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diff --git a/35367.txt b/35367.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..a5797b9 --- /dev/null +++ b/35367.txt @@ -0,0 +1,14926 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Mad, by George Manville Fenn + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Mad + A Story of Dust and Ashes + +Author: George Manville Fenn + +Release Date: February 23, 2011 [EBook #35367] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK MAD *** + + + + +Produced by Nick Hodson of London, England + + + + +Mad +A Story of Dust and Ashes +By George Manville Fenn +Published by Tinsley Brothers, 18 Catherine Street, Strand, London. +This edition dated 1868. + +Volume One, Chapter I. + +THE THIN END OF THE WEDGE. + +Septimus Hardon bore his Christian name from no numerical reason, for he +was an only child; but his father, Octavius Hardon, Esquire, of +Somesham, thought that, like his own, the name had a good bold sound +with it--a sonorous classical twang. There was a vibration with it that +should impress people in the future life of the bearer and add +importance denied by Nature; but Mrs Octavius, during her lifetime, was +always in disgrace with her lord for shortening the name into Sep, which +was decidedly not impressive; while as for Septimus himself, he too was +always in trouble with his father for being what he was--decidedly +impressive, but not in the way his father wished; for to look at +Septimus Hardon it might have been supposed that Nature, after trying +her 'prentice hand on man, and then making "the lasses, O," had had a +quantity of rough stuff left--odds and ends, snips and scraps and +awkward tags--when, sooner than there should be any waste of the +precious material, she made Septimus Hardon. You could not say that he +was deformed, but there was an odd look about him; his head seemed too +big, and was badly thatched, while, by contrast, his body was too small; +then his nose was a trifle on one side, and his mouth too wide, though +it certainly disclosed an enviable set of teeth; his arms were long, and +swung about too much, while one leg was slightly shorter than the other, +short enough to make him limp; but there was mildness written in his +pitted face, and honesty peered at you from his clear bright eyes. And +there was a true heart too in his breast, a large swelling heart, to +which must have been due the obtrusiveness of his breast, and the +decided roundness of his shoulders. And while Septimus Hardon had in +some things most excellent taste--taste that his cousins sneered at, +save when they wanted their music copied neatly, or their drawings +touched up--yet dress was not his forte, since he always made the worst +of himself by wearing clothes that did not fit him, and bad as his +figure was, some tailor could have been found who would have guaranteed +fit, if not style. Septimus generally wore shabby faded black coats and +vests, trousers of a dead leaf or baker's drab, blucher boots of the +pattern known as contract--very bulgy and wrinkly; and a real beaver +hat, with a propensity for growing irritated under the brush, and +becoming rough and startling. + +Born in London, Septimus had lived since childhood with his father at +the Grange, a solitary house about a couple of miles from Somesham town; +and for years past the amusement and toil of the father and son had been +centred in a little amateur printing-office, fitted up in a side-room, +where they laboriously printed, page by page, the work that Octavius +Hardon called his brother Thomas--the doctor practising in the town--a +fool for not appreciating,--a work upon political reform, one that was +to astonish the world at large when it was completed; and though +Septimus owned to himself that the world would be easily astonished and +its state rather startling if it accepted and acted upon the opinions +there set forth, yet, at forty years of age, he was still working on day +after day at his father's beck and call, obedient as a child, and never +venturing an opinion of his own in presence of the irascible old man, +who always called him "boy." + +It might have been supposed that living so secluded a life himself, and +being so strange of aspect, the idle god would have spared him as an +object for his shafts; but for long years Septimus Hardon had loved in +secret, loved and sorrowed,--for he was not happy in the choice he had +made. Mary Phillips was the betrothed of Tom Grey, the mate of an East +Indiaman; and Septimus Hardon had been divided between love for the fair +girl and friendship for his old schoolfellow, who made him the +repository, in his frank, sailorlike fashion, of all his secrets. + +So while the sailor had wooed and won, Septimus Hardon had nursed his +love for years, hardly realising the passion he had harboured, till one +night when, after a woodside ramble, he stood leaning upon a stile, and +glancing down with bitterness at his uncouth form. The shadows were +growing deeper, when, hearing approaching footsteps, he entered the +wood, where before him lay many a dark mossy arcade--fit places for the +sighs of a sorrowful heart; and he thought as he entered one that he +could wander here in peace for a while; but the next instant the hot +blood flushed up into his face, making his veins throb as he stood with +clenched hands gazing through the thin screen of leaves at Mary, leaning +lovingly upon his friend's arm, and listening with downcast eyes to his +words. + +The listener could hardly see the looks of those who passed, but their +words seemed to ring through the stillness of the summer eve, each one +falling with a heavy impact upon his ear, and vibrating through his +frame, as if a sharp blow had been struck upon sonorous metal. For a +moment a wild fury seemed to blind him, and he stood trembling with +passion till the footsteps died away; when, half wild with agony, he +dashed headlong, deeper and deeper into the wood, crashing through the +light hazels, tripping over the tortuous roots; and at last, stumbling +over a fallen bough, he fell heavily, and lay insensible in the calm +depths of the wood. But thought soon dawned upon him again, and he lay +and shuddered as the anguish of heart came slowly creeping back; for he +now thoroughly understood his fate, and knew that the bright dreamy +structures in which his imagination had revelled had crumbled before him +into bitter dust. + +Time sped on, and after another voyage Tom Grey was back, and standing +with his hand upon Septimus Hardon's shoulder. + +"Come? Why, of course, my boy; what should we do without you? Mary +begs that you won't refuse; and, Sep, old fellow, I shall expect you to +be her bodyguard when I'm far away at sea." + +Septimus Hardon was standing opposite to a tall pier-glass in his +father's drawing-room when these words were spoken; and he glanced at +himself, and then, sighing bitterly, wondered whether, had he been as +other men, he would have been chosen. But the next moment the thought +was crushed down, and he was returning the frank, handsome sailor's +honest grasp. + +Septimus Hardon nursed his love, but he hid it, buried it in the deepest +recesses of his heart; and no one knew of the secret held by the +bridegroom's friend, who held by one of the pews when a swimming came +upon him in the church, and he would have fallen had not Tom Grey +grasped his arm. But that soon passed, and the stricken man added his +congratulations to those of the friends assembled to follow the couple, +in whose path flowers were strewn--the couple joined together till death +did them part. + +And that was soon--soon to the loving wife--soon to the husband whose +journeyings were upon the great deep; but years passed first, during +which quiet, vacillating Septimus Hardon was the faithful friend of his +schoolfellow's wife, and the patient slave of her bright-eyed child, at +whose bidding he was always ready to attend, even to the neglect of his +father's book. + +Then came the day when, after whispering of hope, for many months, +Septimus learned that his fears were but too well founded, and that his +friend's ship had gone down with all on board. + +A bitter trial was his to break the fatal tidings to the widow, and he +stood trembling as she, the woman he had for long years worshipped in +secret, reviled him and cursed him in her madness for the news--the +blasting news that he had brought upon her home. + +Then two years glided away, when the widow, passing through many a phase +of sorrow, sickness, and misery, sat hoping on that he whom she mourned +would yet return, and all the while ignorant of the hand that supplied +her wants, or of the good friend with so great a love for fancy-work +that she sent order after order, liberally paid for by the hands of +Septimus Hardon. The beauty of the past slowly faded, so that she +became haggard and thin; a lasting illness seemed to have her in its +grasp; but still faithful to his trust, true to the love he bore her, +Septimus Hardon set at naught the frowns of his father and the sneers of +his cousins, while he devoted himself to the alleviation of the widow's +sufferings, and kept her from the additional stings of want, for she had +been left totally unprovided for by her young and hopeful husband. + +And what was the result? Such as might have been expected from such a +nature as Septimus Hardon's. Patient and true, the love he bore this +woman was hidden for years, and then, when in her hopeless misery the +widow turned her head upon the sick pillow and asked his advice, he told +her to give him the right to protect her, to be to her child, little +Lucy, a second father, and then shrank, crushed and trembling, from the +room, affrighted at her look of horror, and the words accusatory which +told him of faithlessness to his trust, to his schoolfellow, who she +felt yet lived. + +But it was only in her hopeful heart he lived, and six months after +forbidding Septimus her house, Mary Grey, weeping bitterly over the +discovery she had made of the hand that had so long sustained her, wrote +these words and sent them to the Grange: "Forgive me!" + +Volume One, Chapter II. + +SEP'S COMPLAINT. + +Octavius Hardon's book was at a standstill, and the world still in the +thick darkness of ignorance as regarded political reform upon his basis, +for Septimus Hardon was ill, sick almost unto death. He had slowly +grown listless and dull, careless of everything, daily becoming weaker, +until, apparently without ailment, he had taken to his bed, over which +his uncle, Doctor Hardon; his assistant, Mr Reston, a handsome, +cynical-looking man, and the rival practitioner of the town, had all +concurred in shaking their heads and declaring that nothing could be +done, since Septimus Hardon was suffering from the effects of an +internal malformation. + +They were quite right; the poor fellow had too much heart; and though +the wise of this earth declare that people do not die of or for love, +yet most assuredly Septimus Hardon would slowly have faded from his +place among men, and before many months had passed over his head gone +where there is rest. + +But there was medicine of the right kind coming, and the very perusal +with lack-lustre eyes of the prescription brought to his bedroom sent a +flash of light into the glassy orbs, and in the course of a few weeks +Septimus disappointed the doctors by getting well, Nature having +arranged respecting the internal malformation. + +"I don't think you did him a bit of good, Mr Brande; not a bit--not a +bit--not a bit," said Octavius to the rival practitioner. "He never +took any of your stuffs. Now, come and set me up again, for I'm wrong." + +"Better, yes, he's better," said the old man to Mr Reston. +"Good-morning--good-morning--good-morning." + +Doctor Hardon had sent his assistant over; but in place of seeing the +patient he found himself bowed out; and on loudly complaining to the +doctor, not on account of missing his interview with the patient, but +for reasons of his own, Doctor Hardon now called. + +"Well, Tom--well, Tom--well, Tom?" said Octavius, smiling cynically, and +looking his younger brother well over from top to toe. "What is it, +Tom?" + +"O, about Septimus?" + +"There, be off; I'm busy. Septimus is getting on, and Mr Brande will +physic him if he wants any more. A man who can't morally physic his own +children can't do other people's good." + +Doctor Hardon, portly and pompous, rose to speak; but Octavius took hold +of his arm and led him to the door, giving him his hat at the same time. + +"Good-bye, Tom--good-bye--good-bye. Don't come till I send for you +again. You always were a fool, and an ass, and an idiot, and a humbug, +Tom--always--always--always." + +There was a slight storm at Doctor Hardon's that day, and neither his +wife nor daughters ventured much into his presence; but when, some weeks +afterwards, the doctor knew of a scene that took place in his brother's +house, he smiled softly, and after a fashion of his own he purred, while +that night he was graciousness itself. + +Octavius Hardon sat writing, and listening to the words of his son till, +as he grew interested, the pen ceased to form letters, and at last he +pushed back his chair, overturning the inkstand, so that the sable +current streamed across a fresh paragraph of his book. He thrust up his +glasses and sheltered his eyes to look at his son--the son who had +obeyed his every word and look, who had never seemed to have a thought +of his own--the son who was even now, in spite of his forty years, but a +boy; and as he looked, he saw that he seemed inches taller, that there +was an elate look in his countenance, which it would have been hard at +that moment to have called plain. + +"Going to be what?" gasped the father. + +"To be married," said the son firmly. + +"Married?" + +"Married, father." + +"And to whom? One of those hussies, your cousins?" + +"To Mrs Grey," replied Septimus. + +"What?" gasped the old man. "To a woman--a widow with a family--a +proper inmate for the union--a pauper!" + +"Hush, father!" cried Septimus. "I love her;" and he said those simple +words with such reverence, such tenderness, that the old man paused and +gazed almost wonderingly at the aspect worn by his son; but by degrees +his anger gained the ascendant, and a stormy scene ensued in which the +father threatened and besought in turn, while the son remained calm and +immovable. Once he shrunk back and held up his hands deprecatingly, +when the old man spoke harshly of the stricken woman; but directly after +his face lit up with a pride and contentment which almost maddened the +speaker. + +"You cannot keep a wife!" he gasped. + +Septimus smiled. + +"You were always a helpless, vacillating fool, and you have nothing but +the few hundreds from your mother." + +Septimus bowed his head. + +"Dog!" roared the old man, "I'll leave every penny I have to your +uncle's hussies if you dare to marry this woman." + +The son smiled sadly, but remained silent. + +"Why don't you speak?" roared Octavius, foaming with rage. + +"What would you have me say, father?" said Septimus calmly. + +"Say!" gasped the old man; "why, that you are a thankless, graceless, +unnatural scoundrel. But where do you mean to go?" + +"To London," said Septimus. + +"To London!" sneered the old man; "and what for? No; go to Hanwell, or +Colney Hatch, or sink your paltry money at a private asylum, if they +will take you. To London, to leave me to my infirmities, with my book +unfinished! But you'll take my curse with you; and may yon brazen, +scheming woman--" + +"Hush!" cried Septimus fiercely, as he laid his hand upon his father's +lips, when, beside himself with fury, Octavius struck his son heavily in +the face, and then, as he fell back, the old man seized the poker, but +only to throw it crashing back into the fender. + +Just at that moment, the door opened, a tall, dark, handsome girl +hurried into the room, and stood between father and son, gazing in an +agitated way from one anger-wrought countenance to the other. + +"Septimus! Uncle!" she cried, "what is the matter?" + +"He's a villain, girl--an unnatural scoundrel. He's going to marry that +woman--Grey's wife--widow--relict--curse her!" + +"What, poor Mrs Grey?" said the girl, with the tears springing to her +eyes. + +"God bless you for that, Agnes!" cried Septimus passionately, as he +caught her in his arms, and kissed her affectionately. + +"Yes, _poor_ Mrs Grey," sneered the old man, looking savagely at the +pair before him. "But there, let him go; and mind _you_, or you won't +have what I've got. But there, you will, and your sisters will have +something to fleer and jeer at then, and your father will purr in my +face, and spit and swear behind my back. Bah! a cursed tom-cat humbug!" + +"Hush, uncle dear!" whispered Agnes, laying one hand upon his arm and +the other upon his breast, her lip quivering as she spoke,--"hush! you +are angry.--Don't say any more, Septimus." + +"No," replied Septimus sternly, "I have done." + +"No, _no_, no! you have not," roared the old man, firing up again. "You +have to beg my pardon, and tell me that this folly is at an end." + +"I'll beg your pardon, father," said Septimus sternly, "and I do ask it +for anything I have done amiss; but I have pledged my word to the woman +I have loved these ten years." And again there was the look of proud +elation on Septimus Hardon's countenance. + +"And you are going to London, eh?" said Octavius. + +"To London," said Septimus calmly. + +The old man frowned, pressed his lips tightly together, and, holding +Agnes firmly by her shoulder, he stood pointing with one hand towards +the door. + +"Then go!" he said; "go--go!" + +"O, Septimus!" cried Agnes in appealing tones,--"uncle!" + +"You're mad, Septimus Hardon," said the old man coldly. "Mad--stark +mad: a private asylum, Septimus--an asylum--mad! You're mad--stark mad! +Go!" + +Volume One, Chapter III. + +FURTHER INTRODUCTIONS. + +In the faint light of early morning, some ten years after the scene +described in the last chapter, at that cold dank hour when the struggle +is going on between night and day, and the former is being slowly and +laboriously conquered,--when Chancery-lane looked at its worst, and the +passed-away region of Bennett's-rents more sordid and desolate than +ever. The gas-lamps still glimmered in the street, while the solitary +light at the end of the Rents yet burned dimly, and as if half-destroyed +by mephitic vapour, when the door of Number 27 was opened, closed +loudly, and a man clattered heavily over the broken pavement, creating +an unnecessary amount of noise as he slowly made his way out through the +narrow archway into the street, but watching on either side with +observant eye the while. It seemed darker when he reached the Lane, +where, after glancing hastily up and down for a minute, he softly thrust +off his boots,--a pair of heavy lace-ups,--and then, taking them in his +hand, he ran lightly back, with the stooping gait and eager hound-like +air of some savage beast on the trail of its prey. But the next moment +he was at the door he had quitted, had opened it softly and slipped in, +ignorant that a face at the third-floor window opposite was watching his +movements with looks yet keener than his own. + +Holding his breath, the man stood in the passage of the old house for a +few seconds; then, passing along softly, he stole down the damp, +half-rotten cellar-stairs, starting once and giving vent to a +half-suppressed ejaculation as a cat dashed hastily by him, when he +paused to wipe the cold perspiration from his forehead with his sleeve. +Then he stood at the bottom in front of the cellar-door, in the damp +dark place where ashes gritted beneath his feet, and the foul smell of +half-decayed vegetable refuse arose. Apparently guided by caution, he +now carefully felt around him, letting his hands glide along the wall, +while his feet probed every corner to insure that he was alone, before, +after listening an instant at the foot of the stairs, he slipped quickly +through the door, and stood in the large front cellar. + +It was lighter here, for the morning was struggling down through the +grating; and now, after a careful tour of inspection, peering into every +dim corner, the man passed through a low archway and into a back-cellar, +darker and damper than the first,--a place that had once been used for +wine, and into every one of whose cobweb-hung and sawdust-floored bins +the man looked in turn, as he made his way farther from the light. + +He was a big, heavy man; but there was something soft and cat-like in +his movements as he passed along the dark cellar. The obscurity seemed +to have but little effect upon him, for the way appeared familiar; and +when right at the end he stopped to listen attentively for a few moments +before, going down upon hands and knees, he crawled rapidly, and more +cat-like than ever, into one of the darkest bins. Then there was a low +grating noise heard, as if a heavy stone had been pushed aside; there +was a deep expiration, as of one moving a weight; a rustling, the +grating sound once more, and then for a few minutes silence. + +The light descending the grating struggled hard to illumine the obscure +place; but this was one of the strongholds of darkness--a spot where it +lurked through the bright hours of the day; and the efforts of the light +only served to faintly illumine the front cellar, where stood a huge +water-butt with a pipe leading to it for the supply of the house; and +here now began an echoing drip, drip, drip; while from the tap came a +strange, sighing, hissing sound, as the air was forced by distant +pressure along the pipe. + +Now came the sharp crack of a stair, the very faint rustle of a dress, +and then slowly and cautiously appeared, coming forward, as it were, out +of the gloom like one of the phantoms of a nightmare, the face that had +been gazing from the opposite window, an old, eager, hawk-like, pinched +woman's face, peering through the opening of the ajar door, and followed +directly by the shabbily-clothed body. + +Cautiously, and with eyes peering in every direction, the woman advanced +into the cellar, her head thrust forward, with her thin grey hair pushed +behind her ears, which twitched and seemed on the alert to catch the +faintest sound. Close behind her followed a cropped poodle-dog, which +now ran forward, when at a menacing gesture it half stood up, but the +raised hand made it shrink down instantly, and crouching to the earth it +crawled for a few moments and then lay motionless, while its mistress, +as if walking in the steps of the man, nimbly examined the cellar, even +peering behind and in the great butt, which her thrust-in hand showed +her was nearly full of water. + +She then softly made her way to the dark arch, and with one hand holding +by the side leaned in and tried to penetrate the darkness, but without +avail; when, muttering softly to herself, she stepped in, but only to +pass out the next moment shaking her head, as with one hand she busily +searched her pocket, from which she drew forth a box of matches. +Stepping once more beneath the arch she struck a match upon the damp +wall, and a long phosphorescent line of light shone feebly out, but the +match did not blaze. + +Impatiently throwing down the splint of wood, the woman tried another +and another, but without effect, till she rubbed one upon the outside of +the box, when it ignited silently, and illumined the place for a little +distance round, when eagerly catching up the tiny splints thrown down +she lit first one and then another, and as they burned their brief span +a hasty examination was made. Everywhere the same features: old +cobwebbed wine-bins, damp and fungoid growths, and though the woman +peered even into the bin where the man had so lately crawled, nothing +presented itself to her hurried gaze more than in the others, and as her +last lit splint burned out she stepped lightly back to the entrance. + +As she stood within the front cellar she turned once more to gaze down +the dark place she had quitted, when a low grating noise struck her ear, +and starting back she was about to run to the steps; but, making an +effort over herself, she stood, trembling, and listened. + +The noise continued for a few seconds, then came the sound as of clothes +rustling against a wall, then the heavy breathing, the grating once +more, and then silence as, turning her back to both entrances, the woman +stole softly to where her dog lay crouching upon the damp floor. + +The next moment a sharp yelp and a succession of howls came from the +stricken dog as the woman caught it by the thick curled hair of its +neck, and beat it savagely. + +"Ah, then, _mechant chien_, bad tog, how I have looked for you!" she +cried. "Why do you steal down here? There, there, there!" and each +word was followed by a blow, while the wretched little animal lay +cowering and yelping on the ground, till, lifted by its ears, the skin +seemed drawn out of place, the eyes elongated, and the poor brute, now +silent, the most abject specimen of canine misery imaginable. + +There was a quick step behind the woman, and, as if surprised, she +started, and turned to gaze at the evil face behind her, for the man had +stepped close to the entrance-door. + +"Ah! Meester Jarker, but you did frighten me. My bad tog he runs away. +What shall I do wis him?" + +The man looked keenly at the speaker, and slowly drew a large +clasp-knife, which he opened, and the woman could hardly repress a +shudder as there in the dim light she saw him run his thumb along the +edge. + +"Ah, yes!" she said with a half-laugh; "he deserves, but I cannot spare +him; I must teach him better than to come into uzzer people's house. I +look everywhere before I think of dis cellar." + +The man did not speak, but glanced first at the mistress, then at the +dog, and then at his knife and the great butt, and then involuntarily +his suspicious looks turned to the dark arch of the inner cellar, when +once more their eyes met in a long penetrating stare. + +"I once knowed somethin' as got its throat cut for coming into this here +cellar. I ain't sure, but I think that 'ere was a dawg," growled the +man. + +"O yes, he must not come any more, Meester Jarker; but you will not cut +my troat. O, no," laughed the woman jeeringly, as sending her dog on +first, and fixing her eyes upon the man, she slowly backed out of the +cellar. "O, no, for we will both be good and come no more." + +As she slowly made her way to the cellar-stairs, the man stood looking +after her; but as she mounted them he followed softly, and listened till +he heard her rustle along the passage, when he slipped through the +cellar and caught sight of her from the rusty grating as she crossed the +court, when he once more went back to the dark arch and looked about +him. + +All at once his keen eye caught sight of something upon the floor--a +newly-burned scrap of match, and snatching it up, he held it to his +cheek to try and detect whether it was dry or damp. It seemed to be +dry, so after once more going to the door, and from thence to the +stairs, to make out whether he was sure to be free from interruption, he +returned hastily, drew forth a tin match-box, lit a scrap of wax-candle +from his pocket, and then shading the light with his cap and carefully +examining the floor, he picked up three more tiny pieces of half-burned +match, lying here and there amongst the blackened dirt and sawdust. +These scraps he carefully placed in his pocket along with the piece of +candle, and then hurried out, with his lips drawn away from his teeth, +and his face wearing a diabolically savage aspect. But the next moment +he gave his head a shake, and stole softly up the stairs muttering: + +"It must have been arter the dawg." + +Mr William Jarker walked out into the court with his boots on now, and +his hands very far down in his pockets, and then made his way into the +Lane, where he paused in doubt as to whether he should go to the right +or to the left; but as in the latter direction there was a policeman, +Mr Jarker betook himself to the right, and made his way into the +Strand, now nearly empty, while church-spire and chimney-pot stood out +clear in the unsmoked morning air. But the street-sweepers were busy, +the butchers' carts from westward came rattling along, bound for +Newgate-market; watercress-girls tramped by from Farringdon, making up +their dark-green bunches as they walked; while every now and then a red +newspaper-cart dashed by with its universal budget for the various +railway termini. London was waking again, the great heart was beating +fast, and the streams of life beginning to ebb and flow through the +street-veins of the City. + +But all this affected Mr Jarker very little, he only seemed interested +at times during his walk, being apparently in a very contemplative mood. +Once he half-stopped as a tall, dark, fierce-eyed woman walked hastily +by in company with a slightly-formed girl; but they noticed him not, and +were soon out of sight, while Mr Jarker continued his walk, with eyes +directed at the ground, as if he thought that being an early bird he +must get the first peck at the worms--worms that might take the form of +some valuable waif. However, not meeting with any reward from the earth +he turned his eyes heavenward, where he could see no waifs, but an +occasional stray in the shape of a pigeon, darting across the clear +strip of atmosphere above his head, or settling upon the housetop, and +so much did these gentle birds attract his notice, that he would now and +then stop, and inserting a couple of tolerably clean, soft, unworked +fingers in his mouth, whistle to them. + +For the pigeons are many in London, and at early morn single birds may +be seen darting in swift flight like airy messengers; flocks may be seen +in circle round their home, or cooing in company upon the tower of some +lofty church--one of the many hidden amidst the labyrinths of bricks and +mortar--cooing softly sweet notes, heard plainly now, but soon to be +drowned in the roar of the busy streams of life ebbing and flowing +through the streets; now but a gentle hum as of a honey-seeking bee, but +soon increasing in intensity as the bees swarm. + +There was no help for it this time, for suddenly turning a corner, Mr +Jarker come upon a sergeant and a dozen policemen walking with measured +step, on their way to relieve those who had been on duty through the +night. + +"I'm gallussed!" muttered Mr Jarker, trying to look unconcerned, and +slouching on; and it was observable that though Mr Jarker looked +straight before him and whistled, the policemen, one and all, looked +very hard at Mr Jarker, as if they knew him and felt hurt at his pride; +while one man was even seen to wink to himself, and smile a very +peculiar, hard smile--the kind of smile only seen upon policemen's +faces, and one that means so much that its interpretation would be a +task of difficulty. + +"I'm gallussed!" muttered Mr Jarker again, when he was well past the +men in uniform, and then, apparently satisfied with the length of his +morning walk, he took a short cut to make his way back to +Bennett's-rents, while, upon thus once more having his thoughts directed +homeward, he again muttered--"It must have been arter the dawg." + +Volume One, Chapter IV. + +WITH THE DRAGON'S TEETH. + +In the gloomiest part of that gloomy street called Carey, and in the +darkest corner of his printing-office, sat Septimus Hardon. The +dragon's teeth and their appurtenances lay around, but all thickly +covered with that strange black dust peculiar to the region; the dust +compounded of who can tell what, as it rests on every ledge, and settles +thickly upon every article in room or workshop, office or chamber. +Business had not prospered with Septimus, though his place looked +business-like, save for the animation that a few moving figures would +have lent to it, while for position it was all that could be desired. +But the star of Septimus Hardon was not in the ascendant. With the +knowledge full upon him that he must work to keep the wife and child he +had taken to his breast upon leaving Somesham, he had adopted the trade +which seemed most congenial from the little knowledge that he possessed; +but as the years passed on, leaving him poorer, and with increased +expenses, he grew hopeless, helpless, and, if it were possible, less +fitted than ever for fighting his way amidst the busy throngs of the +great city. At times, almost in despair, he would go forth into the +streets of the busy hive and canvass for work; but he always carried +with him an atmosphere of his own, so quiet, strange, and retiring a +manner, that his very appearance invited either pity or rebuff, and +often and often, when tired out, he would return to his wife for the +comfort that she, grown more sickly than ever, could ill afford to give. + +But Septimus seldom complained, and there was always a pleasant smile +for Lucy Grey, now grown a blooming girl, the mainstay of the family for +cheerfulness, and the constant attendant of her invalid mother; and, in +spite of her years, almost taking the place of parent to the two +children, the fruit of Septimus Hardon's marriage. + +And now, after long years of straggling, Septimus sat thinking of the +state of his affairs, of the rent he had to make up, and the silence of +his father in spite of the many humble appeals that he had made to him +for help. Mattering and calculating, with a piece of paper and a +pencil, he suddenly stopped short, for he saw that he was not alone, and +shuffling off his high stool he hurried towards the new-comer, in the +hope that some solicitor had sent orders for some large amount of work, +or that, better still, an estimate was wanted for a new magazine. + +"Any chance of a job, sir?" said the new-comer, who might have been +Septimus Hardon twenty years older, and more shabby. There was `old +compositor' oozing out of him at every corner, and the corners in his +person were many; he smelt of stale tobacco-smoke, and he was taking +almost his last pinch of snuff out of a dirty piece of paper, with his +long, lithe, active fingers as Septimus Hardon approached him. A shabby +black frock-coat was buttoned tightly to his chin; his shiny black +trousers had the gloss of age thick upon them; Wellington boots were +upon his feet that rivalled his tall hat for dilapidations; old, sallow, +dirty, and wild-looking, he was not the man a master would have employed +unless from some latent idea that he suited the district. "Any chance +of a job, sir?" + +Septimus Hardon shook his head and sighed, which was, to say the least +of it, unbusiness-like. + +The old man echoed the sigh, leaned one hand upon the case of type at +his elbow, and began to finger the letters, bringing up the bright +unused types from the bottom of the boxes. He then sighed again, took +in at one glance the fittings of the office, and ended by fixing his +eyes upon the owner. + +"Might do a deal of work with all this, sir." + +Septimus Hardon nodded drearily, and sighed again, instead of promptly +ordering the man off his premises. + +"Yes; should be glad of an hour's work or so, sir. Seems hard here in +this world of ours that when a man's ready and willing to work he can't +get it to do, sir; don't it?" + +Septimus nodded, and looked hard at the man, thinking how his was after +all the worse lot. + +"I'm faint, sir," continued the old printer, "and hungry, and hard up;" +and then he looked down at his clothes with a dreary smile upon his +grim, unshorn face. + +"I would give you work with pleasure," said Septimus; "but I might as +well close the office for all that comes to my share." + +The man scraped the last of his snuff out of the shabby piece of +newspaper, and lost it all beneath his long dirty finger and +thumb-nails; when, not to disappoint his itching organ, he ran a lean +finger along a ledge where dust lay thick, and administered it to his +nose in an absent way, snapped his fingers loudly to get rid of the +residue, and then slowly turned to go; but, on reaching the door, he +faced round again: + +"If you'd stand an advance of a shilling, sir, I'd come honestly another +time and work it out; for I _am_ hard up, sir, and no mistake." + +Mistake there certainly was none; but shillings were then scarce things +with Septimus Hardon. A shilling, the sum tossed carelessly to the +cabman for a few hundred yards' ride, meant, perhaps, the dinner of +himself and family; and he knew in his heart that the odds were very +long against his ever seeing man or shilling again; but there was so +great a knowledge of want in his heart that he could not bear to see it +in others, and almost the last shilling in his pocket was slipped into +the visitor's hand. + +The old printer took the money with his trembling fingers; looked at it, +then at the donor; tried to speak, but choked over it; and then, with +something like a maundering tear in each eye, he shuffled out of the +office, taking with him: The solicitor's work; The magazine estimate; +and, most needed of all, Septimus Hardon's shilling. + +There was so little weight in the pocket before, that the shilling was +not missed; and in spite of the black look of his affairs there was +something in the act which made Septimus Hardon's heart feel light as +his pocket, as, thrusting his papers into the desk and locking it, he +went and stood before a piece of looking-glass and stretched his face to +take out the care-wrinkles, smiled two or three times to give a pleasant +tarnish to his countenance, and then, loudly humming a tune, he hurried +up to the first-floor, where Mrs Septimus, Lucy, and the children, were +located. + +Carey-street was a most desirable place for residence or business, as +any landlord would have told you in the old days, before the houses I +write of were carted away by contractors, and huge law-courts threatened +in their stead. Lucy Grey knew the place now by heart. There was +generally something out of the common way to be seen there, in spite of +the place being so retired and its echoes so seldom disturbed by +carriages, unless by those of the judges, when coachman and footman +thought it advisable to wash down the legal dust of the place by copious +draughts of porter at the Barley Mow or the Blue Horse. The dust-cart-- +that hearse for bearing off the remains of many a dancing, merry, cheery +fire--might be seen there in the morning; and at every cloud of dust +raised by the emptying of the fantail man's basket, scraps of parchment +and torn folios of cold, bitter cold crabbed writing, were caught up by +the fierce winds of the place, and away they went scudding down the +street, to the amusement of Septimus Hardon's children; for the mocking +wind tossed the scraps on high, as if to show how light and empty they +were. Interesting words they were too, mostly about "our client" and +his "heirs, executors, administrators, and assigns;" while of a morning +the man whom Septimus Hardon himself knew well as a class, "our client" +himself, might be seen in the streets; now early in his suit--Chancery +suit, perhaps,--wrapped in it and looking busy and important, glossy and +shiny, and, on the whole, apparently liking it. Now with the suit old +and shabby, with the pocket-holes frayed and worn with the passage in +and out of papers--papers always without end, while the owner crept +along, dejected and dismal as Septimus himself, ready at times to enter +his office, and sit down and make him the repository of the fact that he +hoped the Lord Chancellor or his Vice will give judgment next week. Now +he went along, silent and thoughtful; now he brightened up and became +energetic, and gesticulated to an audience composed of the apple-woman +at the corner, who sat there beneath the lamp summer and winter, like +some dowdy old hen in a nest, for her lower extremities were all tightly +tucked in a worn sieve-basket. + +"Our client" generally went into Carey-street to eat his sandwiches; now +looking crumby, now crusty, as the case might be, while he paced +irresolutely up and down, or round into the Lane or Portugal-street, or +even into the Fields for a change, to gaze at the trees beyond those +railings, upon every spike of which a disappointed or broken heart might +be stuck by way of ornament. As before said, "our client" had generally +plenty of papers with him; some yellow and frayed, some new, but all +carefully tied with red tape, which by its friction has a wonderful +effect upon black-kid gloves, soon wearing out the fingers, as the +papers are untied in doorways for reference while the tape-string is +held in the mouth. + +"Our client" was decidedly the principal object of interest in +Carey-street; but there were thin, clever, cold-looking lawyers; thin, +cold, and underpaid clerks, blue-bag bearing; portly thick clerks, warm, +glossy, and gold-chained, red-bag bearing--bags gasping and choking +fearfully with their contents--choking horribly with the papers thrust +into them, sticking out of their very mouths; long-headed barristers, +whose eyes seemed to have turned cold and oysterish--meaningless, and as +if gazing within--men upon whose long heads briefs rained incessantly; +men in gowns, men bewigged, and with the insignia of their rank put on +all ways--straight, crooked, here awry, and there awry, with the frontal +apex descending upon the nose, and the caudal beauty behind raised at +right angles to display the undergrowth, black, brown, grey, or sandy, +or perhaps resting upon the nape of the wearer's neck, with the tails +beating a white powdery tune upon his back, like a hare's feet upon a +tabor; shabby witnesses, shabby porters, shabby inhabitants; dirt +everywhere, and a sharp, gritty, pouncey dust flying before the wind to +bring tears into the eyes. + +Lucy Grey knew all this by heart, and so did Septimus Hardon's +children--lessons learned from the windows, or during their walks, when +Lucy showed them the wonders of the shops at hand, and that +ever-banging, restless door where the shabby law-writers went in and +out, night and day; the three wigs resting upon as many blockheads-- +wooden blockheads--new, fresh, and cool for their future wearers; the +works in the law-booksellers', all bound in dismal paper, or +Desert-of-Sahara-coloured leather--law-calf--Tidd on this, Todd on that, +Equity Reports, Chancery Practice, Common Law, Statutes at Large, +Justice of the Peace, Stone's Manual. Law everywhere: Simson, tin +deed-box manufacturer; Bodgers, deeds copied; Screw, law-writer; Bird, +office-furniture warehouse--valuations for probate; S Hardon, legal and +general printer; while, like a shade at the end of the street, stood the +great hospital, where the wan faces of patients might be seen gazing up +at the sky, towards where the clouds scudded before the wind, hurrying +to be once more in the country. Away they went, each one a very +chariot, bearing with it the thoughts of the prisoned ones--captives +from sickness, or poverty, or business. There were faces here at the +hospital that would smile, and heads that would nod to Septimus Hardon's +little golden-haired children when Lucy held them up; when perchance the +patient went back to sit upon some iron bedstead's edge, and tell some +fellow-sufferer of the bright vision she had seen,--a vision of angels +in the legal desert. + +With such surroundings, no one upon entering Septimus Hardon's rooms +would have been surprised to see Mrs Septimus careworn, and lying upon +a shabby couch, and the children slight and fragile. The rooms were +close, heavy, and dull, heavy-windowed, heavy-panelled, earthy-smelling, +and cryptish, as though the dust of dead-and-gone suitors lay thick in +the place. There was but little accommodation for the heavy rent he +paid; and Septimus Hardon looked uneasily from face to face, crushing +down the sorrowful thoughts that tried to rise; for in that close room +there was not space for more than one complaining soul. Mrs Septimus +told of her troubles often enough; and Septimus felt that his task was +to cheer. Still, it was hard work when he had to think of the landlord +and the rent; the landlord who, when he complained of this said rent, +told him to look at the situation; which Septimus Hardon did, and +sighed; and then, by way of raising his spirits, took down and read the +copies of the letters he had from time to time sent to his father, +unanswered one and all; and then he sighed again, and wondered how it +would all end. + +Volume One, Chapter V. + +A PAIR OF SHOES. + +This is a world of change; but the time was when you could turn by Saint +Clement's Church, from the roar of the waves of life in the Strand, and +make your way between a baked-potato can--perspiring violently in its +efforts to supply the demands made upon it--and a tin of hot eels, +steaming in a pasty mud; then under a gateway, past old-clothes shops +and marine-store dealers; thread your way along between crooked +tumbledown houses in dismal fever-breeding lanes, which led you into the +far-famed region of Lincoln's-inn, where law stared you in the face at +every turn. It will doubtless behave in as barefaced a manner to you at +the present day; but you will have to approach it by a different route, +for the auctioneer's hammer has given those preliminary taps that herald +the knocking-down of a vast collection of the houses of old London; and +perhaps ere these sheets are in the press, first stones will be laid of +the buildings to occupy the site as law-courts. But take we the region +as it was, with its frowsy abodes and their tenants. They are clipped +away now; but in every direction, crowding in upon the great inns of +court, were dilapidated houses pressing upon it like miserable suitors +asking for their rights, or like rags of the great legal gown. But it +is a rare place is Lincoln's-inn--a place where the law is rampant, and +the names of its disciples are piled in monuments upon the door-posts--a +place where you may pick your legal adviser according to the length of +your purse. The doors stand open, and the halls are cold, cheerless, +and echoing, while the large carven keystone looks down at the entering +client with its stony eyes, which seem to wink and ogle as the sly, +sneering, tongue-thrusting image apparently chuckles at the folly of +man. The cold shivers are always out in Lincoln's-inn, and they attack +you the moment you enter the precincts; probably they are spirits of +past-and-gone suitors, in past-and-gone suits, wandering to avenge +themselves upon the legal fraternity by freezing the courage of +litigants and turning them back when about to perform that wholesale +shovelling of an estate into the legal dust-cart known as "throwing it +into Chancery." Cold stone posts stand at intervals along the sides of +the square, looking, in their grey, bleak misery, like to stripped and +bare clients waiting for redress at their legal advisers' doors. A +dreary place for an assignation, if your friend possesses not the virtue +of punctuality; for the eye wanders in vain for some pleasant oasis +where it may rest. You have not here in autumn those melancholy, +washed-out flowers--the chrysanthemums of the Temple, but you may gaze +through prison-like bars at soot-dusted grass--verdure apparently +splashed with ink from the surrounding offices; at the trees, adapted by +nature to the circumstances of their fate; for, as in the arctic zone +the thinly-clad animals grow furry as a protection from the cold, so +here, in this region of law costs and voluminous writing, the trees put +forth twigs and sprays of a sharp spiky nature, a compromise between +porcupine penholders and a _chevaux de frise_, to enable them to set +attack at defiance. + +Enter one house here, and you would have found upon the ground-floor +your QC or Serjeant--Brother So-and-so as he is so affectionately called +by the judge; upon the first-floor, your substantial firms of family +solicitors, deep in title, lease, covenant, and tenancy in every form or +shape--men who set such store by their knowledge that they dole it out +to you at so much per dozen words--words adulterated with obsolete +expressions repeated _ad nauseam_; while upon the second-floor you would +probably find firms of sharp practitioners, ready for business in any +shape; and, as elsewhere through the house, the names of the occupants +were painted upon the doors--black letters upon a parchment ground. + +But the house in question was not entirely legal in its occupants, for +if you had been ascending the stairs, before you had gone far, a loud +sniff would have made you raise your head sharply towards the skylight, +beneath which, sitting, or rather perched, upon the top balustrade, +would have been visible the doughy, big, baby-like face of Mrs Sims, +strongly resembling, with the white-muslin wings on either side, a +fat-cheeked cherub, freshly settled after some ethereal flight. + +Mrs Sims was the lady who did for those gentlemen of the house who +wanted doing for, took in parcels, answered bells, and was also +well-known in the neighbourhood as a convenient party in times of +sickness, being willing to nurse a bachelor gentleman of the legal +profession, or one of the poor fraternity of the rags around. She had +stood at many a bedside had Mrs Sims, and seen the long sleep come to +many a weary, broken-hearted suitor, and she had sniffed and sobbed at +the recital of their miseries, offering the while such consolation as +she could from the depths of a very simple but very honest heart. + +After another loud sniff, and a curtsey performed invisibly, except that +the cherubic head was seen to bob out of sight, and then apparently +re-perch itself upon the balustrade, Mrs Sims would say "At home," or +"Not at home," as the case might be. Then, as you left the staircase, +the head would disappear, and, summer or winter, Mrs Sims might be +heard refreshing herself with a blow at the fire by means of a very +creaky, asthmatic pair of bellows. + +Mrs Sims was busy, and had made visible the whole of her person, as +standing at the door she pointed out into the square, calling the +attention of one of _her_ lodgers, as she termed them, to a passer-by. + +"Here, you sir; fetch a cab--a four-wheeler," shouted the lodger. "No; +confound your bird--I don't want birds, I want a cab." + +The person addressed was the inhabitant of Bennett's-rents--the big, +slouchy, large-jawed gentleman, in a fur cap and a sleeved-waistcoat, +already known to the reader. He carried a small birdcage, tied in a +cotton handkerchief, beneath his arm, while another spotted handkerchief +wrapped his bull-neck, where it was pinned with a silver-mounted +Stanhope lens, which was apparently regarded as a rare jewel. Upon +being first called, he commenced expatiating upon the qualities of the +bird, whose cage-envelope he began to unfasten, until so unceremoniously +checked by the gentleman who summoned him. + +"You're a fine sort, you are," growled the man as he went off in search +of the cab; "and if I warn't as dry as sorduss, I'd see you furder afore +I'd fetch your gallus cab, so now, then. My name's Jarker, chrissen +William, that's about what my name is, stand or fall by it--come, now." + +As nobody seemed disposed to "come, now," Mr Jarker hastened his steps, +and soon returned with the cab, placed his cage behind the hall-door, +and then, under the direction of Mrs Sims, fetched down portmanteau and +bags groaning and sighing beneath their weight, and raising up a smile +of contempt upon his employer's face as he watched the fellow's actions, +and scanned his powerful development and the idleness written so plainly +upon his countenance. But soon the task was ended, the cab-door banged, +Mrs Sims had turned on a little more of her laughing-gas to brighten +her features by way of valediction to the departing lodger, and then, as +she sniffed loudly, the cab drove off, leaving Mr Jarker spitting upon +that curiosity, an honestly-earned sixpence in his hand. + +"How's the missus? why, she's okkard, and I don't s'pose you a-coming +would do her any good, and she's a-going to spend a shillin' in +ankerchers for someone as has a cold in her head, that's what she's +a-goin' to do," said Mr Jarker, with a grin at Mrs Sims, and then he +watched the affronted dame as she sniffed her way upstairs; but before +she had reached the second flight, Mr Jarker had grinned again, drawing +his lips back from his white teeth with a smile that more resembled a +snarl. + +Mr William Jarker, birdcatcher, fancier of pigeons, and of anything +else which came to his net, stood listening to the sniffs and receding +footsteps of Mrs Sims, placed the sixpence he had earned in the pocket +of his tight corduroys, pulled off his large, flat, fur cap, and gave +his head a scratch, thereby displaying a crop of hair which it would +have been useless to attempt to brush or part, for it was decidedly +short, and the barber who had last operated had not been careful, but +left the said hair nicky and notchy in places. However, the style gave +due prominence to the peculiar phrenological development of Mr Jarker's +bumps, while his ears stood out largely, and with an air that suggested +cropping as an improvement to them as well, more especially since there +was a great deal of the bull-dog in his appearance. + +Mr Jarker replaced his cap, took his little birdcage from behind the +door, and was just moving off, when a barrister came out of one of the +lower rooms in full legal costume, muttering loudly, and evidently +reciting a part of the performance he was about to go through. + +Upon hearing the door open, Mr Jarker turned his head, and then gave an +involuntary shudder as he moved off, while the counsel followed closely +behind, wrapped in his brief, and at times talking loudly: + +"Instead, m'lud, of the case being tried in this honourable court, +m'lud, devoted as it is to civil causes, the defendant should be +occupying the felon's dock at the Old Bailey, m'lud; for a more shameful +case of robbery--" + +"I'm gallussed!" muttered Mr Jarker, quickening his steps, and +perspiring profusely, as he gave a furtive glance over his shoulder at +the barrister, still rehearsing; "I'm gallussed! It didn't oughter be +allowed out in the public streets." + +Mr Jarker felt his nerves so disarranged in consequence of low diet, +that after making his way out of the Inn, across Carey-street, and into +the rags of the legal cloak, that is to say into Bennett's-rents, he +resolved to take advantage of there being a "public" at either end of +the rents, and regardless of the whooping children who dashed by him, he +went in and had "three-ha'porth" of the celebrated cream gin advertised +outside upon a blue board with golden legend. After which enricher of +his milk of human kindness, Mr Jarker wiped his mouth with the back of +his hand as he passed through the swinging doors, hugged his cage +against his ribs, muttered, "Didn't oughter be allowed in the public +streets," and then forcing a way through a noisy tribe of children, he +paused at Number 27 in the Rents--a dismal-looking old house, worse +perhaps by broad daylight than in the early dawn, when some of its +foulness had remained concealed. It had been a mansion once, in the +days of the Jameses probably, when fresh air was a more abundant +commodity in the City, and was not all used up long before it could +penetrate so narrow a thoroughfare. + +Mr Jarker slowly tramped up flight after flight of stairs till he came +to the attic-floor, when, without removing his hands from his pockets, +he kicked open the badly-hung door, and entered the bare room. + +"O, you're here agen, are yer?" he said sulkily to a dark, well-dressed +woman, in black silk and fashionable bonnet, strangely out of place in +the wretched room, whose other occupant was pale-faced, weary-looking +Mrs Jarker, whose crimply white hands betokened a very late +acquaintanceship with the washtub by the steamy window. "O, you're here +agen, are yer?" said Mr Jarker. + +"Yes, Bill," said Mrs Jarker timidly, every word she spoke seeming to +flinch and dart out of reach of hearing almost before it was uttered. +"Yes, Bill, she's come again, and we've been talking it over--and--and-- +and--if you wouldn't mind, Bill, I'd--" + +"How much?" growled Mr Jarker. + +"Five shillings," said his wife timidly; "five shillings a-week." + +"'Tain't enough," said Mr Jarker; "it's worth six. Look at the +trouble." + +Mrs Jarker looked from her husband to the stranger and back again, and +was about to speak, when her lord exclaimed roughly, "Shut Up!" + +The visitor's eyes flashed for a moment, and then she glanced hastily +round the room, her gaze resting for a moment upon the ruffianly, +bull-dog face of Jarker, and she hesitated; but another glance at the +timid, gentle countenance of his wife seemed to reassure her, and she +said hoarsely, with her look fixed upon the flinching woman, "I'll give +you six." + +"And if 'tain't paid up reg'lar, I'm blest if I sha'n't chuck it outer +winder, or somethin'; so look out," said Mr Jarker. + +The visitor's lips quivered, but, still gazing fixedly upon the woman, +she said in the same hoarse voice: "I shall bring the money once +a-week." + +"In advance, yer know," growled Mr Jarker. + +"Yes, yes; only be kind to it," exclaimed the visitor with something +like a sob, but without removing her eyes. + +"O, ah! in course we will. We're the right sort here, ain't we, Poll?" +growled Mr Jarker. + +"Yes, Bill," said his wife in a husky whisper. + +"And now," said Mr Bill Jarker, with what was meant for a pleasant +smile, but which consisted of the closing of his eyes, and the display +of his teeth,--"and now as we've made it all snug, you'll stand +somethin'; that's what you'll do, ain't it now?" + +Still without removing her eyes from the pale-faced woman before her, +the visitor drew a shilling from a little bead-purse, and laid it upon +the table, her lips now moving as if trying to form words for Mrs +Jarker to understand. + +"Go away now, Bill," whispered she to her husband. + +"What for?" growled Bill, untying the knots of his handkerchief with his +teeth, to set his cage at liberty, and nearly frightening the soul out +of the tiny, fluttering, panting body contained therein. Then, by way +of reply to a whisper, he sullenly took the shilling from the table, bit +it, spat upon it, and spun it up, before depositing it in his pocket; +made his way to the back part of the attic, where birdcages and the +paraphernalia of his profession lay thick; ascended a ladder to a trap +in the ceiling, and then, only his legs visible as he stood upon one of +the top rounds, Mr Jarker, with half his body above the tiles, busied +himself amongst his pigeons, and started them for a flight over the +houses. + +The next moment, after a hurried glance at the ceiling, where the light +streamed down past the ruffian's legs, the visitor's face was seen to +work, and, rising from her seat, she went down upon her knees before +poor Mrs Jarker, kissing her work-worn hands, and bathing them with the +tears that streamed from her eyes. + +"God--God bless you!" she whispered passionately. "O, be kind to it!" + +But Mrs Jarker could not answer for something swelling in her throat; +and the next minute she too was weeping, with her hand resting upon her +visitor's shoulder. + +This paroxysm of tears seemed to have its effect upon the visitor, for, +forcing back her own emotion, she appeared more at ease within herself, +as, gazing once more into the pale, worn, common face of the +birdcatcher's wife, she kissed her in so loving and sisterly a way, that +the tears flowed faster from Mrs Jarker's eyes. And yet, knowing full +well who was her visitor, Mrs Jarker did not shudder, but rose from her +choir, glanced timorously at the open trap, and then drew the stranger +towards a box--a common deal-box, with the blue-stained paper that had +once covered it hanging here and there in rags. She went upon her knees +now, and raised the creaking lid, when an impatient movement of the feet +upon the ladder made her start up hastily, and close the lid again. But +a long, loud whistling from above showed her that Mr Jarker was still +busy with his birds; so once more raising the lid, the poor creature +thrust her hand down to a well-known spot beneath the few rags of +clothes the box contained, and brought out a pair of little, stained red +boots, which she pressed passionately to her lips, the tears gushing +from her eyes the while, and a broken hysterical wail burst from her +overladen breast. But it was checked instantly, for Jarker's feet +scraped on the ladder, and the boots were hidden beneath the woman's +apron; then the whistling was heard again, and the little boots were +brought forth once more. + +A pair of tiny red boots, the only relic she had of something that was +not--something that she had once warmed within her breast--the breast +before now bruised and blackened by a ruffian hand, but beneath which +was the same warm, God-implanted love for her offspring that glows in +the bosom of the noblest of her sex. + +For a moment or two the younger woman gazed in the other's eyes with a +soft, tender, pitying look--a look in this case of true sympathy; and +the hand of the lost rested lovingly upon Mrs Jarker's breast as she +whispered softly: "How old was it?" + +"Only a twelvemonth," was the reply, followed by a moan. "But perhaps +it was best--perhaps it was best." + +The visitor's hand still rested upon the other's breast, and she was +about to speak, when an impatient shuffle startled both, for it seemed +that Mr Jarker was about to descend; but he came not. And now a look +of ineffable sweetness and content came over the well-moulded features +of the visitor. She was satisfied now respecting the step she was about +to take; for Mrs Jarker's heart had been laid open to her. A true +chord of sympathy existed between them, and she could feel that her +little one would be taken to a motherly breast, and protected-- +protected; but who, she asked herself, would injure one so tender and +frail? + +But there was no time for further communion between these motherly +hearts, for a loud rasp on the ladder told that Mr Jarker was +descending, and the visitor prepared to leave. + +"You've been a-pipin' again," growled Mr Jarker to his wife, who had +hastily concealed the boots--"pipin' about that 'ere kid as has gone; +and a good thing too. Wot's the good when here's another a-coming?" and +he looked menacingly at the shivering woman. "I say," he continued to +the visitor, who now stood at the door, "you'll pay up reg'lar, and in +advance!" + +"Yes, yes!" she said hoarsely, almost fiercely, as she turned to him +with a steady contemptuous look, which made the great brute shuffle +about uneasily--"yes, yes, so long as I live;" and the next moment the +door closed upon her retreating form. + +"Long as you live? Yes; I should just think you will, or else there'll +precious soon be a kid found at somebody's door, with the perlice, cuss +'em, taking the brat to the workus.--And don't you pipe no more," he +snarled to the trembling woman, who slowly retreated to the washtub. "A +taking of it to the workus, cuss 'em," muttered Mr Jarker again, +removing his fur cap and passing his hand over his cropped head, as if +the name of the police, and their probable future duty, had reminded him +of former injuries. "Now then, you!" he shouted, as if calling his dog, +and he threw the shilling upon the table--"d'yer hear?" + +"Yes, Bill," said the woman meekly, and hastily passing her hands over +her dull red eyes before she turned to him the face from which all that +was attractive had long since fled. + +"Tripe!" said Mr Jarker. + +"Yes, Bill," said his wife. + +"Pipe and screw," growled Mr Jarker. + +"Yes, Bill," said the woman, hurriedly tying on a miserable bonnet. + +"And here, you!" + +"I wasn't going, Bill," said the woman meekly. + +"Who said you was?" growled the ruffian; "don't you be so sharp, now, +then. Now, where's that money?" + +"What money, Bill?" + +The next moment the ruffian had seized her by the front of her dress and +dragged her to him, so that she went down upon her knees. "Don't you +try to put none of your games on me. What did she give you when I was +out of sight?" And he put his black face down close to hers, as, half +from fear, half from bitterness, her lower lip worked as she tried to +keep back the tears, and to answer; but no words would come. + +"D'yer hear? What did she give yer?" + +"Nothing, Bill," whispered the woman. + +He looked at her fiercely; but though faded and lack-lustre, her eyes +blenched not, but gave him back the same true steady look that had +always shone for him since--young, ignorant, ill-taught, weak--she had +believed he cared for her, and she could be happy with him: not the +first of Eve's daughters that has made the same mistake. + +"Get up!" snarled Jarker, loosing his hold; and his wife rose hastily +without a word. + +"Pint of porter, with half-a-quartern of gin in it." + +"Yes, Bill," she whispered, and drew on a washed-out shawl. + +"And no fiddling, you know; put all the gin in." + +"Yes, Bill," said the woman, hastily taking the shilling, and descending +the creaking stairs to procure her lord's refreshments; tripe stewed, +and gin and beer, being special weaknesses of his when in funds. + +"Don't let her forget to bring some inguns, that's all," he muttered as +he listened to the retreating steps. He then crushed down the fire with +the heel of his heavy boot, and, putting his hand in his +waistcoat-pocket, his fingers came in contact with two or three scraps +of burnt match, which he took out, looked at thoughtfully, and then +burned. "She must have been arter the dawg," he muttered, and walking +to one of the lattice-windows, he opened it and framed himself as he +leaned out with his arms resting upon the rotten sill, a splinter of +which he picked off to chew. Then he gazed steadfastly across the court +at the opposite window, which was hung round with birdcages, whose +occupants twittered sweetly, while one, a lark, seemed to fill the court +with his joyous song. + +This reminded Mr Jarker of his own birds, and, stepping back growling, +he looked to see if the little cages hung over his nets all contained +water, which they did. + +"And a blessed good job for her as they do!" he muttered on finding that +his wife had performed this duty. Then walking again towards the front +he watched the opposite window, where he could see a pale, sallow face +eagerly looking at the birds, while from behind came the sharp sound as +of the lash of a whip striking the floor, followed by the shrill yelp of +a dog. + +Mr Jarker stood thoughtfully watching and listening, as if in doubt +upon some particular subject; and as he watched he pulled out that ugly +clasp-knife of his that he had opened a short time before in the cellar, +and now opening and closing it again, his brow lowered--that is, a +trifle more than usual. But he seemed to grow easier in his mind, for +he shut the knife with a snap, and thrust it into his pocket; and now he +appeared to be moved by that spirit which prompts so many people who can +hardly keep themselves to have dumb animals about their homes, probably +for the reason that the dumb brutes are faithful, and friends are few-- +who knows? + +"I think I shall have a dawg," said Mr Jarker to himself, as a louder +yelp than usual rang across the court; when he shut the window, and went +and stood gazing into the fire once more, till he heard the returning +step of his wife, when he roused himself: + +"Yes," said Mr Jarker half-aloud; "I'll have a bull-pup." + +Volume One, Chapter VI. + +THE SORROWS OF SEPTIMUS HARDON. + +With a pleasant smile upon his countenance, and a bunch of watercresses +in his hand, Septimus Hardon hummed loudly, like some jocular bee, as he +entered his rooms one day, when he ceased, for there was a visitor +gazing with sympathising eyes upon the flush-cheeked child lying upon +Mrs Hardon's arm. + +"I think you had better have advice, Mrs Hardon," said the visitor, the +Rev. Arthur Sterne, the calm, earnest, quiet-looking curate of the +neighbouring church. + +Lucy Grey, now budding into womanhood, was seated upon the floor by the +couch, with a little boy in her lap, and letting the hands of the child +on her mother's arm stray amongst the glossy tresses of her hair. + +"Advice? What? doctor?" said Septimus, gazing in his wife's anxious +face; "is Letty really ill, then?" and then in a bewildered way he began +rubbing his hands together as if washing them in emptiness, and +afterwards drying them upon nothing. + +"Let me send in a doctor," said Mr Sterne kindly, as he took his hat to +leave; "there are symptoms of fever, I think. Don't let it get too firm +a hold before you have advice." + +"Thank you, thank you; do send him, please," said Septimus helplessly. +"But--" He was about to alter his request, for just then his hand came +in contact with the light leather purse in his pocket, but the curate +had hurriedly left the room. Then taking his step-child's place by the +sofa the father parted the golden hair upon the sick girl's forehead, +and anxiously questioned Mrs Septimus respecting the illness. + +As the night came on the little one grew wild and restless, and what the +mother had taken to be but a slight childish ailment, began to assume a +form that added anxiety where it was hardly needed. The doctor had +been, and spoken Seriously, and the medicine he had sent had been +administered; but the fever seemed to increase, for the child grew +worse, starting from fitful sleeps, and calling for sister Lucy to take +something away from her. Septimus looked weakly from face to face for +comfort, and then wandered about the room, wringing his hands and trying +to think this new trouble some horrible dream. + +And so days passed--days of trouble and anxiety--during which Mrs +Septimus forgot her own ailments, and watched and nursed in turn with +Lucy. The doctor had talked as so many doctors will talk, in an +indefinite strain, which left the anxious parents in a state of doubt +and bewilderment, though it never occurred to Septimus Hardon that so +great an affliction could fall upon him, as that he should lose his +little one. + +About a week after the seizure, Mrs Septimus was watching by the child, +who, after partaking eagerly of some tea, had apparently dropped off to +sleep. + +"Take little Tom down into the office," whispered Mrs Hardon, "perhaps +she will sleep awhile if we keep her quiet." + +So Septimus Hardon, looking dazed and worn with mental anxiety, took his +boy in his arms, and Lucy being asleep after watching nearly all night, +he left Mrs Septimus with the sick child, and carried the little fellow +down into the dusty, unused office, where, taking advantage of his +father's abstraction, the child proceeded to make a heap of type upon +the floor, thoroughly covering himself with the black dust, and even +going so far as to try the flavour of some of the pieces of metal. + +At last the little one began to grow tired, and tried to gain the +attention of its father--no light task, for with his face buried in his +hands he was seated at his desk trying to see his way clearly through +the future--a task so many of us attempt, and some even fancy we have +achieved, but only to find the falseness of our hopes when the days we +looked forward to have come upon us. + +But the child was at last successful, and as Septimus raised his head +from the desk, he became aware of the presence of the old man of a few +days before, and apparently as far from prosperity as ever. + +"Nothing doing; no work," said Septimus. + +"Any little job will do, sir," said the old man. "Just come to get out +of debt, that's all. What's it to be, sir?" + +"Another time," said Septimus. "I've--" + +A loud cry from above cut short his words, and darting to the door, +forgetting his customary indecision, he bounded up the stairs, while, +finding himself left with a stranger, the little fellow burst into a +dismal wail. + +"O, Sep, Sep, Sep!" cried his wife, throwing herself into his arms, "is +it always to be sorrow; is there always to be a black cloud over our +lives?" then tearing herself away she frantically caught the child from +Lucy, who, pale and frightened, sat nursing. + +"Run, run, Lucy!" cried Septimus hoarsely as he caught a glimpse of his +blue-eyed darling's face; "the doctor, quick!" and then, as the +frightened girl ran from the room, he threw himself upon his knees +beside his sobbing wife, praying that they might be spared this new +sorrow. But before the doctor could reach Carey-street the agonised +couple had seen the little weary head cease its restless tossings from +side to side, the blue eyes unclose, dilate, and gaze wildly, as if at +some wondrous vision; then a plaintive shuddering sigh passed from the +pale lips, and Septimus Hardon and his wife were alone, though they knew +it not. + +The Rev. Arthur Sterne was at the door as Lucy returned, overtaken by +the doctor's brougham at the same moment; but to the agony of all the +man of medicine gave one glance at the little form in its mother's lap, +shook his head, and left the room on tiptoe. + +"O, sir, Mr Sterne," cried Lucy, turning with quivering lips and +streaming eyes to the clergyman, "tell me, tell me," she sobbed, +clasping one of his hands in hers; "tell me--is it, is it death?" + +There was silence in the room for a few moments, and then placing his +disengaged hand upon the fair head of the weeping girl, the curate, in +low reverent tones, but loud enough to thrill the hearts of the living, +said, "No, it is life--the life eternal!" + +And now, amidst the bitter sobs of those who mourned, the curate stepped +softly from the room, and left the house with bended head. Then there +was silence, till a step was heard upon the stairs, which stopped by the +partly-closed door, where stood the old compositor with little Tom +asleep in his arms, the bright, soft, golden locks mingling like dashes +of sunshine with the old man's ragged, grizzly whiskers. For a few +moments the old printer stood gazing into the room, when, waking to the +consciousness of the affliction that had befallen its inmates, he +turned, and with halting step descended to the office. + +At last the recollection of the living came to the stricken mother's +heart, and wildly sobbing as she clasped Lucy in her arms, she asked for +her boy. + +Half-stunned with this new shock, Septimus Hardon staggered down to +where he had left the child, having till his wife spoke forgotten its +very existence; but when he reached the office, stricken as he was, he +could not but stop to gaze at the group before him. Seated upon a low +stool, beneath the dingy skylight of the back-office, where the light +that filtered through the foul panes looked dim and gloomy, was the old +man with the child in his lap, gazing, too, intently down at the little +fair face which so wonderingly looked up into his own--not fearfully, +but with a puzzled expression, as if some problem were there that the +little brain could not solve; while the biscuit the tiny fist held was +hardly touched, but told its own tale of how the old man had carried the +child to the nearest baker's for its purchase. The printer's back was +towards Septimus as he stood in the doorway, and as he listened the old +man was apostrophising the child: + +"Why, God bless your little innocent face, this is me, old Matt--Matthew +Space--old Quad, as they call me; a battered, snuff-taking, drinking old +scamp; and here have I been these two hours drinking innocence, and +feeling my heart swell till it cracked and the scales fell off. Why-- +save and bless his little heart, sir!" he cried, for the child saw its +father and sprang up--"see how good he is! Work's slack, sir; let him +stop, for it seems to do one good--it does indeed, sir. Why, how rich +you must be!" + +Septimus Hardon thought mournfully of the treasure he had just lost, +and, taking the child, he hurriedly bore it to its mother, telling the +old man to wait. + +Matthew Space, compositor, waited until the owner of the office came +down, when, friendless as he was, Septimus Hardon was glad to turn even +to this rough old waif of the streets in his helplessness. + +"Why, I wouldn't do that, sir," said the old man, after listening for +some time in silence; "you may want it to-morrow." + +"But I want money to-day," cried Septimus fiercely. "Will you give me +money? will the world outside? will anybody here in this city of wealth +trust me the money to bury my child? Would you have me go to the +parish?" He stopped, and the animation that had flashed into his face +began to fade again, to leave it dull and despairing. + +"Why, as to the first, sir," said the old man, "I would, upon my soul, +if I had it,--I would indeed; but as to the people outside--" and he +began to shake his head grimly. "Poor men have no friends, sir--as a +rule, you know--as a rule." + +"None!" said Septimus bitterly; "none!" + +"But it would be a pity," said the old man; "such a new, well-cut letter +too; and you'll get next to nothing for it. Gave 'most half-a-crown a +pound for it, I dessay?" + +Septimus nodded. + +"Thought so, sir, and--well, if you must, sir, I'll help you all the +same, and gladly--only too gladly; but I don't like to see it pawned or +sold. You helped me, sir, when it was harder with me than ever it was +in my life before, sir; and damme, sir, I'll sell my shirt, sir, to help +you, if it will do any good. In the morning, then, sir, I'll be here +with a barrow." + +"A barrow?" said Septimus. + +"Yes; you know, type's heavy stuff." + +"Matthew Space," said the snuffly old fellow, screwing his face up as if +with disgust, when he stood once more in Carey-street, "Matthew Space, +follower of the profession of noble Caxton, as a rule, sir, I respect +you. I don't despise you for your poverty, or your seedy coat, for you +are a man of parts and education; but at the present moment, sir, I'm +disgusted with you. You have been drinking innocence from the tiny +prattling lips of that little child--God bless it!" he cried earnestly, +dashing a maundering tear from one eye--"God bless it! a child like that +would have made another man of me; and now that poor fellow has lost one +like it. But there, sir, I'm disgusted with your ways: a man does what +nine hundred and ninety-nine men out of a thousand wouldn't do--lends +you almost his last shilling--and now, sir, that an opportunity offers +of helping him in his trouble, you make empty professions, false +promises, and offer to sell your shirt, you humbug, you--to sell your +shirt, sir, when you haven't got a shirt in the world!" + +"That's true enough," said the old man, after walking a little way, +"true, if it ain't decent; but it's a kind of poverty that buttons will +always conceal, which they won't if it's a coat; while if there is +anything that looks beggarly, it's the want of boots. I'd sooner be +without a hat any day in the week. But you're taking fresh copy, Matt +Space, before you've finished the old, and leaving out your points." + +The old man cocked his hat very fiercely over the left ear, stuck his +hands into his coat-tail pockets, and walked on for some distance, +muttering, "Poor fellow--good sort--trump." All at once he stopped +short before a lamp-post, drew his hands from his pockets, and took a +pinch of snuff; he then slapped the cold iron upon the shoulder, and, as +if addressing the post confidentially, he exclaimed: + +"His name's Hardon, sir; but he isn't a hard un. He's as soft as +butter, sir, easy as a glove, sir, deep as a halfpenny plate. You might +turn him inside out like a stocking. He'd never get on here, he's too +honest. Business! why, he's about as business-like as--as--as--well, +sir, as I am. He'd never any business to be in business; but after all, +what's the good of being a business man, and sharp, and knowing, and +deep, if it's to be hammering on, beating out money day after day to +make a hard case for a man's heart, so as there ain't room for a kind +thought to get in, or a gentle word to come out?" + +Old Matt stuck his hat a little more on one side, and giving the post a +parting slap, he left the freshly-lit light, quivering and winking down +at him as he gave it a nod, and then he crossed the road diagonally to +the next post, which he favoured as the last. + +"Damme, sir," he cried, "don't tell me. I ought to know what the world +is, and I think I do. That man's a trump, sir, if I know anything of +character. Soft? well, suppose he is. Don't tell me: men were never +made to be sharp-edged tools, chiselling and cutting one another as hard +as ever they can, while the keenest ones chisel the most. They weren't +meant for it; but that's what they are. And what's worse, they do so +much under the cloak of religion, and snuffle and cant, and tell you to +do the same. Things are all wrong, sir, all wrong; and I'm wrong, and +according to some people, I'm I don't know what; but there, sir; there; +I've done." + +Old Matt walked to another post, to prove he had not done, and began +again; but someone coming along the pavement, he shuffled off to the +public-house he frequented in Bell-yard, where he discoursed for long +enough upon human nature in general, to the great delight of his +audience, till his pint of porter was finished, when he hurried off +through the wet streets to his lodging. + +Volume One, Chapter VII. + +THE DOCTOR AND HIS DAME. + +"A tom-cat, smooth-coated, purring rascal," said old Octavius when he +heard the news. "_Doctor_ Hardon, indeed; _doctor_, bah!" And many of +the townspeople of Somesham, though they did not use Octavius Hardon's +language, agreed with him in spirit, and sneered at the new doctor's +visit to Scotland, and the paragraph that by some means found its way +into the paper, congratulating the people on the acquisition to their +town of a physician. Of course the doctor himself did not know of its +existence until it was pointed out to him at one of the public meetings, +when he looked perfectly astonished, and declared that it was a matter +that he meant to have kept a profound secret from everybody. However, +as it was made so public, and in such a manner, of course he felt +himself bound to take steps to inform his friends and patients that the +fact of his being a physician should make no difference, that he looked +upon the degree merely in the light of an honour; and hoped for many +years to come to be the simple country apothecary, in whose humble skill +his fellow-townsmen would have confidence. Guinea-fees and +prescriptions had never been in his thoughts, the honour having been +completely thrust upon him, so he said, for he knew that he could +command a practice as a country apothecary while he would have starved +as a physician. For he had practised for many years in Somesham, while +he was greatly annoyed that his brother Octavius would reside there, as +the doctor told his lady, to quarrel with him and lower him in the eyes +of the people. Doctor Hardon had stood at many sick-beds in the +district; spoken smooth nothings respecting the various increases in +families which took place beneath his watchful eyes; when in every case, +whatever the sex, the child was sure to be the finest he had ever seen +in the whole course of his career as a medical practitioner. But the +doctor had also worn a great many pairs of black-kid gloves, and many a +long-flowing silk scarf upon those other occasions--at those +stopping-places of the journey of life; and ill-natured persons had been +known to declare that one of Mrs Hardon's dresses had been composed of +these long black-silk strips sewn together. But then people will be +ill-natured. + +"Thomas Hardon, Esq, MD," sat at his breakfast-table in his +dressing-gown, but his black frock-coat lay upon a chair at his side, +ready brushed, and the rest of his costume was of the correct doctorial +black. He did not even allow himself to sit down in slippers, but wore +boots of the most lustrous black until bedtime. Of an imposing +presence, with fine grey hair, a good complexion, sufficiently stout, he +was the very acme of a quiet family doctor; and even if he was not so +skilful as he might have been, there was that in his quiet ease and +assumption which often gave confidence, and insured faith in trembling +patients--matters which had before now worked wonders when the doctor's +medicine alone would have failed. The world is much given to taking +people at their own value, and undoubtedly by those who merely looked at +the surface, a much higher price would have been set upon the doctor in +that imposing suit of black, and that stiffest of stiff white +neckcloths, than upon friend Matthew Space in his black shabbiness. But +then, of course, the doctor's double gold eyeglass, gold-chain, studs, +diamond ring, and the shape of his repeater seen through the soft black +kerseymere waistcoat, added weight in people's estimation, without +taking into consideration that air of profundity, and shake of the noble +grey head, which implied so much at so little expense of thought. +People at Somesham shook their heads with the doctor, and declared him +to be a man of worth; while other people there were who shook their +heads with his brother Octavius, and considered him a sham. + +But people joined in speaking well of his wife--downright, blunt, +plain-spoken Mrs Hardon--who now sat, pale-faced and anxious, opposite +to her husband, supplying his wants, while she waited for an answer to +her last question, her hand slightly trembling as it held a letter the +doctor had lately passed to her. + +"You will let me answer this, Tom, won't you?" she said gently, with all +the motherly woman in her tones, and the hard, business, doctor's wife, +who often made up his medicines, and even prescribed in simple cases in +his absence, gone. "You will let me answer this, Tom?" + +The doctor kept his paper before his face, and read on without +condescending to reply. + +"Tom," she repeated, leaning towards him, "Tom, be tender and gentle +now, Tom; and--" + +Mrs Hardon stopped; for a maid had entered the room with a note, which +she handed to Mrs Hardon. + +"Confound you!" hissed the doctor as soon as the door was closed; and +then, instead of the mild, beaming doctorial countenance, there was his +brother's angry face scowling on his wife--"Confound you! how many times +have I told you not to `Tom' me before the servants? No, no, no! if you +will have an answer," he shouted; "let her starve--let her die--let her +jump off one of the bridges if she likes; she left me, and she may +suffer for it. She sha'n't come back here to disgrace me in my +profession." + +Mrs Hardon was not at all afraid of her husband, and in many of their +little matrimonial differences she had been known to come off the +better. The blood rose to her cheeks, and she was about to answer +angrily, but she checked herself, and, crossing over, laid her hand upon +her husband's shoulder. + +"Tom!" she whispered. + +"Damn! I tell you I won't have it!" roared the doctor. + +"Hush!" said Mrs Hardon sternly, but with a touch of softness in her +voice. "You know I was ill, Tom, when I came back from town last week." + +"Well?" said the doctor, shuffling impatiently in his seat. + +"I did not tell you the reason, Tom." + +"Well, what of that?" said the doctor savagely. + +"O, Tom!" she said, her voice breaking as she sank at his feet, "I saw +her; I met her. She passed me as I was going to my cab, wild-eyed, +pale, worn-looking; and O, Tom, if you had seen her too--seen her as I +saw her then, when I held out my arms to her and she fled away +shamefaced before me--you would have felt, as I did, as I do now, +something tugging at your heartstrings, and whispering to you that it +was your child that you did not use well, and telling you that if you +had done your duty by her she would never have gone to Octavius, and +then fled with that base villain. Tom," she continued softly, "I feel +all this. We are getting old, Tom, and what are we to say at the last +hour, what forgiveness can we ask for, if our own child is driven from +us? She hurried from me then; but see now how it has made her write. +Look at the address here; where is it? some horrible part of--O, Tom!" + +The exclamation was hardly shrieked from Mrs Hardon's lips before the +letter the doctor had snatched from her hand was blazing upon the fire, +he fiercely dragging off his dressing-gown, and preparing to put on his +black coat; while, the softness gone from her face, Mrs Hardon stood +before him frowning and hard; but far from noticing her husband's acts, +she was gazing introspectively, and trying to recall the address she had +so lately read; an address which the more she tried to bring back, the +more it seemed to glide from her mind; first a number, then a word, then +the whole, and it was gone. + +The doctor pulled on his coat by snatches, ejaculated, and went through +many of the evolutions favoured by persons who wish to impress others +with the fact that they are in a tempestuous passion; but he had +resisted the advances made by his wife when she had thrown off the mask +that years of worldliness had fixed there, and now she was ready to +engage him with his own weapons. As to his real or simulated anger, she +valued it not in the least, holding it in the most profound contempt, +while a stranger would hardly have believed her to be the same woman who +a few minutes before had kneeled at the doctor's feet. + +"I want some money before you go out," said Mrs Hardon coldly; and the +doctor started with surprise at the change the conversation had taken. +"I want some money," said Mrs Hardon in a louder key. + +"How much?" said the doctor, calming down as his wife seemed disposed to +take the upper hand. + +"Twenty-five--thirty pounds," said Mrs Hardon. + +"What for?" said the doctor. + +"What for?" said Mrs Hardon fiercely. "Not to send away--not for +_that_, but for the tradespeople's bills; since you are so proud of your +reputation--your professional reputation--have them cleared off. +Richards has sent twice, and threatens proceedings;" and she held out +the note the maid had brought in; "and now I insist upon knowing how you +stand. I will not be kept here in the dark over these speculations. I +know matters are going wrong; and do you suppose that I will sit by like +a child and see ruin come upon my home; I who was always trusted to keep +your books and purse, until you became a physician? There is something +wrong, Thomas Hardon, or there would not always be this pinching and +holding back of every sovereign. You drive me from your side--me, the +wife of five-and-thirty years--when I would be the loving woman. Now, +then, I will be the firm woman of the world, and be satisfied upon these +points at issue. You had better write me a cheque at once; for I will +not be disgraced by the tradespeople, since we are to stand so upon our +dignity." + +Doctor Hardon looked viciously at his wife, spoiling his generally +placid countenance to a degree that, had one of his best patients seen +him then, it would have been a serious loss to the doctor and a gain to +the rival practitioner; but he made no movement towards drawing the +cheque for which Mrs Hardon stood waiting, till, seeing that nothing +was to be gained, she left the room in anger; but the next minute she +had returned, to once more lay her hand gently upon the doctor's arm: + +"Have you a heart, Tom?" she whispered. "Is our old age to be an old +age of regret? Think of Octavius and his son; look at his desolate, +wretched life, and don't let ours be quite the same." + +Mrs Hardon had had a hard battle with self, and crushed down the angry +feelings that had been fighting for exit; for there was the thought of +her child in her heart--maternity asserting itself and thrusting aside +in its greatness all that was petty and contemptible; but as she stood +there appealing to the doctor the struggle grew harder. Obstinate, +bitter, cruel, the doctor masked all beneath his cold, calm, +professional aspect, treating the weeping woman with a cutting +indifference that roused her indignation thoroughly at last; and to +conceal her anger she hurried from the room, but this time not to +return. + +The doctor may have had a heart, but it was thoroughly unmoved by all +that his wife had said; in fact the appeal had come at a wrong time, +since the same post which brought the letter he had passed over to Mrs +Hardon had given him other letters whose contents he so thoroughly knew +that he had not even opened them, but, glancing at their directions, +thrust them hastily into his pocket, where they acted as so much fuel to +feed the fire of his wrath. There was something so unmistakable in the +particularly-distinct handwriting upon the envelopes--something so very +blue about the paper--that, expecting unpleasant communications, the +doctor detected them at a glance, and mentally he went over the +contents. + +The fact was the doctor was short of cash, and that through more than +one unfortunate speculation in which he had embarked. Like a great many +more men of moderate income, he had been bitten with the desire to +increase it, though the bite came in the first instance from his wife, +who scolded him fiercely when, after the MD honour had been thrust upon +him, he gave up the union practice, which entailed the loss of the +regular salary of one hundred pounds per annum. The doctor said that it +was not becoming for a physician to be the medical attendant of the +parish; and Mrs Hardon, who was then in a worldly, everyday phase, +declared that it was "all fiddlesticks' ends," when there was his cheque +regularly at certain times, while the greater part of the work could be +done by the assistant, who would do very well for the poor people. It +was a sin and a shame, she declared, though how connected with +fiddlesticks' ends was best known to herself. There was, however, +something relating to the musical science in the matter, for Mrs Doctor +Hardon kept harping upon the same string until the doctor snapped it by +furiously threatening her if another word was said about it--threats +which Mrs Hardon noticed so much that she certainly held her tongue; +and she held her hand too, and tried to annoy the doctor by keeping a +bad table, which she said so great a loss every year necessitated. Poor +woman! she little knew that the time would come when such economy would +be forced upon her. What, she asked the doctor, was honour without +money? What was the use of her being a physician's wife if they had +nothing to support it with? And, then, too for him to be such an ass-- +the doctor started and puffed out his cheeks at this--"Yes, ass," said +Mrs Hardon, "as to play into your adversary's hand like that, when he +was on the verge of ruin, as everybody said, and could not have kept on +another six months; for you to throw the union practice and a hundred +a-year into his lap, and supply him with the material for carrying on +the war!" + +Mrs Doctor Hardon spoke of the rival practitioner, a poor, gentlemanly +man, who had set up some years before in the dusty town of Somesham, and +had been fighting ever since with difficulties; for, as in all small +country towns in this land of liberty, every new-comer was looked upon +as an intruder--a foreigner--and one who will probably interfere with +the fine old conservative notions of the place. They don't want him, +and they won't have him if they can help it. He is clever, perhaps; but +they don't want clever people, and they would prefer being half-killed +by the old practitioner to being cured by the new. Trade or profession, +it is just the same; and perhaps the acts of the town are only the acts +of the country in miniature. Hospitality we have in plenty, and our +share of the virtues, no doubt; but truly we English have most strongly +in us the propensity for turning our backs upon those who are trying to +fight their way on, until they can manage to do without help, when we +turn round, smiling with the features that frowned before, pat the +successful man upon the back, and say, "Well done!" + +Mr Brande, "the new man," as he was called, had found all this, and had +been ready to despair again and again through the many years he had been +trying to make a practice; but now the turning-point had come in the +honours of Thomas Hardon, Esq, MD; not that he had reaped much present +advantage, and it was doubtful if he would have had the practice at all +if Doctor Hardon had not had immediate want for a hundred and fifty +pounds, and, trusting to Mr Brande's honour as a gentleman, offered to +throw up the parish work on condition of receiving that sum, which Mr +Brande gave him in bills, and, what was more, screwed, economised, and +met them as they fell due. But Mrs Doctor Hardon did not know this, +nor yet the extent of the liabilities her lord had incurred; while the +deeper he sunk in that black, clinging mire of debt, the more reticent +he grew. + +Volume One, Chapter VIII. + +MR PAWLEY'S PERFORMANCE. + +"Such a beautiful, well-cut letter too!" said old Matt Space, as he +stood looking at the empty type-rack from whence the cases had been +taken to furnish money for Septimus Hardon's present expenses. "In such +good order too. Puts me in mind of being so low down that I had to sell +my own stick. Fellow always seems so badly off when he gets selling his +tools." + +A tap at the door, following the sound of wheels, interrupted the old +man's soliloquy, and going to the door he admitted the undertaker, who +had just arrived with his shabby Shillibeer hearse and mourning-coach in +one, with which he performed the economic funerals so frequent in his +district. + +"Here you are, then," said old Matt, grimly surveying the new-comer. + +"Yes, here we are," said the undertaker, in a subdued, melancholy tone; +and then he drew out a pocket-handkerchief and wiped his eye, as if to +remove a tear--in fact, he did remove a tear--though not sorrow-shed, +for Mr Pawley was in very good spirits just then; but he had an eye +afflicted with a watery weakness which necessitated the constant +application of a handkerchief, and this had passed with a certain class +of people for the manifestation of sorrow for their griefs. Some said +that this eye had been a little fortune to him. Perhaps it had, but +doubtless the crowded courts clustering round Lincoln's-inn had done +more to keep up the incessant "rat-tat-tat-tat" heard in his shop, a +sound as if grim Death were tapping with those bony fingers of his at +the door. + +"Such a feeling man!" said Mrs Sims, who was always at home upon such +occasions as this, and had now come to mind Septimus Hardon's boy, and +help; "if she could be of service leastways, for it's few berrins take +place about here, mom, that they don't send for me," she said with a +sniff, and the corner of her apron to her eye. + +"Here you are, then," said old Matt to the undertaker. + +"Yes, here we are," said Mr Pawley; "but you ain't a-going, are you?" + +"Well, who said I was?" said Matt gruffly. "You're a-going, ain't you? +and that's enough for you." + +Mr Pawley took so much pride in his funerals being properly performed, +that going himself did not seem enough for him, and he continued to gaze +doubtfully over a very uncomfortable white cravat, one of which the bow +was supposed to be tied behind, giving him a good deal the aspect of a +man who had been decapitated, and then had his head secured in its place +by a bandage. + +But old Matt did not give the undertaker an opportunity for a long +inspection of his shabby black clothes, for having announced the grim +functionary, that gentleman went up the creaking stairs upon the points +of his toes to proceed with the duties he had in hand; while, as old +Matt stood in the passage watching his long black body it seemed to him +that the stairs cracked and creaked mournfully, as if resenting the feet +laid upon them, in anticipation of a heavier descent. + +But there was to be no heavy load for them to bear this time, for it was +but a little coffin--a little white coffin that had been gazed into for +the last time, where the gentle waxen features seemed to wear a smile, +so sad, speaking such a tender farewell in its sweetness, that Lucy Grey +sobbed aloud with the parents, until Mrs Sims entered the room, +whispered to Septimus, and then they all slowly passed out to give place +to Mr Pawley. And then standing in the next room, Mrs Septimus, weak +and ailing, almost fainted as she heard the harsh noise of the driver as +it slipped first in one and then another of the screws. + +But now the last screw had been tightened, the light burden placed in +the receptacle, and Mrs Sims, quite a regular aid to Mr Goffer, +arranged the scarf upon Septimus Hardon's hat; pinned and tied the hoods +and cloaks upon mother and daughter; and then, in a simple but feeling +way, wept many a salt tear into her black-alpaca apron, sniffing +terribly the while Mr Pawley, satisfied in his mind that the +respectability of his performance was not to be damaged by so doubtful a +character as the old compositor, stood holding open the door of the +carriage with one hand, wiping his eye with the other, and awaiting the +mourners' descent. + +For this was no grand funeral; there had been no mutes standing with +draped staves at the door; there was no squadron of men with scarves and +brass-tipped truncheons; no tray of black plumes to be carried in +advance; no high-stepping, long-tailed black horses, with velvet +housings and tossing heads; nothing to make a funeral imposing and +attractive. But there were spectators even for this: inhabitants of +Carey-street were stealthily watching from door-steps, or from the +corners of windows, as if afraid of intruding upon the mourners' sorrow; +a knot of dirty children from Bennett's-rents had collected, many of +whom toiled beneath shawl-wrapped burdens of heavy babies almost equal +to themselves in bulk; two women stood upon the opposite side with arms +wrapped in their aprons; a ticket-porter, in apron and badge, leaned +against the nearest lamp-post; the apple-woman at the corner did +something unusual, she left her basket, knocked the ashes out of her +short black pipe, and then rubbed a tear--a bright, gem-like tear--off +her poor old cheek, withered as one of her own pippins, before placing +her pipe in her pocket, and leaning with arms akimbo against the +railings to see the hearse pass with a little customer of hers, for whom +she had always picked out the best lot, and in her simple homely way +called down heavenly favour with a hearty "God bless you!" An old +law-writer, a man who reckoned life as a long brief in so many folios, +old and snuffy, and shabby almost as Matt himself, walked by house and +hearse to the office where he worked, pretending to whistle; but no +sound came, and he blew his nose in a way that raised an echo in the +silent street as soon as he was a few yards past the place; even the +policeman, beating his Berlin gloves together, quietly sent off the +children gathered in the way, and posted them at a distance, that they +might not annoy the sad party so soon to leave the house. + +And now a tall dark woman, carrying a child, appeared upon the scene, +and stood with dimmed eye watching till the mourners descended, when, +catching sight of Septimus Hardon's bent form, she stepped forward +eagerly, but only to shrink back shivering as she clutched her babe to +her breast, pressing her lips upon its plump cheek, while an air of +wonderment came into the woman's face as the announcement above the door +now caught her eye:--"S Hardon, Legal and General Printer." + +For there was sorrow in Carey-street that day--sorrow of a novel kind. +All the neighbourhood knew why the blinds were down at Hardon's; for all +knew the tall graceful girl who led about the two golden-haired children +that seemed so out of place in the legal region; all knew that one of +these little ones had passed away--that the little flower, sweet and +fragrant, so lately blooming in the cold harsh place, and raising its +heaven-whispering head amongst them, had been cut down by the cold winds +that swept the weary waste. "Our client" had stopped at this oasis in +the desert he was crossing, for he had often paused to look up at the +golden head at the upper window, gazed at it awhile, and then passed on, +refreshed and gladdened in heart. Every dweller in the neighbourhood +had had a kind word or look for Lucy's charges; and there was a sun in +those golden tresses, a warm light, that would often melt the icy frost +of some old lawyer's countenance, and bring there a smile of pleasure. +But a month before, two men were passing Carey-street with Punch, bound +westward to the district where there is less constraint and +mind-engrossing; and the man who bore the show, following the usage +which to him was second nature, looked up at the dirty windows with +wandering eye, caught sight of the blue-eyed fairy, looked at her with +doubt for an instant, and then pitched his theatre, to the astonishment +of his drum-and-pan-pipe "pardner," who would as soon have thought of +playing in the cloisters of Westminster Abbey. + +"Jest five minutes," whispered his mate, pointing upwards; when, as if +by magic, the pipes squeaked, the drum rolled, raising up the wondering +ghosts of echoes from amidst the pouncy dust of ages, while the yellowy, +torn green baize fell, to conceal the motive power of the puppets; and +then for "jest five minutes" "our client" was startled, the parchments +in the offices crackled, dust floated from ledges out upon the murky +air, and the sanctity of the place was broken by the ribald jokes of our +old friend. Then, just as an astonished troop of children came with a +rush out of Bennett's-rents, up went the green curtain; there came a +friendly nod from one of the men, who placed himself Atlas-like beneath +his drum, a broad grin from the other at the child's delight, and then +off due west. + +And now the change had come; the cold blast that sweeps down +Carey-street had been colder and keener; the fragile flower-stalk was +broken; the white coffin was in its place, the mourners in the coach; +the door banged gently, for the wood had warped. Mr Pawley had climbed +beside his red-nosed driver, and sat wiping his eye; while the poor old +broken-kneed black horse ambled and shambled off with its head down, as +if ashamed of the false tail that it knew was fastened to the crupper of +its harness. + +Then the rest,--the sad rite, the solemn words, the swelling hearts +aching to leave so sweet a form in so cold and damp a bed, loth to +believe that what they had loved could turn to corruption, and then to +the dust of the earth. Then back to the shabby carriage, whose driver +had refreshed himself with gin, which attacked his nose; while the horse +yet twisted an obstinate wisp of hay that hung sideways in his bit, and +would not be ground into nutriment. Once more the banging of the door, +and Mr Pawley up beside the driver, with his grief still unassuaged; +while as the poor beast that drew the carriage shambled back, his load +was so little lightened that he knew not the difference. + +The house in Carey-street had looked sad and gloomy for days past, for +even the lodgers had drawn down their blinds, and ascended the stairs +carefully and even stealthily, speaking, too, in whispers; but now the +light was freely admitted, and Mrs Sims had blown up a good fire, only +stopping to sniff, and drop a tear or two upon the bellows now and then, +the last being a domestic implement that she had run home to the Square +and fetched for the occasion. The tea was prepared, and she had made +what she called the most of the place,--not that that was much,--ready +for the mourners' return; while old Matt was ruining the knees of his +trousers by making himself a horse, and crawling up and down the dirty +printing-office floor with the little boy upon his back. The rooms +looked almost cheerful now, for, save in the returned mourners' hearts, +all was over, and the solemn scene, the dark, damp grave, the catching +of the breath as the first earth fell, the long last look at the white +coffin--all things of the past. + +Old Matthew Space was a wise man in his way; and as soon as he thought +that there had been time for the changing of habiliments,--that is to +say, about a quarter of an hour after Mr Pawley had presented his +account, been paid, and taken his departure, offering old Matt sixpence, +which he indignantly refused to take,--he put on a bright face, and took +the little fellow in his charge upstairs, crowing and chattering with +delight at riding upon the old man's shoulders. + +"No, thankee, sir," said the old man, in answer to Septimus Hardon's +invitation to stay to tea; and as he declined he glanced down at his +clothes. + +"I did not ask the clothes," said Septimus warmly, "but the man who has +shown sympathy in this weary time of trouble; and God knows I did not +expect to find friends where I have," muttered the dejected man, who +looked ten years older; while at times his eyes wandered in a weary +abstracted way about the room, and his hands were wrung together, till +Lucy came to his side and spoke to him, when the lost, helpless look +would pass off, and he would brighten up for a few minutes. + +"Such a beautiful, well-cut letter, though!" muttered old Matt as he +took the chair placed for him by Mrs Sims, when the little fellow +forced himself off his mother's lap, and climbed upon the old man's +knee. + +"You must hold up, mum," whispered Mrs Sims to poor, broken-down, +invalid Mrs Septimus. "I know what it all is; for when I lived in the +Rents, mum, I lost four; and all within three year." + +"_You_ did!" said Mrs Septimus, laying a tender hand upon the poor +woman's arm. + +"O yes!" said Mrs Sims. "It was before I went to mind the house in the +Square, and used to wash; but it was sich work, mum! nowhere to dry +except a bit of leads, and the strings tied across the room, and the +blacks allus a-coming down like a shower, while every drop o' water had +to be fetched from right at the bottom of the house. One was obliged to +do it, though, for times were very hard just then; but having so much +washing ain't good and healthy for children, let alone being stived up +so closte. You see, 'm, it's a bad place to live in, them Rents, +there's too many in a house, and there's so much wants doing; but then, +when you're a bit behind with your rent, you can't grumble, or there's +your few bits of sticks taken, and plenty more glad to have your room. +But the way the poor little children is snatched off there, mum, 's +terrible, though I do sometimes say, as it's a happy release. Mr +Pawley, mum, he 'ave told me that them Rents is as good as an annuity to +him; for you see, though it isn't a big place, there's a many families +in each house; and where there's families, mum, there's mostly +children." + +Mrs Septimus sighed bitterly at the last word, while, poor woman, she +was too much intent upon her cares to notice the wisdom of the speech. + +"But you hold up now, mum, there's a good creetur. I know it's very +hard, but then we all has to suffer alike, and you've got to recklect +what you owes to that poor dear child there, and young miss, and the +master." + +As for Septimus Hardon, he was talking in an abstracted way to old Matt, +who was discussing business matters, and urging energetic measures in +the office; but talking to Septimus Hardon was a difficult matter, and +put you much in mind of catching a grazing horse: you held a bait before +him, and then gradually edged him up into a corner, when, just as you +thought you had him, he was off and away full gallop to another part of +the mental field; and so the work had to be done all over again. Old +Matt found it so, and after several times over waking to the fact that +while he was talking upon one subject Septimus Hardon was thinking upon +another, he rose and took his departure. + +Volume One, Chapter IX. + +OLD MATT ON MANNERS. + +Old Matt Space came daily to Carey-street in search of a job, and +generally made an excuse for seeing little Tom, for whom he had a cake, +a biscuit, or some small penny toy, purchased of one of the peripatetic +vendors in the street. + +"I always like to support honest industry," said the old man; and when +in work, and with a few shillings in his pocket, he would take a walk +along the busy streets, and perhaps spend a couple of his shillings with +the people whose place of business is the edge of the pavement. "Well, +suppose I am a fool for doing it, what then?" said Matt one day. "Ain't +ninety per cent of the inhabitants of this precious country of ours what +you call fools; and if I, in my folly, help twenty or thirty poor folks +up a step in getting their bit of a living, where's the harm? Don't +tell me," old Matt would say to his fellow-workmen, beginning to unload +the pockets which made his coat-tails stick out almost at right angles; +"I don't buy the things because I want them, I do it to help them as +wants it; and their name, as it says in the Testament, is `legion.' +Now, that's a jumping frog, made of wood, a bit of paint, a bit of +string, and a bit of my friend Ike's wax. That's an ingenious toy, that +is: who'll have it? whose got a youngster?" + +Speaking in a large printing-office, amongst twenty or thirty men, there +was soon a market for the jumping frog; and then the old man drew out a +scrap of something soft and flabby, and held it up. + +"You wouldn't tell what that is in a hurry," said Matt. "All to +encourage industry, you know; that's a big indy-rubber balloon, that is, +only I couldn't pocket it, so I made it collapse first; so that's no +good to nobody--pitch it away. Here we have--ah, this is an out-and-out +toy, this is, only I've broke the stick, and it wants a bit of glue-- +who'll have a climbing monkey?" + +And so the old man would pull out perhaps twenty toys, balls, dolls, +gelatine cards, to the infinite amusement of his companions, who laughed +on, but without discomposing Matt in the least, who practised his humble +philanthropy as long as he had money, and often, in consequence, went +without a meal; for saving was an utter impossibility with the old man-- +a feat, he said, he had often tried to accomplish; but how, he said, +could a man keep money in his pocket when he saw others wanting? "It is +done," said Matt; "but old as I am, I can't quite see it." + +But there had been no toy distributions lately, for old Matt had found +times very hard, and even if they had been better, there would have been +no more such amusements for the denizens of the offices he worked at, +for there was another way for Matt's philanthropical purchases to go, +namely, to Carey-street, to Septimus Hardon's little boy, for whose +special benefit the old man had made several purchases on credit, which +was freely accorded by those to whom he was known; but as to work at +Septimus Hardon's printing-office, there was none for him, further than +that of disposing of type and materials at one or another of the +brokers', which duties he performed without recompense, grumbling sorely +the while at the wretched sums he obtained for the goods. + +"You ought to find fault then, sir," he would say to Septimus; "I can't +help it; but I'm ashamed, that I am, to think that people will give such +a beggarly price. It grieves me, sir, to see the stuff go like that." + +But Septimus did not find fault, only smiled feebly; for in this time of +his sore distress he had so aged, and grown so helpless and wanting in +reliance, that he trusted to the old compositor in almost everything. + +"Might rob him right and left, sir," said old Matt to a favourite +lamp-post in Carey-street. "He's no business up here at all. I could +quarrel with him sometimes for being so simple, if it wasn't that he's +such a thorough good sort at bottom. What's to become of them when the +things are all gone, goodness knows; for he'll never do what I've done, +sir--lived two days upon a large dose of sleep, a penn'orth of snuff, +and three back numbers of the _London Journal_." + +For troubles now came thickly crowding on Septimus Hardon's horizon. +His wife's health failed fast, and the means were wanting to procure her +the necessary comforts. But there is always light behind the darkest +cloud; and now it was that Lucy, young in years, but a woman in +self-reliance, proved a stay to the family. Ever busily plying her +needle, ever cheerful, she was a ray of sunshine in their sad home, +shedding her brightness in the darkest hours. And though Septimus +Hardon querulously complained of his standing so friendless in the +world, there was another who watched anxiously the failing fortunes of +the family, and was always ready with counsel and aid--the Reverend +Arthur Sterne, who became more constant in his visits as the affairs of +Septimus grew darker. Old Matt and he, too, often met, but somehow not +without feelings of distrust on either side--distrust perhaps excusable +on the side of the clergyman; for the ways of Matthew Space shed no +softening lustre upon his outer man. + +One day old Matt went into Carey-street to find the broker in +possession; for Septimus was far behind with his heavy rent, and the +landlord was alarmed at seeing his tenant's worldly possessions +shrinking at so rapid a rate; while, when the old man made his way into +the sitting-room, he found weary-looking Septimus waiting with aching +heart for a reply to the appealing letter he had sent to his father. + +Old Matt went again, day after day, asking himself how he could be such +an old idiot as to care for other people's affairs to the neglect of his +own; but there was always the same weary shake of the head, and the same +answer--"No letter, Matt." + +At last there was a cart at the door, and Septimus Hardon, roused up +into something like energy for the time being, busily helped old Matt to +remove the remnants of his furniture to the rooms the old man had +secured for him in that salubrious court, Bennett's-rents. + +"'Tain't the nicest of spots," old Matt had owned; "but then look at the +convenience; and for what you are going to do, sir, you must be right on +the spot; for though law's very slow work for them as goes into it, it's +very quick, sharp work for them as does the copying." + +That evening Septimus Hardon looked dolefully round the front room of +the two the old man had secured for him; then he glanced at his wife, +who tried to smile; at Lucy, busily arranging; and lastly at old Matt, +who looked very cheerful and happy as he helped Lucy in her +arrangements, and was now lustily polishing a table that did not require +it with a duster. + +"Good luck to you, sir, don't look like that; why, you're fetching the +tears into Miss Lucy's eyes--as is quite bright enough without," +muttered Matt to himself. "Don't be down, sir, the wheel's always going +round--bottom spokes to-day, top spokes to-morrow; and not the best +place neither, for folks often knocks their heads through going too +high. This ain't nothing, bless you; this is riches, this is--cheerful +prospect of ten foot in front; pigeons on the roof; birds a-singing +upstairs; children a-rollicking in the court; orgin three times a-day; +writers popping in and out at the corner this side, public at the corner +on t'other--brown stout threepence a pot in your own jugs; side-view +almost into Carey-street, through the alley. Why, you're well off here, +sir; and I've known the time when a ha'porth o' snuff and a recess in +one of the bridges has been board and lodging to me; and--Servant, +sir.--Anything more I can do for you to-day, Mr Hardon? If not, I'll +go, sir," said the old man, suddenly becoming very distant and +respectful; for a new-comer appeared upon the scene in the shape of Mr +Sterne; when, after a very stiff bow all round, old Matt departed, +stumbling more than once as he descended the worn stairs. + +Matthew Space's cheerfulness was gone as soon as he left the court, and +it took him some considerable time to reach his resting-place--a +neighbouring public-house; for he was troubled and anxious, and had to +stop every now and then to think; but he could not think aloud to his +old friends the lamps, on account of its being daylight; though after an +hour or two's sojourn at first one and then another of his places of +resort when making his way homewards, he paused frequently and long. + +"Now I tell you what it is, sir!" he exclaimed, on stopping at the +corner of Carey-street once more, and slapping a favourite post on the +shoulder, "things are coming to a pretty pass; here we are sending our +thousands to prison and penal servitude for dishonesty, robbery, and +petty theft; and out of those thousands no end wanted to be honest, and +we would not give them the chance. There are thousands wanting to get +an honest living, and we won't let them. Rogue, sir!" he cried, +excitedly slapping the cold iron with such energy that his hand ached, +"don't tell me; you may talk of your charity and benevolence till all's +blue; but I mean to say that, in the eyes of the world, sir, there isn't +a greater rogue than a poor man. Beat him, kick him, turn him out, off +with him--a vagabond, what business has he to be poor?" + +Old Matt was out of breath, and strode on to another post. + +"What business has he to be poor--a villain? What do we want with a +Septimus Hardon, legal and general printer, and poor man? `Nothing at +all,' says the world, and it won't go to his shop; `see him starve +first,' says the world; `we'll go to the people who don't want help, who +keep their carriages and country-seats; and if the little men fail and +become bankrupt, serve 'em right, too, what business had they to aspire? +why weren't they content as shopmen or journeymen? Too many already! +Pooh! then let them get out. Let them plod and crawl, or turn +agricultural labourers, and earn eight or nine shillings a-week. Won't +they get premiums, sir, for bringing up their families without parish +help, eh? And what more can they want in this great and glorious land? +Won't that do? Well, then, let 'em go to the workhouse, where there's +every convenience for letting 'em die off out of the way.'" + +The old man crossed the muddy street to another lamp, chuckling to +himself the while, when, laying both hands upon the post, he began +again: "It's a strange thing, sir, a wonderful thing, how lonesome a man +may be here in this great city of London: he may work till he drops for +a living, and not get it; and he may then go and lie down and die, and +all that, while nobody has known him or helped him; but when he's found +there's a fuss in the papers for a few hours, and then--on we go again. +We're all wrong, sir. What's the use of our spending our hundreds of +thousands, sir, in converting a few Indians, or Africans, or +Australians, sir, and then holding our meetings, with the Bishop of +Somewhere-or-another coming home to hold forth upon the benefits that +have followed the missionary enterprise, but saying nothing about the +miseries that have followed wherever the white man has set his foot? +Very fine, sir; very fine, this civilisation, and town and village and +church springing up; but what has become of the Indian? what has become +of the Australian? and what will become of the New Zealander? It's +aggrandisement from beginning to end, sir,--dead robbery; call it +conquest if you will; but there, it's all for the extension of our +glorious empire. Let's see, sir," said Matt, stopping; "I'm getting it +into a knot; what was I going to say? How dare we go on so busily +cleaning other people's houses when our own is in a state that we ought +as a nation to blush for? Convert savages, benighted heathen! Why, I +can take you, sir, where, here in the heart of this Christian city, +London, you shall see savages ten times worse than any you shall find in +Africa--more cruel, more licentious. There, hang it, sir, if it warn't +for the fear of being eaten, I'd sooner trust myself amongst the blacks +ten times over than the whites, hang me if I wouldn't! I know what +you'll say to me, sir! `Go and preach the Gospel to every creature!' +Ah, but oughtn't we to be fit to do it first? oughtn't we to look at +home first? I say yes, sir, yes; and what we're doing now, sir, 's +playing the Pharisee and whitening the outside of the sepulchre; and +there's no mistake about it, sir, some parts of this London of ours make +a very foul sepulchre indeed." + +Another fifty yards brought Matt to the next post, where he again +stopped. + +"I'm a leveller, am I, sir? P'r'aps so; but we levellers make the way +smooth for those poor folks who are to tramp the road of life in days to +come. I'm very sorry for the blacks, sir; and no doubt here and there +you may find one who, under proper management, would turn out bright; +but they can't be much account, or else they would have made some +progress among themselves, whereas they're just where they were hundreds +of years ago. It's a good job slavery is done away with; but you'll +never make white men of 'em, never, sir; and they all look just as if, +when their father Ham was cursed, he scowled like a naughty boy, and was +cross and pouted his lips, and so all his children have looked +thick-lipped since. But there, sir, that's neither here nor there, as +you may say; though I've begun here in Carey-street and got right over +into Africa; and that's the way I always do go on when I'm speaking in +public. Now look here, sir; now what am I, eh? a battered, worn-out, +seedy old stamp--good for nothing. `Whose fault is that?' you say. +`Halves!' I cry, with the world: we share the blame between us. I've +been foolish: I've given way good-humouredly in the squeeze for place, +and everyone has pushed by me and got in front. Now, sir, what ought I +to have done, eh? Why, told the world that I was a big man; caressed +those who believed me, and kicked and bullied those who did not. I +ought to have shoved my way through the crowd; and what would have +followed, eh? why, people would have pushed again and grumbled; but they +would have given way until I got a good standing. Now look at that man, +sir,--Hardon, sir, a gentleman every inch of him, but as helpless and +unbusiness-like as a baby. Why, he'll starve, sir, before he'll ask for +help, if his father don't send. `More fool he,' says the world. To be +sure: what business has he with a heart and feelings and nerves, that +make him flinch because he has got an ugly shell over his beautiful +works, and so feels every slight put upon him. Why, he's just one of +those men who would go in despair and make an end of himself; and then +you have your inquest, and people say `How shocking!' and never stop to +think that such things keep on happening every day; and will, too, so +long as the world goes round; and I'm blest sometimes if I believe that +it does go round, sir, or else things would come right in time for +everybody. But they don't, for they mend worse every day. Here we are, +with one man rolling in riches he never did a stroke to gain, and don't +even know the value of; and here's Septimus Hardon, with a sick wife, +and with hardly common necessaries. I might have introduced myself to +your notice, sir, but present company is always excepted. The fact of +it is, sir, that things are all wrong; and though I've been studying the +matter these twenty years I can't see how to put 'em all right." + +Old Matt drew a long breath, for he had been speaking loudly and with +vehemence; and now, upon reaching another post, he began gesticulating +fiercely, for he had warmed to his subject. + +"But if I had time, sir, I'd go into the matter, sir. I'd take the poor +man as he stands, and the rich man as _he_ stands; and I'd--" + +"Now, come; that's about enough for one night, anyhow. I don't mind a +little, now and then, but they'll be hearing of you acrost the square +d'reckly." + +"I'd take him, sir," continued Matt, "and hold him up for the whole +world--" + +"O, ah! all right," said Matt's interrupter, the policeman on the beat; +"I dessay you would; only the world wouldn't look at him. For why? +'cause the world's too busy. Good-night, old chap." + +"Good-night," said Matt, cooling down suddenly, and shuffling off in a +quiet spiritless way, the fire out, and his head bent as he thrust his +hands in his pockets. "Ah, he's about right; so he is. `The world's +too busy!' so it is; and I ain't got a morsel of snuff left." + +Volume One, Chapter X. + +BROTHERLY LOVE. + +"There, there, there; sit down, sit down, sit down!" croaked old +Octavius Hardon as he cowered over a miserable fire in his paper-strewn +room. "Sit down, sit down, sit down," he kept on repeating, after just +glancing over his shoulder as his brother, sleek, pompous, and +black-clothed, entered the room--"such a gentlemanly man," as the old +women of Somesham declared over cups of tea. "Sit down, Tom," croaked +the withered, dry old man, pulling his black skull-cap close down to his +yellow ears, and peering sideways from under his shaggy grey eyebrows at +the chair he meant his brother to take. There was a dry, mocking sneer +upon his thin lips, while the grey unshorn beard wagged and twitched +about as he spoke, as, without taking further notice of his visitor, he +made his chair scroop on the worn carpet as he dragged it closer to the +fire and warmed his lean shins. + +Doctor Hardon slowly subsided into a seat, giving a hasty glance round +the cheerless room as he did so, and then finishing with a long curious +look at the lean figure before him, with its wrinkled bony face and +attenuated form showing through the faded dressing-gown drawn tightly +round him, and tucked-in between his knees, while the trembling hands +were stretched out over the fire. + +"How are we?" said Octavius after a long silence, broken with an effort +by his brother; "how are we? Shall I put out my tongue, Tom? Would you +like to feel my pulse, Tom, and sound my chest, eh, Tom? Come and try, +Tom, and perhaps I shall knock you down--you humbug, you; for I'm sound +as a roach yet, Tom, and shall live a score of years. Only +seventy-five, Tom; that's boyish, isn't it? Better than being sixty, +and fat, and a humbug like you, ain't it? `How are we?' Ugh! drop that +professional cant, or else stand up and rub your hands together softly, +as you ought. What did you come for? Did you come to quarrel?" + +"I came because you sent for me, sir," said Doctor Hardon with dignity, +settling his chin in his voluminous white neckcloth and using a gold +toothpick as he leaned back in his easy-chair. + +"Sent for you--sent for you? Well, yes; so I did--so I did, Tom," +chuckled Octavius; "but not to doctor me, Tom, nor to send `the mixture +as before,' nor to send `the pill at bedtime and the draught in the +morning.' No, Tom, no. How long would it take you to kill me decently, +Tom, eh?--decently and respectably; eh, Tom, eh?" + +"Fond of your joke as ever, Octy," said the doctor with a sickly smile. + +"Just so, Tom; just so," croaked and chuckled Octavius; "but you are no +joke, Tom. I'm not fond of you. Brande's bad enough, but you're a +devil, Tom." + +"I've been thinking of coming over to see you several times," said the +doctor, trying to change the conversation; "and I should have called +when passing, only you will misconstrue my ways, Octy." + +"Me? misconstrue? No, no, Tom, not I," chuckled Octavius; "I don't +misconstrue. I believe you want to come, that I do. Now what's up, +Tom, eh?" said the old man, fixing his keen grey eyes upon the doctor. +"You want money, Tom, don't you? But, there, you won't own to it like a +man, but be indignant and offended. You've a soul above money, you +have, Tom; and you wouldn't stoop to borrow money of your poor brother, +Tom, even if he'd lend it to you." + +The doctor moved uneasily in his chair, glancing again and again round +the room, while his brother continued to watch him with his keen +unflinching eyes. + +"Yes, I sent for you, Tom,--I sent for you," continued Octavius; "but +not to doctor me. I should be afraid of your not thoroughly +understanding my constitution, Tom, and overdosing me. But look here, +Tom," chuckled the old man, leaving his seat and coughing drily, as, +bent and failing, he crossed the room to a bureau and brought out a +silver teaspoon and a bottle containing some dark liquid. "Look here, +Tom," he said, reseating himself, and then pouring with trembling hand a +portion of the liquid into the spoon, and in the act spilling a few +drops over the side. "There," he said, smacking his lips after +swallowing the fluid, and then stooping fumbling about in the fender for +the stopper, that had slipped through his fingers. + +"There, Tom, there; that's nectar, Tom; that's son, and daughter, and +wife, and brother, and doctor, and friend, and everything but lawyer. +That's how I doctor myself, Tom; that's how I doctor myself. 'Tain't +lawyer, Tom; but I can manage that myself and arrange about my few bits +of things. You'd like my mourning-ring when I'm gone, wouldn't you now, +my dear brother?" + +Doctor Hardon did not speak, but again shuffled in his chair, glancing +uneasily at the sneering face before him; and as he thought of the +goodly lands lying fallow, and the tenements in ruins, belonging to his +brother, he recalled a case where he had been one of the certifiers +respecting the sanity of an elderly lady; and then he wondered whether +his brother had made a will, and what it specified. + +"That's how I doctor myself, Tom. That's a cure for every kind of ache, +Tom; try it. It's good for runaway scoundrels of sons, and it's good +for runaway daughters, Tom, and runaway nieces, Tom. It's good for +everything, Tom; and I live on it," chuckled the old man. "I didn't +want you for that, you see. You all left me; Septimus, and your jade of +a girl, and you keep away; so I have it all to myself." + +"You are not going to take any more of that now?" said the doctor, as +his brother once more drew the stopper from the bottle. + +"No, no; not yet, not yet, Tom," said the old man, placing the bottle on +the chimney-piece. "Not yet, Tom, till after business. I wanted you +about my will, Tom. D'ye hear? about my will." + +Doctor Hardon could not conceal the start he gave at hearing this last +sentence; but he made an effort, and began to take snuff from a massive +gold box. + +"Ha, ha! I thought that would interest you, Tom," chuckled the old man, +watching his brother narrowly, and shading his keen eyes with his hand. +"My will, Tom, my will, and what I shall do with my money; for I haven't +a soul belonging to me; not a soul, Tom. So you were coming to see me, +Tom, were you, eh? Then you want money, don't you? What have you been +at, now? Mining-shares, eh? Just like one of your fool's tricks." + +"Hadn't you better refer to your solicitor?" said the doctor with +assumed nonchalance, and not noticing the latter part of the speech. + +"What for--what for, eh? No, no; I can do what I want with little help; +and I have had nearly all I want done; and you can do the rest. It's +about money, Tom; and you always worshipped it--always--always. Now +look here, Tom," he continued, going back to the bureau and taking out a +large envelope; "that's my will, Tom, and I want it witnessed; d'ye +hear, Tom?--witnessed. I've had it made for years; and it only wants +another signature and then I think it will do, and it will be off my +mind and be at rest; for I want to finish my reform work, Tom,--reform-- +reform--reform. Now look here, Tom; but see first that there's no one +listening at the door." + +Doctor Hardon rose and went across the room upon the points of his toes, +peered out into the passage, closed the door silently, and then returned +smiling, without having made a sound. But the smile of +self-satisfaction at his successful management gave way the next moment +to a look of astonishment, and then of anger, as Octavius exclaimed, +"You sleek-looking, tom-cat humbug, you! I almost wish I had not sent +for you--you treacherous-looking, smooth-coated rascal!" + +Doctor Hardon turned almost purple with rage, but by an effort he choked +it down. + +"So you are, Tom; so you are," snarled the old man, watching him keenly, +and enjoying his discomfiture; "but you can't afford to be affronted, +Tom, can you?" + +The doctor tried to laugh it off. "You always did love to tease me, +Octy," he said, with a twist of his whole body, as if the mental torture +shot through every nerve. + +"Tease!" snarled the old man--"yes; call it teasing if you like; but +look here," he said, drawing out the will, and folding it back so that +only the bottom was visible--"bring that pen and ink, and come to the +table here and sign;" and then he placed both hands tightly upon the +paper, holding it down upon the table, and just leaving room for his +brother to sign his name, all the while watching him suspiciously. + +Doctor Hardon took the inkstand from a side-table, and placed it beside +the will, glancing as he did so at the paper, but only to gaze upon the +blank space. He then drew out a morocco case, and set at liberty an +elaborate pair of gold-rimmed spectacles, ignoring for the time being +the hand some double eyeglass hanging by a black ribbon from his neck. +The glasses were wiped upon a delicately-scented cambric handkerchief; +there was a soft professional cough given as they were fitted in their +place; and then, taking a fresh dip of ink, the doctor again advanced +majestically towards the table. + +All this while Octavius Hardon had been watching his every action with a +cynical smile upon his withered face, apparently deriving great pleasure +from the ostentatious performance of his brother. + +"Why don't you purr, eh, Tom?" he snarled; "why don't you purr, eh?" + +Doctor Hardon tried to laugh pleasantly, but it was only a fat copy of +his brother's snarl; and then, once more dipping the pen, he leant over +the table, placing a hand upon the paper, while at the same moment +Octavius slid one of his own on one side, to give more room--perhaps to +save it from touching the doctor's plump, white, beringed digits. + +The lamp was shaded, and cast a light full down upon the paper; and as +the doctor stooped to write, he suddenly started as if he had been +stung, and then stood trembling and wiping the perspiration from his +forehead. + +"Humbug, Tom! humbug!" snarled his brother; "that's your baggage of a +girl's name; but it don't upset you like that? What did you act like a +brute for, and drive her away, eh? You did, Tom; you did!" + +"But I cannot sign the paper without knowing its contents," stammered +the doctor. + +"Bah, fool! tom-cat! humbug!" snarled the old man, snatching up the +paper, and trying with trembling hands to force it back into the +envelope. "It's my will, I tell you. There, be off!" and he began to +shuffle back again to his chair. + +"I'll sign," said the doctor reluctantly. + +Octavius took not the slightest notice, only reseated himself. + +"I'll sign the paper, Octy," said the doctor, in a tone of voice that +seemed to prove his brother's words--that he could not afford to offend +him. + +"You can do as you like," croaked Octavius, shuffling the envelope into +the breast-pocket of his dressing-gown, where it stuck out tantalisingly +before the doctor, who would have given a week's income to have known +its contents. "You can do as you like, Tom--as you like." + +"I know that," growled the doctor, in an undertone; but the old man +heard him. + +"There, go!" he shouted, in a harsh, cracked voice. + +"Don't I tell you I'll sign?" said the doctor, in a lachrymose, injured +tone. + +The old man looked at him from beneath his hand for a few moments, with +a cynical grin wrinkling up his eyes, and then, slowly leaving his seat, +he took out and replaced the paper upon the table, jealously holding it +down with both hands; and then the doctor signed his name just beneath +the fair, clear characters of his daughter's writing, while he ended +with a flourish and a ponderous "MD." + +"Ha, ha, ha!" chuckled Octavius, snatching the paper up hastily, and +then holding it over the lamp, and afterwards to the fire to dry the +ink. + +"MD! Ha, ha, ha! Got your diploma framed and glazed, Tom? you purring, +sleek, tom-cat humbug, you!" Then, without waiting to double the will +in its original folds, the old man hastily replaced it in the envelope, +took the shade and globe from the lamp, an old gold signet-ring and a +stick of wax from the bureau; and then with his half-palsied hand he +sealed the great envelope, and stamped the sprawling, blotchy patch of +wax with the crest in the ring. + +"There, Tom; that's done!" chuckled the old man, replacing the will in +the bureau, turning the key, and dropping it on the carpet as he tried +to place it in his pocket. "Now, look here, Tom," he said, taking the +poker, and making a hole in the fire, "that envelope isn't to be opened +till I'm gone, Tom; and I'll tell you this--you're one of the executors, +and then you'll know what's in it, eh?--what's in it. Now, I won't +tamper with it any more, and no one else shall." As he spoke he dropped +the fine old ring into the hot pit he had prepared for its reception, +and sat down, chuckling at his brother. + +Doctor Hardon sat down breathing heavily, with strange thoughts in his +heart, as he looked upon the weak old man before him, and thought of his +possessions. + +"Now, Tom," said Octavius, chuckling and placid, as he took the little +bottle and spoon from the chimney-piece, "there's a decanter with some +old port in that sideboard cellaret, and a glass with it. Help +yourself, Tom; help yourself; this is my wine." + +"But you took a quantity of that laudanum just now," said the doctor. + +"You're a fool, Tom! You're a purring, sleek-coated fool!" chuckled the +old man, hastily filling the spoon again, and swallowing its contents, +"Help yourself--you like port, Tom--and then go, and don't come here any +more till you're sent for." + +Doctor Hardon drew himself up to display his offended dignity, but the +old man only watched him and chuckled sneeringly; so he slowly rose, and +with his professional roll walked to the sideboard and back, filled his +glass, and then placed the decanter upon the table. He then sat down, +curiously watching his brother, who lay back in his chair, apparently +gazing into the fire. The doctor raised the glass to his lips, lowered +it once more, and then his fat white hand played nervously round his +mouth, for there were strange thoughts in his heart again--strange, +undefined thoughts that did not take any particular shape, though there +was the glint and chink of money in them all, and its uselessness to the +wreck before him; while the hints he had wanted to give him respecting a +loan had been passed for want of opportunity. + +The doctor sighed, and seemed relieved; and then he wiped his forehead, +which had turned damp; performed the same operation upon his hands, till +the neat white cambric handkerchief was reduced to a miserable wisp; +when, apparently further relieved, he took up his glass and drained it, +but only to fill it again directly. + +The port was good, certainly. The doctor played with his glass +amorously, touching the rim with his lips, sipping at the bell of the +ruby flower like some mammoth bee; held it before the light, and closed +one eye to get a more concentrated look at the deep, rich, tawny hue of +the fine old wine. Soon he sipped again--largely this time--and rinsed +the generous liquor round his mouth, assuming all the airs of a +connoisseur; and then he finished the second glassful, and sighed +gently, for the effect was decidedly mollifying. + +All this while Octavius Hardon never moved, but lay back in his chair. +The doctor drew out his watch, and found it was ten; but he felt in no +hurry to move, for he was accustomed to being late, and it would cause +no uneasiness at home; besides, something might come of this, he +thought; and as the idea crossed his mind, his forehead again turned +slightly moist, and he glanced uneasily at the motionless figure before +him. Then he started, for there was a rustle in the passage, and a tap +at the door, which was directly after opened, and the housekeeper +brought in a chamber-candlestick. + +"Shall I wait up till you go, sir?" she said to the doctor. + +"O, no; not for me," said he. "My brother will let me out. Good-night, +Mrs Berry!" And the doctor's voice was soft and amiable. + +"Good-night, sir!" said the woman, and then the door closed. There was +once more the rustle in the passage, the sound of a chain and bolts +being shot somewhere in the back, the closing of a door, which sent a +hollow echo through the deserted house; and then there was silence--a +stillness that was quite oppressive; for Octavius lived with but one +servant here at the Grange, a middle-aged woman, who attended to the +whole of his simple wants. And now the wind sighed mournfully through +the trees, a few spots of rain pattered against the window, and the +doctor thought uneasily of his long walk home, but not for long, for, +softly rubbing his hands, he now turned once more to the decanter. + +"A good glass of wine, brother. I think I'll take another," he said +unctuously; but there was no reply. So the doctor took another; and +then, after thoroughly enjoying that glass, another; when now feeling +decidedly comfortable, and that the awkward, sharp-cornered, acid +crystals his brother's words had caused to form in his nature were +dissolved by the good wine, he rose, smiling, put the decanter carefully +away, and began to don his overcoat, which lay across a chair. + +It is possible that had the doctor been less intent upon his thoughts +and the wine, he might have heard something more than the pattering of a +drop or two of rain upon the window, the soughing of the wind, and the +regular "tick-tick" of his own large gold watch--a something that +sounded like the working of a sharp gimlet boring through the panel of a +door, cautiously and softly, to render that door pervious to a sharp, +bright eye; but the doctor heard no sound, and turning towards Octavius, +he said, "Good-night, Brother Octy!" + +There was no answer, and the doctor repeated his valediction, but still +without effect; so he knocked the glass over, making it jingle loudly +against the lamp, and still Octavius did not move. + +Doctor Hardon's forehead grew damp again, but very slightly now; he drew +out his watch--it was half-past eleven, and he was surprised to see how +the time had gone. He walked round in his soft, silent way, in those +boots of his that never creaked, to the fireplace on the other side of +his brother; took the phial, removed the stopper, and smelt at the +contents; replaced the bottle, and after looking in the withered face +for a few moments, he lightly rested a finger upon the uncovered wrist +before him. + +Apparently satisfied, he leaned over the fire where the signet-ring had +been cast; then stooped to pick up the tongs, but shook his head, rose +again, and stepping silently towards the door, he gave one glance at the +bureau, when his toe struck something, kicking it along the carpet. + +The doctor stopped and stooped again, feeling about the floor; took the +lamp from the table, whose glass jingled loudly, so that he stopped to +gaze at his brother, who, however, never stirred; while, after a +moment's search, the doctor picked up the bureau-key, and then replacing +the lamp, stood beside the table quite irresolute. He glanced at his +brother, then at the door and window, and lastly at the bureau; sighed, +laid down the key beside the lamp, said "Good-night" again, stepped +softly to the door, passed through and closed it after him; when, for +the space of five minutes, there was a silence in the room, broken only +by the sighing of the wind, and the tinkle of the cinders falling into +the ash-pan. + +Did Octavius Hardon, in his opium-produced sleep, dream of his son +struggling with sorrow and despair in the desolation of his heart; of +the son who had appealed to him again and again for the help the +father's obstinacy refused? Perhaps so, for more than once he moaned, +but so softly that it might have been but the wind with whose sighs the +sound was strangely mingled. + +The lamp burned brightly, shedding a well-defined halo for a certain +space around; but the shadows that it cast in the distant parts of the +room were wild and grotesque. The motionless figure of Octavius Hardon, +with the light full upon the skull-cap, was thrown in strange relief +upon the ground in the semblance of a sleeping goblin; chairs were +elongated, while the easy _prie-dieu_ that the doctor had occupied +seemed turned into some strange beast stooping for its spring upon the +sleeping man. The corners of the room were full of dark moving shades, +as the lamp-flame danced; while the tall bureau and bookcases looked in +their black solemnity the repositories of mysteries untold. + +Suddenly the door opened again very softly, and Doctor Hardon's face +appeared. His brother had not moved--he was satisfied of that before he +entered. He came in, closed the door, and stepped softly up to the +chair, and touched the sleeping figure; but there was no pretence, as +far as he could tell--it was the heavy stupor produced by laudanum. The +doctor paused for a few moments irresolutely, then, taking up the key +from beside the lamp, crossed to the bureau, when, turning the key in +the lock, the bolt flew back with a loud snap, while, starting round, +the doctor stood gazing with pallid face at the sleeping man, who, +however, did not move. To cross to where the wine stood in the +sideboard cupboard was the next act, and, removing the stopper, the +doctor drank eagerly from the decanter's mouth. This gave him fresh +courage; and, replacing the wine, he crossed once more to the bureau, +opened it quickly, stepped back again, and walked over to his brother, +still motionless; then once more to the door, to open it and peer out. + +All silent; and he returned to the bureau. + +There was the large blue envelope with its great seal; and now, with his +forehead covered with big drops, where before it had been but damp, the +doctor, trembling visibly, put the paper to the light, when a sharp cry +as of pain from his brother made him drop it upon the table, and turn as +if to flee. But the old man only moaned the word "Septimus" in a bitter +tone of voice, and then all was silent. + +Assuring himself once more that all was well, the doctor again took the +envelope and held it to the light to see if it was transparent enough +for him to make out anything of its contents; but no: all was firm and +close--close and secret as Octavius himself: the folds would not give +way, nor bulge so that he could look inside, the great seal was fast, +and nothing was to be seen but the words, "My Will--Octavius Hardon," +scrawled in a large hand upon the front. + +The doctor stood irresolute. There was the fire, with its warm glow; +and he thought of how soon it would devour the will; and how that if +there was no will he would be the next of kin; and--but about Septimus? +Perhaps Septimus was dead; for he had not heard of him for years; and +besides, possession--and--yes--that would do, if he should ever show +himself. Then Doctor Hardon smiled bitterly, for he had been +Castle-building, and thinking of the matter as if his brother were past +away; while now, even if the will were destroyed, Octavius would suspect +him and make another. But why wish it destroyed? It might contain all +he could desire! Could he but have seen inside--and the paper crackled +as his trembling hands bent the envelope here and there. Should he +break the wax and reseal the envelope? He looked in the fire, but could +not see a trace of the ring; while, upon comparing his own massive seals +with the impression upon the wax, there was not one that bore the +faintest resemblance, so as to give him a chance of deception. + +Sighing, he replaced the will, locked the bureau, and threw the key upon +the carpet, and had once more reached the door, when a sudden thought +struck him. He darted almost, in spite of his weight, to the bureau, +the slow ponderous motions giving place to an eager activity. + +He tried to open it with his nails inserted beneath the lid, forgetting +that it was locked; but he soon had the key again, opened the flap, and +seizing the will, stood with it by the lamp, whose shade and glass he +removed with trembling hands. + +Holding lamp in one hand and envelope in the other, he turned the lamp +sideways, so that the oil began to flow, and the light to sputter, and +go out on one side of the wick; but out flowed the clear oil--drip, +drip, drip--upon the envelope, till a tiny pool was formed upon the +paper. This he spread lightly over the front with his finger, and held +the envelope to the fire for a few minutes, when, returning to the lamp, +he could distinctly trace, in faint characters, through the now +transparent paper, "Son Septimus Hardon the whole of houses, lands, +hereditaments--" then the paper was folded, so that no more was visible, +but he knew enough now: he knew that Septimus was forgiven, and if +living, that he would be in possession of his father's property. But +would he if there were no will? Could it be managed that he should not +succeed? Doctor Hardon apparently thought it could, for there was a +strange smile upon his countenance. But what should he do? replace the +soiled envelope in the bureau? or should he burn it? How it would burn +now, soaked in oil as it was! And what if his brother thought he had +destroyed it? What mattered? he had evidently left him nothing. But he +was not sure of that; he might have left him something--something +pitiful--a mourning-ring, as he hinted; or a watch, or suit of mourning. +Better play the bold game, and burn the will; he might never make +another--he might not live; and as his thoughts took this bent, the +doctor shudderingly gazed at the laudanum-bottle. + +Once he advanced towards the fire, and then shrunk back; a second time +he advanced and receded, trembling visibly, for it was an act of felony +he thought of performing; then, fiercely crushing the envelope in his +hand, he stepped forward, when the lamp was dashed over, and as he +started round a cold chill struck through him, for he was forced upon +his knees, while, ever tightening and crushing down even the gurgling +cry he half uttered, there was a bony set of fingers at his throat. + +Volume One, Chapter XI. + +HARD TIMES. + +Times were hard with Septimus Hardon, and too often he was quite in +despair. There was that difficult problem before him, always waiting to +be solved, and he not able to solve it: given so many mouths to feed, +how to do it. It was a problem that many a better man had failed over, +and those who knew him, while commiserating, saw how weak and helpless +and unfitted he was for the task. But times might have been worse; for +he learned now that even in the lowest depths of poverty, whatever may +have been written to the contrary, there are such people as friends, any +one of whom, in his genuine truth of heart, is worth a score of the +parasites who cling to a man in the hours of his prosperity. Old +Matthew Space, oddly as his acquaintanceship had begun, was such a +friend; and so, to a certain extent, was Mr Sterne; but there was, and +he knew it too, a tinge of selfishness in the latter's friendship +towards Septimus Hardon, and though he battled with it, and thought +again and again that he had beaten it down, there it still was in spite +of all. The mistrust he had felt for old Matt had somewhat softened +down, after seeing his disinterested attention towards the Hardon +family; while the curate argued, upon seeing the old man with Septimus +Hardon's child, that no man could be bad at heart who had so true a love +for innocence as embodied in a child, almost fresh and pure from the +hands of its Maker. But somehow, he and Matt never seemed to get a jot +nearer to each other. Difference of position had nothing to do with it, +for Arthur Sterne was ready to extend the hand of friendship to the +humblest dweller in the court, and aid and teach to the best of his +ability. But Matt said he daresay it was all right, but somehow he was +one who did not like to be patronised; while as to being taught, the +clay had grown too stiff, and hard, and cracked, to submit to the +moulding of the potter's hands. "And you see, sir, to be able to do +anything with me, you must moisten my clay with beer, which softens me a +little; and it isn't likely as a clergyman is going to supply me with my +malt liquor, and all for the sake of giving me a few lessons. I respect +him, sir, and always shall, but we don't seem the sort to mix." This to +Septimus Hardon. + +Mr Sterne, finding his advances of no avail, ceased to make any; and +soon he and old Matt were upon a friendly neutral ground, while the +extent of their communications was a bow upon either side. Their visits +to the first-floor in Bennett's-rents were frequent, and in time they so +arranged their calls that they should not clash; while, for further +convenience, by a tacit understanding, it was come curate, go printer; +and _vice versa_. + +"I much wish you had chosen some better neighbourhood," said Mr Sterne +one day, "for your wife and child's sake; and this is not a nice place +for Miss Grey." + +Lucy looked up in the curate's subdued face with a grateful smile; and +then there was a faint blush upon her cheek as she looked down again. + +"No, it's not a nice place--not at all nice," said Septimus drearily; +"but then it seemed right in the thick of the law-writing, which I'm +trying to acquire; but it's very hard work--it's so crooked and crabbed +and hard to make out. One ought to have begun young. I've been trying +for weeks now; but they all find fault with my hand." + +"It is too good--too flowing and clear," said the curate, looking at +some sheets of foolscap Septimus laid before him. "But patience, and +you will do it. Keep your elbow more away from your side--so." And he +leaned over the paper, and wrote a couple of lines so rapidly, and +exactly in the style required, that Septimus looked on in admiration, +but only to sigh directly after for his own want of skill. + +"Never mind," he said, "I shall manage it some day;" and he smiled +cheerfully, for he had just caught sight of the worn face of his wife. +"'Tis a bad neighbourhood this, sir," he said, to change the +conversation; "but it's cheap for London, I suppose." + +"Doubtless--doubtless," said the curate; "but it is a sad place; and I +know it well, as you may easily suppose. And now, Mr Hardon," he said +as he rose to leave, "do not let me be so great a stranger to you. Ask +my advice on matters, and take me into your counsels at all times. +Come; you promise?" + +Septimus Hardon did not speak, but wrung the curate's hand; and in the +future he did precisely what might have been expected of him--let +matters get from bad to worse, and never once spoke to the visitor upon +his dreary prospects--prospects that from delicacy the curate forbore to +inquire into, while to old Matt, Septimus was openness itself. + +One day Septimus sat gnawing his nails in despair, for some law-copying +that he had hoped would bring him in a few shillings had been thrown +back upon his hands, with some very sharp language from the keen, +business-like law-stationer who, after many solicitations, had employed +him. + +"Don't grieve, papa," whispered Lucy, looking up from the paid warehouse +needlework she was employed upon--"don't grieve, papa, they will pay me +for this when I take it home;" and the words were spoken in a sweet +soothing strain that comforted the poor fellow in his trouble. + +"He said I must be a fool to undertake work I could not perform," said +Septimus lugubriously; "and I suppose I must be." + +"Don't, don't talk so, dear," whispered Lucy, glancing uneasily at the +door of the back-room. "Don't let her hear you." + +"Well, I won't," said Septimus, rousing up and crossing the room to kiss +the soft cheek held up so lovingly to him--"I won't, pet Lucy; and I'll +try again, that I will;" and he returned to his seat. + +"Yes, do; yes, do!" cried Lucy, with smiles and tears at one and the +same time. "Don't mind what they said; you are so clever, you must +succeed." + +Septimus screwed up his face, but Lucy shook her head at him, still +busily stitching, while, with his head resting upon his hand, Septimus +gazed on that budding figure before him, growing fast into the +similitude of the woman who had first taught him that he had a heart; +but she looked up again, and Septimus turned to his papers. + +"Were there many mistakes, dear?" said Lucy. + +"Well, not so many," said Septimus; "only the writing I copied from was +so bad; and I've put in the contractions where I ought not, and altered +them where they should have stayed; and you see, my child, I don't know +how it is, but I do get so wild in my spelling. I know when the worst +of it was, it was when Tom would sit on my knee and put his fingers in +the ink-bottle; and that is distracting, you know, when one copies +crabbed handwriting. But the worst fault was what I didn't see--and how +I came to put it in, I'm sure I don't know, but it was a part of that +line of Goldsmith's, `But times are altered, trade's unfeeling train.' +I don't know how it came there, only that it was there, and I must have +written it when I was half-asleep. Let me see, it was--ah, yes, here it +is, in folio 15, and I began that at half-past two this morning. I +couldn't say anything, you know, my child, could I? for of course it +didn't look well in amongst a lot about a man's executors and +administrators, and all that sort of thing. It's a bad job, ain't it?" + +Poor Lucy looked up at the wretchedly-doleful face before her, hardly +knowing whether to smile or be serious; and then, in spite of the +trouble they were in, and perhaps from the fact of tears being so near +akin to smiles, they both laughed merrily over the disaster; and +Septimus set to work to try and remedy the wrong doings, by rewriting +several of the sheets--a task he was busily engaged upon when old Matt +came with his tap at the door and entered. + +"And how's Mrs Hardon, sir?" said Matt respectfully. + +A faint voice responded from the back-room, for Mrs Septimus spent much +of her time in a reclining position. + +"Busy as ever, miss, I see," said Matt; "and bright as a rose." + +Lucy, bright as a rose truly, but only as the pale white blossom that +shows the faintest tinge of pink, looked up from the hard sewing which +made sore her little fingers, and smiled upon the old man. + +"And how's the writing, sir?" said Matt. + +"No good--no good, Matt," said Septimus wearily. "I'm out of my +element, and shall never do any good at it, I'm afraid." + +"Don't have nothing to do with it, then, sir; come and finger the types +again. I've no opinion of copying, only as a combination of +law-stationers to do honest printers out of their work. Try setting +again, sir, and I'll give you grass first time I get a chance." + +"Grass!" said Septimus absently. + +"Well, yes, sir; put you on a job instead of doing it myself; first +chance I have." + +Septimus shook his head, went and thrust some sheets of paper into the +fire, and then walked to the window, where his apathetic air passed off +for an instant, as he seemed to recognise the face of a woman who passed +quickly from the opposite house, and then hurriedly made her way out of +the court. + +"Strange!" muttered Septimus to himself; "but there, it couldn't be +her." + +"And where's my little di'mond?" said Matt to Lucy. + +"Asleep by mamma," replied Lucy. + +"Bless him! I've brought him a steam-ingin," said Matt, bringing a +toy-model, with a glorious display of cotton-wool steam, out of his +pocket; "and I don't know what this here's meant for," he continued, +drawing a wooden quadruped from the other pocket. "Stands well, don't +he, miss? Wonder what it's meant for! 'Tain't a horse, nor a +halligator, nor a elephant--can't be a elephant, you know, because they +haven't got these Berlin-wool-looking sides; no, nor it ain't no trunk +neither. Let's call it a hippopotamus, and see how he'll tie his pretty +little tongue in a knot, bless him! a-trying to say it when he wakes. +You'll tell him Uncle Matt brought 'em, won't you, miss?" he said, +holding them behind his back. + +Lucy nodded, while Matt blew out and arranged the cotton-wool steam as +carefully as if it was a matter of the greatest importance, or a jewel +for a queen; and who shall say that the old printer's task was not of as +great importance, and that the pleasure of the child is not of equal +value with that of the greatest potentate that ever ruled; while as to +the amount of enjoyment derived, there can be no doubt. + +"And what time is the work to go home, miss?" said Matt, after +contriving with great difficulty to make the wild quadruped use his four +supports in the way intended by his manufacturer--the beast's idea being +that its nose was the proper front rest for its body, and that by rights +it was a tripod. + +"I'm afraid I shall not be ready before eight," said Lucy, bending to +her task. + +"I'll be here to the moment, brushed up and smart," said the old man. +"Why, how proud you ought to be of having such a bodyguard, Miss Lucy!" + +The girl looked up and smiled, half sadly, at the old man as she held +out her hand, which he took in his own for a moment, kissed +respectfully, and then he shuffled from the room. + +Ten minutes after, old Matt's step was again heard upon the stairs, and +he directly after appeared with a pot of porter in one hand, and +something tied up in a cotton handkerchief in the other; while, as he +entered, he glanced stealthily from face to face to see what effect his +proceedings would have before he spoke. + +"You see, Mr Hardon, sir, it's a busy morning with me, and as I'm so +far from my lodging--what a fib!" he thought to himself--"I thought I'd +ask the favour of being allowed to have a bite here." + +Of course there was no objection raised, and the old man's roast +potatoes were soon warming, while Lucy left her work to frizzle the +large portion of prime steak over the fire. + +"No, no, miss; none of that," said Matt, taking the fork out of Lucy's +hand; "I've cooked hundreds of bits of steak, miss, and I'm too +particular to trust you; and, besides, you'll be keeping me waiting +to-night when it's time the work was taken home; and my time's the only +valuable possession I'm worth." + +Here old Matt directed a very knowing wink at Septimus Hardon; but he +was deep in thought, with his head resting upon his hand. However, Lucy +understood the old man's quaint kindness, and resumed her work; but +there was a tear twinkling in her eye. + +"Lord, Miss Lucy," said Matt, turning the steak upon the gridiron, and +distributing a most appetising odour through the room, where more than +once of late hunger had sat gaunt and staring,--"Lord, Miss Lucy, how I +should like to see you with one of those new machines; stitch away they +do, and the work comes running out by the yard." + +Lucy sighed, and pressed a sore finger to her rosy lips. + +"'Spose I may put the cloth on, miss, mayn't I?" said Matt, who was +quite at home in the place. + +Lucy nodded; and the old man soon had the cloth spread, and the steak +done; when, pulling a long face, he groaned heavily. + +"There!" he exclaimed, "that's always the way. Who'd be troubled with a +complaint? Thought I could just pick a bit; but now it's all nice and +ready, and as prime as can be, I'm done. Such a steak as that is, too, +juicy and done to a twist, and the very best cut out of the whole beast. +But there, don't let it be spoiled, miss, please;" and before anyone +could stay him the old man was shuffling down the stairs, chuckling to +himself as he made his way into the court, while Septimus, stung to the +heart by his poverty, and overcome by the old man's kindness, left his +chair, and began to pace the room wringing his hands. + +"O, that it should have come to this! O, that it should have come to +this!" he groaned; but the next moment Mrs Septimus had forgotten her +own trouble, and was weeping upon his breast, while Lucy had work enough +to pacify the frightened child. + +"Don't, don't, darling," whispered Mrs Septimus in a supplicating +voice. "I know it is all my fault, and I'm thinking of it constantly; +but don't let me think that you reproach me, or it will kill me +outright." + +There was such agony of spirit in Mrs Hardon's words that Septimus +forgot his own wounded pride and misery by turn, in busily trying to +soothe the poor invalid, who gladly took her seat at the table, while +Septimus, with a smile upon his countenance, kept on vowing how hopeful +he would be, as, casting pride to the winds, he distributed old Matt's +much-needed steak, not hesitating to partake himself of the old man's +bounty. + +A gleam of hopeful sunshine seemed to have darted into the room that +afternoon as Septimus sat busily writing, and the sharp click of needle +upon thimble could be heard from the back-room, where Mrs Septimus was +busy helping Lucy, so that the work might be finished in time, though +every now and then it fell to someone's lot to amuse the little boy, +who, a very spoiled tyrant, seemed bent upon being as capricious and +unreasonable as children can be at times. But ever and again the +wrinkles would deepen upon Septimus Hardon's forehead, and he would lay +down his pen, in dread lest he should include some of his busy thoughts +in his copying. What should he do to better his condition? Time back +it had seemed so easy a task, that of keeping his wife and children; +but, put to the proof, how difficult. Some that he saw were almost +without trouble; wealth poured in upon them in return for their bright +thoughts. And why should not he be rich when schemes in plenty came +flashing to his brain? There were scores of fortunes to be made had he +but capital--that golden key that should open the treasure-house; but he +was poor--a beggar, as he told himself again and again, when, to drive +away the thoughts, he stooped over his copying, but only to lay it aside +once more and sigh. + +Old Matt came again that evening, vowing that he was much better, for he +had been trying a favourite remedy of his--abstinence. "A first-rate +thing, sir, for indigestion," said Matt; "rather lowering, certainly, +but surprisingly efficacious as a medicine, while it costs nothing, and +saves at the same time. A good walk helps, too, but then that requires +what the shoe-shops call a pair of `stout walking,' and my old feet want +an easy style of boot. I wouldn't use a new boot on any consideration," +said Matt, stretching out a dilapidated and crushed Wellington, polished +to the highest pitch of lustre by a scarlet-coated brigadier. "I study +comfort, sir; ease before appearances." + +Lucy was soon ready, and then, with a couple of inches added to his +stature, the old man proudly escorted her through court, lane, and +street, to the warehouse; and then patiently waited till her business +was transacted. Many a glance was directed at the strangely-assorted +couple, but he would have been a bold man who would have insulted the +poor girl, who leaned so trustingly upon the old printer's arm till they +reached the court, where he allowed her to go first, stopping and +scratching his cheek viciously as he saw Lucy tremblingly hold out her +hand to a woman who hurriedly passed from the house opposite that +occupied by Septimus. They seemed to have met before; but old Matt +looked vexed and undecided. Once he closed up, but a glance from Lucy +sent him back, when he passed the rest of his time in returning with +interest the bold, inquisitive stare of Mr William Jarker, who stood +with a couple of friends in the entrance of the court, watching Lucy and +the stranger with some degree of interest, till Mr Jarker caught Matt's +eye, when he turned to his companions, said something, and they walked +off together, Matt's quick ear catching the words, "9:30," and a click +or two as if one of the men carried tools in the pocket of his +shooting-jacket. + +Directly after, the stranger passed old Matt with a quiet appealing +look, to which he replied with a nod of a very undecided description, +half civil, half angry; and then, still scratching his silver-stubbled +cheek, he wished Lucy good-night, shaking his head the while, to which +she replied, "Please don't be angry," in a way that brought a smile into +the old man's countenance; a sunny smile that began at one corner of his +month, and then spread through stubbly whisker, and over wrinkle, till +it was all over his face, clearing away the shadow that had lain there; +but as old Matt turned away, his head began to shake, and the shadow +that had been lurking in the farther whisker crept back again, slowly +and surely, as night crept down over Bennett's-rents to hide the sordid +misery that chose the court for its home. + +"What's `9:30'?" said Matt to himself, as passing out of the court his +thoughts took a fresh direction. "Nice-looking party that. 'Spose I +button up my coat over my gold repeater. They were thinking about +what's o'clock, they were, hang 'em." + +Old Matt Space suited the action to the word, bursting off a button in +the operation, and then carefully picking it up and saving it, as he +strode off muttering. + +"`Nine-thirty'? What's their little game?" + +Volume One, Chapter XII. + +FRIENDS FROM TOWN. + +"For God's sake, Octy," gurgled Doctor Hardon almost inaudibly, so +tightly were the fingers clutching his throat,--"don't! don't! I was +only looking." + +"Turn on the glim, Joe," croaked a harsh voice; when a bright light +flashed in a broad, well-defined, ever-widening path right across the +room, leaving the untouched portion in a darkness of the blackest; but +the light shone where the doctor could see his brother upon the floor, +with a rough fellow kneeling beside him, while a coarse, big-jawed +ruffian, the upper portion of whose face was covered with crape, held on +tightly by the doctor's throat with fingers whose bony force he had at +first taken for his brother's. It was evident that another man was +present holding the lantern; but from the position of the light he was +in the shadow, and so invisible. + +"Light that there lamp again," croaked the same voice; and at the same +time the doctor felt himself dragged at until he rose to his feet, when +he was backed into a chair, one hand being loosened from his throat. +Directly after a heavy blow fell upon his head, causing the light to +dance and sparkle before his eyes. + +"There," growled the voice; "that's jest a reminder, that is. That +didn't hurt, that didn't; but it's jest to show what we could do if yer +get to be troublesome. Now, then," growled the ruffian to his +companion, who was stooping over the fire, "light that lamp, d'yer hear? +You're gallus sharp, you are." + +"Who's to light the butcherly thing when hain't got no ile in?" growled +the ruffian addressed. + +"I wish you'd got a little more ile in you," croaked the first speaker +in a voice that seemed to ascend through a tubular rasp. "Hang on here, +will yer, and give us holt." + +The doctor felt himself delivered over into another pair of hands, the +change not being for the better; for the new gaoler seemed to be +experimentalising, and trying to find out the best place for holding on +by when doing a little modern Thuggee, consequently the doctor's was not +a pleasant situation. + +Directly after, a little oil was spilt upon the fire, causing it to +blaze up and illumine the room, displaying to the doctor's starting eyes +the three costermonger-like figures of the men in the room; when, seeing +his quiescence, the one acting as gaoler called attention to a couple of +candles in old bronze-holders upon the chimney-piece, and, loosing his +hold of his prisoner, leaned forward to reach them down. + +It was a tempting moment for the doctor, and, without pausing to think +of its uselessness, he seized the bell-rope within his reach, and +dragged at it heavily. But the next instant he had fallen back in his +chair from a well-planted blow between the eyes, and then, half-stunned, +he listened to the faint tones of the bell as the men produced what +seemed to be so much clothes-line from a small carpet-bag, with which +they dexterously and firmly bound him to his chair. + +"You improves, you do," growled the first ruffian to the man lighting +the candles. "Been all the same if that there jangler had alarmed the +whole blessed country." + +"How was I to know as he'd jump up like so much watchworks?" said the +other, placing the lighted candles, whose tops were encrusted with ash +from the fire, upon the table. + +"Know! not you; but you knows how to claim yer share of the swag." + +Then the poor old man upon the floor, whose wild, staring eyes seemed to +betoken some violent seizure, was lifted into a chair opposite his +brother, and bound after the same fashion, when the spokesman of the +party shook the heavy leaden knob of that misnamed article a +life-preserver in the doctor's face, saying: "Don't you try no more +games, my kiddy, or else"--a playful tap illustrated his meaning. +"She's safe in bed, and tied up so as she won't answer no ringing nohow. +She's tucked up all right, she is; d'yer hear?" + +The preserver-handle was very elastic, and the knob tapped playfully +upon the doctor's forehead as the ruffian spoke; but the bound man was +too confused to answer, and though what followed seemed to him like a +wild dream, yet his heart leaped once as he saw the fellow snatch the +will from the floor, where it had fallen, tear open the seal, and hold +the paper to the light. + +"What's in it, Bill?" growled another of the gentry. + +"Gallussed if I know," said the other; "but 'tain't no good;" and the +doctor saw it crushed together and thrown upon the fire, where it blazed +up and was soon consumed. But confused as the doctor was, the next +proceedings of the ruffians produced groan after groan from his breast, +as they attacked his vanity, and metaphorically rolled him in the dust; +for removing a fur cap that he wore, so as to cool his brain perhaps, +and displaying thereby a very closely-cropped bullet-head, the leader of +the gang, as he seemed to be, first snapped the doctor's gold-chain, and +set it and watch at liberty; for the doctor's bonds would have impeded +their being taken off in the normal fashion. Then followed, one after +the other, to be placed in a small carpet-bag with the watch and chain, +the spectacle-case and gold eyeglass; the handsomely-chased gold +snuff-box from one pocket, gold toothpick from another. The set of +studs were dragged from the cambric front; a massively-set diamond ring +from the doctor's right hand, and a signet from his left; while as the +various ornaments were passed from one to the other, and deposited in +the bag, a broad grin followed each groan from the doctor. + +"Where's his puss, Bill?" said Number 8 ruffian, who was the Judas +Iscariot of the party, and carried the bag. + +"Here it is," growled Bill, whose hands were wonderfully active for so +heavy, burly-looking a man, diving in and out of pocket after pocket, +and now drawing forth a very handsome, elaborately-gilt, russia-leather +portemonnaie--half purse, half pocket-book--and grinning as he opened +it, he drew out and laid upon the table, first a railway insurance +ticket, next a lancet, then a crooked sixpence, and lastly a +threepenny-piece. + +"Here, lay holt o' this 'ere, and slit it up," said Number 2 ruffian, +handing his companion an open clasp-knife. + +The gentleman called Bill took the knife and ripped the purse all to +pieces, tearing leather from lining everywhere; but no notes fell out, +no secret pocket was disclosed; and throwing the remains of the purse +upon the fire with an aspect of the most profound disgust upon his face, +the fellow exclaimed, "I'm gallussed!" + +"Let's wet it, Bill, afore we goes any further," said Number 8, and as +he crossed silently to the sideboard, and brought out the port and +another decanter, the doctor saw that the men were without boots, which +accounted to him for their sudden attack. + +The wine and glasses were placed upon the table, and the burglars very +coolly proceeded to refresh themselves--one seating himself upon the +table, another upon a chair, and the last taking his place upon the +coal-scuttle--treating it as if it were a saddle. + +"Here's towards yer, old un!" growled the big-jawed gentleman called +Bill, tossing, or rather pouring, a glass of wine down his bull throat +as he looked at the doctor--his companions paying the same compliment to +Octavius, who, however, seemed to be perfectly insensible. + +All at once a faint scream was heard from another part of the house, +when one of the men rose. + +"She thinks as we're gone, Bill," said ruffian Number 2, with a grin. +"Just go and show her that mug of yours, and she'll soon shut them +pipes." + +Bill of the big jaw rose, displaying his teeth so that the lips seemed +to assimilate with the gums; and he, apparently taking his comrade's +remark for a compliment, walked out on the points of his toes, in a +peculiar fashion of his own; when, winking to his companion, Number 2 +stole softly to the sideboard, looked about a bit, and then seizing a +small silver salver, doubled it by main force, and slipped it into the +pocket of his velveteen coat. He then darted back to his place, +whispered "halves" to his companion, and began helping himself to more +wine, just as Bill hurried in again, glancing suspiciously about him +with his peculiarly restless, chameleon-like eyes, which seemed to be on +the watch for plunder, trickery, and Nemesis, at one and the same time, +and now it was evident that he suspected a march to have been stolen +upon him. + +However, a few more glasses of wine were drunk, and then the men +proceeded to methodically ransack the place, finding a tolerable booty +of old-fashioned plate in the sideboard; while from the bureau, another +gold watch, with its old-fashioned broad chain and seals; a ring or two, +some quaint jewellery, and a few sovereigns and small change were +obtained. + +The cords which bound the brothers were then carefully examined, and a +knot or two tightened, so that the doctor winced; then the candles were +extinguished, and the big-jawed man growled in the doctor's ear, "Now, +jest you move, that's all; and I'm gallussed--" + +The fellow did not finish his speech verbally, but again illustrated his +meaning with a tap of the life-preserver. + +"We ain't a-goin' yet," growled Number 8; "so don't you think it. I +_have_ used this 'ere, and I ain't used it," he said, showing his +clasp-knife; "but it's a sharp un--so I tell you; and where it does go, +it goes--so look out." + +"This one's been a-drinkin'; smell his breath," said Number 2, nodding +at old Octavius, as he cast the light from the lantern upon his wild +face. + +Just then the doctor gave a loud groan, for his cords hurt him. + +"Shove a bit in his mouth, Bill, or he'll begin to pipe, p'r'aps," +growled Number 8. + +"He'd best not," said Bill savagely; "but how-so-be he shall have it; +there's some knives in that there drawer." + +Doctor Hardon's eyes rolled in their sockets as he saw one of the men go +to the sideboard drawer and bring out a large table-knife. Then the +head of the party took it from his companion's hand and held the blade +between the bars, where the fire yet glowed, when the effect in a few +minutes was to loosen the handle, for the resin melted, and the blade +slipped out. The man then took the handle, untied and slipped off the +doctor's white cravat, and then turning his back, rolled the knife-haft +tightly in its folds; while, wondering what was to follow, the +horror-stricken captive began to groan dismally. + +"Now for it," cried Bill sharply, seizing the bound and helpless man by +the throat, when, fancying that his last hour had come, the doctor +opened his mouth to cry out, when the knife-handle was thrust between +his teeth, and the cravat tightly tied behind his head, keeping the gag +securely in its place, and thoroughly robbing him of the power of even +crying out. + +"Now t'other," said Bill. "Get another knife out." + +"Ah! he's all right," said Number 2. "I'd leave him." + +"P'r'aps you would," said Bill; "but we two don't want to be blowed on, +if you do." + +"But he's a-most dead now," said Number 2; "and if you stop his mouth +that way, I'm blessed if I don't think he will be quite afore morning." + +"And what then?" said Bill contemptuously; "what if he is? What's the +good of an old cove like him? Yah!" + +However, that part of the ceremony was left undone. The doctor heard +the door close, open again, for the key to be dragged out of the lock +and replaced in the other side; when once more the door was closed and +double-locked. Then followed the sound as of a whispered dispute, and +again silence, till it was broken by a faint scream from upstairs; +while, with every nerve on the stretch, the doctor listened for the next +movement, as, still somewhat confused in mind, he kept fancying that the +stertorous breathing of his brother was that of one of the ruffians on +guard at the door. + +An hour must have passed, during which time the doctor still fancied +there was a man on guard, and dared not move, though at that time the +three visitors were coolly taking their tickets of a sleepy porter, the +only one of the railway company's servants in charge of the station, and +soon after they were being whirled up by the night mail which called at +Somesham for the letter-bags at two o'clock. But at last, as the +doctor's mind became clearer, he made out that the breathing must be +that of his brother; and rousing himself, he tried to free his hands. +The cord only cut deeply into his plump flesh, though, and a sharp pain +was the sole result, though he could tell that his arms and legs were +swelling, and that the circulation was almost stopped. He tried to get +rid of the gag in his mouth, but only made it press the harder upon his +false teeth, so that the gold setting seemed almost to crush his gums. +Then he waited awhile, to gain strength, and as his head grew clearer, +he recalled how that the will had been destroyed, and thought of how, +had he known what was to happen, he would have opened and read it. If +now Octavius would neglect to make another! He was old and helpless, +and no doubt getting to be imbecile--at least, in his doctorial eyes; +and if he would but neglect to make another! Then he remembered how the +villains had denuded his person, and he writhed with fury so that his +chair cracked. + +Back to the thoughts of the will and of Septimus Hardon; and for a time +so deep was his musing, that the doctor almost forgot his own position +till the pain recalled him, and he found he was fast growing numb and +cold. + +All at once a terrible shudder ran through his frame, for a rustling and +squeaking behind the oak wainscot startled him. + +"Rats!" he thought to himself; and he recalled how the house was said to +swarm with them, and how that they had once attacked a child in bed. +Started upon that train of thought, there were plenty of anecdotes to +startle him with the reputed courage of the fierce little animals when +hunger-driven. + +Another hour passed in the darkness, as regularly and slow came the +stertorous breathing of Octavius, interrupted at times by the fierce +scratching of the rats behind the wainscot, or their scampering beneath +the floor in their many galleries; and again and again the doctor +shivered with fear, as he sat listening and longing for help. + +But no help came--neither was it likely to come, since the lonely house +might have been passed again and again without there being a suspicion +excited of anything being wrong. Besides, late in the night it was a +great chance if a soul passed. He knew, from his professional habits, +that no surprise would be felt at home because of his absence, and he +had not said where he was going. + +Another hour passed, and the doctor sat listening eagerly for his +brother's breath, which, from being loud and stertorous, had now become +so faint as to be hardly perceptible; indeed at times it appeared to +have ceased, and in his then excited condition he began to dread that +the overdose of laudanum, or the shock, had been too much for the old +man, and that he was to pass the remainder of the night with a corpse. +He dreaded the corpse horribly, but did he dread that such was the +case--that his brother was dead? He was old and useless certainly, but +he was rich, and his will was destroyed; and were there no Septimus, or +could he be put aside, that property would come to him. But was his +brother dead? Death was nothing new to him; he had stood by hundreds of +deathbeds; but under these circumstances, bound down there, with nerves +unstrung, numbed, cold, and in agony, Doctor Hardon had at times a +difficult matter to contain himself, and he trembled fearfully with a +new horror lest he should lose control over himself. + +He listened, and the breathings had ceased; the only sounds he could +hear were the horrible gnawings of the vermin. At last, though, he +heard a breath; but he shuddered again, for his excited fancy told him +that it was the harsh, rattling expiration that he had often heard--that +last effort of the lungs ere stilled for ever. + +The tearing and scratching of the vermin now grew louder, and the doctor +asked himself why? as, beside himself with horror, he sat listening. +His temples throbbed, the cold sweat stood upon his face, and he +struggled again and again to free himself, but only to tighten the +well-tied knots. At times he could hardly breathe, while at last a +thrill ran through him--a thrill of indescribable terror--such a shock +as would have made him yell, had he been able; for quickly, and with a +sharp scratching, he felt something run up one of his bound legs, across +his lap, and then he heard the soft "pat" as a rat leaped upon the +carpet. + +Doctor Hardon could bear no more; horrible, stifled groans burst from +his breast, as, mad with dread, he leaped and bounded spasmodically in +his seat, making the cords cut deeply into his flesh till, in one of his +agonised convulsions, the chair went over backwards with a crash; when, +stunned and helpless, the wretched man lay in a wild dream of horror, +from which he only awoke to relapse again and again. + +Volume One, Chapter XIII. + +AT THE COUNTY ARMS. + +The people of Somesham, whom Doctor Hardon regulated as to their +internal economy, were of opinion that there was not such another town +as theirs in the whole kingdom; and no doubt they were right. It was +situated at the foot of a range of chalky wolds, and in dry weather +always gave the visitors an idea that its inhabitants were a slovenly +race, and had not dusted their town lately. There was a long, white, +dusty road that led to it on one side, and a long, dusty road that led +to or from it on the other side; there was one long, dusty street, with +shops and private houses mixed up anyhow; there were a few dusty cross +streets which led nowhere; a market-place where pigs squealed and butter +was sold on Tuesdays; a town-hall, combined with a corn-exchange and an +assembly-room, forming an ugly dust-coloured building, which was like +the memoranda and papers in people's pocket-books when they are +advertised as lost--of no value to anyone but the owners; and the +sole use it would have been to them was to sell it for old +building-materials. There were public-houses, and, above all, a +commercial inn, kept by one Mrs Lower, a stout, elderly lady, who had +formerly occupied the post of nurse in Octavius Hardon's house until +such times as a nurse was no longer required, when she did needlework, +and helped in the domestic concerns till her mistress died, and then +acted as housekeeper up to the advent of Agnes Hardon, when one John +Lower, keeper of the County Arms in Somesham market-place, persuaded her +to say "Yes" to the question he had so many times asked her, and she +became landlady of the goodly inn; nurse again to the failing old man +her husband; and lastly, sole owner of the goods, chattels, and +tenements of the said John Lower, who went to his long sleep with a +blessing upon his lips for the good woman who had smoothed the last +hours of his life. + +Mrs Lower made a very comfortable widow--one whose hostelry was much +frequented by commercial gentlemen, and those given to running down from +town once or twice a week for the purpose of having a turn with the Low +Wold hounds; stout, as a matter of course, for no woman could be +expected to make a good landlady who was angular or pointed in her +person. Mrs Lower was stout, but not uncomfortably so, and this +stoutness she kept in its proper proportion by a comfortable diet, and +by being a woman without one of those unpleasant parasites known as +cares. Doubtless she had plenty of the little troubles of life to +encounter--those little three-cornered affairs that bother everyone-- +matters that to some people would be cares; but in her case, being a +mild, cheerful, and amiable woman, they made but little impression, the +consequence being that these acidities of life never ate into her +countenance, running down it in wrinkles, and puckers, and channels; and +at an age one never dare mention in her presence, or out of it either, +for fear of not being believed, she was plump of face, rosy, and +comfortable-looking, to an extent that made more than one well-to-do +farmer, and tradesman too, make her an offer that she would not accept. + +Mrs Lower sat very comfortably enjoying her breakfast in the bar of the +County Arms, which bar was a pleasant-looking glass bower, with a view +one way of the sawdusty passage leading out into the market-place, and +in the other direction a prospect of divers pendent articles of +consumption--to wit, a turkey, joints of mutton and beef, poultry, and a +couple of long-tailed pheasants. There was a cozy air about Mrs +Lower's bar, for everything in it looked snug, from the big-stomached +bottles to the great tom-cat blinking on the hearth-rug. No fireplace +ever shone to such an extent as Mrs Lower's, for it was a very race +between black-lead and flame which should glow most, the result being a +warm combination, in which the fender, copper tea-kettle, and fire-irons +joined, and which every bottle, glass, and object with shine in its +composition laughed over and reflected. Everything in Mrs Lower's cozy +bar seemed in keeping, and as if belonging to it--beginning with the +principal object animate, Mrs Lower herself, and descending through the +blind, fat spaniel and the black, blinking tom-cat, to the stout +bullfinch in the cage hung in the window--a finch so fat that he very +seldom hopped, while there was a general aspect about him that his +feather jacket was too tight, for it never seemed smooth. There was a +tradition that this bullfinch used to pipe "God save the King;" but that +when William the Fourth died, he went into mourning for him, and had +never opened his beak to honour the successor. True or not, Mrs Lower +believed it; and at all events, if people doubted the bird's age, she +could declare the part of the story to be true which related to its +never opening its beak to pipe the anthem in its altered form. + +Mrs Lower mostly had "a snack," as she termed it, for her breakfast; +such snack being generally something very savoury and appetising, and +frequently taking the form of mushrooms, devilled drumsticks, or +kidneys; while Hides, the butcher in the market-place, had been known to +tell fibs, his wife said, on Mrs Lower's account, and to deny that he +had any sweetbreads when even aristocratic customers had wanted them, so +that Mrs Lower might not be disappointed. But then Mrs Lower was no +mean customer; and Hides said, with a wink to his wife, her money was +always there when he wanted it, and that was more than some people's was +who held their heads very high. Mrs Hardon had been heard to say that +she believed Hides' calves never had any sweetbreads--a remark conveyed, +per the cook, to Hides himself, at a time when that gentleman evinced +very little pleasure in supplying the Hardon house, and always made a +point of sending in dry beef and mean tough mutton. + +But Mrs Lower could always have sweetbreads, and she was enjoying one +cooked to perfection, sipping too, from time to time, a fine rich cup of +tea, with an odour of a great-many-spoons-to-the-pot power, when +Charles, head--and foot--waiter, made his appearance at the bar-door, +with his head on one side, and a sharp cocksparrow-look about him, from +his beaky nose, prominent chest, and thin legs,--his tail-coat aiding +the simile. + +"Heard the news, mem?" said Charles, raising the napkin he carried over +his arm, and nearly wiping his nose upon it by mistake. + +"No, Charles," said Mrs Lower, peeping into the pot by raising the lid. + +"The whole town, mem, 's in a--" + +"Take that pot out, Charles, and put in one cupful,--not more, the +tea-kettle's low, and the water's all furry." + +"Yes, mem; town's in a fermin, mem, and--" + +"One cupful mind, Charles," said Mrs Lower, interrupting him. + +"Fermin, mem," continued Charles, "and--" + +"Bless the man, go and fill the pot!" exclaimed Mrs Lower. "No--no! +not fill it--one cup, Charles;" and the waiter disappeared. + +"And now what's the matter?" said Mrs Lower blandly, as, somewhat +ruffled and reticent, Charles brought back the pot, having forgotten +that the most important matter to Mrs Lower at meal-time was the meal +itself. + +"Matter, mem--why, everything's the matter--burglary and robbery, and +murder almost; and all sorts, mem," said Charles, again making a dash at +his napkin, but recollecting himself in time in favour of a red-silk +handkerchief. + +"Nonsense!" said Mrs Lower, thoroughly enjoying a piece of the very +brownest sweetbread outside, rich in glorious osmazome; "nonsense, +Charles!" and so far from being startled, she cut two or three +dice-shaped pieces of bread, soaked them in the rich gravy, and went on +enjoying her breakfast. + +"Fact, mem, I assure you," said Charles. "That's what Keenings sent for +our fly for, mem." + +"What for? the burglars or the murderers, Charles?" said Mrs Lower +composedly. + +"No, mem; neither, mem; but ordered it at eight, mem, to go to the +Grange, to fetch the doctor, mem." + +"What, Mr Brande?" said Mrs Lower, taking a little more interest in +the matter. + +"No, mem; old Hardon, mem," said Charles. + +"But he never goes to the Grange, Charles; it's all a mistake." + +"No, mem, not a bit," exclaimed Charles. "Jem's in the yard now, mem, +just come back from Hardon's, and he helped the doctor in and out, too; +and Mrs Hardon coming flying down in her dressing-gownd as soon as they +got him down home, and a-going on dreadful, and saying it was all a +judgment for not forgiving Miss Hagniss; and the doctor taking three men +to carry him, being heavy and cold, and almost dead; and Mr Brande's +with him, mem, they say now." Charles paused for breath. + +"But what was it all? what does it mean?" cried Mrs Lower, stirring her +tea with her knife. + +"Why, mem, that's what I'm a-telling you: it's a burglary, you know," +said Charles excitedly. "The Grange attacked by robbers, and the doctor +tied in a chair with the clothes-line, and laid down on his back, as Mr +Keening and Doctor Brande found him, with a knife stuck in his throat." + +"But not dead?" exclaimed Mrs Lower. + +"O, no, mem, only stuck so as he couldn't speak." + +"And where was Squire Octy?" cried Mrs Lower, quite forgetting the +remains of her sweetbread. + +"Why, didn't I tell you, mem? Tied down in another chair, and Mrs +Berry, the housekeeper, tied down in her bed, with a blanket over her +head, and she got loose at six o'clock this morning, and came over and +alarmed the town. Says she'll never go back any more. Gang of ten +ruffians with black faces, and the police are on their tract." + +"But about Squire Octy, Charles. How's he?" + +"Not hurt a mossle, mem, so they says. Jem says that he heard as Mr +Keening cut the rope when he went in, and the old gentleman got up and +shook hisself, and then took a spoonful of loddlum, and he was all right +again directly, and stood laughing at his brother, the doctor, mem, who +was strange and bad." + +"And no one knew anything about it?" said Mrs Lower. + +"Not a word, mem," cried Charles, "and it's a mercy as we weren't all +murdered, I'm sure. And Jem says he saw old Squire Octy laugh when they +lifted the doctor into the fly, while he'd got no chain, nor studs, nor +rings, as you know he wears a lot of them things, mem." + +Mrs Lower nodded. + +"And I hear as all the plate's gone; and they've had the wine, and I +don't know what, mem; but what caps all, mem, was for the squire, old +Mr Octy, mem, to be quite laughing like, and Jem says he looks more +like an old ghost than anything, mem, with a black-velvet cap and a +dressin-gownd." + +A ringing bell summoned Charles away, and, quite forgetful of the +remainder of her breakfast, Mrs Lower sat thinking of her old master in +his present character of the facsimile of a ghost in a black-velvet cap +and a dressing-gown, thinking of the changes in the family, wondering, +too, what had become of the doctor's daughter, Agnes; but above all, of +the shabby-looking elderly man whom she always spoke of as "Master Sep." + +Volume One, Chapter XIV. + +MATT MAKES A DISCOVERY. + +People about Lincoln's-inn began in these days to turn their heads and +look after the shabbily-dressed old printer, who passed them to stop +every now and then at a lamp-post, and then go on again, shaking his +head like an anglicised mandarin, for old Matt was sorely troubled about +the state of affairs in Bennett's-rents. At times he would be for +making a confidant of Mr Sterne, and asking his advice and guidance, +but somehow there always seemed a certain amount of suspicion on either +side, and Matt and the curate maintained a gap between them which +neither attempted to cross. But the old man was after all not unhappy, +for he was enjoying that supreme pleasure which fills the heart, making +it swell almost painfully--that pleasure which never satiates, while it +is like the seed of the parable cast into the ground, some may be +blighted, some trampled down, but there are always certain grains which +flourish and give to the sower a hundredfold of grain in return. Old +Matt was enjoying the pleasure of doing good and helping a fellow-man in +distress. It may be questioned whether the old man's path was ever +easier or more brightly irradiated than during his connection with the +Hardons. True, his income was of the very smallest; but then it is not +the extent of a man's income that gives him pleasure in this life, but +the secret of having all the possible enjoyment out of it. Some with +wealth seek for this enjoyment after a wrong fashion, and find only +bitterness, while in the homes of poverty joy often finds an +abiding-place. + +Septimus Hardon often wondered afterwards how they had managed to live +in this time of trouble; but one way and another the days passed by. +Now he would make a few shillings by his copying, then there was Lucy's +work, while, in spite of remonstrances, old Matt persisted in enjoying +his income after his own fashion, playing his little miserable farces to +his own satisfaction, and then grinning to himself over the little bits +of deceit. He never stopped, shrewd as he was, to ask himself whether +his subterfuges were not of the most transparent; they gained him his +end, and he considered that it was a novel and a neat way of managing +the matter, when a hint at lending money would have given offence. + +One day succeeded another, with the family struggling on, Mrs Septimus +helping Lucy when she could, while, as for Septimus, the most +satisfactory work he obtained was that of copying sermons out for Mr +Sterne; though, strange as it may seem, that gentleman never once used +Septimus Hardon's clear, unblurred transcript, but put it away week +after week, sighing that his income was not greater. + +Septimus had now given up all hope of hearing from his father, and, +resigned somewhat to his fate, he bent over his writing-table trying to +make up by perseverance what he wanted in ability--a capital plan, and +one that has succeeded where talent has made a miserable failure, as old +Aesop knew hundreds of years ago. As for asking his uncle for aid, such +a thought never crossed Septimus Hardon's mind, and perhaps it was well, +for it spared the poor sensitive man the unpleasantry of a refusal. + +One day, all in a hurry and bustle, up came old Matt, just at +dinner-time, to find Mrs Septimus making a sorry failure in her attempt +to find an invalid's dinner in some bread and a long slice of cheese +that a laundress would easily have seized by mistake, under the +impression that it was "best yellow soap." + +"There, just like me!" exclaimed the old man, with a hasty glance round +the room; "just like me; but you won't mind, I know. I always drop in +at mealtimes.--There, give us a kiss, my man. God bless you! `What I +dot for 'oo?' There's a pretty way to talk! Why, let's see; I think +there's something here--down in here somewhere;" and the old man began +to dive behind into one of his pockets. "To be sure, here it is!" he +cried; "and if all the rich jam isn't coming through the paper! Here we +are," he cried, bringing out of a little bag a small oval paste-dish +with a crimped edge, full of a very luscious treacly-looking preserve, +one that, ten minutes before, had been danced over by the flies in the +pastrycook's shop in the Lane. + +Off went little Tom rejoicing, to prepare himself for the after-dinner +wash by gumming his chubby face and hands with the jam. + +"You won't mind, sir; and, ma'am, I hope?" said Matt apologetically. +"But I'm full of work, and haven't time to go home--my lodgings you +know; and if you wouldn't mind. I'm as hungry as a hunter-- +money-hunter, you know; and there's as nice a bit of roast veal and +bacon, piping hot, in the Lane as ever I did see, and that's saying a +good deal. Talk about the smell of it! there, you didn't look in at the +shop-door or you'd never give a fellow such a cold-shouldery look, +ma'am. Whatever you do, ma'am, lend me a couple of plates; I won't +intrude long." + +Mrs Septimus hesitated and glanced at her husband, who was making a +feint of eating. + +"There," cried old Matt, making a grimace, and glancing at Lucy, "I knew +it would come to this; they're growing proud, and I may go. They might +have put it off another day, and not showed it just when I feel so well +and jolly, and could have enjoyed a bit of dinner, which ain't often +with me." + +Septimus Hardon saw his wife's appealing glance, and peered about him in +every direction, as if to avoid giving an answer; but on one side there +was Tom, sticky and happy with the old man's bounty; before him was his +invalid wife, with her wretched face; again, there was Lucy working, and +relieving hunger by occasional mouthfuls of the bread-and-cheese at her +side; while on turning his eyes in another direction, there stood Matt, +just as he had stood on the day when he borrowed a shilling on their +first encounter. + +What was he to do? He had as much pride, or false pride, as most men, +and he would gladly have been independent of old Matt's assistance; but +there seemed no help for it, and once more in his life, humbled and +mortified, he nodded to Mrs Septimus; and the next moment old Matt +stood irresolutely by the table clattering a couple of plates together, +to the great endangering of their safety, as he seemed to be turning +them into a pair of earthenware cymbals. + +"There, sir; don't, now," said Matt earnestly; "don't let's have any +more pretence or nonsense about it; don't be put out because I'm doing +this, sir. 'Tain't that I don't respect you; I didn't get on the +stilts, sir, when you helped me. I asked you for it, which is a thing I +know you couldn't do; but when it's offered you free and humble-like, +don't take on, sir, and fancy I respect you any the less. I sha'n't +forget my place, sir, 'pon my soul I sha'n't, begging your pardon, +ma'am, and Miss Lucy's; but you see I'm in earnest, and it worries me to +see Mr Hardon here put out, because--because--Well, you know," said +Matt, with a twinkle in his eye, "because an old battered type of +humanity like me wants to sit down and have a bit of dinner here, and +it's all getting spoilt; best cut's gone, you know, I'm sure. I know I +_am_ shabby." + +Septimus waved his hand deprecatingly. + +"There, sir; there," continued Matt; "don't be down; don't let the world +see as there's no more fight in you. See what a son and daughter you've +got. Why, God bless 'em, they're enough to make a man of a chap if he's +ever so bad. Never say die, sir. I'm often in the downs, I am, you +know; but then I say to the world, `Come on, and let's have it out at +once and done with it.' Let's take it like a dose of physic, and then +have the sugar that's to come and take the taste out of one's mouth +afterwards. Sure to be a bit of sugar to come some time, you know, sir; +some gets more than others, but then there's always a share for you if +you won't be soft enough to get your mouth out of taste and fancy it's +bitter when it comes, and so not enjoy it. Lots do, you know, sir; +while lots more, sir, think so much of their sugar of life, sir, that +they spoil it, sir,--foul it, and damp it, and turn it into a muddy, +sticky, dirty treacle, sir; and then, sir, loving nothing but +pleasure,--or sugar, as we call it,--how they buzz about it like so many +flies, till they are surfeited and get their legs and wings fixed, and +die miserably, sir. Sugar's no good, sir, unless you have a taste of +bitter before it. You don't want to be having all pleasure, you know; +it wouldn't do. Bound the wheel of fortune, you know, sir; now down, +now up, just as times go." + +All these meant-to-be-philosophical remarks old Matt accompanied by a +cymbalic tune upon the two plates, while Septimus sat moody and silent. + +"Now, you see, sir," said Matt gently, "I know what you feel,--you don't +like having such a battered old hulk about your place, and feel a bit +offended at me for imposing upon your good-nature." + +Septimus made a gesture of dissent. + +"Well then, sir, we won't play with the matter. You don't like my +having a bit of dinner here, and all that sort of thing; but don't you +make no mistake, sir, I ain't kicked about in a selfish world all these +years without ketching the complaint. I was never vaccinated against +selfishness, sir, so I've took it badly, I can tell you. You may look +out, sir, for I've a long score chalked up against you, and you'll have +it some day." + +And then old Matt stuck his hat on very fiercely and shuffled out of the +room, muttering and chuckling as he went down, "Ho, ho, ho!--creditor! +New position for me as have been in debt all my life!" + +The old man soon returned after his fashion, bringing in a large portion +of the veal and bacon from the cook-shop in the Lane; for the best cuts +were not all gone. Then followed the old farce of what he called his +chronometric complaint, from its always coming on just at mealtimes; and +helping himself to a slice of bread, in spite of all appeals, the old +man took a sticky kiss from Tom and shuffled out of the room. + +It was a sight worth seeing--the satisfaction of that grim old man, as +he went chuckling down the creaking stairs, and out into the court. His +was not the shape a painter would have chosen for the embodiment of +gratitude; but there it was--even the battered, ill-used carcass of that +old printer--a body misused by the hard world till he had grown careless +of it himself, and misused it in his turn. Alone in the world, what had +he to care for beyond a little present enjoyment? For as to the future, +it is to be feared that Mr Sterne would have pronounced him as being +beneath a dense black cloud. Twice was the old man stopped by +lamp-posts, but he recollected himself and continued his route to where +the open door of the cook-shop sent out a thick, kitcheny vapour, +pleasant or the reverse, according to whose organs it assailed--to the +well-fed perhaps disgusting, but to the poor and hungry an odour as of +paradise. There upon the shining pewter dishes, that in the early morn +had been such a dry metallic desert, were now displayed, in gravy-oozing +majesty, what Matt looked upon as all the delicacies of the season. +There were round of beef and brisket, boiled; roast leg, shoulder, and +loin of mutton; roast beef, and the remains of the veal; while as to +gravy--whence comes the gravy that meanders in streams over cook-shop +joints, flooding the dishes, and making glad the hearts of the hungry?-- +there was gravy to an extent never known in private life, for the joints +soaked in the tissue-renovating fluid. + +Ah! that fat cook-shop-keeper, as he wielded his long-bladed, keen +carver, and equitably and glibly sliced it through fat and lean, +well-done, under-done, and brown, with a facility that made one think he +had been apprenticed to a ham in the palmy days of Vauxhall--dealing +with the porcine joint with similar intentions to those of the +gold-beater with his morsel of the yellow ore. Ah! that fat, rosy-faced +man in the white cap and jacket had much to answer for in the way of +tempting hungry sinners. Fat! he might well be fat, for was he not +existing upon the very essences of the meats always beneath his +nostrils, which must have inhaled sustaining wealth at every breath he +drew, to the saving of both teeth and digestion? + +But he did not tempt old Matt, who entered and asked for a "small +German," for which he paid twopence, asking no questions regarding its +composition, while it was delivered to him after the fashion that buns +are presented to our old ursine friends at the "Zoo"--stuck at the end +of a fork. + +Old Matt turned his back stolidly upon the luxuries of the cook-shop, +strolled into the big street, and began to nibble his small German, in +company with the dusty, fluey slice of bread he brought out of his +pocket. There was a parish pump there, with its swinging copper handle; +and regardless of medical reports, and chemical analyses, and cholera +germs contained in the clear, sparkling fluid, old Matt had a hearty +draught, and smacked his lips after as if he enjoyed it--and doubtless +he did. There was the prospect of a murky old inn down a gateway, and +the busy throng of people passing him; but Matt noticed nothing, for his +thoughts were upon matters in Bennett's-rents--though, for all that, he +was enjoying his simple meal, which was eaten without a thought of the +prime veal and bacon, or his sad complaint, which had now fled till next +dinner-time, as, by way of amusement, he turned down Castle-street to +witness the performance of a gentleman in tights and spangles--a +gentleman evidently high in his profession, but blessed with a nose of +the Whitechapel mould, black, greasy, tucked-under hair, confined by a +blue ribbon, slightly oiled; a pimply face, and a body apparently +furnished with gristle in the place of bones. + +As Matt came up, the gentleman was balancing a peacock's feather upon +the tip of his nose, to the accompaniment of a popular air performed by +a partner upon drum and pan-pipes--the arrangement of the air apparently +necessitating more muscular action with the arms than from the lungs; +for though now and then a shrill and piercing note was heard from the +pipes, it was not often, while the rumble of the beaten drum was +incessant. The next performance was the balancing and twirling of a +barrel on the acrobat's feet, he all that time lying down upon a cushion +in a very uncomfortable, determination-of-the-blood-to-the-head +position, what time the band, tucking his pipes inside his coat and +setting his drum on end, came round the attentive circle, shaking the +performer's greasy, private-life cap in the observers' faces, after the +fashion of zealous deacons in churches of high proclivities--save that +in this case the cap was of very common cloth, while in the other the +little bags would probably be of red velvet, lined with white satin. + +The band stopped opposite old Matt, who had loudly applauded the +performance, for he had felt so at peace with the world at large, that +he was in the humour to be pleased with any and everything. So the old +man thrust a willing hand into his pocket, and the band smiled +expectant; but the next moment Matt's face turned very serious, and with +the loud taunt of the band ringing in his ears, he shuffled down +Castle-street and into Cursitor-street, in the direction of the office +where he had a job; far more piercing than the shrillest note of the +pipes, and more impressive than the heaviest bang of the drum, came the +words of the musician:-- + +"Well, if I hadn't ha' had a brown I'd ha' said so, and not made +believe." + +For the old printer's pocket did not contain a coin of any description, +the last two having been expended for his simple meal; so hurrying along +the old fellow looked very serious for quite fifty yards; then he began +to whistle; then he stopped at a lamp-post, but wrenched himself away +again directly and hurried down Fetter-lane, for the clocks were +striking two, and his dinner-hour was over. But before turning into +Typeland Matt entered into one of those well-known places of business +with swinging doors, and shuffling up to the pewter-covered counter, +asked for a pint of porter on trust. + +And went away wiping his mouth upon the back of his hand, of course? +Nothing of the kind; for the landlord smiled pleasantly, shook his head, +and declared that whenever he gave trust he lost a customer. So old +Matt slinked away, and soon came to another swing-door, when, passing +through, a far different odour saluted his nostrils--an odour commingled +of steam, oil, treacle, glue, turpentine, stale breath, fresh paint, wet +paper, and gas; where there was a continual noise of hissing, and +rumbling of wheels, rattling of straps and bands, with a constant +vibration of the great building, which heavily brooded over the reeking +mass, as if hatching earthquakes. Up a staircase, whose walls shone +with the marks of inky and oily hands, past dirty-faced boys in +paper-caps and aprons, whose shirt-sleeves were rolled high above their +elbows; past a window, a glance through which showed mighty engine and +machine rushing off their work in never-tiring mode, wheels spinning, +cylinders slowly revolving, with white sheets of paper running in, +printed sheets running out, to be piled in stacks; here the portion of a +magazine whose pages should rivet the attention of some fair reader; +there the newspaper, to be spread in thousands through the length and +breadth of the land; while again, close at hand, lumbered the heavy +press to turn off by hand copies of the broad-margined, large-typed, +thick-papered Chancery bill, whose legible words should nearly drive +some weary disputant mad, although but a short time before its well-paid +pages and open work had made glad the heart of a round-shouldered +compositor--sower of the dragons' teeth of knowledge. Up still went old +Matt Space--past boys bearing proof-sheets--boys who read copy in a +sing-song, nasal, pointless twang to keen-eyed readers, ready to give +angry stabs at ill-spelt words, to stick their pens through eyeless i's, +and condemn the mutilated letters to the melting-pot; past pressmen +toiling--down, Benjamin-Franklin-like, with heavy forms of type; up--up, +till he reached the top story, where, beneath rows of skylights, men +formed themselves into the hotbeds that generated disease, as they +toiled on day after day at the cases of type, before a pair of which old +Matt posted himself, took a pinch of snuff, and then prepared for work. + +In a few more minutes he was hard at his task, picking up letter by +letter the component parts of the words spoken the day before at a +public meeting, where an orator discoursed at length upon the financial +greatness of this our country; after which he dived into statistics, so +that the old compositor was soon realising the facts, and revelling in +sums of money eight figures in length, and that, too, without a single +penny in his pocket. + +Click, click; click, click; letter after letter passing into the metal +composing-sticks; thirty men busily engaged, and not a word spoken +beyond the occasional muttering whisper of the worker, who sought to +impress his MS more fully upon his mind by reading it aloud; while old +Matt, poring over his copy by the aid of a pair of horn spectacles, now +and then paused for a stimulator from the snuff loose by accident in his +coat-pocket hanging from a nail in the wall--snuff that had to be hunted +into corners and brought forth in pinches, the greater proportion of +which consisted of flue and crumbs. + +"Pound, nine, comma; eight, four, three, comma; six, four, two," +muttered the old man, arranging the figures. "Ah, bless my soul! now, +what could I do with nine--nearly ten millions of money? And that sum's +nothing at all. Poverty? Pooh! all humbug! There isn't such a thing; +it's all a mistake. Somebody's got more than his share, and made things +crooked." + +Old Matt finished his task, and, on applying to the overseer for a fresh +supply, he was set to correct a slip proof, when, taking the long column +of type from which it had been printed, the old man was soon busy at +work once more, correcting a misspelt word in this paragraph, removing a +broken letter in that, and all the while muttering to himself, to the +great amusement of the other men. But all at once he stopped short and +stared at his work, looked eagerly round the office, as if to assure +himself that all was real, and then devoured the words before him. Then +he went on with his work in a flurried, nervous way, dropping words, +misplacing letters, scattering type upon the floor, and making his +fellow-workmen look up with wonder--attentions that made the old man +more nervous and fidgety; until, as his nervousness increased, so did +his task become more difficult of completion, the perspiration standing +upon his forehead, and the expression of his face growing pitiful in the +extreme. + +But it was complete at last, though, through anxiety, old Matt had been +twice as long as he would have been in an ordinary way; and then +secretly tearing off a portion of the proof, he slipped it into his +pocket, made an excuse to the overseer that he was unwell, and hurried +into the street, where he jostled first one, and now another; now +walking in the road, now upon the pavement, but all the while with one +hand clasping tightly a scrap of paper he held in his pocket. As to +what was going on around him he seemed so utterly oblivious that twice +over he was nearly knocked down by passing vehicles. Again and again he +would have stopped, but for the busy throng constantly hurrying along +the street; and for the time being the old man strongly resembled a cork +tossed about in some busy eddying stream; but he had evidently some +object in view, for he kept pressing on in one particular direction, and +his lips were incessantly in motion, forming words that savoured +continually of that much-sought-for object--money. + +Volume One, Chapter XV. + +ANOTHER VISITOR FROM TOWN. + +How ever great the shock of his night's adventure may have been to his +system, Dr Hardon, beyond missing his attentions to a few patients, +displayed very little of it to the world at large comprised in Somesham +and its neighbourhood. There were certainly two or three discolorations +about his face, caused by the playful taps of the burglar's +life-preserver, but they very soon disappeared. The doctor's greatest +grievance was the loss of his numerous articles of jewellery, though +even upon that subject he talked lightly and affably to his patients, +evidently having a soul above the loss of such trifles, and people +thought more of him than ever. The police had certainly been upon what +waiter Charles of the County Arms called the "tract" of the burglars, +but only discovered that they had entered the house by opening a window +and stepping in; that they had taken all the plate; that three +heavy-featured men came from London by the down-mail on the night of the +robbery, arriving at Somesham at half-past ten; and the porter thought +he gave tickets to three stoutish men who went by the up-mail at 2:30; +when the police-sergeant came to the conclusion that it was a +prearranged affair, and people talked about it for a few days, till they +had something else to take their attention. + +Doctor Hardon, portly and comfortable-looking, sat reading the evening +paper just delivered from the stationer. No one to have seen him could +have imagined that care had ever sat for a moment upon his ample +forehead; and though, taking into consideration the incidents of the +past few weeks, it might have been expected that he would look anxious +and worn, on the contrary, he seemed greatly at ease within himself, and +turned and rustled his newspaper importantly, refreshing himself from +time to time with a sip of port from the glass at his elbow. + +"I declare!" he exclaimed, suddenly throwing down the paper; "it's +abominable--it's disgusting." + +"What is?" said Mrs Hardon, roused from the thoughtful mood into which +she seemed to have fallen. + +"Why, to have the privacy of one's life dragged into publicity in this +way. The matter ought to have been hushed-up." + +"But what do you mean?" said Mrs Hardon. "Is it anything about--" + +"Yes, of course it is!" cried the doctor savagely. "They've got it in +the London papers, condensed from the _County Press_--a filthy penny +rag. Just look here--made into a sensation paragraph. + +"`Eaten of Rats.--A shocking discovery was made at Somesham on Monday +last. A rather eccentric gentleman, named Hardon, residing entirely +alone at a short distance from the town, was found in bed with his lower +extremities horribly mutilated by the rats which infest the place. The +medical evidence at the inquest showed that death had probably taken +place some eight-and-forty hours before the body was discovered; while +the bottle of laudanum and teaspoon at the bedside pointed to an end +which the post-mortem examination proved to have been the case; an +overdose of the subtle extract having evidently been the cause of death. +The deceased was without servants; for, in consequence of a burglary +committed at the house shortly before this discovery, his housekeeper +had left him, and her place remained unsupplied. As may be supposed, +this tragic affair, following so closely upon the burglary, has caused +intense excitement throughout the neighbourhood.' + +"Isn't it disgusting?" exclaimed the doctor, after a few moments' pause; +while during the reading he had not displayed the slightest emotion, but +read the paragraph from beginning to end without faltering. Receiving +no answer, he looked up to see Mrs Hardon sitting staring at him with a +horrified aspect, while her fingers were stopping her ears. + +"O, Tom!" she gasped at last, "haven't we had enough of that horrid +affair lately without bringing it up again? I shall be glad when it's +all over, and we begin to look upon it as a thing of the past. I +declare I shall never like to use any of the money; I shall fancy a +curse hangs to it. But do you think Septimus is dead?" + +"Of course I do," said the doctor; "and if he is not, what does it +matter?" + +"Nothing at all, I suppose," replied Mrs Hardon; "but really, Tom, it +came upon me like a thunder-clap. Was that what poor Octavius sent for +you about--to tell you that? I often thought there must be some reason +for his long-continued obstinacy. What did he say to you about it?" + +"Don't ask questions," said the doctor abruptly. "It is enough for you +to know that it is so, and that the money comes at a time when we want +it badly." + +"Then we have no business to have been wanting it badly!" exclaimed Mrs +Hardon; "and I shall make it my business to go to Keening's one of these +days, and ask them the state of your affairs." + +"Yes, you had better!" snarled the doctor, displaying a bright speck of +the gold setting of his teeth. + +"But such a saint as poor Lavinia always seemed!" said Mrs Hardon. "I +should never have thought it of her; and if it was not that the poor +thing is dead and gone, I should have called it quite disgraceful. But +there, we can't afford to talk about such matters, I'm sure;" and she +began to rock herself to and fro in her chair and to sob: "O, Tom! you +drove that poor girl away,--you did. She would never have left if--" + +"Hold your tongue!" cried the doctor fiercely. + +"But you did, Tom; and I shall never forget her look that day I met her +in the street--it went like a knife to my heart." + +Mrs Hardon sat crying silently for some time, while the doctor savagely +rustled his paper, but all the while reading not a word, for his lips +moved, and he talked fiercely to himself. + +"There!" cried Mrs Hardon at last, "I won't take on, for it seems of no +use, and whether she or I live or die, don't seem to matter to you, Tom. +And now I want to know about Octavius's property. How much is it? and +are you certain that there was no will?" + +"I've told you there was none ten times over," said the doctor; "and now +wait till the funeral's over, for I won't be bothered." + +"But, Tom," said Mrs Hardon, "I want to know what is the extent--what +it is really worth, and how much you owe." + +"Never mind," said the doctor. + +"But I have a right to know," cried Mrs Hardon. + +"There! I don't know myself," said the doctor. + +"Then perhaps your solicitors do," said Mrs Hardon; "and I shall, as I +have often threatened, ask them." + +"And much good it will do you," muttered the doctor; but, not liking to +run the risk of any exposure of his present differences with his wife, +he compromised. "Well," he said, "what is it that you wish to know?" + +"Why, I told you," said Mrs Hardon; "what Octavius's property is worth, +and whether you are quite sure that Septimus--" + +"You are wanted, sir, if you please," said the maid, appearing at the +door. + +"Who is it?" said the doctor testily, for this was an hour when he +objected to being disturbed. + +"Wouldn't give any name, sir," replied the girl. + +"Send him round to the surgery," said the doctor. + +"Please, sir, he's in the front passage, and he said he didn't want the +sudgery." + +"What sort of a man is it?" said the doctor. + +"Look's like a poor man, sir," said the girl. + +"How many times have you been told not to leave strangers in the +passage!" exclaimed Mrs Hardon angrily. "There'll be another coat gone +directly; go and stay with him till your master comes." + +The maid disappeared, giving the door so loud a shut that it sounded +almost like a bang, when the doctor began to complain of fatigue, and +being worn out, and Mrs Hardon, who wished to propitiate, offered to +go. + +"Do, please, my love," murmured the doctor, in the most gentle of +tones--the professional. + +Mrs Hardon slightly drew down the corners of her mouth in a +contemptuous grimace as she left the room, but returned in a few minutes +looking pale and scared; and then she carefully closed the door after +her. + +"It's quite taken my breath away!" exclaimed Mrs Hardon. "He +frightened me: what made you tell me that Septimus was dead?" + +"Well, isn't he?" said the doctor, shuffling hastily round in his chair. + +"Dead?" exclaimed Mrs Hardon. "If he is, it's his ghost that has come +down: that's all." + +"Come down?" cried the doctor, turning of a dirty pallid hue. + +"And he's walked all the way from London. And you never saw such a +poor, deplorable-looking object in your life. He looks twenty years +older, that he does." + +"What does he want?" cried the doctor, panting in spite of his efforts +to keep down his emotion. + +"Says he's come down to see his father, and to attend to his affairs." + +"Well, tell him to go to Keening's. I won't see him--I won't see him. +My nerves won't bear it; they have not recovered from the last shock +yet, let alone that horrible night of the robbery." + +"But you'd better see him," said Mrs Hardon, whose woman's heart was +touched by her visitor's aspect. + +"No, no; I can't--I can't bear it, and it's better that I should not;" +and as he spoke there was no dissimulation in the doctor's words or +mien: he was undoubtedly very much moved. + +"But you must see him; and besides, it will seem so strange if it's +known in the town that you sent him away like that." + +"Well--er--well--perhaps I had better," said the doctor; "where is he? +I'll go to him, or--no, let him come in here; but put away the wine +first." + +Mrs Hardon took no notice of the last remark, but went out, and +returned directly with Septimus Hardon, footsore, dusty, and +travel-stained. + +"Good-evening, Mr Septimus," said the doctor, in the tone of voice he +had heard so often from his patients, and as he spoke he slightly bent +forward, but lay back again directly in his chair, without offering his +visitor a seat. "Good-evening, Mr Septimus. I suppose we must say +Hardon?" + +"If you please, uncle," said Septimus, somewhat startled at his strange +reception--a reception more chilling even than in his diffidence he had +anticipated. + +"Sit down, Septimus, you look tired," said Mrs Hardon, pouring out a +glass of wine for the visitor, who drank it with avidity, for he was +faint and agitated, feeling somewhat like the Prodigal, though this was +no prodigal's welcome. + +"How do you find business, Mr Septimus?" said the doctor, perspiring +freely, but now speaking calmly and slowly. + +"Bad--bad," said Septimus. "I have lost all, and been put to great +shifts, while my poor wife is a confirmed invalid." + +"Dear me, dear me!" said the doctor blandly, "how sad! I might perhaps +be able to give her advice. I suppose she could not call at my surgery +any morning before ten?" + +"She always was delicate," put in Mrs Hardon hastily, for she was +annoyed at her husband's behaviour; while something kept, as it were, +whispering to her, "He is from London, and may know something of my poor +girl." + +There was a dead silence then for some few minutes, which the doctor +broke. + +"I--er--er--I--er--I think you have hardly come on a visit of ceremony," +he said; "you wished to see me?" and after coughing away something which +seemed to form in his throat, he spoke in his most unguental tones--in +the voice he kept for married ladies upon particular occasions. + +"I came down," said Septimus, in a broken voice, "upon seeing my poor +father's death. It was shown to me--by a friend--newspaper--torn +scrap--I have walked down--weak--and ill." + +Mrs Hardon uttered an exclamation, for Septimus had risen as he spoke, +and stood working his hands together, as he gazed appealingly at his +uncle; and then, as he trailed off in his speech, he reeled and clutched +at the table, sweeping off a wine-glass in his effort to save himself +from falling. + +"Better now," said Septimus faintly, as he sank into the chair behind +him. "I am sorry, but I feel overcome, and weak, and giddy. I have had +much sorrow and trouble lately, and my father's death was so sudden." + +The doctor winced a little, but recovered himself in a moment, for he +was used to witnessing trouble, and could bear it. + +"Yes--yes--a sad thing,--very sad--mournful I may say," he observed. +"But my poor brother always was so distant and peculiar in his dealings +with his relations. Of course you know that the funeral takes place +to-morrow?" + +"No," replied Septimus; "I know nothing beyond what I have told you, and +I come to my father's brother for information." + +"Yes, just so," said the doctor; "but I can not refrain from blaming my +poor brother; doubtless you had given him great cause of offence, but he +ought to have made some provision for you." + +"I did write to him again and again," said Septimus, "but I suppose he +felt too angry, and--let it rest now; I have struggled through all my +trouble without his help, and I do not complain." + +"Just so," said the doctor; "but it would have been more just if he had +made some provision." + +"You have seen his will, I suppose?" said Septimus. + +"O no!" said the doctor, "there is no will." + +"Then he has left no legacies?" said Septimus. + +"Not one," replied the doctor; "but I am not surprised--he never was a +business man." + +"I am sorry too," said Septimus softly, "for the sake of my cousins and +yourselves;" and Septimus started as he saw the wince Mrs Hardon gave +at the mention of the word "cousins." + +"Yes," said the doctor blandly; "it would have been more just towards +you. For even if he had only left you a hundred or two they would have +been acceptable, no doubt." + +"I don't understand you," said Septimus. + +"I was alluding to your being left so unprovided for," said the doctor. +"It seems so sad." + +"But you told me he left no will," said Septimus wonderingly; "and I am +his only child." + +The doctor smiled compassionately upon his nephew, with the air of a man +removing a leg or an arm. + +"There, for goodness' sake don't go on torturing the poor fellow in that +way!" cried downright Mrs Hardon. "Why don't you speak out? You see, +Septimus--" + +"I beg that you will be silent, Mrs Hardon," exclaimed the doctor. + +"I shall be nothing of the kind," cried Mrs Hardon. "The poor man has +enough to suffer as it is, without being grilled over a slow fire." + +Septimus gazed from uncle to aunt in a strange bewildered way, prepared +for some new shock, but unable to comprehend what blow Fate meant to +deal him now. + +"You see, Septimus," continued Mrs Hardon, without heeding her +husband's uplifted hands,--"you see the property comes to my husband as +next of kin." + +"Nonsense!" exclaimed Septimus, as if relieved that his aunt's +communication was of no more weight. "I am the only child, and besides, +_I_ have a son." + +"Now just see what a painful scene you have brought about," whined the +doctor, reproachfully eyeing his wife. + +"Indeed," interrupted Septimus, "I am sorry that the matter should be +discussed, for it appears unseemly at such a time: before my poor +father's remains are beneath the earth." + +"If you would only have been silent," continued the doctor, not heeding +the interruption.--"Now pray, my good sir," he said, turning to +Septimus, "go to Messrs. Keening and Keening, my solicitors, and--" + +"Tell me what it all means, aunt, or I shall go mad!" cried Septimus, +catching Mrs Hardon's hand in both of his, and gazing imploringly in +her face. + +"Well, the plain truth of the matter is this," said Mrs Hardon-- + +"Pray be silent, Mrs Hardon," said the doctor. "My solicitors--" + +"You were not born in wedlock," said Mrs Hardon. + +"Who dares say that is true?" shouted Septimus, with eyes flashing; "who +dares speak in that way of my poor mother?" he exclaimed. "It's a lie-- +a base lie!" and in spite of Septimus Hardon's plainness, his years, the +dust and shabby clothing, there was in him a nobleness of aspect that +made the doctor look mean by comparison, as he stood there furiously +eyeing both in turn, and thinking then no more of his father's money +than if it had been so much dirt beneath his feet. That such an +aspersion should be cast upon the fame of the mother whose memory he +tenderly loved seemed to him monstrous; and it was well for Doctor +Hardon that he did not think it necessary to answer the sternly-put +question; for most assuredly, had he replied, Septimus would have taken +him by the throat. + +"I'm sure _I_ don't know," said Mrs Hardon. "All I know is, that it's +very sad, and I'm very, very sorry for you." + +But Doctor Hardon, taken aback at first by the fierce mien of Septimus, +had now somewhat recovered his confidence, while the anger of the nephew +was as short-lived, so utterly bewildering was the news he now heard; +the insult to his mother's memory, the snatching away of the competence +that seemed in his hands, the cool self-possession of his uncle,--all +completely staggered him, and he knew not what to say or do. + +"Sir," said the doctor, rising and placing a hand within his waistcoat +as he spoke with great dignity,--"sir, I must beg that this scene, this +unseemly brawling, may not be continued in my house. You can find my +solicitors, who will give you all the information you may require. The +funeral takes place to-morrow, and, under the circumstances, I have +taken upon myself the duty of seeing that proper respect is paid to the +departed. You are folly aware that your presence would not have been +even tolerated for an instant in my brother's house during his lifetime, +and you presume on my forbearance by treating me as you do. Under the +circumstances, I decline to hold any further communication with you. +Had you come in humbleness and treated me with respect, I will not say +what I might not have been tempted to do for you out of pity. As to +your assumption of ignorance of your illegitimacy, it is simply absurd, +for it is a matter of which you must have been fully aware. You know +well, that when my brother declined to hold any further communication +with you, it was not merely on account of your opposition to his wishes, +but because it was painful to his feelings to be constantly reminded in +daily life of the sins of his youth. I think too, now, that if you have +any right feeling left, you will have the decency to end this most +unseemly meeting by leaving at once, for it is to me, after my late +sufferings, most painful. My poor brother!" + +Doctor Hardon paused to bury his face in his handkerchief, and +congratulate himself upon the very effective way in which he had acted +his part. He then made a show of wiping away a tear, and Mrs Hardon +did likewise; but in the one case the tear was genuine, in the other +counterfeit coin. + +As for Septimus Hardon he had never made but one enemy in his life-- +himself; but had he owned a score, and they had stood around him at that +minute, not a man of them could have struck a blow at the abject, +crushed, spiritless, broken man, as, without word, almost without +thought, he mechanically glanced round the room, turned, and then slowly +walked out, closely followed by Mrs Hardon, who passed something into +his hand as she closed the door upon his retreating form. + +Volume One, Chapter XVI. + +SEEKING HOSPITALITY. + +"Why, if it ain't you, Master Sep, as I thought we were never going to +see no more!" cried Mrs Lower to the desolate-looking man outside her +snug bar. "But, my; you do look bad, and it's close upon ten years +since I've set eyes upon you. There, do come in and sit down. Yes; +that's poor Lower's chair; he's been gone years now, Master Sep, and I'm +left a lone widow, my dear; but your name was one of the last words he +spoke--your name and poor Miss Agnes's. Do you ever see her in the big +city, Master Sep?" + +Septimus shook his head. + +"Has she left here?" he said. + +"Didn't you know?" said Mrs Lower. "Ah, yes, long enough ago!" and she +stooped her head and whispered in her visitor's ear. "But there, we +needn't talk about troubles now. How haggard and worn you do look! And +how's Mrs Septimus? I always think of her as Mrs Grey. But what's it +to be now? Isn't it awful about poor master, whom I'd never have left +if I'd known what was to happen? No, Master Sep, not to marry a dozen +Lowers, and be the mistress of fifty County Arms; though, rest him! poor +Lower was a good, kind husband, for all we were elderly folk to wed, and +had forgotten how to make love. Now, say a hot cup of tea, Master Sep, +or a hot steak with a little ketchup. If you'd been a bit sooner, there +was a lovely sweetbread in the house; but there, it's no use to talk of +that; so say the steak and tea. I _am_ glad to see you, my dear boy!" + +Septimus signified his desire for the tea, and Charles was summoned, and +dismissed with his orders, but not without making a tolerable +investigation of the guest whom his mistress delighted to honour--an +investigation apparently not very satisfactory, from the imperious way +in which he gave his orders in the kitchen. + +"Now, just a toothful of my orange cordial, Master Sep. Now, don't say +no, because you must. I make it myself, and the gentlemen take it on +hunting-days. Now, tip it up like a good boy; and here's a biscuit. +See now; don't it put you in mind of old times, when you were a naughty +child, and wouldn't take your physic? How time does go, to be sure; +why, it's only like yesterday. But there, I won't bother you. Have a +pair of slippers and a comfortable wash. Did you bring any luggage?" + +Ten minutes passed, and then Septimus was again seated in the snug bar, +with the kettle singing its song of welcome upon the hob; a savoury +steak was before him; and the comely old dame, in her rustling black +silk, smilingly pouring out the strong tea she had been brewing, taking +a cup too herself, "just for sociability sake," as she told her visitor. + +"And so poor master's gone, and you're coming down to the old place +again?" said Mrs Lower. + +Septimus groaned. + +"Ah, Master Sep, I can respect your feelings; but though poor master's +dead and gone, he had his failings, while he never did his duty either +by you or your poor mother." + +Septimus Hardon nearly dropped his cup as he gazed blankly in his old +nurse's face. + +"What--what do you mean?" he exclaimed. + +"Why, he was always hard, and--But there, poor man, he's dead and gone, +and we all have our failings, and plenty of them. But come, my dear +boy, pray do eat something." + +Septimus tried to eat a few morsels, but his appetite was gone, and he +soon laid down his knife and fork. + +"Of course you'll come down and live at the old place, Master Sep?" said +Mrs Lower. + +Septimus shook his head sadly. + +"O, Master Sep!" cried the old lady, "don't sell it; don't part with it, +it would be a sin." + +"But it will never be mine!" cried Septimus passionately. "O, nurse, +nurse! this is a hard and a bitter world. I came down here almost in +rags, tramping down like a beggar, and now, in cold and brutal terms, my +uncle tells me that I am a bastard--that I have no right to enter my own +father's house; while, if this is true, I am a beggar still." + +Mrs Lower looked astounded. "What," she exclaimed, "does he mean to +say? But there, it's nonsense. You can soon prove to him that you are +not." + +"How?" exclaimed Septimus wearily. "Everything goes against me. I have +been away ten years; my father sent me from his house; he refused all +communications with me; and now I return on the day before the funeral." + +"O, but you must go to the lawyers!" cried Mrs Lower. "They can put +you right." + +The couple sat talking for some time. It was refreshing to Septimus to +find so sincere a welcome, for he had put Mrs Lower's hospitality to +the test on the strength of the sovereign his aunt had slipped into his +hand. But the old dame could give him no information touching his +birth, and but little respecting the place and time of his father's +marriage. + +Weary at length of the subject, Septimus listened to the history of +Somesham during the past few years, till, taking compassion upon her +visitor's jaded looks, Mrs Lower showed him his bedroom, where he tried +to forget his present sorrows in sleep. + +But sleep came not, and he tossed feverishly from side to side, +bewildered by the thoughts that rushed through his brain: old faces, old +scenes, and, foremost among them, home, and the stern countenance of his +father, came crowding back. Now he would doze, but to start up in a few +minutes under the impression that he was called. He dozed off again and +again, but always to start up with the same fancy, and once he felt so +sure that he leaped out of bed and opened his door; but the dark passage +was empty, and all without quite still, so he returned to his bed, sat +there for a few minutes thinking, and then went to the window, drew the +blind, and stood gazing out upon the buildings of the familiar +market-place. + +The wind swept by, swinging the old sign to and fro, while all looked so +calm and peaceful that he returned to his bed, and again tried for rest, +falling into a fevered, half sleeping, half waking state, wherein the +old faces still came crowding back, now nearer and nearer, now seeming +to vanish away into nothingness, till at last that one old face seemed +to exclude all others, and he saw his father as he saw him last, +frowning harshly upon him; but soon the face assumed an aspect of pity, +a look that told the suffering man that he was forgiven, before it +changed into the frigid hardness of death. + +Septimus Hardon started up in bed and gazed at the dim, shaded window, +hardly realising where he was, as he tried to get rid of the dread image +which oppressed him; but the night through, hour after hour, as soon as +he closed his eyes, there was the same cold, stern face, as though +impressed upon his brain, and wanting but the exclusion of the light for +him to direct his gaze inward upon the fixed lineaments. So on, hour +after hour, dozing and starting up, till the first streaks of the coming +day appeared in the east, and as they grew stronger, peering in through +the bedroom window, and holding forth to view the various objects in the +room in a half-shadowed, ghostly manner that completely chased away the +remaining desire for sleep that lingered with the unnerved man. + +"Knocked three times, mem," said Charles, "and can't make him hear." + +"Never mind," said Mrs Lower. "I'll go myself presently." + +Mrs Lower had carefully prepared what she considered a snug breakfast, +and put her regular body to no slight inconvenience by waiting past her +usual hour for the morning meal; but she thought of her visitor's +fatigue and trouble. + +"He can't do better than sleep, poor boy," she muttered, descending the +stairs, after listening at the bedroom door for the third time; when she +sat in the bar and waited for quite an hour, till suddenly a thought +struck her, which set her trembling and wringing her hands, and her +comely old face worked as she tried to keep back the tears. + +"O, if he has--if he has! O, my poor boy!" she exclaimed, hurrying up +the staircase, and stumbling at every second step in her agitation. "O, +Charles, come with me!" + +The door yielded to her touch, and almost falling against the bed, Mrs +Lower found it empty, while the pillow was quite cold. + +"O, look round--look round, Charles!" she gasped, as she sank upon her +knees at the bedside, and buried her face in the clothes. + +"No one here, mem," said Charles, after a cursory glance round--not +being able to comprehend his mistress's emotion. + +"O, look behind the door, Charles!" gasped Mrs Lower; "and at the +bedposts." + +"Silk dress behind the fust, and wallance and hangings on the seconds," +said Charles methodically. "What next, mem?" + +"Can't you see him, Charles?" said Mrs Lower, slowly raising her head. + +"No, mem," said Charles; "he's gone, safe. Did he pay, mem?" + +"Nonsense!" cried Mrs Lower angrily; "he was a friend of mine;" and +then the doubting dame carefully examined the room, looking in the most +impossible of corners for the missing visitor, and only stopping as she +was about to peer up the chimney by seeing a half-concealed grin upon +the face of Charles. + +"I'll ask Boots if he's seen him, mem," said Charles, to get out of his +difficulty. + +But that gentleman had neither seen Septimus Hardon nor the articles of +clothing after which he was named; so that it seemed evident that the +visitor had taken his unbrushed boots and departed. + +"So very strange!" muttered Mrs Lower to herself. + +"The seediest pair of boots we've ever had in the place," said Charles +in confidence to the chambermaid; and then, after due cogitation, he +came to the conclusion that if many of the visitors to the County Arms +were like the unknown of the past night, his situation would not be +worth the energy he displayed for the comfort of all who sought there +rest and refreshment. + +Volume One, Chapter XVII. + +"NOTHING LIKE LEATHER." + +The very morning upon which waiter Charles of the County Arms, Somesham, +spoke so disparagingly of Septimus Hardon's boots, the maker, or rather +re-maker, of the said boots sat, as soon as it was broad daylight--not +an extremely early hour in his home--industriously plying his craft, +till, after divers muttered anathemas, a voice growled: + +"Confound it, Ike, I wish that old lapstone was at the bottom of the +Thames. Who's to sleep?" + +"Get up, then," said the lapstone-smiter slowly and heavily. + +"Get up!" growled the voice, "get up!" + +"What, in the middle of the night! Ain't six yet, is it?" + +"Just struck," said the lapstone-man, following the example of the +clock, and hammering vigorously at a scrap of leather about to be used +in the repair of an old boot before him; while from sundry smothered +growls coming from the room behind the shop where the shoemaker was at +work, it was evident that the idler had buried a portion, if not the +whole of his face, beneath the blankets, and again offered sacrifice to +the sleepy god. + +It had always been a matter of dispute amongst the confraternity as to +where Matthew Space slept. Some said that he reposed nightly amongst +the casuals at Saint Martin's Workhouse; but as, when he had work, he +would often be at it by half-past eight in the morning, it was evident +that he did not lodge there; for the most industrious would not be at +liberty for another hour, on account of the work to be done in payment +for the lodging. Others talked of the Adelphi, and the recesses of +Waterloo Bridge. In short, there was always plenty of chaff flying +concerning old Matt's lodgings; but the cleverest never threshed out the +grain of wheat they sought, for the old man was as close a tusk as was +ever attacked by flail. His club was generally considered to be the +mouldy, fungoid-looking house in Hemlock-court, where he could mostly be +found of an evening, if the seeker had failed to see him sitting over +his pint-pot in Bell-yard; and, according to circumstances, he dined at +various places. If trade flourished, and the ill wind that blew misery +to Chancery suitors wafted half-crowns to his pocket, he dined in state +at the cook-shop, shut up in one of the little elbow-cramping boxes, +where there were dirty table-cloths, and everything was steamy and +sticky with the pervading vapour, whose odour was as that of the +soup-copper after the "inmates" have had their pauper repast; sometimes +in the street, as we have seen, when his dinners varied--kidney-pies, +saveloys, peas-pudding served on paper, or perhaps only the warm tuber +taken from a potato can; though, when funds were low, Matt generally +leaned towards the kidney pieman, an old friend with a red nose and a +white apron, augmented at night by very business-like white sleeves, +when, extinguishing the coke-fire of his tin, he became a trotter +himself for the time being, as he went from public-house to gin-palace +disposing of his stock of succulent sheep's-feet. There was a great +deal of the epicure in Matt Space, and had he been a Roman emperor he +might have been as lavish in the recorded worship of the gastric region. +As it was, he had always looked upon money as of value only for the +pleasure it afforded his palate, till better feelings had been roused +within him. Well versed was Matt in the edibles best suited for +families of large size but small income; he was deep in tripe, was old +Matt Space, and he knew the shop in Clare-market and Newport-market best +worthy of confidence. You never caught him buying sausages at random, +nor yet purchasing his baked sheep's-heads or fagots in Leather-lane. +No; Matt knew better; and if he could not get the prime article, he +would content himself with a penny-loaf and two ounces of single +Glo'ster. No one could get such scraps from the butcher's as Matt; and +if any one of his acquaintance wanted a pound or two, it was almost +worth their while to ask the old man to dinner, for the sake of getting +him to undertake the commission. For did not the old fox always go into +the Lane by Lincoln's-inn, where such a trade was done in chops that the +butcher must have bought his sheep nearly all loin, and that, too, of +the primest, for the legal gentlemen of the district were rather +particular. As to distance Matt never studied that when he was bent +upon any delicacy, being ready to visit Saint Martin's-lane for hot +black-puddings, Leadenhall-market for cocks'-heads or giblets, +Billingsgate for cockles or mussels; but all to oblige friends. + +Now, although old Matt made great shifts over his dinners, he revelled +in his tea; that is to say, his evening coffee--coffee-shop tea being a +decoction, as the tea is carefully boiled to the extraction of all its +strength, but to the destruction of all flavour, and Matt foolishly +preferred the simple infusion of everyday life. So Matt enjoyed his +evening coffee--a half-pint cup for a penny, and three large greasy +slices of bread-and-butter for the same coin--the butter being always +the best Dorset, slightly rank in the eating, and prepared by some +peculiar Dutch process without the assistance of cows. Old Matt never +missed his tea if his funds would at all hold out; for at this +delectable coffee-house there were newspapers and, better still, +magazines of so tempting a nature that they often made the old man late +back to his duties. The real enjoyment that he felt over his book must +have flavoured the repast, for he always seemed to relish these meals +immensely. Generally speaking, men of his trade--haunters of his +haunts--are rabid politicians; but not so Matt: missing a glance at the +morning or evening paper never troubled him; but still there were times +when the old printer took an interest in questions current; and if "the +poor man" happened to be on the _tapis_, Matt digested the leading +articles most carefully. + +But no one knew where Matt slept, and many a job he lost in consequence; +though this he set down to the score of his ill-luck. And yet he need +not have been so nervous about anyone tracking him to his den; for Lower +Series-place was once the resort of many of the choice spirits of a +bygone age: lordly gallants strutted there in the showy costumes of +their day; here, too, was the famous Kit-cat Club; but the glory had +departed when Matt chose the court for his resting-place: where the wits +made their rendezvous, were misery and dirt, frouzy rotting tenements, +vice and disease. Trade was in the place, but in its lowest and least +attractive forms; for there might be bought "half-hundreds" of coals in +little sacks; ginger-beer; great spongy-shelled oysters, opened by dirty +women, ready to place a discoloured thumb upon the loosened bivalve, and +to rinse it in the muddy tub from which it was fished; fruit, too, in +its seasons; potatoes and greens always; mussels, farthing balls of +cotton, brass thimbles, comic songs, and sweets. But the two most +flourishing trades here were those of translating, and dealing in +marine-stores--businesses carried on next door to one another by Isaac +Gross and Mrs Slagg. And a busy shop was Mrs Slagg's, a shop where, +in place of the customary gibbeted black doll, hung a painted and +lettered huge bladebone that might, from its size, have belonged to the +celebrated vastotherium itself, only that it was composed of wood, +carved in his leisure hours with a shoemaker's knife, as a delicate +attention to Mrs Slagg, by her neighbour, Isaac Gross. Gay was Mrs +Slagg's shop with gaudily-illustrated placards, touching the wealth, +ease, and comfort to be obtained by carrying all the worn apparel, rags, +bones, and old iron to Slagg's; serving-maids were walking out in the +gayest of dresses bought with kitchen-stuff; men were fitting on +impossible tail-coats and solid-looking hats bought with old iron, +brass, and pewter; while the demand for white and coloured rags, +waste-paper, bones, and horsehair, appeared insatiable; and to obtain +them, it seemed that Mrs Slagg was ready to ruin herself outright by +giving unheard-of prices. A wonderfully heterogeneous collection was +here of the odds and ends of civilisation: one pane of the window +resembled the foul comb of some mammoth bee, filled up as it was with +bottles presenting their ends to the spectator, who shuddered as he +thought of the labels that once decked those vials, such as "The draught +at bedtime," "The mixture as before," "A tablespoonful every two hours," +etc; while many a wild and fevered dream that shudder brought back, of +nights followed by days of pain and misery, aching heads, watching, +anxious faces, sleek doctors of the Hardon class, wondering thoughts of +the future, and of past hours unappreciated, unvalued. Every +medicine-bottle in Mrs Slagg's shop was a very telescope, which, if +applied to the eye, presented such a diorama of sickness and sorrow as +caused sensations as of grits getting into the cogs of the wheels of +life and staying their would-be even course. Mrs Slagg's was an +obtrusive shop, irrespective of the flaming placards that literally +shouted at you, and the black board, painted in old-bony skeleton +letters, with the legend "Keziah Slagg, Dealer in Marine-stores," though +the terrene ruled to the exclusion of the marine. In its way, it was in +everybody's way, and seemed to have taken the disease rampant in the +region of Lowther Arcadia--"a breaking out"--in this case a hideous +leprosy of loathsome objects, that would have at you, catching skirt or +umbrella, or being run over after they had been kicked in the way by +racing children. The shop was gorged, and its contents oozed out, ran +over, and trickled down the steps into the cellar, which was also full +and repulsive, sending foul fungoid growths up through the trap to the +pavement, and also apparently dipping under where the traffic lay to +force its way up on the other side, where the growth spread again along +the wall, so that passengers had to run the gauntlet on their journey to +and from Temple Bar. In fact, Mrs Slagg's shop was a very refiner's +furnace for old refuse, which boiled and bubbled over into court and +cellar, as we have seen; while in front of the shop of Mr Isaac Gross, +extended trays of old iron, bundles of white and coloured rags, odorous +bones, crippled tools, wormy screws, screws without worms, odds and +ends--odds without ends, and ends that seemed at odds with the world, +and tried to trip it up as it went by. + +Watching over her treasures would sit Mrs Slagg, just inside her door, +stout, happy, and dirty, in a bower of old garments, which waved in +every passing breeze; and, saving when clients came to obtain the +unheard-of prices for the rags and metal, and the bones and grease, upon +which this ogress lived, Mrs Slagg's time was divided between shouting, +"You bring that 'ere back!" to the children, and playing "Bo-peep" with +Mr Isaac Gross, who, also working just inside his shop, would lean out +occasionally to look at Mrs Slagg; though it took upon an average about +nine peeps before both peeped together, when Mrs Slagg would nod and +smile at Mr Gross, and Mr Gross would nod and smile at Mrs Slagg; and +then work would be resumed, while it was understood in the court that +something was to come of it. + +But, beyond what has been described, there was another fact which +pointed towards something coming of the neighbours' intimacy; for Mrs +Slagg's cellar being, as she termed it, "chock!" a portion of her +stock-in-trade had worked its way into Mr Gross's back-parlour, and +there stood in the shape of a large heap of waste-paper--a heap that Mr +Gross would look at occasionally, and then smile in a very slow, heavy +manner, as if smiling was a difficult task, and took time, for fear it +should be broken if hastily performed, and become a laugh. + +And a nice spot was Lower Series-place! Like Bennett's-rents, it seemed +as if every house was a school, and it was always leaving-time; for if, +for a short cut, you hazarded a walk through the court, you were +attacked by hordes of little savages, who pegged at you with tops, ran +hoops between your legs, yelled in your ears, knocked tipcats in your +eyes, kicked your shins at hopscotch, drove shuttlecocks upon your hat, +lassoed you with skipping-ropes, and forming rings around, apostrophised +you in tuneful, metrical language. + +No doubt old Matt was used to all this, and so enjoyed a second nature; +for be it known that he lodged with Mr Isaac Gross, boot and shoemaker, +in Lower Series-place, otherwise Rogue's, otherwise Shire-lane. + +Matt's landlord was a big bachelor of six-and-thirty, with much more +body than he seemed to have muscles to control, the effect being that he +was slow--Mrs Slagg said, "And sure," which is doubtful. Mr Gross had +round high shoulders, and more hair than he knew what to do with, or he +would have had it cut; but he did not, only oiled it, brushed it down +straightly, parted it in the middle, and then stopped it from falling +down over his eyes when at work, by confining it with a band of black +ribbon crossing his forehead and tied behind--the effect altogether, +when taken in conjunction with his fat, heavy, sparsely-bearded face, +being decidedly pleasing--judging by Mrs Slagg's standard. He was not +a dirty man, but he never by any chance looked clean, on account of a +peculiar tinge in his skin, due perhaps to his trade, the short pipe in +his mouth from morn till night, and the salubrious air of the court. +Mr Gross was a doctor in his way, buying boots and shoes in the last +stage of consumption, and then, by a grafting, splicing, and budding +process, with the sounder portions of many he produced a few wearable +articles, which, blacked to the highest pitch of lustre, shone upon his +board to tempt purchasers from amongst those who could not afford the +new article. You might buy a pair of boots from Isaac whose component +parts were the work, perhaps, of the cordwainers of many lands, which +scraps he would build up again as if they were so many bricks, or +perhaps mere bats, rough with mortar; and in this way Isaac Gross lived +and flourished. + +It was from first wearing his boots that old Matt came to lodge with +Isaac Gross, sharing with him the back-parlour, turned for their +accommodation into a double-bedded room without bedsteads; but of itself +a pleasant grove, whose fruitful sides teemed with boots and shoes in +every stage of decay or remanufacture, hung upon nails wherever a nail +would hold, the window-frame and its cross-bars not being spared. As to +the large and ever-increasing pile of waste-paper owned by Mrs Slagg, +old Matt resisted the encroachment with some bitterness; but still it +grew, and though the old man grumbled, he would not move, for he liked +his abode for its freedom from all restraint, since he could go to bed +when he liked, stay as long as he liked, and use his own discretion +respecting the removal of boots or other articles of clothing. The +place was dirty, but that he did not mind; odorous, but then it was the +true sherry twang; but what suited Matt best was, that his landlord +troubled him little about rent, leaving him to pay when so minded, and +never hinting at arrears; while still another advantage was that, next +to a lamp-post, old Matt found his landlord the most satisfactory +listener he knew, one ready to be talked to upon any subject, and to +fall into the talker's way of thinking. + +On the morning when the words at the head of this chapter were spoken, +in spite of the hammering, Matt continued to sleep on until nearly +eight, when he rose, had his boots polished at half-price in the shade +of Temple Bar, and then walked to the barber's, declaring a brushing to +be the finest thing in the world for corns. Here he had an easy shave +and a wash for a penny; breakfasted heartily and sumptuously to the +surprise of _habitues_ and waitress, by calling for a rasher of bacon, +and having a crumpled, greasy, brown dog's ear brought him to devour +with his bread-and-butter and coffee. For Matt was in high spirits: he +was in full work upon a newspaper for a few days, and he had discovered +the paragraph which, in spite of the drawback of its terrible contents, +was a piece of news that should give Mr Septimus Hardon the income and +position "of what I always said he was, sir,--a gentleman." So old Matt +breakfasted, as he said, "like a prince," for fivepence, spent the +change of his sixpence in a morning paper, and walked back to his +lodging to read it at leisure, for his work would not begin till the +afternoon. + +Mr Isaac Gross had finished his economical bachelor breakfast, +consisting of bread-and-butter and packet-cocoa, combining cheapness, +succulence, and convenience. The breakfast-things were cleared away-- +not a long task--and Isaac was about to add a pile of old account-books +to the waste-paper heap in the back-room. + +"She bring them in?" said Matt. + +Isaac, with his pipe in his mouth, nodded, and said in a gruff, slow +growl, "Waste-paper." + +"So it seems," said Matt, opening one or two of the books, and then +closing them with an air of disgust, when his landlord took them up, +added them to the heap, and before returning to his bench, had a peep +out towards Mrs Slagg's; but evidently the look was wasted, for he +sighed, and took up his stirrup-leather, while old Matt drew down his +mouth and bestowed a grim, contemptuous smile upon him as he rustled his +paper, and, sitting down on a low workman's bench, began to read. + +"Ah!" said Matt, stopping in his reading to refresh himself with a pinch +of snuff from a pill-box, "I thought so; they had an adjourned inquest +about that case I told you of; but there's only a short para here." + +"Umph!" ejaculated Isaac, taking a good pull at his wax-end, and then +readjusting his boot in the stirrup, but directly after disarranging it, +to take a peep at Mrs Slagg--this time with success; but he frowned at +her--a telegram that she knew meant the lodger was at home, and that +friendly communications must stop. + +"They've brought it in--" + +"Ain't seen my wax, have you?" said Isaac slowly. + +"Accidental death," said Matt, not noticing the interruption; "and it's +my opinion that--What?" + +"I want my wax," said Isaac, hunting about. + +"Well, get it," growled Matt, rather annoyed at being interrupted. + +"Ain't seen it, have you?" said Isaac. + +"No!" growled the old man, turning over his paper. + +"Had it along with the dubbin just before breakfast," said Isaac. + +"And then," continued Matt, "the coroner gave his order for the burial, +and--" + +But Isaac Gross, who, in his slow fashion, was as industrious as the +bees, like them, could not get on without his wax, so he interrupted the +speaker with, "I want my wax," as he routed amongst his tools for the +missing necessary. + +"You're waxing a great nuisance, Ike," said Matt, "and I wish you'd find +your wax;" and then he readjusted his spectacles, and had another pinch +of snuff. "Hullo!" he growled, starting up and going to the door to +speak to a woman who stood there, and who eagerly, whispered a few words +as she passed a note and a shilling into his hand. "Yes; I'll take the +note, but I don't want that," he said, refusing the shilling, which fell +upon the door-step. "Now, look here," he said aloud, and very gruffly-- +for the woman had already turned to go--"I don't like this business at +all; but if I'm to do it, I don't want paying for it; and if you don't +take back that money, I sha'n't take the letter." + +"Hush, pray!" whispered the woman, glancing at Isaac's round, wide-open +eyes. "Don't be angry with me, please--don't speak so loud." + +The appealing voice somewhat softened the old man, but he kept on +growling and muttering, as, after a few more words, the woman--the same +who had visited the Jarkers--picked up the shilling and left him, +watched all the while most eagerly by Mrs Slagg, who did not seem to be +easy in her mind respecting female visitors to her neighbour's place of +business. + +"It won't do, it won't do," muttered the old man, taking his seat after +glancing at the note. "I don't like it.--Well," he said aloud, "have +you found that wax?" + +"It was in my pocket," said Isaac, slowly and seriously pointing to the +discovered necessary covered with bread-crumbs, tobacco-dust, and flue. + +"Now then, let's have a bit more news," said Matt, once more settling +himself. + +"Ain't there a murder nowheres?" said Isaac, whose work was now +progressing. + +"No, there ain't!" said Matt gruffly. "Nice taste you've got; but +here's two fires--p'r'aps they'll do for you?" + +"Ah!" said Isaac slowly, "let's have them;" but again, to Matt's +annoyance, further progress was stayed by the entrance of a man to +dispose of three pairs of old boots. + +Old Matt crumpled up his paper and put it away in disgust, and as soon +as the man had taken his departure he began to examine the boots. + +"Ah!" he said, "nice trade yours--three pair of decent boots for three +shillings; and then you'll touch them up and sell them for five +shillings a pair. Tell you what--I'll give you a shilling and my old +ones for this pair." + +"Why, you can't wear 'em till they're mended," said Isaac. + +"Can't I?" replied Mat with a grim smile; "I can wear these, old fellow, +which are a deal worse;" and he placed one of his old ones on the bench. + +This was unanswerable, so Isaac only smoked. + +"Try which pair fits you best," he said at last, "and I'll do them up a +little bit for another shilling." + +"No book-cover soles," said Matt, pointing with his thumb over his +shoulder at the heap in the back-room. + +Isaac grinned after his slow fashion, and then growled, "Fust-class +leather and good workmanship." + +"For two shillings?" said Matt. + +"And the old ones," said Isaac. + +"Why, they're worth nothing to you," said Matt. + +"And they ain't worth nothing to you," said Isaac. + +"S'pose I'm going out to dinner and want a change?" said the old man +with a grin. + +"'Nother shilling, then," said Isaac determinedly. + +"Why, they ain't worth sixpence!" exclaimed Matt indignantly. + +"Not to you," said Isaac slowly. + +"No, nor you, nor anybody, except the owner," said Matt. + +"Which is it to be?" said Isaac in intervals, between drawing home +stitches. "Two bob and the old uns, or three bob wi'out?" + +"Done up?" said Matt. + +"Done up," said Isaac. + +"With new leather?" said Matt. + +"With fust-class, well-seasoned leather," said Isaac, cutting off his +wax-ends. + +"Take 'em at two, then," said Matt, rising; "and I'll tell you what it +is, Ike, I put up with your smoke and your courting; but if you don't +make an end of choking me up with your confounded waste-paper, I'll +move, Ike--I'll move." + +Isaac Gross smiled, faster this time, for he took his pipe out of his +mouth to allow the smile to break into a grin; he then had a peep at +Mrs Slagg, who was on the watch, having seen Matt outside; and then, as +the old man made his way through the impedimenta of Lower Series-place, +turning the note he had received over and over in his hand, and +muttering as he went, Isaac's hammer went on "tap, tap, tap," till he +was out of hearing. + +END OF VOLUME ONE. + +Volume Two, Chapter I. + +HOME. + +Softly along the dark passages of the County Arms stole Septimus Hardon, +and with stealthy hand he loosened bar and bolt, till the front-door +yielded to his touch, and he stood in the grey dawn of the morning, +looking round the marketplace for a few minutes before making his way +along a road not travelled by him for years. + +How familiar every spot seemed as he left the town behind!--spots dimly +seen as yet, but familiar enough to cause a swelling sensation at his +heart, and tears to rise unbidden to his eyes. Now he stopped to gaze +upon some old half-forgotten scene; now to listen to the morning hymn +rising from the wood upon his left--loud and high notes from thrush and +finch, mingled with the starling's mocking whistle, the mellow +flute-tones of the blackbird, and the incessant caw of the rooks. All +around seemed so peaceful, so utter a change from the miseries of a +close London court, that his thoughts went back from the present to the +old days of his boyhood, and for a while a sense of elation coursed +through his veins, his eyes sparkled, and he gazed round with delight +till they rested upon the spire of the old church, when a chill fell +upon his spirit once more, as he remembered the funeral and the miseries +of the present. Then, for the hundredth time, he recalled his father's +lonely and fearful end--passing away without a word of forgiveness; his +own return as a beggar to his old home, without a right therein--to be +met as it were upon the threshold, and to be told that he was an +intruder who could be admitted only upon sufferance. But he would +enter, he said, if only to ask of the dead to give him a sign respecting +the truth of his uncle's words. + +Septimus Hardon's brow furrowed, and he walked on hastily; then he fell +back into his listless, weary way. It was very early, or his +gesticulations would have excited attention; but he met no one, and once +more hurrying on, he at last stood before the clump of trees within +whose shades was the gloomy moss-grown house where so large a portion of +his life had been spent. He passed through the rusty iron gate, which +creaked mournfully, and then stood before the old place, which looked +more gloomy, moss-grown, and damp than ever. Desolation everywhere; for +when the son left his home, the father had shut himself up, discharging +the gardener and all the indoor servants but the one who filled the post +of housekeeper. The vine still hung to the large trellis-work, but here +and there, tangled with ivy, it had fallen away, and lay across the +path; the windows were dim, the paths overgrown with weeds; while +between the door-steps the withered herbage that had grown up the +previous year, rustled in the breeze of the early spring. Over such +windows as yet possessed them, yellow time-stained blinds were drawn, +while here and there upon the ground-[four pages missing from the scan.] +the perspiration in large drops upon his forehead, as the blind slowly +flapped to and fro, and the lath rapped in a strange ghostly way upon +the framework of the window. + +For a few minutes Septimus Hardon stopped, leaning against the +window-sill, trembling and undecided, till, mustering his strength of +mind and body, he slowly drew himself up, climbed within the room, and +then as the blind fell back to its place, stood in the presence of the +dead, listening to the "rap-rap" of the blind-lath against the +window-frame, and a sharp vicious gnawing that proceeded from behind the +wainscot of the old house, and all the while not daring to turn his eyes +in the direction of the bed whose position he knew so well, and upon +which he could feel that the coffin was resting. + +Gnaw, gnaw; tear, tear; sharp little teeth savagely working at the thin +hard wood, and evidently making rapid progress towards their goal. + +The sound was hideous, and the sweat dropped from Septimus Hardon's +forehead with a tiny plash upon the bare boards, where he could see more +than one little star-like mark, and then rousing himself, he ran towards +the spot from whence the noise proceeded, and kicked furiously at the +wainscot, when there was a scuffling noise, followed by a deep +stillness, broken only at intervals by the gentle rapping of the +blind-lath upon the window-frame. + +And there stood the careworn man in his own old room--the old +plainly-furnished room that he might have slept in but the previous +night, so unaltered was everything, as, with eyes putting off that which +he had come to see until the very last, he gazed around. There were the +quaint old black-framed prints of Hudibras, whose strange, uncouth +figures had frightened him as a boy--figures that, in the half-lights of +evening or early morn, he had looked upon until they had seemed to stand +forth from the frames as he lay quaking with childish terror; there was +the old wall-paper, in whose pattern he had been wont to trace grotesque +faces; there again the marbled ceiling, whose blue veins he had been +used to follow in their maze-like wanderings, when he lay fevered and +wakeful with some childish ailment; the same strips of lean-looking +striped carpet; the same old hook in the beam, round which the flies +darted and circled in summer; the same rickety corner washstand, with +its cracked ewer, and quaint water-bottle and glass, which tinkled when +a footstep passed along the passage; the fire-board, which blew down on +windy nights, and almost frightened him into a fit, while there it was, +even now, half-fallen and leaning against a chair, with a faint dust of +the old fine soot, just as it used to be, scattered upon the +hearthstone; the same drawers, whose old jingling brass knobs caught in +his pinafore, and held him that dark night when he let fall the candle, +and stood screaming for help; the same shells upon the chimney-piece-- +shells that of old he had held to his ear to listen to the roaring sea; +even the old rushlight shade--big, and pierced with holes--was there, +the old shade that used to stand upon the floor in the wash-hand basin, +and throw its great hole-pierced shadow all over ceiling and wall--while +each hole formed a glaring eye to stare at him and frighten away sleep. + +Familiar sights that made him disbelieve in the lapse of time, and think +it impossible that he could be standing there an elderly man; for all +his association with the room seemed those first-formed impressions of +childhood. But he cast away the dreamy, musing fit; for he felt that he +had driven it to the last, and he must look now. Yes; there was his old +bed, with the great black-cloth coffin, nearly covered by its lid, now +drawn down a little from the head. + +"Tap-tap, tap-tap," went the blind-lath; while outside shone the sun, +and through the open window came the cheery twitter of the birds. +Within the room Septimus Hardon could hear the heavy beating of his own +heart. Then again, close behind him, came the sound of hurried +scuffling beyond the wainscot; then a shrill squealing; and directly +after, the loud sharp tearing of hungry teeth, gnaw, gnaw, gnaw +incessantly, for the scared rats had again returned to the charge. + +Septimus Hardon roused himself from his stupor, and kicked angrily at +the wainscot, and once again he heard the hurrying rush of the +hunger-driven little animals as they fled, and a shuddering sensation +ran through his veins as he recalled the past. + +And now he nerved himself to approach the bed, and stretched out his +hand to remove the coffin-lid; but for some time he stood with his hands +resting upon it. A dread had overshadowed him that he was about to gaze +upon something too hideous for human eyes to bear; but at last he thrust +the covering aside, and it fell upon the bed, when, with swimming head, +he clung to the bedstead for a few minutes to save himself from falling. +But the tremor passed off, for he was once more roused by the +indefatigable gnawing of the rats; and he asked himself how long it +would be before they would work their way through the thin oaken panel, +and then whether they would attack the coffin. + +Gnaw, gnaw, gnaw incessantly, till he once more angrily struck at the +wall, when the noise ceased. And now Septimus Hardon strode firmly up +to the bedside and gazed upon his father's face, not hideously +disfigured, or frightful to look upon, but pale, calm, stern, with the +brow slightly contracted, and, seen there in the twilight of that shaded +room, apparently sleeping. + +Dead--not sleeping. Gone from him without a word, without a sign, of +forgiveness; leaving him a beggar with a name that was fouled and +stained for ever in the sight of men. Gone--taking with him a secret of +such vital importance; but Septimus Hardon thought not now of all this, +for his memory was back amidst those early days when his mother was +living, and his father would relax from his stern fits, so that for a +while happiness seemed to dwell within their home. Then came the +recollection of his mother's death, and the cold indifference into which +his father had sunk. Then again all the sorrows and pains were +forgotten, and the old man's virtues shone forth, as his shabby, +travel-stained son sank upon his knees by the coffin and buried his face +in his hands. + +The sun streamed through the loose corner of the blind and shone like a +golden bar-sinister across the kneeling man; the sparrows twittered in +the eaves, and ever upon the window-frame the blind kept up its +monotonous tap, tap, tap, at regular intervals, while at times a puff of +light air made it shiver and shudder from top to bottom. But, above +all, came from behind the wainscot the incessant gnaw, gnaw, gnaw, as +though the rats knew, that their time was short, and that their prey +would soon be beyond their reach; gnaw, gnaw, gnaw, as though +splintering off large pieces of the woodwork, while now no +angrily-stricken blow scared them off; gnaw, gnaw, gnaw, until little +ragged splinters and chips began to be thrust out beneath the +skirting-board; then more, and more, and more, till a tiny, light heap, +that a breath would have scattered, appeared close to a ragged hole. +Then heap and hole grew larger, and as the noise increased a sharp nose +was seen moving quickly, as a rat worked vigorously, till, as it +obtained room to tear away at the board, the heap grew bigger, fragments +were thrust out hastily into the room, and at last the little archway +afforded space for the passage of the worker, a sharp-eyed, +keen-looking, little animal, which, after peering about eagerly for a +few moments, darted into the room, darted back again, and then renewed +its attack upon the skirting-board until the hole was enlarged. + +Then for a while all was silent, but a keen observer might have detected +within the darkness the sharp nose of the rat, and the eager glint of +its watching orbs. Then came a faint rustle, and the rat seemed to +glide out into the room; then another head appeared at the hole, and +another lean, vicious animal was out, but a louder tap than usual from +the blind sent them darting back to their lair. + +Another five minutes and they were out again--one, two, three; another, +and another, and another--a swarm of rats, savage with hunger; but now +the loud, chirrupping squabble of a pair of sparrows which settled on +the window-sill scared the little animals once more, and they fled in +haste to their corner. + +Out again, for all was silent; first one peering into the room, with its +black, bead-like eyes scanning the place, then darting back at some +false alarm, but out again directly, followed by its fellows, till there +was a swarm once more, now running a few feet, now darting back to the +hole; and still Septimus Hardon knelt, as he had knelt for hours, +motionless beside his father's coffin. + +The golden bar shone into and across the room, a bar-sinister no longer, +for it played upon the features of the dead, seeming to illumine them +with a smile; the sparrows twittered in the eaves, the faint whistle of +a carter, cheering his way with some old minor strain, was heard from +the road; the blind still tapped softly and shuddered from top to +bottom; but the gnawing sounds from the skirting-board had ceased, and +the kneeling man remained motionless by the bedside. + +Tap, tap, tap, in a strange warning way, as the shuddering motion of the +old blind continued. Warning taps, as if softly made by unseen +watchers--signals to rouse the kneeling figure whose face was buried in +his hands, and whose worn, lean fingers touched the black-cloth of the +coffin; taps that now grew louder, for there was a faint, scratching +noise, as of little vicious claws passing over a counterpane. + +Volume Two, Chapter II. + +MEETINGS. + +With something like the wondering pleasure that must have been felt by +the first photographer who applied his developing liquid to a sensitised +plate and then saw spring out by magic, as it were, first faint, then +stronger lines, feature by feature, the lineaments of a beautiful face, +gazed old Matt Space upon Lucy Grey as Time, that wonderful developer, +caused her day by day to take more and more the aspect of a beautiful +woman. Yesterday almost it seemed to him that she was a mere girl, a +child; but the transition had been rapid. True, hers was a time of life +when the bud is seen to expand rapidly; but here there had been forcing +powers at work. In fact, in quiet self-dependence, thought, and her +managing ways, Lucy had been for years a woman, and the friend and +counsellor of her mother in many a sore trial. Familiarity with sorrow, +poverty, her step-father's struggles, and their life in the busy streets +of London, had all tended to develop the mind of Lucy Grey, who might +truly be said never to have known a girlhood: nurse to her little sister +and brother in sickness and health, attendant of her ailing mother, +housekeeper, cheerer of Septimus Hardon's misery, and now busy worker +for the family's support, it were strange indeed if she had not stepped +as it were from child to woman, for in such cases as hers years seem +secondary. + +But the years had not been stationary, for Lucy Grey was now seventeen, +and the old printer used to gaze with pride upon the fair girl, who +chose him gladly for her companion to and from the warehouse for which +she worked. + +But Matt was angry and annoyed, for he had been made the half confidant +of a secret which galled and worried him. Twenty times a day he vowed +that he would have no more of it; and at such times the consumption of +his snuff was terrible. There was hardly a lamp-post in Carey-street to +which he had not fiercely declared that he would "split," nodding +mysteriously the whole while; but night after night, when he met the +appealing look of Lucy, all his resolutions faded like mist in the sun, +and he would whisper the next post he passed that he was getting to be a +fool in his old age. + +The old man had carried the letter he received to Lucy, giving it to her +at dinner-time, while Mrs Hardon was lying down; and then furtively +watched the eager looks, the flushing cheeks, and tear-wet eyes, as the +reader devoured the contents. + +"You'll be here to-night, Mr Space?" said Lucy, looking up. "You'll go +with me?" + +"Old Matt Space, miss, is your humble servant, and he'll do what you +tell him; but he don't like that at all. He don't like secrets;" and +the old man pointed to the note. "Why not tell her?" and he nodded +towards the inner room. + +"No, no," whispered Lucy hurriedly. + +"All right, miss, all right. I'll be here at seven. Be taken bad, I +suppose, and slip off for an hour." And at the appointed time the old +man hurried from the office where he was employed, at the great risk of +being told that he would be wanted no more, and accompanied Lucy to +where in the dusk of evening, she stood talking to the dark, +showily-dressed woman, whose agitated, mobile countenance made the paint +upon her cheeks look weird and strange. She had hold tightly of Lucy's +hand, and more than once old Matt saw her kiss it fondly, clinging to it +as if it were her last hold upon innocence and purity. + +Twice during their interview the old man advanced, signing that it was +time they went, by many a hasty jerk with his thumb; but the appealing +looks he encountered sent him muttering back to his former post beneath +a lamp, where he stood watching uneasily. + +And old Matt had something to watch, too; for twice he saw the +villainously-countenanced Mr Jarker slink by on the opposite side of +the way, trying very hard to appear ignorant of a meeting taking place, +but failing dismally, for from time to time his head was turned in the +direction, besides which many a passer-by paused to gaze, with something +like effrontery, upon the sweet, candid face of Lucy, while more than +one seemed disposed to turn back. All this troubled the old man, and +made him redouble his watchfulness as he walked a little nearer to the +speakers; but he did not see that, some fifty yards down the street, +standing in a doorway, there was another watcher, from beneath whose +broad white brow a pair of keen grey eyes were fixed uneasily upon the +group, with a troubled, puzzled expression. + +"God--God bless you!" whispered the woman; "you must go now, my +darling!" just as a well-dressed man sauntered back, cigar in hand, and, +slightly stooping, addressed some observation to the startled girl; when +old Matt, who had been watching his movements and followed close behind, +suddenly shouldered him on one side, and so vigorously, that he stepped +into the road to save himself from falling. Then there was a shout from +a passing cabman, a half-uttered cry, and the daintily-dressed lounger +was rubbing the marks of a muddy wheel from his dark trousers, while old +Matt, with a gruff "Come along, miss!" drew Lucy's arm through his own, +and with a short, sharp nod to her companion, marched her off. + +But Matt did not turn back to see the next change in the scene, or he +might have looked upon Mr William Jarker crossing the road and speaking +to the dark woman, who replied fiercely and shortly, as she turned from +him in an abrupt manner, but only to return and say a few words quietly +ere she hurried off. Then the city dandy, recovered from his fright, +followed the steps of old Matt and Lucy, till a firm hand was laid upon +his shoulder, when turning, he encountered the calm, fixed gaze of a man +of some one- or two-and-thirty, dressed as a clergyman. + +"Stand back, sir, or I give you into custody for insulting that young +lady," he said, in quiet, hard, measured tones. + +"Young what?" was the reply; but there was a something so firm and +convincing in the look of the keen grey eyes upon him, that, muttering +inaudibly, the fellow shrank back, and was soon lost in the passing +crowd. + +The Reverend Arthur Sterne then looked hastily round, to see that Lucy +Grey had passed down the next street, to whose corner he hurried, where +he could see her nearly at the bottom, with old Matt striding fiercely +along. He then turned to look for the woman who had been Lucy's +companion, but she had disappeared. However, he walked hastily in the +direction she had taken, and searched eagerly for some distance, now +thinking that he caught sight of her bonnet on this side, now upon that, +but always disappointed; several times he was about to return, but a +delusive glimpse of some figure in the distance led him on, till, tired +and disheartened, he turned to reach his apartments, when he +encountered, first, the ill-looking countenance of Mr William Jarker, +who made a sort of slouching attempt at a bow, and directly after, a +quiet-looking individual, with a straw in his mouth and his hands in his +pockets, whom Mr Sterne passed without notice, though he had recognised +the birdcatcher, whose wife he had from time to time visited. But Mr +Sterne was not aware that he had been followed by the ruffian, as a +bull-dog would follow his master, or a hound his quarry--though it is +disgracing the latter simile to use it. Nor was Mr Jarker aware that +that quiet-looking individual had been following him in turn till he was +once more about to track the curate, when for a moment he and the quiet +individual stood face to face, apparently without seeing one another; +but it was observable that Mr Jarker immediately went off in quite +another direction, while, after slowly twisting his straw and winking to +himself, the quiet man slowly took the same route as Mr Sterne. + +Volume Two, Chapter III. + +ANOTHER FUNERAL. + +Septimus Hardon leaped to his feet, as suddenly a key turned and the +bedroom-door opened; there was a sharp scuffling noise, as of a swarm of +rats leaping hurriedly from the bed, and tearing over one another, in +their haste to reach the hole; a wild shriek from a woman, a heavy fall, +and then all was again silent. + +As soon as he could recall his scattered energies, Septimus Hardon +raised the woman's head and bathed her face, when she soon opened her +eyes and sat up, gazing at him with a horrified aspect. + +"Hush!" he said softly; "don't be alarmed. My name is Hardon; I came to +see my father for the last time. I think I used to know you in the +town?" + +"O, yes; I remember you now, sir," stammered the woman; "but you gave me +a dreadful turn." + +"Hush! Come down-stairs now," whispered Septimus, and he motioned her +to follow him to the door. + +The woman was about to obey, but, glancing round the room, she pointed +to the freshly-gnawed wood and the heap of chips. + +Septimus shuddered, and they went together and closed the coffin-lid. + +"Stop a minute, sir, please," said the woman--a poor cottager's wife +from the town, who followed the same road in Somesham adopted by Mrs +Sims of Lincoln's-inn,--"stop a minute, sir, please, and I'll be back +directly." The poor thing trembled so that her teeth chattered, as she +hurried away; but she returned in a few minutes with a huge black cat, +which struggled from her arms and ran, with dilated eyes, towards the +rats' hole, where it softly couched, motionless but for the writhings of +its lithe tail, as it sat there watching for the coming of its enemies. + +There were funeral cake and wine upon the table below, and an extra +supply of the former was cut up and sealed in squares of paper, bearing +a couple of verses of a psalm, and the pastrycook's name and address as +a serious advertisement. + +After waiting a couple of hours, most of which he spent wandering about +the old house, Septimus Hardon took his old place in the little +dining-room, opposite to the sealed-up bureau and cupboards. The +undertaker and his man had arrived, and soon after came Doctor Hardon's +rival, who had been called in to the deceased. The undertaker knew +Septimus and bowed; the surgeon, too, knew him again and shook hands, +not being at all surprised to see him there; while he invited him to +dinner before he should leave the town. But although Doctor Hardon, who +came soon after, well knew Septimus Hardon, he _was_ surprised to see +him there, and did not shake hands, but started as though someone had +struck him a violent blow. Mr Keening--Keening and Keening--then +entered the room, when the gentlemen all took wine in a heavy, +impressive way, and talked in a low tone about matters as far removed as +possible from the purpose for which they had met together. + +Then came the undertaker to ask in a subdued way if any gentleman wished +to go up-stairs; but no gentleman save the son wished to go; and he +stole away to stand and gaze for a few moments upon the calm pale +features, and then returned to where the undertaker was distributing +gloves of the best black kid, asking the size each gentleman took with a +smooth oily courtesy. Scarves were then produced of the richest and +stiffest corded-silk, cloaks were tied on, and as each mourner was +dressed for his part of the performance, he was inspected all round, and +from top to toe, by the undertaker before he was allowed to reseat +himself. Then more wine, and more subdued conversation followed, +interrupted by the grating of wheels upon the gravel drive. Heavy +footsteps overhead now; trampling; someone slipping upon the stairs, and +the balustrade heard to creak loudly as an exclamation was heard; a +shuffling noise; more footsteps heavily descending; a sharp pattering of +feet on the passage oilcloth, and much rustling past the room-door, +followed by an interval of a few minutes, and the noise of wheels going +and wheels coming; and then the undertaker stood bowing in the open +door, and motioned Septimus Hardon to follow. + +This was almost too much for Doctor Hardon, who had ordered that +everything possible to make the funeral impressive should be done. The +large hearse and two mourning-coaches had been hired expressly from the +county-town; velvet and ostrich plumes were in plenty; and, as chief +mourner, the doctor had reckoned upon a very imposing spectacle, one +that should to a certain extent erase the horrors of his brother's end, +and help to raise him, the doctor, in the estimation of the inhabitants +of Somesham. But now this was spoiled by the coming of the shabby, worn +son, towards whom the undertaker had leaned in the belief, in his +ignorance, that he was the chief mourner. + +Septimus rose, and moved towards the door, while Doctor Hardon hesitated +to obey the beckoning finger of the undertaker; but the dread of drawing +attention to his tremor made him more himself, and, putting a +white-cambric kerchief to his face, he followed his nephew, to be +directly after shut up with him in the mourning-coach. But Septimus +noticed him not, as he sat stern and with knitted brow, no muscle +betraying the wild emotions struggling within. + +The surgeon and solicitor followed in the next coach; and then the +funeral procession moved slowly off towards the town, making as great a +show as the undertaker's strict adherence to his employer's orders could +effect. Doctor Hardon said he wished to keep up appearances for his +dear brother's sake; but he had not reckoned upon the presence of the +stern, careworn man by his side, and he shrank into his corner of the +mourning-coach, angry, but at the same time fearful lest a scene might +ensue which should damage his reputation in the good town of Somesham; +besides, it would have been so painful to the feelings of his three +daughters--he only thought of three, even though one was married and two +resided at a distance. Nothing could have been more unfortunate than +the appearance of Septimus at such a time, and during the silent ride +the doctor's wishes were anything but loving towards his nephew; while +upon reaching the church the gall of bitterness was made more bitter, +for the doctor again found himself made of secondary importance by +Septimus, who seemed to have roused himself into action for the time, +and strode on in front, close behind the coffin, to take his place in +the church so crowded with familiar recollections. There, bowed down in +the same pew, but with very different thoughts, uncle and nephew +listened to the service ere they stood together by the bricked vault +prepared for the remains of old Octavius, and here again the doctor +seemed to have shrunk into a nonentity, for every eye was fixed upon the +shabby mourner by his side. + +The clergyman had concluded, and, closing his book, was slowly walking +away; the clerk had followed, and at the church-gate the foremost +mourning-coach stood waiting, with a crowd of children and idlers +around, the hearse being drawn up at a distance, already half denuded of +its plumes by one of the deputies of the furnisher. There was a crowd, +too, thickly clustered amidst grave and tombstone in the churchyard, for +plenty of interest attached to the death of old Octavius Hardon, and the +people of Somesham seemed bound to see the matter to the end. + +Nothing now remained for the mourners but to take a last glance at the +coffin and come away. Septimus had stood for a few moments looking down +into the vault, with the stern aspect of resolution fading from his +face, to give way to one of helpless misery, when, turning to leave, he +encountered the mourning brother advancing with drooping head and raised +handkerchief to take his farewell look. + +Septimus Hardon shrank back as from a serpent, and made room for his +uncle to pass; but the next moment a sudden rage possessed him, and, +stepping forward, he laid a hand upon the doctor's shoulder, whispering +a few words in his ear. + +Hastily confronting his nephew, the doctor turned, when, shaking a +threatening finger in his face, Septimus exclaimed: "Hypocrite! I +know--" But before he could finish the sentence, the doctor started back +as if to avoid the threatening hand; his foot slipped upon the very edge +of one of the boards, and the next moment, before a hand could be +stretched out to save him, he fell with a crash into the vault. + +For a while no one moved, a thrill of horror running through the +assembled crowd; but soon help in plenty was there to raise the fallen +man from the coffin upon which he lay, apparently senseless, and amidst +a buzz of suggestions the sexton nimbly descended, rope in hand, and, +slipping the strong cord around the doctor's chest, he was dragged out +and borne to the waiting coach. + +Septimus, shocked, and almost paralysed at the effect of his threatening +gesture, stood for a few minutes looking on, till, seeing relief +afforded to the fallen man, he turned slowly away, people giving place +right and left to allow him to pass. On reaching the second coach, he +hastily disencumbered himself of his trappings of woe, and threw them to +the astonished man at the door, who had never before witnessed such +unseemly conduct at a funeral. Then, after another hasty glance towards +the crowd around his uncle, Septimus strode off in the direction of the +County Arms; while, gaping, talking, and wondering, the people slowly +dispersed, saving such as followed the coach to the doctor's residence +in the High-street, where they hung about, clinging helplessly to the +iron railings, and staring at the dining-room windows, until Mr Brande, +the surgeon, and Mr Keening, the solicitor, came out together, looking +very important, and walked down the street; when several of the railing +barnacles followed at a distance, as if the gentlemen had brought out a +printed account of the gossip-engendering scene in their pockets ready +for distribution. + +With his mourning habiliments Septimus Hardon seemed to have cast off +the interest the crowd might be supposed to have taken in him; for no +one followed the thin shabby man in dusty clothes and battered hat, as +he strode on, till abreast of the old inn, where he paused, as if about +to enter; but the next moment, shaking his head wearily, he walked on, +and was soon past the first mile-stone on his way to the great city. + +Volume Two, Chapter IV. + +AFTER A LAPSE. + +"Do, sir?" exclaimed old Matt, pausing in his occupation of pulling the +string to make a lathen figure throw out arms and legs for the +delectation of little Tom,--"do, sir? Why, what I've always told you, +and you say the parson's told you,--go in for it, you've nothing to +lose; so if anything happens, you must win. A year last spring now +since I come running in here with that para thinking I'd made your +fortune for you, sir; and now--Look there, what you've done, you've +pulled one of his legs off!"--This in a parenthesis to the little boy +between his knees.--"And where are you? Certainly, you get on a bit +with the writing, sir; but if it was me I couldn't have settled down +without making him prove his words." + +"But, you see," said Septimus, looking up from his copying, "I'm not +clever, I'm not a business man; and what could I do without money for +legal advice? It's a sad life this; and ours is, and always was, a +miserable family, and my uncle's too. Look at him: his children are +always away, while Agnes came to us through some love-affair with the +assistant, and soon after I came away she disappeared, and has never +been heard of since. Did you speak?" + +"No," said Matt, whose face was puckered up, while he had been trying to +catch the eye of Lucy, who sat at the window busily preparing some work +for a bright new sewing-machine which had lately been supplied to her +from the warehouse where she was employed. + +"He has the money," continued Septimus, "but that can't compensate for +the loss of his child. Poor Agnes!" + +"Don't speak of her," exclaimed Mrs Septimus angrily, "she was a very +weak, bad woman, and--" + +"Hush!" said Septimus sternly, "we are all weak; and who made us +judges?" + +Mrs Septimus fidgeted about in her easy-chair, looking nettled and +angry as she sat near the window, while with flushed cheek Lucy bent +lower and lower over her work, once only catching Matt's eye, when the +old man looked so alarmingly mysterious that the flush upon her face +deepened, and she rose and left the room. + +"You see, sir," said Matt, continuing a conversation that had evidently +been broken off, "it's been let go by so long now, when steps ought to +have been taken at once. No offence meant--you won't be put out if I +speak plain?" + +Septimus shook his head, and went on copying. + +"You see," said Matt, "you ought to have gone to Doctors' Commons, and +entered a something against your uncle, and done a something else, and +had a lawyer to engage counsel, and then this precious uncle of yours +couldn't have touched the property till the matter had been tried in the +Court of Probate; when, of course, you must have come out with flying +colours. But here, you see, you do nothing; first letting one month +slip away, and then another, and all the while he goes to work, gets +uninterrupted possession, sticks tighter and tighter to it, and for +aught you know, he's spent it all by this time. You ought, you know, to +have carried on the war at once." + +"And about the sinews?" said Septimus drearily, without raising his +head. + +"Blame them sinews!" cried the old man; "they're about the tightest, and +hardest, and toughest things in the whole world. It seems to me, you +know, sir, thinking it over--and I've had it in bed with me scores of +nights--it seems to me that your uncle rather reckoned on his meeting no +opposition; and on your--snuff, snuff, snuff," muttered the old man in a +confused way, as he fumbled about in his pockets. + +"Say it out, Matt," said Septimus with a sad smile, "my weakness--no +doubt of it, for he could never have believed his own words." + +"Well, that was the word, certainly, sir," said Matt; "and after all +your fuss, I don't know that a man's any the better for being strong, +mind you. I wasn't going to say weakness, for I was hanging fire for a +word that meant the same with the corners rubbed off a bit; but there +wasn't letter enough in the case to make it up." + +"Can't help it, Matt," said Septimus, removing a hair from his pen by +wiping it upon his coat-tail, and then smearing his forehead with his +inky fingers, ready for Lucy, who entered the room directly after, to +take his careworn head upon her arm, wet a corner of her handkerchief +between her rosy lips, and then wipe away the obstinate smear--Septimus +the while as still and patient as possible, till the fair girl concluded +her performance with a kiss, when he went on with his task. "Exors-- +ecutors--and assigns," muttered Septimus, writing. "Can't help it, +Matt, I suppose it's my nature to be weak." + +"And let everyone kick you," said Matt to himself.--"Well, sir," he +continued aloud, "it's my belief that this uncle of yours, not to put +too fine a point upon it, is a rogue. He's a deep one, that's what he +is; but then, you know, he isn't the only deep one in the world, and if +you'd begun when you should have done--there, I won't say so any more," +he exclaimed hastily, for Septimus made an impatient movement. "Now, +you see, you've taken this sudden whim--very well, sir, all right--we've +talked you into it, say then--and you mean now to see if you can't go on +with the matter. Better late than never, say I; so now, how does it +stand? He has possession, and that's what they call nine points of the +law; and he's had possession for above a year, and you haven't taken a +step to dispute his right.--Well, I can't go into the thing without +speaking of the rights and wrongs of it, can I?" exclaimed the old man +in an injured tone, for Septimus shuffled nervously in his seat. + +"There, go on!" said Septimus. + +"But, there, p'raps I'm making too free," said the old man, snatching at +the string so angrily that he broke the other leg of the figure he had +brought the child.--"Never mind, my man," he whispered; "I'll bring you +such a good un next time I come." + +"Go on, Matt," said Septimus quietly; "you ought to make allowances for +me." + +"So I do, sir, so I do--heaps," cried the old man eagerly. + +"We have not so many friends," continued Septimus, laying down his pen +and stretching out his hand, "that we can afford to behave slightingly +to their advice, even if it is unpalatable." + +Old Matt took the proffered hand, and shook it warmly, before going on +with his subject. + +"Well, sir," said Matt, "you say he told you out flat that you were a-- +a--well, you know what I mean." + +"Yes, yes," said Septimus drearily, for he had so familiarised himself +in thought with the word, that it had ceased to bring up an indignant +flush to his cheek. + +"Well," said Matt, "then the whole of our work--I say `our,' you know--" + +Septimus nodded. + +"The whole of our work consists in proving him false." + +"Exactly," said Septimus, sticking his pen behind his ear; "but how?" + +"Documentary evidence," said the old man, "that's it; documentary +evidence," and he took snuff loudly. "Marriage stiffikits, baptism +registers, and so on. Let's see; I don't think there was any regular +registration in those days. Now then, to begin with, sir. Where were +your father and mother married?--that is, if they were," muttered the +old man in what was meant for an undertone, but Septimus heard the +words. + +"O yes," he said quietly, "they were married in the City." + +"Very good," said Matt. "Then suppose we get a copy of the marriage +stiffikit, sworn to and witnessed, how then?" + +"Well, that proves the marriage," said Septimus. + +"To be sure," said Matt; "but then you'll find he bases his claim upon +your being born before. You don't think he denies that your father and +mother were married? He don't, does he?" + +"No," said Septimus wearily, as he opened a pocket-book and drew out a +frayed and broken letter, which had separated here and there in the +folds from frequent reference. "You are right, Matt," he said, after +reading a few lines. "The marriage register would be no good." + +"Yes, it would," said Matt; "it's documentary evidence, and it will be +one brick in the tower we want to build up; so don't you get sneezing at +it because it ain't everything. It will be one thing; and so far so +good, when we get it. You see it's a ticklish thing, and before you put +it in a solicitor's hands--a respectable solicitor's hands, for cheap +law's the dearest thing in Lincoln's-inn--you must have something to +show him. Now, so far so good, only recollect your uncle's on firm +ground, while as yet you're nowhere. Now say we go to a good solicitor. +`Were you born in wedlock?' says he. `Yes,' says you. `Now then,' +says he, `prove it.'" + +Septimus sighed, and began to wonder whether his uncle was right. + +"Now, then," said Matt, "family Bible with birth in, eh?" + +"We had one, full of plates," said Septimus, recalling the old Sunday +afternoons, when he had leaned over the table, amusing himself with the +engravings; "but there were no entries in it, only my grandfather's +name. I fancy, though, now you mention it, my father had a little +pocket-Bible with some entries in, but I never took particular notice." + +"Rotten reed--a rotten reed," said the old man. "You are not sure; and +even if you were, your uncle's been foxy enough to hunt the place over +and over, and that book's gone up the chimney in smoke, or under the +grate in ashes, long enough ago. No will, you say?" + +"Not that I could hear of," said Septimus. + +"We might, p'r'aps, find the nurse, or doctor, or some old friend; but +then, unless they can bring up documentary evidence, 'tain't much good. +You know, when old folks are made to swear about things that took place +fifty years ago, people shake their heads and think about failing +memories, and so on. You see we must have something strong to work +upon. If we could get the date of your birth, and the marriage +stiffikit, we should be all right, shouldn't we?" + +"Yes, they would prove all we want," said Septimus. + +"Exactly so," said Matt; "and if we couldn't get the date of your birth, +how about date of baptism?" + +"That would do just as well," exclaimed Septimus. + +"No, it wouldn't," said the old man, "without it's got in how old you +were when the parson made a cross on your forehead--eh?" + +Septimus was damped directly. + +"It's no use to be sanguine, you know, sir. What we've got to do is to +expect nothing, and then all we do get is clear profit. Now, where were +you baptised--do you know that?" + +"Yes," said Septimus. + +"Well, that's all right, if it contains the entry of your age at the +time, but we won't be sure; and if it does, you see if your uncle don't +bring someone to swear it's false, and that they nursed you a +twelvemonth before you really were born. Most likely, you know, there'd +be half-a-score done at the same time as yours, and they never asked +your age. I don't say so, you know, only that perhaps it was so. Now, +what do you call your birthday, sir?" + +"Tenth of January 17--," said Septimus. + +"Very good, sir; but then, that's only what you say, mind, and a bare +word's not worth much in a court of law when a case is being tried. +`'Tis,' says you. `'Tisn't,' says your uncle, who's rich, and +prosperous, and respectable, and has the money, and lives in a big +house, with plenty of well-to-do friends round him. `Prove your case,' +says the judge to you; and mind you, sir, this is the ticklish point; it +ain't a question of who's to have your father's money. He's got it, and +it's a question of your turning him out. So, `Prove your case,' says +the judge. `You've left this man in possession for a year, and now you +say he does not hold the property lawfully. Prove your case.' `Can't +my lord,' says you--`no documentary evidence.' And now do you know what +the judge would say?" + +Septimus shook his head dismally. + +"`Judgment for the defendant'--that's your uncle, you know." And then, +as if highly satisfied with his logical mode of putting the case. Matt +snapped his fingers loudly after a large pinch of snuff. + +"But," said Mrs Septimus, "my doctor told me that he always kept a +register of all the births he attended." + +Mrs Septimus said no more, for old Matt's fist went down upon the table +with a bang that made some of the ink leap from the stand, but +fortunately not upon Septimus Hardon's clean sheets of paper. + +"I beg your pardon, ma'am!" cried Matt, hurriedly sopping up the ink +with his wisp of a handkerchief; "but blame me if I don't wish I'd been +born a woman! trust them for getting to the bottom of everything. Why, +Lord bless you, sir, there you are--there's the case in a nutshell!-- +that's the matter hit right in the bull's-eye! Why didn't you begin +about it before? You're right as a trivet. There's the date of the +marriage, and there's the doctor's book--such-and-such a day, +such-and-such a time; medicine and attendance, two pound twelve +shillings and sixpence. Hallo!" exclaimed Matt, scratching his head, +"that comes very pat; where did I hear those words before? But there, +look here, sir; I think we've got hold of the right end of the tangle, +and here it is. You go down to Somesham and tell nunky how it stands. +`Here we are,' says you, `and now give up peaceable and quiet, and I'll +say nothing at all about what's gone by.' Of course he won't, and +begins to talk big about kicking out of the house, and all that sort of +thing. `Two can play at that,' says you; and as he won't be civil, he +must have it hot. Back you come; put it in a decent solicitor's hands; +with your good documentary evidence out he goes--in you go; and my +di'mond has a pony with a long silky tail; Miss Lucy a carriage, and +missis here an invalid chair, and old Matt to push it--eh, ma'am?" + +"But about finding the doctor," said Septimus sadly. + +"Well, yes--true, to be sure," said Matt, over a fresh pinch of snuff; +"but I think we can manage that part, sir. Don't you see, we can tell +our road now we've got our line cut out; and we've only got it to do. +There's some pye in the case, of course, but we can correct as we go on, +eh? There's a doctors' directory, and we can soon find him." + +"There's a hitch directly," said Septimus. "I don't know his name." + +"Phillips!" exclaimed Mrs Hardon excitedly. + +"There we are again," cried Matt; "who'd be without a good partner?" + +"But how do you know?" said Septimus. + +"I remember in your mother's last illness," said Mrs Septimus, "that +she told me how she longed for her old doctor, for she felt sure Mr +Thomas Hardon did not understand her complaint; and that was the first +cause of disagreement between your father and Dr Hardon. I heard your +father tell him afterwards that he had killed his Sister, and to leave +the house." + +"But the name?" said Septimus, anxious to change the conversation. + +"Phillips--the same as my own; and that was why it made an impression +upon my memory." + +"Talk about cards to play, sir!" cried Matt, "why, that's winning: your +partner has played the leading trump." + +Septimus Hardon rose from his seat to begin anxiously pacing up and down +the room. He could see plainly enough the value of the position he was +nerving himself to fight for, but he shrank, as he had shrunk again and +again, from the exposure certain, whether he succeeded or not. +Vacillating in the extreme, he was at one time telling himself that it +was his duty to try and clear his mother's fame, though the next moment +would find him shrinking from the task, while his brow wrinkled up as he +sighed and looked from face to face, lastly on that of old Matt, who, +having relieved himself of the child, was taking snuff extravagantly, +and chuckling and rubbing his hands in anticipation of the coming +triumph. + +"Now, sir," he said upon catching the troubled man's eye, "about this +doctor." + +"Dead before now," said Septimus. "Allowing him to have been quite +young for a doctor, he would be eighty now, and how few men reach that +age!" + +"Pooh! nonsense!" cried Matt; "scores do--hundreds do--ninety either. +Eighty? Pooh! nothing! youth, sir. Why, I'm past sixty, and see what a +boy I look, eh? Why, I believe Miss Lucy would pick me out from scores +to take care of her,--wouldn't you, miss?" + +Lucy looked up from her work, nodded and smiled. + +"But now business," said the old man.--"Where did you live, sir, before +you went down in the country?" + +"Finsbury," said Septimus. + +"And you were born there, eh?" + +"I believe so," said Septimus, wondering in his own mind whether it was +worth all this trouble, perhaps to gain nothing. + +"To be sure," cried Matt; "and now we shall soon find it out. Brass +plate on the door--`Mr Phillips, Surgeon;' big lamp sticking out, red +bull's-eye one side, green t'other, like railway signals; `danger' and +`all right' to the people in the street." + +Old Matt rose to go, after appointing to meet Septimus on the following +morning to take the first steps for obtaining the "documentary evidence" +so necessary for their future plans. + +"Ten to the moment, you'll see me, sir," said Matt. "Good afternoon, +ma'am, and--Ah, Miss Lucy's gone!" + +But Septimus only sighed, and sat down once more to his weary copying, +sheets of which he so often spoiled by letting his thoughts wander from +the task in hand. + +"No more business in him, sir," said Matt as he descended the stairs, +"than--Ah, here we are, then! Thought I was going away without seeing +you again, miss;" for he had encountered Lucy upon the stairs. + +"Hush!" she whispered, "I only wanted to ask you to please be careful. +I was so frightened this afternoon." + +Old Matt buttoned up his coat as tightly as if his honour were inside +it, pursed up his lips, nodded his head seriously, and then laying one +finger upon the side of his nose he shuffled off, looking as mysterious +as if he were the repository of state secrets, and ready to bid defiance +to all the racks and thumbscrews of the good old times. + +Lucy Grey stood for a minute gazing after the shabby figure, and then, +turning to ascend, she coloured slightly upon finding herself face to +face with the old Frenchwoman who occupied the attic floor, and who now, +with a sneering smile upon her thin lips and an inquisitive light +peering from her half-closed eyes, looked at her, and then passed softly +and silently as a cat down the stairs without saying a word. + +Volume Two, Chapter V. + +HOMES IN LONDON. + +Bennett's-rents still upon that day--a bright breezy day--when for a +whole hour the god that kisseth carrion shone down into the court to +lick up every trace of green damp and moisture from the foul, broken +pavement. There was a pump in Bennett's-rents, and a channel ran down +the centre of the paving, whose broken slabs rose and fell in wet +weather to the passing step, spurting out little founts of dirty water, +while the channel itself was choked, from being turned into a receptacle +for the superfluous odds and ends of the inhabitants--to wit: potato, +turnip, and carrot peelings; the shells of whelks, periwinkles, mussels, +and crabs; egg-shells were at times seen there, as also the nacreous +covering of the oyster, but not as the debris of banquets, since these +latter were only brought in by the grotto-building children, and the +former thrown out by the jobbing bookbinder's-finisher when robbed of +their albumen for purposes of trade. Heads, tails, and the vertebra of +plaice, or the real Yarmouth bloater, were common objects of the shore. +Babies had been seen in that channel, which possessed a certain charm +from its safety, since the child that rolled in rolled no farther. It +was the favourite resort of the small fry of the neighbourhood,--a +neighbourhood that rejoiced in small children, and big babies of an +elastic nature, which prevented falls and contusions from stopping their +growth,--for the refuse in that channel could be raked about and poked +at with bits of stick to the formation of dams, where walnut cock-boats +could be sailed, or mussel-prows launched; and occasional visitants from +as far off as Lower Series-place had been known to perch there and peck, +for the channel was famed for its ample supply of impromptu playthings +for the little savages of the place. A large lobster-claw found therein +had formed the coral of Dredge minor, whose father worked at +Covent-garden Market, and never slept at home by night. Little Jenny +Perkins wore a necklace composed of periwinkle-shells; while +whelk-shells, stuck at the end of thick pieces of firewood, and +previously filled with peas, formed rattles that were indestructible. + +Like Lower Series-place, Bennett's-rents was famous for its prolific +inhabitants. Long as daylight lasted, there was a dense small +population of half-dressed aborigines, hooting, racing about, playing, +and quarrelling, aided in their efforts by levies from others of the +rags of Lincoln's-inn. Why called Bennett's-rents was not obvious, +though it might have been from the hideous cracks and seams in the +frowzy old houses, whose windows looked as if they had been in a +brown-paper-and-rag war, in which glass had suffered a terrible defeat, +and submitted now, with an ill grace, to the presence of the new +settlers. + +But the children did not have the channel all up themselves, for at +early dawn the pigeons from the housetops paid it visits, and, in spite +of broken, dissipated-looking chimney-pots, falling-out mortar, and +shattered, soot-covered tiles, there were many soft-eyed, iridescent-- +hued birds dwelling upon the roofs of the houses in Bennett's-rents; +and, more especially upon Sunday mornings, an observer from some high +edifice might have seen dirty-faced men, in hairy caps, rising out of +trap-doors in roofs, like "Mr F's aunt" through the factory-floor, and, +when half-way out, and forming prominent objects among little +wildernesses of sooty, lath-made cages and traps, amusing themselves by +waving red-cotton handkerchiefs tied to the end of sticks, for the +purpose of keeping their flights of pigeons high in air. + +A rumour had spread through the court that something was to be seen in +the neighbouring street, when out trooped the children from the narrow +entrance, and comparative silence reigned, till place and echoes were +alike mocked by a man with his cry of "Rag--bone!" but his was labour in +vain: he took nothing further from the Rents to glut the shop of Mrs +Slagg, and, reaching the end of the place, he departed with his bag +still light, and the court knew him no more that day, though there were +rags enough in every house to have filled his sack again and again, and +drawn down the index of his portable weighing-machine to the furthest +limit. Still there was another sound to be heard, for Mr William +Jarker, of the heavy jaw, flattened nose, and general bull-dog aspect, +was above his attic, whistling to his pigeons, as the Reverend Arthur +Sterne stood by the reeking channel, gazing up into the strip of blue +sky above his head, and following the circling flight of the birds as he +muttered sadly to himself, "O, that I had wings like a dove; for then +would I fly away and be at rest!" but the next instant he smiled sadly, +as he recalled work undone, duties to perform, and then thought of the +rest and fate of these birds, wondering, too, how it came that they +should form the "fancy" of the roughest of the rough. Then he paused +with his foot upon the threshold of the house where Septimus Hardon +lodged, for there, in the hot, close London court, came gushing down in +tones of purest liquid melody, the wild, heaven-gate trill of a lark: +"Tsweet-tsweet-tsweet-tsweet!" every trill an intoxicating, magic +draught, drunk in by the ear, and--a very opium--bearing the hearer far, +far away to green fields, shady woodlands, golden hill-sides, and +sparkling brooks; louder, louder and more rapturous, thrilling the air +around; rising and falling, echoing from far and near, but ever sweet +and pure, even joyous at times; and praise the song of the wild bird as +you may, there is that in the trill of its caged brother in some close +London alley that shall sound the sweeter in the sadness engendered by +the surroundings, for it whispers of brighter scenes and purer homes, +bearing you with it far, far away from the misery where you stay. + +Even Bill Jarker ceased waving his handkerchief, took his short, black +pipe from his mouth, and listened; the curate thought of days when, with +a soft white hand in his, he had wandered over the downs, listening to +those ever-sweet English notes; while from the window above was +stretched forth the fair, shapely head of Lucy Grey, her eyes sparkling, +and lips apart, as if to command silence; and then, as the curate looked +up, there was a slight start, a faint flush of colour in the girl's pale +cheeks, and her head was quickly withdrawn. + +A tall, slight, careworn man was the curate of Saint Magdalen's; hair +sprinkled with grey, deep lines crossing his brow, and yet there was a +smile of ineffable sweetness lingering about his mouth--a smile which, +far from telling of weakness, whispered of sorrow, tenderness, patience, +and charity. + +The few minutes of tranquillity had passed. The door of the house stood +open--as, in fact, did that of every other house in the +thickly-inhabited court; the children began to troop back, Bill Jarker +took to his pipe and pigeon-flying, and with thoughts trembling between +the ideal and the real, the curate entered the door before him. + +It was not a Saturday, or he would have found the ascent of the stairs +troublesome; but he well knew the manners and customs of the natives, +and abstained from making his visits on that day of the week, for on +Saturdays there was a rule carried out (one set in force by the +landlady), that the attics cleaned down to the second-floor, the +second-floor to the first, the first-floor to the passage, which last +portion fell to the lot of the occupants of the parlours, front and +back--two families who took it in turns to make the dirt upon the said +passage wet, and then to smear it from side to side with a flannel, so +that the boards always wore the aspect of having been newly hearthstoned +with a lump of brown clay, if the simile will stand. Consequently, upon +this seventh day of the week, when the lodgers were busy, and Mrs Sims +could be heard sniffing as she "did Hardons' bit," the journey upwards +was dangerous, for if the traveller avoided the snares and pitfalls +formed by divers pails and brown pans, or even, maybe, a half-gallon can +from the public at the corner if the pail was engaged; if he saved +himself from slipping on the sloping, wet boards, and fell over no +kneeling scrubber in a dark corner, he most certainly heard low-muttered +abuse heaped upon his head for "trapesing" over the newly-cleaned +stairs--abuse direct or indirect, according to the quality of the +traveller. + +Not, then, being a Saturday, Mr Sterne entered the house known as +Number 7--by tradition only, for the brass number, after being spun +round by one pin for some months, suddenly disappeared--passed along to +the worn stairs, two flights of which he ascended, creaking and cracking +the while beneath his weight, and every one sloping, so that it seemed +hanging to the wall to save itself from falling. He paused for an +instant upon the landing opposite Septimus Hardon's rooms, and listened +to the rapid beating "click-click" of Lucy's sewing-machine; then up two +more flights; and again, without pause, up two more, which groaned with +weakness and old age; while sunken door-frames, doors that would not +shut, and various other indications, told of the insecure condition of +the house. And now once more he paused upon the top landing, where some +domestic spider had spun a web of string, stretching it from rusty nail +to rusty nail, for the purpose of drying clothes--garments now, +fortunately for the visitor, absent. + +Here fell upon the ear the twitterings of many birds, and the curate's +face again lighted up as the song of the lark once more rang out loud +and clear, apparently from outside the window of the attic before whose +door he stood. But his reverie was interrupted by a sharp shrill voice, +which he could hear at intervals giving orders in a quick angry tone. +Then followed the lashing of a whip, a loud yelp, or the occasional +rapid beat of a dog's tail upon the floor. At last, turning the handle +of the rickety door, the visitor entered. + +"_En avant! Halte la! Ah-h-h! bete_! O, 'tis monsieur," were the +words which greeted Mr Sterne as he entered the sloping-roofed attic, +one side of which was almost entirely window--old lead-framed lattice, +mended in every conceivable way with pasted paper and book-covers; and +there, in the middle of the worn floor, stood the thin, sharp-faced +woman of the cellar, holding in one hand a whip, in the other a hoop; +while two half-shaven French poodle-dogs crouched at her feet. Seated +by the open window surrounded by birdcages, conspicuous among which was +that of the lark whose notes enlivened the court, was a sallow, +dark-haired, dark-eyed youth, eager-looking and well-featured, but sadly +deformed, for his head seemed to rest upon his shoulders, and the leg +twisted round the crutch which leaned against his chair was miserably +attenuated. + +"_Bon jour_! How are the pupils, Madame la Mere?" said the curate, +taking a broken chair and seating himself. + +"_Bete, bete, bete_!" hissed the woman, making feigned cuts with her +little whip at the crouching dogs, which yelped miserably as they shrunk +closer to the boards. "Ah, what you deserve!" she said. + +"And how are the birds, Jean?" continued the visitor, addressing the +young man, who was looking at him half-askance. "Your lark gives me the +heartache, and sets me longing for the bright country." + +The curate had touched the right chord, for the youth's face brightened +into a pleasant smile directly. + +"Does he not sing!" he said, with a slight French accent; and he leaned +towards the cage where the bird, with crest erect, was breasting the +wooden bars, and gazing with bright bead-like eyes up at the blue sky; +but as soon as the cripple's finger was inserted between the bars, the +bird pecked at it playfully, fluttered its wings, and then, with head on +one side, stood looking keenly at its master. + +"O yes, he sings," hissed the woman; "but he is obstinate, is Jean; he +should sell his bird, and make money, and not let his poor _mere_ always +keep him." + +"Pst, pst!" ejaculated Jean, frowning upon his mother; but she only +stamped one foot angrily, and continued: + +"He is _bete_ and obstinate. The doll down-stairs with the +needle-machine loves the bird, and she would buy it, and it is worth +four shillings; but Jean will that his mother seek his bread for him in +de street, wis de stupid dogs; and they are _bete_, and will not learn +nosing at all. _Allez donc_!" + +As the woman grew more voluble in her speech, she passed from tolerable +English to words with a broader and broader accent, till the command +given at last to the dogs, each word being accompanied by a sharp cut of +the whip, when the animals rose upon their hind-legs, drooped their +fore-paws, and then subsided once more into their natural posture, but +now to bend their fore-legs, as if kneeling. Then they rose again, +drooped, and afterwards meekly crossed, their paws, winking their eyes +dolefully the while, and, with an aspect of gravity made absurd, walked +slowly off to separate corners of the room, where they again went down +upon all-fours, and then sat wistfully winking at and watching their +task-mistress. + +"See, then!" she exclaimed, in her harsh shrill voice. "They would not +do it, though I try thousand time; but now the task is ended they walk. +Ah-h-h!" + +The cut in the air which accompanied the exclamation might have fallen +upon the dogs themselves, for the miserable little objects yelped as +they saw it fall, and, as if moved by one muscle, laid their heads +against the whitewashed wall till, seeing themselves unnoticed, they +curled up, but never for a moment took their blinking eyes off their +mistress. + +Amidst much muttering, and with many frowns and short sharp shakes of +the head, while her lips were pressed closely together, the woman, after +much fumbling in her pocket, drew forth a partly-knitted stocking; when, +sitting down, she began furiously clicking her needles, watching the +while, with half-closed eyes, the curate and her son. + +"So, then, you will not sell your lark, Jean?" said Mr Sterne. + +The cripple knit his brow slightly, shook his head, and then drawing a +long, delicate, girlish finger over the bars of his favourite's cage, +the lark set up its crest, twittered, fluttered its wings, and again +pecked at the finger. + +"No, no, no," he said softly; "why does she complain? I would work if I +could; but I sell and make money of these, though it seems cruel to keep +them shut up, and they beat themselves against their prison-bars to get +out into the free air and the green woods. And I'm sorry for them when +the little breasts grow bare, and the feathers lie in the bottom of the +cage; and she says--_ma mere_ there--that I am _bete_." + +The woman seemed to compress every feature, as she shook her head +fiercely, and went on with her knitting. + +"Look!" continued Jean softly, as he smiled and pointed rapidly from +cage to cage, "canaries, linnets, redpoles, goldfinches, and a +blackbird. The thrush broke his heart with singing, they said--the +birdcatchers--but it was not that: I know why. I have sold four birds +this week; but I keep the lark; he is a favourite." + +"Bah!" ejaculated the mother softly; "but he is _bete_;" when, as the +curate turned, she was bending over her knitting, shaking her head and +frowning, while she stabbed fiercely again and again at the worsted ball +till it was transfixed by her needle, when she replaced the ball in her +pocket, where the first drag she gave at the thread drew the ball from +its place and it rolled on the floor. "Ah! good dog, _bon chien_!" she +cried, as one of the poodles ran forward, caught the errant ball, and +bore it to his mistress, returning immediately to his corner; but not to +be unrewarded, for the woman rose, and forcing up the sliding socket, +caused a little scrap of tallow-candle end to shoot out of a +tin-candlestick as from a gun, when, receiving permission, the dog +snatched it from the floor, and devoured the savoury morsel in its +corner. + +"But he should sell the lark, monsieur," said the woman. + +"Hush, _ma mere_," said the cripple angrily; "the bird is not to sell." + +The mother shrugged her shoulders, and clicked her needles furiously. + +"We all have our loves and likes, madame," said the curate quietly. + +"O, yes, yes, you rich; but we poor? No. We must live, and eat and +drink, and have clothes; and Jean, there, has ruined me in medicine. +What do we want with favourites, we poor? But that they help to keep +us, I would sell the dogs. We are all slaves here, we poor; and we sell +ourselves, our work, our hands, our beauty, some of us,--is it not so? +and you rich buy,--or we starve. It is a bad world for us old and ugly. +I am not like the doll upon the floor down-stairs." + +A sharp angry glance passed between mother and son, as the former rose +from her seat, and with a short quick step left the room, driving back +the dogs as they tried to follow; while it was evident that her words +jarred painfully upon the curate. "Our beauty, some of us," seemed to +ring in his ears again and again, and he could not help associating +these words with the latter part of her speech. + +"How do you get your birds, Jean?" said the curate, making an effort, +and breaking the silence. + +"From him," said the young man, nodding across the court to where Bill +Jarker sat half out of his trap-door, still keeping up his pigeons, for +a stray was in sight, and he was in hopes of an amalgamation, in spite +of the efforts being made by neighbouring flights. "From him: he goes +into the country with his nets--far off, where the green trees wave, +while I can only read of them. But the book; did you bring the book?" + +Thinking of other birds breasting their prison-bars: now of the fair +bright face that he had seen at the window below, now of that of the +cripple before him, the curate produced a volume from his pocket, and +smiled as he watched the glittering eyes and eager aspect of the young +man, as, hastily grasping the volume, he gazed with avidity upon the +title. + +"You love reading, then, Jean?" said the curate. + +"Yes, yes," cried the cripple. "What could I do without it? Always +here; for I cannot walk much--only about the room. Ah, no! I could not +live without reading--and my birds. She is good and kind," he +continued, nodding towards the door; "but we are poor, and it makes her +angry and jealous." + +The lark burst forth with one of its sweetest strains as it heard its +master's voice, and then, rising, the curate left the attic, closing the +door after him slowly, and peering through the narrowing slit to look +upon the cripple eagerly devouring a page of the work he had brought. + +The Frenchwoman was upon the first landing, and saluted the curate with +a sinister meaning smile as he passed her and thoughtfully descended. + +"But he is mean, I tell you," cried _ma mere_ angrily, as she once more +stood beside her son. "What does he give us but words--words which are +worth nothing? But what is that? My faith, a book he brought you? You +shall not read; it makes you silly, and to forget your mother, who does +so much for you. But I will!" + +"Ah!" cried Jean, painfully starting from his seat, and snatching back +the volume, and just in time, for the next moment would have seen it +flying from the open window. + +"Then I will sell the lark when you are asleep," cried the woman +spitefully. + +The youth's eyes glittered, as, with an angry look, he hissed between +his teeth, "Then I will kill the dogs!" But the anger passed from his +countenance in a few moments, and smiling softly, he said, "No, no, _ma +mere_; you would not sell my poor bird, because I love it, and it would +hurt me;" and then, casting down her knitting, the woman sprang across +the room, throwing her arms round the cripple, and kissing him +passionately, calling him by every endearing name, as she parted the +hair from his broad forehead, and gazed in his bright dark eyes with all +a mother's fondness. + +But the curate heard nothing of this--nothing but the loud song of the +lark, which rang through the house--as slowly and thoughtfully he +descended the worn and creaking stairs, while the woman's words seemed +to keep repeating themselves in a slow measured way, vibrating in his +ears, and troubling him sorely with their cutting meaning; and more than +once he found himself forming with his lips, "Our beauty, some of us." + +Volume Two, Chapter VI. + +SHADES. + +The lark was silent once more; and now from the open door of the +first-floor, rising and falling, with a loud and rapid "click, click, +click," came the sound of Lucy Grey's sewing-machine--"click, click," +the sharp pulsations of the little throbbing engine, whose needle darted +in and out of the soft material held beneath it by those white fingers. +But as one of the stairs gave a louder crack than ordinary, the machine +stopped, and the quiet, earnest, watching face of Lucy Grey appeared at +the door, which she now held open, bowing with a naive grace in answer +to the curate's salutation. + +"My mother wished me to watch that you did not go down without seeing +her to-day," said Lucy apologetically; for Mrs Hardon was far from well +that week, and, since the long discussion that morning between old Matt +and Septimus, she had been bemoaning her lot in a weak spiritless way, +till, finding all his attempts at consolation of none effect, Septimus +had taken his hat and gone out for a walk with his boy. To-day Mrs +Septimus would be tolerably well; to-morrow, in a weak fit, exacting +sympathy from husband and child in a way that would have wearied less +loving natures. Now she would refuse food, upon the plea that it could +not be afforded for her; consolation, because she was a wretched, +miserable burden; and medicine, because she was sure that it would do +her no good. + +"Be patient with her, my darling," Septimus would say to Lucy--a +needless request. "Think of the troubles she has gone through, and then +look at me." + +"What for?" Lucy would cry, laughingly prisoning him by seizing his +scrubby bits of whisker in her little fingers, and then kissing him on +either cheek,--"what for? To see the dearest father that ever lived?" +And then memories of the past would float through Septimus Hardon's +brain as he smoothed down the soft braided hair about the girl's white +forehead. But there were tearful eyes above the smiling lips, and +Septimus Hardon's voice used to tremble a little as he said, "God bless +you, my darling!" + +"Our beauty, some of us," seemed vibrating in the curate's ears as Lucy +spoke; but the bright look of welcome, the maidenly reserve, and sweet +air of innocence emanating from the fair girl before him, seemed to waft +away the words, and, returning to the present, he followed her to where +Mrs Hardon was lying down. Drawing a chair to the bedside, he seated +himself, to listen patiently to the querulous complaints he had so often +heard before--murmurings which often brought a hot flush to Lucy's cheek +as she listened, until reassured by the quiet smile of the curate--a +look which told her how well he read her mother's heart, and pitied her +for the long sufferings she had endured,--sickness and sorrow,--which +had somewhat warped a fond and loving disposition. + +Perhaps it was unmaidenly, perhaps wrong in the giver and taker, but, +seated at her sewing-machine in the next room, Lucy would watch through +the open door for these looks, and treasure them up, never pausing to +think that they might be the pioneers of a deeper understanding. She +looked forward to his visits, and yet dreaded them, trembling when she +heard his foot upon the stairs; and more than once she had timed her +journeys to the warehouse so that they might take her away when he was +likely to call; while often and often afterwards, long tearful hours of +misery would be spent as she thought of the gap between them, and bent +hopelessly over her sewing-machine. + +A long interview was Mr Sterne's this day, for Mrs Hardon was more +than ordinarily miserable, and had informed him two or three times over +that she was about to take to her bed for good. + +"But it does not matter, sir; it's only for a little while, and then +perhaps I shall be taken altogether. I'm of no use here, only to be a +burden to that poor girl and my husband. But for me and the different +fancies I have, that poor child need not be always working her fingers +to the bone. But she will grow tired of it, and Mr Hardon's health +will fail, and our bit of furniture will be seized; and I'm sure I'd +rather die at once than that we should all be in the workhouse." + +"But," said Mr Sterne, smiling, "don't you think matters might just as +likely take the other direction? See now if it does not come a brighter +day to-morrow, with a little mental sunshine in return for resignation;" +and he whispered the last few words. + +Now there was some truth in what Mrs Septimus Hardon said; for had it +not been for her liking for strange luxuries when her sick fits were on, +Lucy need not have worked so hard. At other times Mrs Hardon was +self-denying to an excess; but when in bed, probably from the effort of +complaining, her appetite increased to a terrible extent, and she found +that she required sticks of larks roasted, fried soles, oysters, pickled +salmon, or chicken, to keep her up, while port-wine was indispensable. +But if she had preferred ortolans to larks, game and truffles to chicken +and oysters, if the money could have been obtained she would have had +them. And many a day Septimus and Lucy dined off bread-and-cheese, and +many a night went supperless to bed, that the invalid's fancies might be +gratified. + +The conversation went on, and Lucy at her work more than once raised her +eyes; but when her mother's complaints were like the last, she bent her +head, and the tears she could not restrain fell hot and fast upon the +material before her. + +"What have I to hope for?" moaned Mrs Hardon, taking refuge in tears +herself when she saw how Lucy was moved. "What have I to hope for?" + +"Hope itself, Mrs Hardon," said the curate firmly. "You suffer from a +diseased mind as well as from your bodily ailment; and could you but +come with me for once, only during a day's visiting, I think you would +afterwards bow your head in thankfulness even for your lot in life, as +compared with those of many you would see." + +"Yes, yes, yes, I know," sobbed the poor woman; "but don't be angry with +me. I know how weak and wicked I am to murmur, when they study me as +they do; but when I am like this, this weary time comes on, I am never +satisfied. Don't--don't be angry with me." + +Mrs Hardon's sobs became so violent that Lucy hurried to the bed and +took the weary head upon her breast; when, drawing his chair nearer, the +curate took the thin worn hand held out so deprecatingly to him. + +"Hush!" he whispered; and as he breathed words of tender sympathy that +should awaken her faith, the mother looked earnestly on the sad smile on +the speaker's face, a smile that mother and daughter had before now +tried to interpret, as it came like balm to the murmuring woman, while +to her child it spoke volumes; and as her own yearned, it seemed to see +into the depths of their visitor's heart, where she read of patience, +long-suffering, and crushed and beaten-down hopes. + +All at once a heavy step was heard upon the stairs, and Lucy started +from her mother's side as a loud rough noise called "Mrs Hardon! Mrs +Hardon!" But before she could reach the door of the other room, the +handle rattled, and the curate could hear a man's step upon the floor. + +"Hush!" exclaimed Mrs Hardon, "it must be a letter;" and involuntarily, +as he rose from his chair to leave, the curate had to stand and listen, +gazing upon Lucy, who stood in the middle of the next room, now flooded +with light from the sunshine which streamed through staircase window and +open door, and he could not but mark the timid face of the girl as she +stood wrapped as it were in the warm glow. + +But it was no letter, only Mr William Jarker, who, invisible from where +the curate stood, was telling Lucy in familiar easy tones that his +"missus wanted to see the parson afore he went." + +As Mr Sterne stepped forward and saw the ruffian's leering look and +manner, and the familiar sneering smile upon his coarse lips, he +shivered and turned paler than was his wont before knitting his brows +angrily, while, troubled and confused, Lucy looked from one to the other +as if expecting Mr Sterne should speak. + +But the look made no impression upon Mr Jarker, who directed a +half-laugh at Lucy, and then, nodding surlily towards the curate, he +turned, and directly after there came the sounds of his heavy descending +steps as he went down, leaving the room impregnated with the odour of +the bad tobacco he had been smoking. + +"Our beauty, some of us," rang in the curate's ears once more, and like +a flash came the recollection of the meeting he had witnessed in the +street. His mind was in a whirl with thoughts that he could not +analyse; while as his eyes met those of Lucy, the girl stood with face +aflame, trembling before him--looks that might have meant indignation or +shame, as, with the smile still upon his lip, but so altered, the curate +turned to go; but he stopped for a moment at the door, where out of +sight of Mrs Hardon, he could again confront the shrinking girl with a +long inquiring gaze; but trembling, agitated, with lips void of +utterance, though parted as if to speak, Lucy stood back, her eyes now +cast down, and, when she raised them once again, he was gone. + +Then, with the colour slowly fading, to leave her face ashy pale, Lucy +stood with outstretched hands, gazing at the closed door. Something +seemed rising in her throat which she tried to force back, and it was +only by an effort that she kept from crying out, as, falling upon her +knees by a chair, she buried her face in her hands, choking down the +sobs, lest her mother should hear; though she, poor woman, slowly turned +her face to the wall, ignorant of her child's suffering, and slept. + +And now again came ringing down the sweet clear trill of Jean's lark, +till, worn out with the impetuosity of her grief, the poor girl raised +her head, smoothed back her dark hair, and half-sitting, half-kneeling, +listened to the strain. + +The song ceased as suddenly as it had commenced, and the void was filled +by a long, loud whistling; when, with lips set firm, and angry +countenance, Lucy rose and stepped lightly across the room to her +sewing-machine by the open window, where, raising her eyes, she could +see Mr Jarker, pipe in hand, presenting himself once more as a +half-length study, as he whistled and cheered on his flight of pigeons, +which sailed round and round, till the whirring and flapping of their +wings brought up early days of her childhood, and Lucy seemed to gaze +upon some half-forgotten woodland scene in the country, with ring-necked +stockdoves crowding on a bending branch after their return from flight. + +But no such visions floated before the mind's eye of Mr Jarker, for his +pipe was out; so, ceasing his whistle, he proceeded to ignite a match +upon the blackened pipe-bowl, screening the tiny flame between his hands +till the tobacco was in a glow--all the while in happy oblivion of a +pair of indignant flashing eyes that rested upon him till their +brightness was once more dimmed by tears. Heedless, too, was Mr Jarker +of the strange sardonic leer directed at him from the attic-window +opposite his own, where _ma mere_, with her dim grey eyes, glanced at +him from time to time as she busily knitted, or stabbed her ball of +worsted; for Mr Jarker was evidently interested in what was taking +place beneath him, as he glanced through his trap from time to time. +And now once more, with rapid beat, rose the "click, click, click," of +Lucy's sewing-machine, as, flashing in and out of the fine material the +needle laid in its chain-like stitches; but Lucy Grey's finely-stitched +lines were far from even that afternoon. + +Volume Two, Chapter VII. + +WITH MRS JARKER. + +Always at the call of the poor of his district, the Reverend Arthur +Sterne sighed as, slowly descending towards the court, he tried to drive +away the words that seemed to ring in his ears; but in vain, for the +next moment he was muttering them once more; and the thought came upon +him that, for many months past, he had been gazing at the Hardon family +through a pleasant medium--a softening mist, glowing with bright +colours, but now swept away by one rude blast, so that he looked upon +this scene of life in all its rugged truthfulness. He told himself that +the mist had once opened to afford him a glimpse, while again and again +he smiled at the folly which had led him to expect romance in a London +court. The pleasant outlines and softened distance, toned down by the +light mists, were gone now, and he gazed upon nothing but the cold, bare +reality. It was strange; but he did not ask himself whether the bitter +blast might not have brought with it some murky, distorted cloud, whose +shade had been cast athwart the picture upon which, he now woke to the +fact, he had dearly loved to gaze; and still muttering to himself, he +slowly went down step by step. + +"So young, so pure-looking! But who could wonder, living in this +atmosphere of misery? But what is it to me?" he cried angrily; for +strange thoughts and fancies came upon him, and his mind was whispering +of a wild tale. The thoughts of the past, too, came--of the happy days +when, in early manhood, he had loved one as fair and bright--one whom +another bridegroom had claimed, as having been betrothed to him from her +birth. The cold earth had been her nuptial-bed, and he, the lover, +became the gloomy retired student until his appointment to a city +curacy, and the devotion of his life to the sorrows of the poor. But +again he bit his lip angrily, at making the comparison between the dead +and the living. What connection was there between them, and of what had +he been dreaming? What indeed! After years upon years of floating down +life's stream,--a calm and sad, but placid journey, unruffled but by the +sorrows of others,--he now awoke to the fact that unwittingly he had +halted by a pleasant spot, where he had been loitering and dreaming of +something undefined--something fraught with memories of the past; and +now he had been rudely awakened and recalled to the duties he had +chosen. + +He passed into the court, and stood for a few moments gazing at where +there was a cellar opened, with half a score of children collected to +drop themselves or their toys down; while, being a fresh arrival upon +the scene, a cluster of the little ones began to get beneath his feet, +and run against him, or give themselves that pleasant cramp known as "a +crick in the neck," by staring up in his face; but he freed himself from +his visitors by hastily entering the opposite house. + +More than one door was opened, and more than one head thrust out, as Mr +Sterne ascended the staircase; but in every instance there was a smile +and a rude curtsey to greet him, for he had that happy way of visiting +learned by so few, and his visits always seemed welcome. Those who, +moved by curiosity, appeared, were ladies, who directly after became +exceedingly anxious concerning their personal appearance. Aprons, where +they were worn, were carefully stroked down; hair was smoothed or made +less rough; sundry modest ideas seemed to rise respecting a too great +freedom of habit where a junior was partaking of nourishment; but +everywhere the curate met with cordial glances, till he once more stood +in front of an attic and entered. + +Mr Sterne had so far only encountered females; for "the master" of the +several establishments was out at work, or down in the country after the +birds, or at the corner of some street where there was a public-house, +at whose door he slouched, in the feeble anticipation that work would +come there to find him, or that the landlord or a passing friend would +invite him to have "a drain;" but Mr William Jarker was, as has been +seen, at home, though, with the exception of his legs, invisible; for he +was among his pigeons, emulating the chimneys around by the rate at +which he smoked--chimneys smoking here the year round, since in most +cases one room formed the mansion of a family. + +But Mr Sterne had not come to see Jarker, but at the summons of his +wife, in whom some eighteen months had wrought a terrible change. She +sat wrapped in an old shawl, shivering beside the few cinders burning in +the rusty grate--shivering though burned up with fever, the two or three +large half-filled bottles of dispensary medicine telling of a long and +weary illness. The wide windows admitted ample light, but only seemed +to make more repulsive the poverty-stricken place, with its worn, +rush-bottomed chairs, rickety table, upon which stood the fragments of +the last meal; the stump bedstead, with its patched patchwork +counterpane; the heaped-up ashes beneath the grate; the battered and +blackened quart-pot from the neighbouring public-house standing upon the +hob to do duty as saucepan; while here and there stood in corners the +stakes and nets used by Mr Jarker in his profession of birdcatcher. A +few cages of call-birds hung against the wall; but Mr Jarker's custom +was, when he had captured feathered prey, to dispose of it immediately-- +pigeons being his "fancy." + +A sad smile lit up the woman's face as the curate entered,--a face once +doubtless pleasing, but now hollow, yellow, and ghastly; where hung out +flauntingly were the bright colours which told of the enemy that held +full sway in the citadel of life. + +"I knew you would come, sir," she whispered, letting her thin white +fingers play amongst the golden curls of a little head, but +half-concealed in her lap, where one bright round eye as peeping timidly +out to watch the stranger; and then, as the curate took one of the +broken chairs and sat beside the sick woman, whenever she spoke it was +in a whisper, and with many a timid glance at the ladder and open trap +in the roof, where her master stood, as though she feared to call down +punishment upon her head,--"I knew you would come; and Bill was easy +to-day, and come and fetched you, though he came back and said you were +busy, and would not stop." + +"Look alive, there, and get that over!" cried Mr Jarker from the trap. +"I ain't a-goin' to stand here all day;" and by way of giving effect, or +for emphasis, this remark was accompanied by a kick at the ladder, and a +shake of the trap. Then followed an interval of peace, during which the +presence of the domestic tyrant was made known only by the fumes of his +tobacco, which floated down into the room, and made the poor woman cough +terribly. + +Once Mr Sterne was about to tell the fellow to cease, but the look of +horror in the woman's face, and the supplicating joining of her hands, +made him pause, for he knew that he would be but adding to her suffering +when his back was turned. The open trap seemed to act as a sort of +retiring-room for Mr Jarker when anyone was in the attic that he did +not wish to see; but every now and then during the earnest conversation +with the suffering woman, there came a kick and a growl, and a shake of +the ladder, which made Mr Sterne frown, and the poor woman start as if +in dread. And so, during the remainder of the curate's stay, the +consolatory words he uttered were again and again interrupted; while at +last the voice came growling down as if in answer to a statement Mrs +Jarker had just made: + +"Don't you tell no lies, now, come, or I shall make it hot for yer!" +When in the involuntary shudder the woman gave, there was plainly enough +written for the curate's reading the long and cruel records of how "hot" +for her it had often been made. + +And now the importunities of the child by her knee aroused the poor +woman to a forgetfulness of self in motherly cares, when the curate took +his leave, but in nowise hurried by the savage shake that Jarker gave to +the ladder--a shake which brought down a few scraps of plaster, to fall +upon the cages and make the songsters flutter timidly against their +prison-bars. + +Half-way down the stairs Mr Sterne encountered the woman with whom he +had seen Lucy in the Lane; the woman he presumed to be the mother of the +child Mrs Jarker had now for some time nursed. + +For a moment he stopped, as if to speak; but he remembered the next +instant that he had no right to question her, and he stood gazing +sternly at her, while, as she shrank back into a corner of the landing, +her look was keen and defiant--the look of the hunted at bay. Once he +had followed her for some distance, and then perhaps he would have +spoken; but now the desire seemed gone, and linked together in his mind +were Lucy, _ma mere_, the ruffian he had left up-stairs, and this woman. + +"But what is it to me?" he thought bitterly; and, hurrying down the +stairs, he stood for a moment at the doorway, heedless of the children +scampering over the broken pavement--heedless that, with hot eyes and +fevered cheeks, Lucy had left her sewing-machine and stepped back from +the window that she should neither see nor be seen--heedless of all +around; for his thoughts were a strange medley--pride, duty, and passion +seeking to lead him by different roads. Then for a while he remembered +the poor woman he had left, whose leave-taking he felt was near--a +parting that he could not but feel would be a happy release from sorrow +and suffering. + +At last, turning to go, he cast his eyes towards the open window that +Lucy had so lately left, when, with knitted brow and care gnawing at his +heart, he passed out into the street, and walked towards his lodgings; +but even there, in the midst of the busy throng, where the deafening hum +of the traffic of the great city was ever rising and falling, now +swelling into a roar, and again sinking to the hurried buzz of the busy +workers, ever rang in his ears the bitter words of the old +Frenchwoman--"Our beauty, some of us!" + +Volume Two, Chapter VIII. + +DOCUMENTARY EVIDENCE. + +"Now, sir," said old Matt, as he appeared, brushed-up and smart for the +occasion, punctual to his appointment; "now, sir; here we are--baptism, +marriage, and doctor. First ought to come last, you know, only Saint +Mark's Church comes before Finsbury, don't you see?" + +Septimus Hardon rose from his writing with a sigh, for he was far from +sanguine of success, and would fain even now have given up his task +entirely, so feeble seemed to him the likelihood of any advantage +accruing; but in obedience to instructions from Mrs Septimus, old Matt +rattled on about the future, thoroughly doing his duty in keeping the +shrinking man to his part; and so they started. + +They made their way out into Holborn, and then up Skinner-street, past +the frowning walls of Newgate, and into the street of the same name; +when old Matt could not get along for stopping to admire the various +joints displayed, and giving his opinion upon their merits. + +"Here, let's go this way, sir," he said, turning into Warwick-lane. +"Pretty game this, sir, isn't it? Slaughtered sheep, and murdered +novels, and books of all sorts close together. Authors' sheep's-heads, +and butchers' sheep's-heads cheek by jowl. Rum thing for both trades to +get so close together. Regular bit of philosophy if you like to take it +up, sir; stomach and brains, you see, food for both--books for the +brains, meat for the stomach; and then backwards and forwards, one feeds +the other, and one couldn't get on without the other; and here they are +situated close to the very heart of the City. Look at the circulation +going on--wonderful, ain't it, sir?" + +Old Matt stopped by a slaughter-house, not to pity the simple animal +just killed, but to point out sundry choice portions that might be had +bargains, if they could have availed themselves of the opportunity. + +"Wouldn't do, though, to go about such a job as we have on hand carrying +a sheep's-head, would it, sir?" he observed to Septimus. + +"No; pray come along, and let's get our task over," exclaimed the +latter. + +"To be sure," said Matt, coming to himself, and the next minute they +were in Paternoster-row. "Lots of my old friends here," said Matt, +stopping short in the middle of the narrow way, to be hustled by boys +laden with sheets of paper fresh from the press, lads carrying reams, or +newly-bound works tied between boards; men with blue bags over their +shoulders heavily laden with books; men with oblong "mems" in their +hands which they consulted as they hurried from swinging door to +swinging door, collecting the publications of the different firms. Once +the old man was nearly run over by a truck full of type-galleys driven +by a pair of reckless imps of some neighbouring printing-office; while +at least four times he came into contact with the fruit-baskets of the +nymphs in stout boots and flattened bonnets, whose haunt is the +labyrinth of learning known as "the Row."--"Lots of my old friends +here," said Matt as his companion looked bewildered, and was thrust off +the pavement; on to it again; into booksellers' where he did not want to +go; and once against the muddy wheel of a cab, whose driver roundly +abused him for nearly getting himself injured.--"Lots of my old friends +here. Ah, you needn't mind a bit of pushing, sir--it's a busy place. +Now, you know, if I liked to hunt about, I could find more than one bit +of my work here, for I've done things and bits of things that's come out +in more than half these places. All sorts of stuff; and what a sight of +work a man can be put upon in a matter of fifty year, from playbills to +prayer-books, and down again to penny-a-lining and posters! Law and +physic's been my strongest points: but there; I've been on your +magazines, and newspapers, and three-volume novels, and pamphlets, and +everything else that's printed on a leaf, 'cept' last dying-speeches and +halfpenny songs; and I never did get down, quite so low as that. I've +taken hold of author's copy so queer that it's made you scratch your +head and torn the paper t'other way up to see which is tops and which is +bottoms, and then back again, for you've been as wise as ever. Talk +about ants and bluebottles running over the paper with inky feet, that's +nothing, sir. You've seen them painter-chaps, sir, graining the +shetters of shops?" + +Septimus, seeing that he was expected to say something, roused himself +from his brown study, and nodded. + +"Well," continued Matt, "you see they have what they call a tool, though +it's only a flat brush made like a comb, and with that they make lines +cross and across the panels, all about the same distance apart, and then +they dab them lightly with a long soft brush to keep the grain from +looking too stiff and hard. Well, I've had copy that's looked as if the +author had used one of these tools dipped in ink, and streaked it across +and across the paper, and then dabbed it, not with a very soft brush, +but with a very hard one, shoving in, too, a few smears and blots, just +to fill up as knots and specimens of cross-grain. Up one goes to the +overseer and asks him to help you, giving the other men a side-grin at +the same time. He takes it, looks at it, turns it over, and then can't +make anything of it, though he won't say so; for overseers must of +course seem to know everything. So he sticks it back in your hand, and +says he, `Go and make the best you can of it; for I'm busy.' Well, you +go back, and make the best you can of it; puzzles out one word, jumps at +another, puts in two, and guesses two more, while you make a couple more +out of the next line fit in somewhere after 'em; and so, one way or +another, it gets scrambled up, and the proof goes to the reader, who +cuffs his boy's head because he blunders so over the stuff he can't make +head nor tail of, though he's as much bothered as his boy; while, though +some of them are clever, intelligent fellows, some of those readers, +sir, have about as much imagination as a mop. They're down upon a wrong +letter, or bad pointing or spelling, and stick a big qy? against a bit +of slack grammar, like lightning; but give 'em a take of stuff where the +author goes a little out of the regular rut, and it bothers them as much +as the bit of copy I'm talking about. Well, sir, corrections get made, +and the proof is sent in to the author, who most likely don't know it +again; but he sends it back so as one has a better chance of getting it +together; and so it goes on, backwards and forwards, till it's all +right, and they write `press' in one corner, when it's printed, and, as +far as we're concerned, there's an end of it. Strange ways, ain't they, +sir?" + +Septimus Hardon stared in a bewildered manner at the speaker, but did +not answer. + +"Blest if I think he's heard a word I've said," muttered the old fellow. + +"Strange?" said Septimus, rousing himself; "yes, very." + +"'Tis, sir," said Matt, who was interested in his subject. "Now, do you +know, sir," he continued after they had walked part of the way along the +Row,--"do you know that if I was younger, I should be for founding a +society, to be called the `Printers' Spectacle Association,' supported +by contributions from writers for the press, who by this means would +supply us with glasses, for often and often they quite destroy our +sight." + +Old Matt's dissertation was put an end to by the driver of one of the +Delivery carts, when, returning to the matter which had brought them +from home, the strange couple were soon threading their way along +Cheapside. + +There was but little difficulty in getting access to the registers of +the old church, and a not very long search brought the seekers to the +entry, in brown ink upon yellow paper, of the baptism of Septimus, son +of Octavius and Lavinia Hardon, January 17--; but though the ages of the +children before and after were entered, by some omission, his was +absent. + +A copy was taken by both, and then they stood once more in the open +street. + +"Just as I told you, sir," said Matt, "isn't it? there's the date; but +it don't say how old you were." + +"No," replied Septimus; "but still it is satisfactory, so far. Now +we'll see about the marriage, and then visit Finsbury." + +"You know the church?" said Matt. + +"Well, not exactly," said Septimus dreamily. + +"There are two in the street; but it was at one of them." + +"Good," said the old man; and soon after they stood in the street of two +churches, and, taking the most imposing, they obtained admission to the +vestry, where, after a long and careful search of the time-stained +register, they were compelled to give up, for there was no result; while +the regular way in which the leaves followed proved that none were +missing. + +"Try t'other," said Matt laconically; and soon after they entered the +damp, mouldy-smelling receptacle of the registers at the second church-- +a quaint, queerly-built place that looked as if architecture had been +set at defiance when it was erected. + +Old Matt was quiet and laconic enough in his speech; but as leaf after +leaf was turned over, it was evident that the old man was more deeply +interested than Septimus himself; for he grew so excited, that he was +quite voracious with his snuff, his nose becoming a very devouring +dragon of Scotch and rappee, till the supposed date of the marriage was +neared, when the snuff was hastily pocketed. + +"Rayther rheumatic spot this, I should think," said Matt to the sexton, +so as to appear quite at his ease. + +"Well, yes, it _is_ damp," said the sexton, who would have had no +difficulty in passing himself off as Matt's brother; "but we have a fire +here on Sundays all through the winter." + +"Don't have many berrin's now, I s'pose," said Matt, again bringing out +the snuff, but this time for hospitable purposes. + +"Bless you, no," said the sexton, "ain't had one for years upon years. +All cemetery work now." + +"To be sure, of course," said Matt, trying to converse in a cool +pleasant way, but with one eye fixed upon the trembling searcher; for +some of Matt's eagerness seemed now to be transferred to his companion. + +"There's a great piece of the book out here," said Septimus +suddenly--"most of the year before the baptism." + +"Torn out, by Jove!" muttered Matt, shaking his head, and looking +suspicion's self. + +"Dessay there is, sir," said the sexton coolly; "the damp here would +spile the binding of any book." + +"But, I say; look here, you sir; here's a good four months gone: no +Jennywerry, nor Feberwerry, nor March, nor April. Looks precious +queer," said Matt. + +"Ah, so there is--good big bit gone; all but a leaf here and there." +And then, to get a better look, the sexton took out an old leathern +case, drew out his spectacles, replaced the case very carefully, wiped +the glasses upon the tail of his coat, and then very leisurely put them +on, a process not directly completed; for, like their master, the +springs of the spectacles had grown weak, and were joined by a piece of +black tape, which had to be passed carefully over the sexton's head to +keep the glasses in their place. "Ah," he said again, while the +searchers looked on, astonished at his coolness, "so there is--a good +big bit gone; but 'tain't no wonder, for the thread's as rotten as +tinder, and--" + +"I say, old un, don't tear any more out," cried Matt excitedly; for the +sexton was experimentally disposed, and testing the endurance of the +thread and glue. + +"There's plenty loose," said the old sexton, "and I shouldn't be a bit +surprised if you find a lot more gone." + +Septimus Hardon looked at Matt, who returned the look, for the feeling +of suspicion was now fully shared. However, they still went on +carefully searching. + +"It's of no use," said Septimus at last, mournfully; "we may as well go. +I never had any hope." + +"Don't be in a hurry, sir," said Matt. "You know there are other ways +of killing the cat, as the old saying says; wait a bit. Looks +suspicious, certainly," he said, treating himself to a fresh pinch of +snuff.--"I say, guv'nor, you haven't got the loose leaves lying about +anywheres, have you? Not been taken away that you know of, eh?" + +The sexton shook his head, thrust his hands to the bottoms of his +trousers-pockets, shrugged his shoulders to his ears, and then stood +gazing at his visitors with his spectacles high up on his forehead. + +"No," said he, "nobody never meddles with 'em, 'cept a lawyer's clerk +now and then; and they're very civil, and just copies out something, and +gives me a shilling, and then goes." + +Septimus Hardon took the hint in its first acceptation, while the mouldy +old sexton removed one hand from his pocket to accept the proffered +shilling held to him, before his visitors were about to take the second +part of the hint. + +As they moved off through the damp old church, Septimus Hardon wondered +whether, upon some bright morning half a century before, his father and +mother had knelt before that altar and been made one. He sighed as he +walked on, meeting in the entrance a tall, gentlemanly--looking man who +was passing in. + +"What's to be done next, Matt?" said Septimus, in a dispirited tone. + +"Pint of porter and crust o' bread-and-cheese," said the old man +decidedly. "I'm faint, sir--got a fit of my chronics; but it's taking +me the wrong way to-day; I'm hungry, and you must want support. Keep +your chin in the air, sir; we can't win every time. You've had two +tries this morning, and one's come all right. That register looks +suspicious, certainly; but after all you can't even go and swear that +your old people were married in that church; and even if you could, and +had the copy of the stiffikit, that ain't all we want, for it don't +prove that you weren't a year old then." + +"Hi!" cried a voice behind them; and upon the cry being repeated, they +both turned to find that the old sexton was telegraphing them to come +back, by wagging his head in the direction of the church-door. + +"What's up now?" said old Matt when they reached him. + +"Parson wants to see you in the westry," was the reply. + +Anxiously following the old man, Septimus Hardon found himself in the +presence of the gentleman he had encountered at the door. + +"I think," said he, "that you have been complaining of the bad state of +our registers, and really we deserve it. I have only been here a few +weeks, and have done but little towards getting them right. However, I +have quite fifty loose leaves and pieces arranged here ready for pasting +back, though I can assure you it is no light task." + +As he spoke, he took down from a little closet on the wall a heap of +damp-stained, ragged, worthless-looking paper, and then set himself to +try and help discover the required name. + +"Hardon," he said,--"Hardon, Octavius Hardon and Lavinia Addison. We'll +lay those that are done with down here, if you please; for, though they +do not appear so, the leaves are in a certain order. Hardon, Hardon, +Octavius, and Lavinia Addison," he kept on muttering, as Septimus and he +carefully examined column after column amongst the dilapidated leaves; +though Septimus progressed but slowly, for his hand trembled and a mist +swam before his eyes. + +"Take a glass of wine," said the curate kindly, producing a decanter and +glass from the little cupboard; "you seem agitated." + +Septimus took the glass with trembling hand, and then resumed his task +with increased energy, till at last there were not above half a dozen +leaves to scan, when he uttered an exclamation of joy, for there, upon a +scrap before him--torn, stained, and almost illegible--was the +sought-for entry, bearing the well-known signature of his father, and +the trembling handwriting of his mother. + +"Here, here, Matt," he whispered, "look!" and the paper quivered in his +hands--"`Octavius Hardon, Lavinia Addison,' and signed by her old friend +Miss Morris." + +"Right it is, so far," said Matt, holding his glasses to his eyes wrong +way foremost, with both hands, "and just a year and a half before the +baptism. Now you know, sir, I pitched it pretty strong before now, so +as you shouldn't expect too much; but it's my belief that, after all +said and done, we've got enough documentary evidence; and things seeming +so very regular, if you had begun as you should have done, unless there +was something very strong on the other side that we can't see through, +you must have got a verdict. But then I hardly like for you to try on +this only; for the law's a ticklish thing to deal with, and though this +all looks so straightforward, it don't prove against what your uncle +says, and will bring witnesses to swear." + +"But how can he?" exclaimed Septimus, in a whisper. + +"Ah," said Matt, refreshing himself after his wont, "how can he? Why, +by means of that comical stuff as he's been so anxious to get hold of. +Why, sir, he could find witnesses as would swear to any mortal thing on +the face of this earth; they'd almost undertake to prove as you weren't +born at all, sir. Mind, I don't say that they'd carry the day, sir; but +I'm only telling you of what villainy there is in this world, and how +you must be prepared, even to fighting the dev--I beg your pardon, sir," +said Matt bashfully, as he pulled up short, having in his earnestness +forgotten the presence of the third party. + +"I'm sorry to say that there's a great deal of truth in what you +assert," said the curate quietly; for Septimus was looking at him in an +appealing way as if expecting that he would demolish all that Matt had +advanced. "Suborned witnesses are nothing new in this world of ours." + +"Pull out your note-book, sir, and let's take it down," said Matt; and +as he spoke, he drew out an old dog's-eared memorandum-book and a stumpy +fragment of lead pencil that would not mark without being kissed and +coaxed every moment, when he copied the entry most carefully, compared +it with the original, and then with that just made by Septimus Hardon. + +"Really," said the clergyman at parting, "I am extremely glad to have +met you this morning, and you may depend upon finding us in better order +at your next visit." + +"There has been no trickery there you see, Matt," said Septimus, as they +stood once more in the street; "all seems straightforward." + +"Just so, sir; your uncle seems to have some game of his own that I +can't quite see through as yet; but stop a bit. Good sort o' chap that +young parson. I'll ask him to dinner some day, though he didn't say, +`Take a glass of sherry, Matthew Space.' Then how careful you ought to +be! Now I should have been ready to swear that your precious uncle had +been at them books. S'pose he ain't so much older than you, sir?" + +"Not many years," replied Septimus. "He was my poor father's younger +brother. But now for the doctor!" he said in an elated tone. + +"Thanky, sir, but suppose we have the porter and bread-and-cheese first. +You youngsters are so rash and impatient; and besides, I didn't taste +that fine old dry sherry, you know. One thing at a time's the best +plan, and it seems to me that a little refreshment's the next thing +wanted. 'Tain't no use to suppose, sir, that because a horse has won +one race he'll go and polish off the next the same hour. D'yer see, +sir?" + +Septimus expressed himself as being able to see, and he submitted +forthwith to his companion's guidance. + +Now most people would imagine that Matt entered the first inviting open +portal that presented itself, where the gorgeously-emblazoned boards +announced the retailing of So-and-so's entire; but no. Old Matt seemed +very particular and hard to please, passing house after house before he +could meet with one to his satisfaction; and in a quarter of an hour's +brisk walk a few public-houses can be passed in London streets. But +Matt had something else on his mind besides draught stout; and at last, +when Septimus Hardon's patience was well-nigh exhausted, the old man +stopped short before a place where the window displayed a notice to the +effect that the Post-office Directory was at the bar. + +"There," said Matt, pointing to the window, "thought me a nuisance now, +didn't you, sir? But that's what I wanted. So now we'll have our stout +and cheese, and a look at the doctors too." + +Seated in the public-house parlour, fragrant with the fumes of flat beer +and stale tobacco, they were soon discussing the foaming stout and more +solid refreshments, though Septimus spent the greater part of his time +poring over the volume he had laid open upon the gum-ringed table--a +volume that Matt considered would be as useful as a medical directory. +Surgeons there were in plenty; but only one answering to the name of +Phillips, and he was practising at Newington. + +"Moved there, perhaps," said Matt. + +Septimus Hardon shook his head, and read again, "Phillips, EJ, Terrace, +Newington." + +"Stop a bit, sir," said Matt, rising and catching the ring hung from the +ceiling, and pulling the bell.--"Here, fill that pint again, my man; +and, I say, got another of these d'rectories anywheres?" + +"Yes," said the pot-boy, "there's another somewheres--an old un." + +"That's the ticket, my lad, bring it in." + +The boy performed the, to him, satisfactory feat of pitching the pot in +the air, and catching it with one hand as he went out, though the +performance was somewhat marred by the vessel turning in its flight, and +announcing its descent by a small frothy brown shower, which sprinkled +the performer's countenance. However, he was soon back with the +refilled measure, and a very dirty, very dusty, and dog's-eared old copy +of the Directory, with one cover torn off, and a general aspect of its +having been used for generations as the original London Spelling-book. + +Septimus seized the bulky tome, and soon had the right page found; and +in this volume there was no mention of EJ Phillips of Newington. + +"Young beginner," said Matt hollowly; for he had the pewter-vessel to +his lips. "Anyone else same name?" + +"Two more!" cried Septimus in a husky voice: "Phillips, Thomas, +Camden-town; Phillips, Nicholas, Chiswell-street." + +"Hooray!" cried Matt, thumping down the pewter-pot, so that a portion of +the contents splashed over into the cheese-dish. "That's the man we +want, sir; so finish your crust and cheese, and then off we go." And +shrewd old Matt forgot to ask himself in his excitement how it was that +the name was not in the Directory often years later date, but acted up +to what he was advising, and, then late in the afternoon, they again +started on their search. + +It was not a very long walk from Walbrook to Chiswell-street; but old +Matt made very little progress, halting at times as if in pain, while in +answer to inquiries he only smiled and declared that it was his +"chronics." Now he panted and seemed out of breath, then he paused at +one of his favourite halting-places, but too short of breath to make a +speech, even had he felt so disposed. At the last stoppage, induced by +Septimus Hardon's eager strides, the old man panted out: + +"Let's see, sir; you walked down to Somesham, didn't you?" + +"Yes," replied Septimus somewhat surprised at the question. "Come +along;" for he was now as eager to continue the quest as he had formerly +been to avoid it. + +"That's all very well," said Matt, panting; "but I shouldn't have liked +to walk with you, and if Chiswell-street had been t'other side the +square, you'd have had to carry me, so I tell you; and--" + +"Is anything wrong?" exclaimed Septimus anxiously, for his companion had +turned very pale and haggard. + +"Not much," he gasped; "better d'rectly--out of breath rather." + +But he seemed to grow so much worse, that all thought of farther search +was forgotten in the anxiety to get the old man to the principal +thoroughfare, for he stoutly refused to hear of a cab being called; +though he sank back thoroughly exhausted in a corner of the omnibus, +when at last the right one passed with room inside. + +A quiet cup of tea and an hour's rest seemed to restore the old man, and +he rose to leave Bennett's-rents, firmly refusing to allow Septimus to +walk home with him, though it was only by slow stages and great exertion +that he reached his lodging. + +Volume Two, Chapter IX. + +THE CURATE AT HOME. + +The task of the Reverend Arthur Sterne was weary, and one that might +have made him sigh had he known no other troubles. Work, work, work, of +the most disheartening character for the most part; and it was only in +rare instances that he could feel in his own heart that his labours had +been of any avail. Here he would listen to a hypocritical tale of woe, +there to a story of real sorrow; now his task would be to try and point +out some foolish reckless piece of extravagance; then to call to account +for folly and idleness. Everywhere there was the same display of live +to-day, and let to-morrow take care of itself. Forethought and +providence seemed to know no home in Bennett's-rents and the +neighbourhood, perhaps because hope had often been so long deferred that +the sickened hearts believed in it no more. Dirt everywhere, +drunkenness frequently, vice often, with their followings of sorrow, +repentance, disease, and death. Years, however, had made him to be +looked upon as a friend, and his step was always welcomed, while, +effecting what good he could, he toiled patiently on; fearing no fever, +dreading no epidemic, but ever ready, he visited the bedside of the +stricken--the vilest or the most unfortunate--ready to join his prayers +to theirs for pardon--to point out the long neglected road that should +have been taken--to teach the ignorant the words they had never known, +or perhaps forgotten years upon years before. His was a task that knew +but little earthly recompense, save the knowledge of duty done; but many +a parting soul blessed him with lips soon to be motionless for ever, or +thanked him with those glazing eyes from which the wild despairing look +had faded, as he knelt in intercession for one whose opportunity for +better things had never come, but who, born into the misery and +wretchedness of a great town, had passed in it the life now about to be +given up at the stern call that knows no refusal. + +It was a weary task amidst so poor and wretched a flock; but could the +curate have been at rest, he would have been happy in the good he +effected, and the simple confidence now placed in him by those he +visited. Even Bill Jarker had of late taken to pulling off his fur-cap +and picking it when they met; and there was no hypocrisy in the +salutation, for it was wrung from him by the genuine respect he felt. +But then the curate was not at rest, for he had now thoroughly awakened +to the germs which had rooted themselves in his heart, growing more and +more till his very life was interlaced with the strong fibres. Now, he +would deliberately try to eradicate the growth, tearing and lacerating +himself in his efforts to rid himself of the unbidden guest; but the +progress he made was slow in comparison with the growth he fought +against. Blindly, though, he would tell himself that he had conquered, +that the last root was torn out, and the door of his heart closed +against further entrance. And then, in the pride of his believed +victory, he would tell himself of how he had been about to lavish riches +upon one beneath him, and unworthy, when his heart would reply that love +was a leveller, and laugh to scorn the subtle distinctions of caste; +reminding him, too, that this maiden had grown up as it were beneath his +eye, that he had watched her for years, while she was as well born, +perhaps, as he. And then, in his heart, there would shoot forth a tiny +green blade, then there was the opening leaf, and soon again the +blossom; while roots spread here and there lacing and interlacing +stronger and stronger than ever, as if he had been by his efforts merely +preparing the soil for a richer growth of the ever-verdant clinging +plant that he sought in vain to tear away. + +So wearily on, day after day, passed the curate's life, a struggle +between the natural affection and self-imposed duty, while night after +night in his sleepless hours he heaped up reproaches upon himself for +work neglected, and the dreamy musings into which he was wont to fall. +Self-deceiving, he had gone on taking more and more interest in the +Hardon family, blinding himself to his real sentiments, until now that +the veil had been so rudely snatched from his eyes he writhed hourly, +maddened almost, that he should have allowed his peace to have been +disturbed for what he fiercely told himself was worthless. + +It was not a long walk from the Bennett's-rents region to Surrey-street, +where he had rooms in a gloomy wilderness of a house, which he shared +with a solicitor, an accountant, and a company that seemed to be +composed of a small secretary and a large heap of prospectuses. Here he +would seek for the rest he could not find, anxious and worn, day after +day, since his last visit to the Hardons, much to the discomposure of +Aunt Fanny, who dwelt with him in the double capacity of housekeeper and +companion. + +A prim, pleasant old dame, proud of her great age, and of her bright +silver hair, smoothed in bands beneath her quaint old widow's cap; +sitting or standing, ever with her arms crossed over her black +corded-silk apron, while a mitten-covered hand clasped each elbow. A +prim, pleasant-looking old dame, always dressed in lavender poplin, +whose stiff plaits seemed to have been carved out of the solid, as she +stood at the window watching for the coming of her boy. For "Arty" +always had been, and doubtless always would be, a boy in her pleasant +old eyes--eyes that spoke the truth of her tender old heart; though +there was one point upon which Aunt Fanny would err, and that was her +age. Unlike ladies of a certain time of life, she was proud of her +years, and, doubtless from some haziness in her arithmetic, she was +given to adding to them, so that more than once in her arguments +respecting points of time, she somewhat upset her calculations. + +"Why, aunt," the curate would say, "you cannot be so old as you say by +eight years." + +"Nonsense, my dear boy, how can you know anything about it? I'm +eighty-two." + +"Then," he would say loudly, "you must have been thirty when you were +married." + +"Nonsense, child; how can you be so silly! And you need not shout so. +I was twenty-two when your poor uncle led me to the altar." And then +she would fall to smoothing her black apron, and arranging the folds of +her dress, with hands that trembled in an agitated manner, a tear +standing in one of the still bright eyes, as the old recollections +sprang up, when, ceasing the discussion, her nephew would tenderly kiss +her hand, and sit affectionately gazing in her handsome old face. +Indeed time had paid a certain respect to Aunt Fanny, so that she looked +years younger than she really was, while all her faculties save one were +bright as ever; for proud though she was of the fine stitching placed +with her own needle round Arty's shirt-fronts--stitching aided by no +spectacles--and ignorant though she was of her failing, yet Aunt Fanny +was terribly deaf. + +But she hardly felt the affliction, speaking of it as a slight weakness +which affected her when she had a cold, always remaining unconscious +that what she looked upon as a whisper was a conversation carried on in +a loud key. Poor Aunt Fanny could not hear very well from her pew in +the gallery, right in front of the organ, for the thing would make, she +said, such a terrible buzzing sound; so a seat was provided for her just +beneath the pulpit, which she found necessary, for clergymen were not +what they used to be. On the following Sunday, her nephew had ascended +to his place, spread out the black-velvet case she had made for his +sermons, prayed, and given out his text twice, when, before the first +words of the sermon were uttered, Aunt Fanny began to mutter to herself, +though her muttering was so loud that everyone present in the little +church must have heard it, her nephew himself being overwhelmed with +confusion. + +"Dear, dear, dear!" she exclaimed; "it's of no use, and I can't hear a +bit. I might just as well have stayed where I was. O Arty, Arty, you +sad boy, why will you mumble so?" + +Arty did not mumble any more that evening, but dashed headlong into his +discourse; so that when they returned, Aunt Fanny thought she rather +liked the new seat the better of the two. Still it was of no avail; the +old lady could never hear well in that church; for rector and curate had +both got into a bad habit of speaking in a low tone, and drawling out +their words. But Aunt Fanny's pity was sublime in the case of a friend +also troubled with deafness; though he knew it, and did not scruple to +make an ear-trumpet of his hand, though this was needless when Aunt +Fanny was the speaker; for her sentences were always perfectly audible. +"Poor Edwards!" she would say, as she smoothed down her apron, "what a +nice man you would be if you weren't so deaf! It's a pity--a great +pity!" And then she would sigh, in profound ignorance that "poor +Edwards's" confusion was caused by her habit of thinking aloud. + +And this was the companion of Arthur Sterne's solitude; but there were +pleasant smiles to welcome him, and beneath their sunny rays the +deeply-cut lines that seamed his forehead grew less marked, while the +light of the pleasant old sunny face was reflected in his own. + +Aunt Fanny had seen the change that had come over her nephew, and waited +patiently for his complaints, which came not; and after many days, +unable to contain her anxiety, she crossed to where the curate was +sitting, and, taking his hand, frowned severely as she felt his pulse. + +"Well, aunty, and how is it?" he said, smiling at the earnest +countenance beside his. + +But Aunt Fanny was too much occupied with her thoughts to speak, and +only nodded, and then shook her head, as, in her own mind, she went over +her long catalogue of simples suited to the various ills of human life, +till at last she settled upon camomile-tea as being the most efficacious +remedy for her nephew's complaint, which she settled to be disorder of +the liver, produced from over-work, and not a word would she hear to the +contrary. + +"Now, don't shout, my dear; I'm not deaf. You know you do too much; and +if you won't petition the bishop for a change, I shall. What do you say +to a pleasant curacy in some pretty country place?" + +Nothing. What could he say, when he had wakened to the fact that, in +spite of pride and doubts, that court was all the world to him? + +Appeal was useless; so, yielding with as good a grace as he could, the +curate suffered himself to be doctored for his complaint, turning to his +books for rest at every reprieve. If it had not been for the heat of +the next few days, he would not have been allowed to stir out without +the thick muffler that had been aired for his throat; while the many +appellants who visited the lodging of a morning were answered by Aunt +Fanny herself; for many came to ask advice and comfort of the curate, +more especially from amongst the poor Irish; but though they came +ostensibly for spiritual, they generally managed to explain that a +little solid help would be most acceptable. + +Till now, living in their quiet, simple way, the relations between them +being more like those existent with mother and son, Arthur Sterne had +had no secret from the dame; but now, when he would gladly have eased +his burdened heart by confidence, he shrank from laying bare its +secrets, even though he was in that state when men are most prone to be +confidential. But there was to him something repugnant in the idea of +shouting words that seemed to demand that they should be whispered in +the twilight of some calm eve, when the reassuring pressure of that +time-marked hand would have been loving and tender. For she had been to +him as a mother, taking that duty on herself when he had been left an +orphan, and now there seemed ingratitude in keeping back any of the +troubles of his life. He had no doubts respecting Aunt Fanny. Did he +but bring there a wife, and say, "I love this woman," she would take her +to her heart and believe in her; for, saving the mumbling in his speech, +Arthur Sterne could not, in her eyes, do wrong. Still the secret was +kept--feverishly kept--and brooded over in the sleepless nights, or in +those dark watches, when, impatiently quitting the pillow that brought +no rest, he walked the streets of the sleeping city, alone, or in +company with some policeman; when mostly his steps would lead him to the +end of the court, where, in Septimus Hardon's window, generally +glimmered a feeble light--one whose purpose he often asked himself. + +At times he would determine to flee the place, and in some far-off +country retreat try again to root out the love that had taken hold on +him; for here he felt that he could not reason with himself. In vain he +conjured up visions of a calm, pale face, whose marble cheek he had once +kissed, an hour before it was laid in the grave; in vain he told himself +that he was faithless to that old love, and failing in his duty. There +still was the sweet, gentle face of Lucy Grey haunting him ever; and +though he recalled the words of the old Frenchwoman, and her sinister +meaning--the meeting in the Lane, and, above all, the look of shame and +confusion--there was the same sense of love beating down all else. But +he had made a resolve at last; and that was, to see and question the +woman he had seen in Lucy's company; he would see her, and then seek for +rest somewhere, since the idol he had unconsciously set up was sullied +and broken. + +Twice over he had met this woman, but now his efforts to see her seemed +in vain. He called at the Jarkers' again and again; but, in place of +her coming, as Mrs Jarker said, to see her child and leave the weekly +payment for its support, week after week, as if she knew that she was +watched, she came not, but sent money-orders by post. He shrank from +speaking to Mrs Jarker concerning her connection with Lucy; while Lucy +herself he had not seen. Watching seemed useless, for the woman came +not; and at last, almost in despair, he had determined to undertake that +which his heart shrank from--the questioning of Lucy herself. + +At last, after a long and busy day, as now had become his wont, he +wandered through the streets for hours, apparently feeling no fatigue, +till, late in the night, he stopped by the Rents, walked slowly up the +deserted court, lit by its solitary flickering lamp, whose broken glass +made the flame dance and tremble, while when an extra puff of wind +passed down the court it was but extinct. There was the faint light, +though, in one of the rooms occupied by the Hardons, and after standing +watching it for some time he hurried away, calling himself foolish, +romantic, boy, madman. It was but a passing fancy, he told himself, +such a one as might have moved him in his youth; but his heart would not +harbour the belief, and mockingly cast it forth. + +He was angry and half-maddened to feel how helpless he was, and what a +sway the impulse now moving him had obtained; to think that he--the +minister of religion, the teacher of others--should have so little power +over self that he should be swayed here and driven there helplessly; the +whole current of his quiet life turned from its course, and that too in +spite of the way in which he had battled, while the doubts that assailed +him only added to his misery. + +Now as he hurried on he would meet some policeman, who turned to watch +him; now it would be some drunken reveller, or a wretched homeless being +just started from some corner where he had been sleeping, and compelled +to wander the streets till daybreak; but ever and again he would +encounter the flauntingly--dressed outcast humming the snatch of a +popular air with a wretched attempt at gaiety, which lasted till she had +passed, and then almost broke into a wail. But he managed that they +should always meet face to face beneath some gas-lamp, when he would +sigh and pass on, for not one that he met during his search was the +woman of the Lane. + +Mrs Jarker did not know her name, nor yet where she lodged; but the +little girl was to be called Agnes. That was all the information the +curate could obtain; and at times he would frown, bite his lips, and +give up the search, but only to take it up once again for what he always +told himself was the last time. Then he would play the hypocrite, and +tell himself that his motives were unselfish; that to marry a girl in +Lucy's position of life would be folly--absurd: he was only anxious for +her well-being and future life. + +But these fits lasted only for a short time, and then, smiling bitterly, +he would, as upon this night, betake himself to the search once more. + +And yet it was not on his account she came not to Bennett's-rents, for +Agnes Hardon knew not of his quest; she had other reasons, though the +visits to her child and Lucy were the only bright spots in her wretched +life. Lucy heard from her from time to time through old Matt, who bore +her notes always under protest, but still obediently, though Lucy was +the only one who knew the poor creature's secret, and she dared not make +it known to Septimus lest he should forbid their meetings; for, +abandoned by all, hopeless, and in misery, Agnes Hardon clung to her +connection with Lucy as the only hope left on earth for self and child. +Her appeals to Somesham remaining unanswered, she had ceased to send, +and, removing from lodging to lodging, any attempt upon Mrs Hardon's +part to find her would have been vain. She had shrunk from the keen +searching glances of the curate when they had met, seeing in everyone +now an enemy whose object was to break her intimacy with Lucy, whom she, +therefore, saw only by stealth. Her heart bled for the misery of the +family, for she learned all from time to time at their meetings; while, +knowing full well that there was a will made, to which she had signed +her name as witness, yet could she not declare her knowledge, from a +shrewd suspicion that the doctor had made away with it, and she told +herself that she had already brought sorrow and shame enough upon her +home. + +And to meet her, night by night stole Arthur Sterne through the streets, +ever hating himself for his madness, ever resolving that each search +should be the last, and still weakly yielding to the one great anxiety +that troubled him. Now he would be seeing Lucy's candid face +reproachfully gazing at him, and directly after would come again the +bitter, spiteful countenance of the Frenchwoman, and he seemed to hear +her words, "Our beauty, some of us;" and at such times all faith in the +girl had gone. "Our beauty, some of us!" How the words seemed to ring +in his ears; they were borne to him in the echo of the far-off vehicle, +chimed by the clocks; the very air seemed alive with the words, till he +hurried on through street after street again to try and thoroughly wear +himself out, that sleep might come, and with it rest from the mental +anxiety and doubt he suffered. + +At last he stood on one of the bridges, leaning against the parapet and +gazing down at the hurrying river, feeling the soft sweet breeze of +early dawn sweep up with the tide, whispering of the moaning sea and +far-off reaches where the green reeds sighed and rustled, and the wide +green marshes were spread out. There was a faint light coming in the +east, and the stars were paling, as the gas grew sickly-hued and dim. +All was still and peaceful, so that he could hear the lapping of the +water far below as it seemed to whisper peace to his perturbed spirit, +telling of the far-off sea and its mysteries, the hopes and fears there +buried, and then of the many lost whom the river had borne down, when, +from perhaps where he then stood, they had taken the last fearful +plunge. And who were they? he asked himself; who were they that plunged +daringly into the rushing river? and for reply the faint breeze seemed +to whisper, and the tide to sigh, "Our beauty, some of us!" And then +trembling he leaned his hot brow against the cold stone balustrade, +fighting with the thoughts that oppressed him, with duty, religion, the +world, till, with almost a groan, burst from his lips: + +"Save her? My God! yes, as I hope to be saved!" + +The early untainted breeze breathed upon his fevered lips as it rode +upon the breast of the coming tide; the stars paled more and more, the +faint pearly light in the east became roseate; and at last Arthur Sterne +stood gazing up towards the glowing cross of the great cathedral, +glittering as it was in the morning sun, while now, weary and jaded, he +turned to seek his home, but only to gaze with doubting eyes, for he +stood face to face with the woman he had sought through the night. + +Volume Two, Chapter X. + +ON THE SEARCH. + +Doctor Thomas Hardon, of Somesham, seemed likely to have full enjoyment +of his brother's property, for Time kept on busy at work over his +harvest. Septimus Hardon slowly and laboriously did copying for the +law-stationers, apparently quite content with his lot, for he scarcely +ever gave a thought now to the quest he had commenced with old Matt; +Lucy toiled on incessantly at her sewing-machine, the bright needle +flashing up and down, and the treadles set in motion by her feet were +hardly ever still. Journeys were made to and from the warehouse from +whence she had her work, but mostly alone, for Lucy had lost her +protector: he had not returned since the day upon which he had been +taken ill, and they knew not where he lodged. The information might +have been obtained from Agnes, but save a short note or two enclosed in +the regular letters sent to Mrs Jarker, in which she implored her to +watch over the child, Lucy had not heard from her. Mr Sterne came and +went, visiting them as he would have visited at any other house, +treating Lucy with a calm, cold deference that made her weep bitterly +after each visit, and grow paler day by day; for the curate told himself +that he had at last conquered a foolish fancy, that he had triumphed as +became him, and that all he felt now was a sublime pity which prompted +him to watch her when she went out alone, and follow her at a distance +till he saw her once more in safety, when he would hurry home; for his +heart was very full of pity for Lucy Grey, even though he knew not of +the tears she shed in secret. + +As to carrying on his researches alone, the very thought of such a +proceeding never occurred to Septimus Hardon--it seemed to border too +much upon the impossible; and besides, he was deep in that Slough of +Despond--poverty, which, instead of prompting men to energetic action, +too often enervates and breeds despair. So he waited on day after day, +hoping to see old Matt again, and yet dreading the prosecution of his +claim-shrinking when it was named, for he seemed to grow less hopeful as +time wore on. The curate had hinted more than once how willing he would +be to aid him; but Septimus always shrank so from entering upon the +matter, that Mr Sterne, from motives of delicacy, soon ceased to broach +the subject. + +The sewing-machine clicked on early and late, and Jean's lark, when he +heard it, would set up his crest and whistle away, waking the echoes of +the court, while at the open window, when the bird was silent, Jean +Marais himself would crane forward and listen eagerly to the fragment of +some mournful little air which he could just catch at times, as the +machine stopped, and Lucy arranged a portion of her work. But the sweet +notes from the first-floor seemed to rouse the lark to fresh exertions, +when its master would angrily chide it, and perhaps cover it with a +handkerchief, but only to snatch it away hurriedly. + +"For she loves to hear him whistle," he would say; and then he would +smile again, as the bird burst forth once more in its joyous carol. + +At times Lucy would ascend to the attic to take up a bunch of green food +she had bought for the birds, or a few flowers for the cripple, whose +eyes brightened when he saw her, but these visits were mostly paid when +_ma mere_ was from home; for in spite of her civil words, there was +something in the old woman's quiet smile that chilled her; so that she +dreaded meeting her more than if her looks had been those of anger. But +she knew not the bitter words that had passed between mother and son +upon the subject, when _ma mere_ once angrily crushed a bunch of violets +Lucy had taken up to the suffering youth. + +The sewing-machine was clicking away merrily one day, so that Mrs +Jarker could hear it from her sick-bed; Septimus Hardon was busily +copying at his little table, and the lark jocund as ever, when a slow +step was heard upon the stairs. Lucy stopped her machine to listen, and +even Septimus raised his head from his work. But there was no mistake-- +it was not a visitor for up-stairs, but old Matt's own shuffling +footstep, and Lucy run to admit him. + +Paler, thinner, more haggard, he came slowly into the room, rubbing his +hands and smiling with pleasure at the warmth of the greeting he +received. + +"Never better," he said; "capital, thank you; been ill, though, and not +able to get out before, though I was afraid you would get all the work +done without me. What have you done since I saw you, sir?" + +"Nothing," said Septimus quietly. + +"Didn't expect you had," said Matt drily. "No offence, sir; but I +thought perhaps you might want me; so if you'll get your hat, sir, we'll +start at the point where we left off, and see after the doctor." + +"But you will not be well enough," said Septimus, hanging back from the +task--more on his own account than on that of the old man. + +"Don't you be afraid of that, sir. I should have been well weeks ago if +it hadn't been for fidgeting about your affairs, and wanting to get out. +I'm as strong as a lion now, sir; but let's be at it. I want a new +suit of clothes out of the estate, you know, sir, when you get it;" and +the old man chuckled and nodded at Lucy. + +Septimus slowly wiped his pen, and carefully put away his paper, sighing +the while, for he was unwilling to start, and the fit of eagerness had +long ago evaporated; but at last he declared himself to be in readiness, +and the pair once more started off upon their search. + +Upon this occasion they directed their steps at once to Finsbury, and, +after a slow, and what seemed to Matt a painful, walk, they reached +their destination. + +"Here is the house," said Septimus, after a reference to his +pocket-book; "this is the number." + +"H'm!--`Tollicks' Registry Office for Servants,'" read Matt from the +board over the door. "This isn't the doctor's. Sure of the number, +sir?" + +"Yes," said Septimus, referring once more to his pocket-book; "yes; this +is the number I took down." + +"So it is," said Matt, after a reference to his own memorandum-book. +"That's right enough; but wait a bit, one never knows where to be right +or wrong with numbers; they always were things as bothered a man; for +you have your numbers so-and-so a, and b, and c, and goodness knows how +many more, until you're regularly puzzled. Perhaps that's an a, or a b, +or something of that kind, and the number we want is somewhere else." + +"Let's walk on a little," said Septimus; and they went slowly down one +side and up the other, but this proved to be the only house numbered as +they wanted. + +"Do you know of a Mr Phillips, a surgeon, in this neighbourhood?" said +Septimus to the first policeman they met. + +The man of order shook his head, beat his white gloves together, and +then rearranged the shaken head in his shiny stock before continuing his +walk. + +"Let's go to the fountain-head at once," said Matt; "perhaps they know +something about him. Here we are again--`Tollicks' Registry Office for +Servants.' Let's see what Mr Tollicks knows about him." + +"Stop a minute," said Septimus, to keep procrastination alive for a few +moments longer. "Perhaps there is another door." + +"No more doors there, unless they're backdoors," growled Matt; and +leading the way, they stood in a floor-clothed room,--the office +itself,--furnished with a green--baize--covered table, bearing a +stencil-plate, inkstand, and brush; and beside the wall a long bench, +upon which sat apparently one of the servants waiting to be hired from +ten to four, as announced by a bill in the window, which spoke of cooks, +housemaids, and general servants as being regularly in attendance; but +most probably the others, tired, had gone home for the day, for the +damsel in question was the only one visible. She was "Corrnwall sure," +as indicated by the shape of her nose, though any ignorant person might +have been excused for mistaking her for an inhabitant of the sister +isle. + +The door gave a sharp "ting" as it was opened, and another as it was +closed,--the refinement of the old jingling door bell of the chandler's +shop,--when the young lady on the bench rose, and made a bob and sat +down again, and someone from an inner chamber cried, "Coming!" Then a +small dog with a very apoplectic voice barked loudly to the tune of a +little bell secured to its neck, and came waddling round the counter to +smell Septimus Hardon's legs; when visiting old Matt for the same +purpose, that gentleman favoured him with a pinch of snuff dropped +softly towards his nose, provoking a most violent fit of sneezing, and a +loud and agitated jingling of the tiny bell. + +With the exception of the sneezing, there was now silence in the office +for a few moments, till the sound of rattling milk-cans upon the +pavement was heard. A man gave vent to the well-known melodious London +yodel, and then opened the door, which again said "ting," when from the +inner chamber appeared a tall, stoutish, elderly-young female of very +grand deportment, which she displayed to great advantage by making a +most ceremonious salute--one that would have been invaluable to a +governess in a large-minded family of small means. So elegant was the +salute, that even old Matt was staggered, and performed an operation +rather rare with him--he took off his hat. + +"The side-door, my good man," said the lady to the milkman, who grinned, +winked to himself, and drew the door after him, when, quietly placing +the customary "ha'porth" in a cream-tin, he set it in a corner by the +door, jangled his cans as he took them up, and then yelled his way down +the street. + +"Mrs Tollicks?" said Septimus, raising his shabby hat. + +"Miss Tollicks," said the lady, with another profound courtesy almost +equal to the former. "Perhaps you will be seated, sir." + +Perhaps he would have been; but as there was only the form upon which +the auburn-haired damsel sat whilst waiting to be hired, Septimus merely +bowed again, and said, "Thank you," at the same moment inadvertently +directing a glance at the maiden in question. + +"Thoroughly trustworthy, and has an excellent character from her last +place," said Miss Tollicks, who had seen the glance; "a very good cook-- +plain cook, early riser, strictly temperate; in fact, a disciple of the +late Father Matthew. Requires no followers, and only one half-day out +in the month. Only twenty-two; wages twelve pounds; and a capital +washer." + +The damsel had risen, and stood with her eyes half-closed, head on one +side, and her rather large mouth squeezed up into a modest smirk; and as +Septimus Hardon knew nothing of the maiden, he was bound to accept Miss +Tollicks' eulogium; but as to the last-named quality, it was very +evident that the girl was not a capital washer of self, while a +detergent applied to her hair would have made a manifest improvement. + +"Indeed," said Septimus, bowing; "I am obliged, but--" + +"Only _twelve_ pounds wages," said Miss Tollicks with emphasis. + +"And very reasonable," said Septimus; "but--" + +"You will find very few general servants willing to go for less than +fourteen," said Miss Tollicks. + +"I suppose not," said Septimus; "but at present--" + +"Then you don't think this young person would suit your requirements?" +said Miss Tollicks. + +"Decidedly not," said Septimus eagerly, for he was getting so +exceedingly confused, that had Miss Tollicks pressed her point, he would +most probably have ended by hiring the damsel off-hand; for every glance +directed for help at old Matt glanced off the impenetrable armour in +which the old man had encased himself. + +"Mary Donovan," said the lady of the house with dignity, "it is five +minutes past four; you need not wait any longer to-day." + +Mary Donovan rose at the instant, and made a bob to Miss Tollicks, and +one each to Matt and Septimus--bobs that were a disgrace to her after +the elaborate obeisances she had so lately seen made; and then she took +her departure, played out by a couple of "tings," Miss Tollicks smiling +blandly, and courteously holding her head on one side as she stood +waiting to know the object of her visitors' call. + +Miss Tollicks was a lady whom no one would have supposed to have been +born a genius, from the utter absence of ennobling qualities in her +face; but for all that she made-up showily, possessed a good figure, had +two little corkscrew curls on either side of her face, a suspicion of +thinness about her hair--parting, which on a small scale exhibited +somewhat the appearance of certain stout ladies' dresses in the back +when they have been without assistance in the hooking department; for +the said parting began correctly, and then gradually opened out, but +only to contract again and finish evenly some distance farther back. By +way of head-dress, Miss Tollicks wore a black-velvet blackbird, with +handsome gold-bead eyes, the said ornithological head-dress being kept +in its place by means of a fillet of black-velvet and gold twist. A +very thick, plain-linked, jet chain was round her neck, a very glossy +buckle at her waist, fastening the cincture of her very rusty black-silk +dress, slightly rubbed at the plaits; so that altogether Miss Tollicks +presented the aspect of a lady superior at the very least. + +"We merely called," said Septimus, after an awkward pause, during which +he had been waiting for Matt to begin, "to--er--er--to--er--that is to +ask if you could give us any information respecting a Mr Phillips, a +surgeon, who once resided here." + +"Dear me, how disappointing!" said Miss Tollicks. "Now do you know I +thought you had come after servants; I did indeed." + +"Really," said Septimus sadly, "I am sorry to have caused you +disappointment; but it was important that I should know, and I called-- +urgent--troubled you," he stammered again, looking in vain at Matt, who +only took snuff. + +"O, don't apologise, pray," said Miss Tollicks; "come in and sit down, +and let's--let me," she said, correcting herself,--"let me hear what it +is. There, don't laugh at me, for one is obliged to be so particular +how one speaks to the grand people who come for servants." + +Miss Tollicks led the way into her inner chamber, where the fat dog +slept snoringly in the sunshine; and, after a little hesitation, her two +visitors took the proffered chairs. + +"Mr Flips, surgeon," said the lady of the place, after a little +preliminary conversation, "no, I never heard the name, and I've been +here two years this next week, when my landlord will most likely call. +He says he has a bad memory, but he always recollects the quarter-days. +He lives down in Dorsetshire, and when he comes up I can ask him if you +like; perhaps he would know; or you might write; but he's sure to write +to me directly to say he is coming, so that, as he says, I may be ready +for him, just as if one ever was ready for one's landlord. Two years-- +yes, just two years," she continued musingly. "There was a whole year +at the millinery, which didn't half-pay the rent; for people here don't +seem to wear bonnets, and when they do, they've been turned and cleaned +and altered or somethinged or anothered, although I put my prices so low +that there was no room for a bit of profit. Then there was the fancy +stationery three months, which was worse, for the only kind of +stationery the people fancied was penny-stamps, which cost me a penny +a-piece, and then people either wanted them to be stuck on their +letters, or else wrapped, up in paper. Then there was the newspaper and +periodical trade, which was worse than all; for, as if just out of +aggravation, the people always came and asked for the very thing you had +not got. I declare that if it wasn't that you can sit down and read +your stock, the periodical trade would be unbearable. Only think of the +trouble people gave you by ordering things regularly and never coming +and fetching them; so that the back numbers used to get piled up most +terribly. And now, you know, I've been six months at this, and it's so +trying, you can't think; for, you see, I'm worse off than anybody: I've +not got to please the missuses--I beg pardon, the mistresses only, but +the servants; and really, after my experience I can say that there's no +pleasing anyone." + +Septimus Hardon glanced hopelessly at Matt, but he would not see him, +and took pinch after pinch of snuff furiously, with a comical expression +upon his countenance the former could not interpret. + +"You see, though," continued Miss Tollicks, who seemed to have made up +her mind to thoroughly enjoy herself with a good talk; "you see, though, +there is one advantage--there's no stock required, and it is genteel; +but really, after all, it is so vexatious and pays so badly that I think +I shall give it up, and take to tobacco. I suppose it's a business that +pays well, and people do use it to such an extent that it's quite +wonderful. But let me see! Phillips--Flips--Flips--no, I never even +heard of the name; but, do you know, I shouldn't wonder if a doctor did +once live here; for there's a regular street-door bell that rings +down-stairs, and another that rings up in the second-floor front, just +as the night-bell used to at Doctor Masters's, where I once lived at, +as--ahem, ahem!--excuse my cough, pray," said Miss Tollicks, colouring; +"but there!" she said sharply the next moment, "where I lived as +lady's-maid, and I don't see why I should be ashamed of it." + +"Hear, hear!" said old Matt, speaking for the first time. + +"But can you tell who lived here before you?" said Septimus. + +"O, yes; a dairy," replied Miss Tollicks; "but it was only here six +months, and my landlord told me the people didn't pay any rent, but went +off in the night so shabby, leaving nothing behind but a black-and-white +plaster cow, and a moss-basket with three chalk eggs, in the window; and +my landlord says that's why he looks so sharp after me, which isn't +nice, you know; but then you can't be surprised. Let me see, I think it +was a coffee-house before that." + +"Perhaps," said Septimus, rising, "you will find that out for me when +your landlord calls. I don't think we will trouble him by writing; and +maybe you'll ask him how long it is since a Mr Phillips lived here, and +if he can tell you to where he removed." + +"That I will," said Miss Tollicks pleasantly; "and if you would not mind +taking one of my cards, you might be able to recommend me to one or two +patrons; and you too, sir," she continued, handing one to Matt, which he +took with a comical amused expression, and carefully placed inside the +lining of his hat. + +"Hadn't you better ask for the landlord's address, and write at once?" +growled Matt, as soon as they were outside the house. + +"Perhaps it would be better," said Septimus, hesitating; "but no, we +won't trouble her again; and it would only hasten the matter a day or +two--possibly not at all. She has been very civil and obliging." + +"Very," said Matt. "Good sort of woman, she seems; but what a tongue! +As soon as ever she had trapped us in that room, `Matt, my lad,' I said, +`the people in this world are divided into two classes--talkers and +listeners. You belong to the second class, so keep your place;' and I +did, sir, as you know. I never attempt to tackle a woman on her own +ground, sir, which is talking. I can talk, sir, leastwise I could when +I was well; but it's my humble opinion that that woman would have rapped +out three words to my one." + +"There," said Matt, after they had walked a little way along the street, +he all the while rubbing his forefinger slowly round and round his pill +snuff-box, "I've taken all my snuff, as ought to have lasted till +to-morrow night, and all through that precious woman's tongue. Let's go +in here, sir, and get a penn'orth." + +"Here" was a very dirty-looking little tobacconist's and news-agent's; +and, so as to leave no stone unturned, Matt, whilst being served, made +inquiry touching Mr Phillips, a surgeon. + +"No," said the woman who served, as she allayed the irritation of her +nasal organ by rubbing it with the back of the hand which held the +snuff-scoop, and so provoked a loud fit of sneezing,--"no, not in my +time." + +"How long has that been?" said Matt. + +"Five years," replied the woman. + +Septimus Hardon walked out of the shop, and, after paying for his snuff, +old Matt followed him into the street, and they bent their steps +homewards. + +"I'm dull and stupid and not right, you see," said Matt, "or else I +should have known why the name wasn't in the newest of those two +Directories. One, you see, was more than ten years old, and the other-- +well, it wasn't the newest. But you leave it to me, sir, and I'll try +and find a medical directory, for I think there is such a thing. I know +there is a legal one, for I helped print it; and there's one for the +parsons, so there's safe to be one for the doctors. I'll ferret it out, +sir; and I shall be better to-morrow. Those look nice, don't they?" +said the old man, stopping short in front of a pork-butcher's shop. + +"Very," said Septimus dreamily, and without glancing at the freshly-made +chains of sausages hanging from the hooks in the window. + +"You may always buy your sausages here, and depend upon 'em," said Matt; +"and if you'll listen to my advice, you'll take a pound back with you. +They'll wrap 'em in a bit of paper for you, and you can slip them in +your pocket, and have a nice fry for tea when you get home, and then +rest content; for, though we haven't done much, and I should have liked +you to have taken that landlord's name and address, yet things are +getting in train, I can tell you. So you wait quietly at home, sir, +till I come again, for I suppose you won't want to do anything yourself. +I shall be stronger and better to-morrow or next day, I hope, for +somehow I can't get along as I used, and feel weak and muddled. But +there, sir, slip in and get them sausages, and have a bit of patience, +and don't try to build any more till our mortar's a bit settled." + +Septimus Hardon smiled sadly at the idea of his being impatient to go on +with the search, and, obeying his companion's hest, he obtained the +pound of flesh; and then they walked slowly on till they were once more +within the shadow of the law. + +"And now I'm off, sir," said Matt, stopping short in Carey-street. "I +think I shall go and lie down." + +"Can I do anything for you?" said Septimus earnestly. + +"Yes, sir," said Matt; "let me have my own way, please. You let me go +my way, and I'll work the matter out for you if it's possible, so that +it shall be in trim for the lawyers, and then I'll give up. But there, +I won't do anything without consulting you first, and--no, thank you; +I'd rather not. No; I like sausages well enough sometimes, but not +to-day, thank you; I'm off in a moment. Don't you do anything, whatever +you do, to put your uncle on his guard. Depend upon it, he thinks now, +after all this time, that you've given it quite up; while, if things go +on as I hope, we shall come down upon him one of these days in a way +that shall startle him--shake his nerves so that he sha'n't find a tonic +for them." + +Old Matt shuffled off, once more steadily refusing to partake of any +refreshment; while Septimus slowly and thoughtfully made his way towards +the entrance to the Rents, pondering over his visit to the churches some +weeks back, and then thinking that it would be better to settle down +contentedly in his present state, for fear that after research, labour, +and endless publicity, the words of his uncle should prove to be those +of truth, and his condition worse than it was at the present time. + +"Better the present doubt and obscurity," he muttered. "Octavius +Hardon, Lavinia Addison, Ellen Morris--all witnesses to the truth, but +dead, dead." + +"Stop, stop!" cried a voice, as he turned into the Rents; and the next +moment, with his hand to his side, old Matt stood by him, gasping. "I +ain't the thing to-night, sir; I'm ill, but I've got it here--here +somewhere," he said, tapping his forehead, "and I can't get it out. +It's here, though. It's `medicine and attendance, Mrs Hardon--so +much,' isn't it? That's it, sir, ain't it?" + +Septimus stared wonderingly at him. + +"You may well look, sir," said Matt, panting still; "but that's it, and +I've seen it somewhere, and I'll tell you where directly. It all came +like a flash just after I left you; there it was, just as I saw it +written down: `Medicine and attendance, Mrs Hardon--so much;' and I can +keep seeming to see the words dance before my eyes now. I saw them +written down somewhere once, and I can't just now say where; but I seem +to feel that I've got them all right, and I shall have it. Good-night, +sir. Remember me to Miss Lucy;" and the old man staggered away, +muttering aloud, "Medicine and attendance--medicine and attendance;" +while more than one person in the street turned to look at the bent +figure, to shake a sapient head, and mutter, "Or hospital." + +For poor old Matt looked sick unto death, though Septimus Hardon, deep +in his own thoughts, had taken but little notice of the old man's +indisposition. + +Volume Two, Chapter XI. + +LUCY'S BEST. + +Night after night, noticed by the curate during his wanderings, by _ma +mere_, and by Mr William Jarker, birdcatcher, when distant trips had +detained him until late hours, there still burned a feeble light in one +of the windows at Bennett's-rents; and by its gleam, until the moon rose +above the houses, and looked inquisitively down upon her paper, shedding +a silvery light that seemed to quench the rushlight's sickly yellow +flame, now sat Lucy Grey far into the long watches, with naught to +interrupt her but the occasional long-drawn breath or sigh from the +back-room, or the rumble of some vehicle through the distant streets. +Once she started up and stood trembling, for a shrill scream rang upon +the night breeze, but silence soon reigned again, and she retook her +seat. Patiently bending over her task, with her large eager eyes +strained to follow the work of her fingers, the pale girl was busily +toiling on. Toiling on at what? Not at the sewing-machine, for its +busy throbbing pulse was still, but carefully and slowly writing line +after line in a common school copy-book to improve a handwriting already +fine, delicate, and ladylike. A slate covered with figures lay too upon +the table, while beside it was a French grammar, and the words written +in the copy-book were in the same tongue. + +And this had been Lucy's task night after night, till the red-rimmed +eyes would keep open no longer, and, wearied out, she lay down to dream +dreams that brought smiles to her lips, for her visions were of the +prize for which she studied. But these nights of toil and the anxiety +of her heart had told upon her, and upon this night, the one succeeding +the journey to Finsbury, Lucy sat, looking more pale and wan than usual, +and her work progressed but slowly. The place too, and the summer heat, +had had their share in producing her sickly pallor, for in +Bennett's-rents there was a faint lung-clinging odour that almost seemed +to tell that Death had passed over the place to put his seal upon those +soon to pass away. Or was it the foul incense men burn to his dread +shrine, calling him to their homes--the thin invisible mist rising from +filth and rottenness, to blight the rosy cheek of health? There was +enough in Bennett's-rents to drive away health, strength, and youth; for +premature old age lurked in the foul cisterns, rose from the drains, and +dwelt in the crowded habitations, houses made to accommodate six, yet +containing perhaps thirty or forty, souls. But Lucy was sick at heart +as well. Months upon months had she dwelt in the wretched court, though +until now its impurities had not seemed to touch her as she passed to +and fro. + +The work went on slowly, and, weary and sad at heart, she stopped at +times, gazing up at the bright moon, till, recalling her wandering +thoughts, she again bent eagerly to her task. Still her thoughts would +not be controlled, and soon the slate took the place of the paper, and +her pencil formed two words over which she bent lovingly, and yet with a +shudder, as if it were ominous to her hopes that she had written these +words, for the pencil gritted loudly over the slate, and the last stroke +was made with a harsh grating shriek which sounded loudly in the silence +of the night. Still she bent lovingly over the characters, until, drip, +drip, drip, the tears fell upon them, and then, as her white forehead +sank upon her hands, the long gleaming clusters of her bright hair swept +over the slate, and the words were gone, while the girl wept long and +bitterly, for her dream of the future seemed rudely broken--that happy +dream of her life whose rosy hues had served to soften the misery of her +lot. Toiling hard by day to supply the wants of her suffering mother, +working by night to make herself more worthy--to raise herself if but a +step nearer to him; and now it seemed to her that she had been roughly +dashed from the point to which she had climbed, by the words and looks +of a low ruffian whose very presence was repelling. + +Suddenly Lucy raised her head, for the night was hot, and the window +open, and in the stillness of the hour she heard approaching footsteps-- +steps that she seemed to know, and her pulses beat tumultuously as they +appeared to stop at the end of the court for a few minutes, and then +pass on; when, as if a weight had been removed from her heart, the poor +girl sighed, breathed more freely, and again bent over her books. + +An hour passed, and then once more Lucy looked up, for, clear and sharp, +"tap, tap, tap," came the sound as of something hard, a tiny shot, a +pebble striking against the window-panes, and then once more there was +silence. + +Lucy rose softly, her cheeks pale and lips apart, and stole on tiptoe to +the door of the back-room and listened. + +All was silent there but the heavy breathing of sleepers, so she again +crossed the room, and with the nail of one finger gave a sharp tap upon +the pane, then hastily tying on her bonnet and drawing on a shawl, she +once more stood trembling and eagerly listening at the back-room, her +pale young face wearing a strange, frightened expression, and then +slowly and softly she stole to the door, opened it quietly, and closed +it again, to stand outside upon the dark landing gazing fearfully up and +down, as if in dread of being molested. + +Slowly down she then passed step by step, with the old worn boards now +and again creaking sharply beneath her light weight, every rustle of her +dress sounding loud and distinct in the silence--down slowly to the dark +passage and the front-door, left always on the latch for the convenience +of the many lodgers. And now Lucy's heart beat heavily, for she had +passed along the entry in an agony of fear, lest she might encounter +someone sleeping upon the floor, for at times homeless ones had stolen +in and rested there, glad of such a refuge from the night wind. + +But Lucy stood at the door in safety, and raised the latch. The paint +cracked loudly as the door opened, and admitted the faint light of moon +and lamp, while now the wind sighed mournfully down the court. The next +moment the door was closed, and a dark figure had seized Lucy by the +hand, and drawn her towards one of the many gloomy entrances, as the +heavy step of a policeman was heard to pass the end of the court, his +ringing paces gradually growing fainter and fainter, till once more all +was still but the moaning sigh of the night wind, as it seemed at times +almost to wail for the miseries of Bennett's-rents. + +A quarter of an hour, half an hour, an hour passed; but save the +occasional rattle of wheels in the great thoroughfare, all was silent. +The many doorways in Bennett's-rents seemed to frown darkly and +mysteriously as the one lamp flickered, while, where the moonbeams did +not fall, there were gloomy shadows. But at last came the light step of +Lucy and the soft rustle of her dress as she crept up to the door, +passed through to steal once more up the creaking stairs, to throw off +bonnet and shawl, and sit down panting and trembling, her breath coming +hardly for a while, till tears came to her relief, when she wept long +and bitterly, the heavy booming of a neighbouring clock sending a +shudder through her frame. + +Now pushing back her hair from her forehead, she looked out angrily upon +the night, now drooping and weeping bitterly, her head again sank upon +her hands as the tears of hopeless misery gushed from her eyes. The +moonbeams shed their silvery lustre upon her head as she bent there, +playing amidst the riches of her beautiful hair, caressing it, hiding +and glancing from amidst the thick tresses, lingering there, and seeming +to shed a halo around. But slowly the radiant orb rode on till but half +the bright tresses were in the light, and still slowly the shadows +increased as the rays swept by, flooding first one and then another part +of the room. Soon all within was darkness, while the court was light; +and then slowly the shadow began to climb the houses on the other side, +making their dingy walls less loathsome as seen through the silvery +medium. But before the lower part of the court was quite in darkness, a +heavy, slouching figure might have been seen to creep up to the house on +the opposite side and enter the door. A few minutes after, Lucy Grey +started and listened, for, in the strange stillness of the time, a +rustling was heard upon the stairs, followed by a faint but laboured +breathing; while, though her light was extinguished, Lucy crouched +trembling in her chair, for it seemed to her that she had been watched, +and that even now there was a piercing eye at the keyhole, which fixed +her to her seat so that she dare not move. But at last, from sheer +exhaustion, her fair young head drooped lower and lower towards the +table, sinking upon her shapely arms; when once more came the rumble of +a vehicle in the street, the heavy tread of the policeman upon the +pavement--this time right along the court--in firm, ringing steps, that +gave wrong-doers ample notice of his coming, and then again silence. + +They were wild dreams that made fevered the sleep of Lucy Grey. Now it +was Arthur Sterne; now _ma mere_ and her son, or the low, bull-dog face +of Jarker, that disturbed her rest, and she moaned in her sleep again +and again as the night wore on. The writing upon her slate was gone; +the copies were blurred and tear-blistered, and the poor girl slept +heavily and painfully. Now she sighed, now she started, for her heart +was rent and torn--as gentle a heart as ever beat in woman's breast; +but, like a blight, the breath of suspicion had rested on her, and she +had shrunk back scathed before the man for whose coming it had been the +pleasure of her life to watch. + +What was there to live for now? she asked herself again and again. Was +life to be only a dreary blank--a struggle for mere existence? And then +she blamed herself for her folly and ambition. Had Arthur Sterne never +crossed the light of her life she could have patiently toiled on, never +wearying of the plaints of her mother; but now, after months, almost +years of hopefulness, to come to this! Well might the sleep be fitful, +and the dreams those which brought trouble, for the sun of her life +seemed clouded, and hope a thing of the past. + +Again a sigh, and a few muttered words, and then the weary head was +turned a little so that when the first grey dawn of the coming day crept +down the court, and struggled into the room, driving forth shadow after +shadow, it rested smilingly upon Lucy's cheek, pausing lovingly upon the +first pure thing it had encountered that morning in the misery-smitten +region around. Had Arthur Sterne known all, he would have given +position, advancement, all, to have pressed his lips where the pale +light now rested, and asked for pardon. But he knew only that which he +had seen, and, racked by suspicion, he wearied himself with doubt and +surmise without end. + +Again a sigh, and again a restless turn, when the colour flushed through +Lucy's pale cheeks. It was sunrise, and some hopeful thoughts must have +come with its brightness; or was it that the words breathed far off +above the rushing river had at length reached their goal? But the +cheeks soon paled again, the sigh was repeated, and Lucy slept heavily. + +"Tsu weet, tsu weet, tsweet, tsweet, tsweet!" sang in long and joyous +trill the speckled-breasted lark, as, raising its crest and the plumage +of its throat, it fluttered by the prison-bars, and poured forth that +joyous song whose every note told of bright skies, pure air, and the +daisy-sprinkled mead; of waving cornfields, rippling brooks, and +many-tinted woods. "Tsweet, tsweet, tsweet!" sang the bird of the +joyous heart-stirring song, prisoned here in a foul court, but panting +for the elastic air and some loving mate. + +Lucy started up and looked confusedly round, then gazing towards the sky +she became conscious that Mr William Jarker was upon the housetop +amongst his pigeons and sooty lathen architecture, gazing heavily down +upon her window. There was a frown upon her brow as she slowly and +wearily put aside books and slate, bathed her throbbing temples, and +smoothed the escaped locks; and then she stole softly to the corner of +the window, where, unseen from above, she could lean her cheek against +the paintless frame, and listen to the song of the bird. Sighing +heavily as it ceased, she uncovered her sewing-machine, wiped off the +dust, and prepared her work for the coming day. Now she had to cross +the room and make sundry little domestic arrangements; now to seek here, +now there; but all was done silently, so as not to rouse the sleepers in +the next room; though there was none of the old elasticity, for she +moved about wearily, sighing as she went. + +And now, first one and then another familiar sound told her that the +time for labour--that morning was there once more; many steps were heard +descending the stairs and passing along the court, the cooing of the +pigeons came from the housetops, and the rattle of vehicles rose more +loudly from the distant streets. + +"Up and dressed, Lucy?" said a voice from the adjoining room. + +"Yes, mother dear," was the reply; and now, after waiting some time for +this signal, the wheel spun round, the keen needle darted up and down, +and with its sharp click, click, click, sped on Lucy's sewing-machine. + +Then the bedroom-door opened, and Septimus Hardon made his appearance--a +worn expression struggling hard with the smile that greeted Lucy, as he +tenderly kissed her, and then hurrying out, he went for his morning +walk, to puzzle over his own weakness, his poverty, and the great +problem of things in general. + +Volume Two, Chapter XII. + +IN HOSPITAL. + +The more a poor and sensitive man confines himself within doors, the +more he troubles himself with the fancy that everyone he meets is +staring at and watching him when he stirs out; and this fancy was very +strong on Septimus Hardon one day--one very miserable sloppy wet day, as +he made his way towards Lower Series-place, on account of dilapidations +in his boots. + +Now experience has taught that holes or seediness generally of the other +apparel may to a certain extent be managed, and something like a decent +appearance made; the hat may be sponged and ironed, while the brown +napless spots are inked, and the bruises, to a certain extent, rubbed +out; holes in the coat may be fine-drawn, and a vigorous brushing will +always do something towards renovating the nap, even as soap and flannel +will remove the grease; then, too, a good button-up, and a paper collar +neatly arranged beneath a clean face and shortly-cut hair, give a finish +to a costume by no means rare in London streets. It is only when in +company with dirt and squalor that long hair shows to its greatest +advantage; and if the hair be long, vain are the efforts made to reform +a shabby garb. Your artist may fancy he paints the better by saving the +sixpences that should by rights find their way into the pocket of the +man of the long tongue and sharp scissors; your poet with rolling eye +may also find some hidden advantage, some Samson-like strength in +flowing locks; and no doubt Italian liberty would suffer, and Vaterland +be blotted and wiped out, if from foreign heads much of the +collar-greasing, eye-offending, cheek-tickling appendage were shorn off. +We know how the strength of the old judge lay in his locks, and when we +meet some brawny hirsute fellow, we are apt to consider him a very +Hercules of strength; but when we encounter long hair in a state of +wealth, petted, perfumed, and glossed, after the fashion of the dandies +of the Merry Monarch's time, how the mind will feel disposed to look +upon the owner of the flowing locks, not as a star of the intellectual +sphere, but as a comet of weak intensity; while, when the same lengthy +locks are met with in a state of poverty, even the short prison-barber +coiffure of the Jarker kind seems preferable. + +Taught by adversity, Septimus Hardon had learned to contend with the +dilapidations in his clothes,--at times quite ingeniously,--but, like +far better men, he had not been able to control his boots. Custom has +so much to do with matters of dress, that though shabbiness will pass +unnoticed in the throng, any departure from the ordinary laws will draw +as much attention to the offender as if he were a visitor from some +foreign clime. Sandal-shoon were of course once the correct thing for +promenading the crust of the earth; but who now, unless he were an +extreme Ritualist, would think of traversing our muddy streets with bare +feet strapped to a sole, and great-toes working in a most obtrusive +manner? Certainly not a man of Septimus Hardon's retiring disposition, +though, had he felt so disposed, he could not have done so in the +present instance, since his boots almost lacked soles. Their decay had +been so rapid, that scarcely anything remained but the uppers. He had +even taken to wearing his wife's goloshes, until the policeman became +more attentive to his quiet footfall than was agreeable. But there is a +stretch beyond which even the elasticity of indiarubber will not extend; +and now, after putting up with much hard usage, the goloshes had +succumbed, and, suffering under a complete reverse of circumstances, the +indiarubber was itself completely rubbed out. + +As before said, there are many little contrivances for bettering worn +costume; but somehow or another a boot bothers the cleverest. String is +a wonderful adjunct to garments generally, often acting as a substitute +for buttons or braces; in fact, for a man wrecked on a desert island, +there would not be the slightest cause for despair so long as he had +string; but even it falls powerless before boots; glue is useless from +the damp; while as to paste, it is no better than sealing-wax or grim. +Taken altogether, boots are a great nuisance to a poor man; and when +they have arrived at such a pitch that they are not worth mending, the +best plan to adopt is not to throw them away, or offer them up as an +odorous sacrifice to the goddess of poverty upon your household fire, +watching their life-like contortions as the leather twists and turns in +the hot blaze, but to do as Septimus Hardon did, with many a sigh, as +though they had been old friends--sell them. + +Septimus sold his boots to Isaac Gross, in Lower Series--place, after +trying hard to get another day's wear out of them. It had been a fierce +battle, and he had found the arguments adduced by his leather friends +too strong to be resisted. He parted from them with regret, although +they had never been to him the friends he tried to believe. To begin +with, they had always pinched him terribly, raising blisters upon his +heels, painfully chafing his toes, bringing a tender place upon one +foot, and fostering a corn upon the other; but now they had been parted +with in exchange, with so much current coin added, for a pair of Isaac +Gross's translations. + +It might reasonably be supposed that old Matt had introduced Septimus as +a customer; but no, this would have been introducing him to the abode of +which he was ashamed; and Septimus had long since discovered the spot +for himself, and come to the conclusion that it was a place where he +could well suit himself, or rather the requirements of his pocket. + +Isaac was smoking away as usual, and giving the finishing touch to a +boot-sole by means of a piece of broken glass, whose keen edge took off +minute shavings of the leather. Mrs Slagg was busily carrying on +trading transactions with a dirty man, and giving the best price for a +barrowful of old newspapers; but both Isaac and Mrs Slagg seemed out of +spirits, and when a customer presented himself in the shape of Septimus +Hardon, the translator put down his work slowly, sighed, laid his pipe +upon a shelf, and seemed to carry out his bargain with more than his +usual heaviness. As a rule, Isaac was a man given to smiling--smiling +very slowly, and bringing his visage back to its normal state, a solid +aspect; but there was no smile visible now; and when his visitor for +"three-and-nine and the old uns," became the lucky possessor of a pair-- +no, not a pair--of two Oxonian shoes, Isaac took the money with another +sigh, put it in an old blacking-bottle upon the shelf, which he used as +a till, dropped the old boots upon a heap close by, took up his pipe, +smoked, sighed, and then scraped away at his boot-sole without taking a +single peep at his neighbour. + +For Isaac Gross was sore at heart concerning the state of his old friend +Matt, as sore at heart as was his customer; and when, slightly limping +and pinched, Septimus creaked away in his new shoes, Mrs Slagg having +finished her paper purchases, and retaken her seat inside her door,--a +seat she seldom quitted, making her customers perform the weighing and +lifting when practicable,--she peeped round the door-jamb twice in vain; +and though trade was prosperous as her love, in spite of its being +enshrined so softly in fat, Mrs Keziah Slagg's heart was also sore, and +she too sighed. + +The feeling that everyone was watching him was stronger than ever upon +Septimus Hardon that morning as he made his way along the big streets +and alleys on his way towards one of the hospitals, and after letting +the matter sleep as it were for some time, he had now awakened to the +fact that he should like to prosecute his claim; though he told himself +frequently that he was too weak and wanting in decision to go on without +help--the help he could not now obtain. He knew that Mr Sterne would +willingly assist him, but his was not the required help; and he shrank +from making him his confidant, while he eagerly sought the aid of the +old printer now it was not forthcoming. + +There are some strange contradictions in the human heart; and at the +present time, had old Matt presented himself to go on with the search in +the unbusiness-like way already followed, the chances are that Septimus +Hardon would have shrunk from it, or allowed himself unwillingly to be +dragged into farther proceedings. + +But old Matt was not present; and now, with the idea troubling him that +much time had been wasted, and the matter must be at once seen to, +Septimus Hardon made his way towards the hospital; not that he was ill +in body, though troubled greatly in mind concerning the man who had been +his friend in the hardest struggle of his life. For there were strong +passions in the vacillating soul of Septimus Hardon, and he had been +greatly moved when, after another long absence, during which he had +anxiously waited for the old man, a letter had been delivered, telling +how that Matthew Space lay seriously ill in a hospital-ward. + +For the first few days after their parting, Matt's last words had +strangely haunted Septimus, and he could not rest for thinking of them; +but they grew fainter with the lapse of time; Matt came not to spur him +once more to his task, and he sank lower and lower, while Doctor Hardon +of Somesham, portly and smiling, grew great in the estimation of the +people of the little town. + +Septimus had tried more than once in his unbusiness-like, haphazard way +to find out the residence of old Matt, at such times as the thoughts of +his last words were strong upon him. "He said he was ill, and then +talked of medicine and attendance. He was wandering," said Septimus. +"I remember I had great difficulty in getting him along. Perhaps he is +dead. Well, well; so with all of us. Let it rest, for I'll take no +farther steps." + +A rash promise to make, as he felt himself when one day came the few +lines written in a strange hand, asking his attendance at the hospital. +Only a few lines in a crabbed hand, without a reference to the search; +but now the desire had risen strong in him once more, though he called +himself selfish to think of his own affairs at such a time. + +Septimus was not long in responding to the note, but he found the old +man delirious. The second time, Lucy begged to go and see her old +friend, and wept bitterly over his shrivelled hand; but the old man was +incoherent, and knew them not. + +And now for the third visit Septimus made his way to the hospital, where +he found the old man apparently sinking from the effects of some +operation. The doctor had just left, when one of the nurses, a great, +gaunt, bony woman, with a catlike smile, and a fine high colour in her +cheeks, ushered the visitor to the bedside--a bed, one of many in the +light, clean, airy ward. + +Septimus Hardon was shocked at the change which had taken place in the +old man, as he lay with his hands spread out upon the white coverlet of +the bed, pale and glassy-eyed, and rather disposed to wander in his +speech; but his face seemed to light up when he heard his visitor's +voice. + +"No; no better," he whispered. "Let's see, I told you, didn't I? Mrs +Hardon, medicine and attendance, wasn't it? To be sure it was. Yes, +medicine and shocking bad attendance here. That's it; and I can't tell +you any more. I'm falling out of the forme, sir, unless some of these +doctors precious soon tighten up the quoins." + +"No, no," said Septimus cheerily, "not so bad as that; a good heart is +half the battle." + +"Yes, yes, yes, so it is," whispered the old man feebly; "but, I say, is +she gone?" + +Septimus told him the nurse had left the room, and the old man +continued: + +"You can't keep a good heart here, sir, nohow. I wouldn't have come if +I'd known all I know now. You saw her, didn't you?" + +"The nurse?" said Septimus. + +"Yes, her," replied the old man, shuddering; "she's a wretch, with no +more feeling in her than a post. She'll do what the porters shrink +from, sir. They have to carry the--you know what I mean, sir--down to +the deadhouse; and I've known her laugh at the young one, and do it +herself in a way that makes your blood run cold. Just wink, sir, if you +see her coming. She'll be here directly with my wine or jelly: says I'm +to have some on the little board, don't it?" + +Septimus looked at the board above his head, and found that wine was +ordered. + +"Yes," said the old man, "the doctors are trumps, sir, everyone of them; +and no poor fellow out of the place could get the care and attention +I've done here. My doctor couldn't do more if I paid him ten pound a +day; and I always feel wonderful after he's gone; seems to understand my +chronics, sir, as you wouldn't believe in. But those nurses, sir--don't +tell 'em I said so, but they're devils, sir, devils. Medicine and +attendance, sir; it's all the first and none of the last." + +"Hush," said his visitor, seeing as he thought that the old man was +beginning to wander, "Mrs Hardon would have liked to see you, and Lucy; +but she could not leave her mother to-day." + +"God bless her!" said the old man fervently. "He asleep in the bed +there told me she came the other day, looking like an angel of comfort +in this dreary place, sir. God bless her! Tell her, sir, that the old +man's true as steel, sir; the old blade's notched and rusty, but he's +true as steel, sir. Do you hear? tell her that old Matt's true as +steel. But these nurses, sir," he whispered, holding by his visitor's +coat, and drawing him nearer, "they're devils, sir, regular devils!" + +"Not quite so bad as that," said Septimus, smiling. + +"Not so bad, sir? Worse, sir, worse; ever so much worse. They'd do +anything. There's no Sisters of Mercy here, sir, like they're talking +of having at some places; they're sisters of something else--she-demons, +sir, and one daren't complain or say a word. They'd kill a poor fellow +as soon as look at him, and do, too,--dozens." + +"Nonsense," said Septimus, smiling, "don't be too hard, Matt." + +"'Tain't nonsense, sir," whispered the old man eagerly. "I ain't +wandering now, though I have been sending up some queer proofs--been +touched in the head, you know, and thought I was going; but it didn't +seem to matter much if I could only have been easy in my mind, for I +wanted to be out of my misery. But I couldn't be comfortable on account +of the medicine and attendance, and your uncle. What business has he to +get himself made head doctor here, sir, just because I came; and then to +set the nurses against me to get me out of the way? He knows I'm +against him, and mean you to have your rights, and he's trying with +medicine and attendance to--no, stop, that's not it," whispered the old +man, "I've got wrong sorts in my case, and that's not what I wanted to +say." And then for a few moments it was pitiable to witness the +struggle going on against the wandering thoughts that oppressed him; but +he seemed to get the better of his weakness, and went on again. + +"There, that's better, sir; your coming has seemed to do me good, and +brightened me up. I get like that sometimes, and it seems that I've no +power over my tongue, and it says just what it likes. Tell Miss Lucy +I'm getting better, and that I want to get out of this place. I know +what I'm saying now, sir, though I can't make it quite right about that +medicine and attendance that we wanted to know about; for it bothers me, +and makes my head hot, and gets mixed up with the medicine and +attendance here. But I shall have it right one of these days; I did +nearly, once, but it got away again." + +In his anxiety now to know more, Septimus drew out paper and pencil. + +"Don't think about it now," he said; "but keep these under your pillow, +and put it down the next time you think anything." + +Old Matt smiled feebly, and drew forth his old memorandum-book, and +slowly opening it, showed the worn stumpy piece of pencil inside. + +"I'd thought of that, sir, and should have done so before, only I was +afraid that I might put down the wrong thing--something about the +nurses, you know, when they would have read it, and then, perhaps, I +shouldn't have had a chance to say any more. And 'tisn't really, sir, +it isn't nonsense about them. You think I'm wandering, and don't +believe it; and it's just the same with the doctors--they don't believe +it neither. There was one poor chap on the other side of the ward, down +at the bottom there--he told the doctor his nurse neglected him, and +drank his wine, putting in water instead, beside not giving him his +medicine regular; so the old doctor called for the nurse, and--" + +"But you must not talk any more," said Septimus kindly, "you are getting +exhausted." + +"I ain't," said the old man angrily; "it does me good, revives me; and +you don't believe me, that's what it is." + +"Yes, I do, indeed," cried Septimus. "Then let me finish," whispered +the old man. "Doctor Hardon called and asked her where she saw the +entry. There, now, there," whimpered Matt, "see what you've done: you +made me upset a stickful of matter, and got me all in a pye again. No; +all right, sir, I see, I see--he asked her about it before the patient, +speaking very sharply, for the doctors mean well, sir. And then what +did the old crocodile do, sir, but just turn her eyes towards the +whitewash, smooth her apron, raise her hands a bit, and then, half +smiling, looks at the doctor like so much pickled innocence, but never +says a word; while he, just to comfort the poor fellow, told him to keep +up, and it should all be seen to; and then there was a bit of whispering +between the doctor and the nurse, and then he went off. But I could see +who was believed, for I heard the doctor mutter something about sick +man's fancies as he came across to me. That poor chap died, sir!" + +Just then, Septimus gave the old man a meaning look, for one of the +nurses came up with a glass of wine, and smiled and curtsied to the +visitor. + +"I hope he ain't been talking, sir?" said the woman, in a harsh grating +voice with the corners a little rubbed down; "getting on charming, ain't +he, sir? only he will talk too much.--Now drink your wine up, there's a +good soul. Don't sip it, but toss it down, and it will do you twice as +much good;" and while the old man, with the assistance of his visitor, +raised himself a little, she gave his pillow two or three vengeful +punches and shakes as she snatched it off the bed, the result of her +efforts being visible in a slit across the middle, which she placed +undermost. + +"Yes," muttered Matt when the woman had gone. "Yes; toss it down, so as +not to taste it. Why, that was half water--beautiful wines and spirits +as they have here, sir. That's the very one herself, sir. She killed +him." + +"Killed who?" exclaimed Septimus, horrified. + +"Don't shout, sir; leastwise, not if you want to see me again," said +Matt grimly. "Killed that poor fellow I was telling you about. She +never forgave him, and a week afterwards and there was the screen round +his bed, and the porters came and carried him away. She killed him, +sure enough, and I ain't agoing to tell you about the bother there was +with his friends about the doctors, and what they did to him afterwards, +it might upset you. It almost does me; not that I care much, for it +don't matter when you're gone, and I've got no friends." + +"Hush, pray; it can't be so," exclaimed Septimus, shuddering. + +"No, of course not," chuckled the old man, brightening up from the +effects of his stimulant, "O, no; sick man's fancies, sir, ain't they? +Just what everyone would say; but she killed him all the same, just as +dozens more have been killed here. It don't take much to kill a poor +fellow hanging in the balance--him in one scale, and his complaint in +the other. The doctor comes and gets in the same scale with him, and +bears him down a bit right way; but then as soon as the doctor's gone, +the nurse goes and sits in the other scale, and sends him wrong way +again. Good nursing's of more consequence sometimes than the doctoring, +I can tell you, sir, and if I'd had good nursing I shouldn't have been +here at all. Ikey means well, you know, sir; and so does Mother Slagg, +eh? but you don't know them, sir, and it don't matter." + +"But had you not better be silent now?" hinted Septimus. + +"No," said the old man testily; "being so quiet, and having no one to +talk to has half-killed me as it is. I don't want to be killed, I want +to get out, sir. And, mind you, I don't say about that poor fellow that +she poisoned him, or choked him, or played at she-Othello with the +pillow, sir; but there's plenty of other ways of doing it. The doctor +knows the man's condition, and his danger, and orders him such and such +things to keep him going, and bring him round, eh?" + +Septimus nodded, for the old man paused for breath; though the wine he +had taken made him talk in a voluble and excited manner, but still with +perfect coherence. + +"Well, sir; and who's got to carry out the doctor's orders? Why, the +nurse, to be sure. Just push the pillow a little more under my head, +sir; she's made it uncomfortable. That's it; thanky, sir. Well, you +nor no one else won't believe that a nurse here would do anything wrong. +But now, look here: suppose you see that a lamp wants trimming, what do +you do? You give orders for it to be trimmed, sir, don't you?" + +Septimus nodded again. + +"Well, then," whispered the old man, hooking one of his long fingers in +a buttonhole of his visitor's coat; "suppose they don't trim the lamp; +suppose it isn't trimmed, eh? what then?" + +"It goes out!" said Septimus. + +"To be sure--exactly, sir; and there have been lots of lamps go out +here. They won't trim them, or forget to trim them, and tell themselves +they're only sparing the poor creatures misery, while no one dares to +speak about it. Talk of death, sir, they think no more of it here, sir, +than one does of snuffing out a candle. You see, decent women won't +come to a place like this to do the work these nurses do. It's only to +be done for money or love. Now it's done for money, and while it's done +for money it can only be done by hard, heartless, drinking creatures +who've got women's shapes and devils' hearts, sir. But the doctors are +all right, sir, only that they don't see all we poor patients see. If +skill and doctoring will put me right, sir, I shall be put right, sir. +But I'm scared about it sometimes, and half afraid that some of those +beauties will weight the wrong scale so heavily that the doctors won't +pull me square. Sick man's fancies, sir, eh? Wanderings, ain't they?" + +Septimus Hardon knew not what to say, but whispered such comfort as he +could. + +"Something ought to be done, you know," said the old man feebly; "but +don't hint a word of what I've said, sir, to a soul--please don't," he +said pitifully. "You see that all these goings on prey upon a poor +fellow's mind; and if he isn't low-spirited lying in a hospital-ward, +when is he likely to be? One wants sympathy and comfort, sir, and to +feel that there's someone belonging to you who cares for you, and is +ready to smooth your pillow, and lay a cold hand upon your hot forehead, +and say `God bless you!' and I've no one, no one;" and the old man's +voice grew weak and quavering. + +"Come, come," whispered Septimus, "take heart, Matt; we'll come as often +as they will let us. And you are getting better; see how you have +chatted. You are only low now from the reaction. Try and rest a bit, +and get rid of some of these fancies." + +Old Matt's eyes turned angrily upon his visitor as he exclaimed, "I tell +you they are not fancies, sir, but truth. I wouldn't have come if I'd +known, for I've seen men drink, and women drink; but never anyone like +these she-wolves. Would you trust anyone you loved to the care of a +woman who drank, sir?" + +"No!" + +"They say they must have support, and I suppose they must; but it's +hard, hard, hard!" groaned the old man, and he shut his eyes, seeking +out the hand of his visitor, and holding it tightly, until, by the rules +of the place, he was obliged to leave. + +Volume Two, Chapter XIII. + +MR JARKER IS "A BIT ODD." + +There had been no occasion for Mr William Jarker to carry out the +threat he had once made, for in all the long space of time during which +Agnes Hardon's child was in Mrs Jarker's care, the money was always +paid, faithfully and regularly, once a week, but at how great a cost to +its mother none but the Seer of all hearts could tell; and always, in +spite of sickness and misery, pain, and the hard bondage of her life, +Jarker's wife was tender and loving to the little one within her charge. +Perhaps it was the memory of another pair of bright eyes that had once +gazed up into her own, perhaps only the loving promptings of her woman's +heart; but when, by stealth almost, Agnes Hardon came to kiss her child, +she left tearfully but rejoicing, for there was proof always before her +of the gentle usage in the fond way in which the little thing clung to +its nurse. The preference may have wrung her heart, but it was but +another sorrow to bear, and, bending beneath her weight of care, she +came and went at such times as seemed best for avoiding Jarker, the +curate, and Septimus Hardon. + +It was in her power to have let Lucy know where old Matt lodged; but of +late they had met but little, and then, in their hurried interviews, his +name was not mentioned, for the sorrows of the present filled their +hearts. + +But now Agnes Hardon was in greater trouble, for something whispered her +that this sickness of poor Mrs Jarker was a sickness unto death, and +her soul clave to the suffering, ill-used woman who had filled the place +of mother to her child; while, at the same time, she trembled for the +future of her little one after each visit--ever feeling the necessity, +but ever dreading, to take it away, for truly there was a change coming; +and time after time when she left the garret, it was with a shudder, for +there seemed to be a shadow in the room. + +It was almost impossible to ascend the creaking stairs to the garret +tenanted by Mr Jarker without hearing Mrs Sims, who, through some +spiritual weakness, had left the house in the square to return once more +to the Rents--a court honoured by most of those unfortunates who, from +unforeseen circumstances, fell from the heights of the square; while the +latter was always looked up to, in its topmost or basement floors, for +promotion by the more fortunate tenants of the Rents; and now an +ascending visitor was almost certain to hear the melancholy, sniffing +woman blowing her fire. Generally speaking, we see bellows hang by the +mantelpiece, with a time-honoured, bees'-waxy polish glossing them, as +though they were family relics whose services were seldom called into +requisition; but _chez_ Mrs Sims, the bellows had rather a bad time of +it, and were worked hardly enough to make them short-winded. They +already wheezed so loudly that it was impossible to take Mrs Sims' +bellows for anybody else's bellows; and this was probably due to their +having inhaled a sufficiency of ashy dust to make them asthmatic, while +the nozzle was decayed and burned away from constant resting upon the +specially-cleared bottom-bar; the left half of the broken tongs doing +duty for the vanished poker, borrowed once to clear the grating in the +court, and never returned, for the simple reason that it found its way +to Mrs Slagg's marine-store shop, where it stayed in consideration of +the porter receiving the best price given, namely, twopence. + +Your boots might creak, and, as was their wont, the stairs would crack +and groan, but still there was the sound of the bellows to be heard as +you ascended the staircase--puff, puff, puff; and the stooping woman's +stays crackled and crumpled at every motion, for Mrs Sims, from always +requiring support, external as well as internal, sought the external in +whalebone, though for the internal she preferred rum. There was always +"suthin' as wanted a bit of fire:" perhaps it was washing-day, which, +from the small size of Bennett's-rents' wardrobes, happened irregularly, +with Mrs Sims three times a week, when the big tin saucepan used for +boiling divers articles of wearing-apparel, in company with a packet of +washing-powder, would be placed upon the little damaged grate, upon +which it would sit like Incubus, putting the poor weak fire quite out of +heart, when it had to be coaxed accordingly. Sometimes the bellows were +required to hurry the "kittle," a battered old copper vessel that never +boiled if it could help it, and, when compelled by the said hurrying, +only did so after passing through a regular course of defiant snorts, +even going so far as to play the deceiver, and sputter over into the +fire, pretending to be on the boil when many degrees off, and so +spoiling Mrs Sims' tea--never the strongest to be obtained. Sometimes, +again, the bellows were required to get a decent fire to cook a bit of +steak for the master's dinner, or even "to bile the taters." At all +events, of all Mrs Sims' weaknesses, the principal lay in her bellows, +and she could generally find an excuse for a good blow, accompanied +sometimes by a cry over the wind-exhalers, as she sniffed loudly at her +task. + +There is no doubt but that in her natural good-heartedness Mrs Sims +would have operated quite as cheerfully upon any neighbour's fire as she +did now upon the handful of cinders in Mrs Jarker's grate; for, in +spite of her sniffs, her weakness for the internal and external support, +and her whining voice, Mrs Sims was one of those women who are a glory +to their sex. Only a very humble private was she in the noble army, but +one ever ready for the fight: fever, cholera, black death, or death of +any shade, were all one to Mrs Sims, who only seemed happy when she was +in trouble. If it was a neighbour who could pay her, so much the +better; if it was a neighbour who could not, it mattered little; send +for Mrs Sims, and Mrs Sims came, ready to nurse, comfort, sit up, or +do anything to aid the needy; and old Matt had been heard more than once +to wish she had been a widow. + +Poor Mrs Jarker would have suffered badly but for this woman's +kindness; many a little neighbourly act had been done by Lucy, but Mrs +Jarker's need was sore, and beyond minding the child for her +occasionally, Lucy's powers of doing good were circumscribed. And now, +one night, sat Mrs Sims, sniffing, and forcing a glow from the few +embers in the Jarker grate as she made the sick woman a little gruel. + +Mr William Jarker ascended the stairs after having had "a drop" at the +corner--that is to say, two pints of porter with a quartern of gin in +each; and upon hearing the noise of the bellows he uttered what he would +have denominated "a cuss," since he bore no love for Mrs Sims, and her +sniff annoyed him; but when, upon ascending higher, he found that the +sound did not proceed, as he expected, from the second-floor, but from +his own room, he began to growl so audibly that the women heard him +coming like a small storm, and trembled, since Mr Jarker was a great +stickler for the privacy of his own dwelling, which he seemed to look +upon as a larger sort of cage in which he kept his wife. + +But although forbidden to enter the room, Mrs Sims glanced at the +pallid sufferer lying in the bed, with the feeble light of a rush candle +playing upon her features; and muttering to herself, "Not if he kills +me," resolved not to abdicate; and then, after a few final triumphant +puffs, dropping at the same time a tear upon the top of the bellows--a +tear of weakness and sympathy--she laid down the wind instrument upon +which she had been playing, and thrust an iron spoon into the gruel upon +the fire, stirring it round so energetically that a small portion was +jerked out of the saucepan upon the glowing cinders, and hissed +viciously, forming a fitting finale to Mr Jarker's feline swearing. + +But the gruel did not hiss and sputter as angrily, nor did the erst +glowing cinders look so black, as did Mr William Jarker when he found +"the missus still abed," and Mrs Sims in possession. + +"I have said as I won't have it," growled Mr Jarker; "and I says agen +as I won't have it. So let people wait till I arsts 'em afore they +takes liberties with my place. So now p'r'aps you'll make yourself +scarce, Missus Sims;" and then the birdcatcher crossed over to, and +began muttering something to, his wife. + +But Mrs Sims was nothing daunted; she was in the right, and she knew +it, and though her hands trembled, and more of the gruel fell hissing +into the fire, as the tears of weakness fell fast, she stood her ground +firmly. + +"When I've done my dooty by her, as other people, whom I won't bemean +myself to name, oughter have done, Mister Jarker, I shall go, and not +before," said Mrs Sims. "It's not me as could sit down-stairs and know +as that pore creetur there was dying for want of a drop of gruel, and me +not come and make it, which didn't cost you a farden, so now then!" +Here Mrs Sims bridled a great deal and sniffed very loudly; a couple of +tears falling into the fender "pit-pat." + +"Don't jaw," said Bill gruffly, making a kind of feint with his hand as +he stooped down to light his short black pipe by thrusting the bowl +between the bars. + +Mrs Sims flinched as if to avoid a blow, to the great delight of Mr +Jarker; but exasperated him directly after by sniffing loudly, over and +over again, producing, by way of accompaniment to each sniff, a low and +savage growl and an oath. + +"Well, I'm sure," exclaimed Mrs Sims, "how polite we're a-growing!" +But catching sight of the smouldering fire in the ruffian's eye, she +hastily poured out the gruel, repenting all the while, for the poor +woman's sake, that she had spoken; but upon taking the hot preparation +with some toast to the invalid she found her kindness unavailing, for +though Mrs Jarker sat up for a minute and tried to take it, she sank +back with a faint sigh, and with an imploring look, she whispered her +neighbour to please go. + +"Not till I've seen you eat this, my pore dear soul," said Mrs Sims +boldly, though, poor woman, she was all in a tremble, and kept glancing +over her shoulder at Jarker, who, with his back to the fire and his +hands in his pockets, glowered and scowled at the scene before him. +Mrs Sims passed her arm round the thin, wasted form, and supported the +invalid; but, after vainly trying to swallow a few spoonfuls, the poor +woman again sank back upon her pillow, sighing wearily, while the sharp, +pecking sound made by one of the caged birds against its perch, sounded +strangely like the falling of a few scraps of soil upon a coffin--"Ashes +to ashes--dust to dust." And then, for some minutes, there was silence +in the room, till Mrs Jarker turned whisperingly to her friendly +neighbour, to beg that she would go now and not rouse Bill, who was a +bit odd sometimes. + +So, saucepan in hand, Mrs Sims wished the invalid "Good-night;" and +then, trembling visibly, sidled towards the door, evidently fearing to +turn her back to Mr Jarker, who was still growling and muttering, as if +a storm were brewing and ready to burst; but Mrs Sims' agitation caused +her first to drop her iron spoon from the saucepan, and then, as she +stooped to recover it, to flinch once more, to the ruffian's great +delight, as he made another pugilistic feint--a gymnastic feat that he +had learnt through visiting some marsh or another when a fight was to +come off between Fibbing Phil and Chancery Joe--a feat that consisted of +a violent effort to throw away the right fist, and a quick attempt at +catching it with the left hand. But Mrs Sims managed to get herself +safely outside the door, and lost no time in hurrying down, the stairs, +breathing more freely with every step placed between her and the +ruffian; but she shrieked loudly on reaching the first landing, and +dropped both saucepan and spoon, for the door was savagely thrown open, +and the bellows came clattering after her down the stairs; and all in +consequence of Mr Jarker being a bit odd. + +"A bit odd!"--in one of those fits which had often prompted him to +strike down his weak, suffering, patient wife with dastardly, cruel +hand, and then to kick her with his heavy boots, or drag at her hair +until her head was bleeding--oddness which made the tiny child in the +room shrink from him; while before now it had been traced on the poor +woman's features in blackened and swollen bruises. But shrieks, and the +falling of heavy blows, were common sounds in Bennett's-rents, and +people took but little notice of Mr Jarker's odd fits. + +Bill took no heed to the weary, strangling cough which shook his wife's +feeble frame, but smoked on furiously till the fire went out. She would +not get up to put on more coals, and he wasn't agoing to muck his hands; +for, as has been before hinted, Mr Jarker had soft, whitish hands, +which looked as though they had never done a hard day's work; and at +last, when the place looked more cheerless and dull than usual, he +prepared himself for rest. + +"You're allus ill," growled the ruffian, who had had just drink enough +to make him savage; "and it's my belief as you wants rousing up." But +there came no answer to his remark. The little one slept soundly upon +the two chairs which formed its bed, and, with half-closed eyes, the +woman lay, breathing very faintly, as her lips moved, forming words she +had heard from Mr Sterne. + +Bill felt himself to be ill-used, and was very sulky, a feeling which +made him kick his boots to the end of the room, where one knocked over a +linnet's cage, when, still growling, the owner had to go and pick it up, +which he did at the expense of his dignity, and there and then shook the +cage till the unoffending bird rustled and fluttered about, panting and +terror-stricken, to be half-drowned by the water he poured into its +little glass the next minute. For, what business had his wife to be ill +and allus having parsons and Mrs Simses a-pottering about in his place? +Hadn't he made a row about it when she came when the kid was born, and +hadn't she allus come at uncomfortable times since? Didn't she come +when it died, and weren't things uncomfortable now, and she a-making +them worse? He wouldn't have it--that he wouldn't; and, growling and +swearing in a low tone, Mr Jarker divested himself of a part of his +attire, and threw himself upon the bed. + +The rushlight danced and flickered, and a few drops of rain pattered +against the window as the night breeze sighed mournfully down the court; +first one and then another bird scraped at its perch, roused as it had +been by the noise and light, so that it sounded again and again like the +earth upon the coffin-lid; some loose woodwork amongst the pigeon-traps +upon the roof swung in the wind, and beat against the tiles, and then +all was very quiet and still in the wretched attic. + +"Bill--Bill, dear," murmured a voice after a while--a strange +harsh-sounding voice, as if it came from a parched and fevered throat; +"Bill!" + +No answer, only the heavy breathing of the ruffian, and the pattering as +of earth upon the coffin-lid. + +"Bill--Bill, dear--water!" whispered the voice once more; but there was +no answer, only the restless pattering noise of the birds. Then again +silence so still and profound that it seemed hardly to be London. But +the silence was broken by a little liquid trilling laugh, the laugh of +the child, as some bright-hued happy dream passed over its imagination; +though there was silence again the next moment, to be broken once more +by the strange husky voice, a voice that seemed new to the place, as in +almost agonising tones it whispered: + +"Kiss me, Bill!" + +But there was for response only the sound as of the earth pattering upon +the coffin-lid more fitfully and hollow. While now, slowly and timidly, +a thin white arm was raised, and, seen there in the dim light, it was as +though it was waved threateningly above the drunken ruffian's head; but +no--there was no threat in the act--no calling down of judgment from on +high; for the arm was passed lovingly, tenderly, round the coarse bull +neck, and still there was no response to the appeal. + +"Kiss me, Bill!" was once more whispered; but a long, deep-drawn, +stertorous breath told that William Jarker slept heavily, as the arm lay +motionless, clasping his neck; and then came a sigh, as piteous and +heart-rending as ever rose from suffering breast. + +On sped the hours; the rushlight burned down into the socket, flickered +once, and expired; the distant sounds of traffic floated by once or +twice; the customary heavy tramp of the policeman was heard to pass +along the court; and now and then the ruffian breathed more stertorously +than usual, or ejaculated some unconnected words in his sleep. Then the +child started and whimpered for a few minutes, but sank to sleep again; +and still through the night came that restless, pattering noise, that +hollow rattle as of dry earth--"ashes to ashes, dust to dust"--the sound +as of dry earth falling upon a coffin-lid. + +The stars paled as they set; the morning came, and the red-eyed +lamplighter hurried from post to post, extinguishing the sickly-looking +gas-jets; the noises in the streets grew louder and louder, and many a +weary client lodging near woke to wonder whether his case would come on +that day. The men in Bennett's-rents who had work slowly tramped to it, +many who were without rose to seek it, while others, again, to use their +own words, took it out in sleep, and amongst these was Mr William +Jarker. + +"Mammy, mammy!" at length rang in pitiful tones upon the ruffian's ear, +and as he woke to the sensations of a hot, aching, fevered head and +furred tongue, he tried to clear his misty, spirit-clouded faculties. + +"Mammy, mammy!" again cried the child, who had climbed upon the bed, and +was shaking her foster-mother; "mammy, mammy!" she cried more pitifully, +and then burst into a loud wail at her inability to wake her. + +"Yah-h-h-h!" roared Bill without moving; when, at the dreaded sound, the +little thing ceased its cry, and, cowering beside the sleeping woman, +laid a sunny head upon her cheek, and passed two tiny, plump arms round +her neck, in a soft, sweet embrace that has power in its innocent love +to warm even the coldest, though futile here. + +"Blame it, how cold!" growled Mr Jarker, trying to raise the arm that +had lain upon his neck the long night through; but it was stiff and +heavy; and, shrinking hastily away, the frightened man sat up, gazed for +an instant at the face beside him, and then leaping, with a howl of +terror, from the bed, rushed half-clad from the room. + +And why did he flee? Was it that there was still the sound as of +falling earth rattling upon a coffin-lid? For what was there to fear in +the pale face of that sleeping woman, with the earthly pains and +sorrow-traces faded away, to leave the countenance calm, softened, and +almost beautiful; for there had come back something of the old, old look +of maidenhood and happier times, when she had looked with admiration +upon the stalwart form of the ruffian she had wed, and believed in him, +wedding him to become his willing slave? Hers had been a hard life; +born in misery and suffering, growing under sorrow and poverty and vice; +yet had she been a woman with a woman's heart. But now she slept, to +wake, we hope, where justice is tempered by mercy, and the secrets and +sorrows of every heart are known. But now she slept, and her sleep must +have been peaceful--happy--for the lines of sorrow had passed away, and +there was a smile upon her lip. + +Nothing to fear. Guilt fled, but Innocence stayed, and the soft, silky +curls of the child were mingled with the thin dark locks of the woman, +as a tiny smooth round cheek rested upon the marble temple, and a little +hand played in the cold breast that should never warm it more. + +Nothing to fear; though the simple people who soon assembled in the room +spoke in whispers, passing in and out on tiptoe, many with their aprons +to their eyes; while poor Mrs Sims, when she returned to her own room +with the child, quieted it by means of a large slice of sugared +bread-and-butter, and relieved her own mind by sitting down to have a +good long, soft blow at the fire, what time the tears pattered down +plenteously on the bellows. + +Nothing to fear; for calm and still was the face of the sleeping woman, +who with her latest breath had rendered the love she had sworn to her +husband, and now in peace she rested; but still through the long day, +through the long night, and when the hard, harsh shape of the coffin +stood in the room, there came at intervals the sharp, hollow, rattling +noise, as of earth falling upon its lid, when the listeners' ears would +strain to catch those awful accompanying words--"Ashes to ashes, dust to +dust!" + +Volume Two, Chapter XIV. + +SICK MAN'S FANCIES. + +There was a strange battle in the breast of the Reverend Arthur Sterne +about this time. Now he would feel satisfied in his own mind that he +had obtained the victory over self, while directly after, an encounter +with Lucy, or some little incident that occurred during one of his +visits, would teach him his weakness. Pained, and yet pleased, he left +Septimus Hardon's rooms on the day after Mrs Jarker's death, for he had +been gazing upon a picture that an artist would have been delighted to +copy: Lucy Grey weeping over the sunny-haired child she had just fetched +from Mrs Sims' room. He was pained, for the scene had brought up the +thoughts of its mother, and her strange intimacy with Lucy, though the +gentle, loving interest shown for the helpless, worse than orphan child, +made his heart swell and beat faster as he thought of the mine of +wealth, the tenderness the fair girl could bestow were she all he could +have wished. + +But the pain and sorrow predominated as he left the house and slowly +descended, for he encountered _ma mere_ upon the staircase, and he felt +the colour mount to his temples as he met her sardonic smile and thought +of her words; and then he hurried away, feeling at times that he must +leave the place and seek another home, for his present life was wearying +in the extreme. He would have done so before but for one powerful +thought, one which he could feel would maintain its sway, so that he +would be drawn back and his efforts rendered useless--efforts that he +made to break the chain that fettered him. For her part, Lucy avoided +him, meeting him but seldom, and then with flushed cheek and averted +eye; while though in any other instance he would have declared instantly +that flush to have been that of shame or modesty, yet here, tortured by +doubt, he could not satisfy himself, for at such times as he tried to be +content came the memory of the scene in the Lane, and the words of the +old Frenchwoman. + +Lucy had fetched the child from across the court, but it was only +admitted by Mrs Septimus under sufferance, for she was in one of her +weak fits that day, and if it had not been that Septimus encouraged the +act, the little thing would have remained in Mrs Sims' charge. + +"Keep her, at all events, till I come back," Septimus had said, and his +evident desire to go out had somewhat shortened the curate's visit, for +the desire was strong now upon Septimus to gain fresh information +touching the legitimacy of his birth. The more now that obstacles +sprung up, the more he felt disposed to assert his right; but he +acknowledged to himself that it was but a passing fit, and that he would +soon return to his old weakness and despondency. Still there was a warm +feeling of friendship for Matt to prompt him to revisit the hospital at +an early day, and, soon after the curate had left Bennett's-rents, +Septimus was on his way to the sick-bed of the old man. + +He thought a great deal of old Matt's assertion that he had seen an +entry somewhere; but the more he thought, the more it seemed that this +was merely a hallucination produced by his illness, for he could not but +recall how he had confused it with matters of the past and present. + +The old man slept when Septimus reached his bedside, and some time +elapsed before he unclosed his dim eyes, and then they gazed blankly +into his visitor's before he recognised him, when a light seemed to +spread across his features, and he smiled faintly. + +"Come again? That's right. I wanted to ask you something, sir," he +said. + +"Indeed!" said Septimus eagerly, for he felt that it had to do with the +matter in which he was interested. + +"Why," said the old man, hesitating, "it was about the nurses, and your +father, and--do you think that they had anything to do with the rats?" + +Shuddering, and with the cold sweat breaking out upon his face at the +bare recollection, Septimus laid a hand upon the old man's breast, and +gazed wonderingly at him. + +"Hush," said Matt in a whisper, "don't speak loud, sir. I've been +trying to put it all into shape. I think they had; and it's that woman +who drinks my wine that knows all about it. They're keeping you out of +your rights, sir, and they're all in the plot. Stoop down, please, a +little closer; I want to whisper," and he drew his visitor nearer to +him, so that his lips nearly touched his ear. "Medicine and attendance, +sir, eh? That was it, wasn't it?" + +Septimus felt his heart sink with disappointment, as he slowly nodded +his head. + +"I've found it out, sir," continued the old man; "found it out for you +after travelling all over London. They think I've been here all the +time; but, bless you, I've been out every night, and had it over with +the posts in the street. They don't know it, bless you; but I've been +tracking that entry, and, after the doctor has dodged me all over +London, I've followed him here. It's not Doctor Hardon, sir, and yet it +is, you know; but I've not quite separated them, for they're somehow +mixed up together, and I've not had time to put that quite right; but +I'll do it yet. Interest for that shilling you once gave me, sir, just +at the time I was that low that I'd nearly made up my mind to go off one +of the bridges, and make a finish. But just see if either of the nurses +is coming, sir, and tell me, for they're all in it, and they'll keep you +and Miss Lucy out of your rights. Tell her I'm true as steel, sir, will +you?" + +"Yes, yes," said Septimus anxiously, for the old man seemed to be +growing excited. + +"But about that doctor, sir, and the entry," he continued, "it's here, +sir; it's the house-surgeon, and I saw him make a memorandum here by my +bedside: `Medicine and attendance: Mrs Hardon.' He put it down in his +pocket-book, after sharpening his pencil upon a bright shining lancet; +and he did not know that I was watching him. Take him by the throat, +sir, as soon as you see him, and make him give it to you." + +"Try and compose yourself, Matt," said Septimus sadly, for he now felt +that the whole history of the entry was but the offspring of a diseased +mind. For a while he had suffered himself to hope that by some strange +interposition of chance, with the old man for instrument, the whole +matter was likely to be cleared up; but now the air-built castles were +broken down--swept away by the sick man's incoherent speeches, and, +after seeing him turn upon his side and close his eyes, the visitor rose +to leave. + +But old Matt heard the movement of his chair, and unclosed his eyes +directly. + +"You'll come again, sir, won't you?" he said, speaking quite calmly. +"That always seems to make me clearer--shutting my eyes and having five +minutes' doze. I'm weak, sir--very weak now; but I'm getting right, and +I'll turn that over in my mind about the entry against you come again, +when I can talk better, and try to set it right. But stop; let me see," +he exclaimed,--"stop, I have it. I remember now, I did think all about +it, and where it was I saw the entry; and for fear it should slip my +mind again, I did as you told me, and as I always meant to do--put it +down in my pocket-book under the pillow here;" and he drew forth the +tattered memorandum-book, and held it out to his visitor. + +Septimus turned over the leaves with trembling hands, coming upon +technical references to trade matters,--amounts in money of work done; +calculations of quantity in pages of type. Then there were the +baptismal and marriage entries they had made out, and beneath them some +tremblingly--traced characters, evidently formed by the old man when in +a reclining position; but, with the exception of the one word "Hardon," +they were completely illegible. He then turned to the old man; but his +eyes were closed, and he seemed sleeping; so he replaced book and pencil +beneath the pillow, and then, passing between the beds of other +sufferers, each intent upon his own misery, he came suddenly upon the +smiling nurse, evidently waiting to see if there was a gratuity ready +for her hand. + +It was hard work parting with that shilling; but Septimus felt it to be +a duty to slip it into the Jezebel's hand, and to whisper a few +beseeching words that she would be kind and attentive to the old man. + +"A quiet, patient old creature; you may rest quite happy about that, +sir," said the nurse. "I'll treat him just as I would my own brother." + +"He will get better?" said Septimus interrogatively. + +The woman screwed her lips up very tightly as she said she hoped he +might, but Septimus thought of the expiring lamp and its supply of oil; +and it was little of his own affairs, and the possibility of there being +an entry locked in the old man's clouded memory, that he thought of as +he stammered, "Pray do all you can for him. I am sorry I can offer you +no more." + +"Bless you, sir, you needn't even have done that. If it had been a +guinea, it would have been all the same, and I shouldn't have thought a +bit the better of you. We have a painful duty to perform here, sir, and +it's an unthankful task, for there's no gratitude from the patients; but +when a friend or relative makes one a little offering, why, setting +aside the value, sir, it does seem to make things better, and to sweeten +the toil. We never do expect any praise; while as to some of the tales +the patients make up, you'd be surprised. Poor things! you see, their +minds wander a bit, and they always seem to take a dislike to those who +are like mothers to them. But there, sir, I always says to myself, I +says, it's no use to take any notice of the poor things' whims, so long +as we know we do our duty by them." + +"I suppose," said Septimus, "their complaints weaken their intellects a +good deal?" + +"Wonderfully, I do assure you, sir. Now I shouldn't be a bit surprised +if that poor gentleman, your friend, has been telling you all sorts of +things?" + +Septimus did not believe all that Matt had said, but he evaded the +question. + +"You'd be surprised, sir, if you only knew one-half the tales they make +up, sir. There, I can't help it, sir; I laugh, I do, when I think of +them; for we must be able to eat and drink like bore-constructors, sir, +to manage a quarter of what they says. They say we eat their chicking +and jelly, and drink their wine, and gin, and fancy things the doctors +order for them. Some even goes further than that; but then the doctors +know what people are in such a state, and don't take any notice of +them." + +"`Mrs Hardon; medicine and attendance.' I wonder whether it's true, or +only a sick man's fancy?" muttered Septimus aloud, as he went down the +steps, and stood once more in the open air, feeling as though a weight +had been raised from his spirits. "Poor creatures, poor creatures! left +to the tender mercies of those women, and often neglected and left to +die." + +"No, no, no! pray don't say so," sobbed a voice at his elbow. "It's bad +enough, I know; but not so bad as that, please!" And then a burst of +sobs choked the speaker's utterance. + +Septimus started, for the voice seemed familiar, and he saw beside him a +tall, well-dressed female, with a thick wool-veil drawn down over her +face, so that he could not distinguish her features. + +"I knew you again, Mr--Mr--Mr--you did tell me your name, but I've +forgotten it; and I asked him, and he said--but dear, dear," she sobbed, +"can you see that I have been crying? And have you been in that +dreadful place?" + +"Yes," replied Septimus; "but I really do not know to whom I am +talking." + +"O dear, O dear!" sobbed the woman, "it's me; you know me, that you +called on in Chiswell-street; and I can't take up my fall, for my poor +eyes are so red with crying, and people would see. Registry--office for +servants, you know; and O dear, O dear!" and she sobbed more loudly than +ever. + +"Indeed, I beg your pardon," said Septimus kindly; "but I could not know +you through that thick veil." + +"Then you could not see that I had been crying?" sobbed the poor woman. + +"No, indeed," replied Septimus, "and--" + +"Don't speak to me yet," ejaculated Miss Tollicks; "I'm almost +heart-broken, and you set me off saying those cruel words. I'd give +anything for a place where I could sit down and have a good cry, if it +was only a doorstep, where people could not see me. I'm nearly blind +now, and can't tell which way to go. It's ever so much worse than any +trouble I ever had with my business." + +"Take my arm," said Septimus gently, after an apologetic glance at his +shabby clothes. "Lean upon me, and we'll walk slowly down this street. +It is quieter here, and you will feel relieved soon." + +"O, thank you, thank you," exclaimed Miss Tollicks, taking the proffered +arm, and still sobbing loudly; "but you are sure that people cannot see +I have been crying?" + +"Certain," said Septimus as they walked on. + +"And so you think," said Miss Tollicks, "that they are neglected and +die, do you, Mr Hardon? and I'm afraid the poor things are. I've just +been to see my poor sister that the doctor recommended to go in, and +she's been telling me such dreadful tales about the nurses; and I can't +tell whether it's the truth, or whether the poor thing is only +light-headed. It was horrible to listen to her, that it was; and you've +been to see some one too, Mr Harding?" + +"Yes," replied Septimus, "the poor old gentleman who was with me when I +called upon you." + +"Dear, dear, dear, what a sorrowful world this is!" sobbed Miss +Tollicks; "nothing but trouble, always trouble; and how is he, poor +man?" + +"Not long for this world, I fear," said Septimus softly. + +"And did he say anything about the nurses too?" sobbed Miss Tollicks. + +"Yes, yes," said Septimus hastily; "but it can't be true. No woman +could be such a wretch." + +"O, I don't know, Mr Harding; but is my veil quite down? there--thank +you. We're strange creatures, and we are either very good or else very +bad--especially servants, Mr Harding," sobbed Miss Tollicks. "I'm +afraid that it's all true enough, and if they'd only let me stop and +nurse my poor sister, I wouldn't care. The business might go and take +its chance, for what's the good of money without life? But O, Mr +Harding, I did ask my landlord, and he said--and he said--but O! you +must not ask me now." And here the poor woman burst out sobbing, quite +hysterically, so that more than one person turned round to gaze upon +her; but her troubles attracted little notice, for this was no uncommon +scene in the long dreary street: the inhabitants were too much +accustomed to the sight of weeping friends coming from the great +building, where, but a few minutes before, they had been taking, +perhaps, a last farewell of a dear one whom they would see no more--a +dear one whose face was perhaps already sealed by the angel of death; a +sad parting, maybe, from one whose hopeless malady had rendered it +necessary for the interior of the hospital to afford the attentions that +took the place of those that would have been supplied at home. Poverty +and sickness, twin sisters that so often go hand-in-hand, brought here +their victims to ask for aid; and those who dwelt hard by paid little +heed to pallid out-patients seeking their daily portion of advice, some +on crutches, some leaning upon the arms of friends, some in cabs. They +were used to painful scenes, and knew by sight patient, student, and +doctor; and therefore hardly bestowed a thought upon the sad couple +passing slowly down the street, at the end of which Septimus saw poor +weeping Miss Tollicks into a cab, and left her unquestioned to pace +slowly back towards Bennett's-rents. + +He walked on and thought--thought of all his troubles, and the want of +decision in his character; of how he ought boldly to have investigated +his uncle's claim, setting aside his own feelings for the sake of those +dependent upon his arm for their support; and he sighed again and again +as he took himself to task. And then a prayer rose to his lips as he +recalled the scene which he had left--a prayer fervently breathed there +in the midst of London's busy flowing stream, as fervent as ever +emanated from devotee kneeling in some solemn fane--a prayer that, for +the sake of those at home, he might be spared from the smiting of +sickness; and then he shuddered as he remembered his father's words, and +thought of his wife's increasing helplessness. + +"Stark mad! Yes, I must have been," he muttered; "and yet no, why was I +to crush down my unselfish love?" And then he stopped short to examine +himself as to whether his love had really been unselfish. But he passed +on again unsatisfied, lost in abstracting thoughts, heedless of being +jostled here, pushed there, a walking ensample in his short walk of what +he was in his longer journey of life, a man whom everyone would expect +to give place, while he full readily made way. Now he was shouted at by +a cabman as he crossed the road, then dragged back by a crossing-sweeper +as he was about to step in front of an omnibus. But he looked elate, +and thoughts of a brighter future rose before his mind as something +seemed to whisper that all would yet be well; and as brighter thoughts +came lighting in upon his heart's dark places, he saw old Matt well, and +finding the entry that should restore him to ease and comfort; his wife +and Lucy happy and smiling upon him; and then his head was lifted, his +form grew more erect, his nerves and muscles became terse, and, swinging +his arms, he strode forward till, turning down a side-street, he set off +and ran--ran hard to the bottom, in the lightness of spirit that had +come over him. He had no object in view, no reason for hastening, and +the act seemed one of folly in a man of his years; but he felt the +desire come upon him, and he ran, inflating his chest with the free air; +and perhaps there have been times when, moved by similar impulses, men +of the present day have felt, if they have not acted, the same as +Septimus Hardon. + +On again once more, this time to come in contact with a baker, whom he +swung round basket and all, and when sworn at he apologised so +cheerfully, and with such an aspect of genuine contrition, that the +baker closed his voluble harangue with "Well, don't do it again, that's +all." And perhaps, after all, the acts of Septimus Hardon were not of +so very insane a character. True, they seemed strange for a man who had +just come from a bed of sickness, and whose own affairs were in a most +unsatisfactory state; but may there not have been something reactive +after the oppression of much sorrow, the elasticity of life asserting +itself? Be it what it may, certain it is that Septimus Hardon, aged +fifty, acted as has been described, though it seemed strange conduct in +a man who had suffered as he had. + +Breathed again, he once more ran on, full of resolutions for the future, +touching the vigorous prosecution of his claim, smiling, too, as he made +the vows in doubt as to their fulfilment, for he knew his weakness; but +he ran on, feeling more light-hearted than he had felt for years, till +suddenly he stopped and proceeded at a more moderate pace; for he +trembled for his shoes, in whose durability he had not much faith, +trusting their strength but little, for, placing the standard of +boot-strength at twenty-six shillings, he remembered that he stood at +three shillings and ninepence, plus his old ones, and he trembled. + +Near home at last, where he arrived just in time to encounter _ma mere_ +the sinister, with her poodles, starting to give select entertainments +through the evening in the far West; and, as he turned into the court, +his light-heartedness passed away, the many hopeful thoughts vanished, +and he sighed, for truly it was being under a cloud literally, as well +as figuratively, to enter the precincts of Bennett's-rents. + +Volume Two, Chapter XV. + +THE COMMON LOT AGAIN. + +All the renters appertaining to Bennett's were either out in the court, +or at door and window, on the day that Mrs Jarker was buried; while +Lucy gladdened the heart of Jean Marais by taking charge of the little +golden-haired child and carrying it up to his room to see the birds and +dogs. Women stood in knots talking, with their arms rolled in their +aprons, and a strong smell of rum, of the kind known as "pine-apple," +and vended at the corner, pervaded these little assemblies. The sports +of the children were interrupted, and slapping was greatly in vogue in +consequence of mothers never having known their offspring to have been +so tiresome before. Hopscotch was banished from the court, tops and +buttons confiscated, and there was not a boy or girl present who, in the +face of so much tyranny, would not have emigrated to some more +freedom-giving district, but for the fact that there was a "berryin;" +and the shabby Shillibeer hearse, and its doleful horse and red-nosed +driver, already stood at the end of the court, where the public-house +doors were so carefully strapped-back for the convenience of customers. + +The time at which the funeral would take place was already well-known, +but for hours past the court had been in a state of excitement which +prevented domestic concerns from receiving due attention. It was an +observable fact that quite a large trade was done at the chandler's shop +in halfpenny bundles of wood, consequent upon fires being neglected, and +doing what fires will do, going out. Babies screamed until they were +hoarse, and then fell asleep to wake up and scream again. There were no +bones broken, on account of the elasticity of the juvenile framework; +but several children in the quadrupedal stage of development were known +to have fallen down flights of stairs during their maternal search; +while another diversion had been caused by a morsel forcing its foot +through the grating over the drain, and refusing to be extricated. It +was also observable that there were very few men about, and those +visible confined themselves to the cellar-flap of one of the +public-houses, only looking down the court at intervals. + +At last there was an increased interest, for Mr Pawley and one of his +men had entered the house, women parting left and right to let them +through. Then there was a buzz of excitement, for Mr Jarker had been +seen to enter the public and come out, to stand wiping his mouth with +the back of his hand, apparently undecided as to which way he should go; +but at length, pale and scared-looking, walking up the court and +following the undertaker. + +And now the Jarkers were thoroughly canvassed, and many allusions made +concerning Bill's treatment of his poor wife. Worn, dejected, hard-- +featured women, whose lives had been as hard a bondage as that of the +one passed away, but who made their brick without straw unrepining, told +of her sufferings, and of how she had always been weak and sickly; while +it was on all sides allowed that though, as a matter of course, a master +might be a little hard sometimes, Jarker had been too hard, as she was +so sickly. One thought it was the drains, another fancied the place +wasn't quite healthy; but all agreed that there was nothing better to be +had at the price; while the market was _so_ handy. What was to become +of the child too, formed a surmise in which Mrs Sims took great +interest; while, as soon as that lady's back was turned, it was +universally agreed that she was "a good soul." + +Another buzz of excitement. Mr Jarker has been seen to come out with a +crape scarf fastened upon his fur-cap, while a short skimpy cloak hangs +awkwardly from his ample shoulders. Mr Jarker is very low-spirited, +and finds it necessary to take something short once more in the way of a +stimulant, and imbibes half-a-quartern of gin at the public-house, his +emblems of woe inducing a great amount of respect being paid to him by +the occupants of the place, while one end of the scarf will keep getting +in his way. + +Mr Jarker is a very great man this day, and comports himself with much +dignity; he feels that he is being looked up to, and that he deserves +it, but for all that he seems nervous and uncomfortable, and is now +fetched back by the undertaker, who regularly takes him into custody, +for he rightly fears that very little would make Mr Jarker run off +altogether and show himself no more for some days, when perhaps there +might be a difficulty about the payment of the expenses. Not that Mr +Pawley has much fear upon that score, for there was always a certain +pride respecting a decent "berryin" at Bennett's-rents; and supposing +any one was very much pressed, there were always friendly hands ready to +add their mites, with the understanding that one good turn deserved +another. Mr Pawley never suffered much in his transactions at the +Rents, of which place he had the monopoly; and he always made a point of +insisting that all funerals should be not only what he termed economic, +but strictly respectable. + +"It's a dooty we owe to the departed," he would observe, while never +once could he recall a dissentient, though assistance was often called +in to defray the cost, and the well-known avuncular relative of the poor +appealed to. Not that Mr Pawley had very hard work to induce the poor +of the district to do their "dooty" by the departed, for the desire was +always there to pay the last sad rites decently and in order, even those +who were obliged to stoop to get an order for a parish coffin often +raising a tiny fund to induce Mr Pawley to embellish the hard outlines +of the common plain elm shell with a plate and a few rows of nails, to +take off the workhouse look of the charity they grudged to accept. + +Mr Pawley managed to get Jarker safely back to the house, and then the +excitement increased, for after the former gentleman had prisoned his +client in a lodger's room he came down wiping his eye, that seemed more +moist than ever, and stood mute-like at the door, surrounded by half the +inhabitants of the court, whom he calmly informed that _they_ were +coming down directly. Mr Pawley spoke slowly and impressively, for he +was a man who had not much to say, but who made the most of it, as if +his words were gold and to be beaten out to cover the largest space at +the least possible cost. He considered his words of value, and as he +doled them out people listened eagerly, looking upon the day's +performance as something of which not the slightest item should be lost; +while Mr Pawley made much of his funerals, regarding each one as an +advertisement to procure another, as he laboured hard to impress upon +the dwellers of Bennett's-rents how friendly were his feelings towards +them, and how little he thought of the money. + +"Now they're a-coming!" he whispered, motioning the people away right +and left--a very marshal of management--and then there was the shuffling +of feet, the creaking and groaning of the stairs, and the chipping of +the wall, as down flight after flight the coffin was carried, resting at +the landings, and more than once some neighbour's door was sent flying +open. Mrs Sims' was the first, as one of the bearers backed against +it, and a lodger's on the first-floor was the next; but the occupiers +were down in the court, and so escaped being disturbed. + +At last, with the top covered with the powdery whitewash chipped from +wall and ceiling, the coffin stood in the passage, then in the court for +an instant, before being borne into the shabby Shillibeer hearse; while, +amidst a suppressed hum of voices, more than one genuine tear was seen +to fall, and more than one apron to be held up by those who saw the poor +woman's remains borne away. Then back came Mr Pawley on tiptoe with +his handkerchief to his eye, and disappeared in the house, from which he +soon reappeared with his prisoner, followed by two relatives; and, as +Bill Jarker was marched down to the hearse with his ill-fitting cloak, +and long crape scarf hanging from his fur-cap, he held his hands +together in a strange, peculiar way--a way that, but for the trappings +of woe, would have suggested that Mr Jarker was really in custody, and +bore steel handcuffs upon his wrists. + +Then there was a crowding towards the entrance of the court to see Mr +Jarker shut in, Mr Pawley mount beside his red-nosed driver, and then +the old broken-kneed horse went bowing its head and shambling along +through the streets, with no more way made for it than if its doleful +load had been so much merchandise. + +Septimus Hardon had stood at his window watching the proceedings, as he +slowly wiped again and again his pen upon a coat-tail; for the scene +brought up a sad day in Carey-street, and he could not but recall the +bright-eyed, yellow-haired child he had lost, and this set him thinking +of the little one up-stairs in Lucy's charge. But Septimus Hardon never +thought very long upon any one particular subject; and, sighing deeply, +he returned to his writing, while the people in the court slowly flocked +back to form groups and talk until such time as it was necessary to get +"master's tea." There was a considerable amount of thirst engendered +though, and the public-houses at the top and bottom of the court must +have done quite a powerful stroke, of trade that day in cream-gin and +pine-apple rum; for the dull soft bang of the strapped-back doors was +heard incessantly. For now, _a la militaire_, people's feelings seemed +to undergo a reaction; children played and hooted again unabashed; the +organ-man played the Olga waltz to a select circle of youthful dancers, +while admiring mammas looked on and smiled; a party of "nigger" +serenaders arrived at the lower public-house, and played and sang for a +full hour, the coppers rattling in the reversed banjo freely, after the +fortunes of the celebrated Old Bob Ridley had been musically rendered by +a melodious gentleman of intense blackness, who had thrummed the wires +of his instrument until his fingers were worn white. Then, too, after +the departure of the sable minstrels, a lady volunteered a song; but she +sang not, for an interdict was placed upon the proceedings by the +landlord, who "couldn't stand none o' that, now." Then an altercation +ensued, which ended in an adjournment, and the voluble declaration of +some half-dozen departing matrons that they'd have no more to do with +the goose-club. + +But Mrs Sims was not there. Ten minutes after the starting of the +shabby funeral she went up to Septimus Hardon's rooms to fetch the +little girl, but had to ascend to the attic, where she found her leaning +against Lucy, who was seated upon the floor, laughing at the little +thing's delight as first one and then the other of the poodles stood up +and carried a stick in its mouth, while the dark eyes of Jean were fixed +upon the beautiful group before him, ardently though with a speechless +admiration. + +With many thanks Mrs Sims bore away the tiny girl, whose sleeves Lucy +had tied up with bows of crape, and, as she accompanied the woman down +the stairs it was only by an effort that she refrained from snatching +the little one back and bearing it into her own room. But Mrs Sims +bore the prattling little thing away and seated it upon the carpet in +her lodging, when, preparing to relieve herself after so much sorrow, +she took up the bellows: but as the fire was out she only made a dust, +and, laying the pneumatic comfort aside, she took to "spazzums," which +necessitated the sending of Marry Hann, a neighbour's child, for +half-a-quartern of rum, which relieved the pain so much that she +repeated the dose more than once, and, carrying the little girl with +her, went down again for a social chat, being now insensible to pain. +Half-an-hour had not elapsed, though, before a fresh twinge induced her +to try another instalment of her "spefizzick," and now she not only +became insensible to pain but to everything else. Mr Jarker did not at +once return after the funeral, but parted with his fellow-mourners +without a word, after stopping at a public-house honoured by Mr Pawley, +and settling the expenses readily over some gin and beer, accompanied by +pipes; and, though more than one neighbour declared they saw him enter +the door quite late, and come out early next morning, it was certain +that he did not go up to his attic, a place which for some time he +shunned after dark. + +Mrs Sims declared she saw nothing of him, and doubtless her testimony +was very trustworthy, for she had not the slightest recollection of what +took place that night after the last administration of the "spefizzick," +nor of how she came into her own room till her angry husband explained. +For when in the dusk of evening Lucy returned from the warehouse with a +fresh pile of work, she found Mrs Sims seated nodding upon the doorstep +with the sleeping child in her flaccid arms, and in momentary danger of +falling upon the broken flags. So taking the little thing, Lucy bore it +to her own room; and from that time forth it often came to pass that she +crossed the court when Mr Jarker was from home, and attended to the +wants of the little neglected child. + +Volume Two, Chapter XVI. + +A BATTLE: SCIENCE WINS. + +"What! another operation?" said old Matt with a groan. + +"To be sure," said the house-surgeon cheerily; "why not?" + +"But I'm so much better," said Matt; "and I've no end of work to get +through." + +"I daresay, my man," said the surgeon sadly, "and so we all have; and I +fear that when the day comes upon which we are called away, we shall +have as much to do as ever." + +"But I'm so much better now; all but my head, sir, and I can't quite +think as I used to. Things bother me, and when I want to remember one +particular matter, I get confused." + +"We shall put you all right this time, my man, and then start you off to +make room for someone else. We don't want a parcel of great lazy +fellows here, fattening on our wine and jelly." + +Old Matt smiled grimly as he said: "I say, sir, is it really necessary?" + +"Why, of course, my man. We did you a great deal of good last time, did +we not?" + +"Ye-e-e-s, yes," said Matt; "you did, certainly, sir; but is it +necessary that my poor old carcass should be touched again? It ain't +for the sake of experiment now, is it, sir? I'm afraid, you know, +you'll kill me; and, just for the sake of being fair, as you've had one +turn at me, wouldn't it be better to try it on someone else--on some +other subject?" And "O, dear!" thought the old man to himself, "what a +difference between a Queen's subject and a doctor's subject!" + +"Pooh, nonsense, old friend!" said the surgeon, laughing; "we'll make a +man of you again; so cheer up, or you'll be working your nerves too +much. Why, you've picked up wonderfully this last day or two." + +"What's the use of picking up, sir, if you get knocking me down again, +eh, sir?" + +The surgeon smiled and continued his round, and old Matt sat and +grumbled by his bedside, for he was now up, and able to walk about the +ward. + +"Now let's see," muttered the old man. "I always did fancy, and it +always seems so, that the more you try to think straightforward of a +thing, the more it bothers you; so let's try and get round to it +back-way, if I can. Well, here goes. Now here's Mr Septimus Hardon--a +man--well, not clever, but what of that? I hate your clever men; +they've no room to be amiable, or time to be generous. He's a good one, +and that's sufficient. Well, he's kept, say, for sake of argument, out +of his rights by his rogue of an uncle. Now he proves his baptism and +his father's marriage, and then he wants to prove the date of his birth +to have been after the marriage. Easy enough that seems; but how to do +it when t'other party has took possession, and declares all the other +way. Doctor's books will do it, failing any other means; and as we do +fail other means, why we want the doctor's books. I tell you what it +is; I believe we have both bungled the matter from beginning to end, and +ought to have gone to a good lawyer. But there, what's the good of +talking? We had no money, and people without money always bungle +things. Now where's the doctor's books, or the doctor? Doctor's dead-- +safe; but then are his books dead--cut up--burnt? That's the question. +I say no, because I'm sure I saw that entry somewhere; and here's the +nuisance. When I was situated so that it would have been almost a +blessing to be shut up here in hospital, I wasn't ill; now I want all my +energies, I'm chained by the leg. I'd give up bothering about the +thing, but I'm sure I read it somewhere, and I'm sure, too, I +recollected once where it was; and it was while I was so bad," he said, +pulling out his tattered memorandum-book, and referring to the +hieroglyphics it contained. "No," he said, after a long inspection; "I +have read a good deal, and taken some copy in my time, but I never +thought I should live to write stuff I couldn't read myself. There, +it's of no use; it'll come some day." And he closed his eyes, and +leaned his head upon his hand; for his brain seemed weary and restless +with his long and painful illness. + +A morning or two after, the old man was again seated at his bedside, +trying to amuse himself with a book; but with little success, for his +eyes were weak. + +"I shall let well alone," growled the old man; "and if they want to +operate, they may cut and carve someone else. I shall do for the few +years I have to live; but they might find a poor fellow a scrap of +snuff, hang 'em!" + +"Here, you Number 19, into bed with you directly!" + +"Why, I'm only just up," grumbled Matt, who was the said number. + +"Never mind, old fellow," said the speaker; "be smart, for they will be +after you directly." + +Old Matt shivered and trembled, and his lips moved as he slowly returned +to his bed, and there lay waiting. He had almost determined to be +content, and bear his burden to the grave; for, said he, "I can't live +much longer." But then he thought of the wondrous skill and care of +those in whose hands he would be, and of the rest that would afterwards +be his were his life spared. + +"I won't turn coward now," he muttered, letting his eyes rest upon some +flowers in a window near his bed, and gazing at them in a strange +earnest way,--"No, I won't turn coward, not even if they kill me. But +that's hard to think of, that is. Mine has been a rough life, and I've +put up with a deal; but I never tired of it--not to say thoroughly tired +of it, though I've been very near more than once; and I should like to +keep grinding on for a long time yet. Life's sweet, somehow, when +you've got friends, and I seem to have found 'em at last. I should have +liked to have helped him out with that entry, though. Where did I see +it?" + +The old man paused thoughtfully, and kept passing his hand across his +dew-wet forehead; but the memory was still defective, and he sighed +wearily: "Why didn't I begin sooner, or make him begin? Ah, that's it-- +that's it! why don't we begin hundreds of things sooner, and not leave +them till it's too late!" + +The old man paused again, and his lean, bony fingers clutched and clawed +restlessly to get at the flowers. But his old train of thought now +seemed to have returned, for he continued: "Don't often see anything +about hospital operations, but I have had copy about them--`Death from +the Administration of Chloroform.' What an ugly word that first is, and +what a shiver it seems to give one when we think of it in connection +with ourselves, though it seems so little when it has to do with anyone +else! Wonder whether any of the old 'stab or piece hands would get hold +of it to set, and feel sorry for the battered old stamp they used to +laugh at, and whether it would get into the papers if I was to--" + +The old man stopped once more, and wiped the dew from his wet forehead. + +"Well, well," he said half-aloud, "what is to be will be. God help me +well through it all, for I'm a miserable coward; and if it's to be the +end of old Matt, why, I don't think I've been so very bad, and--there, +hang it!" he whined, "they might have left me a pinch of snuff. Here, I +say, though," he cried, rousing up, "this won't do. I'm on the wrong +folio, and shall have to re-set." + +"I wonder whether it's hard to die?" he muttered, after another pause. +"Don't seem as if it was, for they look almost as if they were asleep, +and wanting to be woke up again. One must go sometime or another; but +it would have been happier like to have had hold of someone's hand, and +seen two or three faces round one's bed, faces of people sorry I was +going--going. There, there," he gasped, "I can't stand it. They +sha'n't touch me. It's like running headlong into one's grave. They +sha'n't touch me, for I must live and find out about the doctor, for +that poor helpless fellow in the Rents; or he'll never do it himself. +They sha'n't touch me, for I am nearly clear now, and I can grub on as I +am; while, if my chronics kill me in time, why they do, and there's an +end of it. They sha'n't--" + +"Now, Number 19," said a voice, and to his dismay poor old Matt saw a +couple of porters enter the ward with a stretcher. + +The old man moaned and closed his eyes, muttering the whole while as he +resigned himself, meekly as a child and without a word of opposition, to +the men, who tenderly lifted him upon their portable couch, and then +bore him along the whitewashed passages, whose walls seemed so familiar +to him, and struck him as being so particularly white and clean--white +as were ceiling and floor. He only saw one cobweb, and that was out of +reach in a far corner; and in his nervous state this greatly attracted +his attention, so that he could fancy the large spider grinned at him as +if he were a larger kind of fly in the trammels of a net. He felt that +he should have liked for the men to set down the stretcher and remove +that cobweb, but he stifled the desire to speak. Then he noticed how +strangely the hair of his foremost bearer grew, and this, too, troubled +him: there were no short hairs on the poll, and for some distance up the +back of his neck was a barren land. Then he fell to studying the man's +coat-buttons, the depth of his collar, and how easily he tramped along +with the handles of the portable couch, whose motion was so easy with +the light, regular, springy pace of the man; while the dread of what was +impending seemed quite to have passed away, and he began, now the peril +was so near, to think of himself as though he were someone else in whom +he took an interest; and then came a very important question: + +How would they bring him back? + +Would he be lighter with the loss of blood, and would he be gradually +stiffening, and growing colder and colder, till the icy temperature of +death pervaded him through and through? And then, too, what would they +do with him? He had no relations--no one to come and claim his body. +And even this thought seemed to trouble him but little, for he smiled +grimly, muttering to himself: + +"Cause of science, sir, cause of science; and besides, it won't matter +then." + +On still, with a light swinging motion and an easy tread, the porters +bore their load, and in the minute or two the removal occupied old Matt +thought of the last time he had made that journey, and his sensations +then: how that he had looked upon it all as a dream, and felt that he +should soon wake up to find himself in bed. But the old man's musings +ceased as he was borne into the theatre, save for an instant when the +thought flashed across his mind, Suppose he died without seeing the +entry? and this troubled him for a few moments; but directly after he +was gazing up with anxious eye at the tier upon tier of benches, some +crowded, some nearly empty, and looking from face to face; but there +seemed not one that sympathised with him, as, after a glance when he was +first borne in, a quiet light, chatty conversation was carried on in an +undertone. Then there was almost perfect silence, and the old man felt +himself to be the centre upon which every eye was fixed. His heart told +him now that in the low-murmured buzz of conversation that rose, +students who had again and again stood at his bedside were discussing +his case, and that if the operation were unsuccessful or unskilfully +performed, they would merely say that the patient did not rally, and +then go home or to their studies, regardless of the little gap left in +the ranks of life; while Septimus Hardon would probably never succeed in +his endeavours to recover his lost position. + +Then he half-smiled as he thought of the importance with which he rated +himself, and looked eagerly round. Close by he could see the earnest, +study-lined faces of several older men, many of them grey-haired and +thoughtful-eyed--men of eminence in their profession, but strongly +imbued with the belief of the man of wisdom, that we are ever but +learners. Then he looked straight above, even at the skylight, where he +could see that the sun illumined the thick ground-glass; and now once +more, in a quiet musing vein, he set to wondering how it would be after +the operation. + +Plenty of faces round, but mostly cool, calm, and matter-of-fact. Here +were the hospital dressers and assistants, standing by the table--a +curious-looking table in the centre of an open space; and a hasty glance +showed him sponges, and water, and cloths, and lint, and mahogany cases, +that at another time, if some other sufferer were to have been operated +upon, would have caused him to shudder. But all that was past now, and +he merely looked earnestly round till his gaze rested upon a stout +grey-haired, keen-eyed man, whose black clothes and white neck-tie were +spotless, and who now advanced to the table with a quiet business-like +aspect, as he bowed somewhat stiffly to the assembled surgeons and +students, and then spoke a few cheering words to the patient as he felt +his pulse. + +"I hope he won't turn nervous over it," thought Matt. "Be serious to a +man in his position, with so many looking on.--Can't I have the +chloroform?" he then whispered to a dresser by his side. + +"Yes, of course: here he is with it," said the man; and for the second +time in his life Matt gazed curiously at a polished mahogany box which +was being brought forward. + +"I say," whispered Matt earnestly to the man at his side, "if anyone +comes afterwards--afterwards, you know, and asks for me, you'll say, +`Medicine and attendance,'--there, don't laugh--it's particular--you'll +say, `Medicine and attendance;' and that old Matt tried to think it out +to the last. You'll do that for me?" he whispered earnestly. + +The man repeated the words over, and smiled as he made the required +promise. + +"Tell him not to give me too much," said Matt, now with the first +display of anxiety, as he glanced at the inhaling apparatus. + +The time since old Matt had been brought into the theatre might be +reckoned by moments; and now, in the midst of a profound stillness, the +grey-haired man calmly raised his eyebrows, turned up his sleeves, and +then walked a step or two from the patient, now inhaling the wondrous +vapour of that simple-looking limpid fluid, whose first effect was to +cause him to push away the apparatus and struggle feebly with those who +administered it. But there was a strong hand upon his pulse and a pair +of stern eyes watching him, and, as the mouthpiece was kept firmly +against his face, old Matt gave one or two more inspirations and became +insensible. Then every eye was fixed upon the calm, business-like man, +whose nerves seemed of kindred material to the blades he drew from their +delicate purple-velvet resting-places and quietly inspected for an +instant, his eyes flashing brightly as their grey-hued blades--knives +whose keen edges were formed of the finest-tempered metal that human +skill and ingenuity could produce. + +A breathless silence ensued, and the gay thoughtless aspect was gone +from the young faces crowding the benches. Here and there an assumed +cynical smile could be seen, but the effects of a strange clutching at +the heart, a curious vibration of the nerves, was visible in the pallor +of cheeks and fevered aspect of the onlookers of the upper seats. Two +young men right at the back surreptitiously drank from small flasks, and +when wiping their lips paused, too, to pass their handkerchiefs over +their damp foreheads, before thrusting them in their moist palms as the +great surgeon--one who had climbed by slow degrees to his present +eminence in the profession, and upon whose knowledge and skill now +depended the life of a fellow-creature--gave his quick, sharp orders, +and changed the position of one or two assistants at the +operating-table, pointing, like a general preparing for battle, with the +keen blade he held in his hand. Short, quick orders as he grasped the +flashing steel and made ready for the fight--for the _combat a +l'outrance_, with the grim, slow-crawling, dragon disease--a fight where +skill and genius took the place of physical force and daring. + +A painful silence, and then, while every eye was fixed upon his +movements, the great surgeon gave a hasty glance round to see that all +was in readiness for the time when moments were more than grains of +gold, and would add their weight in one scale of the balance--life or +death; but all seemed there, ready hands and the many appliances for +checking the rapid flow of life's stream, and then, with almost an air +of nonchalance, he stretched out his arms to secure freedom of action. + +Not a whisper, not a movement, the spectators of the scene with craning +necks, immovable as groups of statuary, as they gazed from their tiers +of benches in this modern amphitheatre down upon the gladiatorial combat +taking place, even as of old the Roman citizens may have watched some +fight for life or death. + +A keen bright flash of the blade in the softened light, and the surgeon +thoughtfully describing an imaginary curve in the air with the point +just above the insensible patient; then, with a satisfied nod, he leaned +forward. There was once more a bright flash of the knife, followed by a +bold, firmly-directed cut, deep and long, but clear of vital parts in +the wondrous organisation. Then came the spouting gush from many a +vessel as the old man's life-blood rushed from its maze; busy fingers at +work, here upon arteries to stay their waste, there applying sponge; one +blade changed for another, more manipulation, and orders performed after +being given in a calm impressive whisper; a few more busy moments, and +the throbbing flow of life arrested; rapidly-moving fingers with +sponges, silk, strapping, towels; and the great surgeon softly wiping +his hands, cool, calm, and unruffled. + +"Very little loss, Mr Grant," to the next general in command. + +"Extremely little," with a bow and a smile; "most successful operation." + +"Well, well, I think so," said the great man, unbending somewhat as he +arranged his cuffs and brushed off an imaginary speck of dust. He then +felt the patient's pulse for a few moments, nodded with a satisfied air, +said a few words to the chief of his staff, bowed once more, and by the +time the hospital-dressers had finished their task and the patient was +lifted back upon his portable conch, the operator was in the brougham +waiting in the street. + +Then came once more the murmuring buzz of voices, the reaction and the +pallor tried to be laughed down, the porters, and then in a few minutes +old Matt was once more in his bed and comfortably arranged before he +recovered consciousness. + +The house-surgeon and an assistant were beside his bed as he opened his +eyes and stared vacantly about, trying to recall what had taken place. + +"How sick and faint--what a nasty dream!" he muttered; "but I don't +know, sir,--been as well if it had been true." + +"What would?" said the surgeon, smiling. + +"Why, I dreamed, sir, that--why, so it was--so it was, then," muttered +the old man fervently; "thank God, thank God!" + +A calm heavy sleep soon fell upon Matt, but he was not free from trouble +then. There was the entry continually worrying him; now he knew he had +seen it, now he felt that it was only a dream, or a dream within a +dream. At last, though, a change came over the scene, and all was +prosperity; he had entered into partnership with Septimus Hardon, and +purchased the copyright of the Times, whose columns they regularly +filled every day with a complete exposure of Doctor Hardon. + +But the dream was not founded upon fact, for Septimus Hardon, with hope +in his breast, had been to the entrance of the hospital, thinking that +now Matt was so much better he would perhaps be ready with some +information. But the visitor had been told of the operation, and the +old man's present critical state, while being advised not to see him at +that visit; and receiving a promise that a message should be sent in the +event of a change for the worse, Septimus Hardon slowly, and sadly +disheartened, returned to his law-copying. + +END OF VOLUME TWO. + +Volume Three, Chapter I. + +THE BREAKING OF A BARRIER. + +It was about this time that Aunt Fanny, in the large room at +Surrey-street, took to complaining of her neck, and wore a narrow strip +of flannel beneath the stiff white-muslin kerchief, while night and morn +her servant had to rub the said neck with hartshorn and oil. And truly +the old dame's neck was stiff, and cold might have had some share in +producing the stiffness; but undoubtedly it was principally caused by +the many sage shakes she gave her head when pondering over her nephew's +state; for in spite of all the medicaments which he patiently allowed +her to administer, the old lady effected no cure, and was in consequence +sorely troubled in her own mind. + +But she was not so sorely troubled as the object of her interest, who +angered himself in vain because of the chaotic state of his mind. +Battle, battle--ever the same useless struggle, till he was ashamed of +his weakness and want of self-control. To-day victor, to-morrow +vanquished; now reviling himself for his want of faith and cruel +suspicions, which he owned were almost baseless; the next day a slave to +duty, and forbidding his heart to harbour further thoughts of her he now +called his enemy. Work seemed the only refuge, and he toiled on. Study +he could not; but he visited from house to house in the fold of +Bennett's-rents, where the tainted sheep of his flock were gathered; and +hiding from himself his real feelings--a shallow pretence--he knew the +while how anxious he was respecting that little ewe-lamb. + +But he drew a mask over his face, telling himself it was his true +countenance; and with a calmness that was but on the surface, he called +frequently to see the invalid mother, timing, however, his visits that +they might be made while Lucy was absent--for duty's sake (and he now +knew pretty well when she was likely to visit the warehouse); while, +when he had visited the Bents, and returned without seeing her, he +credited duty largely, and praised his own self-denial. All steps, he +flattered himself, towards the final conquest which he would achieve; +but though casting out the weak thoughts, he told himself that it was +his duty to satisfy his heart concerning the doubts which so constantly +tormented him. + +How often the hours came when he scorned his dissimulation, and tore off +the mask, none knew; but his face grew more pale and livid, and the grey +hairs that sprinkled his temples were thicker than of old. + +It happened one day, though, when he and Lucy had not encountered since +he saw her bending over the child from Mrs Jarker's room, that, +visiting from house to house and room to room, Mr Sterne stood in front +of Mrs Sims'; but that lady was from home; so hearing the merry voice +of the laughing child, he had ascended the stairs to find Lucy in the +bird-catcher's attic. For the little face had been pressed against the +blackened window, and a pair of bright little eyes had peered, hour +after hour, from beneath the tangled golden hair, watching the busy +fingers at the sewing-machine, till with heart aching for the neglected +babe, and to study her mother, who objected to its being brought into +the room, Lucy had crossed the court, and gone up and played with the +little thing, laughing merrily at the child's delight, though a tear +stood in her eye more than once as she evaded the child's eager, +oft-repeated question of "When mammy come back?" Bill had gone out with +his nets, and most probably would not be back until night; so the child +had been left alone with some food in the dreary room, to play or cry +itself to sleep, unless Mrs Sims should be there to attend to its +wants. But there was that one spot by the window where she could look +down upon Lucy; and there, day after day, she would stand without +murmuring, attracted by that wondrous sense which draws children to the +loveable and true. Lucy's heart yearned as she gazed up from time to +time at the child, and she longed earnestly for the season when its +mother should make fresh arrangements; but for some reason she came not, +and Lucy had not seen her since Mrs Jarker's death. + +And now the golden hours for which the little soul had longed had come +again. Lucy was with her, and, herself a child for the time, she +laughed merrily at the little one's delight. + +Panting, tumbled, and flushed with exercise, Lucy stood at last, +returning an escaped curl to its bondage, a bright smile playing round +her ruddy lips, which parted to display the white teeth beneath, when +the door opened, and, with a frown upon his brow, the curate stood in +the entrance gazing upon the scene before him. + +"In that ruffian's room--there of all places in the world!" doubt +whispered to him; at a time, too, when their chance meetings had been +attended by a cold reserve on Lucy's part--a reserve which his doubting +heart misinterpreted; for he could not in his blindness see the cost at +which it was maintained. And yet this reserve had pleased him while it +pained, for he at times acknowledged the interest he took in her +welfare. But it mattered not, he said, for his desire was but to try +and save her from evil, nothing more; and the oftener he listened to +these delusive whisperings the stronger grew a voice within, telling him +that his reasoning was false, and that he was forgetting duty, +position--all, in a love for one who grew colder and more distant at +every meeting. Wearily, though, he kept on building up a wall between +them--a wall built upon the sand. Stone by stone he laid, telling +himself that it was for duty's sake, as he toiled on helplessly at his +self-imposed task. True, he might have satisfied himself of the motive +for Lucy's actions, which to him wore a blurred and strange aspect; but +to others her name seemed a sealed book, one which he shrank from +opening, lest he should at the same time reveal the secret of his own +heart. + +And now he stood at the door of that beggarly room, where was the bed +over which he had so lately bent to whisper comfort to the suffering +woman, or knelt by its side to ask mercy for the poor sufferer and a +blessing on the helpless child. There was the same bare look of misery +in the wretched place; but as the sun streamed through the great leaden +lattice, all seemed glorified and brightened by the presence there. +Unseen he gazed on, while the glow of orange light flooded the room, and +played round the graceful form of Lucy, as, starting again, she was +pursued by the laughing child, varying her attitude each moment as she +eluded its grasp. + +Suddenly the child struck itself sharply against a chair, and broke into +a whimpering cry; but the caressing arms, the words of endearment, and +the loving kiss soothed the pain instantly, and a smile came over the +sunny face once more; when Lucy stood as if transfixed, the merry light +faded from her eyes, the smile from her lip, and then the blood flushed +to her temples, but only to retreat and leave her deadly pale, for in an +instant the wall so laboriously built up, and at so great a cost in +suffering, was swept down by the flood of passion. Arthur Sterne knew +that the battle had been in vain, and that he was but man; while doubt, +everything, was cast to the winds as he was by her side, her hands +clasped in his, telling her of his beaten-down love, his hopes, his +fears,--all, all in the impassioned burst of words raised by the tempest +of a strong man's love; for the sandy foundation was undermined, and the +last trace of the barrier swept away. + +And what said she? No words came in reply to his appeal. At first, +startled, confused, overcome, she shrank from him, pale and trembling; +but as his words came pouring forth, making cheek and neck burn, she +knew that no greater bliss could be hers; and the trembling lids of her +dark-blue eyes were slowly lifted to meet his, when, as if scathing her +once more, came the recollection of his bitter, contemptuous look, his +long coldness, and even scorn; and snatching away her hands, she burst +into tears and darted from the room. + +Pale and troubled in mind as to what to attribute Lucy's behaviour, his +brain in a whirl of doubt, Arthur Sterne stood gazing at the door, +until, turning, he became aware that the opposite attic window was being +opened. The lark began to twitter as the hand of Jean Marais secured it +outside; and then he saw the wild dark eyes of the youth begin to +earnestly watch the room. + +Turning with a few kind words to the astonished child, who crouched in a +corner, Arthur Sterne made his way from the house; and a sad evening +spent Aunt Fanny, in her anxiety for the "wilful boy" who angrily +rejected her advice. He was not ill, he said; but the good dame nipped +her lips together; while, retiring at last, the curate spent the night +pacing his chamber-floor, trying to examine the tangle in his heart, but +only to conclude that, come what might, difference of position should be +no bar between him and Lucy; for, driving away, as he thought +successfully, the doubt that still assailed him, he declared to himself +that she possessed virtues before which birth and dowry paled and became +as naught. + +"Unstable as water," muttered the curate to himself, though, days after, +when meeting with Lucy alone in the front-room of their place in +Bennett's-rents, the barrier was again broken down--the barrier that +time had forced him to renew--while the words he could not but utter +came pouring forth, to bring no response. + +Septimus was away with his boy, and Mrs Hardon slept in the back-room; +and the words of Arthur Sterne were low and deep as the passion that +prompted them. But there was no response--no loving look in reply-- +naught but the pale cheek and quivering eyelid, tears and looks of +half-anger; for still clung to Lucy the recollection of his scorn and +contempt, his misinterpretation of her motives; and the hands he clasped +were cold and drawn away. + +Then anger took the place of love--a foolish, mad anger, which robbed +him of his self-control, and made him utter words beneath whose passion +the poor girl bent as bends flower before the storm. He uttered words +then that an hour after he would have given anything to recall; telling +her angrily of _ma mere_ and her slighting hints, of Jarker's +familiarity, and lastly of the meeting he had witnessed in the Lane; +unheeding the hands held up so deprecatingly, the appealing looks, and +the tear-wet, pallid cheeks; for, as he told himself again and again +that night, he was mad--mad in his passionate love for one unworthy--mad +in his words; and he writhed as he recalled the way in which he felt +that he had lowered himself. + +"I insist--I hold it as a right!" he had exclaimed; "tell me, Lucy, who +was that woman? Do you know her character?" And he clutched her wrist +angrily as he spoke. + +He said no more then, for Lucy's face was aflame, and she started +hastily to her feet, facing him almost as it were at bay, and vainly +trying to free her hand from his grasp. + +"Do your parents know of your meetings?" he exclaimed. + +"No, no, no!" she cried excitedly, as she glanced towards the back-room +door. + +"Then I must--nay," he added with almost a cowardly look of triumph, for +the weakness of the man was triumphant that afternoon, and he yielded to +all that he had hitherto triumphed over--"I will tell them," he said, +"for your good." + +"For pity's sake," whispered Lucy, "Mr Sterne. Ah, pray, sir, stop-- +pray stay! Do not think ill of me--" + +But there Lucy ceased, for she was alone; and once more scornfully, with +the cold bitter look, Mr Sterne had dashed her hand from him in +contempt and turned from the room, into which Mrs Hardon now came to +find Lucy weeping as though her heart would break. + +Volume Three, Chapter II. + +SNUFF. + +Old Matt did not wake again for many hours, but, as the days slipped by, +he partook with avidity of all that was allowed him, and grumbled for +more. His friend the house-surgeon, whom he could look at now without +imagining that he took notes inimical to his friend Septimus Hardon's +interest, reported favourably of his condition; while Septimus himself +came again and again, each time more eager to get at that which was +hidden by the confusion in old Matt's brain. + +"If he had only been so jolly anxious about the Somesham affair, first +start off, what a difference it would have made!" grumbled Matt. + +But it seemed useless to try and draw the old man's attention to things +he had talked of in the days shortly before his entry of the hospital, +for here all seemed blank. + +"Well, yes, sir," Matt would say, "I have some faint recollection of +saying something about medicine and attendance; but do you know, sir, I +begin to think that one's memory is in one's blood? and they took so +much out of me that last time, that I can't remember anything at all. +`Medicine and attendance,' did I say? Why, it must have been the +medicine and attendance here, and those old cats of nurses. My thinking +apparatus is terribly out of order, sir; and when I try to look back at +anything, it's like peeping at it through a dirty window. P'r'aps it +won't come bright and clean again, eh?" + +"Don't try to think," said Septimus with a sigh. "You will recollect +some day; so let it rest." + +"Well, sir, that's just what I should like to do; but since you've asked +me, I can't; for things won't go just as I like, and I feel all in a +muddle. Let's see, now: you said something about this at your last +visit, didn't you, sir? when I asked you about that talking woman and +the office for servants; for I do recollect that, you know." + +"Yes," replied Septimus, "at every visit." + +"Just so," said Matt; "I thought you did; but I can't tell a bit about +it now. Sometimes it seems that I heard it; sometimes that I read it, +or saw it against a wall, or dancing before my eyes; but let's see," he +said vacantly, as he held his hand to his head, "what was it we wanted +to find?" + +"The doctor's books, or the doctor," said Septimus. + +"To be sure," said the old man; "I haven't got it right yet; and really +you know, sir, this isn't a first-class place to get right in, and they +won't part with me yet, though I do long now to be well, and at liberty +for a peep at the old law-courts and Lincoln's-inn once more. I mean to +have a holiday, and spend it among all the posts in the old square as +soon as I'm out; I'm getting so light-hearted and jolly, sir. Why, it +will be quite a treat to be somewhere amongst a bit or two of dirt once +more; we're so clean here." + +"Only a little longer, Matt," said Septimus smiling. + +"You see," said Matt, "there's so much to upset one about. What with +the screen round this bed, and the screen round that bed, and the groans +and sighs, ah, and even shouts sometimes, there's plenty to make a poor +fellow feel low-spirited. Now there's a chap over there in that bed +seems to have taken it into his head that he suffers more than anyone +who ever came into the place, and howls and goes on terribly; while the +bigger and stronger people are, sir, the more weak they seem to me to be +in bearing pain. I believe, after all, you know, sir, that the little +weak women beat us hollow." + +"Ah!" said the patient spoken of, surmising from Matt's gestures that he +was being referred to--"ah! Mr Space, you are talking about me, sir, +and my groans, and it's very hard and unfeeling, sir. You may suffer +yourself some day." + +The visitor felt uncomfortable; but old Matt took it up directly. + +"That's cool, anyhow," he gasped; "why, what do you mean? haven't I +suffered as much as any of you, and been through two operations, and +lived 'em out too? Why, what more would you have? It would have killed +a big fellow like you, I know." + +The patient replied with a groan, and began muttering about the +unfeeling behaviour of those about him, from whom, he said, he had +expected a little sympathy. + +This roused the ire of a neighbour who had lost a leg through being run +over by a coal-wagon, and he now took up the matter, followed by several +others; so that a wordy warfare seemed imminent. + +"That's it, go on," growled Matt in an undertone. "They're all getting +better, sir; and, consequently, they're as cross as two sticks. What a +thing it is! There seems to be no gratitude amongst them; and really, +sir, if it wasn't for the nurses, it wouldn't be such a bad place to +come to--that is, for a man with strong nerves, you know. Now just look +at 'em, how they are going it!" + +The murmurings and dissensions of the other patients seemed to have +quite a good effect upon old Matt, who forgot his own pains in the +troubles of those around him. + +"You don't know how much longer you will be here?" said Septimus. + +"Not for certain, sir; but I think only for a few more days. But it's +wonderful what a difference they have made in me. I mean to go in for a +fortune, sir, as soon as I'm out; and then I shall make my will, and +leave half to the hospital. Now I've got the worst of it all over, I +amuse myself with taking a bit of notice of what goes on around me, and +listening to what's said; and it's wonderful what an amount of misery +comes into this place--wonderful. I've known of more trouble since I've +been in here, sir, than I should have thought there had been in the +whole of London; and that's saying no little, sir. Lots die, you know; +but then see how many they send out cured. I don't see all, but one +hears so much from the talking of the nurses. I expected when I came +here that there would be plenty of accidents, broken bones--legs, arms, +and ribs, and so on; but there, bless you, the place is full of it; and +they're getting to such a wonderful pitch now, with their doctoring and +surgery, that they'll be making a new man next, out of the odd bits they +always have on hand here." + +"I suppose so," said Septimus drily. + +"Ah, you may laugh, sir," said Matt; "but it's wonderful to what a pitch +surgery has got. Now, for instance, just fancy--" + +"There," cried Septimus, "pray stop, or I must leave you. I fancy quite +enough involuntarily, without wishing to hear fresh horrors. It's bad +enough having to come into the place." + +"Lor' bless you, sir," said Matt, "you should listen to the nurses, when +one of 'em happens to be in a good humour. Do you know when that is, +sir?" + +"When pleased, I suppose," said Septimus. + +"Just so, sir; the very time. And when do you suppose that last is?" + +Septimus shook his head. + +"You don't know, of course, sir. Why, when the patients are getting +better." + +"I might have supposed that," said Septimus wearily. + +The old man chuckled, and looked brighter than he had looked for weeks. +"Yes," he said, "it's when the patients are getting better, and there's +plenty of port-wine and gin on the way. That's the time to find the +nurse in a good humour; and she'll tell you anything, or do anything for +you." + +Septimus Hardon looked weary and anxious, and fidgeted in his chair, as +if he longed to change the conversation, but the garrulous old man kept +on. + +"Tell you what, sir, these nurses seem to get their hearts hardened and +crusted over; and then when you give them a little alcohol, as the +teetotallers call it, the crust gets softened a bit, and things go +better. I used to growl and go on terribly at first; but it's no use to +swim against the stream. I used to grumble when I found that they drunk +half my wine and watered my gin; but I'm used to that sort of thing now: +for which is best--to drink all one's liquor, or keep friends with the +nurse? Last's best; and they say I'm a dear patient old creature. I +look it too, don't I?" said the old man with a grim smile. + +"But," said Septimus, "I must soon go; and I should like a word or two +about my affairs first." + +"All right, sir; we'll come to that directly. I'm an invalid, and you +must humour me. But this is the way of it. My nurse comes to me, like +an old foxey vixen as she is, and--`Now, my dear, how are we?' she says. +`Only middling, nurse,' I say. `I've brought you a glass of wine to +cheer you up,' she says. `Don't care about it a bit,' I say; `don't +feel wine-hungry.' `O,' she says, `but the doctor ordered it. Now, +take it, like a good soul. You must want it.' `Not half so bad as some +people do,' I say. `Toss it off, nurse; and just punch my pillow up a +bit, it's got hard and hot.' `Bless my heart, no,' she says, `I +couldn't think of such a thing!' so she sets the wine down, and puts my +head a bit comfortable. `The wine's for you; so, now, take it directly; +I couldn't touch it--I don't care for wine.' + +"`Of course you don't,' I say to myself; and then I begin to talk to her +a bit, and to tell her that she must have a sad wearing life of it, when +the old tabby sets up her back and purrs, and likes it all--looking the +while as tigerish, and sleek, and clawey, as the old cats can look. +Then I tell her she wants more support, and so on, when all at once she +finds out that there's some one else to attend upon, and I must drink my +wine directly; so I take the glass and perhaps drink it; but more often +I only just put it to my lips and set it back upon the tray, when she's +satisfied. Of course, you know, it would be instant dismissal for a +nurse to drink a patient's wine or spirits if it was known; but any +thing left is different altogether. You know, sir, it's a dreadfully +beggarly way of going to work, only as the saying goes, you must fight +some one we know of with his own weapons: and now we are the very best +of friends possible. You'd be surprised how we get along, and all +through going without a glass now and then. The best of it is, though, +that she never thinks of watering it now, like she would for another +patient; so that what I miss in quantity I get in strength, and, you +know, she'll do anything for me in a minute--that is, if she feels +disposed." + +"But," said Septimus, "it seems strange that you should be so left at +the mercy of these women." + +"What can you do?" said the old man.--"There, I 've just done, sir, and +we'll go into that directly.--Who can you get to go through what these +women do, unless it's these Sisters of Mercy, who many say are to become +general? Suppose there was a strike, eh? Look how few people you can +get to come and run the risk of fevers and all sorts of diseases. +Sisters of Mercy, eh? God bless them for it then, if they will; but I +hope I may never want their help, all the same. But there, we won't +talk about it, only you want iron women a'most to go through it all, and +it's not a life to be envied. Why, if it ain't almost leaving-time, +sir, and you've kept me chatting about my affairs here, and yours are +nowhere. How are you getting on?" + +"Badly, Matt, badly. But I've very little to say, Matt, for I was +unable to get on without you," replied Septimus, smiling at the old +man's coolness. + +"'Spose so," said Matt laconically; "let's see, sir, I think you never +went any more to Finsbury?" + +"Where was the use," said Septimus drearily; "who can tell where a +day-book fifty years old can be?" + +"True," said the old man thoughtfully; "butter-shop, most likely; and it +wouldn't pay to go all over London buying half-pounds of `best Dorset,' +on the chance of getting the right sheet. I can't see it yet, sir; and +still I seem to fancy we shall do it, though everything about it seems +to be all in a muddle." + +Septimus Hardon seemed to be of the same opinion, for he sighed, took +his hat, and went homeward in a frame of mind that made him feel +disposed to bury the past and its cares, and look only to the future; +while old Matt picked up a newspaper, and began mechanically folding it +into small squares--butter-shop size. + +"No," he muttered, "not much chance of finding that particular scrap of +paper, if we don't get hold of the book through the old doctor's heirs, +executors, administrators, and assigns. And that's where we ought to +begin; putting ads in the _Times_, and setting private inquirers to +work, and all on to that tune; only, to play that tune, sir, you want +money. Some careless hussy has burnt that scrap of paper, sir, long +ago, to light a fire; or it has been used for twisting-up screws of +tobacco, or ha'porths of toffee, or hundreds of other things as some +beggarly shop or another is licensed to deal in. Only fancy someone +lighting his pipe with that valuable little scrap of paper! `Medicine +and attendance, Mrs Hardon, two, twelve, six!' I'll be bound to say +that was the figure, and I'd give something to get hold of that bit. +Wonder whether it's selfishness, and thinking of what it would be worth +to me? S'pose be; for this is a rum world, and I'm no better than I +should be. But who'd ever have thought this would have come out of my +going to his office and asking for a job? Don't matter, though, about +what I feel, for he'd have come to see me here safe enough, even if it +had not been about his affairs; for he's a trump, sir, a trump: but all +the same, it's a pity he ain't got more in him--worldly stuff, you +know." + +Old Matt sat very thoughtfully for awhile, and then began to mutter +again. + +"Wish I had a pinch of snuff once more. There now; I'm blest. Only to +think of that! me having my box in my pocket, and to forget all about +it--shows what my head's worth now. Bravo! though; that seems to clear +one's head wonderfully. I shall recommend its use in lunatic asylums +for mental diseases; fine thing, I believe. Only to think, though, for +me to get that into my head about that entry I had seen, and trying to +write it down, and then for it to be clean gone once more! S'pose I did +think of something of the kind, or see it, or something. Heigho!" he +sighed; "I must have been precious bad though, sir, confoundedly bad. +Thank goodness it's all over, though, for this time; and I'm going to +walk out soon, instead of, as I expected, being taken to the students' +lodgings in small pieces, wrapped up in paper--paper--waste-paper--by +jingo! though, I'll have a go at the waste-paper everywhere. I'll +search every waste-paper shop in London, beginning at Mother Slagg's-- +beg her pardon, Gross by this time I suppose, and--and--hooray!" he +shouted wildly, to the intense astonishment of the fellow-patients, as +he tossed his newspaper in the air. "Snuff for ever! that pinch did it. +Only let me get out of this place. At last!" + +Volume Three, Chapter III. + +MR JARKER'S TRAITS. + +Men of business cannot afford to continue their grief for any length of +time, hence at a very short date after the death of his wife, Mr +William Jarker, bird-fancier, bird-catcher, and pigeon-trapper, to be +heard of at any time at the Blue Posts, Hemlock-court, by such gents as +wanted a few dozen of blue-rocks or sparrows for the next trap-match at +Wormwood Scrubbs, stood before a piece of looking-glass nailed to the +wall of his room with three tin-tacks, a ragged, three-cornered, +wavy-looking scrap, from which, if a little more of the quicksilver had +been rubbed off, it would never again have been guilty of distorting the +human face divine. Upon this occasion it played strange pranks with the +expressive countenance of Mr Jarker, as he stood, with oily fingers, +giving the required gloss and under-turn to his side-locks, which were +of the true "Newgate-knocker" pattern, their length denoting how long a +time Mr Jarker had been running fancy free without troubling her +Majesty's officials for his daily rations and lodging, in return for +which he would scrub, polish, and clean to order. Mr Jarker seemed to +take extra pains over his toilet, arranging his neck-tie and the +silver-mounted lens, buttoning-up his red-plush waistcoat with the +fustian back and sleeves, cleaning his finger-nails with the broken-out +tooth of a comb, before he stood in front of the glass and smirked at +himself. + +Now this was a mistake on Mr Jarker's part, for his was a style of +countenance that would not bear a smirking; there was too much stiffness +of contour in the various features, a blunt angularity which resisted +the softening sweetness of a smirky smile, and the consequence was, that +if he had smirked at a stranger, the said stranger would have flinched, +from a very strong impression that Mr Jarker was rabid and about to +bite. However, mistaken or not, Mr Jarker smirked several times, and +after various patterns, before he frowned, which gave a much more +respectable cast to his countenance, the scowl being most thoroughly in +harmony. Mr Jarker frowned, for one of the side-locks would not keep +in position and retain the required bend when he had crowned himself +with his slouchy fur-cap; so the erring hair had to be again oiled, +combed, and wetted with a solution of brown sugar, which the operator +moistened in a natural way in the palms of his hands, then the lock was +smoothed and tucked under, and proved a fixture; and now the cap was +again placed in position, and displayed a thin wisp of crape fastened +round it by means of a piece of string; for being a soldier engaged in +the battle of life, Mr Jarker did not doff his uniform, but confined +himself to the above slight manifestation of the fact that he was a +widower. + +Apparently satisfied with his aspect, which was a little more villainous +than usual, Mr Jarker turned his attention to the child, who crouched +in a corner of the room with a piece of bread in her hand, watching him +with her large blue eyes, very round and staring, but evidently pressing +her little self as far away from the fellow as possible. + +"Ah! and so she comes and plays with the kid when I'm out, does she?" +said Mr Jarker, in a ruminating tone. "Ah! we knows what that means, +my chicking, don't we?" + +The little thing pressed herself closer to the wall, and Mr Jarker +stood very thoughtfully at the window for a few minutes, gazing down at +where Lucy's sewing-machine beat rapidly; but Mr Jarker was not aware +that in his turn Jean Marais was watching him fiercely, his dark eyes +seeming to flash beneath his overhanging penthouse brows, as he eagerly +scanned every motion of the ruffian, looking the while as if prepared to +spring across the court at his throat. + +"Ah! we knows what that means, don't we, my chicking?" repeated Mr +Jarker, turning once more from the window. "Come here to yer daddy, +d'yer hear!" + +But though hearing plainly enough, the little thing only shrank back +closer into her corner; when, with an oath, the fellow took two steps +forward and seized the little thing by its pinky shelly ear, and dragged +it, whimpering and trembling, into the middle of the attic, where he +made "an offer" at it as if to strike, but the frailty and helplessness +of the little one disarmed even him, and as his eyes wandered to the +window to see that no opposite neighbour could watch them where they +stood, his arm fell to his side as he sat down. + +"Now, then!" cried Mr Jarker, "no pipin'; don't you try none of them +games with me, my young warmin'. 'Cos why, it's ware hawks to yer if +yer does. Now hook it back to that there corner." + +The child's eyes were turned timidly and wonderingly up to his, as it +shrank back once more to the corner of the attic. + +"Now, then!" cried Jarker sharply, "come here again." + +Like an obedient dog in the course of training, the little thing crept +back to his side, and then the tiny face grew more wondering and timid, +the eyes more round, and it was very evident that the little brain, +soft, plastic, and ready to receive any impression, was working hard to +understand the meaning of the ruffian's words. Bright and beautiful as +the faces shown to us on canvas as those of angels, the little +countenance, shining the brighter for the squalor around, was turned up +more and more towards Jarker, gazing so fixedly and earnestly at him +that he grew uneasy, fidgeted and shuffled his feet, and then his eyes +sank, guilt cowering before innocence; for, quite disconcerted by the +long, steady gaze, the ruffian rose and turned away, growling and +muttering, "She's gallus deep for such a little un." He then took a +short peep at his pigeons, walked back to the window, and stared long +and heavily at the white hands he could see busy at the sewing-machine, +and then turned once more to the wondering atom, trying to soften +himself as he stooped down, but the child only flinched as from a coming +blow when he patted the soft, bright curls. + +"Here, come here," he said gently, and he drew the child between his +knees as he sat down. + +"Now mind this here: nex' time she comes and plays with you, my +chickin', perhaps she'll say, `Would you like me to be your new mammy?' +she'll say; and then, `Yes,' says you; d'yer hear? `yes,' says you. Now +say it." + +But the little one only continued her wondering gaze till the fellow +left her, and slouched out of the room, after raking the last cinder +from the fire, in performing which he knocked the bottom of the grate +from its frail hold, and then, in his endeavours to replace it, burned +his fingers, and ejaculated so loudly that the eyes of the child were +turned upon him more wonderingly than ever. + +And then--was it that sympathy for the child moved the inmate of the +opposite attic, or that he had a natural hatred for Jarker? Jean turned +angrily from the window to a cage of half-a-dozen linnets the fellow had +brought him an hour or two before, and to his mother's rage and +astonishment, seemed about to wreak his fury upon the birds. He seized +one in his hand, and was about to wring its neck, but _ma mere_ leaped +forward to stay him, when his fierce gesture sent her back to her seat +to watch him. But he did not kill the birds, but carried the cage to +the window, and then let them go, one by one, till the last bird +hesitated at the wire door for a few moments, and then fled, with a wild +chirp of joy, far away into the smoky air. + +"Jean, Jean! but you are _bete--fou_!" exclaimed his mother, trembling +with fear and rage at this folly, as she thought of the money he had +given for the birds. + +"I hate him, I hate him!" hissed Jean furiously, while, watching him +through her closed eyes, the old woman nodded quickly to herself, as she +muttered and thought of her own early days, and it seemed to her that +Jean's heart was as easy to read as that printed book at his side. + +But at this time Mr Jarker was slouching out of his room, and +shouldering his way down the stairs, stopping the blowing of Mrs Sims' +fire for an instant, as he growled audibly in passing; then down into +the court, where the index fingers of his hands were thrust into his +mouth, and he was about to make a long and piercing whistle for the +delectation of some passing pigeons as they flew over the strip of +heaven seen from the flags of the court; but a glance at the first-floor +window where dwelt the Hardons checked him. The next minute, though, +the birds repassed, and Bill whistled loudly again and again; but the +birds would not listen to this shrill voice of the charmer, the charmer +himself, side-locks and all, went and stood at the bottom of the court, +against the bright blue gilt-lettered boards of the public, where he +rubbed the shoulders of his sleeve-waistcoat shiny, as he stood +slouching about, and sucking one end of his spotted neck-tie. + +"Whatcher going to stand, Bill?" said a gentleman of his acquaintance, a +gentleman with a voice singularly like one that had been heard in the +old Grange at Somesham upon a memorable night. This gentleman had a +piece of straw in his mouth, and his hands in his pockets, his coiffure +being of the same order as that of Mr Jarker, while, being evidently of +a terpsichorean turn of mind, he enlivened the street with a +"pitter-patter, pitter-patter, pit-pit, pat," toe-and-heel dance upon +the cellar-flap of the public-house, where, his boots being stout and +well-nailed, and the flap very hollow beneath, his efforts were attended +with so much noise that the potboy of the establishment thrust out a +closely-cropped head between the swing doors, where he held it as if in +the process of being shorn off, at the same time requesting the +light-heeled gentleman to "Drop that 'ere now, come!" + +But instead of standing anything to quench the thirst of the new-comer, +Mr Jarker stood upon the order of his going; for just then, laden with +a large parcel of work, Lucy Grey passed out of the court and +encountered Mr Sterne, who saluted, and then turned with a grave, +pained countenance to gaze after her, as he saw Jarker follow, slouching +along as if his boots were soled with lead, diver fashion, and he of so +ethereal a nature that the ponderous metal was necessary to prevent him +from shooting up into heaven like a stickless rocket minus the tail of +fire. + +The curate turned thoughtfully up the court, and began his round of +visits, listening to complaints here, supplications there, but finding +nowhere rest. He went thoughtfully through his round of duties that +day, hearing and speaking mechanically, for always before his eyes there +was the light, graceful form of Lucy, followed by the hound-like Jarker, +and as he thought the lines grew deeper and deeper in his forehead. He +listened to Mrs Sims' praises of the child--praises delivered in a +lachrymose tone, as a strong odour of rum pervaded the place. He +listened to _ma mere's_ complaints of Jean, and felt an insinuation +against her fellow-lodger's fair fame stab him as it were to the heart; +while surprised he gazed upon the fury with which the son turned upon +his mother; and then descending, his task nearly done, the curate sat by +the bedside of Mrs Hardon. + +There stood the sewing-machine in the next room; there was the chair in +which Lucy had been so lately seated, and where even now he could +picture her form. But, silent and abstracted, he listened for the +twentieth time to the story of the murmuring woman's troubles, and what +she had suffered since they had been in town. He listened, but he was +asking himself the while whether Lucy merited the love he would pour at +her feet--asking himself whether it was possible for a pure, fair, +spotless lily to bloom amidst the pollution around. Still, too, came +the remembrance of the words of the old Frenchwoman--"Our beauty, some +of us." Once admitting doubt to his breast, the strange thoughts teemed +in, bringing up the woman he had seen and tracked in vain, and above all +the low ruffian whom he had seen dogging the fair girl's footsteps but +that very day, when love had whispered, "Follow!" and pride cried, "Nay, +stand aloof!" for he recalled their last interview. Then, again, he +asked himself how dared he believe words that slurred her fair fame, +when his conscience whispered to him that they were like their source-- +vile; but, surrounded as he was by vice and misery, might he not well +wonder whether Lucy's fair face spoke truth in its candour-tinged +aspect, or was like the hundreds he encountered in his daily walks--fair +to view, but with a canker within? + +He told himself that he could watch her no longer--that he could not +play the spy; and once again he prayed for strength to conquer the +passion that seemed to sway him at its will; for he could not comprehend +the behaviour of its object. Love he had thought to be buried for ever +with his betrothed; but from her grave the seed seemed to have returned +to him untainted by time, and with all its quickening, germinating +powers ready to shoot forth and blossom in a wealth of profusion for +another. And he knew that it must be lavished upon Lucy, even though +she still repulsed him. And now, again, his eye brightened as, dashing +down the sinister thoughts, he would see only her faith and truth, +smiling at poverty when he called up the riches of her heart--riches +that he saw poured forth for the murmuring parent, for whose wants she +toiled on incessantly, winning for her many a comfort that the sick +woman could not else have enjoyed; and even then with the overflowings +of her young heart ready for the neglected child. + +"For the neglected child!" What a gloomy starting-point for another +train of thought, embracing its mother, tall, dark, and rouge-cheeked; +Jarker, the ruffian, tracking Lucy's steps; and lastly, _ma mere_, who +seemed even then whispering in his ear, "Our beauty, some of us!" +Arthur Sterne acknowledged that he was weak, though he fought hard with +his soul-assailing enemies; while the track of the storm he was +encountering was marked in his face, as he strolled slowly homewards, +but only to pause startled at the mouth of the court. + +Volume Three, Chapter IV. + +LUCY'S TROUBLE. + +Lucy's eyes turned very dim as soon as she had passed Mr Sterne, and +things wore a strangely blurred aspect. She would have given worlds to +have thrown herself upon his breast, and told all--of Agnes Hardon and +her sorrow, confided to her alone, as the suffering woman begged of her +to love her for her child's sake, and not to turn upon her the cold +bitter eyes of the world at large; and again and again Lucy had taken +the passive, wasted, tearful face of Agnes to her breast, in the rare +and stealthy meetings they had had, and wept over her, little knowing +that Agnes possessed a secret which she felt that she could not divulge +for the sake of those whom she had injured. Again and again Lucy had +implored her leave to confide in Septimus Hardon, but Agnes had refused +so firmly, telling her that the day her presence was betrayed would be +that of their last meeting--telling her so angrily, but only to kneel at +her feet the next moment, and ask her to bear for a little longer with +an erring woman, whose stay in this world might not be for long. And so +Lucy toiled on, bearing the scathing breath of calumny; pointed at by +suspicion; and wounded again and again in her tenderest feelings by the +only man she had ever felt that she could love. They were her own +words, poor girl, though little had she seen of the world at large. She +told herself that it was cruel of him to treat her as he did; but what +could she do? And then she shivered as she thought of stolen meetings +by night--meetings which should take place no more--while she wept +bitterly as she hurried through the streets thinking of the misery of +her lot. + +She had no veil to her shabby bonnet, and it was only at last by a +strong effort that she forced back the tears; for she felt that people +were staring hard at her as she passed. But it was no unusual thing for +people to look hard at Lucy Grey, while there was variety in those +glances; there were, from women, the glance of envy, the look of +sisterly admiration, and that bordering upon motherly love; and there +were the hard stare from puppydom, the snobbish ogle, looks of love and +respect, every glance that could dart from human eye; but the poor girl +hurried on as in a dream, seeing nothing, hearing nothing, but bent upon +the object of her journey. It was nothing to her that behind at a few +yards' distance came Mr William Jarker, favouring everyone with a +fierce scowl in return for the glances bestowed upon her, as he tracked +her with the pertinacity of a bloodhound, turning when she turned, +crossing when she crossed. Once only on her way back did Lucy tremble, +when a fiercely-bearded, middle-aged dandy half stopped in front of her, +so that she was compelled to turn a little out of her path, as with a +heightened colour her eyes sunk before the fellow's insulting stare. +But she did not hear his words, as, fervently wishing old Matt were by +her side, she hurried on. + +It sometimes happens, though, that those who are working for their own +devices do us many a good turn; and it was so here, for as the +studiously-dressed and bejewelled dandy turned and followed the fair +girl, he suddenly became aware of a rough shoulder forcing him aside, +when turning angrily, with umbrella raised to strike, he gazed full into +the heavy, bull-dog countenance of Mr Jarker, whose white teeth gleamed +beneath his flattened nose as though he were preparing to fasten on his +victim. + +The next moment the lemon-gloved hands were covering chain and pin, and +the heavy swell of the London current subsided slowly and disappeared, +leaving Lucy unmolested as she hurried on, followed still closely by her +self-constituted bodyguard, of whoso presence she was ignorant; while, +five minutes after, he made a side-bound into a doorway, where he stood +peering round the post and smiling like some hideous satyr of old, as +Lucy encountered Agnes Hardon, and stopped in the quiet street where +they then were. + +The sight must have been very gratifying to Mr Jarker, for he stood +leering, and rubbing his soft, whitish hands, pausing every now and then +to have a good gnaw at the nails, already nearly worn down to the quick; +and then stepping lightly from his concealment, he passed close behind +Agnes as she was whispering: + +"God bless you! Don't stay talking to me; go now. I'll get it away +directly he will let me. I have been five times already; but he was +either there, or some one of his companions waiting about." + +Mr Jarker gave a short, husky, forced cough as he passed, when, turning +hastily, fear and anger seemed to combine in Agnes Hardon's face, as she +caught Lucy's hands in her own, interposing herself, as if for +protection, till Mr Jarker had disappeared, when she hurried her away +by another route, and hastily took her leave. But Lucy did not see her +troubled, anxious face following at a short distance, and keeping her in +sight till she reached the end of the court in time to encounter Mr +Sterne, who saw almost at one glance Lucy, with Jarker standing aside to +let her pass as he bestowed upon her a familiar smile and nod, and Agnes +Hardon some fifty yards beyond, turning hastily and hurrying off; but +her he followed angrily, and with a suffocating sensation at his breast, +as if he were, knight-errant like, about to attack one of the evil genii +who shadowed the life of her he loved. Fifty yards in advance, though, +was Agnes, when he commenced following her steps, till a crowd around +that common object of our streets, a fallen horse intercepted his view; +and, when he had passed the throng, the figure he sought had +disappeared. + +"O, this weary, weary deceit!" sobbed Lucy, throwing herself on her +knees by her bedside and weeping bitterly. Then, sighing, she rose, +folded her mantle, and bathed her eyes before going to the sitting-room, +where in a few more minutes her sewing-machine was rapidly beating until +Septimus came and, with one loving hand laid across her red eyes, took +away the candle. + +Volume Three, Chapter V. + +MATT'S DISCOVERY. + +"Hold hard here!" cried a voice from a cab-window; and the driver of as +jangling a conveyance as ever rattled over London stones drew up at the +corner of Carey-street, Chancery-lane. + +"I'll get out here," cried the voice; and very slowly, and with the aid +of a stick, old Matt extricated himself from amongst the straw, a part +of which he managed to drag out into the road. + +The next minute the cabman was paid and had driven off. The boy who, +with a basket slung across his back, had stopped to witness the +disembarkation, and cut his popular song in half the while, resumed the +refrain and went on along the Lane; while, with a smile on his pale +face, old Matt slowly made his way down Carey-street, stopping to rest +at the first lamp-post. + +"Here I am," he said; "King Space come back to my dominions. I wasn't +going to ride and lose the pleasure of seeing it all. Thank God there's +no whitewash here, and everything's just as I left it; things looking as +if they hadn't stirred a peg; and I don't suppose they have, if they +haven't been costs, which certainly do grow and flourish well here. +Lord, sir, how beautiful and smoky and natural everything looks once +more! There's Hardon's old printing-office--ah, to be sure! `Grimp, +Deeds copied.' That's the trade to flourish here. Now then, sir, +good-morning! Let's get on a bit farther." + +According to his old custom, and heedless now of its being broad +daylight, Matt made his way slowly to the next post, making his crippled +state an excuse now for stopping, though there was hardly a soul to be +seen in Carey-street, and those who passed were too intent upon their +own affairs to notice him. + +"Slow work, sir," said Matt, stopping again, "glad to see you, though, +once more. Thought at one time, if ever I did it would have been upon a +cork-leg, sir; for I couldn't have stood a wooden peg, sir, anyhow; a +cork-leg all springs and watchwork, like old Tim Christy's, as used to +squeak with every step he took, just as if, being of cork, someone was +trying to draw it; and he never oiled that leg, for fear it should go +too easy. But there, I'm all right again," he continued, taking a pinch +of snuff, "and I call this real enjoyment, sir--real enjoyment. Only +wait till I've put him all right upon that point, and I'll have a bit of +dissipation. Let's see: the Vice-chancellor will be sitting like a +great god, listening to the prayers of the petitioners in Chancery. +I'll have an hour there, sir, and then take a sniff of the ink in one of +the old offices; and confound it all, sir, I wish you could join me! +I'll have half-a-pint of porter in Fetter-lane. I'm in for a regular +round of dissipation, I am, just to make up for all this being shut up." + +On again went the old man, rather short of breath, till he was well in +sight of the hospital at the end of the street; when, raising his eyes +just as he was about to stop, he caught sight of a pale, weary face at +one of the windows, and shuddered and turned away; but the next moment +he had stopped and turned, and was waving a hand to the patient gazing +from his prison-window. + +"God bless you, mate!" said Matt aloud, "and may you soon be out of it!" +And then there was a reply waved to his salute, and the old man turned +down the courts to the left, and soon stood in Bennett's-rents. + +"What, Matt!" cried Septimus Hardon, hurrying to open the door as he +heard his slow step upon the stairs; while Lucy took the old man's other +hand and helped him to a seat. + +"What's left of me, sir--what's left," said the old man cheerily; "and +here I am right and clear-headed, and I did see it all, sir: and I've +recollected it, and got it all put down here, so as you can read it, and +safe in my head too. It wasn't fancy, it was all right; and I did see +it, as I told you, in what must have been the old doctor's books." + +"But where? when?" cried Septimus eagerly. + +"And there was the name--`Mrs Hardon, medicine and attendance, so +much;' but of course I thought nothing of it then." + +"But," cried Septimus, as he hooked a finger in a button-hole of the old +man's coat, "where was it?" + +"Gently, sir, gently," said Matt, unhooking the finger; "mind what +you're after: stuff's tender. But there: you'll fit me out with a new +suit when you're all right--won't you, sir, eh?" + +"A dozen, Matt, a dozen!" cried Septimus eagerly. + +"And Miss Lucy here's to have as full a compassed pianner as can be got, +without having one as would burst and break all the strings--eh, miss, +eh?" + +Lucy smiled sadly. + +"But where did you see it, Matt--where was it?" exclaimed Septimus, +inking his face in his excitement, and totally destroying his last +hour's work. + +"Why, sir, no farther off than at my lodgings," cried Matt triumphantly. +"I did mean to be of use to you if I could, and I've lived to do it, +sir, and I'm thankful; but come along, sir--come along. I'm weak and +poorly yet, and there seems to be a deal of water collected in my +system--a sort of dropsy, you know; and it all flies to my eyes on the +least provocation, and comes dripping out like that, just as if I was a +great gal, and cried, d'ye see?" + +There was a tear in Septimus Hardon's eye as he warmly wrung the old +man's hand, and ten minutes after they were standing in Lower Series-- +place, with Matt smiling grimly at a freshly-painted set of skeleton old +bone letters upon a glossy-black board, announcing "Isaac Gross, Dealer +in Marine-stores;" but that was the only alteration visible, for Isaac +and the stout lady occupied the same places as of yore, and were at that +very moment engaged in an affectionate, smiling game of bo-peep. + +"Might have waited for me to dance at the wedding," muttered Matt. + +But there had been very little dancing at the said wedding; while the +trip necessary upon such occasions was one made to the Rye House, where +Isaac's attention was principally taken up by the jack-boot shown +amongst the curiosities--a boot which filled his imagination for days +after, as he sighed and thought of the evanescent nature of his own +manufacture. + +The greeting was warm on both sides, Isaac smiling at a quicker rate +than had ever before been known. But the visitors meant business, and +Matt exclaimed: + +"Now, Ike, we want to go over the waste-paper." + +Matt was outside as he spoke, and then Mrs Gross, whose head had been +stretched out to listen, found that what had been her property was in +question, so she cried, "Stop!" and waddled from her seat to where Matt +stood, seized him by the arm, and waddled him into Isaac's workshop, +from whence she waddled him into the back-parlour, where his bed, now +the only one in the room, was neatly made up, and the place somewhat +tidier than of yore, though the waste-paper heap was bigger than ever. + +"Now," said Mrs Gross, with a very fat smile and a knowing twinkle of +her eye as she sank her voice to a whisper, "Is it deeds?" and then she +looked at Isaac as if for approbation, that gentleman having followed +them into the room and being engaged in vain endeavours to thrust a very +large finger into his very small pipe-bowl. + +"Who married the kitchen-stuff?" shouted a small voice at the door, and +Mrs Gross angrily waddled out in pursuit, to the great delight of half +a score of the small inhabitants of Serle's-place, one of whom danced a +defiant _pas seul_ in a tray of rusty keys as he fled, laughing the +while at the fat threatening hand held up. But Isaac stirred not, from +having been accustomed to the gibes of the juveniles of the place, and +his skin being too thick for such banderillos as "Waxy," "Welty," or +"Strap-oil," to penetrate, so he merely stood wiping his nose upon his +leather apron till his partner returned. + +"Is it deeds?" whispered Mrs Gross again, and then in a parenthesis, +"Drat them boys!" + +"No," said Matt gruffly, "it ain't." + +"Then it's bank-bills," said the lady mysteriously, as she slily winked +at everyone in turn, her husband smiling at her acute business +perceptions. + +"No, nor it ain't them neither," said Matt. + +"Then it's a will," said Mrs Gross in a disappointed tone; "and there +ain't a scrap of that sort in the place, for I sold out last week." + +"'Tain't a will, I tell you," growled Matt. + +"Then it's dockymens," said Mrs Gross triumphantly, and she nudged Matt +in the side. + +"No it ain't; nor receipts, nor letters, nor nothing of the kind. If +you must know, it's them old doctor's books; that's what it is. Now, +where are they?" + +But Mrs Gross, though she had not the slightest idea as to what +doctor's books were meant, was not yet satisfied, but cried: + +"Halves!" + +"What's halves?" said Matt. + +"Why, we goes halves in what turns up," said Mrs Gross, who had a +famous eye for business, though she would keep dimming its... + +_Some lines missing here from the scans_. + +"Gross!" cried a sepulchral voice, which made Septimus start, till he +found that it had proceeded from Mr Isaac himself, though his face did +not betray that he had spoken. + +"Gross, then," growled Matt. "Now look here," he continued; "it's +nothing but an old entry as I once saw in some doctor's books on your +counter here, and we want to see it; for I hadn't sense then to know it +was any good; but if we find it, and it's what we want, my guv'nor here +will stand a sovereign, I dessay." + +"Put it down on paper, then," said Isaac, "and make him sign;" to the +great admiration of his partner, who patted him upon the back for his +display of business ability; and then, before a paper was touched, +Septimus Hardon, greatly to Matt's disgust, signed a promissory and +conditional note for the amount named. + +"Ikey," growled Matt, "I didn't think you had been such a Jew. If you +haven't let my rooms, you can get yourself a fresh tenant." + +But Isaac only smiled, and the task commenced--no light one--of turning +over the huge stack of waste-paper piled up before them. Dust, dirt, +and mildew; brief-paper, copying-paper, newspaper, old books, old +magazines and pamphlets, account-books with covers and account-books +without; paper in every phase; while eagerly was everything in the shape +of an account-book seized upon, and the search continued until, faint +and weary, they had gone through the whole heap, when with a despairing, +doleful look Septimus gazed upon Matt. + +"I'll take my Bible oath it was in a book I saw laid upon that heap. +Now then, where's some more?" and the old man said it feebly, as if +nearly exhausted. + +"No more anywheres," said Mrs Gross assuringly, as she smoothed her +husband's oily hair. + +"Sure?" cried Matt. + +Mrs Gross nodded, and retied the ribbon which confined her husband's +locks. + +"Where is it, then?" cried Matt. + +"Where is it?" repeated Mrs Gross. "Why, if it ain't here, in this +heap, it's everywheres. It's sold, and burnt, and wrapped round 'bacca, +and butter, and all sorts." + +"Hadn't we better go, Matt?" whispered Septimus, dreamily washing his +hands together after his dry custom. + +"S'pose we had," muttered Matt. "Just, too, sir, as I'd made so sure as +it was all coming right, and for the second time, too. Never mind, sir, +it'll all come right yet. Third time never fails. What do you say to +hunting up the Miss Thingumy at Finsbury, and hearing what she's got to +say?--plenty, depend upon it. News, perhaps, and it can't do no harm." + +But Septimus Hardon was in a weary, absent fit, and went away muttering +homewards, as, worn-out and weak, Matt sat down upon the waste-paper +ruins of the palace he had built in his own mind, and grimly listened to +the congratulations of his friends upon his return. + +Volume Three, Chapter VI. + +WEAKNESS AND STRENGTH. + +For a good hour together Mr Jarker would rest in a broken-bottomed +chair, smoking a short black pipe, his hands supporting his heavy chin, +and his elbows making pits in his knees, as, like some hideous old +cathedral gargoyle, he sat gazing fixedly at the little wondering face +of the child. From time to time he reversed his position to re-refresh +himself with a draught of his favourite beverage--gin and beer, a +beverage which always produced a loud smack from his thick negro lips. +If there was no fascination in the child's face for Bill Jarker, there +was most certainly fascination in the ruffian's face for the child; and +unconsciously imitating his attitude, it would rest its dimply plump +cheeks upon its tiny fists, and gaze again wonderingly, without a +thought of moving, till the lids slowly sank over the violet eyes, and +the little golden-haired, soft, lovable head sank sideways, with all +those prettiest of pretty motions seen in one of the most beautiful +sights in nature--a child dropping off into its simple trusting sleep of +innocence; but soon it would start into wakefulness again, with a +frightened air, and its little face drawn and ready to cry; but a glance +at the hideous face before it subdued the disposition, and once more the +same long, weary gaze commenced. + +This took place day after day, and a stranger seeing it might have +fancied that in this case innocence was exercising its power over guilt; +but one who knew Mr Jarker well would have arrived at the right idea, +namely, that this gentleman was making his plans. A pipe or two of +tobacco, a pint of beer strengthened with gin, and a long stare at the +face of his wife when living, a cat, a dog, or of late the child, had +been the preliminaries of more than one desperate burglary in a country +place somewhere within a circle of fifty miles' radius, taking Saint +Paul's as the centre. Bill's _confreres_ in the bird-catching +profession contented themselves with trips countryward to the extent of +eight or ten miles; but, though on the whole Bill and his two or three +companions caught fewer birds, he never let distance interfere with his +pursuits, and used to boast that the birds he netted were of a rarer +kind. Bill would travel third-class almost any distance to find good +pitches for his nets; and even then, perhaps, after a three or four +days' trip, and returning with hardly a bird, he seemed to be so +infatuated with the place and its prospects, that he would gather +together his two or three intimates, and go down again, travelling +slowly by road, setting off too in such a hurry, in a miserable cart +drawn by a wretched-looking hack, that friends and self would entirely +forget nets and call-birds, when they would console themselves with the +remark that they might take a few nightingales. + +So that Mr Jarker was not undergoing a softening process as he sat +staring at the child, for he was really making his plans; and this time +these plans had nothing to do with either birds or nocturnal visits. +There was something particular in Mr Jarker's head, or else he would +not have burdened himself with the child for a single day; while he had +carefully retained it in his custody now for many weeks; and the +ruffian's ideas must have been of a somewhat strange character, for now +and then he would shake his head at the drowsy child, and say: + +"Yes, my little chickin', you do for a bait." + +So of late, apparently for the sake of the child, Mr Jarker had +suffered the bellows; and, in consideration of a small sum weekly, Mrs +Sims had sniffed about the room, and, to use her own expressive words, +"done for him." But now, probably from too much spiritual exercise, +Mrs Sims was ill, and no one dared go near the ruffian's room but Lucy, +whose heart bled for the little thing. Left still for hours together +alone in the dreary room, sometimes but half fed, afraid to do more than +whimper softly, her sole amusement was to press her little face against +the closed window, and watch until she could catch a glimpse of her +neighbour, when the tiny hands would be clapped with glee. The +neighbours said it was a shame; but they had their own affairs to attend +to, and said no more. While, as might be expected, Lucy seized every +opportunity of tending the child most lovingly; watching for Jarker's +absence, and then hurrying up and spending perhaps an hour in the +miserable attic. + +"She must be ill," Lucy would think, "or something is wrong; for surely +it was fancy on her part that he should wish to retain the child;" and, +though anxious that it should be better tended, she looked forward with +dread to the time when it should be taken away; while, as anxiously she +watched for a visit from Agnes. Night after night the candle burned in +her window, as she worked on at some exercise; but Agnes Hardon came +not, telling her weary heart that it was for Lucy's good. + +Sometimes Jarker would omit to turn the key he always left in his door, +as if to provoke inquiry into his affairs, and to show the guilelessness +of his life; and then, after waiting until his footstep became +inaudible, the child would steal softly down step by step, fleeing back +if she heard a door open or a foot upon the stairs, but only to +persevere till, unobserved, she reached the entrance, when, watching +till the attention of the children of the court was directed elsewhere, +she would dart across the pavement, enter the opposite house, creep up +to the first-floor, and then crouch down by the step which led into the +front-room, and peer beneath the door, through the opening made by the +long hard wear of feet for a century and a half-watching, perhaps for a +couple of hours, the bright guiding spirit of the sewing-machine. But +at last Lucy would catch sight of the two round bright eyes, peering +beneath the door; and to her mother's great annoyance at one time, and +supreme satisfaction upon another, she would fetch in the child, when +according to Mrs Hardon's mood she would act; for if the invalid was +fretful and weary, the little thing would be taken up to Jean, where she +would stay willingly amongst the birds, as the cripple eagerly tried to +be of service to his beautiful neighbour. But there were difficulties +here, for Jean could only render this aid when _ma mere_ was absent, +though this was more frequently now since Bijou had learned to stand +upon his head, and so brought in more remuneration, without taking into +consideration his later accomplishment of climbing two chairs, rail by +rail, forefeet upon one, hindfeet upon another, and then smoking a +tobacco-less pipe in triumph upon the summit, as he spanned the distance +between the two chairs, and turned himself into a canine arch. But +Bijou doubtless did not enjoy his pipe for remembering how that he was +_bete_, and for thinking of the whip, and the rapping his poor legs +received before he was able to obey his mistress's commands--that is if +dogs can think. + +There seemed to be a tacit understanding between _ma mere_ and Lucy; an +acknowledged dislike upon the old woman's part, which made the latter +carefully avoid her, shrinking back into the room if she heard her +footstep, so as not to encounter the quiet bitter smile and sneering +gaze of the old woman, while _ma mere_ reviled Jean angrily, calling him +nurse-girl, _bonne_, when by chance she learned of his past occupation. +But Jean cared not, so long as there was something that should bring +Lucy to his attic, where he could feast greedily upon her bright face +and graceful form; and, could he have gone about, he would have followed +her like a dog. + +Jean's lark sang more loudly than ever, and Lucy's eyes had brightened +as she told the cripple again and again how she loved its sweet notes; +and, watching her press her lips once to the cage-wires, inviting the +speckled bird to take a seed from the rosy prison, Jean's eyes dimmed as +he gazed at her with a reverence approaching adoration. Visitor after +visitor came to that attic, and went, buying and selling, and the little +prisoners were constantly being changed; but the lark was there still, +though more than once of late Jean had pressed its acceptance upon Lucy +Grey; but with a sweet smile she had thanked him, begging that he would +keep it for her sake; and he kept it, in spite of many an angry word +from _ma mere_ when some advantageous offer had been made by a visitor; +and it still whistled from its perch in the window. + +"I will sell the bird myself; it is waste, it is pity, when we are so +poor," _ma mere_ would exclaim; and then Jean would turn upon her a +peculiar soft, sweet smile, and whisper, "No, _ma mere_, you will not +sell my bird, because I love it;" when passionately the old woman would +now scold, now fondle the cripple, as she hung over the back of his +chair. + +One evening when the moon hung high in air, waiting the fading of day +before shedding her pale light, Jean sat in his usual place in the +window, dreaming of scenes of which he had read, and thinking himself in +some sweet woodland home, forgetting the presence of squalor and misery, +and even of the cages, as he listened to the twittering of the many +birds hung around his head. There was a brightness in his eye and a +smile upon his lip, for he was gazing across the court at just such a +scene as once almost spellbound the curate. Merrily romping with the +child, he could see Lucy in Jarker's room, flitting backwards and +forwards past the open window. The child's happy laugh could be heard +mingled with its shouts of pleasure, for the pent-up joyousness of its +little nature was now having free vent. + +All at once Jean's look of quiet enjoyment changed to one of unutterable +rage and despair; the lips, but now apart in a soft smile, were drawn, +as if by some fearful pain, his teeth were clenched, and his eyes wild +and dilated. He tried to rise, but his helplessness was such that he +sank back in his chair panting; but, raising his crutch, he struck +savagely on the casement, shivering two or three of the little panes. +He tried again and again to get up, and inarticulate sounds came from +his lips. It was pitiful to gaze upon the struggle between the strong +mind and the weak body, which would not obey his will as he tried again +to rise; till, with a savage, guttural cry, more like that of some +disappointed beast of prey than a human being, he threw himself towards +the open window, as in his efforts his chair was overturned and he fell +upon the floor, where he lay agonisingly writhing in his impotence, as +he absolutely foamed at the mouth. + +Just then the door behind him opened, and, with a book beneath his arm, +Mr Sterne entered the room; when seeing, as he thought, the cripple in +a fit, he sprang forward and raised him in his arms to place him in a +chair, at the same time running over in his own mind what would be the +best course of action. But as he gazed in the poor fellow's dilated +eyes, and saw their look of unutterable despair, one of Jean's hands was +fiercely clutching his shoulder, and the other was pointing and waving +frantically towards the open window. + +The next instant, as if some strange suspicion had flashed upon his +mind, the curate was gazing across the court, to utter almost the +counterpart of the cry that had issued from the throat of Jean, as he +caught sight of Lucy, frightened and horror-stricken, backing towards +the room door, and Jarker, evidently half-mad with drink, holding her +tightly by one arm; for he had returned unexpectedly, and taking +advantage of the girl's preoccupation, had stolen softly into the room +and closed the door. + +Arthur Sterne saw this at one glance, and his face turned pale as ashes +with the thoughts that this hasty look engendered. The next moment he +had half-climbed from the window and stood holding by one hand, +measuring the distance across the court, as he stooped, lithe and +elastic, ready for the bound; but reason told him that it was utter +madness to attempt so wild a leap--a leap certainly death for himself, +and probably worse than death for her he sought to save; and dashing +back into the room he tore down the staircase. + +Recovering somewhat, Jean now let himself slide down upon the floor, +and, panting heavily, began to walk painfully across the room; for a +moment he looked at the window, but the next he was making for the door, +and then lowering himself from stair to stair. But before he was down +the first flight, there was rescue at hand for Lucy. Bounding up the +frail old staircase of the opposite house, Arthur Sterne dashed +frantically on, so that at every leap the woodwork cracked and trembled +as if ready to give way. The height never seemed so great before, as +landing after landing was passed, till he reached the last, to launch +himself against the frail door, which, driven from its hinges, fell with +a crash; and the next moment, dropping like some inert mass from the +blow which fell upon his face, Jarker made the old place quiver beneath +his weight. And there he lay, stupid and helpless from the sudden +shock; the effect of the blow being apparently enough to destroy life, +for the ruffian did not move. + +Hardly breathing, and uttering no sound, the child crouched fearfully in +a corner; while Lucy, trembling and half-fainting, clung to the curate, +as sob after sob burst from her breast; and at last, as if stricken by +death, she sank back pale and inanimate upon his supporting arm. + +But there were no looks of love in Arthur Sterne's face; for, with brow +knit, nostrils distended, and every vein in his face swollen and +knotted, he stood with his heel crushed down upon Jarker's bull-throat, +no mean incarnation of vengeance. Soon, though, the breath he had drawn +with difficulty as he stood there holding the fainting girl to his +throbbing heart, came more lightly, the expression of rage fled from his +features, and as he gazed tenderly upon the pale face so near his own he +pressed his lips reverently upon her forehead. + +"Lucy, my poor dove," he whispered, "will you not give me the right to +protect you, and take you from this place?"--"Our beauty, some of us," +seemed sighed at his ear. + +"A lie, a base lie!" he muttered fiercely; though even then a change +came over his face, the veins swelled once more in his forehead, and an +agony of strange thoughts passed through his breast. And now, pale and +anxious, two or three of the women lodgers came trembling to the door, +amongst whom was Mrs Sims, ready to take possession of the child, as, +hurriedly passing through the wondering group, the curate bore his light +burden to her home. + +Volume Three, Chapter VII. + +A MEETING AND ITS RESULT. + +It was late before Arthur Sterne left Bennett's-rents that night. +Septimus Hardon had been terribly excited--talking long and wildly of +his poverty being the cause of the insult offered to his child. He had +walked hurriedly up and down the room, gesticulating and threatening the +scoundrel who had so repaid Lucy's kindness; and again and again it was +upon the curate's lips to speak of the little one, and of Lucy's strange +intimacy with its mother; but his spirit revolted from the task. In +another case he would have spoken instantly; but here duty seemed to +move in fetters that he could not break. In all concerning the poor +girl he seemed bound to preserve silence till such time as some +explanation should be given, and through all he had been in constant +dread lest he should give her pain. + +"I must prosecute the villain!" exclaimed Septimus. + +"But the pain--the exposure--your child?" said the curate. + +"What! would you have him go unpunished?" exclaimed Septimus. + +"I would say `No!' directly," replied the curate; "but I cannot help +thinking of the painful scene in court, the public examination, and the +cross-examination by the prisoner's counsel; and these men can always +among themselves manage to get some able person to undertake their +cause. It would be a most painful position in which to place your +child. Her actions would be distorted to suit a purpose; and such a +scene--" + +Mr Sterne's speech dwindled off, and became inaudible; for he felt that +he had spoken unadvisedly, and a strange chill came over him as he +thought, in the event of the affair being in court, what hold the +opposing counsel could take of certain acts in Lucy's life; for, let +them he ever so innocent, the light in which they would place her would +be of the most painful character; and his lips were rather white as he +said, "Sleep on it, Mr Hardon, sleep on it." + +"I will," said Septimus proudly. "We are poor, Mr Sterne; but there is +no act in my dear child's life that will not bear the light of day." + +"Doubtless, doubtless," replied the curate in a low tone; "but, believe +me, my advice is given with the best of wishes and intentions, Mr +Hardon. Have I not always tried to be a friend? And if there was +somewhat of selfishness in my advances, I feel no shame in owning to you +that I am moved by a feeling of more than esteem for Miss Grey; to whom +any proceedings would, I am sure, be as painful as to myself." + +Septimus Hardon started, for this was as sudden as unexpected. Such a +thought had never entered his breast, and he gazed wonderingly at the +calm, pale face before him; as in the silence which ensued they both sat +listening to the painful, low sob which came now and again from the next +room, where, forgetful of her own infirmities, Mrs Hardon had been +trying to soothe the agitated girl. + +And then, hour after hour, Septimus sat talking with Mr Sterne--for the +first time now giving himself up entirely to his advice, and promising +to give up all thought of prosecution, while he sought at once for some +more suitable home for his wife and child, though, as he thought of his +narrow, precarious income, he made the latter promise with a sigh. He +talked long and earnestly, too, about his own affairs, being ready now +to take the counsel that Mr Sterne so freely offered; and when, with a +lighter heart, the curate rose to leave, Septimus shook hands, with a +puzzled expression upon his face, as if he hardly believed in the events +of the past evening. + +Upon slowly descending and reaching the door, Mr Sterne drew back, +asking himself whether he should be content, or seize the opportunity +that now offered for him to know that of which it was evident, from his +language, Septimus Hardon was still ignorant. The desire was strong to +know more, and he yielded to it; for there before him, standing in the +open court, and gazing anxiously up at the lighted window, was the woman +who had caused him so much uneasiness; but neither he nor the woman saw +that in the shade of the opposite doorway a villainous pair of eyes were +on the watch. + +Again and again he had encountered this woman since he had determined to +question her--upon the bridge at early dawn; by night, in the crowded +streets, dressed in the extreme of fashion; shabbily dressed by day; but +she always fled, and contrived to elude him. Who was she? What was +she? How came she intimate with Lucy? Was it merely for the child's +sake? Then why Lucy's dread? + +The opportunity was here, he told himself, and he would know; and then, +as he formed the determination, he stepped quickly out; but no sooner +did Agnes Hardon catch sight of the curate's pale, stern face by the +sickly flicker of the one lamp than she turned and fled, while, without +pausing to think, the curate closed the door and pursued her. + +A dark, gusty time, late, for two had struck but a minute before by +church after church--some sending their booming announcement clearly out +upon the night air, others discordantly, and jangling with the bells of +others. Turning towards the end of the court, Agnes ran swiftly, her +dress rustling, and fashionable boots pattering upon the pavement; but +her pursuer was quick of foot, and followed her along the end row, +through Harker's-alley, Ray's-court, along one labyrinth and down +another of the old district, now falling beneath the contractor's pick, +till they had nearly returned to the point from whence they started. +But flight was of no avail, and soon Arthur Sterne overtook the panting +woman, himself breathless, and, heedless of her fierce looks, caught her +by the wrist. + +"Come with me," he said sternly, as he drew her towards the entrance of +the dark court where they stood. + +"Why, why?" she exclaimed passionately, struggling with him the while. +"Why do you stop me? Why do you pursue me--you, too, a clergyman?" + +The answer to the taunt was a cold look, which Agnes Hardon saw and +felt; for the next moment she was weeping passionately. "Why do you +track and follow me, sir?" she exclaimed through her tears. "Let me go; +you hurt my arm!" + +"Will you stand and answer my questions, then?" said the curate, as they +now stood at the entrance of the court--a dark, gloomy archway, with a +doorway here and there. + +"Yes, yes," exclaimed Agnes wearily, "if you will be quick; but there, I +know what you would say, and it is of no use; I am past all that!" + +"Past all what?" cried the curate sternly. + +"Hope of better things," said the woman with so weary and despondent a +wail, that her hearer shuddered. + +"Hush!" he said; "you speak rashly, and without thinking;" and releasing +her wrist, he laid his hand gently upon her arm. "Listen," he said; +"you have your woman's feelings yet!" + +"No," she replied hastily, "all--all gone; driven out of me--dead. Let +me go, please; it's late, sir. I am a wretch, and it is useless to +talk." + +"But why do you pursue that young girl?" he said, pointing across the +street to where Bennett's-rents debouched. "Would you tempt her to be +your companion?" + +"No, no, no; my God, no!" half-shrieked Agnes, as she caught at his +hands; "don't think that, sir." + +"Then you _have_ some womanly feeling left," said Mr Sterne. + +"Towards her, perhaps, yes." + +"And your child?" + +"Yes, yes, yes," wailed Agnes; "but don't torture me. What do you +know?--what do you wish me to do?--why do you follow me?" + +"What is your name?" said the curate sternly; "and how came you to know +her?" and he pointed again towards Bennett's-rents. + +"Don't ask me, I cannot tell you," sobbed Agnes. + +"But you bring misery on her and on her home. You have some hold upon +her?" + +"No, no, no," sobbed Agnes hysterically; "none, none; but she knows who +I am, and pities me and my poor child. God's blessing on her!" + +"Amen!" muttered the curate under his breath, and his companion sobbed +so convulsively that she could not speak, while, as they stood in the +dark entry, a policeman came slowly by, flashed the light of his +bull's-eye upon them for an instant, recognised the curate and passed +on, and, till he was out of hearing, Agnes Hardon clutched the curate's +arm. + +"You are not afraid of the world and it's opinions," she said bitterly; +"it cannot hurt you. Stay with me and I will tell you all, for I +believe you mean me well." + +The curate bowed his head. + +"I am miserable, wretched," she sobbed, "and what can I do? That man in +the court has my poor child, and for some reason he will not give it up. +I have tried to get it away again and again, even to stealing it, sir-- +my own little one; but something has always prevented me, and he watches +me till, hardened as I am, I am afraid of him, for he comes over my +spirit like the shadow of some great horror about to crush me. I love +my child, my pure little angel, for--O sir, have pity on me, have +pity!--I am its mother, and what else have I here to cling to? Can you +not think how I must love it though I left it with that poor dead woman? +But she had a mother's heart, and was kind to it always. I could see +it in my darling's blue eyes even when it racked my heart; but I was +glad, though it would not come to me, and called her mother. I was +happy then, for did not she--she you say I injure--watch over it for me, +and tell me of its bright eyes and sunny hair and winning ways, while, +when I have listened to her, the tears have come gently to quench the +fire in my brain, and I could think of home and the past, while she--she +who loves my little one--lets me weep upon her breast, and I forget for +a while that I am lost, lost, lost for ever!" + +"Lost, lost, lost for ever!" She uttered these words so hopelessly, +with such a wail of agony, that they seemed to echo along the archway, +and to float off upon the night breeze, rising and falling, an utterance +never to fade away, but to go on for ever and ever while this world +lasts; to smite upon the sleeping ears of the cruel, the dissolute, and +the profligate; to awaken here, perhaps, one sorrowful thought for wrong +done, one thought of repentance; there, a desire to pause, ere it be too +late, on the brink of some iniquity that should break a trusting woman's +heart. + +Tenderly, and with such a strange feeling of compassion in his heart as +might have pervaded that of his Master whose words he taught, Arthur +Sterne took the weeping woman's hands in his, as, sobbing more bitterly +than ever, she sank upon her knees on the cold stones at his feet, +weeping as though her heart would break; nay, as if through the torn +walls of that broken citadel the flood of tears went seething and +hissing, the ruins yet smouldering and burning with the fire of the +fatal passion that had been their fall. + +"What shall I do, sir?" she cried at length, wearily looking up in the +face that bent over her. "I would take my little one away and go near +the place no more, for I have been seldom lately, not liking that he +should see me with her, for he followed us once, and I did not like it. +I would have told her not to go near my child, but there is a woman +sometimes there. He will not let me take it away. But tell me what to +do, sir," she said wearily, "and I will do it." + +"What!" she cried, starting up, "what!" she half-shrieked, as he related +to her the incident of the past night; "and this through me? Am I to +bring misery everywhere? O God, O God!" she cried, "that my weakness, +my sin, should be ever growing and bringing its misery upon others! But +stop, sir; listen," she exclaimed huskily, as she clung to his arm; +"what shall we do? If I could have seen this, sir, I'd have died sooner +than it should have happened; believe me, I would." + +The curate bent his head once more, as they stood facing the street, and +said, in low, impressive tones, "I do believe you;" but he took no heed +to a light, stealthy pace in the alley behind. + +"What shall I do, sir?" cried Agnes eagerly. + +"Take the child away at once," replied Mr Sterne, "and leave this life. +But will you?" + +"If the gates of heaven were opened, sir, and One said, `Come in, poor +sinner, and rest,' should I go?" + +The stealthy step came nearer, but was unnoticed. + +"Now tell me your name, and how came the intimacy of which I complain," +said Mr Sterne. + +"I--I knew the family; I knew Lucy--Miss Grey--before her father--and-- +pray, pray ask me no more," gasped Agnes appealingly. "I will do all +you wish, sir. Help me to get my child, and I will go anywhere you may +tell me; but don't ask me that, sir." + +"Nay," said Mr Sterne, with beating heart, for he felt that her reply +would drive away his last doubt, "tell me now; you may trust me." + +"Yes, yes," sobbed Agnes; "I know, but I cannot." + +The step sounded very close now, while the light from the lamp in the +alley was for a moment obscured. + +"I will do all that you ask," sobbed Agnes. "Tell me what else you +wish, and I will be as obedient as a child, but--" + +"Prove it, then, by telling me how began your intimacy with Miss--" + +There was a wild scream from Agnes Hardon as she thrust the curate +aside; but too late, for a heavy, dull blow from behind crushed through +his hat, and stretched him upon the pavement, where, for an instant, a +thousand lights seemed dancing before his eyes, and then all was blank. + +It was no unusual sound that, a woman's shriek, especially the +half-drunken cry of some street wanderer; but one window was opened, and +a head thrust out, whose owner muttered for a moment and then closed the +sash, for though he had seen a woman struggling with a man, he did not +hear the words that passed, nor could he see that the man was trying +hard to extricate himself from the woman's grasp; but there were other +wakeful eyes upon the watch. + +Volume Three, Chapter VIII. + +WASTE-PAPER. + +"Well, yes, sir," said Matt, standing hat in hand, "'tis snug and +comfortable, sir; and I'm glad to see the change, and I'm sure I wish +you long life to enjoy it. Glad you've got here all right, sir; and +sorry I was too weak to help you move. I've got the address down all +right in my memo-book: look here, sir--150 Essex-street, Strand, sir." + +"And now we'll go, then, Matt," said Septimus, rising. + +"Go, sir?" said Matt. + +"Yes," said Septimus, "if you will; for the thing has been too long +neglected already." + +"Very true, sir," said Matt: "but you told me as the parson, sir, Mr +Sterne, was going to take it in hand; and if so--" + +"Now, Matt," said Septimus appealingly, "isn't he lying upon a bed of +sickness, weak and helpless, and unable to move?" + +"Well, yes, sir, that's true; and a rum start that was, too. Wonder who +would have a spite against him? But I thought that now, sir, as +you'd--" + +Septimus Hardon took the old man by the arm and placed him in a chair; +for it was evident that he was a little testy and jealous of other +interposition in the matters in which he had taken so much interest; but +the cordiality of Mrs Septimus seemed to chase it away; while Lucy, +returning from a walk, beamed so happily upon the old man, that he +looked his old self again, and owned to the feeling that, as he +expressed it, he had expected that he was going to be "pitched +overboard," now there were new friends. + +It was partly by Mr Sterne's advice that Septimus had sought out and +asked Matt to accompany him this day; for though much hurt, and weak +from loss of blood, the curate had taken great interest in the future of +the Hardon family. At his request Septimus had sought and removed to +lodgings in Essex-street, and since then passed an evening by the +curate's bedside; for he had been found by a policeman perfectly +insensible, and carried home; and, though nearly certain of who was his +assailant, he felt indisposed to take any steps in the matter for fear +that affairs might be made public which he wished concealed. He had not +seen Lucy since; but somehow there was a feeling of repose and content +within his breast that it had not known for months; and he longed for +the time when he could again meet with the woman whose words would have, +he now felt, set him at rest for ever. + +There seemed, too, a brightness in Lucy foreign to her looks, as +Septimus leaned over her and whispered a few words before leaving; then, +after kissing her tenderly, he descended to the street with old Matt, +who, though weak, still refused sturdily every offer of a ride, and they +trudged steadily on till they reached Finsbury. + +"Hallo!" said Matt, "what d'ye call this? Same name, but the business +is changed, and that's her a-cutting up paper. To be sure--why it is +her! I thought I knew her face, but I was in such a muddle just then +that all my letter was mixed, and whenever I wanted a p, I got a q, and +all on like that. Why, she came and chattered away, and bought an old +set of tobacco-jars and covers and a heap of waste-paper of Mother +Slagg, just before I went into hospital; and there they are, sir--that's +them, fresh varnished and painted, and stuck on the shelf. Ikey took +'em home for her, and I remember asking myself ever so long as to where +I'd seen her before. Well, come on, sir. I want a bit of snuff, so +that's an excuse for going in. P'r'aps, after all, she's bought the +very paper." + +The visitors made their way into the old formal registry-office, turned +into a very smart little shop, fitted up with some taste; where Miss +Tollicks herself was busily weighing and packing a pile of those little +rolls of tobacco known as "screws." Fine thick paper, too, she was +using, such as would weigh well and add to the rather fine profit she +obtained upon her fragrant weed. For there was no mistake: Miss +Tollicks had executed her threat, turned the registering out of doors, +and taken to the business most popular in the streets of London. No +seat now existed for maids to sit and wait to be hired from ten to four; +no green baize; no intense air of respectability, but all quite the +correct thing as established by custom in the weedy way. There was a +monster cigar outside, set perpendicularly, with an internal gas-jet, +and a transparency bearing the legend, "Take a light." On the other +side of the door was a little, freshly-varnished, red-nosed, +chip-elbowed Scotchman, taking snuff in the imperfect tense, with his +fingers half-way to his nose; an imitation roll of tobacco hung over the +door; while just inside, upon a tub, stood a small black gentleman in a +very light feather petticoat, smoking a pipe about double the length of +his body. Then there were clay pipes, crossed and tied into +diamond-pattern d'oyleys, swung in the top panes of the windows; while +beneath them "so gracefully curled" a perfect anaconda of a hookah--one +that it would have taken a bold Turk to smoke. There were meerschaums +and brier-roots, cutty- and billiard-pipes; glass, cherry, and jasmine +stems; tobacco-pouches of india-rubber, looking like fresh-flayed +negro-skin; snuff-boxes of all sorts and sizes, embracing miniature, +scene, and tartan of every pattern; stacks of cigar-boxes carefully +branded but very European in their look; bundles of cigars tied with +fancy ribbon; the day's playbills on the walls; rows of snuff- and +tobacco-jars, as pointed out by Matt, and labelled from "Scotch" to +"Hardham's 37," and from "Returns" to "Latakia." There was a whole +tubful of odorous shag, and a stack of packets of Bristol bird's-eye; +the scales were of the glossiest, the glass-case of the cleanest, and +altogether the shop owned by Miss Tollicks seemed to be of the most +prosperous; for things looked smart and well attended to--a rare sign of +plenty of business, as, according to the old saying, "the less there is +to do, the worse it is done;" but there was a strong smell of varnish, +and it was evident that Miss Tollicks had been picking up her fittings +here and there at various secondhand stores, or, as Matt Space called +it, "on the cheap." + +Matt advanced to the counter and asked for his penn'orth of snuff. + +"Then you're not dead!" exclaimed Miss Tollicks, putting down the jar in +a most businesslike way, with motions rapid as her speech; for she had +banished the black-velvet blackbird and deportment along with the green +baize; but, not quite used to her business, in spite of her ability of +adapting herself to circumstances, she sneezed loudly as she lifted the +lid. "And how do you do?--there, dear me, how I do sneeze!--and I +thought I had quite conquered it, for it does look so--tchisher-er--so-- +er-tchisher! There, I'm sure I beg your pardon. And how do you do? and +you've got well again, like poor Mary did, in that horrible place, who +was dying too, and didn't. And Mr Harding too! and I'm so glad to see +you, for you were _that_ kind to me, I don't know what I should have +done else. Now you've come to ask me about the doctor again--now +haven't you?" + +Septimus said he had. + +"Well, now, I hadn't forgotten it, and you were both right, you know; +but I shall never forget your kindness, Mr Harding, for but for you +that day, everyone must have seen that I had been crying. But you were +right; and the doctor did live here, and died here too, ages ago; and +then his widow went to live somewhere in one of those quiet streets by +the Strand, going down to the river, you know; and then she died, and +there was a sale, and that's all; and it isn't much, is it?" + +Septimus said it was not, certainly. + +"But then, you know," said Miss Tollicks, "it's no use to try and make +more of things of that sort, is it? No, he didn't know the street, nor +anything more about it, for he bought the lease of the house of someone +else." + +As for Matt, he did not speak, but took snuff ferociously, and glared at +the paper squares upon the counter. + +"But there, do come in," cried Miss Tollicks; "and, dear me, Mr--Mr--I +don't know your name, but don't, pray, take snuff like that; you'll make +yourself ill. But there, do come in;" and in spite of refusals Miss +Tollicks soon had her visitors seated in her bower, in company with a +spirit-bottle and a couple of tumblers and sugar, a tiny kettle upon the +fire singing merrily. + +"I do suffer so from spasms," said Miss Tollicks as she placed the +suspicious-looking spirit-bottle upon the table; but all these +preparations were not made at once, for, from her many pops in and out +of the shop, and the rattling of the scales, it was evident that Miss +Tollicks had chosen the right business at last, and was prospering +famously. The decanter was brought out of a Berlin-wool-worked +overgrown dice-box on one side of the fire, the glasses from its ditto +on the other, the kettle out of a window-locker, and divers other ways +of economising space were shown; while the visitors were informed that +so much of the house was let off. "It all helps so," said Miss +Tollicks; "for London rents are enough to kill you; and you doing +nothing but feed your landlord." + +Old Matt grunted acquiescence. + +"Now one each, please," said Miss Tollicks, "just to be sociable; and +then you can speak up for the quality of my goods. How do you find the +snuff, Mr --?" + +"Space, ma'am," said Matt. "Good; very good, ma'am, but not durable." + +"That's right," exclaimed Miss Tollicks, as she pressed the two mild +Havannas she had brought in upon her visitors. "Don't mind me, pray--I +am trying to get used to smoke as well as snuff." + +Septimus and Matt were both non-smokers, but as they exchanged glances +they came to the conclusion that they could extinguish their cigars as +soon as they were outside. So Septimus set the example, with a very +ludicrous cast of countenance, by placing the little vegetable roll in +his mouth, and Miss Tollicks tore off a piece of paper from a square on +the counter, doubled, lit, and handed it to the smoker. + +Septimus Hardon's face was a regular study as Matt, grumbling to +himself, "Why didn't she make it snuff?" watched him trying to light his +cigar--a new feat to him entirely. + +"The other end first, sir," growled Matt; and in a rather confused way +Septimus made the requisite alteration, and then sucked and puffed so +vigorously that he extinguished the light, which he re-lit at the fire. +But the next moment his face changed from one of comical resignation to +a state of intense wonder, as old Matt, under the excuse of helping +himself to a light, was turning over some leaves of a heap of +waste-paper on a chair by the door. + +Suddenly Septimus dashed the lighted paper upon the table, hurriedly +extinguishing it with trembling hands, but not without oversetting his +glass of spirits-and-water. + +"What is the matter? Have you burnt yourself?" cried Miss Tollicks. + +"Is it, sir?" cried old Matt, reaching across the table. + +But Septimus Hardon did not move for a few seconds, but stood with his +hands pressed down over the roughly-folded piece of paper, into which +the spirits-and-water was now soaking, as it made a way between his +fingers. + +"Why didn't I give you a splint!" exclaimed Miss Tollicks, whose mind +was full of goose-grease, starch-powder, and cotton-wool. "Is it very +bad?" + +But Septimus Hardon did not speak, only slowly and with palsied hands +unfolded the soaked paper; but even then he could hardly read it for the +mist that swam before his eyes. Old Matt, though, not to be behindhand, +pulled out his glasses, and stretched out his hand to reach the paper; +but Septimus shrank back, and then read with difficulty, for the ink had +begun to look blurred with the wet: + + S. Hardon, + Medicine and at-dance 2. + +And that was all. Septimus turned it over carefully and found a list of +names, but no other entry; there was a figure, part of a date evidently, +at one edge, but it was charred, and as he touched it and held it +towards the window it crumbled away into brown tinder. He read the +entry again and again, and then looked at the ashes of the paper to see +if anything could be made of them. Then, as if for a forlorn hope, he +turned to his hostess, saying in a strange, husky voice: + +"The date's burnt off. Where did you get this?" + +"O, what have I done?" exclaimed Miss Tollicks. "What is the matter?" + +"Nothing, nothing," said Septimus, looking in a dreary, bewildered way +at Matt. "It's of no use; it's my usual ill luck, and it's of no use to +fight against it." + +"I never saw such a thing in my life!" cried Matt, bringing his fist +down upon the table so that the glasses jumped again. "Put it in a +book, and no one would believe it: and yet there it is. I wouldn't have +believed it myself if I had not seen it with my own eyes." + +"But where is the piece you tore it from?" exclaimed Septimus, trembling +still. + +"To be sure!" cried Matt exultingly. "But I was right--I did see it, +and she bought it, and Ikey brought it here, and it'll all come right +yet.--Where's the piece you tore it from, ma'am?" and he again greatly +endangered Miss Tollicks' glasses by thumping the table. + +Miss Tollicks hastily produced the other half of the square of paper; +but on one side the list of names was continued, while upon the other +there was the tail of a flourish, the tops of a few letters, and the +rest was blank. + +"Have you any more of these sheets--these book-leaves?" exclaimed +Septimus; when Miss Tollicks hastily took up the little heap on the +chair by the door, the same that had excited Matt's curiosity, and into +which he had been quietly peering. + +"Those are not the same," said Septimus despondently; "this is thicker." + +"Yes," said Miss Tollicks dolefully, as she examined the few remaining +squares upon the counter; "these are all different, too, and I don't +know how that scrap came to be left. I used all that thick paper first, +because it weighed well, and I used it for screws." + +"But," stammered Septimus, "it is a part of the very man's books--the +very man who lived here, and about whom we came to ask you." + +"Bless me!" said Miss Tollicks dolefully, "and I've been letting it go +for weeks past in screws to the Sun, and the Green Dragon, and the +Duke." + +"But let's see if there's any more," said Matt. "A leaf would almost do +all we want if it has only got the right dates." + +Matt's advice was taken: screws were examined, turned over, unrolled; +the tied-up squares of paper were looked at; Matt went down upon his +knees behind the counter and routed about amongst some rubbish; the +squares freshly cut up were looked over; and then once more the heap on +the chair in the room was scanned, leaf by leaf, but only one more +fragment was found, evidently a portion of the same book; but it bore a +date four years prior to the marriage of Septimus Hardon's parents. + +"Makes worse of it," muttered old Matt to himself; "but perhaps he was +only a young doctor, and one book lasted him a long time. S'pose we go +and have a look round at some of the publics," he said aloud, "eh, sir?" + +Septimus jumped at the suggestion, and together they noted down the +names of Miss Tollicks' principal customers for screws, for she said +that she was sure the thick paper had been used entirely for that +purpose; but on making inquiry at the different pewter-covered bars, one +and all of the stout gentlemen in shirt-sleeves and short white aprons +declared that they were sold out, and could have got rid of "twiced as +much." + +"I suppose," said Septimus to one red-faced gentleman, "it would be of +no use to ask you who bought the screws?" + +The man stood, and softly rubbed with a strange rasping noise his +well-shorn range of stubble on chin and cheek; then pulled open the +screw-drawer, looked in it, then at the counter, then at Septimus, as if +doubtful of his sanity, and said: + +"Well, no, sir, I don't think as it would." + +They returned to the little tobacconist's shop, Septimus holding tightly +to the newly-found scrap of paper. And yet it was useless--waste-paper; +no more. There could be no doubt about it's being the entry made when +he saw the light; but now it was found, with his own hand he had +destroyed the most precious part, for without date it was of no avail. + +Septimus Hardon felt sick at heart when he again sat down in Miss +Tollicks' room, and gazed with woebegone looks in his companion's face. +The prize as it were within his reach; his old troubles swept away; his +legitimacy proved--the cup almost at his lips, and then dashed away. It +was in vain that Miss Tollicks vented her well-meant platitudes, and +shone with hospitable warmth; Septimus Hardon seemed crushed, and Matt +had scarcely a word to say. + +"Have a little more sugar," said Miss Tollicks to the man of the bitter +cup. "What a tiresome world this is! And only to think of me buying +that very paper, and the great dirty ruffian of a man bringing it home, +and wanting to buy half-a-pound of tobacco before I began business and +had a license; and then asking me if I had any old boots, while he +chipped two of the jars shamefully." + +"Only think," muttered old Matt as they went slowly homewards, "for me +to have had that entry under my very nose, and then only turned it up +and wouldn't look at it." + +Volume Three, Chapter IX. + +BY NIGHT. + +Old Matt Space had a certain amount of pride in his composition, and, +like most people, he suffered for it. He would gladly have received +assistance of the most trifling nature from Septimus Hardon the day they +returned from Finsbury; but his companion seemed so dejected and doleful +that he had not the heart to bring forward his own troubles, and so it +followed that the same night he was complaining to himself about hard +times--those ever-recurring, inhospitable seasons when mental storms +beat upon the rocks of a man's faith, and many a shipwreck follows. +Hard times--times that the science, charity, and statistics of our days +soften so little. Warm sunshine, genial rain, bright skies, have but +little influence, and the times keep hard for some, though others, by +means of softening mediums, contrive to remain uninjured. + +In his dry way old Matt would sometimes say that if he did not cut up +well when he died, he should certainly cut up streaky--like thin bacon; +for times so fluctuated with him that before a small layer of fat was +well established, the lean would again commence; while, if it is fair so +to speak of a man whose life had been one long struggle for bare +existence, Matt had been somewhat improvident. What he called runs upon +the bank were common events with the old printer--times when there were +no deposits made, and trade was slack; it was a pleasant trade, +printing, he said--nothing to do to-day, and to-morrow busy, up all +night afterwards, and then perhaps another long rest. + +Old Matt stood in front of the Royal Exchange that night at eleven +o'clock, weak from his long illness, tired and faint too, as he lingered +there thinking of how he would like to make an onslaught upon the Bank +of England, and fill his pockets, now reduced to the lowest ebb, for he +had not sixpence wherewith to pay for a night's lodging. He had not +been to the mansion of Mr Gross to sleep but once since his return from +the hospital; for he was largely indebted to that gentleman, and though +scarcely anything had been said, Mrs Gross had dropped just a mild +hint, what she considered an exceedingly mild hint, to the effect that, +when it was convenient, they would be glad to receive one or two +instalments on account. + +This made Matt more shy, and after a day or two he stopped away +altogether, so that when Septimus Hardon sought at his lodgings, he +found him not, and had to inspect the interior of two or three +hostelries favoured by the fraternity before he found him out. + +"Ah, sir," said Matt, as he hugged a lamp-post, "the times that I've +seen them lugging the little chests and barrels in there--heavy so that +they could scarcely lift them, and any one of 'em would have set me up +for life. Specie, they call it, sir; species as I was always unable to +collect much of in my rambles through life; and it wouldn't take a deal +to make me comfortable, anyhow. Precious cold here, sir, for an old man +like me, and I don't know that I'd say no, just now, to one of those +little iron bedsteads with its clean sheets in the hospital--leastways, +if one could feel sure nobody had just died upon it, for the thought of +that gives one a turn like, and seems to fidget. Precious cold, sir! +Talk about the internal heat of the earth, I wish there was a little +more external. Crust of the earth, sir? Yes, sir, there's plenty of +crust, and precious little crumb. Red-hot fluid state inside, eh? Then +I shall move, sir--move. I was a good will to when I was in the +hospital; but I think I shall make up my mind soon, for the world ain't +safe--a volcanic, earthquaky place. I shall flit, as they say down +north." + +"Cold, cold, cold, sir!" shivered the poor old fellow after a pause, as +he looked down the long deserted City streets, that teemed so with busy +life in the daytime. "That scamp of a valet never reminded me of my +greatcoat--a scoundrel. Thinks a deal more of his own confounded self, +sir, than he does of his master. Now look here, sir--There; I know, of +course--it's all right; I'm a-going on, I am. `Move on,' says you; but +make the most of it, old chap; for you won't have me to move on much +longer." + +The old man spoke sadly as an approaching policeman cut short his +address; but he went on before he could be told, and made his way slowly +down into Cannon-street, where he stopped before another post. + +"Now look here, sir," said Matt, as though he had not been interrupted +for an instant, "we want an establishment here in town--a club for +gentlemen in my position to-night--where we could go and have a basin of +hot tea or coffee, or gruel if you like, and a decent, dry, clean, warm +bed under shelter, without going to the workhouse. Now, sir, when my +ship comes in, I mean to establish just such a place, and make it +self-supporting. None of your casual wards in workhouses, but a decent +place where honest people can go and do their bit of work over night or +in the morning, to earn their bed and board. Let the idle vagabonds and +tramps, sir, go to the casual ward; for there's hundreds of decent +people in town every night would be glad to do a bit of work and get +their meal and bed. Seems hard, sir," said Matt pitifully, as the cold +night wind swept down the street, and he shivered miserably, "seems +hard, sir, that in this great place where the wealth is almost running +over the side, things are so, that an old chap like me should stand here +to-night, as I've stood scores of times before, wanting the work and +means for a meal and bed, and not able to get 'em. Now, let's see, sir; +what shall we call my place? Hotel? No, that's too fine and grand. +Home? Well, no; that sounds like humbugging the poor creatures. +`There's no place like home!' I wish I was at home, I do," shivered the +old man. "There, now, there it is again! Another policeman. Public +streets, indeed! Ain't I one of the public, and haven't I a right to be +in them? Strange thing a man can't address a few words in confidence to +a friend without one of these fellows sticking his nose in. There, I'm +a-going. I ain't going to commit a burglary upon the post and walk off +with the gas. I wish there wasn't a policeman on the face of the +blessed earth! I'm a-going;" and in obedience to the wag of the +constable's head, the old man walked on towards London-bridge; but +before he was halfway there, he made another stoppage beneath a lamp. + +"Now, policemen are all very well, sir," he said, "but they're too +officious. Now, what did that chap do but put a stop to as fine a bit +of philanthropy as was ever devised for the benefit of humanity at +large? Only think, now, of the crowds of poor folks flocking there of a +night! There's your proper officers to see that there's neither talking +nor noise; there's your clean kitchen, with its great soup-coppers, and +rows upon rows of mugs and basins; there's your dormitories, with their +long ranges of beds, every one separate, clean hay in ticks, and a +couple of warm rugs; place heated by hot-water pipes, and all orderly +and regular--a place for sleep and rest, and no one allowed to disturb +it; baths and washhouses attached, and every chance given for a poor +creature to get Rest, Refreshment, and a Rinse--the three graces of +everyday life, sir. Open always, sir, until it was fall; while the fact +of a good, fair bit of work being done first or after, would keep a good +many of the canting casuals away. I mean to say, sir," said Matt, "that +it might be made self-supporting after the first start; and such a place +for the male and female poor of London, sir, would be an honour to the +people. Now then, once more, sir, what shall we call it? `Hotel' won't +do; `home' won't do; `hospital' sounds too sickly. Tell you what, sir, +we'll call it `Space for All,' in honour of its projector. Why, +confound it, sir, I'd have it got up by a penny subscription, if my ship +happened to sink and I couldn't do it myself. And mind you, sir, I'm +not going to have my money fooled away in a grand architectural +building, where all the space is taken up by rooms for the officers; I +want it all for the poor privates, the soldiers fighting in the war of +life. I'm not going to have all my money spent in outside show; I want +it for furnishing and the inside--furnishing the inside of the building +and the inside of the people. I want something plain and useful, clean +and simple, with kind, quiet, firm people to attend, and see that things +go right, and guard against imposition. But there, sir, we should be +safe to be imposed upon some time or another, more or less; but then +look at the good we should do. Ah! you may well twinkle, and laugh, and +blink, old fellow, for that would be something like a job done, and one +worth talking about." + +Old Matt gave the lamp a parting slap, and shuffled on towards the +bridge, where he stopped in one of the recesses, and tried to get +himself into a comfortable position. + +"Ugh-h-h, how cold these seats are! Rich corporation like the City, +too, and not have the decency to put a few cushions for a poor fellow! +Just like to put stone seats round the table on Lord Mayor's Day. +Wonder how the aldermen, sheriffs, and common council would like it! +Spoil their appetites, I know!" + +"There," said he after a while, as he looked over the parapet, and down +at the stone steps leading to the water, "that would be a better place +than this, and more quiet and sheltered. There's t'other steps leading +down to Thames-street there; but then there's sure to be a dozen more, +and I ain't fond of company. But a fellow must sleep somewhere, so +where shall it be--steps, 'Delphi arches, or the Park? Park's too far +off, and the ventilation too powerful, seeing as there's so much water +to cool the wind--makes it chilly sometimes. Rather like the Park, +though; something respectable about it; genteel neighbours; soldiers on +duty; air sweet; water clean. But there's the rails to get over, and I +ain't up to rails to-night; and, besides, they tear. But there, with +this suit, I could stand a tear or two as well as anyone; and I don't +s'pose I could tell myself which was the new slit if the spear-head of +the rail wasn't in it. Down the steps is all very well; but the company +ain't select, and you run the risk of being robbed. So you do down the +arches; but then there's something suitable about them--handy to work in +the morning. That's the spot for me, so here goes. Pity I came all +this way, though, now the penny-boats don't run." + +But the weary old man seemed in no hurry to move, for with his chin +resting upon his hands, he stopped, gazing down into the hurrying black +stream far beneath--black and stealthy as it hurried through the arches, +lamps here and there twinkling and showing like blurred stars in the +swift waters; and a stealthy, gliding race was that of the river as it +bore along its stolen secrets towards the sea--secrets unknown to those +who watched from far above; but there were rich spoils and treasures, +dropped from the side of lighter and vessel, swept out of sewers; +secrets, too, of life and death; and now and then something strange and +bloated and sodden was whirled round, to rise to the surface and stare +up, as if appealing with its lack-lustre eyes to the star-sprinkled +heaven above--gazing fearfully upwards, but swept round again the next +moment by the eddy, and forced on by the hurrying stream, dashed against +prow, borne under slimy keel, forced savagely, and entangled amongst +chains, thrown upon mudbanks, and left by the tide half buried in the +black ooze; swept clear again, and borne off up the river, down the +river, scraping along bridge-pier or stone wharf, buttress or caisson, +ever hideous, bloated, horrible--these of the river secrets glided +along. + +"Ah!" muttered Matt softly, "who can say that there is poverty here in +London, when everywhere the gold is looking out of the great works in +which it has been sunk. There are ships, ships, ships, and steamer, +lighter, and barge; and how many of 'em loaded with what I should call a +large fortune!" And now with a sigh he leaned his forehead upon his +hands, and gazed along the river at the dimly-seen wharves and +warehouses, with here and there a light flashing from the river. Then +he thought of his own weary life, of Septimus Hardon and his sorrows, +pondering long upon the ill-success that had attended their efforts, and +seeing too plainly how ineffective they had been; and then he sighed +again loudly, and started, for a small hand was laid firmly upon his +shoulder with a tight clutch, and turning quickly round, there, with the +light of the gas shining full upon it, he saw as it were the face of an +angel, seen through the thin veil of sin and misery that sullied its +beauty--a beauty that still clung to features fair and girlish. + +The strange couple gazed earnestly at one another for a few moments, +when the girl spoke huskily: + +"You weren't thinking of that, were you?" + +"Thinking of what, my lass?" said Matt quietly. + +"Going over?" said the girl, with almost a sob, and at the same moment +catching his wrist and holding it with both hands tightly, as he tried +to withdraw it, while her nostrils seemed to distend, and her breath +came heavily as she held him firmly, fearing lest her words might prompt +him to the desperate leap. + +"No, no, my lass, no," said Matt wearily, as he sank in a sitting +posture upon the stone seat. "I have thought of such a thing--time +back; but not lately. I have thought that it would be putting an end to +a weary way when one gets very footsore, and that no one would miss a +poor, worn-out fellow like me; but I've thought better of it, and I'll +wait till I'm called, my lass. I was only thinking a bit." + +"You looked as if you meant to," said the girl, loosing his wrist, and +kneeling upon the seat in the very attitude the old man had taken a +short time before. "But one can't help thinking of it sometimes, and +almost feeling as if the river drew you like. It seems as if you'd go +to sleep then, and wake no more. Not much to leave here, is there?" she +added slowly. + +Old Matt shook his head, and, leaning forward unseen by his companion, +he took a firm hold of her dress, for the girl went on dreamily as she +looked down on the black water. + +"I saw one of our girls once; she went off Waterloo, and they got her +out, and she looked so quiet and happy like. But there," she added in a +reckless, offhand way, "I sha'n't do it, I haven't the heart. There, +you needn't hold me, old man;" and she snatched her dress from his +grasp. + +A deep, hollow cough checked her for a few minutes; and Matt sat in the +cold recess gazing on the slight, graceful form, as the well-dressed +girl knelt upon the seat--frail, fair, and apparently not twenty. + +"Lend me threepence, old man!" she exclaimed suddenly, as she turned to +him. + +"What for?" said Matt. + +"Glass of brandy," said the girl, holding her hand pressed to her side, +and then battling hard once more with her cough. + +"I haven't a halfpenny left," said Matt drearily, "or I shouldn't be +sitting here, my lass. But you're better without the brandy, and +there's no place open now." + +"There! I don't want your money, old man," said the girl; "only one +gets so used to asking, it comes natural. Are you hard up?" + +"Yes," said Matt drearily, "close as I can be." + +"Here!" she exclaimed, holding out sixpence. "You may as well have it, +as for me to take it back." + +The old man stared at his companion for a moment, and then raised his +hand to take the money, but he suddenly lowered it again. + +"No, my lass, no," he said; "thank you all the same, but I can do +without it." + +The girl's eyes flashed as she looked angrily at the old man, and then +raising her hand, she dashed the money over the parapet, and sank down +upon the seat sobbing violently. + +"There!" she exclaimed passionately, as Matt spoke soothingly to her; "I +know, and I deserve it all. I wish I was dead--I wish I was dead!" + +"I didn't mean to hurt you," said Matt kindly. "Now go home, my lass, +and try and forget it." + +"Home!" said the girl, with a forced mocking laugh. "Yes, when it's +time. Good-night old man. You didn't meet Marian, did you?" + +"Who?" said Matt absently. + +"Marian," said the girl; "I'm looking for her. But you don't know her; +good-night;" and she went lightly off, humming the snatch of a popular +air as she went towards the City; while, after waiting until the girlish +form had disappeared, old Matt rose himself and began to shuffle back +the same way as he had come; looking longingly at a passing hay-cart +bound for the market, and thinking of the fragrant stack whence the load +had been taken, and how pleasant it would have been to have dragged out +a heap to nestle in. For the old man was cold, weary, and ill; and as +he slowly shuffled along, many a thought of those who rested upon +luxurious couches came to his mind. He crossed the great echoing +cathedral yard, and passed slowly from gaslight to gaslight, too weary +now to talk. Now and then he would encounter a policeman, who turned to +look after the slow, shambling figure. At intervals, a cab would rattle +by him, while once, with its hollow, heavy rumble, a fire-engine dashed +by, the light flashing back from the shining helmets of the firemen; +then there was a short, rushing vision of something red covered with +figures, and drawn by two steaming, plunging horses, a faint dying away +of the hurrying wheels, and then all still once more, for it was now the +most silent hour of the whole twenty-four in great London. Dull and +dreary looked the streets, with hardly a wayfarer in sight, and those, +perhaps, women who paced wearily along or talked noisily to a companion. +But no one heeded Matt as he still shuffled onward, more than once as +he passed through Fleet-street gazing up at the gas-lit windows of the +newspaper-offices. + +Past Lower Series-place, looking in the dark night like the mouth of a +sewer, emptying itself by the bridge--Temple Bar; past Essex-street, to +stand and gaze down it for a few moments thoughtfully; past the last of +the four churches, and the street leading to the "Bridge of Sighs." +Onward still, and then into one of those hilly lanes, up which in busy +day came clattering the heavy teams of wagon--horses with their black +load--down one of those river lanes along which came sighing the +damp-laden winds, whispering of being lost upon the great stream, and of +having wandered from the green trees, where in summer the reeds rustled, +and the silver water glided past emerald banks--whispering of cooling +groves, and the gladdening, sparkling, dancing wavelets, sheltered woody +islets, and the sweet, pure country air; but now lost in wintry weather +upon the breast of the great river,--lost, after wandering by muddy pile +and slimy, horrid, loathsome drain and sullying sewer; lost, as they had +swept past wharf, bridge, pier, and barge; they came in despair, weeping +tears from their misty burden, sweeping amongst the gloomy houses, and +causing a shiver as they passed along. + +For a moment some bright recollection of the past seemed to strike the +old man, and he paused thoughtfully beneath a gas-lamp; but old Matt's +memories of waving reed and rustling tree were few, and he sighed and +passed on, thinking only of his sought-for resting-place. Onward, and +down beneath the great black yawning arch, to where he could hear +voices, while above the faint damp fever-reek of the place, came the +fumes of tobacco-smoke. On still, with hands outstretched to avoid +collision with cart or wagon, but more than once he tripped over a +shaft, as some stabled horse rattled halter or chain through the ring of +its manger, and Matt sighed with envy as he thought of the warm straw. + +To a miserable fire at length, with several miserable objects huddled +round, and amidst jest, laughter, and foul language, a voice yelled out +a verse or two of a current song, a man and woman dancing hard by, their +shadows cast, wildly distorted and grotesque, upon the reeking +brickwork, where they almost seemed to cling. Then, too, came that +peculiar "glug-glug" sound of liquid passing from a bottle, and a voice +shouted to the old man: + +"Come on, matey; heaps o' room to-night. Give's a pipe o' baccy." + +"All right," replied Matt, backing into the darkness, and shaking his +head, as he shuffled hurriedly along till he reached the Strand once +more. + +"Can't stand that now," muttered Matt; "nerves too weak. No idea there +was such a pressure of business in the hotel. Foreign gentleman that, +dancing--wonder whether his organ's down there." + +Heavily, listlessly, and with drooping head, old Matt walked slowly back +towards the City, now stopping in a doorway, or resting leaning against +a shutter; but soon to shuffle on again, as his heart seemed to whisper, +"O, that it were day once more!" + +Tramp, tramp through the silent streets of the great wilderness. +Thoughtful after a strange, numbed, weary mode, the old man made his way +into Thames-street, looking hopelessly about the while for some dry +sheltered spot, where, unnoticed by the police, he might coil up as +hundreds do nightly in our streets, trying to forget the present as they +wait for the coming of the desolate future. + +At last, less particular now, he was nearing the dry arch of +London-bridge, and thinking of the steps as a place to rest his aching +bones, when, from his half-sleepy state he suddenly roused up, for down +from a turning in front came a couple of policemen with a stretcher, +while, hurried and excited in her manner, her long hair lank and +curl-less with the dank night wind, followed the poor girl he had seen +upon the bridge, now talking earnestly to one of the constables. + +The new-comers did not notice Matt, and after walking onwards for a +short distance, with the old man closely following, they suddenly turned +down between two large piles of warehouses, along a narrow passage up +which came the odour of the river borne on the moaning wind, where the +rugged broken pavement was wet and slimy. + +There was no feeling of fatigue and misery now to bear down the old man, +as, led by some impulse, he followed the police, his heart beating +wildly as he glanced at the stretcher and recalled the hospital. There +was something weird and strange-looking in the oil-caped figures as, +seen in the misty darkness, they passed along; and the eager voice of +the girl sounded hollow and echoing. Down to the river-side, where the +muddy water could be heard rushing amidst the floating piers and moored +barges, with a hurried whispering secret sound,--here where barge and +lighter were moored closely together and steamers were buoyed, waiting +for the coming day. High warehouses towered above them, with cranes +jutting out, gallows-like, at intervals as if just deprived of some +malefactor's body that had swung to the chain, and then dropped in the +river to be swept away. Piles were driven thickly here; slimy, +mysterious-looking stone steps led down into the water, right down into +its secret muddy depths; and an old boat or two floated hard by, secured +by small chains, which rattled backwards and forwards over their +gunwales as the tide lifted, and bore them to and fro in its ebbing and +flowing and eddying currents. + +But there was light here, sparsely shed over the scene by a single +flickering lamp, whose panes seemed bedewed with tears. The pale blue +flame jumped and danced, burning bluely as it was nearly extinct, and +then flashed up again with regular throbs, from water collected in the +pipe. And now as Matt drew nearer, he saw the light flash from the +shiny wet cape of another policeman, standing talking to a couple of +nondescript waterside men in Guernsey shirts and heavy mudlark boots, +who stood leaning against the mooring-posts and smoking hard; while all +three seemed to be keeping vigil over something lying upon the ground +covered with an old sack and some matting, upon whose uncouth form the +blinking gaslight looked down; now showing its shudder-engendering +proportions, now leaving it all but in darkness. But as the light +flashed up, there was a tiny trickling stream sluggishly flowing from +beneath the sack in a tortuous way to the edge of the landing-place, +where it dripped slowly with a little echoing plash into the running +waters, which beat against the stones and leaped and rose, and fell with +a monotonous lap-lap as if seeking to rise, and drag back the secret +taken from their bosom. + +It was strange, but far off in the country, in Somesham town, Doctor +Hardon clenched his hands and groaned in his sleep, as the perspiration +stood in big beads upon his forehead; but though in his dream he saw the +stern faces of his brother and nephew, and went through the +church-yard-scene once more, it was, perhaps, merely a fit of +indignation, or on account of certain speculations which had threatened +to prove failures, even though, after his fashion, he had made vows at +his conscience-shrine, and promised to seek out his lost child, and to +do something for Septimus Hardon should they succeed. + +And 'twas strange, too, that Mrs Doctor Hardon should wake up with a +wild cry from an oppressing slumber, and then, trembling from a strange +sense of dread, cry hysterically, and he for hours thinking of her +child. Strange, perhaps; but such things have been. + +The policemen stopped, and set down their stretcher, saying something in +an undertone to their fellow; the two men smoking left their posts, and, +beneath the lamp, the girl leaned against the wall trembling visibly, as +again and again she coughed and pressed her hand against her heaving +chest. + +Old Matt drew nearer and nearer, his claw-like fingers working +convulsively, as if to tear off the wet covering before him; his head +was craned forward, his dry lips parted, and then he stopped short as +one of the men stooped and lifted the sack, so that the light flashed +across a pale face "dreadfully staring through muddy impurity," for with +a wild, wailing cry, the girl started forward and threw herself on her +knees, sobbing bitterly; and the men, hardened though they were to such +scenes, fell back a step or two, with some show of respect for the +sorrow before them. + +The wind moaned and sighed, and mingled with the poor girl's cries; the +chains rattled noisily, and the waters seemed to leap and dash angrily +at the steps, rising higher and higher minute by minute, fearful of +losing their prey; while Matt stole nearer and nearer, trembling in +every limb--nearer and nearer still, with his eyes fixed upon that pale, +staring face, till a policeman laid a hand upon his breast to stay him +from interrupting the mourner's sorrow; but, putting back the hand, Matt +pressed on with a chaos of thoughts hurrying through his brain, bright +amongst which seemed to shine forth the face of Lucy Grey, as, stooping +lower, he now looked down upon this countenance which he had, ere now, +seen raised wildly and appealingly to his, when he had gruffly talked of +time, and then, shivering as if stricken with some paralysing seizure, +he gasped almost to himself--"It's that poor girl!" + +Volume Three, Chapter X. + +BY DAY. + +The public might have been present in force, but they were not; for +inquests upon bodies found in Thames' stream are common events, such as +find their way into corners of the morning papers in the shape of short +paragraphs. And in this instance there was a very seedy-looking staff +to represent the Press--namely, a man who winked solemnly at old Matt as +he passed him on his way to a side-table beside the jury. The necessary +witnesses were there apparently, and the inquest dragged on its slow +length as they told all they knew. But Matthew Space must be quoted as +an exception; he did not tell all, only that he knew the poor woman by +sight, while he rightly said that he was ignorant of her name and home. +It would be time, he thought, to tell all when there was no more danger +of publicity, and so he allowed himself to be huffed by the coroner for +taking up his valuable time. + +But now came forward a pale, well-dressed, weeping girl, who stated that +her name was Eleanor. + +"Eleanor what?" said the coroner, frowning very severely, and oozing all +over his very high, bald forehead with the quintessence of morality; for +the poor girl shivered before him, and looked appealingly from face to +face of the jurymen. "Eleanor what?" said the coroner again, with quite +a snap. + +"Anderson," said the girl sobbing; and then for a few minutes she could +not proceed to tell her tale; how that for a year past she had always +tried to see those girls who were taken out of the river. She hardly +knew why, only that she had known some of them, as she knew poor Marian; +and there seemed something which drew her towards the river. She met +the policemen, and they let her go with them, for she was looking for +Marian, and somehow she was not surprised to find her there. + +Had known her a long time--years, she thought--and they lodged together. +She had often said that she was tired of life, but never talked about +her friends, or anything of the past: thought she came from the country. +Had not seen her before for days, and had been uneasy, and fancied she +had gone over the bridge, as many did--could not tell why, unless +because she was tired of her life, and had the feeling of being drawn to +do it. Her name was Marian--that was what she was called--but thought +it was not her real name; did not know why; but many girls like her gave +themselves fresh names. She gave witness a little Bible once, with +passages marked in it, but there was no name in it. Never spoke of +anyone else, or of herself, but was always very kind, and had nursed +witness once through a bad fever, not long back, and never left her +night or day, when no one else dared come near; and now she was gone. + +There was a pause here longer than those made while the coroner had +taken down the depositions, during which he had frowned very severely; +and now appeared greatly annoyed at the unbusiness-like sobbing of the +poor girl, who sat down again upon a form behind old Matt, who tried to +whisper a few words of comfort, as the jurymen mostly seemed very intent +upon the paper before them. + +Then followed the doctor to tell of his horrible task, and express his +opinion respecting the marks of blows upon the face of deceased, such, +though, as might have been caused by striking against some part of the +bridge in falling; he was of opinion that she must have struck twice, as +there was a fracture upon the back of the skull; and she had evidently +been dead some days. + +"Found dead." + +And then there was a little quiet bustle, and scraping of chairs upon +the oilcloth, for the inquest was over; and old Matt and the weeping +girl were standing outside by some railings. + +"Strange as we should meet again after talking as we did." + +"Yes, yes," said the girl sadly; "but why didn't you say you knew her +when I spoke to you?" + +"Didn't know her by that name," said Matt; "and I had only seen her a +few times, hardly to speak to. But about that Bible?" + +"Well!" said the girl sadly. + +"Have you got it now?" + +"Yes," she said; and then she turned, for a hand was laid upon her arm, +and one of the jurymen led her on a few steps talking long and +earnestly, till after repeating something aloud two or three times he +walked away; and Matt and the girl, two of the waifs of London streets, +went slowly on, not noticing that they were watched. + +"Poor, poor Marian!" sobbed the girl, stopping by a doorway. "Told me +to read the words she had marked in the Bible, and then to go and do +that!" + +"Well, well, well," said the old man, "let's hope she has gone to a +better world; and now, my lass, where are you going?" + +"Back to my lodging," said the girl wearily. + +"That gentleman told you to call somewhere, didn't he?" said Matt. + +"Ah, yes," said the girl abstractedly, "I think so." + +"Now I don't believe you remember it," said Matt; "but I happened to +hear it, and I'll write it down. Now, look here;" and he brought out +his old, ragged memorandum-book and the lead-pencil stump; and then, +using the crown of his hat for a desk, he wrote down the address +carefully, tore out half a leaf, and gave it to the girl. + +"There, my lass," he said, "take my advice, and go there; and now I want +you to let me have that Bible." + +"What for?" and the girl looked wonderingly at him. + +"It's a whim of mine, that's all," said Matt. "But you'll--" + +He paused, for a hand was laid upon his shoulder, and turning round he +stood face to face with the juryman who had spoken to the girl. + +"What paper was that you gave to the girl?" he said roughly. + +"The one you ought to have given," said Matt, resenting the question, +and the tone of voice in which it was asked. + +"What do you mean?" said the stranger. + +Old Matt was weak and ill, or he would have retorted angrily; but he +only said, "An address." + +"What address?" said the juryman dubiously. + +"Well, then, yours, if you must know," said Matt. + +The juryman looked keenly at the old printer, who met his gaze without +flinching. "It was easy to remember," said the former. + +"I know that," said Matt, "but I thought she'd forget; and you seemed to +mean well by the poor lass. I watched you, sir, at the inquest." + +"God knows I do, my man," said the juryman softly; "and I ask your +pardon for playing the spy; for I must confess to having had my doubts +of you." + +"It's all right, sir; and we can cry quits," said Matt. "I had my +doubts, too; and was in two minds about writing down the address; but if +you can do anything towards saving the country the cost of another +inquest, for God's sake do. No, thank you, sir; I don't want your +money. I don't like taking it where I haven't earned it. It's a weak +point of mine, and has stood in the way of my comfort more than once: +and I'm old now, sir, and can't break myself of bad habits. Good-day, +sir." + +The juryman smiled as they parted, and old Matt hurried off talking to +himself; for the girl had disappeared while he had been detained. + +"I want to see that Bible," he muttered, "and he's hindered me +dreadfully. But, yes; no; yes; that's her; there she is," and he +shuffled on after a slight figure he saw crossing the road, some +distance down the street. "Hang the folks, how they do get in your way +when you're in a hurry," he growled. "Now, stoopid, which way is it to +be?" And then he hurried and panted along to overtake the retreating +figure, which had again disappeared. Dodging amongst the vehicles he +encountered, he crossed the road, pressing on, with everyone he met +apparently resenting his hurry, till passing a turning, he looked down, +to see the figure he had followed nearly at the bottom. + +"Gets over the ground well," muttered the old man, wiping his forehead; +"but I'm safe of her now. Must have that Bible; there may be some clue +there, and I want to have this matter cleared up; but how can I tell +Miss Lucy?" + +The old man reached the bottom of the street, and stood within twenty +yards of the figure he sought to overtake, when hurrying on he caught up +to her, saying-- + +"My lass, you'll let me have that book, won't you?" + +The figure turned sharply round, as Matt touched her shoulder lightly; +but the face was strange, and, taken aback and confounded, the old man +made a rough apology, and stood panting as he clung to the railings of a +house hard by. + +Volume Three, Chapter XI. + +MR JARKER IS WANTED. + +Mr William Jarker had had a long holiday from the public school where +her Majesty's officers try to instil lessons of good, while their +refractory pupils resent them to the best of their ability. So long had +been Mr Jarker's holiday, that the police had grown uncomfortable at +their inability to bring something home to him, but he was wanted, at +last, on account of a collection of plate and valuables that had +suddenly disappeared after a few linnets and finches had been netted +some thirty miles down in Hertfordshire, though even here the burglary +would not have drawn Mr Jarker into trouble had it not been for a +confederate who had "peached" in consequence of what he called an unfair +division of the spoil. + +So Mr Jarker was wanted just at a time when he felt very comfortable +and secure. He had certainly felt rather uneasy for a few days past, +and read, or rather stumbled through, the various newspapers, taking +particular interest in passages relating to discoveries of bodies, and +inquests, but now this uneasiness had worn off, and no further notice +having been taken of his behaviour by the Hardon family, he felt in very +good spirits; though for all that, he had kept away from +Bennett's-rents, so that he might not encounter the Reverend Arthur +Sterne, who had been assaulted, he heard; and on the principle of giving +a dog a bad name and then hanging him, Bill thought he might be accused +of the assault. As to the child, he learned that the curate had taken +it to his own home. + +Mr Jarker's notice was drawn to the fact of his being wanted, one day +when making his way from the Dials into Holborn. Naturally given to +casting his eyes about him, he became aware of a quiet-looking man +following him at a distance; and no sooner did Mr Jarker catch sight of +that face, than horrors of the past untold danced before his eyes for an +instant; but the next moment he thrust his hands into his pockets, drew +a long breath, and began to whistle, all the while looking out ahead for +what he next expected to see--a policeman in uniform. + +It might be supposed that the whistler intended to give the person who +followed him so closely into custody, but this was not the case, for Mr +Jarker imagined that no sooner was there a policeman in sight, than the +quiet-looking man would begin to close up. + +But it might be somebody else who was wanted, so Mr Jarker crossed the +road--so did the quiet man; Bill crossed again--so did the quiet man; +and, though the weather was cold, the bird-catcher perspired, as he +muttered-- + +"I wonder what it's for?" + +However, he appeared to take matters very coolly, and peeped here and +there into the bird-fanciers' shops, and so made his way into Holborn, +now and then directing a peep at his quiet friend, who was apparently +not taking the slightest heed of his proceedings, but all the same +thoroughly realising the difficulty of finding one of his brotherhood +when wanted. + +Passengers were plentiful here, and the crowd thickened as Jarker went +on, till a good opportunity seemed to present itself. + +"Now for it!" thought Bill, and after a glance over his shoulder, he +dodged in and out and about for five minutes, making more than one feint +of having turned out of the main street; then, being apparently very +much taken with the contents of a draper's window, he stopped short, and +glanced to the right to find the quiet-looking man in precisely the same +place, and worse still, probably in obedience to a sign from the said +quiet man, to the left there was a policeman closing up quickly. + +"Meant for me!" muttered Bill; and again, as he turned hotter, "I wonder +what it's for?" while once more glancing to the right, there was the +quiet man also closing in quickly. + +But not so quickly as Jarker made a leap backwards into the road, dodged +right under a horse's legs, round an omnibus, past cabs, carts, and +wagons, and in and out and about like an eel, invulnerable to the tread +of horses' feet or the passage of wheels. Ordinary people would have +been run over half-a-dozen times, but Bill Jarker was not, and on he +tore, with the two constables in full chase. + +Jarker had not much start, but he made the most of it, with the full +determination of making his escape if possible; perhaps even for a small +robbery he might have run hard, and fought hard, to avoid capture; but +at the present time there was a look of desperation in his face that +prevented more than one willing hand from attempting his seizure; and +away he sped, in and out of the vehicles coming and going upon the +slippery road. All at once he caught sight of a new peril; right in +front there was another policeman, and if, to avoid him, he took to the +pavement, so great was the crowd of passengers, that he must have been +hemmed-in and captured directly. So on dashed Jarker, right at the +constable in front, coming down upon him with the impetus of a +battering-ram. Over he went, and on dashed Bill with the other +constables in close pursuit, and shouts and cries rising on all sides. +"Stop thief! stop thief!" with the tail of followers increasing each +moment. + +Jarker's breath came hot and thick, and he felt that a few more minutes +past, and he would be marching through the street handcuffed and with +his liberty stopped; he thought no more of that, but shuddered, while, +at the same moment, hope animated his breast, for he could see, far in +front, a haven of safety: right before him the street was up, and the +boards and bricks told of repairs to the sewers, while the large heap of +earth pointed out the depth down at which they lay. + +On tore Jarker, racing over the ground with a long, loping run, and on +came the police, with the tag of idlers; but the goal was reached. With +one bound Jarker cleared the barrier, ran and stumbled over the loose +earth for some distance, and then dropped to the first platform, slid +down ladder after ladder, passed man after man, too astonished and +startled to attempt to seize him, sometimes falling, sometimes climbing, +with the deal planks springing, and brickbats and clods of earth falling +after him. One man made a blow at him with his spade, but it came too +late, for Jarker reached the bottom, leaped into the black stream, here +but little over his knees, went splashing away under the echoing dark +arch of the sewer, into the dense black passages that run for so many +miles under London, and was out of sight long before the first policeman +was half-way down the great opening. + +The main sewers were not made in those days, and the quiet man stopped +for an instant to give some instructions to one of his constables, the +result being that he leaped into a hansom cab, and very soon after, as +the tide was up, a Thames-police row-galley was being pulled slowly +backwards and forwards in front of the mouths of two large openings +which lent their black, affluent streams to the great river. + +On through the darkness went Jarker, always with the stream, his hands +outstretched in front, and his head turned from time to time to catch a +glimpse of the flash of some bull's-eye lantern. On he pressed, but not +unpursued; since for some distance a couple of policemen, the one in +plain clothes and he who had been knocked down and made vicious by the +blow, came plashing along. + +Once the ruffian stopped, drew out a heavy life-preserver, and with an +oath turned back, but directly after he was pressing on again, carefully +feeling his way by the slimy wall, for the water grew deeper and deeper, +and more than once his quick ear detected the light scuffling noise as +of some little animal running, and a plash as of something leaping into +the murky stream. + +At last Jarker stopped, for the long-continued silence and the thick +darkness taught him that he was unpursued; but he knew well enough that +though the pursuit had perhaps ceased, the entrances to the sewers would +be carefully watched; and he felt too now that there would be no home +for him again in Bennett's-rents. + +"They're gallus clever!" growled the ruffian when, after pressing on a +little further, he once more stopped short--"they're gallus clever, them +p'lice, but they don't know everythink." + +And now, after listening long and carefully, he turned off short round +to the right, and waded onward for a few minutes, when he stopped again +to draw forth a box and light a match; but he found that they were +wetted, and nothing followed but faint streaks of phosphorescent light; +when with a curse he threw the useless splints away and pressed on. + +Dark, plashing, echoing paths, with noisome mephitic smells and the +sound of hurrying waters--paths that might in ignorance be traversed for +days and days, until the weary wanderer sank down for the black stream +to bear him out to the great river. Here there would be a smaller sewer +off to the right, here one to the left; while drain-pipe and culvert +emptied their filthy streams, augmenting always the larger sewer where +the ruffian waded; as the current swelled and rose and rolled swiftly +on, at times with almost sufficient force to render his footing +insecure. + +At one time the water was up to his breast, but it soon shallowed when +he entered a branch and faced the stream, guiding himself ever with his +hand upon the slimy wall, as if thoroughly acquainted with his road, and +proceeding the while at no mean rate along the gloomy way; for Jarker +had been here before, and he pressed on fearless of darkness or rats, +thinking that the only danger that could assail him would be a rush of +water after a heavy rain. At times, though, he stopped splashing and +beating the stream, and imitating the snapping, snarling bark of a dog, +for something would run scratching over him--then another, and another-- +keen, hunger-bitten little animals; then there followed splash after +splash, as they leaped into the water. Now he was clear of them again, +and stopped puzzled, feeling along the wall on both sides for something +he could not find--some guide-mark or open sewer-mouth; but now again +came the little eager animals, hunger-driven and fierce, crowding and +swimming round him, swarming up his back and breast, and biting sharply +with their little keen teeth as the wretch leaped and bounded about, +tearing half-a-dozen off to make room for a score. + +"If I only had one of their gallus lights!" shrieked the ruffian, +forgetful of the risk of being heard, and of the _ruse_ he had before +successfully practised, and in the horror of his position ready even to +have given himself up as he cursed and yelled in a frightful manner--the +hideous noises echoing along the vaulted sewer, and sounding doubly +frightful. + +"Curse 'em! I shall be gnawed to death!" shrieked Jarker, as he could +not help recalling the times when he had gloated with delight over the +performances of some steel-teethed terrier in a pit amidst a dozen rats; +and now, as he fought there, splashing about in the water, and tearing +off rat after rat to crush them in his powerful hands, he could not but +feel how the tables were turned, and groaned piteously as a great dread +came upon him--a horror blacker than the black darkness around. But +Jarker fought on savagely for his life, while the diminutive size of his +adversaries formed their protection again and again. He had his +life-preserver out now, and struck with it at random, fierce and heavy +blows, each of which would have beaten the life out of a dozen rats, but +only once or twice had they any effect, and then he struck the brick +side of the sewer, when the lead knob was loosened and fell from the +whalebone handle into the rushing water, and with a curse Jarker dashed +the useless fragment away. + +Faint and harassed, his great brute strength of no avail, his hands and +face streaming with blood, Jarker now made a fierce rush up stream; but +his progress was slow with the water so deep; when, as if fearing to +lose their prey, the rats redoubled their efforts and leaped upon him +furiously, till, half-mad with the horror of their fearful assault, one +he had never known before in his many sewer wanderings through having +been provided with a light, Jarker drew in a long breath, exhaled it +again, thoroughly inflated his lungs as he beat off his assailants, and +then plunged beneath the water, groping his way slowly up stream, and +keeping under the foul water for nearly a minute, when he raised his +head for breath, and plunged under again and again. + +His plan succeeded; for, evidently at a loss, the tribe of rats had gone +down with the stream; and then he was alone and afraid to stir, lest he +should bring them back, as he stood panting and dripping with the +noisome water, and leaned against the slippery wall. + +"I did say as I'd keep a dawg," growled Jarker at last; "and if I'd ha' +had one--" And then he burst out into a hideous string of oaths and +curses at what he called his ill luck, as, after listening for some +time, he resumed his way in the echoing subterranean labyrinth, +trembling lest the rats should have heard his voice. + +But he did not go far before he stopped as if puzzled, and stood +thinking, and listening to the rush of the stream and the trickling of +drain after drain as it emptied itself into the main current, itself but +a tributary of a greater. He dared not retrace his steps on account of +the rats, but went slowly on; stopped, went on again; stopped once more +to scratch his dripping head; and then he gave a leap and a cry of +terror as he felt an enemy swim up once more and try to effect a +lodgment. Then he hurried forward through the dense black darkness, +then back a little way in a strange, excited way, tearing and splashing +about furiously as a new horror assailed him; and at last muttering low +blasphemies, muttering them in a low whisper lest they should be heard +by the rats, he made another push on for many yards, cursing the police, +the rats, and his ill luck. Once he stumbled and fell with a heavy +splash, to be swept along over and over by the stream before he +recovered his footing to stand half-drowned and clinging to the bricks, +giving vent now to a whimpering, sobbing howl, that seemed as if it had +come from a dog; for, with his courage gone and his head in a whirl, he +stood now in the intense darkness afraid to move, as his imagination +peopled the sewers around him with horrors at the very thought of which +he shuddered; for in spite of scores of rambles in these subterranean +channels, with whose many turns he had considered himself perfectly +familiar, Bill Jarker had lost his way. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +The police turned back after pursuing Jarker for a short distance along +the sewer; but though not disposed to follow him along the dark subway, +they had not given him up, for the outlets were carefully watched both +by the places where repairs were going on and also at the mouths in the +Thames' bank; while, after proper arrangements had been made, the sewers +were searched that night with lanterns; the principal man engaged more +than once announcing in a very loud voice, which went echoing along the +arched ways, that he (Jarker) might just as well give up as be starved +out; but for all that, Mr Jarker was not found. + +"Not much use hunting along here," muttered one man to another; "here's +a hundred places where he could hide till we got by." + +"Remember that poor chap we found just here, Joe?" said one man, +evidently quite at home in the place--a rough fellow in a Guernsey shirt +and high boots, and wearing a hair-mask. + +"Ah," said another, "well." + +"What was that?" said the quiet man, who was also here. + +"Chap we found all along here," said the other, "and brought him out in +a basket." + +"Basket?" said the quiet man. + +"Ah!" said the other; "bones lying all along here; trod on 'em as you +went--picked clean." + +"Pooh, nonsense!" said the quiet man, who had not shuddered before for +at least ten years. + +"Right enough," said the other sulkily; "rats!" + +"Here, let's get out," said the quiet man, "we are doing no good;" and +he made the light of his bull's-eye lantern play along the surface of +the water to where he could just see a little head above the stream as +its owner swam rapidly away, leaving an ever-widening track behind. +"Let's get out; it's no use to go splashing along here; if he isn't +drowned, all we can do is to wait for him." + +"He ain't drowned," said a policeman, thrusting his lantern up a drain +and peering in; "he's too much of a rat hisself, and I wouldn't mind +laying that he's worked his way up to light before now." And the man +stopped, gazing up the black noisome channel before him as if it +possessed some attraction. + +"Gone up there, safe," said the quiet man, laughing. "Go up, Tom, and +see; I'll wait for you." + +"Officers allus goes fust to lead the way, and privates follers," said +the policeman. "Nice place, though, ain't it?" + +"Whereabouts are we now?" said the quiet man. + +"Don't zackly know," said the man in the hair-mask. "Not far from +Holborn, I should say." + +"Going up there, Tom?" said the quiet man, unscrewing the top of a small +dram-flask. + +"Arter you, sir," said the policeman. + +The quiet man took the "arter you" to apply to the dram-flask, which he +passed to his follower; and as no one seemed disposed to crawl on hands +and knees along the narrow place, the party slowly retraced their steps +to where they had descended, and it was with a feeling of relief that +they found themselves once more in the clear night air. + +Volume Three, Chapter XII. + +WHAT MA MERE KNEW. + +"You mad fool, Jean! you shall listen, and you shall hear all," cried +_ma mere_ furiously; "and I will torment you till you see that you are +_bete_. The little worker--the pink doll--is not for you; and you shall +not have her. But it was good sport, Jean--rare sport, Jean. That +sniff woman, poor fool! told me. He carried her down the stairs-- +carried her down in his arms, of course, for he loves her; and let him +marry her if he will; who cares? for she is not for you. Do you hear, +_bete_? he carried her lovingly down in his arms." + +Jean winced as he sat in his old place at the window, but pretended not +to hear, though from the working of his nostrils it was plain how +eagerly he drank in every word. + +"No, Jean, she is not for you," cried the old woman. "I hate her, and +you shall not love her, but someone else; for she has always set you +against me. I know--I know all--all--all!" she exclaimed, muttering and +nodding her head; "he struck down the Jarker--big wretch; and then the +Jarker waited hour after hour, hour after hour, into the dark night, and +watched for him till he was talking to the painted woman, and struck him +down too; and then I saw more too, and I was not going to tell--O no-- +though I think he killed her. But no, no, Jean, I would not tell, for I +have my plans; and pah! there are plenty more painted women. But no, +no, Jean, you shall not have the pink doll. You must love me, Jean, +till I tell you to marry." + +The young man writhed in his chair, but he spoke no word; while his +mother knitted furiously, clicking her needles and smiling maliciously +as she watched him sideways. + +"No, no, Jean, you shall not have the pink doll; and you cannot see her +now--they are gone." + +"But she will come," cried Jean angrily, with something of his mother's +spirit bursting forth. + +"No, no!" half-shrieked his mother; "she shall not--I will not have her. +But no, she will not come, you _bete_, for the preacher is ill with the +Jarker's blow, and she nurses him and smoothes his pillow. Fool!" she +cried in a sharp, cracked voice, "I will torment you to death if you +tear not the hateful little thing from your foolish heart. You shall +only love me till I tell you. But now listen: it is dark now, and I +have my plans. The Jarker is away, and the police hunt him. Now +listen, fool, while I tell you. They may take him, but I hope not yet; +for you shall be rich, Jean--you shall have money and all that the great +people have, and plenty of fine dolls shall be proud to have you, Jean; +for I am proud of you; and what was she? Bah! nothing. I know the +Jarker's secret--I know it two years; but he does not think it, for I +have been still and waited two years, Jean--more. He suspect me once, +but he dare not touch me, and I have given him no chance since. And +should I tell till it was time? No, no!" + +_Ma mere_ leaned over towards her son, and casting down her knitting in +her eagerness, one of the dogs ran to pick it up, but she struck the +poor thing angrily with Jean's crutch, and it ran yelping back to its +corner. And now she whispered long and eagerly in the young man's ear, +till his cheek flushed and eyes sparkled, for he was coupling all he +heard with the name of Lucy Grey. + +"Gold and silver--much silver and rich things, Jean," hissed _ma mere_. + +"But have you seen them?" cried Jean eagerly. + +"Bah! no; but what then? Why was he out night after night? To catch +birds? Bah! no, but to pluck birds of their fine feathers, gay +feathers, rich feathers, and he has a store, I know it." + +"But he may come back," said Jean huskily. + +"Do I not say the police hunt him? They have been here to seek him," +hissed his mother; "and when I have taken his honey I will show his +empty nest, and they will send him to the galleys. Yes, yes. But come, +fool. There," she said, kissing him, "thy _mere_ loves thee, Jean. No, +no, lean on me; you must leave the crutch, it is noisy. No, no, he dare +not come back here to be taken." + +_Ma mere_ placed a piece of candle in her pocket, along with a box of +matches. She then led Jean to a chair by the door, left him seated, and +went softly back to the window, which she opened, and then gazed down +into the court and anxiously at the windows where there were lights. +Then once more closing the window, she returned to her son, opened the +door, and listened. But there were voices on the stairs, so thrusting +Jean back, she leaned over the balusters to try and hear who waited +below, but without avail, so she returned to the room. + +"But we will be rich, Jean--rich," she whispered, "and there shall be no +more of this pinching for bread. You shall not have poor workers but +ladies glad to see you smile, _mon fils_" and the old woman cast her +lean arms round the cripple's neck, kissing him fondly, though he +remained thoughtful and impassive, apparently listening to the impatient +movements of some sleepless bird. + +"But listen, Jean--it was very horrible; but I saw all, and I shall tell +some day when it is time. I saw the Jarker strike the preacher down, +for I had been watching too. I came back late, and saw the Jarker and +hid myself; because he is a savage, and I would not meet him by night +never since I knew his secret; but when I was hid, and he had struck +down the preacher, I saw him run this way to cross the road, but the +painted woman dash at him and hold him, fighting fiercely with him, till +I would have helped her--but I was old and weak, Jean. Then he struck +her down, Jean--such a coward, cruel blow--but she clung to his legs, +and he kicked her, so that I hear his boot upon her poor head, and I +felt sick, Jean, but I dare not speak; and as he came closer I shrunk in +the doorway and watched, for he ran into the court; but the painted +woman was up, and ran again, and caught hold of him, and held on, and I +could hear her say just inside the court there, `Give me my child, give +me my child!' and he struck her down again. But once more she held to +his legs gasping, and saying, `My child, give me my child!' and in her +fierce, angry way she seemed to crawl and wind up him like a serpent, +while--ah, Jean, I am old and coward, and I shivered and trembled to see +it all. There was no noise, only the fierce whisper, `Give me my +child!' and the struggling, and I saw him strike at her again and again +in the face, while she held her poor head down in his breast that he +should not hit her; till at last they fell, and I heard her poor head +strike the stones, and I sink down on the passage-floor, Jean, for I +could not bear it, and I don't know how long for, but when I look out +again there was nothing in the court--nothing but the miserable light-- +and I dare not go out and see, Jean, for I was frightened. I think +perhaps he killed her, poor painted woman, and I am sorry, for she loved +her child as I love you, Jean, and would die for you; but stop, and then +the police shall know, and they will take him--but not yet. Poor +painted woman! I have not seen her since, and the preacher has her +child. And it is not ungrateful like you, Jean. Ah! do I not cry long +hours for you, and you do not mind, for you think always of the doll, +and I hate her. She coaxed you from me with her soft white skin and her +cat's ways. She is deceitful, and tries to make the preacher marry her; +but he shall not yet, for I will tell him something that shall frighten +him. But there, bah! let him marry her, and take, too, her old imbecile +of a father and the weak, crying mother--let him marry them all. But +you--you shall be rich, Jean, and keep no more birds. You shall have +doctors, and get rid of your crutch, and people will be proud to know +you." + +But Jean spoke not; only sat listening to his mother's words as he built +up some bright future and thought of Lucy Grey. + +At last _ma mere_ rose again from the seat she had taken, and went to +the head of the staircase; but still there were voices to be heard, and +this time, without coming back, she sat down with her pinched cheek +leaning against the balusters, where she remained patiently listening +for quite an hour, when she softly rose and whispered to Jean as she +supported him; and then slowly and painfully the strange couple made +their way down to the passage, where, after waiting for a few minutes, +they crossed the empty court and stood in the dark entry of the opposite +house. + +Late as it was--nearly twelve--the door stood open; but even if the old +woman's catlike step and the slow painful shuffle of her son had been +heard, they would have excited no attention, as stealthily she helped +Jean along, until they stood at the head of the cellar-steps. + +"Ah!" hissed _ma mere_ as she kicked against something soft, "but it is +that Bijou who has followed us.--Back, then!" she hissed, striking at +the dumb brute, whose soft patter was now heard along the dark passage +as the animal scuffled away. "Now, mind," whispered _ma mere_ as they +descended slowly, while once Jean slipped and nearly dragged the old +woman headlong to the bottom; but he saved himself by grasping the rough +railing, and after recovering his panting breath another trial was made, +and they stood at the bottom, when, feeling her way along, _ma mere_ led +him till, still in the dark, they stood in the front cellar, where the +water dripped hollowly into the tub. But the woman well knew her way; +and, with one arm round her son, she helped him along to the arch, +warned him of the step down, and so drew him into the back-cellar and +along to the end, where she left him leaning against one of the bins +while she stole softly back to the cellar-steps to listen for awhile +before returning to strike a match and light her piece of candle, which +she screened by holding it far into the bin. + +"No, Jean," she muttered, "he dare not come back, for there is a police +always on the watch for him, though I have not told. But, hush! don't +speak," she whispered, as a heavy step was heard to pass along the +court; and all the while the light shone strangely upon her sharp +withered features and the sallow face and wild eyes of Jean. "Hold this +now," she said softly, and once more she went nimbly back to the +cellar-door to listen, when, closing it gently, she hurried to the side +of her trembling son. "You fool!" she muttered sneeringly, "you shake, +and there is nothing to fear. Now hold the candle low, and shade it +with your coat;" and then, going down upon hands and knees, she crawled +into the bin before her--one that was deep and narrow; and, panting and +sighing with the exertion, she scraped away a little of the blackened +sawdust, and thrust her hands beneath what appeared to be the brick end +of the bin, lifted it a little and then thrust sideways, when the whole +back slowly slid along, disclosing an opening which the whitewashed +stone had before covered. + +A little more hard thrusting and Jean could see that there was +apparently room to pass into what appeared to be another cellar, while a +cold, damp, foul-smelling vapour rushed through, and nearly extinguished +the candle. + +"Come, quick, Jean," panted _ma mere_, making her way through the +opening, when Jean crawled into the bin and handed her the guttering +candle before following her through the hole, against which he kneeled +hesitating; but directly after he crept through and stood beside his +mother in a little cellar surrounded by bins similar to those in the one +they had left; then, having stuck the candle amongst the loose damp +sawdust, _ma mere_ drew the stone flag back into its place, for it ran +in a rough brick groove at the bottom, while at the top it was kept from +falling by a large iron bar roughly laid in a couple of staples. + +"Now look, now look," hissed _ma mere_, taking the candle in her hands +and peering about; "wine, old wine in bottles, put here and forgotten; +and what is this?--my faith, it is a melting-pot;" and she paused +curiously by a large black-lead crucible, fitted upon a rough brick +furnace, whose chimney was a piece of iron piping, carried up apparently +into one of the house flues. By its side in an old box was a quantity +of charcoal; and in another several pounds of saltpetre, evidently used +to augment the fierceness of the fire, while by the side lay a pair of +bellows--instruments which had before now caused angry words to issue +from Mr Jarker's lips. "Now look, Jean; but what ails you, fool? Look +at the boxes; there, that is where the rich things are;" and her lean +fingers clutched and clawed and opened and shut as she held a hand out +towards a rough chest. + +Jean was gazing with astonished eyes around him at the gloomy place; at +the bins half full of empty bottles; at a couple of boxes that lay in +one; but, as his mother spoke, he was leaning towards one corner of the +cellar where there seemed to be an opening, which was lightly covered +with an old box-lid. + +"What is that?" he whispered. + +"What? fool!" exclaimed _ma mere_, going to the lid and lifting it; when +the foul wind rushed up, and once more nearly extinguished her candle. +"Pah!" she ejaculated; "a way down into the drains, and O, my faith, +Jean, but it is the rat's hole; but," she chuckled, "he dare not come, +the ferrets and dogs are after him, and he will soon feel their teeth. +So, my faith! he had two holes." + +As she spoke she hastily closed the place once more, listening the while +to a musical trickling noise which came whispering up; but, led by some +strange impulse, Jean went down upon his knees by the hole, and lifted +the lid again, peering down into the black darkness, and listening to +the hollow echoing noise, while from apparently a distance came a +rushing sound as of a stream through a large sewer, and the young man +shuddered as he listened to its strange wild cadence. + +"Come here, fool!" hissed _ma mere_; "come, hold the candle;" and broken +glass crackled beneath her feet as she crossed the cellar towards a box +in one of the bins. "Come, Jean, here are the treasures, boy; but O, +look here! It is what I thought: here is the painted woman's veil;" and +she picked up a small net fall, that had evidently from its torn +appearance been snatched hastily from a bonnet. "He must have dragged +her down here, Jean; and then--there is that hole!" + +Mother and son stayed gazing at one another with dilated eyes and parted +lips, till, dropping the lid, Jean crawled shuddering away, as an +echoing sound came up caused by the falling cover. Mother and son +seemed fascinated for a few moments, as they pictured in their own minds +the scene that might have taken place in the damp cavernous place where +they stood; and then, forgetful of her main object, _ma mere_ crept +closer to her son. + +"But it is very horrible!" she murmured; and as she spoke she wiped her +forehead with the scrap of lace in her hand, but only to throw it down +with a shudder the next moment. + +"Do you think he killed her, then?" whispered Jean in a harsh dry voice. + +"Hush! don't speak, don't talk of it," hissed the old woman, who seemed +quite unnerved, and trembled violently. + +"But where do the drains go to?" whispered Jean. + +"Into the big river," said _ma mere_; "but come quick, there are the +boxes, Jean, and let us get away from here. I hardly breathe. But O, +my faith, look there!" + +Jean Marais gave a cry of horror as he clutched his mother's gown; and +then they remained silent for a few moments. + +The candle had burned out! + +Volume Three, Chapter XIII. + +PEACE. + +What were the thoughts of Aunt Fanny as she ushered in Lucy Grey, the +bearer of her answer to a note she had received? Strange thoughts, no +doubt--thoughts of the time when her own hands were like her cheeks, +plump and soft, and dimpled; but she said no word, only kissed the +visitor tenderly, held her in her arms a minute to gaze in the blushing +face, and then with a sigh, half of pleasure, half sorrowful, she led +the way to the door and opened it for the humbly-dressed girl--nay, not +humbly dressed, for Heaven had clothed her with a beauty that in a +higher sphere would have been called peerless. Aunt Fanny then closed +the door, and went back to the sitting-room to smoothe the stiff plaits +of her poplin and black apron, and shed a few tears. + +Aunt Fanny stood by the window gazing into vacancy, but her look could +not penetrate to where Lucy was kneeling, like some fair penitent, +beside the easy-chair where Arthur Sterne sat propped up by pillows. +There was a desire to flee again when once she was there, but Lucy's +hands were prisoned, and even for a time the eyes were downcast; but +then those words, powerful in their eloquence--words which made the +young girl's heart beat quickly--had their effect, and soon the flushed +face was raised, and in the long unflinching gaze that met his own, +there was all that doubting man could desire. + +Ah, Arthur Sterne, you may have mumbled so that poor Aunt Fanny had to +move her seat in church, but there was something now in the true +eloquence of your words that must have thrilled the heart of the fair +girl by your side; for the tears of happiness fell fast as her face was +buried in your breast. + +Explanations? Yes, all he could wish for; and how could he blame the +loving tender heart, which saw not as the world saw, but was ready to +stretch forth her hand to help the lost soul struggling in the slough of +sin? How could he blame as he listened to the story of Agnes Hardon's +sorrow, and how she had made herself known, begging again and again so +earnestly, as she asked Lucy's protection for her child, that Septimus +or Mrs Hardon might never be told of their intimacy, lest they should +be of the world worldly, and cast the wretched woman from this last hold +upon something pure? + +Explanations! ay, many; and could he have done so he would have knelt to +Lucy, as, weeping, she whispered to him of her wounded heart, and of how +gladly she would have told him all, but that she feared his condemnation +and contempt. + +But there, love-scenes should be matters of the strictest privacy; and +if Arthur Sterne gazed long and lovingly in the pure candid face before +him with a look of fond protection which saw nothing then in humbleness +or poverty, and Lucy Grey returned that look with one from her tear-wet +eyes, that saw in his face everything that was great, noble, and to be +desired by the tender, untouched heart of woman--if these two joined +their lips in one long kiss of love, why it seems to be only natural, +and what might be expected under the circumstances. + +"And poor Agnes?" whispered Lucy from where she nestled. + +"Have you not seen her since?" said the curate. + +And then followed much long happy planning for the future, in which +Agnes Hardon and her little golden-haired child had their share, and +Somesham was more than once mentioned in connection with +reconciliations. + +Time will fly at such times, and after Arthur Sterne had told of his +arrangements that he had already made for the child, and once more +related his interview with Agnes, smiling at the pain of Lucy as he +lightly touched upon his mishap, one that he gloried in as he felt the +maiden's soft cheek laid to his throbbing heart--after all this, and +much more that both had forgotten as soon as spoken, the curate +discovered that the interview had lasted more than two hours, though +much of that time had been spent in a silence that neither felt disposed +to break--a silence quite in unison with the doctor's orders, since he +had left instructions that for some days yet the patient was to be kept +perfectly undisturbed. + +But there is an end to all things, and Arthur Sterne did not look much +the worse for his visitor, when Aunt Fanny tapped gently at the door to +announce another in the shape of Septimus Hardon come to escort his +step-child back to their new home. + +And that night, upon her way back, the something new that appeared to +have come over the spirit of Lucy Grey was more than ever manifest; the +ever-anxious look had departed, and her step was light, bounding, and +elastic as she walked on by Septimus Hardon's side; a strange contrast-- +now quiet and hopeful, now elate and light-hearted, as she conversed, +while every topic was tinged with the future. + +"And what did Mr Sterne want?" said Septimus as his eyes twinkled, half +from merriment, half from sadness, as he drew the graceful arm he held +farther through his own. + +Lucy was serious in a moment, and as she turned beneath a street-lamp +and looked in her stepfather's face, he abused himself roundly, for he +could see tears glittering in the bright eyes that met his own. + +"Don't, don't ask me, dear," whispered Lucy. "Don't talk of it now, for +indeed, indeed, I could not leave you." + +"Hush, hush," whispered Septimus soothingly, for they passed another +post, and he could this time see how fast the tears were falling, and +now he tried to change the conversation. + +"But he's getting better now very fast, eh? my darling," whispered +Septimus. + +"O, yes, yes," murmured Lucy. "I think so." + +"And--but there, I'm making you worse. Let's talk of something else." + +But Septimus Hardon's attempts at starting fresh subjects for +conversation were one and all failures, and Lucy was silent until they +reached Essex-street; though hers were not tears kindred to those she +had shed days--weeks--months back, and, as to her dreams that night, +they must have been sweet to cause so happy a smile to play upon her +lip; for though a tear once stole from the fringed lid, and lay like a +pearl upon her cheek, it did not seem like a tear wrung from the heart, +neither did the sigh which followed betoken sorrow; for it was a sigh +like that sweet expiration some of us have heard when a confession has +been wrung from lips we love, and those lips, when pressed, have hardly +been withdrawn, but pouted sweetly, looking more ruddy for shame. + +Only yesterday that they wore that look; it can't be further back than +the day before, or, say last week; and--the sweet recollection +clings--"There, I do wish to goodness, dear, you would not always make a +point of firing off into conversation directly I sit down to read or +write. _Now_ what is it? `Young Fitzpater was too attentive to Maude +last night?' Pooh! nonsense! sugar-candy! Why, the child isn't +seventeen yet, and--" + +That could not have been last week, after all. How time does fly! + +Volume Three, Chapter XIV. + +IN THE RAT'S HOLE. + +"Hush!" cried _ma mere_, recovering from her tremor; "but I have another +piece. You fool, Jean! are you afraid to be in the dark? Here is the +candle, but where are the matches?" and the old woman kept on feeling +about in her huge pocket, but found them not. "You have the matches, +Jean!" she exclaimed at last. + +"No," said the cripple; "you had them, _ma mere_." + +"Ah, yes; and I left them in the other place; but I will fetch them. +Where are you?" + +"I am here," whispered Jean, whom the darkness seemed to oppress, so +that he could not speak above his breath. + +"But where?" hissed his mother. "I cannot tell, not yet; where is the +stone?" + +"Don't move," whispered Jean hoarsely; "there is the hole, and you will +fall down." + +"Then, come you," hissed his mother; "we cannot stay here in the dark; +and I am not come to go back with empty hand." + +"What can I do?" cried Jean angrily. "I am afraid to move. Why did you +not let me have my crutch?" And now he began to feel slowly along the +wall in search of the stone, but his hands only came in contact with the +brick bins and empty bottles. + +"Have you found the opening, Jean?" whispered his mother from the other +side of the cellar; and then a cold shudder ran through the cripple as +he stood with his hand upon the stone, for there was the sound of +someone falling over a piece of board, and _ma mere_ shrieked out, "O, +_mon Dieu_, I am lost!" while standing there in the fearful darkness, +and knowing his own helplessness, Jean almost swooned with horror. + +"Here, quick, Jean, your hand!" cried his mother huskily; and on +crawling towards the sound, Jean clutched his mother's arms, and dragged +at her, for she was lying with part of her body in the hole, but in no +real danger, though unnerved and terrified, her fancy having magnified +the peril a hundredfold before she lay panting on the damp sawdust +beside her son. + +"Not deep, not deep," she muttered; "but, ah, Jean, it was very +dreadful! I felt as if the painted woman was dragging me down." + +"Hush!" whispered Jean as they crawled farther away; "what is that +noise?" + +"_Bete_! would you frighten me?" hissed the old woman; and then she +paused, for now distinctly heard, and as if ascending into the cellar +through the hole, came a low blowing, panting noise; at first very soft, +then louder and louder, as it came mingled with a plashing, scraping +sound; nearer and nearer, and more plainly, as if someone was forcing a +way along; while, at last, the panting noise was almost painful, for it +was as of some hunted animal fighting for its breath. + +Nearer and nearer came the noise; and with blood seeming to freeze and +grow sluggish in their veins, mother and son crept farther away from the +hole, till they crouched, clinging together, against one of the bins, +when Jean's elbow came in contact with an empty bottle, which clinked +loudly. And still nearer came the sound, more rustling, more loud +panting, echoing and hollow, as if sent through some large pipe; and, +hardly daring to breathe, as they listened to the heavy throb, throb of +their hearts, mother and son waited the result. + +Now there was a muttering noise heard along with the panting; then more +rustling, and all louder and plainer; till, as mother and son crouched +there with starting eyes, they could in imagination see a dripping +figure emerge from the hole, and stand within a few feet of them. + +Then there was a silence so horrible that to the trembling couple it +seemed worse than the coming of the noises. But there was relief at +last in the sound as of one searching amongst bottles; and then the snap +as of the opening of a box, followed by the striking of matches, first +one and then another. The sweat gathered upon the listeners' faces as +they thought of the result of the discovery, and the probable fate of +her whose veil they had seen. But, as in the sewer, nothing but faint +lines of light ensued, and tiny spots where the damp matches were +thrown; when, as if to show that this was no supernatural visitant, a +deep husky voice growled the word "damp!" as the box was thrown +impatiently down. + +Then a heavy foot crunched upon Jean's hand, which he had rested upon +the ground to thrust himself close to the wall; but though the pain was +acute, he uttered no cry, sitting almost frozen with fear, as he heard +the click of a bottle, the breaking of glass, the trickling of liquid +upon the floor, followed by the sound of someone drinking; taking a long +breath; drinking heavily again and again; and then something struck the +young man heavily, his face was splashed with wine, and a broken bottle +fell upon the floor. + +Once more there was the silence, only broken by the heavy breathing of +the new-comer; and then the hearts of mother and son bounded as they +heard first the gliding of a hand upon a wall, and then a rough grating, +which they both recognised as that of the stone being very softly and +slowly slid back for a few inches, while it appeared that the new-comer +was listening; and once more in the painful silence it seemed certain +that he would hear the laboured beating of their hearts. + +Once again, though, there was the grating, and they could tell that the +opening was now fully exposed; then followed the rustling as of a body +passing through, and, as they listened, the faint fall of steps passing +along the court fell upon their ears, seeming refreshing, as it linked +them once more with things of the upper world; but the next moment came +the rustling sound, then the grating of the stone, and once more all was +silent as the grave. + +"Ah!" sighed _ma mere_ with almost a groan, as she once more breathed +freely; while in a husky voice Jean whispered, "Let's go." + +"Stop," whispered his mother; "I dare not move yet. He will not be +gone; only waiting for a chance to get past the police; and if he see us +he will hide his rich things;" and the thought of the contents of the +place seemed to lend force to the old woman's failing nerves; though, +for what seemed half an hour to Jean, they sat in the silent darkness, +waiting; a silence broken now and then by a peculiar sighing noise from +the sewers, which made its hearers shudder. + +"Was it him?" whispered Jean at last. + +"Yes; the Jarker," hissed _ma mere_; "but get up now. Let me help you, +and we will take all we can and go. Be still and careful; and there, +now you are up. But, my faith, Jean, I am cramped! Now, the boxes were +here; and--" + +_Ma mere_ ceased speaking, and stood trembling, with the sense as of +something lifting the hair of her bare head, for at that moment came the +sound of the grating stone pushed quickly aside; there was the sharp +rustling as of one passing through, and the stone was thrust back, while +the old woman could hear the panting, hard breath of someone close to +her. She would have crouched away, but she stood as if paralysed, +calling up the old interview with Jarker in the front cellar, and his +great knife and ominous words, and she felt now that her hour was come, +as a voice muttered the words "Two there!" and a heavy hand was laid +upon her bare head. It was a horrible moment; but she could not move, +and stood with her tongue glued to her palate, waiting for what she felt +must follow; though, could she have turned, she would have clasped her +withered arms round the ruffian, and cried to her son to escape. But +_ma mere_ was motionless, while the hideous yell that now rang in a +dull, smothered way through the vault froze her blood into stagnation. +Still the hand was not moved, but lay motionless upon her head, trembled +and shook violently for a few moments, and then the old woman was free; +for, in a horrible voice, the ruffian shrieked: + +"Come back! come back!" when there was a heavy crash as of a body +falling amongst a quantity of broken bottles, and all was silent once +more. + +No word spoke _ma mere_, but catching her son's hand, she drew him after +her to the opening, seized the stone, which seemed to glide away at her +touch, and then she thrust hurriedly at Jean as he crawled through, one +hand being stretched back to seize on Jarker, should he recover from his +swoon and try to touch her boy. Then she felt that there was room, and +crept through herself, closed the stone with some difficulty, and made +her way shuddering out into the cellar. Here _ma mere_ clutched Jean +round the waist, and stopped to listen, but all was silent and +apparently no pursuit, so hurrying him along, they stood trembling once +more in the passage, expecting to be seized from behind, _ma mere_ +seeming to feel the knife of Jarker, as she clutched at her throat and +pressed on. Upon passing out into the court, though, there was a +policeman, but beyond a glance, he took no heed of them till they had +entered their own passage and closed the door, when he quietly made his +way through the entrance they had that moment quitted. + +"Cognac, Jean; drink it, fool, you want it," said _ma mere_, when they +were once more safe in their own room. Before she would partake +herself, the old woman forced some upon her son. "Another time, though, +Jean, another time. I thought he would not dare to come back; but he +will go now, and it will be safe. My faith, though, to see those boxes +and touch nothing!" she exclaimed, and her hands clawed again as she +spoke. "No, Jean, he will come no more, for it was as I thought; he is +a murderer, and afraid. He did kill the poor painted woman; and then he +was frightened, and thrust her poor body down into the sewer. But he +was frightened, and fainted away, for he thought it was his poor victim +come back. Did you not hear him shriek it? But I will tell the police +when I have his gold and silver. But a little, but a little, and then +all will be right." + +They neither of them felt that they could sleep, and _ma mere_ drew out +her knitting, but did little, sitting thoughtfully in her chair; at +last, though, Jean slept heavily till his mother woke him in the early +dawn, and together they looked down, trying to pierce the fog which hung +in the court, when the first thing that their eyes fell upon was the +glazed top of a policeman's hat. + +"But you will not go again?" whispered Jean. + +"But you are _bete_!" cried the old woman angrily. "Should I leave the +treasure I have discover, and let the police have all? No," she cried, +hooking her skinny fingers, "I will have all myself, and we will be +rich, Jean. Ah! what--you sigh? But you are _bete_, and it is for the +little worker who come between us, Jean. You loved your poor mother +till she come, and I hate her for it, and I could slay her, for I am mad +and disappointed; but I had my revenge for long. I told the preacher +something, and he believed me; and you are all fools, you men. But I am +not angry, Jean, for you are my own Jean, and you shall be rich yet. +What! you push me away? I care not, for you shall be like your father-- +a gentleman--before he died, and left me in this cold, cold, cold, +miserable London. But we will have the Jarker's treasure, Jean, that I +have watched, and we will laugh then at the world." + +Jean sat silently gazing down into the court, wincing at times as he +heard the bitter words of his mother, while his eyes would then flash as +he seemed ready to turn; but he spoke no word, as he thought over the +past night and restrained himself. He knew the value of money, and his +face would brighten as he thought of it in connection with Lucy; but a +weary, sad smile came directly after, for he knew such thoughts were +folly, and he turned them to Jarker, as he seemed to feel that his duty +was to point out the wretch's hiding-place, though he flinched from the +task. And still he sat on, hour after hour gazing down into the court, +where a strange man, like an artisan out of work, was lounging about +smoking a short black pipe, and apparently very intent upon a small +birdcage tied up in a blue-spotted handkerchief beneath his arm. There +was something of the shoemaker and more of the tailor about him--nothing +at all of the detective-policeman, and doubtless it must have been very +unpleasant for a man of his income to smoke such bad tobacco, and pay +for so many half-quarterns of rum for Mrs Sims, who was very +communicative concerning the last time Jarker was at home, while a +policeman in uniform would have acted as a seal upon her lips. So Mrs +Sims chattered, the strange man watched, and for a time the uniform of +the police-force was not seen in Bennett's-rents. + +Volume Three, Chapter XV. + +TAKEN. + +A heart at peace, doubtless, had much to do with the rapid strides +towards convalescence taken by the Reverend Arthur Sterne, who, in +direct opposition to the hints of his medical man and the uplifted hands +of Aunt Fanny, resumed his work; and not many days after the visit from +Lucy he found himself late one afternoon in the place where so much of +his past life had derived its interest. Pale and weak, he climbed +slowly up to the garret of _ma mere_; but she was absent with the dogs, +though Jean, more sallow than ever, sat cowering over his fire, and +thinking of the events of a couple of nights before. + +Jean could not restrain the deep frown that came over his forehead as +his visitor entered; still there was an inborn politeness in the way he +asked him to be seated, but after replying in a constrained way to the +questions put touching his health, he painfully made his way to the +window, and appeared to be watching the proceedings in the court below. + +But for a while Jean saw nothing, for his gaze was introspective, and +the secret he held seemed more than he could bear. Ever pictured in his +brain were the scenes his mother had described, and sleeping or waking +he saw again and again the wild, agonised face of the murdered woman; +while the knowledge that he could point out the murderer's lair, while +the officers of the law watched and waited in ignorance, made him angry +that he should be bound; for he felt that he was bound, as he thought of +his mother's rage and disappointment should Jarker's retreat be +discovered before she had ventured again to secure a portion of his +spoil; and that night she was to return early, and they were to go. +Jean shuddered as he thought of the last visit, and trembled for the one +to come; and, could he have divested himself of certain cares that +gnawed his heart, and looked upon Mr Sterne merely as the friend and +pastor, undoubtedly, moved as he then was, he would have told all. + +Mr Sterne had hoped to have found _ma mere_ at home, and to have +derived from her some information respecting Agnes Hardon. Once he was +on the point of questioning Jean respecting her; but he refrained. He +was anxious to see her now that he knew her secret, and certain in his +own mind of Septimus Hardon, he hoped yet to procure a reconciliation at +Somesham; while, at the same time, there was a dim something in his mind +that he could not quite shape, as it seemed to point towards Agnes +Hardon knowing something of her uncle's arrangements during his last +years: but at present he could define nothing, make no plans, though he +seemed to be finding the ends of the threads he sought, and felt hopeful +yet of a happy termination of much misery. His duty seemed to be to +bring all these people into unison if possible; if not, to call in the +strong arm of the law, should he feel, after a long and patient +investigation, that there was right upon Septimus Hardon's side. + +"Will not your mother soon return, Jean?" said the curate at last. + +"No," said the young man moodily; "these busy nights are profitable, and +we have little money, while two nights she has spent watching." + +"Watching?" said the curate. + +Jean started and turned round, making as though he would speak to his +visitor; but he turned his back the next moment, when the scene that met +his eye chased everything else before it, and, wild and excited, he +cried, "Now he is here, and you can take him! I was frightened, and +dare not; come you, sir. It was he who beat you down in the street. +Here, look!" he hissed between his teeth, standing almost erect as he +spoke, and clenching his fists. "If I could strike him down!" + +The rage in the young man's face seemed for the moment reflected in that +of the curate, as, starting forward, he flung the window open, and +recalled the last time he had gazed from where he stood; but the next +instant horror predominated as he looked upon the sight which had so +excited the cripple. + +There was a heavy mist falling, and the lamps were just alight; but out +upon the housetop, and plainly seen in relief, was the figure of Jarker +struggling out through the trap-door on to the platform where he kept +his pigeons. He was making his way out slowly as Mr Sterne flung open +the window, for it seemed that someone was dragging at him from beneath; +and this proved to be the case, for as Jarker struggled out, kicking and +striking savagely, the head and shoulders of a policeman appeared, and +in the fierce struggle which ensued the man clung so firmly to the +ruffian's legs, that he brought him down with a crash, which shivered +and crushed the frail cages and traps to atoms; and then ensued a battle +for life which chilled with horror those who were looking on, both too +helpless to interfere. + +The platform was but frail, and cracked and broke away as the two men +wrestled together, while more than one poor bird was crushed to death. +Once they rose for a few moments, and rocked to and fro, but Jarker +seemed to trip and fall, dragging the policeman with him, and then from +the crackling and breaking tiles arose a sound more like the encounter +of two wild beasts, as the men writhed and twisted, every instant nearer +and nearer to the edge, where there was only a low brick parapet some +six inches high; and death for both seemed inevitable. + +Jean stood as it were riveted to the spot, his lips apart, eyes +distended, and chest heaving: while clutching his shoulder was Mr +Sterne, expecting every moment to see the bodies of the struggling men +part the air, and fall with a sickening crash into the court beneath. + +But no. Jarker freed one arm, and twined it round one of the platform +supports, giving himself a savage wrench, and stopping the slow, gliding +motion which had taken him nearer and nearer to the little parapet. +Another wrench, and a savage kick, and Jarker was almost at liberty, +when down came the frail platform, to fall bodily into the court. + +Shouting at the ruffian, Mr Sterne now called the attention of the +gathering people below to what was going on, for it was time; but before +it was possible for aid to be rendered, Jarker had forced the +policeman's head back, and dragged his other hand at liberty; then came +the sound of a heavy blow as the ruffian raised and dashed his +adversary's head against the tiles. Then followed another fierce +struggle, the officer fighting for his life, and he held on tenaciously +to his opponent; but Jarker was uppermost, and using his great brute +strength, he raised and dashed the man's head down again and again, till +his hold relaxed, and he rolled over into the gutter, where he lay to +all appearance dead; while, with savage cruelty, Jarker loosened a tile +so as to have a firm hold, and then with his free hand he seized his +enemy and tried to force him over into the court. + +But he was arrested by shouts from _ma mere's_ room and the open trap, +at which now appeared in the dim light the eager countenance of the +artisan-like man who had been hanging about the court; and now, active +as a cat, with the man in full pursuit, Jarker went along upon hands and +knees, over slate and tile ridge, along gutter, and past stack after +stack of chimneys, to where there was a similar platform to his own; but +he was disappointed--the trap-door was fast. On he went again, with +Nemesis upon his track, over roof after roof again, towards a house with +a dormer-window in the sloping slates; but the slates were covered with +a redundant moisture, and to his horror he found that he was slowly +gliding down to certain death--faster and faster--as he sat as it were +upon his iron-nailed boots. A few seconds would have ended his career; +but with a frightful oath, such as none but a drink-maddened ruffian +would have uttered, he threw himself at full length, and rolled rapidly +over and over to a chimney-stack, to which he clung, as he lay upon his +face, with his feet so near the awaiting destruction, that his toes +rested in the slight iron gutter. + +He lay there for a few moments, trembling and unnerved by the danger he +had escaped, and than painfully climbing up in the angle formed by the +wall of the next house, which stood a little higher, he reached the +ridge, and sat astride, panting and showing his teeth at the coming +officer, who was making his way more cautiously; while dragging off +first one and then the other of his heavy boots, Jarker hurled them at +his pursuer before continuing his flight. + +The dangerous slope Jarker had crossed gave him an advantage over the +officer; for now unable to escape by the trap or window for which he had +aimed, the ruffian had doubled, and was working his way rapidly back to +his own garret, which now seemed his last resource. + +For an instant he stood by the ruins of his pigeon-traps, gazing at the +man lying in the gutter--now showing signs of animation--and listening +at the opening; but though there were voices enough in the court, all +seemed silent in his room, and with one glance at his fast-nearing foe +upon the roof, Jarker lowered himself through his trap; while as Mr +Sterne hurried out of the room, with Jean following him slowly, the +ruffian stood once more opposite to the bed of his dead wife, to be +confronted by another watching policeman. + +Not of the same stuff this man; for a moment's struggle, and Jarker was +free, leaping down the stairs, which seemed ready to fall with his +weight--nearly to the bottom, with the man in full pursuit; when in the +buzz of voices be heard a cry for a light below, which flashed upon the +hat of yet another officer. + +Panting, mad, hemmed-in on all sides, foes above and foes below, knowing +that there was blood upon his hands, and--for aught he knew to the +contrary--that the gallows waited for him, the ruffian, as a last +resource, dashed open the window upon the first landing, while, as hands +actually touched him, he dropped into the backyard. + +One man leaned out directly, while another hand was at the window; but +they saw Jarker in the dim light below recover himself. Then there was +the hanging of a door, and one of the men bounded down the stairs just +in time to strike the ruffian back as he made a dash along the passage +to force his way through the crowd. But he was not taken yet; though it +was with a smile that the policeman wiped his dripping face as he posted +himself at the top of the cellar-steps, and sent a companion out to +watch the grating in the court. + +And now it seemed that they had run their game to earth; for after one +or two ineffectual attempts to escape during the past forty-eight +hours--attempts frustrated by the careful watch kept upon the premises +he occupied--Jarker had that evening made his way up through the cellar +in a half-maddened state, produced by fear and the wine he had drunk to +drive it away, for it was many hours since food had passed his lips. +But Mr Jarker's course was run, and, though ignorant of the offence for +which he was sought, there were heinous matters enough upon his +conscience to make him fight for liberty to the last gasp; while, upon +this last attempt being made, he had been sighted by the man on watch, +who saw him in the passage and drove him back, when, horrified at the +idea of going back to the cellar, Jarker had bounded upstairs, to be +chased as has been described. + +There was no lack of policemen now upon the spot, and while the crowd +was kept back, place was given to Mr Sterne, who, with Jean hanging +upon his arm, slowly descended the cellar-steps, preceded by the +policemen, with staves in hand and open lanterns. + +"Keep a good look-out on the stairs," said the artisan-looking man--the +quiet man of a day or two before, and one in authority. And now, inch +by inch, the cellar was searched; then bin after bin of the inner vault; +when the men turned and looked at their leader. + +"O, he's here, somewhere," said the sergeant, and taking a lantern in +hand, he peered long and carefully into every bin, while, trembling with +eagerness, Jean pressed forward to see if the discovery would be made. +He was not kept long in suspense; for, after directing his light +carefully along the sawdust, the keen-eyed man suddenly exclaimed, +"There's someone been through here. Here's fresh candle-grease and +matches; and what's this?" + +Jean pressed forward with the others, and "this" proved to be a fragment +of a stuff dress caught in an old nail between the bricks, a scrap which +Jean recognised as a piece of his mother's dress. + +Jarker's hiding-place, or rather this entrance to his hiding-place, owed +much of its strength to its very openness; for, with the house and +cellar-doors as it were free to the neighbourhood, many of the other +tenants of the court even coming at times for water, no one would +suspect the existence of a secret lair, though a careful examination of +the long deep bin, now that attention was so fully directed to it, soon +robbed the spot of its mystery. + +"Crowbar," said the sergeant abruptly, and a man departed in search of +the implement; while one whispered to another his opinion that, if there +was another way out, they were done, after all. + +But now a new-comer forced her way upon the scene, after quite a battle +with the constable on duty at the head of the stairs; and but for the +request of Mr Sterne, she would not have obtained her desire. And now +bitterly in French _ma mere_ reproached her son for betraying her +secret, though he as eagerly denied it, appealing to the curate, who +freely exonerated the young man from having made any communications to +the police. + +"But what is the secret, _ma mere_?" he said to her in her own tongue. + +"Come away, come away," she whispered, wringing her hands; but Jean +would not move, and the old woman was compelled to be a spectator of +what followed. + +A few blows from the crowbar, when it was brought, shivered the thin end +stone to pieces, and Jean shuddered as he felt the cold damp air rush +through the black opening, as the sergeant exclaimed: + +"That's sewers, my lads: there's another way out. Now, who'll go +first?" + +No one moved; but _ma mere_ groaned. + +"Who wants promotion?" said the sergeant again. + +The muttering that followed seemed to intimate that all three of the men +present wanted it, but not at the cost of thrusting his body into the +black hole before him. + +"Then I hope you'll make matters straight if I'm hurt, my lads," said +the sergeant grimly. + +"That we will, sir," chorussed the men, and then there was quite a +competition for the second post of honour; as, without another moment's +hesitation the sergeant crept into the bin, thrust his lantern forward +as far as he could, looked eagerly round, and then, staff in hand, he +regularly shot himself forward, and called to his men to follow. But +there was no enemy to encounter: nothing to be seen but bins round the +cellar, a box or two, the open hole, and the furnace. + +"Who'd have thought of there being this place here?" said the sergeant +to Mr Sterne, when _ma mere_ and her son both stood shuddering in the +cellar with them; the Frenchwoman creeping towards the boxes, her +fingers working the while. "Old houses, you see, sir; gentlemen's +houses once; and this was an old cellar; wine in it, too, seemingly, and +forgotten. Melting-pot, of course," he continued, pointing to the +crucible. "Nice handy spot for it; and of course he has made himself +all right before now. Gone down to one of the sewers, I suppose," he +said. "And while we were hunting him t'other day, he had crawled up +here, and was taking his port. Boxes, eh? what's in the boxes?" One of +the men was already examining the treasure-chests, and the agony in the +old Frenchwoman's face was pitiful, as she saw the lids opened of first +one and then the other, to find in place of the riches she had pictured, +broken glass, worn out crucibles, and brickbats that had formed part of +the furnace. + +"Rubbish!" said one of the men, when the old woman reeled, and would +have fallen if the curate had not caught her in his arms and seated her +upon one of the boxes. + +"Nice place to go down, sir; take that old lady out in the fresh air," +said the sergeant, peering at the black opening, and listening to the +quick rush of water. "There," he said to one of his men, "you needn't +stew. I ain't going to send you where I wouldn't go myself." + +The man spoken to held up his hand to command silence, for at that +moment there came a strange rustling noise, mingled with the fierce rush +of the water, while before they could recover from their surprise, +drenched with the foul stream, his distorted face looking absolutely +fiendish and inhuman, the head of Jarker appeared for a moment at the +hole. + +"Help!" he gasped, with a cry that rung through the place, but before +hand could touch him he had fallen back with a heavy splash: there was +the sound of water rushing furiously along with a hollow, echoing, +gurgling noise; and the men stood looking at one another. + +"Here, for God's sake, men," cried Mr Sterne, "do something!" and, +weak, and trembling with horror, he stepped towards the hole; but the +sergeant had his arms round him in a moment. + +"Keep still, sir," he said sternly; "we've done our part, I think. It's +certain death to go down there; they're flushing the sewers, I should +say, or else there's a heavy fall of rain somewhere. He's half-way to +the Thames by now." + +The next moment Mr Sterne was telling himself that he had left his room +too soon, for a strange sick feeling came over him, and the place around +looked misty and indistinct; but his was not the only sleepless couch +that night, for the old Frenchwoman moaned bitterly at the destruction +of the _Chateau en Espagne_ which she had raised. + +Volume Three, Chapter XVI. + +WORN OUT. + +A heavy step upon the stairs, a heavy knock upon the door, and a +heavy-eyed, heavy-countenanced man asking for Septimus Hardon. + +"And he wants you, too, Miss," said the man. "O dear, O dear! he was +the only friend I ever had, and he came back the night afore last, after +you'd been to ask for him. Not seen him, we hadn't, for long enough; +and then to come back like this!" and the great fellow sat down unasked +upon a chair, and sobbed like a child. + +"He wants to see you, sir," he said again, "and we've done all we +could," he cried pitifully; "but you see he's old, sir, and there ain't +nothing of him as'll hold together, and he knows it, sir; and he only +laughed and said, he says, `Ikey, old man,' he says, `it must be all new +stuff,' he says, `for the stitches won't hold no longer;' and he was the +only friend I ever had. `Go and tell them,' he says, `as old Matt's +taken his last copy, and would like to see 'em afore he takes the wages +he's earned.' You'll come and see him, won't you, sir? though it's no +sort of a place to come to; and the missus is breaking her heart about +him." + +Half-an-hour after, Septimus Hardon and Lucy were in Lower Series-place, +where, in the dingy back-room, close to the waste-paper, lay poor old +Matt, with Mrs Gross upon her knees beside his bed, crying bitterly, as +the poor old man lay calm and apparently sleeping; but he started when +Lucy knelt down and took his hand, to let a tear-fall upon it. + +"God bless you!" he whispered earnestly, as his dim eyes recognised the +face bending over him. "Come like an angel to a dying man. God bless +you, sir, I'm glad you've come; I was in mortal fear that you would be +too late. Tell her--but no, I will.--Mother Slagg, you and Ikey go for +a bit, please." + +The weeping woman put her apron to her eyes, and went out with her +husband. It was a heavy afternoon, and the fog was settling down fast +over the City. The light struggled feebly through the window, +half-covered as it was with boots; but the great landlord returned +directly with a thick, strong-smelling candle, stuck upon a block of +wood between three nails. + +As soon as the door was once more closed--a rare position for it, and +one which it resented for some time, until Ikey had poked the corners +clean with an awl, and oiled the lock--old Matt said huskily: + +"Put your hand, sir, under my pillow. That's it, that there little +Bible. Know it, sir?" he said, for Septimus Hardon had changed colour, +and his hands were trembling. "That took me a long time to get, sir," +and then he slowly and painfully told what he said he would have spared +Miss Lucy if he could, but it was not to be; how he had seen Agnes +Hardon lying dead, she whom he knew now to have been Agnes Hardon; how +he had attended the inquest, and then tried to get a Bible that had been +there mentioned, seeking for it day after day, night after night, ready +to drop always, but feeling that he should succeed in spite of all. He +searched the streets, he said, but all in vain; and at last he began to +fear that the poor girl to whom Agnes gave the Bible had emulated her +fate, when he recalled the address of the juryman, found to his delight +she had been there, and through the stranger's influence obtained the +prize he sought. + +"And now," said Matt, "I'm happy. I can feel, sir, that I've done one +little bit of good in my life, and I can go easy. Now, sir that book." + +Septimus, wondering and surprised, turned from Matt to Lucy, sobbing and +horror-stricken at the old man's recital, for much of what he heard now +had yet to be explained to him; but the old man was intent upon the +little Bible, one that Septimus remembered to have seen at home in his +father's desk. + +"Now!" exclaimed the old man, with hands trembling, and eyes appealing, +lest his hearers should lose anything of what he disclosed; "now look, +look, look!" he cried, "I fastened it down again, as it was before. A +knife, quick! Now look here," he said huskily, and he tried to insert +the blade of the penknife given to him beneath the fly-leaf, groaning +bitterly at his inability, when, with hands trembling nearly as much, +Septimus took Bible and knife, loosened the paper round, and laid it +open, when the first thing that met his eyes, in his father's clear +handwriting, was the date of the marriage, and eighteen months after +appeared the entry of his birth, while upon the opposite side, in a +delicate woman's hand, were the words-- + + "Agnes Hardon. + _The gift of Uncle Octavius_." + +"There, there, there, sir! That's it, isn't it, sir?" cried the old man +excitedly. "I wouldn't rest till I'd got it, and 'twas hard work, for +the poor girl clung to it as the gift of someone she loved; but the more +she hung back, the more I was set upon having it. I knew enough of +binding to see that the end-leaf was gummed down, and under that leaf I +knew there was what I wanted. Here; breath!" he gasped; "open the +window." + +Septimus Hardon sat gazing dreamily at the entry in his hand; it was +indisputable, though he could hardly believe in its truth, while the few +words he heard coming from the weeping girl seemed only to add to the +confused state of his mind; but it appeared to him now that the old +man's condition was the first thing to consider, and placing the book in +his pocket, he begged that he might try and have him removed to his own +lodgings. + +"No," said Matt feebly, "no; I won't leave here, for somehow these +people love me after their way, and I seem to think that the end should +be much what the life has been; and as to doctor, sir, why I've got one +here," he said, gazing fondly up in Lucy's weeping face, "and if she'll +stop here, and let me hold her hand, God bless her! I can go easy, for +it will seem to keep ill away. No other doctor's any use, sir. I'm +worn out, sir, worn out!" + +But Septimus would not be satisfied, and leaving Lucy by the old man's +side, he fetched assistance to his old friend. + +"No hope at all?" he said, as the doctor and he walked together +afterwards through the dingy shop. + +"Not the slightest," said the surgeon once more, as he stood upon the +doorstep. "He has never thoroughly recovered from the effects of the +operations he suffered, and besides, it's the old tale with the poor +fellow--sorrow, misery, starvation, on the one hand; dissipation, drink, +late hours on the other. The poor old fellow speaks the truth; he is +worn out." + +Night came, and Lucy and Septimus still waited by the old man's dying +bed. He had slept for some little time, during which interval Lucy had +replied to her stepfather's many queries--replied as she thought of the +despair that must have prompted the awful plunge into futurity. Then +the old man woke, and talked eagerly for awhile of the future prospects +of the family. But soon a change came over his face, his head tossed +wearily from side to side of his dirty pillow, while often he would +raise it and stare wildly from face to face, but recognising none, sink +back again with a pitiful moan. + +"Lost life, lost life! Worn out, worn out!" he kept on muttering as he +tossed restlessly from side to side, frequently starting and looking +round as if not knowing where he was. Then he seemed to sleep +peacefully for awhile, to open his eyes once more, and smile feebly at +his visitors, beckoning them to come nearer. + +"God bless you both!" he muttered; "it's all over." + +Septimus half-rose and would have fetched the doctor again, but Matt +whispered "No." + +"Don't go," he said. "He can do no good now, nor anyone else; I'm past +all that. It's been coming for days past, and I've fought it out; kept +on till my work was done. I've never been much good, sir; but now I'm +worn out. P'r'aps I might have been different, if I'd had other +chances; but I was always weak, sir; weak." + +He paused again; and Lucy's sobs were the only sounds that broke the +silence. + +"Ah!" said Matt again, feebly; "I've justified many a line, sir; line by +line--`line upon line,' don't it say somewhere? but I can't justify +myself. Dropping out of the old forme, sir; fast--fast now. But there, +sir, hold up; for I'm happy enough. You did me a good turn once, and +I've tried to pay it back; and since I've known you, and you've been +ready to be my friends, I've seemed to get proud, and wouldn't do +anything that should disgrace Miss Lucy here. But I began too late, and +I never deserved such friends as I've found; for I've been a poor, weak, +helpless drinking old galley-slave. But there, sir," he said with a +smile, "my case is foul; the sorts are out; and I'm putting away my +stick for good." + +"May I fetch Mr Sterne?" whispered Septimus. + +"No, no, no," said the old man wearily; "we were never friends; and I +can't play the hypocrite, sir. It's too late, sir; too late! What I've +done, I've done. Let me die in peace, here, with your loving faces by +me; and fetch poor old Ike in, by and by, for he loves me in his way. +No, sir; it would be the act of a hypocrite, I fancy, for me to send for +a clergyman now. No, Mr Hardon, sir; stay with me to the last; and let +me hold tightly by this little white hand, and I can go from you hopeful +and in peace. For if the great God who sent me here, struggling on +through a life of care, has made hearts so gentle, and true, and loving, +that they can weep and sorrow over my poor old battered case, can't I +hope that He who knows all, and has seen all my helpless weakness, will +be merciful? I know, sir, I know. I might have done better: but it's +been a life of drive and struggle--money to-day, starve to-morrow, and +drink always, to hold up and do the work. I'm sorry, sir, sorry; but +the sorrow came too late. I've had a hard life, sir; the wish for +better things came too late, when I was worn, and shattered, and used +up; when the day was too far spent, sir; and now the night's coming on +faster and faster. Hold my hands tight," he whispered, "for it's +growing dark and darker; and I'm losing my way." + +And now once more there was a long silence, when the old man looked +eagerly round. + +"What time is it?" he asked; and Septimus told him, then, turning +towards Lucy, the old man whispered-- + +"Put your hand to my lips, that I may kiss it once before I go;" but she +leaned over and tenderly kissed him, when he smiled, and some words +passed, but they were too faint to be heard. Then he was restless for a +while; but soon started again, to stare wildly round. "What's that?" he +asked. + +"Nothing but the wind moaning round the houses," whispered Lucy. + +"No," he said with a smile, "nothing but the wind--nothing but the wind +waiting to scatter the dust." + +And now he lay so still and peaceful, that, in answer to Lucy's +inquiring look, Septimus bent over him again and again; but as he looked +in that sorrow-ploughed face he could see that the old man still slept, +while, with the light strong upon her face as she knelt, Lucy seemed no +mean representative of the angel watching by the old man's side. + +"An angel, sir, an angel, sir!" he had mattered again; and then he +seemed to doze off, muttering the words to himself. + +"Worn out!" said Septimus Hardon, as he listened time after time to the +faintly-borne chimes of Saint Clement's; and then he thought of the +present revelation, which seemed almost dearly bought in the old man's +death; of the past; the office in Carey-street, and its sorrows; the +bitter struggle for mere life; the lodging in Bennett's-rents; and the +shabby old compositor in his frayed suit, pinching himself that he might +supply their wants; the watchful care and jealousy with which he had +tended Lucy to and from the warehouse; the secret they had shared, and +the old man's chivalrous endurance in tracing out the information; spite +of all blurs or blots upon his character, ever the same tender, +true-hearted man, devoted to his friends' interests, and ready with his +offering, even though it were humble as the cup of cold water that +should not be without its reward; and now worn out--the poor old setting +battered and worthless, but the heart true and bright to the last. + +The quarters chimed again. Isaac had been to set up a fresh candle, and +then retired to his weeping partner; while, now seated upon an old +work-bench, Septimus Hardon still let his thoughts wander, pausing long +upon the poverty of the crowded streets of the great City; the +prosperity crushing down the misery; the swiftly-hurrying stream of +life, and the striving of the throng to keep afloat, as others pressed +upon them, climbed upon their shoulders, or, in the madness of despair, +clung to their legs and dragged them down to the muddy ooze at the +bottom. He thought too once more of his own misery, and that of this +waif, after its long encounter with the storms of life, cast up torn, +weary, and breathless upon the shore. + +Mournfully moaned the wind down the court and at the back of the house, +making cowls creak and spin, and rattling worn old windows; for it was +no bright starry night, the clouds gathered black overhead, and sent +down a pitiless rain to empty the streets, and be caught by the wind and +dashed against the panes. By the feeble light in the front shop, Isaac +could be seen with his head against the wall sleeping heavily; and, worn +out with watching, his wife had returned to the next house. Now faintly +heard in the lulls of the wind came the striking of Saint Clement's +clock and its laboured chiming, which sounded wild and strange upon the +night air. + +Suddenly Lucy and her stepfather started, for the old man was sitting up +in bed with one hand raised as if to command silence, and loud, clear, +and strange, his voice seemed to thrill through the silence as the tones +of the bells came louder upon the wind. + +"Hush!" cried the old man, "the bells! I set it once, and I've never +forgotten it--`Ring out the false, ring in the true'--never forgotten +it," he muttered, as he sank heavily back and spoke in a whisper--"`Ring +out the false, ring in the true.' Hands--hands--once again; they're +ringing out a false and coward heart, and ringing in the true." Then he +began to mutter from time to time words connected with his trade--wild +incoherent words, but strangely fitted to his past life and present +state; while at times he spoke with such wild bitterness that his +hearers shuddered, and Isaac came trembling in, leading with him Mr +Sterne, anxious at their protracted absence. + +And so an hour passed, when the dying man had been for some time silent, +but another kneeling figure had offered a prayer at the bedside; then +once more the old man began to mutter, at first in a low tone, then +slowly and aloud. + +"Gold, sir, cold; bitter cold for an old man like me--dreary streets, +sir, and the lamps out--dark, dark--the dull courts and the foggy +alleys--misery--beggary--starvation. Bright fields--light and darkness. +No hypocrite, sir--humbly, with an angel's kiss upon my old lips--a +seal--purity. Hark! Copy and proof--copy and proof--blurred and +blotted--foul--foul--spelling--outs and doubles--corrections--too late-- +too late. Wages on Friday night, air; wages, sir--wages of sin--wages-- +death--death--poor girl!--Bleeping--found drowned--the Bible--Agnes +Hardon--wages--wages--darker and darker--but no hypocrite, sir--with an +angel's kiss--an angel's--forgive--forgive--for ever and ever--and ev--" + +Silence in the room, and the watchers stealing away. + +Volume Three, Chapter XVII. + +"MY SOLICITORS, SIR!" + +It never rains but it pours, and the storm fell heavily now upon the +head of Doctor Hardon of Somesham. Through the instrumentality of Mr +Sterne he was served with the requisite legal notices, which seemed to +be of the nature of seeds calling up a variety of legal plants, which +coiled, and twined, and curled round the doctor, threatening to strangle +him with their powerful tendrils; for he was deeply involved in numerous +speculative matters, and the fact of his being legally summoned to give +up his brother's estate, now reduced to quite one-half--for he had +disposed of all that he could--roused the aggressiveness of the law--a +law which seemed omniscient as regarded failing men's affairs; and a few +days after, from information he had received, as the policemen say, +Septimus Hardon learned that his uncle was in Cursitor-street. + +"I would go and see him," said Mr Sterne; "he may feel disposed to give +up all quietly; and I presume that you would take no steps to enforce +restitution of what he has sold during his occupation of your rights?" + +"No, no; no, no!" exclaimed Septimus; "he is a ruined man." + +Septimus Hardon shuddered as he turned into Cursitor-street--dirty, +cheerless, sponging-housey Cursitor-street of those days, with its legal +twang and the iron-barred windows of the sheriffs' houses. There was no +difficulty in finding the residence of Mr Barjonas, for the brass-plate +was on the door, though from its colour it was only by supposition that +the plate was termed brass. The windows were coated with a preservative +paste of dirt, while the same composition entered strongly into all the +domestic arrangements. In front, the pavement was marked all over with +cabalistic signs, over which hopped and danced dirty children--young +clients, perhaps--in company with pieces of broken plate, there called +"chaney;" the road was decorated with parsnip-cuttings and +potato-peelings, after the mode adopted in Bennett's-rents; while sundry +indications pointed to the fact that coffee was much in favour, for the +grounds found a resting-place in the gutter. A bashaw-like cock was +scratching over some scraps of parchment and sawdust-sweepings, but they +seemed dry, so he refrained from calling up the ladies of his harem-- +two--both of whom were of the breed known as "five-toed Dorkings," and +in duty bound to be white, but they were of a peculiar tint, like mouldy +robes. + +Septimus Hardon walked up to a thick-lipped gentleman upon the doorstep, +and, as he seemed disposed to bar the way, told him of his business. + +"Show this gedt idto dudber seved," said the officer; for such he was, +though only holding commission from the sheriff. + +A fluey-headed boy, with his shirt-sleeves rolled up to his shoulders to +display two very thin arms, at the end of one of which he carried a +black waiter, came forward, performing a sort of shaving operation with +the edge of the said waiter on his smooth chin, and beckoning to the +visitor, ushered him into the room known as number seven, where Septimus +stood in presence of his uncle, and gazed with wonder at the change. +For the doctor's clothes were growing looser upon him hour by hour, and +his cheeks hung flabby and in folds above his dirty white neckcloth. + +But more than at this Septimus Hardon gazed at his uncle's strange lost +aspect, as he stood with his gold pencil-case in one hand and a letter +in the other--a letter which he had read over again and again, and then +paused to wipe his forehead with his hand. But it was only a letter of +upbraiding from his wife, enclosing to him a small scrap which the +wretched woman had clipped from a newspaper--a paper weeks old, but +which Fate had ordered should be sent to her; while now she asked her +ruined lord who was the woman taken from the river, the woman who had +nursed Eleanor Anderson, and had asked their help and forgiveness at +that very time. Upbraidings, words almost of rage, she had sent him in +that letter, telling him of his obstinacy, and reminding him of the +times she had implored his forgiveness. And now these words had come at +an hour when he could bear no more. He had read letter and paragraph in +a dreamy, misty way, thinking of his losses--of his wrongs to his +nephew, while now the man himself stood before him, perhaps to add his +revilings. Worn out with anxiety and sleeplessness, faint with hunger +and weary calculations of his affairs, the doctor strove for an instant +to regain command of himself; then stared piteously at his visitor for +an instant, staggered, grasped at his neckcloth, and fell heavily upon +the floor. + +Time passed; and as soon as the proper legal arrangements were +completed, Septimus Hardon was to be possessed of his father's much +reduced property--an estate shorn of its extent, but still what, to a +poor man, seemed wealth. In obedience to his wishes, the affairs had +been arranged in the quietest manner, Septimus Hardon's not being a +nature to trample upon a fallen man--fallen indeed; for his next visit +to his uncle was at one of the debtors' prisons, from which there seemed +no likelihood of his release, so deeply was he involved. + +Mrs Doctor Hardon had been to Essex-street the night before begging +that he would come, for the poor woman was in despair and dread at the +turn matters were taking; for there the doctor sat as he had sat the +night through in his shabbily-furnished room, sitting with a heavy frown +upon his forehead, wrinkled as though the spirit of evil pressed down +upon him heavily. Three times over he had sternly bade the weeping +woman begone--the wife of many years--who, her fit of bitter anger +passed, now hung about the gates of a morning until they were opened, +and would then have laid her grey head upon his shoulder as she +whispered comfort. But no; her lot was to pace wearily up and down; and +the doctor sat alone, hour after hour, brooding over his fall; the +proofs brought forward that his was a fraud; the curse that had seemed +to attend the money; the failure of venture after venture that he had +looked upon as certainties; the gnawing agony of his heart for the +daughter he had lost, but who was to have been forgiven at some future +time--always at some time in the future--a season put off till it was +too late, and she had gone for forgiveness elsewhere; while, above all, +there was a strange wild impending dread overtopping every cloud and +driving him to turn over and over in his pocket a small-stoppered +bottle--a bottle without a label, and held so long in his hand that the +glass was hot. + +A noble mansion had the doctor built in imagination: one that should be +wondrous in its prosperity and endurance, but it had no foundation--a +bit had crumbled here, a wall there cracked, then a corner had given way +(a key to the whole), and with a crash the fabric had come down--so that +the builder's spirit was crushed as here he sat, shrunk and limp, +waiting for the news of some fresh calamity, some new fall that should +crush him yet more; for in his wild dreams he had seen his brother +threatening him, and Septimus triumphantly shaking the will in his face. +And so he sat on, hour after hour, clasping the tiny bottle in his +hand--containing what? But a spoonful of some limpid fluid; while the +stricken man still listened as if for something that he expected to +happen that day. + +There he sat, without fire, but feeling not the cold, hearing not the +imploring whispered words of his wife--words uttered at the door after +he had dismissed her, to wander up and down or sit shivering, and +refusing the offered hospitality of some feeling fellow-prisoner. + +Deeper grew the wrinkles upon the doctor's brow as he sat. He had taken +nothing for many hours, but a wine-glass stood upon the table, and more +than once a trembling hand had been stretched out to grasp it. But he +would wait another hour, he would wait until that other crushing news +came, that other news hidden from his sight as by a black curtain, which +ever trembled as though about to be raised. He would wait until the +clocks struck again, just to think; though each stroke of hammer upon +bell sounded funereally upon his ear. Again another hour, and another, +and so on through the long night, through the grey, cold dawn, and again +after the bright rising of the sun, which brought no hope to him. + +"Only one other hour," said the crouching man, and the words hissed +between his fevered lips. "Only another hour!" he muttered, while his +bloodshot eyes seemed to dilate as he drew forth the bottle and held it +up to the light, shook it, and, watched the bright beads that trickled +down the sides of the glass. His unshorn beard and sunken cheeks gave +him a strangely haggard look; such that those who had known him in +former days would have passed him without recognition. + +Suddenly there was a step in the long corridor--one of many, but a step +that he seemed to know; and then followed low voices, and the sound of a +woman sobbing. + +It had come at last--he had waited, and it was here--and a bitter smile +trembled, it did not play, round the lips of Doctor Hardon, as he once +more drew forth the bottle. + +"This, this, this!" he kept on hissing in a harsh whisper as he smiled, +thinking that the dark curtain which trembled in front would show him +the future and not the present. And now he tried to draw forth the +little stopper, but it was immovable. He tore at it fiercely, and then +seized it with his teeth, but it broke short off, and he spat the piece +angrily upon the floor. + +"Now, now!" he muttered, as though there was not a moment to spare, +while with trembling hand he seized the poker, and, holding the bottle +above the wine-glass, struck it sharply, shivered it to atoms, and the +liquid, mingled with sharp fragments, fell into the vessel, a large +portion splashing over the table and moistening the doctor's hand. + +"Now, now!" he muttered, seizing the glass; and as he gave one glance at +the bright blue wintry sky, he raised the little vessel hesitatingly to +his lips. Then the door was pushed open, Mrs Hardon stepped in, +shrieked, and dashed the undrained glass from her husband's hand, so +that it fell shivered upon the cold hearthstone, when, falling at his +feet and clutching his knees, the unhappy woman sobbed loudly: + +"O Tom, Tom, ask him to forgive us!" but the doctor only stood glaring +at his visitor. + +"Indeed, indeed, Septimus, I never knew it," sobbed Mrs Hardon. + +"It is of the past--let it rest," said her nephew, who could not remove +his eyes from his uncle, now smiling feebly and pointing to the +chamber-door. + +"Why would you provoke this painful scene?" he said in an injured tone. +"You must have known, sir, that the interview would be most unfortunate. +Pray go. My solicitors, Messrs. Keening. Every arrangement has been +made, and the funeral will take place to-morrow." + +Mrs Hardon started up, and stood clasping one of her husband's hands as +she looked aghast in his face, while he continued in the same feeble +voice: + +"No will, sir--illegitimate--pray leave--most painful," and with his +disengaged hand he still pointed towards the door. "My solicitors, sir, +Messrs. Keening." + +"Pray--pray go," whispered Mrs Hardon. "He is worn out, and ill with +anxiety. I'll--I'll write, Septimus," and she hurried her visitor to +the door. "But don't--don't punish us for what is past," she said +imploringly. + +The look of Septimus Hardon was sufficient as he turned to the unhappy +woman; and then he stepped into the passage with the intention of +fetching medical assistance, for, as the door closed, he once more heard +the doctor's voice: "My solicitors, sir, Messrs. Keening. Pray go." + +Volume Three, Chapter XVIII. + +THE LAKE UNCAGED. + +That was only a poor wedding that Jean Marais, with a bright spot in +each of his sallow cheeks and a wild look in his dark eyes, gazed down +upon from the gloomy old gallery of the church; only a quiet wedding +that those two eager eyes had gazed upon, when their crippled owner had +climbed slowly and laboriously up to the gallery to watch unseen, while +the ceremony was performed which gave Lucy Grey to her happy husband; +but beneath those wild eyes there were convulsed features, cracked and +quivering lips. + +And the lark? He bore his treasure with him, the bird she had loved to +hear; it nestled in his breast, and a stall-keeper hard by took charge +of the cage. And there watched Jean unseen, while Lucy, turning her +eyes upon her husband, accompanied him into the vestry. + +Then below in the nave there was the buzz of expectation as the party +came from the vestry--Lucy, blushing and fair, leaning upon the curate's +arm; and he, proud of the treasure he had won, walking happy and elate +by her side. But it was only a poor wedding--poor in the show that was +made and in those who assembled; for Bennett's-rents was empty that +morning, and Mrs Sims' sniff was heard again and again, just inside the +chancel; while the only wonder was that some of the children gathered +together were not crushed beneath the wheels of the conveyances. + +It was only a poor affair, but there was a light in many a face there +that would have outshone the glories of a fashionable wedding. Even +Mrs Septimus forgot her troubles, and confided more than once to Aunt +Fanny that she thought her complaint had got the turn. + +But there knelt Jean the cripple, alone in the gallery, till the last +looker-on had left, the last wheel rolled from the gate, and a sad +stillness had fallen upon the empty church, when, with a bitter, +heart-wrung cry, the young man crouched lower and lower, burying his +face in his hands. Then he slowly rose, and taking his crutch, +painfully made his way towards the narrow door, his looks worn and +weary, but with a strange light in his eye. + +Pausing at length in the busy street, he took from his breast the bird +he had so long tended, and started slightly, but with a bitter smile +upon his lips, for in his emotion he had crushed the poor thing, and it +panted feebly, with half-closed eye and open beak; but Jean only smiled. +And with the same sad look he replaced the bird in his bosom, and then +slowly and laboriously crept along, side by side, with the hurrying +stream of passengers. Toiling on slowly and patiently, his crutch +sounding loudly upon the pavement, with the same bitter look fixed as it +were upon his lip, Jean Marais slowly toiled on till he was lost in the +crowd. + +Only a poor wedding; but Aunt Fanny was there, laughing and crying by +turns, and vowing that she heard every word of the service, and that +Arthur never spoke out so well before. And what a dress the old lady +wore! surely no poplin ever before displayed such plaits; and then, +forgetful of dress, plaits, muslin, everything, was it not a treat to +see her take Lucy to her warm old heart when they had returned to +Essex-street, as the fair girl knelt at her feet, the large eyes gazing +up so appealingly, and seeming to say--"Don't despise me for being so +humble!" But, there; had she been a princess, she could have had no +warmer nook in the old dame's heart, for was not Arthur happy? And then +those arms, that of old lay so placidly across her black-silk apron-- +worn even at the return from the wedding, and brought in a reticule-- +became restless to a degree, ever animated by the desire to embrace her +children. + +Did she love Lucy? Had not Arthur, the wisest of men, chosen her? and +did not that spread such a mantle of holiness around the maiden that, +even had Aunt Fanny never seen her, she would have battled for her to +the death? Would he have chosen any but the purest and noblest of +heart? she asked herself again and again. So she divided her love +between them, and then, upon the return from church, laughed and cried +by turns; for, said she, "I must leave poor Arty now." + +Arthur Sterne was silent, but he smiled as he saw two soft round arms +circle Aunt Fanny's neck, prisoning her as their owner whispered words +whose import he could guess. + +A quiet repast, and a short interval of preparation before the start for +a trip, only some miles from town, an easy drive, for a few days' visit +to where the sweet breath of the country blew; and then the elders +standing at the door watching the departing vehicle, and the waving +hands, as the wheels rattled along the echoing street; and then +upstairs, for Aunt Fanny and Mrs Septimus to talk of their children, +while Septimus Hardon roamed the streets. + +"O, the bright lovely country!" cried Lucy, as the carriage rolled on +between hedgerows here and there silvered with the scented May, whose +fragrance was borne by the light breeze through the open windows. "O, +the bright lovely country!" she cried; "am I not foolish, Arthur?" she +sobbed; "but the tears will come, for I feel that this happiness cannot +last!" + +The word "Arthur" was spoken hesitatingly, as if it were strange to her +lips, and she hardly dared to use it; her eyes were fixed for a moment +upon those of her husband, and then she glided down to the bottom of the +fly and kneeled at his feet, as he fondly parted the hair upon her broad +forehead. + +"You are not angry with me for being so childish?" she murmured. + +"Angry!" he replied, and the tone in which he said that word was +sufficient. + +"Don't think me foolish," she said; "but let us walk a little here, +where the grass borders the road; for it seems wrong to hurry past the +lovely green trees, after the close misery of London. They are new to +me, Arthur; and look! look! there are flowers, and birds; and see how +the bright sunshine dances amongst the leaves. But, there," she said +sadly; "you smile at my folly, and forget what all this is to me, after +years of prisoning London." + +But the next minute the fly had stopped, and, relieved of its load, +resumed its way; and, happy and proud, Arthur Sterne looked down upon +his newly-wedded wife, elate to see the pure, intense love of all that +was beautiful in nature which emanated from this escaped prisoner of +life; while Lucy was divided between delight of the scene around her, +and reproach for her so-called indifference towards her husband. And so +they walked, inhaling the sweets of the early summer afternoon, and +finding in them joys known only to those who have escaped but freshly +from the great City's miseries. And still on and on, almost in silence, +enveloped as they were in the happiness of the present. + +"Listen!" cried Lucy, as she stopped suddenly, and laid a finger upon +her husband's lip--a finger now white and delicate, once fretted and +work-worn. "Listen!" she whispered, "and close your eyes. Might not +that be poor Jean's lark?" and then both stood listening, as in those +days of the past, when their prisoned souls had gazed up eagerly into +the bright blue sky, and they had drunk in the pure gushing lay of the +speckled songster. + +"Tears, more tears, Lucy?" whispered the curate. "Are you not happy?" + +No words came for a reply, nothing but a look; as the bright eyes +brimmed over, and a sob rose from the burdened heart. + +"It seems too much--as if it could not last," whispered Lucy; "and that +song brought back so many sorrows, dear--the court, and so much of the +past. But you will forgive me, Arthur?" + +Again the same hesitating speech, as if it were an assumption upon her +part to call him by his name, and she half dreaded rebuke. + +"What does the driver want?" said Mr Sterne; for the man was shouting +and making signs. + +By the time they had overtaken the vehicle, the man had dismounted and +was by the bank, stooping over a reclining figure; and on approaching +nearer, the curate recognised the cripple, Jean, lying apparently +asleep, holding his lark to his lips, while his crutch was by his side. +But if the master slept, it was not so with the bird; for its soft +feathers were ruffled, its wings half-open, and the lids drawn partly +over the little dark, bead-like eyes; the crest lay smooth, the +throat-feathers rose not, the wings had fluttered for the last time; the +bright, gushing lay would thrill through prisoned hearts in +Bennett's-rents no more--the lark was dead. + +And its master? To get one more look, one farewell glance, he had +toiled wearily on, mile after mile, towards the village where he had +heard they would rest; and on he pressed, with a strength evoked by the +despair of his heart, till he had sat down to rest by the wayside and +sunk back exhausted. + +In an instant Lucy was upon her knees by his side and had raised his +head, while her husband's hand was in the cripple's breast. Then he +slowly opened his eyes and stared wildly round till they rested upon her +who supported his head, when his features softened, and a smile came +once more upon his lips as they seemed to part to form the words +"Good-bye!" + +And then slowly and imperceptibly the smile faded from his lip, the +light from his eye; and as they gazed upon him, a cold sternness stole +over the poor youth's countenance, till, with agony depicted in her +every feature, Lucy looked up appealingly at her husband. + +But Jean was dead--passed away; for he had toiled through the streets, +nerved by a stern determination--a wild despair--on through the suburbs, +and so out into the country; the one purpose always in his mind--to be +where she would come once more; on still, slowly, painfully, hour after +hour, till he sank exhausted, to die of a ruptured blood-vessel. + +And still, of a summer's evening, may the lounger in the great streets +of the West come upon a knot of idlers; and, pausing for a few moments, +listen to divers sharply-uttered commands given in French to a pair of +wretched poodles; who fetch and carry, rise erect, and march about with +aspect doleful and disconsolate, till a few of the bystanders drop +halfpence in the basket one of the dogs carries in his mouth. Then a +fresh pitch is made; the performance again gone through; and then on +again; on after _ma mere_ of the sharp and eager look--the harsh, +cracked voice; on again, with drooping ears and tail--unlionlike of +aspect; on again, perhaps to cast a look of envy at some free and +rollicking idle dog, or of condolence at the miserable sharp-eyed monkey +performing on the table, rapid in every moment, but more rapid in the +glance of its little dark, blow-watching eye. And at last, when the +streets grow thin of passengers, and the dogs tired and blundering, home +to the court where they dwell--a court yet standing, though +Bennett's-rents is no more; another court, where the flags lie broken, +and the refuse-choked channel festers with the water from the hard-used +pump; where the children revel by day in the dirt and filth, and Death +oft and oft again beckons the undertaker to come with his shambling +horse and shabby Shillibeer-hearse; where the pigeons cluster upon the +housetops and coo at daybreak, and then circle in flights, while men of +the Jarker stamp urge them on. Home, to another old house, and up the +groaning stairs, where even by night the twittering of birds can be +heard in lodgers' rooms--prisoners dwelling in a prison within a prison; +here, too, the click of a sewing-machine--patent--man's make; there, the +sigh of a sewing-machine--not patent--God's make; and up the rickety +stairs to another attic, where cages hang--empty cages, kept because +they were those of Jean; where the crutch stands in the corner beneath +the lark's home, brought back by the neighbour who keeps a stall, but +empty too: canaries, linnets, finches, passed away; while the lark lies +upon the breast of its master--the cripple Jean--and the turf grows +green above his resting-place at Highgate. + +"_En avant--venez donc--mes chiens_! Home!" though it be not +Bennett's-rents. + +Volume Three, Chapter XIX. + +MAD. + +In one of those vast piles of building a short distance down the main +line of a great railway, a strange-looking elderly man, and one whose +dress bespeaks the clergyman, are passing from ward to ward upon a +visit. The man with them, in his quiet livery, raises the brass-chained +key he carries to open lock after lock--one key for hundreds--and they +pass on by sights of the most sorrowful; for they are amongst those of +their fellows in whom the light of reason burns but dimly or is extinct. +At last they stand by a window looking upon an extensive yard, where +some fifty patients clothed in grey serge walk about for exercise--some +hurriedly, some talking, some excited, others calm. And now one visitor +lays a trembling hand upon his companion's arm as, nearing the window, +comes a portly, grey, smiling man, rolling solemnly along with imposing +gait, wearing a stiff white-paper cravat, with a card snuff-box in his +hand and a straw-plait chain meandering over his grey serge vest. Quiet +and harmless, he goes about the yard feeling the pulses of his +fellow-patients, and nods at them and smiles encouragement. + +"Is there any prospect of his recovery?" says the clergyman to the +warder, who is looking unconcernedly on. + +"Whose, sir?" says the attendant. "His? the doctor's? O no, sir, not +the least. 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