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FOR PUBLIC DOMAIN ETEXTS*Ver.04.07.00*END* + + + + + +This etext was prepared by A Elizabeth Warren MD, Sacramento, +CA; aewarren2@aol.com + + + + +Homespun Tales + +by Kate Douglas Wiggin + + + + +Introduction + +These three stories are now brought together under one cover because they have +not quite outworn their welcome; but in their first estate two of them +appeared as gift-books, with decorative borders and wide margins, a style not +compatible with the stringent economies of the present moment. Luckily they +belong together by reason of their background, which is an imaginary village, +any village you choose, within the confines, or on the borders of York County, +in the State of Maine. + +In the first tale the river, not "Rose," is the principal character; no one +realizes this better than I. If an author spends her summers on the banks of +Saco Water it fills the landscape. It flows from the White Mountains to the +Atlantic in a tempestuous torrent, breaking here and there into glorious falls +of amber glimpsed through snowy foam; its rapids dash through rocky cliffs +crowned with pine trees, under which blue harebells and rosy columbines +blossom in gay profusion. There is the glint of the mirror-like lake above the +falls, and the sound of the surging floods below; the witchery of feathery +elms reflected in its clear surfaces, and the enchantment of the full moon on +its golden torrents, never twice alike and always beautiful! How is one to +forget, evade, scorn, belittle it, by leaving its charms untold; and who could +keep such a river out of a book? It has flowed through many of mine and the +last sound I expect to hear in life will be the faint, far-away murmur of Saco +Water! + +The old Tory Hill Meeting House bulks its way into the foreground of the next +story, and the old Peabody Pew (which never existed) has somehow assumed a +quasi-historical aspect never intended by its author. There is a Dorcas +Society, and there is a meeting house; my dedication assures the reader of +these indubitable facts; and the Dorcas Society, in a season of temporary +bankruptcy, succeeding a too ample generosity, did scrub the pews when there +was no money for paint. Rumors of our strenuous, and somewhat unique, +activities spread through our parish to many others, traveling so far (even +over seas) that we became embarrassed at our easily won fame. The book was +read and people occasionally came to church to see the old Peabody Pew, rather +resenting the information that there had never been any Peabodys in the parish +and, therefore, there could be no Peabody Pew. Matters became worse when I +made, very reverently, what I suppose must be called a dramatic version of the +book, which we have played for several summers in the old meeting house to +audiences far exceeding our seating capacity. Inasmuch as the imaginary +love-tale of my so-called Nancy Wentworth and Justin Peabody had begun under +the shadow of the church steeple, and after the ten years of parting the happy +reunion had come to them in the selfsame place, it was possible to present +their story simply and directly, without offense, in a church building. There +was no curtain, no stage, no scenery, no theatricalism. The pulpit was moved +back, and four young pine trees were placed in front of it for supposed +Christmas decoration. The pulpit platform, and the "wing pews" left vacant for +the village players, took the place of a stage; the two aisles served for +exits and entrances; and the sexton with three rings of the church bell, +announced the scenes. The Carpet Committee of the Dorcas Society furnished the +exposition of the first act, while sewing the last breadths of the new, +hardly-bought ingrain carpet. The scrubbing of the pews ends the act, with +dialogue concerning men, women, ministers, church-members and their ways, +including the utter failure of Justin Peabody, Nancy's hero, to make a living +anywhere, even in the West. The Dorcas members leave the church for their +Saturday night suppers of beans and brown bread, but Nancy returns with her +lantern at nightfall to tack down the carpet in the old Peabody pew and iron +out the tattered, dog's eared leaves of the hymn-book from which she has so +often sung "By cool Siloam's shady rill" with her lover in days gone by. He, +still a failure, having waited for years for his luck to turn, has come back +to spend Christmas in the home of his boyhood; and seeing a dim light in the +church, he enters quietly and surprises Nancy at her task of carpeting the +Peabody Pew, so that it shall look as well as the others at next day's +services. The rest is easy to imagine. One can deny the reality of a book, but +when two or three thousand people have beheld Justin Peabody and Nancy +Wentworth in the flesh, and have seen the paint of the old Peabody Pew wiped +with a damp cloth, its cushion darned and its carpet tacked in place, it is +useless to argue; any more than it would be to deny the validity of the egg of +Columbus or the apple of William Tell. + +As for "Susanna and Sue" the story would never have been written had I not as +a child and girl been driven once a year to the Shaker meeting at the little +village of Alfred, sixteen miles distant. The services were then open to the +public, but eventually permission to attend them was withdrawn, because of the +careless and sometimes irreverent behavior of young people who regarded the +Shaker costumes, the solemn dances or marches, the rhythmic movements of the +hands, the almost hypnotic crescendo of the singing, as a sort of humorous +spectacle. I learned to know the brethren and sisters, and the Elder, as years +went by, and often went to the main house to spend a day or two as the guest +of Eldress Harriet, a saint, if ever there was one, or, later, with dear +Sister Lucinda. + +The shining cleanliness and order, the frugality and industry, the serenity +and peace of these people, who had resigned the world and "life on the plane +of Adam," vowing themselves to celibacy, to public confession of sins, and the +holding of goods in common,--all this has always had a certain exquisite and +helpful influence upon my thought, and Mr. W. D. Howells paid a far more +beautiful tribute to them in "The Undiscovered Country." + +It is needless to say that I read every word of the book to my Shaker friends +before it was published. They took a deep interest in it, evincing keen +delight in my rather facetious but wholly imaginary portrait of "Brother +Ansel," a "born Shaker," and sadly confessing that my two young lovers, +"Hetty" and "Nathan," who could not endure the rigors of the Shaker faith and +fled together in the night to marry and join the world's people,--that this +tragedy had often occurred in their community. + +Here, then, are the three simple homespun tales. I believe they are true to +life as I see it. I only wish my readers might hear the ripple of the Maine +river running through them; breathe the fragrance of New England for-ests, and +though never for a moment getting, through my poor pen, the atmosphere of +Maine's rugged cliffs and the tang of her salt sea air, they might at least +believe for an instant that they had found a modest Mayflower in her pine +woods. + +KATE DOUGLAS WIGGIN. July, 1920. + + + + +CONTENTS + + + +ROSE O' THE RIVER + +I. The Pine and the Rose +II. The "Old Kennebec" +III. The Edgewood "Drive" +IV. "Blasphemious Swearin'" +V. The Game of Jackstraws +VI. Hearts and Other Hearts +VII. The Little House +VIII. The Garden of Eden +IX. The Serpent +X. The Turquoise Ring +XI. Rose Sees the World +XII. Gold and Pinchbeck +XIII. A Country Chevalier +XIV. Housebreaking +XV. The Dream Room + + +THE OLD PEABODY PEW + + +SUSANNA AND SUE + +I. Mother Ann's Children +II. A Son of Adam +III. Divers Doctrines +IV. Louisa's Mind +V. the Little Quail Bird +VI. Susanna Speaks in Meeting +VII. "The Lower Plane" +VIII. Concerning Backsliders +IX. Love Manifold +X. Brother and Sister +XI. "The Open Door" +XII. The Hills of Home + + + + + +ROSE O' THE RIVER + + + +I + +The Pine And the Rose + + +It was not long after sunrise, and Stephen Waterman, fresh from his dip in the +river, had scrambled up the hillside from the hut in the alder-bushes where he +had made his morning toilet. + +An early ablution of this sort was not the custom of the farmers along the +banks of the Saco, but the Waterman house was hardly a stone's throw from the +water, and there was a clear, deep swimming-hole in the Willow Cove that would +have tempted the busiest man, or the least cleanly, in York County. Then, too, +Stephen was a child of the river, born, reared, schooled on its very brink, +never happy unless he were on it, or in it, or beside it, or at least within +sight or sound of it. + +The immensity of the sea had always silenced and overawed him, left him cold +in feeling. The river wooed him, caressed him, won his heart. It was just big +enough to love. It was full of charms and changes, of varying moods and sudden +surprises. Its voice stole in upon his ear with a melody far sweeter and more +subtle than the boom of the ocean. Yet it was not without strength, and when +it was swollen with the freshets of the spring and brimming with the bounty of +its sister streams, it could dash and roar, boom and crash, with the best of +them. + +Stephen stood on the side porch, drinking in the glory of the sunrise, with +the Saco winding like a silver ribbon through the sweet loveliness of the +summer landscape. + +And the river rolled on toward the sea, singing its morning song, creating and +nourishing beauty at every step of its onward path. Cradled in the heart of a +great mountain-range, it pursued its gleaming way, here lying silent in glassy +lakes, there rushing into tinkling little falls, foaming great falls, and +thundering cataracts. Scores of bridges spanned its width, but no steamers +flurried its crystal depths. Here and there a rough little rowboat, tethered +to a willow, rocked to and fro in some quiet bend of the shore. Here the +silver gleam of a rising perch, chub, or trout caught the eye; there a +pickerel lay rigid in the clear water, a fish carved in stone: here eels +coiled in the muddy bottom of some pool; and there, under the deep shadows of +the rocks, lay fat, sleepy bass, old, and incredibly wise, quite untempted by, +and wholly superior to, the rural fisherman's worm. + +The river lapped the shores of peaceful meadows; it flowed along banks green +with maple, beech, sycamore, and birch; it fell tempestuously over dams and +fought its way between rocky cliffs crowned with stately firs. It rolled past +forests of pine and hemlock and spruce, now gentle, now terrible; for there is +said to be an Indian curse upon the Saco, whereby, with every great sun, the +child of a paleface shall be drawn into its cruel depths. Lashed into fury by +the stony reefs that impeded its progress, the river looked now sapphire, now +gold, now white, now leaden gray; but always it was hurrying, hurrying on its +appointed way to the sea. + +After feasting his eyes and filling his heart with a morning draught of +beauty, Stephen went in from the porch and, pausing at the stairway, called in +stentorian tones: "Get up and eat your breakfast, Rufus! The boys will be +picking the side jams today, and I'm going down to work on the logs. If you +come along, bring your own pick-pole and peavey." Then, going to the kitchen +pantry, he collected, from the various shelves, a pitcher of milk, a loaf of +bread, half an apple pie, and a bowl of blueberries, and, with the easy +methods of a household unswayed by feminine rule, moved toward a seat under an +apple tree and took his morning meal in great apparent content. Having +finished, and washed his dishes with much more thoroughness than is common to +unsuperintended man, and having given Rufus the second call to breakfast with +the vigor and acrimony that usually mark that unpleasant performance, he +strode to a high point on the riverbank and, shading his eyes with his hand, +gazed steadily downstream. + +Patches of green fodder and blossoming potatoes melted into soft fields that +had been lately mown, and there were glimpses of tasseling corn rising high to +catch the sun. Far, far down on the opposite bank of the river was the hint of +a brown roof, and the tip of a chimney that sent a slender wisp of smoke into +the clear air. Beyond this, and farther back from the water, the trees +apparently hid a cluster of other chimneys, for thin spirals of smoke ascended +here and there. The little brown roof could never have revealed itself to any +but a lover's eye; and that discerned something even smaller, something like a +pinkish speck, that moved hither and thither on a piece of greensward that +sloped to the waterside. + +"She's up!" Stephen exclaimed under his breath, his eyes shining, his lips +smiling. His voice had a note of hushed exaltation about it, as if "she," +whoever she might be, had, in condescending to rise, conferred a priceless +boon upon a waiting universe. If she were indeed "up" (so his tone implied), +then the day, somewhat falsely heralded by the sunrise, had really begun, and +the human race might pursue its appointed tasks, inspired and uplifted by the +consciousness of her existence. It might properly be grateful for the fact of +her birth; that she had grown to woman's estate; and, above all, that, in +common with the sun, the lark, the morning-glory, and other beautiful things +of the early day, she was up and about her lovely, cheery, heart-warming +business. + +The handful of chimneys and the smoke-spirals rising here and there among the +trees on the river-bank belonged to what was known as the Brier Neighborhood. +There were only a few houses in all, scattered along a side road leading from +the river up to Liberty Center. There were no great signs of thrift or +prosperity, but the Wiley cottage, the only one near the water, was neat and +well cared for, and Nature had done her best to conceal man's indolence, +poverty, or neglect. + +Bushes of sweetbrier grew in fragrant little forests as tall as the fences. +Clumps of wild roses sprang up at every turn, and over all the stone walls, as +well as on every heap of rocks by the wayside, prickly blackberry vines ran +and clambered and clung, yielding fruit and thorns impartially to the +neighborhood children. + +The pinkish speck that Stephen Waterman had spied from his side of the river +was Rose Wiley of the Brier Neighborhood on the Edgewood side. As there was +another of her name on Brigadier Hill, the Edgewood minister called one of +them the climbing Rose and the other the brier Rose, or sometimes Rose of the +river. She was well named, the pinkish speck. She had not only some of the +sweetest attributes of the wild rose, but the parallel might have been +extended as far as the thorns, for she had wounded her scores,--hearts, be it +understood, not hands. The wounding was, on the whole, very innocently done; +and if fault could be imputed anywhere, it might rightly have been laid at the +door of the kind powers who had made her what she was, since the smile that +blesses a single heart is always destined to break many more. + +She had not a single silk gown, but she had what is far better, a figure to +show off a cotton one. Not a brooch nor a pair of earrings was numbered among +her possessions, but any ordinary gems would have looked rather dull and +trivial when compelled to undergo comparison with her bright eyes. As to her +hair, the local milliner declared it impossible for Rose Wiley to get an +unbecoming hat; that on one occasion, being in a frolicsome mood, Rose had +tried on all the headgear in the village emporium,--children's gingham +"Shakers," mourning bonnets for aged dames, men's haying hats and visored +caps,--and she proved superior to every test, looking as pretty as a pink in +the best ones and simply ravishing in the worst. In fact, she had been so +fashioned and finished by Nature that, had she been set on a revolving +pedestal in a show-window, the bystanders would have exclaimed, as each new +charm came into view: "Look at her waist! See her shoulders! And her neck and +chin! And her hair!" While the children, gazing with raptured admiration, +would have shrieked, in unison, "I choose her for mine." + +All this is as much as to say that Rose of the river was a beauty, yet it +quite fails to explain, nevertheless, the secret of her power. When she looked +her worst the spell was as potent as when she looked her best. Hidden away +somewhere was a vital spark which warmed every one who came in contact with +it. Her lovely little person was a trifle below medium height, and it might as +well be confessed that her soul, on the morning when Stephen Waterman saw her +hanging out the clothes on the river-bank, was not large enough to be at all +out of proportion; but when eyes and dimples, lips and cheeks, enslave the +onlooker, the soul is seldom subjected to a close or critical scrutiny. +Besides, Rose Wiley was a nice girl, neat as wax, energetic, merry, amiable, +economical. She was a dutiful granddaughter to two of the most irritating old +people in the county; she never patronized her pug-nosed, pasty-faced girl +friends; she made wonderful pies and doughnuts; and besides, small souls, if +they are of the right sort, sometimes have a way of growing, to the +discomfiture of cynics and the gratification of the angels. + +So, on one bank of the river grew the brier rose, a fragile thing, swaying on +a slender stalk and looking at its pretty reflection in the water; and on the +other a sturdy pine tree, well rooted against wind and storm. And the sturdy +pine yearned for the wild rose; and the rose, so far as it knew, yearned for +nothing at all, certainly not for rugged pine trees standing tall and grim in +rocky soil. If, in its present stage of development, it gravitated toward +anything in particular, it would have been a well-dressed white birch growing +on an irreproachable lawn. + +And the river, now deep, now shallow, now smooth, now tumultuous, now +sparkling in sunshine, now gloomy under clouds, rolled on to the engulfing +sea. It could not stop to concern itself with the petty comedies and tragedies +that were being enacted along its shores, else it would never have reached its +destination. Only last night, under a full moon, there had been pairs of +lovers leaning over the rails of all the bridges along its course; but that +was a common sight, like that of the ardent couples sitting on its shady banks +these summer days, looking only into each other's eyes, but exclaiming about +the beauty of the water. Lovers would come and go, sometimes reappearing with +successive installments of loves in a way wholly mysterious to the river. +Meantime it had its own work to do and must be about it, for the side jams +were to be broken and the boom "let out" at the Edgewood bridge. + + + +II + +"Old Kennebec" + + +It was just seven o'clock that same morning when Rose Wiley smoothed the last +wrinkle from her dimity counterpane, picked up a shred of corn-husk from the +spotless floor under the bed, slapped a mosquito on the window-sill, removed +all signs of murder with a moist towel, and before running down to breakfast +cast a frowning look at her pincushion. Almira, otherwise "Mite," Shapley had +been in her room the afternoon before and disturbed with her careless hand the +pattern of Rose's pins. They were kept religiously in the form of a Maltese +cross; and if, while she was extricating one from her clothing, there had been +an alarm of fire, Rose would have stuck the pin in its appointed place in the +design, at the risk of losing her life. + +Entering the kitchen with her light step, she brought the morning sunshine +with her. The old people had already engaged in differences of opinion, but +they commonly suspended open warfare in her presence. There were the usual +last things to be done for breakfast, offices that belonged to her as her +grandmother's assistant. She took yesterday's soda biscuits out of the steamer +where they were warming and softening; brought an apple pie and a plate of +seed cakes from the pantry; settled the coffee with a piece of dried fish skin +and an egg shell; and transferred some fried potatoes from the spider to a +covered dish. + +"Did you remember the meat, grandpa? We're all out," she said, as she began +buttoning a stiff collar around his reluctant neck. + +"Remember? Land, yes! I wish't I ever could forgit anything! The butcher says +he's 'bout tired o' travelin' over the country lookin' for critters to kill, +but if he finds anything he'll be up along in the course of a week. He ain't a +real smart butcher, Cyse Higgins ain't.--Land, Rose, don't button that dickey +clean through my epperdummis! I have to sport starched collars in this life on +account o' you and your gran'mother bein' so chock full o' style; but I hope +to the Lord I shan't have to wear 'em in another world!" + +"You won't," his wife responded with the snap of a dish towel, "or if you do, +they'll wilt with the heat." + +Rose smiled, but the soft hand with which she tied the neckcloth about the old +man's withered neck pacified his spirit, and he smiled knowingly back at her +as she took her seat at the breakfast table spread near the open kitchen door. +She was a dazzling Rose, and, it is to be feared, a wasted one, for there was +no one present to observe her clean pink calico and the still more subtle note +struck in the green ribbon which was tied round her throat,--the ribbon that +formed a sort of calyx, out of which sprang the flower of her face, as fresh +and radiant as if it had bloomed that morning. + +"Give me my coffee turrible quick," said Mr. Wiley; "I must be down to the +bridge 'fore they start dog-warpin' the side jam." + +"I notice you're always due at the bridge on churnin' days," remarked his +spouse, testily. + +"'T ain't me as app'ints drivin' dates at Edgewood," replied the old man. "The +boys'll hev a turrible job this year. The logs air ricked up jest like Rose's +jack-straws; I never see 'em so turrible ricked up in all my exper'ence; an' +Lije Dennett don' know no more 'bout pickin' a jam than Cooper's cow. Turrible +sot in his ways, too; can't take a mite of advice. I was tellin' him how to go +to work on that bung that's formed between the gre't gray rock an' the shore, +--the awfullest place to bung that there is between this an' Biddeford,- and +says he: 'Look here, I've be'n boss on this river for twelve year, an' I'll be +doggoned if I'm goin' to be taught my business by any man!' 'This ain't no +river,' says I, 'as you'd know,' says I, 'if you'd ever lived on the +Kennebec.' 'Pity you hed n't stayed on it,' says he. 'I wish to the land I +hed,' says I. An' then I come away, for my tongue's so turrible spry an' +sarcustic that I knew if I stopped any longer I should stir up strife. There's +some folks that'll set on addled aigs year in an' year out, as if there wa'n't +good fresh ones bein' laid every day; an' Lije Dennett's one of 'em, when it +comes to river-drivin'." + +"There's lots o' folks as have made a good livin' by mindin' their own +business," observed the still sententious Mrs. Wiley, as she speared a soda +biscuit with her fork. + +"Mindin' your own business is a turrible selfish trade," responded her husband +loftily. "If your neighbor is more ignorant than what you are,--partic'larly +if he's as ignorant as Cooper's cow,--you'd ought, as a Kennebec man an' a +Christian, to set him on the right track, though it's always a turrible risky +thing to do." Rose's grandfather was called, by the irreverent younger +generation, sometimes "Turrible Wiley" and sometimes "Old Kennebec," because +of the frequency with which these words appeared in his conversation. There +were not wanting those of late who dubbed him Uncle Ananias, for reasons too +obvious to mention. After a long, indolent, tolerably truthful, and useless +life, he had, at seventy-five, lost sight of the dividing line between fact +and fancy, and drew on his imagination to such an extent that he almost +staggered himself when he began to indulge in reminiscence. He was a feature +of the Edgewood "drive," being always present during the five or six days that +it was in progress, sometimes sitting on the river-bank, sometimes leaning +over the bridge, sometimes reclining against the butt-end of a huge log, but +always chewing tobacco and expectorating to incredible distances as he +criticized and damned impartially all the expedients in use at the particular +moment. + +"I want to stay down by the river this afternoon," said Rose. "Ever so many of +the girls will be there, and all my sewing is done up. If grandpa will leave +the horse for me, I'll take the drivers' lunch to them at noon, and bring the +dishes back in time to wash them before supper." + +"I suppose you can go, if the rest do," said her grandmother, "though it's an +awful lazy way of spendin' an afternoon. When I was a girl there was no such +dawdlin' goin' on, I can tell you. Nobody thought o' lookin' at the river in +them days; there was n't time." + +"But it's such fun to watch the logs!" Rose exclaimed. "Next to dancing, the +greatest fun in the world." + +"'Specially as all the young men in town will be there, watchin', too," was +the grandmother's reply. "Eben Brooks an' Richard Bean got home yesterday with +their doctors' diplomas in their pockets. Mrs. Brooks says Eben stood +forty-nine in a class o' fifty-five, an' seemed consid'able proud of him; an' +I guess it is the first time he ever stood anywheres but at the foot. I tell +you when these fifty-five new doctors git scattered over the country there'll +be consid'able many folks keepin' house under ground. Dick Bean's goin' to +stop a spell with Rufe an' Steve Waterman. That'll make one more to play in +the river." + +"Rufus ain't hardly got his workin' legs on yit," allowed Mr. Wiley, "but +Steve's all right. He's a turrible smart driver, an' turrible reckless, too. +He'll take all the chances there is, though to a man that's lived on the +Kennebec there ain't what can rightly be called any turrible chances on the +Saco." + +"He'd better be 'tendin' to his farm," objected Mrs. Wiley. + +"His hay is all in," Rose spoke up quickly, "and he only helps on the river +when the farm work is n't pressing. Besides, though it's all play to him, he +earns his two dollars and a half a day." + +"He don't keer about the two and a half," said her grandfather. "He jest can't +keep away from the logs. There's some that can't. When I first moved here from +Gard'ner, where the climate never suited me--" + + +"The climate of any place where you hev regular work never did an' never will +suit you," remarked the old man's wife; but the interruption received no +comment: such mistaken views of his character were too frequent to make any +impression. + +"As I was sayin', Rose," he continued, "when we first moved here from +Gard'ner, we lived neighbor to the Watermans. Steve an' Rufus was little boys +then, always playin' with a couple o' wild cousins o' theirn, consid'able +older. Steve would scare his mother pretty nigh to death stealin' away to the +mill to ride on the 'carriage,' 'side o' the log that was bein' sawed, +hitchin' clean out over the river an' then jerkin' back 'most into the jaws o' +the machinery." + +"He never hed any common sense to spare, even when he was a young one," +remarked Mrs. Wiley; "and I don't see as all the 'cademy education his father +throwed away on him has changed him much." And with this observation she rose +from the table and went to the sink. + +"Steve ain't nobody's fool," dissented the old man; "but he's kind o' daft +about the river. When he was little he was allers buildin' dams in the brook, +an' sailin' chips, an' runnin' on the logs; allers choppin' up stickins an' +raftin' 'em together in the pond. I cai'late Mis' Waterman died consid'able +afore her time, jest from fright, lookin' out the winders and seein' her boys +slippin' between the logs an' gittin' their daily dousin'. She could n't +understand it, an' there's a heap o' things women-folks never do an' never can +understand,--jest because they _air_ women-folks." + +"One o' the things is men, I s'pose," interrupted Mrs. Wiley. + +"Men in general, but more partic'larly husbands," assented Old Kennebec; +"howsomever, there's another thing they don't an' can't never take in, an' +that's sport. Steve does river-drivin' as he would horse-racin' or tiger- +shootin' or tight-rope dancin'; an' he always did from a boy. When he was +about twelve to fifteen, he used to help the river-drivers spring and fall, +reg'lar. He could n't do nothin' but shin up an' down the rocks after hammers +an' hatchets an' ropes, but he was turrible pleased with his job. +'Stepanfetchit,' they used to call him them days,--Stepanfetchit Waterman." + +"Good name for him yet," came in acid tones from the sink. "He's still +steppin' an' fetchin', only it's Rose that's doin' the drivin' now." + +"I'm not driving anybody, that I know of," answered Rose, with heightened +color, but with no loss of her habitual self-command. + +"Then, when he graduated from errants," went on the crafty old man, who knew +that when breakfast ceased, churning must begin, "Steve used to get +seventy-five cents a day helpin' clear up the river--if you can call this here +silv'ry streamlet a river. He'd pick off a log here an' there an' send it +afloat, an' dig out them that hed got ketched in the rocks, and tidy up the +banks jest like spring house-cleanin'. If he'd hed any kind of a boss, an' hed +be'n trained on the Kennebec, he'd 'a' made a turrible smart driver, Steve +would." + +"He'll be drownded, that's what'll become o' him, prophesied Mrs. Wiley; +"specially if Rose encourages him in such silly foolishness as ridin' logs +from his house down to ourn, dark nights." + +"Seein' as how Steve built ye a nice pigpen last month, 'pears to me you might +have a good word for him now an' then, mother," remarked Old Kennebec, +reaching for his second piece of pie. + +"I wa'n't a mite deceived by that pigpen, no more'n I was by Jed Towle's +hencoop, nor Ivory Dunn's well-curb, nor Pitt Packard's shed-steps. If you hed +ever kep' up your buildin's yourself, Rose's beaux would n't hev to do their +courtin' with carpenters' tools." + +"It's the pigpen an' the hencoop you want to keep your eye on, mother, not the +motives of them as made 'em. It's turrible onsettlin' to inspeck folks' +motives too turrible close." + +"Riding a log is no more to Steve than riding a horse, so he says," interposed +Rose, to change the subject; "but I tell him that a horse does n't revolve +under you, and go sideways at the same time that it is going forwards." + +"Log-ridin' ain't no trick at all to a man of sperit," said Mr. Wiley. +"There's a few places in the Kennebec where the water's too shaller to let the +logs float, so we used to build a flume, an' the logs would whiz down like +arrers shot from a bow. The boys used to collect by the side o' that there +flume to see me ride a log down, an' I've watched 'em drop in a dead faint +when I spun by the crowd; but land! you can't drownd some folks, not without +you tie nail-kags to their head an' feet an' drop 'em in the falls; I've rid +logs down the b'ilin'est rapids o' the Kennebec an' never lost my head. I +remember well the year o' the gre't freshet, I rid a log from--" + +"There, there, father, that'll do," said Mrs. Wiley, decisively. "I'll put the +cream in the churn, an' you jest work off' some o' your steam by bringin' the +butter for us afore you start for the bridge. It don't do no good to brag +afore your own women-folks; work goes consid'able better'n stories at every +place 'cept the loafers' bench at the tavern." + +And the baffled raconteur, who had never done a piece of work cheerfully in +his life, dragged himself reluctantly to the shed, where, before long, one +could hear him moving the dasher up and down sedately to his favorite +"churning tune" of + + Broad is the road that leads to death, + And thousands walk together there; + But Wisdom shows a narrow path, + With here and there a traveler. + + + +III + +The Edgewood "Drive" + + +Just where the bridge knits together the two little villages of Pleasant River +and Edgewood, the glassy mirror of the Saco broadens suddenly, sweeping over +the dam in a luminous torrent. Gushes of pure amber mark the middle of the +dam, with crystal and silver at the sides, and from the seething vortex +beneath the golden cascade the white spray dashes up in fountains. In the +crevices and hollows of the rocks the mad water churns itself into snowy +froth, while the foam-flecked torrent, deep, strong, and troubled to its +heart, sweeps majestically under the bridge, then dashes between wooded shores +piled high with steep masses of rock, or torn and riven by great gorges. + +There had been much rain during the summer, and the Saco was very high, so on +the third day of the Edgewood drive there was considerable excitement at the +bridge, and a goodly audience of villagers from both sides of the river. There +were some who never came, some who had no fancy for the sight, some to whom it +was an old story, some who were too busy, but there were many to whom it was +the event of events, a never-ending source of interest. + +Above the fall, covering the placid surface of the river, thousands of logs +lay quietly "in boom" until the "turning out" process, on the last day of the +drive, should release them and give them their chance of display, their brief +moment of notoriety, their opportunity of interesting, amusing, exciting, and +exasperating the onlookers by their antics. + +Heaps of logs had been cast up on the rocks below the dam, where they lay in +hopeless confusion, adding nothing, however, to the problem of the moment, for +they too bided their time. If they had possessed wisdom, discretion, and +caution, they might have slipped gracefully over the falls and, steering clear +of the hidden ledges (about which it would seem they must have heard whispers +from the old pine trees along the river), have kept a straight course and +reached their destination without costing the Edgewood Lumber Company a small +fortune. Or, if they had inclined toward a jolly and adventurous career, they +could have joined one of the various jams or "bungs," stimulated by the +thought that any one of them might be a key-log, holding for a time the entire +mass in its despotic power. But they had been stranded early in the game, and, +after lying high and dry for weeks, would be picked off one by one and sent +downstream. + +In the tumultuous boil, the foaming hubbub and flurry at the foot of the +falls, one enormous peeled log wallowed up and clown like a huge rhinoceros, +greatly pleasing the children by its clumsy cavortings. Some conflict of +opposing forces kept it ever in motion, yet never set it free. Below the +bridge were always the real battle-grounds, the scenes of the first and the +fiercest conflicts. A ragged ledge of rock, standing well above the yeasty +torrent, marked the middle of the river. Stephen had been stranded there once, +just at dusk, on a stormy afternoon in spring. A jam had broken under the men, +and Stephen, having taken too great risks, had been caught on the moving mass, +and, leaping from log to log, his only chance for life had been to find a +footing on Gray Rock, which was nearer than the shore. + +Rufus was ill at the time, and Mrs. Waterman so anxious and nervous that +processions of boys had to be sent up to the River Farm, giving the frightened +mother the latest bulletins of her son's welfare. Luckily, the river was +narrow just at the Gray Rock, and it was a quite possible task, though no easy +one, to lash two ladders together and make a narrow bridge on which the +drenched and shivering man could reach the shore. There were loud cheers when +Stephen ran lightly across the slender pathway that led to safety--ran so fast +that the ladders had scarce time to bend beneath his weight. He had certainly +"taken chances," but when did he not do that? The logger's life is one of +"moving accidents by flood and field," and Stephen welcomed with wild +exhilaration every hazard that came in his path. To him there was never a dull +hour from the moment that the first notch was cut in the tree (for he +sometimes joined the boys in the lumber camp just for a frolic) till the later +one when the hewn log reached its final destination. He knew nothing of +"tooling" a four-in-hand through narrow lanes or crowded thoroughfares, +--nothing of guiding a horse over the hedges and through the pitfalls of a +stiff bit of hunting country; his steed was the rearing, plunging, kicking +log, and he rode it like a river god. + +The crowd loves daring, and so it welcomed Stephen with bravos, but it knew, +as he knew, that he was only doing his duty by the Company, only showing the +Saco that man was master, only keeping the old Waterman name in good repute. +"Ye can't drownd some folks," Old Kennebec had said, as he stood in a group on +the shore; "not without you tie sand-bags to 'em an' drop 'em in the Great +Eddy. I'm the same kind; I remember when I was stranded on jest sech a rock in +the Kennebec, only they left me there all night for dead, an' I had to swim +the rapids when it come daylight." + +"We're well acquainted with that rock and them rapids," exclaimed one of the +river-drivers, to the delight of the company. + +Rose had reason to remember Stephen's adventure, for he had clambered up the +bank, smiling and blushing under the hurrahs of the boys, and, coming to the +wagon where she sat waiting for her grandfather, had seized a moment to +whisper: "Did you care whether I came across safe, Rose? Say you did!" + +Stephen recalled that question, too, on this August morning; perhaps because +this was to be a red-letter day, and some time, when he had a free moment,-- +some time before supper, when he and Rose were sitting apart from the others, +watching the logs,--he intended again to ask her to marry him. This thought +trembled in him, stirring the deeps of his heart like a great wave, almost +sweeping him off his feet when he held it too close and let it have full sway. +It would be the fourth time that he had asked Rose this question of all +questions, but there was no úperceptible difference in his excitement, for +there was always the possible chance that she might change her mind and say +yes, if only for variety. Wanting a thing continuously, unchangingly, +unceasingly, year after year, he thought,--longing to reach it as the river +longed to reach the sea,--such wanting might, in course of time, mean having. + +Rose drove up to the bridge with the men's luncheon, and the under boss came +up to take the baskets and boxes from the back of the wagon. + +"We've had a reg'lar tussle this mornin', Rose," he said. "The logs are +determined not to move. Ike Billings, that's the han'somest and fluentest +all-round swearer on the Saco, has tried his best on the side jam. He's all +out o' cuss-words and there hain't a log budged. Now, stid o' dog-warpin' this +afternoon, an' lettin' the oxen haul off all them stubborn logs by main force, +we're goin' to ask you to set up on the bank and smile at the jam. 'Land! she +can do it!' says Ike a minute ago. 'When Rose starts smilin',' he says, 'there +ain't a jam nor a bung in _me_ that don't melt like wax and jest float right +off same as the logs do when they get into quiet, sunny water.'" + +Rose blushed and laughed, and drove up the hill to Mite Shapley's, where she +put up the horse and waited till the men had eaten their luncheon. The drivers +slept and had breakfast and supper at the Billings house, a mile down-river, +but for several years Mrs. Wiley had furnished the noon meal, sending it down +piping hot on the stroke of twelve. The boys always said that up or down the +whole length of the Saco there was no such cooking as the Wileys', and much of +this praise was earned by Rose's serving. It was the old grandmother who +burnished the tin plates and dippers till they looked like silver; +for--crotchety and sharp-tongued as she was--she never allowed Rose to spoil +her hands with soft soap and sand: but it was Rose who planned and packed, +Rose who hemmed squares of old white table-cloths and sheets to line the +baskets and keep things daintily separate, Rose, also, whose tarts and cakes +were the pride and admiration of church sociables and sewing societies. + +Where could such smoking pots of beans be found? A murmur of ecstatic approval +ran through the crowd when the covers were removed. Pieces of sweet home-fed +pork glistened like varnished mahogany on the top of the beans, and underneath +were such deeps of fragrant juice as come only from slow fires and long, quiet +hours in brick ovens. Who else could steam and bake such mealy loaves of brown +bread, brown as plum-pudding, yet with no suspicion of sogginess? Who such +soda biscuits, big, feathery, tasting of cream, and hardly needing butter? And +green-apple pies! Could such candied lower crusts be found elsewhere, or more +delectable filling? Or such rich, nutty doughnuts?--doughnuts that had spurned +the hot fat which is the ruin of so many, and risen from its waves like +golden-brown Venuses. + +"By the great seleckmen!" ejaculated Jed Towle, as he swallowed his fourth, +"I'd like to hev a wife, two daughters, and four sisters like them Wileys, and +jest set still on the river-bank an' hev 'em cook victuals for me. I'd hev +nothin' to wish for then but a mouth as big as the Saco's." + +"And I wish this custard pie was the size o' Bonnie Eagle Pond," said Ike +Billings. "I'd like to fall into the middle of it and eat my way out!" + +"Look at that bunch o' Chiny asters tied on t' the bail o' that biscuit-pail!" +said Ivory Dunn. "That's the girl's doin's, you bet; women-folks don't seem to +make no bo'quets after they git married. Let's divide 'em up an' wear 'em +drivin' this afternoon; mebbe they'll ketch the eye so 't our rags won't show +so bad. Land! it's lucky my hundred days is about up! If I don't git home +soon, I shall be arrested for goin' without clo'es. I set up 'bout all night +puttin' these blue patches in my pants an' tryin' to piece together a couple +of old red-flannel shirts to make one whole one. That's the worst o' drivin' +in these places where the pretty girls make a habit of comin' down to the +bridge to see the fun. You hev to keep rigged up jest so stylish; you can't +git no chance at the rum bottle, an' you even hev to go a leetle mite light on +swearin'." + + + +IV + +"Blasphemious Swearin'" + +"Steve Waterman's an awful nice feller," exclaimed Ivory Dunn just then. +Stephen had been looking intently across the river, watching the Shapleys' +side door, from which Rose might issue at any moment; and at this point in the +discussion he had lounged away from the group, and, moving toward the bridge, +began to throw pebbles idly into the water. + +"He's an awful smart driver for one that don't foller drivin' the year round," +continued Ivory; "and he's the awfullest clean-spoken, soft-spoken feller I +ever see." + +"There's be'n two black sheep in his family a'ready, an' Steve kind o' feels +as if he'd ought to be extry white," remarked Jed Towle. "You fellers that +belonged to the old drive remember Pretty Quick Waterman well enough? Steve's +mother brought him up." + +Yes; most of them remembered the Waterman twins, Stephen's cousins, now both +dead,--Slow Waterman, so moderate in his steps and actions that you had to fix +a landmark somewhere near him to see if he moved; and Pretty Quick, who shone +by comparison with his twin. "I'd kind o' forgot that Pretty Quick Waterman +was cousin to Steve," said the under boss; "he never worked with me much, but +he wa'n't cut off the same piece o' goods as the other Watermans. Great +hemlock! but he kep' a cussin' dictionary, Pretty Quick did! Whenever he heard +any new words he must 'a' writ 'em down, an' then studied 'em all up in the +winter-time, to use in the spring drive." + +"Swearin' 's a habit that hed ought to be practiced with turrible caution," +observed old Mr. Wiley, when the drivers had finished luncheon and taken out +their pipes. "There's three kinds o' swearin',--plain swearin', profane +swearin', an' blasphemious swearin'. Logs air jest like mules: there's times +when a man can't seem to rip up a jam in good style 'thout a few words that's +too strong for the infant classes in Sunday-schools; but a man hed n't ought +to tempt Providence.When he's ridin' a log near the falls at high water, or +cuttin' the key-log in a jam, he ain't in no place for blasphemious swearin'; +jest a little easy, perlite 'damn' is 'bout all he can resk, if he don't want +to git drownded an' hev his ghost walkin' the river-banks till kingdom come. + +"You an' I, Long, was the only ones that seen Pretty Quick go, wa'n't we?" +continued Old Kennebec, glancing at Long Abe Dennett (cousin to Short Abe), +who lay on his back in the grass, the smoke-wreaths rising from his pipe, and +the steel spikes in his heavy, calked-sole boots shining in the sun. + +"There was folks on the bridge," Long answered, "but we was the only ones near +enough to see an' hear. It was so onexpected, an' so soon over, that them as +was watchin' upstream, where the men was to work on the falls, would n't 'a' +hed time to see him go down. But I did, an' nobody ain't heard me swear sence, +though it's ten years ago. I allers said it was rum an' bravadder that killed +Pretty Quick Waterman that day. The boys hed n't give him a 'dare' that he hed +n't took up. He seemed like he was possessed, an' the logs was the same way; +they was fairly wild, leapin' around in the maddest kind o' water you ever +see. The river was b'ilin' high that spring; it was an awful stubborn jam, an' +Pretty Quick, he'd be'n workin' on it sence dinner." + +"He clumb up the bank more'n once to have a pull at the bottle that was hid in +the bushes," interpolated Mr. Wiley. "Like as not; that was his failin'. Well, +most o' the boys were on the other side o' the river, workin' above the +bridge, an' the boss hed called Pretty Quick to come off an' leave the jam +till mornin', when they'd get horses an' dog-warp it off, log by log. But when +the boss got out o' sight, Pretty Quick jest stood right still, swingin' his +axe, an' blasphemin' so it would freeze your blood, vowin' he would n't move +till the logs did, if he stayed there till the crack o' doom. Jest then a +great, ponderous log, that hed be'n churnin' up an' down in the falls for a +week, got free an' come blunderin' an' thunderin' down-river. Land! it was +chock full o' water, an' looked 'bout as big as a church! It come straight +along, butt-end foremost, an' struck that jam, full force, so 't every log in +it shivered. There was a crack,- the crack o' doom, sure enough, for Pretty +Quick,- an' one o' the logs le'p' right out an' struck him jest where he +stood, with his axe in the air, blasphemin'. The jam kind o' melted an' +crumbled up, an' in a second Pretty Quick was whirlin' in the white water. He +never riz,- at least where we could see him,--an' we did n't find him for a +week. That's the whole story, an' I guess Steve takes it as a warnin'. Anyway, +he ain't no friend to rum nor swearin', Steve ain't. He knows Pretty Quick's +ways shortened his mother's life, an' you notice what a sharp lookout he keeps +on Rufus." + +"He needs it," Ike Billings commented tersely. + +"Some men seem to lose their wits when they're workin' on logs," observed Mr. +Wiley, who had deeply resented Long Dennett's telling of a story which he knew +fully as well and could have told much better. "Now, nat'rally, I've seen +things on the Kennebec--" + +"Three cheers for the Saco! Hats off, boys!" shouted Jed Towle, and his +directions were followed with a will. + +"As I was sayin'," continued the old man, peacefully, "I've seen things on the +Kennebec that would n't happen on a small river, an' I've be'n in turrible +places an' taken turrible resks resks that would 'a' turned a Saco River man's +hair white; but them is the times when my wits work the quickest. I remember +once I was smokin' my pipe when a jam broke under me. 'T was a small jam, or +what we call a small jam on the Kennebec,--only about three hundred thousand +pine logs. The first thing I knowed, I was shootin' back an' forth in the +b'ilin' foam, hangin' on t' the end of a log like a spider. My hands was +clasped round the log, and I never lost control o' my pipe. They said I smoked +right along, jest as cool an' placid as a pond-lily." + +"Why 'd you quit drivin'?" inquired Ivory. + +"My strength wa'n't ekal to it," Mr. Wiley responded sadly. "I was all skin, +bones, an' nerve. The Comp'ny would n't part with me altogether, so they give +me a place in the office down on the wharves." + +"That wa'n't so bad," said Jed Towle; "why did n't you hang on to it, so's to +keep in sight o' the Kennebec?" + +"I found I could n't be confined under cover. My liver give all out, my +appetite failed me, an' I wa'n't wuth a day's wages. I'd learned engineerin' +when I was a boy, an' I thought I'd try runnin' on the road a spell, but it +did n't suit my constitution. My kidneys ain't turrible strong, an' the +doctors said I'd have Bright's disease if I did n't git some kind o' work +where there wa'n't no vibrations." + +"Hard to find, Mr. Wiley; hard to find!" said Jed Towle. + +"You're right," responded the old man feelingly. "I've tried all kinds o' +labor. Some of 'em don't suit my liver, some disagrees with my stomach, and +the rest of 'em has vibrations; so here I set, high an' dry on the banks of +life, you might say, like a stranded log." + +As this well-known simile fell upon the ear, there was a general stir in the +group, for Turrible Wiley, when rhetorical, sometimes grew tearful, and this +was a mood not to be encouraged. + +"All right, boss," called Ike Billings, winking to the boys; "we'll be there +in a jiffy!" for the luncheon hour had flown, and the work of the afternoon +was waiting for them. "You make a chalk-mark where you left off, Mr. Wiley, +an' we'll hear the rest tomorrer; only don't you forgit nothin'! Remember 't +was the Kennebec you was talkin' about." + +"I will, indeed," responded the old man. "As I was sayin' when interrupted, I +may be a stranded log, but I'm proud that the mark o' the Gard'ner Lumber +Comp'ny is on me, so 't when I git to my journey's end they'll know where I +belong and send me back to the Kennebec. Before I'm sawed up I'd like to +forgit this triflin' brook in the sight of a good-sized river, an' rest my +eyes on some full-grown logs, 'stead o' these little damn pipestems you boys +are playin' with!" + + + + +V + +The Game of Jackstraws + +There was a roar of laughter at the old man's boast, but in a moment all was +activity. The men ran hither and thither like ants, gathering their tools. +There were some old-fashioned pick-poles, straight, heavy levers without any +"dog," and there were modern pick-poles and peaveys, for every river has its +favorite equipment in these things. There was no dynamite in those days to +make the stubborn jams yield, and the dog-warp was in general use. Horses or +oxen, sometimes a line of men, stood on the river-bank. A long rope was +attached by means of a steel spike to one log after another, and it was +dragged from the tangled mass. Sometimes, after unloading the top logs, those +at the bottom would rise and make the task easier; sometimes the work would go +on for hours with no perceptible progress, and Mr. Wiley would have +opportunity to tell the bystanders of a" turrible jam" on the Kennebec that +had cost the Lumber Company ten thousand dollars to break. + +There would be great arguments on shore, among the villagers as well as among +the experts, as to the particular log which might be a key to the position. +The boss would study the problem from various standpoints, and the drivers +themselves would pass from heated discussion into long consultations. + +"They're paid by the day," Old Kennebec would philosophize to the doctor; "an' +when they're consultin' they don't hev to be doggin', which is a turrible +sight harder work." + +Rose had created a small sensation, on one occasion, by pointing out to the +under boss the key-log in a jam. She was past mistress of the pretty game of +jackstraws, much in vogue at that time. The delicate little lengths of +polished wood or bone were shaken together and emptied on the table. Each +jackstraw had one of its ends fashioned in the shape of some sort of +implement,--a rake, hoe, spade, fork, or mallet. All the pieces were +intertwined by the shaking process, and they lay as they fell, in a hopeless +tangle. The task consisted in taking a tiny pick-pole, scarcely bigger than a +match, and with the bit of curved wire on the end lifting off the jackstraws +one by one without stirring the pile or making it tremble. When this occurred, +you gave place to your opponent, who relinquished his turn to you when ill +fortune descended upon him, the game, which was a kind of river-driving and +jam-picking in miniature, being decided by the number of pieces captured and +their value. No wonder that the under boss asked Rose's advice as to the +key-log. She had a fairy's hand, and her cunning at deciding the pieces to be +moved, and her skill at extricating and lifting them from the heap, were +looked upon in Edgewood as little less than supernatural. It was a favorite +pastime; and although a man's hand is ill adapted to it, being over-large and +heavy, the game has obvious advantages for a lover in bringing his head very +close to that of his beloved adversary. The jackstraws have to be watched with +a hawk's eagerness, since the "trembling" can be discerned only by a keen eye; +but there were moments when Stephen was willing to risk the loss of a battle +if he could watch Rose's drooping eyelashes, the delicate down on her pink +cheek, and the feathery curls that broke away from her hair. + +He was looking at her now from a distance, for she and Mite Shapley were +assisting Jed Towle to pile up the tin plates and tie the tin dippers +together. Next she peered into one of the bean-pots, and seemed pleased that +there was still something in its depths; then she gathered the fragments +neatly together in a basket, and, followed by her friend, clambered down the +banks to a shady spot where the Boomshers, otherwise known as the Crambry +family, were "lined up" expectantly. + +It is not difficult to find a single fool in any community, however small; but +a family of fools is fortunately somewhat rarer. Every county, however, can +boast of one fool-family, and York County is always in the fashion, with fools +as with everything else. The unique, much-quoted, and undesirable Boomshers +could not be claimed as indigenous to the Saco valley, for this branch was an +offshoot of a still larger tribe inhabiting a distant township. Its beginnings +were shrouded in mystery. There was a French-Canadian ancestor somewhere, and +a Gypsy or Indian grandmother. They had always intermarried from time +immemorial. When one of the selectmen of their native place had been asked why +the Boomshers always married cousins, and why the habit was not discouraged, +he replied that he really did n't know; he s'posed they felt it would be kind +of odd to go right out and marry a stranger. + +Lest "Boomsher" seem an unusual surname, it must be explained that the actual +name was French and could not be coped with by Edgewood or Pleasant River, +being something (luite as impossible to spell as to pronounce. As the family +had lived for the last few years somewhere near the Killick Cranberry Meadows, +they were called--and completely described in the calling--the Crambry +fool-family. A talented and much traveled gentleman who once stayed over night +at the Edgewood tavern, proclaimed it his opinion that Boomsher had been +gradually corrupted from Beaumarchais. When he wrote the word on his visiting +card and showed it to Mr. Wiley, Old Kennebec had replied, that in the +judgment of a man who had lived in large places and seen a turrible lot o' +life, such a name could never have been given either to a Christian or a +heathen family, that the way in which the letters was thrown together into it, +and the way in which they was sounded when read out loud, was entirely ag'in +reason. It was true, he said, that Beaumarchais, bein' such a fool-name, might +'a' be'n invented a-purpose for a fool-family, but he would n't hold even with +callin' 'em Boomsher; Crambry was well enough for 'em an' a sight easier to +speak. + +Stephen knew a good deal about the Crambrys, for he passed their so-called +habitation in going to one of his wood-lots. It was only a month before that +he had found them all sitting outside their broken-down fence, surrounded by +decrepit chairs, sofas, tables, bedsteads, bits of carpet, and stoves. + +"What's the matter?" he called out from his wagon. + +"There ain't nothin' the matter," said Alcestis Crambry. "Father's (lead, an' +we're dividin' up the furnerchure." + +Alcestis was the pride of the Crambrys, and the list of his attainments used +often to be on his proud father's lips. It was he who was the largest, "for +his size," in the family; he who could tell his brothers Paul and Arcadus "by +their looks"; he who knew a sour apple from a sweet one the minute he bit it; +he who, at the early age of ten, was bright enough to point to the cupboard +and say, "Puddin', dad!" + +Alcestis had enjoyed, in consequence of his unusual intellectual powers, some +educational privileges, and the Killick school-mistress well remembered his +first day at the village seat of learning. Reports of what took place in this +classic temple from day to day may have been wafted to the dull ears of the +boy, who was not thought ready for school until he had attained the ripe age +of twelve. It may even have been that specific rumors of the signs, symbols, +and hieroglyphics used in educational institutions had reached him in the +obscurity of his cranberry meadows. At all events, when confronted by the +alphabet chart, whose huge black capitals were intended to capture the +wandering eyes of the infant class, Alcestis exhibited unusual, almost +unnatural, excitement. "That is 'A,' my boy," said the teacher genially, as +she pointed to the first character on the chart. "Good God, is that 'A'!" +cried Alcestis, sitting down heavily on the nearest bench. And neither teacher +nor scholars could discover whether he was agreeably surprised or disappointed +in the letter,- whether he had expected, if he ever encountered it, to find it +writhing in coils on the floor of a cage, or whether it simply bore no +resemblance to the ideal already established in his mind. + +Mrs. Wiley had once tried to make something of Mercy, the oldest daughter of +the family, but at the end of six weeks she announced that a girl who could +n't tell whether the clock was going "forrards or backwards," and who rubbed a +pocket-handkerchief as long as she did a sheet, would be no help in her +household. + +The Crambrys had daily walked the five or six miles from their home to the +Edgewood bridge during the progress of the drive, not only for the social and +intellectual advantages to be gained from the company present, but for the +more solid compensation of a good meal. They all adored Rose, partly because +she gave them food, and partly because she was sparkling and pretty and wore +pink dresses that caught their dull eyes. + + +The afternoon proved a lively one. In the first place, one of the younger men +slipped into the water between two logs, part of a lot chained together +waiting to be let out of the boom. The weight of the mass higher up and the +force of the current wedged him in rather tightly, and when he had been +"pried" out he declared that he felt like an apple after it had been squeezed +in the cider-mill, so he drove home, and Rufus Waterman took his place. + +Two hours' hard work followed this incident, and at the end of that time the +"bung" that reached from the shore to Waterman's Ledge (the rock where Pretty +Quick met his fate) was broken up, and the logs that composed it were started +down-river. There remained now only the great side jam at Gray Rock. This had +been allowed to grow, gathering logs as they drifted past, thus making higher +water and a stronger current on the other side of the rock, and allowing an +easier passage for the logs at that point. + +All was excitement now, for, this particular piece of work accomplished, the +boom above the falls would be "turned out," and the river would once more be +clear and clean at the Edgewood bridge. + +Small boys, perching on the rocks with their heels hanging, hands and mouths +full of red Astrakhan apples, cheered their favorites to the echo, while the +drivers shouted to one another and watched the signs and signals of the boss, +who could communicate with them only in that way, so great was the roar of the +water. + +The jam refused to yield to ordinary measures. It was a difficult problem, for +the rocky river-bed held many a snare and pitfall. There was a certain ledge +under the water, so artfully placed that every log striking under its +projecting edges would wedge itself firmly there, attracting others by its +evil example. + +"That galoot-boss ought to hev shoved his crew down to that jam this mornin'," +grumbled Old Kennebec to Alcestis Crambry, who was always his most loyal and +attentive listener. "But he would n't take no advice, not if Pharaoh nor Boaz +nor Herod nor Nicodemus come right out o' the Bible an' give it to him. The +logs air contrary today. Sometimes they'll go along as easy as an old shoe, +an' other times they'll do nothin' but bung, bung, bung! There's a log +nestlin' down in the middle o' that jam that I've be'n watchin' for a week. +It's a cur'ous one, to begin with; an' then it has a mark on it that you can +reco'nize it by. Did ye ever hear tell o' George the Third, King of England, +Alcestis, or ain't he known over to the crambry medders? Well, once upon a +time men used to go through the forests over here an' slash a mark on the +trunks o' the biggest trees. That was the royal sign, as you might say, an' +meant that the tree was to be taken over to England to make masts an' +yard-arms for the King's ships. What made me think of it now is that the +King's mark was an arrer, an' it's an arrer that's on that there log I'm +showin' ye. Well, sir, I seen it fust at Milliken's Mills a Monday. It was in +trouble then, an' it's be'n in trouble ever sence. That's allers the way; +there'll be one pesky, crooked, contrary, consarne'd log that can't go +anywheres without gittin' into difficulties. You can yank it out an' set it +afloat, an' before you hardly git your doggin' iron off of it, it'll be +snarled up agin in some new place. From the time it's chopped down to the day +it gets to Saco, it costs the Comp'ny 'bout ten times its pesky valler as +lumber. Now they've sent over to Benson's for a team of horses, an' I bate ye +they can't git 'em. I wish i was the boss on this river, Alcestis." + +"I wish I was," echoed the boy. + +"Well, your head-fillin' ain't the right kind for a boss, Alcestis, an' you'd +better stick to dry land. You set right down here while I go back a piece an' +git the pipe out o' my coat pocket. I guess nothin' ain't goin' to happen for +a few minutes." + +The surmise about the horses, unlike most of Old Kennebec's, proved to be +true. Benson's pair had gone to Portland with a load of hay; accordingly the +tackle was brought, the rope was adjusted to a log, and five of the drivers, +standing on the river-bank, attempted to drag it from its intrenched position. +It refused to yield the fraction of an inch. Rufus and Stephen joined the five +men, and the augmented crew of seven were putting all their strength on the +rope when a cry went up from the watchers on the bridge. The "dog" had +loosened suddenly, and the men were flung violently to the ground. For a +second they were stunned both by the surprise and by the shock of the blow, +but in the same moment the cry of the crowd swelled louder. Alcestis Crambry +had stolen, all unnoticed, to the rope, and had attempted to use his feeble +powers for the common good. When the blow came he fell backward, and, making +no effort to control the situation, slid over the bank and into the water. + +The other Crambrys, not realizing the danger, laughed audibly, but there was +no jeering from the bridge. + +Stephen had seen Alcestis slip, and in the fraction of a moment had taken off +his boots and was coasting down the slippery rocks behind him; in a twinkling +he was in the water, almost as soon as the boy himself. + +"Doggoned idjut!" exclaimed Old Kennebec, tearfully. "Wuth the hull +fool-family! If I hed n't 'a' be'n so old, I'd 'a' jumped in myself, for you +can't drownd a Wiley, not without you tie nail-kags to their head an' feet an' +drop 'em in the falls." + +Alcestis, who had neither brains, courage, nor experience, had, better still, +the luck that follows the witless. He was carried swiftly down the current; +but, only fifty feet away, a long, slender log, wedged between two low rocks +on the shore, jutted out over the water, almost touching its surface. The +boy's clothes were admirably adapted to the situation, being full of enormous +rents. In some way the end of the log caught in the rags of Alcestis's coat +and held him just seconds enough to enable Stephen to swim to him, to seize +him by the nape of the neck, to lift him on the log, and thence to the shore. +It was a particularly bad place for a landing, and there was nothing to do but +to lower ropes and drag the drenched men to the high ground above. + +Alcestis came to his senses in ten or fifteen minutes, and seemed as bright as +usual, with a kind of added swagger at being the central figure in a dramatic +situation. + +"I wonder you hed n't stove your brains out, when you landed so turrible +suddent on that rock at the foot of the bank," said Mr. Wiley to him. + +"I should, but I took good care to light on my head," responded Alcestis; a +cryptic remark which so puzzled Old Kennebec that he mused over it for some +hours. + + + + +VI + +Hearts And Other Hearts + +Stephen had brought a change of clothes, as he had a habit of being ducked +once at least during the day; and since there was a halt in the proceedings +and no need of his services for an hour or two, he found Rose and walked with +her to a secluded spot where they could watch the logs and not be seen by the +people. + +"You frightened everybody almost to death, jumping into the river," chided +Rose. + +Stephen laughed. "They thought I was a fool to save a fool, I suppose." + +"Perhaps not as bad as that, but it did seem reckless." + +"I know; and the boy, no doubt, would be better off dead; but so should I be, +if I could have let him die." + +Rose regarded this strange point of view for a moment, and then silently +acquiesced in it. She was constantly doing this, and she often felt that her +mental horizon broadened in the act; but she could not be sure that Stephen +grew any dearer to her because of his moral altitudes. + +"Besides," Stephen argued, "I happened to be nearest to the river, and it was +my job." + +"How do you always happen to be nearest to the people in trouble, and why is +it always your 'job'?" + +"If there are any rewards for good conduct being distributed, I'm right in +line with my hand stretched out," Stephen replied, with meaning in his voice. + +Rose blushed under her flowery hat as he led the way to a bench under a +sycamore tree that overhung the water. + +She had almost convinced herself that she was as much in love with Stephen +Waterman as it was in her nature to be with anybody. He was handsome in his +big way, kind, generous, temperate, well educated, and well-to-do. No fault +could be found with his family, for his mother had been a teacher, and his +father, though a farmer, a college graduate. Stephen himself had had one year +at Bowdoin, but had been recalled, as the head of the house, when his father +died. That was a severe blow; but his mother's death, three years after, was a +grief never to be quite forgotten. Rose, too, was the child of a gently bred +mother, and all her instincts were refined. Yes; Stephen in himself satisfied +her in all the larger wants of her nature, but she had an unsatisfied hunger +for the world,--the world of Portland, where her cousins lived; or, better +still, the world of Boston, of which she heard through Mrs. Wealthy Brooks, +whose nephew Claude often came to visit her in Edgewood. Life on a farm a mile +and a half distant from post-office and stores; life in the house with Rufus, +who was rumored to be somewhat wild and unsteady,--this prospect seemed a +trifle dull and uneventful to the trivial part of her, though to the better +part it was enough. The better part of her loved Stephen Waterman, dimly +feeling the richness of his nature, the tenderness of his affection, the +strength of his character. Rose was not destitute either of imagination or +sentiment. She did not relish this constant weighing of Stephen in the +balance: he was too good to be weighed and considered. She longed to be +carried out of herself on a wave of rapturous assent, but something seemed to +hold her back,--some seed of discontent with the man's environment and +circumstances, some germ of longing for a gayer, brighter, more varied life. +No amount of self-searching or argument could change the situation. She always +loved Stephen more or less: more when he was away from her, because she never +approved his collars nor the set of his shirt bosom; and as he naturally wore +these despised articles of apparel whenever he proposed to her, she was always +lukewarm about marrying him and settling down on the River Farm. Still, today +she discovered in herself, with positive gratitude, a warmer feeling for him +than she had experienced before. He wore a new and becoming gray flannel +shirt, with the soft turn-over collar that belonged to it, and a blue tie, the +color of his kind eyes. She knew that he had shaved his beard at her request +not long ago, and that when she did not like the effect as much as she had +hoped, he had meekly grown a mustache for her sake; it did seem as if a man +could hardly do more to please an exacting ladylove. + +And she had admired him unreservedly when he pulled off his boots and jumped +into the river to save Alcestis Crambry's life, without giving a single +thought to his own. + +And was there ever, after all, such a noble, devoted, unselfish fellow, or a +better brother? And would she not despise herself for rejecting him simply +because he was countrified, and because she longed to see the world of the +fashion plates in the magazines? + +"The logs are so like people!" she exclaimed as they sat down. "I could name +nearly every one of them for somebody in the village. Look at Mite Shapley, +that dancing little one, slipping over the falls and skimming along the top of +the water, keeping out of all the deep places, and never once touching the +rocks." + +Stephen fell into her mood. "There's Squire Anderson coming down crosswise and +bumping everything in reach. You know he's always buying lumber and logs +without knowing what he is going to do with them. They just lie and rot by the +roadside. The boys always say that a toadstool is the old Squire's 'mark' on a +log." + +"And that stout, clumsy one is Short Dennett.--What are you doing, Stephen?" + +"Only building a fence round this clump of harebells," Stephen replied. +"They've just got well rooted, and if the boys come skidding down the bank +with their spiked shoes, the poor things will never hold up their heads again. +Now they're safe.--Oh, look, Rose! There come the minister and his wife!" + +A portly couple of peeled logs, exactly matched in size, came ponderously over +the falls together, rose within a second of each other, joined again, and +swept under the bridge side by side. + +"And--oh! oh!--Dr. and Mrs. Cram just after them! Isn't that funny?" laughed +Rose, as a very long, slender pair of pines swam down, as close to each other +as if they had been glued in that position. Rose thought, as she watched them, +who but Stephen would have cared what became of the clump of delicate +harebells. How gentle such a man would be to a woman! How tender his touch +would be if she were ill or in trouble! + +Several single logs followed,--crooked ones, stolid ones, adventurous ones, +feeble swimmers, deep divers. Some of them tried to start a small jam on their +own account; others stranded themselves for good and all, as Rose and Stephen +sat there side by side, with little Dan Cupid for an invisible third on the +bench. + +"There never was anything so like people," Rose repeated, leaning forward +excitedly. "And, upon my word, the minister and doctor couples are still +together. I wonder if they'll get as far as the fails at Union? That would be +an odd place to part, would n't it--Union?" + +Stephen saw his opportunity, and seized it. + +"There's a reason, Rose, why two logs go downstream better than one, and get +into less trouble. They make a wider path, create more force and a better +current. It's the same way with men and women. Oh, Rose, there is n't a man in +the world that's loved you as long, or knows how to love you any better than I +do. You're just like a white birch sapling, and I'm a great, clumsy fir tree; +but if you 'll only trust yourself to me, Rose, I'll take you safely down- +river." + +Stephen's big hand closed on Rose's little one; she returned its pressure +softly and gave him the kiss that with her, as with him, meant a promise for +all the years to come. The truth and passion in the man had broken the girl's +bonds for the moment. Her vision was clearer, and, realizing the treasures of +love and fidelity that were being offered her, she accepted them, half +unconscious that she was not returning them in kind. How is the belle of two +villages to learn that she should "thank Heaven, fasting, for a good man's +love"? + +And Stephen? He went home in the dusk, not knowing whether his feet were +touching the solid earth or whether he was treading upon rainbows. + +Rose's pink calico seemed to brush him as he walked in the path that was wide +enough only for one. His solitude was peopled again when he fed the cattle, +for Rose's face smiled at him from the haymow; and when he strained the milk, +Rose held the pans. + +His nightly tasks over, he went out and took his favorite seat under the apple +tree. All was still, save for the crickets' ceaseless chirp, the soft thud of +an August sweeting dropping in the grass, and the swish-swash of the water +against his boat, tethered in the Willow Cove. + +He remembered when he first saw Rose, for that must have been when he began to +love her, though he was only fourteen and quite unconscious that the first +seed had been dropped in the rich soil of his boyish heart. + +He was seated on the kerosene barrel in the Edgewood post-office, which was +also the general country store, where newspapers, letters, molasses, nails, +salt codfish, hairpins, sugar, liver pills, canned goods, beans, and ginghams +dwelt in genial proximity. When she entered, just a little pink-and-white slip +of a thing with a tin pail in her hand and a sunbonnet falling off her wavy +hair, Stephen suddenly stopped swinging his feet. She gravely announced her +wants, reading them from a bit of paper,--1 quart molasses, 1 package ginger, +1 lb. cheese, 2 pairs shoe laces, 1 card shirt buttons. + +While the storekeeper drew off the molasses she exchanged shy looks with +Stephen, who, clean, well-dressed, and carefully mothered as he was, felt all +at once uncouth and awkward, rather as if he were some clumsy lout pitch- +forked into the presence of a fairy queen. He offered her the little bunch of +bachelor's buttons he held in his hand, augury of the future, had he known +it,--and she accepted them with a smile. She dropped her memorandum; he picked +it up, and she smiled again, doing still more fatal damage than in the first +instance. No words were spoken, but Rose, even at ten, had less need of them +than most of her sex, for her dimples, aided by dancing eyes, length of +lashes, and curve of lips, quite took the place of conversation. The dimples +tempted, assented, denied, corroborated, deplored, protested, sympathized, +while the intoxicated beholder cudgeled his brain for words or deeds which +should provoke and evoke more and more dimples. + +The storekeeper hung the molasses pail over Rose's right arm and tucked the +packages under her left, and as he opened the mosquito-netting door to let her +pass out she looked back at Stephen, perched on the kerosene barrel, just a +little girl, a little glance, a little dimple, and Stephen was never quite the +same again. The years went on, and the boy became man, yet no other image had +ever troubled the deep, placid waters of his heart. Now, after many denials, +the hopes and longings of his nature had been answered, and Rose had promised +to marry him. He would sacrifice his passion for logging and driving in the +future, and become a staid farmer and man of affairs, only giving himself a +river holiday now and then. How still and peaceful it was under the trees, and +how glad his mother would be to think that the old farm would wake from its +sleep, and a woman's light foot be heard in the sunny kitchen! + +Heaven was full of silent stars, and there was a moonglade on the water that +stretched almost from him to Rose. His heart embarked on that golden pathway +and sailed on it to the farther shore. The river was free of logs, and under +the light of the moon it shone like a silver mirror. The soft wind among the +fir branches breathed Rose's name; the river, rippling against the shore, sang +"Rose "; and as Stephen sat there dreaming of the future, his dreams, too, +could have been voiced in one word, and that word "Rose." + + + + +VII + +The Little House + + + +The autumn days flew past like shuttles in a loom. The river reflected the +yellow foliage of the white birch and the scarlet of the maples. The wayside +was bright with goldenrod, with the red tassels of the sumac, with the purple +frost-flower and feathery clematis. + +If Rose was not as happy as Stephen, she was quietly content, and felt that +she had more to be grateful for than most girls, for Stephen surprised her +with first one evidence and then another of thoughtful generosity. In his +heart of hearts he felt that Rose was not wholly his, that she reserved, +withheld something; and it was the subjugation of this rebellious province +that he sought. He and Rose had agreed to wait a year for their marriage, in +which time Rose's cousin would finish school and be ready to live with the old +people; meanwhile Stephen had learned that his maiden aunt would be glad to +come and keep house for Rufus. The work at the River Farm was too hard for a +girl, so he had persuaded himself of late, and the house was so far from the +village that Rose was sure to be lonely. He owned a couple of acres between +his place and the Edgewood bridge, and here, one afternoon only a month after +their engagement, he took Rose to see the foundations of a little house he was +building for her. It was to be only a story-and-a-half cottage of six small +rooms, the two upper chambers to be finished off later on. Stephen had placed +it well back from the road, leaving space in front for what was to be a most +wonderful arrangement of flower-beds, yet keeping a strip at the back, on the +river-brink, for a small vegetable garden. There had been a house there years +before-so many years that the blackened ruins were entirely overgrown; but a +few elms and an old apple-orchard remained to shade the new dwelling and give +welcome to the coming inmates. + +Stephen had fifteen hundred dollars in bank, he could turn his hand to almost +anything, and his love was so deep that Rose's plumb-line had never sounded +bottom; accordingly he was able, with the help of two steady workers, to have +the roof on before the first of November. The weather was clear and fine, and +by Thanksgiving clapboards, shingles, two coats of brown paint, and even the +blinds had all been added. This exhibition of reckless energy on Stephen's +part did not wholly commend itself to the neighborhood. + +"Steve's too turrible spry," said Rose's grandfather; "he'll trip himself up +some o' these times." + +"_You_ never will," remarked his better half, sagely. + +"The resks in life come along fast enough, without runnin' to meet 'em," +continued the old man. "There's good dough in Rose, but it ain't more'n half +riz. Let somebody come along an' drop in a little more yeast, or set the dish +a little mite nearer the stove, an' you'll see what 'll happen." + +"Steve's kept house for himself some time, an' I guess he knows more about +bread-makin' than you do." + +"There don't nobody know more'n I do about nothin', when my pipe's drawin' +real good an' nobody's thornin' me to go to work," replied Mr. Wiley; "but +nobody's willin' to take the advice of a man that's seen the world an' lived +in large places, an' the risin' generation is in a turrible hurry. I don' know +how 't is: young folks air allers settin' the clock forrard an' the old ones +puttin' it back." + +"Did you ketch anything for dinner when you was out this mornin'?" asked his +wife. + +"No, I fished an' fished, till I was about ready to drop, an' I did git a few +shiners, but land, they wa'n't as big as the worms I was ketchin' 'em with, so +i pitched 'em back in the water an' quit." + +During the progress of these remarks Mr. Wiley opened the door under the sink, +and from beneath a huge iron pot drew a round tray loaded with a glass pitcher +and half a dozen tumblers, which he placed carefully on the kitchen table. +"This is the last day's option I've got on this lemonade-set," he said, "an' +if I'm goin' to Biddeford tomorrer I've got to make up my mind here an' now." + +With this observation he took off his shoes, climbed in his stocking feet to +the vantage ground of a kitchen chair, and lifted a stone china pitcher from a +corner of the highest cup-board shelf where it had been hidden. "This +lemonade's gittin' kind o' dusty," he complained. "I cal'lated to hev a kind +of a spree on it when I got through choosin' Rose's weddin' present, but I +guess the pig 'll hev to help me out." The old man filled one of the glasses +from the pitcher, pulled up the kitchen shades to the top, put both hands in +his pockets, and walked solemnly round the table, gazing at his offering from +every possible point of view. There had been three lemonade-sets in the window +of a Biddeford crockery store when Mr. Wiley chanced to pass by, and he had +brought home the blue and green one on approval. To th': casual cyc it would +have appeared as quite uniquely hideous until the red and yellow or the purple +and orange ones had been seen; after that, no human being could have made a +decision, where each was so unparalleled in its ugliness, and Old Kennebec's +confusion of mind would have been perfectly understood by the connoisseur. + +"How do you like it with the lemonade in, mother?" he inquired eagerly. "The +thing that plagues me most is that the red an' yaller one I hed home last week +lights up better'n this, an' I believe I'll settle on that; for as I was +thinkin' last night in bed, lemonade is mostly an evenin' drink an' Rose won't +be usin' the set much by daylight. Root beer looks the han'somest in this +purple set, but Rose loves lemonade better'n beer, so I guess I'll pack up +this one an' change it tomorrer. Mebbe when I get it out o' sight an' give the +lemonade to the pig I'll be easier in my mind." + +In the opinion of the community at large Stephen's forehandedness in the +matter of preparations for his marriage was imprudence, and his desire for +neatness and beauty flagrant extravagance. The house itself was a foolish +idea, it was thought, but there were extenuating circumstances, for the maiden +aunt really needed a home, and Rufus was likely to marry before long and take +his wife to the River Farm. It was to be hoped in his case that he would avoid +the snares of beauty and choose a good stout girl who would bring the dairy +back to what it was in Mrs. Waterman's time. + +All winter long Stephen labored on the inside of the cottage, mostly by +himself. He learned all trades in succession, Love being his only master. He +had many odd days to spare from his farm work, and if he had not found days he +would have taken nights. Scarcely a nail was driven without Rose's advice; and +when the plastering was hard and dry, the wallpapers were the result of weeks +of consultation. + +Among the quiet joys of life there is probably no other so deep, so sweet, so +full of trembling hope and delight, as the building and making of a home,--a +home where two lives are to be merged in one and flow on together, a home full +of mysterious and delicious possibilities, hidden in a future which is always +rose-colored. + +Rose's sweet little nature broadened under Stephen's influence; but she had +her moments of discontent and unrest, always followed quickly by remorse. + +At the Thanksgiving sociable some one had observed her turquoise engagement +ring,--some one who said that such a hand was worthy of a diamond, that +turquoises were a pretty color, but that there was only one stone for an +engagement ring, and that was a diamond. At the Christmas dance the same some +one had said that her waltzing would make her "all the rage" in Boston. She +wondered if it were true, and wondered whether, if she had not promised to +marry Stephen, some splendid being from a city would have descended from his +heights, bearing diamonds in his hand. Not that she would have accepted them; +she only wondered. These disloyal thoughts came seldom, and she put them +resolutely away, devoting herself with all the greater assiduity to her muslin +curtains and ruffled pillow-shams. Stephen, too, had his momentary pangs. +There were times when he could calm his doubts only by working on the little +house. The mere sight of the beloved floors and walls and ceilings comforted +his heart, and brought him good cheer. + +The winter was a cold one, so bitterly cold that even the rapid water at the +Gray Rock was a mass of curdled yellow ice, something that had only occurred +once or twice before within the memory of the oldest inhabitant. + +It was also a very gay season for Pleasant River and Edgewood. Never had there +been so many card-parties, sleigh-rides, and tavern dances, and never such +wonderful skating. The river was one gleaming, glittering thoroughfare of ice +from Milliken's Mills to the dam at the Edgewood bridge. At sundown bonfires +were built here and there on the mirror-like surface, and all the young people +from the neighboring villages gathered on the ice; while detachments of merry, +rosy-cheeked boys and girls, those who preferred coasting, met at the top of +Brigadier Hill, from which one could get a longer and more perilous slide than +from any other point in the township. + +Claude Merrill, in his occasional visits from Boston, was very much in +evidence at the Saturday evening ice parties. He was not an artist at the +sport himself, but he was especially proficient in the art of strapping on a +lady's skates, and murmuring,--as he adjusted the last buckle,--"The prettiest +foot and ankle on the river!" It cannot be denied that this compliment gave +secret pleasure to the fair village maidens who received it, but it was a +pleasure accompanied by electric shocks of excitement. A girl's foot might +perhaps be mentioned, if a fellow were daring enough, but the line was rigidly +drawn at the ankle, which was not a part of the human frame ever alluded to in +the polite society of Edgewood at that time. + +Rose, in her red linsey-woolsey dress and her squirrel furs and cap, was the +life of every gathering, and when Stephen took her hand and they glided +upstream, alone together in the crowd, he used to wish that they might skate +on and on up the crystal ice-path of the river, to the moon itself, whither it +seemed to lead them. + + + + +VIII + +The Garden of Eden + +But the Saco all this time was meditating one of its surprises. The snapping +cold weather and the depth to which the water was frozen were aiding it in its +preparation for the greatest event of the season. On a certain gray Saturday +in March, after a week of mild temperature, it began to rain as if, after +months of snowing, it really enjoyed a new form of entertainment. Sunday +dawned with the very flood-gates of heaven opening, so it seemed. All day long +the river was rising under its miles of unbroken ice, rising at the +threatening rate of four inches an hour. + +Edgewood went to bed as usual that night, for the bridge at that point was set +too high to be carried away by freshets, but at other villages whose bridges +were in less secure position there was little sleep and much anxiety. + +At midnight a cry was heard from the men watching at Milliken's Mills. The +great ice jam had parted from Rolfe's Island and was swinging out into the +open, pushing everything before it. All the able-bodied men in the village +turned out of bed, and with lanterns in hand began to clear the stores and +mills, for it seemed that everything near the river-banks must go before that +avalanche of ice. + +Stephen and Rufus were there helping to save the property of their friends and +neighbors; Rose and Mite Shapley had stayed the night with a friend, and all +three girls were shivering with fear and excitement as they stood near the +bridge, watching the never-to-be-forgotten sight. It is needless to say that +the Crambry family was on hand, for whatever instincts they may have lacked, +the instinct for being on the spot when anything was happening, was present in +them to the most remarkable extent. The town was supporting them in modest +winter quarters somewhat nearer than Killick to the center of civilization, +and the first alarm brought them promptly to the scene, Mrs. Crambry remarking +at intervals: "If I'd known there'd be so many out I'd ought to have worn my +bunnit; but I ain't got no bunnit, an' if I had they say I ain't got no head +to wear it on!" + +By the time the jam neared the falls it had grown with its accumulations, +until it was made up of tier after tier of huge ice cakes, piled side by side +and one upon another, with heaps of trees and branches and drifting lumber +holding them in place. Some of the blocks stood erect and towered like +icebergs, and these, glittering in the lights of the twinkling lanterns, +pushed solemnly forward, cracking, crushing, and cutting everything in their +way. When the great mass neared the planing mill on the east shore the girls +covered their eyes, expecting to hear the crash of the falling building; but, +impelled by the force of some mysterious current, it shook itself ponderously, +and then, with one magnificent movement, slid up the river-bank, tier +following tier in grand confusion. This left a water way for the main drift; +the ice broke in every direction, and down, down, down, from Bonnie Eagle and +Moderation swept the harvest of the winter freezing. It came thundering over +the dam, bringing boats, farming implements, posts, supports, and every sort +of floating lumber with it; and cutting under the flour mill, tipped it +cleverly over on its side and went crashing on its way down-river. At Edgewood +it pushed colossal blocks of ice up the banks into the roadway, piling them +end upon end ten feet in air. Then, tearing and rumbling and booming through +the narrows, it covered the intervale at Pleasant Point and made a huge ice +bridge below Union Falls, a bridge so solid that it stood there for days, a +sight for all the neighboring villages. + +This exciting event wonhi haxe forever set apart this winter from ail others +in Stephen's memory, even had it not been also the winter when he was building +a house for his future wife. But afterwards, in looking back on the wild night +of the ice freshet, Stephen remembered that Rose's manner was strained and +cold and evasive, and that when he had seen her talking with Claude Merrill, +it had seemed to him that that whippersnapper had looked at her as no +honorable man in Edgewood ever looked at an engaged girl. He recalled his +throb of gratitude that Claude lived at a safe distance, and his subsequent +pang of remorse at doubting, for an instant, Rose's fidelity. + +So at length April came, the Saco was still high, turbid, and angry, and the +boys were waiting at Limington Falls for the "Ossipee drive" to begin. Stephen +joined them there, for he was restless, and the river called him, as it did +every spring. Each stubborn log that he encountered gave him new courage and +power of overcoming. The rush of the water, the noise and roar and dash, the +exposure and danger, all made the blood run in his veins like new wine. When +he came back to the farm, all the cobwebs had been blown from his brain, and +his first interview with Rose was so intoxicating that he went immediately to +Portland, and bought, in a kind of secret penitence for his former fears, a +pale pink-flowered wall-paper for the bedroom in the new home. It had once +been voted down by the entire advisory committee. Mrs. Wiley said that pink +was foolish and was always sure to fade; and the border, being a mass of solid +roses, was five cents a yard, virtually a prohibitive price. Mr. Wiley said he +"should hate to hev a spell of sickness an' lay abed in a room where there was +things growin' all over the place." He thought "rough-plastered walls, where +you could lay an' count the spots where the roof leaked, was the most +entertainin' in sickness." Rose had longed for the lovely pattern, but had +sided dutifully with the prudent majority, so that it was with a feeling of +unauthorized and illegitimate joy that Stephen papered the room at night, a +few strips at a time. + +On the third evening, when he had removed all signs of his work, he lighted +two kerosene lamps and two candles, finding the effect, under this +illumination, almost too brilliant and beautiful for belief. Rose should never +see it now, he determined, until the furniture was in place. They had already +chosen the kitchen and bedroom things, though they would not be needed for +some months; but the rest was to wait until summer, when there would be the +hay-money to spend. + +Stephen did not go back to the River Farm till one o'clock that night; the +pink bedroom held him in fetters too powerful to break. It looked like the +garden of Eden, he thought. To be sure, it was only fifteen feet square; Eden +might have been a little larger, possibly, but otherwise the pink bedroom had +every advantage. The pattern of roses growing on a trellis was brighter than +any flower-bed in June; and the border--well, if the border had been five +dollars a foot Stephen would not have grudged the money when he saw the twenty +running yards of rosy bloom rioting under the white ceiling. + +Before he blew out the last light he raised it high above his head and took +one fond, final look. "It's the only place I ever saw," he thought, "that is +pretty enough for her. She will look just as if she was growing here with all +the other flowers, and I shall always think of it as the garden of Eden. I +wonder, if I got the license and the ring and took her by surprise, whether +she'd be married in June instead of August? I could be all ready if I could +only persuade her." + +At this moment Stephen touched the summit of happiness; and it is a curious +coincidence that as he was dreaming in his garden of Eden, the serpent, having +just arrived at Edgewood, was sleeping peacefully at the house of Mrs. Brooks. + +It was the serpent's fourth visit that season, and he explained to inquiring +friends that his former employer had sold the business, and that the new +management, while reorganizing, had determined to enlarge the premises, the +three clerks who had been retained having two weeks' vacation with half pay. + +It is extraordinary how frequently "wise serpents" are retained by the +management on half, or even full, salary, while the services of the "harmless +doves" are dispensed with, and they are set free to flutter where they will. + + + +IX + +The Serpent + + +Rose Wiley had the brightest eyes in Edgewood. It was impossible to look at +her without realizing that her physical sight was perfect. What mysterious +species of blindness is it that descends, now and then, upon human creatures, +and renders them incapable of judgment or discrimination? + +Claude Merrill was a glove salesman in a Boston fancy-goods store. The calling +itself is undoubtedly respectable, and it is quite conceivable that a man can +sell gloves and still be a man; but Claude Merrill was a manikin. He inhabited +a very narrow space behind a very short counter, but to him it seemed the +earth and the fullness thereof. + +When, irreproachably neat and even exquisite in dress, he gave a Napoleonic +glance at his array of glove-boxes to see if the female assistant had put them +in proper order for the day, when, with that wonderful eye for detail that had +wafted him to his present height of power, he pounced upon the +powder-sprinklers and found them, as he expected, empty; when, with masterly +judgment, he had made up and ticketed a basket of misfits and odd sizes to +attract the eyes of women who were their human counterparts, he felt himself +bursting with the pride and pomp of circumstance. His cambric handkerchief +adjusted in his coat with the monogram corner well displayed, a last touch to +the carefully trained lock on his forehead, and he was ready for his +customers. + +"Six, did you say, miss? I should have thought five and three quarters-- +Attend to that gentleman, Miss Dix, please; I am very busy." + +"Six-and-a-half gray sue'de? Here they are, an exquisite shade. Shall I try +them on? The right hand, if you will. Perhaps you'd better remove your elegant +ring; I should n't like to have anything catch in the setting." + +"Miss Dix! Six-and-a-half black glace'--upper shelf, third box--for this lady. +She's in a hurry. We shall see you often after this, I hope, madam." + +"No; we don't keep silk or lisle gloves. We have no call for them; our +customers prefer kid." + +Oh, but he was in his element, was Claude Merrill; though the glamour that +surrounded him in the minds of the Edgewood girls did not emanate wholly from +his finicky little person: something of it was the glamour that belonged to +Boston,--remote, fashionable, gay, rich, almost inaccessible Boston, which +none could see without the expenditure of five or six dollars in railway fare, +with the added extravagance of a night in a hotel, if one would explore it +thoroughly and come home possessed of all its illimitable treasures of wisdom +and experience. + +When Claude came to Edgewood for a Sunday, or to spend a vacation with his +aunt, he brought with him something of the magic of a metropolis. Suddenly, to +Rose's eye, Stephen looked larger and clumsier, his shoes were not the proper +sort, his clothes were ordinary, his neckties were years behind the fashion. +Stephen's dancing, compared with Claude's, was as the deliberate motion of an +ox to the hopping of a neat little robin. When Claude took a girl's hand in +the "grand right-and-left," it was as if he were about to try on a delicate +glove; the manner in which he "held his lady" in the polka or schottische made +her seem a queen. Mite Shapley was so affected by it that when Rufus attempted +to encircle her for the mazurka she exclaimed, "Don't act as if you were +spearing logs, Rufus!" + +Of the two men, Stephen had more to say, but Claude said more. He was thought +brilliant in conversation; but what wonder, when one considered his advantages +and his dazzling experiences! He had customers who were worth their thousands; +ladies whose fingers never touched dish-water; ladies who would n't buy a +glove of anybody else if they went bare-handed to the grave. He lived with his +sister Maude Arthurlena in a house where there were twenty-two other boarders +who could be seated at meals all at the same time, so immense was the +dining-room. He ate his dinner at a restaurant daily, and expended twenty-five +cents for it without blenching. He went to the theater once a week, and was +often accompanied by "lady friends" who were "elegant dressers." + +In a moment of wrath Stephen had called him a "counter-jumper," but it was a +libel. So short and rough a means of exit from his place of power was wholly +beneath Claude's dignity. It was with a" Pardon me, Miss Dix," that, the noon +hour having arrived, he squeezed by that slave and victim, and raising the +hinged board that separated his kingdom from that of the ribbon department, +passed out of the store, hat in hand, serene in the consciousness that though +other clerks might nibble luncheon from a brown paper bag, he would speedily +be indulging in an expensive repast; and Miss Dix knew it, and it was a part +of his almost invincible attraction for her. + +It seemed flying in the face of Providence to decline the attentions of such a +gorgeous butterfly of fashion simply because one was engaged to marry another +man at some distant day. + +All Edgewood femininity united in saying that there never was such a perfect +gentleman as Claude Merrill; and during the time when his popularity was at +its height Rose lost sight of the fact that Stephen could have furnished the +stuff for a dozen Claudes and have had enough left for an ordinary man +besides. + +April gave place to May, and a veil hung between the lovers,--an intangible, +gossamer-like thing, not to be seen with the naked eye, but, oh! so plainly to +be felt. Rose hid herself thankfully behind it, while Stephen had not courage +to lift a corner. She had twice been seen driving with Claude Merrill--that +Stephen knew; but she had explained that there were errands to be done, that +her grandfather had taken the horse, and that Mr. Merrill's escort had been +both opportune and convenient for these practical reasons. Claude was +everywhere present, the center of attraction, the observed of all observers. +He was irresistible, contagious, almost epidemic. Rose was now gay, now +silent; now affectionate, now distant, now coquettish; in fine, everything +that was capricious, mysterious, agitating, incomprehensible. + +One morning Alcestis Crambry went to the post-office for Stephen and brought +him back the newspapers and letters. He had hung about the River Farm so much +that Stephen finally gave him bed and food in exchange for numberless small +errands. Rufus was temporarily confined in a dark room with some strange pain +and trouble in his eyes, and Alcestis proved of use in many ways. He had +always been Rose's slave, and had often brought messages and notes from the +Brier Neighborhood, so that when Stephen saw a folded note among the papers +his heart gave a throb of anticipation. + +The note was brief, and when he had glanced through it he said: "This is not +mine, Alcestis; it belongs to Miss Rose. Go straight back and give it to her +as you were told; and another time keep your wits about you, or I'll send you +back to Killick." + +Alcestis Crambry's ideas on all subjects were extremely vague. Claude Merrill +had given him a letter for Rose, but his notion was that anything that +belonged to her belonged to Stephen, and the Waterman place was much nearer +than the Wileys', particularly at dinner-time! + +When the boy had slouched away, Stephen sat under the apple tree, now a mass +of roseate bloom, and buried his face in his hands. + +It was not precisely a love-letter that he had read, nevertheless it blackened +the light of the sun for him. Claude asked Rose to meet him anywhere on the +road to the station and to take a little walk, as he was leaving that +afternoon and could not bear to say good-bye to her in the presence of her +grandmother. "_Under_the_circumstances_," he wrote, deeply underlining the +words, "I cannot remain a moment longer in Edgewood, where I have been so +happy and so miserable!" He did not refer to the fact that the time limit on +his return-ticket expired that day, for his dramatic instinct told him that +such sordid matters have no place in heroics. + +Stephen sat motionless under the tree for an hour, deciding on some plan of +action. He had work at the little house, but he did not dare go there lest he +should see the face of dead Love looking from the windows of the pink bedroom; +dead Love, cold, sad, merciless. His cheeks burned as he thought of the +marriage license and the gold ring hidden away upstairs in the drawer of his +shaving stand. What a romantic fool he had been, to think he could hasten the +glad day by a single moment! What a piece of boyish folly it had been, and how +it shamed him in his own eyes! + +When train time drew near he took his boat and paddled downstream. If for the +Finland lover's reindeer there was but one path in all the world, and that the +one that led to Her, so it was for Stephen's canoe, which, had it been set +free on the river by day or by night, might have floated straight to Rose. + +He landed at the usual place, a bit of sandy shore near the Wiley house, and +walked drearily up the bank through the woods. Under the shade of the pines +the white stars of the hepatica glistened and the pale anemones were coming +into bloom. Partridge-berries glowed red under their glossy leaves, and clumps +of violets sweetened the air. Squirrels chattered, woodpeckers tapped, +thrushes sang; but Stephen was blind and deaf to all the sweet harbingers of +spring. + +Just then he heard voices, realizing with a throb of delight that, at any +rate, Rose had not left home to meet Claude, as he had asked her to do. +Looking through the branches, he saw the two standing together, Mrs. Brooks's +horse, with the offensive trunk in the back of the wagon, being hitched to a +tree near by. There was nothing in the tableau to stir Stephen to fury, but he +read between the lines and suffered as he read--suffered and determined to +sacrifice himself if he must, so that Rose could have what she wanted, this +miserable apology for a man. He had never been the husband for Rose; she must +take her place in a larger community, worthy of her beauty and charm. + +Claude was talking and gesticulating ardently. Rose's head was bent and the +tears were rolling down her cheeks. Suddenly Claude raised his hat, and with a +passionate gesture of renunciation walked swiftly to the wagon, and looking +back once, drove off with the utmost speed of which the Brooks's horse was +capable,--Rose waving him a farewell with one hand and wiping her eyes with +the other. + + + + +X + +The Turquoise Ring + + +Stephen stood absolutely still in front of the opening in the trees, and as +Rose turned she met him face to face. She had never dreamed his eyes could be +so stern, his mouth so hard, and she gave a sob like a child. + +"You seem to be in trouble," Stephen said in a voice so cold she thought it +could not be his. + +"I am not in trouble, exactly," Rose stammered, concealing her discomfiture as +well as possible. "I am a little unhappy because I have made some one else +unhappy; and now that you know it, you will be unhappy too, and angry besides, +I suppose, though you've seen everything there was to see." + +"There is no occasion for sorrow," Stephen said. "I did n't mean to break in +on any interview; I came over to give you back your freedom. If you ever cared +enough for me to marry me, the time has gone by. I am willing to own that I +over-persuaded you, but I am not the man to take a girl against her +inclinations, so we will say good-bye and end the thing here and now. I can +only wish"--here his smothered rage at fate almost choked him- "that, when you +were selecting another husband, you had chosen a whole man!" + +Rose quivered with the scorn of his tone. "Size is n't everything!" she +blazed. + +"Not in bodies, perhaps; but it counts for something in hearts and brains, and +it is convenient to have a sense of honor that's at least as big as a grain of +mustard-seed." + +"Claude Merrill is not dishonorable," Rose exclaimed impetuously; "or at least +he is n't as bad as you think: he has never asked me to marry him." + +"Then he probably was not quite ready to speak, or perhaps you were not quite +ready to hear," retorted Stephen, bitterly; "but don't let us have words,- +there'll be enough to regret without adding those. I have seen, ever since New +Year's, that you were not really happy or contented; only I would n't allow it +to myself; I kept hoping against hope that I was mistaken. There have been +times when I would have married you, willing or unwilling, but I did n't love +you so well then; and now that there's another man in the case, it's +different, and I'm strong enough to do the right thing. Follow your heart and +be happy; in a year or two I shall be glad I had the grit to tell you so. +Good-bye, Rose!" + +Rose, pale with amazement, summoned all her pride, and drawing the turquoise +engagement ring from her finger, handed it silently to Stephen, hiding her +face as he flung it vehemently down the river-bank. His dull eyes followed it +and half uncomprehendingly saw it settle and glisten in a nest of brown +pine-needles. Then he put out his hand for a last clasp and strode away +without a word. + +Presently Rose heard first the scrape of his boat on the sand, then the soft +sound of his paddles against the water, then nothing but the squirrels and the +woodpeckers and the thrushes, then not even these,--nothing but the beating of +her own heart. + +She sat down heavily, feeling as if she were wide awake for the first time in +many weeks. How had things come to this pass with her? + +Claude Merrill had flattered her vanity and given her some moments of +restlessness and dissatisfaction with her lot; but he had not until today +really touched her heart or tempted her, even momentarily, from her allegiance +to Stephen. His eyes had always looked unspeakable things; his voice had +seemed to breathe feelings that he had never dared put in words; but today he +had really stirred her, for although he had still been vague, it was easy to +see that his love for her had passed all bounds of discretion. She remembered +his impassioned farewells, his despair, his doubt as to whether he could +forget her by plunging into the vortex of business, or whether he had better +end it all in the river, as so many other broken-hearted fellows had done. She +had been touched by his misery, even against her better judgment; and she had +intended to confess it all to Stephen sometime, telling him that she should +never again accept attentions from a stranger, lest a tragedy like this should +happen twice in a lifetime. + +She had imagined that Stephen would be his large-minded, great-hearted, +magnanimous self, and beg her to forget this fascinating will-o'-the-wisp by +resting in his deeper, serener love. She had meant to be contrite and +faithful, praying nightly that poor Claude might live down his present +anguish, of which she had been the innocent cause. + +Instead, what had happened? She had been put altogether in the wrong. Stephen +had almost cast her off, and that, too, without argument. He had given her her +liberty before she had asked for it, taking it for granted, without question, +that she desired to be rid of him. Instead of comforting her in her remorse, +or sympathizing with her for so nobly refusing to shine in Claude's larger +world of Boston, Stephen had assumed that she was disloyal in every +particular. + +And pray how was she to cope with such a disagreeable and complicated +situation? + +It would not be long before the gossips rolled under their tongues the +delicious morsel of a broken engagement, and sooner or later she must brave +the displeasure of her grandmother. + +And the little house--that was worse than anything. Her tears flowed faster as +she thought of Stephen's joy in it, of his faithful labor, of the savings he +had invested in it. She hated and despised herself when she thought of the +house, and for the first time in her life she realized the limitations of her +nature, the poverty of her ideals. + +What should she do? She had lost Stephen and ruined his life. Now, in order +that she need not blight a second career, must she contrive to return Claude's +love? To be sure, she thought, it seemed indecent to marry any other man than +Stephen, when they had built a house together, and chosen wallpapers, and a +kitchen stove, and dining-room chairs; but was it not the only way to evade +the difficulties? + +Suppose that Stephen, in a fit of pique, should ask somebody else to share the +new cottage? + +As this dreadful possibility came into view, Rose's sobs actually frightened +the birds and the squirrels. She paced back and forth under the trees, +wondering how she could have been engaged to a man for eight months and know +so little about him as she seemed to know about Stephen Waterman today. Who +would have believed he could be so autocratic, so severe, SS so +unapproachable? Who could have foreseen that she, Rose Wiley, would ever be +given up to another man,--handed over as coolly as if she had been a bale of +cotton? She wanted to return Claude Merrill's love because it was the only way +out of the tangle; but at the moment she almost hated him for making so much +trouble, for hurting Stephen, for abasing her in her own eyes, and, above all, +for giving her rustic lover the chance of impersonating an injured emperor. + +It did not simplify the situation to have Mite Shapley come in during the +evening and run upstairs, uninvited, to sit on the foot of her bed and +chatter. + +Rose had closed her blinds and lay in the dark, pleading a headache. Mite was +in high feather. She had met Claude Merrill going to the station that +afternoon. He was much too early for the train, which the station agent +reported to be behind time, so he had asked her to take a drive. She did n't +know how it happened, for he looked at his watch every now and then; but, +anyway, they got to laughing and "carrying on," and when they came back to the +station the train had gone. Was n't that the greatest joke of the season? What +did Rose suppose they did next? + +Rose did n't know and did n't care; her head ached too badly. + +Well, they had driven to Wareham, and Claude had hired a livery team there, +and had been taken into Portland with his trunk, and she had brought Mrs. +Brooks's horse back to Edgewood. Was n't that ridiculous? And had n't she cut +out Rose where she least expected? + +Rose was distinctly apathetic, and Mite Shapley departed after a very brief +call, leaving behind her an entirely new train of thought. + +If Claude Merrill were so love-blighted that he could only by the greatest +self-control keep from flinging himself into the river, how could he conceal +his sufferings so completely from Mite Shapley,--little shallow-pated, +scheming coquette? + + +"So that pretty Merrill feller has gone, has he, mother?" inquired Old +Kennebec that night, as he took off his wet shoes and warmed his feet at the +kitchen oven. "Well, it ain't a mite too soon. I allers distrust that +pink-an'-white, rosy-posy kind of a man. One of the most turrible things that +ever happened in Gard'ner was brought about by jest sech a feller. Mothers hed +n't hardly ought to name their boy babies Claude without they expect 'em to +play the dickens with the girls. I don' know nothin' 'bout the fust Claude, +there ain't none of 'em in the Bible, air they, but whoever he was, I bate ye +he hed a deceivin' tongue. If it hed n't be'n for me, that Claude in Gard'ner +would 'a' run away with my brother's fust wife; an' I'll tell ye jest how I +contrived to put a spoke in his wheel." + +But Mrs. Wiley, being already somewhat familiar with the circumstances, had +taken her candle and retired to her virtuous couch. + + + + +XI + +Rose Sees the World + + +Was this the world, after all? Rose asked herself; and, if so, what was amiss +with it, and where was the charm, the bewilderment, the intoxication, the +glamour? + +She had been glad to come to Boston, for the last two weeks in Edgewood had +proved intolerable. She had always been a favorite heretofore, from the days +when the boys fought for the privilege of dragging her sled up the hills, and +filling her tiny mitten with peppermints, down to the year when she came home +from the Wareham Female Seminary, an acknowledged belle and beauty. Suddenly +she had felt her popularity dwindling. There was no real change in the +demeanor of her acquaintances, but there was a certain subtle difference of +atmosphere. Everybody sympathized tacitly with Stephen, and she did not +wonder, for there were times when she secretly took his part against herself. +Only a few candid friends had referred to the rupture openly in conversation, +but these had been blunt in their disapproval. + +It seemed part of her ill fortune that just at this time Rufus should be +threatened with partial blindness, and that Stephen's heart, already sore, +should be torn with new anxieties. She could hardly bear to see the doctor's +carriage drive by day after day, and hear night after night that Rufus was +unresigned, melancholy, half mad; while Stephen, as the doctor said, was +brother, mother, and father in one, as gentle as a woman, as firm as +Gibraltar. + +These foes to her peace of mind all came from within; but without was the +hourly reproach of her grandmother, whose scorching tongue touched every +sensitive spot in the girl's nature and burned it like fire. + +Finally a way of escape opened. Mrs. Wealthy Brooks, who had always been +rheumatic, grew suddenly worse. She had heard of a "magnetic" physician in +Boston, also of one who used electricity with wonderful effect, and she +announced her intention of taking both treatments impartially and alternately. +The neighbors were quite willing that Wealthy Ann Brooks should spend the +deceased Ezra's money in any way she pleased,--she had earned it, goodness +knows, by living with him for twenty-five years,--but before the day for her +departure arrived her right arm and knee became so much more painful that it +was impossible for her to travel alone. + +At this juncture Rose was called upon to act as nurse and companion in a +friendly way. She seized the opportunity hungrily as a way out of her present +trouble; but, knowing what Mrs. Brooks's temper was in time of health, she +could see clearly what it was likely to prove when pain and anguish wrung the +brow. + +Rose had been in Boston now for some weeks, and she was sitting in the Joy +Street boarding-house,--Joy Street, forsooth! It was nearly bedtime, and she +was looking out upon a huddle of roofs and back yards, upon a landscape filled +with clothes-lines, ash-barrels, and ill-fed cats. There were no sleek country +tabbies, with the memory in their eyes of tasted cream, nothing but city-born, +city-bred, thin, despairing cats of the pavement, cats no more forlorn than +Rose herself. + +She had "seen Boston," for she had accompanied Mrs. Brooks in the horse-cars +daily to the two different temples of healing where that lady worshiped and +offered sacrifices. She had also gone with Maude Arthurlena to Claude +Merrill's store to buy a pair of gloves, and had overheard Miss Dix (the +fashionable "lady assistant" before mentioned) say to Miss Brackett of the +ribbon department, that she thought Mr. Merrill must have worn his blinders +that time he stayed so long in Edgewood. This bit of polished irony was +unintelligible to Rose at first, but she mastered it after an hour's +reflection. She was n't looking her best that day, she knew; the cotton +dresses that seemed so pretty at home were common and countrified here, and +her best black cashmere looked cheap and shapeless beside Miss Dix's +brilliantine. Miss Dix's figure was her strong point, and her dressmaker was +particularly skillful in the arts of suggestion, concealment, and revelation. +Beauty has its chosen backgrounds. Rose in white dimity, standing knee deep in +her blossoming brier bushes, the river running at her feet, dark pine trees +behind her graceful head, sounded depths and touched heights of harmony +forever beyond the reach of the modish Miss Dix, but she was out of her +element and suffered accordingly. + +Rose had gone to walk with Claude one evening when she first arrived. He had +shown her the State House and the Park Street Church, and sat with her on one +of the benches in the Common until nearly ten. She knew that Mrs. Brooks had +told her nephew of the broken engagement, but he made no reference to the +matter, save to congratulate her that she was rid of a man who was so clumsy, +so dull and behind the times, as Stephen Waterman, saying that he had always +marveled she could engage herself to anybody who could insult her by offering +her a turquoise ring. + +Claude was very interesting that evening, Rose thought, but rather gloomy and +unlike his former self. He referred to his grave responsibilities, to the +frail health of Maude Arthurlena, and to the vicissitudes of business. He +vaguely intimated that his daily life in the store was not so pleasant as it +had been formerly; that there were "those" (he would speak no more plainly) +who embarrassed him with undesired attentions, "those" who, without the +smallest shadow of right, vexed him with petty jealousies. + +Rose dared not ask questions on so delicate a topic, but she remembered in a +flash Miss Dix's heavy eyebrows, snapping eyes, and high color. Claude seemed +very happy that Rose had come to Boston, though he was surprised, knowing what +a trial his aunt must be, now that she was so helpless. It was unfortunate, +also, that Rose could not go on excursions without leaving his aunt alone, or +he should have been glad to offer his escort. He pressed her hand when he left +her at her door, telling her she could never realize what a comfort her +friendship was to him; could never imagine how thankful he was that she had +courageously freed herself from ties that in time would have made her +wretched. His heart was full, he said, of feelings he dared not utter; but in +the near future, when certain clouds had rolled by, he would unlock its +treasures, and then--but no more tonight: he could not trust himself. + +Rose felt as if she were assuming one of the characters in a mysterious +romance, such as unfolded itself only in books or in Boston; but thrilling as +it was, it was nevertheless extremely unsatisfactory. + +Convinced that Claude Merrill was passionately in love with her, one of her +reasons for coming to Boston had been to fall more deeply in love with him, +and thus heal some, at least, of the wounds she had inflicted. It may have +been a foolish idea, but after three weeks it seemed still worse,--a useless +one; for after several interviews she felt herself drifting farther and +farther from Claude; and if he felt any burning ambition to make her his own, +he certainly concealed it with admirable art. Given up, with the most +offensive magnanimity, by Stephen, and not greatly desired by Claude,--that +seemed the present status of proud Rose Wiley of the Brier Neighborhood. + +It was June, she remembered, as she leaned out of the open window; at least it +was June in Edgewood, and she supposed for convenience' sake they called it +June in Boston. Not that it mattered much what the poor city prisoners called +it. How beautiful the river would be at home, with the trees along the banks +in full leaf! How she hungered and thirsted for the river,--to see it sparkle +in the sunlight; to watch the moonglade stretching from one bank to the other; +to hear the soft lap of the water on the shore, and the distant murmur of the +falls at the bridge! And the Brier Neighborhood would be at its loveliest, for +the wild roses were in blossom by now. And the little house! How sweet it must +look under the shade of the elms, with the Saco rippling at the back! Was poor +Rufus still lying in a darkened room, and was Stephen nursing him, +--disappointed Stephen, dear, noble old Stephen? + + + + +XII + +Gold and Pinchbeck + + +Just then Mrs. Brooks groaned in the next room and called Rose, who went in to +minister to her real needs, or to condole with her fancied ones, whichever +course of action appeared to be the more agreeable at the moment. + +Mrs. Brooks desired conversation, it seemed, or at least she desired an +audience for a monologue, for she recognized no antiphonal obligations on the +part of her listeners. The doctors were not doing her a speck of good, and she +was just squandering money in a miserable boarding-house, when she might be +enjoying poor health in her own home; and she did n't believe her hens were +receiving proper care, and she had forgotten to pull down the shades in the +spare room, and the sun would fade the carpet out all white before she got +back, and she did n't believe Dr. Smith's magnetism was any more use than a +cat's foot, nor Dr. Robinson's electricity any better than a bumblebee's buzz, +and she had a great mind to go home and try Dr. Lord from Bonnie Eagle; and +there was a letter for Rose on the bureau, which had come before supper, but +the shiftless, lazy, worthless landlady had forgotten to send it up till just +now. + +The letter was from Mite Shapley, but Rose could read only half of it to Mrs. +Brooks, little beside the news that the Waterman barn, the finest barn in the +whole township, had been struck by lightning and burned to the ground. Stephen +was away at the time, having taken Rufus to Portland, where an operation on +his eyes would shortly be performed at the hospital, and one of the neighbors +was sleeping at the River Farm and taking care of the cattle; still the house +might not have been saved but for one of Alcestis Crambry's sudden bursts of +common sense, which occurred now quite regularly. He succeeded not only in +getting the horses out of the stalls, but gave the alarm so promptly that the +whole neighborhood was soon on the scene of action. Stephen was the only man, +Mite reminded Rose, who ever had any patience with, or took any pains to +teach, Alcestis, but he never could have expected to be rewarded in this +practical way. The barn was only partly insured; and when she had met Stephen +at the station next day, and condoled with him on his loss, he had said: "Oh, +well, Mite, a little more or less does n't make much difference just now." + +"The rest would n't interest you, Mrs. Brooks," said Rose, precipitately +preparing to leave the room. + +"Something about Claude, I suppose," ventured that astute lady. "I think Mite +kind of fancied him. I don't believe he ever gave her any real encouragement; +but he'd make love to a pump, Claude Merrill would, and so would his father +before him. How my sister Abby made out to land him we never knew, for they +said he'd proposed to every woman in the town of Bingham, not excepting the +wooden Indian girl in front of the cigar-store, and not one of 'em but our +Abby ever got a chance to name the day. Abby was as set as the everlastin' +hills, and if she'd made up her mind to have a man he could n't wriggle away +from her nohow in the world. It beats all how girls do run after these +slick-haired, sweet-tongued, Miss Nancy kind o' fellers, that ain't but little +good as beaux an' worth less than nothing as husbands." + +Rose scarcely noticed what Mrs. Brooks said, she was too anxious to read the +rest of Mite Shapley's letter in the quiet of her own room. + + Stephen looks thin and pale [so it ran on], but he does not allow anybody + to sympathize with him. I think you ought to know something that I have n't + told before for fear of hurting your feelings; but if I were in your place + I'd like to hear everything, and then you'll know how to act when you come + home. Just after you left, Stephen ploughed up all the land in front of + your new house,--every inch of it, all up and down the road, between the + fence and the front doorstep,--and then he planted corn where you were + going to have your flower-beds. He has closed all the blinds and hung a "To + Let" sign on the large elm at the gate. Stephen never was spiteful in his + life, but this looks a little like spite. Perhaps he only wanted to save + his self-respect and let people know that everything between you was over + forever. Perhaps he thought it would stop talk once and for all. But you + won't mind, you lucky girl, staying nearly three months in Boston! [So + Almira purled on in violet ink, with shaded letters.] How I wish it had + come my way, though I'm not good at rubbing rheumatic patients, even when + they are _his_ aunt. Is _he_ as devoted as ever? And when will _it_ be? How + do you like the theater? Mother thinks you won't attend; but, by what he + used to say, I am sure church members in Boston always go to amusements. + + Your loving friend, + Almira Shapley. + + P.S. They say Rufus's doctor's bills here, and the operation and hospital + expenses in Portland, will mount up to five hundred dollars. Of course + Stephen will be dreadfully hampered by the toss of his barn, and maybe he + wants to let your house that was to be, because he really needs money. In + that case the dooryard won't be very attractive to tenants, with corn + planted right up to the steps and no path left! It's two feet tall now, and + by August (just when you were intending to move in) it will hide the front + windows. Not that you'll care, with a diamond on your engagement finger! + + +The letter was more than flesh and blood could stand, and Rose flung herself +on her bed to think and regret and repent, and, if possible, to sob herself to +sleep. + +She knew now that she had never admired and respected Stephen so much as at +the moment when, under the reproach of his eyes, she had given him back his +ring. When she left Edgewood and parted with him forever she had really loved +him better than when she had promised to marry him. + +Claude Merrill, on his native Boston heath, did not appear the romantic, +inspiring figure he had once been in her eyes. A week ago she distrusted him; +tonight she despised him. + +What had happened to Rose was the dilation of her vision. She saw things under +a wider sky and in a clearer light. Above all, her heart was wrung with pity +for Stephen--Stephen, with no comforting woman's hand to help him in his sore +trouble; Stephen, bearing his losses alone, his burdens and anxieties alone, +his nursing and daily work alone. Oh, how she felt herself needed! Needed! +that was the magic word that unlocked her better nature. "Darkness is the time +for making roots and establishing plants, whether of the soil or of the soul," +and all at once Rose had become a woman: a little one, perhaps, but a whole +woman--and a bit of an angel, too, with healing in her wings. When and how had +this metamorphosis come about? Last summer the fragile brier-rose had hung +over the river and looked at its pretty reflection in the placid surface of +the water. Its few buds and blossoms were so lovely, it sighed for nothing +more. The changes in the plant had been wrought secretly and silently. In some +mysterious way, as common to soul as to plant life, the roots had gathered in +more nourishment from the earth, they had stored up strength and force, and +all at once there was a marvelous fructifying of the plant, hardiness of +stalk, new shoots everywhere, vigorous leafage, and a shower of blossoms. + +But everything was awry: Boston was a failure; Claude was a weakling and a +flirt; her turquoise ring was lying on the river-bank; Stephen did not love +her any longer; her flower-beds were ploughed up and planted in corn; and the +cottage that Stephen had built and she had furnished, that beloved cottage, +was to let. + +She was in Boston; but what did that amount to, after all? What was the State +House to a bleeding heart, or the Old South Church to a pride wounded like +hers? + +At last she fell asleep, but it was only by stopping her ears to the noises of +the city streets and making herself imagine the sound of the river rippling +under her bedroom windows at home. The backyards of Boston faded, and in their +place came the banks of the Saco, strewn with pine-needles, fragrant with wild +flowers. Then there was the bit of sunny beach, where Stephen moored his boat. +She could hear the sound of his paddle. Boston lovers came a-courting in the +horse-cars, but hers had floated downstream to her just at dusk in a birch- +bark canoe, or sometimes, in the moonlight, on a couple of logs rafted +together. + +But it was all over now, and she could see only Stephen's stern face as he +flung the despised turquoise ring down the river-bank. + + + + +XIII + +A Country Chevalier + + +it was early in August when Mrs. Wealthy Brooks announced her speedy return +from Boston to Edgewood. + +"It's jest as well Rose is comin' back," said Mr. Wiley to his wife. "I never +favored her goin' to Boston, where that rosy-posy Claude feller is. When he +was down here he was kep' kind o' tied up in a box-stall, but there he's +caperin' loose round the pastur'." + +"I should think Rose would be ashamed to come back, after the way she's +carried on," remarked Mrs. Wiley, "but if she needed punishment I guess she's +got it bein' comp'ny-keeper to Wealthy Ann Brooks. Bein' a church member in +good an' reg'lar standin', I s'pose Wealthy Ann'll go to heaven, but I can +only say that it would be a sight pleasanter place for a good many if she did +n't." + +"Rose has be'n foolish an' flirty an' wrong-headed," allowed her grandfather; +"but it won't do no good to treat her like a hardened criminile, same's you +did afore she went away. She ain't hardly got her wisdom teeth cut, in love +affairs! She ain't broke the laws of the State o' Maine, nor any o' the ten +commandments; she ain't disgraced the family, an' there's a chance for her to +reform, seein' as how she ain't twenty year old yet. I was turrible wild an' +hot-headed myself afore you ketched me an' tamed me down." + +"You ain't so tame now as I wish you was," Mrs. Wiley replied testily. + +"If you could smoke a clay pipe 't would calm your nerves, mother, an' help +you to git some philosophy inter you; you need a little philosophy turrible +bad." + +"I need patience consid'able more," was Mrs. Wiley's withering retort. + +"That's the way with folks," said Old Kennebec reflectively, as he went on +peacefully puffing. "If you try to indoose 'em to take an int'rest in a +bran'-new virtue, they won't look at it; but they 'll run down a side street +an' buy half a yard more o' some turrible old shop-worn trait o' character +that they've kep' in stock all their lives, an' that everybody's sick to death +of. There was a man in Gard'ner--" + +But alas! the experiences of the Gardiner man, though told in the same +delightful fashion that had won Mrs. Wiley's heart many years before, now fell +upon the empty air. In these years of Old Kennebec's "anecdotage," his pipe +was his best listener and his truest confidant. + +Mr. Wiley's constant intercessions with his wife made Rose's home-coming +somewhat easier, and the sight of her own room and belongings soothed her +troubled spirit, but the days went on, and nothing happened to change the +situation. She had lost a lover, that was all, and there were plenty more to +choose from, or there always had been; but the only one she wanted was the one +who made no sign. She used to think that she could twist Stephen around her +little finger; that she had only to beckon to him and he would follow her to +the ends of the earth. Now fear had entered her heart. She no longer felt +sure, because she no longer felt worthy, of him, and feeling both uncertainty +and unworthiness, her lips were sealed and she was rendered incapable of +making any bid for forgiveness. + +So the little world of Pleasant River went on, to all outward seeming, as it +had ever gone. On one side of the stream a girl's heart was longing, and +pining, and sickening, with hope deferred, and growing, too, with such +astonishing rapidity that the very angels marveled! And on the other, a man's +whole vision of life and duty was widening and deepening under the fructifying +influence of his sorrow. + +The corn waved high and green in front of the vacant riverside cottage, but +Stephen sent no word or message to Rose. He had seen her once, but only from a +distance. She seemed paler and thinner, he thought,--the result, probably, of +her metropolitan gayeties. He heard no rumor of any engagement and he wondered +if it were possible that her love for Claude Merrill had not, after all, been +returned in kind. This seemed a wild impossibility. His mind refused to +entertain the supposition that any man on earth could resist falling in love +with Rose, or, having fallen in, that he could ever contrive to climb out. So +he worked on at his farm harder than ever, and grew soberer and more careworn +daily. Rufus had never seemed so near and dear to him as in these weeks when +he had lived under the shadow of threatened blindness. The burning of the barn +and the strain upon their slender property brought the brothers together +shoulder to shoulder. + +"If you lose your girl, Steve," said the boy, "and I lose my eyesight, and we +both lose the barn, why, it'll be us two against the world, for a spell!" + +The "To Let" sign on the little house was an arrant piece of hypocrisy. +Nothing but the direst extremity could have caused him to allow an alien step +on that sacred threshold. The ploughing up of the flower-beds and planting of +the corn had served a double purpose. It showed the too curious public the +finality of his break with Rose and her absolute freedom; it also prevented +them from suspecting that he still entered the place. His visits were not +many, but he could not bear to let the dust settle on the furniture that he +and Rose had chosen together; and whenever he locked the door and went back to +the River Farm, he thought of a verse in the Bible: "Therefore the Lord God +sent him forth from the Garden of Eden, to till the ground from whence he was +taken." + + +It was now Friday of the last week in August. + +The river was full of logs, thousands upon thousands of them covering the +surface of the water from the bridge almost up to the Brier Neighborhood. The +Edgewood drive was late, owing to a long drought and low water; but it was to +begin on the following Monday, and Lije Dennett and his under boss were +looking over the situation and planning the campaign. As they leaned over the +bridge-rail they saw Mr. Wiley driving clown the river road. When he caught +sight of them he hitched the old white horse at the corner and walked toward +them, filling his pipe the while in his usual leisurely manner. "We're not +busy this forenoon," said Lije Dennett. "S'pose we stand right here and let +Old Kennebec have his say out for once. We've never heard the end of one of +his stories, an' he's be'n talkin' for twenty years." + +"All right," rejoined his companion, with a broad grin at the idea. "I'm +willin', if you are; but who's goin' to tell our fam'lies the reason we've +deserted 'em? I bate yer we shan't budge till the crack o' doom. The road +commissioner'll come along once a year and mend the bridge under our feet, but +Old Kennebec'll talk straight on till the day o' jedgment." + +Mr. Wiley had one of the most enjoyable mornings of his life, and felt that +after half a century of neglect his powers were at last appreciated by his +fellow citizens. + +He proposed numerous strategic movements to be made upon the logs, whereby +they would move more swiftly than usual. He described several successful +drives on the Kennebec, when the logs had melted down the river almost by +magic, owing to his generalship; and he paid a tribute, in passing, to the +docility of the boss, who on that occasion had never moved a single log +without asking his advice. + +From this topic he proceeded genially to narrate the life-histories of the +boss, the under boss, and several Indians belonging to the crew,--histories in +which he himself played a gallant and conspicuous part. The conversation then +drifted naturally to the exploits of river-drivers in general, and Mr. Wiley +narrated the sorts of feats in log-riding, pick-pole-throwing, and the +shooting of rapids that he had done in his youth. These stories were such as +had seldom been heard by the ear of man; and, as they passed into circulation +instantaneously, we are probably enjoying some of them to this day. + +They were still being told when a Crambry child appeared on the bridge, +bearing a note for the old man. Upon reading it he moved off rapidly in the +direction of the store, ejaculating: "Bless my soul! I clean forgot that +saleratus, and mother's settin' at the kitchen table with the bowl in her lap, +waitin' for it! Got so int'rested in your list'nin' I never thought o' the +time." + +The connubial discussion that followed this breach of discipline began on the +arrival of the saleratus, and lasted through supper; and Rose went to bed +almost immediately afterward for very dullness and apathy. Her life stretched +out before her in the most aimless and monotonous fashion. She saw nothing but +heartache in the future; and that she richly deserved it made it none the +easier to bear. + +Feeling feverish and sleepless, she slipped on her gray Shaker cloak and stole +quietly downstairs for a breath of air. Her grandfather and grandmother were +talking on the piazza, and good humor seemed to have been restored. "I was +over to the tavern tonight," she heard him say, as she sat down at a little +distance. "I was over to the tavern tonight, an' a feller from Gorham got to +talkin' an' braggin' 'bout what a stock o' goods they kep' in the store over +there. 'An',' says I, 'I bate ye dollars to doughnuts that there hain't a darn +thing ye can ask for at Bill Pike's store at Pleasant River that he can't go +down cellar, or up attic, or out in the barn chamber an' git for ye.' Well, +sir, he took me up, an' I borrered the money of Joe Dennett, who held the +stakes, an' we went right over to Bill Pike's with all the boys follerin' on +behind. An' the Gorham man never let on what he was going to ask for till the +hull crowd of us got inside the store. Then says he, as p'lite as a basket o' +chips, 'Mr. Pike, I'd like to buy a pulpit if you can oblige me with one.' + +"Bill scratched his head an' I held my breath. Then says he, "Pears to me I'd +ought to hev a pulpit or two, if I can jest remember where I keep 'em. I don't +never cal'late to be out o' pulpits, but I'm so plagued for room I can't keep +'em in here with the groc'ries. Jim (that's his new store boy), you jest take +a lantern an' run out in the far corner o' the shed, at the end o' the hickory +woodpile, an' see how many pulpits we've got in stock!' Well, Jim run out, an' +when he come back he says, 'We've got two, Mr. Pike. Shall I bring one of 'em +in?' + +"At that the boys all bust out laughin' an' hollerin' an' tauntin' the Gorham +man, an' he paid up with a good will, I tell ye!" + +"I don't approve of bettin'," said Mrs. Wiley grimly, "but I'll try to +sanctify the money by usin' it for a new wash-boiler." + +"The fact is," explained Old Kennebec, somewhat confused, "that the boys made +me spend every cent of it then an' there." + +Rose heard her grandmother's caustic reply, and then paid no further attention +until her keen ear caught the sound of Stephen's name. It was a part of her +unhappiness that since her broken engagement no one would ever allude to him, +and she longed to hear him mentioned, so that perchance she could get some +inkling of his movements. + +"I met Stephen tonight for the first time in a week," said Mr. Wiley. "He kind +o' keeps out o' my way lately. He's goin' to drive his span into Portland +tomorrow mornin' and bring Rufus home from the hospital Sunday afternoon. The +doctors think they've made a success of their job, but Rufus has got to be +bandaged up a spell longer. Stephen is goin' to join the drive Monday mornin' +at the bridge here, so I'll get the latest news o' the boy. Land! I'll be +turrible glad if he gets out with his eyesight, if it's only for Steve's sake. +He's a turrible good fellow, Steve is! He said something tonight that made me +set more store by him than ever. I told you I hed n't heard an unkind word +ag'in' Rose sence she come home from Boston, an' no more I hev till this +evenin'. There was two or three fellers talkin' in the post-office, an' they +did n't suspicion I was settin' on the steps outside the screen door. That Jim +Jenkins, that Rose so everlastin'ly snubbed at the tavern dance, spoke up, an' +says he: 'This time last year Rose Wiley could 'a' hed the choice of any man +on the river, an' now I bet ye she can't get nary one.' + +"Steve was there, jest goin' out the door, with some bags o' coffee an' sugar +under his arm. + +"'I guess you're mistaken about that,' he says, speakin' up jest like +lightnin'; 'so long as Stephen Waterman's alive, Rose Wiley can have him, for +one; and that everybody's welcome to know.' + +"He spoke right out, loud an' plain, jest as if he was readin' the Declaration +of Independence. I expected the boys would everlastin'ly poke fun at him, but +they never said a word. I guess his eyes flashed, for he come out the screen +door, slammin' it after him, and stalked by me as if he was too worked up to +notice anything or anybody. I did n't foller him, for his long legs git over +the ground too fast for me, but thinks I, 'Mebbe I'll hev some use for my +lemonade-set after all.'" + +"I hope to the land you will," responded Mrs. Wiley, "for I'm about sick o' +movin' it round when I sweep under my bed. And I shall be glad if Rose an' +Stephen do make it up, for Wealthy Ann Brooks's gossip is too much for a +Christian woman to stand." + + + + +XIV + +Housebreaking + + +Where was the pale Rose, the faded Rose, that crept noiselessly down from her +room, wanting neither to speak nor to be spoken to? Nobody ever knew. She +vanished forever, and in her place a thing of sparkles and dimples flashed up +the stairway and closed the door softly. There was a streak of moon-shine +lying across the bare floor, and a merry ghost, with dressing-gown held +prettily away from bare feet, danced a gay fandango among the yellow +moonbeams. There were breathless flights to the open window, and kisses thrown +in the direction of the River Farm. There were impressive declamations at the +looking-glass, where a radiant creature pointed to her reflection and +whispered, "Worthless little pig, he loves you, after all!" + +Then, when quiet joy had taken the place of mad delight, there was a swoop +down upon the floor, an impetuous hiding of brimming eyes in the white +counterpane, and a dozen impassioned promises to herself and to something +higher than herself, to be a better girl. + +The mood lasted, and deepened, and still Rose did not move. Her heart was on +its knees before Stephen's faithful love, his chivalry, his strength. Her +troubled spirit, like a frail boat tossed about in the rapids, seemed entering +a quiet harbor, where there were protecting shores and a still, still evening +star. Her sails were all torn and drooping, but the harbor was in sight, and +the poor little weather-beaten craft could rest in peace. + +A period of grave reflection now ensued, under the bedclothes, where one could +think better. Suddenly an inspiration seized her, an inspiration so original, +so delicious, and above all so humble and praiseworthy, that it brought her +head from her pillow, and she sat bolt upright, clapping her hands like a +child. + +"The very thing!" she whispered to herself gleefully. "It will take courage, +but I'm sure of my ground after what he said before them all, and I'll do it. +Grandma in Biddeford buying church carpets, Stephen in Portland--was ever such +a chance?" + +The same glowing Rose came downstairs, two steps at a time, next morning, bade +her grandmother goodbye with suspicious pleasure, and sent her grandfather +away on an errand which, with attendant conversation, would consume half the +day. Then bundles after bundles and baskets after baskets were packed into the +wagon,--behind the seat, beneath the seat, and finally under the lap-robe. She +gave a dramatic flourish to the whip, drove across the bridge, went through +Pleasant River village, and up the leafy road to the little house, stared the +"To Let" sign scornfully in the eye, alighted, and ran like a deer through the +aisles of waving corn, past the kitchen windows, to the back door. + +"If he has kept the big key in the old place under the stone, where we both +used to find it, then he has n't forgotten me--or anything," thought Rose. + +The key was there, and Rose lifted it with a sob of gratitude. It was but five +minutes' work to carry all the bundles from the wagon to the back steps, and +another five to lead old Tom across the road into the woods and tie him to a +tree quite out of the sight of any passer-by. + +When, after running back, she turned the key in the lock, her heart gave a +leap almost of terror, and she started at the sound of her own footfall. +Through the open door the sunlight streamed into the dark room. She flew to +tables and chairs, and gave a rapid sweep of the hand over their surfaces. + +"He has been dusting here,--and within a few days, too," she thought +triumphantly. + +The kitchen was perfection, as she always knew it would be, with one door +opening to the shaded road and the other looking on the river; windows, too, +framing the apple-orchard and the elms. She had chosen the furniture, but how +differently it looked now that it was actually in place! The tiny shed had +piles of split wood, with great boxes of kindlings and shavings, all in +readiness for the bride, who would do her own cooking. Who but Stephen would +have made the very wood ready for a woman's home-coming; and why had he done +so much in May, when they were not to be married until August? Then the door +of the bedroom was stealthily opened, and here Rose sat down and cried for joy +and shame and hope and fear. The very flowered paper she had refused as too +expensive! How lovely it looked with the white chamber set! She brought in her +simple wedding outfit of blankets, bed-linen, and counterpanes, and folded +them softly in the closet; and then for the rest of the morning she went from +room to room, doing all that could remain undiscovered, even to laying a fire +in the new kitchen stove. + +This was the plan. Stephen must pass the house on his way from the River Farm +to the bridge, where he was to join the river-drivers on Monday morning. She +would be out of bed by the earliest peep of dawn, put on Stephen's favorite +pink calico, leave a note for her grandmother, run like a hare down her side +of the river and up Stephen's, steal into the house, open blinds and windows, +light the fire, and set the kettle boiling. Then with a sharp knife she would +cut down two rows of corn, and thus make a green pathway from the front +kitchen steps to the road. Next, the false and insulting "To Let" sign would +be forcibly tweaked from the tree and thrown into the grass. She would then +lay the table in the kitchen, and make ready the nicest breakfast that two +people ever sat down to. And oh, would two people sit down to it; or would one +go off in a rage and the other die of grief and disappointment? + +Then, having done all, she would wait and palpitate, and palpitate and wait, +until Stephen came. Surely no property-owner in the universe could drive along +a road, observe his corn leveled to the earth, his sign removed, his house +open, and smoke issuing from his chimney, without going in to surprise the +rogue and villain who could be guilty of such vandalism. + +And when he came in? + +Oh, she had all day Sunday in which to forecast, with mingled dread and +gladness and suspense, that all-important, all-decisive first moment! All day +Sunday to frame and unframe penitent speeches. All day Sunday! Would it ever +be Monday? If so, what would Tuesday bring? Would the sun rise happy on Mrs. +Stephen Waterman of Pleasant River, or miserable Miss Rose Wiley of the Brier +Neighborhood? + + + + +XV + +The Dream Room + + +Long ago, when Stephen was a boy of fourteen or fifteen, he had gone with his +father to a distant town to spend the night. After an early breakfast next +morning his father had driven off for a business interview, and left the boy +to walk about during his absence. He wandered aimlessly along a quiet side +street, and threw himself down on the grass outside a pretty garden to amuse +himself as best he could. + +After a few minutes he heard voices, and, turning, peeped through the bars of +the gate in idle, boyish curiosity. It was a small brown house; the kitchen +door was open, and a table spread with a white cloth was set in the middle of +the room. There was a cradle in a far corner, and a man was seated at the +table as though he might be waiting for his breakfast. + +There is a kind of sentiment about the kitchen in New England, a kind of +sentiment not provoked by other rooms. Here the farmer drops in to spend a few +minutes when he comes back from the barn or field on an errand. Here, in the +great, clean, sweet, comfortable place, the busy housewife lives, sometimes +rocking the cradle, sometimes opening and shutting the oven door, sometimes +stirring the pot, darning stockings, paring vegetables, or mixing goodies in a +yellow bowl. The children sit on the steps, stringing beans, shelling peas, or +hulling berries; the cat sleeps on the floor near the wood-box; and the +visitor feels exiled if he stays in sitting-room or parlor, for here, where +the mother is always busy, is the heart of the farmhouse. + +There was an open back door to this kitchen, a door framed in morning-glories, +and the woman (or was she only girl?) standing at the stove was pretty,--oh, +so pretty in Stephen's eyes! His boyish heart went out to her on the instant. +She poured a cup of coffee and walked with it to the table; then an +unexpected, interesting thing happened--something the boy ought not to have +seen, and never forgot. The man, putting out his hand to take the cup, looked +up at the pretty woman with a smile, and she stooped and kissed him. + +Stephen was fifteen. As he looked, on the instant he became a man, with a +man's hopes, desires, ambitions. He looked eagerly, hungrily, and the scene +burned itself on the sensitive plate of his young heart, so that, as he grew +older, he could take the picture out in the dark, from time to time, and look +at it again. When he first met Rose, he did not know precisely what she was to +mean to him; but before long, when he closed his eyes and the old familiar +picture swam into his field of vision, behold, by some spiritual chemistry, +the pretty woman's face had given place to that of Rose! + +All such teasing visions had been sternly banished during this sorrowful +summer, and it was a thoughtful, sober Stephen who drove along the road on +this mellow August morning. The dust was deep; the goldenrod waved its +imperial plumes, making the humble waysides gorgeous; the river chattered and +sparkled till it met the logs at the Brier Neighborhood, and then, lapsing +into silence, flowed steadily under them till it found a vent for its spirits +in the dashing and splashing of the falls. + +Haying was over; logging was to begin that day; then harvesting; then wood- +cutting; then eternal successions of ploughing, sowing, reaping, haying, +logging, harvesting, and so on, to the endless end of his days. Here and there +a red or a yellow branch, painted only yesterday, caught his eye and made him +shiver. He was not ready for winter; his heart still craved the summer it had +missed. + +Hello! What was that? Corn-stalks prone on the earth? Sign torn down and lying +flat in the grass? Blinds open, fire in the chimney? + +He leaped from the wagon, and, flinging the reins to Alcestis Crambry, said, +"Stay right here out of sight, and don't you move till I call you!" And +striding up the green pathway, he flung open the kitchen door. + +A forest of corn waving in the doorway at the back, morning-glories clambering +round and round the window-frames, the table with shining white cloth, the +kettle humming and steaming, something bubbling in a pan on the stove, the +fire throwing out sweet little gleams of welcome through the open damper. All +this was taken in with one incredulous, rapturous twinkle of an eye; but +something else, too: Rose of all roses, Rose of the river, Rose of the world, +standing behind a chair, with her hand pressed against her heart, her lips +parted, her breath coming and going! She was glowing like a jewel--glowing +with the extraordinary brilliancy that emotion gives to some women. She used +to be happy in a gay, sparkling way, like the shallow part of the stream as it +chatters over white pebbles and bright sands. Now it was a broad, steady, full +happiness like the deeps of the river under the sun. + +"Don't speak, Stephen, till you hear what I have to say. It takes a good deal +of courage for a girl to do as I am doing; but I want to show how sorry I am, +and it's the only way." She was trembling, and the words came faster and +faster. "I've been very wrong and foolish, and made you very unhappy, but I +have n't done what you would have hated most. I have n't been engaged to +Claude Merrill; he has n't so much as asked me. I am here to beg you to +forgive me, to eat breakfast with me, to drive me to the minister's and marry +me quickly, quickly, before anything happens to prevent us, and then to bring +me home here to live all the days of my life. Oh, Stephen dear, honestly, +honestly, you have n't lost anything in all this long, miserable summer. I've +suffered, too, and I'm better worth loving than I was. Will you take me back?" + +Rose had a tremendous power of provoking and holding love, and Stephen of +loving. His was too generous a nature for revilings and complaints and +reproaches. + +The shores of his heart were strewn with the wreckage of the troubled summer, +but if the tide of love is high enough, it washes such things out of +remembrance. He just opened his arms and took Rose to his heart, faults and +all, with joy and gratitude; and she was as happy as a child who has escaped +the scolding it richly deserves, and who determines, for very thankfulness' +sake, never to be naughty again. + +"You don't know what you've done for me, Stephen," she whispered, with her +face hidden on his shoulder. "I was just a common little prickly rosebush when +you came along like a good gardener and 'grafted in' something better; the +something better was your love, Stephen dear, and it's made everything +different. The silly Rose you were engaged to long ago has disappeared +somewhere; I hope you won't be able to find her under the new leaves." + +"She was all I wanted," said Stephen. + +"You thought she was," the girl answered, "because you did n't see the +prickles, but you'd have felt them some time. The old Rose was a selfish +thing, not good enough for you; the new Rose is going to be your wife, and +Rufus's sister, and your mother's daughter, all in one." + +Then such a breakfast was spread as Stephen, in his sorry years of bachelor +existence, had forgotten could exist; but before he broke his fast he ran out +to the wagon and served the astonished Alcestis with his wedding refreshments +then and there, bidding him drive back to the River Farm and bring him a +package that lay in the drawer of his shaving-stand,--a package placed there +when hot youth and love and longing had inspired him to hurry on the marriage +day. + +"There's an envelope, Alcestis," he cried, "a long envelope, way, way back in +the corner, and a small box on top of it. Bring them both and my wallet too, +and if you find them all and get them to me safely you shall be bridesmaid and +groomsman and best man and usher and maid of honor at a wedding, in less than +an hour! Off with you! Drive straight and use the whip on Dolly!" + +When he re-entered the kitchen, flushed with joy and excitement, Rose put the +various good things on the table and he almost tremblingly took his seat, +fearing that contact with the solid wood might wake him from this entrancing +vision. + +"I'd like to put you in your chair like a queen and wait on you," he said with +a soft boyish stammer; "but I am too dazed with happiness to be of any use." + +"It's my turn to wait upon you, and I--Oh! how I love to have you dazed," Rose +answered. "I'll be at the table presently myself; but we have been +housekeeping only three minutes, and we have nothing but the tin coffee-pot +this morning, so I'll pour the coffee from the stove." + +She filled a cup with housewifely care and brought it to Stephen's side. As +she set it down and was turning, she caught his look,--a look so full of +longing that no loving woman, however busy, could have resisted it; then she +stooped and kissed him fondly, fervently. + +Stephen put his arm about her, and, drawing her down to his knee, rested his +head against her soft shoulder with a sigh of comfort, like that of a tired +child. He had waited for it ten years, and at last the dream room had come +true. + + + + + +THE OLD PEABODY PEW + +A Christmas Romance of a Country Church + + + + +DEDICATION + +To a certain handful of dear New England women of names unknown to the world, +dwelling in a certain quiet village, alike unknown:-- + +We have worked together to make our little corner of the great universe a +pleasanter place in which to live, and so we know, not only one another's +names, but something of one another's joys and sorrows, cares and burdens, +economies, hopes, and anxieties. + +We all remember the dusty uphill road that leads to the green church common. +We remember the white spire pointing upward against a background of blue sky +and feathery elms. We remember the sound of the bell that falls on the Sabbath +morning stillness, calling us across the daisy-sprinkled meadows of June, the +golden hayfields of July, or the dazzling whiteness and deep snowdrifts of +December days. The little cabinet-organ that plays the Doxology, the +hymn-books from which we sing "Praise God from whom all blessings flow," the +sweet freshness of the old meeting-house, within and without,--how we have +toiled to secure and preserve these humble mercies for ourselves and our +children! + +There really is a Dorcas Society, as you and I well know, and one not unlike +that in these pages; and you and I have lived through many discouraging, +laughable, and beautiful experiences while we emulated the Bible Dorcas, that +woman "full of good works and alms deeds." + +There never was a Peabody Pew in the Tory Hill Meeting-House, and Nancy's love +story and Justin's never happened within its century-old walls, but I have +imagined only one of the many romances that have had their birth under the +shadow of that steeple, did we but realize it. + +As you have sat there on open-windowed Sundays, looking across purple +clover-fields to blue distant mountains, watching the palm-leaf fans swaying +to and fro in the warm stillness before sermon time, did not the place seem +full of memories, for has not the life of two villages ebbed and flowed +beneath that ancient roof? You heard the hum of droning bees and followed the +airy wings of butterflies fluttering over the grave-stones in the old +churchyard, and underneath almost every moss-grown tablet some humble romance +lies buried aud all but forgotten. + +If it had not been for you, I should never have written this story, so I give +it back to you tied with a sprig from Ophelia's nosegay; a sprig of "rosemary, +that's for remembrance." + +K. D. W. + +August, 1907 + + + + +The Old Peabody Pew + +Edgewood, like all the other villages along the banks of the Saco, is full of +sunny slopes and leafy hollows. There are little, rounded, green-clad hillocks +that might, like their scriptural sisters, "skip with joy"; and there are +grand, rocky hills tufted with gaunt pine trees--these leading the eye to the +splendid heights of a neighbor State, where snow-crowned peaks tower in the +blue distance, sweeping the horizon in a long line of majesty. + +Tory Hill holds its own among the others for peaceful beauty and fair +prospect, and on its broad, level summit sits the white-painted Orthodox +Meeting-House. This faces a grassy common where six roads meet, as if the +early settlers had determined that no one should lack salvation because of a +difficulty in reaching its visible source. + +The old church has had a dignified and fruitful past, dating from that day in +1761 when young Paul Coffin received his call to preach at a stipend of fifty +pounds sterling a year; answering "that never having heard of any Uneasiness +among the people about his Doctrine or manner of life, he declared himself +pleased to Settle as Soon as might be Judged Convenient." + +But that was a hundred and fifty years ago, and much has happened since those +simple, strenuous old days. The chastening hand of time has been laid somewhat +heavily on the town as well as on the church. Some of her sons have marched to +the wars and died on the field of honor; some, seeking better fortunes, have +gone westward; others, wearying of village life, the rocky soil, and rigors of +farm-work, have become entangled in the noise and competition, the rush and +strife, of cities. When the sexton rings the bell nowadays, on a Sunday +morning, it seems to have lost some of its old-time militant strength, +something of its hope and courage; but it still rings, and although the Davids +and Solomons, the Matthews, Marks, and Pauls of former congregations have left +few descendants to perpetuate their labors, it will go on ringing as long as +there is a Tabitha, a Dorcas, a Lois, or a Eunice left in the community. + +This sentiment had been maintained for a quarter of a century, but it was now +especially strong, as the old Tory Hill Meeting-House had been undergoing for +several years more or less extensive repairs. In point of fact, the still +stronger word, "improvements," might be used with impunity; though whenever +the Dorcas Society, being female, and therefore possessed of notions regarding +comfort and beauty, suggested any serious changes, the finance committees, +which were inevitably male in their composition, generally disapproved of +inaking any impious alterations in a tabernacle, chapel, temple, or any other +building used for purposes of worship. The majority in these august bodies +asserted that their ancestors had prayed and sung there for a century and a +quarter, and what was good enough for their ancestors was entirely suitable +for them. Besides, the community was becoming less and less prosperous, and +church-going was growing more and more lamentably uncommon, so that even from +a business standpoint, any sums expended upon decoration by a poor and +struggling parish would be worse than wasted. + +In the particular year under discussion in this story, the valiant and +progressive Mrs. Jeremiah Burbank was the president of the Dorcas Society, and +she remarked privately and publicly that if her ancestors liked a smoky +church, they had a perfect right to the enjoyment of it, but that she did n't +intend to sit through meeting on winter Sundays, with her white ostrich +feather turning gray and her eyes smarting and watering, for the rest of her +natural life. + +Whereupon, this being in a business session, she then and there proposed to +her already hypnotized constituents ways of earning enough money to build a +new chimney on the other side of the church. + +An awe-stricken community witnessed this beneficent act of vandalism, and, +finding that no thunderbolts of retribution descended from the skies, greatly +relished the change. If one or two aged persons complained that they could not +sleep as sweetly during sermon-time in the now clear atmosphere of the church, +and that the parson's eye was keener than before, why, that was a mere detail, +and could not be avoided; what was the loss of a little sleep compared with +the discoloration of Mrs. Jere Burbank's white ostrich feather and the +smarting of Mrs. Jere Burbank's eyes? + +A new furnace followed the new chimney, in due course, and as a sense of +comfort grew, there was opportunity to notice the lack of beauty. Twice in +sixty years had some well-to-do summer parishioner painted the interior of the +church at his own expense; but although the roof had been many times +reshingled, it had always persisted in leaking, so that the ceiling and walls +were disfigured by unsightly spots and stains and streaks. The question of +shingling was tacitly felt to be outside the feminine domain, but as there +were five women to one man in the church membership, the feminine domain was +frequently obliged to extend its limits into the hitherto unknown. Matters of +tarring and waterproofing were discussed in and out of season, and the very +school-children imbibed knowledge concerning lapping, over-lapping, and +cross-lapping, and first and second quality of cedar shingles. Miss Lobelia +Brewster, who had a rooted distrust of anything done by mere man, created +strife by remarking that she could have stopped the leak in the belfry tower +with her red flannel petticoat better than the Milltown man with his +new-fangled rubber sheeting, and that the last shingling could have been more +thoroughly done by a "female infant babe"; whereupon the person criticized +retorted that he wished Miss Lobelia Brewster had a few infant babes to "put +on the job he'd like to see 'em try." Meantime several male members of the +congregation, who at one time or another had sat on the roof during the +hottest of the dog-days to see that shingling operations were conscientiously +and skillfully performed, were very pessimistic as to any satisfactory result +ever being achieved. + +"The angle of the roof--what they call the 'pitch'--they say that that's +always been wrong," announced the secretary of the Dorcas in a business +session. + +"Is it that kind of pitch that the Bible says you can't touch without being +defiled? If not, I vote that we unshingle the roof and alter the pitch!" This +proposal came from a sister named Maria Sharp, who had valiantly offered the +year before to move the smoky chimney with her own hands, if the "menfolks" +would n't. + +But though the incendiary suggestion of altering the pitch was received with +applause at the moment, subsequent study of the situation proved that such a +proceeding was entirely beyond the modest means of the society. Then there +arose an ingenious and militant carpenter in a neighboring village, who +asserted that he would shingle the meeting-house roof for such and such a sum, +and agree to drink every drop of water that would leak in afterward. This was +felt by all parties to be a promise attended by extraordinary risks, but it +was accepted nevertheless, Miss Lobelia Brewster remarking that the rash +carpenter, being already married, could not marry a Dorcas anyway, and even if +he died, he was not a resident of Edgewood, and therefore could be more easily +spared, and that it would be rather exciting, just for a change, to see a man +drink himself to death with rain-water. The expected tragedy never occurred, +however, and the inspired shingler fulfilled his promise to the letter, so +that before many months the Dorcas Society proceeded, with incredible +exertion, to earn more money, and the interior of the church was neatly +painted and made as fresh as a rose. With no smoke, no rain, no snow nor +melting ice to defile it, the good old landmark that had been pointing its +finger Heavenward for over a century would now be clean and fragrant for years +to come, and the weary sisters leaned back in their respective rocking-chairs +and drew deep breaths of satisfaction. + +These breaths continued to be drawn throughout an unusually arduous haying +season; until, in fact, a visitor from a neighboring city was heard to remark +that the Tory Hill Meeting-House would be one of the best preserved and +pleasantest churches in the whole State of Maine, if only it were suitably +carpeted. + +This thought had secretly occurred to many a Dorcas in her hours of +pie-making, preserving, or cradle-rocking, but had been promptly extinguished +as flagrantly extravagant and altogether impossible. Now that it had been +openly mentioned, the contagion of the idea spread, and in a month every sort +of honest machinery for the increase of funds had been set in motion: harvest +suppers, pie sociables, old folks' concerts, apron sales, and, as a last +resort, a subscription paper, for the church floor measured hundreds of square +yards, and the carpet committee announced that a good ingrain could not be +purchased, even with the church discount, for less than ninety-seven cents a +yard. + +The Dorcases took out their pencils, and when they multiplied the surface of +the floor by the price of the carpet per yard, each Dorcas attaining a result +entirely different from all the others, there was a shriek of dismay, +especially from the secretary, who had included in her mathematical operation +certain figures in her possession representing the cubical contents of the +church and the offending pitch of the roof, thereby obtaining a product that +would have dismayed a Croesus. Time sped and efforts increased, but the +Dorcases were at length obliged to clip the wings of their desire and content +themselves with carpeting the pulpit and pulpit steps, the choir, and the two +aisles, leaving the floor in the pews until some future year. + +How the women cut and contrived and matched that hardly-bought red ingrain +carpet, in the short December afternoons that ensued after its purchase; so +that, having failed to be ready for Thanksgiving, it could be finished for the +Christmas festivities! + +They were sewing in the church, and as the last stitches were being taken, +Maria Sharp suddenly ejaculated in her impulsive fashion :-- + +"Would n't it have been just perfect if we could have had the pews repainted +before we laid the new carpet!" + +"It would, indeed," the president answered; "but it will take us all winter to +pay for the present improvements, without any thought of fresh paint. If only +we had a few more men-folks to help along!" + +"Or else none at all!" was Lobelia Brewster's suggestion. "It's havin' so few +that keeps us all stirred up. If there wa'n't any anywheres, we'd have women +deacons and carpenters and painters, and get along first rate; for somehow the +supply o' women always holds out, same as it does with caterpillars an' flies +an' grasshoppers!" + +Everybody laughed, although Maria Sharp asserted that she for one was not +willing to be called a caterpillar simply because there were too many women in +the universe. + +"I never noticed before how shabby and scarred and dirty the pews are," said +the minister's wife, as she looked at them reflectively. + +"I've been thinking all the afternoon of the story about the poor old woman +and the lily," and Nancy Wentworth's clear voice broke into the discussion. +"Do you remember some one gave her a stalk of Easter lilies and she set them +in a glass pitcher on the kitchen table? After looking at them for a few +minutes, she got up from her chair and washed the pitcher until the glass +shone. Sitting down again, she glanced at the little window. It would never +do; she had forgotten how dusty and blurred it was, and she took her cloth and +burnished the panes. Then she scoured the table, then the floor, then +blackened the stove before she sat down to her knitting. And of course the +lily had done it all, just by showing, in its whiteness, how grimy everything +else was." + +The minister's wife, who had been in Edgewood only a few months, looked +admiringly at Nancy's bright face, wondering that five-and-thirty years of +life, including ten of school-teaching, had done so little to mar its +serenity. + +"The lily story is as true as the gospel!" she exclaimed, "and I can see how +one thing has led you to another in making the church comfortable. But my +husband says that two coats of paint on the pews would cost a considerable +sum." + +"How about cleaning them? I don't believe they've had a good hard washing +since the flood." The suggestion came from Deacon Miller's wife to the +president. + +"They can't even be scrubbed for less than fifteen or twenty dollars, for I +thought of that and asked Mrs. Simpson yesterday, and she said twenty cents a +pew was the cheapest she could do it for." + +"We've done everything else," said Nancy Wentworth, with a twitch of her +thread; "why don't we scrub the pews? There's nothing in the Orthodox creed to +forbid, is there?" + +"Speakin' o' creeds," and here old Mrs. Sargent paused in her work, "Elder +Ransom from Acreville stopped with us last night, an' he tells me they recite +the Euthanasian Creed every few Sundays in the Episcopal Church. I did n't +want him to know how ignorant I was, but I looked up the word in the +dictionary. It means easy death, and I can't see any sense in that, though +it's a terrible long creed, the Elder says, an' if it's any longer 'n ourn, I +should think anybody _might_ easy die learnin' it!" + +"I think the word is Athanasian," ventured the minister's wife. + +"Elder Ransom's always plumb full o' doctrine," asserted Miss Brewster, +pursuing the subject. "For my part, I'm glad he preferred Acreville to our +place. He was so busy bein' a minister, he never got round to bein' a human +creeter. When he used to come to sociables and picnics, always lookin' kind o' +like the potato blight, I used to think how complete he'd be if he had a +foldin' pulpit under his coat-tails; they make foldin' beds nowadays, an' I +s'pose they could make foldin' pulpits, if there was a call." + +"Land sakes, I hope there won't be!" exclaimed Mrs. Sargent. "An' the Elder +never said much of anything either, though he was always preachin'! Now your +husband, Mis' Baxter, always has plenty to say after you think he's all +through. There's water in his well when the others is all dry!" + +"But how about the pews?" interrupted Mrs. Burbank. "I think Nancy's idea is +splendid, and I want to see it carried out. We might make it a picnic, bring +our luncheons, and work all together; let every woman in the congregation come +and scrub her own pew." + +"Some are too old, others live at too great a distance," and the minister's +wife sighed a little; "indeed, most of those who once owned the pews or sat in +them seem to be dead, or gone away to live in busier places." + +"I've no patience with 'em, gallivantin' over the earth," and here Lobelia +rose and shook the carpet threads from her lap. "I should n't want to live in +a livelier place than Edgewood, seem's though! We wash and hang out Mondays, +iron Tuesdays, cook Wednesdays, clean house and mend Thursdays and Fridays, +bake Saturdays, and go to meetin' Sundays. I don't hardly see how they can do +any more'n that in Chicago!" + +"Never mind if we have lost members!" said the indomitable Mrs. Burbank. "The +members we still have left must work all the harder. We'll each clean our own +pew, then take a few of our neighbors', and then hire Mrs. Simpson to do the +wainscoting and floor. Can we scrub Friday and lay the carpet Saturday? My +husband and Deacon Miller can help us at the end of the week. All in favor +manifest it by the usual sign. Contrary-minded? It is a vote." + +There never were any contrary-minded when Mrs. Jere Burbank was in the chair. +Public sentiment in Edgewood was swayed by the Dorcas Society, but Mrs. +Burbank swayed the Dorcases themselves as the wind sways the wheat. + + + +II + +The old meeting-house wore an animated aspect when the eventful Friday came, a +cold, brilliant, sparkling December day, with good sleighing, and with energy +in every breath that swept over the dazzling snowfields. The sexton had built +a fire in the furnace on the way to his morning work--a fire so economically +contrived that it would last exactly the four or five necessary hours, and not +a second more. At eleven o'clock all the pillars of the society had assembled, +having finished their own household work and laid out on their respective +kitchen tables comfortable luncheons for the men of the family, if they were +fortunate enough to number any among their luxuries. Water was heated upon +oil-stoves set about here and there, and there was a brave array of +scrubbing-brushes, cloths, soap, and even sand and soda, for it had been +decided and manifested-by-the-usual-sign-and-no-contrary-minded-and-it-was- +-a-vote that the dirt was to come off, whether the paint came with it or not. +Each of the fifteen women present selected a block of seats, preferably one in +which her own was situated, and all fell busily to work. + +"There is nobody here to clean the right-wing pews," said Nancy Wentworth, "so +I will take those for my share." + +"You're not making a very wise choice, Nancy," and the minister's wife smiled +as she spoke. "The infant class of the Sunday-School sits there, you know, and +I expect the paint has had extra wear and tear. Families don't seem to occupy +those pews regularly nowadays." + +"I can remember when every seat in the whole church was filled, wings an' +all," mused Mrs. Sargent, wringing out her washcloth in a reminiscent mood. +"The one in front o' you, Nancy, was always called the 'deef pew' in the old +times, and all the folks that was hard o' hearin' used to congregate there." + +"The next pew has n't been occupied since I came here," said the minister's +wife. + +"No," answered Mrs. Sargent, glad of any opportunity to retail neighborhood +news. "'Squire Bean's folks have moved to Portland to be with the married +daughter. Somebody has to stay with her, and her husband won't. The 'Squire +ain't a strong man, and he's most too old to go to meetin' now. The youngest +son just died in New York, so I hear." + +"What ailed him?" inquired Maria Sharp. + +"I guess he was completely wore out takin' care of his health," returned Mrs. +Sargent. "He had a splendid constitution from a boy, but he was always afraid +it would n't last him. The seat back o' 'Squire Bean's is the old Peabody +pew--ain't that the Peabody pew you're scrubbin', Nancy?" + +"I believe so," Nancy answered, never pausing in her labors. "It's so long +since anybody sat there, it's hard to remember." + +"It is the Peabodys', I know it, because the aisle runs right up facin' it. I +can see old Deacon Peabody settin' in this end same as if 't was yesterday." + +"He had died before Jere and I came back here to live," said Mrs. Burbank. +"The first I remember, Justin Peabody sat in the end seat; the sister that +died, next, and in the corner, against the wall, Mrs. Peabody, with a crape +shawl and a palmleaf fan. They were a handsome family. You used to sit with +them sometimes, Nancy; Esther was great friends with you." + +"Yes, she was," Nancy replied, lifting the tattered cushion from its place and +brushing it; "and I with her. What is the use of scrubbing and carpeting, when +there are only twenty pew-cushions and six hassocks in the whole church, and +most of them ragged? How can I ever mend this?" + +"I should n't trouble myself to darn other people's cushions!" This +unchristian sentiment came in Mrs. Miller's ringing tones from the rear of the +church. + +"I don't know why," argued Maria Sharp. "I'm going to mend my Aunt Achsa's +cushion, and we haven't spoken for years; but hers is the next pew to mine, +and I'm going to have my part of the church look decent, even if she is too +stingy to do her share. Besides, there are n't any Peabodys left to do their +own darning, and Nancy was friends with Esther." + +"Yes, it's nothing more than right," Nancy replied, with a note of relief in +her voice, "considering Esther." + +"Though he don't belong to the scrubbin' sex, there is one Peabody alive, as +you know, if you stop to think, Maria; for Justin's alive, and livin' out West +somewheres. At least, he's as much alive as ever he was; he was as good as +dead when he was twenty-one, but his mother was always too soft-hearted to +bury him." + +There was considerable laughter over this sally of the outspoken Mrs. Sargent, +whose keen wit was the delight of the neighborhood. + +"I know he's alive and doing business in Detroit, for I got his address a week +or ten days ago, and wrote, asking him if he'd like to give a couple of +dollars toward repairing the old church." + +Everybody looked at Mrs. Burbank with interest. + +"Has n't he answered?" asked Maria Sharp. Nancy Wentworth held her breath, +turned her face to the wall, and silently wiped the paint of the wainscoting. +The blood that had rushed into her cheeks at Mrs. Sargent's jeering reference +to Justin Peabody still lingered there for any one who ran to read, but +fortunately nobody ran; they were too busy scrubbing. + +"Not yet. Folks don't hurry about answering when you ask them for a +contribution," replied the president, with a cynicism common to persons who +collect funds for charitable purposes. "George Wickham sent me twenty-five +cents from Denver. When I wrote him a receipt, I said thank you same as Aunt +Polly did when the neighbors brought her a piece of beef: 'Ever so much +obleeged, but don't forget me when you come to kill a pig.'--Now, Mrs. Baxter, +you shan't clean James Bruce's pew, or what was his before he turned Second +Advent. I'll do that myself, for he used to be in my Sunday-School class." + +"He's the backbone o' that congregation now," asserted Mrs. Sargent, "and they +say he's goin' to marry Mrs. Sam Peters, who sings in their choir, as soon as +his year is up. They make a perfect fool of him in that church." + +"You can't make a fool of a man that nature ain't begun with," argued Miss +Brewster. "Jim Bruce never was very strong-minded, but I declare it seems to +me that when men lose their wives, they lose their wits! I was sure Jim would +marry Hannah Thompson that keeps house for him. I suspected she was lookin' +out for a life job when she hired out with him." + +"Hannah Thompson may keep Jim's house, but she'll never keep Jim, that's +certain!" affirmed the president; "and I can't see that Mrs. Peters will +better herself much." + +"I don't blame her, for one!" came in no uncertain tones from the left-wing +pews, and the Widow Buzzell rose from her knees and approached the group by +the pulpit. "If there's anything duller than cookin' three meals a day for +yourself, and settin' down and eatin' 'em by yourself, and then gettin' up and +clearin' 'em away after yourself, I'd like to know it! I should n't want any +good-lookin', pleasant-spoken man to offer himself to me without he expected +to be snapped up, that's all! But if you've made out to get one husband in +York County, you can thank the Lord and not expect any more favors. I used to +think Tom was poor comp'ny and complain I could n't have any conversation with +him, but land, I could talk at him, and there's considerable comfort in that. +And I could pick up after him! Now every room in my house is clean, and every +closet and bureau drawer, too; I can't start drawin' in another rug, for I've +got all the rugs I can step foot on. I dried so many apples last year I shan't +need to cut up any this season. My jelly and preserves ain't out, and there I +am; and there most of us are, in this village, without a man to take steps for +and trot 'round after! There's just three husbands among the fifteen women +scrubbin' here now, and the rest of us is all old maids and widders. No wonder +the men-folks die, or move away, like Justin Peabody; a place with such a mess +o' women-folks ain't healthy to live in, whatever Lobelia Brewster may say." + + + +III + +Justin Peabody had once faithfully struggled with the practical difficulties +of life in Edgewood, or so he had thought, in those old days of which Nancy +Wentworth was thinking when she wiped the paint of the Peabody pew. Work in +the mills did not attract him; he had no capital to invest in a stock of goods +for store-keeping; school-teaching offered him only a pittance; there remained +then only the farm, if he were to stay at home and keep his mother company. + +"Justin don't seem to take no holt of things," said the neighbors. + +"Good Heavens!" It seemed to him that there were no things to take hold of! +That was his first thought; later he grew to think that the trouble all lay in +himself, and both thoughts bred weakness. + +The farm had somehow supported the family in the old Deacon's time, but Justin +seemed unable to coax a competence from the soil. He could, and did, rise +early and work late; till the earth, sow crops; but he could not make the rain +fall nor the sun shine at the times he needed them, and the elements, however +much they might seem to favor his neighbors, seldom smiled on his enterprises. +The crows liked Justin's corn better than any other in Edgewood. It had a +richness peculiar to itself, a quality that appealed to the most jaded palate, +so that it was really worth while to fly over a mile of intervening fields and +pay it the delicate compliment of preference. + +Justin could explain the attitude of caterpillars, worms, grasshoppers, and +potato-bugs toward him only by assuming that he attracted them as the magnet +in the toy boxes attracts the miniature fishes. + +"Land o' liberty! look at 'em congregate!" ejaculated Jabe Slocum, when he was +called in for consultation. "Now if you'd gone in for breedin' insecks, you +could be as proud as Cuffy an' exhibit 'em at the County Fair! They'd give yer +prizes for size an' numbers an' speed, I guess! Why, say, they're real crowded +for room--the plants ain't give 'em enough leaves to roost on! Have you tried +'Bug Death'?" + +"It acts like a tonic on them," said Justin gloomily. + +"Sho! you don't say so! Now mine can't abide the sight nor smell of it. What +'bout Paris green?" + +"They thrive on it; it's as good as an appetizer." + +"Well," said Jabe Slocum, revolving the quid of tobacco in his mouth +reflectively, "the bug that ain't got no objection to p'ison is a bug that's +got ways o' thinkin' an' feelin' an' reasonin' that I ain't able to cope with! +P'r'aps it's all a leadin' o' Providence. Mebbe it shows you'd ought to quit +farmin' crops an' take to raisin' live stock!" + +Justin did just that, as a matter of fact, a year or two later; but stock that +has within itself the power of being "live" has also rare qualification for +being dead when occasion suits, and it generally did suit Justin's stock. It +proved prone not only to all the general diseases that cattle-flesh is heir +to, but was capable even of suicide. At least, it is true that two valuable +Jersey calves, tied to stakes on the hillside, had flung themselves violently +down the bank and strangled themselves with their own ropes in a manner which +seemed to show that they found no pleasure in existence, at all events on the +Peabody farm. + +These were some of the little tragedies that had sickened young Justin Peabody +with life in Edgewood, and Nancy Wentworth, even then, realized some of them +and sympathized without speaking, in a girl's poor, helpless way. + +Mrs. Simpson had washed the floor in the right wing of the church and Nancy +had cleaned all the paint. Now she sat in the old Peabody pew darning the +forlorn, faded cushion with gray carpet-thread; thread as gray as her own +life. + +The scrubbing-party had moved to its labors in a far corner of the church, and +two of the women were beginning preparations for the basket luncheons. Nancy's +needle was no busier than her memory. Long years ago she had often sat in the +Peabody pew, sometimes at first as a girl of sixteen when asked by Esther, and +then, on coming home from school at eighteen, "finished," she had been invited +now and again by Mrs. Peabody herself, on those Sundays when her own invalid +mother had not attended service. + +Those were wonderful Sundays--Sundays of quiet, trembling peace and maiden +joy. + +Justin sat beside her, and she had been sure then, but had long since grown to +doubt the evidence of her senses, that he, too, vibrated with pleasure at the +nearness. Was there not a summer morning when his hand touched her white lace +mitt as they held the hymn-book together, and the lines of the + + Rise, my soul, and stretch thy wings, + Thy better portion trace, + +became blurred on the page and melted into something indistinguishable for a +full minute or two afterward? Were there not looks, and looks, and looks? Or +had she some misleading trick of vision in those days? Justin's dark, handsome +profile rose before her: the level brows and fine lashes; the well-cut nose +and lovable mouth--the Peabody mouth and chin, somewhat too sweet and pliant +for strength, perhaps. Then the eyes turned to hers in the old way, just for a +fleeting glance, as they had so often done at prayer-meeting, or sociable, or +Sunday service. Was it not a man's heart she had seen in them? And oh, if she +could only be sure that her own woman's heart had not looked out from hers, +drawn from its maiden shelter in spite of all her wish to keep it hidden! + +Then followed two dreary years of indecision and suspense, when Justin's eyes +met hers less freely; when his looks were always gloomy and anxious; when +affairs at the Peabody farm grew worse and worse; when his mother followed her +husband, the old Deacon, and her daughter Esther to the burying-ground in the +churchyard. Then the end of all things came, the end of the world for Nancy: +Justin's departure for the West in a very frenzy of discouragement over the +narrowness and limitation and injustice of his lot; over the rockiness and +barrenness and unkindness of the New England soil; over the general bitterness +of fate and the "bludgeonings of chance." + +He was a failure, born of a family of failures. If the world owed him a +living, he had yet to find the method by which it could be earned. All this he +thought and uttered, and much more of the same sort. In these days of humbled +pride self was paramount, though it was a self he despised. There was no time +for love. Who was he for a girl to lean upon?--he who could not stand erect +himself! + +He bade a stiff goodbye to his neighbors, and to Nancy he vouchsafed little +more. A handshake, with no thrill of love in it such as might have furnished +her palm, at least, some memories to dwell upon; a few stilted words of +leave-taking; a halting, meaningless sentence or two about his "botch" of +life--then he walked away from the Wentworth doorstep. But halfway down the +garden path, where the shriveled hollyhocks stood like sentinels, did a wave +of something different sweep over him--a wave of the boyish, irresponsible +past when his heart had wings and could fly without fear to its mate--a wave +of the past that was rushing through Nancy's mind, wellnigh burying her in its +bitter-sweet waters. For he lifted his head, and suddenly retracing his steps, +he came toward her, and, taking her hand again, said forlornly: "You 'll see +me back when my luck turns, Nancy." + +Nancy knew that the words might mean little or much, according to the manner +in which they were uttered, but to her hurt pride and sore, shamed +woman-instinct, they were a promise, simply because there was a choking sound +in Justin's voice and tears in Justin's eyes. "You 'll see me back when my +luck turns, Nancy"; this was the phrase upon which she had lived for more than +ten years. Nancy had once heard the old parson say, ages ago, that the whole +purpose of life was the growth of the soul; that we eat, sleep, clothe +ourselves, work, love, all to give the soul another day, month, year, in which +to develop. She used to wonder if her soul could be growing in the monotonous +round of her dull duties and her duller pleasures. She did not confess it even +to herself; nevertheless she knew that she worked, ate, slept, to live until +Justin's luck turned. Her love had lain in her heart a bird without a song, +year after year. Her mother had dwelt by her side and never guessed; her +father, too; and both were dead. The neighbors also, lynx-eyed and curious, +had never suspected. If she had suffered, no one in Edgewood was any the +wiser, for the maiden heart is not commonly worn on the sleeve in New England. +If she had been openly pledged to Justin Peabody, she could have waited twice +ten years with a decent show of self-respect, for long engagements were viewed +rather as a matter of course in that neighborhood. The endless months had gone +on since that gray November day when Justin had said goodbye. It had been just +before Thanksgiving, and she went to church with an aching and ungrateful +heart. The parson read from the eighth chapter of St. Matthew, a most +unexpected selection for that holiday. "If you can't find anything else to be +thankful for," he cried, "go home and be thankful you are not a leper!" + +Nancy took the drastic counsel away from the church with her, and it was many +a year before she could manage to add to this slender store anything to +increase her gratitude for mercies given, though all the time she was +outwardly busy, cheerful, and helpful. + +Justin had once come back to Edgewood, and it was the bitterest drop in her +cup of bitterness that she was spending that winter in Berwick (where, so the +neighbors told him, she was a great favorite in society, and was receiving +much attention from gentlemen), so that she had never heard of his visit until +the spring had come again. Parted friends did not keep up with one another's +affairs by means of epistolary communication, in those days, in Edgewood; it +was not the custom. Spoken words were difficult enough to Justin Peabody, and +written words were quite impossible, especially if they were to be used to +define his half-conscious desires and his fluctuations of will, or to recount +his disappointments and discouragements and mistakes. + + + +IV + +It was Saturday afternoon, the 24th of December, and the weary sisters of the +Dorcas band rose from their bruised knees and removed their little stores of +carpet-tacks from their mouths. This was a feminine custom of long standing, +and as no village dressmaker had ever died of pins in the digestive organs, so +were no symptoms of carpet-tacks ever discovered in any Dorcas, living or +dead. Men wondered at the habit and reviled it, but stood confounded in the +presence of its indubitable harmlessness. + +The red ingrain carpet was indeed very warm, beautiful, and comforting to the +eye, and the sisters were suitably grateful to Providence, and devoutly +thankful to themselves, that they had been enabled to buy, sew, and lay so +many yards of it. But as they stood looking at their completed task, it was +cruelly true that there was much left to do. + +The aisles had been painted dark brown on each side of the red strips leading +from the doors to the pulpit, but the rest of the church floor was "a thing of +shreds and patches." Each member of the carpet committee had paid (as a matter +of pride, however ill she could afford it) three dollars and sixty-seven cents +for sufficient carpet to lay in her own pew; but these brilliant spots of +conscientious effort only made the stretches of bare, unpainted floor more +evident. And that was not all. Traces of former spasmodic and individual +efforts desecrated the present ideals. The doctor's pew had a pink-and-blue +Brussels on it; the lawyer's, striped stair-carpeting; the Browns from +Deerwander sported straw matting and were not abashed; while the Greens, the +Whites, the Blacks, and the Grays displayed floor coverings as dissimilar as +their names. + +"I never noticed it before!" exclaimed Maria Sharp, "but it ain't Christian, +that floor! it's heathenish and ungodly!" + +"For mercy's sake, don't swear, Maria," said Mrs. Miller nervously. "We've +done our best, and let's hope that folks will look up and not down. It is n't +as if they were going to set in the chandelier; they'll have something else to +think about when Nancy gets her hemlock branches and white carnations in the +pulpit vases. This morning my Abner picked off two pinks from a plant I've +been nursing in my dining-room for weeks, trying to make it bloom for +Christmas. I slapped his hands good, and it's been haunting me ever since to +think I had to correct him the day before Christmas.--Come, Lobelia, we must +be hurrying!" + +"One thing comforts me," exclaimed the Widow Buzzell, as she took her hammer +and tacks preparatory to leaving; "and that is that the Methodist +meetin'-house ain't got any carpet at all." + +"Mrs. Buzzell, Mrs. Buzzell!" interrupted the minister's wife, with a smile +that took the sting from her speech. "It will be like punishing little Abner +Miller; if we think those thoughts on Christmas Eve, we shall surely be +haunted afterward." + +"And anyway," interjected Maria Sharp, who always saved the situation, "you +just wait and see if the Methodists don't say they'd rather have no carpet at +all than have one that don't go all over the floor. I know 'em!" and she put +on her hood and blanket-shawl as she gave one last fond look at the +improvements. + +"I'm going home to get my supper, and come back afterward to lay the carpet in +my pew; my beans and brown bread will be just right by now, and perhaps it +will rest me a little; besides, I must feed 'Zekiel." + +As Nancy Wentworth spoke, she sat in a corner of her own modest rear seat, +looking a little pale and tired. Her waving dark hair had loosened and fallen +over her cheeks, and her eyes gleamed from under it wistfully. Nowadays +Nancy's eyes never had the sparkle of gazing into the future, but always the +liquid softness that comes from looking backward. + +"The church will be real cold by then, Nancy," objected Mrs. Burbank.-- +"Good-night, Mrs. Baxter." + +"Oh, no! I shall be back by half-past six, and I shall not work long. Do you +know what I believe I'll do, Mrs. Burbank, just through the holidays? +Christmas and New Year's both coming on Sunday this year, there'll be a great +many out to church, not counting the strangers that'll come to the special +service tomorrow. Instead of putting down my own pew carpet that'll never be +noticed here in the back, I'll lay it in the old Peabody pew, for the red +aisle-strip leads straight up to it; the ministers always go up that side, and +it does look forlorn." + +"That's so! And all the more because my pew, that's exactly opposite in the +left wing, is new carpeted and cushioned," replied the president. "I think +it's real generous of you, Nancy, because the Riverboro folks, knowing that +you're a member of the carpet committee, will be sure to notice, and think +it's queer you have n't made an effort to carpet your own pew." + +"Never mind!" smiled Nancy wearily. "Riverboro folks never go to bed on +Saturday nights without wondering what Edgewood is thinking about them!" + +The minister's wife stood at her window watching Nancy as she passed the +parsonage. + +"How wasted! How wasted!" she sighed. "Going home to eat her lonely supper and +feed 'Zekiel.... I can bear it for the others, but not for Nancy .... Now she +has lighted her lamp,... now she has put fresh pine on the fire, for new smoke +comes from the chimney. Why should I sit down and serve my dear husband, and +Nancy feed 'Zekiel?" + +There was some truth in Mrs. Baxter's feeling. Mrs. Buzzell, for instance, had +three sons; Maria Sharp was absorbed in her lame father and her Sunday-School +work; and Lobelia Brewster would not have considered matrimony a blessing, +even under the most favorable conditions. But Nancy was framed and planned for +other things, and 'Zekiel was an insufficient channel for her soft, womanly +sympathy and her bright activity of mind and body. + +'Zekiel had lost his tail in a mowing-machine; 'Zekiel had the asthma, and the +immersion of his nose in milk made him sneeze, so he was wont to slip his paw +in and out of the dish and lick it patiently for five minutes together. Nancy +often watched him pityingly, giving him kind and gentle words to sustain his +fainting spirit, but tonight she paid no heed to him, although he sneezed +violently to attract her attention. + +She had put her supper on the lighted table by the kitchen window and was +pouring out her cup of tea, when a boy rapped at the door. "Here's a paper and +a letter, Miss Wentworth," he said. "It's the second this week, and they think +over to the store that that Berwick widower must be settin' up and takin' +notice!" + +She had indeed received a letter the day before, an unsigned communication, +consisting only of the words,-- + + Second Epistle of John. Verse x2. + +She had taken her Bible to look out the reference and found it to be:-- + + Having many tilings to write unto you, I would not write with paper and ink: +but I trust to come unto you, and speak face to face, that our joy may be +full. + +The envelope was postmarked New York, and she smiled, thinking that Mrs. +Emerson, a charming lady who had spent the summer in Edgewood, and had sung +with her in the village choir, was coming back, as she had promised, to have a +sleigh ride and see Edgewood in its winter dress. Nancy had almost forgotten +the first letter in the excitements of her busy day, and now here was another, +from Boston this time. She opened the envelope and found again only a sipgle +sentence, printed, not written. (Lest she should guess the hand, she +wondered?) + + Second Epistle of John. Verse 5.-- + And now I beseech thee, lady, not as though I wrote a new commandment + unto thee, but that which we had from the beginning, that we love one +another. + +Was it Mrs. Emerson? Could it be--any one else? Was it? No, it might have +been, years ago; but not now; not now!--And yet; he was always so different +from other people; and once, in church, he had handed her the hymn-book with +his finger pointing to a certain verse. + +She always fancied that her secret fidelity of heart rose from the fact that +Justin Peabody was "different." From the hour of their first acquaintance, she +was ever comparing him with his companions, and always to his advantage. So +long as a woman finds all men very much alike (as Lobelia Brewster did, save +that she allowed some to be worse!), she is in no danger. But the moment in +which she perceives and discriminates subtle differences, marveling that there +can be two opinions about a man's superiority, that moment the miracle has +happened. + + And now I beseech thee, lady, not as though I wrote a new commandment + unto thee, but that which we had from the beginning, that we love one +another. + +No, it could not be from Justin. She drank her tea, played with her beans +abstractedly, and nibbled her slice of steaming brown bread. + + Not as though I wrote a new commandment unto thee. + +No, not a new one; twelve, fifteen years old, that commandment! + + That we love one another. + +Who was speaking? Who had written these words? The first letter sounded just +like Mrs. Emerson, who had said she was a very poor correspondent, but that +she should just "drop down" on Nancy one of these days; but this second letter +never came from Mrs. Emerson.--Well, there would be an explanation some time; +a pleasant one; one to smile over, and tell 'Zekiel and repeat to the +neighbors; but not an unexpected, sacred, beautiful explanation, such a one as +the heart of a woman could imagine, if she were young enough and happy enough +to hope. She washed her cup and plate; replaced the uneaten beans in the brown +pot, and put them away with the round loaf, folded the cloth (Lobelia Brewster +said Nancy always "set out her meals as if she was entertainin' company from +Portland"), closed the stove dampers, carried the lighted lamp to a safe +corner shelf, and lifted 'Zekiel to his cushion on the high-backed rocker, +doing all with the nice precision of long habit. Then she wrapped herself +warmly, and locking the lonely little house behind her, set out to finish her +work in the church. + + + +V + +At this precise moment Justin Peabody was eating his own beans and brown bread +(articles of diet of which his Detroit landlady was lamentably ignorant) at +the new tavern, not far from the meeting-house. + +It would not be fair to him to say that Mrs. Burbank's letter had brought him +back to Edgewood, but it had certainly accelerated his steps. + +For the first six years after Justin Peabody left home, he had drifted about +from place to place, saving every possible dollar of his uncertain earnings in +the conscious hope that he could go back to New England and ask Nancy +Wentworth to marry him. The West was prosperous and progressive, but how he +yearned, in idle moments, for the grimmer and more sterile soil that had given +him birth! + +Then came what seemed to him a brilliant chance for a lucky turn of his +savings, and he invested them in an enterprise which, wonderfully as it +promised, failed within six months and left him penniless. At that moment he +definitely gave up all hope, and for the next few years he put Nancy as far as +possible out of his mind, in the full belief that he was acting an honorable +part in refusing to drag her into his tangled and fruitless way of life. If +she ever did care for him,--and he could not be sure, she was always so shy,-- +she must have outgrown the feeling long since, and be living happily, or at +least contentedly, in her own way. He was glad in spite of himself when he +heard that she had never married; but at least he had n't it on his conscience +that _he_ had kept her single! + +On the 17th of December, Justin, his business day over, was walking toward the +dreary house in which he ate and slept. As he turned the corner, he heard one +woman say to another, as they watched a man stumbling sorrowfully down the +street: "Going home will be the worst of all for him--to find nobody there!" +That was what going home had meant for him these ten years, but he afterward +felt it strange that this thought should have struck him so forcibly on that +particular day. Entering the boarding-house, he found Mrs. Burbank's letter +with its Edgewood postmark on the hall table, and took it up to his room. He +kindled a little fire in the air-tight stove, watching the flame creep from +shavings to kindlings, from kindlings to small pine, and from small pine to +the round, hardwood sticks; then when the result seemed certain, he closed the +stove door and sat down to read the letter. Whereupon all manner of strange +things happened in his head and heart and flesh and spirit as he sat there +alone, his hands in his pockets, his feet braced against the legs of the +stove. + +It was a cold winter night, and the snow and sleet beat against the windows. +He looked about the ugly room: at the washstand with its square of oilcloth in +front and its detestable bowl and pitcher; at the rigors of his white iron +bedstead, with the valley in the middle of the lumpy mattress and the darns in +the rumpled pillowcases; at the dull photographs of the landlady's hideous +husband and children enshrined on the mantelshelf; looked at the abomination +of desolation surrounding him until his soul sickened and cried out like a +child's for something more like home. It was as if a spring thaw had melted +his ice-bound heart, and on the crest of a wave it was drifting out into the +milder waters of some unknown sea. He could have laid his head in the kind lap +of a woman and cried: "Comfort me! Give me companionship or I die!" + +The wind howled in the chimney and rattled the loose window-sashes; the snow, +freezing as it fell, dashed against the glass with hard, cutting little blows; +at least, that is the way in which the wind and snow flattered themselves they +were making existence disagreeable to Justin Peabody when he read the letter; +but never were elements more mistaken. + +It was a June Sunday in the boarding-house bedroom; and for that matter it was +not the boarding-house bedroom at all: it was the old Orthodox church on Tory +Hill in Edgewood. The windows were wide open, and the smell of the purple +clover and the humming of the bees were drifting into the sweet, wide spaces +within. Justin was sitting in the end of the Peabody pew, and Nancy Wentworth +was beside him; Nancy, cool and restful in her white dress; dark-haired Nancy +under the shadow of her shirred muslin hat. + + Rise, my soul, and stretch thy wings, + Thy better portion trace. + +The melodeon gave the tune, and Nancy and he stood to sing, taking the book +between them. His hand touched hers, and as the music of the hymn rose and +fell, the future unrolled itself before his eyes: a future in which Nancy was +his wedded wife; and the happy years stretched on and on in front of them +until there was a row of little heads in the old Peabody pew, and mother and +father could look proudly along the line at the young things they were +bringing into the house of the Lord. + +The recalling of that vision worked like magic in Justin's blood. His soul +rose and stretched its wings and "traced its better portion" vividly, as he +sprang to his feet and walked up and down the bedroom floor. He would get a +few days' leave and go back to Edgewood for Christmas, to join, with all the +old neighbors, in the service at the meetinghouse; and in pursuance of this +resolve, he shook his fist in the face of the landlady's husband on the +mantelpiece and dared him to prevent. + +He had a salary of fifty dollars a month, with some very slight prospect of an +increase after January. He did not see how two persons could eat, and drink, +and lodge, and dress on it in Detroit, but he proposed to give Nancy Wentworth +the refusal of that magnificent future, that brilliant and tempting offer. He +had exactly one hundred dollars in the bank, and sixty or seventy of them +would be spent in the journeys, counting two happy, blessed fares back from +Edgewood to Detroit; and if he paid only his own fare back, he would throw the +price of the other into the pond behind the Wentworth house. He would drop +another ten dollars into the plate on Christmas Day toward the repairs on the +church; if he starved, he would do that. He was a failure. Everything his hand +touched turned to naught. He looked himself full in the face, recognizing his +weakness, and in this supremest moment of recognition he was a stronger man +than he had been an hour before. His drooping shoulders had straightened; the +restless look had gone from his eyes; his somber face had something of repose +in it, the repose of a settled purpose. He was a failure, but perhaps if he +took the risks (and if Nancy would take them--but that was the trouble, women +were so unselfish, they were always willing to take risks, and one ought not +to let them!), perhaps he might do better in trying to make a living for two +than he had in working for himself alone. He would go home, tell Nancy that he +was an unlucky good-for-naught, and ask her if she would try her hand at +making him over. + + + +VI + +These were the reasons that had brought Justin Peabody to Edgewood on the +Saturday afternoon before Christmas, and had taken him to the new tavern on +Tory Hill, near the meeting-house. + +Nobody recognized him at the station or noticed him at the tavern, and after +his supper he put on his overcoat and started out for a walk, aimlessly hoping +that he might meet a friend, or failing that, intending to call on some of his +old neighbors, with the view of hearing the village news and securing some +information which might help him to decide when he had better lay himself and +his misfortunes at Nancy Wentworth's feet. They were pretty feet! He +remembered that fact well enough under the magical influence of familiar +sights and sounds and odors. He was restless, miserable, anxious, +homesick--not for Detroit, but for some heretofore unimagined good; yet, like +Bunyan's shepherd boy in the Valley of humiliation, he carried "the herb +called Heartsease in his bosom," for he was at last loving consciously. + +How white the old church looked, and how green the blinds! It must have been +painted very lately: that meant that the parish was fairly prosperous. There +were new shutters in the belfry tower, too; he remembered the former open +space and the rusty bell, and he liked the change. Did the chimney use to be +in that corner? No; but his father had always said it would have drawn better +if it had been put there in the beginning. New shingles within a year: that +was evident to a practiced eye. He wondered if anything had been done to the +inside of the building, but he must wait until the morrow to see, for, of +course, the doors would be locked. No; the one at the right side was ajar. He +opened it softly and stepped into the tiny square entry that he recalled so +well--the one through which the Sunday-School children ran out to the steps +from their catechism, apparently enjoying the sunshine after a spell of +orthodoxy; the little entry where the village girls congregated while waiting +for the last bell to ring--they made a soft blur of pink and blue and buff, a +little flutter of curls and braids and fans and sun-shades, in his mind's eye, +as he closed the outer door behind him and gently opened the inner one. The +church was flooded with moon-light and snowlight, and there was one lamp +burning at the back of the pulpit; a candle, too, on the pulpit steps. There +was the tip-tap-tip of a tack-hammer going on in a distant corner. Was +somebody hanging Christmas garlands? The new red carpet attracted his notice, +and as he grew accustomed to the dim light, it carried his eye along the aisle +he had trod so many years of Sundays, to the old familiar pew. The sound of +the hammer ceased, and a woman rose from her knees. A stranger was doing for +the family honor what he ought himself to have done. The woman turned to shake +her skirt, and it was Nancy Wentworth. He might have known it. Women were +always faithful; they always remembered old land-marks, old days, old friends, +old duties. His father and mother and Esther were all gone; who but dear Nancy +would have made the old Peabody pew right and tidy for the Christmas festival? +Bless her kind, womanly heart! + +She looked just the same to him as when he last saw her. Mercifully he seemed +to have held in remembrance all these years not so much her youthful bloom as +her general qualities of mind and heart: her cheeriness, her spirit, her +unflagging zeal, her bright womanliness. Her gray dress was turned up in front +over a crimson moreen petticoat. She had on a cozy jacket, a fur turban of +some sort with a red breast in it, and her cheeks were flushed from exertion. +"Sweet records, and promises as sweet," had always met in Nancy's face, and +either he had forgotten how pretty she was, or else she had absolutely grown +prettier during his absence. + +Nancy would have chosen the supreme moment of meeting very differently, but +she might well have chosen worse. She unpinned her skirt and brushed the +threads off, smoothed the pew cushions carefully, and took a last stitch in +the ragged hassock. She then lifted the Bible and the hymn-book from the rack, +and putting down a bit of flannel on the pulpit steps, took a flatiron from an +oil-stove, and opening the ancient books, pressed out the well-thumbed leaves +one by one with infinite care. After replacing the volumes in their accustomed +place, she first extinguished the flame of her stove, which she tucked out of +sight, and then blew out the lamp and the candle. The church was still light +enough for objects to be seen in a shadowy way, like the objects in a dream, +and Justin did not realize that he was a man in the flesh, looking at a woman; +spying, it might be, upon her privacy. He was one part of a dream and she +another, and he stood as if waiting, and fearing, to be awakened. + +Nancy, having done all, came out of the pew, and standing in the aisle, looked +back at the scene of her labors with pride and content. And as she looked, +some desire to stay a little longer in the dear old place must have come over +her, or some dread of going back to her lonely cottage, for she sat down in +Justin's corner of the pew with folded hands, her eyes fixed dreamily on the +pulpit and her ears hearing:-- + + Not as though I wrote a new commandment unto thee, but that which we had + from the beginning. + +Justin's grasp on the latch tightened as he prepared to close the door and +leave the place, but his instinct did not warn him quickly enough, after all, +for, obeying some uncontrollable impulse, Nancy suddenly fell on her knees in +the pew and buried her face in the cushions. The dream broke, and in an +instant Justin was a man--worse than that, he was an eavesdropper, ashamed of +his unsuspected presence. He felt himself standing, with covered head and feet +shod, in the holy temple of a woman's heart. + +But his involuntary irreverence brought abundant grace with it. The glimpse +and the revelation wrought their miracles silently and irresistibly, not by +the slow processes of growth which Nature demands for her enterprises, but +with the sudden swiftness of the spirit. In an instant changes had taken place +in Justin's soul which his so-called "experiencing religion" twenty-five years +back had been powerless to effect. He had indeed been baptized then, but the +recording angel could have borne witness that this second baptism fructified +the first, and became the real herald of the new birth and the new creature. + + + +VII + +Justin Peabody silently closed the inner door, and stood in the entry with his +head bent and his heart in a whirl until he should hear Nancy rise to her +feet. He must take this Heaven-sent chance of telling her all, but how do it +without alarming her? + +A moment, and her step sounded in the stillness of the empty church. + +Obeying the first impulse, he passed through the outer door, and standing on +the step, knocked once, twice, three times; then, opening it a little and +speaking through the chink, he called, "Is Miss Nancy Wentworth here?" + +"I'm here!" in a moment came Nancy's answer; and then, with a little wondering +tremor in her voice, as if a hint of the truth had already dawned: "What's +wanted?" + +"You're wanted, Nancy, wanted badly, by Justin Peabody, come back from the +West." + +The door opened wide, and Justin faced Nancy standing halfway down the aisle, +her eyes brilliant, her lips parted. A week ago Justin's apparition +confronting her in the empty meeting-house after nightfall, even had she been +prepared for it as now, by his voice, would have terrified her beyond measure. +Now it seemed almost natural and inevitable. She had spent these last days in +the church where both of them had been young and happy together; the two +letters had brought him vividly to mind, and her labor in the old Peabody pew +had been one long excursion into the past in which he was the most prominent +and the best-loved figure. + +"I said I'd come back to you when my luck turned, Nancy." + +These were so precisely the words she expected him to say, should she ever see +him again face to face, that for an additional moment they but heightened her +sense of unreality. + +"Well, the luck hasn't turned, after all, but I could n't wait any longer. +Have you given a thought to me all these years, Nancy?" + +"More than one, Justin." For the very look upon his face, the tenderness of +his voice, the attitude of his body, outran his words and told her what he had +come home to say, told her that her years of waiting were over at last. + +"You ought to despise me for coming back again with only myself and my empty +hands to offer you." + +How easy it was to speak his heart out in this dim and quiet place! How +tongue-tied he would have been, sitting on the black hair-cloth sofa in the +Wentworth parlor and gazing at the open soapstone stove! + +"Oh, men are such fools!" cried Nancy, smiles and tears struggling together in +her speech, as she sat down suddenly in her own pew and put her hands over her +face. + +"They are," agreed Justin humbly; "but I've never stopped loving you, whenever +I've had time for thinking or loving. And I was n't sure that you really cared +anything about me; and how could I have asked you when I had n't a dollar in +the world?" + +"There are other things to give a woman besides dollars, Justin." + +"Are there? Well, you shall have them all, every one of them, Nancy, if you +can make up your mind to do without the dollars; for dollars seem to be just +what I can't manage." + +Her hand was in his by this time, and they were sitting side by side, in the +cushionless, carpetless Wentworth pew. The door stood open; the winter moon +shone in upon them. That it was beginning to grow cold in the church passed +unnoticed. The grasp of the woman's hand seemed to give the man new hope and +courage, and Justin's warm, confiding, pleading pressure brought balm to +Nancy, balm and healing for the wounds her pride had suffered; joy, too, +half-conscious still, that her life need not be lived to the end in unfruitful +solitude. She had waited, "as some gray lake lies, full and smooth, awaiting +the star below the twilight." + +Justin Peabody might have been no other woman's star, but he was Nancy's! +"Just you sitting beside me here makes me. feel as if I'd been asleep or dead +all these years, and just born over again," said Justin. "I've led a +respectable, hard-working, honest life, Nancy," he continued, "and I don't owe +any man a cent; the trouble is that no man owes me one. I've got enough money +to pay two fares back to Detroit on Monday, although I was terribly afraid you +would n't let me do it. It'll need a good deal of thinking and planning, +Nancy, for we shall be very poor." + +Nancy had been storing up fidelity and affection deep, deep in the hive of her +heart all these years, and now the honey of her helpfulness stood ready to be +gathered. + +"Could I keep hens in Detroit?" she asked. "I can always make them pay." + +"Hens--in three rooms, Nancy?" + +Her face fell. "And no yard?" + +"No yard." + +A moment's pause, and then the smile came. "Oh, well, I've had yards and hens +for thirty-five years. Doing without them will be a change. I can take in +sewing." + +"No, you can't, Nancy. I need your backbone and wits and pluck and ingenuity, +but if I can't ask you to sit with your hands folded for the rest of your +life, as I'd like to, you shan't use them for other people. You're marrying me +to make a man of me, but I'm not marrying you to make you a drudge." + +His voice rang clear and true in the silence, and Nancy's heart vibrated at +the sound. + +"O Justin, Justin! there's something wrong somewhere," she whispered, "but +we'll find it out together, you and I, and make it right. You're not like a +failure. You don't even look poor, Justin; there is n't a man in Edgewood to +compare with you, or I should be washing his dishes and darning his stockings +this minute. And I am not a pauper! There'll be the rent of my little house +and a carload of my furniture, so you can put the three-room idea out of your +mind, and your firm will offer you a larger salary when you tell them you have +a wife to take care of. Oh, I see it all, and it is as easy and bright and +happy as can be!" + +Justin put his arm around her and drew her close, with such a throb of +gratitude for her belief and trust that it moved him almost to tears. There +was a long pause; then he said:-- + +"Now I shall call for you tomorrow morning after the last bell has stopped +ringing, and we will walk up the aisle together and sit in the old Peabody +pew. We shall be a nine days' wonder anyway, but this will be equal to an +announcement, especially if you take my arm. We don't either of us like to be +stared at, but this will show without a word what we think of each other and +what we've promised to be to each other, and it's the only thing that will +make me feel sure of you and settled in my mind after all these mistaken +years. Have you got the courage, Nancy?" + +"I should n't wonder! I guess if I've had courage enough to wait for you, I've +got courage enough to walk up the aisle with you and marry you besides!" said +Nancy.--"Now it is too late for us to stay here any longer, and you must see +me only as far as my gate, for perhaps you have n't forgotten yet how +interested the Brewsters are in their neighbors." + +They stood at the little Wentworth gate for a moment, hand close clasped in +hand. The night was clear, the air was cold and sparkling, but with nothing of +bitterness in it, the sky was steely blue, and the evening star glowed and +burned like a tiny sun. Nancy remembered the shepherd's song she had taught +the Sunday-School children, and repeated softly: -- + + For I my sheep was watching + Beneath the silent skies, + When sudden, far to eastward, + I saw a star arise; + Then all the peaceful heavens + With sweetest music rang, + And glory, glory, glory! + The happy angels sang. + + So I this night am joyful, + Though I can scarce tell why, + It seemeth me that glory + Hath met us very nigh; + And we, though poor and humble, + Have part in heavenly plan, + For, born tonight, the Prince of Peace + Shall rule the heart of man. + + Justin's heart melted within him like wax to the woman's vision and the +woman's touch. + +"Oh, Nancy, Nancy!" he whispered. "If I had brought my bad luck to you long, +long ago, would you have taken me then, and have I lost years of such +happiness as this?" + +"There are some things it is not best for a man to be certain about," said +Nancy, with a wise smile and a last goodnight. + + + +VIII + + Ring out, sweet bells, + O'er woods and dells + Your lovely strains repeat, + While happy throngs + With joyous songs + Each accent gladly greet. + +Christmas morning in the old Tory Hill Meeting-House was felt by all of the +persons who were present in that particular year to be a most exciting and +memorable occasion. + +The old sexton quite outdid himself, for although he had rung the bell for +more than thirty years, he had never felt greater pride or joy in his task. +Was not his son John home for Christmas, and John's wife, and a grand-child +newly named Nathaniel for himself? Were there not spareribs and turkeys and +cranberries and mince pies on the pantry shelves, and barrels of rosy Baldwins +in the cellar and bottles of mother's root beer just waiting to give a holiday +pop? The bell itself forgot its age and the suspicion of a crack that dulled +its voice on a damp day, and, inspired by the bright, frosty air, the sexton's +inspiring pull, and the Christmas spirit, gave out nothing but joyous tones. + +_Ding-dong_! _Ding-dong_! It fired the ambitions of star scholars about to +recite hymns and sing solos. It thrilled little girls expecting dolls before +night. It excited beyond bearing dozens of little boys being buttoned into +refractory overcoats. _Ding-dong_! _Ding-dong_! Mothers' fingers trembled when +they heard it, and mothers' voices cried: "If that is the second bell, the +children will never be ready in time! Where are the overshoes? Where are the +mittens? Hurry, Jack! Hurry, Jennie!" _Ding-dong_! _Ding-dong_! Where's +Sally's muff? Where's father's fur cap? Is the sleigh at the door? Are the hot +soapstones in? Have all of you your money for the contribution box?" +_Ding-dong_! _Ding-dong_! It was a blithe bell, a sweet, true bell, a holy +bell, and to Justin pacing his tavern room, as to Nancy trembling in her +maiden chamber, it rang a Christmas message: -- + + Awake, glad heart! Arise and sing; + It is the birthday of thy King! + +The congregation filled every seat in the old meeting-house. As Maria Sharp +had prophesied, there was one ill-natured spinster from a rival village who +declared that the church floor looked like Joseph's coat laid out smooth; but +in the general chorus of admiration, approval, and goodwill, this envious +speech, though repeated from mouth to mouth, left no sting. + +Another item of interest long recalled was the fact that on that august and +unapproachable day the pulpit vases stood erect and empty, though Nancy +Wentworth had filled them every Sunday since any one could remember. This +instance, though felt at the time to be of mysterious significance if the +cause were ever revealed, paled into nothingness when, after the ringing of +the last bell, Nancy Wentworth walked up the aisle on Justin Peabody's arm, +and they took their seats side by side in the old family pew. + +("And consid'able close, too, though there was plenty o' room!") + +("And no one that I ever heard of so much as suspicioned that they had ever +kept company!") + +("And do you s'pose she knew Justin was expected back when she scrubbed his +pew a-Friday? ") + +("And this explains the empty pulpit vases! ") + +("And I always said that Nancy would make a real handsome couple if she ever +got anybody to couple with!") + +During the unexpected and solemn procession of the two up the aisle the +soprano of the village choir stopped short in the middle of the Doxology, and +the three other voices carried it to the end without any treble. Also, among +those present there were some who could not remember afterward the precise +petitions wafted upward in the opening prayer. + +And could it be explained otherwise than by cheerfully acknowledging the +bounty of an overruling Providence that Nancy Wentworth should have had a new +winter dress for the first time in five years--a winter dress of dark brown +cloth to match her beaver muff and victorine? The existence of this toilette +had been known and discussed in Edgewood for a month past, and it was thought +to be nothing more than a proper token of respect from a member of the carpet +committee to the general magnificence of the church on the occasion of its +reopening after repairs. Indeed, you could have identified every member of the +Dorcas Society that Sunday morning by the freshness of her apparel. The brown +dress, then, was generally expected; but why the white cashmere waist with +collar and cuffs of point lace, devised only and suitable only for the +minister's wedding, where it first saw the light? + +"The white waist can only be explained as showing distinct hope!" whispered +the minister's wife during the reading of the church notices. + +"To me it shows more than hope; I am very sure that Nancy would never take any +wear out of that lace for hope; it means certainty!" answered Maria, who was +always strong in the prophetic line. + +Justin's identity had dawned upon most of the congregation by sermon time. A +stranger to all but one or two at first, his presence in the Peabody pew +brought his face and figure back, little by little, to the minds of the old +parishioners. + +When the contribution plate was passed, the sexton always began at the +right-wing pews, as all the sextons before him had done for a hundred years. +Every eye in the church was already turned upon Justin and Nancy, and it was +with almost a gasp that those in the vicinity saw a ten-dollar bill fall in +the plate. The sexton reeled, or, if that is too intemperate a word for a +pillar of the church, the good man tottered, but caught hold of the pew rail +with one hand, and, putting the thumb of his other over the bill, proceeded +quickly to the next pew, lest the stranger should think better of his gift, or +demand change, as had occasionally been done in the olden time. + +Nancy never fluttered an eyelash, but sat quietly by Justin's side with her +bosom rising and falling under the beaver fur and her cold hands clasped tight +in the little brown muff. Far from grudging this appreciable part of their +slender resources, she thrilled with pride to see Justin's offering fall in +the plate. + +Justin was too absorbed in his own thoughts to notice anything, but his +munificent contribution had a most unexpected effect upon his reputation, +after all; for on that day, and on many another later one, when his sudden +marriage and departure with Nancy Wentworth were under discussion, the +neighbors said to one another:-- "Justin must be making money fast out West! +He put ten dollars in the contribution plate a-Sunday, and paid the minister +ten more next day for marryin' him to Nancy; so the Peabody luck has turned at +last!"--which as a matter of fact, it had. + +"And all the time," said the chairman of the carpet committee to the treasurer +of the Dorcas Society--"all the time, little as she realized it, Nancy was +laying the carpet in her own pew. Now she's married to Justin, she'll be the +makin' of him, or I miss my guess. You can't do a thing with men-folks without +they're right alongside where you can keep your eye and hand on 'em. Justin's +handsome and good and stiddy; all he needs is some nice woman to put starch +into him. The Edgewood Peabodys never had a mite o' stiffenin' in 'em,--limp +as dishrags, every blessed one! Nancy Wentworth fairly rustles with starch. +Justin had n't been engaged to her but a few hours when they walked up the +aisle together, but did you notice the way he carried his head? I declare I +thought 't would fall off behind! I should n't wonder a mite but they +prospered and come back every summer to set in the Old Peabody Pew." + + + + + +SUSANNA AND SUE + + +I + +Mother Ann's Children + + +It was the end of May, when "spring goeth all in white." The apple trees were +scattering their delicate petals on the ground, dropping them over the stone +walls to the roadsides, where in the moist places of the shadows they fell on +beds of snowy innocence. Here and there a single tree was tinged with pink, +but so faintly, it was as if the white were blushing. Now and then a tiny +white butterfly danced in the sun and pearly clouds strayed across the sky in +fleecy flocks. + +Everywhere the grass was of ethereal greenness, a greenness drenched with the +pale yellow of spring sunshine. Looking from earth to sky and from blossom to +blossom, the little world of the apple orchards, shedding its falling petals +like fair-weather snow, seemed made of alabaster and porcelain, ivory and +mother-of-pearl, all shimmering on a background of tender green. + +After you pass Albion village, with its streets shaded by elms and maples and +its outskirts embowered in blossoming orchards, you wind along a hilly country +road that runs between grassy fields. Here the whiteweed is already budding, +and there are pleasant pastures dotted with rocks and fringed with spruce and +fir; stretches of woodland, too, where the road is lined with giant pines and +you lift your face gratefully to catch the cool balsam breath of the forest. +Coming from out this splendid shade, this silence too deep to be disturbed by +light breezes or vagrant winds, you find yourself on the brow of a descending +hill. The first thing that strikes the eye is a lake that might be a great +blue sapphire dropped into the verdant hollow where it lies. When the eye +reluctantly leaves the lake on the left, it turns to rest upon the little +Shaker Settlement on the right--a dozen or so large comfortable white barns, +sheds, and houses, standing in the wide orderly spaces of their own spreading +acres of farm and timber land. There again the spring goeth all in white, for +there is no spot to fleck the dazzling quality of Shaker paint, and their +apple, plum, and pear trees are so well cared for that the snowy blossoms are +fairly hiding the branches. + +The place is very still, although there are signs of labor in all directions. +From a window of the girls' building a quaint little gray-clad figure is +beating a braided rug; a boy in homespun, with his hair slightly long in the +back and cut in a straight line across the forehead, is carrying milk-cans +from the dairy to one of the Sisters' Houses. Men in broad-brimmed hats, with +clean-shaven, ascetic faces, are ploughing or harrowing here and there in the +fields, while a group of Sisters is busy setting out plants and vines in some +beds near a cluster of noble trees. That cluster of trees, did the eye of the +stranger realize it, was the very starting-point of this Shaker Community, for +in the year 1785, the valiant Father James Whittaker, one of Mother Ann Lee's +earliest English converts, stopped near the village of Albion on his first +visit to Maine. As he and his Elders alighted from their horses, they stuck +into the ground the willow withes they had used as whips, and now, a hundred +years later, the trees that had grown from these slender branches were nearly +three feet in diameter. + +From whatever angle you look upon the Settlement, the first and strongest +impression is of quiet order, harmony, and a kind of austere plenty. Nowhere +is the purity of the spring so apparent. Nothing is out of place; nowhere is +any confusion, or appearance of loose ends, or neglected tasks. As you come +nearer, you feel the more surely that here there has never been undue haste +nor waste; no shirking, no putting off till the morrow what should have been +done today. Whenever a shingle or a clapboard was needed it was put on, where +paint was required it was used,--that is evident; and a look at the great +barns stored with hay shows how the fields have been conscientiously educated +into giving a full crop. + +To such a spot as this might any tired or sinful heart come for rest; hoping +somehow, in the midst of such frugality and thrift, such self-denying labor, +such temperate use of God's good gifts, such shining cleanliness of outward +things, to regain and wear "the white flower of a blameless life." The very +air of the place breathed peace, so thought Susanna Hathaway; and little Sue, +who skipped by her side, thought nothing at all save that she was with mother +in the country; that it had been rather a sad journey, with mother so quiet +and pale, and that she would be very glad to see supper, should it rise like a +fairy banquet in the midst of these strange surroundings. + +It was only a mile and a half from the railway station to the Shaker +Settlement, and Susanna knew the road well, for she had driven over it more +than once as child and girl. A boy would bring the little trunk that contained +their simple necessities later on in the evening, so she and Sue would knock +at the door of the house where visitors were admitted, and be undisturbed by +any gossiping company while they were pleading their case. + +"Are we most there, Mardie?" asked Sue for the twentieth time. "Look at me! +I'm being a butterfly, or perhaps a white pigeon. No, I'd rather be a +butterfly, and then I can skim along faster and move my wings!" + +The airy little figure, all lightness and brightness, danced along the road, +the white cotton dress rising and falling, the white-stockinged legs much in +evidence, the arms outstretched as if in flight, straw hat falling off yellow +hair, and a little wisp of swansdown scarf floating out behind like the +drapery of a baby Mercury. + +"We are almost there," her mother answered. "You can see the buildings now, if +you will stop being a butterfly. Don't you like them?" + +"Yes, I 'specially like them all so white. Is it a town, Mardie?" + +"It is a village, but not quite like other villages. I have told you often +about the Shaker Settlement, where your grandmother brought me once when I was +just your age. There was a thunder-storm; they kept us all night, and were so +kind that I never forgot them. Then your grandmother and I stopped off once +when we were going to Boston. I was ten then, and I remember more about it. +The same sweet Eldress was there both times." + +"What is an El-der-ess, Mardie?" + +"A kind of everybody's mother, she seemed to be," Susanna responded, with a +catch in her breath. + +"I'd 'specially like her; will she be there now, Mardie?" + +"I'm hoping so, but it is eighteen years ago. I was ten and she was about +forty, I should think." + +"Then o' course she'll be dead," said Sue, cheerfully, "or either she'll have +no teeth or hair." + +"People don't always die before they are sixty, Sue." + +"Do they die when they want to, or when they must?" + +"Always when they must; never, never when they want to," answered Sue's +mother. + +"But o' course they would n't ever want to if they had any little girls to be +togedder with, like you and me, Mardie?" And Sue looked up with eyes that were +always like two interrogation points, eager by turns and by turns wistful, but +never satisfied. + +"No," Susanna replied brokenly, "of course they would n't, unless sometimes +they were wicked for a minute or two and forgot." + +"Do the Shakers shake all the time, Mardie, or just once in a while? And shall +I see them do it?" + +"Sue, dear, I can't explain everything in the world to you while you are so +little; you really must wait until you're more grown up. The Shakers don't +shake and the Quakers don't quake, and when you're older, I'll try to make you +understand why they were called so and why they kept the name." + +"Maybe the El-der-ess can make me understand right off now; I'd 'specially +like it." And Sue ran breathlessly along to the gate where the North Family +House stood in its stately, white-and-green austerity. + +Susanna followed, and as she caught up with the impetuous Sue, the front door +of the house opened and a figure appeared on the threshold. Mother and child +quickened their pace and went up the steps, Susanna with a hopeless burden of +fear and embarrassment clogging her tongue and dragging at her feet; Sue so +expectant of new disclosures and fresh experiences that her face beamed like a +full moon. + +Eldress Abby (for it was Eldress Abby) had indeed survived the heavy weight of +her fifty-five or sixty summers, and looked as if she might reach a yet +greater age. She wore the simple Shaker afternoon dress of drab alpaca; an +irreproachable muslin surplice encircled her straight, spare shoulders, while +her hair was almost entirely concealed by the stiffly wired, transparent +white-net cap that served as a frame to the tranquil face. The face itself was +a network of delicate, fine wrinkles; but every wrinkle must have been as +lovely in God's sight as it was in poor unhappy Susanna Hathaway's. Some of +them were graven by self-denial and hard work; others perhaps meant the giving +up of home, of parents and brothers or sisters; perhaps some worldly love, the +love that Father Adam bequeathed to the human family, had been slain in Abby's +youth, and the scars still remained to show the body's suffering and the +spirit's triumph. At all events, whatever foes had menaced her purity or her +tranquillity had been conquered, and she exhaled serenity as the rose sheds +fragrance. + +"Do you remember the little Nelson girl and her mother that stayed here all +night, years ago?" asked Susanna, putting out her hand timidly. + +"Why, seems to me I do," assented Eldress Abby, genially. "So many comes and +goes it's hard to remember all. Did n't you come once in a thunder-storm?" + +"Yes, one of your barns was struck by lightning and we sat up all night." +"Yee, yee.(1) I remember well! Your mother was a beautiful spirit. I could n't +forget her." + +(1)"Yea" is always thus pronounced by the Shakers. + +"And we came once again, mother and I, and spent the afternoon with you, and +went strawberrying in the pasture." + +"Yee, yee, so we did; I hope your mother continues in health." + +"She died the very next year," Susanna answered in a trembling voice, for the +time of explanation was near at hand and her heart failed her. + +"Won't you come into the sittingroom and rest a while? You must be tired +walking from the deepot." + +"No, thank you, not just yet. I'll step into the front entry a minute.--Sue, +run and sit in that rocking-chair on the porch and watch the cows going into +the big barn.--Do you remember, Eldress Abby, the second time I came, how you +sat me down in the kitchen with a bowl of wild strawberries to hull for +supper? They were very small and ripe; I did my best, for I never meant to be +careless, but the bowl slipped and fell, my legs were too short to reach the +floor, and I could n't make a lap, so in trying to pick up the berries I +spilled juice on nay dress, and on the white apron you had tied on for me. +Then my fingers were stained and wet and the hulls kept falling in with the +soft berries, and when you came in and saw me you held up your hands and said, +'Dear, dear! you _have_ made a mess of your work!' Oh, Eldress Abby, they've +come back to me all day, those words. I've tried hard to be good, but somehow +I've made just such a mess of my life as I made of hulling the berries. The +bowl is broken, I have n't much fruit to show, and I am all stained and +draggled. I should n't have come to Albion on the five o'clock train--that was +an accident; I meant to come at noon, when you could turn me away if you +wanted to." + +"Nay, that is not the Shaker habit," remonstrated Abby. "You and the child can +sleep in one of the spare chambers at the Office Building and be welcome." + +"But I want much more than that," said Susanna, tearfully. "I want to come and +live here, where there is no marrying nor giving in marriage. I am so tired +with my disappointments and discouragements and failures that it is no use to +try any longer. I am Mrs. Hathaway, and Sue is my child, but I have left my +husband for good and all, and I only want to spend the rest of my days here in +peace and bring up Sue to a more tranquil life than I have ever had. I have a +little money, so that I shall not be a burden to you, and I will work from +morning to night at any task you set me." + +"I will talk to the Family," said Eldress Abby gravely; "but there are a good +many things to settle before we can say yee to all you ask." + +"Let me confess everything freely and fully," pleaded Susanna, "and if you +think I'm to blame, I will go away at once." + +"Nay, this is no time for that. It is our duty to receive all and try all; +then if you should be gathered in, you would unburden your heart to God +through the Sister appointed to receive your confession." + +"Will Sue have to sleep in the children's building away from me?" + +"Nay, not now; you are company, not a Shaker, and anyway you could keep the +child with you till she is a little older; that's not forbidden at first, +though there comes a time when the ties of the flesh must be broken! All +you've got to do now's to be 'pure and peaceable, gentle, easy to be +entreated, and without hypocrisy.' That's about all there is to the Shaker +creed, and that's enough to keep us all busy." + +Sue ran in from the porch excitedly and caught her mother's hand. + +"The cows have all gone into the barn," she chattered; "and the Shaker +gentlemen are milking them, and not one of them is shaking the least bit, for +I 'specially noticed; and I looked in through the porch window, and there is +nice supper on a table--bread and butter and milk and dried apple sauce and +gingerbread and cottage cheese. Is it for us, Mardie?" + +Susanna's lip was trembling and her face was pale. She lifted her swimming +eyes to the Sister's and asked, "Is it for us, Eldress Abby?" + +"Yee, it's for you," she answered; "there's always a Shaker supper on the +table for all who want to leave the husks and share the feast. Come right in +and help yourselves. I will sit down with you." + + +Supper was over, and Susanna and Sue were lying in a little upper chamber +under the stars. It was the very one that Susanna had slept in as a child, or +that she had been put to bed in, for there was little sleep that night for any +one. She had leaned on the windowsill with her mother and watched the pillar +of flame and smoke ascend from the burning barn; and once in the early morning +she had stolen out of bed, and, kneeling by the open window, had watched the +two silent Shaker brothers who were guarding the smouldering ruins, fearful +lest the wind should rise and bear any spark to the roofs of the precious +buildings they had labored so hard to save. + +The chamber was spotless and devoid of ornament. The paint was robin's egg +blue and of a satin gloss. The shining floor was of the same color, and neat +braided rugs covered exposed places near the bureau, washstand, and bed. +Various useful articles of Shaker manufacture interested Sue greatly: the +exquisite straw-work that covered the whisk-broom; the mending-basket, +pincushion, needle-book, spool- and watch-cases, hair-receivers, pin-trays, +might all have been put together by fairy fingers. + +Sue's prayers had been fervent, but a trifle disjointed, covering all subjects +from Jack and Fardie, to Grandma in heaven and Aunt Louisa at the farm, with +special references to El-der-ess Abby and the Shaker cows, and petitions that +the next day be fair so that she could see them milked. Excitement at her +strange, unaccustomed surroundings had put the child's mind in a very whirl, +and she had astonished her mother with a very new and disturbing version of +the Lord's Prayer, ending: "God give us our debts and help us to forget our +debtors and theirs shall be the glory, Amen." Now she lay quietly on the wall +side of the clean, narrow bed, while her mother listened to hear the regular +breathing that would mean that she was off for the land of dreams. The child's +sleep would leave the mother free to slip out of bed and look at the stars; +free to pray and long and wonder and suffer and repent, not wholly, but in +part, for she was really at peace in all but the innermost citadel of her +conscience. She had left her husband, and for the moment, at all events, she +was fiercely glad; but she had left her boy, and Jack was only ten. Jack was +not the helpless, clinging sort; he was a little piece of his father, and his +favorite. Aunt Louisa would surely take him, and Jack would scarcely feel the +difference, for he had never shown any special affection for anybody. Still he +was her child, nobody could possibly get around that fact, and it was a +stumbling-block in the way of forgetfulness or ease of mind. Oh, but for that, +what unspeakable content she could feel in this quiet haven, this self- +respecting solitude! To have her thoughts, her emotions, her words, her self, +to herself once more, as she had had them before she was married at seventeen. +To go to sleep in peace, without listening for a step she had once heard with +gladness, but that now sometimes stumbled unsteadily on the stair; or to dream +as happy women dreamed, without being roused by the voice of the present John, +a voice so different from that of the past John that it made the heart ache to +listen to it. + +Sue's voice broke the stillness: "How long are we going to stay here, Mardie?" + +"I don't know, Sue; I think perhaps as long as they'll let us." + +"Will Fardie come and see us?" + +"I don't expect him." + +"Who'll take care of Jack, Mardie?" + +"Your Aunt Louisa." + +"She'll scold him awfully, but he never cries; he just says, 'Pooh! what do I +care?' Oh, I forgot to pray for that very nicest Shaker gentleman that said +he'd let me help him feed the calves! Had n't I better get out of bed and do +it? I'd 'specially like to." + +"Very well, Sue; and then go to sleep." + +Safely in bed again, there was a long pause, and then the eager little voice +began, "Who'll take care of Fardie now?" + +"He's a big man; he does n't need anybody." + +"What if he's sick?" + +"We must go back to him, I suppose." + +" Tomorrow 's Sunday; what if he needs us tomorrow, Mardie?" + +"I don't know, I don't know! Oh, Sue, Sue, don't ask your wretched mother any +more questions, for she cannot bear them tonight. Cuddle up close to her; love +her and forgive her and help her to know what's right." + + + + +II + +A Son of Adam + +When Susanna Nelson at seventeen married John Hathaway, she had the usual +cogent reasons for so doing, with some rather more unusual ones added thereto. +She was alone in the world, and her life with an uncle, her mother's only +relative, was an unhappy one. No assistance in the household tasks that she +had ever been able to render made her a welcome member of the family or kept +her from feeling a burden, and she belonged no more to the little circle at +seventeen than she did when she became a part of it at twelve. The hope of +being independent and earning her own living had sustained her through the +last year; but it was a very timid, self-distrustful, love-starved little +heart that John Hathaway stormed and carried by assault. Her girl's life in a +country school and her uncle's very rigid and orthodox home had been devoid of +emotion or experience; still, her mother had early sown seeds in her mind and +spirit that even in the most arid soil were certain to flower into beauty when +the time for flowering came; and intellectually Susanna was the clever +daughter of clever parents. She was very immature, because, after early +childhood, her environment had not been favorable to her development. At +seventeen she began to dream of a future as bright as the past had been dreary +and uneventful. Visions of happiness, of goodness, and of service haunted her, +and sometimes, gleaming through the mists of dawning womanhood, the figure, +all luminous, of The Man! + +When John Hathaway appeared on the horizon, she promptly clothed him in all +the beautiful garments of her dreams; they were a grotesque misfit, but when +we intimate that women have confused the dream and the reality before, and may +even do so again, we make the only possible excuse for poor little Susanna +Nelson. + +John Hathaway was the very image of the outer world that lay beyond Susanna's +village. He was a fairly prosperous, genial, handsome young merchant, who +looked upon life as a place furnished by Providence in which to have "a good +time." His parents had frequently told him that it was expedient for him to +"settle down," and he supposed that he might finally do so, if he should ever +find a girl who would tempt him to relinquish his liberty. (The line that +divides liberty and license was a little vague to John Hathaway!) It is +curious that he should not have chosen for his life-partner some thoughtless, +rosy, romping young person, whose highest conception of connubial happiness +would have been to drive twenty miles to the seashore on a Sunday, and having +partaken of all the season's delicacies, solid and liquid, to come home +hilarious by moonlight. That, however, is not the way the little love-imps do +their work in the world; or is it possible that they are not imps at all who +provoke and stimulate and arrange these strange marriages not imps, but +honest, chastening little character-builders? In any event, the moment that +John Hathaway first beheld Susanna Nelson was the moment of his surrender; yet +the wooing was as incomprehensible as that of a fragile, dainty little +hummingbird by a pompous, greedy, big-breasted robin. + +Susanna was like a New England anemone. Her face was oval in shape and as +smooth and pale as a pearl. Her hair was dark, not very heavy, and as soft as +a child's. Her lips were delicate and sensitive, her eyes a cool gray,--clear, +steady, and shaded by darker lashes. When John Hathaway met her shy, maidenly +glance and heard her pretty, dovelike voice, it is strange he did not see that +there was a bit too much saint in her to make her a willing comrade of his +gay, roistering life. But as a matter of fact, John Hathaway saw nothing at +all; nothing but that Susanna Nelson was a lovely girl and he wanted her for +his own. The type was one he had never met before, one that allured him by its +mysteries and piqued him by its shy aloofness. + +John had "a way with him," a way that speedily won Susanna; and after all +there was a best to him as well as a worst. He had a twinkling eye, an +infectious laugh, a sweet disposition, and while he was over-susceptible to +the charm of a pretty face, he had a chivalrous admiration for all women, +coupled, it must be confessed, with a decided lack of discrimination in +values. His boyish lightheartedness had a charm for everybody, including +Susanna; a charm that lasted until she discovered that his heart was light not +only when it ought to be light, but when it ought to be heavy. He was very +much in love with her, but there was nothing particularly exclusive, unique, +individual, or interesting about his passion at that time. It was of the +everyday sort which carries a well-meaning man to the altar, and sometimes, in +cases of exceptional fervor and duration, even a little farther. Stock sizes +of this article are common and inexpensive, and John Hathaway's love when he +married Susanna was, judged by the highest standards, about as trivial an +affair as Cupid ever put upon the market or a man ever offered to a woman. +Susanna on the same day offered John, or the wooden idol she was worshiping as +John, her whole self--mind, body, heart, and spirit. So the couple were +united, and smilingly signed the marriage-register, a rite by which their love +for each other was supposed to be made eternal. + "Will you love me?" said he. + "Will you love me?" said she. + Then they answered together: + "Through foul and fair weather, + From sunrise to moonrise, + From moonrise to sunrise, + By heath and by harbour, + In orchard or arbour, + In the time of the rose, + In the time of the snows, + Through smoke and through smother + We'll love one another!" + + Cinderella, when the lover-prince discovers her and fits the crystal slipper +to her foot, makes short work of flinging away her rags; and in some such +pretty, airy, unthinking way did Susanna fling aside the dullness, +inhospitality, and ugliness of her uncle's home and depart in a cloud of glory +on her wedding journey. She had been lonely, now she would have companionship. +She had been of no consequence, now she would be queen of her own small +domain. She had been last with everybody, now she would be first with one, at +least. She had worked hard and received neither compensation nor gratitude; +henceforward her service would be gladly rendered at an altar where votive +offerings would not be taken as a matter of course. She was only a slip of a +girl now; marriage and housewifely cares would make her a woman. Some time +perhaps the last great experience of life would come to her, and then what a +crown of joys would be hers,--love, husband, home, children! What a vision it +was, and how soon the chief glory of it faded! + +Never were two beings more hopelessly unlike than John Hathaway single and +John Hathaway married, but the bliss lasted a few years, nevertheless: partly +because Susanna's charm was deep and penetrating, the sort to hold a false man +for a time and a true man forever; partly because she tried, as a girl or +woman has seldom tried before, to do her duty and to keep her own ideal +unshattered. + +John had always been convivial, but Susanna at seventeen had been at once too +innocent and too ignorant to judge a man's tendencies truly, or to rate his +character at its real worth. As time went on, his earlier leanings grew more +definite; he spent on pleasure far more than he could afford, and his conduct +became a byword in the neighborhood. His boy he loved. He felt on a level with +Jack, could understand him, play with him, punish him, and make friends with +him; but little Sue was different. She always seemed to him the concentrated +essence of her mother's soul, and when unhappy days came, he never looked in +her radiant, searching eyes without a consciousness of inferiority. The little +creature had loved her jolly, handsome, careless father at first, even though +she feared him; but of late she had grown shy, silent, and timid, for his +indifference chilled her and she flung herself upon her mother's love with an +almost unchildlike intensity. This unhappy relation between the child and the +father gave Susanna's heart new pangs. She still loved her husband, not +dearly, but a good deal; and over and above that remnant of the old love which +still endured she gave him unstinted care and hopeful maternal tenderness. + +The crash came in course of time. John transcended the bounds of his wife's +patience more and more. She made her last protests; then she took one +passionate day to make up her mind, a day when John and the boy were away +together; a day of complete revolt against everything she was facing in the +present, and, so far as she could see, everything that she had to face in the +future. Prayer for light left her in darkness, and she had no human creature +to advise her. Conscience was overthrown; she could see no duty save to her +own outraged personality. Often and often during the year just past she had +thought of the peace, the grateful solitude and shelter of that Shaker +Settlement hidden among New England orchards; that quiet haven where there was +neither marrying nor giving in marriage. Now her bruised heart longed for such +a life of nunlike simplicity and consecration, where men and women met only as +brothers and sisters, where they worked side by side with no thought of +personal passion or personal gain, but only for the common good of the +community. + +Albion village was less than three hours distant by train. She hastily +gathered her plainest clothes and Sue's, packed them in a small trunk, took +her mother's watch, her own little store of money and the twenty-dollar gold +piece John's senior partner had given Sue on her last birthday, wrote a letter +of goodbye to John, and went out of her cottage gate in a storm of feeling so +tumultuous that there was no room for reflection. Besides, she had reflected, +and reflected, for months and months, so she would have said, and the time had +come for action. Susanna was not unlettered, but she certainly had never read +Meredith or she would have learned that "love is an affair of two, and only +for two that can be as quick, as constant in intercommunication as are sun and +earth, through the cloud, or face to face. They take their breath of life from +each other in signs of affection, proofs of faithfulness, incentives to +admiration. But a solitary soul dragging a log must make the log a God to +rejoice in the burden." The demigod that poor, blind Susanna married had +vanished, and she could drag the log no longer, but she made one mistake in +judging her husband, in that she regarded him, at thirty-two, as a finished +product, a man who was finally this and that, and behaved thus and so, and +would never be any different. + +The "age of discretion" is a movable feast of extraordinary uncertainty, and +John Hathaway was a little behindhand in overtaking it. As a matter of fact, +he had never for an instant looked life squarely in the face. He took a casual +glance at it now and then, after he was married, but it presented no very +distinguishable features, nothing to make him stop and think, nothing to +arouse in him any special sense of responsibility. Boys have a way of "growing +up," however, sooner or later, at least most of them have, and that +possibility was not sufficiently in the foreground of Susanna's mind when she +finished what she considered an exhaustive study of her husband's character. + +I am leaving you, John [she wrote], to see if I can keep the little love I +have left for you as the father of my children. I seem to have lost all the +rest of it living with you. I am not perfectly sure that I am right in going, +for everybody seems to think that women, mothers especially, should bear +anything rather than desert the home. I could not take Jack away, for you love +him and he will be a comfort to you. A comfort to you, yes, but what will you +be to him now that he is growing older? That is the thought that troubles me, +yet I dare not take him with me when he is half yours. You will not miss me, +nor will the loss of Sue make any difference. Oh, John! how can you help +loving that blessed little creature, so much better and so much more gifted +than either of us that we can only wonder how we came to be her father and +mother? Your sin against her is greater than that against me, for at least you +are not responsible for bringing me into the world. I know Louisa will take +care of Jack, and she lives so near that you can see him as often as you wish. +I shall let her know my address, which I have asked her to keep to herself. +She will write to me if you or Jack should be seriously ill, but not for any +other reason. + +As for you, there is nothing more that I can say except to confess freely that +I was not the right wife for you and that mine was not the only mistake. I +have tried my very best to meet you in everything that was not absolutely +wrong, and I have used all the arguments I could think of, but it only made +matters worse. I thought I knew you, John, in the old days. How comes it that +we have traveled so far apart, we who began together? It seems to me that some +time you must come to your senses and take up your life seriously, for this is +not life, the sorry thing you have lived lately, but I cannot wait any longer! +I am tired, tired, tired of waiting and hoping, too tired to do anything but +drag myself away from the sight of your folly. You have wasted our children's +substance, indulged your appetites until you have lost the respect of your +best friends, and you have made me--who was your choice, your wife, the head +of your house, the woman who brought your children into the world--you have +made me an object of pity; a poor, neglected thing who could not meet her +neighbors' eyes without blushing. + +When Jack and his father returned from their outing at eight o'clock in the +evening, having had supper at a wayside hotel, the boy went to bed +philosophically, lighting his lamp for himself, the conclusion being that the +two other members of the household were a little late, but would be in +presently. + +The next morning was bright and fair. Jack waked at cockcrow, and after +calling to his mother and Sue, jumped out of bed, ran into their rooms to find +them empty, then bounced down the stairs two at a time, going through the +sitting-room on his way to find Ellen in the kitchen. His father was sitting +at the table with the still-lighted student lamp on it; the table where +lessons had been learned, books read, stories told, mending done, checkers and +dominoes played; the big, round walnut table that was the focus of the family +life--but mother's table, not father's. + +John Hathaway had never left his chair nor taken off his hat. His cane leaned +against his knee, his gloves were in his left hand, while the right held +Susanna's letter. + +He was asleep, although his lips twitched and he stirred uneasily. His face +was haggard, and behind his closed lids, somewhere in the center of thought +and memory, a train of fiery words burned in an ever-widening circle, round +and round and round, ploughing, searing their way through some obscure part of +him that had heretofore been without feeling, but was now all quick and alive +with sensation. + +You have made me--who was your choice, your wife, the head of your house, the +woman who brought your children into the world--you have made me an object of +pity; a poor, neglected thing who could not meet her neighbors' eyes without +blushing. + +Any one who wished to pierce John Hathaway's armor at that period of his life +would have had to use a very sharp and pointed arrow, for he was well wadded +with the belief that a man has a right to do what he likes. Susanna's shaft +was tipped with truth and dipped in the blood of her outraged heart. The +stored-up force of silent years went into the speeding of it. She had never +shot an arrow before, and her skill was instinctive rather than scientific, +but the powers were on her side and she aimed better than she knew--those who +took note of John Hathaway's behavior that summer would have testified +willingly to that. It was the summer in which his boyish irresponsibility +slipped away from him once and for all; a summer in which the face of life +ceased to be an indistinguishable mass of meaningless events and disclosed an +order, a reason, a purpose hitherto unseen and undefined. The boy "grew up," +rather tardily it must be confessed. His soul had not added a cubit to its +stature in sunshine, gayety, and prosperity; it took the shock of grief, hurt +pride, solitude, and remorse to make a man of John Hathaway. + + + + +III + +Divers Doctrines + + +It was a radiant July morning in Albion village, and when Sue first beheld it +from the bedroom window at the Shaker Settlement, she had wished ardently that +it might never, never grow dark, and that Jack and Fardie might be having the +very same sunshine in Farnham. It was not noon yet, but experience had in some +way tempered the completeness of her joy, for the marks of tears were on her +pretty little face. She had neither been scolded nor punished, but she had +been dragged away from a delicious play without any adequate reason. She had +disappeared after breakfast, while Susanna was helping Sister Tabitha with the +beds and the dishes, but as she was the most docile of children, her mother +never thought of anxiety. At nine o'clock Eldress Abby took Susanna to the +laundry house, and there under a spreading maple were Sue and the two youngest +little Shakeresses, children of seven and eight respectively. Sue was +directing the plays: chattering, planning, ordering, and suggesting expedients +to her slower-minded and less experienced companions. They had dragged a large +box from one of the sheds and set it up under the tree. The interior had been +quickly converted into a commodious residence, one not in the least of a +Shaker type. Small bluing-boxes served for bedstead and dining-table, bits of +broken china for the dishes, while tiny flat stones were the seats, and four +clothes-pins, tastefully clad in handkerchiefs, surrounded the table. + +"Do they kneel in prayer before they eat, as all Believers do?" asked Shaker +Mary. + +"I don't believe Adam and Eve was Believers, 'cause who would have taught them +to be?" replied Sue; "still we might let them pray, anyway, though clothespins +don't kneel nicely." + +"I've got another one all dressed," said little Shaker Jane. + +"We can't have any more; Adam and Eve did n't have only two children in my +Sunday-School lesson, Cain and Abel," objected Sue. + +"Can't this one be a company?" pleaded Mary, anxious not to waste the +clothespin. + +"But where could comp'ny come from?" queried Sue. "There was n't any more +people anywheres but just Adam and Eve and Cain and Abel. Put the clothespin +in your apron-pocket, Jane, and bimeby we'll let Eve have a little new baby, +and I'll get Mardie to name it right out of the Bible. Now let's begin. Adam +is awfully tired this morning; he says, 'Eve, I've been workin' all night and +I can't eat my breakfuss.' Now, Mary, you be Cain, he's a little boy, and you +must say, 'Fardie, play a little with me, please!' and Fardie will say, +'Child'en should n't talk at the--'" + +What subjects of conversation would have been aired at the Adamic family board +before breakfast was finished will never be known, for Eldress Abby, with a +firm but not unkind grasp, took Shaker Jane and Mary by their little hands and +said, "Morning's not the time for play; run over to Sister Martha and help her +shell the peas; then there'll be your seams to oversew." + +Sue watched the disappearing children and saw the fabric of her dream fade +into thin air; but she was a person of considerable individuality for her +years. Her lip quivered, tears rushed to her eyes and flowed silently down her +cheeks, but without a glance at Eldress Abby or a word of comment she walked +slowly away from the laundry, her chin high. + +"Sue meant all right, she was only playing the plays of the world," said +Eldress Abby, "but you can well understand, Susanna, that we can't let our +Shaker children play that way and get wrong ideas into their heads at the +beginning. We don't condenm an honest, orderly marriage as a worldly +institution, but we claim it has no place in Christ's kingdom; therefore we +leave it to the world, where it belongs. The world's people live on the lower +plane of Adam; the Shakers try to live on the Christ plane, in virgin purity, +longsuffering, meekness, and patience." + +"I see, I know," Susanna answered slowly, with a little glance at injured Sue +walking toward the house, "but we need n't leave the children unhappy this +morning, for I can think of a play that will comfort them and please you. Come +back, Sue! Wait a minute, Mary and Jane, before you go to Sister Martha! We +will play the story that Sister Tabitha told us last week. Do you remember +about Mother Ann Lee in the English prison? The soapbox will be her cell, for +it was so small she could not lie down in it. Take some of the shingles, Jane, +and close up the open side of the box. Do you see the large brown spot in one +of them, Mary? Push that very hard with a clothespin and there 'll be a hole +through the shingle; that's right! Now, Sister Tabitha said that Mother Ann +was kept for days without food, for people thought she was a wicked, dangerous +woman, and they would have been willing to let her die of starvation. But +there was a great keyhole in the door, and James Whittaker, a boy of nineteen, +who loved Mother Ann and believed in her, put the stem of a clay pipe in the +hole and poured a mixture of wine and milk through it. He managed to do this +day after day, so that when the jailer opened the cell door, expecting to find +Mother Ann dying for lack of food, she walked out looking almost as strong and +well as when she entered. You can play it all out, and afterwards you can make +the ship that brought Mother Ann and the other Shakers from Liverpool to New +York. The clothes-pins can be who will they be, Jane?" + +"William Lee, Nancy Lee, James Whittaker, and I forget the others," recited +Jane, like an obedient parrot. + +"And it will be splendid to have James Whittaker, for he really came to +Albion," said Mary. + +"Perhaps he stood on this very spot more than once," mused Abby. "It was +Mother Ann's vision that brought them to this land, a vision of a large tree +with outstretching branches, every leaf of which shone with the brightness of +a burning torch! Oh! if the vision would only come true! If Believers would +only come to us as many as the leaves on the tree," she sighed, as she and +Susanna moved away from the group of chattering children, all as eager to play +the history of Shakerism as they had been to dramatize the family life of Adam +and Eve. + +"There must be so many men and women without ties, living useless lives, with +no aim or object in them," Susanna said, "I wonder that more of them do not +find their way here. The peace and goodness and helpfulness of the life sink +straight into my heart. The Brothers and Sisters are so friendly and cheery +with one another; there is neither gossip nor hard words; there is pleasant +work, and your thoughts seem to be all so concentrated upon right living that +it is like heaven below, only I feel that the cross is there, bravely as you +all bear it." + + "There are roses on my cross most beautiful to see, + As I turn from all the dross from which it sets me free," + +quoted Eldress Abby, devoutly. + +"It is easy enough for me," continued Susanna, "for it was no cross for me to +give up my husband at the time; but oh, if a woman had a considerate, loving +man to live with, one who would strengthen her and help her to be good, one +who would protect and cherish her, one who would be an example to his children +and bring them up in the fear of the Lord--that would be heaven below, too; +and how could she bear to give it all up when it seems so good, so true, so +right? Might n't two people walk together to God if both chose the same path?" + +"It's my belief that one can find the road better alone than when somebody +else is going alongside to distract them. Not that the Lord is going to turn +anybody away, not even when they bring Him a lot of burned-out trash for a +gift," said Eldress Abby, bluntly. "But don't you believe He sees the +difference between a person that comes to Him when there is nowhere else to +turn--a person that's tried all and found it wanting--and one that gives up +freely pleasure, and gain, and husband, and home, to follow the Christ life?" + +"Yes, He must, He must," Susanna answered faintly. "But the children, Eldress +Abby! If you had n't any, you could perhaps keep yourself from wanting them; +but if you had, how could you give them up? Jesus was the great Saviour of +mankind, but next to Him it seems as if the children had been the little +saviours, from the time the first one was born until this very day!" + +"Yee, I've no doubt they keep the worst of the world's people, those that are +living in carnal marriage without a thought of godliness, I've no doubt +children keep that sort from going to the lowest perdition," allowed Eldress +Abby;" and those we bring up in the Community make the best converts; but to a +Shaker, the greater the sacrifice, the greater the glory. I wish you was +gathered in, Susanna, for your hands and feet are quick to serve, your face is +turned toward the truth, and your heart is all ready to receive the +revelation." + +"I wish I need n't turn my back on one set of duties to take up another," +murmured Susanna, timidly. + +"Yee; no doubt you do. Your business is to find out which are the higher +duties, and then do those. Just make up your mind whether you'd rather +replenish earth, as you've been doing, or replenish heaven, as we're trying to +do. But I must go to my work; ten o'clock in the morning's a poor time to be +discussing doctrine! You're for weeding, Susanna, I suppose?" + +Brother Ansel was seated at a grindstone under the apple trees, teaching +(intermittently) a couple of boys to grind a scythe, when Susanna came to her +work in the herb-garden, Sue walking discreetly at her heels. + +Ansel was a slow-moving, humorously-inclined, easygoing Brother, who was +drifting into the kingdom of heaven without any special effort on his part. + +"I'd 'bout as lives be a Shaker as anything else," had been his rather dubious +statement of faith when he requested admittance into the band of Believers. +"No more crosses, accordin' to my notion, an' consid'able more chance o' +crowns!" + +His experience of life "on the Adamic plane," the holy estate of matrimony, +being the chief sin of this way of thought, had disposed him to regard woman +as an apparently necessary, but not especially desirable, being. The theory of +holding property in common had no terrors for him. He was generous, +unambitious, frugal-minded, somewhat lacking in energy, and just as actively +interested in his brother's welfare as in his own, which is perhaps not saying +much. Shakerism was to him not a craving of the spirit, not a longing of the +soul, but a simple, prudent theory of existence, lessening the various risks +that man is exposed to in his journey through this vale of tears. + +"Womenfolks makes splendid Shakers," he was wont to say. "They're all right as +Sisters, 'cause their belief makes 'em safe. It kind o' shears 'em o' their +strength; tames their sperits; takes the sting out of 'em an' keeps 'em from +bein' sassy an' domineerin'. Jest as long as they think marriage is right, +they'll marry ye spite of anything ye can do or say--four of 'em married my +father one after another, though he fit 'em off as hard as he knew how. But if +ye can once get the faith o' Mother Ann into 'em, they're as good afterwards +as they was wicked afore. There's no stoppin' women-folks once ye get 'em +started; they don't keer whether it's heaven or the other place, so long as +they get where they want to go!" + +Elder Daniel Gray had heard Brother Ansel state his religious theories more +than once when he was first "gathered in," and secretly lamented the lack of +spirituality in the new convert. The Elder was an instrument more finely +attuned; sober, humble, pure-minded, zealous, consecrated to the truth as he +saw it, he labored in and out of season for the faith he held so dear; yet as +the years went on, he noted that Ansel, notwithstanding his eccentric views, +lived an honest, temperate, Godfearing life, talking no scandal, dwelling in +unity with his brethren and sisters, and upholding the banner of Shakerism in +his own peculiar way. + +As Susanna approached him, Ansel called out, "The yairbs are all ready for ye, +Susanna; the weeds have been on the rampage sence yesterday's rain. Seems like +the more uselesser a thing is, the more it flourishes. The yairbs grow; oh, +yes, they make out to _grow_; but you don't see 'em come leapin' an' tearin' +out o' the airth like weeds. Then there's the birds! I've jest been stoppin' +my grindin' to look at 'em carry on. Take 'em all in all, there ain't nothin' +so lazy an' aimless an' busy'boutnothin' as birds. They go kitin' 'roun' from +tree to tree, hoppin' an' chirpin', flyin' here an' there 'thout no airthly +objeck 'ceptin' to fly back ag'in. There's a heap o' useless critters in the +univarse, but I guess birds are 'bout the uselessest, 'less it's grasshoppers, +mebbe." + +"I don't care what you say about the grasshoppers, Ansel, but you shan't abuse +the birds," said Susanna, stooping over the beds of tansy and sage, thyme and +summer savory. "Weeds or no weeds, we're going to have a great crop of herbs +this year, Ansel!" + +"Yee, so we be! We sowed more'n usual so's to keep the two jiners at work +long's we could.--Take that scythe over to the barn, Jacob, an' fetch me +another, an' step spry." + +"What's a 'jiner,' Ansel?" + +"Winter Shakers, I call 'em. They're reg'lar constitooshanal dyed-in-the-wool +jiners, jinin' most anything an' hookin' on most anywheres. They jine when it +comes on too cold to sleep outdoors, an' they onjine when it comes on spring. +Elder Gray's always hopin' to gather in new souls, so he gives the best of 'em +a few months' trial. How are ye, Hannah?" he called to a Sister passing +through the orchard to search for any possible green apples under the trees. +"Make us a good old-fashioned deep-dish pandowdy an' we'll all do our best to +eat it!" + +"I suppose the 'jiners' get discouraged and fear they can't keep up to the +standard. Not everybody is good enough to lead a self-denying Shaker life," +said Susanna, pushing back the close sunbonnet from her warm face, which had +grown younger, smoother, and sweeter in the last few weeks. + +"Nay, I s'pose likely; 'less they're same as me, a born Shaker," Ansel +replied. "I don't hanker after strong drink; don't like tobaccer (always could +keep my temper 'thout smokin'), ain't partic'lar 'bout meat-eatin', don't keer +'bout heapin' up riches, can't 'stand the ways o' worldly women-folks, jest as +lives confess my sins to the Elder as not, 'cause I hain't sinned any to +amount to anything sence I made my first confession; there I be, a natural +follerer o' Mother Ann Lee." + +Susanna drew her Shaker bonnet forward over her eyes and turned her back to +Brother Ansel under the pretense of reaching over to the rows of sweet +marjoram. She had never supposed it possible that she could laugh again, and +indeed she seldom felt like it, but Ansel's interpretations of Shaker doctrine +were almost too much for her latent sense of humor. + +"What are you smiling at, and me so sad, Mardie?" quavered Sue, piteously, +from the little plot of easy weeding her mother had given her to do. "I keep +remembering my game! It was such a _Christian_ game, too. Lots nicer than +Mother Ann in prison; for Jane said her mother and father was both Believers, +and nobody was good enough to pour milk through the keyhole but her. I wanted +to give the clothes-pins story names, like Hilda and Percy, but I called them +Adam and Eve and Cain and Abel just because I thought the Shakers would +'specially like a Bible play. I love Elderess Abby, but she does stop my +happiness, Mardie. That's the second time today, for she took Moses away from +me when I was kissing him because he pinched his thumb in the window." + +"Why did you do that, Sue?" remonstrated her mother softly, remembering +Ansel's proximity. "You never used to kiss strange little boys at home in +Farnham." + +"Moses is n't a boy; he's only six, and that's a baby; besides, I like him +better than any little boys at home, and that's the reason I kissed him; +there's no harm in boy-kissing, is there, Mardie?" + +"You don't know anybody here very well yet; not well enough to kiss them," +Susanna answered, rather hopeless as to the best way of inculcating the +undesirability of the Adamic plane of thought at this early age. "While we +stay here, Sue, we ought both to be very careful to do exactly as the Shakers +do." + +By this time mother and child had reached the orchard end of a row, and +Brother Ansel was thirstily waiting to deliver a little more of the +information with which his mind was always teeming. + +"Them Boston people that come over to our public meetin' last Sunday," he +began, "they was dretful scairt 'bout what would become o' the human race if +it should all turn Shakers. 'I guess you need n't worry,' I says; 'it'll take +consid'able of a spell to convert all you city folks,' I says, 'an' after all, +what if the world should come to an end?' I says. 'If half we hear is true +'bout the way folks carry on in New York and Chicago, it's 'bout time it +stopped,' I says, 'an' I guess the Lord could do a consid'able better job on a +second one,' I says, 'after findin' out the weak places in this.' They can't +stand givin' up their possessions, the world's folks; that's the principal +trouble with 'em! If you don't have nothin' to give up, like some o' the +tramps that happen along here and convince the Elder they're jest bustin' with +the fear o' God, why, o' course 't ain't no trick at all to be a Believer." + +"Did you have much to give up, Brother Ansel?" Susanna asked. "'Bout's much as +any sinner ever had that jined this Community," replied Ansel, complacently. +"The list o' what I consecrated to this Society when I was gathered in was: +One horse, one wagon, one two-year-old heifer, one axe, one saddle, one +padlock, one bed and bedding, four turkeys, eleven hens, one pair o' plough- +irons, two chains, and eleven dollars in cash. Can you beat that?" + +"Oh, yes, things/" said Susanna, absent-mindedly. "I was thinking of family +and friends, pleasures and memories and ambitions and hopes." + +"I guess it don't pinch you any worse to give up a hope than it would a good +two-year-old heifer," retorted Ansel; "but there, you can't never tell what +folks'll hang on to the hardest! The man that drove them Boston folks over +here last Sunday, did you notice him? the one that had the sister with a +bright red dress an' hat on? --Land! I could think just how hell must look +whenever my eye lighted on that girl's gitup! --Well, I done my best to exhort +that driver, bein' as how we had a good chance to talk while we was hitchin' +an' unhitchin' the team; an' Elder Gray always says I ain't earnest enough in +preachin' the faith; --but he did n't learn anything from the meetin'. Kep' +his eye on the Shaker bunnits, an' took notice o' the marchin' an' dancin', +but he did n't care nothin' 'bout doctrine. + +"'I draw the line at bein' a cerebrate,' he says. 'I'm willin' to sell all my +goods an' divide with the poor,' he says, 'but I ain't goin' to lie no +cerebrate. If I don't have no other luxuries, I will have a wife,' he says. +'I've hed three, an' if this one don't last me out, I'll get another, if it's +only to start the kitchen fire in the mornin' an' put the cat in the shed +nights!'" + + + + +IV + +Louisa's Mind + + +Louisa, otherwise Mrs. Adlai Banks, the elder sister of Susanna s husband, was +a rock-ribbed widow of forty-five summers, --forty-five winters would seem a +better phrase in which to assert her age,-- who resided on a small farm twenty +miles from the manufacturing town of Farnham. + +When the Fates were bestowing qualities of mind and heart upon the Hathaway +babies, they gave the more graceful, genial, likable ones to John, not +realizing, perhaps, what bad use he would make of them, --and endowed Louisa +with great deposits of honesty, sincerity, energy, piety, and frugality, all +so mysteriously compounded that they turned to granite in her hands. If she +had been consulted, it would have been all the same. She would never have +accepted John's charm of personality at the expense of being saddled with his +weaknesses, and he would not have taken her cast-iron virtues at any price +whatsoever. + +She was sweeping her porch on that day in May when Susanna and Sue had wakened +in the bare upper chamber at the Shaker Settlement--Sue clear-eyed, jubilant, +expectant, unafraid; Susanna pale from her fitful sleep, weary with the burden +of her heart. + +Looking down the road, Mrs. Banks espied the form of her brother John walking +in her direction and leading Jack by the hand. + +This was a most unusual sight, for John's calls had been uncommonly few of +late years, since a man rarely visits a lady relative for the mere purpose of +hearing "a piece of her mind." This piece, large, solid, highly flavored with +pepper, and as acid as mental vinegar could make it, was Louisa Banks's only +contribution to conversation when she met her brother. She could not stop for +any airy persiflage about weather, crops, or politics when her one desire was +to tell him what she thought of him. + +"Good-morning, Louisa. Shake hands with your aunt, Jack." + +"He can't till I'm through sweeping. Good-morning, John; what brings you +here?" + +John sat down on the steps, and Jack flew to the barn, where there was +generally an amiable hired man and a cheerful cow, both infinitely better +company than his highly respected and wealthy aunt. + +"I came because I had to bring the boy to the only relation I've got in the +world," John answered tersely. "My wife's left me." + +"Well, she's been a great while doing it," remarked Louisa, digging her broom +into the cracks of the piazza floor and making no pause for reflection. "If +she had n't had the patience of Job and the meekness of Moses, she'd have gone +long before. Where'd she go?" + +"I don't know; she did n't say." + +"Did you take the trouble to look through the house for her? I ain't certain +you fairly know her by sight nowadays, do you?" + +John flushed crimson, but bit his lip in an attempt to keep his temper. "She +left a letter," he said, "and she took Sue with her." + +"That was all right; Sue's a nervous little thing and needs at least one +parent; she has n't been used to more, so she won't miss anything. Jack's like +most of the Hathaways; he'll grow up his own way, without anybody's help or +hindrance. What are you going to do with him?" + +"Leave him with you, of course. What else could I do?" "Very well, I'll take +him, and while I'm about it I'd like to give you a piece of my mind." + +John was fighting for selfcontrol, but he was too wretched and remorseful for +rage to have any real sway over him. + +"Is it the same old piece, or a different one?" he asked, setting his teeth +grimly. "I should n't think you'd have any mind left, you've given so many +pieces of it to me already." + +"I have some left, and plenty, too," answered Louisa, dashing into the house, +banging the broom into a corner, coming out again like a breeze, and slamming +the door behind her. "You can leave the boy here and welcome; I'll take good +care of him, and if you don't send me twenty dollars a month for his food and +clothes, I'll turn him outdoors. The more responsibility other folks rid you +of, the more you'll let 'em, and I won't take a feather's weight off you for +fear you'll sink into everlasting perdition." + +"I did n't expect any sympathy from you," said John, drearily, pulling himself +up from the steps and leaning against the honeysuckle trellis. "Susanna's just +the same. Women are all as hard as the nether millstone. They're hard if +they're angels, and hard if they're devils; it docs n't make much difference." + +"I guess you've found a few soft ones, if report says true," returned Louisa, +bluntly. "You'd better go and get some of their sympathy, the kind you can buy +and pay for. The way you've ruined your life turns me fairly sick. You had a +good father and mother, good education and advantages, enough money to start +you in business, the best of wives, and two children any man could be proud +of, one of 'em especially. You've thrown 'em all away, and what for? Horses +and cards and gay company, late suppers, with wine, and for aught I know, +whiskey, you the son of a man who did n't know the taste of ginger beer! +You've spent your days and nights with a pack of carousing men and women that +would take your last cent and not leave you enough for honest burial." + +"It's a pity we did n't make a traveling preacher of you!" exclaimed John, +bitterly. "Lord Almighty, I wonder how such women as you can live in the +world, you know so little about it, and so little about men." + +"I know all I want to about 'em," retorted Louisa, "and precious little that's +good. They 're a gluttonous, self-indulgent, extravagant, reckless, pleasure- +loving lot! My husband was one of the best of 'em, and he would n't have +amounted to a hill of beans if I had n't devoted fifteen years to +disciplining, uplifting, and strengthening him!" + +"You managed to strengthen him so that he died before he was fifty!" + +"It don't matter when a man dies," said the remorseless Mrs. Banks, "if he's +succeeded in living a decent, Godfearing life. As for you, John Hathaway, I'll +tell you the truth if you are my brother, for Susanna's too much of a saint to +speak out." + +"Don't be afraid; Susanna's spoken out at last, plainly enough to please even +you!" + +"I'm glad of it, for I did n't suppose she had spunk enough to resent +anything. I shall be sorry tomorrow, 's likely as not, for freeing my mind as +much as I have, but my temper's up and I'm going to be the humble instrument +of Providence and try to turn you from the error of your ways. You've defaced +and degraded the temple the Lord built for you, and if He should come this +minute and try to turn out the crowd of evildoers you've kept in it, I doubt +if He could!" + +"I hope He'll approve of the way you've used your 'temple,'" said John, with +stinging emphasis. "I should n't want to live in such a noisy one myself; I'd +rather be a bat in a belfry. Goodbye; I've had a pleasant call, as usual, and +you've been a real sister to me in my trouble. You shall have the twenty +dollars a month. Jack's clothes are in that valise, and there'll be a trunk +tomorrow. Susanna said she'd write and let you know her whereabouts." + +So saying, John Hathaway strode down the path, closed the gate behind him, and +walked rapidly along the road that led to the station. It was a quiet road and +he met few persons. He had neither dressed nor shaved since the day before; +his face was haggard, his heart was like a lump of lead in his breast. Of what +use to go to the empty house in Farnham when he could stifle his misery by a +night with his friends? + +No, he could not do that, either! The very thought of them brought a sense of +satiety and disgust; the craving for what they would give him would come again +in time, no doubt, but for the moment he was sick to the very soul of all they +stood for. The feeling of complete helplessness, of desertion, of being alone +in mid-ocean without a sail or a star in sight, mounted and swept over him. +Susanna had been his sail, his star, although he had never fully realized it, +and he had cut himself adrift from her pure, steadfast love, blinding himself +with cheap and vulgar charms. + +The next train to Farnham was not due for an hour. His steps faltered; he +turned into a clump of trees by the wayside and flung himself on the ground to +cry like a child, he who had not shed a tear since he was a boy of ten. If +Susanna could have seen that often longed-for burst of despair and remorse, +that sudden recognition of his sins against himself and her, that gush of +penitent tears, her heart might have softened once again; a flicker of flame +might have lighted the ashes of her dying love; she might have taken his head +on her shoulder, and said, "Never mind, John! Let's forget, and begin all over +again!" + + +Matters did not look any brighter for John the next week, for his senior +partner, Joel Atterbury, requested him to withdraw from the firm as soon as +matters could be legally arranged. He was told that he had not been doing, nor +earning, his share; that his way of living during the year just past had not +been any credit to "the concern," and that he, Atterbury, sympathized too +heartily with Mrs. John Hathaway to take any pleasure in doing business with +Mr. John. + +John's remnant of pride, completely humbled by this last withdrawal of +confidence, would not suffer him to tell Atterbury that he had come to his +senses and bidden farewell to the old life, or so he hoped and believed. To +lose a wife and child in a way infinitely worse than death; to hear the +unwelcome truth that as a husband you have grown so offensive as to be beyond +endurance; to have your own sister tell you that you richly deserve such +treatment; to be virtually dismissed from a valuable business connection, all +this is enough to sober any man above the grade of a moral idiot, and John was +not that; he was simply a self-indulgent, pleasure-loving, thoughtless, +willful fellow, without any great amount of principle. He took his medicine, +however, said nothing, and did his share of the business from day to day +doggedly, keeping away from his partner as much as possible. + +Ellen, the faithful maid of all work, stayed on with him at the old home; Jack +wrote to him every week, and often came to spend Sunday with him. + +"Aunt Louisa's real good to me," he told his father, "but she's not like +mother. Seems to me mother's kind of selfish staying away from us so long. +When do you expect her back?" + +"I don't know; not before winter, I'm afraid; and don't call her selfish, I +won't have it! Your mother never knew she had a self." + +"If she'd only left Sue behind, we could have had more good times, we three +together!" + +"No, our family is four, Jack, and we can never have any good times, one, two, +or three of us, because we're four! When one's away, whichever it is, it's +wrong, but it's the worst when it's mother. Does your Aunt Louisa write to +her?" + +"Yes, sometimes, but she never lets me post the letters." + +"Do you write to your mother? You ought to, you know, even if you don't have +time for me. You could ask your aunt to enclose your letters in hers." + +"Do you write to her, father?" + +"Yes, I write twice a week," John answered, thinking drearily of the semi- +weekly notes posted in Susanna's empty worktable upstairs. Would she ever read +them? He doubted it, unless he died, and she came back to settle his affairs; +but of course he would n't die, no such good luck. Would a man die who +breakfasted at eight, dined at one, supped at six, and went to bed at ten? +Would a man die who worked in the garden an hour every afternoon, with half a +day Saturday; that being the task most disagreeable to him and most +appropriate therefore for penance? + +Susanna loved flowers and had always wanted a garden, but John had been too +much occupied with his own concerns to give her the needed help or money so +that she could carry out her plans. The last year she had lost heart in many +ways, so that little or nothing had been accomplished of all she had dreamed. +It would have been laughable, had it not been pathetic, to see John Hathaway +dig, delve, grub, sow, water, weed, transplant, generally at the wrong moment, +in that dream-garden of Susanna's. He asked no advice and read no books. With +feverish intensity, with complete ignorance of Nature's laws and small +sympathy with their intricacies, he dug, hoed, raked, fertilized, and planted +during that lonely summer. His absentmindedness caused some expensive +failures, as when the wide expanse of Susanna's drying ground, which was to be +velvety lawn, "came up" curly lettuce; but he rooted out his frequent mistakes +and patiently planted seeds or roots or bulbs over and over and over and over, +until something sprouted in his beds, whether it was what he intended or not. +While he weeded the brilliant orange nasturtiums, growing beside the magenta +portulacca in a friendly proximity that certainly would never have existed had +the mistress of the house been the head-gardener, he thought of nothing but +his wife. He knew her pride, her reserve, her sensitive spirit; he knew her +love of truth and honor and purity, the standards of life and conduct she had +tried to hold him to so valiantly, and which he had so dragged in the dust +during the blindness and the insanity of the last two years. + +He, John Hathaway, was a deserted husband; Susanna had crept away all wounded +and resentful. Where was she living and how supporting herself and Sue, when +she could not have had a hundred dollars in the world? Probably Louisa was the +source of income; conscientious, infernally disagreeable Louisa! + +Would yet the rumor of his changed habit o[ life reach her by some means in +her place of hiding, sooner or later? Would she not yearn for a sight of Jack? +Would she not finally give him a chance to ask forgiveness, or had she lost +every trace of affection for him, as her letter seemed to imply? He walked the +garden paths, with these and other unanswerable questions, and when he went to +his lonely room at night, he held the lamp up to a bit of poetry that he had +cut from a magazine and pinned to the looking-glass. If John Hathaway could be +brought to the reading of poetry, he might even glance at the Bible in course +of time, Louisa would have said. It was in May that Susanna had gone, and the +first line of verse held his attention. + + May comes, day comes, + One who was away comes; + All the earth is glad again, + Kind and fair to me. + + May comes, day comes, + One who was away comes; + Set her place at hearth and board + As it used to be. + + May comes, day comes, + One who was away comes; + Higher are the hills of home, + Bluer is the sea. + +The Hathaway house was in the suburbs, on a rise of ground, and as John turned +to the window he saw the full moon hanging yellow in the sky. It shone on the +verdant slopes and low wooded hills that surrounded the town, and cast a +glittering pathway on the ocean that bathed the beaches of the nearby shore. + +"How long shall I have to wait," he wondered, "before my hills of home look +higher, and my sea bluer, because Susanna has come back to 'hearth and +board'!" + + + + +V + +The Little Quail Bird + + +Susanna had helped at various household tasks ever since her arrival at the +Settlement, for there was no room for drones in the Shaker hive; but after a +few weeks in the kitchen with Martha, the herb-garden had been assigned to her +as her particular province, the Sisters thinking her better fitted for it than +for the preserving and pickling of fruit, or the basket-weaving that needed +special apprenticeship. + +The Shakers were the first people to raise, put up, and sell garden seeds in +our present-day fashion, and it was they, too, who began the preparation of +botanical medicines, raising, gathering, drying, and preparing herbs and roots +for market; and this industry, driven from the field by modern machinery, was +still a valuable source of income in Susanna's day. Plants had always grown +for Susanna, and she loved them like friends, humoring their weakness, +nourishing their strength, stimulating, coaxing, disciplining them, until they +could do no less than flourish under her kind and hopeful hand. + +Oh, that sweet, honest, comforting little garden of herbs, with its wholesome +fragrances! Healing lay in every root and stem, in every leaf and bud, and the +strong aromatic odors stimulated her flagging spirit or her aching head, after +the sleepless nights in which she tried to decide her future life and Sue's. + +The plants were set out in neat rows and clumps, and she soon learned to know +the strange ones--chamomile, lobelia, bloodroot, wormwood, lovage, boneset, +lemon and sweet balm, lavender and rue, as well as she knew the old +acquaintances familiar to every country-bred child--pennyroyal, peppermint or +spearmint, yellow dock, and thoroughwort. + +There was hoeing and weeding before the gathering and drying came; then +Brother Calvin, who had charge of the great press, would moisten the dried +herbs and press them into quarter- and half-pound cakes ready for Sister +Martha, who would superintend the younger Shakeresses in papering and labeling +them for the market. Last of all, when harvesting was over, Brother Ansel +would mount the newly painted seed-cart and leave on his driving trip through +the country. Ansel was a capital salesman, but Brother Issachar, who once took +his place and sold almost nothing, brought home a lad on the seed-cart, who +afterward became a shining light in the Community. ( Thus, said Elder Gray, +does God teach us the diversity of gifts, whereby all may be unashamed.") + +If the Albion Shakers were honest and ardent in faith, Susanna thought that +their "works" would indeed bear the strictest examination. The Brothers made +brooms, floor and dish-mops, tubs, pails, and churns, and indeed almost every +trade was represented in the various New England Communities. Physicians there +were, a few, but no lawyers, sheriffs, policemen, constables, or soldiers, +just as there were no courts or saloons or jails. Where there was perfect +equality of possession and no private source of gain, it amazed Susanna to see +the cheery labor, often continued late at night from the sheer joy of it, and +the earnest desire to make the Settlement prosperous. While the Brothers were +hammering, nailing, planing, sawing, ploughing, and seeding, the Sisters were +carding and spinning cotton, wool, and flax, making kerchiefs of linen, straw +Shaker bonnets, and dozens of other useful marketable things, not forgetting +their famous Shaker apple sauce. + +Was there ever such a busy summer, Susanna wondered; yet with all the early +rising, constant labor, and simple fare, she was stronger and hardier than she +had been for years. The Shaker palate was never tickled with delicacies, yet +the food was well cooked and sufficiently varied. At first there had been the +winter vegetables: squash, yellow turnips, beets, and parsnips, with once a +week a special Shaker dinner of salt codfish, potatoes, onions, and milk +gravy. Each Sister served her turn as cook, but all alike had a wonderful hand +with flour, and the wholewheat bread, cookies, ginger cake, and milk puddings +were marvels of lightness. Martha, in particular, could wean the novitiate +Shaker from a too riotous devotion to meat-eating better than most people, for +every dish she sent to the table was delicate, savory, and attractive. + +Dear, patient, devoted Martha! How Susanna learned to love her as they worked +together in the big sunny, shining kitchen, where the cooking-stove as well as +every tin plate and pan and spoon might have served as a mirror! Martha had +joined the Society in her mother's arms, being given up to the Lord and placed +in "the children's order" before she was one year old. + +"If you should unite with us, Susanna," she said one night after the early +supper, when they were peeling apples together, "you'd be thankful you begun +early with your little Sue, for she's got a natural attraction to the world, +and for it. Not but that she's a tender, loving, obedient little soul; but +when she's among the other young ones, there's a flyaway look about her that +makes her seem more like a fairy than a child." + +"She's having rather a hard time learning Shaker ways, but she'll do better in +time," sighed her mother. "She came to me of her own accord yesterday and +asked: 'Bettent I have my curls cut off, Mardie?'" + +"I never put that idea into her head," Martha interrupted. "She's a visitor +and can wear her hair as she's been brought up to wear it." + +"I know, but I fear Sue was moved by other than religious reasons. 'I get up +so early, Mardie,' she said, 'and it takes so long to unsnarl and untangle me, +and I get so hot when I'm helping in the hayfield, and then I have to be +curled for dinner, and curled again for supper, and so it seems like wasting +both our times!' Her hair would be all the stronger for cutting, I thought, as +it's so long for her age; but I could n't put the shears to it when the time +came, Martha. I had to take her to Eldress Abby. She sat up in front of the +little looking-glass as still as a mouse, while the curls came off, but when +the last one fell into Abby's apron, she suddenly put her hands over her face +and cried: 'Oh, Mardie, we shall never be the same togedder, you and I, after +this!' --She seemed to see her 'little past,' her childhood, slipping away +from her, all in an instant. I did n't let her know that I cried over the box +of curls last night!" + +"You did wrong," rebuked Martha. "You should n't make an idol of your child or +your child's beauty." + +"You don't think God might put beauty into the world just to give His children +joy, Martha?" + +Martha was no controversialist. She had taken her opinions, ready-made, from +those she considered her superiors, and although she was willing to make any +sacrifice for her religion, she did not wish to be confused by too many +opposing theories of God's intentions. + +"You know I never argue when I've got anything baking," she said; and taking +the spill of a corn-broom from a table-drawer, she opened the oven door and +delicately plunged it into the loaf. Then, gazing at the straw as she withdrew +it, she said: "You must talk doctrine with Eldress Abby, Susanna, not with me; +but I guess doctrine won't help you so much as thinking out your life for +yourself. + + "No one can sing my psalm for me, + Reward must come from labor, + I'll sow for peace, and reap in truth + God's mercy and his favor!" + +Martha was the chief musician of the Community, and had composed many hymns +and tunes--some of them under circumstances that she believed might entitle +them to be considered directly inspired. Her clear full voice filled the +kitchen and floated out into the air after Susanna, as she called Sue and, +darning-basket in hand, walked across the road to the great barn. + +The herb-garden was one place where she could think out her life, although no +decision had as yet been born of those thoughtful mornings. + +Another spot for meditation was the great barn, relic of the wonderful earlier +days, and pride of the present Settlement. A hundred and seventy-five feet +long and three and a half stories high, it dominated the landscape. First, +there was the cellar, where all the refuse fell, to do its duty later on in +fertilizing the farm lands; then came the first floor, where the stalls for +horses, oxen, and cows lined the walls on either side. Then came the second +floor, where hay was kept, and to reach this a bridge forty feet long was +built on stone piers ten feet in height, sloping up from the ground to the +second story. Over the easy slope of this bridge the full haycarts were +driven, to add their several burdens to the golden haymows. High at the top +was an enormous grain room, where mounds of yellow corn-ears reached from +floor to ceiling; and at the back was a great window opening on Massabesic +Pond and Knights' Hill, with the White Mountains towering blue or snow-capped +in the distance. There was an old-fashioned, list-bottomed, straight-backed +Shaker chair in front of the open window, a chair as uncomfortable as Shaker +doctrines to the daughter of Eve, and there Susanna often sat with her sewing +or mending, Sue at her feet building castles out of corncobs, plaiting the +husks into little mats, or taking out basting threads from her mother's work. + +"My head feels awfully undressed without my curls, Mardie," she said. "I'm +most afraid Fardie won't like the looks of me; do you think we ought to have +asked him before we shingled me? --He does _despise_ unpretty things so!" + +"I think if we had asked him he would have said, 'Do as you think best.'" + +"He always says that when he does n't care what you do," observed Sue, with +one of her startling bursts of intuition. "Sister Martha has a printed card on +the wall in the children's diningroom, and I've got to learn all the poetry on +it because I need it worse than any of the others:-- + + "What we deem good order, we're willing to state, + Eat hearty and decent, and clear out your plate; + Be thankful to heaven for what we receive, + And not make a mixture or compound to leave. + + "We often find left on the same China dish, + Meat, apple sauce, pickle, brown bread and minced fish: + Another's replenished with butter and cheese, + With pie, cake, and toast, perhaps, added to these." + +"You say it very nicely," commended Susanna. + +"There's more:-- + + "Now if any virtue in this can be shown, + By peasant, by lawyer, or king on the throne; + We freely will forfeit whatever we've said, + And call it a virtue to waste meat and bread. + +"There's a great deal to learn when you're being a Shaker," sighed Sue, as she +finished her rhyme. + +"There's a great deal to learn everywhere," her mother answered. "What verse +did Eldress Abby give you today?" + + "For little tripping maids may follow God + Along the ways that saintly feet have trod," + +quoted the child. "Am I a tripping maid, Mardie?" she continued. + +"Yes, dear." "If I trip too much, might n't I fall?" + +"Yes, I suppose so." + +"Is tripping the same as skipping?" + +"About the same." + +"Is it polite to tripanskip when you're following God?" + +"It could n't be impolite if you meant to be good. A tripping maid means just +a young one." + +"What is a maid?" + +"A little girl." + +"When a maid grows up, what is she?" + +"Why she's a maiden, I suppose." + +"When a maiden grows up, what is she?" + +"Just a woman, Sue." + +"What is saintly feet?" + +"Feet like those of Eldress Abby or Elder Gray; feet of people who have always +tried to do right." + +"Are Brother Ansel's feet saintly?" + +"He's a good, kind, hardworking man." + +"Is good, kind, hardworking, same as saintly?" + +"Well, it's not so very different, perhaps. Now, Sue, I've asked you before, +don't let your mind grope, and your little tongue wag, every instant; it is +n't good for you, and it certainly is n't good for me!" + +"All right; but 'less I gropeanwag sometimes, I don't see how I'll ever learn +the things I 'specially want to know?" sighed Sue the insatiable. + +"Shall I tell you a Shaker story, one that Eldress Abby told me last evening?" + +"Oh, do, Mardie!" cried Sue, crossing her feet, folding her hands, and looking +up into her mother's face expectantly. + +"Once there was a very good Shaker named Elder Calvin Green, and some one +wrote him a letter asking him to come a long distance and found a Settlement +in the western part of New York State. He and some other Elders and Eldresses +traveled five days, and stopped at the house of a certain Joseph Pelham to +spend Sunday and hold a meeting. On Monday morning, very tired, and wondering +where to stay and begin his preaching, the Elder went out into the woods to +pray for guidance. When he rose from his knees, feeling stronger and lighter- +hearted, a young quail came up to him so close that he picked it up. It was +not a bit afraid, neither did the old parent birds who were standing near by +show any sign of fear, though they are very timid creatures. The Elder +smoothed the young bird's feathers a little while and then let it go, but he +thought an angel seemed to say to him, 'The quail is a sign; you will know +before night what it means, and before tomorrow people will be coming to you +to learn the way to God.' + +"Soon after, a flock of these shy little birds alighted on Joseph Pelham's +house, and the Elders were glad, and thought it signified the flock of +Believers that would gather in that place; for the Shakers see more in signs +than other people. Just at night a young girl of twelve or thirteen knocked at +the door and told Elder Calvin that she wanted to become a Shaker, and that +her father and mother were willing. + +"'Here is the little quail!' cried the Elder, and indeed she was the first who +flocked to the meetings and joined the new Community. + +"On their return to their old home across the state the Elders took the little +quail girl with them. It was November then, and the canals through which they +traveled were clogged with ice. One night, having been ferried across the +Mohawk River, they took their baggage and walked for miles before they could +find shelter. Finally, when they were within three miles of their home, Elder +Calvin shortened the way by going across the open fields through the snow, up +and down the hills and through the gullies and over fences, till they reached +the house at midnight, safe and sound, the brave little quail girl having +trudged beside them the whole distance, carrying her tin pail." + +Sue was transported with interest, her lips parted, her eyes shining, her +hands clasped. "Oh, I wish I could be a brave little quail girl, Mardie! What +became of her?" + +"Her name was Polly Reed, and when she grew up, she became a teacher of the +Shaker school, then an Eldress, and even a preacher. I don't know what kind of +a little quail girl you would make, Sue; do you think you could walk for miles +through the ice and snow uncomplainingly?" + +"I don' know's I could," sighed Sue; "but," she added hopefully, "perhaps I +could teach or preach, and then I could gropeanwag as much as ever I liked." +Then, after a lengthy pause, in which her mind worked feverishly, she said, +"Mardie, I was just groping a little bit, but I won't do it any more tonight. +If the old quail birds in the woods where Elder Calvin prayed, if those old +birds had been Shaker birds, there would n't have been any little quail birds, +would there, because Shakers don't have children, and then perhaps there would +n't have been any little Polly Reed." + +Susanna rose hurriedly from the list-bottomed chair and folded her work. "I'll +go up and help you undress now," she said; "it's seven o'clock, and I must go +to the family meeting." + + + + +VI + +Susanna Speaks in Meeting + + +It was the Sabbath day and the Believers were gathered in the meetinghouse, +Brethren and Sisters seated quietly on their separate benches, with the +children by themselves in their own place. As the men entered the room they +removed their hats and coats and hung them upon wooden pegs that lined the +sides of the room, while the women took off their bonnets; then, after +standing for a moment of perfect silence, they seated themselves. + +In Susanna's time the Sunday costume for the men included trousers of deep +blue cloth with a white line and a vest of darker blue, exposing a full- +bosomed shirt that had a wide turned-down collar fastened with three buttons. +The Sisters were in pure white dresses, with neck and shoulders covered with +snowy kerchiefs, their heads crowned with their white net caps, and a large +white pocket handkerchief hung over the left arm. Their feet were shod with +curious pointed-toed cloth shoes of ultramarine blue--a fashion long since +gone by. + +Susanna had now become accustomed to the curious solemn march or dance in +which of course none but the Believers ever joined, and found in her present +exalted mood the songs and the exhortations strangely interesting and not +unprofitable. + +Tabitha, the most aged of the group of Albion Sisters, confessed that she +missed the old times when visions were common, when the Spirit manifested +itself in extraordinary ways, and the gift of tongues descended. Sometimes, in +the Western Settlement where she was gathered in, the whole North Family would +march into the highway in the fresh morning hours, and while singing some +sacred hymn, would pass on to the Center Family, and together in solemn yet +glad procession they would mount the hillside to "Jehovah's Chosen Square," +there to sing and dance before the Lord. + +"I wish we could do something like that now!" sighed Hetty Arnold, a pretty +young creature who had moments of longing for the pomps and vanities. "If we +have to give up all worldly pleasures, I think we might have more religious +ones!" + +"We were a younger church in those old times of which Sister Tabitha speaks," +said Eldress Abby. "You must remember, Hetty, that we were children in faith, +and needed signs and manifestations, pictures and object-lessons. We've been +trained to think and reason now, and we've put away some of our picture-books. +There have been revelations to tell us we needed movements and exercises to +quicken our spiritual powers, and to give energy and unity to our worship, and +there have been revelations telling us to give them up; revelations bidding us +to sing more, revelations telling us to use wordless songs. Then anthems were +given us, and so it has gone on, for we have been led of the Spirit." + +"I'd like more picture-books," pouted Hetty under her breath. + +Today the service began with a solemn song, followed by speaking and prayer +from a visiting elder. Then, after a long and profound silence, the company +rose and joined in a rhythmic dance which signified the onward travel of the +soul to full redemption; the opening and closing of the hands meaning the +scattering and gathering of blessing. There was no accompaniment, and both the +music and the words were the artless expression of fervent devotion. + +Susanna sat in her corner beside the aged Tabitha, who would never dance again +before the Lord, though her quavering voice joined in the chorus. The spring +floor rose and fell under the quick rhythmic tread of the worshipers, and with +each revolution about the room the song gained in power and fervor. + + I am never weary bringing my life unto God, + I am never weary singing His way is good. + With the voice of an angel with power from above, + I would publish the blessing of soul-saving love. + + The steps grew slower and more sedate, the voices died away, the arms sank +slowly by the sides, and the hands ceased their movement. + +Susanna rose to her feet, she knew not how or why. Her cheeks were flushed, +her head bent. + +"Dear friends," she said, "I have now been among you for nearly three months, +sharing your life, your work, and your worship. You may well wish to know +whether I have made up my mind to join this Community, and I can only say that +although I have prayed for light, I cannot yet see my way clearly. I am happy +here with you, and although I have been a church member for years, I have +never before longed so ardently to present my body and soul as a sacrifice +unto the Lord. I have tried not to be a burden to you. The small weekly sum +that I put into the treasury I will not speak of, lest I seem to think that +the 'gift of God may be purchased with money,' as the Scriptures say; but I +have endeavored to be loyal to your rules and customs, your aims and ideals, +and to the confidence you have reposed in me. Oh, my dear Sisters and +Brothers, pray for me that I be enabled to see my duty more plainly. It is not +the fleshpots that will call me back to the world; if I go, it will be because +the duties I have left behind take such shape that they draw me out of his +shelter in spite of myself. I thank you for the help you have given me these +last weeks; God knows my gratitude can never be spoken in words." + +Elder Gray's voice broke the silence that followed Susanna's speech. "I only +echo the sentiments of the Family when I say that our Sister Susanna shall +have such time as she requires before deciding to unite with this body of +Believers. No pressure shall be brought to bear upon her, and she will be, as +she ever has been, a welcome guest under our roof. She has been an inspiration +to the children, a comfort and aid to the Sisters, an intelligent comrade to +the Brethren, and a sincere and earnest student of the truth. May the Spirit +draw her into the Virgin Church of the New Creation!" + +"Yee and amen!" exclaimed Eldress Abby, devoutly: "'For thus saith the Lord of +hosts: I will shake the heavens, and the earth, and the sea, and the dry land; +and I will shake all nations, and the desire of all nations shall come: and I +will fill this house with glory, saith the Lord of hosts.'" + + "O Virgin Church, how great the light, + What cloud can dim thy way?" + +sang Martha from her place at the end of a bench; and all the voices took up +the hymn softly as the company sat with bowed heads. + +Then Brother Issachar rose from his corner, saying: "Jesus called upon his +disciples to give up everything: houses, lands, relationships, and even the +selfishness of their own lives. They could not call their lives their own. +'Lo! we have left all and followed thee,' said Peter; 'fathers, mothers, +wives, children, houses, lands, and even our own lives also.' It is a great +price to pay, but we buy Heaven with it!" + +"Yee, we do," said Brother Thomas Scattergood, devoutly. "To him that +overcometh shall the great prize be given." + +"God help the weaker brethren!" murmured young Brother Nathan, in so low a +voice that few could hear him. Moved by the same impulse, Tabitha, Abby, and +Martha burst into one of the most triumphant of the Shaker songs, one that was +never sung save when the meeting was "full of the Spirit":-- + + "I draw no blank nor miss the prize, + I see the work, the sacrifice, + And I'll be loyal, I'll be wise, A faithful overcomer!" + +The company rose and began again to march in a circle around the center of the +room, the Brethren two abreast leading the column, the Sisters following +after. There was a waving movement of the hands by drawing inward as if +gathering in spiritual good and storing it up for future need. In the marching +and countermarching the worshipers frequently changed their positions, +ultimately forming into four circles, symbolical of the four dispensations as +expounded in Shakerism, the first from Adam to Abraham; the second from +Abraham to Jesus; the third from Jesus to Mother Ann Lee; and the fourth the +millennial era. + +The marching grew livelier; the bodies of the singers swayed lightly with +emotion, the faces glowed with feeling. + +Over and over the hymn was sung, gathering strength and fullness as the +Believers entered more and more into the spirit of their worship. Whenever the +refrain came in with its militant fervor, crude, but sincere and effective, +the singers seenled faithintoxicated; and Sister Martha in particular might +have been treading the heavenly streets instead of the meetinghouse floor, so +complete was her absorption. The voices at length grew softer, and the +movement slower, and after a few moments' reverent silence the company filed +out of the room solemnly and without speech. + + I am as sure that heav'n is mine + As though my vision could define + Or pencil draw the boundary line + Where love and truth shall con quer. + +"The Lord ain't shaken Susanna hard enough yet," thought Brother Ansel +shrewdly from his place in the rear. "She ain't altogether gathered in, not by +no manner o' means, because of that unregenerate son of Adam she's left +behind; but there's the makin's of a pow'ful good Shaker in Susanna, if she +finally takes holt!" + +"What manner of life is my husband living, now that I have deserted him? Who +is being a mother to Jack?" These were the thoughts that troubled Susanna +Hathaway's soul as she crossed the grass to her own building. + + + + +VII + +"The Lower Plane" + + +Brother Nathan Bennett was twenty years old and Sister Hetty Arnold was +eighteen. They had been left with the Shakers by their respective parents ten +years before, and, growing up in the faith, they formally joined the Community +when they reached the age of discretion. Thus they had known each other from +early childhood, never in the familiar way common to the children of the +world, but with the cool, cheerful, casual, wholly impersonal attitude of +Shaker friendship, a relation seemingly outside of and superior to sex, a +relation more like that of two astral bodies than the more intimate one of a +budding Adam and Eve. + +When and where had this relationship changed its color and meaning? Neither +Nathan nor Hetty could have told. For years Nathan had sat at his end of the +young men's bench at the family or the public meeting, with Hetty exactly +opposite him at the end of the girls' row, and for years they had looked +across the dividing space at each other with unstirred pulses. The rows of +Sisters sat in serene dignity, one bench behind another, and each Sister was +like unto every other in Nathan's vague, dreamy, boyishly indifferent eyes. +Some of them were seventy and some seventeen, but each modest figure sat in +its place with quiet folded hands. The stiff caps hid the hair, whether it was +silver or gold; the white surplices covered the shoulders and concealed +beautiful curves as well as angular outlines; the throats were scarcely +visible, whether they were yellow and wrinkled or young and white. The Sisters +were simply sisters to fair-haired Nathan, and the Brothers were but brothers +to little black-eyed Hetty. + +Once--was it on a Sunday morning?--Nathan glanced across the separating space +that is the very essence and sign of Shakerism. The dance had just ceased, and +there was a long, solemn stillness when God indeed seemed to be in one of His +holy temples and the earth was keeping silence before Him. Suddenly Hetty grew +to be something more than one of the figures in a long row: she chained +Nathan's eye and held it. + +"Through her garments the grace of her glowed." He saw that, in spite of the +way her hair had been cut and stretched back from the forehead, a short dusky +tendril, softened and coaxed by the summer heat, had made its way mutinously +beyond the confines of her cap. Her eyes were cast down, but the lashes that +swept her round young cheek were quite different from any other lashes in the +Sisters' row. Her breath came and went softly after the exertion of the +rhythmic movements, stirring the white muslin folds that wrapped her from +throat to waist. He looked and looked, until his body seemed to be all eyes, +absolutely unaware of any change in himself; quite oblivious of the fact that +he was regarding the girl in any new and dangerous way. + +The silence continued, long and profound, until suddenly Hetty raised her +beautiful lashes and met Nathan's gaze, the gaze of a boy just turned to man: +ardent, warm, compelling. There was a startled moment of recognition, a +tremulous approach, almost an embrace, of regard; each sent an electric +current across the protective separating space, the two pairs of eyes met and +said, "I love you," in such clear tones that Nathan and Hetty marveled that +the Elder did not hear them. Somebody says that love, like a scarlet spider, +can spin a thread between two hearts almost in an instant, so fine as to be +almost invisible, yet it will hold with the tenacity of an iron chain. The +thread had been spun; it was so delicate that neither Nathan nor Hetty had +seen the scarlet spider spinning it, but the strength of both would not avail +to snap the bond that held them together. + +The moments passed. Hetty's kerchief rose and fell, rose and fell +tumultuously, while her face was suffused with color. Nathan's knees quivered +under him, and when the Elder rose, and they began the sacred march, the lad +could hardly stand for trembling. He dreaded the moment when the lines of +Believers would meet, and he and Hetty would walk the length of the long room +almost beside each other. Could she hear his heart beating, Nathan wondered; +while Hetty was palpitating with fear lest Nathan see her blushes and divine +their meaning. Oh, the joy of it, the terror of it, the strange exhilaration +and the sudden sensation of sin and remorse! + +The meeting over, Nathan flung himself on the haymow in the great barn, while +Hetty sat with her "Synopsis of Shaker Theology" at an open window of the +girls' building, seeing nothing in the lines of print but visions that should +not have been there. It was Nathan who felt most and suffered most and was +most conscious of sin, for Hetty, at first, scarcely knew whither she was +drifting. + +She went into the herb-garden with Susanna one morning during the week that +followed the fatal Sunday. Many of the plants to be used for seasoning--sage, +summer savory, sweet marjoram, and the like--were quite ready for gathering. +As the two women were busy at work, Susanna as full of her thoughts as Hetty +of hers, the sound of a step was heard brushing the grass of the orchard. +Hetty gave a nervous start; her cheeks grew so crimson and her breath so short +that Susanna noticed the change. + +"It will be Brother Ansel coming along to the grindstone," Hetty stammered, +burying her head in the leaves. + +"No," Susanna answered, "it is Nathan. He has a long pole with a saw on the +end. He must be going to take the dead branches off the apple trees; I heard +Ansel tell him yesterday to do it." + +"Yee, that will be it," said Hetty, bending over the plants as if she were +afraid to look elsewhere. + +Nathan came nearer to the herb-garden. He was a tall, stalwart, handsome +enough fellow, even in his quaint working garb. As the Sisters spun and wove +the cloth as well as cut and made the men's garments, and as the Brothers +themselves made the shoes, there was naturally no great air of fashion about +the Shaker raiment; but Nathan carried it better than most. His skin was fair +and rosy, the down on his upper lip showed dawning manhood, and when he took +off his broad-brimmed straw hat and stretched to his full height to reach the +upper branches of the apple trees, he made a picture of clean, wholesome, +vigorous youth. + +Suddenly Susanna raised her head and surprised Hetty looking at the lad with +all her heart in her eyes. At the same moment Nathan turned, and before he +could conceal the telltale ardor of his glance, it had sped to Hetty. With the +instinct of self-preservation he stooped instantly as if to steady the saw on +the pole, but it was too late to mend matters: his tale was told so far as +Susanna was concerned; but it was better she should suspect than one of the +Believers or Eldress Abby. + +Susanna worked on in silent anxiety. The likelihood of such crises as this had +sometimes crossed her mind, and knowing how frail human nature is, she often +marveled that instances seemed so infrequent. Her instinct told her that in +every Community the risk must exist, even though all were doubly warned and +armed against the temptations that flesh is heir to; yet no hint of danger had +showed itself during the months in which she had been a member of the Shaker +family. She had heard the Elder's plea to the young converts to take up "a +full cross against the flesh"; she had listened to Eldress Abby when she told +them that the natural life, its thoughts, passions, feelings, and +associations, must be turned against once and forever; but her heart melted in +pity for the two poor young things struggling helplessly against instincts of +which they hardly knew the meaning, so cloistered had been the life they +lived. The kind, conscientious hands that had fed them would now seem hard and +unrelenting; the place that had been home would turn to a prison; the life +that Elder Gray preached, "the life of a purer godliness than can be attained +by marriage," had seemed difficult, perhaps, but possible; and now how cold +and hopeless it would appear to these two young, undisciplined, flaming +hearts! + +"Hetty dear, talk to me!" whispered Susanna, softly touching her shoulder, and +wondering if she could somehow find a way to counsel the girl in her +perplexity. + +Hetty started rebelliously to her feet as Nathan moved away farther into the +orchard. "If you say a single thing to me, or a word about me to Eldress Abby, +I'll run away this very day. Nobody has any right to speak to me, and I just +want to be let alone! It's all very well for you," she went on passionately. +"What have you had to give up? Nothing but a husband you did n't love and a +home you did n't want to stay in. Like as not you'll be a Shaker, and they'll +take you for a saint; but anyway you'll have had your life." + +"You are right, Hetty," said Susanna, quietly; "but oh! my dear, the world +outside isn't such a Paradise for young girls like you, motherless and +fatherless and penniless. You have a good home here; can't you learn to like +it?" + +"Out in the world people can do as they like and nobody thinks of calling them +wicked!" sobbed Hetty, flinging herself down, and putting her head in +Susanna's aproned lap. "Here you've got to live like an angel, and if you +don't, you've got to confess every wrong thought you've had, when the time +comes." + +"Whatever you do, Hetty, be open and aboveboard; don't be hasty and foolish, +or you may be sorry forever afterwards." + +Hetty's mood changed again suddenly to one of mutiny, and she rose to her +feet. + +"You have n't got any right to interfere with me anyway, Susanna; and if you +think it's your duty to tell tales, you'll only make matters worse"; and so +saying she took her basket and fled across the fields like a hunted hare. + +That evening, as Hetty left the infirmary, where she had been sent with a +bottle of liniment for the nursing Sisters, she came upon Nathan standing +gloomily under the spruce trees near the back of the building. It was eight +o'clock and quite dark. It had been raining during the late afternoon and the +trees were still dripping drearily. Hetty came upon Nathan so suddenly, that, +although he had been in her thoughts, she gave a frightened little cry when he +drew her peremptorily under the shadow of the branches. The rules that govern +the Shaker Community are very strict, but in reality the true Believer never +thinks of them as rules, nor is trammeled by them. They are fixed habits of +the blood, as common, as natural, as sitting or standing, eating or drinking. +No Brother is allowed to hold any lengthy interview with a Sister, nor to +work, walk, or drive with her alone; but these protective customs, which all +are bound in honor to keep, are too much a matter of everyday life to be +strange or irksome. + +"I must speak to you, Hetty," whispered Nathan. "I cannot bear it any longer +alone. What shall we do?" + +"Do?" echoed Hetty, trembling. + +"Yes, _do_." There was no pretense of asking her if she loved or suffered, or +lived in torture and suspense. They had not uttered a word to each other, but +their eyes had "shed meanings." + +"You know we can't go on like this," he continued rapidly. "We can't eat their +food, stay alongside of them, pray their prayers and act a lie all the time, +we can't!" + +"Nay, we can't!" said Hetty. "Oh, Nathan, shall we confess all and see if they +will help us to resist temptation? I know that's what Susanna would want me to +do, but oh! I should dread it." + +"Nay, it is too late," Nathan answered drearily. "They could not help us, and +we should be held under suspicion forever after." + +"I feel so wicked and miserable and unfaithful, I don't know what to do!" +sobbed Hetty. + +"Yee, so do I!" the lad answered. "And I feel bitter against my father, too. +He brought me here to get rid of me, because he did n't dare leave me on +somebody's doorstep. He ought to have come back when I was grown a man and +asked me if I felt inclined to be a Shaker, and if I was good enough to be +one!" + +"And my stepfather would n't have me in the house, so my mother had to give me +away; but they're both dead, and I'm alone in the world, though I've never +felt it, because the Sisters are so kind. Now they will hate me--though they +don't hate anybody." + +"You've got me, Hetty! We must go away and be married. We'd better go tonight +to the minister in Albion." + +"What if he would n't do it?" + +"Why should n't he? Shakers take no vows, though I feel bound, hand and foot, +out of gratitude. If any other two young folks went to him, he would marry +them; and if he refuses, there are two other ministers in Albion, besides two +more in Buryfield, five miles farther. If they won't marry us tonight, I'll +leave you in some safe home and we 'll walk to Portland tomorrow. I'm young +and strong, and I know I can earn our living somehow." + +"But we have n't the price of a lodging or a breakfast between us," Hetty said +tearfully. "Would it be sinful to take some of my basketwork and send back the +money next week?" + +"Yee, it would be so," Nathan answered sternly. "The least we can do is to go +away as empty-handed as we came. I can work for our breakfast." + +"Oh, I can't bear to disappoint Eldress Abby," cried Hetty, breaking anew into +tears. "She'll say we've run away to live on the lower plane after agreeing to +crucify Nature and follow the angelic life!" + +"I know; but there are five hundred people in Albion all living in marriage, +and we shan't be the only sinners!" Nathan argued. "Oh, Sister Hetty, dear +Hetty, keep up your spirits and trust to me!" + +Nathan's hand stole out and met Hetty's in its warm clasp, the first hand +touch that the two ignorant young creatures had ever felt. Nathan's knowledge +of life had been a journey to the Canterbury Shakers in New Hampshire with +Brother Issachar; Hetty's was limited to a few drives into Albion village, and +half a dozen chats with the world's people who came to the Settlement to buy +basketwork. + +"I am not able to bear the Shaker life!" sighed Nathan. "Elder Gray allows +there be such!" + +"Nor I," murmured Hetty. "Eldress Harriet knows I am no saint!" + +Hetty's head was now on Nathan's shoulder. The stiff Shaker cap had resisted +bravely, but the girl's head had yielded to the sweet proximity. Youth called +to youth triumphantly; the Spirit was unheard, and all the theories of +celibacy and the angelic life that had been poured into their ears vanished +into thin air. The thick shade of the spruce tree hid the kiss that would have +been so innocent, had they not given themselves to the Virgin Church; the +drip, drip, drip of the branches on their young heads passed unheeded. + +Then, one following the other silently along the highroad, hurrying along in +the shadows of the tall trees, stealing into the edge of the woods, or hiding +behind a thicket of alders at the fancied sound of a footstep or the distant +rumble of a wagon, Nathan and Hetty forsook the faith of Mother Ann and went +out into the world as Adam and Eve left the garden, with the knowledge of good +and evil implanted in their hearts. The voice of Eldress Abby pursued Hetty in +her flight like the voice in a dream. She could hear its clear impassioned +accents, saying, "The children of this world marry; but the children of the +resurrection do not marry, for they are as the angels." The solemn tones grew +fainter and fainter as Hetty's steps led her farther and farther away from the +quiet Shaker village and its drab-clad Sisters, and at last they almost died +into silence, because Nathan's voice was nearer and Nathan's voice was dearer. + + + + +VIII + +Concerning Backsliders + + +There was no work in the herb-garden now, but there was never a moment from +dawn till long after dusk when the busy fingers of the Shaker Sisters were +still. When all else failed there was the knitting: socks for the Brothers and +stockings for the Sisters and socks and stockings of every size for the +children. One of the quaint sights of the Settlement to Susanna was the clump +of young Sisters on the porch of the girls' building, knitting, knitting, in +the afternoon sun. Even little Shaker Jane and Mary, Maria and Lucinda, had +their socks in hand, and plied their short knitting-needles soberly and not +unskillfully. The sight of their industry incited the impetuous Sue to effort, +and under the patient tutelage of Sister Martha she mastered the gentle art. +Susanna never forgot the hour when, coming from her work in the seed-room, she +crossed the grass with a message to Martha, and saw the group of children and +girls on the western porch, a place that caught every ray of afternoon sun, +the last glint of twilight, and the first hint of sunset glow. Sister Martha +had been reading the Sabbath-School lesson for the next day, and as Susanna +neared the building, Martha's voice broke into a hymn. Falteringly the girls' +voices followed the lead, uncertain at first of words or tune, but gaining +courage and strength as they went on:-- + + "As the waves of the mighty ocean + Gospel love we will circulate, + And as we give, in due proportion, + We of the heavenly life partake. + Heavenly Life, Glorious Life, + Resurrecting, Soul-Inspiring, + Regenerating Gospel Life, + It leadeth away from all sin and strife." + + The clear, innocent treble sounded sweetly in the virgin stillness and +solitude of the Settlement, and as Susanna drew closer she stopped under a +tree to catch the picture--Sister Martha, grave, tall, discreet, singing with +all her soul and marking time with her hands, so accustomed to the upward and +downward movement of the daily service. The straight, plain dresses were as +fresh and smooth as perfect washing could make them, and the round childlike +faces looked quaint and sweet with the cropped hair tucked under the stiff +little caps. Sue was seated with Mary and Jane on the steps, and Susanna saw +with astonishment that her needles were moving to and fro and she was knitting +as serenely and correctly as a mother in Israel; singing, too, in a delicate +little treble that was like a skylark's morning note. Susanna could hear her +distinctly as she delightedly flung out the long words so dear to her soul and +so difficult to dull little Jane and Mary:-- + + "Resurrecting, Soul-Inspiring, + Regenerating Gospel Life, + It leadeth away from all sin and strife." + + Jane's cap was slightly unsettled, causing its wearer to stop knitting now +and then and pull it forward or push it back; and in one of these little +feminine difficulties Susanna saw Sue reach forward and deftly transfer the +cap to her own head. Jane was horrified, but rather slow to wrath and equally +slow in ingenuity. Sue looked a delicious Shaker with her delicate face, her +lovely eyes, and her yellow hair grown into soft rings; and quite intoxicated +with her cap, her knitting, and the general air of holiness so unexpectedly +emanating from her, she moved her little hands up and down, as the tune rose +and fell, in a way that would have filled Eldress Abby with joy. Susanna's +heart beat fast, and she wondered for a moment, as she went back to her room, +whether she could ever give Sue a worldly childhood more free from danger than +the life she was now living. She found letters from Aunt Louisa and Jack on +reaching her room, and they lay in her lap under a pile of towels, to be read +and reread while her busy needle flew over the coarse crash. Sue stole in +quietly, kissed her mother's cheek, and sat down on her stool by the window, +marveling, with every "under" of the needle and "over" of the yarn, that it +was she, Sue Hathaway, who was making a real stocking. + +Jack's pen was not that of an especially ready writer, but he had a practical +way of conveying considerable news. His present contributions, when freed from +their phonetic errors and spelled in Christian fashion, read somewhat as +follows: + +Father says I must write to you every week, even if I make him do without, so +I will. I am well, and so is Aunt Louisa, and any boy that lives with her has +to toe the mark, I tell you; but she is good and has fine things to eat every +meal. What did Sue get for her birthday? I got a book from father and one from +Aunt Louisa and the one from you that you told her to buy. It is queer that +people will give a boy books when he has only one knife, and that a broken +one. There's a book prize to be given at the school, and I am pretty afraid I +will get that, too; it would be just my luck. Teachers think about nothing but +books and what good they do, but I heard of a boy that had a grand knife with +five sharp blades and a corkscrew, and in a shipwreck he cut all the ropes, so +the sail came down that was carrying them on to the rocks, and then by boring +a hole with his corkscrew all the water leaked out of the ship that had been +threatening to sink the sailors. I could use a little pocket money, as Aunt +Louisa keeps me short. +... I have been spending Sunday with father, and had a pretty good time, not +so very. Father will take me about more when he stops going to the store, +which will be next week for good. The kitchen floor is new painted, and Ellen +says it sticks, and Aunt Louisa is going to make Ellen clean house in case you +come home. Do you like where you are? Our teacher told the girls' teacher it +seemed a long stay for any one who had a family, and the boys at school call +me a half orphan and say my mother has left me and so my father has to board +me in the country. My money is run out again. I sat down in a puddle this +afternoon, but it dried up pretty quick and did n't hurt my clothes, so no +more from your son + JACK. + +This was the sort of message that had been coming to Susanna of late, bringing +up little pictures of home duties and responsibilities, homely tasks and +trials. "John giving up the store for good"; what did that mean? Had he gone +from bad to worse in the solitude that she had hoped might show him the +gravity of his offenses, the error of his ways? In case she should die, what +then would become of the children? Would Louisa accept the burden of Jack, for +whom she had never cared? Would the Shakers take Sue? She would be safe; +perhaps she would always be happy; but brother and sister would be divided and +brought up as strangers. Would little Sue, grown to big Sue, say some time or +other, "My mother renounced the world for herself, but what right had she to +renounce it for me? Why did she rob me of the dreams of girlhood and the +natural hopes of women, when I was too young to give consent?" These and other +unanswerable questions continually drifted through Susanna's mind, disturbing +its balance and leaving her like a shuttlecock bandied to and fro between +conflicting blows. + +"Mardie," came a soft little voice from across the room; "Mardie, what is a +backslider?" + +"Where did you hear that long word, Sue?" asked Susanna, rousing herself from +her dream. + +"'T is n't so long as 'regenerating' and more easier." + +"Regenerating means 'making over,' you know." + +"There'd ought to be children's words and grownup words,--that's what I +think," said Sue, decisively; "but what does 'backslider' mean?" + +"A backslider is one who has been climbing up a hill and suddenly begins to +slip back." + +"Does n't his feet take hold right, or why does he slip?" + +"Perhaps he can't manage his feet;--perhaps they just won't climb." 295 + + "Yes, or p'raps he just does n't want to climb any more; but it must be +frightensome, sliding backwards." + +"I suppose it is." + +"Is it wicked?" + +"Why, yes, it is, generally; perhaps always." + +"Brother Nathan and Sister Hetty were backsliders; Sister Tabitha said so. She +told Jane never to speak their names again any more than if they was dead." + +"Then you had better not speak of them, either." + +"There's so many things better not to speak of in the world, sometimes I think +'t would be nicer to be an angel." + +"Nicer, perhaps, but one has to be very good to be an angel." + +"Backsliders could n't be angels, I s'pose?" + +"Not while they were backsliders; but perhaps they'd begin to climb again, and +then in time they might grow to be angels." + +"I should n't think likely," remarked Sue, decisively, clicking her needles as +one who could settle most spiritual problems in a jiffy. "I think the sliding +kind is diff'rent from the climbing kind, and they don't make easy angels." + +A long pause followed this expression of opinion, this simple division of the +human race, at the start, into sheep and goats. Then presently the untiring +voice broke the stillness again. + +"Nathan and Hetty slid back when they went away from here. Did we backslide +when we left Fardie and Jack?" + +"I'm not sure but that we did," said poor Susanna. + +"There's children-Shakers, and brother-and-sister Shakers, but no father-and- +mother Shakers?" + +"No; they think they can do just as much good in the world without being +mothers and fathers." + +"Do you think so?" + +"Ye-es, I believe I do." + +"Well, are you a truly Shaker, or can't you be till you wear a cap?" + +"I'm not a Shaker yet, Sue." + +"You're just only a mother?" + +"Yes, that's about all." + +"Maybe we'd better go back to where there's not so many Sisters and more +mothers, so you 'll have somebody to climb togedder with?" + +"I could climb here, Sue, and so could you." + +"Yes, but who'll Fardie and Jack climb with? I wish they'd come and see us. +Brother Ansel would make Fardie laugh, and Jack would love farmwork, and we'd +all be so happy. I miss Fardie awfully! He did n't speak to me much, but I +liked to look at his curly hair and think how lovely it would be if he did +take notice of me and play with me." + +A sob from Susanna brought Sue, startled, to her side. + +"You break my heart, Sue! You break it every day with the things you say. +Don't you love me, Sue?" + +"More'n tongue can tell!" cried Sue, throwing herself into her mother's arms. +"Don't cry, darling Mardie! I won't talk any more, not for days and days! Let +me wipe your poor eyes. Don't let Elder Gray see you crying, or he'll think +I've been naughty. He's just going in downstairs to see Eldress Abby. Was it +wrong what I said about backsliding, or what, Mardie? We'll help each udder +climb, an' then we'll go home an' help poor lonesome Fardie; shall we?" + + +"Abby!" called Elder Gray, stepping into the entry of the Office Building. + +"Yee, I'm coming," Eldress Abby answered from the stairway. "Go right out and +sit down on the bench by the door, where I can catch a few minutes' more light +for my darning; the days seem to be growing short all to once. Did Lemuel have +a good sale of basket-work at the mountains? Rosetta has n't done so well for +years at Old Orchard. We seem to be prospering in every material direction, +Daniel, but my heart is heavy somehow, and I have to be instant in prayer to +keep from discouragement." + +"It has n't been an altogether good year with us spiritually," confessed +Daniel; "perhaps we needed chastening." + +"If we needed it, we've received it," Abby ejaculated, as she pushed her +darning-ball into the foot of a stocking. "Nothing has happened since I came +here thirty years ago that has troubled me like the running away of Nathan and +Hetty. If they had been new converts, we should have thought the good seed had +n't got fairly rooted, but those children were brought to us when Nathan was +eleven and Hetty nine." + +"I well remember, for the boy's father and the girl's mother came on the same +train; a most unusual occurrence to receive two children in one day." + +"I have cause to remember Hetty in her first month, for she was as wild as a +young hawk. She laughed in meeting the first Sunclay, and when she came back, +I told her to sit behind me in silence for half an hour while I was reading my +Bible. 'Be still now, Hetty, and labor to repent,' I said. When the time was +up, she said in a meek little mite of a voice, 'I think I'm least in the +Kingdom now, Eldress Abby!' 'Then run outdoors,' I said. She kicked up her +heels like a colt and was through the door in a second. Not long afterwards I +put my hands behind me to tie my apron tighter, and if that child had n't +taken my small scissors lying on the table and cut buttonholes all up and down +my strings, hundreds of them, while she was 'laboring to repent.'" + +Elder Gray smiled reminiscently, though he had often heard the story before. +"Neither of the children came from godly families," he said, "but at least the +parents never interfered with us nor came here putting false ideas into their +children's heads." + +"That's what I say," continued Abby; "and now, after ten years' training and +discipline in the angelic life, Hetty being especially promising, to think of +their going away together, and worse yet, being married in Albion village +right at our very doors; I don't hardly dare to go to bed nights for fear of +hearing in the morning that some of the other young folks have been led astray +by this foolish performance of Hetty's; I know it was Hetty's fault; Nathan +never had ingenuity enough to think and plan it all out." + +"Nay, nay, Abby, don't be too hard on the girl; I've watched Nathan closely, +and he has been in a dangerous and unstable state, even as long ago as his +last confession; but this piece of backsliding, grievous as it is, does n't +cause me as much sorrow as the fall of Brother Ephraim. To all appearance he +had conquered his appetite, and for five years he has led a sober life. I had +even great hopes of him for the ministry, and suddenly, like a great cloud in +the blue sky, has come this terrible visitation, this reappearance of the old +Adam. 'Ephraim has returned to his idols.'" + +"How have you decided to deal with him, Daniel?" + +"It is his first offense since he cast in his lot with us; we must rebuke, +chastise, and forgive." + +"Yee, yee, I agree to that; but how if he makes us the laughing-stock of the +community and drags our sacred banner in the dust? We can't afford to have one +of our order picked up in the streets by the world's people." + +"Have the world's people found an infallible way to keep those of their order +out of the gutters?" asked Elder Gray. "Ephraim seems repentant; if he is +willing to try again, we must be willing to do as much." + +"Yee, Daniel, you are right. Another matter that causes me anxiety is Susanna. +I never yearned for a soul as I yearn for hers! She has had the advantage of +more education and more reading than most of us have ever enjoyed; she's +gifted in teaching and she wins the children. She's discreet and spiritually +minded; her life in the world, even with the influence of her dissipated +husband, has n't really stained, only humbled her; she would make such a +Shaker, if she was once 'convinced,' as we have n't gathered in for years and +years; but I fear she's slipping, slipping away, Daniel!" + +"What makes you feel so now, particularly?" + +"She's diff'rent as time goes on. She's had more letters from that place where +her boy is; she cries nights, and though she does n't relax a mite with her +work, she drags about sometimes like a bird with one wing." + +Elder Daniel took off his broadbrimmed hat to cool his forehead and hair, +lifting his eyes to the first pale stars that were trembling in the sky, +hesitating in silver and then quietly deepening into gold. + +Brother Ansel was a Believer because he had no particular love for the world +and no great susceptibility to its temptations; but what had drawn Daniel Gray +from the open sea into this quiet little backwater of a Shaker Settlement? +After an adventurous early life, in which, as if youth-intoxicated, he had +plunged from danger to danger, experience to experience, he suddenly found +himself in a society of which he had never so much as heard, a company of +celibate brothers and sisters holding all goods and possessions in common, and +trying to live the "angelic life" on earth. Illness detained him for a month +against his will, but at the end of that time he had joined the Community; and +although it had been twenty-five years since his gathering in, he was still +steadfast in the faith. + +His character was of puritanical sternness; he was a strict disciplinarian, +and insisted upon obedience to the rules of Shaker life, "the sacred laws of +Zion," as he was wont to term them. He magnified his office, yet he was of a +kindly disposition easily approached by children, and not without a quaint +old-time humor. + +There was a long pause while the two faithful leaders of the little flock were +absorbed in thought; then the Elder said: "Susanna's all you say, and the +child, well, if she could be purged of her dross, I never saw a creature +better fitted to live the celestial life; but we must not harbor any divided +hearts here. When the time comes, we must dismiss her with our blessing." + +"Yee, I suppose so," said Eldress Abby, loyally, but it was with a sigh. Had +she and Tabitha been left to their own instincts, they would have gone out +into the highways and hedges, proselyting with the fervor of Mother Ann's day +and generation. + +"After all, Abby," said the Elder, rising to take his leave, still in a sort +of mild trance,"after all, Abby, I suppose the Shakers don't own the whole of +heaven. I'd like to think so, but I can't. It's a big place, and it belongs to +God." + + + + + +IX + +Love Manifold + + +The woods on the shores of Massabesic Pond were stretches of tapestry, where +every shade of green and gold, olive and brown, orange and scarlet, melted the +one into the other. The somber pines made a deep-toned background; patches of +sumach gave their flaming crimson; the goldenrod grew rank and tall in +glorious profusion, and the maples outside the Office Building were balls of +brilliant carmine. The air was like crystal, and the landscape might have been +bathed in liquid amber, it was so saturated with October yellow. + +Susanna caught her breath as she threw her chamber window wider open in the +early morning; for the greater part of the picture had been painted during the +frosty night. + +"Throw your little cape round your shoulders and come quickly, Sue!" she +exclaimed. + +The child ran to her side. "Oh, what a goldy, goldy morning!" she cried. + +One crimson leaf with a long heavy stem that acted as a sort of rudder, came +down to the windowsill with a sidelong scooping flight, while two or three +gayly painted ones, parted from the tree by the same breeze, floated airily +along as if borne on unseen wings, finally alighting on Sue's head and +shoulders like tropical birds. + +"You cried in the night, Mardie!" said Sue. "I heard you snifferling and +getting up for your hank'chief; but I did n't speak 'cause it's so dreadful to +be _catched_ crying." + +"Kneel down beside me and give me part of your cape," her mother answered. +"I'm going to let my sad heart fly right out of the window into those +beautiful trees." + +"And maybe a glad heart will fly right in!" the child suggested. + +"Maybe. Oh! we must cuddle close and be still; Elder Gray's going to sit down +under the great maple; and do you see, all the Brothers seem to be up early +this morning, just as we are?" + +"More love, Elder Gray!" called Issachar, on his way to the toolhouse. + +"More love, Brother Issachar!" + +"More love, Brother Ansel!" + +"More love, Brother Calvin!" + +"More love! .... More love! .... More love!" So the quaint but not uncommon +Shaker greeting passed from Brother to Brother; and as Tabitha and Martha and +Rosetta met on their way to dairy and laundry and seed-house, they, too, +hearing the salutation, took up the refrain, and Susanna and Sue heard again +from the women's voices that beautiful morning wish, "More love! More love!" +speeding from heart to heart and lip to lip. + +Mother and child were very quiet. + +"More love, Sue!" said Susanna, clasping her closely. + +"More love, Mardie!" whispered the child, smiling and entering into the spirit +of the salutation. "Let's turn our heads Farnham way! I'll take Jack and you +take Fardie, and we'll say togedder, 'More love'; shall we?" + +"More love, John." + +"More love, Jack." + +The words floated out over the trees in the woman's trembling voice and the +child's treble. + +"Elder Gray looks tired though he's just got up," Sue continued. + +"He is not strong," replied her mother, remembering Brother Ansel's statement +that the Elder "wa'n't diseased anywheres, but did n't have no durability." + +"The Elder would have a lovely lap," Sue remarked presently. + +"_What_?" + +"A nice lap to sit in. Fardie has a nice lap, too, and Uncle Joel Atterbury, +but not Aunt Louisa; she lets you slide right off; it's a bony, hard lap. I +love Elder Gray, and I climbed on his lap one day. He put me right down, but +I'm sure he likes children. I wish I could take right hold of his hand and +walk all over the farm, but he would n't let me, I s'pose.-- _More_love_, +_Elder_Gray_!" she cried suddenly, bobbing up above the windowsill and shaking +her fairy hand at him. + +The Elder looked up at the sound of the glad voice. No human creature could +have failed to smile back into the roguish face or have treated churlishly the +sweet, confident little greeting. The heart of a real man must have an +occasional throb of the father, and when Daniel Gray rose from his seat under +the maple and called, "More love, child!" there was something strange and +touching in his tone. He moved away from the tree to his morning labors with +the consciousness of something new to conquer. Long, long ago he had risen +victorious above many of the temptations that flesh is heir to. Women were his +good friends, his comrades, his sisters; they no longer troubled the waters of +his soul; but here was a child who stirred the depths; who awakened the +potential father in him so suddenly and so strongly that he longed for the +sweetness of a human tie that could bind him to her. But the current of the +Elder's being was set towards sacrifice and holiness, and the common joys of +human life he felt could never and must never be his; so he went to the daily +round, the common task, only a little paler, a little soberer than was his +wont. + +"More love, Martha!" said Susanna when she met Martha a little later in the +day. + +"More love, Susanna!" Martha replied cheerily. "You heard our Shaker greeting, +I see! It was the beautiful weather, the fine air and glorious colors, that +brought the inspiration this morning, I guess! It took us all out of doors, +and then it seemed to get into the blood. Besides, tomorrow's the Day of +Sacrifice, and that takes us all on to the mountaintops of feeling. There have +been times when I had to own up to a lack of love." + +"You, Martha, who have such wonderful influence over the children, such +patience, such affection!" + +"It was n't always so. When I was first put in charge of the children, I did +n't like the work. They did n't respond to me somehow, and when they were out +of my sight they were ugly and disobedient. My natural mother, Maria Holmes, +took care of the girls' clothing. One day she said to me, 'Martha, do you love +the girls?' + +"'Some of them are very unlovely,' I replied. + +"'I know that,' she said, 'but you can never help them unless you love them.' + +"I thought mother very critical, for I strove scrupulously to do my duty. A +few days after this the Elder said to me: 'Martha, do you love the girls?' I +responded, 'Not very much.' + +"'You cannot save them unless you love them,' he said. "Then I answered, 'I +will labor for a gift of love.' "When the work of the day was over, and the +girls were in bed, I would take off my shoes and spend several hours of the +night walking the floor, kneeling in prayer that I might obtain the coveted +gift. For five weeks I did this without avail, when suddenly one night when +the moon was full and I was kneeling by the window, a glory seemed to +overshadow the crest of a high mountain in the distance. I thought I heard a +voice say: '_Martha, I baptize you into the spirit of love!_' I sat there +trembling for more than an hour, and when I rose, I felt that I could love the +meanest human being that ever walked the earth. I have never had any trouble +with children since that night of the vision. They seem different to me, and I +dare say I am different to them." + +"I wish I could see visions!" exclaimed Susanna. "Oh, for a glory that would +speak to me and teach me truth and duty! Life is all mist, whichever way I +turn. I'd like to be lifted on to a high place where I could see clearly." + +She leaned against the frame of the open kitchen door, her delicate face +quivering with emotion and longing, her attitude simplicity and +unconsciousness itself. The baldest of Shaker prose turned to purest poetry +when Susanna dipped it in the alembic of her own imagination. + +"Labor for the gift of sight!" said Martha, who believed implicitly in spirits +and visions. "Labor this very night." + +It must be said for Susanna that she had never ceased laboring in her own way +for many days. The truth was that she felt herself turning from marriage. She +had lived now so long in the society of men and women who regarded it as an +institution not compatible with the highest spiritual development that +unconsciously her point of view had changed; changed all the more because she +had been so unhappy with the man she had chosen. Curiously enough, and +unfortunately enough for Susanna Hathaway's peace of mind, the greater +aversion she felt towards the burden of the old life, towards the irksomeness +of guiding a weaker soul, towards the claims of husband on wife, the stronger +those claims appeared. If they had never been assumed!--Ah, but they had; +there was the rub! One sight of little Sue sleeping tranquilly beside her; one +memory of rebellious, faulty Jack; one vision of John, either as needing or +missing her, the rightful woman, or falling deeper in the wiles of the wrong +one for very helplessness;--any of these changed Susanna the would-be saint, +in an instant, into Susanna the wife and mother. + +"_Speak to me for Thy Compassion's sake_," she prayed from the little book of +Confessions that her mother had given her. "_I will follow after Thy Voice!_" + +"Would you betray your trust?" asked conscience. + +"No, not intentionally." + +"Would you desert your post?" + +"Never, willingly." + +"You have divided the family; taken a little quail bird out of the home-nest +and left sorrow behind you. Would God justify you in that?" + +For the first time Susanna's "No" rang clearly enough for her to hear it +plainly; for the first time it was followed by no vague misgivings, no +bewilderment, no unrest or indecision. "_I turn hither and hither; Thy +purposes are hid from me, but I commend my soul to Thee_!" + +Then a sentence from the dear old book came into her memory: "_And thy dead +things shall revive, and thy weak things shall be made whole_." + +She listened, laying hold of every word, till the nervous clenching of her +hands subsided, her face relaxed into peace. Then she lay down beside Sue, +creeping close to her for the warmth and comfort and healing of her innocent +touch, and, closing her eyes serenely, knew no more till the morning broke, +the Sabbath morning of Confession Day. + + + + + +X + +Brother and Sister + + +If Susanna's path had grown more difficult, more filled with anxieties, so had +John Hathaway's. The protracted absence of his wife made the gossips conclude +that the break was a final one. Jack was only half contented with his aunt, +and would be fairly mutinous in the winter, while Louisa's general attitude +was such as to show clearly that she only kept the boy for Susanna's sake. + +Now and then there was a terrifying hint of winter in the air, and the days of +Susanna's absence seemed eternal to John Hathaway. Yet he was a man about whom +there would have been but one opinion: that when deprived of a rather superior +and high-minded wife and the steadying influence of home and children, he +would go completely "to the dogs," whither he seemed to be hurrying when +Susanna's wifely courage failed. That he had done precisely the opposite and +the unexpected thing, shows us perhaps that men are not on the whole as +capable of estimating the forces of their fellow men as is God the maker of +men, who probably expects something of the worst of them up to the very last. + +It was at the end of a hopeless Sunday when John took his boy back to his +aunt's towards night. He wondered drearily how a woman dealt with a ten-year- +old boy who from sunrise to sunset had done every mortal thing he ought not to +have done, and had left undone everything that he had been told to do; and, as +if to carry out the very words of the church service, neither was there any +health in him; for he had an inflamed throat and a whining, irritable, +discontented temper that could be borne only by a mother, a father being +wholly inadequate and apparently never destined for the purpose. + +It was a mild evening late in October, and Louisa sat on the porch with her +pepper-and-salt shawl on and a black wool "rigolette" tied over her head. +Jack, very sulky and unresigned, was dispatched to bed under the care of the +one servant, who was provided with a cupful of vinegar, salt, and water, for a +gargle. John had more than an hour to wait for a returning train to Farnham, +and although ordinarily he would have preferred to spend the time in the +silent and unreproachful cemetery rather than in the society of his sister +Louisa, he was too tired and hopeless to do anything but sit on the steps and +smoke fitfully in the semidarkness. Louisa was much as usual. She well knew-- +who better?--her brother's changed course of life, but neither encouragement +nor compliment were in her line. Why should a man be praised for living a +respectable life? That John had really turned a sort of moral somersault and +come up a different creature, she did not realize in the least, nor the +difficulties surmounted in such a feat; but she did give him credit secretly +for turning about face and behaving far more decently than she could ever have +believed possible. She had no conception of his mental torture at the time, +but if he kept on doing well, she privately intended to inform Susanna and at +least give her a chance of trying him again, if absence had diminished her +sense of injury. One thing that she did not know was that John was on the eve +of losing his partnership. When Jack had said that his father was not going +back to the store the next week, she thought it meant simply a vacation. +Divided hearts, broken vows, ruined lives she could bear the sight of these +with considerable philosophy, but a lost income was a very different, a very +tangible thing. She almost lost her breath when her brother knocked the ashes +from his meerschaum and curtly told her of the proposed change in his business +relations. + +"I don't know what I shall do yet," he said, "whether I shall set up for +myself in a small way or take a position in another concern,--that is, if I +can get one--my stock of popularity seems to be pretty low just now in +Farnham. I'd move away tomorrow and cut the whole gossipy, deceitful, +hypocritical lot of 'em if I was n't afraid of closing the house and so losing +Susanna, if she should ever feel like coming back to us." + +These words and the thought back of them were too much for John's self- +control. The darkness helped him and his need of comfort was abject. Suddenly +he burst out, "Oh, Louisa, for heaven's sake, give me a little crumb of +comfort, if you have any! How can you stand like a stone all these months and +see a man suffering as I have suffered, without giving him a word?" + +"You brought it on yourself," said Louisa, in self-exculpation. + +"Does that make it any easier to bear?" cried John. "Don't you suppose I +remember it every hour, and curse myself the more? You know perfectly well +that I'm a different man today. I don't know what made me change; it was as if +something had been injected into my blood that turned me against everything I +had liked best before. I hate the sight of the men and the women I used to go +with, not because they are any worse, but because they remind me of what I +have lost. I have reached the point now where I have got to have news of +Susanna or go and shoot myself." + +"That would be about the only piece of foolishness you have n't committed +already!" replied Louisa, with a biting satire that would have made any man +let go of the trigger in case he had gone so far as to begin pulling it. + +"Where is she?" John went on, without anger at her sarcasm. "Where is she, how +is she, what is she living on, is she well, is she just as bitter as she was +at first, does she ever speak of coming back? Tell me something, tell me +anything. I will know something. I say I _will_!" + +Louisa's calm demeanor began to show a little agitation, for she was not used +to the sight of emotion. "I can't tell you where Susanna is, for I made her a +solemn promise I would n't unless you or Jack were in danger of some kind; but +I don't mind telling you this much, that she's well and in the safest kind of +a shelter, for she's been living from the first in a Shaker Settlement." + +"Shaker Settlement!" cried John, starting up from his seat on the steps. +"What's that? I know Shaker egg-beaters and garden-seeds and rocking-chairs +and oh, yes, I remember their religion's against marriage. That's the worst +thing you could have told me; that ends all hope; if they once get hold of a +woman like Susanna, they'll never let go of her; if they don't believe in a +woman's marrying a good man, they'd never let her go back to a bad one. Oh, if +I had only known this before; if only you'd told me, Louisa, perhaps I could +have done something. Maybe they take vows or sign contracts, and so I have +lost her altogether." + +"I don't know much about their beliefs, and Susanna never explained them," +returned Louisa, nervously "but now that you've got something to offer her, +why don't you write and ask her to come back to you? I'll send your letter to +her." + +"I don't dare, Louisa, I don't dare," groaned John, leaning his head against +one of the pillars of the porch. "I can't tell you the fear I have of Susanna +after the way I've neglected her this last year. If she should come in at the +gate this minute, I could n't meet her eyes; if you'd read the letter she left +me, you'd feel the same way. I deserved it, to the last word, but oh, it was +like so many separate strokes of lightning, and every one of them burned. It +was nothing but the truth, but it was cut in with a sharp sword. Unless she +should come back to me of her own accord, and she never will, I have n't got +the courage to ask her; just have n't got the courage, that's all there is to +say about it." And here John buried his head in his hands. + +A very queer thing happened to Louisa Banks at this moment. A half-second +before she would have murmured: + + "This rock shall fly From its firm base as soon as I!" + +when all at once, and without warning, a strange something occurred in the +organ which she had always regarded and her opinion had never yet been +questioned as a good, tough, love-tight heart. First there was a flutter and a +tremor running all along her spine; then her eyes filled; then a lump rose in +her throat and choked her; then words trembled on her tongue and refused to be +uttered; then something like a bird--could it have been the highly respectable +good-as-new heart?--throbbed under her black silk Sunday waist; then she grew +like wax from the crown of her head to the soles of her feet; then in a +twinkling, and so unconsciously as to be unashamed of it, she became a sister. + +You have seen a gray November morning melt into an Indian summer noon? Louisa +Banks was like that, when, at the sight of a man in sore trouble, sympathy was +born in her to soften the rockiness of her original makeup. + +"There, there, John, don't be so downhearted," she stammered, drawing her +chair closer and putting her hand on his shoulder. "We'll bring it round +right, you see if we don't. You've done the most yourself already, for I'm +proud of the way you've acted, stiffening right up like an honest man and +showing you've got some good sensible Hathaway stuff in you, after all, and +ain't ashamed to turn your back on your evil ways. Susanna ain't one to refuse +forgiveness." + +"She forgave for a long time, but she refused at last. Why should she change +now?" John asked. + +"You remember she has n't heard a single word from you, nor about you, in that +out-of-the-way place where she's been living," said Louisa, consolingly. "She +thinks you're the same as you were, or worse, maybe. Perhaps she's waiting for +you to make some sign through me, for she don't know that you care anything +about her, or are pining to have her back." + +"Such a woman as Susanna must know better than that!" cried John. "She ought +to know that when a man got used to living with anybody like her, he could +never endure any other kind." + +"How should she know all that? Jack's been writing to her and telling her the +news for the last few weeks, though I have n't said a word about you because I +did n't know how long your reformation was going to hold out; but I won't let +the grass grow under my feet now, till I tell her just how things stand!" + +"You're a good woman, Louisa; I don't see why I never noticed it before." + +"It's because I've been concealing my goodness too much. Stay here with me +tonight and don't go back to brood in that dismal, forsaken house. We'll see +how Jack is in the morning, and if he's all right, take him along with you, +so's to be all there together if Susanna comes back this week, as I kind of +hope she will. Make Ellen have the house all nice and cheerful from top to +bottom, with a good supper ready to put on the table the night she comes. +You'd better pick your asters and take 'em in for the parlor, then I'll cut +the chrysanthemums for you in the middle of the week. The day she comes I'll +happen in, and stay to dinner if you find it's going to be mortifying for you; +but if everything is as I expect it will be, and the way Susanna always did +have things, I'll make for home and leave you to yourselves. Susanna ain't one +to nag and hector and triumph over a man when he's repented." + +John hugged Louisa, pepper-and-salt shawl, black rigolctte, and all, when she +finished this unprecedented speech; and when he went to sleep that night in +the old north chamber, the one he and Louisa had been born in, the one his +father and mother had died in, it was with a little smile of hope on his lips. + + Set her place at hearth and board + As it used to be! + +These were the last words that crossed his waking thoughts. Before Louisa went +to her own bed, she wrote one of her brief and characteristic epistles to +Susanna, but it did not reach her, for the "hills of home" had called John's +wife so insistently on that Sunday, that the next day found her on her way +back to Farnham. + +Dear Susanna [so the letter read], There's a new man in your house at Farnham. +His name is John Hathaway, but he's made all over and it was high time. I say +it's the hand of God! He won't own up that it is, but I'm letting him alone, +for I've done quarreling, though I don't like to see a man get religion and +deny it, for all the world like Peter in the New Testament. If you have n't +used up the last one of your seventy-times-sevens, I think you'd better come +back and forgive your husband. If you don't, you'd better send for your son. +I'm willing to bear the burdens the Lord intends specially for me, but Jack +belongs to you, and a good-sized heavy burden he is, too, for his age. I can't +deny that, if he is a Hathaway. I think he's the kind of a boy that ought to +be put in a barrel and fed through the bunghole till he grows up; but of +course I'm not used to children's ways. + +Be as easy with John at first as you can. I know you 'll say _I_ never was +with my husband, but he was different, he got to like a bracing treatment, +Adlai did. Many's the time he said to me, "Louisa, when you make up our minds, +I'm always contented." But John is n't made that way. He's a changed man; now, +what we've got to do is to _keep_ him changed. He does n't bear you any grudge +for leaving him, so he won't reproach you. + +Hoping to see you before long, I am, + + Yours as usual, + Louisa Banks. + + + + +XI + +"The Open Door" + + +On the Saturday evening before the yearly Day of Sacrifice the spiritual heads +of each Shaker family called upon all the Believers to enter heartily next day +into the humiliations and blessings of open confession. + +The Sabbath dawns upon an awed and solemn household. Footfalls are hushed, the +children's chatter is stilled, and all go to the morning meal in silence. +There is a strange quiet, but it is not sadness; it is a hush, as when in +Israel's camp the silver trumpets sounded and the people stayed in their +tents. "Then," Elder Gray explained to Susanna, "a summons comes to each +Believer, for all have been searching the heart and scanning the life of the +months past. Softly the one called goes to the door of the one appointed by +the Divine Spirit, the human representative who is to receive the gift of the +burdened soul. Woman confesses to woman, man to man; it is the open door that +leads to God." + +Susanna lifted Eldress Abby's latch and stood in her strong, patient presence; +then all at once she knelt impulsively and looked up into her serene eyes. + +"Do you come as a Believer, Susanna?" tremblingly asked the Eldress. + +"No, Eldress Abby. I come as a child of the world who wants to go back to her +duty, and hopes to do it better than she ever did before. She ought to be able +to, because you have chastened her pride, taught her the lesson of patience, +strengthened her will, purified her spirit, and cleansed her soul from +bitterness and wrath. I waited till afternoon when all the confessions were +over. May I speak now?" + +Eldress Abby bowed, but she looked weak and stricken and old. + +"I had something you would have called a vision last night, but I think of it +as a dream, and I know just what led to it. You told me Polly Reed's story, +and the little quail bird had such a charm for Sue that I've repeated it to +her more than once. In my sleep I seemed to see a mother quail with a little +one beside her. The two were always together, happily flying or hopping about +under the trees; but every now and then I heard a sad little note, as of a +deserted bird somewhere in the wood. I walked a short distance, and parting +the branches, saw on the open ground another parent bird and a young one by +its side darting hither and thither, as if lost; they seemed to be restlessly +searching for something, and always they uttered the soft, sad note, as if the +nest had disappeared and they had been parted from the little flock. Of course +my brain had changed the very meaning of the Shaker story and translated it +into different terms, but when I woke this morning, I could think of nothing +but my husband and my boy. The two of them seemed to me to be needing me, +searching for me in the dangerous open country, while I was hidden away in the +safe shelter of the wood--I and the other little quail bird I had taken out of +the nest." + +"Do you think you could persuade your husband to unite with us?" asked Abby, +wiping her eyes. + +The tension of the situation was too tightly drawn for mirth, or Susanna could +have smiled, but she answered soberly, "No; if John could develop the best in +himself, he could be a good husband and father, a good neighbor and citizen, +and an upright business man, but never a Shaker." + +"Did n't he insult your wifely honor and disgrace your home?" "Yes, in the +last few weeks before I left him. All his earlier offenses were more against +himself than me, in a sense. I forgave him many a time, but I am not certain +it was the seventy times seven that the Bible bids us. I am not free from +blame myself. I was hard the last year, for I had lost hope and my pride was +trailing in the dust. I left him a bitter letter, one without any love or hope +or faith in it, just because at the moment I believed I ought, once in my +life, to let him know how I felt toward him." + +"How can you go back and live under his roof with that feeling? It's +degradation." + +"It has changed. I was morbid then, and so wounded and weak that I could not +fight any longer. I am rested now, and calm. My pluck has come back, and my +strength. I've learned a good deal here about casting out my own devils; now I +am going home and help him to cast out his. Perhaps he won't be there; perhaps +he does n't want me, though when he was his very best self he loved me dearly; +but that was long, long ago!" sighed Susanna, drearily. + +"Oh, this thing the world's people call love!" groaned Abby. + +"There is love and love, even in the world outside; for if it is Adam's world +it is God's, too, Abby! The love I gave my husband was good, I think, but it +failed somewhere, and I am going back to try again. I am not any too happy in +leaving you and taking up, perhaps, heavier burdens than those from which I +escaped." + +"Night after night I've prayed to be the means of leading you to the celestial +life," said the Eldress, "but my plaint was not worthy to be heard. Oh, that +God would increase our numbers and so revive our drooping faith! We work, we +struggle, we sacrifice, we pray, we defy the world and deny the flesh, yet we +fail to gather in Believers." + +"Don't say you 've failed, dear, dear Abby!" cried Susanna, pressing the +Eldress's work-stained hands to her lips. "God speaks to you in one voice, to +me in another. Does it matter so much as long as we both hear Him? Surely it's +the hearing and the obeying that counts most! Wish me well, dear friend, and +help me to say goodbye to the Elder." + +The two women found Elder Gray in the office, and Abby, still unresigned, laid +Susanna's case before him. + +"The Great Architect has need of many kinds of workmen in His building," said +the Elder. "There are those who are willing to put aside the ties of flesh for +the kingdom of heaven's sake; 'he that is able to receive it, let him receive +it!'" + +"There may also he those who are willing to take up the ties of the flesh for +the kingdom of heaven's sake," answered Susanna, gently, but with a certain +courage. + +Her face glowed with emotion, her eyes shone, her lips were parted. It was a +new thought. Abby and Daniel gazed at her for a moment without speaking, then +Daniel said: "It's a terrible cross to some of the Brethren and Sisters to +live here outside of the world, but maybe it's more of a cross for such as you +to live in it, under such conditions as have surrounded you of late years. To +pursue good and resist evil, to bear your cross cheerfully and to grow in +grace and knowledge of truth while you're bearing it that's the lesson of +life, I suppose. If you find you can't learn it outside, come back to us, +Susanna." + +"I will," she promised, "and no words can speak my gratitude for what you have +all done for me. Many a time it will come back to me and keep me from +faltering." + +She looked back at him from the open doorway, timidly. + +"Don't forget us, Sue and me, altogether," she said, her eyes filling with +tears. "Come to Farnham, if you will, and see if I am a credit to Shaker +teaching! I shall never be here again, perhaps, and somehow it seems to me as +if you, Elder Gray, with your education and your gifts, ought to be leading a +larger life than this." + +"I've hunted in the wild Maine forests, in my young days; I've speared salmon +in her rivers and shot rapids ill a birchbark canoe," said the Elder, looking +up from the pine table that served as a desk. "I've been before the mast and +seen strange countries; I've fought Indians; I've faced perils on land and +sea; but this Shaker life is the greatest adventure of all!" + +"Adventure?" echoed Susanna, uncomprehendingly. + +"Adventure!" repeated the Elder, smiling at his own thoughts. "Whether I fail, +or whether I succeed, it's a splendid adventure in ethics." + +Abby and Daniel looked at each other when Susanna passed out of the office +door. + +"'They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, +they would have continued with us,'" he quoted quietly. + +Abby wiped her eyes with her apron. "It's a hard road to travel sometimes, +Daniel!" she said. + +"Yee; but think where it leads, Abby, think where it leads! You're not going +to complain of dust when you're treading the King's Highway!" + + +Susanna left the office with a drooping head, knowing the sadness that she had +left behind. Brother Ansel sat under the trees near by, and his shrewd eye +perceived the drift of coming events. + +"Well, Susanna," he drawled, "you're goin' to leave us, like most o' the other +'jiners.' I can see that with one eye shut." + +"Yes," she replied with a half smile; "but you see, Ansel, I 'jined' John +Hathaway before I knew anything about Shaker doctrines." + +"Yee; but what's to prevent your onjinin' him? They used to tie up married +folks in the old times so't they could n't move an inch. When they read the +constitution and bylaws over 'em they used to put in 'till death do us part.' +That's the way my father was hitched to his three wives, but death _did_ 'em +part--fortunately for him!" + +"'Till death us do part' is still in the marriage service," Susanna said, "and +I think of it very often." + +"I want to know if that's there yit!" exclaimed Ansel, with apparent surprise; +"I thought they must be leavin' it out, there's so much onjinin' nowadays! +Well, accordin' to my notions, if there is anything wuss 'n marriage, it's +hevin' it hold till death, for then menfolks don't git any chance of a +speritual life till afterwards. They certainly don't when they're being +dragged down by women-folks an' young ones." + +"I think the lasting part of the bargain makes it all the more solemn," +Susanna argued. + +"Oh, yes, it's solemn enough, but so's a prayer meetin', an' consid'able more +elevatin' "; and here Ansel regarded the surrounding scenery with frowning +disapproval, as if it left much to be desired. + +"Don't you think that there are any agreeable and pleasant women, Ansel?" +ventured Susanna. + +"Land, yes; heaps of 'em; but they all wear Shaker bunnits!" + +"I suppose you know more about the women in the outside world than most of the +Brothers, on account of traveling so much?" + +"I guess anybody 't drives a seed-cart or peddles stuff along the road knows +enough o' women to keep clear of 'em. They 'll come out the kitchen door, +choose their papers o' seasonin' an' bottles o' flavorin', worry you 'bout the +price an' take the aidge off every dime, make up an' then onmake their minds +'bout what they want, ask if it's pure, an' when by good luck you git your +cart out o' the yard, they come runnin' along the road after ye to git ye to +swap a bottle o' vanilla for some spruce gum an' give 'em back the change." + +Susanna could not help smiling at Ansel's arraignment of her sex. "Do you +think they follow you for the pleasure of shopping, or the pleasure of your +conversation, Ansel?" she asked slyly. + +"A little o' both, mebbe; though the pleasure's all on their side," returned +the unchivalrous Ansel. "But take them same women, cut their hair close to +their heads (there's a heap o' foolishness in hair, somehow), purge 'em o' +their vanity, so they won't be lookin' in the glass all the time, make 'em +depend on one another for sassiety, so they won't crave no conversation with +menfolks, an' you git an article that's 'bout as good and 'bout as stiddy as a +man!" + +"You never seem to remember that men are just as dangerous to women's +happiness and goodness as women are to men's," said Susanna, courageously. + +"It don't seem so to me! Never see a man, hardly, that could stick to the +straight an' narrer if a woman wanted him to go the other way. Weak an' +unstable as water, menfolks are, an' women are pow'ful strong." + +"Have your own way, Ansel! I'm going back to the world, but no man shall ever +say I hindered him from being good. You'll see women clearer in another +world." + +"There'll be precious few of 'em to see!" retorted Ansel. "You're about the +best o' the lot, but even you have a kind of a managin' way with ye, besides +fillin' us all full o' false hopes that we'd gathered in a useful Believer, +one cal'lated to spread the doctrines o' Mother Ann!" + +"I know, I know, Ansel, and oh, how sorry I am! You would never believe how I +long to stay and help you, never believe how much you have helped me! Goodbye, +Ansel; you've made me smile when my heart was breaking. I shan't forget you!" + + + + + +XII + +The Hills of Home + + +Susanna had found Sue in the upper chamber at the Office Building, and began +to make the simple preparations for her homeward journey. It was the very hour +when John Hathaway was saying:-- + + "Set her place at hearth and board + As it used to be." + + Sue interfered with the packing somewhat by darting to and fro, bringing her +mother sacred souvenirs given her by the Shaker sisters and the children-- +needle-books, pin-balls, thimble-cases, packets of flower-seeds, polished +pebbles, bottles of flavoring extract. + +"This is for Fardie," she would say, "and this for Jack and this for Ellen and +this for Aunt Louisa--the needle-book, 'cause she's so useful. Oh, I'm glad +we're going home, Mardie, though I do love it here, and I was most ready to be +a truly Shaker. It's kind of pityish to have your hair shingled and your +stocking half-knitted and know how to say 'yee' and then have it all wasted." + +Susanna dropped a tear on the dress she was folding. The child was going home, +as she had come away from it, gay, irresponsible, and merry; it was only the +mothers who hoped and feared and dreaded. the very universe was working toward +Susanna's desire at that moment, but she was all unaware of the happiness that +lay so near. She could not see the freshness of the house in Farnham, the new +bits of furniture here and there; the autumn leaves in her own bedroom; her +worktable full of the records of John's sorrowful summer; Jack handsomer and +taller, and softer, also, in his welcoming mood; Ellen rosy and excited. She +did not know that Joel Atterbury had said to John that day, "I take it all +back, old man, and I hope you'll stay on in the firm!" nor that Aunt Louisa, +who was putting stiff, short-stemmed chrysanthemums in cups and tumblers here +and there through the house, was much more flexible and human than was natural +to her; nor that John, alternating between hope and despair, was forever +humming: + + "Set her place at hearth and board + As it used to be: + Higher are the hills of home, + Bluer is the sea!" + +It is often so. They who go weeping to look for the dead body of a sorrow, +find a vision of angels where the body has lain. + +"I hope Fardie'Il be glad to see us and Ellen will have gingerbread," Sue +chattered; then, pausing at the window, she added, "I'm sorry to leave the +hills, 'cause I'specially like them, don't you, Mardie?" + +"We are leaving the Shaker hills, but we are going to the hills of home," her +mother answered cheerily. "Don't you remember the Farnham hills, dear?" + +"Yes, I remember," and Sue looked thoughtful; "they were farther off and +covered with woods; these are smooth and gentle. And we shall miss the lake, +Mardie." + +"Yes; but we can look at the blue sea from your bedroom window, Sue!" + +"And we'll tell Fardie about Polly Reed and the little quail bird, won't we?" + +"Yes; but he and Jack will have a great deal to say to us, and we must n't +talk all the time about the dear, kind Shakers, you know!" + +"You're all '_buts_,' Mardie!" at which Susanna smiled through her tears. + +Twilight deepened into dusk, and dusk into dark, and then the moon rose over +the poplar trees outside the window where Susanna and Sue were sleeping. The +Shaker Brethren and Sisters were resting serenely after their day of +confession. It was the aged Tabitha's last Sabbath on earth, but had she +known, it would have made no difference; if ever a soul was ready for heaven, +it was Tabitha's. + +There was an Irish family at the foot of the long hill that lay between the +Settlement and the village of Albion; father, mother, and children had prayed +to the Virgin before they went to bed; and the gray-haired minister in the +low-roofed parsonage was writing his communion sermon on a text sacred to the +orthodox Christian world. The same moon shone over all, and over millions of +others worshiping strange idols and holding strange beliefs in strange far +lands, yet none of them owned the whole of heaven; for as Elder Gray said, "It +is a big place and belongs to God." + +Susanna Hathaway went back to John thinking it her plain duty, and to me it +seems beautiful that she found waiting for her at the journey's end a new love +that was better than the old; found a husband to whom she could say in that +first sacred hour when they were alone together, "Never mind, John! Let's +forget, and begin all over again." + + +When Susanna and Sue alighted at the little railway station at Farnham, and +started to walk through the narrow streets that led to the suburbs, the +mother's heart beat more and more tumultuously as she realized that the issues +of four lives would be settled before nightfall. + +Little did Sue reck of life issues, skipping like a young roe from one side of +the road to the other. "There are the hills, not a bit changed, Mardie!" she +cried; "and the sea is just where it was!... Here's the house with the parrot, +do you remember? Now the place where the dog barks and snarls is coming +next... P'raps he'll be dead.., or p'raps he'll be nicer... Keep close to me +till we get past the gate... He did n't come out, so p'raps he is dead or gone +a-visiting.... There's that 'specially lazy cow that's always lying down in +the Buxtons' field.... I don't b'lieve she's moved since we came away.... Do +you s'pose she stands up to be milked, Mardie? There's the old bridge over the +brook, just the same, only the woodbine's red.... There's... There's... Oh, +Mardie, look, look!... I do b'lieve it's our Jacky!" + +Sue flew over the ground like a swallow, calling "Jack-y! Jack-y! It's me and +Mardie come home!" + +Jack extricated himself from his sister's strangling hug and settled his +collar. "I'm awful glad to see you, Sukey," he said, "but I'm getting too big +to be kissed. Besides, my pockets are full of angleworms and fishhooks." + +"Are you too big to be kissed even by mother?" called Susanna, hurrying to her +boy, who submitted to her embrace with better grace. "O Jack, Jack! say you're +glad to see mother! Say it, say it; I can't wait, Jack!" + +"'Course I'm glad! Why would n't I be? I tell you I'm tired of Aunt Louisa, +though she's easier than she was. Time and again I've packed my lunch basket +and started to run away, but I always made it a picnic and went back again, +thinking they'd make such a row over me." + +"Aunt Louisa is always kind when you're obedient," Susanna urgedú "She ain't +so stiff as she was. Ellen is real worried about her and thinks she's losing +her strength, she's so easy to get along with." + +"How's... father...?" + +"Better'n he was." + +"Has n't he been well?" + +"Not so very; always quiet and won't eat, nor play, nor anything. I'm home +with him since Sunday." + +"What is the matter with your clothes?" asked Susanna, casting a maternal eye +over him while she pulled him down here and up there, with anxious +disapproving glances. "You look so patched, and wrinkled, and grubby." + +"Aunt Louisa and father make me keep my best to put on for you, if you should +come. I clean up and dress every afternoon at train time, only I forgot today +and came fishing." + +"It's too cold to fish, sonny." + +"It ain't too cold to fish, but it's too cold for 'em to bite," corrected +Jack. + +"Why were you expecting us just now?" asked Susanna. "I did n't write because +.... because, I thought.., perhaps.., it would be better to surprise you." + +"Father's expecting you every day, not just this one," said Jack. + +Susanna sank down on a stone at the end of the bridge, and leaning her head +against the railing, burst into tears. In that moment the worst of her fears +rolled away from her heart like the stone from the mouth of a sepulcher. If +her husband had looked for her return, he must have missed her, regretted her, +needed her, just a little. His disposition was sweet, even if it were +thoughtless, and he might not meet her with reproaches after all. There might +not be the cold greeting she had often feared-- "_Well, you've concluded to +come back, have you_? _It was about time_!" If only John were a little +penitent, a little anxious to meet her on some common ground, she felt her +task would be an easier one. + +"Have you got a pain, Mardie?" cried Sue, anxiously bending over her mother. + +"No, dear," she answered, smiling through her tears and stretching a hand to +both children to help her to her feet. "No, dear, I've lost one!" + +"I cry when anything aches, not when it stops," remarked Jack, as the three +started again on their walk. "Say, Sukey, you look bigger and fatter than you +did when you went away, and you've got short curls 'stead of long ones. Do you +see how I've grown? Two inches!" + +"I'm inches and inches bigger and taller," Sue boasted, standing on tiptoe and +stretching herself proudly. "And I can knit, and pull maple candy, and say +Yee, and sing 'O Virgin Church, how great thy light.'" + +"Pooh," said Jack, "I can sing 'A sailor's life's the life for me, Yo ho, yo +ho!' Step along faster, mummy dear; it's 'most supper time. Aunt Louisa won't +scold if you're with me. There's the house, see? Father'll be working in the +garden covering up the asters, so they won't freeze before you come." + +"There is no garden, Jack. What do you mean?" "Wait till you see if there's no +garden! Hurrah! there's father at the window, side of Aunt Louisa. Won't he be +pleased I met you halfway and brought you home!" + + +Oh! it was beautiful, the autumn twilight, the smoke of her own hearth-side +rising through the brick chimneys! She thought she had left the way of peace +behind her, but no, the way of peace was here, where her duty was, and her +husband and children. + +The sea was deep blue; the home hills rolled softly along the horizon; the +little gate that Susanna had closed behind her in anger and misery stood wide +open; shrubs, borders, young hedgerows, beds of late autumn flowers greeted +her eyes and touched her heart. A foot sounded on the threshold; the home door +opened and smiled a greeting; and then a voice choked with feeling, glad with +welcome, called her name. + +Light-footed Sue ran with a cry of joy into her father's outstretched arms, +and then leaping down darted to Ellen, chattering like a magpie. Husband and +wife looked at each other for one quivering moment, and then clasped each +other close. + +"Forgive! O Susanna, forgive!" + +John's eyes and lips and arms made mute appeals, and it was then Susanna said, +"Never mind, John! Let's forget, and begin all over again!" + + + + + +End of The Project Gutenberg Etext of Homespun Tales, by Kate Douglas Wiggin + diff --git a/old/hspun10.zip b/old/hspun10.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..885fca1 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/hspun10.zip |