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-The Project Gutenberg EBook of Moth and Rust, by Mary Cholmondeley
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-Title: Moth and Rust
- Together with Geoffrey's Wife and The Pitfall
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-Author: Mary Cholmondeley
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-MOTH AND RUST
-
-
-
-
- BY THE SAME AUTHOR.
-
- RED POTTAGE.
- DIANA TEMPEST.
- SIR CHARLES DANVERS.
- A DEVOTEE.
- THE DANVERS' JEWELS.
-
-
-
-
- MOTH AND RUST
-
- TOGETHER WITH GEOFFREY'S
- WIFE AND THE PITFALL
-
-
- BY MARY CHOLMONDELEY,
- AUTHOR OF "RED POTTAGE."
-
-
- "Rust in thy gold, a moth is in thine array."
- --CHRISTINA ROSSETTI.
-
-
- LONDON
- JOHN MURRAY, ALBEMARLE STREET
- 1902
-
-
-
-
- TO
-
- ESSEX.
-
- Not chance of birth or place has made us friends.
-
-
-
-
- PREFACE
-
-
- My best thanks are due to the Editor of
- _The Graphic_ for his kind permission to
- republish "Geoffrey's Wife," which appeared
- originally in _The Graphic_.
-
- MARY CHOLMONDELEY.
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-
-
- PAGE
- MOTH AND RUST 1
- GEOFFREY'S WIFE 241
- THE PITFALL 267
-
-
- * * * * *
-
-
-
-
-MOTH AND RUST
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I
-
- "Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and
- rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal."
-
-
-The Vicar gave out the text, and proceeded to expound it. The little
-congregation settled down peacefully to listen. Except four of their
-number, the "quality" in the carved Easthope pew, none of them had much
-treasure on earth. Their treasure for the greater part consisted of a
-pig, that was certainly being "laid up" to meet the rent at Christmas.
-But there would hardly be time for moth and rust to get into it before
-its secluded life should migrate into flitches and pork pies. Not that
-the poorest of Mr Long's parishioners had any fear of such an event, for
-they never associated his sermons with anything to do with themselves,
-except on one occasion when the good man had preached earnestly against
-drunkenness, and a respectable widow had ceased to attend divine service
-in consequence, because, as she observed, she was not going to be spoken
-against like that by any one, be they who they may, after all the years
-she had been "on the teetotal."
-
-Perhaps the two farmers who had driven over resplendent wives in
-dog-carts had treasure on earth. They certainly had money in the bank at
-Mudbury, for they were to be seen striding in in gaiters on market-day
-to draw it out. But then it was well known that thieves did not break
-through into banks and steal. Banks sometimes broke of themselves, but
-not often.
-
-On the whole, the congregation was at its ease. It felt that the text
-was well chosen, and that it applied exclusively to the four occupants
-of "the Squire's" pew.
-
-The hard-worked Vicar certainly had no treasure on earth, if you
-excepted his principal possessions, namely, his pale wife and little
-flock of rosy children, and these, of course, were only encumbrances.
-Had they not proved to be so? For his cousin had promised him the family
-living, and would certainly have kept that promise when it became
-vacant, if the wife he had married in the interval had not held such
-strong views as to a celibate clergy.
-
-The Vicar was a conscientious man, and the conscientious are seldom
-concise.
-
- "He held with all his tedious might,
- The mirror to the mind of God."
-
-There was no doubt he was tedious, and it was to be hoped that the
-portion of the Divine mind not reflected in the clerical mirror would
-compensate somewhat for His more gloomy attributes as shown therein.
-
-Mrs Trefusis, "Squire's" mother, an old woman with a thin, knotted face
-like worn-out elastic, sat erect throughout the service. She had the
-tight-lipped, bitter look of one who has coldly appropriated as her due
-all the good things of life, who has fiercely rebelled against every
-untoward event, and who now in old age offers a passive, impotent
-resistance to anything that suggests a change. She had had an easy,
-comfortable existence, but her life had gone hard with her, and her face
-showed it.
-
-Near her were the two guests who were staying at Easthope. The villagers
-looked at the two girls with deep interest. They had made up their minds
-that "the old lady had got 'em in to see if Squire could fancy one of
-'em."
-
-Lady Anne Varney, who sat next to Mrs Trefusis, was a graceful,
-small-headed woman of seven-and-twenty, delicately featured, pale,
-exquisitely dressed, with the indefinable air of a finished woman of the
-world, and with the reserved, disciplined manner of a woman accustomed
-to conceal her feelings from a world in which she has lived too much, in
-which she has been knocked about too much, and which has not gone too
-well with her. If Anne attended to the sermon--and she appeared to do
-so--she was the only person in the Easthope pew who did.
-
-No; the other girl, Janet Black, was listening too now and then,
-catching disjointed sentences with no sense in them, as one hears a few
-shouted words in a high wind.
-
-Ah me! Janet was beautiful. Even Mrs Trefusis was obliged to own it,
-though she did so grudgingly, and added bitterly that the girl had no
-breeding. It was true. Janet had none. But beauty rested upon her as it
-rests on a dove's neck, varying with every movement, every turn of the
-head. She was quite motionless now, her rather large, ill-gloved hands
-in her lap. Janet was a still woman. She had no nervous movements. She
-did not twine her muff-chain round her fingers as Anne did. Anne looked
-at her now and then, and wondered whether she--Anne--would have been
-more successful in life if she had entered the arena armed with such
-beauty as Janet's.
-
-There was a portrait of Janet in the Academy several years later, which
-has made her beauty known to the world. We have all seen that celebrated
-picture of the calm Madonna face, with the mark of suffering so plainly
-stamped upon the white brow and in the unfathomable eyes. But the young
-girl sitting in the Easthope pew hardly resembled, except in feature,
-the portrait that, later on, took the artistic world by storm. Janet was
-perhaps even more beautiful in this her first youth than her picture
-proved her afterwards to be; but the beauty was expressionless, opaque.
-The soul had not yet illumined the fair face. She looked what she was--a
-little dull, without a grain of imagination. Was it the dulness of want
-of ability, or only the dulness of an uneducated mind, of powers unused,
-still dormant?
-
-Without her transcendent beauty she would have appeared uninteresting
-and commonplace.
-
- "Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth."
-
-The Vicar had a habit of repeating his text several times in the course
-of his sermon. Janet heard it the third time, and it forced the entrance
-of her mind.
-
-Her treasure was certainly on earth. It consisted of the heavy,
-sleek-haired young man with the sunburnt complexion and the reddish
-moustache at the end of the pew--in short, "the Squire."
-
-After a short and ardent courtship she had accepted him, and then she
-herself had been accepted, not without groans, by his family. The groans
-had not been audible, but she was vaguely aware that she was not
-received with enthusiasm by the family of her hero, her wonderful fairy
-prince who had ridden into her life on a golden chestnut. George
-Trefusis was heavily built, but in Janet's eyes he was slender. His
-taciturn dulness was in her eyes a most dignified and becoming reserve.
-His inveterate unsociability proved to her--not that it needed
-proving--his mental superiority. She could not be surprised at the
-coldness of her reception as his betrothed, for she acutely felt her own
-great unworthiness of being the consort of this resplendent personage,
-who could have married any one. Why had he honoured her among all
-women?
-
-The answer was sufficiently obvious to every one except herself. The
-fairy prince had fallen heavily in love with her beauty; so heavily
-that, after a secret but stubborn resistance, he had been vanquished by
-it. Marry her he must and would, whatever his mother might say. And she
-had said a good deal. She had not kept silence.
-
-And now Janet was staying for the first time at Easthope, which was one
-day to be her home--the old Tudor house standing among its terraced
-gardens, which had belonged to a Trefusis since a Trefusis built it in
-Henry the Seventh's time.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
- "On peut choisir ses amitiés, mais on subit l'amour."
-
- --PRINCESS KARADJA.
-
-
-After luncheon George offered to take Janet round the gardens. Janet
-looked timidly at Mrs Trefusis. She did not know whether she ought to
-accept or not. There might be etiquettes connected with afternoon walks
-of which she was not aware. For even since her arrival at Easthope
-yesterday it had been borne in upon her that there were many things of
-which she was not aware.
-
-"Pray let my son show you the gardens," said Mrs Trefusis, with
-impatient formality. "The roses are in great beauty just now."
-
-Janet went to put on her hat, and Mrs Trefusis lay down on the sofa in
-the drawing-room with a little groan. Anne sat down by her. The eyes of
-both women followed Janet's tall, magnificent figure as she joined
-George on the terrace.
-
-"She dresses like a shop-girl," said Mrs Trefusis. "And what a hat!
-Exactly what one sees on the top of omnibuses."
-
-Anne did not defend the hat. It was beyond defence. She supposed, with a
-tinge of compassion, what was indeed the case, that Janet had made a
-special pilgrimage to Mudbury to acquire it, in order the better to meet
-the eyes of her future mother-in-law.
-
-All Anne said was, "Very respectable people go on the top of omnibuses
-nowadays."
-
-"I am not saying anything against her respectability," said poor Mrs
-Trefusis. "Heaven knows if there had been anything against it I should
-have said so before now. It would have been my duty."
-
-Anne smiled faintly. "A painful duty."
-
-"I'm not so sure," said Mrs Trefusis grimly. She never posed before
-Anne, nor, for that matter, did any one else. "But from all I can make
-out this girl is a model of middle-class respectability. Yet she comes
-of a bad stock. One can't tell how she will turn out. What is bred in
-the bone will come out in the flesh."
-
-"There are worse things than middle-class respectability. George might
-have presented you with an actress with a past. Lord Lossiemouth married
-his daughter's maid last week."
-
-"I don't know what I've done," said Mrs Trefusis, "that my only son
-should marry a pretty horse-breaker."
-
-"I thought it was her brother who was a horse-breaker."
-
-"So he is, and so is she. It was riding to hounds that my poor boy first
-met her."
-
-"She rides magnificently. I saw her out cub-hunting last autumn, and
-asked who she was."
-
-"Her brother is disreputable. He was mixed up with that case of drugging
-some horse or other. I forget about it, but I know it was disgraceful.
-He is quite an impossible person, but I suppose we shall have to know
-him now. The place will be overrun with her relations, whom I have
-avoided for years. Things like that always happen to me."
-
-This was a favourite expression of Mrs Trefusis'. She invariably spoke
-as if a curse had hung over her since her birth.
-
-"What does it matter who one knows?" said Anne.
-
-Mrs Trefusis did not answer. The knots in her face moved a little. She
-knew what country life and country society were better than Anne. She
-had all her life lived in the upper of the two sets which may be found
-in every country neighbourhood. She did what she considered to be her
-duty by the secondary set, but she belonged by birth and by inclination
-to the upper class. It was at first with bewildered surprise, and later
-on with cold anger, that she observed that her only son, bone of her
-bone, very son of herself and her kind dead husband, showed a natural
-tendency to gravitate towards the second-rate among their neighbours.
-
-Why did he do it? Why did he bring strange, loud-voiced, vulgar men to
-Easthope, the kind of men whom Mr Trefusis would not have tolerated? She
-might have known that her husband would die of pneumonia just when her
-son needed him most. She had not expected it, but she ought to have
-expected it. Did not everything in her lot go crooked, while the lives
-of all those around her went straight? What was the matter with her son,
-that he was more at ease with these undesirable companions than with the
-sons of his father's old friends? Why would he never accompany her on
-her annual pilgrimage to London?
-
-George was one of those lethargic, vain men who say they hate London.
-Catch them going to London! Perhaps if efforts were made to catch them
-there, they might repair thither. But in London they are nobodies;
-consequently to London they do not go. And the same man who eschews
-London will generally be found to gravitate in the country to a society
-in which he is the chief personage. It had been so with George. Fred
-Black, the disreputable horse-breaker, and his companions, had
-sedulously paid court to him. George, who had a deep-rooted love of
-horse-flesh, was often at Fred's training stables. There he met Janet,
-and fell in love with her, as did most of Fred's associates. But unlike
-them, George had withdrawn. He knew he should "do" for himself with "the
-county" if he married Janet. And he could not face his mother. So he
-sulked like a fish under the bank, half suspicious that he is being
-angled for. So ignorant of his fellow-creatures was George that there
-actually had been a moment when he suspected Janet of trying to "land
-him," and he did not think any the worse of her.
-
-Then, after months of sullen indecision, he suddenly rushed upon his
-fate. That was a week ago.
-
-Anne left her chair as Mrs Trefusis did not answer, and knelt down by
-the old woman.
-
-"Dear Mrs Trefusis," she said, "the girl is a nice girl, innocent and
-good, and without a vestige of conceit."
-
-"She has nothing to be conceited about that I can see."
-
-"Oh! yes. She might be conceited about marrying George. It is an amazing
-match for her. And she might be conceited about her beauty. I should be
-if I had that face."
-
-"My dear, you are twenty times as good-looking, because you look what
-you are--a lady. She looks what she is--a----" Something in Anne's
-steady eyes disconcerted Mrs Trefusis, and she did not finish the
-sentence. She twitched her hands restlessly, and then went on: "And she
-can't come into a room. She sticks in the door. And she always calls you
-'Lady Varney.' She hasn't called a girl a 'gurl' yet, but I know she
-will. I had thought my son's wife might make up to me a little for all
-I've gone through--might be a comfort to me--and then I am asked to put
-up with a vulgarian."
-
-Anne went on in a level voice: "Janet is not in the least vulgar,
-because she is unpretentious. Middle-class she may be, and is: so was my
-grandmother; but vulgar she is not. And she is absolutely devoted to
-George. He is in love with her, but she really loves him."
-
-"So she ought. He is making a great sacrifice for her, and, as I
-constantly tell him, one he will regret to his dying day."
-
-"On the contrary, he is only sacrificing his own pride and yours
-to--himself. He is considering only himself. He is marrying only to
-please himself, not----" Anne hesitated--"not to please Janet."
-
-"Now you are talking nonsense."
-
-"Yes, I think I am. It felt like sense, but by the time I had put it
-into words, it turned into nonsense. The little things you notice in
-Janet's dress and manner can be mitigated, if she is willing to learn."
-
-"She won't be," said Mrs Trefusis, with decision. "Because she is
-stupid. She will be offended directly she is spoken to. All stupid
-people are. Now come, Anne! Don't try and make black white. It doesn't
-help matters. You must admit the girl is stupid."
-
-Anne's gentle, limpid eyes looked deprecatingly into the elder woman's
-hard, miserable ones.
-
-"I am afraid she is," she said at last, and she coloured painfully.
-
-"And obstinate."
-
-"Are not stupid people always obstinate?"
-
-"No," said Mrs Trefusis. "I am obstinate, but no one could call me
-stupid."
-
-"It does not prevent stupid people being always obstinate, because
-obstinate people are not always stupid."
-
-"You think me very obstinate, Anne?" There were tears in the stern old
-eyes.
-
-"I think, dear, you have got to give way, and as you must, I want you to
-do it with a good grace, before you estrange George from you, and before
-that unsuspecting girl has found out that you loathe the marriage."
-
-"If she were not as dense as a rhinoceros, she would see that now."
-
-"How fortunate, in that case, that she is dense. It gives you a better
-chance with her. Make her like you. You can, you know. She is worth
-liking."
-
-"All my life," said Mrs Trefusis, "be they who they may, I have hated
-stupid people."
-
-"Oh! no. That is an hallucination. You don't hate George."
-
-Mrs Trefusis shot a lightning glance at her companion, and then smiled
-grimly. "You are the only person who would dare to say such a thing to
-me."
-
-"Besides," continued Anne meditatively, "is it so certain that Janet is
-stupid? She appears so because she is unformed, ignorant, and because
-she has never reflected, or been thrown with educated people. She has
-not come to herself. She will never learn anything by imagination or
-perception, for she seems quite devoid of them. But I think she might
-learn by trouble or happiness, or both. She can feel. Strong feeling
-would be the turning-point with her, if she has sufficient ability to
-take advantage of it. Perhaps she has not, and happiness or trouble may
-leave her as they found her. But she gives me the impression that she
-_might_ alter considerably if she were once thoroughly aroused."
-
-"I can't rouse her. I was not sent into the world to rouse pretty
-horse-breakers."
-
-If Anne was doubtful as to what Mrs Trefusis had been sent into this
-imperfect world for, she did not show it.
-
-"I don't want you to rouse her. All I want is that you should be kind to
-her." Anne took Mrs Trefusis' ringed, claw-like hand between both hers.
-"I do want that very much."
-
-"Well," said Mrs Trefusis, blinking her eyes, "I won't say I won't try.
-You can always get round me, Anne. Oh! my dear, dear child, if it might
-only have been you. But of course, just because I had set my heart upon
-it, I was not to have it. That has been my life from first to last. If I
-might only have had you. You think me a cross, bitter old woman, and so
-I am: God knows I have had enough to make me so. But I should not have
-been so to you."
-
-"You never are so to me. But you see my affections are--is not that the
-correct expression?--engaged."
-
-"But you are not."
-
-"No. I am as free as air. That is where the difficulty comes in."
-
-"Where is the creature now?"
-
-"In Paris. The _World_ chronicles his movements. That is why I take in
-the _World_. If he had been in London this week, I should not--be here
-at this moment."
-
-"I suppose he is enormously run after?"
-
-"Oh yes! By others as well as by me; by tons of others younger and
-better looking than I am."
-
-"Now, Anne, I am absolutely certain that you have never run a yard after
-him."
-
-"I have never appeared to do so," said Anne, with her faint, enigmatical
-smile. "The proprieties have been observed. At least by me they have.
-But I have covered a good deal of ground, nevertheless."
-
-"I don't know what he is made of."
-
-"Well, he is made of money for one thing, and I have not a shilling. He
-knows that."
-
-"He ought to be only too honoured by your being willing to think of him.
-In my young days a man of his class would not have had a chance."
-
-"Millionaires get their chance nowadays."
-
-"Then why doesn't he take it?"
-
-"Because," said Anne, her lip quivering, "he thinks I like him for his
-money. He has got that firmly screwed into his head."
-
-"As if a woman like you would do such a thing."
-
-"Women extremely like me are doing such things all the time. How is he
-to know I am different?"
-
-"He must be a fool."
-
-"He does not look like one."
-
-"No," said Mrs Trefusis meditatively, "I must own he does not. He has a
-bullet head. I saw him once at the Duchess of Dundee's last summer. He
-was pointed out to me as the biggest thing in millionaires since
-Barnato. But I must confess he was the very last person in the world
-whom I should have thought you would have looked at--for himself, I
-mean."
-
-"That is what he thinks."
-
-"He is so very unattractive."
-
-"He is an ugly, forbidding-looking man of forty," said Anne, who had
-become very pale.
-
-"I should not go as far as that," said Mrs Trefusis, somewhat
-disconcerted.
-
-"Oh! I can for you!" said Anne, her quiet eyes flashing. "He is all
-these things. He is exactly what I would rather not have married. And I
-think he knows that instinctively, poor man! But in spite of all that,
-in spite of everything that repels me, I know that we belong to each
-other. He did not choose to like me, or I to like him. I never had any
-choice in the matter. When I first saw him I recognised him. I had known
-him all my life. I had been waiting for him always without knowing it. I
-never really understood anything till he came. I did not fall in love
-with him; at least, not in the way I see others do, and as I once did
-myself years ago. I am not attracted towards him. I am him. And he is
-me. One can't fall in love with oneself. He is my other self. We are
-one. We may live painfully apart as we are doing now--he may marry some
-one else: but the fact remains the same."
-
-Mrs Trefusis did not answer. Love is so rare that when we meet it we
-realise that we are on holy ground.
-
-"You and he will marry some day," she said at last.
-
-Her thoughts went back to her own youth, and its romantic love and
-marriage. There was no romance here as she understood it, nothing but a
-grim reality. But it almost seemed as if love could go deeper without
-romance.
-
-"I do not see how a misunderstanding can hold together between you."
-
-"You forget mother," said Anne.
-
-Mrs Trefusis had momentarily forgotten her closest friend, the Duchess
-of Quorn, that notorious match-making mother of a quartette of pretty,
-well-drilled daughters, all of whom were now advantageously married
-except Anne--the eldest. And if Anne was not at this moment wedded to
-George Trefusis it was not owing to want of zeal on the part of both
-mothers. Mrs Trefusis was irrevocably behind the scenes in Anne's
-family.
-
-"Mother ought by nature to have been a man and a cricketer," said Anne,
-"instead of the mother of many daughters. She is 'game' to the last,
-she is a hard hitter, and she will run till she drops on the chance of
-any catch. But her bowling is her strong point. Young men have not a
-chance with her. Her style may not be dignified, but her eye is
-extraordinary. Harry Lestrange did his silly, panic-stricken best,
-but--he is married to Cecily now."
-
-"Did he really try to get out of it?"
-
-"He did. He liked Cecily a little; he had certainly flirted with her
-when she came in his way, but he never made the least effort to meet
-her, and he did not want to marry her."
-
-"And Cecily?"
-
-"Cecily did not dislike him. She was only nineteen, and she had--so she
-told me--always hoped for curly hair; and of course Harry's is quite
-straight, what little there is of it. She shed a few tears about that,
-but she did as she was told. They are a nice-looking young couple. They
-write quite happily. I daresay it will do very well. But, you see,
-unfortunately, Harry was a friend of Mr Vanbrunt's, and I know Harry
-consulted him as to how to get out of it. Well, directly mother's
-attention was off Harry, she found out about Mr Vanbrunt; how I don't
-know, but she did. Poor mother! she has a heart somewhere. It is her
-sporting instincts which are too strong for her. When she found out, she
-came into my room and kissed me, and cried, and said love was
-everything, and what did looks matter, and, for her part, if a man was a
-good man, she thought it was of no importance if he had not had a
-father. Think of mother's saying that, after marrying poor father? But
-she was quite sincere. Mother never minds contradicting herself. There
-is nothing petty about her. She cried, and I cried too. We seemed to be
-nearer to each other than we had been for years. I was the last daughter
-left at home, and she actually said she did not want to part with me. I
-think she felt it just for the moment, for she had had a good deal of
-worry with some of the sons-in-law, especially Harry. But after a
-little bit she came to herself, and she gave me such advice. Oh, such
-advice! Some of it was excellent--that was the worst of it--but it was
-all from the standpoint of the woman stalking the man. And she asked me
-several gimlet questions about Mr Vanbrunt. She said I had not made any
-mistake so far, but that I must be very careful. She was like a tiger
-that has tasted blood. She said it was almost like marrying
-royalty--marrying such wealth as that. I believe he has a property in
-Africa rather larger than England. But she said that I was her dear
-child, and she thought it might be done. I implored her not to do
-anything--to leave him alone. But the truth is, mother had been so
-successful that she had got rather beyond herself, and she fancied she
-could do anything. Father had often prophesied that some day she would
-overreach herself. However, nothing would stop her. So she settled down
-to it. You know what mother's bowling is. It did for Harry--but this
-time it did for me."
-
-"Mr Vanbrunt saw through it?"
-
-"From the first moment. He saw he was being hunted down. He bore it at
-first, and then he withdrew. I can't prove it, but I am morally certain
-that mother cornered him and had a talk with him one day, and told him I
-cared for him, and thought him very handsome. Mother sticks at nothing.
-After that he went away."
-
-"Poor man!"
-
-"She asked him in May to stay with us in Scotland in September, but he
-has refused. I found she had given a little message from me which I
-never sent. Poor, poor mother, and poor me!"
-
-"And poor millionaire! Surely if he has any sense he must see that it is
-your mother and not you who is hunting him."
-
-"He is aware that Cecily did as she was told. He probably thinks I could
-be coerced into marrying him. He may know a great deal about finance,
-and stocks, and all those weary things, but he knows very little about
-women. He has not taken much account of them so far."
-
-"His day will come," said Mrs Trefusis. "What a nuisance men are! I wish
-they were all at the bottom of the sea."
-
-"If they were," said Anne, with her rueful little smile, "mother would
-order a diving-bell at once."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III
-
- "O mighty love, O passion and desire,
- That bound the cord."
-
- --_The Heptameron._
-
-
-Janet's mother had died when Janet was a toddling child. It is
-observable in the natural history of heroines that their mothers almost
-invariably do die when the heroines to whom they have given birth are
-toddling children. Had Di Vernon a mother, or Evelina, or Jane Eyre, or
-Diana of the Crossways, or Aurora Leigh? Dear Elizabeth Bennett
-certainly had one whom we shall not quickly forget--but Elizabeth is an
-exception. She only proves the rule for the majority of heroines.
-Fathers they have sometimes, generally of a feeble or callous
-temperament, never of any use in extricating their daughters from the
-entanglements that early beset them. And occasionally they have
-chivalrous or disreputable brothers.
-
-So it is with a modest confidence in the equipment of my heroine that I
-now present her to the reader denuded of both parents, and domiciled
-under the roof of a brother who was not only disreputable in the
-imagination of Mrs Trefusis, but, as I hate half measures, was so in
-reality.
-
-If Janet had been an introspective person, if she had ever asked herself
-whence she came and whither she was going, if the cruelty of life and
-nature had ever forced themselves upon her notice, if the apparent
-incompleteness of this pretty world had ever daunted her, I think she
-must have been a very unhappy woman. Her surroundings were vulgar,
-coarse, without a redeeming gleam of culture, even in its crudest
-forms, without a spark of refined affection. Nevertheless her life grew
-up white and clean in it, as a hyacinth will build its fragrant bell
-tower in the window of a tavern, in a stale atmosphere of smoke and beer
-and alcohol. Janet was self-contained as a hyacinth. She unfolded from
-within. She asked no questions of life. That she had had a happy,
-contented existence was obvious; an existence spent much in the open
-air, in which tranquil, practical duties well within her reach had been
-all that had been required of her. Her brother Fred, several years older
-than herself, had one redeeming point. He was fond of her and proud of
-her. He did not understand her, but she was what he called "a good
-sort."
-
-Janet was one of those blessed women--whose number seems to diminish,
-while that of her highly-strung sisters painfully increases--who make no
-large demand on life, or on their fellow-creatures. She took both as
-they came. Her uprightness and integrity were her own, as was the
-simple religion which she followed blindfold. She expected little of
-others, and exacted nothing. She had, of course, had lovers in plenty.
-She wished to be married and to have children--many children. In her
-quiet ruminating mind she had names ready for a family of ten. But until
-George came she had always said "No." When pressed by her brother as to
-why some particularly eligible _parti_--such as Mr Gorst, the successful
-trainer--had been refused, she could never put forward any adequate
-reason, and would say at last that she was very happy as she was.
-
-Then George came, a different kind of man from any she had
-known, at least different from any in his class who had offered
-marriage. He represented to her all that was absent from her own
-surroundings--refinement, culture. I don't know what Janet can have
-meant by culture, but years later, when she had picked up words like
-"culture" and "development," and scattered them across her conversation,
-she told me he had represented all these glories to her. And he was a
-little straighter than the business men she associated with, a good deal
-straighter than her brother. Perhaps, after all, that was the first
-attraction he had for her. Janet was straight herself. She fell in love
-with George.
-
-"L'amour est une source naïve." It was a very naïve spring in Janet's
-heart, though it welled up from a considerable depth; a spring not even
-to be poisoned by her brother's outrageous delight at the engagement, or
-his congratulations on the wisdom of her previous steadfast refusal of
-the eligible Mr Gorst.
-
-"This beats all," he said; "I never thought you would pull it off,
-Janet. I thought he was too big a fish to land. And to think you will
-queen it at Easthope Park."
-
-Janet was not in the least perturbed by her brother's remarks. She was
-accustomed to them. He always talked like that. She vaguely supposed she
-should some day "queen it" at Easthope. The expression did not offend
-her. The reflection in her mind was: "George must love me very much to
-have chosen me, when all the most splendid ladies in the land would be
-glad to have him."
-
-And now, as she walked on this Sunday afternoon in the long, quiet
-gardens of Easthope, she felt her cup was full. She looked at her
-affianced George with shy adoration from under the brim of her violent
-new hat, and made soft answers to him when he spoke.
-
-George was not a great talker. He trusted mainly to an occasional
-ejaculation, his meaning aided by pointing with a stick.
-
-A covey of partridges ran with one consent across the smooth lawn at a
-little distance.
-
-"Jolly little beggars," said George, with explanatory stick.
-
-She liked the flowers best, but he did not, so he took her down to the
-pool below the rose garden, where the eager brook ran through a grating,
-making a little water prison in which solemn, portly personages might be
-seen moving.
-
-"See 'em?" said George, pointing as usual.
-
-"Yes," said Janet.
-
-"That's a three-pounder."
-
-"Yes."
-
-That was all the stream said to them.
-
-She lingered once more in the rose-garden when he would have drawn her
-onwards towards the ferrets, and George, willing to humour her, got out
-his knife and chose a rose for her. Has any woman really lived who has
-not stood once in silence in the June sunshine with her lover, and
-watched him pick for her a red rose which is not as other roses, a rose
-which understands? Amid all the world of roses, did the raiment of God
-touch just that one, as He walked in His garden in the cool of the
-evening? And did the Divine love imprisoned in it reach forth towards
-the human love of the two lovers, and blend them for a moment with
-itself?
-
-"You are my rose," said George, and he put his arm round her, and drew
-her to him with a rough tenderness.
-
-"Yes," said Janet, not knowing to what she said "yes," but vaguely
-assenting to him in everything. And they leaned together by the
-sun-dial, soft cheek against tanned cheek, soft hand in hard hand.
-
-Could anything in life be more commonplace than two lovers and a rose?
-Have we not seen such groups portrayed on lozenge-boxes, and on the
-wrappers of French plums?
-
-And yet, what remains commonplace if Love but touch it as he passes?
-
-Let Memory open her worn picture-book, where it opens of itself, and
-make answer.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Anne saw the lovers, but they did not see her, as she ran down the steps
-cut in the turf to the little bridge across the trout stream. She had
-left Mrs Trefusis composed into a resigned nap, and she felt at liberty
-to carry her aching spirit to seek comfort and patience by the brook.
-
-Anne, the restrained, disciplined, dignified woman of the world, threw
-herself down on her face in the short, sun-warm grass.
-
-Is the heart ever really tamed? As the years pass we learn to keep it
-behind bolts and bars. We marshal it forth on set occasions, to work
-manacled under our eyes, and then goad it back to its cell again. But is
-it ever anything but a caged Arab of the desert, a wild fierce prisoner
-in chains, a captive Samson with shorn locks which grow again, who may
-one day snap his fetters, and pull down the house over our heads.
-
-Anne set her teeth. Her passionate heart beat hard against the kind
-bosom of the earth. How we return to her, our Mother Earth, when life is
-too difficult or too beautiful for us! How we fling ourselves upon her
-breast, upon her solitude, finding courage to encounter joy, insight to
-bear sorrow. First faint foreshadowing of the time when we, "short-lived
-as fire, and fading as the dew," shall go back to her entirely.
-
-Anne lay very still. She did not cry. She knew better than that. Tears
-are for the young. She hid her convulsed face in her hands, and
-shuddered violently from time to time.
-
-How long was she to bear it? How long was she to drag herself by sheer
-force through the days, endless hour by hour? How long was she to hate
-the dawn? How long was she to endure this intermittent agony, which
-released her only to return? Was there to be no reprieve from the
-invasion of this one thought? Was there no escape from this man? Was not
-her old friend the robin on his side? The meadowsweet feathered the
-hedgerow. The white clover was in the grass, together with the little
-purple orchid. Were they not all his confederates? Had he bribed the
-robin to sing of him, and the scent in the white clover against her
-cheek to goad her back to acute remembrance of him, and the pine-trees
-to speak continually of him?
-
-"He is rich enough," said poor Anne to herself, with something between a
-laugh and a sob.
-
-But he had not bribed the brook. Tormented spirits ere now have walked
-in dry places, seeking rest and finding none. But has any outcast from
-happiness sought rest by running water, and found it not?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV
-
- "I have not sinned against the God of Love."
-
- --EDMUND GOSSE.
-
-
-When Anne returned to the house an hour or two later she heard an alien
-voice and strident laugh through the open door of the drawing-room as
-she crossed the hall, and she crept noiselessly upstairs towards her own
-room. She felt as if she were quite unable to bear so soon again the
-strain of that small family party. But halfway up the stairs her
-conscience pricked her. Was all well in the drawing-room? She sighed,
-and went slowly downstairs again.
-
-All was not well there.
-
-Mrs Trefusis was sitting frozen upright in her high-backed chair,
-listening with congealed civility to the would-be-easy conversation,
-streaked with nervous laughter, of a young man. Anne saw at a glance
-that he must be Janet's brother, and she instinctively divined that, on
-the strength of his sister's engagement, he was now making, unasked, his
-first call on Mrs Trefusis.
-
-Fred Black was a tall, sufficiently handsome man seen apart from Janet.
-He could look quite distinguished striding about in well-made breeches
-among a group of farmers and dealers on market-day. But taken away from
-his appropriate setting, and inserted suddenly into the Easthope
-drawing-room, in Janet's proximity, he changed like a chameleon, and
-appeared dilapidated, in spite of being over-dressed, irretrievably
-second-rate, and unwholesome-looking. He was so like his sister that a
-certain indefinable commonness, not of breeding but of character, and a
-suggestion of cunning and insolence observable in him, were thrown into
-high relief by the strong superficial resemblance of feature between
-them.
-
-Janet was sitting motionless and embarrassed before the tea-table,
-waiting for the tea to become of brandied strength. Mrs Trefusis,
-possibly mindful of Anne's appeal, had evidently asked her future
-daughter-in-law to pour out tea for her. And Janet, to the instant
-annoyance of the elder woman, had carefully poured cream into each empty
-cup as a preliminary measure.
-
-George was standing in sullen silence by the tea-table, vaguely aware
-that something was wrong, and wishing that Fred had not called.
-
-The strain relaxed as Anne entered.
-
-Anne came in quickly, with a gentle expectancy of pleasure in her grave
-face. She gave the impression of one who has hastened back to congenial
-society.
-
-If this be hypocrisy, Anne was certainly a hypocrite. There are some
-natures, simple and patient, who quickly perceive and gladly meet the
-small occasions of life. Anne had come into the world willing to serve,
-and she did not mind whom she served. She did gracefully, even gaily,
-the things that others did not think worth while. This was, of course,
-no credit to her. She was made so. Just as some of us are so
-fastidiously, so artistically constituted as to make the poor souls who
-have to live with us old before their time.
-
-Mrs Trefusis' face became less knotted. Janet gave a sigh of relief.
-George said: "Hi, Ponto! How are ye?" and affably stirred up his
-sleeping retriever with his foot.
-
-Anne sat down by Janet, advised her that Mrs Trefusis did not like
-cream, and then, while she swallowed a cup of tea sweetened to nausea,
-devoted herself to Fred.
-
-His nervous laugh became less strident, his conversation less pendulous
-between a paralysed constraint and a galvanized familiarity. Anne loved
-horses, but she did not talk of them to Fred, though, from his
-appearance, it seemed as if no other subject had ever occupied his
-attention.
-
-Why is it that a passion for horses writes itself as plainly as a
-craving for alcohol on the faces of the men and women who live for them?
-
-Anne spoke of the Boer war in its most obvious aspects, mentioned a few
-of its best-known incidents, of which even he could not be ignorant.
-Janet glanced with fond pride at her brother, as he declaimed against
-the Government for its refusal to buy thousands of hypothetical Kaffir
-ponies, and as he posted Anne in the private workings of the mind of her
-cousin, the Prime Minister. Fred had even heard of certain scandals
-respecting the hospitals for the wounded, and opined with decision that
-war could not be conducted on rose-water principles, with a bottle of
-eau-de-Cologne at each man's pillow.
-
-"Fine woman that!" said Fred to Janet afterwards, as she walked a few
-steps with him on his homeward way. "Woman of the world. Knows her way
-about. And how she holds herself! A little thin perhaps, and not much
-colour, but shows her breeding. Who is she?"
-
-"Lady Varney."
-
-"Married?"
-
-"N--no."
-
-"H'm! Look here, Janet. You suck up to her. And you look how she does
-things, and notice the way she talks. She reads the papers, takes an
-interest in politics. That's what a man likes. You do the same. And
-don't you knock under to that old bag of bones too much. Hold your own.
-We are as good as she is."
-
-"Oh, no, Fred; we're not."
-
-"Oh! it's all rot about family. It's not worth a rush. We are just the
-same as them. A gentleman's a gentleman whether he lives in a large
-house or a small one, and the real snobs are the people who think
-different. Does it make you less of a lady because you live in an
-unpretentious way? Not a bit of it. Don't talk to me."
-
-Janet remained silent. She felt there was some hitch in her brother's
-reasoning, which, until to-day, had appeared to her irrefutable, but she
-could not see where the hitch lay.
-
-"You must stand up to the old woman, I tell you. I don't want you to be
-rude, but you let her know that she is the dowager. Don't give way.
-Didn't you see how I tackled her?"
-
-"I'm not clever like you."
-
-"Well, you are a long sight prettier," said her brother proudly. "And
-I've brought some dollars with me for the trousseau. You go to the
-Brands to-morrow, don't you?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Well, don't pay for anything you can help. Tell them to put it down.
-Get this Lady Varney or Mrs Brand to recommend the shops and
-dressmakers, and then they will not dun us for money."
-
-"Oh, Fred! Are you so hard up?"
-
-"Hard up!" said Fred, his face becoming suddenly pinched and old. "Hard
-up!" He drew in his breath. "Oh! I'm all right. At least, yes, just for
-the moment I'm a bit pressed. Look here, Janet. You and Mrs Brand are
-old pals. Get Brand," his voice became hoarse, "get Brand to wait a bit.
-He has my I O U, and he has waited once, but he warned me he would not
-again. He said it was against his rules; as if rules matter between
-gentlemen. He's as hard as nails. The I O U falls due next week, and I
-can't meet it. I don't want any bother till after you are spliced. You
-and Mrs Brand lay your heads together, and persuade him to wait till you
-are married, at any rate. He hates me, but he won't want to stand in
-your light."
-
-"I'll ask him," said Janet, looking earnestly at her brother, but only
-half understanding why his face was so white and set. "But why don't you
-take my two thousand and pay him back? I said you could borrow it. I
-think that would be better than speaking again to Mr Brand, who will
-never listen."
-
-"No, it wouldn't," said Fred, his hand shaking so violently that he gave
-up attempting to light a cigarette. He knew that that two thousand,
-Janet's little fortune, existed only in her imagination. It had existed
-once; he had had charge of it, but it was gone.
-
-"Ask Brand," he said again. "A man with any gentlemanly feeling cannot
-refuse a pretty woman anything. I can't. You ask Brand--as if it was to
-please you. You're pretty enough to wheedle anything out of men. He'll
-do it."
-
-"I'll ask him," said Janet again, and she sighed as she went back alone
-to the great house which was one day to be hers. She did not think of
-that as she looked up at the long lines of stone-mullioned windows. She
-thought only of her George, and wondered, with a blush of shame, whether
-Fred had yet borrowed money from him.
-
-Then, as she saw a white figure move past the gallery windows, she
-remembered Anne, and her brother's advice to her to make a friend of
-"Lady Varney." Janet had been greatly drawn towards Anne, after she had
-got over a certain stolid preliminary impression that Anne was "fine."
-And Janet had immediately mistaken Anne's tactful kindness to herself
-for an overture of friendship. Perhaps that is a mistake which many
-gentle, commonplace souls make, who go through life disillusioned as to
-the sincerity of certain other attractive, brilliant creatures with whom
-they have come in momentary contact, to whom they can give nothing, but
-from whom they have received a generous measure of delicate sympathy and
-kindness, which they mistook for the prelude of friendship; a friendship
-which never arrived. It is well for us when we learn the difference
-between the donations and the subscriptions of those richer than
-ourselves, when we realize how broad is the way towards a person's
-kindness, and how many surprisingly inferior individuals are to be met
-therein; and how strait is the gate, how hard to find, and how doubly
-hard, when found, to force it, of that same person's friendship.
-
-Janet supposed that Anne liked her as much as she herself liked Anne,
-and, being a simple soul, she said to herself, "I think I will go and
-sit with her a little."
-
-A more experienced person than my poor heroine would have felt that
-there was not marked encouragement in the civil "Come in" which answered
-her knock at Anne's door.
-
-But Janet came in smiling, sure of her welcome. Every one was sure of
-their welcome with Anne.
-
-She was sitting in a low chair by the open window. She had taken off
-what Janet would have called her "Sunday gown," and had wrapped round
-her a long, diaphanous white garment, the like of which Janet had never
-seen. It was held at the neck by a pale green ribbon, cunningly drawn
-through lace insertion, and at the waist by another wider green ribbon,
-which fell to the feet. The spreading lace-edged hem showed the point of
-a green morocco slipper.
-
-Janet looked with respectful wonder at Anne's dressing-gown, and a
-momentary doubt as to whether her presence was urgently needed vanished.
-Anne must have been expecting her. She would not have put on that
-exquisite garment to sit by herself in.
-
-Janet's eyes travelled to Anne's face.
-
-Even the faint, reassuring smile, which did not come the first moment it
-was summoned, could not disguise the fatigue of that pale face, though
-it effaced a momentary impatience.
-
-"You are very tired," said Janet. "I wish you were as strong as me."
-
-Janet's beautiful eyes had an admiring devotion in them, and also a
-certain wistfulness, which appealed to Anne.
-
-"Sit down," she said cordially. "That is a comfortable chair."
-
-"You were reading. Shan't I interrupt you?" said Janet, sitting down
-nevertheless, and feeling that tact could no further go.
-
-"It does not matter," said Anne, closing the book, but keeping one
-slender finger in the place.
-
-"What is your book called?"
-
-"'Inasmuch.'"
-
-"Who wrote it?"
-
-"Hester Gresley."
-
-"I think I've heard of her," said Janet cautiously. "Mrs Smith, our
-Rector's wife, says that Mr Smith does not approve of her books; they
-have such a low tone. I think Fred read one of them on a visit once. I
-haven't time myself for much reading."
-
-Silence.
-
-"I should like," said Janet, turning her clear, wide gaze upon Anne, "I
-should like to read the books you read, and know the things you know. I
-should like to--to be like you."
-
-A delicate colour came into Anne's face, and she looked down embarrassed
-at the volume in her hand.
-
-"Would you read me a little bit?" said Janet. "Not beginning at the
-beginning, but just going on where you left off."
-
-"I am afraid you might not care for it any more than Mr Smith does."
-
-"Oh! I'm not deeply read like Mr Smith. Is it poetry?"
-
-"No."
-
-"I'm glad it isn't poetry. Is it about love?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-"I used not to care to read about love, but now I think I should like it
-very much."
-
-A swift emotion passed over Anne's face. She took up the book, and
-slowly opened it. Janet looked with admiration at her slender hands.
-
-"I wish mine were white like hers," she thought, as she looked at her
-own far more beautiful but slightly tanned hands, folded together in her
-lap in an attitude of attention.
-
-Anne hesitated a moment, and then began to read:
-
- * * * * *
-
-"I had journeyed some way in life, I was travel-stained and weary, when
-I met Love. In the empty, glaring highway I met him, and we walked in
-it together. I had not thought he fared in such steep places, having
-heard he was a dweller in the sheltered gardens, which were not for me.
-Nevertheless he went with me. I never stopped for him, or turned aside
-out of my path to seek him, for I had met his counterfeit when I was
-young, and I distrusted strangers afterwards. And I prayed to God to
-turn my heart wholly to Himself, and to send Love away, lest he should
-come between me and Him. But when did God hearken to any prayer of mine?
-
-"And Love was grave and stern. And as we walked he showed me the dew
-upon the grass, and the fire in the dew, the things I had seen all my
-life and had never understood. And he drew the rainbow through his hand.
-I was one with the snowdrop and with the thunderstorm. And we went
-together upon the sea, swiftly up its hurrying mountains, swiftly down
-into its rushing valleys. And I was one with the sea. And all fear
-ceased out of my life, and a great awe dwelt with me instead. And Love
-wore a human face. But I knew that was for a moment only. Did not Christ
-the same?
-
-"And Love showed me the hearts of my brothers in the crowd. And, last of
-all, he showed me myself, with whom I had lived in ignorance. And I was
-humbled.
-
-"And then Love, who had given me all, asked for all. And I gave
-reverence, and patience, and faith, and hope, and intuition, and
-service. I even gave him truth. I put my hands under his feet. But he
-said it was not enough. So I gave him my heart. That was the last I had
-to give.
-
-"And Love took it in a great tenderness and smote it. And in the anguish
-the human face of Love vanished away.
-
-"And afterwards, long years afterwards, when I was first able to move
-and look up, I saw Love, who, as I thought, was gone, keeping watch
-beside me. And I saw his face clear, without the human veil between me
-and it. And it was the Face of God. And I saw that Love and God are
-one, and that, because of His exceeding glory, He had been constrained
-to take flesh even as Christ took it, so that my dim eyes might be able
-to apprehend Him. And I saw that it was He and He only who had walked
-with me from the first."
-
- * * * * *
-
-Anne laid down the book. She looked fixedly out across the quiet
-gardens, with their long shadows, to the still, sun-lit woods beyond.
-Her face changed, as the face of one who, in patient endurance, has long
-rowed against the stream, and who at last lets the benign, constraining
-current take her whither it will. The look of awed surrender seldom seen
-on a living face, seldom absent from the faces of the newly dead, rested
-for a moment on Anne's.
-
- * * * * *
-
-"I don't think," said Janet, "I quite understand what it means, because
-I was not sure whether it was a lady or a gentleman that was speaking."
-
-Anne started violently, and turned her colourless face towards the
-voice. It seemed to recall her from a great distance. She had forgotten
-Janet. She had been too far off to hear what she had said.
-
-"I like the bit about giving Love our hearts," said Janet tentatively.
-"It means something the same as the sermon did this morning, doesn't it,
-about not laying up our treasure upon earth?"
-
-There was a silence.
-
-"Yes," said Anne gently, her voice and face quivering a little, "perhaps
-it does. I had not thought of it in that way till you mentioned it, but
-I see what you mean."
-
-"That we ought to put religion first."
-
-"Y-yes."
-
-"I am so glad you read that to me," continued Janet comfortably,
-"because I had an idea that you and I should feel the same about"--she
-hesitated--"about love. I mean," she corrected herself, "you would, if
-you were engaged."
-
-"I have never been engaged," said Anne, in the tone of one who gently
-but firmly closes a subject.
-
-"When you are," said Janet, peacefully pursuing the topic, and looking
-at her with tender confidence, "you will feel like me, that it's--just
-everything."
-
-"Shall I?"
-
-"I don't know any poetry, except two lines that George copied out for
-me--
-
- 'Don't love me at all,
- Or love me all in all.'"
-
-Anne winced, but recovered herself instantly.
-
-"It's like that with me," continued Janet. "It's all in all. And then I
-am afraid that _is_ laying up treasures on earth, isn't it?"
-
-"Not if you love God more because you love George."
-
-Janet ruminated. You could almost hear her mind at work upon the
-suggestion, as you hear a coffee-mill respond to a handful of coffee
-berries.
-
-"I think I do," she said at last, and she added below her breath, "I
-thank God all the time for sending George, and I pray I may be worthy
-of him."
-
-Anne's eyes filled with sudden tears--not for herself.
-
-"I hope you will be very happy," she said, laying her hand on Janet's.
-It seemed to Anne a somewhat forlorn hope.
-
-Janet's hand closed slowly over Anne's.
-
-"I think we shall," she said. "And yet I sometimes doubt, when I
-remember that I am not his equal. I knew that in a way from the first,
-but I see it more and more since I came here. I don't wonder Mrs
-Trefusis doesn't think me good enough."
-
-"Mrs Trefusis does not take fancies quickly."
-
-"It is not that," said Janet. "There's two ways of not being good
-enough. Till now I have only thought of one way, of not being good
-enough _in myself_, like such things as temper. I'm not often angry, but
-if I am I stay angry. I don't alter. I was once angry with Fred for a
-year. I've thought a great deal about that since I've cared for George.
-And sometimes I fancy I'm rather slow. I daresay you haven't noticed
-it, but Mrs Smith often remarks upon it. She always has something to say
-on any subject, just like you have; but somehow I haven't."
-
-"I don't know Mrs Smith."
-
-"I wish you did. She's wonderful. She says she learnt it when she went
-out so much in the West End before her marriage."
-
-"Indeed!"
-
-"But since I've been here I see there's another way I'm not good enough,
-which sets Mrs Trefusis against me. I don't think she would mind if I
-told lies and had a bad temper, and couldn't talk like Mrs Smith, if I
-was good enough in _her_ way--I mean if I was high-born like you."
-
-The conversation seemed to contain as many pins as a well-stocked
-pincushion. The expression "high-born" certainly had a sharp point, but
-Anne made no sign as it was driven in. She considered a moment, and then
-said, as if she had decided to risk something: "You are right. Mrs
-Trefusis would have been pleased if you had been my sister. You perhaps
-think that very worldly. I think it is very natural."
-
-"I wish I were your sister," said Janet, who might be reckoned on for
-remaining half a field behind.
-
-Anne sighed, and leaned back in her chair.
-
-"If I were your sister," continued Janet, wholly engrossed in getting
-her slow barge heavily under way, "you would have told me a number of
-little things which--I don't seem to know."
-
-"You could easily learn some of them," said Anne, "and that would
-greatly please Mrs Trefusis."
-
-"Could you tell me of anything in especial?"
-
-"Well! For instance--I don't mind myself in the least--but it would be
-better not to call me 'Lady Varney.'"
-
-"I did not know you would like me to call you 'Anne.'"
-
-"You are quite right. We do not know each other well enough."
-
-"Then what ought I to call you?"
-
-"My friends call me 'Lady Anne.'"
-
-"Dear me!" said Janet, astonished. "There's Lady Alice Thornton. She
-married Mr Thornton, our member. Fred sold him a hunter. And she is
-sometimes called 'Lady Alice Thornton' and sometimes 'Lady Thornton.'
-Mrs Smith says----"
-
-"Then," continued Anne, who seemed indisposed to linger on the subject,
-"it would please Mrs Trefusis if you came into a room with more
-courage."
-
-Janet stared at her adviser round-eyed.
-
-"It is shy work, isn't it?" said Anne. "I always had a great difficulty
-in getting into a room myself when I was your age. (O Anne! Anne!) I
-mean, in getting well into the middle. But I saw I ought to try, and not
-to hesitate near the door, because, you see, it obliges old ladies, and
-people like Mrs Trefusis, who is rather lame, to come nearly to the door
-to meet us. And we young ones ought to go up to them, even if it makes
-us feel shy."
-
-"I never thought of that," said Janet. "I will remember those two things
-always. Mrs Smith always comes in very slow, but then she's a married
-woman, and she says she likes to give people time to realise her. I will
-watch how you come in. I will try and copy you in everything. And if I
-am in doubt, may I ask you?"
-
-Anne laughed, and rose lightly.
-
-"Do," she said, "if you think I could be of any use on these trivial
-matters. I live among trivialities. But remember always that they _are_
-trivial. The only thing that is of any real importance in this uphill
-world is to love and be loved. You will know that when you are my age."
-
-And Anne put her arm round the tall young figure for a moment, and
-kissed her. And then suddenly, why she knew not, Janet discovered, even
-while Anne stood smiling at her, that the interview was over.
-
-It seemed a pity, for, when Janet had reached her own room, she
-remembered that she had intended to consult Anne as to the advisability
-of cutting her glorious hair into a fringe, like Mrs Smith's.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Anne and Janet travelled together to London next day, and on the journey
-Janet laid before Anne, in all its bearings, the momentous question of
-her hair. Fred had said she would never look up to date till she cut a
-fringe. George had opined that her hair looked very nice as it was,
-while Mrs Smith had asseverated that it was impossible to mix in good
-society, or find a hat to suit the face, without one.
-
-Anne settled once and for all that Janet's hair, parted and waving
-naturally, like the Venus of Milo's, was not to be touched. She became
-solemnly severe on the subject, as she saw Janet was still wavering. And
-she even offered to help Janet with her trousseau, to take her to
-Vernon, her own tailor, and to her own hatter and dressmaker. Janet
-had no conception what a sacrifice of time that offer meant to a person
-of endless social engagements like Anne, who was considered one of the
-best-dressed women in London.
-
-But to Anne's secret amusement and thankfulness, this offer was
-gratefully declined in an embarrassed manner.
-
-Janet's great friend, Mrs Macalpine Brand, to whose flat in Lowndes
-Mansions she was now on her way, had offered to help her with her
-trousseau. Did Lady Var--Anne know Mrs Macalpine Brand? She went out a
-great deal in London, so perhaps she might have met her. And she was
-always beautifully dressed.
-
-Anne remembered vaguely a certain over-dressed, would-be-smart,
-insufferable Mrs Brand, who had made bare-faced but fruitless attempts
-to scrape acquaintance with herself when she and Anne had been on the
-same committee.
-
-"I have met a very pretty Mrs Brand," she said, "when I was working with
-Mrs Forrester. She had an excellent head for business--and had she not
-rather a peculiar Christian name?"
-
-"Cuckoo."
-
-"Yes, that was it. She helped Mrs Forrester's charity most generously
-when it was in debt."
-
-"She is my greatest friend," said Janet, beaming. "I shall be staying
-with her all this next fortnight. May I bring her with me when I come to
-tea with you?"
-
-Anne hesitated half a second before she said, "Do."
-
-She was glad afterwards that she had said it, for it pleased Janet, and
-poor little Mrs Macalpine Brand never took advantage of it. Even at that
-moment as they spoke of her, she was absorbed, to the shutting out even
-of plans for social advancement, in more pressing subjects.
-
-The two girls parted at Victoria, and the last time Anne saw Janet's
-face, in its halo of happiness, was as Janet nodded to her through the
-window of the four-wheeler, which bore her away to her friend Mrs
-Brand.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V
-
- "Tous les hommes sont menteurs, inconstants, faux, bavards,
- hypocrites, orgueilleux, ou lâches, méprisables et sensuels:
- toutes les femmes sont perfides, artificieuses, vaniteuses,
- curieuses et dépravées: ... mais il y a au monde une chose
- sainte et sublime, c'est l'union de deux de ces êtres si
- imparfaits et si affreux."
-
- --ALFRED DE MUSSET.
-
-
-As the four-wheeler neared Lowndes Square the traffic became blocked,
-not by carriages, but by large numbers of people on foot. At last the
-cabman drew to the side, uncorked himself from the box, and came to the
-window.
-
-"Is it Lowndes Mansions as you're a-asking for?" he said.
-
-"Yes," said Janet.
-
-"Why, it's there as the fire was yesterday."
-
-"The fire!"
-
-"Yes! The top floors is mostly burnt out. You can't get a wehicle near
-it."
-
-"Were any lives lost?" said Janet. The Brands lived on one of the upper
-floors.
-
-"No, miss," said a policeman, approaching, urbane, helpful, not averse
-to imparting information.
-
-Janet explained that she was on her way to stay in the Mansions, and the
-policeman, who said that other "parties" had already arrived with the
-same object but could not be taken in, advised her to turn back and go
-with her luggage to one of the private hotels in Sloane Street, until
-she could, as he expressed it, "turn round."
-
-Janet did as she was bid, and half an hour later made her way on foot
-through the crowd to the entrance of Lowndes Mansions.
-
-The hall porter recognised her, for she had frequently stayed with the
-Brands, and Janet's face was not quickly forgotten. He bade the
-policeman who barred the entrance let her pass.
-
-The central hall, with its Oriental hangings and sham palms, was crowded
-with people. Idle, demoralized housemaids belonging to the upper
-floors, whose sphere of work was gone, stood together in whispering
-groups watching the spectacle. Grave men in high hats and over-long
-buttoned-up frock-coats greeted each other silently, and then produced
-passes which admitted them to the jealously guarded iron staircase. The
-other staircase was burnt out at the top, though from the hall it showed
-no trace of anything but of the water which yesterday had flowed down it
-in waves, and which still oozed from the heavy pile stair-carpet, which
-the salvage men were beginning to take up.
-
-The hall porter and the unemployed lift man stood together, silent,
-stupefied, broken with fatigue, worn out with answering questions.
-
-"Are Mr and Mrs Brand all right?" gasped Janet, thrilled by the
-magnitude of the unseen disaster above, which seemed to strike roots of
-horror down to the basement.
-
-"Every one is all right," said the lift man automatically.
-"No lives lost. Two residents shook. One leg broke hamong the
-hemployees--compound fracture."
-
-"Mrs Brand was shook," said the hall porter callously. "She had a fall."
-
-"Where is she now?" enquired Janet.
-
-The hall porter looked at her apathetically, and continued: "Mr Brand
-was taking 'orse exercise in the Park. Mrs Brand was still in her
-bedroom. The fire broke out, cause unbeknownst, at ten o'clock yesterday
-morning precisely. Ten by the barracks clock it was. The hemployees
-worked the hose until the first hingine arrived at quarter past."
-
-"Twenty past," corrected the lift man.
-
-"And Mrs Brand?" said Janet again.
-
-"Mrs Brand must 'ave been dressing, for she was in her dressing-gown,
-and she must ha' run down the main staircase afore it got well alight;
-at least, she was found unconscious-like three flights down. Some say as
-she was mazed by the smoke, and some say as she fell over the
-banisters."
-
-"The banisters is gone," said the lift man.
-
-"Where is she now? Where is Mr Brand? I must see him at once," said
-Janet, at last realizing that the history of the fire would go on for
-ever.
-
-"Mrs Brand was took into the billiard-room," said the lift man. "Mr
-Brand is with her, and the doctor. There! The doctor is coming out now."
-
-A grey-haired man shot out through the crowd, ran down the steps, and
-disappeared into a brougham privileged to remain at the entrance.
-
-"Take me to Mr Brand this instant," said Janet, shaking the hall porter
-by the arm.
-
-The man looked as if he would have been surprised at her vehemence if
-there were any spring of surprise left in him, but it had obviously run
-down from overwinding. He slowly led the way through a swing door, and
-down a dark passage lit by electric light. At a large ground-glass door
-with "Billiard-Room" on it he stopped, and tapped.
-
-There was no answer.
-
-Janet opened the door, went in, and closed it behind her.
-
-She almost stumbled against Mr Brand, who was standing with his back
-towards her, his face to the wall, in the tiny antechamber, bristling
-with empty pegs, which led into the billiard-room.
-
-It was dark save for the electric light in the passage, which shone
-feebly through the ground-glass door.
-
-Mr Brand turned slowly as Janet almost touched him. His death-white face
-was the only thing visible. He did not speak. Janet gazed at him
-horror-struck.
-
-Gradually, as her eyes became accustomed to the dim light, she saw the
-little dapper, familiar figure, with its immaculate frock-coat, and
-corseted waist, and the lean, sallow, wrinkled face, with its retreating
-forehead and dyed hair, and waxed, turned-up moustaches. One of the
-waxed ends had been bent, and drooped forlornly, grotesquely. It was
-perhaps inevitable that the money-lender should be nicknamed "Monkey
-Brand," a name pronounced by many with a sneer not devoid of fear.
-
-"How is she?" said Janet at last.
-
-"She is dying," said Monkey Brand, his chin shaking. "Her back is
-broken."
-
-A nurse in cap and apron silently opened the inner door into the
-billiard-room.
-
-"Mrs Brand is asking for you, sir," she said gently.
-
-"I will come," he said, and he went back into the billiard-room.
-
-The nurse looked enquiringly at Janet.
-
-"I am Mrs Brand's friend," said Janet. "She is expecting me."
-
-"She takes it very hard now, poor thing," said the nurse; "and she was
-so brave at first."
-
-And they both went into the billiard-room, and remained standing at the
-further end of it.
-
-It was a large, gaudily-decorated room, adorned with sporting prints,
-and lit by a skylight, on to which opaque bodies, evidently fallen from
-a height, lay in blots, starring the glass.
-
-The billiard-table was littered with doctors' appliances, and at the end
-near the door the nurse had methodically arranged a line of towels and
-basins, with a tin can of hot water and a bucket swathed in flannel with
-ice in it.
-
-The large room, with its glaring upper light, was hot and still, and
-smelt of stale smoke and chloroform.
-
-At the further end, on an improvised bed of mattresses and striped sofa
-cushions, a white, rigid figure was lying, the eyes fixed on the
-skylight.
-
-Monkey Brand knelt down by his wife, and bending over her, kissed,
-without raising it, one of the pale clenched hands.
-
-"Cuckoo," he said, and until she heard him speak it seemed to Janet that
-she had never known to what heights tenderness can reach.
-
-His wife turned her eyes slowly upon him, and looked at him. In her
-eyes, dark with coming death, there was a great yearning towards her
-husband, and behind the yearning an anguish unspeakable. Janet shrank
-before it. The fear of death never cut so deep as that.
-
-A cry, uncouth, terrible, as of one pushed past the last outpost of
-endurance to the extremity of agony, rent the quiet room.
-
-"I cannot bear it," she wailed. And she, who could not raise her hands,
-to which death had come already, raised them once above her head.
-
-They fell heavily, lifelessly, striking her husband's face.
-
-"I would die for you if I might," said Monkey Brand, and he hid his face
-against the hand that had struck him.
-
-Cuckoo looked at the bowed, blue-black head, and her wide eyes wandered
-away past it, set in the vacancy of despair. They fell on Janet.
-
-"Who is that?" she said suddenly.
-
-The nurse brought Janet forward.
-
-"You remember me, Cuckoo?" said Janet gently, her calm smile a little
-tremulous, her face white and beautiful as that of an angel.
-
-"It is Janet. Thank God!" said Cuckoo, and she suddenly burst into
-tears.
-
-They passed quickly.
-
-"I have no time for tears," said Cuckoo, smiling faintly at her husband,
-as he wiped them away with a shaking brown hand. "Janet is come. I must
-speak to her a little quite alone."
-
-"You would not send me from you?" said Monkey Brand, his face twitching.
-"You would not be so hard on me, Cuckoo?"
-
-"Yes," she said, "I would."
-
-The pretty, vulgar, dying face, under its crooked fringe, was
-illuminated. A sort of shadow of Cuckoo's hard little domineering manner
-had come back to her.
-
-"I must be alone with Janet for a little bit, quite alone. You and the
-nurse will go outside, and wait till Janet comes to you. And then," she
-looked at her husband with tender love, "you will come back to me, and
-stay with me to the last."
-
-He still hesitated.
-
-"Go now, Arthur," she said, "and take nurse with you."
-
-The habit of obedience to her whim, her fancy, her slightest wish, was
-ingrained years deep in him. He got upon his feet, signed to the nurse,
-and left the room with her.
-
-"Is the door shut?" said Cuckoo.
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Go and make sure."
-
-Janet went to the door, and came back.
-
-"It is shut."
-
-"Kneel down by me. I can't speak loud."
-
-Janet knelt down.
-
-"Now listen to me. I'm dying. I'm not going to die this minute, because
-I won't; but all the same it's coming. I can't hold on. There is no time
-for being surprised, or for explanations. There's no time for anything,
-except for you to listen to me, and do something for me quickly. Will
-you do it?"
-
-"Yes," said Janet.
-
-Cuckoo looked for a moment at the innocent, fair face above her, and a
-faint colour stained her cheek. But she remembered her husband, and
-summoned her old courage. She spoke quickly, with the clearness and
-precision which had made her such an excellent woman of business, so
-invaluable on the committees of fashionable charities.
-
-"I am a bad woman, Janet. I have concealed it from you, and from every
-one. Arthur--has never guessed it. Don't shudder. Don't turn away.
-There's not time. Keep all that for later--when I'm gone. And don't
-drive me to distraction by thinking this is a dying hallucination. I
-know what I am saying, and I, who have lied so often, am driven to speak
-the truth at last."
-
-"Don't," said Janet. "If it's true, don't say it, but let it die with
-you. Don't break Mr Brand's heart now at the last moment."
-
-Cuckoo's astute eyes dwelt on Janet's face. How slow she was! What a
-blunt instrument had Fate vouchsafed to her.
-
-"I speak to save him," she said. "Don't interrupt again, but listen. It
-all goes back a long way. I was forced into marrying Arthur. I disliked
-him, for I was in love with some one else--some one, as I see now, not
-fit to black his boots. I was straight when I married Arthur, but--I did
-not stay straight afterwards. Arthur is a hard man, but he was good and
-tender to me always, and he trusted me absolutely. I deceived him--for
-years. The child is not Arthur's. Arty is not Arthur's. I never was
-really sorry until a year ago, when he--the other--left me for some one
-else. He said he had fallen in love with a good woman--a snowflake."
-Even now Cuckoo set her teeth at the remembrance of that speech. But she
-hurried on. "That was the time I fell ill. And Arthur nursed me. You
-don't know what Arthur is. I never seemed to have noticed before. Other
-people fail, but Arthur never fails. And I seemed to come to myself. I
-could not bear him out of my sight. And ever since I have loved him, as
-I thought people only loved in poetry books. I saw he was the only one.
-And I thought he would never know. If he did, it would break his heart
-and mine, wherever I was."
-
-Cuckoo waited a moment, and then went on with methodical swiftness:
-
-"But I never burnt the--the other one's letters. I always meant to, and
-I always didn't. It has been in my mind ever since I was ill to burn
-them. I never thought I should die like this. I put it off. The truth
-is, I could not bear to look at them, and remember how I'd--but I meant
-to do it. I knew when I came to myself at the foot of the stairs that I
-was dying, but I did not really mind--except for leaving Arthur, for he
-told me all our flat was burnt and everything in it, and I only grieved
-at leaving him. But this morning, when the place was cold enough for
-people to go up, Arthur told me--he thought it would please me--that my
-sitting-room, and part of the other rooms, were still standing with
-everything in them, and he heard that my picture was not even touched.
-It hangs over the Italian cabinet. But when I heard it I thought my
-heart would break, for the letters are in the Italian cabinet, and I
-knew that some day when I am gone--perhaps not for a long time, but some
-day--Arthur would open that cabinet--my business papers are in it,
-too--and would find the letters."
-
-Cuckoo's weak, metallic voice weakened yet more.
-
-"And he would see I had deceived him for years, and that Arty is not his
-child. Arthur was so pleased when Arty was born."
-
-There was an awful silence; the ice dripped in the pail.
-
-"I don't mind what happens to me," said Cuckoo, "or what hell I go to,
-if only Arthur might stay loving me when I'm gone, as he always
-has--from the very first."
-
-"What do you want me to do?" said Janet.
-
-"I want you to go up to the flat without being seen, and burn those
-letters. Try and go up by the main staircase. They may let you if you
-bluff them; I could do it;--and it may not be burnt out at the top as
-they say. If it really is burnt out, you must go up by the iron
-staircase. If they won't let you pass, bribe the policeman: you must go
-up all the same. The letters are in the lowest left-hand drawer of the
-Italian cabinet. The key--O my God! The key! Where is the key?"
-
-Cuckoo's mind, brought to bay, rose unflinching.
-
-"The key is on the pearl chain that I wear every day. But where is the
-chain? Let me think. I had it on. I know I had it on. I wear the pearls
-against my neck, under my gown. I was in my dressing-gown. Then I had it
-on. Look on the billiard-table."
-
-Janet looked.
-
-"Look on the mantelpiece. I saw the nurse put something down there which
-she took off me."
-
-Janet looked. "There is a miniature of Arty on a ribbon."
-
-"I had it in my hand when the alarm reached me. Look on me. Perhaps I
-have got it on still."
-
-Janet unfastened the neck of the dressing-gown, which, though lacerated
-by the nurse's scissors, still retained the semblance of a garment.
-After an interminable moment she drew out a pearl chain.
-
-"Thank God!" said Cuckoo. "Don't raise my head; I might die if you did,
-and I can't die yet. Break the chain. There! Now the key slips off. Take
-it, go up, and burn the letters. There are a good many, but you will
-know them because they are tied with my hair. The lowest left-hand
-drawer, remember. You will burn them--there are some matches on the
-mantelpiece behind Arthur's photograph--and wait till they are really
-burnt. Will you do this, Janet?"
-
-"I will."
-
-"And will you promise me that, whatever happens, you will never tell any
-one that you have burnt anything?"
-
-"I promise."
-
-"You swear it?"
-
-"I swear it."
-
-"Let me see; you must have some reason for going, in case you are seen.
-If you are asked, say I sent you to see if my picture was uninjured. I
-am a vain woman. Anyone will believe that. Stick to that if you are
-questioned. And now go. Go at once. And throw away the key when you have
-locked up the cabinet. I shall not be able to be alone with you again,
-Janet. Arthur won't leave me a second time. When you come back, stand
-where I can see you; and if you have destroyed everything put your hand
-against your forehead. I shall understand. I shall not be able to thank
-you, but I shall thank you in my heart, and I shall die in peace. Now
-go, and tell Arthur to come back to me."
-
-Janet found Monkey Brand in the antechamber, his ashen, ravaged face
-turned with dog-like expectancy towards the billiard-room door, waiting
-for it to open. Without a word, he went back to his wife.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI
-
- "... a strong man from the North,
- Light-locked, with eyes of dangerous grey."
-
-
-It was a little after twelve as Janet entered the central hall, and the
-salvage men were coming down for their dinner. A cord had been stretched
-across the foot of the grand staircase, and a policeman guarded it. As
-Janet hesitated, a young man and woman came boldly up to him, and
-demanded leave to pass.
-
-"I can't let you up, sir," said the policeman. "It ain't safe."
-
-"I have the right to go up to my own flat on the fourth floor," said the
-man. "Here is my card. You will observe my address of these Mansions is
-printed on it."
-
-"Yes, my lord; certainly, my lord," said the policeman, looking at the
-card with respect. "The fire ain't touched anything lower than the fifth
-floor; but we have to keep a sharp look-out, as a many strange
-characters are about trying to get up, to see what they can lay hands
-on."
-
-Janet had drawn up close behind the young couple, and when the cord was
-withdrawn went upstairs as if with them. They did not even see her. They
-were talking eagerly to each other. When they reached the first landing
-she slackened her pace, and let them go on in front.
-
-The fire had broken out on the seventh floor of the great block of
-buildings, and had raged slowly downwards to the sixth and fifth. But at
-first, as Janet mounted the sodden staircase, there was hardly any trace
-of the devastation save in the wet, streaked walls, and the constant
-dropping of water from above.
-
-But the fourth floor bore witness. The ceilings were scored with great
-cracks. The plaster had fallen in places, and everything--walls,
-ceilings, doors, and passages--was blackened as if licked by great
-tongues of smoke.
-
-The young couple were standing at the further end of a long empty
-passage, trying to open a door. As Janet looked, she saw the man put his
-shoulder to it. Then she turned once more to the next flight of the
-staircase. It was strewn with wreckage. The bent iron banisters, from
-which the lead hung in congealed drops, supported awkwardly the
-contorted remains of the banisters from above, which had crashed down
-upon them. The staircase had ceased to be a staircase. It was a steep,
-sliding mass of fallen _débris_, down which the demon of fire had
-hurled, as into a well, the ghastly entrails of the havoc of his torture
-chambers above.
-
-Janet looked carefully at the remnants of the staircase. The heat had
-reached it, but not the fire. She climbed half way up it, securing a
-foothold where she could among the _débris_. But, halfway, the banisters
-from above blocked her passage, tilted crazily towards her,
-insurmountable. She dared not touch them for fear of bringing them, and
-an avalanche of piled rubbish behind them, down upon her. She turned
-back a few steps, deliberately climbed, in her short country skirt, over
-the still standing banisters, and, holding firmly by them, went up the
-remainder of the flight, cautious step by step, as she and Fred had done
-as children, finding a foothold where she could, and not allowing her
-eyes to look down into the well below her. At the next landing she
-climbed over the banisters again, felt them for a sickening moment give
-under her weight, and stopped to take breath and look round her.
-
-She was on the fifth floor.
-
-Even here the fire had not actually been, but the heaps of sodden ashes,
-the gaping, burst panels, the seared doors, the blackness of the
-disfigured passages, the long, distraught wires of the electric
-lighting, showed that heat had been here; blinding, scorching,
-blistering heat.
-
-The Brands' flat was on the sixth floor.
-
-Janet looked up once more, and even her steady eyes were momentarily
-daunted.
-
-The staircase was gone. A raging fire had swept up its two last flights
-as up a chimney, and had carried all before it. What the fire had
-refused it had flung down, choking up the landing below. Nothing
-remained of the staircase save the iron supports, sticking out of the
-wall like irregular, jagged teeth, and marking where each step of the
-stairs had been.
-
-Higher still a zinc bath remained sticking against the charred, naked
-wall. The bathroom had fallen from it. The bath and its twisted pipes
-remained. And above all the blue sky peered down as into a pit's mouth.
-
-Janet looked fixedly at the iron supports, and measured them with her
-eye. Her colour did not change, nor her breath quicken. She felt her
-strength in her. Then, hugging the black wall till it crumbled against
-her, and shading her eyes till they could see only where to tread, she
-went swiftly up those awful stairs, and reached the sixth floor.
-
-Then her strength gave way, and she sank down upon something soft, and
-shuddered. A faint sound made her look back.
-
-One of the supports, loosened by her footstep, stirred, and then fell.
-It fell a long way.
-
-Even her marvellous inapprehensiveness was shaken. But her still courage
-returned to her, the quiet confidence that enabled her to break in
-nervous horses with which her recklessly foolhardy brother could do
-nothing.
-
-Janet rose slowly to her feet, catching them as she did so in something
-soft. Stamped into the charred grime of the concrete floor by the feet
-of the firemen were the remains of a sable cloak, which, as her foot
-touched it, showed a shred of rose-coloured lining. A step further her
-foot sank into a heap of black rags, evidently hastily flung down by one
-in headlong flight, through the folds of which gold embroidery and a
-pair of jewelled clasps gleamed faintly.
-
-Janet stood still a moment in what had been the heart of the fire. The
-blast of the furnace had roared down that once familiar passage, leaving
-a charred, rent hole, half filled up and silted out of all shape by
-ashes. Nevertheless her way lay down it.
-
-She crept stumbling along it with bent head. Surely the Brands' flat was
-exactly here, on the left, near the head of the staircase. But she could
-recognise nothing.
-
-She stopped short at a gaping cavity that had once been a doorway, and
-looked through it into what had once been a bedroom. The fire had swept
-all before it. If there had once been a floor and walls, and ceiling and
-furniture, all was gone, leaving a seared, egg-shaped hole. From its
-shelving sides three pieces of contorted iron had rolled into the
-central puddle--all that was left of the bed.
-
-Could _this_ be the Brands' flat?
-
-Janet passed on, and peered through the next doorway. Here the flames
-had not raged so fiercely. The blackened semblance of a room was still
-there, but shrunk like a mummy, and ready to crumble at a touch. It must
-have been a servant's bedroom. The chest of drawers, the bed, were still
-there in outline, but all ashes. On pegs on the wall hung ghosts of
-gowns and hats, as if drawn in soot. On the chest of drawers stood the
-effigy of a bedroom candlestick, with the extinguisher over it.
-
-Yes, it was the Brands' flat. The outer door and little entrance hall
-had been wiped out, and she was inside it. This evidently had been the
-drawing-room. Here were signs as of some frightful conflict, as if the
-room had resisted its fate to the death, and had only been overpowered
-after a hideous struggle.
-
-The wall-paper hung in tatters on the wall. Remnants of furniture were
-flung about in all directions. The door was gone. The windows were gone.
-The bookcase was gone, leaving no trace, but the books it had contained
-had been thrown all over the room in its downfall, and lay for the most
-part unscorched, pell-mell, one over the other. Among the books crouched
-an agonised tangle of wires--all that was left of Cuckoo's grand piano.
-The pictures had leapt wildly from the walls to join in the conflict. A
-few pieces of strewed gilding, as if torn asunder with pincers, showed
-their fate. Horror brooded over the place as over the dead body of one
-who had fought for his life, and died by torture, whom the destroyer had
-not had time to mutilate past recognition.
-
-Had the wind changed, and had the fiend of fire been forced to obey it,
-and leave his havoc unfinished? Yes, the wind must have changed, for at
-the next step down the passage, Janet reached Cuckoo's boudoir.
-
-The door had fallen inward, and by some miracle the whole strength of
-the flames had rushed down the passage, leaving even the door unburnt.
-Janet walked over the door into the little room and stood amazed.
-
-The fire had passed by on the other side. Everything here was untouched,
-unchanged. The yellow china cat with an immensely long neck was still
-seated on its plush footstool on the hearthrug. On the sofa lay an open
-fashion paper, where Cuckoo had laid it down. On every table photographs
-of Cuckoo smiled in different attitudes. The gaudy room, with its damask
-panels, bore no trace of smoke, nor even of heat, save that the two
-palms in tubs, and the hydrangeas in the fireplace, were shrivelled up,
-and in the gilt bird-cage in the window was a tiny, motionless form,
-with outstretched wings, that would fain have flown away.
-
-For a moment Janet forgot everything except the bullfinch--the piping
-bullfinch that Monkey Brand had given to his wife. She ran to the cage,
-brushing against the palms, which made a dry rustling as she passed, and
-bent over the little bird.
-
-"Bully," she said. "Bully!" For that was the name which, after much
-thought, Monkey Brand had bestowed upon it.
-
-But "Bully" did not move. He was pressed against the bars of his Chinese
-pagoda, with his head thrown back and his beak open. "Bully" had known
-fear before he died.
-
-Janet suddenly remembered the great fear which some one else was
-enduring, to whom death was coming, and she turned quickly from the
-window.
-
-De Rivaz's extraordinary portrait of Cuckoo smiled at Janet from the
-wall, in all its shrewd, vulgar prettiness. The hard, calculating blue
-eyes, which could stare down the social ladder so mercilessly, were
-mercilessly portrayed. The careful touch of rouge on the cheek and
-carmine on the lip were faithfully rendered. The manicured, plebeian
-hands were Cuckoo's, and none but Cuckoo's. The picture was a studied
-insult, save in the eyes of Monkey Brand, who saw in it the reflection,
-imperfect and inadequate, but still the reflection of the one creature
-whom, in his money-getting life, he had found time to love.
-
-Janet never could bear to look at it, and she turned her eyes away.
-
-Directly underneath the picture stood the Italian cabinet, with its
-ivory figures let into ebony. It was untouched, as Cuckoo had feared.
-The mermaid was still tranquilly riding a whale on the snaffle, in the
-midst of a sea with a crop of dolphins' tails sticking up through it.
-
-Janet fitted the key into the lock, and then instinctively turned to
-shut the door. But the door lay prone upon the floor. She stole into the
-passage and listened.
-
-There were voices somewhere out of sight. Human voices seemed strangely
-out of place in this cindered grave. They came nearer. A tall,
-heavily-built man came stooping round the corner, with another shorter,
-slighter one behind him.
-
-"The floors are concrete; it's all right," said the first man.
-
-Janet retreated into the room again, to wait till they had passed. But
-they were in no hurry. They both glanced into the room, and, seeing her,
-went on.
-
-"Here you have one of the most extraordinary effects of fire," said the
-big man, stopping at the next doorway. "This was once a drawing-room. If
-you want to paint a realistic picture, here is your subject."
-
-"I would rather paint an angel in the pit's mouth," said the younger man
-significantly, leaning his delicate, artist hand against the charred
-doorpost. "Do you think, Vanbrunt, this is a safe place for angels
-without wings to be going about alone? You say the floors are safe, but
-are they?"
-
-Stephen Vanbrunt considered a moment.
-
-Then he turned back to the room where Janet was. He did not enter it,
-but stood in the doorway, nearly filling it up--a tall,
-powerfully-built, unyouthful-looking man with shaggy eyebrows and a
-grim, clean-shaved face and heavy jaw. You may see such a face and
-figure any day in the Yorkshire mines or in a stone-mason's yard.
-
-The millionaire took off his hat with a large blackened hand, and said
-to Janet: "I trust the salvage men have warned you that the passages on
-your right are unsafe?" He pointed towards the way by which she had
-come. It was evidently an effort to him to speak to her. He was a shy
-man.
-
-His voice was deep and gentle. It gave the same impression of strength
-behind it that a quiet wave does of the sea. He stood with his head
-thrown slightly back, an austere, massive figure, not without a certain
-dignity. And as he looked at Janet, there was just room in his narrow,
-near-sighted slits of eyes for a stern kindliness to shine through.
-Children and dogs always made a bee-line for Stephen.
-
-As Janet did not answer, he said again.
-
-"I trust you will not attempt to go down the passage to your right. It
-is not safe."
-
-"No," said Janet, and she remembered her instructions. "I am only here
-to see if De Rivaz' picture of Mrs Brand is safe."
-
-"Here is De Rivaz himself," said Stephen. "May we come in a moment and
-look at it? I am afraid I came in without asking last night, with the
-police inspector."
-
-"Do come in," said Janet.
-
-The painter came in, and glanced at the picture.
-
-"It's all right," he said indifferently. "Not even a lick of smoke.
-But," he added, looking narrowly at Janet, "if Mr Brand wishes it I will
-send a man I can trust to revarnish it."
-
-"Thank you," said Janet.
-
-"Here is my card," he continued, still looking at her.
-
-"Thank you," said Janet again, wondering when they would go.
-
-"You are, no doubt, a relation of the Brands?" he continued desperately.
-
-"I am a friend."
-
-"I will come and see Mr Brand about the picture," continued the young
-man, stammering. "May I ask you to be so kind as to tell him so?"
-
-"I will tell him," said Janet; and she became very pale. While this man
-was manufacturing conversation Cuckoo was dying--was dying, waiting with
-her eyes on the door. She turned instinctively to Stephen for help.
-
-But he had forgotten her. He was looking intently at the dead bird in
-the cage, was touching its sleek head with a large gentle finger.
-
-"You are well out of it, my friend," he said below his breath. "It is
-not good to be afraid, but it was a short agony. And it is over. You
-will not be afraid again. You are well out of it. No more prison bars.
-No more stretching of wings to fly with that may never fly. No more
-years of servitude for a cruel woman's whim. You are well out of it."
-
-He looked up and met Janet's eyes.
-
-"We are trespassers," he said instantly. "We have taken a mean advantage
-of your kindness in letting us come in. De Rivaz, I will show you a
-background for your next picture a few yards further on. Mr Brand knows
-me," he continued, producing a card in his turn. "We do business
-together. He is my tenant here. Will you kindly tell him I ventured to
-bring Mr De Rivaz into the remains of his flat to make a sketch of the
-effects of fire?"
-
-"I will tell him," said Janet, only half attending, and laying the card
-beside De Rivaz'. Would they never go?
-
-They did go immediately, Stephen peremptorily aiding the departure of
-the painter.
-
-When they were in the next room De Rivaz leaned up against the blackened
-wall, and said hoarsely: "Vanbrunt, did you see her?"
-
-"Of course I saw her."
-
-"But I must paint her. I must know her. I shall go back and ask her to
-sit to me."
-
-"You will do no such thing. You will immediately apply yourself to this
-scene of desolation, or I shall take you away. Look at this
-charnel-house. What unchained devils have raged in it! It is jealousy
-made visible. What is the use of a realistic painter like yourself, who
-can squeeze all romance out of life till the whole of existence is as
-prosaic as a string of onions; what is the use of a wretched worm like
-you making one of your horrible portraits of that beautiful, innocent
-face?"
-
-"I shall paint her if I live," said De Rivaz, glaring at his friend. "I
-know beauty when I see it."
-
-"No, you don't. You see everything ugly, even beauty of a high order.
-Look at your picture of me."
-
-Both men laughed.
-
-"I will paint her," said De Rivaz. "Half the beauty of so-called
-beautiful women is loathsome to me because of the sordid or frivolous
-soul behind it. But I will paint a picture of that woman which will show
-to the world, and even to rhinoceros-hided sceptics like you, Vanbrunt,
-that I can make the beauty of the soul shine through even a beautiful
-face, as I have made mean souls shine through lovely faces. I shall fall
-damnably in love with her while I do it, but that can't be helped. And
-the picture will make her and me famous."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII
-
- "Doch wenn du sagst, 'Ich liebe dich,'
- Dann muss Ich weinen bitterlich."
-
-
-Janet listened to the retreating footsteps, and then flew to the
-cabinet.
-
-The key would not turn, and for one sickening moment, while she wrenched
-clumsily at it, she feared she was not going to succeed in opening the
-cabinet. Janet had through life a great difficulty in all that involved
-delicate manipulation, except a horse's mouth. If a lock resisted, she
-used force, generally shooting it; if the hinge of a door gave, she
-jammed it. But in this instance, contrary to her usual experience, the
-lock did turn at last, and the whole front of the cabinet, dolphins and
-mermaid and all, came suddenly forwards towards her, disclosing within a
-double tier of ebony drawers, all exquisitely inlaid with ivory, and
-each having its tiny, silver-scrolled lock.
-
-Some water had dripped on to the cabinet from a damp place in the
-ceiling, and a few drops had penetrated down to the inner drawers,
-rusting the silver of the lowest drawer--the left-hand one.
-
-Janet fitted the key into it. It turned easily, but the drawer resisted.
-It came out a little way, and then stuck. It was quite full. Janet gave
-another pull, and the narrow, shallow drawer came out, with
-difficulty--but still, it did come out.
-
-On the top, methodically folded, were some hand-written directions for
-fancy work. Cuckoo never did any needlework. Janet raised them, and
-looked underneath. Where was the packet tied with hair? It was nowhere
-to be seen. There were a quantity of letters loosely laid together.
-Could these be they? Evidently they had not been touched for a long
-time, for the grime of London air and fog had settled on them. Janet
-wiped the topmost with her handkerchief, and a few words came clearly
-out: "My darling. My treasure." Her handkerchief had touched something
-loose in the corner of the drawer. Could this dim, moth-fretten lock
-have once been Cuckoo's yellow hair? Even as she looked, out of it came
-a moth, dragging itself slowly over the face of the letter, opening its
-unused wings. It crawled up over the rusted silver scroll-work, and flew
-away into the room.
-
-Yes. These must be the letters. They had been tied once, and the moth
-had eaten away the tie. She took them carefully up. There were a great
-many. She gathered them all together, as she thought; looked again at
-the back of the drawer to make sure, and found a few more, with a little
-gilt heart rusted into them. Then she replaced the needlework
-directions, pushed to the drawer--which resisted again, and then went
-back into its place--locked it, extracted the key, locked the cabinet,
-and threw the key out of a broken pane of the window. She saw it light
-on the roof lower down, and slide into the safe keeping of the gutter.
-
-Then she moved away the shrivelled hydrangeas which stood in the
-fire-place, and put the letters into the empty grate. Once more she went
-to the door and listened. All was quite still. She came back. On the
-chimney-piece stood a photograph of Monkey Brand grinning smugly through
-its cracked glass. Behind it was a silver match-box with a pig on it,
-and "Scratch me" written on it. Cuckoo affected everything she called
-"quaint."
-
-Janet struck a match, knelt down, and held it to the pile of letters.
-
-But love-letters never yet burned easily. Perhaps they have passed
-through the flame of life, and after that no feebler fire can reach them
-quickly. The fire shrank from them, and match after match went out,
-flame after flame wavered, and refused to meddle with them.
-
-After wasting time in several exactly similar attempts when one failure
-would have been sufficient, Janet opened and crumpled some of them to
-let the air get to them. The handwriting was strangely familiar. She
-observed the fact without reasoning on it. Then she sprinkled the
-remainder of the letters on the top of the crumpled ones, and again set
-the pile alight.
-
-The fire got hold now. It burned up fiercely, bringing down upon itself
-the upper letters, which toppled into the heart of the miniature
-conflagration much as the staircase must have toppled on to the stairs
-below, in the bigger conflagration of yesterday. How familiar the
-handwriting was! How some of the sentences shone out as if written in
-fire on black sheets: "Love like ours can never fade." The words faded
-out at once, as the dying letters gave up the ghost--the ghost of dead
-love. Janet gazed fascinated. Another letter fell in, opening as it
-fell, disclosing a photograph. Fred's face looked full at Janet for a
-moment out of the little greedy flames that licked it up. Janet drew
-back trembling, suddenly sick unto death.
-
-Fred's face! Fred's writing!
-
-She trembled so violently that she did not notice that the smoke was no
-longer going up the chimney, but was filling the room. The chimney was
-evidently blocked higher up.
-
-She was so paralysed that she did not notice a light footfall in the
-passage, and a figure in the doorway. Janet was not of those who see
-behind their backs. The painter, alarmed by the smoke, stood for a
-moment, brush in hand, looking fixedly at her. Then his eye fell on the
-smoking papers in the grate, and he withdrew noiselessly.
-
-It was out now. The second fire was out. What violent passions had been
-consumed in it! That tiny fire in the grate seemed to Janet more black
-with horror than the appalling scene of havoc in the next room. She
-knelt down and parted the hot films of the little bonfire. There was no
-scrap of paper left. The thing was done.
-
-Then she noticed the smoke, and her heart stood still.
-
-She pushed the cinders into the back of the grate with her hands,
-replaced the hydrangeas in the fire-place, and ran to the window. But
-the wood-work was warped by the heat. It would not open. She wasted
-time trying to force it, and then broke the glass and let in the air.
-But the air only blew the smoke out into the passage. It was like a bad
-dream. She seized the prostrate door, and tried to raise it. But it was
-too heavy for her.
-
-She stood up panting, watching the telltale smoke curl lightly through
-the doorway.
-
-More steps in the passage.
-
-She went swiftly into the next room, and stood in the doorway. The lift
-man came cautiously down the passage, accompanied by an alert,
-spectacled young man, notebook in hand. The lift man bore the
-embarrassed expression of one whose sense of duty has succumbed before
-too large a tip. The young man had the decided manner of one who intends
-to have his money's worth.
-
-"Where are we now?" he said, scribbling for dear life, his spectacles
-turning all ways at once. "I don't like this smoke. Can the beastly
-place be on fire still?"
-
-But the lift man had caught sight of Janet, and the sight of her was
-obviously unwelcome.
-
-"The floors ain't safe here," he said confusedly. "There's a deal more
-damage to be seen in the left wing."
-
-"Is there?" said the young man drily. "We'll go there next"; and he went
-on peering and scribbling.
-
-A voice in the distance shouted imperiously, "Number Two, where does
-this smoke come from?"
-
-There was a plodding of heavy, hastening feet above.
-
-In an instant the young man and the lift man had disappeared round the
-corner.
-
-Janet ran swiftly down the black passage along which they had come,
-almost brushing against the painter in her haste, without perceiving
-him. She flew on, recognising by instinct the once familiar way to the
-central hall on each landing. Here it was at last. She paused a moment
-by the gaping lift, and then walked slowly to the head of the iron outer
-staircase.
-
-A policeman was speaking austerely to a short, stout, shabbily-dressed
-woman of determined aspect, who bore the unmistakable stamp of those
-whose unquenchable desire it is to be where their presence is not
-desired, where it is even deprecated.
-
-"Only ladies and gents with passes is admitted," the policeman was
-saying.
-
-"But how can I get a pass?"
-
-"I don't precisely know," said the policeman cautiously, "but I know it
-must be signed by Mr Vanbrunt or Mr Brown."
-
-"I am the Duchess of Quorn, and I am an intimate friend of Mr Vanbrunt."
-
-Janet passed the couple with a beating heart. But apparently there were
-no restrictions about persons going out, only about those trying to get
-in. The policeman made way for her at once, and she went down
-unchallenged.
-
- * * * * *
-
-In the billiard-room time was waxing short; was obviously running out.
-
-The child had arrived from the country with his nurse. Monkey Brand
-took him in his arms at the door, and knelt down with him beside Cuckoo.
-
-"Arty has come to say 'good-morning' to Mammy," he said, in a strangled,
-would-be cheerful voice.
-
-Cuckoo looked at the child wildly for a moment, as the little laughing
-face came within the radius of her fading sight. She suffered the cool,
-flower-like cheek to touch hers, but then she whispered to her husband,
-"Take him away. I want only you."
-
-He took Arty back to his nurse, holding him closely to him, and returned
-to her.
-
-Death seemed to have advanced a step nearer with the advent of the
-child.
-
-They both waited for it in silence.
-
-"Don't kneel, Arthur," said Cuckoo at last. "You will be so tired."
-
-He obediently drew up a little stool, and crouched hunched up upon it,
-her cold hand between his cold hands.
-
-"Is there any one at the door?" she asked, after an age of silence.
-
-"No one, dearest; we are quite alone."
-
-"I should like to see Janet to say 'good-bye.'"
-
-"Must I go and look for her?"
-
-"No. I sent her to see if my picture was really safe. It is all you will
-have to remember me by. She will come and tell me directly."
-
-"I do not want any picture of you, Cuckoo."
-
-Another silence.
-
-"I can't wait much longer," said Cuckoo below her breath; but he heard
-it. "Are you sure there is no one at the door, Arthur?"
-
-"No one."
-
-Silence again.
-
-"Ask God to have pity on me," said Cuckoo faintly. "Isn't there some one
-coming in now?"
-
-"No one."
-
-"Ask God to have pity on us both," said Cuckoo again. "Pray so that I
-can hear."
-
-But apparently Monkey Brand could not pray aloud.
-
-"Say something to make the time pass," she whispered.
-
-"The Lord is my Shepherd," said Monkey Brand brokenly, his mind throwing
-back thirty years; "I shall not want. He leadeth me beside the still
-waters. He----"
-
-"I seem to hear steps," interrupted Cuckoo.
-
-"He leadeth me beside the still waters. Yea, though I walk"--the voice
-broke down--"though I walk in the valley of the shadow of----"
-
-"Some one is coming in now," said Cuckoo, in a faint, acute voice.
-
-"It is Janet."
-
-"I can't see her plainly. Tell her to come nearer."
-
-He beckoned to Janet.
-
-"I can see her now," said Cuckoo, the blindness of death in her wide
-eyes, which stared vacantly where Janet was not; "at least, I see some
-one. Isn't she holding her hand to her forehead?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-The last tears Cuckoo was destined to shed stood in her blind eyes.
-
-"Good-bye, dear Janet," she gasped.
-
-"Good-bye, Cuckoo."
-
-"Send her away. Is she quite gone, Arthur?"
-
-"Yes, dearest."
-
-"I must go too. I don't know how to leave you, but I must. I cannot see
-you, but you are with me in the darkness. Take me in your arms and let
-me die in them. Is that your cheek against mine? How cold it is! Hold
-your dear hands to my face that I may kiss them too. They have been
-kind, kind hands to me. How my poor Arthur trembles! You were too good
-for me, Arthur. You have been the only real friend I've ever had in the
-world. More than father and mother to me. More than any one."
-
-"You did love me, little one?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Only me?"
-
-"Only you."
-
-He burst into a passion of tears.
-
-"Forgive me for having doubted you," he said hoarsely.
-
-"Did you ever doubt me?"
-
-"Yes, once. I ought to have known better. I can't forgive myself.
-Forgive me, my wife."
-
-Cuckoo was silent. Death was hard upon her, heavy on voice and breath.
-
-"Say, 'Arthur, I forgive you,'" whispered her husband through the
-darkness.
-
-"Arthur, I forgive you," said Cuckoo with a sob. And her head fell
-forward on his breast.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII
-
- "But it was even thou, my companion, my guide,
- and mine own familiar friend."
-
-
-It was not until Janet was sitting alone in the room she had taken at an
-hotel that her dazed mind began to recover itself. It did not recoil in
-horror from the remembrance of that grim ascent to the flat. It did not
-dwell on Cuckoo's death.
-
-Janet said over and over again to herself, in tearless anguish, "Cuckoo
-and Fred! Cuckoo and Fred!"
-
-The shock had succeeded to a great strain, and she succumbed to it.
-
-She sat on her box in the middle of the room hour after hour in the
-stifling heat. The afternoon sun beat in on her, but she did not pull
-down the blind. There was an armchair in the corner, but Janet
-unconsciously clung to the box, as the only familiar object in an
-unfamiliar world. Late in the afternoon, when Anne found her, Janet was
-still sitting on it, gazing in front of her, with an untasted cup of tea
-beside her, which the chambermaid had brought her.
-
-Anne sat down on the box and put her arms round her.
-
-"My dear," she said; "my dear."
-
-And Janet said no word, but hid her convulsed face on Anne's shoulder.
-
-Janet had a somewhat confused remembrance of what happened after that.
-Anne ordered, and she obeyed, and there was another journey in a cab,
-and presently she was sitting in a cool, white bedroom leading out of
-Anne's room; at least Anne said it did. Anne came in and out now and
-then, and forced her to drink a cup of milk, and smoothed her hair with
-a very tender hand. But Janet made no response.
-
-Anne was of those who do not despise the little things of life. She saw
-that Janet was suffering from a great shock, and she sent for the only
-child there was in the great, dreary London house--the vulgar kitchen
-kitten belonging to the cook.
-
-Anne silently held the warm, sleepy kitten against Janet's cheek. It
-purred when it was touched, and then fell asleep, a little ball of
-comfort against Janet's neck. The white, over-strained face relaxed.
-Anne's gentle touch and presence had not achieved that, but the kitten
-did. Two large tears rolled down into its fur.
-
-The peace and comfort and physical well-being of feeling a little life
-warm--asleep, pressed close against you, is perhaps not new. Perhaps it
-goes back as far as the wilderness, which ceased to be a wilderness when
-Eve brought forth her firstborn in it. I think she must have forgotten
-all about her lost Garden of Eden when she first heard the breathing of
-her sleeping child against her bosom. The brambles and the thorns would
-prick very little after that.
-
-Later on, when Anne came in softly, Janet was asleep, with the kitten on
-her shoulder.
-
-An hour later Anne came in once more in a wonderful white gown, and
-stood a moment watching Janet. Anne was not excited, but a little tumult
-was shaking her, as a summer wind stirs and ripples all the surface of a
-deep-set pool. She knew that she would meet Stephen to-night at the
-dinner-party for which she was already late, and that knowledge, though
-long experience had taught her that it was useless to meet him, that he
-would certainly not speak to her if he could help it, still the
-knowledge that she should see him caused a faint colour to burn in her
-pale cheek, a wavering light in her grave eyes, a slight tremor of her
-whole delicate being. She looked, as she stood in the half-light, a
-woman to whose exquisite hands even a poet might have entrusted his
-difficult, double-edged love, much more a hard man of business such as
-Stephen.
-
-Janet's face, which had been so wan, was flushed a deep red. She stirred
-uneasily, and began speaking hoarsely and incoherently.
-
-"All burnt," she said, over and over again. "All burnt. Nothing left."
-
-Anne laid down the fan she held in her hand, and drew a step nearer.
-
-Janet suddenly sat up, opened her eyes to a horrible width, and stared
-at her.
-
-"I have burnt them all, Fred," she said, looking full at Anne.
-"Everything. There is nothing left. I promised I would, and I have. But
-oh! Fred, how could you do it? How could you, could you, do it?" And she
-burst into a low cry of anguish.
-
-Anne took her by the arm.
-
-"You are dreaming, Janet," she said. "Wake up. Look! You are here with
-me, Anne--your friend."
-
-Janet winced, and her eyelids quivered. Then she looked round her
-bewildered, and said in a more natural voice: "I don't know where I am.
-I thought I was at home with Fred."
-
-"I have sent for your brother, and he will come and take you home
-to-morrow."
-
-"Something dreadful has happened," said Janet. "It is like a stone on my
-head. It crushes me, but I don't know what it is."
-
-Anne looked gravely at Janet, and half unconsciously unclasped the thin
-chain, with its heavy diamond pendant, from her neck. Her hand trembled
-as she did it. She was not thinking of Janet at that moment. "I shall
-not see him to-night," she was saying to herself. And the delicate
-colour faded, the hidden tumult died down. She was calm and practical
-once more. She wrote a note, sent it down to the waiting carriage to
-deliver, got quickly out of the flowing white gown into a
-dressing-gown, and returned to Janet.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Fred came to London the following day. Even his mercurial nature was
-distressed at Cuckoo's sudden death, and at Janet's wan, fixed face. But
-he felt that if his sister must be ill, she could not be better placed
-than in that ducal household. A good many persons among Fred's
-acquaintances heard of Janet's illness during the next few days, and of
-the kindness of the Duke and Duchess of Quorn.
-
-The Duke and Duchess really were kind. The benevolence of so
-down-trodden and helpless a creature as the Duke--who was of no
-importance except in affairs of the realm, where he was a power--his
-kindness, of course, was of no account. But the Duchess rose to the
-occasion. She was one of those small, square, kind-hearted, determined
-women, with a long upper lip, whose faces are set on looking upwards,
-who can make life vulgarly happy for struggling, middle-class men, if
-they are poor enough to give their wives scope for an unceasing energy
-on their behalf. She was a _femme incomprise_, misplaced. By birth she
-was the equal of her gentle-mannered husband, but she was one of
-Nature's vulgarians all the same, and directly the thin gilt of a
-certain youthful prettiness wore off--she had been a plump, bustling
-little partridge at twenty--her innate commonness came obviously to the
-surface; in fact, it became the surface.
-
- "Age could not wither her, nor custom stale
- Her infinite vulgarity."
-
-There was no need for her to push, but she pushed. She made embarrassing
-jokes at the expense of her children. In society she was familiar where
-she should have been courteous, openly curious where she should have
-ignored, gratuitously confidential where she should have been reticent.
-She never realized the impression she made on others. She pursued her
-discomfortable objects of pursuit, namely, eligible young men and
-endless charities, with the same total disregard of appearances, the
-same ungainly agility, which an elderly hen will sometimes suddenly
-evince in chase of a butterfly.
-
-Some one had nicknamed her "the steam roller," and the name stuck to
-her.
-
-She was--perhaps not unnaturally--annoyed when Anne brought a stranger
-back to the house with her in the height of the season, and installed
-her in one of the spare rooms, while she herself was absent, talking
-loudly at a little musical tea-party. But when she saw Janet next day
-sitting in one of Anne's dressing-gowns in Anne's sitting-room, she
-instantly took a fancy to her; one of those heavy, prodding fancies
-which immediately investigate by questions--the Duchess never hesitated
-to ask questions--all the past life of the victim, as regards illnesses,
-illnesses of relations, especially if obscure and internal, cause of
-death of parents, present financial circumstances, etc. Janet, whose
-strong constitution rapidly rallied from the shock that had momentarily
-prostrated her, thought these subjects of conversation natural and even
-exhilarating. She was accustomed to them in her own society. The first
-time the Smiths had called on her at Ivy Cottage, had they not enquired
-the exact area of her little drawing-room? She found the society of the
-Duchess vaguely delightful and sympathetic, a welcome relief from her
-own miserable thoughts. And the Duchess told Janet in return about a
-very painful ailment from which the Duke suffered, and which it
-distressed him "to hear alluded to," and all about Anne's millionaire.
-When, a few days later, Janet was able to travel, the Duchess parted
-from her with real regret, and begged her to come and stay with them
-again after her marriage.
-
-Anne seemed to have receded from Janet during these last days. Perhaps
-the Duchess had elbowed her out. Perhaps Anne divined that Janet had
-been told all about her unfortunate love affair. Anne's patient dignity
-had a certain remoteness in it. Her mother, whose hitherto thinly-draped
-designs on Stephen were now clothed only in the recklessness of
-despair, made Anne's life well-nigh unendurable to her at this time, a
-constant mortification of her refinement and her pride. She withdrew
-into herself. And perhaps also Anne was embarrassed by the knowledge
-that she had inadvertently become aware, when Janet's mind had wandered,
-of something connected with the burning of papers which Janet was
-concealing, and which, as Anne could see, was distressing her more even
-than the sudden death of Mrs Brand.
-
-Fred took charge of his sister in an effusive manner when she was well
-enough to travel. She was very silent all the way home. She had become
-shy with her brother, depressed in his society. She had always known
-that evil existed in the world, but she had somehow managed to combine
-that knowledge with the comfortable conviction that the few people she
-cared for were "different." She observed nothing except what happened
-under her actual eyes, and then only if her eyes were forcibly turned in
-that direction.
-
-She knew Fred drank only because she had seen him drunk. The shaking
-hand, and broken nerve, and weakly-violent temper, the signs of
-intemperance when he was sober, were lost upon her. She dismissed them
-with the reflection that Fred was like that. Cause and effect did not
-exist for Janet. And those for whom they do not exist sustain heavy
-shocks.
-
-Cuckoo her friend, and Fred her brother!
-
-The horror of that remembrance never left her during these days. She
-could not think about it. She could only silently endure it.
-
-Poor Janet did not realize even now that the sole reason why Cuckoo had
-made friends with her was in order to veil the intimacy with her
-brother. The hard, would-be smart woman would not, without some strong
-reason, have made much of so unfashionable an individual as Janet in the
-first instance, though there was no doubt that in the end Cuckoo had
-grown fond of Janet for her own sake. And her genuine liking for the
-sister had survived the rupture with the brother.
-
-The dog-cart was waiting for Fred and Janet at Mudbury, and, as they
-drove in the dusk through the tranquil country lanes, Janet drew a long
-breath.
-
-"You must not take on about Mrs Brand's death too much," said Fred at
-last, who had also been restlessly silent for the greater part of the
-journey.
-
-Janet did not answer.
-
-"We must all die some day," continued Fred. "It's the common lot. I did
-not like Mrs Brand as much as you did, Janet. She was not my sort--but
-still--when I heard the news----"
-
-"I loved her," said Janet hoarsely. "I would have done anything for
-her."
-
-"You must cheer up," said Fred, "and try and look at the bright side.
-That was what the Duke was saying only yesterday when I called to thank
-him. He was in such a hurry that he hardly had a moment to spare, but I
-took a great fancy to him. No airs and soft sawder, and a perfect
-gentleman. I shall call again when next I am in London. I shan't forget
-their kindness to you."
-
-Again no answer.
-
-"It is your duty to cheer up," continued Fred. "George is coming over to
-see you to-morrow morning."
-
-"I think, don't you think, Fred," said Janet suddenly, "that George is
-good--really good, I mean?"
-
-"He is all right," said Fred. "Not exactly open-handed. You must lay
-your account for that, Janet. You'll find him a bit of a screw, or I'm
-much mistaken."
-
-Janet was too dazed to realize what Fred's discovery of George's
-meanness betokened.
-
-Silence again.
-
-They were nearing home. The lights of Ivy Cottage twinkled through the
-violet dusk. Janet looked at them without seeing them.
-
-Cuckoo her friend, and Fred her brother!
-
-"I suppose, Janet," said Fred suddenly, "you were not able to ask Mrs
-Brand--no--of course not----But perhaps you were able to put in a word
-for me to Brand about that--about waiting for his money?"
-
-"I never said anything to either of them," said Janet. "I never thought
-of it again. I forgot all about it."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX
-
- "Yea, each with the other will lose and win,
- Till the very Sides of the Grave fall in."
-
- --W. E. HENLEY.
-
-
-It was a summer night, hot and still, six weeks later, towards the end
-of July. Through the open windows of a house in Hamilton Gardens a
-divine voice came out into the listening night:--
-
- "She comes not when Noon is on the roses--
- Too bright is day.
- She comes not to the Soul till it reposes
- From work and play.
- But when Night is on the hills, and the great Voices
- Roll in from Sea,
- By starlight and by candlelight and dreamlight
- She comes to me."
-
-Stephen sat alone in Hamilton Gardens, a massive figure under a Chinese
-lantern, which threw an unbecoming light on his grim face and heavy
-brows, and laid on the grass a grotesque boulder of shadow of the great
-capitalist.
-
-I do not know what he was thinking about, as he sat listening to the
-song, biting what could only by courtesy be entitled his little finger.
-Was he undergoing a passing twinge of poetry? Did money occupy his
-thoughts?
-
-His impassive face betrayed nothing. When did it ever betray anything?
-
-He was not left long alone. Figures were pacing in the half-lit gardens,
-two and two.
-
-Prose rushed in upon him in the shape of a small square body,
-upholstered in grey satin, which trundled its way resolutely towards
-him.
-
-The Duchess feared neither God nor man, but if fear had been possible to
-her, it would have been for that dignified, yet elusive, personage, whom
-she panted to call her son-in-law.
-
-She sat down by him with anxiety and determination in her eyes.
-
-"By starlight, and by candlelight, and dreamlight she comes to me," said
-Stephen to himself, with a sardonic smile. "Also by daylight, and when
-noon is on the roses, and when I am at work and at play. In short, she
-always comes."
-
-"What a perfect night!" said the Duchess.
-
-"Perfect."
-
-"And that song--how beautiful!"
-
-"Beautiful."
-
-"I did not know you cared for poetry?"
-
-"I don't."
-
-Stephen added to other remarkable qualities that of an able and
-self-possessed liar. In business he was considered straight even by
-gentlemen, foolishly strait-laced by men of business. But to certain
-persons, and the Duchess was one of them, he never spoke the truth. He
-was wont to say that any lies he told he did not intend to account for,
-in this world or the next; and that the bill, if there was one, would
-never be sent in to him. He certainly had the courage of his
-convictions.
-
-"I want you to think twice of the disappointment you have given us all
-by not coming to us in Scotland this autumn. The Duke was really quite
-put out. He had so reckoned on your coming."
-
-Stephen did not answer. He had a colossal power of silence when it
-suited him. He had liked the Duke for several years before he had made
-the acquaintance of his family. The two men had met frequently on
-business, understood each other, and had almost reached friendship when
-the Duchess intervened, to ply her "savage trade." Since then a shade of
-distant politeness had tinged the Duke's manner towards Stephen, and the
-self-made man, sensitive to anything that resembled a sense of
-difference of class, instinctively drew away from him. Yet, if Stephen
-had but known it, the change in the Duke's manner was only owing to the
-unformulated suspicion that the father sometimes feels for the man,
-however eligible, whom he suspects of filching from him his favourite
-daughter.
-
-"We are _all_ disappointed," continued the Duchess, and her power of
-hitting on the raw did not fail her, for her victim winced--not
-perceptibly. She went on: "Do think of it again, Mr Vanbrunt. If you
-could see Larinnen in autumn--the autumn tints, you know--and no party.
-Just ourselves. And I am sure from your face you are a lover of Nature."
-
-"I hate Nature," said Stephen. "It bores me. I am very easily bored."
-
-He was longing to get away from London, to steep his soul in the
-sympathy of certain solitary woodland places he knew of, shy as himself;
-where perhaps the strain on his aching spirit might relax somewhat,
-where he could lie in the shade for hours, and listen to running water,
-and forget that he was a plain, middle-aged millionaire, whom a
-brilliant, exquisite creature could not love for himself.
-
-"When I said no party I did not mean quite alone," said the Duchess,
-breathing heavily, for a frontal attack is generally also an uphill one.
-"A few cheerful friends. How right you are! One does not see enough of
-one's real friends. Anne often says that. She said to me only yesterday,
-when we were talking of you----"
-
-The two liars were interrupted by the advance towards them of Anne and
-De Rivaz. They came silently across the shadowy grass, into the little
-ring of light thrown by the Chinese lantern.
-
-De Rivaz was evidently excited. His worn, cynical face looked boyish in
-the garish light.
-
-"Duchess," he said, "I have only just heard by chance from Lady Anne,
-that the unknown divinity whom I am turning heaven and earth to find, in
-order that I may paint her, has actually been staying under your roof,
-and that you intend to ask her again."
-
-"Mr De Rivaz means Janet Black," said Anne to her mother.
-
-"I implore you to ask me to meet her," said the painter.
-
-"But she is just going to be married," said the Duchess, with genuine
-regret. Here was an opportunity lost.
-
-"I know it; it breaks my heart to know it," said De Rivaz. "But married
-or not, maid, wife, or widow, I must paint her. Give me the chance of
-making her acquaintance."
-
-"I will do what I can," said the Duchess, gently tilting forward her
-square person on to its flat white satin feet, and looking with
-calculating approval at her daughter. Surely Anne had never looked so
-lovely as at this obviously propitious moment.
-
-"Take a turn with me, young man," continued the Duchess, "and I will see
-what I can do. And Anne," she said with a backward glance at her
-daughter, "try and persuade Mr Vanbrunt to come to us in September."
-
-"I will do my best," said Anne, and she sat down on the bench.
-
-Stephen, who had risen when she joined them, looked at her with shy,
-angry admiration.
-
-It was a new departure for Anne so openly to abet her mother, and it
-wounded him.
-
-"Won't you sit down again?" said Anne, meeting his eyes firmly. "I wish
-to speak to you."
-
-He sat down awkwardly. He was always awkward in her presence. Perhaps it
-was only a moment, but it seemed to him an hour while she kept silence.
-
-The same voice sang across the starlit dark:
-
- "Some souls have quickened, eye to eye,
- And heart to heart, and hand in hand;
- The swift fire leaps, and instantly
- They understand."
-
-Neither heard it. Nearer than the song, close between them some mighty
-enfolding presence seemed to have withdrawn them into itself. There is a
-moment when Love leaves the two hearts in which He dwells, and stands
-between them revealed.
-
-So far it has been man and woman and Love--three persons met painfully
-together, who cannot walk together, not being agreed. But the hour comes
-when in awe the man and woman perceive, what was always so from the
-beginning, that they twain are but one being, one foolish creature who,
-in a great blindness, thought it was two, mistook itself for two.
-
-Perhaps that moment of discovery of our real identity in another is the
-first lowest rung of the steep ladder of love. Does God, who flung down
-to us that nearest empty highway to Himself, does He wonder why so few
-travellers come up by it; why we go wearily round by such bitter
-sin-bogged, sorrow-smirched by-paths, to reach Him at last?
-
-There may be much love without that sense of oneness, but when it comes
-it can only come to two, it can only be born of a mutual love. Neither
-can feel it without the other. Anne knew that. By her love for him she
-knew he loved her. He was slower, more obtuse; yet even he, with his
-limited perceptions and calculating mind, even he nearly believed,
-nearly had faith, nearly asked her if she could love him.
-
-But the old self came to his perdition, the strong, shrewd, iron-willed
-self that had made him what he was, that had taught him to trust few, to
-follow his own judgment, that in his strenuous life had furnished him
-with certain dogged conventional ready-made convictions regarding women.
-Men he could judge, and did judge. He knew who would cheat him, who
-would fail him at a pinch, whom he could rely on. But of women he knew
-little. He regarded them as apart from himself, and did not judge them
-individually, but collectively. He knew how one of Anne's sisters,
-possibly more than one of them, had been coerced into marriage. He did
-not see that Anne belonged to a different class of being. His
-shrewdness, his bitter knowledge of the seamy side of a society to which
-he did not naturally belong, its uncouth passion for money, blinded him.
-
-He had become very pale while he sat by her, while poor Anne vainly
-racked her brain to remember what it was she wished to say to him. The
-overwhelming impulse to speak, to have it out with her, the thirst for
-her love was upon him. When was it not upon him? He looked at her
-fixedly, and his heart sank. How could she love him--she in her
-wand-like delicacy and ethereal beauty? She was not of his world, she
-was not made of the same clay. No star seemed so remote as this still
-dark-eyed woman beside him. How could she love him? No, the thing was
-impossible.
-
-A very ugly emotion laid violent momentary hold on him. Let him take her
-whether she cared for him or not. If money could buy her, let him buy
-her.
-
-He glanced sidelong at her, and then moved nearer to her. She turned
-her head, and looked full at him. She had no fear of him. The fierce,
-harsh face did not daunt her. She understood him, his stubborn humility,
-his blind love, this momentary hideous lapse, and knew that it was
-momentary.
-
-"Lady Anne," he said hoarsely, "will you marry me?"
-
-It had come at last, the word her heart had ached for so long. She did
-not think. She did not hesitate. She, who had so often been troubled by
-the mere sight of him across a room, was calm now. She looked at him
-with a certain gentle scorn.
-
-"No, thank you," she said.
-
-"I love you," he said, taking her hand. "I have long loved you."
-
-It was his hand that trembled. Hers was steady as she withdrew it.
-
-"I know," she said.
-
-"Then could not you think of me? I implore you to marry me."
-
-"You are speaking on impulse. We have hardly exchanged a word with each
-other for the last three months. You had no intention of asking me to
-marry you when you came here this evening."
-
-"I don't care what intentions I may or may not have had," said Stephen,
-his temper, always quick, rising at her self-possession. "I mean what I
-say now, and I have meant it ever since I first saw you."
-
-"Do you think I love you?"
-
-"I love you enough for both," he said with passion. "You are in my heart
-and my brain, and I can't tear you out. I can't live without you."
-
-"In old days, when you were not quite so rich, and not quite so
-worldly-wise, did you not sometimes hope to marry for love?"
-
-"I hope to marry for love now. Do you doubt that I love you?"
-
-"No, I don't. But have you never hoped to marry a woman who would care
-for you as much as you did for her?"
-
-"I can't expect that," said the millionaire. "I don't expect it. I'm
-not--I'm not the kind of man whom women easily love."
-
-"No," said Anne, "you're not."
-
-"But when I care, I care with my whole heart. Will you think this over,
-and give me an answer to-morrow?"
-
-"I have already answered you."
-
-"I beg you to reconsider it."
-
-"Why should I reconsider it?"
-
-"I would try to make you happy. Let me prove my devotion to you."
-
-She looked long at him, and she saw, without the possibility of
-deceiving herself, that if she told him she loved him he would not
-believe it. It was the conventional answer when a millionaire offers
-marriage, and he had a rooted belief in the conventional. After marriage
-it would be the same. He would think duty prompted it, her kiss, her
-caress. Oh! suffocating thought. She would be farther from him than ever
-as his wife.
-
-"I think we should get on together," he faltered, her refusal reaching
-him gradually, like a cold tide rising round him. "I had ventured to
-hope that you did not dislike me."
-
-"I do not dislike you," said Anne deliberately. "You are quite right.
-The thing I dislike is a mercenary marriage."
-
-He became ashen white. He rose slowly to his feet, and drawing near to
-her looked steadily at her, lightning in his eyes.
-
-"Do I deserve that insult?" he said, his voice hardly human in its
-suppressed rage.
-
-He looked formidable in the uncertain light.
-
-She confronted him unflinching.
-
-"Yes," she said, "you do. You calmly offer me marriage while you are
-firmly convinced that I don't care for you, and you are surprised--you
-actually dare to be surprised--when I refuse you. Those who offer
-insults must accept them."
-
-"I intended none, as you well know," he said, drawing back a step. He
-felt his strength in him, but this slight woman, whom he could break
-with one hand, was stronger than he.
-
-"Why should I marry you if I don't love you?" she went on. "Why, of
-course because you are Mr Vanbrunt, the greatest millionaire in
-England. Your choice has fallen on me. Let me accept with gratitude my
-brilliant fate, and if I don't actually dislike you, so much the better
-for both of us."
-
-Stephen continued to look hard at her, but he said nothing. Her beauty
-astonished him.
-
-"And what do we both lose," said Anne, "in such a marriage--you as well
-as I? Is it not the _one_ chance, the one hope of a mutual love? Is it
-so small a thing in your eyes that you can cast the possibility from you
-of a love that will meet yours and not endure it, the possibility of a
-woman somewhere, who might be found for diligent seeking, who might walk
-into your life without seeking, who would love you as much as"--Anne's
-voice shook--"perhaps even more than you love her;--to whom you--you
-yourself--stern and grim as you seem to many--might be the whole world?
-Have you always been so busy making this dreadful money, which buys so
-much, that you have forgotten the things that money can't buy? No; no.
-Do not let us lock each other out from the only thing worth having in
-this hard world. We should be companions in misfortune."
-
-She held out her hands to him with a sudden beautiful gesture, and
-smiled at him through her tears.
-
-He took her hands in his large grasp, and in his small quick eyes there
-were tears too.
-
-"We have both something to forgive each other," she said, trembling like
-a reed. "I have spoken harshly, and you unwisely. But the day will come
-when you will be grateful to me that I did not shut you out from the
-only love that could make you, of all men, really happy--the love that
-is returned."
-
-He kissed each hand gently, and released them. He could not speak.
-
-She went swiftly from him through the trees.
-
-"May God bless her," said Stephen. "May God in heaven bless her."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X
-
- "Thine were the weak, slight hands
- That might have taken this strong soul, and bent
- Its stubborn substance to thy soft intent."
-
- --WILLIAM WATSON.
-
-
-It was hard on Stephen that when he walked into a certain drawing-room
-the following evening he should find Anne there. It was doubly hard that
-he should have to take her in to dinner. Yet so it was. There ought to
-have been a decent interval before their next meeting. Some one had
-arranged tactlessly, without any sense of proportion. Though he had not
-slept since she left him in the garden, still it seemed only a moment
-ago, and that she was back beside him in an instant, without giving him
-time to draw breath.
-
-She met him as she always met him, with the faint enigmatical smile,
-with the touch of gentle respect never absent from her manner to him,
-except for one moment last night. He needed it. He had fallen in his
-own estimation during that sleepless night. He saw the sudden impulse
-that had goaded him into an offer of marriage--the kind of offer that
-how many men make in good faith--in its native brutality--as he knew she
-had seen it. When he first perceived her in the dimly-lighted room, and
-he was aware of her presence before he saw her, he felt he could not go
-towards her, as a man may feel that he cannot go home. Home for Stephen
-was wherever Anne was, even if the door were barred against him.
-
-But after a few minutes he screwed his "courage to the sticking-place,"
-and went up to her.
-
-"I am to take you in to dinner," he said. "It is your misfortune, but
-not my fault."
-
-"I am glad," she said. "I came to you last night because I had something
-urgent to say to you. I shall have an opportunity of saying it now."
-
-The constraint and awkwardness he had of late felt in her presence fell
-from him. It seemed as if they had gone back by some welcome short cut
-to the simple intercourse of the halcyon days when they had first met.
-
-He cursed himself for his mole-like obtuseness in having thought last
-night that she was playing into her mother's hands. When had she ever
-done so? Why had he suspected her?
-
-In the meanwhile the world was
-
- "At rest with will
- And leisure to be fair."
-
-The Duchess was not there, suddenly and mercifully laid low by that
-occasional friend of society--influenza. The Duke, gay and _débonnaire_
-in her absence, was beaming on his hostess whom he was to take into
-dinner, and to whom he was sentimentally linked by a mild flirtation in
-a past decade, a flirtation so mild that it had no real existence,
-except in the imaginative remembrance of both.
-
-Presently Anne and Stephen were walking in to dinner together. It was a
-large party, and they sat together at the end of the table.
-
-Anne did not wait this time. She began to talk at once.
-
-"I am anxious about a friend of mine," she said, "who is, I am afraid,
-becoming entangled in a far greater difficulty than she is aware. But it
-is a long story. Do you mind long stories?"
-
-"No."
-
-Stephen turned towards her, becoming a solid block of attention.
-
-"My friend is a Miss Black, a very beautiful woman, whom Mr De Rivaz is
-dying to paint. You may recollect having seen her where he saw her
-first, the day after the fire in Lowndes Mansions, in the burnt-out flat
-of that unfortunate Mrs Brand."
-
-"I saw her. I remember her perfectly. I spoke to her about the dangerous
-state of the passages. I thought her the most beautiful creature, bar
-none, I had ever seen."
-
-Stephen pulled himself up. He knew it was most impolitic to praise one
-woman to another. They did not like it. It was against the code. He
-must be more careful, or he should offend her again.
-
-Anne looked at him very pleasantly. Her eyes were good to meet. She was
-evidently not offended. Dear me! Mysterious creatures, women! It struck
-him, not for the first time, that Anne was an exception to the whole of
-her sex.
-
-"Isn't she beautiful!" said the exception warmly. "But I am afraid she
-is not quite as wise as she is beautiful. She is in a great difficulty."
-
-"What about?"
-
-"It seems she burned something when she was alone in the flat. At least
-she is accused by Mr Brand of burning something. A very valuable
-paper--an I O U for a large sum which her brother owed Mr Brand, and
-which became due a month ago--is missing."
-
-"She did burn something," said Stephen. "I was on the floor above at the
-time, and smelt smoke, and came down, and De Rivaz told me it was
-nothing; only the divinity burning some papers. He was alarmed, and
-left his sketch to find where the smoke came from. He saw her burn
-them."
-
-"He said that to you," said Anne, "but to no one else. I talked over the
-matter with him last night, and directly he heard Miss Black was in
-trouble, he assured me that he had thoughtlessly burnt a sheet of
-drawing-paper himself. That was what caused the smoke. And he said he
-would tell Mr Brand so."
-
-"H'm! Brand is not made up of credulity."
-
-"No. He seems convinced Miss Black destroyed that paper."
-
-"And does she deny it?"
-
-"Of course."
-
-"She can't deny that she burned something."
-
-"Yes, she does. She sticks to it that she burned nothing."
-
-"Then she must be a fool, because three of us know she did. De Rivaz
-knows it, I know it, and I see you know it."
-
-"And it turns out the lift man knows it; at least he was reprimanded for
-being on the upper floors without leave, and he said he only went there
-because there was a smoke, and he was anxious; and the smoke came from
-the Brands' sitting-room, which Miss Black left as he came up. He told
-Mr Brand this, who put what he thought was two and two together. Fred
-Black, it seems, would have been ruined if Mr Brand had enforced
-payment, and he believes Miss Black got hold of the paper at her
-brother's instigation and destroyed it."
-
-"Well! I suppose she did," said Stephen.
-
-"If you knew her you would know that that is impossible."
-
-Stephen looked incredulous.
-
-"I've known a good many unlikely things happen about money," he said
-slowly. "I daresay she did it to save her brother."
-
-"She did not do it," said Anne.
-
-"If she didn't, why doesn't she say what she did burn, and why? What's
-the use of sticking to it that she burned nothing when Brand knows
-that's a lie? A lie is a deadly stupid thing unless it's uncommonly well
-done."
-
-"She has had very little practice in lying. I fancy this is her first."
-
-"The only possible course left for her to take is to admit that she
-burned something, and to say what it was. Why doesn't she see that?"
-
-"Because she is a stupid woman, and she does not see the consequences of
-her insane denial, and the conclusions that must inevitably be drawn
-from it. When the room was examined, ashes were found in the grate that
-had been paper."
-
-"How does she explain that?"
-
-"She does not explain it. She explains nothing. She just sets her teeth
-and repeats her wretched formula that she burned nothing."
-
-"What took her up to the flat at all then, just when her friend was
-dying?"
-
-"She says Mrs Brand sent her up to see if her portrait was safe. But Mr
-Brand does not believe that either, as he says he had already told his
-wife that it was uninjured."
-
-"This Miss Black is a strong liar," said Stephen. "I should not have
-guessed it from her face. She looked as straight and innocent as a
-child; but one never can tell."
-
-"I imagine I do not look like a liar. But would you say if I also were
-accused of lying that you never can tell?"
-
-Stephen was taken aback. He bit his little finger and frowned at the
-wonderful roses in front of him.
-
-"I know you speak the truth," he said, "because you have spoken it to
-me. I should believe what you said--always--under any circumstances."
-
-"You believe in my truthfulness from experience. Do you never believe by
-intuition?"
-
-"Not often."
-
-"When first I saw Miss Black I perceived that she was a perfectly
-honest, upright woman. I did not wait till she had given me any proof of
-it. I saw it."
-
-"I certainly thought the same. To say the truth, I am surprised at her
-duplicity."
-
-"In my case you judged by experience. In her case I want you to go by
-intuition, by your first impression, which I know is the true one. I
-would stake my life upon it."
-
-"I don't see how my intuitions would help her."
-
-"Oh! yes, they will. Mr Brand is aware from the lift man, who saw you,
-that you were on the spot directly before he smelt smoke. Mr Brand will
-probably write to you."
-
-"He has written already. He has asked me to see him on business
-to-morrow morning. He does not say what business."
-
-"He is certain to try and find out from you what Miss Black was doing
-when you saw her in his flat. It seems you and Mr De Rivaz both left
-your cards on the table--why I can't think--but it shows you were both
-there. He came up himself next day and found them."
-
-"We both sent messages to Brand by Miss Black."
-
-"It seems she never gave them. She says now she forgot all about them."
-
-Stephen shook his head.
-
-"If Brand comes I shall be obliged to tell him the truth," he said.
-
-"That was why I was so bent on seeing you. I am anxious you _should_
-tell him the truth."
-
-Stephen looked steadily at her.
-
-"What truth?" he said.
-
-"Whatever you consider will disabuse his mind of the suspicion that she
-burned her brother's I O U. Mr De Rivaz' view of the truth is that the
-smoke came from a burnt sheet of his own drawing-paper."
-
-"I am not accountable for De Rivaz. He can invent what he likes. That is
-hardly my line."
-
-He coloured darkly. It was incredible to him that Anne could be goading
-him to support her friend's fabric of lies by another lie. He would not
-do it, come what might. But he felt that Fate was hard on him. He would
-have done almost anything at that moment to please her. But a lie--no.
-
-"I fear your line would naturally be to tell the blackest lie that has
-ever been told yet, by repeating the damaging facts exactly as they are.
-If you do--to a man like him--not only will you help to ruin Miss Black,
-but you will give weight to this frightful falsehood which is being
-circulated against her. And if you, by your near-sighted truthfulness,
-give weight to a lie, it is just the same as telling one. No, I think
-it's worse."
-
-Stephen smiled grimly. This was straight talk. Plain speaking always
-appealed to him even when, as now, it was at his expense.
-
-"Are you certain that your friend did not burn her brother's I O U?" he
-said after a pause.
-
-"I am absolutely certain. Remember her face. Now, Mr Vanbrunt, think.
-Don't confuse your mind with ideas of what women generally are. Think of
-her. Are not you certain too?"
-
-"Yes," he said slowly, "I am. She is concealing something. She has done
-some folly, and is bolstering it up by a stupid lie. But the other,
-that's swindling--no, she did not do that."
-
-"Then help the side of truth," said Anne. "My own conviction is that she
-burned something compromising Mrs Brand, at Mrs Brand's dying request,
-under an oath of secrecy. And that is why her mouth is shut. But this is
-only a supposition. I ask you not to repeat it. I only mention it
-because you are so----" she shot a glance at him unlike any, in its
-gentle raillery, that had fallen to his lot for many a long day--"so
-stubborn."
-
-He was unreasonably pleased.
-
-"I should still be in a dry goods warehouse in Hull if I had not been
-what you call stubborn," he said, smiling at her.
-
-"May I ask you a small favour for myself?" she said. "So far I have only
-asked for my friend."
-
-"It seems hardly necessary to ask it. Only mention it."
-
-"If my mother talks to you, and she talks to you a great deal, do not
-mention to her our--our conversation of last night. It would be kinder
-to me."
-
-Stephen bowed gravely. He was surprised. It had not struck him that Anne
-had not told her mother. A brand-new idea occurred to him, namely that
-Anne and her mother were not in each other's confidence. H'm! That
-luminous idea required further thought.
-
-"And now," said Anne, "having got out of you all I want, I will
-immediately desert you for my other neighbour." And she spoke no more to
-Stephen that night.
-
- * * * * *
-
-"My dear," said the Duke of Quorn to Anne as they drove home, "it
-appeared to me that you and Vanbrunt were on uncommonly good terms
-to-night. Is there any understanding between you?"
-
-"I think he is beginning to have a kind of glimmering of one."
-
-"Really! Understandings don't as a rule lead to marriage.
-Misunderstandings generally bring about those painful dislocations of
-life. But the idea struck me this evening--I hope needlessly--that I
-might after all have to take that richly gilt personage to my bosom as
-my son-in-law."
-
-"Mr Vanbrunt asked me to marry him yesterday, and I refused him."
-
-The Duke experienced a slight shock, tinged with relief.
-
-"Does your mother know?" he said at last in an awed voice.
-
-"Need you ask?"
-
-"Well, if she ever finds out, for goodness' sake let her inform me of
-the fact. Don't give me away, Anne, by letting out that I knew at the
-time. If she thought I was an accomplice of the crime--your
-refusal--really if she once got that idea into her head---- But next
-time she tackles Vanbrunt, perhaps he will tell her himself. Oh,
-heavens!"
-
-"I asked him not to mention it to her."
-
-The Duke sighed.
-
-"And so he really did propose at last. I thought your mother had choked
-him off. Most men would have been. Well, Anne, I'm glad you did not
-accept him. I don't hold with mixed marriages. In these days people talk
-as if class were nothing, and the fact of being well-born of no account.
-And, of course, it's a subject one can't discuss, because certain
-things, if put into words, sound snobbish at once. But they are true all
-the same. The middle classes have got it screwed into their cultivated
-heads that education levels class differences. It doesn't, but one can't
-say so. Not that Vanbrunt is educated, as I once told him."
-
-"Oh! come, father. I am sure you did not."
-
-"You are right, my dear. I did not. He said himself one day, in a moment
-of expansion, that he regretted that he had never had the chance of
-going to a public school, or the University, and I said the sort of life
-he had led was an education of a high order. So it is. That man has
-lived. Really when I come to think of it, I almost--no, I don't--Ahem!
-Associate freely with all classes, but marry in your own. That is what
-I say when no one is listening. By no one I mean of course yourself, my
-dear."
-
-Anne was silent. There had been days when she had felt that difference
-keenly though silently. Those days were past.
-
-"Vanbrunt is a Yorkshire dalesman, with Dutch trading blood in him. It
-is extraordinary how Dutch the people look near Goole and Hull. I shall
-like him better now. I always have liked him till--the last few months.
-You would never say Vanbrunt was a gentleman, but you would never say he
-wasn't. He seems apart from all class. There is no hall-mark upon him.
-He is himself. So you would not have him, my little Anne? That's over.
-It's the very devil to be refused, I can tell you. I was refused once.
-It was some time ago, as you may imagine, but--I have not forgotten it.
-I learned what London looks like in the dawn, after walking the streets
-all night. So it's his turn to wear out the pavement now, is it! Poor
-man! He'll take it hard in a bottled-up way. When next I see him I
-shall say: 'Aha! money can't buy everything, Vanbrunt.'"
-
-"Oh! no, father. You won't be so brutal."
-
-"No, my dear, I daresay I shall not. I shall pretend not to know. Really
-I have a sort of regard for him. Poor Vanbrunt!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI
-
- "C'est son ignorance qui fixe son malheur."
-
- --MAETERLINCK.
-
-
-Did you ever, as a child, see ink made? Did you ever watch, with
-wondering intentness, the mixing of one little bottle of colourless
-fluid--which you imagined to be pure water--with another equally
-colourless? No change. Then at last, into the cup of clear water, the
-omnipotent parent hand pours out of another tiny phial two or three
-crystal drops.
-
-The latent ink rushes into being at the contact of those few drops. The
-whole cup is black with it, transfused with impenetrable darkness,
-terrible to look upon.
-
-We are awed, partly owing to the exceeding glory of the magician with
-the Vandyke hand, who knows everything, and who can work miracles at
-will, and partly because we did not see the change coming. We were
-warned that it would come by that voice of incarnate wisdom. We were all
-eyes. But it was there before we knew. Some of us, as older children,
-watch with our ignorant eyes the mysterious alchemy in our little cup of
-life. We are warned, but we see not. We somehow miss the sign. The water
-is clear, quite clear. Something more is coming, straight from the same
-Hand. In a moment all is darkness.
-
-A wiser woman than Janet would perhaps have known, would at any rate
-have feared, that a certain small cloud on her horizon, no larger than a
-man's hand, meant a great storm. But until it broke she did not realize
-that that ever-increasing ominous pageant had any connection with the
-hurricane that at last fell upon her: just as some of us see the rosary
-of life only as separate beads, not noticing the divine constraining
-thread, and are taken by surprise when we come to the cross.
-
- * * * * *
-
-The cloud first showed itself, or rather Janet first caught sight of it,
-on a hot evening towards the end of June, when Fred returned from
-London, whither he had been summoned by Mr Brand, a fortnight after his
-wife's death.
-
-The days which had passed since Cuckoo's death had not had power to numb
-the pain at Janet's heart. The shock had only so far had the effect of
-shifting the furniture of her mind into unfamiliar, jostling positions.
-She did not know where to put her hand on anything, like a woman who
-enters her familiar room after an earthquake, and finds the contents
-still there, but all huddled together or thrown asunder.
-
-Her deep affection for her brother, and her friend Cuckoo, were wrenched
-out of place, leaving horrible gaps. She had always felt a vague
-repulsion to Monkey Brand, with his dyed hair and habit of staring too
-hard at her. The repulsion towards him had shifted, and had crashed up
-against her love for Fred, and Monkey Brand had acquired a kind of
-dignity, even radiance. Even her love for George had altered in the
-general dislocation. Its halo had been jerked off. Who was true? Who was
-good? She looked at him wistfully, and with a certain diffidence. She
-felt a new tenderness for him. George had noticed the change in her
-manner towards him since her return from London, and, not being an
-expert diver into the recesses of human nature, he had at first
-anxiously inquired whether she still loved him the same. Janet looked
-slowly into her own heart before she made reply. Then she turned her
-grave gaze upon him. "More," she said, as every woman, whose love is
-acquainted with grief must answer if she speaks the truth.
-
-It was nearly dark when Janet caught the sounds of Fred's dog-cart,
-driving swiftly along the lanes, too swiftly considering the darkness.
-He drove straight to the stables, and then came out into the garden,
-where she was walking up and down waiting for him. It was such a small
-garden, merely a strip out of the field in front of the house, that he
-could not miss her.
-
-He came quickly towards her, and even in the starlight she saw how white
-his face was. Her heart sank. She knew Fred had gone to London in
-compliance with a request from Mr Brand. Had Mr Brand refused to renew
-his bond, or to wait?
-
-Fred took her suddenly in his arms, and held her closely to him. He was
-trembling with emotion. His tears fell upon her face. She could feel the
-violent beating of his heart. She could not speak. She was terrified.
-She had never known him like this.
-
-"You have saved me," he stammered, kissing her hair and forehead. "Oh!
-my God! Janet, I will never forget this, never while I live. I was
-ruined, and you have saved me."
-
-She did not understand. She led him to the garden seat, and they sat
-down together. She thought he had been drinking. He generally cried when
-he was drunk. But she saw in the next moment that he was sober.
-
-"Will Mr Brand renew?" she said, though she knew he would not. Monkey
-Brand never renewed.
-
-Fred laughed. It was the nervous laugh of a shallow nature, after a
-hairbreadth escape.
-
-"Brand will not renew, and he will not wait," he said. "You know that as
-well as I do. Janet, I misjudged you. All these awful days, while I have
-been expecting the blow to fall--it meant ruin, sheer ruin, for you as
-well as me--all this time I thought you did not care what became of me.
-You seemed so different lately, so cold."
-
-"I did care."
-
-"I know. I know now. You are a brave woman. It was the only thing to do.
-If you had not burnt it he would have foreclosed. And of course I shall
-pay him back when I can. I said so. He knows I'm a gentleman. He has my
-word for it. A gentleman's word is as good as his bond. I shall repay
-him gradually."
-
-"I don't understand," said Janet, who felt as if a cold hand had been
-laid upon her heart.
-
-"Oh! You can speak freely to me. And to think of your keeping silence
-all this time--even to me. You always were one to keep things to
-yourself, but you might have just given me a hint. My I O U is not
-forthcoming, and Brand as good as knows you burned it. He knows you went
-up to his flat and burned something when his wife was dying. He wasn't
-exactly angry; he was too far gone for that, as if he couldn't care for
-anything one way or the other. He looks ten years older. But, of course,
-he's a business man, whether his wife is alive or dead, and I could see
-he was forcing himself to attend to business to keep himself from
-thinking. He said very little. He was very distant. Infernally distant
-he was. He is no gentleman, and he doesn't understand the feelings of
-one. If it hadn't been that he was in trouble, and well--for the fact
-that I had borrowed money of him--I would not have stood it for a
-moment. I'm not going to allow any cad to hector over me, be he who he
-may. He mentioned the facts. He said he had always had a high opinion of
-you, and that he should come down and see you on the subject next week.
-You must think what to say, Janet."
-
-"I never burned your I O U," said Janet in a whisper, becoming cold all
-over. It was a revelation to her that Fred could imagine she was capable
-of such a dishonourable action.
-
-"Why, Fred," she said, deeply wounded, "you know I could not do such a
-thing. It would be the same as stealing."
-
-"No, it wouldn't," said Fred, with instant irritation, "because you know
-I should pay him back. And so I will--only I can't at present. And, of
-course, you knew too, you must have guessed, that your two thousand----
-And as you are going to be married, that is important too. I should have
-been ruined, sold up, if that I O U had turned up, and you yourself
-would have been in a fix. You knew that when you got hold of it and
-burned it. Come, Janet, you can own to me you burned it--between
-ourselves."
-
-"I burnt nothing."
-
-Fred peered at her open-mouthed.
-
-"Janet, that's too thin. You must go one better than that when Brand
-comes. He knows you burnt something when you went up to his flat."
-
-"I burnt nothing," said Janet again. It was too dark to see her face.
-
-Did she realise that the first heavy drops were falling round her of the
-storm that was to wreck so much?
-
-"Well," said Fred, after a pause, "I take my cue from you. You burnt
-nothing then. I don't see how you are going to work it, but that's your
-affair.... But oh, Janet, if that cursed paper had remained! If you had
-known what I've been going through since you came home a fortnight ago,
-when my last shred of hope left me when I found you had not spoken to
-the Brands. It wasn't only the money--that was bad enough--it wasn't
-only that--but----"
-
-And Fred actually broke down, and sobbed with his head in his hands.
-Presently, when he recovered himself, he told her, in stammering,
-difficult words, that he had something on his conscience, that his life
-had not been what it should have been, but that a year ago he had come
-to a turning-point; he had met some one--even his light voice had a
-graver ring in it--some one who had made him feel how--in short, he had
-fallen in love, with a woman like herself, like his dear Janet--good and
-innocent, a snowflake; and for a long time he feared she could never
-think of him, but how at last she seemed less indifferent, but how her
-father was a strict man and averse to him from the first. And if he had
-been sold up, all hope--what little hope there was--would have been
-gone.
-
-"But, please God, now," said Fred, "I will make a fresh start. I've had
-a shock lately, Janet. I did not talk about it, but I've had a shock.
-I've thought of a good many things. I mean to turn round and do better
-in future. There are things I've done, that lots of men do and think
-nothing of them, that I won't do again. I mean to try from this day
-forward to be worthy of her, to put the past behind me; and if I ever do
-win her--if she'll take me in the end--I shall not forget, Janet, that I
-owe it to you."
-
-He kissed her again with tears.
-
-She was too much overcome to speak. Cuckoo had repented, and now Fred
-was sorry too. It was the first drop of healing balm which had fallen on
-that deep wound which Cuckoo's dying voice had inflicted how many
-endless days ago.
-
-"It is Venetia Ford," said Fred shyly, but not without triumph. "You
-remember her? She is Archdeacon Ford's eldest daughter."
-
-A recollection rose before Janet's mind of the eldest Miss Ford, with
-the pretty pink and white empty face, and the demure, if slightly
-supercilious, manner that befits one conscious of being an Archdeacon's
-daughter. Janet knew her slightly, and admired her much. The eldest Miss
-Ford's conversation was always markedly suitable. Her sense of propriety
-was only equalled by her desire to impart information. Her slightly
-clerical manner resembled the full-blown Archidiaconal deportment of her
-parent, as home-made marmalade resembles an orange. Archdeacon Ford was
-a pompous, much-respected prelate, with private means. Mrs Smith was
-distantly related to the Fords, and very proud of the connection. She
-seldom alluded to the eldest Miss Ford without remarking that Venetia
-was her ideal of what a perfect lady should be.
-
-"O Fred, I am so glad!" said Janet, momentarily forgetting everything
-else in her rejoicing that Fred should have attached himself seriously
-at last, and to a woman for whom she felt respectful admiration, who
-had always treated herself with the cold civility that was, in Janet's
-eyes, the hall-mark of social and mental superiority.
-
-"And does she like you?" she said, with pride. She could not see Fred
-any longer, but her mind's eye saw him--handsome, gay, irresistible. Of
-course she adored him.
-
-"Sometimes I think she does," said Fred, "and sometimes I'm afraid she
-doesn't." And he expounded at great length, garnished with abundant
-detail, his various meetings with her; how on one occasion she had
-hardly looked at him; on another she had spoken to him of Browning--that
-was the time when he had bought Browning's works; on a third, how there
-had been another man there--a curate--a beast, but thinking a lot of
-himself; on a fourth she had said that balls--the Mudbury ball where he
-had danced with her--were an innocent form of recreation, etc., etc.
-
-Janet drank in every word. It reminded her, she said, of "her and
-George." Indeed, there were many salient points of resemblance between
-the two courtships. The brother and sister sat long together hand in
-hand in the soft summer night. Only when she got up at last did the
-thought of the missing I O U return to Janet.
-
-"O Fred!" she said, as they walked towards the house, "supposing after
-all your I O U turns up? How dreadful! What would happen?"
-
-"It won't turn up," said Fred, with a laugh.
-
-When Janet was alone in her room she remembered again, with pained
-bewilderment, that Fred had actually believed that she had destroyed
-that missing paper. It did not distress her that Monkey Brand evidently
-believed the same. She would, of course, tell him that he was mistaken.
-_But Fred!_ He ought to have known better. Her thoughts returned
-speedily to her brother's future. He would settle down now, and be a
-good man, and marry the eldest Miss Ford. She felt happier about him
-than she had done since Cuckoo's death. Her constant prayer, that he
-might repent and lead a new life, had evidently been heard.
-
-As she closed her eyes she said to herself, "I daresay Fred and Venetia
-will be married the same day as George and me."
-
- * * * * *
-
-Monkey Brand appeared at Ivy Cottage a few days later. Janet was in the
-field with Fred, taking the setter puppies for a run, when the "Trefusis
-Arms" dog-cart from Mudbury drove up, and Nemesis, in the shape of
-Monkey Brand, got slowly down from it, wrong leg first. Even in the
-extreme heat Monkey Brand wore a high hat and a long buttoned-up
-frock-coat and varnished boots. As he came towards them in the sunshine,
-there was a rigid, controlled desolation in his yellow lined face, which
-made Janet feel suddenly ashamed of her happiness in her own love.
-
-"I had better go," said Fred hurriedly. "I don't want to be uncivil to
-the brute in my own house."
-
-"Go!" said Janet. "But, of course, you must stop. Mr Brand has come
-down on purpose to see us."
-
-She went forward to meet him, and, as he took her hand somewhat stiffly,
-he met the tender sympathy in her clear eyes, and winced under it.
-
-His face became a shade less rigid. He looked shrunk and exhausted, as
-if he had undergone the extreme rigour of a biting frost. Perhaps he
-had.
-
-"I have come to see you on business," he said to Janet, hardly returning
-Fred's half nervous, half defiant greeting.
-
-Janet led the way into the little parlour, and they sat down in silence.
-Fred sat down near the door, and began picking at the rose in his
-buttonhole.
-
-Monkey Brand held his hat in his hand. He took off one black glove,
-dropped it into his hat, and looked fixedly at it.
-
-The cloud on Janet's horizon lay heavy over her whole sky. A single
-petal, loosened by a shaking hand, fell from Fred's rose on to the
-floor.
-
-"I am sure, Miss Black," said Monkey Brand, "that you will offer me an
-explanation respecting your visit to my flat when my wife was dying."
-
-"I went up at her wish," said Janet, breathing hard. She seemed to see
-again Cuckoo's anguished fading eyes fixed upon her.
-
-"Why?"
-
-"She asked me to go and see if her picture was safe."
-
-"I had already told her it was safe."
-
-Janet did not answer.
-
-The rose in Fred's buttonhole fell petal by petal.
-
-Monkey Brand's voice had hardened when he spoke again.
-
-"I am sure," he said, and for a moment he fixed his dull sinister eyes
-upon her, "that you will see the advisability, the necessity, of telling
-me why you burnt some papers when you clandestinely visited my flat."
-
-"I burnt nothing."
-
-He looked into his hat. Janet's bewildered eyes followed the direction
-of his, and looked into his hat too. There was nothing in it but a
-glove.
-
-"There were ashes of burnt papers in the grate," he continued. "The lift
-man saw you leave the room, which had smoke in it. A valuable paper,
-your brother's I O U is missing. I merely state established facts, which
-it is useless, which it is prejudicial, to you to contradict."
-
-"I burnt nothing," said Janet again, but there was a break in her voice.
-Her heart began to struggle like some shy woodland animal, which
-suddenly sees itself surrounded.
-
-Monkey Brand looked again at her. His wife had loved her. Across the
-material, merciless face of the money-lender a flicker passed of some
-other feeling besides the business of the moment; as if, almost as if he
-would not have been averse to help her if she would deal
-straightforwardly with him.
-
-"You were my wife's friend," he said after a moment's pause. "She often
-spoke of you with affection. I also regarded you with high esteem. A
-few days before you came to stay with us I was looking over my papers
-one evening, and I mentioned that your brother's I O U would fall due
-almost immediately. She said she believed it would ruin him if I called
-in the money then. I said I should do so, for I had waited once already
-against my known rules of business. I never wait. I should not be in the
-position which I occupy to-day if I had ever waited. She said, 'Wait at
-least till after Janet's wedding. It might tell against her if her
-brother went smash just before.' I replied that I should foreclose,
-wedding or none. She came across to me, and, by a sudden movement, took
-the I O U out of my hand before I could stop her. 'I won't have Janet
-distressed,' she said. 'I shall keep it myself till after the wedding,'
-and she locked it up before my eyes in a cabinet I had given her, in
-which she kept her own papers. I seldom yield to sentiment, but she--she
-recalled to me my own wedding--and in this instance I did so. It was the
-last evening we spent at home alone together. She went much to the
-theatre and into society, and I seldom had time to accompany her."
-
-Monkey Brand stopped a moment. Then he went on:
-
-"My wife saw you alone when she was dying. She was evidently anxious to
-see you alone. It was like her, even then, to think of others. If you
-tell me, on your word of honour, that she asked you to go up to the flat
-and burn that I O U, and that she told you where to find it--No; if she
-even gave you leave, as you were no doubt anxious on the subject,--if
-you assure me that she yielded to your entreaties, and that she even
-gave you leave to destroy it,--I will believe it. I will accept your
-statement. The last wish of my wife--if you say it _was_ her wish--is
-enough for me." Monkey Brand looked out of the window at the still
-noonday sunshine. "I would abide by it," he said, and his face worked.
-
-"She never spoke to me on the subject of the I O U," said Janet, two
-large tears rolling down her quivering cheeks. "She never gave me leave
-to burn it. I didn't burn it. I burnt nothing."
-
-"Janet," almost shrieked Fred, nearly beside himself. "Janet, don't you
-see that--that---- Confess. Tell him you did it. We both know you did
-it. Own the truth."
-
-Janet looked from one to the other.
-
-"I burnt nothing," she said, but her eyes fell. Her word had never been
-doubted before.
-
-Both men saw she was lying.
-
-Monkey Brand's face changed. It became once again as many poor wretches
-had seen it, whose hard-wrung money had gone to buy his wife's gowns and
-diamonds.
-
-He got up. He took his glove out of the crown of his hat, put on his hat
-in the room, and walked slowly out of the house. In the doorway he
-looked back at Janet, and she saw, directed at her for the first time,
-the expression with which she was to grow familiar, that which meets the
-swindler and the liar.
-
-The brother and sister watched in silence the rigid little departing
-figure, as it climbed back wrong leg first into the dog-cart and drove
-away.
-
-Then Fred burst out.
-
-"Oh! you fool, you fool!" he stammered, shaking from head to foot. "Why
-didn't you say Mrs Brand told you to burn it? His wife was his soft
-side. Oh! my God! what a chance, and you didn't take it. That man will
-ruin us yet. I saw it in his face."
-
-"But she didn't tell me to burn it."
-
-Janet looked like a bewildered, distressed child, who suddenly finds
-herself in a room full of machinery of which she understands nothing,
-and whose inadvertent touch, as she tries to creep away, has set great
-malevolent wheels whirring all round her.
-
-"I daresay she didn't," said Fred fiercely, and he flung out of the
-room.
-
-He went and stood a long time leaning over the fence into the paddock
-where his yearlings were.
-
-"It's an awful thing to be a fool," he said to himself.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII
-
- "Il n'est aucun mal qui ne naisse, en dernière analyse--d'une
- pensée étroite, ou d'un sentiment mediocre."
-
- --MAETERLINCK.
-
-
-The storm had fallen on Janet at last. She saw it was a storm, and met
-it with courage and patience, and without apprehension as to what so
-fierce a hurricane might ultimately destroy, what foundations its rising
-floods might sweep away. She suffered dumbly under the knowledge that
-Monkey Brand and Fred both firmly believed her to be guilty, suffered
-dumbly the gradual alienation of her brother, who never forgave her her
-obtuseness when a way of escape had been offered her, and who shivered
-under an acute anxiety as to what Monkey Brand would do next, together
-with a gnawing suspense respecting the eldest Miss Ford, who had become
-the object of marked attentions on the part of a colonial Bishop.
-
-Janet said to herself constantly in these days, "Truth will prevail."
-She did not believe in the principle, but in her version of it. Her
-belief in the power of truth became severely shaken as the endless July
-days dragged themselves along, each slower than the last. Truth did not
-prevail. The storm prevailed instead. Foundations began to crumble.
-
-How it came about it would be difficult to say, but the damning evidence
-against Janet, the suspicion, the almost certainty of her duplicity,
-reached Easthope.
-
-Mrs Trefusis seized upon it to urge her son to break with Janet. He
-resisted with stubbornness his mother's frenzied entreaties.
-Nevertheless after a time his fixity of purpose was undermined by a
-sullen, growing suspicion that Janet was guilty. Fred had hinted as
-much. Fred's evident conviction of Janet's action, and inability to see
-that it was criminal, his confidential assertion that the money would be
-repaid, pushed George slowly to the conclusion that Janet had been her
-brother's catspaw--perhaps not for the first time. George felt with deep
-if silent indignation, that with him, her future husband if with any
-one, Janet ought to be open, truthful. But she was not. She repeated her
-obvious lie even to him when at last he forced himself to speak to her
-on the subject. His narrow, upright nature abhorred crookedness, and,
-according to his feeble searchlight, he deemed Janet crooked.
-
-His mother's admonitions began to work in him like leaven. How often she
-had said to him, "She has lied to others. The day will come when she
-will lie to you." That day had already come. Perhaps his mother was
-right after all. He had heard men say the same thing. "What is bred in
-the bone will come out in the flesh." "Take a bird out of a good nest,"
-etc., etc.
-
-And George who, in other circumstances, would have defended Janet to the
-last drop of his blood, who would have carried her over burning deserts
-till he fell dead from thirst--George, who was capable of heroism on her
-behalf--weakened towards her.
-
-She had fallen in love with him in the beginning, partly because he was
-"straighter" than the men she associated with. Yet this very rectitude
-which had attracted her was now alienating her lover from her, as
-perhaps nothing else could have done. Strange back-blow of Fate, that
-the cord which had drawn her towards him should tighten to a noose round
-her neck.
-
-George weakened towards her.
-
-It seems to be the miserable fate of certain upright, closed natures,
-who take their bearings from without, always to fail when the pinch
-comes; to disbelieve in those whom they obtusely love when suspicion
-falls on them, to be alienated from them by their success, to be
-discouraged by their faults, incredulous of their higher motives,
-repelled by their enthusiasms.
-
-George would not have failed if the pinch had not come. Like many
-another man, found faithful because his faith had not been put to the
-test, he would have made Janet an excellent and loving husband, and they
-would probably have spent many happy years together--if only the pinch
-had not come. Anne early divined, from Janet's not very luminous
-letters, that George was becoming estranged from her. Anne came down for
-a Sunday to Easthope early in July, and quickly discovered the cause of
-this estrangement (which Janet had not mentioned) in the voluble
-denunciations of Mrs Trefusis, and the sullen unhappiness of her son.
-
-Mrs Trefusis had wormed out all the most damning evidence against Janet,
-partly from Fred's confidence to George, and partly from Monkey Brand,
-with whom she had had money dealings, and to whom she applied direct.
-She showed Anne the money-lender's answer, in its admirable restrained
-conciseness, with its ordered sequence of inexorable facts. Anne's heart
-sank as she read it, and she suddenly remembered Janet's words in
-delirium. "I have burnt them all. Everything. There is nothing left."
-
-The letter fell from her nerveless hand. She looked at it, momentarily
-stunned.
-
-"And this is the woman," said Mrs Trefusis, scratching the letter
-towards her with her stick, and regaining possession of it, "this is
-the woman whom you pressed me, only a month ago, to receive as my
-daughter-in-law. Didn't I say she came of a bad stock? Didn't I say that
-what was bred in the bone would come out in the flesh? George would not
-listen to me then, but my poor deluded boy is beginning to see now that
-I was right."
-
-Mrs Trefusis wiped away two small tears with her trembling claw-like
-hand. Anne could not but see that she was invincibly convinced of
-Janet's guilt.
-
-"You think I am vindictive, Anne," she said. "You may be right; I know I
-was at first, and perhaps I am still. I always hated the connection, and
-I always hated her. But--but it's not _only_ that now. It's my boy's
-happiness. I must think of him. He is my only son, and I can't sit still
-and see his life wrecked."
-
-"I am certain Janet did not do it," said Anne suddenly, her pale face
-flaming. "George and you may believe she did, if you like. I don't."
-
-Anne walked over to Ivy Cottage the same afternoon, and Janet saw her in
-the distance, and fled out to her across the fields and fell upon her
-neck. But even Anne's tender entreaties and exhortations were of no
-avail. Janet understood at last that her mechanically-repeated formula
-was ruining her with her lover. But she had promised Cuckoo to say it,
-and she stuck to it.
-
-"Why does not George believe in me even if appearances are against me?"
-said Janet at last. "I would believe in him."
-
-"That is different."
-
-"How different?"
-
-"Because you are made like that, and he isn't. It's a question of
-temperament. You have a trustful nature. He has not. You must take
-George's character into consideration. It is foolish to love a person
-who is easily suspicious, and then allow him to become suspicious. You
-have no right to perplex him. Just as some people who care for us must
-have it made easy to them all the time to go on caring for us. If there
-is any strain or difficulty, or if they are put to inconvenience, they
-will leave us."
-
-Janet was silent.
-
-"As you and George both love each other," continued Anne, "can't you say
-something to him? Don't you see it would be only right to say a few
-words to him, which will show him--what I am sure is the truth--that you
-are concealing something, which has led to this false suspicion falling
-on you?"
-
-Janet shook her head. "He ought to know it's false," she said.
-
-"Could not you say to _him_, even though you cannot say so to your
-brother or Mr Brand--that you burnt some compromising papers at Mrs
-Brand's dying request? He might believe that, for it is known that you
-_did_ burn papers, dearest, and it is also obvious that you must have
-burnt a good many. That one I O U does not account for the quantity of
-ashes."
-
-"I could not say that," said Janet, whitening. "And besides," she added
-hastily, "I have said so many times" (and indeed she had) "that I burnt
-nothing, that George would not know what to believe if I say first one
-thing and then another."
-
-"He does not know what to believe now. Unless you can say something to
-reassure his mind, you will lose your George."
-
-"You believe in me?"
-
-"Implicitly."
-
-"Then why doesn't George?" continued Janet, with the feminine talent for
-reasoning in a circle. "That is the only thing that is necessary. Not
-that I should say things I can't say, but that he should trust me. I
-don't care what other people think so long as he believes in me."
-
-She, who had never exacted anything heretofore, whose one object had
-been to please her George, now made one demand upon him. It was the
-first and last which she ever made upon her lover. And he could not meet
-it.
-
-"His belief is shaken."
-
-"Truth will prevail," said Janet stubbornly.
-
-"It will no doubt in the end, but in the meanwhile? And how if the
-truth is masked by a lie?"
-
-Janet did not answer. Perhaps she did not fully understand. She saw only
-two things in these days: one, that George ought to believe in her; and
-the other, that, come what might, she would keep the promise made to
-Cuckoo on her death-bed. She constantly remembered the rigid dying face,
-the difficult whisper: "Promise me that whatever happens you will never
-tell anyone that you have burnt anything."
-
-"I promise."
-
-"You swear it."
-
-"I swear it."
-
-That oath she would keep.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Anne returned to London with a heavy heart. She left no stone unturned.
-She interviewed De Rivaz and Stephen on the subject, as we have seen.
-But her efforts were unavailing, as far as George was concerned. The
-affair of the burning of papers was hushed up, but it had reached the
-only person who had the power to wreck Janet's happiness.
-
-Some weeks after Anne's visit Janet one day descried the large figure of
-Stephen stalking slowly up across the fields. Janet tired her eyes daily
-in scanning the fields in the direction of Easthope, but a certain
-person came no more by that much frequented way.
-
-The millionaire had a long interview with Janet, but his valuable time
-was wasted. He could not move her. He told her that he firmly believed
-the missing I O U would turn up, and that in the meanwhile he had paid
-Mr Brand, and that she might repay him at her convenience. He could
-wait. For a moment she was frightened, but a glance at Stephen's
-austere, quick eyes, bent searchingly upon her, reassured her. She
-trusted him at once. It was never known what he had said to Monkey
-Brand, as to his having seen Janet in the burnt flat, but Monkey Brand
-gained nothing from the discussion of that compromising fact--except his
-money.
-
-Fred was awed by the visit of Stephen, and by the amazing fact that he
-had paid Monkey Brand. Fred said repeatedly that it was the action of a
-perfect gentleman, exactly what he should have done if he had been in
-Stephen's place. He let George hear of it at the first opportunity. But
-the information had no effect on George's mind, except that it was
-vaguely prejudicial to Janet.
-
-Why had she accepted such a large sum from a man of whom she knew next
-to nothing, whom she had only seen once before for a moment, and that an
-equivocal one? Women should not accept money from men. _And why did he
-offer it?_
-
-He asked these questions of himself. To Fred he only vouchsafed a nod,
-to show that he had heard what Fred had waylaid him to say.
-
-Some weeks later still, in August, De Rivaz came to Ivy Cottage, hat in
-hand, stammering, deferential, to ask Janet to allow him to paint her.
-He would do anything, take rooms in the neighbourhood, make his
-convenience entirely subservient to hers if she would only sit to him.
-He saw with a pang that she was not conscious that they had met before.
-She had forgotten him, and he did not remind her of their first meeting.
-He knew that hour had brought trouble upon her. Her face showed it. The
-patient, enduring spirit was beginning to look through the exquisite
-face. Her beauty overwhelmed him. He trembled before it. He pleaded
-hard, but she would not listen to him. She said apathetically that she
-did not wish to be painted. She was evidently quite unaware of the
-distinction which he was offering her. His name had conveyed nothing to
-her. He had to take his leave at last, but, as he walked away in the
-rain, he turned and looked back at the house.
-
-"I will come back," he said, his thin face quivering.
-
-It was a wet August, and the harvest rotted on the ground. No one came
-to Ivy Cottage along the sodden footpath from Easthope. A slow anger was
-rising in Janet's heart against her lover, the anger that will invade
-at last the hearts of humble sincere natures, when they find that love
-and trust have not gone together.
-
-George never openly broke with Janet, never could be induced to write
-the note to her which, his mother told him, it was his duty to write.
-No. He simply stayed away from her, week after week, month after month.
-When his mother urged him to break off his engagement formally, he said
-doggedly that Janet could see for herself that all was over between
-them.
-
-The day came at last when Janet met him suddenly in the streets of
-Mudbury, on market day. He took off his hat in answer to her timid
-greeting, and passed on looking straight in front of him.
-
-Perhaps he had his evil hour that night, for Janet was very fair. Seen
-suddenly, unexpectedly, she seemed more beautiful than ever. And she was
-to have been his wife.
-
-After that blighting moment, when even Janet perceived that George was
-determined not to speak to her; after that Janet began to see that when
-foundations are undermined that which is built upon them will one day
-totter and--fall.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII
-
- "The heart asks pleasure first,
- And then, excuse from pain;
- And then, those little anodynes
- That deaden suffering;
-
- And then, to go to sleep;
- And then if it should be
- The will of its Inquisitor,
- The liberty to die."
-
- --EMILY DICKINSON.
-
-
-There are long periods in the journey of life when "the road winds
-uphill all the way." There are also long periods when the dim plain
-holds us, endless day after day, till the last bivouac fires of our
-youth are quenched in its rains.
-
-But when we look back across our journey, do we not forget alike the
-hill and the plain? Do we not rather remember that one turn, exceeding
-sharp, of the narrow inevitable way, what time the light failed, and the
-ground yawned beneath our feet, and we knew fear?
-
-There is a slow descent, awful, step by step, into a growing darkness,
-which those know who have strength to make it. Only the strong are
-broken on certain wheels. Only the strong know the dim landscape of
-Hades, that world which underlies the lives of all of us.
-
-I cannot follow Janet down into it. I can only see her as a shadow,
-moving among shadows; going down unconsciously with tears in her eyes,
-taking, poor thing, her brave, loving unselfish heart with her, to meet
-anguish, desolation, desertion, and at last despair. If we needs must go
-down that steep stair we go alone, and who shall say how it fared with
-us? Nature has some appalling beneficent processes, of which it is not
-well to speak. Life has been taught at the same knee, out of the same
-book, and when her inexorable disintegrating hand closes over us, the
-abhorrent darkness, from which we have shrunk with loathing, becomes
-our only friend.
-
- * * * * *
-
-In the following autumn and winter Janet slowly descended, inch by inch,
-step by step, that steep stair. She reached at last the death of love.
-She thought she reached it many times before she actually touched it.
-She believed she reached it when the news of George's engagement
-penetrated to her. But she did not in reality. No, she hoped against
-hope to the last day, to the morning of his wedding. She did not know
-she hoped. She supposed she had long since given up all thought of a
-reconciliation between her and her lover. But when the wedding was over,
-when he was really gone, then something broke within her--the last
-string of the lyre over which blind Hope leans.
-
-There are those who tell us that we have not suffered till we have known
-jealousy. Janet's foot reached that lowest step, and was scorched upon
-it.
-
-Only then she realised that she had never, never believed that he could
-really leave her. Even on his wedding morning she had looked out across
-the fields, by which she had so often seen him come, which had been so
-long empty of that familiar figure. She knew he was far away at the
-house of the bride, but nevertheless she expected that he would come to
-her, and hold her to his heart, and say: "But, Janet, I could never
-marry anyone but you. You know such a thing could never be. What other
-woman could part you and me, who cannot part?" And then the evil dream
-would fall from her, and she and George would look gravely at each
-other, and the endless, endless pain would pass away.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Wrapt close against the anguish of love there is always a word such as
-this with which human nature sustains its aching heart--poor human
-nature which believes that, come what come may, Love can never die.
-
-"Some day," the woman says to herself, half knowing that that day can
-never dawn, "some day I shall tell him of these awful months, full of
-days like years, and nights like nothing, please God, which shall ever
-be endured again. Some day--it may be a long time off--but some day I
-shall say to him: 'Why did you leave me?' And he will tell me his
-foolish reasons, and we shall lean together in tears. And surely some
-day I shall say to him: 'I always burnt your letters for fear I might
-die suddenly and others should read them. But see, here are the
-envelopes, every one. That envelope is nearly worn out. Do you remember
-what you said inside it? That one is still new. I only read the letter
-it had in it once. How could you--could you write it?'"
-
- * * * * *
-
-"Some day," the man says to himself, when the work of the day is
-done--"some day my hour will come. She thinks me harsh and cold, but
-some day, when these evil days are past, and she understands, I will
-wrap her round with a tenderness such as she has never dreamed of. I
-will show her what a lover can be. She finds the world hard, and its
-ways a weariness--let her; but some day she shall own to me, to me here
-in this room, that she did not know what life was, what joy and peace
-were, until she let my love take her."
-
-Yet he half knows she will never come, that woman whose coming seems
-inevitable as spring. So the heart comforts itself, telling itself fairy
-stories until the day dawns when Reality's stern, beneficent figure
-enters our dwelling, and we know at last that not one word of all we
-have spoken in imagination will ever be said. What we have suffered we
-have suffered. The one for whom it was borne will hear no further word
-from us.
-
-The moth and the rust have corrupted.
-
-The thieves have broken through and stolen.
-
-Then rise up, lay hold of your pilgrim's staff, and take up life with a
-will.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV
-
- "My river runs to thee:
- Blue sea, wilt welcome me?"
-
- --EMILY DICKINSON.
-
-
-The winter, that dealt so sternly with Janet, smiled on Anne. She spent
-Christmas in London, for the Duke was, or at least he said he was, in
-too delicate a state of health to go to his ancestral halls in the
-country, where the Duchess had repaired alone, believing herself to be
-but the herald of the rest of her family; and where she was expending
-her fearful energy on Christmas trees, magic-lanterns, ventriloquists,
-entertainments of all kinds for children and adults, tenants, inmates of
-workhouses, country neighbours, Sunday School teachers, Mothers' Unions,
-Ladies' Working Guilds, Bands of Hope, etc., etc. She was in her
-element.
-
-Anne and her father were in theirs. The Duke did not shirk the constant
-inevitable duties of his position, but by nature he was a recluse, and
-at Christmas-time he yielded to his natural bias. Anne also lived too
-much on the highway of life. She knew too many people, her sympathy had
-drawn towards her too many insolvent natures. She was glad to be for a
-time out of the pressure of the crowd. She and her father spent a
-peaceful Christmas and New Year together, only momentarily disturbed by
-the frantic telegrams of the Duchess, commanding Anne to despatch five
-hundred presents at one shilling suitable for schoolgirls, or forty
-ditto at half-a-crown for young catechists.
-
-The New Year came in in snow and fog. But it was none the worse for
-that. On this particular morning Anne stood a long time at the window of
-her sitting-room, looking out at the impenetrable blanket of the fog.
-The newsboys were crying something in the streets, but she could hear
-nothing distinctive except the word "city."
-
-Presently she took out of her pocket two letters, and read them slowly.
-There was no need for her to read them. Not only did she know them by
-heart, but she knew exactly where each word came on the paper. "Martial
-law" was on the left-hand corner of the top line of the second sheet.
-"Dependent on Kaffir labour" was in the middle of the third page. They
-were dilapidated-looking letters, possibly owing to the fact that they
-were read last thing every night and first thing every morning, and that
-they were kept under Anne's pillow at night, so that if she waked she
-could touch them. It is hardly necessary to add that they were in
-Stephen's small, cramped, mercantile handwriting.
-
-Stephen had been recalled to South Africa on urgent business early in
-the autumn. He had been there for nearly three months. During that time,
-after intense cogitation, he had written twice to Anne. I am under the
-impression that he was under the impression that those two documents
-were love letters. At any rate, they were the only two letters which
-Stephen ever composed which could possibly be classed under that
-heading. And their composition cost him much thought. In them he was so
-good as to inform Anne of the population of the town he wrote from, its
-principal industries, its present distress under martial law. He also
-described the climate. His nearest approach to an impulsive outburst was
-a polite expression of hope that she and her parents were well, and that
-he expected to be in England again by Christmas. Anne kissed the
-signature, and then laughed till she cried over the letter. Stephen did,
-as a matter of fact, indite a third letter, but it was of so bold a
-nature--it expressed a wish to see her again--that, after reading it
-over about twenty times, he decided not to risk sending it.
-
-When Anne was an old woman she still remembered the population of two
-distracted little towns in South Africa, and their respective
-industries.
-
-Stephen was as good as his word. His large foot was once more planted on
-English soil a day or two before Christmas. In spite of an overwhelming
-pressure of business, he had found time to dine with Anne and her father
-several times since he arrived. The Duke had met him at a directors'
-meeting, and quite oblivious of Anne's refusal of him, had pressed him
-to come back with him to dinner. The Duke asked him constantly to dine
-after that. The old attraction between the two men renewed its hold.
-
-These quiet evenings round the fire seemed to Stephen to contain the
-pith of life. The Duke talked well, but on occasion Stephen talked
-better. Anne listened. The kitchen cat, now alas! grown large and
-vulgar, with an unmodulated purr, was allowed to make a fourth in these
-peaceful gatherings, and had coffee out of Anne's saucer, sugared by
-Stephen, every evening.
-
-Then, for no apparent reason, Stephen ceased to come.
-
-Anne, who had endured so much suspense about him, could surely endure a
-little more. But it seemed she could not. For a week he did not come. In
-that one week she aged perceptibly. The old pain took her again, the
-old anger and resentment at being made to suffer, the old fierceness,
-"which from tenderness is never far." She had thought that she had
-conquered these enemies so often, that she had routed them so entirely,
-that they could never confront her again. But they did. In the ranks of
-her old foes a new one had enlisted--Hope; and Hope, if he forces his
-way into the heart where he has been long a stranger, knows how to
-reopen many a deep and barely healed wound, which will bleed long after
-he is gone.
-
-And where were Anne's patience, her old steadfastness and fortitude?
-Could they be worn out?
-
-As she stood by the window, trying to summon her faithless allies to her
-aid, her father came in, with a newspaper in his hand.
-
-"This is serious," he said, "about Vanbrunt."
-
-She turned upon him like lightning.
-
-The Duke tapped the paper.
-
-"I knew Vanbrunt was in difficulties," he said. "A week ago, when he
-was last here, he advised me sell out certain shares. It seems he would
-not sell out himself. He said he would see it through, and now the smash
-has come. I'm afraid he's ruined."
-
-A beautiful colour rose to Anne's face. Her eyes shone. She felt a
-sudden inrush of life. She became young, strong, alert.
-
-Her father was too much preoccupied to notice her.
-
-"Vanbrunt is a fine man," he said. "He had ample time to get out. But he
-stuck to the ship, and he has gone down with it. I'm sorry. I liked
-him."
-
-"Are you sure he is really ruined?"
-
-"The papers say so. They also say he can meet his liabilities." The Duke
-read aloud a paragraph which Anne did not understand. "That spells ruin
-even for him," he said.
-
-He took several turns across the room.
-
-"He has been working day and night for the last week," he said, "to
-avoid this crash. It might have been avoided. He told me a little when
-he was last here, but in confidence. He is straight, but others weren't.
-He has not been backed. He has been let in by his partners."
-
-The Duke sighed, and went back to his study on the ground floor.
-
-Anne opened the window with a trembling hand, and peered out into the
-fog.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Stephen was sitting in his inner room at his office in the City, biting
-an already sufficiently bitten little finger. His face bore the mark of
-the incessant toil of the last week. His eyes were fixed absently on the
-electric light. His mind was concentrated with unabated strength on his
-affairs, as a magnifying glass may focus its light into flame on a given
-point. He had fought strenuously, and he had been beaten--not by fair
-means. He could meet the claims upon him. He could, in his own language,
-"stand the racket;" but in the eyes of the financial world he was
-ruined. In his own eyes he was on the verge of ruin. But a man with an
-iron nerve can find a foothold on precipices where another turns giddy
-and loses his head. Stephen's courage rose to the occasion. He felt
-equal to it. His strong, acute, alert mind worked indefatigably hour
-after hour, while he sat apparently idle. He was not perturbed. He saw
-his way through.
-
-He heard the newsboys in the streets crying out his bankruptcy, and
-smiled. At last he drew a sheet of paper towards him, and became
-absorbed in figures.
-
-He was never visible to anyone when he was in this inner chamber. His
-head clerk knew that he must not on any pretext be disturbed. And those
-who knew Stephen discovered that he was not to be disturbed with
-impunity.
-
-He looked up at last, and rose to his feet, shaking himself like a dog.
-
-"I can carry through," he said. "They think I can't, but I can. But if
-the worst comes to the worst--which it shall not--I doubt if I shall
-have a shilling left."
-
-He took a turn in the room.
-
-"Wait a bit, you fools," he said half aloud; "if your cowardice does
-ruin me, wait a bit. I have made money not once, nor twice,--and I can
-make it again."
-
-A tap came to the door.
-
-He reddened with sudden anger. Did not Jones know that he was not to be
-interrupted till two, when he must meet, and, if possible, pacify
-certain half frantic, stampeding shareholders?
-
-The door opened with decision, and Anne came in. For a moment Stephen
-saw the aghast face of his head clerk behind her. Then Anne shut the
-door and confronted him.
-
-The image of Anne was so constantly with Stephen, her every little trick
-of manner, from the way she turned her head, to the way she folded her
-hands, was all so carefully registered in his memory, had become so
-entirely a part of himself, that it was no surprise to him to see her.
-Did he not see her always! Nevertheless, as he looked at her, all power
-of going forward to meet her, of speaking to her, left him. The blood
-seemed to ebb slowly from his heart, and his grim face blanched.
-
-"How did you come here?" he stammered at last, his voice sounding harsh
-and unfamiliar.
-
-"On foot."
-
-"In this fog?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Who came with you?"
-
-"I came alone. I wished to speak to you. I hear you are ruined."
-
-"I can meet my liabilities," he said proudly.
-
-"Is it true that you have lost two millions?"
-
-"It is--possibly more."
-
-A moment of terror seemed to pass over Anne. The lovely colour in her
-cheek faded suddenly. She supported herself against the table, with a
-shaking gloved hand. Then she drew herself up, and said in a firm voice:
-
-"Do you remember that night in Hamilton Gardens when you asked me to
-marry you?"
-
-Stephen bowed. He could not speak. Even his great strength was only just
-enough.
-
-"I refused you because I saw you were convinced that I did not care for
-you. If I had told you I loved you then you would not have believed it."
-
-Stephen's hand gripped the mantelpiece. He was trembling from head to
-foot. His eyes never left her.
-
-"But now the money is gone," she said, becoming paler than ever,
-"perhaps, now the dreadful money is gone, you will believe me if I tell
-you that I love you."
-
-And so Stephen and Anne came home to each other at last--at last.
-
- * * * * *
-
-"My dear," said the Duke to Anne the following day, "this is a very
-extraordinary proceeding of yours. You refuse Vanbrunt when he is rich,
-and accept him when he is tottering on the verge of ruin. It seems a
-reversal of the usual order of things. What will your mother say?"
-
-"I have already had a letter from her, thanking Heaven that I was not
-engaged to him. She says a good deal about how there is a Higher Power
-which rules things for the best."
-
-"I wish you would allow it freer scope," said the Duke. "All the same, I
-should be thankful if she were here. It will be my horrid, vulgar duty
-to ask Vanbrunt what he has got; what small remains there are of his
-enormous fortune. I hear on good authority that he is almost penniless.
-One is not a parent for nothing. I wish to goodness your mother were in
-town. She always did this sort of thing herself with a dreadful relish
-on previous occasions. You must push him into my study, my dear, after
-his interview with you. I will endeavour to act the heavy father. That
-is his bell. I will depart. I have letters to write."
-
-The Duke left the room, and then put his head in again.
-
-"It may interest you to know, Anne," he said, "that I've seen handsomer
-men, and I've seen better dressed men, and I've even seen men of rather
-lighter build, but I've not seen any man I like better than your
-ex-millionaire."
-
-Two hours later, after Stephen's departure, the Duke returned to his
-daughter's sitting-room, and sank exhausted into a chair.
-
-"Really I can't do this sort of thing twice in a lifetime," he said
-faintly. "Have you any salts handy? No--you--need not fetch them. I'm
-not seriously indisposed. How heartlessly blooming you are looking,
-Anne, while your parent is suffering. Now remember, if ever you want to
-marry again, don't send your second husband to interview me, for I won't
-have it."
-
-"Come, come, father. Didn't you tell me to push him into your study? And
-I thought you looked so impressive and dignified when I brought him in.
-Quite a model father."
-
-"I took a firm attitude with him," continued the Duke. "I saw he was
-nervous. That made it easier for me. Vanbrunt is a shy man. I was in the
-superior position. Hateful thing to ask a man for his daughter. I said,
-'Now look here, Vanbrunt, I understand you wish to marry my daughter. I
-don't wish it myself, but----'"
-
-"Oh! father, you never said that?"
-
-"Well, not exactly. I owned to him that I could put up with him better
-than with most, but that I could not let you marry to poverty. He asked
-me what I considered poverty. That rather stumped me. In fact, I did not
-know what to say. It was not his place to ask questions."
-
-"Father, you did promise me you would let me marry him on eight hundred
-a year."
-
-"Well, yes, I did. I don't like it, but I did say so. In short, I told
-him you had worked me up to that point."
-
-"And what did he say?"
-
-"He said he did not think in that case that any real difficulty about
-money need arise; that at one moment he had stood to lose all he had,
-and he had lost two millions, but that his affairs had taken an
-unexpected turn during the last twenty-four hours, and he believed he
-could count on an odd million or so, certainly on half a million. I
-collapsed, Anne. My attitude fell to pieces. It was Vanbrunt who scored.
-He had had a perfectly grave face till then. Then he smiled grimly, and
-we shook hands. He did not say much, but what he did say was to the
-point. I think, my dear, that while Vanbrunt lasts, his love for you
-will last. He has got it very firmly screwed into him. But these
-interviews annihilate me."
-
-The Duke raised the kitchen cat to his knee, and rubbed it behind the
-ears.
-
-"I made the match, Anne," he said; "you owe it all to me. I asked him to
-dinner when I met him at that first directors' meeting a fortnight ago.
-I had it in my mind then."
-
-"Father! You _know_ you had not."
-
-"Well, no. I had not. I did not think of it! I can't say I did. But
-still, I was a sort of bulwark to the whole thing. You had my moral
-support. I shall tell your mother so."
-
-
-
-
-CONCLUSION
-
- "So passes, all confusedly
- As lights that hurry, shapes that flee
- About some brink we dimly see,
- The trivial, great,
- Squalid, majestic tragedy
- Of human fate."
-
- --WILLIAM WATSON
-
-
-I wish life were more like the stories one reads, the beautiful stories,
-which, whether they are grave or gay, still have picturesque endings.
-The hero marries the heroine, after insuperable difficulties, which in
-real life he would never have overcome: or the heroine creeps down into
-a romantic grave, watered by our scalding tears. At any rate, the story
-is gracefully wound up. There is an ornamental conclusion to it. But
-life, for some inexplicable reason, does not lend itself with docility
-to the requirements of the lending libraries, and only too frequently
-fails to grasp the dramatic moment for an impressive close. None of us
-reach middle age without having watched several violent melodramas,
-whose main interest lies further apart from their moral than we were
-led, in our tender youth, to anticipate. We have seen better plays off
-the stage than even Shakespeare ever put on. But Shakespeare finished
-his, and pulled down the curtain on them; while, with those we watch in
-life, we have time to grow grey between the acts; and we only know the
-end has come, when at last it does come, because the lights have been
-going out all the time, one by one, and we find ourselves at last alone
-in the dark.
-
-Janet's sweet melancholy face rises up before me as I think of these
-things, and I could almost feel impatient with her, when I remember how
-the one dramatic incident in her uneventful life never seemed to get
-itself wound up. The consequences went on, and on, and on, till all
-novelty and interest dropped inevitably from them and from her.
-
-Some of us come to turning-points in life, and don't turn. We become
-warped instead. It was so with Janet.
-
-Is there any turning-point in life like our first real encounter with
-anguish, loneliness, despair?
-
-I do not pity those who meet open-eyed these stern angels of God, and
-wrestle with them through the night, until the day breaks, extorting
-from them the blessings that they waylaid us to bestow. But is it
-possible to withhold awed compassion for those who, like Janet, go down
-blind into Hades, and struggle impotently with God's angels as with
-enemies? Janet endured with dumb, uncomplaining dignity she knew not
-what, she knew not why; and came up out of her agony, as she had gone
-down into it--with clenched empty hands. The greater hope, the deeper
-love, the wider faith, the tenderer sympathy--these she brought not back
-with her. She returned gradually to her normal life with her
-conventional ideas crystallised, her small crude beliefs in love and her
-fellow-creatures withered.
-
-That was all George did for her.
-
-The virtues of narrow natures such as George's seem of no use to anyone
-except possibly to their owner. They are as great a stumbling-block to
-their weaker brethren, they cause as much pain, they choke the spiritual
-life as mercilessly, they engender as much scepticism in unreasoning
-minds, as certain gross vices. If we are unjust, it matters little to
-our victim what makes us so, or whether we have prayed to see aright, if
-for long years we have closed our eyes to unpalatable truths.
-
-George's disbelief in Janet's rectitude, which grew out of a deep sense
-of rectitude, had the same effect on her mind as if he had deliberately
-seduced and deserted her. The executioner reached the gallows of his
-victim by a clean path. That was the only difference. So much the better
-for him. The running noose for her was the same. Unreasoning belief in
-love and her fellow-creatures was followed by an equally unreasoning
-disbelief in both.
-
-Janet kept her promise. She held firm. Amid all the promises of the
-world, made only to be broken, kept only till the temptation to break
-them punctually arrived, amid all that débris one foolish promise
-remained intact, Janet's promise to Cuckoo.
-
-George married. Then, shortly afterwards, Fred married the eldest Miss
-Ford, and found great happiness. His bliss was at first painfully
-streaked with total abstinence, but he gradually eradicated this
-depressing element from his new home life. And in time his slight
-insolvent nature reached a kind of stability, through the love of the
-virtuous female prig, the "perfect lady," to whom he was all in all.
-Fred changed greatly for the better after his marriage, and in the end
-he actually repaid Stephen part of the money the latter had advanced to
-Monkey Brand, for Janet's sake.
-
-Janet lived with the young couple at first, but Mrs Fred did not like
-her. She knew vaguely, as did half the neighbourhood, that Janet had
-been mixed up in something discreditable, and that her engagement had
-been broken off on that account. Mrs Fred was, as we know, a person of
-the highest principles; and high principles naturally shrink from
-contact with any less exalted. Several months after the situation
-between the two women had become untenable, Janet decided to leave home.
-She had nowhere to go, and no money; so, like thousands of other women
-in a similar predicament, she decided to support herself by education.
-She had received no education herself, but that was not in her mind any
-bar to imparting it. Anne, who had kept in touch with her, interfered
-peremptorily at this point, and when Janet did finally leave home, it
-was to go to Anne's house in London, till "something turned up."
-
-It was a sunny day in June when Janet arrived in London, for the first
-time since her ill-fated visit there a year ago. She looked up at
-Lowndes Mansions, as her four-wheeler plodded past them, towards Anne's
-house in Park Lane. Even now, a year after the great fire, scaffoldings
-were still pricking up against the central tower of the larger block of
-building. The damage caused by the fire was not even yet quite
-repaired. Perhaps some of it would never be repaired.
-
-Mrs Trefusis was sitting with Anne on this particular afternoon,
-confiding to her some discomfortable characteristics of her new
-daughter-in-law, the wife whom she had herself chosen for her son.
-
-"I am an old woman," said Mrs Trefusis, "and of course I don't march
-with the times, the world is for the young, I know that very well; but I
-must own, Anne, I had imagined that affection still counted for
-something in marriage."
-
-"I wonder what makes you think that."
-
-"Well, not the marriages I see around me, my dear, that is just what I
-say, though what has made you so cynical all at once, I don't know. But
-I ask you--look at Gertrude. She does not know what the word 'love'
-means."
-
-"I'm not so sure of that."
-
-"I am. She has been married to George three months, and it might be
-thirty years by the way they behave. And she seemed such a particularly
-nice girl, and exceedingly sensible, and well brought up. I should have
-thought she would at any rate _try_ to make my boy happy, after all the
-sorrow he has gone through. But they don't seem to have any real link to
-each other. It isn't that they don't get on. They do in a way. She is
-sharp enough for that. She does her duty by him. She is nice to him, but
-all her interests, and she has interests, seem to lie apart from
-anything to do with him."
-
-"Does he mind?"
-
-"I never really know what George minds or doesn't mind," said Mrs
-Trefusis. "It has been the heaviest cross of the many crosses I have had
-to bear in life, that he never confides in me. George has always been
-extremely reticent. Thoughtful natures often are. He will sit for hours
-without saying a word, looking----"
-
-"_Glum_ is the word she wants," said Anne to herself, as Mrs Trefusis
-hesitated.
-
-"Reserved," said Mrs Trefusis. "He does not seem to care to be with
-Gertrude. And yet you know Gertrude is very taking, and there is no
-doubt she is good-looking. And she sings charmingly. Unfortunately
-George does not care for music."
-
-"She is really musical."
-
-"They make a very handsome couple," said Mrs Trefusis plaintively. "When
-I saw them come down the aisle together I felt happier about him than I
-had done for years. It seemed as if I had been rewarded at last. And I
-never saw a bride smile and look as bright as she did. But somehow it
-all seems to have fallen flat. She didn't even care to see the
-photographs of George when he was a child, when I got them out the other
-day. She said she would like to see them, and then forgot to look at
-them."
-
-Anne was silent.
-
-"Well," said Mrs Trefusis, rising slowly, "I suppose the truth is that
-in these days young people don't fall in love as they did in my time. I
-must own Gertrude has disappointed me."
-
-"I daresay she will make him a good wife."
-
-"Oh! my dear, she does. She is an extremely practical woman, but one
-wants more for one's son than a person who will make him a good wife. If
-she were a less good wife, and cared a little more about him, I should
-feel less miserable about the whole affair."
-
-Mrs Trefusis sighed heavily.
-
-"I must go," she said, in the voice of one who might be persuaded to
-remain.
-
-But Anne did not try to detain her, for she was expecting Janet every
-moment, though she did not warn Mrs Trefusis of the fact, for the name
-of Janet was never mentioned between Anne and Mrs Trefusis. Mrs Trefusis
-had once diffidently endeavoured to reopen the subject with Anne, but
-found it instantly and decisively closed. If Janet had existed in a
-novel, she would certainly have been coming up Anne's wide white
-staircase at the exact moment that Mrs Trefusis was going down them,
-but, as a matter of fact, Mrs Trefusis was packed into her carriage, and
-drove away, quite half a minute before Janet's four-wheeler came round
-the corner.
-
-Anne's heart ached for Janet when she appeared in the doorway. She
-almost wished that Mrs Trefusis had been confronted with the worn white
-face of the only woman who had loved her son.
-
-Janet and Anne kissed each other.
-
-Then Janet looked at the wedding ring on Anne's finger, and smiled at
-her in silence.
-
-Anne looked down tremulously, for fear lest the joy in her eyes should
-make Janet's heart ache, as her own heart had ached one little year ago,
-when she had seen Janet and George together in the rose garden.
-
-"I am so glad," said Janet. "I did so wish that time at Easthope--do you
-remember?--that you could be happy too. It's just a year ago."
-
-"Just a year," said Anne.
-
-"I suppose you cared for him then," said Janet. "But I expect it was in
-a more sensible way than I did. You were always so much wiser than me.
-One lives and learns."
-
-"I cared for him then," said Anne, busying herself making tea for her
-friend. When she had made it she went to a side table, and took from it
-a splendid satin tea cosy, which she placed over the teapot. It had been
-Janet's wedding present to her.
-
-Janet's eyes lighted on it with pleasure.
-
-"I am glad you use it every day," she said. "I was so afraid you would
-only use it when you had company."
-
-Anne stroked it with her slender white hand. There was a kind of tender
-radiance about her which Janet had never observed in her before.
-
-"It makes me happy that you are happy," said Janet. "I only hope it will
-last. I felt last year that you were in trouble. Since then it has been
-my turn."
-
-"I wish happiness could have come to both of us," said Anne.
-
-"Do you remember our talk together," said Janet, spreading out a clean
-pocket-handkerchief on her knee, and stirring her tea, "and how
-sentimental I was? I daresay you thought at the time how silly I was
-about George. I see now what a fool I was."
-
-Anne did not answer. She was looking earnestly at Janet, and there was
-no need for her now to veil the still gladness in her eyes. They held
-only pained love and surprise.
-
-"And do you remember how the clergyman preached about not laying up our
-treasure on earth?"
-
-"I remember everything."
-
-"I've often thought of that since," said Janet, with a quiver in her
-voice, which brought back once more to Anne the childlike innocent
-creature of a year ago, whom she now almost failed to recognise, in her
-new ill-fitting array of cheap cynicism.
-
-"I did lay up my treasure upon earth," continued Janet, drawn
-momentarily back into her old simplicity by the presence of Anne. "I
-didn't seem able to help it. George was my treasure. I mustn't think of
-him any more because he's married. But I cared too much. That was where
-I was wrong."
-
-"One cannot love too much," said Anne, her fingers closing over her
-wedding ring.
-
-"Perhaps not," said Janet, "but then the other person must love too.
-George did not love me enough to carry through. When the other person
-cares, but doesn't care strong enough, I think that's the worst. It's
-like what the Bible says. The moth and rust corrupting. George did care,
-but not enough. Men are like that."
-
-"Some one else cares," said Anne diffidently--"poor Mr de Rivaz. He
-cares enough."
-
-"Yes," said Janet apathetically. "I daresay he does. We've all got to
-fall in love some time or other. But I don't care for him. I told him so
-months ago. I don't mean to care for any one again. I've thought a great
-deal about things this winter, Anne. It's all very well for you to
-believe in love. I did once, but I don't now."
-
-Janet got up, and, as she turned, her eyes fixed suddenly.
-
-"Why, that's the cabinet," she said below her breath. "Cuckoo's
-cabinet!" Her face quivered. She saw again the scorched room, the pile
-of smoking papers on the hearth, the flame which had burnt up her
-happiness with them.
-
-Anne did not understand.
-
-"Stephen gave me that cabinet a few days ago," she said.
-
-"It was Cuckoo's. It used to stand under her picture."
-
-"Don't you think it may be a replica?"
-
-"No, it is the same," said Janet, passing her hand over the mermaid and
-her whale. "There is the little chip out of the dolphin's tail."
-
-Then she shrank suddenly away from it, as if its touch scorched her.
-
- * * * * *
-
-"Where did you get the Italian cabinet?" said Anne to Stephen that
-evening, as he and De Rivaz joined her and Janet after dinner in her
-sitting-room.
-
-"At Brand's sale. He sold some of his things when he gave up his flat in
-Lowndes Mansions. He has gone to South Africa for his boy's health."
-
-Stephen opened it. Janet drew near.
-
-"I had to have a new key made for it," he said, letting the front fall
-forward on his careful hand. "Look, Anne! how beautifully the drawers
-are inlaid."
-
-He pulled out one or two of them.
-
-Janet slowly put out her hand, and pulled out the lowest drawer on the
-left-hand side. It stuck, and then came out. It was empty like all the
-rest.
-
-Stephen closed it, and then drew it forward again.
-
-"Why does it stick?" he said.
-
-He got the drawer entirely out, and looked into the aperture. Then he
-put in his hand, and pulled out something wedged against the slip of
-wood which supported the upper drawer, without reaching quite to the
-back of the cabinet. It was a crumpled, dirty sheet of paper. He tore it
-as he forced it out.
-
-"It must have been in the lowest drawer but one," he said, "and fallen
-between the drawer and its support."
-
-Janet was the first to see her brother's signature, and she pointed to
-it with a cry.
-
-It was the missing I O U.
-
-"I always said it would turn up," said Stephen gently.
-
-"But it's too late," said Janet hoarsely, "too late! too late! Oh! why
-didn't George believe in me!"
-
-"He will believe now."
-
-"It doesn't matter what he believes now. Why didn't he _know_ I had not
-burnt it?"
-
-"I believed in you," said De Rivaz, his voice shaking. "I knew you had
-not burnt it, though I saw you burning papers. Though I saw you with my
-own eyes, I did not believe."
-
-There was a moment's pause. Her three faithful friends looked at Janet.
-
-"I burnt nothing," she said.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Janet married De Rivaz at last, but not until she had nearly worn him
-out. It was after their marriage that he painted his marvellous portrait
-of her, a picture that was the outcome of a deep love, wed with genius.
-
-She made him a good wife, as wives go, and bore him beautiful children,
-but she never cared for him as she had done for George. Later on her
-daughters carried their love affairs, not to their mother, but--to
-Anne.
-
-
- * * * * *
-
-
-
-
-GEOFFREY'S WIFE
-
- "Oh, how this spring of love resembleth
- Th' uncertain glory of an April day."
-
-
-Every one felt an interest in them. The mob-capped servants hung over
-the banisters to watch them go downstairs. Alphonse reserved for them
-the little round table in the window, which commanded the best view of
-the court, with its dusty flower-pots grouped round an intermittent
-squirt of water. Even the landlord, Monsieur Leroux, found himself often
-in the gateway when they passed in or out, in order to bow and receive a
-merry word and glance.
-
-Even the _concierge_, who dwelt retired, aloof from the contact of the
-outer world in his narrow, key-adorned shrine, even he unbent to them
-and smiled back when they smiled. It was a queer little old-fashioned
-hotel, rather out of the way. Nevertheless, young married couples _had_
-stayed there before. Their name, indeed, at certain periods of the year
-was Legion. There were other young married couples staying there at that
-very moment, but everybody felt that a peculiar interest attached to
-this young married couple. For one thing, they were so absurdly, so
-overwhelmingly happy. People, Monsieur Leroux himself, and others, had
-been happy in an early portion of their married lives, but not like this
-couple. People had had honeymoons before, but never one like this
-couple. Although they were English, they were so handsome and so sunny.
-And he was so well made and devoted, the chambermaids whispered. And,
-ah! how she was _piquante_, the waiters agreed.
-
-They had a little sitting-room. It was not the best sitting-room,
-because they were not very rich; but Geoffrey (she considered Geoffrey
-such a lovely name, and so uncommon) thought it the most delightful
-little sitting-room in the world when she was in it. And Mrs Geoffrey
-also liked it very much; oh! very much indeed.
-
-He had had hard work to win her. Sometimes, when he watched her tangling
-many-coloured wools over the mahogany back of one of the tight horsehair
-chairs, he could hardly believe that she was really his wife, that they
-were actually on that honeymoon for which he had toiled and waited so
-long. Beneath the gaiety and the elastic spirit of youth there was a
-depth of earnestness in Geoffrey which his little wife vaguely wondered
-at and valued as something beyond her ken, but infinitely heroic. He
-looked upon her with reverence and thanked God for her. He had never had
-much to do with womankind, and he felt a respectful tenderness for
-everything of hers, from her prim maid to her foolish little shoelace,
-which was never tired of coming undone, and which he was never tired of
-doing up. The awful responsibility of guarding such a treasure, and an
-overpowering sense of its fragility, were ever before his mind. He
-laughed and was gay with her, but in his heart of hearts there was an
-acute joy nigh to pain--a wonder that he should have been singled out
-from among the sons of men to have the one pearl of great price bestowed
-upon him.
-
-They had come to Paris, and to Paris only, partly because it was the
-year of the Exhibition, and partly because she was not very strong, and
-was not to be dragged through snow and shaken in _diligences_ like other
-ordinary brides. The bare idea of Eva in a _diligence_, or tramping in
-Switzerland, was not to be thought of. No; Geoffrey knew better than
-that. A quiet fortnight in Paris, the Opera, the Exhibition, Versailles,
-St Cloud, Notre Dame--these were dissipations calculated not to disturb
-the exquisite poise of a health of such inestimable value. He knew Paris
-well. He had seen it all in those foolish bachelor days, when he had
-rushed across the water with men companions, knowing no better, and
-enjoying himself in a way even then.
-
-And so he took her to St Cloud, and showed her the wrecked palace; and
-they wandered by the fountains and bought _gaufre_ cake, which he told
-her was called "_plaisir_," only he was wrong--but what did that matter?
-And they went down to Versailles, and saw everything that every one else
-had seen, only they saw it glorified--at least he did. And they sat very
-quietly in Notre Dame, and listened to a half divine organ and a wholly
-divine choir, and Geoffrey looked at the sweet, awed face beside him,
-and wondered whether he could ever in all his life prove himself worthy
-of her. And though of course, being a Protestant, he did not like to
-pray in a Roman Catholic Church, still he came very near it, and was
-perhaps none the worse.
-
-And now the fortnight was nearly over. Geoffrey reflected with pride
-that Eva was still quite well. Her mother, of whom he stood in great
-awe--her mother, who had an avowed disbelief in the moral qualities of
-second sons--even her mother would not be able to find any fault. Why,
-James himself, his eldest brother, whom she had always openly preferred,
-could not have done better than he had done. He who had so longed to
-take her away was now almost longing to take her back home, just for
-five minutes, to show her family how blooming she was, how trustworthy
-he had proved himself to be.
-
-The fortnight was over on Saturday, but at the last moment they decided
-to stay till Monday. Was it not Sunday, the night of the great
-illuminations? suggested Alphonse reproachfully. Were not the Champs
-Elysées to present a spectacle? Were not fires of joy and artifice to
-mount from the Bois de Boulogne? Surely Monsieur and Madame would stay
-for the illuminations! Was not the stranger coming from unknown
-distances to witness the illuminations? Were not the illuminations in
-honour of the Exhibition? It could not be that Monsieur would suffer
-Madame to miss the illuminations.
-
-Eva was all eagerness to stay. Two more nights in Paris. To go out in
-the summer evening, and see Paris _en fête_! Delightful! Geoffrey was
-not to say a single word! He did not want to! Well, never mind, he was
-not to say one; and she was going instantly, that very moment, to stop
-Grabham packing up, and he was to go instantly, that very moment, to let
-Monsieur Leroux know they intended to stay on.
-
-And they both went instantly, that very moment, and they stayed on. And
-he was very severe in consequence, and refused to allow her to tire
-herself on Saturday, and insisted on her resting all Sunday afternoon,
-as a preparation for the dissipation of the evening. They had met some
-English friends on Sunday morning, who had invited them to their house
-in the Champ Elysées in the course of the evening to see the
-illuminations from their balcony. And then towards night Geoffrey
-became more autocratic than ever, and insisted on a woollen gown instead
-of a muslin, because he felt certain that it would not be so hot towards
-the middle of the night as it then was. She said a great many very
-unkind things to him, and they sallied forth together at nine o'clock as
-happy as two pleasure-seeking children.
-
-"You will not be of return till the early morning. I see it well," said
-Monsieur Leroux, bowing to them. "Monsieur does well to take the little
-_châle_ for Madame for fear later she should feel herself fresh. But as
-for rain, will not Madame leave her umbrella with the _concierge_? No?
-Monsieur prefers? _Eh bien! Bon soir!_"
-
-It was a perfect night. It had been fiercely hot all day, but it was
-cooler now. The streets were already full of people, all bearing the
-same way toward the Champ Elysées. With some difficulty Geoffrey
-procured a little carriage, and in a few minutes they were swept into
-the chattering, idle, busy throng, and slowly making their way toward
-the Langtons' house. Every building was gay with coloured lanterns. The
-Place de la Concorde shone afar like a belt of jewelled light. The great
-stone lions glowed upon their pedestals. Clear as in noonday sunshine,
-the rocking sea of merry faces met Eva's delighted gaze; she beaming
-with the rest.
-
-And now they were driving down the Champs Elysées. The fountains leaped
-in coloured flame. The Palais de l'Industrie gleamed from roof to
-basement, built in fire. The Arc de Triomphe, crowned with light, stood
-out against the dark of the moonless sky, flecked by its insignificant
-stars.
-
-"Beautiful! Beautiful!" and Eva clapped her hands and laughed.
-
-And now it was the painful, the desolating duty of the driver to tell
-them he could take them no further. Carriages were not allowed beyond a
-certain hour, and either he must take them back or put them down.
-Geoffrey demurred. Not so Mrs Geoffrey. In a moment she had sprung out
-of the carriage, and was laughing at the novel idea of walking in a
-crowd. Geoffrey paid his man and followed. There was plenty of room to
-walk in comfort, and Eva, on her husband's arm, wished the Langtons'
-house miles away, instead of a few hundred yards. She said she must and
-would walk home. Geoffrey must relent a little, or she on her side might
-not be so agreeable as she had hitherto shown herself. She was quite
-certain that she should catch a cold if she drove home in the night air
-in an open carriage. What was that he was mumbling? That if he had known
-_that_ he would not have brought her? But she was equally certain that
-it would not hurt her to walk home. Walking was a very different thing
-from driving in open carriages late at night. An ignorant creature like
-him might not think so, but her mother would not have allowed her to do
-such a thing for an instant. Geoffrey quailed, and gave utterance to
-that sure forerunner of masculine defeat, that "he would see."
-
-It was very delightful on the Langtons' balcony, with its constellation
-of swinging Chinese lanterns. Eva leaned over and watched the people,
-and chatted to her friends, and was altogether enchanting--at least
-Geoffrey thought so.
-
-The night is darkening now. The streets blaze bright and brighter. The
-crowd below rocks and thickens and shifts without ceasing. Long lines of
-flame burn red along the Seine, and mark its windings as with a hand of
-fire. The great electric light from the Trocadéro casts heavy shadows
-against the sky. Jets of fire and wild vagaries of leaping stars rush up
-out of the Bois de Boulogne.
-
-And now there is a contrary motion in the crowd, and a low murmur
-swells, and echoes, and dies, and rises again. The torchlight procession
-is coming. That square of fire, moving slowly down from the Arc de
-Triomphe through the heart of the crowd, is a troop of mounted soldiers
-carrying torches. Hark! Listen to the low, sullen growl of the
-multitude, like a wild beast half aroused.
-
-The army is very unpopular in Paris just now. See, as the soldiers come
-nearer, how the crowd sweeps and presses round them, tossing like an
-angry sea. Look how the soldiers rear their horses against the people to
-keep them back. Hark again to that fierce roar that rises to the balcony
-and makes little Eva tremble; the inarticulate voice of a great
-multitude raised in anger.
-
-They have passed now, and the crowd moves with them. Look down the
-Champs Elysées, right down to the cobweb of light which is the Place de
-la Concorde. One moving mass of heads! Look up toward the Arc de
-Triomphe. They are pouring down from it on their way back from the Bois
-in one continuous black stream, good-humoured and light-hearted again as
-ever, now the soldiers have passed.
-
-It is long past midnight. Ices and lemonade and sugared cakes have
-played their part. It is time to go home. The summer night is soft and
-warm, without a touch of chill. The other guests on the Langtons'
-balcony are beginning to disperse. The Langtons look as if they would
-like to go to bed. The crowd below is melting away every moment. The
-play is over.
-
-Eva is charmed when she hears that a carriage is not to be had in all
-Paris for love or money. To walk home through the lighted streets with
-Geoffrey! Delightful! A few cheerful leave-takings, and they are in the
-street again, with another English couple who are going part of the way
-with them.
-
-"Come, wife, arm-in-arm," says the elder man; adding to Geoffrey, "I
-advise you to do the same. The crowd is as harmless as an infant, but it
-will probably have a little animal spirits to get rid of, and it won't
-do to be separated."
-
-So arm-in-arm they went, walking with the multitude, which was not dense
-enough to hamper them. From time to time little groups of _gamins_ would
-wave their hats in front of magisterial buildings and sing the
-prohibited Marseillaise, while other bands of _gamins_, equally
-good-humoured, but more hot-headed, would charge through the crowd with
-Chinese lanterns and drums and whistles.
-
-"Not tired?" asked Geoffrey regularly every five minutes, drawing the
-little hand further through his arm.
-
-Not a bit tired, and Geoffrey was a foolish, tiresome creature to be
-always thinking of such things. She should say she _was_ tired next time
-if he did not take care. In fact, now she came to think of it, she was
-_rather_ tired by having to walk in such a heavy woollen gown.
-
-"Don't say that, for Heaven's sake, if it is not true!" said the
-long-suffering husband, "for we have a mile in front of us yet."
-
-The other couple wished them good-night and turned off down a side
-street. Everywhere the houses were putting out their lights. Night was
-gaining the upper hand at last. As they entered the Place de la
-Concorde, Geoffrey saw a small body of mounted soldiers crossing the
-Place. Instantly there was a hastening and pushing in the crowd, and the
-low, deep growl arose again, more ominous than ever. Geoffrey caught a
-glimpse of a sudden upraised arm, he heard a cry of defiance, and
-then--in a moment there was a roar and shout from a thousand tongues,
-and an infuriated mob was pressing in from every quarter, was elbowing
-past, was struggling to the front. In another second the whole Place de
-la Concorde was one seething mass of excited people, one hoarse jangle
-of tongues, one frantic effort to push in the direction the soldiers had
-taken.
-
-Geoffrey, a tall, athletic Englishman, looked over the surging sea of
-French heads, and looked in vain for a quarter to which he could beat a
-retreat. He had not room to put his arm round his wife. She had given a
-little laugh, but she was frightened, he knew, for she trembled in the
-grasp he tightened on her arm. One rapid glance showed him there was no
-escape. The very lions at the corners were covered with human figures.
-They were in the heart of the crowd. Its faint, sickening smell was in
-their nostrils.
-
-"No, Eva," he said, answering her imploring glance, "we can't get out of
-this yet. We must just move quietly, with the rest, and wait till we get
-a chance of edging off. Lean on me as much as you can."
-
-She was frightened and silent, and nestled close to him, being very
-small and slight of stature, and by nature timid.
-
-Another deep roar, and a sudden rush from behind, which sent them all
-forward. How the people pushed and elbowed! Bah! The smell of a crowd!
-Who that has been in one has ever forgotten it?
-
-This was a dreadful ordeal for his hothouse flower.
-
-"How are you getting on?" he asked with a sharp anxiety, which he vainly
-imagined did not betray itself in his voice.
-
-She was getting on very well, only--only could not they get out?
-
-Geoffrey looked round yet again in despair. Would it be possible to edge
-a little to the left, to the right, anywhere? He looked in vain. A
-vague, undefined fear took hold on him. "We must have patience, little
-one," he said. "Lean on me, and be brave."
-
-His voice was cheerful, but he felt a sudden horrible sinking of the
-heart. How should he ever get her out of this jostling, angry crowd
-before she was quite tired out? What mad folly it had been to think of
-walking home! Poor Geoffrey forgot that there had been no other way of
-getting home, and that even his mother-in-law could not hold him
-responsible for a disagreement between the soldiers and the citizens.
-
-Another ten minutes! Geoffrey cursed within himself the illumination and
-the soldiers and his own folly, and the rough men and rougher women,
-whom, do what he would, he could not prevent pressing upon her.
-
-She did not speak again for some time, only held fast by his arm.
-Suddenly her little hands tightened convulsively on it, and a face pale
-to the lips was raised to his.
-
-"Geoffrey, I'm very sorry," with a half sob, "but I'm afraid I'm going
-to faint."
-
-The words came like a blow, and drove the blood from his face. The vague
-undefined fear had suddenly become a hideous reality. He steadied his
-voice and spoke quietly, almost sternly.
-
-"Listen to me, Eva," he said. "Make an effort and attend, and do as I
-tell you. The crowd will move again in a moment. I see a movement in
-front already. Directly the move comes the press will loosen for an
-instant. I shall push in front of you and stoop down. You will instantly
-get on my back. I insist upon it. I will do my best to help you up, but
-I can't get hold of you in any other way. The faintness will pass off
-directly you are higher up and can get a breath of air. Now do you
-understand?"
-
-She did not answer, but nodded.
-
-There was a moment's pause, and the movement came. Geoffrey flung down
-his stick, drew his wife firmly behind him, and pressing suddenly with
-all his might upon those in front, made room to stoop down. Two nervous
-hands were laid on his coat. Good God! she hesitated. A moment more, and
-the crowd behind would force him down, and they would both be lost.
-"Quick! Quick!" he shouted; but before the words had left his lips the
-trembling arms were clasped convulsively round his neck, and with a
-supreme effort he was on his legs again, shaking like a leaf with the
-long horror of that moment's suspense.
-
-But the tight clasp of the hands round his neck, the burden on his
-strong shoulders, nerved him afresh. He felt all his vitality and
-resolution return tenfold. He could endure anything which he had to
-endure alone, now that horrible anxiety for her was over. He could no
-longer tell where he was. He was bent too much to endeavour to do
-anything except keep on his feet. A long wait! Would the crowd never
-disperse? Moving, stopping, pushing, pressing, stopping again. Another
-pause, which seemed as if it would never end. A contrary motion now, and
-he had not room to turn! No. Thank Heaven! A tremor through the crowd,
-and then a fierce snarl and a rush. A violent push from behind. A
-plunge. Down on one knee. Good God! A blow on the mouth from some one's
-elbow. A wild struggle. A foot on his hand. Another blow. Up again. Up,
-only to strike his foot against a curbstone, and to throw all his weight
-away from a sudden pool of water on his left, into which he is being
-edged.
-
-The great drops are on his brow, and his breath comes short and thick.
-He staggers again. The weight on him and his fall are beginning to tell.
-But as his strength wanes a dogged determination takes its place. He
-steels his nerves and pulls himself together. It is only a question of
-time. He will and must hold out. His whole soul is centred on one thing,
-to keep his feet. Once down--and--he clenches his teeth. He will not
-suffer himself to think. He is bruised and aching in every limb with the
-friction of the crowd. Drums begin to beat in his temples, and his mouth
-is bleeding. There is a mist of blood and dust before his eyes. But he
-holds on with the fierce energy of despair. Another push. God in Heaven!
-almost down again! He can see nothing. A frantic struggle in the dark.
-The arms round his neck tremble, and he hears a sharp-drawn gasp of
-terror. Hands from out of the darkness clutch him up, and he regains his
-footing once more. "Courage, Monsieur," says a kind voice, and the hands
-are swept out of his. He tries to move his lips in thanks, but no words
-come. There is a noise in the crowd, but it is as a feeble murmur to the
-roar and sweep and tumult of many waters that is sounding in his ears.
-He cannot last much longer now. He is spent. But the crowd is thinning.
-If he can only keep his feet a few minutes more! The crowd is thinning.
-He catches a glimpse of ground in front of him. But it sways before him
-like the waves of the sea. One moment more. He stumbles aside where he
-feels there is space about him.
-
-There is a sudden hush and absence of pressure. _He is out of the
-crowd._ He is faintly conscious that the tramp of many feet is passing
-but not following him. The pavement suddenly rises up and strikes him
-down upon it. He cannot rise again. But it matters little, it matters
-little. It is all over. The fight is won, and she is safe. He tries to
-lift his leaden hand to unloose the locked fingers that hurt his neck.
-At his touch they unclasp, trembling. She has not fainted then. He
-almost thought she had. He raises himself on his elbow, and tries to
-wipe the red mist from his eyes that he may see her the more clearly.
-She slips to the ground, and he draws her to him with his nerveless
-arms. The street lamps gleam dull and yellow in the first wan light of
-dawn, and as his haggard eyes look into hers, her face becomes clear
-even to his darkening vision--and--_it is another woman!_ Another woman!
-A poor creature with a tawdry hat and paint upon her cheek, who tries to
-laugh, and then, dimly conscious of the sudden agony of the gray,
-blood-stained face, whimpers for mercy, and limps away into a doorway,
-to shiver and hide her worn face from the growing light.
-
- * * * * *
-
-It was one of the English acquaintances of the night before who found
-him later in the day, still seeking, still wandering from street to
-street.
-
-His old friend Langton came to him and took him away from the hotel to
-his own house. Alphonse wept and the _concierge_ could not restrain a
-tear.
-
-"And have they found _her_ yet?" asked Mrs Langton that night of her
-husband when he came in late.
-
-His face was very white.
-
-"Yes," he said, and turned his head away. "I've been to--I've seen--no
-one could have told--you would not have known who it was. And all her
-little things, her watch and rings--they were all gone. But the maid
-knew by the dress. And--and I wanted to save a lock of hair, but"--his
-voice broke down.--"So I got one of the little gloves for him. It was
-the only thing I could."
-
-He pulled out a half-worn tan glove, cut and dusty with the tramp of
-many feet, which the new wedding ring had worn ever so slightly on the
-third finger. He laid it reverently on the table and hid his face in his
-hands.
-
-"If he could only break down," he said at last. "He sits and sits, and
-never speaks or looks up."
-
-"Take him the little glove," said his wife softly. And Langton took it.
-
-The sharpness of death had cut too deep for tears, but Geoffrey kept the
-little glove, and--he has it still.
-
-
- * * * * *
-
-
-
-
-THE PITFALL
-
-
-
-
-PART I
-
- "Oh Thou who didst with Pitfall and with Gin
- Beset the Road I was to wander in."
-
- --OMAR KHAYYÁM.
-
-
-Lady Mary Carden sat near the open window of her blue and white boudoir
-looking out intently, fixedly across Park Lane at the shimmer of the
-trees in Hyde Park. It was June. It was sunny. The false gaiety of the
-season was all around her; flickering swiftly past her in the crush of
-carriages below her window; dawdling past her in the walking and riding
-crowds in the park. She looked at it without seeing it. Perhaps she had
-had enough of it, this strange conglomeration of alien elements and
-foreign bodies, this _bouille-à-baisse_ which is called "The Season."
-She had seen it all year after year for twelve years, varying as little
-as the bedding out of the flowers behind the railings. Perhaps she was
-as weary of society as most people become who take it seriously. She
-certainly often said that it was rotten to the core.
-
-She hardly moved. She sat with an open letter in her hand, thinking,
-thinking.
-
-The house was very still. Her aunt, with whom she lived, had gone early
-into the country for the day. The only sound, the monotonous whirr of
-the great machine of London, came from without.
-
-Mary was thirty, an age at which many women are still young, an age at
-which some who have heads under their hair are still rising towards the
-zenith of their charm. But Mary was not one of these. Her youth was
-clearly on the wane. She bore the imprint of that which ages--because if
-unduly prolonged it enfeebles--the sheltered life, a life centred in
-conventional ideas, dwarfed by a conventional religious code, a life
-feebly nourished on cut and dried charities sandwiched between petty
-interests and pettier pleasures. She showed the mark of her twelve
-seasons, and of what she had made of life, in the slight fading of her
-delicate complexion, the fatigued discontent of her blue eyes, the faint
-dignified dejection of her manner, which was the reflection of an
-unconscious veiled surprise that she of all women--she the gentle, the
-good, the religious, the pretty Mary Carden was still--in short was
-still Mary Carden.
-
-The onlooker would perhaps have shared that surprise. She was
-indubitably pretty, indubitably well bred, graceful, slender, with a
-delicate manicured hand, and fair waved hair. Her fringe, which seemed
-inclined to grow somewhat larger with the years, was nearly all her own.
-She possessed the art of dress to perfection. You could catalogue her
-good points. But somehow she remained without attraction. She lacked
-vitality, and those who lack vitality seldom seem to get or keep what
-they want, at any rate in this world.
-
-She was the kind of woman whom a man marries to please his mother, or
-because she is an heiress, or because he has been jilted and wishes to
-show how little he feels it. She was not a first choice.
-
-She was one of that legion of perfectly appointed women who at seventeen
-deplore the rapacity of the older girls in ruthlessly clutching up all
-the attention of the simpler sex; and who at thirty acidly remark that
-men care only for a pink cheek and a baby face.
-
-Poor Mary was thinking of a man now, of a certain light-hearted
-simpleton of a soldier with a slashed scar across his hand, which a
-Dervish had given him at Omdurman, the man as commonplace as herself, on
-whom for no particular reason she had glued her demure, obstinate,
-adhesive affections twelve years ago.
-
-Our touching faithfulness to an early love is often only owing to the
-fact that we have never had an adequate temptation to be unfaithful.
-Certainly with Mary it was so. The temptations had been pitiably
-inadequate. She had never swerved from that long-ago mild flirtation of
-a boy and girl in their teens, studiously thrown together by their
-parents. She had taken an unwearying interest in him. She had petitioned
-Heaven that he might pass for the Army, and he did just squeeze in. By
-the aid of fervent prayer she had drawn him safely through the Egyptian
-campaign, while other women's husbands and lovers fell right and left.
-He had not said anything definite before he went out, but Mary had found
-ample reasons for his silence. He could not bear to overshadow her life
-in case, etc., etc. But now he had been safely back a year, two years,
-and still he had said nothing. This was more difficult to account for.
-He was fond of her. There was no doubt about that. They had always been
-fond of each other. Every one had expected them to marry. His parents
-had wished it. Her aunt had favoured the idea with heavy-footed zeal.
-Her brother, Lord Rollington, when he had a moment to spare from his
-training-stable, had jovially opined that "Maimie" would be wise to
-book Jos Carstairs while she could, as if she was not careful she might
-outstand her market.
-
-Mary, who had for many years dreamed of gracefully yielding to Jos's
-repeated and urgent entreaties, had even begun to wonder whether it
-would not be advisable if one of her men relations were to "speak to
-Jos." Such things were done. As she had said to her aunt with dignity,
-"This sort of thing can't go on for ever," when her aunt--who yearned
-for the rest which, according to their own account, seems to elude stout
-persons--pleaded that difficulties clustered round such a course.
-
-The course was not taken, for Jos suddenly engaged himself to a girl of
-seventeen, a new girl whom London knew not, the only child of one of
-those ruinous unions which had been swallowed up in a flame of scandal
-seventeen years ago, which had been forgotten for seventeen years all
-but nine days.
-
-It was sedulously raked up again now. People whispered that Elsa Grey
-came of a bad stock; that Jos Carstairs was a bold man to marry a woman
-with such antecedents; a woman whose mother had slipped away out of her
-intolerable home years ago for another where apparently life had not
-been more tolerable.
-
-Jos brought his Elsa to see Mary, for he was only fit to wave his sword
-and say, "Come on, boys." He did not understand anything about anything.
-He only remembered that Mary was a tender, loving soul. Had she not
-shown herself so to him for years? So he actually besought Mary to be a
-friend to the beautiful young sombre creature whom he had elected to
-marry.
-
-Mary behaved admirably according to her code, touched Elsa's hand,
-civilly offered the address of a good dressmaker (not her best one), and
-hoped they should meet frequently. The girl looked at her once,
-wistfully, intently, with unfathomable lustrous eyes, as of some
-untamed, prisoned, woodland creature, and then took no further notice of
-her.
-
-That was a fortnight ago. They were to be married in three weeks.
-
-Mary sighed, and looked once again for the twentieth time at the letter
-in her hand. It was a long epistle from her bosom friend, Lady Francis
-Bethune, the electric tramways heiress, joylessly married to the
-handsomest man in London, the notorious Lord Francis Bethune.
-
-"My dear," said the letter, "men are always like that. They are brutes,
-and it is no good thinking otherwise. They will throw over the woman
-they have loved for years for a flower-girl. You are too good for him. I
-have always thought so. (So had Mary.) But the game is not up yet. I
-could tell him things about his Elsa that would surprise him, not that
-he ought to be surprised at anything in her mother's daughter. He is
-coming to me this afternoon to tea. He said he was busy; but I told him
-he must come as it was on urgent business, and so it is. He is my
-trustee, you know, and there really is something wrong. Francis has been
-at it again. After the business is over I shall tell him a few things
-very nicely about that girl. Now, my advice to you is--chuck the
-Lestrange's water-party this afternoon, and come in as if casually to
-see me. I shall leave you alone together, and you must do the rest
-yourself. You may pull it off yet, after what I shall say about Elsa,
-for Jos has a great idea of you. Wire your reply by code before midday."
-
-Mary got up slowly, and walked to the writing-table. Should she go and
-meet him? Should she not? She would go. She wrote a telegram quickly in
-code form. She knew the code so well that she did not stop to refer to
-it. She and Jos had played at code telegrams when he was cramming for
-the Army. She rang for the servant and sent out the telegram. Then she
-sat down and took up a book. It was nearly midday, and too hot to go
-out.
-
-But after a few minutes she cast it suddenly aside, and began to move
-restlessly about the room. What was the use of going, after all? What
-could she say to Jos if she did see him? How could she touch his heart?
-Like many another woman when she thinks of a man, Mary stopped before a
-small mirror, and looked fixedly at herself. Was she not pretty? Had she
-not gentle, appealing eyes? See her little hand raised to put back a
-strand of fair hair. Was not everything about her pretty, and refined,
-and good? The vision of Elsa rose suddenly before her, with her dark,
-mysterious beauty and her formidable youth. Mary's heart contracted
-painfully. "I love him, and she doesn't," she said to herself, with
-bitterness. But Jos would never give up Elsa. She would make him
-miserable, but--he would marry her. Oh! what was the use of going to
-waylay him to-day? Why had she lent herself to Lady Francis's idiotic
-plan? Why had she accepted from her help that was no help? She would
-telegraph again to say she would not come after all. No. She would
-follow up her own telegram, and tell her friend that on second thoughts
-she did not care to see Jos.
-
-She ran upstairs, put on her hat, and in a few minutes was driving in a
-hansom to Bruton Street. The Bethunes' footman knew her and admitted
-her, though Lady Francis was technically "not at home."
-
-Yes, her ladyship was in, but she was engaged with the doctor at the
-moment in the drawing-room. The footman hesitated. "They were a-tuning
-of the piano in her ladyship's boudoir," he said, and he tentatively
-opened the door of a room on the ground floor. It was Lord Francis'
-sitting-room.
-
-"Was his lordship in?"
-
-"No, his lordship had gone out early."
-
-"Then I will wait here," said Mary, "if you will let her ladyship know
-that I am here."
-
-The man withdrew.
-
-Mary's face reddened with annoyance. She disliked the idea of telling
-Lady Francis she had changed her mind, and the discussion of the
-subject. Oh! why had she ever spoken of the subject at all? Why had she
-telegraphed that she would come?
-
-The painful, reiterated stammering of the piano came to her from above.
-It seemed of a piece with her own indecision, her own monotonous
-jealousy.
-
-Suddenly the front door bell rang, and an instant later the footman came
-in with a telegram, put it on the writing-table, and went out again.
-
-Her telegram! Then she was not too late to stop it. She need not explain
-after all.
-
-The drawing-room door opened, and Lady Francis' high metallic voice
-sounded on the landing.
-
-Mary seized up the pink envelope and crushed it in her hand! What? The
-drawing-room door closed again. The conference with the doctor was not
-quite over after all. She tore open the telegram and looked again at her
-foolish words before destroying them.
-
-Then her colour faded, and the room went round with her. Who had changed
-what she had said? Why was it signed "Elsa"?
-
-She looked at the envelope. It was plainly addressed--"Lord Francis
-Bethune." She had never glanced at the address till this moment. The
-contents were in code as hers had been, but it was the same code, and
-before she knew she had done so, she had read it.
-
-What did it mean? What _could_ it mean? Why should Elsa promise to meet
-him after the Speaker's Stairs--to-day--at Waterloo main entrance?
-
-Mary was not quick-witted, but after a few dazed moments she suddenly
-understood. Elsa was about to go away with Lord Francis. But what Elsa?
-Her heart beat so hard that she could hardly breathe. Could it be Elsa
-Grey?
-
-As we piece together all at once a puzzle that has been too simple for
-us, so Mary remembered in a flash Elsa's enigmatical face, and a certain
-ball where she had seen--only for a moment as she passed--- Lord Francis
-and Elsa sitting out together. Elsa had looked quite different then. It
-_was_ Elsa Grey. She knew it. Degraded creature, not fit to be an honest
-man's wife.
-
-Mary shook from head to foot under a climbing, devastating emotion,
-which seemed to rend her whole being. The rival was gone from her path.
-Jos would come back to her.
-
-As she stood stunned, half blind, trembling, a hansom dashed up to the
-door, and in a moment Lord Francis' voice was in the hall speaking to
-the footman.
-
-"Any letters or telegrams?"
-
-"One telegram on your writing-table, my lord."
-
-The servant went on to explain something, Lady Mary Carden, etc., but
-his master did not hear him. He was in the room in a second, and had
-closed the door behind him. Lord Francis' beautiful, thin, reckless face
-was pinched and haggard. He seemed possessed by some fierce passion
-which had hold of him and drove him before it as a storm holds and spins
-a leaf.
-
-Mary was frightened, paralysed. She had not known that men could be so
-moved. He did not even see her. He rushed to the writing-table, and
-swept his eye over it. Then he gave a sharp, low, hardly human cry of
-rage and anguish, and turned to ring the bell. As he turned he saw her.
-
-"I beg your pardon. I don't understand," he said hoarsely. "Why did my
-fool of a servant bring you in here?"
-
-Then he saw the open telegram in her hand, and his face changed. It
-became alert, cold, implacable. There was a deadly pause. From the room
-above came the acute, persistent stammer of the piano.
-
-He took the telegram from her nerveless hand, read it, and put it in his
-pocket. He picked up the envelope from the floor, and threw it into the
-waste-paper basket. Then he came close up to her, and looked her in the
-eyes. There was murder in his.
-
-"It was in cypher," he said.
-
-She was incapable of speech.
-
-"But you understood it? Answer me. By--did you understand it, or did you
-not?"
-
-"I did not." She got the words out.
-
-"You are lying. You did, you paid spy. Now listen to me. If you dare to
-say one word of this to any living soul I'll----"
-
-The door suddenly opened, and Lady Francis hurried in.
-
-"Sorry to keep you, my dear," said the high, unmodulated voice. "Old
-Carr was such a time. What! You here, Francis? I thought you had gone
-out."
-
-"I have been doing my best to entertain Lady Mary till you appeared," he
-said.
-
-"I came to say I'm engaged this afternoon," said Mary. "I can't go with
-you to your concert."
-
-The footman appeared with another telegram.
-
-Lord Francis opened it before it could reach his wife, and then tossed
-it to her.
-
-"For you," he said, and left the room.
-
-"Well, my dear," said Lady Francis, "in this you say you _will_ come,
-and now you say you _won't_, or am I reading it wrong? I don't
-understand."
-
-"I have changed my mind," said Mary feebly. "I mean I can't throw over
-the Lestranges. I only ran in to explain. I must be going back now."
-
-Lord Francis, who was in the hall, put her into her hansom and closed
-the doors. As he did so he leaned forward and said:
-
-"If you dare to interfere with me you will pay for it."
-
-
-
-
-PART II
-
- "Ah! woe that youth should love to be
- Like this swift Thames that speeds so fast,
- And is so fain to find the sea,--
- That leaves this maze of shadow and sleep,
- These creeks down which blown blossoms creep,
- For breakers of the homeless deep."
-
- --EDMUND GOSSE.
-
-
-The little river steamer, with its gay awning, was hitched up to the
-Speaker's Stairs. The Lestranges were standing at the gangway welcoming
-their guests. There was a crowd watching along the parapet of
-Westminster Bridge just above.
-
-"Are we all here? It is past four," said Captain Lestrange to his wife.
-
-Mrs Lestrange looked round. "Eighteen, twenty, twenty-four. Ah! Here is
-Lady Mary Carden, late as usual. She is the last. No. There is one more
-to come. Miss Grey."
-
-"Which Miss Grey?"
-
-"Why, the one Jos Carstairs is to marry. She is coming under my wing.
-And now she isn't here. What on earth am I to do? We can't wait for
-ever."
-
-A tall white figure was advancing slowly, as if dragged step by step,
-through the shadow of the great grey building.
-
-"She does not hurry herself," said Mrs Lestrange indignantly, and she
-did not welcome Elsa very cordially as she came on board. The youngest
-of the party had made all the rest of that distinguished gathering wait
-for her.
-
-Mary, in a gown of immaculate white serge stitched with black, was
-sitting under the awning when Elsa passed her on her way towards a
-vacant seat lower down. The two women looked fixedly at each other for
-a moment, and in that moment Mary saw that Elsa knew that she knew. Even
-in that short time Lord Francis had evidently warned the girl against
-her.
-
-Do what she would, Mary could not help watching Elsa. This was the less
-difficult, as no one ever talked for long together to Mary. The seat
-next her was never resolutely occupied. Her gentle voice was one of
-those which swell the time-honoured complaint, that in society you hear
-nothing but the same vapid small talk, the same trivial remarks over and
-over again. She was not neglected, but she awakened no interest. Her
-china blue eyes turned more and more frequently towards that tall figure
-with its lithe, panther-like grace sitting in the sun, regardless of the
-glare. Mary, whose care for her own soul came second only to her care
-for her complexion, wondered at her recklessness.
-
-Mrs Lestrange introduced one or two men to Elsa, but they seemed to find
-but little to say to her. She was _distraite_, indifferent to what was
-going on round her. After a time she was left alone, except when Mrs
-Lestrange came to sit by her for a few minutes. Yet she was a marked
-feature of the party. Wherever Elsa might be she could not be
-overlooked. Mysterious involuntary power which some women possess, not
-necessarily young and beautiful like Elsa, of becoming wherever they go
-a centre, a focus of attention whether they will or no.
-
-Married men looked furtively at her, and whispered to their approving
-wives that Carstairs was a bold man, that nothing would have induced
-_them_ to marry a woman of that stamp. The unmarried men looked at her
-too, but said nothing.
-
-At seventeen Elsa's beauty was mature. It was not the thin wild-flower
-beauty of the young English girl who emerges but slowly from her
-chrysalis. It was the splendid pale perfection of the magnolia which
-opens in a night. The body had outstripped the embryo spirit. Out of the
-exquisite face, with its mysterious foreshadowing of latent emotion,
-looked the grave inscrutable eyes of a child.
-
-Elsa appeared quite unconscious of the interest she excited. She looked
-fixedly at the gliding dwindling buildings, at the little alert
-brown-sailed eel-boats, and the solemn low-swimming hay barges, burning
-yellow in the afternoon sun, and dropping gold into the grey water as
-they went. Sometimes she looked up at the overhanging bridges, and past
-them to the sky. Presently a white butterfly came twinkling on toddling,
-unsteady wings across the water, and settled on the awning. Elsa's eyes
-followed it. "It is coming with us," she said to Captain Lestrange, who
-was standing near her. The butterfly left the awning. It settled for a
-moment on the white rose on Elsa's breast. Now it was off again, a
-dancing baby fairy between the sunny sky and sunny river. Then all in a
-moment some gust of air caught its tiny spread sails, and flung it with
-wings outstretched upon the swift water.
-
-Elsa gave a cry, and tearing the rose out of her breast, leaned far
-over the railing and flung it towards the butterfly. It fell short. The
-current engulfed butterfly and rose together.
-
-Captain Lestrange caught her by the arm as she leaned too far, and held
-her firmly till she recovered her balance.
-
-"That was rather dangerous," he said, releasing her gently.
-
-"I could not stand by and see it drown," said Elsa, shivering, and she
-turned her eyes back across the river, to where in the distance the
-white buildings of Greenwich stood almost in the water in the pearl
-haze.
-
-Who shall say what Elsa's thoughts were as she leaned against the
-railing, white hand against white rose cheek, and watched the tide which
-was sweeping them towards the sea? Did she realise that another current
-was bearing her whither she knew not, was hurrying her little barque,
-afloat for the first time, towards a surging line of breakers where
-white sails of maiden innocence and faith and purity might perchance go
-under? Did she with those wonderful melancholy eyes look across her
-youth and dimly foresee, what all those who have missed love learn in
-middle life, how chill is the deepening shadow in which a loveless life
-stands? Did she dimly see this, and shrink from the loveless marriage
-before her, which would close the door against love for ever? Did she in
-her great ignorance mistake the jewelled earthen cup of passion for the
-wine of love which should have brimmed it? Did she think to allay the
-thirst of the soul at the dazzling empty cup which was so urgently
-proffered to her? Who shall say what Elsa's thoughts were as the river
-widened to the sea.
-
- * * * * *
-
-They were coming back at last, beating up slowly, slowly against the
-tide towards London, lying low and dim against an agony of sunset. To
-Mary it had been an afternoon of slow torture. Ought she to speak to
-Elsa? "After the Speaker's Stairs" the telegram had said. Then Elsa
-meant to join Lord Francis on her return _this evening_. Ought not she,
-Mary, to go to Elsa now, where she sat apart watching the sunset, and
-implore her to go home? Ought she not to tell her that Lord Francis was
-an evil man, who would bring great misery upon her? Ought she not to
-show her that she was steeping her young soul in sin, ruining herself
-upon the threshold of life? Something whispered urgently to Mary that
-she ought at least to try to hold Elsa back from the precipice,
-whispered urgently that perhaps Elsa, friendless as she was, might
-listen to her even at the eleventh hour. And Elsa knew she knew.
-
-Was it Mary's soul--dwarfed and starved in the suffocating bandages of
-her straitened life and narrow religion--which was feebly stirring in
-its shroud, was striving to speak?
-
-Mary clenched her little blue-veined hands.
-
-No, no. Elsa would never listen to her. Elsa knew very well what she was
-doing. Any girl younger even than she knew that it was wicked to allow a
-married man to make love to her. Elsa was a bad woman by temperament and
-heredity, not fit to be a good man's wife. Even if Mary could persuade
-her to give up her lover, still Elsa was guilty in thought, and that was
-as bad as the sin itself. Did not our Saviour say so? _Elsa was lost
-already._
-
-"No, no," whispered the inner voice. "She does not know what she is
-doing."
-
-She did know very well what she was doing--Mary flushed with anger--she
-was always doing things for effect, in order to attract attention. Look
-how she had made eyes at Captain Lestrange about that butterfly. If
-there is one thing more than another which exasperates a conventional
-person it is an impulsive action. The episode of the butterfly rankled
-in Mary's mind. Several silly men had been taken in by it. No. She,
-Mary, would certainly speak to Elsa; she would be only too glad to save
-a fellow-creature from deadly sin if it was any use speaking--but it was
-not. And she did not care to mix herself up with odious, disgraceful
-subjects unless she could be of use. She had always had a high standard
-of refinement. She had always kept herself apart from "that sort of
-thing." Perhaps, in her meagre life, she had also kept herself apart
-from all that makes our fellow-creatures turn to us.
-
-Lord Francis' last threat, spoken low and distinct across the hansom
-doors, came back to her ears--"If you dare to interfere with me you will
-pay for it."
-
-The river was narrowing. The buildings and wharves pushed up close and
-closer. The fretted outlines and towers of Westminster were detaching
-themselves in palest violet from the glow in the west.
-
-A river steamer passed them with a band on board. A faint music, tender
-and gay, came to them across the water, bringing with it the promise of
-an abiding love, making all things possible, illuminating with sudden
-distinctness the vague meaning of this mysterious world of sunset sky
-and sunset water, and ethereal city of amethyst and pearl; and then--as
-suddenly as it came--passing away down stream, and taking all its
-promises with it, leaving the twilight empty and desolate.
-
-The sunset burned dim like a spent furnace. The day lost heart and waned
-all at once. It seemed as if everything had come to an end.
-
-And as, when evening falls, jasmine grows white and whiter in the
-falling light, so Elsa's face grew pale and paler yet in the dusk.
-
-Once she looked across at Mary, and a faint smile, tremulous, wistful,
-stole across her lips. Tears shone in her eyes. "Is there any help
-anywhere?" the sweet troubled eyes seemed to say. But apparently they
-found none, for they wandered away again to the great buildings of
-Westminster rising up within a stone's throw over the black arch of
-Westminster Bridge.
-
-The steamer slowed and stopped once more against the Speaker's Stairs.
-
-The Lestranges put Elsa into a hansom before they hurried away in
-another themselves. All the guests were in a fever to depart, for there
-was barely time to dress for dinner--and they disappeared as if by
-magic. Mary, whose victoria was a moment late, followed hard on the
-rest. As she was delayed in the traffic she saw the hansom in front of
-her turn slowly round. She saw Elsa's face inside as it turned. Then the
-hansom went gaily jingling its bell over Westminster Bridge, and was
-lost in the crowd.
-
-
-
-
-PART III
-
- "Thou wilt not with Predestination round
- Enmesh me, and impute my Fall to Sin?"
-
- --OMAR KHAYYÁM.
-
-
-The scandal smouldered for a day or two, and then raged across London
-like a fire. Mary stayed at home. She could not face the glare of it.
-She said she was ill. Her hand shook. She started at the slightest
-sound. She felt shattered in mind and body.
-
-"I could not have stopped her," she said stubbornly to herself a hundred
-times, lying wide-eyed through the long, terrifying nights. She
-besieged Heaven with prayers for Elsa.
-
-On the fourth day Jos came to her.
-
-She went down to her little sitting-room, and found him standing at the
-open window with his back to her. She came in softly, trembling a
-little. She would be very gentle and sympathetic with him. She would
-imply no reproach. As she entered he turned slowly and faced her. The
-first moment she did not recognise him. Then she saw it was he.
-
-Jos' face was sunk and pinched, and the grey eyes were red with tears
-fiercely suppressed by day, red with hard crying by night. Now as they
-met hers they were fixed, unflinching in their tearless, enduring agony,
-like those of a man under the surgeon's knife.
-
-"Oh! Jos, don't take it so hard," said Mary, laying her hand on his arm.
-
-She had never dreamed he would feel it like this. She had thought that
-he would see at once he had had a great escape.
-
-He did not appear to hear her. He looked vacantly at her, and then
-recollected himself, and sat down by her.
-
-"You saw her last," he said, biting his lips.
-
-Mary's heart turned sick within her.
-
-"The Lestranges saw her last," she said hastily. He made an impatient
-movement. He knew all that.
-
-"You were with her all the afternoon on the boat?"
-
-"Yes. But, of course, there were numbers of others. I had many friends
-whom I had to----"
-
-"Did you notice anything? Did you have any talk with her? Was she
-different to usual?"
-
-"She does not generally talk much. She was rather silent."
-
-"You did not think she looked as if she had anything on her mind."
-
-"I couldn't say. I know her so very slightly." Mary's voice was cold.
-
-"She did not care for me," said Jos. "I knew that all along," and he put
-his scarred hand over his mouth.
-
-"She was not worthy of you."
-
-He did not hear her. He took away his hand and clenched it heavily on
-the other.
-
-"I knew she didn't care," he said in a level, passionless voice. "But I
-loved her. From the first go-off I saw she was different to other women.
-And I thought--I know I'm only a rough fellow--but I thought perhaps in
-time ... I'm not up to much, but I would have made her a good
-husband--and at any rate, I would have taken her away from--her father.
-He said she was willing. I--I tried to believe him. He wanted to get rid
-of her--and--I wanted to have her. That was the long and the short of
-it. We settled it between us.... She hadn't a chance in that house. I
-thought I'd give her another--a home--where she was safe. She had never
-had a mother to tell her things. She had never had any upbringing at
-that French school. She had no women friends. She had never known a good
-woman, except her old nurse, till I brought her to you, Mary. I told her
-you were good and gentle and loving, and would be a friend to her; and
-that I had known you all my life, and she might trust you."
-
-"She never liked me," said Mary. It seemed to her that she must defend
-herself. Against what? Against whom?
-
-"If she had only confided in you," he said. "I knew she was in trouble,
-but I could not make out what it was. She was such a child, and I seemed
-a long way off her. I took her to plays and things after I had seen them
-first, to be sure they were all right; and she would cheer up for a
-little bit--she liked the performing dogs. I had thought of taking her
-there again; but she always sank back into low spirits. And I knew that
-sometimes young girls do feel shy about being married--it's a great
-step--a lottery--that is what it is, a lottery--so I thought it would
-all come right in time. I never thought. I never guessed." Jos' voice
-broke. "I see now I helped to push her into it--but--I didn't know....
-If only you had known that last afternoon, and could have pleaded with
-her ... if only you had known, and could have held her back--my white
-lamb, my little Elsa."
-
-He ground his heel against the polished floor. There was a long silence.
-
-Then he got up and went away.
-
- * * * * *
-
-It was not until the end of July that Mary saw him again. She heard
-nothing of him. She only knew that he had left London. He came in one
-evening late, and Mary's aunt discreetly disappeared after a few
-minutes' desultory conversation.
-
-He looked worn and aged, but he spoke calmly, and this time he noticed
-Mary's existence. "You look pulled down," he said kindly. "Has the
-season been too much for you?"
-
-"It is not that," she said. "I have been distressed because an old
-friend of mine is in trouble."
-
-He looked at her and saw that she had suffered. A great compunction
-seized him. He took her hand and kissed it.
-
-"You are the best woman in the world," he said. "Don't worry your kind
-heart about me. I'm not worth it." Then he moved restlessly away from
-her, and began turning over the knick-knacks on the silver table.
-
-"Bethune has been tackled," he said suddenly. "The Duke of ---- did it,
-and he has promised to marry her--if--if----"
-
-"If what?"
-
-"If his wife will divorce him. The Duke has got his promise in black and
-white."
-
-"I don't think Lady Francis will divorce him."
-
-"N-no. I've been with her to-day for an hour, but I couldn't move her.
-She doesn't seem to see that it's--life or death--for Elsa."
-
-"You would not expect her under the circumstances to consider Elsa."
-
-"Yes, I should," said the simpleton. "Why should not she help her? There
-are no children, and she does not care for Bethune. She never did. She
-ought to release him for the sake of--others."
-
-"I don't think she will."
-
-"I want you to persuade her, Mary." Mary's heart swelled. This then was
-what he had come about.
-
-"Aren't you her greatest friend? Do put it before her plainly. I'm a
-blundering idiot, and she seemed to think I had no right to speak to her
-on the subject. Perhaps I had not. I never thought of that. I only
-thought of----. But do you go to her, and bring her to a better mind."
-
-"I will try," said Mary.
-
-"I wish there were more women like you, Maimie," he said, using for the
-first time for years the pet name which he had called her by when they
-were boy and girl together.
-
-Mary went to Lady Francis next day, but she did not make a superhuman
-effort to persuade her friend. She considered that it was not desirable
-that Elsa should be reinstated. If there were no punishment for such
-misdemeanours, what would society come to? For the sake of others, as a
-warning, it was necessary that Elsa should suffer.
-
-All she said to Lady Francis was: "Are you going to divorce Lord
-Francis?"
-
-"No, my dear," said that lady with a harsh little laugh. "I am not. Not
-that I could not get a divorce. He has been quite brute enough, but if I
-did it would be forgotten in about a quarter of an hour, whether I had
-divorced him or he had divorced me. I have a right to his name, and I
-mean to stick to it. It's about all I've got out of my marriage. I don't
-intend to go about as a divorced woman under my maiden name of Huggins.
-The idea does not smile on me. Besides, I know Francis. He will come
-back to me. He did--before. He has not a shilling, and he is in debt. He
-can't get on without me. I was a goose to marry him; but still I am the
-goose that lays the golden eggs."
-
-Jos' parents sent Mary a pressing invitation to stay with them after the
-season. Mary went, and perhaps she tasted something more like happiness
-in that quiet old country house than she had known for many years. Jos'
-father and mother were devoted to her, with that devotion, artificial
-in its origin, but genuine in its later stages, of parents who have made
-up their minds that she was "the one woman" for their son. Mary played
-old Irish melodies in the evenings by the hour, and sang sweetly at
-prayers. She was always ready to listen to General Carstairs' history of
-the _fauna_ of Dampshire, and to take an interest in Mrs Carstairs'
-Sunday School. She had a succession of the simplest white muslin gowns
-(she could still wear white) and wide-brimmed garden hats. Mary in the
-country was more rural than those who abide in it all the year round.
-
-Jos was often there. There was no doubt about it. Jos was coming back to
-his early allegiance. Perhaps his parents, horrified by his single
-unaided attempt at matrimony, were tenderly pushing him back. Perhaps,
-in the entire exhaustion and numbness that had succeeded the shock of
-Elsa's defection, he hardly realised what others were planning round
-him. Perhaps when a man has been heartlessly slighted he turns
-unconsciously to the woman of whose undoubted love he is vaguely aware.
-
-Jos sat at Mary's feet, not metaphorically but literally, for hours
-together by the sundial in the rose-garden; hardly speaking, like a man
-stunned. Still he sat there, and she did her embroidery, and looked
-softly down at him now and then. The doors of the narrow, airless prison
-of her love were open to receive him. They would be married presently,
-and she should make him give up the Army, and become a magistrate
-instead. She would never let him out of her sight. A wife's place is
-beside her husband. She knew, for how many wives compact of experience
-had assured her during the evening hour of feminine confidence when the
-back hair is let down, that the perpetual presence of the wife was the
-only safeguard for the well-being of that mysterious creature of low
-instincts, that half-tamed wild animal, always liable to break away
-unless held in by feminine bit and bridle, that irresponsible babe,
-that slave of impulse--man. She would give him perfect freedom of
-course. She should encourage him to go into the Yeomanry, and she should
-certainly allow him to go out without her for the annual training. He
-would be quite safe in a tent, surrounded by his own tenantry; but, on
-other occasions, she, his wife, would be ever by his side. That was the
-only way to keep a man good and happy.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Early in September Jos went away for a few days' shooting. Mary, who
-generally paid rounds of visits after the season at dull country houses
-(she was not greatly in request at the amusing ones), still remained
-with the Carstairs, who implored her to stay on whenever she suggested
-that she was paying them "a visitation."
-
-Jos was to return that afternoon, for General Carstairs was depending on
-him to help to shoot his own partridges on the morrow. But the afternoon
-passed, and Jos did not come. The next day passed, and still no Jos.
-And no letter or telegram. His father and mother were silently uneasy.
-They said, no doubt he had been persuaded to stay on where he was, and
-had forgotten the shoot at home. Mary said, "No doubt," but a reasonless
-fear gathered like thin mist across her heart. Where was he? The letters
-that had been forwarded to his last address all came back. A week
-passed, and still no Jos, and no answers to autocratic telegrams.
-
-Then suddenly Jos telegraphed from London saying he should return early
-that afternoon, and asking to be met at the station.
-
-When the time drew near, Mary established herself with a book in the
-rose-garden. He would come to her there, as he had so often done before.
-The roses were well-nigh over, but in their place the sweet white faces
-of the Japanese anemones were crowding up round the old grey sundial.
-The sunny windless air was full of the cawing of rooks. It was the time
-and the place where a desultory love might come by chance, and linger
-awhile, not where a desperate love, brought to bay, would wage one of
-his pitched battles. Peace and rest were close at hand. Why had she been
-fearful? Surely all was well, and he was coming back. He was coming
-back.
-
-She waited as it seemed to her for hours before she heard the faint
-sound of his dog-cart. She should see him in a moment. He would speak to
-his parents, and then ask where she was, and come out to her. Oh! how
-she loved him; but she must appear calm, and not too glad to see him.
-She heard his step--strong, light, alert, as it used to be of old, not
-the slow, dragging, aimless step of the last two months.
-
-He came quickly round the yew hedge and stood before her. She raised her
-eyes slowly from her book to meet his, a smile parting her lips.
-
-He was looking hard at her with burning scorn and contempt in his
-lightning grey eyes.
-
-The smile froze on her lips.
-
-"I have seen Elsa," he said. "I only came back here for half-an-hour
-to--speak to you."
-
-A cold hand seemed to be pressed against Mary's heart.
-
-"I found by chance, the merest chance, where she was," he continued. "I
-went at once. She was alone, for Bethune has gone back to his wife. I
-suppose you knew he had gone back. I did not. I found her----" He
-stopped as if the remembrance were too acute, and then went on firmly.
-"We had a long talk. She was in great trouble. She told me everything,
-and how he, that devil, had made love to her from the first day she came
-back from school, and how her father knew of it, and had obliged her to
-accept me. And she said she knew it was wrong to run away with him, but
-she thought it was more wrong to marry without love, and that the nearer
-the day came the more she felt she must escape, and she seemed hemmed
-in on every side, and she did love Bethune, and he had sworn to her that
-he would marry her directly he got his divorce, and that his wife did
-not care for him, and would be glad to be free, and that all that was
-necessary was a little courage on her part. So she tried to be
-brave--and--she said she did not think at the time it could be so very
-wicked to marry the person she really loved, for _you_ knew, and you
-never said a word to stop her. She said you had many opportunities of
-speaking to her on the boat, and she knew you were so good, you would
-certainly have told her if it was really so very wicked."
-
-"I knew it was no use speaking," said Mary, hoarsely.
-
-"You might have tried to save my wife for my sake," said Jos. "You
-might have tried to save her for her own. But you didn't. I don't
-care to know your reasons. I only know that--you did not do it. You
-deliberately--let--her--drown." His eyes flashed. The whole quiet,
-commonplace man seemed transfigured by some overmastering, ennobling
-emotion. "And I have come to tell you that I think the bad women are
-better than the good ones, and that I am going back to Elsa; to
-Elsa--betrayed, deserted, outcast, my Elsa, who, but for you, might
-still be like one of these." He touched one of the white anemones with
-his scarred hand. "I am going back to her--and if--in time she can
-forget the past and feel kindly towards me--I will marry her."
-
-And he did.
-
-
-THE END
-
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