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+*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 40906 ***
+
+MERLIN
+
+
+
+
+ BY THE SAME AUTHOR
+
+ _POEMS_
+
+ CAPTAIN CRAIG
+ THE CHILDREN OF THE NIGHT
+ THE TOWN DOWN THE RIVER
+ THE MAN AGAINST THE SKY
+
+ _PLAYS_
+
+ VAN ZORN. A Comedy in Three Acts
+ THE PORCUPINE. A Drama in Three Acts
+
+
+
+
+ MERLIN
+
+ _A Poem_
+
+
+ BY EDWIN ARLINGTON ROBINSON
+
+
+ New York
+ THE MACMILLAN COMPANY
+ 1917
+ _All rights reserved_
+
+
+
+
+ COPYRIGHT, 1917,
+ By THE MACMILLAN COMPANY.
+
+ Set up and electrotyped. Published March, 1917.
+
+
+ Norwood Press
+ J. S. Cushing Co.--Berwick & Smith Co.
+ Norwood, Mass., U.S.A.
+
+
+
+
+To GEORGE BURNHAM
+
+
+
+
+MERLIN
+
+
+I
+
+ "Gawaine, Gawaine, what look ye for to see,
+ So far beyond the faint edge of the world?
+ D'ye look to see the lady Vivian,
+ Pursued by divers ominous vile demons
+ That have another king more fierce than ours?
+ Or think ye that if ye look far enough
+ And hard enough into the feathery west
+ Ye'll have a glimmer of the Grail itself?
+ And if ye look for neither Grail nor lady,
+ What look ye for to see, Gawaine, Gawaine?"
+ So Dagonet, whom Arthur made a knight
+ Because he loved him as he laughed at him,
+ Intoned his idle presence on a day
+ To Gawaine, who had thought himself alone,
+ Had there been in him thought of anything
+ Save what was murmured now in Camelot
+ Of Merlin's hushed and all but unconfirmed
+ Appearance out of Brittany. It was heard
+ At first there was a ghost in Arthur's palace,
+ But soon among the scullions and anon
+ Among the knights a firmer credit held
+ All tongues from uttering what all glances told--
+ Though not for long. Gawaine, this afternoon,
+ Fearing he might say more to Lancelot
+ Of Merlin's rumor-laden resurrection
+ Than Lancelot would have an ear to cherish,
+ Had sauntered off with his imagination
+ To Merlin's Rock, where now there was no Merlin
+ To meditate upon a whispering town
+ Below him in the silence.--Once he said
+ To Gawaine: "You are young; and that being so,
+ Behold the shining city of our dreams
+ And of our King."--"Long live the King," said Gawaine.--
+ "Long live the King," said Merlin after him;
+ "Better for me that I shall not be King;
+ Wherefore I say again, Long live the King,
+ And add, God save him, also, and all kings--
+ All kings and queens. I speak in general.
+ Kings have I known that were but weary men
+ With no stout appetite for more than peace
+ That was not made for them."--"Nor were they made
+ For kings," Gawaine said, laughing.--"You are young
+ Gawaine, and you may one day hold the world
+ Between your fingers, knowing not what it is
+ That you are holding. Better for you and me,
+ I think, that we shall not be kings."
+
+ Gawaine,
+ Remembering Merlin's words of long ago,
+ Frowned as he thought, and having frowned again,
+ He smiled and threw an acorn at a lizard:
+ "There's more afoot and in the air to-day
+ Than what is good for Camelot. Merlin
+ May or may not know all, but he said well
+ To say to me that he would not be King.
+ No more would I be King." Far down he gazed
+ On Camelot, until he made of it
+ A phantom town of many stillnesses,
+ Not reared for men to dwell in, or for kings
+ To reign in, without omens and obscure
+ Familiars to bring terror to their days;
+ For though a knight, and one as hard at arms
+ As any, save the fate-begotten few
+ That all acknowledged or in envy loathed,
+ He felt a foreign sort of creeping up
+ And down him, as of moist things in the dark,--
+ When Dagonet, coming on him unawares,
+ Presuming on his title of Sir Fool,
+ Addressed him and crooned on till he was done:
+ "What look ye for to see, Gawaine, Gawaine?"
+
+ "Sir Dagonet, you best and wariest
+ Of all dishonest men, I look through Time,
+ For sight of what it is that is to be.
+ I look to see it, though I see it not.
+ I see a town down there that holds a king,
+ And over it I see a few small clouds--
+ Like feathers in the west, as you observe;
+ And I shall see no more this afternoon
+ Than what there is around us every day,
+ Unless you have a skill that I have not
+ To ferret the invisible for rats."
+
+ "If you see what's around us every day,
+ You need no other showing to go mad.
+ Remember that and take it home with you;
+ And say tonight, 'I had it of a fool--
+ With no immediate obliquity
+ For this one or for that one, or for me.'"
+
+ Gawaine, having risen, eyed the fool curiously:
+ "I'll not forget I had it of a knight,
+ Whose only folly is to fool himself;
+ And as for making other men to laugh,
+ And so forget their sins and selves a little,
+ There's no great folly there. So keep it up,
+ As long as you've a legend or a song,
+ And have whatever sport of us you like
+ Till havoc is the word and we fall howling.
+ For I've a guess there may not be so loud
+ A sound of laughing here in Camelot
+ When Merlin goes again to his gay grave
+ In Brittany. To mention lesser terrors,
+ Men say his beard is gone."
+
+ "Do men say that?"
+ A twitch of an impatient weariness
+ Played for a moment over the lean face
+ Of Dagonet, who reasoned inwardly:
+ "The friendly zeal of this inquiring knight
+ Will overtake his tact and leave it squealing,
+ One of these days."--Gawaine looked hard at him:
+ "If I be too familiar with a fool,
+ I'm on the way to be another fool,"
+ He mused, and owned a rueful qualm within him:
+ "Yes, Dagonet," he ventured, with a laugh,
+ "Men tell me that his beard has vanished wholly,
+ And that he shines now as the Lord's anointed,
+ And wears the valiance of an ageless youth
+ Crowned with a glory of eternal peace."
+
+ Dagonet, smiling strangely, shook his head:
+ "I grant your valiance of a kind of youth
+ To Merlin, but your crown of peace I question;
+ For, though I know no more than any churl
+ Who pinches any chambermaid soever
+ In the King's palace, I look not to Merlin
+ For peace, when out of his peculiar tomb
+ He comes again to Camelot. Time swings
+ A mighty scythe, and some day all your peace
+ Goes down before its edge like so much clover.
+ No, it is not for peace that Merlin comes,
+ Without a trumpet--and without a beard,
+ If what you say men say of him be true--
+ Nor yet for sudden war."
+
+ Gawaine, for a moment,
+ Met then the ambiguous gaze of Dagonet,
+ And, making nothing of it, looked abroad
+ As if at something cheerful on all sides,
+ And back again to the fool's unasking eyes:
+ "Well, Dagonet, if Merlin would have peace,
+ Let Merlin stay away from Brittany,"
+ Said he, with admiration for the man
+ Whom Folly called a fool: "And we have known him;
+ We knew him once when he knew everything."
+
+ "He knew as much as God would let him know
+ Until he met the lady Vivian.
+ I tell you that, for the world knows all that;
+ Also it knows he told the King one day
+ That he was to be buried, and alive,
+ In Brittany; and that the King should see
+ The face of him no more. Then Merlin sailed
+ Away to Vivian in Broceliande,
+ Where now she crowns him and herself with flowers,
+ And feeds him fruits and wines and many foods
+ Of many savors, and sweet ortolans.
+ Wise books of every lore of every land
+ Are there to fill his days, if he require them,
+ And there are players of all instruments--
+ Flutes, hautboys, drums, and viols; and she sings
+ To Merlin, till he trembles in her arms
+ And there forgets that any town alive
+ Had ever such a name as Camelot.
+ So Vivian holds him with her love, they say,
+ And he, who has no age, has not grown old.
+ I swear to nothing, but that's what they say.
+ That's being buried in Broceliande
+ For too much wisdom and clairvoyancy.
+ But you and all who live, Gawaine, have heard
+ This tale, or many like it, more than once;
+ And you must know that Love, when Love invites
+ Philosophy to play, plays high and wins,
+ Or low and loses. And you say to me,
+ 'If Merlin would have peace, let Merlin stay
+ Away from Brittany.' Gawaine, you are young,
+ And Merlin's in his grave."
+
+ "Merlin said once
+ That I was young, and it's a joy for me
+ That I am here to listen while you say it.
+ Young or not young, if that be burial,
+ May I be buried long before I die.
+ I might be worse than young; I might be old."--
+ Dagonet answered, and without a smile:
+ "Somehow I fancy Merlin saying that;
+ A fancy--a mere fancy." Then he smiled:
+ "And such a doom as his may be for you,
+ Gawaine, should your untiring divination
+ Delve in the veiled eternal mysteries
+ Too far to be a pleasure for the Lord.
+ And when you stake your wisdom for a woman,
+ Compute the woman to be worth a grave,
+ As Merlin did, and say no more about it.
+ But Vivian, she played high. Oh, very high!
+ Flutes, hautboys, drums, and viols,--and her love.
+ Gawaine, farewell."
+
+ "Farewell, Sir Dagonet,
+ And may the devil take you presently."
+ He followed with a vexed and envious eye,
+ And with an arid laugh, Sir Dagonet's
+ Departure, till his gaunt obscurity
+ Was cloaked and lost amid the glimmering trees.
+ "Poor fool!" he murmured. "Or am I the fool?
+ With all my fast ascendency in arms,
+ That ominous clown is nearer to the King
+ Than I am--yet; and God knows what he knows,
+ And what his wits infer from what he sees
+ And feels and hears. I wonder what he knows
+ Of Lancelot, or what I might know now,
+ Could I have sunk myself to sound a fool
+ To springe a friend.... No, I like not this day.
+ There's a cloud coming over Camelot
+ Larger than any that is in the sky,--
+ Or Merlin would be still in Brittany,
+ With Vivian and the viols. It's all too strange."
+
+ And later, when descending to the city,
+ Through unavailing casements he could hear
+ The roaring of a mighty voice within,
+ Confirming fervidly his own conviction:
+ "It's all too strange, and half the world's half crazy!"--
+ He scowled: "Well, I agree with Lamorak."
+ He frowned, and passed: "And I like not this day."
+
+
+II
+
+ Sir Lamorak, the man of oak and iron,
+ Had with him now, as a care-laden guest,
+ Sir Bedivere, a man whom Arthur loved
+ As he had loved no man save Lancelot.
+ Like one whose late-flown shaft of argument
+ Had glanced and fallen afield innocuously,
+ He turned upon his host a sudden eye
+ That met from Lamorak's an even shaft
+ Of native and unused authority;
+ And each man held the other till at length
+ Each turned away, shutting his heavy jaws
+ Again together, prisoning thus two tongues
+ That might forget and might not be forgiven.
+ Then Bedivere, to find a plain way out,
+ Said, "Lamorak, let us drink to some one here,
+ And end this dryness. Who shall it be--the King,
+ The Queen, or Lancelot?"--"Merlin," Lamorak growled;
+ And then there were more wrinkles round his eyes
+ Than Bedivere had said were possible.
+ "There's no refusal in me now for that,"
+ The guest replied; "so, 'Merlin' let it be.
+ We've not yet seen him, but if he be here,
+ And even if he should not be here, say 'Merlin.'"
+ They drank to the unseen from two new tankards,
+ And fell straightway to sighing for the past,
+ And what was yet before them. Silence laid
+ A cogent finger on the lips of each
+ Impatient veteran, whose hard hands lay clenched
+ And restless on his midriff, until words
+ Were stronger than strong Lamorak:
+
+ "Bedivere,"
+ Began the solid host, "you may as well
+ Say now as at another time hereafter
+ That all your certainties have bruises on 'em,
+ And all your pestilent asseverations
+ Will never make a man a salamander--
+ Who's born, as we are told, so fire won't bite him,--
+ Or a slippery queen a nun who counts and burns
+ Herself to nothing with her beads and candles.
+ There's nature, and what's in us, to be sifted
+ Before we know ourselves, or any man
+ Or woman that God suffers to be born.
+ That's how I speak; and while you strain your mazzard,
+ Like Father Jove, big with a new Minerva,
+ We'll say, to pass the time, that I speak well.
+ God's fish! The King had eyes; and Lancelot
+ Won't ride home to his mother, for she's dead.
+ The story is that Merlin warned the King
+ Of what's come now to pass; and I believe it.
+ And Arthur, he being Arthur and a king,
+ Has made a more pernicious mess than one,
+ We're told, for being so great and amorous:
+ It's that unwholesome and inclement cub
+ Young Modred I'd see first in hell before
+ I'd hang too high the Queen or Lancelot;
+ The King, if one may say it, set the pace,
+ And we've two strapping bastards here to prove it.
+ Young Borre, he's well enough; but as for Modred,
+ I squirm as often as I look at him.
+ And there again did Merlin warn the King,
+ The story goes abroad; and I believe it."
+
+ Sir Bedivere, as one who caught no more
+ Than what he would of Lamorak's outpouring,
+ Inclined his grizzled head and closed his eyes
+ Before he sighed and rubbed his beard and spoke:
+ "For all I know to make it otherwise,
+ The Queen may be a nun some day or other;
+ I'd pray to God for such a thing to be,
+ If prayer for that were not a mockery.
+ We're late now for much praying, Lamorak,
+ When you and I can feel upon our faces
+ A wind that has been blowing over ruins
+ That we had said were castles and high towers--
+ Till Merlin, or the spirit of him, came
+ As the dead come in dreams. I saw the King
+ This morning, and I saw his face. Therefore,
+ I tell you, if a state shall have a king,
+ The king must have the state, and be the state;
+ Or then shall we have neither king nor state,
+ But bones and ashes, and high towers all fallen:
+ And we shall have, where late there was a kingdom,
+ A dusty wreck of what was once a glory--
+ A wilderness whereon to crouch and mourn
+ And moralize, or else to build once more
+ For something better or for something worse.
+ Therefore again, I say that Lancelot
+ Has wrought a potent wrong upon the King,
+ And all who serve and recognize the King,
+ And all who follow him and all who love him.
+ Whatever the stormy faults he may have had,
+ To look on him today is to forget them;
+ And if it be too late for sorrow now
+ To save him--for it was a broken man
+ I saw this morning, and a broken king--
+ The God who sets a day for desolation
+ Will not forsake him in Avilion,
+ Or whatsoever shadowy land there be
+ Where peace awaits him on its healing shores."
+
+ Sir Lamorak, shifting in his oaken chair,
+ Growled like a dog and shook himself like one:
+ "For the stone-chested, helmet-cracking knight
+ That you are known to be from Lyonnesse
+ To northward, Bedivere, you fol-de-rol
+ When days are rancid, and you fiddle-faddle
+ More like a woman than a man with hands
+ Fit for the smiting of a crazy giant
+ With armor an inch thick, as we all know
+ You are, when you're not sermonizing at us.
+ As for the King, I say the King, no doubt,
+ Is angry, sorry, and all sorts of things,
+ For Lancelot, and for his easy Queen,
+ Whom he took knowing she'd thrown sparks already
+ On that same piece of tinder, Lancelot,
+ Who fetched her with him from Leodogran
+ Because the King--God save poor human reason!--
+ Would prove to Merlin, who knew everything
+ Worth knowing in those days, that he was wrong.
+ I'll drink now and be quiet,--but, by God,
+ I'll have to tell you, Brother Bedivere,
+ Once more, to make you listen properly,
+ That crowns and orders, and high palaces,
+ And all the manifold ingredients
+ Of this good solid kingdom, where we sit
+ And spit now at each other with our eyes,
+ Will not go rolling down to hell just yet
+ Because a pretty woman is a fool.
+ And here's Kay coming with his fiddle face
+ As long now as two fiddles. Sit ye down,
+ Sir Man, and tell us everything you know
+ Of Merlin--or his ghost without a beard.
+ What mostly is it?"
+
+ Sir Kay, the seneschal,
+ Sat wearily while he gazed upon the two:
+ "To you it mostly is, if I err not,
+ That what you hear of Merlin's coming back
+ Is nothing more or less than heavy truth.
+ But ask me nothing of the Queen, I say,
+ For I know nothing. All I know of her
+ Is what her eyes have told the silences
+ That now attend her; and that her estate
+ Is one for less complacent execration
+ Than quips and innuendoes of the city
+ Would augur for her sin--if there be sin--
+ Or for her name--if now she have a name.
+ And where, I say, is this to lead the King,
+ And after him, the kingdom and ourselves?
+ Here be we, three men of a certain strength
+ And some confessed intelligence, who know
+ That Merlin has come out of Brittany--
+ Out of his grave, as he would say it for us--
+ Because the King has now a desperation
+ More strong upon him than a woman's net
+ Was over Merlin--for now Merlin's here,
+ And two of us who knew him know how well
+ His wisdom, if he have it any longer,
+ Will by this hour have sounded and appraised
+ The grief and wrath and anguish of the King,
+ Requiring mercy and inspiring fear
+ Lest he forego the vigil now most urgent,
+ And leave unwatched a cranny where some worm
+ Or serpent may come in to speculate."
+
+ "I know your worm, and his worm's name is Modred--
+ Albeit the streets are not yet saying so,"
+ Said Lamorak, as he lowered his wrath and laughed
+ A sort of poisonous apology
+ To Kay: "And in the meantime, I'll be gyved!
+ Here's Bedivere a-wailing for the King,
+ And you, Kay, with a moist eye for the Queen.
+ I think I'll blow a horn for Lancelot;
+ For by my soul a man's in sorry case
+ When Guineveres are out with eyes to scorch him:
+ I'm not so ancient or so frozen certain
+ That I'd ride horses down to skeletons
+ If she were after me. Has Merlin seen him--
+ This Lancelot, this Queen-fed friend of ours?"
+
+ Kay answered sighing, with a lonely scowl:
+ "The picture that I conjure leaves him out;
+ The King and Merlin are this hour together,
+ And I can say no more; for I know nothing.
+ But how the King persuaded or beguiled
+ The stricken wizard from across the water
+ Outriddles my poor wits. It's all too strange."
+
+ "It's all too strange, and half the world's half crazy!"
+ Roared Lamorak, forgetting once again
+ The devastating carriage of his voice.
+ "Is the King sick?" he said, more quietly;
+ "Is he to let one damned scratch be enough
+ To paralyze the force that heretofore
+ Would operate a way through hell and iron,
+ And iron already slimy with his blood?
+ Is the King blind--with Modred watching him?
+ Does he forget the crown for Lancelot?
+ Does he forget that every woman mewing
+ Shall some day be a handful of small ashes?"
+
+ "You speak as one for whom the god of Love
+ Has yet a mighty trap in preparation.
+ We know you, Lamorak," said Bedivere:
+ "We know you for a short man, Lamorak,--
+ In deeds, if not in inches or in words;
+ But there are fens and heights and distances
+ That your capricious ranging has not yet
+ Essayed in this weird region of man's love.
+ Forgive me, Lamorak, but your words are words.
+ Your deeds are what they are; and ages hence
+ Will men remember your illustriousness,
+ If there be gratitude in history.
+ For me, I see the shadow of the end,
+ Wherein to serve King Arthur to the end,
+ And, if God have it so, to see the Grail
+ Before I die."
+
+ But Lamorak shook his head:
+ "See what you will, or what you may. For me,
+ I see no other than a stinking mess--
+ With Modred stirring it, and Agravaine
+ Spattering Camelot with as much of it
+ As he can throw. The Devil got somehow
+ Into God's workshop once upon a time,
+ And out of the red clay that he found there
+ He made a shape like Modred, and another
+ As like as eyes are to this Agravaine.
+ 'I never made 'em,' said the good Lord God,
+ 'But let 'em go, and see what comes of 'em.'
+ And that's what we're to do. As for the Grail,
+ I've never worried it, and so the Grail
+ Has never worried me."
+
+ Kay sighed. "I see
+ With Bedivere the coming of the end,"
+ He murmured; "for the King I saw today
+ Was not, nor shall he ever be again,
+ The King we knew. I say the King is dead;
+ The man is living, but the King is dead.
+ The wheel is broken."
+
+ "Tut!" said Lamorak;
+ "There are no dead kings yet in Camelot;
+ But there is Modred who is hatching ruin,--
+ And when it hatches I may not be here.
+ There's Gawaine too, and he does not forget
+ My father, who killed his. King Arthur's house
+ Has more division in it than I like
+ In houses; and if Modred's aim be good
+ For backs like mine, I'm not long for the scene."
+
+
+III
+
+ King Arthur, as he paced a lonely floor
+ That rolled a muffled echo, as he fancied,
+ All through the palace and out through the world,
+ Might now have wondered hard, could he have heard
+ Sir Lamorak's apathetic disregard
+ Of what Fate's knocking made so manifest
+ And ominous to others near the King--
+ If any, indeed, were near him at this hour
+ Save Merlin, once the wisest of all men,
+ And weary Dagonet, whom he had made
+ A knight for love of him and his abused
+ Integrity. He might have wondered hard
+ And wondered much; and after wondering,
+ He might have summoned, with as little heart
+ As he had now for crowns, the fond, lost Merlin,
+ Whose Nemesis had made of him a slave,
+ A man of dalliance, and a sybarite.
+
+ "Men change in Brittany, Merlin," said the King;
+ And even his grief had strife to freeze again
+ A dreary smile for the transmuted seer
+ Now robed in heavy wealth of purple silk,
+ With frogs and foreign tassels. On his face,
+ Too smooth now for a wizard or a sage,
+ Lay written, for the King's remembering eyes,
+ A pathos of a lost authority
+ Long faded, and unconscionably gone;
+ And on the King's heart lay a sudden cold:
+ "I might as well have left him in his grave,
+ As he would say it, saying what was true,--
+ As death is true. This Merlin is not mine,
+ But Vivian's. My crown is less than hers,
+ And I am less than woman to this man."
+
+ Then Merlin, as one reading Arthur's words
+ On viewless tablets in the air before him:
+ "Now, Arthur, since you are a child of mine--
+ A foster-child, and that's a kind of child--
+ Be not from hearsay or despair too eager
+ To dash your meat with bitter seasoning,
+ So none that are more famished than yourself
+ Shall have what you refuse. For you are King,
+ And if you starve yourself, you starve the state;
+ And then by sundry looks and silences
+ Of those you loved, and by the lax regard
+ Of those you knew for fawning enemies,
+ You may learn soon that you are King no more,
+ But a slack, blasted, and sad-fronted man,
+ Made sadder with a crown. No other friend
+ Than I could say this to you, and say more;
+ And if you bid me say no more, so be it."
+
+ The King, who sat with folded arms, now bowed
+ His head and felt, unfought and all aflame
+ Like immanent hell-fire, the wretchedness
+ That only those who are to lead may feel--
+ And only they when they are maimed and worn
+ Too sore to covet without shuddering
+ The fixed impending eminence where death
+ Itself were victory, could they but lead
+ Unbitten by the serpents they had fed.
+ Turning, he spoke: "Merlin, you say the truth:
+ There is no man who could say more to me
+ Today, or say so much to me, and live.
+ But you are Merlin still, or part of him;
+ I did you wrong when I thought otherwise,
+ And I am sorry now. Say what you will.
+ We are alone, and I shall be alone
+ As long as Time shall hide a reason here
+ For me to stay in this infested world
+ Where I have sinned and erred and heeded not
+ Your counsel; and where you yourself--God save us!--
+ Have gone down smiling to the smaller life
+ That you and your incongruous laughter called
+ Your living grave. God save us all, Merlin,
+ When you, the seer, the founder, and the prophet,
+ May throw the gold of your immortal treasure
+ Back to the God that gave it, and then laugh
+ Because a woman has you in her arms ...
+ Why do you sting me now with a small hive
+ Of words that are all poison? I do not ask
+ Much honey; but why poison me for nothing,
+ And with a venom that I know already
+ As I know crowns and wars? Why tell a king--
+ A poor, foiled, flouted, miserable king--
+ That if he lets rats eat his fingers off
+ He'll have no fingers to fight battles with?
+ I know as much as that, for I am still
+ A king--who thought himself a little less
+ Than God; a king who built him palaces
+ On sand and mud, and hears them crumbling now,
+ And sees them tottering, as he knew they must.
+ You are the man who made me to be King--
+ Therefore, say anything."
+
+ Merlin, stricken deep
+ With pity that was old, being born of old
+ Foreshadowings, made answer to the King:
+ "This coil of Lancelot and Guinevere
+ Is not for any mortal to undo,
+ Or to deny, or to make otherwise;
+ But your most violent years are on their way
+ To days, and to a sounding of loud hours
+ That are to strike for war. Let not the time
+ Between this hour and then be lost in fears,
+ Or told in obscurations and vain faith
+ In what has been your long security;
+ For should your force be slower then than hate,
+ And your regret be sharper than your sight,
+ And your remorse fall heavier than your sword,--
+ Then say farewell to Camelot, and the crown.
+ But say not you have lost, or failed in aught
+ Your golden horoscope of imperfection
+ Has held in starry words that I have read.
+ I see no farther now than I saw then,
+ For no man shall be given of everything
+ Together in one life; yet I may say
+ The time is imminent when he shall come
+ For whom I founded the Siege Perilous;
+ And he shall be too much a living part
+ Of what he brings, and what he burns away in,
+ To be for long a vexed inhabitant
+ Of this mad realm of stains and lower trials.
+ And here the ways of God again are mixed:
+ For this new knight who is to find the Grail
+ For you, and for the least who pray for you
+ In such lost coombs and hollows of the world
+ As you have never entered, is to be
+ The son of him you trusted--Lancelot,
+ Of all who ever jeopardized a throne
+ Sure the most evil-fated, saving one,
+ Your son, begotten, though you knew not then
+ Your leman was your sister, of Morgause;
+ For it is Modred now, not Lancelot,
+ Whose native hate plans your annihilation--
+ Though he may smile till he be sick, and swear
+ Allegiance to an unforgiven father
+ Until at last he shake an empty tongue
+ Talked out with too much lying--though his lies
+ Will have a truth to steer them. Trust him not,
+ For unto you the father, he the son
+ Is like enough to be the last of terrors--
+ If in a field of time that looms to you
+ Far larger than it is you fail to plant
+ And harvest the old seeds of what I say,
+ And so be nourished and adept again
+ For what may come to be. But Lancelot
+ Will have you first; and you need starve no more
+ For the Queen's love, the love that never was.
+ Your Queen is now your Kingdom, and hereafter
+ Let no man take it from you, or you die.
+ Let no man take it from you for a day;
+ For days are long when we are far from what
+ We love, and mischief's other name is distance.
+ Let that be all, for I can say no more;
+ Not even to Blaise the Hermit, were he living,
+ Could I say more than I have given you now
+ To hear; and he alone was my confessor."
+
+ The King arose and paced the floor again.
+ "I get gray comfort of dark words," he said;
+ "But tell me not that you can say no more:
+ You can, for I can hear you saying it.
+ Yet I'll not ask for more. I have enough--
+ Until my new knight comes to prove and find
+ The promise and the glory of the Grail,
+ Though I shall see no Grail. For I have built
+ On sand and mud, and I shall see no Grail."--
+ "Nor I," said Merlin. "Once I dreamed of it,
+ But I was buried. I shall see no Grail,
+ Nor would I have it otherwise. I saw
+ Too much, and that was never good for man.
+ The man who goes alone too far goes mad--
+ In one way or another. God knew best,
+ And he knows what is coming yet for me.
+ I do not ask. Like you, I have enough."
+
+ That night King Arthur's apprehension found
+ In Merlin an obscure and restive guest,
+ Whose only thought was on the hour of dawn,
+ When he should see the last of Camelot
+ And ride again for Brittany; and what words
+ Were said before the King was left alone
+ Were only darker for reiteration.
+ They parted, all provision made secure
+ For Merlin's early convoy to the coast,
+ And Arthur tramped the past. The loneliness
+ Of kings, around him like the unseen dead,
+ Lay everywhere; and he was loath to move,
+ As if in fear to meet with his cold hand
+ The touch of something colder. Then a whim,
+ Begotten of intolerable doubt,
+ Seized him and stung him until he was asking
+ If any longer lived among his knights
+ A man to trust as once he trusted all,
+ And Lancelot more than all. "And it is he
+ Who is to have me first," so Merlin says,--
+ "As if he had me not in hell already.
+ Lancelot! Lancelot!" He cursed the tears
+ That cooled his misery, and then he asked
+ Himself again if he had one to trust
+ Among his knights, till even Bedivere,
+ Tor, Bors, and Percival, rough Lamorak,
+ Griflet, and Gareth, and gay Gawaine, all
+ Were dubious knaves,--or they were like to be,
+ For cause to make them so; and he had made
+ Himself to be the cause. "God set me right,
+ Before this folly carry me on farther,"
+ He murmured; and he smiled unhappily,
+ Though fondly, as he thought: "Yes, there is one
+ Whom I may trust with even my soul's last shred;
+ And Dagonet will sing for me tonight
+ An old song, not too merry or too sad."
+ When Dagonet, having entered, stood before
+ The King as one affrighted, the King smiled:
+ "You think because I call for you so late
+ That I am angry, Dagonet? Why so?
+ Have you been saying what I say to you,
+ And telling men that you brought Merlin here?
+ No? So I fancied; and if you report
+ No syllable of anything I speak,
+ You will have no regrets, and I no anger.
+ What word of Merlin was abroad today?"
+
+ "Today have I heard no man save Gawaine,
+ And to him I said only what all men
+ Are saying to their neighbors. They believe
+ That you have Merlin here, and that his coming
+ Denotes no good. Gawaine was curious,
+ But ever mindful of your majesty.
+ He pressed me not, and we made light of it."
+
+ "Gawaine, I fear, makes light of everything,"
+ The King said, looking down. "Sometimes I wish
+ I had a full Round Table of Gawaines.
+ But that's a freak of midnight,--never mind it.
+ Sing me a song--one of those endless things
+ That Merlin liked of old, when men were younger
+ And there were more stars twinkling in the sky.
+ I see no stars that are alive tonight,
+ And I am not the king of sleep. So then,
+ Sing me an old song."
+
+ Dagonet's quick eye
+ Caught sorrow in the King's; and he knew more,
+ In a fool's way, than even the King himself
+ Of what was hovering over Camelot.
+ "O King," he said, "I cannot sing tonight.
+ If you command me I shall try to sing,
+ But I shall fail; for there are no songs now
+ In my old throat, or even in these poor strings
+ That I can hardly follow with my fingers.
+ Forgive me--kill me--but I cannot sing."
+ Dagonet fell down then on both his knees
+ And shook there while he clutched the King's cold hand
+ And wept for what he knew.
+
+ "There, Dagonet;
+ I shall not kill my knight, or make him sing.
+ No more; get up, and get you off to bed.
+ There'll be another time for you to sing,
+ So get you to your covers and sleep well."
+ Alone again, the King said, bitterly:
+ "Yes, I have one friend left, and they who know
+ As much of him as of themselves believe
+ That he's a fool. Poor Dagonet's a fool.
+ And if he be a fool, what else am I
+ Than one fool more to make the world complete?
+ 'The love that never was!' ... Fool, fool, fool, fool!"
+
+ The King was long awake. No covenant
+ With peace was his tonight; and he knew sleep
+ As he knew the cold eyes of Guinevere
+ That yesterday had stabbed him, having first
+ On Lancelot's name struck fire, and left him then
+ As now they left him--with a wounded heart,
+ A wounded pride, and a sickening pang worse yet
+ Of lost possession. He thought wearily
+ Of watchers by the dead, late wayfarers,
+ Rough-handed mariners on ships at sea,
+ Lone-yawning sentries, wastrels, and all others
+ Who might be saying somewhere to themselves,
+ "The King is now asleep in Camelot;
+ God save the King."--"God save the King, indeed,
+ If there be now a king to save," he said.
+ Then he saw giants rising in the dark,
+ Born horribly of memories and new fears
+ That in the gray-lit irony of dawn
+ Were partly to fade out and be forgotten;
+ And then there might be sleep, and for a time
+ There might again be peace. His head was hot
+ And throbbing; but the rest of him was cold,
+ As he lay staring hard where nothing stood,
+ And hearing what was not, even while he saw
+ And heard, like dust and thunder far away,
+ The coming confirmation of the words
+ Of him who saw so much and feared so little
+ Of all that was to be. No spoken doom
+ That ever chilled the last night of a felon
+ Prepared a dragging anguish more profound
+ And absolute than Arthur, in these hours,
+ Made out of darkness and of Merlin's words;
+ No tide that ever crashed on Lyonnesse
+ Drove echoes inland that were lonelier
+ For widowed ears among the fisher-folk,
+ Than for the King were memories tonight
+ Of old illusions that were dead for ever.
+
+
+IV
+
+ The tortured King--seeing Merlin wholly meshed
+ In his defection, even to indifference,
+ And all the while attended and exalted
+ By some unfathomable obscurity
+ Of divination, where the Grail, unseen,
+ Broke yet the darkness where a king saw nothing--
+ Feared now the lady Vivian more than Fate;
+ For now he knew that Modred, Lancelot,
+ The Queen, the King, the Kingdom, and the World,
+ Were less to Merlin, who had made him King,
+ Than one small woman in Broceliande.
+ Whereas the lady Vivian, seeing Merlin
+ Acclaimed and tempted and allured again
+ To service in his old magnificence,
+ Feared now King Arthur more than storms and robbers;
+ For Merlin, though he knew himself immune
+ To no least whispered little wish of hers
+ That might afflict his ear with ecstasy,
+ Had yet sufficient of his old command
+ Of all around him to invest an eye
+ With quiet lightning, and a spoken word
+ With easy thunder, so accomplishing
+ A profit and a pastime for himself--
+ And for the lady Vivian, when her guile
+ Outlived at intervals her graciousness;
+ And this equipment of uncertainty,
+ Which now had gone away with him to Britain
+ With Dagonet, so plagued her memory
+ That soon a phantom brood of goblin doubts
+ Inhabited his absence, which had else
+ Been empty waiting and a few brave fears,
+ And a few more, she knew, that were not brave,
+ Or long to be disowned, or manageable.
+ She thought of him as he had looked at her
+ When first he had acquainted her alarm
+ At sight of the King's letter with its import;
+ And she remembered now his very words:
+ "The King believes today as in his boyhood
+ That I am Fate," he said; and when they parted
+ She had not even asked him not to go;
+ She might as well, she thought, have bid the wind
+ Throw no more clouds across a lonely sky
+ Between her and the moon,--so great he seemed
+ In his oppressed solemnity, and she,
+ In her excess of wrong imagining,
+ So trivial in an hour, and, after all
+ A creature of a smaller consequence
+ Than kings to Merlin, who made kings and kingdoms
+ And had them as a father; and so she feared
+ King Arthur more than robbers while she waited
+ For Merlin's promise to fulfil itself,
+ And for the rest that was to follow after:
+ "He said he would come back, and so he will.
+ He will because he must, and he is Merlin,
+ The master of the world--or so he was;
+ And he is coming back again to me
+ Because he must and I am Vivian.
+ It's all as easy as two added numbers:
+ Some day I'll hear him ringing at the gate,
+ As he rang on that morning in the spring,
+ Ten years ago; and I shall have him then
+ For ever. He shall never go away
+ Though kings come walking on their hands and knees
+ To take him on their backs." When Merlin came,
+ She told him that, and laughed; and he said strangely:
+ "Be glad or sorry, but no kings are coming.
+ Not Arthur, surely; for now Arthur knows
+ That I am less than Fate."
+
+ Ten years ago
+ The King had heard, with unbelieving ears
+ At first, what Merlin said would be the last
+ Reiteration of his going down
+ To find a living grave in Brittany:
+ "Buried alive I told you I should be,
+ By love made little and by woman shorn,
+ Like Samson, of my glory; and the time
+ Is now at hand. I follow in the morning
+ Where I am led. I see behind me now
+ The last of crossways, and I see before me
+ A straight and final highway to the end
+ Of all my divination. You are King,
+ And in your kingdom I am what I was.
+ Wherever I have warned you, see as far
+ As I have seen; for I have shown the worst
+ There is to see. Require no more of me,
+ For I can be no more than what I was."
+ So, on the morrow, the King said farewell;
+ And he was never more to Merlin's eye
+ The King than at that hour; for Merlin knew
+ How much was going out of Arthur's life
+ With him, as he went southward to the sea.
+
+ Over the waves and into Brittany
+ Went Merlin, to Broceliande. Gay birds
+ Were singing high to greet him all along
+ A broad and sanded woodland avenue
+ That led him on forever, so he thought,
+ Until at last there was an end of it;
+ And at the end there was a gate of iron,
+ Wrought heavily and invidiously barred.
+ He pulled a cord that rang somewhere a bell
+ Of many echoes, and sat down to rest,
+ Outside the keeper's house, upon a bench
+ Of carven stone that might for centuries
+ Have waited there in silence to receive him.
+ The birds were singing still; leaves flashed and swung
+ Before him in the sunlight; a soft breeze
+ Made intermittent whisperings around him
+ Of love and fate and danger, and faint waves
+ Of many sweetly-stinging fragile odors
+ Broke lightly as they touched him; cherry-boughs
+ Above him snowed white petals down upon him,
+ And under their slow falling Merlin smiled
+ Contentedly, as one who contemplates
+ No longer fear, confusion, or regret,
+ May smile at ruin or at revelation.
+
+ A stately fellow with a forest air
+ Now hailed him from within, with searching words
+ And curious looks, till Merlin's glowing eye
+ Transfixed him and he flinched: "My compliments
+ And homage to the lady Vivian.
+ Say Merlin from King Arthur's Court is here,
+ A pilgrim and a stranger in appearance,
+ Though in effect her friend and humble servant.
+ Convey to her my speech as I have said it,
+ Without abbreviation or delay,
+ And so deserve my gratitude forever."
+ "But Merlin?" the man stammered; "Merlin? Merlin?"--
+ "One Merlin is enough. I know no other.
+ Now go you to the lady Vivian
+ And bring to me her word, for I am weary."
+ Still smiling at the cherry-blossoms falling
+ Down on him and around him in the sunlight,
+ He waited, never moving, never glancing
+ This way or that, until his messenger
+ Came jingling into vision, weighed with keys,
+ And inly shaken with much wondering
+ At this great wizard's coming unannounced
+ And unattended. When the way was open
+ The stately messenger, now bowing low
+ In reverence and awe, bade Merlin enter;
+ And Merlin, having entered, heard the gate
+ Clang back behind him; and he swore no gate
+ Like that had ever clanged in Camelot,
+ Or any other place if not in hell.
+ "I may be dead; and this good fellow here,
+ With all his keys," he thought, "may be the Devil,--
+ Though I were loath to say so, for the keys
+ Would make him rather more akin to Peter;
+ And that's fair reasoning for this fair weather."
+
+ "The lady Vivian says you are most welcome,"
+ Said now the stately-favored servitor,
+ "And are to follow me. She said, 'Say Merlin--
+ A pilgrim and a stranger in appearance,
+ Though in effect my friend and humble servant--
+ Is welcome for himself, and for the sound
+ Of his great name that echoes everywhere.'"--
+ "I like you and I like your memory,"
+ Said Merlin, curiously, "but not your gate.
+ Why forge for this elysian wilderness
+ A thing so vicious with unholy noise?"--
+ "There's a way out of every wilderness
+ For those who dare or care enough to find it,"
+ The guide said: and they moved along together,
+ Down shaded ways, through open ways with hedgerows.
+ And into shade again more deep than ever,
+ But edged anon with rays of broken sunshine
+ In which a fountain, raining crystal music,
+ Made faery magic of it through green leafage,
+ Till Merlin's eyes were dim with preparation
+ For sight now of the lady Vivian.
+ He saw at first a bit of living green
+ That might have been a part of all the green
+ Around the tinkling fountain where she gazed
+ Upon the circling pool as if her thoughts
+ Were not so much on Merlin--whose advance
+ Betrayed through his enormity of hair
+ The cheeks and eyes of youth--as on the fishes.
+ But soon she turned and found him, now alone,
+ And held him while her beauty and her grace
+ Made passing trash of empires, and his eyes
+ Told hers of what a splendid emptiness
+ Her tedious world had been without him in it
+ Whose love and service were to be her school,
+ Her triumph, and her history: "This is Merlin,"
+ She thought; "and I shall dream of him no more.
+ And he has come, he thinks, to frighten me
+ With beards and robes and his immortal fame;
+ Or is it I who think so? I know not.
+ I'm frightened, sure enough, but if I show it,
+ I'll be no more the Vivian for whose love
+ He tossed away his glory, or the Vivian
+ Who saw no man alive to make her love him
+ Till she saw Merlin once in Camelot,
+ And seeing him, saw no other. In an age
+ That has no plan for me that I can read
+ Without him, shall he tell me what I am,
+ And why I am, I wonder?" While she thought,
+ And feared the man whom her perverse negation
+ Must overcome somehow to soothe her fancy,
+ She smiled and welcomed him; and so they stood,
+ Each finding in the other's eyes a gleam
+ Of what eternity had hidden there.
+
+ "Are you always all in green, as you are now?"
+ Said Merlin, more employed with her complexion,
+ Where blood and olive made wild harmony
+ With eyes and wayward hair that were too dark
+ For peace if they were not subordinated;
+ "If so you are, then so you make yourself
+ A danger in a world of many dangers.
+ If I were young, God knows if I were safe
+ Concerning you in green, like a slim cedar,
+ As you are now, to say my life was mine:
+ Were you to say to me that I should end it,
+ Longevity for me were jeopardized.
+ Have you your green on always and all over?"
+
+ "Come here, and I will tell you about that,"
+ Said Vivian, leading Merlin with a laugh
+ To an arbored seat where they made opposites:
+ "If you are Merlin--and I know you are,
+ For I remember you in Camelot,--
+ You know that I am Vivian, as I am;
+ And if I go in green, why, let me go so,
+ And say at once why you have come to me
+ Cloaked over like a monk, and with a beard
+ As long as Jeremiah's. I don't like it.
+ I'll never like a man with hair like that
+ While I can feed a carp with little frogs.
+ I'm rather sure to hate you if you keep it,
+ And when I hate a man I poison him."
+
+ "You've never fed a carp with little frogs,"
+ Said Merlin; "I can see it in your eyes."--
+ "I might then, if I haven't," said the lady;
+ "For I'm a savage, and I love no man
+ As I have seen him yet. I'm here alone,
+ With some three hundred others, all of whom
+ Are ready, I dare say, to die for me;
+ I'm cruel and I'm cold, and I like snakes;
+ And some have said my mother was a fairy,
+ Though I believe it not."
+
+ "Why not believe it?"
+ Said Merlin; "I believe it. I believe
+ Also that you divine, as I had wished,
+ In my surviving ornament of office
+ A needless imposition on your wits,
+ If not yet on the scope of your regard.
+ Even so, you cannot say how old I am,
+ Or yet how young. I'm willing cheerfully
+ To fight, left-handed, Hell's three headed hound
+ If you but whistle him up from where he lives;
+ I'm cheerful and I'm fierce, and I've made kings;
+ And some have said my father was the Devil,
+ Though I believe it not. Whatever I am,
+ I have not lived in Time until to-day."
+ A moment's worth of wisdom there escaped him,
+ But Vivian seized it, and it was not lost.
+ Embroidering doom with many levities,
+ Till now the fountain's crystal silver, fading,
+ Became a splash and a mere chilliness,
+ They mocked their fate with easy pleasantries
+ That were too false and small to be forgotten,
+ And with ingenious insincerities
+ That had no repetition or revival.
+ At last the lady Vivian arose,
+ And with a crying of how late it was
+ Took Merlin's hand and led him like a child
+ Along a dusky way between tall cones
+ Of tight green cedars: "Am I like one of these?
+ You said I was, though I deny it wholly."--
+ "Very," said Merlin, to his bearded lips
+ Uplifting her small fingers.--"O, that hair!"
+ She moaned, as if in sorrow: "Must it be?
+ Must every prophet and important wizard
+ Be clouded so that nothing but his nose
+ And eyes, and intimations of his ears,
+ Are there to make us know him when we see him?
+ Praise heaven I'm not a prophet! Are you glad?"--
+
+ He did not say that he was glad or sorry;
+ For suddenly came flashing into vision
+ A thing that was a manor and a palace,
+ With walls and roofs that had a flaming sky
+ Behind them, like a sky that he remembered,
+ And one that had from his rock-sheltered haunt
+ Above the roofs of his forsaken city
+ Made flame as if all Camelot were on fire.
+ The glow brought with it a brief memory
+ Of Arthur as he left him, and the pain
+ That fought in Arthur's eyes for losing him,
+ And must have overflowed when he had vanished.
+ But now the eyes that looked hard into his
+ Were Vivian's, not the King's; and he could see,
+ Or so he thought, a shade of sorrow in them.
+ She took his two hands: "You are sad," she said.--
+ He smiled: "Your western lights bring memories
+ Of Camelot. We all have memories--
+ Prophets, and women who are like slim cedars;
+ But you are wrong to say that I am sad."--
+ "Would you go back to Camelot?" she asked,
+ Her fingers tightening. Merlin shook his head.
+ "Then listen while I tell you that I'm glad,"
+ She purred, as if assured that he would listen:
+ "At your first warning, much too long ago,
+ Of this quaint pilgrimage of yours to see
+ 'The fairest and most orgulous of ladies'--
+ No language for a prophet, I am sure--
+ Said I, 'When this great Merlin comes to me,
+ My task and avocation for some time
+ Will be to make him willing, if I can,
+ To teach and feed me with an ounce of wisdom.'
+ For I have eaten to an empty shell,
+ After a weary feast of observation
+ Among the glories of a tinsel world
+ That had for me no glory till you came,
+ A life that is no life. Would you go back
+ To Camelot?"--Merlin shook his head again,
+ And the two smiled together in the sunset.
+
+ They moved along in silence to the door,
+ Where Merlin said: "Of your three hundred here
+ There is but one I know, and him I favor;
+ I mean the stately one who shakes the keys
+ Of that most evil sounding gate of yours,
+ Which has a clang as if it shut forever."--
+ "If there be need, I'll shut the gate myself,"
+ She said. "And you like Blaise? Then you shall have him.
+ He was not born to serve, but serve he must,
+ It seems, and be enamoured of my shadow.
+ He cherishes the taint of some high folly
+ That haunts him with a name he cannot know,
+ And I could fear his wits are paying for it.
+ Forgive his tongue, and humor it a little."--
+ "I knew another one whose name was Blaise,"
+ He said; and she said lightly, "Well, what of it?"--
+ "And he was nigh the learnedest of hermits;
+ His home was far away from everywhere,
+ And he was all alone there when he died."--
+ "Now be a pleasant Merlin," Vivian said,
+ Patting his arm, "and have no more of that;
+ For I'll not hear of dead men far away,
+ Or dead men anywhere this afternoon.
+ There'll be a trifle in the way of supper
+ This evening, but the dead shall not have any.
+ Blaise and this man will tell you all there is
+ For you to know. Then you'll know everything."
+ She laughed, and vanished like a humming-bird.
+
+
+V
+
+ The sun went down, and the dark after it
+ Starred Merlin's new abode with many a sconced
+ And many a moving candle, in whose light
+ The prisoned wizard, mirrored in amazement,
+ Saw fronting him a stranger, falcon-eyed,
+ Firm-featured, of a negligible age,
+ And fair enough to look upon, he fancied,
+ Though not a warrior born, nor more a courtier.
+ A native humor resting in his long
+ And solemn jaws now stirred, and Merlin smiled
+ To see himself in purple, touched with gold,
+ And fledged with snowy lace.--The careful Blaise,
+ Having drawn some time before from Merlin's wallet
+ The sable raiment of a royal scholar,
+ Had eyed it with a long mistrust and said:
+ "The lady Vivian would be vexed, I fear,
+ To meet you vested in these learned weeds
+ Of gravity and death; for she abhors
+ Mortality in all its hues and emblems--
+ Black wear, long argument, and all the cold
+ And solemn things that appertain to graves."--
+ And Merlin, listening, to himself had said,
+ "This fellow has a freedom, yet I like him;"
+ And then aloud: "I trust you. Deck me out,
+ However, with a temperate regard
+ For what your candid eye may find in me
+ Of inward coloring. Let them reap my beard,
+ Moreover, with a sort of reverence,
+ For I shall never look on it again.
+ And though your lady frown her face away
+ To think of me in black, for God's indulgence,
+ Array me not in scarlet or in yellow."--
+ And so it came to pass that Merlin sat
+ At ease in purple, even though his chin
+ Reproached him as he pinched it, and seemed yet
+ A little fearful of its nakedness.
+ He might have sat and scanned himself for ever
+ Had not the careful Blaise, regarding him,
+ Remarked again that in his proper judgment,
+ And on the valid word of his attendants,
+ No more was to be done. "Then do no more,"
+ Said Merlin, with a last look at his chin;
+ "Never do more when there's no more to do,
+ And you may shun thereby the bitter taste
+ Of many disillusions and regrets.
+ God's pity on us that our words have wings
+ And leave our deeds to crawl so far below them;
+ For we have all two heights, we men who dream,
+ Whether we lead or follow, rule or serve."--
+ "God's pity on us anyhow," Blaise answered,
+ "Or most of us. Meanwhile, I have to say,
+ As long as you are here, and I'm alive,
+ Your summons will assure the loyalty
+ Of all my diligence and expedition.
+ The gong that you hear singing in the distance
+ Was rung for your attention and your presence."--
+ "I wonder at this fellow, yet I like him,"
+ Said Merlin; and he rose to follow him.
+
+ The lady Vivian in a fragile sheath
+ Of crimson, dimmed and veiled ineffably
+ By the flame-shaken gloom wherein she sat,
+ And twinkled if she moved, heard Merlin coming,
+ And smiled as if to make herself believe
+ Her joy was all a triumph; yet her blood
+ Confessed a tingling of more wonderment
+ Than all her five and twenty worldly years
+ Of waiting for this triumph could remember;
+ And when she knew and felt the slower tread
+ Of his unseen advance among the shadows
+ To the small haven of uncertain light
+ That held her in it as a torch-lit shoal
+ Might hold a smooth red fish, her listening skin
+ Responded with a creeping underneath it,
+ And a crinkling that was incident alike
+ To darkness, love, and mice. When he was there,
+ She looked up at him in a whirl of mirth
+ And wonder, as in childhood she had gazed
+ Wide-eyed on royal mountebanks who made
+ So brief a shift of the impossible
+ That kings and queens would laugh and shake themselves;
+ Then rising slowly on her little feet,
+ Like a slim creature lifted, she thrust out
+ Her two small hands as if to push him back--
+ Whereon he seized them. "Go away," she said;
+ "I never saw you in my life before."--
+ "You say the truth," he answered; "when I met
+ Myself an hour ago, my words were yours.
+ God made the man you see for you to like,
+ If possible. If otherwise, turn down
+ These two prodigious and remorseless thumbs
+ And leave your lions to annihilate him."--
+
+ "I have no other lion than yourself,"
+ She said; "and since you cannot eat yourself,
+ Pray do a lonely woman, who is, you say,
+ More like a tree than any other thing
+ In your discrimination, the large honor
+ Of sharing with her a small kind of supper."--
+ "Yes, you are like a tree,--or like a flower;
+ More like a flower to-night." He bowed his head
+ And kissed the ten small fingers he was holding,
+ As calmly as if each had been a son;
+ Although his heart was leaping and his eyes
+ Had sight for nothing save a swimming crimson
+ Between two glimmering arms. "More like a flower
+ To-night," he said, as now he scanned again
+ The immemorial meaning of her face
+ And drew it nearer to his eyes. It seemed
+ A flower of wonder with a crimson stem
+ Came leaning slowly and regretfully
+ To meet his will--a flower of change and peril
+ That had a clinging blossom of warm olive
+ Half stifled with a tyranny of black,
+ And held the wayward fragrance of a rose
+ Made woman by delirious alchemy.
+ She raised her face and yoked his willing neck
+ With half her weight; and with hot lips that left
+ The world with only philosophy
+ For Merlin or for Anaxagoras,
+ Called his to meet them and in one long hush
+ Of capture to surrender and make hers
+ The last of anything that might remain
+ Of what were now their beardless wizardry.
+ Then slowly she began to push herself
+ Away, and slowly Merlin let her go
+ As far from him as his outreaching hands
+ Could hold her fingers while his eyes had all
+ The beauty of the woodland and the world
+ Before him in the firelight, like a nymph
+ Of cities, or a queen a little weary
+ Of inland stillness and immortal trees.
+ "Are you to let me go again sometime,"
+ She said,--"before I starve to death, I wonder?
+ If not, I'll have to bite the lion's paws,
+ And make him roar. He cannot shake his mane,
+ For now the lion has no mane to shake;
+ The lion hardly knows himself without it,
+ And thinks he has no face, but there's a lady
+ Who says he had no face until he lost it.
+ So there we are. And there's a flute somewhere,
+ Playing a strange old tune. You know the words:
+ 'The Lion and the Lady are both hungry.'"
+
+ Fatigue and hunger--tempered leisurely
+ With food that some devout magician's oven
+ Might after many failures have delivered,
+ And wine that had for decades in the dark
+ Of Merlin's grave been slowly quickening,
+ And with half-heard, dream-weaving interludes
+ Of distant flutes and viols, made yet more distant
+ By far, nostalgic hautboys blown from nowhere,--
+ Were tempered not so leisurely, may be,
+ With Vivian's inextinguishable eyes
+ Between two shining silver candlesticks
+ That lifted each a trembling flame to make
+ The rest of her a dusky loveliness
+ Against a bank of shadow. Merlin made,
+ As well as he was able while he ate,
+ A fair division of the fealty due
+ To food and beauty, albeit more times than one
+ Was he at odds with his urbanity
+ In honoring too long the grosser viand.
+ "The best invention in Broceliande
+ Has not been over-taxed in vain, I see,"
+ She told him, with her chin propped on her fingers
+ And her eyes flashing blindness into his:
+ "I put myself out cruelly to please you,
+ And you, for that, forget almost at once
+ The name and image of me altogether.
+ You needn't, for when all is analyzed,
+ It's only a bird-pie that you are eating."
+
+ "I know not what you call it," Merlin said;
+ "Nor more do I forget your name and image,
+ Though I do eat; and if I did not eat,
+ Your sending out of ships and caravans
+ To get whatever 'tis that's in this thing
+ Would be a sorrow for you all your days;
+ And my great love, which you have seen by now,
+ Might look to you a lie; and like as not
+ You'd actuate some sinewed mercenary
+ To carry me away to God knows where
+ And seal me in a fearsome hole to starve,
+ Because I made of this insidious picking
+ An idle circumstance. My dear fair lady--
+ And there is not another under heaven
+ So fair as you are as I see you now--
+ I cannot look at you too much and eat;
+ And I must eat, or be untimely ashes,
+ Whereon the light of your celestial gaze
+ Would fall, I fear me, for no longer time
+ Than on the solemn dust of Jeremiah--
+ Whose beard you likened once, in heathen jest,
+ To mine that now is no man's."
+
+ "Are you sorry?"
+ Said Vivian, filling Merlin's empty goblet;
+ "If you are sorry for the loss of it,
+ Drink more of this and you may tell me lies
+ Enough to make me sure that you are glad;
+ But if your love is what you say it is,
+ Be never sorry that my love took off
+ That horrid hair to make your face at last
+ A human fact. Since I have had your name
+ To dream of and say over to myself,
+ The visitations of that awful beard
+ Have been a terror for my nights and days--
+ For twenty years. I've seen it like an ocean,
+ Blown seven ways at once and wrecking ships,
+ With men and women screaming for their lives;
+ I've seen it woven into shining ladders
+ That ran up out of sight and so to heaven,
+ All covered with white ghosts with hanging robes
+ Like folded wings,--and there were millions of them,
+ Climbing, climbing, climbing, all the time;
+ And all the time that I was watching them
+ I thought how far above me Merlin was,
+ And wondered always what his face was like.
+ But even then, as a child, I knew the day
+ Would come some time when I should see his face,
+ And hear his voice, and have him in my house
+ Till he should care no more to stay in it,
+ And go away to found another kingdom."--
+ "Not that," he said; and, sighing, drank more wine;
+ "One kingdom for one Merlin is enough."--
+ "One Merlin for one Vivian is enough,"
+ She said. "If you care much, remember that;
+ But the Lord knows how many Vivians
+ One Merlin's entertaining eye might favor,
+ Indifferently well and all at once,
+ If they were all at hand. Praise heaven they're not."
+
+ "If they were in the world--praise heaven they're not--
+ And if one Merlin's entertaining eye
+ Saw two of them, there might be left him then
+ The sight of no eye to see anything--
+ Not even the Vivian who is everything,
+ She being Beauty, Beauty being She,
+ She being Vivian, and so forever."--
+ "I'm glad you don't see two of me," she said;
+ "For there's a whole world yet for you to eat
+ And drink and say to me before I know
+ The kind of creature that you see in me.
+ I'm withering for a little more attention,
+ But, being woman, I can wait. These cups
+ That you see coming are for the last there is
+ Of what my father gave to kings alone,
+ And far from always. You are more than kings
+ To me; therefore I give it all to you,
+ Imploring you to spare no more of it
+ Than what a cockle-shell would hold for me
+ To pledge your love and mine in. Take the rest,
+ That I may see tonight the end of it;
+ I'll have no living remnant of the dead
+ Annoying me until it fades and sours
+ Of too long cherishing; for Time enjoys
+ The look that's on our faces when we scowl
+ On unexpected ruins, and thrift itself
+ May be a kind of slow unwholesome fire
+ That eats away to dust the life that feeds it.
+ You smile, I see, but I said what I said.
+ One hardly has to live a thousand years
+ To contemplate a lost economy;
+ So let us drink it while it's yet alive
+ And you and I are not untimely ashes.
+ My last words are your own, and I don't like 'em."--
+ A sudden laughter scattered from her eyes
+ A threatening wisdom. He smiled and let her laugh,
+ Then looked into the dark where there was nothing:
+ "There's more in this than I have seen," he thought,
+ "Though I shall see it."--"Drink," she said again;
+ "There's only this much in the world of it,
+ And I am near to giving all to you
+ Because you are so great and I so little."
+
+ With a long-kindling gaze that caught from hers
+ A laughing flame, and with a hand that shook
+ Like Arthur's kingdom, Merlin slowly raised
+ A golden cup that for a golden moment
+ Was twinned in air with hers; and Vivian,
+ Who smiled at him across their gleaming rims,
+ From eyes that made a fuel of the night
+ Surrounding her, shot glory over gold
+ At Merlin, while their cups touched and his trembled.
+ He drank, not knowing what, nor caring much
+ For kings who might have cared less for themselves,
+ He thought, had all the darkness and wild light
+ That fell together to make Vivian
+ Been there before them then to flower anew
+ Through sheathing crimson into candle-light
+ With each new leer of their loose, liquorish eyes.
+ Again he drank, and he cursed every king
+ Who might have touched her even in her cradle;
+ For what were kings to such as he, who made them
+ And saw them totter--for the world to see,
+ And heed, if the world would? He drank again,
+ And yet again--to make himself assured
+ No manner of king should have the last of it--
+ The cup that Vivian filled unfailingly
+ Until she poured for nothing. "At the end
+ Of this incomparable flowing gold,"
+ She prattled on to Merlin, who observed
+ Her solemnly, "I fear there may be specks."--
+ He sighed aloud, whereat she laughed at him
+ And pushed the golden cup a little nearer.
+ He scanned it with a sad anxiety,
+ And then her face likewise, and shook his head
+ As if at her concern for such a matter:
+ "Specks? What are specks? Are you afraid of them?"
+ He murmured slowly, with a drowsy tongue;
+ "There are specks everywhere. I fear them not.
+ If I were king in Camelot, I might
+ Fear more than specks. But now I fear them not.
+ You are too strange a lady to fear specks."
+
+ He stared a long time at the cup of gold
+ Before him but he drank no more. There came
+ Between him and the world a crumbling sky
+ Of black and crimson, with a crimson cloud
+ That held a far off town of many towers,
+ All swayed and shaken, till at last they fell,
+ And there was nothing but a crimson cloud
+ That crumbled into nothing, like the sky
+ That vanished with it, carrying away
+ The world, the woman, and all memory of them,
+ Until a slow light of another sky
+ Made gray an open casement, showing him
+ Faint shapes of an exotic furniture
+ That glimmered with a dim magnificence,
+ And letting in the sound of many birds
+ That were, as he lay there remembering,
+ The only occupation of his ears
+ Until it seemed they shared a fainter sound,
+ As if a sleeping child with a black head
+ Beside him drew the breath of innocence.
+
+ One shining afternoon around the fountain,
+ As on the shining day of his arrival,
+ The sunlight was alive with flying silver
+ That had for Merlin a more dazzling flash
+ Than jewels rained in dreams, and a richer sound
+ Than harps, and all the morning stars together,--
+ When jewels and harps and stars and everything
+ That flashed and sang and was not Vivian,
+ Seemed less than echoes of her least of words--
+ For she was coming. Suddenly, somewhere
+ Behind him, she was coming; that was all
+ He knew until she came and took his hand
+ And held it while she talked about the fishes.
+ When she looked up he thought a softer light
+ Was in her eyes than once he had found there;
+ And had there been left yet for dusky women
+ A beauty that was heretofore not hers,
+ He told himself he must have seen it then
+ Before him in the face at which he smiled
+ And trembled. "Many men have called me wise,"
+ He said, "but you are wiser than all wisdom
+ If you know what you are."--"I don't," she said;
+ "I know that you and I are here together;
+ I know that I have known for twenty years
+ That life would be almost a constant yawning
+ Until you came; and now that you are here,
+ I know that you are not to go away
+ Until you tell me that I'm hideous;
+ I know that I like fishes, ferns, and snakes,--
+ Maybe because I liked them when the world
+ Was young and you and I were salamanders;
+ I know, too, a cool place not far from here,
+ Where there are ferns that are like marching men
+ Who never march away. Come now and see them,
+ And do as they do--never march away.
+ When they are gone, some others, crisp and green,
+ Will have their place, but never march away."--
+ He smoothed her silky fingers, one by one:
+ "Some other Merlin, also, do you think,
+ Will have his place--and never march away?"--
+ Then Vivian laid a finger on his lips
+ And shook her head at him before she laughed:
+ "There is no other Merlin than yourself,
+ And you are never going to be old."
+ Oblivious of a world that made of him
+ A jest, a legend, and a long regret,
+ And with a more commanding wizardry
+ Than his to rule a kingdom where the king
+ Was Love and the queen Vivian, Merlin found
+ His queen without the blemish of a word
+ That was more rough than honey from her lips,
+ Or the first adumbration of a frown
+ To cloud the night-wild fire that in her eyes
+ Had yet a smoky friendliness of home,
+ And a foreknowing care for mighty trifles.
+ "There are miles and miles for you to wander in,"
+ She told him once: "Your prison yard is large,
+ And I would rather take my two ears off
+ And feed them to the fishes in the fountain
+ Than buzz like an incorrigible bee
+ For always around yours, and have you hate
+ The sound of me; for some day then, for certain,
+ Your philosophic rage would see in me
+ A bee in earnest, and your hand would smite
+ My life away. And what would you do then?
+ I know: for years and years you'd sit alone
+ Upon my grave, and be the grieving image
+ Of lean remorse, and suffer miserably;
+ And often, all day long, you'd only shake
+ Your celebrated head and all it holds,
+ Or beat it with your fist the while you groaned
+ Aloud and went on saying to yourself:
+ 'Never should I have killed her, or believed
+ She was a bee that buzzed herself to death,
+ First having made me crazy, had there been
+ Judicious distance and wise absences
+ To keep the two of us inquisitive.'"--
+ "I fear you bow your unoffending head
+ Before a load that should be mine," said he;
+ "If so, you led me on by listening.
+ You should have shrieked and jumped, and then fled yelling;
+ That's the best way when a man talks too long.
+ God's pity on me if I love your feet
+ More now than I could ever love the face
+ Of any one of all those Vivians
+ You summoned out of nothing on the night
+ When I saw towers. I'll wander and amend."--
+ At that she flung the noose of her soft arms
+ Around his neck and kissed him instantly:
+ "You are the wisest man that ever was,
+ And I've a prayer to make: May all you say
+ To Vivian be a part of what you knew
+ Before the curse of her unquiet head
+ Was on your shoulder, as you have it now,
+ To punish you for knowing beyond knowledge.
+ You are the only one who sees enough
+ To make me see how far away I am
+ From all that I have seen and have not been;
+ You are the only thing there is alive
+ Between me as I am and as I was
+ When Merlin was a dream. You are to listen
+ When I say now to you that I'm alone.
+ Like you, I saw too much; and unlike you
+ I made no kingdom out of what I saw--
+ Or none save this one here that you must rule,
+ Believing you are ruled. I see too far
+ To rule myself. Time's way with you and me
+ Is our way, in that we are out of Time
+ And out of tune with Time. We have this place,
+ And you must hold us in it or we die.
+ Look at me now and say if what I say
+ Be folly or not; for my unquiet head
+ Is no conceit of mine. I had it first
+ When I was born; and I shall have it with me
+ Till my unquiet soul is on its way
+ To be, I hope, where souls are quieter.
+ So let the first and last activity
+ Of what you say so often is your love
+ Be always to remember that our lyres
+ Are not strung for Today. On you it falls
+ To keep them in accord here with each other,
+ For you have wisdom, I have only sight
+ For distant things--and you. And you are Merlin.
+ Poor wizard! Vivian is your punishment
+ For making kings of men who are not kings;
+ And you are mine, by the same reasoning,
+ For living out of Time and out of tune
+ With anything but you. No other man
+ Could make me say so much of what I know
+ As I say now to you. And you are Merlin!"
+
+ She looked up at him till his way was lost
+ Again in the familiar wilderness
+ Of night that love made for him in her eyes,
+ And there he wandered as he said he would;
+ He wandered also in his prison-yard,
+ And, when he found her coming after him,
+ Beguiled her with her own admonishing
+ And frowned upon her with a fierce reproof
+ That many a time in the old world outside
+ Had set the mark of silence on strong men--
+ Whereat she laughed, not always wholly sure,
+ Nor always wholly glad, that he who played
+ So lightly was the wizard of her dreams:
+ "No matter--if only Merlin keep the world
+ Away," she thought. "Our lyres have many strings,
+ But he must know them all, for he is Merlin."--
+ And so for years, till ten of them were gone,--
+ Ten years, ten seasons, or ten flying ages--
+ Fate made Broceliande a paradise,
+ By none invaded, until Dagonet,
+ Like a discordant, awkward bird of doom,
+ Flew in with Arthur's message. For the King,
+ In sorrow cleaving to simplicity,
+ And having in his love a quick remembrance
+ Of Merlin's old affection for the fellow,
+ Had for this vain, reluctant enterprise
+ Appointed him--the knight who made men laugh,
+ And was a fool because he played the fool.
+
+ "The King believes today, as in his boyhood,
+ That I am Fate; and I can do no more
+ Than show again what in his heart he knows,"
+ Said Merlin to himself and Vivian:
+ "This time I go because I made him King,
+ Thereby to be a mirror for the world;
+ This time I go, but never after this,
+ For I can be no more than what I was,
+ And I can do no more than I have done."
+ He took her slowly in his arms and felt
+ Her body throbbing like a bird against him:
+ "This time I go; I go because I must."
+
+ And in the morning, when he rode away
+ With Dagonet and Blaise through the same gate
+ That once had clanged as if to shut for ever,
+ She had not even asked him not to go;
+ For it was then that in his lonely gaze
+ Of helpless love and sad authority
+ She found the gleam of his imprisoned power
+ That Fate withheld; and, pitying herself,
+ She pitied the fond Merlin she had changed,
+ And saw the Merlin who had changed the world.
+
+
+VI
+
+ "No kings are coming on their hands and knees,
+ Nor yet on horses or in chariots,
+ To carry me away from you again,"
+ Said Merlin, winding around Vivian's ear
+ A shred of her black hair. "King Arthur knows
+ That I have done with kings, and that I speak
+ No more their crafty language. Once I knew it,
+ But now the only language I have left
+ Is one that I must never let you hear
+ Too long, or know too well. When towering deeds
+ Once done shall only out of dust and words
+ Be done again, the doer may then be wary
+ Lest in the complement of his new fabric
+ There be more words than dust."
+
+ "Why tell me so?"
+ Said Vivian; and a singular thin laugh
+ Came after her thin question. "Do you think
+ That I'm so far away from history
+ That I require, even of the wisest man
+ Who ever said the wrong thing to a woman,
+ So large a light on what I know already--
+ When all I seek is here before me now
+ In your new eyes that you have brought for me
+ From Camelot? The eyes you took away
+ Were sad and old; and I could see in them
+ A Merlin who remembered all the kings
+ He ever saw, and wished himself, almost,
+ Away from Vivian, to make other kings,
+ And shake the world again in the old manner.
+ I saw myself no bigger than a beetle
+ For several days, and wondered if your love
+ Were large enough to make me any larger
+ When you came back. Am I a beetle still?"
+ She stood up on her toes and held her cheek
+ For some time against his, and let him go.
+
+ "I fear the time has come for me to wander
+ A little in my prison-yard," he said.--
+ "No, tell me everything that you have seen
+ And heard and done, and seen done, and heard done,
+ Since you deserted me. And tell me first
+ What the King thinks of me."--"The King believes
+ That you are almost what you are," he told her:
+ "The beauty of all ages that are vanished,
+ Reborn to be the wonder of one woman."--
+ "I knew he hated me. What else of him?"--
+ "And all that I have seen and heard and done,
+ Which is not much, would make a weary telling;
+ And all your part of it would be to sleep,
+ And dream that Merlin had his beard again."--
+ "Then tell me more about your good fool knight,
+ Sir Dagonet. If Blaise were not half-mad
+ Already with his pondering on the name
+ And shield of his unshielding nameless father,
+ I'd make a fool of him. I'd call him Ajax;
+ I'd have him shake his fist at thunder-storms,
+ And dance a jig as long as there was lightning,
+ And so till I forgot myself entirely.
+ Not even your love may do so much as that."--
+ "Thunder and lightning are no friends of mine,"
+ Said Merlin slowly, "more than they are yours;
+ They bring me nearer to the elements
+ From which I came than I care now to be."--
+ "You owe a service to those elements;
+ For by their service you outwitted age
+ And made the world a kingdom of your will."--
+ He touched her hand, smiling: "Whatever service
+ Of mine awaits them will not be forgotten,"
+ He said; and the smile faded on his face,--
+ "Now of all graceless and ungrateful wizards--"
+ But there she ceased, for she found in his eyes
+ The first of a new fear. "The wrong word rules
+ Today," she said; "and we'll have no more journeys."
+
+ Although he wandered rather more than ever
+ Since he had come again to Brittany
+ From Camelot, Merlin found eternally
+ Before him a new loneliness that made
+ Of garden, park, and woodland, all alike,
+ A desolation and a changelessness
+ Defying reason, without Vivian
+ Beside him, like a child with a black head,
+ Or moving on before him, or somewhere
+ So near him that, although he saw it not
+ With eyes, he felt the picture of her beauty
+ And shivered at the nearness of her being.
+ Without her now there was no past or future,
+ And a vague, soul-consuming premonition
+ He found the only tenant of the present;
+ He wondered, when she was away from him,
+ If his avenging injured intellect
+ Might shine with Arthur's kingdom a twin mirror,
+ Fate's plaything, for new ages without eyes
+ To see therein themselves and their declension.
+ Love made his hours a martyrdom without her;
+ The world was like an empty house without her,
+ Where Merlin was a prisoner of love
+ Confined within himself by too much freedom,
+ Repeating an unending exploration
+ Of many solitary silent rooms,
+ And only in a way remembering now
+ That once their very solitude and silence
+ Had by the magic of expectancy
+ Made sure what now he doubted--though his doubts,
+ Day after day, were founded on a shadow.
+
+ For now to Merlin, in his paradise,
+ Had come an unseen angel with a sword
+ Unseen, the touch of which was a long fear
+ For longer sorrow that had never come,
+ Yet might if he compelled it. He discovered,
+ One golden day in autumn as he wandered,
+ That he had made the radiance of two years
+ A misty twilight when he might as well
+ Have had no mist between him and the sun,
+ The sun being Vivian. On his coming then
+ To find her all in green against a wall
+ Of green and yellow leaves, and crumbling bread
+ For birds around the fountain while she sang
+ And the birds ate the bread, he told himself
+ That everything today was as it was
+ At first, and for a minute he believed it.
+ "I'd have you always all in green out here,"
+ He said, "if I had much to say about it."--
+ She clapped her crumbs away and laughed at him:
+ "I've covered up my bones with every color
+ That I can carry on them without screaming,
+ And you have liked them all--or made me think so."--
+ "I must have liked them if you thought I did,"
+ He answered, sighing; "but the sight of you
+ Today as on the day I saw you first,
+ All green, all wonderful" ... He tore a leaf
+ To pieces with a melancholy care
+ That made her smile.--"Why pause at 'wonderful'?
+ You've hardly been yourself since you came back
+ From Camelot, where that unpleasant King
+ Said things that you have never said to me."--
+ He looked upon her with a worn reproach:
+ "The King said nothing that I keep from you."--
+ "What is it then?" she asked, imploringly;
+ "You man of moods and miracles, what is it?"--
+ He shook his head and tore another leaf:
+ "There is no need of asking what it is;
+ Whatever you or I may choose to name it,
+ The name of it is Fate, who played with me
+ And gave me eyes to read of the unwritten
+ More lines than I have read. I see no more
+ Today than yesterday, but I remember.
+ My ways are not the ways of other men;
+ My memories go forward. It was you
+ Who said that we were not in tune with Time;
+ It was not I who said it."--"But you knew it;
+ What matter then who said it?"--"It was you
+ Who said that Merlin was your punishment
+ For being in tune with him and not with Time--
+ With Time or with the world; and it was you
+ Who said you were alone, even here with Merlin;
+ It was not I who said it. It is I
+ Who tell you now my inmost thoughts." He laughed
+ As if at hidden pain around his heart,
+ But there was not much laughing in his eyes.
+ They walked, and for a season they were silent:
+ "I shall know what you mean by that," she said,
+ "When you have told me. Here's an oak you like,
+ And here's a place that fits me wondrous well
+ To sit in. You sit there. I've seen you there
+ Before; and I have spoiled your noble thoughts
+ By walking all my fingers up and down
+ Your countenance, as if they were the feet
+ Of a small animal with no great claws.
+ Tell me a story now about the world,
+ And the men in it, what they do in it,
+ And why it is they do it all so badly."--
+ "I've told you every story that I know,
+ Almost," he said.--"O, don't begin like that."--
+ "Well, once upon a time there was a King."--
+ "That has a more commendable address;
+ Go on, and tell me all about the King;
+ I'll bet the King had warts or carbuncles,
+ Or something wrong in his divine insides,
+ To make him wish that Adam had died young."
+
+ Merlin observed her slowly with a frown
+ Of saddened wonder. She laughed rather lightly,
+ And at his heart he felt again the sword
+ Whose touch was a long fear for longer sorrow.
+ "Well, once upon a time there was a king,"
+ He said again, but now in a dry voice
+ That wavered and betrayed a venturing.
+ He paused, and would have hesitated longer,
+ But something in him that was not himself
+ Compelled an utterance that his tongue obeyed,
+ As an unwilling child obeys a father
+ Who might be richer for obedience
+ If he obeyed the child: "There was a king
+ Who would have made his reign a monument
+ For kings and peoples of the waiting ages
+ To reverence and remember, and to this end
+ He coveted and won, with no ado
+ To make a story of, a neighbor queen
+ Who limed him with her smile and had of him,
+ In token of their sin, what he found soon
+ To be a sort of mongrel son and nephew--
+ And a most precious reptile in addition--
+ To ornament his court and carry arms,
+ And latterly to be the darker half
+ Of ruin. Also the king, who made of love
+ More than he made of life and death together,
+ Forgot the world and his example in it
+ For yet another woman--one of many--
+ And this one he made Queen, albeit he knew
+ That her unsworn allegiance to the knight
+ That he had loved the best of all his order
+ Must one day bring along the coming end
+ Of love and honor and of everything;
+ And with a kingdom builded on two pits
+ Of living sin,--so founded by the will
+ Of one wise counsellor who loved the king,
+ And loved the world and therefore made him king
+ To be a mirror for it,--the king reigned well
+ For certain years, awaiting a sure doom;
+ For certain years he waved across the world
+ A royal banner with a Dragon on it;
+ And men of every land fell worshipping
+ The Dragon as it were the living God,
+ And not the living sin."
+
+ She rose at that,
+ And after a calm yawn, she looked at Merlin:
+ "Why all this new insistence upon sin?"
+ She said; "I wonder if I understand
+ This king of yours, with all his pits and dragons;
+ I know I do not like him." A thinner light
+ Was in her eyes than he had found in them
+ Since he became the willing prisoner
+ That she had made of him; and on her mouth
+ Lay now a colder line of irony
+ Than all his fears or nightmares could have drawn
+ Before today: "What reason do you know
+ For me to listen to this king of yours?
+ What reading has a man of woman's days,
+ Even though the man be Merlin and a prophet?"
+
+ "I know no call for you to love the king,"
+ Said Merlin, driven ruinously along
+ By the vindictive urging of his fate;
+ "I know no call for you to love the king,
+ Although you serve him, knowing not yet the king
+ You serve. There is no man, or any woman,
+ For whom the story of the living king
+ Is not the story of the living sin.
+ I thought my story was the common one,
+ For common recognition and regard."
+
+ "Then let us have no more of it," she said;
+ "For we are not so common, I believe,
+ That we need kings and pits and flags and dragons
+ To make us know that we have let the world
+ Go by us. Have you missed the world so much
+ That you must have it in with all its clots
+ And wounds and bristles on to make us happy--
+ Like Blaise, with shouts and horns and seven men
+ Triumphant with a most unlovely boar?
+ Is there no other story in the world
+ Than this one of a man that you made king
+ To be a moral for the speckled ages?
+ You said once long ago, if you remember,
+ 'You are too strange a lady to fear specks';
+ And it was you, you said, who feared them not.
+ Why do you look at me as at a snake
+ All coiled to spring at you and strike you dead?
+ I am not going to spring at you, or bite you;
+ I'm going home. And you, if you are kind,
+ Will have no fear to wander for an hour.
+ I'm sure the time has come for you to wander;
+ And there may come a time for you to say
+ What most you think it is that we need here
+ To make of this Broceliande a refuge
+ Where two disheartened sinners may forget
+ A world that has today no place for them."
+ A melancholy wave of revelation
+ Broke over Merlin like a rising sea,
+ Long viewed unwillingly and long denied.
+ He saw what he had seen, but would not feel,
+ Till now the bitterness of what he felt
+ Was in his throat, and all the coldness of it
+ Was on him and around him like a flood
+ Of lonelier memories than he had said
+ Were memories, although he knew them now
+ For what they were--for what his eyes had seen,
+ For what his ears had heard and what his heart
+ Had felt, with him not knowing what it felt.
+ But now he knew that his cold angel's name
+ Was Change, and that a mightier will than his
+ Or Vivian's had ordained that he be there.
+ To Vivian he could not say anything
+ But words that had no more of hope in them
+ Than anguish had of peace: "I meant the world ...
+ I meant the world," he groaned; "not you--not me."
+
+ Again the frozen line of irony
+ Was on her mouth. He looked up once at it.
+ And then away--too fearful of her eyes
+ To see what he could hear now in her laugh
+ That melted slowly into what she said,
+ Like snow in icy water: "This world of yours
+ Will surely be the end of us. And why not?
+ I'm overmuch afraid we're part of it,--
+ Or why do we build walls up all around us,
+ With gates of iron that make us think the day
+ Of judgment's coming when they clang behind us?
+ And yet you tell me that you fear no specks!
+ With you I never cared for them enough
+ To think of them. I was too strange a lady.
+ And your return is now a speckled king
+ And something that you call a living sin--
+ That's like an uninvited poor relation
+ Who comes without a welcome, rather late,
+ And on a foundered horse."
+
+ "Specks? What are specks?"
+ He gazed at her in a forlorn wonderment
+ That made her say: "You said, 'I fear them not.'
+ 'If I were king in Camelot,' you said,
+ 'I might fear more than specks.' Have you forgotten?
+ Don't tell me, Merlin, you are growing old.
+ Why don't you make somehow a queen of me,
+ And give me half the world? I'd wager thrushes
+ That I should reign, with you to turn the wheel,
+ As well as any king that ever was.
+ The curse on me is that I cannot serve
+ A ruler who forgets that he is king."
+
+ In his bewildered misery Merlin then
+ Stared hard at Vivian's face, more like a slave
+ Who sought for common mercy than like Merlin:
+ "You speak a language that was never mine,
+ Or I have lost my wits. Why do you seize
+ The flimsiest of opportunities
+ To make of what I said another thing
+ Than love or reason could have let me say,
+ Or let me fancy? Why do you keep the truth
+ So far away from me, when all your gates
+ Will open at your word and let me go
+ To some place where no fear or weariness
+ Of yours need ever dwell? Why does a woman,
+ Made otherwise a miracle of love
+ And loveliness, and of immortal beauty,
+ Tear one word by the roots out of a thousand,
+ And worry it, and torture it, and shake it,
+ Like a small dog that has a rag to play with?
+ What coil of an ingenious destiny
+ Is this that makes of what I never meant
+ A meaning as remote as hell from heaven?"
+
+ "I don't know," Vivian said reluctantly,
+ And half as if in pain; "I'm going home.
+ I'm going home and leave you here to wander.
+ Pray take your kings and sins away somewhere
+ And bury them, and bury the Queen in also.
+ I know this king; he lives in Camelot,
+ And I shall never like him. There are specks
+ Almost all over him. Long live the king,
+ But not the king who lives in Camelot,
+ With Modred, Lancelot, and Guinevere--
+ And all four speckled like a merry nest
+ Of addled eggs together. You made him King
+ Because you loved the world and saw in him
+ From infancy a mirror for the millions.
+ The world will see itself in him, and then
+ The world will say its prayers and wash its face,
+ And build for some new king a new foundation.
+ Long live the King!... But now I apprehend
+ A time for me to shudder and grow old
+ And garrulous--and so become a fright
+ For Blaise to take out walking in warm weather--
+ Should I give way to long considering
+ Of worlds you may have lost while prisoned here
+ With me and my light mind. I contemplate
+ Another name for this forbidden place,
+ And one more fitting. Tell me, if you find it,
+ Some fitter name than Eden. We have had
+ A man and woman in it for some time,
+ And now, it seems, we have a Tree of Knowledge."
+ She looked up at the branches overhead
+ And shrugged her shoulders. Then she went away;
+ And what was left of Merlin's happiness,
+ Like a disloyal phantom, followed her.
+
+ He felt the sword of his cold angel thrust
+ And twisted in his heart, as if the end
+ Were coming next, but the cold angel passed
+ Invisibly and left him desolate,
+ With misty brow and eyes. "The man who sees
+ May see too far, and he may see too late
+ The path he takes unseen," he told himself
+ When he found thought again. "The man who sees
+ May go on seeing till the immortal flame
+ That lights and lures him folds him in its heart,
+ And leaves of what there was of him to die
+ An item of inhospitable dust
+ That love and hate alike must hide away;
+ Or there may still be charted for his feet
+ A dimmer faring, where the touch of time
+ Were like the passing of a twilight moth
+ From flower to flower into oblivion,
+ If there were not somewhere a barren end
+ Of moths and flowers, and glimmering far away
+ Beyond a desert where the flowerless days
+ Are told in slow defeats and agonies,
+ The guiding of a nameless light that once
+ Had made him see too much--and has by now
+ Revealed in death, to the undying child
+ Of Lancelot, the Grail. For this pure light
+ Has many rays to throw, for many men
+ To follow; and the wise are not all pure,
+ Nor are the pure all wise who follow it.
+ There are more rays than men. But let the man
+ Who saw too much, and was to drive himself
+ From paradise, play too lightly or too long
+ Among the moths and flowers, he finds at last
+ There is a dim way out; and he shall grope
+ Where pleasant shadows lead him to the plain
+ That has no shadow save his own behind him.
+ And there, with no complaint, nor much regret,
+ Shall he plod on, with death between him now
+ And the far light that guides him, till he falls
+ And has an empty thought of empty rest;
+ Then Fate will put a mattock in his hands
+ And lash him while he digs himself the grave
+ That is to be the pallet and the shroud
+ Of his poor blundering bones. The man who saw
+ Too much must have an eye to see at last
+ Where Fate has marked the clay; and he shall delve,
+ Although his hand may slacken, and his knees
+ May rock without a method as he toils;
+ For there's a delving that is to be done--
+ If not for God, for man. I see the light,
+ But I shall fall before I come to it;
+ For I am old. I was young yesterday.
+ Time's hand that I have held away so long
+ Grips hard now on my shoulder. Time has won.
+ Tomorrow I shall say to Vivian
+ That I am old and gaunt and garrulous,
+ And tell her one more story: I am old."
+
+ There were long hours for Merlin after that,
+ And much long wandering in his prison-yard,
+ Where now the progress of each heavy step
+ Confirmed a stillness of impending change
+ And imminent farewell. To Vivian's ear
+ There came for many days no other story
+ Than Merlin's iteration of his love
+ And his departure from Broceliande,
+ Where Merlin still remained. In Vivian's eye,
+ There was a quiet kindness, and at times
+ A smoky flash of incredulity
+ That faded into pain. Was this the Merlin--
+ This incarnation of idolatry
+ And all but supplicating deference--
+ This bowed and reverential contradiction
+ Of all her dreams and her realities--
+ Was this the Merlin who for years and years
+ Before she found him had so made her love him
+ That kings and princes, thrones and diadems,
+ And honorable men who drowned themselves
+ For love, were less to her than melon-shells?
+ Was this the Merlin whom her fate had sent
+ One spring day to come ringing at her gate,
+ Bewildering her love with happy terror
+ That later was to be all happiness?
+ Was this the Merlin who had made the world
+ Half over, and then left it with a laugh
+ To be the youngest, oldest, weirdest, gayest,
+ And wisest, and sometimes the foolishest
+ Of all the men of her consideration?
+ Was this the man who had made other men
+ As ordinary as arithmetic?
+ Was this man Merlin who came now so slowly
+ Towards the fountain where she stood again
+ In shimmering green? Trembling, he took her hands
+ And pressed them fondly, one upon the other,
+ Between his:
+
+ "I was wrong that other day,
+ For I have one more story. I am old."
+ He waited like one hungry for the word
+ Not said; and she found in his eyes a light
+ As patient as a candle in a window
+ That looks upon the sea and is a mark
+ For ships that have gone down. "Tomorrow," he said;
+ "Tomorrow I shall go away again
+ To Camelot; and I shall see the King
+ Once more; and I may come to you again
+ Once more; and I shall go away again
+ For ever. There is now no more than that
+ For me to do; and I shall do no more.
+ I saw too much when I saw Camelot;
+ And I saw farther backward into Time,
+ And forward, than a man may see and live,
+ When I made Arthur king. I saw too far,
+ But not so far as this. Fate played with me
+ As I have played with Time; and Time, like me,
+ Being less than Fate, will have on me his vengeance.
+ On Fate there is no vengeance, even for God."
+ He drew her slowly into his embrace
+ And held her there, but when he kissed her lips
+ They were as cold as leaves and had no answer;
+ For Time had given him then, to prove his words,
+ A frozen moment of a woman's life.
+
+ When Merlin the next morning came again
+ In the same pilgrim robe that he had worn
+ While he sat waiting where the cherry-blossoms
+ Outside the gate fell on him and around him,
+ Grief came to Vivian at the sight of him;
+ And like a flash of a swift ugly knife,
+ A blinding fear came with it. "Are you going?"
+ She said, more with her lips than with her voice;
+ And he said, "I am going. Blaise and I
+ Are going down together to the shore,
+ And Blaise is coming back. For this one day
+ Be good enough to spare him, for I like him.
+ I tell you now, as once I told the King,
+ That I can be no more than what I was,
+ And I can say no more than I have said.
+ Sometimes you told me that I spoke too long,
+ And sent me off to wander. That was good.
+ I go now for another wandering,
+ And I pray God that all be well with you."
+
+ For long there was a whining in her ears
+ Of distant wheels departing. When it ceased,
+ She closed the gate again so quietly
+ That Merlin could have heard no sound of it.
+
+
+VII
+
+ By Merlin's Rock, where Dagonet the fool
+ Was given through many a dying afternoon
+ To sit and meditate on human ways
+ And ways divine, Gawaine and Bedivere
+ Stood silent, gazing down on Camelot.
+ The two had risen and were going home:
+ "It hits me sore, Gawaine," said Bedivere,
+ "To think on all the tumult and affliction
+ Down there, and all the noise and preparation
+ That hums of coming death, and, if my fears
+ Be born of reason, of what's more than death.
+ Wherefore, I say to you again, Gawaine,--
+ To you--that this late hour is not too late
+ For you to change yourself and change the King;
+ For though the King may love me with a love
+ More tried, and older, and more sure, may be,
+ Than for another, for such a time as this
+ The friend who turns him to the world again
+ Shall have a tongue more gracious and an eye
+ More shrewd than mine. For such a time as this
+ The King must have a glamour to persuade him."
+
+ "The King shall have a glamour, and anon,"
+ Gawaine said, and he shot death from his eyes;
+ "If you were King, as Arthur is--or was--
+ And Lancelot had carried off your Queen,
+ And killed a score or so of your best knights--
+ Not mentioning my two brothers, whom he slew
+ Unarmored and unarmed--God save your wits!
+ Two stewards with skewers could have done as much,
+ And you and I might now be rotting for it."
+
+ "But Lancelot's men were crowded,--they were crushed;
+ And there was nothing for them but to strike
+ Or die, not seeing where they struck. Think you
+ They would have slain Gareth and Gaheris,
+ And Tor, and all those other friends of theirs?
+ God's mercy for the world he made, I say,
+ And for the blood that writes the story of it.
+ Gareth and Gaheris, Tor and Lamorak,--
+ All dead, with all the others that are dead!
+ These years have made me turn to Lamorak
+ For counsel--and now Lamorak is dead."
+ "Why do you fling those two names in my face?
+ 'Twas Modred made an end of Lamorak,
+ Not I; and Lancelot now has done for Tor.
+ I'll urge no king on after Lancelot
+ For such a two as Tor and Lamorak:
+ Their father killed my father, and their friend
+ Was Lancelot, not I. I'll own my fault--
+ I'm living; and while I've a tongue can talk,
+ I'll say this to the King: 'Burn Lancelot
+ By inches till he give you back the Queen;
+ Then hang him--drown him--or do anything
+ To rid the world of him.' He killed my brothers,
+ And he was once my friend. Now damn the soul
+ Of him who killed my brothers! There you have me."
+
+ "You are a strong man, Gawaine, and your strength
+ Goes ill where foes are. You may cleave their limbs
+ And heads off, but you cannot damn their souls;
+ What you may do now is to save their souls,
+ And bodies too, and like enough your own.
+ Remember that King Arthur is a king,
+ And where there is a king there is a kingdom
+ Is not the kingdom any more to you
+ Than one brief enemy? Would you see it fall,
+ And the King with it, for one mortal hate
+ That burns out reason? Gawaine, you are king
+ Today. Another day may see no king
+ But Havoc, if you have no other word
+ For Arthur now than hate for Lancelot.
+ Is not the world as large as Lancelot?
+ Is Lancelot, because one woman's eyes
+ Are brighter when they look on him, to sluice
+ The world with angry blood? Poor flesh! Poor flesh!
+ And you, Gawaine,--are you so gaffed with hate
+ You cannot leave it and so plunge away
+ To stiller places and there see, for once,
+ What hangs on this pernicious expedition
+ The King in his insane forgetfulness
+ Would undertake--with you to drum him on?
+ Are you as mad as he and Lancelot
+ Made ravening into one man twice as mad
+ As either? Is the kingdom of the world,
+ Now rocking, to go down in sound and blood
+ And ashes and sick ruin, and for the sake
+ Of three men and a woman? If it be so,
+ God's mercy for the world he made, I say,--
+ And say again to Dagonet. Sir Fool,
+ Your throne is empty, and you may as well
+ Sit on it and be ruler of the world
+ From now till supper-time."
+
+ Sir Dagonet,
+ Appearing, made reply to Bedivere's
+ Dry welcome with a famished look of pain,
+ On which he built a smile: "If I were King,
+ You, Bedivere, should be my counsellor;
+ And we should have no more wars over women.
+ I'll sit me down and meditate on that."
+ Gawaine, for all his anger, laughed a little,
+ And clapped the fool's lean shoulder; for he loved him
+ And was with Arthur when he made him knight.
+ Then Dagonet said on to Bedivere,
+ As if his tongue would make a jest of sorrow:
+ "Sometime I'll tell you what I might have done
+ Had I been Lancelot and you King Arthur--
+ Each having in himself the vicious essence
+ That now lives in the other and makes war.
+ When all men are like you and me, my lord,
+ When all are rational or rickety,
+ There may be no more war. But what's here now?
+ Lancelot loves the Queen, and he makes war
+ Of love; the King, being bitten to the soul
+ By love and hate that work in him together,
+ Makes war of madness; Gawaine hates Lancelot,
+ And he, to be in tune, makes war of hate;
+ Modred hates everything, yet he can see
+ With one damned illegitimate small eye
+ His father's crown, and with another like it
+ He sees the beauty of the Queen herself;
+ He needs the two for his ambitious pleasure,
+ And therefore he makes war of his ambition;
+ And somewhere in the middle of all this
+ There's a squeezed world that elbows for attention.
+ Poor Merlin, buried in Broceliande!
+ He must have had an academic eye
+ For woman when he founded Arthur's kingdom,
+ And in Broceliande he may be sorry.
+ Flutes, hautboys, drums, and viols. God be with him!
+ I'm glad they tell me there's another world,
+ For this one's a disease without a doctor."
+
+ "No, not so bad as that," said Bedivere;
+ "The doctor, like ourselves, may now be learning;
+ And Merlin may have gauged his enterprise
+ Whatever the cost he may have paid for knowing.
+ We pass, but many are to follow us,
+ And what they build may stay; though I believe
+ Another age will have another Merlin,
+ Another Camelot, and another King.
+ Sir Dagonet, farewell."
+
+ "Farewell, Sir Knight,
+ And you, Sir Knight: Gawaine, you have the world
+ Now in your fingers--an uncommon toy,
+ Albeit a small persuasion in the balance
+ With one man's hate. I'm glad you're not a fool,
+ For then you might be rickety, as I am,
+ And rational as Bedivere. Farewell.
+ I'll sit here and be king. God save the King!"
+
+ But Gawaine scowled and frowned and answered nothing
+ As he went slowly down with Bedivere
+ To Camelot, where Arthur's army waited
+ The King's word for the melancholy march
+ To Joyous Gard, where Lancelot hid the Queen
+ And armed his host, and there was now no joy,
+ As there was now no joy for Dagonet
+ While he sat brooding, with his wan cheek-bones
+ Hooked with his bony fingers: "Go, Gawaine,"
+ He mumbled: "Go your way, and drag the world
+ Along down with you. What's a world or so
+ To you if you can hide an ell of iron
+ Somewhere in Lancelot, and hear him wheeze
+ And sputter once or twice before he goes
+ Wherever the Queen sends him? There's a man
+ Who should have been a king, and would have been,
+ Had he been born so. So should I have been
+ A king, had I been born so, fool or no:
+ King Dagonet, or Dagonet the King;
+ King-Fool, Fool-King; 'twere not impossible.
+ I'll meditate on that and pray for Arthur,
+ Who made me all I am, except a fool.
+ Now he goes mad for love, as I might go
+ Had I been born a king and not a fool.
+ Today I think I'd rather be a fool;
+ Today the world is less than one scared woman--
+ Wherefore a field of waving men may soon
+ Be shorn by Time's indifferent scythe, because
+ The King is mad. The seeds of history
+ Are small, but given a few gouts of warm blood
+ For quickening, they sprout out wondrously
+ And have a leaping growth whereof no man
+ May shun such harvesting of change or death,
+ Or life, as may fall on him to be borne.
+ When I am still alive and rickety,
+ And Bedivere's alive and rational--
+ If he come out of this, and there's a doubt,--
+ The King, Gawaine, Modred, and Lancelot
+ May all be lying underneath a weight
+ Of bloody sheaves too heavy for their shoulders,
+ All spent, and all dishonored, and all dead;
+ And if it come to be that this be so,
+ And it be true that Merlin saw the truth,
+ Such harvest were the best. Your fool sees not
+ So far as Merlin sees: yet if he saw
+ The truth--why then, such harvest were the best.
+ I'll pray for Arthur; I can do no more."
+
+ "Why not for Merlin? Or do you count him,
+ In this extreme, so foreign to salvation
+ That prayer would be a stranger to his name?"
+
+ Poor Dagonet, with terror shaking him,
+ Stood up and saw before him an old face
+ Made older with an inch of silver beard,
+ And faded eyes more eloquent of pain
+ And ruin than all the faded eyes of age
+ Till now had ever been, although in them
+ There was a mystic and intrinsic peace
+ Of one who sees where men of nearer sight
+ See nothing. On their way to Camelot,
+ Gawaine and Bedivere had passed him by,
+ With lax attention for the pilgrim cloak
+ They passed, and what it hid: yet Merlin saw
+ Their faces, and he saw the tale was true
+ That he had lately drawn from solemn strangers.
+
+ "Well, Dagonet, and by your leave," he said,
+ "I'll rest my lonely relics for a while
+ On this rock that was mine and now is yours.
+ I favor the succession; for you know
+ Far more than many doctors, though your doubt
+ Is your peculiar poison. I foresaw
+ Long since, and I have latterly been told
+ What moves in this commotion down below
+ To show men what it means. It means the end--
+ If men whose tongues had less to say to me
+ Than had their shoulders are adept enough
+ To know; and you may pray for me or not,
+ Sir Friend, Sir Dagonet."
+
+ "Sir Fool, you mean,"
+ Dagonet said, and gazed on Merlin sadly:
+ "I'll never pray again for anything,
+ And last of all for this that you behold--
+ The smouldering faggot of unlovely bones
+ That God has given to me to call Myself.
+ When Merlin comes to Dagonet for prayer,
+ It is indeed the end."
+
+ "And in the end
+ Are more beginnings, Dagonet, than men
+ Shall name or know today. It was the end
+ Of Arthur's insubstantial majesty
+ When to him and his knights the Grail foreshowed
+ The quest of life that was to be the death
+ Of many, and the slow discouraging
+ Of many more. Or do I err in this?"
+
+ "No," Dagonet replied; "there was a Light;
+ And Galahad, in the Siege Perilous,
+ Alone of all on whom it fell, was calm;
+ There was a Light wherein men saw themselves
+ In one another as they might become--
+ Or so they dreamed. There was a long to-do,
+ And Gawaine, of all forlorn ineligibles,
+ Rose up the first, and cried more lustily
+ Than any after him that he should find
+ The Grail, or die for it,--though he did neither;
+ For he came back as living and as fit
+ For new and old iniquity as ever.
+ Then Lancelot came back, and Bors came back,--
+ Like men who had seen more than men should see,
+ And still come back. They told of Percival,
+ Who saw too much to make of this worn life
+ A long necessity, and of Galahad,
+ Who died and is alive. They all saw Something.
+ God knows the meaning or the end of it,
+ But they saw Something. And if I've an eye,
+ Small joy has the Queen been to Lancelot
+ Since he came back from seeing what he saw;
+ For though his passion hold him like hot claws,
+ He's neither in the world nor out of it.
+ Gawaine is king, though Arthur wears the crown;
+ And Gawaine's hate for Lancelot is the sword
+ That hangs by one of Merlin's fragile hairs
+ Above the world. Were you to see the King,
+ The frenzy that has overthrown his wisdom,
+ Instead of him and his upheaving empire,
+ Might have an end."
+
+ "I came to see the King,"
+ Said Merlin, like a man who labors hard
+ And long with an importunate confession.
+ "No, Dagonet, you cannot tell me why,
+ Although your tongue is eager with wild hope
+ To tell me more than I may tell myself
+ About myself. All this that was to be
+ Might show to man how vain it were to wreck
+ The world for self, if it were all in vain.
+ When I began with Arthur I could see
+ In each bewildered man who dots the earth
+ A moment with his days a groping thought
+ Of an eternal will, strangely endowed
+ With merciful illusions whereby self
+ Becomes the will itself and each man swells
+ In fond accordance with his agency.
+ Now Arthur, Modred, Lancelot, and Gawaine
+ Are swollen thoughts of this eternal will
+ Which have no other way to find the way
+ That leads them on to their inheritance
+ Than by the time-infuriating flame
+ Of a wrecked empire, lighted by the torch
+ Of woman, who, together with the light
+ That Galahad found, is yet to light the world."
+
+ A wan smile crept across the weary face
+ Of Dagonet the fool: "If you knew that
+ Before your burial in Broceliande,
+ No wonder your eternal will accords
+ With all your dreams of what the world requires.
+ My master, I may say this unto you
+ Because I am a fool, and fear no man;
+ My fear is that I've been a groping thought
+ That never swelled enough. You say the torch
+ Of woman and the light that Galahad found
+ Are some day to illuminate the world?
+ I'll meditate on that. The world is done
+ For me; and I have been, to make men laugh,
+ A lean thing of no shape and many capers.
+ I made them laugh, and I could laugh anon
+ Myself to see them killing one another
+ Because a woman with corn-colored hair
+ Has pranked a man with horns. 'Twas but a flash
+ Of chance, and Lancelot, the other day
+ That saved this pleasing sinner from the fire
+ That she may spread for thousands. Were she now
+ The cinder the King willed, or were you now
+ To see the King, the fire might yet go out;
+ But the eternal will says otherwise.
+ So be it; I'll assemble certain gold
+ That I may say is mine and get myself
+ Away from this accurst unhappy court,
+ And in some quiet place where shepherd clowns
+ And cowherds may have more respondent ears
+ Than kings and kingdom-builders, I shall troll
+ Old men to easy graves and be a child
+ Again among the children of the earth.
+ I'll have no more of kings, even though I loved
+ King Arthur, who is mad, as I could love
+ No other man save Merlin, who is dead."
+
+ "Not wholly dead, but old. Merlin is old."
+ The wizard shivered as he spoke, and stared
+ Away into the sunset where he saw
+ Once more, as through a cracked and cloudy glass,
+ A crumbling sky that held a crimson cloud
+ Wherein there was a town of many towers
+ All swayed and shaken, in a woman's hand
+ This time, till out of it there spilled and flashed
+ And tumbled, like loose jewels, town, towers, and walls,
+ And there was nothing but a crumbling sky
+ That made anon of black and red and ruin
+ A wild and final rain on Camelot.
+ He bowed, and pressed his eyes: "Now by my soul,
+ I have seen this before--all black and red--
+ Like that--like that--like Vivian--black and red;
+ Like Vivian, when her eyes looked into mine
+ Across the cups of gold. A flute was playing--
+ Then all was black and red."
+
+ Another smile
+ Crept over the wan face of Dagonet,
+ Who shivered in his turn. "The torch of woman,"
+ He muttered, "and the light that Galahad found,
+ Will some day save us all, as they saved Merlin.
+ Forgive my shivering wits, but I am cold,
+ And it will soon be dark. Will you go down
+ With me to see the King, or will you not?
+ If not, I go tomorrow to the shepherds.
+ The world is mad, and I'm a groping thought
+ Of your eternal will; the world and I
+ Are strangers, and I'll have no more of it--
+ Except you go with me to see the King."
+
+ "No, Dagonet, you cannot leave me now,"
+ Said Merlin, sadly. "You and I are old;
+ And, as you say, we fear no man. God knows
+ I would not have the love that once you had
+ For me be fear of me, for I am past
+ All fearing now. But Fate may send a fly
+ Sometimes, and he may sting us to the grave,
+ So driven to test our faith in what we see.
+ Are you, now I am coming to an end,
+ As Arthur's days are coming to an end,
+ To sting me like a fly? I do not ask
+ Of you to say that you see what I see,
+ Where you see nothing; nor do I require
+ Of any man more vision than is his;
+ Yet I could wish for you a larger part
+ For your last entrance here than this you play
+ Tonight of a sad insect stinging Merlin.
+ The more you sting, the more he pities you;
+ And you were never overfond of pity.
+ Had you been so, I doubt if Arthur's love,
+ Or Gawaine's, would have made of you a knight.
+ No, Dagonet, you cannot leave me now,
+ Nor would you if you could. You call yourself
+ A fool, because the world and you are strangers.
+ You are a proud man, Dagonet; you have suffered
+ What I alone have seen. You are no fool;
+ And surely you are not a fly to sting
+ My love to last regret. Believe or not
+ What I have seen, or what I say to you,
+ But say no more to me that I am dead
+ Because the King is mad, and you are old,
+ And I am older. In Broceliande
+ Time overtook me as I knew he must;
+ And I, with a fond overplus of words,
+ Had warned the lady Vivian already,
+ Before these wrinkles and this hesitancy
+ Inhibiting my joints oppressed her sight
+ With age and dissolution. She said once
+ That she was cold and cruel; but she meant
+ That she was warm and kind, and over-wise
+ For woman in a world where men see not
+ Beyond themselves. She saw beyond them all,
+ As I did; and she waited, as I did,
+ The coming of a day when cherry-blossoms
+ Were to fall down all over me like snow
+ In springtime. I was far from Camelot
+ That afternoon; and I am farther now
+ From her. I see no more for me to do
+ Than to leave her and Arthur and the world
+ Behind me, and to pray that all be well
+ With Vivian, whose unquiet heart is hungry
+ For what is not, and what shall never be
+ Without her, in a world that men are making,
+ Knowing not how, nor caring yet to know
+ How slowly and how grievously they do it,--
+ Though Vivian, in her golden shell of exile,
+ Knows now and cares, not knowing that she cares,
+ Nor caring that she knows. In time to be,
+ The like of her shall have another name
+ Than Vivian, and her laugh shall be a fire,
+ Not shining only to consume itself
+ With what it burns. She knows not yet the name
+ Of what she is, for now there is no name;
+ Some day there shall be. Time has many names,
+ Unwritten yet, for what we say is old
+ Because we are so young that it seems old.
+ And this is all a part of what I saw
+ Before you saw King Arthur. When we parted,
+ I told her I should see the King again,
+ And, having seen him, might go back again
+ To see her face once more. But I shall see
+ No more the lady Vivian. Let her love
+ What man she may, no other love than mine
+ Shall be an index of her memories.
+ I fear no man who may come after me,
+ And I see none. I see her, still in green,
+ Beside the fountain. I shall not go back.
+ We pay for going back; and all we get
+ Is one more needless ounce of weary wisdom
+ To bring away with us. If I come not,
+ The lady Vivian will remember me,
+ And say: 'I knew him when his heart was young,
+ Though I have lost him now. Time called him home,
+ And that was as it was; for much is lost
+ Between Broceliande and Camelot.'"
+
+ He stared away into the west again,
+ Where now no crimson cloud or phantom town
+ Deceived his eyes. Above a living town
+ There were gray clouds and ultimate suspense,
+ And a cold wind was coming. Dagonet,
+ Now crouched at Merlin's feet in his dejection,
+ Saw multiplying lights far down below,
+ Where lay the fevered streets. At length he felt
+ On his lean shoulder Merlin's tragic hand
+ And trembled, knowing that a few more days
+ Would see the last of Arthur and the first
+ Of Modred, whose dark patience had attained
+ To one precarious half of what he sought:
+ "And even the Queen herself may fall to him,"
+ Dagonet murmured.--"The Queen fall to Modred?
+ Is that your only fear tonight?" said Merlin;
+ "She may, but not for long."--"No, not my fear;
+ For I fear nothing. But I wish no fate
+ Like that for any woman the King loves,
+ Although she be the scourge and end of him
+ That you saw coming, as I see it now."
+ Dagonet shook, but he would have no tears,
+ He swore, for any king, queen, knave, or wizard--
+ Albeit he was a stranger among those
+ Who laughed at him because he was a fool.
+ "You said the truth, I cannot leave you now,"
+ He stammered, and was angry for the tears
+ That mocked his will and choked him.
+
+ Merlin smiled,
+ Faintly, and for the moment: "Dagonet,
+ I need your word as one of Arthur's knights
+ That you will go on with me to the end
+ Of my short way, and say unto no man
+ Or woman that you found or saw me here.
+ No good would follow, for a doubt would live
+ Unstifled of my loyalty to him
+ Whose deeds are wrought for those who are to come;
+ And many who see not what I have seen,
+ Or what you see tonight, would prattle on
+ For ever, and their children after them,
+ Of what might once have been had I gone down
+ With you to Camelot to see the King.
+ I came to see the King,--but why see kings?
+ All this that was to be is what I saw
+ Before there was an Arthur to be king,
+ And so to be a mirror wherein men
+ May see themselves, and pause. If they see not,
+ Or if they do see and they ponder not,--
+ I saw; but I was neither Fate nor God.
+ I saw too much; and this would be the end,
+ Were there to be an end. I saw myself--
+ A sight no other man has ever seen;
+ And through the dark that lay beyond myself
+ I saw two fires that are to light the world."
+ On Dagonet the silent hand of Merlin
+ Weighed now as living iron that held him down
+ With a primeval power. Doubt, wonderment,
+ Impatience, and a self-accusing sorrow
+ Born of an ancient love, possessed and held him
+ Until his love was more than he could name,
+ And he was Merlin's fool, not Arthur's now:
+ "Say what you will, I say that I'm the fool
+ Of Merlin, King of Nowhere; which is Here.
+ With you for king and me for court, what else
+ Have we to sigh for but a place to sleep?
+ I know a tavern that will take us in;
+ And on the morrow I shall follow you
+ Until I die for you. And when I die ..."--
+ "Well, Dagonet, the King is listening."--
+ And Dagonet answered, hearing in the words
+ Of Merlin a grave humor and a sound
+ Of graver pity, "I shall die a fool."
+ He heard what might have been a father's laugh,
+ Faintly behind him; and the living weight
+ Of Merlin's hand was lifted. They arose,
+ And, saying nothing, found a groping way
+ Down through the gloom together. Fiercer now,
+ The wind was like a flying animal
+ That beat the two of them incessantly
+ With icy wings, and bit them as they went.
+ The rock above them was an empty place
+ Where neither seer nor fool should view again
+ The stricken city. Colder blew the wind
+ Across the world, and on it heavier lay
+ The shadow and the burden of the night;
+ And there was darkness over Camelot.
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