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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4916.txt b/4916.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..efd6564 --- /dev/null +++ b/4916.txt @@ -0,0 +1,4430 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Undertow, by Kathleen Norris + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Undertow + +Author: Kathleen Norris + +Posting Date: June 4, 2012 [EBook #4916] +Release Date: January, 2004 +First Posted: March 26, 2002 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK UNDERTOW *** + + + + +Produced by Charles Franks and the Online Distributed Proofreading Team. + + + + + + + + + +THE WORKS OF KATHLEEN NORRIS + + +UNDERTOW + + +VOLUME VII + + + + + + +To + +MARGARET THOMAS + +We need no gifts, whose thoughts and prayers maintain Through all the +years a strong and stronger chain, Yet take the little gift, the +visible sign Of the deep love between your heart and mine. + + + + + +UNDERTOW + + + +Chapter One + + +The marriage of Albert Bradley and Anne Polk Barrett was as close as +anything comes, in these prosaic days, to a high adventure. Nancy's +Uncle Thomas, a quiet, gentle old Southerner who wore tan linen suits +when he came to New York, which was not often, and Bert's mother, a +tiny Boston woman who had lived in a diminutive Brookline apartment +since her three sons had struck out into the world for themselves, +respectively assured the young persons that they were taking a grave +chance. However different their viewpoint of life, old Mrs. Bradley and +old Mr. Polk could agree heartily in that. + +Of course there was much to commend the union. Nancy was beautiful, she +came of gentlefolk, and she liked to assert that she was practical, she +"had been a workin' woman for yeahs." This statement had reference to a +comfortable and informal position she held with a private association +for the relief of the poor. Nancy was paid fifteen dollars a week, +seven of which she in turn paid to the pretty young widow, an old +family friend only a few years older than herself, with whom she +boarded. Mrs. Terhune was rich, in a modest way, and frequently refused +the money entirely. But she took it often enough to make the blooming +Nancy feel quite self-supporting, and as Nancy duly reported at the +sunshiny office of the Southern Ladies' Helping Hand every morning, or +almost every morning, the girl had some reason to feel that she had +solved her financial and domestic problem. + +Bert was handsome, too, and his mother knew everybody who was any body +in Boston. If Nancy's grandfather Polk had been Chief Justice of the +Supreme Court of Maryland, why, Bert was the seventh of his name in +direct descent, and it was in Bert's great-great-grandfather's home +that several prominent citizens of Boston had assumed feathers and +warpaint for a celebrated tea-party a great many years ago. + +More than that, Bert was at a sensible age for matrimony, twenty-five, +and Nancy, like all southern girls, had ripened early, and at +twenty-two had several years of dancing and flirting behind her. There +was nothing impulsive about the affair. The two had trotted about their +adopted city for perhaps two years before Bert brought Nancy the +enormous diamond that his mother had given him years ago for just this +wonderful time. Circumstances had helped them to know each other well. +Nancy knew the sort of play that made Bert stutter with enthusiasm as +they walked home, and Bert knew that Nancy made adorable little faces +when she tried on hats, and that her salary was fifteen dollars a week. +At this time, and for some years later, Bert was only one of several +renting agents employed by the firm of Pearsall and Pearsall, City Real +Estate. He moved his office from one new office-building downtown to +another, sometimes warmed by clanking new radiators, sometimes carrying +a gasoline stove with him into the region of new plaster and paint. His +name was not important enough to be included in the list of tenants in +the vestibule, he was merely "Renting Office, Tenth Floor." And Nancy +knew that when he had been a few months longer with Pearsall and +Pearsall, they would pay him exactly thirteen hundred dollars a year. + +That was the objection, money. Mother and Uncle Tom thought that that +was not enough; Nancy and Bert worked it all out on paper, and thought +it more than sufficient. They always had a splendid balance, on paper. +Meanwhile, Mrs. Terhune went on refusing Nancy's board now and then, +and slipping bank-notes into Nancy's purse now and then, and Bert +continued to board with the southern gentlewomen to whom he had paid +ten dollars a week for three years. He felt like a son in the Venables' +house, by this time. + +It was at the Venables' boarding-house, indeed, that he first had met +the dark-eyed and vivacious Nancy, who was intimate with the faded +daughters of the family, Miss Augusta and Miss Sally Anne. When Nancy's +Uncle Thomas came to the city for one of his infrequent visits, she +always placed him in Mrs. Venable's care. + +Bert's first impression of her was of a supernaturally clever person, +hopelessly surrounded by "beaux." She had so many admirers that even +Miss Augusta, who had had a disappointment, warmed into half-forgotten +coquetries while she amused Bert, for whom Miss Nancy had no time. They +seemed to Bert, whose youth had known responsibility and hardship, a +marvellously happy and light-hearted crowd. They laughed continuously, +and they extracted from the chameleon city pleasures that were +wonderfully innocent and fresh. It was as if these young exiles had +brought from their southern homes something of leisure, something of +spaciousness and pure sweetness that the more sophisticated youth of +the city lacked. Their very speech, softly slurred and lazy, held a +charm for Bert, used to his mother's and his aunts' crisp consonants. +He called Nancy "my little southern girl" in his heart, from the hour +he met her, and long afterward he told her that he had loved her all +that time. + +He could not free the cramped muscles of his spirit to meet her quite +on her own ground; it was his fate sometimes to reach the laugh just as +all the others grew suddenly serious, and as often he took their airy +interest heavily, and chained them with facts, from which they +fluttered like a flight of butterflies. But he had his own claim, and +it warmed the very fibres of his lonely heart when he saw that Nancy +was beginning to recognize that claim. + +When they all went out to the theatre and supper, it was his +pocket-book that never failed them. And what a night that was when, +eagerly proffering the fresh bills to Lee Porter, who was giving the +party, he looked up to catch a look of protest, and shame, and +gratitude, in Nancy's lovely eyes! + +"No, now, Lee, you shall not take it!" she laughed richly. Bert thought +for a second that this was more than mere persiflage, for the +expression on the girl's face was new. Later he reminded himself that +they all used curious forms of speech. "I just was too tired to get up +this morning," a girl who had actually gotten up would say, or someone +would comment upon a late train: "The old train actually never did get +here!" + +After a while he took Nancy to lunch once or twice, and one day took +her to the Plaza, where his mother happened to be staying with Cousin +Mary Winthrop and Cousin Anna Baldwin, and his mother said that Nancy +was a sweet, lovely girl. Bert had quite a thrill when he saw the +familiar, beautiful face turned seriously and with pretty concern +toward his mother, and he liked Nancy's composure among the rather +formal older women. She managed her tea and her gloves and her +attentions prettily, thought Bert. When he took her home at six o'clock +he was conscious that he had passed an invisible barrier in their +relationship; she knew his mother. They were of one breed. + +But that night, when he went back to the hotel to dine, his mother drew +him aside. + +"Not serious, dear--between you and Miss Barrett, I mean?" + +Bert laughed in pleasant confusion. + +"Well, I--of course I admire her awfully. Everyone does. But I don't +know that I'd have a chance with her." Suddenly and unbidden there +leaped into his heart the glorious thought of possessing Nancy. +Nancy--his wife, making a home and a life for unworthy him! He flushed +deeply. His mother caught the abashed murmur, "...thirteen hundred a +year!" + +"Exactly!" she said incisively, almost triumphantly. But her eyes, +closely watching his expression, were anxious. "I don't believe in +having things made too easy for young persons," she added, smiling. +"But that--that really is too hard." + +"Yep. That's too hard," Bert agreed. + +"It isn't fair to the girl to ask it," added his mother gently. + +"That's true," Bert said a little heavily, after a pause. "It isn't +fair--to Nancy." + +The next night Nancy wondered why his manner was so changed, and why he +spoke so bitterly of his work, and what was the matter with him anyway. +She reflected that perhaps he was sorry his mother's visit was over. +For two or three weeks he seemed restless and discontented, and equally +unwilling to be included in the "Dutch treats," or to be left out of +them. And then suddenly the bad mood passed, and Bert was his kind and +appreciative and generous self again. Clark Belknap, also of Maryland, +who had plenty of money and a charming personality and manner as well, +began to show the familiar symptoms toward Nancy, and Bert told himself +that Clark would be an admirable match for her. Also his Cousin Mary +wrote him that his second cousin Dorothy Hayes Hamilton was going to be +in New York for a few weeks, and asked him to take her about a little, +and see that she had a nice time. Cousin Mary, as was usual, enclosed a +generous check to insure the nice time, and little Dorothy proved to be +a very rose of a girl, just as unspoiled as if her fortune had been +half a dollar instead of half a million and full of pride in her big +cousin, whose Harvard record she evidently knew by heart. + +Bert willingly took her about, and they became good friends. He did not +see much of Nancy now, and one of the times he did see her was +unfortunate. He and Dorothy had been having tea at a roof-garden, after +a long delightful day in Dorothy's car, and now he was to take her to +her hotel. Just as he was holding the little pongee wrap, and Dorothy +was laughing up at him from under the roses on her hat, he saw Nancy, +going out between two older women. His look just missed hers; he knew +she had seen him; had perhaps been watching him, but he could not catch +her eye again. + +It was a hot night, and Nancy looked a little pale and, although as +trim and neat as usual, a little shabby. Her pretty hands in old gloves +she had washed herself, her pretty eyes patiently fixed upon the faces +of the women who were boring her in her youth and freshness with the +business of sickness and poverty, her whole gentle, rather weary +aspect, smote Bert's heart with a pain that was half a fierce joy. +Never had he loved her in her gaiety and her indifference as he loved +her now, when she looked so sweetly, so almost sorrowfully. + +A week later he went to see her. + +"Well, Mister Bert Bradley," she smiled at him, unfastening the string +from the great box of roses that had simultaneously arrived from some +other admirer, "I didn't know what to make of you! And who was the +more-than-pretty little girl that you were squiring on the Waldorf roof +last week?" + +"Just my cousin, Dorothy Hamilton. She went back to Boston to-day. +She's finished school, and had a year abroad, and now she isn't quite +sure what she wants to do. How's Mr. Belknap?" + +She narrowed her eyes at him mischievously. + +"Don't you think you're smart! These are from him. He's very well. He +took me to the theatre last night, and we had a wonderful time. Come +with me into the kitchen, while I put these in water." + +"Take good care of them!" Bert said witheringly. But she only laughed +at him from the sink. He followed her into the small, hot, neat +kitchen, with the clean empty pint bottle and the quarter-pint bottle +turned upside down near the bright faucets, and the enamel handles of +the gas stove all turned out in an even row. Bert remembered that the +last time he had been here was a cold May morning, when he and Nancy +had made countless hot cakes. He had met her at church, and walked home +with her, and while they were luxuriously finishing the last of the hot +cakes the others had burst in, with the usual harum-scarum plans for +the day. But that was May, and now it was July, and somehow the bloom +seemed to be gone from their relationship. + +They talked pleasantly, and after awhile Mrs. Terhune came in and +talked, too. She was distressed about some shares she held in a +traction company and Bert was able to be of real service to her, taking +a careful memorandum, and promising to see her about it in a day. "For +I expect we'll see you round here in a day or two," she said with +simple archness. She was well used to the demands of Nancy's beaux. +Nancy looked particularly innocent and expectant at this, "Perhaps Mr. +Bradley might come in and cheer you up, if I go off with Mrs. +Featherstone for the week-end?" she suggested pleasantly. Mrs. +Featherstone had been Virginia Belknap. + +Bert presently bade her a cold good-bye. His reassurance to Mrs. +Terhune was made the next day by telephone, and life became dark and +dull to him. Certain things hurt him strangely--the sight of places +where she had taken off the shabby gloves; and had seated herself +happily opposite him for luncheon or tea; the sound of music she had +hummed. He wanted to see her--not feverishly, nothing extreme, except +that he wanted it every second of the time. A mild current of wanting +to see Nancy underran all his days; he could control it, he decided, +and to an extent he did. He ate and worked and even slept in spite of +it. But it was always there, and it tired him, and made him feel old +and sad. + +And then they met; Bert idling through the September sweetness and +softness and goldness of the park, Nancy briskly taking her +business-like way from West Eightieth to East Seventy-second Street. +What Nancy experienced in the next hour Bert could only guess, he knew +that she was glad to see him, and that for some reason she was entirely +off guard. For himself, he was like a thirsty animal that reaches +trees, and shade, and the wide dimpling surface of clear waters. He had +so often imagined meeting her, and had so longed to meet her, that he +was actually a little confused, and wanted shakily to laugh, and to +cling to her. + +He walked to Seventy-second Street, with her and then to tea at a tiny +place in Madison Avenue called the Prince Royal. And she settled +herself opposite him, just as in his dreams--only so much more +sweetly--and smiled at him from her dear faithful blue eyes, as she +laid aside her gloves. + +She was wearing a large diamond, surrounded by topazes. Bert knew that +he had never seen this ring before, although it did not look like a new +one. However, the age of the ring signified nothing. He wondered if +Clark Belknap's mother had ever worn it, and if Clark had just given it +to Nancy... + +She was full of heavenly interest and friendliness. But when they were +walking home she told him that she was so sorry--she couldn't ask him +to dine, because she was going out. She asked him for the next day, but +his board of directors was having a monthly meeting that night, and he +had to be there. How about Saturday? + +Saturday she was going out of town, a special meeting of the Red Cross. +They hung there. Nancy was perhaps ashamed to go on through the list of +days, Bert would not ungenerously force her. He left her, thrilled and +yet dissatisfied. He looked back almost with envy to his state of a few +hours earlier, when he had been hoping that he might meet her. + + + + +Chapter Two + + +The week dragged by. The undercurrent of longing to see Nancy flowed on +and on. Bert wanted nothing else--just Nancy. He had been spending the +summer with a friend, at the friend's uptown house, but now he thought +he would go out to the Venables, and show some interest in his +newly-papered room and hear them speak of her. + +He rang their bell with a thumping heart. It was four o'clock in the +afternoon. She might even be here! Or they might tell him she was +engaged to Clark Belknap of Maryland. ... Bert felt so sick at the +thought that it seemed a fact. He wanted to run away. + +Miss Augusta, red-eyed, opened the door. Beyond her he was somehow +vaguely aware of darkness, and weeping, and the subdued rustling of +gowns. Po' Nancy Barrett was here--he knew that? Well, didn't he know +that the dea' old Colonel had passed away suddenly--Miss Augusta's +tears flowed afresh. Nancy had come in unexpectedly to lunch, and the +telegram from her aunt had come while she was there. "Tell Nancy +Brother Edward passed on at five o'clock. Come home at once." + +Bert listened dazedly, in the shabby old parlour with the scrolled +flowery carpet, and the statues, and the square piano. He comforted +Miss Augusta, he even put one arm about her. Was there something he +could do?--he asked the forlorn, empty question merely as a matter of +course. + +"I don't suppose yo' could send some telegrams..." Miss Augusta said, +blowing her nose damply. "Po' child, she hasn't got a brother, nor +anyone to depend on now in the hour of her bitteh need!" + +Bert's heart leaped. + +"Just tell me!" he begged. "And what about trains, and arrangements? +Will she go down? And clothes?--would she need something--" + +This last item had been attended. Mama and Sis' Sally Anne had gone +down town, po' child, she didn't want much. And yes, she was going +down, to-morrow--that night, if it could be managed. + +"But Nancy herself had better see yo'," Miss Augusta said disappearing. +Bert waited, his heart thundering. Murmuring and tears came from some +remote region. Then quietly and slowly Nancy, in new black, came in. +And Bert knew that to the end of the world, as long as he should +breathe, life would mean Nancy's life to him; and the world was only +Nancy. + +They sat down on the slippery horsehair, and talked softly and quickly. +Ticket--train--telegrams--the little money that was necessary--he +advised her about them all. He called her "Nancy" to-day, for the first +time. He remembered afterward that she had called him nothing. She went +to get Mrs. Venable, after a while, and later Sis' Sally Anne drew him +aside and told him to make Nancy drink her good hot tea. She drank it, +at his command. Clark Belknap came that evening; others came--all too +late. Before the first of them, Bert had taken her to the train, had +made her as comfortable as he could, had sat beside her, with her soft +gloved hand tight in his, murmuring to her that she had so much to be +thankful for--no pain, no illness, no real age. But she had left him, +she said, her lip trembling and her eyes brimming again. He reminded +her of her pretty, dependent step-mother, of the two little +half-brothers who were just waiting for Nancy to come and straighten +everything out. + +"Yes--I've got to keep up for them!" she said, smiling bravely. And in +a tense undertone she added, "You're wonderful to me!" + +"And will you have some supper--just to break the evening?" + +"I had tea." She leaned back, and shut her eyes. "I couldn't--eat!" she +whispered pitifully. His response was to put his clean, folded +handkerchief into her hand, and at that she opened the wet eyes, and +smiled at him shakily. + +"Just some soup--or a salad," he urged. "Will you promise me, Nancy?" + +"I promise you I'll try," she said in parting. + +Walking home with his head in a whirl, Bert said to himself: "This is +the second of October. I'll give her six months. On the second of April +I'll ask her." + +However, he asked her on Christmas night, after the Venables' wonderful +Christmas dinner, when they all talked of the Civil War as if it were +yesterday, and when old laces, old jet and coral jewelry, and frail old +silk gowns were much in evidence. They were sitting about the coal fire +in the back drawing-room, when Nancy and Bert chanced to be alone. Mrs. +Venables had gone to brew some punch, with Sis' Sally Anne's help. The +other young men of the party were assisting them, Augusta had gone to +the telephone. + +Bert always remembered the hour. The room was warm, fragrant of spicy +evergreen. There was a Rogers group on the marble mantle, and two +Dresden china candlesticks that reflected themselves in the watery +dimness of the mirror above. Nancy, slender and exquisite, was in +unrelieved, lacy black; her hair was as softly black as her gown. Her +white hands were locked in her lap. Something had reminded her of old +Christmases, and she had told Bert of running in to her mother's room, +early in the chilly morning, to shout "Christmas Gift!" + +Not moving his sympathetic eyes from her Checking Page back In, Please +Wait ... to town again, and his own pleasure in their visit was talking +of Nancy; how wise, how sweet, how infinitely desirable she was. +Dorothy had wanted Cousin Albert to come to her for Thanksgiving. No, a +thousand thanks--but Miss Barrett was so much alone now. He must be +near her. Dorothy kept her thoughts on the subject to herself, but he +so far impressed his mother that her own hopes came to be his, she +dreaded the thought of what might happen to her boy if that southern +girl did not chance to care for him. + +But the southern girl cared. She locked the lace-clad arms about his +neck, on this memorable Christmas night and laid her cheek against his. +"Are you sure you want me, Bert?" she whispered. + +They had not much altered their positions when Mrs. Venables came back +half an hour later, and a general time of kissing, crying and laughing +began. + + + + +Chapter Three + + +It was a happy time, untroubled by the thought of money that was soon +to be so important. Bert's various aunts and cousins sent him checks, +and Nancy's stepmother sent her all her own mother's linen and silver, +and odd pieces of mahogany on which the freight charges were frightful, +and laces and an oil portrait or two. The trousseau was helped from all +sides, every week had its miracle; and the hats, and the embroidered +whiteness, and the smart street suit and the adorable kitchen ginghams +accumulated as if by magic. Bert's mother sent delightfully monogrammed +bed and table-linen, almost weekly. Nancy said it was preposterous for +poor people to start in with such priceless possessions! + +Among the happy necessities of the time was the finding of a proper +apartment. Nancy and Bert spent delightful Saturdays and Sundays +wandering in quest of it; beginning half-seriously in February, when it +seemed far too early to consider this detail, and continuing with +augmented earnestness through the three succeeding months. Eventually +they got both tired and discouraged, and felt dashed in the very +opening of their new life, but finally the place was found, and they +loved it instantly, and leased it without delay. It was in a new +apartment house, in East Eleventh Street, four shiny and tiny rooms, on +a fourth floor. Everything was almost too compact and convenient, Nancy +thought; the ice box, gas stove, dumb-waiter, hanging light over the +dining table, clothes line, and garbage chute, were already in place. +It left an ambitious housekeeper small margin for original arrangement, +but of course it did save money and time. The building was of pretty +cream brick, clean and fresh, the street wide, and lined with dignified +old brownstone houses, and the location perfect. She smothered a dream +of wide old-fashioned rooms, quaintly furnished in chintzes and white +paint. They had found no such enchanting places, except at exorbitant +rents. Seventy-five dollars, or one hundred dollars, were asked for the +simplest of them, and the plumbing facilities, and often the janitor +service, were of the poorest. So Nancy abandoned the dream, and +enthusiastically accepted the East Eleventh Street substitute, Bert +becoming a tenant in the "George Eliot," at a rental of thirty-five +dollars a month. Some of the old Barrett furniture was too large for +the place, but what she could use Nancy arranged with exquisite taste: +fairly dancing with pleasure over the sitting room, where her chair and +Bert's were in place, and the little droplight lighted on the little +table. In this room they were going to read Dickens out loud, on winter +nights. + +They were married on a hot April morning, a morning whose every second +seemed to Nancy flooded with strange perfumes, and lighted with +unearthly light. The sky was cloudless; the park bowered in fresh +green; the streets, under new shadows, clean-swept and warm. Her gown +was perfection, her new wide hat the most becoming she had ever worn; +the girls, in their new gowns and hats, seemed so near and dear to her +to-day. She was hardly conscious of Bert, but she remembered liking his +big brother, who kissed her in so brotherly a fashion. Winter was over, +the snow was gone at last, the trying and depressing rains and the cold +were gone, too, and she and Bert were man and wife, and off to Boston +for their honeymoon. + + + + +Chapter Four + + +They had been married eleven days, and were loitering over a Sunday +luncheon in their tiny home, when they first seriously discussed +finances; not theoretical finances, but finances as bounded on one side +by Bert's worn, brown leather pocket-book, and on the other by his +bank-book, with its confusing entries in black and red ink. + +Here on the table were seventeen dollars and eighty cents. Nancy had +flattened the bills, and arranged the silver in piles, as they talked. +This was Sunday; Bert would be paid on Saturday next. Could Nancy +manage on that? + +Nancy felt a vague alarm. But she had been a wage earner herself. She +rose to the situation at once. + +"Manage what, Bert? If you mean just meals, of course I can! But I +won't have this much every week for meals ...?" + +Bert took out a fountain pen, and reached for a blank envelope. + +"Do you mind working it out?--I think it's such fun!" + +"I love it!" Nancy brought her brightest face to the problem. "Now +let's see--what have we? Exactly one hundred a month." + +"Thirteen hundred a year," he corrected. + +"Yes, but let's not count that extra hundred, Bee!" Nancy, like all +women, had given her new husband a new name. "Let's save that and have +it to blow in, all in a heap, for something special?" + +"All right." Bert digressed long enough to catch the white hand and +kiss it, and say: "Isn't it wonderful--our sitting here planning things +together? Aren't we going to have FUN!" + +"Rent, thirty-five," Nancy began, after an interlude. Bert, who had +secured a large sheet of clean paper, made a neat entry, "Rent, $35." + +"You make such nice, firm figures, mine are always wavy!" observed +Nancy irrelevantly, at this. This led nowhere. + +"Now one quarter of that rent ought to come out every week," Bert +submitted presently. "Eight dollars and a half must be put aside every +week." + +"Out of this, too?" Nancy asked, touching the money on the table. + +"Well, that's all that's left of half my salary, drawn in advance," +Bert said, pondering. "Yes, you see--we pay a month in advance on the +first!" + +"And what have we besides this, Bee? Your Aunt Mary's check, and--and +what else?" + +"Aunt Mary's hundred, which will certainly take care of the freight +bills," Bert calculated, "and that's all, except this." + +"But, Bert--but, Bert--all that money we had in Boston?" + +Bert pointed to the table. + +"You behold the remainder." + +"Weren't we the extravagant wretches!" mused Nancy. +"Taxis--tea-parties--breakfast upstairs--silly pink silk stockings for +Nancy, a silly pongee vest for Bert--" + +"But oh, what a grand time!" her husband finished unrepentantly. + +"Wasn't it!" Nancy agreed dreamily. But immediately she was +businesslike again. "However, the lean years have set in," she +announced. "I'll have to count on a dollar a week laundry--laundry and +rent nine dollars and a half; piano and telephone at the rate of three +dollars a month--that's a dollar and a half more; milk, a quart of milk +and half a pint of cream a day, a dollar and seventy-five cents more; +what does that leave, Bert?" + +"It leaves twelve dollars and twenty-five cents," said Bert. + +"But what about your lunches, dearest?" + +"Gosh! I forgot them," Bert stated frankly. "I'll keep 'em under +fifteen cents a day," he added, "call it a dollar a week!" + +"You can't!" protested Nancy, with a look of despair. + +"I can if I've got to. Besides, we'll be off places, Sundays, and I'll +come home for lunch Saturday, and you'll feed me up." + +"But, Bert," she began again presently, "I'll have to get ice, and car +fares, and drugs, and soap, and thread, and butter, and bread, and +meat, and salad-oil, and everything else in the world out of that +eleven-fifty!" Bert was frowning hard. + +"You can't have the whole eleven-fifty," he told her reluctantly, "I +can walk one way, to Forty-Eighth Street, but I can't walk both. I'll +have to have some car fare. And my office suit has got to be pressed +about once every two weeks--" + +"And newspapers!" added Nancy, dolefully. "Seven cents more!" And they +both burst into laughter. "But, Bee," she said presently, ruffling his +hair, as she sat on the arm of his chair, "really I do not know what we +will do in case of dentist's bills, or illness, or when our clothes +wear out. What do people do? Is thirty-five too much rent, or what?" + +"I'm darned if I know what they do!" Bert mused. + + + + +Chapter Five + + +They both were destined to learn how it was managed, and being young +and healthy and in love, they learned easily, and with much laughter +and delight. Bert's share was perhaps the easier, for although he +manfully walked to his office, polished his own shoes, and ate a +tiresome and unsatisfying lunch five days a week, he had his reward on +the sixth and seventh days, when Nancy petted and praised him. + +Her part was harder. She never knew what it was to be free from +financial concern. She fretted and contrived until the misspending of +five cents seemed a genuine calamity to her, She walked to cheap +markets, and endured the casual scorn of cheap clerks. She ironed +Bert's ties and pressed his trousers, saving car fares by walking, +saving hospitality by letting her old friends see how busy and absorbed +she was, saving food by her native skill and ingenuity. + +But they lived royally, every meal was a triumph, every hour strangely +bright. Of cooking meat, especially the more choice cuts, Nancy did +little this year, but there was no appetizing combination of +vegetables, soups, salads, hot breads, and iced drinks that she did not +try. Bert said, and he meant it, that he had never lived so well in his +life, and certainly the walls of the little apartment in the "George +Eliot" were packed with joy. When their microscopic accounts balanced +at the end of the week, they celebrated with a table-d'hote dinner down +town--dinners from which they walked home gloriously happy, Nancy +wondering over and over again HOW the restaurateurs could manage it, +Bert, over his cigar, estimating carefully: "Well, Sweet, there wasn't +much cost to that soup, delicious as it was, and I suppose they buy +that sole down at the docks, in the early morning..." + +When Nancy had learned that she could live without a telephone, and had +cut down the milk bill, and limited Bert to one butter ball per meal, +she found she could manage easily. In August they gave two or three +dinners, and Nancy displayed her pretty table furnishings to "the +girls," and gave them the secret of her iced tea. She told her husband +that they got along because he was "so wonderful"; she felt that no +financial tangle could resist Bert's neatly pencilled little +calculations, but Bert praised only her--what credit to him that he did +not complain, when he was the most fortunate man in the world? + +They came to be proud of their achievement. Nancy had Buckley Pearsall, +Bert's chief, and his wife, to dinner, and kindly Mrs. Pearsall could +not enough praise the bride and her management. Later the Pearsalls +asked the young Bradleys down to their Staten Island home for a +week-end. "And think of the pure gain of not buying a thing for three +days!" exulted Nancy, thereby convulsing her lord. She brought back +late corn, two jars of Mrs. Pearsall's preserved peaches, a great box +of grapes to be made into jelly, and a basket of tomatoes. Bert said +that she was a grafter, but he knew as well as she that Nancy's +pleasure in taking the gifts had given Mrs. Pearsall a genuine joy. + +With none of the emergencies they had dreaded, and with many and +unexpected pleasures, the first winter went by. Sometimes Bert got a +theatre pass, sometimes old friends or kinspeople came to town, and +Bert and Nancy went to one of the big hotels to dinner, and stared +radiantly about at the bright lights, and listened to music again, and +were whirled home in a taxicab. + +"That party cost your Cousin Edith about twenty-five dollars," Nancy, +rolling up her hair-net thoughtfully, would say late at night, with a +suppressed yawn. "The dinner check was fourteen, and the tickets +eight--it cost her more than twenty-five dollars! Doesn't that seem +wicked, Bert? And all that delicious chicken that we hardly +touched--dear me, what fun I could have with twenty-five dollars! There +are so many things I'd like to buy that I never do; just silly things, +you know--nice soaps and powders, and fancy cheeses and an alligator +pear, and the kind of toilet water you love so--don't you remember you +bought it in Boston when we honeymooned?" + +Perhaps a shadow would touch Bert's watching face, and he would come to +put an arm about her and her loosened cloud of hair. + +"Poor old girl, it isn't much fun for you! Do you get tired of it, +Nancy?" + +"Bert," she said, one night in a mood of gravity and confidence that he +loved, and had learned to watch for, "I never get tired. And sometimes +I feel sure that the most wonderful happiness that ever is felt in this +world comes to two people who love each other, and who have to make +sacrifices for each other! I mean that. I mean that I don't think +riches, or travel, or great gifts and achievements bring a greater +happiness than ours. I think a king, dying," smiled Nancy, trying not +to be too serious, "might wish that, for a while at least, he had been +able to wear shabby shoes for the woman he loved, and had had years of +poking about a great city with her, and talking and laughing and +experimenting and working over their problem together!" + +Bert kissed the thoughtful eyes, but did not speak. + +"But just the same," Nancy presently went on, "sometimes I do get--just +a little frightened. I feel as if perhaps we had been a little too +brave. When your cousins, and mine, ask us how we do it, and make so +much of it, it makes me feel a little uneasy. Suppose we really aren't +able to swing it ...?" + +Bert knew how to meet this mood, and he never failed her. He put his +arm about her, tonight, and gave her his sunniest smile. + +"We could pay less rent, dear." + +This fired Nancy. Of course they could. She had seen really possible +places, in inaccessible neighbourhoods, which rented far more +reasonably. She had seen quite sunny and clean flats for as little as +fourteen and sixteen dollars a month. Her housekeeping abilities +awakened to the demand. What did she and Bert care about neighbourhoods +and the casual dictates of fashion? They were a world in themselves, +and they needed no other company. + +"Everyone said that we'd never get this far," Bert reminded her +hearteningly. She was immediately reassured, and fell to enthusiastic +planning for Christmas. + + + + +Chapter Six + + +It was their first Christmas, and they spent it alone together. Bert +and Nancy knew that they would not spend another Christmas alone, and +the shadowy hope for April lent a new tone even to their gayety, and +deepened the exquisite happiness of the dark, snowbound day. The tiny +house was full of laughter, for Bert had given his wife all the little +things she had from time to time whimsically desired. The fancy +cheeses, and the perfumes and soaps, made her laugh and laugh as she +unwrapped them. There were fuzzy wash-cloths--a particular fancy of +hers--and new library paste and new hair-pins, and a can-opener that +made her exclaim: "Bert, that was cute of you!" and even an alligator +pear. A bewildered look came into Nancy's eyes as she went on +investigating her bulging stocking--gloves, and silk hosiery, and new +little enamelled pins for her collars, and the piano score of the opera +she so loved--where had the money come from? + +"My firm gave us each ten," Bert explained, grinning. + +"And you spent it ALL on me!" Nancy said, stricken. "You poked about +and got me every blessed thing I ever wanted in this world--you +darling!" + +"Why not?" he asked. "You're the only thing I have, Nance! And such +LITTLE things, dear." + +"It isn't the things--it's your thinking of them," Nancy said. "And +eating wretched lunches while you planned them! You make me cry--and +meanwhile, my beloved little chicken will roast himself dry!" + +She rushed into her kitchen. Bert rushed after her; his days at home +were a succession of interruptions for Nancy, no topic was too +insignificant for their earnest discussion, and no pleasure too small +to share. To-day the chief object of their interest was his mother's +Christmas present to him, a check for fifty dollars, "for my boy's +winter coat." + +They looked at the slip of paper at regular intervals. To Bert it +brought a pleasant thought of the thin, veiny hand that had penned it, +the little silk-clad form and trimly netted gray hair. He remembered +his mother's tiny sitting room, full of begonias and winter sunshine +and photographs of the family, with a feeling that while mother could +never again know rapturous happiness like his own, yet it was good to +think of her as content and comfortable, with her tissue-wrapped +presents from the three daughters-in-law lying on her table. + +But to Nancy the check meant the future only: it meant her handsome +Bert dressed at last in suitable fashion, in a "big, fuzzy, hairy +coat." She pointed out various men's coats in the windows they passed +that afternoon, and on the other young men who were walking with wives +and babies. + +But Bert had his own ideas. When Nancy met him down town a day or two +later, to go pick the coat, she found him quite unmanageable. He said +that there was no hurry about the coat--they were right here in the +housekeeping things, why not look at fireless cookers? In the end they +bought an ice-cream freezer, and a fireless cooker, and two pairs of +arctic overshoes, and an enormous oval-shaped basket upon which the +blushing Nancy dropped a surreptitious kiss when the saleswoman was not +looking, and a warm blue sweater for Nancy, and, quite incidentally, an +eighteen-dollar overcoat for Bert. + +Nancy's lip trembled over this last purchase. They were nice overcoats, +remarkable for the price, indeed--"marked down from twenty-five." +But--but she had wanted him to spend every cent of the fifty dollars +for a STUNNING coat! Bert laughed at her April face. He took her +triumphantly to the fifty-cent luncheon and they talked over it for a +blissful hour. And when she left him at the office door, Nancy consoled +herself by drifting into one of the near-by second-hand bookshops, and +buying him a tiny Keats, "Pepy's Diary" somewhat shabby as to cover, +and George's "Progress and Poverty," at ten cents apiece. These books +were piled at Bert's place that night, and gave him almost as much +pleasure as the overcoat did. + +And even Nancy had to confess that the disputed garment looked warm and +thick, when it came home in its green box, and that it was "fun" to +open the other packages, and find the sweater, looking so wooly and +comfortable, and the big basket destined for so precious a freight! She +and Bert laughed and chattered over the thick papers and strings that +bound the freezer and the cooker, and made chocolate ice-cream for +dinner on Sunday, and never ate their breakfast oatmeal without a +rapturous appreciation of the cooker. + + + + +Chapter Seven + + +She was still the centre of his universe and her own when she walked +with her hand on his arm, to the little hospital around the corner, on +a sweet April morning. The slow coming of spring had brought her a new +tenderness and a new dependence, and instinctively she felt that, when +she came home again, she would be a new Nancy. The wistfulness that +marks any conscious human change had been hers for many days now; she +was not distrustful, she was not unhappy, but she was sobered and +thoughtful. + +"We HAVE been happy, haven't we, Bert?" she said, more than once. + +"We always will be, my darling! You know that." + +But she would only smile at him wisely, for reply. She was still happy, +happier perhaps than ever. But she knew that she was no longer the +mistress of her own happiness--it lay in other hands now. + +So the universe was turned upside down for Nancy, and she lost, once +and for all her position as its centre. The world, instead of a safe +and cheerful place, became full of possible dangers for the baby, +Albert the eighth. Nancy, instead of a self-reliant, optimistic woman, +was only a weary, feeble, ignorant person who doubted her own power to +protect this priceless treasure. + +He was a splendid baby--that was part of the trouble. He was too +splendid, he had never been equalled, and could never be replaced, and +she would go stark, staring mad if anything happened to him! Nancy +almost went mad, as it was. If the Cullinan Diamond had been placed in +Nancy's keeping, rather than worry about it as she worried about +Junior, she would have flung it gaily into the East River. But she +could not dispose of the baby; her greatest horror was the thought of +ever separating from him, the fear that some day Bert might want to +send him, the darling, innocent thing, at fourteen, to boarding-school, +or that there might be a war, and Junior might enlist! + +She showed him to visiting friends in silence. When Nancy had led them +in to the bedroom, and raised a shade so that the tempered sun light +revealed the fuzzy head and shut eyes and rotund linen-swathed form of +Junior, she felt that words were unnecessary. She never really saw the +baby's face, she saw something idealized, haloed, angelic. In later +year she used to say that none of the hundreds of snapshots Bert took +of him really did the child justice. Junior had been the most +exquisitely beautiful baby that any one ever saw, everyone said so. + +When Bert got home at night, she usually had a request to make of him. +Would he just LOOK at Junior? No, he was all RIGHT, only he had hardly +wanted his three o'clock nursing, and he was sleeping so HARD-- + +And at this point, if she was tired--and she was always tired!--Nancy +would break into tears. "Bert--hadn't we better ask Colver to come and +see him?" she would stammer, eagerly. + +Ten minutes later she would be laughing, as she served Bert his dinner. +Of course he was all right, only, being alone with him all day, she got +to worrying. And she was tired. + +Poor Nancy, she was not to know rest or leisure for many years to come. +She was clever, and as resolutely as she had solved their first, simple +problem, she set about solving this new one. They had forty dollars a +week with which to manage now, but the extra money seemed only a +special dispensation to provide for the growing demands of Junior. + +Junior needed a coach, a crib, new shirts--"he is getting immense, the +darling!" was Nancy's one rapturous comment, when four of these were +bought at sixty cents each. In November he needed two quarts of milk +daily, and what his mother called "an ouncer" to take the top-milk +safely from the bottle, and a small ice box for the carefully prepared +bottles, and the bottles themselves. He always needed powder and +safety-pins and new socks, and presently he had to have a coloured +woman to do his washing, for Nancy was growing stronger and more +interested in life in general, and came to the conclusion that he might +safely be left for a few moments with Esmeralda, now and then. + +He paid for these favours in his own way, and neither Bert nor Nancy +ever felt that it was inadequate. When his sober fat face wrinkled into +a smile of welcome to his father, Bert was moved almost to tears. When +she wheeled him through the streets, royally benign after a full +bottle, rosy-cheeked in his wooly white cap, Nancy felt almost too +rich. Junior filled all the gaps in her life, it mattered not what she +lacked while she had Junior. + +The forty dollar income melted as quickly as the twenty-five dollar +one, and far more mysteriously. Nancy would have felt once that forty +dollars every week was riches, but between Junior's demands, and the +little leakage of Esmeralda's wages, and her hearty lunch twice a week, +and the milk, and the necessarily less-careful marketing, they seemed +to be just where they were before. + +"There must be some way of living that we can afford!" mused Nancy, one +March morning at the breakfast table, when the world looked +particularly bright to the young Bradleys. Junior, curly-headed, +white-clad, and excited over a hard crust of toast, sat between his +parents, who interrupted their meal to kiss his fat fists, the dewy +back of his neck under the silky curls, and even the bare toes that +occasionally appeared on the board. + +This was Sunday, and for months it had been the custom to weigh Junior +on Sunday, a process that either put Nancy and Bert into a boastful +mood for the day, or reduced the one to tearful silence, and the other +to apprehensive bravado. But now the baby was approaching his first +anniversary, and it was perfectly obvious that his weight was no longer +a matter of concern. He was so large, so tall, and so fat that one of +Nancy's daily satisfactions was to have other mothers, in the park, ask +her his age. She looked at him with fond complacency rather than +apprehension now, feeling that every month and week of his life made +him a little more sure of protracted existence, and herself a little +more safe as his mother. + +"How do you mean--afford?" Bert asked. "We pay our bills, and we're not +in debt." + +"When I say 'afford,'" Nancy answered, "I mean that we do not live +without a frightful amount of worry and fuss about money. To just keep +out of debt, and make ends meet, is not my idea of life!" + +"It's the way lots of people live--if they're lucky," Bert submitted, +picking Junior's damp crust from the floor, eyeing it dubiously, and +substituting another crust in its place. + +"Well, it's all wrong!" Nancy stated positively. "There should be a +comfortable living for everyone in this world who works even half as +hard as you do--and if any one wants to work harder, let him have the +luxuries!" + +"That's socialism, Nance." + +She raised her pretty brows innocently. + +"Is it? Well, I'm not a socialist. I guess I just don't understand." + +She knew, as the weeks went by, that there were other things she could +not understand. Toil as she might, from morning until night, there was +always something undone. It puzzled her strangely. + +Other women had even harder problems, what did THEY do? Few women had +steady, clever husbands like Bert. Few had energy and enthusiasm like +hers. But she was so tired, all the time, that even when the daily +routine ran smoothly, and the marketing and Junior's naps and meals +occurred on schedule time, the result hardly seemed worth while. She +whisked through breakfast and breakfast dishes, whisked through the +baby's bath, had her house in order when he awakened from his nap, +wheeled him to market, wheeled him home for another bottle and another +nap. Then it was time for her own meal, and there were a few more +dishes, and some simple laundry work to do, and then again the boy was +dressed, and the perambulator was bumped out of the niche below the +stairs, and they went out again. The hardest hour of all, in the warm +lengthening days of spring, was between five and six. Junior was tired +and cross, dinner preparations were under way, the table must be set, +one more last bottle warmed. When Bert came in, Nancy, flushed and +tired, was ready, and he might play for a few minutes with Junior +before he was tucked up. But the relaxation of the meal was trying to +Nancy, and the last dishes a weary drag. She would go to her chair, +when they were done, and sit stupidly staring ahead of her. Sometimes, +in this daze, she would reach for the fallen sheets of the evening +paper, and read them indifferently. Sometimes she merely battled with +yawns, before taking herself wearily to bed. + +"Can I get you your book, dear?" Bert might ask. + +"No-o-o! I'm too sleepy. I put my head down on the bed beside Junior +to-day, and I've been as heavy as lead ever since! Besides, I forgot to +wash my hands, and they're dishwatery." + +"What tires you so, do you suppose?" + +"Oh, nothing special, and everything! I think watching the baby is very +tiring. He never uses all my time, and yet I can't do anything else +while I have him. And then he's getting so mischievous--he makes work!" + +"What'll you do next year?" Bert questioned sometimes dubiously. + +"Oh, we'll manage!" And with a sleepy smile, and a sleepy kiss, Nancy +would trail away, only too grateful to reach her bed after the hard +hours. + +Bert had carefully calculated upon her spring wardrobe, and she became +quite her animated self over the excitement of selecting new clothes. +They left Esmeralda in charge of Junior, and made an afternoon of it, +and dined down town in the old way. Over the meal Bert told her that he +had made exactly three hundred dollars at a blow, in a commission, and +that she and the boy were going to the country for six weeks. + +This led to a wonderful hour, when they compared feelings, and reviewed +their adventure. Nancy marvelled at the good fortune that followed +them, "we are marvellously lucky, aren't we, Bert?" she asked, +appreciatively. She had just spent almost a hundred dollars for her +summer clothes and the boy's! And now they were really going to the +blessed country, to be free for six weeks from planning meals and +scraping vegetables and stirring cereals. Radiantly, they discussed +mountains and beaches, even buying a newspaper, on the hot walk home, +to pore over in search of the right place. + + + + +Chapter Eight + + +"The Old Hill House," on the north Connecticut line, seemed almost too +good to be true. It was an unpretentious country hotel, and Nancy and +Junior settled themselves in one of its hot, second-story rooms feeling +almost guiltily happy. Nancy kissed Bert good-bye on the first Monday +morning assuring him that she had NOTHING to do! To go down to meals, +and they were good meals, without the slightest share in the work of +preparing them, and to be able to wear dainty clothes without the +ruinous contact with the kitchen, seemed too luxurious. + +But she was not quite idle, none-the-less. Junior had to have his +morning bath, after breakfast, and while he was in the tub, his mother +washed six bottles in the hand-basin. Then, on a tiltish alcohol stove, +Nancy had to boil his barley for twenty endless minutes. When the stove +upset there was an additional half-hour's hard work, but even when it +did not, it was usually ten o'clock before she went down to the kitchen +for his two quarts of milk. Then came the usual careful work with the +"ouncer," and the six filled bottles were put into Nancy's own small +ice-box, to which one of the maids was then supposed to bring a small +piece of ice. The left-over milk was taken back to the kitchen, and +Nancy washed the little saucepan in her hand-basin, and put away stove +and barley. By this time Junior was ready for another bottle, and when +he went to sleep his mother went down to the laundry with an arm-full +of small garments. + +There was no other way. Labour was scarce in the village, and Nancy +could get no one of the housemaids to take upon herself this daily +task. Women from the outside were not allowed in the hotel laundry, and +so the task fell naturally to the baby's mother. She assumed it gladly, +but when the line of snowy linen was blowing free in the summer wind, +and the cake of soap had been put on its special rafter, and the tubs +were draining, Nancy usually went up to her bedroom, tiptoeing in +because of the sleeper, and flung herself down for a heavy nap. + +After luncheon she gathered in her linen and watched by the wideawake +baby. Then they went down to the cool shade by the creek, and Junior +threw stones, and splashed fat hands in the shallows, and his mother +watched him adoringly. It never entered her head that she was anything +but privileged to be able to slave for him. He was always and supremely +worth while. Nancy's only terrors were that something would happen to +rob her of the honour. She wanted no other company; Junior was her +world, except when Saturday's noon train brought Bert. She told her +husband, and meant it, that she was too happy; they did not need the +world. + +But sometimes the world intruded, and turned Nancy's hard-won +philosophy to ashes. She did not want to be idle, and she did not want +to be rich, but when she saw women younger than herself, in no visible +way inferior, who were both, her calm was shattered for a time. + +One day she and Bert wheeled the boy, in his small cart, down a +pleasant unfamiliar roadway, and across a rustic bridge, and, smiling +over their adventure, found themselves close to a low, wide-spreading +Colonial house, with striped awnings shading its wide porches, and +girls and men in white grouped about a dozen tea-tables. Tennis courts +were near by, and several motor-cars stood beside the pebbled drive. + +A gray-uniformed attendant came to them, civilly. Did they wish to see +some member of the club! "Oh, it is a club then," Bert asked, a little +too carelessly. "It is the Silver River Country Club, sir." + +"Oh, well, we'll get out of here, then," Bert said good naturedly, as +he turned the perambulator on the gravel under a hundred casual eyes. +He and Nancy chatted quite naturally about their mistake, as they +re-crossed the rustic bridge, and went up the unfamiliar roadway again. +But a cloud lay over them for the rest of that day, and that night +Nancy said: + +"What must one have--or be--to belong to a thing like that, Bert?" + +"To--oh, that club?" Bert answered, "Oh, it isn't so much. A hundred +initiation, and a hundred a year, I suppose." + +"We could do that--some year," Nancy predicted. + +"Well, it isn't only that. There's no use joining a country club," Bert +said musingly, "unless you can do the thing decently. It means signing +checks for tea, and cocktails, and keeping a car, and the Lord knows +what! It means tennis rackets and golf sticks and tips and playing +bridge for a stake. It all counts up!" + +"Where do all those people get the money?" Nancy asked resentfully. +"They looked common, to me!" + +"We'll get there, never you fret!" Bert answered vaguely. But long +after he was asleep his wife lay awake in the hot hotel bedroom, and +thought darkly of fate. She came of gentle stock, and she would meet +her lot bravely, but oh, how she longed for ease, for a little luxury, +for coolness and darkness and silence and service, for frothy laces and +the touch of silk! + +Lights came up from the lawn before the hotel. It was Sunday night, and +the young people were making the most of the precious week-end. Nancy +heard a clock somewhere strike ten, and then the single stroke for the +half-hour. She got up and sat beside the window; the night was +insufferably close, with not a breath of air. + +Junior sighed; his mother arose, stricken, and lighted a shaded lamp. +Half-past-ten and she had forgotten his bottle! + +When she carried it over to him, he was wide awake, his face sober, his +aureole of bright hair damp with the heat. But at the sight of his +playfellow his four new teeth came suddenly into sight. Here was +"Mugger," the unfailing solace and cheer of his life. He gave her a +beatific smile, and seized the bottle with a rapturous "glug." Bert was +roused by her laughter, and the soft sound of kisses. + + + + +Chapter Nine + + +When the second boy came, in early December the Bradleys decided to +move. They moved into a plain, old-fashioned flat, with two enormous +rooms, two medium-sized, and two small ones, in an unfashionable +street, and in a rather inaccessible block. There was a drug store at +the corner opposite them, but the park was only a long block away, and +the back rooms were flooded with sunshine. Nancy had only two flights +of stairs to climb, instead of four, and plenty of room for the two +cribs and the high chair. Also she had room for Elite, the coloured +girl who put herself at the Bradleys' disposal for three dollars a +week. Elite knew nothing whatever, but she had willing hands and +willing feet. She had the sudden laugh of a maniac, but she held some +strange power over the Bradley babies and they obeyed her lightest word. + +They moved on the day after Christmas, when Edward Barrett Bradley was +only three weeks old. Elite and Bert did the moving, and Nancy only +laughed weakly at their experiences. Junior contracted chicken-pox +during this time, and the family was quarantined on New Year's Eve. + +Bert and his wife celebrated the occasion with a quart of oysters, +eaten with hat-pins from a quart measure. The invalid slumbered in the +same room, behind a screen. He was having a very light attack, and +Nancy, who had been hanging over him all day, was reassured to-night, +and in wild spirits. She laughed the tears into her eyes when Albert +Senior, hearing the tentative horns at nine o'clock, telephoned the +fish market for the wherewithal to celebrate. Bert had been hanging +pictures, and was dirty and tired, but they got quite hysterical with +merriment over their feast. The "new boy," as they called the baby, +presently was brought in, and had his own meal, before the +old-fashioned coal fire. Nancy sat dreaming over the small curved form. + +"We'll think this is very funny, some day!" she said, dauntlessly. + +Bert merely looked at her. But after a while he tried to tell her what +he thought about it, and so made their third New Year memorable to her +forever. + +She settled down quickly, in the new quarters; some visionary, +romancing phase of Nancy's character and Nancy's roses disappeared for +a time. She baked and boiled, sewed on buttons, bandaged fingers, rose +gallantly to the days' demands. She learned the economical value of +soups and salads, and schooled herself, at least every other day, to +leave the boys for an hour or two with Elite, and walk out for a little +bracing solitude. Bert watched her in admiring amazement. His wife was +a wonder! + +Sometimes, on a cold afternoon, she walked down to meet Bert, and they +went together to dinner. Their talk was practical now, of suits and +rubber overshoes and milk bills. And Nancy was too tired to walk home; +they went home in the rubber-scented dampness of a surface car. + +Sometimes, as she went through the morning routine, the baths, bottles, +dishes, the picking up, the disheartening conferences over the ice box, +she wondered what had become of the old southern belle, Nancy Barrett, +who had laughed and flirted and only a few years ago, who had been such +a strong and pretty and confident egotist? There was no egotism left in +Nancy now, she was only a busy woman in a world of busy women. She knew +backache and headache, and moods of weary irritation. The cut of her +gowns, the little niceties of table-service or of children's clothing +no longer concerned her. She merely wanted her family comfortable, fed +and housed and clothed, and well. Nancy could advise other women about +the capable handling of children, before her firstborn was three years +old. + +They never went to "The Old Hill House" again, but they found a +primitive but comfortable hotel in the Maine woods, for Ned's second +summer, and for several summers after that. Here Nancy slept and +tramped and rested happily, welcoming Bert rapturously every week-end. +In near-by cabins, young matrons like herself were likewise solving the +children's summer problem, she was never lonely, and the eight free, +pine-scented weeks were cloudlessly happy. She told Bert that it was +the only sensible solution for persons in moderate circumstances; old +clothes, simple food, utter solitude. + +"There are no comparisons to spoil things," Nancy said, contentedly. "I +know I'm small-minded, Bert. But seeing things I can't have does upset +me, somehow!" + + + + +Chapter Ten + + +Nevertheless, she accepted the invitation that came from Bert's cousin +Dorothy, one autumn, for a week-end visit. Dorothy had married now, and +had a baby. She was living in a rented "place," up near Rhinecliff, she +wrote, and she wanted to see something of Cousin Bert. + +Neither Bert nor Nancy could afterward remember exactly why they went. +It was partly curiosity, perhaps; partly the strong lure exerted by +Dorothy's casual intimation that "the car" would come for them, and +that this particular week-end was "the big dance, at the club." Bert +chanced to have a new suit, and Nancy had a charming blue taffeta that +seemed to her good enough for any place or anybody. + +The boys were asked, but they did not take them. Ned was almost two +now, and Junior past three, and they behaved beautifully with Hannah, +the quiet old Danish woman who had been with them since they came back +from the woods, the year before. Nancy, full of excited anticipation, +packed her suit-case daintily, and fluttered downstairs as happily as a +girl, when a hundredth glance at the street showed the waiting motor at +last. + +Hawkes was the chauffeur. "To Mr. Bradley's office please, Hawkes," +said Nancy. She could not think of anything friendly to say to him, as +they wheeled through the streets. Bert kept them waiting, and once or +twice she said "I can't think what's delaying Mr. Bradley." But Hawkes +did not answer. + +Presently Bert came out and greeted Nancy and Hawkes. + +"But I thought Mrs. Benchley was coming into town to-day," Bert said. +Dorothy was now Mrs. George Benchley. Hawkes spoke at last. "An old +friend of Mrs. Benchley has unexpectedly arrived this morning, sir, and +she has changed her mind." "Oh, all right," said Bert, grinning at +Nancy as the pleasant drive began. + +It was all wonderful; the bright autumn sunshine, the sense of freedom +and leisure in the early afternoon, and the lovely roads they followed. +Bert however, seemed to be thinking of his sons, and asked of them more +than once. And Nancy could not rid herself of an uncomfortable +suspicion that whoever Dorothy's old friend was, she had changed +Dorothy's plans, and perhaps made the coming of the Bradleys untimely. +Now and then husband and wife smiled at each other and said "This is +fun!" + +Dorothy's "place" was a beautiful estate, heavily wooded, wound with +white driveways, and equipped with its own tennis courts, and its +boathouse on the river. The house was enormous, and naturally had +assumed none of the personality of its occupants, in this casual summer +tenancy. There were countless rooms, all filled with tables and chairs +and rugs and desks and bowls of flowers; and several maids came and +went in the interest of the comfort of the house. There were seven or +eight other guests besides the Bradleys, and they all seemed to know +each other well. The unexpected guest was a young Mrs. Catlin +affectionately mentioned by Dorothy in every other breath as "Elaine"; +she and Dorothy had been taken to Europe together, after their +schooldays, and had formed an intimacy then. + +Dorothy came into the big hall to meet her cousin and his wife, and, +with a little laugh, kissed Bert. She looked particularly young and +lovely in what Nancy supposed to be a carefully-selected costume; later +she realized that all Dorothy's clothes gave this impression. She said +that the baby was out, when Nancy asked for him, and that Katharine +would take care of them. + +Katharine, an impassive maid, led them upstairs, and to the large room +in which their suit cases already stood. Dorothy had said, "After you +change, come down and have something to drink!" but Nancy had nothing +prettier than the taffeta, except her evening gown, and as the sunshine +was streaming into the room, she could not change to that. So she +merely freshened her appearance, and wasted fifteen or twenty minutes +in a close inspection of the room, before they went down. To her +somewhat shy question Bert responded enthusiastically, "You look +lovely!" + +They went through empty open rooms, talking as naturally as they could, +and smilingly joined the others on the porch. Tea and other drinks were +being dispensed by Elaine, whose attention was meanwhile absorbed by +two young men. Dorothy, lying almost flat in a wicker chair, with her +small silk-shod ankles crossed, was lazily arguing some question of +golf scores. + +She introduced the new-comers, and as Bert, somewhat more at home in +his cousin's house than his wife was, fell into conversation with the +middle-aged man nearest him, Dorothy dutifully addressed herself to +Nancy. They spoke of Bert's mother, and of Boston, and Dorothy asked +Nancy if she liked tennis--or golfing--or yachting? There was to be +quite a large dance at the club to-night, and an entertainment before +it. + +"Isn't Dorothy a wonder, Mrs. Bradley?" asked Elaine. "She's going to +have twenty people to dinner, she runs this big house, she's got a baby +not yet six months old, and she looks about sixteen!" + +"You must have wonderful maids," suggested Nancy, smiling. + +"I have!" said Dorothy amusedly, "They're crazy about me--I don't know +why, because I work them like dogs. But of course we're away a lot, and +then they always have parties," she added, "and they run things pretty +much to suit themselves. But we have good meals, don't we, Elaine?" she +asked, childishly. + +"Heavenly!" said Elaine. Nancy, trying to appear brightly sympathetic, +smiled again. + +But she and Bert dressed for dinner almost silently, an hour later. It +was all delightful and luxurious, truly, and they were most +considerately and hospitably accepted by the entire establishment. But +something was wrong. Nancy did not know what it was, and she did not +want to risk a mere childish outburst, so easily construed into +jealousy. Perhaps it WAS jealousy. + +She found herself arguing, as she dressed. This sort of thing was not +LIFE, after all. The quiet wife of an obscure man, rejoicing in her +home and her children, had a thousand times more real pleasure. These +well-dressed idle people didn't count, after all. ... + +"Sort of nice of Dorothy to send Hawkes in for us," Bert said; "Did you +hear her explain that she thought we'd be more comfortable with Hawkes, +so she and Mrs. Catlin kept the younger man?" + +"Considerate!" Nancy said, lifelessly. + +"Isn't it a wonder she isn't spoiled?" Bert pursued. + +"Really it is!" + +"Benchley looks like an ass," Bert conceded. "But he's not so bad. He's +in the firm now, you know, and Dorothy was just telling me that he's +taken hold wonderfully." + +"Isn't that nice?" Nancy said, mildly. She was struggling with her +hair, which entirely refused to frame her face in its usual rich waves, +and lay flat or split into unexpected partings despite her repeated +efforts. "How's that now, Bert?" she asked, turning toward him with an +arrangement half-completed. + +"Well--that's all RIGHT--" he began uncertainly. Nancy, dropping the +brown strands, and tossing the whole hot mass free, felt that she could +burst into tears. + + + + +Chapter Eleven + + +The dinner was an ordeal; her partner was unfortunately interested only +in motor-cars, of which Nancy could find little that was intelligent to +say. She felt like what she was, a humble relative out of her element. +After dinner they were all packed into cars, and swept to the club. + +Darkness and the sound of a comedian's voice in monologue warned them +as they entered that the entertainment was begun; after much +whispering, laughing and stumbling however, they were piloted to +chairs, and for perhaps an hour and a half Nancy was quite alone, and +much entertained. Then the lights went up, and the crowd surged noisily +to and fro. + +She lost sight of Bert, but was duly introduced to new people; and they +spoke of the successful entertainment, and of the club-house. Nancy +danced only once or twice, and until almost two o'clock sat talking, +principally with a pleasant old lady, who had a daughter to chaperon. + +Then the first departures began, and Nancy had a merry good-night from +Dorothy, called over the latter's powdered shoulder as she danced, and +went home. She was silent, as she undressed, but Bert, yawning, said +that he had had a good time. He said that Dorothy had urged them to +stay until Monday morning, but he did not see how he could make it. He +hated to get started late at the office Monday morning. Nancy eagerly +agreed. + +"You do feel so?" he asked, in satisfaction. "Well, that settles it, +then! We'll go home to-morrow." + +And home they did go, on the following afternoon. Nancy, counting the +hours, nevertheless enjoyed the delicious breakfast, when she had quite +a spirited chat with one or two of the men guests, who were the only +ones to appear. Then she and Bert walked into the village to church, +and wandering happily home, were met by Dorothy in the car, and whirled +to the club. Here the pleasant morning air was perfumed with strong +cigars already, and while Bert played nine holes of golf, and covered +himself with glory, Nancy won five rubbers of bridge, and gained the +respect of Dorothy and Elaine at the same time. She was more like her +spontaneous self at luncheon than at any other time during the visit, +and driving home, agreed with Bert that, when you got to know them, +Dorothy's set was not so bad! + +"Her baby is frightfully ugly, but that doesn't matter so much, with a +boy," said Nancy. "And I don't think that a woman like Elaine is so +rude as she is stupid. They simply can't see anything else but their +way of thinking, and dressing, and talking, and so they stare at you as +if you were a Hottentot! I had a nice time, especially to-day--but +never again!" + +"Dorothy never did have any particular beau," Bert observed, "She just +likes to dress in those little silky, stripy things, and have everyone +praising her, all the time. She'll ask us again, sometime, when she +remembers us." + + + + +Chapter Twelve + + +But it was almost a year before Dorothy thought of her cousins again, +and then the proud Nancy wrote her that the arrival of Anne Bradley was +daily expected, and no plans could be made at present. Anne duly came, +a rose of a baby, and Nancy said that luck came with her. + +Certainly Anne was less than a week old when Bert told his wife that +old Souchard, whose annoying personality had darkened all Bert's office +days, had retired, gone back to Paris! And Bert was head man, "in the +field." His salary was not what Souchard's had been, naturally, but the +sixty dollars would be doubled, some weeks, by commissions; there would +be lots of commissions, now! Now they could save, announced Nancy. + +But they did not save. They moved again, to a pleasanter apartment, and +Hannah did washing and cooking, and Grace came, to help with the +children. Nancy began to make calls again, and had the children's +pictures taken, for Grandmother Bradley, and sometimes gave luncheons, +with cards to follow. She and Bert could go to the theatre again, and, +if it was raining, could come home in a taxicab. + +It was a modest life, even with all this prosperity. Nancy had still +enough to do, mending piled up, marketing grew more complicated, and on +alternate Thursdays and Sundays she herself had to fill Hannah's place, +or Grace's place. They began to think that life would be simpler in the +country, and instead of taking the children to the parks, as was their +happy Sunday custom, they went now to Jersey, to Westchester, and to +Staten Island. + +The houses they passed, hundreds and hundreds of them, filled them with +enthusiasm. Sunday was a pleasant day, in the suburbs. The youngsters, +everywhere, were in white--frolicking about open garage doors, +bareheaded on their bicycles, barefooted beside beaches or streams. +Their mothers, also white-clad, were busy with agreeable +pursuits--gathering roses, or settling babies for naps in shaded +hammocks. Lawn mowers clicked in the hands of the white-clad men, or a +group of young householders gathered for tennis, or for consultation +about a motor-car. + +Nancy and Bert began to tentatively ask about rents, to calculate coal +and commutation tickets. The humblest little country house, with rank +neglected grass about it, and a kitchen odorous of new paint and old +drains, held a strange charm for them. + +"They could LIVE out-of-doors!" said Nancy, of the children. "And I +want their memories to be sweet, to be homelike and natural. The city +really isn't the place for children!" + +"I'd like it!" Bert said, for like most men he was simple in his +tastes, and a vision of himself and his sons cutting grass, picking +tomatoes and watering gooseberry bushes had a certain appeal. "I'd like +to have the Cutters out for a week-end!" he suggested. Nancy smiled a +little mechanically. She did not like Amy Cutter. + +"And we could ask the Featherstones!" she remembered suddenly. + +"Gosh! Joe Featherstone is the limit!" Bert said, mildly. + +"Well, however!" Nancy concluded, hastily, "We COULD have people out, +that's the main thing!" + + + + +Chapter Thirteen + + +For a year or two the Bradleys kept up these Sunday expeditions without +accomplishing anything definite. But they accomplished a great amount +of indirect happiness, ate a hundred picnic lunches, and accumulated +ten times that many amusing, and inspiring, and pleasant, +recollections. Bert carried the lovely Anne; Nancy had the thermos +bottle and Anne's requirements in a small suit-case; and the boys had a +neat cardboard box of lunch apiece. + +And then some months after their seventh anniversary, Bert sold the +Witcher Place. + +This was the most important financial event of their lives. The Witcher +Place had been so long in the hands of Bert's firm for sale that it had +become a household word in the Bradley family, and in other families. +Nobody ever expected to pocket the handsome commission that the owner +and the firm between them had placed upon the deal, and to Nancy the +thing was only a myth until a certain autumn Sunday, when she and Bert +and the children were roaming about the Jersey hills, and stumbled upon +the place. + +There it was; the decaying mansion, the neglected avenue and garden, +the acres and acres of idle orchard and field. The faded signposts +identified it, "Apply to the Estate of Eliot Witcher." + +"Bert, this isn't the Witcher Place!" exclaimed his wife. + +Bert was as interested as she. They pushed open the old gate, and ate +their luncheon that day sitting on the lawn, under the elms that the +first Eliot Witcher had planted a hundred years ago. The children ran +wild over the garden, Anne took her nap on the leaf-strewn side porch. + +"Bert--they never want two hundred thousand dollars for just this!" + +Bert threw away his cigar, and flung himself luxuriously down for a nap. + +"They'll get it, Nance. Somebody'll develop a real estate deal here +some day. They must have a hundred acres here. You'll see it--'Witcher +Park' or 'Witcher Manor.' The old chap who inherited it is as rich as +Croesus, he was in the office the other day, he wants to sell.--Hello! +I was in the office--garden--and so I said--if you please--" + +Bert was going to sleep. His wife laughed sympathetically as the +staggering words stopped, and deep and regular breathing took their +place. She sat on in the afternoon sunlight, looking dreamily about +her, and trying to picture life here a hundred years ago; the gracious +young mistress of the new mansion, the ringlets and pantalettes, the +Revolutionary War still well remembered, and the last George on the +throne. And now the house was cold and dead, and strange little boys, +in sandals and sturdy galatea, were shouting in the stable. + +Perhaps she was drowsy herself; she started awake, and touched Bert. An +old man and a young man had come in the opened gate, and were speaking +to her. + +"I beg your pardon!" It was the young man. "But--but do you own this +place?" + +"No--just picnicking!" said Bert, wide awake. + +"But it is for sale?" asked the old man. Bert got up, and brushed the +leaves from his clothes, and the three men walked down the drive +together. Nancy, half-comprehending, all-hoping looked after them. She +saw Bert give the young man his card, and glance at the same time at +the faded sign, as if he appealed to it to confirm his claim. + +She hardly dared speak when he came back. Anne awoke, and the boys must +be summoned for the home trip. Bert moved dreamily, he seemed dazed. +Only once did he speak of the Witcher Place that night, and then it was +to say: + +"Perry--that's that old chap's name--said that he would be in this +week, at the office. I'll bet he doesn't come." + +"No, I don't suppose he will," Nancy said. + +"I impressed it on his son that it meant--something, to me, to have him +ask for me, if he DID come," said Bert, then. + +"Bert, you'd better skip lunches, this week," Nancy suggested +thoughtfully. + +"I will--that's a good idea," he said. She noticed that he was more +than usually gentle and helpful with the children, that night. Nancy +felt his strain, and her own, and went through Monday sick with +suspense. + +"Nothing doing!" said Bert cheerfully, coming in on Monday evening. +Tuesday went by--Wednesday went by. On Thursday Nancy had an especially +nice dinner, because Bert's mother had come down, for a few days' +visit. The two women were good friends, and Nancy was never so capable, +brisk, and busy as when these sharp but approving eyes were upon her. + +The elder Mrs. Bradley approved of the children heartily, and boasted +about them and their clever mother when she went home. Bert's wife was +so careful as to manners, so sensible about food and clothes, such a +wonderful manager. + +To-night Anne was in her grandmother's lap, commandingly directing the +reading of a fairy-story. Whenever the plot seemed thin to Anne she +threw in a casual demand for additional lions, dragons or giants, as +her fancy dictated. Mrs. Bradley giving Nancy a tremendously amused and +sympathetic smile, supplied these horrors duly, and the boys, +supposedly eating their suppers at one end of the dining-room table, +alternately laughed at Anne and agonized with her. + +Nancy was superintending the boys, the elderly woman had a comfortable +chair by the fire, and Hannah was slowly and ponderously setting the +table. It was a pretty scene for Bert's eyes to find, as he came in, +and he gave his mother and his wife a more than usually affectionate +greeting. + +Nancy followed him into their room, taking Anne. She was pleased that +the children had been so sweet with their grandmother, pleased that her +deep dish pie had come out so well, happy to be cosy and safe at home +while the last heavy rains of October battened at the windows. + +She had lowered Anne, already undressed, into her crib when Bert +suddenly drew her away, and tipped up her face with his hand under her +chin, and stared into her surprised eyes. + +"Well, old girl, I got it! It was all settled inside of twenty minutes, +at five o'clock!" + +"The--? But Bert---I don't understand--" Nancy stammered. And then +suddenly, with a rush of awed delight, "Bert Bradley! Not the Witcher +Place!" + +"Yep!" Bert answered briefly. "He took it. It's all settled." + + + + +Chapter Fourteen + + +So the Bradleys had a bank account. And even before the precious money +was actually paid them, and deposited in the bank, Nancy knew what they +were going to do with it. There was only one sensible thing for young +persons who were raising a family on a small salary to do. They must +buy a country home. + +No more city, no more rent-paying for Nancy and Bert. The bank account +had just five figures. Nancy and Bert said that they could buy a lovely +home anywhere for nine thousand, and have a whole thousand left for +furniture and incidentals. They could begin to live! + +A week later they began their hunt, and all through the white winter +and the lovely spring they hunted. They asked friends about it, and +read magazines, and the advertisements in the Sunday papers. + +Unfortunately, however, in all the Saturdays and the Sundays they spent +hunting for their home, they never saw anything that cost just nine +thousand dollars. There were hundreds of places that cost sixty-five +hundred or seven thousand. After that prices made a clean leap to ten +thousand, to twelve thousand, to fourteen--"No, it's no use our looking +at those!" said the young Bradleys, sighing. + +They learned a great deal about houses, and some of their dreams died +young. It was no use, the agents told Nancy, to think about a pretty, +shabby, old farm-house, for those had been snapped up. If she found +one, it would be a foolish investment, because it probably would be +surrounded by unrestricted property. Restrictions were great things, +and all developments had them in large or small degree. There were +developments that obliged the purchaser of land to submit his building +plans to a committee, before he could build. + +Nancy laughed that she shouldn't care for THAT. And when restrictions +interfered with her plans she very vigorously opposed them. She told +Bert that she would not consider places that did not allow fences, and +chickens, and dogs, and all the other pleasant country things. + +Sometimes, in an economical mood, the Bradleys looked at the six and +seven thousand dollar bargains. It had to be admitted that some of them +were extremely nice. Nice neighbourhoods, young trees set out along the +street--trees about the size of carriage whips--nice sunny bathroom, +nice bedrooms--"we could change these papers," Nancy always said--good +kitchen and closets, gas all ready to connect, and an open fireplace in +the dining room. And so back to the front hall again, and to a rather +blank moment when the agent obviously expected a definite decision, and +the Bradleys felt unable to make it. + +"What don't you like about the place?" the agent would ask. + +"Well--" Bert would flounder. "I don't know. I'll talk it over with my +wife!" + +"Better decide to take it, Mr. Bradley," the agent, whoever he was, +would urge seriously, "We're selling these places awfully fast, and +when they're gone you won't find anything else like them. It's only +because this chap that's been holding this property suddenly--" + +"Yes, I know, you told me about his dropping dead," Bert would hastily +remind him. "Well--I'll see. I'll let you know. Come on, kids!" + +And the Bradley family would walk away, not too hastily, but without +looking back. + +"I don't know--but it was so like all the others," Nancy would +complain, "It was so utterly commonplace! Now there, Bert, right in the +village street, with the trees, is a lovely place, marked 'For Sale.' +Do let's just pass it!" + +"Darling girl, you couldn't touch that for twenty thousand. Right there +by the track, too!" + +"But it looks so homelike!" + +"That old barn in the back looks sort of odd to me; they've got a sort +of livery stable there in the back, Nance, you couldn't stand that!" + +"No." Nancy's tone and manner would droop, she would go slowly by, +discouraged and tired until another week end. + + + + +Chapter Fifteen + + +One day Bert told Nancy that a man named Rogers had been in the office, +and had been telling him about a place called Marlborough Gardens. +Usually Bert's firm did not touch anything small enough to interest him +as a home, but in this case the whole development was involved, and the +obliging Mr. Rogers chanced to mention to Bert that he had some +bargains down there at the Gardens. + +"There's nothing in it for him, you understand?" said Bert to his wife, +"But he's an awfully decent fellow, and he got interested. I told him +about what we'd been doing, and he roared. He says that we're to come +down Sunday, and see what he's got, and if we don't like it he can at +any rate give us some dope about the rest of the places." + +"And where is it, Bert?" + +"It's down on the Sound side of Long Island, thirty-seven minutes out +of town, right on the water." + +"Oh, Bert, it sounds wonderful?" + +"He says that it's the most amazing thing that ever has been put on the +market. He says that Morgan and Rockefeller both have put money into +it, on the quiet." + +"Well, if they can risk their little all, we can take a chance!" +giggled Nancy. + +"Of course that isn't generally known," Bert warned her, "but it just +goes to show you that it's a BIG THING. He was telling me about this +feller that had a gorgeous home just built there, and his wife's mother +gets ill, and they all move to California. He said I could look at it, +and that it would speak for itself." + +"Did he say whether there were any trees?" + +"He said this particular place had wonderful trees." + +"And what's the price, Bee?" + +Bert knew that this was his weak point. + +"He didn't say, old girl." + +Nancy looked rueful, her castle in the dust. + +"Oh, BERT! It may be something awful!" + +"No, it won't, for I'd just been telling him what we were looking at, +don't you see!" + +"Oh, that so?" Nancy was relieved. "But it will be the first thing _I_ +ask him," she predicted. + + + + +Chapter Sixteen + + +However, on Sunday she forgot to ask him. The circumstances were so +unexpectedly pleasant as to banish from her head any pre-arranged plan +of procedure. It was a glowing June day, soft, perfumed, and breezy. +The Bradleys went to Butler's Hill, which was "our station," as Nancy +said, and there the agent met them, with a car. He drove them himself +the short mile from the railroad to Marlborough Gardens. + +"Isn't it one of those frightfully smart developments?" Nancy asked, +smiling uneasily. + +"It's considered the finest home development on Long Island," the agent +admitted readily, "The place I'm going to show you--I'm going to show +you two or three--but the special place I want to show you, was built +for a HOME. There isn't a finer building anywhere. Lansing, the man who +built it, was a splendid fellow, with a lovely wife--lovely woman. But +her mother lives in California, and she got to worrying--" + +"Mr. Bradley told me," Nancy said sympathetically. + +"Homes, and home-makers," pursued the agent, "That's what we need. The +people we have here are all quiet, home-loving folks, we don't want +show, we don't want display--" + +"Well, that's our idea!" Bert approved. And he rather vexed his +inconsistent wife by adding hardily, "Remember that my top figure is +ten thousand, Rogers, will you?" + +"Now, you wait and see what I have to show you, and then we'll talk +turkey," the other man said goodnaturedly. Anne, sitting on her +mother's lap beside him, gave him a sudden smile at the word she +recognized. + +He wheeled the car smoothly through the great gates of cement, looped +with iron chains, that shut off the village herd from the sacred +ground. Nancy gave Bert an ecstatic glance; this was wonderful! The +scattered homes were all beautiful, all different. Some were actual +mansions, with wide-spreading wings and half a dozen chimneys, but some +were small and homelike, etched with the stretching fingers of new +vines, and surrounded by park-like gardens. Even about the empty plots +hedges had been planted, and underbrush raked away, and the effect was +indescribably trim and orderly, "like England," said Nancy, who had +never seen England. + +As they slowly circled about, they caught glimpses of tennis courts, +beyond the lawns and trees, glimpses of the blue water of the bay, +glimpses of white, curving driveways. Here a shining motor-car stood +purring, there men in white paused with arrested rackets, to glance up +at the strangers from their tennis. Nancy looked at Bert and Bert at +Nancy, and their eyes confessed that never in all the months of hunting +had they seen anything like THIS! + +Presently they came to the end of the road, and to a richly wooded plot +that formed a corner to the whole tract. A garden had been planted, but +it was neglected now, and weeds had pushed up here and there between +the bricks of the path. The house was low and spreading, under great +locust and elm trees, a shingled brown house, with two red chimneys and +cottage casements. Over one hedge the Bradleys looked down at the +pebbled beach that belonged to all the residents of Marlborough Gardens. + +"Lansing called this place 'Holly Court,'" said the agent, leading them +to the front porch door, to which he skillfully fitted a key, "That big +holly bush there gave it its name; the bush is probably fifty years +old. Step in, Mrs. Bradley!" + +"But notice the lovely Dutch door first, Bert," Nancy said eagerly. +"See, Anne! On a hot day you can have it half open and half shut, isn't +that cunning?" + +"The house is full of charming touches," Mr. Rogers said, "And you may +always trust a woman's eye to find them, Mr. Bradley! Women are natural +home-makers. My wife'll often surprise me; 'Why, you've not got half +enough closets, Paul,' she'll say. There's one open fire-place, Mrs. +Bradley, in your reception hall. You see the whole plan of the house is +informal. You've got another fire-place in the dining room, and one in +the master bedroom upstairs. Here's a room they used as a +den--bookshelves, and so on, and then beyond is another tiled +porch--very convenient for breakfast, or tea. You see Lansing lived +here; never has been rented, or anything like that. He's selling it for +practically what it cost him!" + +"And what's that?" asked Bert, smiling, but not quite at his ease. + +"Now, you wait a few minutes, Mr. Business Man!" Mr. Rogers said, "What +you think, and what I think, doesn't count much beside what this little +lady thinks. She's got to live in the house, and if SHE likes it, why I +guess you and I can come to terms!" + +Nancy threw her husband a glance full of all amused tolerance at this, +but in her secret soul she rather liked it. + +They went upstairs, where there were hardwood floors, and two +bathrooms, and mirrors in the bathroom doors. There was another +bathroom in the attic, and a fourth upstairs in the garage, with two +small bedrooms in each place. They must expect us to keep four maids, +Nancy hastily computed. + +There was an upstair porch; "To shake a rug, Mrs. Bradley, or to dry +your hair, or for this young lady's supper," said the delightful Mr. +Rogers. A back stairway led down to tempting culinary regions; a sharp +exclamation burst from Nancy at the sight of the great ice box, and the +tiled sinks. + +They walked about the plot, a large one. At the back, beside the +garage, they could look over a small but healthy hedge to more beach, +clustered with unusual shells at low tide, and the straggling outskirts +of the village. From the front, they looked straight down a wide +tree-shaded street, that lost itself in a peaceful vista of great trees +and vine-smothered stone walls. "Holly Court" was quiet, it was +naturally isolated, it seemed to Nancy already like home. + +Even now, however, Mr. Rogers would not talk terms. He drove them about +again, passing other houses, all happily and prosperously occupied. He +told Nancy about this family and that. + +"What'd that house cost?" Bert would demand. + +"Ah well, THAT. That belongs to Ingram, of the Ingram Thorn Coal +people, you know. I suppose Mr. Ingram has invested forty or fifty +thousand dollars in that place, in one way and another. The tennis +court--" + +And so on and on. Presently they passed the pretty, unpretentious +club-house, built close to the water. A few light sails were dipping +and shaking on the bay, children were gathered in a little knot beside +an upturned canoe, on the shore. Several cars were parked on the drive +outside the club, and Nancy felt decidedly self-conscious as she and +Bert and the children walked onto the awninged porch that was the tea +room. + +"Now this club belongs to the place," Mr. Rogers said, "You're buying +here--and I don't mind telling you, Mr. Bradley, that I want you to buy +here," he broke off to admit persuasively--"because you and your wife +are the sort of people we need here. You won't find anything anywhere +that is backed by the same interest, you won't. However, about the +club. Your buying here makes you a member of this club----" + +"Oh, is that SO!" Nancy exclaimed, in delighted surprise. + +"Oh, yes," said the agent. "The dues are merely nominal--for the upkeep +of the place." + +"Of course!" said the Bradleys. + +"Your dues entitle you to all the privileges of the club--I believe the +bathhouses are a little extra, but everything else is yours. You can +bring a friend here to tea, give a card party here--there are dances +and dinners all winter long." + +"Mother, are we coming here to live?" asked Junior, over his chocolate. + +"I don't know," Nancy answered, feeling that she could cry with +nervousness. She hardly tasted her tea, she hardly saw the men and +women that drifted to and fro. Her heart was choking her with hope and +fear, and she knew that Bert was nervous, too. + +At last Mr. Rogers returned to the subject of "Holly Court," he wanted +to know first what they thought of it. Oh, it was perfect, said Nancy +and Bert together. It was just what they wanted, only-- Good, the agent +said. He went on to say that he would have bought the house himself, +but that his wife's father had an old home in Flushing, and while the +old gentleman lived, he wanted them there. But he belonged to the +Marlborough Gardens Club, and kept a boat there. Now, he had been +authorized to put a special price on this place of Lansings, and he was +going to tell them frankly why. They knew as well as he did that a +hundred foot square plot, and trees like that, so near the water, COST +MONEY. He digressed to tell them just how property had soared in price, +during even his own time. + +"The truth is," he said, "that Lansing, when he picked that site, +picked it for trees, and quiet, and view--it didn't make any difference +to him that it was a corner site, and a little out of the main +traffic----" + +"But I LIKE that about it!" Nancy said eagerly. "I love the isolation +and the quiet. Nobody will bother us there----" + +Bert saw that she was already moving in. He turned a rather anxious +look from her to the agent. + + + + +Chapter Seventeen + + +Twenty-five thousand. It was out at last, falling like a stone on the +Bradleys' hearts. Nancy could hardly keep the bitter tears from her +eyes. Bert, more hardy, barked out a short laugh. "I'm a fool to let it +go," said the agent frankly; "I'm all tied up with other things. But I +have no hesitation in saying this; you buy it, put the garden in shape, +sit tight for a few years, and I'll turn it over for you for forty +thousand, and throw in my commission!" + +"Nix!" said Bert, honestly, "Nothing stirring! It's too big a +proposition for us, we couldn't swing it. It may be all you say, but +I'm raising a family; I can't go into twenty-five-thousand-dollar +deals--" + +"I don't see why--" began the agent, unruffled. + +"I do!" Bert interrupted him, cheerfully. + +"Now look here, Mr. Bradley," said Mr. Rogers, patiently. "Let's get +the real dope on this thing. You want a home. You don't want a +contract-made, cheaply constructed place in some community that your +wife and children will outgrow before they're five years older! Now, +here you get a place that every year is going to improve. There isn't +so much of this Sound shore that is lying around waiting to be bought. +I can show you----" + +"Nothing stirring, I tell you!" Bert repeated, "Don't hand me out a lot +of dope about it. I can see for myself what it is, I like it, the +Missus likes it, it's a dandy proposition--for a millionaire. But I +couldn't touch it with a ten-foot pole!" + +Nancy's lip began to tremble. She was tired, and somehow--somehow it +all seemed such a waste, if they weren't to have it! She busied herself +untying Anne's napkin, and sent the three children on a gingerly tour +of inspection down to the beach. + +"Now listen a moment!" Mr. Rogers said. And Nancy added gently, almost +tremulously: + +"Do just LISTEN to him, Bert!" + +"You pay rent, don't you?" began Mr. Rogers, "Sixty, you said? That's +seven hundred and twenty dollars a year, and you have nothing to show +for it! But you'd consider seventy-five or a hundred cheap enough for a +place like this wouldn't you?" + +"I could go--a hundred, yes," Bert admitted, clearing his throat. + +"You don't HAVE to go any hundred," the agent said, triumphantly. "And +besides that, isn't it to your advantage to live in your own house, and +have a home that you can be proud of, and pay everything over your +interest toward your mortgage? We have people here who only paid two or +three thousand down, we don't push you--that isn't our idea. If you +can't meet our terms, we'll meet yours. You've got your nest-egg, +whatever it is----" + +"As a matter of fact, I've got ten thousand to start with," Bert said +slowly. "But that's all I have got, Rogers," he added firmly, "And I +don't propose----" + +"You've GOT ten thousand?" asked the agent, with a kindly smile. And +immediately his vehemence gave way to a sort of benign amusement. "Why, +my dear boy," he said genially, "What's the matter with you? There's a +mortgage of twelve thousand on that place now; you pay your ten, and 6 +per cent, on the rest--that's something a little more than sixty +dollars a month--and then you clear off your loan, or not, as suits +you! I don't have to tell you that that's good business. How much of +the holdings of Pearsall and Pearsall are clear of mortgages! We carry +'em on every inch of our land, right to the hilt too. If you're getting +the equivalent of 8 or 9 per cent, on your money, you should worry +about the man that carries the loan. You're paying 6 per cent, on +somebody's twelve thousand now, don't forget that..." + + + + +Chapter Eighteen + + +An hour later they went to see Holly Court again. It was even lovelier +than ever in the sweet spring twilight. Triangles of soft light lay +upon its dusty, yet polished, floors. Bert said that the place +certainly needed precious little furniture; Nancy added eagerly that +one maid could do all the work. She drew a happy sketch of Bert and his +friends, arriving hot and weary from the city, on summer afternoons, +going down to the bay for a plunge, and coming back to find supper +spread on the red-tiled porch. Bert liked the idea of winter fires, +with snow and darkness outside and firelight and warmth within, and the +Bradleys' friends driving up jolly and cold for an hour's talk, and a +cup of tea. + +"What do you think, dear?" said Bert to his wife, very low, when the +agent had considerately withdrawn for a few minutes, and they could +confer. "Think!" repeated Nancy, in delicate reproach, "Why, I suppose +there is only one thing to think, Bert!" + +"You--you like it, then?" he asked, a little nervously. "Of course, +it's a corking place, and all that. And, as Rogers says, with what we +have we could swing it easily. You see dear, I pay ten thousand, and +take up twelve thousand more as a mortgage. Even then there's three +thousand--" + +Nancy looked despair. + +"But that could be covered by a second mortgage," he reminded her, +quickly. "That's a very ordinary thing. Everyone does that. Rogers will +fix it up for me." + +"Really, Bert?" she asked doubtfully. + +"Oh, certainly! We do it every day, in the office. However, we've got +to think this thing over seriously. It's twice--in fact, it's more than +twice what we said. There's the interest on the mortgage, and the cost +of the move, and my commutation, and club dues. Then of course, +living's a little higher--there are no shops, just telephone service, +the shops are in the village." + +"But think of car fares--and how simply the children can dress," Nancy +countered quickly. "And if they have all outdoors to play in, why, I +could let Anna go, and just send out the laundry!" + +"Well, we could think it over----" Bert began uncomfortably, but she +cut him short. They had been standing beside one of the windows, and +looking out at the soft twilight under the trees; now Nancy turned to +her husband a pale, tense face, and rather bright eyes. + +"Albert," said she, quickly and breathlessly, "if I could have a home +like this I'd manage somehow! You've been saying we could have a nurse +to help with the children--but I'd have one servant all my life--I'd do +my own work! To have our friends down here--to have the children grow +up in these surroundings--to have that club to go to--! We're not +building for this year, or next year, dear. We've got the children's +future to think of. Mind, I'm not trying to influence you, Bert," said +Nancy, her eager tone changing suddenly to a flat, repressed voice, +"You are the best judge, of course, and whatever you decide will be +right. But I merely think that this is the loveliest place I ever saw +in my life, and exactly what we've been hunting for--only far, far +nicer!--and that if we can't have it we'd simply better give up +house-hunting, because it's a mere waste of time, and resign ourselves +to living in that detestable city for ever and ever! Of course to go on +as we are going on, means no friends and no real home life for the +children, everyone admits that the city is NO PLACE FOR CHILDREN, and +another thing, we'll never find anything like this again! But you do as +you think best. Only I--that's what I feel, if you ask me." + +And having talked the colour into her cheeks, and the tears into her +eyes, Nancy turned her back upon her husband, and looked out into the +garden again. + + + + +Chapter Nineteen + + +That same week Bert brought home the deeds, and put them down on the +dinner table before her. Nancy usually started the meal promptly at +half past six, so that the children's first raging appetites might be +partly assuaged; bread was buttered, milk poured, bibs tied, and all +the excitement of commencing the meal abated when Bert came in. It was +far from being the ideal arrangement, both parents admitted that, but +like a great many other abridgements and changes in the domestic +routine, it worked. The rule was that no one was to interrupt Dad until +he had talked a little to Mother, and had his soup, and this worked +well, too. It was while the soup-plates were going out that Bert +usually lifted his daughter bodily into his arms, and paid some little +attention to his sons. + +But to-night he came rushing in like a boy, and the instant Nancy saw +the cause of his excitement, she was up from her place, and as wild +with pleasure as a girl. The deeds! The actual title to Holly Court! +Then it was all right? It was all right! It was theirs. Nancy showed +the stamped and ruled and folded paper to the children. Oh, she had +been so much afraid that something would go wrong. She had been so +worried. + +Nothing else was talked of that night, or for many days and nights. +Bert said that they might as well move at once, no use paying rent when +you owned a place, and he and Nancy entered into delightful +calculations as to the placing of rugs and tables and chairs. The +things might come out of storage now--wouldn't the banjo clock and the +pineapple bed look wonderful in Holly Court! The children rejoiced in +the parental decision to go and see it again next Sunday, and take +lunch this time, and be all by themselves, and really get to know the +place. + +Curiously, neither Nancy nor Bert could distinctly remember anything +but its most obvious features, now. Just how the stairs came down into +the pantry, and how the doors into the bedrooms opened, they were +unable to remember. But it was perfection, they remembered that. + +And on Sunday, as eager as the children, they went down to Marlborough +Gardens again, to find it all lovelier and better than their memory of +it. After that they went every Sunday until they moved, and Holly Court +seemed to grow better and better. The school and county taxes were +already paid, and the receipts given him, and there was no rent! +Husband and wife, eyeing the dignified disposition of the furniture, +the white crib in the big dressing room next to their own, the boys' +narrow beds separated by strips of rug and neat little dressers, the +spare room with the pineapple bed, and the blue scarfs lettered +"Perugia--Perugia--Perugia"--looked into each other's eyes and said +that they had done well. + + + + +Chapter Twenty + + +The rest of that summer, and the fall, were like an exquisite dream. +All the Bradleys were well, and happier than their happiest dream. +Nancy took the children swimming daily on the quiet, deserted beach +just above the club grounds; on Saturdays and Sundays they all went +swimming. She made her own bed every morning, and the children's beds, +and she dusted the beautiful drawing room, and set the upper half of +the Dutch door at a dozen angles, trying to decide which was the +prettiest. She and Anne made a little ceremony of filling the vases +with flowers, and the boys were obliged to keep the brick paths and the +lawn clear of toys. + +Nancy made a quiet boast in those days that they let the neighbours +alone, and the neighbours let them alone. But she did meet one or two +of the Marlborough Beach women, and liked them. And three times during +the summer she and Bert asked city friends to visit them; times of +pride and pleasure for the Bradleys. Their obvious prosperity, their +handsome children, and the ideal home could not but send everyone away +admiring. It was after the last of these visits that Bert told his wife +that they ought to join the club. + +"I don't quite understand that--don't we belong?" Nancy asked. + +"The Club belongs to all the owners of Marlborough Beach," Bert +explained. "But--but I feel a little awkward about butting in there. +However, now that this fellow Biggerstaff, that I meet so much in the +train, seems to be so well inclined, suppose you and I dress up and +wander over there for tea, on Sunday? We'll leave the kids here, and +just try it." + +Nancy somewhat reluctantly consented to the plan, observing that she +didn't want to do the wrong thing. But it proved the right thing, for +not only did the friendly Biggerstaff come over to the Bradleys +tea-table, but he brought pretty Mrs. Biggerstaff, and left her with +the new-comers while he went off to find other men and women to +introduce. The Bradleys met the Roses, and the Seward Smiths and +gray-haired Mrs. Underhill, with her son, and his motherless boys--the +hour was confused, but heart-warming. When the Bradleys went home in +the Roses' car, they felt that they had been honestly welcomed to +Marlborough Gardens. Nancy was so excited that she did not want any +supper; she sat with Anne in her lap chattering about the social +possibilities opening before her. + +"Rose tells me that the club dues are fifty a year," Bert said, "and +some of the bathhouses are five, and the others twenty each. The +twenties are dandies--twelve feet square, with gratings, and wooden +hooks, and lots of space. However, we don't have to decide that until +next year. Of course you sign for teas and all that but the cards and +card-tables and so on, are supplied by the club, and the tennis courts +and lockers and so on, are absolutely free." + +"Isn't that wonderful?" Nancy said. + +"Well, Rose said they weren't trying to make anything out of it--it's a +family club, and it's here for the general convenience of the Gardens. +Now, for instance, if a fellow from outside joins, he pays one hundred +and fifty initiation fee, and seventy-five a year." + +"H'm!" said Nancy, in satisfaction. The Marlborough Gardens Yacht Club +was not for the masses. "All we need for the children is a five-dollar +bath house," she added presently, "For we're so near that it's really +easier for you and me to walk over in our bathing suits." + +"Oh, sure!" Bert agreed easily. "Unless, of course," he added after a +pause, "all the other fellows do something else." + +"Oh of course!" agreed Nancy, little dreaming that she and her husband +were in these words voicing the new creed that was to be theirs. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-one + + +Up to this time it might have been said that the Bradleys had grasped +their destiny, and controlled it with a high hand. Now their destiny +grasped them, and they became its helpless prey. Neither Nancy nor Bert +was at all conscious of this; in deciding to do just what all the other +persons at the Gardens did, they merely felt that they were accepted, +that they were a part at last of this wholly fascinating and desirable +group. + +At first it meant only that they went to the fortnightly dinner at the +club, and danced, on alternate Saturday nights. Nancy danced +exquisitely, even after her ten busy and tiring years, and Bert was +always proud of her when he saw her dancing. The dances broke up very +late; the Bradleys were reproached for going home at two o'clock. They +both usually felt a little tired and jaded the next day, and not quite +so ready to tramp with the children, or superintend brush fires or +snow-shovelling as had once been their happy fashion. + +But they were fresh and eager at four o'clock when Marlborough Gardens +came in for tea by the fire, or when the telephone summoned them to +some other fireside for tea. It rarely was tea; Nancy wondered that +even the women did not care for tea. They sometimes drank it, and +crunched cinnamon toast, after card parties, but on Saturdays and +Sundays, when men were in the group, stronger drinks were the fashion, +cocktails and highballs, or a bowl of punch. The Bradleys were charming +people, Marlborough Gardens decided warm-heartedly; they had watched +the pretty new-comer and her splashing, sturdy children, all through +the first quiet summer--the children indeed, were all good friends +already. The grown-ups followed suit. + +Motor-cars began to come down the short lane that ended at the gate of +Holly Court, and joyous and chattering men and women to come in to tea. +Nancy loved this, and to see a group of men standing about his blazing +logs filled Bert's heart with pride. It was rather demoralizing in a +domestic sense, dinner was delayed, and their bedtime consequently +delayed, and Dora, the cook was disgruntled at seven o'clock, when it +was still impossible to set the dinner table. But Nancy, rather than +disturb her guests, got a second servant, an enormous Irishwoman named +Agnes, who carried the children off quietly for a supper in the +kitchen, when tea-time callers came, and managed them far more easily +than their mother could. + +Before the second summer came Nancy had come to be ashamed of some of +her economies that first summer. Taking the children informally across +the back of the empty Somers' place, and letting them bathe on the +deserted beach next to the club, wearing faded cottons, and picknicking +as near as the Half Mile Light, seemed rather shabby performances. +These things had seemed luxury a year ago, but she wondered now how she +could have done them. Sometimes she reminded Bert of the much older +times, of the oyster party and the hat-pins, or the terrible summer at +The Old Hill House, but she never spoke of them above her breath. + +On the contrary, she had to watch carefully not to inadvertently admit +to Marlborough Gardens that the financial standing of the Bradleys was +not quite all the heart might have desired. Nancy had no particular +sense of shame in the matter, she would have really enjoyed discussing +finances with these new friends. But money, as money, was never +mentioned. It flowed in a mysterious, and apparently inexhaustible +stream through the hands of these young men and women, and while many +of them knew acute anxiety concerning it, it was not the correct thing +to speak of it. They had various reasons for doing, or not doing, +various things. But money never influenced them. Oliver Rose kept a +boat, kept a car and gave up his boat, took to golf and said he might +sell his big car--but he seemed to be wasting, rather than saving, +money, by these casual transfers. Mrs. Seward Smith said that her +husband wanted her to go into town for the winter, but that it was a +bore, and she hated big hotels. Mrs. Biggerstaff suggested lazily that +they all wait until February and then go to Bermuda, and although they +did not go, Nancy never heard anyone say that the holiday was too +expensive. Everybody always had gowns and maids and dinners enough; +there was no particular display. Old Mrs. Underhill indeed dressed with +the quaint simplicity of a Quaker, and even gay little Mrs. Fielding, +who had been divorced, and was a daughter of the railroad king, Lowell +Lang, said that she hated Newport and Easthampton because the women +dressed so much. She dressed more beautifully than any other women at +Marlborough Gardens, but was quite unostentatious and informal. + +Nancy's cheeks burned when she remembered something she had innocently +said to Mrs. Fielding, in the early days of their acquaintance. The +fare to the city was seventy cents, and Nancy commented with a sort of +laughing protest upon the quickness with which her mileage books were +exhausted, between the boys' dentist appointments, shopping trips, the +trips twice a month that helped to keep Agnes and Dora happy, and the +occasional dinner and theatre party she herself had with Bert. + +"Besides that," she smiled ruefully, "There's the cab fare to the +station, that wretched Kilroy charges fifty cents each way, even for +Anne, and double after ten o'clock at night, so that it almost pays Mr. +Bradley and myself to stay in town!" + +"I never go in the train, I don't believe I've ever made the trip that +way," said Mrs. Fielding pleasantly. And immediately she added, "Thorn +has nothing to do, and it saves me any amount of fatigue, having him +follow me about!" + +"But what do you do with the car, if you stay in for the theatre?" +Nancy asked, a day or two later, after she and Bert had made some +calculations as to the expense of this. + +"Oh, Thorn leaves it in some garage, there are lots of them. And he +gets his dinner somewhere, and goes to a show himself, I suppose!" Mrs. +Fielding said. Nancy made no answer, but when she and Bert were next +held on a Fifth Avenue crossing, she spoke of it again. Hundreds of men +and women younger than Nancy and Bert were sitting in that river of +motor-cars--how easily for granted they seemed to feel them! + +"Just as I am beginning to take my lovely husband and children, and my +beautiful home for granted," Nancy said sensibly, giving herself a +little shake. "We have too much now, and here I am wondering what it +would be like to have a motor-car!" + +And the next day she spoke carelessly at the club of the smaller +bathhouses. + +"This is a wonderful bath house of yours, Mrs. Ingram; but aren't there +smaller ones?" + +Mrs. Ingram, a distinguished-looking, plain woman of forty, with the +pleasantest smile in the world, turned quickly from the big dressing +room she had just engaged, and was inspecting. + +"Yes, there are, Mrs. Bradley, they're in that little green row, right +against the wall of the garages. We had to have them, you know, for the +children, and a bachelor or two, who couldn't use a big one, and then +of course the maids love to go in, in the mornings--my boys used one +until last year, preferred it!" + +And she smiled at the two tall boys in crumpled linen, who were testing +the pegs and investigating the advantages of the room. Nancy had meant +to be firm about that bathhouse, but she did not feel quite equal to it +at this moment. She allowed her fancy to play for one delightful minute +with the thought of a big dressing room; the one right next to Mrs. +Ingram's, with the green awning! + +"But twenty dollars a season is an outrageous rent for a bathhouse!" +she said to Bert that night. + +"Oh, I don't know," he said comfortably, "We've got the money. It +amounts only to about five dollars a month, after all. I vote for the +big one." + +"Well, of course it'll be just the most glorious luxury that ever WAS," +Nancy agreed happily. She loved the water, and Bert enjoyed nothing so +much in the world as an hour's swimming with the children, but before +that second summer was over they could not but see that their +enthusiasm was unshared by the majority of their neighbours. The +children all went in daily, at the stillwater, and the few young girls +Marlborough Gardens boasted also went in, on Sundays, in marvellous +costumes. At these times there was much picturesque grouping on the +pier, and the float, and much low conversation between isolated +couples, while flying soft hair was drying. Also the men of all ages +went in, for perhaps ten minutes brisk overhand exercise, and came +gasping out for showers and rough towelling. + +But Nancy's women friends did not care for sea-bathing, and she came to +feel that there was something just a trifle provincial in the open +joyousness with which the five Bradleys gathered for their Sunday riot. +If there was a morning tide they were comparatively unnoticed, although +there were always a few boats going out, and few men on the tennis +courts. But when the tide was high in the afternoon, even Bert admitted +that it was "darned conspicuous" for the family to file across the +vision of the women who were playing bridge on the porch, and for Anne +to shriek over her water-wings and the boys to yell, as they inevitably +did yell, "Gee--it's cold!" + +Their real reason for more or less abandoning the habit was that there +was so much else to do. Bert played golf, Nancy learned to score tennis +as she watched it, and to avoid applause for errors, and to play +excellent bridge for quarter-cent points. She went to two or three +luncheons sometimes in a single week; and cold Sunday lunches, with +much passing of beer and sharing of plates, were popular at Marlborough +Gardens. Holly Court was especially suited to this sort of hospitality, +and it was an easy sort to extend. Nancy sent the children off with +Agnes, bribed her cook, bribed the laundress to wash all the table +linen twice weekly, and on special occasions employed a large, +efficient Swedish woman from the village for a day, or a week-end. +"I'll get Christiana," was one of the phrases that fell frequently from +Nancy's lips. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-two + + +Miraculously, finances stood the strain. Bert was doing well, and +sometimes made several good commissions together--not as large as the +famous commission, but still important. Neither he nor Nancy kept +accounts any more, bills were paid as they came in, and money was put +into the bank as it came in. Nancy had a check book, but she rarely +used it. Sometimes, when Mrs. Biggerstaff or Mrs. Underhill asked her +to join a Girls' Home Society or demanded a prize for the Charity +Bridge, Nancy liked to show herself ready to help, but for other +purposes she needed no money. She ordered all household goods by +telephone, signed "chits" at the club, kept her bridge winnings loose +in a small enamelled box, ready for losing, and, when she went into +town, charged on her accounts right and left, and met Bert for +luncheon. So that, when they really had their first serious talk about +money, Nancy was able to say with a quite plausible air of innocence, +"Well, Bert, I haven't asked you for one cent since the day I needed +mileage. I don't WASTE money! I never DID." + +"Well, we've got it!" Bert said uncomfortably, on the day of this talk. +He had vaguely hoped, as the month went by, that it was going to show +him well ahead financially. However, if things "broke even," he might +well congratulate himself. Certainly they were having a glorious time, +there was no denying that. + +"Do you recognize us, Bert?" Nancy sometimes asked him exultingly, as +she tucked herself joyously into somebody's big tonneau, or snatched +open a bureau drawer to find fresh prettiness for some unexpected +outing. "Do you remember our wanting to join the Silver River Country +Club! That little club!" + +"Gosh, it's queer!" Bert would agree, grinning. And late in the second +summer he said, "If I put the Buller deal over, I think I'll get a car!" + +"Well, honestly, I think we ought to have a car," Nancy said seriously, +after a flashing look of delight, "It isn't an extravagance at all, +Bert, if you really figure it out. The man does errands for you, saves +you I don't know how much cab fare, takes care of the place, and Mary +Ingram's man has a garbage incinerator--and saves that expense! Then, +it's one of the things you truly ought to have, down here. You have +friends down Saturday, you play golf, you play bridge after +dinner--well and good. Sunday morning we swim, and come home to lunch, +and then what? You can't ask other friends in to lunch and then propose +that they take us in their cars down the island somewhere? And yet +that's what they do; and I assure you it embarrasses me, over and over +again." + +"Oh, we'll have to have a car--I'm glad you see it," said Bert. + +The Buller deal being duly completed, they got their car. The +picturesque garage was no longer useless. A silent, wizened little +Frenchman and his wife took possession of the big room over the +kitchen, Pierre to manage the garden and the car, Pauline to cook--she +was a marvellous cook. Nancy kept Agnes, and got a little maid besides, +who was to make herself generally useful in dining room and bedrooms. + +The new arrangement worked like a charm. There was no woman in the +Gardens who did not envy the Bradleys their cook, and Nancy felt the +possession of Pauline a real feather in her cap. Pauline exulted in +emergencies, and Nancy and Bert experienced a fearful delight when they +put her to the test, and sat bewildered at their own table, while the +dainty courses followed one another from some mysterious source to +which Pauline alone held the clue. + +The children were somewhat in the background now, but they seemed well +cared for, and contented enough when they made their occasional +appearances before their mother's friends. There was a fine private +school in the Gardens, and although the fees for the two boys, with +music lessons twice weekly, came to thirty dollars a month, Nancy paid +it without self-reproach. The alternative was to send them into the +village public school, which was attended by not one single child from +the Gardens. The Ingram boys went away to boarding school at Pomfret, +Dorothy Rose boarded in New York, and the Underbill boys had a tutor, +who also had charge of one or two other boys preparing for college +preparatory schools. While the boys were away Anne drifted about with +her mother, or more often with Agnes, or was allowed to go to play with +Cynthia Biggerstaff or Harriett Fielding. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-three + + +Life spun on. The Bradleys felt that they had never really lived +before. They rushed, laughed, played cards, dressed, danced, and sat at +delicious meals from morning until night. There were so many delightful +plans continually waiting, that sometimes it was hard to choose between +them. The Fieldings wanted them to dine, to meet friends from +Chicago--but that was the same night that the Roses and Joe Underhill +were going in to see the new musical comedy-- + +"This is Bert--" a voice at Nancy's telephone would say, in the middle +of a sweet October morning, "Nance...Tom Ingram picked me up, and +brought me in...and he was saying that Mrs. Ingram has to come into +town this afternoon...and that, since you do, why don't you have Pierre +bring you both in in the car, and meet us after your shopping, and have +a little dinner somewhere and take in a show? You can let Pierre go +back, do you see? ... and the Ingrams will bring us back in their car. +Now, can you get hold of Mrs. Ingram, and fix it up, and telephone me +later? ..." + +Nancy's first thought, so strong is habit, might be that she had just +secured ducks for dinner, Bert's favourite dinner, and that she had +promised Anne to take her with her brothers to see the big cows and +prize sheep at the Mineola Fair. But that could wait, and if Anne and +the boys were promised a little party, and ice cream--and if Pauline +had no dinner to get she would readily make the ice cream-- + +"Ingram is here... he wants to know what you think..." Bert's impatient +voice might say. And Nancy felt that she had no choice but to respond: + +"That will be lovely, Bert! I'll get hold of Mrs. Ingram right away. +And I'll positively telephone you in fifteen minutes." + +The rest of the day would be rush and excitement, Nancy felt that she +never would grow used to the delicious idleness of it all. During the +week there were evenings that might have been as quiet as the old +evenings, nothing happened, and if anybody came in it was only the +Fieldings, or Mrs. Underhill and her son, for a game of bridge. But +domestic peace is a habit, after all, and the Bradleys had lost the +habit. Nancy was restless, beside her own hearth, even while she +spangled a gown for the Hallowe'en ball, and discussed with Bert the +details of the paper chase at the club, and the hunt breakfast to +follow. She would ask Bert what the others were doing to-night, and +would spring up full of eager anticipation when the inevitable rap of +the brass knocker came. + +Saturdays and Sundays were almost always a time of complete absorption. +Everyone had company to entertain, everyone had plans. Nancy and Bert +would come gaily into their home, on a Saturday afternoon, flushed from +a luncheon party, and would entertain the noisy crowd in the dining +room. After that the chugging of motors began again on the drive, and +the watching children saw their parents depart in a trail of gay +laughter. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-four + + +There was a brief halt when a fourth child, Priscilla, was born. It was +in the quiet days that followed Priscilla's birth, that the Bradleys +began to look certain unpleasant facts squarely in the face. They were +running steadily deeper and deeper into debt. There were no sensational +expenditures, but there were odd bills left unpaid, from midsummer, +from early fall, from Christmas. + +"And I don't see where we can cut down," said Bert, gloomily. + +It was dusk of a bitter winter day. Nancy was lying on a wide couch +beside her bedroom fire, Priscilla snuffled in a bassinet near by. In a +lighted room adjoining, a nurse was washing bottles. The coming of the +second daughter had somehow brought husband and wife nearer together +than they had been for a long time, even now Nancy had been wrapped in +peaceful thought; this was like the old times, when she had been tired +and weak, and Bert had sat and talked about things, beside her! She +brought her mind resolutely to bear upon all the distasteful +suggestions contained in his involuntary remark. + +"What specially worries you, Bert?" she asked. + +He turned to her in quick gratitude for her sympathy. + +"Nothing special, dear. We just get in deeper and deeper, that's all. +The table, and the servants, and the car, and your bill at +Landmann's--nothing stays within any limit any more! I don't know where +we stand, half the time. It's not that!" He pulled at his pipe for a +moment in silence. "It's not that!" he burst out, "but I don't think we +get much out of it!" + +Nancy glanced at him quickly, and then stared into the fire for a +moment of silence. Then she said in a low tone: + +"I don't believe we do!" + +"I like Biggerstaff--and I like Rose and Fielding well enough!" Bert +added presently, after profound thought, "but I don't like 'em all day +and all night! I don't like this business of framing something up every +Sunday--a lot of fur coats and robes, and all of us getting out +half-frozen to eat dinners we don't want, all over the place--" + +"And hours and hours of making talk with women I really don't care +about, for me!" Nancy said. "I love Mary Ingram," she said presently, +"and the Biggerstaffs. But that's about all." + +"Exactly," said her husband grimly. "But it's not the Ingrams nor the +Biggerstaffs who made our club bill sixty dollars this month," he added. + +"Bert! It wasn't!" + +"Oh, yes it was. Everyone of us had to take four tickets to the dance, +you know, and we had two bottles of wine New Year's Eve; it all counts +up. But part of it was for Atherton, that cousin of Collins, he asked +me to sign for him because he had more than the regulation number of +guests!" + +"But Bert, he'll surely pay you?" + +"Maybe he will, maybe he won't; it's just one of those things you can't +mention." + +"I could let Hannah go," mused Nancy, "but in the rush last summer I +let her help Pauline--waiting on table. Now Pauline won't set her foot +out of the kitchen for love or money." + +"And Pauline is wished on us as long as we keep Pierre," Bert said, +"No, you'll need 'em all now, with the baby to run. But we'll try to +pull in a little where we can. My bills for the car are pretty heavy, +and we've got a Tiffany bill for the Fielding kid's present, and the +prizes for the card party. That school of the boys--it's worth all +this, is it?" + +Nancy did not answer; her brow was clouded with thought. Doctor, +school, maids, car, table--it was all legitimate expense. Where might +it be cut? For a few minutes they sat in silence, thinking. Then Bert +sighed, shrugged his shoulders, and walked over to look down at +Priscilla. + +"Hello, Goo-goo!" said he: "You're having a grand little time with your +blanket, aren't you?" + +"I'll truly take the whole thing in hand," Nancy said, noticing with a +little pang that dear old Bert was looking older, and grayer, than he +had a few years ago. "When I come downstairs, self-denial week will set +in!" + +Her tone brought him to her side; he stooped to kiss the smiling face +between the thick braids. + +"You always stand by me, Nance!" he said gratefully. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-five + + +There was no stopping half way, however. The current had caught the +Bradleys and it carried them on. There was no expense that could be +lessened without weakening the whole structure. Nancy grew sick of +bills, bills that came in the mail, that were delivered, and that piled +up on her desk. She honestly racked her brain to discover the +honourable solution; there was no solution. Even while she pondered, +Priscilla in her arms, the machinery that she and Bert had so eagerly +constructed went on of its own power. + +"The cleaner's man, Hannah?" Nancy would ask, sighing. "You'll have to +give him all those things; the boys' white coats are absolutely no good +to them until they're cleaned, and Mr. Bradley really needs the vests. +And put in my blue waist, and all those gloves, and the lace waist, +too--no use letting it wait!" + +"The things to-day came collect, Mrs. Bradley," Hannah might +respectfully remind her. + +"Oh, of course! And how much was it?--eleven-forty? Heavens! What made +it so big?" + +"Two suits, and your velvet dress, and one of Anne's dresses. And the +man came for your furs this morning, and the awning place telephoned +that they would send a man out to measure the porches. Mr. Bradley sent +a man back from the station to ask you about plants; but you were +asleep, and I didn't like to wake you!" + +It was always something. Just as Nancy thought that the household +expenses had been put behind her for a few days at least, a fresh crop +sprang up. A room must be papered, the spare room needed curtains, +Bert's racket was broken, the children clamoured for new bathing-suits. +Nancy knew two moods in the matter. There was the mood in which she +simply refused to spend money, and talked darkly to the children of +changes, and a life devoid of all this ridiculous waste; and there was +the mood in which she told herself desperately that they would get +through somehow, everyone else did, one had to live, after all. In the +latter mood she ordered new glasses and new towels, and white shoes for +all four children, and bottles of maraschino cherries, and tins of +caviar and the latest novel, and four veils at a time. + +"Mrs. Albert Bradley, Marlborough Gardens--by self," Nancy said +smoothly, swimming through the great city shops. Sometimes she was a +little scared when the boxes and boxes and boxes came home, but after +all, they really needed the things, she told herself. But needed or +not, she and Bert began to quarrel about money, and to resent each +other's extravagances. The sense of an underlying financial distress +permeated everything they did; Nancy's face developed new expressions, +she had a sharp look for the moment in which Bert told her that he was +going to take their boys and the Underhill boys to the Hippodrome, or +that he was going to play poker again. Bert rarely commented upon her +own recklessness, further than to patiently ejaculate, "Lord!" + +"Why do you say that, Bert?" she might ask, with violent self-control. + +"Nothing, my dear, nothing!" Bert would return to his newspaper, or his +razor. "I was just thinking. No matter!" + +Nancy would stand, eyeing him sulphurously. + +"But just what do you mean, Bert?" she would pursue. "Do you mean that +you don't think I should have gotten the suit? I can't wear that +fur-trimmed suit into the summer, you know. The hat was eighteen +dollars--do you think there's another woman in the Gardens who pays no +more than that? Lots of men haven't four lovely children and a home to +support, they haven't wives who make all their friends welcome, as I +do. Perhaps you feel that they are better off? If you don't--I don't +see what you have to complain about. ..." And she would take her own +way of punishing him for his air of detachment and superiority. Bert +was not blameless, himself. It was all very well for Bert to talk of +economy and self-denial, but Bert himself paid twelve dollars a pair +for his golf-shoes, and was the first man at the club to order +champagne at the dance suppers. + +Smouldering with indignation, Nancy would shrug off her misgivings. Why +should she hesitate over furs and new hangings for the study and the +present for the Appletons, when Bert was so reckless? It would all be +paid for, somehow. + +"And why should I worry," Nancy asked herself, "and try to save a few +cents here and there, when Bert is simply flinging money right and +left?" + +But for all her ready argument, Nancy was sometimes wretchedly unhappy. +She had many a bitter cry about it all--tears interrupted by the +honking of motors in the road, and ended with a dash of powder, a cold +towel pressed to hot eyes, and the cheerful fiction of a headache. It +was all very well to laugh and chat over the tea-cups, to accept +compliments upon her lovely home and her lovely children, but she knew +herself a hypocrite even while she did so. She could not say what was +wrong, but something was wrong. + +Even the children seemed changed to her in these days. The boys were +nice-looking, grinning little lads, in their linen suits and white +canvas hats, but somehow they did not seem to belong to her any more. +Her own boys, whose high chairs had stood in her kitchen a few years +ago, while she cut cookies for them and their father, seemed to have no +confidences to unfold, and no hopes to share with their mother, now. +Sometimes they quite obviously avoided the society of the person who +must eternally send them to wash their hands, and exclaim at the +condition of their knees. Sometimes they whined and teased to go with +her in the motor, and had to be sternly asked by their father if they +wished to be punished. Pierre took them about with him on week days, +and they played with the other boys of the Gardens, eating too much and +staying up too late, but rarely in the way. + +Anne was a shy, inarticulate little blonde now, thin, sensitive, and +plain. Her hair was straight, and she had lost her baby curls. Nancy +did what she could for her, with severe little smocks of blue and lemon +colour, and duly started her to school with the boys. But Anne cried +herself into being sick, at school, and it was decided to keep her at +home for a while. So Anne followed Agnes about, Agnes and the radiant +Priscilla, who was giggling her way through a dimpled, rose-pink +babyhood; the best of the four, and the easiest to manage. Priscilla +chewed her blue ribbons peacefully, through all domestic ups and downs, +and never cried when the grown-ups went away, and left her with Agnes. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-six + + +Worse than any real or fancied change in the children, however, was the +unmistakable change in Bert. Heartsick, Nancy saw it. It was not that +he failed as a husband, Bert would never do that; but the bloom seemed +gone from their relationship, and Nancy felt sometimes that he was +almost a stranger. He never looked at her any more, really looked at +her, in the old way. He hardly listened to her, when she tried to +engage him in casual talk; to hold him she must speak of the immediate +event--the message Joe had left for him, the plan for to-morrow's +luncheon. He was popular with the men, and his wife would hear him +chucklingly completing arrangements with them for this affair or that, +even while she was frantically indicating, with everything short of +actual speech, that she did not want to go to Little Mateo's to dinner; +she did not want to be put into the Fieldings' car, while he went off +with Oliver Rose in his roadster. + +"Are you crazy!" she would exclaim, in a fierce undertone when they +were upstairs dressing, "Didn't you see that I don't want to go +to-night? I can't understand you sometimes. Bert, you'll fall in with a +plan that I absolutely--" + +"Now, look here, Nancy, look here! Weren't you and Mrs. Rose the two +that cooked this whole scheme up last night--" + +"She suggested it, and I merely said that I thought SOMETIME it would +be fun--" + +"Oh, well, if you plan a thing and then go back on it--" + +This led nowhere. In silence the Bradleys would finish their dressing, +in silence descend to the joyous uproar of the cars. But Nancy +despaired of the possibility of ever impressing Bert, through a +dignified silence, with a sense of her displeasure. How could she +possibly be silent under these circumstances? What was the use, anyway? +Bert was tired, irritable, he had not meant to annoy her. It was just +that they both were nervously tense; presently they would find some way +of lessening the strain. + +But--she began to wish that he would not drink quite so much. The other +men did, of course, but then they were more used to it than Bert. +Perhaps this constant stimulation accounted for Bert's nervous +irritability, for the indefinable hardening and estranging. Nancy was +not prudish, she had seen wine on her father's table since she was a +baby, she enjoyed it herself, now and then. But to have cocktails +served even at the women's luncheons; to have every host, whatever the +meal, preface it with the slishing of chopped ice and the clink of tiny +glasses, worried her. Bert even mixed a cocktail when he and she dined +alone now, and she knew that when he had had two or three, he would +want something more, would eagerly ask her if she would like to "stir +up something" for the evening--how about a run over to the Ocean House, +with the Fieldings? And wherever they went, there was more drinking. + +"Let's make a rule," she proposed one day. "Let's confine our +hospitality to persons we really and truly like. Nobody shall come here +without express invitation!" + +"You're on!" Bert agreed enthusiastically. + +Ten minutes later it chanced that two motor-loads of persons they both +thoroughly disliked poured into Holly Court, and Nancy rushed out to +scramble some sandwiches together in the frigid atmosphere of the +kitchen, where Pauline and Hannah were sourly attacking the ruins of a +company lunch. + +"It's maddening," she said to Bert, later, when the intruders had +honked away into the late summer afternoon, "But what can we do? Such a +sweet day, and we have that noisy crowd to lunch, and then this!" + +"Well, we're having a lot of fun out of it, anyway!" Bert said, +half-heartedly. Nancy did not answer. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-seven + + +But Nancy began to ask herself seriously; was it such fun? When house +and maids and children, garden, car, table-linen and clothes had all +been brought to the standard of Marlborough Gardens, was the result +worth while? Who enjoyed them, who praised them? It was all taken for +granted here; the other women were too deep in their own problems to +note more than the satisfactory fact; the Bradleys kept the social law. + +It was a terrible law. It meant that Nancy must spend every waking +moment of her life in thought about constantly changing trifles--about +the strip of embroidered linen that curtained the door, about the +spoons that were placed on the table, about a hundred details of her +dress, about every towel and plate, every stocking and hat-pin she +possessed. She must watch the other women, and see how salad-dressing +must be served, and what was the correct disposition of grapefruit. And +more than that she must be reasonably conversant with the books and +poetry of the day, the plays and the political atmosphere. She must +always have the right clothing to wear, and be ready to change her +plans at any time. She must be ready to run gaily down to the door at +the most casual interruption; leaving Agnes to finish Priscilla's bath +just because Seward Smith felt in a mood to come and discuss the +fairness of golf handicaps with his pretty, sensible neighbour. + +She did not realize that she had been happier years ago, when every +step Junior and Ned and Anne took was with Mother's hand for guide, but +she often found herself thinking of those days with a sort of wistful +pain at her heart. Life had had a flavour then that it somehow lacked +now. She had been tired, she had been too busy. But what richness the +memories had; memories of three small heads about a kitchen table, +memories of limp little socks and crumpled little garments left like +dropped petals in Mother's lap, at the end of the long day. + +"Are we the same people?" mused Nancy. "Have I really my car and my +man; is it the same old Bert whose buckskin pumps and whose silk +handkerchiefs are imitated by all these rich men? No wonder we've lost +our bearings a little, we've gone ahead--if it IS ahead--too fast!" + +They were getting from life, she mused, just what everyone wanted to +get from life; home, friends, children, amusement. They lived near the +greatest city, they could have anything that art and science provided, +for the mere buying, no king could sleep in a softer bed, or eat more +delicious fare. When Mary Ingram asked Nancy to go to the opera matinee +with her, Nancy met women whose names had been only a joke to her, a +few years ago. She found them rather like other persons, simple, +friendly, interested in their nurseries and their gardens and anxious +to reach their own firesides for tea. When Nancy and Bert went out with +the Fieldings they had a different experience; they had dinners that +were works of art, the finest box in the theatre, and wines that came +cobwebbed and dusty to the table. + +So that there was no height left to scale; "if we could only afford +it," mused Nancy. Belle Fielding could afford it, of course; her +trouble was that the Fielding name was perhaps a trifle too surely +connected with fabulous sums of money. And Mary Ingram could afford +anything, despite her simple clothes and her fancy for long tramps and +quiet evenings with her delicate husband and two big boys. Nancy +sometimes wondered that with the Ingram income anyone could be +satisfied with Marlborough Gardens, but after all, what was there +better in all the world? Europe?--but that meant hotel cooking for the +man. Nancy visualized an apartment in a big city hotel, a bungalow in +California, a villa in Italy, and came back to the Gardens. Nothing was +finer than this. + +"If we could only appreciate it!" she said again, sighing. "And if we +need only see the people we like--and if time didn't fly so!" And of +course if there were more money! She reflected that if she might go +back a few years, to the time of their arrival at the Gardens, she +might build far more wisely for her own happiness and Bert's. They had +been drawn in, they had followed the crowd, it was impossible to +withdraw now. Nancy knew that something was troubling Bert in these +days, she guessed it to be the one real cause for worry. She began +almost to hope that he felt financial trouble near, it would be a +relief to fling aside, the whole pretence to say openly and boldly, "we +must economize," and to go back to honest, simple living again. They +could rent Holly Court-- + +Fired with enthusiasm, she looked for her check book, and for Bert's, +and with the counterfoils before her made some long calculations. The +result horrified her. She and Bert between them had spent ten thousand +dollars in twelve months. Nearly ten times the sum upon which they had +been so happy, years ago! The loans upon the property still stood, +twelve thousand dollars, and the additional three, they had never +touched it. There was a bank balance, of course, but as Nancy +courageously opened and read bill after bill, and flattened the whole +into orderly pile under a paper weight, she saw their total far +exceeded the money on hand to meet them. They could wait of course, but +meanwhile debts were not standing still. + +It was a quiet August afternoon; the house was still, but from the +shady lawn on the water side, Nancy could hear Priscilla crooning like +a dove, and hear Agnes's low voice, and Anne's high-pitched little +treble. For a long while she sat staring into space, her brows knit. +Ten thousand dollars--when they could have lived luxuriously for five! +The figures actually frightened her. Why, they should have cleared off +half the mortgage now, they might easily have cleared it all. And if +anything happened to Bert, what of herself and the four children left +absolutely penniless, with a mortgaged home? + +"This is wicked," Nancy decided soberly. "It isn't conscientious. We +both must be going crazy, to go on as we do. I am going to have a long +talk with Bert to-night. This can't go on!" + +"Interrupting?" smiled pretty Mrs. Seward Smith, from the Dutch doorway. + +Nancy jumped up, full of hospitality. + +"Oh, come in, Mrs. Smith. I was just going over my accounts--" + +"You are the cleverest creature; fancy doing that with everything else +you do!" the caller said, dropping into a chair. "I'm only here for one +second--and I'm bringing two messages from my husband. The first is, +that he has your tickets for the tennis tournament with ours, we'll all +be together; so tell Mr. Bradley that he mustn't get them. And then, +what did you decide about the hospital? You see Mr. Ingram promised +fifty dollars if we could find nine other men to promise that, and make +it an even thousand from the Gardens, and Mr. Bradley said that even if +he only gave twenty-five himself he would find someone else to give the +other twenty-five. Tell him there's no hurry, but Ward wants to know +sometime before the first. I didn't know whether he remembered it or +not." + +"I'll remind him!" Nancy promised brightly. She walked with her guest +to the car, and stood in the bright warm clear sunlight smiling +good-byes. "So many thanks for the tickets--and I'll tell Bert about +the hospital to-night!" + +But when the car was gone she went slowly back. She eyed the cool +porchway sombrely, the opened casement windows, the blazing geraniums +in their boxes. Pauline was hanging checked glass towels on the line, +Nancy caught a glimpse of her big bare arms, over the brick wall that +shielded the kitchen yard. It was a lovely home, it was a most +successful establishment; surely, surely, things would improve, it +would never be necessary to go away from Holly Court. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-eight + + +Bert was very late, that night. The children were all asleep, and Nancy +had dined, and was dreaming over her black coffee when, at nine +o'clock, he came in. He was not hungry--just hot and tired--he wanted +something cool. He had lunched late, in town, with both the Pearsalls, +had not left the table until four o'clock. And he had news for her. He +was leaving Pearsall and Pearsall. + +Nancy looked at him stupefied. What did he mean? Panic seized her, and +under her panic something rose and exulted. Perhaps it was +trouble--perhaps Bert needed his wife again! + +"I'm going in for myself," said Bert. "Now, don't look so scared; it +may be slow for a while, but there's big money in it, for me. I'm going +to be Albert Bradley, Real Estate. You see, I've been advising Fred to +handle this new proposition, down the Island, but he's young, and he's +rich, and his father's an old man. Fred won't keep up the business when +old Buck retires. He didn't want to handle it and they both asked me +why I didn't go into it for myself. There's a pot of money in it, +Nance, if I can swing it. However, I never thought of it until +Biggerstaff asked me if I knew about anything of that kind--he's got +some money to put in, and so has Ingram. This was last week. Well, I +went to see. ..." + +Nancy listened, frightened and thrilled. Fear was uppermost; before +this she had seen something of daring business ventures in her southern +childhood. But on the other hand, there was the possibility of "big +money," and they needed money! They needed, as Bert said, to get out of +the ranks, to push in before the next fellow pushed in. She had a +vision of herself telling the other women of the Gardens that Mr. +Bradley had gone into business for himself; that the Pearsalls were +going to throw anything they could his way. It sounded dignified--Bert +with a letter head, and an office in Broadway! + +She was lost in a complacent dream when Bert's voice awakened her. + +"So that, if Buck does lend it, that means the interest on fifty +thousand. ..." + +"Fifty thousand?" Nancy repeated, alarmed. + +"Well, perhaps not quite that. I've got to figure it as closely as I +can. ..." Nancy's colour had faded a trifle. + +"Bert, you would be MAD to get into it, or into anything, as deep as +that!" she said breathlessly. Bert, dashed in the midst of his +confident calculations, turned something like a snarl upon her. + +"Well, what am I going to do?" he asked angrily. "It's all very well +for you to sit there and advise me to keep out of it, but what am I +going to do? It's a chance, and I believe in taking it. I know my +market, I know how these things are handled. If I can swing this in the +next three or four years, I can swing other things. It means that we +step right into the rich class--" + +"But if you fail--?" Nancy suggested, impressed in spite of herself. + +"You keep your end of things going," he urged her, in a sombre voice, +"and I'll take care of mine!" + +"I'll try, Bert, I'll do the best I can." With something of her old, +comradely spirit, she laid her hand on his arm. "I'll let Hannah go--at +least I will as soon as the Berrys' visit is over. And what about our +going to the Sewalls', Bert, that's going to be an expensive trip. +Shall I get out of that?" + +"No," Bert decided thoughtfully. "I may want to get Sewall into this +thing. We'll have to go there--I wish to the deuce we could get rid of +Pauline and Pierre; but I don't see myself taking care of the car, +somehow!" + +"Everyone envies us Pauline," Nancy observed. And seeing that he was +still scowling thoughtfully at his black-coffee cup, she touched his +hand affectionately again, and set herself seriously to soothe him. +"But we'll find ways of economizing, dear. I'll watch the bills, and +I'll scold Pauline again about the butter and eggs and meat that she +wastes. You must remember that you have a big family, Bert. You're +raising four healthy children, and you have a car, and a man, and a +beautiful home, and a delightful group of friends, and two or three +fine clubs--" + +But for once Bert was not easily quieted. He put his head in his hands +and gave a sort of groan. + +"Don't tell me what I've got--I know it all! Lord, I lie awake nights +wondering what would happen to the crowd of you--However!" And +dismissing the topic, he glanced at his watch. "I think I'll turn in +before anybody comes in, Nance. I need sleep." With a long tired yawn, +he started for the big square stairway; paused at her desk. "What're +all those?" + +"Bills, Bert. I'm sorry to have you see them now. But we ought to pay +some of them--I've been going over things, this afternoon. Now, +especially if you're going to make a fresh start, we ought to +straighten things out. We ought to plan that we can spend so much +money, and stick to that." + +Bert flipped the pile with a careless finger. + +"We never will!" he said morosely. "We never HAVE." + +"Oh, Bert--we used to clear everything off on the first of the month, +and then celebrate, don't you remember?" + +He jerked his head impatiently. + +"What's the use of harking back to that? That was years ago, and things +are different now. We'll pull out of it, I'm not worried. Only, where +we can, I think we ought to cut down." + +"Dentist--" Nancy said musingly. She had come over to stand beside him, +and now glanced at one of the topmost bills. "You HAVE to have a +dentist," she argued. + +"Well, I'm too tired to go over 'em now!" Bert said, unsympathetically. +"Leave 'em there--I'll take them all up in a day or two!" + +"But I was thinking," Nancy said, following him upstairs, "That while +you are about it, borrowing money for the new venture, you know--why +not borrow an extra thousand or two, and clear this all up, and then we +can really start fresh. You see interest on a thousand is only fifty +dollars a year, and that--" + +"That's nonsense!" Bert answered, harshly, "Borrowing money for a +business is one thing, and borrowing money to pay for household bills +is another! I don't propose to shame myself before men like Biggerstaff +and Ingram by telling them that I can't pay my butcher's bill!" + +"I wish you wouldn't take that tone with me," Nancy said, sharply, "I +merely meant to make a suggestion that might be helpful--" + +A bitter quarrel followed, the bitterest they had ever known. Bert left +the house without speaking to his wife the next morning, and Nancy +looked out into the still August sunshine with a heavy weight on her +heart, as, scowling, he wheeled the car under the maples, and swept +away. She went about all day long silent and brooding, answering the +children vaguely, and with occasional deep sighs. She told Mrs. Smith +that Mr. Bradley would let her know about the hospital money right +away, and planned a day at the tennis tournament, and a dinner after +it, between periods of actual pain. It was all so stupid--it was all so +sad and hopeless and unnecessary! + +Bert had not meant what he said to her; she had not meant what she said +to him, and they both knew it. But an ugly silence lasted between them +for several days. They spoke to each other civilly, before other +people; they dressed and went about with an outward semblance of +pleasantness, and at home they spoke to the servants and the children. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-nine + + +No formal reconciliation ended this time of discomfort. Guests came to +the house, and Bert addressed his wife with some faint spontaneity, and +Nancy eagerly answered him. They never alluded to the quarrel; it might +have been better if they had argued and cried and laughed away the +pain, in the old way. + +But they needed each other less now, and life was too full to be +checked by a few moments of misunderstanding. Nancy learned to keep +absolutely silent when Bert was launched upon one of his favourite +tirades against her extravagance; perhaps the most maddening attitude +she could have assumed. She would listen politely, her eyes wandering, +her thoughts quite as obviously astray. + +"But a lot you care!" Bert would finish angrily, "You go on and on, +it's charge and charge and charge--SOMEBODY'LL pay for it all! You've +got to do as the other women do, no matter how crazy it is! I ask +you--I ask you honestly, do you know what our Landmann bill was last +month?" + +"I've told you I didn't know, Bert," Nancy might answer patiently. + +"Well, you ought to know!" + +"I know this," Nancy sometimes said gently, "that you are not yourself +to-day; you've been eating too much, drinking too much, and going too +hard. You can't do it, Bert, you aren't made that way. ..." + +Then it was Bert's turn to be icily silent, under the pleasant, even +tones of his wife's voice. Sometimes he desperately planned to break +the rule of hospitality, to frighten Nancy by letting guests and +neighbours see that something was wrong with the Bradleys. But he never +had courage enough, it always seemed simpler and wiser to keep the +surface smooth. Nancy, on her part, saw that there was nothing to gain +by a break of any sort. Bert was not the type to be intimidated by +sulks and silences, and more definite steps might quickly carry the +situation out of her hands. The present with Bert was difficult, but a +future that did not include him was simply unthinkable. No, a woman who +had four young children to consider had no redress; she could only +endure. Nancy liked the martyr role, and frequently had cause, or +imagined she had cause, for assuming it. + + + + +Chapter Thirty + + +"The whole trouble is that Bert loves neither the children nor myself +any more!" she decided bitterly, on a certain August afternoon, when, +with three other young wives and mothers, she was playing bridge at the +club. It was a Saturday, and Bert was on the tennis courts, where the +semi-finals in the tournament were being played. Nancy had watched all +morning, and had lunched with the other women; the men merely snatched +lunch, still talking of the play. Nancy had noticed disapprovingly that +Bert was flushed and excited, her asides to him seemed to fall upon +unhearing ears. He seemed entirely absorbed in what Oliver Rose and Joe +Underhill were saying; he had lost his own chance for the cup, but was +in high spirits, and was to umpire the afternoon games. + +After luncheon Nancy rather discontentedly settled down to bridge, with +Elsie Fielding, Ruth Biggerstaff and a young Mrs. Billings who had only +recently come back to her home in the Gardens, after some years of +travel. They were all pretty and gracious women, and just such a group +as the Nancy of a few years ago would have envied heartily. + +But to-day she felt deeply depressed, she knew not why. Perhaps +watching the tennis had given her a slight headache; perhaps Bert's +cavalier treatment of her latest idea of economizing, submitted to him +only a few hours ago, still rankled in her breast. + +"Bert," she had said to him suddenly, during a breakfast-table +dissertation in which he had dwelt upon the business capability of some +women, and the utter lack of it in others, "Why not rent Holly Court +and go somewhere else for a year or two?" + +Even as she spoke she had been smitten with a sudden dread of all this +must entail for herself. But before she could qualify it, Bert's angry +and impatient answer had come: + +"Don't talk nonsense! Do you want everyone to think that, now I'm out +for myself, I can't make a go of it? What would Ingram and Biggerstaff +think, if I began to talk money tightness? I didn't leave the firm, and +strike out for myself to give in this soon!" + +Nancy had shrunk back, instantly silenced. She had not spoken to him +again until Oliver Rose called, to remind them of the tennis, and then, +hating herself while she did it, Nancy had forced herself to speak to +Bert, and Bert had somewhat gruffly replied. Once at the club, all +signs of the storm must be quickly brushed aside, but the lingering +clouds lay over her heart now, and she felt desolate and troubled. She +did not want to excuse herself and go home, she did not want to go out +and watch more tennis, but she felt vaguely that she did not want to +play bridge, either. The other women bored her. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-one + + +Dummy again. She seemed to be dummy often, this afternoon. They were +playing for quarter cents, but even that low stake, Nancy thought +irritably, ran up into a considerable sum, when one's partner bid as +madly as young Mrs. Billings bid. She was doubled, and redoubled, and +she lost and lost; Nancy saw Elsie's white hand, with its gold pencil, +daintily scoring four hundred--two hundred--three hundred. + +"I thought I might as well try it," said Mrs. Billings blithely, "but +you didn't give me much help, partner!" + +"I didn't bid, you know," Nancy reminded her. + +"Oh, I know you didn't--it was entirely my own fault! Well, now, let's +try again. ..." + +Suddenly it seemed to Nancy all wrong--her sitting here in the tempered +summer light, playing cards throughout the afternoon. Inherited from +some conscientious ancestor, shame stirred for a few minutes in her +blood and she hated herself, and the club, and the women she played +with. This was not a woman's work in the world. Her children scattered +about their own affairs, her household in the hands of strange women, +her husband playing another game, with other idle men, and she, the +wife and mother and manager, sitting idle, with bits of pasteboard in +her hands. She was not even at home, she was in a public club-- + +She laughed out, as the primitive wave of feeling brought her to the +crude analysis. It was funny--life was funny. For a few strange minutes +she felt as curiously alien to the Marlborough Gardens Yacht Club as if +she had been dropped from another world on to its porch. She had been a +tired, busy woman, a few years ago; by what witchcraft had she been +brought to this? Mrs. Billings was playing four hearts, doubled. Nancy +was too deep in uneasy thought to care much what befell the hand. She +began to plan changes, always her panacea in a dark mood. She would +give up daytime playing, like Mary Ingram. And she would never play +except at home, or in some other woman's home. Nancy was no prude, but +she was suddenly ashamed. She was ashamed to have new-comers at the +club pass by, and see that she had nothing else to do, this afternoon, +but watch a card game. + +Sam Biggerstaff came to the door, and nodded to his wife. Nancy smiled +at him; "Will I do?" No, he wanted Ruth. + +So his wife put her cards in Nancy's hand, and went out to talk to him. +Nancy laughed, when she came back. + +"You score two tricks doubled, Ruth. I think that's too hard, after I +played them!" + +"Shameful!" said Mrs. Biggerstaff, in her breathless way, slipping into +her seat. Two or three more hands were played, then Mrs. Fielding said +suddenly: + +"Is the tennis finished? Who won? Aren't they all quiet--all of a +sudden?" + +The other two women glanced up idly, but Mrs. Biggerstaff said quietly: + +"I dealt. No trumps." + +"Right off, like that!" Nancy laughed. But Mrs. Billings said: + +"No--but AREN'T they quiet? And they were making such a noise! You know +they were clapping and laughing so, a few minutes ago!" + +"They must have finished," Mrs. Fielding said, looking at her hand +quizzically. "You said no trump. Partner, let's try two spades!" + +"Billy was going to come in to tell me," persisted Mrs. Billings, "Just +wait a minute--!" And leaning back in her chair, she called toward the +tea-room. "Steward; will you send one of the boys down to ask how the +tennis went? Tell Mr. Billings I want to know how it went!" + +The steward came deferentially forward. + +"I believe they didn't finish their game, Mrs. Billings. The fire--you +know. I think all the gentlemen went to the fire--" + +"Where is there a fire!" demanded two or three voices. Nancy's +surprised eyes went from the steward's face to Mrs. Biggerstaff's, and +some instinct acted long before her fear could act, and she felt her +soul grow sick within her. + +"Where is it?" she asked, with a thickening throat, and then +suspiciously and fearfully. "Ruth, WHERE WAS IT?" And even while she +asked, she said to herself, with a wild hurry and flutter of mind and +heart, "It's our house--that's what Sam stopped to tell Ruth--it's +Holly Court--but I don't care--I don't care, as long as Agnes was +there, to get the children out--" + +It was all instantaneous, the steward's stammering explanation, Ruth +Biggerstaff's terrified eyes, the little whimper of fear and sympathy +from the other women. Nancy felt that there was more--more-- + +"What'd Sam tell you, Ruth? For God's sake--" + +"Now, Nancy--now, Nancy--" said the Mrs. Biggerstaff, panting like a +frightened child, "Sam said you weren't to be frightened--we don't know +a thing--listen, dear, we'll telephone! That's what we'll do--it was +silly of me, but I thought perhaps we could keep you from being +scared--from just this--" + +"But--but what did you hear, Ruth? Who sent in the alarm?" Nancy asked, +with dry lips. She was at the club, and Holly Court seemed a thousand +impassable miles away. To get home--to get home-- + +"Your Pauline telephoned! Nancy, wait! And she distinctly said--Sam +told this of his own accord--" Mrs. Biggerstaff had her arms tight +about Nancy, who was trembling very much. Nancy's agonized look was +fixed with pathetic childish faith upon the other woman's eyes. "Sam +told me that she distinctly said that the children were all out with +Agnes! She asked to speak to Bert, but Bert was watching a side-line, +so Sam came--" + +Nancy's gaze flashed to the clock that ticked placidly over the wide +doorway. Three o'clock. And three o'clock said, as clearly as words +"Priscilla's nap." Agnes had tucked her in her crib, with a +"cacker"--and had taken the other children for their promised walk with +the new puppy. Pauline had rushed out of the house at the first alarm-- + +And Priscilla's mother was here at the club. Nancy felt that she was +going to get dizzy, she turned an ashen face to Mrs. Biggerstaff. + +"The baby--Priscilla!" she said, in a sharp whisper. "Oh, Ruth--did +they remember her! Oh, God, did they remember her! Oh, baby--baby!" + + + + +Chapter Thirty-two + + +The last words were no more than a breath of utter agony. A second +later Nancy turned, and ran. She did not hear the protest that followed +her, nor realize that, as she had taken off her wide-brimmed hat for +the card-game, she was bare-headed under the burning August sun. She +choked back the scream that seemed her only possible utterance, and +fought the deadly faintness that assailed her. Unhearing, unseeing, +unthinking, she ran across the porch, and down the steps to the drive. + +Here she paused, checkmated. For every one of the motor-sheds was +empty, and not a car was in sight on the lawns or driveway, where +usually a score of them stood. The green, clipped grass, and the +blossoming shrubs, baking in the afternoon heat, were silent and +deserted. The flame of geraniums, and the dazzle of the empty white +courts, smote her eyes. She heard Mrs. Fielding's feet flying down the +steps, and turned a bewildered, white face toward her. + +"Elsie--there's not a car! What shall I do?" + +"Listen, dear," said the new-comer, breathlessly, "Ruth is telephoning +for a car--" + +But Nancy's breath caught on a short, dry sob, and she shook her head. + +"All the way to the village--it can't be here for half an hour! Oh, no, +I can't wait--I can't wait--" + +And quite without knowing what she did, or hoped to do, she began to +run. The crunched gravel beneath her flying feet was hot, and the mile +of road between her and Holly Court lay partly in the white sunlight, +but she thought only of Priscilla--the happy, good, inexacting little +baby, who had been put in her crib--with her "cacker"--and left +there--and left there-- + +"My baby!" she said out loud, in a voice of agony. "You were having +your nap--and mother a mile away!" + +She passed the big stone gateway of the club, and the road--endless it +looked--lay before her. Nancy felt as helpless as one bound in a +malignant dream. She could make no progress, her most frantic efforts +seemed hardly more than standing still. A sharp pain sprang to her +side, she pressed her hand over it. No use; she would only kill herself +that way, she must get her breath. + +Oh, why had she left her--even for a single second! So small, so gay, +so helpless; how could any mother leave her. She had been so merry, in +her high chair at breakfast, she had toddled off so dutifully with +Agnes, when Nancy had left the doleful boys and the whimpering Anne, to +go to the club. The little gold crown of hair--the small buckskin +slippers--Nancy could see them now. They were the real things, and it +was only a terrible dream that she was running here through the +merciless heat-- + +"Get in here, Mrs. Bradley!" said a voice. One of the Ingram boys had +brought his roadster to a stop beside her. She turned upon him her +tear-streaked face. + +"Oh, Bob, tell me--what's happened?" + +"I don't know," he said, in deep concern. "I just happened to go into +the club, and Mrs. Biggerstaff sent me after you! I don't know--I guess +it's not much of a fire!" + +Nancy did not answer. She shut her lips tight, and turned her eyes +toward the curve in the road. Even while they rushed toward it, a great +mushroom of smoke rose and flattened itself against the deep blue +summer sky, widening and sinking over the tops of the trees. Presently +they could hear the confused shouts and groans that always surround +such a scene, and the hiss of water. + +A turn of the road; Holly Court at last. Her escort murmured something, +but Nancy did not answer. She had only one sick glance for the scene +before them; the fringe of watchers about the house, the village +fire-company struggling and shouting over the pitifully inadequate +hose, the shining singed timbers of Holly Court. A great funnel of heat +swept up above the house, and the green under-leaves on the trees +crackled and crisped. From the casement windows smoke trickled or +puffed, the roof was falling, in sections, and at every crash and every +uprush of sparks the crowd uttered a sympathetic gasp. + +The motor, curving up on the lawn, passed the various other vehicles +that obstructed the drive. As the mistress of the house arrived, and +was recognized, there was a little pitiful stir in the crowd. Nancy +remembered some of this long afterward, remembered seeing various +household goods--the piano, and some rugs, and some loose +books--carefully ranged at one side, remembered a glimpse of Pauline +crying, and chattering French, and Pierre patting his wife's shoulder. +She saw familiar faces, and unfamiliar faces, as in a dream. + +But under her dream hammered the one agonized question: The +children--the children--ah, where were they? Nancy stumbled from the +car, asked a sharp question. The villager who heard it presented her a +blank and yet not unkindly face. He didn't know, ma'am, he didn't know +anything--he had just come. + +She knew now that she was losing her reason, that she would never be +sane again if anything--anything had happened-- + +The crowd parted as she ran forward. And she saw, with a lightning look +that burned the picture on her brain for all her life, the boys blessed +little figures--and Anne leaning on her father's knee, as he sat on an +overturned bookcase--and against Bert's shoulder the little fat, soft +brown hand, and the sunny crown of hair that were Priscilla's-- + + + + +Chapter Thirty-three + + +Blinded with an exquisite rush of tears, somehow Nancy reached them, +and fell on her knees at her husband's side, and caught her baby to her +heart. Three hundred persons heard the sobbing cry she gave, and the +flames flung off stars and arrows for more than one pair of sympathetic +eyes. But she neither knew nor cared. She knew only that Bert's arms +and the boys' arms were about her, and that Anne's thin little cheek +was against her hair, and that her hungry lips were devouring the +baby's sweet, bewildered face. She was crying as if there could be no +end to her tears, crying happily and trying to laugh as she cried, and +as she let the waves of relief and joy sweep over her in a reviving +flood. + +Bert was in his shirt sleeves, and Priscilla still had on only the +short embroidered petticoat that she wore while she slept; her small +feet were bare. The boys were grimed with ashes and soot, and Anne was +pale and speechless with fright. But they were all together, father, +mother, and children, and that was all that mattered in the world--all +that would ever count, for Nancy, again. + +"Don't cry, dearest!" said Bert, the tears streaming down his own +blackened face. "She's all right, dear! We're all here, safe and sound, +we're all right!" + +But Nancy cried on, her arms strained about them all, her wet face +against her husband's, and his arm tight across her shoulder. + +"Oh, Bert--I ran so! And I didn't know--I didn't know what to be afraid +of--what to think! And I RAN so--!" + +"You poor girl--you shouldn't have done it. But dearest, we're all +right now. What a scare you got--and my God, what a scare _I_ got! But +I got to her, Nance--don't look so, dear. I was in plenty of time, and +even if I hadn't been, Agnes would have got her out. She ran all the +way from Ingrams' and she was only a few minutes after me! It's all +right now, Nance." + +Nancy dried her eyes, swaying back on her knees to face him. + +"I was playing cards--Bert, if anything had happened I think I should +never have been sane again--" + +"I was on the court, you know," Bert said. "Underhill's kid came up, on +his bicycle. He shouted at me, and I ran, and jumped into the car, Rose +following. I met Agnes, running back to the house, with the children--I +called out 'Where's Priscilla?' and she shouted back--she shouted +back:' Oh, Mr. Bradley--oh, Mr. Bradley--'" And overcome by the hideous +recollection, Bert choked, and began to unbutton and button the top of +his daughter's little petticoat. + +"We were all out walkin'," Ned volunteered eagerly. "And Joe Underbill +went by on his bike. And he yelled at us, 'You'd better go home, your +house is on fire!' and Anne began to cry, didn't you, Anne? So Agnes +said a prayer, right out loud, didn't she, Junior? And then Dad and Mr. +Rose went by us in the car on a run--we were way up by Ingrams'--and +then Anne and Agnes cried, and I guess we all cried some--" + +"And mother, lissun," Junior added. "They didn't get the baby out until +after they got out the piano! They got the piano out before they got +Priscilla! Because Pauline ran over to Wallaces', and Hannah was +walking into the village for the mail, and when Dad got here and yelled +to the men, they said they hadn't seen any baby--they thought the house +was empty--" + +Nancy turned deathly pale, her eyes reaching Bert's, her lips moving +without a sound. + +"I tried the front stairway, but it was--well, I couldn't," Bert said. +"I kept thinking that she must have been got out, by somebody--but I +knew it was only a question of minutes--if she wasn't! All the time I +kept saying 'You're a fool--they couldn't have forgotten her--!' and +Rose kept yelling that she must be somewhere, with someone, but I +didn't--somehow I didn't dare let the few minutes we had go by without +making sure! So I ran round to the side, and got in that window, and +unlocked that door; Hannah must have locked it. I ran upstairs--she was +just waking up. She was sitting up in her crib, rubbing her eyes, and a +little bit scared and puzzled--smoke was in there, then--but she held +out her little arms to me--I was in time, thank God--I thought we'd +never get here--but we were in time!" + +And again overcome by the memory of that moment, he brushed his +brimming eyes against Priscilla's bright little head, and his voice +failed. + +"But Baby couldn't have burned--Baby couldn't have burned, could she, +Mother?" Anne asked, bursting suddenly into bitter crying. Her anxious +look had been going from one face to another, and now she was half +frantic with fright. + +Nancy sat down on a box, and lifted her elder daughter into her lap. + +"No, my precious, Daddy was in time," she said, in her old firm +motherly voice, with her comforting arms about the small and tearful +girl. "Daddy and Mother were both rushing home as fast as they could +come, that's what mothers and fathers are for. And now we're all safe +and sound together, and you mustn't cry any more!" + +"But our house is burned down!" said Junior dolefully. "And you're +crying, Mother!" he added accusingly. + +Nancy smiled as she dried her eyes, and dried Anne's, and the children +laughed shakily as she exhibited the sooty handkerchief. + +"Mother's crying for joy and gratitude and relief, Junior!" she said. +"Why," and her reassuring voice was a tonic to the children, "Why, what +do Dad and I care about an old house!" she said cheerfully. "We'd +rather have ten houses burn down than have one of you children sick, +even for a day!" + +"Don't you care?" exulted Anne between two violent kisses, her lips +close to her mother's, her thin arms tight about her mother's neck. + +"We care about you, and the boys, and the baby, Anne," said Bert, "but +that's all. Why, I sort of think I'm glad to see that house burn down! +It used to worry Mother and me a good deal, and now it won't worry us +any more! How about that, Mother?" + +And his reddened eyes, in his soot--and perspiration-streaked face, met +Nancy's with the old smile of fun and courage, and her eyes met his. +Something the children missed passed between them; hours of +conciliatory talk could not have accomplished what that look did, years +of tears and regret would not so thoroughly have washed away the +accumulated burden of heartache and resentment and misunderstanding. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-four + + +"Then we're going to be gipsies, aren't we?" exulted Junior. + +His mother had straightened her hair, and turned the box upon which she +sat for the better accommodation of Anne and herself. Now she was +placidly watching the flames devour Holly Court; the pink banners that +blew loose in the upswirling gray fumes, and the little busy sucking +tongues that wrapped themselves about an odd cornice or window frame +and devoured it industriously. She saw her bedroom paper, the green +paper with the white daisies--Bert had thought that a too-expensive +paper--scarred with great gouts of smoke, and she saw the tangled pipes +of her own bathroom curve and drop down in a blackened mass, and all +the time her arm encircled Anne, and the child's heart beat less and +less fitfully, and Nancy's soul was steeped in peace. + +"You'll get some insurance, Bert?" asked one of the many neighbours who +were hovering about the family group, waiting for a suitable moment in +which to offer sympathy. The first excitement of the reunion over, they +gathered nearer; Fielding and Oliver Rose coatless and perspiring from +their struggles with the furniture, a dozen others equally concerned +and friendly. + +"Fourteen thousand," grinned Bert, "and I carry a thirteen-thousand +loan on her!" + +"Gosh, that is tough luck, Brad! She's a dead loss then, for she's gone +like paper, and there won't be ten dollars' worth of salvage. You had +some furniture insurance?" + +"Not a cent!" Bert said cheerfully. He glanced about at his excited +sons; his wife, bareheaded, and still pale, if smiling; his daughter +just over her tears; and his baby, plump and happy in her little white +petticoat. "I guess we got most everything out of the house that I care +much about!" smiled Bert. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-five + + +For two hours more the Bradleys sat as they were, and watched the swift +ruin of their home. Nancy's hot face cooled by degrees, and she showed +an occasional faint interest in the details of the calamity; this chair +was saved, that was good; this clock was in ruins, no matter. She did +not loosen her hold on Anne, and the little girl sat contentedly in her +mother's lap, but the boys foraged, and shouted as they dashed to and +fro. Over and over again she reassured them; it was too bad, of course, +but Mother and Dad did not mind very much. She thanked the neighbours +who brought chairs and pillows and odd plates, and piled them near her. + +She and Bert were wrapped in a sort of stupor, after the events of the +hot afternoon. Bert seemed to forget that a meal and a sleeping place +must be provided for his tribe, and that his face was shockingly dirty, +and he wore no coat. He found it delicious to have the placid Priscilla +finish her interrupted nap in his arms, and enjoyed his sons' comments +as they came and went. Neither husband nor wife spoke much of the fire, +but a rather gay conversation was carried on and there was much +philosophical laughter of the sort that such an occasion always breeds. + +"I might know that you would save that statue, Jack," said Bert to one +of the young Underhills. "We've been trying to break that for eleven +years!" + +"If that's the case," the youth said solemnly, and Nancy's old happy +laugh rang out as he flung the plaster Psyche in a smother of white +fragments against the chimney. + +"I suppose it would be only decent for me to get started at something," +she said, after a while. "It seems senseless to sit here and merely +watch--" + +"For pity's sake sit still if you can," old Mrs. Underbill said +affectionately. "The fire company's going, and people are all leaving +now, anyway. And we've got to go, too, but Joe will be over again +later--to bring you back with us. Just try to keep calm, Nancy, and +don't worry!" + +Worry? Nancy knew that she had not been so free from actual worry for a +long, long time. She remembered a dinner engagement with a pleasant +reflection that it could not be kept. To-morrow, too, with its +engagement to play cards and dine and dance, was now freed. And +Monday--when she had promised to go to town and look for hats with +Dorothy, and Tuesday, when those women were coming for lunch--it was +all miraculously cancelled. A mere chance had loosed the bonds that +neither her own desperate resolution nor Bert's could break. She was +Nancy Bradley again, a wife and mother and housekeeper first, and +everything else afterward. + +What would they do now--where would they go? She did not care. She had +been afraid of a hundred contingencies only this morning, fretted with +tiny necessities, annoyed by inessential details. Now a real event had +come along, and she could breathe again. + +"I wonder what I've been afraid of, all this time?" mused Nancy. And +she smiled over a sudden, mutinous thought. How many of the women she +knew would be glad to have their houses burned down between luncheon +and dinner on a summer Saturday? She turned to Bert. "Pierre and +Pauline may now consider themselves as automatically dismissed," she +said. + +"They have already come to that conclusion," Bert said, with some +relish. "I am to figure out what I owe them, and mail them a check. +Some of their things they got out--most of them, I guess. I saw someone +putting their trunk on a wagon, awhile back, and I imagine that we have +parted forever." + +"Hannah transfers herself this night to the Fielding menage," Nancy +added after a while. "Which reduces our staff to Agnes. I never want to +part with Agnes. You can't buy tears and loyalty like that; they're a +gift from God, Where do we spend the night, by the way?" + +Bert gazed at her calmly. + +"I have not the faintest idea, my dear woman!" Then they laughed in the +old fashion, together. + +"But do look at the sunlight coming down through the trees, and the +water beyond there," Nancy presently said. "Isn't it a lovely +place--Holly Court? Really this is a wonderful garden." + +"That's what I was thinking," Bert agreed. It had been many months, +perhaps years, since the Bradleys had commented upon the sunlight, as +it fell all summer long through the boughs of their own trees. + +Gradually the crowd melted away, and the acrid odour of wet wood +mingled with the smell of burning. And gradually that second odour gave +way to the persuasive sweetness of the summer evening, the sharp, +delicate fragrance that is loosed when the first dew falls, and the +perfumes of reviving flowers. Holly Court still smoked sulkily, and +here and there in its black ruins some special object flamed brightly: +Nancy's linen chest and the pineapple bed went on burning when the +other things were done. It was nearly sunset when the Bradleys walked +slowly about the wreck, and laughed or bemoaned themselves as they +recognized what was gone, or what was left. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-six + + +That night they slept in the garage. With a flash of her old +independence, Nancy so decided it. She was firm in declining the +hospitable offers that would have scattered the Bradleys among the +neighbouring homes for the night. + +"No, no--we're all together," Nancy said, smiling. "I don't want to +separate again, for a while." She calmly estimated the salvage--beds +and bedding, some chairs, rugs, and small tables, tumbled heaps of the +children's clothes, and odd lots of china and glass. + +Priscilla was presently set to amuse herself, on a rug on the lawn, and +the enraptured children and Agnes and the new puppy bustled joyfully +about among the heterogeneous possessions of the evicted family, under +Nancy's direction. There was much hilarity, as the new settling began, +the boys were miracles of obedience and intelligence, and Anne laughed +some colour into her face for the first time in weeks. Nancy was in her +element, there was much to do, and she was the only person who knew how +it should be done. Even Bert stood amazed at her efficiency, and +accepted her orders admiringly. + +In the exquisite summer twilight she sent him to the Biggerstaffs'. +Nobody had yet found sleeping wear for the man of the family, that was +message one. And message two was the grateful acceptance of the fresh +milk that had been offered. Everybody he met wanted to add something to +these modest demands. Bert had not felt himself so surrounded with +affection and sympathy for many years. At seven o'clock he was back at +the garage, heavily laden, but cheerful. + +Nancy leaned out of the upper window, where geraniums in boxes bloomed +as they had bloomed when first the Bradleys came to Holly Court and +called out joyfully, "See how nice we are!" The children, laughing and +stumbling over each other, were carrying miscellaneous loads of +clothing and bedding upstairs. Bert picked up two pillows and an odd +bureau drawer full of garments, and followed them. His wife, busy and +smiling, greeted him. + +"That's lovely, dear--and that just about finishes us, up here. You see +we've cleared out these two big rooms, and the Ingrams' man came just +in time to set up the beds. This is our room, and Agnes and the girls +will have the other. The boys will have to sleep on the double couch +downstairs, to-morrow they can have a tent on the lawn right back of +us. Bring that drawer here, it goes in this chest. I thought it was +missing, but we'll straighten everything out to-morrow, and see where +we stand. The piano's out there on the lawn, and I wish you'd cover it +with something, unless you get some one after supper to help you move +it in. It goes in the corner where the boys' sleds were, downstairs. +Supper's ready, Bert, if you are!" + +"Perhaps you'd like me to dress?" Bert said, deeply amused. Anne and +her brothers laughed uproariously, as they all went down the narrow +stairs. + +"No, but do come down and see how nice it is!" his wife said eagerly. +Hanging on his arm, she showed him the comfort downstairs. The big room +that had been large enough to house two cars had been swept, and the +rugs laid over the concrete floor. Through a westerly window crossed by +rose-vines the last light of the long day fell softly upon a small +table set for supper. Priscilla was already in her high chair demanding +food. At the back of the room, on the long table once used for tools +and tubes, Agnes was busy with a coal-oil stove and Nancy's copper +blazer. A heartening aroma of fresh coffee was mingling with other good +odours from that region. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-seven + + +Contentedly, the Bradleys dined. Bert served scrambled eggs and canned +macaroni to the ravenous children--a meal that was supplemented by a +cold roast fowl from the Rose's, a sheet of rolls brought at the last +moment by the Fieldings' man, sweet butter and peach ice-cream from the +Seward Smiths, and a tray of various delicacies from the concerned and +sympathetic Ingrams. Every one was hungry and excited, and more than +once the boys made their father shout with laughter. They were amusing +kids, his indulgent look said to his wife. + +At the conclusion of the meal little Anne went around the table, and +got into her father's lap. + +"'Member I used to do this when I was just a little girl?" Anne asked, +happily. Nancy and Bert looked for a second at each other over the +relaxed little head. It was almost dark now, Priscilla was silent in +her mother's arms, even the boys were quiet. Bert smoked, and Nancy +spoke now and then to the sleepy baby. + +It was with an effort that she roused herself, to lead the little +quartette upstairs. And even as she did so she remembered this old +sensation, the old reluctance to leave after-dinner quiet and +relaxation for the riot of the nursery. Smiling, she carried the baby +upstairs, and settled the chattering children in all the novelty of the +bare wide rooms. + +Bert could hear the diminishing trills of talk and laughter, the +repeated good-nights. The oblong of light from the upper window faded +suddenly from the lawn. Somewhere from the big closet at the back, +lately filled with slip-covers and new tires, Agnes hummed over the +subdued click and tinkle of dishes and silver, and he could hear +Nancy's feet coming carefully down the steep, unfamiliar stairway. +Presently she joined him in the soft early darkness of the doorway, +silently took the wide arm of his porch-chair, and leaned against his +shoulder. Bert put his arm about her. + +It was a heavenly summer evening, luminous even before the moon-rising. +The last drift of smoke was gone, and the garden drenched with scent. +Under the first stars the shrubs and trees stood in panoramic +perspective; the lawns looked wide and smooth. Down the street, under a +dark arch of elms, the lights of other houses showed yellow and warm; +now and then a motor-car swept by, sending a circle of white light for +a few moments against the gloom. + +"Dead, dear?" Bert asked, after awhile. Nancy sighed contentedly before +she answered: + +"Tired, of course--a little!" + +"Well," summarized Bert, after another pause, "we have now reduced our +problem somewhat. A man, his wife, his children. There we are!" + +"A roof above his head, a maid-servant, and all the Sunday meals in the +house!" Nancy added optimistically. + +"A barn roof," amended Bert. + +"Barns have sheltered babies before this," Nancy reflected whimsically. +Again she sighed. "I suppose babies do burn to death, sometimes, Bert? +One sees it in the paper; just a line or two. I remember--" + +"Don't let your mind dwell on that side of it, Nance. For that matter a +brick might fall off the roof on our heads now." + +"Yes, I know. But Priscilla was my responsibility, and I was a mile +away." + +"You'll be a mile away from her many a time and oft," Bert reminded her +wholesomely. + +"When I have to be," she conceded, slowly. "But to-day--" Her voice +sank, and Bert, glancing sidewise at her, saw that her face was very +thoughtful. "Bert," she said, "we have a good deal to be thankful for." + +"Everything in the world!" + + + + +Chapter Thirty-eight + + +Another silence. Then Nancy said briskly: + +"Well! Listen to what I've planned, Bert, and tell me what you think. +Item one: this is vacation, but when it's over I want to start Anne and +the boys in at the village school. They can cut right across the field +at the back here, it's just a good walk for them. They're frantic to +go, instead of to Fraulein, and I'm perfectly satisfied to have them!" + +"Sure you are?" the man asked, a little touched, for this had been a +long-disputed point. + +"Oh, quite! Just as you and I did. And then, item two: Agnes is a good +plain cook, and Priscilla is an angel. I'll walk to market every day, +and send out the laundry, and keep Priscilla with me. So that makes +Agnes our entire domestic staff--she's enthusiastic, so don't begin to +curl your lips over it. Then we'll have to have a floor in here, and +cut a window in the closet back there, and put in a little gas stove, +and before winter we'll put on a little addition--a kitchen in back, +with a room for the boys above. And we'll shut the big double doors, +and I'll have another window box right across their windows, and +curtain the whole place in plain net. The boys can sleep in the tent +for the time being. There's a furnace, but we'll have to make some +provision for coal--" + +"But, my good woman, you don't propose to make this arrangement +permanent, I suppose?" Bert said, bewilderedly. "Why, I meant to spend +to-morrow looking about--" + +"Why shouldn't it be permanent?" Nancy demanded. "We can kitch and dine +and sit in the big room, we'll have all the room we want, upstairs. +It's the only place in the world where we don't have to pay rent. It's +quiet, it's off the main road, nobody will see what we are doing here, +and nobody'll care!" + +"They'll see us fast enough," Bert said doubtfully. "I never heard of +any one doing it--I don't know what people would say!" + +"Bert," Nancy assured him seriously, "I don't care what they say. I've +been thinking it all over, and I believe I can risk the opinion of +Marlborough Gardens! Some of them will drop us, and you and I know who +they are. How much do we care? And the others will realize that we are +hard hit financially, and trying to catch up. Mary Ingram came over +while you were away, perfectly aghast. She had just heard of it. I told +her what we were trying to do, and she said--well, she said just the +one thing that really could have helped me. She said: 'You'll have +great fun--we lived in our garage while the house was being built, and +it was quite the happiest summer we ever had down here!'" Nancy had +squared herself on the arm of his chair so that Bert could see her +bright eyes in the dark. "It was just like Mary, to put it that way," +she went on. "For of course even Holly Court was never as large as the +Ingrams' garage, and all those brick arches and things join it to the +house anyway, but it made me think how much wiser it is to do things +your own way, instead of some other people's way! And, Bert, we're +going to have such fun! We'll keep the car, and you can run it on +Sundays, and perhaps I will a little, during the week, and at night or +when it rains we can cover it with a tarpaulin, and we'll have picnics +with the children all summer long! And I'll make you 'chicken Nancy' +again, and popovers, on Sunday mornings! I love to cook. I love to tell +stories to children. I love to pack mashy suppers and get all dirty and +hot dragging them to the beach, and I love to stuff my own Thanksgiving +turkey, in my own way! We haven't had a real Thanksgiving turkey for +four or five years! We'll have no rent--Agnes gets thirty--light will +be almost nothing, and coal about a tenth of what it was--Bert, we'll +spend about two hundred a month, all told!" + +"I don't say yet that you ought to try it," Bert said suddenly, in his +old, excited, earnest way. "But of course that would--well, it would +just about make me. I could plunge into the other thing, I wouldn't +have this place on my mind!" + +"There are some bills, you know, Bert." + +"The extra thousand will take care of those!" + +"So that we start in with a clean slate. Oh, Bert!" Nancy's voice was +as exultant as a child's. "Bert--my fur coat, and your coat! I've just +remembered they're in storage! Isn't that luck!" + +Bert laughed at her face. + +"Funny how your viewpoint on luck changes. This morning you had the +coat and the Lord knows how much silver and glass and lace besides--" + +"Oh, I know. But that's the kind of a woman I am, Bert. I don't like +things to come to me so fast that I can't taste them. I don't like +having four servants, I get more satisfaction out of one. And if I am +hospitable, I'd rather give meals and rooms to persons who really need +them, than to others who have left better meals and better rooms to +come and share mine! + +"Why, Bert dear," Nancy's cheek was against his now, "the thought of +waking up in the morning and realizing that nobody expects anything of +me makes me feel young again! It makes me feel as if I was breathing +fresh air deep down into my lungs. We haven't room for servants, we +have no guest room, I simply can't do anything but amuse Priscilla and +make desserts. We'll have the children at the dinner table every night, +and nights that Agnes is off, I'll have a dotted black and white +percale apron for you--" + +This was old history, there had been a dotted percale apron years ago, +and Nancy was joking, but Bert did not laugh. He made a gruff sound, +and tightened his arm. + +"Bert," said his wife, seriously, "Bert, when I kissed you this +afternoon, dirty and hot and sooty as you were, I knew that I'd been +missing something for a long time!" + +Again Bert made a gruff sound, and this time he kissed his wife, but he +did not speak for a moment. When he did, it was with a long, deep +breath. + +"Lord--Lord--Lord!" said he. + +"Why do you say that?" asked Nancy. + +"Oh, I was just thinking!" Bert stretched in his chair, to the infinite +peril of his equilibrium and hers. "I was just thinking what a +wonderful thing it is to be married, and to climb and fall, and succeed +and fail, and all the rest of it!" he said contentedly. "I'll bet you +there are lots of rich men who would like to try it again! I was just +thinking what corking times we're going to have this year, what it's +going to be like to have my little commutation punched like the rest of +'em, and come home in the dark, winter nights, to just my own wife and +my own kids! I like company now and then--the Biggerstaffs and the +Ingrams--but I like you all the year round. We'll--we'll read Dickens +this winter!" + +Nancy gave a laugh that was half a sob. + +"Bert--we were always going to read Dickens! Do you remember?" + +"Do I remember!" He smoked for a while in silence. Then he chuckled. +"Do you remember the Sunday breakfasts in the East Eleventh Street +flat? With real cream and corn bread? Do you remember wheeling Junior +through the park?" + +Nancy cleared her throat. + +"I remember it all!" + +There was another silence. Then Bert straightened suddenly, and asked +with concern: + +"Nancy--what is it? You're all tired out, you poor little girl. Don't, +dear--don't cry, Nancy!" + +Nancy, groping for his handkerchief, battling with tears, feeling his +kiss on her wet cheek, laughed shakily in the dark. + +"I--I can't help it, Bert!" said she. "I'm--I'm so happy!" + +THE END + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Undertow, by Kathleen Norris + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK UNDERTOW *** + +***** This file should be named 4916.txt or 4916.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/4/9/1/4916/ + +Produced by Charles Franks and the Online Distributed Proofreading Team. + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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However different their viewpoint +of life, old Mrs. Bradley and old Mr. Polk could agree heartily in +that. + +Of course there was much to commend the union. Nancy was +beautiful, she came of gentlefolk, and she liked to assert that +she was practical, she "had been a workin' woman for yeahs." This +statement had reference to a comfortable and informal position she +held with a private association for the relief of the poor. Nancy +was paid fifteen dollars a week, seven of which she in turn paid +to the pretty young widow, an old family friend only a few years +older than herself, with whom she boarded. Mrs. Terhune was rich, +in a modest way, and frequently refused the money entirely. But +she took it often enough to make the blooming Nancy feel quite +self-supporting, and as Nancy duly reported at the sunshiny office +of the Southern Ladies' Helping Hand every morning, or almost +every morning, the girl had some reason to feel that she had +solved her financial and domestic problem. + +Bert was handsome, too, and his mother knew everybody who was any +body in Boston. If Nancy's grandfather Polk had been Chief Justice +of the Supreme Court of Maryland, why, Bert was the seventh of his +name in direct descent, and it was in Bert's great-great- +grandfather's home that several prominent citizens of Boston had +assumed feathers and warpaint for a celebrated tea-party a great +many years ago. + +More than that, Bert was at a sensible age for matrimony, twenty- +five, and Nancy, like all southern girls, had ripened early, and +at twenty-two had several years of dancing and flirting behind +her. There was nothing impulsive about the affair. The two had +trotted about their adopted city for perhaps two years before Bert +brought Nancy the enormous diamond that his mother had given him +years ago for just this wonderful time. Circumstances had helped +them to know each other well. Nancy knew the sort of play that +made Bert stutter with enthusiasm as they walked home, and Bert +knew that Nancy made adorable little faces when she tried on hats, +and that her salary was fifteen dollars a week. At this time, and +for some years later, Bert was only one of several renting agents +employed by the firm of Pearsall and Pearsall, City Real Estate. +He moved his office from one new office-building downtown to +another, sometimes warmed by clanking new radiators, sometimes +carrying a gasoline stove with him into the region of new plaster +and paint. His name was not important enough to be included in the +list of tenants in the vestibule, he was merely "Renting Office, +Tenth Floor." And Nancy knew that when he had been a few months +longer with Pearsall and Pearsall, they would pay him exactly +thirteen hundred dollars a year. + +That was the objection, money. Mother and Uncle Tom thought that +that was not enough; Nancy and Bert worked it all out on paper, +and thought it more than sufficient. They always had a splendid +balance, on paper. Meanwhile, Mrs. Terhune went on refusing +Nancy's board now and then, and slipping bank-notes into Nancy's +purse now and then, and Bert continued to board with the southern +gentlewomen to whom he had paid ten dollars a week for three +years. He felt like a son in the Venables' house, by this time. + +It was at the Venables' boarding-house, indeed, that he first had +met the dark-eyed and vivacious Nancy, who was intimate with the +faded daughters of the family, Miss Augusta and Miss Sally Anne. +When Nancy's Uncle Thomas came to the city for one of his +infrequent visits, she always placed him in Mrs. Venable's care. + +Bert's first impression of her was of a supernaturally clever +person, hopelessly surrounded by "beaux." She had so many admirers +that even Miss Augusta, who had had a disappointment, warmed into +half-forgotten coquetries while she amused Bert, for whom Miss +Nancy had no time. They seemed to Bert, whose youth had known +responsibility and hardship, a marvellously happy and light- +hearted crowd. They laughed continuously, and they extracted from +the chameleon city pleasures that were wonderfully innocent and +fresh. It was as if these young exiles had brought from their +southern homes something of leisure, something of spaciousness and +pure sweetness that the more sophisticated youth of the city +lacked. Their very speech, softly slurred and lazy, held a charm +for Bert, used to his mother's and his aunts' crisp consonants. He +called Nancy "my little southern girl" in his heart, from the hour +he met her, and long afterward he told her that he had loved her +all that time. + +He could not free the cramped muscles of his spirit to meet her +quite on her own ground; it was his fate sometimes to reach the +laugh just as all the others grew suddenly serious, and as often +he took their airy interest heavily, and chained them with facts, +from which they fluttered like a flight of butterflies. But he had +his own claim, and it warmed the very fibres of his lonely heart +when he saw that Nancy was beginning to recognize that claim. + +When they all went out to the theatre and supper, it was his +pocket-book that never failed them. And what a night that was +when, eagerly proffering the fresh bills to Lee Porter, who was +giving the party, he looked up to catch a look of protest, and +shame, and gratitude, in Nancy's lovely eyes! + +"No, now, Lee, you shall not take it!" she laughed richly. Bert +thought for a second that this was more than mere persiflage, for +the expression on the girl's face was new. Later he reminded +himself that they all used curious forms of speech. "I just was +too tired to get up this morning," a girl who had actually gotten +up would say, or someone would comment upon a late train: "The old +train actually never did get here!" + +After a while he took Nancy to lunch once or twice, and one day +took her to the Plaza, where his mother happened to be staying +with Cousin Mary Winthrop and Cousin Anna Baldwin, and his mother +said that Nancy was a sweet, lovely girl. Bert had quite a thrill +when he saw the familiar, beautiful face turned seriously and with +pretty concern toward his mother, and he liked Nancy's composure +among the rather formal older women. She managed her tea and her +gloves and her attentions prettily, thought Bert. When he took her +home at six o'clock he was conscious that he had passed an +invisible barrier in their relationship; she knew his mother. They +were of one breed. + +But that night, when he went back to the hotel to dine, his mother +drew him aside. + +"Not serious, dear--between you and Miss Barrett, I mean?" + +Bert laughed in pleasant confusion. + +"Well, I--of course I admire her awfully. Everyone does. But I +don't know that I'd have a chance with her." Suddenly and unbidden +there leaped into his heart the glorious thought of possessing +Nancy. Nancy--his wife, making a home and a life for unworthy him! +He flushed deeply. His mother caught the abashed murmur, +"...thirteen hundred a year!" + +"Exactly!" she said incisively, almost triumphantly. But her eyes, +closely watching his expression, were anxious. "I don't believe in +having things made too easy for young persons," she added, +smiling. "But that--that really is too hard." + +"Yep. That's too hard," Bert agreed. + +"It isn't fair to the girl to ask it," added his mother gently. + +"That's true," Bert said a little heavily, after a pause. "It +isn't fair--to Nancy." + +The next night Nancy wondered why his manner was so changed, and +why he spoke so bitterly of his work, and what was the matter with +him anyway. She reflected that perhaps he was sorry his mother's +visit was over. For two or three weeks he seemed restless and +discontented, and equally unwilling to be included in the "Dutch +treats," or to be left out of them. And then suddenly the bad mood +passed, and Bert was his kind and appreciative and generous self +again. Clark Belknap, also of Maryland, who had plenty of money +and a charming personality and manner as well, began to show the +familiar symptoms toward Nancy, and Bert told himself that Clark +would be an admirable match for her. Also his Cousin Mary wrote +him that his second cousin Dorothy Hayes Hamilton was going to be +in New York for a few weeks, and asked him to take her about a +little, and see that she had a nice time. Cousin Mary, as was +usual, enclosed a generous check to insure the nice time, and +little Dorothy proved to be a very rose of a girl, just as +unspoiled as if her fortune had been half a dollar instead of half +a million and full of pride in her big cousin, whose Harvard +record she evidently knew by heart. + +Bert willingly took her about, and they became good friends. He +did not see much of Nancy now, and one of the times he did see her +was unfortunate. He and Dorothy had been having tea at a roof- +garden, after a long delightful day in Dorothy's car, and now he +was to take her to her hotel. Just as he was holding the little +pongee wrap, and Dorothy was laughing up at him from under the +roses on her hat, he saw Nancy, going out between two older women. +His look just missed hers; he knew she had seen him; had perhaps +been watching him, but he could not catch her eye again. + +It was a hot night, and Nancy looked a little pale and, although +as trim and neat as usual, a little shabby. Her pretty hands in +old gloves she had washed herself, her pretty eyes patiently fixed +upon the faces of the women who were boring her in her youth and +freshness with the business of sickness and poverty, her whole +gentle, rather weary aspect, smote Bert's heart with a pain that +was half a fierce joy. Never had he loved her in her gaiety and +her indifference as he loved her now, when she looked so sweetly, +so almost sorrowfully. + +A week later he went to see her. + +"Well, Mister Bert Bradley," she smiled at him, unfastening the +string from the great box of roses that had simultaneously arrived +from some other admirer, "I didn't know what to make of you! And +who was the more-than-pretty little girl that you were squiring on +the Waldorf roof last week?" + +"Just my cousin, Dorothy Hamilton. She went back to Boston to-day. +She's finished school, and had a year abroad, and now she isn't +quite sure what she wants to do. How's Mr. Belknap?" + +She narrowed her eyes at him mischievously. + +"Don't you think you're smart! These are from him. He's very well. +He took me to the theatre last night, and we had a wonderful time. +Come with me into the kitchen, while I put these in water." + +"Take good care of them!" Bert said witheringly. But she only +laughed at him from the sink. He followed her into the small, hot, +neat kitchen, with the clean empty pint bottle and the quarter- +pint bottle turned upside down near the bright faucets, and the +enamel handles of the gas stove all turned out in an even row. +Bert remembered that the last time he had been here was a cold May +morning, when he and Nancy had made countless hot cakes. He had +met her at church, and walked home with her, and while they were +luxuriously finishing the last of the hot cakes the others had +burst in, with the usual harum-scarum plans for the day. But that +was May, and now it was July, and somehow the bloom seemed to be +gone from their relationship. + +They talked pleasantly, and after awhile Mrs. Terhune came in and +talked, too. She was distressed about some shares she held in a +traction company and Bert was able to be of real service to her, +taking a careful memorandum, and promising to see her about it in +a day. "For I expect we'll see you round here in a day or two," +she said with simple archness. She was well used to the demands of +Nancy's beaux. Nancy looked particularly innocent and expectant at +this, "Perhaps Mr. Bradley might come in and cheer you up, if I go +off with Mrs. Featherstone for the week-end?" she suggested +pleasantly. Mrs. Featherstone had been Virginia Belknap. + +Bert presently bade her a cold good-bye. His reassurance to Mrs. +Terhune was made the next day by telephone, and life became dark +and dull to him. Certain things hurt him strangely--the sight of +places where she had taken off the shabby gloves; and had seated +herself happily opposite him for luncheon or tea; the sound of +music she had hummed. He wanted to see her--not feverishly, +nothing extreme, except that he wanted it every second of the +time. A mild current of wanting to see Nancy underran all his +days; he could control it, he decided, and to an extent he did. He +ate and worked and even slept in spite of it. But it was always +there, and it tired him, and made him feel old and sad. + +And then they met; Bert idling through the September sweetness and +softness and goldness of the park, Nancy briskly taking her +business-like way from West Eightieth to East Seventy-second +Street. What Nancy experienced in the next hour Bert could only +guess, he knew that she was glad to see him, and that for some +reason she was entirely off guard. For himself, he was like a +thirsty animal that reaches trees, and shade, and the wide +dimpling surface of clear waters. He had so often imagined meeting +her, and had so longed to meet her, that he was actually a little +confused, and wanted shakily to laugh, and to cling to her. + +He walked to Seventy-second Street, with her and then to tea at a +tiny place in Madison Avenue called the Prince Royal. And she +settled herself opposite him, just as in his dreams--only so much +more sweetly--and smiled at him from her dear faithful blue eyes, +as she laid aside her gloves. + +She was wearing a large diamond, surrounded by topazes. Bert knew +that he had never seen this ring before, although it did not look +like a new one. However, the age of the ring signified nothing. He +wondered if Clark Belknap's mother had ever worn it, and if Clark +had just given it to Nancy... + +She was full of heavenly interest and friendliness. But when they +were walking home she told him that she was so sorry--she couldn't +ask him to dine, because she was going out. She asked him for the +next day, but his board of directors was having a monthly meeting +that night, and he had to be there. How about Saturday? + +Saturday she was going out of town, a special meeting of the Red +Cross. They hung there. Nancy was perhaps ashamed to go on through +the list of days, Bert would not ungenerously force her. He left +her, thrilled and yet dissatisfied. He looked back almost with +envy to his state of a few hours earlier, when he had been hoping +that he might meet her. + + + + +Chapter Two + + +The week dragged by. The undercurrent of longing to see Nancy +flowed on and on. Bert wanted nothing else--just Nancy. He had +been spending the summer with a friend, at the friend's uptown +house, but now he thought he would go out to the Venables, and +show some interest in his newly-papered room and hear them speak +of her. + +He rang their bell with a thumping heart. It was four o'clock in +the afternoon. She might even be here! Or they might tell him she +was engaged to Clark Belknap of Maryland. ... Bert felt so sick at +the thought that it seemed a fact. He wanted to run away. + +Miss Augusta, red-eyed, opened the door. Beyond her he was somehow +vaguely aware of darkness, and weeping, and the subdued rustling +of gowns. Po' Nancy Barrett was here--he knew that? Well, didn't +he know that the dea' old Colonel had passed away suddenly--Miss +Augusta's tears flowed afresh. Nancy had come in unexpectedly to +lunch, and the telegram from her aunt had come while she was +there. "Tell Nancy Brother Edward passed on at five o'clock. Come +home at once." + +Bert listened dazedly, in the shabby old parlour with the scrolled +flowery carpet, and the statues, and the square piano. He +comforted Miss Augusta, he even put one arm about her. Was there +something he could do?--he asked the forlorn, empty question +merely as a matter of course. + +"I don't suppose yo' could send some telegrams..." Miss Augusta +said, blowing her nose damply. "Po' child, she hasn't got a +brother, nor anyone to depend on now in the hour of her bitteh +need!" + +Bert's heart leaped. + +"Just tell me!" he begged. "And what about trains, and +arrangements? Will she go down? And clothes?--would she need +something--" + +This last item had been attended. Mama and Sis' Sally Anne had +gone down town, po' child, she didn't want much. And yes, she was +going down, to-morrow--that night, if it could be managed. + +"But Nancy herself had better see yo'," Miss Augusta said +disappearing. Bert waited, his heart thundering. Murmuring and +tears came from some remote region. Then quietly and slowly Nancy, +in new black, came in. And Bert knew that to the end of the world, +as long as he should breathe, life would mean Nancy's life to him; +and the world was only Nancy. + +They sat down on the slippery horsehair, and talked softly and +quickly. Ticket--train--telegrams--the little money that was +necessary--he advised her about them all. He called her "Nancy" +to-day, for the first time. He remembered afterward that she had +called him nothing. She went to get Mrs. Venable, after a while, +and later Sis' Sally Anne drew him aside and told him to make +Nancy drink her good hot tea. She drank it, at his command. Clark +Belknap came that evening; others came--all too late. Before the +first of them, Bert had taken her to the train, had made her as +comfortable as he could, had sat beside her, with her soft gloved +hand tight in his, murmuring to her that she had so much to be +thankful for--no pain, no illness, no real age. But she had left +him, she said, her lip trembling and her eyes brimming again. He +reminded her of her pretty, dependent step-mother, of the two +little half-brothers who were just waiting for Nancy to come and +straighten everything out. + +"Yes--I've got to keep up for them!" she said, smiling bravely. +And in a tense undertone she added, "You're wonderful to me!" + +"And will you have some supper--just to break the evening?" + +"I had tea." She leaned back, and shut her eyes. "I couldn't-- +eat!" she whispered pitifully. His response was to put his clean, +folded handkerchief into her hand, and at that she opened the wet +eyes, and smiled at him shakily. + +"Just some soup--or a salad," he urged. "Will you promise me, +Nancy?" + +"I promise you I'll try," she said in parting. + +Walking home with his head in a whirl, Bert said to himself: "This +is the second of October. I'll give her six months. On the second +of April I'll ask her." + +However, he asked her on Christmas night, after the Venables' +wonderful Christmas dinner, when they all talked of the Civil War +as if it were yesterday, and when old laces, old jet and coral +jewelry, and frail old silk gowns were much in evidence. They were +sitting about the coal fire in the back drawing-room, when Nancy +and Bert chanced to be alone. Mrs. Venables had gone to brew some +punch, with Sis' Sally Anne's help. The other young men of the +party were assisting them, Augusta had gone to the telephone. + +Bert always remembered the hour. The room was warm, fragrant of +spicy evergreen. There was a Rogers group on the marble mantle, +and two Dresden china candlesticks that reflected themselves in +the watery dimness of the mirror above. Nancy, slender and +exquisite, was in unrelieved, lacy black; her hair was as softly +black as her gown. Her white hands were locked in her lap. +Something had reminded her of old Christmases, and she had told +Bert of running in to her mother's room, early in the chilly +morning, to shout "Christmas Gift!" + +Not moving his sympathetic eyes from her Checking Page back In, +Please Wait ... to town again, and his own pleasure in their visit +was talking of Nancy; how wise, how sweet, how infinitely +desirable she was. Dorothy had wanted Cousin Albert to come to her +for Thanksgiving. No, a thousand thanks--but Miss Barrett was so +much alone now. He must be near her. Dorothy kept her thoughts on +the subject to herself, but he so far impressed his mother that +her own hopes came to be his, she dreaded the thought of what +might happen to her boy if that southern girl did not chance to +care for him. + +But the southern girl cared. She locked the lace-clad arms about +his neck, on this memorable Christmas night and laid her cheek +against his. "Are you sure you want me, Bert?" she whispered. + +They had not much altered their positions when Mrs. Venables came +back half an hour later, and a general time of kissing, crying and +laughing began. + + + + +Chapter Three + + +It was a happy time, untroubled by the thought of money that was +soon to be so important. Bert's various aunts and cousins sent him +checks, and Nancy's stepmother sent her all her own mother's linen +and silver, and odd pieces of mahogany on which the freight +charges were frightful, and laces and an oil portrait or two. The +trousseau was helped from all sides, every week had its miracle; +and the hats, and the embroidered whiteness, and the smart street +suit and the adorable kitchen ginghams accumulated as if by magic. +Bert's mother sent delightfully monogrammed bed and table-linen, +almost weekly. Nancy said it was preposterous for poor people to +start in with such priceless possessions! + +Among the happy necessities of the time was the finding of a +proper apartment. Nancy and Bert spent delightful Saturdays and +Sundays wandering in quest of it; beginning half-seriously in +February, when it seemed far too early to consider this detail, +and continuing with augmented earnestness through the three +succeeding months. Eventually they got both tired and discouraged, +and felt dashed in the very opening of their new life, but finally +the place was found, and they loved it instantly, and leased it +without delay. It was in a new apartment house, in East Eleventh +Street, four shiny and tiny rooms, on a fourth floor. Everything +was almost too compact and convenient, Nancy thought; the ice box, +gas stove, dumb-waiter, hanging light over the dining table, +clothes line, and garbage chute, were already in place. It left an +ambitious housekeeper small margin for original arrangement, but +of course it did save money and time. The building was of pretty +cream brick, clean and fresh, the street wide, and lined with +dignified old brownstone houses, and the location perfect. She +smothered a dream of wide old-fashioned rooms, quaintly furnished +in chintzes and white paint. They had found no such enchanting +places, except at exorbitant rents. Seventy-five dollars, or one +hundred dollars, were asked for the simplest of them, and the +plumbing facilities, and often the janitor service, were of the +poorest. So Nancy abandoned the dream, and enthusiastically +accepted the East Eleventh Street substitute, Bert becoming a +tenant in the "George Eliot," at a rental of thirty-five dollars a +month. Some of the old Barrett furniture was too large for the +place, but what she could use Nancy arranged with exquisite taste: +fairly dancing with pleasure over the sitting room, where her +chair and Bert's were in place, and the little droplight lighted +on the little table. In this room they were going to read Dickens +out loud, on winter nights. + +They were married on a hot April morning, a morning whose every +second seemed to Nancy flooded with strange perfumes, and lighted +with unearthly light. The sky was cloudless; the park bowered in +fresh green; the streets, under new shadows, clean-swept and warm. +Her gown was perfection, her new wide hat the most becoming she +had ever worn; the girls, in their new gowns and hats, seemed so +near and dear to her to-day. She was hardly conscious of Bert, but +she remembered liking his big brother, who kissed her in so +brotherly a fashion. Winter was over, the snow was gone at last, +the trying and depressing rains and the cold were gone, too, and +she and Bert were man and wife, and off to Boston for their +honeymoon. + + + + +Chapter Four + + +They had been married eleven days, and were loitering over a +Sunday luncheon in their tiny home, when they first seriously +discussed finances; not theoretical finances, but finances as +bounded on one side by Bert's worn, brown leather pocket-book, and +on the other by his bank-book, with its confusing entries in black +and red ink. + +Here on the table were seventeen dollars and eighty cents. Nancy +had flattened the bills, and arranged the silver in piles, as they +talked. This was Sunday; Bert would be paid on Saturday next. +Could Nancy manage on that? + +Nancy felt a vague alarm. But she had been a wage earner herself. +She rose to the situation at once. + +"Manage what, Bert? If you mean just meals, of course I can! But I +won't have this much every week for meals ...?" + +Bert took out a fountain pen, and reached for a blank envelope. + +"Do you mind working it out?--I think it's such fun!" + +"I love it!" Nancy brought her brightest face to the problem. "Now +let's see--what have we? Exactly one hundred a month." + +"Thirteen hundred a year," he corrected. + +"Yes, but let's not count that extra hundred, Bee!" Nancy, like +all women, had given her new husband a new name. "Let's save that +and have it to blow in, all in a heap, for something special?" + +"All right." Bert digressed long enough to catch the white hand +and kiss it, and say: "Isn't it wonderful--our sitting here +planning things together? Aren't we going to have FUN!" + +"Rent, thirty-five," Nancy began, after an interlude. Bert, who +had secured a large sheet of clean paper, made a neat entry, +"Rent, $35." + +"You make such nice, firm figures, mine are always wavy!" observed +Nancy irrelevantly, at this. This led nowhere. + +"Now one quarter of that rent ought to come out every week," Bert +submitted presently. "Eight dollars and a half must be put aside +every week." + +"Out of this, too?" Nancy asked, touching the money on the table. + +"Well, that's all that's left of half my salary, drawn in +advance," Bert said, pondering. "Yes, you see--we pay a month in +advance on the first!" + +"And what have we besides this, Bee? Your Aunt Mary's check, and-- +and what else?" + +"Aunt Mary's hundred, which will certainly take care of the +freight bills," Bert calculated, "and that's all, except this." + +"But, Bert--but, Bert--all that money we had in Boston?" + +Bert pointed to the table. + +"You behold the remainder." + +"Weren't we the extravagant wretches!" mused Nancy. "Taxis--tea- +parties--breakfast upstairs--silly pink silk stockings for Nancy, +a silly pongee vest for Bert--" + +"But oh, what a grand time!" her husband finished unrepentantly. + +"Wasn't it!" Nancy agreed dreamily. But immediately she was +businesslike again. "However, the lean years have set in," she +announced. "I'll have to count on a dollar a week laundry--laundry +and rent nine dollars and a half; piano and telephone at the rate +of three dollars a month--that's a dollar and a half more; milk, a +quart of milk and half a pint of cream a day, a dollar and +seventy-five cents more; what does that leave, Bert?" + +"It leaves twelve dollars and twenty-five cents," said Bert. + +"But what about your lunches, dearest?" + +"Gosh! I forgot them," Bert stated frankly. "I'll keep 'em under +fifteen cents a day," he added, "call it a dollar a week!" + +"You can't!" protested Nancy, with a look of despair. + +"I can if I've got to. Besides, we'll be off places, Sundays, and +I'll come home for lunch Saturday, and you'll feed me up." + +"But, Bert," she began again presently, "I'll have to get ice, and +car fares, and drugs, and soap, and thread, and butter, and bread, +and meat, and salad-oil, and everything else in the world out of +that eleven-fifty!" Bert was frowning hard. + +"You can't have the whole eleven-fifty," he told her reluctantly, +"I can walk one way, to Forty-Eighth Street, but I can't walk +both. I'll have to have some car fare. And my office suit has got +to be pressed about once every two weeks--" + +"And newspapers!" added Nancy, dolefully. "Seven cents more!" And +they both burst into laughter. "But, Bee," she said presently, +ruffling his hair, as she sat on the arm of his chair, "really I +do not know what we will do in case of dentist's bills, or +illness, or when our clothes wear out. What do people do? Is +thirty-five too much rent, or what?" + +"I'm darned if I know what they do!" Bert mused. + + + + +Chapter Five + + +They both were destined to learn how it was managed, and being +young and healthy and in love, they learned easily, and with much +laughter and delight. Bert's share was perhaps the easier, for +although he manfully walked to his office, polished his own shoes, +and ate a tiresome and unsatisfying lunch five days a week, he had +his reward on the sixth and seventh days, when Nancy petted and +praised him. + +Her part was harder. She never knew what it was to be free from +financial concern. She fretted and contrived until the misspending +of five cents seemed a genuine calamity to her, She walked to +cheap markets, and endured the casual scorn of cheap clerks. She +ironed Bert's ties and pressed his trousers, saving car fares by +walking, saving hospitality by letting her old friends see how +busy and absorbed she was, saving food by her native skill and +ingenuity. + +But they lived royally, every meal was a triumph, every hour +strangely bright. Of cooking meat, especially the more choice +cuts, Nancy did little this year, but there was no appetizing +combination of vegetables, soups, salads, hot breads, and iced +drinks that she did not try. Bert said, and he meant it, that he +had never lived so well in his life, and certainly the walls of +the little apartment in the "George Eliot" were packed with joy. +When their microscopic accounts balanced at the end of the week, +they celebrated with a table-d'hete dinner down town--dinners from +which they walked home gloriously happy, Nancy wondering over and +over again HOW the restaurateurs could manage it, Bert, over his +cigar, estimating carefully: "Well, Sweet, there wasn't much cost +to that soup, delicious as it was, and I suppose they buy that +sole down at the docks, in the early morning..." + +When Nancy had learned that she could live without a telephone, +and had cut down the milk bill, and limited Bert to one butter +ball per meal, she found she could manage easily. In August they +gave two or three dinners, and Nancy displayed her pretty table +furnishings to "the girls," and gave them the secret of her iced +tea. She told her husband that they got along because he was "so +wonderful"; she felt that no financial tangle could resist Bert's +neatly pencilled little calculations, but Bert praised only her-- +what credit to him that he did not complain, when he was the most +fortunate man in the world? + +They came to be proud of their achievement. Nancy had Buckley +Pearsall, Bert's chief, and his wife, to dinner, and kindly Mrs. +Pearsall could not enough praise the bride and her management. +Later the Pearsalls asked the young Bradleys down to their Staten +Island home for a week-end. "And think of the pure gain of not +buying a thing for three days!" exulted Nancy, thereby convulsing +her lord. She brought back late corn, two jars of Mrs. Pearsall's +preserved peaches, a great box of grapes to be made into jelly, +and a basket of tomatoes. Bert said that she was a grafter, but he +knew as well as she that Nancy's pleasure in taking the gifts had +given Mrs. Pearsall a genuine joy. + +With none of the emergencies they had dreaded, and with many and +unexpected pleasures, the first winter went by. Sometimes Bert got +a theatre pass, sometimes old friends or kinspeople came to town, +and Bert and Nancy went to one of the big hotels to dinner, and +stared radiantly about at the bright lights, and listened to music +again, and were whirled home in a taxicab. + +"That party cost your Cousin Edith about twenty-five dollars," +Nancy, rolling up her hair-net thoughtfully, would say late at +night, with a suppressed yawn. "The dinner check was fourteen, and +the tickets eight--it cost her more than twenty-five dollars! +Doesn't that seem wicked, Bert? And all that delicious chicken +that we hardly touched--dear me, what fun I could have with +twenty-five dollars! There are so many things I'd like to buy that +I never do; just silly things, you know--nice soaps and powders, +and fancy cheeses and an alligator pear, and the kind of toilet +water you love so--don't you remember you bought it in Boston when +we honeymooned?" + +Perhaps a shadow would touch Bert's watching face, and he would +come to put an arm about her and her loosened cloud of hair. + +"Poor old girl, it isn't much fun for you! Do you get tired of it, +Nancy?" + +"Bert," she said, one night in a mood of gravity and confidence +that he loved, and had learned to watch for, "I never get tired. +And sometimes I feel sure that the most wonderful happiness that +ever is felt in this world comes to two people who love each +other, and who have to make sacrifices for each other! I mean +that. I mean that I don't think riches, or travel, or great gifts +and achievements bring a greater happiness than ours. I think a +king, dying," smiled Nancy, trying not to be too serious, "might +wish that, for a while at least, he had been able to wear shabby +shoes for the woman he loved, and had had years of poking about a +great city with her, and talking and laughing and experimenting +and working over their problem together!" + +Bert kissed the thoughtful eyes, but did not speak. + +"But just the same," Nancy presently went on, "sometimes I do get- +-just a little frightened. I feel as if perhaps we had been a +little too brave. When your cousins, and mine, ask us how we do +it, and make so much of it, it makes me feel a little uneasy. +Suppose we really aren't able to swing it ...?" + +Bert knew how to meet this mood, and he never failed her. He put +his arm about her, tonight, and gave her his sunniest smile. + +"We could pay less rent, dear." + +This fired Nancy. Of course they could. She had seen really +possible places, in inaccessible neighbourhoods, which rented far +more reasonably. She had seen quite sunny and clean flats for as +little as fourteen and sixteen dollars a month. Her housekeeping +abilities awakened to the demand. What did she and Bert care about +neighbourhoods and the casual dictates of fashion? They were a +world in themselves, and they needed no other company. + +"Everyone said that we'd never get this far," Bert reminded her +hearteningly. She was immediately reassured, and fell to +enthusiastic planning for Christmas. + + + + +Chapter Six + + +It was their first Christmas, and they spent it alone together. +Bert and Nancy knew that they would not spend another Christmas +alone, and the shadowy hope for April lent a new tone even to +their gayety, and deepened the exquisite happiness of the dark, +snowbound day. The tiny house was full of laughter, for Bert had +given his wife all the little things she had from time to time +whimsically desired. The fancy cheeses, and the perfumes and +soaps, made her laugh and laugh as she unwrapped them. There were +fuzzy wash-cloths--a particular fancy of hers--and new library +paste and new hair-pins, and a can-opener that made her exclaim: +"Bert, that was cute of you!" and even an alligator pear. A +bewildered look came into Nancy's eyes as she went on +investigating her bulging stocking--gloves, and silk hosiery, and +new little enamelled pins for her collars, and the piano score of +the opera she so loved--where had the money come from? + +"My firm gave us each ten," Bert explained, grinning. + +"And you spent it ALL on me!" Nancy said, stricken. "You poked +about and got me every blessed thing I ever wanted in this world-- +you darling!" + +"Why not?" he asked. "You're the only thing I have, Nance! And +such LITTLE things, dear." + +"It isn't the things--it's your thinking of them," Nancy said. +"And eating wretched lunches while you planned them! You make me +cry--and meanwhile, my beloved little chicken will roast himself +dry!" + +She rushed into her kitchen. Bert rushed after her; his days at +home were a succession of interruptions for Nancy, no topic was +too insignificant for their earnest discussion, and no pleasure +too small to share. To-day the chief object of their interest was +his mother's Christmas present to him, a check for fifty dollars, +"for my boy's winter coat." + +They looked at the slip of paper at regular intervals. To Bert it +brought a pleasant thought of the thin, veiny hand that had penned +it, the little silk-clad form and trimly netted gray hair. He +remembered his mother's tiny sitting room, full of begonias and +winter sunshine and photographs of the family, with a feeling that +while mother could never again know rapturous happiness like his +own, yet it was good to think of her as content and comfortable, +with her tissue-wrapped presents from the three daughters-in-law +lying on her table. + +But to Nancy the check meant the future only: it meant her +handsome Bert dressed at last in suitable fashion, in a "big, +fuzzy, hairy coat." She pointed out various men's coats in the +windows they passed that afternoon, and on the other young men who +were walking with wives and babies. + +But Bert had his own ideas. When Nancy met him down town a day or +two later, to go pick the coat, she found him quite unmanageable. +He said that there was no hurry about the coat--they were right +here in the housekeeping things, why not look at fireless cookers? +In the end they bought an ice-cream freezer, and a fireless +cooker, and two pairs of arctic overshoes, and an enormous oval- +shaped basket upon which the blushing Nancy dropped a +surreptitious kiss when the saleswoman was not looking, and a warm +blue sweater for Nancy, and, quite incidentally, an eighteen- +dollar overcoat for Bert. + +Nancy's lip trembled over this last purchase. They were nice +overcoats, remarkable for the price, indeed--"marked down from +twenty-five." But--but she had wanted him to spend every cent of +the fifty dollars for a STUNNING coat! Bert laughed at her April +face. He took her triumphantly to the fifty-cent luncheon and they +talked over it for a blissful hour. And when she left him at the +office door, Nancy consoled herself by drifting into one of the +near-by second-hand bookshops, and buying him a tiny Keats, +"Pepy's Diary" somewhat shabby as to cover, and George's "Progress +and Poverty," at ten cents apiece. These books were piled at +Bert's place that night, and gave him almost as much pleasure as +the overcoat did. + +And even Nancy had to confess that the disputed garment looked +warm and thick, when it came home in its green box, and that it +was "fun" to open the other packages, and find the sweater, +looking so wooly and comfortable, and the big basket destined for +so precious a freight! She and Bert laughed and chattered over the +thick papers and strings that bound the freezer and the cooker, +and made chocolate ice-cream for dinner on Sunday, and never ate +their breakfast oatmeal without a rapturous appreciation of the +cooker. + + + + +Chapter Seven + + +She was still the centre of his universe and her own when she +walked with her hand on his arm, to the little hospital around the +corner, on a sweet April morning. The slow coming of spring had +brought her a new tenderness and a new dependence, and +instinctively she felt that, when she came home again, she would +be a new Nancy. The wistfulness that marks any conscious human +change had been hers for many days now; she was not distrustful, +she was not unhappy, but she was sobered and thoughtful. + +"We HAVE been happy, haven't we, Bert?" she said, more than once. + +"We always will be, my darling! You know that." + +But she would only smile at him wisely, for reply. She was still +happy, happier perhaps than ever. But she knew that she was no +longer the mistress of her own happiness--it lay in other hands +now. + +So the universe was turned upside down for Nancy, and she lost, +once and for all her position as its centre. The world, instead of +a safe and cheerful place, became full of possible dangers for the +baby, Albert the eighth. Nancy, instead of a self-reliant, +optimistic woman, was only a weary, feeble, ignorant person who +doubted her own power to protect this priceless treasure. + +He was a splendid baby--that was part of the trouble. He was too +splendid, he had never been equalled, and could never be replaced, +and she would go stark, staring mad if anything happened to him! +Nancy almost went mad, as it was. If the Cullinan Diamond had been +placed in Nancy's keeping, rather than worry about it as she +worried about Junior, she would have flung it gaily into the East +River. But she could not dispose of the baby; her greatest horror +was the thought of ever separating from him, the fear that some +day Bert might want to send him, the darling, innocent thing, at +fourteen, to boarding-school, or that there might be a war, and +Junior might enlist! + +She showed him to visiting friends in silence. When Nancy had led +them in to the bedroom, and raised a shade so that the tempered +sun light revealed the fuzzy head and shut eyes and rotund linen- +swathed form of Junior, she felt that words were unnecessary. She +never really saw the baby's face, she saw something idealized, +haloed, angelic. In later year she used to say that none of the +hundreds of snapshots Bert took of him really did the child +justice. Junior had been the most exquisitely beautiful baby that +any one ever saw, everyone said so. + +When Bert got home at night, she usually had a request to make of +him. Would he just LOOK at Junior? No, he was all RIGHT, only he +had hardly wanted his three o'clock nursing, and he was sleeping +so HARD-- + +And at this point, if she was tired--and she was always tired!-- +Nancy would break into tears. "Bert--hadn't we better ask Colver +to come and see him?" she would stammer, eagerly. + +Ten minutes later she would be laughing, as she served Bert his +dinner. Of course he was all right, only, being alone with him all +day, she got to worrying. And she was tired. + +Poor Nancy, she was not to know rest or leisure for many years to +come. She was clever, and as resolutely as she had solved their +first, simple problem, she set about solving this new one. They +had forty dollars a week with which to manage now, but the extra +money seemed only a special dispensation to provide for the +growing demands of Junior. + +Junior needed a coach, a crib, new shirts--"he is getting immense, +the darling!" was Nancy's one rapturous comment, when four of +these were bought at sixty cents each. In November he needed two +quarts of milk daily, and what his mother called "an ouncer" to +take the top-milk safely from the bottle, and a small ice box for +the carefully prepared bottles, and the bottles themselves. He +always needed powder and safety-pins and new socks, and presently +he had to have a coloured woman to do his washing, for Nancy was +growing stronger and more interested in life in general, and came +to the conclusion that he might safely be left for a few moments +with Esmeralda, now and then. + +He paid for these favours in his own way, and neither Bert nor +Nancy ever felt that it was inadequate. When his sober fat face +wrinkled into a smile of welcome to his father, Bert was moved +almost to tears. When she wheeled him through the streets, royally +benign after a full bottle, rosy-cheeked in his wooly white cap, +Nancy felt almost too rich. Junior filled all the gaps in her +life, it mattered not what she lacked while she had Junior. + +The forty dollar income melted as quickly as the twenty-five +dollar one, and far more mysteriously. Nancy would have felt once +that forty dollars every week was riches, but between Junior's +demands, and the little leakage of Esmeralda's wages, and her +hearty lunch twice a week, and the milk, and the necessarily less- +careful marketing, they seemed to be just where they were before. + +"There must be some way of living that we can afford!" mused +Nancy, one March morning at the breakfast table, when the world +looked particularly bright to the young Bradleys. Junior, curly- +headed, white-clad, and excited over a hard crust of toast, sat +between his parents, who interrupted their meal to kiss his fat +fists, the dewy back of his neck under the silky curls, and even +the bare toes that occasionally appeared on the board. + +This was Sunday, and for months it had been the custom to weigh +Junior on Sunday, a process that either put Nancy and Bert into a +boastful mood for the day, or reduced the one to tearful silence, +and the other to apprehensive bravado. But now the baby was +approaching his first anniversary, and it was perfectly obvious +that his weight was no longer a matter of concern. He was so +large, so tall, and so fat that one of Nancy's daily satisfactions +was to have other mothers, in the park, ask her his age. She +looked at him with fond complacency rather than apprehension now, +feeling that every month and week of his life made him a little +more sure of protracted existence, and herself a little more safe +as his mother. + +"How do you mean--afford?" Bert asked. "We pay our bills, and +we're not in debt." + +"When I say 'afford,'" Nancy answered, "I mean that we do not live +without a frightful amount of worry and fuss about money. To just +keep out of debt, and make ends meet, is not my idea of life!" + +"It's the way lots of people live--if they're lucky," Bert +submitted, picking Junior's damp crust from the floor, eyeing it +dubiously, and substituting another crust in its place. + +"Well, it's all wrong!" Nancy stated positively. "There should be +a comfortable living for everyone in this world who works even +half as hard as you do--and if any one wants to work harder, let +him have the luxuries!" + +"That's socialism, Nance." + +She raised her pretty brows innocently. + +"Is it? Well, I'm not a socialist. I guess I just don't +understand." + +She knew, as the weeks went by, that there were other things she +could not understand. Toil as she might, from morning until night, +there was always something undone. It puzzled her strangely. + +Other women had even harder problems, what did THEY do? Few women +had steady, clever husbands like Bert. Few had energy and +enthusiasm like hers. But she was so tired, all the time, that +even when the daily routine ran smoothly, and the marketing and +Junior's naps and meals occurred on schedule time, the result +hardly seemed worth while. She whisked through breakfast and +breakfast dishes, whisked through the baby's bath, had her house +in order when he awakened from his nap, wheeled him to market, +wheeled him home for another bottle and another nap. Then it was +time for her own meal, and there were a few more dishes, and some +simple laundry work to do, and then again the boy was dressed, and +the perambulator was bumped out of the niche below the stairs, and +they went out again. The hardest hour of all, in the warm +lengthening days of spring, was between five and six. Junior was +tired and cross, dinner preparations were under way, the table +must be set, one more last bottle warmed. When Bert came in, +Nancy, flushed and tired, was ready, and he might play for a few +minutes with Junior before he was tucked up. But the relaxation of +the meal was trying to Nancy, and the last dishes a weary drag. +She would go to her chair, when they were done, and sit stupidly +staring ahead of her. Sometimes, in this daze, she would reach for +the fallen sheets of the evening paper, and read them +indifferently. Sometimes she merely battled with yawns, before +taking herself wearily to bed. + +"Can I get you your book, dear?" Bert might ask. + +"No-o-o! Pm too sleepy. I put my head down on the bed beside +Junior to-day, and I've been as heavy as lead ever since! Besides, +I forgot to wash my hands, and they're dishwatery." + +"What tires you so, do you suppose?" + +"Oh, nothing special, and everything! I think watching the baby is +very tiring. He never uses all my time, and yet I can't do +anything else while I have him. And then he's getting so +mischievous--he makes work!" + +"What'll you do next year?" Bert questioned sometimes dubiously. + +"Oh, we'll manage!" And with a sleepy smile, and a sleepy kiss, +Nancy would trail away, only too grateful to reach her bed after +the hard hours. + +Bert had carefully calculated upon her spring wardrobe, and she +became quite her animated self over the excitement of selecting +new clothes. They left Esmeralda in charge of Junior, and made an +afternoon of it, and dined down town in the old way. Over the meal +Bert told her that he had made exactly three hundred dollars at a +blow, in a commission, and that she and the boy were going to the +country for six weeks. + +This led to a wonderful hour, when they compared feelings, and +reviewed their adventure. Nancy marvelled at the good fortune that +followed them, "we are marvellously lucky, aren't we, Bert?" she +asked, appreciatively. She had just spent almost a hundred dollars +for her summer clothes and the boy's! And now they were really +going to the blessed country, to be free for six weeks from +planning meals and scraping vegetables and stirring cereals. +Radiantly, they discussed mountains and beaches, even buying a +newspaper, on the hot walk home, to pore over in search of the +right place. + + + + +Chapter Eight + + +"The Old Hill House," on the north Connecticut line, seemed almost +too good to be true. It was an unpretentious country hotel, and +Nancy and Junior settled themselves in one of its hot, second- +story rooms feeling almost guiltily happy. Nancy kissed Bert good- +bye on the first Monday morning assuring him that she had NOTHING +to do! To go down to meals, and they were good meals, without the +slightest share in the work of preparing them, and to be able to +wear dainty clothes without the ruinous contact with the kitchen, +seemed too luxurious. + +But she was not quite idle, none-the-less. Junior had to have his +morning bath, after breakfast, and while he was in the tub, his +mother washed six bottles in the hand-basin. Then, on a tiltish +alcohol stove, Nancy had to boil his barley for twenty endless +minutes. When the stove upset there was an additional half-hour's +hard work, but even when it did not, it was usually ten o'clock +before she went down to the kitchen for his two quarts of milk. +Then came the usual careful work with the "ouncer," and the six +filled bottles were put into Nancy's own small ice-box, to which +one of the maids was then supposed to bring a small piece of ice. +The left-over milk was taken back to the kitchen, and Nancy washed +the little saucepan in her hand-basin, and put away stove and +barley. By this time Junior was ready for another bottle, and when +he went to sleep his mother went down to the laundry with an arm- +full of small garments. + +There was no other way. Labour was scarce in the village, and +Nancy could get no one of the housemaids to take upon herself this +daily task. Women from the outside were not allowed in the hotel +laundry, and so the task fell naturally to the baby's mother. She +assumed it gladly, but when the line of snowy linen was blowing +free in the summer wind, and the cake of soap had been put on its +special rafter, and the tubs were draining, Nancy usually went up +to her bedroom, tiptoeing in because of the sleeper, and flung +herself down for a heavy nap. + +After luncheon she gathered in her linen and watched by the +wideawake baby. Then they went down to the cool shade by the +creek, and Junior threw stones, and splashed fat hands in the +shallows, and his mother watched him adoringly. It never entered +her head that she was anything but privileged to be able to slave +for him. He was always and supremely worth while. Nancy's only +terrors were that something would happen to rob her of the honour. +She wanted no other company; Junior was her world, except when +Saturday's noon train brought Bert. She told her husband, and +meant it, that she was too happy; they did not need the world. + +But sometimes the world intruded, and turned Nancy's hard-won +philosophy to ashes. She did not want to be idle, and she did not +want to be rich, but when she saw women younger than herself, in +no visible way inferior, who were both, her calm was shattered for +a time. + +One day she and Bert wheeled the boy, in his small cart, down a +pleasant unfamiliar roadway, and across a rustic bridge, and, +smiling over their adventure, found themselves close to a low, +wide-spreading Colonial house, with striped awnings shading its +wide porches, and girls and men in white grouped about a dozen +tea-tables. Tennis courts were near by, and several motor-cars +stood beside the pebbled drive. + +A gray-uniformed attendant came to them, civilly. Did they wish to +see some member of the club! "Oh, it is a club then," Bert asked, +a little too carelessly. "It is the Silver River Country Club, +sir." + +"Oh, well, we'll get out of here, then," Bert said good naturedly, +as he turned the perambulator on the gravel under a hundred casual +eyes. He and Nancy chatted quite naturally about their mistake, as +they re-crossed the rustic bridge, and went up the unfamiliar +roadway again. But a cloud lay over them for the rest of that day, +and that night Nancy said: + +"What must one have--or be--to belong to a thing like that, Bert?" + +"To--oh, that club?" Bert answered, "Oh, it isn't so much. A +hundred initiation, and a hundred a year, I suppose." "We could do +that--some year," Nancy predicted. + +"Well, it isn't only that. There's no use joining a country club," +Bert said musingly, "unless you can do the thing decently. It +means signing checks for tea, and cocktails, and keeping a car, +and the Lord knows what! It means tennis rackets and golf sticks +and tips and playing bridge for a stake. It all counts up!" + +"Where do all those people get the money?" Nancy asked +resentfully. "They looked common, to me!" + +"We'll get there, never you fret!" Bert answered vaguely. But long +after he was asleep his wife lay awake in the hot hotel bedroom, +and thought darkly of fate. She came of gentle stock, and she +would meet her lot bravely, but oh, how she longed for ease, for a +little luxury, for coolness and darkness and silence and service, +for frothy laces and the touch of silk! + +Lights came up from the lawn before the hotel. It was Sunday +night, and the young people were making the most of the precious +week-end. Nancy heard a clock somewhere strike ten, and then the +single stroke for the half-hour. She got up and sat beside the +window; the night was insufferably close, with not a breath of +air. + +Junior sighed; his mother arose, stricken, and lighted a shaded +lamp. Half-past-ten and she had forgotten his bottle! + +When she carried it over to him, he was wide awake, his face +sober, his aureole of bright hair damp with the heat. But at the +sight of his playfellow his four new teeth came suddenly into +sight. Here was "Mugger," the unfailing solace and cheer of his +life. He gave her a beatific smile, and seized the bottle with a +rapturous "glug." Bert was roused by her laughter, and the soft +sound of kisses. + + + + +Chapter Nine + + +When the second boy came, in early December the Bradleys decided +to move. They moved into a plain, old-fashioned flat, with two +enormous rooms, two medium-sized, and two small ones, in an +unfashionable street, and in a rather inaccessible block. There +was a drug store at the corner opposite them, but the park was +only a long block away, and the back rooms were flooded with +sunshine. Nancy had only two flights of stairs to climb, instead +of four, and plenty of room for the two cribs and the high chair. +Also she had room for Elite, the coloured girl who put herself at +the Bradleys' disposal for three dollars a week. Elite knew +nothing whatever, but she had willing hands and willing feet. She +had the sudden laugh of a maniac, but she held some strange power +over the Bradley babies and they obeyed her lightest word. + +They moved on the day after Christmas, when Edward Barrett Bradley +was only three weeks old. Elite and Bert did the moving, and Nancy +only laughed weakly at their experiences. Junior contracted +chicken-pox during this time, and the family was quarantined on +New Year's Eve. + +Bert and his wife celebrated the occasion with a quart of oysters, +eaten with hat-pins from a quart measure. The invalid slumbered in +the same room, behind a screen. He was having a very light attack, +and Nancy, who had been hanging over him all day, was reassured +to-night, and in wild spirits. She laughed the tears into her eyes +when Albert Senior, hearing the tentative horns at nine o'clock, +telephoned the fish market for the wherewithal to celebrate. Bert +had been hanging pictures, and was dirty and tired, but they got +quite hysterical with merriment over their feast. The "new boy," +as they called the baby, presently was brought in, and had his own +meal, before the old-fashioned coal fire. Nancy sat dreaming over +the small curved form. + +"We'll think this is very funny, some day!" she said, dauntlessly. + +Bert merely looked at her. But after a while he tried to tell her +what he thought about it, and so made their third New Year +memorable to her forever. + +She settled down quickly, in the new quarters; some visionary, +romancing phase of Nancy's character and Nancy's roses disappeared +for a time. She baked and boiled, sewed on buttons, bandaged +fingers, rose gallantly to the days' demands. She learned the +economical value of soups and salads, and schooled herself, at +least every other day, to leave the boys for an hour or two with +Elite, and walk out for a little bracing solitude. Bert watched +her in admiring amazement. His wife was a wonder! + +Sometimes, on a cold afternoon, she walked down to meet Bert, and +they went together to dinner. Their talk was practical now, of +suits and rubber overshoes and milk bills. And Nancy was too tired +to walk home; they went home in the rubber-scented dampness of a +surface car. + +Sometimes, as she went through the morning routine, the baths, +bottles, dishes, the picking up, the disheartening conferences +over the ice box, she wondered what had become of the old southern +belle, Nancy Barrett, who had laughed and flirted and only a few +years ago, who had been such a strong and pretty and confident +egotist? There was no egotism left in Nancy now, she was only a +busy woman in a world of busy women. She knew backache and +headache, and moods of weary irritation. The cut of her gowns, the +little niceties of table-service or of children's clothing no +longer concerned her. She merely wanted her family comfortable, +fed and housed and clothed, and well. Nancy could advise other +women about the capable handling of children, before her firstborn +was three years old. + +They never went to "The Old Hill House" again, but they found a +primitive but comfortable hotel in the Maine woods, for Ned's +second summer, and for several summers after that. Here Nancy +slept and tramped and rested happily, welcoming Bert rapturously +every week-end. In near-by cabins, young matrons like herself were +likewise solving the children's summer problem, she was never +lonely, and the eight free, pine-scented weeks were cloudlessly +happy. She told Bert that it was the only sensible solution for +persons in moderate circumstances; old clothes, simple food, utter +solitude. + +"There are no comparisons to spoil things," Nancy said, +contentedly. "I know I'm small-minded, Bert. But seeing things I +can't have does upset me, somehow!" + + + + +Chapter Ten + + +Nevertheless, she accepted the invitation that came from Bert's +cousin Dorothy, one autumn, for a week-end visit. Dorothy had +married now, and had a baby. She was living in a rented "place," +up near Rhinecliff, she wrote, and she wanted to see something of +Cousin Bert. + +Neither Bert nor Nancy could afterward remember exactly why they +went. It was partly curiosity, perhaps; partly the strong lure +exerted by Dorothy's casual intimation that "the car" would come +for them, and that this particular week-end was "the big dance, at +the club." Bert chanced to have a new suit, and Nancy had a +charming blue taffeta that seemed to her good enough for any place +or anybody. + +The boys were asked, but they did not take them. Ned was almost +two now, and Junior past three, and they behaved beautifully with +Hannah, the quiet old Danish woman who had been with them since +they came back from the woods, the year before. Nancy, full of +excited anticipation, packed her suit-case daintily, and fluttered +downstairs as happily as a girl, when a hundredth glance at the +street showed the waiting motor at last. + +Hawkes was the chauffeur. "To Mr. Bradley's office please, +Hawkes," said Nancy. She could not think of anything friendly to +say to him, as they wheeled through the streets. Bert kept them +waiting, and once or twice she said "I can't think what's delaying +Mr. Bradley." But Hawkes did not answer. + +Presently Bert came out and greeted Nancy and Hawkes. + +"But I thought Mrs. Benchley was coming into town to-day," Bert +said. Dorothy was now Mrs. George Benchley. Hawkes spoke at last. +"An old friend of Mrs. Benchley has unexpectedly arrived this +morning, sir, and she has changed her mind." "Oh, all right," said +Bert, grinning at Nancy as the pleasant drive began. + +It was all wonderful; the bright autumn sunshine, the sense of +freedom and leisure in the early afternoon, and the lovely roads +they followed. Bert however, seemed to be thinking of his sons, +and asked of them more than once. And Nancy could not rid herself +of an uncomfortable suspicion that whoever Dorothy's old friend +was, she had changed Dorothy's plans, and perhaps made the coming +of the Bradleys untimely. Now and then husband and wife smiled at +each other and said "This is fun!" + +Dorothy's "place" was a beautiful estate, heavily wooded, wound +with white driveways, and equipped with its own tennis courts, and +its boathouse on the river. The house was enormous, and naturally +had assumed none of the personality of its occupants, in this +casual summer tenancy. There were countless rooms, all filled with +tables and chairs and rugs and desks and bowls of flowers; and +several maids came and went in the interest of the comfort of the +house. There were seven or eight other guests besides the +Bradleys, and they all seemed to know each other well. The +unexpected guest was a young Mrs. Catlin affectionately mentioned +by Dorothy in every other breath as "Elaine"; she and Dorothy had +been taken to Europe together, after their schooldays, and had +formed an intimacy then. + +Dorothy came into the big hall to meet her cousin and his wife, +and, with a little laugh, kissed Bert. She looked particularly +young and lovely in what Nancy supposed to be a carefully-selected +costume; later she realized that all Dorothy's clothes gave this +impression. She said that the baby was out, when Nancy asked for +him, and that Katharine would take care of them. + +Katharine, an impassive maid, led them upstairs, and to the large +room in which their suit cases already stood. Dorothy had said, +"After you change, come down and have something to drink!" but +Nancy had nothing prettier than the taffeta, except her evening +gown, and as the sunshine was streaming into the room, she could +not change to that. So she merely freshened her appearance, and +wasted fifteen or twenty minutes in a close inspection of the +room, before they went down. To her somewhat shy question Bert +responded enthusiastically, "You look lovely!" + +They went through empty open rooms, talking as naturally as they +could, and smilingly joined the others on the porch. Tea and other +drinks were being dispensed by Elaine, whose attention was +meanwhile absorbed by two young men. Dorothy, lying almost flat in +a wicker chair, with her small silk-shod ankles crossed, was +lazily arguing some question of golf scores. + +She introduced the new-comers, and as Bert, somewhat more at home +in his cousin's house than his wife was, fell into conversation +with the middle-aged man nearest him, Dorothy dutifully addressed +herself to Nancy. They spoke of Bert's mother, and of Boston, and +Dorothy asked Nancy if she liked tennis--or golfing--or yachting? +There was to be quite a large dance at the club to-night, and an +entertainment before it. + +"Isn't Dorothy a wonder, Mrs. Bradley?" asked Elaine. "She's going +to have twenty people to dinner, she runs this big house, she's +got a baby not yet six months old, and she looks about sixteen!" + +"You must have wonderful maids," suggested Nancy, smiling. + +"I have!" said Dorothy amusedly, "They're crazy about me--I don't +know why, because I work them like dogs. But of course we're away +a lot, and then they always have parties," she added, "and they +run things pretty much to suit themselves. But we have good meals, +don't we, Elaine?" she asked, childishly. + +"Heavenly!" said Elaine. Nancy, trying to appear brightly +sympathetic, smiled again. + +But she and Bert dressed for dinner almost silently, an hour +later. It was all delightful and luxurious, truly, and they were +most considerately and hospitably accepted by the entire +establishment. But something was wrong. Nancy did not know what it +was, and she did not want to risk a mere childish outburst, so +easily construed into jealousy. Perhaps it WAS jealousy. + +She found herself arguing, as she dressed. This sort of thing was +not LIFE, after all. The quiet wife of an obscure man, rejoicing +in her home and her children, had a thousand times more real +pleasure. These well-dressed idle people didn't count, after all. ... + +"Sort of nice of Dorothy to send Hawkes in for us," Bert said; +"Did you hear her explain that she thought we'd be more +comfortable with Hawkes, so she and Mrs. Catlin kept the younger +man?" + +"Considerate!" Nancy said, lifelessly. + +"Isn't it a wonder she isn't spoiled?" Bert pursued. + +"Really it is!" + +"Benchley looks like an ass," Bert conceded. "But he's not so bad. +He's in the firm now, you know, and Dorothy was just telling me +that he's taken hold wonderfully." + +"Isn't that nice?" Nancy said, mildly. She was struggling with her +hair, which entirely refused to frame her face in its usual rich +waves, and lay flat or split into unexpected partings despite her +repeated efforts. "How's that now, Bert? "she asked, turning +toward him with an arrangement half-completed. + +"Well--that's all RIGHT--" he began uncertainly. Nancy, dropping +the brown strands, and tossing the whole hot mass free, felt that +she could burst into tears. + + + + +Chapter Eleven + + +The dinner was an ordeal; her partner was unfortunately interested +only in motor-cars, of which Nancy could find little that was +intelligent to say. She felt like what she was, a humble relative +out of her element. After dinner they were all packed into cars, +and swept to the club. + +Darkness and the sound of a comedian's voice in monologue warned +them as they entered that the entertainment was begun; after much +whispering, laughing and stumbling however, they were piloted to +chairs, and for perhaps an hour and a half Nancy was quite alone, +and much entertained. Then the lights went up, and the crowd +surged noisily to and fro. + +She lost sight of Bert, but was duly introduced to new people; and +they spoke of the successful entertainment, and of the club-house. +Nancy danced only once or twice, and until almost two o'clock sat +talking, principally with a pleasant old lady, who had a daughter +to chaperon. + +Then the first departures began, and Nancy had a merry good-night +from Dorothy, called over the latter's powdered shoulder as she +danced, and went home. She was silent, as she undressed, but Bert, +yawning, said that he had had a good time. He said that Dorothy +had urged them to stay until Monday morning, but he did not see +how he could make it. He hated to get started late at the office +Monday morning. Nancy eagerly agreed. + +"You do feel so?" he asked, in satisfaction. "Well, that settles +it, then! We'll go home to-morrow." + +And home they did go, on the following afternoon. Nancy, counting +the hours, nevertheless enjoyed the delicious breakfast, when she +had quite a spirited chat with one or two of the men guests, who +were the only ones to appear. Then she and Bert walked into the +village to church, and wandering happily home, were met by Dorothy +in the car, and whirled to the club. Here the pleasant morning air +was perfumed with strong cigars already, and while Bert played +nine holes of golf, and covered himself with glory, Nancy won five +rubbers of bridge, and gained the respect of Dorothy and Elaine at +the same time. She was more like her spontaneous self at luncheon +than at any other time during the visit, and driving home, agreed +with Bert that, when you got to know them, Dorothy's set was not +so bad! + +"Her baby is frightfully ugly, but that doesn't matter so much, +with a boy," said Nancy. "And I don't think that a woman like +Elaine is so rude as she is stupid. They simply can't see anything +else but their way of thinking, and dressing, and talking, and so +they stare at you as if you were a Hottentot! I had a nice time, +especially to-day--but never again!" + +"Dorothy never did have any particular beau," Bert observed, "She +just likes to dress in those little silky, stripy things, and have +everyone praising her, all the time. She'll ask us again, +sometime, when she remembers us." + + + + +Chapter Twelve + + +But it was almost a year before Dorothy thought of her cousins +again, and then the proud Nancy wrote her that the arrival of Anne +Bradley was daily expected, and no plans could be made at present. +Anne duly came, a rose of a baby, and Nancy said that luck came +with her. + +Certainly Anne was less than a week old when Bert told his wife +that old Souchard, whose annoying personality had darkened all +Bert's office days, had retired, gone back to Paris! And Bert was +head man, "in the field." His salary was not what Souchard's had +been, naturally, but the sixty dollars would be doubled, some +weeks, by commissions; there would be lots of commissions, now! +Now they could save, announced Nancy. + +But they did not save. They moved again, to a pleasanter +apartment, and Hannah did washing and cooking, and Grace came, to +help with the children. Nancy began to make calls again, and had +the children's pictures taken, for Grandmother Bradley, and +sometimes gave luncheons, with cards to follow. She and Bert could +go to the theatre again, and, if it was raining, could come home +in a taxicab. + +It was a modest life, even with all this prosperity. Nancy had +still enough to do, mending piled up, marketing grew more +complicated, and on alternate Thursdays and Sundays she herself +had to fill Hannah's place, or Grace's place. They began to think +that life would be simpler in the country, and instead of taking +the children to the parks, as was their happy Sunday custom, they +went now to Jersey, to Westchester, and to Staten Island. + +The houses they passed, hundreds and hundreds of them, filled them +with enthusiasm. Sunday was a pleasant day, in the suburbs. The +youngsters, everywhere, were in white--frolicking about open +garage doors, bareheaded on their bicycles, barefooted beside +beaches or streams. Their mothers, also white-clad, were busy with +agreeable pursuits--gathering roses, or settling babies for naps +in shaded hammocks. Lawn mowers clicked in the hands of the white- +clad men, or a group of young householders gathered for tennis, or +for consultation about a motor-car. + +Nancy and Bert began to tentatively ask about rents, to calculate +coal and commutation tickets. The humblest little country house, +with rank neglected grass about it, and a kitchen odorous of new +paint and old drains, held a strange charm for them. + +"They could LIVE out-of-doors!" said Nancy, of the children. "And +I want their memories to be sweet, to be homelike and natural. The +city really isn't the place for children!" + +"I'd like it!" Bert said, for like most men he was simple in his +tastes, and a vision of himself and his sons cutting grass, +picking tomatoes and watering gooseberry bushes had a certain +appeal. "I'd like to have the Cutters out for a week-end!" he +suggested. Nancy smiled a little mechanically. She did not like +Amy Cutter. + +"And we could ask the Featherstones!" she remembered suddenly. + +"Gosh! Joe Featherstone is the limit!" Bert said, mildly. + +"Well, however!" Nancy concluded, hastily, "We COULD have people +out, that's the main thing!" + + + + +Chapter Thirteen + + +For a year or two the Bradleys kept up these Sunday expeditions +without accomplishing anything definite. But they accomplished a +great amount of indirect happiness, ate a hundred picnic lunches, +and accumulated ten times that many amusing, and inspiring, and +pleasant, recollections. Bert carried the lovely Anne; Nancy had +the thermos bottle and Anne's requirements in a small suit-case; +and the boys had a neat cardboard box of lunch apiece. + +And then some months after their seventh anniversary, Bert sold +the Witcher Place. + +This was the most important financial event of their lives. The +Witcher Place had been so long in the hands of Bert's firm for +sale that it had become a household word in the Bradley family, +and in other families. Nobody ever expected to pocket the handsome +commission that the owner and the firm between them had placed +upon the deal, and to Nancy the thing was only a myth until a +certain autumn Sunday, when she and Bert and the children were +roaming about the Jersey hills, and stumbled upon the place. + +There it was; the decaying mansion, the neglected avenue and +garden, the acres and acres of idle orchard and field. The faded +signposts identified it, "Apply to the Estate of Eliot Witcher." + +"Bert, this isn't the Witcher Place!" exclaimed his wife. + +Bert was as interested as she. They pushed open the old gate, and +ate their luncheon that day sitting on the lawn, under the elms +that the first Eliot Witcher had planted a hundred years ago. The +children ran wild over the garden, Anne took her nap on the leaf- +strewn side porch. + +"Bert--they never want two hundred thousand dollars for just +this!" + +Bert threw away his cigar, and flung himself luxuriously down for +a nap. + +"They'll get it, Nance. Somebody'll develop a real estate deal +here some day. They must have a hundred acres here. You'll see it- +-'Witcher Park' or 'Witcher Manor.' The old chap who inherited it +is as rich as Croesus, he was in the office the other day, he +wants to sell.--Hello! I was in the office--garden--and so I said- +-if you please--" + +Bert was going to sleep. His wife laughed sympathetically as the +staggering words stopped, and deep and regular breathing took +their place. She sat on in the afternoon sunlight, looking +dreamily about her, and trying to picture life here a hundred +years ago; the gracious young mistress of the new mansion, the +ringlets and pantalettes, the Revloutionary[sic] War still well +remembered, and the last George on the throne. And now the house +was cold and dead, and strange little boys, in sandals and sturdy +galatea, were shouting in the stable. + +Perhaps she was drowsy herself; she started awake, and touched +Bert. An old man and a young man had come in the opened gate, and +were speaking to her. + +"I beg your pardon!" It was the young man. "But--but do you own +this place?" + +"No--just picnicking!" said Bert, wide awake. + +"But it is for sale?" asked the old man. Bert got up, and brushed +the leaves from his clothes, and the three men walked down the +drive together. Nancy, half-comprehending, all-hoping looked after +them. She saw Bert give the young man his card, and glance at the +same time at the faded sign, as if he appealed to it to confirm +his claim. + +She hardly dared speak when he came back. Anne awoke, and the boys +must be summoned for the home trip. Bert moved dreamily, he seemed +dazed. Only once did he speak of the Witcher Place that night, and +then it was to say: + +"Perry--that's that old chap's name--said that he would be in this +week, at the office. I'll bet he doesn't come." + +"No, I don't suppose he will," Nancy said. + +"I impressed it on his son that it meant--something, to me, to +have him ask for me, if he DID come," said Bert, then. + +"Bert, you'd better skip lunches, this week," Nancy suggested +thoughtfully. + +"I will--that's a good idea," he said. She noticed that he was +more than usually gentle and helpful with the children, that +night. Nancy felt his strain, and her own, and went through Monday +sick with suspense. + +"Nothing doing!" said Bert cheerfully, coming in on Monday +evening. Tuesday went by--Wednesday went by. On Thursday Nancy had +an especially nice dinner, because Bert's mother had come down, +for a few days' visit. The two women were good friends, and Nancy +was never so capable, brisk, and busy as when these sharp but +approving eyes were upon her. + +The elder Mrs. Bradley approved of the children heartily, and +boasted about them and their clever mother when she went home. +Bert's wife was so careful as to manners, so sensible about food +and clothes, such a wonderful manager. + +To-night Anne was in her grandmother's lap, commandingly directing +the reading of a fairy-story. Whenever the plot seemed thin to +Anne she threw in a casual demand for additional lions, dragons or +giants, as her fancy dictated. Mrs. Bradley giving Nancy a +tremendously amused and sympathetic smile, supplied these horrors +duly, and the boys, supposedly eating their suppers at one end of +the dining-room table, alternately laughed at Anne and agonized +with her. + +Nancy was superintending the boys, the elderly woman had a +comfortable chair by the fire, and Hannah was slowly and +ponderously setting the table. It was a pretty scene for Bert's +eyes to find, as he came in, and he gave his mother and his wife a +more than usually affectionate greeting. + +Nancy followed him into their room, taking Anne. She was pleased +that the children had been so sweet with their grandmother, +pleased that her deep dish pie had come out so well, happy to be +cosy and safe at home while the last heavy rains of October +battened at the windows. + +She had lowered Anne, already undressed, into her crib when Bert +suddenly drew her away, and tipped up her face with his hand under +her chin, and stared into her surprised eyes. + +"Well, old girl, I got it! It was all settled inside of twenty +minutes, at five o'clock!" + +"The--? But Bert---I don't understand--" Nancy stammered. And then +suddenly, with a rush of awed delight, "Bert Bradley! Not the +Witcher Place!" + +"Yep!" Bert answered briefly. "He took it. It's all settled." + + + + +Chapter Fourteen + + +So the Bradleys had a bank account. And even before the precious +money was actually paid them, and deposited in the bank, Nancy +knew what they were going to do with it. There was only one +sensible thing for young persons who were raising a family on a +small salary to do. They must buy a country home. + +No more city, no more rent-paying for Nancy and Bert. The bank +account had just five figures. Nancy and Bert said that they could +buy a lovely home anywhere for nine thousand, and have a whole +thousand left for furniture and incidentals. They could begin to +live! + +A week later they began their hunt, and all through the white +winter and the lovely spring they hunted. They asked friends about +it, and read magazines, and the advertisements in the Sunday +papers. + +Unfortunately, however, in all the Saturdays and the Sundays they +spent hunting for their home, they never saw anything that cost +just nine thousand dollars. There were hundreds of places that +cost sixty-five hundred or seven thousand. After that prices made +a clean leap to ten thousand, to twelve thousand, to fourteen-- +"No, it's no use our looking at those!" said the young Bradleys, +sighing. + +They learned a great deal about houses, and some of their dreams +died young. It was no use, the agents told Nancy, to think about a +pretty, shabby, old farm-house, for those had been snapped up. If +she found one, it would be a foolish investment, because it +probably would be surrounded by unrestricted property. +Restrictions were great things, and all developments had them in +large or small degree. There were developments that obliged the +purchaser of land to submit his building plans to a committee, +before he could build. + +Nancy laughed that she shouldn't care for THAT. And when +restrictions interfered with her plans she very vigorously opposed +them. She told Bert that she would not consider places that did +not allow fences, and chickens, and dogs, and all the other +pleasant country things. + +Sometimes, in an economical mood, the Bradleys looked at the six +and seven thousand dollar bargains. It had to be admitted that +some of them were extremely nice. Nice neighbourhoods, young trees +set out along the street--trees about the size of carriage whips-- +nice sunny bathroom, nice bedrooms--"we could change these +papers," Nancy always said--good kitchen and closets, gas all +ready to connect, and an open fireplace in the dining room. And so +back to the front hall again, and to a rather blank moment when +the agent obviously expected a definite decision, and the Bradleys +felt unable to make it. + +"What don't you like about the place?" the agent would ask. + +"Well--" Bert would flounder. "I don't know. I'll talk it over +with my wife!" + +"Better decide to take it, Mr. Bradley," the agent, whoever he +was, would urge seriously, "We're selling these places awfully +fast, and when they're gone you won't find anything else like +them. It's only because this chap that's been holding this +property suddenly--" + +"Yes, I know, you told me about his dropping dead," Bert would +hastily remind him. "Well--I'll see. I'll let you know. Come on, +kids!" + +And the Bradley family would walk away, not too hastily, but +without looking back. + +"I don't know--but it was so like all the others," Nancy would +complain, "It was so utterly commonplace! Now there, Bert, right +in the village street, with the trees, is a lovely place, marked +'For Sale.' Do let's just pass it!" + +"Darling girl, you couldn't touch that for twenty thousand. Right +there by the track, too!" + +"But it looks so homelike!" + +"That old barn in the back looks sort of odd to me; they've got a +sort of livery stable there in the back, Nance, you couldn't stand +that!" + +"No." Nancy's tone and manner would droop, she would go slowly by, +discouraged and tired until another week end. + + + + +Chapter Fifteen + + +One day Bert told Nancy that a man named Rogers had been in the +office, and had been telling him about a place called Marlborough +Gardens. Usually Bert's firm did not touch anything small enough +to interest him as a home, but in this case the whole development +was involved, and the obliging Mr. Rogers chanced to mention to +Bert that he had some bargains down there at the Gardens. + +"There's nothing in it for him, you understand?" said Bert to his +wife, "But he's an awfully decent fellow, and he got interested. I +told him about what we'd been doing, and he roared. He says that +we're to come down Sunday, and see what he's got, and if we don't +like it he can at any rate give us some dope about the rest of the +places." + +"And where is it, Bert?" + +"It's down on the Sound side of Long Island, thirty-seven minutes +out of town, right on the water." + +"Oh, Bert, it sounds wonderful?" + +"He says that it's the most amazing thing that ever has been put +on the market. He says that Morgan and Rockefeller both have put +money into it, on the quiet." + +"Well, if they can risk their little all, we can take a chance!" +giggled Nancy. + +"Of course that isn't generally known," Bert warned her, "but it +just goes to show you that it's a BIG THING. He was telling me +about this feller that had a gorgeous home just built there, and +his wife's mother gets ill, and they all move to California. He +said I could look at it, and that it would speak for itself." + +"Did he say whether there were any trees?" + +"He said this particular place had wonderful trees." + +"And what's the price, Bee?" + +Bert knew that this was his weak point. + +"He didn't say, old girl." + +Nancy looked rueful, her castle in the dust. + +"Oh, BERT! It may be something awful!" + +"No, it won't, for I'd just been telling him what we were looking +at, don't you see!" + +"Oh, that so?" Nancy was relieved. "But it will be the first thing +_I_ ask him," she predicted. + + + + +Chapter Sixteen + + +However, on Sunday she forgot to ask him. The circumstances were +so unexpectedly pleasant as to banish from her head any pre- +arranged plan of procedure. It was a glowing June day, soft, +perfumed, and breezy. The Bradleys went to Butler's Hill, which +was "our station," as Nancy said, and there the agent met them, +with a car. He drove them himself the short mile from the railroad +to Marlborough Gardens. + +"Isn't it one of those frightfully smart developments?" Nancy +asked, smiling uneasily. + +"It's considered the finest home development on Long Island," the +agent admitted readily, "The place I'm going to show you--I'm +going to show you two or three--but the special place I want to +show you, was built for a HOME. There isn't a finer building +anywhere. Lansing, the man who built it, was a splendid fellow, +with a lovely wife--lovely woman. But her mother lives in +California, and she got to worrying--" + +"Mr. Bradley told me," Nancy said sympathetically. + +"Homes, and home-makers," pursued the agent, "That's what we need. +The people we have here are all quiet, home-loving folks, we don't +want show, we don't want display--" + +"Well, that's our idea!" Bert approved. And he rather vexed his +inconsistent wife by adding hardily, "Remember that my top figure +is ten thousand, Rogers, will you?" + +"Now, you wait and see what I have to show you, and then we'll +talk turkey," the other man said goodnaturedly. Anne, sitting on +her mother's lap beside him, gave him a sudden smile at the word +she recognized. + +He wheeled the car smoothly through the great gates of cement, +looped with iron chains, that shut off the village herd from the +sacred ground. Nancy gave Bert an ecstatic glance; this was +wonderful! The scattered homes were all beautiful, all different. +Some were actual mansions, with wide-spreading wings and half a +dozen chimneys, but some were small and homelike, etched with the +stretching fingers of new vines, and surrounded by park-like +gardens. Even about the empty plots hedges had been planted, and +underbrush raked away, and the effect was indescribably trim and +orderly, "like England," said Nancy, who had never seen England. + +As they slowly circled about, they caught glimpses of tennis +courts, beyond the lawns and trees, glimpses of the blue water of +the bay, glimpses of white, curving driveways. Here a shining +motor-car stood purring, there men in white paused with arrested +rackets, to glance up at the strangers from their tennis. Nancy +looked at Bert and Bert at Nancy, and their eyes confessed that +never in all the months of hunting had they seen anything like +THIS! + +Presently they came to the end of the road, and to a richly wooded +plot that formed a corner to the whole tract. A garden had been +planted, but it was neglected now, and weeds had pushed up here +and there between the bricks of the path. The house was low and +spreading, under great locust and elm trees, a shingled brown +house, with two red chimneys and cottage casements. Over one hedge +the Bradleys looked down at the pebbled beach that belonged to all +the residents of Marlborough Gardens. + +"Lansing called this place 'Holly Court,'" said the agent, leading +them to the front porch door, to which he skillfully fitted a key, +"That big holly bush there gave it its name; the bush is probably +fifty years old. Step in, Mrs. Bradley!" + +"But notice the lovely Dutch door first, Bert, "Nancy said +eagerly. "See, Anne! On a hot day you can have it half open and +half shut, isn't that cunning?" + +"The house is full of charming touches," Mr. Rogers said, "And you +may always trust a woman's eye to find them, Mr. Bradley! Women +are natural home-makers. My wife'll often surprise me; 'Why, +you've not got half enough closets, Paul,' she'll say. There's one +open fire-place, Mrs. Bradley, in your reception hall. You see the +whole plan of the house is informal. You've got another fire-place +in the dining room, and one in the master bedroom upstairs. Here's +a room they used as a den--bookshelves, and so on, and then beyond +is another tiled porch--very convenient for breakfast, or tea. You +see Lansing lived here; never has been rented, or anything like +that. He's selling it for practically what it cost him!" + +"And what's that?" asked Bert, smiling, but not quite at his ease. + +"Now, you wait a few minutes, Mr. Business Man!" Mr. Rogers said, +"What you think, and what I think, doesn't count much beside what +this little lady thinks. She's got to live in the house, and if +SHE likes it, why I guess you and I can come to terms!" + +Nancy threw her husband a glance full of all amused tolerance at +this, but in her secret soul she rather liked it. + +They went upstairs, where there were hardwood floors, and two +bathrooms, and mirrors in the bathroom doors. There was another +bathroom in the attic, and a fourth upstairs in the garage, with +two small bedrooms in each place. They must expect us to keep four +maids, Nancy hastily computed. + +There was an upstair porch; "To shake a rug, Mrs. Bradley, or to +dry your hair, or for this young lady's supper," said the +delightful Mr. Rogers. A back stairway led down to tempting +culinary regions; a sharp exclamation burst from Nancy at the +sight of the great ice box, and the tiled sinks. + +They walked about the plot, a large one. At the back, beside the +garage, they could look over a small but healthy hedge to more +beach, clustered with unusual shells at low tide, and the +straggling outskirts of the village. From the front, they looked +straight down a wide tree-shaded street, that lost itself in a +peaceful vista of great trees and vine-smothered stone walls. +"Holly Court" was quiet, it was naturally isolated, it seemed to +Nancy already like home. + +Even now, however, Mr. Rogers would not talk terms. He drove them +about again, passing other houses, all happily and prosperously +occupied. He told Nancy about this family and that. + +"What'd that house cost?" Bert would demand. + +"Ah well, THAT. That belongs to Ingram, of the Ingram Thorn Coal +people, you know. I suppose Mr. Ingram has invested forty or fifty +thousand dollars in that place, in one way and another. The tennis +court--" + +And so on and on. Presently they passed the pretty, unpretentious +club-house, built close to the water. A few light sails were +dipping and shaking on the bay, children were gathered in a little +knot beside an upturned canoe, on the shore. Several cars were +parked on the drive outside the club, and Nancy felt decidedly +self-conscious as she and Bert and the children walked onto the +awninged porch that was the tea room. + +"Now this club belongs to the place," Mr. Rogers said, "You're +buying here--and I don't mind telling you, Mr. Bradley, that I +want you to buy here," he broke off to admit persuasively-- +"because you and your wife are the sort of people we need here. +You won't find anything anywhere that is backed by the same +interest, you won't. However, about the club. Your buying here +makes you a member of this club----" + +"Oh, is that SO!" Nancy exclaimed, in delighted surprise. + +"Oh, yes," said the agent. "The dues are merely nominal--for the +upkeep of the place." + +"Of course!" said the Bradleys. + +"Your dues entitle you to all the privileges of the club--I +believe the bathhouses are a little extra, but everything else is +yours. You can bring a friend here to tea, give a card party here- +-there are dances and dinners all winter long." + +"Mother, are we coming here to live?" asked Junior, over his +chocolate. + +"I don't know," Nancy answered, feeling that she could cry with +nervousness. She hardly tasted her tea, she hardly saw the men and +women that drifted to and fro. Her heart was choking her with hope +and fear, and she knew that Bert was nervous, too. + +At last Mr. Rogers returned to the subject of "Holly Court," he +wanted to know first what they thought of it. Oh, it was perfect, +said Nancy and Bert together. It was just what they wanted, only-- + +Good, the agent said. He went on to say that he would have bought +the house himself, but that his wife's father had an old home in +Flushing, and while the old gentleman lived, he wanted them there. +But he belonged to the Marlborough Gardens Club, and kept a boat +there. Now, he had been authorized to put a special price on this +place of Lansings, and he was going to tell them frankly why. They +knew as well as he did that a hundred foot square plot, and trees +like that, so near the water, COST MONEY. He digressed to tell +them just how property had soared in price, during even his own +time. + +"The truth is," he said, "that Lansing, when he picked that site, +picked it for trees, and quiet, and view--it didn't make any +difference to him that it was a corner site, and a little out of +the main traffic----" + +"But I LIKE that about it!" Nancy said eagerly. "I love the +isolation and the quiet. Nobody will bother us there----" + +Bert saw that she was already moving in. He turned a rather +anxious look from her to the agent. + + + + +Chapter Seventeen + + +Twenty-five thousand. It was out at last, falling like a stone on +the Bradleys' hearts. Nancy could hardly keep the bitter tears +from her eyes. Bert, more hardy, barked out a short laugh. "I'm a +fool to let it go," said the agent frankly; "I'm all tied up with +other things. But I have no hesitation in saying this; you buy it, +put the garden in shape, sit tight for a few years, and I'll turn +it over for you for forty thousand, and throw in my commission!" + +"Nix!" said Bert, honestly, "Nothing stirring! It's too big a +proposition for us, we couldn't swing it. It may be all you say, +but I'm raising a family; I can't go into twenty-five-thousand- +dollar deals--" + +"I don't see why--" began the agent, unruffled. + +"I do!" Bert interrupted him, cheerfully. + +"Now look here, Mr. Bradley," said Mr. Rogers, patiently. "Let's +get the real dope on this thing. You want a home. You don't want a +contract-made, cheaply constructed place in some community that +your wife and children will outgrow before they're five years +older! Now, here you get a place that every year is going to +improve. There isn't so much of this Sound shore that is lying +around waiting to be bought. I can show you----" + +"Nothing stirring, I tell you!" Bert repeated, "Don't hand me out +a lot of dope about it. I can see for myself what it is, I like +it, the Missus likes it, it's a dandy proposition--for a +millionaire. But I couldn't touch it with a ten-foot pole!" + +Nancy's lip began to tremble. She was tired, and somehow--somehow +it all seemed such a waste, if they weren't to have it! She busied +herself untying Anne's napkin, and sent the three children on a +gingerly tour of inspection down to the beach. + +"Now listen a moment!" Mr. Rogers said. And Nancy added gently, +almost tremulously: + +"Do just LISTEN to him, Bert!" + +"You pay rent, don't you?" began Mr. Rogers, "Sixty, you said? +That's seven hundred and twenty dollars a year, and you have +nothing to show for it! But you'd consider seventy-five or a +hundred cheap enough for a place like this wouldn't you?" + +"I could go--a hundred, yes," Bert admitted, clearing his throat. + +"You don't HAVE to go any hundred," the agent said, triumphantly. +"And besides that, isn't it to your advantage to live in your own +house, and have a home that you can be proud of, and pay +everything over your interest toward your mortgage? We have people +here who only paid two or three thousand down, we don't push you-- +that isn't our idea. If you can't meet our terms, we'll meet +yours. You've got your nest-egg, whatever it is----" + +"As a matter of fact, I've got ten thousand to start with," Bert +said slowly. "But that's all I have got, Rogers," he added firmly, +"And I don't propose----" + +"You've GOT ten thousand?" asked the agent, with a kindly smile. +And immediately his vehemence gave way to a sort of benign +amusement. "Why, my dear boy," he said genially, "What's the +matter with you? There's a mortgage of twelve thousand on that +place now; you pay your ten, and 6 per cent, on the rest--that's +something a little more than sixty dollars a month--and then you +clear off your loan, or not, as suits you! I don't have to tell +you that that's good business. How much of the holdings of +Pearsall and Pearsall are clear of mortgages! We carry 'em on +every inch of our land, right to the hilt too. If you're getting +the equivalent of 8 or 9 per cent, on your money, you should worry +about the man that carries the loan. You're paying 6 per cent, on +somebody's twelve thousand now, don't forget that..." + + + + +Chapter Eighteen + + +An hour later they went to see Holly Court again. It was even +lovelier than ever in the sweet spring twilight. Triangles of soft +light lay upon its dusty, yet polished, floors. Bert said that the +place certainly needed precious little furniture; Nancy added +eagerly that one maid could do all the work. She drew a happy +sketch of Bert and his friends, arriving hot and weary from the +city, on summer afternoons, going down to the bay for a plunge, +and coming back to find supper spread on the red-tiled porch. Bert +liked the idea of winter fires, with snow and darkness outside and +firelight and warmth within, and the Bradleys' friends driving up +jolly and cold for an hour's talk, and a cup of tea. + +"What do you think, dear?" said Bert to his wife, very low, when +the agent had considerately withdrawn for a few minutes, and they +could confer. "Think!" repeated Nancy, in delicate reproach, "Why, +I suppose there is only one thing to think, Bert!" + +"You--you like it, then?" he asked, a little nervously. "Of +course, it's a corking place, and all that. And, as Rogers says, +with what we have we could swing it easily. You see dear, I pay +ten thousand, and take up twelve thousand more as a mortgage. Even +then there's three thousand--" + +Nancy looked despair. + +"But that could be covered by a second mortgage," he reminded her, +quickly. "That's a very ordinary thing. Everyone does that. Rogers +will fix it up for me." + +"Really, Bert?" she asked doubtfully. + +"Oh, certainly! We do it every day, in the office. However, we've +got to think this thing over seriously. It's twice--in fact, it's +more than twice what we said. There's the interest on the +mortgage, and the cost of the move, and my commutation, and club +dues. Then of course, living's a little higher--there are no +shops, just telephone service, the shops are in the village." + +"But think of car fares--and how simply the children can dress" +Nancy countered quickly. "And if they have all outdoors to play +in, why, I could let Anna go, and just send out the laundry!" + +"Well, we could think it over----" Bert began uncomfortably, but +she cut him short. They had been standing beside one of the +windows, and looking out at the soft twilight under the trees; now +Nancy turned to her husband a pale, tense face, and rather bright +eyes. + +"Albert," said she, quickly and breathlessly, "if I could have a +home like this I'd manage somehow! You've been saying we could +have a nurse to help with the children--but I'd have one servant +all my life--I'd do my own work! To have our friends down here--to +have the children grow up in these surroundings--to have that club +to go to--! We're not building for this year, or next year, dear. +We've got the children's future to think of. Mind, I'm not trying +to influence you, Bert," said Nancy, her eager tone changing +suddenly to a flat, repressed voice, "You are the best judge, of +course, and whatever you decide will be right. But I merely think +that this is the loveliest place I ever saw in my life, and +exactly what we've been hunting for--only far, far nicer!--and +that if we can't have it we'd simply better give up house-hunting, +because it's a mere waste of time, and resign ourselves to living +in that detestable city for ever and ever! Of course to go on as +we are going on, means no friends and no real home life for the +children, everyone admits that the city is NO PLACE FOR CHILDREN, +and another thing, we'll never find anything like this again! But +you do as you think best. Only I--that's what I feel, if you ask +me." + +And having talked the colour into her cheeks, and the tears into +her eyes, Nancy turned her back upon her husband, and looked out +into the garden again. + + + + +Chapter Nineteen + + +That same week Bert brought home the deeds, and put them down on +the dinner table before her. Nancy usually started the meal +promptly at half past six, so that the children's first raging +appetites might be partly assuaged; bread was buttered, milk +poured, bibs tied, and all the excitement of commencing the meal +abated when Bert came in. It was far from being the ideal +arrangement, both parents admitted that, but like a great many +other abridgements and changes in the domestic routine, it worked. +The rule was that no one was to interrupt Dad until he had talked +a little to Mother, and had his soup, and this worked well, too. +It was while the soup-plates were going out that Bert usually +lifted his daughter bodily into his arms, and paid some little +attention to his sons. + +But to-night he came rushing in like a boy, and the instant Nancy +saw the cause of his excitement, she was up from her place, and as +wild with pleasure as a girl. The deeds! The actual title to Holly +Court! Then it was all right? It was all right! It was theirs. +Nancy showed the stamped and ruled and folded paper to the +children. Oh, she had been so much afraid that something would go +wrong. She had been so worried. + +Nothing else was talked of that night, or for many days and +nights. Bert said that they might as well move at once, no use +paying rent when you owned a place, and he and Nancy entered into +delightful calculations as to the placing of rugs and tables and +chairs. The things might come out of storage now--wouldn't the +banjo clock and the pineapple bed look wonderful in Holly Court! +The children rejoiced in the parental decision to go and see it +again next Sunday, and take lunch this time, and be all by +themselves, and really get to know the place. + +Curiously, neither Nancy nor Bert could distinctly remember +anything but its most obvious features, now. Just how the stairs +came down into the pantry, and how the doors into the bedrooms +opened, they were unable to remember. But it was perfection, they +remembered that. + +And on Sunday, as eager as the children, they went down to +Marlborough Gardens again, to find it all lovelier and better than +their memory of it. After that they went every Sunday until they +moved, and Holly Court seemed to grow better and better. The +school and county taxes were already paid, and the receipts given +him, and there was no rent! Husband and wife, eyeing the dignified +disposition of the furniture, the white crib in the big dressing +room next to their own, the boys' narrow beds separated by strips +of rug and neat little dressers, the spare room with the pineapple +bed, and the blue scarfs lettered "Perugia--Perugia--Perugia"-- +looked into each other's eyes and said that they had done well. + + + + +Chapter Twenty + + +The rest of that summer, and the fall, were like an exquisite +dream. All the Bradleys were well, and happier than their happiest +dream. Nancy took the children swimming daily on the quiet, +deserted beach just above the club grounds; on Saturdays and +Sundays they all went swimming. She made her own bed every +morning, and the children's beds, and she dusted the beautiful +drawing room, and set the upper half of the Dutch door at a dozen +angles, trying to decide which was the prettiest. She and Anne +made a little ceremony of filling the vases with flowers, and the +boys were obliged to keep the brick paths and the lawn clear of +toys. + +Nancy made a quiet boast in those days that they let the +neighbours alone, and the neighbours let them alone. But she did +meet one or two of the Marlborough Beach women, and liked them. +And three times during the summer she and Bert asked city friends +to visit them; times of pride and pleasure for the Bradleys. Their +obvious prosperity, their handsome children, and the ideal home +could not but send everyone away admiring. It was after the last +of these visits that Bert told his wife that they ought to join +the club. + +"I don't quite understand that--don't we belong?" Nancy asked. + +"The Club belongs to all the owners of Marlborough Beach," Bert +explained. "But--but I feel a little awkward about butting in +there. However, now that this fellow Biggerstaff, that I meet so +much in the train, seems to be so well inclined, suppose you and I +dress up and wander over there for tea, on Sunday? We'll leave the +kids here, and just try it." + +Nancy somewhat reluctantly consented to the plan, observing that +she didn't want to do the wrong thing. But it proved the right +thing, for not only did the friendly Biggerstaff come over to the +Bradleys tea-table, but he brought pretty Mrs. Biggerstaff, and +left her with the new-comers while he went off to find other men +and women to introduce. The Bradleys met the Roses, and the Seward +Smiths and gray-haired Mrs. Underhill, with her son, and his +motherless boys--the hour was confused, but heart-warming. When +the Bradleys went home in the Roses' car, they felt that they had +been honestly welcomed to Marlborough Gardens. Nancy was so +excited that she did not want any supper; she sat with Anne in her +lap chattering about the social possibilities opening before her. + +"Rose tells me that the club dues are fifty a year," Bert said, +"and some of the bathhouses are five, and the others twenty each. +The twenties are dandies--twelve feet square, with gratings, and +wooden hooks, and lots of space. However, we don't have to decide +that until next year. Of course you sign for teas and all that but +the cards and card-tables and so on, are supplied by the club, and +the tennis courts and lockers and so on, are absolutely free." + +"Isn't that wonderful?" Nancy said. + +"Well, Rose said they weren't trying to make anything out of it-- +it's a family club, and it's here for the general convenience of +the Gardens. Now, for instance, if a fellow from outside joins, he +pays one hundred and fifty initiation fee, and seventy-five a +year." + +"H'm!" said Nancy, in satisfaction. The Marlborough Gardens Yacht +Club was not for the masses. "All we need for the children is a +five-dollar bath house," she added presently, "For we're so near +that it's really easier for you and me to walk over in our bathing +suits." + +"Oh, sure!" Bert agreed easily. "Unless, of course," he added +after a pause, "all the other fellows do something else." + +"Oh of course!" agreed Nancy, little dreaming that she and her +husband were in these words voicing the new creed that was to be +theirs. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-one + + +Up to this time it might have been said that the Bradleys had +grasped their destiny, and controlled it with a high hand. Now +their destiny grasped them, and they became its helpless prey. +Neither Nancy nor Bert was at all conscious of this; in deciding +to do just what all the other persons at the Gardens did, they +merely felt that they were accepted, that they were a part at last +of this wholly fascinating and desirable group. + +At first it meant only that they went to the fortnightly dinner at +the club, and danced, on alternate Saturday nights. Nancy danced +exquisitely, even after her ten busy and tiring years, and Bert +was always proud of her when he saw her dancing. The dances broke +up very late; the Bradleys were reproached for going home at two +o'clock. They both usually felt a little tired and jaded the next +day, and not quite so ready to tramp with the children, or +superintend brush fires or snow-shovelling as had once been their +happy fashion. + +But they were fresh and eager at four o'clock when Marlborough +Gardens came in for tea by the fire, or when the telephone +summoned them to some other fireside for tea. It rarely was tea; +Nancy wondered that even the women did not care for tea. They +sometimes drank it, and crunched cinnamon toast, after card +parties, but on Saturdays and Sundays, when men were in the group, +stronger drinks were the fashion, cocktails and highballs, or a +bowl of punch. The Bradleys were charming people, Marlborough +Gardens decided warm-heartedly; they had watched the pretty new- +comer and her splashing, sturdy children, all through the first +quiet summer--the children indeed, were all good friends already. +The grown-ups followed suit, + +Motor-cars began to come down the short lane that ended at the +gate of Holly Court, and joyous and chattering men and women to +come in to tea. Nancy loved this, and to see a group of men +standing about his blazing logs filled Bert's heart with pride. It +was rather demoralizing in a domestic sense, dinner was delayed, +and their bedtime consequently delayed, and Dora, the cook was +disgruntled at seven o'clock, when it was still impossible to set +the dinner table. But Nancy, rather than disturb her guests, got a +second servant, an enormous Irishwoman named Agnes, who carried +the children off quietly for a supper in the kitchen, when tea- +time callers came, and managed them far more easily than their +mother could. + +Before the second summer came Nancy had come to be ashamed of some +of her economies that first summer. Taking the children informally +across the back of the empty Somers' place, and letting them bathe +on the deserted beach next to the club, wearing faded cottons, and +picknicking as near as the Half Mile Light, seemed rather shabby +performances. These things had seemed luxury a year ago, but she +wondered now how she could have done them. Sometimes she reminded +Bert of the much older times, of the oyster party and the hat- +pins, or the terrible summer at The Old Hill House, but she never +spoke of them above her breath. + +On the contrary, she had to watch carefully not to inadvertently +admit to Marlborough Gardens that the financial standing of the +Bradleys was not quite all the heart might have desired. Nancy had +no particular sense of shame in the matter, she would have really +enjoyed discussing finances with these new friends. But money, as +money, was never mentioned. It flowed in a mysterious, and +apparently inexhaustible stream through the hands of these young +men and women, and while many of them knew acute anxiety +concerning it, it was not the correct thing to speak of it. They +had various reasons for doing, or not doing, various things. But +money never influenced them. Oliver Rose kept a boat, kept a car +and gave up his boat, took to golf and said he might sell his big +car--but he seemed to be wasting, rather than saving, money, by +these casual transfers. Mrs. Seward Smith said that her husband +wanted her to go into town for the winter, but that it was a bore, +and she hated big hotels. Mrs. Biggerstaff suggested lazily that +they all wait until February and then go to Bermuda, and although +they did not go, Nancy never heard anyone say that the holiday was +too expensive. Everybody always had gowns and maids and dinners +enough; there was no particular display. Old Mrs. Underhill indeed +dressed with the quaint simplicity of a Quaker, and even gay +little Mrs. Fielding, who had been divorced, and was a daughter of +the railroad king, Lowell Lang, said that she hated Newport and +Easthampton because the women dressed so much. She dressed more +beautifully than any other women at Marlborough Gardens, but was +quite unostentatious and informal. + +Nancy's cheeks burned when she remembered something she had +innocently said to Mrs. Fielding, in the early days of their +acquaintance. The fare to the city was seventy cents, and Nancy +commented with a sort of laughing protest upon the quickness with +which her mileage books were exhausted, between the boys' dentist +appointments, shopping trips, the trips twice a month that helped +to keep Agnes and Dora happy, and the occasional dinner and +theatre party she herself had with Bert. + +"Besides that," she smiled ruefully, "There's the cab fare to the +station, that wretched Kilroy charges fifty cents each way, even +for Anne, and double after ten o'clock at night, so that it almost +pays Mr. Bradley and myself to stay in town!" + +"I never go in the train, I don't believe I've ever made the trip +that way," said Mrs. Fielding pleasantly. And immediately she +added, "Thorn has nothing to do, and it saves me any amount of +fatigue, having him follow me about!" + +"But what do you do with the car, if you stay in for the theatre?" +Nancy asked, a day or two later, after she and Bert had made some +calculations as to the expense of this. + +"Oh, Thorn leaves it in some garage, there are lots of them. And +he gets his dinner somewhere, and goes to a show himself, I +suppose!" Mrs. Fielding said. Nancy made no answer, but when she +and Bert were next held on a Fifth Avenue crossing, she spoke of +it again. Hundreds of men and women younger than Nancy and Bert +were sitting in that river of motor-cars--how easily for granted +they seemed to feel them! + +"Just as I am beginning to take my lovely husband and children, +and my beautiful home for granted," Nancy said sensibly, giving +herself a little shake. "We have too much now, and here I am +wondering what it would be like to have a motor-car!" + +And the next day she spoke carelessly at the club of the smaller +bathhouses. + +"This is a wonderful bath house of yours, Mrs. Ingram; but aren't +there smaller ones?" + +Mrs. Ingram, a distinguished-looking, plain woman of forty, with +the pleasantest smile in the world, turned quickly from the big +dressing room she had just engaged, and was inspecting. + +"Yes, there are, Mrs. Bradley, they're in that little green row, +right against the wall of the garages. We had to have them, you +know, for the children, and a bachelor or two, who couldn't use a +big one, and then of course the maids love to go in, in the +mornings--my boys used one until last year, preferred it!" + +And she smiled at the two tall boys in crumpled linen, who were +testing the pegs and investigating the advantages of the room. +Nancy had meant to be firm about that bathhouse, but she did not +feel quite equal to it at this moment. She allowed her fancy to +play for one delightful minute with the thought of a big dressing +room; the one right next to Mrs. Ingram's, with the green awning! + +"But twenty dollars a season is an outrageous rent for a +bathhouse!" she said to Bert that night. + +"Oh, I don't know," he said comfortably, "We've got the money. It +amounts only to about five dollars a month, after all. I vote for +the big one." + +"Well, of course it'll be just the most glorious luxury that ever +WAS," Nancy agreed happily. She loved the water, and Bert enjoyed +nothing so much in the world as an hour's swimming with the +children, but before that second summer was over they could not +but see that their enthusiasm was unshared by the majority of +their neighbours. The children all went in daily, at the +stillwater, and the few young girls Marlborough Gardens boasted +also went in, on Sundays, in marvellous costumes. At these times +there was much picturesque grouping on the pier, and the float, +and much low conversation between isolated couples, while flying +soft hair was drying. Also the men of all ages went in, for +perhaps ten minutes brisk overhand exercise, and came gasping out +for showers and rough towelling. + +But Nancy's women friends did not care for sea-bathing, and she +came to feel that there was something just a trifle provincial in +the open joyousness with which the five Bradleys gathered for +their Sunday riot. If there was a morning tide they were +comparatively unnoticed, although there were always a few boats +going out, and few men on the tennis courts. But when the tide was +high in the afternoon, even Bert admitted that it was "darned +conspicuous" for the family to file across the vision of the women +who were playing bridge on the porch, and for Anne to shriek over +her water-wings and the boys to yell, as they inevitably did yell, +"Gee--it's cold!" + +Their real reason for more or less abandoning the habit was that +there was so much else to do. Bert played golf, Nancy learned to +score tennis as she watched it, and to avoid applause for errors, +and to play excellent bridge for quarter-cent points. She went to +two or three luncheons sometimes in a single week; and cold Sunday +lunches, with much passing of beer and sharing of plates, were +popular at Marlborough Gardens. Holly Court was especially suited +to this sort of hospitality, and it was an easy sort to extend. +Nancy sent the children off with Agnes, bribed her cook, bribed +the laundress to wash all the table linen twice weekly, and on +special occasions employed a large, efficient Swedish woman from +the village for a day, or a week-end. "I'll get Christiana," was +one of the phrases that fell frequently from Nancy's lips. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-two + + +Miraculously, finances stood the strain. Bert was doing well, and +sometimes made several good commissions together--not as large as +the famous commission, but still important. Neither he nor Nancy +kept accounts any more, bills were paid as they came in, and money +was put into the bank as it came in. Nancy had a check book, but +she rarely used it. Sometimes, when Mrs. Biggerstaff or Mrs. +Underhill asked her to join a Girls' Home Society or demanded a +prize for the Charity Bridge, Nancy liked to show herself ready to +help, but for other purposes she needed no money. She ordered all +household goods by telephone, signed "chits" at the club, kept her +bridge winnings loose in a small enamelled box, ready for losing, +and, when she went into town, charged on her accounts right and +left, and met Bert for luncheon. So that, when they really had +their first serious talk about money, Nancy was able to say with a +quite plausible air of innocence, "Well, Bert, I haven't asked you +for one cent since the day I needed mileage. I don't WASTE money! +I never DID." + +"Well, we've got it!" Bert said uncomfortably, on the day of this +talk. He had vaguely hoped, as the month went by, that it was +going to show him well ahead financially. However, if things +"broke even," he might well congratulate himself. Certainly they +were having a glorious time, there was no denying that. + +"Do you recognize us, Bert?" Nancy sometimes asked him exultingly, +as she tucked herself joyously into somebody's big tonneau, or +snatched open a bureau drawer to find fresh prettiness for some +unexpected outing. "Do you remember our wanting to join the Silver +River Country Club! That little club!" + +"Gosh, it's queer!" Bert would agree, grinning. And late in the +second summer he said, "If I put the Buller deal over, I think +I'll get a car!" + +"Well, honestly, I think we ought to have a car," Nancy said +seriously, after a flashing look of delight, "It isn't an +extravagance at all, Bert, if you really figure it out. The man +does errands for you, saves you I don't know how much cab fare, +takes care of the place, and Mary Ingram's man has a garbage +incinerator--and saves that expense! Then, it's one of the things +you truly ought to have, down here. You have friends down +Saturday, you play golf, you play bridge after dinner--well and +good. Sunday morning we swim, and come home to lunch, and then +what? You can't ask other friends in to lunch and then propose +that they take us in their cars down the island somewhere? And yet +that's what they do; and I assure you it embarrasses me, over and +over again." + +"Oh, we'll have to have a car--I'm glad you see it," said Bert. + +The Buller deal being duly completed, they got their car. The +picturesque garage was no longer useless. A silent, wizened little +Frenchman and his wife took possession of the big room over the +kitchen, Pierre to manage the garden and the car, Pauline to cook- +-she was a marvellous cook. Nancy kept Agnes, and got a little +maid besides, who was to make herself generally useful in dining +room and bedrooms. + +The new arrangement worked like a charm. There was no woman in the +Gardens who did not envy the Bradleys their cook, and Nancy felt +the possession of Pauline a real feather in her cap. Pauline +exulted in emergencies, and Nancy and Bert experienced a fearful +delight when they put her to the test, and sat bewildered at their +own table, while the dainty courses followed one another from some +mysterious source to which Pauline alone held the clue, + +The children were somewhat in the background now, but they seemed +well cared for, and contented enough when they made their +occasional appearances before their mother's friends. There was a +fine private school in the Gardens, and although the fees for the +two boys, with music lessons twice weekly, came to thirty dollars +a month, Nancy paid it without self-reproach. The alternative was +to send them into the village public school, which was attended by +not one single child from the Gardens. The Ingram boys went away +to boarding school at Pomfret, Dorothy Rose boarded in New York, +and the Underbill boys had a tutor, who also had charge of one or +two other boys preparing for college preparatory schools. While +the boys were away Anne drifted about with her mother, or more +often with Agnes, or was allowed to go to play with Cynthia +Biggerstaff or Harriett Fielding. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-three + + +Life spun on. The Bradleys felt that they had never really lived +before. They rushed, laughed, played cards, dressed, danced, and +sat at delicious meals from morning until night. There were so +many delightful plans continually waiting, that sometimes it was +hard to choose between them. The Fieldings wanted them to dine, to +meet friends from Chicago--but that was the same night that the +Roses and Joe Underhill were going in to see the new musical +comedy-- + +"This is Bert--" a voice at Nancy's telephone would say, in the +middle of a sweet October morning, "Nance...Tom Ingram picked me +up, and brought me in...and he was saying that Mrs. Ingram has to +come into town this afternoon...and that, since you do, why don't +you have Pierre bring you both in in the car, and meet us after +your shopping, and have a little dinner somewhere and take in a +show? You can let Pierre go back, do you see? ... and the Ingrams +will bring us back in their car. Now, can you get hold of Mrs. +Ingram, and fix it up, and telephone me later? ..." + +Nancy's first thought, so strong is habit, might be that she had +just secured ducks for dinner, Bert's favourite dinner, and that +she had promised Anne to take her with her brothers to see the big +cows and prize sheep at the Mineola Fair. But that could wait, and +if Anne and the boys were promised a little party, and ice cream-- +and if Pauline had no dinner to get she would readily make the ice +cream-- + +"Ingram is here... he wants to know what you think..." Bert's +impatient voice might say. And Nancy felt that she had no choice +but to respond: + +"That will be lovely, Bert! I'll get hold of Mrs. Ingram right +away. And I'll positively telephone you in fifteen minutes." + +The rest of the day would be rush and excitement, Nancy felt that +she never would grow used to the delicious idleness of it all. +During the week there were evenings that might have been as quiet +as the old evenings, nothing happened, and if anybody came in it +was only the Fieldings, or Mrs. Underhill and her son, for a game +of bridge. But domestic peace is a habit, after all, and the +Bradleys had lost the habit. Nancy was restless, beside her own +hearth, even while she spangled a gown for the Hallowe'en ball, +and discussed with Bert the details of the paper chase at the +club, and the hunt breakfast to follow. She would ask Bert what +the others were doing to-night, and would spring up full of eager +anticipation when the inevitable rap of the brass knocker came. + +Saturdays and Sundays were almost always a time of complete +absorption. Everyone had company to entertain, everyone had plans. +Nancy and Bert would come gaily into their home, on a Saturday +afternoon, flushed from a luncheon party, and would entertain the +noisy crowd in the dining room. After that the chugging of motors +began again on the drive, and the watching children saw their +parents depart in a trail of gay laughter. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-four + + +There was a brief halt when a fourth child, Priscilla, was born. +It was in the quiet days that followed Priscilla's birth, that the +Bradleys began to look certain unpleasant facts squarely in the +face. They were running steadily deeper and deeper into debt. +There were no sensational expenditures, but there were odd bills +left unpaid, from midsummer, from early fall, from Christmas. + +"And I don't see where we can cut down," said Bert, gloomily. + +It was dusk of a bitter winter day. Nancy was lying on a wide +couch beside her bedroom fire, Priscilla snuffled in a bassinet +near by. In a lighted room adjoining, a nurse was washing bottles. +The coming of the second daughter had somehow brought husband and +wife nearer together than they had been for a long time, even now +Nancy had been wrapped in peaceful thought; this was like the old +times, when she had been tired and weak, and Bert had sat and +talked about things, beside her! She brought her mind resolutely +to bear upon all the distasteful suggestions contained in his +involuntary remark. + +"What specially worries you, Bert?" she asked. + +He turned to her in quick gratitude for her sympathy. + +"Nothing special, dear. We just get in deeper and deeper, that's +all. The table, and the servants, and the car, and your bill at +Landmann's--nothing stays within any limit any more! I don't know +where we stand, half the time. It's not that!" He pulled at his +pipe for a moment in silence. "It's not that!" he burst out, "but +I don't think we get much out of it!" + +Nancy glanced at him quickly, and then stared into the fire for a +moment of silence. Then she said in a low tone: + +"I don't believe we do!" + +"I like Biggerstaff--and I like Rose and Fielding well enough!" +Bert added presently, after profound thought, "but I don't like +'em all day and all night! I don't like this business of framing +something up every Sunday--a lot of fur coats and robes, and all +of us getting out half-frozen to eat dinners we don't want, all +over the place--" + +"And hours and hours of making talk with women I really don't care +about, for me!" Nancy said. "I love Mary Ingram," she said +presently, "and the Biggerstaffs. But that's about all." + +"Exactly," said her husband grimly. "But it's not the Ingrams nor +the Biggerstaffs who made our club bill sixty dollars this month" +he added. + +"Bert! It wasn't!" + +"Oh, yes it was. Everyone of us had to take four tickets to the +dance, you know, and we had two bottles of wine New Year's Eve; it +all counts up. But part of it was for Atherton, that cousin of +Collins, he asked me to sign for him because he had more than the +regulation number of guests!" + +"But Bert, he'll surely pay you?" + +"Maybe he will, maybe he won't; it's just one of those things you +can't mention." + +"I could let Hannah go," mused Nancy, "but in the rush last summer +I let her help Pauline--waiting on table. Now Pauline won't set +her foot out of the kitchen for love or money." + +"And Pauline is wished on us as long as we keep Pierre," Bert +said, "No, you'll need 'em all now, with the baby to run. But +we'll try to pull in a little where we can. My bills for the car +are pretty heavy, and we've got a Tiffany bill for the Fielding +kid's present, and the prizes for the card party. That school of +the boys--it's worth all this, is it?" + +Nancy did not answer; her brow was clouded with thought. Doctor, +school, maids, car, table--it was all legitimate expense. Where +might it be cut? For a few minutes they sat in silence, thinking. +Then Bert sighed, shrugged his shoulders, and walked over to look +down at Priscilla. + +"Hello, Goo-goo!" said he: "You're having a grand little time with +your blanket, aren't you?" + +"I'll truly take the whole thing in hand," Nancy said, noticing +with a little pang that dear old Bert was looking older, and +grayer, than he had a few years ago. "When I come downstairs, +self-denial week will set in!" + +Her tone brought him to her side; he stooped to kiss the smiling +face between the thick braids. + +"You always stand by me, Nance!" he said gratefully. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-five + + +There was no stopping half way, however. The current had caught +the Bradleys and it carried them on. There was no expense that +could be lessened without weakening the whole structure. Nancy +grew sick of bills, bills that came in the mail, that were +delivered, and that piled up on her desk. She honestly racked her +brain to discover the honourable solution; there was no solution. +Even while she pondered, Priscilla in her arms, the machinery that +she and Bert had so eagerly constructed went on of its own power. + +"The cleaner's man, Hannah?" Nancy would ask, sighing. "You'll +have to give him all those things; the boys' white coats are +absolutely no good to them until they're cleaned, and Mr. Bradley +really needs the vests. And put in my blue waist, and all those +gloves, and the lace waist, too--no use letting it wait!" + +"The things to-day came collect, Mrs. Bradley," Hannah might +respectfully remind her. + +"Oh, of course! And how much was it?--eleven-forty? Heavens! What +made it so big?" + +"Two suits, and your velvet dress, and one of Anne's dresses. And +the man came for your furs this morning, and the awning place +telephoned that they would send a man out to measure the porches. +Mr. Bradley sent a man back from the station to ask you about +plants; but you were asleep, and I didn't like to wake you!" + +It was always something. Just as Nancy thought that the household +expenses had been put behind her for a few days at least, a fresh +crop sprang up. A room must be papered, the spare room needed +curtains, Bert's racket was broken, the children clamoured for new +bathing-suits. Nancy knew two moods in the matter. There was the +mood in which she simply refused to spend money, and talked darkly +to the children of changes, and a life devoid of all this +ridiculous waste; and there was the mood in which she told herself +desperately that they would get through somehow, everyone else +did, one had to live, after all. In the latter mood she ordered +new glasses and new towels, and white shoes for all four children, +and bottles of maraschino cherries, and tins of caviar and the +latest novel, and four veils at a time. + +"Mrs. Albert Bradley, Marlborough Gardens--by self," Nancy said +smoothly, swimming through the great city shops. Sometimes she was +a little scared when the boxes and boxes and boxes came home, but +after all, they really needed the things, she told herself. But +needed or not, she and Bert began to quarrel about money, and to +resent each other's extravagances. The sense of an underlying +financial distress permeated everything they did; Nancy's face +developed new expressions, she had a sharp look for the moment in +which Bert told her that he was going to take their boys and the +Underhill boys to the Hippodrome, or that he was going to play +poker again. Bert rarely commented upon her own recklessness, +further than to patiently ejaculate, "Lord!" + +"Why do you say that, Bert?" she might ask, with violent self- +control. + +"Nothing, my dear, nothing!" Bert would return to his newspaper, +or his razor. "I was just thinking. No matter!" + +Nancy would stand, eyeing him sulphurously. + +"But just what do you mean, Bert?" she would pursue. "Do you mean +that you don't think I should have gotten the suit? I can't wear +that fur-trimmed suit into the summer, you know. The hat was +eighteen dollars--do you think there's another woman in the +Gardens who pays no more than that? Lots of men haven't four +lovely children and a home to support, they haven't wives who make +all their friends welcome, as I do. Perhaps you feel that they are +better off? If you don't--I don't see what you have to complain +about. ..." And she would take her own way of punishing him for +his air of detachment and superiority. Bert was not blameless, +himself. It was all very well for Bert to talk of economy and +self-denial, but Bert himself paid twelve dollars a pair for his +golf-shoes, and was the first man at the club to order champagne +at the dance suppers. + +Smouldering with indignation, Nancy would shrug off her +misgivings. Why should she hesitate over furs and new hangings for +the study and the present for the Appletons, when Bert was so +reckless? It would all be paid for, somehow. + +"And why should I worry," Nancy asked herself, "and try to save a +few cents here and there, when Bert is simply flinging money right +and left?" + +But for all her ready argument, Nancy was sometimes wretchedly +unhappy. She had many a bitter cry about it all--tears interrupted +by the honking of motors in the road, and ended with a dash of +powder, a cold towel pressed to hot eyes, and the cheerful fiction +of a headache. It was all very well to laugh and chat over the +tea-cups, to accept compliments upon her lovely home and her +lovely children, but she knew herself a hypocrite even while she +did so. She could not say what was wrong, but something was wrong. + +Even the children seemed changed to her in these days. The boys +were nice-looking, grinning little lads, in their linen suits and +white canvas hats, but somehow they did not seem to belong to her +any more. Her own boys, whose high chairs had stood in her kitchen +a few years ago, while she cut cookies for them and their father, +seemed to have no confidences to unfold, and no hopes to share +with their mother, now. Sometimes they quite obviously avoided the +society of the person who must eternally send them to wash their +hands, and exclaim at the condition of their knees. Sometimes they +whined and teased to go with her in the motor, and had to be +sternly asked by their father if they wished to be punished. +Pierre took them about with him on week days, and they played with +the other boys of the Gardens, eating too much and staying up too +late, but rarely in the way. + +Anne was a shy, inarticulate little blonde now, thin, sensitive, +and plain. Her hair was straight, and she had lost her baby curls. +Nancy did what she could for her, with severe little smocks of +blue and lemon colour, and duly started her to school with the +boys. But Anne cried herself into being sick, at school, and it +was decided to keep her at home for a while. So Anne followed +Agnes about, Agnes and the radiant Priscilla, who was giggling her +way through a dimpled, rose-pink babyhood; the best of the four, +and the easiest to manage. Priscilla chewed her blue ribbons +peacefully, through all domestic ups and downs, and never cried +when the grown-ups went away, and left her with Agnes. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-six + + +Worse than any real or fancied change in the children, however, +was the unmistakable change in Bert. Heartsick, Nancy saw it. It +was not that he failed as a husband, Bert would never do that; but +the bloom seemed gone from their relationship, and Nancy felt +sometimes that he was almost a stranger. He never looked at her +any more, really looked at her, in the old way. He hardly listened +to her, when she tried to engage him in casual talk; to hold him +she must speak of the immediate event--the message Joe had left +for him, the plan for to-morrow's luncheon. He was popular with +the men, and his wife would hear him chucklingly completing +arrangements with them for this affair or that, even while she was +frantically indicating, with everything short of actual speech, +that she did not want to go to Little Mateo's to dinner; she did +not want to be put into the Fieldings' car, while he went off with +Oliver Rose in his roadster. + +"Are you crazy!" she would exclaim, in a fierce undertone when +they were upstairs dressing, "Didn't you see that I don't want to +go to-night? I can't understand you sometimes. Bert, you'll fall +in with a plan that I absolutely--" + +"Now, look here, Nancy, look here! Weren't you and Mrs. Rose the +two that cooked this whole scheme up last night--" + +"She suggested it, and I merely said that I thought SOMETIME it +would be fun--" + +"Oh, well, if you plan a thing and then go back on it--" + +This led nowhere. In silence the Bradleys would finish their +dressing, in silence descend to the joyous uproar of the cars. But +Nancy despaired of the possibility of ever impressing Bert, +through a dignified silence, with a sense of her displeasure. How +could she possibly be silent under these circumstances? What was +the use, anyway? Bert was tired, irritable, he had not meant to +annoy her. It was just that they both were nervously tense; +presently they would find some way of lessening the strain. + +But--she began to wish that he would not drink quite so much. The +other men did, of course, but then they were more used to it than +Bert. Perhaps this constant stimulation accounted for Bert's +nervous irritability, for the indefinable hardening and +estranging. Nancy was not prudish, she had seen wine on her +father's table since she was a baby, she enjoyed it herself, now +and then. But to have cocktails served even at the women's +luncheons; to have every host, whatever the meal, preface it with +the slishing of chopped ice and the clink of tiny glasses, worried +her. Bert even mixed a cocktail when he and she dined alone now, +and she knew that when he had had two or three, he would want +something more, would eagerly ask her if she would like to "stir +up something" for the evening--how about a run over to the Ocean +House, with the Fieldings? And wherever they went, there was more +drinking. + +"Let's make a rule," she proposed one day. "Let's confine our +hospitality to persons we really and truly like. Nobody shall come +here without express invitation!" + +"You're on!" Bert agreed enthusiastically. + +Ten minutes later it chanced that two motor-loads of persons they +both thoroughly disliked poured into Holly Court, and Nancy rushed +out to scramble some sandwiches together in the frigid atmosphere +of the kitchen, where Pauline and Hannah were sourly attacking the +ruins of a company lunch. + +"It's maddening," she said to Bert, later, when the intruders had +honked away into the late summer afternoon, "But what can we do? +Such a sweet day, and we have that noisy crowd to lunch, and then +this!" + +"Well, we're having a lot of fun out of it, anyway!" Bert said, +half-heartedly. Nancy did not answer. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-seven + + +But Nancy began to ask herself seriously; was it such fun? When +house and maids and children, garden, car, table-linen and clothes +had all been brought to the standard of Marlborough Gardens, was +the result worth while? Who enjoyed them, who praised them? It was +all taken for granted here; the other women were too deep in their +own problems to note more than the satisfactory fact; the Bradleys +kept the social law. + +It was a terrible law. It meant that Nancy must spend every waking +moment of her life in thought about constantly changing trifles-- +about the strip of embroidered linen that curtained the door, +about the spoons that were placed on the table, about a hundred +details of her dress, about every towel and plate, every stocking +and hat-pin she possessed. She must watch the other women, and see +how salad-dressing must be served, and what was the correct +disposition of grapefruit. And more than that she must be +reasonably conversant with the books and poetry of the day, the +plays and the political atmosphere. She must always have the right +clothing to wear, and be ready to change her plans at any time. +She must be ready to run gaily down to the door at the most casual +interruption; leaving Agnes to finish Priscilla's bath just +because Seward Smith felt in a mood to come and discuss the +fairness of golf handicaps with his pretty, sensible neighbour. + +She did not realize that she had been happier years ago, when +every step Junior and Ned and Anne took was with Mother's hand for +guide, but she often found herself thinking of those days with a +sort of wistful pain at her heart. Life had had a flavour then +that it somehow lacked now. She had been tired, she had been too +busy. But what richness the memories had; memories of three small +heads about a kitchen table, memories of limp little socks and +crumpled little garments left like dropped petals in Mother's lap, +at the end of the long day. + +"Are we the same people?" mused Nancy. "Have I really my car and +my man; is it the same old Bert whose buckskin pumps and whose +silk handkerchiefs are imitated by all these rich men? No wonder +we've lost our bearings a little, we've gone ahead--if it IS +ahead--too fast!" + +They were getting from life, she mused, just what everyone wanted +to get from life; home, friends, children, amusement. They lived +near the greatest city, they could have anything that art and +science provided, for the mere buying, no king could sleep in a +softer bed, or eat more delicious fare. When Mary Ingram asked +Nancy to go to the opera matinee with her, Nancy met women whose +names had been only a joke to her, a few years ago. She found them +rather like other persons, simple, friendly, interested in their +nurseries and their gardens and anxious to reach their own +firesides for tea. When Nancy and Bert went out with the Fieldings +they had a different experience; they had dinners that were works +of art, the finest box in the theatre, and wines that came +cobwebbed and dusty to the table. + +So that there was no height left to scale; "if we could only +afford it," mused Nancy. Belle Fielding could afford it, of +course; her trouble was that the Fielding name was perhaps a +trifle too surely connected with fabulous sums of money. And Mary +Ingram could afford anything, despite her simple clothes and her +fancy for long tramps and quiet evenings with her delicate husband +and two big boys. Nancy sometimes wondered that with the Ingram +income anyone could be satisfied with Marlborough Gardens, but +after all, what was there better in all the world? Europe?--but +that meant hotel cooking for the man. Nancy visualized an +apartment in a big city hotel, a bungalow in California, a villa +in Italy, and came back to the Gardens. Nothing was finer than +this. + +"If we could only appreciate it!" she said again, sighing. "And if +we need only see the people we like--and if time didn't fly so!" +And of course if there were more money! She reflected that if she +might go back a few years, to the time of their arrival at the +Gardens, she might build far more wisely for her own happiness and +Bert's. They had been drawn in, they had followed the crowd, it +was impossible to withdraw now. Nancy knew that something was +troubling Bert in these days, she guessed it to be the one real +cause for worry. She began almost to hope that he felt financial +trouble near, it would be a relief to fling aside, the whole +pretence to say openly and boldly, "we must economize," and to go +back to honest, simple living again. They could rent Holly Court-- + +Fired with enthusiasm, she looked for her check book, and for +Bert's, and with the counterfoils before her made some long +calculations. The result horrified her. She and Bert between them +had spent ten thousand dollars in twelve months. Nearly ten times +the sum upon which they had been so happy, years ago! The loans +upon the property still stood, twelve thousand dollars, and the +additional three, they had never touched it. There was a bank +balance, of course, but as Nancy courageously opened and read bill +after bill, and flattened the whole into orderly pile under a +paper weight, she saw their total far exceeded the money on hand +to meet them. They could wait of course, but meanwhile debts were +not standing still. + +It was a quiet August afternoon; the house was still, but from the +shady lawn on the water side, Nancy could hear Priscilla crooning +like a dove, and hear Agnes's low voice, and Anne's high-pitched +little treble. For a long while she sat staring into space, her +brows knit. Ten thousand dollars--when they could have lived +luxuriously for five! The figures actually frightened her. Why, +they should have cleared off half the mortgage now, they might +easily have cleared it all. And if anything happened to Bert, what +of herself and the four children left absolutely penniless, with a +mortgaged home? + +"This is wicked," Nancy decided soberly. "It isn't conscientious. +We both must be going crazy, to go on as we do. I am going to have +a long talk with Bert to-night. This can't go on!" + +"Interrupting?" smiled pretty Mrs. Seward Smith, from the Dutch +doorway. + +Nancy jumped up, full of hospitality. + +"Oh, come in, Mrs. Smith. I was just going over my accounts--" + +"You are the cleverest creature; fancy doing that with everything +else you do!" the caller said, dropping into a chair. "I'm only +here for one second--and I'm bringing two messages from my +husband. The first is, that he has your tickets for the tennis +tournament with ours, we'll all be together; so tell Mr. Bradley +that he mustn't get them. And then, what did you decide about the +hospital? You see Mr. Ingram promised fifty dollars if we could +find nine other men to promise that, and make it an even thousand +from the Gardens, and Mr. Bradley said that even if he only gave +twenty-five himself he would find someone else to give the other +twenty-five. Tell him there's no hurry, but Ward wants to know +sometime before the first. I didn't know whether he remembered it +or not." + +"I'll remind him!" Nancy promised brightly. She walked with her +guest to the car, and stood in the bright warm clear sunlight +smiling good-byes. "So many thanks for the tickets--and I'll tell +Bert about the hospital to-night!" + +But when the car was gone she went slowly back. She eyed the cool +porchway sombrely, the opened casement windows, the blazing +geraniums in their boxes. Pauline was hanging checked glass towels +on the line, Nancy caught a glimpse of her big bare arms, over the +brick wall that shielded the kitchen yard. It was a lovely home, +it was a most successful establishment; surely, surely, things +would improve, it would never be necessary to go away from Holly +Court. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-eight + + +Bert was very late, that night. The children were all asleep, and +Nancy had dined, and was dreaming over her black coffee when, at +nine o'clock, he came in. He was not hungry--just hot and tired-- +he wanted something cool. He had lunched late, in town, with both +the Pearsalls, had not left the table until four o'clock. And he +had news for her. He was leaving Pearsall and Pearsall. + +Nancy looked at him stupefied. What did he mean? Panic seized her, +and under her panic something rose and exulted. Perhaps it was +trouble--perhaps Bert needed his wife again! + +"I'm going in for myself," said Bert. "Now, don't look so scared; +it may be slow for a while, but there's big money in it, for me. +I'm going to be Albert Bradley, Real Estate. You see, I've been +advising Fred to handle this new proposition, down the Island, but +he's young, and he's rich, and his father's an old man. Fred won't +keep up the business when old Buck retires. He didn't want to +handle it and they both asked me why I didn't go into it for +myself. There's a pot of money in it, Nance, if I can swing it. +However, I never thought of it until Biggerstaff asked me if I +knew about anything of that kind--he's got some money to put in, +and so has Ingram. This was last week. Well, I went to see. ..." + +Nancy listened, frightened and thrilled. Fear was uppermost; +before this she had seen something of daring business ventures in +her southern childhood. But on the other hand, there was the +possibility of "big money," and they needed money! They needed, as +Bert said, to get out of the ranks, to push in before the next +fellow pushed in. She had a vision of herself telling the other +women of the Gardens that Mr. Bradley had gone into business for +himself; that the Pearsalls were going to throw anything they +could his way. It sounded dignified--Bert with a letter head, and +an office in Broadway! + +She was lost in a complacent dream when Bert's voice awakened her. + +"So that, if Buck does lend it, that means the interest on fifty +thousand. ..." + +"Fifty thousand?" Nancy repeated, alarmed. + +"Well, perhaps not quite that. I've got to figure it as closely as +I can. ..." Nancy's colour had faded a trifle. + +"Bert, you would be MAD to get into it, or into anything, as deep +as that!" she said breathlessly. Bert, dashed in the midst of his +confident calculations, turned something like a snarl upon her. + +"Well, what am I going to do?" he asked angrily. "It's all very +well for you to sit there and advise me to keep out of it, but +what am I going to do? It's a chance, and I believe in taking it. +I know my market, I know how these things are handled. If I can +swing this in the next three or four years, I can swing other +things. It means that we step right into the rich class--" + +"But if you fail--?" Nancy suggested, impressed in spite of +herself. + +"You keep your end of things going," he urged her, in a sombre +voice, "and I'll take care of mine!" + +"I'll try, Bert, I'll do the best I can." With something of her +old, comradely spirit, she laid her hand on his arm. "I'll let +Hannah go--at least I will as soon as the Berrys' visit is over. +And what about our going to the Sewalls', Bert, that's going to be +an expensive trip. Shall I get out of that?" + +"No," Bert decided thoughtfully. "I may want to get Sewall into +this thing. We'll have to go there--I wish to the deuce we could +get rid of Pauline and Pierre; but I don't see myself taking care +of the car, somehow!" + +"Everyone envies us Pauline," Nancy observed. And seeing that he +was still scowling thoughtfully at his black-coffee cup, she +touched his hand affectionately again, and set herself seriously +to soothe him. "But we'll find ways of economizing, dear. I'll +watch the bills, and I'll scold Pauline again about the butter and +eggs and meat that she wastes. You must remember that you have a +big family, Bert. You're raising four healthy children, and you +have a car, and a man, and a beautiful home, and a delightful +group of friends, and two or three fine clubs--" + +But for once Bert was not easily quieted. He put his head in his +hands and gave a sort of groan. + +"Don't tell me what I've got--I know it all! Lord, I lie awake +nights wondering what would happen to the crowd of you--However!" +And dismissing the topic, he glanced at his watch. "I think I'll +turn in before anybody comes in, Nance. I need sleep." With a long +tired yawn, he started for the big square stairway; paused at her +desk. "What're all those?" + +"Bills, Bert. I'm sorry to have you see them now. But we ought to +pay some of them--I've been going over things, this afternoon. +Now, especially if you're going to make a fresh start, we ought to +straighten things out. We ought to plan that we can spend so much +money, and stick to that." + +Bert flipped the pile with a careless finger. + +"We never will!" he said morosely. "We never HAVE." + +"Oh, Bert--we used to clear everything off on the first of the +month, and then celebrate, don't you remember?" + +He jerked his head impatiently. + +"What's the use of harking back to that? That was years ago, and +things are different now. We'll pull out of it, I'm not worried. +Only, where we can, I think we ought to cut down." + +"Dentist--" Nancy said musingly. She had come over to stand beside +him, and now glanced at one of the topmost bills. "You HAVE to +have a dentist," she argued. + +"Well, I'm too tired to go over 'em now!" Bert said, +unsympathetically. "Leave 'em there--I'll take them all up in a +day or two!" + +"But I was thinking," Nancy said, following him upstairs, "That +while you are about it, borrowing money for the new venture, you +know--why not borrow an extra thousand or two, and clear this all +up, and then we can really start fresh. You see interest on a +thousand is only fifty dollars a year, and that--" + +"That's nonsense!" Bert answered, harshly, "Borrowing money for a +business is one thing, and borrowing money to pay for household +bills is another! I don't propose to shame myself before men like +Biggerstaff and Ingram by telling them that I can't pay my +butcher's bill!" + +"I wish you wouldn't take that tone with me," Nancy said, sharply, +"I merely meant to make a suggestion that might be helpful--" + +A bitter quarrel followed, the bitterest they had ever known. Bert +left the house without speaking to his wife the next morning, and +Nancy looked out into the still August sunshine with a heavy +weight on her heart, as, scowling, he wheeled the car under the +maples, and swept away. She went about all day long silent and +brooding, answering the children vaguely, and with occasional deep +sighs. She told Mrs. Smith that Mr. Bradley would let her know +about the hospital money right away, and planned a day at the +tennis tournament, and a dinner after it, between periods of +actual pain. It was all so stupid--it was all so sad and hopeless +and unnecessary! + +Bert had not meant what he said to her; she had not meant what she +said to him, and they both knew it. But an ugly silence lasted +between them for several days. They spoke to each other civilly, +before other people; they dressed and went about with an outward +semblance of pleasantness, and at home they spoke to the servants +and the children. + + + + +Chapter Twenty-nine + + +No formal reconciliation ended this time of discomfort. Guests +came to the house, and Bert addressed his wife with some faint +spontaneity, and Nancy eagerly answered him. They never alluded to +the quarrel; it might have been better if they had argued and +cried and laughed away the pain, in the old way. + +But they needed each other less now, and life was too full to be +checked by a few moments of misunderstanding. Nancy learned to +keep absolutely silent when Bert was launched upon one of his +favourite tirades against her extravagance; perhaps the most +maddening attitude she could have assumed. She would listen +politely, her eyes wandering, her thoughts quite as obviously +astray. + +"But a lot you care!" Bert would finish angrily, "You go on and +on, it's charge and charge and charge--SOMEBODY'LL pay for it all! +You've got to do as the other women do, no matter how crazy it is! +I ask you--I ask you honestly, do you know what our Landmann bill +was last month?" + +"I've told you I didn't know, Bert," Nancy might answer patiently. + +"Well, you ought to know!" + +"I know this," Nancy sometimes said gently, "that you are not +yourself to-day; you've been eating too much, drinking too much, +and going too hard. You can't do it, Bert, you aren't made that +way. ..." + +Then it was Bert's turn to be icily silent, under the pleasant, +even tones of his wife's voice. Sometimes he desperately planned +to break the rule of hospitality, to frighten Nancy by letting +guests and neighbours see that something was wrong with the +Bradleys. But he never had courage enough, it always seemed +simpler and wiser to keep the surface smooth. Nancy, on her part, +saw that there was nothing to gain by a break of any sort. Bert +was not the type to be intimidated by sulks and silences, and more +definite steps might quickly carry the situation out of her hands. +The present with Bert was difficult, but a future that did not +include him was simply unthinkable. No, a woman who had four young +children to consider had no redress; she could only endure. Nancy +liked the martyr role, and frequently had cause, or imagined she +had cause, for assuming it. + + + + +Chapter Thirty + + +"The whole trouble is that Bert loves neither the children nor +myself any more!" she decided bitterly, on a certain August +afternoon, when, with three other young wives and mothers, she was +playing bridge at the club. It was a Saturday, and Bert was on the +tennis courts, where the semi-finals in the tournament were being +played. Nancy had watched all morning, and had lunched with the +other women; the men merely snatched lunch, still talking of the +play. Nancy had noticed disapprovingly that Bert was flushed and +excited, her asides to him seemed to fall upon unhearing ears. He +seemed entirely absorbed in what Oliver Rose and Joe Underhill +were saying; he had lost his own chance for the cup, but was in +high spirits, and was to umpire the afternoon games. + +After luncheon Nancy rather discontentedly settled down to bridge, +with Elsie Fielding, Ruth Biggerstaff and a young Mrs. Billings +who had only recently come back to her home in the Gardens, after +some years of travel. They were all pretty and gracious women, and +just such a group as the Nancy of a few years ago would have +envied heartily. + +But to-day she felt deeply depressed, she knew not why. Perhaps +watching the tennis had given her a slight headache; perhaps +Bert's cavalier treatment of her latest idea of economizing, +submitted to him only a few hours ago, still rankled in her +breast. + +"Bert," she had said to him suddenly, during a breakfast-table +dissertation in which he had dwelt upon the business capability of +some women, and the utter lack of it in others, "Why not rent +Holly Court and go somewhere else for a year or two?" + +Even as she spoke she had been smitten with a sudden dread of all +this must entail for herself. But before she could qualify it, +Bert's angry and impatient answer had come: + +"Don't talk nonsense! Do you want everyone to think that, now I'm +out for myself, I can't make a go of it? What would Ingram and +Biggerstaff think, if I began to talk money tightness? I didn't +leave the firm, and strike out for myself to give in this soon!" + +Nancy had shrunk back, instantly silenced. She had not spoken to +him again until Oliver Rose called, to remind them of the tennis, +and then, hating herself while she did it, Nancy had forced +herself to speak to Bert, and Bert had somewhat gruffly replied. +Once at the club, all signs of the storm must be quickly brushed +aside, but the lingering clouds lay over her heart now, and she +felt desolate and troubled. She did not want to excuse herself and +go home, she did not want to go out and watch more tennis, but she +felt vaguely that she did not want to play bridge, either. The +other women bored her. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-one + + +Dummy again. She seemed to be dummy often, this afternoon. They +were playing for quarter cents, but even that low stake, Nancy +thought irritably, ran up into a considerable sum, when one's +partner bid as madly as young Mrs. Billings bid. She was doubled, +and redoubled, and she lost and lost; Nancy saw Elsie's white +hand, with its gold pencil, daintily scoring four hundred--two +hundred--three hundred. + +"I thought I might as well try it," said Mrs. Billings blithely, +"but you didn't give me much help, partner!" + +"I didn't bid, you know," Nancy reminded her. + +"Oh, I know you didn't--it was entirely my own fault! Well, now, +let's try again. ..." + +Suddenly it seemed to Nancy all wrong--her sitting here in the +tempered summer light, playing cards throughout the afternoon. +Inherited from some conscientious ancestor, shame stirred for a +few minutes in her blood and she hated herself, and the club, and +the women she played with. This was not a woman's work in the +world. Her children scattered about their own affairs, her +household in the hands of strange women, her husband playing +another game, with other idle men, and she, the wife and mother +and manager, sitting idle, with bits of pasteboard in her hands. +She was not even at home, she was in a public club-- + +She laughed out, as the primitive wave of feeling brought her to +the crude analysis. It was funny--life was funny. For a few +strange minutes she felt as curiously alien to the Marlborough +Gardens Yacht Club as if she had been dropped from another world +on to its porch. She had been a tired, busy woman, a few years +ago; by what witchcraft had she been brought to this? Mrs. +Billings was playing four hearts, doubled. Nancy was too deep in +uneasy thought to care much what befell the hand. She began to +plan changes, always her panacea in a dark mood. She would give up +daytime playing, like Mary Ingram. And she would never play except +at home, or in some other woman's home. Nancy was no prude, but +she was suddenly ashamed. She was ashamed to have new-comers at +the club pass by, and see that she had nothing else to do, this +afternoon, but watch a card game. + +Sam Biggerstaff came to the door, and nodded to his wife. Nancy +smiled at him; "Will I do?" No, he wanted Ruth. + +So his wife put her cards in Nancy's hand, and went out to talk to +him. Nancy laughed, when she came back. + +"You score two tricks doubled, Ruth. I think that's too hard, +after I played them!" + +"Shameful!" said Mrs. Biggerstaff, in her breathless way, slipping +into her seat. Two or three more hands were played, then Mrs. +Fielding said suddenly: + +"Is the tennis finished? Who won? Aren't they all quiet--all of a +sudden?" + +The other two women glanced up idly, but Mrs. Biggerstaff said +quietly: + +"I dealt. No trumps." + +"Right off, like that!" Nancy laughed. But Mrs. Billings said: + +"No--but AREN'T they quiet? And they were making such a noise! You +know they were clapping and laughing so, a few minutes ago!" + +"They must have finished," Mrs. Fielding said, looking at her hand +quizzically. "You said no trump. Partner, let's try two spades!" + +"Billy was going to come in to tell me," persisted Mrs. Billings, +"Just wait a minute--!" And leaning back in her chair, she called +toward the tea-room. "Steward; will you send one of the boys down +to ask how the tennis went? Tell Mr. Billings I want to know how +it went!" + +The steward came deferentially forward. + +"I believe they didn't finish their game, Mrs. Billings. The fire- +-you know. I think all the gentlemen went to the fire--" + +"Where is there a fire!" demanded two or three voices. Nancy's +surprised eyes went from the steward's face to Mrs. Biggerstaff's, +and some instinct acted long before her fear could act, and she +felt her soul grow sick within her. + +"Where is it?" she asked, with a thickening throat, and then +suspiciously and fearfully. "Ruth, WHERE WAS IT?" And even while +she asked, she said to herself, with a wild hurry and flutter of +mind and heart, "It's our house--that's what Sam stopped to tell +Ruth--it's Holly Court--but I don't care--I don't care, as long as +Agnes was there, to get the children out--" + +It was all instantaneous, the steward's stammering explanation, +Ruth Biggerstaff's terrified eyes, the little whimper of fear and +sympathy from the other women. Nancy felt that there was more-- +more-- + +"What'd Sam tell you, Ruth? For God's sake--" + +"Now, Nancy--now, Nancy--" said the Mrs. Biggerstaff, panting like +a frightened child, "Sam said you weren't to be frightened--we +don't know a thing--listen, dear, we'll telephone! That's what +we'll do--it was silly of me, but I thought perhaps we could keep +you from being scared--from just this--" + +"But--but what did you hear, Ruth? Who sent in the alarm?" Nancy +asked, with dry lips. She was at the club, and Holly Court seemed +a thousand impassable miles away. To get home--to get home-- + +"Your Pauline telephoned! Nancy, wait! And she distinctly said-- +Sam told this of his own accord--" Mrs. Biggerstaff had her arms +tight about Nancy, who was trembling very much. Nancy's agonized +look was fixed with pathetic childish faith upon the other woman's +eyes. "Sam told me that she distinctly said that the children were +all out with Agnes! She asked to speak to Bert, but Bert was +watching a side-line, so Sam came--" + +Nancy's gaze flashed to the clock that ticked placidly over the +wide doorway. Three o'clock. And three o'clock said, as clearly as +words "Priscilla's nap." Agnes had tucked her in her crib, with a +"cacker"--and had taken the other children for their promised walk +with the new puppy. Pauline had rushed out of the house at the +first alarm-- + +And Priscilla's mother was here at the club. Nancy felt that she +was going to get dizzy, she turned an ashen face to Mrs. +Biggerstaff. + +"The baby--Priscilla!" she said, in a sharp whisper. "Oh, Ruth-- +did they remember her! Oh, God, did they remember her! Oh, baby-- +baby!" + + + + +Chapter Thirty-two + + +The last words were no more than a breath of utter agony. A second +later Nancy turned, and ran. She did not hear the protest that +followed her, nor realize that, as she had taken off her wide- +brimmed hat for the card-game, she was bare-headed under the +burning August sun. She choked back the scream that seemed her +only possible utterance, and fought the deadly faintness that +assailed her. Unhearing, unseeing, unthinking, she ran across the +porch, and down the steps to the drive. + +Here she paused, checkmated. For every one of the motor-sheds was +empty, and not a car was in sight on the lawns or driveway, where +usually a score of them stood. The green, clipped grass, and the +blossoming shrubs, baking in the afternoon heat, were silent and +deserted. The flame of geraniums, and the dazzle of the empty +white courts, smote her eyes. She heard Mrs. Fielding's feet +flying down the steps, and turned a bewildered, white face toward +her. + +"Elsie--there's not a car! What shall I do?" + +"Listen, dear," said the new-comer, breathlessly, "Ruth is +telephoning for a car--" + +But Nancy's breath caught on a short, dry sob, and she shook her +head. + +"All the way to the village--it can't be here for half an hour! +Oh, no, I can't wait--I can't wait--" + +And quite without knowing what she did, or hoped to do, she began +to run. The crunched gravel beneath her flying feet was hot, and +the mile of road between her and Holly Court lay partly in the +white sunlight, but she thought only of Priscilla--the happy, +good, inexacting little baby, who had been put in her crib--with +her "cacker"--and left there--and left there-- + +"My baby!" she said out loud, in a voice of agony. "You were +having your nap--and mother a mile away!" + +She passed the big stone gateway of the club, and the road-- +endless it looked--lay before her. Nancy felt as helpless as one +bound in a malignant dream. She could make no progress, her most +frantic efforts seemed hardly more than standing still. A sharp +pain sprang to her side, she pressed her hand over it. No use; she +would only kill herself that way, she must get her breath. + +Oh, why had she left her--even for a single second! So small, so +gay, so helpless; how could any mother leave her. She had been so +merry, in her high chair at breakfast, she had toddled off so +dutifully with Agnes, when Nancy had left the doleful boys and the +whimpering Anne, to go to the club. The little gold crown of hair- +-the small buckskin slippers--Nancy could see them now. They were +the real things, and it was only a terrible dream that she was +running here through the merciless heat-- + +"Get in here, Mrs. Bradley!" said a voice. One of the Ingram boys +had brought his roadster to a stop beside her. She turned upon him +her tear-streaked face. + +"Oh, Bob, tell me--what's happened?" + +"I don't know," he said, in deep concern. "I just happened to go +into the club, and Mrs. Biggerstaff sent me after you! I don't +know--I guess it's not much of a fire!" + +Nancy did not answer. She shut her lips tight, and turned her eyes +toward the curve in the road. Even while they rushed toward it, a +great mushroom of smoke rose and flattened itself against the deep +blue summer sky, widening and sinking over the tops of the trees. +Presently they could hear the confused shouts and groans that +always surround such a scene, and the hiss of water. + +A turn of the road; Holly Court at last. Her escort murmured +something, but Nancy did not answer. She had only one sick glance +for the scene before them; the fringe of watchers about the house, +the village fire-company struggling and shouting over the +pitifully inadequate hose, the shining singed timbers of Holly +Court. A great funnel of heat swept up above the house, and the +green under-leaves on the trees crackled and crisped. From the +casement windows smoke trickled or puffed, the roof was falling, +in sections, and at every crash and every uprush of sparks the +crowd uttered a sympathetic gasp. + +The motor, curving up on the lawn, passed the various other +vehicles that obstructed the drive. As the mistress of the house +arrived, and was recognized, there was a little pitiful stir in +the crowd. Nancy remembered some of this long afterward, +remembered seeing various household goods--the piano, and some +rugs, and some loose books--carefully ranged at one side, +remembered a glimpse of Pauline crying, and chattering French, and +Pierre patting his wife's shoulder. She saw familiar faces, and +unfamiliar faces, as in a dream. + +But under her dream hammered the one agonized question: The +children--the children--ah, where were they? Nancy stumbled from +the car, asked a sharp question. The villager who heard it +presented her a blank and yet not unkindly face. He didn't know, +ma'am, he didn't know anything--he had just come. + +She knew now that she was losing her reason, that she would never +be sane again if anything--anything had happened-- + +The crowd parted as she ran forward. And she saw, with a lightning +look that burned the picture on her brain for all her life, the +boys blessed little figures--and Anne leaning on her father's +knee, as he sat on an overturned bookcase--and against Bert's +shoulder the little fat, soft brown hand, and the sunny crown of +hair that were Priscilla's-- + + + + +Chapter Thirty-three + + +Blinded with an exquisite rush of tears, somehow Nancy reached +them, and fell on her knees at her husband's side, and caught her +baby to her heart. Three hundred persons heard the sobbing cry she +gave, and the flames flung off stars and arrows for more than one +pair of sympathetic eyes. But she neither knew nor cared. She knew +only that Bert's arms and the boys' arms were about her, and that +Anne's thin little cheek was against her hair, and that her hungry +lips were devouring the baby's sweet, bewildered face. She was +crying as if there could be no end to her tears, crying happily +and trying to laugh as she cried, and as she let the waves of +relief and joy sweep over her in a reviving flood. + +Bert was in his shirt sleeves, and Priscilla still had on only the +short embroidered petticoat that she wore while she slept; her +small feet were bare. The boys were grimed with ashes and soot, +and Anne was pale and speechless with fright. But they were all +together, father, mother, and children, and that was all that +mattered in the world--all that would ever count, for Nancy, +again. + +"Don't cry, dearest!" said Bert, the tears streaming down his own +blackened face. "She's all right, dear! We're all here, safe and +sound, we're all right!" + +But Nancy cried on, her arms strained about them all, her wet face +against her husband's, and his arm tight across her shoulder. + +"Oh, Bert--I ran so! And I didn't know--I didn't know what to be +afraid of--what to think! And I RAN so--!" + +"You poor girl--you shouldn't have done it. But dearest, we're all +right now. What a scare you got--and my God, what a scare _I_ got! +But I got to her, Nance--don't look so, dear. I was in plenty of +time, and even if I hadn't been, Agnes would have got her out. She +ran all the way from Ingrams' and she was only a few minutes after +me! It's all right now, Nance." + +Nancy dried her eyes, swaying back on her knees to face him. + +"I was playing cards--Bert, if anything had happened I think I +should never have been sane again--" + +"I was on the court, you know," Bert said. "Underhill's kid came +up, on his bicycle. He shouted at me, and I ran, and jumped into +the car, Rose following. I met Agnes, running back to the house, +with the children--I called out 'Where's Priscilla?' and she +shouted back--she shouted back:' Oh, Mr. Bradley--oh, Mr. Bradley- +-'" And overcome by the hideous recollection, Bert choked, and +began to unbutton and button the top of his daughter's little +petticoat. + +"We were all out walkin'," Ned volunteered eagerly. "And Joe +Underbill went by on his bike. And he yelled at us, 'You'd better +go home, your house is on fire!' and Anne began to cry, didn't +you, Anne? So Agnes said a prayer, right out loud, didn't she, +Junior? And then Dad and Mr. Rose went by us in the car on a run-- +we were way up by Ingrams'--and then Anne and Agnes cried, and I +guess we all cried some--" + +"And mother, lissun," Junior added. "They didn't get the baby out +until after they got out the piano! They got the piano out before +they got Priscilla! Because Pauline ran over to Wallaces', and +Hannah was walking into the village for the mail, and when Dad got +here and yelled to the men, they said they hadn't seen any baby-- +they thought the house was empty--" + +Nancy turned deathly pale, her eyes reaching Bert's, her lips +moving without a sound. + +"I tried the front stairway, but it was--well, I couldn't," Bert +said. "I kept thinking that she must have been got out, by +somebody--but I knew it was only a question of minutes--if she +wasn't! All the time I kept saying 'You're a fool--they couldn't +have forgotten her--!' and Rose kept yelling that she must be +somewhere, with someone, but I didn't--somehow I didn't dare let +the few minutes we had go by without making sure! So I ran round +to the side, and got in that window, and unlocked that door; +Hannah must have locked it. I ran upstairs--she was just waking +up. She was sitting up in her crib, rubbing her eyes, and a little +bit scared and puzzled--smoke was in there, then--but she held out +her little arms to me--I was in time, thank God--I thought we'd +never get here--but we were in time!" + +And again overcome by the memory of that moment, he brushed his +brimming eyes against Priscilla's bright little head, and his +voice failed. + +"But Baby couldn't have burned--Baby couldn't have burned, could +she, Mother?" Anne asked, bursting suddenly into bitter crying. +Her anxious look had been going from one face to another, and now +she was half frantic with fright. + +Nancy sat down on a box, and lifted her elder daughter into her +lap. + +"No, my precious, Daddy was in time," she said, in her old firm +motherly voice, with her comforting arms about the small and +tearful girl. "Daddy and Mother were both rushing home as fast as +they could come, that's what mothers and fathers are for. And now +we're all safe and sound together, and you mustn't cry any more!" + +"But our house is burned down!" said Junior dolefully. "And you're +crying, Mother!" he added accusingly. + +Nancy smiled as she dried her eyes, and dried Anne's, and the +children laughed shakily as she exhibited the sooty handkerchief. + +"Mother's crying for joy and gratitude and relief, Junior!" she +said. "Why,' and her reassuring voice was a tonic to the children, +"Why, what do Dad and I care about an old house!" she said +cheerfully. "We'd rather have ten houses burn down than have one +of you children sick, even for a day!" + +"Don't you care?" exulted Anne between two violent kisses, her +lips close to her mother's, her thin arms tight about her mother's +neck. + +"We care about you, and the boys, and the baby, Anne," said Bert, +"but that's all. Why, I sort of think I'm glad to see that house +burn down! It used to worry Mother and me a good deal, and now it +won't worry us any more! How about that, Mother?" + +And his reddened eyes, in his soot--and perspiration-streaked +face, met Nancy's with the old smile of fun and courage, and her +eyes met his. Something the children missed passed between them; +hours of conciliatory talk could not have accomplished what that +look did, years of tears and regret would not so thoroughly have +washed away the accumulated burden of heartache and resentment and +misunderstanding. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-four + + +"Then we're going to be gipsies, aren't we?" exulted Junior. + +His mother had straightened her hair, and turned the box upon +which she sat for the better accommodation of Anne and herself. +Now she was placidly watching the flames devour Holly Court; the +pink banners that blew loose in the upswirling gray fumes, and the +little busy sucking tongues that wrapped themselves about an odd +cornice or window frame and devoured it industriously. She saw her +bedroom paper, the green paper with the white daisies--Bert had +thought that a too-expensive paper--scarred with great gouts of +smoke, and she saw the tangled pipes of her own bathroom curve and +drop down in a blackened mass, and all the time her arm encircled +Anne, and the child's heart beat less and less fitfully, and +Nancy's soul was steeped in peace. + +"You'll get some insurance, Bert?" asked one of the many +neighbours who were hovering about the family group, waiting for a +suitable moment in which to offer sympathy. The first excitement +of the reunion over, they gathered nearer; Fielding and Oliver +Rose coatless and perspiring from their struggles with the +furniture, a dozen others equally concerned and friendly. + +"Fourteen thousand," grinned Bert, "and I carry a thirteen- +thousand loan on her!" + +"Gosh, that is tough luck, Brad! She's a dead loss then, for she's +gone like paper, and there won't be ten dollars' worth of salvage. +You had some furniture insurance?" + +"Not a cent!" Bert said cheerfully. He glanced about at his +excited sons; his wife, bareheaded, and still pale, if smiling; +his daughter just over her tears; and his baby, plump and happy in +her little white petticoat. "I guess we got most everything out of +the house that I care much about!" smiled Bert. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-five + + +For two hours more the Bradleys sat as they were, and watched the +swift ruin of their home. Nancy's hot face cooled by degrees, and +she showed an occasional faint interest in the details of the +calamity; this chair was saved, that was good; this clock was in +ruins, no matter. She did not loosen her hold on Anne, and the +little girl sat contentedly in her mother's lap, but the boys +foraged, and shouted as they dashed to and fro. Over and over +again she reassured them; it was too bad, of course, but Mother +and Dad did not mind very much. She thanked the neighbours who +brought chairs and pillows and odd plates, and piled them near +her. + +She and Bert were wrapped in a sort of stupor, after the events of +the hot afternoon. Bert seemed to forget that a meal and a +sleeping place must be provided for his tribe, and that his face +was shockingly dirty, and he wore no coat. He found it delicious +to have the placid Priscilla finish her interrupted nap in his +arms, and enjoyed his sons' comments as they came and went. +Neither husband nor wife spoke much of the fire, but a rather gay +conversation was carried on and there was much philosophical +laughter of the sort that such an occasion always breeds. + +"I might know that you would save that statue, Jack," said Bert to +one of the young Underhills. "We've been trying to break that for +eleven years!" + +"If that's the case," the youth said solemnly, and Nancy's old +happy laugh rang out as he flung the plaster Psyche in a smother +of white fragments against the chimney. + +"I suppose it would be only decent for me to get started at +something," she said, after a while. "It seems senseless to sit +here and merely watch--" + +"For pity's sake sit still if you can," old Mrs. Underbill said +affectionately. "The fire company's going, and people are all +leaving now, anyway. And we've got to go, too, but Joe will be +over again later--to bring you back with us. Just try to keep +calm, Nancy, and don't worry!" + +Worry? Nancy knew that she had not been so free from actual worry +for a long, long time. She remembered a dinner engagement with a +pleasant reflection that it could not be kept. To-morrow, too, +with its engagement to play cards and dine and dance, was now +freed. And Monday--when she had promised to go to town and look +for hats with Dorothy, and Tuesday, when those women were coming +for lunch--it was all miraculously cancelled. A mere chance had +loosed the bonds that neither her own desperate resolution nor +Bert's could break. She was Nancy Bradley again, a wife and mother +and housekeeper first, and everything else afterward. + +What would they do now--where would they go? She did not care. She +had been afraid of a hundred contingencies only this morning, +fretted with tiny necessities, annoyed by inessential details. Now +a real event had come along, and she could breathe again. + +"I wonder what I've been afraid of, all this time?" mused Nancy. +And she smiled over a sudden, mutinous thought. How many of the +women she knew would be glad to have their houses burned down +between luncheon and dinner on a summer Saturday? She turned to +Bert. "Pierre and Pauline may now consider themselves as +automatically dismissed," she said. + +"They have already come to that conclusion," Bert said, with some +relish. "I am to figure out what I owe them, and mail them a +check. Some of their things they got out--most of them, I guess. I +saw someone putting their trunk on a wagon, awhile back, and I +imagine that we have parted forever." + +"Hannah transfers herself this night to the Fielding menage" Nancy +added after a while. "Which reduces our staff to Agnes. I never +want to part with Agnes. You can't buy tears and loyalty like +that; they're a gift from God, Where do we spend the night, by the +way?" + +Bert gazed at her calmly. + +"I have not the faintest idea, my dear woman!" Then they laughed +in the old fashion, together. + +"But do look at the sunlight coming down through the trees, and +the water beyond there," Nancy presently said. "Isn't it a lovely +place--Holly Court? Really this is a wonderful garden." + +"That's what I was thinking," Bert agreed. It had been many +months, perhaps years, since the Bradleys had commented upon the +sunlight, as it fell all summer long through the boughs of their +own trees. + +Gradually the crowd melted away, and the acrid odour of wet wood +mingled with the smell of burning. And gradually that second odour +gave way to the persuasive sweetness of the summer evening, the +sharp, delicate fragrance that is loosed when the first dew falls, +and the perfumes of reviving flowers. Holly Court still smoked +sulkily, and here and there in its black ruins some special object +flamed brightly: Nancy's linen chest and the pineapple bed went on +burning when the other things were done. It was nearly sunset when +the Bradleys walked slowly about the wreck, and laughed or +bemoaned themselves as they recognized what was gone, or what was +left. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-six + + +That night they slept in the garage. With a flash of her old +independence, Nancy so decided it. She was firm in declining the +hospitable offers that would have scattered the Bradleys among the +neighbouring homes for the night. + +"No, no--we're all together," Nancy said, smiling. "I don't want +to separate again, for a while." She calmly estimated the salvage- +-beds and bedding, some chairs, rugs, and small tables, tumbled +heaps of the children's clothes, and odd lots of china and glass. + +Priscilla was presently set to amuse herself, on a rug on the +lawn, and the enraptured children and Agnes and the new puppy +bustled joyfully about among the heterogeneous possessions of the +evicted family, under Nancy's direction. There was much hilarity, +as the new settling began, the boys were miracles of obedience and +intelligence, and Anne laughed some colour into her face for the +first time in weeks. Nancy was in her element, there was much to +do, and she was the only person who knew how it should be done. +Even Bert stood amazed at her efficiency, and accepted her orders +admiringly. + +In the exquisite summer twilight she sent him to the +Biggerstaffs'. Nobody had yet found sleeping wear for the man of +the family, that was message one. And message two was the grateful +acceptance of the fresh milk that had been offered. Everybody he +met wanted to add something to these modest demands. Bert had not +felt himself so surrounded with affection and sympathy for many +years. At seven o'clock he was back at the garage, heavily laden, +but cheerful. + +Nancy leaned out of the upper window, where geraniums in boxes +bloomed as they had bloomed when first the Bradleys came to Holly +Court and called out joyfully, "See how nice we are!" The +children, laughing and stumbling over each other, were carrying +miscellaneous loads of clothing and bedding upstairs. Bert picked +up two pillows and an odd bureau drawer full of garments, and +followed them. His wife, busy and smiling, greeted him. + +"That's lovely, dear--and that just about finishes us, up here. +You see we've cleared out these two big rooms, and the Ingrams' +man came just in time to set up the beds. This is our room, and +Agnes and the girls will have the other. The boys will have to +sleep on the double couch downstairs, to-morrow they can have a +tent on the lawn right back of us. Bring that drawer here, it goes +in this chest. I thought it was missing, but we'll straighten +everything out to-morrow, and see where we stand. The piano's out +there on the lawn, and I wish you'd cover it with something, +unless you get some one after supper to help you move it in. It +goes in the corner where the boys' sleds were, downstairs. +Supper's ready, Bert, if you are!" + +"Perhaps you'd like me to dress?" Bert said, deeply amused. Anne +and her brothers laughed uproariously, as they all went down the +narrow stairs. + +"No, but do come down and see how nice it is!" his wife said +eagerly. Hanging on his arm, she showed him the comfort +downstairs. The big room that had been large enough to house two +cars had been swept, and the rugs laid over the concrete floor. +Through a westerly window crossed by rose-vines the last light of +the long day fell softly upon a small table set for supper. +Priscilla was already in her high chair demanding food. At the +back of the room, on the long table once used for tools and tubes, +Agnes was busy with a coal-oil stove and Nancy's copper blazer. A +heartening aroma of fresh coffee was mingling with other good +odours from that region. + + + + +Chapter Thirty-seven + + +Contentedly, the Bradleys dined. Bert served scrambled eggs and +canned macaroni to the ravenous children--a meal that was +supplemented by a cold roast fowl from the Rose's, a sheet of +rolls brought at the last moment by the Fieldings' man, sweet +butter and peach ice-cream from the Seward Smiths, and a tray of +various delicacies from the concerned and sympathetic Ingrams. +Every one was hungry and excited, and more than once the boys made +their father shout with laughter. They were amusing kids, his +indulgent look said to his wife. + +At the conclusion of the meal little Anne went around the table, +and got into her father's lap. + +"'Member I used to do this when I was just a little girl?" Anne +asked, happily. Nancy and Bert looked for a second at each other +over the relaxed little head. It was almost dark now, Priscilla +was silent in her mother's arms, even the boys were quiet. Bert +smoked, and Nancy spoke now and then to the sleepy baby. + +It was with an effort that she roused herself, to lead the little +quartette upstairs. And even as she did so she remembered this old +sensation, the old reluctance to leave after-dinner quiet and +relaxation for the riot of the nursery. Smiling, she carried the +baby upstairs, and settled the chattering children in all the +novelty of the bare wide rooms. + +Bert could hear the diminishing trills of talk and laughter, the +repeated good-nights. The oblong of light from the upper window +faded suddenly from the lawn. Somewhere from the big closet at the +back, lately filled with slip-covers and new tires, Agnes hummed +over the subdued click and tinkle of dishes and silver, and he +could hear Nancy's feet coming carefully down the steep, +unfamiliar stairway. Presently she joined him in the soft early +darkness of the doorway, silently took the wide arm of his porch- +chair, and leaned against his shoulder. Bert put his arm about +her. + +It was a heavenly summer evening, luminous even before the moon- +rising. The last drift of smoke was gone, and the garden drenched +with scent. Under the first stars the shrubs and trees stood in +panoramic perspective; the lawns looked wide and smooth. Down the +street, under a dark arch of elms, the lights of other houses +showed yellow and warm; now and then a motor-car swept by, sending +a circle of white light for a few moments against the gloom. + +"Dead, dear?" Bert asked, after awhile. Nancy sighed contentedly +before she answered: + +"Tired, of course--a little!" + +"Well," summarized Bert, after another pause, "we have now reduced +our problem somewhat. A man, his wife, his children. There we +are!" + +"A roof above his head, a maid-servant, and all the Sunday meals +in the house!" Nancy added optimistically. + +"A barn roof," amended Bert. + +"Barns have sheltered babies before this," Nancy reflected +whimsically. Again she sighed. "I suppose babies do burn to death, +sometimes, Bert? One sees it in the paper; just a line or two. I +remember--" + +"Don't let your mind dwell on that side of it, Nance. For that +matter a brick might fall off the roof on our heads now." + +"Yes, I know. But Priscilla was my responsibility, and I was a +mile away." + +"You'll be a mile away from her many a time and oft," Bert +reminded her wholesomely. + +"When I have to be," she conceded, slowly. "But to-day--" Her +voice sank, and Bert, glancing sidewise at her, saw that her face +was very thoughtful. "Bert," she said, "we have a good deal to be +thankful for." + +"Everything in the world!" + + + + +Chapter Thirty-eight + + +Another silence. Then Nancy said briskly: + +"Well! Listen to what I've planned, Bert, and tell me what you +think. Item one: this is vacation, but when it's over I want to +start Anne and the boys in at the village school. They can cut +right across the field at the back here, it's just a good walk for +them. They're frantic to go, instead of to Fraulein, and I'm +perfectly satisfied to have them!" + +"Sure you are?" the man asked, a little touched, for this had been +a long-disputed point. + +"Oh, quite! Just as you and I did. And then, item two: Agnes is a +good plain cook, and Priscilla is an angel. I'll walk to market +every day, and send out the laundry, and keep Priscilla with me. +So that makes Agnes our entire domestic staff--she's enthusiastic, +so don't begin to curl your lips over it. Then we'll have to have +a floor in here, and cut a window in the closet back there, and +put in a little gas stove, and before winter we'll put on a little +addition--a kitchen in back, with a room for the boys above. And +we'll shut the big double doors, and I'll have another window box +right across their windows, and curtain the whole place in plain +net. The boys can sleep in the tent for the time being. There's a +furnace, but we'll have to make some provision for coal--" + +"But, my good woman, you don't propose to make this arrangement +permanent, I suppose?" Bert said, bewilderedly. "Why, I meant to +spend to-morrow looking about--" + +"Why shouldn't it be permanent?" Nancy demanded. "We can kitch and +dine and sit in the big room, we'll have all the room we want, +upstairs. It's the only place in the world where we don't have to +pay rent. It's quiet, it's off the main road, nobody will see what +we are doing here, and nobody'll care!" + +"They'll see us fast enough," Bert said doubtfully. "I never heard +of any one doing it--I don't know what people would say!" + +"Bert," Nancy assured him seriously, "I don't care what they say. +I've been thinking it all over, and I believe I can risk the +opinion of Marlborough Gardens! Some of them will drop us, and you +and I know who they are. How much do we care? And the others will +realize that we are hard hit financially, and trying to catch up. +Mary Ingram came over while you were away, perfectly aghast. She +had just heard of it. I told her what we were trying to do, and +she said--well, she said just the one thing that really could have +helped me. She said: 'You'll have great fun--we lived in our +garage while the house was being built, and it was quite the +happiest summer we ever had down here!'" Nancy had squared herself +on the arm of his chair so that Bert could see her bright eyes in +the dark. "It was just like Mary, to put it that way," she went +on. "For of course even Holly Court was never as large as the +Ingrams' garage, and all those brick arches and things join it to +the house anyway, but it made me think how much wiser it is to do +things your own way, instead of some other people's way! And, +Bert, we're going to have such fun! We'll keep the car, and you +can run it on Sundays, and perhaps I will a little, during the +week, and at night or when it rains we can cover it with a +tarpaulin, and we'll have picnics with the children all summer +long! And I'll make you 'chicken Nancy' again, and popovers, on +Sunday mornings! I love to cook. I love to tell stories to +children. I love to pack mashy suppers and get all dirty and hot +dragging them to the beach, and I love to stuff my own +Thanksgiving turkey, in my own way! We haven't had a real +Thanksgiving turkey for four or five years! We'll have no rent-- +Agnes gets thirty--light will be almost nothing, and coal about a +tenth of what it was--Bert, we'll spend about two hundred a month, +all told!" + +"I don't say yet that you ought to try it," Bert said suddenly, in +his old, excited, earnest way. "But of course that would--well, it +would just about make me. I could plunge into the other thing, I +wouldn't have this place on my mind!" + +"There are some bills, you know, Bert." + +"The extra thousand will take care of those!" + +"So that we start in with a clean slate. Oh, Bert!" Nancy's voice +was as exultant as a child's. "Bert--my fur coat, and your coat! +I've just remembered they're in storage! Isn't that luck!" + +Bert laughed at her face. + +"Funny how your viewpoint on luck changes. This morning you had +the coat and the Lord knows how much silver and glass and lace +besides--" + +"Oh, I know. But that's the kind of a woman I am, Bert. I don't +like things to come to me so fast that I can't taste them. I don't +like having four servants, I get more satisfaction out of one. And +if I am hospitable, I'd rather give meals and rooms to persons who +really need them, than to others who have left better meals and +better rooms to come and share mine! + +"Why, Bert dear," Nancy's cheek was against his now, "the thought +of waking up in the morning and realizing that nobody expects +anything of me makes me feel young again! It makes me feel as if I +was breathing fresh air deep down into my lungs. We haven't room +for servants, we have no guest room, I simply can't do anything +but amuse Priscilla and make desserts. We'll have the children at +the dinner table every night, and nights that Agnes is off, I'll +have a dotted black and white percale apron for you--" + +This was old history, there had been a dotted percale apron years +ago, and Nancy was joking, but Bert did not laugh. He made a gruff +sound, and tightened his arm. + +"Bert," said his wife, seriously, "Bert, when I kissed you this +afternoon, dirty and hot and sooty as you were, I knew that I'd +been missing something for a long time!" + +Again Bert made a gruff sound, and this time he kissed his wife, +but he did not speak for a moment. When he did, it was with a +long, deep breath. + +"Lord--Lord--Lord!" said he. + +"Why do you say that?" asked Nancy. + +"Oh, I was just thinking!" Bert stretched in his chair, to the +infinite peril of his equilibrium and hers. "I was just thinking +what a wonderful thing it is to be married, and to climb and fall, +and succeed and fail, and all the rest of it!" he said +contentedly. "I'll bet you there are lots of rich men who would +like to try it again! I was just thinking what corking times we're +going to have this year, what it's going to be like to have my +little commutation punched like the rest of 'em, and come home in +the dark, winter nights, to just my own wife and my own kids! I +like company now and then--the Biggerstaffs and the Ingrams--but I +like you all the year round. We'll--we'll read Dickens this +winter!" + +Nancy gave a laugh that was half a sob. + +"Bert--we were always going to read Dickens! Do you remember?" + +"Do I remember!" He smoked for a while in silence. Then he +chuckled. "Do you remember the Sunday breakfasts in the East +Eleventh Street flat? With real cream and corn bread? Do you +remember wheeling Junior through the park?" + +Nancy cleared her throat. + +"I remember it all!" + +There was another silence. Then Bert straightened suddenly, and +asked with concern: + +"Nancy--what is it? You're all tired out, you poor little girl. +Don't, dear--don't cry, Nancy!" + +Nancy, groping for his handkerchief, battling with tears, feeling +his kiss on her wet cheek, laughed shakily in the dark. + +"I--I can't help it, Bert!" said she. "I'm--I'm so happy!" + +THE END + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK, UNDERTOW *** + +This file should be named untow10.txt or untow10.zip +Corrected EDITIONS of our eBooks get a new NUMBER, untow11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, untow10a.txt + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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