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The bewildered, +the helpless-- and there are many--are torn from the parent rock, +crushed, rolled smooth, and left stranded in strange places. Thus was +Edward Bumpus severed and rolled from the ancestral ledge, from the firm +granite of seemingly stable and lasting things, into shifting shale; +surrounded by fragments of cliffs from distant lands he had never seen. +Thus, at five and fifty, he found himself gate-keeper of the leviathan +Chippering Mill in the city of Hampton. + +That the polyglot, smoky settlement sprawling on both sides of an +historic river should be a part of his native New England seemed at times +to be a hideous dream; nor could he comprehend what had happened to him, +and to the world of order and standards and religious sanctions into +which he had been born. His had been a life of relinquishments. For a +long time he had clung to the institution he had been taught to believe +was the rock of ages, the Congregational Church, finally to abandon it; +even that assuming a form fantastic and unreal, as embodied in the +edifice three blocks distant from Fillmore Street which he had attended +for a brief time, some ten years before, after his arrival in Hampton. +The building, indeed, was symbolic of a decadent and bewildered +Puritanism in its pathetic attempt to keep abreast with the age, to +compromise with anarchy, merely achieving a nondescript medley of +rounded, knob-like towers covered with mulberry-stained shingles. And +the minister was sensational and dramatic. He looked like an actor, he +aroused in Edward Bumpus an inherent prejudice that condemned the stage. +Half a block from this tabernacle stood a Roman Catholic Church, +prosperous, brazen, serene, flaunting an eternal permanence amidst the +chaos which had succeeded permanence! + +There were, to be sure, other Protestant churches where Edward Bumpus and +his wife might have gone. One in particular, which he passed on his way +to the mill, with its terraced steeple and classic facade, preserved all +the outward semblance of the old Order that once had seemed so enduring +and secure. He hesitated to join the decorous and dwindling +congregation,--the remains of a social stratum from which he had been +pried loose; and--more irony--this street, called Warren, of arching elms +and white-gabled houses, was now the abiding place of those prosperous +Irish who had moved thither from the tenements and ruled the city. + +On just such a street in the once thriving New England village of Dolton +had Edward been born. In Dolton Bumpus was once a name of names, rooted +there since the seventeenth century, and if you had cared to listen he +would have told you, in a dialect precise but colloquial, the history of +a family that by right of priority and service should have been destined +to inherit the land, but whose descendants were preserved to see it +delivered to the alien. The God of Cotton Mather and Jonathan Edwards +had been tried in the balance and found wanting. Edward could never +understand this; or why the Universe, so long static and immutable, had +suddenly begun to move. He had always been prudent, but in spite of +youthful "advantages," of an education, so called, from a sectarian +college on a hill, he had never been taught that, while prudence may +prosper in a static world, it is a futile virtue in a dynamic one. +Experience even had been powerless to impress this upon him. For more +than twenty years after leaving college he had clung to a clerkship in a +Dolton mercantile establishment before he felt justified in marrying +Hannah, the daughter of Elmer Wench, when the mercantile establishment +amalgamated with a rival--and Edward's services were no longer required. +During the succession of precarious places with decreasing salaries he +had subsequently held a terrified sense of economic pressure had +gradually crept over him, presently growing strong enough, after two +girls had arrived, to compel the abridgment of the family ....It would be +painful to record in detail the cracking-off process, the slipping into +shale, the rolling, the ending up in Hampton, where Edward had now for +some dozen years been keeper of one of the gates in the frowning brick +wall bordering the canal,--a position obtained for him by a compassionate +but not too prudent childhood friend who had risen in life and knew the +agent of the Chippering Mill, Mr. Claude Ditmar. Thus had virtue failed +to hold its own. + +One might have thought in all these years he had sat within the gates +staring at the brick row of the company's boarding houses on the opposite +bank of the canal that reflection might have brought a certain degree of +enlightenment. It was not so. The fog of Edward's bewilderment never +cleared, and the unformed question was ever clamouring for an answer--how +had it happened? Job's cry. How had it happened to an honest and +virtuous man, the days of whose forebears had been long in the land which +the Lord their God had given them? Inherently American, though lacking +the saving quality of push that had been the making of men like Ditmar, +he never ceased to regard with resentment and distrust the hordes of +foreigners trooping between the pillars, though he refrained from +expressing these sentiments in public; a bent, broad shouldered, silent +man of that unmistakable physiognomy which, in the seventeenth century, +almost wholly deserted the old England for the new. The ancestral +features were there, the lips--covered by a grizzled moustache moulded +for the precise formation that emphasizes such syllables as el, the +hooked nose and sallow cheeks, the grizzled brows and grey eyes drawn +down at the corners. But for all its ancestral strength of feature, it +was a face from which will had been extracted, and lacked the fire and +fanaticism, the indomitable hardness it should have proclaimed, and which +have been so characteristically embodied in Mr. St. Gaudens's statue of +the Puritan. His clothes were slightly shabby, but always neat. + +Little as one might have guessed it, however, what may be called a +certain transmuted enthusiasm was alive in him. He had a hobby almost +amounting to an obsession, not uncommon amongst Americans who have +slipped downward in the social scale. It was the Bumpus Family in +America. He collected documents about his ancestors and relations, he +wrote letters with a fine, painful penmanship on a ruled block he bought +at Hartshorne's drug store to distant Bumpuses in Kansas and Illinois and +Michigan, common descendants of Ebenezer, the original immigrant, of +Dolton. Many of these western kinsmen answered: not so the magisterial +Bumpus who lived in Boston on the water side of Beacon, whom likewise he +had ventured to address,--to the indignation and disgust of his elder +daughter, Janet. + +"Why are you so proud of Ebenezer?" she demanded once, scornfully. + +"Why? Aren't we descended from him?" + +"How many generations?" + +"Seven," said Edward, promptly, emphasizing the last syllable. + +Janet was quick at figures. She made a mental calculation. + +"Well, you've got one hundred and twenty-seven other ancestors of +Ebenezer's time, haven't you?" + +Edward was a little surprised. He had never thought of this, but his +ardour for Ebenezer remained undampened. Genealogy--his own--had become +his religion, and instead of going to church he spent his Sunday mornings +poring over papers of various degrees of discolouration, making careful +notes on the ruled block. + +This consciousness of his descent from good American stock that had +somehow been deprived of its heritage, while a grievance to him, was also +a comfort. It had a compensating side, in spite of the lack of sympathy +of his daughters and his wife. Hannah Bumpus took the situation more +grimly: she was a logical projection in a new environment of the +religious fatalism of ancestors whose God was a God of vengeance. She +did not concern herself as to what all this vengeance was about; life was +a trap into which all mortals walked sooner or later, and her particular +trap had a treadmill,--a round of household duties she kept whirling with +an energy that might have made their fortunes if she had been the head of +the family. It is bad to be a fatalist unless one has an +incontrovertible belief in one's destiny,--which Hannah had not. But she +kept the little flat with its worn furniture,--which had known so many +journeys--as clean as a merchant ship of old Salem, and when it was +scoured and dusted to her satisfaction she would sally forth to +Bonnaccossi's grocery and provision store on the corner to do her +bargaining in competition with the Italian housewives of the +neighborhood. She was wont, indeed, to pause outside for a moment, her +quick eye encompassing the coloured prints of red and yellow jellies cast +in rounded moulds, decked with slices of orange, the gaudy boxes of +cereals and buckwheat flour, the "Brookfield" eggs in packages. +Significant, this modern package system, of an era of flats with little +storage space. She took in at a glance the blue lettered placard +announcing the current price of butterine, and walked around to the other +side of the store, on Holmes Street, where the beef and bacon hung, where +the sidewalk stands were filled, in the autumn, with cranberries, apples, +cabbages, and spinach. + +With little outer complaint she had adapted herself to the constantly +lowering levels to which her husband had dropped, and if she hoped that +in Fillmore Street they had reached bottom, she did not say so. Her +unbetrayed regret was for the loss of what she would have called +"respectability"; and the giving up, long ago, in the little city which +had been their home, of the servant girl had been the first wrench. +Until they came to Hampton they had always lived in houses, and her +adaptation to a flat had been hard--a flat without a parlour. Hannah +Bumpus regarded a parlour as necessary to a respectable family as a +wedding ring to a virtuous woman. Janet and Lise would be growing up, +there would be young men, and no place to see them save the sidewalks. +The fear that haunted her came true, and she never was reconciled. The +two girls went to the public schools, and afterwards, inevitably, to +work, and it seemed to be a part of her punishment for the sins of her +forefathers that she had no more control over them than if they had been +boarders; while she looked on helplessly, they did what they pleased; +Janet, whom she never understood, was almost as much a source of +apprehension as Lise, who became part and parcel of all Hannah deemed +reprehensible in this new America which she refused to recognize and +acknowledge as her own country. + +To send them through the public schools had been a struggle. Hannah used +to lie awake nights wondering what would happen if Edward became sick. +It worried her that they never saved any money: try as she would to cut +the expenses down, there was a limit of decency; New England thrift, +hitherto justly celebrated, was put to shame by that which the foreigners +displayed, and which would have delighted the souls of gentlemen of the +Manchester school. Every once in a while there rose up before her +fabulous instances of this thrift, of Italians and Jews who, ignorant +emigrants, had entered the mills only a few years before they, the +Bumpuses, had come to Hampton, and were now independent property owners. +Still rankling in Hannah's memory was a day when Lise had returned from +school, dark and mutinous, with a tale of such a family. One of the +younger children was a classmate. + +"They live on Jordan Street in a house, and Laura has roller skates. I +don't see why I can't." + +This was one of the occasions on which Hannah had given vent to her +indignation. Lise was fourteen. Her open rebellion was less annoying +than Janet's silent reproach, but at least she had something to take hold +of. + +"Well, Lise," she said, shifting the saucepan to another part of the +stove, "I guess if your father and I had put both you girls in the mills +and crowded into one room and cooked in a corner, and lived on onions and +macaroni, and put four boarders each in the other rooms, I guess we could +have had a house, too. We can start in right now, if you're willing." + +But Lise had only looked darker. + +"I don't see why father can't make money--other men do." + +"Isn't he working as hard as he can to send you to school, and give you a +chance?" + +"I don't want that kind of a chance. There's Sadie Howard at school--she +don't have to work. She liked me before she found out where I lived..." + +There was an element of selfishness in Hannah's mania for keeping busy, +for doing all their housework and cooking herself. She could not bear to +have her daughters interfere; perhaps she did not want to give herself +time to think. Her affection for Edward, such as it was, her loyalty to +him, was the logical result of a conviction ingrained in early youth that +marriage was an indissoluble bond; a point of views once having a +religious sanction, no less powerful now that--all unconsciously--it had +deteriorated into a superstition. Hannah, being a fatalist, was not +religious. The beliefs of other days, when she had donned her best dress +and gone to church on Sundays, had simply lapsed and left--habits. No +new beliefs had taken their place.... + +Even after Janet and Lise had gone to work the household never seemed to +gain that margin of safety for which Hannah yearned. Always, when they +were on the verge of putting something by, some untoward need or accident +seemed to arise on purpose to swallow it up: Edward, for instance, had +been forced to buy a new overcoat, the linoleum on the dining-room floor +must be renewed, and Lise had had a spell of sickness, losing her +position in a flower shop. Afterwards, when she became a saleslady in +the Bagatelle, that flamboyant department store in Faber Street, she +earned four dollars and a half a week. Two of these were supposed to go +into the common fund, but there were clothes to buy; Lise loved finery, +and Hannah had not every week the heart to insist. Even when, on an +occasional Saturday night the girl somewhat consciously and defiantly +flung down the money on the dining-room table she pretended not to notice +it. But Janet, who was earning six dollars as a stenographer in the +office of the Chippering Mill, regularly gave half of hers. + +The girls could have made more money as operatives, but strangely enough +in the Bumpus family social hopes were not yet extinct. + +Sharply, rudely, the cold stillness of the winter mornings was broken by +agitating waves of sound, penetrating the souls of sleepers. Janet would +stir, her mind still lingering on some dream, soon to fade into the +inexpressible, in which she had been near to the fulfilment of a heart's +desire. Each morning, as the clamour grew louder, there was an interval +of bewilderment, of revulsion, until the realization came of mill bells +swinging in high cupolas above the river,--one rousing another. She +could even distinguish the bells: the deep-toned, penetrating one +belonged to the Patuxent Mill, over on the west side, while the Arundel +had a high, ominous reverberation like a fire bell. When at last the +clangings had ceased she would lie listening to the overtones throbbing +in the air, high and low, high and low; lie shrinking, awaiting the +second summons that never failed to terrify, the siren of the Chippering +Mill,--to her the cry of an insistent, hungry monster demanding its +daily food, the symbol of a stern, ugly, and unrelenting necessity. + +Beside her in the bed she could feel the soft body of her younger sister +cuddling up to her in fright. In such rare moments as this her heart +melted towards Lise, and she would fling a protecting arm about her. A +sense of Lise's need of protection invaded her, a sharp conviction, like +a pang, that Lise was destined to wander: Janet was never so conscious of +the feeling as in this dark hour, though it came to her at other times, +when they were not quarreling. Quarreling seemed to be the normal +reaction between them. + +It was Janet, presently, who would get up, shivering, close the window, +and light the gas, revealing the room which the two girls shared +together. Against the middle of one wall was the bed, opposite this a +travel-dented walnut bureau with a marble top, with an oval mirror into +which were stuck numerous magazine portraits of the masculine and +feminine talent adorning the American stage, a preponderance of the music +hall variety. There were pictures of other artists whom the recondite +would have recognized as "movie" stars, amazing yet veridic stories of +whose wealth Lise read in the daily press: all possessed limousines--an +infallible proof, to Lise, of the measure of artistic greatness. Between +one of these movie millionaires and an ex-legitimate lady who now found +vaudeville profitable was wedged the likeness of a popular idol whose +connection with the footlights would doubtless be contingent upon a +triumphant acquittal at the hands of a jury of her countrymen, and whose +trial for murder, in Chicago, was chronicled daily in thousands of +newspapers and followed by Lise with breathless interest and sympathy. +She was wont to stare at this lady while dressing and exclaim:-- + +"Say, I hope they put it all over that district attorney!" + +To such sentiments, though deeply felt by her sister, Janet remained +cold, though she was, as will be seen, capable of enthusiasms. Lise was +a truer daughter of her time and country in that she had the national +contempt for law, was imbued with the American hero-worship of criminals +that caused the bombardment of Cora Wellman's jail with candy, fruit and +flowers and impassioned letters. Janet recalled there had been others +before Mrs. Wellman, caught within the meshes of the law, who had incited +in her sister a similar partisanship. + +It was Lise who had given the note of ornamentation to the bedroom. +Against the cheap faded lilac and gold wall-paper were tacked +photo-engravings that had taken the younger sister's fancy: a young man +and woman, clad in scanty bathing suits, seated side by side in a +careening sail boat,--the work of a popular illustrator whose manly and +womanly "types" had become national ideals. + +There were other drawings, if not all by the same hand, at least by the +same school; one, sketched in bold strokes, of a dinner party in a +stately neo-classic dining-room, the table laden with flowers and silver, +the bare-throated women with jewels. A more critical eye than Lise's, +gazing upon this portrayal of the Valhalla of success, might have +detected in the young men, immaculate in evening dress, a certain effort +to feel at home, to converse naturally, which their square jaws and +square shoulders belied. This was no doubt the fault of the artist's +models, who had failed to live up to the part. At any rate, the sight of +these young gods of leisure, the contemplation of the stolid butler and +plush footmen in the background never failed to make Lise's heart beat +faster. + +On the marble of the bureau amidst a litter of toilet articles, and +bought by Lise for a quarter at the Bagatelle bargain counter, was an +oval photograph frame from which the silver wash had begun to rub off, +and the band of purple velvet inside the metal had whitened. The frame +always contained the current object of Lise's affections, though the +exhibits--as Janet said--were subject to change without notice. The +Adonis who now reigned had black hair cut in the prevailing Hampton +fashion, very long in front and hanging down over his eyes like a +Scottish terrier's; very long behind, too, but ending suddenly, shaved in +a careful curve at the neck and around the ears. It had almost the +appearance of a Japanese wig. The manly beauty of Mr. Max Wylie was of +the lantern-jawed order, and in his photograph he conveyed the astonished +and pained air of one who has been suddenly seized by an invisible +officer of the law from behind. This effect, one presently perceived, +was due to the high, stiff collar, the "Torture Brand," Janet called it, +when she and her sister were engaged in one of their frequent +controversies about life in general: the obvious retort to this remark, +which Lise never failed to make, was that Janet could boast of no beaux +at all. + +It is only fair to add that the photograph scarcely did Mr. Wylie +justice. In real life he did not wear the collar, he was free and easy +in his manners, sure of his powers of conquest. As Lise observed, he had +made a home-run with her at Slattery's Riverside Park. "Sadie Hartmann +was sure sore when I tangoed off with him," she would observe +reminiscently.... + +It was Lise's habit to slight her morning toilet, to linger until the +last minute in bed, which she left in reluctant haste to stand before the +bureau frantically combing out kinks of the brown hair falling over her +shoulders before jamming it down across her forehead in the latest mode. +Thus occupied, she revealed a certain petulant beauty. Like the majority +of shop-girls, she was small, but her figure was good, her skin white; +her discontented mouth gave her the touch of piquancy apt to play havoc +with the work of the world. In winter breakfast was eaten by the light +of a rococo metal lamp set in the centre of the table. This was to save +gas. There was usually a rump steak and potatoes, bread and "creamery" +butterine, and the inevitable New England doughnuts. At six thirty the +whistles screeched again,--a warning note, the signal for Edward's +departure; and presently, after a brief respite, the heavy bells once +more began their clamour, not to die down until ten minutes of seven, +when the last of the stragglers had hurried through the mill gates. + +The Bumpus flat included the second floor of a small wooden house whose +owner had once been evilly inspired to paint it a livid clay-yellow--as +though insisting that ugliness were an essential attribute of +domesticity. A bay ran up the two stories, and at the left were two +narrow doorways, one for each flat. On the right the house was separated +from its neighbour by a narrow interval, giving but a precarious light to +the two middle rooms, the diningroom and kitchen. The very +unattractiveness of such a home, however, had certain compensations for +Janet, after the effort of early rising had been surmounted, felt a real +relief in leaving it; a relief, too, in leaving Fillmore Street, every +feature of which was indelibly fixed in her mind, opposite was the blind +brick face of a warehouse, and next to that the converted dwelling house +that held the shop of A. Bauer, with the familiar replica of a green +ten-cent trading stamp painted above it and the somewhat ironical +announcement--when boar frost whitened the pavement--that ice-cold soda +was to be had within, as well as cigars and tobacco, fruit and candy. +Then came a tenement, under which two enterprising Greeks by the name of +Pappas--spelled Papas lower down-- conducted a business called "The +Gentleman," a tailoring, pressing, and dyeing establishment. Janet could +see the brilliantined black heads of the two proprietors bending over +their boards, and sometimes they would be lifted to smile at her as she +passed. The Pappas Brothers were evidently as happy in this drab +environment as they had ever been on the sunny mountain slopes of Hellas, +and Janet sometimes wondered at this, for she had gathered from her +education in the Charming public school that Greece was beautiful. + +She was one of the unfortunate who love beauty, who are condemned to +dwell in exile, unacquainted with what they love. Desire was +incandescent within her breast. Desire for what? It would have been +some relief to know. She could not, like Lise, find joy and +forgetfulness at dance halls, at the "movies," at Slattery's Riverside +Park in summer, in "joy rides" with the Max Wylies of Hampton. And +beside, the Max Wylies were afraid of her. If at times she wished for +wealth, it was because wealth held the magic of emancipation from +surroundings against which her soul revolted. Vividly idealized but +unconfided was the memory of a seaside village, the scene of one of the +brief sojourns of her childhood, where the air was fragrant with the +breath of salt marshes, where she recalled, through the vines of a porch, +a shining glimpse of the sea at the end of a little street.... + +Next to Pappas Brothers was the grey wooden building of Mule Spinners' +Hall, that elite organization of skilled labour, and underneath it the +store of Johnny Tiernan, its windows piled up with stoves and stovepipes, +sheet iron and cooking utensils. Mr. Tiernan, like the Greeks, was +happy, too: unlike the Greeks, he never appeared to be busy, and yet he +throve. He was very proud of the business in which he had invested his +savings, but he seemed to have other affairs lying blithely on his mind, +affairs of moment to the community, as the frequent presence of the huge +policemen, aldermen, and other important looking persons bore witness. +He hailed by name Italians, Greeks, Belgians, Syrians, and "French"; he +hailed Janet, too, with respectful cheerfulness, taking off his hat. He +possessed the rare, warm vitality that is irresistible. A native of +Hampton, still in his thirties, his sharp little nose and twinkling blue +eyes proclaimed the wisdom that is born and not made; his stiff hair had +a twist like the bristles in the cleaning rod of a gun. + +He gave Janet the odd impression that he understood her. And she did not +understand herself! + +By the time she reached the Common the winter sun, as though red from +exertion, had begun to dispel the smoke and heavy morning mists. She +disliked winter, the lumpy brown turf mildewed by the frost, but one day +she was moved by a quality, hitherto unsuspected, in the delicate tracery +against the sky made by the slender branches of the great elms and +maples. She halted on the pavement, her eyes raised, heedless of +passers-by, feeling within her a throb of the longing that could be so +oddly and unexpectedly aroused. + +Her way lay along Faber Street, the main artery of Hampton, a wide strip +of asphalt threaded with car tracks, lined on both sides with incongruous +edifices indicative of a rapid, undiscriminating, and artless prosperity. +There were long stretches of "ten foot" buildings, so called on account +of the single story, their height deceptively enhanced by the +superimposition of huge and gaudy signs, one on top of another, +announcing the merits of "Stewart's Amberine Ale," of "Cooley's Oats, the +Digestible Breakfast Food," of graphophones and "spring heeled" shoes, +tobacco, and naphtha soaps. "No, We don't give Trading Stamps, Our +Products are Worth all You Pay." These "ten foot" stores were the +repositories of pianos, automobiles, hardware, and millinery, and +interspersed amongst them were buildings of various heights; The +Bagatelle, where Lise worked, the Wilmot Hotel, office buildings, and an +occasional relic of old Hampton, like that housing the Banner. Here, +during those months when the sun made the asphalt soft, on a scaffolding +spanning the window of the store, might be seen a perspiring young man in +his shirt sleeves chalking up baseball scores for the benefit of a crowd +below. Then came the funereal, liver-coloured, long-windowed Hinckley +Block (1872), and on the corner a modern, glorified drugstore thrusting +forth plate glass bays--two on Faber Street and three on Stanley--filled +with cameras and candy, hot water bags, throat sprays, catarrh and kidney +cures, calendars, fountain pens, stationery, and handy alcohol lamps. +Flanking the sidewalks, symbolizing and completing the heterogeneous and +bewildering effect of the street were long rows of heavy hemlock trunks, +unpainted and stripped of bark, with crosstrees bearing webs of wires. +Trolley cars rattled along, banging their gongs, trucks rumbled across +the tracks, automobiles uttered frenzied screeches behind startled +pedestrians. Janet was always galvanized into alertness here, Faber +Street being no place to dream. By night an endless procession moved up +one sidewalk and down another, staring hypnotically at the flash-in and +flash-out electric, signs that kept the breakfast foods and ales, the +safety razors, soaps, and soups incessantly in the minds of a fickle +public. + +Two blocks from Faber Street was the North Canal, with a granite-paved +roadway between it and the monotonous row of company boarding houses. +Even in bright weather Janet felt a sense of oppression here; on dark, +misty mornings the stern, huge battlements of the mills lining the +farther bank were menacing indeed, bristling with projections, towers, +and chimneys, flanked by heavy walls. Had her experience included +Europe, her imagination might have seized the medieval parallel,--the +arched bridges flung at intervals across the water, lacking only chains +to raise them in case of siege. The place was always ominously +suggestive of impending strife. Janet's soul was a sensitive instrument, +but she suffered from an inability to find parallels, and thus to +translate her impressions intellectually. Her feeling about the mills +was that they were at once fortress and prison, and she a slave driven +thither day after day by an all-compelling power; as much a slave as +those who trooped in through the gates in the winter dawn, and wore down, +four times a day, the oak treads of the circular tower stairs. + +The sound of the looms was like heavy rain hissing on the waters of the +canal. + +The administrative offices of a giant mill such as the Chippering in +Hampton are labyrinthine. Janet did not enter by the great gates her +father kept, but walked through an open courtyard into a vestibule where, +day and night, a watchman stood; she climbed iron-shod stairs, passed the +doorway leading to the paymaster's suite, to catch a glimpse, behind the +grill, of numerous young men settling down at those mysterious and +complicated machines that kept so unerring a record, in dollars and +cents, of the human labour of the operatives. There were other suites for +the superintendents, for the purchasing agent; and at the end of the +corridor, on the south side of the mill, she entered the outer of the two +rooms reserved for Mr. Claude Ditmar, the Agent and general- in-chief +himself of this vast establishment. In this outer office, behind the +rail that ran the length of it, Janet worked; from the window where her +typewriter stood was a sheer drop of eighty feet or so to the river, +which ran here swiftly through a wide canon whose sides were formed by +miles and miles of mills, built on buttressed stone walls to retain the +banks. The prison-like buildings on the farther shore were also of +colossal size, casting their shadows far out into the waters; while in +the distance, up and down the stream, could be seen the delicate web of +the Stanley and Warren Street bridges, with trolley cars like toys +gliding over them, with insect pedestrians creeping along the footpaths. + +Mr. Ditmar's immediate staff consisted of Mr. Price, an elderly bachelor +of tried efficiency whose peculiar genius lay in computation, of a young +Mr. Caldwell who, during the four years since he had left Harvard, had +been learning the textile industry, of Miss Ottway, and Janet. Miss +Ottway was the agent's private stenographer, a strongly built, capable +woman with immense reserves seemingly inexhaustible. She had a deep, +masculine voice, not unmusical, the hint of a masculine moustache, a +masculine manner of taking to any job that came to hand. Nerves were +things unknown to her: she was granite, Janet tempered steel. Janet was +the second stenographer, and performed, besides, any odd tasks that might +be assigned. + +There were, in the various offices of the superintendents, the paymaster +and purchasing agent, other young women stenographers whose companionship +Janet, had she been differently organized, might have found congenial, +but something in her refused to dissolve to their proffered friendship. +She had but one friend,--if Eda Rawle, who worked in a bank, and whom she +had met at a lunch counter by accident, may be called so. As has been +admirably said in another language, one kisses, the other offers a cheek: +Janet offered the cheek. All unconsciously she sought a relationship +rarely to be found in banks and business offices; would yield herself to +none other. The young women stenographers in the Chippering Mill, +respectable, industrious girls, were attracted by a certain indefinable +quality, but finding they made no progress in their advances, presently +desisted they were somewhat afraid of her; as one of them remarked, "You +always knew she was there." Miss Lottie Meyers, who worked in the office +of Mr. Orcutt, the superintendent across the hall, experienced a brief +infatuation that turned to hate. She chewed gum incessantly, Janet found +her cheap perfume insupportable; Miss Meyers, for her part, declared that +Janet was "queer" and "stuck up," thought herself better than the rest of +them. Lottie Meyers was the leader of a group of four or five which +gathered in the hallway at the end of the noon hour to enter animatedly +into a discussion of waists, hats, and lingerie, to ogle and exchange +persiflages with the young men of the paymaster's corps, to giggle, to +relate, sotto voce, certain stories that ended invariably in hysterical +laughter. Janet detested these conversations. And the sex question, +subtly suggested if not openly dealt with, to her was a mystery over +which she did not dare to ponder, terrible, yet too sacred to be +degraded. Her feelings, concealed under an exterior of self-possession, +deceptive to the casual observer, sometimes became molten, and she was +frightened by a passion that made her tremble--a passion by no means +always consciously identified with men, embodying all the fierce +unexpressed and unsatisfied desires of her life. + +These emotions, often suggested by some hint of beauty, as of the sun +glinting on the river on a bright blue day, had a sudden way of +possessing her, and the longing they induced was pain. Longing for what? +For some unimagined existence where beauty dwelt, and light, where the +ecstasy induced by these was neither moiled nor degraded; where shame, as +now, might not assail her. Why should she feel her body hot with shame, +her cheeks afire? At such moments she would turn to the typewriter, her +fingers striking the keys with amazing rapidity, with extraordinary +accuracy and force,--force vaguely disturbing to Mr. Claude Ditmar as he +entered the office one morning and involuntarily paused to watch her. +She was unaware of his gaze, but her colour was like a crimson signal +that flashed to him and was gone. Why had he never noticed her before? +All these months, for more than a year, perhaps,--she had been in his +office, and he had not so much as looked at her twice. The unguessed +answer was that he had never surprised her in a vivid moment. He had a +flair for women, though he had never encountered any possessing the +higher values, and it was characteristic of the plane of his mental +processes that this one should remind him now of a dark, lithe panther, +tensely strung, capable of fierceness. The pain of having her scratch +him would be delectable. + +When he measured her it was to discover that she was not so little, and +the shoulder-curve of her uplifted arms, as her fingers played over the +keys, seemed to belie that apparent slimness. And had he not been +unacquainted with the subtleties of the French mind and language, he +might have classed her as a fausse maigre. Her head was small, her hair +like a dark, blurred shadow clinging round it. He wanted to examine her +hair, to see whether it would not betray, at closer range, an +imperceptible wave,--but not daring to linger he went into his office, +closed the door, and sat down with a sensation akin to weakness, somewhat +appalled by his discovery, considerably amazed at his previous stupidity. +He had thought of Janet--when she had entered his mind at all--as +unobtrusive, demure; now he recognized this demureness as repression. +Her qualities needed illumination, and he, Claude Ditmar, had seen them +struck with fire. He wondered whether any other man had been as +fortunate. + +Later in the morning, quite casually, he made inquiries of Miss Ottway, +who liked Janet and was willing to do her a good turn. + +"Why, she's a clever girl, Mr. Ditmar, a good stenographer, and +conscientious in her work. She's very quick, too. + +"Yes, I've noticed that," Ditmar replied, who was quite willing to have +it thought that his inquiry was concerned with Janet's aptitude for +business. + +"She keeps to herself and minds her own affairs. You can see she comes +of good stock." Miss Ottway herself was proud of her New England blood. +"Her father, you know, is the gatekeeper down there. He's been +unfortunate." + +"You don't say--I didn't connect her with him. Fine looking old man. A +friend of mine who recommended him told me he'd seen better days ...." + + + + +CHAPTER II + +In spite of the surprising discovery in his office of a young woman of +such a disquieting, galvanic quality, it must not be supposed that Mr. +Claude Ditmar intended to infringe upon a fixed principle. He had +principles. For him, as for the patriarchs and householders of Israel, +the seventh commandment was only relative, yet hitherto he had held +rigidly to that relativity, laying down the sound doctrine that women and +business would not mix: or, as he put it to his intimates, no sensible +man would fool with a girl in his office. Hence it may be implied that +Mr. Ditmar's experiences with the opposite sex had been on a property +basis. He was one of those busy and successful persons who had never +appreciated or acquired the art of quasi-platonic amenities, whose idea +of a good time was limited to discreet excursions with cronies, likewise +busy and successful persons who, by reason of having married early and +unwisely, are strangers to the delights of that higher social intercourse +chronicled in novels and the public prints. If one may conveniently +overlook the joys of a companionship of the soul, it is quite as possible +to have a taste in women as in champagne or cigars. Mr. Ditmar preferred +blondes, and he liked them rather stout, a predilection that had led him +into matrimony with a lady of this description: a somewhat sticky, +candy-eating lady with a mania for card parties, who undoubtedly would +have dyed her hair if she had lived. He was not inconsolable, but he had +had enough of marriage to learn that it demands a somewhat exorbitant +price for joys otherwise more reasonably to be obtained. + +He was left a widower with two children, a girl of thirteen and a boy of +twelve, both somewhat large for their ages. Amy attended the only +private institution for the instruction of her sex of which Hampton could +boast; George continued at a public school. The late Mrs. Ditmar for +some years before her demise had begun to give evidence of certain +restless aspirations to which American ladies of her type and situation +seem peculiarly liable, and with a view to their ultimate realization she +had inaugurated a Jericho-like campaign. Death had released Ditmar from +its increasing pressure. For his wife had possessed that admirable +substitute for character, persistence, had been expert in the use of +importunity, often an efficient weapon in the hands of the female +economically dependent. The daughter of a defunct cashier of the Hampton +National Bank, when she had married Ditmar, then one of the +superintendents of the Chippering and already a marked man, she had +deemed herself fortunate among women, looking forward to a life of ease +and idleness and candy in great abundance,--a dream temporarily shattered +by the unforeseen discomfort of bringing two children into the world, +with an interval of scarcely a year between them. Her parents from an +excess of native modesty having failed to enlighten her on this subject, +her feelings were those of outraged astonishment, and she was quite +determined not to repeat the experience a third time. Knowledge thus +belatedly acquired, for a while she abandoned herself to the satisfaction +afforded by the ability to take a commanding position in Hampton society, +gradually to become aware of the need of a more commodious residence. In +a certain kind of intuition she was rich. Her husband had meanwhile +become Agent of the Chippering Mill, and she strongly suspected that his +prudent reticence on the state of his finances was the best indication of +an increasing prosperity. He had indeed made money, been given many +opportunities for profitable investments; but the argument for social +pre- eminence did not appeal to him: tears and reproaches, +recriminations, when frequently applied, succeeded better; like many +married men, what he most desired was to be let alone; but in some +unaccountable way she had come to suspect that his preference for blondes +was of a more liberal nature than at first, in her innocence, she had +realized. She was jealous, too, of his cronies, in spite of the fact +that these gentlemen, when they met her, treated her with an elaborate +politeness; and she accused him with entire justice of being more +intimate with them than with her, with whom he was united in holy bonds. +The inevitable result of these tactics was the modern mansion in the +upper part of Warren Street, known as the "residential" district. Built +on a wide lot, with a garage on one side to the rear, with a cement +driveway divided into squares, and a wall of democratic height separating +its lawn from the sidewalk, the house may for the present be better +imagined than described. + +A pious chronicler of a more orthodox age would doubtless have deemed it +a judgment that Cora Ditmar survived but two years to enjoy the glories +of the Warren Street house. For a while her husband indulged in a +foolish optimism, only to learn that the habit of matrimonial blackmail, +once acquired, is not easily shed. Scarcely had he settled down to the +belief that by the gratification of her supreme desire he had achieved +comparative peace, than he began to suspect her native self-confidence of +cherishing visions of a career contemplating nothing less than the +eventual abandonment of Hampton itself as a field too limited for her +social talents and his business ability and bank account--at which she +was pleased to hint. Hampton suited Ditmar, his passion was the +Chippering Mill; and he was in process of steeling himself to resist, +whatever the costs, this preposterous plan when he was mercifully +released by death. Her intention of sending the children away to acquire +a culture and finish Hampton did not afford,--George to Silliston +Academy, Amy to a fashionable boarding school,--he had not opposed, yet +he did not take the idea with sufficient seriousness to carry it out. +The children remained at home, more or less--increasingly less--in the +charge of an elderly woman who acted as housekeeper. + +Ditmar had miraculously regained his freedom. And now, when he made +trips to New York and Boston, combining business with pleasure, there +were no questions asked, no troublesome fictions to be composed. More +frequently he was in Boston, where he belonged to a large and comfortable +club, not too exacting in regard to membership, and here he met his +cronies and sometimes planned excursions with them, automobile trips in +summer to the White Mountains or choice little resorts to spend Sundays +and holidays, generally taking with them a case of champagne and several +bags of golf sticks. He was fond of shooting, and belonged to a duck +club on the Cape, where poker and bridge were not tabooed. To his +intimates he was known as "Dit." Nor is it surprising that his attitude +toward women had become in general one of resentment; matrimony he now +regarded as unmitigated folly. At five and forty he was a vital, +dominating, dust-coloured man six feet and half an inch in height, +weighing a hundred and ninety pounds, and thus a trifle fleshy. When +relaxed, and in congenial company, he looked rather boyish, an aspect +characteristic of many American business men of to-day. + +His head was large, he wore his hair short, his features also proclaimed +him as belonging to a modern American type in that they were not +clear-cut, but rather indefinable; a bristling, short-cropped moustache +gave him a certain efficient, military look which, when introduced to +strangers as "Colonel," was apt to deceive them into thinking him an army +officer. The title he had once received as a member of the staff of the +governor of the state, and was a tribute to a gregariousness and +political influence rather than to a genius for the art of war. Ex +officio, as the agent of the Chippering Mill and a man of substance to +boot, he was "in" politics, hail fellow well met with and an individual +to be taken into account by politicians from the governor and member of +congress down. He was efficient, of course; he had efficient hands and +shrewd, efficient eyes, and the military impression was deepened by his +manner of dealing with people, his conversation being yea, yea and nay, +nay,--save with his cronies and those of the other sex from whom he had +something to gain. His clothes always looked new, of pronounced patterns +and light colours set aside for him by an obsequious tailor in Boston. + +If a human being in such an enviable position as that of agent of the +Chippering Mill can be regarded as property, it might be said that Mr. +Claude Ditmar belonged to the Chipperings of Boston, a family still +owning a controlling interest in the company. His loyalty to them and to +the mill he so ably conducted was the great loyalty of his life. For +Ditmar, a Chippering could do no wrong. It had been the keen eye of Mr. +Stephen Chippering that first had marked him, questioned him, recognized +his ability, and from the moment of that encounter his advance had been +rapid. When old Stephen had been called to his fathers, Ditmar's +allegiance was automatically, as it were, transferred to the two sons, +George and Worthington, already members of the board of directors. +Sometimes Ditmar called on them at their homes, which stood overlooking +the waters of the Charles River Basin. The attitude toward him of the +Chipperings and their wives was one of an interesting adjustment of +feudalism to democracy. They were fond of him, grateful to him, treating +him with a frank camaraderie that had in it not the slightest touch of +condescension, but Ditmar would have been the first to recognize that +there were limits to the intimacy. They did not, for instance--no doubt +out of consideration--invite him to their dinner parties or take him to +their club, which was not the same as that to which he himself belonged. +He felt no animus. Nor would he, surprising though it may seem, have +changed places with the Chipperings. At an early age, and quite +unconsciously, he had accepted property as the ruling power of the +universe, and when family was added thereto the combination was nothing +less than divine. + +There were times, especially during the long winters, when life became +almost unbearable for Janet, and she was seized by a desire to run away +from Fillmore Street, from the mills, from Hampton itself. Only she did +not know where to go, or how to get away. She was convinced of the +existence in the world of delightful spots where might be found congenial +people with whom it would be a joy to talk. Fillmore Street, certainly, +did not contain any such. The office was not so bad. It is true that in +the mornings, as she entered West Street, the sight of the dark facade of +the fortress-like structure, emblematic of the captivity in which she +passed her days, rarely failed to arouse in her sensations of oppression +and revolt; but here, at least, she discovered an outlet for her +energies; she was often too busy to reflect, and at odd moments she could +find a certain solace and companionship in the river, so intent, so +purposeful, so beautiful, so undisturbed by the inconcinnity, the clatter +and confusion of Hampton as it flowed serenely under the bridges and +between the mills toward the sea. Toward the sea! + +It was when, at night, she went back to Fillmore Street--when she thought +of the monotony, yes, and the sordidness of home, when she let herself in +at the door and climbed the dark and narrow stairway, that her feet grew +leaden. In spite of the fact that Hannah was a good housekeeper and +prided herself on cleanliness, the tiny flat reeked with the smell of +cooking, and Janet, from the upper hall, had a glimpse of a thin, angular +woman with a scrawny neck, with scant grey hair tightly drawn into a +knot, in a gingham apron covering an old dress bending over the kitchen +stove. And occasionally, despite a resentment that fate should have +dealt thus inconsiderately with the family, Janet felt pity welling +within her. After supper, when Lise had departed with her best young +man, Hannah would occasionally, though grudgingly, permit Janet to help +her with the dishes. + +"You work all day, you have a right to rest." + +"But I don't want to rest," Janet would declare, and rub the dishes the +harder. With the spirit underlying this protest, Hannah sympathized. +Mother and daughter were alike in that both were inarticulate, but Janet +had a secret contempt for Hannah's uncomplaining stoicism. She loved her +mother, in a way, especially at certain times,--though she often wondered +why she was unable to realize more fully the filial affection of +tradition; but in moments of softening, such as these, she was filled +with rage at the thought of any woman endowed with energy permitting +herself to be overtaken and overwhelmed by such a fate as Hannah's: +divorce, desertion, anything, she thought, would have been +better--anything but to be cheated out of life. Feeling the fires of +rebellion burning hotly within her,--rebellion against environment and +driving necessity she would glance at her mother and ask herself whether +it were possible that Hannah had ever known longings, had ever been wrung +by inexpressible desires,-- desires in which the undiscovered spiritual +was so alarmingly compounded with the undiscovered physical. She would +have died rather than speak to Hannah of these unfulfilled experiences, +and the mere thought of confiding them to any person appalled her. Even +if there existed some wonderful, understanding being to whom she might be +able thus to empty her soul, the thought of the ecstasy of that kenosis +was too troubling to be dwelt upon. + +She had tried reading, with unfortunate results,--perhaps because no +Virgil had as yet appeared to guide her through the mysteries of that +realm. Her schooling had failed to instil into her a discriminating +taste for literature; and when, on occasions, she had entered the Public +Library opposite the Common it had been to stare hopelessly at rows of +books whose authors and titles offered no clue to their contents. Her +few choices had not been happy, they had failed to interest and thrill... + +Of the Bumpus family Lise alone found refuge, distraction, and excitement +in the vulgar modern world by which they were surrounded, and of whose +heedlessness and remorselessness they were the victims. Lise went out +into it, became a part of it, returning only to sleep and eat,--a +tendency Hannah found unaccountable, and against which even her stoicism +was not wholly proof. Scarce an evening went by without an expression of +uneasiness from Hannah. + +"She didn't happen to mention where she was going, did she, Janet?" +Hannah would query, when she had finished her work and put on her +spectacles to read the Banner. + +"To the movies, I suppose," Janet would reply. Although well aware that +her sister indulged in other distractions, she thought it useless to add +to Hannah's disquietude. And if she had little patience with Lise, she +had less with the helpless attitude of her parents. + +"Well," Hannah would add, "I never can get used to her going out nights +the way she does, and with young men and women I don't know anything +about. I wasn't brought up that way. But as long as she's got to work +for a living I guess there's no help for it." + +And she would glance at Edward. It was obviously due to his inability +adequately to cope with modern conditions that his daughters were forced +to toil, but this was the nearest she ever came to reproaching him. If +he heard, he acquiesced humbly, and in silence: more often than not he +was oblivious, buried in the mazes of the Bumpus family history, his +papers spread out on the red cloth of the dining-room table, under the +lamp. Sometimes in his simplicity and with the enthusiasm that demands +listeners he would read aloud to them a letter, recently received from a +distant kinsman, an Alpheus Bumpus, let us say, who had migrated to +California in search of wealth and fame, and who had found neither. In +spite of age and misfortunes, the liberal attitude of these western +members of the family was always a matter of perplexity to Edward. + +"He tells me they're going to give women the ballot,--doesn't appear to +be much concerned about his own womenfolks going to the polls." + +"Why shouldn't they, if they want to?" Janet would exclaim, though she +had given little thought to the question. + +Edward would mildly ignore this challenge. + +"He has a house on what they call Russian Hill, and he can watch the +vessels as they come in from Japan," he would continue in his precise +voice, emphasizing admirably the last syllables of the words "Russian," +"vessels," and "Japan." "Wouldn't you like to see the letter?" + +To do Hannah justice, although she was quite incapable of sharing his +passion, she frequently feigned an interest, took the letter, presently +handing it on to Janet who, in deciphering Alpheus's trembling +calligraphy, pondered over his manifold woes. Alpheus's son, who had had +a good position in a sporting goods establishment on Market Street, was +sick and in danger of losing it, the son's wife expecting an addition to +the family, the house on Russian Hill mortgaged. Alpheus, a veteran of +the Civil War, had been for many years preparing his reminiscences, but +the newspapers nowadays seemed to care nothing for matters of solid +worth, and so far had refused to publish them.... Janet, as she read, +reflected that these letters invariably had to relate tales of failures, +of disappointed hopes; she wondered at her father's perennial interest in +failures,--provided they were those of his family; and the next evening, +as he wrote painfully on his ruled paper, she knew that he in turn was +pouring out his soul to Alpheus, recounting, with an emotion by no means +unpleasurable, to this sympathetic but remote relative the story of his +own failure! + +If the city of Hampton was emblematic of our modern world in which +haphazardness has replaced order, Fillmore Street may be likened to a +back eddy of the muddy and troubled waters, in which all sorts of flotsam +and jetsam had collected. Or, to find perhaps an even more striking +illustration of the process that made Hampton in general and Fillmore +Street in particular, one had only to take the trolley to Glendale, the +Italian settlement on the road leading to the old New England village of +Shrewsbury. Janet sometimes walked there, alone or with her friend Eda +Rawle. Disintegration itself--in a paradoxically pathetic attempt at +reconstruction--had built Glendale. Human hands, Italian hands. Nor, +surprising though it may seem, were these descendants of the people of +the Renaissance in the least offended by their handiwork. When the +southern European migration had begun and real estate became valuable, +one by one the more decorous edifices of the old American order had been +torn down and carried piecemeal by sons of Italy to the bare hills of +Glendale, there to enter into new combinations representing, to an eye +craving harmony, the last word of a chaos, of a mental indigestion, of a +colour scheme crying aloud to heaven for retribution. Standing alone and +bare amidst its truck gardens, hideous, extreme, though typical of the +entire settlement, composed of fragments ripped from once-appropriate +settings, is a house with a tiny body painted strawberry-red, with +scroll-work shutters a tender green; surmounting the structure and almost +equalling it in size is a sky-blue cupola, once the white crown of the +Sutter mansion, the pride of old Hampton. The walls of this dwelling +were wrested from the sides of Mackey's Tavern, while the shutters for +many years adorned the parsonage of the old First Church. Similarly, in +Hampton and in Fillmore Street, lived in enforced neighbourliness human +fragments once having their places in crystallized communities where +existence had been regarded as solved. Here there was but one order,--if +such it may be called,--one relationship, direct, or indirect, one +necessity claiming them all--the mills. + +Like the boards forming the walls of the shacks at Glendale, these human +planks torn from an earlier social structure were likewise warped, which +is to say they were dominated by obsessions. Edward's was the Bumpus +family; and Chris Auermann, who lived in the flat below, was convinced +that the history of mankind is a deplorable record of havoc caused by +women. Perhaps he was right, but the conviction was none the less an +obsession. He came from a little village near Wittenburg that has +scarcely changed since Luther's time. Like most residents of Hampton who +did not work in the mills, he ministered to those who did, or to those +who sold merchandise to the workers, cutting their hair in his barber +shop on Faber Street. + +The Bumpuses, save Lise, clinging to a native individualism and pride, +preferred isolation to companionship with the other pieces of driftwood +by which they were surrounded, and with which the summer season compelled +a certain enforced contact. When the heat in the little dining-room grew +unbearable, they were driven to take refuge on the front steps shared in +common with the household of the barber. It is true that the barber's +wife was a mild hausfrau who had little to say, and that their lodgers, +two young Germans who worked in the mills, spent most of their evenings +at a bowling club; but Auermann himself, exhaling a strong odour of bay +rum, would arrive promptly at quarter past eight, take off his coat, and +thus, as it were stripped for action, would turn upon the defenceless +Edward. + +"Vill you mention one great man--yoost one--who is not greater if the +vimmen leave him alone?" he would demand. "Is it Anthony, the conqueror +of Egypt and the East? I vill show you Cleopatra. Und Burns, and +Napoleon, the greatest man what ever lived--vimmen again. I tell you +there is no Elba, no St. Helena if it is not for the vimmen. Und vat +vill you say of Goethe?" + +Poor Edward could think of nothing to say of Goethe. + +"He is great, I grant you," Chris would admit, "but vat is he if the +vimmen leave him alone? Divine yoost that." And he would proceed to +cite endless examples of generals and statesmen whose wives or mistresses +had been their bane. Futile Edward's attempts to shift the conversation +to the subject of his own obsession; the German was by far the more +aggressive, he would have none of it. Perhaps if Edward had been willing +to concede that the Bumpuses had been brought to their present lowly +estate by the sinister agency of the fair sex Chris might conditionally +have accepted the theme. Hannah, contemptuously waving a tattered palm +leaf fan, was silent; but on one occasion Janet took away the barber's +breath by suddenly observing:-- + +"You never seem to think of the women whose lives are ruined by men, Mr. +Auermann." + +It was unheard-of, this invasion of a man's argument by a woman, and by a +young woman at that. He glared at her through his spectacles, took them +off, wiped them, replaced them, and glared at her again. He did not like +Janet; she was capable of what may be called a speaking silence, and he +had never been wholly unaware of her disapproval and ridicule. Perhaps +he recognized in her, instinctively, the potential qualities of that +emerging modern woman who to him was anathema. + +"It is somethings I don't think about," he said. + +He was a wizened little man with faience-blue eyes, and sat habitually +hunched up with his hands folded across his shins. + +"Nam fuit ante Helenam"--as Darwin quotes. Toward all the masculine +residents of Fillmore Street, save one, the barber's attitude was one of +unconcealed scorn for an inability to recognize female perfidy. With +Johnny Tiernan alone he refused to enter the lists. When the popular +proprietor of the tin shop came sauntering along the sidewalk with nose +uptilted, waving genial greetings to the various groups on the steps, +Chris Auermann's expression would suddenly change to one of fatuous +playfulness. + +"What's this I hear about giving the girls the vote, Chris?" Johnny +would innocently inquire, winking at Janet, invariably running his hand +through the wiry red hair that resumed its corkscrew twist as soon as he +released it. And Chris would as invariably reply:-- + +"You have the dandruffs--yes? You come to my shop, I give you +somethings...." + +Sometimes the barber, in search of a more aggressive adversary than +Edward, would pay visits, when as likely as not another neighbour with +profound convictions and a craving for proselytes would swoop down on the +defenceless Bumpuses: Joe Shivers, for instance, who lived in one of the +tenements above the cleaning and dyeing establishment kept by the Pappas +Bros., and known as "The Gentleman." In the daytime Mr. Shivers was a +model of acquiescence in a system he would have designated as one of +industrial feudalism, his duty being to examine the rolls of cloth as +they came from the looms of the Arundel Mill, in case of imperfections +handing them over to the women menders: at night, to borrow a vivid +expression from Lise, he was "batty in the belfry" on the subject of +socialism. Unlike the barber, whom he could not abide, for him the +cleavage of the world was between labour and capital instead of man and +woman; his philosophy was stern and naturalistic; the universe--the +origin of which he did not discuss--just an accidental assemblage of +capricious forces over which human intelligence was one day to triumph. +Squatting on the lowest step, his face upturned, by the light of the arc +sputtering above the street he looked like a yellow frog, his eager eyes +directed toward Janet, whom he suspected of intelligence. + +"If there was a God, a nice, kind, all-powerful God, would he permit what +happened in one of the loom-rooms last week? A Polak girl gets her hair +caught in the belt pfff!" He had a marvellously realistic gift when it +came to horrors: Janet felt her hair coming out by the roots. Although +she never went to church, she did not like to think that no God existed. +Of this Mr. Shivers was very positive. Edward, too, listened uneasily, +hemmed and hawed, making ineffectual attempts to combat Mr. Shivers's +socialism with a deeply-rooted native individualism that Shivers declared +as defunct as Christianity. + +"If it is possible for the workingman to rise under a capitalistic +system, why do you not rise, then? Why do I not rise? I'm as good as +Ditmar, I'm better educated, but we're all slaves. What right has a man +to make you and me work for him just because he has capital?" + +"Why, the right of capital," Edward would reply. + +Mr. Shivers, with the manner of one dealing with an incurable romanticism +and sentimentality, would lift his hands in despair. And in spite of the +fact that Janet detested him, he sometimes exercised over her a +paradoxical fascination, suggesting as he did unexplored intellectual +realms. She despised her father for not being able to crush the little +man. Edward would make pathetic attempts to capture the role Shivers had +appropriated, to be the practical party himself, to convict Shivers of +idealism. Socialism scandalized him, outraged, even more than atheism, +something within him he held sacred, and he was greatly annoyed because +he was unable adequately to express this feeling. + +"You can't change human nature, Mr. Shivers," Edward would insist in his +precise but ineffectual manner. "We all want property, you would accept +a fortune if it was offered to you, and so should I. Americans will +never become socialists." + +"But look at me, wasn't I born in Meriden, Connecticut? Ain't that +Yankee enough for you?" Thus Mr. Shivers sought blandly to confound him. + +A Yankee Shades of the Pilgrim fathers, of seven, generations of +Bumpuses! A Yankee who used his hands in that way, a Yankee with a nose +like that, a Yankee with a bald swathe down the middle of his crown and +bunches of black, moth- eaten hair on either side! But Edward, too +polite to descend to personalities, was silent.... + +In brief, this very politeness of Edward's, which his ancestors would +have scorned, this consideration and lack of self-assertion made him the +favourite prey of the many "characters" in Fillmore Street whose sanity +had been disturbed by pressure from above, in whose systems had lodged +the germs of those exotic social doctrines floating so freely in the air +of our modern industrial communities .... Chester Glenn remains for a +passing mention. A Yankee of Yankees, this, born on a New Hampshire +farm, and to the ordinary traveller on the Wigmore branch of the railroad +just a good-natured, round- faced, tobacco-chewing brakeman who would +take a seat beside ladies of his acquaintance aid make himself agreeable +until it was time to rise and bawl out, in the approved manner of his +profession, the name of the next station. Fillmore Street knew that the +flat visored cap which his corporation compelled him to wear covered a +brain into which had penetrated the maggot of the Single Tax. When he +encountered Mr. Shivers or Auermann the talk became coruscating.. + +Eda Rawle, Janet's solitary friend of these days, must also be mentioned, +though the friendship was merely an episode in Janet's life. Their first +meeting was at Grady's quick-lunch counter in Faber Street, which they +both frequented at one time, and the fact that each had ordered a ham +sandwich, a cup of coffee, and a confection--new to Grady's--known as a +Napoleon had led to conversation. + +Eda, of course, was the aggressor; she was irresistibly drawn, she would +not be repulsed. A stenographer in the Wessex National Bank, she boarded +with a Welsh family in Spruce Street; matter-of-fact, plodding, +commonplace, resembling--as Janet thought--a horse, possessing, indeed +many of the noble qualities of that animal, she might have been thought +the last person in the world to discern and appreciate in Janet the +hidden elements of a mysterious fire. In appearance Miss Rawle was of a +type not infrequent in Anglo-Saxon lands, strikingly blonde, with high +malar bones, white eyelashes, and eyes of a metallic blue, cheeks of an +amazing elasticity that worked rather painfully as she talked or smiled, +drawing back inadequate lips, revealing long, white teeth and vivid gums. +It was the craving in her for romance Janet assuaged; Eda's was the love +content to pour out, that demands little. She was capable of immolation. +Janet was by no means ungrateful for the warmth of such affection, though +in moments conscious of a certain perplexity and sadness because she was +able to give such a meagre return for the wealth of its offering. + +In other moments, when the world seemed all disorder and chaos,--as Mr. +Shivers described it,--or when she felt within her, like demons, those +inexpressible longings and desires, leaping and straining, pulling her, +almost irresistibly, she knew not whither, Eda shone forth like a light +in the darkness, like the beacon of a refuge and a shelter. Eda had +faith in her, even when Janet had lost faith in herself: she went to Eda +in the same spirit that Marguerite went to church; though she, Janet, +more resembled Faust, being--save in these hours of lowered vitality--of +the forth-faring kind .... Unable to confess the need that drove her, +she arrived in Eda's little bedroom to be taken into Eda's arms. Janet +was immeasurably the stronger of the two, but Eda possessed the masculine +trait of protectiveness, the universe never bothered her, she was one of +those persons--called fortunate--to whom the orthodox Christian virtues +come as naturally as sun or air. Passion, when sanctified by matrimony, +was her ideal, and now it was always in terms of Janet she dreamed of it, +having read about it in volumes her friend would not touch, and never +having experienced deeply its discomforts. Sanctified or unsanctified, +Janet regarded it with terror, and whenever Eda innocently broached the +subject she recoiled. Once Eda exclaimed:-- + +"When you do fall in love, Janet, you must tell me all about it, every +word!" + +Janet blushed hotly, and was silent. In Eda's mind such an affair was a +kind of glorified fireworks ending in a cluster of stars, in Janet's a +volcanic eruption to turn the world red. Such was the difference between +them. + +Their dissipations together consisted of "sundaes" at a drug-store, or +sometimes of movie shows at the Star or the Alhambra. Stereotyped on +Eda's face during the legitimately tender passages of these dramas was an +expression of rapture, a smile made peculiarly infatuate by that vertical +line in her cheeks, that inadequacy of lip and preponderance of white +teeth and red gums. It irritated, almost infuriated Janet, to whom it +appeared as the logical reflection of what was passing on the screen; she +averted her glance from both, staring into her lap, filled with shame +that the relation between the sexes should be thus exposed to public +gaze, parodied, sentimentalized, degraded.... There were, however, +marvels to stir her, strange landscapes, cities, seas, and ships,--once a +fire in the forest of a western reserve with gigantic tongues of orange +flame leaping from tree to tree. The movies brought the world to +Hampton, the great world into which she longed to fare, brought the world +to her! Remote mountain hamlets from Japan, minarets and muezzins from +the Orient, pyramids from Egypt, domes from Moscow resembling gilded +beets turned upside down; grey houses of parliament by the Thames, the +Tower of London, the Palaces of Potsdam, the Tai Mahal. Strange lands +indeed, and stranger peoples! booted Russians in blouses, naked +Equatorial savages tattooed and amazingly adorned, soldiers and sailors, +presidents, princes and emperors brought into such startling proximity +one could easily imagine one's self exchanging the time of day! +Incredible to Janet how the audiences, how even Eda accepted with +American complacency what were to her never-ending miracles; the yearning +to see more, to know more, became acute, like a pain, but even as she +sought to devour these scenes, to drink in every detail, with tantalizing +swiftness they were whisked away. They were peepholes in the walls of +her prison; and at night she often charmed herself to sleep with +remembered visions of wide, empty, treeshaded terraces reserved for +kings. + +But Eda, however complacent her interest in the scenes themselves, was +thrilled to the marrow by their effect on Janet, who was her medium. +Emerging from the vestibule of the theatre, Janet seemed not to see the +slushy street, her eyes shone with a silver light like that of a mountain +lake in a stormy sunset. And they walked in silence until Janet would +exclaim: + +"Oh Eda, wouldn't you love to travel!" + +Thus Eda Rawle was brought in contact with values she herself was +powerless to detect, and which did not become values until they had +passed through Janet. One "educative" reel they had seen had begun with +scenes in a lumber camp high in the mountains of Galicia, where grow +forests of the priceless pine that becomes, after years of drying and +seasoning, the sounding board of the Stradivarius and the harp. Even +then it must respond to a Player. Eda, though failing to apply this +poetic parallel, when alone in her little room in the Welsh +boarding-house often indulged in an ecstasy of speculation as to that +man, hidden in the mists of the future, whose destiny it would be to +awaken her friend. Hampton did not contain him,--of this she was sure; +and in her efforts to visualize him she had recourse to the movies, +seeking him amongst that brilliant company of personages who stood so +haughtily or walked so indifferently across the ephemeral brightness of +the screen. + +By virtue of these marvels of the movies: Hampton ugly and sordid Hampton! +--actually began for Janet to take on a romantic tinge. Were not the +strange peoples of the earth flocking to Hampton? She saw them arriving +at the station, straight from Ellis Island, bewildered, ticketed like +dumb animals, the women draped in the soft, exotic colours many of them +were presently to exchange for the cheap and gaudy apparel of Faber +Street. She sought to summon up in her mind the glimpses she had had of +the wonderful lands from which they had come, to imagine their lives in +that earlier environment. Sometimes she wandered, alone or with Eda, +through the various quarters of the city. Each quarter had a flavour of +its own, a synthetic flavour belonging neither to the old nor to the new, +yet partaking of both: a difference in atmosphere to which Janet was +keenly sensitive. In the German quarter, to the north, one felt a sort +of ornamental bleakness--if the expression may be permitted: the +tenements here were clean and not too crowded, the scroll-work on their +superimposed porches, like that decorating the Turnverein and the stem +Lutheran Church, was eloquent of a Teutonic inheritance: The Belgians +were to the west, beyond the base-ball park and the car barns, their grey +houses scattered among new streets beside the scarred and frowning face +of Torrey's hill. Almost under the hill itself, which threatened to roll +down on it, and facing a bottomless, muddy street, was the quaint little +building giving the note of foreign thrift, of socialism and shrewdness, +of joie de vivre to the settlement, the Franco-Belgian co-operative store, +with its salle de reunion above and a stage for amateur theatricals. +Standing in the mud outside, Janet would gaze through the tiny windows in +the stucco wall at the baskets prepared for each household laid in neat +rows beside the counter; at the old man with the watery blue eyes and +lacing of red in his withered cheeks who spoke no English, whose duty it +was to distribute the baskets to the women and children as they called. + +Turning eastward again, one came to Dey Street, in the heart of Hampton, +where Hibernian Hall stood alone and grim, sole testimony of the departed +Hibernian glories of a district where the present Irish rulers of the +city had once lived and gossiped and fought in the days when the mill +bells had roused the boarding-house keepers at half past four of a winter +morning. Beside the hall was a corner lot, heaped high with hills of +ashes and rubbish like the vomitings of some filthy volcano; the +unsightliness of which was half concealed by huge signs announcing the +merits of chewing gums, tobaccos, and cereals. But why had the departure +of the Irish, the coming of the Syrians made Dey Street dark, narrow, +mysterious, oriental? changed the very aspect of its architecture? Was +it the coffee-houses? One of these, in front of which Janet liked to +linger, was set weirdly into an old New England cottage, and had, +apparently, fathomless depths. In summer the whole front of it lay open +to the street, and here all day long, beside the table where the charcoal +squares were set to dry, could be seen saffron-coloured Armenians +absorbed in a Turkish game played on a backgammon board, their gentleness +and that of the loiterers looking on in strange contrast with their +hawk-like profiles and burning eyes. Behind this group, in the half light +of the middle interior, could be discerned an American soda-water +fountain of a bygone fashion, on its marble counter oddly shaped bottles +containing rose and violet syrups; there was a bottle- shaped stove, and +on the walls, in gilt frames, pictures evidently dating from the period +in American art that flourished when Franklin Pierce was President; and +there was an array of marble topped tables extending far back into the +shadows. Behind the fountain was a sort of cupboard--suggestive of the +Arabian Nights, which Janet had never read--from which, occasionally, the +fat proprietor emerged bearing Turkish coffee or long Turkish pipes. + +When not thus occupied the proprietor carried a baby. The street swarmed +with babies, and mothers nursed them on the door-steps. And in this +teeming, prolific street one could scarcely move without stepping on a +fat, almond eyed child, though some, indeed, were wheeled; wheeled in all +sorts of queer contrivances by one another, by fathers with ragged black +moustaches and eagle noses who, to the despair of mill superintendents, +had decided in the morning that three days' wages would since to support +their families for the week .... In the midst of the throng might be seen +occasionally the stout and comfortable and not too immaculate figure of a +shovel bearded Syrian priest, in a frock coat and square-topped "Derby" +hat, sailing along serenely, heedless of the children who scattered out +of his path. + +Nearby was the quarter of the Canadian French, scarcely now to be called +foreigners, though still somewhat reminiscent of the cramped little towns +in the northern wilderness of water and forest. On one corner stood +almost invariably a "Pharmacie Francaise"; the signs were in French, and +the elders spoke the patois. These, despite the mill pallor, retained in +their faces, in their eyes, a suggestion of the outdoor look of their +ancestors, the coureurs des bois, but the children spoke English, and the +young men, as they played baseball in the street or in the corner lots +might be heard shouting out derisively the cry of the section hands so +familiar in mill cities, "Doff, you beggars you, doff!" + +Occasionally the two girls strayed into that wide thoroughfare not far +from the canal, known by the classic name of Hawthorne, which the +Italians had appropriated to themselves. This street, too, in spite of +the telegraph poles flaunting crude arms in front of its windows, in +spite of the trolley running down its middle, had acquired a character, a +unity all its own, a warmth and picturesqueness that in the lingering +light of summer evenings assumed an indefinable significance. It was not +Italy, but it was something--something proclaimed in the ornate, leaning +lines of the pillared balconies of the yellow tenement on the second +block, in the stone-vaulted entrance of the low house next door, in +fantastically coloured walls, in curtained windows out of which leaned +swarthy, earringed women. Blocking the end of the street, in stern +contrast, was the huge Clarendon Mill with its sinister brick pillars +running up the six stories between the glass. Here likewise the +sidewalks overflowed with children, large-headed, with great, lustrous +eyes, mute, appealing, the eyes of cattle. Unlike American children, +they never seemed to be playing. Among the groups of elders gathered for +gossip were piratical Calabrians in sombre clothes, descended from Greek +ancestors, once the terrors of the Adriatic Sea. The women, lingering in +the doorways, hemmed in by more children, were for the most part squat +and plump, but once in a while Janet's glance was caught and held by a +strange, sharp beauty worthy of a cameo. + +Opposite the Clarendon Mill on the corner of East Street was a provision +store with stands of fruit and vegetables encroaching on the pavement. +Janet's eye was attracted by a box of olives. + +"Oh Eda," she cried, "do you remember, we saw them being picked--in the +movies? All those old trees on the side of a hill?" + +"Why, that's so," said Eda. "You never would have thought anything'd +grow on those trees." + +The young Italian who kept the store gave them a friendly grin. + +"You lika the olives?" he asked, putting some of the shining black fruit +into their hands. Eda bit one dubiously with her long, white teeth, and +giggled. + +"Don't they taste funny!" she exclaimed. + +"Good--very good," he asserted gravely, and it was to Janet he turned, as +though recognizing a discrimination not to be found in her companion. +She nodded affirmatively. The strange taste of the fruit enhanced her +sense of adventure, she tried to imagine herself among the gatherers in +the grove; she glanced at the young man to perceive that he was tall and +well formed, with remarkably expressive eyes almost the colour of the +olives themselves. It surprised her that she liked him, though he was an +Italian and a foreigner: a certain debonnair dignity in him appealed to +her--a quality lacking in many of her own countrymen. + +And she wanted to talk to him about Italy,--only she did not know how to +begin,--when a customer appeared, an Italian woman who conversed with him +in soft, liquid tones that moved her .... + +Sometimes on these walks--especially if the day were grey and +sombre--Janet's sense of romance and adventure deepened, became more +poignant, charged with presage. These feelings, vague and unaccountable, +she was utterly unable to confide to Eda, yet the very fear they inspired +was fascinating; a fear and a hope that some day, in all this Babel of +peoples, something would happen! It was as though the conflicting soul +of the city and her own soul were one.... + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Lise was the only member of the Bumpus family who did not find +uncongenial such distractions and companionships as were offered by the +civilization that surrounded them. The Bagatelle she despised; that was +slavery--but slavery out of which she might any day be snatched, like +Leila Hawtrey, by a prince charming who had made a success in life. +Success to Lise meant money. Although what some sentimental sociologists +might call a victim of our civilization, Lise would not have changed it, +since it produced not only Lise herself, but also those fabulous +financiers with yachts and motors and town and country houses she read +about in the supplements of the Sunday newspapers. It contained her +purgatory, which she regarded in good conventional fashion as a mere +temporary place of detention, and likewise the heaven toward which she +strained, the dwelling-place of light. In short, her philosophy was that +of the modern, orthodox American, tinged by a somewhat commercialized +Sunday school tradition of an earlier day, and highly approved by the +censors of the movies. The peculiar kind of abstinence once +euphemistically known as "virtue," particularly if it were combined with +beauty, never failed of its reward. Lise, in this sense, was indeed +virtuous, and her mirror told her she was beautiful. Almost anything +could happen to such a lady: any day she might be carried up into heaven +by that modern chariot of fire, the motor car, driven by a celestial +chauffeur. + +One man's meat being another's poison, Lise absorbed from the movies an +element by which her sister Janet was repelled. A popular production +known as "Leila of Hawtrey's" contained her creed,--Hawtrey's being a +glittering metropolitan restaurant where men of the world are wont to +gather and discuss the stock market, and Leila a beautiful, blonde and +orphaned waitress upon whom several of the fashionable frequenters had +exercised seductive powers in vain. They lay in wait for her at the side +entrance, followed her, while one dissipated and desperate person, +married, and said to move in the most exclusive circles, sent her an +offer of a yearly income in five figures, the note being reproduced on +the screen, and Leila pictured reading it in her frigid hall-bedroom. +There are complications; she is in debt, and the proprietor of Hawtrey's +has threatened to discharge her and in order that the magnitude of the +temptation may be most effectively realized the vision appears of Leila +herself, wrapped in furs, stepping out of a limousine and into an +elevator lifting her to an apartment containing silk curtains, a Canet +bed, a French maid, and a Pomeranian. Virtue totters, but triumphs, +being reinforced by two more visions the first of these portrays Leila, +prematurely old, dragging herself along pavements under the metallic +Broadway lights accosting gentlemen in evening dress; and the second +reveals her in the country, kneeling beside a dying mother's bed, giving +her promise to remain true to the Christian teachings of her childhood. + +And virtue is rewarded, lavishly, as virtue should be, in dollars and +cents, in stocks and bonds, in pearls and diamonds. Popular fancy takes +kindly to rough but honest westerners who have begun life in flannel +shirts, who have struck gold and come to New York with a fortune but +despising effeteness; such a one, tanned by the mountain sun, embarrassed +in raiment supplied by a Fifth Avenue tailor, takes a table one evening +at Hawtrey's and of course falls desperately in love. He means marriage +from the first, and his faith in Leila is great enough to survive what +appears to be an almost total eclipse of her virtue. Through the +machinations of the influential villain, and lured by the false pretence +that one of her girl friends is ill, she is enticed into a mysterious +house of a sinister elegance, and apparently irretrievably compromised. +The westerner follows, forces his way through the portals, engages the +villain, and vanquishes him. Leila becomes a Bride. We behold her, at +the end, mistress of one of those magnificent stone mansions with grilled +vestibules and negro butlers into whose sacred precincts we are +occasionally, in the movies, somewhat breathlessly ushered--a long way +from Hawtrey's restaurant and a hall- bedroom. A long way, too, from the +Bagatelle and Fillmore Street--but to Lise a way not impossible, nor even +improbable. + +This work of art, conveying the moral that virtue is an economic asset, +made a great impression on Lise. Good Old Testament doctrine, set forth +in the Book of Job itself. And Leila, pictured as holding out for a +higher price and getting it, encouraged Lise to hold out also. Mr. +Wiley, in whose company she had seen this play, and whose likeness filled +the plush and silver-plated frame on her bureau, remained ironically +ignorant of the fact that he had paid out his money to make definite an +ambition, an ideal hitherto nebulous in the mind of the lady whom he +adored. Nor did Lise enlighten him, being gifted with a certain +inserutableness. As a matter of fact it had never been her intention to +accept him, but now that she was able concretely to visualize her +Lochinvar of the future, Mr. Whey's lack of qualifications became the +more apparent. In the first place, he had been born in Lowell and had +never been west of Worcester; in the second, his salary was sixteen +dollars a week: it is true she had once fancied the Scottish terrier +style of hair-cut abruptly ending in the rounded line of the shaven neck, +but Lochinvar had been close-cropped. Mr. Wiley, close-cropped, would +have resembled a convict. + +Mr. Wiley was in love, there could be no doubt about that, and if he had +not always meant marriage, he meant it now, having reached a state where +no folly seems preposterous. The manner of their meeting had had just +the adventurous and romantic touch that Lise liked, one of her favourite +amusements in the intervals between "steadies" being to walk up and down +Faber Street of an evening after supper, arm in arm with two or three +other young ladies, all chewing gum, wheeling into store windows and +wheeling out again, pretending the utmost indifference to melting glances +cast in their direction. An exciting sport, though incomprehensible to +masculine intelligence. It was a principle with Lise to pay no attention +to any young man who was not "presented," those venturing to approach her +with the ready formula "Haven't we met before?" being instantly +congealed. She was strict as to etiquette. But Mr. Wiley, it seemed, +could claim acquaintance with Miss Schuler, one of the ladies to whose +arm Lise's was linked, and he had the further advantage of appearing in a +large and seductive touring car, painted green, with an eagle poised +above the hood and its name, Wizard, in a handwriting rounded and bold, +written in nickel across the radiator. He greeted Miss Schuler +effusively, but his eye was on Lise from the first, and it was she he +took with, him in the front seat, indifferent to the giggling behind. +Ever since then Lise had had a motor at her disposal, and on Sundays they +took long "joy rides" beyond the borders of the state. But it must not +be imagined that Mr. Whey was the proprietor of the vehicle; nor was he a +chauffeur,--her American pride would not have permitted her to keep +company with a chauffeur: he was the demonstrator for the Wizard, +something of a wizard himself, as Lise had to admit when they whizzed +over the tarvia of the Riverside Boulevard at fifty or sixty miles an +hour with the miner cut out--a favourite diversion of Mr. Whey's, who did +not feel he was going unless he was accompanied by a noise like that of a +mitrailleuse in action. Lise, experiencing a ravishing terror, hung on +to her hat with one hand and to Mr. Wiley with the other, her code +permitting this; permitting him also, occasionally, when they found +themselves in tenebrous portions of Slattery's Riverside Park, to put his +arm around her waist and kiss her. So much did Lise's virtue allow, and +no more, the result being that he existed in a tantalizing state of hope +and excitement most detrimental to the nerves. + +He never lost, however,--in public at least, or before Lise's +family,--the fine careless, jaunty air of the demonstrator, of the +free-lance for whom seventy miles an hour has no terrors; the automobile, +apparently, like the ship, sets a stamp upon its votaries. No +Elizabethan buccaneer swooping down on defenceless coasts ever exceeded +in audacity Mr. Wiley's invasion of quiet Fillmore Street. He would draw +up with an ear-splitting screaming of brakes in front of the clay-yellow +house, and sometimes the muffler, as though unable to repress its +approval of the performance, would let out a belated pop that never +failed to jar the innermost being of Auermann, who had been shot at, or +rather shot past, by an Italian, and knew what it was. He hated +automobiles, he hated Mr. Wiley. + +"Vat you do?" he would demand, glaring. + +And Mr. Wiley would laugh insolently. + +"You think I done it, do you, Dutchie--huh!" + +He would saunter past, up the stairs, and into the Bumpus dining-room, +often before the family had finished their evening meal. Lise alone made +him welcome, albeit demurely; but Mr. Wiley, not having sensibilities, +was proof against Hannah's coldness and Janet's hostility. With unerring +instinct he singled out Edward as his victim. + +"How's Mr. Bumpus this evening?" he would genially inquire. + +Edward invariably assured Mr. Wiley that he was well, invariably took a +drink of coffee to emphasize the fact, as though the act of lifting his +cup had in it some magic to ward off the contempt of his wife and elder +daughter. + +"Well, I've got it pretty straight that the Arundel's going to run +nights, starting next week," Lise's suitor would continue. + +And to save his soul Edward could not refrain from answering, "You don't +say so!" He feigned interest in the information that the Hampton Ball +Team, owing to an unsatisfactory season, was to change managers next +year. Mr. Wiley possessed the gift of gathering recondite bits of news, +he had confidence in his topics and in his manner of dealing with them; +and Edward, pretending to be entertained, went so far in his politeness +as to ask Mr. Wiley if he had had supper. + +"I don't care if I sample one of Mis' Bumpus's doughnuts," Mr. Wiley +would reply politely, reaching out a large hand that gave evidence, in +spite of Sapolio, of an intimacy with grease cups and splash pans. "I +guess there's nobody in this burg can make doughnuts to beat yours, Miss +Bumpus." + +If she had only known which doughnut he would take; Hannah sometimes +thought she might have been capable of putting arsenic in it. Her icy +silence did not detract from the delights of his gestation. + +Occasionally, somewhat to Edward's alarm, Hannah demanded: "Where are you +taking Lise this evening?" + +Mr. Wiley's wisdom led him to be vague. + +"Oh, just for a little spin up the boulevard. Maybe we'll pick up Ella +Schuler and one or two other young ladies." + +Hannah and Janet knew very well he had no intention of doing this, and +Hannah did not attempt to conceal her incredulity. As a matter of fact, +Lise sometimes did insist on a "party." + +"I want you should bring her back by ten o'clock. That's late enough for +a girl who works to be out. It's late enough for any girl." + +"Sure, Mis' Bumpus," Wiley would respond easily. + +Hannah chafed because she had no power to enforce this, because Mr. Wiley +and Lise understood she had no power. Lise went to put on her hat; if +she skimped her toilet in the morning, she made up for it in the evening +when she came home from the store, and was often late for supper. In the +meantime, while Lise was in the bedroom adding these last touches, Edward +would contemptibly continue the conversation, fingering the Evening +Banner as it lay in his lap, while Mr. Wiley helped himself boldly to +another doughnut, taking--as Janet observed-- elaborate precautions to +spill none of the crumbs on a brown suit, supposed to be the last +creation in male attire. Behind a plate glass window in Faber Street, +belonging to a firm of "custom" tailors whose stores had invaded every +important city in the country, and who made clothes for "college" men, +only the week before Mr. Wiley had seen this same suit artistically +folded, combined with a coloured shirt, brown socks, and tie and +"torture" collar--lures for the discriminating. Owing to certain +expenses connected with Lise, he had been unable to acquire the shirt and +the tie, but he had bought the suit in the hope and belief that she would +find him irresistible therein. It pleased him, too, to be taken for a +"college" man, and on beholding in the mirror his broadened shoulders and +diminished waist he was quite convinced his money had not been spent in +vain; that strange young ladies--to whom, despite his infatuation for the +younger Miss Bumpus, he was not wholly indifferent--would mistake him for +an undergraduate of Harvard,--an imposition concerning which he had no +scruples. But Lise, though shaken, had not capitulated..... + +When she returned to the dining-room, arrayed in her own finery, demure, +triumphant, and had carried off Mr. Whey there would ensue an interval of +silence broken only by the clattering together of the dishes Hannah +snatched up. + +"I guess he's the kind of son-in-law would suit you," she threw over her +shoulder once to Edward. + +"Why?" he inquired, letting down his newspaper nervously. + +"Well, you seem to favour him, to make things as pleasant for him as you +can." + +Edward would grow warm with a sense of injustice, the inference being +that he was to blame for Mr. Wiley; if he had been a different kind of +father another sort of suitor would be courting Lise. + +"I have to be civil," he protested. He pronounced that, word "civil" +exquisitely, giving equal value to both syllables. + +"Civil!" Hannah scoffed, as she left the room; and to Janet, who had +followed her into the kitchen, she added: "That's the trouble with your +father, he's always be'n a little too civil. Edward Bumpus is just as +simple as a child, he's afraid of offending folks' feelings .... Think +of being polite to that Whey!" In those two words Hannah announced +eloquently her utter condemnation of the demonstrator of the Wizard. It +was characteristic of her, however, when she went back for another load +of dishes and perceived that Edward was only pretending to read his +Banner, to attempt to ease her husband's feelings. She thought it queer +because she was still fond of Edward Bumpus, after all he had "brought on +her." + +"It's Lise," she said, as though speaking to Janet, "she attracts 'em. +Sometimes I just can't get used to it that she's my daughter. I don't +know who she takes after. She's not like any of my kin, nor any of the +Bumpuses." + +"What can you do?" asked Edward. "You can't order him out of the house. +It's better for him to come here. And you can't stop Lise from going +with him-- she's earning her own money...." + +They had talked over the predicament before, and always came to the same +impasse. In the privacy of the kitchen Hannah paused suddenly in her +energetic rubbing of a plate and with supreme courage uttered a question. + +"Janet, do you calculate he means anything wrong?" + +"I don't know what he means," Janet replied, unwilling to give Mr. Wiley +credit for anything, "but I know this, that Lise is too smart to let him +take advantage of her." + +Hannah ruminated. Cleverness as the modern substitute for feminine +virtue did not appeal to her, but she let it pass. She was in no mood to +quarrel with any quality that would ward off disgrace. + +"I don't know what to make of Lise--she don't appear to have any +principles...." + +If the Wiley affair lasted longer than those preceding it, this was +because former suitors had not commanded automobiles. When Mr. Wiley +lost his automobile he lost his luck--if it may be called such. One +April evening, after a stroll with Eda, Janet reached home about nine +o'clock to find Lise already in their room, to remark upon the absence of +Mr. Wiley's picture from the frame. + +"I'm through with him," Lise declared briefly, tugging at her hair. + +"Through with him?" Janet repeated. + +Lise paused in her labours and looked at her sister steadily. "I handed +him the mit--do you get me?" + +"But why?" + +"Why? I was sick of him--ain't that enough? And then he got mixed up +with a Glendale trolley and smashed his radiator, and the Wizard people +sacked him. I always told him he was too fly. It's lucky for him I +wasn't in the car." + +"It's lucky for you," said Janet. Presently she inquired curiously: +"Aren't you sorry?" + +"Nix." Lise shook her head, which was now bowed, her face hidden by +hair. "Didn't I tell you I was sick of him? But he sure was some +spender," she added, as though in justice bound to give him his due. + +Janet was shocked by the ruthlessness of it, for Lise appeared relieved, +almost gay. She handed Janet a box containing five peppermint +creams--all that remained of Mr. Wiley's last gift. + +One morning in the late spring Janet crossed the Warren Street bridge, +the upper of the two spider-like structures to be seen from her office +window, spanning the river beside the great Hampton dam. The day, +dedicated to the memory of heroes fallen in the Civil War, the thirtieth +of May, was a legal holiday. Gradually Janet had acquired a dread of +holidays as opportunities never realized, as intervals that should have +been filled with unmitigated joys, and yet were invariably wasted, +usually in walks with Eda Rawle. To-day, feeling an irresistible longing +for freedom, for beauty, for adventure, for quest and discovery of she +knew not what, she avoided Eda, and after gazing awhile at the sunlight +dancing in the white mist below the falls, she walked on, southward, +until she had left behind her the last straggling houses of the city and +found herself on a wide, tarvia road that led, ultimately, to Boston. So +read the sign. + +Great maples, heavy with leaves, stood out against the soft blue of the +sky, and the sunlight poured over everything, bathing the stone walls, +the thatches of the farmhouses, extracting from the copses of stunted +pine a pungent, reviving perfume. Sometimes she stopped to rest on the +pine needles, and walked on again, aimlessly, following the road because +it was the easiest way. There were spring flowers in the farmhouse yards, +masses of lilacs whose purple she drank in eagerly; the air, which had +just a tang of New England sharpness, was filled with tender sounds, the +clucking of hens, snatches of the songs of birds, the rustling of maple +leaves in the fitful breeze. A chipmunk ran down an elm and stood +staring at her with beady, inquisitive eyes, motionless save for his +quivering tail, and she put forth her hand, shyly, beseechingly, as +though he held the secret of life she craved. But he darted away. + +She looked around her unceasingly, at the sky, at the trees, at the +flowers and ferns and fields, at the vireos and thrushes, the robins and +tanagers gashing in and out amidst the foliage, and she was filled with a +strange yearning to expand and expand until she should become a part of +all nature, be absorbed into it, cease to be herself. Never before had +she known just that feeling, that degree of ecstasy mingled with divine +discontent .... Occasionally, intruding faintly upon the countryside +peace, she was aware of a distant humming sound that grew louder and +louder until there shot roaring past her an automobile filled with noisy +folk, leaving behind it a suffocating cloud of dust. Even these +intrusions, reminders of the city she had left, were powerless to destroy +her mood, and she began to skip, like a schoolgirl, pausing once in a +while to look around her fearfully, lest she was observed; and it pleased +her to think that she had escaped forever, that she would never go back: +she cried aloud, as she skipped, "I won't go back, I won't go back," +keeping time with her feet until she was out of breath and almost +intoxicated, delirious, casting herself down, her heart beating wildly, +on a bank of ferns, burying her face in them. She had really stopped +because a pebble had got into her shoe, and as she took it out she looked +at her bare heel and remarked ruefully:-- + +"Those twenty-five cent stockings aren't worth buying!" + +Economic problems, however, were powerless to worry her to-day, when the +sun shone and the wind blew and the ferns, washed by the rill running +through the culvert under the road, gave forth a delicious moist odour +reminding her of the flower store where her sister Lise had once been +employed. But at length she arose, and after an hour or more of +sauntering the farming landscape was left behind, the crumbling stone +fences were replaced by a well-kept retaining wall capped by a privet +hedge, through which, between stone pillars, a driveway entered and +mounted the shaded slope, turning and twisting until lost to view. But +afar, standing on the distant crest, through the tree trunks and foliage +Janet saw one end of the mansion to which it led, and ventured timidly +but eagerly in among the trees in the hope of satisfying her new-born +curiosity. Try as she would, she never could get any but disappointing +and partial glimpses of a house which, because of the mystery of its +setting, fired her imagination, started her to wondering why it was that +some were permitted to live in the midst of such beauty while she was +condemned to spend her days in Fillmore Street and the prison of the +mill. She was not even allowed to look at it! The thought was like a +cloud across the sun. + +However, when she had regained the tarvia road and walked a little way +the shadow suddenly passed, and she stood surprised. The sight of a long +common with its ancient trees in the fullness of glory, dense maples, +sturdy oaks, strong, graceful elms that cast flickering, lacy shadows +across the road filled her with satisfaction, with a sense of peace +deepened by the awareness, in the background, ranged along the common on +either side, of stately, dignified buildings, each in an appropriate +frame of foliage. With the essence rather than the detail of all this +her consciousness became steeped; she was naturally ignorant of the great +good fortune of Silliston Academy of having been spared with one or two +exceptions--donations during those artistically lean years of the +nineteenth century when American architecture affected the Gothic, the +Mansard, and the subsequent hybrid. She knew this must be Silliston, the +seat of that famous academy of which she had heard. + +The older school buildings and instructors' houses, most of them white or +creamy yellow, were native Colonial, with tall, graceful chimneys and +classic pillars and delicate balustrades, eloquent at once of the racial +inheritance of the Republic and of a bygone individuality, dignity, and +pride. And the modern architect, of whose work there was an abundance, +had graciously and intuitively held this earlier note and developed it. +He was an American, but an American who had been trained. The result was +harmony, life as it should proceed, the new growing out of the old. And +no greater tribute can be paid to Janet Bumpus than that it pleased her, +struck and set exquisitely vibrating within her responsive chords. For +the first time in her adult life she stood in the presence of tradition, +of a tradition inherently if unconsciously the innermost reality of her +being a tradition that miraculously was not dead, since after all the +years it had begun to put forth these vigorous shoots.... + +What Janet chiefly realized was the delicious, contented sense of having +come, visually at least, to the home for which she had longed. But her +humour was that of a child who has strayed, to find its true dwelling +place in a region of beauty hitherto unexplored and unexperienced, +tinged, therefore, with unreality, with mystery,--an effect enhanced by +the chance stillness and emptiness of the place. She wandered up and +down the Common, whose vivid green was starred with golden dandelions; +and then, spying the arched and shady vista of a lane, entered it, bent +on new discoveries. It led past one of the newer buildings, the +library--as she read in a carved inscription over the door--plunged into +shade again presently to emerge at a square farmhouse, ancient and +weathered, with a great square chimney thrust out of the very middle of +the ridge-pole,--a landmark left by one of the earliest of Silliston's +settlers. Presiding over it, embracing and protecting it, was a splendid +tree. The place was evidently in process of reconstruction and repair, +the roof had been newly shingled, new frames, with old-fashioned, tiny +panes had been put in the windows; a little garden was being laid out +under the sheltering branches of the tree, and between the lane and the +garden, half finished, was a fence of an original and pleasing design, +consisting of pillars placed at intervals with upright pickets between, +the pickets sawed in curves, making a line that drooped in the middle. +Janet did not perceive the workman engaged in building this fence until +the sound of his hammer attracted her attention. His back was bent, he +was absorbed in his task. + +"Are there any stores near here?" she inquired. + +He straightened up. "Why yes," he replied, "come to think of it, I have +seen stores, I'm sure I have." + +Janet laughed; his expression, his manner of speech were so delightfully +whimsical, so in keeping with the spirit of her day, and he seemed to +accept her sudden appearance in the precise make-believe humour she could +have wished. And yet she stood a little struck with timidity, puzzled by +the contradictions he presented of youth and age, of shrewdness, +experience and candour, of gentility and manual toil. He must have been +about thirty-five; he was hatless, and his hair, uncombed but not +unkempt, was greying at the temples; his eyes--which she noticed +particularly--were keen yet kindly, the irises delicately stencilled in a +remarkable blue; his speech was colloquial yet cultivated, his workman's +clothes belied his bearing. + +"Yes, there are stores, in the village," he went on, "but isn't it a +holiday, or Sunday--perhaps--or something of the kind?" + +"It's Decoration Day," she reminded him, with deepening surprise. + +"So it is! And all the storekeepers have gone on picnics in their +automobiles, or else they're playing golf. Nobody's working today." + +"But you--aren't you working?" she inquired. + +"Working?" he repeated. "I suppose some people would call it work. I--I +hadn't thought of it in that way." + +"You mean--you like it," Janet was inspired to say. + +"Well, yes," he confessed. "I suppose I do." + +Her cheeks dimpled. If her wonder had increased, her embarrassment had +flown, and he seemed suddenly an old acquaintance. She had, however, +profound doubts now of his being a carpenter. + +"Were you thinking of going shopping?" he asked, and at the very +ludicrousness of the notion she laughed again. She discovered a keen +relish for this kind of humour, but it was new to her experience, and she +could not cope with it. + +"Only to buy some crackers, or a sandwich," she replied, and blushed. + +"Oh," he said. "Down in the village, on the corner where the cars stop, +is a restaurant. It's not as good as the Parker House in Boston, I +believe, but they do have sandwiches, yes, and coffee. At least they +call it coffee." + +"Oh, thank you," she said. + +"You'd better wait till you try it," he warned her. + +"Oh, I don't mind, I don't want much." And she was impelled to add: +"It's such a beautiful day." + +"It's absurd to get hungry on such a day--absurd," he agreed. + +"Yes, it is," she laughed. "I'm not really hungry, but I haven't time to +get back to Hampton for dinner." Suddenly she grew hot at the thought +that he might suspect her of hinting. "You see, I live in Hampton," she +went on hurriedly, "I'm a stenographer there, in the Chippering Mill, and +I was just out for a walk, and--I came farther than I intended." She had +made it worse. + +But he said, "Oh, you came from Hampton!" with an intonation of surprise, +of incredulity even, that soothed and even amused while it did not +deceive her. Not that the superior intelligence of which she had begun to +suspect him had been put to any real test by the discovery of her home, +and she was quite sure her modest suit of blue serge and her $2.99 pongee +blouse proclaimed her as a working girl of the mill city. "I've been to +Hampton," he declared, just as though it were four thousand miles away +instead of four. + +"But I've never been here before, to Silliston," she responded in the +same spirit: and she added wistfully, "it must be nice to live in such a +beautiful place as this!" + +"Yes, it is nice," he agreed. "We have our troubles, too,--but it's +nice." + +She ventured a second, appraising glance. His head, which he carried a +little flung back, his voice, his easy and confident bearing--all these +contradicted the saw and the hammer, the flannel shirt, open at the neck, +the khaki trousers still bearing the price tag. And curiosity beginning +to get the better of her, she was emboldened to pay a compliment to the +fence. If one had to work, it must be a pleasure to work on things +pleasing to the eye--such was her inference. + +"Why, I'm glad you like it," he said heartily. "I was just hoping some +one would come along here and admire it. Now--what colour would you +paint it?" + +"Are you a painter, too?" + +"After a fashion. I'm a sort of man of all work--I thought of painting +it white, with the pillars green." + +"I think that would be pretty," she answered, judicially, after a +moment's thought. "What else can you do?" + +He appeared to be pondering his accomplishments. + +"Well, I can doctor trees," he said, pointing an efficient finger at the +magnificent maple sheltering, like a guardian deity, the old farmhouse. +"I put in those patches." + +"They're cement," she exclaimed. "I never heard of putting cement in +trees." + +"They don't seem to mind." + +"Are the holes very deep?" + +"Pretty deep." + +"But I should think the tree would be dead." + +"Well, you see the life of a tree is right under the bark. If you can +keep the outer covering intact, the tree will live." + +"Why did you let the holes get so deep?" + +"I've just come here. The house was like the tree the shingles all +rotten, but the beams were sound. Those beams were hewn out of the +forest two hundred and fifty years ago." + +"Gracious!" said Janet. "And how old is the tree?" + +"I should say about a hundred. I suppose it wouldn't care to admit it." + +"How do you know?" she inquired. + +"Oh, I'm very intimate with trees. I find out their secrets." + +"It's your house!" she exclaimed, somewhat appalled by the discovery. + +"Yes--yes it is," he answered, looking around at it and then in an +indescribably comical manner down at his clothes. His gesture, his +expression implied that her mistake was a most natural one. + +"Excuse me, I thought--" she began, blushing hotly, yet wanting to laugh +again. + +"I don't blame you--why shouldn't you?" he interrupted her. "I haven't +got used to it yet, and there is something amusing about--my owning a +house. When the parlour's finished I'll have to wear a stiff collar, I +suppose, in order to live up to it." + +Her laughter broke forth, and she tried to imagine him in a stiff +collar.... But she was more perplexed than ever. She stood balancing on +one foot, poised for departure. + +"I ought to be going," she said, as though she had been paying him a +formal visit. + +"Don't hurry," he protested cordially. "Why hurry back to Hampton?" + +"I never want to go back!" she cried with a vehemence that caused him to +contemplate her anew, suddenly revealing the intense, passionate quality +which had so disturbed Mr. Ditmar. She stood transformed. "I hate it!" +she declared. "It's so ugly, I never want to see it again." + +"Yes, it is ugly," he confessed. "Since you admit it, I don't mind +saying so. But it's interesting, in a way." Though his humorous moods +had delighted her, she felt subtly flattered because he had grown more +serious. + +"It is interesting," she agreed. She was almost impelled to tell him +why, in her excursions to the various quarters, she had found Hampton +interesting, but a shyness born of respect for the store of knowledge she +divined in him restrained her. She was curious to know what this man saw +in Hampton. His opinion would be worth something. Unlike her neighbours +in Fillmore Street, he was not what her sister Lise would call "nutty"; +he had an air of fine sanity, of freedom, of detachment,--though the word +did not occur to her; he betrayed no bitter sense of injustice, and his +beliefs were uncoloured by the obsession of a single panacea. "Why do +you think it's interesting?" she demanded. + +"Well, I'm always expecting to hear that it's blown up. It reminds me of +nitro-glycerine," he added, smiling. + +She repeated the word. + +"An explosive, you know--they put it in dynamite. They say a man once +made it by accident, and locked up his laboratory and ran home--and never +went back." + +"I know what you mean!" she cried, her eyes alight with excitement. "All +those foreigners! I've felt it that something would happen, some day, it +frightened me, and yet I wished that something would happen. Only, I +never would have thought of--nitro-glycerine." + +She was unaware of the added interest in his regard. But he answered +lightly enough:-- + +"Oh, not only the foreigners. Human chemicals--you can't play with human +chemicals any more than you can play with real ones--you've got to know +something about chemistry." + +This remark was beyond her depth. + +"Who is playing with them?" she asked. + +"Everybody--no one in particular. Nobody seems to know much about them, +yet," he replied, and seemed disinclined to pursue the subject. A robin +with a worm in its bill was hopping across the grass; he whistled softly, +the bird stopped, cocking its head and regarding them. Suddenly, in +conflict with her desire to remain indefinitely talking with this strange +man, Janet felt an intense impulse to leave. She could bear the +conversation no longer, she might burst into tears--such was the +extraordinary effect he had produced on her. + +"I must go,--I'm ever so much obliged to you," she said. + +"Drop in again," he said, as he took her trembling hand .... When she +had walked a little way she looked back over her shoulder to see him +leaning idly against the post, gazing after her, and waving his hammer in +friendly fashion. + +For a while her feet fairly flew, and her heart beat tumultuously, +keeping time with her racing thoughts. She walked about the Common, +seeing nothing, paying no attention to the passers-by, who glanced at her +curiously. But at length as she grew calmer the needs of a youthful and +vigorous body became imperative, and realizing suddenly that she was +tired and hungry, sought and found the little restaurant in the village +below. She journeyed back to Hampton pondering what this man had said to +her; speculating, rather breathlessly, whether he had been impelled to +conversation by a natural kindness and courtesy, or whether he really had +discovered something in her worthy of addressing, as he implied. +Resentment burned in her breast, she became suddenly blinded by tears: +she might never see him again, and if only she were "educated" she might +know him, become his friend. Even in this desire she was not +conventional, and in the few moments of their contact he had developed +rather than transformed what she meant by "education." She thought of it +not as knowledge reeking of books and schools, but as the acquirement of +the freemasonry which he so evidently possessed, existence on terms of +understanding, confidence, and freedom with nature; as having the world +open up to one like a flower filled with colour and life. She thought of +the robin, of the tree whose secrets he had learned, of a mental range +including even that medley of human beings amongst whom she lived. And +the fact that something of his meaning had eluded her grasp made her +rebel all the more bitterly against the lack of a greater knowledge .... + +Often during the weeks that followed he dwelt in her mind as she sat at +her desk and stared out across the river, and several times that summer +she started to walk to Silliston. But always she turned back. Perhaps +she feared to break the charm of that memory.... + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Our American climate is notoriously capricious. Even as Janet trudged +homeward on that Memorial Day afternoon from her Cinderella-like +adventure in Silliston the sun grew hot, the air lost its tonic, becoming +moist and tepid, white clouds with dark edges were piled up in the +western sky. The automobiles of the holiday makers swarmed ceaselessly +over the tarvia. Valiantly as she strove to cling to her dream, +remorseless reality was at work dragging her back, reclaiming her; +excitement and physical exercise drained her vitality, her feet were +sore, sadness invaded her as she came in view of the ragged outline of +the city she had left so joyfully in the morning. Summer, that most +depressing of seasons in an environment of drab houses and grey +pavements, was at hand, listless householders and their families were +already, seeking refuge on front steps she passed on her way to Fillmore +Street. + +It was about half past five when she arrived. Lise, her waist removed, +was seated in a rocking chair at the window overlooking the littered +yards and the backs of the tenements on Rutger Street. And Lise, despite +the heaviness of the air, was dreaming. Of such delicate texture was the +fabric of Janet's dreams that not only sordid reality, but contact with +other dreams of a different nature, such as her sister's, often sufficed +to dissolve them. She resented, for instance, the presence in the plush +oval of Mr. Eustace Arlington; the movie star whose likeness had replaced +Mr. Wiley's, and who had played the part of the western hero in "Leila of +Hawtrey's." With his burning eyes and sensual face betraying the +puffiness that comes from over-indulgence, he was not Janet's ideal of a +hero, western or otherwise. And now Lise was holding a newspaper: not +the Banner, whose provinciality she scorned, but a popular Boston sheet +to be had for a cent, printed at ten in the morning and labelled "Three +O'clock Edition," with huge red headlines stretched across the top of the +page:-- + + "JURY FINDS IN MISS NEALY'S FAVOR." + +As Janet entered Lise looked up and exclaimed:-- + +"Say, that Nealy girl's won out!" + +"Who is she?" Janet inquired listlessly. + +"You are from the country, all right," was her sister's rejoinder. "I +would have bet there wasn't a Reub in the state that wasn't wise to the +Ferris breach of promise case, and here you blow in after the show's over +and want to know who Nelly Nealy is. If that doesn't beat the band!" + +"This woman sued a man named Ferris--is that it?" + +"A man named Ferris!" Lise repeated, with the air of being appalled by +her sister's ignorance. "I guess you never heard of Ferris, either--the +biggest copper man in Boston. He could buy Hampton, and never feel it, +and they say his house in Brighton cost half a million dollars. Nelly +Nealy put her damages at one hundred and fifty thousand and stung him for +seventy five. I wish I'd been in court when that jury came back! +There's her picture." + +To Janet, especially in the mood of reaction in which she found herself +that evening, Lise's intense excitement, passionate partisanship and +approval of Miss Nealy were incomprehensible, repellent. However, she +took the sheet, gazing at the image of the lady who, recently an obscure +stenographer, had suddenly leaped into fame and become a "headliner," the +envied of thousands of working girls all over New England. Miss Nealy, +in spite of the "glare of publicity" she deplored, had borne up admirably +under the strain, and evidently had been able to consume three meals a +day and give some thought to her costumes. Her smile under the picture +hat was coquettish, if not bold. The special article, signed by a lady +reporter whose sympathies were by no means concealed and whose talents +were given free rein, related how the white-haired mother had wept tears +of joy; how Miss Nealy herself had been awhile too overcome to speak, and +then had recovered sufficiently to express her gratitude to the twelve +gentlemen who had vindicated the honour of American womanhood. Mr. +Ferris, she reiterated, was a brute; never as long as she lived would she +be able to forget how she had loved and believed in him, and how, when at +length she unwillingly became convinces of his perfidy, she had been +"prostrated," unable to support her old mother. She had not, naturally, +yet decided how she would invest her fortune; as for going on the stage, +that had been suggested, but she had made no plans. "Scores of women +sympathizers" had escorted her to a waiting automobile.... + +Janet, impelled by the fascination akin to disgust, read thus far, and +flinging the newspaper on the floor, began to tidy herself for supper. +But presently, when she heard Lise sigh, she could contain herself no +longer. + +"I don't see how you can read such stuff as that," she exclaimed. +"It's--it's horrible." + +"Horrible?" Lise repeated. + +Janet swung round from the washbasin, her hands dripping. + +"Instead of getting seventy five thousand dollars she ought to be tarred +and feathered. She's nothing but a blackmailer." + +Lise, aroused from her visions, demanded vehemently "Ain't he a +millionaire?" + +"What difference does that make?" Janet retorted. "And you can't tell me +she didn't know what she was up to all along--with that face." + +"I'd have sued him, all right," declared Lise, defiantly. + +"Then you'd be a blackmailer, too. I'd sooner scrub floors, I'd sooner +starve than do such a thing--take money for my affections. In the first +place, I'd have more pride, and in the second place, if I really loved a +man, seventy five thousand or seventy five million dollars wouldn't help +me any. Where do you get such ideas? Decent people don't have them." + +Janet turned to the basin again and began rubbing her face +vigorously--ceasing for an instance to make sure of the identity of a +sound reaching her ears despite the splashing of water. Lise was +sobbing. Janet dried her face and hands, arranged her hair, and sat down +on the windowsill; the scorn and anger, which had been so intense as +completely to possess her, melting into a pity and contempt not unmixed +with bewilderment. Ordinarily Lise was hard, impervious to such +reproaches, holding her own in the passionate quarrels that occasionally +took place between them yet there were times, such as this, when her +resistance broke down unexpectedly, and she lost all self control. She +rocked to and fro in the chair, her shoulders bowed, her face hidden in +her hands. Janet reached out and touched her. + +"Don't be silly," she began, rather sharply, "just because I said it was +a disgrace to have such ideas. Well, it is." + +"I'm not silly," said Lise. "I'm sick of that job at the Bagatelle" +--sob--"there's nothing in it--I'm going to quit--I wish to God I was +dead! Standing on your feet all day till you're wore out for six dollars +a week--what's there in it?"--sob--"With that guy Walters who walks the +floor never lettin' up on you. He come up to me yesterday and says, `I +didn't know you was near sighted, Miss Bumpus' just because there was a +customer Annie Hatch was too lazy to wait on"--sob--"That's his line of +dope--thinks he's sarcastic--and he's sweet on Annie. Tomorrow I'm going +to tell him to go to hell. I'm through I'm sick of it, I tell +you"--sob--"I'd rather be dead than slave like that for six dollars." + +"Where are you going?" asked Janet. + +"I don't know--I don't care. What's the difference? any place'd be +better than this." For awhile she continued to cry on a ridiculously +high, though subdued, whining note, her breath catching at intervals. A +feeling of helplessness, of utter desolation crept over Janet; powerless +to comfort herself, how could she comfort her sister? She glanced around +the familiar, sordid room, at the magazine pages against the faded +wall-paper, at the littered bureau and the littered bed, over which +Lise's clothes were flung. It was hot and close even now, in summer it +would be stifling. Suddenly a flash of sympathy revealed to her a +glimpse of the truth that Lise, too, after her own nature, sought beauty +and freedom! Never did she come as near comprehending Lise as in such +moments as this, and when, on dark winter mornings, her sister clung to +her, terrified by the siren. Lise was a child, and the thought that she, +Janet, was powerless to change her was a part of the tragic tenderness. +What would become of Lise? And what would become of her, Janet?... So +she clung, desperately, to her sister's hand until at last Lise roused +herself, her hair awry, her face puckered and wet with tears and +perspiration. + +"I can't stand it any more--I've just got to go away anywhere," she said, +and the cry found an echo in Janet's heart.... + +But the next morning Lise went back to the Bagatelle, and Janet to the +mill.... + +The fact that Lise's love affairs had not been prospering undoubtedly had +something to do with the fit of depression into which she had fallen that +evening. A month or so before she had acquired another beau. It was +understood by Lise's friends and Lise's family, though not by the +gentleman himself, that his position was only temporary or at most +probationary; he had not even succeeded to the rights, title, and +privileges of the late Mr. Wiley, though occupying a higher position in +the social scale--being the agent of a patent lawn sprinkler with an +office in Faber Street. + +"Stick to him and you'll wear diamonds--that's what he tries to put +across," was Lise's comment on Mr. Frear's method, and thus Janet gained +the impression that her sister's feelings were not deeply involved. "If +I thought he'd make good with the sprinkler I might talk business. But +say, he's one of those ginks that's always tryin' to beat the bank. He's +never done a day's work in his life. Last year he was passing around +Foley's magazine, and before that he was with the race track that went +out of business because the ministers got nutty over it. Well, he may +win out," she added reflectively, "those guys sometimes do put the game +on the blink. He sure is a good spender when the orders come in, with a +line of talk to make you holler for mercy." + +Mr. Frear's "line of talk" came wholly, astonishingly, from one side of +his mouth--the left side. As a muscular feat it was a triumph. A deaf +person on his right side would not have known he was speaking. The +effect was secretive, extraordinarily confidential; enabling him to sell +sprinklers, it ought to have helped him to make love, so distinctly +personal was it, implying as it did that the individual addressed was +alone of all the world worthy of consideration. Among his friends it was +regarded as an accomplishment, but Lise was critical, especially since he +did not look into one's eyes, but gazed off into space, as though he +weren't talking at all. + +She had once inquired if the right side of his face was paralyzed. + +She permitted him to take her, however, to Gruber's Cafe, to the movies, +and one or two select dance halls, and to Slattery's Riverside Park, +where one evening she had encountered the rejected Mr. Wiley. + +"Say, he was sore!" she told Janet the next morning, relating the +incident with relish, "for two cents he would have knocked Charlie over +the ropes. I guess he could do it, too, all right." + +Janet found it curious that Lise should display such vindictiveness +toward Mr. Wiley, who was more sinned against than sinning. She was +moved to inquire after his welfare. + +"He's got one of them red motorcycles," said Lise. "He was gay with it +too-- when we was waiting for the boulevard trolley he opened her up and +went right between Charlie and me. I had to laugh. He's got a job over +in Haverhill you can't hold that guy under water long." + +Apparently Lise had no regrets. But her premonitions concerning Mr. +Frear proved to be justified. He did not "make good." One morning the +little office on Faber Street where the sprinklers were displayed was +closed, Hampton knew him no more, and the police alone were sincerely +regretful. It seemed that of late he had been keeping all the money for +the sprinklers, and spending a good deal of it on Lise. At the time she +accepted the affair with stoical pessimism, as one who has learned what +to expect of the world, though her moral sense was not profoundly +disturbed by the reflection that she had indulged in the delights of +Slattery's and Gruber's and a Sunday at "the Beach" at the expense of the +Cascade Sprinkler Company of Boston. Mr. Frear inconsiderately neglected +to prepare her for his departure, the news of which was conveyed to her +in a singular manner, and by none other than Mr. Johnny Tiernan of the +tin shop,--their conversation throwing some light, not only on Lise's +sophistication, but on the admirable and intricate operation of Hampton's +city government. About five o'clock Lise was coming home along Fillmore +Street after an uneventful, tedious and manless holiday spent in the +company of Miss Schuler and other friends when she perceived Mr. Tiernan +seated on his steps, grinning and waving a tattered palm-leaf fan. + +"The mercury is sure on the jump," he observed. "You'd think it was +July." + +And Lise agreed. + +"I suppose you'll be going to Tim Slattery's place tonight," he went on. +"It's the coolest spot this side of the Atlantic Ocean." + +There was, apparently, nothing cryptic in this remark, yet it is worth +noting that Lise instantly became suspicious. + +"Why would I be going out there?" she inquired innocently, darting at him +a dark, coquettish glance. + +Mr. Tiernan regarded her guilelessly, but there was admiration in his +soul; not because of her unquestioned feminine attractions,--he being +somewhat amazingly proof against such things,--but because it was +conveyed to him in some unaccountable way that her suspicions were +aroused. The brain beneath that corkscrew hair was worthy of a +Richelieu. Mr. Tiernan's estimate of Miss Lise Bumpus, if he could have +been induced to reveal it, would have been worth listening to. + +"And why wouldn't you?" he replied heartily. "Don't I see all the pretty +young ladies out there, including yourself, and you dancing with the +Cascade man. Why is it you'll never give me a dance?" + +"Why is it you never ask me?" demanded Lise. + +"What chance have I got, against him?" + +"He don't own me," said Lise. + +Mr. Tiernan threw back his head, and laughed. + +"Well, if you're there to-night, tangoin' with him and I come up and +says, `Miss Bumpus, the pleasure is mine,' I'm wondering what would +happen." + +"I'm not going to Slattery's to-night," she declared having that instant +arrived at this conclusion. + +"And where then? I'll come along, if there's a chance for me." + +"Quit your kidding," Lise reproved him. + +Mr. Tiernan suddenly looked very solemn: + +"Kidding, is it? Me kiddin' you? Give me a chance, that's all I'm +asking. Where will you be, now?" + +"Is Frear wanted?" she demanded. + +Mr. Tiernan's expression changed. His nose seemed to become more +pointed, his eyes to twinkle more merrily than ever. He didn't take the +trouble, now, to conceal his admiration. + +"Sure, Miss Bumpus," he said, "if you was a man, we'd have you on the +force to- morrow." + +"What's he wanted for?" + +"Well," said Johnny, "a little matter of sprinklin'. He's been +sprinklin' his company's water without a license." + +She was silent a moment before she exclaimed:-- + +"I ought to have been wise that he was a crook!" + +"Well," said Johnny consolingly, "there's others that ought to have been +wise, too. The Cascade people had no business takin' on a man that +couldn't use but half of his mouth." + +This seemed to Lise a reflection on her judgment. She proceeded to clear +herself. + +"He was nothing to me. He never gave me no rest. He used to come 'round +and pester me to go out with him--" + +"Sure!" interrupted Mr. Tiernan. "Don't I know how it is with the likes +of him! A good time's a good time, and no harm in it. But the point is" +and here he cocked his nose--"the point is, where is he? Where will he +be tonight?" + +All at once Lise grew vehement, almost tearful. + +"I don't know--honest to God, I don't. If I did I'd tell you. Last +night he said he might be out of town. He didn't say where he was +going." She fumbled in her bag, drawing out an imitation lace +handkerchief and pressing it to her eyes. + +"There now!" exclaimed Mr. Tiernan, soothingly. "How would you know? +And he deceivin' you like he did the company--" + +"He didn't deceive me," cried Lise. + +"Listen," said Mr. Tiernan, who had risen and laid his hand on her arm. +"It's not young ladies like you that works and are self-respecting that +any one would be troublin', and you the daughter of such a fine man as +your father. Run along, now, I won't be detaining you, Miss Bumpus, and +you'll accept my apology. I guess we'll never see him in Hampton +again...." + +Some twenty minutes later he sauntered down the street, saluting +acquaintances, and threading his way across the Common entered a grimy +brick building where a huge policeman with an insignia on his arm was +seated behind a desk. Mr. Tiernan leaned on the desk, and reflectively +lighted a Thomas-Jefferson-Five- Cent Cigar, Union Label, the +excellencies of which were set forth on large signs above the "ten foot" +buildings on Faber Street. + +"She don't know nothing, Mike," he remarked. "I guess he got wise this +morning." + +The sergeant nodded.... + + + + +CHAPTER V + +To feel potential within one's self the capacity to live and yet to have +no means of realizing this capacity is doubtless one of the least +comfortable and agreeable of human experiences. Such, as summer came on, +was Janet's case. The memory of that visit to Silliston lingered in her +mind, sometimes to flare up so vividly as to make her existence seem +unbearable. How wonderful, she thought, to be able to dwell in such a +beautiful place, to have as friends and companions such amusing and +intelligent people as the stranger with whom she had talked! Were all +the inhabitants of Silliston like him? They must be, since it was a seat +of learning. Lise's cry, "I've just got to go away, anywhere," found an +echo in Janet's soul. Why shouldn't she go away? She was capable of +taking care of herself, she was a good stenographer, her salary had been +raised twice in two years,--why should she allow consideration for her +family to stand in the way of what she felt would be self realization? +Unconsciously she was a true modern in that the virtues known as duty and +self sacrifice did not appeal to her,--she got from them neither benefit +nor satisfaction, she understood instinctively that they were impeding to +growth. Unlike Lise, she was able to see life as it is, she did not +expect of it miracles, economic or matrimonial. Nothing would happen +unless she made it happen. She was twenty-one, earning nine dollars a +week, of which she now contributed five to the household,--her father, +with characteristic incompetence, having taken out a larger insurance +policy than he could reasonably carry. Of the remaining four dollars she +spent more than one on lunches, there were dresses and underclothing, +shoes and stockings to buy, in spite of darning and mending; little +treats with Eda that mounted up; and occasionally the dentist--for Janet +would not neglect her teeth as Lise neglected hers. She managed to save +something, but it was very little. And she was desperately unhappy when +she contemplated the grey and monotonous vista of the years ahead, saw +herself growing older and older, driven always by the stern necessity of +accumulating a margin against possible disasters; little by little drying +up, losing, by withering disuse, those rich faculties of enjoyment with +which she was endowed, and which at once fascinated and frightened her. +Marriage, in such an environment, offered no solution; marriage meant +dependence, from which her very nature revolted: and in her existence, +drab and necessitous though it were, was still a remnant of freedom that +marriage would compel her to surrender.... + +One warm evening, oppressed by such reflections, she had started home +when she remembered having left her bag in the office, and retraced her +steps. As she turned the corner of West Street, she saw, beside the +canal and directly in front of the bridge, a new and smart-looking +automobile, painted crimson and black, of the type known as a runabout, +which she recognized as belonging to Mr. Ditmar. Indeed, at that moment +Mr. Ditmar himself was stepping off the end of the bridge and about to +start the engine when, dropping the crank, he walked to the dashboard and +apparently became absorbed in some mechanisms there. Was it the glance +cast in her direction that had caused him to delay his departure? Janet +was seized by a sudden and rather absurd desire to retreat, but Canal +Street being empty, such an action would appear eccentric, and she came +slowly forward, pretending not to see her employer, ridiculing to herself +the idea that he had noticed her. Much to her annoyance, however, her +embarrassment persisted, and she knew it was due to the memory of certain +incidents, each in itself almost negligible, but cumulatively amounting +to a suspicion that for some months he had been aware of her: many times +when he had passed through the outer office she had felt his eyes upon +her, had been impelled to look up from her work to surprise in them a +certain glow to make her bow her head again in warm confusion. Now, as +she approached him, she was pleasantly but rather guiltily conscious of +the more rapid beating of the blood that precedes an adventure, yet +sufficiently self-possessed to note the becoming nature of the light +flannel suit axed rather rakish Panama he had pushed back from his +forehead. It was not until she had almost passed him that he +straightened up, lifted the Panama, tentatively, and not too far, +startling her. + +"Good afternoon, Miss Bumpus," he said. "I thought you had gone." + +"I left my bag in the office," she replied, with the outward calmness +that rarely deserted her--the calmness, indeed, that had piqued him and +was leading him on to rashness. + +"Oh," he said. "Simmons will get it for you." Simmons was the watchman +who stood in the vestibule of the office entrance. + +"Thanks. I can get it myself," she told him, and would have gone on had +he not addressed her again. "I was just starting out for a spin. What +do you think of the car? It's good looking, isn't it?" He stood off and +surveyed it, laughing a little, and in his laugh she detected a note +apologetic, at variance with the conception she had formed of his +character, though not alien, indeed, to the dust-coloured vigour of the +man. She scarcely recognized Ditmar as he stood there, yet he excited +her, she felt from him an undercurrent of something that caused her +inwardly to tremble. "See how the lines are carried through." He +indicated this by a wave of his hand, but his eyes were now on her. + +"It is pretty," she agreed. + +In contrast to the defensive tactics which other ladies of his +acquaintance had adopted, tactics of a patently coy and coquettish +nature, this self-collected manner was new and spicy, challenging to +powers never as yet fully exerted while beneath her manner he felt +throbbing that rare and dangerous thing in women, a temperament, for +which men have given their souls. This conviction of her possession of a +temperament,--he could not have defined the word, emotional rather than +intellectual, produced the apologetic attitude she was quick to sense. +He had never been, at least during his maturity, at a loss with the other +sex, and he found the experience delicious. + +"You like pretty things, I'm sure of that," he hazarded. But she did not +ask him how he knew, she simply assented. He raised the hood, revealing +the engine. "Isn't that pretty? See how nicely everything is adjusted +in that little space to do the particular work for which it is designed." + +Thus appealed to, she came forward and stopped, still standing off a +little way, but near enough to see, gazing at the shining copper caps on +the cylinders, at the bright rods and gears. + +"It looks intricate," said Mr. Ditmar, "but really it's very simple. The +gasoline comes in here from the tank behind--this is called the +carburetor, it has a jet to vaporize the gasoline, and the vapour is +sucked into each of these cylinders in turn when the piston moves--like +this." He sought to explain the action of the piston. "That compresses +it, and then a tiny electric spark comes just at the right moment to +explode it, and the explosion sends the piston down again, and turns the +shaft. Well, all four cylinders have an explosion one right after +another, and that keeps the shaft going." Whereupon the most important +personage in Hampton, the head of the great Chippering Mill proceeded, +for the benefit of a humble assistant stenographer, to remove the floor +boards behind the dash. "There's the shaft, come here and look at it." +She obeyed, standing beside him, almost touching him, his arm, indeed, +brushing her sleeve, and into his voice crept a tremor. "The shaft turns +the rear wheels by means of a gear at right angles on the axle, and the +rear wheels drive the car. Do you see?" + +"Yes," she answered faintly, honesty compelling her to add: "a little." + +He was looking, now, not at the machinery, but intently at her, and she +could feel the blood flooding into her cheeks and temples. She was even +compelled for an instant to return his glance, and from his eyes into +hers leaped a flame that ran scorching through her body. Then she knew +with conviction that the explanation of the automobile had been an +excuse; she had comprehended almost nothing of it, but she had been +impressed by the facility with which he described it, by his evident +mastery over it. She had noticed his hands, how thick his fingers were +and close together; yet how deftly he had used them, without smearing the +cuffs of his silk shirt or the sleeves of his coat with the oil that +glistened everywhere. + +"I like machinery," he told her as he replaced the boards. "I like to +take care of it myself." + +"It must be interesting," she assented, aware of the inadequacy of the +remark, and resenting in herself an inarticulateness seemingly imposed by +inhibition connected with his nearness. Fascination and antagonism were +struggling within her. Her desire to get away grew desperate. + +"Thank you for showing it to me." With an effort of will she moved +toward the bridge, but was impelled by a consciousness of the abruptness +of her departure to look back at him once--and smile, to experience again +the thrill of the current he sped after her. By lifting his hat, a +little higher, a little more confidently than in the first instance, he +made her leaving seem more gracious, the act somehow conveying an +acknowledgment on his part that their relationship had changed. + +Once across the bridge and in the mill, she fairly ran up the stairs and +into the empty office, to perceive her bag lying on the desk where she +had left it, and sat down for a few minutes beside the window, her heart +pounding in her breast as though she had barely escaped an accident +threatening her with physical annihilation. Something had happened to +her at last! But what did it mean? Where would it lead? Her fear, her +antagonism, of which she was still conscious, her resentment that Ditmar +had thus surreptitiously chosen to approach her in a moment when they +were unobserved were mingled with a throbbing exultation in that he had +noticed her, that there was something in her to attract him in that way, +to make his voice thicker and his smile apologetic when he spoke to her. +Of that "something-in-her" she had been aware before, but never had it +been so unmistakably recognized and beckoned to from without. She was at +once terrified, excited--and flattered. + +At length, growing calmer, she made her way out of the building. When +she reached the vestibule she had a moment of sharp apprehension, of +paradoxical hope, that Ditmar might still be there, awaiting her. But he +had gone.... + +In spite of her efforts to dismiss the matter from her mind, to persuade +herself there had been no significance in the encounter, when she was +seated at her typewriter the next morning she experienced a renewal of +the palpitation of the evening before, and at the sound of every step in +the corridor she started. Of this tendency she was profoundly ashamed. +And when at last Ditmar arrived, though the blood rose to her temples, +she kept her eyes fixed on the keys. He went quickly into his room: she +was convinced he had not so much as glanced at her.... As the days went +by, however, she was annoyed by the discovery that his continued ignoring +of her presence brought more resentment than relief, she detected in it a +deliberation implying between them a guilty secret: she hated secrecy, +though secrecy contained a thrill. Then, one morning when she was alone +in the office with young Caldwell, who was absorbed in some reports, +Ditmar entered unexpectedly and looked her full in the eyes, surprising +her into answering his glance before she could turn away, hating herself +and hating him. Hate, she determined, was her prevailing sentiment in +regard to Mr. Ditmar. + +The following Monday Miss Ottway overtook her, at noon, on the stairs. + +"Janet, I wanted to speak to you, to tell you I'm leaving," she said. + +"Leaving!" repeated Janet, who had regarded Miss Ottway as a fixture. + +"I'm going to Boston," Miss Ottway explained, in her deep, musical voice. +"I've always wanted to go, I have an unmarried sister there of whom I'm +very fond, and Mr. Ditmar knows that. He's got me a place with the +Treasurer, Mr. Semple." + +"Oh, I'm sorry you're going, though of course I'm glad for you," Janet +said sincerely, for she liked and respected Miss Ottway, and was +conscious in the older woman of a certain kindly interest. + +"Janet, I've recommended you to Mr. Ditmar for my place." + +"Oh!" cried Janet, faintly. + +"It was he who asked about you, he thinks you are reliable and quick and +clever, and I was very glad to say a good word for you, my dear, since I +could honestly do so." Miss Ottway drew Janet's arm through hers and +patted it affectionately. "Of course you'll have to expect some +jealousy, there are older women in the other offices who will think they +ought to have the place, but if you attend to your own affairs, as you +always have done, there won't be any trouble." + +"Oh, I won't take the place, I can't!" Janet cried, so passionately that +Miss Ottway looked at her in surprise. "I'm awfully grateful to you," +she added, flushing crimson, "I--I'm afraid I'm not equal to it." + +"Nonsense," said the other with decision. "You'd be very foolish not to +try it. You won't get as much as I do, at first, at any rate, but a +little more money won't be unwelcome, I guess. Mr. Ditmar will speak to +you this afternoon. I leave on Saturday. I'm real glad to do you a good +turn, Janet, and I know you'll get along," Miss Ottway added impulsively +as they parted at the corner of Faber Street. "I've always thought a +good deal of you." + +For awhile Janet stood still, staring after the sturdy figure of her +friend, heedless of the noonday crowd that bumped her. Then she went to +Grady's Quick Lunch Counter and ordered a sandwich and a glass of milk, +which she consumed slowly, profoundly sunk in thought. Presently Eda +Rawle arrived, and noticing her preoccupation, inquired what was the +matter. + +"Nothing," said Janet.... + +At two o'clock, when Ditmar returned to the office, he called Miss +Ottway, who presently came out to summon Janet to his presence. Fresh, +immaculate, yet virile in his light suit and silk shirt with red stripes, +he was seated at his desk engaged in turning over some papers in a +drawer. He kept her waiting a moment, and then said, with apparent +casualness:-- + +"Is that you, Miss Bumpus? Would you mind closing the door?" + +Janet obeyed, and again stood before him. He looked up. A suggestion of +tenseness in her pose betraying an inner attitude of alertness, of +defiance, conveyed to him sharply and deliciously once more the +panther-like impression he had received when first, as a woman, she had +come to his notice. The renewed and heightened perception of this feral +quality in her aroused a sense of danger by no means unpleasurable, +though warning him that he was about to take an unprecedented step, being +drawn beyond the limits of caution he had previously set for himself in +divorcing business and sex. Though he was by no means self-convinced of +an intention to push the adventure, preferring to leave its possibilities +open, he strove in voice and manner to be business-like; and instinct, +perhaps, whispered that she might take alarm. + +"Sit down, Miss Bumpus," he said pleasantly, as he closed the drawer. + +She seated herself on an office chair. + +"Do you like your work here?" he inquired. + +"No," said Janet. + +"Why not?" he demanded, staring at her. + +"Why should I?" she retorted. + +"Well--what's the trouble with it? It isn't as hard as it would be in +some other places, is it?" + +"I'm not saying anything against the place." + +"What, then?" + +"You asked me if I liked my work. I don't." + +"Then why do you do it?" he demanded. + +"To live," she replied. + +He smiled, but his gesture as he stroked his moustache implied a slight +annoyance at her composure. He found it difficult with this dark, self- +contained young woman to sustain the role of benefactor. + +"What kind of work would you like to do?" he demanded. + +"I don't know. I haven't got the choice, anyway," she said. + +He observed that she did her work well, to which she made no answer. She +refused to help him, although Miss Ottway must have warned her. She +acted as though she were conferring the favour. And yet, clearing his +throat, he was impelled to say:-- + +"Miss Ottway's leaving me, she's going into the Boston office with Mr. +Semple, the treasurer of the corporation. I shall miss her, she's an +able and reliable woman, and she knows my ways." He paused, fingering +his paper knife. "The fact is, Miss Bumpus, she's spoken highly of you, +she tells me you're quick and accurate and painstaking--I've noticed that +for myself. She seems to think you could do her work, and recommends +that I give you a trial. You understand, of course, that the position is +in a way confidential, and that you could not expect at first, at any +rate, the salary Miss Ottway has had, but I'm willing to offer you +fourteen dollars a week to begin with, and afterwards, if we get along +together, to give you more. What do you say?" + +"I'd like to try it, Mr. Ditmar," Janet said, and added nothing, no word +of gratitude or of appreciation to that consent. + +"Very well then," he replied, "that's settled. Miss Ottway will explain +things to you, and tell you about my peculiarities. And when she goes +you can take her desk, by the window nearest my door." + +Ditmar sat idle for some minutes after she had gone, staring through the +open doorway into the outer office.... + +To Ditmar she had given no evidence of the storm his offer had created in +her breast, and it was characteristic also that she waited until supper +was nearly over to inform her family, making the announcement in a +matter-of-fact tone, just as though it were not the unique piece of good +fortune that had come to the Bumpuses since Edward had been eliminated +from the mercantile establishment at Dolton. The news was received with +something like consternation. For the moment Hannah was incapable of +speech, and her hand trembled as she resumed the cutting of the pie: but +hope surged within her despite her effort to keep it down, her +determination to remain true to the fatalism from which she had +paradoxically derived so much comfort. The effect on Edward, while +somewhat less violent, was temporarily to take away his appetite. Hope, +to flower in him, needed but little watering. Great was his faith in the +Bumpus blood, and secretly he had always regarded his eldest daughter as +the chosen vessel for their redemption. + +"Well, I swan!" he exclaimed, staring at her in admiration and neglecting +his pie, "I've always thought you had it in you to get on, Janet. I +guess I've told you you've always put me in mind of Eliza Bumpus--the one +that held out against the Indians till her husband came back with the +neighbours. I was just reading about her again the other night." + +"Yes, you've told us, Edward," said Hannah. + +"She had gumption," he went on, undismayed. "And from what I can gather +of her looks I calculate you favour her--she was dark and not so very +tall--not so tall as you, I guess. So you're goin'" (he pronounced it +very slowly) "you're goin' to be Mr. Ditmar's private stenographer! He's +a smart man, Mr. Ditmar, he's a good man, too. All you've got to do is +to behave right by him. He always speaks to me when he passes by the +gate. I was sorry for him when his wife died--a young woman, too. And +he's never married again! Well, I swan!" + +"You'd better quit swanning," exclaimed Hannah. "And what's Mr. Ditmar's +goodness got to do with it? He's found-out Janet has sense, she's +willing and hard working, he won't" (pronounced want) "he won't be the +loser by it, and he's not giving her what he gave Miss Ottway. It's just +like you, thinking he's doing her a good turn." + +"I'm not saying Janet isn't smart," he protested, "but I know it's hard +to get work with so many folks after every job." + +"Maybe it ain't so hard when you've got some get-up and go," Hannah +retorted rather cruelly. It was thus characteristically and with +unintentional sharpness she expressed her maternal pride by a reflection +not only upon Edward, but Lise also. Janet had grown warm at the mention +of Ditmar's name. + +"It was Miss Ottway who recommended me," she said, glancing at her +sister, who during this conversation had sat in silence. Lise's +expression, normally suggestive of a discontent not unbecoming to her +type, had grown almost sullen. Hannah's brisk gathering up of the dishes +was suddenly arrested. + +"Lise, why don't you say something to your sister? Ain't you glad she's +got the place?" + +"Sure, I'm glad," said Lise, and began to unscrew the top of the salt +shaker. "I don't see why I couldn't get a raise, too. I work just as +hard as she does." + +Edward, who had never got a "raise" in his life, was smitten with +compunction and sympathy. + +"Give 'em time, Lise," he said consolingly. "You ain't so old as Janet." + +"Time!" she cried, flaring up and suddenly losing her control. "I've got +a picture of Waiters giving me a raise I know the girls that get raises +from him." + +"You ought to be ashamed of yourself," Hannah declared. "There--you've +spilled the salt!" + +But Lise, suddenly bursting into tears, got up and left the room. Edward +picked up the Banner and pretended to read it, while Janet collected the +salt and put it back into the shaker. Hannah, gathering up the rest of +the dishes, disappeared into the kitchen, but presently returned, as +though she had forgotten something. + +"Hadn't you better go after her?" she said to Janet. + +"I'm afraid it won't be any use. She's got sort of queer, lately--she +thinks they're down on her." + +"I'm sorry I spoke so sharp. But then--" Hannah shook her head, and her +sentence remained unfinished. + +Janet sought her sister, but returned after a brief interval, with the +news that Lise had gone out. + +One of the delights of friendship, as is well known, is the exchange of +confidences of joy or sorrow, but there was, in Janet's promotion, +something intensely personal to increase her natural reserve. Her +feelings toward Ditmar were so mingled as to defy analysis, and several +days went by before she could bring herself to inform Eda Rawle of the +new business relationship in which she stood to the agent of the +Chippering Mill. The sky was still bright as they walked out Warren +Street after supper, Eda bewailing the trials of the day just ended: Mr. +Frye, the cashier of the bank, had had one of his cantankerous fits, had +found fault with her punctuation, nothing she had done had pleased him. +But presently, when they had come to what the Banner called the +"residential district," she was cheered by the sight of the green lawns, +the flowerbeds and shrubbery, the mansions of those inhabitants of +Hampton unfamiliar with boardinghouses and tenements. Before one of +these she paused, retaining Janet by the arm, exclaiming wistfully: + +"Wouldn't you like to live there? That belongs to your boss." + +Janet, who had been dreaming as she gazed at the fagade of rough stucco +that once had sufficed to fill the ambitions of the late Mrs. Ditmar, +recognized it as soon as Eda spoke, and dragged her friend hastily, +almost roughly along the sidewalk until they had reached the end of the +block. Janet was red. + +"What's the matter?" demanded Eda, as soon as she had recovered from her +surprise. + +"Nothing," said Janet. "Only--I'm in his office." + +"But what of it? You've got a right to look at his house, haven't you?" + +"Why yes,--a right," Janet assented. Knowing Eda's ambitions for her +were not those of a business career, she was in terror lest her friend +should scent a romance, and for this reason she had never spoken of the +symptoms Ditmar had betrayed. She attempted to convey to Eda the +doubtful taste of staring point- blank at the house of one's employer, +especially when he might be concealed behind a curtain. + +"You see," she added, "Miss Ottway's recommended me for her place--she's +going away." + +"Janet!" cried Eda. "Why didn't you tell me?" + +"Well," said Janet guiltily, "it's only a trial. I don't know whether +he'll keep me or not." + +"Of course he'll keep you," said Eda, warmly. "If that isn't just like +you, not saying a word about it. Gee, if I'd had a raise like that I +just couldn't wait to tell you. But then, I'm not smart like you." + +"Don't be silly," said Janet, out of humour with herself, and annoyed +because she could not then appreciate Eda's generosity. + +"We've just got to celebrate!" declared Eda, who had the gift, which +Janet lacked, of taking her joys vicariously; and her romantic and +somewhat medieval proclivities would permit no such momentous occasion to +pass without an appropriate festal symbol. "We'll have a spree on +Saturday--the circus is coming then." + +"It'll be my spree," insisted Janet, her heart warming. "I've got the +raise...." + +On Saturday, accordingly, they met at Grady's for lunch, Eda attired in +her best blouse of pale blue, and when they emerged from the restaurant, +despite the torrid heat, she beheld Faber Street as in holiday garb as +they made their way to the cool recesses of Winterhalter's to complete +the feast. That glorified drug-store with the five bays included in its +manifold functions a department rivalling Delmonico's, with electric fans +and marble-topped tables and white-clad waiters who took one's order and +filled it at the soda fountain. It mattered little to Eda that the young +man awaiting their commands had pimples and long hair and grinned +affectionately as he greeted them. + +"Hello, girls!" he said. "What strikes you to-day?" + +"Me for a raspberry nut sundae," announced Eda, and Janet, being unable +to imagine any more delectable confection, assented. The penetrating +odour peculiar to drugstores, dominated by menthol and some unnamable but +ancient remedy for catarrh, was powerless to interfere with their +enjoyment. + +The circus began at two. Rather than cling to the straps of a crowded +car they chose to walk, following the familiar route of the trolley past +the car barns and the base-ball park to the bare field under the seared +face of Torrey's Hill, where circuses were wont to settle. A +sirocco-like breeze from the southwest whirled into eddies the clouds of +germladen dust stirred up by the automobiles, blowing their skirts +against their legs, and sometimes they were forced to turn, clinging to +their hats, confused and giggling, conscious of male glances. The crowd, +increasing as they proceeded, was in holiday mood; young men with a +newly-washed aspect, in Faber Street suits, chaffed boisterously groups +of girls, who retorted with shrill cries and shrieks of laughter; amorous +couples strolled, arm in arm, oblivious, as though the place were as +empty as Eden; lady-killers with exaggerated square shoulders, wearing +bright neckties, their predatory instincts alert, hovered about in eager +search of adventure. There were men-killers, too, usually to be found in +pairs, in startling costumes they had been persuaded were the latest +Paris models,-- imitations of French cocottes in Hampton, proof of the +smallness of our modern world. Eda regarded them superciliously. + +"They'd like you to think they'd never been near a loom or a bobbin!" +she exclaimed. + +In addition to these more conspicuous elements, the crowd contained sober +operatives of the skilled sort possessed of sufficient means to bring +hither their families, including the baby; there were section-hands and +foremen, slashers, mule spinners, beamers, French-Canadians, Irish, +Scotch, Welsh and English, Germans, with only an occasional Italian, +Lithuanian, or Jew. Peanut and popcorn men, venders of tamales and +Chile-con-carne hoarsely shouted their wares, while from afar could be +heard the muffled booming of a band. Janet's heart beat faster. She +regarded with a tinge of awe the vast expanse of tent that rose before +her eyes, the wind sending ripples along the heavy canvas from +circumference to tent pole. She bought the tickets; they entered the +circular enclosure where the animals were kept; where the strong beams of +the sun, in trying to force their way through the canvas roof, created an +unnatural, jaundiced twilight, the weirdness of which was somehow +enhanced by the hoarse, amazingly penetrating growls of beasts. Suddenly +a lion near them raised a shaggy head, emitting a series of undulating, +soul-shaking roars. + +"Ah, what's eatin' you?" demanded a thick-necked youth, pretending not to +be awestricken by this demonstration. + +"Suppose he'd get out!" cried Eda, drawing Janet away. + +"I wouldn't let him hurt you, dearie," the young man assured her. + +"You!" she retorted contemptuously, but grinned in spite of herself, +showing her gums. + +The vague feeling of terror inspired by this tent was a part of its +fascination, for it seemed pregnant with potential tragedies suggested by +the juxtaposition of helpless babies and wild beasts, the babies crying +or staring in blank amazement at padding tigers whose phosphorescent eyes +never left these morsels beyond the bars. The two girls wandered about, +their arms closely locked, but the strange atmosphere, the roars of the +beasts, the ineffable, pungent odour of the circus, of sawdust mingled +with the effluvia of animals, had aroused an excitement that was slow in +subsiding. Some time elapsed before they were capable of taking a normal +interest in the various exhibits. + +"`Adjutant Bird,'" Janet read presently from a legend on one of the +compartments of a cage devoted to birds, and surveying the somewhat +dissolute occupant. "Why, he's just like one of those tall mashers who +stay at the Wilmot and stand on the sidewalk,--travelling men, you know." + +"Say-isn't he?" Eda agreed. "Isn't he pleased with himself, and his feet +crossed!" + +"And see this one, Eda--he's a 'Harpy Eagle.' There's somebody we know +looks just like that. Wait a minute--I'll tell you--it's the woman who +sits in the cashier's cage at Grady's." + +"If it sure isn't!" said Eda. + +"She has the same fluffy, light hair--hairpins can't keep it down, and +she looks at you in that same sort of surprised way with her head on one +side when you hand in your check." + +"Why, it's true to the life!" cried Eda enthusiastically. "She thinks +she's got all the men cinched,--she does and she's forty if she's a day." + +These comparisons brought them to a pitch of risible enjoyment amply +sustained by the spectacle in the monkey cage, to which presently they +turned. A chimpanzee, with a solicitation more than human, was solemnly +searching a friend for fleas in the midst of a pandemonium of chattering +and screeching and chasing, of rattling of bars and trapezes carried on +by their companions. + +"Well, young ladies," said a voice, "come to pay a call on your +relations--have ye?" + +Eda giggled hysterically. An elderly man was standing beside them. He +was shabbily dressed, his own features were wizened, almost simian, and +by his friendly and fatuous smile Janet recognized one of the harmless +obsessed in which Hampton abounded. + +"Relations!" Eda exclaimed. + +"You and me, yes, and her," he answered, looking at Janet, though at +first he had apparently entertained some doubt as to this inclusion, +"we're all descended from them." His gesture triumphantly indicated the +denizens of the cage. + +"What are you giving us?" said Eda. + +"Ain't you never read Darwin?" he demanded. "If you had, you'd know +they're our ancestors, you'd know we came from them instead of Adam and +Eve. That there's a fable." + +"I'll never believe I came from them," cried Eda, vehement in her +disgust. + +But Janet laughed. "What's the difference? Some of us aren't any better +than monkeys, anyway." + +"That's so," said the man approvingly. "That's so." He wanted to +continue the conversation, but they left him rather ruthlessly. And +when, from the entrance to the performance tent, they glanced back over +their shoulders, he was still gazing at his cousins behind the bars, +seemingly deriving an acute pleasure from his consciousness of the +connection.... + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +Modern business, by reason of the mingling of the sexes it involves, for +the playwright and the novelist and the sociologist is full of +interesting and dramatic situations, and in it may be studied, +undoubtedly, one phase of the evolution tending to transform if not +disintegrate certain institutions hitherto the corner-stones of society. +Our stage is set. A young woman, conscious of ability, owes her +promotion primarily to certain dynamic feminine qualities with which she +is endowed. And though she may make an elaborate pretense of ignoring +the fact, in her heart she knows and resents it, while at the same time, +paradoxically, she gets a thrill from it,--a sustaining and inspiring +thrill of power! On its face it is a business arrangement; +secretly,--attempt to repudiate this as one may,--it is tinged with the +colours of high adventure. When Janet entered into the intimate +relationship with Mr. Claude Ditmar necessitated by her new duties as his +private stenographer her attitude, slightly defiant, was the +irreproachable one of a strict attention to duty. All unconsciously she +was a true daughter of the twentieth century, and probably a feminist at +heart, which is to say that her conduct was determined by no preconceived +or handed-down notions of what was proper and lady-like. For feminism, in +a sense, is a return to atavism, and sex antagonism and sex attraction +are functions of the same thing. There were moments when she believed +herself to hate Mr. Ditmar, when she treated him with an aloofness, an +impersonality unsurpassed; moments when he paused in his dictation to +stare at her in astonishment. He, who flattered himself that he +understood women! + +She would show him!--such was her dominating determination. Her +promotion assumed the guise of a challenge, of a gauntlet flung down at +the feet of her sex. In a certain way, an insult, though incredibly +stimulating. If he flattered himself that he had done her a favour, if +he entertained the notion that he could presently take advantage of the +contact with her now achieved to make unbusinesslike advances--well, he +would find out. He had proclaimed his desire for an able assistant in +Miss Ottway's place--he would get one, and nothing more. She watched +narrowly, a l'affut, as the French say, for any signs of sentiment, and +indeed this awareness of her being on guard may have had some influence +on Mr. Ditmar's own attitude, likewise irreproachable.... A rather +anaemic young woman, a Miss Annie James, was hired for Janet's old place. + +In spite of this aloofness and alertness, for the first time in her life +Janet felt the exuberance of being in touch with affairs of import. +Hitherto the mill had been merely a greedy monster claiming her freedom +and draining her energies in tasks routine, such as the copying of +meaningless documents and rows of figures; now, supplied with stimulus +and a motive, the Corporation began to take on significance, and she +flung herself into the work with an ardour hitherto unknown, determined +to make herself so valuable to Ditmar that the time would come when he +could not do without her. She strove to memorize certain names and +addresses, lest time be lost in looking them up, to familiarize herself +with the ordinary run of his correspondence, to recall what letters were +to be marked "personal," to anticipate matters of routine, in order that +he might not have the tedium of repeating instructions; she acquired the +faculty of keeping his engagements in her head; she came early to the +office, remaining after hours, going through the files, becoming familiar +with his system; and she learned to sort out his correspondence, sifting +the important from the unimportant, to protect him, more and more, from +numerous visitors who called only to waste his time. Her instinct for +the detection of book-agents, no matter how brisk and businesslike they +might appear, was unerring--she remembered faces and the names belonging +to them: an individual once observed to be persona non grata never +succeeded in passing her twice. On one occasion Ditmar came out of his +office to see the back of one of these visitors disappearing into the +corridor. + +"Who was that?" he asked. + +"His name is McCalla," she said. "I thought you didn't want to be +bothered." + +"But how in thunder did you get rid of him?" he demanded. + +"Oh, I just wouldn't let him in," she replied demurely. + +And Ditmar went away, wondering.... Thus she gtudied him, without +permitting him to suspect it, learning his idiosyncrasies, his attitude +toward all those with whom daily he came in contact, only to find herself +approving. She was forced to admit that he was a judge of men, compelled +to admire his adroitness in dealing with them. He could be democratic or +autocratic as occasion demanded; he knew when to yield, and when to +remain inflexible. One morning, for instance, there arrived from New +York a dapper salesman whose jauntily tied bow, whose thin +hair--carefully parted to conceal an incipient baldness--whose wary and +slightly weary eyes all impressively suggested the metropolitan +atmosphere of high pressure and sophistication from which he had emerged. +He had a machine to sell; an amazing machine, endowed with human +intelligence and more than human infallibility; for when it made a +mistake it stopped. It was designed for the express purpose of +eliminating from the payroll the skilled and sharp-eyed women who are +known as "drawers-in," who sit all day long under a north light patiently +threading the ends of the warp through the heddles of the loom harness. +Janet's imagination was gradually fired as she listened to the visitor's +eloquence; and the textile industry, which hitherto had seemed to her +uninteresting and sordid, took on the colours of romance. + +"Now I've made up my mind we'll place one with you, Mr. Ditmar," the +salesman concluded. "I don't object to telling you we'd rather have one +in the Chippering than in any mill in New England." + +Janet was surprised, almost shocked to see Ditmar shake his head, yet she +felt a certain reluctant admiration because he had not been swayed by +blandishments. At such moments, when he was bent on refusing a request, +he seemed physically to acquire massiveness,--and he had a dogged way of +chewing his cigar. + +"I don't want it, yet," he replied, "not until you improve it." And she +was impressed by the fact that he seemed to know as much about the +machine as the salesman himself. In spite of protests, denials, appeals, +he remained firm. "When you get rid of the defects I've mentioned come +back, Mr. Hicks--but don't come back until then." + +And Mr. Hicks departed, discomfited.... + +Ditmar knew what he wanted. Of the mill he was the absolute master, +familiar with every process, carrying constantly in his mind how many +spindles, how many looms were at work; and if anything untoward happened, +becoming aware of it by what seemed to Janet a subconscious process, +sending for the superintendent of the department: for Mr. Orcutt, +perhaps, whose office was across the hall--a tall, lean, spectacled man +of fifty who looked like a schoolmaster. + +"Orcutt, what's the matter with the opener in Cooney's room?" + +"Why, the blower's out of order." + +"Well, whose fault is it?".... + +He knew every watchman and foreman in the mill, and many of the second +hands. The old workers, men and women who had been in the Chippering +employ through good and bad times for years, had a place in his +affections, but toward the labour force in general his attitude was +impersonal. The mill had to be run, and people to be got to run it. +With him, first and last and always it was the mill, and little by little +what had been for Janet a heterogeneous mass of machinery and human +beings became unified and personified in Claude Ditmar. It was odd how +the essence and quality of that great building had changed for her; how +the very roaring of the looms, as she drew near the canal in the +mornings, had ceased to be sinister and depressing, but bore now a burden +like a great battle song to excite and inspire, to remind her that she +had been snatched as by a miracle from the commonplace. And all this was +a function of Ditmar. + +Life had become portentous. And she was troubled by no qualms of logic, +but gloried, womanlike, in her lack of it. She did not ask herself why +she had deliberately enlarged upon Miss Ottway's duties, invaded +debatable ground in part inevitably personal, flung herself with such +abandon into the enterprise of his life's passion, at the same time +maintaining a deceptive attitude of detachment, half deceiving herself +that it was zeal for the work by which she was actuated. In her soul she +knew better. She was really pouring fuel on the flames. She read him, +up to a certain point--as far as was necessary; and beneath his attempts +at self-control she was conscious of a dynamic desire that betrayed +itself in many acts and signs,--as when he brushed against her; and +occasionally when he gave evidence with his subordinates of a certain +shortness of temper unusual with him she experienced a vaguely alarming +but delicious thrill of power. And this, of all men, was the great Mr. +Ditmar! Was she in love with him? That question did not trouble her +either. She continued to experience in his presence waves of antagonism +and attraction, revealing to her depths and possibilities of her nature +that frightened while they fascinated. It never occurred to her to +desist. That craving in her for high adventure was not to be denied. + +On summer evenings it had been Ditmar's habit when in Hampton to stroll +about his lawn, from time to time changing the position of the sprinkler, +smoking a cigar, and reflecting pleasantly upon his existence. His +house, as he gazed at it against the whitening sky, was an eminently +satisfactory abode, his wife was dead, his children gave him no trouble; +he felt a glow of paternal pride in his son as the boy raced up and down +the sidewalk on a bicycle; George was manly, large and strong for his +age, and had a domineering way with other boys that gave Ditmar secret +pleasure. Of Amy, who was showing a tendency to stoutness, and who had +inherited her mother's liking for candy and romances, Ditmar thought +scarcely at all: he would glance at her as she lounged, reading, in a +chair on the porch, but she did not come within his range of problems. +He had, in short, everything to make a reasonable man content, a life +nicely compounded of sustenance, pleasure, and business,--business +naturally being the greatest of these. He was--though he did not know +it--ethically and philosophically right in squaring his morals with his +occupation, and his had been the good fortune to live in a world whose +codes and conventions had been carefully adjusted to the pursuit of that +particular brand of happiness he had made his own. Why, then, in the +name of that happiness, of the peace and sanity and pleasurable effort it +had brought him, had he allowed and even encouraged the advent of a new +element that threatened to destroy the equilibrium achieved? an element +refusing to be classified under the head of property, since it involved +something he desired and could not buy? A woman who was not property, +who resisted the attempt to be turned into property, was an anomaly in +Ditmar's universe. He had not, of course, existed for more than forty +years without having heard and read of and even encountered in an +acquaintance or two the species of sex attraction sentimentally called +love that sometimes made fools of men and played havoc with more +important affairs, but in his experience it had never interfered with his +sanity or his appetite or the Chippering Mill: it had never made his +cigars taste bitter; it had never caused a deterioration in the +appreciation of what he had achieved and held. But now he was +experiencing strange symptoms of an intensity out of all proportion to +that of former relations with the other sex. What was most unusual for +him, he was alarmed and depressed, at moments irritable. He regretted +the capricious and apparently accidental impulse that had made him +pretend to tinker with his automobile that day by the canal, that had led +him to the incomparable idiocy of getting rid of Miss Ottway and +installing the disturber of his peace as his private stenographer. + +What the devil was it in her that made him so uncomfortable? When in his +office he had difficulty in keeping his mind on matters of import; he +would watch her furtively as she went about the room with the lithe and +noiseless movements that excited him the more because he suspected +beneath her outward and restrained demeanour a fierceness he craved yet +feared. He thought of her continually as a panther, a panther he had +caught and could not tame; he hadn't even caught her, since she might +escape at any time. He took precautions not to alarm her. When she +brushed against him he trembled. Continually she baffled and puzzled +him, and he never could tell of what she was thinking. She represented a +whole set of new and undetermined values for which he had no precedents, +and unlike every woman he had known--including his wife--she had an +integrity of her own, seemingly beyond the reach of all influences +economic and social. All the more exasperating, therefore, was a +propinquity creating an intimacy without substance, or without the +substance he craved for she had magically become for him a sort of +enveloping, protecting atmosphere. In an astonishingly brief time he had +fallen into the habit of talking things over with her; naturally not +affairs of the first importance, but matters such as the economy of his +time: when, for instance, it was most convenient for him to go to Boston; +and he would find that she had telephoned, without being told, to the +office there when to expect him, to his chauffeur to be on hand. He +never had to tell her a thing twice, nor did she interrupt--as Miss +Ottway sometimes had done--the processes of his thought. Without +realizing it he fell into the habit of listening for the inflections of +her voice, and though he had never lacked the power of making decisions, +she somehow made these easier for him especially if, a human equation +were involved. + +He had, at least, the consolation--if it were one--of reflecting that his +reputation was safe, that there would be no scandal, since two are +necessary to make the kind of scandal he had always feared, and Miss +Bumpus, apparently, had no intention of being the second party. Yet she +was not virtuous, as he had hitherto defined the word. Of this he was +sure. No woman who moved about as she did, who had such an effect on +him, who had on occasions, though inadvertently, returned the lightning +of his glances, whose rare laughter resembled grace notes, and in whose +hair was that almost imperceptible kink, could be virtuous. This +instinctive conviction inflamed him. For the first time in his life he +began to doubt the universal conquering quality of his own charms,--and +when such a thing happens to a man like Ditmar he is in danger of +hell-fire. He indulged less and less in the convivial meetings and +excursions that hitherto had given him relaxation and enjoyment, and if +his cronies inquired as to the reasons for his neglect of them he failed +to answer with his usual geniality. + +"Everything going all right up at the mills, Colonel?" he was asked one +day by Mr. Madden, the treasurer of a large shoe company, when they met +on the marble tiles of the hall in their Boston club. + +"All right. Why?" + +"Well," replied Madden, conciliatingly, "you seem kind of preoccupied, +that's all. I didn't know but what the fifty-four hour bill the +legislature's just put through might be worrying you." + +"We'll handle that situation when the time comes," said Ditmar. He +accepted a gin rickey, but declined rather curtly the suggestion of a +little spree over Sunday to a resort on the Cape which formerly he would +have found enticing. On another occasion he encountered in the lobby of +the Parker House a more intimate friend, Chester Sprole, sallow, +self-made, somewhat corpulent, one of those lawyers hail fellows well met +in business circles and looked upon askance by the Brahmins of their +profession; more than half politician, he had been in Congress, and from +time to time was retained by large business interests because of his +persuasive gifts with committees of the legislature--though these had +been powerless to avert the recent calamity of the women and children's +fifty-four hour bill. Mr. Sprole's hair was prematurely white, and the +crow's-feet at the corners of his eyes were not the result of legal +worries. + +"Hullo, Dit," he said jovially. + +"Hullo, Ches," said Ditmar. + +"Now you're the very chap I wanted to see. Where have you been keeping +yourself lately? Come out to the farm to-night,--same of the boys'll be +there." Mr. Sprole, like many a self-made man, was proud of his farm, +though he did not lead a wholly bucolic existence. + +"I can't, Ches," answered Ditmar. "I've got to go back to Hampton." + +This statement Mr. Sprole unwisely accepted as a fiction. He took hold +of Ditmar's arm. + +"A lady--eh--what?" + +"I've got to go back to Hampton," repeated Ditmar, with a suggestion of +truculence that took his friend aback. Not for worlds would Mr. Sprole +have offended the agent of the Chippering Mill. + +"I was only joking, Claude," he hastened to explain. Ditmar, somewhat +mollified but still dejected, sought the dining-room when the lawyer had +gone. + +"All alone to-night, Colonel?" asked the coloured head waiter, +obsequiously. + +Ditmar demanded a table in the corner, and consumed a solitary meal. + +Very naturally Janet was aware of the change in Ditmar, and knew the +cause of it. Her feelings were complicated. He, the most important man +in Hampton, the self-sufficient, the powerful, the hitherto distant and +unattainable head of the vast organization known as the Chippering Mill, +of which she was an insignificant unit, at times became for her just a +man--a man for whom she had achieved a delicious contempt. And the +knowledge that she, if she chose, could sway and dominate him by the mere +exercise of that strange feminine force within her was intoxicating and +terrifying. She read this in a thousand signs; in his glances; in his +movements revealing a desire to touch her; in little things he said, +apparently insignificant, yet fraught with meaning; in a constant +recurrence of the apologetic attitude--so alien to the Ditmar formerly +conceived--of which he had given evidence that day by the canal: and from +this attitude emanated, paradoxically, a virile and galvanic current +profoundly disturbing. Sometimes when he bent over her she experienced a +commingled ecstasy and fear that he would seize her in his arms. Yet the +tension was not constant, rising and falling with his moods and +struggles, all of which she read--unguessed by him--as easily as a +printed page by the gift that dispenses with laborious processes of the +intellect. On the other hand, a resentment boiled within her his +masculine mind failed to fathom. Stevenson said of John Knox that many +women had come to learn from him, but he had never condescended to become +a learner in return--a remark more or less applicable to Ditmar. She +was, perforce, thrilled that he was virile and wanted her, but because he +wanted her clandestinely her pride revolted, divining his fear of scandal +and hating him for it like a thoroughbred. To do her justice, marriage +never occurred to her. She was not so commonplace. + +There were times, however, when the tension between them would relax, +when some incident occurred to focus Ditmar's interest on the enterprise +that had absorbed and unified his life, the Chippering Mill. One day in +September, for instance, after an absence in New York, he returned to the +office late in the afternoon, and she was quick to sense his elation, to +recognize in him the restored presence of the quality of elan, of +command, of singleness of purpose that had characterized him before she +had become his stenographer. At first, as he read his mail, he seemed +scarcely conscious of her presence. She stood by the window, awaiting +his pleasure, watching the white mist as it rolled over the floor of the +river, catching glimpses in vivid, saffron blurs of the lights of the +Arundel Mill on the farther shore. Autumn was at hand. Suddenly she +heard Ditmar speaking. + +"Would you mind staying a little while longer this evening, Miss Bumpus?" + +"Not at all," she replied, turning. + +On his face was a smile, almost boyish. + +"The fact is, I think I've got hold of the biggest single order that ever +came into any mill in New England," he declared. + +"Oh, I'm glad," she said quickly. + +"The cotton cards--?" he demanded. + +She knew he referred to the schedules, based on the current prices of +cotton, made out in the agent's office and sent in duplicate to the +selling house, in Boston. She got them from the shelf; and as he went +over them she heard him repeating the names of various goods now become +familiar, pongees, poplins, percales and voiles, garbardines and +galateas, lawns, organdies, crepes, and Madras shirtings, while he wrote +down figures on a sheet of paper. So complete was his absorption in this +task that Janet, although she had resented the insinuating pressure of +his former attitude toward her, felt a paradoxical sensation of jealousy. +Presently, without looking up, he told her to call up the Boston office +and ask for Mr. Fraile, the cotton buyer; and she learned from the talk +over the telephone though it was mostly about "futures"--that Ditmar had +lingered for a conference in Boston on his way back from New York. +Afterwards, having dictated two telegrams which she wrote out on her +machine, he leaned back in his chair; and though the business for the day +was ended, showed a desire to detain her. His mood became communicative. + +"I've been on the trail of that order for a month," he declared. "Of +course it isn't my business to get orders, but to manage this mill, and +that's enough for one man, God knows. But I heard the Bradlaughs were in +the market for these goods, and I told the selling house to lie low, that +I'd go after it. I knew I could get away with it, if anybody could. I +went to the Bradlaughs and sat down on 'em, I lived with 'em, ate with +'em, brought 'em home at night. I didn't let 'em alone a minute until +they handed it over. I wasn't going to give any other mill in New +England or any of those southern concerns a chance to walk off with +it--not on your life! Why, we have the facilities. There isn't another +mill in the country can turn it out in the time they ask, and even we +will have to go some to do it. But we'll do it, by George, unless I'm +struck by lightning." + +He leaned forward, hitting the desk with his fist, and Janet, standing +beside him, smiled. She had the tempting gift of silence. Forgetting +her twinge of jealousy, she was drawn toward him now, and in this mood of +boyish exuberance, of self-confidence and pride in his powers and success +she liked him better than ever before. She had, for the first time, the +curious feeling of being years older than he, yet this did not detract +from a new-born admiration. + +"I made this mill, and I'm proud of it," he went on. "When old Stephen +Chippering put me in charge he was losing money, he'd had three agents in +four years. The old man knew I had it in me, and I knew it, if I do say +it myself. All this union labour talk about shorter hours makes me +sick--why, there was a time when I worked ten and twelve hours a day, and +I'm man enough to do it yet, if I have to. When the last agent--that was +Cort--was sacked I went to Boston on my own hook and tackled the old +gentleman--that's the only way to get anywhere. I couldn't bear to see +the mill going to scrap, and I told him a thing or two,--I had the facts +and the figures. Stephen Chippering was a big man, but he had a streak +of obstinacy in him, he was conservative, you bet. I had to get it +across to him there was a lot of dead wood in this plant, I had to wake +him up to the fact that the twentieth century was here. He had to be +shown--he was from Boston, you know--" Ditmar laughed--"but he was all +wool and a yard wide, and he liked me and trusted me. + +"That was in nineteen hundred. I can remember the interview as well as +if it had happened last night--we sat up until two o'clock in the morning +in that library of his with the marble busts and the leather-bound books +and the double windows looking out over the Charles, where the wind was +blowing a gale. And at last he said, `All right, Claude, go ahead. I'll +put you in as agent, and stand behind you.' And by thunder, he did stand +behind me. He was quiet, the finest looking old man I ever saw in my +life, straight as a ramrod, with a little white goatee and a red, +weathered face full of creases, and a skin that looked as if it had been +pricked all over with needles--the old Boston sort. They don't seem to +turn 'em out any more. Why, I have a picture of him here." + +He opened a drawer in his desk and drew out a photograph. Janet gazed at +it sympathetically. + +"It doesn't give you any notion of those eyes of his," Ditmar said, +reminiscently. "They looked right through a man's skull, no matter how +thick it was. If anything went wrong, I never wasted any time in telling +him about it, and I guess it was one reason he liked me. Some of the +people up here didn't understand him, kow-towed to him, they were scared +of him, and if he thought they had something up their sleeves he looked +as if he were going to eat 'em alive. Regular fighting eyes, the kind +that get inside of a man and turn the light on. And he sat so +still--made you ashamed of yourself. Well, he was a born fighter, went +from Harvard into the Rebellion and was left for dead at Seven Oaks, +where one of the company found him and saved him. He set that may up for +life, and never talked about it, either. See what he wrote on the +bottom--'To my friend, Claude Ditmar, Stephen Chippering.' And believe +me, when he once called a man a friend he never took it back. I know one +thing, I'll never get another friend like him." + +With a gesture that gave her a new insight into Ditmar, reverently he +took the picture from her hand and placed it back in the drawer. She was +stirred, almost to tears, and moved away from him a little, as though to +lessen by distance the sudden attraction he had begun to exert: yet she +lingered, half leaning, half sitting on the corner of the big desk, her +head bent toward him, her eyes filled with light. She was wondering +whether he could ever love a woman as he loved this man of whom he had +spoken, whether he could be as true to a woman. His own attitude seemed +never to have been more impersonal, but she had ceased to resent it; +something within her whispered that she was the conductor, the inspirer.. + +"I wish Stephen Chippering could have lived to see this order," he +exclaimed, "to see the Chippering Mill to-day! I guess he'd be proud of +it, I guess he wouldn't regret having put me in as agent." + +Janet did not reply. She could not. She sat regarding him intently, and +when he raised his eyes and caught her luminous glance, his expression +changed, she knew Stephen Chippering had passed from his mind. + +"I hope you like it here," he said. His voice had become vibrant, +ingratiating, he had changed from the master to the suppliant--and yet +she was not displeased. Power had suddenly flowed back into her, and +with it an exhilarating self-command. + +"I do like it," she answered. + +"But you said, when I asked you to be my stenographer, that you didn't +care for your work." + +"Oh, this is different." + +"How?" + +"I'm interested, the mill means something to me now you see, I'm not just +copying things I don't know anything about." + +"I'm glad you're interested," he said, in the same odd, awkward tone. +"I've never had any one in the office who did my work as well. Now Miss +Ottway was a good stenographer, she was capable, and a fine woman, but +she never got the idea, the spirit of the mill in her as you've got it, +and she wasn't able to save me trouble, as you do. It's remarkable how +you've come to understand, and in such a short time." + +Janet coloured. She did not look at him, but had risen and begun to +straighten out the papers beside her. + +"There are lots of other things I'd like to understand," she said. + +"What?" he demanded. + +"Well--about the mill. I never thought much about it before, I always +hated it," she cried, dropping the papers and suddenly facing him. "It +was just drudgery. But now I want to learn everything, all I can, I'd +like to see the machinery." + +"I'll take you through myself--to-morrow," he declared. + +His evident agitation made her pause. They were alone, the outer office +deserted, and the Ditmar she saw now, whom she had summoned up with +ridiculous ease by virtue of that mysterious power within her, was no +longer the agent of the Chippering Mill, a boy filled with enthusiasm by +a business achievement, but a man, the incarnation and expression of +masculine desire desire for her. She knew she could compel him, if she +chose, to throw caution to the winds. + +"Oh no!" she exclaimed. She was afraid of him, she shrank from such a +conspicuous sign of his favour. + +"Why not?" he asked. + +"Because I don't want you to," she said, and realized, as soon as she had +spoken, that her words might imply the existence of a something between +them never before hinted at by her. "I'll get Mr. Caldwell to take me +through." She moved toward the door, and turned; though still on fire +within, her manner had become demure, repressed. "Did you wish anything +more this evening?" she inquired. + +"That's all," he said, and she saw that he was gripping the arms of his +chair.... + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +Autumn was at hand. All day it had rained, but now, as night fell and +Janet went homeward, the white mist from the river was creeping +stealthily over the city, disguising the familiar and sordid landmarks. +These had become beautiful, mysterious, somehow appealing. The electric +arcs, splotches in the veil, revealed on the Common phantom trees; and in +the distance, against the blurred lights from the Warren Street stores +skirting the park could be seen phantom vehicles, phantom people moving +to and fro. Thus, it seemed to Janet, invaded by a pearly mist was her +own soul, in which she walked in wonder,--a mist shot through and through +with soft, exhilarating lights half disclosing yet transforming and +etherealizing certain landmark's there on which, formerly, she had not +cared to gaze. She was thinking of Ditmar as she had left him gripping +his chair, as he had dismissed her for the day, curtly, almost savagely. +She had wounded and repelled him, and lingering in her was that exquisite +touch of fear--a fear now not so much inspired by Ditmar as by the +semi-acknowledged recognition of certain tendencies and capacities within +herself. Yet she rejoiced in them, she was glad she had hurt Ditmar, she +would hurt him again. Still palpitating, she reached the house in +Fillmore Street, halting a moment with her hand on the door, knowing her +face was flushed, anxious lest her mother or Lise might notice something +unusual in her manner. But, when she had slowly mounted the stairs and +lighted the gas in the bedroom the sight of her sister's clothes cast +over the chairs was proof that Lise had already donned her evening finery +and departed. The room was filled with the stale smell of clothes, which +Janet detested. She flung open the windows. She took off her hat and +swiftly tidied herself, yet the relief she felt at Lise's absence was +modified by a sudden, vehement protest against sordidness. Why should +she not live by herself amidst clean and tidy surroundings? She had +begun to earn enough, and somehow a vista had been opened up--a vista +whose end she could not see, alluring, enticing.... In the dining-room, +by the cleared table, her father was reading the Banner; her mother +appeared in the kitchen door. + +"What in the world happened to you, Janet?" she exclaimed. + +"Nothing," said Janet. "Mr. Ditmar asked me to stay--that was all. +He'd been away." + +"I was worried, I was going to make your father go down to the mill. +I've saved you some supper." + +"I don't want much," Janet told her, "I'm not hungry." + +"I guess you have to work too hard in that new place," said Hannah, as +she brought in the filled plate from the oven. + +"Well, it seems to agree with her, mother," declared Edward, who could +always be counted on to say the wrong thing with the best of intentions. +"I never saw her looking as well--why, I swan, she's getting real +pretty!" + +Hannah darted at him a glance, but restrained herself, and Janet reddened +as she tried to eat the beans placed before her. The pork had browned +and hardened at the edges, the gravy had spread, a crust covered the +potatoes. When her father resumed his reading of the Banner and her +mother went back into the kitchen she began to speculate rather +resentfully and yet excitedly why it was that this adventure with a man, +with Ditmar, made her look better, feel better,--more alive. She was too +honest to disguise from herself that it was an adventure, a high one, +fraught with all sorts of possibilities, dangers, and delights. Her +promotion had been merely incidental. Both her mother and father, did +they know the true circumstances,--that Mr. Ditmar desired her, was +perhaps in love with her--would be disturbed. Undoubtedly they would +have believed that she could "take care" of herself. She knew that +matters could not go on as they were, that she would either have to leave +Mr. Ditmar or--and here she baulked at being logical. She had no +intention of leaving him: to remain, according to the notions of her +parents, would be wrong. Why was it that doing wrong agreed with her, +energized her, made her more alert, cleverer, keying up her faculties? +turned life from a dull affair into a momentous one? To abandon Ditmar +would be to slump back into the humdrum, into something from which she +had magically been emancipated, symbolized by the home in which she sat; +by the red-checked tablecloth, the ugly metal lamp, the cherry chairs +with the frayed seats, the horsehair sofa from which the stuffing +protruded, the tawdry pillow with its colours, once gay, that Lise had +bought at a bargain at the Bagatelle.... The wooden clock with the round +face and quaint landscape below--the family's most cherished +heirloom--though long familiar, was not so bad; but the two yellowed +engravings on the wall offended her. They had been wedding presents to +Edward's father. One represented a stupid German peasant woman holding a +baby, and standing in front of a thatched cottage; its companion was a +sylvan scene in which certain wooden rustics were supposed to be enjoying +themselves. Between the two, and dotted with flyspecks, hung an +insurance calendar on which was a huge head of a lady, florid, +fluffy-haired, flirtatious. Lise thought her beautiful. + +The room was ugly. She had long known that, but tonight the realization +came to her that what she chiefly resented in it was the note it +proclaimed--the note of a mute acquiescence, without protest or struggle, +in what life might send. It reflected accurately the attitude of her +parents, particularly of her father. With an odd sense of detachment, of +critical remoteness and contempt she glanced at him as he sat stupidly +absorbed in his newspaper, his face puckered, his lips pursed, and Ditmar +rose before her--Ditmar, the embodiment of an indomitableness that +refused to be beaten and crushed. She thought of the story he had told +her, how by self-assertion and persistence he had become agent of the +Chippering Mill, how he had convinced Mr. Stephen Chippering of his +ability. She could not think of the mill as belonging to the Chipperings +and the other stockholders, but to Ditmar, who had shaped it into an +expression of himself, since it was his ideal. And now it seemed that he +had made it hers also. She regretted having repulsed him, pushed her +plate away from her, and rose. + +"You haven't eaten anything," said Hannah, who had come into the room. +"Where are you going?" + +"Out--to Eda's," Janet answered.... + +"It's late," Hannah objected. But Janet departed. Instead of going to +Eda's she walked alone, seeking the quieter streets that her thoughts +might flow undisturbed. At ten o'clock, when she returned, the light was +out in the diningroom, her sister had not come in, and she began slowly +to undress, pausing every now and then to sit on the bed and dream; once +she surprised herself gazing into the glass with a rapt expression that +was almost a smile. What was it about her that had attracted Ditmar? +No other man had ever noticed it. She had never thought herself good +looking, and now--it was astonishing!-- she seemed to have changed, and +she saw with pride that her arms and neck were shapely, that her dark +hair fell down in a cascade over her white shoulders to her waist. She +caressed it; it was fine. When she looked again, a radiancy seemed to +envelop her. She braided her hair slowly, in two long plaits, looking +shyly in the mirror and always seeing that radiancy.... + +Suddenly it occurred to her with a shock that she was doing exactly what +she had despised Lise for doing, and leaving the mirror she hurried her +toilet, put out the light, and got into bed. For a long time, however, +she remained wakeful, turning first on one side and then on the other, +trying to banish from her mind the episode that had excited her. But +always it came back again. She saw Ditmar before her, virile, vital, +electric with desire. At last she fell asleep. + +Gradually she was awakened by something penetrating her consciousness, +something insistent, pervasive, unescapable, which in drowsiness she +could not define. The gas was burning, Lise had come in, and was moving +peculiarly about the room. Janet watched her. She stood in front of the +bureau, just as Janet herself had done, her hands at her throat. At last +she let them fall, her head turning slowly, as though drawn, by some +irresistible, hypnotic power, and their eyes met. Lise's were filmed, +like those of a dog whose head is being stroked, expressing a luxuriant +dreaminess uncomprehending, passionate. + +"Say, did I wake you?" she asked. "I did my best not to make any +noise--honest to God." + +"It wasn't the noise that woke me up," said Janet. + +"It couldn't have been." + +"You've been drinking!" said Janet, slowly. + +Lise giggled. + +"What's it to you, angel face!" she inquired. "Quiet down, now, and go +bye- bye." + +Janet sprang from the bed, seized her by the shoulders, and shook her. +She was limp. She began to whimper. + +"Cut it out--leave me go. It ain't nothing to you what I do--I just had +a highball." + +Janet released her and drew back. + +"I just had a highball--honest to God!" + +"Don't say that again!" whispered Janet, fiercely. + +"Oh, very well. For God's sake, go to bed and leave me alone--I can take +care of myself, I guess--I ain't nutty enough to hit the booze. But I +ain't like you--I've got to have a little fun to keep alive." + +"A little fun!" Janet exclaimed. The phrase struck her sharply. A +little fun to keep alive! + +With that same peculiar, cautious movement she had observed, Lise +approached a chair, and sank into it,--jerking her head in the direction +of the room where Hannah and Edward slept. + +"D'you want to wake 'em up? Is that your game?" she asked, and began to +fumble at her belt. Overcoming with an effort a disgust amounting to +nausea, Janet approached her sister again, little by little undressing +her, and finally getting her into bed, when she immediately fell into a +profound slumber. Janet, too, got into bed, but sleep was impossible: the +odour lurked like a foul spirit in the darkness, mingling with the +stagnant, damp air that came in at the open window, fairly saturating her +with horror: it seemed the very essence of degradation. But as she lay +on the edge of the bed, shrinking from contamination, in the throes of +excitement inspired by an unnamed fear, she grew hot, she could feel and +almost hear the pounding of her heart. She rose, felt around in the +clammy darkness for her wrapper and slippers, gained the door, crept +through the dark hall to the dining-room, where she stealthily lit the +lamp; darkness had become a terror. A cockroach scurried across the +linoleum. The room was warm and close, it reeked with the smell of stale +food, but at least she found relief from that other odour. She sank down +on the sofa. + +Her sister was drunk. That in itself was terrible enough, yet it was not +the drunkenness alone that had sickened Janet, but the suggestion of +something else. Where had Lise been? In whose company had she become +drunk? Of late, in contrast to a former communicativeness, Lise had been +singuarly secretive as to her companions, and the manner in which her +evenings were spent; and she, Janet, had grown too self-absorbed to be +curious. Lise, with her shopgirl's cynical knowledge of life and its +pitfalls and the high valuation at which she held her charms, had seemed +secure from danger; but Janet recalled her discouragement, her threat to +leave the Bagatelle. Since then there had been something furtive about +her. Now, because that odour of alcohol Lise exhaled had destroyed in +Janet the sense of exhilaration, of life on a higher plane she had begun +to feel, and filled her with degradation, she hated Lise, felt for her +sister no strain of pity. A proof, had she recognized it, that +immorality is not a matter of laws and decrees, but of individual +emotions. A few hours before she had seen nothing wrong in her +relationship with Ditmar: now she beheld him selfish, ruthless, pursuing +her for one end, his own gratification. As a man, he had become an enemy. +Ditmar was like all other men who exploited her sex without compunction, +but the thought that she was like Lise, asleep in a drunken stupor, that +their cases differed only in degree, was insupportable. + +At last she fell asleep from sheer weariness, to dream she was with +Ditmar at some place in the country under spreading trees, Silliston, +perhaps--Silliston Common, cleverly disguised: nor was she quite sure, +always, that the man was Ditmar; he had a way of changing, of resembling +the man she had met in Silliston whom she had mistaken for a carpenter. +He was pleading with her, in his voice was the peculiar vibrancy that +thrilled her, that summoned some answering thing out of the depths of +her, and she felt herself yielding with a strange ecstasy in which were +mingled joy and terror. The terror was conquering the joy, and suddenly +he stood transformed before her eyes, caricatured, become a shrieking +monster from whom she sought in agony to escape.... In this paralysis of +fear she awoke, staring with wide eyes at the flickering flame of the +lamp, to a world filled with excruciating sound--the siren of the +Chippering Mill! She lay trembling with the horror of the dreamspell +upon her, still more than half convinced that the siren was Ditmar's +voice, his true expression. He was waiting to devour her. Would the +sound never end?... + +Then, remembering where she was, alarmed lest her mother might come in +and find her there, she left the sofa, turned out the sputtering lamp, +and ran into the bedroom. Rain was splashing on the bricks of the +passage-way outside, the shadows of the night still lurked in the +corners; by the grey light she gazed at Lise, who breathed loudly and +stirred uneasily, her mouth open, her lips parched. Janet touched her. + +"Lise--get up!" she said. "It's time to get up." She shook her. + +"Leave me alone--can't you?" + +"It's time to get up. The whistle has sounded." + +Lise heavily opened her eyes. They were bloodshot. + +"I don't want to get up. I won't get up." + +"But you must," insisted Janet, tightening her hold. "You've got +to--you've got to eat breakfast and go to work." + +"I don't want any breakfast, I ain't going to work any more." + +A gust of wind blew inward the cheap lace curtains, and the physical +effect of it emphasized the chill that struck Janet's heart. She got up +and closed the window, lit the gas, and returning to the bed, shook Lise +again. + +"Listen," she said, "if you don't get up I'll tell mother what happened +last night." + +"Say, you wouldn't--!" exclaimed Lise, angrily. + +"Get up!" Janet commanded, and watched her rather anxiously, uncertain as +to the after effects of drunkenness. But Lise got up. She sat on the +edge of the bed and yawned, putting her hand to her forehead. + +"I've sure got a head on me," she remarked. + +Janet was silent, angrier than ever, shocked that tragedy, degradation, +could be accepted thus circumstantially. Lise proceeded to put up her +hair. She seemed to be mistress of herself; only tired, gaping +frequently. Once she remarked:-- + +"I don't see the good of getting nutty over a highball." + +Seeing that Janet was not to be led into controversy, she grew morose. + +Breakfast in Fillmore Street, never a lively meal, was more dismal than +usual that morning, eaten to the accompaniment of slopping water from the +roofs on the pavement of the passage. The indisposition of Lise passed +unobserved by both Hannah and Edward; and at twenty minutes to eight the +two girls, with rubbers and umbrellas, left the house together, though it +was Janet's custom to depart earlier, since she had farther to go. Lise, +suspicious, maintained an obstinate silence, keeping close to the curb. +They reached the corner by the provision shop with the pink and orange +chromos of jellies in the window. + +"Lise, has anything happened to you?" demanded Janet suddenly. "I want +you to tell me." + +"Anything happened--what do you mean? Anything happened?" + +"You know very well what I mean." + +"Well, suppose something has happened?" Lise's reply was pert, defiant. +"What's it to you? If anything's happened, it's happened to me--hasn't +it?" + +Janet approached her. + +"What are you trying to do?" said Lise. "Push me into the gutter?" + +"I guess you're there already," said Janet. + +Lise was roused to a sudden pitch of fury. She turned on Janet and +thrust her back. + +"Well, if I am who's going to blame me?" she cried. "If you had to work +all day in that hole, standing on your feet, picked on by yaps for six a +week, I guess you wouldn't talk virtuous, either. It's easy for you to +shoot off your mouth, you've got a soft snap with Ditmar." + +Janet was outraged. She could not restrain her anger. + +"How dare you say that?" she demanded. + +Lise was cowed. + +"Well, you drove me to it--you make me mad enough to say anything. Just +because I went to Gruber's with Neva Lorrie and a couple of +gentlemen--they were gentlemen all right, as much gentlemen as +Ditmar--you come at me and tell me I'm all to the bad." She began to +sob. "I'm as straight as you are. How was I to know the highball was +stiff? Maybe I was tired--anyhow, it put me on the queer, and everything +in the joint began to tango 'round me--and Neva came home with me." + +Janet felt a surge of relief, in which were mingled anxiety and +resentment: relief because she was convinced that Lise was telling the +truth, anxiety because she feared for Lise's future, resentment because +Ditmar had been mentioned. Still, what she had feared most had not come +to pass. Lise left her abruptly, darting down a street that led to a +back entrance of the Bagatelle, and Janet pursued her way. Where, she +wondered, would it all end? Lise had escaped so far, but drunkenness was +an ominous sign. And "gentlemen"? What kind of gentlemen had taken her +sister to Gruber's? Would Ditmar do that sort of thing if he had a +chance? + +The pavement in front of the company boarding-houses by the canal was +plastered with sodden leaves whipped from the maples by the driving rain +in the night. The sky above the mills was sepia. White lights were +burning in the loom rooms. When she reached the vestibule Simmons, the +watchman, informed her that Mr. Ditmar had already been there, and left +for Boston. + +Janet did not like to acknowledge to herself her disappointment on +learning that Ditmar had gone to Boston. She knew he had had no such +intention the night before; an accumulated mail and many matters +demanding decisions were awaiting him; and his sudden departure seemed an +act directed personally against her, in the nature of a retaliation, +since she had offended and repulsed him. Through Lise's degrading act +she had arrived at the conclusion that all adventure and consequent +suffering had to do with Man--a conviction peculiarly maddening to such +temperaments as Janet's. Therefore she interpreted her suffering in +terms of Ditmar, she had looked forward to tormenting him again, and by +departing he had deliberately balked and cheated her. The rain fell +ceaselessly out of black skies, night seemed ever ready to descend on the +river, a darkness--according to young Mr. Caldwell--due not to the clouds +alone, but to forest fires many hundreds of miles away, in Canada. As the +day wore on, however, her anger gradually gave place to an extreme +weariness and depression, and yet she dreaded going home, inventing +things for herself to do; arranging and rearranging Ditmar's papers that +he might have less trouble in sorting them, putting those uppermost which +she thought he would deem the most important. Perhaps he would come in, +late! In a world of impending chaos the brilliantly lighted office was a +tiny refuge to which she clung. At last she put on her coat and rubbers, +faring forth reluctantly into the wet. + +At first when she entered the bedroom she thought it empty, though the +gas was burning, and them she saw Lise lying face downward on the bed. +For a moment she stood still, then closed the door softly. + +"Lise," she said. + +"What?" + +Janet sat down on the bed, putting out her hand. Unconsciously she began +to stroke Lise's hand, and presently it turned and tightened on her own. + +"Lise," she said, "I understand why you--" she could not bring herself to +pronounce the words "got drunk,"--"I understand why you did it. I +oughtn't to have talked to you that way. But it was terrible to wake up +and see you." + +For awhile Lise did not reply. Then she raised herself, feeling her hair +with an involuntary gesture, regarding her sister with a bewildered look, +her face puckered. Her eyes burned, and under them were black shadows. + +"How do you mean--you understand?" she asked slowly. "You never hit the +booze." + +Even Lise's language, which ordinarily offended her, failed to change her +sudden impassioned and repentant mood. She was astonished at herself for +this sudden softening, since she did not really love Lise, and all day +she had hated her, wished never to see her again. + +"No, but I can understand how it would be to want to," Janet said. +"Lise, I guess we're searching--both of us for something we'll never +find." + +Lise stared at her with a contracted, puzzled expression, as of a person +awaking from sleep, all of whose faculties are being strained toward +comprehension. + +"What do you mean?" she demanded. "You and me? You're all right--you've +got no kick coming." + +"Life is hard, it's hard on girls like us--we want things we can't have." +Janet was at a loss to express herself. + + "Well, it ain't any pipe dream," Lise agreed. Her glance turned +involuntarily toward the picture of the Olympian dinner party pinned on +the wall. "Swells have a good time," she added. + +"Maybe they pay for it, too," said Janet. + +"I wouldn't holler about paying--it's paying and not getting the goods," +declared Lise. + +"You'll pay, and you won't get it. That kind of life is--hell," Janet +cried. + +Self-centered as Lise was, absorbed in her own trouble and present +physical discomfort, this unaccustomed word from her sister and the +vehemence with which it was spoken surprised and frightened her, brought +home to her some hint of the terror in Janet's soul. + +"Me for the water wagon," she said. + +Janet was not convinced. She had hoped to discover the identity of the +man who had taken Lise to Gruber's, but she did not attempt to continue +the conversation. She rose and took off her hat. + +"Why don't you go to bed?" she asked. "I'll tell mother you have a +headache and bring in your supper." + +"Well, I don't care if I do," replied Lise, gratefully. + +Perhaps the most disconcerting characteristic of that complex affair, the +human organism, is the lack of continuity of its moods. The soul, so +called, is as sensitive to physical conditions as a barometer: affected +by lack of sleep, by smells and sounds, by food, by the weather--whether +a day be sapphire or obsidian. And the resolutions arising from one mood +are thwarted by the actions of the next. Janet had observed this +phenomenon, and sometimes, when it troubled her, she thought herself the +most inconsistent and vacillating of creatures. She had resolved, far +instance, before she fell asleep, to leave the Chippering Mill, to banish +Ditmar from her life, to get a position in Boston, whence she could send +some of her wages home: and in the morning, as she made her way to the +office, the determination gave her a sense of peace and unity. But the +northwest wind was blowing. It had chased away the mist and the clouds, +the smoke from Canada. The sun shone with a high brilliancy, the elms of +the Common cast sharp, black shadow-patterns on the pavements, and when +she reached the office and looked out of his window she saw the blue +river covered with quicksilver waves chasing one another across the +current. Ditmar had not yet returned to Hampton. About ten o'clock, as +she was copying out some figures for Mr. Price, young Mr. Caldwell +approached her. He had a Boston newspaper in his hand. + +"Have you seen this article about Mr. Ditmar?" he asked. + +"About Mr. Ditmar? No." + +"It's quite a send-off for the Colonel," said Caldwell, who was wont at +times to use the title facetiously. "Listen; `One of the most notable +figures in the Textile industry of the United States, Claude Ditmar, +Agent of the Chippering Mill.'" Caldwell spread out the page and pointed +to a picture. "There he is, as large as life." + +A little larger than life, Janet thought. Ditmar was one of those men +who, as the expression goes, "take" well, a valuable asset in semi-public +careers; and as he stood in the sunlight on the steps of the building +where they had "snap- shotted" him he appeared even more massive, +forceful, and preponderant than she had known him. Beholding him thus +set forth and praised in a public print, he seemed suddenly to have been +distantly removed from her, to have reacquired at a bound the dizzy +importance he had possessed for her before she became his stenographer. +She found it impossible to realize that this was the Ditmar who had +pursued and desired her; at times supplicating, apologetic, abject; and +again revealed by the light in his eyes and the trembling of his hand as +the sinister and ruthless predatory male from whom--since the revelation +in her sister Lise she had determined to flee, and whom she had persuaded +herself she despised. He was a bigger man than she had thought, and as +she read rapidly down the column the fascination that crept over her was +mingled with disquieting doubt of her own powers: it was now difficult to +believe she had dominated or could ever dominate this self-sufficient, +successful person, the list of whose achievements and qualities was so +alluringly set forth by an interviewer who himself had fallen a victim. + +The article carried the implication that the modern, practical, American +business man was the highest type as yet evolved by civilization: and +Ditmar, referred to as "a wizard of the textile industry," was +emphatically one who had earned the gratitude of the grand old +Commonwealth. By the efforts of such sons she continued to maintain her +commanding position among her sister states. Prominent among the +qualities contributing to his success was openmindedness, "a willingness +to be shown," to scrap machinery when his competitors still clung to +older methods. The Chippering Mill had never had a serious strike,-- +indication of an ability to deal with labour; and Mr. Ditmar's views on +labour followed: if his people had a grievance, let them come to him, and +settle it between them. No unions. He had consistently refused to +recognize them. There was mention of the Bradlaugh order as being the +largest commission ever given to a single mill, a reference to the +excitement and speculation it had aroused in trade circles. Claude +Ditmar's ability to put it through was unquestioned; one had only to look +at him,--tenacity, forcefulness, executiveness were written all over +him.... In addition, the article contained much material of an +autobiographical nature that must--Janet thought--have been supplied by +Ditmar himself, whose modesty had evidently shrunk from the cruder +self-eulogy of an interview. But she recognized several characteristic +phrases. + +Caldwell, watching her as she read, was suddenly fascinated. During a +trip abroad, while still an undergraduate, he had once seen the face of +an actress, a really good Parisian actress, light up in that way; and it +had revealed to him, in a flash, the meaning of enthusiasm. Now Janet +became vivid for him. There must be something unusual in a person whose +feelings could be so intense, whose emotions rang so true. He was not +unsophisticated. He had sometimes wondered why Ditmar had promoted her, +though acknowledging her ability. He admired Ditmar, but had no +illusions about him. Harvard, and birth in a social stratum where +emphasis is superfluous, enabled him to smile at the reporter's +exuberance; and he was the more drawn toward her to see on Janet's +flushed face the hint of a smile as she looked up at him when she had +finished. + +"The Colonel hypnotized that reporter," he said, as he took the paper; +and her laugh, despite its little tremor, betrayed in her an unsuspected, +humorous sense of proportion. "Well, I'll take off my hat to him," +Caldwell went on. "He is a wonder, he's got the mill right up to capacity +in a week. He's agreed to deliver those goods to the Bradlaughs by the +first of April, you know, and Holster, of the Clarendon, swears it can't +be done, he says Ditmar's crazy. Well, I stand to lose twenty-five +dollars on him." + +This loyalty pleased Janet, it had the strange effect of reviving loyalty +in her. She liked this evidence of Dick Caldwell's confidence. He was a +self- contained and industrious young man, with crisp curly hair, cordial +and friendly yet never intimate with the other employer; liked by +them--but it was tacitly understood his footing differed from theirs. He +was a cousin of the Chipperings, and destined for rapid promotion. He +went away every Saturday, it was known that he spent Sundays and holidays +in delightful places, to return reddened and tanned; and though he never +spoke about these excursions, and put on no airs of superiority, there +was that in his manner and even in the cut of his well-worn suits +proclaiming him as belonging to a sphere not theirs, to a category of +fortunate beings whose stumbles are not fatal, who are sustained from +above. Even Ditmar was not of these. + +"I've just been showing a lot of highbrows through the mill," he told +Janet. "They asked questions enough to swamp a professor of economics." + +And Janet was suddenly impelled to ask:-- + +"Will you take me through sometime, Mr. Caldwell?" + +"You've never been through?" he exclaimed. "Why, we'll go now, if you +can spare the time." + +Her face had become scarlet. + +"Don't tell Mr. Ditmar," she begged. "You see--he wanted to take me +himself." + +"Not a word," Caldwell promised as they left the office together and went +downstairs to the strong iron doors that led to the Cotton Department. +The showing through of occasional visitors had grown rather tiresome; but +now his curiosity and interest were aroused, he was conscious of a keen +stimulation when he glanced at Janet's face. Its illumination perplexed +him. The effect was that of a picture obscurely hung and hitherto +scarcely noticed on which the light had suddenly been turned. It glowed +with a strange and disturbing radiance.... + +As for Janet, she was as one brought suddenly to the realization of a +miracle in whose presence she had lived for many years and never before +suspected; the miracle of machinery, of the triumph of man over nature. +In the brief space of an hour she beheld the dirty bales flung off the +freight cars on the sidings transformed into delicate fabrics wound from +the looms; cotton that only last summer, perhaps, while she sat +typewriting at her window, had been growing in the fields of the South. +She had seen it torn by the balebreakers, blown into the openers, +loosened, cleansed, and dried; taken up by the lappers, pressed into +batting, and passed on to the carding machines, to emerge like a wisp of +white smoke in a sliver and coil automatically in a can. Once more it +was flattened into a lap, given to a comber that felt out its fibres, +removing with superhuman precision those for the finer fabric too short, +thrusting it forth again in another filmy sliver ready for the drawing +frames. Six of these gossamer ropes were taken up, and again six. Then +came the Blubbers and the roving frames, twisting and winding, the while +maintaining the most delicate of tensions lest the rope break, running +the strands together into a thread constantly growing stronger and finer, +until it was ready for spinning. + +Caldwell stood close to her, shouting his explanations in her ear, while +she strained to follow them. But she was bewildered and entranced by the +marvellous swiftness, accuracy and ease with which each of the complex +machines, fed by human hands, performed its function. These human hands +were swift, too, as when they thrust the bobbins of roving on the +ringspinning frames to be twisted into yarn. She saw a woman, in the +space of an instant, mend a broken thread. Women and boys were here, +doffer boys to lift off the full bobbins of yarn with one hand and set on +the empty bobbins with the other: while skilled workmen, alert for the +first sign of trouble, followed up and down in its travels the long frame +of the mule-spinner. After the spinning, the heavy spools of yarn were +carried to a beam-warper, standing alone like a huge spider's web, where +hundreds of threads were stretched symmetrically and wound evenly, side +by side, on a large cylinder, forming the warp of the fabric to be woven +on the loom. First, however, this warp must be stiffened or "slashed" in +starch and tallow, dried over heated drums, and finally wound around one +great beam from which the multitude of threads are taken up, one by one, +and slipped through the eyes of the loom harnesses by women who sit all +day under the north windows overlooking the canal--the "drawers-in" of +whom Ditmar had spoken. Then the harnesses are put on the loom, the +threads attached to the cylinder on which the cloth is to be wound. The +looms absorbed and fascinated Janet above all else. It seemed as if she +would never tire of watching the rhythmic rise and fall of the +harnesses,--each rapid movement making a V in the warp, within the angle +of which the tiny shuttles darted to and fro, to and fro, carrying the +thread that filled the cloth with a swiftness so great the eye could +scarcely follow it; to be caught on the other side when the angle closed, +and flung back, and back again! And in the elaborate patterns not one, +but several harnesses were used, each awaiting its turn for the impulse +bidding it rise and fall!... Abruptly, as she gazed, one of the machines +halted, a weaver hurried up, searched the warp for the broken thread, +tied it, and started the loom again. + +"That's intelligent of it," said Caldwell, in her ear. But she could +only nod in reply. + +The noise in the weaving rooms was deafening, the heat oppressive. She +began to wonder how these men and women, boys and girls bore the strain +all day long. She had never thought much about them before save to +compare vaguely their drudgery with that from which now she had been +emancipated; but she began to feel a new respect, a new concern, a new +curiosity and interest as she watched them passing from place to place +with indifference between the whirling belts, up and down the narrow +aisles, flanked on either side by that bewildering, clattering machinery +whose polished surfaces continually caught and flung back the light of +the electric bulbs on the ceiling. How was it possible to live for hours +at a time in this bedlam without losing presence of mind and thrusting +hand or body in the wrong place, or becoming deaf? She had never before +realized what mill work meant, though she had read of the accidents. But +these people--even the children--seemed oblivious to the din and the +danger, intent on their tasks, unconscious of the presence of a visitor, +save occasionally when she caught a swift glance from a woman or girl a +glance, perhaps, of envy or even of hostility. The dark, foreign faces +glowed, and instantly grew dull again, and then she was aware of lurking +terrors, despite her exaltation, her sense now of belonging to another +world, a world somehow associated with Ditmar. Was it not he who had +lifted her farther above all this? Was it not by grace of her +association with him she was there, a spectator of the toil beneath? Yet +the terror persisted. She, presently, would step out of the noise, the +oppressive moist heat of the drawing and spinning rooms, the constant, +remorseless menace of whirling wheels and cogs and belts. But they?... +She drew closer to Caldwell's side. + +"I never knew--" she said. "It must be hard to work here." + +He smiled at her, reassuringly. + +"Oh, they don't mind it," he replied. "It's like a health resort +compared to the conditions most of them live in at home. Why, there's +plenty of ventilation here, and you've got to have a certain amount of +heat and moisture, because when cotton is cold and dry it can't be drawn +or spin, and when it's hot and dry the electricity is troublesome. If +you think this moisture is bad you ought to see a mill with the old +vapour-pot system with the steam shooting out into the room. Look here!" +He led Janet to the apparatus in which the pure air is forced through wet +cloths, removing the dust, explaining how the ventilation and humidity +were regulated automatically, how the temperature of the room was +controlled by a thermostat. + +"There isn't an agent in the country who's more concerned about the +welfare of his operatives than Mr. Ditmar. He's made a study of it, he's +spent thousands of dollars, and as soon as these machines became +practical he put 'em in. The other day when I was going through the room +one of these shuttles flew off, as they sometimes do when the looms are +running at high speed. A woman was pretty badly hurt. Ditmar came right +down." + +"He really cares about them," said Janet. She liked Caldwell's praise of +Ditmar, yet she spoke a little doubtfully. + +"Of course he cares. But it's common sense to make 'em as comfortable +and happy as possible--isn't it? He won't stand for being held up, and +he'd be stiff enough if it came to a strike. I don't blame him for that. +Do you?" + +Janet was wondering how ruthless Ditmar could be if his will were +crossed.... They had left the room with its noise and heat behind them +and were descending the worn, oaken treads of the spiral stairway of a +neighbouring tower. Janet shivered a little, and her face seemed almost +feverish as she turned to Caldwell and thanked him. + +"Oh, it was a pleasure, Miss Bumpus," he declared. "And sometime, when +you want to see the Print Works or the Worsted Department, let me +know--I'm your man. And--I won't mention it." + +She did not answer. As they made their way back to the office he glanced +at her covertly, astonished at the emotional effect in her their tour had +produced. Though not of an inflammable temperament, he himself was +stirred, and it was she who, unaccountably, had stirred him: suggested, +in these processes he saw every day, and in which he was indeed +interested, something deeper, more significant and human than he had +guessed, and which he was unable to define.... + +Janet herself did not know why this intimate view of the mills, of the +people who worked in them had so greatly moved her. All day she thought +of them. And the distant throb of the machinery she felt when her +typewriter was silent meant something to her now--she could not say what. +When she found herself listening for it, her heart beat faster. She had +lived and worked beside it, and it had not existed for her, it had had no +meaning, the mills might have been empty. She had, indeed, many, many +times seen these men and women, boys and girls trooping away from work, +she had strolled through the quarters in which they lived, speculated on +the lands from which they had come; but she had never really thought of +them as human beings, individuals, with problems and joys and sorrows and +hopes and fears like her own. Some such discovery was borne in upon her. +And always an essential function of this revelation, looming larger than +ever in her consciousness, was Ditmar. It was for Ditmar they toiled, in +Ditmar's hands were their very existences, his was the stupendous +responsibility and power. + +As the afternoon wore, desire to see these toilers once more took +possession of her. From the white cupola perched above the huge mass of +the Clarendon Mill across the water sounded the single stroke of a bell, +and suddenly the air was pulsing with sounds flung back and forth by the +walls lining the river. Seizing her hat and coat, she ran down the stairs +and through the vestibule and along the track by the canal to the great +gates, which her father was in the act of unbarring. She took a stand +beside him, by the gatehouse. Edward showed a mild surprise. + +"There ain't anything troubling you--is there, Janet?" he asked. + +She shook her head. + +"I wanted to see the hands come out," she said. + +Sometimes, as at present, he found Janet's whims unaccountable. + +"Well, I should have presumed you'd know what they look like by this +time. You'd better stay right close to me, they're a rough lot, with no +respect or consideration for decent folks--these foreigners. I never +could see why the government lets 'em all come over here." He put on the +word "foreigners" an emphasis of contempt and indignation, pathetic +because of its peculiar note of futility. Janet paid no attention to +him. Her ears were strained to catch the rumble of feet descending the +tower stairs, her eyes to see the vanguard as it came from the +doorway--the first tricklings of a flood that instantly filled the yard +and swept onward and outward, irresistibly, through the narrow gorge of +the gates. Impossible to realize this as the force which, when +distributed over the great spaces of the mills, performed an orderly and +useful task! for it was now a turbid and lawless torrent unconscious of +its swollen powers, menacing, breathlessly exciting to behold. It seemed +to Janet indeed a torrent as she clung to the side of the gatehouse as +one might cling to the steep bank of a mountain brook after a +cloud-burst. And suddenly she had plunged into it. The desire was +absurd, perhaps, but not to be denied,--the desire to mix with it, feel +it, be submerged and swept away by it, losing all sense of identity. She +heard her father call after her, faintly--the thought crossed her mind +that his appeals were always faint,--and then she was being carried along +the canal, eastward, the pressure relaxing somewhat when the draining of +the side streets began. + +She remembered, oddly, the Stanley Street bridge where the many streams +met and mingled, streams from the Arundel, the Patuxent, the Arlington +and the Clarendon; and, eager to prolong and intensify her sensations, +hurried thither, reaching it at last and thrusting her way outward until +she had gained the middle, where she stood grasping the rail. The great +structure was a-tremble from the assault, its footpaths and its roadway +overrun with workers, dodging between trolleys and trucks,--some darting +nimbly, dinner pails in hand, along the steel girders. Doffer boys +romped and whistled, young girls in jaunty, Faber Street clothes and +flowered hats, linked to one another for protection, chewed gum and +joked, but for the most part these workers were silent, the apathy of +their faces making a strange contrast with the hurry, hurry of their feet +and set intentness of their bodies as they sped homeward to the +tenements. And the clothes of these were drab, save when the occasional +colour of a hooded peasant's shawl, like the slightly faded tints of an +old master, lit up a group of women. Here, going home to their children, +were Italian mothers bred through centuries to endurance and patience; +sallow Jewesses, gaunt, bearded Jews with shadowy, half-closed eyes and +wrinkled brows, broad-faced Lithuanians, flat-headed Russians; swarthy +Italian men and pale, blond Germans mingled with muddy Syrians and +nondescript Canadians. And suddenly the bridge was empty, the army +vanished as swiftly as it came! + +Janet turned. Through the haze of smoke she saw the sun drop like a ball +of fire cooled to redness, whose course is spent. The delicate lines of +the upper bridge were drawn in sepia against crimson-gilt; for an instant +the cupola of the Clarendon became jasper, and far, far above floated in +the azure a cloud of pink jeweller's cotton. Even as she strove to fix +these colours in her mind they vanished, the western sky faded to +magenta, to purple-mauve; the corridor of the river darkened, on either +side pale lights sparkled from the windows of the mills, while down the +deepened blue of the waters came floating iridescent suds from the +washing of the wools. It was given to her to know that which an artist +of living memory has called the incommunicable thrill of things.... + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +The after-effects of this experience of Janet's were not what ordinarily +are called "spiritual," though we may some day arrive at a saner meaning +of the term, include within it the impulses and needs of the entire +organism. It left her with a renewed sense of energy and restlessness, +brought her nearer to high discoveries of mysterious joys which a voice +out of the past called upon her to forego, a voice somehow identified +with her father! It was faint, ineffectual. In obeying it, would she not +lose all life had to give? When she came in to supper her father was +concerned about her because, instead of walking home with him she had +left him without explanation to plunge into the crowd of workers. Her +evident state of excitement had worried him, her caprice was beyond his +comprehension. And how could she explain the motives that led to it? +She was sure he had never felt like that; and as she evaded his questions +the something within her demanding life and expression grew stronger and +more rebellious, more contemptuous of the fear-precepts congenial to a +nature timorous and less vitalized. + +After supper, unable to sit still, she went out, and, filled with the +spirit of adventure, hurried toward Faber Street, which was already +thronging with people. It was bright here and gay, the shops glittered, +and she wandered from window to window until she found herself staring at +a suit of blue cloth hung on a form, beneath which was a card that read, +"Marked down to $20." And suddenly the suggestion flashed into her mind, +why shouldn't she buy it? She had the money, she needed a new suit for +the winter, the one she possessed was getting shabby...but behind the +excuse of necessity was the real reason triumphantly proclaiming +itself--she would look pretty in it, she would be transformed, she would +be buying a new character to which she would have to live up. The old +Janet would be cast off with the old raiment; the new suit would announce +to herself and to the world a Janet in whom were released all those +longings hitherto disguised and suppressed, and now become insupportable! +This was what the purchase meant, a change of existence as complete as +that between the moth and the butterfly; and the realization of this +fact, of the audacity she was resolved to commit made her hot as she +gazed at the suit. It was modest enough, yet it had a certain +distinction of cut, it looked expensive: twenty dollars was not cheap, to +be sure, but as the placard announced, it had the air of being much more +costly--even more costly than thirty dollars, which seemed fabulous. +Though she strove to remain outwardly calm, her heart beat rapidly as she +entered the store and asked for the costume, and was somewhat reassured +by the comportment of the saleswoman, who did not appear to think the +request preposterous, to regard her as a spendthrift and a profligate. +She took down the suit from the form and led Janet to a cabinet in the +back of the shop, where it was tried on. + +"It's worth every bit of thirty dollars," she heard the woman say, "but +we've had it here for some time, and it's no use for our trade. You +can't sell anything like that in Hampton, there's no taste here, it's too +good, it ain't showy enough. My, it fits you like it was made for you, +and it's just your style--and you can see it wants a lady to wear it. +Your old suit is too tight- -I guess you've filled out some since you +bought it." + +She turned Janet around and around, patting the skirt here and there, and +then stood off a little way, with clasped hands, her expression almost +rapturous. Janet's breath came fast as she gazed into the mirror and +buttoned up the coat. Was the woman's admiration cleverly feigned? this +image she beheld an illusion? or did she really look different, +distinguished? and if not beautiful-- alluring? She had had a momentary +apprehension, almost sickening, that she would be too conspicuous, but +the saleswoman had anticipated that objection with the magical word +"lady." + +"I'll take it," she announced. + +"Well, you couldn't have done better if you'd gone to Boston," declared +the woman. "It's one chance in a thousand. Will you wear it?" + +"Yes," said Janet faintly.... "Just put my old suit in a box, and I'll +call for it in an hour." + +The woman's sympathetic smile followed her as she left the shop. She had +an instant of hesitation, of an almost panicky desire to go back and +repair her folly, ere it was too late. Why had she taken her money with +her that evening, if not with some deliberate though undefined purpose? +But she was ashamed to face the saleswoman again, and her elation was not +to be repressed--an elation optically presented by a huge electric sign +on the farther side of the street that flashed through all the colours of +the spectrum, surrounded by running fire like the running fire in her +soul. Deliciously self-conscious, her gaze fixed ahead, she pressed +through the Wednesday night crowds, young mill men and women in their +best clothes, housewives and fathers of families with children and +bundles. In front of the Banner office a group blocked the pavement +staring up at the news bulletin, which she paused to read. "Five +Millionaire Directors Indicted in New York," "State Treasurer Accused of +Graft," "Murdock Fortune Contested by Heirs." The phrases seemed +meaningless, and she hurried on again.... She was being noticed! A man +looked at her, twice, the first glance accidental, the second arresting, +appealing, subtly flattering, agitating--she was sure he had turned and +was following her. She hastened her steps. It was wicked, what she was +doing, but she gloried in it; and even the sight, in burning red letters, +of Gruber's Cafe failed to bring on a revulsion by its association with +her sister Lise. The fact that Lise had got drunk there meant nothing to +her now. She gazed curiously at the illuminated, orange-coloured panes +separated by curving leads, at the design of a harp in green, at the sign +"Ladies' Entrance"; listened eagerly to the sounds of voices and laughter +that came from within. She looked cautiously over her shoulder, a shadow +appeared, she heard a voice, low, insinuating.... + +Four blocks farther down she stopped. The man was no longer following +her. She had been almost self-convinced of an intention to go to +Eda's--not quite. Of late her conscience had reproached her about Eda, +Janet had neglected her. She told herself she was afraid of Eda's uncanny +and somewhat nauseating flair for romance; and to show Eda the new suit, +though she would relish her friend's praise, would be the equivalent of +announcing an affair of the heart which she, Janet, would have +indignantly to deny. She was not going to Eda's. She knew now where she +was going. A prepared but hitherto undisclosed decree of fate had bade +her put money in her bag that evening, directed her to the shop to buy +the dress, and would presently impel her to go to West Street--nay, was +even now so impelling her. Ahead of her were the lights of the +Chippering Mill, in her ears was the rhythmic sound of the looms working +of nights on the Bradlaugh order. She reached the canal. The white arc +above the end of the bridge cast sharp, black shadows of the branches of +the trees on the granite, the thousand windows of the mill shone yellow, +reflected in the black water. Twice she started to go, twice she paused, +held by the presage of a coming event, a presage that robbed her of +complete surprise when she heard footsteps on the bridge, saw the figure +of a man halting at the crown of the arch to look back at the building he +had left, his shoulders squared, his hand firmly clasping the rail. Her +heart was throbbing with the looms, and yet she stood motionless, until +he turned and came rapidly down the slope of the arch and stopped in +front of her. Under the arc lamp it was almost as bright as day. + +"Miss Bumpus!" he exclaimed. + +"Mr. Ditmar" she said. + +"Were you--were you coming to the office?" + +"I was just out walking," she told him. "I thought you were in Boston." + +"I came home," he informed her, somewhat superfluously, his eyes never +leaving her, wandering hungrily from her face to her new suit, and back +again to her face. "I got here on the seven o'clock train, I wanted to +see about those new Blubbers." + +"They finished setting them up this afternoon," she said. + +"How did you know?" + +"I asked Mr. Orcutt about it--I thought you might telephone." + +"You're a wonder," was his comment. "Well, we've got a running start on +that order," and he threw a glance over his shoulder at the mill. +"Everything going full speed ahead. When we put it through I guess I'll +have to give you some of the credit." + +"Oh, I haven't done anything," she protested. + +"More than you think. You've taken so much off my shoulders I couldn't +get along without you." His voice vibrated, reminding her of the voices +of those who made sentimental recitations for the graphophone. It +sounded absurd, yet it did not repel her: something within her responded +to it. "Which way were you going?" he inquired. + +"Home," she said. + +"Where do you live?" + +"In Fillmore Street." And she added with a touch of defiance: "It's a +little street, three blocks above Hawthorne, off East Street." + +"Oh yes," he said vaguely, as though he had not understood. "I'll come +with you as far as the bridge--along the canal. I've got so much to say +to you." + +"Can't you say it to-morrow?" + +"No, I can't; there are so many people in the office--so many +interruptions, I mean. And then, you never give me a chance." + +She stood hesitating, a struggle going on within her. He had proposed +the route along the canal because nobody would be likely to recognize +them, and her pride resented this. On the other hand, there was the +sweet allurement of the adventure she craved, which indeed she had come +out to seek and by a strange fatality found--since he had appeared on the +bridge almost as soon as she reached it. The sense of fate was strong +upon her. Curiosity urged her, and, thanks to the eulogy she had read of +him that day, to the added impression of his power conveyed by the trip +through the mills, Ditmar loomed larger than ever in her consciousness. + +"What do you want to say?" she asked. + +"Oh, lots of things." + +She felt his hand slipping under her arm, his fingers pressing gently but +firmly into her flesh, and the experience of being impelled by a power +stronger than herself, a masculine power, was delicious. Her arm seemed +to burn where he touched her. + +"Have I done something to offend you?" she heard him say. "Or is it +because you don't like me?" + +"I'm not sure whether I like you or not," she told him. "I don't like +seeing you--this way. And why should you want to know me and see me +outside of the office? I'm only your stenographer." + +"Because you're you--because you're different from any woman I ever met. +You don't understand what you are--you don't see yourself." + +"I made up my mind last night I wouldn't stay in your office any longer," +she informed him. + +"For God's sake, why?" he exclaimed. "I've been afraid of that. Don't +go--I don't know what I'd do. I'll be careful--I won't get you talked +about." + +"Talked about!" She tore herself away from him. "Why should you get me +talked about?" she cried. + +He was frightened. "No, no," he stammered, "I didn't mean--" + +"What did you mean?" + +"Well--as you say, you're my stenographer, but that's no reason why we +shouldn't be friends. I only meant--I wouldn't do anything to make our +friendship the subject of gossip." + +Suddenly she began to find a certain amusement in his confusion and +penitence, she achieved a pleasurable sense of advantage, of power over +him. + +"Why should you want me? I don't know anything, I've never had any +advantages- -and you have so much. I read an article in the newspaper +about you today--Mr. Caldwell gave it to me--" + +"Did you like it?" he interrupted, naively. + +"Well, in some places it was rather funny." + +"Funny? How?" + +"Oh, I don't know." She had been quick to grasp in it the journalistic +lack of restraint hinted at by Caldwell. "I liked it, but I thought it +praised you too much, it didn't criticize you enough." + +He laughed. In spite of his discomfort, he found her candour refreshing. +From the women to whom he had hitherto made love he had never got +anything but flattery. + +"I want you to criticize me," he said. + +But she went on relentlessly:-- + +"When I read in that article how successful you were, and how you'd got +everything you'd started out to get, and how some day you might be +treasurer and president of the Chippering Mill, well--" Despairing of +giving adequate expression to her meaning, she added, "I didn't see how +we could be friends." + +"You wanted me for a friend?" he interrupted eagerly. + +"I couldn't help knowing you wanted me--you've shown it so plainly. But +I didn't see how it could be. You asked me where I lived--in a little +flat that's no better than a tenement. I suppose you would call it a +tenement. It's dark and ugly, it only has four rooms, and it smells of +cooking. You couldn't come there--don't you see how impossible it is? +And you wouldn't care to be talked about yourself, either," she added +vehemently. + +This defiant sincerity took him aback. He groped for words. + +"Listen!" he urged. "I don't want to do anything you wouldn't like, and +honestly I don't know what I'd do if you left me. I've come to depend on +you. And you may not believe it, but when I got that Bradlaugh order I +thought of you, I said to myself 'She'll be pleased, she'll help me to +put it over.'" + +She thrilled at this, she even suffered him, for some reason unknown to +herself, to take her arm again. + +"How could I help you?" + +"Oh, in a thousand ways--you ought to know, you do a good deal of +thinking for me, and you can help me by just being there. I can't +explain it, but I feel somehow that things will go right. I've come to +depend on you." + +He was a little surprised to find himself saying these things he had not +intended to say, and the lighter touch he had always possessed in dealing +with the other sex, making him the envied of his friends, had apparently +abandoned him. He was appalled at the possibility of losing her. + +"I've never met a woman like you," he went on, as she remained silent. +"You're different--I don't know what it is about you, but you are." His +voice was low, caressing, his head was bent down to her, his shoulder +pressed against her shoulder. "I've never had a woman friend before, +I've never wanted one until now." + +She wondered about his wife. + +"You've got brains--I've never met a woman with brains." + +"Oh, is that why?" she exclaimed. + +"You're beautiful," he whispered. "It's queer, but I didn't know it at +first. You're more beautiful to-night than I've ever seen you." + +They had come almost to Warren Street. Suddenly realizing that they were +standing in the light, that people were passing to and fro over the end +of the bridge, she drew away from him once more, this time more gently. + +"Let's walk back a little way," he proposed. + +"I must go home--it's late." + +"It's only nine o'clock." + +"I have an errand to do, and they'll expect me. Good night." + +"Just one more turn!" he pleaded. + +But she shook her head, backing away from him. + +"You'll see me to-morrow," she told him. She didn't know why she said +that. She hurried along Warren Street without once looking over her +shoulder; her feet seemed scarcely to touch the ground, the sound of +music was in her ears, the lights sparkled. She had had an adventure, at +last, an adventure that magically had transformed her life! She was +beautiful! No one had ever told her that before. And he had said that +he needed her. She smiled as, with an access of tenderness, in spite of +his experience and power she suddenly felt years older than Ditmar. She +could help him!... + +She was breathless when she reached the shop in Faber Street. + +"I hope I haven't kept you waiting," she said. + +"Oh no, we don't close until ten," answered the saleswoman. She was +seated quietly sewing under the lamp. + +"I wonder whether you'd mind if I put on my old suit again, and carried +this?" Janet asked. + +The expression of sympathy and understanding in the woman's eyes, as she +rose, brought the blood swiftly to Janet's face. She felt that her +secret had been guessed. The change effected, Janet went homeward +swiftly, to encounter, on the corner of Faber Street, her sister Lise, +whose attention was immediately attracted by the bundle. + +"What have you got there, angel face?" she demanded. + +"A new suit," said Janet. + +"You don't tell me--where'd you get it? at the Paris?" + +"No, at Dowling's." + +"Say, I'll bet it was that plain blue thing marked down to twenty!" + +"Well, what if it was?" + +Lise, when surprised or scornful, had a peculiarly irritating way of +whistling through her teeth. + +"Twenty bucks! Gee, you'll be getting your clothes in Boston next. +Well, as sure as I live when I went by that window the other day when +they first knocked it down I said to Sadie, `those are the rags Janet +would buy if she had the ready.' Have you got another raise out of +Ditmar?" + +"If I have, it isn't any business of yours," Janet retorted. "I've got a +right to do as I please with my own money." + +"Oh sure," said Lise, and added darkly: "I guess Ditmar likes to see you +look well." + +After this Janet refused obstinately to speak to Lise, to answer, when +they reached home, her pleadings and complaints to their mother that +Janet had bought a new suit and refused to exhibit it. And finally, when +they had got to bed, Janet lay long awake in passionate revolt against +this new expression of the sordidness and lack of privacy in which she +was forced to live, made the more intolerable by the close, sultry +darkness of the room and the snoring of Lise. + +In the morning, however, after a groping period of semiconsciousness +during the ringing of the bells, the siren startled her into awareness +and alertness. It had not wholly lost its note of terror, but the note +had somehow become exhilarating, an invitation to adventure and to life; +and Lise's sarcastic comments as to the probable reasons why she did not +put on the new suit had host their power of exasperation. Janet +compromised, wearing a blouse of china silk hitherto reserved for "best." +The day was bright, and she went rapidly toward the mill, glorying in the +sunshine and the autumn sharpness of the air; and her thoughts were not +so much of Ditmar as of something beyond him, of which he was the medium. +She was going, not to meet him, but to meet that. When she reached the +office she felt weak, her fingers trembled as she took off her hat and +jacket and began to sort out the mail. And she had to calm herself with +the assurance that her relationship with Ditmar had undergone no change. +She had merely met him by the canal, and he had talked to her. That was +all. He had, of course, taken her arm: it tingled when she remembered it. +But when he suddenly entered the room her heart gave a bound. He closed +the door, he took off his hat, and stood gazing at her--while she +continued arranging letters. Presently she was forced to glance at him. +His bearing, his look, his confident smile all proclaimed that he, at +least, believed things to be changed. He glowed with health and vigour, +with an aggressiveness from which she shrank, yet found delicious. + +"How are you this morning?" he said at last--this morning as +distinguished from all other mornings. + +"I'm well, as usual," she answered. She herself was sometimes surprised +by her ability to remain outwardly calm. + +"Why did you run away from me last night?" + +"I didn't run away, I had to go home," she said, still arranging the +letters. + +"We could have had a little walk. I don't believe you had to go home at +all. You just wanted an excuse to get away from me." + +"I didn't need an excuse," she told him. He moved toward her, but she +took a paper from the desk and carried it to a file across the room. + +"I thought we were going to be friends," he said. + +"Being friends doesn't mean being foolish," she retorted. "And Mr. +Orcutt's waiting to see you." + +"Let him wait." + +He sat down at his desk, but his blood was warm, and he read the +typewritten words of the topmost letter of the pile without so much as +grasping the meaning of them. From time to time he glanced up at Janet +as she flitted about the room. By George, she was more desirable than he +had ever dared to imagine! He felt temporarily balked, but hopeful. On +his way to the mill he had dwelt with Epicurean indulgence on this sight +of her, and he had not been disappointed. He had also thought that he +might venture upon more than the mere feasting of his eyes, yet found an +inspiring alleviation in the fact that she by no means absolutely +repulsed him. Her attitude toward him had undergone a subtle +transformation. There could be no doubt of that. She was almost +coquettish. His eyes lingered. The china silk blouse was slightly open +at the neck, suggesting the fullness of her throat; it clung to the +outline of her shoulders. Overcome by an impulse he could not control, +he got up and went toward her, but she avoided him. + +"I'll tell Mr. Orcutt you've come," she said, rather breathlessly, as she +reached the door and opened it. Ditmar halted in his steps at the sight +of the tall, spectacled figure of the superintendent on the threshold. + +Orcutt hesitated, looking from one to the other. + +"I've been waiting for you," he said, after a moment, "the rest of that +lot didn't come in this morning. I've telephoned to the freight agent." + +Ditmar stared at him uncomprehendingly. Orcutt repeated the information. + +"Oh well, keep after him, get him to trace them." + +"I'm doing that," replied the conscientious Orcutt. + +"How's everything else going?" Ditmar demanded, with unlooked-for +geniality. "You mustn't take things too hard, Orcutt, don't wear yourself +out." + +Mr. Orcutt was relieved. He had expected an outburst of the exasperation +that lately had characterized his superior. They began to chat. Janet +had escaped. + +"Miss Bumpus told me you wanted to see me. I was just going to ring you +up," Ditmar informed him. + +"She's a clever young woman, seems to take such an interest in things," +Orcutt observed. "And she's always on the job. Only yesterday I saw her +going through the mill with young Caldwell." + +Ditmar dropped the paper-weight he held. + +"Oh, she went through, did she?" + +After Orcutt departed he sat for awhile whistling a tune, from a popular +musical play, keeping time by drumming with his fingers on the desk. + +That Mr. Semple, the mill treasurer, came down from Boston that morning +to confer with Ditmar was for Janet in the nature of a reprieve. She sat +by her window, and as her fingers flew over the typewriter keys she was +swept by surges of heat in which ecstasy and shame and terror were +strangely commingled. A voice within her said, "This can't go on, this +can't go on! It's too terrible! Everyone in the office will notice +it--there will be a scandal. I ought to go away while there is yet +time--to-day." Though the instinct of flight was strong within her, she +was filled with rebellion at the thought of leaving when Adventure was +flooding her drab world with light, even as the mill across the waters +was transfigured by the heavy golden wash of the autumn sun. She had made +at length the discovery that Adventure had to do with Man, was +inconceivable without him. + +Racked by these conflicting impulses of self-preservation on the one hand +and what seemed self-realization on the other, she started when, toward +the middle of the afternoon, she heard Ditmar's voice summoning her to +take his letters; and went palpitating, leaving the door open behind her, +seating herself on the far side of the desk, her head bent over her book. +Her neck, where her hair grew in wisps behind her ear, seemed to burn: +Ditmar's glance was focussed there. Her hands were cold as she wrote.... +Then, like a deliverer, she saw young Caldwell coming in from the outer +office, holding a card in his hand which he gave to Ditmar, who sat +staring at it. + +"Siddons?" he said. "Who's Siddons?" + +Janet, who had risen, spoke up. + +"Why, he's been making the Hampton `survey.' You wrote him you'd see +him-- don't you remember, Mr. Ditmar?" + +"Don't go!" exclaimed Ditmar. "You can't tell what those confounded +reformers will accuse you of if you don't have a witness." + +Janet sat down again. The sharpness of Ditmar's tone was an exhilarating +reminder of the fact that, in dealing with strangers, he had come more or +less to rely on her instinctive judgment; while the implied appeal of his +manner on such occasions emphasized the pleasurable sense of his +dependence, of her own usefulness. Besides, she had been curious about +the `survey' at the time it was first mentioned, she wished to hear +Ditmar's views concerning it. Mr. Siddons proved to be a small and +sallow young man with a pointed nose and bright, bulbous brown eyes like +a chipmunk's. Indeed, he reminded one of a chipmunk. As he whisked +himself in and seized Ditmar's hand he gave a confused impression of +polite self-effacement as well as of dignity and self-assertion; he had +the air of one who expects opposition, and though by no means desiring +it, is prepared to deal with it. Janet smiled. She had a sudden impulse +to drop the heavy book that lay on the corner of the desk to see if he +would jump. + +"How do you do, Mr. Ditmar?" he said. "I've been hoping to have this +pleasure." + +"My secretary, Miss Bumpus," said Ditmar. + +Mr. Siddons quivered and bowed. Ditmar, sinking ponderously into his +chair, seemed suddenly, ironically amused, grinning at Janet as he opened +a drawer of his desk and offered the visitor a cigar. + +"Thanks, I don't smoke," said Mr. Siddons. + +Ditmar lit one for himself. + +"Now, what can I do for you?" he asked. + +"Well, as I wrote you in my letter, I was engaged to make as thorough an +examination as possible of the living conditions and housing of the +operatives in the city of Hampton. I'm sure you'd be interested in +hearing something of the situation we found." + +"I suppose you've been through our mills," said Ditmar. + +"No, the fact is--" + +"You ought to go through. I think it might interest you," Ditmar put a +slight emphasis on the pronoun. "We rather pride ourselves on making +things comfortable and healthy for our people." + +"I've no doubt of it--in fact, I've been so informed. It's because of +your concern for the welfare of your workers in the mills that I ventured +to come and talk to you of how most of them live when they're at home," +replied Siddons, as Janet thought, rather neatly. "Perhaps, though +living in Hampton, you don't quite realize what the conditions are. I +know a man who has lived in Boston ten years and who hasn't ever seen the +Bunker Hill monument." + +"The Bunker Hill monument's a public affair," retorted Ditmar, "anybody +can go there who has enough curiosity and interest. But I don't see how +you can expect me to follow these people home and make them clean up +their garbage and wash their babies. I shouldn't want anybody to +interfere with my private affairs." + +"But when you get to a point where private affairs become a public +menace?" Siddons objected. "Mr. Ditmar, I've seen block after block of +tenements ready to crumble. There are no provisions for foundations, +thickness of walls, size of timbers and columns, and if these houses had +been deliberately erected to make a bonfire they couldn't have answered +the purpose better. If it were not for the danger to life and the pity +of making thousands of families homeless, a conflagration would be a +blessing, although I believe the entire north or south side of the city +would go under certain conditions. The best thing you could do would be +to burn whole rows of these tenements, they are ideal breeding grounds +for disease. In the older sections of the city you've got hundreds of +rear houses here, houses moved back on the lots, in some extreme cases +with only four-foot courts littered with refuse,--houses without light, +without ventilation, and many of the rooms where these people are cooking +and eating and sleeping are so damp and foul they're not fit to put dogs +in. You've got some blocks with a density of over five hundred to the +acre, and your average density is considerably over a hundred." + +"Are things any worse than in any other manufacturing city?" asked +Ditmar. + +"That isn't the point," said Siddons. "The point is that they're bad, +they're dangerous, they're inhuman. If you could go into these tenements +as I have done and see the way some of these people live, it would make +you sick the Poles and Lithuanians and Italians especially. You wouldn't +treat cattle that way. In some households of five rooms, including the +kitchen, I found as many as fourteen, fifteen, and once seventeen people +living. You've got an alarming infant death-rate." + +"Isn't it because these people want to live that way?" Ditmar inquired. +"They actually like it, they wouldn't be happy in anything but a +pig-sty--they had 'em in Europe. And what do you expect us to do? Buy +land and build flats for them? Inside of a month they'd have all the +woodwork stripped off for kindling, the drainage stopped up, the bathtubs +filled with ashes. I know, because it's been tried." + +Tilted back in his chair, he blew a cloud of smoke toward the ceiling, +and his eyes sought Janet's. She avoided them, resenting a little the +assumption of approval she read in them. Her mind, sensitive to new +ideas, had been keenly stimulated as she listened to Siddons, who began +patiently to dwell once more on the ill effect of the conditions he had +discovered on the welfare of the entire community. She had never thought +of this. She was surprised that Ditmar should seem to belittle it. +Siddons was a new type in her experience. She could understand and to a +certain extent maliciously enjoy Ditmar's growing exasperation with him; +he had a formal, precise manner of talking, as though he spent most of +his time presenting cases in committees: and in warding off Ditmar's +objections he was forever indulging in such maddening phrases as, "Before +we come to that, let me say a word just here." Ditmar hated words. His +outbursts, his efforts to stop the flow of them were not unlike the +futile charges of a large and powerful animal harassed by a smaller and +more agile one. With nimble politeness, with an exasperating air of +deference to Ditmar's opinions, Mr. Siddons gave ground, only to return +to the charge; yet, despite a manner and method which, when contrasted to +Ditmar's, verged on the ludicrous, Mr. Siddons had a force and fire of +his own, nervous, almost fanatical: when he dwelt on the misery he had +seen, and his voice trembled from the intensity of his feeling, Janet +began to be moved. It was odd, considering the struggle for existence of +her own family, that these foreigners had remained outside the range of +her sympathy. + +"I guess you'll find," Ditmar had interrupted peremptorily, "I guess +you'll find, if you look up the savings banks statistics, these people +have got millions tucked away. And they send a lot of it to the other +side, they go back themselves, and though they live like cattle, they +manage to buy land. Ask the real estate men. Why, I could show you a +dozen who worked in the mills a few years ago and are capitalists +to-day." + +"I don't doubt it, Mr. Ditmar," Siddons gracefully conceded. "But what +does it prove? Merely the cruelty of an economic system based on +ruthless competition. The great majority who are unable to survive the +test pay the price. And the community also pays the price, the state and +nation pay it. And we have this misery on our consciences. I've no +doubt you could show me some who have grown rich, but if you would let me +I could take you to families in desperate want, living in rooms too dark +to read in at midday in clear weather, where the husband doesn't get more +than seven dollars a week when the mills are running full time, where the +woman has to look out for the children and work for the lodgers, and even +with lodgers they get into debt, and the woman has to go into the mills +to earn money for winter clothing. I've seen enough instances of this +kind to offset the savings bank argument. And even then, when you have a +family where the wife and older children work, where the babies are put +out to board, where there are three and four lodgers in a room, why do +you suppose they live that way? Isn't it in the hope of freeing +themselves ultimately from these very conditions? And aren't these +conditions a disgrace to Hampton and America?" + +"Well, what am I to do about it?" Ditmar demanded. + +"I see that these operatives have comfortable and healthful surroundings +in the mill, I've spent money to put in the latest appliances. That's +more than a good many mills I could mention attempt." + +"You are a person of influence, Mr. Ditmar, you have more influence than +any man in Hampton. You can bring pressure to bear on the city council +to enforce and improve the building ordinances, you can organize a +campaign of public opinion against certain property owners." + +"Yes," retorted Ditmar, "and what then? You raise the rents, and you +won't get anybody to live in the houses. They'll move out to settlements +like Glendale full of dirt and vermin and disease and live as they're +accustomed to. What you reformers are actually driving at is that we +should raise wages--isn't it? If we raised wages they'd live like rats +anyway. I give you credit for sincerity, Mr. Siddons, but I don't want +you to think I'm not as much interested in the welfare of these people as +you and the men behind you. The trouble is, you only see one side of +this question. When you're in my position, you're up against hard facts. +We can't pay a dubber or a drawing tender any more than he's worth, +whether he has a wife or children in the mills or whether he hasn't. +We're in competition with other mills, we're in competition with the +South. We can't regulate the cost of living. We do our best to make +things right in the mills, and that's all we can do. We can't afford to +be sentimental about life. Competition's got to be the rule, the world's +made that way. Some are efficient and some aren't. Good God, any man +who's had anything to do with hiring labour and running a plant has that +drummed into him hard. You talk about ordinances, laws--there are enough +laws and ordinances in this city and in this state right now. If we have +any more the mills will have to shut down, and these people will +starve--all of 'em." Ditmar's chair came down on its four legs, and he +flung his cigar away. "Send me a copy of your survey when it's +published. I'll look it over." + +"Well, what do you think of the nerve of a man like that?" Ditmar +exploded, when Mr. Siddons had bowed himself out. "Comes in here to +advise me that it's my business to look out for the whole city of +Hampton. I'd like to see him up against this low-class European labour +trying to run a mill with them. They're here one day and there the next, +they don't know what loyalty is. You've got to drive 'em--if you give +'em an inch they'll jump at your throat, dynamite your property. Why, +there's nothing I wouldn't do for them if I could depend on them, I'd +build 'em houses, I'd have automobiles to take 'em home. As it is, I do +my best, though they don't deserve it,--in slack seasons I run half time +when I oughtn't to be running at all." + +His tone betrayed an effort of self-justification, and his irritation had +been increased by the suspicion in Janet of a certain lack of the +sympathy on which he had counted. She sat silent, gazing searchingly at +his face. + +"What's the matter?" he demanded. "You don't mean to say you agree with +that kind of talk?" + +"I was wondering--" she began. + +"What?" + +"If you were--if you could really understand those who are driven to work +in order to keep alive?" + +"Understand them! Why not?" he asked. + +"Because--because you're on top, you've always been successful, you're +pretty much your own master--and that makes it different. I'm not +blaming you--in your place I'd be the same, I'm sure. But this man, +Siddons, made me think. I've lived like that, you see, I know what it is, +in a way." + +"Not like these foreigners!" he protested. + +"Oh, almost as bad," she cried with vehemence, and Ditmar, stopped +suddenly in his pacing as by a physical force, looked at her with the +startled air of the male who has inadvertently touched off one of the +many hidden springs in the feminine emotional mechanism. "How do you +know what it is to live in a squalid, ugly street, in dark little rooms +that smell of cooking, and not be able to have any of the finer, +beautiful things in life? Unless you'd wanted these things as I've +wanted them, you couldn't know. Oh, I can understand what it would feel +like to strike, to wish to dynamite men like you!" + +"You can!" he exclaimed in amazement. "You!" + +"Yes, me. You don't understand these people, you couldn't feel sorry for +them any more than you could feel sorry for me. You want them to run +your mills for you, you don't want to know how they feel or how they +live, and you just want me--for your pleasure." + +He was indeed momentarily taken aback by this taunt, which no woman in +his experience had had the wit and spirit to fling at him, but he was not +the type of man to be shocked by it. On the contrary, it swept away his +irritation, and as a revelation of her inner moltenness stirred him to a +fever heat as he approached and stood over her. + +"You little--panther!" he whispered. "You want beautiful things, do you? +Well, I'll give 'em to you. I'll take care of you." + +"Do you think I want them from you?" she retorted, almost in tears. "Do +you think I want anybody to take care of me? That shows how little you +know me. I want to be independent, to do my work and pay for what I +get." + +Janet herself was far from comprehending the complexity of her feelings. +Ditmar had not apologized or feigned an altruism for which she would +indeed have despised him. The ruthlessness of his laugh--the laugh of +the red-blooded man who makes laws that he himself may be lawless shook +her with a wild appeal. "What do I care about any others--I want you!" +such was its message. And against this paradoxical wish to be conquered, +intensified by the magnetic field of his passion, battled her +self-assertion, her pride, her innate desire to be free, to escape now +from a domination the thought of which filled her with terror. She felt +his cheek brushing against her hair, his fingers straying along her arm; +for the moment she was hideously yet deliciously powerless. Then the +emotion of terror conquered--terror of the unknown--and she sprang away, +dropping her note-book and running to the window, where she stood +swaying. + +"Janet, you're killing me," she heard him say. "For God's sake, why +can't you trust me?" + +She did not answer, but gazed out at the primrose lights beginning to +twinkle fantastically in the distant mills. Presently she turned. +Ditmar was in his chair. She crossed the room to the electric switch, +turning on the flood of light, picked up her tote-book and sat down +again. + +"Don't you intend to answer your letters?" she asked. + +He reached out gropingly toward the pile of his correspondence, seized +the topmost letter, and began to dictate, savagely. She experienced a +certain exultation, a renewed and pleasurable sense of power as she took +down his words. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS + +But when you get to a point where private affairs become a public menace +Exorbitant price for joys otherwise more reasonably to be obtained +Foreigners. I never could see why the government lets 'em all come +Hitherto he had held rigidly to that relativity +Perhaps she feared to break the charm of that memory +The seventh commandment was only relative + + + + +End of this Project Gutenberg Etext of The Dwelling Place of Light, V1 by +Winston Churchill + |
