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*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 47624 ***
A LADY OF ROME
[Illustration]
A LADY OF ROME
BY
F. MARION CRAWFORD
AUTHOR OF “SARACINESCA,” “FAIR MARGARET,” ETC.
New York
THE MACMILLAN COMPANY
LONDON: MACMILLAN & CO., LTD.
1906
_All rights reserved_
COPYRIGHT, 1906,
BY THE MACMILLAN COMPANY.
Set up and electrotyped. Published October, 1906.
Norwood Press
J. S. Cushing & Co.--Berwick & Smith Co.
Norwood, Mass., U.S.A.
CONTENTS
PART I
PAGE
MARIA 1
CHAPTER I 3
CHAPTER II 24
CHAPTER III 47
CHAPTER IV 73
CHAPTER V 86
CHAPTER VI 98
CHAPTER VII 114
CHAPTER VIII 132
CHAPTER IX 140
CHAPTER X 148
CHAPTER XI 162
CHAPTER XII 181
PART II
THE COUNTESS OF MONTALTO 197
CHAPTER XIII 199
CHAPTER XIV 221
CHAPTER XV 228
CHAPTER XVI 242
CHAPTER XVII 255
CHAPTER XVIII 267
CHAPTER XIX 289
CHAPTER XX 307
CHAPTER XXI 320
CHAPTER XXII 328
CHAPTER XXIII 335
CHAPTER XXIV 353
CHAPTER XXV 374
PART I
MARIA
CHAPTER I
Maria Montalto was dressed as a Neapolitan Acquaiola and kept the
lemonade stall at the Kermess in Villa Borghese. The villa has
lately changed its official name, and not for the first time in
its history, but it will take as long to accustom Romans to speak
of it as Villa Umberto as it once did before they could give up
calling it Villa Cenci. For the modern Romans are conservative
people, who look with contempt or indifference on the changes of
nomenclature which are imposed from time to time by their municipal
representatives.
The lady was selling iced lemonade, syrup of almonds, and tamarind
to the smart and the vulgar, the just and the unjust alike; and
her dress consisted of a crimson silk skirt embroidered with gold
lace, a close-fitting low bodice that matched it more or less and
confined the fine linen she wore, which was a little open at the
throat and was picked up with red ribband at the elbows, besides
being embroidered in the old-fashioned Neapolitan way. She had
a handsome string of pink corals round her neck, Sicilian gold
earrings hung at her ears, and a crimson silk handkerchief was tied
over her dark hair with a knot behind her head.
She was very good-looking, and every one said the costume was
becoming to her; and as she was not at all vain, she enjoyed her
little success of prettiness very much. After all, she was barely
seven-and-twenty and had a right to look five years younger in a
fancy dress. She was not really a widow, though many of her friends
had fallen into the habit of treating her as if she were. It was
seven years since Montalto had left her and had gone to live with
his mother in Spain.
They had only lived together two years when he had gone away, and
observant people said that Maria had not grown a day older since,
whereas they had noticed a very great change in her appearance soon
after she had been married. It was quite absurd that at twenty she
should have had a little patch of grey by her left temple just
where the dark hair waved naturally. At that rate we should all be
old at thirty.
The observant ones had noticed another odd thing about Maria
Montalto. Her girl friends remembered especially a certain fearless
look in her eyes, which were not black, though they were almost
too dark to be called brown, and used to be most wonderfully full
of warm light in her girlhood. But she had not been married many
months, perhaps not many weeks, when a great change had come into
them, and instead of fearlessness her friends had seen the very
opposite in them, a look of continual terror, a haunted look,
the look of a woman who lives in perpetual dread of a terrible
catastrophe. It had been there before her boy was born, and it was
there afterwards; later she had been ill for some time, after which
Montalto had gone away, and since that day her eyes had changed
again.
There was no terror in them now, but there was the perpetual
remembrance of something that had hurt very much. I once knew a man
who had been tortured by savages for twenty-four hours, and his
eyes had that same expression ever afterwards. In the Middle Ages,
when torture was the common instrument of the law, many persons
must have gone about with that memory of suffering in their eyes,
plain for every one to see. Maria looked as if she had undergone
bodily torture, which she remembered, but no longer feared.
After all, her trouble had left no lines in her young features, nor
anything but that singular expression of her eyes and that tiny
patch of white in her hair. Her face was rather pale, but with that
delicious warm pallor which often goes with perfect health in dark
people of the more refined type, and the crimson kerchief certainly
set it off very well, as the corals did, too, and the queer little
Sicilian earrings.
The booth was gaily decorated with fresh oranges and lemons still
hanging on their branches with fresh green leaves, and with many
little coloured flags; the small swinging ‘trumone’ in which the
water was iced hung in a yoke of polished brass, and the bright
glasses and the bottles of syrup stood near Maria’s hand on the
shining metal counter.
It was a very delicately made hand, but it did not look weak, and
it moved quickly and deftly among the glasses without any useless
clatter or unnecessary spilling and splashing of water. Hands, like
faces, have expressions, and the difference is that the expression
of the hand changes but little in many years. No artist could have
glanced at Maria’s without feeling that it had a sad look about it,
a something regretful and tender which would have made any manly
man wish to take it in his and comfort it.
The people who came to the booth gave silver for a glass of
lemonade, and some gave gold, and many of them told Maria plainly
that she was the prettiest sight in all the great fair. Most of
those who came had never seen her before in their lives and had no
idea who she was, though her name was one of those great ones that
every Roman knows.
A handsome young bricklayer who had paid a franc for a glass of
syrup of almonds, and who had boldly told Maria that she was the
beauty of the day, asked a policeman her name.
‘The Contessa di Montalto.’
The young man looked pleased, for he had secretly hoped to hear
that she was nothing less than a Savelli or a Frangipane; not at
all for the sake of boasting that he had received his glass from
such very superior hands, but only for the honour of Rome. Yet
though the name was familiar to him because he knew where the
palace was, he had imagined that the family had died out.
‘Which is this Montalto?’ he asked.
The policeman could not answer the question, and his official face
was like a stone mask. But the bricklayer had a friend who was
engaged to marry a sempstress who worked for a smart dressmaker,
and therefore knew all about society; and in the course of time
he found the two walking about, and offered to pay for lemonade
if they would come to the booth with him. They were not thirsty,
and thanked him politely, so he asked the young woman who this
Contessa di Montalto might be. She threw up her eyes with an air of
compassion.
‘Ah, poor lady!’ she cried. ‘That is a long story, for she has
been alone these seven years since her husband left her. He was a
barbarian, a man without heart, to leave her! Was it her fault if
she had loved some one else before she was married to him?’
‘Adelina is a socialist,’ observed the young woman’s betrothed,
with a laugh. ‘She believes in free love! It is all very well now,
my heart,’ he added, looking at her with adoring eyes, ‘but after
we have been to the Capitol you shall be a conservative.’
‘Oh, indeed? I suppose you will beat me if I look at your friend
here?’ She pretended to be angry.
‘No. I am not a barbarian like the Conte di Montalto. But I will
cut off your little head with a handsaw.’
He was a carpenter. There were Romans of all sorts in the Villa,
the smart and the vulgar, the rich and the poor, and the rich man
who felt poor because he had lost a few thousands at cards, and
the poor man who felt rich because he had won twenty francs at
the public lottery. The high and mighty were there, buzzing about
royalties on foot, and there were the lowly and meek, eating cheap
cakes under the stone pines and looking on from a distance. There
were also some of the low who were not meek at all, but excessively
cheeky because they had been told that all men are equal, and
had paid their money at the gate in order to prove the fact by
jostling their betters and staring insolently at modest girls whose
fathers chanced to be gentlemen. These youngsters could be easily
distinguished by their small pot hats stuck on one side, their red
ties, and their unhealthy faces.
At some distance from Maria Montalto’s booth there was another,
where a number of Roman ladies chanced to have met just then and
were discussing their friends. Most of them had a genuinely good
word for Maria.
‘I have not seen her in colours since her boy was born,’ said the
elderly Princess Campodonico. ‘She is positively adorable!’
‘What is her story, mother?’ asked the Princess’s daughter, a slim
and rather prim damsel of seventeen.
‘Her story, my dear?’ inquired the lady with a sort of stony stare.
‘What in the world can you mean?’ She turned to a friend as stout,
as high-born, and as cool as herself. ‘I hear you have ordered a
faster motor car,’ she said.
The slim girl was used to her mother’s danger signals, and she
turned where she stood and looked wistfully and curiously at Maria
di Montalto, who was some twenty yards away.
‘As if I were not old enough to hear anything!’ the young lady was
saying to herself.
Then she was aware that the two elder women were talking in an
undertone, and not at all about motor cars.
‘He is in Rome,’ she heard her mother say. ‘Gianforte saw him
yesterday.’ Gianforte was the Princess’s husband.
‘Do you mean to say he has the courage to----’ began the other.
‘Or the insolence,’ suggested the first.
Then both saw that the girl was listening, and they at once
talked of other things. There is an age at which almost every
half-grown-up girl is figuratively always at an imaginary keyhole
ready to surprise a long-suspected secret, though often innocently
unconscious of her own alert curiosity. This seems to have been the
attitude of Eve herself when she met the Serpent, and though we
are told that Adam was much distressed at the consequences of the
interview, there is no mention of any regret or penitence on the
part of his more enterprising mate.
So the slim and prim Angelica Campodonico, aged barely seventeen,
wondered what Maria Montalto’s story might be, and just then she
felt the strongest possible desire to go over to the lemonade booth
to tell the pretty Countess confidentially that ‘he’ was in Rome,
whoever ‘he’ was, and to see how the lady would behave. Would she
think that his coming showed ‘courage’ or ‘insolence’? It was
all intensely interesting, and the girl would have been bitterly
disappointed if she could have known that within twenty minutes
of her going away ‘he’ would actually be present and would have
the insolence--or the courage!--to go directly to the Countess of
Montalto’s booth and speak to her under the very eyes of society.
Unhappily for the satisfaction of Angelica’s curiosity her mother
took her away, and it was a long time before she learned the truth
about Maria.
The Countess was not alone in her booth; indeed, she could not have
done the manual work without a good deal of help, for at times
there had been a dozen people standing before her little counter,
all impatient and thirsty, and all ready to pay an exorbitant
price for even a glass of water, in the name of charity. Therefore
she not only had one of her own servants at work, out of sight
in the little tent behind her, but several men who were more or
less friends of hers had succeeded each other as her assistants
during the long afternoon. They belonged to the younger generation
of Romans, a set of young men whom their parents certainly never
dreamt that they were rearing and whom their grandfathers and
grandmothers count with the sons of Belial, largely because they
love their country better than the decrepit and forlorn traditions
of other days. Forty years ago it would not have occurred to a
Roman gentleman to call himself an Italian, but to-day most of his
children call themselves Italians first and Romans afterwards, and
to these younger ones Italy is a great reality. It is true that
Romans have not lost their dislike of the inhabitants of almost all
other Italian cities, whether of the south or the north. The Roman
dislikes the Neapolitan, the Piedmontese and the Bolognese with
small difference of degree, and very much as they and the rest all
dislike each other. Italy has its sects, like Christianity, which
mostly live on bad terms with each other when forcibly brought
together in peaceable private life--like Presbyterians, Methodists,
Anglicans, and Baptists, not to mention Roman Catholics. But as it
is to be hoped that all Christians would unite against an inroad of
heathens, so it is quite certain that all Italians would now stand
loyally together for their country against any enemy that should
try to dismember it. No one who can recall the old time before the
unification can help seeing what has been built up. It is a good
thing, it is a monument in the history of a race; as it grows, the
petty landmarks of past politics disappear in the distance, to be
forgotten, or at least forgiven, and the mountain of what Italy has
accomplished stands out boldly in the political geography of modern
Europe.
Moreover, those who are too young to have helped in the work are
nevertheless proud of what has been done; and this is itself a form
of patriotism that brings with it the honest and good hope of doing
something in the near future not unworthy of what was well done in
the recent past.
The young men who helped Maria Montalto to mix lemonade and almond
syrup for her stall were of this generation, all between twenty
and thirty years old, and mostly of those who follow the line of
least resistance from the start of life to the finish. They are
all easily amused, because in their hearts they wish to be amused,
and for the same reason they are easily bored when there is no
amusement at all in the air. They are not bad fellows, they are
often good sportsmen, and they are generally not at all vicious.
They are not particularly good, it is true, but then they are very
far from bad. They have less time for flirting and general mischief
than their fathers had, because it now seems to be necessary to
spend many hours of each day in a high-speed motor car, which is
not conducive to the growth and blooming of the passion flower. It
does not promote the development of the intelligence either, but
that is a secondary consideration with people who need never know
that they have minds. Morally, motoring is probably a good rather
than an evil. People who live in constant danger of their lives are
usually much more honest and fearless than those who dawdle through
an existence of uneventful safety. The soldier in time of peace
was the butt and laughing-stock of the ancients in the comedies
of Plautus and Terence, and of the Greeks, whom those playwrights
copied or adapted, but no such contemptuous use has ever been made
of the sailor, whose life is in danger half a dozen times in every
year.
Oderisio Boccapaduli was squeezing a lemon into a glass for Maria
when he saw her hand shake as if it had been struck, and the
spoon which she was going to use for putting the powdered sugar
into the glass fell from her fingers upon the metal counter with
a sharp clatter. Oderisio glanced sideways at her face without
interrupting the squeezing of the lemon, and he saw that the
characteristic warmth had disappeared all at once from her natural
pallor and that her white cheeks looked as cold as if she were in
an ague. She was looking down when she took up the spoon again and
drew the polished brass sugar-can nearer to her. The young man
was quite sure that something had happened to disturb her, and he
could only suppose that she felt suddenly tired and ill, or else
that some one had appeared in sight not far from the booth, whose
presence was unexpected and disagreeable enough to give her a bad
shock.
But he knew much more about her than Angelica Campodonico, for he
was six-and-twenty, and had been seventeen himself when Maria had
married, and nineteen when Montalto had left her; and since he had
finished his military service and had been at large in society he
had learned pretty much all that could be known about people who
belonged to his set. He therefore scrutinised the faces in the near
distance, and presently he saw one which he had not seen in Rome
for several years; once more he glanced sideways at Maria, and her
hand was unsteady as she gave the full glass to a respectable old
gentleman who was waiting for it in an attitude of admiration.
The face was that of a man who was Oderisio’s cousin in a not very
distant degree, and who bore the honourable and historical name of
Baldassare del Castiglione. He was looking straight at Maria and
was coming slowly towards her.
Then Oderisio, who was an honest gentleman, saw that something
unpleasant was going to happen, and on pretence of bringing fresh
glasses from behind the booth, he slipped under the curtain into
the tent; but instead of getting the tumblers he quietly took his
hat and stick and went away, telling the servant that he would send
his brother or a friend to help the Contessa, as he was obliged to
go home. Moreover, he carefully avoided passing in front of the
booth lest Maria should think that he was watching her, and he went
off to another part of the Kermess.
Meanwhile the old gentleman drank his lemonade, and it chanced that
no other customer was at the counter when Castiglione reached it
and took off his hat. He was a square-shouldered man of thirty or
a little less, with short and thick brown hair and a rather heavy
moustache, such as is often affected by cavalrymen; his healthy,
sunburnt face made his rather hard eyes look very blue, and the
well-shaped aquiline nose of the martial type, with the solid
square jaw, conveyed the impression that he was a born fighting
man, easily roused and soon dangerous, somewhat lawless and violent
by nature, but brave and straightforward.
He took off his hat and bowed as he came up, neither stiffly nor at
all familiarly, but precisely as he would have bowed to ninety-nine
women out of a hundred whom he knew. He did not put out his hand,
and he did not speak for a moment, apparently meaning to give Maria
a chance to say something.
Her hand was no longer shaking now, but the warmth had not come
back to her face, and when she slowly looked up and met the man’s
eyes her own were coldly resentful. She did not speak; she merely
met his look steadily, by an effort of will which he was far from
understanding at the moment.
‘I have left Milan on a fortnight’s leave,’ he said quietly. ‘Will
you let me come and see you?’
‘Certainly not.’
The decided answer was given in a voice as calm as his own, but
the tone would have convinced most men that there was to be no
appeal from the direct refusal. Castiglione’s features hardened and
his jaw seemed more square than ever. There was a look of brutal
strength in his face at that moment, though his voice was gentle
when he spoke.
‘Have you never thought of forgiving me?’ he asked.
‘I have prayed that I might.’ Maria fixed her eyes fearlessly on
his.
‘But your prayer has not been answered, I suppose,’ he said, with
some contempt, and with an evident lack of belief in the efficacy
of prayer in general.
‘No,’ Maria answered. ‘God has not yet granted what I ask every
day.’
Castiglione looked at her still. It was strange that the face of
such a man should be capable of many shades of expression, so
subtle that only a portrait painter of genius could have defined
them and reproduced any one of them, while most men would hardly
have noticed them all. Yet every woman with whom he talked felt
that his face often said more than his words.
The keen blue light in his eyes softened at Maria’s simple answer
to his contemptuous speech; the strength was in his face still, but
without the brutality. She saw, and remembered why she had loved
him too well, and when he spoke she turned away lest she should
remember more.
‘I beg your pardon for what I said. I am sorry. Please forgive me.’
‘Yes,’ she answered, ‘I can forgive that, for you did not mean it.’
She looked behind her, for she had been expecting Oderisio to come
back at any moment. The booth was so small that she could lift the
curtain without leaving the counter. She looked under it and saw
that Oderisio was gone, and she guessed that he knew something and
had seen Castiglione coming; instead of being grateful to him for
leaving her, she at first resented his going away and bit her lip;
for she was a very womanly woman, and every woman is annoyed that
any man should know any secret of hers which she has not told him.
But later, when she was thinking over what had happened, she felt
that Oderisio had done what a gentleman should, according to his
lights; for he must have known that the two had not seen each other
for years, and that such a meeting could hardly take place without
some show of feeling on one side or the other.
Castiglione thanked her gently for her answer, and was going to say
more, but she interrupted him, and suddenly began to busy herself
with a lemon and a glass.
‘I am making you a lemonade,’ she said in a low voice. ‘There are
some people we know coming to the booth. Do not turn round to look.’
The new-comers were two rather young women and a man who was not
the husband of either. Castiglione knew them too, as Maria was well
aware, and she would not have let them find him there, talking to
her, without so much as a lemonade for an excuse.
But the necessity for the small artifice, the low tone in which she
had been obliged to speak, and, above all, the close connection of
that necessity with the past, had slightly changed the situation.
‘I shall go to your house to-morrow at three o’clock,’ said
Castiglione in a tone which the approaching party could not
possibly have heard. ‘Not much sugar, if you please,’ he added very
audibly and without pausing a second.
Again she bit her lip a little, and she drew a short breath which
he heard, and she shook her head, but it was impossible to answer
him otherwise, for the three new-comers were close to the booth,
and a moment later they were greeting her and Castiglione. The man
was one of the now numerous Saracinesca tribe, a married son of
the gigantic old Marchese di San Giacinto, who was still alive,
and who had married Flavia Montevarchi nearly forty years earlier.
His companions were the Marchesa di Parenzo, the Roman wife of
a gentleman of Bologna, and Donna Teresa Crescenzi, whose wild
husband had been killed in a motor-car accident at last, and who
was supposed to be looking for another. The Marchesa di Parenzo
was Maria Montalto’s most faithful friend, and Donna Teresa was one
of the most accomplished gossips in Rome.
An accomplished gossip is one who tells stories which sound as if
they might be true. This kind is very dangerous.
Neither of these two ladies knew all the truth about Maria and
Castiglione; the difference between them was that the Marchesa
never talked of the story, whereas Donna Teresa had concocted a
tale which she repeated at intervals in the course of years, with
constantly increasing precision of detail and dramatic sequence,
till society had almost accepted it as an accurate account of what
had taken place.
In actual fact there was not a word of truth in it, except that
Maria and Castiglione had loved each other dearly. Donna Teresa was
a tolerably good-natured woman on the whole, however, and her story
gave Maria credit for the most splendid self-sacrifice and the most
saintly life; it represented Baldassare del Castiglione as a hero
worthy of his knightly ancestor and a perfect Galahad, so far as
Maria was concerned; and it threw every particle of the blame on
Montalto, who had left his wife to go and live in Spain, and was
therefore permanently enrolled amongst those absent friends whose
healths are drunk at family gatherings with a secret prayer that
they may remain absent for ever, and whose characters may be torn
to rags and tatters with perfect safety.
Donna Teresa had reached the point of believing her own story.
She said she had been present at almost every crisis in the two
years’ drama which had so completely separated three people that
they apparently meant never to set eyes on one another again; she
had consoled the lovers, she had inspired them with courage to
sacrifice themselves, and had metaphorically dried their scalding
tears; and she had spoken her mind to that monster of brutality,
the Count of Montalto. In fact, she had contributed to his
determination to go away for ever and to leave his poor young wife
to bring up his son in peace.
Maria knew Donna Teresa’s story well, for her friend Giuliana
Parenzo had told it to her; and as Maria was in no way called upon
to make a public denial of it, she simply said nothing and was
grateful to the gossip for treating her so kindly. Giuliana was not
curious, and if she rightly guessed some part of the secret which
her friend had never told her, she would not for worlds have asked
her a question.
The three new-comers were all in the best possible humour, and the
ladies wore perfectly new spring frocks of the very becoming model
that was in fashion that spring; the one was of the palest grey and
the other of the softest dove-colour. Giuliana was a dark woman
with a quiet face; Teresa Crescenzi was very fair, fairer, perhaps,
than all probability, and when she was excited she screamed.
‘Dear Maria!’ she cried in a high key, after the first words of
greeting. ‘You are quite adorable in that costume! The Princess
Campodonico was saying just now that it is a real pleasure to see
you in colours at last. Maria has worn nothing but black and grey
for seven years,’ added the lively lady, turning to Castiglione.
‘We all are dying of thirst,’ said Giuliana, seeing the look of
annoyance in her friend’s face. ‘We all want lemonade, and we all
want it at once. Won’t you let me come inside and help you?’
‘No, dear,’ answered Maria with a grateful look. ‘I really do not
need help, and you do not look at all like a Neapolitan Acquaiola
in that frock! Besides, Oderisio Boccapaduli is supposed to be my
adjutant, but he has gone off to smoke a cigarette.’
She was very busy, and Donna Teresa turned to Castiglione.
‘And where in the world have you been since I met you in Florence
last year?’ she asked. ‘I thought your regiment was coming to Rome
at the beginning of the winter. I am sure you told me so.’
‘You are quite right. My old regiment came to Rome before
Christmas, but I had already exchanged into another.’
In spite of herself Maria glanced at Castiglione as he spoke, but
he was not looking at her, nor even at Donna Teresa. From the
place where the booth was situated he could see a certain clump of
ilex-trees that grow near what has always been called the Piazza di
Siena, I know not why. Maria saw that his eyes were fixed on that
point, and she shivered a little, as if she felt cold.
‘Why did you exchange?’ Donna Teresa asked, with the shameless
directness of a thoroughly inquisitive woman. ‘Did you quarrel with
your colonel, or fight a duel with a brother officer?’
Castiglione smiled and looked at her.
‘Oh, no! Nothing so serious! It was only because I was sure that
you no longer loved me, dear Teresa!’
The younger generation of Romans, who have grown up more
gregariously than their parents did, very generally call each
other by their first names. Even Giuliana laughed at Castiglione’s
answer, and Maria herself smiled quite naturally. Five minutes
earlier she would not have believed that anything could make her
smile while he stood there, and she was displeased with herself for
being amused. It was as if she had yielded a little where she meant
never to yield again.
Donna Teresa herself laughed louder than Giuliana.
‘The impertinence of the man!’ she screamed. ‘As if I did not know
that curiosity is my besetting sin, without being reminded of it in
that brutal way! I, love you, Balduccio? I detest you! You are an
odious man!’
‘You see!’ he answered. ‘I was quite right to exchange! And since
you admit that you find me odious, this is an excellent moment for
me to go away!’
He put down a gold piece on the metal counter to pay for the
lemonade which he had not drunk, for he was a poor man and could
not afford to be mean. As a matter of fact, the lemonade which
Maria had so hastily begun to make for him had been finished for
Teresa Crescenzi, but no one had noticed that, and it was all for
charity.
Donna Teresa protested that it was atrocious of him to go away,
but he was quite unmoved. He only smiled at everybody, took young
Saracinesca’s outstretched hand and lifted his hat in a vague
way to the three ladies without looking particularly at any
of them. Then he turned and went off at a leisurely pace, and
soon disappeared in the crowd. Teresa watched Maria Montalto’s
face narrowly, but she could not detect the slightest change of
expression in it, either of disappointment or of satisfaction.
Maria had recovered herself and the sweet warmth was in her pale
cheeks again.
The spring sun was low and golden, and for a few moments the pretty
scene took more colour; by some inexplicable law of nature the many
laughing voices rang more musically as the light grew richer, just
before it began to fade. It was the last day of the fair, and Maria
knew that she should never forget it.
Then the chill came that always falls just before sunset in Rome,
and the people felt it and began to hurry away. No one would ask
for another lemonade now.
Before Maria went home she put the money she had taken into a
rather shabby grey velvet bag. For a few moments she stood still,
watching the fast-diminishing crowd in the distance and the
changing light on the trunks of the pines. Then her eyes fell
unawares on the ilexes, and she started and instantly bent down her
head so as not to see them, and her hands tightened a little on
the old velvet bag she held. Without looking up again she turned
and went under the curtain to the back of the booth where her
footman was waiting with a long cloak that quite hid her pretty
costume; and she covered her head and the crimson kerchief with a
thick black lace veil, and went away towards the avenue where her
brougham was waiting.
Just before she reached it, and as if quite by accident, Oderisio
Boccapaduli came strolling by. He helped her to get in and begged
her to excuse him if he had not come back to the booth before she
had left it, adding that he had met his mother, which was quite
true, and that she had detained him, which was a stretch of his
imagination.
‘Get in with me,’ Maria answered as he stood at the open door of
the carriage. ‘If you are going away, too, I will take you into
town and drop you wherever you like.’
He thanked her and accepted the invitation with alacrity, though he
wondered why it was given. He could not have understood that she
was physically afraid to be alone with her memory just then.
CHAPTER II
Maria asked her friend Giuliana Parenzo to lunch with her the next
day. If Baldassare Castiglione came at three o’clock, and if it
seemed wiser not to refuse him the door outright, he should at
least not find her alone.
The Countess occupied one floor of a rather small house in the
broad Via San Martino, near the railway station. It was a sunny
apartment, furnished very simply but very prettily. After her
husband had left her she had declined to accept any allowance
from him and had moved out of the old palace, in which the state
apartment was now shut up, while the rest of the great building
was now occupied by a cardinal, an insurance company, and a rich
Chicago widow. Maria lived on her own fortune, which was not large,
but was enough, as she had been an only child and both her parents
were dead.
Giuliana sat on her right at the small square table, and on her
left was seated a sturdy boy over eight years old, and lately
promoted to sailor’s clothes. Why are all boys now supposed to go
to sea between six and eight or nine, or even until ten and twelve?
Leone was a handsome child. He had thick brown hair and a fair
complexion; his bright blue eyes flashed when he was in a rage,
as he frequently was, and his jaw was already square and strong.
Maria was the only person who could manage him, and was apparently
the only one to whom he could become attached. He behaved very
well with Giuliana Parenzo; but though she did her best to make
him fond of her, she was quite well aware that she never succeeded
in obtaining anything more from him than a kind of amusing boyish
civility and polite toleration. As for nurses, he had made the
lives of several of them so miserable that they would not stay in
the house, and Maria had now emancipated him from women, greatly
to his delight. He submitted with a tolerably good grace to being
dressed and taken to walk by a faithful old man-servant who had
been with Maria’s father before she had been born. He was not
what is commonly known as a ‘naughty boy’; he spoke the truth
fearlessly, and did not seek delight in torturing animals or
insects; but his independence and his power of resistance, passive
and active, were amazing for such a small boy, and he seemed not to
understand what danger was. Maria did not remember that he had ever
cried, either, even when he was in arms. Altogether, at the age of
eight, Leone di Montalto was a personage with whom it was necessary
to reckon.
Maria knew that she loved him almost to the verge of weakness, but
she would not have been the woman she was if she had been carried
beyond that limit. He was all she had left in life, and so far
as lay in her she meant that he should be a Christian gentleman.
Nature seemed to have made him without fear; and Maria would have
him reach a man’s estate without reproach. It was not going to be
easy, but she was determined to succeed. It was the least she could
do to atone for her one great fault.
Without reproach he should grow up, for his very being was a
reproach to her. That was the bitterest thing in her lonely
existence, that the sight of what she loved best, and in the best
way, should always remind her of the blot in her own life, of
that moment of half-consenting weakness when she had been at the
mercy of a desperate, daring, ruthless man whom she could not help
loving. It was cruel that her only great consolation, the one
living creature on whom she had a right to bestow every care and
thought of her loving heart, should for ever call up the vision of
her one and only real sin.
There were moments when the mother’s devotion to her child felt
like a real temptation, when she asked herself in self-torment
whether it was all for the boy alone, or whether some part of it
was not for that which should never be, for what she had fought so
hard to thrust out of her heart since the day when she had married
Montalto, seven years ago. For she had loved Castiglione even
then, and before that, when she had been barely seventeen and he
but twenty, and they had danced together one autumn evening at the
Villa Montalto, at a sort of party that had not been considered
a real party, and to which her mother had taken her because she
wished to go to it herself, or perhaps because she wanted Montalto
to see her pretty daughter and fall in love with her before she
was out of the schoolroom.
And that was what had happened. It had all been fated from the
first. On that very night Montalto fell in love with her, and she
with Baldassare del Castiglione, whom she had called Balduccio,
and who had called her Maria, ever since they had known each other
as little children. On that night she had felt that he was a man,
and no longer a boy. It was the first time she had seen him in his
new officer’s uniform, for it was not a week since he had got his
commission. But she had hardly known Montalto, who had been brought
up much more in Spain and Belgium than in Rome, because his mother
was Spanish and his father had been a block of the old school, who
feared the (godless) education of modern Italy.
Giuliana Parenzo was a year or two older than Maria, and the latter
had felt for her the boundless admiration which very young girls
sometimes have for those slightly older ones in whom they see their
ideals. Giuliana had been a thoroughly good girl, had married
happily, was a thoroughly good wife, and was the conscientious
mother of five children; but she was very far from being the
saintly heroine her friend’s imagination had made of her.
She was morally lucky. Without in the least depreciating the
intrinsic value of her virtue, it is quite fair to ask what she
might have done if she had ever been placed in the same situation
as her friend. But this never happened to her, though she was
apparently not without those gifts and qualities that suggest
enterprise on the part of admirers. She had been a very pretty
girl, and in spite of much uneventful happiness and five children
she was considered to be a beautiful woman at nine-and-twenty; and,
moreover, she was extremely smart. In looks she was not at all like
a rigid Roman matron.
But temptation had not come her way; it had passed by on the other
side, and she could hardly understand how it could exist for
others, since it certainly had never existed for her. There are
people who go through life without accidents; they cross the ocean
in utterly rotten steamers without knowing of the danger, they
travel in the last train that runs before the one that is wrecked,
they go out in high-speed motors with rash amateur chauffeurs who
are killed the very next day, they leave the doomed city on the eve
of the great earthquake, and the theatre five minutes before the
fire breaks out.
Similarly, there are women who are morally so lucky that an
accident to their souls is almost an impossibility. Giuliana
Parenzo was one of them, and Maria’s affection gave her credit for
strength because she had never faced a storm. Not that it mattered
much, after all. The important thing was that Maria, even at the
worst crisis of her young life, had always looked upon her spotless
friend as her guide and her ideal. Yet there had been a time when
it would have been only too easy for her to look another way.
To-day Maria had turned to Giuliana naturally in her difficulty. It
was hardly a trouble yet, but Castiglione’s return and his intended
visit were the first incidents that had disturbed her outwardly
peaceful life in all the seven years that had passed since her
husband had left Rome. The rest had been within her.
It would not last long. Castiglione had said that he had only a
fortnight’s leave, and with the most moderate desire to avoid him,
she need not meet him more than two or three times while he was in
Rome. To refuse to receive him once would perhaps look to him like
fear or weakness, and she believed that she was strong and brave;
yet she did not wish to see him alone, not because she was afraid
of him, but because to be alone with him a few moments, even as she
had been yesterday afternoon, brought the past too near, and it
hurt her.
Giuliana often lunched with her friend, and was far from suspecting
that she had been asked for a special reason to-day. The two talked
of indifferent matters, much as usual, and presently went into the
drawing-room. It was warm already, and the blinds were closed to
keep out the blazing sunlight and the reflection from the white
street. The friends sat near each other, exchanging a few words
now and then, and both were preoccupied, which hindered each from
noticing that the other was so.
Leone knelt on a chair at the window looking down into the street
between the slits of the green blinds.
‘Summer is coming!’ he suddenly called out, turning to look at his
mother.
‘Yes,’ she answered, smiling at him merely because he spoke. ‘It
will come soon.’
‘But do you know why? There are two bersaglieri in linen trousers.’
‘Yes, dear. They have probably been drilling.’
‘No,’ answered the small boy. ‘They have no knapsacks and no
rifles, and they are not dusty. It is because summer is coming that
they wear linen trousers. I can’t see them any more. They walk so
fast, you know. When shall I be a bersagliere, mama?’
‘Would you not rather be a sailor?’ asked Giuliana.
‘Oh, no!’ Leone laughed. ‘A sailor? To sit inside an iron box
and shoot off guns at other iron boxes? That’s not fighting! But
the bersaglieri, they charge the enemy and kill them with their
bayonets. And sometimes they are killed themselves. But that
doesn’t matter, for they have had the glory!’
‘What glory?’ inquired Maria, watching the small boy’s flashing
eyes.
‘They kill the enemies of Italy,’ he answered. ‘That’s glory!’
He turned to look through the blinds again, doubtless in the hope
of seeing more soldiers.
‘Your son certainly has a warlike disposition, my dear,’ laughed
Giuliana.
But Maria did not laugh; on the contrary, she looked rather grave.
‘All boys want to be soldiers,’ she answered. ‘I’m sure yours do,
too!’
‘No,’ said Giuliana, rising. ‘My boys are almost too peaceable! I
sometimes wish they had more of Leone’s spirit!’
Maria looked at her thoughtfully, thinking at first of what she had
said, but suddenly realised that she had left her seat.
‘You are not going already?’ Maria cried in real anxiety.
‘Yes, dear, I must. It’s a quarter past two, and I have to allow
five minutes for driving to the Quirinal.’
‘You did not tell me that you had an audience to-day,’ said Maria,
deeply disappointed. ‘I’m so sorry! I had hoped you would stay with
me, and that we might go out together by and by. How long shall you
be there? Can you not come directly back?’
Giuliana was a little surprised; she shook her head doubtfully.
‘I’ll try to come back, but I really have not the least idea how
long I may be kept. You see, it’s a special audience to talk about
my working women’s institute, and I have so much to say. I really
must be going, dear!’
She glanced again at her little watch, which was fastened high up
on the close-fitting dove-coloured body of her frock by a little
jade bar carved to imitate the twist of a rope, and just then
the very latest invention in the way of indispensable nothings.
Giuliana, without the least coquetry and with very little vanity as
to her appearance, always seemed to have everything new just a week
sooner than any one else. The truth was that her husband was in
love with her, and likely to remain so, and as he had spent a good
deal of his youth in women’s society, he thoroughly understood
such matters; and he superintended the docile and pretty Giuliana’s
toilet with quite as much care as he gave to the direction of his
subordinates, though he was Under-Secretary of State for Foreign
Affairs, with a very promising future before him and a good deal to
do.
Giuliana kissed her friend on both cheeks and said good-bye to
Leone, who did not like to be kissed at all, and in a moment she
was gone.
Maria went to the window where the boy was, and, resting one hand
on his shoulder, she bent down beside him and looked through the
blinds.
‘Have you seen any more soldiers?’ she asked, after a moment, and
as if the question were an important one.
‘Only two,’ he answered. ‘They’re all at dinner now. It’s the
time.’
Her face was close to the child’s as she looked out with him;
and just then he moved his head and his short and thick brown
hair brushed her cheek. She started a little nervously and stood
upright, looking down at the top of his head.
‘What is it, mama?’ he asked without taking his eyes from the
blinds, for just then he saw an officer of the Piedmont Lancers
crossing the street, and the beautiful uniform of that regiment was
always an especially delightful sight.
‘Nothing, darling,’ answered Maria.
As she looked at the short and thick brown hair it seemed to draw
her to it, and she bent slowly, as if she were going to kiss it.
But at that very moment, when her lips were quite near it, her eyes
could see through the blinds, and she caught sight of the officer
before he disappeared.
She drew back and quickly covered her lips with her hand, as if to
put it between her mouth and her child’s head. Castiglione had been
in the Piedmont Lancers before he had exchanged, and the uniform
was the one he had worn when he had first danced with her at the
Villa Montalto, and afterwards, when he had first dined with her
and her husband, and later again, and the last time she had seen
him before he had gone away. The handsome dress was associated with
all her life.
She crossed the room quickly and rang a bell, and waited a
moment, listening for the servant. She would say that she did not
receive, no matter who came. Then she heard footsteps outside the
drawing-room door, and it opened wide and Agostino, the old butler,
announced a visitor.
‘Il Signor Conte del Castiglione.’
When Baldassare entered the room a moment later, Leone had left the
window and was at his mother’s side, holding her hand and eyeing
the man he had never seen, and whose name he had never heard, with
a boy’s boldly inquiring stare; and the blue eyes of the man and of
the child met for the first time.
‘I came early,’ said Castiglione as he advanced, ‘for I was afraid
you might be going to the races.’
‘No,’ Maria answered, steadying herself by the table, ‘I am not
going to the races to-day.’
He held out his hand, and she could not well refuse to take it,
before Leone; its touch was quiet and respectful, and only lasted
an instant, but it was even colder than her own.
‘And this is your son,’ he said, in a rather muffled voice, and he
shook hands with the lad. ‘I’m glad to see you,’ he said. ‘I knew
your mother long before you were born, and we were good friends.
But I have been away all these years. That is the reason why you
have never seen me.’
‘I understand,’ Leone answered. ‘Where have you been?’
Castiglione smiled at the direct question and the unhesitating tone.
‘I have been in many cities. I am a soldier, and have to go where I
am sent.’
At this intelligence Leone felt sure that he had found a new
friend. He looked upon all soldiers as his friends, from the poor
little infantryman in his long grey woollen coat to the King when
he appeared in uniform. He at once laid his hand on Castiglione’s
arm and looked up into his face.
‘Are you a bersagliere?’ the boy asked.
Maria still leant against the table, and as she watched the two,
the man and the boy, and saw their bright blue eyes and their
short and thick brown hair, the room began to move, as if it were
going slowly round her. She had never fainted in her life, but she
realised that unless she made a great effort she must certainly
faint now. She did not hear Castiglione’s answer to the boy’s last
question, but she raised her hand to her mouth, and set her small
teeth upon her forefinger and bit it till a tiny drop of blood
came, and the pain brought her back.
When she could speak steadily she sat down near the closed
fireplace, before which there was a glass screen; she pointed to an
arm-chair opposite, and Castiglione took it.
Leone had been taught that when visitors came in the afternoon he
was to go away after a few minutes without being told to do so.
Accordingly, as soon as he saw that his mother and Baldassare were
going to talk, he went up to the latter and held out his hand.
‘Good-bye,’ he said gravely. ‘The next time you come, please wear
your uniform.’
‘If I come again, I’ll wear it,’ answered Castiglione, smiling.
But Maria saw how earnestly his eyes studied the boy’s face, and
how he held the small hand as if he did not wish to let it go.
He watched the sturdy little fellow till the door was shut, and
Maria saw that he checked a sigh. For the first time in years the
two were alone together within four walls, and at first there was
silence between them.
Maria spoke first, very coldly and resentfully, for since Leone had
left the room she had no reason for hiding what she felt.
‘Why have you come?’ she asked. ‘I told you clearly that I did not
wish to see you. You said, too, that you would come at three, and
when you appeared I was just going to tell Agostino that I would
see no one. You came earlier than you said you would, and it was a
trick to catch me. Such things are unworthy.’
Castiglione had clasped his hands on one knee, and he bent his head
while she was speaking. When she had finished he looked up with an
expression she had never seen in his face, and he spoke in a gentle
and almost pleading tone.
‘Let me tell you what I have come to Rome to say.’
‘I would rather not hear it,’ Maria answered coldly. ‘I would
rather that you should say nothing during the few minutes I shall
have to let you stay--for I do not wish any one to think that I
have turned you out of my house.’
Her face was like a mask, and white, for it cost her much to say
the words.
‘I have not come to persecute you, Maria,’ he answered sorrowfully.
‘I have not loved you faithfully all these years to come and pain
you now.’
Maria Montalto’s lip curled.
‘Faithfully!’ The contemptuous tone told all her unbelief.
‘Yes, I mean it. I have loved you faithfully since we parted, as I
loved you before.’
‘I do not believe you; or I do not understand what you mean by
faith.’
‘It is easy to understand. Since you and I parted under the
ilex-trees I have not spoken of love to any woman. I have lived a
clean life.’
Something clutched at the woman’s heart just then, but the next
moment she spoke as coldly as before.
‘It is easy to say such things,’ she answered.
‘What I say is true,’ returned Castiglione quietly. ‘But if I tell
you this of myself, it is not because I hope to bring your love to
life again. I know how dead that is. I know I killed it--yes, I
know!’
He spoke with the tone and accent of a man in great pain, and
looked down at his clasped hands; but Maria turned her face from
him, for she felt the clutching at her heart again. He must not
know that he was wrong, and that she loved him still in spite of
everything. She would force herself not to believe him.
‘How well you act!’ she said, with cruel scorn.
He did not resent even that. He had violently broken and ruined her
whole life long ago; why should she be kind to him?
‘I am not acting, and I am not lying,’ he answered gravely. ‘I have
been faithful to you all these years. It is no credit to me, and I
ask none, for I love you truly.’
‘How am I to believe you?’ Maria asked, not contemptuously now, but
still coldly. ‘Why should I?’
He raised his eyes and met hers steadily, and she saw that there
was no mistaking the truth.
‘I give you my word of honour,’ he said slowly, and waited.
She could not speak then, because her joy was so great, in spite of
herself; and he would not say more; he only waited while she looked
steadily at the mantelpiece, choking down something and hoping
that he could not see her face clearly in the rather dim light. He
would not stoop to ask if she believed his word, and she was dumb.
It was too much, all at once.
Presently, when she thought she could trust her voice, she tried to
speak. It had seemed a long time.
‘It is----’ she began.
But she broke off, for she felt the great cry coming in the word
that should have followed. Therefore instead of speaking she held
out her hand to him and turned her face away from his. They were
just so near that by leaning far forward he could hold her fingers.
He pressed them quietly for one moment, a little hard, perhaps, but
with no attempt to hold them.
‘Thank you,’ he said, not very steadily.
She had regretted the little impulsive action at once, expecting
that he would kiss her hand, as almost any man might have done with
less reason. But she was glad that he had not; glad, and grateful
to him. Perhaps he knew it, but she was able to speak now; he
should not think that he had gained a hairbreadth’s advantage.
‘I am glad that you have lived a good life,’ she said, much
more kindly than she had spoken yet. ‘But you must not call it
faithfulness. You must not mean that you have been faithful to the
memory of a great sin, of the worst deed you ever did. It would
have been much better to forget me.’
‘You do not understand,’ he answered. ‘My sins are on my soul, and
yours with them, if you have any. I am wicked enough to hope that
I may never forget you, and that I may live till I die as I have
lived since we parted. It is the least I can do, not for your sake,
but out of respect for myself and regret for the worst deed I ever
did. Yes, you are right, it was that. The question that fills my
life is this: Can I in any way atone to you for that deed? Can you
ever forgive me so far as not to hate me, and not to despise the
mere thought of me, so far as to be willing that I should live in
the same city with you and see you sometimes?’
He waited for her answer, but it was long before it came. When she
tried to collect her thoughts she was amazed and frightened by the
change that had come over her in the last few minutes. Her impulse
was to confess frankly that she had always loved him, though she
could not forgive him, and to implore him to go away and never to
come near her again; and then she remembered that she had said
those very words to him long ago under the ilex-trees in the Villa
Borghese, with many cruel ones which neither had forgotten. He had
given up his leave then, and had gone back to his regiment in a
distant city, and he had never come near her nor written to her
since.
But there was more than that, much more. He had lived a clean life.
She knew the world well enough now, and she knew what the lives of
most unmarried men are at Castiglione’s age. Had she not a son to
bring up, for whom she prayed daily that he might grow to manhood
without reproach as well as without fear? She knew something of
how men lived, and she could guess, as far as an honest woman
may, at the daily temptations that must assail a good-looking
young officer in the smartest cavalry regiment in the country; she
guessed, too, that one who chose to live very differently from most
of his comrades might not always escape jests which would not turn
to actual ridicule only because Castiglione was not a man to be
laughed at with impunity; not by any means.
She believed him, and though she might tell him that he was
faithful to a sin, to something dangerously near a crime, his faith
had been for her, and she could not deny it to herself. It was for
her sake that he had not lived like the rest.
Then she covered her eyes with her hand and she saw her own past
life clearly, and dared to look at it. The ugly blot was there,
plain enough; but if the fault had really been all his, why should
the stain look so very black after all those years? He believed
that he had sinned against her, not with her; and so she had told
herself--and had told him so with bitter reproaches before they
had parted. Was it quite, quite true? If it was, she had no cause
to reproach herself for the catastrophe. Yet since that hour she
had accused herself daily. Of what? Of having loved Baldassare
del Castiglione? But she had loved him innocently and dearly when
she was seventeen, and ever since. Her mother had known it, but
he was poor, he was no match for a girl who was something of an
heiress. She had done as many other girls did and always will do;
she had yielded to parental pressure, she had promised herself to
forget, thinking it would be easy; she had married Montalto, making
the great marriage of that season; she had begun to be a wife
believing, poor soul, that she had done right in obeying her mother
as a daughter should. But she had not forgotten.
Even that was no sin. It was her misfortune, and the natural
consequence of a false system that sacrificed too much to money, or
to money and name. She had actually been vain of marrying Montalto,
for though he bore only the title of count, he was an authentic
Count of the Empire, which is quite a different matter from being a
Roman ‘conte.’ It had been a very great marriage indeed, and Maria
had really been a little foolishly vain of becoming his wife. He
had two historic castles in Italy as well as an historical palace
in Rome and an historical estate on the Austrian frontier, and
he was heir to historical lands in Spain by his mother; and he
had a great number of historic ancestors who had been Counts of
the Empire and Grandees of Spain, and hereditary Knights of the
Sovereign Order of Malta. Everything about Montalto was historical,
including his grave face and pointed black beard, and he might have
passed for the original of more than one portrait in his historic
gallery. His family even had a well-attested White Lady who
appeared when one of them was going to die!
But all these things could not make the young wife forget
Baldassare del Castiglione, who was only a more or less penniless
officer in the Piedmont Lancers. The worst of it was that Montalto
liked him, instinctively because his name was also so extremely
historical, and fatally because husbands are the last to discover
their wives’ preferences. Montalto had thrown Maria and Castiglione
together.
She had gone to confession again and again, for she had been
brought up to be very devout. Her confessor told her each time
that she must avoid the man she loved and pray to forget him. She
answered that her husband liked him and constantly asked him to
the house; that she could not beg Montalto to change his attitude
towards a friend without giving a good reason; and that the only
reason she had was that she loved Baldassare with all her heart,
though she was told it was wrong now that she was married, and
she prayed that she might forget him and love her husband. Her
confessor, having ascertained by further questions that she and
Castiglione had avowed their love for each other in bygone days,
long before her marriage, bade her appeal to the young man’s
generosity, and beg him to refuse Montalto’s constant invitations
and to see her as little as possible. But the confessor did not
know the man. Maria followed the priest’s advice, but Baldassare
utterly refused to do what she asked, and became more and more
unmanageable from that day. Surely that was not her fault. It was
not with this that she reproached herself. She had been afraid to
tell Montalto, that was true; there had been one day, at last, when
she should have confessed to him, instead of to the priest; she
should have thrown herself upon his mercy and implored him to take
her away. But then she had lacked courage. She had told herself
that her husband loved her devotedly in his silent, respectful
way, and that to tell him the truth would be the ruin of his
happiness. She felt so sure that his honour was safe! And meanwhile
Castiglione grew more passionate every day, more reckless and more
uncontrollable; and she loved him the more, and he knew it, though
she would not tell him so. She accused herself of that. She should
have gone to her husband for protection, for his happiness was far
less to him then than his honour. Some women would have invented
an untruth as a means justified by the end. Maria might have told
Montalto that she was suffering a persecution odious to her; she
would have saved her husband’s honour and happiness together, and
would even have raised her higher in his esteem. But she could not
do it. It would be base, treacherous, and faithless. So she waited
and prayed against her heart, and hoped against Castiglione’s
nature. Then came the evil hour and it was too late; too late even
to lie. She accused herself of having put off too long the one act
that could have saved her. But still, and to the end, she had told
herself that she had been strong, that she had resisted her own
passion as well as the ruthless man who loved her. She had been
innocent, she repeated; and she had told her confessor nothing more
until she believed that she had changed, and that she hated the man
she had loved so well. Then the priest, who was not worldly wise,
warned her gently against anything so un-Christian as hatred, and
counselled her to forget and to grow indifferent and to devote
herself to her husband’s happiness. That sounded very easy to the
poor priest.
After that she had altogether given up asking advice of him, and
she had let herself be guided by her own sense of honour. Besides,
the day soon came when Montalto accused her; and he would not have
believed her if she had thrown the whole blame on her lover, for
she could not lie and say she had never loved him. So she had not
defended herself, and the great wave had gone over her head, and
her husband, broken-hearted, had left her for ever; but he had
done it in such a way that there had been no open scandal. He had
gone to Spain and had come back again, and had gone away again and
had stayed longer; he had spoken to his friends of his mother’s
wretched health; she could not live in Italy, and Maria could not
live in Spain, and he could not be in both places at once. The
separation, so far as the world saw it, came by degrees, till it
was permanent. Montalto and his wife were not the first couple
that had separated quietly, without quarrelling in public, simply
because they did not like each other. People did not always know
where Maria spent her summers with her child, and the good-natured
ones used to say that she saw her husband then; and she lived in
such a way in Rome that the blame was all laid on Montalto, and
Teresa Crescenzi’s story was believed. Montalto was a brute, who
had often struck his wife when he was in one of his fits of anger,
and she was little less than a saint.
Castiglione sat waiting for his answer. Would she tell him that he
might come back and live near her? Or would she grow hard and cold
once more, and bid him go away again, and for ever?
After a long time she raised her head and looked at him quietly.
‘I cannot answer you at once,’ she said; ‘but I promise that I
will. You said yesterday that you had a fortnight’s leave. When I
have made up my mind what to do I shall let you know, and you must
come and see me again.’
Castiglione shook his head gravely and said nothing.
‘What is the matter?’ asked Maria.
‘I suppose you are going to ask advice of your confessor,’ he
answered very sadly, and not at all in contempt.
But Maria lifted her head proudly.
‘No,’ she said, ‘I am going to ask myself what is right. And in my
thoughts my child shall be the man I hope to make him, and I will
ask him what is honourable.’
‘Will you not trust me for that?’ Castiglione asked, and his face
lightened.
‘That I even consent to ask myself shows that I trust you more
than I did when you surprised me here not half an hour ago. And
now please leave me, for I want to be alone. Perhaps I shall send
for you to-morrow, or perhaps not for a week. If we chance to meet
anywhere, come and speak to me, for people will think it strange
if we avoid each other. But I shall ask you to come here for the
answer to your question.’
‘Thank you,’ he answered gratefully.
Their hands touched each other for a moment, but neither spoke
again, and he went quietly out.
CHAPTER III
Maria did not send for Castiglione the next day, nor during a
number of days afterwards, and Giuliana Parenzo saw that she was
very much preoccupied and was not looking well. The elder woman
was far too good a friend to ask questions, and when the two were
together she did her best to amuse Maria by her talk. The Marchesa
was not particularly witty, but she sometimes told a story with
little touches of humour that were quite her own. Very good women
are rarely witty, but they often have a happy faculty of seeing the
funny side of things. Wit wounds, but humour disarms.
Giuliana saw, too, that Maria did not like to be alone, even with
Leone. The truth was that she slept little and was very nervous.
Something had come back from the past to haunt her; often a
nameless horror came near her, not at night only, for it was not
the fear of an overwrought imagination, but in broad daylight too,
when she was alone and chanced to be doing nothing. It was the more
dreadful because she could not define it; she could not say that
it was caused by the question Castiglione had asked her, and which
she had promised to answer, but when she thought of that her mind
refused to be reasonable, and the horror came upon her, and she
felt that utter ruin was close at hand, lying in wait for her. She
remembered the sensation well in the old days; she had sometimes
fancied then that she was going mad, and had made great efforts to
control herself, but she had never thought of asking a doctor what
it was, for she had believed, and believed now, that it was a state
of mind rather than the mere effect of anxiety and mental fatigue
on her body. So she suffered much, and quite uselessly; but that
was a small matter compared with the fact that she had promised
Castiglione an answer before his fortnight’s leave was over, and
that after several days she was no nearer to finding one than when
he had left her.
Again and again she thought of telling Giuliana all her trouble
and asking her advice, but she was always deterred by an inward
conviction that her friend would not understand. She was mistaken
in this, but she could not believe that she was. Giuliana knew
something, of course; all Rome believed Teresa Crescenzi’s story,
of which the starting-point was that she had loved Baldassare del
Castiglione innocently, and it was Giuliana who had repeated the
tale to her. Maria had shaken her head, and had answered that there
was not much truth in it, but that people might as well believe it
as invent any other story, since she would never tell any one, not
even Giuliana, exactly what had happened.
‘It does not concern me only,’ she had said gravely.
Giuliana had asked no questions, and Maria had been sure that there
would never be any need of referring to her secret again.
But now the past had come back to ask a question which she could
not answer. She had been in earnest when she had told Baldassare
proudly that she did not mean to go to a priest for advice. He
disliked all priests out of prejudice, as she knew. There might
be good and bad soldiers, lawyers, writers, artists, or workmen,
but in his estimation there could be very few good priests. Yet
it was not to please him that she had said she would not go to
her confessor; it was simply because she was quite sure that she
could trust her own conscience and her own sense of honour to show
her the right way; and perhaps she might have trusted both if her
nerves had not failed her at the critical moment and left her
apparently helpless. She was in great need of help and advice, and
did not know where to go for either.
Meanwhile she had not met Castiglione again. The season was over,
and even at its height she did not go out much. Society is always
dull when one has no object in joining in its inane revels--love,
ambition, stupid vanity, or a daughter to marry--unless, indeed,
one possesses the temperament of a butterfly combined with the
intelligence of an oyster. So it had been quite natural that Maria
should not have met Castiglione during those days, and she had not
chanced to meet him in the street. On his side, he had kept away
from the part of the city in which she lived, but he had gone to
every friend’s house and public place where he thought there was a
possibility of meeting her.
After a week they met by what seemed an accident to them both.
Maria was almost ill, and could no longer bear her trouble without
some help. There was in Rome a good priest of her own class--a
man in ten thousand, a man of heart, a man of courage, a man of
the highest honour and of the purest life. If she had not always
disliked the idea of meeting her confessor in the world, she would
have chosen this man for hers long ago. If he had been in Rome in
the darkest months of her life she would certainly have gone to
him for advice; but he had then been working as a parish priest
in a remote and fever-stricken part of the Maremma, and it was
because his health had broken down that he had been obliged to give
up his labours and come back to Rome. He was now a Canon of Saint
Peter’s, and was employed as Secretary to the Cardinal Vicar, but
found time to occupy himself with matters nearer to his heart. His
name was Monsignor Ippolito Saracinesca; he was the second son of
Don Giovanni, the head of the great family, and he was about forty
years old.
To him Maria Montalto determined to go in her extremity. She was
not quite sure how she should tell him her story, but for the sake
of what she had said to Castiglione she would not put it in the
form of a confession. She would not need to tell so much of it but
that she could lay it before him as an imaginary case--which is a
foolish device when it is meant to hide a secret, but is useful as
a means of communicating one that is hard to tell.
Monsignor Saracinesca was generally at Saint Peter’s at about
eleven o’clock, and Maria made sure of finding him there by
telephoning to the Saracinesca palace, in which he had a small
apartment of his own. At half-past ten she left her house alone,
took a cab and drove across Rome to the Basilica. She got out at
the front and went up the steps, for she had never before been to
see any one in the Sacristy, and was not quite sure of what would
happen if she went directly to it at the back of the church.
She entered on the right-hand side, by force of habit. There is a
very heavy wadded leathern curtain there, and she had to pull it
aside for herself, which was not easy. Just as she was doing this,
and using all her strength, some one pushed the curtain up easily
from within, and she found herself face to face with Baldassare del
Castiglione, and very near him. She started violently, for she was
even more nervous than usual. He himself was so much surprised that
he drew his head back quickly; then he bent it silently and stood
aside, holding up the curtain for her to pass, as if not expecting
that she would stop to speak to him.
‘Thank you,’ she said, going in.
She tried to smile a little, just as much as one might with a word
of thanks; but the effort was so great, and her face was so pale
and disturbed, that it made a painful impression on him, and he
watched her anxiously till she had gone a few steps forward into
the church, for he was really afraid that she might faint and fall,
and perhaps hurt herself, and there was no one near the door just
then to help her.
But she walked straight enough, and he had just begun to lower the
heavy curtain, turning his head as he passed under it, when he
heard her call him sharply.
‘Balduccio!’
It was very long since she had called him familiarly by his first
name, and his heart stood still at the sound of her voice. A moment
later he was within the church, and met her as she was coming back
to the door.
‘You called me?’
‘Yes.’
They turned to the right into the north aisle, and walked slowly
forwards, side by side. There were not many people in the Basilica
at that hour, for it was a week-day, and the season of the
tourists was almost over. At some distance before them, two or
three people were kneeling before the closed gate of the Julian
Chapel. Maria and Castiglione were as much alone as if they had
been in the country, and as free to talk, for no conversation,
even in an ordinary tone, can be heard far in the great cathedral.
Nevertheless Maria did not speak.
‘You are ill,’ Castiglione said, breaking the silence at last. ‘Let
me take you to your carriage.’
‘No. I came here for a good purpose, and I cannot go home without
doing what I mean to do.’
‘I wish with all my heart that I had not come back to Rome to
disturb your peace! It is my fault that you are suffering.’
‘No. It is not your fault.’ She spoke gently. ‘It is a
consequence, that’s all. You had a right to ask me that question,
and you have a right to an answer. But I cannot find one. That is
what is troubling me.’
‘You are kind to me,’ said Castiglione. ‘Too kind,’ he added, and
she knew by his tone how much he was moved.
She turned in her walk before she answered, for they were already
near the Julian Chapel.
‘No,’ she said after a minute, and she bent her head. ‘Not too
kind--if you knew all.’
He looked quickly at her face, but she did not turn to him. His
heart beat hard and his throat felt suddenly dry.
‘Don’t misunderstand me,’ she said, still looking steadily down at
the pavement. ‘I meant, if you knew how much I wish to be just--to
myself as well as to you, Balduccio.’
‘I do not want justice,’ he answered sadly. ‘I ask for forgiveness.’
‘Yes. I know.’
She said no more, and they walked slowly on. At the little gate of
Leo the Twelfth’s Chapel she stopped, and she took hold of the bars
with both hands and looked in, leaving room for him to stand beside
her.
‘Justice,’ she cried in a low voice, ‘justice, justice! To you, to
me, to my husband! God help us all three!’
He did not understand, but he felt that a change had come over her
since he had seen her a week earlier, and that it was in his favour
rather than against him.
‘Justice!’ he repeated after her, but in a very different tone.
‘It would have been justice if I had put a bullet through my head
when I went home that night!’
Maria’s hands left the bars of the gate and grasped Castiglione’s
arm above the elbow and shook it a little.
‘Never say that again!’ she cried in a stifled voice. ‘Promise me
that you will never think it again! Promise!’
He was amazed at her energy and earnestness, and he understood less
and less what was passing in her heart.
‘I can only promise you that I will never do it,’ he answered
gravely.
‘Yes,’ she cried in the same tone, ‘promise me that! It is what I
mean. Give me your sacred word of honour! Take oath to me before
the Cross--there--do you see?’ she pointed with one hand through
the bars to the Crucifix in the stained window, still holding him
with the other. ‘Swear solemnly that you will never kill yourself,
whatever happens!’
He could well have asked if she loved him still, and she could not
have denied it then; but he would not, for he was in earnest too.
He had not meant to trouble her life so deeply when he had come to
ask her forgiveness; far less had he dreamt that the old love had
survived all. A great wave of pure devotion to the woman he had
wronged swept him to her feet.
It was long since he had knelt in any church; but now he was
kneeling beside her as she stood, and he was looking up to the
sacred figure, and his hands were joined together.
‘You have my word and promise,’ he said in deep emotion. ‘Let the
God you trust be witness between you and me.’
He heard a soft sound, and she was kneeling beside him, close to
the bars. Then her ungloved hand, cold and trembling, went out and
rested lightly on his own for a moment.
‘Is it forgiveness?’ he asked, very low.
‘It is forgiveness,’ she said.
He pressed his forehead against his folded hands that rested upon
the bars. Then he understood that she was praying, and he rose very
quietly and drew back a step, as from something he held in great
reverence, but in which he had no part.
She did not heed him and remained kneeling a little while, a slight
and rarely graceful figure in dark grey against the rich shadows
within the chapel. If any one passed near, neither he nor she was
aware of it, and there was nothing in the attitude of either to
excite surprise in such a place, except that it is unusual to see
any one praying just there.
Maria rose at last, stood a few seconds longer before the gate, and
then turned to Baldassare. Her face had changed since he had last
seen it clearly; it was still pale and full of suffering, but there
was light in it now. She stood beside him and looked at him quietly
when she spoke.
‘I have not given you all my answer yet,’ she said. ‘I will tell
you why I came here, because I wish to be quite frank in all there
is to be between us. I told you the other day that I would not go
to my confessor for advice. At least, that is what I meant to say.
Did I?’
‘Yes. That was what you said.’
‘I shall keep my word. But I am going for help to a friend who is a
priest, because I have broken down. I thought I could trust my own
conscience and my own sense of honour; I thought I could fancy my
boy a man, and in imagination ask him what his mother should do.
But I cannot. I am very tired, and my thoughts are all confused and
blurred. Do you understand?’
‘Yes,’ said Castiglione; but in spite of himself his face betrayed
his displeasure at the thought that an ecclesiastic should come
between them.
‘I am going to see a priest whom I trust as a man,’ she went on. ‘I
am going to Monsignor Saracinesca.’
‘Don Ippolito?’ Castiglione’s brow cleared, and he almost smiled.
‘Yes. Do you know him?’
‘I know him well. You could not go to a better man.’
‘I am glad to hear you say that. I may not follow his advice, after
all, but I am sure he will help me to find myself again.’
‘Perhaps.’ Castiglione spoke thoughtfully, not doubtfully. Then
his face hardened, but not unkindly, and the manly features set
themselves in a look of brave resolution. ‘Before you go let me say
something,’ he went on, after the short pause. ‘You have given
me more to-day than I ever hoped to have from you, Maria. I will
ask nothing else, since the mere thought of seeing me often has
troubled you so much. I will leave Rome to-day, and I will not
come back--never, unless you send for me. Put all the rest out of
your mind and be yourself again, and remember only that you have
forgiven me the worst deed of my life. I can live on that till the
end. Good-bye. God bless you!’
She had been looking down, but now she raised her eyes to his, and
there were tears in them that did not overflow. He held out his
hand, but she would not take it.
‘Thank you,’ she said. ‘You are brave and kind, but I will not
have it so. I may ask you to go away when your leave is over, but
not to stay always, and after a time we shall meet again. Before
going you must come and see me. I will write you a line to-night or
to-morrow. Good-bye now, but only for to-day.’
She smiled faintly, bent her head a little, and turned from
him to cross the nave on her way to the Sacristy. He stood by
the pillar and watched her, sure that she would not look back.
She moved lightly, but not fast, over the vast pavement. When
she was opposite the Julian Chapel, which is the Chapel of the
Sacrament, she turned towards it and bent her knee, but she rose
again instantly and went on till she disappeared behind the great
pilaster of the dome, at the corner of the south transept.
Then Castiglione went slowly and thoughtfully away, happier than he
had been for a long time.
But Maria went on, and glanced at her watch, and hastened her
steps. She left the church and traversed the long marble
corridors, where all kinds of people come and go on all sorts of
business whenever the Basilica is open. In the great central hall
of the Sacristy, which is as big as an ordinary church, she asked
the first acolyte she met for Monsignor Saracinesca.
He was close at hand, in the Chapter-House. ‘Would the lady give
her revered name?’ ‘The Countess of Montalto.’ The young man in the
violet cassock bowed low. ‘Monsignor Saracinesca would certainly
see her Excellency.’ ‘Her Excellency’ thanked the young man and
stood aside to wait, out of the way of the many canons and other
ecclesiastics, and choirmen, and singing boys, and other acolytes
who were all moving hither and thither as if they were very busy
about doing nothing in a hurry. In less than half a minute Ippolito
Saracinesca joined her.
The churchman was a man of forty or near that, but was already very
grey, and thin almost to emaciation. He had the wan complexion
of those who have lived long in feverish parts of Italy, and
there were many lines of suffering in his refined features, which
seemed to be modelled in wax. In his youth he had been said to be
like his mother’s mother, and a resemblance to her portrait was
still traceable, especially in his clear brown eyes. The chief
characteristics of the man’s physical nature were an unconquerable
and devoted energy that could defy sickness and pain, and a very
markedly ascetic temperament. Spiritually, what was strongest in
him was a charity that was active, unselfish, wise and just, and
that was, above all, of that sort which inspires hope in those
whom it helps, and helps all whom it finds in need.
It was said in the precincts of the Vatican that Monsignor
Saracinesca was likely to be made a cardinal at an early age. But
the poor people in the Maremma said he was a saint who would not
long be allowed to suffer earthly ills, and whose soul was probably
already in paradise while his body was left to do good in this
world till it should wear itself out and melt away like a shadow.
Ippolito Saracinesca had known only one great temptation in his
life. Unlike most people who accomplish much in this world, he was
a good musician, and was often tempted to bestow upon a perfectly
selfish pleasure some of that precious time which he truly believed
had been given him only that he might use it for others. More
than once he had bound himself not to touch an instrument nor go
to a concert for a whole month, because he felt that the gift was
absorbing him too much.
This was the friend to whom Maria Montalto had come for advice and
help, and of whom Castiglione had said that she could not have
chosen a better man.
‘There is no one in the Chapter-House,’ he said, after the first
friendly greeting. ‘Will you come in and sit down? I was trying
to decide about the placing of another picture which we have
discovered amongst our possessions.’
He led the way and Maria followed, and sat down beside the table
on one of the big chairs which were symmetrically ranged against
the walls.
‘Please tell me how I can serve you,’ said Don Ippolito.
‘It is not easy to tell you,’ Maria answered. ‘I am in great
perplexity and I need advice--the advice of a good man--of a
friend--of some one who knows the world.’
‘Yes,’ said Monsignor Saracinesca, folding his transparent hands
and looking at one of Melozzo da Forlì’s inspired angels on the
opposite wall. ‘So far as you care to trust me as a friend and one
who knows something of the world, I will do my best. But let us
understand each other before you say anything more. This is not
in any way a confession, I suppose. You wish to ask my advice in
confidence. Is that it?’
‘Yes, yes! That is what it is!’
‘And you come to me as to a friend, rather than as to a priest?’
‘Oh, yes! Much more.’
‘And you trust me, merely as you would trust a friend, and without
the intention of putting me under a sacred obligation of silence,
by which the life and welfare of any one might hereafter be
endangered. Is that what you mean?’
‘Yes, distinctly. But that will never happen. I mean that no one’s
life could ever be in danger by your not telling. At least, I
cannot see how.’
‘Strange things happen,’ said Don Ippolito, still looking at the
angel. ‘And now that we understand each other about that, I am
ready. What is the difficulty?’
Maria rested her elbow on the corner of the big table and shaded
her eyes with her hand for a moment. It was not easy to tell such a
story as hers.
‘Do you know anything about my past life?’ she began timidly, and
glancing sideways at him.
He turned his brown eyes full to hers.
‘Yes,’ he said, without hesitation. ‘I do know something, and more
than a little.’
She was surprised, and looked at him with an expression of inquiry.
‘I have always known your husband very well,’ he said. ‘He wrote
to me for advice when there was trouble between you. I was in the
Maremma then.’
‘And it was you who advised him to leave me! Ah, I did not know!’
Maria drew back a little proudly, expecting him to admit the
imputation.
‘No,’ answered Don Ippolito. ‘I did not, but he thought it wiser
not to take the advice I gave him.’
Maria’s expression changed again.
‘Do you know who was--who--was the cause of his going away?’
‘Yes. I am afraid every one knows that. It was Baldassare del
Castiglione, and he is in Rome again.’
‘Yes,’ Maria replied, repeating his words, ‘he is in Rome again.’
He thought he had made it easy for her to say more, if she wished
to tell all, but she was silent. He had heard Montalto’s story
from beginning to end, and upon that he judged her, of course, as
she had allowed herself to be judged by her husband, without the
least suggestion of defence. After all, how could either of the
two men judge her otherwise? How could she tell now what she had
once called the truth? How near the truth was it? She would put her
question as best she could.
‘My excuse is that we loved each other very, very much,’ she said
in a low and timid voice. ‘It was long before I married,’ she
added, a little more firmly, for she was not ashamed of that. ‘But
we parted’--her voice sank to a whisper--‘we parted when it was
too late. And we have never met, nor ever written one word to each
other since.’
As she pronounced the last sentence she raised her head again, for
she knew what that separation had cost, in spite of all--in spite
of what she had called the truth.
‘That was right,’ Don Ippolito said. ‘That was your duty; but it
was brave of you both to do it.’ She felt encouraged.
‘And now he is in Rome again,’ she went on. ‘He has come on leave
for a few days. He came on purpose to ask my forgiveness, after all
these years, because there was something to forgive--at least--he
thought there was----’
She broke off, quite unable to go on.
‘You were very young,’ suggested Don Ippolito, helping her. ‘You
had no experience of the world. Such a man would have a very great
advantage over a very young woman who had been attached to him when
a girl and was unhappily married.’
But Maria had clasped her hands desperately tight together before
her on the edge of the table, and she bent down now and pressed her
forehead upon them. She spoke in broken words.
‘No, no! I know it now! It was not--not what I thought--oh, I can’t
tell you! I can’t, I can’t!’
She was breaking down, for she was worn-out and fearfully
overwrought. Then Monsignor Saracinesca spoke quietly, but in a
tone of absolute authority.
‘Tell me nothing more,’ he said. ‘This is not a confession, and I
cannot allow you to go on. Try to get control of yourself so that
you may go home quietly.’
He rose as he spoke, but she stretched her hand out across the
table to stop him.
‘No--please don’t go away! I have said I forgive him--if there is
anything to forgive--may I say that he is to come back? May I see
him sometimes? We are so sure of ourselves, he and I, after all
these years----’
Monsignor Saracinesca’s brows bent with a little severity.
‘Montalto is living,’ he said, ‘and he is a broken-hearted man.
Since you and he parted you have borne his name as honourably as
you could, you have done what was in your power to atone for your
fault by not seeing your lover. I am frank, you see. Montalto knows
how you have lived and is not unjust nor ungrateful. But for his
mother, I think a reconciliation would be possible.’
Maria started at the words, and turned even paler than before.
‘A reconciliation!’ she cried in a low and frightened voice.
‘Yes,’ answered Don Ippolito, who had resumed his seat. ‘He loves
you still. It is my firm belief that he has never bestowed a
thought on any other woman since he first wished to marry you. I
know beyond all doubt that since he left you he has led a life such
as few men of the world ever lead. No doubt he has his defects, as
a man of the world. I daresay he is not one of those men with whom
it is easy to live, and he is a melancholy and depressing person.
But so far as the rest is concerned----’
He stopped, feeling that he was perhaps defending his friend too
warmly. Maria had bent her head again, and sat with her hands lying
dejectedly on her knees.
‘You know more,’ she said sadly. ‘He has written you that he is
coming back!’
‘No. I only think it possible. But if he did, could you refuse to
live under his roof? Has he wronged you?’
‘He meant to be just! But if he should come back--oh, no, no, no!
For God’s sake, not that!’
She bent her head lower still, and spoke scarcely above a whisper.
‘Remember that he has the right, that it lies with him to forgive,
not with you. If he should do that, and should come, would you not
be glad to feel that after all you had done your best? That so far
as you could help it you had not seen your lover, nor encouraged
him, nor given him the slightest cause to think you would? You
could at least receive your husband’s forgiveness with a clear
conscience. At least you could say that you had not failed again!’
Don Ippolito waited a moment, but Maria could not speak, or had no
answer ready for him. He went on, quietly and kindly.
‘But if you allow Castiglione to come back and live here, and to
see you, even rarely, it will all be different. Think only of what
the world will say; and what the world says will be repeated to
your husband. You have broken his heart, and all but ruined his
life; remember that he loves you as much as your lover ever did;
think what he has felt, what he has suffered! And then consider,
too, that if anything has softened the bitterness of his pain, it
has been the faultless life you have led since. Before God it is
enough to do right, but before the world it is not. Men do not
accept the truth unless it is outwardly proved to them. That is a
part of the social contract by which our outward lives are bound.
Allow Castiglione to come to Rome, to be seen with you and at your
house, even now and then, and the world will have no mercy. It
will say that you are tired of your loneliness, and have taken him
back to be to you what he was. Then people will laugh at Teresa
Crescenzi’s clever story instead of believing it. You came to me as
to a friend, and as what you call a man of the world, and I give
you what I think will be the world’s view. Am I right, or not?’
There was a long pause. Then Maria tried to meet the good man’s
earnest eyes, but her own wandered to one of the angels on the wall.
‘You are right,’ she said in a low voice. ‘Yes, you are right. I
see it now.’
Her gaze was fixed upon the lovely frescoed head, with its glory
of golden hair and its look of heavenly innocence. But she did
not see it; she was thinking that if she did right she must tell
Castiglione never to come back, and that the aching, lonely life
that had seemed once more so full for a brief space was to begin
again to-morrow, and was to last until she died. And she was
thinking that her husband might come back.
Monsignor Saracinesca waited quietly after she had spoken, for
since she admitted the truth of what he urged he felt that there
was nothing more to say. After a little while Maria collected her
strength for the effort and rose from her seat, still resting one
hand on the great table.
‘Thank you,’ she said. ‘You have been very kind. All you have told
me is true. I shall try to follow your advice.’
‘I hope you will,’ answered the Churchman. ‘You will not find it so
hard as you think.’
She smiled faintly, as gentle people do sometimes when they are in
great pain and well-disposed persons tell them that suffering is
all a matter of imagination.
‘Oh, no!’ she answered. ‘I shall find it very, very hard.’
The grey-haired man sighed and smiled at her so sadly and kindly
that she felt herself drawn to him even more than before. She
was standing close to him now, and looked up trustfully to his
spiritual face and deeply thoughtful eyes.
‘I did not know I loved him so much till he came back,’ she said
simply. ‘How could I? I did not guess that I had forgiven him long
ago!’
‘Poor child! God help you!’
‘I need help.’ She was silent for a moment, and then looked down.
‘Do you write to my husband?’ she asked timidly.
‘Sometimes. I have little time for writing letters. Should you like
to send him any message?’
‘Oh, no!’ she cried in a startled tone. ‘But oh, if you write to
him, don’t urge him to come back! Don’t make him think it is his
duty. It cannot be his duty to make any one so unhappy as I should
be!’
‘I shall not give him any advice whatever unless he asks for it,’
replied Don Ippolito, ‘and if he does, I shall answer that I think
he should write to you directly, for I would rather not try to act
as his adviser. I told you that he did not take my advice the first
time.’
‘Yes--but--you have been so kind! Would you tell me what you wished
him to do then?’
The priest thought a moment.
‘I cannot tell you that,’ he said presently.
Maria looked surprised, and shrank back a little, suspecting that
he had suggested some course which might have offended or hurt her.
He understood intuitively.
‘It would be a betrayal of confidence to Montalto,’ he added, ‘to
tell you what I advised him, and what he did not do. But I still
think it would have been better for both of you if he had done it.’
Maria looked puzzled.
‘I am sorry,’ he said, in a tone from which there was no appeal,
‘but I cannot tell you.’
She looked at him a little hardly at first; then she remembered
what every one in Rome knew, that the delicate, shadow-like man
with the clear brown eyes had risked being tried for murder when he
was a young priest rather than betray a confession which had been
anything but formal. Her tired face softened as she thought of that.
‘I am sorry I asked you,’ she said. ‘I did not mean to be
inquisitive.’
‘It was natural that you should ask the question,’ he answered,
‘but it would not have been quite honourable in me to answer it.’
‘I trust you all the more because you refused me,’ she said. ‘And
now I must be going, for I have kept you a long time.’
‘Scarcely a quarter of an hour.’ He smiled as he glanced at the
hideous modern clock on the table.
She left him after thanking him and pressing his thin, kindly hand,
and she made her way back to the church, feeling a little faint.
When she was gone Monsignor Saracinesca returned to the question
of the picture which was to be hung, but for a while he could not
give it all the attention that a beautiful Hans Memling deserved.
He was thinking of what he had said to Maria, and not only of that,
but of what he had said to Baldassare del Castiglione a quarter of
an hour earlier.
For that was the coincidence which had brought the two together
that morning at the door of the church. Castiglione had taken it
into his head to see Don Ippolito on the same day; like Maria,
he had telephoned to the palace and had learned that his old
acquaintance was usually to be found in the Sacristy about eleven;
being a soldier, he had gone punctually at the hour, whereas Maria
had not arrived till fifteen or twenty minutes later, and it was
therefore almost a certainty that they should meet.
It had not been easy for Don Ippolito, taken by surprise as he
was. But Castiglione had put his case as one man of honour may to
another, and had told as much of the truth as he might without
casting the least slur on Maria’s good name. He had loved her
before her marriage, he had said; he loved her still. After she had
been married he had left her no peace, and Montalto had made him
the reason for leaving her. She had bidden him, Castiglione, to go
away and never see her again. He had so far obeyed as to stay away
several years. He had come back at last to ask her forgiveness;
he was not sure of obtaining it--he had not yet met her in the
church--but he came to Don Ippolito as a friend. His love for Maria
was great, he said, but even if she forgave him, he would never
see her again rather than be the cause of any further trouble
or anxiety to her. What did Don Ippolito think? Don Ippolito
considered the matter for a few minutes, and then said that in his
opinion any renewal of friendly intercourse between Castiglione
and the Countess would surely bring trouble and would inevitably
cause her anxiety. If Castiglione loved her in the way he believed
he did, he would think more of her welfare than of the pleasure he
would have in seeing her. If he was sure that his thoughts of her
were what he represented them to be, he could write to her, and
she might write to him if she thought fit. The prelate refused to
say more than that, but the opinion was delivered in such manly
and direct words that Castiglione was much impressed by it; and
when, in the church, he had generously offered to leave Rome at
once, because he saw in Maria’s face all the trouble and anxiety
he feared for her, he had spoken with Ippolito Saracinesca’s
honourable words still ringing in his ears. It was no wonder if
he told Maria that she could not have chosen a better man of whom
to ask help and advice; and though he knew what that advice would
be, and felt sorrowfully sure that she would try to follow it, he
almost smiled at the coincidence as he watched her cross the nave
in the direction of the Sacristy.
And now, when she came back into the Basilica, she retraced her
steps towards the tomb of Leo Twelfth. Again she stopped a moment
and almost knelt as she passed before the Julian Chapel and went on
to the north aisle; but when the small gate before which she had
knelt with Castiglione was in sight she paused in the shadow of
the pillar and leant against the marble, as if she were very tired.
Till then she had not dared to ask herself what she meant to
do, but when she saw the place where she had so lately touched
Castiglione’s hand in forgiveness of the past, the truth rushed
back upon her, as the winter’s tide turns from the ebb to storm
upon the beaten shore.
It was upon her, and she felt that it would sweep her from her
feet and drown her; and it was not the imaged truth she had taught
herself to believe those many years. She gazed at the closed
gate, and she knew why she had forgiven her lover at last. It was
because she wished to forgive herself, and she had found it easy,
shamefully easy. The hour of evil came back to her memory with
frightful vividness, and now her pale cheek burned with shame and
she pressed it hard against the icy marble; and she forced her eyes
to stay wide open, lest if she shut them for an instant, she should
see what she remembered so horribly well.
She would not go to the gate again, now; the words she had said
there had been false and untrue, the prayer she had breathed there
had been a blasphemy and nothing else. For years and years she had
lived in the mortal sin of those brief moments; unconfessing and
unpardoned of God, she had gone to Communion month after month,
telling herself that she was an innocent, suffering woman, doing
her best to atone for another’s crime; yet she had always felt
in the dark hiding-places of her heart the knowledge that it was
all untrue, that she had been less sinned against than herself
sinning, and that if she would die in the faith in which she had
been brought up, and in the hope of life hereafter, she must some
day humble herself and her pride to the earth, and ask of God and
man the pardon she had granted just now as if it were hers to give.
It was too much; it was more than she could bear. In her anger and
hatred of herself she found strength to turn from the pillar and
to go on straight and quickly to the door. Two or three soldiers
who had wandered in were just leaving the Basilica; they lifted the
heavy curtain for her and she thanked them mechanically and passed
out, holding her head high.
CHAPTER IV
Maria hardly knew how she had come home. She had no distinct
recollection of having taken a cab, nor of having driven through
the city, nor of having paid a cabman when she reached the Via San
Martino. There are times when unconscious cerebration is quite
enough for the ordinary needs of life. Maria neither fainted nor
behaved in any unusual way during the half-hour that elapsed
between her leaving the pillar against which she had leant in the
church and the moment when she entered her own room. Even then she
hardly knew that she gave her maid her hat and gloves and smoothed
her hair before she went to her sitting-room to be alone.
But when she was there, in her favourite seat with her little
table full of books beside her, her footstool at her feet and her
head resting at last against a small silk cushion on the back of
the chair--then the one thought that had taken possession of her
pronounced itself aloud in the quiet room.
‘I have been a very wicked woman.’
That was all, and she said it aloud only once; but the words went
on repeating themselves again and again in her brain, while she
leaned back and stared steadily at the blank of the tinted ceiling;
and for a time she turned her head wearily from side to side on
the cushion, as people do who have little hope, and fear that the
very worst is close at hand.
For many years she had sustained a part which her pride had
invented to quiet her conscience. If it were not so, if she had
really been the outraged victim of a moment’s madness, knowing
herself quite innocent, why had she not gone to her husband, as an
honest woman should, to ask for protection and to demand justice?
Because she loved Castiglione still, perhaps; because she was
willing to sacrifice everything rather than accuse him; because
she would rather be dishonoured in her husband’s eyes than see her
lover disgraced before the world. But that was not true; that was
impossible. If Baldassare del Castiglione had been the wretch she
had the courage to tell him he was when she bade him leave her for
ever, Maria Montalto would not have hesitated an instant. He should
have gone where justice sends such men, and she would have asked
her husband to let her end her days out of the sight of the world
she had known.
Her memory brought back the words she had spoken to Castiglione
long ago under the ilex-trees in the Villa Borghese. She remembered
the intonations of her own voice, she remembered how she had
quivered with pain and anger while she spoke, how she had turned
and left him there, leaning against a tree, very pale; for she
had made him believe all she said, and that was the worst a woman
can say. She had called him a coward and a brute, the basest of
mankind; and he had obeyed her, and had left Rome that night
because she had made him believe her.
But later, many months later, when Montalto solemnly accused her
of having betrayed him, she had bent her head, and not one word of
self-defence had risen to her lips; so her husband had turned away
and left her, as she had turned and left her lover. He had been
under the same roof with her after that, at more and more distant
intervals till he had left Rome altogether; but never again, when
they had been alone together, had he spoken one word to her except
for necessity. Yet he had loved her then, and he loved her still;
she had seen in his face that he was broken-hearted, and Monsignor
Saracinesca had told her now that the deep hurt would not heal. She
had played her comedy of innocence to her lover and to herself,
but she had not dared to play it to her husband, lest some act of
frightful injustice should be done to Baldassare del Castiglione.
She had forgiven Balduccio! She laughed at the thought now in
bitter self-contempt. Her soul and her conscience had met face to
face in the storm, and the expiation had begun. She must confess
her fault to God and man, but first to man, first to that man to
whom it would be most hard to tell the truth because she had been
the most unjust to him, to Castiglione himself.
That was to be the answer to his question. There was no doubt now;
he must go away. She could not allow him to exchange again into
another regiment, in order that he might live near her for a time,
nor could she let him leave the service altogether, to pass an
idle life in Rome. Every word that Don Ippolito had spoken was
unanswerable, and there was much more that he had not said. She
might not be able to trust herself after all; after reconciliation,
friendship would come, cool, smiling and self-satisfied, but
behind friendship there was a love that neither could hide long,
and beyond love there was human passion, strong and wakeful, with
burning eyes and restless hands, waiting till the devil opportunity
should come suddenly and spread his dusky wings as a tent and a
shelter for sin. Maria was still brave enough to fear that, and
something told her that fear of herself must be the first step on
which to rise above herself.
She left her seat at last and sat down at a table to write to
Castiglione; but when she tried to word a note it was not easy. It
would not be wise, either, for such words as she wished to send
him are better not written down. Maria realised this before she
had penned three lines, and she tore the bit of paper to shreds at
once. Baldassare was stopping with cousins, and a note might fall
into light-fingered hands.
She rang the bell and told Agostino to telephone to the Conte del
Castiglione saying that she would be glad to see him the next
day at half-past two, if he could come then. In a few moments
the servant brought back the answer. The Conte had been at the
telephone himself and would do himself the honour of calling on the
Signora Contessa on the morrow at half-past two.
The formal reply was so like his messages of old days that it sent
a little thrill through her. Often and often he had come at that
quiet hour, when Montalto was always out of the way, and each time
he had found some new way of telling her that he loved her; and
she, in turn, had listened and had laughingly scolded him, telling
him that she had grown from a silly girl into a grave Roman matron,
and would have no more of his boyish love-making; and, moreover,
that if he was always going to make love to her she would refuse to
receive him the very next time he tried to see her at the hour when
she was alone. And yet she listened to his voice, and he saw her
lip quiver sometimes and her soft pallor grow warmer; and always,
when he sent a message asking to see her at half-past two, the
answer had been that she would probably be at home, and that he
might try if he liked; and when he came, she was there, and alone,
and ready to laugh, and scold, and listen, expecting no danger and
not wittingly thinking any evil.
So his message to-day startled her senses, as a little accidental
pressure on the scar of an old wound sometimes sends a wave of the
forgotten pain through the injured nerve. It was like a warning.
When she was alone she sat down in the deep chair again and leaned
back. It was wrong to be so glad that she was to see him the next
day, but she could not help it; and besides, it was to be the last
time for so long, perhaps for ever. Surely, after all that she
had suffered, she might allow herself that little joy before the
unending separation began!
She was already far from the bitter self-reproach of a few minutes
ago, and the mere thought of his coming had wrought the change. Was
it not in order to be just to him at last that she had sent for
him? Might there not be a legitimate moral satisfaction in humbling
herself before him, and in the thought that she was about to lift
a heavy burden from his heart? Moreover, to be for ever gloomily
pondering on her past fault, now that she had acknowledged it and
was sorry for it, would surely be morbid.
As for the religious side of the matter, she would make her peace
with heaven at once. She would put on a brown veil and go to the
Capuchin church that very afternoon and confess all to Padre
Bonaventura, of whom she had so often heard, but who would never
know who she was. He would impose some grave and wearisome penance,
no doubt; Capuchin monks are notably more severe in that respect
than other confessors. He would perhaps bid her read the seven
penitential psalms seven times, which would be a long affair. But
he could not refuse her absolution since she was really so sorry;
and the next morning she would get up early and go to the little
oratory near by and receive the Communion in the spirit of truth
at last; and when Castiglione came at half-past two she would have
grace and strength to tell what she had to tell, and to bid him
good-bye, even for ever. If she did all this she would earn the
right to that one last little joy of meeting.
She was not a saint yet; she was not even heroic, and perhaps what
she took for a guiding ray of light was anything but that; perhaps
it was little better than a will-o’-the-wisp that would lead her
into far more dangerous ground than she had traversed yet. But
after her resolution was made she felt lighter and happier, and
better able to face the world than she had felt during that long
week since Castiglione had come back.
Then Leone came in, straight and sturdy and bright-eyed; and he
marched across the room to where she sat and threw his arms around
her, as he sometimes did. And though he was but a small boy, she
felt how strong he was when he squeezed her to him with all his
might and kissed her, first on one cheek and then on the other; and
in spite of herself she closed her eyes for a second and drew one
short breath as she kissed him too. He was very quick to see and
notice everything.
‘Did I hurt you, mama?’ he asked almost anxiously.
‘No, dear!’ She smiled. ‘You are not strong enough to hurt me yet,
darling.’
He drew back half a step and surveyed his mother critically, with
his head a little on one side.
‘I wouldn’t, of course,’ he said condescendingly. ‘But if I twisted
your arm and hammered it with my fist I could hurt you. I did it to
Mario Campodonico, and he’s nine, and he howled.’
‘Naughty boy!’ Maria could not help laughing. ‘Why did you hurt
poor Mario?’
‘Poor Mario!’ cried Leone scornfully. ‘He’s twice my size, and
he’s learning to ride. Why shouldn’t I hammer him if I can? He
tried to take away a roast chestnut I was eating. It was in the
Villa Borghese only yesterday. He won’t do it again, though! He
howled.’
Thereupon Leone faced about, marched to the window, and climbed
upon his favourite chair to look for soldiers in the street. He
got up with three quick movements, as if he were going through a
gymnastic exercise. He set one knee and both hands on the seat,
then put the second knee up and both hands on the top of the chair,
then he straightened his back and was in position. Maria watched
him, and her eyes settled on the back of his solid little neck that
showed above the broad sailor’s collar, and on the short and thick
brown hair that was so curly just at that place.
But presently she turned away and mechanically took a book from
the low table beside her. Don Ippolito had said that Montalto
might offer her a reconciliation she did not deserve, and might
come back to take her and Leone to live in the palace again. The
thought chilled her and frightened her, for she could guess at
his expression when he should first see what she had seen every
hour of the day for years. Yet any father might be proud of such a
child--any father! Could such a ‘reconciliation’ be lasting?
That afternoon she took Leone with her and drove out by Porta Furba
to the ruins which the people call Roma Vecchia. They drove across
the great meadow, and when they could drive no farther they got out
and walked, and climbed up till they could sit on one of the big
fragments of masonry and look towards the west. Leone had been
rather silent, for with the exception of an occasional couple of
mounted carabineers on patrol they had hardly met any soldiers at
all. And now they sat side by side in the sunshine, for there was a
cool breeze blowing from the sea and the air was not warm yet.
Leone took no interest in any pastimes earlier than the age of
armour and tournaments; and Maria was glad that he did not ask her
questions about the ruins, for she could not have answered him. She
knew nothing about the Quintilii and very little about Commodus.
She only knew that the great pile was commonly called the ‘Old
Rome,’ and that she loved it for its grand loneliness. But Leone
looked about him, and thought it was a good place for a castle.
Next to soldiers he loved castles and forts.
‘If this belonged to me, I’d build a fortress here,’ he observed
gravely, after a long silence. ‘I’d build a great castle like
Bracciano.’ He had been taken there on a children’s picnic during
the winter. ‘But I’d have lots of guns and a regiment of artillery
here if it were mine,’ he added.
‘What for?’ asked Maria, amused.
‘To defend Rome, of course,’ answered Leone.
‘But no one is coming to take Rome, child,’ objected his mother.
‘Oh, yes, they may!’ He seemed quite confident. ‘If there are no
other enemies, there are always the French and the priests!’
At this astounding view of Italy’s situation Maria could not help
laughing.
‘We are good friends with the French now,’ she said. ‘And who has
been telling you that the priests are the enemies of Italy?’
‘Gianluca Trasmondo says so,’ answered Leone. ‘He knows, for his
uncle is a cardinal. Besides, no priests are soldiers, are they? So
they wouldn’t defend Italy. So they’re Italy’s enemies.’
‘You are wrong, darling,’ answered Maria. ‘The priests have all had
to do their military service first.’
‘What? And wear uniforms, and go to drill, and smoke Toscano
cigars?’
‘I’m not sure about the smoking,’ laughed Maria; ‘but they have to
serve their time in the army, just like other men.’
‘Of course you know,’ said the small boy, who had perfect
confidence in his mother’s facts. ‘I didn’t. I’ll tell Gianluca
to-morrow. All the same, this would be a good place for a castle. I
wonder whose the fields are.’
‘I don’t know, dear. You may run down to the carriage and ask
Telemaco if you like, and then come back and tell me. He knows all
about the Campagna.’
Telemaco was Maria’s coachman, who had followed her when she had
left the Montalto palace--a grey-haired, placid, corpulent man of
great weight and overpowering respectability.
Leone jumped up and ran away at a steady trot, with his elbows
well in, his fists close to his chest, and his head back, as he
had seen soldiers run in drilling. Maria was left alone for a few
minutes, for the carriage was on the other side of the ruins and
two hundred yards away. She leaned on one elbow and looked westward
at the distant broken aqueduct, far away under the sun. She was
thinking of what she should say to the old monk in the Capuchin
church later in the afternoon, and the moments passed quickly.
Before she had determined upon the opening sentence, the boy came
trotting back to her up the little hill. He stopped just before
her, his legs apart and his face beaming with pleasure.
‘Well,’ he said, ‘what do you think? Shall I build a castle here or
not?’
‘I think not,’ answered his mother, smiling.
‘But I think I shall when I am big. It all belongs to me!’
Maria opened her eyes in surprise.
‘To you, child? What do you mean?’
‘I asked Telemaco whose this land was. He said, “It belongs to
your most excellent house.” I said just what you said--“What do
you mean?” He said, “It is as I say, Signorino, for the land here
belongs to his Excellency your papa, and if you see one of the
mounted watchmen in blue about here, he will have the arms of your
house on his badge.” That was what Telemaco said. So you see, when
I am big I shall build a castle here. Why do you look sorry, mama?’
‘I’m not sorry, darling,’ Maria answered with a faint smile. ‘I was
thinking of the time when you will be grown up.’
Leone reflected a little.
‘But why should you look sorry for that, mama? You won’t go away
and leave me when I’m grown up, will you, to go and live with papa
in Spain?’
‘No, dear. I shall certainly not do that.’
Another pause, longer than the first, during which the small
boy watched her face keenly, and she shrank a little before the
fearless blue eyes.
‘Why does papa never come back to see us?’ he asked.
She had expected the question a long time, and had made up her mind
how to meet it when it came; yet she was taken by surprise.
‘Your father’s mother is a great invalid,’ she said, with a little
nervous hesitation. ‘He does not like to leave her.’
‘He might come here for a day sometimes,’ answered Leone, not at
all satisfied. ‘He doesn’t like us. That’s the reason. I know it
is. He doesn’t want us to live in the palace. That’s why we live
where we do.’
‘Hush! You must not say that, my dear. The palace is very gloomy,
and I chose to live in a more cheerful part of the city.’
‘I like it better, too,’ said the boy in a tone of reflection. ‘But
all other people live in their own palaces, all the same.’
‘Most of our friends are many in a family, dear. But we are only
you and I.’
A silence, during which the child’s brain was weighing these
matters in the balance.
‘I’m glad papa never comes back,’ he said at last. ‘You are, too.’
Without waiting for an answer, and as if to give vent to his
feelings, he turned away, picked up a small stone, and threw it as
far as he could over the green grass below the ruins--presumably at
an imaginary enemy of Italy. He watched it as it fell, and did not
seem satisfied with his performance.
‘I suppose David was bigger than I am when he killed the giant with
a pebble,’ he observed rather wistfully.
They drove home.
‘Why didn’t you know that the land out there belongs to us, mama?’
asked Leone, after a long silence, when they were near the Porta
San Giovanni.
‘I know very little about the property, except that it is large and
some of it is in the Campagna.’
‘Why not?’
‘Because no one ever told me about it,’ Maria replied, feeling that
she must find an answer. The boy looked at her gravely, but not
incredulously, and asked nothing more.
CHAPTER V
The sun was sinking when Maria descended the long flight of steps
from the door of the Capuchin church to the level of the street,
and under the grey veil she wore her cheeks were wet with undried
tears. But she held her head up proudly, and her small feet stepped
firmly and lightly on the stones.
She was not in a state of grace by any means, and the tears had not
been shed in repentance for her sins. She hardly ever cried, and
when she did it was generally from anger and bitter disappointment.
The moisture that had risen in her eyes that morning when
Castiglione had offered to go away for her sake had not overflowed;
but now, when she had left the confessional without the expected
absolution, and had seen the hard-faced old monk in brown come out
of his box and stalk stiffly away to the sacristy as if he had done
something very virtuous, she had sat down in a chair in a corner of
the empty church and the burning drops had streamed over her cheeks
like fire till they reached the small handkerchief she held to her
mouth under her veil; and she had bitten hard at the hem, and it
was salt with her tears.
She had been misunderstood, she had been misjudged, she had been
rebuked. She had been told that she was a very great sinner; that
so long as she was willing to love a man who was not her husband,
and who had been her lover, God would not forgive her; that
absolution came from God and not from priests, and that it was out
of any priest’s power to pronounce it while she was in her present
state of mind; that she might come again when she was sure that she
wished never to think of that evil man; that if she felt that she
owed him reparation for having been unjust to him she should write
to him to say so, asking him to destroy the letter, and bidding him
never to come near her again; and that to see him again, even once,
since she still loved him, would be not only a deadly risk but
actually a mortal sin. After this she had been sternly told to go
away, to pray for grace, and to be particularly careful to observe
days of abstinence and fasting, as the devil was everywhere and
never slept.
Now the monk who had heard her confession was a good man and
meant well, and believed that he was speaking for the good of
her soul. He knew well enough from the penitent’s language and
manner of speaking about her life that she was a lady of Rome, and
perhaps one of the great ones who sometimes came to him because
they did not like to go to their regular confessors. But this,
in his estimation, was the best of reasons why Maria should be
treated with the same severity as the poorest and most ignorant
woman of the people. If she had come to him with a religious
doubt or a scruple concerning dogma he would have treated her
very differently, for he was something of a theologian and had
a monk’s love of controversy. But she came to him simply as a
woman, with a perfectly evident mortal sin on her conscience,
and what he considered a perfectly evident desire to compromise
things by pretending that her lover could be her friend. In such
matters he was a ruthless democrat, as many confessors are. She
might be a great lady, she might have been royal, for all he
cared; what was just to one woman’s soul and conscience was just
to another woman’s, all the world over, and where the deadly sins
were concerned there was not to be any distinction between the
poor and the rich, the educated and the ignorant. On the contrary,
educated people should get less mercy, because they ought to know
better than their inferiors, and because they had been brought up
in surroundings where the baser sins of humanity are supposed to
be less common; and finally and generally, because we are told
that the salvation of the rich is to be regarded as a much more
difficult matter than that of the poor. It was certainly not the
business of a Capuchin monk to reverse matters and make it easier.
But the delicately nurtured, sorely tried woman who had come to
unburden her conscience of a sin she had only fully understood
within the last few days, felt as if the well-meaning monk had
thrust out his bony hand from the shadow of the confessional and
had deliberately slapped her cheek.
Therefore Maria Montalto was not in a state of grace, and in her
mortification she called the austere and democratic Capuchin
several hard names; she said to herself that he was ignorant,
that he was a common person, and that it was a scandal that such
a prejudiced man should be a licensed confessor. She bit her
handkerchief hard, tasting the salt of her tears in the hem of it,
because she knew in her heart that there was a little truth in some
of the hard things she had been told.
Her pride and nervous energy came to the rescue after a while, and
she left the church to walk home through quiet streets where no
one was likely to meet her. The evening breeze would dry her face
under her veil, and her anger would help the drying process too,
for it kept her cheeks hot. That morning she had felt very ill and
tired and had vaguely expected to break down, but the afternoon
in the Campagna had done her good, and her temper did the rest.
Castiglione would find her looking wonderfully well when he came
the next day at half-past two.
The sun had set, but it was still broad daylight when she reached
the top of the Via San Basilio. She turned to the right presently,
and almost ran into Teresa Crescenzi, who was walking very fast and
also wore a veil, but was always an unmistakable figure anywhere.
‘Maria!’ cried the lively lady at once. ‘Where in the world are you
going alone on foot at this hour?’
‘I have been to confession and I’m going home,’ answered Maria
without hesitation, and smiling at the other’s quickness in asking
a question which might certainly have been asked of her with equal
reason.
‘So have I,’ answered Teresa with alacrity. ‘What a coincidence!’
But she had not been to confession.
‘Good-bye, dear!’ she added almost at once, and with a quick and
friendly nod she went on down the hill.
Teresa had not gone far when she turned into a deserted side street
and saw Baldassare del Castiglione walking at a leisurely pace a
little way in front of her. A much less ready gossip than she might
well have thought it probable that he and Maria Montalto had just
parted, after taking a harmless little walk together in a very
quiet part of the town.
It was certainly Castiglione whom she saw. There was no mistaking
his square shoulders and back of his strong neck, where the closely
cropped brown hair had an incorrigible tendency to be curly. Teresa
had often noticed that, for she admired him and wished that he were
a more eligible husband; but she was not very rich, and he was
distinctly poor. She often saw him in the summer, and it had not
occurred to her till his return to Rome that he would refuse her if
she suggested that he might marry her. That was the way she put it,
for a lack of practical directness was not among her defects. She
had supposed that he had really quite forgotten Maria by this time,
although her pretty tale about them was founded on the undying and
perfectly innocent affection of both.
Now before she overtook Castiglione, as she inevitably must if
he did not mend his pace, she hesitated whether she should turn
back quietly and take another street. For she had not been to
confession. Then it seemed to her that it would be dangerous to
avoid him, for he was walking slowly, as if he himself were only
keeping out of the way in the side street for a while, and might
turn back at any moment; and if he did, he would recognise her. So
she decided to overtake him and ask him to walk with her till they
could find a closed cab, which was what she wanted.
Having reached this decision a further consideration presented
itself to her mind. He would hardly believe that she could be
coming up behind him without having met Maria, who had certainly
been with him and whom she had just left. He would not like to feel
that this had happened, and that she might even have seen them
together. It would be more tactful to be frank.
She spoke as soon as she was close to him.
‘Good evening, Balduccio,’ she said pleasantly. ‘Will you help me
to find a closed cab?’
He took off his hat without showing any surprise, and smiled as if
not at all disturbed by the meeting. But then, thought Teresa, he
always had good nerves and was a man of the world.
‘We can get one at the Piazza Barberini,’ he said, lengthening his
stride to keep up with her, for he saw that she was in a hurry.
‘Can we? I feel one of my chills coming on, and I must either
run to keep warm or get a closed carriage somewhere. Do you mind
walking fast?’
‘Not at all.’
‘Because you were walking very slowly when I saw you.’
‘Was I?’ He seemed very vague about it.
‘Yes!’ she laughed. ‘Dear old Balduccio! You are just the same
reserved, formal silly old thing you were when we went to the
dancing-class at Campodonico’s, ever so long ago!’
‘Am I?’
‘Yes. But as I just happened to meet Maria, you need not pretend to
be vague. You know how frank I am, so I’m sure you would rather be
sure at once that I know, and that I will not tell any one!’
’Dear friend,’ returned Castiglione blandly, ‘what in the world are
you talking about?’
Again Teresa laughed gaily.
‘Always the same! But as I met Maria Montalto only a moment ago,
it’s not of the slightest use to tell me that you two have not
been for a little walk together! Do you think I blame you? Haven’t
you behaved like a couple of saints for more years than I like to
remember? No one can find any fault with you, of course, but for
Heaven’s sake walk in the Corso, or in the Via Nazionale, where
every one can see you, instead of in such a place as this!’
‘But I have not met the Countess at all,’ answered Castiglione with
some annoyance, when she paused at last to take breath.
‘Oh! Oh! Oh!’ she cried, shaking her finger at him. ‘It’s very
wrong to tell fibs to an old friend who only wishes to help you!’
‘You may think what you please,’ he answered bluntly. ‘I have not
met the Countess this afternoon. I have been to see a sculptor who
has his studio in this street.’
‘Oh, yes!’ cried Teresa incredulously. ‘And Maria told me she had
been to confession.’
‘If she said so, it is true. If we had met we should have stopped
to speak. We might have walked a little way together. But we have
not met.’
Teresa Crescenzi did not believe him. She had managed to get rid
of her veil while walking, and without being noticed by him. Women
can do such things easily when a man is very much preoccupied about
other matters.
‘As you like,’ she answered, and her tone was anything but
complimentary to his truthfulness.
But he did not take up the question after having once told her
the truth, and when he opened the door of the cab they found
in the Piazza Barberini there was a distinct coolness in their
leave-taking. He gave the cabman her address and went away on foot
down the crowded Tritone towards the city. When he had walked a
quarter of an hour he looked at his watch, stopped a policeman, and
asked for the nearest public telephone office.
He called for Maria Montalto’s number and was answered by Agostino,
the butler. He inquired whether the Countess would speak with him
herself, and presently he heard her voice.
‘I am Castiglione,’ he said. ‘Is it true that Teresa Crescenzi
met you in the Via di San Basilio when you were walking home from
confession half an hour ago?’
‘Yes--but how----’
He interrupted her at once.
‘I am in a public office, shut up in the box, but be careful what
you say unless you are alone. I met Teresa a moment after she had
spoken to you, and she pretended to know that we had been together
in one of those quiet streets.’
‘How abominable!’
‘I had been to see Farini, the sculptor, close by San Nicolo. It
was natural that Teresa should suppose we had met, but I was angry,
and so was she because I denied what she said. I’m afraid she will
repeat the story.’
‘Why should I care?’ Maria’s voice was rather sharp.
‘I care, on your account, so I have warned you.’
‘Thank you. You will come to-morrow?’
‘To-morrow, at half-past two, if you will receive me. Good-bye.’
‘You shall have the answer then. Good-bye.’
Maria went back to Leone, who was having his supper. The child
was unusually silent, and ate with the steady, solemn appetite of
strong boys. When he had finished he got up and gravely examined
his armoury before going to bed, to see that his weapons were all
clean and neatly hung in their places. There were two toy guns,
with a tin revolver, a sword-bayonet, and a sabre. He went through
this inspection every evening, and Maria sat by the table watching
him while Agostino took away the things.
When the servant was gone the boy came and stood beside his
mother’s knee and looked up into her face earnestly.
‘I’m sorry,’ he said, after a long time.
‘For what, dear?’
‘You’ve been crying because I asked questions about papa. I’m
sorry.’
She leant forward and took him in her arms quietly, and made him
sit astride of her knees and look into her eyes while she held him
by the wrists.
‘Little man,’ she said gently, ‘if you ever say anything that hurts
me I promise to tell you just what it is, because I know you will
never mean to hurt me, even when you are grown up. It was nothing
you said that made me cry this afternoon, so there’s nothing for
you to be sorry for--’ she smiled and shook her head--‘nothing,
darling, nothing, nothing!’
Leone smiled too.
‘I’m glad,’ he said, and then his face grew grave and thoughtful
again.
Maria wondered what was going on in his small head during the next
few seconds. When he spoke at last she started.
‘Then it was the priest?’ he said with conviction. ‘I hate him.’
‘What do you mean, child?’
‘After we came home you put on the grey veil and went out alone.
That is always confession, isn’t it? When you came home you put up
the veil and kissed me. Your cheeks were just a little wet still.
So it was the priest, wasn’t it, who made you cry?’
Maria would not deny the truth.
‘It was something the confessor said to me,’ she answered.
‘I told you so!’ returned the small boy. ‘I hate him!’
He was well aware that if he stayed another moment where he was his
mother would tell him that it was very wrong to hate anybody, so
he struggled out of her hold, slipped from her knees to the floor,
knelt down and began to say his small evening prayer with such
amazing alacrity that Maria’s breath was taken away and she could
not get in a word of rebuke; in spite of herself she smiled over
his bent head and felt very irreverently inclined to laugh at his
manœuvre. But before he had finished her face was very grave, and
when he got up from his knees she spoke to him before she kissed
his forehead.
‘Listen to me, my boy,’ she said. ‘You know that I always tell you
the truth, don’t you?’
‘Yes,’ answered Leone. ‘So do I. It’s cowardly to tell lies. Mario
Campodonico is a coward, and he lies like anything.’
‘Never mind Mario. I don’t want you to say that you hate priests.’
‘It’s the truth,’ retorted the terrible child. ‘Shall I say I love
them?’
‘No. Listen to me. There are good people and bad people all over
the world. So there are good and bad priests, but I think there
are many more good ones than bad ones. You would not hate a good
priest, would you?’
‘N--no,’ answered Leone, rather doubtfully.
‘Then leave the bad ones to take care of themselves, and don’t
think about them. Do you suppose I hate you when you are naughty
and break things in a rage and try to beat the servants? It’s the
naughtiness I hate. It’s not you.’
‘It feels just the same,’ observed the small boy, with great logic.
‘But it’s not,’ answered his mother, trying to keep from laughing.
‘And when you are bigger you will understand that one should not
hate bad men, but the badness in them.’
‘Well, that’s better than nothing! Then I hate the badness in your
priest, who made you cry, and I’d like to hammer it out of him!’
Maria was at the end of her arguments.
‘He meant well,’ she said weakly. ‘I’m sure he meant well.’
‘When he made you cry?’ retorted Leone indignantly. ‘You might just
as well say I mean well when----’
But at this point Maria closed the discussion abruptly by picking
him up with a laugh and a kiss and carrying him off to bed. It was
as much as she could do now, for he was very sturdy and heavy for
his age.
CHAPTER VI
When Castiglione came on the following afternoon Maria was looking
wonderfully well, and so like herself, as she had been within the
first year of her marriage, that he could not help looking at her
very hard. There was only the small patch of white in her dark hair
near the left temple, which Castiglione could not remember; and
there was the black frock. She always wore black or grey now, but
when she was very young she had liked pretty colours.
Castiglione himself was in uniform, for he thought it possible that
he might see Leone, and he would not have broken his promise to the
boy for anything. He was not the man to put on his uniform with the
idea of looking better in it than in a civilian’s clothes, still
less had he any thought of recalling old memories to Maria by such
theatrical means. Men who are hard hitters are rarely theatrical in
small things, though some famous generals, like Napoleon, have been
great dramatic artists.
In Italy the uniforms of the cavalry regiments do not differ as
much as in some other countries, and but for the colour of the
facings and a few smaller details Castiglione’s dress was enough
like the uniform of the Piedmont Lancers to produce a much deeper
impression on Maria than he could have easily understood. The man
himself had changed little. He was a little broader perhaps, his
strong features were a little more marked, his military moustache
was heavier, but that was all. At thirty, or nearly that, he was
much the same active, energetic, good-looking young officer he had
been at two and twenty.
They instinctively took the places they had sat in during his first
visit. The hour was the same, the light in the room was the same,
too; but other things were not the same. Castiglione felt it as
soon as he saw Maria’s face, and she knew it when she heard the
sound of his voice. The ice-wall that had stood between them so
long had melted away; the chasm that separated Maria even from that
barrier was bridged. It would not be easy now to touch hands and
part again for years.
The stern old monk’s words echoed faintly in Maria’s heart: to meet
thus was a deadly risk, perhaps a mortal sin. But the voice was far
away, and Maria was very happy and hopeful, and the old Capuchin
had been a common and ignorant man who could not understand the
pride and self-respect of a Roman lady, nor the generous honour of
such a man as Baldassare del Castiglione.
‘I was right to telephone last night, was I not?’ he asked when
they were seated.
‘Yes, quite right. But Teresa has always seemed to be a good
friend. She may have been annoyed because she had made such a
stupid mistake, but I really don’t think she will gossip about us.’
‘I hope not, though I don’t trust her.’
After this there was a little silence, for he would not make
conversation; and while he waited for Maria to speak, his eyes were
satisfied, and his heart beat quietly and happily because he was
near her. He did not feel the heavy, passionate pulse that used to
throb in his neck when he came near her, nor the dryness in his
throat, with the strange, cool quivering of his own lips. He was
simply and quietly happy, and he trusted himself and her.
‘You have come for your answer,’ she said, after a long time. ‘It’s
of no use to pretend that we have anything else to talk of. We will
be honest with each other. There is no one to hear what we say, and
we have nothing to say now of which we need be ashamed before God.’
Castiglione silently bent his head in assent and waited.
‘The forgiveness you asked of me yesterday, I should have asked of
you, too,’ Maria went on, but her eyes looked down. ‘I ask it now,
before I say anything more.’
‘I don’t understand,’ answered the man. ‘How can I have anything to
forgive?’
‘Balduccio, do you remember the hard words I said to you under the
ilex-trees when we parted?’
‘A condemned man does not forget the words of his sentence.’ His
voice was dull.
‘I called you a coward and a brute, Balduccio, and I called you the
basest of mankind.’
‘It was your right.’
‘No. It was not. I take back those words. I ask your pardon for
them.’
‘What?’ His voice rang in the room, hoarse and strong.
‘I take back every word. I was the coward. I made myself believe
what I said, and I know you would believe it too. I have been a
very wicked woman all these years, Balduccio. I have been wickedly
unjust to you. You must try to forgive me.’
Her voice had sunk very low, for it had been hard to say; but his
almost broke in his throat.
‘Try? Ah, Maria----’
He moved quickly to come near her, and she was aware of it. Still
looking down, she stretched out her hand against him.
‘Sit still!’ she said. ‘Say that you forgive me, if you can.’
‘With all my soul,’ he answered, drawing back into his chair,
obedient to her gesture.
‘Thank you,’ she said, so low that he could hardly hear her.
With that she leaned far back in her low chair and pressed her
fingers upon her eyes without covering her face, and he saw the
warmth come and go in her soft pale cheeks, and then come back
again. Indeed, it had not been easy for her. Presently she opened
her eyes, and folded her hands on her lap, and gazed happily into
his face.
‘I can look at you now,’ she said simply, ‘and it is not wrong.’
‘No, indeed!’
But he did not know what he was saying, nor what he should say,
for in a moment she had changed all the greater thoughts of his
life. She had taken from him the burden of the old accusation which
she had made him believe was just in spite of himself; but it was
like lifting heavy weights from a balance very suddenly; the whole
mechanism of his mind and conscience quivered and trembled when the
strain was gone, and swung violently this way and that.
Presently she was speaking again, and he began to hear and
understand.
‘I am not going to pretend anything,’ she was saying. ‘But I will
not hide anything either. No, I will not! There is nothing to be
ashamed of now, because we have made up our minds that there never
shall be again. We promise each other that, don’t we, Balduccio?’
‘I promise you that, come what may,’ he answered, well knowing what
he said now.
‘And I promise the same, come what may,’ she said. ‘I give you my
word of honour.’
‘You have mine, Maria.’
‘That is enough, and God believes us,’ she said gravely. ‘But now
the truth, and nothing else. We are not going to pretend that we
are like brother and sister. We love each other dearly, and we love
as man and woman, and I am sure we always shall, now and for ever,
in life, and beyond death, and in the life to come. I am very sure
of that.’
He bent his head and nodded slowly, but that was not enough for
her.
‘Are you not sure, Balduccio?’ she asked after a moment.
He looked up suddenly with blazing eyes.
‘I love you now,’ he said. ‘I have loved you all my life. That is
what I know. If there is a God, He knows it, for He made it so, and
it will be so for ever. If not, it will end when we are both dead,
but not before.’
‘It will never end,’ Maria answered. ‘But it must not be a weight
to drag us down, it must be a strength to lift us. It shall be! Say
that it shall be!’
‘I will do what I can.’
‘Balduccio,’ she went on earnestly, ‘it has lifted us already. It
has made you live a better life than other men, though you do not
believe in God. And though it made me a coward for a long time,
it has given me strength to be brave at last, now that we have
met again, strength to tell you the truth, strength to ask your
forgiveness! If it has done all that already, what will it not do
hereafter, if we keep our promise?’
The deep and fearless light was in her dark eyes now, and she spoke
in a heavenly inspiration of purity and peace. Castiglione watched
her with a sort of awe which he had never felt in his life. That
was a brave, high instinct in him that answered her call; it was
the instinct that would have responded if he had been chosen to
lead the forlorn hope in a fight all but lost.
‘You are a saint,’ he said. ‘I am not. But I will try to follow if
you will only lead the way.’
‘No, dear, I am no saint,’ she answered.
He started at the loving word she had scarcely ever used with him,
and she saw his movement and understood.
‘Why not?’ she asked. ‘It is the truth, and we are not the less
safe for saying that we love, now that we have promised. No, I am
not a saint. You have been better than I in all these years, for I
have been unjust to you, but you have borne it patiently and you
have loved me still. That is what I mean when I say that our love
can lift us up. Do you see? Only--we must not forget the others----’
She paused.
‘Montalto,’ said Castiglione gravely. ‘I understand.’
‘My husband and my son,’ Maria said. ‘We owe them a terrible debt.’
Castiglione’s eyes softened.
‘It is for their sakes that we have promised,’ she went on. ‘For
their sakes there must never again be any earthly taint upon our
love, dear.’
Once more the tender word touched him. He passed his hand over his
eyes as if to hide something.
‘If you were only free!’ he sighed.
Maria made a little movement.
‘The very thought of that is wrong,’ she answered bravely. ‘You
must not think of it, you must never say it.’
‘I wish your husband no ill,’ Castiglione answered, in a sterner
tone than she had heard yet. ‘I did him a great injury. I would
make reparation if I knew how. But I am a man, Maria, a man like
any other, and I love you in a man’s way, and if Montalto died I
should want you for my wife, as you should be. We have promised
that between us there shall be no word or thought of which we need
be ashamed, even before your husband, if he were here; but more
than that I will not promise, and that is already as much as any
man could keep.’
Maria shook her head gravely and waited a moment before she
answered.
‘I should owe myself to his memory if he were dead,’ she said at
last. ‘A lifetime of faithfulness, cost what it may, is not enough
to expiate what I did.’
Castiglione judged her as men judge the women they love, and he
knew that for the present it was useless to oppose her. He folded
his hands and listened, and she did not see that his fingers
strained upon each other; nor could she guess that his heart was
not beating as quietly now as when he had sat down opposite her a
little while ago.
‘That is the one condition on which we can see each other,’ she
went on. ‘There must be no thought of any earthly union--ever! If
you feel that you are strong enough for that, Balduccio, then come
back to Rome as soon as you can. If you can exchange into your old
regiment again, do so. If not, come now and then, when you can get
leave. We may see each other once a week, at least once a week! The
world cannot blame us for that, after all these years. It will be
little enough, once a week! And sometimes, perhaps, we might meet
in some gallery, in some quiet museum where only the foreigners go,
and we could walk about and talk, and the world will never know it.’
Castiglione smiled at her innocent ignorance of lovers’ tricks,
for he was quieter now, and very happy at the thought of seeing
her often. It would never have occurred to him to do the foolish
thing of which Teresa Crescenzi had suspected him on the previous
afternoon.
‘The great matter is that I am to see you,’ he said; ‘that the
separation is over, and that we love each other!’
‘That--yes! Oh, that above and beyond all things, and for ever and
ever.’
The lovelight was in her eyes as she gazed at him, and her parted
lips were delicately beautiful. Again his hands pressed one another
very hard, and he felt that he set his teeth. He suddenly wondered
how long he could keep his promise, and by what manner of death
he would choose to end his life when he felt that he was going to
break it. She was putting upon him a heavier trial and a far harder
expiation than she knew. Her eyes were so dark and tender, her
parted lips were so sweet to see! In her reliance on herself and
him she had already loosened the great restraint that had bound her
since the evil hour; she cared not to hide the outward looks of
love. She even longed to see in his eyes what she felt in her own.
‘You love me less than I love you, dear,’ she said softly. ‘You are
less happy than I am, because we are to meet often!’
Without a word Castiglione rose from his seat and went to the
window at the further end of the room, and stood there, looking
down through the slits of the blinds. Maria half understood, and
sighed.
‘Forgive me,’ she said, rather sorrowfully.
‘I’m only a man, Maria,’ he answered, turning his head. ‘You must
not make it too hard for me. I love you in a man’s way, and you
have made me promise to love you in yours. I must learn, before I
can be sure of myself.’
Maria reflected a moment. Her thoughts were full of an ideal
sacrifice.
‘Balduccio!’ She called to him gently, for he was looking down at
the street again. ‘Shall I give you back your word and tell you to
go away for a long time, if it’s going to be so hard for you?’
‘No!’
The single syllable was rough and strong, for he resented what she
had said. She rose too and went to him at the window.
‘Are you angry with me?’ she asked humbly.
His hand grasped her bare wrist and tightened upon it almost as if
he meant to hurt her, and he spoke in short, harsh sentences.
‘No, I am not angry. I love you too much. You don’t understand what
I feel. How should you? I’ve been as faithful to you as you’ve
been to your husband all these years. And now I’m with you, and we
are alone, and we love each other, and I’m nothing but a man after
all--and if you look at me in the old way I shall go mad or kill
you.’
He drew her wrist roughly to him and kissed her hand once,
roughly, and dropped it. He had done that in the old days too, and
Maria saw it all again in a violent flash, as men see danger ahead
in a storm at night, lit up by quivering lightning.
She drew breath sharply and turned away from him. She leaned upon
the mantelpiece and rested her throbbing forehead upon her hands.
‘Oh, why have we these earthly bodies of ours?’ she moaned. ‘Why?
why? Why could not God have made us like the angels?’
‘Why not, indeed!’ echoed Castiglione, in bitter unbelief.
‘Even like the fallen angels!’ she cried desperately. ‘They fell
by pride, but not by this! Are there not temptations for heart and
soul and mind enough to try us, to raise us up if we overcome, to
damn us if we yield? Enough to send us to hell or heaven--without
this? O God, that what Thou hast made in Thine own image should be
so vile, so vile, so vile!’
Her despair was real; her cry came from an almost breaking heart.
Castiglione came to her now and laid his hand gently upon her
shoulder.
‘Maria! Look at me, dear! Don’t be afraid!’
She raised her head timidly from her hands and turned her eyes
slowly to him, more than half afraid. But when she saw that his own
were calm and grave again, she gave one little cry of relief and
buried her face upon his shoulder, clinging to him with both hands;
and her touch did not stir his pulse now.
‘No, I’m not afraid of you!’ she softly cried. ‘It was only a
moment, dear, only one dreadful moment, for I trust you with myself
as I would trust you with my soul! Sometimes--’ she looked up
lovingly to his face--‘sometimes each of us must be brave for both,
you know. As we are now, you might even kiss me once and I should
fear nothing!’
He smiled and bent down and kissed her cheek; and there was no
thought in him that he would not have told her. But then he gently
took her hands from his shoulder and made her sit down as they had
sat before.
‘That was not wrong, was it?’ she asked, with a happy smile.
‘No,’ he answered quietly, ‘there was no wrong in that, neither to
you nor to the others.’
‘I’m glad,’ she answered, ‘so glad! But it would not be right to do
it often.’
‘No, not often. Not for a long time again.’
They were both silent in the ebbing of the tide which at the full
had nearly swept them from their feet. At heart, in spite of all,
there was something strangely innocent in them both. Castiglione’s
friends would have wondered much if they could have understood
him, as some of the graver sort might. Few men of his age, beyond
the cloister, knew less of women’s ways and women’s love than he;
few soldiers, indeed, and surely not one of his brother officers.
To wear the King’s uniform ten years in the gayest and smartest
cavalry regiment of the service is not a school for austere virtue
or innocence of heart. All that Castiglione’s comrades noticed
was that he talked but little of women, who were often the chief
subject of the others’ conversation, and that he was very reticent
about the ones he knew. They respected him for that, on the whole,
though they sometimes chaffed him a little in a friendly way. They
all agreed among themselves that he had some secret and lasting
attachment for a woman of their own class whose name he succeeded
in keeping from them in spite of their repeated attempts to find
it out. He was such a manly man that they liked him the better
for it; the more, because great reticence was not their own chief
quality. For the rest, though, he was poorer than most of them,
he was always ready to join in anything except a general raid on
womankind. He played cards with them, and when he could lose no
more, he said so; he was honest in matters of horseflesh and gave
sound advice; he never shirked his duty and left it for another
to do; he was good-natured in doing a comrade’s work when he was
asked to do it for any good reason; he was the best rider in the
regiment, and he never talked about what he had done, or could
do, with a horse; he was not over clever, but he was good company
and told a story with a touch of humour; and he never borrowed
from a brother officer, nor refused to lend, if he had any money.
Altogether, he was the best comrade in the world and everybody
liked and respected him, from the rather supercilious colonel, who
was an authentic duke, and the crabbed old major, who had been
wounded at Dogali, to the rawest recruit that was drafted in from a
Sardinian village or a shepherd’s hut in the Apennines.
But none of all those who liked and respected him guessed that in
the arts of love he was considerably behind the youngest subaltern
in the regiment, at least, so far as his own experience was
concerned, for he could have written volumes about that of the rest
as described by themselves. As a cadet, indeed, he had not been
a model of austerity; but he had fallen in love with Maria a few
days after he had received his commission, and such as he had been
then he had remained ever since, except for her. If his colonel
had known this, he would have smiled sarcastically and would
have said that Castiglione was a case of arrested development,
the old major would have stared at him stupidly without in the
least comprehending that such a man could exist, and the rest of
the mess would have roared with laughter and called him a crazy
sentimentalist. But none of them knew the truth, and he had lived
his life in his own way. There are not many men in the great world
like Baldassare del Castiglione, but there are a few; and in the
little world, in simple countries, there are more of them than the
great world ever dreams of.
This long digression, if it be one, is to explain why Castiglione
accepted Maria’s strangely exalted plan for the future of both,
instead of telling her quite frankly that the chances in favour of
its success were too small for poor humanity to count upon, and
that the best way was to part again and to meet very rarely or not
at all, until the fire of life should be extinguished in the grey
years, and they could look at each other without seeing so much as
a spark of it left in each other’s tired eyes. That is what he
would have done, as a man of honour, if he had known as many other
women of his own class intimately as some of his comrades did.
Or, if he had been like them in other things too, and had loved
Maria less truly, he would have sat down to besiege the fortress
he had once stormed, and would have gone to work scientifically to
demolish its defences, making pretence of accepting the trusting
woman’s generous offer in order to outwit and conquer her by slow
degrees. And if he had done either the one or the other, that is to
say, if he had understood women’s ways, this would either have been
the story of a vulgar fault, or it would have ended abruptly with
Castiglione’s departure.
It is neither. Baldassare was innocent enough as well as honourable
enough to believe that he and Maria could keep the promise they had
made; and he loved her so dearly that the prospect of seeing her
often was like a vision of heaven already half realised.
So on that day they began the new life together, trusting that they
could live it faithfully to the end, but truly resolved to part
again for ever if real danger came near them.
They believed in themselves and in each other. Maria had faith in
a higher power from which she was to receive strength; Castiglione
had little or nothing of this, but he said to himself plainly that
if he broke his word he would die for it on the same day, and he
loved mere life enough to think the forfeit a heavy one.
They counted upon themselves and upon each other. There was
nothing to suggest that quite external circumstances might
influence their lives to make the task easier or more difficult
than they anticipated. Most certainly neither believed that there
could be moments ahead which would be harder to bear than those
through which they had already lived.
When Castiglione went away that afternoon they had agreed that he
should come again on the next day but one, and once again before
he went back to Milan, and that he should at once take steps
to exchange into the Piedmont Lancers, if possible, as his old
regiment was likely to remain in Rome fully eighteen months longer.
CHAPTER VII
If Giuliana Parenzo had been one of those nervous, sensitive
women who are always thinking about themselves and fancying that
their friends are on the point of betraying them, she would have
noticed a little change in Maria’s manner after Castiglione’s visit
to Rome. It was not that Maria was at all less fond of her than
before, or less affectionate, or apparently less glad to see her.
It was much more subtle than that. There is a great difference
between a hungry man and a man who merely has an appetite. The one
must have food, the other is only pleased to have it. Giuliana’s
friendship had long been a necessity to Maria, but it now sank to
the condition of being merely an added satisfaction in her life.
Formerly she would not have given it up for anything else; but now,
if she could have been forced to choose between Castiglione and
Giuliana, she would have given up her friend.
The Marchesa, however, was not a sensitive or nervous woman, and
she noticed nothing of the change that had taken place. She was
therefore very much surprised when her husband spoke to her about
Maria. It was late in the afternoon, some days after Castiglione
had gone back to Milan, and Parenzo had come home tired from the
Foreign Office and was smoking in his wife’s dressing-room, which
was his favourite resort at that hour. Like many busy women,
Giuliana had her writing-table there, in order to be safe from
interruption, and she was occupied with some notes which had to be
finished before dinner, while her husband sat in a low straw chair
watching her, and devising a new costume for their approaching trip
to England. He had always considered it his especial mission to
superintend his wife’s dress, and his taste was admirable. He was a
small wiry man with a neat reddish beard, not much hair on the top
of his head, and a single eyeglass. But he had an energetic nose
and forehead, and a singularly pleasant smile.
Giuliana finished one of her notes and looked up, and instantly the
smile came into his face, for he was quite as much in love with her
as when he had married her. She looked pleased, and nodded to him
before taking another sheet of paper.
‘I wanted to ask you about Maria Montalto,’ he said suddenly,
arresting her attention.
Giuliana looked a little surprised, and laid down her pen.
‘Yes, dear. What do you wish to know about her?’
‘You are just as intimate with her as ever, are you not?’ he
inquired.
‘Oh, yes! What could come between us? Why do you ask?’
‘Because if you are as good friends as you always used to be, I
think you had better tell her that people are talking about her. I
like her, too, and it is a great pity that anything disagreeable
should be said, especially if there is no ground for it.’
‘I’m sure there is none,’ said Giuliana promptly. ‘What is the
gossip about her?’
‘That she is seeing too much of Baldassare del Castiglione.’
‘He is in Milan, my dear. How can she see much of him? What
nonsense! Really, Mondo, you should not repeat such stuff to me!
It’s too absurd!’
Parenzo’s first name was Sigismondo, of which Mondo is the
diminutive. He shook his head quietly at his wife’s rebuke.
‘I know he is in Milan,’ he answered. ‘But he was here for a
fortnight a while ago, and people are saying that they met every
day. When he did not go to see her early in the afternoon, they met
in quiet corners and walked together.’
‘I suppose that by “people” you mean Teresa Crescenzi,’ laughed
Giuliana. ‘She is the mother of all gossip, you know.’
‘It was de Maurienne who told me,’ rejoined Sigismondo.
‘That’s the same thing!’ Giuliana laughed again.
‘Oh, is it? I did not know. You don’t say so!’
Parenzo seemed amused and interested. Monsieur de Maurienne was a
second secretary of the French Embassy, a rich man with artistic
tastes, who gave out that if he were ordered to any other post he
would leave the service and continue to live in Rome.
‘Teresa means to marry him,’ Giuliana explained. ‘I daresay she
will. Of course, the story about Maria comes from her. There is not
a word of truth in it. Castiglione is gone to Milan and may not
come back for years.’
‘My dear, I’m always ready to take your opinion in such matters.
But this afternoon Casalmaggiore--you know who I mean?’
‘The Colonel of Piedmont Lancers?’
‘Yes. He dropped in to see me at the Foreign Office about a
special passport for a friend of his, and he happened to say that
Castiglione had asked to exchange back into his old regiment, and
that the matter would certainly be arranged, as every one liked him
so much. The Colonel was very curious to find out whether there
was a lady in the case, and what her name might be. He seems to
have plenty of curiosity, Casalmaggiore! I said I knew nothing
about Castiglione’s love affairs, and I did not refer him to Teresa
Crescenzi, for he was the last man she tried to marry before de
Maurienne! That was all.’
Giuliana looked at her husband gravely.
‘I did not know that Castiglione wished to come to Rome,’ she said.
‘I doubt if Maria knows it, and I’m almost sure she will not be
pleased.’
‘I should not think she would,’ answered Sigismondo Parenzo. ‘And
I’m quite sure that she won’t like to have her name coupled with
his. Go on with your notes, my darling. If you think it best to
speak to her, do so. Whatever you do will be right.’
‘I hope so, dear,’ answered Giuliana rather vaguely.
Then she smiled at her husband again and went on writing.
Maria was very far from guessing that she was already so much
talked of. She had lived so long in the pleasant security of a
half-retirement from the world, and in the halo of semi-martyrdom
created by Teresa Crescenzi’s original story, that she fancied
herself unwatched and her behaviour uncriticised. She would
certainly never have thought of connecting any change in Teresa’s
disposition towards her with the fact that they had met in a
lonely street after sunset, both wearing veils and telling each
other that they had been to confession. She had not even taken the
trouble to suspect that Teresa had not told the truth; still less
had she guessed that Teresa was just then at a critical moment of
her existence and was playing a very dangerous game in the hope
of marrying Monsieur de Maurienne. Maria did not even know where
he lived; and if she had ever bestowed a thought upon that, she
would have supposed that he had rooms in the Embassy at the Palazzo
Farnese.
She was too happy now to think about indifferent people. She had
seen Baldassare twice again before he had left, and each time
it had seemed easier and more delightful to be with him. He had
behaved perfectly, and had shown that he was in earnest and meant
to lead the ideal life of innocent and loving intercourse which she
had planned for herself and him. Between their meetings she had
written him long and eloquent letters, breathing peace, and hope,
and an undying love in a sphere far beyond this daily, earthly
life. He had answered those letters by shorter ones that echoed
them and promised all they asked. When he had come again he had
stayed over an hour; when he came the last time he stayed almost
all the afternoon, and Maria had boldly told Agostino that she
was not at home for any one except the Marchesa di Parenzo. There
was surely no harm in saying this, she thought, although she knew
quite well that Giuliana and her husband were gone to Viterbo in
a motor-car and would not return till late in the evening. She
told herself that by some unforeseen accident they might come
back sooner, and that Giuliana might appear about tea-time; and
that it was therefore quite honest and truthful to tell Agostino
that the Marchesa was to be admitted, if she came, well knowing
that the chances were about ten thousand to one against anything
so disagreeable. The improbable had happened twice lately--Maria
had chanced to meet Castiglione at Saint Peter’s, and Teresa
had chanced to meet him just after meeting her. Those were two
coincidences, both of which had produced more important results
than might have been anticipated; but it was not likely that there
should be any more for a long time.
Giuliana did not come back unexpectedly, and Maria and Castiglione
were alone together from half-past two till nearly six; and during
all that time there was no approach to anything which might have
disturbed her certainty that they were both sure to keep the
promise they had made. When they parted she laid both her hands on
his and looked up into his face a little expectantly. He might have
given her one harmless kiss when he went away. But he did not. He
shook his head and smiled, and he went away.
She was proud of him then; she was also a very little disappointed,
though she would not have acknowledged it for worlds. He was right,
of course.
When he had left Rome she made an examination of her conscience,
for somehow she found it very hard to do so when she was expecting
to see him soon. She was alone with herself now, and she felt
strong and satisfied in every way, except that she longed to see
him again. She smiled when she remembered the grim old Capuchin’s
words. A deadly risk? A mortal sin? What risk had she run with
such a man as Castiglione? What mortal sin had she committed? She
thought of her life during the past years with amazement now. Why
had she suffered so much and so uselessly? Why had she never told
herself the truth, faced it, humbled herself to tell it to him, and
found peace in all those years? There had been a few hard moments
when she had done it at last, it was true; but they were forgotten
now.
Yet there was one thing she must do, and she must do it at once.
She would not go back to the Capuchin, but she would certainly
go to some other confessor, not her own, and make sure that she
had found absolution, not for what she had done lately, since she
was absolutely sure that she had done right, but for that long
unacknowledged moment of weakness years ago. No priest in his
senses could refuse her absolution for that.
She meant to be as careful and scrupulous as she had ever been
in the hardest days; but it was not easy to feel very humble and
repentant just when she was so very happy, just when she felt that
the new life was lifting her up, together with the man she loved so
well.
It did not seem wrong either to go to a confessor whose name she
knew, and who had the reputation of being a very mild man, who
always took the most gentle and charitable point of view. She had
once heard Giuliana say with a laugh that he must have listened to
some astounding confessions in his day, stories that would make
one’s hair stand on end, because he was such a mild man, and so
charitable; but even Giuliana admitted that he was as good as he
was kind. There was no reason why Maria should not go to him.
She made an appointment with him in a quiet and remote church; she
put on the grey veil and went in a cab in the afternoon, and she
got what she hoped for. She came home, and Leone was waiting for
her; and when she turned up the veil and kissed him there was a
bright smile in her face.
He looked at her critically for a moment.
‘To-day it was a good priest,’ he said, in a satisfied tone. ‘I
don’t hate this priest. You should always go to this one!’
‘Perhaps I shall,’ Maria answered, still smiling.
Early next morning she went out again, and knelt at the altar rail
of the little new oratory that stands in a side street not far from
where she lived, and a young priest with a martyr’s face came and
gave her the Sacrament; and all was still and peaceful and happy;
and she came home after her meditation, feeling that everything
was right in heaven and earth, and that there could be no more sin
in the world, and she would not even think of that bitter moment a
week ago when she had bowed her head upon her hands and had cried
out bitterly against the miserable weakness of this dying body.
She had her tea and toast in her dressing-room, and Leone sat at
the same little table and had his breakfast with her. She did not
quite dare to look at him just then, but his presence somehow made
her almost mad with happiness. She felt that God had taken away the
reproach at last, and that she had a right to her son.
So they laughed and talked, and she made beautiful plans for days
in the country together, and for a month at Anzio in the hot
weather, or even two, and Leone was to learn to swim and was to go
out sailing with her, and they were to be just ‘we two.’ But were
there soldiers at Anzio? Not only there were soldiers, but there
was a firing ground for big guns, with butts, and sometimes one
heard the cannon booming all the morning, and one could see the
smoke come out and curl up after each shot. This was almost too
much for the small boy, and he too went almost mad with joy and
broke out with the brazen voice of healthy small-boyhood, yelling
the tune of the royal march and brandishing his spoon over his
head as if it were a sabre and he were leading a charge of cavalry.
Then Destiny knocked at the door.
‘Come in,’ said Maria Montalto cheerfully.
Agostino brought a telegram, and she took it eagerly from the
salver and tore it open. It could only be from Castiglione--the
news that he had got his exchange into his old regiment. There was
no one else in the world who would be likely to telegraph to her.
Then she read the printed words.
‘My mother died peacefully last night. A letter follows
to-day.--DIEGO.’
Maria’s face changed suddenly, and grew grave and thoughtful.
Leone, who had stopped singing, laid down his spoon and watched
her. He did not think she looked as if anything had hurt her very
much, but he saw that something serious had happened.
She read the telegram over again, and folded it before she looked
up at him.
‘Your grandmama is dead, my dear,’ she said gently. ‘She died last
night. You never saw her, but you will have to wear black for a
little while.’
‘Was it papa’s mother?’ asked Leone.
‘Yes, dear. He telegraphs that he will write to-day.’ She looked
out at some green trees which she could just see through the open
window. Leone was reflecting on the news.
‘Was she good or bad?’ he asked presently.
Maria looked round and smiled faintly at the abrupt childish
question.
‘She was a good woman, darling.’
‘Is papa like her?’ asked the boy.
‘Yes,’ Maria replied, after a moment’s thought. ‘Yes, he is like
his mother, I think. She was a very grand old lady with dark eyes
and iron-grey hair.’
‘Am I like papa?’ inquired Leone.
‘No, dear. You are not like him.’ Maria rose from the table rather
quickly.
‘Why not, mama?’
‘I cannot tell,’ answered Maria from the window, and not looking
round.
‘Because most of the boys are, you know,’ continued Leone. ‘There’s
Mondo Parenzo, and Mario Campodonico, and----’
She could have screamed.
Happily Leone remembered no more striking family likenesses just
then, and presently she heard him get down from his chair and go
off, as he had a way of doing when no one paid attention to what he
said. It was also time for the morning inspection of his weapons,
and he had lately noticed a slight tendency to rust about the
breech of his newest tin gun, which worked just like a real one,
and made nearly as much noise.
When Maria was alone she recovered herself almost instantly, and
when her maid came to her she was quite calm. She began to give
orders about mourning, for in Rome that matter is regulated by
custom with the most absolute precision, to the very day, and not
to conform to the rules is regarded as little less than an insult
offered to the family of the relative who has died. Montalto had
a good many more or less distant relations in Rome, but it was not
only out of consideration for them that Maria went into mourning
on that very day and dressed Leone in black and white; if there
was one being in the world whose sorrow she was bound to respect
outwardly as well as in every other way, that man was her husband.
The death of the Dowager Countess of Montalto was in itself a
matter of indifference to her; she was much more affected by the
announcement that a letter from Montalto himself would soon be on
its way to her, and by the fact that she would have to answer it.
Years had elapsed since the two had written to each other, and the
moment of her final reconciliation with Castiglione and with her
conscience was not the one she would have chosen for renewing her
correspondence with the husband she had injured.
Meanwhile she telegraphed a short and formal message expressing her
profound sympathy for his bereavement. More than this she could not
do.
She wrote to Castiglione later in the morning, for they had agreed
that they would write very often, and she interpreted this to mean
every day. But writing was very unsatisfactory now, and she felt a
mad desire to see him and hear his voice. It was not that she had
any great trouble to tell him, and when she had written down the
news of the Countess’s death it seemed a very small matter compared
with what filled her heart to overflowing. She poured out her love
in words she would hardly have spoken if he had been beside her,
lest the great promise should be endangered. She told him truly
that he was the light of her life and the glory of her heart, and
that no woman had ever loved him as she loved him; and this indeed
was true, and she knew it. She called him heart of her heart and
soul of her soul, she blessed him, she prayed for him, she bade
him believe as she believed, lest death should part for ever what
Heaven had at last made one. She wrote long and eloquently, she
pressed innocently passionate kisses upon the last words, and she
sent the letter on its way without reading it over.
She busied herself in all sorts of ways that day; she could not
find enough to do, enough to plan, enough to occupy her thoughts;
and though she did all cheerfully, telling herself that she was as
happy as she had been in the early morning, there was something
that hurt her, somewhere in her heart.
Giuliana came to dine alone with her that evening. Afterwards they
sat together a long time, talking of many things not especially
important. Then Maria spoke at last.
‘Giuliana, tell me something. Do you think Leone is like his
father?’
Her friend looked at her steadily for three or four seconds before
she answered.
‘Yes, dear. He is very like him already.’
Maria bent her head and looked at her hands before she answered.
‘I think so, too,’ she said. ‘Thank you for telling me frankly.’
Giuliana saw that the moment was favourable for saying more, and
after a little pause she leant forward in her chair, with her
elbows on her knees and her chin resting on her joined fingers.
Maria knew that something important was coming.
‘What is it?’ she asked.
‘Teresa has been talking about you again, dear,’ said Giuliana.
‘Has she invented a new story?’
‘Yes. She is telling every one that you have been seeing a great
deal of Balduccio.’
Maria bent her smooth brows a little, and asked to be told
more precisely what Teresa had said. Giuliana repeated to her
what Parenzo had told her, and Maria listened in silence. The
Marchesa concluded by saying that whether it were true or not that
Castiglione was coming back to Rome, Maria ought to know what the
Colonel had said about it. Maria nodded thoughtfully and still
looked down.
‘That much is true,’ she said at last. ‘He is coming back,
if he can exchange. But the rest, about our meeting in quiet
streets--that is pure invention.’
Giuliana looked grave. She had known something of the truth during
all these years, and she had understood her friend, as she thought,
and had silently sympathised with her steady effort to atone for
her fault. Very good women generally draw a sharp dividing line in
such cases. Giuliana had always been sorry for Maria and had helped
her in many ways, without asking any confidences, to recover her
self-respect and the relative esteem of the people amongst whom
she lived. But the idea that Maria should ever again, under any
imaginable circumstances, meet and talk with Castiglione, even in
the most innocent way, was revolting to Giuliana, and it was long
since she had received such a shock as disturbed her equanimity
when Maria admitted the truth of what the Duca di Casalmaggiore had
told Parenzo. Her face changed instantly, she leaned back again
in her chair, folded her arms, and looked at the mantelpiece.
Altogether she assumed an attitude of resistance, and Maria
understood that she was displeased.
‘You think I am wrong to let him come back, don’t you?’ Maria
asked, rather timidly.
‘Yes,’ Giuliana answered without the least hesitation, ‘I do.’
‘I will try and tell you what I feel and what I hope,’ Maria said.
‘You will understand me then, I’m sure. You will think I may be
right.’
‘I doubt it,’ replied the Marchesa, but her crossed arms relaxed a
little, and she settled herself to listen to her friend’s story.
Maria spoke quietly at first. She did not mean to tell all when
she began, but by degrees she felt that nothing less than the
whole truth could justify her in her friend’s eyes. She talked on
nervously then, sometimes in a tone of passionate regret, sometimes
in a strain of exaltation; she spoke very truthfully of facts, she
even told of her interview with Monsignor Saracinesca and of her
confession to Padre Bonaventura, the Capuchin monk, and all this
was clear enough. It was when she gave the rein to her imagination
and described the ideal life of innocent love and trustfulness
which she hoped to lead with Baldassare that Giuliana stopped her
abruptly.
‘It is not possible,’ said the Marchesa. ‘You should not think of
such things. One can forgive a single fault in those one is very
fond of, but to forgive another is quite a different matter!’
‘There is no danger,’ Maria answered confidently. ‘But as for
forgiving, the Bible says something about seventy times seven!’ she
smiled.
‘My dear,’ rejoined Giuliana, with the unconscious humour of a
virtue beyond all attack, ‘seventy times seven would be a great
many, in practice. Besides, there is danger, I am sure. A woman
capable of rising to the moral height you talk of must certainly
feel an insurmountable horror of seeing the other man as long as
her husband is alive. If she can forgive herself and him, she has
not a very delicate conscience, it seems to me! She might possibly
see him once, but after that she would beg him to stay away, out
of respect for her absent husband, against whom any more meetings
would be an offence. And besides, every one knows that there is
nothing more absolutely false, and ridiculous, and impossible than
a friendship based on love! I’m sorry if you do not like what I
say, Maria, but I tell you just what I think!’
‘You do, indeed!’ answered the younger woman, in a hurt tone.
‘I cannot help it,’ said Giuliana. ‘You have told me some things
about yourself this evening which I never dreamt of, but nothing
you have told me has had any effect on what I thought from the
first. You are doing very wrong in letting Castiglione come back.
You ought never to see him while your husband is alive. That is
what I think, and I shall never say it again, for it is of no use
to give the same advice more than once.’
Giuliana rose to go home, for it was half-past ten. Her face was
grave and calm, and a little severe. Maria rose too, feeling as if
a conflict had begun which must in the end force her to give up
either Giuliana or Castiglione.
‘Giuliana,’ she said sadly, ‘you will not throw over our friendship
because you do not approve of everything I do, will you?’
Giuliana faced her and held out her hand frankly.
‘No,’ she answered. ‘I’m not that sort of friend. But if I see you
are going wrong I shall try to save you in spite of yourself.’
‘Thank you, dear,’ said Maria, trying to feel grateful; ‘but I
shall not go wrong. You don’t quite understand me--that’s all.’
‘I hope you are right,’ replied Giuliana, ‘but I believe you are
quite mistaken.’
They did not part very cordially, and when Giuliana was alone in
her carriage she almost made up her mind to save her friend by
force. She thought of writing to Castiglione himself, to tell him
frankly that it was his duty as a man of honour to stay away. He
might possibly have accepted the warning if she had carried out
her intention, but she soon saw many reasons for not interfering so
directly.
‘Beware of first impulses,’ says the cynic, ‘for they are
generally good ones.’
CHAPTER VIII
Two days later Maria received a letter from Castiglione saying
that his return was now a matter of certainty, but that there were
formalities to be fulfilled which would take some little time.
Most fortunately there was a step in the regiment. The crabbed old
major of the Piedmont Lancers was promoted to be lieutenant-colonel
of another regiment, the senior captain was gazetted major, and
Castiglione himself would come back as the junior captain, probably
during the next month.
Maria’s heart beat fast, and she smiled as she thought of
Giuliana’s expressed determination to ‘save her in spite of
herself.’ It was morning, and she went out alone for a walk. It
was good to live to-day, and to move swiftly through the bright
spring air was to be twice alive. She went by the cross streets
to the Via del Veneto and through the Porta Pinciana to the Villa
Borghese. She skirted the racecourse below the Dairy, and stood
still a moment to watch the riders go by. Not far from her she saw
Angelica Campodonico and her young brother Mario riding on each
side of their teacher. The slim young girl sat straight and square
and was enjoying herself, but the boy grabbed the pommel of his
saddle whenever the riding-master looked away, and seemed to stick
on by his heels. He was the boy whom Leone had ‘hammered,’ as he
expressed it, and Maria smiled as she thought of her own little
son’s sturdy back and small, hard fists.
Presently a young lieutenant of the Piedmont Lancers cantered up
on a beautiful English mare. He rode very well, as many Italian
officers now do, and he was evidently aware of it. The familiar
uniform fascinated Maria, and her eyes lingered on it as the young
man rode past her. He saw that she was a woman of the world, and
that she was still young and pretty; and in spite of the deep black
she wore, it at once occurred to him that this was the best place
in the wide ring for jumping his mare in and out of the meadow over
the rather stiff fence. Still Maria watched him, and he might not
have been so pleased with himself if he could have guessed that
she was thinking of another officer who was an even better rider
than he, but who would certainly not have cared to show off before
a pretty lady whom he did not know. And Maria knew that before
long Baldassare del Castiglione would sometimes come and exercise
his horses in the same place, and that she would very probably
happen to be walking that way and would see him. And he would stop
and salute her, and draw up by the outer fence and shake hands
with her and exchange a few words; and his eyes would be as blue
as sapphires, and she would be the proudest woman in the world,
almost without knowing it. So she unconsciously smiled at the young
lieutenant and turned away.
She walked on, and before long she was sitting under the ilex-trees
above the Piazza di Siena. There was a new bench there; or perhaps
it had only been painted. There was water in the fountain, leaping
up and sparkling under the deep green trees. The basin had been dry
on that winter’s afternoon long ago, and the evergreen oaks had
looked much darker. That had been like death; this was life itself.
The past did not exist; it had never existed at all, because it
had all been a horrible mistake, an untruth, and a loathsome sin;
a sin confessed now, an untruth forgiven, a mistake explained and
condoned. In the future all was love; and yet all was right and
truthful and straightforward, as justice itself. Giuliana’s warning
was but the well-meant preaching of a good friend who could never
understand; the grim old monk’s words were far away. Where was the
deadly risk, or the mortal sin? God was strong and good, and would
make all good deeds seem easy; and she and the man she loved would
rise far beyond this dying body, by that good, to be united for
ever in light and peace. Baldassare would believe, as she did, and
in the end they would find heaven together.
She leaned back, and her eyes looked upwards as she sat there
alone, and in all her being there was not the least thought that
was not innocent and pure and beautiful. She communed with herself
as with an angel, and with the image of the man she loved as with
a saint. She felt as she felt sometimes when she knelt at early
morning before the altar rail of the little oratory near her
house, and the young priest with his martyr’s face came softly down
and ministered to her.
She almost trembled when she rose at last to leave the place where
she had been lifted up from the world, the place where she had once
spoken such bitter and cruel words to him who was now once more the
heart of her heart and the soul of her soul. She walked homewards
in a deep, sweet dream of refreshment.
The footman opened the door, and as she entered the small bright
hall she saw a big letter with a black border and Spanish stamps
lying upon some others, and she knew Montalto’s large, stiff
handwriting. Her heart sank, though she had expected the letter for
two days.
She took it with no outward show of emotion, for she felt that
the servant was watching and that he guessed whence it came. In
a steady voice she asked if Leone had come in from his walk with
old Agostino, and the footman told her they were still out. Her
Excellency would remember that the Signorino was gone to the
gardens of the Palazzo Trasmondo to play with his little friends.
Maria went to her sitting-room without calling her maid, and sat
down to read her husband’s letter with closed doors. She felt
strong and brave, and resolved to think of the absent man with all
the respect Giuliana Parenzo could have exacted from her.
It was a very long letter, filling several big black-edged sheets;
but the handwriting was large and stiff, and easy to read, and at
first her eyes followed the words quickly and unhesitatingly.
Montalto was deeply affected by his mother’s death; that was
evident in the short, strained sentences that were painfully formal
save for a heart-broken word here and there. Conscientiously he
told his wife the short story of the illness during the last
days, the last hours, at the last minute, at the end. She read
with a sort of reverence, but she wondered why he gave her every
detail. Had he come to her for sympathy, after all the stern and
unforgiving years that had passed?
Then she took the next sheet, and the truth broke upon her. So far,
he had given her an account of what had happened, of how his mother
had suddenly begun to sink and had died peacefully after receiving
all the Sacraments. But he had not told what her last words had
been.
‘My dear son,’ she had said just before she had closed her eyes for
ever, ‘I have been very unforgiving towards your wife. Perhaps I
have helped to make you so. Promise me that you will go to her and
ask her pardon for me. And be reconciled with her, if God wills
that it be possible.’
She had said all these words with great distinctness, for she had
been calm and fully conscious, and able to speak until the last
moment of her life; and then her heart had stopped beating and
death had come quietly.
Maria held the sheet before her with both her hands, trying to go
on, and determined to read bravely to the end, but it was a long
time before she got to the next words, and she felt as if she had
been unexpectedly condemned to die.
The man she had injured meant to fulfil his mother’s last request
to the letter. For he asked his erring wife’s pardon for the dead
woman who had not been able to forgive her till the end. He asked
her to write out the message to the dead and send it to him.
That would be the easiest part. How could Maria find it hard to say
that she forgave what she had deserved? But the rest was different.
He went on to say that it was not only for his mother’s sake that
he wished to be reconciled: it was for his own. In spite of all, he
loved Maria dearly. He had known how she had lived, how her whole
life since he had finally left her had been an atonement for one
fault; and that one fault he now freely forgave her. He would never
speak of it again, he said, for he was sure that she had suffered
more from it than he himself.
She guessed, as she read, what it must have cost him to say that
much. He earnestly desired a reconciliation. He wished to come back
to Rome to live in his own house, with his wife, before all the
world. With a pathetic inability to put his feelings into words, he
said that he would try to make her happy ‘by all means acceptable
to her.’ Yet he did not wish to force this reconciliation upon
her, for he was well aware that in leaving her he had conferred
on her a measure of independence and had given her good reason to
suppose that he would never come back. Unless she willingly agreed
to what he now offered, he would never come back to Rome; for it
had been one thing to stay with his invalid mother, leaving his
wife to live where she pleased, but it would be quite another
in the eyes of the world if he returned to his own house and his
wife continued to stay in a hired house. Hitherto there had been
no scandal which his authority could not now put down, no open
break which might not still be repaired with dignity. Then, on a
sudden, the writing became less stiff and clear, and the lonely
man’s full heart overflowed. He loved her so dearly--he did not
repeat ‘in spite of all’--why might he not hope to make her happy
at last? In the past he had not known how to show her how tenderly,
how devotedly, he had loved her; he had been but a dull companion
for her; she had been made to marry him almost against her will.
Without again speaking of her fault he was finding excuses for what
he had forgiven. And the burden came back again and again, he loved
her with all his heart. It was no mere empty show of reconciliation
that he offered her, for the sake of his name, for what the world
might say or think. He wished, he asked to be allowed, to take her
back altogether, wholly, as if there had been no division.
Maria held the sheet tight between her upraised hands, but a
painful tremor ran through her to the tips of her fingers, and the
paper shook before her eyes.
She had reached the end now. He had poured out his soul as he
had never done before then to any living being; but quite at the
last line his natural formality returned, he ‘begged the favour
of a speedy reply at her convenience,’ and he signed his name in
full--‘Diego Silani di Montalto.’
After a long time Maria rose from her seat, and her face was almost
grey. She went to her writing-table and opened a small desk with a
simple little gold key she wore on her watch chain. The receptacle
was already half full of Castiglione’s letters, and she laid her
husband’s on top of the heap, shut down the lid, and turned the key
again.
Just then Leone burst into the room, lusty and radiant. He stopped
short when he saw his mother’s face.
‘You have been to see the bad priest again!’ he cried angrily.
‘No, dear, I shall not go to see him again. I have had a great--a
great surprise. Papa is coming back soon.’
CHAPTER IX
Maria did not hesitate, though she felt as if her heart must break
with every throbbing beat. Whether Giuliana Parenzo was just or not
in telling her that she had not a very delicate conscience, she
had at least a strong will and a lasting determination to do what
she thought right, which more than made up for the absence of that
sensitiveness on which her happier friend laid so much stress.
Until Leone asked her what was the matter, her thoughts whirled in
a chaos of pain and darkness, but there was little or no hesitation
in her answer to his question. She wished with all her heart that
she had put him off until there had been nothing in her face to
betray her, and that he might never have connected her too evident
distress with the news she had just received. But she had spoken
because her mind was made up in that moment, and her determination
found words at once; and the child at once hated the man who was
coming back.
She was going to accept the proffered reconciliation outright, if
it killed her, and she really believed that it might. Her dream of
light and peace ended then; she had atoned, perhaps, but that was
not enough. Atonement means reconciling, and such a reconciling
meant to Maria an expiation more dreadful than she had dreamed of.
She remembered only too vividly the material repulsion for Montalto
that had grown upon her quickly in the first months of their life
together, and she knew that it would be stronger now than it had
been then. Yet she must live through it and hide it. To her it
seemed inconceivable that he should wish to come back to her at
all. The nobler sort of women can never understand that men they
dislike can love them, and to be given in marriage to one of them
is a torment and feels like an outrage.
Maria meant to bear it all as well as she could. A woman able to
dream of such a lofty and spiritual love as had appeared possible
to her in a short and unforgettable vision was not one to hesitate
at a sacrifice, much less if justice demanded it. In old Jerusalem
would she not have been stoned to death? Yet that would have been
the quick end of all suffering, whereas Montalto’s return was only
the beginning of something much worse.
It is often easier to forgive than to accept forgiveness. After
Maria had read her husband’s letter there were times when she
wished that all his love for her could be turned into hatred.
He might come back then, to show the world a comedy of a
reconciliation, though he might frankly detest the sight of her; he
might come back and behave to her as he had after she had admitted
her guilt, and never speak to her except from necessity, while
treating her always with that same formal courtesy he had learned
from his Spanish mother. It would have been easy to bear that;
it would have been far easier then to live without seeing the man
of her heart. But to be taken back to be loved, to be cherished
and caressed, to be the instrument of happiness in the life of the
husband she had dishonoured, and whose mere presence and slightest
touch made her writhe--that was going to be hard indeed. Yet she
meant to bear it. In her simple faith she prayed only that it might
be counted to her hereafter as a part of her purgatory.
Castiglione received her letter telling him all the truth and
bidding him stay where he was, if he could, or at least not try to
see her if he were obliged to come to Rome. His first impulse was
to ask for leave again, if only for three days, and to go to her at
once to implore her to refuse Montalto’s offer, to risk anything
rather than let her accept an existence which he knew would be one
of misery. He felt and believed that it would kill her.
In some ways the thought of it was even more revolting to him than
to her. He had been faithful for years to the memory of the love
which he believed he had destroyed in her; but now that all was
changed, now that he knew how she loved him, she was his, his very
own, far more than she had ever been. He felt, too, that she had
really raised him above his old self; that he could really live
near her, see her, talk with her, and touch her hand, and love her
as he had promised, with no shame, or thought of shame, to her
or to himself. Long years of clean living had already made him
different from his comrades, and his unchanging will made a law
for himself which he had never transgressed. Does the world think
that beyond the pale of holy orders, of whatsoever persuasion,
there are no men who live as he did, faithful and true to one dear
memory to the very end? Sometimes what we call the world seems to
know more of its patent evil than of its own hidden good. And where
the good is strong and rules a man’s secret life, it may lead him
far.
But Castiglione was only human, and his jealousy of Montalto was
cruel when it woke again. It had been great in old days, but it
was ten times more dangerous now, for it had been long asleep in
security and it awoke in anger. Maria had not been his own, but
throughout that time no other man had called her his, and now
Montalto claimed her, under his right to forgive an injury if he
chose, and she was going to submit and surrender herself.
He wrote her a passionate letter, imploring her not to ruin both
their lives by giving herself back to her husband, and beseeching
her to see him at once that he might tell her all he could not
write. If he could not get leave again so soon he would come
without, if it cost him a long arrest. Maria was to telegraph her
answer, and if no message came within two days he would start,
whatever happened. As for declining the exchange he had asked, he
could not do that; he would be ordered to join his old regiment in
Rome during the next ten days at the latest, and it was impossible
that he should not meet her sometimes.
For a moment Maria hesitated, for she felt that he was desperate,
and she herself was not far from despair. But something human on
which she had never counted helped her a little. If Castiglione
came suddenly to Rome, it would be known, and it would surely be
said that he had come to see her; if no one else knew it, Teresa
Crescenzi surely would, and would tell every one. She thought of
Montalto’s letter, telling her that he had known of her quiet life,
and that the dignity she had shown had appealed to him. He should
not come back now to be told that he had been deceived, and that
Castiglione made long journeys expressly to see her. Her pride
would not suffer that.
She went out on foot and entered the small telegraph office outside
the railway station, for she could not have sent her message by a
servant’s hand. She took the ink-crusted pen and a flimsy blank
form, and thought of what she should say. The shabby young clerk
at the little sliding window would have to read the telegram, and
perhaps he knew her by sight. She thought a moment longer, and then
wrote a few words:--
‘Impossible. If you really wish to help a person in great distress,
be patient. Await letter.’
This looked very cold when it was written, but she thought it would
do, and she felt sure that Castiglione would obey her request. At
least, he could not leave Milan until he received the letter she
was about to write to him.
It reached him on the following evening, and in the tender,
beseeching words he read what was worse than a sentence of exile.
But he submitted then, for it was as if she spoke to him, and he
could hear every tone of her voice in the silence of his room.
Since she had taken him back to her heart she dominated him by the
nobility of her love, and by her touching trust in his. He read her
letter twice, and then burnt it in the empty fireplace, carefully
setting a second match to the last white shreds that showed at the
edges of the thin black ashes.
‘You are a saint on earth,’ he said to her in his thoughts. ‘You
are good enough to make a man believe in God.’
Perhaps he rose one step higher in that moment, for he was in
earnest. But it had cost him much. For three days he had kept his
valise packed and ready to start at any moment, and he saw it lying
in a corner as he turned from the fireplace. Once again the strong
temptation came upon him to take it and go downstairs. That would
be the irrevocable step, for he knew well enough that if he went so
far as that he would not turn back.
His big jaw thrust itself forward rather savagely as he crossed the
room, picked up the valise, and set it on a chair to unpack it.
When he had put his things away he threw it into a corner, lit a
cigar, and sat down by the open window to watch the people in the
broad street. He hoped that he might not think for a little while.
There was a knock at the door and his orderly came in with a
telegram. He almost started at the sight of the brownish yellowish
little square of folded paper in the man’s hand.
‘Join us at once to ride in military races on Thursday. War
Office telegraphs order exchange to your colonel to-night.
Make haste, in order to rest your horses. Welcome back to the
regiment.--CASALMAGGIORE, _Colonel_.’
Castiglione’s hand dropped upon his knee, holding the open
telegram. The orderly stood motionless, stolidly waiting to be sent
away. He would have waited in the same position till he dropped,
but it seemed a long time before the officer turned his head.
‘Pack everything to-night,’ he said. ‘Telephone in my name to the
station and order a box for the horses as far as Pisa, and be ready
to start with them by the first train to-morrow. I am to join the
Piedmont Lancers in Rome at once. You will spend the night in Pisa
to rest the horses, and come on with them the next day. I will
attend to your leave and pass. Take what you need for yourself for
four days. You will have a day and a night in Rome.’
The orderly was a good man and could be trusted. Castiglione got
into his best tunic, buckled on his sabre, took his cap and gloves,
thrust the telegram into his breast pocket, and went to take leave
of his colonel and his brother officers, wherever he might find
them. He was in no hurry, but it was a relief to get out of doors,
and he walked slowly along the broad pavement, returning the
salutes of the many soldiers who passed him.
It would be quite out of the question to disobey such a summons
as he had just received. Nothing short of a feigned illness
could have excused a short delay, and besides, the wording of
the telegram showed that he was wanted for the honour of his old
regiment in the coming races. He had always been the best rider
of them all, and if the Piedmont Lancers did not make a good
appearance, owing to his voluntary absence, he would not be easily
forgiven; indeed, he would hardly have forgiven himself.
But he would not write or telegraph to Maria that he was coming,
and he was sure that she would not write to him again unless
he answered her letter. Once in Rome, he meant to send her the
telegram he had in his pocket, to prove that he had been ordered
back, and that his coming had not been voluntary. She would see him
then, for it would be different; she could not refuse, as she might
if she thought he had come in spite of her letter. His exchange had
been at most but a matter of days; it had become a matter of hours.
So much the better, since fate condescended to help him a little.
The vision of hope he had enjoyed so short a time rose before him
again. Montalto might not return after all, or he might break his
neck on the way, but Castiglione doubted the probability of such a
termination to his own troubles.
CHAPTER X
The workmen were very busy at the Palazzo Montalto, and the rich
widow from Chicago who occupied one of the large apartments was a
little nervous, for there is a clause in all leases of portions of
Roman palaces to the effect that the owner may turn any tenant out
at short notice if he needs the rooms for his own use; and as the
good lady had not the slightest idea of the real size of the place,
she had long supposed that she was living in the state apartment.
But she need not have disturbed herself and her friends about
that. Montalto would as soon have let the place where his mother
and his wife had lived with him as he would have put up his titles
at auction. He had sent orders that the vast suite was to be got
ready in a month’s time, and as no one had expected that he would
ever come back to live there, the accumulation of dust was found to
be portentous. Moreover, all the carpets had disappeared, no one
knew how, the upholstered furniture was all moth-eaten, the window
fastenings would not work, the mirrors were hopelessly tarnished,
and the ceiling of the ballroom had been badly damaged by the
bursting of a water-pipe in the apartment over it.
To make matters worse, the old steward of the Roman estates, whose
business it was to keep the palace in order, was in his dotage, and
was expected to have a stroke of apoplexy at any moment.
Then one morning a business-like young man arrived from Montalto,
the great family seat on the Austrian frontier, with instructions
to put matters right, and to lose no time about it. The old Roman
steward flew into a frightful rage because the Montalto steward was
his superior, and promptly had his stroke of apoplexy, which helped
things a little without killing him. The business-like young man
spent one whole day in watching the people at work and never said a
word, but when the evening came, he had them all paid and he turned
them out, to their amazement and mortification. Then he took a cab
and drove to the Via San Martino and asked to see the Countess,
just before she dressed for dinner. He was a very modest young man,
and he waited in the hall for her answer; and when Agostino came
back to inquire more particularly who he was and what he wanted, he
said that he was the chief steward of Montalto and had a message
from His Excellency the Count to Her Excellency the Countess, if
she would be so kind as to receive him. In the eyes of the butler
he at once became an important personage, and many apologies were
offered for having let him wait in the outer hall.
Maria received him in her sitting-room. In her deep mourning she
looked unnaturally pale, and her dark eyes seemed very big. She
pointed to a chair and sat down herself.
The young man lost no time and told her at once that the Count had
sent him to see that the palace was made habitable at once, and
desired that the Countess should be consulted on every point about
which she was willing to give her opinion. She was to select her
own rooms and direct that they should be hung and furnished to her
taste, and the Count would esteem it a great favour if she would
take the trouble to order everything else to be changed as she
thought best, excepting only the late Dowager Countess’s rooms,
which he desired should not be touched. Her Excellency doubtless
knew which those rooms were, and would she be so very kind as
to say when it would be convenient for her to meet her obedient
servant at the palace and to give him her orders. He was instructed
to spare no trouble or expense in order to please her if possible.
Maria recognised her husband’s formal expressions in what the quiet
young man said so fluently. Doubtless Montalto had written every
word of his orders with his own hand, and the steward had read them
over till he knew them by heart. She thanked him and said she would
meet him at the palace the next morning at ten o’clock.
She did not take Leone with her, for she was sure that the great
neglected house would be gloomy beyond description, and she did not
wish him to have a sad impression of the house in which he had been
born, and in which he was now to live. Besides, she could not quite
trust herself, and the small boy’s eyes were marvellously quick to
detect any change in her face.
The places where things very good or very bad to remember have
happened to us are ever afterwards inhabited by invisible ghosts,
kind or malignant, who show themselves to us when we revisit the
spots they haunt, though they never disturb any one else. Maria
knew that; an evil genius had long dwelt under those ilex-trees
in the Villa Borghese, and she had exorcised it, but there were
spectres in her former home that would not be laid. She bit her
lip as she entered the once familiar hall, and saw room after room
opening out beyond it in a long perspective that ended in a closed
door adorned with mirrors in its panels. That door had always been
kept shut when all the others were open; it led into the room that
had been her boudoir. Even at that great distance Maria could see
how dim the old glasses in the panels had become.
She walked slowly through the apartment, looking to the right and
left. Something had been done, but not much. There was a ladder
against a wall in one room and the hangings were half torn down;
a dozen rolls of new carpet lay in confusion in another, redolent
of that extraordinary odour which only perfectly new carpets have;
in one of the halls beyond, a quantity of more or less decrepit
sofas and chairs had been collected and disembowelled, and the
moth-eaten wool and musty horse-hair lay about them in mouldering
heaps; the portraits were still in their places on the walls, and
Montalto seemed to look sadly down from half a dozen frames at his
young wife as she went by in black; there was Montalto in armour
and Montalto in black velvet and ruffles, Montalto in a Spanish
cloak and Montalto in a flowered silk French coat, with a powdered
wig; but it was always Montalto; the likeness between them all from
generation to generation had been amazing, and the old pictures
made Maria nervous.
The young steward, whose name was Orlando Schmidt, walked by her
left, hat in hand, glancing respectfully at her now and then to see
whether she was going to say anything. But her lips were pressed
together, and he fancied that the rings round her eyes grew darker
as she neared the end of the long suite, and still went on towards
the closed door with its tarnished mirrors. She looked very pale
and tired.
‘Will your Excellency sit down and rest a while?’ he asked.
‘Not yet, thank you. Presently.’
And she went slowly on, slowly and steadily, towards the closed
door, till she laid her hand on the chiselled handle and turned it
and pushed against the panel. But it would not move.
‘Perhaps it is locked,’ suggested Schmidt. ‘I had not taken it for
a real door. I thought the apartment ended here.’
‘No,’ Maria answered in a low tone. ‘This used to be my boudoir.
Try and open it. I want to go in.’
The young man tried the handle, put his eye to the keyhole, and
tried again. Then he shook his head.
‘It is not a very strong door,’ said Maria. ‘I think we could break
it open. I want to go in.’
‘I can certainly break it,’ answered Schmidt.
He threw his shoulder against the crack and pushed with all his
might, but though the door creaked a little it would not move.
‘Is there no other way?’ asked Maria impatiently. ‘I must get in!’
‘Oh, yes,’ Schmidt answered, ‘there is another way. I can smash the
lock.’
‘I wish you would!’
He stood back and made a little gesture with his hand for her to
move aside, and before she knew what he was going to do, the heel
of his heavy walking boot struck the lock with the force of a
small battering-ram. The door flew back on its hinges into total
darkness, and there was a crash of broken glass as one of the
mirrors fell from its panel to the marble Venetian pavement.
Maria uttered a little cry of hurt surprise, for what Schmidt had
done seemed brutal to her; but she passed him quickly and went on
into the dark, and the bits of broken mirror cracked under her
tread. She was sure that the room had never been opened since she
had left it, and she went straight to one of the windows without
running against the furniture; the familiar fastenings had rusted
and she could not move them quickly. Schmidt lit a wax-light and
followed, but before he reached her side she had succeeded in
opening the inner shutters, and the bright light from the slits in
the blinds shone into the room through the dim panes.
Maria turned from the window and looked about her. The furniture
stood as she had last seen it. A moment later Schmidt threw open
the glass and the blinds and the violent sunshine flooded the dusty
marble floor, the faded pink silk on the walls, the tarnished
inlaid tables, the chairs, and a little sofa near the fireplace.
‘It is too much!’ cried Maria nervously. ‘There is too much light!’
Schmidt drew the blinds near together without quite shutting them.
When he looked behind him again Maria was sitting on the little
sofa near the fireplace, her face turned from him, and her fingers
were nervously pulling at a rent in the pink silk which tore under
her touch. But the young steward did not notice the action, and was
already making a mental list of the repairs that would be necessary
to make the boudoir habitable again. Maria looked ill, and he
thought she was tired.
But the evil spirit that haunted the place was there, beside her on
the little sofa, and she could hear its demon whisper in her ear.
That was a part of her expiation, and she knew it. Then she spoke
to Schmidt steadily, but without turning her head.
‘I wish everything taken out of this room,’ she said, and she
listened to her own voice to be sure that it did not shake.
‘Everything must be new, the hangings, the ceiling, the furniture,
the fireplace. You see how dilapidated it all is, don’t you?’
She asked the question as if to justify her orders.
‘There is nothing fit to keep,’ answered the steward, ‘except that
inlaid writing-table and the bookcase.’
‘I prefer to have them changed, too,’ said Maria quickly.
‘Everything! Let the new things be dark. There is too much light
here. Not red, either. I hate red. Let everything be dark grey.’
‘A greenish grey, perhaps?’ suggested Schmidt diffidently.
‘Yes, yes! But dark, very dark, with black furniture. Paint this
marble fireplace black----’
‘Black?’ exclaimed the young man, with a polite interrogation.
‘Perhaps it would be better to have a new one of black marble then?’
‘Yes--anything, provided it is changed, and everything is new and
quite different! That is all I want. And my dressing-room was
there.’ She pointed to a second door. ‘My bedroom was beyond it.
I’m sure that door is locked, too. Could you go round by the other
way and see if the key is on that side?’
She turned her white face to Schmidt. He guessed that she had been
moved by some strong association and wished to be alone to recover
herself, and in a moment he was gone; for he was a tactful person.
When she was alone she did not bury her face in the corner of the
tattered little sofa, nor did any tears rise in her tired eyes; she
only sat there quite still, and her head fell forward as if she had
fainted; but her fingers slowly tore little shreds from the faded
pink silk of the sofa.
Schmidt stayed away a long time. She heard his footsteps at last on
a tiled floor in the distance, and raised her hand quickly to cover
her eyes, while her lips moved for a moment. When the steward
unlocked the second door and came in, she was standing quietly by
the window waiting for him.
The worst was over for that day, and though she was still very
pale, she was no longer deadly white, and the haunted look that had
come back suddenly to her eyes was gone. She went through the house
systematically after that, conscientiously fulfilling her husband’s
requests; she gave clear directions about her own rooms and the
one she meant to give Leone, and made many suggestions about the
rest. She showed Schmidt the little apartment once occupied by
her mother-in-law, and advised the steward to have it carefully
cleaned and set in order, since nothing was to be changed in it.
At present, she said, it looked neglected, and the Count would
certainly not like to find it so. Schmidt nodded gravely, as if he
quite understood. She was so quiet and calm now, that he thought
he had been mistaken in thinking her disturbed by some poignant
memory. She had probably felt ill.
When she left the palace at last, she told him to let her know when
the refurnishing was so far advanced as to make a visit from her
necessary, and she thanked him so kindly for his attention that he
blushed a little.
For Orlando Schmidt was a modest and well-educated young man, of a
respectable Austrian family by his father’s side, but an Italian
as to his nationality. He had been to good schools, he had studied
scientific farming at an agricultural institute in Upper Austria,
and he had followed a commercial course in Milan; he had also
learned something about practical building, and was naturally
possessed of tolerably good taste.
‘I hope you will stay here and take charge of the Roman estate,’
said the Countess. ‘I fancy the lands are in as bad a condition as
the apartment upstairs.’
She smiled graciously, and Schmidt blushed again.
‘Your Excellency is very kind,’ he said modestly, as he stood
beside her low phaeton with his hat in his hand. ‘I am lodged here
in the palace, if you need me.’
She drove away, and before the carriage turned the corner of
the palace on the way to the more central part of the city, she
had quite forgotten Orlando Schmidt, though he had made such a
favourable impression upon her.
But the young man stood before the great arched entrance and
watched her till she was out of sight, with an expression she could
not have understood; and afterwards he whistled softly as he turned
back to ascend the stairs again in order to make careful notes of
all she had said about each room. He began in the boudoir, and he
sat down on the little sofa near the fireplace, with his large
note-book on his knee, and wrote busily while her words were still
fresh in his memory. Once or twice he looked towards the door,
which he could see as he sat, and the broken pieces of mirror
caught his eye. He remembered that his Italian mother had once told
him when he was a boy that it was very unlucky to break a mirror.
But he smiled at the recollection, for he was not a superstitious
young man, and had received a half-scientific education.
It was nearly twelve o’clock when Maria left the palace. She had
not realised that it was so late, and she had told the coachman
to take her to a dressmaker’s far down the Corso, near the Piazza
del Popolo. She was to have tried on a couple of frocks which were
necessary to complete her mourning; but the gun-fire from the
Janiculus and the clashing of all the church bells told her that
it was noon already, and too late, for Leone always had his dinner
with her at half-past twelve. She touched Telemaco’s broad black
back with the edge of her parasol to call his attention, and she
told him to go home instead of stopping at the dressmaker’s.
He asked whether he should pass through the Villa by Porta
Pinciana, that being as near a way as any other, and easy for the
horses, and she nodded her assent. She had not been in the Villa
since the day when she had walked there alone, and had gone home
and found Montalto’s letter.
It was a warm spring morning, but the horses trotted briskly up
the main avenue that leads in from the gate, glad to be in the
pleasant shade. Maria lowered her parasol to the bottom of the
phaeton without shutting it, for she knew she should need it again
in a few minutes. There was no other carriage in the avenue just
then, but several riders were walking their horses slowly towards
the gate after exercising them on the course. The first she met
were two civilians, and one of them was Oderisio Boccapaduli. He
recognised her from a distance, and before he was near enough to
bow he glanced quickly behind him, as if he expected to see some
one. She did not know the other man. Oderisio took off his hat, and
she smiled and nodded. Then came a captain of artillery on a strong
Hungarian horse that was evidently in a bad temper and hard to
manage. Maria turned her head to watch them after she had passed,
but her carriage was going at a smart pace and she soon looked
before her again. Not far ahead were two officers of the Piedmont
Lancers, walking their horses and talking together.
One was the same young lieutenant who had jumped his English mare
in and out of the ring for her benefit on that morning when she had
been on foot. She might have met him there any day. The other was
Baldassare del Castiglione, and she had not known that he was in
Rome.
She was so startled that she made a movement to raise her open
parasol and hide her face; but she instantly understood the
absurdity of doing such a thing and dropped it again, and looked
steadily towards the advancing horsemen, though for a few seconds
she could not see them. They were hidden in a fiery mist that rose
between her and them. It dissolved suddenly, and Castiglione was
gravely saluting her; his face was calm, but his eyes were blazing
blue. The young lieutenant raised his hand to his cap almost at the
same instant. With infinite difficulty Maria slowly bent her head
in answer, but she did not turn her eyes as the two men passed her,
and in another moment she had left them behind.
Then she felt that her heart was beating again, for she was sure
that it had quite stopped. But at the same instant her hand
unconsciously relaxed, and her open parasol, which was already half
over the step of the phaeton, flew out, rolled a little way, and
lay in the middle of the road, with the handle upwards.
She sat up quickly and called to Telemaco to stop. But the old man
was a little deaf, and she had to call twice before he checked the
quickly-trotting pair and brought them to a stand.
‘My parasol!’ she cried, as the coachman looked over his shoulder.
‘Give me the reins and get it,’ she added.
She heard the hoofs of a horse cantering up behind her, and she
looked round. Castiglione must have turned in the saddle to look
after her, and must have seen the parasol fall. It lay with the
handle upward, and parasol handles chanced to be long that year. It
was easy for a good rider to bend low and pick the thing up almost
without slackening his pace, and in another moment he was beside
the carriage giving it back to Maria.
‘Thank you,’ she said faintly. ‘I did not know you were in Rome.’
A quick word rose to his lips, but he checked it. Then he bent down
to her from the saddle, on pretence of brushing an imaginary fly
from his horse’s shoulder.
‘I thought you would rather not know it from me,’ he said quietly,
but so low that the deaf coachman could not hear. ‘Good morning,
Contessa,’ he added more loudly, as he straightened himself in the
saddle and saluted again.
He was gone, trotting back to join his companion; but she would not
look after him when she had told Telemaco to drive on. And all the
way home a great wave of joy was surging up round her, to her very
feet, and she was trying to climb higher lest it should rise and
overwhelm her; and she was clinging to something dark, and cold,
and hard as a black marble pillar, that was Montalto, and duty, and
death, all in one.
That afternoon a note came for her, brought to the door by a
trooper and left with the remark that there was no answer.
It contained the telegram Castiglione had received in Milan, and a
sheet of note-paper on which a few words were written in pencil.
‘This explains itself,’ he wrote. ‘It is the inevitable. I shall
not try to see you.’ She knew that she ought to be proud of his
good faith, but it was not easy.
CHAPTER XI
More than a month had passed and it was near the end of May; yet
Maria had not again exchanged a word with Castiglione. She had seen
him twice in the street, from a distance, but she was not sure
that he had seen her the second time. If he saw her, he certainly
wished her to think that he did not. She never went to the Villa
Borghese, nor drove towards Tor di Quinto nor along the beautiful
Monte Parioli avenue, lest she should meet him in one of those
places where officers ride at all hours of the day. On his side, he
avoided the streets through which she was likely to pass. It was
easy enough to do that, and as she was in mourning he was sure not
to find her where people met in the houses of mutual acquaintances.
For he had no intention of shutting himself up, being much too
sensible not to foresee that if he did so people would say he
spent his time with her. He showed himself in many places, on
the contrary, frequented Teresa Crescenzi’s drawing-room at
tea-time, dined assiduously with his cousins the Boccapaduli, at
whose house the old-fashioned Romans congregated, and also with
the Campodonico, and he was often at the Parenzos’ pretty house
in the Via Ludovisi, which was a favourite gathering-place of
the political party then in power, and of that portion of the
diplomatic corps which was accredited to the Quirinal and not to
the Vatican. The Duca di Casalmaggiore had become a friend of
Parenzo’s, and Castiglione took a good deal of pains to be seen
as often as possible in society by his colonel, who was of an
inquisitive turn of mind. In order to make his existence still more
patent in the eyes of his comrades, he lodged with one of them, a
man of his own age who was also not very well off, and who could
hardly help knowing where Baldassare went, what he did, and whether
he received many notes addressed in feminine handwriting or not.
The consequence of all this, and of his assiduity in matters of
duty, was that Teresa Crescenzi’s latest story got little credit,
and his brother officers said that he was ambitious and was going
in for the career in earnest. The colonel, who was a widower with a
son in the navy and a daughter married in Naples, and whom Teresa
had once vainly tried to capture for herself, disliked her and so
effectually ridiculed her invention that the rest of Castiglione’s
comrades fell into the way of laughing at her, too; and they said
that after having failed to marry the colonel she had tried to
catch Baldassare, and now meant to revenge herself because he would
not have her. His chum, too, told them that he certainly had no
secret love affair, and that when he was not on duty or at the
officers’ club, or where every one could see him, he was in his
lodgings reading German books on military tactics. Clearly he was
going in for the career.
He did not act or look like a man in love either; not in the
least. He had not been talkative before he left the regiment, but
since he had returned he took more pains than formerly to join in
the conversation. Another point in his favour was that he never had
any vague engagement which hindered him from joining in anything
that was unexpectedly proposed. Whatever he had to do was open and
definite; when it was not duty, it was a real promise to dine with
some one whom he named, and he took care to have it known that he
went; or else he had agreed to ride somewhere with an acquaintance,
and if any one took the trouble to go to that place, there he was,
sure enough, with the man he had named. In what was left of society
so late in the season, if he once talked especially to any one
woman he gave himself as much pains to amuse and interest another
on the morrow. He was such a model of a sensible man and such a
good officer that the colonel, who was rich enough to have afforded
the luxury of a poor son-in-law, wished he had another daughter
that he might marry her to Castiglione; and he said so openly, to
the great edification of Roman society.
As for Maria Montalto she did not speak of him again to Giuliana,
but the latter knew she never let him come to the house and that
she had made up her mind to see him as rarely as possible. Giuliana
was too simple and natural to care whether this excellent state
of things was due to her own advice or to Montalto’s approaching
return. It was enough that Maria was doing right and giving the
gossips nothing to talk about.
Parenzo and his wife went to England at this time, with the
intention of spending three weeks there. The Marchese, it was
understood, was entrusted with some special political business, and
as a matter of course he took his wife with him; for the first time
in her life Maria was glad to part from her old friend.
There are ordeals which it is easier to face alone than under the
eyes of others, even of those we love best; there are tortures
which are a little easier to bear when our dearest friends are not
watching our faces to see if we shall wince.
The date of Montalto’s return was approaching, and the state
apartment in the palace was almost ready, thanks to Orlando
Schmidt’s quiet energy and to a rather lavish expenditure of money.
He was a truly wonderful young man, Maria thought, for he seemed to
know everything that was useful and possessed the power of making
people work without so much as complaining till they were quite
exhausted. He never raised his voice, he never spoke roughly to a
workman; but he seemed to inspire something like terror and abject
submission in all whom he employed, and they spoke in whispers when
he was near and worked till they could work no longer.
Maria went to the apartment twice again, once to select the
hangings and stuffs for her own rooms out of a quantity that had
been sent for her approval, and once again when the furnishing was
almost finished. She was quiet and collected, for nothing was left
to remind her of the old boudoir and the rest. At her second visit
she was surprised to find that the small room had three doors
instead of two as formerly, and she asked the steward if the third
one was real, or an imitation fastened against the solid wall for
the sake of symmetry.
‘It is a real door,’ answered Schmidt. ‘It had been thinly walled
up and plastered over long ago, and I found it accidentally, and
took the liberty of opening it again. I hope your Excellency will
approve.’
‘It looks well,’ Maria said, for it helped to change the aspect of
the room; ‘but where does it take one?’
‘To the chapel,’ replied the steward. ‘I found a narrow passage
leading directly to a small door on the left side of the altar. You
can thus reach the chapel by a private way without going through
the apartment. The corridor was quite dark, but I have had electric
light put in. The key is here, you see.’
Schmidt moved it and opened the door at the same time with his
other hand, and Maria saw a narrow passage, brightly lit up. The
walls were white and varnished, and the floor was of plain white
tiles.
‘It must have been made in the beginning of the eighteenth
century,’ Schmidt said. ‘There was a Countess at that time who was
a princess of Saxony and was excessively devout. She died mad.’
‘You know the family history better than I do,’ observed Maria.
‘We have served the Excellent house from father to son more than
two hundred years.’
Schmidt said this as if he were telling her the most ordinary fact
in the world.
‘Will your Excellency please go to the chapel by the private
passage?’ he asked.
Maria let him lead the way and followed him. She was gratified by
the use he had made of his discovery, for she thought that it would
sometimes be a relief to go to the chapel alone and unnoticed. But
she also wished to assure herself that no one else could use the
corridor, and that there was a bolt or a lock on the door at the
other end. It was not that she distrusted Schmidt; on the contrary,
she thought very well of him, and was sure that he had consulted
only her convenience in what he had done. But when she thought of
what was before her, she felt very defenceless in the great old
house, so different from the comfortable little modern apartment
in which she had lived with Leone, where there were no hidden
staircases, nor secret passages, nor legends of mad countesses in
the eighteenth century, nor any ghosts of Maria’s own life.
Apparently Schmidt had told her the exact truth about the passage,
which was much longer than she had expected, and turned to the
right very soon, and was straight beyond that for twenty yards or
more. Maria guessed that it here followed the long wall of the
great ball-room, which had no entrances opposite the windows. She
reached the door of the chapel, and the electric light showed her a
strong new bolt with a brass knob, besides the spring latch.
‘It is quite private, you see,’ said Schmidt. ‘The door can be
fastened from this side.’
‘I see. It is very satisfactory. You have thought of everything.’
He opened the door of the small dim chapel, but she would not go
in. It had memories for her which she was afraid to stir. She
remembered how she had once gone there alone between midnight and
morning with a great horror upon her; and how she had knelt down,
setting her candlestick on the pavement beside her; and the dawn
had found her there still. She knew also that in another week or
ten days she would have to kneel there at mass on a Sunday; and
Montalto would be kneeling on one side of her, and Leone with his
bright blue eyes would be on the other.
‘Thank you,’ she said to the steward. ‘I will not go into the
chapel now.’
‘Nothing has been changed there,’ he answered. ‘It has merely been
thoroughly cleaned.’
Maria remembered the two hideous barocco angels in impossible
gilt draperies that supported a dreadful gilt canopy above the
tabernacle; and the absurd decorations of the miniature dome; and
the detestable assemblage of many-coloured marbles; and all the
details that recalled the atrocious taste introduced under the
Spanish influence in the south of Italy during the seventeenth and
eighteenth centuries. She had seen nothing of all that when she had
come there alone, long after midnight, years ago, with only her one
flickering candle to light her through the great dark rooms and to
show her where the altar was.
‘I thought the Count would not like to have electric light in the
chapel,’ said Schmidt, as he fastened the door carefully. ‘The key
for the lights in the passage is here on the wall, your Excellency,
just on a level with the lock as you come in.’
‘It is really very well arranged,’ Maria answered, and as the
passage was not wide enough for two persons to pass conveniently,
she turned and led the way back.
‘I have had the walls varnished, because almost any sort of tinting
might rub off on your Excellency’s dress,’ said Schmidt. ‘The
passage is so extremely narrow, you see.’
‘It is very nice,’ Maria answered. ‘It was most sensible of you.’
Behind her, Orlando Schmidt blushed with pleasure at her praise,
and watched her graceful moving figure, shown off against the
shining white walls by the close-fitting black she wore. They
reached the boudoir, and there also Schmidt closed and locked the
door. But this time he took out the key and handed it to Maria.
‘As the passage is for your Excellency’s private use, you may
prefer to take away the key, since the workmen have nothing more to
do there.’
‘Thank you,’ Maria answered.
‘The servants need not know that the door is a real one,’ observed
Schmidt.
It chanced that Maria did not much like the maid she had at that
time, but as the woman was clever she meant to keep her. It struck
her that there was certainly no reason why she need know that her
mistress could go from her own rooms to the chapel without being
seen, if she wished to say her prayers there in private. As for
the chapel itself, its outer door was formerly kept locked, and
Montalto had given her a key to it when they had been married.
The reason for keeping it shut was that the altar contained a
reliquary in which was preserved a comparatively large relic of
the Cross, already very long an heirloom in the family. No doubt
Schmidt knew this, as he seemed to know everything else about his
hereditary employers--or masters, as he would have called them.
When one family of men has served another faithfully, those who
serve possess a sort of universal knowledge of such details which
no ordinary servant could acquire in half a lifetime.
Maria left the boudoir, after putting the key into the small new
black Morocco bag, which had taken the place of the rather shabby
grey velvet one she had used so long. When she came to live in the
palace she meant to keep the key in her writing-desk.
‘The Count wishes me to be here when he comes,’ she said as they
passed through the great ball-room. ‘He writes that you will
engage servants and see to everything. Our old butler and coachman
have never left me. Do you think I may keep them still? I wish to
do nothing, however, which does not agree with your instructions.’
‘My master’s orders,’ said Schmidt, ‘are to meet your Excellency’s
wishes in every respect. He will not even bring his own man with
him, and I have orders to engage a valet for him. If you will tell
me what day will be convenient for you to move, I will see that
everything is ready.’
‘The Count writes that he will arrive on Sunday afternoon,’ Maria
answered. ‘I had better be here two days before that. I will come
on Friday morning.’
‘On Friday?’ repeated the steward with a little surprise.
‘Yes. Are you superstitious, Signor Orlando?’
She really could not call him ‘Signor Schmidt’; it was too absurd;
yet he was of Italian nationality.
‘No, your Excellency, I am not. But most people are. If the Signora
Contessa would be kind enough to call me simply Schmidt,’ he added
with a little hesitation, ‘it is an easy name to remember, and does
not occur in Ariosto’s poem.’
She looked at him rather curiously, but she smiled at his last
words.
‘Very well,’ she said. ‘As you like.’
‘It was my mother,’ he explained, blushing shyly. ‘She is very fond
of Ariosto, and she insisted on christening me Orlando. On Friday
next everything will be ready to receive your Excellency and the
young gentleman. Shall I provide for moving the Signora Contessa’s
things?’
‘I shall be much obliged,’ said Maria, who was glad that she was to
be spared all trouble.
She went home feeling as if she were in a painful dream, from which
she must awake before long. In the afternoon, when Agostino was
out with Leone and the little house was quiet, she went to the
telephone and asked for the number of the Palazzo Boccapaduli.
She got it, and was answered by a man-servant. She inquired when
Castiglione would be at home, but was told that he was not staying
in the house. It was the only address she knew, so she asked where
he lived. The servant did not know, but would go and find out, if
she would hold the communication.
A few moments later the voice that spoke to her was Oderisio’s,
and he asked with whom he was speaking, and on being told, at
once inquired if it was she who wanted Castiglione’s address.
Yes, it was she; did he know it? Yes, he did; and he gave it. Had
Castiglione a telephone? No, but he might be at the officers’ club;
did she wish the number of that? No, she did not care for it. Thank
you, and good-bye.
At first she was a little annoyed that young Boccapaduli should
know she wanted Castiglione’s address. But presently, as she went
back to the sitting-room, it struck her that it was just as well.
Oderisio would understand that she was not seeing Baldassare often,
since she did not know his address after he had been in Rome nearly
a month.
She wrote him a short note, which anybody might have read, begging
him to come and see her on the following Thursday after half-past
two. She addressed it and stamped it, she put on her hat without
calling her maid, and she went out to post it in the letter-box at
the corner of the railway station.
She was sure of herself, she thought, and she believed she had
earned the right to receive Castiglione once again, because she was
bravely resolved never to see him alone after she returned to her
husband’s house. That resolution had formed itself at the instant
when she had told Leone that Montalto was coming back, and she
had not wavered in it since, in spite of what she had felt when
he had brought her the fallen parasol in the Villa. The greatest
and most enduring resolutions in life are rarely made after mature
consideration, still less at those times of spiritual exaltation
which are too often self-suggested, and sought for the sake of a
half-sensuous, half-mysterious agitation of the nerves that is far
from healthy. People who are not morbid and are in great trouble
generally see the right course rather suddenly and unexpectedly;
if they are good they follow it, if they are bad they do not, but
if they attempt a careful and subtle examination of conscience
they often come to grief. It is hopeless to analyse processes in
which conscience and mind are involved together until we can find
a constant coefficient for humanity’s ever-varying strength and
weakness.
During more than a month Maria had acted and thought under the
domination of one idea; she had need of strength, but she had not
felt the want of advice or help. She knew better than the harsh old
Capuchin, better even than Monsignor Saracinesca, what she must do,
and as for help, no living man or woman could have given her any,
unless it were Castiglione himself. She had accepted what was laid
upon her, and when she went at early morning to kneel at the altar
rail in the small oratory, she prayed for strength and for nothing
else.
So far it had come to her and had borne her through more than
any one who knew her could have guessed; and when she sent for
Castiglione, to see him once more and for the last time, she was
far from thinking that she did so from any weakness. It seemed only
just, for no man could have acted more honourably and courageously
than he, and he had a right to know from her own lips what she
meant to do.
He came, knowing what was before him, and meaning to do what he
could to spare her all pain and useless emotion. More and more
often now he called her a saint in his thoughts, and his love for
her was sometimes very like veneration.
She had taken care that Leone should not be in the house that
afternoon, not because she had any thought of concealing
Castiglione’s visit from the child, but out of consideration for
the man himself. She knew only too well what he felt when he saw
the boy’s blue eyes and his short and thick brown hair.
He came in civilian’s dress, lest his brilliant uniform should
attract attention from a distance as he entered the house where she
lived. His hand met hers quietly and the two lovers looked into
each other’s earnest eyes. By a common impulse they sat down in the
places they had generally taken when they had met in the same room
before, on opposite sides of the empty fireplace.
‘I know why you have sent for me,’ began Baldassare, very gently.
‘May I try to tell you? It may be a little easier.’
Maria did not attempt to speak for a few moments, and he waited.
‘No,’ she said at last, quite steadily. ‘You could not tell me just
what I have to say to you. I asked you to come because you have
been so very brave, so very generous----’
She choked a little, but recovered herself quickly.
‘It is only just that I should tell you so before we say good-bye,’
she went on. ‘I knew I could trust you--but oh, I did not know how
much!’
‘I have only tried to do my duty,’ he answered.
‘You have done it like the brave man you are,’ said Maria.
‘Please----’ he spoke to interrupt her.
‘Yes,’ she went on, not heeding him. ‘We may not meet again, we
two, alone like this. One of us may die before that is possible.
So I shall say all that is in my thoughts, if I can. You most
know all, you must understand all, even if it hurts very much. My
husband is going to take me back altogether; he has forgiven me; he
asks me to be his wife again. Can I refuse?’
She had not meant to put the question to him, and he knew that she
expected no answer. Her tone showed that. But he would not let her
think that in his heart he rebelled against the knife.
‘No,’ he said very slowly. ‘I would not have you refuse what he
asks. It would be neither right nor just.’
In spite of the almost intolerable pain she was suffering, a glow
of wonder rose in her eyes; and there was no shadow of doubt to dim
it. At his worst, in the old days, he had always told the truth.
‘God bless you for that!’ she cried suddenly, and then her voice
dropped low. ‘You have travelled far on the good road since we last
talked together,’ she said. ‘Further than I.’
He shook his head gravely.
‘No,’ he answered. ‘You have led me, and I have followed.’
‘We have journeyed together,’ she said, ‘though we have been apart.
We may be separated, as we must be now, to the end, but we cannot
be divided any more. I wanted to tell you something else too, this
last time, and you have made it easy to say it, and altogether
right. It is this. I do not take back one word of what I said to
you and wrote to you before I knew Montalto was coming home. I do
not want you to think that I have changed my mind, or that the life
we were going to lead seems to me now one little bit less good and
true and honourable than it seemed to me that first time we talked
together here.’
‘Do you think I doubted you for a moment?’
‘You might. But it is only that other things have changed. We have
not, and I know we never shall, and in the end we are to meet where
there is peace, and somehow it will be right then, and we shall all
three understand that it is. Can you believe that too?’
‘I wish to. I shall try to. If anything could make a man believe in
God, it is the love of such a woman as you are.’
‘You have my love,’ Maria answered. ‘And some day you will believe
as I do, but in your own way, and we shall be together where there
are no partings. Yes, I am sure that we could have lived as we
meant to, and could have helped each other to rise higher and
higher, far above these dying bodies of ours. But we shall reach
the good end more quickly by our suffering than we ever could by
our happiness.’
‘That may be,’ said Castiglione, ‘but one thing is far more
certain: we must part now, cost what it may.’
‘Cost what it may!’ She pressed her hands to her eyes and was
silent a little while.
‘Has he spoken of Leone in his letters?’ Castiglione asked after a
time, in a tone that was almost timid.
Maria dropped her hands upon her knees at once and met his look.
‘Not to me,’ she answered. ‘But he gave orders about the child’s
room to the steward he sent from Montalto. Everything was to be
arranged for Leone just as I wished. That was all.’
‘Will he be kind to the boy, do you think?’ asked Castiglione, very
low.
‘I know he will try to be,’ Maria answered generously.
That was her greatest cause for fear in the future; it was the
stumbling-block she saw in the way of Montalto’s wish to take her
back; but although he might treat the boy coldly, and avoid seeing
him, and insist that he should be sent away to a school as soon as
he was old enough, she believed that her husband would be just, and
she was sure she should leave him if he were not. There was one
sacrifice which should not be exacted of her: she would not tamely
submit to see her child ill-treated. At that she would rebel, and
she would be dangerous for any man to face.
‘Yes,’ she repeated, ‘I know he will try to be kind.’
Castiglione merely nodded and said nothing, but Maria saw his
looks; and she was not all a saint yet, for with the sight came the
thrill of fierce elemental motherhood, rejoicing in the strength of
the man who could kill. There was nothing very saintly about that,
and she knew it.
‘We must not think of such things,’ she said, as she felt the deep
vibrations grow faint and die away. ‘Let us take it for granted
that my husband will be very just. That is all I have a right to
ask of him.’
Again Castiglione bent his head in assent. Then both were silent
for a long time.
‘Am I never to know anything of your life after this?’ he asked
suddenly.
‘You will know what every one may know,’ she said.
‘Nothing more? Only to hear that you are ill or well? Never to
be told whether he really does what he can to make it bearable
for you? May I not have news of you sometimes? Through Giuliana
Parenzo, for instance? Is it to be always outer darkness?’
‘Giuliana will know what you all will know, and no more,’ Maria
answered. ‘If I must not tell you what I suffer, do you think I
would tell her? I shall not tell myself!’ There was one bitter note
in that phrase. ‘You will always know something that no one else
can,’ she went on, and her voice softened. ‘And so shall I, and
that must be enough for us. Is it so little?’
‘Ah, no! It is all of us two that really lives!’
She heard the deeper tone of rising passion not far away, and she
interrupted him.
‘It is all I shall have for the rest of my life,’ she said, and she
rose suddenly and held out her hand, meaning that it was time to
part.
‘Already?’ he asked, not leaving his seat yet, and looking up
beseechingly.
‘Yes,’ she said. ‘You must not stay. We have told each other what
had to be said, and to say more would not be right. Less would not
have been just to you.’
He also had risen now and stood before her, meaning to be as brave
as she, cost what it might.
‘We are only human,’ she went on, ‘only a man and a woman alone
together, and if I let you stay longer this one last time, there
may be some word, some look, between us that we shall regret.
Though Diego is not here yet, I became his wife again in real truth
on the day I accepted his forgiveness; and as his wife, no word to
you shall pass my lips that he might not hear. We have tried to do
right, you and I; if we have not failed altogether, God help us
to do better! If we did wrong in those few sweet days, then God
pardon us! I thank you from my soul for being brave and true when
you might have dragged me down. For the past we have forgiven each
other, as we hope to be forgiven. And so good-bye. I would bless
you, if I dared; I can ask a blessing for you, and it will come; I
am sure it will. If I die first, I shall wait for you somewhere,
and you will come. If you are taken before me, wait for me!
Good-bye, good-bye, good-bye!’
Her voice was sweet and steady to the very end, but when he took
her hand at last it was cold, and it quivered in his. He began to
lift it to his lips, but it resisted him gently, and he obeyed its
resistance.
‘Good-bye,’ he said, as well as he could.
But she hardly heard the syllables; and then, in a moment, he was
gone.
CHAPTER XII
The day had come, and Maria was waiting alone for her husband
in one of the great rooms of the Palazzo Montalto. She had told
Leone that she would send for him when he was wanted, and he was
thoughtfully consoling himself for not being allowed to stay with
her by polishing the barrel of his tin rifle with his tooth-brush
and tooth powder, and he had the double satisfaction of seeing the
gun shine beautifully and of making the hated instrument useless
for its proper purpose. And meanwhile he wondered what his papa
would be like, and whether he should always hate him.
But Maria walked restlessly up and down the drawing-room, and her
head felt a little light. Now and then she stopped near one of
the open windows and listened for the sound of wheels below and
looked at her watch; and when she saw that it was still early, she
breathed more freely at first and sat down, trying to rest and
collect herself; but it was like thinking of resting ten minutes
before execution, and she rose almost directly and began to walk
again.
In her deep mourning she looked smaller and slighter in the great
room than in the simpler surroundings she had left. She had indeed
grown a little thinner of late, but she was not ill, nor even as
tired as she had expected to be at the crucial moment. The people
who feel most are not those whose nerves go to pieces in trouble,
and who get absolute rest then by the doctor’s orders; they are
more often those who are condemned to bear much, for the very
reason that they cannot break down. In the age of torture the weak
fainted or died and felt no more, but the strong were conscious and
suffered to the end, and that was very long in coming. Yet no one
ever pities the strong people.
Leone had told his mother that the white patch in her hair near
her left temple had grown so much larger of late that three of
his fingers only just covered it, and he had kindly offered to
ink it for her; and she was somewhat thinner and a little paler
than she had been a month earlier. But that was all there was to
show that she had lived through weeks of distress. Montalto would
scarcely notice the white lock at first, and her figure looked a
shade more perfect for being slighter. She had never been a beauty,
but she had more grace and charm than ever, and she was only
seven-and-twenty. Giuliana Parenzo was much handsomer, but few men
would have hesitated between her and Maria, who had that nameless
something in every easy movement, in every lingering smile, in each
soft tone of her warm voice, that wakes the man in men, as early
spring stirs the life in the earth, deep down and out of sight.
She did not understand what she had, and for years she had lived
so much away from the lighter side of her own world that she had
almost forgotten how the men used to gather round her and crowd
upon each other instinctively to come nearer to her in the first
year of her marriage, as they never did for Giuliana. She used to
notice it then, and she had a laugh and a quick answer for each
that showed no preference for any, and maddened them all till they
were almost ready to quarrel with each other; but she had been very
young then, and she had not understood, till one more reckless than
the rest, the very one she trusted too much because she loved him
only and too well, had laid waste for ever her fair young being,
half-wrecked his own life, and broken the heart of an honest man.
And this honest man had forgiven her, for love of her; he too, and
he more than any, had felt that her smile, and her breath, and
her touch could drive him mad; and now that he was coming back,
the minutes were passing quickly--a very few were left--still
fewer--the last but one--the very last, as she heard his carriage
roll in through the great arched entrance almost directly under her
feet.
The doors were open beyond the drawing-room towards the
ante-chamber; one door only was shut between that and the outer
hall where the butler and footmen in deep mourning were waiting for
their master.
She heard it opened, a once familiar voice asked in a formal
tone where she was, and a servant answered. Then came the
well-remembered step. In the painful tension of her hearing she
heard it far away, even on the soft carpet, more clearly than she
had ever heard it on tiled floor or marble pavement.
She steadied herself for a moment against the corner of a heavy
table; and then the drawing-room door, which had been open, was
shut, and Montalto was in the room, grey and hollow-eyed, coming
towards her with thin hands outstretched in greeting. By a miracle
of strength she went forward and met them with her own; met his
eyes, and let him kiss her. She sank into a chair then, and he was
close beside her, trying to speak in his old formal way, though he
could hardly control his voice.
He seemed dreadfully changed, and when she saw him clearly a sharp
pang of pity wrung her heart. His hair and pointed beard were quite
grey, his colourless cheeks were painfully thin, and his hollow
eyes burned with a feverish fire; he stopped speaking suddenly, in
the middle of a sentence, as if he were paralysed, and his lips
were parched, but his burning gaze did not waver from her face. She
was a little frightened.
‘You are ill!’ she cried. ‘Let me get you something!’
She half rose, but his thin hand caught her and held her back.
‘No,’ he said hoarsely, ‘I am not ill. It is only that--that I have
not--seen you--for so long!’
The words came in gasps; the last ones broke out in a frantic sob.
She was moved, and willing to be touched, and though she had felt
the old physical repulsion for him again the instant he came near
her, she took one of his hands now and held it on her knees and
stroked it kindly.
‘Diego!’
She did not know what to say, so she pronounced his name as softly
and as affectionately as she could. But she had not spoken yet, and
at the sound of her sweet voice the man broke down completely.
‘Oh, Maria, Maria!’ he moaned, drawing her hand to his chest and
rocking himself a little. ‘It was all a dreadful dream--and I have
got you back again--Maria----’
The over-strained, over-wrenched nerves gave way and he broke into
a flood of tears; the drops ran down the furrows of his thin cheeks
and his grey beard and wet her hand as he pressed passionate kisses
upon it, rocking himself over it and sobbing convulsively.
Maria had lived through a good deal of suffering and some moments
that now seemed too horrible to have been real, but she had never
had any emotion forced upon her from without that had been harder
to bear calmly than what she felt now.
If anything could strengthen the physical repulsion that made her
shrink from her husband’s touch it was the sight of his unmanly
tears and the sound of his hysterical sobbing. If anything could
make it more difficult to hide her loathing it was the knowledge
that she had wronged him and that she owed him gratitude for his
free forgiveness. She would much rather have had him turn upon her
like a maniac and strike her than be obliged to watch the painful
heaving of his thin, bent shoulders, and feel the hot tears that
ran down upon her hands.
It was so unutterably disgusting that she felt a terribly strong
impulse to throw him off, to scream out that she would not take his
forgiveness at any price, that he must let her go back and lead her
own life with her child, as she had lived for so many years. He
would suffer a little more, but what was a little more or less to a
man who seemed half mad?
Then the wave of pity rushed back, and that was even worse. It was
the pity a delicate woman feels for some wretched living thing half
killed in an accident, so crushed and torn that the mere thought
of touching it makes her shrink back and shiver to her very feet
because the suffering creature is not her own. If it were hers but
ever so little, if it were her dog, she would feel nothing but the
instant womanly need of saving it if she could, of helping it to
die easily if she could not.
Maria’s hand shrank from the scalding tears and writhed under the
man’s frantic kisses. She shut her eyes and threw back her head;
her face was drawn and white, and she prayed as she had never
prayed in her life, for strength to bear all that was before her.
It had seemed just possible, because she had imposed it upon
herself as her honourable duty, and because the husband she
remembered had been before all things proud, and as full of a
certain exaggerated dignity and self-respect as Spaniards sometimes
are, though he was only half-Spanish. She had felt him coming back
to her from far away, like a dark instrument of fate, to which she
must give herself up body and mind, if she hoped to expiate her sin
to the end. It had seemed hard, even dreadfully hard; but this was
worse. Instead of the erect and formal figure and the grave dark
face that had a certain strength in it which she could at least
respect--instead of that, it was a broken-down man who came to her,
prematurely old, a neurasthenic invalid no better than a hysterical
woman, palsied with unmanly emotion, lacking all strength,
self-respect and dignity, and without even a rag of vanity that
might have passed for pride.
She was not stronger in her hands than other women, but she was
sure that it would be easy to throw him from her; he would fall in
a heap on the carpet, and would lie there helpless and sobbing. As
she felt the instant contempt for his weakness, she prayed the more
for courage to humble her own strength to it; and her eyes were
still shut tight and her face was white and drawn. This was but the
beginning of what must last for years, ten, twenty, as long as he
lived, or until she died of it.
The future stretched out before her in length without end; she
forgot everything else, and did not know that the tears ceased to
flow and presently dried, nor that Montalto drew back from her into
his own chair as the storm subsided within him. His voice woke her
from the dream of pain to come.
‘I trust you will forgive my first emotion, my dear,’ he said with
all his characteristic formality. ‘I see that I have made a painful
impression on you. I shall not allow it to occur again.’
It was such a quick relief to see him more like himself, that she
had almost a sensation of pleasure, and she smiled faintly while
she tried to say something.
‘No--please--I’m so sorry----’
She could find no connected sentence. He rose and began to walk up
and down before her, making half a dozen steps each way, a shadowy
figure in black, passing and repassing before her.
‘I believe that I have made everything clear in my letters,’ he
said, and then he glanced at her from time to time without pausing
in his walk while he talked. ‘I shall not repeat anything I have
written, but there are one or two other matters of which I must
speak to you before we begin life again together, Maria. They need
not be mentioned more than once either. It is better to be done
with everything which may be in the least painful to you as soon as
possible.’
In spite of the formal manner, there were kind inflections in his
tone. It seemed marvellous that he should have recovered himself so
soon, and it was only possible because such exhibitions of weakness
were not really natural to him. Maria had felt relieved as soon
as he had begun to talk quietly, and when he left his seat, her
physical repugnance to him began to subside within its old limits.
But at the same time she felt a vague fear that he was going to
speak of Leone.
‘You have shown remarkable tact, my dear,’ he went on, ‘and you
will have no difficulty in making your friends understand that our
long separation has been principally due to my mother’s condition,
and that since she is gone’--his voice sank a little--‘we have
resumed our married life. This will be easy, no doubt. May I ask,
without indiscretion, who your most intimate friends are?’
‘Giuliana Parenzo is my only intimate friend,’ Maria answered at
once.
‘I am glad of that,’ said Montalto, approving. ‘She is a thoroughly
nice woman in all ways, and everybody respects her. Are there any
others whom you see often?’
‘I have dined a good many times with the Campodonico and the
Saracinesca and the Boccapaduli--sometimes with the Trasmondo.
I have never gone to balls. On the whole, I have tried to be on
friendly terms with most of the people who have children of Leone’s
age.’
She had boldly brought forward the question which she thought he
meant to reach, and she waited for his reply. But he would not take
it up.
‘Leone,’ he repeated, in a musing tone. ‘Friends for Leone. Yes,
yes--that was quite right. I will see him by and by.’
‘He is waiting to be called,’ said Maria quickly, for she was
anxious to get over the difficult moment as soon as possible.
‘Presently,’ answered Montalto. ‘I have one or two things to
say while we are alone. First, as to your friends, I wish you to
understand that even if there are some whom I do not know, they
shall all be welcome here. They will be the more welcome because
they stood by my wife when she was in trouble.’
He put a little emphasis on the words, his figure had straightened
and he held his head high. She understood the great generosity of
what he said.
‘Thank you, Diego,’ she said in a low voice. ‘You are very good.’
‘There is only one person who shall not come here,’ he continued,
in a tone that was suddenly hard.
Maria almost started, but controlled herself; he could only mean
Castiglione.
‘Who is it?’ she asked, as steadily as she could.
‘Teresa Crescenzi,’ answered Montalto, turning rather sharply. ‘I
beg you never to receive her. She spoke against my mother, and I
will not have her in the house.’
Maria actually laughed, though a little nervously.
‘She is no friend of mine,’ she said. ‘I do not care to see her.’
‘You need not quarrel with her, my dear, if you meet. I shall take
the responsibility on myself, and I shall be careful to let her
know that it is I who forbid her my house.’
He was not a short man, and when he drew himself up he looked tall.
Maria no longer felt that she could throw him to the floor if he
took her hand.
‘I have not many real friends here now,’ he said, more gently. ‘One
whom I especially esteem is Monsignor Saracinesca. Do you ever see
him?’
‘I saw him not long ago, and I sometimes meet him at his father’s
house. We are on good terms.’
‘That is very pleasant,’ Montalto answered. ‘I shall often ask him
here, if you do not object.’
‘I shall always be glad to see him,’ returned Maria. ‘But, please,
Diego, do not consult me about such things. I am very deeply
conscious of your generosity in all ways, and this house is yours,
not mine.’
‘It is ours,’ said Montalto, ‘except for Teresa Crescenzi. I do not
wish you to think of it in any other way. And that brings me to
the last point. May I inquire whether you have found yourself in
any--how shall I say?--in any financial straits in which my fortune
can be of service to you?’
You may judge a man of the world’s wisdom by the sort of wife he
chooses, but the test of a gentleman is the way he treats his
wife. Maria was profoundly touched by her husband’s question. She
rose from her seat and went close to him, overcoming her repulsion
easily for the moment as she took his hand and spoke.
‘No, I have made no debts. But I have no words to thank you for
your kindness. I shall try to deserve it.’
‘It is only what I owe to my wife,’ Montalto answered, and he bent
over her hand with as much ceremony as if there had been twenty
people in the room.
‘I have something to tell you, too,’ she said. ‘You ought to know
it. Baldassare del Castiglione has come back to Rome. We have met
alone, and we have agreed never to see each other again--except as
we may chance to find ourselves in a friend’s house at the same
time.’
Montalto could not help dropping her hand as soon as she pronounced
Castiglione’s name, but his face changed little.
‘I daresay you were wise to see him once,’ he replied, a trifle
coldly. ‘We need not refer to him again.’
She could not have expected more than that, but when he had
answered she was a little sorry that she had spoken at all. He
would willingly have trusted her without that explanation.
With an evident wish to change the subject, he began to ask
questions about the apartment, inquiring how she liked it, and
whether she had found Schmidt efficient in carrying out her wishes.
‘Very,’ she answered to the last question. ‘He is a wonderful man.’
‘Yes,’ Montalto assented coldly, ‘in some ways he is an
extraordinary young man.’
There was something more reserved in the tone than in the words,
but Maria was very far from being intimate enough with her husband
yet to ask whether Schmidt had any fault or weakness that justified
his master’s evident doubts about him. She wondered what the
trouble might be.
‘Shall we go and see Leone now?’ Montalto suggested. ‘On the way
you can show me what you have done to the house. You have not
ruined me in furniture,’ he added with a smile, as he looked round
the rather empty drawing-room.
‘I left as much as possible to you,’ Maria answered.
She was thinking of Leone, and she already saw before her the
sturdy little blue-eyed boy with his thick and short brown hair.
They went on through the house to the door of Maria’s boudoir, at
the end of the great ball-room.
‘That is where I have installed myself,’ she said, pointing to it
and turning to the left, towards the masked door that led to the
living rooms in the other wing.
‘Yes, I remember,’ answered Montalto. ‘And this is your
dressing-room, I suppose,’ he added as they walked on. ‘And this
used to be your bedroom.’
‘Yes,’ said Maria steadily. ‘That is the door of my bedroom.’
Leone’s was the next, and in a moment they were standing in a flood
of afternoon light, and Maria bent down and kissed the small boy’s
hair because he would not turn up his cheek to her, being very
intent on examining Montalto’s face. But Maria dared not look at
her husband just then.
‘Here we are at last, dear,’ she said as well as she could, still
bending over him.
To some extent she could trust the child’s manners, for she had
brought him up herself, but her heart beat fast during the little
silence before Montalto spoke, and she wondered what his tone would
be much more than what he was going to say, for she felt sure that
the words would not be unkind.
Montalto held out his hand, and Leone took it slowly. He had never
been kissed by a man, and did not imagine that his newly-introduced
papa could be expected to kiss him. This was fortunate, for
Montalto had not the least intention of doing so.
‘Can you ride yet?’ he asked, with a smile.
‘No,’ Leone answered, but his face changed instantly. ‘Not yet.’
‘I will teach you, my boy, and as soon as you can trot and gallop
nicely you shall have a good horse of your own.’
Leone flushed with pleasure, a healthy red that was good to see.
‘Oh, how splendid!’ he cried, and his blue eyes lit up with
happiness. ‘Really, really?’
‘Yes, really.’
‘When shall I begin?’
‘To-morrow morning.’
‘Hurrah!’ yelled the small boy. ‘At last!’
Maria could have cried out too, or laughed, or burst into tears
from sheer relief. Montalto had unconsciously received one of those
happy inspirations which turn the mingling currents of meeting
lives; and Leone was already astride of a stick, prancing round the
room on an imaginary horse, shouting out the tune of the Italian
royal march and sabring the air to right and left with the first
thing he happened to pick up. It chanced to be the tooth-brush with
which he had been polishing his tin gun.
Montalto looked pleased, and Leone pranced towards him on the stick
and pretended to rein in a fiery steed before his papa, saluting
with the tooth-brush sabre in correct cavalry fashion.
‘Viva Papa!’ he bawled. ‘Viva Papa!’
Montalto, who rarely smiled, could not help laughing now. Maria
could hardly believe her senses, for she had dreaded most of all
moments the one in which the two were to meet. But now her husband
suddenly looked younger. He was thin, indeed, to the verge of
emaciation, his hands were shrunken and transparent, his beard was
quite grey, his eyes were hollow; but there was no feverish fire
in them, his face was not colourless, and there was life in his
movements. Maria wondered whether it were humanly possible that he
should not only be kind to her child but should actually like him,
and perhaps love him some day.
At all events what had happened had made it easier for her than she
had dared to expect, and though nothing could efface the painful
impression of her meeting with him, what had now taken place
certainly made a great difference.
During dinner he talked quietly about Rome and politics and old
friends, and if she saw his eyes fixed upon her now and then with
an expression that made her nervous, there was still the broad
table between them, and he looked away almost directly.
Afterwards he smoked Spanish cigarettes, taking them to pieces and
rolling them again in thin French paper, and he went on talking;
but as the hour advanced he said less and less, and his cigarette
went out very often, till at last he rose, saying that it was late,
and he kissed her hand ceremoniously and left her.
‘Good-night,’ she said, just before he disappeared through the door.
He bent his head a little but did not answer.
An hour later she had dismissed her maid and sat in a small
easy-chair in her boudoir under a shaded light; she was trying
to read, in the hope of growing sleepy. She wore a thin silk
dressing-gown, wide open at the throat and showing a little simple
white lace; her dark hair was taken up in a loose knot rather
low down at the back of her neck, as she had always done it at
bedtime ever since she had been a young girl. Her bare feet were
half hidden in a pair of rather shabby little grey velvet slippers
without heel or heel-piece, for the spring night was warm. She was
trying to read.
She thought some one knocked softly at the door; she started in her
chair and dropped the book, while her hand went up to her throat to
gather the silk folds and hide the lace underneath. She could not
speak.
Another knock, quite distinct this time, and followed by a question
in her husband’s voice.
‘May I come in?’
An instant’s pause, and she closed her eyes to say two words.
‘Come in.’
PART II
THE COUNTESS OF MONTALTO
CHAPTER XIII
The Romans approved of Montalto’s return. The reason why any
civilised society continues to exist is that the majority of decent
people look upon marriage seriously, and consider it as a permanent
bond, spiritual or legal, or both. In such conservative countries
as admit divorce, the respectable part of society looks upon it as
a last resource in extreme cases, and no sensible citizen should
regard it as anything else. When it has taken place, the society to
which the two divorced persons belong decides which of them was in
the right, and that one is received as cordially as ever; the other
is treated coldly, and is sometimes turned out.
But there is no divorce law in Italy, and a civil marriage is
as indissoluble in the eyes of the Italian state as a religious
one is under the rules of the Catholic Church. There is such a
thing as separation by law, but it gives neither party a right to
marry again; it concerns the administration of property and the
guardianship of children, but nothing else, and the parties may
agree to unite again without any further ceremony.
Maria and her husband had never gone through the form of being
legally separated, though they had taken towards each other
the relative positions of separated husband and wife. Maria’s
sufficient independent fortune enabled her to decline any subsidy
from Montalto, and she had quitted his house after he left her; she
had also kept the child. The two had voluntarily placed themselves
where the law would probably have placed them, and society had been
grateful to Montalto for having avoided the open scandal of any
legal procedure against his wife; the more so, as it had chosen to
take Maria’s side, on the principle that absent friends are always
in the wrong.
But society was very glad to consider both Montalto and his wife
in the right, now that he had come back quietly, at the very end
of a season; and no objections were raised against the perfectly
innocent fiction of his having stayed away from Rome many years
to take care of his mother. It was a satisfaction to see such an
important couple reconciled again and living peaceably together;
everybody had something to repent of in life, and most people had
something to conceal; Maria had repented and Montalto had covered
up the spot on his honour, with as much tact and dignity as were
respectively consistent with a stained escutcheon and a contrite
heart; and it was really much more proper that Maria di Montalto,
whose husband was an authentic Count of the Empire, should live
in the great palace, instead of in a little apartment in the Via
San Martino, and should drive in a big carriage behind a pair of
huge black horses, in the shadow of tremendously imposing mourning
liveries, than go about in a small phaeton drawn by a pair of hired
nags, or even in a little brougham with one horse and no footman
at all, as she had sometimes been seen to do; it was much more
proper and appropriate. Why should any one make a fuss because a
small boy called Leone Silani di Montalto had blue eyes instead of
brown or black ones? Was it admissible that not one of the Montalto
ancestors, since the First Crusade, should have had blue eyes,
to account for Leone’s? Was nature to be allowed no latitude in
such little matters? And so forth; and so on; and more to the same
effect, and to the credit of Diego, Maria, and Leone di Montalto,
happily reunited in their own home. These things were said
without a smile by such excellent elderly people as the Princess
Campodonico and the Duchess of Trasmondo, the good and beautiful
old Princess Saracinesca, the whole Boccapaduli family, and all the
secondary social luminaries which reflect the light of the great
fixed ones round which they revolve. There had been a conspicuous
gap at the banquet of the Roman Olympians for years; it was once
more filled by those who had a right to it, and everything was for
the best in the best of all possible worlds, as Candide’s tutor was
the first to observe. So far as the Montalto family was concerned,
the truth of the assertion was amply proved by the fact that
Montalto himself was teaching Leone to ride, in the Villa Borghese.
Three or four times a week you might meet him there in the early
morning hours on a wonderful Andalusian mare he had brought from
Spain, with the boy at his side, red in the face, fearless, and
perfectly happy on a pony with a leading rein.
Castiglione saw them once from a distance, coming towards him, but
he jumped his horse over the stiff fence into the meadow, crossed
quickly, and was over into the ring again on the other side and out
of the Villa by Porta Pinciana before the pair recognised him, for
Montalto was rather near-sighted and Leone was so much interested
in his lesson that even the uniform of the Piedmont Lancers no
longer had great attractions for him. After that Castiglione gave
up exercising his horses in the Villa.
The fact of riding a real animal, that could move its tail, had
destroyed in a day all Leone’s bright illusions of toy guns and tin
helmets. A boy who could ride was half a man already, and even half
a man must be above the suspicion of playing with sham weapons.
After his third ride in the Villa, Leone solemnly presented his
whole armoury to the children of the porter downstairs, and though
his room seemed very bare for a day or two, he found consolation in
sitting astride of a chair, conscientiously repeating to himself
and practising the instructions he had received from Montalto.
‘Toes in! Grip the saddle with your knees, not with your calves!
Elbows to your sides! Your heels down, in a line with your head and
your shoulder! Hold the bridle lightly, don’t hold on by it! Head
straight, not thrown back, nor forward either! Look before you,
between the pony’s ears!’
As he repeated each well-remembered precept Leone studied his
position to be sure that he was really obeying the order. It was
ever so much more real, even on a chair, than prancing about on
his feet, astride of a stick, with a tin sabre, yelling the Royal
March; and it was incomparably more dignified.
Maria came to his room one afternoon and found him at his
self-imposed exercise. She paused on the threshold, before he knew
that she was there, and she watched him with a rather sad smile. He
was so tremendously strong and vital, and she felt so subdued and
weary! It seemed impossible that he should be her child. Yet hers
he was.
He ordered himself to sit very straight, and in the pause during
which he made sure of having been very attentive, he heard her and
turned his head. He laughed a little shyly at being caught.
‘It’s not play,’ he hastened to say. ‘It’s practice. I go over
everything papa tells me, and I do it very carefully. Then he says
I learn very fast, but he doesn’t know I practise. Of course, if
he asked me, I’d tell him. It’s not wrong not to tell him, if he
doesn’t ask me, is it, mama?’
‘No, dear,’ Maria answered, and she bent down and kissed the boy’s
forehead.
‘Because I like to surprise him by doing it better than he
expects,’ he went on. ‘Then he smiles, and I like him when he
smiles.’
‘I think you always like him, my dear,’ said his mother. ‘Don’t
you?’
‘Yes. But I wasn’t going to, though!’ The young jaw thrust itself
forward viciously. ‘I thought I was going to hate him when he came
in here with you that day. I did!’
‘You must try not to hate any one,’ said Maria; and again she
kissed his forehead.
‘Oh, that’s all very well, mama!’ retorted the boy. ‘Why do you
always kiss my forehead now?’ he asked suddenly. ‘It used to be the
back of my neck, you know, just here!’
He laughed, and put up his hand behind his head to the spot where
the short hair was always trying to curl. But Maria had turned
away to inspect his tooth-brush, as she often did after she had
discovered the use he had made of one for cleaning his toy gun. She
did not answer his question.
‘Oh, you needn’t look at it, mama,’ he said, watching her. ‘At
least, not till I have a real gun. Besides,’ he added rather
mournfully, ‘I brush my teeth now.’
‘Oh--I’m glad to hear it!’
‘Yes,’ Leone answered, with his hands in his pockets. ‘You see,
papa does--so I suppose I must, too.’
‘But I always told you to!’ Maria could not help smiling. ‘Was not
that enough, child?’
‘Oh, yes, of course. But it’s different. I want to be like papa.’
Maria had not been prepared for this speech, and the smile faded
from her face.
‘You could not do better,’ she said gravely. ‘He is an honest
gentleman, if ever there was one.’
‘I’d give anything to look like him, too. But I suppose that’s
impossible. I’d like to have a dark, grave face, like his, and at
the same time to look so smart--most of all on horseback.’
‘You cannot change your looks, dear,’ Maria managed to say, and she
pretended to continue her inspection of the room, lest he should
see her face just then.
The world was very hard to understand, she thought, and later,
when she was alone, she pondered on this new mystery. It still
seemed impossible that the least likely of all things should have
happened: that Leone should have developed a whole-hearted, boyish
admiration for Montalto was strange enough, but that Montalto
should apparently have taken a real liking to Leone, and something
more, was past her comprehension. It was almost too much, and a
deep, unacknowledged feminine instinct was ready to rise up against
it, though all her conscience and intelligence told her that she
should be grateful to her husband for the large forgiveness he
bestowed upon her in every act of kindness to the boy.
He had changed quickly since his return, and she sometimes found
it hard to believe that he had come back to her looking like the
wreck of a man, that his tears had run down like a nervous woman’s,
scalding her hands till she had felt contempt for his unmanly
weakness.
Certain people have what may be called dramatic constitutions and
faces; a few hours of anxiety or pain make havoc of their looks;
when others would merely look tired, they become haggard, their
cheeks fall in, their eyes grow hollow; in a fortnight they grow
thin till they seem shadowy. But when the pain is over, or the
anxiety is relieved, their normal appearance returns with amazing
rapidity. In three or four weeks after he had come home, Montalto
was his old self again, saving his prematurely grey hair and
beard; but even they no longer made him look old now that his still
young face had filled out again and recovered its normal colour.
He was once more a grave, dark, erect and rather handsome man,
apparently endowed with a strong will of his own, and undoubtedly
imbued with an almost exaggerated sense of his dignity. He was
again the husband Maria had married nine years ago, and he had
blotted out of his memory all that had happened from then till now.
He was almost the same again; and so was Maria herself. If he had
remained as much changed as he had seemed to be at first, she
might possibly have deluded herself with the idea that he was not
really the same man, after all, so that he was now her real husband
and she had dreamed all the rest. But even such an imaginary
alleviation as that was denied her. He was only too really the same
in all ways; she quivered at his gentlest touch and writhed under
his loving caress, and presently she wondered why he never felt
that she loathed him, even if he could not see it in her face.
A villainous idea suggested itself. Perhaps he both felt and saw
her repugnance; perhaps his kindness was all a cruel comedy,
his affection for Leone a diabolical deception; perhaps he was
revenging himself in his own way, and delighting inwardly in the
unspeakable suffering he inflicted.
But the thought was too unbalanced to sustain itself. According to
his lights, Maria was sure that he was a good man. Don Ippolito
Saracinesca knew human nature well, and could not have been
deceived for years in one whom he called his friend. Diego di
Montalto was not a monster of cruelty; his love was real, his
forgiveness was real, his liking for the boy he might so naturally
have detested was real too--it was all awfully real. God in heaven
would not have expected her to submit herself body and mind to be
tormented by a wicked man for the rest of her life, in vengeance
for one fault. No, her husband was a good man, who had been
generous beyond words; he had come home to take her back before the
whole world, defying it to speak evil against his honoured wife, he
had come home to be her husband and her child’s father. And when
he touched her she trembled and felt sick; but this was her just
expiation, and she must bear it as well as she could, and hide her
horror of him till she died of it. Even that would not come soon.
She had not a dramatic organisation like his, and she could be made
to bear a great deal before the end. She would have been a good
patient for the tormentors in older times, for she would not have
fainted soon, or died, and felt nothing more. She was very quiet,
a little subdued, and there was sometimes a startled, haunted look
in her eyes, but that was all; she ate enough, she went about her
occupations, she wrote letters to Giuliana and others, she looked
after Leone, she even slept as much as was necessary, and people
thought she was at last contented, if not happy, with the rather
dull and formal husband who had come back to her. They saw, too, or
believed, that she and Castiglione were completely estranged and
hardly spoke when they happened to meet anywhere; but even such
meetings were of very rare occurrence, because she and her husband
were in such deep mourning.
The summer came, and they went northwards in a comfortable motor
car. They stopped on their way to make short visits to more or
less distant relations who were already at their country places;
they spent a fortnight by the seaside, near Genoa, a day or two
in Milan, a hot week in Venice near the end of July; and so they
came by easy stages to Montalto, with its solemn towers, its deep
woods and its waterfalls, its fertile valley, its rich farms and
its thriving village; and there they stayed through the rest of the
summer and into the early autumn.
Leone rode with Montalto every day, and by and by he was taught to
hold a real gun in the right way, and then to shoot; and at last
Montalto took him out one day and he fired his first shot at a
pheasant and missed, but he killed a bird the second time, and was
the happiest boy in the world for the rest of that day. Through all
those months Montalto himself gained strength daily and recovered
more and more of the comparative youthfulness which remains to a
man not forty; and Maria changed little, if at all, though Leone
thought the white patch near her left temple was growing larger.
Also, in those quiet days, the boy and the man became more and more
closely attached to each other. Montalto took more real interest
in teaching Leone to ride and shoot than he had ever shown in
anything; and Leone was more entirely persuaded that Montalto was
his ideal, though he still declared that he himself would be a
soldier and nothing else.
During this time Maria frequently saw Orlando Schmidt, the steward.
She had not seen him in Rome after her husband had arrived, and
when she noticed the latter’s reserved tone in speaking of him, she
had not mentioned him again and had soon forgotten his existence.
There was no special reason why she should think of him at all,
though she had found him very efficient and ready to serve her.
But now he appeared again, and as a personage of considerable
importance, who came to her husband’s study almost every day on
matters connected with the estate. She met him the first time when
she was alone in the great avenue that led from the park gate to
the castle. He lived in a small house just outside the village at
the foot of the hill, and he usually walked up by the avenue.
He bowed ceremoniously to the Countess from a considerable
distance, and carried his hat in his hand as he came nearer.
He blushed a little when she bent her head at last and said
good-morning in passing; and as she did not stop to say more, he
went on. He turned after he had gone on a few steps and looked
after her, being quite sure that she would not do the same. Why
should the Countess of Montalto condescend to look round at such a
humble person as Orlando Schmidt? So he walked slowly and turned
again and again to watch the graceful figure that was slowly
gliding into the distance under the shade of the ancient elms. When
he could no longer see her distinctly he glanced at his watch and
went on his way quickly.
Two days later Maria met him almost in the same place, and at
almost the same hour in the morning; which was natural enough, for
she had dropped into the dull punctuality in doing unimportant
things at regular times which is the foundation of a woman’s life
in a country house where there are no visitors; and as it was
Schmidt’s business to be exact about his duties, there was really
no reason why she should not pass him in the same place and nearly
at the same moment, on every fine day.
This time Schmidt stood still at a short distance, as if he wished
to say something, and when Maria stopped, he inquired if he could
be of service to her in any way. She was a little surprised at the
question.
He meant to ask, he said, whether she had any wishes with regard
to the grounds or the garden. The Count, he explained, took no
interest in those matters, but would be much pleased if her
Excellency would give them some attention. He, Schmidt, had done
his best to keep up the place since he had been in charge of it,
but he was only too conscious that he knew nothing of landscape
gardening and very little about flowers. Maria said quietly that
she understood neither, though she knew what she liked.
Thereupon Schmidt observed that a quantity of handsome stone-work
of the fifteenth century was lying piled up in the kitchen court,
and he thought it must have been put there about a hundred and
twenty or thirty years ago, when a Countess of Montalto had thought
it would be an improvement to destroy the beautiful mediæval
close garden in the course of constructing a miniature Versailles
which had never been finished. He, Schmidt, would take pleasure
in showing the stone-work to her Excellency if she would take
the trouble to look at it. He had also found an old plan of the
former garden amongst the papers of his own great-grandfather, who
had been steward of Montalto from 1760 to 1800. At a small cost
the really beautiful mediæval well and cloistered walk could be
reconstructed, and he ventured to suggest that they would be more
in keeping with the whole place than a wretched little imitation of
Lenôtre’s vast work.
Maria thought so, too, and after saying that she would ask her
husband about it, she nodded kindly to the thoughtful young man and
continued her walk.
In the evening, when Montalto had told her the political news he
had read before dinner, and had opened a third Havana cigarette to
roll it over again in French paper, Maria told him what Schmidt had
said. Montalto was naturally as punctual in all his little ways as
his wife was rapidly becoming by acquired habit. The post came late
in the afternoon, and he always spent half an hour in reading the
newspapers before he dressed for dinner. Just as invariably, too,
he told his wife what he had read, and he almost always reached
the end of his budget of intelligence just as he began to make his
third cigarette. Maria did not always listen to what he was telling
her, but the third cigarette was a landmark in the long dull
evening, and when it was reached she knew that Montalto expected
her to make a little conversation in return for his carefully
repeated news. On this particular occasion she was glad to have
something to say, and at once asked him about the old garden.
To her surprise Montalto did not give her any answer at once, and
she waited for his reply, watching the motion of his well-made
fingers, of which the first two were stained a deep yellowish brown
from smoking cigarettes. They rolled the cigarette slowly, but very
neatly.
‘Yes,’ Montalto said after a long time, when he had got a light and
was leaning back in his chair. ‘Yes,’ he repeated, in a tone of
profound meditation. ‘Yes, by all means, if it amuses you, my dear.’
‘Then you think Schmidt is right about the old things?’ said Maria
with a renewed interrogation in her tone.
Another pause, and several small puffs of smoke.
‘Maria,’ Montalto began, as if he had reached a conclusion, ‘you
are not what people call a highly accomplished woman, but you have
a great deal of sense.’
The Countess wondered what was coming, and answered by a
preliminary and deprecating smile. Montalto often told her that in
his opinion she was the most beautiful creature in the world; after
such nonsense it was a relief to be called a sensible woman. She
might not be even that, but at all events the statement was not
likely to lead to one of those outbreaks of his passion for her
which she dreaded.
‘Maria,’ he said, as if he were beginning over again, ‘I have
great confidence in your judgment.’
‘But I know nothing about gardening or mediæval wells,’ she
protested.
‘Possibly not, though you know vastly more about both than I do.
I was brought up under the influence of the Spanish taste of the
eighteenth century, and I like it. Ippolito Saracinesca says it is
atrocious, and of course he knows. But I like it, nevertheless.’
‘At least, you have the courage of your opinion,’ said Maria, still
completely in the dark, but feeling that she must say something.
‘That does not matter, for it is not the question,’ returned her
husband. ‘We neither of us know anything about architecture, I am
sure. But I shall be glad if you will go into this question with
Schmidt, and then give me an opinion.’
‘It will be worthless.’
‘Not your opinion of the garden, my dear, but your opinion of
Schmidt.’
‘Oh!’ Maria was very much surprised. ‘But why? I told you in Rome
that I thought him an excellent person and very intelligent!’
‘Did it ever occur to you that he might be too intelligent?’
‘No. But perhaps I don’t understand just what you mean. Do you
think he is educated above his station? Too good for his place?’
‘Not at all. But sometimes, in money dealings and positions of
trust, a man may be too clever. That is what I mean.’
‘You mean that you don’t quite trust him,’ said Maria, ‘and you
wish me to form a judgment of him.’
‘I want your opinion,’ answered Montalto, who was at odds with his
over-sensitive conscience. ‘I should be very unjust to Schmidt if I
were to say that he may not be quite honest. It would be very wrong
to assume such a thing of any one, would it not?’
‘If you had no grounds for suspicion, yes. But even an instinctive
distrust of a man of business is enough reason for not giving him
the entire control of a large estate.’
‘Do you really think so, my dear? You see, the men of his family
have been our stewards for some little time.’
‘He told me they had served you two hundred years.’
‘Yes, yes--for some time, as you say, and I have always understood
that they were honest people.’
He was so excessively scrupulous that Maria guessed he must have
some serious ground for his slight suspicion of the man he was
trusting. The question began to interest her, if only as a study of
her husband’s character.
‘Really, Diego,’ she said, ‘if you wish me to form any reasonable
judgment you must tell me something more than this. What has the
man done to make you doubt him?’
Montalto looked at his wife thoughtfully before he answered.
‘I will tell you, but you must not repeat the story to any one,
please.’
‘Certainly not.’
‘He once got into some scrape, four or five years ago, and he took
a small sum of money to help himself out of trouble.’
‘Oh!’ For the second time Maria was surprised. ‘But that is
called----’
‘He confessed it to me,’ Montalto hastened to say before Maria
could finish her sentence. ‘He threw himself upon my mercy by a
voluntary confession, promising to make up the sum as soon as he
could. I thought the matter over for two days and then I forgave
him.’
‘That was like you,’ Maria said gently.
Had he not forgiven her a far greater debt?
‘It was only just,’ Montalto answered. ‘I meant never to think of
the matter again unless he repeated the offence.’
‘Has he done anything of the kind since then?’
‘No.’
‘But you think he might.’
‘N--no. But he could if he wished to, and I don’t think I should
ever know it!’
‘What do you mean?’
‘My dear, he paid back the money very soon; so soon that I was
surprised. Then I sent him to Spain on an errand, and while he was
away I got a confidential accountant here and we examined his books
very carefully.’
‘Well?’
‘It was impossible to find any trace of what he had done. Unless a
man has actually taken money dishonestly, he does not confess and
pay it back. But there is something very strange about the matter
if you cannot find some proof of his own confession in his own
accounts.’
‘Was it much?’ asked Maria.
‘Only five thousand francs. But in that year the books showed no
change in the rent-roll of the estate--he might have made out
that the rents had fallen, so as to pocket the difference, you
understand. On the contrary, it was a good year, and the tenants
paid punctually; and there were the banker’s receipts for the
corresponding deposits, exact to a fraction. Five thousand is not a
large sum, but it is a very noticeable one in a matter of business.’
‘I should think so!’ assented Maria, thinking of the limited income
on which she had lived for years, and in which a deficit of five
thousand francs would have been a serious matter.
‘It is very strange that a man whose business it is to detect
frauds in accounts should not be able to find a trace of one that
has been confessed by its author, is it not?’
‘Very!’
‘That is my reason for saying that Schmidt may be too intelligent.
I hope I am not doing him an injustice in saying so. That is the
reason why I want your opinion about him. I really could not ask
him how he did it, after forgiving him, and it would have been
still more unjust to reveal his secret by asking my banker to
compare the receipts purporting to come from him with his own
books. I had forgiven him freely; I could not accuse him to another
man of having done what he had voluntarily confessed. It would
not have been honourable, for my banker would have known at once
that I distrusted my steward and suspected him of forging banker’s
receipts.’
‘Yes. I see.’
‘Precisely. But the most honourable man in the world may confide
matters to his wife which it would be base in him to lay before any
one else.’
‘Except a confessor,’ Maria said; but she was not thinking of
Schmidt.
‘My confessor was not a man of any business capacity,’ answered
Montalto without a smile. ‘Nor is my friend Ippolito Saracinesca
either; and I would certainly not consult any one else except my
wife.’
‘Thank you.’
He had taken a long time to tell his story about the poor steward,
hampered as he was at every step by a conscientious fear of
injuring the man. What Maria saw was that he had been unboundedly
generous to Schmidt, as he had been to her in a matter much
nearer to life and death; and by a sort of unconscious analogical
reasoning she felt, rather than concluded, that the steward must
be as grateful as she was, and as resolved to be faithful at any
cost. Moreover, he had made a favourable impression on her from the
first; and though she was a little shocked at what she now learned
about him, her ultimate verdict as to his present honesty was a
foregone judgment.
After this long talk with Montalto she saw Schmidt often. He
showed her the old plans, the position of the former garden, and
the fragments of the well and the cloistered walk, and after much
consultation with her husband and several evenings spent in the
study of Viollet-le-Duc, they determined that the old construction
should be restored as far as possible, a conclusion which has no
bearing upon this story beyond the fact that it was the means of
bringing Maria and the steward together almost daily, and that the
execution of the work and his careful economy in the whole affair
raised him in the Countess’s estimation; or rather, they confirmed
that preconceived good opinion of him which she had formed in the
beginning, and on which such grave matters afterwards turned.
Before they left Montalto her husband inquired as to the result of
her observation of the man.
‘I cannot help believing that he is now perfectly honest and
devoted to your interests,’ she said. ‘That is the impression he
makes on me, and I do not think it will change.’
‘Then I shall take him to Rome,’ Montalto answered without
hesitation. ‘Our property there is in a disgraceful state and is
not yielding much more than the half of what it should. Schmidt is
the only man I have under my hand who can set matters right, and he
shall go to work at once.’
‘I agree with you,’ Maria said quietly. ‘I thought so last spring
when I first saw him.’
The life at Montalto went on a little longer after that, and the
work on the garden made it a little less monotonous. Not that Maria
disliked that side of it. Since she was to live her married life
again, it was a little easier to live it in that deep retirement,
where she could so often be left to herself for half the day while
Montalto and Leone were out shooting, or riding, or visiting some
distant part of the estate. To be alone as much as possible was
her chief aim in the arrangement of her day. There had been a time
when she had been happy to have Leone always by her side; but now
he talked to her so incessantly of her husband and of what they had
done and were going to do together, that she often wished he would
be silent or go away.
The time had come when the boy began to turn to the man for what he
wanted, even more readily than to his mother; and there is nothing
quite like a mother’s loneliness of heart when she sees that she
can no longer compete with the manly influence in amusing and
interesting her only boy. How can pretty stories and sugar-plums
stand against horse, and dog, and gun, and a day’s sport? And what
is motherly love to a healthy boy, compared with the qualities of
a father who can give him such things and share in his enjoyment
of them? Also, the smaller the boy the greater his delight in any
grown-up sport, and Leone had begun to ride and shoot at an age
when most Roman boys are scarcely out of the nursery. It is true
that he looked two or three years older than his age, and had
fought with boys bigger than himself, like Mario Campodonico, and
had ‘hammered’ them, as he called it.
This was the situation between Montalto, his wife and the boy, when
they all came back to Rome towards the end of October; and Orlando
Schmidt went before them to see that everything was ready and to
take the place of the old steward, who had at last died, leaving
the estate in a confusion worthy of his well-meaning stupidity.
Schmidt was to set matters right, and find a proper man to manage
the Roman lands under his general direction, while he himself
administered the Montalto estate as heretofore. He had, in fact,
been promoted to be the agent for all the property owned by the
Count in Italy.
In October, too, six months after the Dowager Countess’s death,
Maria and her husband put on half mourning, according to the strict
rule that prevails in Rome in those matters; and though they would
not go to balls and big dinners yet, they were permitted to see
something of their friends--and even of their acquaintances.
That was really the end of the quiet life they had led together
for five months. Maria was to go back, take her place in society
as a Roman lady, and be a great personage once more in that
old-fashioned, ceremonious life which has survived in scarcely any
other city in the world, and is fast disappearing in Rome itself.
So far had Maria dragged herself on the thorny path of her
expiation without much help from without, and with little hope
within.
CHAPTER XIV
Monsieur Jules de Maurienne gambled, and, like most rich men who
do, he generally won more than he lost. He did not gamble for the
sake of winning money, however, for he was a gentleman and avarice
was not among his faults, though he was not extravagant in his way
of living, and knew very nearly to a penny what he spent from month
to month. What he enjoyed was the excitement of fearing that he
was going to lose, as he occasionally did, though with no serious
damage to his fortune. Some people do daring things when there is a
good reason for doing them, and they are like cats at bay; others
are incapable of physical fear and never believe in danger, and
they are likely healthy puppies; but one meets men now and then who
fully realise every risk, and take a real pleasure in trying how
far they can go without breaking their necks. None of the lower
animals will do this; it is a characteristic of the born gambler.
De Maurienne did not play much in drawing-rooms or at the clubs.
The stakes were rarely high enough to give him an emotion, and
the sensation of winning much from friends who could not always
afford to lose made him uncomfortable. He therefore frequented one
of those quiet little establishments in the neighbourhood of the
Piazza di Spagna where baccara, roulette, and rouge et noir go on
from three in the afternoon till three in the morning, or later.
He was far too refined in his taste for pleasure to waste a whole
evening at such a place, and he frequented it at odd moments late
in the afternoon. A man is rarely missed at that hour, and if he
occasionally finds an acquaintance in a gambling den, the encounter
is not mentioned afterwards, any more than those who meet there
would think of calling each other by their names. For the society
in the haunts of vice is extremely mixed, to say the least of it,
though the owners of the establishments take infinite trouble to
make it select.
Teresa Crescenzi had not succeeded in marrying de Maurienne during
the summer, though they had gone together all the way from Rome
to Paris in his big motor car, and nobody happened to remember
who had made up the party. On some points the Italians and the
French never seem to understand each other. Monsieur de Maurienne
appeared to think it quite unnecessary to marry Donna Teresa
Crescenzi, whereas she was equally convinced that marriage was
indispensable. With the arguments and stratagems used on each side
this story is not concerned; it is a cowardly thing to spy upon a
lady’s secret doings, and the novelist should sometimes imitate
Falstaff in judging discretion to be the better part of valour. He
may, however, remind his forgetful readers that when Teresa met
Maria Montalto in a quiet street and said that she had been to
confession, she was wilfully misstating a fact.
It came to pass, towards Christmas, that she noticed how often her
friend disappeared late in the afternoon. It is easier and more
amusing to make a long story short than to make a short story long.
Here, therefore, are the facts in the case. She expected to meet
de Maurienne somewhere at tea, but he did not come; the next time
she saw him she asked where he had been, and he named the house of
another friend. Tactful inquiry soon ascertained that he had not
been there either. The same thing happened three times within ten
days, and Teresa made up her mind that there was another woman in
the case. Being anxious not to lose time, which, at her age, still
had some value, and having no scruples of any sort, she employed a
private detective, who ran the truant de Maurienne to earth on the
third day at the door of a gambling den in Via Belsiana. It is odd
that all detectives should know just where such wicked places are,
whereas the police can hardly ever find them. Why do the police not
employ the detectives, as other people do? But these things are a
mystery.
Teresa was so much relieved that she gave her informant a
handsome present; for, like many people who have nothing, she
often gave lavishly; and having noted the address of the gambling
establishment and the hour at which de Maurienne had twice been
seen entering it, she completed the detective’s work by watching
the door herself. With a veil and a quiet-looking frock she could
walk in the almost deserted street without attracting attention,
and her bearing was not calculated to invite enterprise on the part
of any stray dandy who might pass that way. Indeed, only one man
made the mistake of speaking to her.
She only wanted to be sure that de Maurienne really went to that
house on the days when he could not be found anywhere else; when
she was certain of this her jealousy sank peacefully to rest. She
knew that he would never ruin himself. As for the likelihood of
being recognised by him, she was indifferent to that. She would
have told him that she had been to confession, and would have asked
him to find her a cab.
But in the course of several half-hours spent in this way in Via
Belsiana, about dusk, she saw a surprising number of men enter the
modest door, and now and then she recognised an acquaintance. She
also saw a few come out, who must have gone there early in the
afternoon. It was one of these who made the mistake of speaking to
her as he met her, half a dozen steps from the threshold. She held
her head in the air and quickened her pace, and he did not try to
follow her; but she had seen his face clearly, and remembered it
afterwards, and thought he must have been a foreigner, for he was
fair, with a fresh complexion, and wore grey clothes that had not
an Italian look.
She made her annual round of visits before Christmas, as Romans
generally do, and, like a sensible woman, she did not merely leave
cards everywhere without so much as asking whether people were in;
on the contrary, she was conscientious, and tried to find them at
home.
It was quite natural that she should call on the Countess of
Montalto, but when she did, she was told that Maria was out. This
might happen to anybody, of course, so she wrote a line on her
card to say that she would come again very soon, and drove away.
Two days later she asked for Maria again. Her Excellency was out.
This also might happen, with no intention. Three days after that
she stopped a third time at the entrance of the palace. The tall
porter lifted his black cocked hat with imperturbable serenity and
respect. Her Excellency was not at home.
Then Teresa began to suspect something, and took a card with the
intention of writing a few words to ask when Maria would see her;
and while she was hesitating about the phrase, which the porter
would certainly read before sending it upstairs, she sat in her
little hired phaeton and unconsciously looked in under the great
archway, past the porter, who was waiting at her elbow. Just at
that moment she saw a man coming towards her from within, a fair
man with a fresh complexion, dressed in grey. He glanced at her
and lifted his hat a little, and the porter moved to let him pass,
because the carriage was very near the pillars that stood on each
side of the entrance. Teresa was not above asking questions of a
servant when she was curious.
‘Who was that?’ she inquired, looking down and beginning to write
on her card while she spoke. ‘I know his face, but I cannot
remember his name.’
‘He is the steward of Montalto, Excellency, Signor Schmidt.’
‘Of course!’ exclaimed Teresa as if she now remembered perfectly.
She finished writing, gave the porter the card, and drove away,
meditating on the fact that the steward of Montalto frequented a
gambling den in Via Belsiana and spoke to ladies in the street. It
also annoyed her to think that Monsieur de Maurienne had doubtless
often played at the same table with such people, and had possibly
won money from Signor Schmidt. Teresa was more sensitive on some
points than on others.
Maria did not answer her written message. On the second day Teresa
received a note in a large, stiff handwriting, unfamiliar to her.
Montalto had written himself, in very cold and formal terms, to
request her not to put herself to the inconvenience of asking for
the Countess again.
Nothing could have been plainer, and Teresa flushed angrily.
‘That is what one gets for defending one’s friends!’ she cried, in
a rage.
But she remembered quite well that in her anxiety to defend Maria
she had said a number of extremely disagreeable things about
Montalto’s mother, which were also quite untrue. Some careful
relation had doubtless repeated her observations to him, and now he
refused to let her enter his house. She wondered rather flippantly
what would happen if everything she had said in her life were
repeated to the wrong people, and the idea was so amusing that
she laughed at it. But she bore Montalto a lasting grudge from
that day, and it pleased her to reflect that his steward spent
spare hours in a gambling den and would probably rob him in the
end. She would take great care to keep the secret, lest some one
should warn him in time, but she would also do her best to meet
Maria in some friend’s house, and would tell her what she thought
of her behaviour. She felt the humiliation of having had her name
sent down to the porter’s lodge as that of a person for whom the
Countess was never at home. Such a thing had never happened to her
before.
She was Maria’s enemy now, as she had once been her defender, when
it had suited her to take the side of frailty, which may bend
without being quite broken, against that columnar social virtue
which may possibly break but never bends at all. Teresa’s enmity
was not likely to be very dangerous, however, for she was, on the
whole, a good-natured gossip, and might at any time be in need of a
good word for herself in the dangerous game she was playing.
She reflected with rather unnecessary bitterness on her position as
a defenceless widow, and felt quite sure that if she were Madame
de Maurienne, Montalto would not have the courage to insult her
husband by refusing to receive her.
CHAPTER XV
Castiglione had a sort of rule for avoiding Maria which worked
very well for a long time. There is a great sameness in the lives
of Roman ladies even now, and in a society which is numerically
small it is rarely hard to guess where the more important members
of it are. So long as Maria had lived in Via San Martino, not by
any means cut off from the world, but quite independent of it,
she had been in the habit of coming and going as she pleased. She
could slip out to the little oratory in Via Somma Campagna at seven
o’clock in the morning, she could put on her hat unknown to her
maid and go over to the station to post a letter, she could call a
cab and drive to Saint Peter’s, or she could take Leone with her
at a moment’s notice, on a fine day, for a walk in the outlying
quarters of the city, towards Santa Maria Maggiore. All these
things look very simple, unimportant, and easy, and it might be
supposed that she could have enjoyed the same small liberty after
she had moved back to the Palazzo Montalto.
But she could not. Whenever she went out, there was a footman on
duty in the hall, where the wide swinging door to the landing of
the grand staircase was never fastened except at night. If she was
allowed to go downstairs alone, the footman touched a bell that
rang in the porter’s lodge, and the porter was waiting for her
under the arched entrance, respectful but imposing, and by no means
allowing her to take a cab for herself at the stand, fifty paces
from the door. The cab must be called for her, and two of those on
the stand were privileged by turns, because the cabmen paid the
porter a percentage of what he allowed them to earn. Then, too, the
address to which she wished to be taken had to be given to him, and
he transmitted it to the cabman in a stern manner, as if he thought
the man certainly meant to take her somewhere else and must be
dealt with severely.
As for going out in her own carriage, that was quite an affair of
state, too, though old Telemaco still sat on the box. She could
not go to the telephone whenever she pleased and order him to come
when she wanted him. There was red tape in such matters. Maria had
to tell a footman, who had to tell another, who went downstairs
when he was ready and who was in no hurry to find the coachman; and
difficulties arose about horses which had never been heard of when
she had hired a pair by the month.
Moreover, Leone now had a tutor at home, and was taken to the
clerical Istituto Massimo every morning, because Montalto objected
to the public schools, and Maria was not able to argue the question.
‘Either you believe in our religion, or you do not, my dear,’ the
Count had said.
‘I hope I do,’ Maria had answered meekly.
‘In that case I cannot see how you can even think of sending Leone
to a school where no religion is taught.’
She could not answer this, though she had a suspicion that the boy
might be ‘taught religion’ in some other and better way than at
the day-school. Yet it was better to have him go to the Istituto
Massimo and come home for luncheon, than to lose him altogether
for three-quarters of the year, as she must if he were sent to the
Jesuit school of Mondragone in the country; and that seemed to be
the alternative in Montalto’s mind. He himself had been several
years at the latter place, but Leone had become necessary to him
and he wanted the boy at home. Maria submitted a little more
readily to his decision when she thought of Castiglione, who had
been through a public school and the military academy, and who,
according to her ideas, had no religion at all.
Leone’s schooling, the Count’s methodical habits, and the tiresome
formalities and traditions of existence in the great house combined
to make Maria’s days almost as monotonously regular in Rome as they
had been in Montalto; and as they closely resembled those of other
Roman ladies of the same age who had children to educate, it was
not hard for Castiglione to keep out of her way.
So far as society went it was made still easier, because even after
Christmas, when their mourning was slightly relaxed, Montalto was
evidently inclined to confine his acquaintance to the old-fashioned
and clerical houses, so far as any still existed, rather than to
extend it into the modern circles where Castiglione was more often
seen. Montalto made an exception for Giuliana Parenzo and her
husband.
Similar conditions being granted for any particular case, two
people can live a long time without meeting face to face, even in
Rome; and in a city like London they may not meet in a dozen years
if they wish to avoid each other.
Castiglione faced his life quietly and courageously, but there were
moments in which his intention weakened. At times it seemed to him
impossible that such a situation should last till his regiment left
Rome. Maria was a saint, he admitted, and he had no doubt at all
but that he was a man of honour and meant to respect his promise,
however quixotic it looked. But he did not ‘rise higher,’ as Maria
used to write him that he must, and still prayed that he might. On
the contrary, though he kept his word, he sometimes wished that he
had not given it; the roughly masculine side of his nature rebelled
against the higher life, till he asked himself why, after all, he
was living like a man under vows and avoiding the woman he loved,
for the sake of a dream that was quite past and could never visit
him again.
But these moods never lasted long. It was true that he had not
Maria’s faith in things unseen to help him, nor her beatific vision
of an eternal reward for earthly virtues; but, on the other hand,
he had a strong perception of what was right and wrong, in the
sense that conceives actions as morally noble or ignoble, and brave
or cowardly, and he guessed what Maria was undergoing. He had been
the cause of her suffering, and it would be dastardly to let her
outdo him in courage, knowing that she loved him still. In refusing
to see him she was making the greatest sacrifice she could, next to
the supreme one she had made when she had let her husband take her
back. Castiglione knew that. People who love in earnest do not stop
to ask if they are flattering themselves when they believe that
they are loved in return.
The soldier was not at all analytical, though he had so long led an
inward existence which no one suspected. He knew when his thoughts
were ignoble, and he despised them then and was disgusted with
himself; but during most of the time he merely looked upon the
exceptional life he was leading for Maria’s sake as a duty, and
therefore as something which must be done, whether he liked it or
not. He was rather a rough specimen of manhood, but his nature was
on large lines. Under grosser influences in early youth, he might
have turned out what women call a brute, and perhaps it was only
his love for Maria that had saved him from that. All men saints
have not been born like Bernard of Clairvaux, ethereal, spiritual,
eloquent, and already beings of another world. There have been very
human Augustines, too, and sorely tempted Anthonys without end, and
there have been denying Peters and doubting Thomases ever since
the beginning; and because some of them were men of like passions
with ourselves, most of us feel nearer to them than to the great
ascetics, and we understand them better.
In his thoughts Castiglione called Maria a saint, and compared her
to a Catherine of Siena rather than to a Magdalen; but she, too,
had her moments of passionate regret, if not of weakness; she, too,
was human still, and though she bore her pain like a martyr, she
loved like a loving woman.
Here ends such explanation and repetition as was needed to
make clear what soon happened to her, to her husband, and to
Castiglione. After many months of quiet, when it seemed to Maria
that nothing could ever happen again in her life beyond the daily
round of dull misery, fate took up the action again with sudden and
violent hands.
The two met by accident for a few moments, quite alone. It was
at a hotel, of all places in the world; at a quiet and rather
old-fashioned hotel which is patronised by the great of the earth
when they come to Rome unofficially, for their own pleasure. A
short time ago it was such a primitive place that the lift was
small and was worked from below, like most of those in Roman
private houses.
Now it happened that a certain young couple went to this hotel who
were nearly related to the Count of Montalto on the Spanish side
of his family, and who were of such exalted station that two smart
officers were told off to be at their disposal and to show them the
sights of Rome. One of these officers was Castiglione.
In the natural course of social events the Countess of Montalto
had written her name in the book which people of such overwhelming
importance keep at the porter’s lodge in hotels where they stop,
because cards cannot be left for them as for ordinary human beings,
on account of their inconvenient greatness. On the following day
the Countess was informed that she would be received at five
o’clock, and at three minutes to five her carriage stopped at the
door. The footman informed the porter that her Excellency the
Countess of Montalto came to see their Highnesses, and at the same
instant Castiglione, who was on duty, and in uniform, presented
himself to conduct the Countess upstairs.
It was rather a trying moment, for he had not been told who was
coming, and he was the last person whom Maria expected to see
there. As the footman opened the carriage door Castiglione put
forward his arm to help her out, and she laid her hand upon it as
lightly and indifferently as she could, but a thrill ran through
her to her very feet, and she felt how he stiffened his arm lest it
should shake. After the first glance of recognition they avoided
each other’s eyes.
The porter stalked solemnly before them to the lift, and a moment
later they were alone together in a space so small that they could
hardly keep from touching, while the cage began to ascend with
that extreme slowness which characterises the old-fashioned Roman
contrivances. Maria sat on the narrow little seat, feeling that she
dared not look up; Castiglione stood upright, squeezing his square
shoulders as far back into the corner as he could, and holding his
right hand on the handle of the sliding door. He breathed audibly,
and the lift crawled upwards.
It was almost unbearable for them both. To speak indifferently was
utterly impossible, and silence meant too much. Just as they were
reaching the first floor, Maria rose quickly, expecting to be let
out; but the cage did not stop.
They were face to face now, and very near together, so that
Castiglione distinctly felt her sharply drawn breath as she looked
up at him.
‘It is the next floor,’ he said unsteadily, for he could not take
his eyes from her now.
The meeting had been too sudden, too close; Maria could not bear
it, but Castiglione would have let his right hand be cut off at
the wrist, as it held the door, rather than have moved it towards
her. With the other he held his sabre close to his left side, and
his blue eyes gazed hungrily into hers. A moment more and the lift
would stop; there was only that moment left, for, without looking
away from him, she was aware of the landing just overhead. Then she
spoke.
‘I love you more than ever!’
The words came to him in a fierce whisper. She had never spoken in
that way, even in days of the short sweet dream that was all he had
left. His answer was in his eyes, and in the sudden pallor that
overspread his face, the ghastly white pallor of fair men who are
deeply moved.
Then the lift stopped, the door slid sideways in its grooves, and
he was leading the way through a wide corridor under the electric
light. Maria was not pale just then; there was a little dark red
flush in each cheek, for shame at what she had done.
Her visit was soon over, she hardly knew how, and when she came
out Castiglione was not to be seen. A servant offered to call for
the lift, but she refused it and almost ran down the stairs in her
haste to get out of the hotel. A quarter of an hour later she was
alone in her boudoir, sitting before the small wood fire with her
elbows on her knees and her chin supported on her clasped hands.
She was terrified when she thought of what she had done, and
an unreasoning fear of the future took possession of her. She
felt that she had broken her solemn promise and betrayed her
husband’s unbounded faith in her; for she knew how she had spoken
the half-dozen words, and that if Castiglione had taken her into
his arms then, her lips would have met his instantly, willingly,
passionately. It had not been possible there; but if they had been
in another place, could she have blamed him as she blamed herself?
And by and by, when it was late, perhaps she would hear the
familiar knock at her unlocked door, and the lips that had spoken
those fierce little whispered words to the man she loved would have
to say ‘Come in’ to the man whom she was pledged to honour. That
was the sum and result, after so many months of pain and prayer and
self-abasement, by which she had hoped to rise heavenwards. If only
the man had spoken first, she could have grasped at the straw of
self-excuse, she could have deluded herself with the thought that
she had been tempted. But he had been silent, he had stood quite
still, only looking at her, brave against himself and constant to
his plighted promise. It was she who had tempted him; that was what
she had come to!
There was only one way now, she would tear the thought of him from
her heart for ever, and trample out his memory as men stamp upon
the embers of the camp fire when the wind rises, lest the dry
grass be kindled, and they themselves be burnt to death in the
storm of flame. It was well that Montalto had taken her back and
that the dream had ended in that sharp agony; if there had been no
such waking it would have turned into a reality she shuddered to
think of.
She rose and went to her writing-table and opened a deep drawer.
It was there that she kept the small locked desk she had used in
Via San Martino, the one in which she had put away Castiglione’s
letters, meaning to burn them. With them there was also that letter
of her husband’s in which he had first spoken of reconciliation,
and she had never opened the writing-case since she had placed it
there.
It had been spring when she had left the little apartment, and
there had been no fire in any of the rooms. The fireplaces were
closed with painted boards, in the Italian way, and she had not
wished to excite her servants’ curiosity by taking out the board
and burning a quantity of papers on the clean hearth. Burnt paper
leaves its unmistakable black ash behind it, and the servants might
guess that she had destroyed old love-letters before going back to
her husband. Besides, she had thought them innocent then. She had
thought that some day she might find comfort in reading them over
and recalling the sweetest illusion of her life, the happy and
innocent dream of a love grown pure and true in years of waiting
and trial. The well-loved writing was dearer to her than she would
confess even to herself.
But those letters must be burnt now. She was alone, for Montalto
was hardly ever at home at that hour, and Leone was busy at his
late afternoon lesson with his tutor, after having been out till
nearly sunset. The small fire was burning well, too, and it would
be a matter of only two or three minutes to destroy everything; and
it must be done at once, while she felt the courage to do it.
She lifted the case out of the drawer and set it on the table
before her, turning up the shaded light she used for writing. It
was a little old desk that had belonged to her grandmother, made
of ebony and inlaid with metal and mother-of-pearl in the happily
forgotten taste of the Second Empire. It was of the old sloping
shape, made so that when it was opened the upper part turned down
in front, continuing the inclined plane to the level of the table,
to give enough space for writing; it was one of those primitive
attempts at a convenient travelling writing-case which had seemed
marvels of ingenuity in those days, and look so hopelessly clumsy
to our modern eyes. But Maria’s grandmother had used it for many
years, and it had a lock. Everything could be locked in those days,
though most of the keys were absurdly simple. Maria looked at it,
and remembered that the folding board was covered on the inside
with very faded and threadbare purple velvet on which there were
three or four inkstains; and when the outer cover was down the
upper half of the folding board made a second lid which could be
turned down on the first, and there was a little silk tag fastened
to it, by which it could be moved. Under this second lid was the
body of the desk, a space large enough to contain a good many
papers.
Maria sat at the table with the case before her, and her hands upon
it. She meant to burn all the letters, except Montalto’s, without
reading them. That would be the only way, and it would not take
more than two or three minutes; yet she hesitated, though she had
already taken the little key from the chain on which she had always
carried it.
Might she not at least think for the last time of those dear words?
They had been quite innocent. If worse had come to worst she would
have shown them even to her husband. They were not eloquent, for
Castiglione had small gift for writing. They were not the rough and
uncouth love-letters that such a man might have written; for the
very essence of the lost dream had been that it was to ignore the
earthly love and look forward to the spiritual. He had tried to
follow whither she meant to lead, and what he had written was the
sincere effort, the pathetically imperfect effort, to see something
heavenly through eyes not used to call up the unreal in visions.
She remembered well the awkward wording of his sentences, and the
way he had groped at the meaning of what seemed so clear to her.
He could understand whatever had to do with honour, with courage,
and even with sacrifice, if it were for her sake. But heavenly
things were quite beyond him, and even the earthly paradise she had
tried to show him seemed very complicated. Yet he would try to make
himself comprehend it because all her thoughts were beautiful, and
because she had taught him where true honour lay, in honouring her
honour, and in kneeling at the shrine of her purity, he, a poor
material man.
Her purity! She remembered how the word had looked in his bold
handwriting; and though she was alone, the flush of shame rose and
burned her cheek, so that she laid the back of her cold hand to the
spot to cool it; for her own words were whispered again in her ears.
That echo decided her. There was no time to be lost. It had all
been a lie from the day when he had come to her pretty booth at
the Kermess. Such dreams were inventions of the devil, and nothing
but rank poison. She loved Castiglione more than ever, as woman
loves man, fiercely, desperately, very sinfully, very shamefully.
That was what her whisper had told him plainly enough. Her cold
hands pressed her burning cheeks again, but there was no hesitation
left. She was alone, the fire was burning, and surely no one would
disturb her during the next five minutes.
She thrust the small key into the lock and turned it. It stuck a
little and she pushed it in and out, and turned it to the right
and left with almost feverish haste, till she heard the click of
the tiny bolt, and she lifted the folding board towards her on the
table. Her fingers sought the little faded silk tag by which the
second lid was to be lifted, but it must have been jammed in when
she had last shut the case. She took the first thing that lay under
her hand, a sharp steel letter-opener in the shape of a sword, and
she forced the point a little way in between the lid and the edge
of the ebony case, pressing hard on the little gold hilt. The lid
flew up suddenly on its hinges and fell forwards towards her.
Then her heart failed her. The desk was empty.
She uttered a sort of faltering little cry, and she fell back in
her chair with starting eyes and parted lips, her hands still
grasping the open lid. In the wild confusion of her horror and
the frantic effort of her memory to recall something that had
never been, she was mad for a moment. Had she burnt everything and
forgotten? Or had she put the papers in some safer place, and lost
all recollection of what she had done?
That was impossible. She never forgot what she did, and she had
thought too often of the letters not to be sure that she had last
seen them there. Some one had forced the desk and taken them.
The key had not turned easily, as it had always turned, because
somebody had tampered with the lock. The little silk tag of the
inner lid had been jammed inside by a hand unfamiliar with it.
The details flashed upon her quickly, and in half a minute she
understood that she had forgotten nothing. She had left the letters
in the desk, and they were no longer there. Some one had stolen
them all, and her husband’s letter with them.
She grew slowly cold with fear as she closed the empty desk and put
it into the drawer again; and once more that hideous thought rose
up and tormented her. Montalto had come back to be revenged upon
her for his wrongs, slowly and surely; and that was not all, for he
had come secretly to her room when she was out of the house and had
stolen her letters, for a weapon against her if he needed one.
Who else in the house would have dared to take them?
CHAPTER XVI
Such a thought could have no real hold upon Maria, and she put it
away angrily, as unworthy and ungenerous, even in an extremity
which might have excused her for suspecting some innocent person.
It was much more likely, she soon told herself, that she had been
robbed by some servant in the house, who would sooner or later
attempt to blackmail her by threatening to show the letters to
her husband. As for knowing even approximately when the theft had
taken place, that was impossible. She had opened the writing-case
for the last time in May, and nearly eight months had now elapsed.
It was one of the objects she had formerly always locked up in a
closet in Via San Martino when she left Rome for the summer. This
year she had put it into the deep drawer of her new writing-table,
which had an English patent lock, and she had taken the key with
her to the country; but she knew that patent locks always had two
keys when they were new, and it occurred to her now that she had
never seen the second. Since she had been in Rome again she had
not even locked the drawer, and had felt safe in carrying only the
key of the desk itself. It was impossible to say when it had been
opened, and she realised at once how useless it was to waste time
and thought in trying to detect the thief.
He would reveal himself when he wanted the money. She felt sure
that money only had been his object in stealing the letters, for
she could not imagine that any one should have done it for mere
hatred of her.
The question was whether the thief would demand his price from her
or from Montalto. Most probably he would write first to her, for he
would know that she had some independent fortune. She would give
anything he asked, even if he asked for all she had.
But, on the other hand, he might go directly to her husband. The
thought appalled her; the catastrophe might happen at any moment;
it had perhaps happened already, that very day, since she had seen
Montalto, and she would see the change in his face when they met
at dinner; afterwards, when they were alone, he would bring his
accusation against her, and it would be a more bitter one than the
first had been, long ago. Her shame would be greater, too, before
the world when he left her the second time and for ever, and the
final ruin of his life would be upon her soul.
She wished she had told him everything when she had spoken of her
meeting with Castiglione; but she had judged it wiser not to say
more, for she had felt innocent of all evil then, and the knowledge
that many letters had been exchanged would have sorely disturbed
her husband’s peace. He would have answered her that she should
have written him all the truth before he came home. If she had
only done that, he might never have returned to claim her. Yet
this thought was evil, too, now that she had said those words to
Castiglione in the lift, and she must kill the memory of her lover
in her heart if she had the least respect left for herself, or for
her husband’s honour, or for God’s right.
Even now it would be better to throw herself upon Montalto’s
mercy and confess the truth before the thief wrote to him. She
would rather tell it all, against herself, than let him learn it
suddenly, brutally, from the vile letter in which the blackmailer
would make his demand. It would be easier for Montalto too. At
least he would be warned; at least, if he chose to cast her off
again, she would have given him the weapon, the right, and the
opportunity. Yes, it would be better so.
The brave thought took possession of her quickly. She believed
she saw the right course before her, in the clear light of a good
inspiration. Perhaps Montalto had come home already, though it
was only six o’clock and he rarely came in before seven. She now
recollected that Giuliana Parenzo and Monsignor Saracinesca were
coming to dinner. When her husband told her that he had asked Don
Ippolito to dine, she generally telephoned to Giuliana to come
if she could. The two men often engaged in endless discussions
about the relations of Church and State, during the evening; the
layman believed in the dream of restoring the temporal power of the
Pope, the churchman did not, and had a patriotic affection for his
country and a belief in its future, which made Montalto tremble
for his salvation. At first Maria had derived some amusement from
this anomalous situation, but when she had occasionally ventured
to put in a word for the new order of things, Montalto had been
visibly displeased. After that she had resorted to the device of
asking Giuliana, with whom she could talk quietly at one end of
the drawing-room while her husband and his friend carried on their
unending argument at the other. Incidentally, she often wondered
how such a broad-minded man as Don Ippolito could be so sincerely
attached to such a prejudiced one as Montalto.
To-night she would have to wait till the Canon and the Marchesa
were gone before she could speak to her husband. It would be very
unwise to tell him her story before dinner, though she felt an
intense desire to unburden herself of it at once. She wondered
how she should get through the evening, from eight o’clock till
half-past ten or eleven, without betraying her distress; but to her
own surprise she found herself growing calmer and cooler than she
could have thought it possible for her to be. She was in something
more than trouble; she was in danger from an unknown and dastardly
hand, and she was naturally brave enough to be calmer at such a
moment than under the strain of any purely mental suffering.
She was conscious of impatience more than of fear or want of
strength, for she was going to do the only thing that was brave and
right and truthful, and after that such consequences might come as
must.
She put the empty desk away in the drawer, and after a moment’s
hesitation she unlocked the door of the passage that led to the
chapel, opening it with one hand as she moved the key to turn up
the electric light; she entered, shut the door after her, and went
forwards, absorbed in her thoughts.
Before she was half-way down the long straight part of the passage,
after the corner, the lights went out. She stood still in momentary
surprise and then turned back. The electric light had been put in
by a German company, and the keys were little flat levers that were
kept in place by a spring. Maria thought she had perhaps not pushed
the one at the boudoir door quite far enough to set it, and that
it had sprung back of itself and cut off the current. She retraced
her steps, following the smooth varnished wall with her hand till
she reached the familiar corner, and then her own door. She pushed
the lever both ways but no light came, so she concluded that an
accident had happened to the wires just when she was half-way
through the passage.
There were no candles in the room, but she lit a wax taper she
used for sealing notes. It was a long and thick one, rolled on
itself and fitted into an old silver stand with a handle like a
candlestick, and it gave a very fair light. She threw the match
into the fire, entered the passage again, and made her way towards
the chapel. She went in and set the taper-stand on the marble floor
beside her as she knelt down in the place which was always hers.
Three small silver lamps, fed with pure olive oil and hanging from
the arch over the altar, shed a feeble light which was considerably
strengthened by that from the taper. The ugly barocco angels and
stucco work cast queer shadows above the altar and the walls, but
Maria did not even glance at them and bent her head down over her
clasped hands. The chapel had often been her refuge and her place
of peace, since she had first come there long before dawn in the
night that followed her husband’s return.
As she knelt there now in the silence and gloom she was thinking,
rather than trying to say any prayer; she was going over in
her mind the things she must say to be quite truthful. She was
recalling the words she had once said to Castiglione, the two
innocent kisses she had received from him, the promises both had
given and both had kept until to-day; and in the presence of the
mortal danger that was hanging over her now, she felt that the
whispered words of love she had spoken that afternoon were perhaps
but a small matter compared with it; a sin that concerned her own
soul only, to be confessed, repented of, and forgiven in time,
whereas the main great matters were her husband’s honour and the
happiness she had tried so hard to give him in all ways.
If only she could make him see the truth as she had seen it, he
would understand and still forgive; and her fortune could buy back
the evidence of what had been no real betrayal of his honour. If
only she could tell her true story as she knew it, that would be
the result.
She started as she knelt, and looked round in the dimness, with the
sudden conviction that she was not alone. Her hearing and sight
were very keen, but she was not aware of having heard any sound or
seen any moving shadow in the chapel. The certainty had come upon
her all at once, instinctively, she knew not how.
There was nothing to be seen, but she listened intently with
bent head. A moment later she looked up again, for she had heard
something. Some one was breathing not far from her, and it was that
soft and regular sound that had warned her before she was aware
that she heard it.
Her first impulse was to rise and search the chapel with her taper,
but it occurred to her that Montalto might have come there to say
his prayers, and might be kneeling somewhere out of sight, behind
one of the pillars that supported the arch. He had perhaps heard
her enter, and had not wished to disturb her by betraying his
presence. In his slow way he was very thoughtful for her. She would
go away now, and not let him know that she had heard him breathing.
But perhaps, again, if he were really present, there could be no
better time or place for telling him her story and appealing to his
kindness. Her impatience to do that turned the scale.
‘Diego, are you here?’ she asked softly.
There was no answer, but the breathing ceased for a moment and then
the unseen person drew a longer breath. Maria felt a little thrill
that was not fear; it was more like resentment. She took the taper
from the floor and rose to her feet.
‘Who is here?’ she asked in a louder tone.
Still there was no answer. Perhaps, after all, it was only a cat
that had slipped in when the chapel was being swept, and had gone
to sleep. Maria moved towards the altar, shading the light from her
eyes with her hand and peering over it into the gloom. She spoke as
she walked.
‘I hear you breathing. Show yourself, whoever you are! Come forward
at once!’
She spoke authoritatively and coolly, though at that very moment
something told her that the intruder might be a thief who had come
to steal the famous relic of the Cross that was preserved under
the altar. She looked first to the right and then to the left, and
there, flattened against the wall in the shadow of the pilaster,
she saw the figure of a man. Without hesitating a moment she went
straight towards him. When he understood that he was caught he came
forward at last, and the light of the taper showed her the face of
Orlando Schmidt, the steward.
Maria stopped two paces from him.
‘What are you doing here at this hour?’ she asked sternly.
She had never before seen him pale; he was white round the lips now.
‘I beg your Excellency’s pardon,’ he said with a glibness that did
not at all agree with his looks, ‘I came to see about some work
that is to be done, and when you entered I hid myself in order not
to disturb your Excellency’s devotions.’
The Countess held the small light higher and scrutinised his face
thoughtfully.
‘You are not telling the truth,’ she said with great calmness.
‘What were you doing here?’
‘What I have told you, Signora Contessa,’ he answered stubbornly.
‘There is no work to be done here,’ returned Maria, her tone
growing hard and clear. ‘The Count and I have talked of the chapel
recently. If you do not at once tell me what brings you here, with
no light at this hour, I shall go to the door and call.’
The chapel opened into the ante-chamber, of which the door was
generally open to the outer hall, where a footman was always
stationed.
‘Your Excellency is quite welcome,’ said Schmidt, and his coolness
almost convinced Maria that he had told the truth.
Yet his face was very white and his eyes showed his inward fear.
‘Take care,’ Maria said. ‘The Count has told me how he forgave you
once. I do not wish to ruin you, but unless you tell the truth I
shall call some one. You have either taken the relic from under the
altar or you came here to take it.’
‘You are mistaken, Signora Contessa,’ the man answered obstinately;
‘the relic is in its place. You may see for yourself.’
‘Then give me the keys, for you have them in your pocket.’
‘I have not, Excellency,’
‘I do not believe you.’
Maria held the light so that she could see him while she moved
quickly towards the large door.
‘I am going to call the servants,’ she said, ‘and they shall search
your pockets.’
Schmidt attempted to smile.
‘Your Excellency cannot be in earnest,’ he managed to say, but his
teeth were chattering and he was perfectly livid.
The Countess laid her hand on the lock. It could be opened from
within by a handle, but required a latch-key to open it from the
other side. She watched Schmidt steadily and began to turn the
knob. He looked round in a scared way, as if hoping to see some
means of escape, and her fingers slowly turned the handle of the
door. At the last second he broke down.
‘For God’s sake, Excellency!’ he cried, in utmost fear. ‘I have
taken nothing! I swear it on the altar, on the Sacrament----’
‘Do not blaspheme,’ said the Countess quietly, and she let the
latch spring softly back into its place. ‘If you had not something
about you which you have stolen, you would not be so frightened at
the idea of being searched.’
‘It is the disgrace before the servants----’
‘That is absurd. If nothing is found on you, the blame will fall
on me. You must make up your mind instantly whether you will throw
yourself on my mercy and show me what you have taken, or whether
the men shall search you.’
Her hand moved to the lock again, and Schmidt read in her face that
her patience was exhausted. A southern Italian would have become
dramatic at this point, and would probably have fallen on his
knees, tearing his hair and shedding real tears. But Schmidt was
from the north, and practically an Austrian. He was a thief, he saw
that he was caught, and he made the best of the situation at once.
‘Then I appeal to your Excellency’s generosity,’ he said quietly.
‘I have not touched the relic, and what I took some time ago I had
come to restore when you found me here.’
He produced from his pocket a square package, done up in a clean
sheet of white paper, without string. He handed it to her.
‘You will find here seven letters from the Conte del Castiglione,’
he said, ‘and one from his Excellency. I took them from your
writing-case three weeks ago, and I was going to put them back this
evening while you were at dinner. I heard you coming and I could
not go out by the ante-chamber without being seen. So I cut the
wire of the light and hid myself.’
Maria’s hand had closed upon the precious packet while he spoke.
‘You?’ she cried at last. She was almost speechless with amazement.
‘You took them?’
‘Yes, Signora Contessa, and I give them back and implore your
pardon.’
‘Why did you take them if it was not to extract money from me?’
Maria asked, recovering her presence of mind quickly.
In the storm of her distress she felt as if a wave had lifted her
up and had set her high on the shore, and at the first moment she
was more amazed at the man’s audacity than angry at what he had
done.
‘Signora Contessa,’ he said, ‘the story the Count told you is
true; since he forgave me, there is nothing I will not do for him,
his interest, and his honour. I did your Excellency the great
injustice of suspecting that you still corresponded with the
Signor Conte del Castiglione. I have read the letters and I have
observed the dates. I was wrong. If you think it wise to disturb my
master’s peace by telling him what I have done, I must submit and
bear his displeasure. He will turn me out for having dared to play
detective and spy upon the Signora Contessa in his own house, for
his confidence in you is absolute. Will your Excellency verify the
contents of the package? I will hold the taper, if you will allow
me.’
Maria felt as if she were in a dream, half good, half evil. She
opened the packet while Schmidt held the light, and she quickly
made sure that none of the letters were missing and that each was
complete; that was soon done, for Castiglione had rarely filled
more than one sheet in writing to her.
She laid them all together again and took the taper-stand from
the steward without a word. It was all a dream. If he had been
a villain, he might have had her fortune for what he was freely
giving back to her; but he had nothing. He had not even begged her
not to tell her husband what had happened. It was incomprehensible
beyond all explanation; but one fact remained: she had recovered
the letters of which the loss had nearly driven her mad, within an
hour of finding that they had been stolen. That was the main thing,
and nothing else mattered much for a while.
‘You have a singular way of serving your master,’ she said, as she
reached the door of the passage; ‘but since you have appealed to
my generosity, I shall say nothing to the Count.’
‘I am most grateful to your Excellency.’
He opened the door and held it back while she passed in, and when
he had shut it after her he heard the bolt pushed into its slot.
Then at last he smiled, for though a bolt is generally considered
to be a solid fastening for the inside of a door, this one could
easily be moved from without by an unobtrusive little brass button,
no bigger than a pea, that moved along a slit narrow enough to pass
unnoticed.
Schmidt waited in the chapel two hours. When he knew that the
family was at dinner, he opened the passage door noiselessly and
twisted together the ends of the wire he had cut. He had been badly
frightened, but things had ended well enough; better for him than
for the Countess, he thought.
CHAPTER XVII
Nothing happened during the next week; nothing, that is to say,
which can be chronicled as an event. But the determination which
Maria had formed after her chance meeting with Castiglione gained
strength continually. She went to confession at last, and it was a
bitter satisfaction to be told that she was in mortal sin because
she had whispered those few loving words in the weakness of an
instant; she was reminded that if the mere wish to kill was almost
as bad as the intention, and that the intention was murder and
nothing else, it followed that the most passing wish to be united
with any man but her husband was a betrayal of her marriage vow
only a little less grave than the worst. She replied that she knew
it was. She was warned that she must uproot from her heart every
memory of the man she had loved, if she hoped to be forgiven. She
bowed her head and answered that she wished with all her soul to do
so, and was trying with all her might to succeed.
She had gone once more to the terrible old Capuchin, because she
knew what he would say, and wished to hear him say it. Though the
name of Padre Bonaventura was known to her and to many, he did not
know her and had never seen her face; it was before God that she
accused herself and abased herself, and promised to do better, and
most earnestly prayed for help. The monk remembered her without
knowing who she was, and before he pronounced the absolution she
implored, he said what he believed it his duty to say. It was a
short, harsh homily on the abominable wickedness of the rich and
great, who were so much better taught and so much more carefully
brought up than the poor and the ignorant, and therefore so much
the more responsible for their thoughts and actions. The sin of
the noble lady was a thousand times greater than the fault of the
unlettered hill-woman. Why should a lady of Rome expect to be
forgiven more easily than a peasant?
To this also Maria bent her head, and said she came to confession
as a sinful woman, with no thought of her own station in life;
and at last the Capuchin was satisfied. While she was kneeling in
the quiet church just afterwards, he came out of his box and went
away, and she watched him, remembering how he had stalked away, in
righteous indignation, with his grim old head in the air, after
she had come to him the first time. But now he walked quietly and
slowly, looking down; and before he disappeared he knelt before the
altar a few moments. She knew that he was praying for her, as a
good confessor does for each penitent, and she was humbly grateful.
Even in her inmost consciousness she did not think critically of
what he had said, nor find fault with his scant knowledge of great
ladies’ hearts.
She did not think she had ‘risen higher’ now. Her attempt to
rise by the purification of her earthly love had been a wretched
failure. Henceforth she would dream no dreams of that sort: not
once, in years to come, would she willingly dwell on thoughts of
Baldassare del Castiglione.
It was half-past five o’clock when she reached her home again,
and on the way another resolution had formed itself, on which she
acted at once. She determined to tell her husband everything that
had happened before he had come back. Her reason was a practical
one, strong enough to warrant the risk she was about to take;
for she now distrusted the man Schmidt, who might at any moment
turn against her and use the knowledge he had obtained, and ruin
Montalto’s life by placing her in an utterly false light. It was
only natural that the steward should hate her, since she had caught
him in the chapel, and before long he would try to get rid of her.
Yet she was thinking less of herself now than of Montalto.
She sent for her husband’s valet, and told him to beg the Count to
come to her as soon as he returned.
An hour later he entered the boudoir, looking rather pale and
tired, as she thought. Her resolution wavered for a moment, but
soon returned when she remembered the man who had stolen her
secret, and who might so terribly misrepresent it. That thought had
hindered her from burning the letters as soon as they were again in
her possession, and she had put them away in her jewel-case.
She made Montalto sit down near the small fire, and, to his
surprise, she locked the door that led into the ball-room before
she seated herself beside him.
‘We might be interrupted,’ she said, in explanation.
‘What is the matter, my dear?’ her husband asked.
‘I have something to tell you,’ she answered. ‘You must be patient
with me, Diego. You must try to understand, though it will be hard.
I thought I was doing right, but after a long time I am quite sure
that it was wrong.’
‘My dear Maria,’ Montalto said, ‘if your intention was good, you
did nothing wrong. You only made a mistake.’
‘Thank you.’ She was grateful for the trite words, because she knew
that he meant them. ‘When you came home,’ she continued after a
short time, ‘I told you that I had seen Baldassare, and that we had
parted for ever. You said we need not speak of him again.’
‘Yes.’ Montalto’s face became very grave as he nodded and looked at
the fire.
‘What I told you was true,’ she went on. ‘The last time we met, we
agreed never to see each other again if we could avoid it. That
was quite true. But it gave you a wrong impression. You may have
thought that after you had gone away to live in Spain we had only
met that once.’
Montalto looked at her with a startled expression, but she met his
eyes quietly and honestly.
‘No, Diego,’ she said at once, ‘I did nothing that I thought wrong
or felt ashamed of.’
He turned to the fire with a sigh of relief, but did not speak.
‘He came to Rome a month or more before your mother died,’ she
continued. ‘I had not seen him since--since that time--you
know--long before you first went to your mother. We met by
accident. They had persuaded me to take one of the booths at
Kermess in the Villa, and he appeared quite unexpectedly. You
believe me, don’t you, Diego?’
Montalto turned to her and spoke very slowly.
‘I shall believe every word you tell me. You never told me an
untruth in your life.’
‘No, never. But I thank you for trusting me now. It is not every
man that would. After he came back’--she was careful not to mention
Castiglione’s name after the first time--‘I saw him again and
again; I thought I hated him, Diego, but I loved him still.’
It was hard to say, but perhaps it was harder to hear. Yet her
husband had never known how she had deceived herself into believing
that she hated Castiglione, and he did not turn upon her as she had
expected. His head sank a little, but he was still watching the
burning logs.
‘Do you love him now?’ he asked with an effort.
‘I have promised on my knees and before God to tear every thought
of him from my heart.’
There was no mistaking her tone.
‘That is enough,’ he answered. ‘No one can ask more than that of
you.’
A short silence followed.
‘Is that all, my dear?’ he asked presently in a kind tone.
‘No. There is more, and it will be harder to understand, perhaps,
though it will be easier to say. I found him greatly changed after
all those years; changed for the better, I mean. Then I let myself
believe that we could love each other innocently for the rest of
our lives, and do no wrong, not even to you.’
‘Not even to me.’ There was a sudden bitterness in Montalto’s voice
as he repeated the words.
‘I did not think you loved me still, Diego. You had not forgiven me
then. I felt that my only duty to you was to bear your name without
more reproach, and I did that. There was not a word breathed
against me in those years. You know how I lived, and I had no
secret; what the world knew was all there was to be known. But when
he came back I began to dream of something innocent--that seemed
possible.’
The last sentence choked her a little. Montalto turned to her.
‘Do you regret your dream now? Do you wish it back?’ he asked
sorrowfully.
‘No!’ she said with sudden vehemence. ‘It was not right, it was
wrong! It was not innocent, it was a temptation! It is gone. I will
never think of it again, nor of him, if God will help me to forget.’
‘I am trying to help you, too, Maria.’
The words cut her to the quick. He meant them so truly, he spoke
them so humbly, he loved her so dearly; yet she felt her flesh
creep at his touch and shrank under his least caress, do what she
could.
‘I know you are, Diego,’ she managed to say, and then she collected
her strength to tell what was left. ‘It lasted a month or six weeks
altogether,’ she said, going on quickly. ‘He had exchanged into
another regiment in order not to be quartered in Rome. He was in
Milan then, and he was here on a short leave. He applied to be
allowed to come back to the Piedmont Lancers. While he was in Milan
we wrote to each other. We promised to be faithful and innocent;
we told each other that we would love as spirits love, and meet in
heaven. Then your mother died, and you wrote me that first long
letter, and I answered it; and on the same day I wrote to him and
told him he must not come to Rome, that we must never see each
other again because you were going to take me back. But it was too
late, the matter had been settled already, and he had to come.’
‘Of course,’ said Montalto, in a dull tone, when she paused.
‘I sent for him then. That was the last time, the time I told you
of. He came, and we said good-bye.’
A long pause followed, and Montalto did not move.
‘Is that all you wished to tell me?’ he asked at length.
‘I let him kiss my cheek twice,’ Maria said, very low.
This time her husband turned towards her quickly, and she saw how
very pale he was.
‘Was that when you parted?’
‘No! Oh, no! It was in those first few days when he was here on
leave.’
Montalto seemed relieved, and his face softened; he was still
looking at her, but he did not speak.
‘Can you forgive me that?’ she asked.
‘You meant no harm,’ he said. ‘You were not thinking of doing
any wrong, you were only dreaming of an impossible good. There is
nothing to forgive.’
‘Ah, how good you are to me! How very, very good!’
‘It is only justice, and I love you. How can I be unjust to you
when I see how hard you are trying to do right?’
‘You are one of the best men that ever lived,’ said Maria, and
for a few seconds she covered her face with her hands. ‘Only tell
me,’ she continued presently, looking up, ‘you know all my story
now--have I hurt you very much?’
‘A little, my dear, but it is over already. Think of what I should
have felt if you had not told me these things, and if some enemy,
who knew, had told them as an enemy might!’
He, who was often so dull, seemed to have divined her inmost
intention. She rose from her seat.
‘What is it?’ he asked, moving to stand up.
‘Wait a moment!’
She went into her dressing-room and returned almost instantly,
bringing a large envelope. He was seated again and she stood
between him and the fireplace, facing him.
‘He wrote me seven letters,’ she said. ‘Here they are. I give them
into your hands. Read them, and you will understand better.’
He took the envelope and held it a moment, looking up to her face
with a gentle smile.
‘Thank you, my dear,’ he said. ‘I do not need any proofs in order
to believe you.’
He rose then and tried to pass her, to reach the fire, evidently
meaning to burn the letters at once.
The tears came suddenly to her eyes without overflowing, as they
did sometimes when she was much moved by a generous word or deed,
but she caught at his arm as he was in the act of tossing the
letters into the flames. The envelope left his hand but fell short
and lay on the polished tiles of the hearth. Maria stooped and
picked it up.
‘No,’ she said quickly, ‘you must not burn them yet. I know you
trust me now, but there is that other possibility. Some enemy of
yours or mine may say that we wrote to each other. You must be able
to answer that you have the real letters in your keeping.’
‘That is true,’ said Montalto, and he took the envelope back from
her. ‘I will seal it and put it away.’
He went to her writing-table, and she followed him to light the
little taper in its silver stand and to place the sealing wax
before him when he had sat down. He melted it slowly and spread a
broad patch upon the overlapping point of the envelope, working
the wax neatly round and round till it stiffened, and then putting
on more with a little flame, and working it over till the patch
softened again.
‘Your seal is not ready,’ said Maria, glancing at the ring on his
finger. ‘The wax will get cold.’
He said nothing, but when he was ready he took her own seal,
which lay beside the taper-stand, and pressed it upon the wax.
When he lifted it, there was a clear impression of Maria’s simple
monogram, the doubled letter that began both her names, encircled
by a little belt, on which were engraved the words ‘Risurgi e
Vinci’--meaning ‘Rise again and overcome.’ They are from the
_Paradiso_ of Dante.
Once more her eyes grew dim with gratitude, for she knew what he
meant by using her seal; there was not to be even the possibility
of a doubt in her mind that he might ever open the packet.
He took her pen and wrote on the back, in his stiff and formal
handwriting.
‘In case of my death, to be given to my wife at once.’
‘Then you will burn it, my dear,’ he said, showing her what he had
written.
As she stood beside him her hand pressed hard upon his thin
shoulder, for she was very much touched. He looked up, smiling,
slipped the sealed envelope into his pocket and rose.
‘That is done,’ he said, ‘and we need never think of it again.’
‘You know what I feel,’ she answered softly. ‘I cannot say it.’
They went back to the fireplace and stood side by side gazing at
the flames. He linked his arm through hers without looking at her,
and she did not shrink from his touch, for she was thinking only of
his kindness then. He pressed her arm to his side and then withdrew
his own and looked at his watch.
‘I must be going,’ he said.
‘Stay a little longer,’ said she, and it was the first time she had
ever made such a request.
‘I wish I could. But there is a lawyer waiting for me, and I must
see him before dinner.’
‘A lawyer? Is anything wrong? You looked a little tired when you
came in. Has anything happened?’
‘Yes, my dear, and I wish your judgment were as good as your
heart!’ He smiled.
‘My judgment? What do you mean?’
‘Schmidt disappeared four days ago, and we cannot find any trace of
him.’
Maria was profoundly surprised.
‘Has he taken money?’ she asked after a moment.
‘That is the question. So far we cannot find anything wrong with
his books nor at the bank. But then he is so very “intelligent,”
you know!’
He laughed a little as he reminded his wife of their conversation
at Montalto. It was evident that he did not anticipate any heavy
loss.
‘He was always a modest young man,’ he continued. ‘I hope he has
not taken more than a modest sum!’
He laughed again, at his own little joke, as slow people do, and
Maria laughed too, though rather nervously.
‘I should be very sorry if the mistake I made about him caused you
any annoyance,’ she said.
‘Chiefly the trouble of finding a good man to take his place,’
Montalto said. ‘The lawyer is waiting, my dear.’
He laid his hands on her shoulders before going away and looked
into her eyes. She knew he was going to kiss her, and on any other
day she might have smiled and turned away to hide the intense
repugnance she felt for him. But that was impossible now; she
must not even let her lids droop, as if she did not wish to meet
his gaze frankly. Many months ago, Ippolito Saracinesca had told
her that in this world it is not enough to do right, but one must
also be seen to be doing right. If her eyes had wavered just then,
if she had shrunk from her husband’s kiss, there was just one
possibility that a doubt of her truth might sooner or later creep
out of some hiding-place in his memory to accuse her.
But Maria was a woman, and women have quick ways which we do not
anticipate. Instead of waiting, with her eyes in his, for him to
bend down and kiss her, she put up her hands suddenly to draw
his face to hers, and kissed him heartily on both cheeks; to his
infinite delight, and not, we may hope, to the detriment of her
truthfulness, her recent resolution, or her good faith in any way.
For no one can be held responsible for a physical aversion. Many
persons really suffer if a cat is in the room, and almost faint if
the creature accidentally brushes against them. If any of them read
these lines, they will understand, for that is what Maria felt for
the man who was her husband, and who loved her almost to folly.
CHAPTER XVIII
Two days later Maria received a letter from Naples, addressed in a
round, commercial handwriting. It came with two or three others,
of which she guessed the contents, and she opened it first from
mere curiosity. No one had ever written her a business letter from
Naples.
The envelope contained two sheets of paper. She spread out one of
them to read, but at the first glance she uttered an exclamation
of horror; what she saw was a photographed copy of one of
Castiglione’s letters to her. Her fingers relaxed and the first
sheet fluttered to the floor.
The second lay on the writing-table, and when she could collect her
senses she saw that it was a typewritten communication demanding
the immediate payment of one hundred and fifty thousand francs,
failing which, the photographed copies of seven letters written to
her by the Conte del Castiglione would be reproduced and published
simultaneously in two newspapers, in Rome and in Naples. The money
was to be forthcoming within exactly eight days in the form of
a cheque to the bearer from the National Bank, to be addressed
to Signor Carlo Pozzi at the General Post Office in Palermo, not
registered. If it was not received within eight days, the Countess
would be informed of the fact, and a duplicate of the cheque was to
be sent, not registered, to Signor Paolo Pizzuti at the General
Post Office in Messina. If this were not received, the writer
would take it for granted that the money had not been sent, and
the letters would appear. The photographs were in safe hands, and
would inevitably be published at once if any attempt were made to
arrest the persons who applied for the letters at the two post
offices named, or if, subsequently, any steps were taken to trace
the writer, either through the police or otherwise.
Maria’s first impulse was to send the money at once. She had
been alone in the world so long that she was used to keeping her
own accounts, and she knew that she possessed more than the sum
demanded, in the form of Government bonds. To take these to the
National Bank and get a duplicate cheque in exchange for them would
be a simple matter, and the affair would be at an end. For her, the
amount was a large one, but since she had come back to her husband
she had little use for her own fortune, and did not spend her
income. She would certainly not miss the sum. Immediate surrender
would save Montalto all anxiety and annoyance.
But two objections to this course presented themselves almost
immediately, the one of a moral nature, the other practical.
Since she had told her husband everything, he had a right to be
consulted. The original letters were in his possession, and no
longer in hers; he had trusted her, and she must now go to him
for advice, even if it troubled him, as it would, for if she did
not consult him he would be justified in resenting her want of
confidence in him.
The second consideration was that Leone might some day need
her money, for she had not the least idea of the contents of
her husband’s will. Under Italian law he could not altogether
disinherit a child born in wedlock, and even that moiety of his
fortune which must come to Leone would be very large. But Maria
felt sure that he was aware of the truth, and that many others
suspected it; and there were several collateral heirs to the
Montalto estates, who would not hesitate to claim much more than
the law would ever give them. Besides, there was Leone himself;
who could tell by what ill chance he might some day learn the
story of his birth? If he ever did, she guessed the man from the
boy, and guessed that her son would not keep an hour what was not
universally admitted to be his. He would have nothing, then, but
what she could leave him.
Yet, if only this second reason had influenced her, she would not
have hesitated to pay blackmail and be free. In the course of a few
years, by spending little on herself, her fortune would recover
from the sudden demand on it. On the other hand, if she hid the
truth from her husband, even to save him, and if he ever discovered
it, he might resent the concealment bitterly.
It was morning, and she went to his study at once, taking the
papers with her, and she told him how Schmidt had stolen the
letters and kept them some time, and how she had caught him just
when he was bringing them back. It had never occurred to her that
he had copied them, still less that he had photographed them. She
begged her husband to let her send the money at once and end the
matter.
He had listened with a look of increasing annoyance, and she
laid the sheets on the table before him when she had finished;
but he pushed them back to her without glancing at them, for if
he had done so he could hardly have helped reading some words of
Castiglione’s letter.
‘It is very well done,’ he said. ‘Schmidt is a clever fellow. But
if you had told me at once, he would have been in prison by this
time. He disappeared on the third day after you found him in the
chapel. You must not send the money on any account.’
Maria saw that he was more displeased than alarmed at a possible
danger which looked very serious to her.
‘I am very sorry,’ she said penitently. ‘What is to be done?’
‘I cannot tell. It is a matter, too, on which I cannot ask advice.
There are things of which one does not wish to speak, even to a
lawyer.’
He was evidently very much annoyed; but she saw that she had done
right in coming to him, though it was perhaps too late.
‘But something must be done!’ she protested.
‘Of course we must do something,’ he answered, with manifest
impatience. ‘But it is worse than useless to act hastily. Give me
time! I shall find a way.’
The words were not unkind, but his manner was petulant, like that
of a nervous man who is interrupted when very busy, and is made to
take a great deal of trouble against his inclination. Montalto had
always been inclined to procrastinate, though he could show a good
deal of energy when forced to act.
‘Let me send the money, Diego,’ said Maria earnestly.
‘Certainly not. I forbid you to send it! Do you understand?’
Maria shrank a little, for she was hurt by the words and the tone.
Was not her money her own, to use as she pleased? She checked a
quick reply that rose to her lips.
‘I shall obey you,’ she answered, an instant later, as quietly as
she could.
He was moving his papers nervously and aimlessly from place to
place on the table, arranging and disarranging them, but he looked
up quickly now.
‘I did not mean to speak as I did, my dear,’ he said. ‘Your money
is yours, and you will never need it again. You have a right to use
it as you will. The truth is, I am occupied with a very complicated
question. Forgive me, if I was rude.’
‘Diego!’ She stretched her hand out on the smooth table, instantly
reconciled.
He patted it twice, and smiled rather absently. But he was
evidently preoccupied, and she rose to go.
‘We will talk over this unfortunate affair after luncheon,’ he
said. ‘Will you take me for a drive? It will be easy to talk in the
carriage.’
‘Yes, we will go for a drive,’ she answered.
Standing by the table, and watching his nervous hands that were
busy with the papers again, she unconsciously read the clearly
engrossed superscription on a heavy lawyer’s envelope:--
THE WILL OF HIS EXCELLENCY DON DIEGO SILANI,
COUNT OF MONTALTO
Maria bit her lip as she turned away, realising what that meant. It
was no wonder that her husband was preoccupied just then, for she
could not help suspecting that he had been in the act of drafting
a new will when she had interrupted him, and she guessed that
its tenor would be very different from that of the old one which
lay before him, and which must have been made a good many years
ago, for the thick envelope had the unmistakable, faded look of a
document long put away with others. He had just said, too, that she
would never need her own money again; but he had also told her that
the matter was very complicated.
As she moved away he rose quickly to open the door. That was one of
those formal little acts of courtesy which he had rarely omitted
since they had been married.
She went back to her own room much more disturbed than when she had
left it ten minutes earlier. Her knowledge of her husband’s mind
and character told her that he would find arguments for putting off
anything like real action until it might be too late to act at all;
and yet her own ultimate advantage was doubtless the very reason
why he had resented being disturbed.
It was not her fault if another image rose before her mental vision
just then; but she drove it away so fiercely that it disappeared at
once.
That afternoon, when they were driving together, they came to no
conclusion. Montalto was afraid of being overheard by the men on
the box, and he talked in French. But he was less at home in that
language than most Romans are, and found it much more easy to say
what he knew how to say, than to express what he really meant.
Maria did not know Spanish, which he now spoke better than Italian,
from having lived in Spain and spoken it with his mother during
so many years. Maria chafed as she felt that precious time was
passing, and that such a wretched obstacle as a servant not quite
certainly within hearing was making it impossible to talk freely.
In the evening he was tired, and at first almost refused to
refer to the subject. He said at last, however, that Schmidt was
evidently in collusion with the South Italian gangs of malefactors,
with the Camorra of Naples and the Mala Vita of Palermo. The letter
showed this plainly enough, he said, and those people were capable
of anything, especially including murder. To try and catch Signor
Carlo Pozzi or Signor Paolo Pizzuti would be folly; no such persons
existed, and if any one representing himself as either at a post
office were actually arrested, it would be impossible to extract
a word from him. Those men would go silently to prison for years,
rather than betray an accomplice and be knived or shot in the back
for it within twenty-four hours. There were many instances of
this, Montalto said, and Schmidt had given another proof of his
intelligence in demanding that the money should be paid through
the Camorra or the Mala Vita. He added petulantly that he wished
Schmidt were with him still, because only Schmidt could be clever
enough to catch himself.
Maria tried to laugh, and this put her husband in a better humour.
He said the simplest thing was to have a circular note from the
Chief of Police sent to the Italian press, informing all the
responsible editors of the dailies that an outrageous plot was on
foot to attack the reputation of a lady of Rome by offering for
publication certain alleged reproductions of letters already in
the possession of her husband, who would bring an action, in the
most public way, against any newspaper that even alluded to them.
Maria answered that such a plan would succeed admirably with the
respectable papers; but that, unfortunately, there were some which
were just the contrary, and whose owners desired nothing better
in the way of an advertisement than to be sued for libel, for
collusion in forgery accessory after the fact, or for any other
scandalous offence, because nothing would delight a certain class
of their readers and increase their circulation so much as to
see the name of the Countess of Montalto or any other Roman lady
dragged through the mud.
This was unfortunately true, for Rome was much disturbed at that
time by a revolutionary element of the most despicable sort,
which was stirring up strife in every way, and was at the bottom
of the frequent strikes, almost every one of which led to some
open disturbance little short of a riot. That was the public that
supported the disreputable papers, Maria said, and it would treble
the circulation of any one of them that published a scandalous
attack on decent people.
Maria knew far more about the condition of Rome and Italy than
Montalto. He had exiled himself from his country for years, and
had taken little interest in what happened there, whereas his wife
had always been on intimate terms with Giuliana Parenzo, whose
husband was now Under Secretary for Foreign Affairs, after having
been connected with the Government ever since he had left the
University of Bologna.
It did not occur to Montalto to smile at the thought of having
spent some time every evening in giving Maria a summary of the news
he gathered chiefly from the Vatican newspapers. On the contrary,
he felt quite sure that he understood the situation much better
than she did, and he suddenly forgot the matter in hand and tried
to launch upon one of those arguments in favour of the restoration
of the Temporal Power, in which he delighted to engage with
Monsignor Saracinesca.
But Maria refused to be led so far, and only said it was a matter
she did not understand. She saw it was useless to bring him back to
the point just then, so she listened quietly while he talked alone,
till it was much later than usual. Then he solemnly conducted her
to her own door, kissed her hand with a formal bow, while pressing
it affectionately, and bade her good-night.
She felt almost desperate for a little while after she had
dismissed her maid, for the first of the eight days was gone, and
she saw no reason why Montalto should be any nearer to a conclusion
a week hence than now. When he thought that a question concerned
his conscience or the welfare of his soul, even in the most distant
manner, she knew that he could make up his mind in twenty-four
hours as to what was right, and would certainly act on his decision
at once. But in other matters eight days would seem to him as good
as a year, and having generously accepted Maria’s assurance that
the letters were in themselves perfectly innocent, he could hardly
believe that there was any real danger. It seemed almost certain
that he would reach no conclusion, and that they would be published
before he could be induced to take any steps.
Again, as she lay awake in the quiet night, Maria saw Castiglione’s
resolute face before her as clearly as if he had been standing in
the room. She always slept in the dark, but she sat up in bed and
covered her eyes with both her hands, and prayed aloud that the
vision might not disturb her. She was so sure that he would have
known what to do at once, and would have done it with ruthless
energy.
Her prayers, or her will, or both, drove away the thought of him,
and by and by she fell asleep in spite of her trouble, and did not
wake till daylight.
She would not go to her husband’s study again in the morning, for
he was without doubt still busy over the drafting of his will, and
it would be foolish to run the risk of disturbing him. She felt
very helpless. She had last seen the letters on that night in the
chapel, when she had hastily glanced over them to be sure that
nothing was missing; for when she had gone back to her room she
had resolutely locked them up. That had been the night following
the day of her meeting with Castiglione in the lift, when she had
struggled so hard with herself, and had made her great resolution
to put away his memory for the rest of her life.
The phrases came back to her now, some vividly, some only very
vaguely; but there was the photograph of a part of one to help
her. She tried to think of herself as another woman coming to her
for help, in order to judge coldly of the effect such words must
make on any one who should read them without knowing the truth she
had called innocent; and in an instant it was dreadfully clear to
her that they could only be interpreted in one way. Castiglione
had never had the gift of writing; he had not been able to speak
eloquently and convincingly of a spiritual love in which he could
not believe. He had only found words to tell her that he loved her,
that she was his queen of love, his idol, the saint on the altar
of his heart, that he would do his best to be what she wished him
to be, and that he honoured and respected her above and beyond all
things visible and invisible.
Would any one believe that such language was innocent? Would
any one but her husband have believed her when she said it was?
Giuliana Parenzo had told her plainly that such a relation as she
had dreamt of was impossible; so had Monsignor Saracinesca; and the
implacable Capuchin had refused his absolution so long as she even
entertained the thought of it. The world would most assuredly not
believe that she had been without fault during those weeks; it was
both futile and foolish to hope that it would.
The day passed as she had expected. She met Montalto at luncheon,
and Leone was at the table as usual, so that it was impossible
to allude to the subject. Her husband looked at the handsome boy
affectionately from time to time, and then at Maria, and talked of
little matters; Leone chattered of horses, and Maria encouraged
him, because she herself could find so little to say.
‘Why don’t you have a racing stable, papa?’ he asked at last. ‘You
know quite enough about it, I’m sure; and when I’m a little bigger
I could be your jockey! It would be such fun, and between us we
should win everything!’
Maria laughed a little. Her husband smiled kindly and shook his
head.
‘My dear little man,’ he said, ‘when you are the master of Montalto
and have a boy of your own, you may keep a racing stable if you
like and let your son ride races for you. But I am not going to
encourage you to break your neck! Do you remember that poor lad who
was killed at the Capannelle?’
‘Yes,’ Leone answered, growing suddenly grave, for he had been
taken to the races for the first time on that day, and had seen the
fatal accident. ‘But I shall never be the master, papa, you know.’
Maria’s face changed, and she looked down at her plate.
‘Why not?’ asked her husband, smiling again.
‘Because I couldn’t be, unless you were dead. And that’s
ridiculous!’
‘We shall see, my boy, we shall see,’ answered Montalto. ‘At all
events we need not talk about dying yet. You are quite right about
that.’
The words made a deep impression on Maria, who knew that he was
making a new will. He could only mean that Leone was to have
Montalto, which it would have been in his power to leave to another
branch of his family, or indeed to any one he pleased; and Montalto
meant everything. She could not doubt that he knew perfectly well
what he was doing; he had added one more generous deed to the
many he had done in the course of that large forgiveness that had
brought him back to her.
He could do such things as this, and yet he could not lift his
hand to hinder a disaster that might wreck the honour of his name,
with her own, and Leone’s. He went out after luncheon, saying that
he had an appointment, and she did not see him till dinner-time,
when Leone always had his supper with them, unless some one came
to dine. And later he was in the loving mood she dreaded most. The
second of the eight days had passed and nothing had been done yet.
After two or three more like these, the situation would become
absolutely desperate.
Maria made up her mind that night that if her husband came to no
decision in twenty-four hours, she would go to the National Bank
and buy the cheques. After all it was better to disobey Montalto’s
express injunction, if obedience was to mean ruin.
She longed intensely for help, but there was none in sight. She
could not tell Giuliana all that had passed between her husband and
herself to bring about the present situation; still less could she
appeal to Monsignor Saracinesca, who knew very little of the truth.
On the next day Montalto talked again about a circular notice
to the press, saying there was plenty of time, because the
blackmailer’s letter did not say that the letters would be
published in eight days, but that if the money had not been
received by that time a second demand would be sent to Maria, on
the supposition that the first draft might have been lost, which
would mean a lapse of several days more.
‘Let us go together to the Chief of Police,’ entreated Maria.
‘We need only say that it concerns certain old letters, in your
possession, which might compromise me.’
‘That is quite impossible, my dear, without very mature
reflection,’ answered Montalto, with exasperating calm.
‘But surely we have been reflecting these three days! If you do
not go to the police, how can you ever get a circular sent to the
press?’
‘But, my dear child, there is really no such hurry!’
He did not often call her his ‘dear child’; it was one of his small
ways of showing that he was impatient, and she understood at once
that it was of no use to insist.
‘Diego,’ she said, ‘unless you can find some better way, I shall
send the money to-morrow, although you forbade me to do so, and I
promised to obey you.’
‘My dear Maria,’ he cried, almost angrily, ‘how you take up
every word I say! I certainly apologised to you for using such
an expression as “forbid,” so, for heaven’s sake, let us say no
more about it! I only beg you not to submit to this outrageous
extortion. I entreat you not to send the money. That is all I mean
to say.’
‘I’m very sorry,’ Maria answered; ‘but unless some better way can
be found, I shall have to pay.’
‘It is madness,’ said Montalto; ‘pure madness!’
And, to her great surprise, he got up abruptly and left the room
without another word, evidently much displeased.
For the third time she saw Castiglione’s resolute face before her,
as distinctly as if he had been in the room, and the vision came
so unexpectedly that she felt her heart leap, and drew a sharp
breath. It was so sudden that a few seconds passed before she
made that honest effort of will that was necessary to drive away
the thought of him. When it was gone she felt more desperate than
before. She went and stood at a window that looked over the square;
it was past eleven o’clock in the morning, the day was rainy, and
the square was almost empty. Three cabs were on the stand, and
the huge umbrellas concealed the dozing cabmen. The horses in
their shiny waterproofs hung their heads far down, as if they were
contemplating their more or less broken knees, a melancholy sight
indeed.
Here and there a stray pedestrian came in sight for a few moments,
hurrying along by the wall and presently disappearing into a side
street; a poor woman with a torn green shawl over her head dripping
with water, a student with an umbrella and some books under his
arm, a policeman in an indiarubber hood and cloak, a priest in
a long black overcoat and shoes with silver buckles. He had no
umbrella, and he made straight for one of the three cabs, diving
in under the hood and apron with more agility than dignity. Maria
watched the dismal scene with a sort of depressed interest. Nothing
made any difference, till she could see clearly what was right, for
she was sure that the question of right and wrong was involved.
Would it be wrong to pay no attention to her husband’s entreaty
that the money should not be sent? Or would it be right? Or would
it be neither, and yet be a mistake? She groped for some answer and
could find none. She wanted some strong and energetic friend to
help her, some one with decision and character, even if not very
wise, some man who would fight for her or tell her how to defend
herself.
She crossed the room and came back aimlessly, and looked out once
more. Her husband would have told her that even if she could not
be seen from below, a Roman lady must never look out of a window
in town. She could hear him say it! But when she looked this time,
another of the cabs was gone. Her old travelling clock on the
writing-table struck eleven and chimed the quarter; she turned and
looked at it, and her mind was made up. There was still one cab
left on the stand, and there was still time. Three minutes later
she was downstairs and under the dripping hood, with the leathern
apron hooked up as high as her chin.
‘What address, Excellency?’ inquired the porter, respectfully.
‘The Capuchins, in Piazza Barberini.’
The porter repeated the words to the cabman in his sternest tones,
as if he were ordering that her Excellency should be taken
directly to prison, and the cab rumbled out from under the deep
archway.
She was not going for the sake of confession, for she was not
conscious of having anything on her conscience, but it would be
just as well to go through what would be little more than a form,
in order to ask what her duty was. That seemed to be the point. At
a very critical juncture in her life she turned neither to Giuliana
Parenzo, her intimate friend, nor to Don Ippolito Saracinesca; he
was Montalto’s friend, and she could not put him in the position
of advising her to do what was precisely contrary to her husband’s
wishes; and, moreover, courageous as he was, she did not feel that
he was a fighting man. She went to the grim, uncompromising old
monk; according to his lights he would tell her what he thought,
without the slightest regard for her feelings.
Maria would not have admitted that Montalto’s hesitation filled her
with contempt. How could she despise the husband who overwhelmed
her with undeserved kindness and almost fantastic generosity?
I once knew a most refined and cultivated epicure who sometimes
felt an irresistible craving for a piece of coarse dry bread and
a raw onion, and would go out secretly and buy those things, and
eat them greedily in the privacy of his own dressing-room, after
locking the door lest his own servant should catch him. I have also
heard of women who would rather be beaten black and blue by their
husbands than be treated with indifference.
At that juncture Maria’s conscience and heart craved stronger
and rougher stuff than was to be found in her husband’s nervous
and hesitating character. She wanted some one to direct her
authoritatively, even rudely, and she went to the Capuchin because
she recognised in him the born fighting man as well as the
uncompromising ascetic. If he thought she ought to defend herself
energetically, he would tell her that she must fight, or be guilty
of the mortal sin of sloth; if he believed that mortification of
the flesh was necessary to the salvation of her soul she was sure
that he would order her to walk barefoot from Rome to Naples, and
would be very much surprised if she objected to such a penance. He
had not outlived the thirteenth century, in which his Order had
been founded. What had been good for sinners then was excellent
for them now. If civilisation was to extend to morality and change
the soul’s requirements, then the Church must change too, and as
this was manifestly impossible, the hypothesis was contrary to
sense. His reasoning was sound, though his application of the truth
he demonstrated was sometimes severe to the point of being quite
impracticable. He shook his head, for instance, when he was told
that various bacilli flourished on the pavement of his church,
and that it was not hygienic for penitents to kiss the stones
twenty-five times between the door and the altar rail. He said
there had been no bacilli when he was young, and that the floor was
swept every day.
Maria asked for Padre Bonaventura. The lay brother did not know
whether he was in the monastery at that hour. Would he kindly go
and ask? Certainly, but would the lady kindly give her name? Maria
hesitated.
‘Please say that a Roman lady is here who confessed to him ten days
ago, and also last May.
The lay brother hastened away, slapping the damp marble pavement
with his wet sandals, and the Countess did not wait long. The monk
appeared almost immediately, and went before her to a confessional
box, just bending his head a little as he passed her, but not even
glancing at her unveiled face. Her message had explained enough,
and he had no wish to discover her identity. He probably thought
she had already failed in her good resolution and had come to tell
him so.
But he was mistaken; though he asked her several searching
questions, she answered them all without hesitation, and then told
him the story of the letters and spoke of her husband’s hesitations
and of her own fears; and at last she put the case directly: Would
it be wrong to act contrary to his expressed wish or not? That was
what she had come to ask.
The monk was silent for a few moments, and then asked her a
question in his harsh, unforgiving tone.
‘What is the character of the man who wrote those letters? Is he
what is called a man of honour?’
Maria, on the other side of the perforated brass plate,
straightened herself unconsciously as if she had been offended in
the street.
‘He is brave and honourable,’ she answered proudly, after an
instant.
‘Very well. I suppose he is a gentleman at large, a noble without
occupation in life, is he not?’
‘On the contrary, he is an officer in active service.’
‘Very good. So much the better.’
She thought the old monk’s voice softened a little. She was quite
sure it was less harsh. He had pronounced the words ‘a noble
without occupation’ with an accent of profound contempt, and Maria
did not see how the fact of being an officer in the Italian Army
could be a recommendation in the eyes of a bare-footed friar whose
political opinions might reasonably be thought to be those of
Gregory Seventh or Pope Alexander Third. But Maria said nothing,
and waited for another question. It came, in a kindly tone.
‘If you thought I could help you in your trouble, should you have
any objection to telling me the officer’s name?’
Maria was so much surprised that she did not answer at once. In
all her experience of confessors--and her life had brought her to
many--none had ever inquired the name of any person she spoke of.
‘Not yours,’ the monk added, before she spoke. ‘I do not know who
you are, and I never shall try to find out. But if you will tell me
the name of the officer, I think I can help you, provided you will
trust me. I cannot advise you to send money to the thief, any more
than I can suggest any other plan of action for you. I can only
offer my own help.’
‘But what can you do?’ Maria asked in a puzzled tone.
‘Have you finished your confession?’
‘Yes.’
‘Say the Act of Contrition.’
Maria obeyed, and immediately the monk pronounced the words of
absolution. When all was finished, and after a short pause, he
spoke again.
‘This matter on which you have consulted me has nothing to do with
the confessional,’ he said. ‘Perhaps you would like to go and sit
down quietly for a few minutes and think it over. I will wait in
the chapel, by the door of the sacristy. If you decide to trust me,
come back and tell me the officer’s name and give me some address
where I may find him, for I must see him alone. If you decide not
to do this, you need only leave the church without coming back to
me. I shall understand.’
‘Yes. Thank you. I will go and collect my thoughts.’
She rose, went to a little distance, and sat down on a straw chair.
It was all very strange, but the stern old Capuchin inspired her
with respect and confidence. She could trust him at least not to
lead her into doing anything wrong, and if it were not wrong that
he should go from her to the man she loved, she could allow herself
to believe that a sort of link was made which was better than utter
estrangement. Even that did not seem to be quite without danger,
but the monk was there between them, austere and unforgiving. She
left her chair very soon and went back to the chapel, where he was
kneeling on the step of the altar. As she came near he rose slowly
to his feet, and she looked at his face attentively for the first
time. He had a rough-hewn head, with great gaunt features that
made her think of an old eagle. She came to him, and looked up
trustfully as she spoke.
‘His name is Baldassare del Castiglione, and he is a captain in the
Piedmont Lancers. I do not know where he lives.’
‘I can get his address from the barracks. Will you come here
to-morrow evening, towards twenty-three o’clock or half-past?’
‘Yes, I will be here. Thank you.’
She had a very vague idea as to what time twenty-three o’clock
might be, for she belonged to the younger generation, and she was
going to ask him to tell her, but he left her without waiting for
her to speak again, and disappeared into the sacristy.
As she went out of the church she heard the midday gun, and all the
bells began to ring. It was still raining, and she trod daintily
and packed herself into the dripping cab and went home, wondering
whether any woman she knew had lived a life so strange as hers, or
had ever accepted help from such an unlikely quarter.
After all, it was but to wait one day more, and that would be the
fourth, and the draft could still reach Palermo in time.
CHAPTER XIX
On the following morning Castiglione’s orderly had a severe shock.
The Captain had been in the saddle early, and hard at work, and
as it had rained heavily on the previous day and night, he and
his charger had come in looking as if they had taken a mud-bath
together. If Castiglione had known Greek, he might have thought
of Hector declining Hecuba’s invitation to go up and pray at the
temple of Zeus, on the ground that he was not fit to be seen. The
orderly was doing what he could for boots and breeches when the
bell rang. He opened the door and beheld an old Capuchin monk
whose gaunt head towered far above his own. But this was not
what surprised him, for mendicant brothers and nuns of various
charitable Orders came at intervals to ask for alms at every
landing of the apartment house. When Castiglione was in, he
gave them a few pennies; his chum rarely gave anything. To-day
Castiglione was at home and his friend was out; this meant pennies.
‘I will ask the Captain,’ said the trooper civilly, leaving the
door open and turning to go into the sitting-room.
Then came the shock.
‘Excuse me, but I wish to see the Conte del Castiglione on private
business,’ said the monk. ‘Be good enough to give him my card.’
Now the trooper was a young man who came of decent people in
Umbria, and had been brought up in the fear of God, and went to
hear a mass now and then on a Sunday when he had time. But the
idea that a bare-footed friar could ever, under any conceivable
circumstances, have private business with an officer of the
Piedmont Lancers had never presented itself to him. He stood
staring at the card like an idiot.
‘That is my name,’ the monk said impatiently. ‘Padre Bonaventura of
the Capuchins.’
‘I can read,’ answered the orderly, offended.
‘But apparently,’ retorted the monk, ‘you cannot walk. Now take
my card to the Captain, and say that I must see him on private
business of the utmost importance to him, and at once. Right about
face, march!’
The order was delivered in such a commanding tone, and with such
a military air, that the trooper obeyed mechanically, swung round
on his heels, and tramped into the sitting-room with the card and
the message, shutting the door behind him. When he reappeared a
moment later, he left it open, stood at attention while the monk
went in, and then shut it after him. He returned to his master’s
boots fully resolved to play at the public lottery with the numbers
corresponding to ‘Capuchin,’ ‘officer,’ and ‘surprise’ in the Book
of Dreams, which contains the correct numbers for everything under
the sun except winning.
The sunshine was streaming into the sitting-room when Padre
Bonaventura entered, and Castiglione stood near the door to
receive him, in slippers and a brown dressing-gown of nearly the
same colour as his visitor’s frock.
‘As your business is urgent, Father, you will excuse my
appearance,’ he said politely, but with distinct coldness, for he
was almost as much surprised as his orderly had been. ‘May I ask
what brings you to see me?’
Padre Bonaventura looked round the room, and then at Castiglione.
‘Shall we be interrupted here?’ he inquired. ‘My errand is very
private.’
Castiglione’s bright blue eyes scrutinised the monk’s great head
and eagle features. Being tolerably satisfied that the man was a
genuine Capuchin and not a disguised thief, he opened the door and
called to his orderly.
‘Let no one come in,’ he said, and he came back at once.
The two sat down on straight chairs by a table and looked at each
other.
‘I come to you on behalf of a Roman lady,’ the monk began.
‘A lady!’
Castiglione moved and his face hardened at once. He thought he had
been mistaken after all, and that his visitor was some scoundrel in
disguise, whom he should presently throw downstairs or hand over to
the police.
‘I do not know her name,’ continued Padre Bonaventura with perfect
calm. ‘She only told me yours yesterday. She has been to confess to
me three times since last May. She is in great danger and you must
help her.’
A romantic foreigner might have scented some strange mystery of
the imaginary Italian life described by English poets. Castiglione,
who knew his own country well, only suspected that a fraud was
being attempted, with a view to extracting money from him; or else
that the monk was the ignoble emissary of some one of the fair and
free who live between two worlds and feed the altar of Ashtaroth
with human sacrifice.
‘Unless you can be more explicit,’ he said coldly, ‘I shall not
listen to any more of this.’
An angry light came into the old Capuchin’s deep-set eyes, for he
understood what Castiglione was thinking. But he checked the retort
and told the facts quickly.
‘The lady has seven letters written to her by you during last April
and May.’
The soldier’s manner changed instantly.
‘Have you come from her to bring them back to me, Father?’ he asked
sadly.
‘No. They were stolen by a steward, photographed, and returned. The
man has absconded, and he, or his accomplices, demand a hundred and
fifty thousand francs; if the money is not paid in four days, the
letters will be published here and in Naples.’
‘Not if I am alive,’ said Castiglione, whose face was not good to
see just then, though he sat quite quietly in his chair.
Padre Bonaventura was so much pleased with this answer that he
actually smiled. It was rather a grim performance of its kind, but
it was unmistakably meant to express satisfaction. The Captain had
turned out to be the sort of man he had hoped to find.
‘May I say a few words more?’ he asked.
‘Certainly. I must have more details. Does her husband know of
this?’
The Capuchin told him the story as he had heard it from Maria’s
lips, omitting nothing. He had an extremely good memory.
Castiglione noted the names to which the drafts were to be
addressed. Padre Bonaventura pointed out that it would be worse
than useless to pay the money for reproductions which could be
multiplied and used to extort more.
‘Is that all, Father?’ asked Castiglione.
‘I have a word to say, Captain,’ returned the monk, ‘first as
one man to another, and then as a priest. So far as the one is
concerned we shall agree, for you are evidently a man of honour; as
for the rest, I presume your views about priests are those of most
young military men.’
‘They are,’ Castiglione admitted.
‘That being the case, we shall probably not agree. But as you, when
under orders, would do your duty in your profession, so I must do
mine.’
‘That is just. Pray speak freely.’
‘As one man to another, I only have to say what I see you already
understand. You wrote those letters to a married woman. She should
have burnt them, it is true; but she did not. If she is compromised
by the consequences, the fault is ultimately yours. If there is a
breath upon her honour, there will be a stain on yours.’
‘You put things plainly, for a priest,’ said Castiglione.
‘In that, I do not speak as a monk, but as a man, Captain.’
‘And very much like a soldier. What you say is true, and I shall
act with the conviction that my own honour is in danger.’
‘It is not every man that would do that,’ said the monk
thoughtfully. ‘Most of you, in your class, would say that the fault
was the lady’s in keeping dangerous letters, not yours in writing
them. I come to the second point.’
‘You have something to say from the point of view of religion,
I understand,’ said Castiglione gravely. ‘I shall listen with
respect, though I may not agree with you.’
‘Thank you. In an affair of this kind an officer may always be
placed in such a position as to believe it his duty to fight a
duel.’
‘With an absconding steward and a blackmailer?’ Castiglione smiled.
‘No. With the lady’s husband or brother.’
‘Nothing could be more utterly unlikely in this case.’
‘Nevertheless, as a priest, and because I have been the means of
inciting you to action, I ask you to give me your word that you
will not be led into a duel.’
‘I cannot promise that,’ answered Castiglione. ‘That is a question
about which a priest and a soldier cannot possibly agree. Forgive
me for saying that you know no more of my profession than I do of
yours, Father.’
‘Perhaps. But you may be wrong.’
The old man turned back the left sleeve of his loose and
threadbare brown frock. Castiglione started slightly as he looked,
for the monk’s arm was gone.
‘I left it at Aspromonte, in the sleeve of a red shirt,’ he
said quietly, ‘and I was in orders already. I made submission
afterwards. Perhaps a priest and a soldier may yet agree.’
Castiglione held out his hand across the table, and Padre
Bonaventura took it frankly.
‘I beg your pardon,’ said the Captain. ‘I can promise an old
soldier what I would never promise a priest. I do not foresee any
chance of a duel, but if the possibility of one arises, I will do
my very best to avoid it; I will go as far as I can without being a
disgrace to the regiment.’
‘Thank you,’ answered the monk. ‘I know that is the most I can
expect. As for what you are to do, I cannot advise you, for you
know this modern world better than I. The lady will come late this
afternoon to hear the result of the step I have taken.’
‘Tell her from me----’
‘Stop, Captain!’ The monk interrupted him sternly. ‘I will take no
word from you to her. Whatever you choose to say, you say to me,
and to me only.’
‘Yes--you are right. I repeat what I first said, then. The letters
shall not be published while I am alive to hinder it. If there is
any risk, it will not be in the way of a duel, so the one promise
does not interfere with the other. When the matter is settled,
shall I write to you or go and see you?’
‘In no case write,’ answered Padre Bonaventura. ‘My share in this
matter ends here, and I need neither hear from you nor see you
again. If you do not find a way to make the publication of those
letters impossible,’ he concluded, speaking slowly as he rose to
his feet, ‘you are not the man I take you for.’
Castiglione smiled at the wholesale directness of the final speech,
but only nodded in reply, and accompanied his visitor to the outer
door with evident respect. Hearing steps, the orderly dropped the
boots and sprang out of his little den.
‘Good-bye, Father, and thank you,’ said Castiglione, shaking his
hand warmly.
The trooper could not believe his eyes and ears, and stood
open-mouthed, grinning with astonishment. As the door closed, his
master saw his face and felt a strong desire to box his ears. But
the Captain’s character had changed a good deal of late.
He laid a heavy hand on the young soldier’s shoulder.
‘When you meet him again, salute him,’ he said sternly. ‘That old
monk was with Garibaldi, and lost his left arm at Aspromonte.’
‘Yes, sir!’
Thereupon the orderly went back to the boots with a very grave face.
But Castiglione returned to the sitting-room and did not call
his man for half an hour, during which time he dressed himself
without the latter’s help, as he often did. It was noon when he
went out, and the day was fine. Whatever he had determined to do,
he was in no great hurry, for he strolled along at a leisurely
pace, enjoying the sunshine and the bright air after the rain.
But there was no hesitation as to the direction he meant to take,
and he neither slackened his walk nor hastened it till he reached
the door of the Marchesa di Parenzo’s pretty house, when it was a
quarter-past twelve.
He asked if she were alone, and on being informed that she was, he
told the man to inquire whether she could receive him for a few
moments. She would guess well enough that only an important matter
could bring him at such an hour. He found her in her sitting-room,
for the elder boys had not come home from school and the smaller
children were already at their dinner. As usual, she wore a
wonderfully fitting frock, that looked as if it had just left the
hands of a consummate artist, and an exquisite little pin, of a
perfectly new design, fastened the tie which was in the fashion for
women that winter.
‘I hope you will stay to luncheon,’ she said, as soon as they had
shaken hands. ‘Sigismondo is coming, and there will be no one else
but the boys.’
‘You are very kind, but I can only stay a few minutes,’ Castiglione
answered, wondering how many of the women he knew would take the
trouble to look their best merely for their husbands and their
children. ‘I came to ask a question which may seem strange to you.
Can you tell me anything about that steward of Montalto’s who has
absconded?’
Giuliana’s quiet eyes examined his face attentively. The question
was certainly not one to which she could object; but though she
had always felt inclined to like him, she had always disapproved
of him, and she had distrusted his intentions towards Maria since
he had returned to Rome. To the womanly woman he appealed as a
particularly manly man; to the virtuous matron, far above the
faintest breath of gossip, he represented the wicked and heartless
tempter, going about to destroy.
‘Yes,’ she answered, ‘I heard something about Orlando Schmidt
yesterday. Teresa Crescenzi has a story, as usual. She says that
he played in some place where there is a roulette and lost a great
deal of money.’
‘Oh! That is interesting, if it is true. I wonder how she found it
out.’
‘I have forgotten. I daresay she did not tell us. Sigismondo will
remember the whole story, if you will only wait till he comes in.’
‘I’m sorry, but I cannot stay. Perhaps I had better go and ask
Donna Teresa herself. Are you sure she did not tell you where the
gambling den was?’
‘I think she mentioned Via Belsiana,’ answered the Marchesa, making
an effort of memory. ‘For my part, I did not know that such places
existed in Rome.’
‘At all events you have put me on the right track. Thank you very
much, and good-bye.’
His visit had not lasted five minutes. He hailed a cab and drove to
Teresa Crescenzi’s door, and asked to see her.
She also was very smartly dressed, but with less taste than
the Marchesa. She was alone and was smoking a cigarette when
Castiglione entered the little drawing-room of her apartment.
‘Do stay to luncheon,’ she cried, shaking hands effusively. ‘De
Maurienne is coming, and there will be no one else! You know him,
of course.’
‘Yes, I know de Maurienne,’ answered Castiglione, judging that the
invitation was only meant to forestall any surprise on his part if
the Frenchman appeared; ‘but I cannot stay to-day, thank you. I
have come to you for some information, because you always know the
truth about everything that happens, and when you are in a good
humour you tell it.’
‘I am in a good humour,’ she laughed, and blew smoke towards him.
‘Where is that gambling den at which Montalto’s steward lost money
before he decamped the other day?’
Again Teresa laughed and blew another little cloud at him.
‘Why do you ask me that?’
‘Perhaps I might be thinking of risking a little money at roulette
myself,’ suggested Castiglione.
‘No,’ answered Teresa thoughtfully. ‘You are not that sort of man.
Besides,’ she added with another laugh, ‘if you were, I would not
be accessory to leading innocence astray. You must give some better
reason. Are you playing detective for amusement? Are you trying to
catch Orlando Schmidt?’
‘Oh, no!’ Castiglione spoke with perfect sincerity, and laughed in
his turn.
‘What will you do for me if I tell you?’ inquired Teresa playfully.
‘Anything in reason, and honourable.’
‘Oh! You think I may be unreasonable and dishonourable!’
‘A woman’s idea of honour is not always the same as a man’s, you
know!’
‘I should think not!’ cried Teresa fervently.
‘You see!’
‘You are a good swordsman, are you not, Balduccio?’
‘Fair. Why do you ask?’
‘Perhaps, if you would agree to fight a little duel for me--only
if it were necessary--I might tell you what you are so anxious to
know!’
‘At my age, and in my regiment, we do not fight duels except for
very grave reasons,’ answered Castiglione.
‘Only a little innocent encounter,’ laughed Teresa. ‘Just to
scratch a man’s hand or arm! What is that for a brave man and a
good swordsman like you? Besides, I have made up my mind. I was
only joking at first, but since you do not like the idea, I refuse
to tell you what you wish to know. I have stated my condition, and
you won’t accept it. I believe you’re afraid!’
‘Really!’ exclaimed Castiglione, beginning to be seriously annoyed.
‘Oh, no! It is of no use to argue! That or nothing! Either you are
afraid, or you are not! I call you a coward!’
She turned away to throw the end of her cigarette into the
fireplace. Castiglione moved and saw Monsieur de Maurienne, who had
entered unannounced in time to hear the last words. Teresa had seen
him, too.
‘I fear I am intruding, Madame,’ he said stiffly, and he bowed a
little to them both.
He was a middle-sized and slightly built man of thirty-five,
with somewhat intellectual features; he had soft brown hair and
moustaches and he wore glasses. What he said was warranted by
the tone of mingled irritation and contempt, in which Teresa
had spoken, even more than by the words, since some women think
themselves privileged to insult men. But Teresa held out her hand
to him.
‘Intruding? My dear friend, what an idea! You have come just at
the right moment! Balduccio said something to me which I shall
certainly not repeat, and I told him he was a coward. That is all.
It is of no consequence!’
De Maurienne looked at Castiglione for some explanation, and
evidently expecting one, but the officer was going away without
giving one, which was probably his best course.
‘That is what it means to be an unprotected woman!’ cried Teresa,
in a tone that announced approaching tears.
‘What do you mean, Donna Teresa?’ asked Castiglione sternly,
turning back as he spoke.
‘What right have you to come and say such insulting things to me?
In my own house, with no one to defend me!’ She was sobbing now,
though there was a marked deficiency of tears. ‘Go!’ she almost
screamed. ‘Go, I say! Never speak to me again!’
‘I can only believe you are quite mad,’ said Castiglione coldly.
Thereupon he bowed and went out. He had left the apartment and was
slowly descending the marble stairs when he heard quick footsteps
behind him. He stopped, looked up, and saw de Maurienne coming
down; he knew what that meant, and waited.
‘This cannot end here, sir,’ said the Frenchman.
‘It must,’ returned Castiglione with great emphasis. ‘I see that
you wish to call me to account, but I assure you that nothing will
induce me to fight about such a matter.’
‘Nothing, sir?’
‘Nothing, sir.’
‘Then I have the honour to suggest that the lady had some ground
for the assertion she made, sir.’ The Frenchman spoke quietly and
coolly.
Castiglione’s blue eyes blazed and his throat grew very red above
the line of his military collar. By a tremendous effort of will he
controlled his hands.
‘You are mistaken, sir,’ he said in a rather thick tone.
‘In any case I am at your disposal,’ returned de Maurienne with
contempt. ‘I shall be at home after five o’clock and shall not go
out again. Good morning.’
‘Good morning.’
Castiglione breathed more freely in the street. The whole affair
was utterly incomprehensible to him, for he was not clever
enough to guess that Teresa Crescenzi had long nourished the
hope of making Monsieur de Maurienne fight a duel for her as the
surest means of forcing him to marry her afterwards, and that
Castiglione’s unexpected appearance and the turn the interview had
taken had afforded her the very opportunity she desired. After he
had left the room it had been the affair of an instant to tell de
Maurienne that the officer had brutally insulted her by a coarse
allusion to her intimacy with de Maurienne himself.
As Castiglione walked down the street, his eyes still on fire and
his neck still very red, he asked himself how far he was bound
to keep his word to Padre Bonaventura. After all, no one would
ever connect a quarrel between him and de Maurienne in Teresa
Crescenzi’s drawing-room with Maria Montalto. Yet, in plain fact,
the quarrel was the result of the very first step he had taken on
Maria’s behalf. He must either fight or leave the regiment, unless
de Maurienne would retract his words.
The work of the last half-hour had not been very successful, but he
had got a clue from Giuliana Parenzo which was better than nothing
at all, for he had already made up his mind as to the course
Schmidt must have taken when he found himself in difficulties.
He soon recovered his self-possession, and presently he strolled
into the officers’ club. It was almost deserted at that hour,
for there was then no regular kitchen connected with it. He went
straight to the writing-room, meaning to write a note to his
colonel, for he knew that in such a case it would be best to lay
the matter before him and a council of officers at once, and, in
spite of his great anxiety for Maria, it was absolutely necessary
to give precedence to the affair of honour. The reputation of the
regiment was at stake.
A young subaltern of another regiment was sitting at one of the
tables with a sheet of paper before him, on which he had written a
few words, but he had apparently not been able to get any further,
and was glowering at the opposite wall, the picture of despair. He
rose hastily on seeing a superior officer enter, and Castiglione
nodded to him familiarly and sat down not far away. But he, too,
had some difficulty in composing his note, and as he looked round
in search of a word, he met the young lieutenant’s eyes gazing at
him with an imploring expression. The boy was the son of a former
colonel of the Piedmont Lancers who had been promoted, but had lost
most of his fortune nearly at the same time. The youth’s allowance
was small, therefore, and it was known that he played too high.
Castiglione had a sudden inspiration.
‘What is the matter?’ he asked kindly. ‘You seem to be in trouble.
Can I help you?’
The young fellow flushed and sat up straight.
‘Oh, no, Captain! Thank you very much indeed, but I should not
dare----’
‘Have you lost money again?’ asked Castiglione, in the same
friendly tone.
‘Only five hundred. But you know how it is--we young ones in the
regiment never have any cash, you see----’
‘I will help you this time,’ said the elder man. ‘But only on one
condition.’
The lieutenant was overwhelmed with gratitude.
‘Oh, how kind you are!’ he cried. ‘Anything--I can repay the money
next week----’
‘Nonsense. You will return it when you have it. The condition is
that you take my advice.’
‘And give up playing altogether! Yes, I know I should, but I cannot
promise that.’ His face fell again.
‘No, don’t promise me anything. Promise yourself, as a man, that
you will never play for more than you have in your pocket. Here are
the five hundred francs.’
He put the notes into an envelope, rose, and handed them to the
delighted boy. Not knowing what might happen in the course of the
day, he had taken all of his not very large store of cash with him.
‘I shall ask you a little service in my turn,’ he said,
interrupting his young friend’s voluble thanks. ‘I do not go to
gambling-houses myself, but for a strong reason I want the exact
address of one which is said to exist in Via Belsiana. Do you
happen to remember it?’
‘The one that has a little door opening on the street, with a
foreign doctor’s door-plate over the bell? Is that the one?’
‘Is there any other in the same street?’
‘None that I know of. Of course, one goes there in civilian’s
clothes, and it is open after three in the afternoon, though there
are never many people there till later. The password is made up of
three numbers, twenty-six, eight, seventeen. Say that to the man at
the door and he will let you in.’
Castiglione smiled.
‘You seem to know all about it,’ he said. ‘That must be the one.
If I were you I would not go to such places. Do you remember the
number?’
The young lieutenant remembered it only too well, and gave it
glibly.
‘You will never tell anybody that I’ve been there, will you,
Captain?’ he added.
‘Certainly not! It is no business of mine, but I advise you to give
it up.’
Castiglione destroyed the note he had begun to write and went away,
delighted with himself, and almost forgetting de Maurienne and
Teresa Crescenzi. He looked at his watch. It was now one o’clock.
The gambling den did not open till three, but he would have to go
home to change his clothes. What he hoped for was that he might
find the proprietor in the house before its clients were admitted.
The interview might be a long one, but it was important that the
right person should be altogether at Castiglione’s disposal while
it lasted, and that the place should be quiet. Between three and
five there would be plenty of time to find his colonel and to
procure two brother officers to see him through the affair.
He had never fought a duel, but was not much disturbed by the
prospect of one, though an ordinary encounter with sabres is a
much more serious matter in Italy than in France or Germany. He
had never had a quarrel, because he was not the sort of man whom
most people cared to meddle with, and also because the life he had
led for so many years had never brought him into trouble. A man
who does not excite the jealousy of other men, who pays his debts,
helps his friends when he can and never asks for help, may easily
spend his life in the Italian Army without ever being called out.
CHAPTER XX
An hour later Castiglione was admitted to the little house in Via
Belsiana by a small man with eyes like a ferret and reddish hair,
who shut the street door at once but did not seem inclined to
let the visitor pass beyond the narrow hall without some further
formality.
‘The club is not open yet,’ he said, civilly enough. ‘You probably
do not know the hours, as this is the first time you have been
here, though you have the pass words.’
Castiglione understood that it was the doorkeeper’s business to
know the faces of those who frequented the place. He gave the man
twenty francs by way of making acquaintance.
‘Thank you,’ said the fellow, who had not failed to notice that the
pocket-book from which the notes were produced was well filled. ‘I
presume you wish to join the club, sir?’
He knew his business and was a judge of men at first sight;
a glance had assured him that the newcomer was an officer in
civilian’s clothes, and was therefore perfectly eligible to the
‘club.’
Castiglione only hesitated for a moment.
‘Yes,’ he answered. ‘I should like to see the proprietor.’
‘The treasurer, sir,’ said the man, correcting him politely, but
with some emphasis, ‘is upstairs. If you will kindly step into the
reading-room I will ask whether he can see you. I believe he has
just finished his breakfast.’
Castiglione followed him through a long passage that turned to the
left, and the man unlocked the door of a room that smelt of stale
cigarette smoke. It was dark, but in a moment the doorkeeper turned
up a number of electric lights. The walls were full of mirrors, and
the furniture was of the description which must be supposed to suit
the taste of the wicked, as it is only found in their favourite
resorts. There was a vast amount of gilding, red plush and sky-blue
satin, and the table was covered with dark green cotton velvet,
fastened to the edges with gilt nails, below which hung a green and
pink fringe.
As the place was a reading-room it was natural that there should
be something in it to read. The literature was on the table,
and consisted of a new railway guide, a small framed and glazed
price-list of ‘refreshments,’ in which ‘Cognac’ was offered for the
modest sum of twenty-five francs the bottle, and an old number of a
disreputable illustrated paper.
Castiglione was not familiar with low places of any sort, and he
looked about him with surprised disgust. He was not left to himself
very long; the door opened and a broad-shouldered man with a white
face entered and shut it behind him. He wore a dark morning coat,
very well cut, and the fashionable collar and tie, but he smelt of
patchouli and his light hair curled on his forehead. Castiglione
felt an instant desire to throw him out, and would certainly have
done so at sight if the man had appeared in his own rooms.
‘Good morning. You wish to become a member of the club? Yes? A
little formality is necessary. The committee, which I usually
represent, decides upon the eligibility of candidates. There is no
election, no subscription, and no entrance fee, so that it is a
mere form.’
Castiglione watched the man attentively during this speech, which
was delivered in a glib and oily manner, and he wondered to what
nation the keeper of the gambling-hell belonged, for he had never
seen a specimen of the breed before, though it flourishes from
Port Said and Constantinople to San Francisco by way of Paris,
London, and New York. Like the cholera, it appears to have its
origin in the East. The specimens speak every language under the
sun with equal fluency and correctness, but always with a slightly
foreign accent, and they are neither Christians, Jews, nor Turks,
but infidels of some other kind. He who has not had business with
a Levantine blackleg or a Hindu money-lender does not guess what
guile dwells in the human heart.
Castiglione looked at the ‘treasurer’ and sat down on a gilt chair.
The man followed his example, and they faced each other with the
table between them.
‘Yes,’ said the Captain, as if agreeing to the conditions of
membership, which indeed seemed extremely easy to fulfil, ‘I quite
understand. But before joining your club I should like to ask for a
little information. I am told that the members sometimes play games
of chance. Am I right?’
‘Occasionally,’ replied the treasurer, ‘they do.’
‘Just so. I am an officer, as you may have guessed. Now, in the
other clubs to which I belong, you must be aware that we generally
play with counters, and that we settle once a week. Is that the
practice in your club, too?’
The treasurer smiled. Castiglione thought his face was like a mask
of Mephistopheles modelled in whitish ice-cream.
‘No. We play only for cash here.’
‘A very good way, too,’ said Castiglione in a tone of approval.
‘But I will suppose a case. If, for instance, a member of the club
loses all the cash he has brought with him, and if it is rather
late in the evening, and he wishes to go on playing in the hope of
winning back something, is there no way by which he can borrow a
little money without going home to get it?’
‘Oh, yes,’ answered the treasurer, falling into the snare. ‘When
the committee is quite sure that a member is able to pay we are
always glad to accommodate him with whatever he needs.’
‘I see! That is just as convenient as our system of counters. The
member merely signs a receipt for the money, I suppose, and settles
at the end of the week.’
‘Not exactly. The committee prefers a stamped draft at eight days,
and charges a small interest. You see an accident might happen to
the member----’
‘Quite so,’ interrupted Castiglione, ‘and the draft protects the
club, of course. There is only one more case about which I should
like to ask. Suppose, for instance, that the member in question
did not live in Rome, and that you did not know much about him.
He might be a rich foreigner, who had joined for a few days, and
though he might have come to the end of his cash, he might have
something very valuable about him, such as a handsome diamond or
ruby. Does the committee make an exception for him and accept
anything of that sort as security?’
‘Occasionally,’ replied the treasurer, ‘it does.’
‘Yes,’ said Castiglione in a thoughtful tone, leaning back in his
chair with his hands thrust into the deep pockets of his overcoat.
‘The committee lends money on valuables. That is very convenient.’
He glanced at the treasurer, who was smoking a huge Egyptian
cigarette, which he held with his left hand, while the fingers of
his right played a noiseless little tattoo on the green cotton
velvet of the table; they were white and unhealthy-looking, and
loaded with rings.
‘The object of the committee,’ said the man, ‘is to meet the wishes
of the members as far as possible, and to study their convenience.’
‘As in the case of Orlando Schmidt,’ observed Castiglione, keeping
his eye on the treasurer’s right hand.
The fingers at once stopped playing the noiseless tattoo and
lay quite still, though the treasurer gave no other sign of
intelligence; but that alone might mean a good deal.
‘Who is Orlando Schmidt?’ he asked, apparently unmoved.
‘Surely you remember him,’ answered Castiglione. ‘You cannot have
already forgotten Orlando Schmidt, and Carlo Pozzi of Palermo, and
Paolo Pizzuti of Messina!’
The treasurer’s face did not change, but his right hand moved
and disappeared below the edge of the green velvet to get at his
pistol. Castiglione was ready, and was too quick for him.
‘Keep your hands on the table and don’t call, or I’ll fire,’ he
said sternly.
The treasurer looked down the barrel of a full-sized army revolver,
and beyond it he saw Castiglione’s eyes and resolute jaw. There
is one point in which the breed to which he belonged does not
resemble that of the European adventurer; it is a breed of cowards
always ready with firearms but never able to face them. Moreover,
Castiglione had the advantage.
‘Don’t shoot!’ cried the man in manifest terror.
‘Sign this or I shall,’ answered Castiglione, not lowering his
revolver. With the other hand he pushed across the table a sheet of
paper on which he had previously written something; he then took a
fountain pen from an inner pocket and laid it before the treasurer.
‘Sign,’ he said.
The treasurer offered no resistance, and his fingers shook visibly
as he took up the pen and bent over the paper.
‘Under protest,’ he said feebly.
‘If you write anything but your own name I will kill you. I’m
watching the point of the pen. Never mind reading what is there.
That is my affair. Your business is not to be shot. Don’t sign an
assumed name either, or I’ll pull the trigger.’
In sheer terror of his life the man wrote his own name, or at all
events the one he went by in his business: ‘Rodolfo Blosse.’
‘You have lost the money you lent to Orlando Schmidt,’ said
Castiglione, withdrawing the paper, and quietly waving it to and
fro to dry the signature, ‘but you have the advantage of being a
live man.’
The revolver did not change its position.
‘You seem to think there are no laws in your country,’ said the
treasurer, who was afraid to move.
‘On the contrary we have excellent ones, many of which are made for
people like you. Now I am going. I shall walk slowly backwards to
the door, and if you move before you hear it shut after me you will
never move again. Stay where you are, facing the table, and keep
both hands on it.’
All doors in the resorts of the wicked have good locks, and
Castiglione turned the key after him and went back to the street
entrance, where the ferret-eyed porter was waiting.
‘Always after three o’clock, is it not?’ Castiglione asked
carelessly.
The man nodded as he let him out.
‘Yes, sir,’ he answered respectfully, thinking of the twenty francs
he had just received from the new member.
Castiglione walked briskly to the Piazza di Spagna, and then
slackened his pace and drew a long breath before he lit a cigar,
and repeated to himself the words that were written on the paper in
his pocket. He walked slowly home, and when he was in his own room
he spread the sheet out and wrote below Rodolfo Blosse’s signature:
‘_Witness_, BALDASSARE DEL CASTIGLIONE, _Piedmont Lancers_.’ Then
he folded the sheet again, placed it in an envelope, which he
sealed and addressed to the ‘Reverend Father Bonaventura of the
Capuchins.’
He got into his uniform again, and having placed the envelope in
the inner pocket of his tunic, he went to see his colonel, to
whom he had telephoned before going to Via Belsiana, asking to be
received on urgent business at three in the afternoon. The great
clock in the hall rang the Westminster chimes as he entered; it
was a remembrance of the time when Casalmaggiore had been military
attaché at the Italian Embassy in London.
He gave Castiglione an enormous Havana as they sat down by the
fire, and he lit one himself and offered to have Turkish coffee
made. Castiglione had forgotten to eat anything since he had come
in from riding in the morning, and he accepted gladly.
‘Is it about that mare?’ asked the Duca when he had rung and given
the order.
‘No, not this time.’ Castiglione laughed. ‘I have come for advice
in an affair of honour.’
‘Oh!’ The Colonel seemed annoyed. ‘What a nuisance!’ he observed
with some emphasis. ‘Wait till the man has brought the coffee.
Meanwhile, about that other matter--you have heard of my last
offer?’
The Count of Montalto’s Andalusian mare happened to be the only
thing, animate or inanimate, which the Duca di Casalmaggiore wanted
and could not get; for he did not even hanker after promotion.
There was not an officer in his regiment, old or young, whom he
had not employed in some piece of diplomacy in the hope of getting
possession of the coveted animal, and he began talking about her at
once, showing little inclination to listen to Castiglione’s story,
even when the servant had come and gone and they were drinking
their coffee. He quite ignored the fact that Castiglione and
Montalto were not on speaking terms, or he pretended to do so, for
which the younger man was, on the whole, grateful to him.
‘I am very sorry to change the subject,’ said the Captain, at last,
‘but this affair of mine is rather urgent.’
‘I had quite forgotten it! Pray excuse me and tell me what the
matter is.’
The Colonel settled himself with a bored expression and listened.
He greatly disliked duelling in his regiment, and invariably
hindered an encounter if he could. In his young days a great
misfortune had happened to him; in a senseless quarrel he had
severely wounded a brother officer, who had become consumptive in
consequence and had died two years later.
He listened patiently to Castiglione’s story, and then delivered
himself of a general prediction.
‘That infernal cousin of mine will be the death of one of us yet!’
He sent an inch of heavy ash from his cigar into the fire with a
vicious flick. ‘Why the devil did you go to see her?’ he asked,
very unreasonably.
Castiglione smiled but said nothing. He knew well enough that
Teresa Crescenzi had tried to marry Casalmaggiore, and that the
latter had been forced to make a regular defence.
‘There’s only one way to deal with such women,’ he observed. ‘Marry
them and separate within six months. Then you need never see them
again! What are you going to do?’
‘That is precisely what I have come to ask you, as my chief. The
honour of the regiment is the only question that matters to me. I
shall do whatever you advise. De Maurienne expects to hear from me
after five o’clock. As for the cause of the quarrel, Donna Teresa
must be quite mad.’
‘Mad?’ Casalmaggiore laughed. ‘You don’t know her! Don’t you see
that it is all a trick to make de Maurienne compromise her by
fighting a duel for her, and that he will be forced to marry her
afterwards, for decency’s sake?’
Castiglione looked at his colonel with sincere admiration, for
such tortuous reasoning could never have taken shape in his own
rather simple brain, though he now saw that no other explanation
of Teresa’s conduct was possible. The Duca smiled and pushed his
delicate grey moustaches from his lips with the dry tip of his
cigar, which he never by any chance placed between them. He seemed
able to draw in the smoke by some mysterious means without even
touching the tobacco, for in smoking, as in everything else, he
was a thorough epicure.
‘I hope,’ he said, his words following the fresh cloud he blew,
‘that de Maurienne will at least have the sense to act as I
suggested just now. In France he can do better. He can be divorced
without difficulty. Fancy the satisfaction of divorcing Teresa!
Can you see her expression? And she would be “a defenceless woman”
again in no time. Of all the offensive forms of defencelessness!’
He laughed softly to himself.
‘Meanwhile,’ said Castiglione, trying to bring him back to the
subject in hand, ‘I am afraid something very disagreeable may
happen.’
‘What is that?’ asked the Colonel, following his own amusing
thoughts and still smiling.
‘You see, I have never fought a duel, and as I am not inclined to
let de Maurienne run me through, I might kill him. There would
be very serious trouble if an Italian officer killed a French
diplomatist, I suppose, not to mention the fact that I should have
to spend a couple of years in a fortress.’
‘You are afraid you might upset the European concert, are you?’ The
Colonel seemed much amused at the idea. ‘But it is all nonsense,
Castiglione. There is not going to be any fight.’
‘But the man called me a coward to my face, Colonel! What am I to
do?’
‘Go home and go to bed. It’s the only safe place when Teresa is on
the war-path. If you want an excuse, I’ll put you under arrest in
your rooms, but that seems useless. Go home and go to bed, I tell
you!’
‘It’s rather early,’ objected Castiglione, smiling. ‘And meanwhile
Monsieur de Maurienne will be sitting up waiting for my friends.’
‘Dear Captain,’ said Casalmaggiore, ‘I have not the least idea what
Monsieur de Maurienne will do. If I say that I will be responsible
for your honour as for my own, and for that of the Piedmont
Lancers, and if I tell you that there will be no duel, Monsieur de
Maurienne may sit up all night, for weeks and weeks, so far as you
are concerned.’
‘That is a very different matter,’ answered Castiglione gravely. ‘I
have nothing more to say. If my honour can be safer anywhere than
in my own keeping, it will be so in your hands. Do you really wish
me to stay at home this evening?’
‘Yes, unless you want a couple of days’ leave, though we have a
general order from headquarters not to allow officers or men leave
to go further than three hours by railway. Trouble is expected
owing to these strikes, and we shall probably be doing patrol duty
next week! You may have two days if you like.’
‘Thank you, no. I’ll go home.’
Castiglione made a movement to get up.
‘No, no!’ objected Casalmaggiore. ‘I have not told you everything
about that mare yet. Stay a little longer.’
‘Certainly; with pleasure. But first, if it’s not indiscreet, may I
ask how in the world you are going to settle my affair?’
‘You may ask, Castiglione,’ replied the Colonel with great gravity,
‘but it is beyond my power to answer you; for I give you my word of
honour that I have not the slightest idea. Montalto knows perfectly
well,’ he continued without a break and in precisely the same tone
of voice, ‘that I will pay twenty thousand francs for the mare
whenever he likes, and that’s a large price in Italy.’
After that Castiglione made no further attempt to talk about de
Maurienne, and his colonel kept him till after four o’clock.
CHAPTER XXI
Maria was silent and preoccupied throughout the day, and did not
attempt to rouse Montalto from his apathy. He made no reference
to the letters, though he gave some thought to the subject in the
privacy of his study, and practically decided to consult the police
on the morrow, since no other course suggested itself to his not
very active imagination.
One of Giuliana Parenzo’s horses was lame, and another had a bad
cold, and she telephoned to ask if Maria would take her for a
drive and make a few visits with her. Having no ready excuse,
Maria agreed to the proposal on condition that Giuliana should not
object to waiting for her a few minutes outside the Church of the
Capuchins. She had ascertained from her maid, who was a Roman, that
twenty-three-and-a-half o’clock meant sunset at all times of the
year, which seemed to her a clumsy way of reckoning, the more so as
she had to make further inquiries in order to ascertain the hour
at which the sun actually went down. It turned out to be about a
quarter before five, but as she was not quite sure, she thought it
best to go at half-past four. If Padre Bonaventura had not come in
she could wait for him. Giuliana probably had some visit to make at
one of the modern hotels in the vicinity, for she and her husband
necessarily knew many foreigners.
Accordingly, at half-past four, when the brown front of the old
church was just beginning to glow in the evening light, the
Countess’s carriage stopped before the steps. Giuliana had said
that she preferred to wait, as she had nothing to do in the
neighbourhood, but, to Maria’s surprise, she now also got out.
‘It is a long time since I was here,’ she explained, ‘so I have
changed my mind. I shall not be in your way if I stay near the
door.’
‘In the way? How absurd!’ Maria laughed a little as she went up the
steps.
They parted just inside the door; Giuliana knelt down by a straw
chair on the right, while Maria went up the church diagonally
towards the left, in the direction of the confessional which Padre
Bonaventura usually occupied.
She found him in the last chapel on the left, by the door of the
sacristy, in the act of shaking hands with Castiglione, who was
evidently taking leave of him. Coming upon them so suddenly when
the evening glow through the upper windows made the church very
light, it was out of the question to draw back into the shadow. The
monk saw her first, but Castiglione turned his head a second later,
and the three were standing together.
Maria drew herself up very straight in the effort to check a cry
of surprise, and Castiglione made rather a stiff military bow;
but she saw his eyes in the rosy light, and he saw hers. A moment
later he was gone, and her ears followed the musical little jingle
of his spurs as he went down the nave towards the door, near which
Giuliana Parenzo was kneeling.
But while she listened she was looking into the monk’s face, and
her own was pale and had a frightened expression.
‘It could not be helped,’ he said in a low voice. ‘I did not know
he was coming, and you are here early. If there is any fault it is
mine.’
Maria listened in silence. He held out the sealed envelope
Castiglione had brought him, and she saw the well-known writing.
‘This is addressed to me,’ continued Padre Bonaventura, ‘but I give
it to you unopened. It contains a document which will relieve you
of all anxiety about your letters.’
‘Already!’
‘Yes. He has lost no time. He is a man of action.’
The monk could not withhold a word of admiration, and Maria felt
the warmth in her cheeks.
‘Indeed he is!’ she answered in a low voice. ‘Thank him for me!’
‘I have thanked him. That is enough, and we may never meet again.’
‘I may at least be grateful to you,’ Maria said.
‘My share has been small. I must leave you now, for there is some
one waiting to confess.’
He left the chapel, but Maria remained a few moments longer. When
she was sure that no one could see her she slipped the sealed
envelope inside her frock, for she did not like to trust it to
the little bag in which she carried her cards, her handkerchief,
and her money. She had almost forgotten Giuliana till she met her
standing by the door, and saw the look of surprise and reproach in
her eyes.
They went down the steps side by side in silence, and neither spoke
till the carriage was moving again.
‘I really think you might choose some other place in which to
meet,’ said Giuliana at last.
Maria had expected something of the sort from her impeccable friend.
‘We met by accident, and we did not speak,’ she answered quietly,
for she knew that appearances were against her.
‘I did not know that he ever entered a church,’ returned Giuliana,
who was well acquainted with Castiglione’s opinions in matters of
religion.
‘Very rarely--at least, when I knew him.’
Maria was not inclined to say more, and Giuliana thought the
explanation anything but sufficient. Maria had always been very
truthful, but when unassailable virtue is suspicious it always goes
to extremes, and tells us that the devil is everywhere, whereas,
since he is usually described as an individual, and by no means
as divine, it is hard to see how he can be in two places at once.
Maria was aware of her friend’s state of mind, but was too much
occupied with her own thoughts to pay any more attention to it
after having told the truth. The sealed envelope that came from
Castiglione’s hand lay inside her frock, upon her neck, somewhat to
the left, and it was burning her and sending furious little thrills
through her; yet it would have to lie there at least another hour
while she made visits with Giuliana.
She left the latter at her home at last, and they had never parted
so coldly in the course of their long friendship. When Maria was
alone in her carriage, in the dark, she opened her frock again
and took out the envelope and put it into her bag, for she could
not bear to let it touch her any longer, and the recollection of
Castiglione’s eyes had not faded yet.
To drive the vision of him away she thought of Giuliana, and
reflected upon the extreme foolishness of her friend’s suspicions.
If the two had meant to meet in the chapel, though only for an
instant, it would have been easy to warn Castiglione that Giuliana
was in the church, and that he must wait for her to go away before
showing himself.
The carriage descended the Via Nazionale on the way home, and had
gone a hundred yards further when it stopped short, to Maria’s
surprise, and at the same moment she saw a villainous face almost
flattened against the glass. Telemaco turned the horses suddenly to
the right and drove quickly along the Piazza dei Santi Apostoli,
which was almost deserted. The Countess dropped the front window of
the brougham and asked what was the matter.
‘There is a riot in Piazza di Venezia, Excellency. They are
throwing stones.’
Maria raised the glass again. It was only another strike, she
thought, or an anarchist’s funeral, and the carriage would go round
by another way. Such disturbances were frequent that winter, but
never seemed to have any serious consequences.
When she was at last alone in her boudoir she cut the envelope and
spread out the sheet it contained. It was strange to be reading
something written in Castiglione’s handwriting, and to feel that it
was her duty to read it.
This was what she read:--
‘I, the undersigned, proprietor of a gambling-house in Via
Belsiana, and representing Orlando Schmidt, the absconding steward
of the Count of Montalto, and my accomplices calling themselves
Carlo Pozzi of Palermo and Paolo Pizzuti of Messina, do hereby
declare and confess that the photographs of seven letters, more
or less, purporting to be written by Her Excellency the Countess
of Montalto, by means of which I, and my aforesaid accomplices,
have criminally attempted to extort money from her, are reproduced
from forgeries executed by the aforesaid Orlando Schmidt, who
had surreptitiously obtained specimens of Her Excellency’s
handwriting. Rome, this eleventh day of January 1906.
‘RODOLFO BLOSSE.
‘_Witness_: BALDASSARE DEL CASTIGLIONE,
‘_Piedmont Lancers_.’
Castiglione had not hesitated to force the blackmailer to declare
the letters to be forgeries. Maria guessed why he had done that,
as she sat reading the paper a second time. He had suspected
Schmidt of having really forged such words as she would never have
written, she thought; and he had in some way extracted the truth
from the man who signed the paper. In that case her danger had
been even greater than she had imagined. What abominations might
not have been forged in her handwriting! Yes, Castiglione was a
man of action, indeed, as the monk had said. Poor Montalto had
hesitated and done nothing for days, and in a little while some
vile newspaper would have scattered broadcast a scandal from which
no recovery would have been possible. But within twenty-four hours
after she had spoken to Padre Bonaventura the man who loved her
had found the chief criminal and had made him sign a document, on
the strength of which no judge would hesitate to send the whole
gang to penal servitude. ‘Witness, Baldassare del Castiglione’; the
well-loved name rang in her ears, the name of a man on whose honour
there was no slur before the world, nor any in her inmost thoughts
now; a name after which every officer and non-commissioned officer
in the regiment would write his own blindfold, if need were,
because they all knew him and trusted him.
She folded the paper slowly, letting her fingers linger where his
had touched it last, and she put it back into the cut envelope
and looked at the seal. It was the same he had used long ago, in
the dark ages of her life--a plain, old-fashioned shield with his
simple arms and the motto in Latin: _Si omnes ego non_.
Maria knew whence it was taken, with but a slight change. There was
a mark in the margin of her old missal at the Gospel for Wednesday
in Holy Week opposite the words, and the whole line read, ‘Though
all forsake Thee, I will not forsake Thee.’ She had never had the
courage to erase that mark, not even in the years when she had
deceived herself. Year after year, when the day came round, she had
read the noble words; and many times she had read them bitterly,
thinking of what followed afterwards and of him who, having spoken
them, denied not once but thrice, and with an oath. She read them
now on the dark wax, under the bright light, and after a little
while she pressed the seal gently to her lips, the seal that held
the motto she loved, not the paper he had touched.
‘In all honour,’ she said gravely, under her breath.
CHAPTER XXII
Soon after five o’clock the Duca di Casalmaggiore sent in his card
to Monsieur de Maurienne. The diplomatist was engaged in examining
an etching by Robetta with a huge lens, under a strong light, and
was too much interested to desist until the Colonel was actually
in the room. He received his visitor, whom he knew very well, with
that formal courtesy which is considered becoming when an affair of
honour is to be discussed. He had expected a couple of officers of
Castiglione’s rank, and had asked two of his own friends to hold
themselves in readiness if he telephoned for them. He was surprised
that only one representative should appear for his adversary, and
that he should be no less a personage than the Colonel of the
regiment.
Casalmaggiore did not even seem inclined to behave with the solemn
gravity required on such an occasion. He sat down on a comfortable
chair and laid his laced cap unceremoniously upon a little table he
found at his elbow, instead of holding it in his hand and sitting
bolt upright with his sabre between his knees. De Maurienne thought
that Italians took duelling in much too free and easy a way, and he
stiffened a little and sat very straight. He was not prepared for
what was coming. Casalmaggiore spoke in French.
‘I shall begin by making a little apology,’ he said, leaning back
and folding his gloved hands.
De Maurienne’s eyebrows went up, high above the gold rims of his
glasses, and he spoke in a politely icy tone.
‘Indeed! I cannot see how any can be required from your side, under
the circumstances!’
‘Not from our friend Castiglione,’ answered the Colonel, ‘but on my
own behalf. I must really beg your pardon beforehand for what I am
going to say--always placing myself entirely at your disposal if I
should unintentionally offend you. Is that quite clear?’
‘Perfectly.’
‘Thank you. You are the victim of an unworthy trick, my dear de
Maurienne. I am going to take the liberty of explaining exactly
what has happened to you, by giving you the details of what
had just occurred when you entered Donna Teresa Crescenzi’s
drawing-room.’
De Maurienne looked at his visitor in surprise, and not without
some suspicion.
‘Donna Teresa is a connection of mine,’ observed Casalmaggiore,
‘and I know her extremely well. What I have to say about her should
not offend you. Castiglione came to me this afternoon and told me
the story. I know him to be a perfectly truthful and honourable
man, and I know that he is incapable of fear. Indeed, he does not
know what fear is.’
‘Allow me to say,’ said de Maurienne, ‘that with us, in France,
matters of this kind are discussed between the friends of the
principals. Is the practice different in your country?’
‘Not at all. But this is quite another sort of affair. I,
personally, give you my word that what I am going to tell you is
what really happened. You will understand that if I, as colonel,
give my word for that of one of my officers, I am fully aware of
the responsibility I undertake.’
‘This changes the aspect of things, I admit,’ said de Maurienne
gravely, but less coldly.
He had never been placed in such a position, nor had he ever heard
of just such a case.
‘Practically,’ continued the Colonel, ‘it transfers all the
responsibility to me. I know Castiglione to be a man of accurate
memory, and as soon as he was gone I wrote down precisely what he
had told me. Here it is.’
He took out his note-book, found the place, and read aloud a
precise account of what had passed between Teresa Crescenzi and
Castiglione up to the moment when de Maurienne had entered the
room. De Maurienne listened attentively.
‘My cousin--her father was my mother’s cousin--is a very ingenious
woman,’ concluded Casalmaggiore with a smile, and pocketing his
notes again. ‘I am sorry to say that I have known her to exhibit
her ingenuity in even more surprising ways than this.’
‘She told me that Castiglione had accused her of meeting me in an
equivocal place,’ said de Maurienne.
‘No doubt. We are rather afraid of her in Rome, and very much so in
the family.’
‘What is her object in all this?’
‘I hope I do not offend you by saying that my good cousin has
determined to marry you,’ answered Casalmaggiore, still smiling
faintly. ‘I should not expect you to share her enthusiasm on that
point. It would not be precisely tactful of me to ask if I am
right, but I shall be so free as to take it for granted. That being
the case, you cannot fail to see that if she led you into a duel on
her account, she would thereby be forcing you to compromise her to
such an extent that many persons would think you ought to marry her
as a matter of honour. If a man even distantly related to her, such
as I myself, for instance, took up a quarrel for her, there would
be at least the excuse of relationship, but there is not the shadow
of a reason why you should do such a thing, even if there were
any cause! That is all I have to say. I repeat that I am at your
disposal, if I have said anything to offend you.’
Monsieur de Maurienne was perfectly brave, and though he was no
duellist, and not even a good fencer, he would have faced the first
swordsman in Europe without turning a hair; it is therefore no
aspersion on his courage to say that he was afraid to marry Teresa
Crescenzi, though he thought her very pretty and amusing, if a
little vivid. The point explained by the Colonel had not escaped
him either, and he had spent a very unpleasant afternoon.
He considered the matter for a few moments before he spoke.
‘You have done me a great service,’ he said. ‘I have known
Castiglione several months, and, without any disrespect to Donna
Teresa, I must say that I was not fully persuaded of the exactness
of what she told me. I thought your cousin’s manner a little
strained--let us put it in that way.’
‘It is impossible to speak of a lady with greater consideration,’
said Casalmaggiore.
‘But I was placed in a difficult position, and very suddenly. Such
things happen now and then. Perhaps, in the same situation, you
yourself, or Castiglione, would have acted as hastily as I did.’
‘Quite so. Even more hastily, perhaps.’
The Colonel was thinking that under the circumstances he would have
told Donna Teresa exactly what he thought of her, taking advantage
of relationship to be extremely plain.
‘Castiglione,’ continued de Maurienne, ‘behaved in the most
honourable and forbearing way. I take great pleasure in saying that
I sincerely regret the offensive expressions I used, and that I
entertain the highest respect for him. Will you permit me? I will
write him a short note, by your kindness.’
‘Thank you. It will be much appreciated.’
A quarter of an hour later Castiglione’s orderly received another
shock to his nerves. When he answered the bell and saw his colonel
on the landing, resplendent in a perfectly new uniform, the trooper
flattened himself at attention against the open door with such
precision and violence that the back of his head struck the panel
with a crack like a pistol shot, his eyes almost started out of his
head, and he was completely speechless.
The Captain was in his sitting-room, poring over a new German book
on the functions of cavalry in war, and a well-worn dictionary lay
at his elbow. He started to his feet in surprise.
‘I think you will find this satisfactory,’ said Casalmaggiore,
handing him de Maurienne’s note and sitting down.
Castiglione read the contents quickly, still standing.
‘What in the world did you tell him?’ he asked in amazement.
‘The truth,’ answered the Colonel, suppressing a slight yawn, for
the whole affair had bored him excessively. ‘It is amazing what
miracles the truth will perform where everything else fails! If
Teresa could only realise that, she would simplify her existence.
As you have not gone to bed, in spite of my advice, come and dine
with me. I’ve got another idea about that mare, and I should like
to talk it over with you. I think it will succeed.’
Castiglione laughed a little.
‘I will come with pleasure,’ he said. ‘What is the new idea? I
thought you developed the subject pretty fully this afternoon.’
‘This has occurred to me since,’ answered Casalmaggiore gravely.
He was silent for a moment, pursuing his favourite scheme.
‘Castiglione,’ he said, rising suddenly and looking at his watch,
‘if you ever let Teresa guess that I have interfered with her
plans, I’ll court-martial you!’
‘Never fear!’ The Captain laughed again.
‘As for leave, I’m glad you would not take your two days. There is
a general strike again, and we shall certainly have some patrol
work to do, if nothing worse. After you had left me I got another
message from headquarters.’
CHAPTER XXIII
Two days later Montalto informed Maria after luncheon that he had
an appointment with the Chief of Police at three o’clock, and
had decided to lay the whole matter before him and to leave it
altogether in his hands. It had taken Montalto almost a week to
reach this final decision, and Maria had devoutly hoped that he
would never act at all. She thought it would be like him to put off
doing anything till he convinced himself that the blackmailer’s
letter had been an idle threat, never to be put into execution;
but she was mistaken in this, for Montalto never left quite undone
what he believed that it was his duty to do, and in the present
case, though he had been so slow, he was really in much greater
apprehension of a scandal than Maria understood.
The people who are the hardest to live with are often those who
speak the truth, and nothing but the truth, but not the whole
truth. It is never possible to be sure what they are hiding from us
out of prudence or shyness, prudishness or delicacy; it is the most
difficult thing in the world to find out precisely what they know
and what they do not know, without putting direct questions which
would be little short of insulting.
Montalto was such a man. His power of keeping his own counsel
without telling an untruth was amazing; and his own counsel was
not always wise. It was this characteristic of his which had twice
suggested to Maria, in moments of despair, that he had come back
to revenge himself upon her by systematically torturing her to
death. Mediocrity is never so exasperating as when it affects to be
inscrutable.
‘I have not thought it best to talk much with you about the
letters, my dear,’ Montalto said. ‘In such cases it is the man’s
business to act.’
Maria smiled faintly. She foresaw much useless trouble if he
carried out the intention he had been so long in formulating,
though she knew nothing of the ways of the police. For two whole
days she had lived in the certainty that she was safe, and the
thought that the whole story was to be told again, to a stranger
and by her husband, was very disturbing. On the other hand it
seemed all but impossible to show Montalto the blackmailer’s
confession, written in Castiglione’s handwriting, and signed by him
as a witness.
‘Perhaps,’ she suggested, ‘since it is already so near the eighth
day, we had better wait until they write a second time, as the
letter said they would.’
Montalto looked at her in surprise, and paused in the act of
reconstructing one of his Havana cigarettes.
‘Why, my dear?’ he asked. ‘You yourself urged me to act, before I
had time to form an opinion, and you seemed distressed because I
took a day or two to think it over; and now you suddenly advise me
not to act at all. This is very strange. I do not understand you.’
He waited for her to answer him, and he saw that she hesitated.
‘You must have some very good reason for changing your mind so
unexpectedly,’ he said, in a discontented tone, and resumed the
rolling of his cigarette.
Maria felt the difficulty of the situation, for which she was not
in the least prepared; she had been very sure that he would not do
anything in the matter, because she hoped that he would not.
‘Also,’ he continued, ‘why do you speak of more than one person?’
‘More than one?’
‘You said: until “they” write a second time. What reason have you
to suppose that any one is concerned in this but Schmidt?’
She had been thinking of the wording of the paper, of Blosse and
his ‘accomplices.’
‘The letter mentioned two other names,’ she said.
‘I have no doubt that Schmidt goes by twenty,’ returned her husband
testily. ‘You know very well that Pozzi and Pizzuti both stand for
Schmidt!’
He lighted his cigarette, and smoked in silence for some moments.
‘I cannot understand why you have changed your mind,’ he repeated
at last. ‘You must have some reason.’
Maria attempted a little diplomacy.
‘Don’t you think a second letter, if it should come, might give a
better clue for the police to work on, or might--what do they call
it?--strengthen the evidence against Schmidt?’
‘There is evidence enough already to send him to penal servitude,
if we can catch him,’ answered Montalto. ‘I really cannot see what
more is needed!’
‘Except that--to catch him,’ suggested Maria. ‘I really think that
another letter----’
‘Absurd!’ Montalto was seriously annoyed with her by this time.
‘Something has happened to make you change your mind. Am I right or
not?’
Maria turned a little pale and bit her lip. But she would not tell
an untruth.
‘Yes, something has happened,’ she answered.
‘What?’ The single word was pronounced with a good deal of
sharpness.
Maria turned to him.
‘I would rather not tell you,’ she said gently. ‘It is quite
useless for you to go to the police, for the letters will not be
published.’
She spoke in a tone of perfect certainty that surprised him.
‘You seem very sure,’ he said.
‘I am quite sure.’
‘And you object to telling me why you are. Very strange!’
‘I don’t “object,” Diego. I only say I would rather not. I ask you
not to question me.’
‘My dear,’ answered Montalto, ‘only reflect upon what you are
saying. In the first place, you are a woman, and you may be
mistaken.’
‘I am not. I assure you I am not.’
If she had been less anxious to pacify him she would have asked if
men never made mistakes.
‘I confess I should like to judge of that, considering that the
honour of my name is at stake,’ said her husband.
‘Your name is safe, and mine too. Please, please don’t ask me to
tell you!’
‘Maria, there is some mystery about all this, and I cannot consent
to let it go on. It must be cleared up. It is my duty to ask what
you have done to stop the publication of those letters.’
She made a last appeal.
‘You have forgiven me so much, Diego. You have trusted me so much!
I only ask you to trust me now--there is nothing to forgive!’
‘You may as well say at once that you have sent a cheque to that
scoundrel,’ said Montalto angrily. ‘You have thrown it away. He
still has the photographs, and as soon as he wants more money he
will threaten us again. I warned you not to do that!’
Maria hoped desperately that if she remained silent he would
continue in this belief. But the obstinacy of an over-conscientious
person who has a ‘duty’ to perform is appalling.
‘Have you sent the money?’ he asked severely, as soon as he was
sure that she did not mean to say anything in reply.
‘No.’
‘Then you are ashamed of what you have done. There is no other
explanation of your silence, my dear. You yourself must see that.’
He said ‘my dear’ in a tone that exasperated her.
‘No,’ she cried vehemently, ‘I have done nothing to be ashamed of!
You must find some other explanation of my silence, if you insist
on having one!’
‘Your conduct is so extraordinary,’ Montalto replied, in an
offended tone, ‘that I can only account for it in one way. Instead
of trusting to me, you have allowed some one else to help you, and
you are ashamed to tell me who the person is.’
‘I am not ashamed!’ Maria drew herself up now, and her dark eyes
gleamed a little. ‘But I will not tell you!’
‘There is only one name you would be ashamed to let me hear in this
matter. If you persist in your silence I shall know that you have
been helped by Castiglione.’
Montalto’s eyes were a little bloodshot, and fixed themselves on
hers. She did not hesitate any longer.
‘I never lied to you, and I am not ashamed of the truth,’ she
answered proudly. ‘Baldassare del Castiglione has helped me.’
Until she had actually told him so, in plain words, Montalto had
wished not to believe what he had guessed. His face had been
changing slowly, and now she saw once more, after many years, the
look it had worn when he had first accused her, and she had bowed
her head. When he spoke again she remembered the tone she had not
heard since then.
‘As you are not ashamed to say so, I suppose you will not mind
telling me what he did.’
‘You shall see for yourself.’
She left the drawing-room, and he sat quite still during the few
seconds that elapsed; quite still, staring at the seat that she had
left. For he loved her. When she came back she stood before him. He
took the paper from her hand and read it with difficulty, though he
had known the handwriting well enough in old times. He read it all,
to the name of the regiment after Castiglione’s signature. Then he
handed back the paper.
‘I have been mad,’ he said slowly and almost mechanically.
She misunderstood him.
‘You see that I was right,’ she said. ‘Your honour is safe.’
His face changed in a way that frightened her. She thought he was
choking. An instant later he sprang to his feet and left her side,
pressing both his hands to his ears like a man raving. His voice
rang out with a mad laugh.
‘My honour!’
Maria laid one hand on the back of the chair he had left, to steady
herself, for the shock of understanding him was more than she could
bear. Scarcely knowing that her lips moved she called him back.
‘Diego! Diego! Hear me!’
‘Hear you? Have I not heard?’ He turned upon her like a madman.
‘Have I not heard and remembered every word you have spoken, those
eight months and more? How you would tear the memory of that man
from your heart? How you called God to witness that you would
forget him? How you and he took an oath never to meet again? Have I
not heard you, and forgiven, and believed, and trusted, and loved
you like the miserable fool I am? And you ask me to hear you again?
Oh, never, never! You have promised and you have lied to me, you
have called God to witness and you have blasphemed, you have asked
for trust and you have betrayed me with that man--and now you tell
me he has saved my honour. My honour! My honour!’
Maria closed her eyes and grasped the chair. But she would not bend
her head to the storm as she had bowed it long ago.
‘I am innocent. I have done none of these things.’
She could find no other words, and he would not have listened to
more, for he was beside himself and began to rave again, while she
stood straight and white beside the chair. Sometimes his voice was
thick, as his fury choked him, sometimes it was shrill and wild,
when his rage found vent. But each time, as he paused, exhausted,
to draw breath, her words came to him calm and clear in the
moment’s stillness.
‘I am innocent.’
His madness subsided by slow degrees, and then changed all at once,
and he was again in the mood she remembered so well. He came and
stood still two paces from her, his eyes all bloodshot but his face
white.
‘How dare you say you are innocent?’ he asked.
She held out the envelope in which Castiglione’s writing had come
to her.
‘It is addressed to my confessor, who gave it to me,’ she said.
He came nearer and steadied his eyes to read the name, for his
sight was not very good.
‘Do you think such a trick as that can deceive me?’ he asked with
cold scorn.
‘Send for him,’ said Maria. ‘Your carriage is at the door, for you
were going out. Go and bring him here, for he will come.’
Montalto looked at her with a strange expression.
‘Go to the Capuchins,’ she said calmly. ‘Ask for Padre Bonaventura,
and bring him back in the carriage. He will not refuse you.’
‘Padre Bonaventura? Old Padre Bonaventura?’ He repeated the name in
a dazed tone, for he knew it well, as many Romans did.
‘Bring him here,’ Maria said. ‘He will tell you that it was he who
went to Baldassare del Castiglione and asked his help and received
this paper from him on the evening of the same day. He will tell
you, too, that at the very moment when it was placed in his hands
I came for the answer, and we met, face to face, and looked at
each other; but we did not speak, and Castiglione went away at
once. Giuliana Parenzo was with me, and was waiting for me inside
the door; she saw him go out a moment after we had come. Will you
believe her? If you still think I am not telling the truth, will
you believe my confessor?’
While she was speaking she looked at him with calm and clear eyes
in the serenity of perfect innocence. And all at once he broke down
and cried aloud with a wail of agony.
‘Maria! What have I done?’
Then he was at her feet, his arms round her body, his face buried
against her, sobbing like a woman, as she had never sobbed, rocking
himself to and fro like a child, as he had rocked himself when he
had first come back to her, kissing her skirt frantically. And his
unmanly tears ran down upon the grey cloth.
She felt a little sick as she bent and tried to soothe him,
forcing herself to lay kind hands upon his head, and then gently
endeavouring to lift him to his feet, while he clasped her and
implored her forgiveness in broken words. But she was very brave.
He must not guess what she felt, nor feel that the hand that
smoothed his hair grew cold from sheer loathing of what it touched.
There are women living who know what that is, and are brave for
honour’s sake; but none are braver than Maria was on that day. She
would not leave him for a moment, after that, until it was past
seven o’clock. Little by little, as she talked and soothed him, she
brought him back to himself, with the patience that angels have,
and never need where all is peace.
She had a respite then, and Giuliana Parenzo and Monsignor
Saracinesca came to dinner, which made it easier. Afterwards, too,
Montalto and his friend talked as usual and argued about Church and
State, and no one would have suspected that the grave and courteous
host, with his old-time formalities of manner and his rather solemn
face, had raved and wept and dragged himself at his wife’s feet
that very afternoon.
The Marchesa was still inclined to show Maria a little cool
disapproval when she came. The younger woman felt it in the almost
indifferent touch of her hand, and in the distinctly airy kiss that
did not come near the cheek it was meant for. The two had not seen
each other since they had gone to the Capuchin church together; but
Giuliana, who was just and sensible, had made several reflections
in the meantime, and had come to the conclusion that, after all,
Maria and Castiglione might have met by chance, though why in
the world a man who believed in nothing should happen to be in a
church, and in that particular one precisely at that hour, was more
than she could explain. It was very odd, but perhaps Baldassare was
converted; and the good Marchesa said a little prayer, quite in
earnest, asking that he might be. Possibly, she thought immediately
afterwards, Maria had converted him, and she hoped this might be
the case, as it would explain so many things. Giuliana herself had
once attempted to influence him, out of sheer goodness of heart,
long ago, and had talked religion to him in a corner after a dinner
party for a whole evening, a proceeding which might have started a
little gossip about any other woman. She had tried to expound the
Nicene Creed to him, article by article, but just as she reached
the ‘Life of the World to come’ he fell sound asleep before her
eyes, after one of the most puzzling and painful experiences in his
recollection, for he had been in the saddle all day at a review,
and the room was so warm that it made him understand the Descent
into Hell in the only sense the words had ever conveyed to him.
Confidence was presently restored between the friends and Giuliana
began to talk about the news of the hour; about strikes, as
regarded from the ministerial point of view; about the probability
that the Ministry would fall before Lent, merely on general
principles, because that seems to be the critical time of year in
politics, as it is for gouty patients; and, lastly, about Teresa
Crescenzi.
‘I am not given to prying into other people’s affairs,’ Giuliana
said, ‘but I should really like to know the truth about her and de
Maurienne.’
‘I fancy she will marry him in the end,’ observed Maria, rather
indifferently, for she was still thinking of the strikes and the
disturbances in the streets, and wondering whether there was any
risk in sending Leone all the way to school at the Istituto Massimo
every morning, though his tutor took him there and brought him home.
‘De Maurienne has left Rome very suddenly,’ said Giuliana, ‘and I
am inclined to think that Teresa is to be an “unprotected widow” a
little longer.’
‘She must be growing used to it!’ Maria laughed a little.
‘The French Ambassador told Sigismondo that de Maurienne had asked
for leave very suddenly, and that, as he seems to think that
diplomacy consists in the study of etchings, no objection had been
made. Teresa is evidently furious. She says he told her that he was
going to Paris in order to be present at an art sale, but that she
believes he has run away from a duel. Have you not heard that?’
Giuliana looked at Maria quietly, but saw no change in the warm
pallor of her friend’s face, nor the least quivering of the eyelids.
‘No,’ Maria answered, unsuspectingly. ‘I have heard nothing. Does
Teresa say who it was that wanted to fight with him?’
‘Yes, but I don’t believe a word of it. She says it was Balduccio.’
‘Why in the world should he quarrel with Monsieur de Maurienne?’
Maria turned innocent eyes to meet Giuliana’s.
‘Teresa does not explain that,’ laughed the Marchesa, ‘but she
darkly hints that the affair which did not come off concerned
herself!’
‘How silly she is!’
Indeed, the absurdity of the story was so apparent, that Maria
would not ask any more questions. She was continually doing her
best to keep Castiglione out of her thoughts, and the painful scene
with her husband during the afternoon made it all the harder for
her. She changed the subject.
‘Giuliana,’ she asked, ‘shall you let your boys walk to school or
even go in the tram while the strike lasts?’
‘Oh, yes!’ answered the Marchesa. ‘But the trams have stopped this
afternoon. Have you not been out? The boys walk in the morning, for
there is never any disturbance till much later. All good anarchists
dine comfortably, and often too well, before they go out to howl in
the streets.’
She laughed carelessly.
‘I daresay you are right,’ Maria answered. ‘I never let Leone
be out in the city on foot or in trams after luncheon. Three or
four times a week he rides with Diego in the Campagna, and they
generally go as far as one of the city gates in a cab, but I always
send Diego’s little brougham to fetch them. I’m afraid they may
both catch cold in a cab after riding.’
‘Your husband is very fond of it, is he not?’
‘Yes, and he rides well, and looks well on a horse--particularly on
that lovely little Andalusian mare he brought from Spain.’
‘The one the Duca di Casalmaggiore is so anxious to buy?’ inquired
Giuliana.
‘The Colonel of the Piedmont Lancers?’ Maria wondered whether her
friend was trying to lead the conversation back to Castiglione
again. ‘I did not know he wanted her.’
‘My dear! He thinks of nothing else! He would like to make it an
affair of State. The other day he came to see Sigismondo and talked
about the mare for three-quarters of an hour, trying to induce him
to use his influence with me, to use my influence with you, to
use your influence with your husband, to induce him to sell the
Andalusian for twenty thousand francs! I think he must be quite
mad! It is an enormous price for a saddle-horse, and he has offered
it through half a dozen people. I wonder that Diego should not have
spoken of it to you.’
‘He never tells me anything,’ Maria replied. ‘But I can guess what
he must have answered. He probably said that the Count of Montalto
buys horses but does not sell them!’
Giuliana laughed.
‘I did not know you could be so malicious, Maria! That is precisely
what he did say.’
‘I did not mean to say anything disagreeable, I’m sure,’ returned
Maria. ‘That is Diego’s way; he is old-fashioned. The idea that a
Count of the Holy Roman Empire could possibly sell anything never
occurred to him.’
‘My father is just like him in that,’ observed Giuliana.
‘So was mine! It is the reason why he left me only just enough to
live comfortably, instead of several millions. If I had not been
his only child we should have starved!’
‘We were ten, and nine of us are alive.’ Giuliana laughed. ‘When
my father and mother were sixty--you know they are just the same
age--there were thirty-two at table, between us and our children!’
‘Look at the Saracinesca family,’ said Maria. ‘Old Prince Giovanni
was an only son, I believe, and now they are like the sands by
the sea! As far as numbers go, there is no fear of the old Roman
families dying out!’
‘Your husband was an only son, was he not?’ Giuliana asked.
‘Yes.’
‘And you have only----’ The Marchesa checked herself--‘yes,’ she
concluded with that extreme vagueness that comes over us all when
we have half said something quite tactless.
But Maria chose to complete the thought.
‘Yes,’ she said quietly, but not at all vaguely. ‘Do you wonder
that I am anxious about letting my only child go about on foot when
there are strikes?’
‘No, dear, I don’t wonder at all, though I do not think there is
any real danger.’
‘I suppose presentiments are very foolish,’ Maria observed
thoughtfully. ‘Do they ever trouble you, Giuliana?’
‘Not often. But I remember once being oppressed with the certainty
that Sigismondo was going to die in the course of the winter. It
haunted me day and night for weeks and weeks. I used to dream that
he was lying dead on the dining-room table. It was always the
dining-room table, and at last I got nervous about sitting down at
it.’
‘Well? Did anything happen?’ Maria seemed interested.
‘Oh, yes! The children had the mumps.’ She spoke thoughtfully.
Very sensible people who are by no means stupid sometimes say
things that would disgrace an idiot child. But Maria did not laugh.
‘The other night, after I had left you,’ she said, ‘there was some
sort of demonstration in the Piazza di Venezia, and the carriage
stopped a moment before turning another way. A man looked through
the window, trying to see me in the dark. I could see him plainly
under the electric light. It was a horrible face, flattened against
the pane, and though I did not pay much attention to it at the
time, it comes back to me and frightens me when I know that Leone
is out in the streets with his tutor. Perhaps he is only going to
have the mumps!’
She tried to laugh now.
‘A tutor is generally supposed to be a sufficient protection for a
boy,’ observed Giuliana, not much impressed. ‘Yours is a good-sized
man too, and Sigismondo always says that keeping order in a city
depends on the delusion that big men are more dangerous than short
men. At all events most people think they are, and your tutor looks
like an ex-carabineer.’
‘I’m sure he is a coward,’ said Maria nervously. ‘He would think
only of saving himself if there were any danger! I’m sure of it.’
‘It’s all imagination, my dear,’ said the practical Marchesa. ‘Your
love for the boy makes you fancy that all sorts of impossible
things are going to happen to him.’
‘Giuliana--perhaps I’m very foolish to be made wretched by a
presentiment, but if any harm came to Leone----’
She stopped short. The conventional phrase ‘I should die’ was on
her lips, but before it was spoken she realised that it meant
nothing to her, and checked herself.
‘Of course, of course!’ answered Giuliana in a motherly tone. ‘I
quite understand that. I’m fond of my children, too; I know just
what you feel.’
‘It’s not the same for you, Giuliana,’ said Maria in a low tone.
‘I’ve only Leone, you know.’
‘Leone and your husband,’ corrected Unassailable Virtue.
‘Yes, Leone and my husband.’
Maria did not resent the correction. Even Giuliana did not suspect
that she was desperately unhappy in more ways than one, and it was
better so; but she silently thought of what her life would be if
Leone were taken and her husband were left.
CHAPTER XXIV
The strike was an obstinate one, and lasted longer than had been
expected. This story is not concerned with the theories or the
practices of the so-called Chamber of Labour in Italy. It is
enough to say that the organisation has neither the importance nor
the intelligence of similar bodies in other great countries, and
that instead of tending to the scientific socialism of Bebel, its
leaders, or its tyrants, are distinctly of the anarchist class, and
all they know about the French Revolution is that it had a Reign
of Terror which they hanker to restore. There are true socialists
in Italy, as there are many true republicans, but they must not be
classed with the raving rowdies who force honest workmen to leave
their work and who howl and throw stones in the streets. Beyond
this, nothing need be said about the general strike during which
the Countess of Montalto was haunted by a tormenting presentiment
that something dreadful was going to happen to her son.
The facts, so far as they affected her, were simple enough. During
some days the instigators of disturbance appeared at more or less
regular hours, chiefly in the neighbourhood of the Piazza di
Venezia, where they made wild and foolish speeches that stirred
up a row which occasionally led to the throwing of a few stones.
The city police and the foot carabineers then appeared to disperse
the crowd, and generally succeeded in doing so without trouble
when it was ready for its supper, or tired of its amusement, or
had any sufficient reason for going home. There was not much more
spirit in the whole thing than there used to be in the last days
of town-and-gown rows in Oxford and Cambridge. But such as the
disturbances were, they had become a great nuisance, and the strike
itself was extremely irritating to all the better classes, to whom
it was a source of great inconvenience.
The city authorities asked Headquarters for troops, Headquarters
asked the War Office, the War Office asked the Ministry, and the
Ministry, being rather shaky just then, did nothing in particular.
Nevertheless, the orders usual at such times were quietly issued,
the troops in garrison were in readiness if needed, and no more
leave was granted to officers or men.
Meanwhile the Romans grew tired of the whole senseless affair, by
which everybody was losing money and nobody was gaining anything,
and the more respectable citizens felt that it was time that law
and order should be restored. The simplest plan, since no troops
were forthcoming, seemed to be to help the police in arresting
rioters who objected to being handcuffed; for the policemen
did their best, and on the whole did well, with a good deal of
forbearance, but the result was not always satisfactory, and many
of the force were more or less badly hurt; very few were hit by
bullets, for a revolver is one of the safest playthings in the
world except when everybody is quite sure that it is not loaded,
and then it usually kills some one on the spot; but a good many
men were badly wounded by stones, some were severely beaten, and
several were stabbed.
On the day when Giuliana dined with her friend it had happened
that two policemen were trying to secure a big rioter who defended
himself vigorously with a stout blackthorn stick, and they were
getting the worst of it. The hour was just after twelve o’clock,
when a number of Government clerks had left a neighbouring public
office together, to get their mid-day meal at an eating-house; and
they stopped in a body and watched the fight.
One of the policemen received a blow that almost broke his arm, but
the other almost immediately caught the striker’s heavy stick and
tried to wrench it away; and still the knot of Government clerks
watched the struggle. In sheer exasperation the man who had been
hurt spoke to the bystanders.
‘You might help us, instead of standing there looking on!’ he cried.
The little body of respectable men, who had supposed that they had
no right to interfere, did not need any further invitation. They
sprang forward, threw the man down, and proceeded to administer a
sound thrashing with their sticks, after which they held him while
the astonished and delighted policeman slipped on the handcuffs.
Not feeling that their duty ended there, the clerks followed
quietly in a body till they saw the prisoner passed into the
nearest police station; after which they went to lunch.
The matter did not end there. The news of what they had done spread
from mouth to mouth in a few hours, and their example was followed
by other citizens. The policemen went about in pairs, and before
night each couple of them was under the protection of a dozen or
fifteen sober, respectable citizens, who walked behind at some
distance, chatting and smoking, but armed with serviceable sticks.
The police scored no more failures in effecting arrests during
the afternoon, and there was no crowd in the Piazza di Venezia at
sunset.
But the matter did not end there either. If the citizens protected
the police, the Chamber of Labour, as it calls itself, would
protect the rowdies. They needed it too, for on the next morning
the citizens went about in considerable force, and when they came
upon a suspicious-looking individual they asked him civilly if he
were a striker. If he answered in the affirmative they gave him a
good drubbing and left him to his meditations. In most cases the
man denied the imputation indignantly and made off at a round pace.
The decent working men stayed at home, as they had done from the
beginning, and mourned the hour when they had joined the Chamber of
Labour.
The rowdies showed fight, in accordance with the resolutions
passed on the previous evening, and began to parade the streets
in bands, many of them carrying revolvers in their pockets, and a
good many armed with the much more dangerous knife, which Alphonse
Karr used to call the ‘weapon of precision.’ The citizens had
only their sticks, but they made good use of them. They meant
to represent law and order, and knives and pistols are forbidden
weapons. Excepting the places where the two parties were actually
in collision, the city was silent. The shops opening directly on
the pavement were shut; the cabmen, who belonged to the Chamber of
Labour, were also on strike, but most of them, as it afterwards
turned out, were having a quiet holiday in the country. The trams
were not running, for drivers and conductors belonged to the
organisation, and the Municipality or the Government was afraid
to man the cars with soldiers. A few private carriages were
to be seen, but the occupants as well as the coachmen were in
considerable danger.
Nevertheless, a good many people walked about as if nothing were
happening. It was not a revolution; the Government offices and
schools were open, the strikers had no reason for interfering with
the postal telegraph offices, and the railway-men could no longer
strike because a recent law had decreed that they were not working
men but Government servants. The trains therefore ran regularly;
almost all the banks were open and were protected by policemen in
plain clothes; the Pincio and the Villa Borghese were almost as
full of nurses and children as usual on a fine winter’s day, and
officers and civilians exercised their horses on the small course
and in the meadow within the ring. Altogether, the state of things
would have looked rather contradictory anywhere but in Rome, where
it seems as if nothing can ever happen in the ordinary way. If
any truthful and industrious person like Villani, or Sanudo of
Venice, is quietly keeping a chronicle of daily events in Rome at
the present day, and if his manuscript comes to light fifty years
hence, he will not be believed. It is true that all industrious
persons are not truthful, but since Aristotle admits that even a
woman or a slave may possibly be good, some good-natured people
will perhaps allow that a novelist may sometimes write the truth.
Maria had passed a wretched night. After the two guests had gone
Montalto had come to her room and had poured out all his remorse
for his mad conduct, entreating her over and over again to forgive
him, not breaking down in tears, but overwhelming her with every
assurance and proof of his almost insane love. It was late when he
left her at last, but she could not sleep then. Every nerve in her
body was quivering from the effort of self-control, her teeth were
on edge, and when she closed her weary eyes she saw wheels of fire.
She had gone to the chapel in her nightdress to say her prayers,
heedless of the cold air and the icy marble pavement, and she had
knelt there more than half an hour, trying to recover herself; not
that she could think much of the words her lips silently formed,
but because the solemn stillness helped her, and the restful
certainty that nothing of what she had left behind could touch her
there.
She went back to her room, and after three o’clock she fell asleep
from utter exhaustion, because she was really a very sound and
normal woman, and the human machine had run down, like a clock. Men
have slept in battle.
Yet her natural elasticity was so great that in the morning, when
she glanced at her face in the looking-glass, she saw that it
hardly looked tired. There was only a slightly deeper shadow under
her eyes to show that she had not slept enough, and that would soon
go away, and she would be quite herself again.
She had not dreamt that anything had happened to Leone, for she had
been too worn out to dream at all, and she was a little ashamed
of her presentiments and fears. The weather never affected her
very much, but the sun was streaming into her room with the crisp
morning air, and she had opened both windows wide to let out the
stale odour of a cigarette her husband had smoked before he left
her. The smell of his Havana cigarettes had always been intensely
disagreeable to her, though she would not let him guess it, and
this morning it seemed positively nauseous. There was the nasty
little end of one of them, with some ashes, in a little silver
dish which she emptied into the fireplace; then she blew into it,
and poured some lavender water into it, and dried it out with a
handkerchief before she rang for her maid.
That was instinctive. She always did it when he had smoked in her
room at night, and she was unconscious that it meant anything more
than she had intended it to mean when she had done it for the first
time, many months ago, on the morning after his return to Rome. But
somehow the process had become symbolical, though she did not know
that it had; it signified getting rid of the recollection of his
presence.
She asked her maid if Leone had gone to school yet, and was told
that he and his tutor had left the house at the usual hour. The
maid had heard the tutor ask a footman whether the Count was awake,
and on learning that he had not rung for his valet, the tutor
inquired whether any orders had been left about taking Leone to
school. The Count had left none, the footman said, and went on with
his work.
Maria asked if the maid had heard any noises in the street or the
square, or anything like rioting. The maid smiled. At that hour in
the morning! How could her mistress think of such a thing?
As if, because Rome is an old-fashioned city, street-fights could
only take place decently, and at regular hours! But Maria felt
reassured by the woman’s tone, and remembered how confidently her
friend had spoken in the evening. One of her reasons for liking
Giuliana so much was that she was so solidly sensible, and so
sensibly good. Teresa Crescenzi had once said before a gay party
in the old days that it was of no use to have Giuliana’s face and
figure if you were going to be a monster of virtue, and when Maria
had made a half-laughing retort Teresa had said that Maria did
not look upon Giuliana as a necessity, nor as a luxury, but as a
comfort; which was to some extent true; and Teresa had gone on to
say it was a pure waste of good material that anybody who was so
impeccably virtuous as the Marchesa should know how to dress so
well; and every one had laughed.
Maria had her tiny breakfast in her boudoir, tea and a slice of
toast with an infinitesimal layer of butter, after the way of most
southern people, and she felt better able to face the day than had
seemed possible when she had fallen asleep after three o’clock. She
had brought with her from Via San Martino the little service she
had used during so many years, and the sight of it in the morning
always revived the momentary illusion of freedom. Memory loves to
play with toys--perhaps because it knows how to use the knife so
well.
The small meal occupied her longer than usual; she filled her cup
a second time and took another little bit of toast. The hour had
come when she usually went to say good morning to her husband in
his study, but she had risen late, according to her own ideas,
and the time had come too soon. But if she did not go to him, he
would presently come to her to ask in a petulantly affectionate way
whether she had forgotten him. To-day he would perhaps think that
she had not quite forgiven him for yesterday’s scene, and there
would be another. The thought chilled her, and she touched the
button of the bell--a pretty button Giuliana had given her, made of
a cat’s-eye set in a small block of Chinese jade that lay on the
corner of the table. The maid came to take away the things.
‘Is the Count in his study?’ inquired Maria. ‘Please ask.’
But the maid knew that he had not rung for his man, and was
probably still asleep; for a person who had applied for the vacant
place of steward was waiting in the ante-chamber, though he had
come at ten o’clock, by appointment, to be interviewed by the
Count. In fact, the valet had suggested to the maid that she
might ask her mistress whether it would not be better to wake his
Excellency, as it was so late, and he did not like to oversleep
himself.
‘Not yet,’ answered the Countess. ‘Let him sleep half an hour
longer.’
But she was surprised to learn how late it was, and glanced at
her old travelling clock; Montalto now and then stayed in bed
till nearly eleven, however, and she was glad to be alone some
time longer. As he had given an appointment to a man of business,
whom he would certainly see as soon as he was ready, it was quite
possible that she might be left to herself till luncheon time.
There were a number of little things she wished to do, and she
began to occupy herself with them. Though it was the fourteenth of
January she had not yet changed the calendar cards for the year in
the shabby little silver stand she had used so long. The new ones
needed clipping, in order to fit the old-fashioned frame that had
been made for a sort no longer to be had. The note-paper in the
upright case on the writing-table was almost finished too, and she
replenished it from a closet in her dressing-room. She was used
to doing all such things for herself, and kept her own stock of
writing materials in neat order.
These and other small matters occupied her for some time. She
was fitting a new piece of pencil into her sliding pencil-case
when loud shouts from the square made her turn her head towards
the window. Then two pistol shots followed, and there was a
moment’s silence. She dropped the pencil and ran to the window,
and as she reached it the savage shouting rang again through the
square. She saw fifty or sixty men fighting each other, their
sticks flourishing, their hats flying in all directions, their
arms and legs struggling confusedly. Instantly she thought of
Leone. Giuliana had said there were never any disturbances till
late in the afternoon, and her maid had smiled at the mere idea
that anything of the kind could happen before noon; yet there was
fighting going on already, under her window. She strained her
eyes to find her boy and his tall tutor in the crowd, and opened
the window to see more clearly. They were not in sight--of course
not! Leone was at school, and the tutor was at the public library,
where he spent his mornings in study. But they must come home for
luncheon, all the way from the Istituto Massimo, near the station,
down to the heart of Rome; and they might be caught in a fight
anywhere. She was certain that the tutor was a coward.
Something must be done at once to get the boy home in safety. She
would telephone to the school that he was to wait there, and she
would go for him herself. She was quite sure she could protect
him much better than any man could. Who would attack a lady in
her carriage? Leone should sit at her feet in the bottom of the
brougham, in case a stone should break one of the windows. She
could trust old Telemaco, her own coachman, for she had seen him
in trouble with vicious horses, and he was cool and resolute; a
man who is not afraid of a horse is generally fairly courageous in
other ways.
She would tell her husband what she was going to do. No--he was
still asleep. Yet it might be better to wake him--it was so late.
Probably he would insist on fetching Leone himself, but she would
go with him; perhaps he would be angry if she went alone. The first
thing was to telephone.
The instrument was in the broad passage upon which the doors of
Montalto’s bedroom and dressing-room opened. They were double
doors, practically soundproof, and it was not likely that her
voice at the telephone should wake him. She rang, and asked for
the Istituto Massimo, and after waiting some time she was in
communication with the porter of the school. He told her that it
was closed, owing to the disturbances.
Her heart stopped, and then beat quickly. With difficulty she
asked if Leone and his tutor had been seen. Yes, they had come at
the usual time, like many other boys whose parents had not seen
the notice in the papers. The notice had been inserted in all the
principal evening ones yesterday. The ‘little Count,’ as the porter
called the boy, had gone away again with the tutor. That was at
half-past eight. There had been very little disturbance in that
quarter of the city as yet. The porter could tell her nothing more.
Half-past eight, and it was now nearly eleven! Maria felt dizzy,
and held her hand upon the telephone after she had rung off the
communication. Her husband’s bedroom door was just opposite her,
and she knew that she must call him now. He would not forgive her
if she did not, and he would be right.
She tapped upon the panel rather sharply. No answer. She knocked
much louder, but no sound came, though she felt a little pain in
her knuckles. The double door was well made. Rather timidly she
tried it, and found it locked. She had never entered Montalto’s
room since he had come back, and she wondered whether there were
any means of waking him, but his valet must know this, and there
was no time to be lost. The man always waited in a little room
further down the passage, where he cleaned his master’s things,
and where the bedroom bell rang. It was there that the maid always
found him when Maria wished her husband to receive any message
from her immediately on waking. She went forward a few steps, not
remembering which was the door, and she called the servant. He came
out directly, in evident surprise.
‘We must wake my husband,’ she said. ‘I must speak to him at once;
but I have knocked and tried the door, and he does not answer. Is
there any way of reaching him?’
The servant produced a key from his pocket.
‘His Excellency fastens the bedroom door inside, and I lock the
dressing-room. The door between the rooms is never locked.’
‘Go in and wake your master gently--he may be nervous and tired.
Tell him I wish to speak to him.’
The man obeyed, and Maria waited on the threshold of the
dressing-room. The smell of stale Havana cigarettes which she so
much detested had met her as the door opened. The sun was shining
in, for the valet had already opened the blinds, lighted the fire,
prepared the tub, and laid out the clothes. He pushed the bedroom
door on its hinges without noise and entered in the dark to open
the window. Maria waited, and her eyes fell upon a faded photograph
of herself, taken soon after she had been married. It stood in a
gilt frame on the dressing-table on one side of the mirror. On
the other was one of Montalto’s mother, in court dress, with her
coronet. The frame was black and there was a white cross upon the
lower edge.
While Maria was looking at these things she unconsciously listened
as the valet softly called his master, softly at first, then
louder--then a third time, with a kind of frightened cry. But there
was no answer, and Maria pressed her hand to her heart in sudden
terror. The man appeared at the door with white face and starting
eyes, but he could not speak, and an instant later Maria rushed
past him into the bedroom. The servant’s terrified cry, his livid
face, his speechless horror, all told her that her husband must be
dead.
She was at the bedside now, bending down and calling him, softly at
first, then louder, for he was breathing heavily; but he did not
hear, he did not even stir. Maria did not cry out, for she was not
frightened now; only she did not understand. The valet was beside
her, pale and scared.
‘He sleeps very heavily,’ she said, lowering her voice
instinctively, but without the least tremor. ‘Have you ever seen
him sleep like this?’
The servant looked at her strangely, and his words broke out, loud
and sudden.
‘Excellency--don’t you see? It is an apoplexy! I’ve seen it before.’
‘An apoplexy!’
She repeated the word slowly with a wondering horror, and drew back
from the bedside, gazing at the dark, unconscious, upturned face,
the dreadful, half-opened eyes, the knotted arteries and veins at
the temple that was towards her.
‘It came in his sleep,’ the servant said, in an awed tone.
‘Yes.’ Maria was recovering her senses. Telephone for the doctor at
once. Tell him what has happened. I will stay here.’
The man went out, still much more frightened than she was, for
there is nothing, not death itself, which the Italians of the lower
classes dread so much as apoplexy.
Maria smoothed the unconscious and paralysed man’s pillow, and
drew the bed-clothes up under his pointed grey beard, for the room
was cold. That was all she could do, and when she had done it she
stood upright, with folded hands, looking steadily at the dark and
congested face.
Little as she knew of such things, she had heard that apoplexy was
often brought on by violent fits of anger and other great emotions,
and the long habit of self-accusation made her ask her conscience
whether the terrible catastrophe had not come through her fault. In
some way it must be so, she was sure, with all that was to follow.
People often recovered, even from a bad stroke, far enough to drag
on a wretched existence for years, half paralysed, half speechless,
or altogether both, but fully conscious. She would take care of
him faithfully; better that than--she checked the mere thought. It
was worse to be freed thus, by the suffering he was to bear, than
to fear the sound of his step, to dread his touch, to feel her
flesh creep at his caress. It must be worse. She must make herself
understand that it was. What was all her expiation worth if she
was so inhumanly cruel as to think of her own bodily freedom now?
She had prayed for strength to bear, not for liberation from the
terrible bond of wifehood. Was this God’s answer? Never! This was
fate, sudden, awful, leaping into her life to make her think evil
against her will, to cut short the punishment she should have borne
patiently for many years to come. She had not suffered enough yet,
not half enough!
With some confused thought of imposing a duty on herself, she bent
down and kissed her husband’s forehead. At the same moment the
servant came back, and when she stood up again he was beside her.
The doctor would come at once, he said, but he would have to walk,
as no carriage was safe in the streets.
For a few moments she had forgotten Leone, out in the city,
somewhere, with his tutor, and at the thought, with her eyes fixed
on her husband’s senseless form, she felt that she might go mad.
Could she leave him now, without a doctor, without a nurse? Might
he not wake, suddenly conscious for an instant, to die calling for
her? She knew nothing definite about such things, but she vaguely
remembered hearing that dying people sometimes revived for a few
moments before the end.
Yet, if she did not leave him, who would find Leone? For she was
sure she could find her boy, and she only, somewhere in Rome, and
protect him and bring him home. Of all she had suffered in her
suffering life those moments were the worst. She spoke to the
servant in sheer desperation, to hear her own voice.
‘Can we do nothing till the doctor comes?’ she asked. ‘Do you know
of anything that ought to be done?’
But the man was at a loss. He spoke confusedly of leeches, ice, and
mustard plasters. Then he remembered that there was a chemist’s
shop at the corner of the square; there might be a doctor there,
or some one who knew what to do. When people were hurt or had a
sunstroke in the street they were always carried to the chemist’s,
unless there were a regular ambulance-station near.
Maria grasped at the idea and sent him instantly, and she was again
alone by the bedside. But she could not think now; since fear for
the child had taken possession of her, there was not room for
anything else. She stood motionless for more than five minutes, not
even noticing the sound of low voices at the outer door of the next
room; for the servant had told the footman in the hall what had
happened as he hurried out on his errand, and the whole household
had soon gathered in the passage.
Then Maria felt that some one was beside her, and she looked up
and saw a young man with a grave, fair face, who bent over the bed
without so much as speaking.
‘It is a severe stroke of apoplexy,’ he said, standing upright
again and looking at her. ‘You must send for ice at once.’
‘There is an ice-box in the house,’ said the valet, who had entered
the room with the young doctor, and he went away quickly to procure
what was needed.
‘Will he be conscious again?’ Maria asked in a low voice.
‘Perhaps, but probably not for two or three days.’
‘Can I be of any use? Do you need me here? We have telephoned for
our doctor.’
The young man looked at her in some surprise.
‘No,’ he said, ‘I will do what can be done, if you prefer to leave
the room.’
‘I am afraid my little boy is lost in the streets,’ Maria answered.
‘I am in great anxiety. I must go out and find him.’
The young man understood the look in her face now.
‘I will stay here till the doctor comes,’ he said in a different
tone. ‘Will you kindly send one of your servants to help me? It
will be better to move the patient. His head is much too low.’
‘I can help you to do that,’ Maria answered. ‘I would rather help
you myself. I am quite strong enough.’
Between them they raised the unconscious man, and propped him with
pillows and cushions till he was almost in a sitting posture.
‘That is all,’ said the doctor. ‘You can do nothing more. I will
see to the rest.’
She thanked him and went out quickly, and the servants made way
for her with sorrowful respect, for they all loved her.
‘Go in and help,’ she said to old Agostino, and passed on.
She hastened to her own room and put on a hat and a coat, the first
she could find, and she took money and went through the endless
rooms to the hall. It was deserted. Even the footman on duty was
with the rest. But she went straight to the door. Her feet moved
mechanically and swiftly, and she felt that she was guided by a
mysterious power which would lead her to her child without fail by
the shortest way.
She ran down the first flight of stairs to the wide landing, and as
she turned the corner of the great wall that divided the staircase
she almost fell against Leone’s tutor, who was running up, two
steps at a time.
‘Alone?’ she cried in utmost horror.
‘Leone is safe.’ He was almost breathless.
‘Safe? Where?’
She did not believe him, and she saw that his right arm was in a
sling made of coarse black cotton.
‘He is in the barracks of the Piedmont Lancers. I came as quickly
as I could, for I thought you and the Count might have heard----’
‘Yes, yes! But why there? What happened? Tell me quickly! Is he
hurt?’
‘Not a hair of his head.’
Maria breathed again, and leant against the wall, closing her eyes
for a moment. When she opened them again she looked at the sling
and saw the end of a splint and a bit of white bandage.
‘But you are hurt?’
‘My arm is broken. I stopped at an ambulance-station and got it
more or less set, because I could not run with it hanging down. The
pain was too great. It took some time, I’m sorry to say.’
Maria remembered that she had believed the tutor to be a coward.
‘I am very grateful to you,’ she said earnestly. ‘Only tell me
what I am to do about getting Leone home. How did he get to the
barracks? Are you in great pain?’
‘Oh, no,’ answered the tutor courageously, and he told his story in
few words.
On finding the school shut because riots were feared, he had
thought it dangerous to bring Leone home through the city on foot,
as they had come. The boy was now nine years old, and a good walker
for his age, and the tutor had thought that by following the walls
of the city from the station, round to the further side of the
Palatine, they would be sure to keep out of any disturbances that
might be going on. Leone had been delighted at the prospect, and
they had started at once and encountered no rioters till they came
to Porta Maggiore, when they suddenly found themselves caught
between an angry crowd of labouring men, many of whom live in
that quarter, and a band of citizens who came in sight just then,
armed with their sticks. The rioters charged upon the latter as
soon as they appeared. The tutor told Leone to run behind the
citizens for safety, while he himself stood his ground to cover
the boy’s retreat. Fortunately Leone obeyed, but the tutor soon
found himself in the thick of the most serious fight that took
place while the strike lasted. It was interrupted by the unexpected
arrival on the scene of half a troop of the Piedmont Lancers,
whose quarters were then in that region. The troopers charged upon
the rioters, and belaboured them with the flat of their sabres
till they took to flight. To the tutor’s surprise, the officer in
command recognised Leone, and seemed much concerned that he should
have been so near danger. He said he would take charge of him,
and keep him at the barracks all day, as the city was not safe
anywhere; he added that he knew the lad’s father and mother, and
he gave his own name. The tutor did not remember to have heard it
before except in history and hoped that he had done right.
‘Quite right,’ Maria answered. ‘I have known the Conte del
Castiglione a long time.’
She turned back and went up the stairs with the tutor and told him
of what had happened. Then she went to her husband’s bedside again,
calm and collected.
CHAPTER XXV
Nature was merciful to Montalto. Strong men have lived paralysed
for years after a stroke of apoplexy, in full consciousness, yet
unable to communicate their thoughts to others; but Montalto was
not very strong, and he never awoke from the sleep in which his
wife found him. On the fifth day the heart stopped beating, and
that was the end.
There was no pain, no lucid moment, no harrowing farewell. It was
the woman who endured all that a woman can bear, during those five
days, not knowing but that he might come back to drag out a long
and miserable existence, not daring to pray that he might die, lest
she should be praying for her own freedom, yet for his sake not
daring to ask that he might live and suffer. It was not until all
was over that the last chance of that went out with life itself.
Maria had refused to see any one. Three times Giuliana came to the
palace and asked if she could be of any use, but the answer was
always the same: the Countess thanked her friend, but could not see
her. Monsignor Saracinesca came twice, and he was admitted to the
sickroom; but Maria would not be present, and Don Ippolito made no
attempt to disturb her privacy. It was only at rare intervals that
she left her husband’s side for a short time, until he was dead.
Each day, with the thought of imposing a duty upon herself which
he would expect, she bent down and kissed his forehead; when it was
finished she kissed him once more, she knelt beside his body half
an hour, and then went quietly out of the room.
She had done what she could; so far as in her lay, the expiation
was complete; she might have done a little more if life had
lingered a little longer; yet, as she closed her eyes, she asked
herself whether she had done enough, and afterwards she remembered
fancying that a cool breath of peace fanned her burning forehead
for a moment before she fell asleep on a little lounge in her
dressing-room.
She awoke in bed at night, and it seemed strange that there should
be a soft light in the room, for she had always slept in the dark.
Perhaps the light was only in her imagination, after all, for when
she tried to turn her head on the pillow the glimmer seemed to go
out and she fell asleep again. Once more she awoke, and it was
still there, and a nursing sister with a nun’s wimple and a dark
blue veil was leaning over her. She tried to speak, but she was
so very weak that she heard no sound, but only a sort of lisping
whisper. The nurse bent nearer to her lips, and she tried to speak
again.
‘Have I been asleep long?’ She could just whisper that.
‘You have been very dangerously ill for a long time. You must not
try to talk.’
The soft dark eyes looked up to the gentle face in wonder, and the
lips moved again.
‘Leone?’ Only that word as a question.
‘Quite, quite well, in Frascati with his tutor. We exchange news
every day.’
Sleep again, quick and soft, and after that waking and sleep by day
and night, with gradual return to thought and life, till she knew
what had happened to her, and was at last well enough to see Leone
for a few minutes.
He looked strangely tall in his new black clothes, and when she had
kissed him and had held his face before her a moment between her
beautiful thin hands, he gazed at her a long time very thoughtfully.
‘The doctors said you were going to die,’ he observed at last, ‘but
the Captain said you wouldn’t. I believed the Captain.’
‘What captain, dear?’
‘Why, Captain Castiglione, of course. He’s my friend now.’
A faint warmth rose in Maria’s wasted cheeks.
‘I thought you had been in Frascati,’ she said.
‘Yes. But the Captain has been out to see me three times a week.
Didn’t they tell you? Sundays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. He said he
thought you wouldn’t mind, because it was rather lonely for me out
there with a man like my tutor, who can’t ride and had a broken
arm. He’s given me a dog. We’re great friends. Papa was going to
give me a dog, you know.’
The last sentence was spoken in a lower tone, very seriously and
with a sort of awe.
‘Yes, dear,’ Maria answered gravely, for she did not know what to
say.
The handsome boy sat down and held her white hands affectionately
in his brown ones, and his bright blue eyes gazed quietly at her.
‘I miss papa dreadfully,’ he said. ‘Don’t you?’
‘His death has made a very great change in my life,’ she answered.
‘I couldn’t believe it at first,’ said Leone. ‘When I did, I just
couldn’t stand it. I went and shut myself up in my room all day and
thought about him.’
‘Perhaps that was the best thing you could have done, dear.’
‘What did you do after he was dead, mother? I want to know.’
‘I fell ill at once,’ Maria answered. ‘I thought I was only falling
asleep, and I knew nothing for more than a fortnight.’
‘Yes. But before that, did you cry much?’
‘No, dear. I was quite worn out, for I had scarcely left him since
he had fallen ill. When he did not breathe any more, I kissed him
and prayed, and then came to my own room. After that I remember
nothing.’
Leone looked at her thoughtfully and rather sadly.
‘I wanted to know,’ he said after a while.
Maria’s maid came to the door and said the tutor was waiting to
take his Excellency for his afternoon walk. The nurse had sent her,
thinking that Maria would be tired.
‘Why do they call me “Excellency” every minute?’ Leone asked.
‘They hardly ever used to. Of course, I’m growing up--but still----’
‘Though you are only a boy, they look upon you as the master now,
because there is no one else.’
‘Am I really the master of Montalto, as papa said I should be?’
‘I suppose so, dear.’ Maria spoke a little wearily. ‘You must go
out for your walk now, and to-morrow you shall come again and stay
longer.’
‘Yes, much longer! Do you think it would cheer you up to see my dog
to-morrow? You must be dreadfully lonely all day. I’ll lend him to
you, if you like.’
Maria smiled.
‘Bring him with you to-morrow, if he is a cheerful little dog,’ she
answered, and she nearly laughed for the first time in many weeks.
Leone looked at her with satisfaction.
‘You’re going to get well very soon,’ he said in a tone of
patronising conviction. ‘Good-bye.’
She watched him as he crossed the room to the door. He was thinner
and taller, but he looked square and tough. He already had the
figure of a little man, and at the back of his neck, above the
broad turned-down collar, the short and thick brown hair seemed
trying to curl more vigorously than ever. Maria saw it and shut her
eyes.
She was still very weak, for it sometimes takes a long time to
recover from brain fever, but she gained daily. Giuliana Parenzo
came and spent long hours in the room, for she was a healthy,
soothing woman, who made no noise and told Maria just how she
wanted to know, asking no questions about how she felt.
At last they began to drive out together, near the end of February,
when the almond-trees were in blossom and there was a breath of
spring in the air.
One day they were in the Campagna and almost in sight of Acqua
Santa, on the New Appian, and neither had spoken for some time.
Giuliana broke the silence.
‘I have a great admiration for you, Maria,’ she said. ‘I mean,
quite apart from our friendship. I did you a great injustice in my
thoughts at the beginning of the winter, and I want to tell you how
sorry I am. You have been very brave and good all through this.’
‘Thank you, Giuliana,’ Maria touched her friend’s hand
affectionately.
‘I’m not the only one of your friends who thinks so, either. Shall
I repeat something that Ippolito Saracinesca told me the other day?’
‘If it is kind, tell me. I am not quite strong yet.’
‘It may make a difference to you to know it. It ought to please
you. Do you remember that Ippolito and I dined with you the night
before your husband fell ill?’
‘Indeed I do!’
‘And they argued, as usual, but afterwards they talked in a low
voice.’
‘I remember that too.’
‘Poor Diego was talking about you. He said that whatever trouble
there had ever been between you was forgotten and forgiven. He said
that you had made him absolutely and unspeakably happy ever since
he had come back to you, and that he wished he could have made your
life such a heaven as you had made his; that his unfortunate temper
must have often irritated you and hurt you, but that he believed
you had always forgiven him.’
Maria’s eyes filled with tears, as they sometimes did.
‘Thank you for telling me that,’ she said. ‘It does make a
difference.’
‘Ippolito never saw him conscious again. Those must have been
almost the last words he ever spoke.’
‘Almost,’ echoed Maria, remembering that night.
‘But there is something else,’ Giuliana said. ‘Shall I tell you?
There is just one thing more.’
‘Does Don Ippolito wish me to know it? He was Diego’s best friend.’
‘Yes. He thinks it will be easier--I mean, it will seem more
natural--if it comes through me. Ippolito will never feel that he
knows you very well. You understand, don’t you, dear?’
‘Certainly. Go on, please.’ Maria prepared herself for a shock.
‘Last Christmas Eve Diego went to see him, and placed in his hands
a letter, to be given to you in case of his death. We have not
thought you were well enough to have it until now. Your husband
told Ippolito what is in the letter in case it were ever lost, and
Ippolito thought best to tell me, so that you may know beforehand
what it is about. You are strong enough now.’
‘Yes,’ Maria said, but she turned a shade whiter. ‘I can bear
anything now!’
‘It ought to relieve you rather than pain you,’ answered Giuliana.
‘The letter is meant to give you his full consent to marry again,
in case he died. But he added----’
Telemaco suddenly checked his horses to a walk at the steep
hill, and it was impossible for Giuliana to go on talking in the
low phaeton without being heard, unless she spoke in a foreign
language. Maria grew whiter.
‘A little faster,’ said Giuliana to the coachman. ‘You can stop at
the top of the hill.’
The New Appian Road is paved throughout, and the horses’ hoofs
began to clatter on the stones again. Maria waited to hear the rest.
‘He added that if you married again he thought it would be your
duty to marry Baldassare--your duty before God and your duty to
society. Yes, dear, what did you say?’
Maria had uttered a little exclamation and had turned her face
quite away.
For the first time since her friend had known her the tears
overflowed, and Giuliana, leaning forwards a little, could just see
two glistening drops on her pale cheek. When Maria turned again she
shook her head slowly.
‘No,’ she said in a low voice. ‘It is too much, it is too generous.
I must never marry him. I must never think of him again. I promised
Diego that I would tear the memory from my heart, and I must. God
help me, for I must.’
Giuliana opened her little bag, a marvel of workmanship fresh from
Paris.
‘Here is the letter, Maria,’ she said. ‘You must have it now, for
it freely gives you back the promise you made. Read it when you are
alone.’
Maria took the letter in silence; and under her black fur-lined
cloak, heavy with crape, she loosened her dress and laid the sealed
envelope upon her bare neck, a little to the left, where she had
laid the letter the monk had given her from Castiglione, some two
months ago, that seemed like ages of ages now.
Just then the horses stopped at the top of the hill, where a lane
turns to the right, leading to Acqua Santa and the golf links. A
large closed carriage with black horses and plain black liveries
was coming rapidly from the opposite direction.
As it passed the phaeton Giuliana and Maria bowed far forwards, for
there was a cardinal inside whom they both knew, an old man and a
good one. In answer to their salutation he smiled, and Maria saw
the aged hand, white and ungloved, lifted at the open window to
give a blessing that might have seemed prophetic just then.
* * * * *
Months have passed since that afternoon and many things have
happened. Casalmaggiore never got the Andalusian mare, for only
Leone rides her, and he would not part with her for anything.
Monsieur de Maurienne never came back from Paris, but managed to be
sent to Vienna instead, and Donna Teresa is still an unprotected
widow. The Countess of Montalto is herself again, and still in
half-mourning for her husband.
During these hot August days she is living quietly at Montalto
with Leone and his tutor; for she felt that if she did not come to
the place now it would be harder to come back later and face its
associations; and besides, Leone is to be the master when he is
grown up, and he must begin to learn what that means.
He comes in at tea-time, a straight, square boy in well-worn riding
clothes, his fox-terrier at his heels.
‘I wish the Captain were here, mama,’ he says suddenly. ‘It would
be such fun to ride together. I don’t see why you shouldn’t ask him
for a few days.’
‘Not now, little man,’ says Maria, pouring out the boy’s tea. ‘But
perhaps he may come another year and stay a long time.’
She rises and sets the cup on a little table beside him with a good
slice of bread and butter, and she stands over him as if to make
him eat and drink. But when he bends his handsome head she stoops
and kisses the back of his sturdy neck where the short brown hair
is always doing its very best to curl.
* * * * *
NOTE.--The ‘Piedmont Lancers,’ to which Castiglione belonged,
are purely imaginary, and are by no means meant for the
‘Piedmont Regiment,’ which would be more rightly classed with
the Dragoons.
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were retained but obvious punctuation errors, letters added,
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the usage of the time, several words are hyphenated in one instance
and not in another. These differences were retained.
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for Part I and Part II, has been enhanced to include the Chapters.
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