to the One Hundred and Twenty-fifth Street station. There we’ll
-take the train for Forty-second Street, and at the Grand Central the
-train for Albany. No south bound local will pass here for an hour. I
-happen to know that the governor is in Albany to-night attending a
-banquet.”
-
-
- XXIII
-
-Patience had given up hope at last. Its death had been accompanied by
-wonder rather than by despair. Her remarkable experience with Bourke had
-led her to idealise him even beyond the habit of woman, and her faith in
-his ability to save her had been absolute. Nevertheless, woman like, she
-wove elaborate excuses for him, and loved him none the less.
-
-The day had dragged itself into twenty years. The chaplain had called
-and been dismissed. The warden had visited her and uttered the
-conventional words of sympathy, to which Patience had listened without
-expression, loathing the coarse ungrammatical brute. The head-keeper she
-liked, for she was the first to recognise true sympathy and nobility
-within whatever bark. Miss Beale had come and wept and kissed her hands
-through the bars.
-
-“Patience! Patience!” she sobbed. “If it could only be said that you
-died like a Christian!”
-
-“It can be said that I died like an American gentlewoman of the
-nineteenth century,” replied Patience. “I am quite satisfied to know
-that they will be obliged to say that.”
-
-Miss Beale shook her head vigorously. “You will fail when the time
-comes,” she said. “Only the Lord can sustain you. Please, Patience, let
-me pray with you.”
-
-“Please let me die in peace,” said Patience, wearily, “and consistently.
-I shall not make a spectacle of myself. Don’t worry.”
-
-After Miss Beale had gone the prison barber came and shaved a bald spot
-on the back of her head. She kept her face in the shadow, her teeth set,
-her skin thrilling with horror.
-
- * * * * *
-
-She sat on the edge of her bed until midnight. In the past two months,
-despite her faith in Bourke, she had deliberately allowed her mind to
-dwell upon the execution until fear had worn blunt. She was conscious of
-none to-night. Moreover, she had the poise of one that has lived close
-to the great mysteries of life. Were she free she might have a lifetime
-of happiness with Bourke, but in degree there were many hours of the
-past year that in mortal limitations could never be surpassed. The
-people had won their fight, but she felt that she had cheated them at
-every other point. For, after all, happiness is of kind, not of
-quantity. They could strike from her many years of life, but had she not
-lived? And a few years more or less—what mattered it? One must die at
-the last. She had realised an ideal. She had known love in its
-profoundest meaning, in its most delicate vibrations. A thousand years
-could give her no more than that.
-
-Suddenly she lifted her head. The rain was dashing against her high
-window and against the windows of the corridor. She flushed and trembled
-and held her breath expectantly. In a moment she lay along the bed, and
-in a moment more forgot her evil state. Memories without form trooped
-through her brain: snatches and flashes of childhood and adolescence,
-glimmers of dawn, and stirrings of deeps, vistas of enchanted future,
-the rising and receding, rising and receding of Mystery, the vague
-pleasurable loneliness—the protest of separateness.
-
-Then she pressed her face into the pillows, weeping wildly that she
-should see Bourke no more. The rain gave him to her in terrible mockery.
-Every part of her demanded him. She cared nothing for the morrow; she
-had thought of no to-morrows when with him. Morrows were naught, for
-there was always the last; but the present are always there to fulfil or
-torment. She shuddered once. The rain had given her back the power to
-long and dream; and to longing and dreaming there could be no
-fulfilment, not in this world, now nor ever.
-
-She beat her clenched hand against the bed, not in fear, but in
-passionate resentment that she with her magnificent endowment for
-happiness should be snuffed out in her youth, and that there was no
-power on earth to assuage her lover’s agony. She wondered where he was,
-what he was doing. She knew that there was no sleep for him.
-
-Her philosophy deserted her, as philosophy will when the sun is under
-the horizon. She ceased to be satisfied with what had been; the great
-love in her soul cried out and demanded its eternal rights. And her
-fainting courage demanded the man. . . .
-
-Her thoughts suddenly took a whimsical turn. What should she be like in
-eternity shorn of her stronger part?—for assuredly in her case the man
-and the woman were one. Was space full of those incomplete
-shapes?—roaming—roaming—for what?—and whither? She recalled a
-painting of Vedder’s called “Identity” and Aldrich’s verses beneath:—
-
- “Somewhere, in desolate, wind-swept space,
- In Twilight land, in No-man’s land,
- Two wandering shapes met face to face,
- And bade each other stand.
-
- “‘And who are you?’ cried one, agape,
- Shuddering in the gloaming light,
- ‘I know not,’ said the second shape,
- ‘I only died last night.’”
-
-The picture had fascinated her profoundly until she had suddenly noticed
-that one of the shapes looked as if she had left her teeth on her
-death-bed. She laughed aloud suddenly. . . .
-
-For the first time she felt curious about the hereafter. Poetry had
-demonstrated to her that hereafter of some sort there must be: the poet
-sees only the soul of his creations, makes the soul talk as it would if
-untrammelled of flesh, and in unconscious forecast of its freedom.
-Browning, alone, would have taught her this. His greater poems were
-those of another and loftier world. No wonder poets were a mad unhappy
-race with their brief awakenings of the cosmic sense, their long
-contemplations of what should be, in awful contrast to what is. . . .
-
-Patience suddenly turned from the thoughts of the hereafter in
-shuddering horror. Then, as now, she should be alone. Perhaps it would
-be as well, if she were to look like that shape. . . . But she should
-know soon enough!
-
-Whimsies deserted her as abruptly as they had come. She realised with
-terrible vividness all that she was leaving, the sweetness of it, the
-beauty of it—and the awful part allotted to the man.
-
-She had imagined that in her last night on earth—if it came to
-that—her mind would dwell on the great problems of life; but she cried
-herself to sleep.
-
-
- XXIV
-
-Bourke and the priest arrived in Albany at two minutes past eight in the
-morning. A hack carried them to the governor’s house in less than ten
-minutes.
-
-Bourke’s ring was answered immediately. He had his card ready, also that
-of the priest.
-
-“Take these to the governor,” he said to the butler. “We must see him at
-once.”
-
-“The governor took the 8.13 express for New York.”
-
-Bourke uttered an oath which the priest did not rebuke.
-
-“Did he leave an answer to a telegram he received between two and five
-this morning?”
-
-“No, sir; no telegrams are ever sent here—by special orders, sir. They
-are all sent to the State House.”
-
-Bourke’s skin turned grey; his eyes dulled like those of a dying man.
-But only for a moment. His brain worked with its customary rapidity.
-
-“Come,” he said to the priest. “There is only one thing to do.”
-
-To the hackman he said: “Twenty dollars if you get to the station in
-five minutes.”
-
-He and the priest jumped into the hack. The driver lashed the horses.
-They dashed down the steep hills of Albany. Two policemen rushed after
-them, shouting angrily; but the horses galloped the faster, the driver
-bounding on his seat. People darted shrieking out of their way. Other
-teams pulled hastily aside, oaths flying.
-
-They reached the station in exactly four minutes and a half. Bourke had
-little money with him, but he was well known, and known to be wealthy.
-In less than five minutes the superintendent, in regard for a check for
-two hundred and fifty dollars, had ordered out the fastest engine in the
-shop. In ten minutes more it was ready, and the message had flashed
-along the line to make way for “45.”
-
-By this time every man in the yard was surging about the engine in
-excited sympathy. As the engineer gave the word and Bourke and the
-priest climbed in, the men cheered lustily. Bourke raised his hat.
-Father Connor waved them his blessing. The engine sprang down the road
-in pursuit of the New York express.
-
-Despite the flying moments, the horror that seemed to sit grimacing upon
-the hour of eleven every time that he looked at his watch, Bourke felt
-the exhilaration of that ride, the enchantment of uncertainty. The
-morning air was cool; the river flashed with gold; the earth was very
-green. They seemed to cut the air as they raced through fields and
-towns, dashed and whizzed round curve after curve. People ran after
-them, some shouting with terror, thinking it was a runaway engine.
-
-Father Connor had bought some sandwiches at the station, and Bourke ate
-mechanically. He wondered if he should ever recognise the fine flavour
-of food again.
-
-The priest put his lips to Bourke’s ear and spoke for the first time.
-
-“Where do you expect to catch the train?”
-
-“At Poughkeepsie. It waits there ten minutes.”
-
-“And what shall you do if you don’t catch it?”
-
-“Go on to Sing Sing, and do the best I can. I have made one fatal
-mistake: I should have telegraphed to Sing Sing. But I was mad, I think,
-until I reached Albany, and there it is no wonder I forgot it. The
-regular time for—that business is round eleven o’clock, about a quarter
-past; but if the warden happens to be drunk there’s no telling what he
-will take it into his head to do. But I dare not stop.”
-
-Suddenly they shot about a curve. The engineer shouted “There! There!” A
-dark speck was just making another curve, far to the south.
-
-“The express!” cried the engineer. “We’ve side-tracked everything else.
-We’ll catch her now.”
-
-An hour later they dashed into Poughkeepsie, the express only two
-minutes ahead of them. Amidst a crowd of staring people, Bourke and the
-priest, begrimed, dishevelled, leaped from the engine and boarded a
-parlour car of the express. Alone, Bourke would probably have been
-arrested as a madman, controlled as was his demeanour; but the priest’s
-frock forbade interference.
-
-The governor was not in the parlour car, nor in the next, nor in the
-next.
-
-Yes, he had been there, a porter replied, and would be there again; but
-he had left the train as soon as it had stopped. No, he did not know in
-what direction he had gone; nor did any one else.
-
-There was nothing to do but to wait. Bourke sent a telegram to Sing
-Sing, but it relieved his anxiety little: he knew the languid methods of
-the company’s officials in country towns.
-
-There were five of those remaining seven minutes when he thought he was
-going mad. An immense crowd had gathered by this time about the station.
-Nobody knew exactly what was the matter, and nobody dared ask the man
-walking rapidly up and down the platform, watch in hand, gripping the
-arm of a priest; but hints were flying, and no one doubted that this
-sudden furious incursion of a flying engine and the extraordinary
-appearance of Bourke had to do with the famous prisoner at Sing Sing.
-
-At exactly three minutes to starting time the governor came sauntering
-down the street, a tooth-pick in his mouth, his features overspread with
-the calm and good-will which bespeak a recently warmed interior. Bourke
-reached him almost at a bound. He was a master of words, and in less
-than a minute he had presented the governor with the facts in the case
-and handed him the affidavit.
-
-“Good,” said the governor. “I’m glad enough to do this. It’s you that
-will understand, Mr. Bourke, that I would have been violating a sacred
-duty if I’d slapped public opinion in the face before.”
-
-He wrote rapidly on the back of the affidavit.
-
-“This will do for the present,” he said. “I’ll fix it up in style when I
-go back. You’re a great man, Mr. Bourke.”
-
-But Bourke had gone. Whistles were sounding, train men were yelling. He
-and the priest barely had time to jump on their engine when they were
-ordered to clear the track.
-
-Bourke glanced at his watch as they sprang out of the station. The time
-was twenty minutes past ten. It was barely possible to reach Sing Sing
-in three quarters of an hour. Lead was in his veins. His head felt
-light. The chances for his last and paramount success were very slim.
-
-But the great engine dashed along like an inspired thing, and seemed to
-throb in sympathy. There was a note of triumphant encouragement in its
-sudden piercing shrieks. It tossed a cow off the track as lightly as the
-poor brute had lately whisked a fly from its hind-quarters. It whistled
-merrily to the roaring air. It snorted disdainfully when Bourke,
-refusing to heed its mighty lullaby, curved his hands about his mouth
-and shouted to the engineer:—
-
-“For God’s sake, go faster!”
-
-
- XXV
-
-The town of Sing Sing was awake at daylight. It was the most exciting
-and important day of its history. The women, even the pitiful ones,
-arose with a pleasurable flutter and donned their Sunday frocks. The
-matrons dressed the children in their brightest and best, and laid the
-gala cover on the baby carriage. The men of the village took a
-half-holiday and made themselves as smart as their women. The saloon
-keepers stocked their shelves and spread their counters with tempting
-array of corned beef, cold ham, cheese, crackers, pickles, and pretzels.
-
-By ten o’clock a hundred teams had driven into the town, and were
-hitched to every post, housed in every stable. A number stood along that
-part of the road which commanded a view of the prison towers.
-
-The women sat about on the slope opposite the prison, pushing the baby
-carriages absently back and forth, or gossiping with animation. Other
-women crowded up the bluff, settling themselves comfortably to await,
-with what patience they could muster, the elevation of the black flag.
-
-The reporters and witnesses of the execution sat on a railing near the
-main entrance, smoking cigarettes and discussing probabilities. Inside
-and out the atmosphere of intense and suppressed excitement was trying
-to even the stout nerves of the head-keeper. The assistant keepers, in
-bright new caps, moved about with an air of portentous solemnity.
-
-Never had Sing Sing seen a more beautiful day. The sky was a dome of
-lapis-lazuli. The yellow sun sparkled down on the imposing mediæval pile
-of towers and turrets, on the handsome grey buildings above the green
-slopes near by, on the graveyard with its few dishonoured dead, on the
-gayly dressed expectant people, as exhilaratingly as had death and
-dishonour never been. The river and the wooded banks beyond were as
-sweet and calm as if the great building with the men in the watch towers
-were some feudal castle, in which, perchance, a captured princess pined.
-
-The head-keeper walked once or twice to the telegraph table in a corner
-of the office, and asked the girl in charge if any message had come.
-
-“It’s the wish that’s father to the thought,” he said to the warden;
-“but I can’t help hoping for a reprieve or a commutation or something.
-Poor thing, I feel awful sorry for her.”
-
-“Damn her,” growled his chief. “She’s too high-toned for me. When I read
-the death warrant to her this morning she turned her back on me square.”
-
-“She’s awful proud, and I guess she has a hard time keeping up; but it
-ain’t no time for resentment. I must say I did think Mr. Bourke’d save
-her, and I can’t help thinking he will yet.”
-
-“Time’s getting short,” said the warden, with a dry laugh. “It’s 10.40,
-and the execution takes place at 11.12 sharp.”
-
-“Couldn’t you make some excuse to put it off a day or so? It ain’t like
-Mr. Bourke.”
-
-“Not much. Off she goes at 11.12.” And he got up heavily and shuffled
-out.
-
-The head-keeper took a decanter of brandy from the sideboard and placed
-it, with a number of glasses, on the table. Then he called in the
-newspaper men and other witnesses.
-
-He wandered about restlessly as the men entered and drank in silence. He
-carried a stick of malacca topped with silver. One or two of the
-newspaper men shuddered as it caught their eye. They knew its hideous
-portent.
-
-“Guess we’d better go,” he said, after one more fruitless trip to the
-telegraph table. “It takes time to go through those underground
-passages.”
-
-As the great gates were about to close behind them he turned suddenly
-and called a guard.
-
-“If it should so happen that Mr. Bourke should come, or telegraph, or
-that anything should happen before—11.16—I can delay it that
-long—just you be on hand to make a bolt. It ain’t like Mr. Bourke to
-sit down and do nothing. I feel it in my bones that he’s moving heaven
-and earth this minute.”
-
-
- XXVI
-
-It was five minutes after eleven. Patience sat on the edge of her bed,
-her hands clenched, her face grey. But she was calm. The horror and
-sinking which had almost mastered her as the warden read the death
-warrant, she had fought down and under. And she had drunk a quantity of
-black coffee. She had but one thought, one desire left,—to die bravely.
-Even Bourke was forgotten, and hope and regret. She was conscious of but
-one passionate wish, not to quail, not for a second. Perhaps there was a
-slight touch of the dramatic instinct, even in this last extremity, for
-she imagined the scene and her attitude again and again. In consequence,
-there was a sense of unreality in it all. She felt as if about to play
-some great final act; she could not realise that the climax meant her
-own annihilation. Physically she was very tired, and should have liked
-to lie down for hours, although the coffee had routed sleep. Once she
-half extended herself on the bed, then sat erect, her mouth contracting
-spasmodically.
-
-Suddenly she heard the noise of many feet shuffling on a bare floor. She
-knew that it came from the execution room. She shuddered and bit her
-lips. Now and again, through the high windows, came the shrill note of a
-woman’s voice, or a baby’s soft light laugh.
-
-A moment later she sprang to her feet, quivering in every nerve, her
-hands clenched in a final and successful attempt at absolute
-self-mastery. On the door separating the Death House from the main
-building, resounded three loud raps, slow and deliberate. They
-reverberated in the ears of the condemned like the blast of the last
-trumpet.
-
-The door opened, and the head-keeper entered, walking slowly, and
-stopping once to hold whispered converse with the death watch. Patience
-controlled an impulse to call to him to hurry and have it over.
-
-He came forward at last, tapping his malacca stick on the floor,
-unlocked the door of her cell, and offered her his arm. He bent to her
-ear as if to whisper something, then evidently thought better of it, and
-led her slowly to the passage facing the execution room. Again she
-wanted to ask him to hurry, but dared not speak. The death watch turned
-away his head. The lace of her low shoe untied, and she stooped
-mechanically and fastened it.
-
-The head-keeper asked her if she would like some brandy,—he would send
-and get it for her. She shook her head emphatically. The exaltation of
-heroism was beginning to possess her, and she would give no newspaper
-the chance to say that she owed her fortitude to alcohol.
-
-They walked down the narrow vaulted way through which so many had gone
-to their last hideous moments. The head-keeper fumbled at the lock. The
-door swung open. For a moment Patience closed her eyes; the big room of
-yellow wood was a blaze of sunlight. Then she opened them and glanced
-curiously about her.
-
-The execution room was large and high and square and cheerful. On the
-left, many feet above the floor, was a row of windows. At the far end a
-number of men that had been sitting on stools stood up hurriedly as the
-prisoner entered, and doffed their hats. They were the newspaper men.
-She recognised most of them, and bent her head. At the opposite end near
-the door leading to the Death House was a chair. Patience regarded it
-steadily in spite of its brilliancy. It was a solid chair of light
-coloured oak, like the room, and supported on three legs. Two were at
-the back; in front was one of curious construction, almost a foot in
-breadth. This leg was divided in two at the extremity. Half way up there
-was a cross piece which spread the full width of the chair. To this was
-fastened the straps to hold the ankles of the condemned. The chair stood
-on a rubber mat to ensure perfect insulation. It was studded with small
-electric lamps, dazzling, white-hot.
-
-Behind the chair was a square cupboard in which stood the unknown, who,
-at a given signal, would turn on the current.
-
-Two prison guards stood by the chair, one behind it and one on the
-right. The State electrician, two surgeons, and a man in light blue
-clothes stood near.
-
-Patience turned her eyes to the reporters. The young men were very pale.
-They regarded her with deep sympathy, and perhaps a bitter resentment at
-the impotence of their manhood. One looked as if he should faint, and
-turning his back suddenly raised something to his lips. Even the “Eye”
-man still held his hat in his hand, and had not resumed his seat. Only
-one watched her with eager wolfish curiosity. He was the youngest of
-them all, and it was his first great story.
-
-Patience wondered if she looked ugly after her long confinement, and
-possibly ridiculous, as most women look when they have dressed without a
-mirror. But there was no curve of amusement on the young men’s faces,
-and they were shuffling their feet uneasily. Her hair hung in a long
-braid. She looked very young.
-
-She dropped the head-keeper’s arm and walked deliberately to the chair;
-but he caught her hand and held her back.
-
-“Wait a minute,” he said, with affected gruffness. He went to the chair
-and examined it in detail. He asked a number of questions, which were
-answered by the electrician with haughty surprise. In a moment the
-reporters were staring, and like a lightning flash one brain informed
-another that “something was in the wind.”
-
-When the head-keeper had lingered about the chair as long as he dared he
-returned to Patience, who was standing rigidly where he had left her,
-and drawing a short breath said,—
-
-“If you have any last words, ma’am, you are at liberty to speak.”
-
-“I have nothing to say,” replied Patience, wondering if her mouth or
-brain were speaking.
-
-“Yes, yes, speak,” exclaimed several of the reporters. They had out
-their pads in an instant; but, for once, it was not the news instinct
-that was alert. The most quick-witted men in the world, they realised
-that the head-keeper was endeavouring to gain time. Their stiff felt
-hats dropped to the floor and bounced about. Their hands shook a little.
-For perhaps the first time in their history they were more men than
-journalists.
-
-“I don’t wish to speak,” said Patience, and again she walked toward the
-chair. The newspaper men sprang forward with an uncontrollable movement,
-but the guards waved them back.
-
-“Be careful, young men,” said the head-keeper with pompous severity.
-“Any more of that, and you go out.” Taking advantage of the momentary
-scraping of boots, he whispered in Patience’s ear, “For God’s sake
-speak—and a good long one. You must have something to say; and it’s
-your last chance on earth.”
-
-“I have nothing to say,” she replied, her brain closed to all
-impressions but one. “Can’t you see that I need all my strength? If you
-have any mercy in you put me in that chair and have done with it.”
-
-“Oh, you are not the kind to break down—my God!”
-
-The silence of the prison, the hush without the walls, was pierced by a
-single shriek, a shriek which seemed shot from earth to heaven, a mighty
-shriek of furious warning.
-
-Every man in the room jumped. The newspaper men drew their breath with a
-hard sound. Only Patience gave no heed.
-
-“It’s an engine,” stuttered the head-keeper, “and there’s no train due
-at this hour—”
-
-The outer door was flung violently open. The warden stamped heavily into
-the room. His face was purple.
-
-“Why in hell hasn’t this execution taken place?” he roared. “Get to
-work!”
-
-The head-keeper’s face turned very white. His hand shook a little. The
-men stared at him with jumping nerves. Patience and the warden were the
-only persons in the room unaffected by the inexplicable excitement which
-had taken possession of the atmosphere.
-
-“Get to work,” repeated the warden.
-
-Patience walked to the chair and seated herself, extending her arms in
-position. Once more her brain relaxed its grasp on every thought but the
-determination not to scream nor quiver. She closed her eyes and set her
-teeth.
-
-The guards began to fasten the straps, but slowly, under the significant
-eyes of the head-keeper. The warden stamped up and down. The electrician
-came forward. The surgeon went into an adjoining room and cast his eyes
-over his instruments, laid out on a long table.
-
-The brain works eccentrically in such moments. Patience’s suddenly flung
-upon her consciousness a picture of Carmel tower. She speculated upon
-the fate of her owl. She recalled that the Mission had been restored,
-and wondered if Solomon, that proud and elderly hermit, had turned his
-haughty back upon civilisation to dwell alone in the black arbours of
-the remote pine tops of the forest. She saw the spray toss itself into
-scattering wraiths, as when she had knelt there—a thousand years ago—a
-little lonely girl in copper-toed boots, dreaming dreams that were
-pricked with no premonition of life’s tragic horrors.
-
-She frowned suddenly, recalling her long-lived determination to take
-life as a spectacular drama. Life had gotten the best of her! Assuredly
-there was nothing impersonal about this ignominious and possibly
-excruciating death. The thought banished Carmel tower. Her mind was a
-sudden blaze of light—white light she thought with a stifled shrink—in
-which every detail of the room was sharply accentuated. She opened her
-eyes, but only a trifle, lest these men see the horror in them. Her
-blood was curdling, but she knew that she was making no sign.
-
-Her sensitised mind received the immediate impression that the
-atmosphere of the room was vibrating with excitement. She saw the
-head-keeper’s neck crane, his furtive glance at the outer door. He
-expected some one. Bourke!
-
-She set her teeth. She had believed up to last night that he would save
-her. Why had she doubted him for an instant? She understood now the
-diplomacy of the head-keeper. Why had she not spoken when he had
-implored her?
-
-It seemed to her that the men fastening the straps were racing each
-other. She wanted to whisper to them to lag, but pride stayed her
-tongue.
-
-The warden was striding about and swearing. The electricians and
-surgeons were whispering in a group.
-
-She looked at the newspaper men. She met their gaze of excited sympathy,
-understood at last the spirit that animated them, and bowed her head.
-She dared not speak.
-
-But in a moment indignation routed gratitude. Why did they not rescue
-her, these young vigorous men! They knew her to be innocent. They
-outmatched in number the guards. Where was their manhood? What had
-become of all the old traditions? Then her anger left as suddenly as it
-had come. They were not knights with battle axes, but the most
-exaggerated product of modern civilisation. It was almost a miracle that
-they passionately wished to save her.
-
-Her head was drawn gently back, her eyes covered. Something leapt and
-fought within her. Horror tore at her vitals, snarling like a
-wolf-hound. But once more her will rose supreme. Then, as she realised
-that her last moment had come, she became possessed by one mighty
-desire, to compel her imagination to give her the phantasm, the voice,
-the touch of her lover.
-
-The wrench with which she accomplished her object was so violent, the
-mental concentration so overmastering, that all other consciousness was
-extinguished.
-
-Suddenly her ears were pierced by a din which made her muscles leap
-against the straps. Was she in hell, and was this her greeting? She felt
-a second’s thankfulness that death had been painless.
-
-Then, out of the babel of sound she distinguished words which made her
-sit erect and open her eyes, her pulses bound, her blood leap, hot and
-stinging, her whole being rebound with gladness of life.
-
-The cap had been removed, the men were unbuckling the straps. The
-head-keeper had flung his cap on the floor and run his hands through his
-hair until it stood up straight. Round her chair the newspaper men were
-pressing, shouting and cheering, trying to get at her hand to shake it.
-
-She smiled and held out her hand, but dared not speak to them. Pride
-still lived, and she was afraid that she should cry.
-
-Then she forgot them. A sudden parting in the ranks showed her the open
-door. At the same moment the men stopped shouting. Bourke had entered.
-He had followed the guard mechanically, neither hoping nor fearing until
-the far-reaching cheers sent the blood springing through his veins once
-more.
-
-He was neither clean nor picturesque, but Patience saw only his eyes. He
-walked forward rapidly, and lifting her in his arms carried her from the
-room.
-
-
-
-
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-
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-<p class='line'>AUTHOR OF “A WHIRL ASUNDER,” “THE DOOMSWOMAN,”</p>
-<p class='line'>“BEFORE THE GRINGO CAME,” ETC.</p>
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-<p class='line'><span class='sc'>By John Lane</span>.</p>
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-<p class='line' style='text-align:center;margin-bottom:1.2em;font-size:1.3em;'>CONTENTS</p>
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-<tr><td class='tab1c1 tdStyle0'><a href='#book1'>Book I</a></td><td class='tab1c2 tdStyle0'></td></tr>
-<tr><td class='tab1c1 tdStyle0'><a href='#book2'>Book II</a></td><td class='tab1c2 tdStyle0'></td></tr>
-<tr><td class='tab1c1 tdStyle0'><a href='#book3'>Book III</a></td><td class='tab1c2 tdStyle0'></td></tr>
-<tr><td class='tab1c1 tdStyle0'><a href='#book4'>Book IV</a></td><td class='tab1c2 tdStyle0'></td></tr>
-<tr><td class='tab1c1 tdStyle0'><a href='#book5'>Book V</a></td><td class='tab1c2 tdStyle0'></td></tr>
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-<p class='line'>TO</p>
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-<p class='pindent'>Who alone, of all foreigners, has detected, in its full significance, that
-the motive power, the cohering force, the ultimate religion of that
-strange composite known as “The American,” is Individual Will.
-Leaving the ultra-religious element out of the question, the high,
-the low, the rich, the poor, the man, the woman of this section of
-the Western world, each, consciously or unconsciously, believes in,
-relies on himself primarily. In the higher civilisation this amounts
-to intellectual anarchy, and its tendency is to make Americans, or,
-more exactly, United Statesians, a New Race in a sense far more
-portentous than in any which has yet been recognised. As M. Bourget
-prophesies, destruction, chaos, may eventuate. On the other hand,
-the final result may be a race of harder fibre and larger faculties than
-any in the history of civilisation. That this extraordinary self-dependence
-and independence of certain traditions that govern older nations
-make the quintessential part of the women as of the men of this race
-I have endeavoured to illustrate in the following pages.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:3em;margin-top:0.5em;'>G. A.</p>
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-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:center;font-size:1.5em;font-weight:bold;'>Patience Sparhawk and Her Times</p>
-
-<div><h1 class='nobreak'><a id='book1'></a>BOOK I</h1></div>
-
-<h2 class='nobreak'>I</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, git up! Git up! Did you ever see such an old
-slug? Billy! <span class='it'>Will</span> you git up?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What’s the use of talking to him?” drawled a
-soft, inactive voice. “You know he never goes one
-bit faster. What’s the difference anyhow?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Difference is my mother wants these groceries for
-supper. We’re all out of sugar ’n flour ’n beans, and
-the men’s got to eat.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, as long as he won’t go, just be comfortable
-and don’t bother.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish I could be as easy-going as you are, Rosita,
-but I can’t: I suppose it’s because I’m not Spanish.
-Guess I’ve got some Yankee in me, if I am a Californian.”
-The little girl leaned over the dash-board of
-the rickety buggy, thumping with her whip-stump the
-back of the aged nag. Billy was blind, uncertain in
-the knees, and as languid as any <span class='it'>caballero</span> that once
-had sighed at <span class='it'>doña’s</span> feet in these dim pine woods.
-As far back as Patience could remember he had never
-broken his record, and his record was two miles an
-hour. In a few moments she set the whip in the socket
-with an irritable thump, wound the reins about it, and
-sat down on the floor beside her companion. For
-some reason best known to themselves, the girls preferred
-this method of disposition when Billy led the
-way,—perhaps because he had an errant fondness for
-the roughest spots of the rough road, making the high
-seat as uneasy and precarious as thrones are still; perhaps
-because Patience rebelled at habit, and in all her
-divagations was blindly followed by her Spanish friend.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Billy ambled up and down the steep roads of the
-fragrant pine woods on the hills behind Monterey, and
-the girls gave him no further heed. Patience’s long
-plait having been shaken loose in her wild lurches over
-the dash-board, she swung about, dangled her legs out
-of the buggy, and commanded Rosita to braid her hair.
-The legs she kicked recklessly against the wheel were
-not pretty. They were long and thin, clothed with
-woollen stockings darned and wrinkled, and angled off
-with copper-toed boots. She wore a frock of faded
-gingham, and chewed the strings of a sunbonnet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t pull so, and do hurry,” she exclaimed as the
-Spanish girl’s deft slow fingers moved in and out of the
-scanty wisps.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m not pulling, Patita, dear, and you know I can’t
-hurry. And I’m just thinking that your hair is the
-colour of ashes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I know it,” said Patience, gloomily, “but maybe
-it’ll be yellow when I grow up. Do you remember
-Polly Collins? When she graduated she had hair the
-colour of a wharf rat, and when she came back from
-San Francisco the next year it was as yellow as the hills
-in summer.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t care for yellow hair,” and Rosita moved
-her dark head with the slow rotary motion which was
-hers by divine right.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’re pretty,” said Patience, sarcastically.
-“You want to be told so, I suppose—There! you
-pulled my hair on purpose, you know you did, Rosita
-Thrailkill.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t, Patita. Don’t fire up so.” And Rosita,
-who was the most amiable of children, tied the end of
-the braid with a piece of tape, rubbed her blooming
-cheek against the pale one, and was forgiven.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience drew herself into the buggy and braced her
-back against the seat. Her face had little more beauty
-than her legs. It was colourless and freckled. The
-mouth was firm, almost dogged, as if the contest with
-life had already begun. Her brows and lashes were
-several shades darker than her hair, but her eyes, wide
-apart and very bright, were a light, rather cold grey.
-The nose alone was a beautiful feature, straight and
-fine; and the hands, although rough and sunburned,
-were tapering and slender, and very flexible.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In her red frock, the highly-coloured little Spanish
-girl glowed like a cactus blossom beside a neglected
-weed. Her plump face was full of blood; her large
-dark eyes were indolent and soft. Patience’s eyes
-comprehended everything within their radius in one
-flashing glance; Rosita’s, even at the tender age of
-fifteen, looked unswerving disapproval of all exertion,
-mental or physical.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder if your mother is drunk?” she asked in
-her slow delicious voice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Likely,” said Patience, with frowning resignation.
-“But let’s talk of something more agreeable. Isn’t
-this perfume heavenly?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The dark solemn woods were ravishing with the perfumes
-of spring, the perfume of wild violet and lilac
-and lily, and the faint sweet odour the damp earth gives
-up as the sun goes down. From above came the strong
-bracing scent of the pines. Now and again the wind
-brought a salt whiff from the ocean. No birds carolled,
-but the pines sang their eternal dirge.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What’s your ideal?” demanded Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ideal? What ideal?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, of man, of course.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, man!” contemptuously. “I haven’t thought
-much about men. I don’t read novels like you do. I
-wish somebody would die and leave me a thousand
-dollars so I could live in San Francisco and have a new
-dress every day and go to the theatre every night.
-Miss Galpin says we mustn’t think about boys, and I
-don’t—perhaps because the boys in Monterey are so
-horrid.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Boys? Who said anything about boys?” The
-chrysalis elevated her patrician nose. “I mean
-men.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you’re mean to turn up your nose at boys.
-They like you a good deal better than they do me, and
-a good many of the other girls.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s funny, isn’t it? and I not pretty. But I
-suppose it’s because I talk. You just sit still and look
-pretty, and that’s not very entertaining. I read in a
-novel that men like that; but boys have got to be
-entertained. Goodness gracious! Don’t I know it?
-When I was at Manuela’s party the other night in my
-old washed muslin frock and plaid sash, didn’t I talk
-my throat sore to make them forget that I was the
-worst dressed girl in the room and had the most
-freckles? Of course the girls didn’t forget—nor some
-other things—” with a bitter lowering of the lids—“but
-the boys did. Somehow I feel as if men would
-always be my friends, if I’m not pretty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you know about men, anyhow? You’re
-only fifteen, and you’ve never met any but old Mr.
-Foord, and the farm hands and store keepers, who,”
-aristocratically, “don’t count.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Haven’t I read novels? Haven’t I read Thackeray
-and Dickens and Scott and ‘Jane Eyre’ and ‘Wuthering
-Heights’ and Shakespeare and Plutarch’s Lives, and
-the life of Napoleon and Macaulay’s ‘History of England’
-and Essays—those all ain’t novels, but they write
-about men, real men, too. I’ve made my ideal out of
-a lot of them put together, and I’ll never marry till I
-find him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’d like to know where you’ll find him in
-Monterey,” said the practical Rosita. “Miss Galpin
-says you’re too romantic, and that it’s a pity, because
-you’re the brightest girl in the school.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did Miss Galpin say that?” Patience took a brass
-pin out of her frock and extracted a splinter from her
-thumb with a fine air of indifference; but the pink
-flooded her cheek. “She’s always reading Howells
-and James, and says they’d keep anybody from being
-romantic. But that’s about all I’ve got, so I think
-I’ll hold on to it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The sun dropped below the horizon as they jolted
-out of the woods and down the steep road toward
-Carmel Valley. They reached a ledge, and Patience,
-forgetful of hungry men and an irascible parent, called:
-“Whoa!” to which Billy responded with an alacrity
-reserved for such occasions only.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never get tired of this,” she said. “Do you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s pretty,” said Rosita, indifferently. “Why are
-you so fond of scenery—nature, as Miss Galpin calls
-it—I wonder?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t know,” said Patience, and at that age she
-did not. She was responsive but dumb. She gazed
-down and out and upward with a pleasure that never
-grew old. A great bleak mountain loomed on the
-other side of the valley. It was as steep as if the
-ocean had gnawed it flat, but only the peaceful valley
-lay under; out in the ocean it tapered to an immense
-irregular mass of rock over which the breakers leapt
-and fought. Carmel River sparkled peacefully beneath
-its moving willows. The blue bay murmured to the
-white sands with the peace of evening. Close to the
-little beach the old Mission hung its dilapidated head.
-Through its yawning arches dark objects flitted; mould
-was on the yellow walls; from yawning crevice the
-rank grass grew. Only the tower still defied elements
-and vandals, although the wind whistled through its gaping
-windows and the silver bells were no more. The
-huts about the church had collapsed like old muscles,
-but in their ruin still whispered the story of the past.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Isn’t it splendid to think that we have a ruin!”
-exclaimed Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s a ruin sure enough; but there’s uncle Jim.
-He must think we’re dead.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A prolonged “Halloa!” came from the valley, and
-Patience, with a sigh, bade Billy “Git up,” which he
-did in the course of a moment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Halloa, you youngsters, why don’t you hurry?”
-cried a nasal voice. “I’ve been waiting here an hour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Coming,” said Patience. “It’s too bad he had
-to wait.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, he smoked and swore, so he’s all right,” said
-Rosita, who had not taken the trouble to reply. None
-of the girls was allowed to visit Patience at her house;
-but Mrs. Thrailkill, who was fond of her daughter’s
-chosen friend, and pitiful in her indolent way, often
-allowed Patience to drive Rosita as far as the branching
-of the roads, where the Kentucky uncle met his
-niece and took her to his farm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In the dusk below a wagon and two horses could be
-seen, and a big man under a wide straw hat, sitting on
-the upper rail of a fence, his heels hooked to the rail
-below. Patience inferred that he was chewing tobacco
-and expectorating upon the poppies.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I reckon!” he exclaimed as the buggy
-reached the foot of the hill. “You two do beat all.
-Do you s’pose I’ve got nothing better to do than moon
-round pikes waiting on kids like you? How’s your
-ma, Rosita? Well, Patience, I won’t keep you—much
-obliged for giving my lazy Spanish niece a lift.
-Come on now; supper’s ready ’n after.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The two little girls kissed each other affectionately.
-Mr. Thrailkill lifted Rosita down, and Patience turned
-Billy in the direction of a fiery eye and a dim column
-of smoke under the mountain. The evening seemed
-very quiet after the rattle of Mr. Thrailkill’s team had
-become a part of the distance. Only the roar of the
-surf, the moaning of the pines, the harsh music of the
-frogs, the thousand vocal mysteries of night—not a
-sound of man. Patience, after her fashion, rehabilitated
-the Mission and peopled the valley with padres and
-Indians; but when Billy came to a sudden halt, she
-sprang prosaically to the ground and let down the bars
-of her mother’s ranch. After she had replaced them
-she took hold of Billy’s bridle, and endeavoured, by
-jerks and expostulation, to induce him to move more
-rapidly. The road now lay through a ploughed field
-stretching gloomily on the east to the horizon, where
-the stars seemed dropping into the dark. Cows
-roamed at will, or lay heavily in their first sleep. Here
-and there an oak thrust out its twisted arms, its trunk
-bent backward by ocean winds. The house soon became
-plainly outlined, a long unpainted wooden story-and-a-half
-structure, the type of ranch house of the
-second era. Castilian roses clambered up the unpainted
-front. Clumps of gladiolus, pinks, and fuschias
-struggled with weeds in the front garden. Beyond
-was a number of out-buildings.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience reached the porch she dropped
-Billy’s bridle, lifted out the sugar, and stepping to the
-kitchen window, looked through it for a moment before
-opening the door. Her mother was very drunk.</p>
-
-<h2>II</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The room into which Patience frowned was a large
-rough kitchen of the old familiar type. The rafters
-were festooned with cobwebs, through which tin cans
-and aged pails were visible, and an occasional bundle
-of rags. The board walls were unplastered and unpainted.
-Out of the uneven floor, knots had dropped
-to the cellar below. The door of a cupboard, built
-against the wall with primitive simplicity, stood open,
-revealing a motley collection of cans, bottles, and
-cracked dishes. Pots and pans were heaped on a shelf
-traversing two sides of the room. A table was loaded
-with odds and ends, in the midst of which place had
-been made for a lamp.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Over a large stove a woman was frying bacon and
-eggs. She wore a brown calico garment, torn and
-smudged. Her fine black hair, sprinkled with ashes,
-hung raggedly above magnificent dark eyes, blinking in
-a crimson face. The thin nostrils and full mouth were
-twitching. In her ruin she was still a beautiful woman,
-and she moved her tall bloated form with the pride of
-race, despite the alcohol in her veins.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On a broken chair by the stove sat a young man in
-the overalls and flannel shirt of a farm hand. His hair
-was clipped to his skull with colourless result; his large
-red under lip curved down into a yellow beard. In a
-long low room adjoining the kitchen a half dozen other
-men were seated on benches about a table covered with
-white oilcloth and chipped crockery. They also wore
-overalls and flannel shirts; and they were bearded and
-seamed and brown. The Californian sun soon burns
-the juices out of the flesh that defies it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience flung open the kitchen door and threw the
-sugar on the table.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oscar,” she said peremptorily to the man by the
-stove, “take Billy round to the barn and put him up,
-and bring in the flour and the beans. They’re under
-the seat.” The man went out, muttering angrily, and
-she turned to her mother, who had begun a tirade of
-abuse. “Keep quiet,” she said. “So you’re drunk
-again? I thought you promised me that you wouldn’t
-drink again for a week. Where did you get it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Couldn’t help it,” muttered the woman, cowed by
-the bitter contempt in her small daughter’s eyes, and
-thrusting a long fork into the sputtering fat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where did you get it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Couldn’t help it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience opened the package of sugar with a jerk,
-and filling two bowls with the coarse brown stuff carried
-them into the next room and set them at opposite ends
-of the table. The men ceased talking as she entered,
-and saluted her respectfully. They felt vaguely sorry
-for her; but they were afraid of her, and she was not a
-favourite with them. Her mother, “Madge,” as they
-called her to a man, they worshipped, despite or
-because of her peccability. They went down before
-her deathless magnetism, her coarse good nature, her
-spurious kind-heartedness. It was only when very drunk
-that she became violent and vituperative, and even then
-she fascinated them. Patience told herself proudly that
-she had no attraction for “common men”—that she
-repelled them. Not being a seer, she was saved the
-foreknowledge of a fatal gift in operation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She took the large coffee-pot from the back of the
-stove and filled the men’s cups with its thick fluid.
-Her mother’s rolling eyes followed her with a malignant
-sparkle. She was afraid of her daughter, and resentment
-had eaten deep into her perverted nature.
-Patience filled a plate with bread and apple sauce, and
-went into the parlour to eat her supper in solitude. She
-took all her meals in this room, which with little difficulty
-she appropriated to her exclusive use: it was very
-small. She kept it in fairly good order: she was not
-the tidiest of children. But the old brussels carpet was
-clean, barring the corners, and the horsehair furniture
-had been mended here and there with shoe thread.
-As it still prickled, however, Patience had made a
-cushion for the clumsy rocker out of an elderly gown
-which she had found in a trunk in the garret with other
-relics of finery. She occupied the rocker impartially
-whether eating or reading. The marble-topped table
-also served for dining and study.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In a forlorn old bookcase were her only treasures,
-the few books, mostly classics, which John Sparhawk
-had reserved when a succession of failures had forced
-him to sell his library to Mr. Foord. In one corner
-was a large family Bible on a small table. It was old
-and worn. Its gilt edges shone dimly through a cobweb
-of infinite pains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the papered walls were two large coloured photographs
-of Mr. and Mrs. Sparhawk, taken apparently
-when each was close on thirty years. The woman’s
-face bore traces of dissipation even then, and the red
-mouth was very sensual. But the cheeks were still
-delicate and there were no bags under the large flaming
-eyes. The bare neck and arms and half revealed bust
-were superb; the poise of the head, the curve of the
-short upper lip, the fine arched nostril, were the delicate
-insignia of race; the pride stamped on every
-feature was that of birth, not of defiance. The man
-had a slender upright figure and a finely modelled head
-and face. The deeply set eyes were cold and piercing,
-but between the stern curves of the mouth there was
-much passion. Patience had studied these faces, but
-she was as innocent as if she had been bred in a cloister,
-and their mystery baffled while it allured her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She ate her supper with a hearty appetite. Her
-mother’s lapses, being accepted as part of the routine
-of existence, rarely depressed her spirits. Nevertheless
-she frowned heavily as turbulent sounds pierced the
-thin partition, not so much at her mother’s iniquity, as
-at the prospect of being obliged to wash the supper
-dishes. The expected crash came, and she ran into the
-kitchen. Her mother lay prone. Two of the men
-lifted her immediately and carried her up the narrow
-stair. Patience sullenly attacked the dishes. She
-dumped them into a large pan of hot water, stirred them
-gingerly with a cloth fastened to a stick, drained the
-water off, poured in a fresh pailful, and dried them
-hastily. She filled the frying-pan with water and set it
-on the hottest part of the stove to cook itself clean.
-Occasionally she coughed with angry significance: the
-men in the next room were invisible behind a grey fog
-of their own puffing. She spattered her clean pinafore,
-blackened her hands, and devoutly wished herself alone
-on a desert island where she could live on cocoanuts
-and bananas. At such times she forgot the few compensations
-of her unfortunate life and felt herself only
-the poverty-stricken drudge, the daughter of Madge
-Sparhawk.</p>
-
-<h2>III</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Who Madge Sparhawk was before she married the
-Yankee rancher had at one time been an absorbing
-topic for dispute in Monterey. One gossip averred
-that she had been the dashing leader of the lower ten
-thousand of San Francisco, another that she had come
-from the Eastern States as the mistress of a wealthy
-man who had wearied and cast her off; a third confidently
-affirmed that she had been a brilliant New
-York woman of fashion who had gone wrong through
-love of drink, and been sent under an assumed
-name to California by her afflicted family; a fourth
-swore that she had been an actress, a fifth that she
-had been the high-tempered queen of a gambling
-house. On one point all agreed: she was disreputable,
-and John Sparhawk was a fool to marry her. However,
-they were somewhat disappointed that they saw
-so little of her. They were not called upon to snub
-nor tolerate her. She rarely came into the town; never
-excepting on horseback with her husband, when her
-splendid beauty drew masculine Monterey from its
-perch on the fence tops,—where it sat and smoked
-and murmured the hours away,—and gathered it about
-her, stirring the diluted rill of <span class='it'>caballero</span> blood.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As far as the little world of Monterey could learn
-through the gossip of servants, she was a helpful wife
-to a devoted husband who patiently strove with the
-fiend that possessed her. When he was killed by the
-accidental discharge of a gun her grief was so violent
-that only a prolonged carouse could assuage it. Subsequently
-she recovered, and with occasional advice
-from Mr. Foord attempted to run the farm. As John
-Sparhawk had made no will, she was her child’s legal
-guardian, the absolute mistress for eight years of what
-property her husband had left. There was a little
-ready money, the dairy was remunerative, and the ranch
-well stocked. But that was five years ago. Her habits
-had grown upon her; the ranch was mortgaged and
-run down, the stock decreased by half.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had rebelled heavily at her father’s death,
-and wondered, with childish logic, why, if one parent
-had to die, it could not have been her mother. Her
-father’s manner had been cold, repellent, like her own;
-but that his nature was deep and passionate even her
-young mind had never doubted. She felt it in the
-close clasp of his arms as he held her before him on his
-horse when galloping about the ranch; in his sudden
-infrequent caress; in the strong pressure of his hand as
-they wandered through the woods or along the shore at
-night, not a word spoken between them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was not until after his death that she made acquaintance
-with her social separateness. He had
-begun her education himself. Her only girl companion
-was Rosita Thrailkill, the niece of a neighbour, whom
-her father would not permit her to visit in Monterey.
-John Sparhawk’s only friends were the Thrailkill brothers
-and Mr. Foord, an elderly gentleman, who had lived in
-Monterey under the old régime, lost his fortune in the
-great Bonanza time, and returned to the somnolent
-town to end his days with his library, the memory of
-his dead Spanish wife, and a few old friends, world-forgotten
-like himself. He lived in the dilapidated
-Custom House on the rocks at the edge of the town,
-and Patience had ruled his establishment since her
-baby days. It was the only house in Monterey she was
-permitted to enter, and she entered it as often as she
-could. A hundred times she had sat with the old
-gentleman on the upper corridor and listened to the
-story of the capture of Monterey by the United States
-fleet in 1846; stared breathlessly at the crumbling fort—the
-<span class='it'>castillo</span>—on the hill above Junipero Serra’s
-cross, as Mr. Foord verbally restored its former impregnability.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He told her tales of the days of light and life and
-joy when Monterey was the capital of the Californians,
-and the Americans were not yet come,—stories of love
-and revenge and the great free play of the primitive
-passions, unpared by modern civilisation. For her
-those old adobe houses in the town were alive once
-more with dark-eyed <span class='it'>doñas</span> and magnificently attired
-<span class='it'>caballeros</span>. Behind the high walls of the old gardens
-fans fluttered among the Castilian roses and dueñas
-stealthily prowled. The twisted streets were gay again
-with the court life of the olden time, the grand parades
-of the governors, the triumphant returns from the race
-on the restless silver-trapped steeds.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Every house had its history, and Patience knew them
-all. She wandered with Mr. Foord along the dusty
-streets, lingered before the garden walls, over which she
-could see and smell the nasturtiums and the sweet
-Castilian roses. But gone were the <span class='it'>caballeros</span> and the
-<span class='it'>doñas</span>. They lay in the little cemetery of the <span class='it'>padres</span>
-on the hill, over beyond the yellow church which
-marked a corner of the old <span class='it'>presidio</span>, and well on the
-road to a great hotel whose typical life was vastly different
-from that old romantic time. They lay under
-their stones, forgotten. The thistles and wild oats
-rioted under the gnarled old oaks. The new-comer
-never paused to glance at the worn carvings on the
-thick rough slabs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Behind the garden walls a few brown old women
-lived alone, too practical to brood upon an enchanted
-past. Cows nibbled in the <span class='it'>plaza</span> where once the bull
-and the bear had fought while the gay jewelled people
-screamed with delight. Gone was the tinkle of the
-guitar, the flutter of fan, the graceful woman hastening
-down the street half hidden in her mantilla, the
-lovely face behind the grating. The screaming of the
-sea-gulls, the moaning of the pines, the roar of the surf,
-alone remained the same, careless of change or decay.
-Wooden houses crowded between the old adobes.
-Most of the Spanish families were half American: their
-women had preferred the enterprising intruder to the
-indolent <span class='it'>caballero</span>. Arcadia was no more. The old had
-kissed the hand of the new, and spawned a hybrid.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After John Sparhawk’s death, Mr. Foord persuaded
-his widow to send Patience to the public school. The
-little girl was delighted. She had looked with envious
-longing at the stone building, painted a beautiful pink,
-which stood well up on the hill at the right of the town
-and was still known by the imposing name of Colton
-Hall; it had been built by the first American <span class='it'>alcalde</span>,
-and was a court house for a brief while.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But it was not long before Patience learned the
-bitter lesson that she was not as other girls, despite
-the fact that at that time she was well dressed and that
-she drifted naturally to the head of her classes. School
-girls are coarse and cruel. Children are the periodical
-relapse of civilisation into savagery. These girls of
-Monterey excluded Patience from their games and
-recess conversations, and intimated broadly that her
-mother was not respectable.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At first Patience gave them little heed. She loved
-study, and was of a wild happy nature beneath her prim
-exterior. Moreover, Rosita was her loyal friend; and
-one of the older girls, Manuela Peralta, who had a kind
-and independent heart, sheltered her as much as she
-could. But Patience was too bright and observing to
-remain long in ignorance of her hostile environment.
-When the awakening came her young soul was filled
-with rage and bitterness. The full meaning of their
-innuendoes she was too ignorant to understand, but that
-she was regarded as a pariah was sufficiently evident.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Little as she loved her mother, a natural impulse sent
-her to her only remaining parent with the story of her
-wrongs. Mrs. Sparhawk became violently indignant
-and shortly after very drunk. The subject was never
-mentioned between them again; nor did Patience
-speak of it with any one but Rosita, whom she regarded
-as a second, beloved, and somewhat inferior self. But
-her soul cried out for the strength that only a man’s
-strong soul can give to woman at any age; and the
-man that had prayed to live and defend her lay with
-the forgotten Californians on the hill.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Foord divined her trouble, and did what he
-could to make her life endurable, although her shy
-reserve forbade any intimacy beyond the old friendship.
-Miss Galpin, her teacher, made no secret of
-the fact that Patience was her favourite scholar, and
-encouraged her to study and read and forget.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience indulged in no further outbreak, even to
-herself. She cultivated a cold and impassive exterior,
-an air of rigid indifference, and studied until her small
-head ached. She was not old enough to analyse; it
-was instinct only that made her assume callousness;
-but in her young vague way she grappled with the
-social problem. She did not approve of Mrs. Sparhawk
-any more than others did; but Mrs. Sparhawk’s
-daughter behaved herself, and stood at the
-head of her classes, and had been assured again and
-again that she “looked like a little lady:” therefore
-she was at a loss to comprehend why Patience Sparhawk
-was not as good as other girls. There was
-Panchita McPherson, who lied profusely and whose
-mother sat in the sun all day and baked herself like an
-old crocodile, while her husband sat on the fence by
-the Post Office and smoked a pipe from the first of
-January until the thirty-first of December. Yet Panchita
-was of the <span class='it'>haute noblesse</span>, and treated Patience as
-she would a rag-picker. Francesca Montez never
-knew a lesson and was so vulgar that she brought the
-blush to Patience’s cheek; but she lived in an adobe
-mansion which once had been the scene of princely
-splendour, and gave two parties a year. The American
-girls had not even the prestige of the past; they could
-not reckon up a great-grandfather between them, much
-less peeling portraits of <span class='it'>caballeros</span> and trunks of splendid
-finery; but they were bright and aggressive, and made
-themselves a power in the school.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Patience grew older she compelled the respect of
-her mates, and they ceased to annoy her. The consciousness
-of social supremacy never faded, not for an
-instant; but even tying a tin can to a dog’s tail becomes
-monotonous in time, and they had numberless little
-interests to absorb them. If Patience had been a rollicking
-emotional child she would doubtless have kissed
-herself into popularity and been treated to much good-natured
-patronage; but she scorned placation, and grew
-more reserved as the years went by. She accepted her
-fate, and discovered that there were times and hours
-when her mother, schoolmates, and social problems
-could be forgotten. Her spirits were naturally buoyant,
-and her mind grew philosophical; but as Mr. Foord
-once observed to Miss Galpin, “her start in life had
-been all wrong, and it would matter more with her
-than with some others.”</p>
-
-<h2>IV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After Patience had put the kitchen in order she went
-up to her room. She slept at one end of the house,
-her mother at the opposite. Several of the hired men
-occupied a dormitory between; the rest slept over the
-dairy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She lit her candle and began to undress, then extinguished
-the flame suddenly and went down stairs
-and out of the house. She felt sullen and heavy and
-depressed, and knew the remedy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The moon was at the full; the great ploughed fields
-were a sea of silver; the dark pines on the hills
-opened their aisles to cataracts of crystal, splashing
-through the green uplifted arms. Strange shadows
-moved amidst the showers of cold light, twisting rhythmically
-under the touch of the night wind.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience loved nature too passionately to fear her in
-any mood or hour. She sped over the rough field,
-climbed the fence, and walked hastily toward the Mission,
-pausing now and again to inhale the rich perfumes
-of Spring. The ruin looked like the skeleton of
-a mammoth caught in a phantom iceberg. Even the
-dark things that haunted it were touched to beauty by
-the silver light pouring through the storm-beaten rose
-window over the massive doors, into the abysms between
-the arches.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience skirted the long body of the church with
-haste; mouldering skeletons lay under the floor, and
-like all imaginative minds she had a lively horror of the
-dead. She entered the open doorway and ascended
-the steep spiral stair in the tower. The steps were cut
-from solid stone and were worn by the trampling of
-many feet. As she neared the top she called,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tu wit! Tu woo!” and was promptly answered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As her chin appeared above the floor of the little
-room, where the moonlight came through hollow casements,
-an old grey owl, a large wise solemn owl, advanced
-from the wall with slow and stately step; and
-despite his massive dignity there was expectancy in
-his mien.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Poor Solomon,” said Patience, contritely. “I forgot
-your supper.” She climbed into the room and
-attempted to pat his head; but when he saw that the
-hand was empty, he flapped his wings, and turning his
-back upon her, retired to the wall, blinking indignantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience laughed, then sighed, and sank on her knees
-before the low window overlooking the ocean. The
-blue bay still whispered to the white sands sparkling
-like diamond dust in the moonlight, the yellow stars
-winking in its clear depths. But the ocean was uneasy,
-and hurtled reiterantly in great deep-throated waves
-at the rocky shore as if its giant soul were in final rebellion
-against this conventional war with a passive foe.
-About Point Lobos its voice waxed trumpet-toned. It
-shouldered itself into mighty waves and tossed the spray
-into writhing shapes. Everything else was at rest. The
-great forces of nature were the angry prisoners of the
-tides. The moon grinned in his superior way. The little
-stars seemed to say: “Up here we are quite composed,
-and as vain as pretty women. If you would only keep
-quiet you would make such a fine large looking-glass.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Patience gazed out upon the beautiful scene, her
-young mind shifted its impressions. She forgot her life,
-and began to dream in a vague sweet way. Not of a
-lover. Despite the fact that she had manufactured a
-composite which occupied a pedestal in her imagination,
-she thought little about love. Her reveries were
-a wandering of her ego through the books she had read,
-environed by the nature whom she knew only in lovely
-profile. Had she lived her fifteen years on the sterile
-plains of Soledad, she might perhaps have been as
-harsh and bitter as its sands, her soul as grey, so susceptible
-was she to the subtle influence of great externals.
-But Monterey had saved her, and on nights like
-this she felt as if she too were flooded with crystal light,
-now and again clouded by something which perturbed,
-yet vibrated like the music of the pines.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When in a particularly romantic mood, she imagined
-herself Mariana in the “Moated Grange,” or hummed
-“The Long Long Weary Day,” and tried to feel sad,
-but could not. She never felt sad in her tower, with
-the owl on guard and the slighted dead in the church
-below. Sometimes she took herself to task for not
-having a proper amount of sentiment, but concluded
-that no one could be unhappy when so high above the
-world and all its hateful details. Occasionally she
-looked longingly at the perpendicular mountain: it
-was many times higher than her tower; but she was
-a lazy little thing, and would not climb.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she knelt, gazing out on the ocean, or up at the
-spangled night, she was a very different-looking being
-from the sharp practical child that had exhorted
-old Billy and berated her mother. The loosened hair
-clung softly about her pale face, whose freckles the kind
-moon with his white brush painted out. Her mouth
-had relaxed its stern lines. Her eyes were full of the
-moon’s shimmer, and of something else,—the struggling
-light of a developing soul.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience’s soul had taken care of itself and showed
-virility in spite of the forces at war against it. What
-the little battling spark strove for, puzzled Patience
-even at that unanalytical age. Religion—Christianity,
-to be more exact—said nothing to her; it appealed
-to no want in her; even the instinct was lacking. John
-Sparhawk had clung to the rigid faith of his fathers
-with a desperation which Patience, child as she was,
-had half divined. He had had prayers night and
-morning, and compelled his daughter to learn her
-catechism and many chapters of the Bible. After his
-death Mr. Foord took her to church on Sunday mornings
-and occasionally read her a little lecture. She
-listened respectfully, but felt no interest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Nevertheless, when alone in her tower at night,
-when she had set her foot on its lowest step with deliberate
-intent to get as high above the earth as she
-could, she was conscious of an upreaching of the spiritual
-entity within her, a wordless demand for the something
-higher and holier of which the supreme beauty of
-the Universe is symbolical.</p>
-
-<h2>V</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning, Patience, after helping her convalescent
-parent to get breakfast, stood on the porch
-debating whether she should go over to Mr. Thrailkill’s
-ranch and see Rosita or spend the day in Mr. Foord’s
-library.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The scholars of Colton Hall had a week’s vacation,
-and how to make the most of seven long days of
-freedom in exquisite spring weather was a serious
-question.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she hesitated she bethought herself of Solomon.
-She ran to the safe, and gingerly extracting a piece of
-raw meat wrapped it in a newspaper, and went over to
-the Mission. The owl had not moved, apparently, from
-the spot where he had taken his indignant stand the
-night before. When he scented the meat, however,
-he walked majestically forward, and taking no notice
-whatever of Patience, began at once upon the meal she
-spread at his feet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had decided in favour of the library, and
-started leisurely for Monterey. The ocean rested
-heavily after its labour of the night, swinging forward at
-long intervals with deep murmur, or throwing an occasional
-iridescent cloud of spray about Point Lobos.
-The keen air sparkled under a flood of golden light.
-The earth was green with the deep rich green of spring.
-Great bunches of it sprang from even the ragged mountain
-side, and long blades struggled to life between
-the broken tiles of the old Mission. Patience crossed
-the valley through beds of golden poppies and pale
-blue baby-eyes struggling with infantile pertinacity to
-raise themselves above the waving grass. She plucked
-a poppy and held her nose in the great cup that
-covered half her face. She liked the slight languor its
-heavy perfume induced.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She climbed the hill, and the woods shut out the
-world. Patience forgot her destination and wandered
-happily and aimlessly in the dim fragrance. She plucked
-some pine needles, and rubbing their juices free pressed
-her hands about her face. On the whole she preferred
-their pungent freshness to the poppy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After a time she began to skip over the carpet of
-yellow violets and to sing in a high childish treble. She
-was only a happy little girl with her lungs full of oxygen,
-her veins warmed by the sun, her heart exhilarated with
-the surpassing beauty of the morning. She threw pebbles
-at the squirrels and laughed loudly when they scampered
-up the stately trees. Spiritual problems did not trouble
-her, and social trials were forgotten.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She dawdled away the earlier hours of the morning in
-the woods, then descending the hill on the town side,
-regained her severe and elderly demeanour. The ocean
-was not visible here, but a bay bluer than sapphire curved
-into sands whiter than marble dust. The sun shone
-down on the red-tiled white adobes, on the high garden
-walls pink with Castilian roses, as gaily as in the old
-Arcadian time. But alas! it shone also on cheap
-wooden cottages and shops which had invaded even
-the hill on the right, where once a few stately mansions
-stood alone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The town was very quiet. It was always quiet.
-Some holy unheard voice seemed ever saying “Hush!”
-As Patience walked down Alvarado Street to the Custom
-House, she saw a slender brown woman watering the
-roses behind her garden wall. She had been the belle
-of Monterey in her time, “La Tulita,” and tradition
-had it that she still watered a rose-bush which General
-Sherman had planted.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the next block several dark lads sat on a fence in
-the approved Montereño style, smoking <span class='it'>cigaritos</span>. As
-Patience passed they lifted their caps as gallantly as
-ever <span class='it'>caballero</span> had done, although they did not fling
-them at her feet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She saw no one else until she reached the Custom
-House. Mr. Foord stood on the corridor that overhung
-the rocks. He was a large round-shouldered man, with
-a benign face the colour of aging marble and a brow of
-the old time intellectual type. The eyes behind his
-spectacles were dim and kind. The lower part of his
-face was humorous and stern. He wore a silk hat, a
-well-brushed suit of broadcloth, and carried a gold-headed
-cane.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’re going to town!” cried Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am,” he said smiling, “and I suppose you are
-going to read your eyes out in the library. Well, I’ll
-not be back until to-morrow, so you’ll have things all
-your own way. Tell Lola to cook you some dinner.
-I must be off.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bring me a box of candy,” she commanded, as she
-stood on tiptoe to give him the little peck she called a
-kiss. It was her mark of supreme consideration.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He promised, and she went into the library, a large
-room opening on the corridor, where many a great ball
-had been given in the days before and after the Americans
-came. A half dozen old-fashioned bookcases,
-crowded with books, stood against the walls of the
-low room. The books were bound in spotted calf or
-faded cloth, black cloth with peeling gilt letters. One
-large case contained John Sparhawk’s library, and
-Patience knew that it was practically hers. The floor
-was covered with a thick red carpet. A large easy-chair
-was drawn before the deep fire-place, in which a
-huge log crackled: it was still winter within adobe
-walls.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Altogether,” thought the philosopher of fifteen, as
-she flung her sunbonnet on the floor, “I guess that so
-long as I’ve got my tower and the woods and this room,
-I’m not so badly off as some.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She roamed about the room, opening the doors of the
-bookcases in turn. One case had been filled with
-books selected for her especial use, but Mr. Foord had
-not forbidden her the freedom of the others, being
-wiser than many guardians. Nevertheless, certain books
-were placed on top shelves, their titles concealed
-beneath the moulding of the case, and Patience had
-looked speculatively at them more than once. To-day
-they exerted a peculiar fascination. And it was rarely
-that she was alone in the library.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She possessed an investigating and tentative mind, and
-this forbidden territory appealed eloquently to her
-unruly will. But to get them out was not an easy task.
-They were tightly packed, and the moulding was like
-unto a prison bar. But Patience was a person of
-resource. She gave one of the books a smart thump,
-and it slanted inward. She inserted her thumb under
-its lifted edge and worried it out. It was a small
-volume bound in black, its lettering worn away. She
-opened it and glanced curiously at the titlepage.
-“Boccaccio’s Decameron” winked invitingly. The
-pages were spotted with yellow. The drawings looked
-as if the stories might be reasonably interesting.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience curled herself in the deep window-seat,
-quite sure that she had found a treasure. The book had
-a furtive and apologetic air. “I have grown old, at
-least,” it seemed to say. “I am but an elderly rake,
-and can only mumble of the past.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She read a few stories, then put the book back in its
-place with a resentful shove. Being wholly without the
-knowledge for which Eve pined, the stories were stupid
-and meaningless to her. She took down a thick volume
-bound in ragged calf. On the back was one large word,
-“Byron.” The leaves of this book were spotted too,
-but on the leaves were poems, and she loved poetry.
-Even when it was uninteresting she enjoyed the rhythm.
-She returned to the window-seat, and child-like, looked
-at the pictures first. The portrait of Byron she fell in
-love with immediately, and knocking her composite off
-its pedestal, lifted that proud passionate face to the
-station of honour.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was an immense-eyed picture of the Bride of
-Abydos which she thought looked like Rosita, and one
-of the Corsair dashing in upon his segregated love:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“My own Medora, sure thy song is sad!”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Francesca and Paola gazed at each other across a
-table:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“That day no further leaf we did uncover.”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A castle which looked older than the book loomed
-massively from the page:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“Lake Leman lies by Chillon’s walls.”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Never having heard of Byron, she was unable to
-enlarge her knowledge at once with his most celebrated
-creations; but she liked the looks of Conrad and Medora,
-and plunged into their fortunes. She read every line
-of the poem, and when she had finished she read it
-over again. Then she stared at the breakers booming
-to the rocks on the opposite horn of the crescent, her
-eyes expanded and filled with a wholly new light. She
-might be unlettered in woman’s wisdom, but the transcendent
-passion, the pounding vitality of the poet,
-carried straight to intuition. The insidious elixir drifted
-into the crystal stream. That incomparable objectivity
-sang the song of songs as distinctly into her brain as
-had it gathered the sounds of life for twenty years.
-Her cheeks were flushed, her eyes were bright. She
-felt as if she were a musical instrument upon which
-some divine unknown music were vibrating; and as
-she was wont to feel in the tower—but with a substratum
-of something quite different. She was filled
-with a soft tumult which she did not in the least comprehend,
-and happy. She looked almost beautiful.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After a time she read “The Bride of Abydos,” and
-dreamed over that until she discovered that she was
-hungry. She had forgotten to order dinner, and went
-to the kitchen to beg a crust.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Lola, large, unwhaleboned, vibrating porcinely with
-every motion, her brown coarsely moulded face beaming
-with good nature, her little black eyes full of
-temper and kindness, her black hair in a neat small
-knot, an unspotted brown and yellow calico garment
-secluding her person, stood at a sink in a kitchen as
-brilliantly clean as a varnished boot. Even the corners
-shone like glass, Patience often observed with a sigh.
-The two tables were scrubbed daily. The stove was
-black, the windows white. Not a pan nor a dish save
-those in the sink was in sight.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience made a sudden dash, a leap, and alighted
-on Lola’s back, encircling the yielding waist with her
-supple legs. The woman emitted a hoarse shriek, then
-laughed and pinched the legs. Patience plunged her
-cold hands into the creases of Lola’s neck, gathering a
-quantity into the palms. She was unrebuked. There
-were a few persons that loved Patience, and Lola was
-of them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Pobrecita!</span>” she exclaimed. “You are cold, no?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Mucho frizo</span>,” murmured Patience, sliding the back
-of her hands down the mountainous surface of Lola’s.
-“And hungry, <span class='it'>madre de dios</span>.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hungry? You no have the dinner? When you
-coming?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hours ago, Lola. How cruel of you not to call me to
-dinner! How mean and piggish to eat it all yourself!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ay, no call me the names. How I can know you
-are here <span class='it'>si</span> you no tell? Why you no coming here
-straight before going to the <span class='it'>librario</span>?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I forgot, Lola <span class='it'>mia</span>; and then I became—interested.
-But do give me something to eat.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si.</span>” And with Patience still on her back Lola
-waddled to the cupboard and lifted down the remains
-of a corn cake rolled about olives and cheese and
-peppers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“An <span class='it'>enchilada</span>!” said Patience. “Good.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Lola warmed the compound, and spread a napkin
-on a corner of one of the tables; then, suddenly
-unloosening Patience’s arms and legs, tumbled her
-headlong into a chair, laughing sluggishly as she
-ambled off. Patience ate the steaming <span class='it'>enchilada</span> as
-heartily as had Byron never been. In a moment she
-begged for a cup of chocolate.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si</span>,” said Lola, “I have some scrape already;” and
-she brewed chocolate in a little earthen pot, then beat
-it to froth with her <span class='it'>molinillo</span>. Patience kicked her
-heels together with delight, and sipped it daintily while
-Lola stood by with fat hands on fat hips in reflex
-enjoyment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Like it, <span class='it'>niña</span>?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You bet.” Then after a moment she asked
-dreamily: “Lola, were you ever in love?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Que!</span> Sure. Was I not marry? Poor my Pedro!
-How he lika the <span class='it'>enchilada</span> and the chocolaty; and
-the lard cakes and the little pig cooking with onions.
-And now the worms eating him. Ay, yi!” and Lola sat
-herself upon a chair and wept.</p>
-
-<h2>VI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Patience walked home through the woods subsequently
-to a long afternoon with Byron, she was hazily
-sensible that she had stepped from one phase of girlhood
-into another. She had an odd consciousness of
-gazing through a veil of gauze upon an exquisite but
-unfamiliar landscape over which was a dazzle of sunlight.
-She by no means understood the mystery of her
-nature as yet; she was technically too ignorant; but
-instinct was awake, and she felt somewhat as when she
-had drained the poppy cup for long. She was in that
-transition state when for the first and last time passion
-is poetry.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She arrived home in time to get supper. Mrs.
-Sparhawk was unexpectedly sober, and very cross.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My land, Patience Sparhawk!” she exclaimed, as
-her daughter opened the door and untied her sunbonnet,
-“seems to me you might help cook dinner in
-vacation instead of being off all day reading books or
-playing with that Spanish girl.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Seems to me,” said Patience, restored to her
-practical self, “that as you’re twice as big as I am and
-twice as strong, you’re pretty well able to get it yourself.
-And as it’s your fault there ain’t any servant in
-this house, I don’t see why I should make one of
-myself for you. Seems to me you’re fixed up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Sparhawk blushed, and smoothed her hair consciously.
-The hair had been washed, and was decorated
-with a red bow. She wore a garment of turkey
-red calico with a bit of cheap lace at the throat and
-wrists. Her face was plastered with a whitewash much
-in vogue. She looked handsome, but evil, and Patience
-stared at her with an uneasiness she was not able to
-analyse. She turned away after a moment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d put on an apron,” she remarked drily. “You
-might get spots on that gorgeous window curtain dress
-of yours.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At that moment the man Oscar entered the room.
-He uttered a note of admiration which made Patience
-turn about sharply. He was gazing upon Mrs. Sparhawk’s
-enhanced charms with an expression which
-Patience did not understand, but which filled her
-with sudden fury.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Here!” she exclaimed roughly, “go into the
-dining room until supper’s ready. This kitchen ain’t
-big enough for three.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man moved his eyes and regarded her
-angrily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Who’s boss here?” he demanded.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s not your place to ask questions. You’re
-hired to work outside, and when you come into this
-house there’s only one place for you. Now go into
-the other room.” Her eyes were flashing, and she
-had drawn up her shoulders. The man backed away
-from her much as dogs do when cats give warning.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That girl gives me a chill. I hate her,” he muttered
-to his mistress.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Sparhawk gave a loud laugh which covered her
-embarrassment, and slapped him heartily on the shoulder.
-“Go in, go in,” she said. “What’s the use of
-family quarrels?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man slunk away, and Patience went about her
-work with vicious energy. She fried liver and baked
-biscuits while her mother stirred the steaming cherries
-and brewed tea. When supper was ready she filled
-Oscar’s plate first and served him last, not hating herself
-in the least for her spite and spleen. After Mrs.
-Sparhawk had taken her place at the head of the table
-even her exuberant beauty could not dispel the frown
-on the hired man’s brow, until, to Patience’s disgust, she
-divined the cause of his surliness, and deftly exchanged
-her plate for his.</p>
-
-<h2>VII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That night Patience did not go to her tower, but
-wandered over the dark fields, a drooping forlorn
-little figure in the crawling shadows. She felt dull
-and tired and disheartened. By nine o’clock she
-was asleep. She awoke as fresh as the morning.
-When Mr. Foord returned from San Francisco in the
-afternoon he found her curled in the easy-chair by
-his fire. She started guiltily as he entered, then
-tossed her head defiantly, let Byron slide to the floor,
-and went forward to kiss him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As he was about to take the chair she had occupied
-he espied the fallen volume. He lifted it hastily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is this?” he demanded.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience blushed furiously, but set her lips with
-an expression he understood.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s Byron, and I’m going to read it all. I’ve
-read a lot.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He shifted the book from one hand to the other
-for a moment, his face much perturbed. Finally he
-laid it on the table, merely remarking: “Sooner or
-later, sooner or later.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience offered him a piece of the candy he had
-brought her; but he preferred his pipe, and she perched
-herself on the arm of his chair and ate half the contents
-of her box without pause. She had not yet
-learned the subtle delights of the epicure, and to enjoy
-until capacity was exhausted was typical of her enthusiastic
-temperament. When she could no longer look
-upon the candy without a shudder she climbed to the
-old gentleman’s shoulder and scratched his bald pate
-with her ragged nails. It was her emphatic way of
-expressing gratitude, and beloved by Mr. Foord above
-pipe and <span class='it'>enchilada</span>.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience took Byron home with her that evening,
-Mr. Foord merely shrugging his shoulders. After
-supper she read until dark, then hid the book under
-the bed and went over to the tower. She ran up
-the twisted stair, and astonished the owl by clasping
-him in her arms and kissing him passionately. He
-manifested his disapproval by biting at her shoulder
-fiercely. She shrieked and boxed his ears smartly.
-He flapped his large wings wildly. A battle royal was
-imminent in that sacred tower where once the silver
-bells had called the holy men to prayer. But Patience
-suddenly broke into a laugh and sank on her knees
-by the window, while Solomon retreated to the wall,
-and regarded her with a round unwinking stare, brooding
-over problems which he did not in the least
-understand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience brooded also, but her lids drooped, and
-she barely saw the beauty of ocean and rock and
-spray. The moon was not yet up, and the half revealed
-intoning sea was full of mystery.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was conscious that her mood was not quite what
-it had been during her last visit. All of that was
-there—but more. She felt higher above the earth
-than ever before, but more conscious of its magnetism.
-Something hummed along her nerves and stirred in
-her veins. Her musings shaped to definite form,
-inasmuch as they assumed the semblance of man.
-Inevitably Byron was exhumed for duty; and if his
-restless soul were prowling space and Carmel Valley,
-his famous humour, desuetous in Eternity, must have
-echoed in the dull ears of roaming shapes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beside the white face of the child was the solemn
-and hebraic visage of the owl. Some outworn chord
-of Solomon’s youth may have been stirred by his
-friend’s tumultuous greeting, for he had stepped, with
-the dignity of his years, to her side, and stood regarding,
-with introspective stare, the reflection of the rising
-moon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience did not see him. She was gazing upon
-Byron, whose moody passionate face was distinctly
-visible among the stars. Alas! her vision was suddenly
-obscured by a hideous black object. A bat flew
-straight at Carmel tower. Patience sprang to her feet,
-tossed her skirt over her head, and fled down the stair.
-The owl stepped to the stair’s head and gazed into the
-winding darkness, his eyes full of unutterable nothing.</p>
-
-<h2>VIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On Monday school re-opened, and Patience was late
-as usual. She loitered through the woods, conning
-her lessons, having been too much occupied with her
-poet to give them attention before. As she ascended
-the steps of the schoolhouse the drone of the Lord’s
-Prayer came through the open window, and she paused
-for a moment on the landing, swinging her bag in one
-hand and her tin lunch-pail in the other.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was not a picturesque figure. Her sunbonnet
-was of faded blue calico dotted with white. The
-meagre braid projecting beneath the cape was tied
-with a shoe string. The calico frock was faded and
-mended and much too short, although the hem and
-tucks had been let out. The copper-toed boots were
-of a greyish-green hue, and the coarse stockings
-wrinkled above them. The nails of her pretty brown
-hands looked as if they had been sawed off. But the
-eyes under the old sunbonnet were dreamy and happy.
-The brain behind was full of new sensations. In the
-sparkling atmosphere was an electric thrill. The day
-was as still as only the days of Monterey can be.
-The pines, and the breakers had never intoned more
-sweetly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A voluminous A—men! startled Patience from her
-reverie. She went hastily within, hung her bonnet
-and pail on a peg, and entered the schoolroom, smiling
-half deprecatingly half confidently, at Miss Galpin.
-The young teacher’s stern nod did not discompose her.
-As she passed Rosita she received a friendly pinch,
-and Manuela looked up and smiled; but while traversing
-the width of the room to her desk she became
-aware of something unfriendly in the atmosphere. As
-she took her seat she glanced about and met the
-malevolent eyes of a dozen turned heads. One girl’s
-lip was curled; another’s brows were raised significantly,
-as would their owner query: “What could
-you expect?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience blushed until her face glowed like one of
-the Castilian roses on the garden wall opposite the
-window. “They’ve found out about Byron,” she
-thought. “Horrors, how they’ll tease me!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>School girls have a traditional habit of “willing” each
-other to “miss” when in aggressive mood. To-day
-some twenty of the girls appeared to have concerted to
-will that Patience should forget what little lore she had
-gathered on her way to school. Patience, always sensitive
-to impressions, was as taut as the strings of
-an Æolian harp from her experience of the past week.
-Such natures are responsive to the core to the psychological
-power of the environment, and once or twice
-this morning Patience felt as if she must jump to her
-feet and scream. But even at that early age she divined
-that the sweetest revenge is success, and she
-strove as she had never striven before to acquit herself
-with credit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>All morning the silent battle went on. Miss Galpin,
-who was beloved of her pupils because she was pretty
-and dressed well, was a graduate of the San Francisco
-High School, and an excellent teacher. Frankly
-as she liked Patience she had never shown her any
-partiality in the schoolroom; but to-day, noting the
-antagonism that was brought to bear on the girl, she
-exerted all her cleverness to assist her in such subtle
-fashion that Patience alone should appreciate her effort.
-In consequence, when the morning session
-closed, Patience wore the doubtful laurels and the bad
-blood was black.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As the girls trooped down into the yard Rosita laid
-her arm about Patience and endeavoured to lead her
-away. Manuela conferred in a low tone with the foe,
-voice and gestures remonstrant. But there was blood
-in the air, and Patience squared her shoulders and
-awaited the onslaught. Incidentally she inspected her
-nails and copper toes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Several of the girls walked rapidly up to her. They
-were smiling disagreeably.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Can’t you keep her at home?” asked one of them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Think she’ll marry him?” demanded another.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, completely taken aback, glanced helplessly
-from one to the other.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you mean?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come, Patita,” murmured Rosita, on the verge
-of tears.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Manuela exclaimed: “You are fiends, <span class='it'>fiends</span>!” and
-walked away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mean? Do you mean to say she got off without
-you knowing it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Knowing what?” A horrible presentiment assailed
-Patience. Her fingers jerked and her breath
-came fast.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why,” said Panchita McPherson, brutally, “your
-mother was in here Saturday night with her young man
-and regularly turned the town upside down. They
-were thrown out of three saloons. Can’t you keep her
-at home?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stared dully at the girls, her dry lips parted.
-She knew that they had spoken the truth. She had
-gone to bed early on Saturday night. Shortly afterward
-she had heard the sound of buggy wheels and
-Billy’s uncertain gait. Many hours later she had been
-awakened by the sound of her mother stumbling upstairs;
-but she had thought nothing of either incident
-at the time.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Panchita continued relentlessly, memories of many
-class defeats rushing forward to lash her spleen: “You’ll
-please understand after this that we don’t care to have
-you talk to us, for we don’t think you’re respectable.”
-Whereupon the other girls, nodding sarcastically at
-Patience, entwined their arms and walked away, led
-by the haughty Miss McPherson.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For a few moments Patience hardly realised how she
-felt. She stood impassive; but a cyclone raged within.
-All the blood in her body seemed to have rushed to
-her head, to scorch her face and pound in her ears.
-She wondered why her hands and feet were cold.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come, Patita, don’t mind them,” said Rosita, putting
-her arm round her comrade. “The mean hateful
-nasty—<span class='it'>pigs!</span>” Never before had the indolent little
-Californian been so vehement; but Patience slipped
-from her hold, and running through a gate at the back
-of the yard crouched down on a box. Rosita’s words
-had broken the spell. She was filled with a volcano
-of hate. She hated the girls, she hated Monterey,
-she hated life; but above all she hated her
-mother.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After a time all the hate in her concentrated on the
-woman who had made her young life so bitter. She
-had never liked her, but not until the dreadful moments
-just past had she realised the full measure of her
-inheritance. The innuendoes she had not understood,
-but it was enough to know that her mother had disgraced
-her publicly and insulted her father’s memory.
-Her schoolmates she dismissed from her mind with a
-scornful jerk of the shoulders. She had beaten them
-too easily and often in the schoolroom not to despise
-them consummately. They could prick but not stab
-her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The bell rang; but she had an account to settle, and
-bonnetless she started for home.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Sparhawk was sitting on the porch reading a
-novel when Patience walked up to her, snatched the
-book from her hand, and flung it into a rose-tree.
-The woman was sober, and quailed as she met her
-daughter’s eyes. Patience had walked rapidly under
-a hot sun. Her face was scarlet, and she was trembling.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hate you!” she sobbed. “I hate you! It
-doesn’t do any good to tell you so, but it does me
-good to say it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girl looked the incarnation of evil passions.
-She was elemental Hate, a young Cain.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish you were dead,” she continued. “You’ve
-ruined every bit of my life.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why—what—what—” mumbled the woman.
-But the colour was coming to her face, and her eyes
-were beginning to glitter unpleasantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know well enough what. You were in town
-drunk on Saturday night, and were in saloons <span class='it'>with a
-farm hand</span>. To make a brute of yourself was bad
-enough—but to go about with a common man! Are
-you going to marry him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Sparhawk laughed. “Well, I guess not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience drew a quick breath of relief. “Well,
-that’s what they’re saying—that you’re going to
-marry him—a man that can’t read nor write. Now
-look here, I want one thing understood—unless you
-swear to me you’ll not set foot in that town again
-I’ll have you put in the Home of the Inebriates—There!
-I’ll not be disgraced again; I’ll do it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Sparhawk sprang to her feet, her face blazing
-with rage. “You will, will you?” she cried. She
-caught the girl by the shoulders, and shaking her violently,
-boxed first one ear, then the other, with her strong
-rough hands. For an instant Patience was stunned,
-then the blood boiled back to her brain. She screamed
-harshly, and springing at her mother clutched her about
-the throat. The lust to kill possessed her. A red curtain
-blotted even the hated face from sight. Instinctively
-she tripped her mother and went down on top
-of her. The crash of the body brought two men to the
-rescue, and Patience was dragged off and flung aside.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My land!” exclaimed one of the men, his face
-white with horror. “Was you going to kill your ma?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, that she was,” spluttered Mrs. Sparhawk,
-sitting up and pulling vaguely at the loose flesh of
-her throat. “She’d have murdered me in another
-minute.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience by this time was white and limp. She
-crawled upstairs to her room and locked the door.
-She sank on the floor and thought on herself with
-horror.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never knew,” she reiterated, “that I was so bad.
-Why, I’m fifteen, and I never wanted to kill even a bird
-before. I wouldn’t learn to shoot. I’d never drown
-a kitten. When the Chinaman stuck a red-hot poker
-through the bars of the trap and burnt ridges in the
-live rat I screamed and screamed. And now I’ve
-nearly killed my mother, and wanted to. Who, who
-would have thought it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she was wearied with the futile effort to solve
-the new problem, she became suddenly conscious that
-she felt no repentance, no remorse. She was horrified
-at the sight of the black veins in her soul; but she felt
-a certain satisfaction at having unbottled the wrath that
-consumed her, at having given her mother the physical
-equivalent of her own mental agony. Over this last
-cognisance of her capacity for sin she sighed and shook
-her head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I may as well give myself up,” she thought with
-young philosophy. “I am what I am, and I suppose
-I’ll do what I’m going to do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went downstairs and out of the house. She
-passed a group of men; they stared at her in horror.
-Then another little seed from the vast garden of human
-nature shot up to flower in Patience’s puzzled brain.
-She lifted her head with an odd feeling of elation: she
-was the sensation of the hour.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went out on Point Lobos and listened to the
-hungry roar of the waves, watched the tossing spray.
-Nature took her to her heart as ever, and when the
-day was done she was normal once more. She returned
-to the house and helped to get supper, although she
-refused to speak to her equally sullen parent.</p>
-
-<h2>IX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was several days before the story reached Monterey.
-When it did, the girls treated Patience to invective
-and contumely, but delivered their remarks at
-long range. The mother of Manuela said peremptorily
-that Patience Sparhawk should never darken the doors
-of the Peralta mansion again, and even Mrs. Thrailkill
-told the weeping Rosita that the intimacy must end.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin was horrified. When school was over
-she took Patience firmly by the hand and led her up
-the hill to her boarding-place, the widow Thrailkill’s
-ancestral home. The long low adobe house was traversed
-from end to end by a pillared corridor. It was
-whitewashed every year, and its red tiles were renewed
-at intervals, but otherwise the march of civilisation had
-passed it by. Mrs. Thrailkill, large and brown, with a
-wart between her kind black eyes, and a handsome
-beard, was rocking herself on the corridor. When she
-recognised the teacher’s companion she arose with great
-dignity and swung herself into the house.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin led Patience down the corridor to a
-room at the end, and motioned her to a chair. Several
-magazines lay on a table, and Patience reached her
-hand to them involuntarily; but Miss Galpin took the
-hand and drew the girl toward her. The young
-teacher’s brown eyes wore a very puzzled expression.
-Even her carefully regulated bang had been pushed upward
-with a sudden dash of the hand. She was only
-twenty-two, and her experience of human nature was
-limited. Her ideas of life were accumulated largely
-from the novels of Mr. Howells and Mr. James, whom
-she revered; and neither of these gentlemen photographed
-such characters as Patience. It had probably
-never occurred to them that Patiences existed. She
-experienced a sudden thrill of superiority, then craved
-pardon of her idols.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, dear,” she said gently, “is this terrible
-story true?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, ma’am,” said Patience, standing passively at
-Miss Galpin’s knee.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You actually tried to kill your mother?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, ma’am.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin gasped. She waited a moment for a
-torrent of excuse and explanation; but Patience was
-mute.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you are not sorry?” she faltered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, ma’am.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patience!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m sorry you feel so badly, ma’am. Please don’t
-cry,” for the estimable young woman was in tears, and
-mentally reviling her preceptors.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How can I help feeling terribly, Patience? You
-break my heart.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m sorry, dear Miss Galpin.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, don’t you love God?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, ma’am, not particularly. Leastways, I’ve
-never thought much about it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You little heathen!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, ma’am, I’m not. My father was very religious.
-But please don’t talk religion to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, I don’t know what to make of you. I
-am in despair. You’re not a bad girl. You give me
-little trouble, and I’ve always said that you had finer
-impulses than any girl I’ve ever known, and the best
-brain. You ought to realise better than any girl of
-your age the difference between right and wrong. And
-yet you have done what not another girl in the school
-would do, inferior as they are—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How do you know, ma’am? I never thought I
-would. Neither did you think I would. You can’t
-tell what you’ll do till you do it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin was distracted. She resumed hurriedly:</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I want you to be a good woman, Patience,—a good
-as well as a clever woman. And how can you be good
-if you don’t love God?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are all people good the same way?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it all comes to the same thing in the end.”
-Miss Galpin blessed the evolution of verbiage.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are all religious people good?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Certainly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“These girls are religious, especially the Spanish
-ones, and they’ve behaved to me like devils. So have
-their mothers, and some of them go to five o’clock
-mass.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Girls are undisciplined, and mothers often have a
-mistaken sense of duty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are good, and Mr. Foord is good,” pursued
-the terrible child. “But you’d be just as good if you
-weren’t religious. It’s born in you, and you’re refined
-and kind-hearted. Those people are just naturally vulgar,
-and religion won’t make them any better.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin drew the girl suddenly to her lap and
-kissed her. “I’m terribly sorry for you, dear,” she
-said. “I wish I understood you better, and could help
-you, but I don’t. I never knew any one in the least
-like you. I worry so about your future. People that
-are not like other people don’t get along nicely in this
-world. And you have such impulses! But I love you,
-Patience, and I’ll always be your friend. Will you remember
-this?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was undemonstrative, but she kissed Miss
-Galpin warmly and arranged her bang.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, let’s talk about something else,” she said.
-“Are you going to get up those private theatricals for
-the night that school closes?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin sighed and gave up the engagement.
-“Yes,” she said. Then, hesitatingly: “Do you wish
-to take part?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, of course I don’t. I’ll have nothing more to
-do with those girls than I can help. You can bet your
-life on that. But I can help drill Rosita. What’s the
-play?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll read it to you.” Miss Galpin took a pamphlet
-from a drawer and read aloud the average amateur concoction.
-Rosita was to take the part of an indolent
-girl with the habit of arousing herself unexpectedly.
-In one act she would have to dash to the front of the
-stage and dance a parlour breakdown.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am afraid Rosita cannot act,” said Miss Galpin,
-in conclusion, “but she is so pretty I couldn’t leave
-her out.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Rosita can act,” said Patience, emphatically. “I’ve
-seen her imitate every actress that has been here, and
-take off pretty nearly every crank in Monterey. And
-Mrs. Thrailkill can teach her one of the old Californian
-dances—and a song. Rosita has a lovely voice,
-almost as pretty as a lark’s.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Really? Well, I’ll talk to Mrs. Thrailkill and persuade
-her to forgive you, and then you can come here
-every afternoon and drill Rosita. And now will you
-promise me to be a good little girl?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, ma’am—leastways I’ll try. Good-bye,” and
-Patience gave her a little peck, seized her sunbonnet,
-and went hurriedly out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose,” she thought as she sauntered down the
-hill, “I’d better go and have it out with Mr. Foord.
-It’s got to come, and the sooner it’s over the better.
-Poor man, I’ll make it as easy for him as I can. It’ll
-be harder on him than on me, for I’m used to it
-now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The old gentleman was walking up and down the
-corridor as she turned the corner of the custom house.
-He looked very yellow and feeble, and supported himself
-with a stick.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patience!” he exclaimed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For the first time Patience felt inclined to cry, but
-her aversion to display feeling controlled her. She
-merely approached and stood before him, swinging her
-sunbonnet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t let us talk about it,” he said hastily. “I
-have something else to say to you. Sit down.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They sat down side by side on a bench.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know,” the old gentleman continued, “I have
-a half-sister in the east—Harriet Tremont, her name
-is—in Mariaville-on-Hudson, New York. She is the
-best woman in the world, the most sinless creature I
-ever knew, yet full of human nature and never dull.
-She is very religious, has given up her life to doing
-good, and has some eccentric notions of her own. She
-writes me dutifully twice a year, although we have not
-met for thirty, and in her last letter she told me she
-intended to adopt a child, rescue a soul as she called it,
-and furthermore that she should adopt the child of the
-most worthless parents she could discover in her work
-among the worthless. Since—lately—I have been
-thinking strongly of sending you to her. You must get
-away from here. You must have a chance in life. If
-you remain here you will grow up bitter and hard, and
-the result with your brain and temperament may be
-terrible. You are capable of becoming a very bad or
-a very good woman. You are still young—but there
-is no time to lose. Should you care to go?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I should,” cried Patience, enchanted
-with the idea of an excursion into unknown worlds.
-Then her face fell. “But I shouldn’t like to be
-adopted. That is too much like charity.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is the ranch entirely mortgaged?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience nodded.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, let us look at it as a business proposition.
-You will be little expense to her—she is fairly well off;
-and one more in the household makes no appreciable
-difference. You will attend the public schools with the
-view to become a teacher, and when you are earning
-a salary you can repay her for what little outlay she
-may have made. Do you see?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes. I don’t mind if you look at it that way.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll see your mother in a day or two. You don’t
-think she’ll object, do you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Object? What has she got to say about it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A great deal, unfortunately. She is your legal
-guardian. But she doesn’t love you, and I think can
-be persuaded. I shall miss you, my dear. What shall
-I do without my bright little girl?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience nestled up to him, and the two strangely
-assorted companions remained silent for a time watching
-the seagulls sweep over the blue bay. Then Mr.
-Foord drifted naturally into the past, and Patience grew
-romantic once more.</p>
-
-<h2>X</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That night Patience felt no inclination for either bed
-or tower. She wandered over the field, entered the
-pine forest, and walked to the coast. The tall straight
-trees grew close together; their aisles were very
-gloomy. From the ground arose the ominous voices
-of the night, and the wind in the treetops moaned
-heavily. But Patience was not afraid. She revelled in
-the vast dark silence, and felt that the world was all her
-own.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she left the forest she saw great clouds of spray
-tossed high into the starry dark, heard the ocean rush
-at the outlying rocks, breaking into mist or leaping to
-the shore. The sea lions were talking loudly; the seagulls,
-huddled on the high points of the coast, scolded
-hoarsely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the edge of the forest was a cabin. Patience
-walked toward it. She knew the old man that lived
-there. He was evidently awake, for the open window
-was yellow with light. As she passed it on her way to
-the door she glanced within. Her skin turned cold;
-her hair stiffened. A sheeted corpse lay on the bed.
-Candles burned at head and foot. Patience, brave
-as she was, abjectly feared the corpse. She believed
-that she could survive a ghost, but she knew that if shut
-up with a dead body for ten minutes she should go
-mad. To-night she would have fled shrieking were it
-not that the room had a living occupant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In a chair beside the bed sat a man gazing at the
-floor, his chin dropped to his chest. He wore rough
-clothes, but they were the affectations of the gentleman,
-not the garb of the dead man and his friends. Nor
-had Patience ever seen so noble a head. The profile
-was beautiful, the expression mild and intellectual, and
-most melancholy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience forgot her terror as she wondered who the
-stranger could be; but in a moment it was renewed
-tenfold. Down the ocean road from Monterey came
-a wild hideous yell. The man by the corpse raised his
-head apprehensively, rose as if to flee, then sank
-wearily to his chair again. The clatter of hoofs on the
-hard road mounted above the thunder of the waves.
-Patience staring into the dark suddenly saw the leaping
-fire of torches, and a moment later tall figures riding
-recklessly. The yelling was incessant and demoniac.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The man murdered Jim and they’re lynchers,”
-thought Patience. She glanced about wildly. A small
-tree stood near. She scampered up the trunk like
-a squirrel, and hid in the branches. None too soon.
-In another moment those terrible figures were screaming
-and gesticulating before the hut.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The smoky flames revealed an extraordinary sight to
-Patience’s distended eyes. These men were bearded
-like the men of modern civilisation, even their hair was
-properly cut; but they wore the garments of Greece
-and Japan, flowing robes of white and red; one dark
-sinister-looking being upheld a glittering helmet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience rubbed her eyes. Did she dream over her
-Byron? But no mortal, none but the sheeted dead,
-could have slept and dreamed in that infernal clamour.
-Only the man by the bed sat immobile. He did not
-raise his head. Out of the pandemonium of sound
-Patience at last distinguished one word: “Charley!
-Charley!” If “Charley” were the man within the
-hut he gave no sign; nor when they threw back their
-heads and as from one throat gave forth a rattling
-volume of ribald laughter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly Patience, who, seeing no rope, began to
-recover her courage, noticed that one of the men had
-ridden beneath her tree, taking no part in this singular
-drama. Once he turned his head, and an aquiline
-profile, fine and strong, with black hair falling above
-it, was sharply revealed against the red glare. Impulsively
-Patience leaned down and touched his
-shoulder. He looked up with a start, and saw a small
-white face among the leaves.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What on earth is this?” he asked. “Is it a
-child?” His voice was rich and deep, with a gentle
-hint of brogue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What are they?” asked Patience. “Are they real
-devils, or only men? And are they going to kill him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man laughed. “I certainly should ask the same
-question if I had not happened to come with them.
-Oh, they won’t do any murder, unless they happen to
-frighten some one to death. They’re members of the
-Bohemian Club of San Francisco—newspaper men and
-artists—who are down here on a lark.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Who’s the man in there by him, and why do they
-yell at him so?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, he is a solitary spirit, a man of genius. He
-got tired of them and gave them the slip to-night.
-This is revenge.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They have the Estrada house on Alvarado Street,”
-said Patience. “I heard they were here.” Then she
-noticed that her companion wore the common garb of
-American civilisation. “Why aren’t you rigged up,
-too?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’m hardly one of them. I’m only an Eastern
-man—a New Yorker—and am staying at Del Monte for
-a day or two. I rode over to see them this afternoon, and
-they insisted upon my staying for dinner. What on earth
-are you doing here by yourself at this time of night?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience explained. Then she added wistfully, “I
-shall be frightened to death going home through those
-woods alone. I’ll imagine that that corpse and those
-dreadful-looking men are behind me at every step.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Just drop onto my horse and I’ll take you home.
-I’m pretty tired of all this.” He raised his arms and
-lifted her down, placing her in front of him. “Lucky
-I had an English saddle,” he said, and as he bent his
-head Patience could see that he was smiling. “Oh!”
-he added abruptly, “I have seen you before. Now—tell
-me where to go.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience directed him, and they cantered away unobserved.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where did you see me?” she asked, “and how
-odd that you should remember <span class='it'>me</span>!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have wonderful eyes. Although I’m an Irishman
-I won’t go so far as to say they are pretty, but
-they look as if they had been born to see so much. It
-would be difficult to forget them. Upon me soul you
-are actually trembling. Did you never have a compliment
-before?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never! And I guess I’ll remember it longer than
-you remember my eyes. Where did you see me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I was standing at the window of the house in Alvarado
-Street when you came along from school with a
-dozen or more of the girls. You all stopped to gaze at
-a passing circus troupe, and—I noticed you first because
-you stood a little apart from the others.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I usually do,” said Patience, drily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He did not add that, attracted by the eagerness of
-her gaze and her rapid changes of expression, he had
-asked who she was, and that a Montereño present had
-related the family history and her own notable performances
-in no measured terms. “She’s got bad
-blood in her and the temper of Old Nick himself.
-She’ll come to no good, homely as she is,” the man
-had concluded. “Curious enough, the boys all like
-her and would spark her if they got a show; but she’s
-hell-set on gettin’ an education at present and doesn’t
-notice them much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience made him talk on for the pleasure of hearing
-his voice. “Are you a real Irishman?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ve been an American for twenty years, but
-there’s a good deal of Irish left in me yet, especially in
-me tongue.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d keep it, if I were you. It’s nicer even than
-the Spanish. Do you think our voices are horrid?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think that if you’d pitch yours a little lower it
-would be an improvement,” he said, smiling. And
-Patience registered a vow which she kept. In after
-years when great changes had come upon her, her voice
-was envied and emulated.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they left the forest and entered Carmel Valley
-Patience pointed to her home, then suddenly took the
-reins from his hand and directed the horse toward the
-Mission. The waning moon hung over the ocean, and
-the Mission stood out boldly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come up to my tower,” said Patience; “the view
-is <span class='it'>something</span>! That will be your reward. I never took
-any one there before.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“All right,” he said, “I may as well make a night of
-it.” He tethered his horse and followed her up the
-spiral stair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Solomon is not here,” she said regretfully. “He’s
-out foraging. Now!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The young man walked to the window and inspected
-the view. Patience regarded him with rapt admiration.
-He was tall and strong and well dressed. She had
-never dreamed that anything romantic could really
-happen to her; and as she was sure that it would be her
-last experience as well as her first, she suddenly felt
-depressed and miserable, her imagination leaping to
-the finish.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He turned and met her eyes. “What are you thinking
-of?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience was too shy to tell him, and asked him
-if he liked the view.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s a jolly view and no mistake. You’re not a
-happy child, are you?” he added, abruptly. With the
-enthusiasm and spontaneous kindness of his Irish blood
-he had conceived the idea of dropping a seed in this
-plastic soil, and was feeling his way toward the right
-spot.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t know that I am,” said Patience, haughtily.
-“I suppose some of those people told you things.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, they did, that’s a fact. But you mustn’t get
-angry with me, please, for upon me word I like you
-better than any one I’ve met in California.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t you live here?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My home is in New York, and I return to-morrow.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh! Well, I don’t see how I should interest you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You do, though, and that’s all there is to it. I’m
-neither as cautious as an Englishman nor as practical
-as an American—though God rest the two of them; I
-mean nothing to their detriment. But there’s a force
-in you, and force doesn’t go to waste, although it’s
-more often than not misdirected. I can feel yours
-myself; and I’m told that you’re the cleverest girl in
-the town as well as the proudest and most ambitious.
-Now, what do you intend to do with yourself?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose I’ll be a teacher; and if Mrs. Sparhawk
-has no objections I may go East soon and live with a
-religious old lady.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, that’s not so bad; only I doubt if that life
-will suit you any better than this.” He put his finger
-under her chin and turned her face to the light. “I
-am a lawyer, you know,” he added, “and features and
-lines and curves mean a good deal to me. You’ve
-got a good will, begad, and like all first-class American
-women, you’ll keep your head up until you drop. And
-you have all her faculty of beginning life over again
-several times, if necessary. You’ll never rust nor mould,
-nor write polemical novels if things don’t go your way.
-You’ve got a good strong brain behind those eyes, and
-although you’ll make mistakes of various sorts, you’ll
-kick them behind you when you’re done with them,
-begin over and be none the worse. Remember that
-no mistake is irrevocable; that there are as many
-to-morrows as yesterdays; that only the incapable has
-a past. It is all a matter of will as far as the world is
-concerned, and ideals as far as your own soul goes.
-No matter how often circumstances and your own
-weakness compel you to let go your own private ideals,
-deliberately put them back on their pedestal the moment
-you have recovered balance, and make for their attainment
-as if nothing had happened. Then you’ll never
-acquire an aged soul and never lose your grip. Can
-you remember all that?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You bet I can.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed. “I believe you. I might add: Don’t
-love the wrong man, but I’ll not throw away good
-advice. You’ll not be wholly guided by reason in
-those matters. I will merely say, Rub the first experience
-in hard and let a long while elapse before your
-second, or it will be the greater mistake of the two.
-Your reactions will be very violent, I should say. Well,
-I’ll be going now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d rather you’d stay and talk.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Would you? Well, being a lawyer, I know where
-to stop. Besides, I’ll have all those fellows after me if
-I stay too long. We’ll doubtless meet again. The
-world is small these days.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience followed him reluctantly down the stair, and
-he walked beside her across the valley, leading his
-horse. When they reached the farmhouse he shook
-hands with her warmly, wished her good luck, and rode
-away. She ran up to her room, and, lighting a candle,
-transcribed his words into an old copybook.</p>
-
-<h2>XI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin expostulated with Mrs. Thrailkill to such
-effect that Patience spent two hours each afternoon in
-the family garret rehearsing Rosita while the astonished
-rats took refuge in the chimney. Patience could not
-act, but she had dramatic appreciation and an intellectual
-conception of any part not beyond her years.
-Rosita was not intellectual, but, as Patience had discerned,
-the spirit of Thalia was in her. She quickly
-became enamoured of her unsuspected resources and
-at the prospect of exhibiting herself on a platform. Not
-only did she rouse herself to something like exertion,
-but she faithfully followed the instructions of her strenuous
-teacher and discovered a talent for posing and
-little tricks of manner all her own. Her mother taught
-her the song and dance, which were to be the sensation
-of the evening.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was on the fourth day that Patience, returning
-home late in the afternoon, met Mr. Foord in the
-woods. The old gentleman looked sad and perplexed,
-and Patience sprang upon the step of his buggy and
-demanded to know what was the matter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s very odd,” he said, “but she won’t let you
-go.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Won’t let me go?” cried Patience, furiously. “Well,
-I’ll go anyhow.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can’t, my dear. The law won’t let you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you mean to say that the law won’t protect me
-from that woman?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am afraid she has the best of it.” He recalled
-the woman’s angry cunning face, as he had pleaded
-with her, and shook his head. “You see she was never
-in the town in that condition before. The men out
-there are so devoted to her that—so she has informed
-me—they would swear to a man that they had never
-seen her drunk. And, you see, she’s never abused you—the
-only time she struck you she had provocation—you
-must admit that. You are under her control
-until you are eighteen, and I don’t see that we can do
-anything. I’m very sorry. I never felt so defeated in
-my life.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But for gracious goodness sake why won’t she let
-me go? I’m no good to speak of about the place, and
-she certainly isn’t keeping me for love.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well—I think it’s revenge. She remarked that she
-had a chance to pay up and she’d do it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll just run away, that’s all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The law would bring you back, and arrest me for
-abduction.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hate the law,” said Patience, gloomily. “Seems
-to me I’m always finding something new to hate.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You must not hate, my child,” and he quoted the
-Bible dutifully, although in entire sympathy with her.
-“That is what I am so afraid of—that you will become
-hard and bitter. I want to save you from that. Well,
-perhaps she’ll relent. I shall see her again and again.
-I must go on, Patience.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She kissed him and walked sullenly homeward. As
-she entered the kitchen her mother looked up and
-laughed. Her face was triumphant and malignant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t go,” she said. “Not much. I’ve got
-the whip hand this time and I’ll keep it. Here you’ll
-stay until you’re eighteen—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience turned abruptly and ran upstairs. As she
-locked her door she thought with some satisfaction:
-“Now that I know myself I can control myself. If I’d
-jumped on her then she’d have fallen in the stove.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As her imagination had not dwelt at great length
-upon the proposed change the disappointment was not
-as keen as it might have been, much as she desired to
-leave Monterey. Moreover, she was occupied with
-Rosita and the coming examinations. And did she
-not have her Byron? She rose at dawn and read him.
-In the evening she went over to the tower and declaimed
-him to the grey ocean whose passions were
-eternal. The owl, who regarded Byron as a great bore,
-closed his eyes when she began and went to sleep.
-Sometimes—when the sun rode high—she sat upon
-the rubbish over Junipero Serra’s bones, and with one
-eye out for rats and snakes and tarantulas, conned a
-new poem. She liked the contrast between the desolation
-and death in the old ruin and the warm atmosphere
-of the poetry. As often Byron was unheeded, and she
-dreamed of the mysterious stranger who had so magnetised
-her that she had forgotten to ask his name. She
-had only to close her eyes to hear his voice, to recall
-the words which seemed forever moving in one or
-other chamber of her mind, to see the profile which she
-admired quite as much as Byron’s. As for the voice, it
-had a possessing quality which made her understand
-the wherefore of the thrilling notes of the male bird in
-spring-time. She invested her ambitious young lawyer
-with all the dark sardonic melancholic fascinations of
-Lara, Conrad, Manfred, and Don Juan. The wild sweet
-sting of spring was in her veins. Her mind was full of
-vague illusions, very lovely and very strange, shifting of
-outline and wholly inexplicable.</p>
-
-<h2>XII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the afternoon of the last day of school several
-of the girls decorated the hall with garlands and flags.
-Carpenters erected a stage, and Patience arranged the
-“properties.” When the great night arrived and
-Monterey in its best attire crowded the room, no curtain
-in the sleepy town had ever been regarded with
-more complacent expectation. The Montereñas were
-thoroughly satisfied with their offspring, and performances
-of any sort were few.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The programme was opened by Manuela, who wore
-an old pink satin frock of her mother’s cut short and
-trimmed with a flounce of Spanish lace. Her brown
-shining face looked good will upon all the world as she
-recited “The Wreck of the Hesperus.” Then came a
-dialogue in which all the little participants wore white
-frocks and crimped hair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Meanwhile, in the dressing-room, Rosita was limp in
-Patience’s arms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patita!” she gasped, “I can’t! I can’t!
-I’m frightened to death! What shall I do?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do?” cried Patience, angrily, who was so excited
-herself that she pumped Rosita’s arms up and down as
-if the unfledged Thespian had just been rescued from
-the bay. “Do? You must brace up. When you get
-there you’ll be all right. And you <span class='it'>must not</span> get stage
-fright. Rosita, you <span class='it'>must</span> make a success. Remember
-you’ve got the star part. Don’t, <span class='it'>don’t</span> make a fool of
-yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, if you could only hold my hand,” wailed
-Rosita.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I can’t, and that’s the end of it. Now!
-brace up quick.” The prompter was calling in a loud
-whisper,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Miss Thrailkill, be ready when I say, ‘Life.’”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Ay, dios de mi alma</span>,” almost sobbed Rosita.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience dragged her to the wings and held her
-there. When the cue was spoken she gave her a hard
-pinch, then a shove. Rosita gasped and disappeared.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience slipped round into the audience, her heart
-in her throat, her eyes black with excitement. If
-Rosita broke down she felt that she should have
-hysterics.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At first Rosita had nothing to say. Upon entering
-she had merely to fling herself upon a divan in an
-indolent attitude whilst the others carried on a spirited
-dialogue. Patience saw that she had managed to get
-to the sofa without falling prone, but also observed
-that her bosom was heaving. Nevertheless, when her
-time came she managed to drawl her lines, although
-with as little expression as she told her rosary.
-Patience stamped her foot audibly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But as the play progressed it was evident that Rosita
-was recovering her poise. When she finally had to
-come forward she moved with all the indolent grace of
-her blood, and delivered her little speech with such
-piquant fire that the audience applauded loudly. And
-with that clatter of feet and hands a new light sprang
-into the Spanish girl’s eyes, an expression half of surprise,
-half of transport. From that time on she acted
-in a manner which astonished even her instructor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She looked exquisitely pretty. Her white rounded
-neck and arms were bare. Her black soft hair hung
-to her knees, unbound, caught back above one little
-ear with a pink rose. Her dress was of black Spanish
-lace covered with natural roses. On her tiny feet she
-wore a pair of black satin slippers which had belonged
-to her grandmother and twinkled many a time to the
-music of El Son.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When, upon being twitted with her indolence, she
-suddenly sprang to the front of the stage, and after
-singing an old Spanish love-song to the music of her
-own guitar, danced El Son with all the rhythmic grace
-of the beautiful women of the old gay time, she was no
-longer an actress but an impersonator. The more the
-delighted audience applauded the more poetically she
-danced, the more significantly her long eyes flamed.
-Once when the applause deafened she swayed as if intoxicated.
-As the dance finished, her red lips were
-parted. She was panting slightly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the curtain fell Patience rushed into the dressing-room
-and embraced her rapturously. “Rosita!”
-she cried, “you were simply, mag-<span class='it'>nif</span>-icent.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita, who was trembling violently, hung about
-Patience’s neck.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patita!” she gasped. “I was in heaven. I
-never was so happy. You don’t know what it is to
-have a hundred people thinking of nothing but you
-and applauding as if they were mad. Oh, I’m going
-to act, act, act forever! I never want to do anything
-else. And isn’t my skin white? I wish I had two
-necks and four arms.”</p>
-
-<h2>XIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning prizes were distributed. Patience
-took most of them, but Rosita was still the sensation of
-the hour, although she had not passed an examination.
-At noon she had a luncheon party. She sat at the
-head of her table in a white dotted Swiss frock and
-Roman sash, and talked faster than she had ever talked
-in her life before. Altogether she was by no means
-the Rosita of twenty-four hours ago.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Thrailkill had prepared a luncheon of old time
-Spanish dishes, and hovered, large and brown and
-placid, about a table loaded with chickens under
-mounds of yellow rice, <span class='it'>tamales</span>, and <span class='it'>dulces</span>. Patience,
-between Manuela and a young cousin of Rosita’s, was
-not unhappy. Her prizes lay on the window seat, she
-liked good things, and was infected with the gaiety of
-the hour. True, she wore her old muslin frock and a
-plaid sash made from an ancient gown of her mother’s,
-and the rest of the girls looked like a bed of newly
-blossomed flowers; but at fifteen the spirits rise high
-above trifles.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she started for home she was as light of heart
-as her more favoured mates; but in the wood a dire
-affliction smote her. One of her teeth began to ache.
-She had seen her mother many times with head tied up
-and distorted face, and had wondered scornfully how
-any one could make a fuss about a mere tooth. Now,
-however, when her own suddenly felt as if impaled on
-a needle, she uttered a loud wail, and ran toward home
-as fast as her legs could carry her. She found her
-mother similarly afflicted, and a bottle of drops on the
-kitchen table. Mrs. Sparhawk condescended to apply
-the remedy, and the agony left as suddenly as it had
-come.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After supper Patience went over to her tower, and as
-ever floated between Carmel Valley and the stars, enveloped
-with warm ether, which swirled to towers and
-turrets inhabited by a projection of herself which she
-saw only as a lover. Unfortunately all this rapture was
-enacted in a strong draught. Even Solomon uttered a
-sound once or twice which resembled a sneeze. Again
-Patience’s tooth was punctured by a red-hot needle.
-Her castles vanished. She caught her cheek with her
-hand, stumbled down the winding stair, and flew across
-the valley, the needle developing into a screw.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The house was quiet, the kitchen dark. She lit a
-candle and searched frantically for the drops. They
-were not to be found. Then it occurred to her that
-her mother must have taken them to her room, and
-she ran up the stair.</p>
-
-<h2>XIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At dawn next morning Patience found herself on the
-summit of the mountain behind the house. Her progress
-thither had skimmed the surface of memory and
-left no trace.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The sea was grey, the sky was grey. A grey mist
-moved in the valley. Beyond, the wood on the hill
-loomed in faint black outline. The birds in the trees,
-the seagulls on the rocks, the very ocean itself, were
-locked in the heavy sleep of early morning. Once,
-from the tower of the Mission, came the plaintive hooting
-of the owl.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After a time Patience plucked a number of stickers
-from her stockings, and wiped blood from her torn
-hands with a large leaf wet with dew. She clasped
-her hands inertly about her knees and stared down
-upon the ocean. Horror was in her sunken eyes.
-The skin of her face looked faded and old. Her nose
-and chin were as pinched as the features of the dead.
-She did not look like the same child. Nor was she.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her eyes closed heavily, her head dropped. She
-roused herself. She felt that she had no right to do
-anything again so natural as to sleep. But suddenly
-she toppled over and lay motionless; until the sun sent
-its slanting rays under her eyelids. Then she stretched
-herself lazily, rubbing her eyes, and smiling as children
-do when waking. But the smile froze to a ghastly grin.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She raised herself stiffly and descended the mountain,
-clinging to the brush, the stones rolling from
-beneath her feet. She ran across the valley and
-plunged into the pine woods, but did not linger in
-those fragrant aisles.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she reached the edge of the town she paused
-and half turned back; but there was one thing she
-dreaded more than to meet the people of Monterey,
-and she went on.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She skirted the town and made her way toward the
-Custom House by a roundabout path. She passed a
-group of boys, and averted her head with a gesture of
-loathing. One boy, a gallant admirer, ran after her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience!” he cried, “wait a minute.” But
-Patience took to her heels and never paused until she
-reached the Custom House. The perplexed knight
-stood still and whistled.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” he exclaimed to his jeering comrades, “I
-always knew Patience Sparhawk was a crank, but this
-lets <span class='it'>me</span> out.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stood for a few moments on the rocks,
-then went slowly to the library and opened the door.
-Mr. Foord sat by the fire. He looked up with a
-smile.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ah, it’s you,” he said. “I’m very proud of you.—Why,
-what’s the matter?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, her eyes fixed on the floor, took a chair
-opposite him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it, Patience?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She did not look up. She could not. Finally she
-moved her face from him and stared at the mantel.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve left home,” she said. “I’d like to stay here
-for a while.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, of course you can stay here. I’ll tell Lola
-to put a cot in her room. But what is the matter?
-Has your mother been drinking again?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Has she struck you again?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, what is it, my dear child? You know that
-you are always more than welcome here; but you
-must have some excuse for leaving home.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have an excuse. I can’t tell it. Please don’t
-say anything more about it. I don’t think she’ll send
-for me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, well, perhaps you’ll tell me after a time.
-Meanwhile make yourself at home.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was much puzzled, but reflected that Patience
-was not like other children; and he knew Mrs. Sparhawk’s
-commanding talent for making herself disagreeable.
-Still, he was shocked at her appearance; and
-as the day wore on and she would not meet his eye,
-but sat staring at the floor, his uneasy mind glimpsed
-ugly possibilities. At dinner she ate little and did not
-raise her eyes from her plate, although she made a
-few commonplace remarks.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At four o’clock Billy, the buggy, and a farm hand
-stopped before the Custom House. The man handed
-a note to Lola, asking her to give it to Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The note read:</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>You come home—hear? If you don’t, I’ll see that
-you do.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:left;margin-left:17em;'><span class='sc'>M. Sparhawk.</span></p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience went out to the man, who still sat in the
-buggy. “Tell her,” she said, looking at Billy, “that
-I’m not going home,—not now nor at any other
-time. Just make her understand that I mean it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man stared, but nodded and drove off.</p>
-
-<h2>XV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At midnight Patience was awakened by a frantic clamour
-in the street. “Those dreadful Bohemians,” she
-thought sleepily, then sat up with thumping heart.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They say your name, <span class='it'>niña</span>, no?” said Lola, whose
-sonorous slumbers had also been disturbed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience slipped to the floor and looked through the
-window. The moon flooded the old town. The ruined
-fort on the hill had never looked more picturesque,
-the pines above more calm. In the hollow near the
-blue waters the white arms of Junipero Serra’s cross
-seemed extended in benediction. The old adobes
-were young for the hour. One might fancy Isabel
-Herrara walking down from the long house on the
-hill, her <span class='it'>reboso</span> fluttering in the night wind, old Pio
-Pico, glittering with jewels, beside her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And in the wide street before the Custom House,
-surrounded by a hooting mob, the refuse of the saloons,
-was a cursing gesticulating woman. Her black hair
-was unbound, her garment torn. She flung her fists in
-the face of those that sought to hold her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience Sparhawk!” she shrieked. “Patience
-Sparhawk! Come down here to your mother. Come
-down here this minute. Come, I say,” and a volley of
-oaths followed, greeted with a loud cackling laugh by
-the rabble.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience saw Mr. Foord, clad in his dressing-gown,
-go forth. She flung on her clothes hastily and ran
-down the stair. Her mother and Mr. Foord were in
-the kitchen.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, she’ll come back,” Mrs. Sparhawk was saying.
-“I’ll see to that. How do you like a row under your
-windows? Well, I’ll come here every night unless she
-comes home. You’ll put me in the Home of the
-Inebriates, will you? Think she’ll like to have that
-said of her mother when she’s grown up? Not
-Patience Sparhawk. I know her weak point. She’s
-as proud as hell, and I’m not afraid of going to any
-Home of the Inebriates.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience pushed open the door. “I’m going with
-you,” she said. “Now get out of this house as fast as
-you can.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patience,” exclaimed Mr. Foord. His old
-cheeks were splashed with tears.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry,” said Patience,
-her hands clenching and quivering. “I didn’t think
-she’d do this, or I wouldn’t have stayed. What a
-return for all your kindness!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience,” said the old gentleman, “promise me
-that you will come to see me to-morrow. Promise, or
-I shall not let you go. She can do her worst.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll come.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She ordered her mother to follow her out of the
-back door that they might avoid the expectant mob.
-Mrs. Sparhawk walked unsteadily, but received no assistance
-from her daughter. If she had fallen, Patience
-could not have forced herself to touch her. Had the
-woman been a reeling mass of physical corruption, a
-leper, a small-pox scab, the girl could not have
-shrunken farther from her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They did not speak until they ascended the hill behind
-the town and entered the woods. Patience never
-recalled that night without inhaling the balsamic
-odour of the pines, the heavy perfume of forest lilies,
-without seeing the great yellow stars through the uplifted
-arms of the trees. It was a night for love, and
-its guest was hate.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>No more terrible conversation ever took place between
-mother and daughter. After that night they
-never spoke again.</p>
-
-<h2>XVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning Patience, after breakfast, carried a
-pair of tongs and a newspaper up to her room. She
-spread the newspaper on the table, then with the
-tongs extracted Byron from beneath the bed and laid
-it on the paper. She wrapped it up and tied it securely
-without letting her hands come in contact with
-the cover. That same afternoon she carried the book
-to the Custom House and threw it behind a row of tall
-volumes in one of the cases. Long after, Mr. Foord
-found it there and wondered. He was not at home
-when she arrived. When he returned she was deep in
-his arm-chair, reading Gibbon’s “Rome.” He was
-not without tact, and determined at once to ignore the
-events of the previous day and night.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What!” he exclaimed, “are you really giving
-poor old Gibbon a trial at last? And after all your
-abuse? But perhaps you won’t find him so dry, after
-all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish to read what is dry,” said Patience. “I’m
-going to take a course in ancient history.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No more poetry and novels?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not a line.” She spoke harshly, and compelled
-herself to meet Mr. Foord’s eyes. Her own were as
-hard and as cold as steel. All the soft dreaming light
-of the past two months had gone out of them. They
-were the eyes neither of a girl nor of a woman. They
-looked the eyes of a sexless intellect.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had done the one thing which a girl of
-fifteen can do when crushed with problems; she had
-twitched her shoulders and flung them off. She comprehended
-that her intellect was her best friend, and
-plunged her racked head into the hard facts which required
-utmost concentration of mind. The sweet
-vague dreams of the past were turned from in loathing.
-If she thought of them at all it was with fierce resentment
-that she had become conscious of her womanhood.
-The stranger was thrust out of memory. She
-went no more to the tower. The owl hooted in his
-loneliness, and she drew the bed-clothes over her ears.
-When she walked through the woods, to and from the
-town, she recited Gibbon in synopsis. She spent the
-day in Mr. Foord’s library, returning home in time to
-get supper. She did her household duties mechanically,
-and the eyes of mother and daughter never met.
-The man Oscar kept out of her way.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Galpin had gone to San Francisco and would
-return no more: she was to marry. Rosita was visiting
-in Santa Barbara. Manuela, now a young lady,
-was devoting the greater part of her time to the Hotel
-Del Monte, where the flower and vegetables of San
-Francisco gather in summer. She went up to the
-tanks in the morning and to the dances in the evening;
-and informed Patience, one day as they met on the
-street, that she was having a perfectly gorgeous time,
-and had met a man who was too lovely for words.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The long hot days and the foggy nights wore slowly
-away. Patience grew thinner, her face harder. Mr.
-Foord did his best to divert her, but his resources
-were limited. She peremptorily forbade him to allude
-to the romance of Monterey, and he took her out in
-his old buggy and talked of Gibbon’s “Rome.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Once they drove through the grounds of Del Monte,—the
-trim artificial grounds that are such an anomaly
-in that valley of memories. On the long veranda of the
-great hotel of airy architecture people sat in the bright
-attire of summer. Matrons rocked and gossiped;
-girls talked eagerly to languid youths that sat on the
-railing. It was all as unreal to Patience as the fairy-land
-of her childhood, when she had hunted for fays
-and elves in the wood. She stared at the scene angrily,
-for the first time feeling the sting of the social
-bee.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A vain frivolous life those people lead,” remarked
-Mr. Foord, who disapproved of The World. “A
-waste of time and God’s best gifts, which makes them
-selfish and heartless. Empty heads and hollow hearts.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience, gazing at those girls in their gay dainty
-attire, the like of which she had never seen before, experienced
-a sudden violent wish to be of them, empty
-head, hollow heart, and all. They looked happy and
-free of care. The very atmosphere of the veranda
-seemed full of colour and music. Above all, they were
-utterly different from Patience Sparhawk, blessed and
-enviable beings. Even the frivolity of the scene appealed
-to her, so sick unto death of serious things.</p>
-
-<h2>XVII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One day, late in September, Patience, as usual, left
-Monterey at half past four in order to reach home in
-time to cook the supper. Nature had smiled for so
-many successive days that she wondered if the lips so
-persistently set must not soon strain back and reveal
-the teeth. The sun, poised behind the pine woods,
-flooded them with yellow light. As Patience walked
-through the soft radiance she set her teeth and recalled
-the chapters of Thiers’ “French Revolution,” through
-which she had that day plodded. But her head felt
-dull. She realised with a quiver of terror that she was
-beginning to feel less like an intellect and more like a
-very helpless little girl. Once she discovered her
-curved arm creeping to her eyes. She flung it down
-and shook her head angrily. Was she like other
-people?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mingling with the fragrance of the pines it seemed to
-her that she smelt smoke. She hoped that her woods
-were not on fire. She walked slowly, indisposed as
-ever to return home, the more so to-day as she felt herself
-breaking.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish the sun would not grin so,” she thought.
-“I’ll be glad when winter comes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The smell of smoke grew stronger. She left the
-woods. A moment later she stood, white and trembling,
-looking down upon Carmel Valley. The Sparhawk
-farmhouse was a blazing mass of timbers. A
-volume of smoke, as straight and full as a waterspout,
-stood directly above it. Men were running about.
-Their shouts came faintly to her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience pressed her hands convulsively to her eyes.
-She clutched her head as if to tear out the terrible
-hope clattering in her brain, then ran down the hill and
-across the valley, feeling all the while as if possessed by
-ten thousand devils.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’m bad, bad, bad!” she sobbed in terror.
-“I don’t, I don’t!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she reached the scene the roof fell in. She
-glanced hastily about. The men, withdrawn to a safe
-distance, were gathered round the man Oscar. One
-was binding his hands and face. As they saw Patience
-they turned as if to run, then stood doggedly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where is she?” Patience asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was an instant’s pause. The crackling of the
-flames grew louder, as if it would answer. Then one
-of the men blurted out: “Burnt up in her bed. She
-was drunk. We was all in the field when the fire
-broke out. When we got here Oscar tried to get at
-her room with a ladder, but it was no go. Poor old
-Madge.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience without another word turned and ran back
-to the woods. She ran until she was exhausted, more
-horrified at herself than she had been at any of her unhappy
-experiences. After a time she fell among the
-dry pine needles, her good, as she expressed it, still
-trying to fight down her bad. She felt that the demon
-possessing her would have sung aloud had she not held
-it by the throat. She conjured up all the horrible details
-of her mother’s death and ordered her soul to
-pity; but her brain remarked coldly that her mother
-had probably felt nothing. She imagined the charred
-corpse, but it only offended her artistic sense.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Finally she fell asleep. The day was far gone when
-she awoke. She lay for a time staring at the dim
-arches above her, listening to the night voices she had
-once loved so passionately. At last she drew a deep
-sigh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I might just as well face the truth,” she said aloud.
-“I’m glad, and that’s the end of it. It’s wicked and
-I’m sorry; but what is, is, and I can’t help it. We’re
-not all made alike.”</p>
-
-<h2>XVIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was once more installed in Lola’s room.
-Mr. Foord applied for letters of guardianship, which
-were granted at once. But as he had feared, she was
-left without a penny. He wrote to his half-sister, asking
-her if she would take charge of his ward. Miss
-Tremont replied in enthusiastic affirmation. Miss
-Galpin invited Patience to spend two weeks with her
-in San Francisco, offering to replenish the girl’s wardrobe
-with several of her own old frocks made over.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Those two weeks seemed to Patience the mad whirl
-of excitement of which she had read in novels. She
-had never seen a city before, and the very cable cars
-fascinated her. To glide up and down the hills was to
-her the poetry of science. The straggling city on its
-hundred hills, the crowded streets and gay shop windows,
-the theatres, the restaurants, China Town, the
-beautiful bay with its bare colorous hills, surprised her
-into admitting that life appeared to be quite well worth
-living after all. When she returned to Monterey she
-talked so fast that Mr. Foord clapped his hands to his
-ears, and Rosita listened with expanded eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ay, if I could live in San Francisco!” she said,
-plaintively. “I acted all summer, Patita, but I got
-tired of the same people, and I want to go to the big
-theatres and see the real ones do it. I’d like to hear
-a great big house applauding, only I’d be so jealous of
-the leading lady.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was to start, immediately after Christmas,
-by steamer for New York. Mr. Foord spent the last
-days giving her much good advice. He said little of
-his own sorrow to part from her. Once he had been
-tempted to keep her for the short time that remained
-to him, but had put the temptation aside with the sad
-resignation of old age. He knew Patience’s imperative
-need of new impressions in these her plastic years.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The day before she left she went over to Carmel to
-say good-bye to Solomon. He flapped his wings with
-delight, although he could not see her, and nestled
-close to her side in a manner quite unlike his haughty
-habit. Patience thought he looked older and greyer,
-and his wings had a dejected droop. She took him
-in her arms with an impulse of tenderness, and this
-time he did not repulse her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Poor old Solomon,” she said, “I suppose you are
-lonely and forlorn in your old age, but this old tower
-wouldn’t be what it is without you. It’s too bad I
-can’t write to you as I can to my two or three other
-friends, and you’ll never know I haven’t forgotten you,
-poor old Solomon. Oh, dear! Oh, dear! I wonder
-if owls do suffer too. You look so wise and venerable,
-perhaps you are thinking that lonely old age is terrible—as
-I know Mr. Foord does.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Solomon pecked at her mildly. Her gaze wandered
-out over the ocean. She wondered if a thousand years
-had passed since she had dreamed her dreams. Their
-very echoes came from the mountains of space.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she went away Solomon followed her to the
-head of the stair. She looked upward once and saw
-him standing there, with drooping wings and head a
-little bent. The darkness of the stair gave him vision,
-and he fluttered his wings expectantly, as she paused
-and lifted her face to him. But when she did not
-return he walked with great dignity to his accustomed
-place against the wall, nor even lifted up his voice in
-protest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning Rosita accompanied her to the
-station and wept loudly as the train approached. But
-Patience did not cry until she stood in her stateroom
-with Mr. Foord.</p>
-
-<hr class='pbk'/>
-
-<div><h1 class='nobreak'><a id='book2'></a>BOOK II</h1></div>
-
-<h2 class='nobreak'>I</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience watched the dusty hills of San Francisco, the
-sparkling bay alive with sail and spar, the pink mountains
-of the far coast range, the brown hills opposite the
-grey city, willowed and gulched and bare, the forts on
-rock and points, until the wild lurching of the steamer
-over the bar directed her attention to the unhappy
-passengers. In a short while she had not even these
-to amuse her, nothing but a grey plain and empty decks.
-At first she felt a waif in space; but soon a delightful
-sense of independence stole over her, of freedom from
-all the ills and responsibilities of life. The land world
-might have collapsed upon its fiery heart, so little could
-it affect her while that waste of waters slid under the
-horizon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The few passengers came forth restored in a day or
-two. A husband and wife and several children did not
-interest Patience; neither did the captain’s wife, in
-whose charge she was. A young girl with a tangle of
-yellow hair under a sailor hat was more inviting, but she
-flirted industriously with the purser and took not the
-slightest notice of Patience. Her invalid mother
-reclined languidly in a steamer chair and read the
-novels of E. P. Roe.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The only other passenger was an elderly gentleman
-who read books in white covers neatly lettered with
-black which fascinated Patience. She was beginning to
-long for books. The invalid lent her a Roe, but she
-returned it half unread. As the old gentleman had
-never addressed her, did not seem to be aware of her
-existence, she could hardly expect a similar courtesy
-from him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was glowering upon universal stupidity one
-morning when he appeared on deck with a carpet bag,
-from which, after comfortably establishing himself in
-his steamer chair, he took little white volume after
-little white volume. Patience’s curiosity overcame her.
-She went forward slowly and stood before him. He
-looked up sharply. His black eyes, piercing from their
-shaggy arches, made her twitch her head as if to fling
-aside some penetrative force. His very beard, silver
-though it was, had a fierce sidewise twist. His nose
-was full nostrilled and drooped scornfully. The spectacles
-he wore served as a sort of lens for the fire of his
-extraordinary eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well?” he said gruffly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Please, sir,” said Patience, humbly, “will you lend
-me a book?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Book? I don’t carry children’s literature round
-with me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t read children’s literature.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you don’t? Well, not ‘The Chatterbox,’ I suppose;
-but I have nothing of Pansy’s nor yet of The
-Duchess.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wouldn’t read them if you had,” cried Patience,
-angrily. “Perhaps I’ve read a good many books
-that you haven’t re-read so long ago yourself. I’ve
-read Dickens and Thackeray and Scott, and,” with
-a shudder, “Gibbon’s ‘Rome’ and Thiers’ ‘French
-Revolution.’”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you have? Well, I beg your pardon. Sit
-down, and I’ll see if I can find something for a young
-lady of your surprising attainments.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, too pleased to resent sarcasm, applied
-herself to his elbow.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why are they all bound alike?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is the Tauchnitz edition of notable English
-and American books. How is this?” He handed her
-a volume of Grace Aguilar.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, sir! I’ve tried her, and she’s a greater bore
-than Jane Austen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you want a love story, I suppose?” His accentuation
-was fairly sardonic.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I don’t,” she said with an intonation which
-made him turn and regard her with interest. Then
-once more he explored his bag.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Will this suit you?” He held out a copy of
-Carlyle’s “French Revolution.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience groaned. “Didn’t I tell you I’d just read
-Thiers’?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This isn’t Thiers’. Try it.” And he took no
-further notice of her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience opened the volume, and in a few moments
-was absorbed. There was something in the storm and
-blare of the style which struck a responsive chord. She
-did not raise her head until dinner time. She scarcely
-spoke until she had finished the volume, and then only
-to ask for the second. For several days she felt as if
-the atmosphere was charged with dynamite, and jumped
-when any one addressed her. The owner of the Tauchnitz
-watched her curiously. When she had finished the
-second volume she told him that she did not care for
-anything more at present. She leaned over the railing
-most of the day, watching the waves. Toward sunset
-the gentleman called peremptorily,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stood before his chair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, what do you think of it?” he demanded.
-“Tell me exactly what your impressions are.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I feel as if there was an earthquake in my skull
-and all sorts of pictures flying about, and exploded
-pieces of drums and trumpets, and kings and queens.
-I think Carlyle must have been made on purpose to
-write the French Revolution. It was—as if—there
-was a great picture of it made on the atmosphere, and
-when he was born it passed into him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Upon my word,” he said, “you are a degree or two
-removed from the letters of bread and milk. You are
-a very remarkable kid. Sit down.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience took the chair beside him. “He made my
-head ache,” she added. “I feel as if it had been
-hammered.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t wonder. Older heads have felt the same
-way. What’s your name?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience Sparhawk.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell me all about yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, there isn’t much to tell,” and she frowned
-heavily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t look so tragic—you alarm me. I’m convinced
-there is a great deal. Come, I want to know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience gave a few inane particulars. The old
-gentleman snorted. “It’s evident you’ve never been
-interviewed,” he said grimly. “Now, I’ll tell you who
-I am, and then you won’t mind talking about yourself.
-There’s nothing so catching as egotism. My name is
-James E. Field. I own one of the great newspapers of
-New York, of which I am also editor-in-chief. Do
-you know what that means? Well, if you don’t, let me
-tell you. It is to be a man more powerful than the
-President of the United States, for he can make
-presidents, which is something the president himself
-can’t do. He knows more about people’s private affairs
-than any of intimate relationship; he has his finger on
-the barometer of his readers’ brain; he can make
-them sensational or sober, intellectually careless or
-exacting; he can keep them in ignorance of all that is
-best worth knowing of the world’s affairs, by snubbing
-the great events and tendencies of the day and vitiating
-their brain with local crimes and scandals, or he can
-illumine their minds and widen their brain cells by not
-only enlarging upon what every intelligent person should
-wish to know, but by making such matter of profound
-interest; he can ignore science, or enlighten several
-hundred thousand people; he can add to the happiness
-of the human race by exposing abuses and hidden
-crime, or he can accept hush money and let the sore
-fester; he can lash the unrest of the lower classes, or
-chloroform it; he can use the sledge hammer, the
-rapier, and the vitriol, or give over his editorial page to
-windy nothings; he can demolish political bosses, or
-prolong their career. In short, his power is greater than
-Alexander’s was, for he is a general of minds instead of
-brute force.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My goodness gracious!” exclaimed Patience.
-“What sort of a paper have you got?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed. “Wait until you’ve lived in New
-York awhile and you’ll find out. Its name is the
-‘Day,’ and it has made a president or two, and made
-one or two others wish they’d never been born. By
-the way, I didn’t tell you much about myself, did
-I? The auxiliary subject carried me away. I’m
-married, and have several sons and daughters, and
-am off for a rest—not from the family but from the
-‘Day.’ I’ve been round the world. That will do for
-the present. Tell me all about Monterey.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>With consummate skill he extracted the history of
-her sixteen years. On some points she fought him
-so obstinately that he inferred what she would not
-tell. He ended by becoming profoundly interested.
-He was a man of enthusiasms, which sometimes wrote
-themselves in vitriol, at others in the milk of human
-kindness. His keen unerring brain, which Patience
-fancied flashed electric search lights, comprehended
-that it had stumbled upon a character waging perpetual
-war with the pitiless Law of Circumstance, and that the
-issue might serve as a plot for one of the mental
-dramas of the day.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Your experience and the bad blood in you, taken
-in connection with your bright and essentially modern
-mind, will make a sort of intellectual anarchist of you,”
-he said. “I doubt if you take kindly to the domestic
-life. You will probably go in for the social problems,
-and ride some polemical hobby for eight or ten years,
-at the end of which time you will be inclined to look
-upon your sex as the soubrettes of history. Your
-enthusiasm may make you a faddist, but your common
-sense may aid you in the perception of several eternal
-truths which the women of to-day in their blind bolt
-have overlooked.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A moment later he repented his generalisations, for
-Patience had demanded full particulars. Nevertheless,
-he gave her many a graphic outline of the various
-phases of current history, and was the most potent
-educational force that she had yet encountered. She
-preferred him to books and admired him without reserve,
-trotting at his heels like a small dog. His
-unique and virile personality, his brilliant and imperious
-mind, magnetised the modern essence of which she
-was made. There was nothing of the old-fashioned
-intellectual type about him. He might have induced
-the coining of the word “brainy,”—he certainly typed
-it. Although he had the white hair and the accumulated
-wisdom of his years, he had the eyes of youth and
-the fist of vigour at any age. One day when two
-natives looked too long upon Patience’s blondinity,
-as she and Mr. Field were exploring a banana grove
-during one of their brief excursions on shore, he
-cracked their skulls together as if they had been two
-cocoanuts.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience laughed as the blacks dropped sullenly
-behind. “How funny that they should admire me,”
-she said. “I’m not pretty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you’re white. Besides, there is one thing
-more fascinating than beauty, and that is a strong
-individuality. It radiates and magnetises.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Have I all that?” Patience blushed with delight.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed good-naturedly. “Yes, I’ll stake a
-good deal that you have. You may even be pretty
-some day; that is, if you ever get those freckles off.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Inherent as was her passion for nature, she enjoyed
-the rich beauty of the tropics the more for the companionship
-of a mind skilled in observation and interpretation.
-It was her first mental comprehension of
-the law of duality.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they approached New York harbour Mr. Field said
-to her: “I think I’ll have to make a newspaper
-woman of you. When you have finished your education,
-don’t think of settling down to any such humdrum
-career as that of the school-teacher. Come
-to me, and I’ll put you through your paces. If I’m
-not more mistaken than I’ve been yet, I’ll turn out
-a newspaper woman that will induce a mightier blast
-of woman’s horn. Think you’d like it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d like to be with you,” said Patience, on the
-verge of tears. “Sha’n’t I see you again till I’m
-eighteen?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I don’t want to see or hear from you again
-until you’ve kneaded that brain of yours into some
-sort of shape by three years of hard study. Then
-I’ll go to work on a good foundation. You haven’t
-told me if you’ll take a try at it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I will. Do you think I want to be
-a school-teacher? I should think it would be lovely
-to be a newspaper woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it isn’t exactly lovely, but it is a good training
-in the art of getting along without adjectives.
-Now look round you and I’ll explain this harbour;
-and don’t you brag any more about your San Francisco
-harbour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They entered through The Narrows, between the two
-toy forts. A few lone sentries paced the crisp snow
-on the heights of Staten Island, and looked in imminent
-danger of tumbling down the perpendicular lawns.
-The little stone windows of the earthen redoubts
-seemed to wink confidently at each other across the
-water, and loomed superciliously above the forts on
-the water’s edge. Long Island, had the repose of a
-giant that had stretched his limbs in sleep, unmindful
-of the temporary hamlets on his swelling front. Staten
-Island curved and uplifted herself coquettishly under
-her glittering garb and crystal woods. Far away the
-faint line of the New Jersey shore, looking like one
-unbroken city on a hundred altitudes, hovered faintly
-under its mist. The river at its base was a silver
-ribbon between a mirage and a stupendous castle of
-seven different architectures surmounted by a golden
-dome—which same was New York and the dome
-of a newspaper. Then a faint fairy-like bridge, delicate
-as a cobweb, sprang lightly across another river to
-a city of walls with windows in them—which same
-was Brooklyn. Under the shadow of the arches was
-a baby island fortified with what appeared to be a large
-Dutch cheese out of which the mice had gnawed
-their way with much regularity. The great bay, blue
-as liquid sapphire, was alive with craft of every
-design: rowboats scuttled away from the big outgoing
-steamers; sails, white as the snow on the heights,
-bellied in the sharp wind; yellow and red ferry boats
-gave back long symmetrical curves of white smoke;
-gaunt ships with naked spars lay at rest. On Liberty
-Island the big girl pointed solemnly upward as if
-reminding the city on the waters of the many mansions
-in the invisible stars. Snow clouds were scudding
-upward from the east, but overhead there was plentiful
-gold and blue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience gazed through Mr. Field’s glass, enraptured,
-and promised not to brag. As they swung toward the
-dock he laid his hand kindly on hers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now don’t think I’m callous,” he said, “because
-I part from you without any apparent regret. You are
-going to be in good hands during the rest of your early
-girlhood, and I could be of no assistance to you; and
-I am a very busy man. Let me tell you that you have
-made this month a good deal shorter than it would
-otherwise have been; and when we meet again you
-won’t have to introduce yourself. There are my folks,
-and there goes the gang-plank. Good-bye, and God
-bless you.”</p>
-
-<h2>II</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience leaned over the upper railing, looking at the
-expectant crowd on the wharf, wondering when the
-captain would remember her. She felt a strong inclination
-to run after Mr. Field. As he receded up the
-wharf, surrounded by his family, he turned and waved
-his hand to her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why couldn’t he have been Mr. Foord’s brother or
-something?” she thought resentfully. “I think he
-might have adopted me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As the crowd thinned she noticed two elderly women
-standing a few feet from the vessel, alternately inspecting
-the landed passengers and the decks. One was a very
-tall slender and graceful woman, possessed of that subtle
-quality called style, despite her unfashionable attire.
-In her dark regular face were the remains of beauty,
-and although nervous and anxious, it wore the seal of
-gentle blood. Her large black eyes expressed a curious
-commingling of the spiritual and the human. She was
-probably sixty years old. At her side was a woman
-some ten years younger, of stouter and less elastic
-figure, with a strong dark kind intelligent face and an
-utter disregard of dress. She carried several bundles.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, hasn’t she come?” cried the elder woman.
-“Can she have died at sea? I am sure the dear Lord
-wouldn’t let anything happen to her. Dear sister, <span class='it'>do</span>
-you see her?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The other woman, who was also looking everywhere
-except at Patience, replied in a round cheerful voice:
-“No, not yet, but I feel sure she is there. The captain
-hasn’t had time to bring her on shore. The Lord
-tells me that it is all right.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“One of those is Miss Tremont,” thought Patience,
-“I may as well go down. They appear to be frightfully
-religious, but they have nice faces.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She ran down to the lower deck, then across the
-gang-plank.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m Patience Sparhawk,” she said; “are you—”
-The older woman uttered a little cry, caught her in her
-arms, and kissed her. “Oh, you dear little thing!”
-she exclaimed, and kissed her again. “How I’ve
-prayed the dear Lord to bring you safely, and He has,
-praise His holy name. Oh, I am so glad to see you. I
-do love children so. We’ll be so happy together—you
-and I and Him—and, oh, I’m so glad to see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, breathless, but much gratified, kissed her
-warmly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t forget me,” exclaimed the other lady. She
-had a singularly hearty voice and a brilliant smile.
-Patience turned to her dutifully, and received an emphatic
-kiss.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is my dear friend, my dear sister in the Lord,
-Miss Beale, Patience,” said Miss Tremont, flurriedly,
-“and she wanted to see you almost as much as I did.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed I did,” said Miss Beale, breezily. “I too
-love little girls.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m sure you’re both very kind,” said Patience,
-helplessly. She hardly knew how to meet so much
-effusion. But something cold and old within her seemed
-to warm and thaw.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You dear little thing,” continued Miss Tremont.
-“Are you cold? That is a very light coat you have on.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was not dressed for an eastern winter, but
-her young blood and curiosity kept her warm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Here comes the captain,” she said. “Oh, no, I’m
-all right. I like the cold.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The captain, satisfying himself that his charge was in
-the proper hands, offered to send her trunk to Mariaville
-by express, and Patience, wedged closely between
-the two ladies, boarded a street car.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know,” exclaimed Miss Tremont, “I knew the
-Lord would bring you to me safely in spite of the perils
-of the ocean. Every night and every morning I prayed:
-<span class='it'>Dear</span> Lord, don’t let anything happen to her,—and I
-knew He wouldn’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Does He always do what you tell Him?” asked
-Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Almost everything I ask Him,—that is to say, when
-He thinks best. Dear Patience, if you knew how He
-looks out for me—and it is well He sees fit, for dear
-knows I have a time taking care of myself. Why, He
-even takes care of my purse. I’m always leaving it
-round, and He always sends it back to me—from
-counters and trains and restaurants and everywhere.
-And when I start in the wrong direction He always
-whispers in my ear in time. Why, once I had to catch
-a certain train to Philadelphia, where I was to preside
-at a convention, and I’d taken the wrong street car, and
-when I jumped off and took the right one, the driver
-said I couldn’t possibly get to the ferry in time. So I
-just shut my eyes and prayed; and then I told the driver
-that it would be all right, as I had asked the Lord to
-see that I got there in time. The driver laughed, and
-said: ‘W-a-a-l, I guess the Lord’ll go back on you
-this time.’ But I caught that ferry-boat. <span class='it'>He</span>—the
-Lord—made it five minutes late. And it’s always the
-same. He takes care of me, praised be His name.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You must feel as if He were your husband,” said
-Patience, too gravely to be suspected of irreverence.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, He is. Doesn’t the Bible say—” But the
-car began to rattle over the badly paved streets, and the
-quotation was lost.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience looked eagerly through the windows at
-purlieus of indescribable ugliness; but it was New
-York, a city greater than San Francisco, and she found
-even its youthful old age picturesque. The dense
-throng of people in Sixth Avenue and the immense
-shop windows induced expressions of rapture.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t live here, do you?” she said with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Mariaville is much nicer than New York,”
-replied Miss Beale, in her enthusiastic way. “I hate a
-great crowded city. It baffles you so when you try to
-do good.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Still they do say that reform work is more systematised
-here, dear sister.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Forty-second Street,” shouted the conductor, and
-they changed cars. A few moments later they were
-pulling out of the Grand Central Station for Mariaville.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale had asked the conductor to turn a seat,
-and Patience faced her new friends. As they left the
-tunnel she caught sight of a tiny bow of white ribbon
-each wore on her coat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why do you wear that?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, we’re W. C. T. U’s,” replied Miss Beale.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wctus?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Temperance cranks,” said Miss Tremont, smiling.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Temperance cranks?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, have you never heard of the Woman’s Christian
-Temperance Union?” asked Miss Beale, a chill
-breathing over her cordial voice. “The movement
-has reason to feel encouraged all through the West.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve never heard of it. They don’t have it in
-Monterey, and I’ve not been much in San Francisco.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She’s such a child,” said Miss Tremont. “How
-could she know of it out there? But now I know she
-is going to be one of our very best Y’s.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Y’s?” asked Patience, helplessly. She wondered
-if this was the “fad” Mr. Field had predicted for her,
-then recalled that he had alluded once to the “Temperance
-movement,” but could not remember his explanation,
-if he had made any. Doubtless she had
-evaded a disagreeable topic. But now that it was
-evidently to be a part of her new life she made no attempt
-to stem Miss Tremont’s enthusiasm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The Y’s are the young women of the Union; we
-are the W’s. It is our lifework, Patience, and I am
-sure you will become as much interested in it as we
-are, and be proud to wear the white ribbon. We have
-done so much good, and expect to do much more, with
-the dear Lord’s help. It is slow work, but we shall
-conquer in the end, for He is with us.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you do,—forbid people to sell liquor?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Both ladies laughed. They were not without humour,
-and their experience had developed it. “No,”
-said Miss Tremont, “we don’t waste our time like that.”
-She gave an enthusiastic account of what the Union
-had accomplished. Her face glowed; her fine head
-was thrown back; her dark eyes sparkled. Patience
-thought she must have been a beautiful girl. She had
-a full voice with odd notes of protest and imperious
-demand which puzzled her young charge. One would
-have supposed that she was constantly imploring favours,
-and yet her air suggested natural hauteur, unexterminated
-by cultivated humility.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I should think it was a good idea,” said Patience,
-with perfect sincerity.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, there’s dear Sister Watt,” cried Miss Tremont,
-and she rose precipitately, and crossing the aisle sat
-down beside a careworn anxious-eyed woman who
-also wore the white ribbon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come over by me until Miss Tremont comes back,”
-said Miss Beale, with her brilliant smile. “Tell me,
-don’t you love her already? Oh, you have no idea
-how good she is. She is heart and soul in her work,
-and just lives for the Lord. She sometimes visits twenty
-poor families a week, besides her Temperance class,
-her sewing school, her Bible Readings, her Bible class,
-and all the religious societies, of which she is the most
-active worker. She is also the Mariaville agent for
-the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Children, and
-trustee of the Bible Society. You should hear her pray.
-I have heard all the great revivalists, but I have never
-heard anything like Miss Tremont’s prayers. How I
-envy you living with her! You’ll hear her twice a day,
-and sometimes oftener. She has a nice house on
-the outskirts of Mariaville. Her father left it to her
-twenty years ago, and she dedicated it to the Lord at
-once. It is headquarters for church meetings of all
-sorts. She has a Bible reading one afternoon a week.
-Any one can go, even a servant, for Miss Tremont, like
-all true followers of the Lord, is humble.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience reflected that she had never seen any one
-look less humble than Miss Beale. In spite of her old
-frock she conveyed with unmistakable if unconscious
-emphasis that she possessed wealth and full knowledge
-of its power.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You look so happy,” Patience said, her curiosity
-regarding Miss Tremont blunted for the present. “Are
-you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Happy? Of course I am. I’ve never known an
-unhappy moment in my life. When my dear parents
-died, I only envied them. And have I not perfect
-health? Is not every moment of my time occupied?—why,
-I only sleep six hours out of the twenty-four. And
-Him. Do I not work for Him, and is He not always
-with me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They are so funny about God,” thought Patience.
-“She talks as if He were her beau; and Miss Tremont
-as if He were her old man she’d been jogging along
-with for forty years or so.—Do you live alone?” she
-asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes—that is, I board.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And don’t you ever feel lonesome?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never. Is not He always with me?” Her strong
-brown face was suddenly illuminated. “Is He not my
-lover? Is He not always at my side, encouraging me
-and whispering of His love, night and day? Why,
-I can almost hear His voice, feel His hand. How
-could I be lonesome even on a desert island with no
-work to do?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience gasped. The extraordinary simplicity of
-this woman of fifty fascinated her whom life and
-heredity had made so complex. But she moved restlessly,
-and felt an impulse to thrust out her legs and
-arms. She had a sensation of being swamped in
-religion.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shouldn’t think you’d like boarding,” she said
-irrelevantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t like it particularly, but it gives me more
-time for my work. I make myself comfortable, I can
-tell you, for I have my own bed with two splendid
-mattresses,—my landlady’s are the hardest things you
-ever felt,—and all my own furniture and knick-knacks.
-And I have my own tub, and every morning even in
-dead of winter, I take a cold bath. And I don’t wear
-corsets—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mariaville,” called the conductor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, here we are,” cried Miss Tremont. She made
-a wild dive for her umbrella and bag, seized Patience
-by the hand, and rushed up the aisle, followed leisurely
-by Miss Beale.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The snow was falling heavily. Patience had watched
-it drift and swirl over the Hudson, and should have
-liked to give it her undivided attention.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they left the station they were greeted by a
-chorus of shrieks: “Have a sleigh? Have a sleigh?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you think, sister?” asked Miss Tremont,
-dubiously. “Do you think Patience can walk two
-miles in this snow? I don’t like to spend money on
-luxuries that I should give to the Lord.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps the sleigh man needs it,” said Patience,
-who had no desire to walk two miles in a driving storm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We’d better have a sleigh,” said Miss Beale, decidedly.
-“We will each pay half.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But why should you pay half,” said Miss Tremont,
-in her protesting voice, “when there are three of
-us?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I will pay for myself,” said Patience. “Mr. Foord
-gave me a twenty dollar gold piece, and I haven’t spent
-it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear child!” exclaimed Miss Tremont. “As
-if I’d let you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come, get in,” said Miss Beale; “we’ll be snowed
-under, here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And a few minutes later Patience, on the front seat,
-was enjoying her first sleigh-ride. She slid down under
-the fur robe, and winking the snow stars from her lashes,
-looked out eagerly upon Mariaville. The town rose
-from the Hudson in a succession of irregular precipitous
-terraces. The trees were skeletons, the houses
-old, but the effect was very picturesque; and the dancing
-crystals, the faint music of bells from far and near,
-the wide steep streets, delighted a mind magnetic for
-novelty.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They left Miss Beale before a pretty house, standing
-in a frozen garden, then climbed to the top of a hill,
-slid away to the edge of the town, and drew rein before
-an old-fashioned white one-winged house, which stood
-well back in a neglected yard behind walnut-trees and
-hemlocks. Beyond, closing the town, were the stark
-woods. Opposite was a prim little grove in which the
-snow stars were dancing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Here we are,” said Miss Tremont, climbing out.
-“Welcome home, Patience dear.” She paid the man,
-and hurried down the path. The door was opened
-by an elderly square-faced woman, who looked sharply
-at Patience, then smiled graciously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, this is Ellen. She takes good care of
-me. Come in. Come in.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The narrow hall ran through the main building, and
-was unfurnished but for a table and the stair. Miss
-Tremont led the way into a large double room of comfortable
-temperature, although no fire was visible.
-Bright red curtains covered the windows, a neat black
-carpet sprinkled with flowers the floor. The chairs
-were stiffly arranged, but upholstered cheerfully, the
-tables and mantels crowded with an odd assortment of
-cheap and handsome ornaments. The papered walls
-were a mosaic of family portraits. In the back parlour
-were a bookcase, a piano piled high with hymn-books,
-and a dozen or so queer little pulpit chairs. A door
-opened from the front parlour into a faded but hospitable
-dining-room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience for the first time in her life experienced the
-enfolding of the home atmosphere, an experience
-denied to many for ever and ever. She turned impulsively,
-and throwing her arms about Miss Tremont,
-kissed and hugged her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Somehow I feel all made over,” she said apologetically,
-and getting very red. “But it is so nice—and
-you are so nice—and oh, it is all so different!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And Miss Tremont, enraptured, first wished that this
-forlorn homely little waif was her very own, then vowed
-that neither should ever remember that she was not,
-and half carried her up to the bedroom prepared for
-her, a white fresh little room overlooking the shelving
-town.</p>
-
-<h2>III</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next afternoon a sewing woman came and cut
-down an old-fashioned but handsome fur-lined cloak
-of Miss Tremont’s to Patience’s diminutive needs.
-When Miss Tremont returned home, after a hard day’s
-work, she brought with her a hood, a pair of woollen
-gloves, and a pair of arctics; and Patience felt that she
-could weather a New York winter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience gave little attention to her clothes.
-When she was not watching the snow she was studying
-the steady stream of people who called at all hours, and
-invariably talked “church” and “temperance.” The
-atmosphere was so charged with religion that she was
-haunted by an uneasy prescience of a violent explosion
-during which Miss Tremont and her friends would sail
-upward, leaving her among the débris.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her coat finished, she went in town with Miss
-Tremont to Temperance Hall. The snow had ceased
-to fall. The sun rode solitary on a cold blue sky, the
-ground was white and hard. The bare trees glittered
-in their crystal garb, icicles jewelled the eaves of the
-houses. The telegraph wires, studded with pendent
-spheres, looked like a vast diamond necklace of many
-strings which only Nature was mighty enough to wear.
-The hills were snowdrifts. The Hudson, far below,
-moved sluggishly under great blocks of ice. The
-Palisades were black and white. Miss Tremont and
-Patience walked rapidly, their frozen breath waving
-before them in fantastic shapes. It was all very delightful
-to Patience, who thrust her hands into her deep
-pockets and would have scorned to ride. At times
-she danced; new blood, charged with electricity,
-seemed shooting through her veins. Miss Tremont’s
-older teeth clattered occasionally. She bent forward
-slightly, her brow contracted over eyes which seemed
-ever seeking something, her long legs carrying her
-swiftly and with surprising grace. Patience had solved
-the enigma of her voice after hearing her pray, and
-she supposed that her eyes were on loyal watch for
-the miseries of the world.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After a time they descended an almost perpendicular
-hill to the business part of the town. Beyond a few
-level streets the ground rose again, wooded and thickly
-built upon. On the left was another hill, which, Miss
-Tremont informed her, was Hog Heights, the quarter
-of the poor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The streets in the valley twisted and doubled like
-the curves of an angry python. In the centre was a
-square which might have been called Rome, since all
-ways led to it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Temperance Hall, a building of Christian-like humility,
-stood on a back street flanked by many low-browed
-shops. On the first floor were the parlour, reading-room,
-and refectory, on the second a large hall, on the
-third bedrooms. The hall was already half full of
-boys and girls, kept in order by the matron, Mrs.
-Blair, a middle-aged woman with the expression of one
-who stands no nonsense.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, Patience,” said Miss Tremont, “you listen
-attentively, and next time you can take Mrs. Blair’s
-place.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The occasion was the weekly assemblage of the
-Loyal Legion children, who were being educated in
-the ways of temperance. Miss Tremont opened with
-the Lord’s Prayer, which she invested with all its meaning;
-then the children sang from a temperance hymn-book,
-and the lesson began. Miss Tremont read a
-series of questions appurtenant to the inevitable results
-of unholy indulgence, to which Mrs. Blair read the
-answers, which in turn were repeated by the children.
-Then they sang “Down with King Alcohol,” a minister
-came in and made a dramatic address, and the children,
-some of whom were attentive and some extremely
-naughty, filed out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I only come on alternate Fridays,” said Miss
-Tremont, as they went downstairs; “Sister Beale takes
-the other. Come and see our reading-room. These
-are our boarders,” indicating several prim old maids
-that sat in the front room by the window.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In the dining-room a half dozen tramps were imbibing
-free soup. The reading-room was empty.</p>
-
-<h2>IV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Before a week had passed Patience was so busy that
-her old life slept as heavily as a bear in winter. She
-passed her difficult examinations and entered the High
-School, selecting the three years course, which included
-French, German, mathematics, the sciences, literature,
-and rhetoric.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The recesses and evenings were spent in study, the
-afternoons in assisting Miss Tremont; occasionally she
-snatched an hour to write to her friends in California.
-Besides the temperance work, she had a class in the
-church sewing school, kept the books of various societies,
-and occasionally visited the poor on Hog
-Heights. The work did not interest her, but she was
-glad to satisfactorily repay Miss Tremont’s hospitality.
-But had she wished to protest she would have realised
-its uselessness: she was carried with the tide. It
-might be said that Miss Tremont was the tide. Her
-enthusiasm had no reflex action, and tore through
-obstacles like a mill-race. When night came she was
-so weary that more than once Patience offered to put
-her to bed; but the offer was declined with a curious
-mixture of religious fervour and hauteur. Miss Tremont
-had none of the ordinary vanity of woman, but she
-resented the imputation that she could not work for
-the Lord as ardently at sixty as she had at forty.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she prayed Patience listened with bated breath.
-A torrent of eloquence boiled from her lips. All the
-shortcomings and needs of unregenerate Mariaville,
-individual and collective, were laid down with a vehement
-precision which could leave the Lord little doubt
-of His obligations. The Temperance Cause was rehearsed
-with a passion which would have thrilled the
-devil. Sounding through all was a wholly unselfconscious
-note of command, as when one pleads with
-the pocket of an intimate friend for some worthy
-cause.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience saw so many disreputable people at this
-time that her mother’s pre-eminence was extinguished.
-They had a habit of commanding the hospitalities of
-Miss Tremont’s barn, sure of two meals and a night’s
-lodging. Miss Tremont insisted upon their attendance
-at evening prayers, and Patience assumed the task of
-persuading them to clean up. Her methods were less
-gentle than Miss Tremont’s: when they refused to
-wash she turned the hose on them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Projected suddenly into the dry bracing cold of an
-eastern winter she quickly became robust. Before
-spring had come, her back was straight and a faint
-colour was in her rounding cheeks. If there had been
-time to think about it, or any one to tell her, she would
-have discovered that she was growing pretty. But at
-this time, despite the distant advances of the High
-School boys, Patience found no leisure for vanity.
-Sometimes she paused long enough to wonder if she
-had any individuality left; if environment was not
-stronger than heredity after all; if immediate impressions
-could not ever efface those of the past, no matter
-how deeply the latter may have been etched into the
-plastic mind. But she was quite conscious that she
-was happy, despite the vague restlessness and longings
-of youth. She loved Miss Tremont with all the sudden
-expansion of a long repressed temperament endowed
-with a tragic capacity for passionate affection. In
-Monterey the iron mould of reserve into which circumstance
-had forced her nature, had cramped and
-warped what love she had felt for Mr. Foord and
-Rosita; but in this novel atmosphere, where love
-enfolded her, where everybody respected her, and
-knew nothing of her past, where there was not a word
-nor an occurrence to remind her of the ugly experiences
-of her young life, she quickly became a normal
-being, living, belatedly, along the large and generous
-lines of her nature.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had no friends of her own age with whom to
-discuss the problems dear to the heart of developing
-woman. The girls at the High School rarely talked
-during recess, and she left hurriedly the moment the
-scholars were dismissed for the day. The “Y’s” she
-persistently refused to join, as well as the young people’s
-societies of Miss Tremont’s church.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll be your helper in everything,” she said to her
-perplexed guardian; “but those girls bore me, and,
-you know, I really haven’t time for them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And Miss Tremont, despite the fact that Patience
-gave no sign of spiritual thaw, was the most doting of
-old maid parents. After the first few weeks she ceased
-to dig in Patience’s soul for the stunted seeds of
-Christianity, finding that she only irritated her, and
-trusting to the daily sprinkling of habit and example to
-promote their ultimate growth.</p>
-
-<h2>V</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>With summer came a cessation of school, Loyal
-Legion, and sewing school duties; but the Poor took
-no vacation and gave none. Nevertheless, Patience
-had far more leisure, and borrowed many books from
-the town library. She read much of Hugo and Balzac
-and Goethe, and in the new intellectual delight forgot
-herself more completely than in her work.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Moreover, the town was very beautiful in summer,
-and she spent many hours rambling along the shadowy
-streets whose venerable trees shut the sunlight from
-the narrow side ways. The gardens too were full of
-trees; and the town from a distance looked like a
-densely wooded hillside, a riot of green, out of which
-housetops showed like eggs in a nest. Over some of
-the steep old streets the maples met, growing denser
-and denser down in the perspective, until closed by
-the flash of water.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The woods on the slope of the Hudson were thick
-with great trees dropping a leafy curtain before the
-brilliant river, and full of isolated nooks where a girl
-could read and dream, unsuspected of the chance
-pedestrian.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After one long drowsy afternoon by a brook in a
-hollow of the woods, Patience returned home to find a
-carriage standing before the door. It was a turnout of
-extreme elegance. The grey horses were thoroughbreds;
-a coachman in livery sat on the box; a footman
-stood on the sidewalk. She looked in wonder. Miss
-Tremont had no time for the fine people of Mariaville,
-and they had ceased to call on her long since.
-Moreover, Patience knew every carriage in the town,
-and this was not of them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went rapidly into the house, youthfully eager for
-a new experience. Miss Tremont was seated on the
-sofa in the front parlour, holding the hand of a tall
-handsomely gowned woman. Patience thought, as she
-stood for a moment unobserved, that she had never
-seen so cold a face. It was the face of a woman of
-fifty, oval and almost regular. The mouth was a
-straight line. The clear pale eyes looked like the
-reflection of the blue atmosphere on icicles. The
-skin was as smooth as a girl’s, the brown hair parted
-and waved, the tall figure slender and superbly carried.
-She was smiling and patting Miss Tremont’s
-hand, but there was little light in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Patience entered, she turned her head and
-regarded her without surprise; she had evidently
-heard of her. Miss Tremont’s face illumined, and she
-held out her hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is Patience,” she said triumphantly. “I
-haven’t told you half about the dear child. Patience,
-this is my cousin, Mrs. Gardiner Peele.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Gardiner Peele bent her head patronisingly, and
-Patience hated her violently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am glad you have a companion,” said the lady,
-coldly. “But how is it you haven’t the white ribbon
-on her?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont blushed. “Oh, I can’t control Patience
-in all things,” she said, in half angry deprecation.
-“She just won’t wear the ribbon.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Peele smiled upon Patience for the first time.
-It was a wintry light, but it bespoke approval. “I wish
-she could make you take it off,” she said to her relative.
-“That dreadful, dreadful <span class='it'>badge</span>. How can you
-wear it?—you—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, cousin,” said Miss Tremont, laughing good-naturedly,
-“we won’t go over all that again. You
-know I’m a hopeless crank. All I can do is to pray
-for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Thank you. I don’t doubt I need it, although I
-attend church quite as regularly as you could wish.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I know you are good,” said Miss Tremont, with
-enthusiasm, “and of course I don’t expect everybody
-to be as interested in Temperance as I am.
-But I do wish you loved the world less and the Lord
-more.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Peele gave a low, well modulated laugh. “Now,
-Harriet, I want you to be worldly for a few minutes. I
-have brought you back two new gowns from Paris, and
-I want you, when you come to visit me next week, to
-wear them. I have had them trimmed with white
-ribbon bows so that no one will notice one more or
-less—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m not ashamed of my white ribbon,” flashed
-out Miss Tremont, then relented. “You dear good
-Honora. Yes, I’ll wear them if they’re not too
-fashionable.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I studied your style. And let me tell you,
-Harriet Tremont, that fashionable gowns are what you
-should be wearing. It does provoke me so to see
-you—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Miss Tremont leaned over and kissed her short.
-“Now what’s the use of talking to an old crank
-like me? I’m a humble servant of my dear Lord,
-and I couldn’t be anything else if I had a million.
-But you dear thing, I’m so glad to see you once
-more. You do look so well. Tell me all about the
-children.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, quite forgotten, listened to the conversation
-with deep interest. There was a vague promise of
-variety in this new advent. As she watched the woman,
-who seemed to have brought with her something of the
-atmosphere of all that splendid existence of which she
-had longingly read, she was stirred with a certain dissatisfaction:
-some dormant chord was struck—as on
-the day she drove by Del Monte. When Mrs. Peele
-arose to go, she thought that not Balzac himself had
-ever looked upon a more elegant woman. Even
-Patience’s untrained eye recognised that those long
-simple folds, those so quiet textures, were of French
-woof and make. And the woman’s carriage was
-like unto that of the fictional queen. She nodded
-carelessly to Patience, and swept out. When Miss
-Tremont returned after watching her guest drive away,
-Patience pounced upon her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Who</span> is she?” she demanded. “And <span class='it'>why</span> didn’t
-you tell me you had such a swell for a cousin?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did I never tell you?” asked Miss Tremont,
-wonderingly. “Why, I was sure I had often talked of
-Honora. But I’m so busy I suppose I forgot.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sat down and fanned herself, smiling. “Honora
-Tremont is my first cousin. We used to be great
-friends until she married a rich man and became so
-dreadfully fashionable. The Lord be praised, she has
-always loved me; but she lives a great deal abroad, and
-spends her winters, when she is here, in New York.
-They have a beautiful place on the Hudson, Peele
-Manor, that has been in the family for nearly three hundred
-years. Mr. Peele is an eminent lawyer. I don’t
-know him very well. He doesn’t talk much; I suppose
-he has to talk so much in Court. I’ve not seen
-the children for a year. I always thought them pretty
-badly spoiled, particularly Beverly. May isn’t very
-bright. But I always liked Hal—short for Harriet,
-after me—better than any of them. She is about
-nineteen now. May is eighteen and Beverly twenty-four.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then there is Honora, cousin Honora’s sister
-Mary’s child, and the tallest woman I ever saw. Her
-parents died when she was a little thing and left her
-without a dollar. Honora took her, and has treated
-her like her own children. Sometimes I think she is
-very much under her influence. I don’t know why,
-but I never liked her. She is Beverly’s age. Oh!”
-she burst out, “just think! I have got to go to Peele
-Manor for a week. I promised. I couldn’t help it.
-And oh, I do dread it. They are all so different, and
-they don’t sympathise with my work. Much as I love
-them I’m always glad to get away. Wasn’t it kind
-and good of her to bring me two dresses from Paris?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shrewdly interpreted the prompting of Mrs.
-Peele’s generosity, but made no comment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont drew a great sigh: “My temperance
-work—my poor—what will they do without me?
-Maria Twist gets so mad when I don’t read the Bible
-to her twice a week. Patience, you will have to stay
-in Temperance Hall. I shouldn’t like to think of you
-here alone. I do wish Honora had asked you too—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wouldn’t go for worlds. When do you think
-your dresses will come? I do so want to see a real
-Paris dress.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She said they’d come to-morrow. Oh, to think of
-wearing stiff tight things. Well, if they are uncomfortable
-or too stylish I just won’t wear them, that’s all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You just will, auntie dear. You’ll not look any
-less fine than those people, or I’ll not go near Hog
-Heights.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont kissed her, grateful for the fondness
-displayed. “Well, well, we’ll see,” she said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But the next day, when the two handsome black
-gowns lay on the bed of the spare room, she shook her
-head with flashing eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I won’t wear those things,” she cried. “Why, they
-were made for a society woman, not for an humble
-follower of the Lord. I should be miserable in
-them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, who had been hovering over the gowns,—one
-of silk grenadine trimmed with long loops of black
-and white ribbon, the other of satin with a soft knot of
-white ribbon on the shoulder and another at the back
-of the high collar,—came forward and firmly divested
-Miss Tremont of her alpaca. She lifted the heavy
-satin gown with reverent hands and slipped it over
-Miss Tremont’s head, then hooked it with deft fingers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There!” she exclaimed. “You look like a swell
-at last. Just what you ought to look like.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont glanced at the mirror with a brief spasm
-of youthful vanity. The rich fashionable gown became
-her long slender figure, her unconscious pride of carriage,
-far better than did her old alpaca and merino
-frocks. But she shook her head immediately, her
-eyes flashing under a quick frown.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The idea of perching a white bow like a butterfly
-on my shoulder and another at the back of my neck,
-as if I had a scar. It’s an insult to the white ribbon.
-And this collar would choke me. I can’t breathe.
-Take it off! Take it off!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not until I have admired you some more. You
-look just grand. If the collar is too high, I’ll send for
-Mrs. Best, and we’ll cut it off and sew some soft black
-stuff in the neck—although I just hate to. Auntie
-dear, don’t you think you could stand it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont shook her head with decision. “I
-couldn’t. It hurts my old throat. And how could I
-ever bend my head to get at my soup? And these
-bows make me feel actually cross. If the dress can
-be made comfortable I’ll wear it, for I’ve no right to
-disgrace Honora, nor would I hurt her feelings by
-scorning her gowns; but I’ll not stand any such mockery
-as these flaunting white things.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience exchanged the satin for the grenadine gown.
-This met with more tolerance at first, as the throat was
-finished with soft folds, and the white ribbon was less
-demonstrative.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It floats so,” said Patience, ecstatically. “Oh,
-auntie, you <span class='it'>are</span> a beauty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I a beauty with my ugly scowling old face? But
-this thing is like a ball dress, Patience—this thin stuff!
-I prefer the satin.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You will wear this on the hot evenings. All thin
-things are not made for the ball-room. You needn’t
-look at yourself like that. I only wish I’d ever be
-half as pretty. Auntie, why didn’t you ever marry?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont’s face worked after all the years.
-Memories could not die in so uniform a nature.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My youth was very sad,” she said, turning away
-abruptly. “I only talk about it with the dear Lord.”
-And Patience asked no more questions.</p>
-
-<h2>VI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The dressmaker was sent for, and the satin gown
-divested of its collar. Miss Tremont ruthlessly clipped
-off the beautiful French bows and sewed a tiny one of
-narrow white ribbon in a conspicuous place on the left
-chest. The grenadine was decorated in like manner.
-Patience wailed, and then laughed as she thought of
-Mrs. Gardiner Peele. She wished she might be there
-to see that lady’s face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont changed her mind four times as to the
-possibility of leaving Mariaville for a week of sinful
-idleness, before she was finally assisted into the train by
-Patience’s firm hand. Even then she abruptly left her
-seat and started for the door. But the train was moving.
-Patience saw her resume her seat with an impatient
-twitch of her shoulders.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Poor auntie,” she thought, as she walked up the
-street; “but on the whole I think I pity Mrs. Peele
-more.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her bag had been sent to Temperance Hall, and she
-went directly there, and to her own room. As the day
-was very warm, she exchanged her frock for a print
-wrapper, then extended herself on the bed with “’93.”
-It was her duty to assuage the wrath of Maria Twist,
-but she made up her mind that for twenty-four hours
-she would shirk every duty on her calendar.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But she had failed to make allowance for the net of
-circumstance. She had not turned ten pages when she
-heard the sound of agitated footsteps in the hall. A
-moment later Mrs. Blair opened the door unceremoniously.
-Her usually placid face was much perturbed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Miss Patience,” she said, “I’m in such a way.
-Late last night a poor man fell at the door, and I took
-him in as there was no policeman around. I thought
-he was only ill, but it seems he was drunk. He’s been
-awake now for two hours, and is awful bad—not drunk,
-but suffering.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why don’t you send for the doctor?” asked Patience,
-lazily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have, but he’s gone to New York and won’t be
-back till night. The man says he can doctor himself—that
-all he wants is whisky; but of course I can’t give
-him that. Do come over and talk to him. Miss Beale
-is over at White Plains, and I don’t know what to
-do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience rose reluctantly and followed the matron to
-the side of the house reserved for men. As she went
-down the hall she heard groans and sharp spasmodic
-cries. Mrs. Blair opened a door, and Patience saw
-an elderly man lying in the bed. His grey hair and
-beard were ragged, his eyes dim and bleared, his long,
-well-cut but ignoble face was greenishly pale. He was
-very weak, and lay clutching at the bed clothes with
-limp hairy hands. As he saw the matron his eyes lit
-up with resentment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t come here to be murdered,” he ejaculated.
-“It’s the last place I’d have come to if I’d
-known what I was doing. But I tell you that if I don’t
-have a drink of whisky I’ll be a dead man in an
-hour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can’t give you that,” said Mrs. Blair, desperately.
-“And you know you only think you need it, anyhow.
-We try to make men overcome their terrible weakness;
-we don’t encourage them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s all right, but you can’t reform a man when
-his inside is on fire and feels as if it were dropping
-out—but my God! I can’t argue with you, damn
-you. Give it to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m of the opinion that he ought to have it,”
-said Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man turned to her eagerly. “Bless you,” he
-said. “It’s not the taste of it I’m craving, miss; it’s
-relief from this awful agony. If you give it to me, I
-swear I’ll try never to touch a drop again after I get
-over this spree. It’ll be bad enough to break off then,
-but it’s death now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Blair looked at him with pity, but shook her
-head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve been here seven years,” she said to Patience,
-“and the ladies have yet to find one fault with me.
-I don’t dare give it to him. Besides, I don’t believe
-in it. How can what’s killing him cure him? And
-it’s a sin. Even if the ladies excused me—which
-they wouldn’t—I’d never forgive myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll take the responsibility,” said Patience. “I
-believe that man will die if he doesn’t have whisky.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man groaned and tossed his arms. “Oh, my
-God!” he cried.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Blair shuddered. “Oh, I don’t know, miss.
-If you will take the responsibility—I can’t give it
-to him—where could you get it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“At a drug store.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They won’t sell it to you—we’ve got a law
-passed, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then I’ll go to a saloon.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my! my!” cried Mrs. Blair, “you’d never
-do that?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The man is in agony. Can’t you see? I’m going
-this minute.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The door opened, and Miss Beale entered. She
-looked warm and tired, but came forward with active
-step, and stood beside the bed. A spasm of disgust
-crossed her face. “What is the matter, my man?”
-she asked. “I am sorry to see you here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Give me whisky,” groaned the man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale turned away with twitching mouth.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The man is dying. Nothing but whisky can save
-him,” said Patience. “If you called a doctor he
-would tell you the same thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What?” said Miss Beale, coldly, “do you suppose
-that he can have whisky in Temperance Hall?
-Is that what we are here for? You must be crazy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But you don’t want him to die on your hands, do
-you?” exclaimed Patience, who was losing her temper.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My God!” screeched the man, “I am in Hell.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My good man,” said Miss Beale, gently, “it is for
-us to save you from Hell, not to send you there.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll be there in ten minutes.” His voice died to an
-inarticulate murmur; but he writhed, and doubled, and
-twisted, as men may have done when fanatics tortured
-in the name of religion.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good heavens, Miss Beale,” cried Patience, excitedly,
-“you can’t set yourself up in opposition to nature.
-That man must have whisky. If he were younger and
-stronger it wouldn’t matter so much; but can’t you see
-he hasn’t strength to resist the terrible strain? The
-torture is killing him, eating out his life—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, it is terrible!” exclaimed the matron. “Perhaps
-it is best—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mrs. Blair!” Miss Beale turned upon her in consternation.
-Then she bent over the man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can’t have whisky,” she said gently; “not if
-I thought you were really dying would I give it to you.
-If it is the Lord’s will that you are to die here you
-must abide by it. I shall not permit you to further
-imperil your soul. Nor could that which has not the
-blessing of God on it be of benefit to you. Alcohol is a
-destroyer, both of soul and of body—not a medicine.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man’s knees suddenly shot up to his chest;
-but he raised his head and darted at her a glance of
-implacable hate.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Damn you,” he stuttered. “Murderer—” Then
-he extended rigid arms and clutched the bed clothes,
-his body twitching uncontrollably.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale looked upon him with deep compassion.
-“Poor thing,” she exclaimed, “is not this enough to
-warn all men from that fiend?” She laid her hand
-on the man’s head, but he shook it off with an oath.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Whisky,” he cried. “O my God! Have these
-women—<span class='it'>women!</span>—no pity?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m going for whisky—” said Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale stepped swiftly to the door, locked it, and
-slipped the key into her pocket.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You will buy no whisky,” she said sternly. “I
-will save you from that sin.” Suddenly her face lit
-up. “I will pray,” she said solemnly, “I will pray that
-this poor lost creature may recover, and lead a better
-life—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I swear I’ll never touch another drop after I’m
-out of this if you’ll give it to me now—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If it be the Lord’s will that you shall live you will
-not die,” said Miss Beale. “I will pray, and in His
-mercy He may let you live to repent.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She fell upon her knees by the bed, and clasping her
-hands, prayed aloud; while the man reared and plunged
-and groaned and cursed, his voice and body momentarily
-weaker. Miss Beale’s prayers were always very
-long and very fervid. She was not eloquent, but her
-deep tear-voiced earnestness was most impressive; and
-never more so than to-day, when she flung herself
-before the throne of Grace with a lost soul in her hand.
-A light like a halo played upon her spiritualised face,
-her voice became ineffably sweet. Gradually, in her
-ecstatic communion with, her intimate nearness to her
-God, she forgot the man on the bed, forgot the flesh
-which prisoned her soaring soul, was conscious only of
-the divine light pouring through her, the almost palpable
-touch of her lover’s hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly Patience exclaimed brutally: “The man is
-dead.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale arose with a start. She drew the sheet
-gently over the distorted face. “It is the Lord’s will,”
-she said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After Patience was in her own room and had relieved
-her feelings by slamming the door, she sat for a
-long time staring at the pattern of the carpet and pondering
-upon the problem of Miss Beale.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” she thought finally, “<span class='it'>she’s</span> happy, so I
-suppose it’s all right. No wonder she’s satisfied with
-herself when she lives up to her ideals as consistently
-as that. I think I’ll label all the different forms of
-selfishness I come across. There seems to be a large
-variety, but all put together don’t seem to be a patch
-to having fun with your ideals. Miss Beale would be
-the most wretched woman in Westchester county if
-she’d given that man whisky and saved his life.”</p>
-
-<h2>VII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man was buried with Christian service at Miss
-Beale’s expense, and her serene face wore no shadow.
-The following day she said to Patience: “I spent
-nearly all of the last two nights in prayer, and I almost
-heard the Lord’s voice as He told me I did right.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You ought to write a novel,” said Patience, drily,
-but the sarcasm was lost. In a moment Patience forgot
-Miss Beale: the postman handed her two letters,
-and she went up to her room to read them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The first she opened was from Miss Tremont.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'><span class='sc'>Peele Manor</span>, Friday.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Oh my dear darling little girl, how I wish, <span class='it'>how</span> I wish
-I were with you and my work once more. I ought to be
-happy because they are all so kind, but I’m not. I feel as
-if I were throwing away one of the few precious weeks I
-have left to give to the Lord (arrange for a prayer meeting
-on Wednesday, the day of my return, and we’ll have a
-regular feast of manna). Do you miss me? I think of
-you every moment. You should have seen dear Cousin
-Honora’s face when I came down to dinner in the black
-satin. She didn’t say anything, she just <span class='it'>looked</span> at the
-bow, and I felt sorry for her. But I know I am right.
-Hal giggled and winked at me. (I do love Hal!) Honora
-Mairs said so sweetly after Cousin Honora had left the
-room: “Dear Cousin Harriet, I think you are so brave and
-consistent to wear the little white bow of your cause. It
-is so <span class='it'>like</span> you.” Was not that sweet of her? Beverly has
-very heavy eyebrows, and he raised them at my ribbon,
-and turned away his head as if it hurt his eyes. He is a
-very elegant young gentleman, and his mother says he is
-a great stickler for form, whatever that may mean. (They
-speak a different language here anyway. I don’t understand
-half what they say. Hal talks slang all the time.)
-I don’t like Beverly as much as I did, although he’s quite
-the handsomest young man I ever saw and very polite; but
-he smokes cigarettes all the time and big black cigars.
-When I told him that five hundred million dollars were spent
-annually on tobacco, he got up and went off in a huff. May
-is just a talkative child—I never heard any one talk so much
-in my life,—and about nothing but gowns and young men
-and balls and the opera. Beverly talks about horses all
-the time, and Hal thinks a great deal of society, although
-she listens to me very sweetly when I talk to her about my
-work. Yesterday she said: “Why, Cousin Harriet, you’re
-a regular steam engine. It must be jolly good fun to carry
-a lot of sinners to heaven on an express train.” I told her
-it was a freight train, and it certainly is, as you know,
-Patience dear. She replied: “Well, if you get there all
-the same, a century more or less doesn’t make any difference.
-You must be right in it with the Lord.” That was
-the only time I’d heard the dear Lord’s name mentioned
-since I arrived, so I didn’t scold her. But Patience, dear,
-I hope you’ll never use slang. I’ve talked to Hal about
-you, and she says she’s coming to see you.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora doesn’t use slang. She is very stately and
-dignified, and Cousin Honora (it’s very awkward when
-you’re writing for two people to have the same name, isn’t
-it?) holds her up as a model for the girls. Hal and
-she <span class='it'>fight</span>. I can’t call it anything else, although Honora
-doesn’t lose her temper and Hal does. Hal said to me (of
-Honora) yesterday (I use her own words, although they’re
-awful; but if I didn’t I couldn’t give you the same idea of
-her): “She’s a d—— hypocrite: and she wants to marry
-Beverly, but she won’t,—not if I have to turn matchmaker
-and marry him to a variety actress. She makes me wild.
-I wish she’d elope with the priest, but she’s too confoundedly
-clever.” Isn’t it dreadful—Honora is a Catholic.
-She became converted last year. Perhaps that’s the reason
-I can’t like her. But even the Catholic religion teaches
-charity, for she said to me this morning: “Poor Hal is
-really a good-hearted child, but she’s worldly and just a
-little superficial.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They haven’t any company this week—how kind of
-Cousin Honora to ask me when they are alone! I wish you
-were here to enjoy the library. It is a great big room overlooking
-the river, and the walls are covered with books—three
-or four generations of them. Mr. Peele is intellectual,
-and so is Honora; but the others don’t read much, except
-Hal, who reads dreadful-looking yellow paper books
-written in the French language which she says are “corkers,”
-whatever that may mean. I do wish the dear child would
-read her Bible. I asked her if I gave her a copy if she’d
-promise me to read a little every day, and she said she
-would, as some of the stories were as good as a French
-novel. So I shall buy her one.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>We sit in the library every evening. In the morning
-we sit in the Tea House on the slope and Honora embroiders
-Catholic Church things, Cousin Honora knits (she
-says it’s all the fashion), May <span class='it'>talks</span>, and Hal reads her yellow
-books and tells May to “let up.” I sew for my poor,
-and they don’t seem to mind that as much as the white ribbon.
-They say that they always sew for the poor in Lent.
-Hal says it is the “swagger thing.” In the afternoon we
-drive, and I do think it such a waste of time to be going,
-going nowhere for two hours.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Well, Patience, I shall be with you on Wednesday, praise
-the Lord. Come to the train and meet me, and be sure to
-write me about <span class='it'>everything</span>. How is Polly Jones, and old
-Mrs. Murphy, and Belinda Greggs? Have you read to
-Maria Twist, and taken the broth to old Jonas Hobb?
-Give my love to dear sister Beale, and tell her I pray for
-her. With a kiss from your old auntie, God bless you,</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'><span class='sc'>Harriet Tremont.</span></p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Dear old soul,” thought Patience. “I think I
-know them better than she does, already. She is
-worth the whole selfish crowd; but I should like to
-know Hal. Beverly must be a chump.”</p>
-
-<h2>VIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The other letter was from Rosita. Patience had not
-heard from her for a long while. Three months previously,
-Mr. Foord had written of Mrs. Thrailkill’s
-death, and mentioned that Rosita had gone to Sacramento
-to visit Miss Galpin—now Mrs. Trent—until
-her uncle, who had returned to Kentucky, should send
-for her.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Oh, Patita! Patita! [the letter began], what do you
-think? <span class='it'>I am on the stage.</span> I had been crazy to go on ever
-since <span class='it'>that night</span>. A theatrical man was in Monterey just before
-mamma’s death, and he told me they were always wanting
-pretty corus girls at the Tivoli; so after the funeral I
-told everybody I was going to stay with Miss Galpin until
-Uncle Jim sent for me—I hated to lie, but I had to—and
-I went up to San Francisco and went right to the Tivoli.
-He took me because he said I was pretty and had a fresh
-voice. I had to ware tights. You should have seen me.
-At first I felt all the time like stooping over to cover up my
-legs with my arms. But after a while I got used to it, and
-one night we had to dance, and everybody said I was the
-most graceful. The manager said I was a born dancer and
-actress. The other day what do you think happened? A
-New York manager was here and heard me sing,—I had a
-little part by that time,—and he told me that if I took lessons
-I could be a prima donna in comic opera. He said I
-not only was going to have a lovely voice, but that I had a
-new style (Spanish) and would take in New York. He offered
-to send me to Paris for a year and then bring me out
-in New York if I’d give him my word—I’m too young to
-sign a contract—that I wouldn’t go with any other manager.
-At first my manager, who is a good old sole (I didn’t tell
-you that I live with him and his wife, and that their awful
-good to me and stand the fellers off), wouldn’t have it; but
-after a while he gave in—said I’d have to go the pace
-sooner or later (whatever that means), and I might as well
-go it in first class style. His wife, the good old sole, cried.
-She said I was the first corus girl she’d ever taken an interest
-in, but somehow it would be on her conscience if
-I went wrong. But I’m not going wrong. I don’t
-care a bit for men. There was a bald-headed old
-fool who used to come and sit in the front row every
-night and throw kisses to me, and one night he threw
-me a bouquet with a bracelet in it. I wore the bracelet,
-for it was a beauty with a big diamond in it; but I never
-looked at him or answered any of his notes, and Mr. Bell—the
-manager—wrote him he’d punch his head if he came
-near the stage door. No, all I want is to act, act, act, and
-sing, sing, sing, and dance, dance, dance, and have beautiful
-cloths and jewels and a carriage and two horses. Mr.
-Soper has told me ten times since I’ve met him that “virtue
-in an actress pays,” and he’s going to send a horrid old
-woman with me to Paris, as if I’d bother with the fools anyhow.
-I’m sure I can’t see what Mrs. Bell cries about if I’m
-going to be famous and make a lot of money. Anyhow, I’m
-going. I do so want to see you, Patita dear. Maybe you
-can come up to the steamer and see me off. I wonder if
-you have changed. I’m not so very tall; but they all say
-my figure is good. Mr. Soper says it will be divine in a year
-or two, but that I may be a cow at thirty, so I’d better not
-lose any time. Good-bye. Good-bye. I want to give you
-a hundred kisses. How different our lives are! Isn’t
-yours dreadfully stupid with that old temprance work?
-And just think it was you who taught me to act first! Mr.
-Soper says I must cultivate the Spanish racket for all it’s
-worth, and that he expects me to be more Spanish in New
-York than I was in Monterey. He is going to get an opera
-written for me with the part of a Spanish girl in it so I can
-wear the costume. He says if I study and do everything
-he tells me I’ll make a <span class='it'>furore</span>. <span class='it'>Hasta luego</span>—Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'><span class='sc'>Rosita Elvira Francesca Thrailkill.</span></p>
-
-<hr class='tbk100'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>P. S.—I’m to have a Spanish stage name, “La Rosita,”
-I guess. Mr. Soper says that Thrailkill is an “anti-climax,”
-and would never “go down.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<h2>IX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience read this letter with some alarm. All that she
-had heard and read of the stage made her apprehensive.
-She feared that Rosita would become fast, would
-drink and smoke, and not maintain a proper reserve
-with men. Then the natural independence of her character
-asserted itself, and she felt pride in Rosita’s courage
-and promptness of action. She even envied her a
-little: her life would be so full of variety.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And after all it’s fate,” she thought philosophically.
-“She was cut out for the stage if ever a girl was.
-You might as well try to keep a bird from using its
-wings, or Miss Beale and auntie from being Temperance.
-I wonder what my fate is. It’s not the stage,
-but it’s not this, neither—not much. Shouldn’t wonder
-if I made a break for Mr. Field some day. But I
-couldn’t leave auntie. She’s the kind that gets a hold
-on you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She did her duty by Hog Heights during Miss Tremont’s
-brief holiday, but did it as concisely as was
-practicable. She found it impossible to sympathise with
-people that were content to let others support them,
-giving nothing in return. Her strong independent
-nature despised voluntary weakness. It was her private
-opinion that these useless creatures with only the animal
-instinct to live, and not an ounce of grey matter in
-their skulls, encumbered the earth, and should be
-quietly chloroformed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Despite her love for Miss Tremont, she breathed
-more freely in her absence. She was surfeited with
-religion, and at times possessed with a very flood of
-revolt and the desire to let it loose upon every church
-worker in Mariaville. But affection and gratitude
-restrained her.</p>
-
-<h2>X</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont returned on Wednesday morning.
-She stepped off the train with a bag under one arm, a
-bundle under the other, and both arms full of flowers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you darling, you darling!” she cried as she
-fell upon Patience. “How it does my heart good to
-see you! These are for you. Hal picked them, and
-sent her love. Aren’t they sweet?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Lovely,” said Patience, crushing the flowers as she
-hugged and kissed Miss Tremont. “Here, give me
-the bag.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont would go to Temperance Hall first,
-then to call upon Miss Beale, but was finally guided to
-her home. The trunk had preceded them. Patience
-unpacked the despised gowns, while listening to a passionate
-dissertation upon the heavy trial they had been
-to their owner.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think you had a good time all the same,” she
-said. “You look as if you’d had, at any rate. You’ve
-not looked so well since I came. That sort of thing
-agrees with you better than tramping over Hog
-Heights—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It does not!” cried Miss Tremont. “And I am
-so glad to get back to my work and my little girl.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And the Lord,” supplemented Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, He was with me even there. Only He didn’t
-feel so near.” She sighed reminiscently. “But I’ve
-brought pictures of the children to show you. Let us
-go down to the parlour where it’s cooler, and then
-we’ll stand them in a row on the mantel. They’re
-the first pictures I’ve had of them in years.” She
-caught a package from the tray of her trunk, in her
-usual abrupt fashion, and hurried downstairs, Patience
-at her heels.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont seated herself in her favourite upright
-chair, put on her spectacles, and opened the package.
-“This is Hal,” she said, handing one of the photographs
-to Patience. “I must show you her first, for
-she’s my pet.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience examined the photograph eagerly. It was
-a half length of a girl with a straight tilted nose, a
-small mouth with a downward droop at the corners,
-large rather prominent eyes, and sleek hair which was
-in keeping with her generally well-groomed appearance.
-She wore a tailor frock. Her slender erect figure
-was beautifully poised. In one hand she carried a
-lorgnette. She was not pretty, but her expression
-was frank and graceful, and she had much distinction.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I like her. Any one could see she was a swell.
-What colour hair has she?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, a kind of brown. Her eyes are a sort of
-grey. Here is May. She always has her photographs
-coloured.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, she’s a beauty!” The girl even in photograph
-showed an exquisite bit of flesh and blood. The
-large blue eyes were young and appealing under soft
-fall of lash. The mouth was small and red, the nose
-small and straight. Chestnut hair curled about the
-small head and oval face. The skin was like tinted
-jade. It was the face of the American aftermath. She
-wore a ball gown revealing a slender girlish neck and
-a throat of tender curves.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She is a real beauty,” said Miss Tremont. “Poor
-Hal says, ‘she can’t wear her neck because she hasn’t
-got any.’ Did you ever hear such an expression?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal looks as if she had a good figure.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont shook her head. “I don’t approve
-of all Hal does—she pads. She doesn’t seem to care
-much who knows it, for when the weather’s very warm
-she takes them out, right before your eyes, so it isn’t so
-bad as if she were deceitful about it. Here is Beverly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience looked long at the young man’s face. This
-face too was oval, with a high intellectual forehead,
-broad black brows, and very regular features. The
-mouth appeared to pout beneath the drooping moustache.
-The expression of the eyes was very sweet. It
-was a strong handsome face, high-bred like the others,
-but with a certain nobility lacking in the women.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He is said to be the handsomest young man in
-Westchester County, and he’s quite dark,” said Miss
-Tremont. “What do you think of him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He is rather handsome. Where is Honora?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She never has pictures taken. But, dear me, I must
-go out and see Ellen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience disposed the photographs on the mantel,
-then, leaning on her elbows, gazed upon Beverly Peele.
-The Composite, Byron, the Stranger, rattled their bones
-unheard. She concluded that no knight of olden
-time could ever have been so wholly satisfactory as
-this young man. Romance, who had been boxed
-about the ears, and sent to sleep, crept to her old
-throne with a sly and meaning smile. Patience began
-at once to imagine her meeting with Beverly Peele.
-She would be in a runaway carriage, and he would rescue
-her. She would be skating and fall in a hole, and
-he would pull her out. He would be riding to hounds
-in his beautiful pink coat (which was red) and run
-over her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She pictured his face with a variety of expressions.
-She was sure that he had the courage of a lion and the
-tenderness of some women. Unquestionably he had
-read his ancestors’ entire library—“with that forehead,”—and
-he probably had the high and mighty air
-of her favourite heroes of fiction. In one of her letters
-Miss Tremont had remarked that he loved children and
-animals; therefore he had a beautiful character and a
-kind heart. And she was glad to have heard that he
-also had a temper: it saved him from being a prig.
-Altogether, Patience, with the wisdom of sixteen and
-three quarters, was quite convinced that she had found
-her ideal, and overlooked its extreme unlikeness to the
-Composite, which was the only ideal she had ever
-created. A woman’s ideal is the man she is in love
-with for the time being.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went up to her room, and for the first time in
-her life critically examined herself in the mirror. With
-May Peele and one or two beauties of the High School
-in mind, she decided with a sigh that <span class='it'>she</span> was no
-beauty.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But who knows,” she thought with true insight,
-“what I’d be with clothes? Who could be pretty in a
-calico dress? My nose is as straight as May’s, anyhow,
-and my upper lip as short. But to be a real beauty
-you’ve got to have blue eyes and golden or chestnut
-hair and a little mouth, or else black eyes and hair like
-Rosita’s. My eyes are only grey, and my hair’s the
-colour of ashes, as Rosita once remarked. There’s no
-getting over that, although it certainly has grown a lot
-since I came here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then she remembered that Rosita had once decorated
-her with red ribbons and assured her that they
-were becoming. She ran down to the best spare room,
-and, divesting a tidy of its scarlet bows, pinned them
-upon herself before the mirror, which she discovered
-was more becoming than her own. The brilliant colour
-was undoubtedly improving—“And, my goodness!”
-she exclaimed suddenly, “I do believe I haven’t
-got a freckle left. It must be the climate.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What on earth are you doing?” said an abrupt
-voice from the doorway.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience started guiltily, and restored the bows to the
-tidy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you see,” she stammered, “May is so pretty
-I wanted to see if I could be a little less homely.”
-Patience was truthful by nature, but the woman does
-not live that will not lie under purely feminine provocation.
-Otherwise she would not be worthy to bear the
-hallowed name of woman.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nonsense,” said Miss Tremont, crossly, “I
-thought you were above that kind of foolishness. You,
-must remember that you are as the Lord made you,
-and be thankful that you were not born a negro or a
-Chinaman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am,” said Patience.</p>
-
-<h2>XI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Thereafter, Patience roamed the woods munching
-chestnuts and dreaming of Beverly Peele. Hugo and
-Balzac and Goethe were neglected. Her brain wove
-thrilling romances of its own, especially in the night to
-the sound of rain. She never emerged from the woods
-without a shortening of the breath; but even Hal did
-not pay the promised call; nor did Beverly dash
-through the streets in a pink coat, a charger clasped
-between his knees.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it’s fun to be in love, anyhow,” she thought.
-“I’ll meet him some time, I know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Much to her regret she was not permitted to go to
-New York to see Rosita off. Miss Tremont had a
-morbid horror of the stage, and after Patience’s exhibition
-of vanity was convinced that “actress creatures”
-would exert a pernicious influence.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And, shortly after, Patience received news which
-made her forget Rosita and even Beverly Peele for a
-while. Mr. Foord was dead. Patience had hoarded
-his twenty dollar gold piece because he had given it to
-her. She bought a black hat and frock with it, and
-felt as sad as she could at that age of shifting impressions.
-A later mail brought word that he had left her
-John Sparhawk’s library, which could stay in the Custom
-House until she was able to send for it, and a few hundred
-dollars which would remain in a savings bank until
-she was eighteen. He had nothing else to leave
-except his books, which went to found a town library.
-All but those few hundreds had been sunken in an annuity.
-Miss Tremont was quite content to be overlooked
-in the girl’s favour.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>By the time Patience was ready to return to Beverly
-Peele the new term opened, and the uncompromising
-methods of the High School left no time for romance.
-Once more her ambition to excel became paramount,
-and she studied night and day. She had no temptation
-to dissipate, for she was not popular with the young
-people of Mariaville. The Y’s disapproved of her because
-she would not don the white ribbon; and the
-church girls, generally, felt that except when perfunctorily
-assisting Miss Tremont she held herself aloof,
-even at the frequent sociables. And they were scandalised
-because she did not join the church, nor the
-King’s Daughters, nor the Christian Endeavor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The High School scholars liked her because she was
-“square,” and cordially admired her cleverness; but
-there were no recesses in the ordinary sense, and after
-school Miss Tremont claimed her. Even the boys
-“had no show,” as they phrased it. Occasionally they
-lent her a hand on the ice; but like all Californians,
-she bitterly felt the cold of her second winter, and in
-her few leisure hours preferred the fire.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Sometimes she looked at Beverly Peele’s picture
-with a sigh and some resentment. “But never mind,”
-she would think philosophically, “I can fall in love
-with him over again next summer.” When vacation
-came she did in a measure take up the broken threads
-of her romance, but they had somewhat rotted from
-disuse.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita wrote every few weeks, reporting hard work
-and unbounded hope. “The <span class='it'>dueña</span>,” as she called
-her companion, “was an old devil,” and never let her
-go out alone, nor receive a man; but she “didn’t
-care,” she had no time for nonsense, anyhow. She
-was learning her part in the Spanish opera, which had
-been written for her, and it was “lovely.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It must be a delightful sensation to have your
-future assured at seventeen,” thought Patience.
-“Mine is as problematical as the outcome of the Temperance
-cause. I have had one unexpected change,
-and may have more. If it were not for Rosita’s letters
-I should almost forget those sixteen years in California.
-I certainly am not the same person. I haven’t lost
-my temper for a year and a half, and I don’t seem to
-be disturbed any more by vague yearnings. Life is too
-practical, I suppose.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont did not visit the Gardiner Peeles this
-summer: they spent the season in travel. Late in the
-fall Rosita returned to America. She wrote the day
-before she sailed. That was the last letter Patience received
-from her. Later she sent a large envelope full
-of clippings descriptive of her triumphal début; thereafter
-nothing whatever. Patience, supposing herself
-forgotten, anathematised her old friend wrathfully, but
-pride forbade her to write and demand an explanation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She noticed with spasms of terror that Miss Tremont
-was failing. The rush and worry of a lifetime had
-worn the blood white, and the nerve-force down like an
-old wharf pile. But Miss Tremont would not admit
-that she had lost an ounce of strength. She arose at
-the same hour and toiled until late. When Patience
-begged her to take care of herself, she became almost
-querulous, and all Patience could do was to anticipate
-her in every possible way. But when school reopened
-she had little time for anything but study. She was
-to finish in June, and the last year’s course was very
-difficult.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She graduated with flying colours, and Miss Tremont
-was so proud and excited that she took a day’s vacation.
-A week later Patience hinted that she thought
-she should be earning her own living; but Miss Tremont
-would not even discuss the subject. She fell into a
-rage every time it was broached, and Patience, who
-would have rebelled, had Miss Tremont been younger
-and stronger, submitted: she knew it would not be for
-long.</p>
-
-<h2>XII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was languid all summer, and lay about in
-the woods, when she could, reading little and thinking
-much. Her school books put away forever, she felt
-for the first time that she was a woman, but did not
-take as much interest in herself as she had thought she
-should. She speculated a good deal upon her future
-career as a newspaper woman, and expended two cents
-every morning upon the New York “Day.” But she
-forgot to study it in the new interest it created: she had
-just the order of mind to succumb to the fascination of
-the newspaper, and she read the “Day’s” report of current
-history with a keener pleasure than even the great
-records of the past had induced. She longed for a
-companion with whom to talk over the significant tendencies
-of the age, and gazed upon Beverly Peele’s
-dome-like brow with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Once, in the Sunday issue, she came upon a column
-and a half devoted to Rosita, “The Sweetheart of
-the Public,” “The Princess Royal of Opera Bouffe.”
-The description of the young prima donna’s home
-life, personal characteristics, and footlight triumphs,
-was further embellished by a painfully <span class='it'>décolleté</span> portrait,
-a lace night gown, a pair of wonderfully embroidered
-stockings, and a rosary.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience read the article twice, wondering why fame
-realised looked so different from the abstract quality
-of her imagination.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Somehow it seems a sort of tin halo,” she thought.
-Then her thoughts drifted back to Monterey, and recalled
-it with startling vividness. “Still even if I
-haven’t forgotten it, it is like the memory of another
-life. Its only lasting effect has been to make me
-hate what is coarse and sinful; and dear auntie, even
-if she hasn’t converted me, has developed all my
-good.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder if Rosita has been in love, and if that
-is the reason she has forgotten me. But she hasn’t
-married, so perhaps it’s only adulation that has driven
-everything else out of her head.” And then with her
-eyes on the river, which under the heavy sky looked
-like a stream of wrinkling lead from which a coating of
-silver had worn off in places, she fell to dreaming of
-Beverly Peele and an ideal existence in which they
-travelled and read and assured each other of respectful
-and rarefied affection.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Early in the winter the influenza descended upon
-America. Mr. Peele, his wife wrote, was one of the
-first victims, and the entire family took him to Florida.
-One night, a month later, Miss Tremont returned from
-Hog Heights and staggered through her door.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,” she moaned, as Patience rushed forward
-and caught her in her arms, “I feel so strangely.
-I have pains all over me, and the queerest feeling
-in my knees.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s the grippe,” said Patience, who had read its
-history in the “Day.” She put Miss Tremont to bed,
-and sent for the doctor. The old lady was too weak
-to protest, and swallowed the medicines submissively.
-She recovered in due course, and one day slipped out
-and plodded through the snow to Hog Heights. She
-was brought home unconscious, and that night was
-gasping with pneumonia.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was no lack of nurses. Miss Beale and Mrs.
-Watt, who had helped to care for her during the less
-serious attack, returned at once, and many others
-called at intervals during the day and night.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sat constantly by the bed, staring at the
-face so soon to be covered from all sight. She wanted
-to cry and scream, but could not. Her heart was like
-lead in her breast.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At one o’clock on the second night, she and Miss
-Beale were alone in the sick room. Mrs. Watt was
-walking softly up and down the hall without.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Tremont was breathing irregularly, and Patience
-bent over her with white face. Miss Beale began to sob.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is it not terrible, terrible,” she ejaculated, “that
-she should die like this, she whose deathbed should
-have been so beautiful,—unconscious, drugged—morphine,
-which is as accursed as whisky—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am glad of it. It would be more horrible to see
-her suffer.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t want to see her suffer—dear, dear Miss
-Tremont. But she should have died in the full knowledge
-that she was going to God. Oh! Oh!” she
-burst out afresh. “How I envy her! It’s my only,
-only sin, but I can’t help envying those who are going
-to heaven. I can’t wait. I do so want to see the
-beautiful green pastures and the still waters—and oh,
-how I want to talk with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience flung her head into her lap and burst into
-a fit of laughter.</p>
-
-<h2>XIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An hour later she went downstairs and turned up
-all the lights. Mrs. Watt had gone to the next house
-to telephone for the undertakers. When she returned
-she went upstairs to Miss Beale. Patience could hear
-the two women praying. That was the only sound in
-the terrible stillness. She paced up and down, wringing
-her hands and gasping occasionally. Her sense of
-desolation was appalling, although as yet she but half
-realised her bereavement.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly she heard the sound of runners on the
-crisp snow. They stopped before the gate. She ran
-shuddering to the window. The moon flooded the
-white earth. Two tall black shadows came down the
-path. They trod as if on velvet. Even on the steps
-and porch they made no sound. They knocked as
-death may knock on a human soul, lightly, meaningly.
-Patience dragged herself to the door and opened it.
-The long narrow black men entered and bent their
-heads solemnly. Patience raised her shaking hand,
-and pointed to the floor above. The men of death
-bowed again, and stole upward like black ghosts. In a
-few moments they stole down again and out and away.
-Patience rushed frantically through the rooms to the
-kitchen, where she fell upon Ellen, dozing by the fire,
-and screamed and laughed until the terrified woman
-flung a pitcher of water on her, then carried her upstairs
-and put her to bed.</p>
-
-<h2>XIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A week later Patience wandered restlessly about the
-lonely house. The hundreds of people that had
-thronged it had gone at last, even Miss Beale and
-Mrs. Watt.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had cried until she had no tears left, and
-rebelled until reason would hear no more. Her nerves
-felt blunt and worn down.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Yesterday Miss Tremont’s lawyer had told her that
-after a few unimportant bequests she was to have the
-income of the dead woman’s small estate until she
-married, after which she would have nothing and the
-Temperance cause all. She was therefore exempt from
-the pettiest and severest of life’s trials. Miss Tremont
-had also left a letter, begging her to devote herself to
-a life of charity and reform. But Patience had at last
-revolted. She realised how empty had been her part,
-how torrential the impulsion of Miss Tremont.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The great world outside of Mariaville pressed upon
-her imagination, gigantic, rainbow-hued, alluring. It
-beckoned with a thousand fingers, and all her complex
-being responded. She longed for a talent with which to
-add to its beauty, and thought no ill of it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had sat up half the night thinking, and this
-morning she felt doubly restless and lonely. She
-wanted to go away at once, but as yet she had made
-no plans; and plans were necessary. She was too
-tired to go to Mr. Field and apply for work; and she
-knew that her delicate appearance would not commend
-itself to his approval. She went to the mirror in the
-best spare bedroom and regarded herself anxiously.
-Her black-robed figure seemed very tall and thin, her
-face white and sharp.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Even red bows—” she began; then her memory
-tossed up Rosita. “Oh,” she thought, “if I could
-only see her,—see some one I care a little for. I
-believe I’ll go—there may have been some reason—her
-letters may have miscarried—I must see
-somebody.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She ran upstairs, put on her outing things, and
-walked rapidly to the station. The sharp air electrified
-her blood. The world was full of youth and hope
-once more. She forgot her bereavement for the hour.
-She hoped Rosita would ask her to visit her: the
-popular young prima donna must have drawn many
-brilliant people about her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she reached New York she inquired her way
-to “Soper’s Opera House,” obtained Rosita’s address,
-and took the elevated train up town. She found the
-great apartment house with little difficulty, and was
-enraptured with its marble floors and pillars, its liveried
-servants and luxurious elevator.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I certainly had rich ancestors,” she thought, “and
-I am sure they were swells. I have a natural affinity
-for all this sort of thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was landed at the very top of the house. The
-elevator boy directed her attention to a button, then
-slid down and out of sight, leaving Patience with the
-delightful sensation of having stepped upon a new
-stratum, high and away from the vast terrestrial cellar.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A trim French maid opened the door. She stared
-at Patience, and looked disinclined to admit her. But
-Patience pushed the door back with determined hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish to see La Rosita,” she said in French.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But madame is not receiving to-day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She will see me, I am sure. Tell her that Miss
-Sparhawk is here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The woman admitted her reluctantly, and left her
-standing in an anteroom, passing between heavy
-portières. Patience followed, and entered a large
-drawing-room furnished with amber satin and ebony:
-a magnificent room, heavy with the perfume of great
-baskets of flowers, and filled with costly articles of
-decoration. The carpet was of amber velvet. Not a
-sound of street penetrated the heavy satin curtains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An indefinable sensation stole over Patience’s
-mind, a ghost whose lineaments were blurred, yet
-familiar. She felt an impulse to turn and run, then
-twitched her shoulders impatiently, and approaching
-other portières, parted them and glanced into the
-room beyond.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was evidently a boudoir, a fragrant fairy-like
-thing of rose and lace.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In a deep chair, clad in a <span class='it'>robe de chambre</span> of rose-coloured
-silk, flowing open over a lace smock and petticoat,
-lay Rosita. Her dense black hair was twisted
-carelessly on top of her head and confined with a
-jewelled dagger. One tiny foot, shod in a high-heeled
-slipper of rose-coloured silk, was conspicuous on a low
-<span class='it'>pouf</span>. The flush of youth was in her cheek, its scarlet
-in her mouth. The large white lids lay heavily on the
-languorous eyes. In one hand she held a pink cigarette
-in a jewelled holder. She spoke in a low tantalising
-voice to a man who sat before her, leaning eagerly
-forward.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The maid had evidently not succeeded in gaining
-her attention. Patience, conquering another impulse
-to run, pushed the hangings aside and entered. Rosita
-sprang to her feet, the blood flashing to her hair; but
-her eyes expanded with pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita! Patita!” she stammered, then caught Patience
-in her arms. As both girls looked as if about
-to weep, the man hurriedly departed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girls hugged each other as of old; then Rosita
-divested Patience of her wraps and told the astonished
-maid to take them out of sight.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now that you are here, you shall stay,” she
-said, “stay a long, long while. Have you had luncheon?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No—but I’m not—yes, I am, though, come to
-think of it. Get me something to eat. Rosita, how
-good it is to see you again! Why, why didn’t you
-write to me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“O—h; I will tell you, perhaps; but you must
-have luncheon first. I take a late breakfast, just after
-rising, so it will be a few minutes before yours is ready.”
-She rang a bell and gave an order to the maid, then
-pushed Patience into the deepest and softest chair in
-the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now,” she said, smiling affectionately, “lie back
-and be comfortable; you look tired. Oh, Patita, I am
-so glad to see you. Isn’t it like old times?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>With a grace which long practice had made a fine
-art, she sank upon one end of a divan, and back among
-a mass of cushions. Her white arms lay along the
-pillows in such careless wise as to best exhibit their
-perfection; her head dropped backward slightly, revealing
-the round throat. The attitude was so natural
-as to suggest that she had ceased to pose.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stared at her, wondering if it could be the
-same Rosita. All the freshness of youth was in that
-beautiful face and round voluptuous form, but she
-looked years and years and years older than the Rosita
-of Monterey. Patience suddenly felt young and foolish
-and green. The world that had been so great and
-wonderful to her imagination seemed to have shrunken
-to a ball, to be tossed from one to the other of those
-white idle hands.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What has changed you so?” she asked abruptly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita gave the low delicious laugh of which Patience
-had read in the New York “Day.” She relit her cigarette
-and blew a soft cloud.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I will tell you after luncheon. You are the only
-person I would never fib to. I believe those grey eyes
-of yours are the only honest eyes in the world. Why
-are you in black?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience told her, and was drawn on to speak of
-herself and her life. Rosita shuddered once or twice,
-an adorable little French shudder, and cast upward her
-glittering hands, whose nails Patience admired even
-more than their jewels.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Dios de mi alma!</span>” she cried finally. “What an
-existence!—I cannot call it life. I should have jumped
-into the river. That life would drive me mad, and I
-do not believe that it suits you either.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She spoke with a Spanish accent, and with the affected
-precision of a foreigner that has carefully learned the
-English language. Her monotony of inflection was
-more effective than animation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, it doesn’t,” said Patience, “and I have no
-intention of pursuing it. I’m going to be a newspaper
-woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita gave forth a sound that from any other throat
-would have been a shriek.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A newspaper woman! And then you will come
-and interview me. How droll! I shall have to become
-eccentric, so that I can furnish you with ‘stories,’ as
-they call them. I have been pumped dry. When the
-newspaper women have run out of everything else they
-come to me, and they love me because I am good-natured,
-and turn my things upside down for them. I
-never refuse to see them, so they have never written
-anything horrid about me. Oh, I can tell you I have
-learned a great many lessons since I left Monterey.
-But here is your luncheon. While you are eating it I
-will do something for you that I have never done for
-any one else off the stage: I will sing to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The maid placed a silver tray on a little table, and
-while Patience ate of creamed oysters and broiled partridge,
-Rosita sang as the larks of paradise may sing when
-angels awake with the dawn. Once Patience glanced
-hastily upward, half expecting to see the notes falling in
-a golden shower. When she expressed her admiration,
-Rosita’s red lips smiled slowly away from the white
-sharp little teeth.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you like it, Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>?” she asked with bewitching
-graciousness. “Yes, I can sing. I have the
-world at my feet.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She resumed her languid attitude on the divan.
-“<span class='it'>Bueno</span>,” she said, “now I am going to tell you all
-about it. People are always a little heavy after eating;
-I waited on purpose. But you must promise not to
-move until I get through. Will you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” said Patience, uncomfortably. “I hope it is
-nothing very dreadful.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That all depends upon the way you look at things.
-It will seem odd to tell it to you. You used to be the
-one to do what you felt like and tell other people that
-if they did not like it they could do the other thing;
-but I suppose you are W. C. T. U’d.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I’m not. Go on.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I will.” She paused and laughed lightly.
-“Funny world. We do not usually tell this sort of
-story to a woman, but you and I are different. <span class='it'>Bueno.</span></p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I went to Paris and studied hard. Yes, I am lazy
-yet, but I had made up my mind to be a great, great,
-great success. I had what in insane people is called
-the fixed idea, and the American in me conquered the
-Spanish. Everybody praised my voice. No one said
-it was the greatest voice in the world, nor even better
-than two or three others over there; but I had no discouragement.
-I attracted a great deal of attention
-from men, but the <span class='it'>dueña</span> never let them get a word
-with me, and I did not care. I used to wonder at the
-stories told about some of the other girls, and did not
-half understand. Two sold themselves; but why? with
-a fortune in one’s throat. Others fell in love, and
-talked about the temperament of the artist, but I could
-not understand that nonsense either.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Bueno</span>, at the end of the time Soper came over
-and bought me eight trunks full of the most beautiful
-clothes you ever saw,—mostly for the stage, but lots
-for the house and street. He said I was a first-class
-investment, and worth the outlay. When he heard me
-sing he shook all over. I ought to tell you that I had
-been kept on short allowance, and had had very dowdy
-clothes, which broke my heart.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Bueno</span>, we came home. On the steamer, Soper
-treated me like a father, but never let me talk to a
-man. Either he or the <span class='it'>dueña</span> was at my heels all the
-time. He is a coarse-looking man, but I really liked
-him because he had been so good to me, and there
-was something very attractive about him. When we
-reached New York the <span class='it'>dueña</span> left us. She said she
-was going straight to Philadelphia to her home. Soper
-and I got in another cab and drove to an apartment
-on Broadway. I did not know until the next day that
-it was his apartment. That was in the evening. The
-next morning, while I was at a late breakfast, he sent
-me a note, saying that he would call in an hour and have
-a business talk with me. I was practising my scales
-when he came in, and he clapped his hands and offered
-me a chair. He drew one up for himself, and then
-said in a perfectly business-like voice:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“‘When I ran across you I knew that you only
-needed training to become a queen of opera bouffe, and
-to make a fortune for some one besides yourself. I
-also saw that you were going to become a beautiful
-woman. I made up my mind that I would own both
-the woman and the artist. Don’t look like a little
-tigress—still, I’m glad you can look that way,—you
-may be able to do Carmen yet. Don’t misunderstand
-me. I am not a villain, merely a practical man with
-an eye to beauty. I have no idea of letting you get
-under the influence of any other man,—not even if
-you weren’t so pretty. Let me console you by telling
-you that for the sort of woman you are there is no
-escape. You were made to drive men mad, and for the
-comic opera stage. That sort of combination might as
-well get down to business as early in the game as possible:
-it saves time.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“‘Had I never discovered you, you would have
-drifted from company to company, gone the pace with
-nothing to show for it, and worn out your youth at
-one-night stands. I saved you from a terrible fate.
-You know the rest. You know what you owe me.
-You have developed even beyond my hopes, but—mark
-you this—I have not advertised you in any way.
-You are as unknown as on the day you left California.
-If you mount the high horse and say: ”Sir, you are
-a villain. Go to, go to!“ I shall merely turn you
-loose without your trunks. You may imagine that with
-your voice and beauty you could get an engagement
-anywhere. So you could—without advertising, without
-an opera, and without a theatre of your own.
-Every existing troupe has its own prima donna; you
-would have to take a second or third rate part,—and
-unquestionably in a travelling troupe. There is no
-place for you in New York but the one I propose to
-create. Lillian Russell practically owns the Casino,
-and will, unless all signs fail, for many years. She
-would not tolerate you on the same stage five minutes;
-neither would any prima donna who had any influence
-with her manager,—and they mostly have. Your
-career would be exactly what it would have been if I
-had not met you,—full of hardships and change and
-racing about the country; arriving at six in the evening,
-singing at eight, leave the next morning at four,
-get what sleep you could on the train. That’s about
-the size of it. You’d be painting inside of a year, if
-not wearing plumpers. And what you’re mad at now,
-you’d be looking upon as a matter of course then, and
-grateful for the admiration.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“‘Moreover, no success is worth a tinker’s dam that
-ain’t made in New York,—I think I wrote you that
-on an average of once a month. If you show that you
-have horse sense, and will sign a contract with me for
-five years, I’ll make you the rage in New York inside
-of two months. Now it is success or failure: you can
-take your choice. I’ll be here to-morrow at ten.’
-And he was gone before I could speak.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Bueno</span>, after I had gotten over being fearfully
-mad I sat down and thought it all over. I knew that
-all he said was true. I had heard too much in Paris.
-He had kept writing me that virtue paid in an actress
-to keep me straight, but I had heard the opposite
-about nine hundred times. <span class='it'>Bueno</span>, I was in a trap.
-I had made up my mind to succeed. I had even
-worked for it,—and you know how much that meant
-with me. I made up my mind that succeed I would,
-no matter what the price. It is one of two things
-in this world,—success or failure,—and if you fail
-nobody cares a hang about your virtue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know I never was sentimental nor romantic.
-Soper had made a plain business proposition in a practical
-way that I liked. If he had gone on like a stage
-lover it would have been much harder. And after all
-I would be no worse than a society girl who sells herself
-to a rich husband. So, after turning it over for
-twenty-four hours—or all the time I was awake—I
-concluded not to be a fool, but La Rosita, Queen of
-Opera Bouffe. When he called I merely shrugged my
-shoulders and said ‘<span class='it'>Bueno</span>.’ He laughed, and said I
-would certainly succeed in this world; that the beautiful
-woman with the cool calculating brain always got
-there. So—here I am. What do you think of it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>During this recital her voice had not for one instant
-broken nor hardened. She told her story in the soft
-sweet languid voice of Spain; she might have been relating
-an idyl of which she was the Juliet and Soper the
-Romeo.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stared at her with wide eyes and dry lips.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you have never regretted it?” she asked;
-“you don’t care?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita raised her beautiful brows. “Regret? Well,
-no, I should say not. Have I not realised my dreams
-and ambition? Am I not rich and famous and happy
-instead of a scrambling nobody? Regret?—No—rather.
-What is more, I know how to save. A good
-many of us have learned that lesson. When I have
-lost voice and youth I shall be rich,—rich. We do
-not end in a garret, like in the old days. And I do
-not drink, and I rest a great deal—it will be a long
-time before I go off. Besides, there are the beauty
-doctors—Oh, no, I am not regretting. And Soper is
-getting tired of me, I am happy to say.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience rose and went into the room where the
-maid had carried her hat and jacket. It was a bedroom,
-a white nest of lace and velvet. When she returned
-she said: “I should like to go home and think
-it over. I feel queer and stunned. You have taken me
-so completely by surprise that I can hardly think.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita coloured angrily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are shocked, I suppose,” she said with a
-sneer. “I should think—” She paused abruptly.
-She was still an amiable little soul.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience understood perfectly, and turned a shade
-paler. “I told you that I did not understand how I
-felt. In fact, I hardly ever know just how I feel about
-anything. I suppose it is because I have the sort of
-mind that is made to analyse, and I haven’t had experience
-enough to know how. And I never judge any one.
-Why should I? Why should we judge anybody? We
-are not all made alike. I couldn’t do what you have
-done, but that is no reason why I should condemn you.
-That would be absurd. If any one else had told me
-this story I should only have been interested—I am so
-curious about everything. But you see you are the only
-girl friend I ever had, and that is what makes me feel
-so strangely. Good-bye;” and she hurriedly left the
-room.</p>
-
-<h2>XV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she reached home she forgot her horror of
-death chambers, and went to Miss Tremont’s room and
-flung herself on the bed. She did not cry—her tears
-had all been spent; but she felt something of the profound
-misery of the last year in Monterey. During the
-intervening years she had seen little of the cloven hoof
-of human nature; the occasional sin over on Hog
-Heights hardly counted; creatures of the lower conditions
-had no high lights to make the shadows startling.
-But to-day the horror of old experiences rushed
-over her; she was filled with a profound loathing of
-life, of human nature.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>So far, of love, in its higher sense—if it possessed
-such a part—she had seen nothing; of sensuality, too
-much. True, she had spent two weeks with Miss Galpin,
-during that estimable young woman’s engagement;
-but Miss Galpin took love as a sort of front-parlour,
-evening-dress affair, and Patience had not deigned to
-be interested. She had speculated somewhat over Miss
-Tremont’s early romance, but could only conclude that
-it was one of those undeveloped little histories that so
-many old maids cherish.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She recalled all the love stories she had read. Even
-the masters were insipid when they attempted to portray
-spiritual love. It was only when they got down to
-the congenial substratum of passion that they wrote of
-love with colour and fire. Was she to believe that it did
-not exist,—this union of soul and mind? Her dreams
-receded, and refused to cohere. She wondered, with
-natural egoism, if any girl of her age had ever received
-so many shocks. She was on the threshold
-of life, with a mass of gross material out of which to
-shape her mental attitude to existing things. True, she
-had met only women of relative sinlessness during these
-last years, but their purity was uninteresting because
-it was that of people mentally limited, and possessed of
-the fad of the unintellectual. Moreover, they had their
-erotism, the oddest, most unreal, and harmless erotism
-the world has known in the last two thousand years;
-and after all quite incidental: her keen eyes had long
-since observed that the old maids were far more religious
-than the married women, that the girls cooled
-perceptibly to the great abstraction as soon as a concrete
-candidate was approved.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She longed passionately for Miss Tremont. All her
-old restlessness and doubt had returned with the flight
-of that ardent absorbing personality. She wished that
-she could have been remodelled; for, after all, the dear
-old lady, whatever her delusions, had been happy.
-But she was still Patience Sparhawk; she could only
-be thankful that Miss Tremont had cemented her hatred
-of evil.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She rose abruptly, worn out by conjectures and
-analysis that led nowhere, and went out into the woods.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,” she said, lifting her arms, “this at least is
-beautiful.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The ground was hard and white and sparkling. The
-trees were crystal, down to the tiniest twig. They
-glittered iridescently under the level rays of the sun
-descending upon the Palisades on the far side of the
-Hudson. The river was grey under great floating
-blocks of ice. Groves of slender trees in the hollows
-of the Palisades looked like fine bunches of feathers.
-On the long slopes the white snow lay deep; above,
-the dark steeps were merely powdered, here and there;
-on the high crest the woods looked black.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She walked rapidly up and down, calmed, as of old,
-by the beauty of nature, but dreading the morrow and
-the recurring to-morrows. Suddenly through those
-glittering aisles pealed the rich sonorous music of the
-organ. The keys were under the hands of a master,
-and the great notes throbbed and swelled and rolled
-through the winter stillness in the divine harmonies of
-“The Messiah.” Patience stood still, shaking a little.
-On a hill above the wood a large house had been built
-recently; the organ must be there.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The diamond radiance of the woods was living
-melody. The very trees looked to bow their crystal
-heads. The great waves of harmony seemed rolling
-down from an infinite height, down from some cathedral
-of light and stars.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The ugly impressions of the day vanished. The
-sweet intangible longing she had been used to know in
-Carmel tower flashed back to her. What was it? She
-recalled the words of the Stranger. It was long since
-she had thought of him. She closed her eyes and
-stood with him in the tower. His voice was as distinct
-as the notes of the organ. She felt again the tumult of
-her young half-comprehending mind. Was not life all
-a matter of ideals? Were not the bad and the good
-happy only if consistent to a fixed idea? Did she
-make of herself such a woman as the Stranger had
-evoked out of the great mass of small feminity, could
-she not be supremely happy with such a man? Where
-was he? Was he married? He seemed so close—it
-was incredible that he existed for another woman.
-Who more surely than she could realise the purest
-ideal of her imaginings,—she with her black experience
-and hatred of all that was coarse and evil? She
-closed her eyes to her womanhood no longer. It
-thrilled and shook her. If he would come—She
-trembled a little.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>All men were henceforth possible lovers. Unless the
-Stranger appeared speedily his memory must give way
-to the definite. The imperious demands of a woman’s
-nature cannot be satisfied with abstractions. The ideal
-which he stood for would lend a measure of itself to
-each engaging man with whom she exchanged greeting.</p>
-
-<h2>XVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Miss Patience!” cried a strident voice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience turned with a violent start. Ellen was a
-large blotch on the white beauty of the wood.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There’s a young lady to see you. She didn’t give
-her name as I remember.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience followed the servant resentfully. The world
-was cold and dull again. But when she recognised the
-Peele coachman and footman on the handsome sleigh
-before the door she forgot her dreams, and went eagerly
-into the house.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A girl was standing before the mantel, regarding
-through a lorgnette a row of photographs. She turned
-as she heard footsteps, and came forward with a cordial
-smile on her plain charming face. She wore a black
-cloth frock and turban which made Patience feel dowdy
-as Rosita’s magnificence had not.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am Hal,” she said, “and you are Patience, of
-course. I hope you have heard as much of me as I
-have of you. Dear old girl, I was awfully fond of her.
-You look so tired—are you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A little. It is so good of you to come. Yes, I’ve
-heard a very great deal of you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll sit down, thank you. Let’s try this sofa. I’ve
-already tried the chairs, and they’re awful. But I suppose
-dear old Harriet never sat down at all. I wonder
-if she’ll be happy in heaven with nothing to do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience smiled sympathetically. “She ought to be
-glad of a rest, but I don’t believe she is.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She thought we were all heathens—dear old soul;
-but I did love her. What was the trouble? We only
-had one short letter from Miss Beale. Do tell me all
-about it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Peele had an air of reposeful alertness. She
-leaned forward slightly, her eyes fixed on Patience’s
-with flattering attention. She looked a youthful worldling,
-a captivating type to a country girl. Her voice
-was very sweet, and exquisitely modulated. Occasionally
-it went down into a minor key.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What shall you do with yourself, now?” she asked
-anxiously, when Patience had finished the brief story.
-“I am so interested in you. I don’t know why I
-haven’t called before, except that I never find time to
-do the things I most care for; but I have wanted to
-come a dozen times, and when we returned yesterday
-and heard of the dear old girl’s death I made up my
-mind to come at once. And I’m coming often. I
-know we shall be such good friends. I’m so glad she
-left you her money so you won’t have to work. It
-must be so horrid to work. I’m going to ask mamma
-to ask you to visit us. She’s feeling rather soft now
-over Cousin Harriet’s death, so I’ll strike before she
-gets the icebergs on. She isn’t pleasant then. I’ll
-tell her you don’t wear the white ribbon yet—” She
-broke into a light peal of laughter. “Poor mamma!
-how she used to suffer. Cousin Harriet’s white bow was
-the great cross of her life. It will go far toward reconciling
-her—Don’t think that my parent is heartless.
-She merely insists upon everything belonging to her to
-be <span class='it'>sans reproche</span>. That’s the reason we don’t always
-get along. What lovely hair you have—a real <span class='it'>blonde
-cendrée</span>. It’s all the rage in Paris. And that great coil
-is beautiful. Tell me, didn’t you find that Temperance
-work a hideous bore?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, but no one could resist Miss Tremont.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed one couldn’t. I believe she’d have roped
-me in if I’d lived with her; but I’m a frivolous
-good-for-nothing thing. You look so serious. Do you
-always feel that way?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience smiled broadly. “Oh, no. I often feel
-that I would be very frivolous indeed if circumstances
-would permit. It must be very interesting.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You get tired of yourself sometimes—I mean I do.
-Are you very religious?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am not religious at all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, how awfully jolly. I do the regulation business,
-but it is really tragic to carry so much religion
-round all the time. I wonder how Cousin Harriet and
-the Lord hit it off, or if they liked each other better
-at a distance? I corresponded once with the brother
-of a school friend for a year, and when I met him I
-couldn’t endure him. Those things are very trying.
-I am going to call you Patience. May I? And if ever
-you call me Miss Peele you’ll be sorry. How awfully
-smart you’d look in gowns. My colouring is so commonplace.
-If I didn’t know how to dress, and hadn’t
-been taught to carry myself with an air, I’d be just
-nothing—no more and no less. But you have such a
-lovely nose and white skin—and that hair! You are
-aristocratic looking without being swagger. I’m the
-other way. You can acquire the one, but you can’t the
-other. When you have both you’ll be out of sight.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What fun it would be,” she rambled on in her
-bright inconsequential way, “if Bev should fall in love
-with you and you’d marry him. Then I’d have such fun
-dressing you, and we’d get ahead of my cousin Honora
-Mairs, whom I hate, and who, I’m afraid, will get him.
-Propinquity and flattery will bring down any man—they’re
-such peacocks. But I’ll bring him to see you.
-You ought to have a violet velvet frock. I’d bet on
-Bev then. But, of course, you can’t wear colours yet,
-and that dead black is wonderfully becoming. Can I
-bring him up in a day or two?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes,” said Patience, smiling as she recalled her
-brief periods of spiritual matrimony with Beverly Peele;
-“by all means. I’ll be so glad to meet all of you. And
-you are certainly good to take so much interest in me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am the angel of the family. Well, I must be off,
-or I’ll have to dine all by me lonely. None of the
-rest of the family uses slang: that is the reason I do.
-May is a grown-up baby, and never disobeyed her
-mamma in her life. Honora is a classic, and only
-swears in the privacy of her closet when her schemes
-fail. Mother—well, you’ve seen mother. As you may
-imagine, she doesn’t use slang. Papa doesn’t talk
-at all, and Bev is a prig where decent women are concerned.
-So, you see, I have to let off steam somehow,
-and as I haven’t the courage to be larky, I read French
-novels and use bad words.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She rose and moved toward a heavy coat that lay on a
-chair. “Well, Patience—what a funny lovely old-fashioned
-name you have—I’m going to bring Bev to see
-you as a last resource. I’ve tried him on a dozen other
-girls, but it was no go. I’ll talk you up to him meanwhile—I’ll
-tell him that you are one of the cold haughty indifferent
-sort, and yet withal a village maiden. He admires
-blondes, and you’re such a natural one. We’ll
-come up Sunday on horseback. Now be sure to make
-him think you don’t care a hang whether he likes you
-or not—he’s been so run after. Isn’t it too funny? I
-did not come here on matchmaking thoughts intent, but
-I do like you, and we could have such jolly good fun
-together. I’ll teach you how to smoke cigarettes—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But Miss Peele—Hal—you know—I don’t want
-to marry your brother—I have never even seen him—much
-as I should like to live with you—I’d even
-smoke cigarettes to please you—but really—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I know, of course. I can only hope for the
-best, and Bev certainly is fascinating. At least he
-appears to be,” and she smiled oddly; “but being a
-man’s sister is much like being his valet, you know.
-Would you mind helping me into this coat?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hate these heavy fur things,” she said petulantly.
-“Oh, thanks—they don’t suit my light and airy architecture,
-and I can’t get up any dignity in them at all.
-I need fluffy graceful French things. You’d look
-superb in velvet and furs and all that sort of thing.
-Well, bye-bye,—no,—<span class='it'>au revoir</span>.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She took Patience’s face between her hands and
-lightly kissed her on either cheek.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t be lonesome,” she said. “I’d go frantic in
-this house. Can’t I send you some books? I’ve a lot
-of naughty French ones—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No!” said Patience, abruptly, “I don’t want
-them. Don’t think I’m a prig,” she added, hastily, as
-a look of apprehension crossed Miss Peele’s face; “but
-I had a hideous shock to-day, and I don’t want to read
-anything similar at present—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, tell me about it. How could you have a shock
-in Mariaville?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t. It was in New York—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, was it real wicked? Did you have an adventure?
-Do tell me—Well, don’t, of course, if you don’t
-want to, only I’m so interested in you. Well, I must,
-must go;” and despite the furs she moved down the
-walk with exceeding grace. As she drove off she
-leaned out of the sleigh and waved her hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh!” thought Patience, “I’m so glad she came.
-It was like fresh air after a corpse covered with sachet
-bags.” And then she went to the mantel and gazed
-upon Beverly Peele.</p>
-
-<h2>XVII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Sunday came Patience dressed herself with unusual
-care. It did not occur to her that people in
-different spheres of life arose at different hours, and
-she expected her guests any time after eight o’clock.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Of course she must wear unrelieved black, but after
-prolonged regard in the becoming mirror of the best
-spare room, she decided that it rather enhanced her
-charms, now that a week’s rest had banished the circles
-from her eyes and cleared her skin.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had coiled her soft ashen hair loosely on the top
-of her head, pulling it out a little about her face—she
-wore no bangs. Her restless eyes were dark and clear
-and sparkling, her mouth pink. She carried her slender
-figure with a free graceful poise. The carriage of
-her head was almost haughty. Her hips had a generous
-swell. Her hands and teeth were very white.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I certainly have a look of race,” she thought, “if
-I’m not a beauty. I’d give a good deal to know that
-my ancestors really did have good blood in their veins.
-I don’t care so much for money, but I’d like to be sure
-of that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After breakfast she wandered about restlessly. She
-had known few moments of peace since Miss Peele’s
-visit. The train had been fired, and her being was in a
-tumult. Beverly Peele, the Stranger, and the vague
-ideals of her earlier girlhood were inextricably mixed.
-The result was a being before whom she trembled with
-mingled rapture and terror. Her vivid imagination
-had evoked a distinct entity, and the love scenes that
-had been enacted between the girl and this wholly satisfactory
-eidolon were such as have time out of mind
-made life as it is seem a singularly defective composition
-to the wondering mind of woman.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At times she was terrified at the rich possibilities of
-her nature, so little suspected. The revelation gave
-her vivid comprehension of woman’s tremendous power
-for sacrifice and surrender, possibilities of which she
-had read with much curiosity, but little sympathy. For
-those women she felt a warm honour, a fierce desire to
-espouse their cause. For Rosita she had only loathing
-and contempt.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was not only passion that was awake. Sentiment,
-that finer child of the brain, and the sweet faint feeling
-which assuredly lingers about the region of the heart,
-whatever its physical cause may be, were there in full
-measure to lend their potent lashings to that primeval
-force which is as mighty in some women as in some
-men. It is doubtful if a woman ever loves a man when
-in his arms with the same exaltation of soul and passion
-which she feels for that creation of her brain that he
-little more than suggests, and that is only wholly hers
-when the man himself is absent. Imagination in
-woman is as arbitrary as desire in man, and she is
-beaten down and crushed by this imperious and capricious
-brain-imp so many times in her life that the
-wonder is she is not driven to the hopes and illusions of
-religion, or to humour, long before the skin has yellowed
-and the eye paled.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And when the imagination has full sway, when the
-man has not been beheld, when he has been invested
-with every quality dear to the heart of the generously
-endowed woman, when, indeed, all eidola blend, and
-she has a confused vision of an immense and mighty
-force bearing down upon her which shall sweep every
-tradition out of existence and annihilate the material
-world, then assuredly man himself would do well to
-retire into obscurity and curse his shortcomings.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was four o’clock, and she had been through the
-successive stages of hope, despair, hope, melancholia,
-hope, and resignation, before she heard the sharp clatter
-of hoofs on the road. She ran to the dining-room
-window, her heart thumping, and peered through the
-blind. They were coming! Hal sat her horse like a
-swaying reed, but the young man on the large chestnut
-rode in the agonised fashion of the day. He was of
-medium height, she saw, compactly and elegantly built,
-and the beauty of his face had defied the photographer’s
-art.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience ran to the kitchen and told Ellen to answer
-the bell immediately, then sat down by the stove to
-compose herself. She was still trembling, and wished
-to appear cold and stately, as Hal had recommended.
-When Ellen returned and announced the visitors, she
-sprang up, patted her hair, pulled down the bodice of
-her gown, and then, with what dignity she could muster,
-went forth to meet her fate. She did wish she had
-a train. It was so difficult to be stately in a skirt that
-cleared the ground.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she entered the parlour Mr. Peele was standing
-by the opposite door. His riding gear was very becoming.
-Patience noted swiftly that his eyes were a spotted
-brown and that his mouth pouted under the dark
-moustache.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal came forward with both hands extended. “We
-have come, you see,” she said, “and we had to make a
-wild break to do it—had a lot of company; but I
-was bound to come. Patience, this is Beverly. He’s
-quite frantic to meet you. It was all I could do to
-keep him away until to-day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The young man bowed in anything but a frantic
-manner, and stood gracefully until the girls were seated.
-Then he took a chair and caressed his moustache,
-regarding Patience attentively.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Would you mind if Bev smoked?” asked Hal.
-“He is just wild for a cigar. We had to ride so hard
-to keep warm that he didn’t have a chance, and he’s
-a slave to the weed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience glanced swiftly at the door, half-expecting
-to see the indignant wraith of Miss Tremont, then,
-almost reluctantly, gave the required permission. Mr.
-Peele promptly lit a cigar. Patience wondered if he
-would ever speak. Perhaps he did not think it worth
-his while. He looked very haughty.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We had a perfectly beautiful ride,” said Hal, in
-her plaintive voice. “I’d rather be on a horse than
-on an ocean steamer, and I do love to travel. You
-look ever so much better than you did, Patience. You
-must have needed a rest.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele removed his cigar. “Perhaps that was what
-she had been <span class='it'>im</span>patiently waiting for,” he remarked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stared at him. Her eyes expanded. Something
-seemed crumbling within her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Bev, you do make me so tired,” said his sister.
-“I tell him eighteen times a day that punning is the
-lowest form of wit, but he’s incorrigible. I suppose it’s
-in the blood, and I’m glad it broke out in him instead
-of in me. It is well to be philosophical in this
-life—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“When you can’t help yourself—” interrupted Mr.
-Peele, easily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience felt it incumbent upon her to make conversation,
-although her thoughts were dancing a jig.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have a beautiful horse,” she said to the young
-man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His eyes lit up with enthusiasm. “Isn’t she a
-beauty?” he exclaimed. “She’s taken two prizes
-and won a race. She’s the daughter—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience doesn’t know anything about horses,”
-interrupted Hal. “What does she care whose daughter
-Firefly is?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’m very much interested,” faltered Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you really?” cried Mr. Peele, with a smile so
-beautiful that Patience caught her breath. “I’ve got
-the rarest book in the country on horses—beautiful
-pictures—coloured—I’ll bring it up and explain it to
-you. Tell you a lot of stories about famous horses.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall be delighted.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you ride?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I used to ride a pony, but I haven’t been on a
-horse for so long I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s too bad. There’s nothing like it. Makes
-you feel so good. When I have dyspepsia I just jump
-on Firefly, and I’m all right in less than no time. I
-take a canter for dyspepsia—although I can’t—er—always
-feel at home that way. Ahem!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience wanted to tear her hair. It was with an
-effort that she kept her face from convulsing with disgust.
-She caught sight of the young man’s intellectual
-brow, and, without any premonitory consciousness,
-laughed aloud. Mr. Peele smiled back with the
-pleasure of appreciated wit, and resumed his cigar.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bev isn’t such a fool as he looks,” remarked Hal,
-airily. “Just have patience with him. We all have
-our little failings.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sat as if turned to clay. She could not
-talk. All her natural animation had deserted her. She
-wished they would go and leave her alone. But Hal
-pulled off her riding gloves, and made herself comfortable
-on the sofa. As she rattled on, Patience noticed
-how beautiful her nails were. She turned her own
-hands over so that the palms lay upward.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never mind,” said young Peele, in a low tone.
-“They’re much prettier.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What’s that?” cried Hal. “What are you blushing
-about, Patience? How lovely it is to blush like
-that. I’ve forgotten how—and I’m only twenty-two.
-There’s tragedy for you. It’s not that I’ve had so
-many compliments about my beauty, nor yet about my
-winning ways,—which are my strong point,—but I
-found so much to blush about when I was first launched
-upon this wicked world that I exhausted my capacity.
-And Bev always did tell such naughty stories—” She
-paused abruptly. “Dear me! perhaps I’ve made a
-bad break, and prejudiced you against my brother;
-and I want you to be good friends so that we can have
-jolly times together. Perhaps you have an ideal man—a
-sort of Sir Galahad. I haven’t sounded you yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sir Galahad is not my ideal,” said Patience,
-with the quick scorn of the woman who is born with
-intuitive knowledge of man. “I could not find anything
-interesting in an elongated male infant.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, how lovely!” cried Hal. “Give me the man
-of the world every time. I tell you, you appreciate the
-difference when you have to entertain ’em. And the
-elongated infant, as you put it, never understands a
-woman, and she has no use for that species whatever.
-He doesn’t even want to understand her, and a woman
-resents that as a personal insult. The bad ones hurt
-sometimes, but they’re interesting; and when you learn
-how to manage them it’s plain sailing enough. Mrs.
-Laurence Gibbs—a friend of mamma’s, awfully good,
-goes in for charity and all that sort of thing—said the
-other day that at the rate women were developing and
-advancing, the standard of men morally would have to
-be raised. But I said ‘Not much!’ that the development
-of woman meant that women were becoming
-more clever, not merely bright and intellectual, and
-that clever women would demand cleverness and fascination
-in man above all else; and that Sir Galahads
-were not that sort. It’s experience that makes a man
-interesting to us women,—they represent all we’d like
-to be and don’t dare. If they were like ourselves—if
-they didn’t excite our imaginations—we wouldn’t
-care a hang for them. Mrs. Gibbs was horrified, of
-course, and told me I didn’t know what I was talking
-about. But I said I guessed it was the other way.
-I’m not clever—not by a long sight,—and if I can’t
-stand a prig I know a clever woman can’t and won’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m so glad I’m not a prig,” murmured Mr.
-Peele.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’re a real devil. If you were clever now,
-you’d have to be shut up to protect society; but as it
-is, you just go on your good looks, so you’re not as
-dangerous as some.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She rattled on, not giving the others a chance for
-more than a stray remark. Patience, listening with deep
-curiosity to this new philosophy, became aware of an
-increasing desire to turn her eyes to the man that had
-so bitterly disappointed her. A direct potent force
-seemed to emanate from him. It was her first experience
-of man’s magnetism, but she knew that he possessed
-it to a remarkable degree. When he finally
-shot out an insignificant remark she felt, in the excuse
-it gave her to turn to him, a sensation of positive relief.
-He was leaning back in his chair, in the easy
-attitude of a man that has been too accustomed to
-luxury all his life to look uncomfortable in any circumstances.
-With his picturesque garb, his noble, beautiful
-face, his subtle air of elegance and distinction, he
-looked the ideal hero of girlhood’s dreams. Patience
-wondered what Nature had been about, then recalled
-the many tricks of that capricious dame made famous
-in history, the round innocent faces of the worst boys
-in the Loyal Legion class, the saintly physiognomy
-of a Mariaville minister who had recently fallen from
-grace.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Peele was watching her out of his half-closed eyes,
-and as she met them he smiled almost affectionately.
-Patience averted her head quickly, angry that she had
-felt an impulse to respond, and fixed her attention on
-Hal. “Dear old Cousin Harriet,” that young woman
-was remarking, “how I do wish that I were even
-sorrier than I am that she is dead. I try to think it’s
-because I saw so little of her; but I know it’s just
-because I’m so beastly selfish. I don’t care a hang
-for anything that doesn’t affect my own happiness—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’re not selfish,” interrupted Patience, indignantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, but I am,” said Miss Peele, with a comical
-little air of disgust which sat as gracefully upon her as
-all her varying moods and manners. “I get up thinking
-what I can get out of the day, and I go to bed glad
-or mad according to what the day has done for me. I
-don’t go in for Church work like Honora—dear
-Honora!—nor am I always doing some pretty little
-thing for people like May. I suppose you think I’m
-an angel because I came to see you. I assured myself
-at great length that it was my duty—but it was plain
-curiosity, no more nor less; and now I like you awfully,
-better than any woman I ever met—and I do so want
-you to come and visit us, but—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Couldn’t you come and stay with me?” asked
-Patience, hurriedly. She had no desire to visit Mrs.
-Gardiner Peele. “You know you have more or less
-company, and I should be very quiet for a while.
-And oh! I should so like to have you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’d love to! I’ll come and stay a week. I’m
-so sick of the whole family, Bev included. We won’t
-be going anywhere for three months out of respect for
-Cousin Harriet—mamma is very particular about those
-things—and I can get away as well as not. I’ll come
-on Tuesday,—can I? Bev will come up occasionally
-and see how I’m getting on—won’t you, Bevvy, dear?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d much rather you would not be here,” said Mr.
-Peele, calmly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh—really—well, we’re all young yet. I’m
-coming all the same. I suppose we must be going.
-We have to get home to dress for dinner, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She rose, and drew on her gloves. Her brother stood
-up immediately and helped her into her covert coat.
-“Well, Patience,” she said, kissing her lightly, “you’ll
-see me on Tuesday. I’ll come by train, and wire you
-beforehand. Mamma’ll raise Cain, but I’ll manage it.
-It’s only occasionally she’s too much for me. The cold
-glare of those blue eyes of hers freezes my marrow at
-times and takes all the starch out of me. It’s awful to
-have been brought up under that sort of eye. When
-Honora marries it’s the sort of eye she’ll have. She
-cultivates the angelic at present. Have I talked you to
-death, Patience? So good of you to ask me to come.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Peele held out his hand, and Patience could do no
-less than lay hers within it. As it closed she resisted
-an impulse to nestle her own more closely into that
-warm grasp. He held her hand longer than was altogether
-necessary, and she felt indignantly that she had
-no desire to draw it away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’ll do for one day,” said Hal, drily. “Come
-along, Beverly Peele. We won’t get home for coffee at
-this rate.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When they had gone Patience threw herself on the
-sofa and burst into tears, then laughed suddenly. “I
-feel like the heroine of a tragedy,” she thought. “And
-the tragedy is a pun!”</p>
-
-<h2>XVIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal arrived on Tuesday afternoon. Patience for
-twenty-four hours after Beverly Peele’s visit looked
-upon life through grey spectacles. She had an impression
-of being a solitary figure on a sandy waste,
-illimitable in extent. Life was ugly practical reality.
-It frightened her, and she cowered before it, hating the
-future, her blood chilled, her nerves blunt, her brain
-stagnant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But by Tuesday morning, being young and buoyant,
-she revived, and roamed through the woods, entirely
-loyal to the Stranger. She made up her mind that she
-would find him, that he could not be married. He
-must have waited for her. “Oh!” she thought, “if I
-could not believe that something existed in this world
-as I have imagined it, some man good enough to love
-and look up to, I believe I’d jump into the river. At
-least I have heard Him talk. He could not be a
-disappointment, like that hollow bronze. If there are
-many men in the world like Beverly Peele I don’t
-wonder women are in revolt. Women start out in life
-with big ideals of man, and if they are disappointed I
-suppose they unconsciously strive to make themselves
-what they should have found in man. But it is unnatural.
-It seems to me that man must be able to
-give woman the best she can find in life, whether
-he does or not. Something in civilisation has gone
-wrong.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve been so restless,” she said to Hal, as the girls
-sat on the edge of the bed in the spare room, holding
-each other’s hand. “If you had not been coming I’d
-have gone to New York before this and seen Mr. Field,
-the editor of the ‘Day’—He promised me once he’d
-make a newspaper woman of me—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A what?” cried Hal. “What on earth do you
-want to be a newspaper woman for?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I must be something. I couldn’t live out of
-Mariaville on my income, and the few hundred dollars
-Mr. Foord left me, and I don’t know of anything else
-I want to be.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are going to be Mrs. Beverly Peele,” said Hal,
-definitely. “Beverly has the worst attack of my recollection.
-He has simply raved about you. Tell me,
-don’t you like him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience said nothing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal leaned forward and turned Patience’s face about.
-“Don’t you like him?” she asked in a disappointed
-tone. “Tell me. Please be frank. I hate people who
-are not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll confess it—I was disappointed in him.
-You see, I’d thought about him a good deal—several
-years, if you want to know the truth—and I was sure
-he was an intellectual man—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal threw back her head and gave a clear ringing
-laugh. “Bev intellectual! That’s too funny. I don’t
-believe he ever read anything but a newspaper and
-horse literature in his life. But we all think he’s bright.
-I think it my duty to tell you that he has a fearful
-temper. He’s always been mamma’s pet, and she never
-would cross him, so he flies into regular tantrums when
-things don’t go to suit him; but on the whole he’s
-pretty good sort. Don’t you think he’s good-looking?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, wonderfully,” said Patience, glad to be enthusiastic.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’m sure you’ll like him when you’ve forgotten
-the ideal and got used to the real. Do please try
-to like him, for I’m bent on having you for a sister-in-law.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll try,” said Patience, laughing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have no idea,” continued the astute Miss Peele,
-“how many girls have been in love with him. I’ve
-known girls that looked like marble statues—the
-marble statue with the snub nose; that’s our swagger
-New York type, you know,—well, I’ve seen them
-make perfect idiots of themselves about him. But so
-far he’s rather preferred the ladies that don’t visit at
-Peele Manor. I’ve brought some cigarettes. Can I
-smoke?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can just do anything you like.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Thanks. Well, I think I’ll begin by lying down
-on this soft bed. It’s way ahead of the chairs and sofa
-in the parlour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She exchanged her frock for a <span class='it'>peignoir</span>, and extended
-herself on the bed. Patience sat beside her in a rocking
-chair, her troubles forgotten.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“By the way,” said Hal, suddenly removing her
-cigarette, “what was the shock you had the other day?
-Tell me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I will,” and Patience told the story of Rosita
-from beginning to end. Hal listened with deep
-interest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s a stunner,” she said, “and worth coming to
-Mariaville for. The little rip. She didn’t tell you half.
-I’ll bet my hopes of a tiara on that. But she does
-dance and sing like an angel. And so you were children
-together? How perfectly funny! Now tell me your
-history, every bit of it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience hesitated, then impulsively told the story,
-omitting few particulars.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Peele’s cigarette was allowed to go out. “Well,
-well,” she said, when Patience had finished. “Fate
-did play the devil with you, didn’t she? I’m so glad
-you’ve told me. I’ll tell the family what I like, and
-you keep quiet. I have the inestimable gift of selection.
-You poor child! I’m so glad you fell in with Cousin
-Harriet; and now you are going to be happy for the
-rest of your life. Oh, it’s so good to be here in this
-quiet place. I’m so tired of everybody. Sometimes
-I get a fearful disgust. The same old grind, year after
-year. If I could only fall in love; but when I do I
-know it’ll be with a poor man. I never did have any
-luck.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wouldn’t you marry him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal shook her wise young head. “I don’t know.
-You never can tell what you’ll do when you get that
-disease; but I do know that I’d be miserable if I did.
-Money, and plenty of it, is necessary to my happiness.
-You see we’re not so horribly rich. Papa gives mamma
-and May and me two thousand dollars each a year, and
-his income comes mostly from his practice. We haven’t
-anything else but a little house in town, and Peele Manor—which
-of course we’ll never sell—and a big farm adjoining.
-Bev runs that, and has the income from it—about
-three thousand dollars a year. When he wants
-more mamma gets it for him, and when he’s married of
-course he’ll have a lot more. Two thousand stands me
-in very well now, but as a married woman I want nothing
-under thirty thousand a year—and that’s a modest
-ambition enough. You can’t be anybody in New York
-on less. Oh, dear—life is a burden.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Your woes are not very terrible,” said Patience,
-drily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’d think so if you were me. We suffer
-according to our capacities and point of view. What
-is comedy to one is tragedy to another. If I had to
-wear the same clothes for two seasons I’d be as miserable
-as a defeated candidate for the Presidency. Beer
-makes one man drunk and champagne another. Bev,
-by the way, never drinks. He’s rather straight than
-otherwise. What’s your ideal of a man, by the way?
-Of course you have an ideal.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t know,” said Patience, vaguely. “A
-man with a big brain and a big heart and a big
-arm.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Peele laughed heartily. “You are not exacting
-in your combinations, not in the least.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The week passed delightfully to Patience, although
-Hal became rather restless toward the end. She
-arranged Patience’s hair in six different fashions,
-then decided that the large soft coil suited her best.
-Patience’s nails were manicured, she was taught how
-to smoke cigarettes, and select extracts from French
-novels were read to her. Hal was an accomplished
-gossip, and regaled her hostess with all the whispered
-scandals of New York society. She was a liberal
-education.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly did not call, nor did he write, and Hal
-anathematised him freely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But I have my ideas on the subject,” she said
-darkly. “Just you wait.”</p>
-
-<h2>XIX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the evening of Hal’s departure, as Patience was
-braiding her hair for the night, there was a sharp ring
-at the bell, and a few moments later Ellen came upstairs
-with a card inscribed “Mr. Beverly Peele.”
-Patience felt disposed to send word that she had retired,
-so thoroughly had she lost interest in the young
-man; but reflecting that he had probably ridden
-ten miles on a cold night to see her, told Ellen to light
-all the burners in the parlour, and twisted up her hair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she went downstairs she saw a heavy overcoat on
-the hall table.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If it had occurred to me that he had come by
-train,” she thought, “I’d have let him go home
-again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He came forward with his charming smile, looking
-remarkably handsome in his evening clothes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It was kind of you to come,” she said, too unsophisticated
-to feel embarrassed at receiving a man at
-night in a house where she lived alone with a servant.
-“Of course you knew how lonely I must be.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal is good company, isn’t she?” he asked, holding
-her hand and staring hard at her. “But I should
-think she’d miss you more than you’d miss her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience withdrew her hand abruptly. Her face
-wore its accustomed cold gravity, contradicted by the
-eager eyes of youth. “Won’t you sit down? I hope
-Hal has missed me, but she has hardly had time to tell
-you so.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hasn’t she? She has had several hours, and I
-suppose you know by this time how fast she can talk.
-She’s awfully bright, don’t you think so?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed she is.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She isn’t a beauty like May, nor intellectual like
-Honora, but you can’t have everything—that is,
-everybody can’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Does any one?” asked Patience, indifferently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal says you are the cleverest woman she has ever
-met,—and—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m afraid Hal is carried away by the enthusiasms
-of the moment,” said Patience, as he paused. She was
-highly gratified, nevertheless.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“—you are the prettiest woman I ever saw,” he
-continued, as if she had not spoken.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, nonsense!” exclaimed Patience, angrily, but
-the colour flew to her face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I mean it,” and indisputably his eyes spoke admiration.
-“I’ve thought of no one else since I was here.
-I haven’t come before, because there’s nothing in calling
-on your sister, and that’s what it would have
-amounted to. But, you see, I’m here the very night
-she left.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are very flattering.” Patience was beginning
-to feel vaguely uncomfortable. She realised that the
-lore gathered from novels was valueless in a practical
-emergency, and longed for the experience of Hal. “I
-understand that you are considered fascinating, and
-I suppose most women do like to be flattered.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never paid a woman a compliment before in my
-life,” he said, unblushingly. “You don’t look a bit like
-any woman I ever saw. Hal says you look like a
-‘white star on a dark night,’ and that’s about the size
-of it. You have such lovely hair and skin. I’ve
-always rather admired plump women, but your slenderness
-suits you—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, please talk about something else! I am not
-used to such stuff, and I don’t like it. Suppose you
-talk about yourself.” (She had read that man could ever
-be beguiled by this bait.) “Are you as fond of travel
-as Hal is?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never travel,” he said shortly. “When I find
-a comfortable place I stay in it. Westchester County
-suits me down to the ground.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You mean to say that you can travel and don’t?
-that you don’t care at all to see the beautiful things in
-Europe?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my mother always brings home a lot of photographs
-and things, and that’s all I want of it. I
-never could understand why Americans are so restless.
-I’m sick of the very sound of Europe, anyway.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you fond of New York?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“New York is the centre of the earth, and full of
-pretty—interesting things, dontcherknow? I’ve had
-some gay times there, I can tell you. But I’ve
-settled down now, and prefer Westchester County to
-any place on earth. I’d rather be behind or on
-a horse than anything else.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t you care for society?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hate it. One winter was enough for me. Wild
-horses wouldn’t drag me into a ball-room again. Of
-course when the house is full of company in summer
-I like that well enough. I play billiards with the men
-and spoon—flirt with the girls and the pretty married
-women; but I’m just as contented when they’ve all
-cleared out.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you mean to say that you stay in the country
-by yourself all winter? What do you do? Read?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“N-o-o-o. I don’t care much about books. We
-have a big farm and I run it, and I skate and drive
-and ride and smoke—Oh, there’s plenty to do.
-Occasionally I go to town and have a little fun.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you call fun if you don’t like society,—the
-theatre?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The theatre!” he laughed. “I never sat out
-a play in my life. Oh, I don’t know you well enough
-to tell you everything yet. Sometime, I’ll tell you
-a lot of funny things.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps you enjoy the newspapers in winter,” said
-Patience, hastily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I read even the advertisements. The papers
-are all the reading any man wants. There are two or
-three good sensational stories every day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t read those,” said Patience, disgustedly.
-This idol appeared to be clay straight up to his hair.
-“I like to read the big news and Mr. Field’s editorials.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you need educating. I read those too—not
-Field; he’s too much for me. But I didn’t come
-here to talk about newspapers—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Won’t you smoke a cigar?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, thanks. I smoked all the way down, and in
-the cab too, for that matter—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are the horses standing out there in the cold?
-Wouldn’t you like to tell him to take them to the
-barn?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose he can look after his own horses.
-They’re nothing but old hacks, anyhow.” He leaned
-forward abruptly and took her hand, pressing it closely.
-“Oh!” he said. “I’ve been wild to see you again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience attempted to jerk her hand away, acutely
-conscious of a desire to return his clasp. She did the
-worst thing possible, but the only thing that could be
-expected: she lost her head. “I don’t like you to do
-that,” she exclaimed. “Let me go! What do you
-mean, anyhow?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That you are the loveliest woman I ever saw. I
-have been wild about you—” He had taken her
-other hand, and his face was close to hers. He had
-lowered his lids slightly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you think that because I am alone here you
-can say what you like?” she cried passionately. “You
-would not dare act like this with one of your mother’s
-guests!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, wouldn’t I?” He laughed disagreeably. “But
-what is the use of being a goose—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sprang to her feet, overturning her chair:
-but she only succeeded in pulling him to his feet also;
-he would not release her hands.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish you would leave the house,” she said, stamping
-her foot. “If you don’t let me go, I’ll call Ellen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, don’t make a goose of yourself. And I’m not
-afraid of a servant. I’m not going to murder you—nor
-anything else. Only,—do you drive all men wild
-like this?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t know anything about men,” almost sobbed
-Patience, “and I don’t want to. Will you go?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I won’t.” He released her hands suddenly;
-and, as she made a spring for the door, flung his arms
-about her. She ducked her head and fought him, but
-he kissed her cheeks and brow and hair. His lips
-burnt her delicate skin, his powerful embrace seemed
-absorbing her. She was filled with fury and loathing,
-but the blood pounded in her ears, and the very air
-seemed humming. The man’s magnetism was purely
-animal, but it was a tremendous force.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are a brute, a beast!” she sobbed. “Let me
-go! Let me go!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I won’t,” he muttered. He too had lost his head.
-“I’ll not leave you.” He strove to reach her mouth.
-She managed to disengage her right arm, and clinching
-her hand hit him a smart blow in the face. He laughed,
-and caught her hand, holding it out at arm’s length.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ellen!” she cried. As she lifted her head to call
-he was quick to see his advantage. His mouth closed
-suddenly on hers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The room swam round her. She ceased to struggle.
-Her feet had touched that nether world where the
-electrical forces of the universe appear to be generated,
-and its wonder—not the man—conquered her. She
-shook horribly. She felt a tumultuous impulse to spring
-upon her ideals and beat them in the face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Heavy footfalls sounded in the kitchen hall.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is Ellen!” she gasped, wrenching herself
-free. The man stamped his foot. He looked hideous.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go!” said Patience. “Go, just as fast as you can,
-and don’t you ever come here again. If you do, it
-won’t do you any good, for you’ll not see me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And she ran upstairs and locked her door loudly.</p>
-
-<h2>XX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For some time she walked rapidly up and down, pressing
-her hands to her hot face. Chaos was in her. She
-could not think. She only felt that she wanted to die,
-and preferred the river. She poured water into a
-basin and plunged her face into it again and again.
-The water had the chill of midwinter, and sent the
-blood from her brain; but she felt no cleaner. Still,
-her brain was no longer racing like a screw out of water,
-and she sat down to think. It was her trend of mind
-to face all questions with the least possible delay, and
-she looked at herself squarely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“So,” she thought, “I am the daughter of Madge
-Sparhawk, after all. The horror of that night left me
-as I was made. Three years with the best woman the
-sun ever shone on only put the real me to sleep for a
-time. All my ideals were the vagaries of my imagination,
-a sort of unwritten book, of the nature of those
-that geniuses write, who spend their leisure hours in
-debauchery. I am no better than Rosita. I have not
-even the excuse of love—if I had—if it had been
-Him—I might perhaps—perhaps—look upon passion
-as a natural thing. Certainly it is not disagreeable,” and
-she laughed unpleasantly. “But I despised this man.
-He has not the brain of a calf nor the principle of a
-savage, and yet it is he that made me forget every ideal
-I ever cherished. If I met Him now, I would not
-insult him with the gift of myself.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If Beverly Peele came in here now I verily believe
-that I should kiss him again. What—what is human
-nature made of? I have the blood of refined and enlightened
-ancestors in my veins—I know that. I have
-seen nothing of sexual sin that did not make me abhor
-it. Barring my mother, I had the best of influences in
-Monterey, and I knew the difference. I have—or had—a
-natural tendency toward all that was refined and
-uplifting. I was even sure I had a soul. My brain is
-better, and better furnished, than that of the average
-woman of my age. And yet, at the first touch, I
-crumble like an old corpse exposed to air. I am simply
-a body with a mental annex, and the one appears
-to be independent of the other.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is the world all vile?” she continued, resuming
-her restless walk. “This man attacked me as if he
-had no anticipation of a rebuff. And yet I am the
-friend of his sister, the adopted daughter of his
-mother’s cousin, and, he has every reason to think,
-of irreproachable life. If the world—his mother’s
-world—were not full of such women as he imagined
-me to be—he would never have taken so much for
-granted. He acted as if he thought me a fool, and I
-appear to be remarkably green. I am certainly learning.
-Oh—the brute! the brute!” And she flung
-herself on the bed and burst into violent weeping, which
-lasted until she was so exhausted that she fell asleep
-without disrobing.</p>
-
-<h2>XXI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning her head ached violently. She
-started for the woods, but turned back. They held her
-lost ideals. She sat all day by the window, looking
-at the Hudson, listless, and mentally nauseated.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>During the afternoon a special messenger brought a
-note of abject apology from Beverly Peele. She burnt
-it half read and told the man there was no answer.
-There is only one thing a woman scorns more than a
-man’s insult, and that is his apology.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next day he called, but was refused admission
-by the sturdy Ellen. Patience spent the day on Hog
-Heights. On the following day he called again, with
-the same result. The next day Hal came.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is the row between you and Bev?” she
-exclaimed, before she had seated herself. “He says
-you’ve taken a dislike to him, and is in the most
-beastly temper about it. I never saw him so cut up.
-He’s sent me here to patch it up and give you this
-letter. Do tell me what is the matter?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll tell you,” said Patience, grimly. “The
-idea of his sending his sister to patch it up!” And she
-gave an account of Mr. Peele’s performance, woman-like
-omitting her own momentary forbearance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal listened with an amused smile. “So Bev made
-a bad break,” she remarked when Patience had concluded.
-“I’m not surprised, for he’s pretty hot-headed,
-and head over ears in love. You mustn’t
-take life so tragically. I’ve had several weird experiences
-myself, although I’m not the kind that men lose
-their head about as a rule; only given the hour and
-the occasion, some men will lose their head about any
-woman. Perhaps I should have said New York men.
-They are a rare and lovely species. They admire God
-because he made himself of their gender and knew
-what he was about when he invented woman. I was
-out on a sleighing party one moonlight night last winter,
-and on the back seat with a man I’d never seen out of
-a ball-room before. The way that man’s legs and
-arms flew round that sleigh made my hair curl. You
-see, a lot of us are fast, but then plenty of us are not.
-The trouble is that the men can’t discriminate, as we
-look pretty much alike on the outside. They’re not a
-very clever lot—our society men—and they don’t
-learn much until they’ve been taught. Then when
-they are forced to believe in your virtue they feel
-rather sorry for you, and later on are apt to propose—if
-you have any money. Bev would propose to you if
-you were living in a tent and clad in a gunny sack.
-He would have preferred things the other way—it’s
-so much less trouble—but as he can’t, he won’t stop at
-any such trifling nuisance as matrimony. Oh, men are
-a lovely lot! Still, the world would be a pretty stupid
-place without them. You’ll learn to manage them in
-time, and then they’ll only amuse you. They are not
-really so bad at heart—they’ve been badly educated.
-I know four married women of the type we call ‘friskies,’
-whom my mother would shudder at the thought of
-excluding from her visiting list, and whom I’d bet my
-new Paquin trunk, several men I know have had affairs
-with. So what can you expect of a man?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is the world rotten?” asked Patience, in disgust.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s just about half and half. I know as many
-good women as bad. Half the women in society are
-good wives and devoted mothers. The other half,
-girls and married women, old and young, are no better
-than your Rosita. Sometimes their motives are no
-higher. Usually, though, it’s craving for excitement.
-I don’t blame those much myself. The most fascinating
-woman I know is larky. She as much as told me so.
-Some of the confessions I’ve had from married women
-would make you gasp. Well—let’s quit the subject.
-Promise me you’ll forgive Bev.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall not. I hate him. I shall never look at
-him again if I can help it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear, dear, you are young! And I do so want
-you for a sister. May is such a fool, and I do hate
-Honora.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You wouldn’t have me loathe myself for the sake
-of being your sister, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I wouldn’t have you marry Bev if you
-couldn’t like him; but I believe you really do, only
-things haven’t turned out as you planned in that innocent
-little skull of yours. Bev is a good fellow, as men
-go. You’ll get used to him and his kind in the course
-of time, and then you’ll enjoy life in a calm practical
-way.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is there no other way?” asked Patience, bitterly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not in my experience. And if you stay here in
-your woods you’ll get tired of your ideals after a while.
-You can’t live on ideals—the human constitution isn’t
-made that way. If it was there’d be no such thing as
-society. We’d live in caves and bay the moon. So
-you’d better come into the world, Patience dear, and
-accept it as it is, and drain it for all it’s worth.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, hush! You are too good to talk like that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good?—what is good? I am the result of my
-surroundings—a little better than some, a little worse
-than others. So was Cousin Harriet. So is La Rosita.
-I’m not cynical. I merely see life—my section of
-it—exactly as it is. If you become a newspaper
-woman you’ll probably receive a succession of shocks.
-As nearly as I can make out they’re about like us—half
-and half. I became quite chummy with a newspaper
-woman, once, crossing the Atlantic. She was
-awfully pretty, and, as nearly as one woman can judge
-of another, perfectly proper. She related some wild
-and weird experiences she had had with men. Yours
-would probably be wilder and weirder, as you appear
-to be possessed of an unholy fascination; and in a year
-or two you’ll be a beauty. All you want is a little more
-figure and style—or rather clothes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, if I’m to have wild and weird experiences I
-prefer to have them with men of brains, not with a lot
-of empty-headed society men.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t generalise too freely, my dear. There are
-newspaper men and newspaper men,—according to
-this girl I’ve just told you of. Some are brainy, some
-are merely bright; some are gentlemen, most are
-common beyond words. And, as she said—after
-you’ve worked with man in his shirt sleeves, you don’t
-have many illusions about the animal left.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have not one, and I lost them in an hour. Your
-brother is supposed to be a gentleman with a long
-array of ancestors, and he acted like a wild Indian.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My dear, he merely lost his head. That was a
-compliment to you, and you should not be too hard on
-a man in those circumstances. He won’t do it again,
-I’m sure of that. He has some control. I warned
-him before he came not to pun, and he says he didn’t,
-not once. Now, tell me one thing—Don’t you like
-him just a little?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No,” said Patience; but she flushed to her hair,
-and Hal, with her uncanny wisdom, said no more.</p>
-
-<h2>XXII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next day Patience went to the woods for the
-first time since Beverly Peele’s onslaught. A natural
-reaction had lifted her spirits out of the slough, and she
-turned to nature, as ever. She could never be the same
-again, she thought with a sigh; and once more she
-must readjust herself. She wondered if any girl had
-ever done so much readjusting in an equal number of
-years.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The woods were no longer a scene of enchantment.
-The ice had melted. The trees were grey and naked
-again. The ground was slush, and nasty to walk upon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But the spring must come in time,” she thought;
-“and then perhaps I’ll feel new too—but not the
-same, for like the spring I shall have other seasons
-behind me.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But—perhaps—who knows?—I may be the better
-for knowing myself. I was in a fool’s paradise
-before. Perhaps I was in danger of becoming an
-egoist, and imagining myself made of finer fibre than
-other women. Great writers show that the same brute
-is in all of us, and I can believe it. Some work it off
-in religion, but the majority don’t. There seems to be
-some tremendous magnetic force in the Universe that
-makes the human race nine-tenths Love—for want of
-a better name. Circumstances and ancestors determine
-the direction of it. It seems too bad that Civilisation
-has not done more for us than to give us the
-analytical mind which understands and rebels, and no
-more, at the inheritance of the savage. But now that
-I know myself, perhaps I can go forward more surely
-on the path to the higher altitudes of life. I should
-like to be as good as auntie, and worldly-wise beside.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose my horrid experience with this man will
-make me more exacting with all men. I think I could
-not blunder into matrimony, as some women do. I feel
-as if I never wanted to see another man, but that
-impression will pass—all impressions appear to pass.
-I may even want to meet Him after a time, and perhaps
-he will forgive. Shouldn’t be surprised if he’d want
-a good deal of forgiveness himself. Meanwhile I can
-work, and learn all I can of what life means, anyway.
-I’ll go to Mr. Field—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The soft ground echoed no footfalls, but Patience
-suddenly became aware that some one was approaching
-her. She turned, and saw Beverly Peele.</p>
-
-<hr class='pbk'/>
-
-<div><h1 class='nobreak'><a id='book3'></a>BOOK III</h1></div>
-
-<h2 class='nobreak'>I</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I do hope you’ll make a hit, Patience,” said Hal,
-regarding her critically. “The public, even the little
-public of a garden party, is a thing you can’t bet on,
-but you certainly are stunning. If ever papa loses his
-fortune, in the curious American way, I shall follow the
-ever seductive example of the English aristocracy and
-go in for dressmaking. That frock is a triumph of art,
-if I do say it myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience revolved slowly before the Psyche mirror
-which stood between two open windows in one corner
-of Hal’s pretty terra-cotta bedroom. She too was
-pleased with the airy concoction of violet and white.
-On a chair lay a picture hat, another bird of the same
-feather. Hal placed it on Patience’s head, a little
-back, and the violet velvet of the interior made a very
-effective frame for the soft ashen hair and white skin.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You certainly carry yourself well,” continued Hal,
-“and before long you will acquire an air. Always
-keep in mind that <span class='it'>that</span> is the most important thing in
-life—our life—to acquire. But you look like a lily,
-a purple and white forest lily.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I haven’t the faintest idea what to talk to fashionable
-people about.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t be too clever—don’t frighten the men and
-antagonise the women. You see, you’re not known at
-all, so people won’t begin by being afraid of you—as
-they would if they knew all that went on in that pretty
-skull of yours. Just be Mrs. Beverly Peele. Nobody
-would ever suspect Bev of marrying a clever woman.
-You can’t do the artless and infantile, like May: your
-face is too strong; but you can be unsophisticated,
-and that always goes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m not unsophisticated!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, don’t look like that. All the light seems to
-go out of your skin. I mean give everybody the impression
-that you have everything to learn, and that
-each, individually, can teach it all. It’s awfully fetching.
-That is what has made May’s success. Of course
-you wouldn’t be another May, if you could; but you
-want to begin at the beginning—don’t you know?
-You must let society feel that it gives you everything, tells
-you everything. Then it will love you. But if it suspects
-that you are alien—the least little bit—then there
-will be the devil to pay. Of course a few of the best
-sort would like you, but I’m set on your making a hit.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m afraid I’ll never take,” said Patience, with a
-sigh, “but I am wild to see Vanity Fair, all the same.
-It must be great fun—all that brilliancy and life.
-But somehow I don’t feel in tune with the people I
-have met, so far.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, that’s natural. You are not acclimatised yet,
-so to speak. Society is a distinctly foreign country to
-those that have not been brought up in it. Just sit
-down on the edge of that chair and rest while I take a
-look at myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“White is certainly my day colour,” she continued,
-revolving in her turn before the mirror. “It is wonderful
-how it clears the skin, especially with a touch of
-blue near the face. Pink would make me as yellow as
-October, and green would suggest thirty-five. Your
-grey matter will be spared the wear and tear of The
-Study of Colour, but if I hadn’t reduced it to a fine
-art, I’d have had to turn literary or something when
-May came out.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You look just like a fairy! I never saw anything
-so dainty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, of course; I’m so little and light that I have to
-work the fairy racket for all it’s worth. It’s a heavenly
-day, isn’t it? The country’s got its best spring clothes
-on, sure enough.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girls leaned out of each of the windows in turn,
-scrutinising the grounds. In front and on both sides
-of the house the land rolled away in great irregular
-waves. Woods were in the sudden hollows, on the
-lofty knolls; between, shelving expanses of green, bare
-but for an occasional oak or elm. Beside the driveway
-was a long narrow avenue of elms, down which two
-might pace shoulder to shoulder, and no more. In a
-deep hollow on the right was the orchard, a riot of
-pink and white. The immediate grounds were small
-and trim, and fragrant with the flowers of civilisation;
-out on the hills beyond the wild-flowers and tall grass,
-the locust and hawthorn, had their way. Behind all
-flowed the Hudson under the green Palisades, its surface
-gay with sail and steamboat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A dancing booth had been erected on one of the
-lawns, and the musicians were already assembling under
-the silken curtains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It looks very well,” said Hal, “and you couldn’t
-have a more perfect day for your <span class='it'>début</span>. Not that I
-care much for garden parties; the fresh air makes me
-sleepy, and there’s no concentration, as it were—as
-there is in a ball-room, don’t you know? But mamma
-decreed that the world should make your acquaintance
-out of doors, and that is the end of it. I wonder if you’ll
-manage to induce Bev to go to town for the winter.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hope so! It will be horribly dull to stay here all
-winter, with all of you away.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s an edifying sentiment for a bride of three
-months. However, I agree with you. I’d go mad
-shut up in a country house in winter with the most
-fascinating man that ever breathed. And the dickens
-of it is, mamma always takes his part, whether he’s
-wrong or right. She’ll preach wifely duty to you until
-you’d live on a desert island to get rid of her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve heard her,” said Patience, gloomily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wondered if that was what she was at in the
-library yesterday. When mamma has her chin well up
-and her lower lip well out I can tell at long range that
-she’s embracing the cause of virtue. But she tackled
-you rather early in the game, considering you haven’t
-made any notable break as yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wouldn’t go driving with Beverly yesterday,—the
-sun makes my head ache,—and I’d also begged
-him to take me to the theatre to see Rosita, and he
-wouldn’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’ll never get Bev to the theatre. We’ll
-go by ourselves to a matinée. However, it’s better than
-being a newspaper woman on several dollars a week—come
-now, own up?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I enjoyed Florida and New Orleans and Canada
-immensely.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That was a tremendous concession for Bev to
-make—he detests travelling. He certainly is in love;
-but I imagine he expects you to live on that same concession
-for some time to come—thinks it’s your turn
-to do the self-sacrificing act. Such is man. Anyhow,
-I’m glad it’s all turned out so comfortably, and that you
-are here, and that all is settled—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I want to ask you something. I couldn’t get it
-out of Beverly. Did your mother make a very violent
-objection to his marrying me? Of course I am a social
-nobody, and she must have made great plans for her
-only son. She didn’t say anything when she came to
-call; but, you see, she didn’t call until three days
-before the wedding, and Beverly’s and your excuses
-were not very good.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, of course she raised Cain,” said Miss Peele,
-easily; “that was to be expected. But papa put his
-foot down and said he was glad to have Beverly marry
-a clever woman: it might be the making of him. And
-<span class='it'>I</span> just fought! Of course I’d told papa that you were
-as high bred as any woman in America, and that you’d
-look a swell in less than no time. That weighed heavy
-with him, for, in his opinion, God may have made himself
-first, but he made the Peeles next, and no mistake.
-And Bev! He went into the most awful tantrums you
-ever saw. I think that was what brought mamma
-round—she was afraid he’d burst a blood-vessel.
-When she wrote and asked Miss Beale to live with you
-I knew the day was won. And now that you are Mrs.
-Beverly Peele she’ll respect you accordingly, although
-you’ll have some lively tussles. But make her think
-you adore Bev, and you’ll pull through. Suppose we
-go down now. Tra-la-la! I wish it were over.”</p>
-
-<h2>II</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girls descended the twisted stair into the wide
-hall. All the doors and windows were open, and the
-soft air blew through the great house, lifting the lace
-and silken curtains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A girl, looking like a large butterfly, in her yellow
-frock, was fluttering about the hall amidst the palms
-and the huge vases of flowers. Her skin was of matchless
-tints, her large blue eyes as guileless as those of an
-infant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh! Oh!” she cried, as Hal and Patience reached
-the first landing, “how perfectly sweet! Hal, is my
-frock all right in the back? My things never fit quite
-as well as yours do. Isn’t Patience too fetching for
-words? I wish I was just white like that. How perfectly
-funny that we should be giving a garden party for
-Bev’s wife! Who would have thought it last year?
-Isn’t it odd how things do happen? And hasn’t
-Honora been perfectly lovely about it? I always knew
-she didn’t care. I wonder if any decent men will
-come up! It’s so hard—Hal, <span class='it'>does</span> my frock wrinkle
-in the back?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no, no,” drawled Hal, without looking at her.
-She glanced at the tall clock in an angle. “They’ll
-be here in ten minutes, now—Oh—h—h!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A portière was pushed aside, and a girl entered the
-hall from a dark background of books and heavy curtains.
-She was far above the ordinary height of woman,
-and extremely slender. Golden hair clustered about a
-long face, pale rather than white. The large azure eyes
-had the extraordinary clarity of childhood, and an
-expression of perfect purity. The nose was long, the
-mouth thin, but well curved and very red. She wore a
-clinging gown of white crêpe and a large knot of blue
-wild-flowers at her belt. She moved slowly forward,
-managing her long limbs with much dexterity, but
-could hardly be called graceful. Patience thought her
-the most beautiful woman she had ever seen, and murmured
-her admiration to Hal, who snorted in a gentle,
-ladylike way.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They will be here in a moment, I suppose,” said
-Honora, wearily. “I think I shall not go out. I’ll
-stay in the drawing-room and entertain the older people.
-Some one must attend to them, and I really prefer the
-house.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are always so amiable,” said Hal, drily, “and
-you certainly won’t get freckled.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is true that I don’t like freckles,” said Honora,
-calmly, “and I do like the older people. Even you,
-when you have a few white hairs, may become more or
-less interesting. Patience, dear, you look very lovely.
-You must let me kiss you.” She bent her cool lips to
-the brow of the bride, swaying over her. Her voice
-could not be described by any adjective devoid of the
-letter L. It was liquid, silvery, cold, light.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She certainly is a stunning-looking woman,” said
-Hal, as Honora passed into the drawing-room, “but
-she’s a whole rattlesnake, and no mistake. I’ve never
-seen her strike real hard yet; she merely spits occasionally,
-and always in that amiable way. You can
-imagine how subtle she is, and what a dangerous force
-such self-control is. I shall never understand how she
-failed to get Bev.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps, as May suggests, she didn’t want him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, didn’t she! Just wait! you’ll hear from her
-yet. There’s the whistle. The train’ll be here in
-three minutes. Let us group ourselves gracefully under
-Peele the First.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They went into the large white drawing-room, whose
-old-fashioned woodwork was as it had been nearly three
-hundred years ago, even to the heavy shutters over the
-small-paned windows. The ceiling was fretted with
-floral designs, executed in <span class='it'>papier mâché</span>, surrounding a
-<span class='it'>bas relief</span> of “our well beloved Whyte Peele,” who had
-received the grant of these many acres from James the
-First. All the woodwork was painted white, and carved.
-The furniture, modern, but of colonial design, was upholstered
-in pale pink and blue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beyond a side hall was a long dining-room panelled
-to the ceiling in oak, and hung on all sides with dead
-and living Peeles. The carved oaken table was spread
-with the light unsubstantial feast of the modern time.
-Adjoining the dining-room were two small reception-rooms
-looking upon the terrace at the back of the
-rambling old house. In the middle of this hall, under
-the carved twisted stair, was a round enclosure whose
-door opened upon a well, from whence a secret passage
-led to the river.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Peele swept across the hall from the dining-room,
-and raising her lorgnette, considered Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You look very well,” she said, coldly. “Don’t get
-nervous, please; it is the one thing for which people
-have no toleration. Where is Beverly?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He has gone for a drive. You know he does not
-like entertainments.” Patience’s nerves were muttering,
-and her mother-in-law’s admonition was not of the
-nature of balm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Peele raised her brows. “It is odd that a bride
-should have so little influence over her husband,” she
-remarked; and Patience was now in that equable frame
-of mind which carries one through the severe ordeals
-of life.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>How she did live through that ordeal of introduction
-to some five hundred people she never knew. Fortunately,
-all but the neighbours arrived on the special
-train which had been sent for them, and there was little
-for her to do but smile and bend her head as Mrs.
-Peele named her new daughter-in-law to her guests.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And whatever might be that exalted dame’s private
-opinion of her son’s choice, whatever methods she
-might employ in untrammelled domestic hours to make
-her disapproval felt, to the world she assumed her habitual
-air of being supremely content with all that pertained
-to the house of Peele. Had Patience been the daughter
-of a belted earl she could not have been presented to
-New York with a haughtier pride, a calmer assumption
-that New York must embrace with gratitude and enthusiasm
-this opportunity to meet the daughter-in-law of
-the Gardiner Peeles.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her manner gave Patience confidence after a time.
-Her own pride had already conquered diffidence; and
-trying as the long ordeal was, she thrilled a little at the
-sudden realisation of half-formed ambitions. There
-was no taint of the snob in her; some echo-voice of
-other generations lifted itself out of the inherited impressions
-which had moulded her brain cells, and protested
-against its descendant ranking below the first of
-the land.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Many of the guests were politely indifferent to the
-honour provided for them; the girls stared at her in a
-manner calculated to upset any <span class='it'>débutante’s</span> equilibrium;
-but the gracious kindness of others and the languid
-admiration of the men kept her in poise.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The neighbours arrived shortly after the train, and it
-was an hour before the greater part of the company
-had dispersed over the grounds, and Patience could sit
-down. Mrs. Peele remained in the drawing-room with
-some eight or ten people, and as Hal and May had
-both disappeared, Patience stayed with her mother-in-law,
-not knowing where to go.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She thought the girls very forbidding with their pert
-noses and keen eyes, although she admired their luminous
-skin and splendid grooming, striking even in the
-airy attire of spring. The older women looked as if
-they would patronise her did Mrs. Peele withdraw her
-protecting wing, and one man, passing the window,
-inserted a monocle and regarded her deliberately.
-Suddenly Patience experienced a sensation of profound
-loneliness. No force in life is surer of touch than the
-subtle play of spirit on spirit, and Patience read that
-these people did not like her and never would, that
-they recognised the alien who would regard their world
-spectacularly, never acquire their comic seriousness.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you fond of golf, Mrs. Peele?” asked one girl,
-languidly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never have played golf.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girl raised her brows. “Really! Are you fond
-of tennis?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have never played tennis.” Patience repressed
-a smile as the girl looked frankly shocked. Still the
-guest was evidently determined to be amiable.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hope you don’t think it frivolous?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no, I should like to learn all those things very
-much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, Miss Peele can teach you. She is awfully
-clever at all those things. Don’t you think Miss Mairs
-looks like Mary Anderson?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mary Anderson?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, the actress, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have never seen her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girl was visibly embarrassed. Another, who
-looked as if harbouring a grin in her straight little
-mouth, came to the rescue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I do think Mr. Peele is so good-looking,” she
-exclaimed, with a fine show of animation. “We all
-think you are to be congratulated.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience smiled at the frank rudeness of this remark,
-and said nothing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know Amy Murray was wild about him. She’s
-not here to-day, I notice. We did think it too bad
-that he wouldn’t go out. Some of the girls have met
-him here, but I never have. They say he is awfully
-fascinating.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, he is fascinating,” said Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What have you been doing with yourself if you
-have never learned to golf nor play tennis?” asked
-another girl, insolently. She was a tall girl, with a
-wooden face, a tight mouth, and an “air.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I read, mostly,” said Patience, with an extremely
-bored air.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The mother of the third girl turned swiftly and
-smiled at the bride, a humorous smile in which there
-was some pity. Patience had observed her before.
-She was a tall woman with a slender figure of extreme
-elegance. Her dark bright face was little older than
-her daughter’s. Her ease of manner was so great that
-it was almost self-conscious.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, say!” she exclaimed, “don’t think we’re all
-like that. The girls don’t have much time to read—that’s
-true—but after they settle down they do, really.
-Hal reads French novels—the little reprobate!—We
-read French novels too, but a lot else besides. Oh,
-really! Outsiders—the people that only know society
-through the newspapers, don’t you know?—misjudge
-us terribly, really. Some of the brightest women of
-the world are in New York society—why shouldn’t
-they be? And if the girls don’t study it’s their own
-fault; they certainly have every opportunity under the
-sun. I was made to study. My father was old-fashioned,
-and had no nonsense about him. I always say I was
-educated beyond my brains, but I’d rather have it
-that way than the other. Now, I assure you I read
-everything. I have a standing order on the other side
-with an English and a French book-seller, to send me
-every book the minute it attracts attention—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’re real intellectual, you are,” drawled
-Hal’s mocking voice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The lady turned with a start and a little flush.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Hal!” she cried gaily, “how you do take the
-starch out of one.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’ve got enough to stock a laundry, so you
-needn’t worry. I’ve come to rescue my fair sister-in-law
-before you talk her to death. Come, Patience.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience arose with alacrity, and followed her out of
-the house.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t you like her?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, immensely. She’s as bright as a woman can
-be who has so little time to think about it. She’s a
-tall and majestic pillar of Society, you know, and she
-carries it—the intellect, not the pillar—round like a
-chip on her shoulder. That makes me weary at times.
-I’ve heard her talk for an hour without stopping. The
-only thing that makes me forgive her is her slang. We
-have a match occasionally.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Her daughter doesn’t look as if she used slang.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, she doesn’t. She’s no earthly use whatever.
-Are you enjoying yourself?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not particularly. But it’s a lovely scene.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The lawns, and knolls, and woods were kaleidoscopic
-with fashionettes in gay attire, shifting continually.
-There were not men enough to mar the brilliant effect.
-The music of birds soared above the chatter of girls,
-the sound of wood and brass. The river flashed away
-into the distance, a silver girdle about Earth’s green
-gown.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, very pret,” said Hal. “But come, I’m going
-to introduce you to my latest.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You didn’t tell me that you had a latest.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve only met him a few times—he’s from Boston.
-I expect I forgot about him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They were walking over the lawns toward the Tea
-House, a long low rustic building which stood on the
-edge of the slope. A hubbub of voices floated through
-the windows, peals of laughter, affected shrieks.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A lot of my intimates are there,” said Hal. “I’ve
-managed to get them together. May is doing the
-hostess act with her accustomed grace and charm, and
-I’m taking a half hour off.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They went round to the front of the house and
-entered. It was an airy structure of polished maple.
-Little tables, each with a delicate tea-service, were
-scattered about with artistic irregularity; round the
-wall ran a divan, luxurious, but not too low for whaleboned
-forms. On this the girls were stiffly lounging.
-The men were more at their ease. All were smoking,
-the girls daintily, but firmly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal! Hal! sweet Queen Hal!” cried one of the
-young men, rising to his feet. “I’ve been keeping
-this place—directly in the middle—for you. See, it
-shall be a throne.” He piled three cushions atop, and
-with exaggerated homage led her forward amidst the
-ejaculatory applause of the others.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Isn’t Norry too witty?” said one girl to Patience, as
-she made room for her, “and so original! Whoever
-else would have thought of such a thing?—although
-Hal ought to be a queen, don’t you think so? We
-just rave about her. Do you smoke? try my kind.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, thankful that at last she could do something
-like these people, accepted the cigarette. During
-her three months’ trip she had not smoked, as Beverly
-thought it shocking.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mr. Wynne,” cried Hal, suddenly, “come over
-here and talk to my sister-in-law. Patience, this is
-the young man from Boston, famous as the only New
-Englander whose ancestors did not come over on the
-‘May Flower.’”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A man with a smooth serious face rose from his
-cushions and came forward.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Awfully good-looking,” murmured the girl who had
-proffered the cigarette, “and wonderfully smart, considering
-he’s not a New Yorker. It’s too bad he’s so
-beastly poor, for he’s terribly <span class='it'>épris</span> with Hal.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The young man, who had paused a moment to speak
-with Hal, inserted himself as best he could between
-Patience and her new acquaintance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am glad you are here,” murmured the bride.
-“You do not look quite at home, and I am not,
-either.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He smiled with instant sympathy. “Oh, I don’t
-care very much for society, and I don’t like to see
-women smoke. It’s an absurd prejudice to have in
-these progressive days, but I can’t help it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You mean you don’t like to see Miss Peele smoke,”
-said Patience, mischievously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He flushed, then laughed. “Well, perhaps that is
-it. They are all charming, these girls, but there is
-something about Miss Peele that distinguishes her.
-Did you ever notice it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes. She is herself, and these others are
-twelve for a dozen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is it.” He glanced about at the girls in their
-bright gowns, which clung to their tiny waists and hips,
-their narrow chests and modest busts, with the wrinkleless
-perfection that has made the modern milliner the
-god he is. Their polished skin and brilliant shallow
-eyes, their elegant sexless forms, their haughty poise
-and supercilious air, laid aside among themselves but
-always in reserve, their consciousness of caste, were
-the several parts of a unique and homogeneous effect,
-which, Patience confided to Mr. Wynne, must mark
-out the New York girl in whatever wilds she trod.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, it does,” he said. “The New York girl is <span class='it'>sui
-generis</span>, and so thoroughly artificial a product that it
-seems incredible she can exist through another generation.
-I will venture to predict that the species will be
-extinct in three, and that American women of a larger
-and more human type will gradually be drawn into New
-York, and found a new race, so to speak. Why, it
-seems to me that the children of these women must
-be pigmies—imagine one of those girls being the
-mother of a man. It is well that New York is not
-America.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Involuntarily Patience’s eyes wandered to Hal. Her
-waist was as small, her figure as unwomanly as the
-others.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is true,” said Wynne, answering her thought;
-“but she is so charming that one is quite willing she
-should do nothing further for the human race.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience burst into a light laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What’s the matter?” asked Wynne.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It suddenly struck me—the almost comical difference
-between these girls and the ‘Y’s,’ and the ‘King’s
-Daughters.’ It does not seem possible that such types
-can exist within ten miles of each other. I should
-explain that I have passed the last three years in a
-country town.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is odd how religion holds its own in those small
-places. It is opera, theatre, balls, Browning societies,
-everything to those people shut out of the manifold distractions
-of cities. Religion seems to be the one excitement
-of the restricted life. Human nature demands
-some sort of emotional outlet—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What on earth are you two talking about?” cried
-the girl on the other side. “Will you have another
-cigarette, Mrs. Beverly?—that is what we shall all call
-you, you know. Mr. Wynne, please talk to me a while.
-Isn’t this Tea House too sweet?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is more,—it is angelic,” said Wynne, gravely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh! you’re guying!” Even her voice pouted.
-“Oh! please shake those ashes off my gown—quick!—thanks.
-Oh, your eyes are grey. I thought they
-were brown. I’m afraid of grey eyes, aren’t you, Mrs.
-Beverly—Oh, dear! your eyes are grey too. What
-ever shall I do?” and she cast up her hands. Even
-her sleek hair seemed to quiver.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is the misfortune of the American race to run to
-grey eyes,” said Wynne. “Habit should have steeled
-you by this time—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, he made a pun! he made a pun!” cried the
-girl.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did not!—I beg pardon, but I never did such
-a thing in my life,” cried Wynne, indignantly; and
-Patience felt suddenly depressed, although she too had
-found a friend in habit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal rose while the girl was lisping mock apologies.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve got to go,” she said. “Isn’t it hateful? But
-I must go and do my duty. Patience, you must
-come too. Why are you blocking the doorway, Mr.
-Wynne?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am going with you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Really? Well, bye-bye;” and the three went off,
-followed by a gentle chorus of regrets.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, my dear,” said Hal, “there is a group
-of people over there looking hideously bored. You
-go and cheer them up, while I do my duty by those
-austere and venerable dames who are staring through
-their lorgnettes at the dining-room windows—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Hal, I can’t! Don’t send me to those people
-alone. What can I say to them?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience, my dear, this is a world of woe. One
-day you will be châtelaine of this place and be giving
-garden-parties on your own account, so you’d better
-take the kindergarten course, and be thankful for the
-chance. Go on.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience walked unwillingly over to a group of four
-women seated under a drooping oak. She had forgotten
-the names of nine tenths of the guests, but she
-recognised Mrs. Laurence Gibbs, a plain rather dowdy
-little woman with sad face and abstracted gaze. Beside
-her on the rustic seat was a woman who gave a
-dominant impression of teeth: they fairly flashed in the
-shadows. In a chair sat a woman of remarkable prettiness.
-She would have been a beauty had her features
-been larger, so regular were they, so sweet her expression,
-so soft her colouring of pink and white and brown,
-so tall and full her figure. In another chair was a
-young woman of no beauty but much distinction. Her
-prematurely white hair was curled and tied at the base
-of her head with a black ribbon, realising an eighteenth
-century effect. Her face was dark and brilliant. She
-sat forward, her slim figure full of suppressed energy.
-She had been talking with much animation, but as
-Patience approached she paused abruptly. The pretty
-woman burst into a merry laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mrs. Lafarge was just remarking what hideous
-bores garden parties are,” she said audaciously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you needn’t mind me,” said Patience, sitting
-down on the grass, as there was no other seat. “I
-quite agree with you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, that’s awfully good of you, Mrs. Peele,” said
-Mrs. Lafarge, “and awfully mean of you, Mary Gallatin.
-Of course this is one of the loveliest places on the
-Hudson, and I love to come here; but there are not
-enough men. That’s the whole trouble.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That always seems to be the cry with you American
-women,” said she of the teeth. “You have no resources.
-You should be independent of men. They
-seem to be of you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps you are driven to resources in Russia,”
-said Mrs. Gallatin, sweetly, “but your observation is
-faulty. We are spoiled over here, and that is the reason
-we grumble occasionally.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You see we haven’t a large leisure class, as you
-have,” said Mrs. Gibbs, hastily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I really think the reason men avoid garden parties
-is that they are afraid they might be betrayed into sentiment,”
-broke in Mrs. Lafarge. “They do protect
-themselves so fiercely. How did you ever make Tom
-Gallatin propose, Mary dear? He had the most ideal
-bachelor apartment in New York, and entrenched
-himself as in a fortress.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, one or two fall by the wayside every year,
-you know, and this time Gally happened to stumble
-over me. Poor Gally, he told me yesterday that he
-hadn’t seen me to speak to for a month. The idea
-of the lower classes grumbling. I should like to know
-who works as hard as we do. How do you manage to
-do the society and the charity, both?” she asked of
-Mrs. Gibbs. “Does Mr. Gibbs ever see <span class='it'>you</span>?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never neglect my husband,” said Mrs. Gibbs,
-sternly. “When I must neglect anything it is society.
-I came to-day because I longed for a glimpse of the
-country, and I have not been able to go to Woody
-Cliffs yet—the poverty is so terrible this year. I wish
-you would come with me sometime and see for
-yourself—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“God forbid! I never could stand the smells. I
-give my pastor so much a year, and I really think that’s
-doing one’s share. Of course if you like it, it’s another
-thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Like it!” cried the Russian. “You speak as if it
-were her pastime. I cannot express how gratifying it
-is to me to meet a serious woman occasionally in New
-York society.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I had a lovely time in Petersbourg,” murmured Mrs.
-Gallatin. “I never met an offensive Russian inside of
-the country. Poor America!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t understand,” said the foreigner, stiffly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am sure you understand English—you
-express yourself so clearly. We all weep over America
-occasionally, you know. It is a sort of dumping ground
-for foreigners,—who sit at our feet, and abuse us.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“One is at liberty to abuse insolence,” said the Russian,
-with suppressed wrath, “and the women of New
-York are the most insolent I have ever met.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, not among ourselves—not really. We think
-it insolent in outsiders to elbow their way in—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mary! Mary!” cried Mrs. Gibbs. “I hear that
-you spent some years with Miss Harriet Tremont,” she
-continued, addressing Patience. “She passed her
-entire life in charitable work, did she not?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, she did, and she enjoyed it too. Don’t you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Gallatin laughed softly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Enjoy it?” said Mrs. Gibbs. “I never have looked
-at it in that way. I think it my duty to aid my miserable
-fellow beings, and I am thankful that I am able to
-aid them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Odd, the fads different people have,” murmured
-Mrs. Gallatin. “Now mine is Russians. What is yours,
-Leontine?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Mary, you deserve to be shaken,” exclaimed
-Mrs. Lafarge, as the Russian sprang to her feet and
-stalked away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can’t help it. She’s a boor, and I wish she’d go
-back and live with a Cossack. Foreigners are all very
-well on their native heath, but as soon as they are transplanted
-to this side and treated with common decency
-they become intolerable. They grovel at our feet, swell
-because we receive them, and sneer at us behind our
-backs.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think you have a way of irritating them, my dear,”
-said Mrs. Gibbs. “You are a very naughty girl.
-Won’t you sit up here by me, Mrs. Peele? I am afraid
-the ground is damp. I shall ask you some time to
-explain to me Miss Tremont’s methods. I often feel
-sadly at sea.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear!” said Patience, “I doubt if I know
-them. I just followed her blindly. I may as well
-confess it—I didn’t take a very great interest in the
-work.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, how lovely!” cried Mrs. Gallatin.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am sorry that I have made a mistake,” said Mrs.
-Gibbs, stiffly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well—you know—there is such a thing as getting
-too much of anything—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is there?” Mrs. Gibbs rose, and shook out her
-skirts with an absent air. “I think I will go over and
-talk to Mrs. Peele;” and she walked away with an awkward
-gait, her head bent forward. She certainly did
-not have an “air.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Dear! dear!” exclaimed Mrs. Gallatin. “Just
-think! you have lost the interest of Mrs. Laurence
-Gibbs. She might have invited you to her exciting
-musicales or her cast-iron dinners.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, don’t abuse her,” said Mrs. Lafarge. “She is
-a harmless little soul, and does what she thinks is right.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She is happier too,” said Patience, her thoughts in
-Mariaville. “It is odd, but they always are. I think
-it’s because they’ve unconsciously cultivated the supremest
-and most inspired form of egoism, and naturally
-they get a tremendous amount of joy out of it—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hear! Hear!” cried Mrs. Gallatin. “She analyses!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My dear, you mustn’t do that out loud,” said Mrs.
-Lafarge. “You’ll be a terrible failure if you do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That would be a pity, because you are so pretty,”
-said Mrs. Gallatin, smiling. “I’ve been staring at
-you whenever I’ve had the chance, and you don’t
-know how many charming things I’ve heard said of
-you this afternoon.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, have you really?” asked Patience, warming instantly,
-as much to the kindly sympathy as to the agreeable
-words.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed I have. That violet against your hair and
-skin makes a perfect picture of you. <span class='it'>N’est-ce pas</span>,
-Leontine?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It certainly does.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think you are both very kind,” said Patience, with
-a young impulse to be frank. “I feel so out of it all.
-You see this is my first experience of this sort of thing,
-and some of those girls have made me feel like a
-barbarian.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They’d be glad of your freshness, not only of looks
-but of mind,” said Mary Gallatin. “I should think it
-would be a blessed relief to have some other sort of interest
-but just this,” and she swept out her arm disdainfully.
-“That’s the reason I go, go, all the time. I don’t dare
-think. When you have no talent, and are not intellectual,
-and not frantic about your husband, what are you
-to do? There’s no other resource, in spite of that
-Russian prig. I’d give a good deal to be beginning it
-all again at eighteen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is no spice in life without violent contrasts,”
-said Mrs. Lafarge. “That’s the real reason why so
-many of our good young friends are larky. The
-trouble with this world is that although there is variety
-enough in it, each variety travels in a different orbit.
-The social scheme is all wrong, somehow.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“True! True!” said Mrs. Gallatin, plaintively. “But
-I see they are about to eat. The open air always makes
-me hungry. That is variety enough for the present.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they crossed the lawn she laid her arm about
-Patience’s waist. “Bev doesn’t like society,” she said,
-“and I’m afraid you’re not in any danger of satiety;
-but don’t think out loud when you are in it. Leontine
-never does, do you, Leontine? And she is clever too.
-It must be delightful to be clever. Heigh-ho! Well,
-you must be sure to come to see me anyhow. I feel
-positive we shall be friends. Come some morning at
-eleven. That is just after I have had my tub and am
-back in bed again. I love to see my friends then.
-Oh, dear, we must scatter. There are not two seats
-together anywhere. Bye-bye.”</p>
-
-<h2>III</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Thank God they’re gone.” Hal divested herself of
-her tight smart frock, got into a lawn gown, lit a cigarette,
-and extended herself on the divan in her bedroom.
-“Well, Patience, how did you like it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t think I made the hit you expected.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“N-o-o-o, you didn’t exactly create a <span class='it'>furore</span>; but I
-don’t know that any one could do that with so much
-oxygen round: makes peoples so drowsy, don’t you
-know? But you were admired awfully. And then you
-are an unconventional beauty, and that always takes
-longer. Now, May made a howling sensation, but people
-are tired of her already. That type doesn’t wear.
-My plain phiz wears much better, because there was
-never any chance of reaction with me. Oh, dear, here
-comes Bev.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A knock, and in response to Hal’s languid invitation,
-Beverly entered. He was in evening clothes, and as
-handsome as ever; but he looked rather sulky.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You might have met me when I got home,” he
-said to his wife. “I haven’t seen you since luncheon.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tragic!” exclaimed Hal.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I was so tired I just drifted in here and fell in a
-heap,” said Patience, apologetically. “My skull feels
-empty, and aches inside and out.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then you don’t like society?” said Mr. Peele,
-eagerly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, very much indeed! I think it is delightful,
-delightful! Only the first time is rather trying, you
-know. I met some charming people, and want to meet
-them again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Peele grunted, and lit his cigar. His eyes devoured
-his wife’s fair face. Patience looked at Hal.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My mother says you carried yourself very well,”
-remarked Mr. Peele, gracefully; “that after the first
-you were quite at your ease. That was one reason I
-went away: I was so afraid you’d break down, or
-something.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience flushed angrily, but made no reply. She
-had learned that even a slight dispute would move her
-husband to a violent outbreak.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She looked more to the manor born than half the
-guests,” said Hal, “and if you took her out next winter
-she’d become the rage—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t wish my wife to be the rage! And she is
-going to stay here. If she loves me as much as I love
-her she’ll be as contented with my society as I am with
-hers.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“As if any woman ever loved a man as much as he
-loved her,” remarked Miss Peele. “I am sure Patience
-is no such idiot.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What?” cried Beverly. Patience rose hastily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think I’ll go and brush my hair,” she said, moving
-to the door; but he sprang to his feet and stood in
-front of her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell me!” he cried, his voice shaking. “Don’t
-you love me as much as I love you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Beverly,” she said, impatiently, “how can
-you get into such tempers about nothing? You have
-asked me if I loved you about nine thousand times
-since we were married. How am I to know how much
-you love me? Have you a plummet and line about
-you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are dodging the question. And you have
-never asked me if I loved you—not once—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience slipped past him and ran down the hall to her
-room. Before she could close the door he was beside
-her. He caught her in his arms and kissed her violently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall always be mad about you,” he said. “And
-I believe you are growing cold. You have not been
-the same lately. Sometimes I think that you shrink
-from me as you did at first. Tell me what I have
-done. I’d sell my soul to keep you. If you are tired
-of me, I’ll kill myself—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She disengaged herself. “Listen,” she said; “I’ve
-tried to explain—but you don’t seem to understand—that
-I didn’t want to fall in love with you—not in that
-way. That should not come first. Then when I found
-myself made of common clay, I said that I would forget
-that I had ever been Patience Sparhawk, and begin life
-again as Mrs. Beverly Peele. Novelty helped me; and
-when one is travelling, one’s ego appears to be dissolved
-into the changing scene—one is simply a sensitised
-plate. But now I am beginning to feel like
-Patience Sparhawk again, and it frightens me a little.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly, to whom the larger part of these remarks
-were pure Greek, blanched to the lips.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then you regret it,” he stammered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t say that. I only mean that I seem to
-spend life readjusting myself; and that now I seem to
-be all at sea again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t love me any longer! Oh, God!” and
-he flung himself on the floor, and burying his face in a
-chair, groaned aloud.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was disgusted, but his suffering, primary as
-it was, touched her. Moreover, her broad vein of philosophy
-was active once more. She was by no means
-prepared to leave him—the tide was ebbing very slowly.
-She sat down on the chair, and lifted his face to her
-lap. “There,” she said, “I am sorry I spoke. You
-don’t seem to understand me. If you did, though, this
-scene could never have occurred. But I love you—of
-course—and I do not regret it. So get up and
-bathe your eyes. It is after seven o’clock.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He kissed her hands, his face glowing again. The
-words were all sufficient to him. “Then if you love
-me you will see how happy I’ll make you,” he exclaimed.
-“I’ll never leave you a minute I can help;
-but if you stop loving me I’ll make life hell for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I thought you said you’d kill yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I would, but I’d get square with you first.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, suppose you go into your own room now, and
-let me dress for dinner.”</p>
-
-<h2>IV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The summer passed agreeably enough. Circumstances
-prevented Beverly bestowing an undue amount of his
-society on his wife, and until a woman is wholly tired
-of a man she retains her self respect. Moreover,
-Patience chose to believe herself in love with him:
-“it had been in her original estimate of herself that she
-had been at fault.” She persuaded herself that she
-loved him as much as she could love any man, and
-she did her pathetic best to shed some glimmer of spiritual
-light into a man who might have been compounded
-in a laboratory, so little soul was in him. But despite
-the clay which was hers, she loved it a great deal for a
-time in loving it at all, for that was her nature.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went to several other garden-parties, and found
-them more amusing than her own, although the young
-men that frequented them were quite uninteresting:
-even Beverly scintillated by contrast, for he, at least,
-had a temper; these more civilised youths appeared to
-have no emotions whatever.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Peele Manor was full of company all summer. Patience
-found the married men more entertaining than
-the younger ones, although they usually made love to
-her; but after she had outgrown her surprise and disapproval
-of their direct and business-like methods, it
-amused her to fence with them. They had more self-control
-than Beverly Peele, and were a trifle more skilful,
-but their general attitude was, as she expressed it
-to Hal: “There’s no time to lose, dontcherknow!
-Life is short, and New York’s a busy place. What the
-deuce is there to wait for? Sentiment? Oh, sentiment
-be hanged! It takes too much time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal was an accomplished hostess, and allowed her
-guests little time to make love or to yawn. There were
-constant riding and driving and yachting parties, picnics
-and tennis and golf. In the evening they danced,
-romped, or had impromptu “Varieties.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was fascinated with the life, although she
-still had the sense of being an alien, and moments of
-terrible loneliness. But she was too much of a girl not
-to take a girl’s delight in the dash and glitter and picturesqueness
-of society. She was not popular, although
-she quickly outgrew any external points of difference;
-but the essential difference was felt and resented.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the whole there was concord between herself and
-her mother-in-law. Mr. Peele she barely knew. His
-family saw little of him. He had not attended the wedding.
-When Patience had arrived at Peele Manor after
-her trip, he had kissed her formally, and remarked
-that he hoped she “would make something of Beverly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was an undersized man with scant iron grey hair
-whose tint seemed to have invaded his complexion.
-His lips were folded on each other so closely, that
-Patience watched them curiously at table: when eating
-they merely moved apart as if regulated by a
-spring; their expression never changed. His eyes
-were dark and rather dull, his nose straight and fine, his
-hands small and very white. He was not an eloquent
-man at the bar; he owed his immense success to his
-mastery of the law, to a devilish subtlety, and to his
-skill at playing upon the weak points of human nature.
-No man could so adroitly upset an “objection,” no
-man so terrify a witness. It was said of him that he
-played upon a jury with the consummate art of a great
-musician for his instrument. He rarely lost a case.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His voice was very soft, his manners exquisite. He
-was never known to lose his temper. His cold aristocratic
-face looked the sarcophagus of buried passions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He deeply resented his children’s failure to inherit
-his brain, but in his inordinate pride of birth, forgave
-them, for they bore the name of Peele. Hal was his
-favourite, for she, at least, was bright.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>May admired her sister-in-law “to death,” as she
-phrased it, and bored her with attentions. Patience
-preferred Honora, who puzzled and repelled her, but
-assuredly could not be called superficial, although her
-claims to intellectuality were based upon her preference
-for George Eliot and George Meredith to the lighter
-order of fiction, and upon her knowledge of the history
-of the Catholic Church.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One day, as Patience was crossing the lawn in front
-of the house, May called to her from the hall, beckoning
-excitedly. She and Hal and Honora were standing by
-a table on which was a saucer half full of what appeared
-to be dead leaves. As Patience entered, May lifted the
-saucer to her sister-in-law’s nostrils.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why? What?” asked Patience, then paused.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,—what a faint, delicious, far-away perfume,” she
-said after a moment. “What is it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>May dropped the saucer and clapped her hands.
-Hal laughed as if much gratified. Honora’s eyes wandered
-to the landscape with an absent and introspective
-regard.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it?” asked Patience again.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, it’s dried strawberry leaves,” said May.
-“Don’t you know that they say in the South that you
-can’t perceive their perfume unless every drop of
-blood in your veins is blue? The common people
-can’t smell it at all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience blushed and moved her head disdainfully,
-but she thrilled with pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Won’t you come up and see my room?” said
-Honora, softly. “You’ve never called on me yet, and
-I think I have a very pretty room.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’ll be delighted,” said Patience, who was
-half consciously avoiding Beverly: Peele Manor was
-without guests for a few hours.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now you must tell me if you like my room as much
-as you do me,” said Honora, who looked more like an
-angel than ever, in a white mull frock and blue sash.
-Her manner to Patience was evenly affectionate, with
-an undercurrent of subtle sadness and reproach.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she opened the door of her room, Patience
-exclaimed with admiration. The ceiling was blue,
-frescoed with golden stars, the walls with celestial
-visions. A blue carpet strewn with lilies covered the
-floor, fluttering curtains of blue silk and white muslin,
-the old windows. From the dome of the brass bedstead
-mull curtains hung like clouds. A faint odour of
-incense mixed with the sweet perfumes of summer.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is it not beautiful?” said Honora, in a rapt voice.
-“It makes me think of heaven. Does it not you? It
-was dear Aunt Honora’s last Christmas gift to me. It
-was so sweet of her, for of course I am only the poor
-cousin.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience looked at her, wondering, as she had often
-done, whether the girl were a fool, or deeper than any
-one of her limited experience. Honora rarely talked,
-but she had reduced listening to a fine art, and was a
-favourite in society. Whether she had nothing to say,
-or whether she had divined that her poverty would
-make eloquence unpardonable, Patience had not determined.
-One thing was patent, however: she managed
-her aunt, and her wants were never ignored.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now,” she said softly, “I am going to show you
-something that I don’t show to every one—but you are
-dear Beverly’s wife.” She folded a screen and revealed
-an altar covered with cloth of silver, antique candlesticks,
-and heavy silver cross.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My faith which sustains me in all the trials of life,”
-whispered Honora, crossing herself. “Ah, if I could
-have made dear Beverly a convert. Once he seemed
-balancing—but he slipped away. I have tried to win
-Hal and May to the true faith too; but we were always
-so much more to each other—Beverly and I,—playmates
-from childhood. I think I know him better than
-anybody in the world.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience felt an interloper, a thief and an alien, but
-out of her new schooling answered carelessly: “Oh,
-he is awfully fond of you, but I don’t think he is inclined
-to be religious. This room is too sanctified to
-speak above a whisper in. Come to my room and talk
-to me awhile.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora opened a door by the head of her bed, and
-they passed through a large lavatory, then through
-Beverly’s room to that of the bride, a square room
-whose windows framed patches of Hudson and Palisade,
-and daintily furnished in lilac and white. A
-photograph of Miss Tremont hung between the windows.
-On one side were shelves containing John
-Sparhawk’s library.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly arose from a deep chair, where he had been
-smoking and glowering upon the Hudson. Patience
-caught Honora firmly by the waist and pushed her into
-the most comfortable chair in the room, then with much
-skill engaged her in a discussion with Beverly upon the
-subject of music, the one subject besides horse which
-interested him.</p>
-
-<h2>V</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In August the girls went to Newport, and Patience became
-very tired of her mother-in-law. May returned
-engaged to a wealthy Cuban, who had been dancing
-attendance on her blondinitude for some months past,
-and Mrs. Peele became so amiable that she forgot to
-lecture her daughter-in-law or irritate her with the large
-vigilance of her polaric eyes. The girls left again for
-Lenox and Tuxedo. On the first of January the family
-moved to their town house for the winter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was alone with her husband.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>During the first three days of this new connubial
-solitude it snowed heavily. Beverly could not ride nor
-drive, and wandered restlessly between the stable and
-the library, where his wife sat before the blazing logs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There were some two thousand volumes at Peele
-Manor. Patience had had no time to read since her
-marriage, but on the morning of the family’s departure
-she made for the library, partly in self defence, partly
-with pleasurable anticipation. She hoped that Beverly
-would succumb to the charms of the stable, where there
-were many congenial spirits and a comfortable parlour;
-but she had barely discovered Heine’s prose and had
-read but ten pages of the “Reisebilder,” when the door
-opened, and he came in. She merely nodded, and went
-on reading. She was barely conscious of his presence,
-for Heine is a magician, and she was already under his
-spell.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you might shut up your book and talk to
-me,” said Beverly, pettishly, flinging himself into a
-chair opposite her. “This is a nice way to treat a
-fellow on a stormy day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you read too,” murmured Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I will not. I want to talk to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience closed the book over her finger and looked
-at him impatiently. Then an idea occurred to her, and
-she spoke with her usual impulsiveness.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Look, Beverly,” she said, “you and I have to spend
-many months alone together, and if we are to make
-a success of matrimony we must be companions, and
-to be companions we must have similar tastes. Now
-I’ll make a bargain with you: I’ll try to like horses if
-you’ll try to like books. On pleasant days I’ll ride and
-drive with you, and when it storms we’ll read together
-here in the library. I am sure you will like it after a
-time. If you find it tiresome to read to yourself I’ll read
-aloud. I don’t mind, and then we can talk it over.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“All right,” said Beverly. “Anything you say.
-What’s that you’re reading now?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Heine’s prose. He is wonderful—such a style and
-such sardonic wit, and such exquisite thoughts. I’ll
-begin all over again. Now light a cigar and make
-yourself comfortable.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For a half hour she read aloud, and then Mr. Peele
-remarked,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hang it! The skating is spoiled for a week.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Beverly, you haven’t been listening.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I don’t like it very much. He skips around
-so. Besides, I always did hate Germans. Give me
-America every time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, read something American then,” said Patience,
-crossly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You find something and read it to me. I like to
-hear your voice, even if I can’t keep my mind on it.
-Wait a while though. I guess I’ll go and see how the
-stable is getting on.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He bent down to kiss his wife, but she was once
-more absorbed, and did not see him. He snatched the
-book from her with an oath and flung it across the
-room. She sprang to her feet with flashing eyes,
-pushed him aside with no gentle hand, and ran after
-the book.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You sha’n’t read that book!” he cried. “The idea
-of forgetting your husband for a book—<span class='it'>a book</span>! You
-are a lovely wife! You are a disgrace to the name!
-You would rather read than kiss your husband! I’ll
-lock this room up, damned if I don’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll go and live with Miss Beale and do Temperance
-work,” sobbed Patience. “I won’t live with
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you won’t—what? What did I marry you
-for? My God! What did I marry you for? My life
-is hell, for I’m no fool. I know you don’t love me.
-You married me for my money.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish I had,” she exclaimed passionately, then
-controlled herself. “I hope we are not going to
-squabble in the usual commonplace way. I shall not,
-at any rate. If you lose your temper, you can have the
-quarrel all to yourself. I shall not pay any attention
-to you. Now go out to the stable and cool off, and
-when you come back I’ll read something else to
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you love me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes—yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And Beverly disappeared, slamming the door behind
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder if any one on earth has such a temper,”
-she thought. “And people believe that vulgarity and
-lack of control are confined to the lower classes! What
-is the matter with civilisation anyhow? I can only
-explain my own remarkable aberration in this way:
-youthful love is a compound of curiosity, a surplus of
-vitality, and inherited sentimentalism. It is likely to
-arrive just after the gamut of children’s diseases has run
-its course. Of course the disease is merely a complacent
-state of the system until the germ arrives, which
-same is the first attractive and masterful man. All
-diseases run their course, however. I could not be
-more insensible to Beverly Peele’s dead ancestors out
-in the vault than I am to him. No woman is capable
-of loving at nineteen. She is nothing but an overgrown
-child, a chaos of emotions and imagination. There
-ought to be a law passed that no woman could marry
-until she was twenty-eight. Then, perhaps a few of us
-would feel less like—Well, there is nothing to do but
-make the best of it, regard life as a highly seasoned
-comedy, in which one is little more than a spectator,
-after all—and at present I have Heine.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly did not return for an hour. When he did
-she rose at once, and running her eye along the shelves,
-selected a volume of Webster’s Speeches.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You like politics,” she said; “and all of us should
-read the great works of our great men. I’ll read the
-famous Seventh of March Speech.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And she did, Beverly listening with considerable
-attention. When she had finished he remarked enthusiastically,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you know what that speech has made me make
-up my mind to do? I’m going to run for the Senate,
-and make speeches like that myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience merely stared at him. She wondered if he
-were really something more than a fool; if there was a
-sort of post-graduate course.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What makes you look at me like that? Don’t you
-think I can?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well—” She hardly knew what to say.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well! Is that the way you encourage a fellow?
-You are a nice wife. Here my father has been at me
-all my life to do something, and just as soon as I make
-up my mind, my wife laughs at me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t laugh at you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it’s all the same. If I never do anything, it’ll
-be your fault.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go to the Senate just as fast as ever you can get
-there. And you might as well spend the rest of the
-day studying Webster; but suppose you read to yourself
-for a while: my throat is tired.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t like to read to myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, anyhow, I hear Lawson coming. Luncheon
-is ready.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The table in the dining-room had been divested of
-its leaves, and the young couple sat only a few feet
-apart. The room had once been a banqueting-hall.
-It was very large and dark. The white light filtered
-meagrely through the small panes. The wind moaned
-through the naked elms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The country is awfully dull in winter,” remarked
-Patience. “I wish we were in town.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s a beautiful speech to make to a husband.
-I don’t mind so long as you are here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I am deeply flattered,” and she smiled
-upon him. There seemed nothing else to do.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Damn it!” cried Beverly, “this steak is as thin
-as a plate and burnt to a cinder. Patience, I do wish
-you’d give some of your attention to housekeeping and
-less to books. It is your place to see that things are
-properly cooked, now that Honora is gone.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear. I don’t know anything about cooking, or
-housekeeping, either.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, then, I’d be much obliged if you’d learn as
-quickly as possible. Take this steak out,” he said to
-the maid, “and bring some cold beef or ham. Damn
-it! I might have known that when Honora went away
-I’d have nothing fit to eat, with this new cook.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience refused to continue the conversation, and
-when the ham and beef came he ate of them with such
-relish that his good-nature returned as speedily as it
-had departed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>During the afternoon the scene of the morning was
-repeated with variations, and the same might be said of
-the two following days. Then came an interval of
-sleighing and skating. Then rain turned the snow to
-slush, and once again Beverly exhibited the characteristics
-of a caged tiger.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall have nervous prostration before the winter
-is over,” thought Patience, who was still determined to
-take the situation humorously, still refused to face her
-former self. “I do wish the family would come back,
-mother-in-law and all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Occasionally, despite Beverly’s indignant protests, she
-went to town for the day, and shopped or paid calls
-with Hal. On one occasion they went to see Rosita.
-That “beautiful young prima donna of ever increasing
-popularity” wore black gauze over gold-coloured tights,
-and acted and sang and danced and allured with
-consummate art. The opera house was two-thirds
-crowded with men, although there was the usual matinée
-contingent of girls and young married women.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” thought Patience, “she’s way ahead of
-me, for she’s made a success of herself, at least, and is
-not bothered with scruples and regrets.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The winter dragged along as slowly as if time had
-lamed the old man, then fallen asleep. The relations
-between Patience and Beverly became very strained.
-His frequent tempers were alternated by sulks. He
-was genuinely unhappy, for limited as he was, mentally
-and spiritually, he was very human; and in his primitive
-way he loved his wife.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience’s resolution to go through life as a cynical
-humourist, deaf and blind to the great wants of her
-nature, died hard, but it died at last. Monotony
-accentuated fact, and the time came when pretence
-failed her, and she visibly shrank from his lightest
-caress. The tide of horror and loathing had risen
-slowly, but definitely. He threatened to kill her, to
-commit suicide, to get a divorce; but his threats did
-not disturb her. He was too weak to kill himself, too
-proud to make himself ridiculous in the divorce courts,
-and too much in love to put her beyond his reach.
-What sustained her was the hope that his passion would
-die a natural death, and that they would then go their
-diverse ways as other married people did,—that had
-come to seem to her the most blessed meaning of the
-holy state of matrimony. Then she could enjoy her
-books, and he would permit her to spend the winters
-in New York, or in travel.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly’s affections, however, showed no sign of dissolution.</p>
-
-<h2>VI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One afternoon in March, Patience, glancing out of the
-library window, saw Hal coming up the lawn from the
-path that led down the slope to the station. She suppressed
-a war-whoop with which she and Rosita had
-been used to awake the echoes of the Californian hills,
-opened the window, and vaulted out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” cried Miss Peele, as Patience ran toward her,
-“you do look glad to see me, sure enough. Bev can’t
-be very exciting, for you don’t look as if it were me
-particularly—just somebody. Oh, matrimony! matrimony!
-I envy the women that have solved the problem
-in some other way—the journalists and artists, and
-authors and actresses, and even the suffragists, God rest
-them. Hello, there’s Bev. He looks as if he were
-about to cry. What have you been doing to him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I left him writing an order for some new kind of
-horse-feed,” said Patience, indifferently. Her husband
-stood at the window, staring gloomily at the beaming
-faces. When the girls entered the room he had gone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He looks as if he had just been let out of the dark
-room. Do you beat him? What do you suppose my
-mother will say?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I suppose he’s bored too. You see it’s nearly
-three months now. I tried to make him read, but after
-the third day he went to sleep.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal drew a low chair to the fire, close to the one
-Patience occupied. She laughed merrily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Fancy your trying to make Bev intellectual! That
-would be a good subject for a one-act farce. Well,
-I’ve come up here to tell you something, and to talk it
-over. I, too, am contemplating matrimony.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, don’t!” cried Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I believe that is usually the advice of married
-people, but the world goes on marrying itself just the
-same. But my problem is much more complicated
-than the average, for there are two men in the question.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Two? You don’t mean to say you don’t know
-your own mind?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is exactly the fact in the case. You remember
-Reginald Wynne? Well, Patience, I do like that
-man. I never liked any man one tenth as much. I
-might say he’s the only serious man I’ve ever met, the
-only one, to put it in another way, that I ever could
-take seriously as a man. He has brains—he’s a
-lawyer, you know, and they say very fine things of him—and
-he is so kind, and <span class='it'>strong</span>. When I am with
-him I don’t feel frivolous and worldly and one of a
-dozen. If I have any better nature and any apology
-for a brain, they are on top then. He is the last sort
-of man I ever thought I’d fall in love with, but it takes
-us some years to become acquainted with ourselves,
-doesn’t it? I do respect him so, and it is such a novel
-sensation. He even makes me read. Fancy! And
-I’ve even promised him that I won’t read any more
-French novels, excepting those he selects, nor smoke
-cigarettes. So, you see, I am in love.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But, Patience,” she continued with tragic emphasis,
-“he hasn’t a red—and I know I’d be miserable,
-poor. When papa saw which way the wind was blowing,
-he took me into the library and told me that although he
-made fifty thousand dollars a year, we spent nearly all
-of it, and that he should not have much to leave besides
-his life insurance—one hundred thousand—which of
-course would go to mamma. It is a matter of honour
-never to sell this place, and the revenue from the farm—which
-is to go to Beverly—would keep it up in a
-small way. The town house is to be May’s and mine;
-but what will that amount to? May and I have always
-pretty well understood that if we want to keep on having
-the things that habit has made a necessity to us,
-we must marry rich men! Oh, dear! Oh, dear!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, the other man?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He has appeared on the scene lately. He is not
-the usual alternative by any means, for he is very attractive
-in his way. He has the manners of the man of
-the world, a <span class='it'>fin de siècle</span> brain, and the devil in his eye.
-He is rather good-looking and tremendously good form.
-And, my dear, he has three cold millions. Think what
-I should be with three millions! Fancy me in Boston on
-three or four hundred dollars a month. Oh, Patience,
-what shall I do?” And Hal, the most undemonstrative
-of women, laid her head on Patience’s knee and
-sobbed bitterly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I had to come to see you, Patience,” she continued
-after a moment. “I have no one else; I could never
-have said a word of this to mamma or May. And I
-like you better than any one in the world except Reginald
-Wynne. And you seem to understand things.
-Do tell me what to do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do this: Be true to your ideals. If love means,
-and has always meant more to you than anything else
-in the world, marry Reginald Wynne. If money and
-power and luxury are the very essentials of happiness
-to you, marry the other man. No temporary aberration
-can permanently divert one’s paramount want
-from its natural course. As soon as the novelty has
-gone, the ego swings back to its old point of view as
-surely as water does that has been temporarily dammed.
-There is only one thing that persists, and that is the
-ideal,—that habit of mind which is bred of heredity
-and environment, even where care or consciousness is
-lacking. It is as relentless and pitiless as the law of
-cause and effect. I believe it would outlive a very
-leprosy of the soul. And it makes no difference whether
-that ideal be great or small, high or low, its hold is
-precisely the same, for it is individuality itself. Rosita
-is happy because she has realised her ideal. Miss
-Tremont was happy because she lived up to hers. Miss
-Beale was supremely satisfied with herself when she let
-a man die whom she might have saved by smirching
-her ideals. The religionists are happy generally, not
-through communion with the presiding deity, as they
-imagine, but because they have arbitrarily created a
-sort of spiritual Blackstone whom they delight to obey.
-The author is happy when he toils, even without hope
-of reward. Martyrs have known ecstasy—But one
-could go on for a week. Don’t marry Wynne if you
-feel that you would be unhappy in poverty after the
-first few months; and if you feel that great wealth
-without love would be misery, don’t marry the other.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I could like Latimer Burr well enough,” said
-Hal, staring gloomily at the fire; “and after a time I
-suppose I’d forget. You see, I have been in love so
-short a time that the wrench would be a good deal less
-violent than the wrench from luxury—I’d soon get
-over it, I expect. But I do like him—I never thought
-I could feel like this.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience fondled the sleek head, but she was not in
-a mood to feel in sympathy with love. The only thing
-that to her seemed of paramount importance was to fix
-a clear eye on the future.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You see,” she said, “the present is ever with us,
-and the past recedes farther and farther. If the rich
-man can give you what you most want, time will make
-you forget the very sensation of love. If you marry
-Wynne and the love goes, you will have equal difficulty
-to recall it, and nothing to compensate in the
-present.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m not afraid that it would go; but I know that I
-should be thoroughly miserable poor, and make him
-miserable too. I do love it all so—all that money
-means—why, one can’t even be well groomed without
-money. It has gone to make up nine-tenths of my
-composition; the other tenth is only a bit of miserable
-wax. But I love this new feeling, and I never
-believed that anything could be so sweet. Oh, dear;
-I’ll have to dry up. Here comes Bev.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Remember this,” said Patience, “and let it console
-you: however you feel or are torn, you’ll do one
-thing only,—follow along the line of least resistance.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly entered and kissed his sister affectionately.
-Her back was to the light, and he did not notice her
-swollen eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you are looking hilarious,” she remarked in
-her usual flippant tones. “Has Tammany gone lame,
-or Mrs. Langtry refused to take her five bars?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My wife doesn’t love me!” Beverly had brooded
-upon his wrongs for two months. Hal’s words were as
-a match to a mine.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh!” exclaimed Patience, springing to her feet,
-“don’t let us have a scene for Hal’s benefit. Do cultivate
-a little good taste, if good sense is too far beyond
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her words were not soothing, and Beverly exploded
-in one of his most violent passions. He tore up and
-down the room, banging his fist alternately on the
-table, the mantel, and the books, and once he hit
-the panel of a door so heavy a blow that it sprang.
-Patience sat down and turned her back. Hal endeavoured
-to stop him; but he had found a listener, and
-would discharge his mind of its accumulated virus.
-He told the tale of the winter in spasmodic gusts, hung
-and fringed with oaths. Finally he flung himself out
-of the room, shouting all the way across the hall.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For a moment there was an intense and meaning
-silence between the two women; then Hal stood up
-and laid her palms to her head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience!” she said, “Patience! this is awful.
-What have I done? Oh, does it really mean anything?
-I have seen Bev go into tempers all my life—but—Tell
-me, please—does this really mean anything—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Whether it does or does not it need not worry you
-beyond warning you against mistakes on your own
-account. I married with my eyes open, and I can take
-care of myself. Don’t marry your rich man unless you
-like him well enough to pretend to like him a good
-deal more. If you do, you’ll end by loathing him and
-yourself—and what is more, he’ll know it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no, I don’t think I am as intense as you are—but
-what do you suppose makes Beverly such a wild
-animal? We are none of us like that, and never have
-been, as far as I know, although some of the old boys
-were pretty gay, not to say lawless. But for two or
-three generations we seem to have been a fairly well-conducted
-lot. Beverly is almost a freak.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience crossed the room, and lifting down a volume
-of Darwin’s “Descent of Man” read from the chapter
-on Civilised Nations:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“‘With mankind some of the worst dispositions which
-occasionally, without any assignable cause, make their
-appearance in families, may perhaps be reversions to a
-savage state from which we are not removed by very many
-generations.’”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<h2>VII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Two weeks later Patience received a letter from Hal
-which induced no surprise.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The die is cast [it read]. Reginald Wynne has gone
-back to Boston, and I am going to marry Latimer Burr.
-On the first of April we sail for Europe—mamma and
-May and I—to get our things.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Don’t imagine that I am doing the novel-heroine act,
-and sprinkling my pillow o’ nights. I did feel terribly, and
-I’ll never love any other man; but the thing is done, and
-done for the best, and that is the end of it. What you said
-about following along the line of least resistance is as sure
-as love and fate and a good many other things; for what
-Latimer Burr can give me I want more than what Reginald
-Wynne can give me, and it drew me like a magnet.
-And the other thing you said is equally true,—that the
-only joy in life is to pursue your ideals to the bitter end.
-Mine are not lofty, but they are <span class='it'>me</span>, and that is all there is
-to it. I shall not weep it out, because I’ve no beauty to
-lose, and weeping does no earthly good, anyway. If it
-would give Wynne Burr’s fortune I’d drown New York.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>We’ll be back on the first of June. We’re only going
-over to order things. I wish you joy of Honora. It’s
-too bad Bev is so much in love with you, or you might
-switch him off on to her. Oh, Patience, dear, you don’t
-know how much I’ve thought about you. It hurts me
-<span class='it'>hard</span> to think that you are unhappy. I feel as guilty as a
-murderer, but really I thought you’d get along. So many
-women had been in love with Bev, I thought you would be,
-too. I don’t think it had ever occurred to me that women
-sometimes had a soul. If I had known as much then as I
-do now I’d have done all I could to keep you apart, for
-Beverly Peele certainly has not the attenuated ghost of a
-soul.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience, dear, do stand it out. Don’t, <span class='it'>don’t</span> get
-a divorce. Remember that all over the world women are
-as miserable as you are, and as I might be if I would
-let myself go. Now, at least, you have compensations;
-and when I am married I’ll do everything I can to make
-life gay and pleasant for you; but don’t make a horrid
-vulgar newspaper scandal and leave yourself without resources.
-This world is a pretty good place after all when
-you are on top, but it must be hell underneath.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'>Lovingly &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<span class='sc'>Hal</span>.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<h2>VIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The day Mrs. Peele and her daughters sailed for
-France Mr. Peele and his niece returned to the Manor.
-Honora kissed Patience on either cheek.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am so glad to come back to my lovely room,
-and to see you, Patience dear,” she said wearily. “We
-have had such a gay winter, and I am so tired. Dear
-me, how fresh and sweet you look in that white frock.
-I just long to get into thin things.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Mr. Peele came up in the evening he narrowed
-his lids as he kissed Patience, and regarded her critically.
-“Well, how does Beverly wear in a three months’
-<span class='it'>tête-à-tête</span>?” he asked. “Gad! I shouldn’t care to
-try it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,” she said flushing, “we didn’t talk much.
-He had the farm and the horses to attend to, you
-know, and I had the library. Oh, I am so glad you
-have that library.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed aloud, with the harsh notes of a voice
-unused to such music.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I see you have had a Paul and Virginia time, as
-Hal would say. I’m sorry you’ve put your foot in it,
-for even you can’t make anything of him; but make
-the best of it. Don’t leave him—Hal has told me
-something, you see. It was best that she should.
-There must be no scandal. If he makes too great a
-nuisance of himself come to me; and if he cuts off
-your allowance at any time just let me know, and I’ll
-see that you have all the money you want. He doesn’t
-own the farm. I like you. You’re a clever woman. If
-you’d been my daughter I’d have been proud of you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And whether he really found pleasure in his daughter-in-law’s
-society, or whether he merely thought it
-politic to lighten her burden, from that time until the
-return of the family he devoted his evenings to her.
-He was deeply read, and Patience, after years of mental
-loneliness, was grateful for his companionship, although
-personally he antagonised her. He was a
-mentality without heart or soul, and she knew that he
-would sacrifice her as readily as he accepted her if it
-better suited his purpose.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She clung to Honora during the day and read aloud
-to her in the Tea House, while that devoted young
-Catholic embroidered for the village church or sewed
-for the poor of her beloved priest. Father O’Donovan,
-a young man with a healthy serious face and a clear
-eye, frequently joined them. Every morning the girls
-rode or sailed. Beverly frequently made one of the
-party, and Patience and Honora exercised all their
-tact to keep him in good humour. In the evening he
-played duets with his cousin. Her touch was as light
-and hollow as an avalanche of icicles from the roof,
-he pounded the piano as if it were a prize fighter’s
-chest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One evening Patience did not go downstairs until a
-few moments before dinner was announced. As she
-entered the library she saw that a stranger stood at the
-window with Mr. Peele. The priest was present, and
-she shook hands with him before going over to greet
-the stranger and her father-in-law. While she was
-agreeing with him that Honora in her white robe and
-blue sash looked exactly like an angel, the man at the
-window turned, and she recognised Mr. Field. She
-ran forward and held out her hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh! Oh!” she cried. “I’m so glad to see you
-again. I’ve wanted and wanted to.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He took her hand, smiling, but regarded her with
-the keen gaze she so well remembered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bless my soul,” he said, “but you have changed.
-It is not too much to say that you have improved.
-Even the freckles have gone, I see. I thought I was
-to make a newspaper woman of you. I felt rather cross
-when you married. But this life certainly agrees with
-you. You look quite the <span class='it'>grande dame</span>—quite—ah!
-Good evening, sir,” as Beverly entered and was presented.
-Mr. Field darted a glance from one to the
-other, his mouth twitching sardonically.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He sat at Patience’s right during dinner, and they
-talked constantly. Beverly was sulky, and said nothing.
-Mr. Peele rarely talked at table, even to Patience.
-Honora and the priest conversed in a solemn undertone.
-It is doubtful if two courses had been served
-before the terrible old man understood the situation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There’s tragedy brewing here,” he thought, grimly.
-“That fellow has the temper of a fiend in the skull of
-a fool, and this girl is not the compound I take her to
-be if she lives a lie very long for the sake of champagne
-and truffles. I’d give a good deal to foresee the outcome.
-Unless I’m all wrong there’ll be a two column
-story on the first page of the ‘Day’ some fine morning.
-Well, she’ll have its support, right or wrong.
-She’s a brick, and he’s the sort of fellow a man always
-wants to kick.—What is that?” he asked of the
-priest, who had begun a story that suddenly appealed
-to Mr. Field’s editorial instinct.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A physician over at Mount Vernon, who stands
-very high in his profession, has been accused of poisoning
-his wife. She died in great agony, and her mother
-insisted upon a post-mortem. Her stomach was full of
-strychnine. He maintains that she threatened to commit
-suicide repeatedly, and that he is innocent; but
-opinion is against him, and people seem to think that
-the jury will convict him. I knew both, and I feel
-positive of his innocence.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Undoubtedly he is innocent,” said Mr. Field.
-“No physician of ordinary cleverness would bungle
-like that. Strychnine! absurd! Why, there are poisons
-known to all physicians and chemists which absolutely
-defy analysis. I don’t doubt that more than one
-doctor has put his wife out of the way, and the world
-none the wiser.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is that true?” said Patience, eagerly, leaning forward.
-Her curious mind leapt at any new fact. “What
-are they like?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That I can’t say. That is a little secret known to
-the fraternity only, although I don’t doubt they give
-their friends the benefit of their knowledge occasionally.
-Indubitably a large proportion of murderers are never
-discovered—unless they discover themselves, like the
-guilty pair in ‘Thérèse Raquin.’”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, they belonged to the cruder order of civilisation,”
-said Patience, lightly. “I am sure that if
-I committed a murder, I should not be bothered by
-conscience if I had felt myself justified in committing
-it. It seems to me that if the development of the
-intellect means anything it means the casting out of
-inherited prejudices. Of course I don’t believe in
-murder,” she continued, carried away as ever by the
-pleasure of abstract reasoning, “but if a man of the
-world and of brains, after due deliberation, makes way
-with a person who is fatal to his happiness or his
-career, then I think he must have sufficient development
-of mental muscle to scorn remorse. The highest
-intelligences are anarchistic.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Undoubtedly there are those that have reached
-that point of civilisation,” said Mr. Field, “but for my
-part, I have not. Although I keep abreast of this
-extraordinary generation, my roots are planted pretty
-far down in the old one. But assuredly if I did feel
-the disposition to murder, and succumbed, I’d cover
-up my tracks.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do these poisons give pain? Are they mineral or
-vegetable?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Mr. Field was about to answer, a peculiar expression
-crossed his face, and Patience, following his eyes,
-looked at Beverly. Her husband was staring at her
-with his heavy brows together, the corners of his mouth
-drawn down in an ugly sneer. To her horror and disgust
-she felt the blood fly to her hair. At the same
-time she became conscious that Mr. Peele, the priest,
-and Honora were exchanging glances of surprise.
-Beverly gave an abrupt unpleasant laugh, and pushing
-his chair violently back, left the room. Patience
-glanced appealingly about, then dropped her glance
-to her plate. She felt as if the floor were dissolving
-beneath her feet.</p>
-
-<h2>IX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A week later, after a pleasant morning in the Tea
-House with Honora and Father O’Donovan, she left
-it to go to the library. As she turned the corner of the
-house she saw Beverly standing close to one of the
-windows.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What are you doing there?” she asked in surprise.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His brows were lowered and his skin looked black, as
-it always did when his angry passions were risen.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve been watching you and that priest,” he said
-savagely, following her as she retreated hastily out of
-earshot of the people in the Tea House. “I saw you
-exchanging glances with him! Now I know why you
-want to know so much about poisons—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you insane?” she cried. “What on earth are
-you talking about?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I’m not insane—by God! You’re in love with
-that priest, and I know it. But I’m on the watch—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,—you—you—” stammered Patience. She
-could not speak. Her face was crimson with anger and
-disgust. In her husband’s eyes she was an image of
-guilt. He burst into a sneering laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You think I’m a fool, I suppose, because I don’t
-know anything about books. But a woman said once
-that I had the instincts of the devil, and I’ve no idea
-of—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience found her tongue. “You poor fool,” she
-said. “It was ridiculous of me to pay any attention
-whatever to you; but I am not used to being insulted,
-even by you. And remember that I am not used to any
-display of imagination in you. As for <span class='it'>love</span>—” the scorn
-with which she uttered the word made even him wince—“do
-not worry. You have made me loathe the thing.
-I could not fall in love with a god. Don’t have the
-least fear that I shall be unfaithful to you. I couldn’t!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She walked away, leaving Beverly trembling and
-speechless. When she reached her room she locked
-the doors and sobbed wildly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, what shall I do? What shall I do?” she
-thought. “I can’t stand it any longer. I believe I
-really would kill him if I stayed. I feel as if my nature
-were in ruins. I hate myself! I loathe myself! I’ll
-leave this very day!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But she had said the same thing many times. Why
-does a woman hesitate long before she leaves the man
-who has made life shocking to her? Indolence, abhorrence
-of scandal, shame to confess that she has
-made a failure of her life, above all, lack of private
-fortune and the uncertainty of self-support. For whatever
-the so-called advanced woman may preach, woman
-has in her the instinct of dependence on man, transmitted
-through the ages, and a sexual horror of the
-arena. Patience let the days slip by, hoping, as women
-will, that the problem would solve itself, that Beverly
-Peele would die, or become indifferent, or that she
-would drift naturally into some other sphere.</p>
-
-<h2>X</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Peele and the girls returned with the June roses;
-the house was filled with guests at once. The Cuban
-had gone to his islands for the summer, and May
-chose to wear the willow and occasionally to weep upon
-Patience’s unsympathetic shoulder; but as frequently
-she consoled herself with the transient flirtation. Hal,
-apparently, was her old gay self. She did not mention
-Wynne’s name, and Patience was equally reticent.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I should be the last to remind any woman of what
-she wished to forget,” she thought. “And love—what
-does it amount to anyhow? If He came I believe I
-should hate him, because once I felt something like
-passion for him too.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had looked forward with some curiosity to meeting
-Latimer Burr. He also had been in Paris. He
-followed his lady home on the next steamer, and immediately
-upon his return came to Peele Manor.
-Patience did not meet him until dinner. She sat beside
-him, and at once became acutely aware that he was a
-man of superlative physical magnetism. She proscribed
-him accordingly—magnetism was a repellent force at
-this stage of her development. She was rather surprised
-that she could feel it again, so completely had Beverly’s
-evaporated.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Burr was a tall heavily built man about forty years
-old. He carried himself and wore his clothes as only
-a New York man can. His face was florid and well
-modelled, his mouth and half closed eyes sensual. But
-his voice and manners were charming. He appeared
-to be deeply in love with Hal, and his voice became a
-caress when he spoke to her. Patience did not like
-his type, but she forgave him individually because he
-was fond of Hal and appeared to possess brains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She fell into conversation with him, and his manner
-would have led her to believe that while she spoke
-neither Hal nor any other woman existed. To this
-Patience gave little attention: she had met that manner
-before; it was pleasant, and she missed it when lacking;
-but she had practised it too often herself to feel
-more than its passing fascination. His eyes, however,
-were more insistently eloquent than his manner,
-and their eloquence was of the order that induced
-discomposure.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience at times looked very lovely, and she was at
-her best to-night. Her white skin was almost transparent,
-and the wine had touched her cheeks with
-pink. The sadness of her spirit had softened her eyes.
-Her gown of peacock blue gauze fitted her round elastic
-figure very firmly, and her bare throat and neck and
-arms were statuesque. She had by no means the young
-married woman look, but she had some time since acquired
-an “air,” much to Hal’s satisfaction. To all
-appearances she was a girl, but her figure was womanly.
-Although about five feet six, and built on a more generous
-plan than the average New York woman, she walked
-with all their spring and lightness of foot. Her round
-waist looked smaller than it was; she never laced.
-Lately she had discovered that she “had an arm,” as
-Hal would have phrased it, and the discovery had given
-her such satisfaction that she had forgotten her troubles
-for the hour, and sent for a dressmaker to take the
-sleeves out of her evening gowns.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Burr also discovered it, and murmured his approval
-as caressingly as were he addressing his prospective
-bride.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The milk-white woman!” he ejaculated softly.
-“The milk-white woman!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Can’t you get any farther?” asked Patience. “If
-you were a poet now, that would make a good first
-line for a rhapsody—to Hal, for instance.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed indulgently. “How awfully bright you
-are. I am afraid of you.” But he did not look in the
-least afraid. “You are to be my sister, you know.
-We must become friends at once.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And flattery is the quickest and surest way of establishing
-the fraternal relation? Well, you are quite
-right; but just look at my hair for a change, will you?”
-(She felt as if her skin must be covered with red spots.)
-“Or my profile. They are also good points.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They are exquisite. I have rarely seen a woman so
-beautiful.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Dear! Dear! How relieved you must be to feel
-that you can keep your hand in without straying too far
-from Peele Manor. And there is also Honora.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t admire Miss Mairs. She is too tall, and her
-nose is too long.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Poor dear Honora! But how well you understand
-women! What tact! I like you so much better than
-I did before.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed again in his indulgent way. “You
-mustn’t guy me. It is your fault if I pay you too many
-compliments. You are a very fascinating woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are wonderfully entertaining. What must you
-be when you are in love! What do you and Hal talk
-about?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Isn’t Hal a dear little girl? I do love her. I
-never loved a woman so much in my life—never proposed
-before. She is so bright. She keeps me amused
-all the time. I always said I’d never marry a woman
-that didn’t amuse me, and I’ve kept my word. It
-isn’t so much what she says, don’t you know, as the
-way she says it. Dear little girl!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On this subject they could agree, and Patience kept
-him to it as long as possible.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After dinner Burr went with Mr. Peele into the
-library. Patience, passing through the room, found
-them talking earnestly upon the great question of the
-day,—the financial future of the country. She paused
-a moment, then sat down. To her surprise she found
-that Burr was master of his subject, and possessed of a
-gift of words which fell little short of eloquence.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The argument lasted an hour, during which Patience
-sat with her elbows on the table, her chin on her folded
-hands, her eager eyes glancing from one to the other.
-Occasionally she smiled responsively as Burr made
-some felicitous phrase. When the discussion was over,
-Mr. Peele left the room. Burr arose at once and
-seated himself beside her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never talked so well,” he said. “You inspired
-me;” and he took her hand in the matter-of-fact manner
-she knew so well.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You talked quite as well before you saw me—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I knew you were there—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Kindly let me have my hand. I have only two—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nonsense! Let me hold your hand. I want to!
-I am going to—Why are you—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Haven’t you Hal’s hand?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my God! You don’t expect me to go through
-life holding one woman’s hand? Hal is the most fascinating
-woman in the world, and I love her—but I
-want you to let me love you, too.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is quite immaterial to me whether you love me
-or not; and, I think, if you want plain English, that
-you are a scoundrel.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, come, come. You—<span class='it'>you</span>—must know more
-of the world than to talk like that. Why am I a scoundrel?”
-He looked much amused.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are engaged to one woman and are making
-love to another.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, what of that so long as she doesn’t know it?
-I shall be the most uxorious and indulgent of husbands—but
-faithful—that is not to be expected.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You must have great confidence in me. Suppose I
-describe this scene and conversation to Hal?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You will not,—not out of regard for me, but because
-you love Hal—dear little girl! And you are one of
-the few women devoid of the cat instincts. That long-legged
-girl, now, has a whole tiger inside of her, but
-you have only the faults of the big woman. I hope
-you have their weaknesses.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you shall never know if I have. Please let go
-my hand.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He flung it from him. “Oh, well,” he said, haughtily,
-“I hoped we should be friends, but if you will have it
-otherwise, so be it;” and he stalked out, and devoted
-himself to Hal for the rest of the evening.</p>
-
-<h2>XI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Funny world,” thought Patience. She shrugged her
-beautiful young shoulders cynically, and went forth to
-do her duty by the guests. As she passed out of the
-front door to join some one of the scattered groups on
-the lawns, she heard a voice which made her pause and
-tap her forehead with her finger. It was a rich deep
-voice, with a vibration in it, and a light suggestion of
-brogue. She turned to the drawing-room, whence it
-came. A man in riding clothes was talking to Mrs.
-Peele, who was listening with a bend of the head that
-meant much to Patience’s trained eye. The man had
-an athletic nervous figure, suggestive of great virility
-and suppressed force, although it was carried with a fine
-repose. The thick black hair on his large finely shaped
-head glinted here and there with silver. His profile
-was aquiline, delicately cut and very strong, his mouth,
-under the slight moustache, neither full nor thin, and
-both mobile and firm, the lips beautifully cut. The
-eyes, deeply set, were not large, and were of an indefinite
-blue grey, but piercing, restless, kind, and humourous.
-There were lines about them, and a deep line on one
-side of his mouth. His lean face had a touch of red
-on its olive. He might have been anywhere between
-thirty-five and forty.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience recognised him and trembled a little, but
-with excitement, not passion. She had understood herself
-for once when she had said that in her present
-conditions she was incapable of love. Beverly Peele
-would have to go down among the memories before his
-wife could shake her spirit free, and turn with swept
-brain and clear eyes to even a conception of the love
-whose possibilities dwelt within her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But she was fully alive to the picturesqueness of
-meeting this man once more, and suddenly became
-possessed of the spirit of adventure. There must be
-some sort of sequel to that old romance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She withdrew to the shadow of a tree, where she
-could watch the drawing-room through the window.
-Burr entered, slapped the visitor on the back, and bore
-him away to the dining-room, presumably to have a
-drink. When they returned, Mr. Peele was in the room.
-He shook hands with the stranger more heartily than
-was his wont. In a few moments he crossed over to the
-library, and Patience, seeing that her early hero would
-be held in conversation for some time to come, followed
-her father-in-law and asked casually who the visitor was.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, that’s Bourke, Garan Bourke, the legal idol,”
-sarcastically, “of Westchester County. In truth he’s a
-brilliant lawyer enough, and one of the rising men at
-the New York bar, although he will go off his head
-occasionally and take criminal cases. I don’t forgive
-him that, if he <span class='it'>is</span> always successful. However, we all
-have our little fads. I suppose he can’t resist showing
-his power over a jury. I heard an enthusiastic youngster
-assert the other day that Bourke whips up a jury’s
-grey matter into one large palpitating batter, then
-moulds it with the tips of his fingers while the jury sits
-with mouth open and spinal marrow paralysed. Personally,
-I like him well enough, and rather hoped he
-and Hal would fancy each other. But he doesn’t seem
-to be a marrying man. You’d better go over and meet
-him. He’ll just suit you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience returned to her post. Burr had disappeared,
-Bourke was talking to half a dozen women. In a few
-moments he rose to go. Patience went hastily across
-the lawns to the narrow avenue of elms by the driveway.
-No two were billing and cooing in its shadows, and
-Beverly was in bed with a nervous headache.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The moon was large and very brilliant. One could
-have read a newspaper as facilely as by the light of an
-electric pear. As Bourke rode to the main avenue a
-woman came toward him. He had time to think her
-very beautiful and of exceeding grace before she surprised
-him by laying her hand on his horse’s neck.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well?” she said, looking up and smiling as he
-reined in.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well?” he stammered, lifting his hat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am too heavy to ride before you now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He stared at her perplexedly, but made no reply.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Still if I were up a tree—literally, you know—and
-a band of terrible demons were shouting at a man
-beside a corpse—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What?” he said. “Not you?—not you? That
-homely fascinating little girl—no, it cannot be possible—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes,” lifting her chin, coquettishly. “I have
-improved, and grown, you see. I was more than delighted
-when I saw you through the window. It was
-rather absurd, but I disliked the idea of going in to
-meet you conventionally—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laid his hand strongly on hers, and she treated
-him with a passivity denied to Latimer Burr.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am going to tie up my horse and talk to you a
-while, may I?” America and the law had not crowded
-all the romance out of his Irish brain, and he was keenly
-alive to the adventure. He had forgotten her name
-long since, and it did not occur to him that this lovely
-impulsive girl was the property of another man; but
-although he had lived too long, nor yet long enough,
-to lose his heart to the first flash of magnetism from
-a pretty woman, yet his blood was thrilled by the commingling
-of spirituality and deviltry in the face of this
-high-bred girl who cared to give the flavour of romance
-to their acquaintance. He saw that she was clever, and
-he had no intention of making a fool of himself; but
-he was quite willing to follow whither she cared to lead.
-And it was night and the moon was high; the leaves
-sang in a crystal sea; a creek murmured somewhere;
-the frogs chanted their monotonous recitative to the
-hushed melodies and discords of the night world; the
-deep throbbing of steamboats came from the river.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He tied his horse to a tree, and they entered the
-avenue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You told me that it was a small world, and that
-we should probably meet again,” she said; “and I never
-doubted that we should.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I never did either,” he exclaimed. He was
-racking his brains to recall the conversation which had
-passed between them a half dozen years ago, and for
-the life of him could not remember a word; but he
-was a man of resource.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am glad that it is at night,” he continued, “even
-if the scene is not so charming as Carmel Valley from
-that old tower. How beautiful the ocean looked from
-there, and what a jolly ride we had in the pine
-woods!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She understood perfectly, and grinned in the dark.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ah! I remember I gave you some advice,” he exclaimed
-with suspicious abruptness. “I thought afterward
-that it was great presumption on my part.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder if you had an ideal of your own in mind
-when you spoke?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“An ideal?” He cursed his memory and floundered
-hopelessly. Even his Irish wit for once deserted
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I hoped you had not forgotten it. Why, I
-have made a little ‘Night Thoughts’ of what you said,
-and it has been one of the strongest forces in my development.
-Shall I repeat it to you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, please.” He was blushing with pleasure, but
-sore perplexed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And she repeated his comments and advice, word
-for word.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is it possible that you remember all that? I am
-deeply flattered.” And he was, in fact.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What more natural than that I should remember?
-I was a lonely little waif, full of dreams and vague
-ideals, and with much that was terrible in my actual
-life. I had never talked with a young man before—a
-man of seventy was my only experience of your sex,
-barring boys, that don’t count. And you swooped
-down into my life in the most picturesque manner
-possible, and talked as no one in my little world was
-capable of talking. So, you see, it is not so remarkable
-that I retain a vivid impression of you and your words.
-I was frightfully in love with you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh—were you? Were you?” He was very much
-at sea. It was true that she had paid him the most
-subtle tribute one mind can pay to another, but her
-very audacity would go to prove that she was a brilliant
-coquette. He had a keen sense of the ridiculous, and
-he was still a little afraid of her. He took refuge on
-the broad impersonal shore of flirtation, where the boat
-is ever dancing on the waves.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If you felt obliged to use the past tense you might
-have left that last unsaid.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, there are a thousand years between fifteen
-and twenty-one. I am quite another person, as you
-see.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are merely an extraordinary child developed;
-and you have carried your memory along with you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, the memory is there, and the tablets are
-pretty full; but never mind me. I want to know if your
-ideals are as strong now as I am sure they were then—if
-any one in this world manages to hold onto his
-ideals when circumstances don’t happen to coddle
-them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t know,” he said. “I’m afraid I haven’t
-thought much about them since that night. I doubt
-if I’d given too much thought to them before. Deep
-in every man’s brain is an ideal of some sort, I imagine,
-but it is seldom he sits down and analyses it out. He
-knows when he’s missed it and locked the gates behind
-him, and perhaps, occasionally, he knows when
-he’s found it—or something approximating it. We
-are all the victims of that terrible thing called Imagination,
-which, I sometimes think, is the sudden incursion
-of a satirical Deity. I have not married—why, I can
-hardly say. Perhaps because there has been some
-vague idea that if I waited long enough I might meet
-the one woman; but partly, also, because I have had
-no very great desire to marry. I keep bachelor’s hall
-over on the Sound, and the life is very jolly and free of
-small domestic details. There are so many women
-that give you almost everything you want—or at least
-four or five will make up a very good whole—that I
-have never yet faced the tremendous proposition of
-going through life expecting one woman to give me
-everything my nature and mind demand. But there
-are such women, I imagine,” he added abruptly, trying
-to see her face in one of the occasional splashes of
-moonlight.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A very clever woman—Mrs. Lafarge; perhaps you
-know her—said to me the other day, that many men
-and women of strong affinity took a good deal of spirituality
-with them into marriage, but soon forgot all
-about it—matrimony is so full of reiterant details, and
-everything becomes so matter of course. Do you think
-that is true?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am afraid it is. The imagination wears blunt.
-The Deity is sending his electricity elsewhere—to
-those still prowling about the shores of the unknown.
-Perhaps if one could keep the danger in mind—if one
-were unusually clever—I don’t know. I fancy civilisation
-will get to that point after a while. Unquestionably
-the companionship of man and woman, when no
-essentials are lacking, is the one supremely satisfying
-thing in life. If we loved each other, for instance—on
-such a night—it seems to me that we are in tune—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But we don’t love each other, as it happens, and
-we met about three quarters of an hour ago. We’ll
-probably hate each other by daylight.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I hope not,” he said, accepting the ice-water.
-“But tell me what your ideals were. I hope they have
-proved more stable than mine.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, mine were a sort of yearning for some unseen
-force in nature; I suppose the large general force from
-which love is a projection. Every mortal, except the
-purely material, the Beverly Peele type, for instance,
-has an affinity with something in the invisible world,
-an uplifting of the soul. Christianity satisfies the great
-mass, hence its extraordinary hold. Do you suppose
-the real link between the soul of man and the soul
-of nature will ever be established?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed a little, piqued, but amused. “You are
-very clever,” he said, “and this is just the hour and
-these are just the circumstances for impersonal abstractions.
-Well—perhaps the link will be established
-when we have lived down this civilisation and entered
-upon another which has had drilled out of it all the
-elements which plant in human nature the instincts of
-cupidity and sordidness and envy and political corruption,
-and all that goes to make us the aliens from nature
-that we are. About all that keeps us in touch with her
-now are our large vices. There is some tremendous
-spiritual force in the Universe which projects itself into
-us, making man and nature correlative. What wonder
-that man—particularly an imaginative and intelligent
-child—should be affected and played upon by this
-Mystery? What wonder that the heathens have gods,
-and the civilised a symbol called the Lord God?—a
-concrete something which they can worship, and upon
-which unburden the load of spirituality which becomes
-oppressive to matter? It is for the same reason that
-women fall in love and marry earlier than men, who
-have so many safety-valves. On the other hand, men
-who have a great deal of emotional imagination and
-who can neither love nor accept religion take refuge
-in excess. It is all a matter of temperament. Cold-blooded
-people—those that have received a meagre
-share of this great vital force pervading the Universe,
-which throws a continent into convulsions or a human
-being into ecstasy—such, for instance, are religious
-only because their ancestors were,—their brain is
-pointed that way. Their blood has nothing to do
-with it, as is the more general case—for Christianity
-is pre-eminently sensuous.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you suppose will take its place? The world
-is bound to become wholly civilised in time; but still
-human nature will demand some sort of religion (which
-is another word for ideality), some sort of lodestar.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A superlative refinement, I think; a perfected
-æstheticism which shall by no means eradicate the strong
-primal impulses; which shall, in fact, create conditions
-of higher happiness than now exist. Do we not enjoy
-all arts the more as they approach perfection? Does
-not a nude appeal with more subtle strength to the
-senses the more exquisite its beauty, the more entire
-its freedom from coarseness? When people strive to
-place human nature on a level with what is highest in
-art and in nature itself, the true religion will have been
-discovered. So far, man himself is infinitely below
-what man has achieved. It is hard to believe that
-genius is the result of any possible combination of
-heredity. It would seem that it must, like its other
-part, imagination, be the direct and more permanent
-indwelling of the supreme creative force—as if the
-creator would lighten his burden occasionally, and
-shakes off rings which float down to torment favoured
-brains.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I always knew that I should love to hear you talk,”
-murmured Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His hand closed over hers. He drew it through his
-arm and held it against his heart, which was beating
-irregularly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And I haven’t talked so much nor such stuff to
-a woman since God made me. I believe that I could
-talk to you through twenty years. You have said
-enough to-night to make me hope that our minds
-have been running along the same general lines.
-Tell me—honestly—no coquetry—has what I said
-that night had the slightest effect in your development?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She told the tale of the day in the crystal woods,
-giving a sufficiently comprehensive sketch of the events
-which had led up to it to make her the more keenly
-interesting to the man whose brain was beginning to
-whirl a little.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If you had come at that moment,” she concluded,
-“I would have gone with you to the end of the earth.
-I have a pretty strong personality, but there was a good
-deal of wax in me then, and if you could have gotten
-it between your hands I think that what you moulded
-would have closely resembled your ideal—the impression
-you had already made had so strongly coloured
-and trained my imagination. But,” she continued
-hastily, and glancing anxiously to the far distant end of
-the avenue, “you see my life changed immediately
-after that, and I went into the world and became hard
-and bitter and cynical. I have no ideals left, and I do
-not want any—I have seen too much—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hush!” he said passionately, “I do not believe a
-word of it. Why, that was not two years ago, and you
-are still a young girl. Have you loved any one else?”
-he asked abruptly, his voice less steady.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was too excited to note the meaning of her
-emphasis. He was only conscious that he was very
-close to a beautiful woman who allured him in all ways
-as no one woman had ever done before.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are full of a girl’s cynicism,” he said; “you
-have seen just enough to make you think you know the
-world—to accept the superficial for the real. You—you
-yourself are an ideal. All you need is to know
-yourself, and I am going to undertake the task of
-teaching you—do you hear? If I fail—if I have
-made a mistake—if it is only the night and your
-beauty that have gone to my head—well and good;
-but I shall have the satisfaction of having tried—of
-knowing—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, no! No, no!” she said. “You must not come
-here again. I do not want to see you again—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nonsense! You have some sentimental foolish
-idea in your head,—or perhaps you are engaged to
-some man who can give you great wealth and position.
-I shall not regard that, either. If I feel to you by
-daylight as I do now, I’ll have you—do you understand?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience opened her lips to tell him the truth, then
-cynically made up her mind to let matters take their
-course. At the same time she was bitterly resentful
-that she should feel as she did, not as she had once
-dreamed of feeling for this man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Very well,” she said, “I shall be here for a
-while.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And I shall see you in the course of a day or two.
-I’m going now. Good-night.” He let her arm slip
-from under his, but held her hand closely. “And even
-if it so happened that I never did see you again, I
-should thank you for the glimpse you have given me of
-a woman I hardly dared dream existed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When he had gone she anathematised fate for a
-moment, then went back to her guests.</p>
-
-<h2>XII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Latimer Burr was evidently a man upon whom rebuff
-sat lightly. The next morning he came suddenly upon
-Patience in a dark corner, and tried to kiss her. Whenever
-the opportunity offered he held her hand, and
-once, to her infinite disgust, he planted his foot squarely
-on hers under the dinner table. A few hours later they
-happened to be alone in one of the small reception-rooms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Look here,” exclaimed Patience, wrathfully, “will
-you let me alone?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I won’t,” he said good-naturedly. “Jove! but
-you are a beauty!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She wore a gown of white mull and lace, trimmed
-with large knots of dark-blue velvet. She had been
-talking all the evening with Mr. Peele, Mr. Field, and
-Burr, and was somewhat excited. Her lips were very
-pink, her eyes very bright and dark. She held her
-head with a young triumph in beauty and the intellectual
-tribute of clever men.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal would be delighted. She has always wanted
-me to become the fashion.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You never will be that, for there are not enough
-brainy men in society to appreciate you. If all
-were like myself, you would be wearied with the din of
-admiration—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There’s nothing like having a good opinion of
-oneself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why not? I don’t set up to be an intellectual
-man—intellectual men are out of date; but I’m a brainy
-man, and I’d like to know how I’m to help being
-aware of the fact. I certainly don’t claim to be pretty,
-so you can’t say I’m actually wallowing in conceit.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was forced to laugh. “Oh, you’d do very
-well if you’d exercise as much sense in regard to women
-as you do to affairs. Just answer me one question,
-will you? Are you so amazingly fascinating that
-women have the habit of succumbing at the end of the
-second interview?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never set up to be an ass.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But your manner is quite assured. You seem very
-much surprised that I don’t tumble into your arms
-and say ‘Thank you.’ Oh, you New York men are
-so funny!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, answer me one question—you don’t love
-your husband, do you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I don’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you like me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I would if you wouldn’t make such an idiot of
-yourself. You certainly are very agreeable to talk to.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He came closer, his lids falling. The fine repose of
-his manner was a trifle ruffled. “Do you love anybody
-else?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I do not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then let me love you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then if you don’t love your husband and you like
-me and will not let me love you, you must have a
-lover.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience burst into brief hilarity.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is that the logic of your kind?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“A beautiful woman that does not love her husband
-always loves another man.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Or is willing to be loved by the first man that happens
-to have no other affair on hand.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have said that you like me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I didn’t say I loved you!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d make you!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh!” with a deep contempt he was incapable of
-understanding, “you couldn’t. But tell me another
-thing; I’m very curious. Has it never occurred to
-you that a woman must be wooed, that it is somewhat
-necessary to arouse sentiment and feeling in her before
-she is willing to advance one step? Why, you and your
-kind demand her off-hand in a way that is positively
-funny. What has become of all the old traditions?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, bother,” he said. “Life is too short to waste
-time on old-fashioned nonsense. If a man wants a
-woman he says so, and if she’s sensible and likes him
-she meets him half way. Men and women of the
-world know what they want.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is all there is to love then? It no longer
-means anything else whatever?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh—you are all wrong. If you were not a spiritual
-woman I wouldn’t cross the room to win you.
-One can buy the other sort. It is your spirituality,
-your intellectuality, that fascinates me as much as
-your beauty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you know about spirituality?” she said
-contemptuously. “I don’t like to hear you speak the
-word. You desecrate it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He flushed purple. “There are few things I don’t
-understand—and a good deal better than you do,
-perhaps.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have a clever man’s perception, that is all.
-Association with all sorts of women has taught you the
-difference between them. But what could you give a
-spiritual woman? Nothing. You have not a shrunken
-kernel of soul. The sensual envelope is too thick;
-your brain too crowded with the thousand and one petty
-experiences of material life. You are as ingenuous as
-all fast men, for the women you have spent your life
-running after make no demands upon subtlety—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Take care,” he said angrily; “you are going too
-far. I tell you I have as much soul as any man living.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps. I doubt if any man has much. Men
-give women nothing, as far as I can see. If we want
-companionship there seems nothing to do but to descend
-to your level and grovel with you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I would never make you grovel. I would reverence—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, rot!” she cried, stamping her foot. “What a
-fool—and worse—the average woman must be.
-You have no idea how ingenuously you are giving away
-the women of society. And soul! The idea of a
-man who pretends to love the woman he is engaged
-to and is making love to another, and that her sister-in-law
-and most intimate friend, claiming to have a soul!
-Have you no sense of humour? I say nothing about
-honour, as I wish to be understood, if possible; but
-you are clever enough to see the ridiculous in most
-things—Please don’t walk over me. There is plenty
-of room. And the windows are open, you know—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, and I am here,” cried a furious voice, and
-Beverly sprang into the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stepped back with a faint exclamation.
-Burr turned white. Beverly was shaking with rage.
-His face was almost black; there were white flecks on
-his nostrils.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I kept quiet,” he articulated, “to hear every word.
-You dog!” to Burr. “I may be pretty bad, but I’d
-never do what you have done. And as for you,” he
-shook his fist at his wife, “you were only leading
-him on. If I could only have held myself in another
-moment I’d have seen you in his arms. Get out
-of this house,” he roared, “both of you. You’ll
-never marry my sister. I’m going to tell her this
-minute—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Burr sprang forward and caught him by the collar;
-but Beverly was not a coward. He turned, flinging
-out his fist, and the two men grappled. Patience
-closed the door and glanced out of the window. No
-one was near. Voices floated up from the cliffs. Burr
-was the more powerful man of the two, and in a
-moment had flung Beverly, panting, into a chair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Keep him here,” said Patience, rapidly, and she
-left the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Man is certainly still a savage, a brute,” she
-thought. “What is the matter with civilisation?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she crossed the lawn, she met one of the servants.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go and find Miss Hal, and ask her to come here,”
-she said. A few moments later her sister-in-law hurried
-up from the cliffs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it?” she called cheerily. “Has Bev had
-an apoplectic fit?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Beverly has been making a greater fool of himself
-than usual,” said Patience, as the girls met, “and
-I want to see you before he does. I was standing in
-one of the reception-rooms talking to Mr. Burr after
-Mr. Field and Mr. Peele had gone out, and he had on
-all his manner and was telling me how beautiful I was,
-in his usual after dinner style, when Beverly leaped
-through the window like the wronged husband in the
-melodrama and accused us of making love. He threatened
-to come and tell you, and he and Mr. Burr
-wrestled like two prize-fighters. If Beverly were put
-on the witness stand he’d be obliged to admit that
-Mr. Burr had not so much as touched my hand. I
-suppose you will believe me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal gave her light laugh. “Certainly, my dear,
-certainly; although if I were a man I should fall in
-love with you myself. I wouldn’t bet on Latimer,
-but I would on you—so don’t worry your little head.
-Do you suppose I expect a man with that mouth and
-those eyes to be faithful to me? Still, I must say that
-I should have given him credit for more decency than
-to make love to my sister-in-law—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He didn’t! I swear he didn’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, of course not! Nor will he make love to
-every pretty woman he finds himself alone with for five
-minutes. He can’t help it, poor thing. Let us go and
-talk to the gentlemen.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they entered the little room she exclaimed airily,
-“Been making a fool of yourself again, Bev? No,
-don’t speak. Patience has told me all about it. I
-have every confidence in her and Latimer. Better go
-and take a spin with Tammany. Latimer, you really
-must mend your manners. They’re too good. From
-a distance a stranger would really think you were making
-love when you are swearing at the heat. Now, come
-down to the Tea House. Good-night, Bevvy dear.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And she went off between her lover and her sister-in-law,
-leaving her brother to swear forth his righteous
-indignation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That night Patience opened the door of her husband’s
-room for the first time. Beverly, who had just
-entered, was so astonished that the wrath he had carefully
-nourished fell like quicksilver under a cool wave,
-and he stared at her without speaking.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish to tell you,” said his wife, “that you were
-entirely justified in being angry to-night. I could have
-suppressed Burr by a word, but I chose to lead him on
-to gratify my curiosity. Hal wishes to marry him, and
-I am determined that she shall. If I had admitted
-the truth to her or permitted you to enlighten her, her
-self-respect would have forced her to break the engagement.
-That would have been absurd, for the match is
-exactly what she wants, and she is not marrying with
-illusions. But you have been treated inconsiderately,
-and I apologise for my share in it. Will you forgive
-me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I’ll forgive you,” said Beverly, eagerly.
-“I wasn’t angry with you, anyhow—only with that
-scoundrel. But I never believed you’d do this. Do
-you care for me a little?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience averted her face that she might not see the
-expression on his. Despite her loathing of him she
-gave him a certain measure of pity. With all the preponderance
-of the savage in him and the limitations of
-his intelligence he had his own capacity for suffering,
-and to-night he stood before her crushed under the
-sudden reaction, his eyes full of the dumb appeal of
-shrinking brutes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If we are going to live peacefully don’t let us
-discuss that subject,” she said gently. “We have both
-missed it, and I sometimes think that you are more
-to be pitied than I am. However, I shall not flirt—I
-promise you that. Good-night.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That was the last of Mr. Burr’s illegal love-making at
-Peele Manor. He had had a fright and a lesson, and
-he forgot neither.</p>
-
-<h2>XIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Garan Bourke is coming to dinner to-night,” said
-Hal, the next day. “It’s the hardest thing in the
-world to get him; he never goes anywhere; but he
-half promised mamma, when he called the other night,
-that he’d come some day this week, and he wrote
-yesterday, saying he’d dine with us to-day. I want
-you to meet him. He is awfully clever, and when he
-talks I want to close my eyes and listen to his voice.
-If the dear girls ever get the vote and do jury duty, all
-he’ll have to do will be to quote law. He needn’t
-take the trouble to sum up. His voice will do the
-business every time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, in a French gown of black chiffon, was
-very beautiful that night. She did not go down to
-dinner until every one was seated. Bourke sat next to
-Mrs. Peele. Her own chair was near the end of the
-opposite side of the long table. For a time she did
-not look at Bourke. When she did she met his eyes;
-and knew by their expression that some one had told
-him she was the wife of Beverly Peele.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After dinner he went with Mr. Peele and Burr into
-the library. Patience was about to follow a party of
-young people down to the bluff, when Mr. Field drew
-her arm firmly through his.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are not going to desert your court?” he said.
-“Why, you don’t suppose I come up here to talk to
-Peele, do you? If you go out with those boys I’ll
-never come here again.” And he led her into the
-library.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was nearly twelve o’clock when she found herself
-alone with Bourke. The others had gone out, one by
-one. She had made no attempt to follow them. She
-sat with defiant eyes and inward trepidation. Bourke
-regarded her with narrowed eyes and twitching nostrils.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“So you are married?” he said at last.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you deliberately made a fool of me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No—no—I did nothing deliberately that night—no—I
-acted on impulse. And all that I said was
-quite true. Of course I should have told you—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But it would have spoiled your comedy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No—no—don’t think that. I see that I was
-dishonest—I am not making excuses—I never
-thought you’d become really interested—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am not breaking my heart. Don’t let that worry
-you. The mere fact of your dishonesty is quite enough
-to break the spell—for you are not the woman I imagined
-you to be. I was merely worshipping an ideal
-for the hour. Do you love your husband?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then you are a harlot,” he said, deliberately. “It
-only needed that.” He rose to his feet and looked
-contemptuously at her scarlet face. “At all events it
-was an amusing episode,” he said. “Good-night.”</p>
-
-<h2>XIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was a matter of comment before the summer was
-over, both among the guests at Peele Manor and the
-neighbours, that Mr. and Mrs. Beverly Peele had come
-to the parting of the ways. As the young man’s infatuation
-was as notable as his wife’s indifference, he
-received the larger share of sympathy. The married
-men championed Patience and expressed it in their
-time-honoured fashion; and although they worried her
-she looked forward with terror to the winter: she
-would willingly have taken them all to board and
-trusted to their wives to keep them in order.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly had confided his woes long since to his
-mother. She declined to discuss the subject with her
-daughter-in-law, but treated her with a chill severity.
-Fortunately they were gay that summer, and Patience
-had much to do. Hal and May were absorbed in
-preparations for their wedding, and the duties of hostess
-fell largely on her shoulders.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Late in the fall there was a double wedding under
-the medallion of Peele the First. Immediately thereafter
-May went to Cuba; and Hal to Europe, to pay a
-series of visits. Mrs. Peele continued to entertain, and
-was obliged to confess that her daughter-in-law was
-very useful, and in deportment above reproach. Outwardly
-Patience looked almost as cold a woman of the
-world as herself, and gave no evidence of the storms
-brewing within; but one day she hung out a signal.
-Mrs. Peele announced that she should go to town on
-the first of December. Patience followed her into her
-bedroom and closed the door.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“May I speak to you a moment alone?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Certainly,” said Mrs. Peele, frigidly. “Will you
-sit down?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She herself took an upright chair, and suggested,
-Patience thought, a judge on his bench.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I want to go to town with you this winter.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I should be happy to have my dear son with me,
-and I will not deny that you are a great help to me;
-but Beverly is as strongly opposed as ever to city life.
-I asked him myself to go down for the winter, but he
-refused. He is one of Nature’s own children, and loves
-the country.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He certainly is very close to Nature in several of
-her moods. But I wish to go whether he does or
-not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You would leave your husband?” Mrs. Peele
-spoke with meditative scorn.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It will be better for both of us not to be shut
-up here together for another winter. I—I will not
-answer for the consequences.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is that a threat?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can take it as you choose.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you not love my son?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I do not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you are not ashamed to make such an
-admission?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Would you prefer to have me lie about it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is your duty to love your husband.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That proposition is rather too absurd for argument,
-don’t you think so? Will you persuade Beverly to let
-me go with you to town?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall not. You should be glad, overjoyed, to
-have such a husband. You should feel grateful,” she
-added, unburdening her spite in the vulgarity which
-streaks high and low, “that he loved you well enough
-to overlook your lack of family and fortune—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience had left the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That evening she went to her father-in-law and
-stated her case. She spoke calmly, although she was
-bitter and sore and worried. “I cannot stay here with
-Beverly this winter,” she continued. “I need not
-explain any farther. Mrs. Peele will not consent to my
-going to town with her. But couldn’t I live abroad?
-I could do so on very little. I should care nothing for
-society if I could live my life by myself. I should be
-quite contented with books and freedom. But I cannot
-stay here with Beverly alone again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele shook his head. “It wouldn’t do. I
-understand; but it would only result in scandal, and I
-don’t like scandal. We have never gone to pieces, like
-so many great New York families. Our women have
-been proud and conservative, and have not used their
-position to cloak their amours. I have perfect confidence
-in you, of course; but if you went to Europe and
-left Beverly raging here, people would say that you had
-gone to meet another man. Moreover, it would do no
-good. Beverly would follow you. And he will give
-you no cause for divorce: he has the cunning peculiar
-to the person of ugly disposition and limited mentality.
-No, try to stand it. Remember that all the humours
-of human nature have their limit. Beverly will become
-indifferent in time. Then he will let you come to us.
-I intend to take a rest in a year or two and go abroad,
-and I shall be glad to have you with us. I do not mind
-telling you that you are the brightest young woman I
-have ever known—and Mr. Field has said the same
-thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience was not in a mood to bend her neck to
-flattery. She shook her head gloomily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If I have any brain, cannot you see that I suffer the
-more? Mr. Peele, I cannot stay here with Beverly!
-Do you know that sometimes I have felt that I could
-kill him? I am afraid of myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hush! Hush! Don’t say such things. You excitable
-young women are altogether too extravagant in
-your way of expressing yourselves. Words carry a great
-deal farther than you have any idea of—take an old
-lawyer’s word for it. Now try to stand it. In fact,
-you must stand it. I’ll do all I can. I’ll leave a
-standing order with Brentano to send you all the new
-books, and I’ll insist upon your coming up every week
-or so to have some amusement. But for God’s sake
-make no scandal.”</p>
-
-<h2>XV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the first of December Patience and Beverly were
-alone once more. The weather was fine, and Beverly
-temporarily absorbed in breaking in a colt on his private
-track. Patience spent the first day wandering about
-the woods, tormented by her thoughts. She remembered
-with passionate regret the old crystal woods
-where she had been a girl of dreams and ideals. Her
-ideals were in ruins. The hero of her dreams had told
-her a hideous truth that had made her hate him and
-more abundantly despise herself. She longed ardently
-to get away to a mountain top, a hundred miles from
-civilisation. Nature had been her friend in the old
-Californian days, and the green or white beauty of her
-second environment had satisfied her in that peaceful
-intermediate time. But Westchester County, although
-exquisitely pretty, lacked grandeur and the suggestion of
-colossal throes in remote ages with which every stone in
-California is eloquent. That was what she wanted now.
-But there was no prospect of getting away. Did she
-have enthusiasm enough left to leave summarily she
-had little money. She was very extravagant, and left
-the larger part of her quarterly allowance with New
-York shops and milliners and dressmakers; but she
-knew that the end was approaching, and listlessly
-awaited it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Heavy with rebellious disgust she returned to the
-house and went mechanically to the library. For a
-while she did not read; she felt no impulse to do so.
-But after a time she took down a book in desperation,
-a volume of a new edition de luxe of “Childe
-Harold.” She had not read it during her brief Byronic
-fever, and had not opened the poet since. Gradually
-she forgot self. She began with the third canto, and
-when she had finished the fourth she discovered that
-her spirits were lighter, a weight had risen from her
-brain. She had always regarded “notes” as an evidence
-of the amateur reader, but to-day she scrawled on
-a fly-leaf of Mr. Peele’s new morocco edition:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“As the Christian goes to his God for help, the intellectual,
-in hours of depression and disgust and doubt go
-to the great Creators of Literature, those master minds
-that lift our own temporarily above the terrible enigma of
-the commonplace, and possess us to the extinction of
-personal meditation. Are not these genii as worthy of deification
-by the higher civilisation as was Jesus Christ—their
-brother—by the great illogical suffering mass of mankind?
-‘Faith shall make ye whole,’ said Christ; ‘come unto me,
-all ye that are heavy laden.’ ‘Develop your brain, and I
-will give you self-oblivion, philosophy, and a soul of many
-windows,’ say the great masters of thought and style, the
-stupendous creative imaginations.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly came home in high good humour; his colt
-had showed his blood, and nearly pulled him out of the
-break-cart. Patience endeavoured to appear interested,
-and he was so pleased that the atmosphere during
-dinner was quite domestic. Afterward he went to
-sleep on a sofa by the library fire, and his wife read.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A week passed more placidly than Patience had expected.
-Beverly was evidently under stress to make
-himself agreeable. His wife suspected that he had had
-a long and meaning conference with his father. In
-truth he was desperately afraid that she would leave
-him. Patience did not know whether she hated him
-most when he was amiable or violent; but she hated
-herself more than she hated him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think I’ll go to town and see Rosita,” she
-thought one morning as she awakened. “It seems to
-me that she is the fittest companion I could find.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At the breakfast-table she appeared in a tailor frock
-and turban, and informed Beverly that she was going to
-town to pay some visits. Beverly looked at her for a
-moment with black face, then dropped his eyes without
-comment. He recalled his father’s advice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What train shall you come home in?” he asked
-after a moment. “I’ll go down to the station to meet
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I cannot say. I shall be back to dinner.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Aren’t you going to kiss me good-bye?” he asked
-sullenly, when she was about to open the front door.
-She hesitated a moment, then raised her face, closing
-her eyes, lest he should see the impulse to strike him.
-He saw the hesitation and turned away with an oath,
-then ran after her, flung his arms about her and kissed
-her. She walked down to the station with burning
-face, rubbing her mouth and cheeks violently, careless
-of the wide-eyed regard of two gardeners.</p>
-
-<h2>XVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she arrived at Rosita’s the maid admitted her
-without protest, not recognising in this elegant young
-woman the countrified girl of two years before. She
-left Patience in the dark drawing-room, but returned in
-a moment and announced that Madame would see Mrs.
-Peele at once. Patience followed the woman through
-the boudoir and bedroom to the bath-room, a classic
-apartment of pink tiles. The tub was merely one corner
-of the room walled off with tiles; and in it, covered
-from throat to foot with a sheet, her head on a silken
-strap, lay Rosita. By her side sat a girl in a fashionable
-ulster and large hat, a note-book and pencil on
-her lap. Rosita looked like a dark-haired Aphrodite,
-and was as fresh as a rose. A maid had just dried one
-pink and white hand, and she held it out to Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita! Patita! Patita!” she said with her sweet
-drawl and accent, and without a trace of resentment in
-her soft heavy eyes. “Where, where have you been all
-these years? Miss Merrien, this is my oldest and
-dearest friend, Mrs. Beverly Peele [she pronounced the
-name with visible pride]. Patita, this is Miss Merrien
-of the ‘Day.’ She is interviewing me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience flushed as she bent her head to the young
-woman, who regarded her with conspicuous amazement,
-and whose nostrils quivered a little, as if she scented a
-“story.” She was a pretty girl with a dark rather worn
-face, a frank eye, and a nervous manner.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita, sit down there just for a moment while I
-look at you. Then we will go into the other room.
-I could not wait to see you. <span class='it'>Dios de mi alma</span>, but you
-have changed, Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>. Who would ever have
-thought that you would be such a beauty and such a
-swell. Gray cloth and chinchilla! Just think, Miss
-Merrien, we used to wear sunbonnets and copper-toed
-boots, and drove an old blind horse that would not go
-off a walk.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“May I put that down?” asked the girl, eagerly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, please don’t,” exclaimed Patience. Miss Merrien’s
-face fell. Then she smiled, and said good-naturedly,
-“All right, I won’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And now Patita is a swell,” pursued Rosita,
-as if no interruption had occurred, “and I am a
-famous <span class='it'>prima donna</span>. Such is life. Patita, do you
-know that I have two hundred thousand dollars invested?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Really?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si, señorita!</span> Oh, my price has gone up, Patita
-<span class='it'>mia</span>,” and she laughed her low delicious laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien smiled. “A man shot himself for that
-laugh the other day—I suppose you read about it,”
-she said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I did not. I have read the newspapers irregularly
-of late—the ‘stories,’ at least.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is true,” said Rosita, complacently. “Oh, Patita,
-life is so lovely. To think that we both had such great
-destinies! <span class='it'>Pobre</span> Manuela, and Panchita, and all the
-rest! <span class='it'>Bueno</span>, go into the bedroom, both of you, and I
-will be there in ten minutes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience and Miss Merrien seated themselves in the
-white bower of velvet and lace.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Please do not put me into your story,” said Patience,
-hastily. “It would not do—you see my husband
-would not like it—but we are old friends, and I
-wanted to see her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien nodded intelligently. With the suspicion
-of her craft she leaped to the conclusion that the
-fashionable young woman came to her disreputable
-friend for an occasional lark.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I promise you. If you hadn’t asked me I
-should though. It would make a fine story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell me,” said Patience abruptly, “do you like being
-a newspaper woman? Is it very hard work?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, it’s hard work,” Miss Merrien answered in some
-surprise; “but then it is the most fascinating, I do
-believe, in the whole world. I have a family and a
-home out West, and I could go back and be comfortable
-if I wanted to; but I wouldn’t give up this life, with
-all its grind and uncertainty, for that dead and alive
-existence. I only go out there once a year to rest. I
-came on here for an experiment, to see a little of the
-world. I had a dreadful time catching on; once I
-thought I’d starve, for I was bound I wouldn’t write
-home for money; but I hung on and got there. And
-I’m here to stay.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, is it really so pleasant? Sometimes I wish I
-were a newspaper woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You? You? I never saw anybody that looked
-less like one.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am very strong. I am naturally pale, that is all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, your skin is lovely: it’s that warm dead white.
-I wasn’t thinking of that. But you look like the princess
-that felt the pea under sixteen mattresses.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“One adapts one’s self easily to luxury. I have
-only had it two years. I do like it certainly. Nevertheless,
-I’d like to be a newspaper woman. You look
-tired; are you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, I am, Mrs. Peele. It’s hard work, if it is
-fascinating; for instance, I’ve chased about this entire
-week for stories that haven’t panned out for a cent. I
-haven’t made ten dollars. I came up here as a last
-resource. La Rosita is always good-natured, and I
-hoped she’d have a story for me. But all I’ve got is
-a crank that’s following her about threatening to kill
-her if she doesn’t marry him, and that’s such a chestnut.
-If I could only fake something I know she’d let
-it go, but my imagination’s worn to a thread—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The portière was pushed aside, and Rosita entered.
-She wore a glistening night-robe of silk and lace and
-ribbon under a yellow plush bath gown. Her dense
-black hair fell to her knees. She slid into bed and
-ordered her maid to admit the manicure. An old
-woman, looking like a witch and clad in shabby black,
-came in and took a chair beside the bed. The maid
-brought a crystal bowl and warm water, and a golden
-manicure set, and Rosita held forth her incomparable
-arm with its little Spanish hand. She lay with indolent
-grace among the large pillows.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You certainly are a beauty,” exclaimed Miss Merrien,
-enthusiastically.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita smiled with much pleasure. “I love to hear
-a woman say that, and I shall make good copy for
-many years yet. I shall not fade like most Spanish
-women. Oh, I have learned many secrets.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish you hadn’t told them to me, and then I
-should still have them to write about. They made a
-great story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Dios! Dios!</span>” said Rosita, plaintively, “I wish we
-could think of something. I hate to send you away
-with nothing at all. I love to be written about. Patita,
-can’t you think of something?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, Mrs. Peele,” said Miss Merrien, “let us see
-if you are a good fakir. That is one of the first essentials
-of being a successful newspaper woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear! Is it? If I could fake I’d make books.
-I’d like that even better. Rosita, did you ever tell
-the newspapers about that time I coached you for your
-first appearance on any stage, and the great hit you
-made?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is that?” asked Miss Merrien, sharply.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never thought of it. Patita, you tell the story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>This Patience did, while Miss Merrien wrote rapidly
-in shorthand, pausing occasionally to exclaim with
-rapture.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my good angel sent me here this morning,”
-she said when Patience had finished. “I won’t mention
-your name, of course, but you won’t mind my saying
-that you are one of the Four Hundred.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t suppose there is any objection. I am such
-an obscure member of it that no one will suspect me.
-Only don’t give any details.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I won’t, indeed I won’t.” She slipped her
-book into her muff and rose to go. “You don’t know
-how much obliged I am. I’ll do as much for you some
-day. If ever you want to be written up, let me know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never should want to be in the newspapers.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, there’s no telling. You haven’t had a taste of
-it yet. Well, good-morning,” and she went out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience leaned back in her luxurious chair, and
-watched the old woman polish the pretty nails. Rosita
-babbled, and Patience watched her face closely. Its
-colouring was as fresh, its contours as perfect as ever, but
-there was a faint touch of hardness somewhere, and the
-eyes held more secrets than they had two years ago.
-They were the eyes of the wanton. For a moment
-Patience forgot her surroundings. Her mind flew back
-to the old days, to the rickety buggy with the two contented
-innocent little girls, then, by a natural deflection,
-to her tower and her dreams. She longed passionately
-for the old Mission, and wondered if Solomon were still
-alive. Then she thought of Bourke, and came back to
-the present with a shudder. The woman had gone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is the matter?” asked Rosita. “Is it true—what
-the men say—that you are not happy with your
-husband?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hate him,” said Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why don’t you get a divorce?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have no grounds.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No grounds? Fancy a wife having no grounds!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have not the slightest doubt of his faith.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Send him to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Rosita! How can you be so coarse?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No-o-o-o! You are my old friend. I would do
-anything for you. Think it over, Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I do not need to think it over. I would never do
-so vile a thing as that. Have you no refinement left?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What earthly use would I have for refinement?
-Patita, you are such a baby, and you always had ideals
-and things. Have you got them yet?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No,” said Patience, rising abruptly. “I haven’t.
-Good-bye.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good-bye, Patita dear,” said Rosita, with unruffled
-good humour, “and if ever you are in trouble come
-here and I will take you in. I would even lend you
-money, and if you knew me you would know how much
-I loved you to do that. There is not another person
-living I would give a five cent piece to.”</p>
-
-<hr class='tbk101'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience reached the sidewalk she filled her
-lungs with fresh air, then looked at her watch. It was
-only a half after twelve, and she decided to call on
-Mary Gallatin. She had never yet paid that charming
-young fashionette the promised morning call, although
-she had attended one or two of her afternoon receptions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She told the coachman to drive to the house in Fifty-seventh
-Street, then threw herself back on the seat and
-laughed, a long unpleasant laugh. She tapped first one
-foot and then the other, with increasing nervousness.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What fools we mortals be to cry for the unattainable,”
-she said, addressing the little mirror opposite.
-“Probably that young newspaper woman envies me
-bitterly. So, doubtless, do many others. Why on
-earth am I longing for what I’ll never find, instead of
-making the best of a bad bargain and the most of my
-position? I think I’ll find my way out of the difficulty
-with the average woman’s solution: I’ll take a lover.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The carriage stopped before a house with the breadth
-of stoop which in New York means plentiful wealth.
-She waited in the drawing-room while the cautious
-butler went up to see if his mistress would receive this
-stranger. He returned in a moment and conducted
-her up to a door at the front of the house. Patience
-entered a large room whose light was so subdued that for
-a moment she could see only vaguely outlined forms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Mrs. Beverly, how dear of you,” cried a sweet
-voice, and Patience groped her way round the angle of
-a large bed and saw Mrs. Gallatin sitting against a
-mass of pillows. “I’m so glad you came this morning.
-I’m feeling so blue. I’ve twisted my foot, you know,
-and my friends are so kind to me. Mr. Rutger, give
-Mrs. Peele a chair. Mrs. Beverly, you know Mr.
-Rutger and Mr. Maitland and Mr. Owen, do you not?
-There is Leontine.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The three young men, who had risen as she entered,
-bowed and resumed their seats. Mrs. Lafarge threw
-her a kiss from the depths of a chair by the fire.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sat down and glanced about her while Mrs.
-Lafarge finished an anecdote she had been telling. Her
-eyes became accustomed to the light, and in a moment
-she saw things quite distinctly. The large room was furnished
-in Empire style, the walls and windows and the
-great mahogany and brass bedstead covered with crimson
-satin damask. There were only a few pieces of
-heavy furniture, in the room, but like the bed they
-were magnificent. Each brass carving told a different
-story.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mrs. Gallatin, smiling, exquisite, wore a cambric
-gown, less elaborate than Rosita’s but more dainty.
-Her shining hair was drawn modishly to the top of her
-head and confined with a pink porcelain comb, carved
-into semblance of wild roses. A pink silk shawl slipped
-from her shoulders. Another wild rose was at her
-throat. On her hands she wore rubies only.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The story Mrs. Lafarge told was slightly naughty, and
-all laughed heartily at its conclusion. Patience had
-heard too many naughty stories in the last two years to
-be shocked; but when one of the young men began
-another he was promptly hissed down.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are not going to tell that before Mrs. Beverly,”
-said Mary Gallatin. “She is quite too frightfully
-proper. But we’re awfully fond of her all the same,”
-and she patted Patience’s hand while her lovely young
-face contracted in a charming scowl. Patience wondered
-if she had a lover—Mr. Gallatin was a dapper
-little man—and if that was why she looked so happy.
-She glanced speculatively at the men, and wondered if
-she could fall in love with one of them. But they
-were very ordinary New York youths of fashion, high of
-shoulder, slow of speech, large of epiglottis, vacuous of
-expression. She shook her head unconsciously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, what on earth are you thinking about?”
-cried Mrs. Gallatin, with her silvery laugh. “That
-wasn’t a shake of disapproval, was it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no, no!” said Patience, hastily. “Something
-occurred to me, and I forgot I was not alone. You
-see, I am so much alone that I’ve even gotten into the
-habit of thinking out loud.” She felt that she was a
-restraint—the suppressed young man had relapsed
-into moody silence—and, as soon as she reasonably
-could, rose to go. Mrs. Gallatin kissed her warmly
-and Mrs. Lafarge came forward and kissed her also;
-but Patience detected a faint note of relief in their
-voices, and went downstairs feeling more depressed
-than ever. “There seems to be no place for me,” she
-thought. “I must be out of tune with everything.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went to her father-in-law’s house in Eleventh
-Street and found Mrs. Peele and Honora gowned for
-expected luncheon guests. The former apologised
-coldly for not being able to ask her to join them, but
-“there was only room in the dining-room for eight.”
-Honora rippled regret, and Patience felt that she should
-disgrace herself with tears if she did not get out of the
-house. She went directly to the station, intending to
-return home, but as the train approached Peele Manor
-she turned her back squarely on the old house and
-decided to go on to Mariaville and see Miss Beale.
-She remembered with satisfaction that she knew at
-least one wholesome thoroughly sincere woman, however
-misguided.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she reached the station she concluded to walk
-to the house. She felt nervous and excited. Her
-cheeks burned and her temples ached a little. She had
-taken no nourishment that day but a cup of coffee and
-a roll, and her head felt light. It was now two o’clock.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she had gone a little more than half way she
-lifted her eyes and saw Miss Beale coming toward her
-with beaming face, one hand ready to wave.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, Patience!” she cried, as they met. “I’m so
-glad to see you. I’m just going to kiss you if it is on
-the street. I can’t say I thought you’d forgotten me, for
-you’ve sent me money for my poor every time I begged
-for it; but I did think you’d never come to see me.”</p>
-
-<hr class='tbk102'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had no excuse to offer, so wisely attempted
-none, but returned Miss Beale’s embrace heartily.
-The older woman’s face was brilliant with pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Dear me, how pretty you have grown! What a
-colour! I’m so glad to see you looking so well.
-How happy dear Miss Tremont would be to see you
-now. She was always afraid you would be delicate.
-But we can’t wish her back, can we, Patience?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There’s no use wishing anything undone. Where
-are you going?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where I am going to take you. Now, don’t ask
-any questions, but just come along.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, hoping that the destination was a fair
-where she could get luncheon, followed submissively,
-and evaded Miss Beale’s personal inquiries as best she
-could.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How does the Temperance Cause get on?” she
-asked at length.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, just the same! Just the same!” said Miss
-Beale, with a cheerful sigh. “One makes slow progress
-in this wicked world; all we can do is to trust in the
-Lord and do our humble best. Mariaville has three
-new saloons, and the father of one of my scholars beat
-him nearly to death the other day for coming to the
-Loyal Legion class; but we’ll win in the end.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Meanwhile are you as much interested as ever?”
-asked Patience, curiously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my!” Miss Beale gave an almost hilarious
-laugh. “Well, I should think so. How could I ever
-lose interest in the Lord’s work? Why, I never even
-get discouraged.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It has occurred to me, sometimes—since I have
-been away and met all sorts of people—that if you
-really were Temperance you might have more chance
-of success.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If we were what?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Temperance in the actual meaning of the word.
-You’re not, you know; you’re teetotalists. That is the
-reason you antagonise so many thousands of men who
-might be glad to help you with their vote otherwise.
-The average gentleman—and there are thousands upon
-thousands of him—never gets drunk, and enjoys his
-wine at dinner and even his whiskey and water. He
-doesn’t see any reason why he shouldn’t have it, and
-there isn’t any. It adds to the pleasures of life.
-Those are the people that really represent Temperance,
-and naturally they have no sympathy with a movement
-that they consider narrow-minded and an unwarrantable
-intrusion.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale shook her head vigorously. “It is a sin
-to touch it!” she exclaimed, “and sooner or later they
-will all be drunkards, every one of them. The blessing
-of God is not on alcohol, and it should be banished
-from the face of the earth.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was in a perverse and almost ugly mood.
-“Tell me,” she said, “how do you reconcile your
-animosity to alcohol with the story of Christ’s turning
-the water into wine at the wedding feast?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It wasn’t wine,” said Miss Beale, triumphantly;
-“it was grape juice. Wine takes days to ferment, so
-the water couldn’t possibly have become wine all in a
-minute.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience burst into laughter. “But, Miss Beale, it
-was a miracle anyhow, wasn’t it? If he could perform
-a miracle at all it would have been as easy to make wine
-out of water as grape juice.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale shook her head emphatically and set her
-lips. “I <span class='it'>know</span> that the Lord never would have offered
-wine to anybody; but grape juice is delightful, and he
-probably knew it, and they called it wine. That is all
-there is to it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,” exclaimed Patience, forgetting the Temperance
-question, as Miss Beale turned into a path and
-walked toward the side entrance of the First Presbyterian
-Church, “are we going here?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, this is just where we are going. There is a
-special meeting of the Y’s and Christian Endeavourers
-of Mariaville and White Plains and two or three other
-places. Ah! I’ve caught you now, you naughty
-girl.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience turned away her face and frowned heavily.
-All her old dislike of religion, almost forgotten during
-the past two years, surged up above the impulsion of
-her fermenting spirit. She felt the old impatience, the
-old intolerance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you want me to go in there?” she asked. “I
-came to see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’re not going to get out of it,” cried Miss
-Beale, gayly. “And I know you better than you know
-yourself. I know you always wanted to give yourself
-to the Lord, only you are too proud.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stared at her, wondering if she had so far
-forgotten herself as to indulge in a little joke at the
-expense of her idols; but Miss Beale was looking at
-her with kind, earnest eyes. Patience laughed, and
-shrugged her shoulders.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll go in to please you; but I hope it won’t
-be too long, for I’m horribly hungry.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Dear, dear! Why didn’t you come a little earlier?
-But it won’t be more than two hours, and then I’ll have
-a hot luncheon prepared for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She led Patience through the large church parlour
-and straight up to a table, lifting a chair as she passed
-the front row of seats.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t want to sit here,” whispered Patience,
-hurriedly; but Miss Beale pushed her into the chair, and
-seated herself beside her, at the back of the table.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am going to preside, and you are the guest of
-honour,” she said. “Young ladies,” she continued,
-smiling at the rows of bright and serious faces, “I
-am sure you will all be glad to see Patience again. I
-know she is glad to see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience arose and bowed awkwardly, then sat down
-and tapped the floor with her foot. The young women
-looked surprised and pleased. One and all smiled
-encouragingly, sure that she had been converted at last.
-Many of the faces were bright with youth and even mischief;
-others were careworn and aging. Not one of
-them but looked happy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience under her calm exterior began to seethe
-and mutter once more. Once she almost laughed
-aloud as she thought of the effect upon these simple-minded
-girls if the hell within her were suddenly made
-manifest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The meeting opened at once. Miss Beale offered a
-prayer, in which she implored that they all might love
-the Lord the more. Hymns were sung, the Bible read,
-and reports by the various secretaries and treasurers.
-Then one serious and not unintelligent-looking woman
-of thirty read a platitudinous paper beginning: “Some
-one has said, ‘The time will come when it will be the
-proudest boast of every man and woman to say “I am
-an American.”’ I say that the time will come when it
-will be the proudest boast of every man and woman to
-say, ‘I am a Christian.’”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>All regarded the reader with eyes of affection and
-approval. Each word Patience, in her abnormal state
-of mind, took as a personal insult to Intellect. She
-felt furiously resentful that in this Nineteenth Century
-with its educational facilities, its libraries full of the
-achievements of great masters of thought, there should
-be so low a standard of intellectuality in the middle
-classes. Even the fashionable women, frivolous as they
-were, were brighter, and keener to pierce outworn traditions.
-They might not be thinkers, but they had a
-species of lightning in their brain which rent superstition
-and gave them flashlight glimpses of life in its true
-proportions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girls began to give experiences. One had just
-joined the Y’s, and she related with tears the story of
-her struggle between the World and the Church, and
-her thankfulness that at last she had been permitted to
-decide in favour of the Lord. Patience remembered
-her as the vapid daughter of rather wealthy parents
-who in her own day had been devoted to society and
-young men. She was very faded. Many of the girls
-wept in sympathy, and Miss Beale mopped her eyes
-several times.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An extremely pretty girl stood up, a girl with black
-hair and pale blue eyes and rich pink colour. Patience
-regarded her satirically, thinking what a beauty she
-would be if properly gowned. Miss Beale, noting her
-interest, patted her hand and smiled.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I just want to say,” began the girl, with deep earnestness,
-“that every day of my life I have greater confidence
-that the Lord loves me and hears what I ask
-Him. You know that I write the reports of the Y. W.
-C. T. U., and of course I have to get them printed for
-nothing. So when I sit down to write them I just ask
-the Lord to tell me what to say and how to say it, and
-all the way to the office I keep asking Him to tell me
-what to say to the editor so that he will print it and
-help our great cause along. And, girls, he prints it every
-time, and only yesterday he said to me: ‘I like your
-stuff because it’s direct and to the point, no gush, no
-rhetoric—it’s plain horse sense.’ Now, girls, you
-need not think I say that to compliment myself. I
-just say it to prove that the Lord writes those newspaper
-articles, not I.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience put her handkerchief to her face and shook
-convulsively. She bit her lips to keep from laughing
-aloud; she wanted to scream.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly she became conscious of a deep murmur.
-Supposing it to be of disapproval, she straightened her
-mouth and dropped her handkerchief; but her face
-was scarlet, her eyes full of tears. The girls were leaning
-forward, regarding her earnestly. Miss Beale leaned
-over and placed her arm about her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Speak,” she said softly. “Don’t be afraid.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What on earth are you thinking about?” gasped
-Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell us what is in your heart,” said Miss Beale, in
-a tremulous voice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And, “Tell us! Tell us!” came from the girls.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t know what you are saying,” said Patience,
-freeing herself angrily. “Let me go.” She was trembling
-with excitement. Her head felt very light. The
-blood was pounding in her ears. She started to her
-feet, meaning to rush to the door; but Miss Beale was
-too quick for her. She caught her firmly by the waist
-and led her to the middle of the space at the head of
-the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I know she will speak,” said Miss Beale. “Patience,
-we all feel our awful responsibility. If you speak
-out now, you will be saved. If your timidity overcomes
-you, you may go hence and never hear His knock
-again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Speak! Speak!” came with solemn emphasis from
-the Y’s.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well, I’ll speak,” cried Patience. “And suppose
-you hear me out. It will be only polite, since
-you have forced me to speak. You have always misunderstood
-me. I am by no means indifferent to the
-God you worship. I have the most exalted respect
-and admiration for this tremendous creative force behind
-the Universe, a respect so great that I should
-never presume to address him as you do in your funny
-little egoism. Do you realise that this magnificent
-Being of whose essence you have not the most approximate
-idea, is the Creator, not only of this but of countless
-other worlds and systems, and furthermore of the
-psychic and physical laws that govern them and of the
-extraordinary mystery of which we are a part, and which
-has its most subtle expression in the Space surrounding
-us? And yet you, atoms, pigmies, tiny individual manifestations
-of a great correlative force called human nature,
-you presume to address this stupendous Being,
-and stand up and kneel down and talk to It, to imagine
-that It listens to your insignificant wants,—that It
-writes newspaper articles! Is it Christianity that has
-destroyed the sense of humour in its disciples?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“In each of you is a shaft from the great dominating
-Force—that is quite true, and it is for you to develop
-that force—character—and rely upon it, not upon
-a spiritual lover, as weak women do upon some unfortunate
-man. What good does all this religious sentimentality
-do you? Your brains are rotting. You have
-nothing to talk about to intelligent men. No wonder
-the men of small towns get away as soon as they can,
-and seek the intelligent women of lower strata. Men
-are naturally brighter than women, and girls of your
-sort deliberately make yourselves as limited and colourless
-as you can. Go, make yourselves companions for
-men, if you would make the world better, if you must
-improve the human race. Study the subjects that
-interest them, that fill their life; study politics and the
-great questions of the day, that you may lead them to
-the higher ethical plane on which nature has placed
-you. Quit this erotic sentimentalising over an abstract
-being to whom you must be the profoundest joke of his
-civilisation—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hush!” shrieked Miss Beale. For some moments
-Patience had been obliged to raise her voice above the
-angry mutterings of her audience. One or two were
-sobbing hysterically. Miss Beale’s cry was the signal
-for the explosion of pent-up excitement.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go! Go!” cried the girls. “Go out of this
-church! Blasphemer! Shame! Shame!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience looked out undaunted upon the sea of
-flushed angry faces, which a few moments before had
-been all peace and love. She shrugged her shoulders,
-bowed to Miss Beale, who was staring at her with horrified
-eyes in a livid face, and walked toward the door.
-The girls pressed her forward, lest she should speak
-again.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We have a right as churchwomen to hate you,”
-cried one, “for we are told to hate the devil, and you
-are he incarnate.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience refused to accelerate her steps, but reached
-the door in a moment. As she was about to pass out
-a joyous face was uplifted to hers. It belonged to a
-girl still sitting. Her lap was piled with loose sheets
-of paper. There was an excited smirch of lead on her
-cheek. Even as she raised her head and spoke she
-continued writing. “That was a corker,” she whispered,
-“the biggest story I’ve had in weeks.” It was
-Miss Merrien.</p>
-
-<h2>XVII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was an early riser, and had usually read the
-“Day” through before Beverly lounged downstairs, sleepy
-and cross and masculine. On the morning after her
-day of varied experience she took the newspaper into
-the library and read the first page leisurely, as was her
-habit. The news of the world still interested her profoundly.
-Then she read the editorials, and, later,
-glanced idly at the headlines of the “stories.” The
-following arrested her startled eye:</p>
-
-<div class='lgc' style=''> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line'>&#160;</p>
-<p class='line'>AN EARTHQUAKE IN MARIAVILLE!</p>
-<p class='line'>THE GOOD PEOPLE ARE OUTRAGED!</p>
-<p class='line'>A SENSATION BY THE BEAUTIFUL AND BRILLIANT</p>
-<p class='line'>MRS. BEVERLY PEELE!</p>
-<p class='line'>&#160;</p>
-</div> <!-- end rend -->
-
-<p class='pindent'>The story covered two thirds of a column. Patience
-read it three times in succession without stopping to
-comment. It was graphically told, much exaggerated,
-and as carefully climaxed as dramatic fiction. And it
-was interesting reading. Patience decided that if it
-had not been about herself she should have given
-it more than passing attention. Her beauty and grace
-and elegance, her grand air, were described with enthusiasm.
-Every possible point of contrast was made to
-the serious and unfashionable Y’s.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At first Patience was horrified. She wondered what
-Mr. and Mrs. Peele would say. Beverly’s comments
-were not within the limitations of doubt.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m in for it,” she thought. Then she smiled.
-She felt the same thrill she had experienced when the
-men looked askance at her after her assault upon her
-mother. The Ego ever lifts its head at the first caress,
-and quickly becomes as insatiable as a child for sweets.
-Patience glanced at the article to note how many times
-her name—in small capitals—sprang forth to meet
-her eyes. She imagined Bourke reading it, and Mrs.
-Gallatin, and Mrs. Lafarge, and many others, and wondered
-if strangers would find it interesting; then,
-suddenly, she threw back her head and laughed aloud.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What fools we mortals be!” she thought. “And
-the President of the United States has dozens of paragraphs
-written about him every day. And actors and
-writers are paragraphed <span class='it'>ad nauseam</span>. If a woman is
-run over in the street she has a column, and if she goes
-to a hotel and commits suicide, she has two, and is a
-raving beauty. Rosita is persecuted for stories. The
-Ego ought to have its ears boxed every morning, as
-some old-fashioned people switch their children. Well,
-here comes Beverly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her husband entered, and for the first time in many
-months she sprang to her feet and gave him a little
-peck on his cheek. He was so surprised that he
-forgot to pick up the newspaper, and followed her at
-once into the dining-room. During the meal she
-talked of his horses and his farm, and even offered
-to take a drive with him. He was going to White
-Plains to look at some blooded stock which was to be
-sold at auction, and promptly invited her to accompany
-him; but her diplomacy had its limits, and she declined.
-However, he went from the table in high good humour.
-When she left him in the library, a few moments later,
-he was arranging the scattered sheets of the “Day,”
-without his accustomed comments upon “the infernal
-manner in which a woman always left a newspaper.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience went up to her room and wrote a note of
-apology to Miss Beale. She was half way through a
-long letter to Hal when she heard Beverly bounding up
-the stair three steps at a time.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The cyclone struck Peele Manor at 10.25,” she
-said, looking at the clock. “Sections of the fair—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly burst in without ceremony.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What the hell does this mean?” he cried, brandishing
-the newspaper. His dilating nostrils were livid.
-The rest of his face was almost black.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Beverly, you will certainly have apoplexy or burst
-a blood vessel,” said his wife, solicitously. “Think of
-those that love you and preserve yourself—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Those that love me be damned! The idea of my
-wife—<span class='it'>my wife</span>—being the heroine of a vulgar newspaper
-story! Her name out in a headline! Mrs.
-Beverly Peele! My God!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“God was the cause of the whole trouble,” said
-Patience, flippantly. “I thought the young women
-were entirely too intimate with him. The spectacle
-conjured of The Almighty with his sleeves rolled up
-grinding out copy at five dollars per column was too
-much for me. I have the most profound admiration
-and respect for the Deity, and felt called upon to
-defend him—the others seemed so unconscious of
-insult—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is no subject for a joke,” cried Beverly, who
-had sworn steadily through these remarks. “I don’t
-care a hang if you had a reason or not for making a
-public speech—Christ!—it’s enough that you made
-it, that your name’s in the paper—my wife’s name!
-What will my father and mother say?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They will not swear. A few of the Peeles are
-decently well bred.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No one ever gave them cause to swear before.
-You’ve turned this family upside down since you came
-into it. You’ve been the ruin of my life. I wish to
-God I’d never seen you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I sincerely wish you hadn’t. What had you intended
-to make of your life that I have interfered
-with?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If I’d married a woman who loved me I’d have
-been a better man.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder how many weak men have said that since
-the world began! You were twenty-six when I married
-you, and I cannot see that there has been any change in
-kind since, although there certainly is in degree. If
-you had married the ordinary little domestic woman,
-you would have been happier, but you would not have
-been better, for you possess neither soul nor intelligence.
-But I am perfectly willing to give you a chance
-for happiness. Give me my freedom, and look about
-you for a doll—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you mean to say that you want a divorce?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think you know just how much I do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you won’t get it—by God! Do you understand
-that? You’ve no cause, and you’ll not get
-any.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There should be a law made for women who—who—well,
-like myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her husband was incapable of understanding her.
-“Well, you just remember that,” he said. “You don’t
-get a divorce, and you keep out of the newspapers, or
-you’ll be sorry,” and he slammed the door and strode
-away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A quarter of an hour after Patience heard the wheels
-of his cart. At the same time the train stopped below
-the slope. A few moments later she saw Miss Merrien
-come up the walk. The maid brought up the visitor’s
-card, and with it a note from Mr. Field.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'><span class='sc'>Dear Mrs. Beverly</span> [it read],—Forgive me—but you
-are a woman of destiny, or I haven’t studied people sixty
-years for nothing. I chose to be the first—the scent of
-the old war-horse for news, you know. Peele will be
-furious, but I can’t bother about a trifle like that. Just give
-this young woman an interview, and oblige your old
-friend</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;margin-top:0.5em;'>J. E. F.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience started to go downstairs, then turned
-to the mirror and regarded herself attentively. She
-looked very pretty, remarkably so, as she always did
-when the pink was in her cheeks; but her morning
-gown was plain and not particularly becoming. She
-changed it, after some deliberation, for a house-robe
-of pearl grey silk with a front of pale pink chiffon
-hanging straight from a collar of cut steel. The maid
-had brought her some pink roses from the greenhouse;
-she fastened one in the coil of her soft pale hair.
-Then she smiled at her reflection, shook out her train,
-and rustled softly down the stair.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien exclaimed with feminine enthusiasm as
-she entered the library.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you are the loveliest woman to write about,”
-she said. “I do a lot of society work; and I am so
-tired of describing the conventional beauty. And that
-gown! I’m going to describe every bit of it. Did it
-come from Paris?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” said Patience, amused at her immediate success.
-“My mother-in-law brought it to me last summer—but
-perhaps you had better not mention Mrs.
-Peele in your story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I won’t, of course, if you don’t want me to.
-I have written the story about La Rosita for the Sunday
-‘Day,’ and I did not hint at your identity. It made
-a good story, but not as good as the one about you.
-Mr. Field wrote me a note this morning, complimenting
-me, and told me to come up here and interview
-you. I hope you don’t mind very much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I haven’t the faintest idea whether I do or not.
-How do you do it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you see, I’ll just ask you questions and you
-answer them, and I’ll put it all down in shorthand, and
-then when I go to the office I’ll thresh it into shape.
-You can be sure that I won’t say anything that isn’t
-pleasant, for I really never admired any one half so
-much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Very well, you interview me, and then I’ll interview
-you. I have some questions to ask also.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll tell you anything you like. This story, by
-the way, is to be in the Sunday issue on the Woman’s
-Page. Now we’ll begin. Were you always an unbeliever?
-Tell me exactly what are your religious
-opinions.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear me! You are not going to write a serious
-analysis of me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, but I’ll give it the light touch so that it won’t
-bore anybody. It is to be called ‘A Society Woman
-Who Thinks,’ and will be read with interest all over
-America.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But I am not a society woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you’re a swell, and that’s the same thing, for
-this purpose anyhow. The Gardiner Peeles are out of
-sight, and I have heard lots of times how beautifully
-you entertain in summer and how charmingly you gown
-yourself. Tell me first—what do you think of this
-everlasting woman question? I hate the very echo of
-the thing, but we’ll have to touch on it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I haven’t given much thought to it, except as
-a phase of current history. One thing is positive, I
-think: we must adjust our individual lives without
-reference to any of the problems of the moment,—Womanism,
-Socialism, the Ethical Question, the Marriage
-Question, and all the others that are everlasting
-raging. He that would be happy must deal with the
-great primal facts of life—and these facts will endure
-until human nature is no more. Moreover, however
-much she may reason, nothing can eradicate the strongest
-instinct in woman—that she can find happiness
-only through some man.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good,” said Miss Merrien. “I’d have thought the
-same thing if I’d ever had time. Now tell me if you
-have any religion at all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose I should be called an anarchist. Don’t
-be alarmed: I mean the philosophical or spiritual anarchist,
-not these poor maniarchists that are merely an
-objectionable variety of lunatics. The religious situation
-is this, I think: Jesus Christ does not satisfy the
-intellectual needs of the Nineteenth Century. And
-yet, indisputably, the religionists are happier than the
-multiplying scores that could no more continue in the
-old delusion than they could worship idols or torture
-the flesh. Civilisation needs a new prophet, and he
-must be an anarchist,—one who will teach the government
-of self by self, the government of man’s nature by
-will, which in its turn is subservient to the far seeing
-brain. Human nature is anarchic in its essence. The
-child never was born that was brought to bend to
-authority without effort. We are still children, or we
-should not need laws and governments.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wait till I get that down.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course these are only individual opinions. I
-don’t claim any value for them, and should never have
-thought of airing them if you hadn’t asked me. For
-my part I’m glad I live in this imperfect chaotic age.
-When we can all do exactly as we please and won’t
-even remember how to want to do anything wrong—Awful!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But you said the advanced thinkers needed this
-new religion to make them happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Their happiness will consist in the tremendous
-effort to reach the difficult goal. That will take centuries,
-just as the spiritualised socialism of Jesus Christ
-has taken twenty centuries, and only imperfectly possessed
-one third of the globe. When anarchy is a cold
-hard fact—well, I suspect the anarchists will suddenly
-discover that <span class='it'>ennui</span> is in their vitals, and will gently
-yawn each other to death. Then the tadpoles will
-begin over again; or perhaps there will then be mental
-and moral developments that we in our present limitations
-cannot conceive. Haven’t you had enough?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, no. I’ve a dozen questions more.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien, like all good newspaper reporters, was
-an amateur lawyer and a harmless hypnotist. In an
-hour she had extracted Patience’s views of society,
-books, dress, public questions, and the actors in the
-great national theatre, the Capitol at Washington.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, this is magnificent,” she announced, when the
-pages had been folded. “Now can I look at the
-house?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We will have luncheon first. No, don’t protest.
-I am delighted. Mr. Peele is away for the day,
-otherwise I fear you would not have had this interview.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you don’t believe in the submission of wives,
-then?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve never thought much about it,” said Patience,
-indifferently. “There is too much fuss made about it
-all. When a man commands his wife to do a thing she
-does not care to do, and when a woman does what she
-knows will displease her husband, it is time for them to
-separate.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, that is too simple. It wouldn’t do to reduce
-the woman question to a rule of three. What
-would all the reformers do? And the poor polemical
-novelists! Oh, these are the famous portraits, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can look at them if the luncheon is bad,” said
-Patience, as they took their seats at table. “I’m not
-a very good housekeeper, although I actually did take
-some lessons of Miss Mairs. And sometimes I forget
-to order luncheon. I did to-day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But the luncheon proved to be a very good one, and
-Miss Merrien did it justice, while Patience explained
-the portraits. Afterward she showed her guest over the
-lower part of the house. Then they went back to the
-library, and Patience had her interview.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell me exactly how does a woman begin on a
-newspaper?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, different ones have different experiences,” said
-Miss Merrien, vaguely. “Sometimes you have letters,
-and are put on as a fashion or society reporter, or to
-get interviews with famous women, or to go and ask
-prominent people their opinion on a certain subject—for
-a symposium, you know; like ‘What Would
-You do if You Knew that the World was to End in
-Three Days?’ or, ‘Is Society Society?’ I have written
-dozens of symposiums. Sometimes you do free-lance
-work, just pick up what you can and trust to luck
-to catch on. But of course you must have the nose for
-news. I was at a matinée one day and sat in front of
-two society women. Between the acts they talked about
-a prominent woman of their set who was getting a divorce
-from her husband so quietly that no newspaper
-had suspected it. They also joked about the fact that
-her lawyer was an old lover. I knew this was a tip, and
-a big one. I wrote all the names on my cuff, and before
-the matinée was over I was down at the ‘Day’ and
-had turned in my tip to the City editor. He sent a
-reporter to the lawyer to bluff him into admitting the
-truth. The next day we had a big story, and after that
-the editor gave me work regularly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How much do you make a week?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sometimes forty, sometimes not twenty; but I average
-pretty well and get along. Still, when you have to
-lay by for sickness and vacations, and put about one
-half on your back it doesn’t amount to much. You
-see, a newspaper woman must dress well, must make a
-big bluff. If she doesn’t look successful she won’t be,
-to say nothing of the fact that she couldn’t get inside
-a smart house if she looked shabby. And then she’s
-got to eat good nourishing food, or she never could
-stand the work. Of course there’s got to be economy
-somewhere, so I live in a hall bedroom and make my
-own coffee in the morning. Still, I don’t complain,
-for I do like the work. If I had to go back home I’d
-ruin the happiness of the entire family.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you look forward to?—I mean what
-ultimate? You don’t want to be a reporter always,
-I suppose. Everybody is striving for some top
-notch.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, maybe I’ll become Sunday editor, or I might
-fall in with somebody that wanted to start a woman’s
-newspaper, or magazine—you never can tell. There
-aren’t many good berths for women. Of course there
-are a good many very bright newspaper women, and it’s
-a toss up who goes to the top.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t seem to take matrimony into consideration.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t deny I get so tired sometimes that I’d
-be only too glad to have a man take care of me. I
-guess we all look forward to that, more or less. I think
-I’d always work, but not so hard. It would make all
-the difference in the world if you knew some one
-else was paying the bills. And then, you see, we go to
-pieces in eight or ten years. A man is good for hard
-newspaper work until he’s forty, but we women are
-made to be taken care of, and that’s a fact. We take
-turns having nervous prostration. I haven’t had it
-yet, but I’m looking cheerfully forward to it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now I want to tell you,” said Patience, “that I am
-going to be a newspaper woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, nonsense, Mrs. Peele! Excuse me, but you
-belong here. Your rôle is that of the châtelaine in
-exquisite French gowns and an air half of languor, half
-of pride. You were not made for work.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is very pretty, but I suspect you don’t want
-to lose me for copy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I don’t deny it. I wish you’d keep the ball
-rolling, and give me a story a month.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m afraid I’ve given you my last. In a week or
-two I shall be a châtelaine in a pink and grey gown no
-longer, but a humble applicant for work in Mr. Field’s
-office.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is it possible that you mean it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do I look as if I were joking?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t look unhappy—Pardon me—but—but—does
-he beat you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no,” said Patience, laughing outright, “he
-doesn’t beat me. I have better grounds for desertion
-than that. Do you think you would do me a favour?
-I shall have to slip away. He would never let me go
-with a trunk. I am going to ask you to let me send
-you a box of things every few days. That will excite
-no comment among the servants, as we are always
-sending clothes to the poor. May I?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course you may. I’ll do everything I can to
-help you. But—I can’t imagine you out of this environment.
-Don’t you hate to give it up,—all this
-luxury, this ease, this atmosphere?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, I like it all. I’m a sybarite, fast enough.
-But I’ve weighed it all in the balance, and Peele Manor
-stays up. I have a hundred dollars or so, and that will
-last me for a time. I’ll give it to you to take care of
-for me. I never was wealthy, but I have no idea of
-economy. I don’t think I should like a hall room
-though. Are the others so very expensive?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They are if you have a good address, and that’s
-very important. And you want to be in a house with a
-handsome parlour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have no friends,—none that will come to see
-me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you’ll make friends. You’re an awfully sweet
-woman. I can’t bear to think—Well, there’s no
-use saying any more about it. I expect you’re the
-sort that knows your own mind. I should like to keep
-on seeing you a great lady, but if you can’t be a happy
-one I suppose you are right. Well, I’ll stand by you
-through thick and thin, and I’ll show you the ropes.
-Now I must get back to the office and work up my
-story. Here’s my address. There’s a spare room
-on the floor above mine. If you’re in dead earnest
-I’d better take it right away; then I can unpack your
-things and hang them up. But—but—do you really
-mean it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You know Mr. Field personally, don’t you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Very well, indeed; and he told me when I was
-sixteen that he should make a newspaper woman of
-me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well, then, you’ll have a lot of push, and your
-road won’t be as hard as some—not by a long <a id='shot'></a>shot.
-About six out of every ten newspaper women either go
-to the wall or to the bad. It is a mixture of knack
-and pluck as much as brains that carries the favoured
-minority through. You have brains and pluck, and
-you’ll have push, so you ought to get there. About
-the knack of course I can’t tell. Good-bye.”</p>
-
-<h2>XVIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The evening mail brought from Mrs. Peele to her son a
-note which he read with a rumbling accompaniment,
-then tossed to Patience.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you intend to permit your wife to disgrace your
-family?” it read. “If I had my way that abominable
-paper, the ‘Day,’ should never enter this house—nor any
-other paper that dealt in personalities. I literally writhe
-every time I see my name—your father’s honoured name—in
-the society columns. You may, then, perhaps, imagine
-my feelings when your father handed me the ‘Day’
-this morning with his finger on that outrageous column.
-He was speechless with wrath, and will personally call Mr.
-Field to account. I am in bed with a violent headache, in
-consequence, and dictating this letter to Honora. But
-although I deeply feel for you, my beloved son, I must
-<span class='it'>insist</span> that you assert your authority with your wrong-headed
-wife and command her to refrain from disgracing
-this family. I don’t wish to reproach you, but I cannot
-help saying that it is <span class='it'>always</span> a dangerous experiment to
-marry beneath one. This girl is not one of us, she never
-can be; for, not to mention that we know nothing whatever
-of her family, she comes from that dreadful savage <span class='it'>new</span>
-Western country. In spite of the fact that she has been
-clever enough to superficially adapt herself to our ways, I
-always knew that she would break out somewhere—I
-always said so to Honora. But I don’t wish to add to
-your own sorrow. I know how you, with all your proud
-Peele reserve, must feel. Only, my son, use your authority
-in the future.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience finished this letter with a disagreeable lowering
-of the brows. She made no comment, however,
-but opened a book and refused to converse with her
-husband.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On Sunday morning she found three columns on the
-Woman’s Page of the “Day” devoted to her beauty,
-her intellect, her gowns, and her opinions. It was
-embellished with a photograph of Peele Manor and a
-sketch of herself, which Miss Merrien had evidently
-made from memory. When Beverly came down she
-handed the newspaper to him at once, to read the story
-with the raw temper of early morning. She hoped that
-Mrs. Peele would read it in similar conditions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After he had gone through the headlines he let the
-newspaper fall to the floor, and stared at her with a
-face so livid that for a moment she felt as if looking
-upon the risen dead. Then gradually it blackened,
-only the nostrils remaining white.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“So you deliberately defy me?” he articulated.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” she said, watching him narrowly. She
-thought that he might strike her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You did it on purpose to drive me crazy?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I had no object whatever, except that it pleased
-me to be interviewed. Understand at once that I shall
-do exactly as I please in all things. This is not the
-country for petty household tyrants. I don’t doubt
-there are many men in this world whom I should be
-glad to treat with deference and respect if I happened
-to be married to one of them; but with men like you
-there is only one course to take. I have asked you
-to let me live abroad. If you consent to this, it may
-save you a great deal of trouble in the future; for, I
-repeat, I shall in all things do exactly as I choose.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We’ll see whether you will or not,” he roared.
-“You’ll do as I say, or I’ll lock you up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you will not lock me up. You are way
-behind your times, Beverly. There is no law in
-the United States to compel me to obey you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll stop your allowance. You’ll never get another
-cent from me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That has nothing whatever to do with it. Now, I
-ask you for the last time, Will you let me travel?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No!” he shouted, and he rushed from the room.</p>
-
-<hr class='pbk'/>
-
-<div><h1 class='nobreak'><a id='book4'></a>BOOK IV</h1></div>
-
-<h2 class='nobreak'>I</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien lived in West Forty-fourth Street, near
-Broadway. Ten days after her visit to Peele Manor
-Patience rang the door-bell of the house that was to be
-her new home, one of a long impersonal row.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The maid that answered her ring handed her a note
-from Miss Merrien, and conducted her up to a hall
-room on the third floor. Patience closed the door,
-and looked about her with the sensation of the shipwrecked.
-For a moment she was strongly tempted to
-flee back to Peele Manor. The room was about eight
-feet square, and furnished with a folding-bed, which
-was likewise a bureau, and with a washstand, a table,
-and two chairs. The furniture and carpet were new,
-and there were pretty blue and white curtains on the
-window. Nevertheless the tiny room with its modern
-contrivances was the symbol of poverty and struggle
-and an entirely new existence. Her second impulse
-was to sit down on a chair and cry; but she set her
-teeth, and read Miss Merrien’s note instead.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>I am so sorry not to be able to meet you [it read];
-but I am a slave, you know. Before I was out of bed
-this morning I received an assignment to go to a woman’s
-club meeting at eleven. But I’ll get back in time to go
-down to the shop with you. Don’t get blue—if you can
-help it. Remember that every woman feels the same way
-when she first makes the break for self-support; and that
-your chances are better than those of most. There’s a
-little restaurant round the corner—the maid will show you—where
-you can get your luncheon. <span class='it'>Au revoir.</span> I’m so
-glad the sun is out.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;margin-top:0.5em;'><span class='sc'>Anna Chetwynde Merrien.</span></p>
-
-<hr class='tbk103'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>P. S. Your clothes are in the closet in the hall. The
-key is in the washstand drawer.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience felt in better cheer after reading Miss
-Merrien’s kindly greeting, but the day dragged along
-very heavily. She went out and bought all the newspapers,
-and studied them attentively for hints; but
-they did not tell her inexperience anything, and after
-a time she let them fall to the floor and sat staring at
-the blank windows opposite. For the first time doubts
-assailed her. She had been so full of young confidence,
-and pride in her brains and health and courage, that
-she had not regarded the issue of her struggle with the
-world in the light of a problem; but face to face with
-the practical details, she felt short of breath and weak
-in the knees.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At two o’clock Miss Merrien came in, looking very
-tired. There were black scoops under her eyes, and
-the lines about her mouth were strongly accentuated.
-But she smiled brightly as Patience rose to greet her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you are here,” she said. “I changed my
-mind fifty times about your coming, but on the whole
-I thought you would. Fortunately I have nothing on
-hand for this afternoon. I’ll rest, and then go down
-with you to the shop. Oh, I am so tired, my dear.
-Can I lie down on your bed awhile?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall be delighted to learn how to open it,” said
-Patience, who was wondering if her fair face was to
-become scooped and lined.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien deftly manipulated the bed, loosened
-her frock, and flung herself full length.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I spent all day yesterday and half the night tramping
-over Brooklyn hunting up facts in the case of that
-girl who was found dead in a tenement-house bed in a
-grand ball gown. A great story that, but it has done
-me up. Tell me—how do you feel?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’m glad I’m here, but I wish it was six
-months from now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course you do. That’s the way we all feel.
-But you’ll soon swing into place, and be too busy to
-think. I do wish you could get work in the office, so
-that you could keep regular hours and meals, and not
-lose your good looks; but there’s no berth of that sort.
-I tell you it is a sad day when a girl under twenty-five
-sees the lines coming. The Revolting Sisterhood say
-that the next century is to be ours; but I doubt it.
-Men lighten our burdens a little now, but I’m afraid
-they’ll hate us if we worry and supplant them any
-further. Well, I’m going to take a nap. Wake me
-promptly at 3.10.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She closed her eyes and fell asleep immediately.
-The lines grew fainter as she slept, and the hair fell
-softly about her face. Patience reflected gratefully that
-three months of absolute leisure and peace of mind
-would give back to the girl all her freshness and
-rounded contours. At ten minutes past three she
-awakened her. Miss Merrien sat up with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I feel better, though. Cultivate those cat-naps.
-They refresh you wonderfully. Now, we’ll go.”</p>
-
-<h2>II</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They went down town on the Elevated, leaving it at
-Park Row. Patience was so much interested in the
-great irregular mass of buildings surrounding City Hall
-Square, at the dense throngs packing the crooked side
-streets, at the fakirs with their nonsensical wares, at the
-bewildering array of gilt newspaper names on the rows
-and stories of polished windows, that she forgot her
-errand for the moment, and was nearly run over.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, this is the heart of New York, sure enough,”
-assented Miss Merrien. “All those big buildings over
-there are on the famous Newspaper Row. Brooklyn
-Bridge is just behind. This is the Post Office on the
-right, and that flat building in the square is the City
-Hall. I tell you when you get down here, the rest
-of New York, including all the smart folk, seems pretty
-insignificant.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,” exclaimed Patience, with a sudden sinking of
-the heart, “there is the ‘Day’ building.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is our shop. Now, brace up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience needed the admonition. She forgot City
-Hall Park. All her doubts returned, with others in
-their wake. She knew something of the snobbery of
-the world. As Mrs. Beverly Peele she had been an
-object of respectful interest to Mr. Field. What would
-she be as an applicant for work? True, he had been
-kind to her when she was a small nobody, but that
-might have been merely a caprice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They climbed up two narrow stairs in an ugly old
-building, and entered a large gas-lit room full of desks.
-Many young men were writing or moving about; several
-were in their shirt sleeves.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is the City room,” said Miss Merrien, “and
-these are the reporters. Those men in that little room
-there are the editors and editorial writers. Mr. Field’s
-room is just beyond. Now send your card in by this
-boy. The Chief’s harder to see than the President of
-the United States, but I guess he’ll see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience gave the boy her card, and at the end of
-half an hour, during which she was much stared at by
-some of the men and totally ignored by others, the boy
-returned and conducted her to Mr. Field’s office.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was a typical editor’s den of the old-fashioned
-type. A big desk covered with papers, a revolving chair,
-and one other chair completed the furniture. A large
-cat was walking about, switching its tail. The floor was
-bare. The light straggled down between the tall
-buildings surrounding, and entered through small windows.
-It was Mr. Field’s pride to have the greatest
-newspaper and the most unpretentious “shop” in
-the United States.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He rose as Patience entered, his eyes twinkling.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” he said, as he handed her the extra chair,
-“there’s a mighty row on, isn’t there? Peele has
-been here, and now we do not speak as we pass by. But
-we hadn’t had a good woman sensation for a month.
-I tried to explain that to Peele, but it didn’t seem to
-impress him. I suppose you’ve come to beg for
-mercy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No—I haven’t come for that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, what is the matter? I never saw you look
-the least bit rattled before. You are always the young
-queen with a court of us old fellows at your feet. But
-tell me; you know there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience drew a long breath of relief.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you make it easier—I’ve been horribly
-frightened. But I’ll get to the point—I suppose
-you’re very busy down here. Can I have ten
-minutes?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed. “We are usually what you might call
-busy in this office, but you may have twenty minutes.
-Take your time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it’s this: I’ve left Peele Manor for good and
-all, and I want to be a newspaper woman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Field’s shaggy white brows rushed up his forehead.
-His black eyes expanded.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My God! What did you make such a break as
-that for?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There are many reasons. I can’t give them all.
-But all the same I’ve left, and I’m not going back.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, your reasons must be good, for you had a
-delightful position, and you became it. Are you sure
-you are not acting rashly?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve thought and thought and thought about it. I
-can’t understand why I didn’t leave before. I suppose
-my ideas and intentions didn’t crystallise until I met
-Miss Merrien. She has been very kind. I sent my
-clothes to her by degrees; she engaged a room for me
-in her house; we are going to cook together; and I
-have given her what money I have to take care of.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, well, you have acted deliberately. I don’t
-know that I am so much surprised, after all, and I’ll
-say nothing to persuade you to go back. I respect
-your courage and independence, and I’ll do all I can.
-I haven’t the slightest idea what you can do, but we’ll
-find out.” He leaned forward and patted her hand.
-Patience had one moment of painful misgiving, but
-again she had misjudged him. “If you get discouraged,
-just remember that the old man at the helm is your
-friend and won’t let you go under.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m sure you’re awfully good,” said Patience,
-tears of contrition and gratitude in her eyes. “I knew
-you would.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Field touched a bell. A boy entered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If Mr. Steele is still in the office ask him to step
-here,” said the chief.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Steele is the editor of the Evening ‘Day,’” he explained,
-“and has a remarkable faculty for discovering
-other people’s abilities.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience expected to see a man of middle years and
-business-like demeanour. She stared in amazement as
-a young man under thirty entered and was presented.
-He was closely built, but held himself carelessly. His
-smooth rather square face was very pale, and despite
-the irregularity of feature, bore an odd resemblance
-to the Greek fauns. The mouth was large and full, the
-eyes large, dark blue, and very cold. His fashionable
-attire accentuated the antiquity of his face and head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mr. Steele,” said Mr. Field, “this is Mrs. Beverly
-Peele, of whom you have heard so much lately. She
-has made up her mind to support herself. When she
-was a little girl I told her that I should one day make
-a newspaper woman of her, and she has come to hold
-me to my word—much to my satisfaction. I put her
-in your hands, and feel confident you will make a success
-of her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience expected to see a look of blank surprise
-cross the young editor’s face, but she did not know the
-modern newspaper youth. Mr. Steele could not have
-displayed less emotion had the new-comer been a young
-woman with letters from Posy County, Illinois. He
-merely bowed to her, then to his chief. Patience rose
-at once.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I won’t keep you,” she said to Mr. Field. “I’ll
-only thank you again, and promise to work as hard as
-Miss Merrien.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I haven’t the slightest doubt of your success.
-Always remember that,” said Mr. Field. Patience saw
-Mr. Steele’s eyebrow give a slight involuntary jerk;
-but it was immediately controlled, and he bowed her
-through the door.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We had better go upstairs to the evening room,”
-he said. “There is no one there at present.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience followed him up a precipitous stairway into
-a walled-off section of the composing-room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sit down,” he said politely, but Patience for the
-first time in her life felt terrified and humble. This
-young man, of whom she had never heard before, had
-the air of a superior being, omnipotent in her destiny.
-His manner conveyed that he was not one whit impressed
-by the fact that she had stepped down from the
-Sacred Reservation, took not the faintest interest in
-her as a pretty woman. She was merely a young
-person particularly recommended by his chief, and as
-such it was his duty to give her consideration.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He took a chair opposite her own, and she felt as if
-those classic guileless eyes were exploring her innermost
-brain.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What can you do?” he asked coldly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, nothing,” she said desperately, “absolutely
-nothing. I suppose you feel like remarking that the
-‘Day’ is not a kindergarten.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it certainly is not. Nevertheless, as Mr. Field
-thinks that you have ability, and wishes you to write for
-his paper, I, of course, shall do all I can to abet him.
-I shall begin by giving you a few words of advice.
-Have you a good memory; or should you prefer to
-write them down?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He spoke very slowly, as if he had a deep respect
-for the value of words.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have read a great deal,” said Patience, proudly,
-“and my memory is very good indeed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a faint twitching of one corner of Mr.
-Steele’s mouth, but he continued in the same business-like
-tone:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Read the ‘Day’ through carefully, morning and
-evening. Observe the style in which facts are presented,
-and the general tone and atmosphere of the paper.
-Cultivate that general style, not your own. Remember
-that you are not on this newspaper to make an individual
-reputation, but to become, if possible, a unit of a harmonious
-whole, and to give the public the best news
-in the style to which this newspaper has accustomed it.
-When you are sent on an assignment remember that
-you are to gather facts—facts. Keep your eyes open,
-and cultivate the faculty of observation for all it is worth.
-When you have gathered these facts put them into as
-picturesque a shape as you choose—or as you can. But
-no rhetoric, no rhapsodies, no flights, no theories. If
-the facts admit of being treated humorously, treat them
-in that way, by all means,—that is, if you can imitate a
-man’s humour, not a woman’s flippancy. A good many
-women can. And never forget that it must not be your
-humour but the inherent humour of the subject. Be
-concise. When you feel disposed to say a thing in ten
-words say it in five. That is all I can think of at
-present. Be here at eight o’clock to-morrow, and I will
-give you an assignment.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He rose, and Patience felt herself dismissed. She
-sat for a minute looking at him with angry eyes. Not
-even in the early days of her married life had she been
-so patronised as by this unknown young man. She felt
-as if he had plucked her individuality out with his thumb
-and finger and contemptuously tossed it aside.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is anything the matter?” he asked indifferently,
-although one corner of his mouth twitched again.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No!” Patience sprang to her feet and ran down
-the stair, at the imminent risk of breaking her neck.
-Miss Merrien was waiting for her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why, what on earth is the matter?” she exclaimed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, let us get out into the air! Come, and then
-I’ll tell you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But they were not able to converse until seated in the
-Elevated Train. Then Patience exclaimed with an
-accent of cutting sarcasm,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Who, <span class='it'>who</span> is Mr. Steele?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien smiled broadly. “Oh, I see. Did he
-patronise you? You must get used to editors. Remember
-they are monarchs in a small way, and love their
-power—the more because their dominion is confined
-within four walls. But Morgan Steele is one of the
-kindest men in the office. I’d rather work for him
-than for any one. He puts on an extra amount of side
-on account of his youth, but the reporters all adore him.
-He won’t keep an incompetent man two days, and
-during those two days the man’s life is a burden; but
-he is always doing good turns to the boys he likes.
-When you know him you’ll like him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think him an insolent young cub, and if I didn’t
-hate to bother Mr. Field I’d refuses to write for him.
-What on earth is a youngster like that in such a responsible
-position for?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, my dear, this is the young man’s epoch. Just
-cast your eyes over the United States and even England,
-and think of the men under thirty that are editors
-and authors and special writers and famous artists and
-leaders of enterprises. They are burnt out at forty, but
-they begin to play a brilliant part in their early twenties.
-I heard a man say the other day of another man who
-is only twenty-six and supposed to be ambitious:
-‘Well, he’d better hump himself. He’s no chicken.’
-A man feels a failure nowadays if he hasn’t distinguished
-himself before thirty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They are certainly distinguished for conceit.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, when you get used to newspaper men you’ll
-like them better than any men you’ve known. What
-is objectionable is counteracted by their brains and
-their intimate and wonderfully varied knowledge of life.
-A newspaper man who is at the same time a gentleman,
-is charming. It is true they have no respect for anybody
-nor anything. They believe in no woman’s virtue
-and no man’s honesty—under stress. Their kindness—like
-Morgan Steele’s—is half cynical, and they look
-upon life as a thing to be lived out in twenty years—and
-then dry rot or suicide. But no men know so well
-how to enjoy life, know so thoroughly its resources, or
-have all their senses so keenly developed, particularly
-the sense of humour, which keeps them from making
-fools of themselves. No man can feel so strongly for a
-day, and that after all is the philosophy of life. All
-this makes them very interesting, although, I must confess,
-I should hate to marry one. It seems to be a
-point of honour among them to be unfaithful to their
-wives; however, I imagine, the real reason is that no
-one woman has sufficient variety in her to satisfy a man
-who sees life from so many points of view daily that he
-becomes a creature of seven heads and seven hearts
-and seven ideals. Now, tell me all about your interviews
-with Mr. Field and Morgan Steele.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience told the tale, and Miss Merrien raised her
-eyebrows at its conclusion. “Well, you need not lie
-awake nights trembling for the future. You are in for
-push and no mistake. If the Chief has taken you under
-his wing in that fashion you can be sure that Morgan
-Steele will work you for all that is in you, whether he
-wants to or not.” Suddenly she laughed, and leaning
-over looked quizzically at Patience. “You vain girl,”
-she said, “you are piqued because Morgan Steele did
-not succumb as other men—including Mr. Field—have
-done to your beauty and charm. But I’ll tell you
-this, by way of consolation: it is a point of etiquette—or
-prudence—among editors never to pay the most
-commonplace attentions to, or manifest the slightest
-interest in the women of the office. It would not only
-lead to endless complications, but would impair the
-lordlings’ dignity: in other words, they would be guyed.
-So cheer up. You haven’t gone off since this morning.
-I see three men staring at you in true Elevated
-style.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience laughed. “Well, I will admit that I have
-no respect whatever for a man that is unappreciative of
-the charms of woman. I’d like to give Mr. Steele a
-lesson, but I won’t. I wouldn’t condescend. I’ll be
-as business-like as he is. He knew why I was angry to-day,
-I am afraid, but he won’t see me angry again.
-Why is Mr. Field so much nicer?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, he owns the paper.”</p>
-
-<h2>III</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience’s indignation had worn itself out by bedtime.
-When Miss Merrien left her for the night she locked her
-door and spread her arms out with an exultant sense of
-freedom. She seemed to feel the ugly weight of the
-past two years fall from her, and to hear it go clattering
-down the quiet streets. Her sense of humour and the
-liveliness of her mind had saved her from morbidity at
-any time, although she had not escaped cynicism. She
-now felt that she could turn her back squarely on the
-past, that she was not a woman whose mistakes and
-dark experiences would corrode the brain and spirit,
-ruining present and future. She could not make the
-same mistake again; and it was better to have made it
-in early youth when the etchery of experience eats the
-copper of the ego more lightly. The future seemed to
-her to be full of infinite possibilities. She could be her
-own fastidious dreaming idealising self again. New
-friends dotted the dusk like stars. She felt ten years
-away from the man to whom she had nodded a careless
-good-bye that morning. A vague pleasurable loneliness
-assailed her, the instinct of plurality. Then she
-laughed suddenly and went to bed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning, at eight o’clock, after a cup of
-black coffee to stiffen her nerves, she presented herself
-in the evening room of the “Day.” Two men and a
-woman were writing at little tables. Mr. Steele in his
-shirt sleeves was at his desk, reading copy. She sat
-down, priding herself that her face was as impassive as
-his own. In a few moments he called her to his
-desk.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have read in the newspapers, I suppose, of this
-crusade of Dr. Broadhead, the fashionable Presbyterian
-clergyman, against the voting of Immigrants?” he
-asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, he is doing his best to get the women of
-New York to help him, and is holding his first meeting
-this morning in Cooper Union—eleven-thirty.
-One of our best men will go to report the addresses,
-but I want you to go and sit in the audience, and observe
-how many fashionable women are there, what
-they wear, and what degree of interest they appear to
-take in the proceedings. Above all, I want you to
-keep your eyes and ears open for any significant fact
-which may or may not appear. It usually does. That
-is all.—Well, what do you want?” This to the office
-boy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience went slowly downstairs, feeling as if she
-had been sent out to discover the North Pole with a
-chart and a row-boat. When she reached Cooper
-Union, two hours later, and found herself for the moment
-an integer of one of the many phases of current
-history, she forgot the agonising travail of the “news
-sense,” and became so deeply interested that she
-observed the many familiar faces abstractedly, and,
-later, “faked” their costumes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She hurried to her room before the meeting was over
-and wrote her “story.” It concluded thus:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Some four hundred women were present, at half-past
-eleven in the morning; the hour indicating that
-they were women of leisure, which in its turn presupposes
-the large measure of education and refinement,
-and a general superiority over the toiling millions.
-They were very enthusiastic. When Dr. Broadhead entered
-the applause was deafening. They interrupted
-him every few minutes. When he sat down, and Mr.
-Lionel Chambers came forward he, too, was warmly
-welcomed, for his popularity is well established. He
-smiled, and began something like this:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“‘Ladies: Dr. Broadhead has left me little to say.
-I being somewhat versed in politics, however, in other
-words, in hard fighting with the enemy, he believes
-that I may be able to give you a little useful advice.’
-(Applause and cries of ‘Yes! Yes!’) ‘Now, ladies,
-there are several points upon which I must ask your
-attention.’ (No man ever had more serious attention.)
-‘I will check them off in detail. First of all,
-ladies, my advice to you is to—’ (every ear went forward)—‘is—to—pray.’</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He paused. There was an intense and disgusted
-silence, with the exception of one or two muttered exclamations
-of impatience. <span class='it'>There were just four hundred
-women in the city of New York who were beyond
-that sort of thing.</span> He saw his mistake at once, blundered
-on confusedly, recovered himself, and gave them
-much sound, practical advice which they received with
-every mark of gratitude.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She hastened down to the office, her eyes shining with
-the proud delight of authorship. Steele looked busier
-than any one she had ever seen, but he asked sharply:</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Got anything?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Let me see it. Skip the descriptive part.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She handed him the latter part of her story, and he
-ran his eye hastily over it. A gleam shot from his eyes,
-but he compressed his lips.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s not bad—but I don’t know that I dare
-print it. The religious hypocrisy of this country beats
-that of England, strange as it may appear. However,
-I’ll think it over. Come down to-morrow morning.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The article was printed, and the result was a shower
-of protesting letters from clergymen and religious
-women. Patience was sent to interview a number of
-representative women, of various spheres of life, on the
-subject, and found herself fairly launched. She hardly
-had time to realise whether she liked the work or not,
-but when she was not too tired, concluded that she
-did. As this phase wore off, she developed considerable
-enthusiasm, and felt her bump of curiosity enlarge.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She practically forgot the past, except to wonder
-occasionally that she heard nothing from the Peeles.
-Upon her arrival in New York, on the morning of her
-departure from Peele Manor, she had mailed a note to
-Beverly, which merely announced that she had left him,
-never to return. He was the sort of a man to put the
-matter in the hands of a detective, but so far—and
-the weeks were growing into a month—he had given
-no sign of any kind. She cared little for the cause of
-his silence, however; she was too thankful for the fact.
-Occasionally Steele gave her a brief word of praise, and
-she was more delighted than she had ever been at the
-admiration of man.</p>
-
-<h2>IV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sprang out of bed, full of the mere joy of
-living. She felt as happy as a wild creature of the
-woods, and for no reason whatever. She longed for
-Rosita’s voice that she might carol, and wondered if it
-were possible that she had ever thought herself the
-most miserable of women. The small room would not
-hold her, and she went out and took a long walk in the
-sharp white air; it was Sunday, and she was not obliged
-to go to the office.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she returned, the servant told her that a gentleman
-awaited her in the parlour. She turned cold,
-but went defiantly in. The visitor was Mr. Field, and
-the revulsion of feeling was so great, and her exuberance
-of spirits so undiminished, that she ran forward,
-threw her arms about his neck, and kissed him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am so happy I must kiss some one,” she said,
-“and after all you are the right person, for it is owing
-to you that I am happy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well! well!” he said laughing, “I am delighted;
-and also relieved that you did not take it into your
-head to do that down at the office. I’ve just dropped
-in to ask after your health and to say good-bye. How
-do you stand it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am well. I never felt so well. I get tired,
-but I sleep it off. I made twenty-five dollars last week,
-and I celebrated the occasion by coming home in a
-cab. Oh, I can tell you I feel all made over, and
-Peele Manor seems prehistoric.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You always did live at a galloping rate mentally.
-You are doing first rate—not but what you’ll do better
-a year from now. There’s pulse in your stuff. Keep
-your enthusiasm as long as you can. Nothing takes its
-place. Here’s something for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A messenger boy had entered with a note.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“For me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“For Mrs. Beverly Peele.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear!” she exclaimed, “it has come. This
-is from Mr. Peele. Do let me read it—I can’t wait.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She tore the envelope open and read hastily:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'><span class='sc'>Dear Patience</span>,—On the night of the day of your
-departure from Peele Manor, my son came up to us in a
-distracted condition. He had also contracted the grippe.
-The combination of disorders produced delirium and serious
-illness. For that reason and others we have not endeavoured
-to communicate with you. In fact, I only ascertained
-yesterday that you were working for Mr. Field,
-who I consider has further betrayed my friendship in
-associating himself with you in your insubordination.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Of course you are at liberty to act as you choose. The
-laws of this country are wretchedly inadequate regarding
-the authority of the husband. But one thing I insist upon:
-that you call upon us and make a definite statement of
-what you purpose to do. If you have repented and wish
-to return to us, we will overlook this wretched mistake. If
-you intend definitely to leave your husband and to follow
-the disgraceful life of a reporter on a sensational newspaper,
-you owe it to us to come here in person and define your
-position. The family with which you have allied yourself,
-my dear young woman, is not one to be dismissed with
-a note of three lines.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>I particularly request that you call at three o’clock this
-afternoon.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:6em;margin-top:0.5em;'>Yours truly</p>
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:3em;'><span class='sc'>Gardiner Peele</span>.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience handed the note to Mr. Field, who read it
-with much interest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go by all means,” he said; “otherwise they will
-annoy you with petty persecutions, and Beverly will
-haunt the ‘Day.’ Keep up all your pluck, and remember
-that this is a free country, and that they can
-compel you to do nothing you do not wish to do. You
-are mistress of the situation, and can call upon me for
-proof that you are supporting yourself adequately.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t want to go. I never want to look
-at one of them again. I’d just managed to forget
-them all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But you must go. It would look cowardly if you
-didn’t; and, when you come to think of it, you certainly
-do owe them some sort of explanation. Poor
-Peele! he must have actually suffered at being treated
-in such cavalier fashion.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well, I’ll go! I’ll go! But I wish I’d never
-seen them.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t look at all pretty with that face, and
-I shall run. By the way, I came to tell you that I
-start for Paris to-morrow to join my wife, who has
-been on the other side for some months. Otherwise
-she would have called before this. Steele will take
-care of you.”</p>
-
-<h2>V</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience went up to her room she slammed the
-door, closed the window violently, then sat down and
-beat a tattoo on the floor with her heels. Her spirits
-were still high, but cyclonic. She would willingly have
-smashed things, and felt no disposition to sing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Nevertheless she rang the bell of the house in
-Eleventh Street at three o’clock. The butler bowed
-solemnly, and announced that the family awaited her
-in the library. Patience, piqued that they were assured
-of her coming, was half inclined to turn back,
-then shrugged her shoulders, walked down the hall,
-and through the dining-room to the library in the
-annex.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The afternoon sun irradiated the cheerful room,
-but Beverly, with sunken eyes and pallid face, sat huddled
-by the fire. He sprang to his feet as Patience
-entered, then turned away with a scowl and sank back
-in his chair. His mother sat opposite. She merely
-bent her head to Patience, then turned her solicitous
-eyes to her son’s face. Honora came forward and
-kissed her sweetly. Mr. Peele did not shake hands
-with her, but offered her a chair by the long table.
-Patience took it, and experienced a desire to laugh
-immoderately. They had the air of a Court of Inquiry,
-and appeared to regard her as a delinquent at the
-bar.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele sat in his revolving chair, tipped a little
-back. He had crossed his legs and leaned his elbows
-on the arms of the chair, pressing his finger tips lightly
-together.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now,” he said coldly, “we are ready to hear
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have nothing in particular to say. I gave you
-fair warning, and you refused to listen, or to let me go
-abroad and so avoid publicity. I therefore took the
-matter in my own hands and went.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You ignore your duty to your husband; your
-marriage vows?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is only one law for a woman to acknowledge,
-and that is her self respect.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The husband that loves you is entitled to no
-consideration?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not when he exercises none himself. I refuse
-to admit that any human being has the right to control
-me unless I voluntarily submit myself to that
-control.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you aware that you are uttering the principles
-of anarchy?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, the true anarchists of this world are not the
-bomb throwers. When a man and woman are properly
-married there is no question of authority or disobedience;
-but a woman is a common harlot who lives
-with a man that makes her curse the whole scheme of
-creation.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora lifted a screen and hid her face. Beverly
-muttered inaudible remarks. Mrs. Peele lifted her eyebrows
-and curled her mouth. Mr. Peele moved his
-head slowly back and forth.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall not attempt to contradict any of your remarkable
-theories,” he said. “It is apparent that you
-are imbued with all the pernicious thought of the time.
-I am thankful that it is not my destiny to live among
-the next generation of women. Will you kindly tell
-me how you should have acted in this matter if you had
-had children?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t know! I have thought of that. No
-woman should have a child until she has been married
-three years. By that time she would know whether or
-not she had made a mistake.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And what shall you do if you are unable to support
-yourself?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Starve. No one has a right to live that the world
-has no use for, that can give the world nothing. Man’s
-chief end is not bread and butter. If I can give the
-world anything it will be glad to give me a living in
-return. If I am a failure I’ll walk out of existence as
-quietly as I altered my life. But I haven’t the slightest
-doubt of my ability to take care of myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele pressed his lips together. The old man
-and the young woman regarded each other steadily, the
-one with malevolence in his eye, the other with defiance
-in hers. In that moment Mr. Peele hated her,
-and she knew it. She had made him feel old and a
-component part of the decaying order of things, while
-she represented the insolent confidence of youth in the
-future.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Women make too much fuss,” continued Patience.
-“If they don’t like their life why don’t they alter it
-quietly, without taking it to the lecture platform or the
-polemical novel? If they don’t like the way man
-governs why don’t they educate their sons differently?
-They can do anything with the plastic mind. I am
-sure it could be proved that most corrupt politicians
-and bad husbands had weak or careless mothers. If
-the men of a country are bad you can be sure the
-women are worse—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly sprang to his feet, overturning his chair.
-“Damn it!” he cried. “You can talk all you like,
-but you are mine and I’ll have you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience turned and fixed her angry eyes on his face.
-“Oh, no, you will not. Your father will tell you that
-I am quite free.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele gave a short dry laugh. “She has the
-best of it,” he said. “You cannot compel her to return
-to you, and she has the air of one who has tasted of
-the independence of making money—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then I’ll dog her steps. I’ll make life hell for
-her—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You will do nothing of the sort, sir. Much as I
-disapprove of this young woman’s course, she has in me
-an unwilling abettor. I shall not have my domestic
-affairs made food for the newspapers and their hordes
-of vulgar readers. Field would take up her cause and
-hound me to my grave. You will keep quiet, and in the
-course of time get a divorce of which no one will be the
-wiser until you marry again. If the gossip does not
-get into the papers it will not rise above a murmur. If
-you add to my annoyance I shall turn you out of Peele
-Manor and cut you off without a cent. You will not
-pretend that you can support yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience rose. “If you have nothing more to ask I
-shall go,” she said. “Beverly can bring his suit as
-soon as he chooses. It will go by default.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly flung off his mother’s restraining arm and
-rushed forward. “You shall not go!” he cried.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t touch me!” cried Patience; but before
-she could reach the door Beverly had caught her in his
-arms. Excitement gave him strength. He held her
-with hard muscles and kissed her many times.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The ugly temper she had kept under control broke
-loose. She lifted her hand and struck him violently on
-the mouth. Her face too was convulsed, but with
-another passion. She felt as if the past month had
-been annihilated.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Will you let me go?” she gasped. “Oh, how I
-hate you!” Then as he kissed her again, “I could
-kill you! I could kill you!” She flung herself free,
-and shaking with passion faced the scandalised
-family.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You had better keep him out of the way,” she said.
-“Do you know that once I nearly killed my own
-mother?”</p>
-
-<h2>VI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience slept little that night. Her head ached violently.
-When she presented herself at the office Steele
-sent her to report a morning lecture. It was dull, and
-she fell asleep. When she returned to the office Steele
-happened to be alone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have no report,” she said. “I fell asleep. That
-is all I have to say.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For a few seconds he stared at her, then turned on
-his heel. In a moment he came back. “The next
-time you do that,” he said, “hunt up the reporter of
-some other newspaper and get points from him. First-class
-reporters always stand in together. Here’s a
-good story badly written that has come up from Honduras.
-Take it home and revamp it, and let me have it
-to-morrow.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are awfully good. I thought you would tell
-me to go, and I certainly deserve to.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You certainly do, but we won’t discuss the matter
-further.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That was an unhappy week for Patience, and she lost
-faith in her star. A great foreign actress, whom she
-was sent to interview, haughtily refused to be seen,
-and the next morning capriciously sent for a reporter of
-the “Eye,” the hated rival of the “Day.” She was
-put on the trail of a fashionable scandal and failed to
-gather any facts. She was sent to interview a strange
-old woman, supposed to have a history, who lived on a
-canal boat, and became so interested in the creature
-that she forgot all about the “Day,” and did not
-appear at Mr. Steele’s desk for three days. When she
-did he looked sternly at her guilty face, although the
-corners of his mouth twitched.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m delighted to see you have not forsaken us,” he
-said sarcastically. “May I ask if the canal boat woman
-quite slipped your memory?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“N-o-o. I have been there ever since.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed?” His ears visibly twitched. “That
-alters the case. Did you get the story out of her?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience looked at him steadily for a moment, then
-dropped her eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is nothing to tell,” she answered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Steele sprang to his feet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come out here,” he said. He led her into a
-corner of the composing-room, and they sat down on a
-bench.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now tell me,” he said peremptorily. “What have
-you heard? You have news in your eye. I see it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have nothing to tell.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Suppose you tell the truth. You have the story,
-and you won’t give it up. Why not?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well—you see—she confided in me—she said I
-was the only woman who had given her a decent word
-in twenty years; and if I told the story she would be
-in jail to-morrow night. Do you think I’d be so low
-as to tell it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sentimentality, my dear young woman, is fatal to a
-newspaper reporter. Suppose the entire staff should go
-silly; where would the ‘Day’ be?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It might possibly be a good deal more admirable
-than it is now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We won’t go into a discussion of theory <span class='it'>v.</span> practice.
-I want that story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You won’t get it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Indeed.” He looked at her with cold angry eyes.
-“The trouble is that you have not been made to feel
-what the discipline of a newspaper office is—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience leaned forward and smiled up audaciously
-into his face. “You would do exactly the same thing
-yourself,” she said; “so don’t scold any more. I
-admit that you frighten me half to death, but all the
-same I know that you would never send a poor old
-woman to prison—not to be made editor-in-chief.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He reddened, and looked anything but pleased at
-the compliment. “Do you know that you have just
-said that I am a jay newspaper man?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Patience only continued to smile, and in a moment
-he smiled back at her, then, with an impatient
-exclamation, left her and returned to his desk.</p>
-
-<h2>VII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Two months later Steele asked her to come to the office
-at six o’clock, an hour at which the evening room was
-empty, and suggested that she should give up reporting,
-and start a column of paragraphs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I should like it better, of course,” said Patience,
-after he had fully explained the requirements of the
-new department. “I was going to tell you that I <span class='it'>would
-not</span> go to that Morgue again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you wouldn’t? Well, you stood it rather
-longer than I thought you would.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And I’m tired of interviewing insolent conceited
-people. Oh, by the way, I should thank you for all
-these nice things you’ve just said to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He dropped his business-like manner suddenly.
-“How do you stand it?” he asked. Then in reply to
-her look of surprise: “Oh, you know, the Chief, when
-he went away, told me to look out for you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience immediately became the charming woman
-accustomed to the homage of man. Steele’s pre-eminence
-was gone from that moment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am remarkably well, thank you, considering how
-you have bullied me—and I can tell you that I
-did not fancy at all being ordered about by such an
-infant.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh! Thanks! But when a man’s too polite he
-doesn’t get anything done for him—not in this business.
-And is it a crime to be an editor before you
-are thirty?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you have reason to be proud of yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You mean that I have the big head. Well, that
-is the disease of the age, you know. It would never
-do for a newspaper man to get a reputation for eccentricity.
-You’ll have it yourself inside of six months if
-these paragraphs are a success.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never! I scorn to be so unoriginal.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, we’ll encourage your sentiments, and keep
-you as the office curio; but I didn’t really bully you,
-did I?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I’ll admit that you were kinder than I deserved,
-once in a while: when I fell asleep at the lecture, for
-instance.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed heartily. “That was the richest joke.
-There was absolutely nothing to say to you. If you only
-stood at the end of a long perspective of this business
-and could fully appreciate the humour of that situation!
-An experienced reporter, if he couldn’t have lied out
-of it, or borrowed news, would never have shown up.
-You looked like a naughty child expecting to have its
-ears boxed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, Miss Merrien guyed me for a whole week;
-I know all about that now. And now that you’ve
-come down off your pedestal I’ll thank you for all your
-patience and good training. If I’ve learned to write I
-owe it to your blue pencil; and I don’t need to be
-told by Miss Merrien that you’ve saved me from a great
-deal of hard work.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He smiled charmingly. There were times when he
-looked like an old man with the mask of youth; to-day
-he looked a mere boy. “Oh, any one would do as
-much for you, even if the Chief hadn’t given orders.
-You are an unusual woman, you know. You proved
-that—but, of course, I have no right to speak to you
-of that.” He stood up suddenly and held out his hand.
-“Well, be good to yourself,” he said. “If you feel
-yourself breaking, take a rest.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder,” she thought, as she went downstairs,
-“if that young man knows he betrayed the fact that he
-has been thinking a good deal about me? He certainly
-is an interesting youth, and I should like to know him
-better.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience did not find her paragraphs as easy as
-she expected. It was one thing to work on a given
-idea, and another to supply idea and execution both;
-but after a time her sharpened brain grew more
-magnetic and life fuller of ideas than of lay figures.
-The men in the office frequently gave her tips, and one
-clever young reporter, who worshipped her from afar,
-fell into the daily habit of presenting her with a slip of
-suggestions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her choicest paragraphs were usually edited by
-Steele’s ruthless hand, and now and again she was
-moved to wrath. Upon such occasions Mr. Steele
-merely smiled, and she was forced to smile in return or
-retire with the sulks.</p>
-
-<h2>VIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was writing busily in her little bedroom. The
-March winds were howling down the street. Her door
-opened, and a very elegant young woman entered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Hal!” cried Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You dear bad girl!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They kissed a half dozen times, then sat down and
-looked at each other. Hal had quite the young married
-woman air, and held herself with a mien of conscious
-importance, entirely removed from conceit: she
-was <span class='it'>grande dame</span>, and the late object of attentions from
-smart folks abroad.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, how are you?” asked Patience. “Oh, but I
-am glad to see you. Tell me all about yourself. When
-did you get back?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Day before yesterday. I’ve returned with thirty-two
-trunks, the loveliest jewels you ever saw, and quite
-a slave of a husband. I must say I never thought
-Latimer would keep up such a prolonged bluff, but he
-fills the rôle as if he’d been husbanding all his life.
-Oh, no. Don’t look at me like that. I’ve forgotten
-it, and I’ve no regrets. <span class='it'>Mon Dieu!</span> To think that I
-might be in Boston on four hundred a month! I shall
-be a leader, my dear. You can do as much with a
-hundred and fifty thousand a year as you can with a
-million, for you can only spend just so much money anyhow.
-All that the big millionaires get out of their
-wealth is notoriety. Nobody’d remember about them
-if it wasn’t for the newspapers. But you bad bad girl!
-What have you been and gone and done? Why didn’t
-you wait for me? I would have rescued you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you couldn’t, Hal dear. I didn’t want to be
-rescued for a day or a month. I’ve run away for good
-and all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But, Patience, what an alternative! Do you mean
-to say you live in this cubby-hole?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m mighty happy in this cubby-hole, I can tell
-you; happier than I ever was at Peele Manor.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That certainly was the mistake of my life. However,
-you’ve solved the problem more promptly than
-most women do. The celerity with which you untied
-that knot when you set about it moved me to admiration.
-By the way, do you know that Bev is ill?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is he? What is the matter?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t know exactly,—one of those organic afflictions
-that men are always getting. How uninteresting
-men are when their interior decorations get out of gear.
-And they always will talk about them. Latimer is ever
-groaning with his liver; but no wonder. I’ve had to
-eat so much rich stuff to keep him from feeling lonesome
-that I’ve actually grown fat. Well, we don’t
-know what is the matter with Bev, yet. The doctor
-says it’s a result of the influenza. He has some pain,
-and makes an awful fuss, like all men.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where are you going to stay, now?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am at the Holland, but will spend the summer at
-the Manor and the fall at Newport. Our house on the
-Avenue—opposite the park, you know—will be finished
-by winter. That house will be a jewel. I got the
-most beautiful things abroad for it. Then you will
-come and live with me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shook her head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It wouldn’t do, and you will see it. I belong to
-another sphere now; but I can see you sometimes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, put up that stuff, and come to the Holland
-and dine with me. You can finish up to-night. I have
-yards and yards to talk to you about. I’ll never give
-you up,—remember that.”</p>
-
-<h2>IX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the hot days and nights of summer came
-Patience did not find routine and the hunt as fascinating
-sport as when the electric thrill of cooler seasons
-was in the air. Her paragraphs acquired some reputation,
-and her mind grew tense in the effort to keep
-them up to a high standard, and to prepare at least
-one surprise a day. She grew thin and nervous, and
-began to wonder what life and herself would be like
-five years hence. Mr. Field and Steele helped her as
-much as they dared, and she managed to make about
-fifty dollars a week: her success gave Mr. Field the
-excuse to pay her special rates. It never occurred to
-her to give up, and she assured Hal that she would
-have nervous prostration four times a year before she
-would return to Peele Manor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There were times when she passionately longed for
-the isolation of a mountain top. Nature had been
-part of her very individuality for all the years of her
-life until this last, and a forested mountain top alone
-was the antithesis of Park Row. She sometimes had
-a whimsical idea that her grey matter was becoming
-slowly modelled into a semblance of that famous precinct.
-She loved it loyally; but the isolation of high
-altitudes sent their magnetism to another side of her
-nature. She was getting farther and farther away from
-herself in the jealous absorption of her work,—the
-skurrying practical details of her life. She felt that she
-could no longer forecast what she should do under
-given circumstances, that something in her was slowly
-changing. What the result would be she could not
-predict; and she craved solitude and the opportunity
-to study herself out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In August Mrs. Field took her to her house in the
-Berkshire hills. Although she had no solitude there, she
-returned much refreshed, and did good work all winter.
-Steele she never saw outside of the office, but he managed
-to treat her with a certain knightliness, and she lay
-awake, occasionally, thinking about him. Hard work
-and the practical side of life had disposed of a good
-deal of her romance, but she was still given to vagaries.
-Steele’s modernity fascinated her. No other epoch but
-this extraordinary last quarter of the nineteenth century
-could have produced him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was a great favourite in the office. Again a
-thaw had succeeded a second glacier period, induced
-by entire change of environment, and she liked nearly
-everybody she knew, and became a most genial and
-expansive young woman. She often laughed at herself,
-and concluded that she would never strike the proper
-balance until she fell in love (if she ever did), when
-the large and restless currents of her nature would unite
-and find their proper destination. She had no “weird
-experiences.” Her abounding feminity appealed to
-the chivalry of the gentlemen among whom she was
-thrown, and she was clever enough not to flirt with
-them, to treat them impartially as good comrades.
-The second-class men detested her, and were not conciliated:
-the underbred newspaper man touches a lower
-notch of vulgarity than any person of similar social
-degree the world over.</p>
-
-<hr class='tbk104'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One morning she awoke about four o’clock,—that
-is, her mind awoke; her body was still too full of sleep
-to move to the right or left. It was one of her favourite
-sensations, and she lay for a time meditating upon the
-various pleasures, great and small, which are part of
-man’s inheritance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly she became conscious that it was raining.
-She had moved into a back room on the second floor.
-Beside one window was a tin roof upon which the rain
-poured with heavy reiterance. In the back yard was
-a large ailanthus tree which lifted itself past her windows
-to the floor above. A light wind rustled it.
-The rain pattered monotonously upon its wide leaves,
-producing a certain sweet volume of sound.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was long since she had listened to rain in the
-night. It was associated in her mind with the vague
-sweet dreams of girlhood and with her life in Carmel
-Valley. She had loved to wander through the pine
-woods when the winter rains were beating through the
-uplifted arms, swirling and splashing in the dark fragrant
-depths. It said something to her then, she hardly knew
-what, nor when it roared upon the roof of the old farmhouse,
-or flung itself through the windows of Carmel
-tower, as she and Solomon huddled close to the wall.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But when it had beaten upon the roof of her little
-room in Miss Tremont’s house it had sung the loneliness
-of youth into her soul, murmured of the great
-joy to which every woman looks forward as her birthright.
-Hard worked and absorbed as she may have
-been during the day, if the rain awoke her in the night,
-it was to dreams of love and of nothing else, and of the
-time when she should no longer be alone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>This morning she listened to the rain for a time, then
-moved suddenly to her side, her eyes opening more
-widely in the dark. The rain said nothing to her. She
-listened to it without a thrill, with no longing, with no
-loneliness of soul, and no vague tremor of passion.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Nothing in her unhappy experience had so forcibly
-brought home to her the changes which her inner self
-had undergone in the last few years. Life was a hard
-clear-cut fact; she could no longer dream. Imagination
-had taken itself out of her and gone elsewhere,
-into some brain whose dear privilege it was to have a
-long future and a brief past.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The tears scalded her eyes. She cursed Beverly
-Peele. She wished she had remained in Monterey.
-There, at least, she would never have married any one,
-for there was no one to marry.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Even if my life had been a success,” she thought,
-“if Beverly Peele had been less objectionable, or had
-died, and I had had the world at my feet, it would be too
-high a price to pay. Not even to care that one is alone
-when the rain is sweeping about with that hollow song!
-To think and dream of nothing beyond the moment!
-To have accepted life with cynical philosophy, and feel
-no desire to shake the Universe with a great passion!
-To be beyond the spell of the rain is to be a thousand
-years old, and a thousand centuries away from the
-cosmic sense. I wish I were dead.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And there were other moods. Sometimes the devil
-which is an integral part of all strong natures—of
-woman’s as well as of man’s, and no matter what her
-creed—awoke and clamoured. There were four or
-five men in the office whom she liked well enough
-when absent, and in whom the lightning of her glance
-would have changed friendship to passion. Why she
-resisted the temptation which so fiercely assailed her
-at times she never knew. Conventions did not exist
-for her impatient mind excepting in so far as they
-made life more comfortable; she had in full measure
-youth’s power to know and to give joy, and she owed
-no one loyalty. And at this time she imaged no future:
-she had lost faith in ideals. It was only at brief
-intervals that there came a sudden passionate desire—almost
-a flash of prophetic insight—for the one man
-who must exist for her among the millions of men.
-And this, if anything, took the place of her lost ideals
-and conquered the primal impulses of her nature. Or
-was it a mere matter of destiny? Woman is a strange
-and complex instrument. She is as she was made,
-and it is not well to condemn her even after elaborate
-analysis.</p>
-
-<h2>X</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One morning in May, Hal came in before Patience was
-out of bed. She sat down on a chair and tapped the
-floor with her foot.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I come charged with a message, a special mission,
-as it were,” she said. “I hardly know where to begin.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t look at me like that, or I’ll never have the
-courage to go on. Bev is desperately ill,—not in bed,
-but he has the most frightful pains: his disease, which
-has been threatening for a year, has developed. It
-may or may not be fatal. The doctor says it certainly
-will be unless he has peace of mind, and he is fretting
-after you like a big baby. The grippe seems to have
-broken the back of his temper, and he is simply a
-great calf bleating for its parent. It would be ridiculous
-if it were not serious. You’d better come back
-to us, Patience.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I won’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I knew you would say exactly that; but when you
-think it over you will come. Remember that the doctor
-practically says that you can either save or prolong
-his life. Mamma is simply distracted. You know she
-adores Bev, and she broke down completely last night
-and told me to come and beg you to return. You
-know what that means: you’ll have nothing to fear
-from her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I can’t go back! I can’t! I think I should
-die if I went back.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We don’t die so easily, my dear. Now, I’ll go
-and let you think it over,” and the <a id='dip'></a>diplomat kissed
-Patience and retired.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience endeavoured to put the matter out of her
-mind, but it harassed her through her day’s duties,
-and her work was bad. Steele told her as much the
-next afternoon when she came into the office late, intending
-to write there instead of at home. Her room
-was haunted by Beverly’s pallid face and sunken eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well,” she said, flinging herself down before a
-table, “perhaps it’s the last, so it doesn’t matter.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why? What do you mean? You do look pale.
-Are you ill?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience hesitated a moment, then told him of the
-complication. He listened, without comment, looking
-down upon the skurrying throngs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose I must go,” she said in conclusion.
-“Anyway I feel that I shall go, whether I want to or
-not.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He came over to the table and regarded her with his
-preternatural seriousness.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” he said, “you will go. It will be like you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am no angel. It’s not that—please! It’s—don’t
-you know there are some good acts you can’t
-help? Not only do traditions and conventions drive
-you into them, but your own selfishness—I haven’t
-the courage to be lashed by my conscience. If I could
-give that morphine, do you think I’d go?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He smiled. “Do you analyse everything like that?
-However, I choose to keep to my illusions. I think
-that you have magnificent theories, but act very much
-like other people. Can I go up and see you sometimes?
-I may have a chance to know you, now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She put up her hand and took his impulsively. “Yes,
-come,” she said. “That is the only thing that will
-make life supportable.”</p>
-
-<h2>XI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She went home and wrote the following letter to
-Beverly Peele:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I will return to Peele Manor and remain while you are
-seriously ill, under the following conditions: (1) That you
-pay me what you would be obliged to pay a trained nurse;
-(2) That you will treat me on that basis absolutely. My
-feeling toward you has undergone no change. I am not
-your wife. But as your physician holds me responsible for
-your life, I will be your nurse on the terms stated above.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next day she received this telegram:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Come. Terms agreed to.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:left;margin-left:5em;'><span class='sc'>Beverly Peele.</span></p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was received by the various members of the
-household with infinite tact. Mrs. Peele’s cold blue
-eyes sheltered an angry spark, but she behaved to her
-errant daughter-in-law exactly as if matrimonial vacations
-were orthodox and inevitable. Honora kissed
-her sweetly, and asked her if the roses were not beautiful.
-When Mr. Peele came home he said, “Ah, good-evening.”
-Beverly, who had evidently been coached,
-did not offer to kiss her, but immediately explained
-every detail of his disease. Hal and her husband were
-in the North Carolina mountains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Beverly was not a good actor, and his eyes followed
-his wife with kaleidoscopic expression. She frequently
-encountered hungry admiration and angry resentment;
-and if he had made up his mind to abide by her decree
-he as clearly evidenced that he considered her his
-salaried property: he demanded her constant attendance.
-He looked so wan and hopeless that Patience
-was moved to pity, and even to tenderness, and devoted
-herself to his care.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For the first two weeks she felt hourly as if she must
-pack her trunk and flit back to the “Day.” She longed
-for a very glimpse of the grimy men in the composing-room,
-and felt that the sight of Morgan Steele in his
-shirt sleeves would give more spiritual satisfaction than
-the green and grey of the Palisades.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The life at Peele Manor seemed doubly flat after her
-emancipation. At the breakfast table, Mrs. Peele and
-Honora discussed their small interests. At luncheon,
-Beverly—who arose late—gave the details of his
-night. At dinner there was little conversation of any
-sort. The mornings, and the afternoons from four
-to six—when Beverly drove with his mother and
-Honora—were Patience’s own. Although discontented,
-she was by no means unhappy: she was out
-of bondage forever. If Beverly grew better she could
-return to the “Day” after a reasonable time had
-elapsed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She spent most of her leisure rambling over the hills
-in idle reverie or meditating upon her checkered life.
-She gave a good deal of thought to the many phases of
-life which had flashed before her startled eyes in the
-last year, but was too young not to be more interested
-in herself than in problems, however momentous. Still,
-she did not feel much more intimate with herself than
-she had felt in Park Row.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She frequently wondered with some pique and much
-disapproval that she heard nothing from Morgan Steele.
-The few glimpses she had caught of the nature behind
-the mask tempted her to idealise him, and she finally
-succumbed. One night she awoke to the fact that she
-had been walking the stars with him, discussing the
-mysteries of the Universe. She pictured the smile with
-which he would regard the workings of her imagination,
-were they revealed to him, and recalled his business-like
-demeanour, his shirt sleeves, his Park Row vocabulary,
-and his impatient scorn of “damned slush.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It happened to be midnight when these later thoughts
-arrived, and she laughed aloud.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What are you laughing at?” demanded a querulous
-voice from the next room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nothing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nothing? Do you suppose I’m an idiot? Tell
-me what you were laughing at.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go to sleep, go to sleep.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can’t go to sleep. You lie there and laugh while
-I lie here and suffer.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why didn’t you say you were suffering? Do you
-want the morphine?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I don’t.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An hour later Patience was roused from her first
-heavy sleep.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience! Patience! Oh, my God! My God!
-My God!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stumbled out of bed and into her dressing-gown
-and slippers, shaking her head vigorously to dispel
-the vapours in her brain.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, yes!” she said. “I’m coming. Do please
-don’t make such a fuss. You’ll wake up everybody—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not make a fuss! Oh, I wish you had it for a
-minute—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience ran into the lavatory and turned up the gas.
-The night was very warm, and the door leading into
-Honora’s room stood wide. The light fell full on her
-face. Patience saw that her eyes were open.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hope Beverly didn’t wake you up,” she said.
-“He does make such a noise.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I was awake. I never sleep well in warm weather.
-I don’t envy you, though.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t mind if only I don’t make a terrible
-mistake some night and give him an overdose. He
-takes particular pains to wait until I am in my first
-sleep and then I hardly know what I am doing. There!
-this is the third time I have dropped the wretched stuff.
-What is the good of drop bottles, anyway?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why don’t you use the hypodermic?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can’t. It would make me ill to puncture people.
-And this does him as much good.” She set the bottle
-down impatiently, drew a basin full of cold water,
-dashed it over her face, then dropped the dose and
-took it to Beverly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Stay with me,” he commanded. “You know it
-doesn’t take effect at once, and I feel better if I hold
-your hand.” She sat down beside him and nodded
-sleepily until the morphine did its work.</p>
-
-<h2>XII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next afternoon, a few moments after Beverly had
-gone for his drive, Morgan Steele’s card was brought up
-to Patience. She had imagined that this first call
-would induce a mild thrill of nerve, but she merely
-remarked to the butler: “Tell him I will be down in
-a moment,” walked to the long mirror in the corner,
-and shook out her violet and white organdie skirts. Her
-long hair was braided and tied with a lavender ribbon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I look very well,” she thought, and went downstairs.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Steele awaited her in the drawing-room, and, as she
-entered, was standing with his head thrown back, regarding
-the medallion of Whyte Peele. She noted
-anew how well he dressed and carried his clothes.
-He looked quite at home in the drawing-room of
-Peele Manor. Her first remark followed in natural
-sequence,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How odd not to see you in your shirt sleeves.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He turned with a start and a sudden warmth in his
-face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, well, I hope you’ll never see me that way
-again. How charming you look in that frock and with
-your hair in that braid! <span class='it'>I</span> always imagine <span class='it'>you</span> in prim
-tailor things, with your hair tucked out of sight under a
-stiff turban. This is lovely. You look like a little girl.
-Those awful dress reformers should see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s a comfort to think that the She-males cannot
-exterminate the artistic sense. Let us go into the
-library.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is there a large comfortable chair there? These
-are impressive but unpleasant. Perhaps you would not
-suspect it, but I love a comfortable chair and a cigar
-better than anything in life.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“One thing I do suspect—that we shall have to
-become acquainted all over again. You are not exactly
-like a fallen angel outside of the office, but you certainly
-have not patronised me for five minutes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you can take your revenge now and patronise
-me. Hang the shop! I don’t want to think about it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In the library he critically inspected every chair,
-selected one that pleased him, and drawing it to the
-open window sank into it with a deep sigh of content.
-Patience gave him permission to smoke, and a moment
-later he looked so happy that she laughed aloud.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You may laugh,” he said plaintively, “but you
-have less imagination than I thought if you don’t understand
-what this is to a man after Park Row. After
-an hour of that water and your muslin frock, I shall
-go back as refreshed as if my brain had taken a cold
-bath.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d fly back to the office this minute if I could.
-I’ve felt like a bottle of over-charged champagne for
-two weeks.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have the enthusiasm of youth. When you are
-my age—sixty-five—you will be thankful for the <span class='it'>dolce
-far niente</span> of a colonial manor. This sort of life suits
-you—you are a born châtelaine. You have lost your
-tired expression, and are actually stouter. Besides, I
-want to come up here to see you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Will you come often?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“As often as you will let me. I am free every
-afternoon, you know, and if I followed my tactless inclination
-I’d come seven times a week. However,
-don’t look alarmed; I’m only coming once a week—”
-He sat up suddenly, his eyes sparkling. “By Jove!”
-he exclaimed. “What a beauty!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience followed his eyes, which were directed
-ardently upon a sail-boat skimming up the river.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you fond of sailing?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Am I? I could live in a boat. I’d rather be in
-a boat than—than even talking to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, you shall be inside of a boat in five minutes,”
-she said good-naturedly. “Wait until I get my hat and
-gloves!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Being only the nurse,” she said, as they walked
-down the wooded slope to the boathouse, “I don’t
-know that I have any right to take liberties, but I will,
-all the same. I feel that it is an act of charity.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It certainly is, and you really are an angel.—She’s
-a good boat,” he said approvingly, a few moments
-later, as he unreefed the sail.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience arranged the cushions and made herself
-comfortable, and they shot up the river in a stiff breeze.
-She watched Steele curiously. He looked as happy as
-a schoolboy. His hat was on the back of his head, his
-eyes shone. Once as he threw back his head and
-laughed, he bore an extraordinary resemblance to the
-Laughing Faun.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ve lived in a boat for a whole summer,” he said,
-“and never seen a woman nor wanted to, nor a man
-neither, for that matter. There are three months in
-the year when I want nothing better in life than this.”
-His large cool eyes moved slowly to hers. “Still,” he
-added, “I do believe it’s an improvement to have you
-here. What fun if we had a little yacht and could sail
-like this all summer! I think we’d hit it off, don’t
-you? We shouldn’t either of us talk too much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience laughed. It was impossible to coquet with
-Steele. He took no notice of it. “I should be afraid
-you’d tip me over if you got tired of me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shouldn’t get tired of you,” he said seriously.
-“I never met a woman I liked half as much. You’re
-lovely to look at, and your mind is so interesting to
-study. Guess I’d better come about.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They sailed for two hours. The wind fell, and they
-talked in a desultory fashion. They discovered that
-they had the same literary gods, and occasionally
-Steele waxed enthusiastic. He had read more than
-most men of forty; nor was there anything youthful
-about the fixity of his opinions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear!” said Patience, suddenly, “why did
-we never meet before? I like you better than any one
-I ever knew. I’ve been hunting all my life for a
-mental companion.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“So have I,” he said, smiling at her in his half cynical
-way, “and now I’ve found you I don’t propose to
-let you go; not even next winter.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He confided to her that he had written a good deal,
-although he had published nothing. Patience wondered
-where he had found time to accomplish so
-much.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m going to bring up some of my stuff and read
-it to you,” he said. “You can take that as a compliment
-if you like, for I’ve only shown it to one other
-person—a man.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, I know why you like me! You are going to
-study me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it’s partly that,” he replied coolly. “You are
-a new type—to me at any rate, and I shall probably
-know a good deal more after I have known you a year
-or so than I do now. Who is that? What an amiable-looking
-person!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience followed his glance. Beverly stood at the
-foot of the slope, with distorted face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear,” she said, “that is Mr. Peele. I am
-afraid he is going to be disagreeable. Of course I am
-not obliged to stay—but in a way I am.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Steele ran the boat into the dock, handed her out,
-and reefed the sail before he spoke. Then he turned
-and looked at her squarely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Would you rather I did not come?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No! No! I want you to come. I’ll think it
-over and write you—or—I wonder if you are horrid
-like most men and would misunderstand me if I asked
-you always to come on a certain day and meet me in
-that wood up there, instead of going to the house?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Look here,” he said in his old business-like tone,
-“just let me set your mind at rest. I haven’t the
-slightest intention of making love to you. In the first
-place I am just now tired and sick of that sort of thing—a
-state a man does get into occasionally, although
-a woman will never believe it. In the second place I
-like to think of you as <span class='it'>sui generis</span>; a woman on a
-pedestal. It is very refreshing. A week from to-day
-I’ll be in that wood, and I’ll stay there from four to
-six whether you come or not. There comes my
-train.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You must flag it. Hurry. I’ll expect you Thursday.”</p>
-
-<h2>XIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Who is that man?” thundered Beverly, as she crossed
-the track behind the train.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience raised her eyebrows. “What have you to
-do with my visitors?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You sha’n’t receive men, and you sha’n’t sail in
-my boat.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course the boat is yours. I shall not use it
-again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are my nurse.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Your nurse is always ready to be dismissed,” and
-she walked up the slope, taking no further notice of
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Hal returned the following week; and, as Beverly
-improved steadily, the house was filled with company
-once more. Whenever Patience hinted that she was
-no longer required, Beverly immediately went to bed
-and rent the air; but as a matter of fact his attacks
-were growing less and less frequent.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, in the circumstances, was not impatient to
-return to work until the hot weather was over. Her
-position was very pleasant, Hal was ever her loyal
-friend, and she saw Morgan Steele once a week.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The wood was a wild place on a slope of the bluff
-some distance above the house. Its underbrush made
-it unpopular with the guests of Peele Manor. Steele
-left the train at the regular station a mile up the road
-and walked back without encounter. In the heart of
-the dark cool little wood Patience swung two hammocks
-and filled them with pillows. Steele lay full
-length in his and looked comfortable and happy, a cigar
-ever between his lips. Patience, in hers, sat in as
-dignified an attitude as she could assume.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Does it make you feel romantic?” he said one
-day, looking at her quizzically.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What do you mean?” she asked, flushing a little.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I think you have a queer romantic sentimental
-streak through your modernity—or had. I’ve been
-wondering if there was any of it left.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never told you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, but you suggest it. Tell me: didn’t you once
-have ideals and that sort of thing?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t see how you can even guess it, for I have
-none now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, you have. You won’t when you’re thirty,
-but you have all sorts of kiddish notions stored away yet
-in that brain of yours.” He had seen Peele a few days
-before in the train, and knew the history of their courtship
-quite as well as if she had related it to him, but
-he was curious to know what she had been before. He
-drew her on until she told him the story of the tower
-and the owl.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That little picture pleased his artistic sense, but when
-she described her girlish ideals and dreams he threw
-back his head and laughed loud and long.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What would I have done with you if I had met
-you then?” he said, looking with intense amusement at
-her half angry face. “I should have run, I expect.
-You are a thousand times more interesting now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not to myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course not, because you are less of an egoist,
-and draw a larger measure of your individuality from
-your environment. But you are real now, where before
-you were unreal—you were a sort of waxwork with
-numerous dents. The two extremes in this world are
-nature and civilisation. Children belong by right to
-nature, and she holds on to them as long as possible.
-When civilisation gets hold of them she proceeds to
-pick out with a pair of tweezers all but the primal
-passions; and the result is the only human variety
-capable of enjoying life.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Don’t you believe in ideals?” asked Patience,
-rather wistfully.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course not,” he said contemptuously. “Life is
-what it is, and you can’t alter it. And as we are only
-just so big and have only just so many years in which
-to get over a limited surface of this mighty complication
-called Life, all we can do is to keep our eyes open,
-and pick out here and there what appeals to our taste
-most strongly, swallowing the disagreeable majority as
-philosophically as possible. When you know the world—and
-yourself—you can’t have ideals, and the sooner
-you quit wasting time thinking about them the sooner
-you begin to enjoy life. And remember that we live
-but from day to day—we may be a cold cadaver to-morrow.
-Life is a game of chance. To set up ideals
-is as purposeless as to waste this life preparing for an
-impossible next. Omar expressed it better than I can
-when he said:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“‘To-morrow? Why, to-morrow I myself may be</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;&ensp;With yesterday’s seven thousand years.’”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have certain ideals though,” said Patience.
-“You are intellectually ambitious; and you say that
-you never run after a merely pretty face, and never
-wasted time on any sort of woman unless she had
-brains; and the men at the office say that you are
-scrupulously square in money matters. So that I can’t
-see that you are altogether without ideals.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Those are mere matters of taste and worldly sense.
-I aim for nothing that is impossible. When I think I
-want a thing I set about to accomplish it. If I find
-that it is impossible I quit without further loss of time.
-You don’t suppose I have an ideal woman, do you?
-How can any man that knows women?—although he
-may often succumb to a happy combination. When I
-was exactly twelve my Sunday School teacher forestalled
-any inclination I might have developed to idealise
-woman. I met her once after I was grown, by the
-way, and it did me good to tell her what I thought of
-her. That is where you women have the advantage
-of us. It is so long before you know man at all that
-after you do it is hard work making him over as he
-is. The woman never lived that understood man by
-intuition. That is the reason a woman so seldom has
-any fascination but that of mere youth until she’s
-pretty well on to thirty. You, of course, have had
-an exceptional experience, but you are a good deal of
-a kid yet.”</p>
-
-<h2>XIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Morgan Steele was a type of the precocious young
-United States newspaper man which only this end of the
-century has evolved: Preternaturally wise in the way of
-the world and the nature of woman; with young blood
-and cold judgment; wary, deliberate, calculating; full
-of kind impulses; generous with his money, yet careful
-of it; ready to make cold-blooded use of a man to-day
-and offer him a free lodging to-morrow; possessed of
-more self-control than the Club man of forty; without
-sentimentality, yet with a certain limited power of
-loving; having a thorough appreciation of the finer
-as of the coarser shades of woman; incapable of a
-blind supreme rush of feeling, through the habit of
-eternal analysis; placidly and philosophically content
-with the present, and fully expecting to be laid away in
-the past at forty; <span class='it'>blasé</span>, yet full of boyish delight in
-outdoor sport; having faith in no woman, yet treating
-the lowest with a cynical kindness and consideration
-which was part of his philosophy.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>One night he faced the question of his relationship
-to Patience with his usual deliberation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He lay on a divan in his bachelor quarters: a long
-room with bedroom and bath attached. The walls
-of the living-room were covered with red paper, the
-doors and windows hung with Smyrna cloth. A rug
-half covered the stained floor. Between the windows
-was a large desk covered with papers. A long table
-was strewn thick with magazines. Small bookcases
-were filled with the works of Omar, Whitman, Emerson,
-Hugo, Heine, Dumas, Maupassant, Bourget, Pater, Dobson,
-Herrick, Ibsen, Zola, Landor, Rabelais, Stevenson,
-Kipling. On the mantel there was a number of photographs
-and a notable absence of legs. The walls were
-covered with artists’ sketches.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The summer will pass harmlessly enough,” he
-thought. “I only see her once a week, and her husband
-is likely to be hidden in the brush; but when she
-returns to town in the winter I shall find myself calling
-on her every night. I’m not stuck on matrimony, but
-I certainly should like her for a companion in a little
-house or double apartment where there would be
-plenty of elbow room and some chance of keeping up
-the illusions. I think it would be some years before I
-should tire of her, and I think I could love her a good
-deal. Why in thunder doesn’t the man die? She’s
-too good for anything else. It would be a terrible pity—the
-details smirch so. A novelist would remark at
-this point, ‘And yet he never thought of sparing her.’
-No, my dear fictionist, we don’t, nor if she loved me
-would she thank me for sparing her. And yet it
-would be a pity. She is like some delicate wild-flower
-that has been transplanted. I should like to offer her
-the best one can, instead of practically remarking:
-‘My dear, this brain racket is worked out for the
-present. We’ll return to it later, or not at all.’</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is often a clever thing for those that love and
-cannot marry to part when the shock comes: they
-coddle the misery and have a glorious time suffering.
-But that would not do for us. We live in the thick
-and rush of life, and have no time to sit down with
-memories, hardly time enough to realise an ache. We
-must have our day in fact or not at all; and afterward,
-thank God, there is again no time for memories. Well,
-this is only the eighth of July. By winter that intolerable
-nuisance may be in the family vault.”</p>
-
-<h2>XV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>People remarked that summer that Patience looked
-unusually well. At times her eyes had a certain liquid
-softness, at others they sparkled wickedly. Her colour
-was beautiful and her manner and conversation full of
-animation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was on a hot August afternoon that Patience and
-Steele, in the green shades of their wood, suddenly met
-each other’s eyes and burst out laughing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We are in love,” said Patience.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well—yes—I suppose we are.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I feel very light-minded over this unexpected
-<span class='it'>dénouement</span>. I had imagined all sorts of dramatic
-climaxes; but the unexpected always will happen in
-this life—more’s the pity.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did you expect we should not fall in love?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did not think about it at all for a time—just
-drifted. But as the situation is so serious it is as well
-to take it humourously. What are we going to do about
-it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He had removed his cigar, and was regarding her with
-his contemplative stare. “I have thanked your complicated
-ancestors more than once for your large variety
-of moods. I am glad and sorry that you have spoken:
-sorry, because this was very pleasant; glad that the
-discussion of ways and means should take place here
-instead of in town. I shall be brutally frank. How
-long is your husband likely to live?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He may live for twenty years. I heard the doctors—they
-have a consultation every once in a while—tell
-Mrs. Peele so the other day. He is much better. On
-the other hand, he might take a turn for the worse any
-day.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then you must persuade him to give you a
-divorce.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, dear, I am afraid that is out of the question.
-I’ve thought of it; but—you don’t know him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are a clever woman: now look up your
-resources. Enlist the family on your side. Tell them
-that you are about to leave, never to return, and that
-you are on the road to become a famous newspaper
-woman; that if they will persuade your husband to give
-you a divorce you will drop their name; otherwise that
-it will be dinned in their ears for the next twenty years.
-Tell them that we intend to let you sign hereafter.
-That ought to fetch them, as they appear to look upon
-the newspaper business with shuddering horror. And
-persuade them that Beverly needs a good domestic little
-wife who would gladden his declining years.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m sorry I feel in this mood,” said Patience,
-abruptly. “I should far rather it had been the other
-way—the usual way. I suppose I am possessed with
-what Poe calls The Imp of the Perverse.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My dear girl, I need not remind you that it is just
-as well and a good deal better. You need a shaking to
-wake you up, though. You imagine that you are awake
-already, but you are not—not by a long sight. You
-have buried your nature five fathoms deep. Well, time
-is up. I must be off. Think over what I have said.
-Good-bye.”</p>
-
-<h2>XVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the following Thursday morning Patience walked
-slowly over to where Beverly sat under a tree on one of
-the lawns, reading a newspaper. She had made up her
-mind to adopt Steele’s advice, but had deferred the
-evil moment as long as possible.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Beverly,” she said abruptly, sitting down in front of
-him, “I want to speak to you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laid down the newspaper and regarded her with
-eager admiration. She had carefully selected the most
-unbecoming frock she possessed, a sickly green, and
-twisted her hair in a fashion to distort the fine lines of
-her head. Nevertheless, she looked as fresh as the
-morning, and her eyes sparkled with excitement.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it?” he asked. “Oh, why—why—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never mind! I am going to have a business talk
-with you, and please don’t get excited. If you do,
-you’ll be sure to have a pain, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, what is it? It doesn’t do a fellow any good
-to keep him in suspense.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“On the first of November I am going away—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are not!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And I shall not come back—not in any circumstances.
-You have proved that your attacks are more
-or less under your own control. A sojourn at some
-foreign baths will probably cure you. I have given you
-all of my life that I intend to give you. I know that
-self-sacrifice is the ideal of happiness of some women,
-but it is not mine. When I leave here on the first of
-November it will be forever. There is no inducement,
-material nor sentimental, that will bring me back.
-Do you understand that much clearly?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He burst into a volley of oaths, and beat his knees
-with his fists. Patience continued as soon as she could
-be heard:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Now, it can do you no possible good to retain a
-legal hold on me, nor can you care to hear of your
-name becoming familiar in Park Row. Give me my
-freedom, and I will take my own name—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’ll get no divorce,” he roared, “now nor ever.
-Do you understand that? I’ll brace up and live until
-I’m ninety—by God I will! I’ll go abroad and live at
-a water cure. You’ll never be the wife of any other
-man. Do you understand that?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Beverly,” she said, breaking suddenly, “don’t
-be cruel,—don’t! What good can it do you? Give me
-my freedom.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He grasped her wrists. His eyes were full of rage
-and malevolence. “Do you want to marry some one
-else?” he asked. “Some damned newspaper man, I
-suppose.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience stood up and shook him off. “If ever I
-do marry another man,” she said cuttingly, “you may
-be sure he will have brains this time, and that he will
-also be a gentleman. The most vulgar persons I
-have ever known have been socially the most highly
-placed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she moved away he sprang after her and caught
-her arm. “Now look here,” he said hoarsely, “you’ll
-neither marry, nor will you have a lover, unless you
-want all New York to know it. The moment you leave
-this place a detective goes after you. You’ll do nothing
-that I don’t know. I may not have brains, but I’ll get
-the best of you all the same.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience flung him off and went straight to Mrs.
-Peele. Her mother-in-law watched her with narrowed
-eyes until she had finished, then remarked unexpectedly:
-“I shall do my best to make my son
-divorce you. If you intend to leave us I prefer that the
-rupture should be complete. As you suggest, I have no
-desire to see the name of Peele signed to newspaper
-articles. Moreover, I believe I can persuade my son to
-marry again,—a woman of his own station, who will
-not desecrate the name of wife; and who,” with sudden
-violence, “will give this house an heir.” She paused
-a moment to recover herself, then continued more
-calmly: “I have talked the matter over with my husband,
-and he agrees with me. Of course, you will
-expect no alimony.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t want alimony. I make more with my pen
-than Beverly ever allowed me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The red came into Mrs. Peele’s face. “My son was
-quite as generous as was to be expected. Moreover, he
-had the right to demand that his wife should not come
-to him empty handed. I shall speak to Beverly.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An hour later Patience met Mrs. Peele in the side
-hall. The older woman looked flushed and excited.
-“I have had a most terrible interview with Beverly,”
-she exclaimed. “I can do nothing with him. You
-little fool, why didn’t you swear that you did not want
-to marry another man? Heaven knows I should prefer
-to have you take another name as soon as possible; but
-you have ruined your chances by letting Beverly suspect
-the truth.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sank upon a chair, and sat for a long while
-staring straight before her. She felt the incarnation of
-rage and hate. Her lovely face was set and repellent.
-She came to herself with a start, and wondered if she had
-ever had any womanly impulses.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had never wanted anything in her life as much
-as she wanted to marry Morgan Steele. His very
-unlikeness to all her old ideals fascinated her, and she
-was convinced that she was profoundly in love. She
-could hardly imagine what life with him would be like,
-and was the more curious to ascertain; and the obstacles
-enraged her impatient spirit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The butler left the dining-room to announce luncheon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Send mine up to my room,” she said. As she
-reached the first landing of the stair she turned to him
-suddenly. “Tell John to go to New York this afternoon,
-and have Mr. Beverly’s morphine bottle filled.
-He took the last last night and he may need it again
-before I go down myself. Don’t fail to tell him.
-The bottle is in the lavatory.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That afternoon she met Steele at the edge of the
-wood.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I could not keep still,” she said. “My brain feels
-on fire.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He drew her hand through his arm and held it
-tenderly. “What is it?” he asked. “Did you speak,
-and was it disagreeable?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll tell you in a minute. Just now it is enough to
-feel you here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can only stay an hour. I should not have come
-at all, but I could not stay away.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When they reached the hammocks Patience flung
-herself into hers and told the story of the morning
-with dramatic indignation. Then, insensibly, she
-drifted into the story of her married life, and described
-her intense hatred and loathing of her husband.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It was all my own fault,” she said in conclusion.
-“I married him with my eyes open; but all the same
-I hate him. Sometimes I felt, and feel yet, fairly
-murderous. I seem to have a terrible nature—does it
-make you hate me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laughed. “No, I don’t hate you, and you know
-it quite as well as I do. You have wonderful possibilities—but
-I can’t quite make up my mind that I am
-the man—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes, you are. I could love you as much as I
-hate Beverly Peele.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, if you think so it amounts to the same thing,
-for a while at least. I shall come again in a few days.
-I’ll write you. If your husband cannot be induced to
-change his mind I’ll talk to you about a paper that
-has been offered to me in Texas; but if you prefer it
-the other way, I’ll leave you alone without a word.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t know! There are some words I hate,—the
-words free-love and adultery. I don’t want to
-be exploited in the newspapers, and I don’t want to
-be insulted by my landlord. After all, expediency is
-the source of all morality. My life with you would be
-a thousand times better than it was with Beverly Peele;
-but I suspect that we can’t violate certain moral
-laws that heredity has made part of our brain fibre,
-without ultimate regret, even when we keep the world
-in ignorance. I suffered horribly once, although I had
-not defied the conventions. But I think we must have
-everything, or the large share of herself that Nature has
-given each of us rebels,—in other words, the ideal is
-not complete.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“When you are very much in love,” he said dryly,
-“you won’t analyse.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Contrary to her habit, she remained in the wood for
-some time after he left her. Suddenly she was aroused
-from her reverie by a peculiar heavy sound, as of a
-man crawling. She listened intently, her hair stiffening:
-the house was a quarter of a mile away. The
-sound continued steadily. She sprang to her feet and
-fled from the wood. As she ran up the hill beyond,
-she glanced fearfully over her shoulder. A man shot
-from the lower edge of the wood and ran toward the
-stables.</p>
-
-<h2>XVII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An hour after midnight Patience ran into Honora’s
-room and shook her violently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Honora! Honora!” she cried, “something is the
-matter with Beverly. I can’t wake him up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora stretched herself languidly. Her eyelids
-fluttered a moment, then lifted. She said sleepily:</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it, Patience?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Beverly! Go to him—quick—while I wake up
-Mr. and Mrs. Peele, and send for the doctor. He
-dropped his own morphine to-night, and he must have
-taken too much.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A few moments later there was an alarmed group of
-people at Beverly Peele’s bedside, and the butler could
-be heard at the telephone demanding the doctor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele was in his pyjamas, and Patience struggled
-with an importunate desire to tell him that his hair
-stood on end. Mrs. Peele’s back hair was in a scant
-braid; the front locks were on pins. Her skin looked
-pallid and old. Honora, as usual, looked like a vision
-from heaven. Hal and her husband were in Newport,
-and there were no guests at Peele Manor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you sure,” asked Mr. Peele, as precisely as if
-his hair was parted in the middle and plastered on
-each side, “that anything is the matter? Does not
-the morphine always put him to sleep?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not at once. You see he takes it internally, and
-it’s twenty minutes or half an hour before it takes effect.
-During that time he always groans, for he never takes it
-until the last minute. I heard him get up and return
-to bed; and then I knew something must be the matter
-because he was so quiet—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How could you let him drop it himself?” exclaimed
-Mrs. Peele, passionately. “How could you? What
-are you here for?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I offered to drop it for him, but he wouldn’t let me.
-I didn’t insist, as he always put it off—and we had
-had a quarrel—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“My poor son!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, something’s got to be done,” said Mr. Peele.
-“I don’t like the way he’s beginning to breathe.
-There are one or two things we can do until the
-doctor comes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He raised Beverly’s arms above the head, brought
-them down and pressed them into the chest, repeating
-the act twenty or thirty times. Beverly meanwhile was
-breathing stertorously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Can’t I do something?” cried his mother, distractedly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think we had better walk him,” said Mr. Peele,
-whose mouth was tightening. “Call Hickman.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The butler was waiting in the hall, and came at once.
-He helped Mr. Peele to lift the young man from the
-bed. The stalwart figure hung limply between them:
-he was as collapsed as the new dead. Mr. Peele and
-Hickman walked him up and down the long line of
-rooms, shaking him vigorously from time to time;
-but they would have produced as much effect upon
-the bolster. Mrs. Peele had sunk into a chair. She
-sat with compressed lips, and dilating eyes fixed upon
-Patience. Honora knelt beside her, patting her hand.
-After a time she arose, liberated Mrs. Peele’s hair from
-its braid and steels, and arranged it with deft hands,
-fetching some of her own amber pins.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sat on the edge of the bed. She was
-beginning to feel hopelessly sleepy. The day’s excitement
-had sapped her nerves. It was now nearly two
-o’clock, and she had not slept. Beverly had been ill
-the night before and given her little rest. She felt bitterly
-ashamed of herself; but every few moments she
-was obliged to cover her face with her handkerchief to
-conceal a yawn. Once or twice her head dropped
-suddenly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The last time she sat up with a gasp. Mrs. Peele
-groaned. The two men had entered with their burden.
-Beverly’s face was blue, and he breathed infrequently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“His body is bathed in a cold perspiration,” said
-Mr. Peele. “Will that doctor never come?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“O my God!” murmured Mrs. Peele.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience left the bed and sat on the sill of the window.
-The night was very hot and still. A shuddering
-horror took possession of her. A palpable presence
-seemed skimming the dark gulf under the window.
-She sat with distended eyes, half expecting to see a
-long arm reach past her and pluck the soul from the
-unconscious man on the bed. She closed her eyes and
-put her fingers in her ears. When she removed them
-she drew a long breath.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The doctor is coming,” she said. “I hear the
-wheels.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did you make him understand what was the
-matter?” asked Mr. Peele of the butler.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir. He said he would bring everything
-necessary.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the doctor came in he bent over the sick man
-and lifted his eyelids.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is morphine poisoning, sure enough,” he said.
-“Have some black coffee made. I shall use the electricity
-meanwhile. Better telegraph to New York. I
-don’t like this case, and don’t want it alone.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience watched them mechanically for an hour,
-then slipped into her own room and into her bed.
-Nature had conquered her. Another moment, and she
-would have fallen to the floor in sleep.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Four hours later she was awakened by a vigorous
-shaking of her shoulder.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sat upright and glanced about wildly. “What
-is it? What is the matter?” she cried. “I had such
-a horrible dream. I thought Beverly was drowning
-me—holding me down under the water—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Your husband is dead,” said the doctor. “Do you
-wish to go to him?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shrank under the bedclothes, pulling them
-about her head. After the doctor had gone she ran
-over to a spare room, opened all the windows to
-admit light, then went to bed and slept until late in the
-day.</p>
-
-<hr class='pbk'/>
-
-<div><h1 class='nobreak'><a id='book5'></a>BOOK V</h1></div>
-
-<h2 class='nobreak'>I</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The editor-in-chief of the New York “Eye” sat in the
-large revolving-chair in his private room, dictating to a
-typewriter answers to the great pile of letters on the
-desk before him. He opened one letter after another
-with expert swiftness, glanced over it, gave it a few lines
-of response, or tossed it, half read, into a wastebasket.
-But although his heed to duty was alert, his brow was
-contracted, and he was carrying on a double train of
-thought. The subconsciousness was not pleasant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Arnold Sturges was one of the most remarkable men
-in New York. Not thirty-three, he had been editor-in-chief
-of one of the great newspapers of the United States
-for a year and a half. He had elected journalism as the
-safety-valve for a superabundant nervous energy and a
-means to gratify ambition and love of power. Although
-possessed of a little fortune he had begun his career on
-the city staff. As a reporter he had worked as hard as
-if twenty-five dollars a week stood between him and
-starvation. He had risen rapidly from one editorship
-to another, and still no half naked man down in
-the printing-rooms worked more lustily. His rushing
-career was by no means due to work alone, nor yet to
-his superlative cleverness: it was said of him that he
-could smell news a week off, and not only ahead but
-backward; by which was meant that he knew the subtle
-and valuable relation that old news occasionally holds to
-that of the moment. Naturally, he had made many
-brilliant and memorable coups.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When friends had blocked his way he had thrust
-them aside as lightly as he seemed to spurn less material
-obstacles. Body and brain he was the dauntless servant
-of the “Eye;” its personality was his; his very nerves
-were tuned to its sensational policy. He lived for it,
-and would have died for it. He hardly regarded himself
-as an individual, although his fine intellect, his bold
-executive ability, his splendid suggestions, had been
-large factors in the success of the paper.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Cold, cruel, charming, calculating, enthusiastic, audacious,
-unscrupulous, fearless, relentless, brilliant, executive,
-had he been a factor in the French Revolution
-his name would have become infamously immortal. As
-it was, he was supreme in the field he had deliberately
-chosen ten years before, immediately after graduating
-from Harvard with such honours that the faculty had sent
-for and severally congratulated him upon his future.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He lived with a soubrette with whom he spent his
-evenings, playing <span class='it'>parchisi</span>.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>To-day he was in a serious quandary. Three days
-before he had paid fifteen hundred dollars for a scandalous
-story relative to one of the most fashionable families
-in Westchester County,—a story which bore truth
-on the face of it, but which he had not yet published, as
-it was necessary to go through the form of verification.
-The family meanwhile had heard of the sale, and brought
-tremendous pressure to bear upon him to suppress the
-story: the owner of the “Eye” was travelling in
-Europe. Lawyers had called and harangued. A woman
-had gone to his apartment and wept at his feet. A
-man had flourished a pistol. For tears and threats he
-cared nothing, but it had occurred to him when too late
-that the owner of the “Eye” purposed to build in
-Westchester County and had aspirations to the Country
-Club. Despite the fact that the story would make the
-sensation of the day, the owner might be moved to fury.
-On the other hand, he had paid fifteen hundred dollars
-for the facts, and must justify himself. It was the first
-time in his career that he had made a serious mistake,
-and he was in a cold rage.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man would have given pleasure to a physiognomist;
-he was a type so marked, so essentially modern,
-that an amateur could not have misplaced him, as one
-easily could so commonplace a type as Beverly Peele.
-His forehead was full and wide, his grey eyes piercing,
-restless, hard as ice. The nose was finely cut, the
-mouth licentious, the face thin and sallow. At each
-extremity of the jaw was an abnormal development of
-muscle. His small thin figure was as lithe as a panther,
-and so crowded with pure nerve force that it seemed to
-shed electricity. His attire was fashionable and elegant.
-In flannel shirt and overalls he would still have looked
-a product of the higher civilisation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The door opened. He wheeled about with a frown,
-then smiled pleasantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, it’s you, Van,” he said. “I’ll be through in a
-minute. Sit down.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man that had entered bore so striking a resemblance
-to Sturges that the two men might have been
-twins. He was, in fact, three years younger than his
-brother. Yet there were some points of difference. Van
-Cortlandt Sturges’ mouth was a straight line, his hair
-was many shades lighter, almost flaxen, and he was
-several inches taller. But the expression of the upper
-part of the two faces was identical. He, too, had left
-Harvard with high honours, and ambition devoured him.
-Although only thirty he was District Attorney of Westchester
-County. But as yet his fame had not gone
-beyond its borders, although within them his dry
-incisive bitter eloquence had carried many juries.
-Criminals in their cells thought on him with terror. He
-had sent several men to the chair, but no man that had
-been defended by Garan Bourke. People said of him
-lightly that he would not go out of his way to be President
-of the United States until he had thrashed Bourke
-on his own ground.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’d like ten minutes as soon as possible,” he said.
-“I have an important communication to make.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll hear it now.” To the typewriter: “You can
-go. Don’t return until I ring, and tell Tom to stand
-in front of the door and admit no one.—Well, what
-is it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Have you made up your mind to publish that Westchester
-County scandal?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How do you know anything about that?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They sent for me yesterday and besought me to
-use my influence with you. I am engaged to the
-woman’s sister.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The devil you are! This is bad—bad. But I
-can’t do anything. I paid fifteen hundred dollars for
-that story.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I know you did. If I could give you a better,
-would you let that go?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wouldn’t I? It’s a white elephant. I thought
-you didn’t know me so little as to come here with
-sentiment. Fire away.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course you remember the Gardiner Peeles,
-although you never go anywhere. You went to one or
-two children’s parties there when you were a kid.
-Well, Beverly Peele died suddenly night before last,
-supposedly of an overdose of morphine administered
-by himself. Now, old Lewis, the family physician, is a
-great friend of mine, and likely to be communicative in
-his cups. Last night he dined with me, and after he
-was pretty well loaded told me a remarkable yarn. It
-seems that Mrs. Beverly had not been on good terms
-with her husband since the early days of their marriage,
-and had threatened to leave him from time to time.
-He treated her well, and was desperately in love with
-her. She, as far as is known, had nothing against him
-but personal dislike. She is said to have frequently
-expressed hatred of him in violent terms. Well, winter
-before last she left him, came to New York, and went to
-work on the ‘Day.’ The Peeles did everything to
-induce her to return, but she only consented to go
-back temporarily this summer to nurse her husband,
-who had been attacked with a chronic but not immediately
-fatal complaint. Meanwhile it seems she had
-fallen in love with some one, and she met him every
-Thursday in a wood. Jim, a stable boy, who had been
-brought up on the place and was devoted to Beverly
-Peele, watched her, but said nothing to his master, as
-he was cautiously waiting for some proof of criminality.
-On the afternoon of Peele’s death there was a tremendous
-scene between the lovers: young Mrs. Peele telling
-a furious story of her husband’s refusal to give her
-divorce, of his threat to have her watched, to expose
-her if she took a lover, and to live until ninety if
-he had to go abroad and live at a foreign spa. She
-reiterated that she hated him, and had frequently had
-the impulse to murder him. The lover invited her to
-go to Texas, and she demurred, as she disliked scandal.
-Jim told this story to Lewis when driving him home
-from the death-bed,—his own horse had cast a shoe,—and
-the doctor advised him to keep quiet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The night after the interview between the lovers—or
-rather the following morning—Peele died of an overdose
-of morphine. She says he took it himself; but it
-is a remarkable fact that never before—not in a single
-instance—had he dropped the morphine himself. He
-had had a nurse from the first, and when the pain was
-on he shook like a leaf. And yet she asserts that she
-did not drop it that particular night, and adds—by
-way of explanation—that they had had a violent quarrel
-and he had refused to let her wait on him. While
-he was dying and the others were working over him,
-she behaved in the most heartless manner,—deliberately
-went to bed in the next room and went to sleep.
-When Lewis awakened her, however, and told her that
-Peele was dead, she displayed symptoms of abject
-terror, and tore across the hall and locked herself in
-another room. Now, what do you think of it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Sturges’ eyes were glittering like smoked diamonds.
-“My God!” he cried. “That’s a grand story! a
-corker! I’ll have Bart Tripp, the best detective reporter
-in New York, up there inside of two hours.
-Between whiskey and gold he’ll get every fact out of
-the servants they’ve got. It’s worth two of the other.
-A young, beautiful, swagger woman accused of murdering
-her husband, and that husband a Peele of Peele
-Manor! The ‘Eye’ will be read in the very bowels
-of the earth.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And I shall conduct the case for the prosecution.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The ‘Eye’ will let people know it. Don’t worry
-about that. Does Lewis remember that he told you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not a word.”</p>
-
-<h2>II</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the following Sunday Patience arose early. Beverly
-had been in the family vault down in the hollow for a
-week. She had wished to leave immediately after the
-funeral, but had remained at the insistence of Hal, who
-had returned at once, and was doubly depressed by her
-brother’s death and the gloomy house. Mrs. Peele had
-gone to bed with a violent attack of neuralgia some
-days ago, and had not risen since. Honora was in constant
-attendance. Mr. Peele never opened his lips
-except to ask for what he wanted. Burr, as a matter
-of course, spent the days in New York or at a private
-club house in the neighbourhood.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had moved into a room adjoining Hal’s.
-She kept the light burning all night.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’ll be all right when I get back to New York,” she
-said, “but I have a horror of death. I can’t help it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Who hasn’t?” asked Hal. “I wish I were a man—or
-could be as selfish as one.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On this Sunday morning Patience rose after a restless
-night, and went downstairs as soon as she was
-dressed. The “Day” and the “Eye”—Burr’s
-favorite newspaper—lay on a table in the hall. She
-carried them into the library and turned them over
-listlessly, then remembered that a great Westchester
-County scandal had been promised for the Sunday
-“Eye” by the issue of the day before, and that Hal
-and Burr were on the alert, suspecting that they half
-knew the story already.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She opened the “Eye” and glanced at the headlines
-of the first page. In the place of honour, the
-extreme left hand column, she found her story:</p>
-
-<div class='lgc' style=''> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line'>&#160;</p>
-<p class='line'>WAS IT MURDER?</p>
-<p class='line'>AN OLD MANOR HOUSE IN WESTCHESTER COUNTY MAY</p>
-<p class='line'>HAVE BEEN THE THEATRE OF A GREAT CRIME!</p>
-<p class='line'>A YOUNG WIFE SUSPECTED OF THE FOUL DEED!</p>
-<p class='line'>&#160;</p>
-</div> <!-- end rend -->
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience read ten lines. Then she stumbled to
-her feet, spilling the papers to the floor. Her skin
-felt cold and wet, her knees trembled, her hands
-moved spasmodically. Something within her seemed
-disintegrating.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She got to the door and up to her room. Aside from
-the horror which sat in each nerve centre and jabbered,
-she was conscious of but one idea: she must fly. She
-flung off her robe and put on the black frock she had
-bought out of deference to the family’s grief. She
-scratched herself and thrust the buttons into the wrong
-holes, but she could call no one to her assistance. She
-was thankful it was so early; she could get away without
-encountering any of the family. She was about to
-put on her black bonnet when her muddled consciousness
-emitted another flash and bade her disguise herself;
-detectives would have orders to search for a
-woman in weeds. She tore off the mourning frock,
-dropping it to the floor, and got herself into a grey one,
-then pinned on a grey hat trimmed with pink flowers.
-She thrust a few things into a bag, and ran down the
-stair. She reached the station in time to flag the 8.30
-train for New York. Some one else boarded the same
-train, but she did not see him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Having accomplished her flight, her thoughts travelled
-to the objective point. Inevitably her woman’s
-instinct turned to the man whose duty it was to protect
-her. She convinced herself femininely that if she
-could reach him all would be well; he not only loved
-her, but he was so amazingly clever.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At the station in New York she walked deliberately
-to a cab and gave the man Morgan Steele’s address.
-She looked neither to the right nor to the left, consequently
-did not see that the man who had boarded
-the train at Peele Manor stood at her elbow when she
-gave the order, and followed her immediately.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the cab reached the house in which Morgan
-Steele lived, she dismissed it and ran up the steps. She
-rang again and again, pacing the narrow stoop in an
-agony of fear and impatience. At the end of ten
-minutes an irritable half dressed Frenchman came
-shuffling down the stairs. There were no curtains on
-the door, and the man’s expression struck new terror
-to her heart.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it?” he asked surlily, as he opened the
-door.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I—I—must see Mr. Steele.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mr. Steele is asleep. He does not receive visitors
-at this hour.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I must see him.” Her cheeks were flaming under
-the man’s scrutiny. “Here,” she opened her purse
-and gave him a bill, then pushed him aside and ran
-upstairs. She remembered that Steele had told her
-that his rooms were on the second floor, front. The
-halls were as dark as midnight. She had to feel with
-her hands for a door. There was one at the end
-facing the hall. She knocked so loudly that Steele
-sprang out of bed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is it?” he cried.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is I. Open the door—quick!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Steele made no reply until he opened a door at the
-side of the hall. He had tied himself into a bath
-robe.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good heavens!” he said, “why have you come
-here? Are you mad?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I think I am. Lock the door—quick. Oh,
-haven’t you heard? Didn’t you know about it before?
-The ‘Day’ is right next door to the ‘Eye.’ Why
-didn’t you warn me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What on earth are you talking about? What has
-happened? Do sit down and calm yourself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The ‘Eye’ is out with a big story that I murdered
-Beverly Peele. That is what is the matter.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What? Oh, you poor child! The damned rascals!
-But you shouldn’t have come here. Don’t you
-know that the ‘Eye’ will watch every move you make?
-It takes the clever woman to do the wrong thing, every
-time!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He went to the window and peered out, then clenched
-his teeth, and raising his arm brought it down violently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They can’t put me in prison, can they?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He pressed his finger to a bell. “I must read what
-they have to say. They are very wary, and never
-would have printed such a story unless they had had a
-good deal of circumstantial evidence. But they will
-need a terrible lot to convict you. Don’t worry.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, how can you be so cool?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Some one has to be cool, my dear girl. If you
-cannot think I must think for you.” A man has not
-much sentiment at that hour of the morning; still,
-Steele had sympathy in his nature, and was profoundly
-disturbed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The servant came up with the newspapers, and
-Steele ordered coffee and rolls from the restaurant
-below. He threw himself into a chair, opened the
-“Eye,” and read the story through deliberately, word
-for word, while Patience walked nervously up and
-down the room. When he had finished he laid the
-newspaper on the table.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s a damned bad case,” he said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t believe I did it, do you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He looked at her for a moment with his peculiarly
-searching gaze. “No,” he said, “you didn’t do it.
-You’d be even more interesting if you had. But
-that’s not the question. We’ve got to make others
-believe you didn’t do it. The first thing for you to do
-is to go directly back to Peele Manor. Tell them you
-came up to see Miss Merrien and to engage rooms.
-Anything you like—only go back there and wait. If
-you are arrested, it must be from there, and there must
-be no suggestion of fear on your part—you must
-brace up and carry it off.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The waiter entered with the coffee and rolls, and
-Steele made her drink and eat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is 9.45,” he said. “You can catch a train that
-goes between ten and eleven.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience had finished she drew on her gloves.
-“I’ll go,” she said, “and I’ll try to do as you say.
-I’ve made a fool of myself, but I won’t again—I
-promise. I can be as cold as stone, you know. That’s
-the New England part of me. And so long as I know
-that you care I sha’n’t break down—in public at
-least.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I care fast enough—poor little woman.
-Here, leave that bag, for heaven’s sake. You mustn’t
-go back with that.”</p>
-
-<h2>III</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience arrived at Peele Manor she knew
-before she reached the house that her story had been
-read and told. The gardener turned on his heel as
-she passed him and walked hastily away. A new stable
-boy stared at her until she thought his eyes would fly
-from their sockets.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As she entered the front door, Hal ran forward and
-threw her arms about her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Patience! Patience!” she sobbed hysterically.
-“That brutal paper! How could they do such a
-thing? Have they no heart nor soul?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You don’t believe it then?” said Patience, gratefully.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I don’t believe it—believe such a thing
-of <span class='it'>you</span>! Oh, I’m so glad you’ve come back. They
-were all sure you’d run away; but I knew you hadn’t.
-It is only the guilty that hide—But why on earth did
-you put on that grey frock?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I don’t know. How can one know what one’s
-doing—What does your father say?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The girls were in one of the small reception-rooms.
-Hal removed Patience’s hat and gloves.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, this has been the most terrible day of my
-life,” she said evasively. “But you must be prudent,
-Patience dear. You must wear black—What is it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A servant had entered the room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mr. Peele would like to see Mrs. Beverly in the
-library!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience rose and shook herself a little, as if she
-would shake her nerves into place. Hal’s face flushed,
-and she turned away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Patience crossed the hall she met Latimer Burr.
-He held out his hand and pressed hers warmly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is terrible, Patience,” he said; “but remember
-that Hal and I are always your friends. If the worst
-comes to the worst I’ll send you my attorney. Remember
-that, and don’t engage any one else, for he’s
-one of the ablest criminal lawyers in the country.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you are good!” she said. She smiled even
-through the grateful tears which sprang to her eyes.
-Burr had grown a visible inch. His chest and lips
-were slightly extended.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele sat in a large chair, his elbows on the
-arms, his finger-tips lightly pressed together. As
-Patience stood before him she felt as if transfixed by
-two steel lances.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You murdered my son.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did not.” Her courage came back to her under
-the overt attack.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You murdered my son. The evidence is conclusive
-to me as a lawyer—and to my knowledge of you.
-My error was that I regarded your threats as feminine
-ravings. I wish you to leave my house at once—within
-the hour. I shall not have you arrested, but
-if you are I shall appear against you; and I have some
-evidence, as you will admit. You have dishonoured an
-ancient house,” he continued with cold passion, “and
-you have left it without an heir. Its name, after nearly
-three hundred years in this country alone, must die
-with me. If you had borne a son I should move
-heaven and earth to get you out of the country, but now
-I hope to heaven you’ll go to the chair.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shuddered and chilled, but she answered:
-“You despised your son, and you should be thankful
-that he left no second edition of himself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He was my son, and the last of his name. Now,
-kindly leave this house.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience went up to her room and began to pack
-her trunk. Hal followed, and when she heard what
-her father had said cried bitterly. She helped Patience
-to pack, assisted her into the black clothes, then walked
-to the station with her and stood conspicuously on the
-platform, waving her hand as the train moved off.</p>
-
-<h2>IV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience went directly to her old quarters in Forty-Fourth
-Street. She told the cabman not to lift her
-trunk down until she ascertained if there was a vacant
-room in the house. The bell was answered by a maid
-that had been there in her time. The girl stifled a
-scream and fled. Patience shut the door behind her
-with a hand that trembled again, and went slowly upstairs
-to Miss Merrien’s room. A solemn voice answered
-her knock. When she opened the door Miss
-Merrien sprang up and came forward. Her face was
-drawn, her eyes were red.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, Mrs. Peele!” she cried.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you believe it? If you do, I’ll go at once.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Of course I don’t believe it! How can you ask
-me? Sit down. How good of you to come here. Tell
-me—are you terribly frightened?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, I don’t think I am now. Why should I be?
-If I am so unlucky as to have been tossed up in the
-news hat of the ‘Eye,’ I cannot help it; and I suppose
-this is only the beginning. If I have to go to jail I
-have to, and that is the end of it; but they cannot
-possibly convict me, for I am innocent.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you always were the bravest woman I ever
-knew. It is like you—Come.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The door opened, and the landlady entered and closed
-it carefully behind her. She was a tall thin elderly
-woman with a refined face stamped with commercial
-unquiet. Her grey hair was piled high. Her voice
-was low, and well modulated. She looked at Patience
-out of faded blue eyes in which there was a faint sparkle
-of resentment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I see that you have a trunk on your cab, Mrs.
-Peele,” she said, “I am very sorry that I have no
-room.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I had no intention of asking you for a room,” said
-Patience, haughtily. “I merely came to call on Miss
-Merrien; and as I have only a few moments to spare, I
-should be obliged if you would leave us alone.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The landlady retired in disorder, and Miss Merrien
-exhausted her vocabulary of invective.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is the use?” said Patience. “She is right.
-In the struggle for bread and butter it must be self first,
-last, and always. If it were known—as it would be—that
-I had been arrested from her house every other
-lodger would leave. Well, I must go roof-hunting.”
-She laughed suddenly. “If I do go to jail I suppose
-you’ll come to interview me. I hope so. Good-bye.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien, although not a demonstrative girl,
-kissed her affectionately. “The ‘Day’ will defend you
-for all it’s worth—you know that. And I needn’t say
-anything about myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience told her cabman to drive to the Holland
-House, but when he stopped there she did not get out.
-Reflection had convinced her that no hotel in New
-York would take her in. She dared not give a false
-name lest her motive should be misconstrued. She
-put her head out of the window and gave the man
-Rosita’s address.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is no other way,” she thought. “I cannot
-live in a cab. Mrs. Field would take me in, but I
-have no right to make such a test of friendship as
-that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita received her with open arms. She was looking
-very beautiful in flowing nainsook and lace, and exhaled
-a new and delicious perfume.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita! Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>!” she purred. “<span class='it'>Pobrecita!</span>
-Who would have thought that this would happen to my
-<span class='it'>lili</span>.” (Her accent was more pronounced than ever.)</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Can I stay with you until they arrest me, or this
-blows over?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You shall stay with me forever. ‘Are we not bound
-by the ties of childhood?’ That is a line in my new
-opera. Isn’t it funny? Ay, Patita, I am so sorry.”
-And she sent down for the trunk and removed Patience’s
-hat.</p>
-
-<h2>V</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning Patience was awakened by Rosita’s
-ecstatic voice. She opened her eyes to see her hostess
-standing at the bedside, the “Eye” in her hand, her
-face radiant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita!” she cried. “Read it—there is a whole
-column about you and me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience sat up in bed. “Is that why you were so
-glad to have me come here?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patita! Do not look at me like that. Oh, if I
-could only look that way when I am stage mad!—but
-they always say I look like an angry baby. Of course,
-that was not the reason, Patita <span class='it'>mia</span>; but it is heavenly
-to be written about; do not you think so? And, of
-course, every new story about me—and such a sensation
-as this—means a perfect rush—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Give me the paper, please.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She read the column while Rosita pattered back to
-her room and ate her dainty breakfast. Every move
-she had made on the day before was chronicled. On
-another page an editorial commented on the facts of
-her having visited a young man’s apartment, and finally
-taken refuge with the notorious Spanish woman.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She dressed herself hastily in her black garments,
-and locked and strapped her trunk. “I’ll go straight
-down and give myself up,” she thought. “It’s what I
-ought to have done yesterday. It’s eleven o’clock. I
-wish it were nine. Come.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Two gentlemen to see madame,” said the maid.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What—who—what do they look like?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Like policemen, and yet not, madame.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience gasped. Her knees gave way. Again she
-experienced that horrible feeling of disintegration. Her
-untasted breakfast stood on a table by the bed. She
-hastily drank a cup of black coffee, then walked steadily
-to the drawing-room.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have come for me?” she asked of the men.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, ma’am.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where am I to go?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“To the jail at White Plains, Westchester County.
-You are arrested on charge of murder;” and he displayed
-the warrant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience touched the bell button. “Take my trunk
-downstairs to the cab,” she said to the butler. Then she
-stepped to the portières and said good-bye to Rosita.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She’s a cool one,” said one man to the other.
-“She done it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They went down in the elevator. As they left it,
-one of the men preceded her, the other followed close.
-Both entered the cab with her. She felt that they were
-regarding her with the frank curiosity of their kind,
-and kept her eyes fixed on the street with an expressionless
-stare. On the train they gave her a seat to
-herself, each taking the outside of another, one before
-and one behind. The passengers did not suspect the
-meaning of the party. She saw no one she knew. It
-was not the line that passed Peele Manor. For small
-mercies she was duly thankful. She guessed, however,
-that a meagre wiry black-eyed young man on the
-opposite side of the aisle, a man with a mean sharp
-common face, was Bart Tripp. He stared at her until
-she thought she should scream aloud, or, what would
-be almost as fatal, relax the proud calm of her face. It
-was with a sigh of profound relief that she stepped
-from the train at White Plains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We won’t meet no one,” said one of the detectives,
-as they entered the hack. “The sheriff’s got ready
-for you, I guess; he was wired yesterday; but we took
-good care not to say what train we was coming on,
-so there wouldn’t be no crowd. Feeling’s pretty high
-against you, I guess.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they drove through the ugly little town, Patience
-wondered why it was called White Plains. She had
-never seen a more undulating country. One or two of
-the environing hills were almost perpendicular. She
-also noticed with the minute observance of persons approaching
-crises, that the court house was a big handsome
-building of grey stone, and decided that she
-liked its architecture. The extension behind, one of
-the keepers told her, was the jail.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was escorted before a police justice, who read
-the charge and explained such privileges as the law
-allowed her; then to the sheriff’s office, where she was
-registered. A crowd of men were in the office. They
-watched her with deep but respectful attention, as she
-answered the many questions put to her, but she managed
-to maintain her impassive demeanour. There was
-a buzz of excitement by this time all through the court
-house, and a little of it began to communicate itself to
-her. The few that are sustained through life’s trials
-by public interest are immeasurably fortunate. Before
-the sheriff—who could not have treated her with more
-consideration were she a dethroned queen—had finished,
-word had gone up into the court room, and a
-sudden trampling on the back stair indicated that the
-case in hand had lost its interest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That’s all,” said the sheriff, hurriedly. “Guess
-you’d better get along.—Tarbox,” he called.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A short stout man with a ruddy kind face came
-forward, offered Patience his arm, pushed his way
-through the crowd of men in the hall, and led her out
-of a back door and down a long yard beside the jail.
-At the end of the building he inserted a key in a lock.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go right up, ma’am,” he said politely, and she ascended
-a narrow flight of stairs. At its head he unlocked
-another door, and again they ascended, again
-a door was unlocked. Then Patience stepped into a
-long low clean well-lighted room. In the middle of
-its length was a stove over which a kettle boiled. On
-a bench sat four women. At each end and on one
-side were low grated windows. On the other side were
-a number of grated doors.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The man led Patience to the upper end of the room
-and swung open the door of the corner cell. It was a
-large cell, and had it not been for the low window with
-its iron bars would have been in no wise different from
-any room of simple comfort. A red carpet covered the
-floor. The bed in the corner was fresh and spotless.
-The rest of the furniture was new and convenient.
-There were even a large rocker and a student’s lamp.
-Over the door a curtain had been hung.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why!” exclaimed Patience, “are all prison cells
-like this?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, ma’am, they’re not; but you see when we
-have a lady—which isn’t often—we do what we can
-to make her feel at home. We can’t afford to forget
-that this is the swell county of New York, you know.
-And of course you’re the finest person we’ve ever had.
-You’ll be treated well here,—you needn’t worry about
-that. I’ll order one of them girls outside to wait on
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are very good.” For the first time tears
-threatened.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I’ll try to be to you, ma’am. I’m John
-Tarbox, deputy sheriff, jailor, warden, and all the rest
-of it. I shall look after you. I’ll call twice a day, and
-anything you want you’ll get. If any of them hussies
-out there get to fighting just sing out the window, and
-I’ll lock them up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You won’t lock me in?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no—there’s no need for that. This cell’s no
-stronger than the whole place. Well, make yourself
-comfortable. I’ll send over to the hotel to get a lunch
-for you. You must be hungry. Keep a stiff upper lip.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience, when she was alone, drew a long breath
-and looked about her. The cheerful room, the unexpected
-kindness of the sheriffs, had raised her spirits.
-She took off her hat and tossed it on the bed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I may as well take the situation humourously,” she
-thought. “It helps more than anything else in life,
-I’ve discovered. This can’t last forever, and they
-can’t convict me. The serious people of this world
-have always struck me as being the most farcical. So
-here goes my ninth or tenth lesson in philosophy.
-Such is life.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After luncheon Mag, the improvised maid, unpacked
-the trunk and shook out the pretty garments with many
-expressions of rapture. Patience gave her a red frock,
-and the girl was her slave thenceforth.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The afternoon hours revolved like a clogged wheel in
-a muddy stream. Excitement and novelty kept horror
-at bay, but she knew that it lurked, biding its time.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When night came she lit the lamp and tried to read
-a magazine that Tarbox had brought her; but it fell
-from her hands again and again. Her ears acted independently
-of her will. She had never known so
-terrible a stillness. The women had gone to bed at
-half past seven. No voice came from the distant street.
-The silence of eternity seemed to have descended upon
-those massive walls.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was in jail!</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sprang to her feet, shuddering; then set her
-teeth and knelt by the window.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The heat waves of August hid the stars. Beyond the
-jail-yard was a mass of buildings, but no light in any
-window. Now and again a tramp came forth from his
-quarters on the ground floor and strolled about the yard,
-smoking his pipe; but he made no sound, and in his
-grey dilapidation looked like a parodied ghost. One
-of the women cursed loudly in her sleep, then collapsed
-into silence. An engine whistle shrieked, hilarious with
-freedom, but the rattle of the train was too distant to
-carry to straining ears.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She clutched the bars and shook them, then crouched,
-trembling and gasping. She dropped forward, resting
-her face on her arms. Her fine courage retreated, and
-mocked her. She had no wish to recall it. She longed
-passionately for the strong arm and the strong soul of
-a man. The independence and self-reliance which
-Circumstance had implanted, seemed to fade out of
-her; she was woman symbolised. No shipwrecked
-mariner was ever so desolate; for nothing in all life is
-so tragic as a woman forced to stand and do battle
-alone.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was only when she arose, shivering and exhausted,
-and groped her way to bed, that it occurred to her that
-in those appalling moments she had not thought of
-Morgan Steele.</p>
-
-<h2>VI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In the morning she awoke with a start and a chill, and
-sprang out of bed, governed by an impulse to fling herself
-against the bars. But sleep had refreshed her, and
-she sat down and reasoned herself into courage and
-hope once more. The tussle with the world develops
-the iron in a woman’s blood, and Patience’s experiences
-of the last year and a half stood her in good
-stead now. When the girl came in to arrange her
-room and Tarbox brought her breakfast, the commonplace
-details completed her poise. The morning mail
-brought her letters from Steele and Hal.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'><span class='sc'>Dear Girl</span> [Steele’s ran],—You are blue and frightened
-and lonesome. I wish I were there to cheer you
-up. But the first day will be the worst. Remember that
-liberty is not far off. They cannot convict you. I shall
-see you a few hours after you get this.</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'>M. S.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Oh, Patience dear [Hal had written], it has come! I
-wish I could tell you how terribly I feel. But cheer up, old
-girl. It will come out all right—I know it will. Latimer
-is hustling me out of the country so I cannot appear as a
-witness—he says I would do you more harm than good.
-But he will stay and see you through. His attorney will
-call on you at once. I send you a box to cheer you up a
-little. Do write to me, and always remember that I am
-your sister</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'><span class='sc'>Hal</span>.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The box arrived an hour later. It contained her
-silver toilet-set, and all the paraphernalia of a well-groomed
-and pretty woman, a bottle of cologne, a box
-of candy, eight French novels, a large box of handsome
-writing paper, and a bolt of black satin ribbon.
-Patience arranged the toilet-set on the bureau, halved
-the candy with the women, then sat down with a volume
-of Bourget. When Tarbox came up an hour later with
-a card she was still reading, and quite herself.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” he said, “I’m glad, I am, to see you so
-contented and so cool,” he added, mopping his brow.
-“This gent is below. He says he’s one of the lawyers
-in the case. I hoped you’d have Bourke. He’s the
-smartest man in Westchester County! Shall I tell him
-to come up, or would you like to see him down in the
-sheriffs office? Anything to please you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, here, by all means, if he doesn’t mind the
-stairs.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Tarbox gazed at her admiringly. “Well, ma’am,” he
-ejaculated, “you are cool, but I for one believe it’s the
-coolness of innocence. You never did murder!” and
-he walked hastily away as if ashamed of his enthusiasm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The lawyer’s card bore the name of Eugene A.
-Simms. He came up at once, a short thick-set man of
-thirty, with a square shrewd dogged face, a low brow,
-a snub nose, and black brilliant hard eyes. He came
-in with a bustling aggressive business-like air, scanning
-Patience as if he expected to find all the points of the
-case written upon her. Patience conceived an immediate
-and violent dislike to him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Will you sit down?” she said stiffly. “You are Mr.
-Burr’s lawyer, I believe.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no. That’s Bourke. He has charge of the
-case. I’m getting it up. I shall attend the coroner’s
-inquest and get the case in shape for Mr. Bourke to
-conduct.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The blood rose to Patience’s hair and receded to her
-heart, which changed its time; but she asked no
-questions.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Simms leaned forward and fixed her with his unpleasant
-eyes. “Be perfectly frank with me,” he said,
-abruptly. “It’s best. We can’t work in the dark.
-We’ll pull you through; that’s what we are here for.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You take it for granted that I am guilty, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m bound to say that all the revealed facts point
-that way. But of course that makes no difference to
-us. In fact, the harder a case is the better Bourke
-likes it—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Does Mr. Bourke believe that I am guilty?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I haven’t discussed it with him. He merely called
-me in, put the facts in my hands, and told me to go to
-work. I haven’t seen him since.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I will be perfectly frank with you,” said Patience,
-who had recovered herself. “I did not murder Mr.
-Peele. I am not wholly an idiot. If I had wished to
-poison him do you suppose I would have selected the
-drug I was known to administer?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You might have done it in a moment of passion.
-You had had a quarrel with him that night.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“So much the more reason why I would not make
-such a fatal mistake. It is quite true that when in a
-passion I frequently expressed the wish to kill him. I
-will also tell you that one night when dropping the
-morphine I was seized with an uncontrollable impulse
-to give him a double dose. I dropped twenty-six
-drops. But fortunately it takes some time to do that,
-and meanwhile the impulse weakened, and I anathematised
-myself as a fool. No man nor woman of respectable
-brains ever made a mistake like that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What is your own theory?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I hardly believe that he committed suicide. I
-think that he was wild with pain, and did not count the
-drops. He was probably half blind. On the other
-hand, he was capable of anything when in a rage.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Simms scraped the floor with his boot-heels and
-beat a tattoo on his knee with his fingers. “Very well,”
-he said at last. “We take your word, of course. Now
-tell me as nearly as you can, every circumstance of
-that night, and give me a general idea of your relations
-with him and your reasons for leaving him. It is going
-to be one of the biggest fights this State has ever seen,
-and we want all the help you can give us.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After he had gone Patience fell into a rage. Why
-had not Bourke come himself instead of sending his
-underling? If he hesitated to meet her after the
-abominable words he had used that second night at
-Peele Manor why had he undertaken her case at all?
-Her pride revolted at the thought of being defended
-by him, of owing her life to him. Once she was at the
-point of writing him a haughty note declining to accept
-his services; but Latimer Burr’s kindness deserved a
-more gracious acknowledgment. Again, she took up
-her pen to inform him that unless he apologised he
-must understand that she could have no relations with
-him; but her lively fear of making herself ridiculous
-came to the rescue, and she threw the pen aside. She
-resumed her novel, but it had lost its flavour. Bourke’s
-face was on every page. The interview in the elm walk
-wrote itself between the French lines; and the subsequent
-conversation in the library danced in letters of
-red. She hated Bourke the more bitterly because he
-had once been something more to her than any other
-man had been. She worked herself into such a bad
-humour that she almost snubbed Miss Merrien and a
-“Day” artist who came to interview and sketch her;
-and when Morgan Steele arrived, late in the afternoon,
-she was as perverse and unreasonable as if the widowed
-châtelaine of Peele Manor with the world at her feet.
-He understood her mood perfectly, although not the
-cause of it, and guyed her into good humour and her
-native sense of the ridiculous.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I do like you,” she said. “You understand
-me so. Any other man would go off in a huff. And I
-won’t always be like this. I suppose I am nervous and
-upset and all the rest of it. Who wouldn’t be? And
-you know I am tremendously fond of you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I know you are,” he said dryly. “As you will have
-ample time for reflection and meditation in the next
-few months, you will find out just how fond. But I am
-more glad than I can say to find you in this mood. It
-is as healthy as irritability in illness. I am even willing
-to be sacrificed.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience put out her hand and patted his soft hair
-with a spasm of genuine affection. “You are the
-dearest boy in the world,” she said, “and I do love you.
-For all your uncanny wisdom and cold-blooded philosophy
-you are just a big lovable good-natured boy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Just the kind of fellow a woman would like to have
-for a brother, in short.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No! No! I think it will be the most charming
-thing in the world to be married to you. You are
-such a compound. You will interest me forever. Most
-people are such bores after a little.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If you hadn’t started out in life with ideas upside-down,
-you would really love me in loving me no more
-than you do now. But ideals and the fixed idea have
-got to be worked out to the bitter end, as you are fond
-of remarking. In reality, happiness means a comfortable
-state of affairs between a man and a woman with
-plenty of brains, philosophy, and passion, who are
-wholly congenial in these three matters, and have
-chucked their illusions overboard. However, we won’t
-discuss the matter any further at present. How do
-you like being the sensation of the day?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Am I?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you? Every newspaper in town had a big
-story this morning, and of course the news has gone
-all over the country. Nothing else is to be heard in
-the trains or in Park Row. Oh, you will have plenty
-to sustain you. Lots of women would give their heads
-to be in your place.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He dined with her and remained until eight o’clock.
-After he had gone, Patience sat for some time lost in
-a pleasurable reverie. He always left her in a good
-humour, and she unquestionably loved him. Few
-women could help loving Morgan Steele. She sighed
-once as she reflected that love was not the tremendous
-passion she had once imagined it to be; in all her
-dreams she had never pictured it as a restful and
-tranquillising element; but she conceded that Steele’s
-philosophy was correct.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And if he did not inspire her with a mightier passion
-it was her fault, not his. Miss Merrien had told her of
-one brilliant newspaper woman who had made a wilful
-idiot of herself on his behalf, and of a popular and
-gifted actress who at one time had taken to haunting
-the “Day” office, much to the enjoyment of his fellow
-editors and to his own futile wrath.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No,” she thought, “I made a mistake once, and
-the shock was so great that it either benumbed or
-stunted me; or else the imaginary me was killed and
-the real developed. And after such a marriage I doubt
-if there are depths or heights left in one’s nature.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then her mind drifted to her predicament, and she
-wondered that the workings of fear had so wholly
-ceased. “I suppose it is because that man is going to
-defend me,” she said, ruthlessly, at last. “They say
-he could save a man that had been caught driving a
-knife into another man’s heart with a hammer; so it is
-quite natural that I should feel safe.”</p>
-
-<h2>VII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next day a box of books and periodicals arrived
-from Steele. Rosita thoughtfully subscribed to a clipping
-bureau, and sent Patience daily a heavy package of
-“stories,” editorials, and telegrams of which she was the
-heroine. Patience became so bewildered over the contradictory
-descriptions of her personal appearance, the
-various versions of her marital drama, the hundred and
-one theories for the murder and defence, the ingenious
-analyses of her character, and the conflicting information
-regarding her girlhood, that she wondered sometimes
-if a person could come forth from the hands of
-so many creators and retain any original birthmarks.
-The “Eye” telegraphed to its correspondent in San
-Francisco to investigate her childhood, and the correspondent
-evidently interviewed all her old enemies.
-Her mother’s happy career was detailed with glee, and
-her own “sulky, moody, eccentric, murderous propensities”
-were brilliantly epitomised. The story was entitled
-“She Tried To Murder Her Mother,” and the
-“Eye’s” perfervid joy at this discovery throbbed in an
-editorial.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The story was copied the length and breadth of the
-United States; but it is only fair to add that Mr.
-Field’s eloquent leaders in her defence were as widely
-quoted.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale came to see her at once, and after a few
-tears and an emphatic warning that “this terrible ordeal
-was the logical punishment of her blasphemy of and
-disrespect to the Lord,” announced her intention to sit
-by her during the trial, and let the jury see what a
-president of the W. C. T. U. thought of a prisoner whose
-life was in their hands. Patience told her that she
-loved her, and indeed was deeply grateful.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She spent her mornings reading the newspapers and
-attending to her correspondence. Tarbox always paid
-her a short call, and usually discoursed of Garan Bourke,
-whom he admired extravagantly. For a half hour before
-luncheon she permitted her fellow prisoners to sit
-before her in a wondering semi-circle while she manicured
-her nails and drew vivid word-pictures of the
-superior comforts incident upon the resignation of alcohol.
-With the exception of Mag they were weather-beaten
-creatures, with hollow eyes and weak pathetic
-mouths. They admired Patience superlatively. She
-was touched by their devotion, and occasionally read
-them the funny stories in the illustrated weeklies.
-They listened with open mouth and voiceless laughter,
-which, however, expressed itself vocally when the stories
-were told in Irish or German dialect. Patience gave
-them the papers, and they pasted the pictures on the
-walls of the corridor. Never before had the female
-ward of the White Plains Jail presented so festive an
-appearance. When the W. C. T. U. ladies came to sing
-to the prisoners they were inclined to be horrified;
-but Patience assured them that love of art, however
-manifested, was a hopeful sign.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She was very comfortable. She had saved a thousand
-dollars,—to be exact, Miss Merrien had saved
-them for her,—and she could command all the small
-luxuries of prison life. The ugly walls of her cell had
-been draped with red cloth, and a low bookcase was
-rapidly filling with the literature of the moment. She
-would never have consented to save those thousand
-dollars had not Miss Merrien represented that by judicious
-economy she could manage to spend every third
-year abroad. They did her good service now; she
-could accept great favours, but not small ones. Graceful
-tributes were to be expected by every charming
-woman; but if she had been dependent upon friends
-for the small comforts of her daily life she would have
-gone without them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The W’s and Y’s of Mariaville forgave her, and
-brought her flowers, tracts, and spiritual admonitions.
-She received the former with gratitude and the latter
-with grace. Miss Merrien came as often as her duties
-permitted, and so did all the other newspaper women
-she had ever known or heard of. She was interviewed
-for nearly every newspaper in the Union, and in most
-cases treated with sensational kindness. Many strangers
-and a few old friends called.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Steele came regularly once a week. He dared not
-come oftener. The “lover in the case” was still a
-mystery, and it was as well that he should remain so.
-Five other newspaper men lived in his house; therefore
-Patience’s visit had told Bart Tripp nothing beyond the
-fact that she had indubitably called on a young man
-at his apartments at a quarter past nine in the morning.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But despite the fact that much of her time was
-occupied Patience grew very restless and nervous,
-after the novelty wore off. She spent hours pacing up
-and down the corridor, and every evening after dark
-Tarbox took her out in the jail-yard for a walk; but
-she had been used to long walks and hours in the open
-air all her life, and no woman ever lived less suited to
-routine and restraint of any sort. Fear did not return,
-although the coroner’s jury had pronounced her guilty
-and she had been indicted by the Grand Jury.</p>
-
-<h2>VIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the dark days of winter came little light
-struggled through the low grating, and she was obliged
-to keep her lamp burning most of the time. Steele
-sent her one with a rose-coloured shade which shed a
-cheerful light but hurt her eyes. When the storms
-began visitors came infrequently. Moreover, as public
-interest cannot be kept at concert pitch for any length
-of time, there was less and less about her in the newspapers.
-Steele, who understood the intimate relationship
-between public interest and the resignation of a
-prisoner, assured her that when her trial came off in
-March she would once more be the popular news of
-the day.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At first the monotony of the long silent winter days
-was intolerable. But gradually, by such short degrees,
-that she hardly realised the change taking place within
-her, she grew to love her solitude and to be grateful
-for it. For the first time since she had left Monterey
-her hours were absolutely her own. She had longed
-for the solitude of a forested mountain top. From her
-prison window she could see the naked tops of a clump
-of trees above the buildings opposite, and even her
-obedient imagination could not expand them to primeval
-heights; but at least she had solitude and not a
-petty detail to annoy her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sometimes wondered if it mattered where one
-spent the few years of this unsatisfactory life. Nothing
-was of permanent satisfaction. Strongly as she had
-been infatuated with newspaper work the interest would
-have lasted only just so long. She found her modernity
-slipping from her, herself relapsing into the dreaming
-child of the tower with vague desire for something her
-varied experience of the world had not helped her to
-find. Inevitably she came to know herself and the
-large demands of her nature, and as inevitably she said
-to Morgan Steele one day,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I think you have known all along that it was a
-mistake.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” he said, “I have known it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have everything—everything,—good looks
-and distinction, brains and modernity, magnetism of a
-queer cold sort, knowledge of women and kindness of
-heart—I cannot understand. But the spark, the response,
-the exaltation is not there,—the splendid rush
-of emotion. I love you, but not in the way that makes
-matrimony marriage.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He looked at her with his peculiar smile, an expansion
-of one corner of his mouth which gave him something
-of the expression of a satyr. “You were badly in
-need of a companion, and you found one in me. You
-wanted to be understood, and I understood you. You
-wanted sympathy, and I sympathised with you; but I
-am not the man, and I have never for one moment
-deluded myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then why would you have allowed me to drift into
-matrimony with you?—as I should have done if I had
-not come here.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Because the experiment would have been no more
-dangerous than most matrimonial experiments. And
-it would have been very delightful for a time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I should have loved you a good deal,” she said
-musingly, “and habit is a tremendous force. And I
-should never have permitted myself to recognise a
-mistake again—if the decisive step had been taken.
-Tell me—” she added abruptly, “do you believe that
-if I had married you that you would always have loved
-me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I certainly should never have been so unwise as to
-promise to, for that is something no man can foretell.
-The chances are that I should not. All phases of feeling
-are temporary,—all emotions, all desires, all fulfilment.
-Life itself is temporary.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Should you have been true to me?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“O-h-h, how in thunder can a man answer a
-question like that? That is something he never knows
-till the time comes. If he is sensible he wastes no
-time making resolutions, and if he is honest he makes
-no promises.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You do not love me,” she exclaimed triumphantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am merely more honest, perhaps more analytical
-than most men,—that is all. The man who swears
-he will love forever the woman that pleases him most
-is simply talking from the depths of ignorance straight
-up through his hat. No man knows anything—what
-he will do or feel to-morrow. He knows nothing of
-himself until his time comes to die, and then he knows
-blamed little.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shook her head. “I don’t know. You
-may be right in the analysis, but I think you lose a
-good deal. Love may be a species of insanity, but the
-man whose brain is crystal is not to be envied by the
-man whose brain can scorch reason and thought at
-times. You may save yourself heartbreak, but you
-miss heaven. If you are a type of the future, woman
-will change too. Man has been at woman’s feet
-throughout the centuries. You and your kind will
-place her on an exact level with yourselves and teach her
-that love means a comfortable coupling of personalities.
-Something primitive has gone out of you. You have
-every ingredient in your make-up except love. Liking
-and passion don’t make love. When it fades out of man
-altogether chivalry and homage will go with it. You
-would do a great deal for me, but you are incapable of
-any splendid self-sacrifice. You are entirely selfish,
-although in the most charming way.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are quite right,” he said smiling, “I have not
-much love in me; just enough to make life a comfortable
-and pleasant sojourn, but not enough to induce a
-regret were I obliged to toss it over to-morrow—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nor to make it a life of bitter misery did I leave
-it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No—to be perfectly frank I should not be bitterly
-miserable. I should regret—but I should work and
-readjust myself. I have never yet given a glance to the
-past. I give few to the future. No man gets more out
-of the present—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I won’t be loved like that,” said Patience, passionately.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He leaned forward and took her hand, patting it
-gently. “You have depths and heights in your nature
-which I fully appreciate but which I could never stir
-nor satisfy,” he said. “Some man will. It won’t be
-all that you expect—you have too much imagination—but
-you will have your day. With your nature that
-is inevitable. I am sorry to give you up. You are the
-most delightful woman I shall ever know. And if you
-had married me things would probably have gone along
-satisfactorily enough. I should have kept your mind
-occupied and talked to you about yourself—those are
-the secrets of success in matrimony.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Marriage with you would be like playing at matrimony.
-I want a home and husband and children.
-I have seen enough to know that unless one is a fanatic
-like Miss Tremont or Miss Beale, or the temporary
-result of a new and forced civilisation like Hal, or a
-mercenary wanton like Rosita—in short, if one is
-woman <span class='it'>par excellence</span>, and most of us, clever or otherwise,
-even gifted, usually are, nothing else is worth the
-toil and perplexity of being alive. But you mustn’t
-leave me,” she added hurriedly; “I can’t stand it here
-if you don’t come to see me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall come exactly as I have done. Why not?
-Our love-making has barely progressed beyond friendship:
-we shall hardly recognise any change. I should
-feel lost if I could not have a talk with you once in a
-while. I intend to have that for the rest of my life.
-It isn’t usually the man that proposes the brother
-racket, but I merely define the basis upon which we
-have really stood all along.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After he had gone Patience drew a long sigh of
-relief. The first terrible mistake of her life was buried
-with Beverly Peele. A second had been averted.
-Something seemed rebuilding within her: the undeflected
-continuation of the little girl in the tower.
-For the first time she understood herself as absolutely
-as mortal can; and she paid a tribute to the zigzag of
-life which had helped her to that final understanding.</p>
-
-<h2>IX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the third of February she received a letter, the
-handwriting of whose address made her change colour:
-she had seen it once on Mrs. Peele’s desk. It was the
-first communication of any sort that she had received
-from the man who was to defend her life. She opened
-the letter with angry curiosity.</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<p class='pindent'><span class='sc'>My dear Mrs. Peele</span>, [it read],—You will pardon me
-I am sure for not having called before this when I tell you
-that I have had a rush of civil cases which have hardly
-given me time for sleep and have kept me constantly in
-New York. And of course you have understood that there
-was really nothing I could do until my able confederate,
-Mr. Simms, had gathered in and digested all the facts in
-the case. Now, however, I am free, and the time has come
-when I shall be obliged to see you twice a week until the
-first of March. I have worked the harder in order to be
-at liberty to devote myself wholly to your case. Need I
-add how absolute that devotion will be, my dear Mrs. Peele,
-or how entirely every resource I possess shall be at your
-service?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At two o’clock on Monday I shall be in the sheriff’s
-private office with Mr. Simms and my assistant, Mr. Lansing.
-Will you kindly meet us there?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>With highest regard, I am, dear Mrs. Peele,</p>
-
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:6em;margin-top:0.5em;'>Yours faithfully,</p>
-<p class='line' style='text-align:right;margin-right:2em;'><span class='sc'>Garan Bourke</span>.</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience read this carefully worded epistle twice,
-then laughed and shrugged her shoulders.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am glad he has declared himself,” she thought.
-“Of course I should have ignored the past, but it is a
-relief to think that there will be no awkwardness.”</p>
-
-<h2>X</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On Monday at two o’clock Tarbox came up to her
-cell to escort her down to the sheriff’s office.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bourke’s there, and I never saw him looking better,”
-he said, rubbing his hands. “Oh, he’ll pull you through.
-Don’t you worry.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was very nervous, but her years of self-repression
-and her experience at Peele Manor had
-forged a key with which she could at times lock nerve
-and muscle into subjection. As she entered the sheriff’s
-office she smiled upon Mr. Bourke as graciously as any
-young and beautiful woman would be expected to smile
-upon a great lawyer enlisted in her service.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke came forward with the same ballast, although
-the red was in his face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It was better for you to come down here,” he said.
-“There could be no privacy in your cell, and we must
-have absolute privacy for these meetings. Of course
-you know that we are going to rehearse you. Mrs.
-Peele, this is my assistant, Mr. Lansing.” He indicated
-a good-looking well-dressed young fellow, with boyish
-blue eyes and a tilted nose. She liked him at once
-and gave him her hand. Mr. Simms had risen as she
-entered, and they had nodded distantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Take this chair, Mrs. Peele,” continued Bourke.
-“Yes. This is the first of many rehearsals. We shall
-keep them up until the trial. You will imagine yourself
-on the witness stand. Mr. Simms, whom, fortunately,
-you don’t like, is the district attorney, Lansing is the
-judge, I am the counsel for the defence. I shall
-make the direct examination, and then Mr. Simms will
-cross-examine you with all the subtlety, the venom, and
-the irritating minutiæ of a district attorney determined
-to make himself immortal. I think we have outlined
-with reasonable completeness all that will or can be
-asked you, so that you can hardly be taken off your
-guard: you must be prepared to give direct answers
-without suspicious promptness, and avoid saying anything
-that could be misconstrued.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Must I go on the stand?” asked Patience, fearfully.
-“I thought one was not obliged to, and I shall be so
-nervous.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke shook his head emphatically. “The judge
-might reiterate a hundred times to the jury that your
-failure to go on the witness stand should not be counted
-against you, and still it would count—more than anything.
-It is something a jury never overlooks. These
-rehearsals are to keep you from being nervous, as much
-as anything else.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you believe I am innocent?” asked Patience,
-giving way to an uncontrollable impulse.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I do—both personally and professionally.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Simms laughed. “Bourke is so enthusiastic,” he
-said, “that if he had made up his professional mind that
-you were innocent, the personal would follow suit.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, but I do,” said Bourke, laughing, and looking
-at Patience with eyes which for the moment were more
-kind than keen. “Now, here goes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the two hours’ rehearsal were over she was
-very pale. “I did not know the case could look so
-black,” she said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is a black case,” said Simms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you really take so much interest?” she asked
-Bourke, curiously. “You make me feel as if the issue
-were yours and not mine. Or is that only your professional
-pride?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bourke is the most ambitious man at the New York
-bar,” said Simms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And the most human,” added Lansing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience smiled at the young man and turned to
-Bourke, whose eyes were twinkling. “I take a very
-deep personal interest in your case,” he said gallantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Bourke is an Irishman,” said Simms, with sarcasm.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We’ll excuse you,” said Bourke. “You know you
-have business with Sturges,” and Simms gathered up
-his papers and retired, followed by Lansing. As the
-door closed Bourke’s face changed. He became serious
-at once.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mrs. Peele,” he said, “it would be foolish and
-unkind to conceal from you the fact that you are in a
-very grave position. I have never known a more damaging
-chain of circumstantial evidence. The only jury
-we can possibly get together, the only men in Westchester
-County who will know nothing about the case,
-will be farmers and small tradespeople. These men
-are narrow minded, unworldly, religious, bigoted people
-who will look with horror upon a woman accused of
-murder; who will be surlily prejudiced against you
-because you did not love your husband, and because
-you left him; and above all they are likely to think you
-should be executed if for no other reason than because,”—He
-hesitated. The blood came into his face.
-“Tell me, is it true? I don’t believe it. I can’t
-believe it—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That I had a lover? No, I did not have a lover.
-If that spy reports exactly what he heard, he must himself
-prove that I did not. I liked—I do like—a
-man, a former editor of mine, immensely. At that
-time I believed myself in love with him; but I was as
-mistaken as I suppose all impulsive and mentally lonely
-people are once or oftener in their lifetimes. Although
-he visits me now we have come to a complete understanding.
-I shall not marry him.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke looked at the floor for a moment. “Yes,”
-he said finally. “Yes. That is a great point, of course.
-Well—as a rule I can do anything I like with a jury
-in Westchester County; I know and have known for
-twenty years almost every man within forty miles; but
-we shall have to go out into the highways and byways
-for talesmen: your case has attracted almost universal
-attention. It is just possible, therefore, that the
-jury may convict you—Don’t be frightened—Don’t
-look like that—please!—If that happens I shall take
-the case to the General Term, and failing that, to the
-Court of Appeals. One way or another I shall get
-you off—I pledge you my life on that,” he added
-vehemently. “Will you put your faith in me and keep
-up?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am sure no woman could help it,” said Patience,
-smiling graciously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>That night, somewhat to her amusement, she thought
-on Bourke with a certain sweet tremor until she fell
-asleep. She did not yet love him, but he satisfied her
-imagination; and he was the first man that ever had.</p>
-
-<h2>XI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was rehearsed eight or ten times, Mr. Simms
-cross-examining by a different method upon each occasion,
-racking his brain for new points with which to
-confound her. She began to feel quite at ease on the
-witness stand, and equal to the coming tilt with the
-district attorney. Aside from a natural nervousness
-she felt no fear of the approaching crisis, rather an
-excited interest. The papers were booming her again,
-and she would have been less than American had she
-not appreciated her position as heroine of the most
-sensational drama of the day.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>In the last week of February, however, she received
-information which induced her first misgiving: Miss
-Beale was down with pneumonia. That superlatively
-healthy person loved fresh air only less than she loved
-the Lord, and slept with her windows open in mid-winter.
-Despite habit she invariably caught cold when travelling,
-as the one window of a small sleeping-room was likely
-to be at the head of her bed. She had defied Nature
-once too often.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Patience told Mr. Bourke of Miss Beale’s illness,
-the red streaked his face, as it had a habit of
-doing when he was disturbed. They were alone in the
-office.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Will it make much difference?” she asked anxiously.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, no, I hope not; only she would have been a
-great card. She is known and respected throughout
-the county, and I should have dinned her in the ears
-of the jury. But you should have some woman with
-you. Is there no one else?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience shook her head. “No one that would be
-of use. I have few women friends. Women don’t like
-me much, I think. Mrs. Burr was my most intimate
-friend, but her husband naturally wanted to keep her
-out of the affair, and sent her off to Europe.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is odd. I cannot think of you as friendless. You
-attract and antagonise more strongly than any one I
-ever saw.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was staring hard at her, and she turned her head
-away, colouring slightly. It was the first time they had
-been alone since the initial rehearsal, although he and
-the other lawyers had often lingered, after business was
-over, to talk with her. Apparently she and he were
-the best of friends, and their former acquaintance had
-not been recognised by a glance.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wonder if we really are friends,” he said abruptly,
-then shook his shoulders slightly, as if, having made
-the plunge, he would not retreat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience beat her fingers lightly on the desk, but did
-not turn her face to him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Our relationship is very agreeable,” she said coolly.
-“I am delighted that Mr. Simms, for instance, is not
-my counsel.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a moment’s suggestive silence, and then
-he said: “I understand. I can be nothing but counsel
-to you until I apologise. I have not done so before
-because there is no excuse to offer. I can only explain:
-you had deceived and outwitted and made a fool of
-me, and I was furious. Moreover, I was horribly disappointed.
-I am perfectly well aware that all that is
-no excuse. I was bitterly ashamed afterwards, and far
-more furious with myself than I had been with you. I
-have never ceased to deplore it. We might at least
-have been friends—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ah, you forgave me then?” asked Patience, looking
-at his flushed face with a smile. He had never looked
-more awkward nor more attractive.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes; my offence was so much worse, you see,
-I had to.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well,” she said, giving him her hand gracefully, “we
-will forgive each other.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He accepted her hand promptly and evinced no
-disposition to relinquish it. “You are so cold, though,”
-he said ruefully. “Your forgiveness is merely indifference.
-But of course,” hastily, “you are absorbed in
-much weightier matters than friendship. I can imagine
-how insignificant all other episodes of your past must
-seem—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, if it were not for you I might have been here
-before to-day, and in a much worse predicament. I
-doubt if I should have left him as soon as I did if it
-had not been for your unpleasant truths. I was drifting,
-and also drifting toward morbidity, where I might
-have been capable of anything. If I had really killed
-him and been arrested I should have said so, and even
-you could not have saved me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, it would have been easier: I could have got
-you off on the plea of insanity. But am I really a link
-in the chain? I am egoistical—and interested—enough
-to be—pleased.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, yes,” she said, laughing a little. “You have
-had a good deal more to do with forging some of the
-links than you imagine.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His hand was beginning to tremble, and she withdrew
-her own. He did not attempt to recapture it, and for
-a moment they regarded each other defensively. He
-had avoided the mistake of mistakes for thirty-six years,
-and the very flavour of romance about his experience
-with this woman made him wary. She had been
-mistaken twice and had ordered her imagination to
-sleep. Something within him pulled her, but none
-knew better than she the independent activity of sex.
-Still, like all women, fire was dear to her fingers. His
-eyes had a gleam in them which made her experience
-keenly the pleasurable sensation of danger.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did you know that night that I had forgotten our
-conversation in the tower?” he said, laughing uneasily.
-“Well, I will admit that I had, but I certainly remember
-the conversation in the elm walk—every word of it.
-It was a singular conversation,” he continued hurriedly.
-“I have not found her yet, by the way. What is love,
-anyhow? Something always seems to be lacking. I
-have wanted a good many women, but there were
-shallows somewhere.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had taken a chair and was fanning herself
-slowly. She answered with a judicial air, as of one
-deciding some abstract point to which she had given
-exhaustive study: “The lack is spiritual emotion.
-People of strong natures who are really in love are
-shaken by a passion that for the time being demands
-no physical expression. It is only when it subsides, in
-fact, that the other manifests itself. On the other hand,
-the unimpassioned, the physically meagre, are incapable
-of even imagining such an exaltation of emotion. It
-is the supreme convulsion of mystery. And it must be
-impossible to feel it more than once in a lifetime—for
-more than one person, I mean.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Have you ever felt it?” he asked abruptly. He
-was sitting opposite her, his brows drawn together,
-regarding her intently. Her cool impersonality nonplussed
-him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Then how do you know?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“From the organ. If one wants to read the riddle of
-human nature let him listen to the organ for ten minutes.
-It lashes the soul—the emotional nature—up
-to its utmost possibilities. One knows instinctively—that
-is, if one is given to reasoning at all; for instincts
-are dead letters without analysis—that only one other
-force can cause a mightier tumult, a greater exaltation.
-Those that do not reason mistake it for a desire to
-spread their wings and fly to the throne of grace.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke set his lips and looked at the floor. “Of
-course you are right,” he said. “A man would never
-know that until he had felt it. It takes a woman to
-divine it. Perhaps it is as well he doesn’t know it—there
-is one disappointment the less in life if such
-moments never come to him; and I doubt if they come
-to many. Either the savage is too strong in most of
-us, or we never come within range of the responsive
-spark. I have held that if there is any meaning at all
-in the progress of man out of barbarism it is that he
-shall become a brain with a refinement and intensity of
-passion which shall give happiness without disgust.
-But you go beyond me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, we are both right,” said Patience, rising. “We
-are much better off than our ancestors. I like so
-much to talk to you. When I am free you must come
-to see me often.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall, indeed. How gracefully you fan yourself.
-I never saw any one use the fan in exactly the same
-way.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I learned how from the old Spanish women in
-Monterey. They hold the thumb outwards, you know.
-That makes all the difference in the world. <span class='it'>Au
-revoir.</span>”</p>
-
-<h2>XII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The trial began on the eighth of March. Patience
-slept ill the night before, and arose early. She looked
-forward to the day’s ordeal with mingled nervousness
-and curiosity. Her faith in Bourke was complete, and
-her mind was of the order that craves experience. She
-could not divest herself of the idea that she was about
-to play the part of heroine in a great human drama.
-And assuredly there has been no such theatre as the
-court room since the world began.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She dressed herself with extreme care, in a tailor
-frock and toque of black and white. The costume was
-becoming, but she shook her head at her reflection in
-the mirror: hers was not the type of beauty to appeal
-to the class of men in whose hands her life would be;
-rather they would resent its cold pride, its manifest of
-race and civilisation. She remembered her youthful
-satisfaction in the fact that “common men did not like
-her.” Rosita or Honora would carry a jury by storm,
-but she was too subtle to appeal to men outside of her
-own social sphere. Tarbox liked her because she was
-game and dependent on him for comfort: it was doubtful
-if he thought her pretty. He came up at ten minutes
-to ten. He wore a new suit of clothes, and looked
-excited and impatient.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There’s a lot of swells come,” he said without preliminary;
-“some from New York and some from the
-county. We’ve got ’em up in the gallery, and they
-look fine in their new spring clothes, I tell you. First
-time I ever seen swells in this court house. I rather
-thought they didn’t go in for that kind of thing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“They go in for fads, and you can as easily tell
-where lightning will strike next as what will be the
-next fad to possess fashionable women. Where is
-Mr. Bourke?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Up in the court room, I guess. Ready?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A few moments later he led her up the stair at the
-back of the court room. A crowd of men at the door
-parted to let her enter, staring at her with eager curiosity.
-As she walked down the room to her seat beside
-her counsel she was conscious of a deep level of men’s
-faces below and a tier of high-bred faces and bright
-spring gowns in the gallery above. She felt as if she
-were being shot upon a battery of eyes, and an impulse
-to turn and run; she looked like a black and white
-effigy of pride.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The large handsome room was tinted a pale blue
-and stencilled about the mouldings. The Bench and
-panelling behind it, the desks and tables, were of black
-walnut. Four long windows on each side of the room
-revealed the naked trees of March and the cheerless
-landscape. On the right of Patience’s chair was the
-empty jury box, before her the Bench. In the space
-thus formed—flanked on the other side by the talesmen
-summoned for the trial and at the back by the
-audience—was a right angle of long study tables, three
-or four round tables, and many chairs. Every chair was
-occupied. Writing pads lay on the smaller tables.
-Patience recognised several of the reporters. By one
-of the long tables before the jury box sat Bourke,
-Simms, and Lansing. The former whispered to her
-that many of the men within the rail were eminent
-lawyers who had come to hear the case tried.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The judge sat alone on the Bench: an old man with
-pink face and head and neck, a close band of silver hair
-at the base of his skull. His face was narrow, his upper
-lip long. On either side of his mouth was a deep rut.
-The nose was coarse and strong, the eyes behind the
-spectacles humourous, severe, and a little sly. His
-silver chin-tuft was shaped like the queen of hearts.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Just below the Bench, beside one of the long tables,
-sat a man whom Patience did not notice at once, but to
-whom, as the judge called the court to order, she
-turned suddenly, conscious of a fixed gaze. He sat
-with one arm along the table, the other hand absently
-rolling a piece of paper. His narrowed eyes were regarding
-her with cold speculation. Patience shuddered.
-She knew that he was Sturges, the district attorney.
-Tarbox had told and retold the history of his jealousy
-of Bourke, and his registered vow to win one of the
-great legal battles of which they were occasionally chief
-combatants. And this was the greatest! The man’s
-face was set. He looked like a fate.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The clerk called a name. A man shuffled into the
-jury box. Sturges stood up and put the usual questions.
-He spoke with exaggerated courtesy. Occasionally he
-smiled: a mechanical smile, as if an invisible string
-connected each corner of his mouth with a manipulator
-at the back of his head. His voice was soothing and
-cultivated, his manner almost deferential to the humble
-man in the box. Patience followed every motion and
-word with fascinated attention. When he asked the
-talesman if he had “any conscientious scruples regarding
-capital punishment as practised in this State,” she
-felt the touch of icy fingers and her feet slipping into
-an open grave. Bourke, who divined her sensations,
-smiled encouragingly; and after she had heard
-the question some fifty times, she ceased to attach any
-personal meaning to it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They were four days impannelling the jury. The first
-time Patience stood up to face an accepted juror she
-regarded the hairy and ill-kept farmer with such
-haughty and disdainful eyes that Bourke whispered
-hurriedly: “For God’s sake don’t look at them like
-that or they’ll send you up out of spite. Remember
-that this class of people is always at war with its
-betters.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I can’t help it,” said Patience. “It’s humiliating
-to think of being at the mercy of men like that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the box was filled at last she regarded the
-occupants attentively. They were hard-featured men
-of middle age, with long bare upper lip and compressed
-mouth. Their grey skin was furrowed with lines of
-care and hardship, their chin whiskers grizzled and
-scant. Their eyebrows stood out over faded eyes in
-wrinkled sockets. But what excited Patience’s wonder
-was the small size of the heads. She had never seen
-twelve heads so little. They were hardly an advance
-upon their hairy ancestors. Throughout the trial she
-furtively watched the twelve faces of those twelve
-meagre heads. Never once did their expression,
-stolid and set, change. At night they haunted her.
-She awoke in the morning with a violent start, seeing
-them for a moment in a row on the foot board of her
-bed. She speculated, at times, upon the lives of those
-men, those pinched grubbing lives, and felt for them a
-sort of terrified pity. What a mere glimpse of the
-world she had had, after all, and what ugly strata it
-had! What was the matter with civilisation?</p>
-
-<h2>XIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>On the fourth day the district attorney opened the
-case with an address to the jury which was a masterpiece
-of temperate statement and damning suggestion.
-He dwelt long upon the remarkable points of the case:
-the youth and beauty and intelligence and social
-position of the defendant, the distinguished family
-which had been plunged into sorrow and disgrace
-by her crime, the extraordinary interest the crime
-had excited throughout the civilised world. He then
-gave a running account, clear and straightforward and
-decisive, of what the prosecution would prove, and concluded
-with a cold, terse, but reiterated warning that the
-prisoner at the bar was entitled to no sympathy because
-of her sex and position; that he and the jury were
-there for one purpose only: to consider the facts of
-the case and to do their plain duty, utterly regardless
-of consequences to the individual. Every word was
-chosen and weighed, and told like the ring of a steel
-hammer on a steel plate.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Dr. Lewis was then called to prove the fact of
-Beverly Peele’s death, and his vigorous story weighed
-heavily in the scales against the defence. The
-moment the district attorney sat down Bourke was on
-his feet. For a moment he stood lifting and shaking
-the loose cloth of the table beside him; then asked one
-or two random questions which put the witness for the
-prosecution quite at his ease. In the course of a
-moment the witness began to writhe, and at the end of
-five minutes manifested his consciousness of the fact
-that he was a small country practitioner, to be regarded
-by any intelligent jury with contempt. Nevertheless,
-it was impossible to shake his testimony.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was followed by the New York physician, a man
-of eminence, who had assisted at the death-bed, then
-by the coroner. The fact of young Peele’s death being
-firmly established in the jury box, a chemist was put
-upon the stand to testify that he had found morphine
-in the stomach of the deceased. He was worried and
-badgered and ridiculed and derided by Bourke, who
-temporarily infected everybody in the court room
-with his scorn of the exercise of chemistry as applied
-to morphine in the stomach of a dead man, but held
-his ground, having been maltreated in a like manner
-many times before. Following, came a civil engineer,
-who described the grounds and general position of
-Peele Manor to the jury; and the testimony for the
-day was over.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The next morning the prosecution passed on to the
-motive. Honora was the first witness called. She wore
-a black frock and hat, and looked dignified and sad.
-In her clear childlike voice she described to the jury
-her moment of confusion and horror when awakened
-from a profound sleep by the prisoner; told the mournful
-story of the unavailing attempts at resuscitation;
-and hesitatingly admitted, in full detail, the unmistakable
-indifference of the wife. To the latter testimony
-Mr. Bourke “objected,” as he had done to similar
-testimony by the doctors, but the objection was over-ruled
-by the judge. She also admitted having seen
-from her window the defendant returning from town
-after her early visit on the morning of the “Eye”
-story, inappropriately attired in grey and pink, and
-having discovered the newspapers in confusion on the
-library floor before any other member of the household
-except the prisoner had arisen. She related Patience’s
-previous complaint that her husband always waited
-until she was in her first heavy sleep before demanding
-the morphine, and her fear lest she should some night
-give him an overdose. The jury must have been small
-headed indeed, to fail to understand the district
-attorney’s insinuations regarding the prisoner’s deep-laid
-scheme to avert suspicion.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Honora gave her testimony Patience saw Mr.
-Bourke’s eyes sparkle. She knew that some pregnant
-idea had flashed into that lightning-like brain. As the
-district attorney took his seat he rose slowly and
-smiled sociably at Honora. She bent her head slightly;
-she had always liked him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Miss Mairs,” he said haltingly, his eyes wandering
-to the judge, as if in search of inspiration, his hand
-flirting the loose cloth of the table, “you are sure
-that Mrs. Peele wore a gray gown to New York that
-morning?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And the condition of the newspapers seemed to
-you to indicate great agitation of mind?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, yes. And she returned in an hour or two,
-you say?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Miss Mairs!” he thundered, turning suddenly upon
-her and pointing a rigid finger straight at her startled
-face, “are you sure that you were asleep when Mrs.
-Peele awakened you on the night of Beverly Peele’s
-death?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience drew her breath sharply. She closed her
-eyes. Honora had not been asleep that night! The
-certainty came to her as suddenly and as positively as
-it had come to Bourke.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For the fraction of a moment Honora hesitated.
-Every man and woman in the court room was breathless.
-Several had started to their feet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Quite sure,” she replied finally, and that silver
-shallow voice did not falter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are <span class='it'>sure</span> that you heard no one go to the
-lavatory that night, before Mrs. Peele spoke to you?”
-He hurled the words at her as the Great Judge might
-hurl the final sentence on Judgment Day.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sure.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Was your door open that night?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t remember.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience leaned over and whispered to Lansing, who
-sprang forward and whispered to Bourke.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The night was hot,” continued Bourke. “Were
-you not in the habit of leaving your door open on hot
-nights?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sometimes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Was it not always your custom?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not always. When I thought of it I opened the
-door, but I frequently forgot it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes! Yes! You are quite sure you cannot remember
-whether or not it was open on that night?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I cannot remember.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you remember any other nights on which Mrs.
-Peele went to the lavatory to drop the morphine?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir; a great many.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But of this all important night you remember
-nothing?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes! Mrs. Peele never was called upon to drop
-the morphine until after twelve o’clock. Were you in
-the habit of lying awake until late?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But on this night you went to sleep early?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You heard or saw—you are on your oath, remember—nothing
-whatever until Mrs. Peele called
-you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nothing.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You can go.—She is lying,” he whispered to
-Patience. “Damn her, I’ll make her speak yet if I
-have to throttle it out of her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele was the witness next called. He was
-treated with extreme diffidence by the district attorney,
-and even the judge gave him a fraternal smile.
-He told the story of the momentous night with parental
-indignation finally controlled, then, in spite of
-repeated “objections” and constant nagging, the
-significant tale of wifely indifference and desertion,
-and read to the jury “that cruel letter written to a
-dying man” the day before the defendant returned
-to nurse her husband. He repeated with the dramatic
-effect of the legal actor those dark insinuations
-of the prisoner: “You had better let me go!
-I feel that I shall kill him if I stay!” And later
-in the town house when she had struck her husband
-in the face: “You had better keep him out of my
-way. Do you know that once I tried to kill my own
-mother?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He told of her eager interest in untraceable poisons
-one night when the subject of murder had come up at
-the dinner-table, her cold-blooded analysis of human
-motives.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then he passed on to the painfully significant history
-of the day before the death: her demand for a
-divorce; her fury at her husband’s refusal; her acknowledgment
-that she had quarrelled violently with the
-deceased a short time before calling the family to his
-death-bed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As he spoke Patience’s blood congealed. The woman
-he depicted was enough to inspire any jury with
-horror. It was herself and not herself, a Galatea manufactured
-by a clever lawyer.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But it was Mr. Bourke’s privilege to give the Galatea
-a soul. Despite the older man’s greater legal experience,
-his superior wariness and subtlety, he was forced
-to admit that his son was a fool; that his son’s wife was
-a woman of brilliant intellect driven to desperation at
-being tied down to a fool; that so long as she had lived
-with him she had done her duty; that when she had
-returned as his nurse she had fulfilled her part of the
-contract to the letter; that never had she given her
-husband cause for real jealousy; that the witness himself
-had made a companion of her, and that he had
-been bitterly disappointed in his son.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The terrible facts could not be stricken out, but Mr.
-Peele, nevertheless, was made to pass the most uncomfortable
-hours of his life. “And in spite of these
-threats,” exclaimed Bourke, with the accentuation of
-one addressing an idiot at large, “in spite of the precision
-with which you remembered them, you permitted
-your family to implore her to return and become your
-son’s nurse; you permitted her to sleep in a room communicating
-with his, where, in a fit of passion—if she
-is the woman you profess to believe her to be—she
-could have murdered him in the dead of night with a
-carving knife or a hatchet, before any one—even the
-lightly sleeping Miss Mairs—could have flown to the
-rescue; you permitted her—” he turned suddenly
-and faced the jury, then wheeled about and regarded
-Mr. Peele with scornful inquiry—“you permitted her
-to drop morphine for your son, and to have unrestrained
-access to the drug, knowing that he in his agony would
-swallow whatever she gave him without question. Will
-you kindly explain to the jury whether this mode of
-proceeding was ingenuousness on your part, or criminal
-connivance?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Peele’s under lip pressed the upper almost to
-the septum of his nose. His eyes half closed and
-glittered unpleasantly; but he controlled himself and
-answered,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I paid no attention to her threats at the time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Ah! You did not believe in them? You admit
-that?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I classed them with the usual hysterical ravings of
-women. That was my error.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“State, if you please, your specific reasons for your
-change of mind. You will hardly, as a lawyer, claim to
-have been converted to the defendant’s capacity for
-crime by the mere fact that your son died of an overdose
-of morphine?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And throughout the long day Mr. Bourke hectored
-him, fighting him, point by point, smashing to bits his
-testimony relative to the events of the day preceding
-the death, evidence to which he was not an eye-witness,
-which he had received at second hand from his wife
-and son. The “cruel letter written to a dying man”
-was disposed of in a similar manner.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You believed your son to be in a precarious condition
-when you counselled them to send for your son’s
-wife?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But you believed with the doctors that if she returned,
-thereby bringing him peace of mind as well as
-tender care, he had excellent chances for life?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And Mrs. Burr was instructed to present that phase
-of the question to the defendant, with all the force of
-which she was capable?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And the defendant so understood it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I suppose she did.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And yet you assert that this purely business-like
-letter, written by a self-respecting woman, was addressed
-to a dying man, while at the same time you
-assert that this man could be cured by the gratification
-of a whim, and that you had taken particular pains to
-make the defendant aware of the fact!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Mr. Peele finally left the stand, he looked
-battered and limp.</p>
-
-<h2>XIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As soon as the court had opened on the following
-morning, Mrs. Peele was called. She looked haughtily
-askance at the worn Bible as the clerk rattled off the
-oath, bent her head as would she whiff upon what
-plebeian lips had touched so often and so evidently,
-and took the witness chair as were she mounting a
-throne. She was apparelled in crape. Only her intimate
-friends could have told whether the backward
-bend of her head was due to the weight of her veil or
-the weight of her ancestors. At first she stared at the
-district attorney with haughty resentment, as, for the
-benefit of the humble jury, he curtly asked her several
-direct questions; but remembering that he was “a
-Sturges,” and also recalling her husband’s admonitions,
-she unbent, and even condescended to address the jury.
-Her tale of the night in no wise differed from her husband’s;
-but her accentuation of Patience’s dark threats
-and marital deficiencies was all her own. Her suggestion
-of a lover in the case caused a sudden movement
-in the jury box, although the stolid faces did not relax.
-Under cross-examination much of her testimony was as
-effectually demolished as her husband’s had been.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Two maid servants followed. They testified to violent
-quarrels between the young couple. Then the
-butler testified to the reiterant and emphatic command
-of the prisoner on the day before the death to send to
-New York for morphine.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The prosecution produced its trump card: the stable
-boy who had spied upon the interviews between the
-prisoner and the mysterious lover. The man had evidently
-been carefully rehearsed—as Bourke later on
-pointed out to the jury—for his memory of the eight
-or ten interviews he had witnessed needed little refreshing.
-His “best recollection” was given glibly and
-ungrammatically. He dilated upon the young man’s
-remarkable personal beauty, and observed that it far
-outshone his beloved Mr. Beverly’s. They had talked
-principally of books in all but the last two interviews,
-but had looked perfectly happy. His account of the last
-two interviews created a profound impression in the
-court room, even the jury leaning forward slightly.
-The judge frowned and wheeled his chair sharply when
-the man gave the gist of the prisoner’s matter-of-fact
-objection to living with a man who was not her
-husband.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Bourke’s rich voice had never rung with deeper
-indignation and disgust, never shaped itself to more
-cutting sarcasm than when he made the man see himself
-and the jury see him as a coward, a cur, a spy, a
-liar, an eager schemer for an innocent woman’s life.
-“You felt it your duty,” he concluded, “to spy upon a
-woman of irreproachable reputation who met a friend
-in an open wood in broad daylight—Yes, yes,” with all
-the lingering scornful emphasis which only he could give
-that simple word. “You never felt yourself a cowardly
-scoundrel meddling in what was none of your business—No!
-No!” He turned to the jury with the passion
-still upon his face, but when he took his seat he smiled
-encouragingly to his admiring young client.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wouldn’t he make an actor?” whispered Simms.
-“I never saw him do the lofty indignation act with
-finer effect.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, he would be a great actor, at least,” retorted
-Patience, “and I am convinced that you would be a
-very small one.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Just wait,” said Simms, angrily. “I’ve got to talk
-to this jury about you in a day or two, and if you don’t
-forget I ever doubted you I’ll eat my hat. The best
-lawyer’s the best fakir, and a few days from now you’ll
-see what an ambitious man I am.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Miss Rosita Thrailkill,” called the district attorney
-when the court opened next morning. The audience
-stood up to a man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A plump willowy Spanish figure undulated behind
-the jury box, kissed the Bible reverently, and ascended
-the witness stand. Rosita was clad in black and yellow,
-a mantilla in place of a hat, and many diamonds.
-She looked as pretty and as naughty as possible. As
-she met Patience’s eyes, she wafted her a kiss, and the
-prisoner groaned in spirit. She gave her name and
-birthplace with melodious caressing accent and her
-marked precision of speech. Yes, the defendant had
-been her dear friend, her best friend, her only intimate
-friend. Yes, with unaffected reluctance, Mrs. Sparhawk
-had been disreputable, and Patience had once
-attempted her life. Yes, she was the prima donna of
-light opera known as La Rosita. Did she appear before
-the public in tights and scant attire? Yes, why
-not? Had she not had a number of lovers? Objected
-to and sustained. Flashing indignation of soft Spanish
-eyes. Did she not have the reputation of being a
-woman of loose and lawless life? Objected to and sustained.
-Angry rattle of fan. Was it not in her house
-that the prisoner was arrested? Yes, it was! and she
-loved her Patita and would always give her shelter.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the district attorney sat down with an ugly
-smile on his thin mouth, Bourke, muttering anathema,
-rose to his feet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Was there ever a whisper against your reputation
-when you were a school-girl in Monterey and most
-intimate with the prisoner?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, <span class='it'>señor</span>!” cried Rosita, paying no attention to
-the objection. “I was a child, and could not even
-endure boys.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How many times have you seen the defendant
-since you left Monterey?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Rosita cast up her eyes, then tapped the sticks of her
-fan successively as she spoke.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Once she came to see me just after—ah—WCTU
-died; then once just before she left Mr. Peele; then
-that day the ‘Eye’ came out and said she had done this
-so horrible thing. <span class='it'>Ay, dios!</span>”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She has called upon you three times only, then,
-since you were children in Monterey, since you have
-been the Rosita of the public; in the last five years,
-in short?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si, señor</span>—yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How long did she remain upon her first visit?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, only a little while. I told her something that
-shocked her, for she was always so proper.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What did you tell her?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Objected to,” cried the district attorney.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Objection sustained,” snapped the judge.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How long did she remain on her second visit?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“About a half hour. I never knew what she came
-at all for. She just floated in and out.” Rosita waved
-her arm with enchanting grace.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did she tell you why she came the third time?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Because she had no other place to go to. She said
-no hotel would take her in.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She said that her old landlady had refused to
-admit her, did she not?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si, señor.</span>”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, yes!—and that in her terrible extremity
-she naturally turned to the friend of her childhood?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Si!</span>” and Rosita wept.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But that she should not have gone to your house if
-there had been any possibility of obtaining entrance to
-a hotel, or if she had not been turned out of her
-father-in-law’s house?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“<span class='it'>Ay, yi!</span> yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is all. You can go.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>During the rest of that day and the two following
-days the experts for the prosecution had the stand.
-The innumerable questions asked by the district
-attorney, the technical details of the cross-examinations,
-the constant interruptions, and the minutiæ
-of the evidence emptied the court room after the first
-hour, and even Patience became bored, and fell to
-thinking of other things, not forgetting to pity those
-twelve puzzled little heads in the jury box.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The gist of the evidence was that there was enough
-morphine in Beverly Peele’s stomach to kill two men.</p>
-
-<h2>XV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Our turn has come,” said Lansing to Patience on the
-morning after the expert testimony was concluded.
-“We are confident of success now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But the facts are hideous, and they have painted
-me black.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Mr. Bourke scraped off a good deal, and he’ll have
-the rest off before he gets through. If he could only
-make that lying woman open her mouth! You’ve borne
-yourself splendidly. Keep in good condition for the
-witness stand. Are you frightened?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No,” she said, smiling at Bourke gratefully. “Not
-a bit.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Simms opened the case for the defence.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He had a harsh strident voice. He gesticulated as if
-practising for a prize fight, doubling back and springing
-forward. He cleared his throat with vicious
-emphasis and rasped his heels upon the floor. His
-statements were dry and matter-of-fact, his language
-bald; but he made a direct vigorous and enthusiastic
-speech. The jury was informed that it was there to
-save the life of one of the most brilliant and high-minded
-young women of the age,—a woman utterly incapable
-of murder or of any violent act, a woman with the mild
-and meditative mind of the student. That it would be
-proved not only that she was far too clever to take life
-by such clumsy methods, but that she had no object,
-as she had gained her liberty, and the lover was a myth.
-The whole prosecution was a malignant and personal
-prosecution of an innocent but too gifted woman by
-an absurdly conceited family that had resented her
-superior intelligence. This and much more of fact and
-fancy. But Patience, with perverse feminity, liked
-him none the better, and would not even look at him
-when he sat down.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Field was the first witness for the defence.
-Although compelled under cross-examination to admit
-the prisoner’s interest in subtle poisons, he managed to
-convey to the jury that it was merely the result of an
-unusually brilliant and inquiring mind, a thought born
-of the moment, of his suggestion. He gave the highest
-tribute to her cleverness, her work on his paper, and
-to her reputation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Latimer Burr was called next, and spoke with enthusiasm
-of her “unfailing submission to a man of abominable
-and savage temper until submission ceased to be
-a virtue.” He had never heard her utter any threats
-to kill. Yes, it was true that he had engaged counsel
-for defence. He believed in her thoroughly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Merrien, her landlady, and Mrs. Blair were put
-on the stand next morning, and the good character
-they gave Patience was unshaken by the nagging of the
-district attorney. Mr. Tarbox testified to her demeanour
-of innocence during her imprisonment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But the defence is weak all the same,” whispered
-Patience to Lansing. “Not a word can be said in
-rebuttal. Only Mr. Bourke’s eloquence can save
-me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good character goes a long way,” replied Lansing.
-“You have no idea of its weight with a jury, particularly
-with a jury of this kind.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was put on the witness stand next. The
-supreme effort to overcome nervousness gave her an icy
-and repellent demeanour. Never had she held her back
-as erect, her head as high. She kept her eyelids half
-lowered, and spoke with scarcely any change of inflection.
-She told the story of the night as she had told
-it in rehearsal many times. There had been a quarrel
-an hour before she heard the deceased get up and go
-to the lavatory. She offered to drop his morphine, and
-he replied with an oath that she should never do
-another thing for him as long as he lived, that he
-hoped she would leave the house by the first train next
-morning. His sudden silence upon his return to his bed
-excited her apprehension, and she called the family.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Bourke sat down and the district attorney
-arose and confronted her she shivered suddenly.
-Bourke’s rich strong voice and kind magnetic gaze had
-given her courage, but this man with his eyes like grey
-ice, his mechanical smile, and cold smooth voice conjured
-up a sudden awful picture of the execution room
-at Sing Sing. Her insight appreciated with exactitude
-the pitiless ambition of the man, knew that he stood
-pledged to his future to send her to her death. He
-made her admit all the damning facts of the evidence
-against her, the facts which stood out like phosphorescent
-letters on a black wall, and to acknowledge her
-abhorrence of the man that had been her husband. But
-all this had been anticipated: at least he could not
-confuse her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Again two days and a part of a third were monopolised
-by experts. These two illustrious chemists testified,
-through the same bewildering mass of detail as
-that employed by their equally illustrious predecessors,
-that there was not enough morphine in Beverly Peele’s
-stomach to kill a cat.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a short interval, after the second expert
-had been permitted to leave the stand, during which
-Bourke and Simms and Lansing conferred together,
-preparatory to the summing up of the former. As
-Bourke was about to rise, the district attorney stood
-up, cleared his throat, and said: “One moment, please.
-Will Miss Honora Mairs kindly take the stand?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke was on the alert in an instant. “The case
-for the prosecution has closed,” he said.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This is by special permission of the Court,” replied
-the district attorney, coldly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Honora ascended the stand there was a deep
-murmur of admiration. She looked like an angel,
-nothing less. She wore a white lawn frock, girt with a
-blue sash; a large white leghorn lined with azure velvet,
-against which the baby gold of her hair shone softly.
-Her great blue eyes had the clear calm serenity of a
-young child. Patience drew her breath in a series of
-short gasps. Bourke sat with clenched hands.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“We understand,” said the district attorney, severely,
-“that you did not tell all you knew the other day, and
-that you have signified your willingness to now tell the
-truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Is
-this true?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora bowed her head with an expression of deep
-humility, as a child might that had been justly
-rebuked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You had not slept at all upon that fatal night?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Your door was open?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You did see somebody enter the lavatory?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Whom did you see?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a moment’s breathless silence, during
-which Patience wondered if a clock had ever ticked so
-loudly, or if the sun had ever shone with so vicious
-a glare.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Whom did you see?” repeated the district attorney.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The prisoner.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What did she do?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She dropped some thirty or forty drops of morphine,
-I should say, then half filled the glass with water,
-as usual.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You did not see the deceased go to the lavatory
-that night.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nor any one else until the defendant called you?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That is all.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Mr. Bourke sprang to his feet, his nostrils dilating,
-his fine face quivering with unassumed scorn and
-indignation.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You admit that you perjured yourself the other
-day?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I could not make up my mind to—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Never mind what you had not made up your mind
-to do. You admit that you perjured yourself?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” gently.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That in other words you lied.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.” Her voice was like the quiver of a violin.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What proof are we to have that you are not lying
-now?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am not lying. My conscience gave me no rest.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It will give you more, I suppose, if you will have
-succeeded in swearing away the life of an innocent
-woman. Yes, yes!—Exactly how long did Mrs. Peele
-remain in the lavatory?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I cannot remember. Five or ten minutes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“State the exact time.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Perhaps five.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And a few moments later when she ran into your
-room you pretended to be asleep: Why did you assume
-sleep; what reason had you for lying at that time?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I had dropped off.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You had been sufficiently wide awake five minutes
-before to note precisely all these other things, and then
-had promptly fallen into a sound sleep. Is that your
-usual habit?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did you speak to the prisoner when she came into
-the lavatory?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Were not you in the habit of holding a conversation
-with her upon such occasions?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why did you not address her on that night?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I was very sleepy, and had nothing in particular to
-say.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“But you were not too sleepy to note carefully all
-the details in the evidence you have just given. You
-can go,—and to the devil,” he muttered. He thrust
-his hands into his pockets and wheeled about, looking
-at Patience with such intensity of gaze that she moved
-suddenly forward. Her face was pale, but her eyes
-blazed with rage. Bourke glanced at the clock.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is twenty minutes to one,” he said. “I would
-ask your honour to adjourn until two. I must have
-time to digest this new testimony. Its remarkable
-glibness prevented me from giving it the running deliberation
-that it demanded.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The judge sulkily dismissed the court. As Patience
-passed out of the room with Tarbox she heard the
-word “angel” more than once, and knew that it did
-not refer to her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience was not conscious of fear as she ate her
-luncheon. Her heart was black with rage. “I’d willingly
-murder <span class='it'>her</span>,” she thought, “and my conscience
-wouldn’t trouble me the least little bit.”</p>
-
-<h2>XVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Immediately after recess Mr. Bourke began his summing
-up. He commenced quietly, shaking the loose
-cloth of the table in an absent manner. His language
-was colloquial as he spoke to the jury of its grave
-responsibilities, and complimented it upon the “unusual
-intelligence which it had so far made evident.” He
-passed naturally to the subject in hand, and dwelt eloquently
-upon the character of the defendant, of her
-lonely pathetic youth, her high ideals, her remarkable
-intelligence, her ignorance of the world which had led
-her to fall in love with the first handsome and attractive
-man that had addressed her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His voice rose to tragic pitch as he dwelt upon the
-terrible awakening of such a woman, bound for life to
-such a man,—a sensual, ill-tempered, selfish brute,
-who was a disgrace to the nineteenth century.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He depicted two years of uncomplaining wifely devotion
-(until Patience became lost in admiration of the
-defendant), the husband’s frantic rages about nothing,
-his unrecognition of her superiority, his ignorant determination
-to make her his slave—his plaything—she,
-a woman whom such men as James E. Field and Gardiner
-Peele delighted to honour.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then he dropped again into pathos (which never for
-a moment degenerated into bathos) and described the
-desolate life of such a woman in an empty frivolous brainless
-society (faint murmur and indignant rustle in the
-gallery), a society of idle people with neither soul nor
-intelligence, but who squandered the money wrested
-from the People, the great People, of whom the Gentlemen
-of the Jury were twelve worthy and doubtless long
-suffering members.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was not until he had emphasised and recapitulated
-with every resource of his splendid vocabulary, every
-modulation of his glorious voice, by controlled and telling
-gesture, by sudden tremendous bursts of indignation,
-the married life of the prisoner, that he passed to
-the day and night of the tragedy. He began with the
-morning, and dwelt upon every detail of the day. Before
-he reached midnight he had Beverly Peele in a
-frame of mind for both suicide and murder. He sent
-him to bed with black skin and white flecked nose and
-chaos in his heart. With a magnificent burst of scorn
-he quoted his shameful language when his wife had
-offered to get him the morphine, the oaths he had
-used to a “refined and elegant and patient woman.”
-Then he took him to the lavatory, showed him jerking
-the stopper from the morphine bottle, and recklessly
-pouring a fourth of its contents into a glass. “He
-knew that he had to die anyhow, and he could at least
-die happy in a hideous revenge.” In brief and vivid
-phrase he cited several similar instances in legal
-history.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then he returned to Peele Manor and denounced the
-jealous woman who for five years had nursed fury in
-her heart, and who, on the witness stand, here, Gentlemen
-of the Jury, conceived, at the unfortunate suggestion
-of the speaker, the frightful revenge upon a woman
-who had treated her with unvarying kindness. She
-did not speak at once, partly because her lying tale
-needed rehearsing, partly because she believed that the
-case for the prosecution would win without her. But
-when she saw that the case for the prosecution was
-wholly lost she arrayed herself like an angel, that she
-might the better impose upon the unworldly Gentlemen
-of the Jury, and swore away a woman’s life.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The several assertions on the defendant’s part that
-she felt disposition to murder he tore to rags and flung
-in the face of the jury. Had not every high tempered
-person—could not the Gentlemen of the Jury recall
-having exclaimed in bitter moments: “I wish you
-were dead! I could kill you!” With deep regret
-and remorse he would confess that he had used similar
-expressions many times.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then with consummate skill he dilated upon the impossibility
-of so clever a woman as the defendant
-doing aught so stupid as to murder in the manner of
-the accusation. When there was nothing left to say
-on this subject he expatiated upon the lack of motive
-with a technical and personal brilliancy which made
-even the cross-grained old judge lean forward with a
-cynical smile.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The interviews, even the final ones, with the mysterious
-stranger, he treated with contempt, although the
-contempt was sufficiently long drawn out to impress
-the jury with every most insignificant detail. It, was
-the mere longing for companionship of a lonely woman:
-that was the beginning and the end of it. The lover,
-the intention of either to marry, he disposed of with a
-vehemence which made Simms twist about suddenly
-and look at Lansing; but the young man was regarding
-his chief with rapt admiration.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Not so much as the scraping of a boot heel was heard
-in the court room. Patience glanced at the district
-attorney. His face was set and sullen.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After every possible point had been considered
-Bourke concluded with an appeal so stirring, so ringing,
-so thrilling that every person in the court room
-except the district attorney sat forward and held his
-breath. No such burst of passion had ever been heard
-in that room before. Patience covered her face with
-her hands. Her heart beat suffocatingly. The blood
-pounded in her ears; but not one note of that wonderful
-voice, not one phrase of fire, escaped her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Is there any possible condition in which a man can
-appear to such supreme advantage as when pleading
-for the life of a fellow being, more particularly of a
-young and beautiful woman? How paltry all the time-worn
-rescues of woman from sinking ship and runaway
-horse and burning house. A great criminal lawyer
-standing before the jury box with a life in his hand has
-the unique opportunity to display all the best gifts ever
-bestowed upon man: genius, brain, passion, heart,
-soul, eloquence, a figure instinct with grace and virility,
-a face blazing with determination to snatch a man or
-woman from the most awful of dooms.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And all in two short hours.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>If those in the court room for whom the case had no
-personal interest were at Bourke’s feet, hanging upon
-his words, adoring him for the moment, what were the
-feelings of the woman for whom he was making so desperate
-and manly a fight? She forgot her danger, forgot
-everything but the man, the reckless joy of loving, of
-being swept out of her calm orbit at last. Her analytical
-brain was dulled, her arms ached, her heart shook her
-body.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Bourke made a few supplementary remarks calculated
-to take the wind out of the district attorney’s
-sails,—references to the young man’s ambition, his
-youthful eagerness to become famous, what the winning
-of such a great case would mean to him, and to his
-remarkable cleverness and skill with a jury,—Patience
-heard Simms say to Lansing: “My God! Bourke has
-surpassed even himself. Even he never got as high as
-that before.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“He’s the greatest man in the country, God bless
-him!” said Lansing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Bourke finally dropped upon his chair he turned
-to Patience. Their eyes met and lingered; and in
-that moment each passed into the other’s keeping.</p>
-
-<h2>XVII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Sturges lost no time taking his stand before the jury
-box. It was the hour of his life, but he was not nervous.
-His long thin figure leaning toward the box as
-he rested his finger tips on the table, showed as fine
-a repose of nerve as of brain. His clear-cut face
-with the cruel mouth and pleasant smile was calm
-and unclouded.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He began by defending himself against Mr. Bourke’s
-remarks, and asserted with convincing emphasis that
-when he had taken the oath of office he had left his
-personal ambition behind him with his personal interests,
-and had given himself body and soul and brain
-to the People of Westchester County. Then he made
-an equally earnest statement of the grave responsibilities
-of a district attorney, his solemn duty to the People,
-the necessity to smother all promptings of humanity
-that he might do what was best for the People—“The
-greatest good of the greatest number.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then he painted Patience as black as Bourke had
-enamelled her white. With masterly ingenuity he
-made each juror feel what an awful being a bad woman
-was, an unloving undutiful wife; what a curse each
-man of them would writhe under had Fate played him
-as scurvy a trick as it had played poor Beverly Peele;
-that no unloved husband’s life would be safe were not
-such women exploited and punished, that if the
-Gentlemen of the Jury were weak enough to consider
-her sex they might be imperilling the lives of countless
-thousands. For the matter of that, he reiterated,
-crime had no sex.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He took up each detail of the story, and in the light
-of his interpretation Patience was the modern Lucretia
-Borgia and Beverly Peele an injured, peaceable, affectionate
-husband, who had been sacrificed by an abandoned
-woman to whom he had given his honoured
-name, his fortune, and his love.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He scarcely raised his voice. There was no passion
-in his utterance; but he manufactured a mosaic, bit
-by bit, each fragment fitting so exactly that the design
-was without crevice or crack. He demonstrated mathematically
-that the tardy evidence of Miss Mairs had
-been superfluous; that the chain of circumstantial evidence
-was symmetrical and complete, and that no possible
-motive beyond duty to her conscience could be
-attributed to her. With devilish adroitness, without a
-direct phrase, he managed to filter into those twelve
-small brains the secret of the inspired eloquence of the
-eminent counsel for the defence,—in behalf of his
-young and beautiful client.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>While he was talking, the skeleton trees beyond the
-windows grew dim of outline, the mass of colour in the
-gallery faded. An official came out of the library behind
-the court room and lit the tall gas lamps on either
-side of the bench. The judge looked like a bas-relief
-in pink and silver against the dark panelling of the background.
-The rest of the room was in shadow. The
-light of the near jet fell full upon Sturges’ stern face.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience’s life from “its fiendish childhood” was rehearsed
-with such consecutive logic that crime at some
-point of such a woman’s career was inevitable. The
-only wonder was that it had not been committed sooner.
-The threats, he demonstrated, whether uttered in moments
-of passion or not, were the significant output of
-a brooding mind. The “cruel letter to a dying man”
-was read with slow and indignant emphasis. Then the
-events of the fatal day and night, the quarrels, the
-prisoner’s fury at being denied a divorce, the deceased’s
-threat to live twenty years to spite her, her carefully
-rehearsed and absurd story that her husband had
-dropped the morphine himself,—something he knew
-himself physically incapable of doing,—the equal absurdity
-of his suicide when a greater revenge lay in his
-hands, her brutal indifference while he lay dying, were
-deliberately gone over with passionless and insidious
-effect. The quiet half-lit room was oddly in keeping
-with the deadly methods of the man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When he had made the most of her flight on the
-morning of the “Eye” story, he paused a moment,
-during which the rising wind could be heard in the
-trees. Within, there was no sound. No one seemed
-breathing. Bourke and Patience were in deep shadow.
-With an instinct of protection he clasped his hand suddenly
-about hers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Sturges resumed, with lowered and vibrating voice:</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And—where—Gentlemen of the Jury,—was—this—woman—arrested?——<span class='it'>In
-the house of a harlot!</span>”
-He paused another half moment. “In the
-house of her oldest friend, La Rosita, one of the most
-abandoned women in America.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke’s hand twitched spasmodically. Simms twisted
-his neck, and shot at Lansing an uneasy glance. Patience
-shuddered. For the moment she forgot Bourke.
-She felt as if a cobra were folding her about,—very
-slowly, and gently, and inexorably.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When Sturges sat down the jury was told to rise.
-The judge stood under one of the lamps and read them
-his charge. He explained that unless they could find
-the prisoner guilty of murder in the first degree—of
-deliberate premeditated murder—they must acquit her.
-As the final quarrel had taken place an hour before the
-killing it was obviously impossible that she could have
-dropped the morphine in a moment of excitement; and
-a verdict of self-defence would be equally absurd. He
-also charged them that they were to consider the law
-in the case and nothing but the law,—that human
-sympathy must have no place in their verdict.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke was too able a lawyer not to have the last
-word. As the judge sat down, he arose with several
-sheets of manuscript, and for twenty minutes asked the
-judge to charge the jury so and so, practically recapitulating
-all the strong points of the defence. The judge
-answered mechanically, “I so charge,” and at last the
-patient jury was conducted out of the court room and
-locked up. Bourke was surrounded at once.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As Tarbox, with Patience on his arm, left the court
-house and its crowd behind him, he exclaimed, “By
-God, that was a great speech of Bourke’s! There
-never has been a summing up like that in my time
-before, not even by him. But he’s the smartest man
-in Westchester County! Hanged if I don’t think he’s
-the smartest man in the State of New York. He’ll be
-in the United States Senate yet.”</p>
-
-<h2>XVIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After dinner Patience went back to the court room
-to remain until ten o’clock, at which time the jury, if it
-had not come to a decision, would be locked up for the
-night. She sat surrounded by her counsel and the
-lawyers that had taken so deep an interest in the case.
-Bourke sat very close to her, and once or twice as she
-met his eyes she forgot the terrible moment to come.
-Few people were in the court house. No one expected
-a verdict that night.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was exactly at half-past nine that the jury filed
-solemnly in. Patience’s knees jerked suddenly upward.
-She lost her breath for a moment. Bourke
-leaned over her and took her hand, regardless of the
-curious people surrounding them.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Be brave. Be brave,” he said hurriedly. “Now
-is the time for all your pride and disdain.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When she was ordered to stand up and face the jury,
-she did so with an air so collected and so haughty that
-even Simms murmured: “By Jove, she is a thoroughbred.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a moment of horrible and vibrating silence,
-during which Patience’s brain reiterated hilariously:
-“Twelve little Jurymen all in a row. Twelve little
-heads all in a row.” Then the foreman was asked for
-the verdict. He cleared his throat, and without moving
-a muscle of his face, remarked,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Guilty.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The district attorney sat down suddenly and hid
-his face with a convulsive hand. Patience resumed
-her seat with a mien as stolid as that of the twelve
-jurors. Bourke’s face blanched, but he sprang to his
-feet and demanded that the jury be polled. Each
-solemn “Yes,” twelve and unhesitating, sounded like a
-knell. Then Bourke demanded a Stay, which was
-granted by the impassive judge, and Patience was led
-through the silent crowd from the court room to her
-cell. Tarbox escorted her mutely, his face turned
-away. At the door of her cell he attempted to speak,
-but gave it up and retreated hastily.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience threw off her hat and sat down on the edge
-of the bed. The verdict, she knew now, had not been
-a surprise. But she thought little of the verdict. She
-was waiting for something else. It came in a moment.
-She heard a quick impatient step on the ground below,
-then a rapid ascent of stair, a word or two at the door,
-Tarbox’s retreating step.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke was in the cell. His face was white, but
-that of Patience as she rose and confronted him was
-not.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t care!” she said. “I don’t care! I believe
-I am happier than any woman alive.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The red sprang to his face. He took her outstretched
-hands and held them to lips and eyes for a
-moment, then caught her in his arms and kissed her
-until the rest of the world lay dull, and all life was in
-that quiet cell.</p>
-
-<h2>XIX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A year later they took her to Sing Sing. The General
-Term had refused her a new trial, the Court of Appeals
-had sustained the lower court. Bourke had won
-nothing but additional glory.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He did not go with her to Sing Sing. She saw him
-alone for an hour before Tarbox came to take her
-away. Her composure was greater than his. He was
-torn with horror and defeat, and his surpassing love
-for the woman. Not that he had given up hope by
-any means, nor the fight; but he knew the fearful odds,
-and he cursed the law which he had outwitted and
-played with so often and so brilliantly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I wish we were back in the middle ages,” he said
-savagely, “when a man took his rights and regulated
-justice by brute force. We are not half men now that
-we are under the yoke of a thing that operates blindly,
-and strikes by chance where it should strike, in nine
-cases out of ten. Good God! Good God! it seems
-incredible that I can <span class='it'>let</span> you go, that I shall stand by
-and see Tarbox lead you away. Think of the combined
-intellect of the world and the centuries having done
-no more for man than that. I must stand aside and
-see you go to a hideous cell in the Death House—O
-my God!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He had awakened the woman down to the depths;
-to-day he called to life the maternal instinct in her.
-She put her arms about him with the passionate
-strength of one who would transmit courage and hope
-through physical pressure.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Listen,” she said; “I don’t mind one cell more
-than another—and I know, I <span class='it'>know</span>, that you will save
-me. I feel it. I am not going to die. You are a
-man of genius. Everybody says that—everybody—I
-know that you will have an inspiration at the last
-minute. And I have been happy, happy, happy!
-Don’t forget that—not ever. I would go through
-twenty times what I have suffered in all my life for this
-past year. Don’t you think I can live on that for a
-month or two? Why, I can feel your touch, the
-pressure of your arms for hours after you leave me.
-I shall be with you every minute—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He threw back his head, shaking it with a brief
-violent motion characteristic of him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Very well,” he said, “very well; it is not for me
-to be weak when you are strong. Perhaps it is because
-the prize is so great that the fight is so long and desperate.
-Oh, you wonderful woman!</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell me,” he said after a moment, “that it has all
-been as perfect to you as to me. I want to hear you
-say that, but I know it, I know it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh,—I—I—”</p>
-
-<hr class='tbk105'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Tarbox came and took her away. He looked as if
-he had lost home and friends and fortune, and did not
-speak from White Plains to Sing Sing. The details of
-the trip interested her less than such details are supposed
-to interest the condemned that look their last
-on sky and land; her head ached, and the glare of the
-Hudson blinded her; but as the train neared Sing
-Sing she opened her eyes suddenly, then sat forward
-with a note of admiration.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The river was covered with a dense rosy mist which
-half obscured the opposite shore, giving it the effect of
-an irregular group of islands. Above was a calm lake
-of yellow fire surrounded by heavy billows of boiling
-gold; beyond, storm clouds, growing larger and darker.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As they drove, a few moments later, to the prison,
-the great grey battlemented pile was swimming in the
-same rosy glow. Patience murmured satirically:</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“‘The splendour falls on castle walls.’”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Tarbox looked at her in amazement. “Oh,” he
-said, “how do you manage it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“All hope is not gone,” she replied; “there is still
-the governor.” But she knew how slender that hope
-was. The governor was on the eve of re-election; public
-feeling was multiplied against her; the “Eye” was
-clamouring for her life, and strutting like a turkey cock;
-the “Eye” and Tammany Hall were one; the governor
-was the creature of Tammany Hall.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The warden was in his office. He greeted her with
-elaborate politeness, albeit puffed with alcohol and
-pride. She handed him what valuables she had not
-presented to Tarbox, and answered his questions in a
-manner not calculated to placate his Irish dignity.
-Then she turned to say good-bye to Tarbox, but he
-had disappeared. The head-keeper, a big kindly man,
-who pressed her arm in a paternal manner, led her
-down long echoing corridors, past rows and tiers of
-cells, and yards full of Things in striped garments, and
-talked to her in the manner one adopts to a frightened
-child, until she said:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I am not going to have hysterics; nor am I at all
-sure that I am to be executed—but please don’t
-imagine that I don’t appreciate your kindness.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, I like that,” he said. “To tell the truth
-the prospect of having a woman here has half scared
-me out of my wits. But if you won’t take on, I’ll do
-everything I can to make you comfortable. We’ve
-put a woman servant in there to wait on you. I hope
-myself it won’t be for long. The evidence is pretty
-black, but some of us has our opinion all the same.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Must I go into the Death House? I think I
-shouldn’t mind it so much if they’d put me anywhere
-else.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m afraid you must, ma’am. That’s the custom
-in these parts.” He opened a door with a huge key,
-and Patience did not need to be told that she was
-in the famous Death House.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A long corridor with a high window at either end;
-on one side a row of cells separated from the main
-corridor by an iron fence sufficiently removed from the
-cells to make space for a narrow promenade. Where
-the middle cell should have been was a dark arched
-stone passage terminated by a stout oaken door.
-Patience knew that it led to the execution room. Two
-guards walked up and down the corridor. At the end,
-a sullen-looking woman stood over a stove, making tea.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’ve got the house all to yourself,” said the
-keeper, with an attempt at jocularity. “If there’d
-been any men here I guess you’d have been sent to
-Dannemora, but it’s always Sing Sing for the swells,
-when it’s possible, you know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He opened the gate of the iron fence and led her
-down to the cell at the extreme end. It was large and
-well lighted, but very different from the cell at White
-Plains.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Are you going to lock me in?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, ma’am, I must. If everything ain’t comfortable,
-just let me know.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The key grated in the lock. The head-keeper
-with an encouraging smile walked away. Patience
-crouched in a corner, for the first time fully realising
-the awfulness of her position, her imagination leaping
-to the room beyond the passage. What did it look
-like, that horrible chair? How long—how long—the
-hideously practical details of electric execution—the
-awful mystery of it—the new death to which imagination
-had not yet become accustomed—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was no sound but the monotonous pacing of
-the death watch. The world beyond those stone
-walls might have sprung away into space, leaving the
-great beautiful prison alone on a whirling fragment.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sprang to her feet and clenched her hands.
-“I’ll not go mad and make an everlasting fool of
-myself,” she thought. “If I have to die, I’ll die with
-my head up and my eyes dry. If I have the blood of
-the aristocrat in me I’ll prove it then, not die like a
-flabby woman of the people. The people! O God,
-how I hate the people!”</p>
-
-<h2>XX</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A great petition was sent to the governor. It was
-signed uniformly by men and women of the upper
-class.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It is not the aristocrats that do the electing in the
-United States. The lower classes were against her to a
-man. Her personality enraged them; her unreligion,
-her disdainful bearing, her intellect, her position,
-antagonised the superstitious and ambitious masses
-more than her crime. Inevitable result: the governor
-refused to pardon.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora returned to Peele Manor from town in April.
-Bourke’s attempts to see her were frustrated by a bodyguard
-of servants. He took up his residence in the
-little village adjoining the grounds. He hardly knew
-what he hoped. But Honora Mairs was the last and
-only resource, and he could not keep away from her
-vicinity. He did not go to Sing Sing. It had been
-agreed between himself and Patience that he should
-stay away: they had no desire to communicate through
-iron bars.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The execution was set for the seventh of May. On
-the evening of the sixth, while walking down the single
-street of the village Bourke came face to face with the
-new priest of the district.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tim Connor!” he exclaimed, forgetting for the
-moment, in the sudden retrospect which this man’s face
-unrolled, the horror that held him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Well, it’s me, sure enough, Garan, and I’ve been
-hunting for you these two days. I heard you were here,
-but faith, I’ve been busy!—not to say I’ve been away
-for two weeks.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“How long have you been here?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Six months, come June, it is since I left old Ireland;
-and I’m wanting to tell you that the creek we
-used to wade in is as tempting to the boys as ever,
-and that the bog you pulled me out of has moved on a
-mile and more. Twenty times I’ve been for going
-across the country to call on you and have a good grip
-of the hand, and to bless you again for letting me live
-to do good work; but I was caught in a net here—But
-what’s the matter—Are you ill?—Oh, sure! sure!
-This terrible business! I remember! Poor young
-thing!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He laid his arm about the shoulders of the other man
-and guided him to his house. There, in his bare little
-study, he brewed an Irish toddy, and the two men drank
-without a spoken toast to the old times when they had
-punched each other’s head, fought each other’s battles,
-and shared each other’s joys, two affectionate rollicking
-mischievous Irish lads.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The priest spoke finally.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Nothing else is talked of here in the village,” he
-said; “but you don’t hear a word of it mentioned over
-at the house.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“What house?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Peele Manor, to be sure.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you go there?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Occasionally—to dine; or to talk with Miss Mairs.
-We are amiable friends, although she doesn’t confess
-to me.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke raised his head slowly. Something seemed
-to swirl through his heavy heart.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Is Honora Mairs a Catholic?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She is indeed, and, like all converts, full to the brim
-and running over.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke leaned forward, his hand clinching about his
-chin, his elbow pressing his knee with such force that
-his arm vibrated. He had been raised a Catholic—he
-knew its grip. His mind was trained to grasp opportunities
-on the moment, to work with the nervous yet
-mathematical rapidity of electric currents. And like
-all great lawyers he was a great actor.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tim,” he said meditatively, “I’m feeling terribly
-bad over that poor girl I couldn’t save.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sure and I should think you would, Garan. My
-heart’s breaking for her myself.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did you read the trial, Tim?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, faith, I didn’t. I’ve been too busy with these
-godless folk. Sure they get away from us priests when
-they get into America. It’s only one more drop to
-hell.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You’re right, Tim, you’re right. You always saw
-things at a glance. But I’ve got a great work for you
-to do,—a great work for you and for the Church.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You have, Garan? You have? Out with it, my
-boy.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Do you remember the time when Paddy Flannagan
-was accused of murdering his old grandmother for the
-sake of the money in her stocking?” continued Bourke,
-in the same half absent tone, and lapsing gradually into
-brogue. “He was convicted, you know, and the whole
-town was set on him, and we two boys were the worst
-of the lot. Do you remember how we used to hoot
-under his jail window at night? And then, quite by
-accident, at the last minute, two days before he was
-going to be hanged, you discovered the man that had
-committed the murder, and you ran as fast as your legs
-could carry you to save Paddy, shouting all the way,—and
-that it was the happiest day of your life?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, yes!” exclaimed the priest, his face aglow.
-Bourke had thrown himself back in his chair, his eyes
-dwelling on his old friend with a smile of affectionate
-satisfaction.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s a grand thing to save a human life, isn’t it,
-Tim?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It is, indeed; the grandest, next to saving an immortal
-soul.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m going to give you a chance to do both,—the
-soul of one woman and the life of another.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Garan, Garan, what do you mean?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Just let me tell you a few things first, a few things
-you don’t know already.” He gave a concise but
-picturesque and thrilling account of Patience’s life and
-of her trial. As he repeated Honora’s testimony, the
-priest, who had followed his recital with profound interest,
-leaned forward with sombre brows.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“That woman lied,” concluded Bourke, abruptly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I’m afraid so. I’m afraid so.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And if she doesn’t open her accursed perjured lips
-between now and to-morrow morning at eleven o’clock,
-that woman up there—” he caught the priest’s shoulders
-suddenly, his face contracting with agony—“the
-woman I love, Tim, will be murdered. My God, man,
-don’t you see what you’ve got to do?”</p>
-
-<h2>XXI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora was lying on a couch in her celestial bedroom.
-No incense burned. The screen was folded closely
-about the altar. The windows were open. The pure
-air of spring, the peaceful sounds of night,—disturbed
-now and again by the hideous shriek of an engine,—the
-delicate perfume of flowers, played upon her irritated
-senses. She held a bottle of smelling salts in her
-hand. On the table beside her was a jolly looking
-bottle of Benedictine.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was a tap at the door. Honora answered
-wearily. A maid entered.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s Father Connor, miss, and he wants to see you
-particular.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Tell him I cannot see him—no, tell him to come
-up.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She rose hurriedly and smoothed her hair. Mr. and
-Mrs. Peele had gone South. She was alone in the
-house, and welcomed the brief distraction of the priest’s
-visit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You will pardon me for asking you to come up
-here,” she said as he entered. “But I am in dishabille,
-and I did not want to keep you waiting. How
-kind of you to come!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Sure it is always a pleasure to see you anywhere,
-Miss Mairs,” he said, taking the seat she indicated.
-“What should I do without you in this godless place?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Several candles burned. The moonlight wandered
-in, making a ghastly combination. Honora lay back
-in her chair, looking very pale and beautiful. The
-priest’s profile was toward her for a moment after he
-ceased speaking, a strong lean determined profile.
-She watched it warily. But he turned suddenly to her
-and smiled, and told her an absurd episode of one of
-his village delinquents.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Faith, Miss Mairs,” he concluded, “you’ve got to
-help me. They’re too much for one poor priest. I’m
-not one to flatter, but your face would be enough to
-make a sinner think of heaven—sure it’s the face of
-an angel! Between the two of us and with the Grace
-of God we’ll reform the village and drive the dirty
-politicians into the Church or out of the country.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora smiled radiantly, and held out her hand.
-“I will work with you,” she said. “I intend to devote
-my life to the Church.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He held her hand closely, in a strong masculine clasp.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I believed it of you. But why don’t you go to
-confession, my child?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The muscles under Honora’s fair skin contracted
-briefly, and she attempted to withdraw her hand; but
-the priest held it closely.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I shall go to you next week.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“To-night,” he said with soft insistence; “to-night.
-Do you know it was that brought me here to-night?
-I’ve been knowing ever since I came that something
-troubled you—was eating your heart out—but I
-didn’t like to speak. I thought every day you would
-come to me, and I didn’t like to intrude. But to-night
-I said, ‘I will!’ I couldn’t get up my courage
-when I first came in; but I’m glad I’ve spoken, for I
-know you’ll be after confessing now. Poor girl! But
-remember, dear child, the comfort and consolation our
-blessed Church has for every sinner. Come.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora turned her face away, and shook her head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The priest put out a long arm, and grasping the screen
-drew it away from the altar. Then he leaned forward,
-and laying his hands on her shoulders drew her slowly
-forward and pressed her to her knees. He laid his
-hand on her head.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Confess,” he said, solemnly.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>And Honora suddenly burst into wild sobbing, and
-confessed that Beverly Peele had dropped his own
-morphine that night, that his shaking hand had refused
-to obey his will, and that, blind with pain, he had poured
-a fourth of the contents into the glass, mixed it with
-water, and gulped it down; that she had not gone to
-his assistance because she wished him to die, and the
-responsibility to fall upon his wife.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then she sprang to her feet and smote her hands
-together.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I did not intend to confess until all was over, but—I—Oh—it
-has been horrible here alone these two
-days—but I would not yield to superstition and go
-away—and you found me in a weak moment.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She walked up and down the room, talking the more
-rapidly, the more unreservedly, as the priest made no
-comment. And after all the years of immobility it was
-joy to speak out everything in her crowded heart and
-brain.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, I am not a monster, I am not abnormal, I am
-merely a result. It began—when did it begin? I was
-a child when I came here—I remember little that
-happened before—it has always been the <span class='it'>rôle</span> of the
-poor cousin, I remember no other—no other! never!
-never! I had to learn patience at an age when other
-children are clamouring for their little desires. I had
-to learn humility when other children—while I watched
-my cousins take all the goods and joys of childhood
-as their divine right. While their little world was at
-their feet I was learning to cringe and watch and wait
-and smile upon people I hated, and listen to people
-that bored me to death, and suffer vicariously for all
-the shortcomings of the Peele family when my aunt was
-in one of her cold rages. It was early that I learned
-the lesson that if I would occupy a supportable position
-in life I must ‘work’ people; I must cultivate will and
-tact—how I hate the loathsome word—and study the
-natures of those about me, and play upon them; that
-I must acquire absolute self repression, be a sort of
-automaton, that, being once wound up properly, never
-makes a false move. I believe that was one thing which
-drove me to the Catholic Church,—the unspeakable
-relief that I should find in confession,—that and one
-other thing—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She paused abruptly, and pressed her hands to her
-face, to which the blood had sprung.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I loved Beverly Peele,” she continued violently.
-“I do not know when it began; when I was old
-enough to fall in love, I suppose, and that is young
-enough with a woman. When we were children we
-used to play at being married. Even after he was
-grown and was rather wild, he used to come back to me
-in the summer time and tell me that he cared for no
-one else. I knew all his faults, his weaknesses, his
-limitations, mental and moral and spiritual,—none
-better. But I loved him. I worshipped him. He
-was not even a companion to me, for I was always
-intellectually ambitious. Not a taste but music did we
-have in common. I have seen him in raging tempers
-that would make any other woman despise him—when
-he seemed an animal, a savage. But nothing made any
-difference to me. A woman loves or she does not love—that
-is the beginning and the end. There is no more
-relation between cause and effect in an infatuated
-woman’s mind than—Oh, well, I can’t be finding
-similes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“One night he came in here. The next night I
-kissed the pillow his head would lie on. For a year I
-was happy; for another I alternated between joy and
-anguish, jealousy and peace, despair and hope. Then
-a year of misery, during which he brutally cast me off.
-It was that which drove me to the Catholic Church—not
-only the peace it promised, but the knowledge that
-with baptism my sin would be washed away—for when
-happiness went remorse began. I have not a brain of
-iron, like that woman he married. She could snap her
-past in two and fling it behind her. She could snap
-her fingers at moral laws, if it suited her purpose, and
-know no regret, provided she had had nothing to regret
-meanwhile. That was one reason why I hated her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, how I hated her! How I hated her! Beverly
-never had any reserve, and he made love to her
-before my eyes. He was infatuated. His affection for
-me was an incidental fancy compared to his mad passion
-for that woman. And month after month! Month
-after month! And I loved him still!</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I never dared say to myself that when the time
-came I should have vengeance, for such a resolution I
-should be obliged to confess; and the priest would
-make me promise to thrust it out, or refuse me absolution.
-But down in my heart I knew that when the
-hour came the temptation would conquer. It came
-first when I let him drink the morphine. And when I
-saw her in court, when her lover gave me that sudden
-suggestion, when I knew that I could send her to that
-horrible chair—” She threw out her arms and laughed
-hysterically, “O God, I was almost happy again.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The priest rose and stood before her. There were
-tears in his eyes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Poor woman!” he said. “Poor woman!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Honora’s face convulsed, but she shut her lips resolutely
-and tapped the floor with her foot.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“There is pardon and peace in the Church,” he continued
-softly; “and not only for the sake of that poor
-girl at Sing Sing, battling to-night with horror and terror,
-sleepless, listening to the solemn tramp of the
-death watch, counting the hours that are marching her
-to that hideous death, but for the future peace of
-your own soul, speak out and save her. Think of the
-years of torment, of remorse, when you will not have
-the excitement of the present, the pressure of your
-wrongs to sustain you. Speak out, and I will give you
-absolution, and your soul shall know peace.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Honora threw back her head and laughed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No! No!” she said. “I am not so weak as
-that. I have no intention of going to pieces at the last
-moment. It is only her death that will give me
-peace.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He bent his long body backward, drawing himself up
-to his full imposing height.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And have you thought of what will be the penalty?”
-he said, in a low voice, and with an intonation that was
-almost a chant.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She shuddered, but dragged her eyes away.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t care!” she said passionately. “I don’t
-care!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“You are sure?” he said, in the same voice.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She drew two short breaths. “Oh, go away and
-leave me,” she said. “Why did you come here? I
-did not intend to confess until all was over.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And you expected absolution?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I would have done any penance. I would have
-burnt my flesh with red-hot irons—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He gave a short, scornful laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The Church wants no such makeshift penances,” he
-said passionately. “It has no use for the sinner that
-commits deliberate crime to-day and comes cringing
-and triumphant to the confessional to-morrow. We
-have no use for such as you,” he suddenly shouted,
-flinging out his arm and pointing his index finger at
-her. “You are a disgrace to the Church, a pollution;
-you are the lips of the leper upon the pure body of a
-Saint. We have no place for such as you. We have
-only one method by which to deal with you and such
-as you—” He curved his body, and his voice fell to
-a hollow monotone: “Ex-commu-nica-tion.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The woman stared at him with pale distended eyes,
-no breath issuing from her dry lips, then sank to the
-floor, a miserable, collapsed, quivering heap. The
-priest went to the window and called to a man who
-stood on the walk below.</p>
-
-<h2>XXII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke was pacing up and down among the trees, his
-eyes seldom absent from the man standing motionless
-in front of the house, or from the light in Honora
-Mairs’ window. He struck a match every few moments
-and looked at his watch. He lit a cigar, then
-found himself biting rapidly along its length with vicious
-energy. He flung it away and lit another, puffed at it
-violently, then let it fall to the ground as he pressed his
-hands suddenly to his eyes, shutting out the picture of
-Patience in her cell.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>All the agony and doubt and despair of the past year
-were crowded into this hour. Would the priest succeed?
-Was he clever enough to outwit a clever and implacable
-woman? If he had only caught her in a moment
-of weakness. But was there any weakness in that
-organisation of knit and tempered steel? “He’ll
-blarney her,” he thought, with sudden hope,—“but
-bah! you can’t blarney a snake. That will go so far
-with her and no farther. Only acting can save us. If
-he can act well enough to fill the stage on which this
-terrible tragedy is set, and conquer that woman’s imagination,
-he can save my poor girl, but not otherwise.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>His hands clutched the bushes as he passed. He
-kicked the gravel from his feet. He cursed aloud, not
-knowing what he was saying. He felt an intolerable
-thirst; his eyeballs burned; his heart hammered
-spasmodically.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He looked at his watch. It was twelve o’clock.
-His spinning brain conceived the wild project of forcing
-himself up to that lighted room at the corner of the
-house and putting the woman to the torture. And at
-that moment he saw the priest lean out of the window
-and speak to the notary public, who immediately
-entered the house.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A half hour later the priest came out of the front
-door and toward him. He held a paper in his hand.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke was waiting at the door. He took the affidavit
-from the priest, glanced over it, and thrust it into
-his pocket.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come,” he said. “I’ll get one of the men here
-to hitch up a team and drive us to the One Hundred
-and Twenty-fifth Street station. There we’ll take the
-train for Forty-second Street, and at the Grand Central
-the train for Albany. No south bound local will pass
-here for an hour. I happen to know that the governor
-is in Albany to-night attending a banquet.”</p>
-
-<h2>XXIII</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience had given up hope at last. Its death had
-been accompanied by wonder rather than by despair.
-Her remarkable experience with Bourke had led her to
-idealise him even beyond the habit of woman, and her
-faith in his ability to save her had been absolute. Nevertheless,
-woman like, she wove elaborate excuses for
-him, and loved him none the less.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The day had dragged itself into twenty years. The
-chaplain had called and been dismissed. The warden
-had visited her and uttered the conventional
-words of sympathy, to which Patience had listened
-without expression, loathing the coarse ungrammatical
-brute. The head-keeper she liked, for she was the
-first to recognise true sympathy and nobility within
-whatever bark. Miss Beale had come and wept and
-kissed her hands through the bars.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Patience! Patience!” she sobbed. “If it could
-only be said that you died like a Christian!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It can be said that I died like an American gentlewoman
-of the nineteenth century,” replied Patience.
-“I am quite satisfied to know that they will be obliged
-to say that.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Miss Beale shook her head vigorously. “You will
-fail when the time comes,” she said. “Only the Lord
-can sustain you. Please, Patience, let me pray with
-you.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Please let me die in peace,” said Patience, wearily,
-“and consistently. I shall not make a spectacle of
-myself. Don’t worry.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>After Miss Beale had gone the prison barber came
-and shaved a bald spot on the back of her head. She
-kept her face in the shadow, her teeth set, her skin
-thrilling with horror.</p>
-
-<hr class='tbk106'/>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She sat on the edge of her bed until midnight. In
-the past two months, despite her faith in Bourke, she
-had deliberately allowed her mind to dwell upon the
-execution until fear had worn blunt. She was conscious
-of none to-night. Moreover, she had the poise of
-one that has lived close to the great mysteries of life.
-Were she free she might have a lifetime of happiness
-with Bourke, but in degree there were many hours of
-the past year that in mortal limitations could never
-be surpassed. The people had won their fight, but
-she felt that she had cheated them at every other point.
-For, after all, happiness is of kind, not of quantity.
-They could strike from her many years of life, but had
-she not lived? And a few years more or less—what
-mattered it? One must die at the last. She had
-realised an ideal. She had known love in its profoundest
-meaning, in its most delicate vibrations. A thousand
-years could give her no more than that.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly she lifted her head. The rain was dashing
-against her high window and against the windows of the
-corridor. She flushed and trembled and held her
-breath expectantly. In a moment she lay along the
-bed, and in a moment more forgot her evil state.
-Memories without form trooped through her brain:
-snatches and flashes of childhood and adolescence,
-glimmers of dawn, and stirrings of deeps, vistas of
-enchanted future, the rising and receding, rising and
-receding of Mystery, the vague pleasurable loneliness—the
-protest of separateness.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then she pressed her face into the pillows, weeping
-wildly that she should see Bourke no more. The rain
-gave him to her in terrible mockery. Every part of
-her demanded him. She cared nothing for the morrow;
-she had thought of no to-morrows when with
-him. Morrows were naught, for there was always the
-last; but the present are always there to fulfil or torment.
-She shuddered once. The rain had given her
-back the power to long and dream; and to longing
-and dreaming there could be no fulfilment, not in this
-world, now nor ever.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She beat her clenched hand against the bed, not
-in fear, but in passionate resentment that she with
-her magnificent endowment for happiness should be
-snuffed out in her youth, and that there was no power
-on earth to assuage her lover’s agony. She wondered
-where he was, what he was doing. She knew that
-there was no sleep for him.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her philosophy deserted her, as philosophy will
-when the sun is under the horizon. She ceased to be
-satisfied with what had been; the great love in her
-soul cried out and demanded its eternal rights. And
-her fainting courage demanded the man.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her thoughts suddenly took a whimsical turn. What
-should she be like in eternity shorn of her stronger
-part?—for assuredly in her case the man and the woman
-were one. Was space full of those incomplete shapes?—roaming—roaming—for
-what?—and whither? She
-recalled a painting of Vedder’s called “Identity” and
-Aldrich’s verses beneath:—</p>
-
-<div class='blockquote0r9'>
-
-<div class='poetry-container' style=''><div class='lgp'> <!-- rend=';' -->
-<p class='line0'>“Somewhere, in desolate, wind-swept space,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;&ensp;&ensp;In Twilight land, in No-man’s land,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;Two wandering shapes met face to face,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;&ensp;&ensp;And bade each other stand.</p>
-<p class='line'>&#160;</p>
-<p class='line0'>“‘And who are you?’ cried one, agape,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;&ensp;&ensp;Shuddering in the gloaming light,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;‘I know not,’ said the second shape,</p>
-<p class='line0'>&ensp;&ensp;‘I only died last night.’”</p>
-</div></div> <!-- end poetry block --><!-- end rend -->
-
-</div>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The picture had fascinated her profoundly until she
-had suddenly noticed that one of the shapes looked as
-if she had left her teeth on her death-bed. She laughed
-aloud suddenly.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>For the first time she felt curious about the hereafter.
-Poetry had demonstrated to her that hereafter of some
-sort there must be: the poet sees only the soul of his
-creations, makes the soul talk as it would if untrammelled
-of flesh, and in unconscious forecast of its freedom.
-Browning, alone, would have taught her this.
-His greater poems were those of another and loftier
-world. No wonder poets were a mad unhappy race
-with their brief awakenings of the cosmic sense, their
-long contemplations of what should be, in awful contrast
-to what is.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience suddenly turned from the thoughts of the
-hereafter in shuddering horror. Then, as now, she
-should be alone. Perhaps it would be as well, if she
-were to look like that shape.&nbsp;.&nbsp;.&nbsp;. But she should
-know soon enough!</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Whimsies deserted her as abruptly as they had come.
-She realised with terrible vividness all that she was
-leaving, the sweetness of it, the beauty of it—and the
-awful part allotted to the man.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She had imagined that in her last night on earth—if
-it came to that—her mind would dwell on the great
-problems of life; but she cried herself to sleep.</p>
-
-<h2>XXIV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke and the priest arrived in Albany at two minutes
-past eight in the morning. A hack carried them to the
-governor’s house in less than ten minutes.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke’s ring was answered immediately. He had
-his card ready, also that of the priest.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Take these to the governor,” he said to the butler.
-“We must see him at once.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The governor took the 8.13 express for New
-York.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke uttered an oath which the priest did not
-rebuke.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Did he leave an answer to a telegram he received
-between two and five this morning?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“No, sir; no telegrams are ever sent here—by special
-orders, sir. They are all sent to the State House.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke’s skin turned grey; his eyes dulled like
-those of a dying man. But only for a moment. His
-brain worked with its customary rapidity.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Come,” he said to the priest. “There is only one
-thing to do.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>To the hackman he said: “Twenty dollars if you
-get to the station in five minutes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He and the priest jumped into the hack. The
-driver lashed the horses. They dashed down the steep
-hills of Albany. Two policemen rushed after them,
-shouting angrily; but the horses galloped the faster,
-the driver bounding on his seat. People darted shrieking
-out of their way. Other teams pulled hastily aside,
-oaths flying.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They reached the station in exactly four minutes and
-a half. Bourke had little money with him, but he was
-well known, and known to be wealthy. In less than
-five minutes the superintendent, in regard for a check
-for two hundred and fifty dollars, had ordered out the
-fastest engine in the shop. In ten minutes more it was
-ready, and the message had flashed along the line to
-make way for “45.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>By this time every man in the yard was surging about
-the engine in excited sympathy. As the engineer gave
-the word and Bourke and the priest climbed in, the
-men cheered lustily. Bourke raised his hat. Father
-Connor waved them his blessing. The engine sprang
-down the road in pursuit of the New York express.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Despite the flying moments, the horror that seemed
-to sit grimacing upon the hour of eleven every time that
-he looked at his watch, Bourke felt the exhilaration of
-that ride, the enchantment of uncertainty. The morning
-air was cool; the river flashed with gold; the earth
-was very green. They seemed to cut the air as they
-raced through fields and towns, dashed and whizzed
-round curve after curve. People ran after them, some
-shouting with terror, thinking it was a runaway engine.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Father Connor had bought some sandwiches at the
-station, and Bourke ate mechanically. He wondered if
-he should ever recognise the fine flavour of food again.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The priest put his lips to Bourke’s ear and spoke for
-the first time.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Where do you expect to catch the train?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“At Poughkeepsie. It waits there ten minutes.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“And what shall you do if you don’t catch it?”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Go on to Sing Sing, and do the best I can. I have
-made one fatal mistake: I should have telegraphed to
-Sing Sing. But I was mad, I think, until I reached
-Albany, and there it is no wonder I forgot it. The
-regular time for—that business is round eleven o’clock,
-about a quarter past; but if the warden happens to be
-drunk there’s no telling what he will take it into his
-head to do. But I dare not stop.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly they shot about a curve. The engineer
-shouted “There! There!” A dark speck was just
-making another curve, far to the south.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“The express!” cried the engineer. “We’ve side-tracked
-everything else. We’ll catch her now.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>An hour later they dashed into Poughkeepsie, the
-express only two minutes ahead of them. Amidst a
-crowd of staring people, Bourke and the priest, begrimed,
-dishevelled, leaped from the engine and
-boarded a parlour car of the express. Alone, Bourke
-would probably have been arrested as a madman, controlled
-as was his demeanour; but the priest’s frock
-forbade interference.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The governor was not in the parlour car, nor in the
-next, nor in the next.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Yes, he had been there, a porter replied, and would
-be there again; but he had left the train as soon as it
-had stopped. No, he did not know in what direction
-he had gone; nor did any one else.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There was nothing to do but to wait. Bourke sent a
-telegram to Sing Sing, but it relieved his anxiety little:
-he knew the languid methods of the company’s officials
-in country towns.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>There were five of those remaining seven minutes
-when he thought he was going mad. An immense
-crowd had gathered by this time about the station.
-Nobody knew exactly what was the matter, and nobody
-dared ask the man walking rapidly up and down the
-platform, watch in hand, gripping the arm of a priest;
-but hints were flying, and no one doubted that this sudden
-furious incursion of a flying engine and the extraordinary
-appearance of Bourke had to do with the famous
-prisoner at Sing Sing.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>At exactly three minutes to starting time the governor
-came sauntering down the street, a tooth-pick in
-his mouth, his features overspread with the calm and
-good-will which bespeak a recently warmed interior.
-Bourke reached him almost at a bound. He was a
-master of words, and in less than a minute he had
-presented the governor with the facts in the case and
-handed him the affidavit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Good,” said the governor. “I’m glad enough to
-do this. It’s you that will understand, Mr. Bourke,
-that I would have been violating a sacred duty if I’d
-slapped public opinion in the face before.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He wrote rapidly on the back of the affidavit.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“This will do for the present,” he said. “I’ll fix
-it up in style when I go back. You’re a great man,
-Mr. Bourke.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But Bourke had gone. Whistles were sounding,
-train men were yelling. He and the priest barely had
-time to jump on their engine when they were ordered
-to clear the track.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Bourke glanced at his watch as they sprang out of
-the station. The time was twenty minutes past ten.
-It was barely possible to reach Sing Sing in three quarters
-of an hour. Lead was in his veins. His head felt
-light. The chances for his last and paramount success
-were very slim.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But the great engine dashed along like an inspired
-thing, and seemed to throb in sympathy. There was a
-note of triumphant encouragement in its sudden piercing
-shrieks. It tossed a cow off the track as lightly as
-the poor brute had lately whisked a fly from its hind-quarters.
-It whistled merrily to the roaring air. It
-snorted disdainfully when Bourke, refusing to heed its
-mighty lullaby, curved his hands about his mouth and
-shouted to the engineer:—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“For God’s sake, go faster!”</p>
-
-<h2>XXV</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The town of Sing Sing was awake at daylight. It was
-the most exciting and important day of its history.
-The women, even the pitiful ones, arose with a pleasurable
-flutter and donned their Sunday frocks. The
-matrons dressed the children in their brightest and best,
-and laid the gala cover on the baby carriage. The
-men of the village took a half-holiday and made themselves
-as smart as their women. The saloon keepers
-stocked their shelves and spread their counters with
-tempting array of corned beef, cold ham, cheese, crackers,
-pickles, and pretzels.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>By ten o’clock a hundred teams had driven into the
-town, and were hitched to every post, housed in every
-stable. A number stood along that part of the road
-which commanded a view of the prison towers.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The women sat about on the slope opposite the
-prison, pushing the baby carriages absently back and
-forth, or gossiping with animation. Other women
-crowded up the bluff, settling themselves comfortably
-to await, with what patience they could muster, the
-elevation of the black flag.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The reporters and witnesses of the execution sat on
-a railing near the main entrance, smoking cigarettes
-and discussing probabilities. Inside and out the atmosphere
-of intense and suppressed excitement was trying
-to even the stout nerves of the head-keeper. The
-assistant keepers, in bright new caps, moved about with
-an air of portentous solemnity.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Never had Sing Sing seen a more beautiful day.
-The sky was a dome of lapis-lazuli. The yellow sun
-sparkled down on the imposing mediæval pile of towers
-and turrets, on the handsome grey buildings above the
-green slopes near by, on the graveyard with its few
-dishonoured dead, on the gayly dressed expectant
-people, as exhilaratingly as had death and dishonour
-never been. The river and the wooded banks beyond
-were as sweet and calm as if the great building
-with the men in the watch towers were some
-feudal castle, in which, perchance, a captured princess
-pined.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The head-keeper walked once or twice to the telegraph
-table in a corner of the office, and asked the girl
-in charge if any message had come.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s the wish that’s father to the thought,” he said
-to the warden; “but I can’t help hoping for a reprieve
-or a commutation or something. Poor thing, I feel
-awful sorry for her.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Damn her,” growled his chief. “She’s too high-toned
-for me. When I read the death warrant to her
-this morning she turned her back on me square.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“She’s awful proud, and I guess she has a hard time
-keeping up; but it ain’t no time for resentment. I
-must say I did think Mr. Bourke’d save her, and I
-can’t help thinking he will yet.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Time’s getting short,” said the warden, with a dry
-laugh. “It’s 10.40, and the execution takes place at
-11.12 sharp.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Couldn’t you make some excuse to put it off a day
-or so? It ain’t like Mr. Bourke.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Not much. Off she goes at 11.12.” And he got
-up heavily and shuffled out.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The head-keeper took a decanter of brandy from the
-sideboard and placed it, with a number of glasses, on
-the table. Then he called in the newspaper men and
-other witnesses.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He wandered about restlessly as the men entered and
-drank in silence. He carried a stick of malacca topped
-with silver. One or two of the newspaper men shuddered
-as it caught their eye. They knew its hideous
-portent.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Guess we’d better go,” he said, after one more
-fruitless trip to the telegraph table. “It takes time
-to go through those underground passages.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>As the great gates were about to close behind them
-he turned suddenly and called a guard.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If it should so happen that Mr. Bourke should
-come, or telegraph, or that anything should happen
-before—11.16—I can delay it that long—just you
-be on hand to make a bolt. It ain’t like Mr. Bourke
-to sit down and do nothing. I feel it in my bones that
-he’s moving heaven and earth this minute.”</p>
-
-<h2>XXVI</h2>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It was five minutes after eleven. Patience sat on the
-edge of her bed, her hands clenched, her face grey.
-But she was calm. The horror and sinking which had
-almost mastered her as the warden read the death
-warrant, she had fought down and under. And she had
-drunk a quantity of black coffee. She had but one
-thought, one desire left,—to die bravely. Even Bourke
-was forgotten, and hope and regret. She was conscious
-of but one passionate wish, not to quail, not for a second.
-Perhaps there was a slight touch of the dramatic instinct,
-even in this last extremity, for she imagined the
-scene and her attitude again and again. In consequence,
-there was a sense of unreality in it all. She
-felt as if about to play some great final act; she could
-not realise that the climax meant her own annihilation.
-Physically she was very tired, and should have liked to
-lie down for hours, although the coffee had routed
-sleep. Once she half extended herself on the bed,
-then sat erect, her mouth contracting spasmodically.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly she heard the noise of many feet shuffling
-on a bare floor. She knew that it came from the
-execution room. She shuddered and bit her lips.
-Now and again, through the high windows, came the
-shrill note of a woman’s voice, or a baby’s soft light
-laugh.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>A moment later she sprang to her feet, quivering in
-every nerve, her hands clenched in a final and successful
-attempt at absolute self-mastery. On the door separating
-the Death House from the main building,
-resounded three loud raps, slow and deliberate. They
-reverberated in the ears of the condemned like the
-blast of the last trumpet.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The door opened, and the head-keeper entered,
-walking slowly, and stopping once to hold whispered
-converse with the death watch. Patience controlled
-an impulse to call to him to hurry and have it over.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He came forward at last, tapping his malacca stick
-on the floor, unlocked the door of her cell, and offered
-her his arm. He bent to her ear as if to whisper something,
-then evidently thought better of it, and led her
-slowly to the passage facing the execution room.
-Again she wanted to ask him to hurry, but dared not
-speak. The death watch turned away his head. The
-lace of her low shoe untied, and she stooped mechanically
-and fastened it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The head-keeper asked her if she would like some
-brandy,—he would send and get it for her. She
-shook her head emphatically. The exaltation of heroism
-was beginning to possess her, and she would give
-no newspaper the chance to say that she owed her
-fortitude to alcohol.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>They walked down the narrow vaulted way through
-which so many had gone to their last hideous moments.
-The head-keeper fumbled at the lock. The door
-swung open. For a moment Patience closed her eyes;
-the big room of yellow wood was a blaze of sunlight.
-Then she opened them and glanced curiously about
-her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The execution room was large and high and square
-and cheerful. On the left, many feet above the floor,
-was a row of windows. At the far end a number of
-men that had been sitting on stools stood up hurriedly
-as the prisoner entered, and doffed their hats. They
-were the newspaper men. She recognised most of
-them, and bent her head. At the opposite end near
-the door leading to the Death House was a chair.
-Patience regarded it steadily in spite of its brilliancy.
-It was a solid chair of light coloured oak, like the room,
-and supported on three legs. Two were at the back;
-in front was one of curious construction, almost a foot
-in breadth. This leg was divided in two at the extremity.
-Half way up there was a cross piece which spread
-the full width of the chair. To this was fastened the
-straps to hold the ankles of the condemned. The
-chair stood on a rubber mat to ensure perfect insulation.
-It was studded with small electric lamps, dazzling,
-white-hot.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Behind the chair was a square cupboard in which
-stood the unknown, who, at a given signal, would turn
-on the current.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Two prison guards stood by the chair, one behind it
-and one on the right. The State electrician, two surgeons,
-and a man in light blue clothes stood near.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience turned her eyes to the reporters. The
-young men were very pale. They regarded her with
-deep sympathy, and perhaps a bitter resentment at the
-impotence of their manhood. One looked as if he
-should faint, and turning his back suddenly raised something
-to his lips. Even the “Eye” man still held his
-hat in his hand, and had not resumed his seat. Only one
-watched her with eager wolfish curiosity. He was the
-youngest of them all, and it was his first great story.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience wondered if she looked ugly after her long
-confinement, and possibly ridiculous, as most women
-look when they have dressed without a mirror. But
-there was no curve of amusement on the young men’s
-faces, and they were shuffling their feet uneasily. Her
-hair hung in a long braid. She looked very young.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She dropped the head-keeper’s arm and walked
-deliberately to the chair; but he caught her hand and
-held her back.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Wait a minute,” he said, with affected gruffness.
-He went to the chair and examined it in detail. He
-asked a number of questions, which were answered by
-the electrician with haughty surprise. In a moment the
-reporters were staring, and like a lightning flash one brain
-informed another that “something was in the wind.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>When the head-keeper had lingered about the chair
-as long as he dared he returned to Patience, who was
-standing rigidly where he had left her, and drawing a
-short breath said,—</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“If you have any last words, ma’am, you are at
-liberty to speak.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have nothing to say,” replied Patience, wondering
-if her mouth or brain were speaking.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Yes, yes, speak,” exclaimed several of the reporters.
-They had out their pads in an instant; but, for
-once, it was not the news instinct that was alert. The
-most quick-witted men in the world, they realised that
-the head-keeper was endeavouring to gain time. Their
-stiff felt hats dropped to the floor and bounced about.
-Their hands shook a little. For perhaps the first time
-in their history they were more men than journalists.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I don’t wish to speak,” said Patience, and again
-she walked toward the chair. The newspaper men
-sprang forward with an uncontrollable movement, but
-the guards waved them back.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Be careful, young men,” said the head-keeper with
-pompous severity. “Any more of that, and you go out.”
-Taking advantage of the momentary scraping of boots,
-he whispered in Patience’s ear, “For God’s sake speak—and
-a good long one. You must have something to
-say; and it’s your last chance on earth.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“I have nothing to say,” she replied, her brain closed
-to all impressions but one. “Can’t you see that I need
-all my strength? If you have any mercy in you put
-me in that chair and have done with it.”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Oh, you are not the kind to break down—my
-God!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The silence of the prison, the hush without the walls,
-was pierced by a single shriek, a shriek which seemed
-shot from earth to heaven, a mighty shriek of furious
-warning.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Every man in the room jumped. The newspaper
-men drew their breath with a hard sound. Only
-Patience gave no heed.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“It’s an engine,” stuttered the head-keeper, “and
-there’s no train due at this hour—”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The outer door was flung violently open. The warden
-stamped heavily into the room. His face was
-purple.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Why in hell hasn’t this execution taken place?”
-he roared. “Get to work!”</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The head-keeper’s face turned very white. His hand
-shook a little. The men stared at him with jumping
-nerves. Patience and the warden were the only persons
-in the room unaffected by the inexplicable excitement
-which had taken possession of the atmosphere.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>“Get to work,” repeated the warden.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Patience walked to the chair and seated herself, extending
-her arms in position. Once more her brain
-relaxed its grasp on every thought but the determination
-not to scream nor quiver. She closed her eyes and set
-her teeth.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The guards began to fasten the straps, but slowly,
-under the significant eyes of the head-keeper. The
-warden stamped up and down. The electrician came
-forward. The surgeon went into an adjoining room
-and cast his eyes over his instruments, laid out on a
-long table.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The brain works eccentrically in such moments.
-Patience’s suddenly flung upon her consciousness a
-picture of Carmel tower. She speculated upon the
-fate of her owl. She recalled that the Mission had
-been restored, and wondered if Solomon, that proud
-and elderly hermit, had turned his haughty back upon
-civilisation to dwell alone in the black arbours of the
-remote pine tops of the forest. She saw the spray toss
-itself into scattering wraiths, as when she had knelt
-there—a thousand years ago—a little lonely girl in
-copper-toed boots, dreaming dreams that were pricked
-with no premonition of life’s tragic horrors.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She frowned suddenly, recalling her long-lived determination
-to take life as a spectacular drama. Life had
-gotten the best of her! Assuredly there was nothing
-impersonal about this ignominious and possibly excruciating
-death. The thought banished Carmel tower.
-Her mind was a sudden blaze of light—white light she
-thought with a stifled shrink—in which every detail of
-the room was sharply accentuated. She opened her
-eyes, but only a trifle, lest these men see the horror in
-them. Her blood was curdling, but she knew that she
-was making no sign.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her sensitised mind received the immediate impression
-that the atmosphere of the room was vibrating with
-excitement. She saw the head-keeper’s neck crane, his
-furtive glance at the outer door. He expected some
-one. Bourke!</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She set her teeth. She had believed up to last night
-that he would save her. Why had she doubted him for
-an instant? She understood now the diplomacy of the
-head-keeper. Why had she not spoken when he had
-implored her?</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>It seemed to her that the men fastening the straps
-were racing each other. She wanted to whisper to
-them to lag, but pride stayed her tongue.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The warden was striding about and swearing. The
-electricians and surgeons were whispering in a group.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She looked at the newspaper men. She met their
-gaze of excited sympathy, understood at last the spirit
-that animated them, and bowed her head. She dared
-not speak.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>But in a moment indignation routed gratitude. Why
-did they not rescue her, these young vigorous men!
-They knew her to be innocent. They outmatched in
-number the guards. Where was their manhood?
-What had become of all the old traditions? Then her
-anger left as suddenly as it had come. They were not
-knights with battle axes, but the most exaggerated
-product of modern civilisation. It was almost a miracle
-that they passionately wished to save her.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Her head was drawn gently back, her eyes covered.
-Something leapt and fought within her. Horror tore at
-her vitals, snarling like a wolf-hound. But once more
-her will rose supreme. Then, as she realised that her
-last moment had come, she became possessed by one
-mighty desire, to compel her imagination to give her
-the phantasm, the voice, the touch of her lover.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The wrench with which she accomplished her object
-was so violent, the mental concentration so overmastering,
-that all other consciousness was extinguished.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Suddenly her ears were pierced by a din which
-made her muscles leap against the straps. Was she in
-hell, and was this her greeting? She felt a second’s
-thankfulness that death had been painless.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then, out of the babel of sound she distinguished
-words which made her sit erect and open her eyes, her
-pulses bound, her blood leap, hot and stinging, her
-whole being rebound with gladness of life.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>The cap had been removed, the men were unbuckling
-the straps. The head-keeper had flung his cap on the
-floor and run his hands through his hair until it stood
-up straight. Round her chair the newspaper men
-were pressing, shouting and cheering, trying to get at
-her hand to shake it.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>She smiled and held out her hand, but dared not
-speak to them. Pride still lived, and she was afraid
-that she should cry.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>Then she forgot them. A sudden parting in the
-ranks showed her the open door. At the same moment
-the men stopped shouting. Bourke had entered. He
-had followed the guard mechanically, neither hoping
-nor fearing until the far-reaching cheers sent the blood
-springing through his veins once more.</p>
-
-<p class='pindent'>He was neither clean nor picturesque, but Patience
-saw only his eyes. He walked forward rapidly, and
-lifting her in his arms carried her from the room.</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
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