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HENDERSON, B.A. + MME. QUESADA and Others + + + +Also available in 13 individual Gutenberg Project etext files: + +Short Stories V13, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#14][gm13v10.txt]3089 +Short Stories V12, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#13][gm12v10.txt]3088 +Short Stories V11, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#12][gm11v10.txt]3087 +Short Stories V10, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#11][gm10v10.txt]3086 +Short Stories V9, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#10][gm09v10.txt]3085 +Short Stories V8, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#9] [gm08v10.txt]3084 +Short Stories V7, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#8] [gm07v10.txt]3083 +Short Stories V6, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#7] [gm06v10.txt]3082 +Short Stories V5, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#6] [gm05v10.txt]3081 +Short Stories V4, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#5] [gm04v10.txt]3080 +Short Stories V3, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#4] [gm03v10.txt]3079 +Short Stories V2, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#3] [gm02v10.txt]3078 +Short Stories V1, by Guy de Maupassant [GM#2] [gm01v10.txt]3077 + + + + +CONTENTS OF THE 13 VOLUMES (180 Stories) + + VOLUME I. + +GUY DE MAUPASSANT--A STUDY BY POL. NEVEUX + +BOULE DE SUIF +TWO FRIENDS +THE LANCER'S WIFE +THE PRISONERS +TWO LITTLE SOLDIERS +FATHER MILON +A COUP D'ETAT +LIEUTENANT LARE'S MARRIAGE +THE HORRIBLE +MADAME PARISSE +MADEMOISELLE FIFI +A DUEL + + + + VOLUME II. + +THE COLONEL'S IDEAS +MOTHER SAUVAGE +EPIPHANY +THE MUSTACHE +MADAME BAPTISTE +THE QUESTION OF LATIN +A MEETING +THE BLIND MAN +INDISCRETION +A FAMILY AFFAIR +BESIDE SCHOPENHAUER'S CORPSE + + + + VOLUME III. + +MISS HARRIET +LITTLE LOUISE ROQUE +THE DONKEY +MOIRON +THE DISPENSER OF HOLY WATER +THE PARRICIDE +BERTHA +THE PATRON +THE DOOR +A SALE +THE IMPOLITE SEX +A WEDDING GIFT +THE RELIC + + + + VOLUME IV. + +THE MORIBUND +THE GAMEKEEPER +THE STORY OF A FARM GIRL +THE WRECK +THEODULE SABOT'S CONFESSION +THE WRONG HOUSE +THE DIAMOND NECKLACE +THE MARQUIS DE FUMEROL +THE TRIP OF THE HORLA +FAREWELL +THE WOLF +THE INN + + + + VOLUME V. + +MONSIEUR PARENT +QUEEN HORTENSE +TIMBUCTOO +TOMBSTONES +MADEMOISELLE PEARL +THE THIEF +CLAIR DE LUNE +WAITER, A "BOCK" +AFTER +FORGIVENESS +IN THE SPRING +A QUEER NIGHT IN PARIS + + + + VOLUME VI. + +THAT COSTLY RIDE +USELESS BEAUTY +THE FATHER +MY UNCLE SOSTHENES +THE BARONESS +MOTHER AND SON +THE HAND +A TRESS OF HAIR +ON THE RIVER +THE CRIPPLE +A STROLL +ALEXANDRE +THE LOG +JULIE ROMAINE +THE RONDOLI SISTERS + + + + VOLUME VII. + +THE FALSE GEMS +FASCINATION +YVETTE SAMORIS +A VENDETTA +MY TWENTY-FIVE DAYS +"THE TERROR" +LEGEND OF MONT ST. MICHEL +A NEW YEAR'S GIFT +FRIEND PATIENCE +ABANDONED +THE MAISON TELLIER +DENIS +MY WIFE +THE UNKNOWN +THE APPARITION + + + + VOLUME VIII. + +CLOCHETTE +THE KISS +THE LEGION OF HONOR +THE TEST +FOUND ON A DROWNED MAN +THE ORPHAN +THE BEGGAR +THE RABBIT +HIS AVENGER +MY UNCLE JULES +THE MODEL +A VAGABOND +THE FISHING HOLE +THE SPASM +IN THE WOOD +MARTINE +ALL OVER +THE PARROT +A PIECE OF STRING + + + + VOLUME IX. + +TOINE +MADAME HUSSON'S ROSIER +THE ADOPTED SON +A COWARD +OLD MONGILET +MOONLIGHT +THE FIRST SNOWFALL +SUNDAYS OF A BOURGEOIS +A RECOLLECTION +OUR LETTERS +THE LOVE OF LONG AGO +FRIEND JOSEPH +THE EFFEMINATES +OLD AMABLE + + + + VOLUME X. + +THE CHRISTENING +THE FARMER'S WIFE +THE DEVIL +THE SNIPE +THE WILL +WALTER SCHNAFF'S ADVENTURE +AT SEA +MINUET +THE SON +THAT PIG OF A MORIN +SAINT ANTHONY +LASTING LOVE +PIERROT +A NORMANDY JOKE +FATHER MATTHEW + + + + VOLUME XI. + +THE UMBRELLA +BELHOMME'S BEAST +DISCOVERY +THE ACCURSED BREAD +THE DOWRY +THE DIARY OF A MAD MAN +THE MASK +THE PENGUINS ROCK +A FAMILY +SUICIDES +AN ARTIFICE +DREAMS +SIMON'S PAPA + + + + VOLUME XII. + +THE CHILD +A COUNTRY EXCURSION +ROSE +ROSALIE PRUDENT +REGRET +A SISTER'S CONFESSION +COCO +A DEAD WOMAN'S SECRET +A HUMBLE DRAMA +MADEMOISELLE COCOTTE +THE CORSICAN BANDIT +THE GRAVE + + + + VOLUME XIII. + +OLD JUDAS +THE LITTLE CASK +BOITELLE +A WIDOW +THE ENGLISHMEN OF ETRETAT +MAGNETISM +A FATHERS CONFESSION +A MOTHER OF MONSTERS +AN UNCOMFORTABLE BED +A PORTRAIT +THE DRUNKARD +THE WARDROBE +THE MOUNTAIN POOL +A CREMATION +MISTI +MADAME HERMET +THE MAGIC COUCH + + + + + + + GUY DE MAUPASSANT + ORIGINAL SHORT STORIES + + + VOLUME I. + +GUY DE MAUPASSANT--A STUDY BY POL. NEVEUX +BOULE DE SUIF +TWO FRIENDS +THE LANCER'S WIFE +THE PRISONERS +TWO LITTLE SOLDIERS +FATHER MILON +A COUP D'ETAT +LIEUTENANT LARE'S MARRIAGE +THE HORRIBLE +MADAME PARISSE +MADEMOISELLE FIFI +A DUEL + + + + + GUY DE MAUPASSANT + A STUDY BY POL. NEVEUX + +"I entered literary life as a meteor, and I shall leave it like a +thunderbolt." These words of Maupassant to Jose Maria de Heredia on the +occasion of a memorable meeting are, in spite of their morbid solemnity, +not an inexact summing up of the brief career during which, for ten +years, the writer, by turns undaunted and sorrowful, with the fertility +of a master hand produced poetry, novels, romances and travels, only to +sink prematurely into the abyss of madness and death. . . . . + +In the month of April, 1880, an article appeared in the "Le Gaulois" +announcing the publication of the Soirees de Medan. It was signed by a +name as yet unknown: Guy de Maupassant. After a juvenile diatribe +against romanticism and a passionate attack on languorous literature, the +writer extolled the study of real life, and announced the publication of +the new work. It was picturesque and charming. In the quiet of evening, +on an island, in the Seine, beneath poplars instead of the Neapolitan +cypresses dear to the friends of Boccaccio, amid the continuous murmur of +the valley, and no longer to the sound of the Pyrennean streams that +murmured a faint accompaniment to the tales of Marguerite's cavaliers, +the master and his disciples took turns in narrating some striking or +pathetic episode of the war. And the issue, in collaboration, of these +tales in one volume, in which the master jostled elbows with his pupils, +took on the appearance of a manifesto, the tone of a challenge, or the +utterance of a creed. + +In fact, however, the beginnings had been much more simple, and they had +confined themselves, beneath the trees of Medan, to deciding on a general +title for the work. Zola had contributed the manuscript of the "Attaque +du Moulin," and it was at Maupassant's house that the five young men gave +in their contributions. Each one read his story, Maupassant being the +last. When he had finished Boule de Suif, with a spontaneous impulse, +with an emotion they never forgot, filled with enthusiasm at this +revelation, they all rose and, without superfluous words, acclaimed him +as a master. + +He undertook to write the article for the Gaulois and, in cooperation +with his friends, he worded it in the terms with which we are familiar, +amplifying and embellishing it, yielding to an inborn taste for +mystification which his youth rendered excusable. The essential point, +he said, is to "unmoor" criticism. + +It was unmoored. The following day Wolff wrote a polemical dissertation +in the Figaro and carried away his colleagues. The volume was a +brilliant success, thanks to Boule de Suif. Despite the novelty, the +honesty of effort, on the part of all, no mention was made of the other +stories. Relegated to the second rank, they passed without notice. From +his first battle, Maupassant was master of the field in literature. + +At once the entire press took him up and said what was appropriate +regarding the budding celebrity. Biographers and reporters sought +information concerning his life. As it was very simple and perfectly +straightforward, they resorted to invention. And thus it is that at the +present day Maupassant appears to us like one of those ancient heroes +whose origin and death are veiled in mystery. + +I will not dwell on Guy de Maupassant's younger days. His relatives, his +old friends, he himself, here and there in his works, have furnished us +in their letters enough valuable revelations and touching remembrances of +the years preceding his literary debut. His worthy biographer, +H. Edouard Maynial, after collecting intelligently all the writings, +condensing and comparing them, has been able to give us some definite +information regarding that early period. + +I will simply recall that he was born on the 5th of August, 1850, near +Dieppe, in the castle of Miromesnil which he describes in Une Vie. . . . + +Maupassant, like Flaubert, was a Norman, through his mother, and through +his place of birth he belonged to that strange and adventurous race, +whose heroic and long voyages on tramp trading ships he liked to recall. +And just as the author of "Education sentimentale" seems to have +inherited in the paternal line the shrewd realism of Champagne, so de +Maupassant appears to have inherited from his Lorraine ancestors their +indestructible discipline and cold lucidity. + +His childhood was passed at Etretat, his beautiful childhood; it was +there that his instincts were awakened in the unfoldment of his +prehistoric soul. Years went by in an ecstasy of physical happiness. +The delight of running at full speed through fields of gorse, the charm +of voyages of discovery in hollows and ravines, games beneath the dark +hedges, a passion for going to sea with the fishermen and, on nights when +there was no moon, for dreaming on their boats of imaginary voyages. + +Mme. de Maupassant, who had guided her son's early reading, and had gazed +with him at the sublime spectacle of nature, put, off as long as possible +the hour of separation. One day, however, she had to take the child to +the little seminary at Yvetot. Later, he became a student at the college +at Rouen, and became a literary correspondent of Louis Bouilhet. It was +at the latter's house on those Sundays in winter when the Norman rain +drowned the sound of the bells and dashed against the window panes that +the school boy learned to write poetry. + +Vacation took the rhetorician back to the north of Normandy. Now it was +shooting at Saint Julien l'Hospitalier, across fields, bogs, and through +the woods. From that time on he sealed his pact with the earth, and +those "deep and delicate roots" which attached him to his native soil +began to grow. It was of Normandy, broad, fresh and virile, that he +would presently demand his inspiration, fervent and eager as a boy's +love; it was in her that he would take refuge when, weary of life, he +would implore a truce, or when he simply wished to work and revive his +energies in old-time joys. It was at this time that was born in him that +voluptuous love of the sea, which in later days could alone withdraw him +from the world, calm him, console him. + +In 1870 he lived in the country, then he came to Paris to live; for, the +family fortunes having dwindled, he had to look for a position. For +several years he was a clerk in the Ministry of Marine, where he turned +over musty papers, in the uninteresting company of the clerks of the +admiralty. + +Then he went into the department of Public Instruction, where +bureaucratic servility is less intolerable. The daily duties are +certainly scarcely more onerous and he had as chiefs, or colleagues, +Xavier Charmes and Leon Dierx, Henry Roujon and Rene Billotte, but his +office looked out on a beautiful melancholy garden with immense plane +trees around which black circles of crows gathered in winter. + +Maupassant made two divisions of his spare hours, one for boating, and +the other for literature. Every evening in spring, every free day, he +ran down to the river whose mysterious current veiled in fog or sparkling +in the sun called to him and bewitched him. In the islands in the Seine +between Chatou and Port-Marly, on the banks of Sartrouville and Triel he +was long noted among the population of boatmen, who have now vanished, +for his unwearying biceps, his cynical gaiety of good-fellowship, his +unfailing practical jokes, his broad witticisms. Sometimes he would row +with frantic speed, free and joyous, through the glowing sunlight on the +stream; sometimes, he would wander along the coast, questioning the +sailors, chatting with the ravageurs, or junk gatherers, or stretched at +full length amid the irises and tansy he would lie for hours watching the +frail insects that play on the surface of the stream, water spiders, or +white butterflies, dragon flies, chasing each other amid the willow +leaves, or frogs asleep on the lily-pads. + +The rest of his life was taken up by his work. Without ever becoming +despondent, silent and persistent, he accumulated manuscripts, poetry, +criticisms, plays, romances and novels. Every week he docilely submitted +his work to the great Flaubert, the childhood friend of his mother and +his uncle Alfred Le Poittevin. The master had consented to assist the +young man, to reveal to him the secrets that make chefs-d'oeuvre +immortal. It was he who compelled him to make copious research and to +use direct observation and who inculcated in him a horror of vulgarity +and a contempt for facility. + +Maupassant himself tells us of those severe initiations in the Rue +Murillo, or in the tent at Croisset; he has recalled the implacable +didactics of his old master, his tender brutality, the paternal advice of +his generous and candid heart. For seven years Flaubert slashed, +pulverized, the awkward attempts of his pupil whose success remained +uncertain. + +Suddenly, in a flight of spontaneous perfection, he wrote Boule de Suif. +His master's joy was great and overwhelming. He died two months later. + +Until the end Maupassant remained illuminated by the reflection of the +good, vanished giant, by that touching reflection that comes from the +dead to those souls they have so profoundly stirred. The worship of +Flaubert was a religion from which nothing could distract him, neither +work, nor glory, nor slow moving waves, nor balmy nights. + +At the end of his short life, while his mind was still clear: he wrote to +a friend: "I am always thinking of my poor Flaubert, and I say to myself +that I should like to die if I were sure that anyone would think of me in +the same manner." + +During these long years of his novitiate Maupassant had entered the +social literary circles. He would remain silent, preoccupied; and if +anyone, astonished at his silence, asked him about his plans he answered +simply: "I am learning my trade." However, under the pseudonym of Guy de +Valmont, he had sent some articles to the newspapers, and, later, with +the approval and by the advice of Flaubert, he published, in the +"Republique des Lettres," poems signed by his name. + +These poems, overflowing with sensuality, where the hymn to the Earth +describes the transports of physical possession, where the impatience of +love expresses itself in loud melancholy appeals like the calls of +animals in the spring nights, are valuable chiefly inasmuch as they +reveal the creature of instinct, the fawn escaped from his native +forests, that Maupassant was in his early youth. But they add nothing to +his glory. They are the "rhymes of a prose writer" as Jules Lemaitre +said. To mould the expression of his thought according to the strictest +laws, and to "narrow it down" to some extent, such was his aim. +Following the example of one of his comrades of Medan, being readily +carried away by precision of style and the rhythm of sentences, by the +imperious rule of the ballad, of the pantoum or the chant royal, +Maupassant also desired to write in metrical lines. However, he never +liked this collection that he often regretted having published. His +encounters with prosody had left him with that monotonous weariness that +the horseman and the fencer feel after a period in the riding school, or +a bout with the foils. + +Such, in very broad lines, is the story of Maupassant's literary +apprenticeship. + +The day following the publication of "Boule de Suif," his reputation +began to grow rapidly. The quality of his story was unrivalled, but at +the same time it must be acknowledged that there were some who, for the +sake of discussion, desired to place a young reputation in opposition to +the triumphant brutality of Zola. + +From this time on, Maupassant, at the solicitation of the entire press, +set to work and wrote story after story. His talent, free from all +influences, his individuality, are not disputed for a moment. With a +quick step, steady and alert, he advanced to fame, a fame of which he +himself was not aware, but which was so universal, that no contemporary +author during his life ever experienced the same. The "meteor" sent out +its light and its rays were prolonged without limit, in article after +article, volume on volume. + +He was now rich and famous . . . . He is esteemed all the more as +they believe him to be rich and happy. But they do not know that this +young fellow with the sunburnt face, thick neck and salient muscles whom +they invariably compare to a young bull at liberty, and whose love +affairs they whisper, is ill, very ill. At the very moment that success +came to him, the malady that never afterwards left him came also, and, +seated motionless at his side, gazed at him with its threatening +countenance. He suffered from terrible headaches, followed by nights of +insomnia. He had nervous attacks, which he soothed with narcotics and +anesthetics, which he used freely. His sight, which had troubled him at +intervals, became affected, and a celebrated oculist spoke of +abnormality, asymetry of the pupils. The famous young man trembled in +secret and was haunted by all kinds of terrors. + +The reader is charmed at the saneness of this revived art and yet, here +and there, he is surprised to discover, amid descriptions of nature that +are full of humanity, disquieting flights towards the supernatural, +distressing conjurations, veiled at first, of the most commonplace, the +most vertiginous shuddering fits of fear, as old as the world and as +eternal as the unknown. But, instead of being alarmed, he thinks that +the author must be gifted with infallible intuition to follow out thus +the taints in his characters, even through their most dangerous mazes. +The reader does not know that these hallucinations which he describes so +minutely were experienced by Maupassant himself; he does not know that +the fear is in himself, the anguish of fear "which is not caused by the +presence of danger, or of inevitable death, but by certain abnormal +conditions, by certain mysterious influences in presence of vague +dangers," the "fear of fear, the dread of that horrible sensation of +incomprehensible terror." + +How can one explain these physical sufferings and this morbid distress +that were known for some time to his intimates alone? Alas! the +explanation is only too simple. All his life, consciously or +unconsciously, Maupassant fought this malady, hidden as yet, which was +latent in him. + +As his malady began to take a more definite form, he turned his steps +towards the south, only visiting Paris to see his physicians and +publishers. In the old port of Antibes beyond the causeway of Cannes, +his yacht, Bel Ami, which he cherished as a brother, lay at anchor and +awaited him. He took it to the white cities of the Genoese Gulf, towards +the palm trees of Hyeres, or the red bay trees of Antheor. + +After several tragic weeks in which, from instinct, he made a desperate +fight, on the 1st of January, 1892, he felt he was hopelessly vanquished, +and in a moment of supreme clearness of intellect, like Gerard de Nerval, +he attempted suicide. Less fortunate than the author of Sylvia, he was +unsuccessful. But his mind, henceforth "indifferent to all unhappiness," +had entered into eternal darkness. + +He was taken back to Paris and placed in Dr. Meuriot's sanatorium, where, +after eighteen months of mechanical existence, the "meteor" quietly +passed away. + + + + + + +BOULE DE SUIF + + +For several days in succession fragments of a defeated army had passed +through the town. They were mere disorganized bands, not disciplined +forces. The men wore long, dirty beards and tattered uniforms; they +advanced in listless fashion, without a flag, without a leader. All +seemed exhausted, worn out, incapable of thought or resolve, marching +onward merely by force of habit, and dropping to the ground with fatigue +the moment they halted. One saw, in particular, many enlisted men, +peaceful citizens, men who lived quietly on their income, bending beneath +the weight of their rifles; and little active volunteers, easily +frightened but full of enthusiasm, as eager to attack as they were ready +to take to flight; and amid these, a sprinkling of red-breeched soldiers, +the pitiful remnant of a division cut down in a great battle; somber +artillerymen, side by side with nondescript foot-soldiers; and, here and +there, the gleaming helmet of a heavy-footed dragoon who had difficulty +in keeping up with the quicker pace of the soldiers of the line. Legions +of irregulars with high-sounding names "Avengers of Defeat," "Citizens of +the Tomb," "Brethren in Death"--passed in their turn, looking like +banditti. Their leaders, former drapers or grain merchants, or tallow or +soap chandlers--warriors by force of circumstances, officers by reason of +their mustachios or their money--covered with weapons, flannel and gold +lace, spoke in an impressive manner, discussed plans of campaign, and +behaved as though they alone bore the fortunes of dying France on their +braggart shoulders; though, in truth, they frequently were afraid of +their own men--scoundrels often brave beyond measure, but pillagers and +debauchees. + +Rumor had it that the Prussians were about to enter Rouen. + +The members of the National Guard, who for the past two months had been +reconnoitering with the utmost caution in the neighboring woods, +occasionally shooting their own sentinels, and making ready for fight +whenever a rabbit rustled in the undergrowth, had now returned to their +homes. Their arms, their uniforms, all the death-dealing paraphernalia +with which they had terrified all the milestones along the highroad for +eight miles round, had suddenly and marvellously disappeared. + +The last of the French soldiers had just crossed the Seine on their way +to Pont-Audemer, through Saint-Sever and Bourg-Achard, and in their rear +the vanquished general, powerless to do aught with the forlorn remnants +of his army, himself dismayed at the final overthrow of a nation +accustomed to victory and disastrously beaten despite its legendary +bravery, walked between two orderlies. + +Then a profound calm, a shuddering, silent dread, settled on the city. +Many a round-paunched citizen, emasculated by years devoted to business, +anxiously awaited the conquerors, trembling lest his roasting-jacks or +kitchen knives should be looked upon as weapons. + +Life seemed to have stopped short; the shops were shut, the streets +deserted. Now and then an inhabitant, awed by the silence, glided +swiftly by in the shadow of the walls. The anguish of suspense made men +even desire the arrival of the enemy. + +In the afternoon of the day following the departure of the French troops, +a number of uhlans, coming no one knew whence, passed rapidly through the +town. A little later on, a black mass descended St. Catherine's Hill, +while two other invading bodies appeared respectively on the Darnetal and +the Boisguillaume roads. The advance guards of the three corps arrived +at precisely the same moment at the Square of the Hotel de Ville, and the +German army poured through all the adjacent streets, its battalions +making the pavement ring with their firm, measured tread. + +Orders shouted in an unknown, guttural tongue rose to the windows of the +seemingly dead, deserted houses; while behind the fast-closed shutters +eager eyes peered forth at the victors-masters now of the city, its +fortunes, and its lives, by "right of war." The inhabitants, in their +darkened rooms, were possessed by that terror which follows in the wake +of cataclysms, of deadly upheavals of the earth, against which all human +skill and strength are vain. For the same thing happens whenever the +established order of things is upset, when security no longer exists, +when all those rights usually protected by the law of man or of Nature +are at the mercy of unreasoning, savage force. The earthquake crushing a +whole nation under falling roofs; the flood let loose, and engulfing in +its swirling depths the corpses of drowned peasants, along with dead oxen +and beams torn from shattered houses; or the army, covered with glory, +murdering those who defend themselves, making prisoners of the rest, +pillaging in the name of the Sword, and giving thanks to God to the +thunder of cannon--all these are appalling scourges, which destroy all +belief in eternal justice, all that confidence we have been taught to +feel in the protection of Heaven and the reason of man. + +Small detachments of soldiers knocked at each door, and then disappeared +within the houses; for the vanquished saw they would have to be civil to +their conquerors. + +At the end of a short time, once the first terror had subsided, calm was +again restored. In many houses the Prussian officer ate at the same +table with the family. He was often well-bred, and, out of politeness, +expressed sympathy with France and repugnance at being compelled to take +part in the war. This sentiment was received with gratitude; besides, +his protection might be needful some day or other. By the exercise of +tact the number of men quartered in one's house might be reduced; and why +should one provoke the hostility of a person on whom one's whole welfare +depended? Such conduct would savor less of bravery than of fool- +hardiness. And foolhardiness is no longer a failing of the citizens of +Rouen as it was in the days when their city earned renown by its heroic +defenses. Last of all-final argument based on the national politeness- +the folk of Rouen said to one another that it was only right to be civil +in one's own house, provided there was no public exhibition of +familiarity with the foreigner. Out of doors, therefore, citizen and +soldier did not know each other; but in the house both chatted freely, +and each evening the German remained a little longer warming himself at +the hospitable hearth. + +Even the town itself resumed by degrees its ordinary aspect. The French +seldom walked abroad, but the streets swarmed with Prussian soldiers. +Moreover, the officers of the Blue Hussars, who arrogantly dragged their +instruments of death along the pavements, seemed to hold the simple +townsmen in but little more contempt than did the French cavalry officers +who had drunk at the same cafes the year before. + +But there was something in the air, a something strange and subtle, an +intolerable foreign atmosphere like a penetrating odor--the odor of +invasion. It permeated dwellings and places of public resort, changed +the taste of food, made one imagine one's self in far-distant lands, amid +dangerous, barbaric tribes. + +The conquerors exacted money, much money. The inhabitants paid what was +asked; they were rich. But, the wealthier a Norman tradesman becomes, +the more he suffers at having to part with anything that belongs to him, +at having to see any portion of his substance pass into the hands of +another. + +Nevertheless, within six or seven miles of the town, along the course of +the river as it flows onward to Croisset, Dieppedalle and Biessart, boat- +men and fishermen often hauled to the surface of the water the body of a +German, bloated in his uniform, killed by a blow from knife or club, his +head crushed by a stone, or perchance pushed from some bridge into the +stream below. The mud of the river-bed swallowed up these obscure acts +of vengeance--savage, yet legitimate; these unrecorded deeds of bravery; +these silent attacks fraught with greater danger than battles fought in +broad day, and surrounded, moreover, with no halo of romance. For hatred +of the foreigner ever arms a few intrepid souls, ready to die for an +idea. + +At last, as the invaders, though subjecting the town to the strictest +discipline, had not committed any of the deeds of horror with which they +had been credited while on their triumphal march, the people grew bolder, +and the necessities of business again animated the breasts of the local +merchants. Some of these had important commercial interests at Havre- +occupied at present by the French army--and wished to attempt to reach +that port by overland route to Dieppe, taking the boat from there. + +Through the influence of the German officers whose acquaintance they had +made, they obtained a permit to leave town from the general in command. + +A large four-horse coach having, therefore, been engaged for the journey, +and ten passengers having given in their names to the proprietor, they +decided to start on a certain Tuesday morning before daybreak, to avoid +attracting a crowd. + +The ground had been frozen hard for some time-past, and about three +o'clock on Monday afternoon--large black clouds from the north shed their +burden of snow uninterruptedly all through that evening and night. + +At half-past four in the morning the travellers met in the courtyard of +the Hotel de Normandie, where they were to take their seats in the coach. + +They were still half asleep, and shivering with cold under their wraps. +They could see one another but indistinctly in the darkness, and the +mountain of heavy winter wraps in which each was swathed made them look +like a gathering of obese priests in their long cassocks. But two men +recognized each other, a third accosted them, and the three began to +talk. "I am bringing my wife," said one. "So am I." "And I, too." The +first speaker added: "We shall not return to Rouen, and if the Prussians +approach Havre we will cross to England." All three, it turned out, had +made the same plans, being of similar disposition and temperament. + +Still the horses were not harnessed. A small lantern carried by a +stable-boy emerged now and then from one dark doorway to disappear +immediately in another. The stamping of horses' hoofs, deadened by the +dung and straw of the stable, was heard from time to time, and from +inside the building issued a man's voice, talking to the animals and +swearing at them. A faint tinkle of bells showed that the harness was +being got ready; this tinkle soon developed into a continuous jingling, +louder or softer according to the movements of the horse, sometimes +stopping altogether, then breaking out in a sudden peal accompanied by a +pawing of the ground by an iron-shod hoof. + +The door suddenly closed. All noise ceased. + +The frozen townsmen were silent; they remained motionless, stiff with +cold. + +A thick curtain of glistening white flakes fell ceaselessly to the +ground; it obliterated all outlines, enveloped all objects in an icy +mantle of foam; nothing was to be heard throughout the length and breadth +of the silent, winter-bound city save the vague, nameless rustle of +falling snow--a sensation rather than a sound--the gentle mingling of +light atoms which seemed to fill all space, to cover the whole world. + +The man reappeared with his lantern, leading by a rope a melancholy- +looking horse, evidently being led out against his inclination. The +hostler placed him beside the pole, fastened the traces, and spent some +time in walking round him to make sure that the harness was all right; +for he could use only one hand, the other being engaged in holding the +lantern. As he was about to fetch the second horse he noticed the +motionless group of travellers, already white with snow, and said to +them: "Why don't you get inside the coach? You'd be under shelter, at +least." + +This did not seem to have occurred to them, and they at once took his +advice. The three men seated their wives at the far end of the coach, +then got in themselves; lastly the other vague, snow-shrouded forms +clambered to the remaining places without a word. + +The floor was covered with straw, into which the feet sank. The ladies +at the far end, having brought with them little copper foot-warmers +heated by means of a kind of chemical fuel, proceeded to light these, and +spent some time in expatiating in low tones on their advantages, saying +over and over again things which they had all known for a long time. + +At last, six horses instead of four having been harnessed to the +diligence, on account of the heavy roads, a voice outside asked: "Is +every one there?" To which a voice from the interior replied: "Yes," and +they set out. + +The vehicle moved slowly, slowly, at a snail's pace; the wheels sank into +the snow; the entire body of the coach creaked and groaned; the horses +slipped, puffed, steamed, and the coachman's long whip cracked +incessantly, flying hither and thither, coiling up, then flinging out its +length like a slender serpent, as it lashed some rounded flank, which +instantly grew tense as it strained in further effort. + +But the day grew apace. Those light flakes which one traveller, a native +of Rouen, had compared to a rain of cotton fell no longer. A murky light +filtered through dark, heavy clouds, which made the country more +dazzlingly white by contrast, a whiteness broken sometimes by a row of +tall trees spangled with hoarfrost, or by a cottage roof hooded in snow. + +Within the coach the passengers eyed one another curiously in the dim +light of dawn. + +Right at the back, in the best seats of all, Monsieur and Madame Loiseau, +wholesale wine merchants of the Rue Grand-Pont, slumbered opposite each +other. Formerly clerk to a merchant who had failed in business, Loiseau +had bought his master's interest, and made a fortune for himself. He +sold very bad wine at a very low price to the retail-dealers in the +country, and had the reputation, among his friends and acquaintances, of +being a shrewd rascal a true Norman, full of quips and wiles. So well +established was his character as a cheat that, in the mouths of the +citizens of Rouen, the very name of Loiseau became a byword for sharp +practice. + +Above and beyond this, Loiseau was noted for his practical jokes of every +description--his tricks, good or ill-natured; and no one could mention +his name without adding at once: "He's an extraordinary man--Loiseau." +He was undersized and potbellied, had a florid face with grayish +whiskers. + +His wife-tall, strong, determined, with a loud voice and decided manner-- +represented the spirit of order and arithmetic in the business house +which Loiseau enlivened by his jovial activity. + +Beside them, dignified in bearing, belonging to a superior caste, sat +Monsieur Carre-Lamadon, a man of considerable importance, a king in the +cotton trade, proprietor of three spinning-mills, officer of the Legion +of Honor, and member of the General Council. During the whole time the +Empire was in the ascendancy he remained the chief of the well-disposed +Opposition, merely in order to command a higher value for his devotion +when he should rally to the cause which he meanwhile opposed with +"courteous weapons," to use his own expression. + +Madame Carre-Lamadon, much younger than her husband, was the consolation +of all the officers of good family quartered at Rouen. Pretty, slender, +graceful, she sat opposite her husband, curled up in her furs, and gazing +mournfully at the sorry interior of the coach. + +Her neighbors, the Comte and Comtesse Hubert de Breville, bore one of the +noblest and most ancient names in Normandy. The count, a nobleman +advanced in years and of aristocratic bearing, strove to enhance by every +artifice of the toilet, his natural resemblance to King Henry IV, who, +according to a legend of which the family were inordinately proud, had +been the favored lover of a De Breville lady, and father of her child-- +the frail one's husband having, in recognition of this fact, been made a +count and governor of a province. + +A colleague of Monsieur Carre-Lamadon in the General Council, Count +Hubert represented the Orleanist party in his department. The story of +his marriage with the daughter of a small shipowner at Nantes had always +remained more or less of a mystery. But as the countess had an air of +unmistakable breeding, entertained faultlessly, and was even supposed to +have been loved by a son of Louis-Philippe, the nobility vied with one +another in doing her honor, and her drawing-room remained the most select +in the whole countryside--the only one which retained the old spirit of +gallantry, and to which access was not easy. + +The fortune of the Brevilles, all in real estate, amounted, it was said, +to five hundred thousand francs a year. + +These six people occupied the farther end of the coach, and represented +Society--with an income--the strong, established society of good people +with religion and principle. + +It happened by chance that all the women were seated on the same side; +and the countess had, moreover, as neighbors two nuns, who spent the time +in fingering their long rosaries and murmuring paternosters and aves. +One of them was old, and so deeply pitted with smallpox that she looked +for all the world as if she had received a charge of shot full in the +face. The other, of sickly appearance, had a pretty but wasted +countenance, and a narrow, consumptive chest, sapped by that devouring +faith which is the making of martyrs and visionaries. + +A man and woman, sitting opposite the two nuns, attracted all eyes. + +The man--a well-known character--was Cornudet, the democrat, the terror +of all respectable people. For the past twenty years his big red beard +had been on terms of intimate acquaintance with the tankards of all the +republican cafes. With the help of his comrades and brethren he had +dissipated a respectable fortune left him by his father, an old- +established confectioner, and he now impatiently awaited the Republic, +that he might at last be rewarded with the post he had earned by his +revolutionary orgies. On the fourth of September--possibly as the result +of a practical joke--he was led to believe that he had been appointed +prefect; but when he attempted to take up the duties of the position the +clerks in charge of the office refused to recognize his authority, and he +was compelled in consequence to retire. A good sort of fellow in other +respects, inoffensive and obliging, he had thrown himself zealously into +the work of making an organized defence of the town. He had had pits dug +in the level country, young forest trees felled, and traps set on all the +roads; then at the approach of the enemy, thoroughly satisfied with his +preparations, he had hastily returned to the town. He thought he might +now do more good at Havre, where new intrenchments would soon be +necessary. + +The woman, who belonged to the courtesan class, was celebrated for an +embonpoint unusual for her age, which had earned for her the sobriquet of +"Boule de Suif" (Tallow Ball). Short and round, fat as a pig, with puffy +fingers constricted at the joints, looking like rows of short sausages; +with a shiny, tightly-stretched skin and an enormous bust filling out the +bodice of her dress, she was yet attractive and much sought after, owing +to her fresh and pleasing appearance. Her face was like a crimson apple, +a peony-bud just bursting into bloom; she had two magnificent dark eyes, +fringed with thick, heavy lashes, which cast a shadow into their depths; +her mouth was small, ripe, kissable, and was furnished with the tiniest +of white teeth. + +As soon as she was recognized the respectable matrons of the party began +to whisper among themselves, and the words "hussy" and "public scandal" +were uttered so loudly that Boule de Suif raised her head. She forthwith +cast such a challenging, bold look at her neighbors that a sudden silence +fell on the company, and all lowered their eyes, with the exception of +Loiseau, who watched her with evident interest. + +But conversation was soon resumed among the three ladies, whom the +presence of this girl had suddenly drawn together in the bonds of +friendship--one might almost say in those of intimacy. They decided that +they ought to combine, as it were, in their dignity as wives in face of +this shameless hussy; for legitimized love always despises its easygoing +brother. + +The three men, also, brought together by a certain conservative instinct +awakened by the presence of Cornudet, spoke of money matters in a tone +expressive of contempt for the poor. Count Hubert related the losses he +had sustained at the hands of the Prussians, spoke of the cattle which +had been stolen from him, the crops which had been ruined, with the easy +manner of a nobleman who was also a tenfold millionaire, and whom such +reverses would scarcely inconvenience for a single year. Monsieur Carre- +Lamadon, a man of wide experience in the cotton industry, had taken care +to send six hundred thousand francs to England as provision against the +rainy day he was always anticipating. As for Loiseau, he had managed to +sell to the French commissariat department all the wines he had in stock, +so that the state now owed him a considerable sum, which he hoped to +receive at Havre. + +And all three eyed one another in friendly, well-disposed fashion. +Although of varying social status, they were united in the brotherhood of +money--in that vast freemasonry made up of those who possess, who can +jingle gold wherever they choose to put their hands into their breeches' +pockets. + +The coach went along so slowly that at ten o'clock in the morning it had +not covered twelve miles. Three times the men of the party got out and +climbed the hills on foot. The passengers were becoming uneasy, for they +had counted on lunching at Totes, and it seemed now as if they would +hardly arrive there before nightfall. Every one was eagerly looking out +for an inn by the roadside, when, suddenly, the coach foundered in a +snowdrift, and it took two hours to extricate it. + +As appetites increased, their spirits fell; no inn, no wine shop could be +discovered, the approach of the Prussians and the transit of the starving +French troops having frightened away all business. + +The men sought food in the farmhouses beside the road, but could not find +so much as a crust of bread; for the suspicious peasant invariably hid +his stores for fear of being pillaged by the soldiers, who, being +entirely without food, would take violent possession of everything they +found. + +About one o'clock Loiseau announced that he positively had a big hollow +in his stomach. They had all been suffering in the same way for some +time, and the increasing gnawings of hunger had put an end to all +conversation. + +Now and then some one yawned, another followed his example, and each in +turn, according to his character, breeding and social position, yawned +either quietly or noisily, placing his hand before the gaping void whence +issued breath condensed into vapor. + +Several times Boule de Suif stooped, as if searching for something under +her petticoats. She would hesitate a moment, look at her neighbors, and +then quietly sit upright again. All faces were pale and drawn. Loiseau +declared he would give a thousand francs for a knuckle of ham. His wife +made an involuntary and quickly checked gesture of protest. It always +hurt her to hear of money being squandered, and she could not even +understand jokes on such a subject. + +"As a matter of fact, I don't feel well," said the count. "Why did I not +think of bringing provisions?" Each one reproached himself in similar +fashion. + +Cornudet, however, had a bottle of rum, which he offered to his +neighbors. They all coldly refused except Loiseau, who took a sip, and +returned the bottle with thanks, saying: "That's good stuff; it warms one +up, and cheats the appetite." The alcohol put him in good humor, and he +proposed they should do as the sailors did in the song: eat the fattest +of the passengers. This indirect allusion to Boule de Suif shocked the +respectable members of the party. No one replied; only Cornudet smiled. +The two good sisters had ceased to mumble their rosary, and, with hands +enfolded in their wide sleeves, sat motionless, their eyes steadfastly +cast down, doubtless offering up as a sacrifice to Heaven the suffering +it had sent them. + +At last, at three o'clock, as they were in the midst of an apparently +limitless plain, with not a single village in sight, Boule de Suif +stooped quickly, and drew from underneath the seat a large basket covered +with a white napkin. + +From this she extracted first of all a small earthenware plate and a +silver drinking cup, then an enormous dish containing two whole chickens +cut into joints and imbedded in jelly. The basket was seen to contain +other good things: pies, fruit, dainties of all sorts-provisions, in +fine, for a three days' journey, rendering their owner independent of +wayside inns. The necks of four bottles protruded from among thp food. +She took a chicken wing, and began to eat it daintily, together with one +of those rolls called in Normandy "Regence." + +All looks were directed toward her. An odor of food filled the air, +causing nostrils to dilate, mouths to water, and jaws to contract +painfully. The scorn of the ladies for this disreputable female grew +positively ferocious; they would have liked to kill her, or throw, her +and her drinking cup, her basket, and her provisions, out of the coach +into the snow of the road below. + +But Loiseau's gaze was fixed greedily on the dish of chicken. He said: + +"Well, well, this lady had more forethought than the rest of us. Some +people think of everything." + +She looked up at him. + +"Would you like some, sir? It is hard to go on fasting all day." + +He bowed. + +"Upon my soul, I can't refuse; I cannot hold out another minute. All is +fair in war time, is it not, madame?" And, casting a glance on those +around, he added: + +"At times like this it is very pleasant to meet with obliging people." + +He spread a newspaper over his knees to avoid soiling his trousers, and, +with a pocketknife he always carried, helped himself to a chicken leg +coated with jelly, which he thereupon proceeded to devour. + +Then Boule le Suif, in low, humble tones, invited the nuns to partake of +her repast. They both accepted the offer unhesitatingly, and after a few +stammered words of thanks began to eat quickly, without raising their +eyes. Neither did Cornudet refuse his neighbor's offer, and, in +combination with the nuns, a sort of table was formed by opening out the +newspaper over the four pairs of knees. + +Mouths kept opening and shutting, ferociously masticating and devouring +the food. Loiseau, in his corner, was hard at work, and in low tones +urged his wife to follow his example. She held out for a long time, but +overstrained Nature gave way at last. Her husband, assuming his politest +manner, asked their "charming companion" if he might be allowed to offer +Madame Loiseau a small helping. + +"Why, certainly, sir," she replied, with an amiable smile, holding out +the dish. + +When the first bottle of claret was opened some embarrassment was caused +by the fact that there was only one drinking cup, but this was passed +from one to another, after being wiped. Cornudet alone, doubtless in a +spirit of gallantry, raised to his own lips that part of the rim which +was still moist from those of his fair neighbor. + +Then, surrounded by people who were eating, and well-nigh suffocated by +the odor of food, the Comte and Comtesse de Breville and Monsieur and +Madame Carre-Lamadon endured that hateful form of torture which has +perpetuated the name of Tantalus. All at once the manufacturer's young +wife heaved a sigh which made every one turn and look at her; she was +white as the snow without; her eyes closed, her head fell forward; she +had fainted. Her husband, beside himself, implored the help of his +neighbors. No one seemed to know what to do until the elder of the two +nuns, raising the patient's head, placed Boule de Suif's drinking cup to +her lips, and made her swallow a few drops of wine. The pretty invalid +moved, opened her eyes, smiled, and declared in a feeble voice that she +was all right again. But, to prevent a recurrence of the catastrophe, +the nun made her drink a cupful of claret, adding: "It's just hunger- +that's what is wrong with you." + +Then Boule de Suif, blushing and embarrassed, stammered, looking at the +four passengers who were still fasting: + +"'Mon Dieu', if I might offer these ladies and gentlemen----" + +She stopped short, fearing a snub. But Loiseau continued: + +"Hang it all, in such a case as this we are all brothers and sisters and +ought to assist each other. Come, come, ladies, don't stand on ceremony, +for goodness' sake! Do we even know whether we shall find a house in +which to pass the night? At our present rate of going we sha'n't be at +Totes till midday to-morrow." + +They hesitated, no one daring to be the first to accept. But the count +settled the question. He turned toward the abashed girl, and in his most +distinguished manner said: + +"We accept gratefully, madame." + +As usual, it was only the first step that cost. This Rubicon once +crossed, they set to work with a will. The basket was emptied. It still +contained a pate de foie gras, a lark pie, a piece of smoked tongue, +Crassane pears, Pont-Leveque gingerbread, fancy cakes, and a cup full of +pickled gherkins and onions--Boule de Suif, like all women, being very +fond of indigestible things. + +They could not eat this girl's provisions without speaking to her. So +they began to talk, stiffly at first; then, as she seemed by no means +forward, with greater freedom. Mesdames de Breville and Carre-Lamadon, +who were accomplished women of the world, were gracious and tactful. The +countess especially displayed that amiable condescension characteristic +of great ladies whom no contact with baser mortals can sully, and was +absolutely charming. But the sturdy Madame Loiseau, who had the soul of +a gendarme, continued morose, speaking little and eating much. + +Conversation naturally turned on the war. Terrible stories were told +about the Prussians, deeds of bravery were recounted of the French; and +all these people who were fleeing themselves were ready to pay homage to +the courage of their compatriots. Personal experiences soon followed, +and Bottle le Suif related with genuine emotion, and with that warmth of +language not uncommon in women of her class and temperament, how it came +about that she had left Rouen. + +"I thought at first that I should be able to stay," she said. "My house +was well stocked with provisions, and it seemed better to put up with +feeding a few soldiers than to banish myself goodness knows where. But +when I saw these Prussians it was too much for me! My blood boiled with +rage; I wept the whole day for very shame. Oh, if only I had been a man! +I looked at them from my window--the fat swine, with their pointed +helmets!--and my maid held my hands to keep me from throwing my furniture +down on them. Then some of them were quartered on me; I flew at the +throat of the first one who entered. They are just as easy to strangle +as other men! And I'd have been the death of that one if I hadn't been +dragged away from him by my hair. I had to hide after that. And as soon +as I could get an opportunity I left the place, and here I am." + +She was warmly congratulated. She rose in the estimation of her +companions, who had not been so brave; and Cornudet listened to her with +the approving and benevolent smile of an apostle, the smile a priest +might wear in listening to a devotee praising God; for long-bearded +democrats of his type have a monopoly of patriotism, just as priests have +a monopoly of religion. He held forth in turn, with dogmatic self- +assurance, in the style of the proclamations daily pasted on the walls of +the town, winding up with a specimen of stump oratory in which he reviled +"that besotted fool of a Louis-Napoleon." + +But Boule de Suif was indignant, for she was an ardent Bonapartist. She +turned as red as a cherry, and stammered in her wrath: "I'd just like to +have seen you in his place--you and your sort! There would have been a +nice mix-up. Oh, yes! It was you who betrayed that man. It would be +impossible to live in France if we were governed by such rascals as you!" + +Cornudet, unmoved by this tirade, still smiled a superior, contemptuous +smile; and one felt that high words were impending, when the count +interposed, and, not without difficulty, succeeded in calming the +exasperated woman, saying that all sincere opinions ought to be +respected. But the countess and the manufacturer's wife, imbued with the +unreasoning hatred of the upper classes for the Republic, and instinct, +moreover, with the affection felt by all women for the pomp and +circumstance of despotic government, were drawn, in spite of themselves, +toward this dignified young woman, whose opinions coincided so closely +with their own. + +The basket was empty. The ten people had finished its contents without +difficulty amid general regret that it did not hold more. Conversation +went on a little longer, though it flagged somewhat after the passengers +had finished eating. + +Night fell, the darkness grew deeper and deeper, and the cold made Boule +de Suif shiver, in spite of her plumpness. So Madame de Breville offered +her her foot-warmer, the fuel of which had been several times renewed +since the morning, and she accepted the offer at once, for her feet were +icy cold. Mesdames Carre-Lamadon and Loiseau gave theirs to the nuns. + +The driver lighted his lanterns. They cast a bright gleam on a cloud of +vapor which hovered over the sweating flanks of the horses, and on the +roadside snow, which seemed to unroll as they went along in the changing +light of the lamps. + +All was now indistinguishable in the coach; but suddenly a movement +occurred in the corner occupied by Boule de Suif and Cornudet; and +Loiseau, peering into the gloom, fancied he saw the big, bearded democrat +move hastily to one side, as if he had received a well-directed, though +noiseless, blow in the dark. + +Tiny lights glimmered ahead. It was Totes. The coach had been on the +road eleven hours, which, with the three hours allotted the horses in +four periods for feeding and breathing, made fourteen. It entered the +town, and stopped before the Hotel du Commerce. + +The coach door opened; a well-known noise made all the travellers start; +it was the clanging of a scabbard, on the pavement; then a voice called +out something in German. + +Although the coach had come to a standstill, no one got out; it looked as +if they were afraid of being murdered the moment they left their seats. +Thereupon the driver appeared, holding in his hand one of his lanterns, +which cast a sudden glow on the interior of the coach, lighting up the +double row of startled faces, mouths agape, and eyes wide open in +surprise and terror. + +Beside the driver stood in the full light a German officer, a tall young +man, fair and slender, tightly encased in his uniform like a woman in her +corset, his flat shiny cap, tilted to one side of his head, making him +look like an English hotel runner. His exaggerated mustache, long and +straight and tapering to a point at either end in a single blond hair +that could hardly be seen, seemed to weigh down the corners of his mouth +and give a droop to his lips. + +In Alsatian French he requested the travellers to alight, saying +stiffly: + +"Kindly get down, ladies and gentlemen." + +The two nuns were the first to obey, manifesting the docility of holy +women accustomed to submission on every occasion. Next appeared the +count and countess, followed by the manufacturer and his wife, after whom +came Loiseau, pushing his larger and better half before him. + +"Good-day, sir," he said to the officer as he put his foot to the ground, +acting on an impulse born of prudence rather than of politeness. The +other, insolent like all in authority, merely stared without replying. + +Boule de Suif and Cornudet, though near the door, were the last to +alight, grave and dignified before the enemy. The stout girl tried to +control herself and appear calm; the democrat stroked his long russet +beard with a somewhat trembling hand. Both strove to maintain their +dignity, knowing well that at such a time each individual is always +looked upon as more or less typical of his nation; and, also, resenting +the complaisant attitude of their companions, Boule de Suif tried to wear +a bolder front than her neighbors, the virtuous women, while he, feeling +that it was incumbent on him to set a good example, kept up the attitude +of resistance which he had first assumed when he undertook to mine the +high roads round Rouen. + +They entered the spacious kitchen of the inn, and the German, having +demanded the passports signed by the general in command, in which were +mentioned the name, description and profession of each traveller, +inspected them all minutely, comparing their appearance with the written +particulars. + +Then he said brusquely: "All right," and turned on his heel. + +They breathed freely, All were still hungry; so supper was ordered. Half +an hour was required for its preparation, and while two servants were +apparently engaged in getting it ready the travellers went to look at +their rooms. These all opened off a long corridor, at the end of which +was a glazed door with a number on it. + +They were just about to take their seats at table when the innkeeper +appeared in person. He was a former horse dealer--a large, asthmatic +individual, always wheezing, coughing, and clearing his throat. +Follenvie was his patronymic. + +He called: + +"Mademoiselle Elisabeth Rousset?" + +Boule de Suif started, and turned round. + +"That is my name." + +"Mademoiselle, the Prussian officer wishes to speak to you immediately." + +"To me?" + +"Yes; if you are Mademoiselle Elisabeth Rousset." + +She hesitated, reflected a moment, and then declared roundly: + +"That may be; but I'm not going." + +They moved restlessly around her; every one wondered and speculated as to +the cause of this order. The count approached: + +"You are wrong, madame, for your refusal may bring trouble not only on +yourself but also on all your companions. It never pays to resist those +in authority. Your compliance with this request cannot possibly be +fraught with any danger; it has probably been made because some formality +or other was forgotten." + +All added their voices to that of the count; Boule de Suif was begged, +urged, lectured, and at last convinced; every one was afraid of the +complications which might result from headstrong action on her part. She +said finally: + +"I am doing it for your sakes, remember that!" + +The countess took her hand. + +"And we are grateful to you." + +She left the room. All waited for her return before commencing the meal. +Each was distressed that he or she had not been sent for rather than this +impulsive, quick-tempered girl, and each mentally rehearsed platitudes in +case of being summoned also. + +But at the end of ten minutes she reappeared breathing hard, crimson with +indignation. + +"Oh! the scoundrel! the scoundrel!" she stammered. + +All were anxious to know what had happened; but she declined to enlighten +them, and when the count pressed the point, she silenced him with much +dignity, saying: + +"No; the matter has nothing to do with you, and I cannot speak of it." + +Then they took their places round a high soup tureen, from which issued +an odor of cabbage. In spite of this coincidence, the supper was +cheerful. The cider was good; the Loiseaus and the nuns drank it from +motives of economy. The others ordered wine; Cornudet demanded beer. He +had his own fashion of uncorking the bottle and making the beer foam, +gazing at it as he inclined his glass and then raised it to a position +between the lamp and his eye that he might judge of its color. When he +drank, his great beard, which matched the color of his favorite beverage, +seemed to tremble with affection; his eyes positively squinted in the +endeavor not to lose sight of the beloved glass, and he looked for all +the world as if he were fulfilling the only function for which he was +born. He seemed to have established in his mind an affinity between the +two great passions of his life--pale ale and revolution--and assuredly he +could not taste the one without dreaming of the other. + +Monsieur and Madame Follenvie dined at the end of the table. The man, +wheezing like a broken-down locomotive, was too short-winded to talk when +he was eating. But the wife was not silent a moment; she told how the +Prussians had impressed her on their arrival, what they did, what they +said; execrating them in the first place because they cost her money, and +in the second because she had two sons in the army. She addressed +herself principally to the countess, flattered at the opportunity of +talking to a lady of quality. + +Then she lowered her voice, and began to broach delicate subjects. Her +husband interrupted her from time to time, saying: + +"You would do well to hold your tongue, Madame Follenvie." + +But she took no notice of him, and went on: + +"Yes, madame, these Germans do nothing but eat potatoes and pork, and +then pork and potatoes. And don't imagine for a moment that they are +clean! No, indeed! And if only you saw them drilling for hours, indeed +for days, together; they all collect in a field, then they do nothing but +march backward and forward, and wheel this way and that. If only they +would cultivate the land, or remain at home and work on their high roads! +Really, madame, these soldiers are of no earthly use! Poor people have +to feed and keep them, only in order that they may learn how to kill! +True, I am only an old woman with no education, but when I see them +wearing themselves out marching about from morning till night, I say to +myself: When there are people who make discoveries that are of use to +people, why should others take so much trouble to do harm? Really, now, +isn't it a terrible thing to kill people, whether they are Prussians, or +English, or Poles, or French? If we revenge ourselves on any one who +injures us we do wrong, and are punished for it; but when our sons are +shot down like partridges, that is all right, and decorations are given +to the man who kills the most. No, indeed, I shall never be able to +understand it." + +Cornudet raised his voice: + +"War is a barbarous proceeding when we attack a peaceful neighbor, but it +is a sacred duty when undertaken in defence of one's country." + +The old woman looked down: + +"Yes; it's another matter when one acts in self-defence; but would it not +be better to kill all the kings, seeing that they make war just to amuse +themselves?" + +Cornudet's eyes kindled. + +"Bravo, citizens!" he said. + +Monsieur Carre-Lamadon was reflecting profoundly. Although an ardent +admirer of great generals, the peasant woman's sturdy common sense made +him reflect on the wealth which might accrue to a country by the +employment of so many idle hands now maintained at a great expense, of so +much unproductive force, if they were employed in those great industrial +enterprises which it will take centuries to complete. + +But Loiseau, leaving his seat, went over to the innkeeper and began +chatting in a low voice. The big man chuckled, coughed, sputtered; his +enormous carcass shook with merriment at the pleasantries of the other; +and he ended by buying six casks of claret from Loiseau to be delivered +in spring, after the departure of the Prussians. + +The moment supper was over every one went to bed, worn out with fatigue. + +But Loiseau, who had been making his observations on the sly, sent his +wife to bed, and amused himself by placing first his ear, and then his +eye, to the bedroom keyhole, in order to discover what he called "the +mysteries of the corridor." + +At the end of about an hour he heard a rustling, peeped out quickly, and +caught sight of Boule de Suif, looking more rotund than ever in a +dressing-gown of blue cashmere trimmed with white lace. She held a +candle in her hand, and directed her steps to the numbered door at the +end of the corridor. But one of the side doors was partly opened, and +when, at the end of a few minutes, she returned, Cornudet, in his shirt- +sleeves, followed her. They spoke in low tones, then stopped short. +Boule de Suif seemed to be stoutly denying him admission to her room. +Unfortunately, Loiseau could not at first hear what they said; but toward +the end of the conversation they raised their voices, and he caught a few +words. Cornudet was loudly insistent. + +"How silly you are! What does it matter to you?" he said. + +She seemed indignant, and replied: + +"No, my good man, there are times when one does not do that sort of +thing; besides, in this place it would be shameful." + +Apparently he did not understand, and asked the reason. Then she lost +her temper and her caution, and, raising her voice still higher, said: + +"Why? Can't you understand why? When there are Prussians in the house! +Perhaps even in the very next room!" + +He was silent. The patriotic shame of this wanton, who would not suffer +herself to be caressed in the neighborhood of the enemy, must have roused +his dormant dignity, for after bestowing on her a simple kiss he crept +softly back to his room. Loiseau, much edified, capered round the +bedroom before taking his place beside his slumbering spouse. + +Then silence reigned throughout the house. But soon there arose from +some remote part--it might easily have been either cellar or attic--a +stertorous, monotonous, regular snoring, a dull, prolonged rumbling, +varied by tremors like those of a boiler under pressure of steam. +Monsieur Follenvie had gone to sleep. + +As they had decided on starting at eight o'clock the next morning, every +one was in the kitchen at that hour; but the coach, its roof covered with +snow, stood by itself in the middle of the yard, without either horses or +driver. They sought the latter in the stables, coach-houses and barns- +but in vain. So the men of the party resolved to scour the country for +him, and sallied forth. They found them selves in the square, with the +church at the farther side, and to right and left low-roofed houses where +there were some Prussian soldiers. The first soldier they saw was +peeling potatoes. The second, farther on, was washing out a barber's +shop. An other, bearded to the eyes, was fondling a crying infant, and +dandling it on his knees to quiet it; and the stout peasant women, whose +men-folk were for the most part at the war, were, by means of signs, +telling their obedient conquerors what work they were to do: chop wood, +prepare soup, grind coffee; one of them even was doing the washing for +his hostess, an infirm old grandmother. + +The count, astonished at what he saw, questioned the beadle who was +coming out of the presbytery. The old man answered: + +"Oh, those men are not at all a bad sort; they are not Prussians, I am +told; they come from somewhere farther off, I don't exactly know where. +And they have all left wives and children behind them; they are not fond +of war either, you may be sure! I am sure they are mourning for the men +where they come from, just as we do here; and the war causes them just as +much unhappiness as it does us. As a matter of fact, things are not so +very bad here just now, because the soldiers do no harm, and work just as +if they were in their own homes. You see, sir, poor folk always help one +another; it is the great ones of this world who make war." + +Cornudet indignant at the friendly understanding established between +conquerors and conquered, withdrew, preferring to shut himself up in the +inn. + +"They are repeopling the country," jested Loiseau. + +"They are undoing the harm they have done," said Monsieur Carre-Lamadon +gravely. + +But they could not find the coach driver. At last he was discovered in +the village cafe, fraternizing cordially with the officer's orderly. + +"Were you not told to harness the horses at eight o'clock?" demanded the +count. + +"Oh, yes; but I've had different orders since." + +"What orders?" + +"Not to harness at all." + +"Who gave you such orders?" + +"Why, the Prussian officer." + +"But why?" + +"I don't know. Go and ask him. I am forbidden to harness the horses, so +I don't harness them--that's all." + +"Did he tell you so himself?" + +"No, sir; the innkeeper gave me the order from him." + +"When?" + +"Last evening, just as I was going to bed." + +The three men returned in a very uneasy frame of mind. + +They asked for Monsieur Follenvie, but the servant replied that on +account of his asthma he never got up before ten o'clock. They were +strictly forbidden to rouse him earlier, except in case of fire. + +They wished to see the officer, but that also was impossible, although he +lodged in the inn. Monsieur Follenvie alone was authorized to interview +him on civil matters. So they waited. The women returned to their +rooms, and occupied themselves with trivial matters. + +Cornudet settled down beside the tall kitchen fireplace, before a blazing +fire. He had a small table and a jug of beer placed beside him, and he +smoked his pipe--a pipe which enjoyed among democrats a consideration +almost equal to his own, as though it had served its country in serving +Cornudet. It was a fine meerschaum, admirably colored to a black the +shade of its owner's teeth, but sweet-smelling, gracefully curved, at +home in its master's hand, and completing his physiognomy. And Cornudet +sat motionless, his eyes fixed now on the dancing flames, now on the +froth which crowned his beer; and after each draught he passed his long, +thin fingers with an air of satisfaction through his long, greasy hair, +as he sucked the foam from his mustache. + +Loiseau, under pretence of stretching his legs, went out to see if he +could sell wine to the country dealers. The count and the manufacturer +began to talk politics. They forecast the future of France. One +believed in the Orleans dynasty, the other in an unknown savior--a hero +who should rise up in the last extremity: a Du Guesclin, perhaps a Joan +of Arc? or another Napoleon the First? Ah! if only the Prince Imperial +were not so young! Cornudet, listening to them, smiled like a man who +holds the keys of destiny in his hands. His pipe perfumed the whole +kitchen. + +As the clock struck ten, Monsieur Follenvie appeared. He was immediately +surrounded and questioned, but could only repeat, three or four times in +succession, and without variation, the words: + +"The officer said to me, just like this: 'Monsieur Follenvie, you will +forbid them to harness up the coach for those travellers to-morrow. They +are not to start without an order from me. You hear? That is +sufficient.'" + +Then they asked to see the officer. The count sent him his card, on +which Monsieur Carre-Lamadon also inscribed his name and titles. The +Prussian sent word that the two men would be admitted to see him after +his luncheon--that is to say, about one o'clock. + +The ladies reappeared, and they all ate a little, in spite of their +anxiety. Boule de Suif appeared ill and very much worried. + +They were finishing their coffee when the orderly came to fetch the +gentlemen. + +Loiseau joined the other two; but when they tried to get Cornudet to +accompany them, by way of adding greater solemnity to the occasion, he +declared proudly that he would never have anything to do with the +Germans, and, resuming his seat in the chimney corner, he called for +another jug of beer. + +The three men went upstairs, and were ushered into the best room in the +inn, where the officer received them lolling at his ease in an armchair, +his feet on the mantelpiece, smoking a long porcelain pipe, and enveloped +in a gorgeous dressing-gown, doubtless stolen from the deserted dwelling +of some citizen destitute of taste in dress. He neither rose, greeted +them, nor even glanced in their direction. He afforded a fine example of +that insolence of bearing which seems natural to the victorious soldier. + +After the lapse of a few moments he said in his halting French: + +"What do you want?" + +"We wish to start on our journey," said the count. + +"No." + +"May I ask the reason of your refusal?" + +"Because I don't choose." + +"I would respectfully call your attention, monsieur, to the fact that +your general in command gave us a permit to proceed to Dieppe; and I do +not think we have done anything to deserve this harshness at your hands." + +"I don't choose--that's all. You may go." + +They bowed, and retired. + +The afternoon was wretched. They could not understand the caprice of +this German, and the strangest ideas came into their heads. They all +congregated in the kitchen, and talked the subject to death, imagining +all kinds of unlikely things. Perhaps they were to be kept as hostages +--but for what reason? or to be extradited as prisoners of war? or +possibly they were to be held for ransom? They were panic-stricken at +this last supposition. The richest among them were the most alarmed, +seeing themselves forced to empty bags of gold into the insolent +soldier's hands in order to buy back their lives. They racked their +brains for plausible lies whereby they might conceal the fact that they +were rich, and pass themselves off as poor--very poor. Loiseau took off +his watch chain, and put it in his pocket. The approach of night +increased their apprehension. The lamp was lighted, and as it wanted yet +two hours to dinner Madame Loiseau proposed a game of trente et un. It +would distract their thoughts. The rest agreed, and Cornudet himself +joined the party, first putting out his pipe for politeness' sake. + +The count shuffled the cards--dealt--and Boule de Suif had thirty-one to +start with; soon the interest of the game assuaged the anxiety of the +players. But Cornudet noticed that Loiseau and his wife were in league +to cheat. + +They were about to sit down to dinner when Monsieur Follenvie appeared, +and in his grating voice announced: + +"The Prussian officer sends to ask Mademoiselle Elisabeth Rousset if she +has changed her mind yet." + +Boule de Suif stood still, pale as death. Then, suddenly turning crimson +with anger, she gasped out: + +"Kindly tell that scoundrel, that cur, that carrion of a Prussian, that I +will never consent--you understand?--never, never, never!" + +The fat innkeeper left the room. Then Boule de Suif was surrounded, +questioned, entreated on all sides to reveal the mystery of her visit to +the officer. She refused at first; but her wrath soon got the better of +her. + +"What does he want? He wants to make me his mistress!" she cried. + +No one was shocked at the word, so great was the general indignation. +Cornudet broke his jug as he banged it down on the table. A loud outcry +arose against this base soldier. All were furious. They drew together +in common resistance against the foe, as if some part of the sacrifice +exacted of Boule de Suif had been demanded of each. The count declared, +with supreme disgust, that those people behaved like ancient barbarians. +The women, above all, manifested a lively and tender sympathy for Boule +de Suif. The nuns, who appeared only at meals, cast down their eyes, and +said nothing. + +They dined, however, as soon as the first indignant outburst had +subsided; but they spoke little and thought much. + +The ladies went to bed early; and the men, having lighted their pipes, +proposed a game of ecarte, in which Monsieur Follenvie was invited to +join, the travellers hoping to question him skillfully as to the best +means of vanquishing the officer's obduracy. But he thought of nothing +but his cards, would listen to nothing, reply to nothing, and repeated, +time after time: "Attend to the game, gentlemen! attend to the game!" +So absorbed was his attention that he even forgot to expectorate. The +consequence was that his chest gave forth rumbling sounds like those of +an organ. His wheezing lungs struck every note of the asthmatic scale, +from deep, hollow tones to a shrill, hoarse piping resembling that of a +young cock trying to crow. + +He refused to go to bed when his wife, overcome with sleep, came to fetch +him. So she went off alone, for she was an early bird, always up with +the sun; while he was addicted to late hours, ever ready to spend the +night with friends. He merely said: "Put my egg-nogg by the fire," and +went on with the game. When the other men saw that nothing was to be got +out of him they declared it was time to retire, and each sought his bed. + +They rose fairly early the next morning, with a vague hope of being +allowed to start, a greater desire than ever to do so, and a terror at +having to spend another day in this wretched little inn. + +Alas! the horses remained in the stable, the driver was invisible. They +spent their time, for want of something better to do, in wandering round +the coach. + +Luncheon was a gloomy affair; and there was a general coolness toward +Boule de Suif, for night, which brings counsel, had somewhat modified the +judgment of her companions. In the cold light of the morning they almost +bore a grudge against the girl for not having secretly sought out the +Prussian, that the rest of the party might receive a joyful surprise when +they awoke. What more simple? + +Besides, who would have been the wiser? She might have saved appearances +by telling the officer that she had taken pity on their distress. Such a +step would be of so little consequence to her. + +But no one as yet confessed to such thoughts. + +In the afternoon, seeing that they were all bored to death, the count +proposed a walk in the neighborhood of the village. Each one wrapped +himself up well, and the little party set out, leaving behind only +Cornudet, who preferred to sit over the fire, and the two nuns, who were +in the habit of spending their day in the church or at the presbytery. + +The cold, which grew more intense each day, almost froze the noses and +ears of the pedestrians, their feet began to pain them so that each step +was a penance, and when they reached the open country it looked so +mournful and depressing in its limitless mantle of white that they all +hastily retraced their steps, with bodies benumbed and hearts heavy. + +The four women walked in front, and the three men followed a little in +their rear. + +Loiseau, who saw perfectly well how matters stood, asked suddenly "if +that trollop were going to keep them waiting much longer in this +Godforsaken spot." The count, always courteous, replied that they could +not exact so painful a sacrifice from any woman, and that the first move +must come from herself. Monsieur Carre-Lamadon remarked that if the +French, as they talked of doing, made a counter attack by way of Dieppe, +their encounter with the enemy must inevitably take place at Totes. This +reflection made the other two anxious. + +"Supposing we escape on foot?" said Loiseau. + +The count shrugged his shoulders. + +"How can you think of such a thing, in this snow? And with our wives? +Besides, we should be pursued at once, overtaken in ten minutes, and +brought back as prisoners at the mercy of the soldiery." + +This was true enough; they were silent. + +The ladies talked of dress, but a certain constraint seemed to prevail +among them. + +Suddenly, at the end of the street, the officer appeared. His tall, +wasp-like, uniformed figure was outlined against the snow which bounded +the horizon, and he walked, knees apart, with that motion peculiar to +soldiers, who are always anxious not to soil their carefully polished +boots. + +He bowed as he passed the ladies, then glanced scornfully at the men, who +had sufficient dignity not to raise their hats, though Loiseau made a +movement to do so. + +Boule de Suif flushed crimson to the ears, and the three married women +felt unutterably humiliated at being met thus by the soldier in company +with the girl whom he had treated with such scant ceremony. + +Then they began to talk about him, his figure, and his face. Madame +Carre-Lamadon, who had known many officers and judged them as a +connoisseur, thought him not at all bad-looking; she even regretted that +he was not a Frenchman, because in that case he would have made a very +handsome hussar, with whom all the women would assuredly have fallen in +love. + +When they were once more within doors they did not know what to do with +themselves. Sharp words even were exchanged apropos of the merest +trifles. The silent dinner was quickly over, and each one went to bed +early in the hope of sleeping, and thus killing time. + +They came down next morning with tired faces and irritable tempers; the +women scarcely spoke to Boule de Suif. + +A church bell summoned the faithful to a baptism. Boule de Suif had a +child being brought up by peasants at Yvetot. She did not see him once a +year, and never thought of him; but the idea of the child who was about +to be baptized induced a sudden wave of tenderness for her own, and she +insisted on being present at the ceremony. + +As soon as she had gone out, the rest of the company looked at one +another and then drew their chairs together; for they realized that they +must decide on some course of action. Loiseau had an inspiration: he +proposed that they should ask the officer to detain Boule de Suif only, +and to let the rest depart on their way. + +Monsieur Follenvie was intrusted with this commission, but he returned to +them almost immediately. The German, who knew human nature, had shown +him the door. He intended to keep all the travellers until his condition +had been complied with. + +Whereupon Madame Loiseau's vulgar temperament broke bounds. + +"We're not going to die of old age here!" she cried. "Since it's that +vixen's trade to behave so with men I don't see that she has any right to +refuse one more than another. I may as well tell you she took any lovers +she could get at Rouen--even coachmen! Yes, indeed, madame--the coachman +at the prefecture! I know it for a fact, for he buys his wine of us. +And now that it is a question of getting us out of a difficulty she puts +on virtuous airs, the drab! For my part, I think this officer has +behaved very well. Why, there were three others of us, any one of whom +he would undoubtedly have preferred. But no, he contents himself with +the girl who is common property. He respects married women. Just think. +He is master here. He had only to say: 'I wish it!' and he might have +taken us by force, with the help of his soldiers." + +The two other women shuddered; the eyes of pretty Madame Carre-Lamadon +glistened, and she grew pale, as if the officer were indeed in the act of +laying violent hands on her. + +The men, who had been discussing the subject among themselves, drew near. +Loiseau, in a state of furious resentment, was for delivering up "that +miserable woman," bound hand and foot, into the enemy's power. But the +count, descended from three generations of ambassadors, and endowed, +moreover, with the lineaments of a diplomat, was in favor of more tactful +measures. + +"We must persuade her," he said. + +Then they laid their plans. + +The women drew together; they lowered their voices, and the discussion +became general, each giving his or her opinion. But the conversation was +not in the least coarse. The ladies, in particular, were adepts at +delicate phrases and charming subtleties of expression to describe the +most improper things. A stranger would have understood none of their +allusions, so guarded was the language they employed. But, seeing that +the thin veneer of modesty with which every woman of the world is +furnished goes but a very little way below the surface, they began rather +to enjoy this unedifying episode, and at bottom were hugely delighted-- +feeling themselves in their element, furthering the schemes of lawless +love with the gusto of a gourmand cook who prepares supper for another. + +Their gaiety returned of itself, so amusing at last did the whole +business seem to them. The count uttered several rather risky +witticisms, but so tactfully were they said that his audience could not +help smiling. Loiseau in turn made some considerably broader jokes, but +no one took offence; and the thought expressed with such brutal +directness by his wife was uppermost in the minds of all: "Since it's the +girl's trade, why should she refuse this man more than another?" Dainty +Madame Carre-Lamadon seemed to think even that in Boule de Suif's place +she would be less inclined to refuse him than another. + +The blockade was as carefully arranged as if they were investing a +fortress. Each agreed on the role which he or she was to play, the +arguments to be used, the maneuvers to be executed. They decided on the +plan of campaign, the stratagems they were to employ, and the surprise +attacks which were to reduce this human citadel and force it to receive +the enemy within its walls. + +But Cornudet remained apart from the rest, taking no share in the plot. + +So absorbed was the attention of all that Boule de Suif's entrance was +almost unnoticed. But the count whispered a gentle "Hush!" which made +the others look up. She was there. They suddenly stopped talking, and a +vague embarrassment prevented them for a few moments from addressing her. +But the countess, more practiced than the others in the wiles of the +drawing-room, asked her: + +"Was the baptism interesting?" + +The girl, still under the stress of emotion, told what she had seen and +heard, described the faces, the attitudes of those present, and even the +appearance of the church. She concluded with the words: + +"It does one good to pray sometimes." + +Until lunch time the ladies contented themselves with being pleasant to +her, so as to increase her confidence and make her amenable to their +advice. + +As soon as they took their seats at table the attack began. First they +opened a vague conversation on the subject of self-sacrifice. Ancient +examples were quoted: Judith and Holofernes; then, irrationally enough, +Lucrece and Sextus; Cleopatra and the hostile generals whom she reduced +to abject slavery by a surrender of her charms. Next was recounted an +extraordinary story, born of the imagination of these ignorant +millionaires, which told how the matrons of Rome seduced Hannibal, his +lieutenants, and all his mercenaries at Capua. They held up to +admiration all those women who from time to time have arrested the +victorious progress of conquerors, made of their bodies a field of +battle, a means of ruling, a weapon; who have vanquished by their heroic +caresses hideous or detested beings, and sacrificed their chastity to +vengeance and devotion. + +All was said with due restraint and regard for propriety, the effect +heightened now and then by an outburst of forced enthusiasm calculated to +excite emulation. + +A listener would have thought at last that the one role of woman on earth +was a perpetual sacrifice of her person, a continual abandonment of +herself to the caprices of a hostile soldiery. + +The two nuns seemed to hear nothing, and to be lost in thought. Boule de +Suif also was silent. + +During the whole afternoon she was left to her reflections. But instead +of calling her "madame" as they had done hitherto, her companions +addressed her simply as "mademoiselle," without exactly knowing why, but +as if desirous of making her descend a step in the esteem she had won, +and forcing her to realize her degraded position. + +Just as soup was served, Monsieur Follenvie reappeared, repeating his +phrase of the evening before: + +"The Prussian officer sends to ask if Mademoiselle Elisabeth Rousset has +changed her mind." + +Boule de Suif answered briefly: + +"No, monsieur." + +But at dinner the coalition weakened. Loiseau made three unfortunate +remarks. Each was cudgeling his brains for further examples of +self-sacrifice, and could find none, when the countess, possibly without +ulterior motive, and moved simply by a vague desire to do homage to +religion, began to question the elder of the two nuns on the most +striking facts in the lives of the saints. Now, it fell out that many of +these had committed acts which would be crimes in our eyes, but the +Church readily pardons such deeds when they are accomplished for the +glory of God or the good of mankind. This was a powerful argument, and +the countess made the most of it. Then, whether by reason of a tacit +understanding, a thinly veiled act of complaisance such as those who wear +the ecclesiastical habit excel in, or whether merely as the result of +sheer stupidity--a stupidity admirably adapted to further their designs-- +the old nun rendered formidable aid to the conspirator. They had thought +her timid; she proved herself bold, talkative, bigoted. She was not +troubled by the ins and outs of casuistry; her doctrines were as iron +bars; her faith knew no doubt; her conscience no scruples. She looked on +Abraham's sacrifice as natural enough, for she herself would not have +hesitated to kill both father and mother if she had received a divine +order to that effect; and nothing, in her opinion, could displease our +Lord, provided the motive were praiseworthy. The countess, putting to +good use the consecrated authority of her unexpected ally, led her on to +make a lengthy and edifying paraphrase of that axiom enunciated by a +certain school of moralists: "The end justifies the means." + +"Then, sister," she asked, "you think God accepts all methods, and +pardons the act when the motive is pure?" + +"Undoubtedly, madame. An action reprehensible in itself often derives +merit from the thought which inspires it." + +And in this wise they talked on, fathoming the wishes of God, predicting +His judgments, describing Him as interested in matters which assuredly +concern Him but little. + +All was said with the utmost care and discretion, but every word uttered +by the holy woman in her nun's garb weakened the indignant resistance of +the courtesan. Then the conversation drifted somewhat, and the nun began +to talk of the convents of her order, of her Superior, of herself, and of +her fragile little neighbor, Sister St. Nicephore. They had been sent +for from Havre to nurse the hundreds of soldiers who were in hospitals, +stricken with smallpox. She described these wretched invalids and their +malady. And, while they themselves were detained on their way by the +caprices of the Prussian officer, scores of Frenchmen might be dying, +whom they would otherwise have saved! For the nursing of soldiers was +the old nun's specialty; she had been in the Crimea, in Italy, in +Austria; and as she told the story of her campaigns she revealed herself +as one of those holy sisters of the fife and drum who seem designed by +nature to follow camps, to snatch the wounded from amid the strife of +battle, and to quell with a word, more effectually than any general, the +rough and insubordinate troopers--a masterful woman, her seamed and +pitted face itself an image of the devastations of war. + +No one spoke when she had finished for fear of spoiling the excellent +effect of her words. + +As soon as the meal was over the travellers retired to their rooms, +whence they emerged the following day at a late hour of the morning. + +Luncheon passed off quietly. The seed sown the preceding evening was +being given time to germinate and bring forth fruit. + +In the afternoon the countess proposed a walk; then the count, as had +been arranged beforehand, took Boule de Suif's arm, and walked with her +at some distance behind the rest. + +He began talking to her in that familiar, paternal, slightly contemptuous +tone which men of his class adopt in speaking to women like her, calling +her "my dear child," and talking down to her from the height of his +exalted social position and stainless reputation. He came straight to +the point. + +"So you prefer to leave us here, exposed like yourself to all the +violence which would follow on a repulse of the Prussian troops, rather +than consent to surrender yourself, as you have done so many times in +your life?" + +The girl did not reply. + +He tried kindness, argument, sentiment. He still bore himself as count, +even while adopting, when desirable, an attitude of gallantry, and making +pretty--nay, even tender--speeches. He exalted the service she would +render them, spoke of their gratitude; then, suddenly, using the familiar +"thou": + +"And you know, my dear, he could boast then of having made a conquest of +a pretty girl such as he won't often find in his own country." + +Boule de Suif did not answer, and joined the rest of the party. + +As soon as they returned she went to her room, and was seen no more. The +general anxiety was at its height. What would she do? If she still +resisted, how awkward for them all! + +The dinner hour struck; they waited for her in vain. At last Monsieur +Follenvie entered, announcing that Mademoiselle Rousset was not well, and +that they might sit down to table. They all pricked up their ears. The +count drew near the innkeeper, and whispered: + +"Is it all right?" + +"Yes." + +Out of regard for propriety he said nothing to his companions, but merely +nodded slightly toward them. A great sigh of relief went up from all +breasts; every face was lighted up with joy. + +"By Gad!" shouted Loiseau, "I'll stand champagne all round if there's any +to be found in this place." And great was Madame Loiseau's dismay when +the proprietor came back with four bottles in his hands. They had all +suddenly become talkative and merry; a lively joy filled all hearts. The +count seemed to perceive for the first time that Madame Carre-Lamadon was +charming; the manufacturer paid compliments to the countess. The +conversation was animated, sprightly, witty, and, although many of the +jokes were in the worst possible taste, all the company were amused by +them, and none offended--indignation being dependent, like other +emotions, on surroundings. And the mental atmosphere had gradually +become filled with gross imaginings and unclean thoughts. + +At dessert even the women indulged in discreetly worded allusions. Their +glances were full of meaning; they had drunk much. The count, who even +in his moments of relaxation preserved a dignified demeanor, hit on a +much-appreciated comparison of the condition of things with the +termination of a winter spent in the icy solitude of the North Pole and +the joy of shipwrecked mariners who at last perceive a southward track +opening out before their eyes. + +Loiseau, fairly in his element, rose to his feet, holding aloft a glass +of champagne. + +"I drink to our deliverance!" he shouted. + +All stood up, and greeted the toast with acclamation. Even the two good +sisters yielded to the solicitations of the ladies, and consented to +moisten their lips with the foaming wine, which they had never before +tasted. They declared it was like effervescent lemonade, but with a +pleasanter flavor. + +"It is a pity," said Loiseau, "that we have no piano; we might have had a +quadrille." + +Cornudet had not spoken a word or made a movement; he seemed plunged in +serious thought, and now and then tugged furiously at his great beard, as +if trying to add still further to its length. At last, toward midnight, +when they were about to separate, Loiseau, whose gait was far from +steady, suddenly slapped him on the back, saying thickly: + +"You're not jolly to-night; why are you so silent, old man?" + +Cornudet threw back his head, cast one swift and scornful glance over the +assemblage, and answered: + +"I tell you all, you have done an infamous thing!" + +He rose, reached the door, and repeating: "Infamous!" disappeared. + +A chill fell on all. Loiseau himself looked foolish and disconcerted for +a moment, but soon recovered his aplomb, and, writhing with laughter, +exclaimed: + +"Really, you are all too green for anything!" + +Pressed for an explanation, he related the "mysteries of the corridor," +whereat his listeners were hugely amused. The ladies could hardly +contain their delight. The count and Monsieur Carre-Lamadon laughed till +they cried. They could scarcely believe their ears. + +"What! you are sure? He wanted----" + +"I tell you I saw it with my own eyes." + +"And she refused?" + +"Because the Prussian was in the next room!" + +"Surely you are mistaken?" + +"I swear I'm telling you the truth." + +The count was choking with laughter. The manufacturer held his sides. +Loiseau continued: + +"So you may well imagine he doesn't think this evening's business at all +amusing." + +And all three began to laugh again, choking, coughing, almost ill with +merriment. + +Then they separated. But Madame Loiseau, who was nothing if not +spiteful, remarked to her husband as they were on the way to bed that +"that stuck-up little minx of a Carre-Lamadon had laughed on the wrong +side of her mouth all the evening." + +"You know," she said, "when women run after uniforms it's all the same to +them whether the men who wear them are French or Prussian. It's +perfectly sickening!" + +The next morning the snow showed dazzling white tinder a clear winter +sun. The coach, ready at last, waited before the door; while a flock of +white pigeons, with pink eyes spotted in the centres with black, puffed +out their white feathers and walked sedately between the legs of the six +horses, picking at the steaming manure. + +The driver, wrapped in his sheepskin coat, was smoking a pipe on the box, +and all the passengers, radiant with delight at their approaching +departure, were putting up provisions for the remainder of the journey. + +They were waiting only for Boule de Suif. At last she appeared. + +She seemed rather shamefaced and embarrassed, and advanced with timid +step toward her companions, who with one accord turned aside as if they +had not seen her. The count, with much dignity, took his wife by the +arm, and removed her from the unclean contact. + +The girl stood still, stupefied with astonishment; then, plucking up +courage, accosted the manufacturer's wife with a humble "Good-morning, +madame," to which the other replied merely with a slight arid insolent +nod, accompanied by a look of outraged virtue. Every one suddenly +appeared extremely busy, and kept as far from Boule de Suif as if tier +skirts had been infected with some deadly disease. Then they hurried to +the coach, followed by the despised courtesan, who, arriving last of all, +silently took the place she had occupied during the first part of the +journey. + +The rest seemed neither to see nor to know her--all save Madame Loiseau, +who, glancing contemptuously in her direction, remarked, half aloud, to +her husband: + +"What a mercy I am not sitting beside that creature!" + +The lumbering vehicle started on its way, and the journey began afresh. + +At first no one spoke. Boule de Suif dared not even raise her eyes. She +felt at once indignant with her neighbors, and humiliated at having +yielded to the Prussian into whose arms they had so hypocritically cast +her. + +But the countess, turning toward Madame Carre-Lamadon, soon broke the +painful silence: + +"I think you know Madame d'Etrelles?" + +"Yes; she is a friend of mine." + +"Such a charming woman!" + +"Delightful! Exceptionally talented, and an artist to the finger tips. +She sings marvellously and draws to perfection." + +The manufacturer was chatting with the count, and amid the clatter of the +window-panes a word of their conversation was now and then +distinguishable: "Shares--maturity--premium--time-limit." + +Loiseau, who had abstracted from the inn the timeworn pack of cards, +thick with the grease of five years' contact with half-wiped-off tables, +started a game of bezique with his wife. + +The good sisters, taking up simultaneously the long rosaries hanging from +their waists, made the sign of the cross, and began to mutter in unison +interminable prayers, their lips moving ever more and more swiftly, as if +they sought which should outdistance the other in the race of orisons; +from time to time they kissed a medal, and crossed themselves anew, then +resumed their rapid and unintelligible murmur. + +Cornudet sat still, lost in thought. + +Ah the end of three hours Loiseau gathered up the cards, and remarked +that he was hungry. + +His wife thereupon produced a parcel tied with string, from which she +extracted a piece of cold veal. This she cut into neat, thin slices, and +both began to eat. + +"We may as well do the same," said the countess. The rest agreed, and +she unpacked the provisions which had been prepared for herself, the +count, and the Carre-Lamadons. In one of those oval dishes, the lids of +which are decorated with an earthenware hare, by way of showing that a +game pie lies within, was a succulent delicacy consisting of the brown +flesh of the game larded with streaks of bacon and flavored with other +meats chopped fine. A solid wedge of Gruyere cheese, which had been +wrapped in a newspaper, bore the imprint: "Items of News," on its rich, +oily surface. + +The two good sisters brought to light a hunk of sausage smelling strongly +of garlic; and Cornudet, plunging both hands at once into the capacious +pockets of his loose overcoat, produced from one four hard-boiled eggs +and from the other a crust of bread. He removed the shells, threw them +into the straw beneath his feet, and began to devour the eggs, letting +morsels of the bright yellow yolk fall in his mighty beard, where they +looked like stars. + +Boule de Suif, in the haste and confusion of her departure, had not +thought of anything, and, stifling with rage, she watched all these +people placidly eating. At first, ill-suppressed wrath shook her whole +person, and she opened her lips to shriek the truth at them, to overwhelm +them with a volley of insults; but she could not utter a word, so choked +was she with indignation. + +No one looked at her, no one thought of her. She felt herself swallowed +up in the scorn of these virtuous creatures, who had first sacrificed, +then rejected her as a thing useless and unclean. Then she remembered +her big basket full of the good things they had so greedily devoured: the +two chickens coated in jelly, the pies, the pears, the four bottles of +claret; and her fury broke forth like a cord that is overstrained, and +she was on the verge of tears. She made terrible efforts at self- +control, drew herself up, swallowed the sobs which choked her; but the +tears rose nevertheless, shone at the brink of her eyelids, and soon two +heavy drops coursed slowly down her cheeks. Others followed more +quickly, like water filtering from a rock, and fell, one after another, +on her rounded bosom. She sat upright, with a fixed expression, her face +pale and rigid, hoping desperately that no one saw her give way. + +But the countess noticed that she was weeping, and with a sign drew her +husband's attention to the fact. He shrugged his shoulders, as if to +say: "Well, what of it? It's not my fault." Madame Loiseau chuckled +triumphantly, and murmured: + +"She's weeping for shame." + +The two nuns had betaken themselves once more to their prayers, first +wrapping the remainder of their sausage in paper: + +Then Cornudet, who was digesting his eggs, stretched his long legs under +the opposite seat, threw himself back, folded his arms, smiled like a man +who had just thought of a good joke, and began to whistle the +Marseillaise. + +The faces of his neighbors clouded; the popular air evidently did not +find favor with them; they grew nervous and irritable, and seemed ready +to howl as a dog does at the sound of a barrel-organ. Cornudet saw the +discomfort he was creating, and whistled the louder; sometimes he even +hummed the words: + + Amour sacre de la patrie, + Conduis, soutiens, nos bras vengeurs, + Liberte, liberte cherie, + Combats avec tes defenseurs! + +The coach progressed more swiftly, the snow being harder now; and all the +way to Dieppe, during the long, dreary hours of the journey, first in the +gathering dusk, then in the thick darkness, raising his voice above the +rumbling of the vehicle, Cornudet continued with fierce obstinacy his +vengeful and monotonous whistling, forcing his weary and exasperated- +hearers to follow the song from end to end, to recall every word of every +line, as each was repeated over and over again with untiring persistency. + +And Boule de Suif still wept, and sometimes a sob she could not restrain +was heard in the darkness between two verses of the song. + + + + + + +TWO FRIENDS + +Besieged Paris was in the throes of famine. Even the sparrows on the +roofs and the rats in the sewers were growing scarce. People were eating +anything they could get. + +As Monsieur Morissot, watchmaker by profession and idler for the nonce, +was strolling along the boulevard one bright January morning, his hands +in his trousers pockets and stomach empty, he suddenly came face to face +with an acquaintance--Monsieur Sauvage, a fishing chum. + +Before the war broke out Morissot had been in the habit, every Sunday +morning, of setting forth with a bamboo rod in his hand and a tin box on +his back. He took the Argenteuil train, got out at Colombes, and walked +thence to the Ile Marante. The moment he arrived at this place of his +dreams he began fishing, and fished till nightfall. + +Every Sunday he met in this very spot Monsieur Sauvage, a stout, jolly, +little man, a draper in the Rue Notre Dame de Lorette, and also an ardent +fisherman. They often spent half the day side by side, rod in hand and +feet dangling over the water, and a warm friendship had sprung up between +the two. + +Some days they did not speak; at other times they chatted; but they +understood each other perfectly without the aid of words, having similar +tastes and feelings. + +In the spring, about ten o'clock in the morning, when the early sun +caused a light mist to float on the water and gently warmed the backs of +the two enthusiastic anglers, Morissot would occasionally remark to his +neighbor: + +"My, but it's pleasant here." + +To which the other would reply: + +"I can't imagine anything better!" + +And these few words sufficed to make them understand and appreciate each +other. + +In the autumn, toward the close of day, when the setting sun shed a +blood-red glow over the western sky, and the reflection of the crimson +clouds tinged the whole river with red, brought a glow to the faces of +the two friends, and gilded the trees, whose leaves were already turning +at the first chill touch of winter, Monsieur Sauvage would sometimes +smile at Morissot, and say: + +"What a glorious spectacle!" + +And Morissot would answer, without taking his eyes from his float: + +"This is much better than the boulevard, isn't it?" + +As soon as they recognized each other they shook hands cordially, +affected at the thought of meeting under such changed circumstances. + +Monsieur Sauvage, with a sigh, murmured: + +"These are sad times!" + +Morissot shook his head mournfully. + +"And such weather! This is the first fine day of the year." + +The sky was, in fact, of a bright, cloudless blue. + +They walked along, side by side, reflective and sad. + +"And to think of the fishing!" said Morissot. "What good times we used +to have!" + +"When shall we be able to fish again?" asked Monsieur Sauvage. + +They entered a small cafe and took an absinthe together, then resumed +their walk along the pavement. + +Morissot stopped suddenly. + +"Shall we have another absinthe?" he said. + +"If you like," agreed Monsieur Sauvage. + +And they entered another wine shop. + +They were quite unsteady when they came out, owing to the effect of the +alcohol on their empty stomachs. It was a fine, mild day, and a gentle +breeze fanned their faces. + +The fresh air completed the effect of the alcohol on Monsieur Sauvage. +He stopped suddenly, saying: + +"Suppose we go there?" + +"Where?" + +"Fishing." + +"But where?" + +"Why, to the old place. The French outposts are close to Colombes. I +know Colonel Dumoulin, and we shall easily get leave to pass." + +Morissot trembled with desire. + +"Very well. I agree." + +And they separated, to fetch their rods and lines. + +An hour later they were walking side by side on the-highroad. Presently +they reached the villa occupied by the colonel. He smiled at their +request, and granted it. They resumed their walk, furnished with a +password. + +Soon they left the outposts behind them, made their way through deserted +Colombes, and found themselves on the outskirts of the small vineyards +which border the Seine. It was about eleven o'clock. + +Before them lay the village of Argenteuil, apparently lifeless. The +heights of Orgement and Sannois dominated the landscape. The great +plain, extending as far as Nanterre, was empty, quite empty-a waste of +dun-colored soil and bare cherry trees. + +Monsieur Sauvage, pointing to the heights, murmured: + +"The Prussians are up yonder!" + +And the sight of the deserted country filled the two friends with vague +misgivings. + +The Prussians! They had never seen them as yet, but they had felt their +presence in the neighborhood of Paris for months past--ruining France, +pillaging, massacring, starving them. And a kind of superstitious terror +mingled with the hatred they already felt toward this unknown, victorious +nation. + +"Suppose we were to meet any of them?" said Morissot. + +"We'd offer them some fish," replied Monsieur Sauvage, with that Parisian +light-heartedness which nothing can wholly quench. + +Still, they hesitated to show themselves in the open country, overawed by +the utter silence which reigned around them. + +At last Monsieur Sauvage said boldly: + +"Come, we'll make a start; only let us be careful!" + +And they made their way through one of the vineyards, bent double, +creeping along beneath the cover afforded by the vines, with eye and ear +alert. + +A strip of bare ground remained to be crossed before they could gain the +river bank. They ran across this, and, as soon as they were at the +water's edge, concealed themselves among the dry reeds. + +Morissot placed his ear to the ground, to ascertain, if possible, whether +footsteps were coming their way. He heard nothing. They seemed to be +utterly alone. + +Their confidence was restored, and they began to fish. + +Before them the deserted Ile Marante hid them from the farther shore. +The little restaurant was closed, and looked as if it had been deserted +for years. + +Monsieur Sauvage caught the first gudgeon, Monsieur Morissot the second, +and almost every moment one or other raised his line with a little, +glittering, silvery fish wriggling at the end; they were having excellent +sport. + +They slipped their catch gently into a close-meshed bag lying at their +feet; they were filled with joy--the joy of once more indulging in a +pastime of which they had long been deprived. + +The sun poured its rays on their backs; they no longer heard anything or +thought of anything. They ignored the rest of the world; they were +fishing. + +But suddenly a rumbling sound, which seemed to come from the bowels of +the earth, shook the ground beneath them: the cannon were resuming their +thunder. + +Morissot turned his head and could see toward the left, beyond the banks +of the river, the formidable outline of Mont-Valerien, from whose summit +arose a white puff of smoke. + +The next instant a second puff followed the first, and in a few moments a +fresh detonation made the earth tremble. + +Others followed, and minute by minute the mountain gave forth its deadly +breath and a white puff of smoke, which rose slowly into the peaceful +heaven and floated above the summit of the cliff. + +Monsieur Sauvage shrugged his shoulders. + +"They are at it again!" he said. + +Morissot, who was anxiously watching his float bobbing up and down, was +suddenly seized with the angry impatience of a peaceful man toward the +madmen who were firing thus, and remarked indignantly: + +"What fools they are to kill one another like that!" + +"They're worse than animals," replied Monsieur Sauvage. + +And Morissot, who had just caught a bleak, declared: + +"And to think that it will be just the same so long as there are +governments!" + +"The Republic would not have declared war," interposed Monsieur Sauvage. + +Morissot interrupted him: + +"Under a king we have foreign wars; under a republic we have civil war." + +And the two began placidly discussing political problems with the sound +common sense of peaceful, matter-of-fact citizens--agreeing on one point: +that they would never be free. And Mont-Valerien thundered ceaselessly, +demolishing the houses of the French with its cannon balls, grinding +lives of men to powder, destroying many a dream, many a cherished hope, +many a prospective happiness; ruthlessly causing endless woe and +suffering in the hearts of wives, of daughters, of mothers, in other +lands. + +"Such is life!" declared Monsieur Sauvage. + +"Say, rather, such is death!" replied Morissot, laughing. + +But they suddenly trembled with alarm at the sound of footsteps behind +them, and, turning round, they perceived close at hand four tall, bearded +men, dressed after the manner of livery servants and wearing flat caps on +their heads. They were covering the two anglers with their rifles. + +The rods slipped from their owners' grasp and floated away down the +river. + +In the space of a few seconds they were seized, bound, thrown into a +boat, and taken across to the Ile Marante. + +And behind the house they had thought deserted were about a score of +German soldiers. + +A shaggy-looking giant, who was bestriding a chair and smoking a long +clay pipe, addressed them in excellent French with the words: + +"Well, gentlemen, have you had good luck with your fishing?" + +Then a soldier deposited at the officer's feet the bag full of fish, +which he had taken care to bring away. The Prussian smiled. + +"Not bad, I see. But we have something else to talk about. Listen to +me, and don't be alarmed: + +"You must know that, in my eyes, you are two spies sent to reconnoitre me +and my movements. Naturally, I capture you and I shoot you. You +pretended to be fishing, the better to disguise your real errand. You +have fallen into my hands, and must take the consequences. Such is war. + +"But as you came here through the outposts you must have a password for +your return. Tell me that password and I will let you go." + +The two friends, pale as death, stood silently side by side, a slight +fluttering of the hands alone betraying their emotion. + +"No one will ever know," continued the officer. "You will return +peacefully to your homes, and the secret will disappear with you. If you +refuse, it means death-instant death. Choose!" + +They stood motionless, and did not open their lips. + +The Prussian, perfectly calm, went on, with hand outstretched toward the +river: + +"Just think that in five minutes you will be at the bottom of that water. +In five minutes! You have relations, I presume?" + +Mont-Valerien still thundered. + +The two fishermen remained silent. The German turned and gave an order +in his own language. Then he moved his chair a little way off, that he +might not be so near the prisoners, and a dozen men stepped forward, +rifle in hand, and took up a position, twenty paces off. + +"I give you one minute," said the officer; "not a second longer." + +Then he rose quickly, went over to the two Frenchmen, took Morissot by +the arm, led him a short distance off, and said in a low voice: + +"Quick! the password! Your friend will know nothing. I will pretend to +relent." + +Morissot answered not a word. + +Then the Prussian took Monsieur Sauvage aside in like manner, and made +him the same proposal. + +Monsieur Sauvage made no reply. + +Again they stood side by side. + +The officer issued his orders; the soldiers raised their rifles. + +Then by chance Morissot's eyes fell on the bag full of gudgeon lying in +the grass a few feet from him. + +A ray of sunlight made the still quivering fish glisten like silver. And +Morissot's heart sank. Despite his efforts at self-control his eyes +filled with tears. + +"Good-by, Monsieur Sauvage," he faltered. + +"Good-by, Monsieur Morissot," replied Sauvage. + +They shook hands, trembling from head to foot with a dread beyond their +mastery. + +The officer cried: + +"Fire!" + +The twelve shots were as one. + +Monsieur Sauvage fell forward instantaneously. Morissot, being the +taller, swayed slightly and fell across his friend with face turned +skyward and blood oozing from a rent in the breast of his coat. + +The German issued fresh orders. + +His men dispersed, and presently returned with ropes and large stones, +which they attached to the feet of the two friends; then they carried +them to the river bank. + +Mont-Valerien, its summit now enshrouded in smoke, still continued to +thunder. + +Two soldiers took Morissot by the head and the feet; two others did the +same with Sauvage. The bodies, swung lustily by strong hands, were cast +to a distance, and, describing a curve, fell feet foremost into the +stream. + +The water splashed high, foamed, eddied, then grew calm; tiny waves +lapped the shore. + +A few streaks of blood flecked the surface of the river. + +The officer, calm throughout, remarked, with grim humor: + +"It's the fishes' turn now!" + +Then he retraced his way to the house. + +Suddenly he caught sight of the net full of gudgeons, lying forgotten in +the grass. He picked it up, examined it, smiled, and called: + +"Wilhelm!" + +A white-aproned soldier responded to the summons, and the Prussian, +tossing him the catch of the two murdered men, said: + +"Have these fish fried for me at once, while they are still alive; +they'll make a tasty dish." + +Then he resumed his pipe. + + + + + + +THE LANCER'S WIFE + + +I + +It was after Bourbaki's defeat in the east of France. The army, broken +up, decimated, and worn out, had been obliged to retreat into Switzerland +after that terrible campaign, and it was only its short duration that +saved a hundred and fifty thousand men from certain death. Hunger, the +terrible cold, forced marches in the snow without boots, over bad +mountain roads, had caused us 'francs-tireurs', especially, the greatest +suffering, for we were without tents, and almost without food, always in +the van when we were marching toward Belfort, and in the rear when +returning by the Jura. Of our little band that had numbered twelve +hundred men on the first of January, there remained only twenty-two pale, +thin, ragged wretches, when we at length succeeded in reaching Swiss +territory. + +There we were safe, and could rest. Everybody knows what sympathy was +shown to the unfortunate French army, and how well it was cared for. We +all gained fresh life, and those who had been rich and happy before the +war declared that they had never experienced a greater feeling of comfort +than they did then. Just think. We actually had something to eat every +day, and could sleep every night. + +Meanwhile, the war continued in the east of France, which had been +excluded from the armistice. Besancon still kept the enemy in check, and +the latter had their revenge by ravaging Franche Comte. Sometimes we +heard that they had approached quite close to the frontier, and we saw +Swiss troops, who were to form a line of observation between us and them, +set out on their march. + +That pained us in the end, and, as we regained health and strength, the +longing to fight took possession of us. It was disgraceful and +irritating to know that within two or three leagues of us the Germans +were victorious and insolent, to feel that we were protected by our +captivity, and to feel that on that account we were powerless against +them. + +One day our captain took five or six of us aside, and spoke to us about +it, long and furiously. He was a fine fellow, that captain. He had been +a sublieutenant in the Zouaves, was tall and thin and as hard as steel, +and during the whole campaign he had cut out their work for the Germans. +He fretted in inactivity, and could not accustom himself to the idea of +being a prisoner and of doing nothing. + +"Confound it!" he said to us, "does it not pain you to know that there is +a number of uhlans within two hours of us? Does it not almost drive you +mad to know that those beggarly wretches are walking about as masters in +our mountains, when six determined men might kill a whole spitful any +day? I cannot endure it any longer, and I must go there." + +"But how can you manage it, captain?" + +"How? It is not very difficult! Just as if we had not done a thing or +two within the last six months, and got out of woods that were guarded by +very different men from the Swiss. The day that you wish to cross over +into France, I will undertake to get you there." + +"That may be; but what shall we do in France without any arms?" + +"Without arms? We will get them over yonder, by Jove!" + +"You are forgetting the treaty," another soldier said; "we shall run the +risk of doing the Swiss an injury, if Manteuffel learns that they have +allowed prisoners to return to France." + +"Come," said the captain, "those are all bad reasons. I mean to go and +kill some Prussians; that is all I care about. If you do not wish to do +as I do, well and good; only say so at once. I can quite well go by +myself; I do not require anybody's company." + +Naturally we all protested, and, as it was quite impossible to make the +captain alter his mind, we felt obliged to promise to go with him. We +liked him too much to leave him in the lurch, as he never failed us in +any extremity; and so the expedition was decided on. + + + +II + +The captain had a plan of his own, that he had been cogitating over for +some time. A man in that part of the country whom he knew was going to +lend him a cart and six suits of peasants' clothes. We could hide under +some straw at the bottom of the wagon, which would be loaded with Gruyere +cheese, which he was supposed to be going to sell in France. The captain +told the sentinels that he was taking two friends with him to protect his +goods, in case any one should try to rob him, which did not seem an +extraordinary precaution. A Swiss officer seemed to look at the wagon in +a knowing manner, but that was in order to impress his soldiers. In a +word, neither officers nor men could make it out. + +"Get up," the captain said to the horses, as he cracked his whip, while +our three men quietly smoked their pipes. I was half suffocated in my +box, which only admitted the air through those holes in front, and at the +same time I was nearly frozen, for it was terribly cold. + +"Get up," the captain said again, and the wagon loaded with Gruyere +cheese entered France. + +The Prussian lines were very badly guarded, as the enemy trusted to the +watchfulness of the Swiss. The sergeant spoke North German, while our +captain spoke the bad German of the Four Cantons, and so they could not +understand each other. The sergeant, however, pretended to be very +intelligent; and, in order to make us believe that he understood us, they +allowed us to continue our journey; and, after travelling for seven +hours, being continually stopped in the same manner, we arrived at a +small village of the Jura in ruins, at nightfall. + +What were we going to do? Our only arms were the captain's whip, our +uniforms our peasants' blouses, and our food the Gruyere cheese. Our +sole wealth consisted in our ammunition, packages of cartridges which we +had stowed away inside some of the large cheeses. We had about a +thousand of them, just two hundred each, but we needed rifles, and they +must be chassepots. Luckily, however, the captain was a bold man of an +inventive mind, and this was the plan that he hit upon: + +While three of us remained hidden in a cellar in the abandoned village, +he continued his journey as far as Besancon with the empty wagon and one +man. The town was invested, but one can always make one's way into a +town among the hills by crossing the tableland till within about ten +miles of the walls, and then following paths and ravines on foot. They +left their wagon at Omans, among the Germans, and escaped out of it at +night on foot; so as to gain the heights which border the River Doubs; +the next day they entered Besancon, where there were plenty of +chassepots. There were nearly forty thousand of them left in the +arsenal, and General Roland, a brave marine, laughed at the captain's +daring project, but let him have six rifles and wished him "good luck." +There he had also found his wife, who had been through all the war with +us before the campaign in the East, and who had been only prevented by +illness from continuing with Bourbaki's army. She had recovered, +however, in spite of the cold, which was growing more and more intense, +and in spite of the numberless privations that awaited her, she persisted +in accompanying her husband. He was obliged to give way to her, and they +all three, the captain, his wife, and our comrade, started on their +expedition. + +Going was nothing in comparison to returning. They were obliged to +travel by night, so as to avoid meeting anybody, as the possession of six +rifles would have made them liable to suspicion. But, in spite of +everything, a week after leaving us, the captain and his two men were +back with us again. The campaign was about to begin. + + + +III + +The first night of his arrival he began it himself, and, under pretext of +examining the surrounding country, he went along the high road. + +I must tell you that the little village which served as our fortress was +a small collection of poor, badly built houses, which had been deserted +long before. It lay on a steep slope, which terminated in a wooded +plain. The country people sell the wood; they send it down the slopes, +which are called coulees, locally, and which lead down to the plain, and +there they stack it into piles, which they sell thrice a year to the wood +merchants. The spot where this market is held in indicated by two small +houses by the side of the highroad, which serve for public houses. The +captain had gone down there by way of one of these coulees. + +He had been gone about half an hour, and we were on the lookout at the +top of the ravine, when we heard a shot. The captain had ordered us not +to stir, and only to come to him when we heard him blow his trumpet. It +was made of a goat's horn, and could be heard a league off ; but it gave +no sound, and, in spite of our cruel anxiety, we were obliged to wait in +silence, with our rifles by our side. + +It is nothing to go down these coulees; one just lets one's self slide +down; but it is more difficult to get up again; one has to scramble up by +catching hold of the hanging branches of the trees, and sometimes on all +fours, by sheer strength. A whole mortal hour passed, and he did not +come; nothing moved in the brushwood. The captain's wife began to grow +impatient. What could he be doing? Why did he not call us? Did the +shot that we had heard proceed from an enemy, and had he killed or +wounded our leader, her husband? They did not know what to think, but I +myself fancied either that he was dead or that his enterprise was +successful; and I was merely anxious and curious to know what he had +done. + +Suddenly we heard the sound of his trumpet, and we were much surprised +that instead of coming from below, as we had expected, it came from the +village behind us. What did that mean? It was a mystery to us, but the +same idea struck us all, that he had been killed, and that the Prussians +were blowing the trumpet to draw us into an ambush. We therefore +returned to the cottage, keeping a careful lookout with our fingers on +the trigger, and hiding under the branches; but his wife, in spite of our +entreaties, rushed on, leaping like a tigress. She thought that she had +to avenge her husband, and had fixed the bayonet to her rifle, and we +lost sight of her at the moment that we heard the trumpet again; and, a +few moments later, we heard her calling out to us: + +"Come on! come on! He is alive! It is he!" + +We hastened on, and saw the captain smoking his pipe at the entrance of +the village, but strangely enough, he was on horseback. + +"Ah! ah !" he said to us, "you see that there is something to be done +here. Here I am on horseback already; I knocked over an uhlan yonder, +and took his horse; I suppose they were guarding the wood, but it was by +drinking and swilling in clover. One of them, the sentry at the door, +had not time to see me before I gave him a sugarplum in his stomach, and +then, before the others could come out, I jumped on the horse and was off +like a shot. Eight or ten of them followed me, I think; but I took the +crossroads through the woods. I have got scratched and torn a bit, but +here I am, and now, my good fellows, attention, and take care! Those +brigands will not rest until they have caught us, and we must receive +them with rifle bullets. Come along; let us take up our posts!" + +We set out. One of us took up his position a good way from the village +on the crossroads; I was posted at the entrance of the main street, where +the road from the level country enters the village, while the two others, +the captain and his wife, were in the middle of the village, near the +church, whose tower-served for an observatory and citadel. + +We had not been in our places long before we heard a shot, followed by +another, and then two, then three. The first was evidently a chassepot +--one recognized it by the sharp report, which sounds like the crack of a +whip--while the other three came from the lancers' carbines. + +The captain was furious. He had given orders to the outpost to let the +enemy pass and merely to follow them at a distance if they marched toward +the village, and to join me when they had gone well between the houses. +Then they were to appear suddenly, take the patrol between two fires, and +not allow a single man to escape; for, posted as we were, the six of us +could have hemmed in ten Prussians, if needful. + +"That confounded Piedelot has roused them," the captain said, "and they +will not venture to come on blindfolded any longer. And then I am quite +sure that he has managed to get a shot into himself somewhere or other, +for we hear nothing of him. It serves him right; why did he not obey +orders?" And then, after a moment, he grumbled in his beard: "After all I +am sorry for the poor fellow; he is so brave, and shoots so well!" + +The captain was right in his conjectures. We waited until evening, +without seeing the uhlans; they had retreated after the first attack; but +unfortunately we had not seen Piedelot, either. Was he dead or a +prisoner? When night came, the captain proposed that we should go out +and look for him, and so the three of us started. At the crossroads we +found a broken rifle and some blood, while the ground was trampled down; +but we did not find either a wounded man or a dead body, although we +searched every thicket, and at midnight we returned without having +discovered anything of our unfortunate comrade. + +"It is very strange," the captain growled. "They must have killed him +and thrown him into the bushes somewhere; they cannot possibly have taken +him prisoner, as he would have called out for help. I cannot understand +it at all." Just as he said that, bright flames shot up in the direction +of the inn on the high road, which illuminated the sky. + +"Scoundrels! cowards!" he shouted. "I will bet that they have set fire +to the two houses on the marketplace, in order to have their revenge, and +then they will scuttle off without saying a word. They will be satisfied +with having killed a man and set fire to two houses. All right. It +shall not pass over like that. We must go for them; they will not like +to leave their illuminations in order to fight." + +"It would be a great stroke of luck if we could set Piedelot free at the +same time," some one said. + +The five of us set off, full of rage and hope. In twenty minutes we had +got to the bottom of the coulee, and had not yet seen any one when we +were within a hundred yards of the inn. The fire was behind the house, +and all we saw of it was the reflection above the roof. However, we were +walking rather slowly, as we were afraid of an ambush, when suddenly we +heard Piedelot's well-known voice. It had a strange sound, however; for +it was at the same time--dull and vibrating, stifled and clear, as if he +were calling out as loud as he could with a bit of rag stuffed into his +mouth. He seemed to be hoarse and gasping, and the unlucky fellow kept +exclaiming: "Help! Help!" + +We sent all thoughts of prudence to the devil, and in two bounds we were +at the back of the inn, where a terrible sight met our eyes. + + + +IV + +Piedelot was being burned alive. He was writhing in the midst of a heap +of fagots, tied to a stake, and the flames were licking him with their +burning tongues. When he saw us, his tongue seemed to stick in his +throat; he drooped his head, and seemed as if he were going to die. It +was only the affair of a moment to upset the burning pile, to scatter the +embers, and to cut the ropes that fastened him. + +Poor fellow! In what a terrible state we found him. The evening before +he had had his left arm broken, and it seemed as if he had been badly +beaten since then, for his whole body was covered with wounds, bruises +and blood. The flames had also begun their work on him, and he had two +large burns, one on his loins and the other on his right thigh, and his +beard and hair were scorched. Poor Piedelot! + +No one knows the terrible rage we felt at this sight! We would have +rushed headlong at a hundred thousand Prussians; our thirst for vengeance +was intense. But the cowards had run away, leaving their crime behind +them. Where could we find them now? Meanwhile, however, the captain's +wife was looking after Piedelot, and dressing his wounds as best she +could, while the captain himself shook hands with him excitedly, and in a +few minutes he came to himself. + +"Good-morning, captain; good-morning, all of you," be said. "Ah! the +scoundrels, the wretches! Why, twenty of them came to surprise us." + +"Twenty, do you say?" + +"Yes; there was a whole band of them, and that is why I disobeyed orders, +captain, and fired on them, for they would have killed you all, and I +preferred to stop them. That frightened them, and they did not venture +to go farther than the crossroads. They were such cowards. Four of them +shot at me at twenty yards, as if I had been a target, and then they +slashed me with their swords. My arm was broken, so that I could only +use my bayonet with one hand." + +"But why did you not call for help?" + +"I took good care not to do that, for you would all have come; and you +would neither have been able to defend me nor yourselves, being only five +against twenty." + +"You know that we should not have allowed you to have been taken, poor +old fellow." + +"I preferred to die by myself, don't you see! I did not want to bring +you here, for it would have been a mere ambush." + +"Well, we will not talk about it any more. Do you feel rather easier?" + +"No, I am suffocating. I know that I cannot live much longer. The +brutes! They tied me to a tree, and beat me till I was half dead, and +then they shook my broken arm; but I did not make a sound. I would +rather have bitten my tongue out than have called out before them. Now I +can tell what I am suffering and shed tears; it does one good. Thank +you, my kind friends." + +"Poor Piedelot! But we will avenge you, you may be sure!" + +"Yes, yes; I want you to do that. There is, in particular, a woman among +them who passes as the wife of the lancer whom the captain killed +yesterday. She is dressed like a lancer, and she tortured me the most +yesterday, and suggested burning me; and it was she who set fire to the +wood. Oh! the wretch, the brute! Ah! how I am suffering! My loins, my +arms!" and he fell back gasping and exhausted, writhing in his terrible +agony, while the captain's wife wiped the perspiration from his forehead, +and we all shed tears of grief and rage, as if we had been children. +I will not describe the end to you; he died half an hour later, +previously telling us in what direction the enemy had gone. When he was +dead we gave ourselves time to bury him, and then we set out in pursuit +of them, with our hearts full of fury and hatred. + +"We will throw ourselves on the whole Prussian army, if it be necessary," +the captain said; "but we will avenge Piedelot. We must catch those +scoundrels. Let us swear to die, rather than not to find them; and if I +am killed first, these are my orders: All the prisoners that you take are +to be shot immediately, and as for the lancer's wife, she is to be +tortured before she is put to death." + +"She must not be shot, because she is a woman," the captain's wife said. +"If you survive, I am sure that you would not shoot a woman. Torturing +her will be quite sufficient; but if you are killed in this pursuit, I +want one thing, and that is to fight with her; I will kill her with my +own hands, and the others can do what they like with her if she kills +me." + +"We will outrage her! We will burn her! We will tear her to pieces! +Piedelot shall be avenged! + +An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth!" + + + +V + +The next morning we unexpectedly fell on an outpost of uhlans four +leagues away. Surprised by our sudden attack, they were not able to +mount their horses, nor even to defend themselves; and in a few moments +we had five prisoner, corresponding to our own number. The captain +questioned them, and from their answers we felt certain that they were +the same whom we had encountered the previous day. Then a very curious +operation took place. One of us was told off to ascertain their sex, and +nothing can describe our joy when we discovered what we were seeking +among them, the female executioner who had tortured our friend. + +The four others were shot on the spot, with their backs to us and close +to the muzzles of our rifles; and then we turned our attention to the +woman. What were we going to do with her? I must acknowledge that we +were all of us in favor of shooting her. Hatred, and the wish to avenge +Piedelot, had extinguished all pity in us, and we had forgotten that we +were going to shoot a woman, but a woman reminded us of it, the captain's +wife; at her entreaties, therefore, we determined to keep her a prisoner. + +The captain's poor wife was to be severely punished for this act of +clemency. + +The next day we heard that the armistice had been extended to the eastern +part of France, and we had to put an end to our little campaign. Two of +us, who belonged to the neighborhood, returned home, so there were only +four of us, all told: the captain, his wife, and two men. We belonged to +Besancon, which was still being besieged in spite of the armistice. + +"Let us stop here," said the captain. "I cannot believe that the war is +going to end like this. The devil take it! Surely there are men still +left in France; and now is the time to prove what they are made of. The +spring is coming on, and the armistice is only a trap laid for the +Prussians. During the time that it lasts, a new army will be raised, and +some fine morning we shall fall upon them again. We shall be ready, and +we have a hostage--let us remain here." + +We fixed our quarters there. It was terribly cold, and we did not go out +much, and somebody had always to keep the female prisoner in sight. + +She was sullen, and never said anything, or else spoke of her husband, +whom the captain had killed. She looked at him continually with fierce +eyes, and we felt that she was tortured by a wild longing for revenge. +That seemed to us to be the most suitable punishment for the terrible +torments that she had made Piedelot suffer, for impotent vengeance is +such intense pain! + +Alas! we who knew how to avenge our comrade ought to have thought that +this woman would know how to avenge her husband, and have been on our +guard. It is true that one of us kept watch every night, and that at +first we tied her by a long rope to the great oak bench that was fastened +to the wall. But, by and by, as she had never tried to escape, in spite +of her hatred for us, we relaxed our extreme prudence, and allowed her to +sleep somewhere else except on the bench, and without being tied. What +had we to fear? She was at the end of the room, a man was on guard at +the door, and between her and the sentinel the captain's wife and two +other men used to lie. She was alone and unarmed against four, so there +could be no danger. + +One night when we were asleep, and the captain was on guard, the lancer's +wife was lying more quietly in her corner than usual, and she had even +smiled for the first time since she had been our prisoner during the +evening. Suddenly, however, in the middle of the night, we were all +awakened by a terrible cry. We got up, groping about, and at once +stumbled over a furious couple who were rolling about and fighting on the +ground. It was the captain and the lancer's wife. We threw ourselves on +them, and separated them in a moment. She was shouting and laughing, and +he seemed to have the death rattle. All this took place in the dark. +Two of us held her, and when a light was struck a terrible sight met our +eyes. The captain was lying on the floor in a pool of blood, with an +enormous gash in his throat, and his sword bayonet, that had been taken +from his rifle, was sticking in the red, gaping wound. A few minutes +afterward he died, without having been able to utter a word. + +His wife did not shed a tear. Her eyes were dry, her throat was +contracted, and she looked at the lancer's wife steadfastly, and with a +calm ferocity that inspired fear. + +"This woman belongs to me," she said to us suddenly. "You swore to me +not a week ago to let me kill her as I chose, if she killed my husband; +and you must keep your oath. You must fasten her securely to the +fireplace, upright against the back of it, and then you can go where you +like, but far from here. I will take my revenge on her myself. Leave +the captain's body, and we three, he, she and I, will remain here." + +We obeyed, and went away. She promised to write to us to Geneva, as we +were returning thither. + + + +VI + +Two days later I received the following letter, dated the day after we +had left, that had been written at an inn on the high road: + +"MY FRIEND: I am writing to you, according to my promise. For the moment +I am at the inn, where I have just handed my prisoner over to a Prussian +officer. + +"I must tell you, my friend, that this poor woman has left two children +in Germany. She had followed her husband, whom she adored, as she did +not wish him to be exposed to the risks of war by himself, and as her +children were with their grandparents. I have learned all this since +yesterday, and it has turned my ideas of vengeance into more humane +feelings. At the very moment when I felt pleasure in insulting this +woman, and in threatening her with the most fearful torments, in +recalling Piedelot, who had been burned alive, and in threatening her +with a similar death, she looked at me coldly, and said: + +"'What have you got to reproach me with, Frenchwoman? You think that you +will do right in avenging your husband's death, is not that so?' + +"'Yes,' I replied. + +"'Very well, then; in killing him, I did what you are going to do in +burning me. I avenged my husband, for your husband killed him.' + +"'Well,' I replied, 'as you approve of this vengeance, prepare to endure +it.' + +"'I do not fear it.' + +"And in fact she did not seem to have lost courage. Her face was calm, +and she looked at me without trembling, while I brought wood and dried +leaves together, and feverishly threw on to them the powder from some +cartridges, which was to make her funeral pile the more cruel. + +"I hesitated in my thoughts of persecution for a moment. But the captain +was there, pale and covered with blood, and he seemed to be looking at me +with his large, glassy eyes, and I applied myself to my work again after +kissing his pale lips. Suddenly, however, on raising my head, I saw that +she was crying, and I felt rather surprised. + +"'So you are frightened?' I said to her. + +"'No, but when I saw you kiss your husband, I thought of mine, of all +whom I love.' + +"She continued to sob, but stopping suddenly, she said to me in broken +words and in a low voice: + +"'Have you any children?' + +"A shiver rare over me, for I guessed that this poor woman had some. She +asked me to look in a pocketbook which was in her bosom, and in it I saw +two photographs of quite young children, a boy and a girl, with those +kind, gentle, chubby faces that German children have. In it there were +also two locks of light hair and a letter in a large, childish hand, and +beginning with German words which meant: + +'My dear little mother.' + +"I could not restrain my tears, my dear friend, and so I untied her, and +without venturing to look at the face of my poor dead husband, who was +not to be avenged, I went with her as far as the inn. She is free; I have +just left her, and she kissed me with tears. I am going upstairs to my +husband; come as soon as possible, my dear friend, to look for our two +bodies." + +I set off with all speed, and when I arrived there was a Prussian patrol +at the cottage; and when I asked what it all meant, I was told that there +was a captain of francs-tireurs and his wife inside, both dead. I gave +their names; they saw that I knew them, and I begged to be allowed to +arrange their funeral. + +"Somebody has already undertaken it," was the reply. "Go in if you wish +to, as you know them. You can settle about their funeral with their +friend." + +I went in. The captain and his wife were lying side by side on a bed, +and were covered by a sheet. I raised it, and saw that the woman had +inflicted a similar wound in her throat to that from which her husband +had died. + +At the side of the bed there sat, watching and weeping, the woman who had +been mentioned to me as their best friend. It was the lancer's wife. + + + + + + +THE PRISONERS + +There was not a sound in the forest save the indistinct, fluttering sound +of the snow falling on the trees. It had been snowing since noon; a +little fine snow, that covered the branches as with frozen moss, and +spread a silvery covering over the dead leaves in the ditches, and +covered the roads with a white, yielding carpet, and made still more +intense the boundless silence of this ocean of trees. + +Before the door of the forester's dwelling a young woman, her arms bare +to the elbow, was chopping wood with a hatchet on a block of stone. She +was tall, slender, strong-a true girl of the woods, daughter and wife of +a forester. + +A voice called from within the house: + +"We are alone to-night, Berthine; you must come in. It is getting dark, +and there may be Prussians or wolves about." + +"I've just finished, mother," replied the young woman, splitting as she +spoke an immense log of wood with strong, deft blows, which expanded her +chest each time she raised her arms to strike. "Here I am; there's no +need to be afraid; it's quite light still." + +Then she gathered up her sticks and logs, piled them in the chimney +corner, went back to close the great oaken shutters, and finally came in, +drawing behind her the heavy bolts of the door. + +Her mother, a wrinkled old woman whom age had rendered timid, was +spinning by the fireside. + +"I am uneasy," she said, "when your father's not here. Two women are not +much good." + +"Oh," said the younger woman, "I'd cheerfully kill a wolf or a Prussian +if it came to that." + +And she glanced at a heavy revolver hanging above the hearth. + +Her husband had been called upon to serve in the army at the beginning of +the Prussian invasion, and the two women had remained alone with the old +father, a keeper named Nicolas Pichon, sometimes called Long-legs, who +refused obstinately to leave his home and take refuge in the town. + +This town was Rethel, an ancient stronghold built on a rock. Its +inhabitants were patriotic, and had made up their minds to resist the +invaders, to fortify their native place, and, if need be, to stand a +siege as in the good old days. Twice already, under Henri IV and under +Louis XIV, the people of Rethel had distinguished themselves by their +heroic defence of their town. They would do as much now, by gad! or else +be slaughtered within their own walls. + +They had, therefore, bought cannon and rifles, organized a militia, and +formed themselves into battalions and companies, and now spent their time +drilling all day long in the square. All-bakers, grocers, butchers, +lawyers, carpenters, booksellers, chemists-took their turn at military +training at regular hours of the day, under the auspices of Monsieur +Lavigne, a former noncommissioned officer in the dragoons, now a draper, +having married the daughter and inherited the business of Monsieur +Ravaudan, Senior. + +He had taken the rank of commanding officer in Rethel, and, seeing that +all the young men had gone off to the war, he had enlisted all the others +who were in favor of resisting an attack. Fat men now invariably walked +the streets at a rapid pace, to reduce their weight and improve their +breathing, and weak men carried weights to strengthen their muscles. + +And they awaited the Prussians. But the Prussians did not appear. They +were not far off, however, for twice already their scouts had penetrated +as far as the forest dwelling of Nicolas Pichon, called Long-legs. + +The old keeper, who could run like a fox, had come and warned the town. +The guns had been got ready, but the enemy had not shown themselves. + +Long-legs' dwelling served as an outpost in the Aveline forest. Twice a +week the old man went to the town for provisions and brought the citizens +news of the outlying district. + +On this particular day he had gone to announce the fact that a small +detachment of German infantry had halted at his house the day before, +about two o'clock in the afternoon, and had left again almost +immediately. The noncommissioned officer in charge spoke French. + +When the old man set out like this he took with him his dogs--two +powerful animals with the jaws of lions-as a safeguard against the +wolves, which were beginning to get fierce, and he left directions with +the two women to barricade themselves securely within their dwelling as +soon as night fell. + +The younger feared nothing, but her mother was always apprehensive, and +repeated continually: + +"We'll come to grief one of these days. You see if we don't!" + +This evening she was, if possible, more nervous than ever. + +"Do you know what time your father will be back?" she asked. + +"Oh, not before eleven, for certain. When he dines with the commandant +he's always late." + +And Berthine was hanging her pot over the fire to warm the soup when she +suddenly stood still, listening attentively to a sound that had reached +her through the chimney. + +"There are people walking in the wood," she said; "seven or eight men at +least." + +The terrified old woman stopped her spinning wheel, and gasped: + +"Oh, my God! And your father not here!" + +She had scarcely finished speaking when a succession of violent blows +shook the door. + +As the woman made no reply, a loud, guttural voice shouted: + +"Open the door!" + +After a brief silence the same voice repeated: + +"Open the door or I'll break it down!" + +Berthine took the heavy revolver from its hook, slipped it into the +pocket of her skirt, and, putting her ear to the door, asked: + +"Who are you?" demanded the young woman. "What do you want?". + +"The detachment that came here the other day," replied the voice. + +"My men and I have lost our way in the forest since morning. Open the +door or I'll break it down!" + +The forester's daughter had no choice; she shot back the heavy bolts, +threw open the ponderous shutter, and perceived in the wan light of the +snow six men, six Prussian soldiers, the same who had visited the house +the day before. + +"What are you doing here at this time of night?" she asked dauntlessly. + +"I lost my bearings," replied the officer; "lost them completely. Then I +recognized this house. I've eaten nothing since morning, nor my men +either." + +"But I'm quite alone with my mother this evening," said Berthine. + +"Never mind," replied the soldier, who seemed a decent sort of fellow. +"We won't do you any harm, but you must give us something to eat. We are +nearly dead with hunger and fatigue." + +Then the girl moved aside. + +"Come in;" she said. + +Then entered, covered with snow, their helmets sprinkled with a creamy- +looking froth, which gave them the appearance of meringues. They seemed +utterly worn out. + +The young woman pointed to the wooden benches on either side of the large +table. + +"Sit down," she said, "and I'll make you some soup. You certainly look +tired out, and no mistake." + +Then she bolted the door afresh. + +She put more water in the pot, added butter and potatoes; then, taking +down a piece of bacon from a hook in the chimney earner, cut it in two +and slipped half of it into the pot. + +The six men watched her movements with hungry eyes. They had placed +their rifles and helmets in a corner and waited for supper, as well +behaved as children on a school bench. + +The old mother had resumed her spinning, casting from time to time a +furtive and uneasy glance at the soldiers. Nothing was to be heard save +the humming of the wheel, the crackling of the fire, and the singing of +the water in the pot. + +But suddenly a strange noise--a sound like the harsh breathing of some +wild animal sniffing under the door-startled the occupants of the room. + +The German officer sprang toward the rifles. Berthine stopped him with a +gesture, and said, smilingly: + +"It's only the wolves. They are like you--prowling hungry through the +forest." + +The incredulous man wanted to see with his own eyes, and as soon as the +door was opened he perceived two large grayish animals disappearing with +long, swinging trot into the darkness. + +He returned to his seat, muttering: + +"I wouldn't have believed it!" + +And he waited quietly till supper was ready. + +The men devoured their meal voraciously, with mouths stretched to their +ears that they might swallow the more. Their round eyes opened at the +same time as their jaws, and as the soup coursed down their throats it +made a noise like the gurgling of water in a rainpipe. + +The two women watched in silence the movements of the big red beards. +The potatoes seemed to be engulfed in these moving fleeces. + +But, as they were thirsty, the forester's daughter went down to the +cellar to draw them some cider. She was gone some time. The cellar was +small, with an arched ceiling, and had served, so people said, both as +prison and as hiding-place during the Revolution. It was approached by +means of a narrow, winding staircase, closed by a trap-door at the +farther end of the kitchen. + +When Berthine returned she was smiling mysteriously to herself. She gave +the Germans her jug of cider. + +Then she and her mother supped apart, at the other end of the kitchen. + +The soldiers had finished eating, and were all six falling asleep as they +sat round the table. Every now and then a forehead fell with a thud on +the board, and the man, awakened suddenly, sat upright again. + +Berthine said to the officer: + +"Go and lie down, all of you, round the fire. There's lots of room for +six. I'm going up to my room with my mother." + +And the two women went upstairs. They could be heard locking the door +and walking about overhead for a time; then they were silent. + +The Prussians lay down on the floor, with their feet to the fire and +their heads resting on their rolled-up cloaks. Soon all six snored +loudly and uninterruptedly in six different keys. + +They had been sleeping for some time when a shot rang out so loudly that +it seemed directed against the very wall's of the house. The soldiers +rose hastily. Two-then three-more shots were fired. + +The door opened hastily, and Berthine appeared, barefooted and only half +dressed, with her candle in her hand and a scared look on her face. + +"There are the French," she stammered; "at least two hundred of them. If +they find you here they'll burn the house down. For God's sake, hurry +down into the cellar, and don't make a 'sound, whatever you do. If you +make any noise we are lost." + +"We'll go, we'll go," replied the terrified officer. "Which is the way?" + +The young woman hurriedly raised the small, square trap-door, and the six +men disappeared one after another down the narrow, winding staircase, +feeling their way as they went. + +But as soon as the spike of the out of the last helmet was out of sight +Berthine lowered the heavy oaken lid--thick as a wall, hard as steel, +furnished with the hinges and bolts of a prison cell--shot the two heavy +bolts, and began to laugh long and silently, possessed with a mad longing +to dance above the heads of her prisoners. + +They made no sound, inclosed in the cellar as in a strong-box, obtaining +air only from a small, iron-barred vent-hole. + +Berthine lighted her fire again, hung the pot over it, and prepared more +soup, saying to herself: + +"Father will be tired to-night." + +Then she sat and waited. The heavy pendulum of the clock swung to and +fro with a monotonous tick. + +Every now and then the young woman cast an impatient glance at the dial-a +glance which seemed to say: + +"I wish he'd be quick!" + +But soon there was a sound of voices beneath her feet. Low, confused +words reached her through the masonry which roofed the cellar. The +Prussians were beginning to suspect the trick she had played them, and +presently the officer came up the narrow staircase, and knocked at the +trap-door. + +"Open the door!" he cried. + +"What do you want?" she said, rising from her seat and approaching the +cellarway. + +"Open the door!" + +"I won't do any such thing!" + +"Open it or I'll break it down!" shouted the man angrily. + +She laughed. + +"Hammer away, my good man! Hammer away!" + +He struck with the butt-end of his gun at the closed oaken door. But it +would have resisted a battering-ram. + +The forester's daughter heard him go down the stairs again. Then the +soldiers came one after another and tried their strength against the +trapdoor. But, finding their efforts useless, they all returned to the +cellar and began to talk among themselves. + +The young woman heard them for a short time, then she rose, opened the +door of the house; looked out into the night, and listened. + +A sound of distant barking reached her ear. She whistled just as a +huntsman would, and almost immediately two great dogs emerged from the +darkness, and bounded to her side. She held them tight, and shouted at +the top of her voice: + +"Hullo, father!" + +A far-off voice replied: + +"Hullo, Berthine!" + +She waited a few seconds, then repeated: + +"Hullo, father!" + +The voice, nearer now, replied: + +"Hullo, Berthine!" + +"Don't go in front of the vent-hole!" shouted his daughter. "There are +Prussians in the cellar!" + +Suddenly the man's tall figure could be seen to the left, standing +between two tree trunks. + +"Prussians in the cellar?" he asked anxiously. "What are they doing?" + +The young woman laughed. + +"They are the same as were here yesterday. They lost their way, and I've +given them free lodgings in the cellar." + +She told the story of how she had alarmed them by firing the revolver, +and had shut them up in the cellar. + +The man, still serious, asked: + +"But what am I to do with them at this time of night?" + +"Go and fetch Monsieur Lavigne with his men," she replied. "He'll take +them prisoners. He'll be delighted." + +Her father smiled. + +"So he will-delighted." + +"Here's some soup for you," said his daughter. "Eat it quick, and then +be off." + +The old keeper sat down at the table, and began to eat his soup, having +first filled two plates and put them on the floor for the dogs. + +The Prussians, hearing voices, were silent. + +Long-legs set off a quarter of an hour later, and Berthine, with her head +between her hands, waited. + +The prisoners began to make themselves heard again. They shouted, +called, and beat furiously with the butts of their muskets against the +rigid trap-door of the cellar. + +Then they fired shots through the vent-hole, hoping, no doubt, to be +heard by any German detachment which chanced to be passing that way. + +The forester's daughter did not stir, but the noise irritated and +unnerved her. Blind anger rose in her heart against the prisoners; she +would have been only too glad to kill them all, and so silence them. + +Then, as her impatience grew, she watched the clock, counting the minutes +as they passed. + +Her father had been gone an hour and a half. He must have reached the +town by now. She conjured up a vision of him telling the story to +Monsieur Lavigne, who grew pale with emotion, and rang for his servant to +bring him his arms and uniform. She fancied she could bear the drum as +it sounded the call to arms. Frightened faces appeared at the windows. +The citizen-soldiers emerged from their houses half dressed, out of +breath, buckling on their belts, and hurrying to the commandant's house. + +Then the troop of soldiers, with Long-legs at its head, set forth through +the night and the snow toward the forest. + +She looked at the clock. "They may be here in an hour." + +A nervous impatience possessed her. The minutes seemed interminable. +Would the time never come? + +At last the clock marked the moment she had fixed on for their arrival. +And she opened the door to listen for their approach. She perceived a +shadowy form creeping toward the house. She was afraid, and cried out. +But it was her father. + +"They have sent me," he said, "to see if there is any change in the state +of affairs." + +"No-none." + +Then he gave a shrill whistle. Soon a dark mass loomed up under the +trees; the advance guard, composed of ten men. + +"Don't go in front of the vent-hole!" repeated Long-legs at intervals. + +And the first arrivals pointed out the much-dreaded vent-hole to those +who came after. + +At last the main body of the troop arrived, in all two hundred men, each +carrying two hundred cartridges. + +Monsieur Lavigne, in a state of intense excitement, posted them in such a +fashion as to surround the whole house, save for a large space left +vacant in front of the little hole on a level with the ground, through +which the cellar derived its supply of air. + +Monsieur Lavigne struck the trap-door a blow with his foot, and called: + +"I wish to speak to the Prussian officer!" + +The German did not reply. + +"The Prussian officer!" again shouted the commandant. + +Still no response. For the space of twenty minutes Monsieur Lavigne +called on this silent officer to surrender with bag and baggage, +promising him that all lives should be spared, and that he and his men +should be accorded military honors. But he could extort no sign, either +of consent or of defiance. The situation became a puzzling one. + +The citizen-soldiers kicked their heels in the snow, slapping their arms +across their chest, as cabdrivers do, to warm themselves, and gazing at +the vent-hole with a growing and childish desire to pass in front of it. + +At last one of them took the risk-a man named Potdevin, who was fleet. +of limb. He ran like a deer across the zone of danger. The experiment +succeeded. The prisoners gave no sign of life. + +A voice cried: + +"There's no one there!" + +And another soldier crossed the open space before the dangerous vent- +hole. Then this hazardous sport developed into a game. Every minute a +man ran swiftly from one side to the other, like a boy playing baseball, +kicking up the snow behind him as he ran. They had lighted big fires of +dead wood at which to warm themselves, and the, figures of the runners +were illumined by the flames as they passed rapidly from the camp on the +right to that on the left. + +Some one shouted: + +"It's your turn now, Maloison." + +Maloison was a fat baker, whose corpulent person served to point many a +joke among his comrades. + +He hesitated. They chaffed him. Then, nerving himself to the effort, he +set off at a little, waddling gait, which shook his fat paunch and made +the whole detachment laugh till they cried. + +"Bravo, bravo, Maloison!" they shouted for his encouragement. + +He had accomplished about two-thirds of his journey when a long, crimson +flame shot forth from the vent-hole. A loud report followed, and the fat +baker fell. face forward to the ground, uttering a frightful scream. +No one went to his assistance. Then he was seen to drag himself, +groaning, on all-fours through the snow until he was beyond danger, when +he fainted. + +He was shot in the upper part of the thigh. + +After the first surprise and fright were over they laughed at him again. +But Monsieur Lavigne appeared on the threshold of the forester's +dwelling. He had formed his plan of attack. He called in a loud voice +"I want Planchut, the plumber, and his workmen." + +Three men approached. + +"Take the eavestroughs from the roof." + +In a quarter of an hour they brought the commandant thirty yards of +pipes. + +Next, with infinite precaution, he had a small round hole drilled in the +trap-door; then, making a conduit with the troughs from the pump to this +opening, he said, with an air of extreme satisfaction + +"Now we'll give these German gentlemen something to drink." + +A shout of frenzied admiration, mingled with uproarious laughter, burst +from his followers. And the commandant organized relays of men, who were +to relieve one another every five minutes. Then he commanded: + +"Pump!!! + +And, the pump handle having been set in motion, a stream of water +trickled throughout the length of the piping, and flowed from step to +step down the cellar stairs with a gentle, gurgling sound. + +They waited. + +An hour passed, then two, then three. +The commandant, in a state of feverish agitation, walked up and down the +kitchen, putting his ear to the ground every now and then to discover, if +possible, what the enemy were doing and whether they would soon +capitulate. + +The enemy was astir now. They could be heard moving the casks about, +talking, splashing through the water. + +Then, about eight o'clock in the morning, a voice came from the vent-hole +"I want to speak to the French officer." + +Lavigne replied from the window, taking care not to put his head out too +far: + +"Do you surrender?" + +"I surrender." + +"Then put your rifles outside." + +A rifle immediately protruded from the hole, and fell into the snow, then +another and another, until all were disposed of. And the voice which had +spoken before said: + +"I have no more. Be quick! I am drowned." + +"Stop pumping!" ordered the commandant. + +And the pump handle hung motionless. + +Then, having filled the kitchen with armed and waiting soldiers, he +slowly raised the oaken trapdoor. + +Four heads appeared, soaking wet, four fair heads with long, sandy hair, +and one after another the six Germans emerged--scared, shivering and +dripping from head to foot. + +They were seized and bound. Then, as the French feared a surprise, they +set off at once in two convoys, one in charge of the prisoners, and the +other conducting Maloison on a mattress borne on poles. + +They made a triumphal entry into Rethel. + +Monsieur Lavigne was decorated as a reward for having captured a Prussian +advance guard, and the fat baker received the military medal for wounds +received at the hands of the enemy. + + + + + +TWO LITTLE SOLDIERS + +Every Sunday, as soon as they were free, the little soldiers would go for +a walk. They turned to the right on leaving the barracks, crossed +Courbevoie with rapid strides, as though on a forced march; then, as the +houses grew scarcer, they slowed down and followed the dusty road which +leads to Bezons. + +They were small and thin, lost in their ill-fitting capes, too large and +too long, whose sleeves covered their hands; their ample red trousers +fell in folds around their ankles. Under the high, stiff shako one could +just barely perceive two thin, hollow-cheeked Breton faces, with their +calm, naive blue eyes. They never spoke during their journey, going +straight before them, the same idea in each one's mind taking the place +of conversation. For at the entrance of the little forest of Champioux +they had found a spot which reminded them of home, and they did not feel +happy anywhere else. + +At the crossing of the Colombes and Chatou roads, when they arrived under +the trees, they would take off their heavy, oppressive headgear and wipe +their foreheads. + +They always stopped for a while on the bridge at Bezons, and looked at +the Seine. They stood there several minutes, bending over the railing, +watching the white sails, which perhaps reminded them of their home, and +of the fishing smacks leaving for the open. + + +As soon as they had crossed the Seine, they would purchase provisions at +the delicatessen, the baker's, and the wine merchant's. A piece of +bologna, four cents' worth of bread, and a quart of wine, made up the +luncheon which they carried away, wrapped up in their handkerchiefs. But +as soon as they were out of the village their gait would slacken and they +would begin to talk. + +Before them was a plain with a few clumps of trees, which led to the +woods, a little forest which seemed to remind them of that other forest +at Kermarivan. The wheat and oat fields bordered on the narrow path, and +Jean Kerderen said each time to Luc Le Ganidec: + +"It's just like home, just like Plounivon." + +"Yes, it's just like home." + +And they went on, side by side, their minds full of dim memories of home. +They saw the fields, the hedges, the forests, and beaches. + +Each time they stopped near a large stone on the edge of the private +estate, because it reminded them of the dolmen of Locneuven. + +As soon as they reached the first clump of trees, Luc Le Ganidec would +cut off a small stick, and, whittling it slowly, would walk on, thinking +of the folks at home. + +Jean Kerderen carried the provisions. + +From time to time Luc would mention a name, or allude to some boyish +prank which would give them food for plenty of thought. And the home +country, so dear and so distant, would little by little gain possession +of their minds, sending them back through space, to the well-known forms +and noises, to the familiar scenery, with the fragrance of its green +fields and sea air. They no longer noticed the smells of the city. And +in their dreams they saw their friends leaving, perhaps forever, for the +dangerous fishing grounds. + +They were walking slowly, Luc Le Ganidec and Jean Kerderen, contented and +sad, haunted by a sweet sorrow, the slow and penetrating sorrow of a +captive animal which remembers the days of its freedom. + +And when Luc had finished whittling his stick, they came to a little +nook, where every Sunday they took their meal. They found the two +bricks, which they had hidden in a hedge, and they made a little fire of +dry branches and roasted their sausages on the ends of their knives. + +When their last crumb of bread had been eaten and the last drop of wine +had been drunk, they stretched themselves out on the grass side by side, +without speaking, their half-closed eyes looking away in the distance, +their hands clasped as in prayer, their red-trousered legs mingling with +the bright colors of the wild flowers. + +Towards noon they glanced, from time to time, towards the village of +Bezons, for the dairy maid would soon be coming. Every Sunday she would +pass in front of them on the way to milk her cow, the only cow in the +neighborhood which was sent out to pasture. + +Soon they would see the girl, coming through the fields, and it pleased +them to watch the sparkling sunbeams reflected from her shining pail. +They never spoke of her. They were just glad to see her, without +understanding why. + +She was a tall, strapping girl, freckled and tanned by the open air--a +girl typical of the Parisian suburbs. + +Once, on noticing that they were always sitting in the same place, she +said to them: + +"Do you always come here?" + +Luc Le Ganidec, more daring than his friend, stammered: + +"Yes, we come here for our rest." + +That was all. But the following Sunday, on seeing them, she smiled with +the kindly smile of a woman who understood their shyness, and she asked: + +"What are you doing here? Are you watching the grass grow?" + +Luc, cheered up, smiled: "P'raps." + +She continued: "It's not growing fast, is it?" + +He answered, still laughing: "Not exactly." + +She went on. But when she came back with her pail full of milk, she +stopped before them and said: + +"Want some? It will remind you of home." + +She had, perhaps instinctively, guessed and touched the right spot. + +Both were moved. Then not without difficulty, she poured some milk into +the bottle in which they had brought their wine. Luc started to drink, +carefully watching lest he should take more than his share. Then he +passed the bottle to Jean. She stood before them, her hands on her hips, +her pail at her feet, enjoying the pleasure that she was giving them. +Then she went on, saying: "Well, bye-bye until next Sunday!" + +For a long time they watched her tall form as it receded in the distance, +blending with the background, and finally disappeared. + +The following week as they left the barracks, Jean said to Luc: + +"Don't you think we ought to buy her something good?" + +They were sorely perplexed by the problem of choosing something to bring +to the dairy maid. Luc was in favor of bringing her some chitterlings; +but Jean, who had a sweet tooth, thought that candy would be the best +thing. He won, and so they went to a grocery to buy two sous' worth, of +red and white candies. + +This time they ate more quickly than usual, excited by anticipation. + +Jean was the first one to notice her. "There she is," he said; and Luc +answered: "Yes, there she is." + +She smiled when she saw them, and cried: + +"Well, how are you to-day?" + +They both answered together: + +"All right! How's everything with you?" + +Then she started to talk of simple things which might interest them; of +the weather, of the crops, of her masters. + +They didn't dare to offer their candies, which were slowly melting in +Jean's pocket. Finally Luc, growing bolder, murmured: + +"We have brought you something." + +She asked: "Let's see it." + +Then Jean, blushing to the tips of his ears, reached in his pocket, and +drawing out the little paper bag, handed it to her. + +She began to eat the little sweet dainties. The two soldiers sat in +front of her, moved and delighted. + +At last she went to do her milking, and when she came back she again gave +them some milk. + +They thought of her all through the week and often spoke of her: The +following Sunday she sat beside them for a longer time. + +The three of them sat there, side by side, their eyes looking far away in +the distance, their hands clasped over their knees, and they told each +other little incidents and little details of the villages where they were +born, while the cow, waiting to be milked, stretched her heavy head +toward the girl and mooed. + +Soon the girl consented to eat with them and to take a sip of wine. +Often she brought them plums pocket for plums were now ripe. Her +presence enlivened the little Breton soldiers, who chattered away like +two birds. + +One Tuesday something unusual happened to Luc Le Ganidec; he asked for +leave and did not return until ten o'clock at night. + +Jean, worried and racked his brain to account for his friend's having +obtained leave. + +The following Friday, Luc borrowed ten sons from one of his friends, and +once more asked and obtained leave for several hours. + +When he started out with Jean on Sunday he seemed queer, disturbed, +changed. Kerderen did not understand; he vaguely suspected something, +but he could not guess what it might be. + +They went straight to the usual place, and lunched slowly. Neither was +hungry. + +Soon the girl appeared. They watched her approach as they always did. +When she was near, Luc arose and went towards her. She placed her pail +on the ground and kissed him. She kissed him passionately, throwing her +arms around his neck, without paying attention to Jean, without even +noticing that he was there. + +Poor Jean was dazed, so dazed that he could not understand. His mind was +upset and his heart broken, without his even realizing why. + +Then the girl sat down beside Luc, and they started to chat. + +Jean was not looking at them. He understood now why his friend had gone +out twice during the week. He felt the pain and the sting which +treachery and deceit leave in their wake. + +Luc and the girl went together to attend to the cow. + +Jean followed them with his eyes. He saw them disappear side by side, +the red trousers of his friend making a scarlet spot against the white +road. It was Luc who sank the stake to which the cow was tethered. The +girl stooped down to milk the cow, while he absent-mindedly stroked the +animal's glossy neck. Then they left the pail in the grass and +disappeared in the woods. + +Jean could no longer see anything but the wall of leaves through which +they had passed. He was unmanned so that he did not have strength to +stand. He stayed there, motionless, bewildered and grieving-simple, +passionate grief. He wanted to weep, to run away, to hide somewhere, +never to see anyone again. + +Then he saw them coming back again. They were walking slowly, hand in +hand, as village lovers do. Luc was carrying the pail. + +After kissing him again, the girl went on, nodding carelessly to Jean. +She did not offer him any milk that day. + +The two little soldiers sat side by side, motionless as always, silent +and quiet, their calm faces in no way betraying the trouble in their +hearts. The sun shone down on them. From time to time they could hear +the plaintive lowing of the cow. At the usual time they arose to return. + +Luc was whittling a stick. Jean carried the empty bottle. He left it at +the wine merchant's in Bezons. Then they stopped on the bridge, as they +did every Sunday, and watched the water flowing by. + +Jean leaned over the railing, farther and farther, as though he had seen +something in the stream which hypnotized him. Luc said to him: + +"What's the matter? Do you want a drink?" + +He had hardly said the last word when Jean's head carried away the rest +of his body, and the little blue and red soldier fell like a shot and +disappeared in the water. + +Luc, paralyzed with horror, tried vainly to shout for help. In the +distance he saw something move; then his friend's head bobbed up out of +the water only to disappear again. + +Farther down he again noticed a hand, just one hand, which appeared and +again went out of sight. That was all. + +The boatmen who had rushed to the scene found the body that day. + +Luc ran back to the barracks, crazed, and with eyes and voice full of +tears, he related the accident: "He leaned--he--he was leaning--so far +over--that his head carried him away--and--he--fell--he fell----" + +Emotion choked him so that he could say no more. If he had only known. + + + + + + +FATHER MILON + +For a month the hot sun has been parching the fields. Nature is +expanding beneath its rays; the fields are green as far as the eye can +see. The big azure dome of the sky is unclouded. The farms of Normandy, +scattered over the plains and surrounded by a belt of tall beeches, look, +from a distance, like little woods. On closer view, after lowering the +worm-eaten wooden bars, you imagine yourself in an immense garden, for +all the ancient apple-trees, as gnarled as the peasants themselves, are +in bloom. The sweet scent of their blossoms mingles with the heavy smell +of the earth and the penetrating odor of the stables. It is noon. The +family is eating under the shade of a pear tree planted in front of the +door; father, mother, the four children, and the help--two women and +three men are all there. All are silent. The soup is eaten and then a +dish of potatoes fried with bacon is brought on. + +From time to time one of the women gets up and takes a pitcher down to +the cellar to fetch more cider. + +The man, a big fellow about forty years old, is watching a grape vine, +still bare, which is winding and twisting like a snake along the side of +the house. + +At last he says: "Father's vine is budding early this year. Perhaps we +may get something from it." + +The woman then turns round and looks, without saying a word. + +This vine is planted on the spot where their father had been shot. + +It was during the war of 1870. The Prussians were occupying the whole +country. General Faidherbe, with the Northern Division of the army, was +opposing them. + +The Prussians had established their headquarters at this farm. The old +farmer to whom it belonged, Father Pierre Milon, had received and +quartered them to the best of his ability. + +For a month the German vanguard had been in this village. The French +remained motionless, ten leagues away; and yet, every night, some of the +Uhlans disappeared. + +Of all the isolated scouts, of all those who were sent to the outposts, +in groups of not more than three, not one ever returned. + +They were picked up the next morning in a field or in a ditch. Even +their horses were found along the roads with their throats cut. + +These murders seemed to be done by the same men, who could never be +found. + +The country was terrorized. Farmers were shot on suspicion, women were +imprisoned; children were frightened in order to try and obtain +information. Nothing could be ascertained. + +But, one morning, Father Milon was found stretched out in the barn, with +a sword gash across his face. + +Two Uhlans were found dead about a mile and a half from the farm. One of +them was still holding his bloody sword in his hand. He had fought, +tried to defend himself. A court-martial was immediately held in the +open air, in front of the farm. The old man was brought before it. + +He was sixty-eight years old, small, thin, bent, with two big hands +resembling the claws of a crab. His colorless hair was sparse and thin, +like the down of a young duck, allowing patches of his scalp to be seen. +The brown and wrinkled skin of his neck showed big veins which +disappeared behind his jaws and came out again at the temples. He had +the reputation of being miserly and hard to deal with. + +They stood him up between four soldiers, in front of the kitchen table, +which had been dragged outside. Five officers and the colonel seated +themselves opposite him. + +The colonel spoke in French: + +"Father Milon, since we have been here we have only had praise for you. +You have always been obliging and even attentive to us. But to-day a +terrible accusation is hanging over you, and you must clear the matter +up. How did you receive that wound on your face?" + +The peasant answered nothing. + +The colonel continued: + +"Your silence accuses you, Father Milon. But I want you to answer me! +Do you understand? Do you know who killed the two Uhlans who were found +this morning near Calvaire?" + +The old man answered clearly + +"I did." + +The colonel, surprised, was silent for a minute, looking straight at the +prisoner. Father Milon stood impassive, with the stupid look of the +peasant, his eyes lowered as though he were talking to the priest. Just +one thing betrayed an uneasy mind; he was continually swallowing his +saliva, with a visible effort, as though his throat were terribly +contracted. + +The man's family, his son Jean, his daughter-in-law and his two +grandchildren were standing a few feet behind him, bewildered and +affrighted. + +The colonel went on: + +"Do you also know who killed all the scouts who have been found dead, for +a month, throughout the country, every morning?" + +The old man answered with the same stupid look: + +"I did." + +"You killed them all?" + +"Uh huh! I did." + +"You alone? All alone?" + +"Uh huh!" + +"Tell me how you did it." + +This time the man seemed moved; the necessity for talking any length of +time annoyed him visibly. He stammered: + +"I dunno! I simply did it." + +The colonel continued: + +"I warn you that you will have to tell me everything. You might as well +make up your mind right away. How did you begin?" + +The man cast a troubled look toward his family, standing close behind +him. He hesitated a minute longer, and then suddenly made up his mind to +obey the order. + +"I was coming home one night at about ten o'clock, the night after you +got here. You and your soldiers had taken more than fifty ecus worth of +forage from me, as well as a cow and two sheep. I said to myself: 'As +much as they take from you; just so much will you make them pay back.' +And then I had other things on my mind which I will tell you. Just then +I noticed one of your soldiers who was smoking his pipe by the ditch +behind the barn. I went and got my scythe and crept up slowly behind +him, so that he couldn't hear me. And I cut his head off with one single +blow, just as I would a blade of grass, before he could say 'Booh!' If +you should look at the bottom of the pond, you will find him tied up in a +potato-sack, with a stone fastened to it. + +"I got an idea. I took all his clothes, from his boots to his cap, and +hid them away in the little wood behind the yard." + +The old man stopped. The officers remained speechless, looking at each +other. The questioning began again, and this is what they learned. + +Once this murder committed, the man had lived with this one thought: +"Kill the Prussians!" He hated them with the blind, fierce hate of the +greedy yet patriotic peasant. He had his idea, as he said. He waited +several days. + +He was allowed to go and come as he pleased, because he had shown himself +so humble, submissive and obliging to the invaders. Each night he saw +the outposts leave. One night he followed them, having heard the name of +the village to which the men were going, and having learned the few words +of German which he needed for his plan through associating with the +soldiers. + +He left through the back yard, slipped into the woods, found the dead +man's clothes and put them on. Then he began to crawl through the +fields, following along the hedges in order to keep out of sight, +listening to the slightest noises, as wary as a poacher. + +As soon as he thought the time ripe, he approached the road and hid +behind a bush. He waited for a while. Finally, toward midnight, he +heard the sound of a galloping horse. The man put his ear to the ground +in order to make sure that only one horseman was approaching, then he got +ready. + +An Uhlan came galloping along, carrying des patches. As he went, he was +all eyes and ears. When he was only a few feet away, Father Milon dragged +himself across the road, moaning: "Hilfe! Hilfe!" ( Help! Help!) The +horseman stopped, and recognizing a German, he thought he was wounded and +dismounted, coming nearer without any suspicion, and just as he was +leaning over the unknown man, he received, in the pit of his stomach, a +heavy thrust from the long curved blade of the sabre. He dropped without +suffering pain, quivering only in the final throes. Then the farmer, +radiant with the silent joy of an old peasant, got up again, and, for his +own pleasure, cut the dead man's throat. He then dragged the body to the +ditch and threw it in. + +The horse quietly awaited its master. Father Milon mounted him and +started galloping across the plains. + +About an hour later he noticed two more Uhlans who were returning home, +side by side. He rode straight for them, once more crying "Hilfe! +Hilfe!" + +The Prussians, recognizing the uniform, let him approach without +distrust. The old man passed between them like a cannon-ball, felling +them both, one with his sabre and the other with a revolver. + +Then he killed the horses, German horses! After that he quickly returned +to the woods and hid one of the horses. He left his uniform there and +again put on his old clothes; then going back into bed, he slept until +morning. + +For four days he did not go out, waiting for the inquest to be +terminated; but on the fifth day he went out again and killed two more +soldiers by the same stratagem. From that time on he did not stop. +Each night he wandered about in search of adventure, killing Prussians, +sometimes here and sometimes there, galloping through deserted fields, +in the moonlight, a lost Uhlan, a hunter of men. Then, his task +accomplished, leaving behind him the bodies lying along the roads, the +old farmer would return and hide his horse and uniform. + +He went, toward noon, to carry oats and water quietly to his mount, and +he fed it well as he required from it a great amount of work. + +But one of those whom he had attacked the night before, in defending +himself slashed the old peasant across the face with his sabre. + +However, he had killed them both. He had come back and hidden the horse +and put on his ordinary clothes again; but as he reached home he began to +feel faint, and had dragged himself as far as the stable, being unable to +reach the house. + +They had found him there, bleeding, on the straw. + +When he had finished his tale, he suddenly lifted up his head and looked +proudly at the Prussian officers. + +The colonel, who was gnawing at his mustache, asked: + +"You have nothing else to say?" + +"Nothing more; I have finished my task; I killed sixteen, not one more or +less." + +"Do you know that you are going to die?" + +"I haven't asked for mercy." + +"Have you been a soldier?" + +"Yes, I served my time. And then, you had killed my father, who was a +soldier of the first Emperor. And last month you killed my youngest son, +Francois, near Evreux. I owed you one for that; I paid. We are quits." + +The officers were looking at each other. + +The old man continued: + +"Eight for my father, eight for the boy--we are quits. I did not seek +any quarrel with you. I don't know you. I don't even know where you +come from. And here you are, ordering me about in my home as though it +were your own. I took my revenge upon the others. I'm not sorry." + +And, straightening up his bent back, the old man folded his arms in the +attitude of a modest hero. + +The Prussians talked in a low tone for a long time. One of them, a +captain, who had also lost his son the previous month, was defending the +poor wretch. Then the colonel arose and, approaching Father Milon, said +in a low voice: + +"Listen, old man, there is perhaps a way of saving your life, it is to--" + +But the man was not listening, and, his eyes fixed on the hated officer, +while the wind played with the downy hair on his head, he distorted his +slashed face, giving it a truly terrible expression, and, swelling out +his chest, he spat, as hard as he could, right in the Prussian's face. + +The colonel, furious, raised his hand, and for the second time the man +spat in his face. + +All the officers had jumped up and were shrieking orders at the same +time. + +In less than a minute the old man, still impassive, was pushed up against +the wall and shot, looking smilingly the while toward Jean, his eldest +son, his daughter-in-law and his two grandchildren, who witnessed this +scene in dumb terror. + + + + + + +A COUP D'ETAT + +Paris had just heard of the disaster at Sedan. A republic had been +declared. All France was wavering on the brink of this madness which +lasted until after the Commune. From one end of the country to the other +everybody was playing soldier. + +Cap-makers became colonels, fulfilling the duties of generals; revolvers +and swords were displayed around big, peaceful stomachs wrapped in +flaming red belts; little tradesmen became warriors commanding battalions +of brawling volunteers, and swearing like pirates in order to give +themselves some prestige. + +The sole fact of handling firearms crazed these people, who up to that +time had only handled scales, and made them, without any reason, +dangerous to all. Innocent people were shot to prove that they knew how +to kill; in forests which had never seen a Prussian, stray dogs, grazing +cows and browsing horses were killed. + +Each one thought himself called upon to play a great part in military +affairs. The cafes of the smallest villages, full of uniformed +tradesmen, looked like barracks or hospitals. + +The town of Canneville was still in ignorance of the maddening news from +the army and the capital; nevertheless, great excitement had prevailed +for the last month, the opposing parties finding themselves face to face. + +The mayor, Viscount de Varnetot, a thin, little old man, a conservative, +who had recently, from ambition, gone over to the Empire, had seen a +determined opponent arise in Dr. Massarel, a big, full-blooded man, +leader of the Republican party of the neighborhood, a high official in +the local masonic lodge, president of the Agricultural Society and of the +firemen's banquet and the organizer of the rural militia which was to +save the country. + +In two weeks, he had managed to gather together sixty-three volunteers, +fathers of families, prudent farmers and town merchants, and every +morning he would drill them in the square in front of the town-hall. + +When, perchance, the mayor would come to the municipal building, +Commander Massarel, girt with pistols, would pass proudly in front of his +troop, his sword in his hand, and make all of them cry: "Long live the +Fatherland!" And it had been noticed that this cry excited the little +viscount, who probably saw in it a menace, a threat, as well as the +odious memory of the great Revolution. + +On the morning of the fifth of September, the doctor, in full uniform, +his revolver on the table, was giving a consultation to an old couple, a +farmer who had been suffering from varicose veins for the last seven +years and had waited until his wife had them also, before he would +consult the doctor, when the postman brought in the paper. + +M. Massarel opened it, grew pale, suddenly rose, and lifting his hands to +heaven in a gesture of exaltation, began to shout at the top of his voice +before the two frightened country folks: + +"Long live the Republic! long live the Republic! long live the +Republic!" + +Then he fell back in his chair, weak from emotion. + +And as the peasant resumed: "It started with the ants, which began to run +up and down my legs---" Dr. Massarel exclaimed: + +"Shut up! I haven't got time to bother with your nonsense. The Republic +has been proclaimed, the emperor has been taken prisoner, France is +saved! Long live the Republic!" + +Running to the door, he howled: + +Celeste, quick, Celeste!" + +The servant, affrighted, hastened in; he was trying to talk so rapidly, +that he could only stammer: + +"My boots, my sword, my cartridge-box and the Spanish dagger which is on +my night-table! Hasten!" + +As the persistent peasant, taking advantage of a moment's silence, +continued, "I seemed to get big lumps which hurt me when I walk," the +physician, exasperated, roared: + +"Shut up and get out! If you had washed your feet it would not have +happened!" + +Then, grabbing him by the collar, he yelled at him: + +"Can't you understand that we are a republic, you brass-plated idiot!" + +But professional sentiment soon calmed him, and he pushed the bewildered +couple out, saying: + +"Come back to-morrow, come back to-morrow, my friends. I haven't any +time to-day." + +As he equipped himself from head to foot, he gave a series of important +orders to his servant: + +"Run over to Lieutenant Picart and to Second Lieutenant Pommel, and tell +them that I am expecting them here immediately. Also send me Torchebeuf +with his drum. Quick! quick!" + +When Celeste had gone out, he sat down and thought over the situation and +the difficulties which he would have to surmount. + +The three men arrived together in their working clothes. The commandant, +who expected to see them in uniform, felt a little shocked. + +"Don't you people know anything? The emperor has been taken prisoner, +the Republic has been proclaimed. We must act. My position is delicate, +I might even say dangerous." + +He reflected for a few moments before his bewildered subordinates, then +he continued: + +"We must act and not hesitate; minutes count as hours in times like +these. All depends on the promptness of our decision. You, Picart, go +to the cure and order him to ring the alarm-bell, in order to get +together the people, to whom I am going to announce the news. You, +Torchebeuf beat the tattoo throughout the whole neighborhood as far as +the hamlets of Gerisaie and Salmare, in order to assemble the militia in +the public square. You, Pommel, get your uniform on quickly, just the +coat and cap. We are going to the town-hall to demand Monsieur de +Varnetot to surrender his powers to me. Do you understand? + +Yes." + +"Now carry out those orders quickly. I will go over to your house with +you, Pommel, since we shall act together." + +Five minutes later, the commandant and his subordinates, armed to the +teeth, appeared on the square, just as the little Viscount de Varnetot, +his legs encased in gaiters as for a hunting party, his gun on his +shoulder, was coming down the other street at double-quick time, followed +by his three green-coated guards, their swords at their sides and their +guns swung over their shoulders. + +While the doctor stopped, bewildered, the four men entered the town-hall +and closed the door behind them. + +"They have outstripped us," muttered the physician, "we must now wait for +reenforcements. There is nothing to do for the present." + +Lieutenant Picart now appeared on the scene. + +"The priest refuses to obey," he said. "He has even locked himself in +the church with the sexton and beadle." + +On the other side of the square, opposite the white, tightly closed town- +hall, stood the church, silent and dark, with its massive oak door +studded with iron. + +But just as the perplexed inhabitants were sticking their heads out of +the windows or coming out on their doorsteps, the drum suddenly began to +be heard, and Torchebeuf appeared, furiously beating the tattoo. He +crossed the square running, and disappeared along the road leading to the +fields. + +The commandant drew his sword, and advanced alone to half way between the +two buildings behind which the enemy had intrenched itself, and, waving +his sword over his head, he roared with all his might: + +"Long live the Republic! Death to traitors!" + +Then he returned to his officers. + +The butcher, the baker and the druggist, much disturbed, were anxiously +pulling down their shades and closing their shops. The grocer alone kept +open. + +However, the militia were arriving by degrees, each man in a different +uniform, but all wearing a black cap with gold braid, the cap being the +principal part of the outfit. They were armed with old rusty guns, the +old guns which had hung for thirty years on the kitchen wall; and they +looked a good deal like an army of tramps. + +When he had about thirty men about him, the commandant, in a few words, +outlined the situation to them. Then, turning to his staff: "Let us +act," he said. + +The villagers were gathering together and talking the matter over. + +The doctor quickly decided on a plan of campaign. + +"Lieutenant Picart, you will advance under the windows of this town-hall +and summon Monsieur de Varnetot, in the name of the Republic, to hand the +keys over to me." + +But the lieutenant, a master mason, refused: + +"You're smart, you are. I don't care to get killed, thank you. Those +people in there shoot straight, don't you forget it. Do your errands +yourself." + +The commandant grew very red. + +"I command you to go in the name of discipline!" + +The lieutenant rebelled: + +"I'm not going to have my beauty spoiled without knowing why." + +All the notables, gathered in a group near by, began to laugh. One of +them cried: + +"You are right, Picart, this isn't the right time." + +The doctor then muttered: + +"Cowards!" + +And, leaving his sword and his revolver in the hands of a soldier, he +advanced slowly, his eye fastened on the windows, expecting any minute to +see a gun trained on him. + +When he was within a few feet of the building, the doors at both ends, +leading into the two schools, opened and a flood of children ran out,. +boys from one side, girls from the ether, and began to play around the +doctor, in the big empty square, screeching and screaming, and making so +much noise that he could not make himself heard. + +As soon as the last child was out of the building, the two doors closed +again. + +Most of the youngsters finally dispersed, and the commandant called in a +loud voice: + +"Monsieur de Varnetot!" + +A window on the first floor opened and M. de Varnetot appeared. + +The commandant continued: + +"Monsieur, you know that great events have just taken place which have +changed the entire aspect of the government. The one which you +represented no longer exists. The one which I represent is taking +control. Under these painful, but decisive circumstances, I come, in the +name of the new Republic, to ask you to turn over to me the office which +you held under the former government." + +M. de Varnetot answered: + +"Doctor, I am the mayor of Canneville, duly appointed, and I shall remain +mayor of Canneville until I have been dismissed by a decree from my +superiors. As mayor, I am in my place in the townhall, and here I stay. +Anyhow, just try to get me out." + +He closed the window. + +The commandant returned to his troop. But before giving any information, +eyeing Lieutenant Picart from head to foot, he exclaimed: + +"You're a great one, you are! You're a fine specimen of manhood! You're +a disgrace to the army! I degrade you." + +"I don't give a ----!" + +He turned away and mingled with a group of townspeople. + +Then the doctor hesitated. What could he do? Attack? But would his men +obey orders? And then, did he have the right to do so? + +An idea struck him. He ran to the telegraph office, opposite the town- +hall, and sent off three telegrams: + +To the new republican government in Paris. + +To the new prefect of the Seine-Inferieure, at Rouen. + +To the new republican sub-prefect at Dieppe. + +He explained the situation, pointed out the danger which the town would +run if it should remain in the hands of the royalist mayor; offered his +faithful services, asked for orders and signed, putting all his titles +after his name. + +Then he returned to his battalion, and, drawing ten francs from his +pocket, he cried: "Here, my friends, go eat and drink; only leave me a +detachment of ten men to guard against anybody's leaving the town-hall." + +But ex-Lieutenant Picart, who had been talking with the watchmaker, heard +him; he began to laugh, and exclaimed: "By Jove, if they come out, it'll +give you a chance to get in. Otherwise I can see you standing out there +for the rest of your life!" + +The doctor did not reply, and he went to luncheon. + +In the afternoon, he disposed his men about the town as though they were +in immediate danger of an ambush. + +Several times he passed in front of the town-hall and of the church +without noticing anything suspicious; the two buildings looked as though +empty. + +The butcher, the baker and the druggist once more opened up their stores. + +Everybody was talking about the affair. If the emperor were a prisoner, +there must have been some kind of treason. They did not know exactly +which of the republics had returned to power. + +Night fell. + +Toward nine o'clock, the doctor, alone, noiselessly approached the +entrance of the public building, persuaded that the enemy must have gone +to bed; and, as he was preparing to batter down the door with a pick-axe, +the deep voice of a sentry suddenly called: + +"Who goes there?" + +And M. Massarel retreated as fast as his legs could carry him. + +Day broke without any change in the situation. + +Armed militia occupied the square. All the citizens had gathered around +this troop awaiting developments. Even neighboring villagers had come to +look on. + +Then the doctor, seeing that his reputation was at stake, resolved to put +an end to the matter in one way or another; and he was about to take some +measures, undoubtedly energetic ones, when the door of the telegraph +station opened and the little servant of the postmistress appeared, +holding in her hands two papers. + +First she went to the commandant and gave him one of the despatches; then +she crossed the empty square, confused at seeing the eyes of everyone on +her, and lowering her head and running along with little quick steps, she +went and knocked softly at the door of the barricaded house, as though +ignorant of the fact that those behind it were armed. + +The door opened wide enough to let a man's hand reach out and receive the +message; and the young girl returned blushing, ready to cry at being thus +stared at by the whole countryside. + +In a clear voice, the doctor cried: + +"Silence, if you please." + +When the populace had quieted down, he continued proudly: + +"Here is the communication which I have received from the government." + +And lifting the telegram he read: + + Former mayor dismissed. Inform him immediately, More orders + following. + For the sub-prefect: + SAPIN, Councillor. + +He was-triumphant; his heart was throbbing with joy and his hands were +trembling; but Picart, his former subordinate, cried to him from a +neighboring group: + +"That's all right; but supposing the others don't come out, what good is +the telegram going to do you?" + +M. Massarel grew pale. He had not thought of that; if the others did not +come out, he would now have to take some decisive step. It was not only +his right, but his duty. + +He looked anxiously at the town-hall, hoping to see the door open and his +adversary give in. + +The door remained closed. What could he do? The crowd was growing and +closing around the militia. They were laughing. + +One thought especially tortured the doctor. If he attacked, he would +have to march at the head of his men; and as, with him dead, all strife +would cease, it was at him and him only that M. de Varnetot and his three +guards would aim. And they were good shots, very good shots, as Picart +had just said. But an idea struck him and, turning to Pommel, he +ordered: + +"Run quickly to the druggist and ask him to lend me a towel and a stick." + +The lieutenant hastened. + +He would make a flag of truce, a white flag, at the sight of which the +royalist heart of the mayor would perhaps rejoice. + +Pommel returned with the cloth and a broom-stick. With some twine they +completed the flag, and M. Massarel, grasping it in both hands and +holding it in front of him, again advanced in the direction of the town- +hall. When he was opposite the door, he once more called: "Monsieur de +Varnetot!" The door suddenly opened and M. de Varnetot and his three +guards appeared on the threshold. + +Instinctively the doctor stepped back; then he bowed courteously to his +enemy, and, choking with emotion, he announced: "I have come, monsieur, +to make you acquainted with the orders which I have received." + +The nobleman, without returning the bow, answered: "I resign, monsieur, +but understand that it is neither through fear of, nor obedience to, the +odious government which has usurped the power." And, emphasizing every +word, he declared: "I do not wish to appear, for a single day, to serve +the Republic. That's all." + +Massarel, stunned, answered nothing; and M. de Varnetot, walking quickly, +disappeared around the corner of the square, still followed by his +escort. + +The doctor, puffed up with pride, returned to the crowd. As soon as he +was near enough to make himself heard, he cried: "Hurrah! hurrah! +Victory crowns the Republic everywhere." + +There was no outburst of joy. + +The doctor continued: "We are free, you are free, independent! Be +proud!" + +The motionless villagers were looking at him without any signs of triumph +shining in their eyes. + +He looked at them, indignant at their indifference, thinking of what he +could say or do in order to make an impression to electrify this calm +peasantry, to fulfill his mission as a leader. + +He had an inspiration and, turning to Pommel, he ordered: "Lieutenant, go +get me the bust of the ex-emperor which is in the meeting room of the +municipal council, and bring it here with a chair." + +The man presently reappeared, carrying on his right shoulder the plaster +Bonaparte, and holding in his left hand a cane-seated chair. + +M. Massarel went towards him, took the chair, placed the white bust on +it, then stepping back a few steps, he addressed it in a loud voice: + +"Tyrant, tyrant, you have fallen down in the mud. The dying fatherland +was in its death throes under your oppression. Vengeful Destiny has +struck you. Defeat and shame have pursued you; you fall conquered, a +prisoner of the Prussians; and from the ruins of your crumbling empire, +the young and glorious Republic arises, lifting from the ground your +broken sword----" + +He waited for applause. Not a sound greeted his listening ear. The +peasants, nonplussed, kept silent; and the white, placid, well-groomed +statue seemed to look at M. Massarel with its plaster smile, ineffaceable +and sarcastic. + +Thus they stood, face to face, Napoleon on his chair, the physician +standing three feet away. Anger seized the commandant. What could he do +to move this crowd and definitely to win over public opinion? + +He happened to carry his hand to his stomach, and he felt, under his red +belt, the butt of his revolver. + +Not another inspiration, not another word cane to his mind. Then, he +drew his weapon, stepped back a few steps and shot the former monarch. + +The bullet made a little black hole:, like a spot, in his forehead. No +sensation was created. M. Massarel shot a second time and made a second +hole, then a third time, then, without stopping, he shot off the three +remaining shots. Napoleon's forehead was blown away in a white powder, +but his eyes, nose and pointed mustache remained intact. + +Then in exasperation, the doctor kicked the chair over, and placing one +foot on what remained of the bust in the position of a conqueror, he +turned to the amazed public and yelled: "Thus may all traitors die!" + +As no enthusiasm was, as yet, visible, the spectators appearing to be +dumb with astonishment, the commandant cried to the militia: "You may go +home now." And he himself walked rapidly, almost ran, towards his house. + +As soon as he appeared, the servant told him that some patients had been +waiting in his office for over three hours. He hastened in. They were +the same two peasants as a few days before, who had returned at daybreak, +obstinate and patient. + +The old man immediately began his explanation: + +"It began with ants, which seemed to be crawling up and down my legs----" + + + + + + +LIEUTENANT LARE'S MARRIAGE + +Since the beginning of the campaign Lieutenant Lare had taken two cannon +from the Prussians. His general had said: "Thank you, lieutenant," and +had given him the cross of honor. + +As he was as cautious as he was brave, wary, inventive, wily and +resourceful, he was entrusted with a hundred soldiers and he organized a +company of scouts who saved the army on several occasions during a +retreat. + +But the invading army entered by every frontier like a surging sea. +Great waves of men arrived one after the other, scattering all around +them a scum of freebooters. General Carrel's brigade, separated from its +division, retreated continually, fighting each day, but remaining almost +intact, thanks to the vigilance and agility of Lieutenant Lare, who +seemed to be everywhere at the same moment, baffling all the enemy's +cunning, frustrating their plans, misleading their Uhlans and killing +their vanguards. + +One morning the general sent for him. + +"Lieutenant," said he, "here is a dispatch from General de Lacere, who +will be destroyed if we do not go to his aid by sunrise to-morrow. He is +at Blainville, eight leagues from here. You will start at nightfall with +three hundred men, whom you will echelon along the road. I will follow +you two hours later. Study the road carefully; I fear we may meet a +division of the enemy." + +It had been freezing hard for a week. At two o'clock it began to snow, +and by night the ground was covered and heavy white swirls concealed +objects hard by. + +At six o'clock the detachment set out. + +Two men walked alone as scouts about three yards ahead. Then came a +platoon of ten men commanded by the lieutenant himself. The rest +followed them in two long columns. To the right and left of the little +band, at a distance of about three hundred feet on either side, some +soldiers marched in pairs. + +The snow,,which was still falling, covered them with a white powder in +the darkness, and as it did not melt on their uniforms, they were hardly +distinguishable in the night amid the dead whiteness of the landscape. + +From time to time they halted. One heard nothing but that indescribable, +nameless flutter of falling snow--a sensation rather than a sound, a +vague, ominous murmur. A command was given in a low tone and when the +troop resumed its march it left in its wake a sort of white phantom +standing in the snow. It gradually grew fainter and finally disappeared. +It was the echelons who were to lead the army. + +The scouts slackened their pace. Something was ahead of them. + +"Turn to the right," said the lieutenant; "it is the Ronfi wood; the +chateau is more to the left." + +Presently the command "Halt" was passed along. The detachment stopped +and waited for the lieutenant, who, accompanied by only ten men, had +undertaken a reconnoitering expedition to the chateau. + +They advanced, creeping under the trees. Suddenly they all remained +motionless. Around them was a dead silence. Then, quite near them, a +little clear, musical young voice was heard amid the stillness of the +wood. + +"Father, we shall get lost in the snow. We shall never reach +Blainville." + +A deeper voice replied: + +"Never fear, little daughter; I know the country as well as I know my +pocket." + +The lieutenant said a few words and four men moved away silently, like +shadows. + +All at once a woman's shrill cry was heard through the darkness. Two +prisoners were brought back, an old man and a young girl. The lieutenant +questioned them, still in a low tone: + +"Your name?" + +"Pierre Bernard." + +"Your profession?" + +"Butler to Comte de Ronfi." + +"Is this your daughter?" + +'Yes!' + +"What does she do?" + +"She is laundress at the chateau." + +"Where are you going?" + +"We are making our escape." + +"Why?" + +"Twelve Uhlans passed by this evening. They shot three keepers and +hanged the gardener. I was alarmed on account of the little one." + +"Whither are you bound?" + +"To Blainville." + +"Why?" + +"Because there is a French army there." + +"Do you know the way?" + +"Perfectly." + +"Well then, follow us." + +They rejoined the column and resumed their march across country. The old +man walked in silence beside the lieutenant, his daughter walking at his +side. All at once she stopped. + +"Father," she said, "I am so tired I cannot go any farther." + +And she sat down. She was shaking with cold and seemed about to lose +consciousness. Her father wanted to carry her, but he was too old and +too weak. + +"Lieutenant," said he, sobbing, "we shall only impede your march. France +before all. Leave us here." + +The officer had given a command. Some men had started off. They came +back with branches they had cut, and in a minute a litter was ready. The +whole detachment had joined them by this time. + +"Here is a woman dying of cold," said the lieutenant. "Who will give his +cape to cover her?" + +Two hundred capes were taken off. The young girl was wrapped up in these +warm soldiers' capes, gently laid in the litter, and then four' hardy +shoulders lifted her up, and like an Eastern queen borne by her slaves +she was placed in the center of the detachment of soldiers, who resumed +their march with more energy, more courage, more cheerfulness, animated +by the presence of a woman, that sovereign inspiration that has stirred +the old French blood to so many deeds of valor. + +At the end of an hour they halted again and every one lay down in the +snow. Over yonder on the level country a big, dark shadow was moving. +It looked like some weird monster stretching itself out like a serpent, +then suddenly coiling itself into a mass, darting forth again, then back, +and then forward again without ceasing. Some whispered orders were +passed around among the soldiers, and an occasional little, dry, metallic +click was heard. The moving object suddenly came nearer, and twelve +Uhlans were seen approaching at a gallop, one behind the other, having +lost their way in the darkness. A brilliant flash suddenly revealed to +them two hundred mete lying on the ground before them. A rapid fire was +heard, which died away in the snowy silence, and all the twelve fell to +the ground, their horses with them. + +After a long rest the march was resumed. The old man whom they had +captured acted as guide. + +Presently a voice far off in the distance cried out: "Who goes there?" + +Another voice nearer by gave the countersign. + +They made another halt; some conferences took place. It had stopped +snowing. A cold wind was driving the clouds, and innumerable stars were +sparkling in the sky behind them, gradually paling in the rosy light of +dawn. + +A staff officer came forward to receive the detachment. But when he +asked who was being carried in the litter, the form stirred; two little +hands moved aside the big blue army capes and, rosy as the dawn, with two +eyes that were brighter than the stars that had just faded from sight, +and a smile as radiant as the morn, a dainty face appeared. + +"It is I, monsieur." + +The soldiers, wild with delight, clapped their hands and bore the young +girl in triumph into the midst of the camp, that was just getting to +arms. Presently General Carrel arrived on the scene. At nine o'clock +the Prussians made an attack. They beat a retreat at noon. + +That evening, as Lieutenant Lare, overcome by fatigue, was sleeping on a +bundle of straw, he was sent for by the general. He found the commanding +officer in his tent, chatting with the old man whom they had come across +during the night. As soon as he entered the tent the general took his +hand, and addressing the stranger, said: + +"My dear comte, this is the young man of whom you were telling me just +now; he is one of my best officers." + +He smiled, lowered his tone, and added: + +"The best." + +Then, turning to the astonished lieutenant, he presented "Comte de Ronfi- +Quedissac." + +The old man took both his hands, saying: + +"My dear lieutenant, you have saved my daughter's life. I have only one +way of thanking you. You may come in a few months to tell me--if you +like her." + +One year later, on the very same day, Captain Lare and Miss Louise- +Hortense-Genevieve de Ronfi-Quedissac were married in the church of St. +Thomas Aquinas. + +She brought a dowry of six thousand francs, and was said to be the +prettiest bride that had been seen that year. + + + + + + +THE HORRIBLE + +The shadows of a balmy night were slowly falling. The women remained in +the drawing-room of the villa. The men, seated, or astride of garden +chairs, were smoking outside the door of the house, around a table laden +with cups and liqueur glasses. + +Their lighted cigars shone like eyes in the darkness, which was gradually +becoming more dense. They had been talking about a frightful accident +which had occurred the night before--two men and three women drowned in +the river before the eyes of the guests. + +General de G---- remarked: + +"Yes, these things are affecting, but they are not horrible. + +"Horrible, that well-known word, means much more than terrible. +A frightful accident like this affects, upsets, terrifies; it does not +horrify. In order that we should experience horror, something more is +needed than emotion, something more than the spectacle of a dreadful +death; there must be a shuddering sense of mystery, or a sensation of +abnormal terror, more than natural. A man who dies, even under the most +tragic circumstances, does not excite horror; a field of battle is not +horrible; blood is not horrible; the vilest crimes are rarely horrible. + +"Here are two personal examples which have shown me what is the meaning +of horror. + +"It was during the war of 1870. We were retreating toward Pont-Audemer, +after having passed through Rouen. The army, consisting of about twenty +thousand men, twenty thousand routed men, disbanded, demoralized, +exhausted, were going to disband at Havre. + +"The earth was covered with snow. The night was falling. They had not +eaten anything since the day before. They were fleeing rapidly, the +Prussians not being far off. + +"All the Norman country, sombre, dotted with the shadows of the trees +surrounding the farms, stretched out beneath a black, heavy, threatening +sky. + +"Nothing else could be heard in the wan twilight but the confused sound, +undefined though rapid, of a marching throng, an endless tramping, +mingled with the vague clink of tin bowls or swords. The men, bent, +round-shouldered, dirty, in many cases even in rags, dragged themselves +along, hurried through the snow, with a long, broken-backed stride. + +"The skin of their hands froze to the butt ends of their muskets, for it +was freezing hard that night. I frequently saw a little soldier take off +his shoes in order to walk barefoot, as his shoes hurt his weary feet; +and at every step he left a track of blood. Then, after some time, he +would sit down in a field for a few minutes' rest, and he never got up +again. Every man who sat down was a dead man. + +"Should we have left behind us those poor, exhausted soldiers, who fondly +counted on being able to start afresh as soon as they had somewhat +refreshed their stiffened legs? But scarcely had they ceased to move, +and to make their almost frozen blood circulate in their veins, than an +unconquerable torpor congealed them, nailed them to the ground, closed +their eyes, and paralyzed in one second this overworked human mechanism. +And they gradually sank down, their foreheads on their knees, without, +however, falling over, for their loins and their limbs became as hard and +immovable as wood, impossible to bend or to stand upright. + +'And the rest of us, more robust, kept straggling on, chilled to the +marrow, advancing by a kind of inertia through the night, through the +snow, through that cold and deadly country, crushed by pain, by defeat, +by despair, above all overcome by the abominable sensation of +abandonment, of the end, of death, of nothingness. + +"I saw two gendarmes holding by the arm a curious-looking little man, +old, beardless, of truly surprising aspect. + +"They were looking for an officer, believing that they had caught a spy. +The word 'spy' at once spread through the midst of the stragglers, and +they gathered in a group round the prisoner. A voice exclaimed: 'He must +be shot!' And all these soldiers who were falling from utter +prostration, only holding themselves on their feet by leaning on their +guns, felt all of a sudden that thrill of furious and bestial anger which +urges on a mob to massacre. + +"I wanted to speak. I was at that time in command of a battalion; but +they no longer recognized the authority of their commanding officers; +they would even have shot me. + +"One of the gendarmes said: 'He has been following us for the three last +days. He has been asking information from every one about the +artillery.' + +I took it on myself to question this person. + +"What are you doing? What do you want? Why are you accompanying the +army?" + +"He stammered out some words in some unintelligible dialect. He was, +indeed, a strange being, with narrow shoulders, a sly look, and such an +agitated air in my presence that I really no longer doubted that he was a +spy. He seemed very aged and feeble. He kept looking at me from under +his eyes with a humble, stupid, crafty air. + +"The men all round us exclaimed. + +"'To the wall! To the wall!' + +"I said to the gendarmes: + +"'Will you be responsible for the prisoner?' + +"I had not ceased speaking when a terrible shove threw me on my back, and +in a second I saw the man seized by the furious soldiers, thrown down, +struck, dragged along the side of the road, and flung against a tree. He +fell in the snow, nearly dead already. + +"And immediately they shot him. The soldiers fired at him, reloaded +their guns, fired again with the desperate energy of brutes. They fought +with each other to have a shot at him, filed off in front of the corpse, +and kept on firing at him, as people at a funeral keep sprinkling holy +water in front of a coffin. + +"But suddenly a cry arose of 'The Prussians! the Prussians!' + +"And all along the horizon I heard the great noise of this panic-stricken +army in full flight. + +"A panic, the result of these shots fired at this vagabond, had filled +his very executioners with terror; and, without realizing that they were +themselves the originators of the scare, they fled and disappeared in the +darkness. + +"I remained alone with the corpse, except for the two gendarmes whose +duty compelled them to stay with me. + +"They lifted up the riddled mass of bruised and bleeding flesh. + +"'He must be searched,' I said. And I handed them a box of taper matches +which I had in my pocket. One of the soldiers had another box. I was +standing between the two. + +"The gendarme who was examining the body announced: + +"'Clothed in a blue blouse, a white shirt, trousers, and a pair of +shoes.' + +"The first match went out; we lighted a second. The man continued, as he +turned out his pockets: + +"'A horn-handled pocketknife, check handkerchief, a snuffbox, a bit of +pack thread, a piece of bread.' + +"The second match went out; we lighted a third. The gendarme, after +having felt the corpse for a long time, said: + +"'That is all.' + +"I said: + +"'Strip him. We shall perhaps find something next his skin." + +"And in order that the two soldiers might help each other in this task, I +stood between them to hold the lighted match. By the rapid and speedily +extinguished flame of the match, I saw them take off the garments one by +one, and expose to view that bleeding bundle of flesh, still warm, though +lifeless. + +"And suddenly one of them exclaimed: + +"'Good God, general, it is a woman!' + +"I cannot describe to you the strange and poignant sensation of pain that +moved my heart. I could not believe it, and I knelt down in the snow +before this shapeless pulp of flesh to see for myself: it was a woman. + +"The two gendarmes, speechless and stunned, waited for me to give my +opinion on the matter. But I did not know what to think, what theory to +adopt. + +"Then the brigadier slowly drawled out: + +"'Perhaps she came to look for a son of hers in the artillery, whom she +had not heard from.' + +"And the other chimed in: + +"'Perhaps, indeed, that is so.' + +"And I, who had seen some very terrible things in my time, began to cry. +And I felt, in the presence of this corpse, on that icy cold night, in +the midst of that gloomy plain; at the sight of this mystery, at the +sight of this murdered stranger, the meaning of that word 'horror.' + +"I had the same sensation last year, while interrogating one of the +survivors of the Flatters Mission, an Algerian sharpshooter. + +"You know the details of that atrocious drama. It is possible, however, +that you are unacquainted with one of them. + +"The colonel travelled through the desert into the Soudan, and passed +through the immense territory of the Touaregs, who, in that great ocean +of sand which stretches from the Atlantic to Egypt and from the Soudan to +Algeria, are a kind of pirates, resembling those who ravaged the seas in +former days. + +"The guides who accompanied the column belonged to the tribe of the +Chambaa, of Ouargla. + +"Now, one day we encamped in the middle of the desert, and the Arabs +declared that, as the spring was still some distance away, they would go +with all their camels to look for water. + +"One man alone warned the colonel that he had been betrayed. Flatters +did not believe this, and accompanied the convoy with the engineers, the +doctors, and nearly all his officers. + +"They were massacred round the spring, and all the camels were captured. + +"The captain of the Arab Intelligence Department at Ouargla, who had +remained in the camp, took command of the survivors, spahis and +sharpshooters, and they began to retreat, leaving behind them the baggage +and provisions, for want of camels to carry them. + +"Then they started on their journey through this solitude without shade +and boundless, beneath the devouring sun, which burned them from morning +till night. + +"One tribe came to tender its submission and brought dates as a tribute. +The dates were poisoned. Nearly all the Frenchmen died, and, among them, +the last officer. + +"There now only remained a few spahis with their quartermaster, Pobeguin, +and some native sharpshooters of the Chambaa tribe. They had still two +camels left. They disappeared one night, along with two, Arabs. + +"Then the survivors understood that they would be obliged to eat each +other, and as soon as they discovered the flight of the two men with the +two camels, those who remained separated, and proceeded to march, one by +one, through the soft sand, under the glare of a scorching sun, at a +distance of more than a gunshot from each other. + +"So they went on all day, and when they reached a spring each of them +came to drink at it in turn, as soon as each solitary marcher had moved +forward the number of yards arranged upon. And thus they continued +marching the whole day, raising everywhere they passed, in that level, +burntup expanse, those little columns of dust which, from a distance, +indicate those who are trudging through the desert. + +"But one morning one of the travellers suddenly turned round and +approached the man behind him. And they all stopped to look. + +"The man toward whom the famished soldier drew near did not flee, but lay +flat on the ground, and took aim at the one who was coming toward him. +When he believed he was within gunshot, he fired. The other was not hit, +and he continued then to advance, and levelling his gun, in turn, he +killed his comrade. + +"Then from all directions the others rushed to seek their share. And he +who had killed the fallen man, cutting the corpse into pieces, +distributed it. + +"And they once more placed themselves at fixed distances, these +irreconcilable allies, preparing for the next murder which would bring +them together. + +"For two days they lived on this human flesh which they divided between +them. Then, becoming famished again, he who had killed the first man +began killing afresh. And again, like a butcher, he cut up the corpse +and offered it to his comrades, keeping only his own portion of it. + +"And so this retreat of cannibals continued. + +"The last Frenchman, Pobeguin, was massacred at the side of a well, the +very night before the supplies arrived. + +"Do you understand now what I mean by the horrible?" + +This was the story told us a few nights ago by General de G----. + + + + + + +MADAME PARISSE + +I was sitting on the pier of the small port of Obernon, near the village +of Salis, looking at Antibes, bathed in the setting sun. I had never +before seen anything so wonderful and so beautiful. + +The small town, enclosed by its massive ramparts, built by Monsieur de +Vauban, extended into the open sea, in the middle of the immense Gulf of +Nice. The great waves, coming in from the ocean, broke at its feet, +surrounding it with a wreath of foam; and beyond the ramparts the houses +climbed up the hill, one after the other, as far as the two towers, which +rose up into the sky, like the peaks of an ancient helmet. And these two +towers were outlined against the milky whiteness of the Alps, that +enormous distant wall of snow which enclosed the entire horizon. + +Between the white foam at the foot of the walls and the white snow on the +sky-line the little city, dazzling against the bluish background of the +nearest mountain ranges, presented to the rays of the setting sun a +pyramid of red-roofed houses, whose facades were also white, but so +different one from another that they seemed to be of all tints. + +And the sky above the Alps was itself of a blue that was almost white, as +if the snow had tinted it; some silvery clouds were floating just over +the pale summits, and on the other side of the gulf Nice, lying close to +the water, stretched like a white thread between the sea and the +mountain. Two great sails, driven by a strong breeze, seemed to skim +over the waves. I looked upon all this, astounded. + +This view was one of those sweet, rare, delightful things that seem to +permeate you and are unforgettable, like the memory of a great happiness. +One sees, thinks, suffers, is moved and loves with the eyes. He who can +feel with the eye experiences the same keen, exquisite and deep pleasure +in looking at men and things as the man with the delicate and sensitive +ear, whose soul music overwhelms. + +I turned to my companion, M. Martini, a pureblooded Southerner. + +"This is certainly one of the rarest sights which it has been vouchsafed +to me to admire. + +"I have seen Mont Saint-Michel, that monstrous granite jewel, rise out of +the sand at sunrise. + +"I have seen, in the Sahara, Lake Raianechergui, fifty kilometers long, +shining under a moon as brilliant as our sun and breathing up toward it a +white cloud, like a mist of milk. + +"I have seen, in the Lipari Islands, the weird sulphur crater of the +Volcanello, a giant flower which smokes and burns, an enormous yellow +flower, opening out in the midst of the sea, whose stem is a volcano. + +"But I have seen nothing more wonderful than Antibes, standing against +the Alps in the setting sun. + +"And I know not how it is that memories of antiquity haunt me; verses of +Homer come into my mind; this is a city of the ancient East, a city of +the odyssey; this is Troy, although Troy was very far from the sea." + +M. Martini drew the Sarty guide-book out of his pocket and read: "This +city was originally a colony founded by the Phocians of Marseilles, about +340 B.C. They gave it the Greek name of Antipolis, meaning counter- +city, city opposite another, because it is in fact opposite to Nice, +another colony from Marseilles. + +"After the Gauls were conquered, the Romans turned Antibes into a +municipal city, its inhabitants receiving the rights of Roman +citizenship. + +"We know by an epigram of Martial that at this time----" + +I interrupted him: + +"I don't care what she was. I tell you that I see down there a city of +the Odyssey. The coast of Asia and the coast of Europe resemble each +other in their shores, and there is no city on the other coast of the +Mediterranean which awakens in me the memories of the heroic age as this +one does." + +A footstep caused me to turn my head; a woman, a large, dark woman, was +walking along the road which skirts the sea in going to the cape. + +"That is Madame Parisse, you know," muttered Monsieur Martini, dwelling +on the final syllable. + +No, I did not know, but that name, mentioned carelessly, that name of the +Trojan shepherd, confirmed me in my dream. + +However, I asked: "Who is this Madame Parisse?" + +He seemed astonished that I did not know the story. + +I assured him that I did not know it, and I looked after the woman, who +passed by without seeing us, dreaming, walking with steady and slow step, +as doubtless the ladies of old walked. + +She was perhaps thirty-five years old and still very beautiful, though a +trifle stout. + +And Monsieur Martini told me the following story: + +Mademoiselle Combelombe was married, one year before the war of 1870, to +Monsieur Parisse, a government official. She was then a handsome young +girl, as slender and lively as she has now become stout and sad. + +Unwillingly she had accepted Monsieur Parisse, one of those little fat +men with short legs, who trip along, with trousers that are always too +large. + +After the war Antibes was garrisoned by a single battalion commanded by +Monsieur Jean de Carmelin, a young officer decorated during the war, and +who had just received his four stripes. + +As he found life exceedingly tedious in this fortress this stuffy mole- +hole enclosed by its enormous double walls, he often strolled out to the +cape, a kind of park or pine wood shaken by all the winds from the sea. + +There he met Madame Parisse, who also came out in the summer evenings to +get the fresh air under the trees. How did they come to love each other? +Who knows? They met, they looked at each other, and when out of sight +they doubtless thought of each other. The image of the young woman with +the brown eyes, the black hair, the pale skin, this fresh, handsome +Southerner, who displayed her teeth in smiling, floated before the eyes +of the officer as he continued his promenade, chewing his cigar instead +of smoking it; and the image of the commanding officer, in his close- +fitting coat, covered with gold lace, and his red trousers, and a little +blond mustache, would pass before the eyes of Madame Parisse, when her +husband, half shaven and ill-clad, short-legged and big-bellied, came +home to supper in the evening. + +As they met so often, they perhaps smiled at the next meeting; then, +seeing each other again and again, they felt as if they knew each other. +He certainly bowed to her. And she, surprised, bowed in return, but +very, very slightly, just enough not to appear impolite. But after two +weeks she returned his salutation from a distance, even before they were +side by side. + +He spoke to her. Of what? Doubtless of the setting sun. They admired +it together, looking for it in each other's eyes more often than on the +horizon. And every evening for two weeks this was the commonplace and +persistent pretext for a few minutes' chat. + +Then they ventured to take a few steps together, talking of anything that +came into their minds, but their eyes were already saying to each other a +thousand more intimate things, those secret, charming things that are +reflected in the gentle emotion of the glance, and that cause the heart +to beat, for they are a better revelation of the soul than the spoken +ward. + +And then he would take her hand, murmuring those words which the woman +divines, without seeming to hear them. + +And it was agreed between them that they would love each other without +evidencing it by anything sensual or brutal. + +She would have remained indefinitely at this stage of intimacy, but he +wanted more. And every day he urged her more hotly to give in to his +ardent desire. + +She resisted, would not hear of it, seemed determined not to give way. + +But one evening she said to him casually: "My husband has just gone to +Marseilles. He will be away four days." + +Jean de Carmelin threw himself at her feet, imploring her to open her +door to him that very night at eleven o'clock. But she would not listen +to him, and went home, appearing to be annoyed. + +The commandant was in a bad humor all the evening, and the next morning +at dawn he went out on the ramparts in a rage, going from one exercise +field to the other, dealing out punishment to the officers and men as one +might fling stones into a crowd, + +On going in to breakfast he found an envelope under his napkin with these +four words: "To-night at ten." And he gave one hundred sous without any +reason to the waiter. + +The day seemed endless to him. He passed part of it in curling his hair +and perfuming himself. + +As he was sitting down to the dinner-table another envelope was handed to +him, and in it he found the following telegram: + + "My Love: Business completed. I return this evening on the nine + o'clock train. + PARISSE." + +The commandant let loose such a vehement oath that the waiter dropped the +soup-tureen on the floor. + +What should he do? He certainly wanted her, that very, evening at +whatever cost; and he would have her. He would resort to any means, even +to arresting and imprisoning the husband. Then a mad thought struck him. +Calling for paper, he wrote the following note: + + MADAME: He will not come back this evening, I swear it to you,--and + I shall be, you know where, at ten o'clock. Fear nothing. I will + answer for everything, on my honor as an officer. + JEAN DE CARMELIN. + +And having sent off this letter, he quietly ate his dinner. + +Toward eight o'clock he sent for Captain Gribois, the second in command, +and said, rolling between his fingers the crumpled telegram of Monsieur +Parisse: + +"Captain, I have just received a telegram of a very singular nature, +which it is impossible for me to communicate to you. You will +immediately have all the gates of the city closed and guarded, so that no +one, mind me, no one, will either enter or leave before six in the +morning. You will also have men patrol the streets, who will compel the +inhabitants to retire to their houses at nine o'clock. Any one found +outside beyond that time will be conducted to his home 'manu militari'. +If your men meet me this night they will at once go out of my way, +appearing not to know me. You understand me?" + +"Yes, commandant." + +"I hold you responsible for the execution of my orders, my dear captain." + +"Yes, commandant." + +"Would you like to have a glass of chartreuse?" + +"With great pleasure, commandant." + +They clinked glasses drank down the brown liquor and Captain Gribois left +the room. + +The train from Marseilles arrived at the station at nine o'clock sharp, +left two passengers on the platform and went on toward Nice. + +One of them, tall and thin, was Monsieur Saribe, the oil merchant, and +the other, short and fat, was Monsieur Parisse. + +Together they set out, with their valises, to reach the city, one +kilometer distant. + +But on arriving at the gate of the port the guards crossed their +bayonets, commanding them to retire. + +Frightened, surprised, cowed with astonishment, they retired to +deliberate; then, after having taken counsel one with the other, they +came back cautiously to parley, giving their names. + +But the soldiers evidently had strict orders, for they threatened to +shoot; and the two scared travellers ran off, throwing away their +valises, which impeded their flight. + +Making the tour of the ramparts, they presented themselves at the gate on +the route to Cannes. This likewise was closed and guarded by a menacing +sentinel. Messrs. Saribe and Parisse, like the prudent men they were, +desisted from their efforts and went back to the station for shelter, +since it was not safe to be near the fortifications after sundown. + +The station agent, surprised and sleepy, permitted them to stay till +morning in the waiting-room. + +And they sat there side by side, in the dark, on the green velvet sofa, +too scared to think of sleeping. + +It was a long and weary night for them. + +At half-past six in the morning they were informed that the gates were +open and that people could now enter Antibes. + +They set out for the city, but failed to find their abandoned valises on +the road. + +When they passed through the gates of the city, still somewhat anxious, +the Commandant de Carmelin, with sly glance and mustache curled up, came +himself to look at them and question them. + +Then he bowed to them politely, excusing himself for having caused them a +bad night. But he had to carry out orders. + +The people of Antibes were scared to death. Some spoke of a surprise +planned by the Italians, others of the landing of the prince imperial and +others again believed that there was an Orleanist conspiracy. The truth +was suspected only later, when it became known that the battalion of the +commandant had been sent away, to a distance and that Monsieur de +Carmelin had been severely punished. + +Monsieur Martini had finished his story. Madame Parisse returned, her +promenade being ended. She passed gravely near me, with her eyes fixed +on the Alps, whose summits now gleamed rosy in the last rays of the +setting sun. + +I longed to speak to her, this poor, sad woman, who would ever be +thinking of that night of love, now long past, and of the bold man who +for the sake of a kiss from her had dared to put a city into a state of +siege and to compromise his whole future. + +And to-day he had probably forgotten her, if he did not relate this +audacious, comical and tender farce to his comrades over their cups. + +Had she seen him again? Did she still love him? And I thought: Here is +an instance of modern love, grotesque and yet heroic. The Homer who +should sing of this new Helen and the adventure of her Menelaus must be +gifted with the soul of a Paul de Kock. And yet the hero of this +deserted woman was brave, daring, handsome, strong as Achilles and more +cunning than Ulysses. + + + + + + +MADEMOISELLE FIFI + +Major Graf Von Farlsberg, the Prussian commandant, was reading his +newspaper as he lay back in a great easy-chair, with his booted feet on +the beautiful marble mantelpiece where his spurs had made two holes, +which had grown deeper every day during the three months that he had been +in the chateau of Uville. + +A cup of coffee was smoking on a small inlaid table, which was stained +with liqueur, burned by cigars, notched by the penknife of the victorious +officer, who occasionally would stop while sharpening a pencil, to jot +down figures, or to make a drawing on it, just as it took his fancy. + +When he had read his letters and the German newspapers, which his orderly +had brought him, he got up, and after throwing three or four enormous +pieces of green wood on the fire, for these gentlemen were gradually +cutting down the park in order to keep themselves warm, he went to the +window. The rain was descending in torrents, a regular Normandy rain, +which looked as if it were being poured out by some furious person, a +slanting rain, opaque as a curtain, which formed a kind of wall with +diagonal stripes, and which deluged everything, a rain such as one +frequently experiences in the neighborhood of Rouen, which is the +watering-pot of France. + +For a long time the officer looked at the sodden turf and at the swollen +Andelle beyond it, which was overflowing its banks; he was drumming a +waltz with his fingers on the window-panes, when a noise made him turn +round. It was his second in command, Captain Baron van Kelweinstein. + +The major was a giant, with broad shoulders and a long, fan-like beard, +which hung down like a curtain to his chest. His whole solemn person +suggested the idea of a military peacock, a peacock who was carrying his +tail spread out on his breast. He had cold, gentle blue eyes, and a scar +from a swordcut, which he had received in the war with Austria; he was +said to be an honorable man, as well as a brave officer. + +The captain, a short, red-faced man, was tightly belted in at the waist, +his red hair was cropped quite close to his head, and in certain lights +he almost looked as if he had been rubbed over with phosphorus. He had +lost two front teeth one night, though he could not quite remember how, +and this sometimes made him speak unintelligibly, and he had a bald patch +on top of his head surrounded by a fringe of curly, bright golden hair, +which made him look like a monk. + +The commandant shook hands with him and drank his cup of coffee (the +sixth that morning), while he listened to his subordinate's report of +what had occurred; and then they both went to the window and declared +that it was a very unpleasant outlook. The major, who was a quiet man, +with a wife at home, could accommodate himself to everything; but the +captain, who led a fast life, who was in the habit of frequenting low +resorts, and enjoying women's society, was angry at having to be shut up +for three months in that wretched hole. + +There was a knock at the door, and when the commandant said, "Come in," +one of the orderlies appeared, and by his mere presence announced that +breakfast was ready. In the dining-room they met three other officers of +lower rank--a lieutenant, Otto von Grossling, and two sub-lieutenants, +Fritz Scheuneberg and Baron von Eyrick, a very short, fair-haired man, +who was proud and brutal toward men, harsh toward prisoners and as +explosive as gunpowder. + +Since he had been in France his comrades had called him nothing but +Mademoiselle Fifi. They had given him that nickname on account of his +dandified style and small waist, which looked as if he wore corsets; of +his pale face, on which his budding mustache scarcely showed, and on +account of the habit he had acquired of employing the French expression, +'Fi, fi donc', which he pronounced with a slight whistle when he wished +to express his sovereign contempt for persons or things. + +The dining-room of the chateau was a magnificent long room, whose fine +old mirrors, that were cracked by pistol bullets, and whose Flemish +tapestry, which was cut to ribbons, and hanging in rags in places from +sword-cuts, told too well what Mademoiselle Fifi's occupation was during +his spare time. + +There were three family portraits on the walls a steel-clad knight, a +cardinal and a judge, who were all smoking long porcelain pipes, which +had been inserted into holes in the canvas, while a lady in a long, +pointed waist proudly exhibited a pair of enormous mustaches, drawn with +charcoal. The officers ate their breakfast almost in silence in that +mutilated room, which looked dull in the rain and melancholy in its +dilapidated condition, although its old oak floor had become as solid as +the stone floor of an inn. + +When they had finished eating and were smoking and drinking, they began, +as usual, to berate the dull life they were leading. The bottles of +brandy and of liqueur passed from hand to hand, and all sat back in their +chairs and took repeated sips from their glasses, scarcely removing from +their mouths the long, curved stems, which terminated in china bowls, +painted in a manner to delight a Hottentot. + +As soon as their glasses were empty they filled them again, with a +gesture of resigned weariness, but Mademoiselle Fifi emptied his every +minute, and a soldier immediately gave him another. They were enveloped +in a cloud of strong tobacco smoke, and seemed to be sunk in a state of +drowsy, stupid intoxication, that condition of stupid intoxication of men +who have nothing to do, when suddenly the baron sat up and said: +"Heavens! This cannot go on; we must think of something to do." And on +hearing this, Lieutenant Otto and Sub-lieutenant Fritz, who preeminently +possessed the serious, heavy German countenance, said: "What, captain?" + +He thought for a few moments and then replied: "What? Why, we must get +up some entertainment, if the commandant will allow us." "What sort of +an entertainment, captain?" the major asked, taking his pipe out of his +mouth. "I will arrange all that, commandant," the baron said. "I will +send Le Devoir to Rouen, and he will bring back some ladies. I know +where they can be found, We will have supper here, as all the materials +are at hand and; at least, we shall have a jolly evening." + +Graf von Farlsberg shrugged his shoulders with a smile: "You must surely +be mad, my friend." + +But all the other officers had risen and surrounded their chief, saying: +"Let the captain have his way, commandant; it is terribly dull here." +And the major ended by yielding. "Very well," he replied, and the baron +immediately sent for Le Devoir. He was an old non-commissioned officer, +who had never been seen to smile, but who carried out all the orders of +his superiors to the letter, no matter what they might be. He stood +there, with an impassive face, while he received the baron's +instructions, and then went out, and five minutes later a large military +wagon, covered with tarpaulin, galloped off as fast as four horses could +draw it in the pouring rain. The officers all seemed to awaken from +their lethargy, their looks brightened,, and they began to talk. + +Although it was raining as hard as ever, the major declared that it was +not so dark, and Lieutenant von Grossling said with conviction that the +sky was clearing up, while Mademoiselle Fifi did not seem to be able to +keep still. He got up and sat down again, and his bright eyes seemed to +be looking for something to destroy. Suddenly, looking at the lady with +the mustaches, the young fellow pulled out his revolver and said: "You +shall not see it." And without leaving his seat he aimed, and with two +successive bullets cut out both the eyes of the portrait. + +"Let us make a mine!" he then exclaimed, and the conversation was +suddenly interrupted, as if they had found some fresh and powerful +subject of interest. The mine was his invention, his method of +destruction, and his favorite amusement. + +When he left the chateau, the lawful owner, Comte Fernand d'Amoys +d'Uville, had not had time to carry away or to hide anything except the +plate, which had been stowed away in a hole made in one of the walls. As +he was very rich and had good taste, the large drawing-room, which opened +into the dining-room, looked like a gallery in a museum, before his +precipitate flight. + +Expensive oil paintings, water colors and drawings hung against the +walls, while on the tables, on the hanging shelves and in elegant glass +cupboards there were a thousand ornaments: small vases, statuettes, +groups of Dresden china and grotesque Chinese figures, old ivory and +Venetian glass, which filled the large room with their costly and +fantastic array. + +Scarcely anything was left now; not that the things had been stolen, for +the major would not have allowed that, but Mademoiselle Fifi would every +now and then have a mine, and on those occasions all the officers +thoroughly enjoyed themselves for five minutes. The little marquis went +into the drawing-room to get what he wanted, and he brought back a small, +delicate china teapot, which he filled with gunpowder, and carefully +introduced a piece of punk through the spout. This he lighted and took +his infernal machine into the next room, but he came back immediately and +shut the door. The Germans all stood expectant, their faces full of +childish, smiling curiosity, and as soon as the explosion had shaken the +chateau, they all rushed in at once. + +Mademoiselle Fifi, who got in first, clapped his hands in delight at the +sight of a terra-cotta Venus, whose head had been blown off, and each +picked up pieces of porcelain and wondered at the strange shape of the +fragments, while the major was looking with a paternal eye at the large +drawing-room, which had been wrecked after the fashion of a Nero, and was +strewn with the fragments of works of art. He went out first and said +with a smile: "That was a great success this time." + +But there was such a cloud of smoke in the dining-room, mingled with the +tobacco smoke, that they could not breathe, so the commandant opened the +window, and all the officers, who had returned for a last glass of +cognac, went up to it. + +The moist air blew into the room, bringing with it a sort of powdery +spray, which sprinkled their beards. They looked at the tall trees which +were dripping with rain, at the broad valley which was covered with mist, +and at the church spire in the distance, which rose up like a gray point +in the beating rain. + +The bells had not rung since their arrival. That was the only resistance +which the invaders had met with in the neighborhood. The parish priest +had not refused to take in and to feed the Prussian soldiers; he had +several times even drunk a bottle of beer or claret with the hostile +commandant, who often employed him as a benevolent intermediary; but it +was no use to ask him for a single stroke of the bells; he would sooner +have allowed himself to be shot. That was his way of protesting against +the invasion, a peaceful and silent protest, the only one, he said, which +was suitable to a priest, who was a man of mildness, and not of blood; +and every one, for twenty-five miles round, praised Abbe Chantavoine's +firmness and heroism in venturing to proclaim the public mourning by the +obstinate silence of his church bells. + +The whole village, enthusiastic at his resistance, was ready to back up +their pastor and to risk anything, for they looked upon that silent +protest as the safeguard of the national honor. It seemed to the +peasants that thus they deserved better of their country than Belfort and +Strassburg, that they had set an equally valuable example, and that the +name of their little village would become immortalized by that; but, with +that exception, they refused their Prussian conquerors nothing. + +The commandant and his officers laughed among themselves at this +inoffensive courage, and as the people in the whole country round showed +themselves obliging and compliant toward them, they willingly tolerated +their silent patriotism. Little Baron Wilhelm alone would have liked to +have forced them to ring the bells. He was very angry at his superior's +politic compliance with the priest's scruples, and every day begged the +commandant to allow him to sound "ding-dong, ding-dong," just once, only +just once, just by way of a joke. And he asked it in the coaxing, tender +voice of some loved woman who is bent on obtaining her wish, but the +commandant would not yield, and to console himself, Mademoiselle Fifi +made a mine in the Chateau d'Uville. + +The five men stood there together for five minutes, breathing in the +moist air, and at last Lieutenant Fritz said with a laugh: "The ladies +will certainly not have fine weather for their drive. Then they +separated, each to his duty, while the captain had plenty to do in +arranging for the dinner. + +When they met again toward evening they began to laugh at seeing each +other as spick and span and smart as on the day of a grand review. The +commandant's hair did not look so gray as it was in the morning, and the +captain had shaved, leaving only his mustache, which made him look as if +he had a streak of fire under his nose. + +In spite of the rain, they left the window open, and one of them went to +listen from time to time; and at a quarter past six the baron said he +heard a rumbling in the distance. They all rushed down, and presently +the wagon drove up at a gallop with its four horses steaming and blowing, +and splashed with mud to their girths. Five women dismounted, five +handsome girls whom a comrade of the captain, to whom Le Devoir had +presented his card, had selected with care. + +They had not required much pressing, as they had got to know the +Prussians in the three months during which they had had to do with them, +and so they resigned themselves to the men as they did to the state of +affairs. + +They went at once into the dining-room, which looked still more dismal in +its dilapidated condition when it was lighted up; while the table covered +with choice dishes, the beautiful china and glass, and the plate, which +had been found in the hole in the wall where its owner had hidden it, +gave it the appearance of a bandits' inn, where they were supping after +committing a robbery in the place. The captain was radiant, and put his +arm round the women as if he were familiar with them; and when the three +young men wanted to appropriate one each, he opposed them +authoritatively, reserving to himself the right to apportion them justly, +according to their several ranks, so as not to offend the higher powers. +Therefore, to avoid all discussion, jarring, and suspicion of partiality, +he placed them all in a row according to height, and addressing the +tallest, he said in a voice of command: + +"What is your name?" "Pamela," she replied, raising her voice. And then +he said: "Number One, called Pamela, is adjudged to the commandant." +Then, having kissed Blondina, the second, as a sign of proprietorship, he +proffered stout Amanda to Lieutenant Otto; Eva, "the Tomato," to Sub- +lieutenant Fritz, and Rachel, the shortest of them all, a very young, +dark girl, with eyes as black as ink, a Jewess, whose snub nose proved +the rule which allots hooked noses to all her race, to the youngest +officer, frail Count Wilhelm d'Eyrick. + +They were all pretty and plump, without any distinctive features, and all +had a similarity of complexion and figure. + +The three young men wished to carry off their prizes immediately, under +the pretext that they might wish to freshen their toilets; but the +captain wisely opposed this, for he said they were quite fit to sit down +to dinner, and his experience in such matters carried the day. There +were only many kisses, expectant kisses. + +Suddenly Rachel choked, and began to cough until the tears came into her +eyes, while smoke came through her nostrils. Under pretence of kissing +her, the count had blown a whiff of tobacco into her mouth. She did not +fly into a rage and did not say a word, but she looked at her tormentor +with latent hatred in her dark eyes. + +They sat down to dinner. The commandant seemed delighted; he made Pamela +sit on his right, and Blondina on his left, and said, as he unfolded his +table napkin: "That was a delightful idea of yours, captain." + +Lieutenants Otto and Fritz, who were as polite as if they had been with +fashionable ladies, rather intimidated their guests, but Baron von +Kelweinstein beamed, made obscene remarks and seemed on fire with his +crown of red hair. He paid the women compliments in French of the Rhine, +and sputtered out gallant remarks, only fit for a low pothouse, from +between his two broken teeth. + +They did not understand him, however, and their intelligence did not seem +to be awakened until he uttered foul words and broad expressions, which +were mangled by his accent. Then they all began to laugh at once like +crazy women and fell against each other, repeating the words, which the +baron then began to say all wrong, in order that he might have the +pleasure of hearing them say dirty things. They gave him as much of that +stuff as he wanted, for they were drunk after the first bottle of wine, +and resuming their usual habits and manners, they kissed the officers to +right and left of them, pinched their arms, uttered wild cries, drank out +of every glass and sang French couplets and bits of German songs which +they had picked up in their daily intercourse with the enemy. + +Soon the men themselves became very unrestrained, shouted and broke the +plates and dishes, while the soldiers behind them waited on them +stolidly. The commandant was the only one who kept any restraint upon +himself. + +Mademoiselle Fifi had taken Rachel on his knee, and, getting excited, at +one moment he kissed the little black curls on her neck and at another he +pinched her furiously and made her scream, for he was seized by a species +of ferocity, and tormented by his desire to hurt her. He often held her +close to him and pressed a long kiss on the Jewess' rosy mouth until she +lost her breath, and at last he bit her until a stream of blood ran down +her chin and on to her bodice. + +For the second time she looked him full in the face, and as she bathed +the wound, she said: "You will have to pay for, that!" But he merely +laughed a hard laugh and said: "I will pay." + +At dessert champagne was served, and the commandant rose, and in the same +voice in which he would have drunk to the health of the Empress Augusta, +he drank: "To our ladies!" And a series of toasts began, toasts worthy +of the lowest soldiers and of drunkards, mingled with obscene jokes, +which were made still more brutal by their ignorance of the language. +They got up, one after the other, trying to say something witty, forcing +themselves to be funny, and the women, who were so drunk that they almost +fell off their chairs, with vacant looks and clammy tongues applauded +madly each time. + +The captain, who no doubt wished to impart an appearance of gallantry to +the orgy, raised his glass again and said: "To our victories over hearts +and, thereupon Lieutenant Otto, who was a species of bear from the Black +Forest, jumped up, inflamed and saturated with drink, and suddenly seized +by an access of alcoholic patriotism, he cried: "To our victories over +France!" + +Drunk as they were, the women were silent, but Rachel turned round, +trembling, and said: "See here, I know some Frenchmen in whose presence +you would not dare say that." But the little count, still holding her on +his knee, began to laugh, for the wine had made him very merry, and said: +"Ha! ha! ha! I have never met any of them myself. As soon as we show +ourselves, they run away!" The girl, who was in a terrible rage, shouted +into his face: "You are lying, you dirty scoundrel!" + +For a moment he looked at her steadily with his bright eyes upon her, as +he had looked at the portrait before he destroyed it with bullets from +his revolver, and then he began to laugh: "Ah! yes, talk about them, my +dear! Should we be here now if they were brave?" And, getting excited, +he exclaimed: "We are the masters! France belongs to us!" She made one +spring from his knee and threw herself into her chair, while he arose, +held out his glass over the table and repeated: "France and the French, +the woods, the fields and the houses of France belong to us!" + +The others, who were quite drunk, and who were suddenly seized by +military enthusiasm, the enthusiasm of brutes, seized their glasses, and +shouting, "Long live Prussia!" they emptied them at a draught. + +The girls did not protest, for they were reduced to silence and were +afraid. Even Rachel did not say a word, as she had no reply to make. +Then the little marquis put his champagne glass, which had just been +refilled, on the head of the Jewess and exclaimed: "All the women in +France belong to us also!" + +At that she got up so quickly that the glass upset, spilling the amber- +colored wine on her black hair as if to baptize her, and broke into a +hundred fragments, as it fell to the floor. Her lips trembling, she +defied the looks of the officer, who was still laughing, and stammered +out in a voice choked with rage: + +"That--that--that--is not true--for you shall not have the women of +France!" + +He sat down again so as to laugh at his ease; and, trying to speak with +the Parisian accent, he said: "She is good, very good! Then why did you +come here, my dear?" She was thunderstruck and made no reply for a +moment, for in her agitation she did not understand him at first, but as +soon as she grasped his meaning she said to him indignantly and +vehemently: "I! I! I am not a woman, I am only a strumpet, and that is +all that Prussians want." + +Almost before she had finished he slapped her full in the face; but as he +was raising his hand again, as if to strike her, she seized a small +dessert knife with a silver blade from the table and, almost mad with +rage, stabbed him right in the hollow of his neck. Something that he was +going to say was cut short in his throat, and he sat there with his mouth +half open and a terrible look in his eyes. + +All the officers shouted in horror and leaped up tumultuously; but, +throwing her chair between the legs of Lieutenant Otto, who fell down at +full length, she ran to the window, opened it before they could seize her +and jumped out into the night and the pouring rain. + +In two minutes Mademoiselle Fifi was dead, and Fritz and Otto drew their +swords and wanted to kill the women, who threw themselves at their feet +and clung to their knees. With some difficulty the major stopped the +slaughter and had the four terrified girls locked up in a room under the +care of two soldiers, and then he organized the pursuit of the fugitive +as carefully as if he were about to engage in a skirmish, feeling quite +sure that she would be caught. + +The table, which had been cleared immediately, now served as a bed on +which to lay out the lieutenant, and the four officers stood at the +windows, rigid and sobered with the stern faces of soldiers on duty, and +tried to pierce through the darkness of the night amid the steady torrent +of rain. Suddenly a shot was heard and then another, a long way off; and +for four hours they heard from time to time near or distant reports and +rallying cries, strange words of challenge, uttered in guttural voices. + +In the morning they all returned. Two soldiers had been killed and three +others wounded by their comrades in the ardor of that chase and in the +confusion of that nocturnal pursuit, but they had not caught Rachel. + +Then the inhabitants of the district were terrorized, the houses were +turned topsy-turvy, the country was scoured and beaten up, over and over +again, but the Jewess did not seem to have left a single trace of her +passage behind her. + +When the general was told of it he gave orders to hush up the affair, so +as not to set a bad example to the army, but he severely censured the +commandant, who in turn punished his inferiors. The general had said: +"One does not go to war in order to amuse one's self and to caress +prostitutes." Graf von Farlsberg, in his exasperation, made up his mind +to have his revenge on the district, but as he required a pretext for +showing severity, he sent for the priest and ordered him to have the bell +tolled at the funeral of Baron von Eyrick. + +Contrary to all expectation, the priest showed himself humble and most +respectful, and when Mademoiselle Fifi's body left the Chateau d'Uville +on its way to the cemetery, carried by soldiers, preceded, surrounded and +followed by soldiers who marched with loaded rifles, for the first time +the bell sounded its funeral knell in a lively manner, as if a friendly +hand were caressing it. At night it rang again, and the next day, and +every day; it rang as much as any one could desire. Sometimes even it +would start at night and sound gently through the darkness, seized with a +strange joy, awakened one could not tell why. All the peasants in the +neighborhood declared that it was bewitched, and nobody except the priest +and the sacristan would now go near the church tower. And they went +because a poor girl was living there in grief and solitude and provided +for secretly by those two men. + +She remained there until the German troops departed, and then one evening +the priest borrowed the baker's cart and himself drove his prisoner to +Rouen. When they got there he embraced her, and she quickly went back on +foot to the establishment from which she had come, where the +proprietress, who thought that she was dead, was very glad to see her. + +A short time afterward a patriot who had no prejudices, and who liked her +because of her bold deed, and who afterward loved her for herself, +married her and made her a lady quite as good as many others. + + + + + + +A DUEL + +The war was over. The Germans occupied France. The whole country was +pulsating like a conquered wrestler beneath the knee of his victorious +opponent. + +The first trains from Paris, distracted, starving, despairing Paris, were +making their way to the new frontiers, slowly passing through the country +districts and the villages. The passengers gazed through the windows at +the ravaged fields and burned hamlets. Prussian soldiers, in their black +helmets with brass spikes, were smoking their pipes astride their chairs +in front of the houses which were still left standing. Others were +working or talking just as if they were members of the families. As you +passed through the different towns you saw entire regiments drilling in +the squares, and, in spite of the rumble of the carriage-wheels, you +could every moment hear the hoarse words of command. + +M. Dubuis, who during the entire siege had served as one of the National +Guard in Paris, was going to join his wife and daughter, whom he had +prudently sent away to Switzerland before the invasion. + +Famine and hardship had not diminished his big paunch so characteristic +of the rich, peace-loving merchant. He had gone through the terrible +events of the past year with sorrowful resignation and bitter complaints +at the savagery of men. Now that he was journeying to the frontier at +the close of the war, he saw the Prussians for the first time, although +he had done his duty on the ramparts and mounted guard on many a cold +night. + +He stared with mingled fear and anger at those bearded armed men, +installed all over French soil as if they were at home, and he felt in +his soul a kind of fever of impotent patriotism, at the same time also +the great need of that new instinct of prudence which since then has, +never left us. In the same railway carriage were two Englishmen, who had +come to the country as sightseers and were gazing about them with looks +of quiet curiosity. They were both also stout, and kept chatting in +their own language, sometimes referring to their guidebook, and reading +aloud the names of the places indicated. + +Suddenly the train stopped at a little village station, and a Prussian +officer jumped up with a great clatter of his sabre on the double +footboard of the railway carriage. He was tall, wore a tightfitting +uniform, and had whiskers up to his eyes. His red hair seemed to be on +fire, and his long mustache, of a paler hue, stuck out on both sides of +his face, which it seemed to cut in two. + +The Englishmen at once began staring, at him with smiles of newly +awakened interest, while M. Dubuis made a show of reading a newspaper. +He sat concealed in his corner like a thief in presence of a gendarme. + +The train started again. The Englishmen went on chatting and looking out +for the exact scene of different battles; and all of a sudden, as one of +them stretched out his arm toward the horizon as he pointed out a +village, the Prussian officer remarked in French, extending his long legs +and lolling backward: + +"I killed a dozen Frenchmen in that village and took more than a hundred +prisoners." + +The Englishmen, quite interested, immediately asked: + +"Ha! and what is the name of this village?" + +The Prussian replied: + +"Pharsbourg." He added: "We caught those French scoundrels by the ears." + +And he glanced toward M. Dubuis, laughing conceitedly into his mustache. + +The train rolled on, still passing through hamlets occupied by the +victorious army. German soldiers could be seen along the roads, on the +edges of fields, standing in front of gates or chatting outside cafes. +They covered the soil like African locusts. + +The officer said, with a wave of his hand: + +"If I had been in command, I'd have taken Paris, burned everything, +killed everybody. No more France!" + +The Englishman, through politeness, replied simply: + +"Ah! yes." + +He went on: + +"In twenty years all Europe, all of it, will belong to us. Prussia is +more than a match for all of them." + +The Englishmen, getting uneasy, no longer replied. Their faces, which +had become impassive, seemed made of wax behind their long whiskers. +Then the Prussian officer began to laugh. And still, lolling back, he +began to sneer. He sneered at the downfall of France, insulted the +prostrate enemy; he sneered at Austria, which had been recently +conquered; he sneered at the valiant but fruitless defence of the +departments; he sneered at the Garde Mobile and at the useless artillery. +He announced that Bismarck was going to build a city of iron with the +captured cannon. And suddenly he placed his boots against the thigh of +M. Dubuis, who turned away his eyes, reddening to the roots of his hair. + +The Englishmen seemed to have become indifferent to all that was going +on, as if they were suddenly shut up in their own island, far from the +din of the world. + +The officer took out his pipe, and looking fixedly at the Frenchman, +said: + +"You haven't any tobacco--have you?" + +M. Dubuis replied: + +"No, monsieur." + +The German resumed: + +"You might go and buy some for me when the train stops." + +And he began laughing afresh as he added: + +"I'll give you the price of a drink." + +The train whistled, and slackened its pace. They passed a station that +had been burned down; and then they stopped altogether. + +The German opened the carriage door, and, catching M. Dubuis by the arm, +said: + +"Go and do what I told you--quick, quick!" + +A Prussian detachment occupied the station. Other soldiers were standing +behind wooden gratings, looking on. The engine was getting up steam +before starting off again. Then M. Dubuis hurriedly jumped on the +platform, and, in spite of the warnings of the station master, dashed +into the adjoining compartment. + +He was alone! He tore open his waistcoat, his heart was beating so +rapidly, and, gasping for breath, he wiped the perspiration from his +forehead. + +The train drew up at another station. And suddenly the officer appeared +at the carriage door and jumped in, followed close behind by the two +Englishmen, who were impelled by curiosity. The German sat facing the +Frenchman, and, laughing still, said: + +"You did not want to do what I asked you?" + +M. Dubuis replied: + +"No, monsieur." + +The train had just left the station. + +The officer said: + +"I'll cut off your mustache to fill my pipe with." + +And he put out his hand toward the Frenchman's face. + +The Englishmen stared at them, retaining their previous impassive manner. + +The German had already pulled out a few hairs, and was still tugging at +the mustache, when M. Dubuis, with a back stroke of his hand, flung aside +the officer's arm, and, seizing him by the collar, threw him down on the +seat. Then, excited to a pitch of fury, his temples swollen and his eyes +glaring, he kept throttling the officer with one hand, while with the +other clenched he began to strike him violent blows in the face. The +Prussian struggled, tried to draw his sword, to clinch with his +adversary, who was on top of him. But M. Dubuis crushed him with his +enormous weight and kept punching him without taking breath or knowing +where his blows fell. Blood flowed down the face of the German, who, +choking and with a rattling in his throat, spat out his broken teeth and +vainly strove to shake off this infuriated man who was killing him. + +The Englishmen had got on their feet and came closer in order to see +better. They remained standing, full of mirth and curiosity, ready to +bet for, or against, either combatant. + +Suddenly M. Dubuis, exhausted by his violent efforts, rose and resumed +his seat without uttering a word. + +The Prussian did not attack him, for the savage assault had terrified and +astonished the officer as well as causing him suffering. When he was +able to breathe freely, he said: + +"Unless you give me satisfaction with pistols I will kill you." + +M. Dubuis replied: + +"Whenever you like. I'm quite ready." + +The German said: + +"Here is the town of Strasbourg. I'll get two officers to be my seconds, +and there will be time before the train leaves the station." + +M. Dubuis, who was puffing as hard as the engine, said to the Englishmen: + +"Will you be my seconds?" They both answered together: + +"Oh, yes!" + +And the train stopped. + +In a minute the Prussian had found two comrades, who brought pistols, and +they made their way toward the ramparts. + +The Englishmen were continually looking at their watches, shuffling their +feet and hurrying on with the preparations, uneasy lest they should be +too late for the train. + +M. Dubuis had never fired a pistol in his life. + +They made him stand twenty paces away from his enemy. He was asked: + +"Are you ready?" + +While he was answering, "Yes, monsieur," he noticed that one of the +Englishmen had opened his umbrella in order to keep off the rays of the +sun. + +A voice gave the signal: + +"Fire!" + +M. Dubuis fired at random without delay, and he was amazed to see the +Prussian opposite him stagger, lift up his arms and fall forward, dead. +He had killed the officer. + +One of the Englishmen exclaimed: "Ah!" He was quivering with delight, +with satisfied curiosity and joyous impatience. The other, who still +kept his watch in his hand, seized M. Dubuis' arm and hurried him in +double-quick time toward the station, his fellow-countryman marking time +as he ran beside them, with closed fists, his elbows at his sides, "One, +two; one, two!" + +And all three, running abreast rapidly, made their way to the station +like three grotesque figures in a comic newspaper. + +The train was on the point of starting. They sprang into their carriage. +Then the Englishmen, taking off their travelling caps, waved them three +times over their heads, exclaiming: + +"Hip! hip! hip! hurrah!" + +And gravely, one after the other, they extended their right hands to M. +Dubuis and then went back and sat down in their own corner. + + + + + + + VOLUME II. + +THE COLONEL'S IDEAS +MOTHER SAUVAGE +EPIPHANY +THE MUSTACHE +MADAME BAPTISTE +THE QUESTION OF LATIN +A MEETING +THE BLIND MAN +INDISCRETION +A FAMILY AFFAIR +BESIDE SCHOPENHAUER'S CORPSE + + + + + + +THE COLONEL'S IDEAS + +"Upon my word," said Colonel Laporte, "although I am old and gouty, my +legs as stiff as two pieces of wood, yet if a pretty woman were to tell +me to go through the eye of a needle, I believe I should take a jump at +it, like a clown through a hoop. I shall die like that; it is in the +blood. I am an old beau, one of the old school, and the sight of a +woman, a pretty woman, stirs me to the tips of my toes. There! + +"We are all very much alike in France in this respect; we still remain +knights, knights of love and fortune, since God has been abolished whose +bodyguard we really were. But nobody can ever get woman out of our +hearts; there she is, and there she will remain, and we love her, and +shall continue to love her, and go on committing all kinds of follies on +her account as long as there is a France on the map of Europe; and even +if France were to be wiped off the map, there would always be Frenchmen +left. + +"When I am in the presence of a woman, of a pretty woman, I feel capable +of anything. By Jove! when I feel her looks penetrating me, her +confounded looks which set your blood on fire, I should like to do I +don't know what; to fight a duel, to have a row, to smash the furniture, +in order to show that I am the strongest, the bravest, the most daring +and the most devoted of men. + +"But I am not the only one, certainly not; the whole French army is like +me, I swear to you. From the common soldier to the general, we all start +out, from the van to the rear guard, when there is a woman in the case, a +pretty woman. Do you remember what Joan of Arc made us do formerly? +Come. I will make a bet that if a pretty woman had taken command of the +army on the eve of Sedan, when Marshal MacMahon was wounded, we should +have broken through the Prussian lines, by Jove! and had a drink out of +their guns. + +"It was not a Trochu, but a Sainte-Genevieve, who was needed in Paris; +and I remember a little anecdote of the war which proves that we are +capable of everything in presence of a woman. + +"I was a captain, a simple captain, at the time, and I was in command of +a detachment of scouts, who were retreating through a district which +swarmed with Prussians. We were surrounded, pursued, tired out and half +dead with fatigue and hunger, but we were bound to reach Bar-sur-Tain +before the morrow, otherwise we should be shot, cut down, massacred. I +do not know how we managed to escape so far. However, we had ten leagues +to go during the night, ten leagues through the night, ten leagues +through the snow, and with empty stomachs, and I thought to myself: + +"'It is all over; my poor devils of fellows will never be able to do it.' + +"We had eaten nothing since the day before, and the whole day long we +remained hidden in a barn, huddled close together, so as not to feel the +cold so much, unable to speak or even move, and sleeping by fits and +starts, as one does when worn out with fatigue. + +"It was dark by five o'clock, that wan darkness of the snow, and I shook +my men. Some of them would not get up; they were almost incapable of +moving or of standing upright; their joints were stiff from cold and +hunger. + +"Before us there was a large expanse of flat, bare country; the snow was +still falling like a curtain, in large, white flakes, which concealed +everything under a thick, frozen coverlet, a coverlet of frozen wool One +might have thought that it was the end of the world. + +"'Come, my lads, let us start.' + +"They looked at the thick white flakes that were coming down, and they +seemed to think: 'We have had enough of this; we may just as well die +here!' Then I took out my revolver and said: + +"'I will shoot the first man who flinches.' And so they set off, but very +slowly, like men whose legs were of very little use to them, and I sent +four of them three hundred yards ahead to scout, and the others followed +pell-mell, walking at random and without any order. I put the strongest +in the rear, with orders to quicken the pace of the sluggards with the +points of their bayonets in the back. + +"The snow seemed as if it were going to bury us alive; it powdered our +kepis and cloaks without melting, and made phantoms of us, a kind of +spectres of dead, weary soldiers. I said to myself: 'We shall never get +out of this except by a, miracle.' + +"Sometimes we had to stop for a few minutes, on account of those who +could not follow us, and then we heard nothing except the falling snow, +that vague, almost undiscernible sound made by the falling flakes. Some +of the men shook themselves, others did not move, and so I gave the order +to set off again. They shouldered their rifles, and with weary feet we +resumed our march, when suddenly the scouts fell back. Something had +alarmed them; they had heard voices in front of them. I sent forward six +men and a sergeant and waited. + +"All at once a shrill cry, a woman's cry, pierced through the heavy +silence of the snow, and in a few minutes they brought back two +prisoners, an old man and a girl, whom I questioned in a low voice. They +were escaping from the Prussians, who had occupied their house during the +evening and had got drunk. The father was alarmed on his daughter's +account, and, without even telling their servants, they had made their +escape in the darkness. I saw immediately that they belonged to the +better class. I invited them to accompany us, and we started off again, +the old man who knew the road acting as our guide. + +"It had ceased snowing, the stars appeared and the cold became intense. +The girl, who was leaning on her father's arm, walked unsteadily as +though in pain, and several times she murmured: + +"'I have no feeling at all in my feet'; and I suffered more than she did +to see that poor little woman dragging herself like that through the +snow. But suddenly she stopped and said: + +"'Father, I am so tired that I cannot go any further.' + +"The old man wanted to carry her, but he could not even lift her up, and +she sank to the ground with a deep sigh. We all gathered round her, and, +as for me, I stamped my foot in perplexity, not knowing what to do, and +being unwilling to abandon that man and girl like that, when suddenly one +of the soldiers, a Parisian whom they had nicknamed Pratique, said: + +"'Come, comrades, we must carry the young lady, otherwise we shall not +show ourselves Frenchmen, confound it!' + +"I really believe that I swore with pleasure. 'That is very good of you, +my children,' I said; 'and I will take my share of the burden.' + +"We could indistinctly see, through the darkness, the trees of a little +wood on the left. Several of the men went into it, and soon came back +with a bundle of branches made into a litter. + +"'Who will lend his cape? It is for a pretty girl, comrades,' Pratique +said, and ten cloaks were thrown to him. In a moment the girl was lying, +warm and comfortable, among them, and was raised upon six shoulders. I +placed myself at their head, on the right, well pleased with my position. + +"We started off much more briskly, as if we had had a drink of wine, and +I even heard some jokes. A woman is quite enough to electrify Frenchmen, +you see. The soldiers, who had become cheerful and warm, had almost +reformed their ranks, and an old 'franc-tireur' who was following the +litter, waiting for his turn to replace the first of his comrades who +might give out, said to one of his neighbors, loud enough for me to hear: +"'I am not a young man now, but by ---, there is nothing like the women +to put courage into you!' + +"We went on, almost without stopping, until three o'clock in the morning, +when suddenly our scouts fell back once more, and soon the whole +detachment showed nothing but a vague shadow on the ground, as the men +lay on the snow. I gave my orders in a low voice, and heard the harsh, +metallic sound of the cocking, of rifles. For there, in the middle of +the plain, some strange object was moving about. It looked like some +enormous animal running about, now stretching out like a serpent, now +coiling itself into a ball, darting to the right, then to the left, then +stopping, and presently starting off again. But presently that wandering +shape came nearer, and I saw a dozen lancers at full gallop, one behind +the other. They had lost their way and were trying to find it. + +"They were so near by that time that I could hear the loud breathing of +their horses, the clinking of their swords and the creaking of their +saddles, and cried: 'Fire!' + +"Fifty rifle shots broke the stillness of the night, then there were four +or five reports, and at last one single shot was heard, and when the +smoke had cleared away, we saw that the twelve men and nine horses had +fallen. Three of the animals were galloping away at a furious pace, and +one of them was dragging the dead body of its rider, which rebounded +violently from the ground; his foot had caught in the stirrup. + +"One of the soldiers behind me gave a terrible laugh and said: 'There +will be some widows there!' + +"Perhaps he was married. A third added: 'It did not take long!' + +"A head emerged from the litter. + +"'What is the matter?' she asked; 'are you fighting?' + +"'It is nothing, mademoiselle,' I replied; 'we have got rid of a dozen +Prussians!' + +"'Poor fellows!' she said. But as she was cold, she quickly disappeared +beneath the cloaks again, and we started off once more. We marched on +for a long time, and at last the sky began to grow lighter. The snow +became quite clear, luminous and glistening, and a rosy tint appeared in +the east. Suddenly a voice in the distance cried: + +"'Who goes there?' + +"The whole detachment halted, and I advanced to give the countersign. +We had reached the French lines, and, as my men defiled before the +outpost, a commandant on horseback, whom I had informed of what had taken +place, asked in a sonorous voice, as he saw the litter pass him: 'What +have you in there?' + +"And immediately a small head covered with light hair appeared, +dishevelled and smiling, and replied: + +"'It is I, monsieur.' + +"At this the men raised a hearty laugh, and we felt quite light-hearted, +while Pratique, who was walking by the side of the litter, waved his kepi +and shouted: + +"'Vive la France!' And I felt really affected. I do not know why, +except that I thought it a pretty and gallant thing to say. + +"It seemed to me as if we had just saved the whole of France and had done +something that other men could not have done, something simple and really +patriotic. I shall never forget that little face, you may be sure; and +if I had to give my opinion about abolishing drums, trumpets and bugles, +I should propose to replace them in every regiment by a pretty girl, and +that would be even better than playing the 'Marseillaise: By Jove! it +would put some spirit into a trooper to have a Madonna like that, a live +Madonna, by the colonel's side." + +He was silent for a few moments and then continued, with an air of +conviction, and nodding his head: + +"All the same, we are very fond of women, we Frenchmen!" + + + + + + +MOTHER SAUVAGE + +Fifteen years had passed since I was at Virelogne. I returned there in +the autumn to shoot with my friend Serval, who had at last rebuilt his +chateau, which the Prussians had destroyed. + +I loved that district. It is one of those delightful spots which have a +sensuous charm for the eyes. You love it with a physical love. We, whom +the country enchants, keep tender memories of certain springs, certain +woods, certain pools, certain hills seen very often which have stirred us +like joyful events. Sometimes our thoughts turn back to a corner in a +forest, or the end of a bank, or an orchard filled with flowers, seen but +a single time on some bright day, yet remaining in our hearts like the +image of certain women met in the street on a spring morning in their +light, gauzy dresses, leaving in soul and body an unsatisfied desire +which is not to be forgotten, a feeling that you have just passed by +happiness. + +At Virelogne I loved the whole countryside, dotted with little woods and +crossed by brooks which sparkled in the sun and looked like veins +carrying blood to the earth. You fished in them for crawfish, trout and +eels. Divine happiness! You could bathe in places and you often found +snipe among the high grass which grew along the borders of these small +water courses. + +I was stepping along light as a goat, watching my two dogs running ahead +of me, Serval, a hundred metres to my right, was beating a field of +lucerne. I turned round by the thicket which forms the boundary of the +wood of Sandres and I saw a cottage in ruins. + +Suddenly I remembered it as I had seen it the last time, in 1869, neat, +covered with vines, with chickens before the door. What is sadder than a +dead house, with its skeleton standing bare and sinister? + +I also recalled that inside its doors, after a very tiring day, the good +woman had given me a glass of wine to drink and that Serval had told me +the history of its people. The father, an old poacher, had been killed +by the gendarmes. The son, whom I had once seen, was a tall, dry fellow +who also passed for a fierce slayer of game. People called them "Les +Sauvage." + +Was that a name or a nickname? + +I called to Serval. He came up with his long strides like a crane. + +I asked him: + +"What's become of those people?" + +This was his story: + +When war was declared the son Sauvage, who was then thirty-three years +old, enlisted, leaving his mother alone in the house. People did not +pity the old woman very much because she had money; they knew it. + +She remained entirely alone in that isolated dwelling, so far from the +village, on the edge of the wood. She was not afraid, however, being of +the same strain as the men folk--a hardy old woman, tall and thin, who +seldom laughed and with whom one never jested. The women of the fields +laugh but little in any case, that is men's business. But they +themselves have sad and narrowed hearts, leading a melancholy, gloomy +life. The peasants imbibe a little noisy merriment at the tavern, but +their helpmates always have grave, stern countenances. The muscles of +their faces have never learned the motions of laughter. + +Mother Sauvage continued her ordinary existence in her cottage, which was +soon covered by the snows. She came to the village once a week to get +bread and a little meat. Then she returned to her house. As there was +talk of wolves, she went out with a gun upon her shoulder--her son's gun, +rusty and with the butt worn by the rubbing of the hand--and she was a +strange sight, the tall "Sauvage," a little bent, going with slow strides +over the snow, the muzzle of the piece extending beyond the black +headdress, which confined her head and imprisoned her white hair, which +no one had ever seen. + +One day a Prussian force arrived. It was billeted upon the inhabitants, +according to the property and resources of each. Four were allotted to +the old woman, who was known to be rich. + +They were four great fellows with fair complexion, blond beards and blue +eyes, who had not grown thin in spite of the fatigue which they had +endured already and who also, though in a conquered country, had remained +kind and gentle. Alone with this aged woman, they showed themselves full +of consideration, sparing her, as much as they could, all expense and +fatigue. They could be seen, all four of them, making their toilet at +the well in their shirt-sleeves in the gray dawn, splashing with great +swishes of water their pink-white northern skin, while La Mere Sauvage +went and came, preparing their soup. They would be seen cleaning the +kitchen, rubbing the tiles, splitting wood, peeling potatoes, doing up +all the housework like four good sons around their mother. + +But the old woman thought always of her own son, so tall and thin, with +his hooked nose and his brown eyes and his heavy mustache which made a +roll of black hair upon his lip. She asked every day of each of the +soldiers who were installed beside her hearth: "Do you know where the +French marching regiment, No. 23, was sent? My boy is in it." + +They invariably answered, "No, we don't know, don't know a thing at all." +And, understanding her pain and her uneasiness--they who had mothers, +too, there at home--they rendered her a thousand little services. She +loved them well, moreover, her four enemies, since the peasantry have no +patriotic hatred; that belongs to the upper class alone. The humble, +those who pay the most because they are poor and because every new burden +crushes them down; those who are killed in masses, who make the true +cannon's prey because they are so many; those, in fine, who suffer most +cruelly the atrocious miseries of war because they are the feeblest and +offer least resistance--they hardly understand at all those bellicose +ardors, that excitable sense of honor or those pretended political +combinations which in six months exhaust two nations, the conqueror with +the conquered. + +They said in the district, in speaking of the Germans of La Mere Sauvage: + +"There are four who have found a soft place." + +Now, one morning, when the old woman was alone in the house, she +observed, far off on the plain, a man coming toward her dwelling. +Soon she recognized him; it was the postman to distribute the letters. +He gave her a folded paper and she drew out of her case the spectacles +which she used for sewing. Then she read: + + MADAME SAUVAGE: This letter is to tell you sad news. Your boy + Victor was killed yesterday by a shell which almost cut him in two. + I was near by, as we stood next each other in the company, and he + told me about you and asked me to let you know on the same day if + anything happened to him. + + I took his watch, which was in his pocket, to bring it back to you + when the war is done. + CESAIRE RIVOT, + + Soldier of the 2d class, March. Reg. No. 23. + + +The letter was dated three weeks back. + +She did not cry at all. She remained motionless, so overcome and +stupefied that she did not even suffer as yet. She thought: "There's +Victor killed now." Then little by little the tears came to her eyes and +the sorrow filled her heart. Her thoughts came, one by one, dreadful, +torturing. She would never kiss him again, her child, her big boy, never +again! The gendarmes had killed the father, the Prussians had killed the +son. He had been cut in two by a cannon-ball. She seemed to see the +thing, the horrible thing: the head falling, the eyes open, while he +chewed the corner of his big mustache as he always did in moments of +anger. + +What had they done with his body afterward? If they had only let her +have her boy back as they had brought back her husband--with the bullet +in the middle of the forehead! + +But she heard a noise of voices. It was the Prussians returning from the +village. She hid her letter very quickly in her pocket, and she received +them quietly, with her ordinary face, having had time to wipe her eyes. + +They were laughing, all four, delighted, for they brought with them a +fine rabbit--stolen, doubtless--and they made signs to the old woman that +there was to be something good to east. + +She set herself to work at once to prepare breakfast, but when it came to +killing the rabbit, her heart failed her. And yet it was not the first. +One of the soldiers struck it down with a blow of his fist behind the +ears. + +The beast once dead, she skinned the red body, but the sight of the blood +which she was touching, and which covered her hands, and which she felt +cooling and coagulating, made her tremble from head to foot, and she kept +seeing her big boy cut in two, bloody, like this still palpitating +animal. + +She sat down at table with the Prussians, but she could not eat, not even +a mouthful. They devoured the rabbit without bothering themselves about +her. She looked at them sideways, without speaking, her face so +impassive that they perceived nothing. + +All of a sudden she said: "I don't even know your names, and here's a +whole month that we've been together." They understood, not without +difficulty, what she wanted, and told their names. + +That was not sufficient; she had them written for her on a paper, with +the addresses of their families, and, resting her spectacles on her great +nose, she contemplated that strange handwriting, then folded the sheet +and put it in her pocket, on top of the letter which told her of the +death of her son. + +When the meal was ended she said to the men: + +"I am going to work for you." + +And she began to carry up hay into the loft where they slept. + +They were astonished at her taking all this trouble; she explained to +them that thus they would not be so cold; and they helped her. They +heaped the stacks of hay as high as the straw roof, and in that manner +they made a sort of great chamber with four walls of fodder, warm and +perfumed, where they should sleep splendidly. + +At dinner one of them was worried to see that La Mere Sauvage still ate +nothing. She told him that she had pains in her stomach. Then she +kindled a good fire to warm herself, and the four Germans ascended to +their lodging-place by the ladder which served them every night for this +purpose. + +As soon as they closed the trapdoor the old woman removed the ladder, +then opened the outside door noiselessly and went back to look for more +bundles of straw, with which she filled her kitchen. She went barefoot +in the snow, so softly that no sound was heard. From time to time she +listened to the sonorous and unequal snoring of the four soldiers who +were fast asleep. + +When she judged her preparations to be sufficient, she threw one of the +bundles into the fireplace, and when it was alight she scattered it over +all the others. Then she went outside again and looked. + +In a few seconds the whole interior of the cottage was illumined with a +brilliant light and became a frightful brasier, a gigantic fiery furnace, +whose glare streamed out of the narrow window and threw a glittering beam +upon the snow. + +Then a great cry issued from the top of the house; it was a clamor of men +shouting heartrending calls of anguish and of terror. Finally the +trapdoor having given way, a whirlwind of fire shot up into the loft, +pierced the straw roof, rose to the sky like the immense flame of a +torch, and all the cottage flared. + +Nothing more was heard therein but the crackling of the fire, the +cracking of the walls, the falling of the rafters. Suddenly the roof +fell in and the burning carcass of the dwelling hurled a great plume of +sparks into the air, amid a cloud of smoke. + +The country, all white, lit up by the fire, shone like a cloth of silver +tinted with red. + +A bell, far off, began to toll. + +The old "Sauvage" stood before her ruined dwelling, armed with her gun, +her son's gun, for fear one of those men might escape. + +When she saw that it was ended, she threw her weapon into the brasier. +A loud report followed. + +People were coming, the peasants, the Prussians. + +They found the woman seated on the trunk of a tree, calm and satisfied. + +A German officer, but speaking French like a son of France, demanded: + +"Where are your soldiers?" + +She reached her bony arm toward the red heap of fire which was almost out +and answered with a strong voice: + +"There!" + +They crowded round her. The Prussian asked: + +"How did it take fire?" + +"It was I who set it on fire." + +They did not believe her, they thought that the sudden disaster had made +her crazy. While all pressed round and listened, she told the story from +beginning to end, from the arrival of the letter to the last shriek of +the men who were burned with her house, and never omitted a detail. + +When she had finished, she drew two pieces of paper from her pocket, and, +in order to distinguish them by the last gleams of the fire, she again +adjusted her spectacles. Then she said, showing one: + +"That, that is the death of Victor." Showing the other, she added, +indicating the red ruins with a bend of the head: "Here are their names, +so that you can write home." She quietly held a sheet of paper out to +the officer, who held her by the shoulders, and she continued: + +"You must write how it happened, and you must say to their mothers that +it was I who did that, Victoire Simon, la Sauvage! Do not forget." + +The officer shouted some orders in German. They seized her, they threw +her against the walls of her house, still hot. Then twelve men drew +quickly up before her, at twenty paces. She did not move. She had +understood; she waited. + +An order rang out, followed instantly by a long report. A belated shot +went off by itself, after the others. + +The old woman did not fall. She sank as though they had cut off her +legs. + +The Prussian officer approached. She was almost cut in two, and in her +withered hand she held her letter bathed with blood. + +My friend Serval added: + +"It was by way of reprisal that the Germans destroyed the chateau of the +district, which belonged to me." + +I thought of the mothers of those four fine fellows burned in that house +and of the horrible heroism of that other mother shot against the wall. + +And I picked up a little stone, still blackened by the flames. + + + + + + +EPIPHANY + +I should say I did remember that Epiphany supper during the war! +exclaimed Count de Garens, an army captain. + +I was quartermaster of cavalry at the time, and for a fortnight had been +scouting in front of the German advance guard. The evening before we had +cut down a few Uhlans and had lost three men, one of whom was that poor +little Raudeville. You remember Joseph de Raudeville, of course. + +Well, on that day my commanding officer ordered me to take six troopers +and to go and occupy the village of Porterin, where there had been five +skirmishes in three weeks, and to hold it all night. There were not +twenty houses left standing, not a dozen houses in that wasps' nest. So +I took ten troopers and set out about four o'clock, and at five o'clock, +while it was still pitch dark, we reached the first houses of Porterin. +I halted and ordered Marchas--you know Pierre de Marchas, who afterward +married little Martel-Auvelin, the daughter of the Marquis de Martel- +Auvelin--to go alone into the village, and to report to me what he saw. + +I had selected nothing but volunteers, all men of good family. It is +pleasant when on duty not to be forced to be on intimate terms with +unpleasant fellows. This Marchas was as smart as possible, cunning as a +fox and supple as a serpent. He could scent the Prussians as a dog can +scent a hare, could discover food where we should have died of hunger +without him, and obtained information from everybody, and information +which was always reliable, with incredible cleverness. + +In ten minutes he returned. "All right," he said; "there have been no +Prussians here for three days. It is a sinister place, is this village. +I have been talking to a Sister of Mercy, who is caring for four or five +wounded men in an abandoned convent." + +I ordered them to ride on, and we entered the principal street. On the +right and left we could vaguely see roofless walls, which were hardly +visible in the profound darkness. Here and there a light was burning in +a room; some family had remained to keep its house standing as well as +they were able; a family of brave or of poor people. The rain began to +fall, a fine, icy cold rain, which froze as it fell on our cloaks. +The horses stumbled against stones, against beams, against furniture. +Marchas guided us, going before us on foot, and leading his horse by the +bridle. + +"Where are you taking us to?" I asked him. And he replied: "I have a +place for us to lodge in, and a rare good one." And we presently stopped +before a small house, evidently belonging to some proprietor of the +middle class. It stood on the street, was quite inclosed, and had a +garden in the rear. + +Marchas forced open the lock by means of a big stone which he picked up +near the garden gate; then he mounted the steps, smashed in the front +door with his feet and shoulders, lit a bit of wax candle, which he was +never without, and went before us into the comfortable apartments of some +rich private individual, guiding us with admirable assurance, as if he +lived in this house which he now saw for the first time. + +Two troopers remained outside to take care of our horses, and Marchas +said to stout Ponderel, who followed him: "The stables must be on the +left; I saw that as we came in; go and put the animals up there, for we +do not need them"; and then, turning to me, he said: "Give your orders, +confound it all!" + +This fellow always astonished me, and I replied with a laugh: "I will +post my sentinels at the country approaches and will return to you here." + +"How many men are you going to take?" + +"Five. The others will relieve them at five o'clock in the evening." + +"Very well. Leave me four to look after provisions, to do the cooking +and to set the table. I will go and find out where the wine is hidden." + +I went off, to reconnoitre the deserted streets until they ended in the +open country, so as to post my sentries there. + +Half an hour later I was back, and found Marchas lounging in a great +easy-chair, the covering of which he had taken off, from love of luxury, +as he said. He was warming his feet at the fire and smoking an excellent +cigar, whose perfume filled the room. He was alone, his elbows resting +on the arms of the chair, his head sunk between his shoulders, his cheeks +flushed, his eyes bright, and looking delighted. + +I heard the noise of plates and dishes in the next room, and Marchas said +to me, smiling in a con tented manner: "This is famous; I found the +champagne under the flight of steps outside, the brandy--fifty bottles of +the very finest in the kitchen garden under a pear tree, which did not +seem to me to be quite straight when I looked at it by the light of my +lantern. As for solids, we have two fowls, a goose, a duck, and three +pigeons. They are being cooked at this moment. It is a delightful +district." + +I sat down opposite him, and the fire in the grate was burning my nose +and cheeks. "Where did you find this wood?" I asked. "Splendid wood," +he replied. "The owner's carriage. It is the paint which is causing all +this flame, an essence of punch and varnish. A capital house!" + +I laughed, for I saw the creature was funny, and he went on: "Fancy this +being the Epiphany! I have had a bean put into the goose dressing; but +there is no queen; it is really very annoying!" And I repeated like an +echo: "It is annoying, but what do you want me to do in the matter?" +"To find some, of course." "Some women. Women?--you must be mad?" "I +managed to find the brandy under the pear tree, and the champagne under +the steps; and yet there was nothing to guide me, while as for you, a +petticoat is a sure bait. Go and look, old fellow." + +He looked so grave, so convinced, that I could not tell whether he was +joking or not, and so I replied: "Look here, Marchas, are you having a +joke with me?" "I never joke on duty." "But where the devil do you +expect me to find any women?" "Where you like; there must be two or +three remaining in the neighborhood, so ferret them out and bring them +here." + +I got up, for it was too hot in front of the fire, and Marchas went off: + +"Do you want an idea?" "Yes." "Go and see the priest." "The priest? +What for?" "Ask him to supper, and beg him to bring a woman with him." +"The priest! A woman! Ha! ha! ha!" + +But Marchas continued with extraordinary gravity: "I am not laughing; go +and find the priest and tell him how we are situated, and, as he must be +horribly dull, he will come. But tell him that we want one woman at +least, a lady, of course, since we, are all men of the world. He is sure +to know his female parishioners on the tips of his fingers, and if there +is one to suit us, and you manage it well, he will suggest her to you." + +"Come, come, Marchas, what are you thinking of?" "My dear Garens, you +can do this quite well. It will even be very funny. We are well bred, +by Jove! and we will put on our most distinguished manners and our +grandest style. Tell the abbe who we are, make him laugh, soften his +heart, coax him and persuade him!" "No, it is impossible." + +He drew his chair close to mine, and as he knew my special weakness, the +scamp continued: "Just think what a swaggering thing it will be to do and +how amusing to tell about; the whole army will talk about it, and it will +give you a famous reputation." + +I hesitated, for the adventure rather tempted me, and he persisted: +"Come, my little Garens. You are the head of this detachment, and you +alone can go and call on the head of the church in this neighborhood. +I beg of you to go, and I promise you that after the war I will relate +the whole affair in verse in the Revue de Deux Mondes. You owe this much +to your men, for you have made them march enough during the last month." + +I got up at last and asked: "Where is the priest's house?" "Take the +second turning at the end of the street, you will see an avenue, and at +the end of the avenue you will find the church. The parsonage is beside +it." As I went out, he called out: "Tell him the bill of fare, to make +him hungry!" + +I discovered the ecclesiastic's little house without any difficulty; it +was by the side of a large, ugly brick church. I knocked at the door +with my fist, as there was neither bell nor knocker, and a loud voice +from inside asked: "Who is there?" To which I replied: "A quartermaster +of hussars." + +I heard the noise of bolts and of a key being turned, and found myself +face to face with a tall priest with a large stomach, the chest of a +prizefighter, formidable hands projecting from turned-up sleeves, a red +face, and the look of a kind man. I gave him a military salute and said: +"Good-day, Monsieur le Cure." + +He had feared a surprise, some marauders' ambush, and he smiled as he +replied: "Good-day, my friend; come in." I followed him into a small +room with a red tiled floor, in which a small fire was burning, very +different to Marchas' furnace, and he gave me a chair and said: "What can +I do for you?" "Monsieur, allow me first of all to introduce myself"; and +I gave him my card, which he took and read half aloud: "Le Comte de +Garens." + +I continued: "There are eleven of us here, Monsieur l'Abbe, five on +picket duty, and six installed at the house of an unknown inhabitant. +The names of the six are: Garens, myself; Pierre de Marchas, Ludovic de +Ponderel, Baron d'Streillis, Karl Massouligny, the painter's son, and +Joseph Herbon, a young musician. I have come to ask you, in their name +and my own, to do us the honor of supping with us. It is an Epiphany +supper, Monsieur le Cure, and we should like to make it a little +cheerful." + +The priest smiled and murmured: "It seems to me to be hardly a suitable +occasion for amusing one's self." And I replied: "We are fighting during +the day, monsieur. Fourteen of our comrades have been killed in a month, +and three fell as late as yesterday. It is war time. We stake our life +at every moment; have we not, therefore, the right to amuse ourselves +freely? We are Frenchmen, we like to laugh, and we can laugh everywhere. +Our fathers laughed on the scaffold! This evening we should like to +cheer ourselves up a little, like gentlemen, and not like soldiers; you +understand me, I hope. Are we wrong?" + +He replied quickly: "You are quite right, my friend, and I accept your +invitation with great pleasure." Then he called out: "Hermance!" + +An old bent, wrinkled, horrible peasant woman appeared and said: "What do +you want?" "I shall not dine at home, my daughter." "Where are you +going to dine then?" "With some gentlemen, the hussars." + +I felt inclined to say: "Bring your servant with you," just to see +Marchas' face, but I did not venture, and continued: "Do you know any one +among your parishioners, male or female, whom I could invite as well?" +He hesitated, reflected, and then said:, "No, I do not know anybody!" + +I persisted: "Nobody! Come, monsieur, think; it would be very nice to +have some ladies, I mean to say, some married couples! I know nothing +about your parishioners. The baker and his wife, the grocer, the--the-- +the--watchmaker--the--shoemaker--the--the druggist with Mrs. Druggist. +We have a good spread and plenty of wine, and we should be enchanted to +leave pleasant recollections of ourselves with the people here." + +The priest thought again for a long time, and then said resolutely: "No, +there is nobody." I began to laugh. "By Jove, Monsieur le Cure, it is +very annoying not to have an Epiphany queen, for we have the bean. Come, +think. Is there not a married mayor, or a married deputy mayor, or a +married municipal councillor or a schoolmaster?" "No, all the ladies +have gone away." "What, is there not in the whole place some good +tradesman's wife with her good tradesman, to whom we might give this +pleasure, for it would be a pleasure to them, a great pleasure under +present circumstances?" + +But, suddenly, the cure began to laugh, and laughed so violently that he +fairly shook, and presently exclaimed: "Ha! ha! ha! I have got what +you want, yes. I have got what you want! Ha! ha! ha! We will laugh +and enjoy ourselves, my children; we will have some fun. How pleased the +ladies will be, I say, how delighted they will be! Ha! ha! Where are +you staying?" + +I described the house, and he understood where it was. "Very good," he +said. "It belongs to Monsieur Bertin-Lavaille. I will be there in half +an hour, with four ladies! Ha! ha! ha! four ladies!" + +He went out with me, still laughing, and left me, repeating: "That is +capital; in half an hour at Bertin-Lavaille's house." + +I returned quickly, very much astonished and very much puzzled. "Covers +for how many?" Marchas asked, as soon as he saw me. "Eleven. There are +six of us hussars, besides the priest and four ladies." He was +thunderstruck, and I was triumphant. He repeated: "Four ladies! Did you +say, four ladies?" "I said four women." "Real women?" "Real women." +"Well, accept my compliments!" "I will, for I deserve them." + +He got out of his armchair, opened the door, and I saw a beautiful white +tablecloth on a long table, round which three hussars in blue aprons were +setting out the plates and glasses. "There are some women coming!" +Marchas cried. And the three men began to dance and to cheer with all +their might. + +Everything was ready, and we were waiting. We waited for nearly an hour, +while a delicious smell of roast poultry pervaded the whole house. At +last, however, a knock against the shutters made us all jump up at the +same moment. Stout Ponderel ran to open the door, and in less than a +minute a little Sister of Mercy appeared in the doorway. She was thin, +wrinkled and timid, and successively greeted the four bewildered hussars +who saw her enter. Behind her, the noise of sticks sounded on the tiled +floor in the vestibule, and as soon as she had come into the drawing- +room, I saw three old heads in white caps, following each other one by +one, who came in, swaying with different movements, one inclining to the +right, while the other inclined to the left. And three worthy women +appeared, limping, dragging their legs behind them, crippled by illness +and deformed through old age, three infirm old women, past service, the +only three pensioners who were able to walk in the home presided over by +Sister Saint-Benedict. + +She had turned round to her invalids, full of anxiety for them, and then, +seeing my quartermaster's stripes, she said to me: "I am much obliged to +you for thinking of these poor women. They have very little pleasure in +life, and you are at the same time giving them a great treat and doing +them a great honor." + +I saw the priest, who had remained in the dark hallway, and was laughing +heartily, and I began to laugh in my turn, especially when I saw Marchas' +face. Then, motioning the nun to the seats, I said: + +"Sit down, sister; we are very proud and very happy that you have +accepted our unpretentious invitation." + +She took three chairs which stood against the wall, set them before the +fire, led her three old women to them, settled them on them, took their +sticks and shawls, which she put into a corner, and then, pointing to the +first, a thin woman with an enormous stomach, who was evidently suffering +from the dropsy, she said: "This is Mother Paumelle; whose husband was +killed by falling from a roof, and whose son died in Africa; she is sixty +years old." Then she pointed to another, a tall woman, whose head +trembled unceasingly: "This is Mother Jean-Jean, who is sixty-seven. She +is nearly blind, for her face was terribly singed in a fire, and her +right leg was half burned off." + +Then she pointed to the third, a sort of dwarf, with protruding, round, +stupid eyes, which she rolled incessantly in all directions, "This is La +Putois, an idiot. She is only forty-four." + +I bowed to the three women as if I were being presented to some royal +highnesses, and turning to the priest, I said: "You are an excellent man, +Monsieur l'Abbe, to whom all of us here owe a debt of gratitude." + +Everybody was laughing, in fact, except Marchas, who seemed furious, and +just then Karl Massouligny cried: "Sister Saint-Benedict, supper is on +the table!" + +I made her go first with the priest, then I helped up Mother Paumelle, +whose arm I took and dragged her into the next room, which was no easy +task, for she seemed heavier than a lump of iron. + +Stout Ponderel gave his arm to Mother Jean-Jean, who bemoaned her crutch, +and little Joseph Herbon took the idiot, La Putois, to the dining-room, +which was filled with the odor of the viands. + +As soon as we were opposite our plates, the sister clapped her hands +three times, and, with the precision of soldiers presenting arms, the +women made a rapid sign of the cross, and then the priest slowly repeated +the Benedictus in Latin. Then we sat down, and the two fowls appeared, +brought in by Marchas, who chose to wait at table, rather than to sit +down as a guest to this ridiculous repast. + +But I cried: "Bring the champagne at once!" and a cork flew out with the +noise of a pistol, and in spite of the resistance of the priest and of +the kind sister, the three hussars, sitting by the side of the three +invalids, emptied their three full glasses down their throats by force. + +Massouligny, who possessed the faculty of making himself at home, and of +being on good terms with every one, wherever he was, made love to Mother +Paumelle in the drollest manner. The dropsical woman, who had retained +her cheerfulness in spite of her misfortunes, answered him banteringly in +a high falsetto voice which appeared as if it were put on, and she +laughed so heartily at her neighbor's jokes that it was quite alarming. +Little Herbon had seriously undertaken the task of making the idiot +drunk, and Baron d'Streillis, whose wits were not always particularly +sharp, was questioning old Jean-Jean about the life, the habits, and the +rules of the hospital. + +The nun said to Massouligny in consternation: + +"Oh! oh! you will make her ill; pray do not make her laugh like that, +monsieur. Oh! monsieur--" Then she got up and rushed at Herbon to take +from him a full glass which he was hastily emptying down La Putois' +throat, while the priest shook with laughter, and said to the sister: +"Never mind; just this once, it will not hurt them. Do leave them +alone." + +After the two fowls they ate the duck, which was flanked by the three +pigeons and the blackbird, and then the goose appeared, smoking, golden- +brown, and diffusing a warm odor of hot, browned roast meat. La +Paumelle, who was getting lively, clapped her hands; La Jean-Jean left +off answering the baron's numerous questions, and La Putois uttered. +grunts of pleasure, half cries and half sighs, as little children do when +one shows them candy. "Allow me to take charge of this animal," the cure +said. "I understand these sort of operations better than most people." +"Certainly, Monsieur l'Abbe," and the sister said: "How would it be to +open the window a little? They are too warm, and I am afraid they will +be ill." + +I turned to Marchas : "Open the window for a minute." He did so; the +cold outer air as it came in made the candles flare, and the steam from +the goose, which the cure was scientifically carving, with a table napkin +round his neck, whirl about. We watched him doing it, without speaking +now, for we were interested in his attractive handiwork, and seized with +renewed appetite at the sight of that enormous golden-brown bird, whose +limbs fell one after another into the brown gravy at the bottom of the +dish. At that moment, in the midst of that greedy silence which kept us +all attentive, the distant report of a shot came in at the open window. + +I started to my feet so quickly that my chair fell down behind me, and I +shouted: "To saddle, all of you! You, Marches, take two men and go and +see what it is. I shall expect you back here in five minutes." And +while the three riders went off at full gallop through the night, I got +into the saddle with my three remaining hussars, in front of the steps of +the villa, while the cure, the sister and the three old women showed +their frightened faces at the window. + +We heard nothing more, except the barking of a dog in the distance. The +rain had ceased, and it was cold, very cold, and soon I heard the gallop +of a horse, of a single horse, coming back. It was Marchas, and I called +out to him: "Well?" "It is nothing; Francois has wounded an old peasant +who refused to answer his challenge: 'Who goes there?' and who continued +to advance in spite of the order to keep off; but they are bringing him +here, and we shall see what is the matter." + +I gave orders for the horses to be put back in the stable, and I sent my +two soldiers to meet the others, and returned to the house. Then the +cure, Marchas, and I took a mattress into the room to lay the wounded man +on; the sister tore up a table napkin in order to make lint, while the +three frightened women remained huddled up in a corner. + +Soon I heard the rattle of sabres on the road, and I took a candle to +show a light to the men who were returning; and they soon appeared, +carrying that inert, soft, long, sinister object which a human body +becomes when life no longer sustains it. + +They put the wounded man on the mattress that had been prepared for him, +and I saw at the first glance that he was dying. He had the death rattle +and was spitting up blood, which ran out of the corners of his mouth at +every gasp. The man was covered with blood! His cheeks, his beard, his +hair, his neck and his clothes seemed to have been soaked, to have been +dipped in a red tub; and that blood stuck to him, and had become a dull +color which was horrible to look at. + +The wounded man, wrapped up in a large shepherd's cloak, occasionally +opened his dull, vacant eyes, which seemed stupid with astonishment, like +those of animals wounded by a sportsman, which fall at his feet, more +than half dead already, stupefied with terror and surprise. + +The cure exclaimed: "Ah, it is old Placide, the shepherd from Les +Moulins. He is deaf, poor man, and heard nothing. Ah! Oh, God! they +have killed the unhappy man!" The sister had opened his blouse and +shirt, and was looking at a little blue hole in his chest, which was not +bleeding any more. "There is nothing to be done," she said. + +The shepherd was gasping terribly and bringing up blood with every last +breath, and in his throat, to the very depth of his lungs, they could +hear an ominous and continued gurgling. The cure, standing in front of +him, raised his right hand, made the sign of the cross, and in a slow and +solemn voice pronounced the Latin words which purify men's souls, but +before they were finished, the old man's body trembled violently, as if +something had given way inside him, and he ceased to breathe. He was +dead. + +When I turned round, I saw a sight which was even more horrible than the +death struggle of this unfortunate man; the three old women were standing +up huddled close together, hideous, and grimacing with fear and horror. +I went up to them, and they began to utter shrill screams, while La Jean- +Jean, whose burned leg could no longer support her, fell to the ground at +full length. + +Sister Saint-Benedict left the dead man, ran up to her infirm old women, +and without a word or a look for me, wrapped their shawls round them, +gave them their crutches, pushed them to the door, made them go out, and +disappeared with them into the dark night. + +I saw that I could not even let a hussar accompany them, for the mere +rattle of a sword would have sent them mad with fear. + +The cure was still looking at the dead man; but at last he turned round +to me and said: + +"Oh! What a horrible thing!" + + + + + + +THE MUSTACHE + + CHATEAU DE SOLLES, + July 30, 1883. + +My Dear Lucy: + +I have no news. We live in the drawing-room, looking out at the rain. +We cannot go out in this frightful weather, so we have theatricals. +How stupid they are, my dear, these drawing entertainments in the +repertory of real life! All is forced, coarse, heavy. The jokes are +like cannon balls, smashing everything in their passage. No wit, nothing +natural, no sprightliness, no elegance. These literary men, in truth, +know nothing of society. They are perfectly ignorant of how people think +and talk in our set. I do not mind if they despise our customs, our +conventionalities, but I do not forgive them for not knowing them. When +they want to be humorous they make puns that would do for a barrack; when +they try to be jolly, they give us jokes that they must have picked up on +the outer boulevard in those beer houses artists are supposed to +frequent, where one has heard the same students' jokes for fifty years. + +So we have taken to Theatricals. As we are only two women, my husband +takes the part of a soubrette, and, in order to do that, he has shaved +off his mustache. You cannot imagine, my dear Lucy, how it changes him! +I no longer recognize him-by day or at night. If he did not let it grow +again I think I should no longer love him; he looks so horrid like this. + +In fact, a man without a mustache is no longer a man. I do not care much +for a beard; it almost always makes a man look untidy. But a mustache, +oh, a mustache is indispensable to a manly face. No, you would never +believe how these little hair bristles on the upper lip are a relief to +the eye and good in other ways. I have thought over the matter a great +deal but hardly dare to write my thoughts. Words look so different on +paper and the subject is so difficult, so delicate, so dangerous that it +requires infinite skill to tackle it. + +Well, when my husband appeared, shaven, I understood at once that I never +could fall in love with a strolling actor nor a preacher, even if it were +Father Didon, the most charming of all! Later when I was alone with him +(my husband) it was worse still. Oh, my dear Lucy, never let yourself be +kissed by a man without a mustache; their kisses have no flavor, none +whatever! They no longer have the charm, the mellowness and the snap- +yes, the snap--of a real kiss. The mustache is the spice. + +Imagine placing to your lips a piece of dry--or moist--parchment. That +is the kiss of the man without a mustache. It is not worth while. + +Whence comes this charm of the mustache, will you tell me? Do I know +myself? It tickles your face, you feel it approaching your mouth and it +sends a little shiver through you down to the tips of your toes. + +And on your neck! Have you ever felt a mustache on your neck? It +intoxicates you, makes you feel creepy, goes to the tips of your fingers. +You wriggle, shake your shoulders, toss back your head. You wish to get +away and at the same time to remain there; it is delightful, but +irritating. But how good it is! + +A lip without a mustache is like a body without clothing; and one must +wear clothes, very few, if you like, but still some clothing. + +I recall a sentence (uttered by a politician) which has been running in +my mind for three months. My husband, who keeps up with the newspapers, +read me one evening a very singular speech by our Minister of +Agriculture, who was called M. Meline. He may have been superseded by +this time. I do not know. + +I was paying no attention, but the name Meline struck me. It recalled, +I do not exactly know why, the 'Scenes de la vie de boheme'. I thought +it was about some grisette. That shows how scraps of the speech entered +my mind. This M. Meline was making this statement to the people of +Amiens, I believe, and I have ever since been trying to understand what +he meant: "There is no patriotism without agriculture!" Well, I have +just discovered his meaning, and I affirm in my turn that there is no +love without a mustache. When you say it that way it sounds comical, +does it not? + +There is no love without a mustache! + +"There is no patriotism without agriculture," said M. Meline, and he was +right, that minister; I now understand why. + +From a very different point of view the mustache is essential. It gives +character to the face. It makes a man look gentle, tender, violent, a +monster, a rake, enterprising! The hairy man, who does not shave off his +whiskers, never has a refined look, for his features are concealed; and +the shape of the jaw and the chin betrays a great deal to those who +understand. + +The man with a mustache retains his own peculiar expression and his +refinement at the same time. + +And how many different varieties of mustaches there are! Sometimes they +are twisted, curled, coquettish. Those seem to be chiefly devoted to +women. + +Sometimes they are pointed, sharp as needles, and threatening. That kind +prefers wine, horses and war. + +Sometimes they are enormous, overhanging, frightful. These big ones +generally conceal a fine disposition, a kindliness that borders on +weakness and a gentleness that savors of timidity. + +But what I adore above all in the mustache is that it is French, +altogether French. It came from our ancestors, the Gauls, and has +remained the insignia of our national character. + +It is boastful, gallant and brave. It sips wine gracefully and knows how +to laugh with refinement, while the broad-bearded jaws are clumsy in +everything they do. + +I recall something that made me weep all my tears and also--I see it now +--made me love a mustache on a man's face. + +It was during the war, when I was living with my father. I was a young +girl then. One day there was a skirmish near the chateau. I had heard +the firing of the cannon and of the artillery all the morning, and that +evening a German colonel came and took up his abode in our house. He +left the following day. + +My father was informed that there were a number of dead bodies in the +fields. He had them brought to our place so that they might be buried +together. They were laid all along the great avenue of pines as fast as +they brought them in, on both sides of the avenue, and as they began to +smell unpleasant, their bodies were covered with earth until the deep +trench could be dug. Thus one saw only their heads which seemed to +protrude from the clayey earth and were almost as yellow, with their +closed eyes. + +I wanted to see them. But when I saw those two rows of frightful faces, +I thought I should faint. However, I began to look at them, one by one, +trying to guess what kind of men these had been. + +The uniforms were concealed beneath the earth, and yet immediately, yes, +immediately, my dear, I recognized the Frenchmen by their mustache! + +Some of them had shaved on the very day of the battle, as though they +wished to be elegant up to the last; others seemed to have a week's +growth, but all wore the French mustache, very plain, the proud mustache +that seems to say: "Do not take me for my bearded friend, little one; I +am a brother." + +And I cried, oh, I cried a great deal more than I should if I had not +recognized them, the poor dead fellows. + +It was wrong of me to tell you this. Now I am sad and cannot chatter any +longer. Well, good-by, dear Lucy. I send you a hearty kiss. Long live +the mustache! + JEANNE. + + + + + + +MADAME BAPTISTE + +The first thing I did was to look at the clock as I entered the waiting- +room of the station at Loubain, and I found that I had to wait two hours +and ten minutes for the Paris express. + +I had walked twenty miles and felt suddenly tired. Not seeing anything +on the station walls to amuse me, I went outside and stood there racking +my brains to think of something to do. The street was a kind of +boulevard, planted with acacias, and on either side a row of houses of +varying shape and different styles of architecture, houses such as one +only sees in a small town, and ascended a slight hill, at the extreme end +of which there were some trees, as though it ended in a park. + +From time to time a cat crossed the street and jumped over the gutters +carefully. A cur sniffed at every tree and hunted for scraps from the +kitchens, but I did not see a single human being, and I felt listless and +disheartened. What could I do with myself? I was already thinking of +the inevitable and interminable visit to the small cafe at the railway +station, where I should have to sit over a glass of undrinkable beer and +the illegible newspaper, when I saw a funeral procession coming out of a +side street into the one in which I was, and the sight of the hearse was +a relief to me. It would, at any rate, give me something to do for ten +minutes. + +Suddenly, however, my curiosity was aroused. The hearse was followed by +eight gentlemen, one of whom was weeping, while the others were chatting +together, but there was no priest, and I thought to myself: + +"This is a non-religious funeral," and then I reflected that a town like +Loubain must contain at least a hundred freethinkers, who would have made +a point of making a manifestation. What could it be, then? The rapid +pace of the procession clearly proved that the body was to be buried +without ceremony, and, consequently, without the intervention of the +Church. + +My idle curiosity framed the most complicated surmises, and as the hearse +passed me, a strange idea struck me, which was to follow it, with the +eight gentlemen. That would take up my time for an hour, at least, and I +accordingly walked with the others, with a sad look on my face, and, on +seeing this, the two last turned round in surprise, and then spoke to +each other in a low voice. + +No doubt they were asking each other whether I belonged to the town, and +then they consulted the two in front of them, who stared at me in turn. +This close scrutiny annoyed me, and to put an end to it I went up to +them, and, after bowing, I said: + +"I beg your pardon, gentlemen, for interrupting your conversation, but, +seeing a civil funeral, I have followed it, although I did not know the +deceased gentleman whom you are accompanying." + +"It was a woman," one of them said. + +I was much surprised at hearing this, and asked: + +"But it is a civil funeral, is it not?" + +The other gentleman, who evidently wished to tell me all about it, then +said: "Yes and no. The clergy have refused to allow us the use of the +church." + +On hearing this I uttered a prolonged "A-h!" of astonishment. I could +not understand it at all, but my obliging neighbor continued: + +"It is rather a long story. This young woman committed suicide, and that +is the reason why she cannot be buried with any religious ceremony. +The gentleman who is walking first, and who is crying, is her husband." + +I replied with some hesitation: + +"You surprise and interest me very much, monsieur. Shall I be indiscreet +if I ask you to tell me the facts of the case? If I am troubling you, +forget that I have said anything about the matter." + +The gentleman took my arm familiarly. + +"Not at all, not at all. Let us linger a little behind the others, and I +will tell it you, although it is a very sad story. We have plenty of +time before getting to the cemetery, the trees of which you see up +yonder, for it is a stiff pull up this hill." + +And he began: + +"This young woman, Madame Paul Hamot, was the daughter of a wealthy +merchant in the neighborhood, Monsieur Fontanelle. When she was a mere +child of eleven, she had a shocking adventure; a footman attacked her and +she nearly died. A terrible criminal case was the result, and the man +was sentenced to penal servitude for life. + +"The little girl grew up, stigmatized by disgrace, isolated, without any +companions; and grown-up people would scarcely kiss her, for they thought +that they would soil their lips if they touched her forehead, and she +became a sort of monster, a phenomenon to all the town. People said to +each other in a whisper: 'You know, little Fontanelle,' and everybody +turned away in the streets when she passed. Her parents could not even +get a nurse to take her out for a walk, as the other servants held aloof +from her, as if contact with her would poison everybody who came near +her. + +"It was pitiable to see the poor child go and play every afternoon. She +remained quite by herself, standing by her maid and looking at the other +children amusing themselves. Sometimes, yielding to an irresistible +desire to mix with the other children, she advanced timidly, with nervous +gestures, and mingled with a group, with furtive steps, as if conscious +of her own disgrace. And immediately the mothers, aunts and nurses would +come running from every seat and take the children entrusted to their +care by the hand and drag them brutally away. + +"Little Fontanelle remained isolated, wretched, without understanding +what it meant, and then she began to cry, nearly heartbroken with grief, +and then she used to run and hide her head in her nurse's lap, sobbing. +"As she grew up, it was worse still. They kept the girls from her, as if +she were stricken with the plague. Remember that she had nothing to +learn, nothing; that she no longer had the right to the symbolical wreath +of orange-flowers; that almost before she could read she had penetrated +that redoubtable mystery which mothers scarcely allow their daughters to +guess at, trembling as they enlighten them on the night of their +marriage. + +"When she went through the streets, always accompanied by her governess, +as if, her parents feared some fresh, terrible adventure, with her eyes +cast down under the load of that mysterious disgrace which she felt was +always weighing upon her, the other girls, who were not nearly so +innocent as people thought, whispered and giggled as they looked at her +knowingly, and immediately turned their heads absently, if she happened +to look at them. People scarcely greeted her; only a few men bowed to +her, and the mothers pretended not to see her, while some young +blackguards called her Madame Baptiste, after the name of the footman who +had attacked her. + +"Nobody knew the secret torture of her mind, for she hardly ever spoke, +and never laughed, and her parents themselves appeared uncomfortable in +her presence, as if they bore her a constant grudge for some irreparable +fault. + +"An honest man would not willingly give his hand to a liberated convict, +would he, even if that convict were his own son? And Monsieur and Madame +Fontanelle looked on their daughter as they would have done on a son who +had just been released from the hulks. She was pretty and pale, tall, +slender, distinguished-looking, and she would have pleased me very much, +monsieur, but for that unfortunate affair. + +"Well, when a new sub-prefect was appointed here, eighteen months ago, he +brought his private secretary with him. He was a queer sort of fellow, +who had lived in the Latin Quarter, it appears. He saw Mademoiselle +Fontanelle and fell in love with her, and when told of what occurred, he +merely said: + +'Bah! That is just a guarantee for the future, and I would rather it +should have happened before I married her than afterward. I shall live +tranquilly with that woman.' + +"He paid his addresses to her, asked for her hand and married her, and +then, not being deficient in assurance, he paid wedding calls, as if +nothing had happened. Some people returned them, others did not; but, +at last, the affair began to be forgotten, and she took her proper place +in society. + +"She adored her husband as if he had been a god; for, you must remember, +he had restored her to honor and to social life, had braved public +opinion, faced insults, and, in a word, performed such a courageous act +as few men would undertake, and she felt the most exalted and tender love +for him. + +"When she became enceinte, and it was known, the most particular people +and the greatest sticklers opened their doors to her, as if she had been +definitely purified by maternity. + +"It is strange, but so it is, and thus everything was going on as well as +possible until the other day, which was the feast of the patron saint of +our town. The prefect, surrounded by his staff and the authorities, +presided at the musical competition, and when he had finished his speech +the distribution of medals began, which Paul Hamot, his private +secretary, handed to those who were entitled to them. + +"As you know, there are always jealousies and rivalries, which make +people forget all propriety. All the ladies of the town were there on the +platform, and, in his turn, the bandmaster from the village of Mourmillon +came up. This band was only to receive a second-class medal, for one +cannot give first-class medals to everybody, can one? But when the +private secretary handed him his badge, the man threw it in his face and +exclaimed: + +"'You may keep your medal for Baptiste. You owe him a first-class one, +also, just as you do me.' + +"There were a number of people there who began to laugh. The common herd +are neither charitable nor refined, and every eye was turned toward that +poor lady. Have you ever seen a woman going mad, monsieur? Well, we +were present at the sight! She got up and fell back on her chair three +times in succession, as if she wished to make her escape, but saw that +she could not make her way through the crowd, and then another voice in +the crowd exclaimed: + +"'Oh! Oh! Madame Baptiste!' + +"And a great uproar, partly of laughter and partly of indignation, arose. +The word was repeated over and over again; people stood on tiptoe to see +the unhappy woman's face; husbands lifted their wives up in their arms, +so that they might see her, and people asked: + +"'Which is she? The one in blue?' + +"The boys crowed like cocks, and laughter was heard all over the place. + +"She did not move now on her state chair, but sat just as if she had been +put there for the crowd to look at. She could not move, nor conceal +herself, nor hide her face. Her eyelids blinked quickly, as if a vivid +light were shining on them, and she breathed heavily, like a horse that +is going up a steep hill, so that it almost broke one's heart to see her. +Meanwhile, however, Monsieur Hamot had seized the ruffian by the throat, +and they were rolling on the ground together, amid a scene of +indescribable confusion, and the ceremony was interrupted. + +"An hour later, as the Hamots were returning home, the young woman, who +had not uttered a word since the insult, but who was trembling as if all +her nerves had been set in motion by springs, suddenly sprang over the +parapet of the bridge and threw herself into the river before her husband +could prevent her. The water is very deep under the arches, and it was +two hours before her body was recovered. Of course, she was dead." + +The narrator stopped and then added: + +"It was, perhaps, the best thing she could do under the circumstances. +There are some things which cannot be wiped out, and now you understand +why the clergy refused to have her taken into church. Ah! If it had been +a religious funeral the whole town would have been present, but you can +understand that her suicide added to the other affair and made families +abstain from attending her funeral; and then, it is not an easy matter +here to attend a funeral which is performed without religious rites." + +We passed through the cemetery gates and I waited, much moved by what I +had heard, until the coffin had been lowered into the grave, before I +went up to the poor fellow who was sobbing violently, to press his hand +warmly. He looked at me in surprise through his tears and then said: + +"Thank you, monsieur." And I was not sorry that I had followed the +funeral. + + + + + + +THE QUESTION OF LATIN + +This subject of Latin that has been dinned into our ears for some time +past recalls to my mind a story--a story of my youth. + +I was finishing my studies with a teacher, in a big central town, at the +Institution Robineau, celebrated through the entire province for the +special attention paid there to the study of Latin. + +For the past ten years, the Robineau Institute beat the imperial lycee of +the town at every competitive examination, and all the colleges of the +subprefecture, and these constant successes were due, they said, to an +usher, a simple usher, M. Piquedent, or rather Pere Piquedent. + +He was one of those middle-aged men quite gray, whose real age it is +impossible to tell, and whose history we can guess at first glance. +Having entered as an usher at twenty into the first institution that +presented itself so that he could proceed to take first his degree of +Master of Arts and afterward the degree of Doctor of Laws, he found +himself so enmeshed in this routine that he remained an usher all his +life. But his love for Latin did not leave him and harassed him like an +unhealthy passion. He continued to read the poets, the prose writers, +the historians, to interpret them and penetrate their meaning, to comment +on them with a perseverance bordering on madness. + +One day, the idea came into his head to oblige all the students in his +class to answer him in Latin only; and he persisted in this resolution +until at last they were capable of sustaining an entire conversation with +him just as they would in their mother tongue. He listened to them, as a +leader of an orchestra listens to his musicians rehearsing, and striking +his desk every moment with his ruler, he exclaimed: + +"Monsieur Lefrere, Monsieur Lefrere, you are committing a solecism! You +forget the rule. + +"Monsieur Plantel, your way of expressing yourself is altogether French +and in no way Latin. You must understand the genius of a language. Look +here, listen to me." + +Now, it came to pass that the pupils of the Institution Robineau carried +off, at the end of the year, all the prizes for composition, translation, +and Latin conversation. + +Next year, the principal, a little man, as cunning as an ape, whom he +resembled in his grinning and grotesque appearance, had had printed on +his programmes, on his advertisements, and painted on the door of his +institution: + +"Latin Studies a Specialty. Five first prizes carried off in the five +classes of the lycee. + +"Two honor prizes at the general examinations in competition with all the +lycees and colleges of France." + +For ten years the Institution Robineau triumphed in the same fashion. +Now my father, allured by these successes, sent me as a day pupil to +Robineau's--or, as we called it, Robinetto or Robinettino's--and made me +take special private lessons from Pere Piquedent at the rate of five +francs per hour, out of which the usher got two francs and the principal +three francs. I was then eighteen, and was in the philosophy class. + +These private lessons were given in a little room looking out on the +street. It so happened that Pere Piquedent, instead of talking Latin to +me, as he did when teaching publicly in the institution, kept telling me +his troubles in French. Without relations, without friends, the poor man +conceived an attachment to me, and poured out his misery to me. + +He had never for the last ten or fifteen years chatted confidentially +with any one. + +"I am like an oak in a desert," he said--"'sicut quercus in solitudine'." + +The other ushers disgusted him. He knew nobody in the town, since he had +no time to devote to making acquaintances. + +"Not even the nights, my friend, and that is the hardest thing on me. +The dream of my life is to have a room with my own furniture, my own +books, little things that belong to myself and which others may not +touch. And I have nothing of my own, nothing except my trousers and my +frock-coat, nothing, not even my mattress and my pillow! I have not four +walls to shut myself up in, except when I come to give a lesson in this +room. Do you see what this means--a man forced to spend his life without +ever having the right, without ever finding the time, to shut himself up +all alone, no matter where, to think, to reflect, to work, to dream? Ah! +my dear boy, a key, the key of a door which one can lock--this is +happiness, mark you, the only happiness! + +"Here, all day long, teaching all those restless rogues, and during the +night the dormitory with the same restless rogues snoring. And I have to +sleep in the bed at the end of two rows of beds occupied by these +youngsters whom I must look after. I can never be alone, never! If I go +out I find the streets full of people, and, when I am tired of walking, +I go into some cafe crowded with smokers and billiard players. I tell +you what, it is the life of a galley slave." + +I said: + +"Why did you not take up some other line, Monsieur Piquedent?" + +He exclaimed: + +"What, my little friend? I am not a shoemaker, or a joiner, or a hatter, +or a baker, or a hairdresser. I only know Latin, and I have no diploma +which would enable me to sell my knowledge at a high price. If I were a +doctor I would sell for a hundred francs what I now sell for a hundred +sous; and I would supply it probably of an inferior quality, for my title +would be enough to sustain my reputation." + +Sometimes he would say to me: + +"I have no rest in life except in the hours spent with you. Don't be +afraid! you'll lose nothing by that. I'll make it up to you in the +class-room by making you speak twice as much Latin as the others." + +One day, I grew bolder, and offered him a cigarette. He stared at me in +astonishment at first, then he gave a glance toward the door. + +"If any one were to come in, my dear boy?" + +"Well, let us smoke at the window," said I. + +And we went and leaned our elbows on the windowsill looking on the +street, holding concealed in our hands the little rolls pf tobacco. +Just opposite to us was a laundry. Four women in loose white waists were +passing hot, heavy irons over the linen spread out before them, from +which a warm steam arose. + +Suddenly, another, a fifth, carrying on her arm a large basket which made +her stoop, came out to take the customers their shirts, their +handkerchiefs, and their sheets. She stopped on the threshold as if she +were already fatigued; then, she raised her eyes, smiled as she saw us +smoking, flung at us, with her left hand, which was free, the sly kiss +characteristic of a free-and-easy working-woman, and went away at a slow +place, dragging her feet as she went. + +She was a woman of about twenty, small, rather thin, pale, rather pretty, +with a roguish air and laughing eyes beneath her ill-combed fair hair. + +Pere Piquedent, affected, began murmuring: + +"What an occupation for a woman! Really a trade only fit for a horse." + +And he spoke with emotion about the misery of the people. He had a heart +which swelled with lofty democratic sentiment, and he referred to the +fatiguing pursuits of the working class with phrases borrowed from Jean- +Jacques Rousseau, and with sobs in his throat. + +Next day, as we were leaning our elbows on the same window sill, the same +woman perceived us and cried out to us: + +"Good-day, scholars!" in a comical sort of tone, while she made a +contemptuous gesture with her hands. + +I flung her a cigarette, which she immediately began to smoke. And the +four other ironers rushed out to the door with outstretched hands to get +cigarettes also. + +And each day a friendly intercourse was established between the working- +women of the pavement and the idlers of the boarding school. + +Pere Piquedent was really a comical sight. He trembled at being noticed, +for he might lose his position; and he made timid and ridiculous +gestures, quite a theatrical display of love signals, to which the women +responded with a regular fusillade of kisses. + +A perfidious idea came into my mind. One day, on entering our room, I +said to the old usher in a low tone: + +"You would not believe it, Monsieur Piquedent, I met the little +washerwoman! You know the one I mean, the woman who had the basket, and +I spoke to her!" + +He asked, rather worried at my manner: + +"What did she say to you?" + +"She said to me--why, she said she thought you were very nice. The fact +of the matter is, I believe, I believe, that she is a little in love with +you." I saw that he was growing pale. + +"She is laughing at me, of course. These things don't happen at my age," +he replied. + +I said gravely: + +"How is that? You are all right." + +As I felt that my trick had produced its effect on him, I did not press +the matter. + +But every day I pretended that I had met the little laundress and that I +had spoken to her about him, so that in the end he believed me, and sent +her ardent and earnest kisses. + +Now it happened that one morning, on my way to the boarding school, I +really came across her. I accosted her without hesitation, as if I had +known her for the last ten years. + +"Good-day, mademoiselle. Are you quite well?" + +"Very well, monsieur, thank you." + +"Will you have a cigarette?" + +"Oh! not in the street." + +"You can smoke it at home." + +"In that case, I will." + +"Let me tell you, mademoiselle, there's something you don't know." + +"What is that, monsieur?" + +"The old gentleman--my old professor, I mean--" + +"Pere Piquedent?" + +"Yes, Pere Piquedent. So you know his name?" + +"Faith, I do! What of that?" + +"Well, he is in love with you!" + +She burst out laughing wildly, and exclaimed: + +"You are only fooling." + +"Oh! no, I am not fooling! He keeps talking of you all through the +lesson. I bet that he'll marry you! + +She ceased laughing. The idea of marriage makes every girl serious. +Then she repeated, with an incredulous air: + +"This is humbug!" + +"I swear to you, it's true." + +She picked up her basket which she had laid down at her feet. + +"Well, we'll see," she said. And she went away. + +Presently when I had reached the boarding school, I took Pere Piquedent +aside, and said: + +"You must write to her; she is infatuated with you." + +And he wrote a long letter, tenderly affectionate, full of phrases and +circumlocutions, metaphors and similes, philosophy and academic +gallantry; and I took on myself the responsibility of delivering it to +the young woman. + +She read it with gravity, with emotion; then she murmured: + +"How well he writes! It is easy to see he has got education! Does he +really mean to marry me?" + +I replied intrepidly: "Faith, he has lost his head about you!" + +"Then he must invite me to dinner on Sunday at the Ile des Fleurs." + +I promised that she should be invited. + +Pere Piquedent was much touched by everything I told him about her. + +I added: + +"She loves you, Monsieur Piquedent, and I believe her to be a decent +girl. It is not right to lead her on and then abandon her." + +He replied in a firm tone: + +"I hope I, too, am a decent man, my friend." + +I confess I had at the time no plan. I was playing a practical joke a +schoolboy joke, nothing more. I had been aware of the simplicity of the +old usher, his innocence and his weakness. I amused myself without +asking myself how it would turn out. I was eighteen, and I had been for +a long time looked upon at the lycee as a sly practical joker. + +So it was agreed that Pere Piquedent and I should set out in a hack for +the ferry of Queue de Vache, that we should there pick up Angele, and +that I should take them into my boat, for in those days I was fond of +boating. I would then bring them to the Ile des Fleurs, where the three +of us would dine. I had inflicted myself on them, the better to enjoy my +triumph, and the usher, consenting to my arrangement, proved clearly that +he was losing his head by thus risking the loss of his position. + +When we arrived at the ferry, where my boat had been moored since +morning, I saw in the grass, or rather above the tall weeds of the bank, +an enormous red parasol, resembling a monstrous wild poppy. Beneath the +parasol was the little laundress in her Sunday clothes. I was surprised. +She was really pretty, though pale; and graceful, though with a rather +suburban grace. + +Pere Piquedent raised his hat and bowed. She put out her hand toward +him, and they stared at one another without uttering a word. Then they +stepped into my boat, and I took the oars. They were seated side by side +near the stern. + +The usher was the first to speak. + +"This is nice weather for a row in a boat." + +She murmured: + +"Oh! yes." + +She dipped her hand into the water, skimming the surface, making a thin, +transparent film like a sheet of glass, which made a soft plashing along +the side of the boat. + +When they were in the restaurant, she took it on herself to speak, and +ordered dinner, fried fish, a chicken, and salad; then she led us on +toward the isle, which she knew perfectly. + +After this, she was gay, romping, and even rather tantalizing. + +Until dessert, no question of love arose. I had treated them to +champagne, and Pere Piquedent was tipsy. Herself slightly the worse, she +called out to him: + +"Monsieur Piquenez." + +He said abruptly: + +"Mademoiselle, Monsieur Raoul has communicated my sentiments to you." + +She became as serious as a judge. + +"Yes, monsieur." + +"What is your reply?" + +"We never reply to these questions!" + +He puffed with emotion, and went on: + +"Well, will the day ever come that you will like me?" + +She smiled. + +"You big stupid! You are very nice." + +"In short, mademoiselle, do you think that, later on, we might--" + +She hesitated a second; then in a trembling voice she said: + +"Do you mean to marry me when you say that? For on no other condition, +you know." + +"Yes, mademoiselle!" + +"Well, that's all right, Monsieur Piquedent!" + +It was thus that these two silly creatures promised marriage to each +other through the trick of a young scamp. But I did not believe that it +was serious, nor, indeed, did they, perhaps. + +"You know, I have nothing, not four sous,," she said. + +He stammered, for he was as drunk as Silenus: + +"I have saved five thousand francs." + +She exclaimed triumphantly: + +"Then we can set up in business?" + +He became restless. + +"In what business?" + +"What do I know? We shall see. With five thousand francs we could do +many things. You don't want me to go and live in your boarding school, +do you?" + +He had not looked forward so far as this, and he stammered in great +perplexity: + +"What business could we set up in? That would not do, for all I know is +Latin!" + +She reflected in her turn, passing in review all her business ambitions. + +"You could not be a doctor?" + +"No, I have no diploma." + +"Or a chemist?" + +"No more than the other." + +She uttered a cry of joy. She had discovered it. + +"Then we'll buy a grocer's shop! Oh! what luck! we'll buy a grocer's +shop. Not on a big scale, of course; with five thousand francs one does +not go far." + +He was shocked at the suggestion. + +"No, I can't be a grocer. I am--I am--too well known: I only know Latin, +that is all I know." + +But she poured a glass of champagne down his throat. He drank it and was +silent. + +We got back into the boat. The night was dark, very dark. I saw +clearly, however, that he had caught her by the waist, and that they were +hugging each other again and again. + +It was a frightful catastrophe. Our escapade was discovered, with the +result that Pere Piquedent was dismissed. And my father, in a fit of +anger, sent me to finish my course of philosophy at Ribaudet's school. + +Six months later I took my degree of Bachelor of Arts. Then I went to +study law in Paris, and did not return to my native town till two years +later. + +At the corner of the Rue de Serpent a shop caught my eye. Over the door +were the words: "Colonial Products--Piquedent" ; then underneath, so as +to enlighten the most ignorant: "Grocery." + +I exclaimed: + +"'Quantum mutatus ab illo!'" + +Piquedent raised his head, left his female customer, and rushed toward me +with outstretched hands. + +"Ah! my young friend, my young friend, here you are! What luck! what +luck!" + +A beautiful woman, very plump, abruptly left the cashier's desk and flung +herself on my breast. I had some difficulty in recognizing her, she had +grown so stout. + +I asked: + +"So then you're doing well?" + +Piquedent had gone back to weigh the groceries. + +"Oh! very well, very well, very well. I have made three thousand francs +clear this year!" + +"And what about Latin, Monsieur Piquedent?" + +"Oh, good heavens! Latin, Latin, Latin--you see it does not keep the pot +boiling!" + + + + + + +A MEETING + +It was nothing but an accident, an accident pure and simple. On that +particular evening the princess' rooms were open, and as they appeared +dark after the brilliantly lighted parlors, Baron d'Etraille, who was +tired of standing, inadvertently wandered into an empty bedroom. + +He looked round for a chair in which to have a doze, as he was sure his +wife would not leave before daylight. As soon as he became accustomed to +the light of the room he distinguished the big bed with its azure-and- +gold hangings, in the middle of the great room, looking like a catafalque +in which love was buried, for the princess was no longer young. Behind +it, a large bright surface looked like a lake seen at a distance. It was +a large mirror, discreetly covered with dark drapery, that was very +rarely let down, and seemed to look at the bed, which was its accomplice. +One might almost fancy that it had reminiscences, and that one might see +in it charming female forms and the gentle movement of loving arms. + +The baron stood still for a moment, smiling, almost experiencing an +emotion on the threshold of this chamber dedicated to love. But suddenly +something appeared in the looking-glass, as if the phantoms which he had +evoked had risen up before him. A man and a woman who had been sitting +on a low couch concealed in the shadow had arisen, and the polished +surface, reflecting their figures, showed that they were kissing each +other before separating. + +Baron d'Etraille recognized his wife and the Marquis de Cervigne. He +turned and went away like a man who is fully master of himself, and +waited till it was day before taking away the baroness; but he had no +longer any thoughts of sleeping. + +As soon as they were alone he said: + +"Madame, I saw you just now in Princesse de Raynes' room; I need say no +more, and I am not fond either of reproaches, acts of violence, or of +ridicule. As I wish to avoid all such things, we shall separate without +any scandal. Our lawyers will settle your position according to my +orders. You will be free to live as you please when you are no longer +under my roof; but, as you will continue to bear my name, I must warn you +that should any scandal arise I shall show myself inflexible." + +She tried to speak, but he stopped her, bowed, and left the room. + +He was more astonished and sad than unhappy. He had loved her dearly +during the first period of their married life; but his ardor had cooled, +and now he often amused himself elsewhere, either in a theatre or in +society, though he always preserved a certain liking for the baroness. + +She was very young, hardly four-and-twenty, small, slight--too slight-- +and very fair. She was a true Parisian doll: clever, spoiled, elegant, +coquettish, witty, with more charm than real beauty. He used to say +familiarly to his brother, when speaking of her: + +"My wife is charming, attractive, but--there is nothing to lay hold of. +She is like a glass of champagne that is all froth; when you get to the +wine it is very good, but there is too little of it, unfortunately." + +He walked up and down the room in great agitation, thinking of a thousand +things. At one moment he was furious, and felt inclined to give the +marquis a good thrashing, or to slap his face publicly, in the club. +But he decided that would not do, it would not be good form; he would be +laughed at, and not his rival, and this thought wounded his vanity. +So he went to bed, but could not sleep. Paris knew in a few days that +the Baron and Baroness d'Etraille had agreed to an amicable separation on +account of incompatibility of temper. No one suspected anything, no one +laughed, and no one was astonished. + +The baron, however, to avoid meeting his wife, travelled for a year, then +spent the summer at the seaside, and the autumn in shooting, returning to +Paris for the winter. He did not meet the baroness once. + +He did not even know what people said about her. In any case, she took +care to respect appearances, and that was all he asked for. + +He became dreadfully bored, travelled again, restored his old castle of +Villebosc, which took him two years; then for over a year he entertained +friends there, till at last, tired of all these so-called pleasures, he +returned to his mansion in the Rue de Lille, just six years after the +separation. + +He was now forty-five, with a good crop of gray hair, rather stout, and +with that melancholy look characteristic of those who have been handsome, +sought after, and liked, but who are deteriorating, daily. + +A month after his return to Paris, he took cold on coming out of his +club, and had such a bad cough that his medical man ordered him to Nice +for the rest of the winter. + +He reached the station only a few minutes before the departure of the +train on Monday evening, and had barely time to get into a carriage, with +only one other occupant, who was sitting in a corner so wrapped in furs +and cloaks that he could not even make out whether it was a man or a +woman, as nothing of the figure could be seen. When he perceived that he +could not find out, he put on his travelling cap, rolled himself up in +his rugs, and stretched out comfortably to sleep. + +He did not wake until the day was breaking, and looked at once at his +fellow-traveller, who had not stirred all night, and seemed still to be +sound asleep. + +M. d'Etraille made use of the opportunity to brush his hair and his +beard, and to try to freshen himself up a little generally, for a night's +travel does not improve one's appearance when one has attained a certain +age. + +A great poet has said: + +"When we are young, our mornings are triumphant!" + +Then we wake up with a cool skin, a bright eye, and glossy hair. + +As one grows older one wakes up in a very different condition. Dull +eyes, red, swollen cheeks, dry lips, hair and beard disarranged, impart +an old, fatigued, worn-out look to the face. + +The baron opened his travelling case, and improved his looks as much as +possible. + +The engine whistled, the train stopped, and his neighbor moved. No doubt +he was awake. They started off again, and then a slanting ray of +sunlight shone into the carriage and on the sleeper, who moved again, +shook himself, and then his face could be seen. + +It was a young, fair, pretty, plump woman, and the baron looked at her in +amazement. He did not know what to think. He could really have sworn +that it was his wife, but wonderfully changed for the better: stouter-- +why she had grown as stout as he was, only it suited her much better than +it did him. + +She looked at him calmly, did not seem to recognize him, and then slowly +laid aside her wraps. She had that quiet assurance of a woman who is +sure of herself, who feels that on awaking she is in her full beauty and +freshness. + +The baron was really bewildered. Was it his wife, or else as like her as +any sister could be? Not having seen her for six years, he might be +mistaken. + +She yawned, and this gesture betrayed her. She turned and looked at him +again, calmly, indifferently, as if she scarcely saw him, and then looked +out of the window again. + +He was upset and dreadfully perplexed, and kept looking at her sideways. + +Yes; it was surely his wife. How could he possibly have doubted it? +There could certainly not be two noses like that, and a thousand +recollections flashed through his mind. He felt the old feeling of the +intoxication of love stealing over him, and he called to mind the sweet +odor of her skin, her smile when she put her arms on to his shoulders, +the soft intonations of her voice, all her graceful, coaxing ways. + +But how she had changed and improved! It was she and yet not she. She +seemed riper, more developed, more of a woman, more seductive, more +desirable, adorably desirable. + +And this strange, unknown woman, whom he had accidentally met in a +railway carriage, belonged to him; he had only to say to her: + +"I insist upon it." + +He had formerly slept in her arms, existed only in her love, and now he +had found her again certainly, but so changed that he scarcely knew her. +It was another, and yet it was she herself. It was some one who had been +born and had formed and grown since he had left her. It was she, indeed; +she whom he had loved, but who was now altered, with a more assured smile +and greater self-possession. There were two women in one, mingling a +great part of what was new and unknown with many sweet recollections of +the past. There was something singular, disturbing, exciting about it +--a kind of mystery of love in which there floated a delicious confusion. +It was his wife in a new body and in new flesh which lips had never +pressed. + +And he thought that in a few years nearly every thing changes in us; only +the outline can be recognized, and sometimes even that disappears. + +The blood, the hair, the skin, all changes and is renewed, and when +people have not seen each other for a long time, when they meet they find +each other totally different beings, although they are the same and bear +the same name. + +And the heart also can change. Ideas may be modified and renewed, so +that in forty years of life we may, by gradual and constant +transformations, become four or five totally new and different beings. + +He dwelt on this thought till it troubled him; it had first taken +possession of him when he surprised her in the princess' room. He was +not the least angry; it was not the same woman that he was looking at-- +that thin, excitable little doll of those days. + +What was he to do? How should he address her? and what could he say to +her? Had she recognized him? + +The train stopped again. He got up, bowed, and ,said: "Bertha, do you +want anything I could bring you?" + +She looked at him from head to foot, and answered, without showing the +slightest surprise, or confusion, or anger, but with the most perfect +indifference: + +"I do not want anything---thank you." + +He got out and walked up and down the platform a little in order to +recover himself, and, as it were, to recover his senses after a fall. +What should he do now? If he got into another carriage it would look as +if he were running away. Should he be polite or importunate? That would +look as if he were asking for forgiveness. Should he speak as if he were +her master? He would look like a fool, and, besides, he really had no +right to do so. + +He got in again and took his place. + +During his absence she had hastily arranged her dress and hair, and was +now lying stretched out on the seat, radiant, and without showing any +emotion. + +He turned to her, and said: "My dear Bertha, since this singular chance +has brought up together after a separation of six years--a quite friendly +separation--are we to continue to look upon each other as irreconcilable +enemies? We are shut up together, tete-d-tete, which is so much the +better or so much the worse. I am not going to get into another +carriage, so don't you think it is preferable to talk as friends till the +end of our journey?" + +She answered, quite calmly again: + +"Just as you please." + +Then he suddenly stopped, really not knowing what to say; but as he had +plenty of assurance, he sat down on the middle seat, and said: + +"Well, I see I must pay my court to you; so much the better. It is, +however, really a pleasure, for you are charming. You cannot imagine how +you have improved in the last six years. I do not know any woman who +could give me that delightful sensation which I experienced just now when +you emerged from your wraps. I really could not have thought such a +change possible." + +Without moving her head or looking at him, she said: "I cannot say the +same with regard to you; you have certainly deteriorated a great deal." + +He got red and confused, and then, with a smile of resignation, he said: + +"You are rather hard." + +"Why?" was her reply. "I am only stating facts. I don't suppose you +intend to offer me your love? It must, therefore, be a matter of perfect +indifference to you what I think about you. But I see it is a painful +subject, so let us talk of something else. What have you been doing +since I last saw you?" + +He felt rather out of countenance, and stammered: + +"I? I have travelled, done some shooting, and grown old, as you see. +And you?" + +She said, quite calmly: "I have taken care of appearances, as you ordered +me." + +He was very nearly saying something brutal, but he checked himself; and +kissed his wife's hand: + +"And I thank you," he said. + +She was surprised. He was indeed diplomatic, and always master of +himself. + +He went on: "As you have acceded to my first request, shall we now talk +without any bitterness?" + +She made a little movement of surprise. + +"Bitterness? I don't feel any; you are a complete stranger to me; I am +only trying to keep up a difficult conversation." + +He was still looking at her, fascinated in spite of her harshness, and he +felt seized with a brutal Beside, the desire of the master. + +Perceiving that she had hurt his feelings, she said: + +"How old are you now? I thought you were younger than you look." + +"I am forty-five"; and then he added: "I forgot to ask after Princesse de +Raynes. Are you still intimate with her?" + +She looked at him as if she hated him: + +"Yes, I certainly am. She is very well, thank you." + +They remained sitting side by side, agitated and irritated. Suddenly he +said: + +"My dear Bertha, I have changed my mind. You are my wife, and I expect +you to come with me to-day. You have, I think, improved both morally and +physically, and I am going to take you back again. I am your husband, +and it is my right to do so." + +She was stupefied, and looked at him, trying to divine his thoughts; but +his face was resolute and impenetrable. + +"I am very sorry," she said, "but I have made other engagements." + +"So much the worse for you," was his reply. "The law gives me the power, +and I mean to use it." + +They were nearing Marseilles, and the train whistled and slackened speed. +The baroness rose, carefully rolled up her wraps, and then, turning to +her husband, said: + +"My dear Raymond, do not make a bad use of this tete-a tete which I had +carefully prepared. I wished to take precautions, according to your +advice, so that I might have nothing to fear from you or from other +people, whatever might happen. You are going to Nice, are you not?" + +"I shall go wherever you go." + +"Not at all; just listen to me, and I am sure that you will leave me in +peace. In a few moments, when we get to the station, you will see the +Princesse de Raynes and Comtesse Henriot waiting for me with their +husbands. I wished them to see as, and to know that we had spent the +night together in the railway carriage. Don't be alarmed; they will tell +it everywhere as a most surprising fact. + +"I told you just now that I had most carefully followed your advice and +saved appearances. Anything else does not matter, does it? Well, in +order to do so, I wished to be seen with you. You told me carefully to +avoid any scandal, and I am avoiding it, for, I am afraid--I am afraid--" + +She waited till the train had quite stopped, and as her friends ran up to +open the carriage door, she said: + +"I am afraid"--hesitating--"that there is another reason--je suis +enceinte." + +The princess stretched out her arms to embrace her,--and the baroness +said, painting to the baron, who was dumb with astonishment, and was +trying to get at the truth: + +"You do not recognize Raymond? He has certainly changed a good deal, and +he agreed to come with me so that I might not travel alone. We take +little trips like this occasionally, like good friends who cannot live +together. We are going to separate here; he has had enough of me +already." + +She put out her hand, which he took mechanically, and then she jumped out +on to the platform among her friends, who were waiting for her. + +The baron hastily shut the carriage door, for he was too much disturbed +to say a word or come to any determination. He heard his wife's voice +and their merry laughter as they went away. + +He never saw her again, nor did he ever discover whether she had told him +a lie or was speaking the truth. + + + + + + +THE BLIND MAN + +How is it that the sunlight gives us such joy? Why does this radiance +when it falls on the earth fill us with the joy of living? The whole sky +is blue, the fields are green, the houses all white, and our enchanted +eyes drink in those bright colors which bring delight to our souls. And +then there springs up in our hearts a desire to dance, to run, to sing, +a happy lightness of thought, a sort of enlarged tenderness; we feel a +longing to embrace the sun. + +The blind, as they sit in the doorways, impassive in their eternal +darkness, remain as calm as ever in the midst of this fresh gaiety, and, +not understanding what is taking place around them, they continually +check their dogs as they attempt to play. + +When, at the close of the day, they are returning home on the arm of a +young brother or a little sister, if the child says: "It was a very fine +day!" the other answers: "I could notice that it was fine. Loulou +wouldn't keep quiet." + +I knew one of these men whose life was one of the most cruel martyrdoms +that could possibly be conceived. + +He was a peasant, the son of a Norman farmer. As long as his father and +mother lived, he was more or less taken care of; he suffered little save +from his horrible infirmity; but as soon as the old people were gone, an +atrocious life of misery commenced for him. Dependent on a sister of +his, everybody in the farmhouse treated him as a beggar who is eating the +bread of strangers. At every meal the very food he swallowed was made a +subject of reproach against him; he was called a drone, a clown, and +although his brother-in-law had taken possession of his portion of the +inheritance, he was helped grudgingly to soup, getting just enough to +save him from starving. + +His face was very pale and his two big white eyes looked like wafers. +He remained unmoved at all the insults hurled at him, so reserved that +one could not tell whether he felt them. + +Moreover, he had never known any tenderness, his mother having always +treated him unkindly and caring very little for him; for in country +places useless persons are considered a nuisance, and the peasants would +be glad to kill the infirm of their species, as poultry do. + +As soon as he finished his soup he went and sat outside the door in +summer and in winter beside the fireside, and did not stir again all the +evening. He made no gesture, no movement; only his eyelids, quivering +from some nervous affection, fell down sometimes over his white, +sightless orbs. Had he any intellect, any thinking faculty, any +consciousness of his own existence? Nobody cared to inquire. + +For some years things went on in this fashion. But his incapacity for +work as well as his impassiveness eventually exasperated his relatives, +and he became a laughingstock, a sort of butt for merriment, a prey to +the inborn ferocity, to the savage gaiety of the brutes who surrounded +him. + +It is easy to imagine all the cruel practical jokes inspired by his +blindness. And, in order to have some fun in return for feeding him, +they now converted his meals into hours of pleasure for the neighbors and +of punishment for the helpless creature himself. + +The peasants from the nearest houses came to this entertainment; it was +talked about from door to door, and every day the kitchen of the +farmhouse was full of people. Sometimes they placed before his plate, +when he was beginning to eat his soup, some cat or dog. The animal +instinctively perceived the man's infirmity, and, softly approaching, +commenced eating noiselessly, lapping up the soup daintily; and, when +they lapped the food rather noisily, rousing the poor fellow's attention, +they would prudently scamper away to avoid the blow of the spoon directed +at random by the blind man! + +Then the spectators ranged along the wall would burst out laughing, nudge +each other and stamp their feet on the floor. And he, without ever +uttering a word, would continue eating with his right hand, while +stretching out his left to protect his plate. + +Another time they made him chew corks, bits of wood, leaves or even +filth, which he was unable to distinguish. + +After this they got tired even of these practical jokes, and the brother- +in-law, angry at having to support him always, struck him, cuffed him +incessantly, laughing at his futile efforts to ward off or return the +blows. Then came a new pleasure--the pleasure of smacking his face. And +the plough-men, the servant girls and even every passing vagabond were +every moment giving him cuffs, which caused his eyelashes to twitch +spasmodically. He did not know where to hide himself and remained with +his arms always held out to guard against people coming too close to him. + +At last he was forced to beg. + +He was placed somewhere on the high-road on market-days, and as soon as +he heard the sound of footsteps or the rolling of a vehicle, he reached +out his hat, stammering: + +"Charity, if you please!" + +But the peasant is not lavish, and for whole weeks he did not bring back +a sou. + +Then he became the victim of furious, pitiless hatred. And this is how +he died. + +One winter the ground was covered with snow, and it was freezing hard. +His brother-in-law led him one morning a great distance along the high +road in order that he might solicit alms. The blind man was left there +all day; and when night came on, the brother-in-law told the people of +his house that he could find no trace of the mendicant. Then he added: + +"Pooh! best not bother about him! He was cold and got someone to take +him away. Never fear! he's not lost. He'll turn up soon enough tomorrow +to eat the soup." + +Next day he did not come back. + +After long hours of waiting, stiffened with the cold, feeling that he was +dying, the blind man began to walk. Being unable to find his way along +the road, owing to its thick coating of ice, he went on at random, +falling into ditches, getting up again, without uttering a sound, his +sole object being to find some house where he could take shelter. + +But, by degrees, the descending snow made a numbness steal over him, and +his feeble limbs being incapable of carrying him farther, he sat down in +the middle of an open field. He did not get up again. + +The white flakes which fell continuously buried him, so that his body, +quite stiff and stark, disappeared under the incessant accumulation of +their rapidly thickening mass, and nothing was left to indicate the place +where he lay. + +His relatives made a pretence of inquiring about him and searching for +him for about a week. They even made a show of weeping. + +The winter was severe, and the thaw did not set in quickly. Now, one +Sunday, on their way to mass, the farmers noticed a great flight of +crows, who were whirling incessantly above the open field, and then +descending like a shower of black rain at the same spot, ever going and +coming. + +The following week these gloomy birds were still there. There was a +crowd of them up in the air, as if they had gathered from all corners of +the horizon, and they swooped down with a great cawing into the shining +snow, which they covered like black patches, and in which they kept +pecking obstinately. A young fellow went to see what they were doing and +discovered the body of the blind man, already half devoured, mangled. +His wan eyes had disappeared, pecked out by the long, voracious beaks. + +And I can never feel the glad radiance of sunlit days without sadly +remembering and pondering over the fate of the beggar who was such an +outcast in life- that his horrible death was a relief to all who had +known him. + + + + + + +INDISCRETION + +They had loved each other before marriage with a pure and lofty love. +They had first met on the sea-shore. He had thought this young girl +charming, as she passed by with her light-colored parasol and her dainty +dress amid the marine landscape against the horizon. He had loved her, +blond and slender, in these surroundings of blue ocean and spacious sky. +He could not distinguish the tenderness which this budding woman awoke in +him from the vague and powerful emotion which the fresh salt air and the +grand scenery of surf and sunshine and waves aroused in his soul. + +She, on the other hand, had loved him because he courted her, because he +was young, rich, kind, and attentive. She had loved him because it is +natural for young girls to love men who whisper sweet nothings to them. + +So, for three months, they had lived side by side, and hand in hand. +The greeting which they exchanged in the morning before the bath, in the +freshness of the morning, or in the evening on the sand, under the stars, +in the warmth of a calm night, whispered low, very low, already had the +flavor of kisses, though their lips had never met. + +Each dreamed of the other at night, each thought of the other on awaking, +and, without yet having voiced their sentiments, each longer for the +other, body and soul. + +After marriage their love descended to earth. It was at first a +tireless, sensuous passion, then exalted tenderness composed of tangible +poetry, more refined caresses, and new and foolish inventions. Every +glance and gesture was an expression of passion. + +But, little by little, without even noticing it, they began to get tired +of each other. Love was still strong, but they had nothing more to +reveal to each other, nothing more to learn from each other, no new tale +of endearment, no unexpected outburst, no new way of expressing the well- +known, oft-repeated verb. + +They tried, however, to rekindle the dwindling flame of the first love. +Every day they tried some new trick or desperate attempt to bring back to +their hearts the uncooled ardor of their first days of married life. +They tried moonlight walks under the trees, in the sweet warmth of the +summer evenings: the poetry of mist-covered beaches; the excitement of +public festivals. + +One morning Henriette said to Paul: + +"Will you take me to a cafe for dinner?" + +"Certainly, dearie." + +"To some well-known cafe?" + +"Of course!" + +He looked at her with a questioning glance, seeing that she was thinking +of something which she did not wish to tell. + +She went on: + +"You know, one of those cafes--oh, how can I explain myself?--a sporty +cafe!" + +He smiled: "Of course, I understand--you mean in one of the cafes which +are commonly called bohemian." + +"Yes, that's it. But take me to one of the big places, one where you are +known, one where you have already supped--no--dined--well, you know--I--- +-I--oh! I will never dare say it!" + +"Go ahead, dearie. Little secrets should no longer exist between us." + +"No, I dare not." + +"Go on; don't be prudish. Tell me." + +"Well, I--I--I want to be taken for your sweetheart--there! and I want +the boys, who do not know that you are married, to take me for such; and +you too--I want you to think that I am your sweetheart for one hour, in +that place which must hold so many memories for you. There! And I will +play that I am your sweetheart. It's awful, I know--I am abominably +ashamed, I am as red as a peony. Don't look at me!" + +He laughed, greatly amused, and answered: + +"All right, we will go to-night to a very swell place where I am well +known." + +Toward seven o'clock they went up the stairs of one of the big cafes on +the Boulevard, he, smiling, with the look of a conqueror, she, timid, +veiled, delighted. They were immediately shown to one of the luxurious +private dining-rooms, furnished with four large arm-chairs and a red +plush couch. The head waiter entered and brought them the menu. Paul +handed it to his wife. + +"What do you want to eat?" + +"I don't care; order whatever is good." + +After handing his coat to the waiter, he ordered dinner and champagne. +The waiter looked at the young woman and smiled. He took the order and +murmured: + +"Will Monsieur Paul have his champagne sweet or dry?" + +"Dry, very dry." + +Henriette was pleased to hear that this man knew her husband's name. +They sat on the couch, side by side, and began to eat. + +Ten candles lighted the room and were reflected in the mirrors all around +them, which seemed to increase the brilliancy a thousand-fold. +Henriette drank glass after glass in order to keep up her courage, +although she felt dizzy after the first few glasses. Paul, excited by +the memories which returned to him, kept kissing his wife's hands. His +eyes were sparkling. + +She was feeling strangely excited in this new place, restless, pleased, +a little guilty, but full of life. Two waiters, serious, silent, +accustomed to seeing and forgetting everything, to entering the room only +when it was necessary and to leaving it when they felt they were +intruding, were silently flitting hither and thither. + +Toward the middle of the dinner, Henriette was well under the influence +of champagne. She was prattling along fearlessly, her cheeks flushed, +her eyes glistening. + +"Come, Paul; tell me everything." + +"What, sweetheart?" + +"I don't dare tell you." + +"Go on!" + +"Have you loved many women before me?" + +He hesitated, a little perplexed, not knowing whether he should hide his +adventures or boast of them. + +She continued: + +"Oh! please tell me. How many have you loved?" + +"A few." + +"How many?" + +"I don't know. How do you expect me to know such things?" + +"Haven't you counted them?" + +"Of course not." + +"Then you must have loved a good many!" + +"Perhaps." + +"About how many? Just tell me about how many." + +"But I don't know, dearest. Some years a good many, and some years only +a few." + +"How many a year, did you say?" + +"Sometimes twenty or thirty, sometimes only four or five." + +"Oh! that makes more than a hundred in all!" + +"Yes, just about." + +"Oh! I think that is dreadful!" + +"Why dreadful?" + +"Because it's dreadful when you think of it--all those women--and always +--always the same thing. Oh! it's dreadful, just the same--more than a +hundred women!" + +He was surprised that she should think that dreadful, and answered, with +the air of superiority which men take with women when they wish to make +them understand that they have said something foolish: + +"That's funny! If it is dreadful to have a hundred women, it's dreadful +to have one." + +"Oh, no, not at all!" + +"Why not?" + +"Because with one woman you have a real bond of love which attaches you +to her, while with a hundred women it's not the same at all. There is no +real love. I don't understand how a man can associate with such women." + +"But they are all right." + +"No, they can't be!" + +"Yes, they are!" + +"Oh, stop; you disgust me!" + +"But then, why did you ask me how many sweethearts I had had?" + +"Because----" + +"That's no reason!" + +"What were they-actresses, little shop-girls, or society women?" + +"A few of each." + +"It must have been rather monotonous toward the last." + +"Oh, no; it's amusing to change." + +She remained thoughtful, staring at her champagne glass. It was full-- +she drank it in one gulp; then putting it back on the table, she threw +her arms around her husband's neck and murmured in his ear: + +"Oh! how I love you, sweetheart! how I love you!" + +He threw his arms around her in a passionate embrace. A waiter, who was +just entering, backed out, closing the door discreetly. In about five +minutes the head waiter came back, solemn and dignified, bringing the +fruit for dessert. She was once more holding between her fingers a full +glass, and gazing into the amber liquid as though seeking unknown things. +She murmured in a dreamy voice: + +"Yes, it must be fun!" + + + + + + +A FAMILY AFFAIR + +The small engine attached to the Neuilly steam-tram whistled as it passed +the Porte Maillot to warn all obstacles to get out of its way and puffed +like a person out of breath as it sent out its steam, its pistons moving +rapidly with a noise as of iron legs running. The train was going along +the broad avenue that ends at the Seine. The sultry heat at the close of +a July day lay over the whole city, and from the road, although there was +not a breath of wind stirring, there arose a white, chalky, suffocating, +warm dust, which adhered to the moist skin, filled the eyes and got into +the lungs. People stood in the doorways of their houses to try and get a +breath of air. + +The windows of the steam-tram were open and the curtains fluttered in the +wind. There were very few passengers inside, because on warm days people +preferred the outside or the platforms. They consisted of stout women in +peculiar costumes, of those shopkeepers' wives from the suburbs, who made +up for the distinguished looks which they did not possess by ill-assumed +dignity; of men tired from office-work, with yellow faces, stooped +shoulders, and with one shoulder higher than the other, in consequence +of, their long hours of writing at a desk. Their uneasy and melancholy +faces also spoke of domestic troubles, of constant want of money, +disappointed hopes, for they all belonged to the army of poor, threadbare +devils who vegetate economically in cheap, plastered houses with a tiny +piece of neglected garden on the outskirts of Paris, in the midst of +those fields where night soil is deposited. + +A short, corpulent man, with a puffy face, dressed all in black and +wearing a decoration in his buttonhole, was talking to a tall, thin man, +dressed in a dirty, white linen suit, the coat all unbuttoned, with a +white Panama hat on his head. The former spoke so slowly and +hesitatingly that it occasionally almost seemed as if he stammered; he +was Monsieur Caravan, chief clerk in the Admiralty. The other, who had +formerly been surgeon on board a merchant ship, had set up in practice in +Courbevoie, where he applied the vague remnants of medical knowledge +which he had retained after an adventurous life, to the wretched +population of that district. His name was Chenet, and strange rumors +were current as to his morality. + +Monsieur Caravan had always led the normal life of a man in a Government +office. For the last thirty years he had invariably gone the same way to +his office every morning, and had met the same men going to business at +the same time, and nearly on the same spot, and he returned home every +evening by the same road, and again met the same faces which he had seen +growing old. Every morning, after buying his penny paper at the corner +of the Faubourg Saint Honore, he bought two rolls, and then went to his +office, like a culprit who is giving himself up to justice, and got to +his desk as quickly as possible, always feeling uneasy; as though he were +expecting a rebuke for some neglect of duty of which he might have been +guilty. + +Nothing had ever occurred to change the monotonous order of his +existence, for no event affected him except the work of his office, +perquisites, gratuities, and promotion. He never spoke of anything but +of his duties, either at the office, or at home--he had married the +portionless daughter of one of his colleagues. His mind, which was in a +state of atrophy from his depressing daily work, had no other thoughts, +hopes or dreams than such as related to the office, and there was a +constant source of bitterness that spoilt every pleasure that he might +have had, and that was the employment of so many naval officials, +tinsmiths, as they were called because of their silver-lace as first- +class clerks; and every evening at dinner he discussed the matter hotly +with his wife, who shared his angry feelings, and proved to their own +satisfaction that it was in every way unjust to give places in Paris to +men who ought properly to have been employed in the navy. + +He was old now, and had scarcely noticed how his life was passing, for +school had merely been exchanged for the office without any intermediate +transition, and the ushers, at whom he had formerly trembled, were +replaced by his chiefs, of whom he was terribly afraid. When he had to +go into the rooms of these official despots, it made him tremble from +head to foot, and that constant fear had given him a very awkward manner +in their presence, a humble demeanor, and a kind of nervous stammering. + +He knew nothing more about Paris than a blind man might know who was led +to the same spot by his dog every day; and if he read the account of any +uncommon events or scandals in his penny paper, they appeared to him like +fantastic tales, which some pressman had made up out of his own head, in +order to amuse the inferior employees. He did not read the political +news, which his paper frequently altered as the cause which subsidized it +might require, for he was not fond of innovations, and when he went +through the Avenue of the Champs-Elysees every evening, he looked at the +surging crowd of pedestrians, and at the stream of carriages, as a +traveller might who has lost his way in a strange country. + +As he had completed his thirty years of obligatory service that year, on +the first of January, he had had the cross of the Legion of Honor +bestowed upon him, which, in the semi-military public offices, is a +recompense for the miserable slavery--the official phrase is, loyal +services--of unfortunate convicts who are riveted to their desk. That +unexpected dignity gave him a high and new idea of his own capacities, +and altogether changed him. He immediately left off wearing light +trousers and fancy waistcoats, and wore black trousers and long coats, on +which his ribbon, which was very broad, showed off better. He got shaved +every morning, manicured his nails more carefully, changed his linen +every two days, from a legitimate sense of what was proper, and out of +respect for the national Order, of which he formed a part, and from that +day he was another Caravan, scrupulously clean, majestic and +condescending. + +At home, he said, "my cross," at every moment, and he had become so proud +of it, that he could not bear to see men wearing any other ribbon in +their button-holes. He became especially angry on seeing strange orders: +"Which nobody ought to be allowed to wear in France," and he bore Chenet +a particular grudge, as he met him on a tram-car every evening, wearing a +decoration of one kind or another, white, blue, orange, or green. + +The conversation of the two men, from the Arc de Triomphe to Neuilly, was +always the same, and on that day they discussed, first of all, various +local abuses which disgusted them both, and the Mayor of Neuilly received +his full share of their censure. Then, as invariably happens in the +company of medical man Caravan began to enlarge on the chapter of +illness, as in that manner, he hoped to obtain a little gratuitous +advice, if he was careful not to show his hand. His mother had been +causing him no little anxiety for some time; she had frequent and +prolonged fainting fits, and, although she was ninety, she would not take +care of herself. + +Caravan grew quite tender-hearted when he mentioned her great age, and +more than once asked Doctor Chenet, emphasizing the word doctor--although +he was not fully qualified, being only an Offcier de Sante--whether he +had often met anyone as old as that. And he rubbed his hands with +pleasure; not, perhaps, that he cared very much about seeing the good +woman last forever here on earth, but because the long duration of his +mother's life was, as it were an earnest of old age for himself, and he +continued: + +"In my family, we last long, and I am sure that, unless I meet with an +accident, I shall not die until I am very old." + +The doctor looked at him with pity, and glanced for a moment at his +neighbor's red face, his short, thick neck, his "corporation," as Chenet +called it to himself, his two fat, flabby legs, and the apoplectic +rotundity of the old official; and raising the white Panama hat from his +head, he said with a snigger: + +"I am not so sure of that, old fellow; your mother is as tough as nails, +and I should say that your life is not a very good one." + +This rather upset Caravan, who did not speak again until the tram put +them down at their destination, where the two friends got out, and Chenet +asked his friend to have a glass of vermouth at the Cafe du Globe, +opposite, which both of them were in the habit of frequenting. The +proprietor, who was a friend of theirs, held out to them two fingers, +which they shook across the bottles of the counter; and then they joined +three of their friends, who were playing dominoes, and who had been there +since midday. They exchanged cordial greetings, with the usual question: +"Anything new?" And then the three players continued their game, and +held out their hands without looking up, when the others wished them +"Good-night," and then they both went home to dinner. + +Caravan lived in a small two-story house in Courbevaie, near where the +roads meet; the ground floor was occupied by a hair-dresser. Two bed +rooms, a dining-room and a kitchen, formed the whole of their apartments, +and Madame Caravan spent nearly her whole time in cleaning them up, while +her daughter, Marie-Louise, who was twelve, and her son, Phillip-Auguste, +were running about with all the little, dirty, mischievous brats of the +neighborhood, and playing in the gutter. + +Caravan had installed his mother, whose avarice was notorious in the +neighborhood, and who was terribly thin, in the room above them. She was +always cross, and she never passed a day without quarreling and flying +into furious tempers. She would apostrophize the neighbors, who were +standing at their own doors, the coster-mongers, the street-sweepers, and +the street-boys, in the most violent language; and the latter, to have +their revenge, used to follow her at a distance when she went out, and +call out rude things after her. + +A little servant from Normandy, who was incredibly giddy and thoughtless, +performed the household work, and slept on the second floor in the same +room as the old woman, for fear of anything happening to her in the +night. + +When Caravan got in, his wife, who suffered from a chronic passion for +cleaning, was polishing up the mahogany chairs that were scattered about +the room with a piece of flannel. She always wore cotton gloves, and +adorned her head with a cap ornamented with many colored ribbons, which +was always tilted over one ear; and whenever anyone caught her polishing, +sweeping, or washing, she used to say: + +"I am not rich; everything is very simple in my house, but cleanliness is +my luxury, and that is worth quite as much as any other." + +As she was gifted with sound, obstinate, practical common sense, she led +her husband in everything. Every evening during dinner, and afterwards +when they were in their room, they talked over the business of the office +for a long time, and although she was twenty years younger than he was, +he confided everything to her as if she took the lead, and followed her +advice in every matter. + +She had never been pretty, and now she had grown ugly; in addition to +that, she was short and thin, while her careless and tasteless way of +dressing herself concealed her few small feminine attractions, which +might have been brought out if she had possessed any taste in dress. +Her skirts were always awry, and she frequently scratched herself, no +matter on what part of her person, totally indifferent as to who might +see her, and so persistently, that anyone who saw her might think that +she was suffering from something like the itch. The only adornments that +she allowed herself were silk ribbons, which she had in great profusion, +and of various colors mixed together, in the pretentious caps which she +wore at home. + +As soon as she saw her husband she rose and said, as she kissed his +whiskers: + +"Did you remember Potin, my dear?" + +He fell into a chair, in consternation, for that was the fourth time on +which he had forgotten a commission that he had promised to do for her. + +"It is a fatality," he said; "it is no good for me to think of it all day +long, for I am sure to forget it in the evening." + +But as he seemed really so very sorry, she merely said, quietly: + +"You will think of it to-morrow, I dare say. Anything new at the +office?" + +"Yes, a great piece of news; another tinsmith has been appointed second +chief clerk." She became very serious, and said: + +"So he succeeds Ramon; this was the very post that I wanted you to have. +And what about Ramon?" + +"He retires on his pension." + +She became furious, her cap slid down on her shoulder, and she continued: + +"There is nothing more to be done in that shop now. And what is the name +of the new commissioner?" + +"Bonassot." + +She took up the Naval Year Book, which she always kept close at hand, and +looked him up. + +"'Bonassot-Toulon. Born in 1851. Student Commissioner in 1871. Sub- +Commissioner in 1875.' Has he been to sea?" she continued. At that +question Caravan's looks cleared up, and he laughed until his sides +shook. + +"As much as Balin--as much as Baffin, his chief." And he added an old +office joke, and laughed more than ever: + +"It would not even do to send them by water to inspect the Point-du-Jour, +for they would be sick on the penny steamboats on the Seine." + +But she remained as serious as if she had not heard him, and then she +said in a low voice, as she scratched her chin: + +"If we only had a Deputy to fall back upon. When the Chamber hears +everything that is going on at the Admiralty, the Minister will be turned +out----, + +She was interrupted by a terrible noise on the stairs. Marie-Louise and +Philippe-Auguste, who had just come in from the gutter, were slapping +each other all the way upstairs. Their mother rushed at them furiously, +and taking each of them by an arm she dragged them into the room, shaking +them vigorously; but as soon as they saw their father, they rushed up to +him, and he kissed them affectionately, and taking one of them on each +knee, began to talk to them. + +Philippe-Auguste was an ugly, ill-kempt little brat, dirty from head to +foot, with the face of an idiot, and Marie-Louise was already like her +mother--spoke like her, repeated her words, and even imitated her +movements. She also asked him whether there was anything fresh at the +office, and he replied merrily: + +"Your friend, Ramon, who comes and dines here every Sunday, is going to +leave us, little one. There is a new second head-clerk." + +She looked at her father, and with a precocious child's pity, she said: + +"Another man has been put over your head again." + +He stopped laughing, and did not reply, and in order to create a +diversion, he said, addressing his wife, who was cleaning the windows: + +"How is mamma, upstairs?" + +Madame Caravan left off rubbing, turned round. pulled her cap up, as it +had fallen quite on to her back, and said with trembling lips: + +"Ah! yes; let us talk about your mother, for she has made a pretty +scene. Just imagine: a short time ago Madame Lebaudin, the hairdresser's +wife, came upstairs to borrow a packet of starch of me, and, as I was not +at home, your mother chased her out as though she were a beggar; but I +gave it to the old woman. She pretended not to hear, as she always does +when one tells her unpleasant truths, but she is no more deaf than I am, +as you know. It is all a sham, and the proof of it is, that she went up +to her own room immediately, without saying a word." + +Caravan, embarrassed, did not utter a word, and at that moment the little +servant came in to announce dinner. In order to let his mother know, he +took a broom-handle, which always stood in a corner, and rapped loudly on +the ceiling three times, and then they went into the dining-room. Madame +Caravan, junior, helped the soup, and waited for the old woman, but she +did not come, and as the soup was getting cold, they began to eat slowly, +and when their plates were empty, they waited again, and Madame Caravan, +who was furious, attacked her husband: + +"She does it on purpose, you know that as well as I do. But you always +uphold her." + +Not knowing which side to take, he sent Marie-Louise to fetch her +grandmother, and he sat motionless, with his eyes cast down, while his +wife tapped her glass angrily with her knife. In about a minute, the +door flew open suddenly, and the child came in again, out of breath and +very pale, and said hurriedly: + +"Grandmamma has fallen on the floor." + +Caravan jumped up, threw his table-napkin down, and rushed upstairs, +while his wife, who thought it was some trick of her mother-in-law's, +followed more slowly, shrugging her shoulders, as if to express her +doubt. When they got upstairs, however, they found the old woman lying +at full length in the middle of the room; and when they turned her over, +they saw that she was insensible and motionless, while her skin looked +more wrinkled and yellow than usual, her eyes were closed, her teeth +clenched, and her thin body was stiff. + +Caravan knelt down by her, and began to moan. + +"My poor mother! my poor mother!" he said. But the other Madame Caravan +said: + +"Bah! She has only fainted again, that is all, and she has done it to +prevent us from dining comfortably, you may be sure of that." + +They put her on the bed, undressed her completely, and Caravan, his wife, +and the servant began to rub her; but, in spite of their efforts, she did +not recover consciousness, so they sent Rosalie, the servant, to fetch +Doctor Chenet. He lived a long way off, on the quay, going towards +Suresnes, and so it was a considerable time before he arrived. He came +at last, however, and, after having looked at the old woman, felt her +pulse, and listened for a heart beat, he said: "It is all over." + +Caravan threw himself on the body, sobbing violently; he kissed his +mother's rigid face, and wept so that great tears fell on the dead +woman's face like drops of water, and, naturally, Madame Caravan, junior, +showed a decorous amount of grief, and uttered feeble moans as she stood +behind her husband, while she rubbed her eyes vigorously. + +But, suddenly, Caravan raised himself up, with his thin hair in disorder, +and, looking very ugly in his grief, said: + +"But--are you sure, doctor? Are you quite sure?" + +The doctor stooped over the body, and, handling it with professional +dexterity, as a shopkeeper might do, when showing off his goods, he said: + +"See, my dear friend, look at her eye." + +He raised the eyelid, and the old woman's eye appeared altogether +unaltered, unless, perhaps, the pupil was rather larger, and Caravan felt +a severe shock at the sight. Then Monsieur Chenet took her thin arm, +forced the fingers open, and said, angrily, as if he had been +contradicted: + +"Just look at her hand; I never make a mistake, you may be quite sure of +that." + +Caravan fell on the bed, and almost bellowed, while his wife, still +whimpering, did what was necessary. + +She brought the night-table, on which she spread a towel and placed four +wax candles on it, which she lighted; then she took a sprig of box, which +was hanging over the chimney glass, and put it between the four candles, +in a plate, which she filled with clean water, as she had no holy water. +But, after a moment's rapid reflection, she threw a pinch of salt into +the water, no doubt thinking she was performing some sort of act of +consecration by doing that, and when she had finished, she remained +standing motionless, and the doctor, who had been helping her, whispered +to her: + +"We must take Caravan away." + +She nodded assent, and, going up to her husband, who was still on his +knees, sobbing, she raised him up by one arm, while Chenet took him by +the other. + +They put him into a chair, and his wife kissed his forehead, and then +began to lecture him. Chenet enforced her words and preached firmness, +courage, and resignation--the very things which are always wanting in +such overwhelming misfortunes--and then both of them took him by the arms +again and led him out. + +He was crying like a great child, with convulsive sobs; his arms hanging +down, and his legs weak, and he went downstairs without knowing what he +was doing, and moving his feet mechanically. They put him into the chair +which he always occupied at dinner, in front of his empty soup plate. +And there he sat, without moving, his eyes fixed on his glass, and so +stupefied with grief, that he could not even think. + +In a corner, Madame Caravan was talking with the doctor and asking what +the necessary formalities were, as she wanted to obtain practical +information. At last, Monsieur Chenet, who appeared to be waiting for +something, took up his hat and prepared to go, saying that he had not +dined yet; whereupon she exclaimed: + +"What! you have not dined? Why, stay here, doctor; don't go. You shall +have whatever we have, for, of course, you understand that we do not fare +sumptuously." He made excuses and refused, but she persisted, and said: +"You really must stay; at times like this, people like to have friends +near them, and, besides that, perhaps you will be able to persuade my +husband to take some nourishment; he must keep up his strength." + +The doctor bowed, and, putting down his hat, he said: + +"In that case, I will accept your invitation, madame." + +She gave Rosalie, who seemed to have lost her head, some orders, and then +sat down, "to pretend to eat," as she said, "to keep the doctor company." + +The soup was brought in again, and Monsieur Chenet took two helpings. +Then there came a dish of tripe, which exhaled a smell of onions, and +which Madame Caravan made up her mind to taste. + +"It is excellent," the doctor said, at which she smiled, and, turning to +her husband, she said: + +"Do take a little, my poor Alfred, only just to put something in your +stomach. Remember that you have got to pass the night watching by her!" + +He held out his plate, docilely, just as he would have gone to bed, if he +had been told to, obeying her in everything, without resistance and +without reflection, and he ate; the doctor helped himself three times, +while Madame Caravan, from time to time, fished out a large piece at the +end of her fork, and swallowed it with a sort of studied indifference. + +When a salad bowl full of macaroni was brought in, the doctor said: + +"By Jove! That is what I am very fond of." And this time, Madame +Caravan helped everybody. She even filled the saucers that were being +scraped by the children, who, being left to themselves, had been drinking +wine without any water, and were now kicking each other under the table. + +Chenet remembered that Rossini, the composer, had been very fond of that +Italian dish, and suddenly he exclaimed: + +"Why! that rhymes, and one could begin some lines like this: + + The Maestro Rossini + Was fond of macaroni." + +Nobody listened to him, however. Madame Caravan, who had suddenly grown +thoughtful, was thinking of all the probable consequences of the event, +while her husband made bread pellets, which he put on the table-cloth, +and looked at with a fixed, idiotic stare. As he was devoured by thirst, +he was continually raising his glass full of wine to his lips, and the +consequence was that his mind, which had been upset by the shock and +grief, seemed to become vague, and his ideas danced about as digestion +commenced. + +The doctor, who, meanwhile, had been drinking away steadily, was getting +visibly drunk, and Madame Caravan herself felt the reaction which follows +all nervous shocks, and was agitated and excited, and, although she had +drunk nothing but water, her head felt rather confused. + +Presently, Chenet began to relate stories of death that appeared comical +to him. For in that suburb of Paris, that is full of people from the +provinces, one finds that indifference towards death which all peasants +show, were it even their own father or mother; that want of respect, that +unconscious brutality which is so common in the country, and so rare in +Paris, and he said: + +"Why, I was sent for last week to the Rue du Puteaux, and when I went, I +found the patient dead and the whole family calmly sitting beside the bed +finishing a bottle of aniseed cordial, which had been bought the night +before to satisfy the dying man's fancy." + +But Madame Caravan was not listening; she was continually thinking of the +inheritance, and Caravan was incapable of understanding anything further. + +Coffee was presently served, and it had been made very strong to give +them courage. As every cup was well flavored with cognac, it made all +their faces red, and confused their ideas still more. To make matters +still worse, Chenet suddenly seized the brandy bottle and poured out +"a drop for each of them just to wash their mouths out with," as he +termed it, and then, without speaking any more, overcome in spite of +themselves, by that feeling of animal comfort which alcohol affords after +dinner, they slowly sipped the sweet cognac, which formed a yellowish +syrup at the bottom of their cups. + +The children had fallen asleep, and Rosalie carried them off to bed. +Caravan, mechanically obeying that wish to forget oneself which possesses +all unhappy persons, helped himself to brandy again several times, and +his dull eyes grew bright. At last the doctor rose to go, and seizing +his friend's arm, he said: + +"Come with me; a little fresh air will do you good. When one is in +trouble, one must not remain in one spot." + +The other obeyed mechanically, put on his hat, took his stick, and went +out, and both of them walked arm-in-arm towards the Seine, in the +starlight night. + +The air was warm and sweet, for all the gardens in the neighborhood were +full of flowers at this season of the year, and their fragrance, which is +scarcely perceptible during the day, seemed to awaken at the approach of +night, and mingled with the light breezes which blew upon them in the +darkness. + +The broad avenue with its two rows of gas lamps, that extended as far as +the Arc de Triomphe, was deserted and silent, but there was the distant +roar of Paris, which seemed to have a reddish vapor hanging over it. +It was a kind of continual rumbling, which was at times answered by the +whistle of a train in the distance, travelling at full speed to the +ocean, through the provinces. + +The fresh air on the faces of the two men rather overcame them at first, +made the doctor lose his equilibrium a little, and increased Caravan's +giddiness, from which he had suffered since dinner. He walked as if he +were in a dream; his thoughts were paralyzed, although he felt no great +grief, for he was in a state of mental torpor that prevented him from +suffering, and he even felt a sense of relief which was increased by the +mildness of the night. + +When they reached the bridge, they turned to the right, and got the fresh +breeze from the river, which rolled along, calm and melancholy, bordered +by tall poplar trees, while the stars looked as if they were floating on +the water and were-moving with the current. A slight white mist that +floated over the opposite banks, filled their lungs with a sensation of +cold, and Caravan stopped suddenly, for he was struck by that smell from +the water which brought back old memories to his mind. For, in his mind, +he suddenly saw his mother again, in Picardy, as he had seen her years +before, kneeling in front of their door, and washing the heaps of linen +at her side in the stream that ran through their garden. He almost +fancied that he could hear the sound of the wooden paddle with which she +beat the linen in the calm silence of the country, and her voice, as she +called out to him: "Alfred, bring me some soap." And he smelled that +odor of running water, of the mist rising from the wet ground, that +marshy smell, which he should never forget, and which came back to him on +this very evening on which his mother had died. + +He stopped, seized with a feeling of despair. A sudden flash seemed to +reveal to him the extent of his calamity, and that breath from the river +plunged him into an abyss of hopeless grief. His life seemed cut in +half, his youth disappeared, swallowed up by that death. All the former +days were over and done with, all the recollections of his youth had been +swept away; for the future, there would be nobody to talk to him of what +had happened in days gone by, of the people he had known of old, of his +own part of the country, and of his past life; that was a part of his +existence which existed no longer, and the rest might as well end now. + +And then he saw "the mother" as she was when young, wearing well-worn +dresses, which he remembered for such a long time that they seemed +inseparable from her; he recollected her movements, the different tones +of her voice, her habits, her predilections, her fits of anger, the +wrinkles on her face, the movements of her thin fingers, and all her +well-known attitudes, which she would never have again, and clutching +hold of the doctor, he began to moan and weep. His thin legs began to +tremble, his whole stout body was shaken by his sobs, all he could say +was: + +"My mother, my poor mother, my poor mother!" + +But his companion, who was still drunk, and who intended to finish the +evening in certain places of bad repute that he frequented secretly, made +him sit down on the grass by the riverside, and left him almost +immediately, under the pretext that he had to see a patient. + +Caravan went on crying for some time, and when he had got to the end of +his tears, when his grief had, so to say, run out, he again felt relief, +repose and sudden tranquillity. + +The moon had risen, and bathed the horizon in its soft light. + +The tall poplar trees had a silvery sheen on them, and the mist on the +plain looked like drifting snow; the river, in which the stars were +reflected, and which had a sheen as of mother-of-pearl, was gently +rippled by the wind. The air was soft and sweet, and Caravan inhaled it +almost greedily, and thought that he could perceive a feeling of +freshness, of calm and of superhuman consolation pervading him. + +He actually resisted that feeling of comfort and relief, and kept on +saying to himself: "My poor mother, my poor mother!" and tried to make +himself cry, from a kind of conscientious feeling; but he could not +succeed in doing so any longer, and those sad thoughts, which had made +him sob so bitterly a shore time before, had almost passed away. In a +few moments, he rose to go home, and returned slowly, under the influence +of that serene night, and with a heart soothed in spite of himself. + +When he reached the bridge, he saw that the last tramcar was ready to +start, and behind it were the brightly lighted windows of the Cafe du +Globe. He felt a longing to tell somebody of his loss, to excite pity, +to make himself interesting. He put on a woeful face, pushed open the +door, and went up to the counter, where the landlord still was. He had +counted on creating a sensation, and had hoped that everybody would get +up and come to him. with outstretched hands, and say: "Why, what is the +matter with you?" But nobody noticed his disconsolate face, so he rested +his two elbows on the counter, and, burying his face in his hands, he +murmured: "Mon Dieu! Mon Dieu!" + +The landlord looked at him and said: "Are you ill, Monsieur Caravan?" + +"No, my friend," he replied, "but my mother has just died." + +"Ah!" the other exclaimed, and as a customer at the other end of the +establishment asked for a glass of Bavarian beer, he went to attend to +him, leaving Caravan dumfounded at his want of sympathy. + +The three domino players were sitting at the same table which they had +occupied before dinner, totally absorbed in their game, and Caravan went +up to them, in search of pity, but as none of them appeared to notice him +he made up his mind to speak. + +"A great misfortune has happened to me since I was here," he said. + +All three slightly raised their heads at the same instant, but keeping +their eyes fixed on the pieces which they held in their hands. + +"What do you say?" + +"My mother has just died"; whereupon one of them said: + +"Oh! the devil," with that false air of sorrow which indifferent people +assume. Another, who could not find anything to say, emitted a sort of +sympathetic whistle, shaking his head at the same time, and the third +turned to the game again, as if he were saying to himself: "Is that all!" + +Caravan had expected some of these expressions that are said to "come +from the heart," and when he saw how his news was received, he left the +table, indignant at their calmness at their friend's sorrow, although +this sorrow had stupefied him so that he scarcely felt it any longer. +When he got home his wife was waiting for him in her nightgown, and +sitting in a low chair by the open window, still thinking of the +inheritance. + +"Undress yourself," she said; "we can go on talking." + +He raised his head, and looking at the ceiling, said: + +"But--there is nobody upstairs." + +"I beg your pardon, Rosalie is with her, and you can go and take her +place at three o'clock in the morning, when you have had some sleep." + +He only partially undressed, however, so as to be ready for anything that +might happen, and after tying a silk handkerchief round his head, he lay +down to rest, and for some time neither of them spoke. Madame Caravan +was thinking. + +Her nightcap was adorned with a red bow, and was pushed rather to one +side, as was the way with all the caps she wore, and presently she turned +towards him and said: + +"Do you know whether your mother made a will?" + +He hesitated for a moment, and then replied: + +"I--I do not think so. No, I am sure that she did not." + +His wife looked at him, and she said, in a law, angry tone: + +"I call that infamous; here we have been wearing ourselves out for ten +years in looking after her, and have boarded and lodged her! Your sister +would not have done so much for her, nor I either, if I had known how I +was to be rewarded! Yes, it is a disgrace to her memory! I dare say +that you will tell me that she paid us, but one cannot pay one's children +in ready money for what they do; that obligation is recognized after +death; at any rate, that is how honorable people act. So I have had all +my worry and trouble for nothing! Oh, that is nice! that is very nice!" + +Poor Caravan, who was almost distracted, kept on repeating: + +"My dear, my dear, please, please be quiet." + +She grew calmer by degrees, and, resuming her usual voice and manner, she +continued: + +"We must let your sister know to-morrow." + +He started, and said: + +"Of course we must; I had forgotten all about it; I will send her a +telegram the first thing in the morning." + +"No," she replied, like a woman who had foreseen everything; "no, do not +send it before ten or eleven o'clock, so that we may have time to turn +round before she comes. It does not take more than two hours to get here +from Charenton, and we can say that you lost your head from grief. If we +let her know in the course of the day, that will be soon enough, and will +give us time to look round." + +Caravan put his hand to his forehead, and, in the came timid voice in +which he always spoke of his chief, the very thought of whom made him +tremble, he said: + +"I must let them know at the office." + +"Why?" she replied. "On occasions like this, it is always excusable to +forget. Take my advice, and don't let him know; your chief will not be +able to say anything to you, and you will put him in a nice fix. + +"Oh! yes, that I shall, and he will be in a terrible rage, too, when he +notices my absence. Yes, you are right; it is a capital idea, and when I +tell him that my mother is dead, he will be obliged to hold his tongue." + +And he rubbed his hands in delight at the joke, when he thought of his +chief's face; while upstairs lay the body of the dead old woman, with the +servant asleep beside it. + +But Madame Caravan grew thoughtful, as if she were preoccupied by +something which she did not care to mention, and at last she said: + +"Your mother had given you her clock, had she not--the girl playing at +cup and ball?" + +He thought for a moment, and then replied: + +"Yes, yes; she said to me (but it was a long time ago, when she first +came here): 'I shall leave the clock to you, if you look after me well.'" + +Madame Caravan was reassured, and regained her serenity, and said: + +"Well, then, you must go and fetch it out of her room, for if we get your +sister here, she will prevent us from taking it." + +He hesitated. + +"Do you think so?" + +That made her angry. + +"I certainly think so; once it is in our possession, she will know +nothing at all about where it came from; it belongs to us. It is just +the same with the chest of drawers with the marble top, that is in her +room; she gave it me one day when she was in a good temper. We will +bring it down at the same time." + +Caravan, however, seemed incredulous, and said: + +"But, my dear, it is a great responsibility!" + +She turned on him furiously. + +"Oh! Indeed! Will you never change? You would let your children die of +hunger, rather than make a move. Does not that chest of drawers belong +to us, as she gave it to me? And if your sister is not satisfied, let +her tell me so, me! I don't care a straw for your sister. Come, get up, +and we will bring down what your mother gave us, immediately." + +Trembling and vanquished, he got out of bed and began to put on his +trousers, but she stopped him: + +"It is not worth while to dress yourself; your underwear is quite enough. +I mean to go as I am." + +They both left the room in their night clothes, went upstairs quite +noiselessly, opened the door and went into the room, where the four +lighted tapers and the plate with the sprig of box alone seemed to be +watching the old woman in her rigid repose, for Rosalie, who was lying +back in the easy chair with her legs stretched out, her hands folded in +her lap, and her head on one side, was also quite motionless, and was +snoring with her mouth wide open. + +Caravan took the clock, which was one of those grotesque objects that +were produced so plentifully under the Empire. A girl in gilt bronze was +holding a cup and ball, and the ball formed the pendulum. + +"Give that to me," his wife said, "and take the marble slab off the chest +of drawers." + +He put the marble slab on his shoulder with considerable effort, and they +left the room. Caravan had to stoop in the doorway, and trembled as he +went downstairs, while his wife walked backwards, so as to light him, and +held the candlestick in one hand, carrying the clock under the other arm. + +When they were in their own room, she heaved a sigh. + +"We have got over the worst part of the job," she said; "so now let us go +and fetch the other things." + +But the bureau drawers were full of the old woman's wearing apparel, +which they must manage to hide somewhere, and Madame Caravan soon thought +of a plan. + +"Go and get that wooden packing case in the vestibule; it is hardly worth +anything, and we may just as well put it here." + +And when he had brought it upstairs they began to fill it. One by one +they took out all the collars, cuffs, chemises, caps, all the well-worn +things that had belonged to the poor woman lying there behind them, and +arranged them methodically in the wooden box in such a manner as to +deceive Madame Braux, the deceased woman's other child, who would be +coming the next day. + +When they had finished, they first of all carried the bureau drawers +downstairs, and the remaining portion afterwards, each of them holding an +end, and it was some time before they could make up their minds where it +would stand best; but at last they decided upon their own room, opposite +the bed, between the two windows, and as soon as it was in its place +Madame Caravan filled it with her own things. The clock was placed on +the chimney-piece in the dining-room, and they looked to see what the +effect was, and were both delighted with it and agreed that nothing could +be better. Then they retired, she blew out the candle, and soon +everybody in the house was asleep. + +It was broad daylight when. Caravan opened his eyes again. His mind was +rather confused when he woke up, and he did not clearly remember what had +happened for a few minutes; when he did, he felt a weight at his heart, +and jumped out of bed, almost ready to cry again. + +He hastened to the room overhead, where Rosalie was still sleeping in the +same position as the night before, not having awakened once. He sent her +to do her work, put fresh tapers in the place of those that had burnt +out, and then he looked at his mother, revolving in his brain those +apparently profound thoughts, those religious and philosophical +commonplaces which trouble people of mediocre intelligence in the +presence of death. + +But, as his wife was calling him, he went downstairs. She had written +out a list of what had to be done during the morning, and he was +horrified when be saw the memorandum: + +1. Report the death at the mayor's office. +2. See the doctor who had attended her. +3. Order the coffin. +4. Give notice at the church. +5. Go to the undertaker. +6. Order the notices of her death at the printer's. +7. Go to the lawyer. +8. Telegraph the news to all the family. + +Besides all this, there were a number of small commissions; so he took +his hat and went out. As the news had spread abroad, Madame Caravan's +female friends and neighbors soon began to come in and begged to be +allowed to see the body. There had been a scene between husband and wife +at the hairdresser's on the ground floor about the matter, while a +customer was being shaved. The wife, who was knitting steadily, said: +"Well, there is one less, and as great a miser as one ever meets with. +I certainly did not care for her; but, nevertheless, I must go and have a +look at her." + +The husband, while lathering his patient's chin, said: "That is another +queer fancy! Nobody but a woman would think of such a thing. It is not +enough for them to worry you during life, but they cannot even leave you +at peace when you are dead:" But his wife, without being in the least +disconcerted, replied: "The feeling is stronger than I am, and I must go. +It has been on me since the morning. If I were not to see her, I should +think about it all my life; but when I have had a good look at her, I +shall be satisfied." + +The knight of the razor shrugged his shoulders and remarked in a low +voice to the gentleman whose cheek he was scraping: "I just ask you, what +sort of ideas do you think these confounded females have? I should not +amuse myself by going to see a corpse!" But his wife had heard him and +replied very quietly: "But it is so, it is so." And then, putting her +knitting on the counter, she went upstairs to the first floor, where she +met two other neighbors, who had just come, and who were discussing the +event with Madame Caravan, who was giving them the details, and they all +went together to the death chamber. The four women went in softly, and, +one after the other, sprinkled the bed clothes with the salt water, knelt +down, made the sign of the cross while they mumbled a prayer. Then they +rose from their knees and looked for some time at the corpse with round, +wide-open eyes and mouths partly open, while the daughter-in-law of the +dead woman, with her handkerchief to her face, pretended to be sobbing +piteously. + +When she turned about to walk away whom should she perceive standing +close to the door but Marie-Louise and Philippe-Auguste, who were +curiously taking stock of all that was going on. Then, forgetting her +pretended grief, she threw herself upon them with uplifted hands, crying +out in a furious voice, "Will you get out of this, you horrid brats!" + +Ten minutes later, going upstairs again with another contingent of +neighbors, she prayed, wept profusely, performed all her duties, and +found once more her two children, who had followed her upstairs. She +again boxed their ears soundly, but the next time she paid no heed to +them, and at each fresh arrival of visitors the two urchins always +followed in the wake, kneeling down in a corner and imitating slavishly +everything they saw their mother do. + +When the afternoon came the crowds of inquisitive people began to +diminish, and soon there were no more visitors. Madame Caravan, +returning to her own apartments, began to make the necessary preparations +for the funeral ceremony, and the deceased was left alone. + +The window of the room was open. A torrid heat entered, along with +clouds of dust; the flames of the four candles were flickering beside the +immobile corpse, and upon the cloth which covered the face, the closed +eyes, the two stretched-out hands, small flies alighted, came, went and +careered up and down incessantly, being the only companions of the old +woman for the time being. + +Marie-Louise and Philippe-Auguste, however, had now left the house and +were running up and down the street. They were soon surrounded by their +playmates, by little girls especially, who were older and who were much +more interested in all the mysteries of life, asking questions as if they +were grown people. + +"Then your grandmother is dead?" "Yes, she died yesterday evening." +"What does a dead person look like?" + +Then Marie began to explain, telling all about the candles, the sprig of +box and the face of the corpse. It was not long before great curiosity +was aroused in the minds of all the children, and they asked to be +allowed to go upstairs to look at the departed. + +Marie-Louise at once organized a first expedition, consisting of five +girls and two boys--the biggest and the most courageous. She made them +take off their shoes so that they might not be discovered. The troupe +filed into the house and mounted the stairs as stealthily as an army of +mice. + +Once in the chamber, the little girl, imitating her mother, regulated the +ceremony. She solemnly walked in advance of her comrades, went down on +her knees, made the sign of the cross, moved her lips as in prayer, rose, +sprinkled the bed, and while the children, all crowded together, were +approaching--frightened and curious and eager to look at the face and +hands of the deceased--she began suddenly to simulate sobbing and to bury +her eyes in her little handkerchief. Then, becoming instantly consoled, +on thinking of the other children who were downstairs waiting at the +door, she ran downstairs followed by the rest, returning in a minute with +another group, then a third; for all the little ragamuffins of the +countryside, even to the little beggars in rags, had congregated in order +to participate in this new pleasure; and each time she repeated her +mother's grimaces with absolute perfection. + +At length, however, she became tired. Some game or other drew the +children away from the house, and the old grandmother was left alone, +forgotten suddenly by everybody. + +The room was growing dark, and upon the dry and rigid features of the +corpse the fitful flames of the candles cast patches of light. + +Towards 8 o'clock Caravan ascended to the chamber of death, closed the +windows and renewed the candles. He was now quite composed on entering +the room, accustomed already to regard the corpse as though it had been +there for months. He even went the length of declaring that, as yet, +there were no signs of decomposition, making this remark just at the +moment when he and his wife were about to sit down at table. "Pshaw!" +she responded, "she is now stark and stiff; she will keep for a year." + +The soup was eaten in silence. The children, who had been left to +themselves all day, now worn out by fatigue, were sleeping soundly on +their chairs, and nobody ventured to break the silence. + +Suddenly the flame of the lamp went down. Madame Caravan immediately +turned up the wick, a hollow sound ensued, and the light went out. They +had forgotten to buy oil. To send for it now to the grocer's would keep +back the dinner, and they began to look for candles, but none were to be +found except the tapers which had been placed upon the table upstairs in +the death chamber. + +Madame Caravan, always prompt in her decisions, quickly despatched Marie- +Louise to fetch two, and her return was awaited in total darkness. + +The footsteps of the girl who had ascended the stairs were distinctly +heard. There was silence for a few seconds and then the child descended +precipitately. She threw open the door and in a choking voice murmured: +"Oh! papa, grandmamma is dressing herself!" + +Caravan bounded to his feet with such precipitance that his chair fell +over against the wall. He stammered out: "You say? . . . . What are you +saying?" + +But Marie-Louise, gasping with emotion, repeated: "Grand--grand-- +grandmamma is putting on her clothes, she is coming downstairs." + +Caravan rushed boldly up the staircase, followed by his wife, dumfounded; +but he came to a standstill before the door of the second floor, overcome +with terror, not daring to enter. What was he going to see? Madame +Caravan, more courageous, turned the handle of the door and stepped +forward into the room. + +The old woman was standing up. In awakening from her lethargic sleep, +before even regaining full consciousness, in turning upon her side and +raising herself on her elbow, she had extinguished three of the candles +which burned near the bed. Then, gaining strength, she got off the bed +and began to look for her clothes. The absence of her chest of drawers +had at first worried her, but, after a little, she had succeeded in +finding her things at the bottom of the wooden box, and was now quietly +dressing. She emptied the plateful of water, replaced the sprig of box +behind the looking-glass, and arranged the chairs in their places, and +was ready to go downstairs when there appeared before her her son and +daughter-in-law. + +Caravan rushed forward, seized her by the hands, embraced her with tears +in his eyes, while his wife, who was behind him, repeated in a +hypocritical tone of voice: "Oh, what a blessing! oh, what a blessing!" + +But the old woman, without being at all moved, without even appearing to +understand, rigid as a statue, and with glazed eyes, simply asked: "Will +dinner soon be ready?" + +He stammered out, not knowing what he said: + +"Oh, yes, mother, we have been waiting for you." + +And with an alacrity unusual in him, he took her arm, while Madame +Caravan, the younger, seized the candle and lighted them downstairs, +walking backwards in front of them, step by step, just as she had done +the previous night for her husband, who was carrying the marble. + +On reaching the first floor, she almost ran against people who were +ascending the stairs. It was the Charenton family, Madame Braux, +followed by her husband. + +The wife, tall and stout, with a prominent stomach, opened wide her +terrified eyes and was ready to make her escape. The husband, a +socialist shoemaker, a little hairy man, the perfect image of a monkey, +murmured quite unconcerned: "Well, what next? Is she resurrected?" + +As soon as Madame Caravan recognized them, she made frantic gestures to +them; then, speaking aloud, she said: "Why, here you are! What a +pleasant surprise!" + +But Madame Braux, dumfounded, understood nothing. She responded in a low +voice: "It was your telegram that brought us; we thought that all was +over." + +Her husband, who was behind her, pinched her to make her keep silent. +He added with a sly laugh, which his thick beard concealed: "It was very +kind of you to invite us here. We set out post haste," which remark +showed the hostility which had for a long time reigned between the +households. Then, just as the old woman reached the last steps, he +pushed forward quickly and rubbed his hairy face against her cheeks, +shouting in her ear, on account of her deafness: "How well you look, +mother; sturdy as usual, hey!" + +Madame Braux, in her stupefaction at seeing the old woman alive, whom +they all believed to be dead, dared not even embrace her; and her +enormous bulk blocked up the passageway and hindered the others from +advancing. The old woman, uneasy and suspicious, but without speaking, +looked at everyone around her; and her little gray eyes, piercing and +hard, fixed themselves now on one and now on the other, and they were so +full of meaning that the children became frightened. + +Caravan, to explain matters, said: "She has been somewhat ill, but she is +better now; quite well, indeed, are you not, mother?" + +Then the good woman, continuing to walk, replied in a husky voice, as +though it came from a distance: "It was syncope. I heard you all the +while." + +An embarrassing silence followed. They entered the dining-room, and in a +few minutes all sat down to an improvised dinner. + +Only M. Braux had retained his self-possession. His gorilla features +grinned wickedly, while he let fall some words of double meaning which +painfully disconcerted everyone. + +But the door bell kept ringing every second, and Rosalie, distracted, +came to call Caravan, who rushed out, throwing down his napkin. His +brother-in-law even asked him whether it was not one of his reception +days, to which he stammered out in answer: "No, only a few packages; +nothing more." + +A parcel was brought in, which he began to open carelessly, and the +mourning announcements with black borders appeared unexpectedly. +Reddening up to the very eyes, he closed the package hurriedly and pushed +it under his waistcoat. + +His mother had not seen it! She was looking intently at her clock which +stood on the mantelpiece, and the embarrassment increased in midst of a +dead silence. Turning her wrinkled face towards her daughter, the old +woman, in whose eyes gleamed malice, said: "On Monday you must take me +away from here, so that I can see your little girl. I want so much to +see her." Madame Braux, her features all beaming, exclaimed: "Yes, +mother, that I will," while Madame Caravan, the younger, who had turned +pale, was ready to faint with annoyance. The two men, however, gradually +drifted into conversation and soon became embroiled in a political +discussion. Braux maintained the most revolutionary and communistic +doctrines, his eyes glowing, and gesticulating and throwing about his +arms. "Property, sir," he said, "is a robbery perpetrated on the working +classes; the land is the common property of every man; hereditary rights +are an infamy and a disgrace." But here he suddenly stopped, looking as +if he had just said something foolish, then added in softer tones: "But +this is not the proper moment to discuss such things." + +The door was opened and Dr. Chenet appeared. For a moment he seemed +bewildered, but regaining his usual smirking expression of countenance, +he jauntily approached the old woman and said: "Aha! mamma; you are +better to-day. Oh! I never had any doubt but you would come round again; +in fact, I said to myself as I was mounting the staircase, 'I have an +idea that I shall find the old lady on her feet once more';" and as he +patted her gently on the back: "Ah! she is as solid as the Pont-Neuf, +she will bury us all; see if she does not." + +He sat down, accepted the coffee that was offered him, and soon began to +join in the conversation of the two men, backing up Braux, for he himself +had been mixed up in the Commune. + +The old woman, now feeling herself fatigued, wished to retire. Caravan +rushed forward. She looked him steadily in the eye and said: "You, you +must carry my clock and chest of drawers upstairs again without a +moment's delay." "Yes, mamma," he replied, gasping; "yes, I will do so." +The old woman then took the arm of her daughter and withdrew from the +room. The two Caravans remained astounded, silent, plunged in the +deepest despair, while Braux rubbed his hands and sipped his coffee +gleefully. + +Suddenly Madame Caravan, consumed with rage, rushed at him, exclaiming: +"You are a thief, a footpad, a cur! I would spit in your face! I--I-- +would----" She could find nothing further to say, suffocating as she was +with rage, while he went on sipping his coffee with a smile. + +His wife returning just then, Madame Caravan attacked her sister-in-law, +and the two women--the one with her enormous bulk, the other epileptic +and spare, with changed voices and trembling hands flew at one another +with words of abuse. + +Chenet and Braux now interposed, and the latter, taking his better half +by the shoulders, pushed her out of the door before him, shouting: "Go +on, you slut; you talk too much"; and the two were heard in the street +quarrelling until they disappeared from sight. + +M. Chenet also took his departure, leaving the Caravans alone, face to +face. The husband fell back on his chair, and with the cold sweat +standing out in beads on his temples, murmured: "What shall I say to my +chief to-morrow?" + + + + + + +BESIDE SCHOPENHAUER'S CORPSE + +He was slowly dying, as consumptives die. I saw him each day, about two +o'clock, sitting beneath the hotel windows on a bench in the promenade, +looking out on the calm sea. He remained for some time without moving, +in the heat of the sun, gazing mournfully at the Mediterranean. Every +now and then, he cast a glance at the lofty mountains with beclouded +summits that shut in Mentone; then, with a very slow movement, he would +cross his long legs, so thin that they seemed like two bones, around +which fluttered the cloth of his trousers, and he would open a book, +always the same book. And then he did not stir any more, but read on, +read on with his eye and his mind; all his wasting body seemed to read, +all his soul plunged, lost, disappeared, in this book, up to the hour +when the cool air made him cough a little. Then, he got up and reentered +the hotel. + +He was a tall German, with fair beard, who breakfasted and dined in his +own room, and spoke to nobody. + +A vague, curiosity attracted me to him. One day, I sat down by his side, +having taken up a book, too, to keep up appearances, a volume of Musset's +poems. + +And I began to look through "Rolla." + +Suddenly, my neighbor said to me, in good French: + +"Do you know German, monsieur?" + +"Not at all, monsieur." + +"I am sorry for that. Since chance has thrown us side by side, I could +have lent you, I could have shown you, an inestimable thing--this book +which I hold in my hand." + +"What is it, pray?" + +"It is a copy of my master, Schopenhauer, annotated with his own hand. +All the margins, as you may see, are covered with his handwriting." + +I took the book from him reverently, and I gazed at these forms +incomprehensible to me, but which revealed the immortal thoughts of the +greatest shatterer of dreams who had ever dwelt on earth. + +And Musset's verses arose in my memory: + + "Hast thou found out, Voltaire, that it is bliss to die, + And does thy hideous smile over thy bleached bones fly?" + +And involuntarily I compared the childish sarcasm, the religious sarcasm +of Voltaire with the irresistible irony of the German philosopher whose +influence is henceforth ineffaceable. + +Let us protest and let us be angry, let us be indignant, or let us be +enthusiastic, Schopenhauer has marked humanity with the seal of his +disdain and of his disenchantment. + +A disabused pleasure-seeker, he overthrew beliefs, hopes, poetic ideals +and chimeras, destroyed the aspirations, ravaged the confidence of souls, +killed love, dragged down the chivalrous worship of women, crushed the +illusions of hearts, and accomplished the most gigantic task ever +attempted by scepticism. He spared nothing with his mocking spirit, and +exhausted everything. And even to-day those who execrate him seem to +carry in their own souls particles of his thought. + +"So, then, you were intimately acquainted with Schopenhauer?" I said to +the German. + +He smiled sadly. + +"Up to the time of his death, monsieur." + +And he spoke to me about the philosopher and told me about the almost +supernatural impression which this strange being made on all who came +near him. + +He gave me an account of the interview of the old iconoclast with a +French politician, a doctrinaire Republican, who wanted to get a glimpse +of this man, and found him in a noisy tavern, seated in the midst of his +disciples, dry, wrinkled, laughing with an unforgettable laugh, attacking +and tearing to pieces ideas and beliefs with a single word, as a dog +tears with one bite of his teeth the tissues with which he plays. + +He repeated for me the comment of this Frenchman as he went away, +astonished and terrified: "I thought I had spent an hour with the devil." + +Then he added: + +"He had, indeed, monsieur, a frightful smile, which terrified us even +after his death. I can tell you an anecdote about it that is not +generally known, if it would interest you." + +And he began, in a languid voice, interrupted by frequent fits of +coughing. + +"Schopenhauer had just died, and it was arranged that we should watch, in +turn, two by two, till morning. + +"He was lying in a large apartment, very simple, vast and gloomy. Two +wax candles were burning on the stand by the bedside. + +"It was midnight when I went on watch, together with one of our comrades. +The two friends whom we replaced had left the apartment, and we came and +sat down at the foot of the bed. + +"The face was not changed. It was laughing. That pucker which we knew +so well lingered still around the corners of the lips, and it seemed to +us that he was about to open his eyes, to move and to speak. His +thought, or rather his thoughts, enveloped us. We felt ourselves more +than ever in the atmosphere of his genius, absorbed, possessed by him. +His domination seemed to be even more sovereign now that he was dead. +A feeling of mystery was blended with the power of this incomparable +spirit. + +"The bodies of these men disappear, but they themselves remain; and in +the night which follows the cessation of their heart's pulsation I assure +you, monsieur, they are terrifying. + +"And in hushed tones we talked about him, recalling to mind certain +sayings, certain formulas of his, those startling maxims which are like +jets of flame flung, in a few words, into the darkness of the Unknown +Life. + +"'It seems to me that he is going to speak,' said my comrade. And we +stared with uneasiness bordering on fear at the motionless face, with its +eternal laugh. Gradually, we began to feel ill at ease, oppressed, on +the point of fainting. I faltered: + +"'I don't know what is the matter with me, but, I assure you I am not +well.' + +"And at that moment we noticed that there was an unpleasant odor from the +corpse. + +"Then, my comrade suggested that we should go into the adjoining room, +and leave the door open; and I assented to his proposal. + +"I took one of the wax candles which burned on the stand, and I left the +second behind. Then we went and sat down at the other end of the +adjoining apartment, in such a position that we could see the bed and the +corpse, clearly revealed by the light. + +"But he still held possession of us. One would have said that his +immaterial essence, liberated, free, all-powerful and dominating, was +flitting around us. And sometimes, too, the dreadful odor of the +decomposed body came toward us and penetrated us, sickening and +indefinable. + +"Suddenly a shiver passed through our bones: a sound, a slight sound, +came from the death-chamber. Immediately we fixed our glances on him, +and we saw, yes, monsieur, we saw distinctly, both of us, something white +pass across the bed, fall on the carpet, and vanish under an armchair. + +"We were on our feet before we had time to think of anything, distracted +by stupefying terror, ready to run away. Then we stared at each other. +We were horribly pale. Our hearts throbbed fiercely enough to have +raised the clothing on our chests. I was the first to speak: + +"'Did you see?' + +"'Yes, I saw.' + +"'Can it be that he is not dead?' + +"'Why, when the body is putrefying?' + +"'What are we to do?' + +"My companion said in a hesitating tone: + +"'We must go and look.' + +"I took our wax candle and entered first, glancing into all the dark +corners in the large apartment. Nothing was moving now, and I approached +the bed. But I stood transfixed with stupor and fright: + +Schopenhauer was no longer laughing! He was grinning in a horrible +fashion, with his lips pressed together and deep hollows in his cheeks. +I stammered out: + +"'He is not dead!' + +"But the terrible odor ascended to my nose and stifled me. And I no +longer moved, but kept staring fixedly at him, terrified as if in the +presence of an apparition. + +"Then my companion, having seized the other wax candle, bent forward. +Next, he touched my arm without uttering a word. I followed his glance, +and saw on the ground, under the armchair by the side of the bed, +standing out white on the dark carpet, and open as if to bite, +Schopenhauer's set of artificial teeth. + +"The work of decomposition, loosening the jaws, had made it jump out of +the mouth. + +"I was really frightened that day, monsieur." + +And as the sun was sinking toward the glittering sea, the consumptive +German rose from his seat, gave me a parting bow, and retired into the +hotel. + + + + + + + VOLUME III. + +MISS HARRIET +LITTLE LOUISE ROQUE +THE DONKEY +MOIRON +THE DISPENSER OF HOLY WATER +THE PARRICIDE +BERTHA +THE PATRON +THE DOOR +A SALE +THE IMPOLITE SEX +A WEDDING GIFT +THE RELIC + + + + + + +MISS HARRIET + +There were seven of us on a drag, four women and three men; one of the +latter sat on the box seat beside the coachman. We were ascending, at a +snail's pace, the winding road up the steep cliff along the coast. + +Setting out from Etretat at break of day in order to visit the ruins of +Tancarville, we were still half asleep, benumbed by the fresh air of the +morning. The women especially, who were little accustomed to these early +excursions, half opened and closed their eyes every moment, nodding their +heads or yawning, quite insensible to the beauties of the dawn. + +It was autumn. On both sides of the road stretched the bare fields, +yellowed by the stubble of wheat and oats which covered the soil like a +beard that had been badly shaved. The moist earth seemed to steam. +Larks were singing high up in the air, while other birds piped in the +bushes. + +The sun rose at length in front of us, bright red on the plane of the +horizon, and in proportion as it ascended, growing clearer from minute to +minute, the country seemed to awake, to smile, to shake itself like a +young girl leaving her bed in her white robe of vapor. The Comte +d'Etraille, who was seated on the box, cried: + +"Look! look! a hare!" and he extended his arm toward the left, pointing +to a patch of clover. The animal scurried along, almost hidden by the +clover, only its large ears showing. Then it swerved across a furrow, +stopped, started off again at full speed, changed its course, stopped +anew, uneasy, spying out every danger, uncertain what route to take, when +suddenly it began to run with great bounds, disappearing finally in a +large patch of beet-root. All the men had waked up to watch the course +of the animal. + +Rene Lamanoir exclaimed: + +"We are not at all gallant this morning," and; regarding his neighbor, +the little Baroness de Serennes, who struggled against sleep, he said to +her in a low tone: "You are thinking of your husband, baroness. Reassure +yourself; he will not return before Saturday, so you have still four +days." + +She answered with a sleepy smile: + +"How stupid you are!" Then, shaking off her torpor, she added: "Now, let +somebody say something to make us laugh. You, Monsieur Chenal, who have +the reputation of having had more love affairs than the Due de Richelieu, +tell us a love story in which you have played a part; anything you like." + +Leon Chenal, an old painter, who had once been very handsome, very +strong, very proud of his physique and very popular with women, took his +long white beard in his hand and smiled. Then, after a few moments' +reflection, he suddenly became serious. + +"Ladies, it will not be an amusing tale, for I am going to relate to you +the saddest love affair of my life, and I sincerely hope that none of my +friends may ever pass through a similar experience. + +"I was twenty-five years of age and was pillaging along the coast of +Normandy. I call 'pillaging' wandering about, with a knapsack on one's +back, from inn to inn, under the pretext of making studies and sketching +landscapes. I knew nothing more enjoyable than that happy-go-lucky +wandering life, in which one is perfectly free, without shackles of any +kind, without care, without preoccupation, without thinking even of the +morrow. One goes in any direction one pleases, without any guide save +his fancy, without any counsellor save his eyes. One stops because a +running brook attracts one, because the smell of potatoes frying tickles +one's olfactories on passing an inn. Sometimes it is the perfume of +clematis which decides one in his choice or the roguish glance of the +servant at an inn. Do not despise me for my affection for these rustics. +These girls have a soul as well as senses, not to mention firm cheeks and +fresh lips; while their hearty and willing kisses have the flavor of wild +fruit. Love is always love, come whence it may. A heart that beats at +your approach, an eye that weeps when you go away are things so rare, so +sweet, so precious that they must never be despised. + +"I have had rendezvous in ditches full of primroses, behind the cow +stable and in barns among the straw, still warm from the heat of the day. +I have recollections of coarse gray cloth covering supple peasant skin +and regrets for simple, frank kisses, more delicate in their unaffected +sincerity than the subtle favors of charming and distinguished women. + +"But what one loves most amid all these varied adventures is the country, +the woods, the rising of the sun, the twilight, the moonlight. These +are, for the painter, honeymoon trips with Nature. One is alone with her +in that long and quiet association. You go to sleep in the fields, amid +marguerites and poppies, and when you open your eyes in the full glare of +the sunlight you descry in the distance the little village with its +pointed clock tower which sounds the hour of noon. + +"You sit down by the side of a spring which gushes out at the foot of an +oak, amid a growth of tall, slender weeds, glistening with life. You go +down on your knees, bend forward and drink that cold, pellucid water +which wets your mustache and nose; you drink it with a physical pleasure, +as though you kissed the spring, lip to lip. Sometimes, when you find a +deep hole along the course of these tiny brooks, you plunge in quite +naked, and you feel on your skin, from head to foot, as it were, an icy +and delicious caress, the light and gentle quivering of the stream. + +"You are gay on the hills, melancholy on the edge of ponds, inspired when +the sun is setting in an ocean of blood-red clouds and casts red +reflections or the river. And at night, under the moon, which passes +across the vault of heaven, you think of a thousand strange things which +would never have occurred to your mind under the brilliant light of day. + +"So, in wandering through the same country where we, are this year, I +came to the little village of Benouville, on the cliff between Yport and +Etretat. I came from Fecamp, following the coast, a high coast as +straight as a wall, with its projecting chalk cliffs descending +perpendicularly into the sea. I had walked since early morning on the +short grass, smooth and yielding as a carpet, that grows on the edge of +the cliff. And, singing lustily, I walked with long strides, looking +sometimes at the slow circling flight of a gull with its white curved +wings outlined on the blue sky, sometimes at the brown sails of a fishing +bark on the green sea. In short, I had passed a happy day, a day of +liberty and of freedom from care. + +"A little farmhouse where travellers were lodged was pointed out to me, +a kind of inn, kept by a peasant woman, which stood in the centre of a +Norman courtyard surrounded by a double row of beeches. + +"Leaving the coast, I reached the hamlet, which was hemmed in by great +trees, and I presented myself at the house of Mother Lecacheur. + +"She was an old, wrinkled and stern peasant woman, who seemed always to +receive customers under protest, with a kind of defiance. + +"It was the month of May. The spreading apple trees covered the court +with a shower of blossoms which rained unceasingly both upon people and +upon the grass. + +"I said: 'Well, Madame Lecacheur, have you a room for me?' + +"Astonished to find that I knew her name, she answered: + +"'That depends; everything is let, but all the same I can find out." + +"In five minutes we had come to an agreement, and I deposited my bag upon +the earthen floor of a rustic room, furnished with a bed, two chairs, a +table and a washbowl. The room looked into the large, smoky kitchen, +where the lodgers took their meals with the people of the farm and the +landlady, who was a widow. + +"I washed my hands, after which I went out. The old woman was making a +chicken fricassee for dinner in the large fireplace in which hung the +iron pot, black with smoke. + +"'You have travellers, then, at the present time?' said I to her. + +"She answered in an offended tone of voice: + +"'I have a lady, an English lady, who has reached years of maturity. She +occupies the other room.' + +"I obtained, by means of an extra five sous a day, the privilege of +dining alone out in the yard when the weather was fine. + +"My place was set outside the door, and I was beginning to gnaw the lean +limbs of the Normandy chicken, to drink the clear cider and to munch the +hunk of white bread, which was four days old but excellent. + +"Suddenly the wooden gate which gave on the highway was opened, and a +strange lady directed her steps toward the house. She was very thin, +very tall, so tightly enveloped in a red Scotch plaid shawl that one +might have supposed she had no arms, if one had not seen a long hand +appear just above the hips, holding a white tourist umbrella. Her face +was like that of a mummy, surrounded with curls of gray hair, which +tossed about at every step she took and made me think, I know not why, of +a pickled herring in curl papers. Lowering her eyes, she passed quickly +in front of me and entered the house. + +"That singular apparition cheered me. She undoubtedly was my neighbor, +the English lady of mature age of whom our hostess had spoken. + +"I did not see her again that day. The next day, when I had settled +myself to commence painting at the end of that beautiful valley which you +know and which extends as far as Etretat, I perceived, on lifting my eyes +suddenly, something singular standing on the crest of the cliff, one +might have said a pole decked out with flags. It was she. On seeing me, +she suddenly disappeared. I reentered the house at midday for lunch and +took my seat at the general table, so as to make the acquaintance of this +odd character. But she did not respond to my polite advances, was +insensible even to my little attentions. I poured out water for her +persistently, I passed her the dishes with great eagerness. A slight, +almost imperceptible, movement of the head and an English word, murmured +so low that I did not understand it, were her only acknowledgments. + +"I ceased occupying myself with her, although she had disturbed my +thoughts. + +"At the end of three days I knew as much about her as did Madame +Lecacheur herself. + +"She was called Miss Harriet. Seeking out a secluded village in which to +pass the summer, she had been attracted to Benouville some six months +before and did not seem disposed to leave it. She never spoke at table, +ate rapidly, reading all the while a small book of the Protestant +propaganda. She gave a copy of it to everybody. The cure himself had +received no less than four copies, conveyed by an urchin to whom she had +paid two sous commission. She said sometimes to our hostess abruptly, +without preparing her in the least for the declaration: + +"'I love the Saviour more than all. I admire him in all creation; +I adore him in all nature; I carry him always in my heart.' + +"And she would immediately present the old woman with one of her tracts +which were destined to convert the universe. + +"In, the village she was not liked. In fact, the schoolmaster having +pronounced her an atheist, a kind of stigma attached to her. The cure, +who had been consulted by Madame Lecacheur, responded: + +"'She is a heretic, but God does not wish the death of the sinner, and I +believe her to be a person of pure morals.' + +"These words, 'atheist,' 'heretic,' words which no one can precisely +define, threw doubts into some minds. It was asserted, however, that +this English woman was rich and that she had passed her life in +travelling through every country in the world because her family had cast +her off. Why had her family cast her off? Because of her impiety, of +course! + +"She was, in fact, one of those people of exalted principles; one of +those opinionated puritans, of which England produces so many; one of +those good and insupportable old maids who haunt the tables d'hote of +every hotel in Europe, who spoil Italy, poison Switzerland, render the +charming cities of the Mediterranean uninhabitable, carry everywhere +their fantastic manias their manners of petrified vestals, their +indescribable toilets and a certain odor of india-rubber which makes one +believe that at night they are slipped into a rubber casing. + +"Whenever I caught sight of one of these individuals in a hotel I fled +like the birds who see a scarecrow in a field. + +"This woman, however, appeared so very singular that she did not +displease me. + +"Madame Lecacheur, hostile by instinct to everything that was not rustic, +felt in her narrow soul a kind of hatred for the ecstatic declarations of +the old maid. She had found a phrase by which to describe her, a term of +contempt that rose to her lips, called forth by I know not what confused +and mysterious mental ratiocination. She said: 'That woman is a +demoniac.' This epithet, applied to that austere and sentimental +creature, seemed to me irresistibly droll. I myself never called her +anything now but 'the demoniac,' experiencing a singular pleasure in +pronouncing aloud this word on perceiving her. + +"One day I asked Mother Lecacheur : 'Well, what is our demoniac about to- +day?' + +"To which my rustic friend replied with a shocked air: + +"'What do you think, sir? She picked up a toad which had had its paw +crushed and carried it to her room and has put it in her washbasin and +bandaged it as if it were a man. If that is not profanation I should +like to know what is!' + +"On another occasion, when walking along the shore she bought a large +fish which had just been caught, simply to throw it back into the sea +again. The sailor from whom she had bought it, although she paid him +handsomely, now began to swear, more exasperated, indeed, than if she had +put her hand into his pocket and taken his money. For more than a month +he could not speak of the circumstance without becoming furious and +denouncing it as an outrage. Oh, yes! She was indeed a demoniac, this +Miss Harriet, and Mother Lecacheur must have had an inspiration in thus +christening her. + +"The stable boy, who was called Sapeur, because he had served in Africa +in his youth, entertained other opinions. He said with a roguish air: +'She is an old hag who has seen life.' + +"If the poor woman had but known! + +"The little kind-hearted Celeste did not wait upon her willingly, but I +was never able to understand why. Probably her only reason was that she +was a stranger, of another race; of a different tongue and of another +religion. She was, in fact, a demoniac! + +"She passed her time wandering about the country, adoring and seeking God +in nature. I found her one evening on her knees in a cluster of bushes. +Having discovered something red through the leaves, I brushed aside the +branches, and Miss Harriet at once rose to her feet, confused at having +been found thus, fixing on me terrified eyes like those of an owl +surprised in open day. + +"Sometimes, when I was working among the rocks, I would suddenly descry +her on the edge of the cliff like a lighthouse signal. She would be +gazing in rapture at the vast sea glittering in the sunlight and the +boundless sky with its golden tints. Sometimes I would distinguish her +at the end of the valley, walking quickly with her elastic English step, +and I would go toward her, attracted by I know not what, simply to see +her illuminated visage, her dried-up, ineffable features, which seemed to +glow with inward and profound happiness. + +"I would often encounter her also in the corner of a field, sitting on +the grass under the shadow of an apple tree, with her little religious +booklet lying open on her knee while she gazed out at the distance. + +"I could not tear myself away from that quiet country neighborhood, to +which I was attached by a thousand links of love for its wide and +peaceful landscape. I was happy in this sequestered farm, far removed +from everything, but in touch with the earth, the good, beautiful, green +earth. And--must I avow it?--there was, besides, a little curiosity +which retained me at the residence of Mother Lecacheur. I wished to +become acquainted a little with this strange Miss Harriet and to know +what transpires in the solitary souls of those wandering old English +women. + +"We became acquainted in a rather singular manner. I had just finished a +study which appeared to me to be worth something, and so it was, as it +sold for ten thousand francs fifteen years later. It was as simple, +however, as two and two make four and was not according to academic +rules. The whole right side of my canvas represented a rock, an enormous +rock, covered with sea-wrack, brown, yellow and red, across which the sun +poured like a stream of oil. The light fell upon the rock as though it +were aflame without the sun, which was at my back, being visible. That +was all. A first bewildering study of blazing, gorgeous light. + +"On the left was the sea, not the blue sea, the slate-colored sea, but a +sea of jade, greenish, milky and solid beneath the deep-colored sky. + +"I was so pleased with my work that I danced from sheer delight as I +carried it back to the inn. I would have liked the whole world to see it +at once. I can remember that I showed it to a cow that was browsing by +the wayside, exclaiming as I did so: 'Look at that, my old beauty; you +will not often see its like again.' + +"When I had reached the house I immediately called out to Mother +Lecacheur, shouting with all my might: + +"'Hullo, there! Mrs. Landlady, come here and look at this.' + +"The rustic approached and looked at my work with her stupid eyes which +distinguished nothing and could not even tell whether the picture +represented an ox or a house. + +"Miss Harriet just then came home, and she passed behind me just as I was +holding out my canvas at arm's length, exhibiting it to our landlady. +The demoniac could not help but see it, for I took care to exhibit the +thing in such a way that it could not escape her notice. She stopped +abruptly and stood motionless, astonished. It was her rock which was +depicted, the one which she climbed to dream away her time undisturbed. + +"She uttered a British 'Aoh,' which was at once so accentuated and so +flattering that I turned round to her, smiling, and said: + +"'This is my latest study, mademoiselle.' + +"She murmured rapturously, comically and tenderly: + +"'Oh! monsieur, you understand nature as a living thing.' + +"I colored and was more touched by that compliment than if it had come +from a queen. I was captured, conquered, vanquished. I could have +embraced her, upon my honor. + +"I took my seat at table beside her as usual. For the first time she +spoke, thinking aloud: + +"'Oh! I do love nature.' + +"I passed her some bread, some water, some wine. She now accepted these +with a little smile of a mummy. I then began to talk about the scenery. + +"After the meal we rose from the table together and walked leisurely +across the courtyard; then, attracted doubtless by the fiery glow which +the setting sun cast over the surface of the sea, I opened the gate which +led to the cliff, and we walked along side by side, as contented as two +persons might be who have just learned to understand and penetrate each +other's motives and feelings. + +"It was one of those warm, soft evenings which impart a sense of ease to +flesh and spirit alike. All is enjoyment, everything charms. The balmy +air, laden with the perfume of grasses and the smell of seaweed, soothes +the olfactory sense with its wild fragrance, soothes the palate with its +sea savor, soothes the mind with its pervading sweetness. + +"We were now walking along the edge of the cliff, high above the +boundless sea which rolled its little waves below us at a distance of a +hundred metres. And we drank in with open mouth and expanded chest that +fresh breeze, briny from kissing the waves, that came from the ocean and +passed across our faces. + +"Wrapped in her plaid shawl, with a look of inspiration as she faced the +breeze, the English woman gazed fixedly at the great sun ball as it +descended toward the horizon. Far off in the distance a three-master in +full sail was outlined on the blood-red sky and a steamship, somewhat +nearer, passed along, leaving behind it a trail of smoke on the horizon. +The red sun globe sank slowly lower and lower and presently touched the +water just behind the motionless vessel, which, in its dazzling +effulgence, looked as though framed in a flame of fire. We saw it +plunge, grow smaller and disappear, swallowed up by the ocean. + +"Miss Harriet gazed in rapture at the last gleams of the dying day. She +seemed longing to embrace the sky, the sea, the whole landscape. + +"She murmured: 'Aoh! I love--I love' I saw a tear in her eye. She +continued: 'I wish I were a little bird, so that I could mount up into +the firmament.' + +"She remained standing as I had often before seen her, perched on the +cliff, her face as red as her shawl. I should have liked to have +sketched her in my album. It would have been a caricature of ecstasy. + +"I turned away so as not to laugh. + +"I then spoke to her of painting as I would have done to a fellow artist, +using the technical terms common among the devotees of the profession. +She listened attentively, eagerly seeking to divine the meaning of the +terms, so as to understand my thoughts. From time to time she would +exclaim: + +'Oh! I understand, I understand. It is very interesting.' + +"We returned home. + +"The next day, on seeing me, she approached me, cordially holding out her +hand; and we at once became firm friends. + +"She was a good creature who had a kind of soul on springs, which became +enthusiastic at a bound. She lacked equilibrium like all women who are +spinsters at the age of fifty. She seemed to be preserved in a pickle of +innocence, but her heart still retained something very youthful and +inflammable. She loved both nature and animals with a fervor, a love +like old wine fermented through age, with a sensuous love that she had +never bestowed on men. + +"One thing is certain, that the sight of a bitch nursing her puppies, a +mare roaming in a meadow with a foal at its side, a bird's nest full of +young ones, screaming, with their open mouths and their enormous heads, +affected her perceptibly. + +"Poor, solitary, sad, wandering beings! I love you ever since I became +acquainted with Miss Harriet. + +"I soon discovered that she had something she would like to tell me, but +dare not, and I was amused at her timidity. When I started out in the +morning with my knapsack on my back, she would accompany me in silence as +far as the end of the village, evidently struggling to find words with +which to begin a conversation. Then she would leave me abruptly and walk +away quickly with her springy step. + +"One day, however, she plucked up courage: + +"I would like to see how you paint pictures. Are you willing? I have +been very curious.' + +"And she blushed as if she had said something very audacious. + +"I conducted her to the bottom of the Petit-Val, where I had begun a +large picture. + +"She remained standing behind me, following all my gestures with +concentrated attention. Then, suddenly, fearing perhaps that she was +disturbing me, she said: 'Thank you,' and walked away. + +"But she soon became more friendly, and accompanied me every day, her +countenance exhibiting visible pleasure. She carried her camp stool +under her arm, not permitting me to carry it. She would remain there for +hours, silent and motionless, following with her eyes the point of my +brush, in its every movement. When I obtained unexpectedly just the +effect I wanted by a dash of color put on with the palette knife, she +involuntarily uttered a little 'Ah!' of astonishment, of joy, of +admiration. She had the most tender respect for my canvases, an almost +religious respect for that human reproduction of a part of nature's work +divine. My studies appeared to her a kind of religious pictures, and +sometimes she spoke to me of God, with the idea of converting me. + +"Oh, he was a queer, good-natured being, this God of hers! He was a sort +of village philosopher without any great resources and without great +power, for she always figured him to herself as inconsolable over +injustices committed under his eyes, as though he were powerless to +prevent them. + +"She was, however, on excellent terms with him, affecting even to be the +confidante of his secrets and of his troubles. She would say: + +"'God wills' or 'God does not will,' just like a sergeant announcing to a +recruit: 'The colonel has commanded.' + +"At the bottom of her heart she deplored my ignorance of the intentions +of the Eternal, which she endeavored to impart to me. + +"Almost every day I found in my pockets, in my hat when I lifted it from +the ground, in my paintbox, in my polished shoes, standing in front of my +door in the morning, those little pious tracts which she no doubt, +received directly from Paradise. + +"I treated her as one would an old friend, with unaffected cordiality. +But I soon perceived that she had changed somewhat in her manner, though, +for a while, I paid little attention to it. + +"When I was painting, whether in my valley or in some country lane, I +would see her suddenly appear with her rapid, springy walk. She would +then sit down abruptly, out of breath, as though she had been running or +were overcome by some profound emotion. Her face would be red, that +English red which is denied to the people of all other countries; then, +without any reason, she would turn ashy pale and seem about to faint +away. Gradually, however, her natural color would return and she would +begin to speak. + +"Then, without warning, she would break off in the middle of a sentence, +spring up from her seat and walk away so rapidly and so strangely that I +was at my wits' ends to discover whether I had done or said anything to +displease or wound her. + +"I finally came to the conclusion that those were her normal manners, +somewhat modified no doubt in my honor during the first days of our +acquaintance. + +"When she returned to the farm, after walking for hours on the windy +coast, her long curls often hung straight down, as if their springs had +been broken. This had hitherto seldom given her any concern, and she +would come to dinner without embarrassment all dishevelled by her sister, +the breeze. + +But now she would go to her room and arrange the untidy locks, and when I +would say, with familiar gallantry, which, however, always offended her +"'You are as beautiful as a star to-day, Miss Harriet,' a blush would +immediately rise to her cheeks, the blush of a young girl, of a girl of +fifteen. + +"Then she would suddenly become quite reserved and cease coming to watch +me paint. I thought, 'This is only a fit of temper; it will blow over.' +But it did not always blow over, and when I spoke to her she would answer +me either with affected indifference or with sullen annoyance. + +"She became by turns rude, impatient and nervous. I never saw her now +except at meals, and we spoke but little. I concluded at length that I +must have offended her in some way, and, accordingly, I said to her one +evening: + +"'Miss Harriet, why is it that you do not act toward me as formerly? +What have I done to displease you? You are causing me much pain!' + +"She replied in a most comical tone of anger: + +"'I am just the same with you as formerly. It is not true, not true,' +and she ran upstairs and shut herself up in her room. + +"Occasionally she would look at me in a peculiar manner. I have often +said to myself since then that those who are condemned to death must look +thus when they are informed that their last day has come. In her eye +there lurked a species of insanity, an insanity at once mystical and +violent; and even more, a fever, an aggravated longing, impatient and +impotent, for the unattained and unattainable. + +"Nay, it seemed to me there was also going on within her a struggle in +which her heart wrestled with an unknown force that she sought to master, +and even, perhaps, something else. But what do I know? What do I know? + +"It was indeed a singular revelation. + +"For some time I had commenced to work, as soon as daylight appeared, on +a picture the subject of which was as follows: + +"A deep ravine, enclosed, surmounted by two thickets of trees and vines, +extended into the distance and was lost, submerged in that milky vapor, +in that cloud like cotton down that sometimes floats over valleys at +daybreak. And at the extreme end of that heavy, transparent fog one saw, +or, rather, surmised, that a couple of human beings were approaching, a +human couple, a youth and a maiden, their arms interlaced, embracing each +other, their heads inclined toward each other, their lips meeting. + +"A first ray of the sun, glistening through the branches, pierced that +fog of the dawn, illuminated it with a rosy reflection just behind the +rustic lovers, framing their vague shadows in a silvery background. It +was well done; yes, indeed, well done. + +"I was working on the declivity which led to the Valley of Etretat. On +this particular morning I had, by chance, the sort of floating vapor +which I needed. Suddenly something rose up in front of me like a +phantom; it was Miss Harriet. On seeing me she was about to flee. But I +called after her, saying: 'Come here, come here, mademoiselle. I have a +nice little picture for you.' + +"She came forward, though with seeming reluctance. I handed her my +sketch. She said nothing, but stood for a long time, motionless, looking +at it, and suddenly she burst into tears. She wept spasmodically, like +men who have striven hard to restrain their tears, but who can do so no +longer and abandon themselves to grief, though still resisting. I sprang +to my feet, moved at the sight of a sorrow I did not comprehend, and I +took her by the hand with an impulse of brusque affection, a true French +impulse which acts before it reflects. + +"She let her hands rest in mine for a few seconds, and I felt them quiver +as if all her nerves were being wrenched. Then she withdrew her hands +abruptly, or, rather, snatched them away. + +"I recognized that tremor, for I had felt it, and I could not be +deceived. Ah! the love tremor of a woman, whether she be fifteen or +fifty years of age, whether she be of the people or of society, goes so +straight to my heart that I never have any hesitation in understanding +it! + +"Her whole frail being had trembled, vibrated, been overcome. I knew it. +She walked away before I had time to say a word, leaving me as surprised +as if I had witnessed a miracle and as troubled as if I had committed a +crime. + +"I did not go in to breakfast. I went to take a turn on the edge of the +cliff, feeling that I would just as lief weep as laugh, looking on the +adventure as both comic and deplorable and my position as ridiculous, +believing her unhappy enough to go insane. + +"I asked myself what I ought to do. It seemed best for me to leave the +place, and I immediately resolved to do so. + +"Somewhat sad and perplexed, I wandered about until dinner time and +entered the farmhouse just when the soup had been served up. + +"I sat down at the table as usual. Miss Harriet was there, eating away +solemnly, without speaking to any one, without even lifting her eyes. +Her manner and expression were, however, the same as usual. + +"I waited patiently till the meal had been finished, when, turning toward +the landlady, I said: 'Well, Madame Lecacheur, it will not be long now +before I shall have to take my leave of you.' + +"The good woman, at once surprised and troubled, replied in her drawling +voice: 'My dear sir, what is it you say? You are going to leave us after +I have become so accustomed to you?' + +"I glanced at Miss Harriet out of the corner of my eye. Her countenance +did not change in the least. But Celeste, the little servant, looked up +at me. She was a fat girl, of about eighteen years of age, rosy, fresh, +as strong as a horse, and possessing the rare attribute of cleanliness. +I had kissed her at odd times in out-of-the-way corners, after the manner +of travellers--nothing more. + +"The dinner being at length over, I went to smoke my pipe under the apple +trees, walking up and down from one end of the enclosure to the other. +All the reflections which I had made during the day, the strange +discovery of the morning, that passionate and grotesque attachment for +me, the recollections which that revelation had suddenly called up, +recollections at once charming and perplexing, perhaps also that look +which the servant had cast on me at the announcement of my departure--all +these things, mixed up and combined, put me now in a reckless humor, gave +me a tickling sensation of kisses on the lips and in my veins a something +which urged me on to commit some folly. + +"Night was coming on, casting its dark shadows under the trees, when I +descried Celeste, who had gone to fasten up the poultry yard at the other +end of the enclosure. I darted toward her, running so noiselessly that +she heard nothing, and as she got up from closing the small trapdoor by +which the chickens got in and out, I clasped her in my arms and rained on +her coarse, fat face a shower of kisses. She struggled, laughing all the +time, as she was accustomed to do in such circumstances. Why did I +suddenly loose my grip of her? Why did I at once experience a shock? +What was it that I heard behind me? + +"It was Miss Harriet, who had come upon us, who had seen us and who stood +in front of us motionless as a spectre. Then she disappeared in the +darkness. + +"I was ashamed, embarrassed, more desperate at having been thus surprised +by her than if she had caught me committing some criminal act. + +"I slept badly that night. I was completely unnerved and haunted by sad +thoughts. I seemed to hear loud weeping, but in this I was no doubt +deceived. Moreover, I thought several times that I heard some one +walking up and down in the house and opening the hall door. + +"Toward morning I was overcome by fatigue and fell asleep. I got up late +and did not go downstairs until the late breakfast, being still in a +bewildered state, not knowing what kind of expression to put on. + +"No one had seen Miss Harriet. We waited for her at table, but she did +not appear. At length Mother Lecacheur went to her room. The English +woman had gone out. She must have set out at break of day, as she was +wont to do, in order to see the sun rise. + +"Nobody seemed surprised at this, and we began to eat in silence. + +"The weather was hot, very hot, one of those broiling, heavy days when +not a leaf stirs. The table had been placed out of doors, under an apple +tree, and from time to time Sapeur had gone to the cellar to draw a jug +of cider, everybody was so thirsty. Celeste brought the dishes from the +kitchen, a ragout of mutton with potatoes, a cold rabbit and a salad. +Afterward she placed before us a dish of strawberries, the first of the +season. + +"As I wished to wash and freshen these, I begged the servant to go and +draw me a pitcher of cold water. + +"In about five minutes she returned, declaring that the well was dry. +She had lowered the pitcher to the full extent of the cord and had +touched the bottom, but on drawing the pitcher up again it was empty. +Mother Lecacheur, anxious to examine the thing for herself, went and +looked down the hole. She returned, announcing that one could see +clearly something in the well, something altogether unusual. But this no +doubt was bundles of straw, which a neighbor had thrown in out of spite. + +"I wished to look down the well also, hoping I might be able to clear up +the mystery, and I perched myself close to the brink. I perceived +indistinctly a white object. What could it be? I then conceived the +idea of lowering a lantern at the end of a cord. When I did so the +yellow flame danced on the layers of stone and gradually became clearer. +All four of us were leaning over the opening, Sapeur and Celeste having +now joined us. The lantern rested on a black-and-white indistinct mass, +singular, incomprehensible. Sapeur exclaimed: + +"'It is a horse. I see the hoofs. It must have got out of the meadow +during the night and fallen in headlong.' + +"But suddenly a cold shiver froze me to the marrow. I first recognized a +foot, then a leg sticking up; the whole body and the other leg were +completely under water. + +"I stammered out in a loud voice, trembling so violently that the lantern +danced hither and thither over the slipper: + +"'It is a woman! Who-who-can it be? It is Miss Harriet!' + +"Sapeur alone did not manifest horror. He had witnessed many such scenes +in Africa. + +"Mother Lecacheur and Celeste began to utter piercing screams and ran +away. + +"But it was necessary to recover the corpse of the dead woman. I +attached the young man securely by the waist to the end of the pulley +rope and lowered him very slowly, watching him disappear in the darkness. +In one hand he held the lantern and a rope in the other. Soon I +recognized his voice, which seemed to come from the centre of the earth, +saying: + +'Stop!' + +"I then saw him fish something out of the water. It was the other leg. +He then bound the two feet together and shouted anew: + +"'Haul up!' + +"I began to wind up, but I felt my arms crack, my muscles twitch, and I +was in terror lest I should let the man fall to the bottom. When his +head appeared at the brink I asked: + +"'Well?' as if I expected he had a message from the drowned woman. + +"We both got on the stone slab at the edge of the well and from opposite +sides we began to haul up the body. + +"Mother Lecacheur and Celeste watched us from a distance, concealed from +view behind the wall of the house. When they saw issuing from the hole +the black slippers and white stockings of the drowned person they +disappeared. + +"Sapeur seized the ankles, and we drew up the body of the poor woman. +The head was shocking to look at, being bruised and lacerated, and the +long gray hair, out of curl forevermore, hanging down tangled and +disordered. + +"'In the name of all that is holy! how lean she is,' exclaimed Sapeur in +a contemptuous tone. + +"We carried her into the room, and as the women did not put in an +appearance I, with the assistance of the stable lad, dressed the corpse +for burial. + +"I washed her disfigured face. Under the touch of my finger an eye was +slightly opened and regarded me with that pale, cold look, that terrible +look of a corpse which seems to come from the beyond. I braided as well +as I could her dishevelled hair and with my clumsy hands arranged on her +head a novel and singular coiffure. Then I took off her dripping wet +garments, baring, not without a feeling of shame, as though I had been +guilty of some profanation, her shoulders and her chest and her long +arms, as slim as the twigs of a tree. + +"I next went to fetch some flowers, poppies, bluets, marguerites and +fresh, sweet-smelling grass with which to strew her funeral couch. + +"I then had to go through the usual formalities, as I was alone to attend +to everything. A letter found in her pocket, written at the last moment, +requested that her body be buried in the village in which she had passed +the last days of her life. A sad suspicion weighed on my heart. Was it +not on my account that she wished to be laid to rest in this place? + +"Toward evening all the female gossips of the locality came to view the +remains of the defunct, but I would not allow a single person to enter. +I wanted to be alone, and I watched beside her all night. + +"I looked at the corpse by the flickering light of the candles, at this +unhappy woman, unknown to us all, who had died in such a lamentable +manner and so far away from home. Had she left no friends, no relations +behind her? What had her infancy been? What had been her life? Whence +had she come thither alone, a wanderer, lost like a dog driven from home? +What secrets of sufferings and of despair were sealed up in that +unprepossessing body, in that poor body whose outward appearance had +driven from her all affection, all love? + +"How many unhappy beings there are! I felt that there weighed upon that +human creature the eternal injustice of implacable nature! It was all +over with her, without her ever having experienced, perhaps, that which +sustains the greatest outcasts to wit, the hope of being loved once! +Otherwise why should she thus have concealed herself, fled from the face +of others? Why did she love everything so tenderly and so passionately, +everything living that was not a man? + +"I recognized the fact that she believed in a God, and that she hoped to +receive compensation from the latter for all the miseries she had +endured. She would now disintegrate and become, in turn, a plant. She +would blossom in the sun, the cattle would browse on her leaves, the +birds would bear away the seeds, and through these changes she would +become again human flesh. But that which is called the soul had been +extinguished at the bottom of the dark well. She suffered no longer. +She had given her life for that of others yet to come. + +"Hours passed away in this silent and sinister communion with the dead. +A pale light at length announced the dawn of a new day; then a red ray +streamed in on the bed, making a bar of light across the coverlet and +across her hands. This was the hour she had so much loved. The awakened +birds began to sing in the trees. + +"I opened the window to its fullest extent and drew back the curtains +that the whole heavens might look in upon us, and, bending over the icy +corpse, I took in my hands the mutilated head and slowly, without terror +or disgust, I imprinted a kiss, a long kiss, upon those lips which had +never before been kissed." + +Leon Chenal remained silent. The women wept. We heard on the box seat +the Count d'Atraille blowing his nose from time to time. The coachman +alone had gone to sleep. The horses, who no longer felt the sting of the +whip, had slackened their pace and moved along slowly. The drag, hardly +advancing at all, seemed suddenly torpid, as if it had been freighted +with sorrow. + + [Miss Harriet appeared in Le Gaulois, July 9, 1883, under the title + of Miss Hastings. The story was later revised, enlarged; and partly + reconstructed. This is what De Maupassant wrote to Editor Havard + March 15, 1884, in an unedited letter, in regard to the title of the + story that was to give its name to the volume: + + "I do not believe that Hastings is a bad name, inasmuch as it is + known all over the world, and recalls the greatest facts in English + history. Besides, Hastings is as much a name as Duval is with us. + + "The name Cherbuliez selected, Miss Revel, is no more like an + English name than like a Turkish name. But here is another name as + English as Hastings, and more euphonious; it is Miss Harriet. + I will ask you therefore to substitute Harriet for Hastings." + + It was in regard to this very tittle that De Maupassant had a + disagreement with Audran and Boucheron director of the Bouffes + Parisiens in October, 1890 They had given this title to an operetta + about to be played at the Bouffes. It ended however, by their + ceding to De Maupassant, and the title of the operetta was changed + to Miss Helyett.] + + + + + + +LITTLE LOUISE ROQUE + +The former soldier, Mederic Rompel, familiarly called Mederic by the +country folks, left the post office of Roiiy-le-Tors at the usual hour. +After passing through the village with his long stride, he cut across the +meadows of Villaume and reached the bank of the Brindille, following the +path along the water's edge to the village of Carvelin, where he +commenced to deliver his letters. He walked quickly, following the +course of the narrow river, which frothed, murmured and boiled in its +grassy bed beneath an arch of willows. + +Mederic went on without stopping, with only this thought in his mind: "My +first letter is for the Poivron family, then I have one for Monsieur +Renardet; so I must cross the wood." + +His blue blouse, fastened round his waist by a black leather belt, moved +in a quick, regular fashion above the green hedge of willow trees, and +his stout stick of holly kept time with his steady tread. + +He crossed the Brindille on a bridge consisting of a tree trunk, with a +handrail of rope, fastened at either end to a stake driven into the +ground. + +The wood, which belonged to Monsieur Renardet, the mayor of Carvelin and +the largest landowner in the district, consisted of huge old trees, +straight as pillars and extending for about half a league along the left +bank of the stream which served as a boundary to this immense dome of +foliage. Alongside the water large shrubs had grown up in the sunlight, +but under the trees one found nothing but moss, thick, soft and yielding, +from which arose, in the still air, an odor of dampness and of dead wood. + +Mederic slackened his pace, took off his black cap adorned with red lace +and wiped his forehead, for it was by this time hot in the meadows, +though it was not yet eight o'clock in the morning. + +He had just recovered from the effects of the heat and resumed his quick +pace when he noticed at the foot of a tree a knife, a child's small +knife. When he picked it up he discovered a thimble and also a +needlecase not far away. + +Having taken up these objects, he thought: "I'll entrust them to the +mayor," and he resumed his journey, but now he kept his eyes open, +expecting to find something else. + +All of a sudden he stopped short, as if he had struck against a wooden +barrier. Ten paces in front of him lay stretched on her back on the moss +a little girl, perfectly nude, her face covered with a handkerchief. She +was about twelve years old. + +Meredic advanced on tiptoe, as if he apprehended some danger, and he +glanced toward the spot uneasily. + +What was this? No doubt she was asleep. Then he reflected that a person +does not go to sleep naked at half-past seven in the morning under the +cool trees. So, then, she must be dead, and he must be face to face with +a crime. At this thought a cold shiver ran through his frame, although +he was an old soldier. And then a murder was such a rare thing in the +country, and, above all, the murder of a child, that he could not believe +his eyes. But she had no wound-nothing save a spot of blood on her leg. +How, then, had she been killed? + +He stopped close to her and gazed at her, while he leaned on his stick. +Certainly he must know her, for he knew all the inhabitants of the +district; but, not being able to get a look at her face, he could not +guess her name. He stooped forward in order to take off the handkerchief +which covered her face, then paused, with outstretched hand, restrained +by an idea that occurred to him. + +Had he the right to disarrange anything in the condition of the corpse +before the official investigation? He pictured justice to himself as a +kind of general whom nothing escapes and who attaches as much importance +to a lost button as to the stab of a knife in the stomach. Perhaps under +this handkerchief evidence could be found to sustain a charge of murder; +in fact, if such proof were there it might lose its value if touched by +an awkward hand. + +Then he raised himself with the intention of hastening toward the mayor's +residence, but again another thought held him back. If the little girl +were still alive, by any chance, he could not leave her lying there in +this way. He sank on his knees very gently, a little distance from her, +through precaution, and extended his hand toward her foot. It was icy +cold, with the terrible coldness of death which leaves us no longer in +doubt. The letter carrier, as he touched her, felt his heart in his +mouth, as he said himself afterward, and his mouth parched. Rising up +abruptly, he rushed off under the trees toward Monsieur Renardet's house. + +He walked on faster than ever, with his stick under his arm, his hands +clenched and his head thrust forward, while his leathern bag, filled with +letters and newspapers, kept flapping at his side. + +The mayor's residence was at the end of the wood which served as a park, +and one side of it was washed by the Brindille. + +It was a big square house of gray stone, very old, and had stood many a +siege in former days, and at the end of it was a huge tower, twenty +metres high, rising out of the water. + +From the top of this fortress one could formerly see all the surrounding +country. It was called the Fox's tower, without any one knowing exactly +why; and from this appellation, no doubt, had come the name Renardet, +borne by the owners of this fief, which had remained in the same family, +it was said, for more than two hundred years. For the Renardets formed +part of the upper middle class, all but noble, to be met with so often in +the province before the Revolution. + +The postman dashed into the kitchen, where the servants were taking +breakfast, and exclaimed: + +"Is the mayor up? I want to speak to him at once." + +Mederic was recognized as a man of standing and authority, and they +understood that something serious had happened. + +As soon as word was brought to Monsieur Renardet, he ordered the postman +to be sent up to him. Pale and out of breath, with his cap in his hand, +Mederic found the mayor seated at a long table covered with scattered +papers. + +He was a large, tall man, heavy and red-faced, strong as an ox, and was +greatly liked in the district, although of an excessively violent +disposition. Almost forty years old and a widower for the past six +months, he lived on his estate like a country gentleman. His choleric +temperament had often brought him into trouble from which the magistrates +of Roiiy-le-Tors, like indulgent and prudent friends, had extricated him. +Had he not one day thrown the conductor of the diligence from the top of +his seat because he came near running over his retriever, Micmac? Had he +not broken the ribs of a gamekeeper who abused him for having, gun in +hand, passed through a neighbor's property? Had he not even caught by +the collar the sub-prefect, who stopped over in the village during an +administrative circuit, called by Monsieur Renardet an electioneering +circuit, for he was opposed to the government, in accordance with family +traditions. + +The mayor asked: + +"What's the matter now, Mederic?" + +"I found a little girl dead in your wood." + +Renardet rose to his feet, his face the color of brick. + +"What do you say--a little girl?" + +"Yes, m'sieu, a little girl, quite naked, on her back, with blood on her, +dead--quite dead!" + +The mayor gave vent to an oath: + +"By God, I'd make a bet it is little Louise Roque! I have just learned +that she did not go home to her mother last night. Where did you find +her?" + +The postman described the spot, gave full details and offered to conduct +the mayor to the place. + +But Renardet became brusque: + +"No, I don't need you. Send the watchman, the mayor's secretary and the +doctor to me at once, and resume your rounds. Quick, quick, go and tell +them to meet me in the wood." + +The letter carrier, a man used to discipline, obeyed and withdrew, angry +and grieved at not being able to be present at the investigation. + +The mayor, in his turn, prepared to go out, took his big soft hat and +paused for a few seconds on the threshold of his abode. In front of him +stretched a wide sward, in which were three large beds of flowers in full +bloom, one facing the house and the others at either side of it. Farther +on the outlying trees of the wood rose skyward, while at the left, beyond +the Brindille, which at that spot widened into a pond, could be seen long +meadows, an entirely green flat sweep of country, intersected by trenches +and hedges of pollard willows. + +To the right, behind the stables, the outhouses and all the buildings +connected with the property, might be seen the village, which was +wealthy, being mainly inhabited by cattle breeders. + +Renardet slowly descended the steps in front of his house, and, turning +to the left, gained the water's edge, which he followed at a slow pace, +his hand behind his back. He walked on, with bent head, and from time to +time glanced round in search of the persons he had sent for. + +When he stood beneath the trees he stopped, took off his hat and wiped +his forehead as Mederic had done, for the burning sun was darting its +fiery rays on the earth. Then the mayor resumed his journey, stopped +once more and retraced his steps. Suddenly, stooping down, he steeped +his handkerchief in the stream that glided along at his feet and spread +it over his head, under his hat. Drops of water flowed down his temples +over his ears, which were always purple, over his strong red neck, and +made their way, one after the other, under his white shirt collar. + +As nobody had appeared, he began tapping with his foot, then he called +out: + +"Hello! Hello!" + +A voice at his right answered: + +"Hello! Hello!" + +And the doctor appeared under the trees. He was a thin little man, an +ex-military surgeon, who passed in the neighborhood for a very skillful +practitioner. He limped, having been wounded while in the service, and +had to use a stick to assist him in walking. + +Next came the watchman and the mayor's secretary, who, having been sent +for at the same time, arrived together. They looked scared, and hurried +forward, out of breath, walking and running alternately to hasten their +progress, and moving their arms up and down so vigorously that they +seemed to do more work with them than with their legs. + +Renardet said to the doctor: + +"You know what the trouble is about?" + +"Yes, a child found dead in the wood by Mederic." + +"That's quite correct. Come on!" + +They walked along, side by side, followed by the two men. + +Their steps made no sound on the moss. Their eyes were gazing ahead in +front of them. + +Suddenly the doctor, extending his arm, said: + +"See, there she is!" + +Far ahead of them under the trees they saw something white on which the +sun gleamed down through the branches. As they approached they gradually +distinguished a human form lying there, its head toward the river, the +face covered and the arms extended as though on a crucifix. + +"I am fearfully warm," said the mayor, and stooping down, he again soaked +his handkerchief in the water and placed it round his forehead. + +The doctor hastened his steps, interested by the discovery. As soon as +they were near the corpse, he bent down to examine it without touching +it. He had put on his pince-nez, as one does in examining some curious +object, and turned round very quietly. + +He said, without rising: + +"Violated and murdered, as we shall prove presently. This little girl, +moreover, is almost a woman--look at her throat." + +The doctor lightly drew away the handkerchief which covered her face, +which looked black, frightful, the tongue protruding, the eyes bloodshot. +He went on: + +"By heavens! She was strangled the moment the deed was done." + +He felt her neck. + +"Strangled with the hands without leaving any special trace, neither the +mark of the nails nor the imprint of the fingers. Quite right. It is +little Louise Roque, sure enough!" + +He carefully replaced the handkerchief. + +"There's nothing for me to do. She's been dead for the last hour at +least. We must give notice of the matter to the authorities." + +Renardet, standing up, with his hands behind his back, kept staring with +a stony look at the little body exposed to view on the grass. He +murmured: + +"What a wretch! We must find the clothes." + +The doctor felt the hands, the arms, the legs. He said: + +"She had been bathing no doubt. They ought to be at the water's edge." + +The mayor thereupon gave directions: + +"Do you, Principe" (this was his secretary), "go and find those clothes +for me along the stream. You, Maxime" (this was the watchman), "hurry on +toward Rouy-le-Tors and bring with you the magistrate with the gendarmes. +They must be here within an hour. You understand?" + +The two men started at once, and Renardet said to the doctor: + +"What miscreant could have done such a deed in this part of the country?" + +The doctor murmured: + +"Who knows? Any one is capable of that. Every one in particular and +nobody in general. No matter, it must be some prowler, some workman out +of employment. Since we have become a Republic we meet only this kind of +person along the roads." + +Both of them were Bonapartists. + +The mayor went on: + +"Yes, it can only be a stranger, a passer-by, a vagabond without hearth +or home." + +The doctor added, with the shadow of a smile on his face: + +"And without a wife. Having neither a good supper nor a good bed, he +became reckless. You can't tell how many men there may be in the world +capable of a crime at a given moment. Did you know that this little girl +had disappeared?" + +And with the end of his stick he touched one after the other the +stiffened fingers of the corpse, resting on them as on the keys of a +piano. + +"Yes, the mother came last night to look for me about nine o'clock, the +child not having come home at seven to supper. We looked for her along +the roads up to midnight, but we did not think of the wood. However, we +needed daylight to carry out a thorough search." + +"Will you have a cigar?" said the doctor. + +"Thanks, I don't care to smoke. This thing affects me so." + +They remained standing beside the corpse of the young girl, so pale on +the dark moss. A big blue fly was walking over the body with his lively, +jerky movements. The two men kept watching this wandering speck. + +The doctor said: + +"How pretty it is, a fly on the skin! The ladies of the last century had +good reason to paste them on their faces. Why has this fashion gone +out?" + +The mayor seemed not to hear, plunged as he was in deep thought. + +But, all of a sudden, he turned round, surprised by a shrill noise. A +woman in a cap and blue apron was running toward them under the trees. +It was the mother, La Roque. As soon as she saw Renardet she began to +shriek: + +"My little girl! Where's my little girl?" so distractedly that she did +not glance down at the ground. Suddenly she saw the corpse, stopped +short, clasped her hands and raised both her arms while she uttered a +sharp, heartrending cry--the cry of a wounded animal. Then she rushed +toward the body, fell on her knees and snatched away the handkerchief +that covered the face. When she saw that frightful countenance, black +and distorted, she rose to her feet with a shudder, then sinking to the +ground, face downward, she pressed her face against the ground and +uttered frightful, continuous screams on the thick moss. + +Her tall, thin frame, with its close-clinging dress, was palpitating, +shaken with spasms. One could see her bony ankles and her dried-up +calves covered with coarse blue stockings shaking horribly. She was +digging the soil with her crooked fingers, as though she were trying to +make a hole in which to hide herself. + +The doctor, much affected, said in a low tone: + +"Poor old woman!" + +Renardet felt a strange sensation. Then he gave vent to a sort of loud +sneeze, and, drawing his handkerchief from his pocket, he began to weep +internally, coughing, sobbing and blowing his nose noisily. + +He stammered: + +"Damn--damn--damned pig to do this! I would like to seem him +guillotined." + +Principe reappeared with his hands empty. He murmured: + +"I have found nothing, M'sieu le Maire, nothing at all anywhere." + +The mayor, alarmed, replied in a thick voice, drowned in tears: + +"What is that you could not find?" + +"The little girl's clothes." + +"Well--well--look again, and find them--or you''ll have to answer to me." + +The man, knowing that the mayor would not brook opposition, set forth +again with hesitating steps, casting a timid side glance at the corpse. + +Distant voices were heard under the trees, a confused sound, the noise of +an approaching crowd, for Mederic had, in the course of his rounds, +carried the news from door to door. The people of the neighborhood, +dazed at first, had gossiped about it in the street, from one threshold +to another. Then they gathered together. They talked over, discussed +and commented on the event for some minutes and had now come to see for +themselves. + +They arrived in groups, a little faltering and uneasy through fear of the +first impression of such a scene on their minds. When they saw the body +they stopped, not daring to advance, and speaking low. Then they grew +bolder, went on a few steps, stopped again, advanced once more, and +presently formed around the dead girl, her mother, the doctor and +Renardet a close circle, restless and noisy, which crowded forward at the +sudden impact of newcomers. And now they touched the corpse. Some of +them even bent down to feel it with their fingers. The doctor kept them +back. But the mayor, waking abruptly out of his torpor, flew into a +rage, and seizing Dr. Labarbe's stick, flung himself on his townspeople, +stammering: + +"Clear out--clear out--you pack of brutes--clear out!" + +And in a second the crowd of sightseers had fallen back two hundred +paces. + +Mother La Roque had risen to a sitting posture and now remained weeping, +with her hands clasped over her face. + +The crowd was discussing the affair, and young lads' eager eyes curiously +scrutinized this nude young form. Renardet perceived this, and, abruptly +taking off his coat, he flung it over the little girl, who was entirely +hidden from view beneath the large garment. + +The secretary drew near quietly. The wood was filled with people, and a +continuous hum of voices rose up under the tangled foliage of the tall +trees. + +The mayor, in his shirt sleeves, remained standing, with his stick in his +hands, in a fighting attitude. He seemed exasperated by this curiosity +on the part of the people and kept repeating: + +"If one of you come nearer I'll break his head just as I would a dog's." + +The peasants were greatly afraid of him. They held back. Dr. Labarbe, +who was smoking, sat down beside La Roque and spoke to her in order to +distract her attention. The old woman at once removed her hands from her +face and replied with a flood of tearful words, emptying her grief in +copious talk. She told the whole story of her life, her marriage, the +death of her man, a cattle drover, who had been gored to death, the +infancy of her daughter, her wretched existence as a widow without +resources and with a child to support. She had only this one, her little +Louise, and the child had been killed--killed in this wood. Then she +felt anxious to see her again, and, dragging herself on her knees toward +the corpse, she raised up one corner of the garment that covered her; +then she let it fall again and began wailing once more. The crowd +remained silent, eagerly watching all the mother's gestures. + +But suddenly there was a great commotion at the cry of "The gendarmes! +the gendarmes!" + +Two gendarmes appeared in the distance, advancing at a rapid trot, +escorting their captain and a little gentleman with red whiskers, who was +bobbing up and down like a monkey on a big white mare. + +The watchman had just found Monsieur Putoin, the magistrate, at the +moment when he was mounting his horse to take his daily ride, for he +posed as a good horseman, to the great amusement of the officers. + +He dismounted, along with the captain, and pressed the hands of the mayor +and the doctor, casting a ferret-like glance on the linen coat beneath +which lay the corpse. + +When he was made acquainted with all the facts, he first gave orders to +disperse the crowd, whom the gendarmes drove out of the wood, but who +soon reappeared in the meadow and formed a hedge, a big hedge of excited +and moving heads, on the other side of the stream. + +The doctor, in his turn, gave explanations, which Renardet noted down in +his memorandum book. All the evidence was given, taken down and +commented on without leading to any discovery. Maxime, too, came back +without having found any trace of the clothes. + +This disappearance surprised everybody; no one could explain it except on +the theory of theft, and as her rags were not worth twenty sous, even +this theory was inadmissible. + +The magistrate, the mayor, the captain and the doctor set to work +searching in pairs, putting aside the smallest branch along the water. + +Renardet said to the judge: + +"How does it happen that this wretch has concealed or carried away the +clothes, and has thus left the body exposed, in sight of every one?" + +The other, crafty and sagacious, answered: + +"Ha! ha! Perhaps a dodge? This crime has been committed either by a +brute or by a sly scoundrel. In any case, we'll easily succeed in +finding him." + +The noise of wheels made them turn their heads round. It was the deputy +magistrate, the doctor and the registrar of the court who had arrived in +their turn. They resumed their search, all chatting in an animated +fashion. + +Renardet said suddenly: + +"Do you know that you are to take luncheon with me?" + +Every one smilingly accepted the invitation, and the magistrate, thinking +that the case of little Louise Roque had occupied enough attention for +one day, turned toward the mayor. + +"I can have the body brought to your house, can I not? You have a room +in which you can keep it for me till this evening?" + +The other became confused and stammered: + +"Yes--no--no. To tell the truth, I prefer that it should not come into my +house on account of--on account of my servants, who are already talking +about ghosts in--in my tower, in the Fox's tower. You know--I could no +longer keep a single one. No--I prefer not to have it in my house." + +The magistrate began to smile. + +"Good! I will have it taken at once to Roily for the legal examination." +And, turning to his deputy, he said: + +"I can make use of your trap, can I not?" + +"Yes, certainly." + +They all came back to the place where the corpse lay. Mother La Roque, +now seated beside her daughter, was holding her hand and was staring +right before her with a wandering, listless eye. + +The two doctors endeavored to lead her away, so that she might not +witness the dead girl's removal, but she understood at once what they +wanted to do, and, flinging herself on the body, she threw both arms +round it. Lying on top of the corpse, she exclaimed: + +"You shall not have it--it's mine--it's mine now. They have killed her +for me, and I want to keep her--you shall not have her----" + +All the men, affected and not knowing how to act, remained standing +around her. Renardet fell on his knees and said to her: + +"Listen, La Roque, it is necessary, in order to find out who killed her. +Without this, we could not find out. We must make a search for the man +in order to punish him. When we have found him we'll give her up to you. +I promise you this." + +This explanation bewildered the woman, and a feeling of hatred manifested +itself in her distracted glance. + +"So then they'll arrest him?" + +"Yes, I promise you that." + +She rose up, deciding to let them do as they liked, but when the captain +remarked: + +"It is surprising that her clothes were not found," a new idea, which she +had not previously thought of, abruptly entered her mind, and she asked: + +"Where are her clothes? They're mine. I want them. Where have they +been put?" + +They explained to her that they had not been found. Then she demanded +them persistently, crying and moaning. + +"They're mine--I want them. Where are they? I want them!" + +The more they tried to calm her the more she sobbed and persisted in her +demands. She no longer wanted the body, she insisted on having the +clothes, as much perhaps through the unconscious cupidity of a wretched +being to whom a piece of silver represents a fortune as through maternal +tenderness. + +And when the little body, rolled up in blankets which had been brought +out from Renardet's house, had disappeared in the vehicle, the old woman +standing under the trees, sustained by the mayor and the captain, +exclaimed: + +"I have nothing, nothing, nothing in the world, not even her little cap-- +her little cap." + +The cure, a young priest, had just arrived. He took it on himself to +accompany the mother, and they went away together toward the village. +The mother's grief was modified by the sugary words of the clergyman, who +promised her a thousand compensations. But she kept repeating: "If I had +only her little cap." This idea now dominated every other. + +Renardet called from the distance: + +"You will lunch with us, Monsieur l'Abbe--in an hour's time." + +The priest turned his head round and replied: + +"With pleasure, Monsieur le Maire. I'll be with you at twelve." + +And they all directed their steps toward the house, whose gray front, +with the large tower built on the edge of the Brindille, could be seen +through the branches. + +The meal lasted a long time. They talked about the crime. Everybody was +of the same opinion. It had been committed by some tramp passing there +by mere chance while the little girl was bathing. + +Then the magistrates returned to Rouy, announcing that they would return +next day at an early hour. The doctor and the cure went to their +respective homes, while Renardet, after a long walk through the meadows, +returned to the wood, where he remained walking till nightfall with slow +steps, his hands behind his back. + +He went to bed early and was still asleep next morning when the +magistrate entered his room. He was rubbing his hands together with a +self-satisfied air. + +"Ha! ha! You are still sleeping! Well, my dear fellow, we have news +this morning." + +The mayor sat up in his bed. + +"What, pray?" + +"Oh! Something strange. You remember well how the mother clamored +yesterday for some memento of her daughter, especially her little cap? +Well, on opening her door this morning she found on the threshold her +child's two little wooden shoes. This proves that the crime was +perpetrated by some one from the district, some one who felt pity for +her. Besides, the postman, Mederic, brought me the thimble, the knife and +the needle case of the dead girl. So, then, the man in carrying off the +clothes to hide them must have let fall the articles which were in the +pocket. As for me, I attach special importance to the wooden shoes, as +they indicate a certain moral culture and a faculty for tenderness on the +part of the assassin. We will, therefore, if you have no objection, go +over together the principal inhabitants of your district." + +The mayor got up. He rang for his shaving water and said: + +"With pleasure, but it will take some time, and we may begin at once." + +M. Putoin sat astride a chair. + +Renardet covered his chin with a white lather while he looked at himself +in the glass. Then he sharpened his razor on the strop and continued: + +"The principal inhabitant of Carvelin bears the name of Joseph Renardet, +mayor, a rich landowner, a rough man who beats guards and coachmen--" + +The examining magistrate burst out laughing. + +"That's enough. Let us pass on to the next." + +"The second in importance is Pelledent, his deputy, a cattle breeder, an +equally rich landowner, a crafty peasant, very sly, very close-fisted on +every question of money, but incapable in my opinion of having +perpetrated such a crime." + +"Continue," said M. Putoin. + +Renardet, while proceeding with his toilet, reviewed the characters of +all the inhabitants of Carvelin. After two hours' discussion their +suspicions were fixed on three individuals who had hitherto borne a shady +reputation--a poacher named Cavalle, a fisherman named Paquet, who caught +trout and crabs, and a cattle drover named Clovis. + + + +II + +The search for the perpetrator of the crime lasted all summer, but he was +not discovered. Those who were suspected and arrested easily proved +their innocence, and the authorities were compelled to abandon the +attempt to capture the criminal. + +But this murder seemed to have moved the entire country in a singular +manner. There remained in every one's mind a disquietude, a vague fear, +a sensation of mysterious terror, springing not merely from the +impossibility of discovering any trace of the assassin, but also and +above all from that strange finding of the wooden shoes in front of La +Roque's door the day after the crime. The certainty that the murderer +had assisted at the investigation, that he was still, doubtless, living +in the village, possessed all minds and seemed to brood over the +neighborhood like a constant menace. + +The wood had also become a dreaded spot, a place to be avoided and +supposed to be haunted. + +Formerly the inhabitants went there to spend every Sunday afternoon. +They used to sit down on the moss at the feet of the huge tall trees or +walk along the water's edge watching the trout gliding among the weeds. +The boy's used to play bowls, hide-and-seek and other games where the +ground had been cleared and levelled, and the girls, in rows of four or +five, would trip along, holding one another by the arms and screaming +songs with their shrill voices. Now nobody ventured there for fear of +finding some corpse lying on the ground. + +Autumn arrived, the leaves began to fall from the tall trees, whirling +round and round to the ground, and the sky could be seen through the bare +branches. Sometimes, when a gust of wind swept over the tree tops, the +slow, continuous rain suddenly grew heavier and became a rough storm that +covered the moss with a thick yellow carpet that made a kind of creaking +sound beneath one's feet. + +And the sound of the falling leaves seemed like a wail and the leaves +themselves like tears shed by these great, sorrowful trees, that wept in +the silence of the bare and empty wood, this dreaded and deserted wood +where wandered lonely the soul, the little soul of little Louise Roque. + +The Brindille, swollen by the storms, rushed on more quickly, yellow and +angry, between its dry banks, bordered by two thin, bare, willow hedges. + +And here was Renardet suddenly resuming his walks under the trees. Every +day, at sunset, he came out of his house, descended the front steps +slowly and entered the wood in a dreamy fashion, with his hands in his +pockets, and paced over the damp soft moss, while a legion of rooks from +all the neighboring haunts came thither to rest in the tall trees and +then flew off like a black cloud uttering loud, discordant cries. + +Night came on, and Renardet was still strolling slowly under the trees; +then, when the darkness prevented him from walking any longer, he would +go back to the house and sink into his armchair in front of the glowing +hearth, stretching his damp feet toward the fire. + +One morning an important bit of news was circulated through the district; +the mayor was having his wood cut down. + +Twenty woodcutters were already at work. They had commenced at the +corner nearest to the house and worked rapidly in the master's presence. + +And each day the wood grew thinner, losing its trees, which fell down one +by one, as an army loses its soldiers. + +Renardet no longer walked up, and down. He remained from morning till +night, contemplating, motionless, with his hands behind his back, the +slow destruction of his wood. When a tree fell he placed his foot on it +as if it were a corpse. Then he raised his eyes to the next with a kind +of secret, calm impatience, as if he expected, hoped for something at the +end of this slaughter. + +Meanwhile they were approaching the place where little Louise Roque had +been found. They came to it one evening in the twilight. + +As it was dark, the sky being overcast, the woodcutters wanted to stop +their work, putting off till next day the fall of an enormous beech tree, +but the mayor objected to this and insisted that they should at once lop +and cut down this giant, which had sheltered the crime. + +When the lopper had laid it bare and the woodcutters had sapped its base, +five men commenced hauling at the rope attached to the top. + +The tree resisted; its powerful trunk, although notched to the centre, +was as rigid as iron. The workmen, all together, with a sort of +simultaneous motion,' strained at the rope, bending backward and uttering +a cry which timed and regulated their efforts. + +Two woodcutters standing close to the giant remained with axes in their +grip, like two executioners ready to strike once more, and Renardet, +motionless, with his hand on the trunk, awaited the fall with an uneasy, +nervous feeling. + +One of the men said to him: + +"You are too near, Monsieur le Maire. When it falls it may hurt you." + +He did not reply and did not move away. He seemed ready to catch the +beech tree in his open arms and to cast it on the ground like a wrestler. + +All at once, at the base of the tall column of wood there was a rent +which seemed to run to the top, like a painful shock; it bent slightly, +ready to fall, but still resisting. The men, in a state of excitement, +stiffened their arms, renewed their efforts with greater vigor, and, just +as the tree came crashing down, Renardet suddenly made a forward step, +then stopped, his shoulders raised to receive the irresistible shock, the +mortal shock which would crush him to the earth. + +But the beech tree, having deviated a little, only rubbed against his +loins, throwing him on his face, five metres away. + +The workmen dashed forward to lift him up. He had already arisen to his +knees, stupefied, with bewildered eyes and passing his hand across his +forehead, as if he were awaking from an attack of madness. + +When he had got to his feet once more the men, astonished, questioned +him, not being able to understand what he had done. He replied in +faltering tones that he had been dazed for a moment, or, rather, he had +been thinking of his childhood days; that he thought he would have time +to run under the tree, just as street boys rush in front of vehicles +driving rapidly past; that he had played at danger; that for the past +eight days he felt this desire growing stronger within him, asking +himself each time a tree began to fall whether he could pass beneath it +without being touched. It was a piece of stupidity, he confessed, but +every one has these moments of insanity and these temptations to boyish +folly. + +He made this explanation in a slow tone, searching for his words, and +speaking in a colorless tone. + +Then he went off, saying: + +"Till to-morrow, my friends-till to-morrow." + +As soon as he got back to his room he sat down at his table which his +lamp lighted up brightly, and, burying his head in his hands, he began to +cry. + +He remained thus for a long time, then wiped his eyes, raised his head +and looked at the clock. It was not yet six o'clock. + +He thought: + +"I have time before dinner." + +And he went to the door and locked it. He then came back, and, sitting +down at his table, pulled out the middle drawer. Taking from it a +revolver, he laid it down on his papers in full view. The barrel of the +firearm glittered, giving out gleams of light. + +Renardet gazed at it for some time with the uneasy glance of a drunken +man. Then he rose and began to pace up and down the room. + +He walked from one end of the apartment to the other, stopping from time +to time, only to pace up and down again a moment afterward. Suddenly he +opened the door of his dressing-room, steeped a towel in the water +pitcher and moistened his forehead, as he had done on the morning of the +crime. + +Then he, began walking up and down again. Each time he passed the table +the gleaming revolver attracted his glance, tempted his hand, but he kept +watching the clock and reflected: + +"I have still time." + +It struck half-past six. Then he took up the revolver, opened his mouth +wide with a frightful grimace and stuck the barrel into it as if he +wanted to swallow it. He remained in this position for some seconds +without moving, his finger on the trigger. Then, suddenly seized with a +shudder of horror, he dropped the pistol on the carpet. + +He fell back on his armchair, sobbing: + +"I cannot. I dare not! My God! my God! How can I have the courage to +kill myself?'" + +There was a knock at the door. He rose up, bewildered. A servant said: + +"Monsieur's dinner is ready." + +He replied: + +"All right. I'm coming down." + +Then he picked up the revolver, locked it up again in the drawer and +looked at himself in the mirror over the mantelpiece to see whether his +face did not look too much troubled. It was as red as usual, a little +redder perhaps. That was all. He went down and seated himself at table. + +He ate slowly, like a man who wants to prolong the meal, who does not +want to be alone. + +Then he smoked several pipes in the hall while the table was being +cleared. After that he went back to his room. + +As soon as he had locked himself in he looked, under the bed, opened all +the closets, explored every corner, rummaged through all the furniture. +Then he lighted the candles on the mantelpiece, and, turning round +several times, ran his eye all over the apartment with an anguish of +terror that distorted his face, for he knew well that he would see her, +as he did every night--little Louise Roque, the little girl he had +attacked and afterward strangled. + +Every night the odious vision came back again. First he seemed to hear a +kind of roaring sound, such as is made by a threshing machine or the +distant passage of a train over a bridge. Then he commenced to gasp, to +suffocate, and he had to unbutton his collar and his belt. He moved +about to make his blood circulate, he tried to read, he attempted to +sing. It was in vain. His thoughts, in spite of himself, went back to +the day of the murder and made him begin it all over again in all its +most secret details, with all the violent emotions he had experienced +from the first minute to the last. + +He had felt on rising that morning, the morning of the horrible day, a +little dizziness and headache, which he attributed to the heat, so that +he remained in his room until breakfast time. + +After the meal he had taken a siesta, then, toward the close of the +afternoon, he had gone out to breathe the fresh, soothing breeze under +the trees in the wood. + +But, as soon as he was outside, the heavy, scorching air of the plain +oppressed him still more. The sun, still high in the heavens, poured +down on the parched soil waves of burning light. Not a breath of wind +stirred the leaves. Every beast and bird, even the grasshoppers, were +silent. Renardet reached the tall trees and began to walk over the moss +where the Brindille produced a slight freshness of the air beneath the +immense roof of branches. But he felt ill at ease. It seemed to him +that an unknown, invisible hand was strangling him, and he scarcely +thought of anything, having usually few ideas in his head. For the last +three months only one thought haunted him, the thought of marrying again. +He suffered from living alone, suffered from it morally and physically. +Accustomed for ten years past to feeling a woman near him, habituated to +her presence every moment, he had need, an imperious and perplexing need +of such association. Since Madame Renardet's death he had suffered +continually without knowing why, he had suffered at not feeling her dress +brushing past him, and, above all, from no longer being able to calm and +rest himself in her arms. He had been scarcely six months a widower and +he was already looking about in the district for some young girl or some +widow he might marry when his period of mourning was at an end. + +He had a chaste soul, but it was lodged in a powerful, herculean body, +and carnal imaginings began to disturb his sleep and his vigils. He +drove them away; they came back again; and he murmured from time to time, +smiling at himself: + +"Here I am, like St. Anthony." + +Having this special morning had several of these visions, the desire +suddenly came into his breast to bathe in the Brindille in order to +refresh himself and cool his blood. + +He knew of a large deep pool, a little farther down, where the people of +the neighborhood came sometimes to take a dip in summer. He went there. + +Thick willow trees hid this clear body of water where the current rested +and went to sleep for a while before starting on its way again. +Renardet, as he appeared, thought he heard a light sound, a faint +plashing which was not that of the stream on the banks. He softly put +aside the leaves and looked. A little girl, quite naked in the +transparent water, was beating the water with both hands, dancing about +in it and dipping herself with pretty movements. She was not a child nor +was she yet a woman. She was plump and developed, while preserving an +air of youthful precocity, as of one who had grown rapidly. He no longer +moved, overcome with surprise, with desire, holding his breath with a +strange, poignant emotion. He remained there, his heart beating as if +one of his sensuous dreams had just been realized, as if an impure fairy +had conjured up before him this young creature, this little rustic Venus, +rising from the eddies of the stream as the real Venus rose from the +waves of the sea. + +Suddenly the little girl came out of the water, and, without seeing him, +came over to where he stood, looking for her clothes in order to dress +herself. As she approached gingerly, on account of the sharp-pointed +stones, he felt himself pushed toward her by an irresistible force, by a +bestial transport of passion, which stirred his flesh, bewildered his +mind and made him tremble from head to foot. + +She remained standing some seconds behind the willow tree which concealed +him from view. Then, losing his reason entirely, he pushed aside the +branches, rushed on her and seized her in his arms. She fell, too +terrified to offer any resistance, too terror-stricken to cry out. He +seemed possessed, not understanding what he was doing. + +He woke from his crime as one wakes from a nightmare. The child burst +out weeping. + +"Hold your tongue! Hold your tongue!" he said. "I'll give you money." + +But she did not hear him and went on sobbing. + +"Come now, hold your tongue! Do hold your tongue! Keep quiet!" he +continued. + +She kept shrieking as she tried to free herself. He suddenly realized +that he was ruined, and he caught her by the neck to stop her mouth from +uttering these heartrending, dreadful screams. As she continued to +struggle with the desperate strength of a being who is seeking to fly +from death, he pressed his enormous hands on the little throat swollen +with screaming, and in a few seconds he had strangled her, so furiously +did he grip her. He had not intended to kill her, but only to make her +keep quiet. + +Then he stood up, overwhelmed with horror. + +She lay before him, her face bleeding and blackned. He was about to rush +away when there sprang up in his agitated soul the mysterious and +undefined instinct that guides all beings in the hour of danger. + +He was going to throw the body into the water, but another impulse drove +him toward the clothes, which he made into a small package. Then, as he +had a piece of twine in his pocket, he tied it up and hid it in a deep +portion of the stream, beneath the trunk of a tree that overhung the +Brindille. + +Then he went off at a rapid pace, reached the meadows, took a wide turn +in order to show himself to some peasants who dwelt some distance away at +the opposite side of the district, and came back to dine at the usual +hour, telling his servants all that was supposed to have happened during +his walk. + +He slept, however, that night; he slept with a heavy, brutish sleep like +the sleep of certain persons condemned to death. He did not open his +eyes until the first glimmer of dawn, and he waited till his usual hour +for riding, so as to excite no suspicion. + +Then he had to be present at the inquiry as to the cause of death. He +did so like a somnambulist, in a kind of vision which showed him men and +things as in a dream, in a cloud of intoxication, with that sense of +unreality which perplexes the mind at the time of the greatest +catastrophes. + +But the agonized cry of Mother Roque pierced his heart. At that moment +he had felt inclined to cast himself at the old woman's feet and to +exclaim: + +"I am the guilty one!" + +But he had restrained himself. He went back, however, during the night +to fish up the dead girl's wooden shoes, in order to place them on her +mother's threshold. + +As long as the inquiry lasted, as long as it was necessary to lead +justice astray he was calm, master of himself, crafty and smiling. He +discussed quietly with the magistrates all the suppositions that passed +through their minds, combated their opinions and demolished their +arguments. He even took a keen and mournful pleasure in disturbing their +investigations, in embroiling their ideas, in showing the innocence of +those whom they suspected. + +But as soon as the inquiry was abandoned he became gradually nervous, +more excitable than he had been before, although he mastered his +irritability. Sudden noises made him start with fear; he shuddered at +the slightest thing and trembled sometimes from head to foot when a fly +alighted on his forehead. Then he was seized with an imperious desire +for motion, which impelled him to take long walks and to remain up whole +nights pacing up and down his room. + +It was not that he was goaded by remorse. His brutal nature did not lend +itself to any shade of sentiment or of moral terror. A man of energy and +even of violence, born to make war, to ravage conquered countries and to +massacre the vanquished, full of the savage instincts of the hunter and +the fighter, he scarcely took count of human life. Though he respected +the Church outwardly, from policy, he believed neither in God nor the +devil, expecting neither chastisement nor recompense for his acts in +another life. His sole belief was a vague philosophy drawn from all the +ideas of the encyclopedists of the last century, and he regarded religion +as a moral sanction of the law, the one and the other having been +invented by men to regulate social relations. To kill any one in a duel, +or in war, or in a quarrel, or by accident, or for the sake of revenge, +or even through bravado would have seemed to him an amusing and clever +thing and would not have left more impression on his mind than a shot +fired at a hare; but he had experienced a profound emotion at the murder +of this child. He had, in the first place, perpetrated it in the heat of +an irresistible gust of passion, in a sort of tempest of the senses that +had overpowered his reason. And he had cherished in his heart, in his +flesh, on his lips, even to the very tips of his murderous fingers a kind +of bestial love, as well as a feeling of terrified horror, toward this +little girl surprised by him and basely killed. Every moment his +thoughts returned to that horrible scene, and, though he endeavored to +drive this picture from his mind, though he put it aside with terror, +with disgust, he felt it surging through his soul, moving about in him, +waiting incessantly for the moment to reappear. + +Then, as evening approached, he was afraid of the shadow falling around +him. He did not yet know why the darkness seemed frightful to him, but +he instinctively feared it, he felt that it was peopled with terrors. +The bright daylight did not lend itself to fears. Things and beings were +visible then, and only natural things and beings could exhibit themselves +in the light of day. But the night, the impenetrable night, thicker than +walls and empty; the infinite night, so black, so vast, in which one +might brush against frightful things; the night, when one feels that a +mysterious terror is wandering, prowling about, appeared to him to +conceal an unknown threatening danger, close beside him. + +What was it? + +He knew ere long. As he sat in his armchair, rather late one evening +when he could not sleep, he thought he saw the curtain of his window +move. He waited, uneasily, with beating heart. The drapery did not +stir; then, all of a sudden, it moved once more. He did not venture to +rise; he no longer ventured to breathe, and yet he was brave. He had +often fought, and he would have liked to catch thieves in his house. + +Was it true that this curtain did move? he asked himself, fearing that +his eyes had deceived him. It was, moreover, such a slight thing, a +gentle flutter of drapery, a kind of trembling in its folds, less than an +undulation caused by the wind. + +Renardet sat still, with staring eyes and outstretched neck. He sprang +to his feet abruptly, ashamed of his fear, took four steps, seized the +drapery with both hands and pulled it wide apart. At first he saw +nothing but darkened glass, resembling plates of glittering ink. The +night, the vast, impenetrable night, stretched beyond as far as the +invisible horizon. He remained standing in front of this illimitable +shadow, and suddenly he perceived a light, a moving light, which seemed +some distance away. + +Then he put his face close to the window pane, thinking that a person +looking for crabs might be poaching in the Brindille, for it was past +midnight, and this light rose up at the edge of the stream, under the +trees. As he was not yet able to see clearly, Renardet placed his hands +over his eyes, and suddenly this light became an illumination, and he +beheld little Louise Roque naked and bleeding on the moss. He recoiled, +frozen with horror, knocked over his chair and fell over on his back. He +remained there some minutes in anguish of mind; then he sat up and began +to reflect. He had had a hallucination--that was all, a hallucination +due to the fact that a night marauder was walking with a lantern in his +hand near the water's edge. What was there astonishing, besides, in the +circumstance that the recollection of his crime should sometimes bring +before him the vision of the dead girl? + +He rose from the ground, swallowed a glass of wine and sat down again. +He was thinking: + +"What am I to do if this occurs again?" + +And it would occur; he felt it; he was sure of it. Already his glance +was drawn toward the window; it called him; it attracted him. In order +to avoid looking at it, he turned his chair round. Then he took a book +and tried to read, but it seemed to him that he presently heard something +stirring behind him, and he swung round his armchair on one foot. + +The curtain was moving again; unquestionably, it moved this time. He +could no longer have any doubt about it. + +He rushed forward and grasped it so violently that he pulled it down with +its pole. Then he eagerly glued his face to the glass. He saw nothing. +All was black outside, and he breathed with the joy of a man whose life +has just been saved. + +Then he went back to his chair and sat down again, but almost immediately +he felt a longing to look out once more through the window. Since the +curtain had fallen down, the window made a sort of gap, fascinating and +terrible, on the dark landscape. In order not to yield to this dangerous +temptation, he undressed, blew out the light and closed his eyes. + +Lying on his back motionless, his skin warm and moist, he awaited sleep. +Suddenly a great gleam of light flashed across his eyelids. He opened +them, believing that his dwelling was on fire. All was black as before, +and he leaned on his elbow to try to distinguish the window which had +still for him an unconquerable attraction. By dint of, straining his +eyes he could perceive some stars, and he rose, groped his way across the +room, discovered the panes with his outstretched hands, and placed his +forehead close to them. There below, under the trees, lay the body of +the little girl gleaming like phosphorus, lighting up the surrounding +darkness. + +Renardet uttered a cry and rushed toward his bed, where he lay till +morning, his head hidden under the pillow. + +From that moment his life became intolerable. He passed his days in +apprehension of each succeeding night, and each night the vision came +back again. As soon as he had locked himself up in his room he strove to +resist it, but in vain. An irresistible force lifted him up and pushed +him against the window, as if to call the phantom, and he saw it at once, +lying first in the spot where the crime was committed in the position in +which it had been found. + +Then the dead girl rose up and came toward him with little steps just as +the child had done when she came out of the river. She advanced quietly, +passing straight across the grass and over the bed of withered flowers. +Then she rose up in the air toward Renardet's window. She came toward +him as she had come on the day of the crime. And the man recoiled before +the apparition--he retreated to his bed and sank down upon it, knowing +well that the little one had entered the room and that she now was +standing behind the curtain, which presently moved. And until daybreak +he kept staring at this curtain with a fixed glance, ever waiting to see +his victim depart. + +But she did not show herself any more; she remained there behind the +curtain, which quivered tremulously now and then. + +And Renardet, his fingers clutching the clothes, squeezed them as he had +squeezed the throat of little Louise Roque. + +He heard the clock striking the hours, and in the stillness the pendulum +kept ticking in time with the loud beating of his heart. And he +suffered, the wretched man, more than any man had ever suffered before. + +Then, as soon as a white streak of light on the ceiling announced the +approaching day, he felt himself free, alone at last, alone in his room; +and he went to sleep. He slept several hours--a restless, feverish sleep +in which he retraced in dreams the horrible vision of the past night. + +When he went down to the late breakfast he felt exhausted as after +unusual exertion, and he scarcely ate anything, still haunted as he was +by the fear of what he had seen the night before. + +He knew well, however, that it was not an apparition, that the dead do +not come back, and that his sick soul, his soul possessed by one thought +alone, by an indelible remembrance, was the only cause of his torture, +was what brought the dead girl back to life and raised her form before +his eyes, on which it was ineffaceably imprinted. But he knew, too, that +there was no cure, that he would never escape from the savage persecution +of his memory, and he resolved to die rather than to endure these +tortures any longer. + +Then he thought of how he would kill himself, It must be something simple +and natural, which would preclude the idea of suicide. For he clung to +his reputation, to the name bequeathed to him by his ancestors; and if +his death awakened any suspicion people's thoughts might be, perhaps, +directed toward the mysterious crime, toward the murderer who could not +be found, and they would not hesitate to accuse him of the crime. + +A strange idea came into his head, that of allowing himself to be crushed +by the tree at the foot of which he had assassinated little Louise Roque. +So he determined to have the wood cut down and to simulate an accident. +But the beech tree refused to crush his ribs. + +Returning to his house, a prey to utter despair, he had snatched up his +revolver, and then did not dare to fire it. + +The dinner bell summoned him. He could eat nothing, and he went upstairs +again. And he did not know what to do. Now that he had escaped the +first time, he felt himself a coward. Presently he would be ready, +brave, decided, master of his courage and of his resolution; now he was +weak and feared death as much as he did the dead girl. + +He faltered: + +"I dare not venture it again--I dare not venture it." + +Then he glanced with terror, first at the revolver on the table and next +at the curtain which hid his window. It seemed to him, moreover, that +something horrible would occur as soon as his life was ended. Something? +What? A meeting with her, perhaps. She was watching for him; she was +waiting for him; she was calling him; and it was in order to seize him in +her turn, to draw him toward the doom that would avenge her, and to lead +him to die, that she appeared thus every night. + +He began to cry like a child, repeating: + +"I will not venture it again--I will not venture it." + +Then he fell on his knees and murmured: + +"My God! my God!" without believing, nevertheless, in God. And he no +longer dared, in fact, to look at his window, where he knew the +apparition was hiding, nor at his table, where his revolver gleamed. +When he had risen up he said: + +"This cannot last; there must be an end of it" + +The sound of his voice in the silent room made a chill of fear pass +through his limbs, but as he could not bring himself to come to a +determination, as he felt certain that his finger would always refuse to +pull the trigger of his revolver, he turned round to hide his head under +the bedclothes and began to reflect. + +He would have to find some way in which he could force himself to die, to +play some trick on himself which would not permit of any hesitation on +his part, any delay, any possible regrets. He envied condemned criminals +who are led to the scaffold surrounded by soldiers. Oh! if he could only +beg of some one to shoot him; if after confessing his crime to a true +friend who would never divulge it he could procure death at his hand. +But from whom could he ask this terrible service? From whom? He thought +of all the people he knew. The doctor? No, he would talk about it +afterward, most probably. And suddenly a fantastic idea entered his +mind. He would write to the magistrate, who was on terms of close +friendship with him, and would denounce himself as the perpetrator of the +crime. He would in this letter confess everything, revealing how his +soul had been tortured, how he had resolved to die, how he had hesitated +about carrying out his resolution and what means he had employed to +strengthen his failing courage. And in the name of their old friendship +he would implore of the other to destroy the letter as soon as he had +ascertained that the culprit had inflicted justice on himself. Renardet +could rely on this magistrate; he knew him to be true, discreet, +incapable of even an idle word. He was one of those men who have an +inflexible conscience, governed, directed, regulated by their reason +alone. + +Scarcely had he formed this project when a strange feeling of joy took +possession of his heart. He was calm now. He would write his letter +slowly, then at daybreak he would deposit it in the box nailed to the +outside wall of his office; then he would ascend his tower to watch for +the postman's arrival; and when the man in the blue blouse had gone away, +he would cast himself head foremost on the rocks on which the foundations +rested, He would take care to be seen first by the workmen who had cut +down his wood. He could climb to the projecting stone which bore the +flagstaff displayed on festivals, He would smash this pole with a shake +and carry it along with him as he fell. + +Who would suspect that it was not an accident? And he would be killed +outright, owing to his weight and the height of the tower. + +Presently he got out of bed, went over to the table and began to write. +He omitted nothing, not a single detail of the crime, not a single detail +of the torments of his heart, and he ended by announcing that he had +passed sentence on himself, that he was going to execute the criminal, +and begged his friend, his old friend, to be careful that there should +never be any stain on his memory. + +When he had finished this letter he saw that the day had dawned. + +He closed, sealed it and wrote the address. Then he descended with light +steps, hurried toward the little white box fastened to the outside wall +in the corner of the farmhouse, and when he had thrown into it this +letter, which made his hand tremble, he came back quickly, drew the bolts +of the great door and climbed up to his tower to wait for the passing of +the postman, who was to bear away his death sentence. + +He felt self-possessed now. Liberated! Saved! + +A cold dry wind, an icy wind passed across his face. He inhaled it +eagerly with open mouth, drinking in its chilling kiss. The sky was red, +a wintry red, and all the plain, whitened with frost, glistened under the +first rays of the sun, as if it were covered with powdered glass. + +Renardet, standing up, his head bare, gazed at the vast tract of country +before him, the meadows to the left and to the right the village whose +chimneys were beginning to smoke in preparation for the morning meal. At +his feet he saw the Brindille flowing amid the rocks, where he would soon +be crushed to death. He felt new life on that beautiful frosty morning. +The light bathed him, entered his being like a new-born hope. A thousand +recollections assailed him, recollections of similar mornings, of rapid +walks on the hard earth which rang beneath his footsteps, of happy days +of shooting on the edges of pools where wild ducks sleep. All the good +things that he loved, the good things of existence, rushed to his memory, +penetrated him with fresh desires, awakened all the vigorous appetites of +his active, powerful body. + +And he was about to die! Why? He was going to kill himself stupidly +because he was afraid of a shadow-afraid of nothing! He was still rich +and in the prime of life. What folly! All he needed was distraction, +absence, a voyage in order to forget. + +This night even he had not seen the little girl because his mind was +preoccupied and had wandered toward some other subject. Perhaps he would +not see her any more? And even if she still haunted him in this house, +certainly she would not follow him elsewhere! The earth was wide, the +future was long. + +Why should he die? + +His glance travelled across the meadows, and he perceived a blue spot in +the path which wound alongside the Brindille. It was Mederic coming to +bring letters from the town and to carry away those of the village. + +Renardet gave a start, a sensation of pain shot through his breast, and +he rushed down the winding staircase to get back his letter, to demand it +back from the postman. Little did it matter to him now whether he was +seen, He hurried across the grass damp from the light frost of the +previous night and arrived in front of the box in the corner of the +farmhouse exactly at the same time as the letter carrier. + +The latter had opened the little wooden door and drew forth the four +papers deposited there by the inhabitants of the locality. + +Renardet said to him: + +"Good-morrow, Mederic." + +"Good-morrow, Monsieur le Maire." + +"I say, Mederic, I threw a letter into the box that I want back again. +I came to ask you to give it back to me." + +"That's all right, Monsieur le Maire--you'll get it." + +And the postman raised his eyes. He stood petrified at the sight of +Renardet's face. The mayor's cheeks were purple, his eyes were anxious +and sunken, with black circles round them, his hair was unbrushed, his +beard untrimmed, his necktie unfastened. It was evident that he had not +been in bed. + +The postman asked: + +"Are you ill, Monsieur le Maire?" + +The other, suddenly comprehending that his appearance must be unusual, +lost countenance and faltered: + +"Oh! no-oh! no. Only I jumped out of bed to ask you for this letter. +I was asleep. You understand?" + +He said in reply: + +"What letter?" + +"The one you are going to give back to me." + +Mederic now began to hesitate. The mayor's attitude did not strike him +as natural. There was perhaps a secret in that letter, a political +secret. He knew Renardet was not a Republican, and he knew all the +tricks and chicanery employed at elections. + +He asked: + +"To whom is it addressed, this letter of yours?" + +"To Monsieur Putoin, the magistrate--you know, my friend, Monsieur +Putoin!" + +The postman searched through the papers and found the one asked for. +Then he began looking at it, turning it round and round between his +fingers, much perplexed, much troubled by the fear of either committing a +grave offence or of making an enemy of the mayor. + +Seeing his hesitation, Renardet made a movement for the purpose of +seizing the letter and snatching it away from him. This abrupt action +convinced Mederic that some important secret was at stake and made him +resolve to do his duty, cost what it may. + +So he flung the letter into his bag and fastened it up, with the reply: + +"No, I can't, Monsieur le Maire. As long as it is for the magistrate, I +can't." + +A dreadful pang wrung Renardet's heart and he murmured: + +"Why, you know me well. You are even able to recognize my handwriting. +I tell you I want that paper." + +"I can't." + +"Look here, Mederic, you know that I'm incapable of deceiving you--I tell +you I want it." + +"No, I can't." + +A tremor of rage passed through Renardet's soul. + +"Damn it all, take care! You know that I never trifle and that I could +get you out of your job, my good fellow, and without much delay, either, +And then, I am the mayor of the district, after all; and I now order you +to give me back that paper." + +The postman answered firmly: + +"No, I can't, Monsieur le Maire." + +Thereupon Renardet, losing his head, caught hold of the postman's arms in +order to take away his bag; but, freeing himself by a strong effort, and +springing backward, the letter carrier raised his big holly stick. +Without losing his temper, he said emphatically: + +"Don't touch me, Monsieur le Maire, or I'll strike. Take care, I'm only +doing my duty!" + +Feeling that he was lost, Renardet suddenly became humble, gentle, +appealing to him like a whimpering child: + +"Look here, look here, my friend, give me back that letter and I'll +recompense you--I'll give you money. Stop! stop! I'll give you a +hundred francs, you understand--a hundred francs!" + +The postman turned on his heel and started on his journey. + +Renardet followed him, out of breath, stammering: + +"Mederic, Mederic, listen! I'll give you a thousand francs, you +understand--a thousand francs." + +The postman still went on without giving any answer. + +Renardet went on: + +"I'll make your fortune, you understand--whatever you wish--fifty +thousand francs--fifty thousand francs for that letter! What does it +matter to you? You won't? Well, a hundred thousand--I say--a hundred +thousand francs. Do you understand? A hundred thousand francs--a +hundred thousand francs." + +The postman turned back, his face hard, his eye severe: + +"Enough of this, or else I'll repeat to the magistrate everything you +have just said to me." + +Renardet stopped abruptly. It was all over. He turned back and rushed +toward his house, running like a hunted animal. + +Then, in his turn, Mederic stopped and watched his flight with +stupefaction. He saw the mayor reenter his house, and he waited still, +as if something astonishing were about to happen. + +In fact, presently the tall form of Renardet appeared on the summit of +the Fox's tower. He ran round the platform like a madman. Then he +seized the flagstaff and shook it furiously without succeeding in +breaking it; then, all of a sudden, like a diver, with his two hands +before him, he plunged into space. + +Mederic rushed forward to his assistance. He saw the woodcutters going +to work and called out to them, telling them an accident had occurred. +At the foot of the walls they found a bleeding body, its head crushed on +a rock. The Brindille surrounded this rock, and over its clear, calm +waters could be seen a long red thread of mingled brains and blood. + + + + + + +THE DONKEY + +There was not a breath of air stirring; a heavy mist was lying over the +river. It was like a layer of cotton placed on the water. The banks +themselves were indistinct, hidden behind strange fogs. But day was +breaking and the hill was becoming visible. In the dawning light of day +the plaster houses began to appear like white spots. Cocks were crowing +in the barnyard. + +On the other side of the river, hidden behind the fogs, just opposite +Frette, a slight noise from time to time broke the dead silence of the +quiet morning. At times it was an indistinct plashing, like the cautious +advance of a boat, then again a sharp noise like the rattle of an oar and +then the sound of something dropping in the water. Then silence. + +Sometimes whispered words, coming perhaps from a distance, perhaps from +quite near, pierced through these opaque mists. They passed by like wild +birds which have slept in the rushes and which fly away at the first +light of day, crossing the mist and uttering a low and timid sound which +wakes their brothers along the shores. + +Suddenly along the bank, near the village, a barely perceptible shadow +appeared on the water. Then it grew, became more distinct and, coming +out of the foggy curtain which hung over the river, a flatboat, manned by +two men, pushed up on the grass. + +The one who was rowing rose and took a pailful of fish from the bottom of +the boat, then he threw the dripping net over his shoulder. His +companion, who had not made a motion, exclaimed: "Say, Mailloche, get +your gun and see if we can't land some rabbit along the shore." + +The other one answered: "All right. I'll be with you in a minute." Then +he disappeared, in order to hide their catch. + +The man who had stayed in the boat slowly filled his pipe and lighted it. +His name was Labouise, but he was called Chicot, and was in partnership +with Maillochon, commonly called Mailloche, to practice the doubtful and +undefined profession of junk-gatherers along the shore. + +They were a low order of sailors and they navigated regularly only in the +months of famine. The rest of the time they acted as junk-gatherers. +Rowing about on the river day and night, watching for any prey, dead or +alive, poachers on the water and nocturnal hunters, sometimes ambushing +venison in the Saint-Germain forests, sometimes looking for drowned +people and searching their clothes, picking up floating rags and empty +bottles; thus did Labouise and Maillochon live easily. + +At times they would set out on foot about noon and stroll along straight +ahead. They would dine in some inn on the shore and leave again side by +side. They would remain away for a couple of days; then one morning they +would be seen rowing about in the tub which they called their boat. + +At Joinville or at Nogent some boatman would be looking for his boat, +which had disappeared one night, probably stolen, while twenty or thirty +miles from there, on the Oise, some shopkeeper would be rubbing his +hands, congratulating himself on the bargain he had made when he bought a +boat the day before for fifty francs, which two men offered him as they +were passing. + +Maillochon reappeared with his gun wrapped up in rags. He was a man of +forty or fifty, tall and thin, with the restless eye of people who are +worried by legitimate troubles and of hunted animals. His open shirt +showed his hairy chest, but he seemed never to have had any more hair on +his face than a short brush of a mustache and a few stiff hairs under his +lower lip. He was bald around the temples. When he took off the dirty +cap that he wore his scalp seemed to be covered with a fluffy down, like +the body of a plucked chicken. + +Chicot, on the contrary, was red, fat, short and hairy. He looked like a +raw beefsteak. He continually kept his left eye closed, as if he were +aiming at something or at somebody, and when people jokingly cried to +him, "Open your eye, Labouise!" he would answer quietly: "Never fear, +sister, I open it when there's cause to." + +He had a habit of calling every one "sister," even his scavenger +companion. + +He took up the oars again, and once more the boat disappeared in the +heavy mist, which was now turned snowy white in the pink-tinted sky. + +"What kind of lead did you take, Maillochon?" Labouise asked. + +"Very small, number nine; that's the best for rabbits." + +They were approaching the other shore so slowly, so quietly that no noise +betrayed them. This bank belongs to the Saint-Germain forest and is the +boundary line for rabbit hunting. It is covered with burrows hidden +under the roots of trees, and the creatures at daybreak frisk about, +running in and out of the holes. + +Maillochon was kneeling in the bow, watching, his gun hidden on the +floor. Suddenly he seized it, aimed, and the report echoed for some time +throughout the quiet country. + +Labouise, in a few strokes, touched the beach, and his companion, jumping +to the ground, picked up a little gray rabbit, not yet dead. + +Then the boat once more disappeared into the fog in order to get to the +other side, where it could keep away from the game wardens. + +The two men seemed to be riding easily on the water. The weapon had +disappeared under the board which served as a hiding place and the rabbit +was stuffed into Chicot's loose shirt. + +After about a quarter of an hour Labouise asked: "Well, sister, shall we +get one more?" + +"It will suit me," Maillochon answered. + +The boat started swiftly down the current. The mist, which was hiding +both shores, was beginning to rise. The trees could be barely perceived, +as through a veil, and the little clouds of fog were floating up from the +water. When they drew near the island, the end of which is opposite +Herblay, the two men slackened their pace and began to watch. Soon a +second rabbit was killed. + +Then they went down until they were half way to Conflans. Here they +stopped their boat, tied it to a tree and went to sleep in the bottom of +it. + +From time to time Labouise would sit up and look over the horizon with +his open eye. The last of the morning mist had disappeared and the large +summer sun was climbing in the blue sky. + +On the other side of the river the vineyard-covered hill stretched out in +a semicircle. One house stood out alone at the summit. Everything was +silent. + +Something was moving slowly along the tow-path, advancing with +difficulty. It was a woman dragging a donkey. The stubborn, stiff- +jointed beast occasionally stretched out a leg in answer to its +companion's efforts, and it proceeded thus, with outstretched neck and +ears lying flat, so slowly that one could not tell when it would ever be +out of sight. + +The woman, bent double, was pulling, turning round occasionally to strike +the donkey with a stick. + +As soon as he saw her, Labouise exclaimed: "Say, Mailloche!" + +Mailloche answered: "What's the matter?" + +"Want to have some fun?" + +"Of course!" + +"Then hurry, sister; we're going to have a laugh." + +Chicot took the oars. When he had crossed the river he stopped opposite +the woman and called: + +"Hey, sister!" + +The woman stopped dragging her donkey and looked. + +Labouise continued: "What are you doing--going to the locomotive show?" + +The woman made no reply. Chicot continued: + +"Say, your trotter's prime for a race. Where are you taking him at that +speed?" + +At last the woman answered: "I'm going to Macquart, at Champioux, to have +him killed. He's worthless." + +Labouise answered: "You're right. How much do you think Macquart will +give you for him?" + +The woman wiped her forehead on the back of her hand and hesitated, +saying: "How do I know? Perhaps three francs, perhaps four." + +Chicot exclaimed: "I'll give you five francs and your errand's done! +How's that?" + +The woman considered the matter for a second and then exclaimed: "Done!" + +The two men landed. Labouise grasped the animal by the bridle. +Maillochon asked in surprise: + +"What do you expect to do with that carcass?" + +Chicot this time opened his other eye in order to express his gaiety. +His whole red face was grinning with joy. He chuckled: "Don't worry, +sister. I've got my idea." + +He gave five francs to the woman, who then sat down by the road to see +what was going to happen. Then Labouise, in great humor, got the gun and +held it out to Maillochon, saying: "Each one in turn; we're going after +big game, sister. Don't get so near or you'll kill it right away! You +must make the pleasure last a little." + +He placed his companion about forty paces from the victim. The ass, +feeling itself free, was trying to get a little of the tall grass, but it +was so exhausted that it swayed on its legs as if it were about to fall. + +Maillochon aimed slowly and said: "A little pepper for the ears; watch, +Ghicot!" And he fired. + +The tiny shot struck the donkey's long ears and he began to shake them in +order to get rid of the stinging sensation. The two men were doubled up +with laughter and stamped their feet with joy. The woman, indignant, +rushed forward; she did not want her donkey to be tortured, and she +offered to return the five francs. Labouise threatened her with a +thrashing and pretended to roll up his sleeves. He had paid, hadn't he? +Well, then, he would take a shot at her skirts, just to show that it +didn't hurt. She went away, threatening to call the police. They could +hear her protesting indignantly and cursing as she went her way. + +Maillochon held out the gun to his comrade, saying: "It's your turn, +Chicot." + +Labouise aimed and fired. The donkey received the charge in his thighs, +but the shot was so small and came from such a distance that he thought +he was being stung by flies, for he began to thrash himself with his +tail. + +Labouise sat down to laugh more comfortably, while Maillochon reloaded +the weapon, so happy that he seemed to sneeze into the barrel. He +stepped forward a few paces, and, aiming at the same place that his +friend had shot at, he fired again. This time the beast started, tried +to kick and turned its head. At last a little blood was running. It had +been wounded and felt a sharp pain, for it tried to run away with a slow, +limping, jerky gallop. + +Both men darted after the beast, Maillochon with a long stride, Labouise +with the short, breathless trot of a little man. But the donkey, tired +out, had stopped, and, with a bewildered look, was watching his two +murderers approach. Suddenly he stretched his neck and began to bray. + +Labouise, out of breath, had taken the gun. This time he walked right up +close, as he did not wish to begin the chase over again. + +When the poor beast had finished its mournful cry, like a last call for +help, the man called: "Hey, Mailloche! Come here, sister; I'm going to +give him some medicine." And while the other man was forcing the +animal's mouth open, Chicot stuck the barrel of his gun down its throat, +as if he were trying to make it drink a potion. Then he said: "Look out, +sister, here she goes!" + +He pressed the trigger. The donkey stumbled back a few steps, fell down, +tried to get up again and finally lay on its side and closed its eyes: +The whole body was trembling, its legs were kicking as if it were, trying +to run. A stream of blood was oozing through its teeth. Soon it stopped +moving. It was dead. + +The two men went along, laughing. It was over too quickly; they had not +had their money's worth. Maillochon asked: "Well, what are we going to +do now?" + +Labouise answered: "Don't worry, sister. Get the thing on the boat; +we're going to have some fun when night comes." + +They went and got the boat. The animal's body was placed on the bottom, +covered with fresh grass, and the two men stretched out on it and went to +sleep. + +Toward noon Labouise drew a bottle of wine, some bread and butter and raw +onions from a hiding place in their muddy, worm-eaten boat, and they +began to eat. + +When the meal was over they once more stretched out on the dead donkey +and slept. At nightfall Labouise awoke and shook his comrade, who was +snoring like a buzzsaw. "Come on, sister," he ordered. + +Maillochon began to row. As they had plenty of time they went up the +Seine slowly. They coasted along the reaches covered with water-lilies, +and the heavy, mud-covered boat slipped over the lily pads and bent the +flowers, which stood up again as soon as they had passed. + +When they reached the wall of the Eperon, which separates the Saint- +Germain forest from the Maisons-Laffitte Park, Labouise stopped his +companion and explained his idea to him. Maillochon was moved by a +prolonged, silent laugh. + +They threw into the water the grass which had covered the body, took the +animal by the feet and hid it behind some bushes. Then they got into +their boat again and went to Maisons-Laffitte. + +The night was perfectly black when they reached the wine shop of old man +Jules. As soon as the dealer saw them he came up, shook hands with them +and sat down at their table. They began to talk of one thing and +another. By eleven o'clock the last customer had left and old man Jules +winked at Labouise and asked: "Well, have you got any?" + +Labouise made a motion with his head and answered: "Perhaps so, perhaps +not!" + +The dealer insisted: "Perhaps you've not nothing but gray ones?" + +Chicot dug his hands into his flannel shirt, drew out the ears of a +rabbit and declared: "Three francs a pair!" + +Then began a long discussion about the price. Two francs sixty-five and +the two rabbits were delivered. As the two men were getting up to go, +old man Jules, who had been watching them, exclaimed: + +"You have something else, but you won't say what." + +Labouise answered: "Possibly, but it is not for you; you're too stingy." + +The man, growing eager, kept asking: "What is it? Something big? +Perhaps we might make a deal." + +Labouise, who seemed perplexed, pretended to consult Maillochon with a +glance. Then he answered in a slow voice: "This is how it is. We were +in the bushes at Eperon when something passed right near us, to the left, +at the end of the wall. Mailloche takes a shot and it drops. We skipped +on account of the game people. I can't tell you what it is, because I +don't know. But it's big enough. But what is it? If I told you I'd be +lying, and you know, sister, between us everything's above-board." + +Anxiously the man asked: "Think it's venison?" + +Labouise answered: "Might be and then again it might not! Venison?--uh! +uh!--might be a little big for that! Mind you, I don't say it's a doe, +because I don't know, but it might be." + +Still the dealer insisted: "Perhaps it's a buck?" + +Labouise stretched out his hand, exclaiming: "No, it's not that! It's +not a buck. I should have seen the horns. No, it's not a buck!" + +"Why didn't you bring it with you?" asked the man. + +"Because, sister, from now on I sell from where I stand. Plenty of +people will buy. All you have to do is to take a walk over there, find +the thing and take it. No risk for me." + +The innkeeper, growing suspicious, exclaimed "Supposing he wasn't there!" + +Labouise once more raised his hand and said: + +"He's there, I swear!--first bush to the left. What it is, I don't know. +But it's not a buck, I'm positive. It's for you to find out what it is. +Twenty-five francs, cash down!" + +Still the man hesitated: "Couldn't you bring it?" + +Maillochon exclaimed: "No, indeed! You know our price! Take it or leave +it!" + +The dealer decided: "It's a bargain for twenty francs!" + +And they shook hands over the deal. + +Then he took out four big five-franc pieces from the cash drawer, and the +two friends pocketed the money. Labouise arose, emptied his glass and +left. As he was disappearing in the shadows he turned round to exclaim: +"It isn't a buck. I don't know what it is!--but it's there. I'll give +you back your money if you find nothing!" + +And he disappeared in the darkness. Maillochon, who was following him, +kept punching him in the back to express his joy. + + + + + + +MOIRON + +As we were still talking about Pranzini, M. Maloureau, who had been +attorney general under the Empire, said: "Oh! I formerly knew a very +curious affair, curious for several reasons, as you will see. + +"I was at that time imperial attorney in one of the provinces. I had to +take up the case which has remained famous under the name of the Moiron +case. + +"Monsieur Moiron, who was a teacher in the north of France, enjoyed an +excellent reputation throughout the whole country. He was a person of +intelligence, quiet, very religious, a little taciturn; he had married in +the district of Boislinot, where he exercised his profession. He had had +three children, who had died of consumption, one after the other. From +this time he seemed to bestow upon the youngsters confided to his care +all the tenderness of his heart. With his own money he bought toys for +his best scholars and for the good boys; he gave them little dinners and +stuffed them with delicacies, candy and cakes: Everybody loved this good +man with his big heart, when suddenly five of his pupils died, in a +strange manner, one after the other. It was supposed that there was an +epidemic due to the condition of the water, resulting from drought; they +looked for the causes without being able to discover them, the more so +that the symptoms were so peculiar. The children seemed to be attacked +by a feeling of lassitude; they would not eat, they complained of pains +in their stomachs, dragged along for a short time, and died in frightful +suffering. + +"A post-mortem examination was held over the last one, but nothing was +discovered. The vitals were sent to Paris and analyzed, and they +revealed the presence of no toxic substance. + +"For a year nothing new developed; then two little boys, the best +scholars in the class, Moiron's favorites, died within four days of each +other. An examination of the bodies was again ordered, and in both of +them were discovered tiny fragments of crushed glass. The conclusion +arrived at was that the two youngsters must imprudently have eaten from +some carelessly cleaned receptacle. A glass broken over a pail of milk +could have produced this frightful accident, and the affair would have +been pushed no further if Moiron's servant had not been taken sick at +this time. The physician who was called in noticed the same symptoms he +had seen in the children. He questioned her and obtained the admission +that she had stolen and eaten some candies that had been bought by the +teacher for his scholars. + +"On an order from the court the schoolhouse was searched, and a closet +was found which was full of toys and dainties destined for the children. +Almost all these delicacies contained bits of crushed glass or pieces of +broken needles! + +"Moiron was immediately arrested; but he seemed so astonished and +indignant at the suspicion hanging over him that he was almost released. +How ever, indications of his guilt kept appearing, and baffled in my mind +my first conviction, based on his excellent reputation, on his whole +life, on the complete absence of any motive for such a crime. + +"Why should this good, simple, religious man have killed little children, +and the very children whom he seemed to love the most, whom he spoiled +and stuffed with sweet things, for whom he spent half his salary in +buying toys and bonbons? + +"One must consider him insane to believe him guilty of this act. Now, +Moiron seemed so normal, so quiet, so rational and sensible that it +seemed impossible to adjudge him insane. + +"However, the proofs kept growing! In none of the candies that were +bought at the places where the schoolmaster secured his provisions could +the slightest trace of anything suspicious be found. + +"He then insisted that an unknown enemy must have opened his cupboard +with a false key in order to introduce the glass and the needles into the +eatables. And he made up a whole story of an inheritance dependent on +the death of a child, determined on and sought by some peasant, and +promoted thus by casting suspicions on the schoolmaster. This brute, he +claimed, did not care about the other children who were forced to die as +well. + +"The story was possible. The man appeared to be so sure of himself and +in such despair that we should undoubtedly have acquitted him, +notwithstanding the charges against him, if two crushing discoveries had +not been made, one after the other. + +"The first one was a snuffbox full of crushed glass; his own snuffbox, +hidden in the desk where he kept his money! + +"He explained this new find in an acceptable manner, as the ruse of the +real unknown criminal. But a mercer from Saint-Marlouf came to the +presiding judge and said that a gentleman had several times come to his +store to buy some needles; and he always asked for the thinnest needles +he could find, and would break them to see whether they pleased him. The +man was brought forward in the presence of a dozen or more persons, and +immediately recognized Moiron. The inquest revealed that the +schoolmaster had indeed gone into Saint-Marlouf on the days mentioned by +the tradesman. + +"I will pass over the terrible testimony of children on the choice of +dainties and the care which he took to have them eat the things in his +presence, and to remove the slightest traces. + +"Public indignation demanded capital punishment, and it became more and +more insistent, overturning all objections. + +"Moiron was condemned to death, and his appeal was rejected. Nothing was +left for him but the imperial pardon. I knew through my father that the +emperor would not grant it. + +"One morning, as I was working in my study, the visit of the prison +almoner was announced. He was an old priest who knew men well and +understood the habits of criminals. He seemed troubled, ill at ease, +nervous. After talking for a few minutes about one thing and another, he +arose and said suddenly: 'If Moiron is executed, monsieur, you will have +put an innocent man to death.' + +"Then he left without bowing, leaving me behind with the deep impression +made by his words. He had pronounced them in such a sincere and solemn +manner, opening those lips, closed and sealed by the secret of +confession, in order to save a life. + +"An hour later I left for Paris, and my father immediately asked that I +be granted an audience with the emperor. + +"The following day I was received. His majesty was working in a little +reception room when we were introduced. I described the whole case, and +I was just telling about the priest's visit when a door opened behind the +sovereign's chair and the empress, who supposed he was alone, appeared. +His majesty, Napoleon, consulted her. As soon as she had heard the +matter, she exclaimed: 'This man must be pardoned. He must, since he is +innocent.' + +"Why did this sudden conviction of a religious woman cast a terrible +doubt in my mind? + +"Until then I had ardently desired a change of sentence. And now I +suddenly felt myself the toy, the dupe of a cunning criminal who had +employed the priest and confession as a last means of defence. + +"I explained my hesitancy to their majesties. The emperor remained +undecided, urged on one side by his natural kindness and held back on the +other by the fear of being deceived by a criminal; but the empress, who +was convinced that the priest had obeyed a divine inspiration, kept +repeating: 'Never mind! It is better to spare a criminal than to kill an +innocent man!' Her advice was taken. The death sentence was commuted to +one of hard labor. + +"A few years later I heard that Moiron had again been called to the +emperor's attention on account of his exemplary conduct in the prison at +Toulon and was now employed as a servant by the director of the +penitentiary. + +"For a long time I heard nothing more of this man. "But about two years +ago, while I was spending a summer near Lille with my cousin, De +Larielle, I was informed one evening, just as we were sitting down to +dinner, that a young priest wished to speak to me. + +"I had him shown in and he begged me to come to a dying man who desired +absolutely to see me. This had often happened to me in my long career as +a magistrate, and, although I had been set aside by the Republic, I was +still often called upon in similar circumstances. I therefore followed +the priest, who led me to a miserable little room in a large tenement +house. + +"There I found a strange-looking man on a bed of straw, sitting with his +back against the wall, in order to get his breath. He was a sort of +skeleton, with dark, gleaming eyes. + +"As soon as he saw me, he murmured: 'Don't you recognize me?' + +"'No.' + +"'I am Moiron.' + +"I felt a shiver run through me, and I asked 'The schoolmaster?' + +"'Yes.' + +"'How do you happen to be here?' + +"'The story is too long. I haven't time to tell it. I was going to die +--and that priest was brought to me--and as I knew that you were here I +sent for you. It is to you that I wish to confess--since you were the +one who once saved my life.' + +"His hands clutched the straw of his bed through the sheet and he +continued in a hoarse, forcible and low tone: 'You see--I owe you the +truth--I owe it to you--for it must be told to some one before I leave +this earth. + +"'It is I who killed the children--all of them. I did it--for revenge! + +"'Listen. I was an honest, straightforward, pure man--adoring God--this +good Father--this Master who teaches us to love, and not the false God, +the executioner, the robber, the murderer who governs the earth. I had +never done any harm; I had never committed an evil act. I was as good as +it is possible to be, monsieur. + +"'I married and had children, and I loved them as no father or mother +ever loved their children. I lived only for them. I was wild about +them. All three of them died! Why? why? What had I done? I was +rebellious, furious; and suddenly my eyes were opened as if I were waking +up out of a sleep. I understood that God is bad. Why had He killed my +children? I opened my eyes and saw that He loves to kill. He loves only +that, monsieur. He gives life but to destroy it! God, monsieur, is a +murderer! He needs death every day. And He makes it of every variety, +in order the better to be amused. He has invented sickness and accidents +in order to give Him diversion all through the months and the years; and +when He grows tired of this, He has epidemics, the plague, cholera, +diphtheria, smallpox, everything possible! But this does not satisfy +Him; all these things are too similar; and so from time to time He has +wars, in order to see two hundred thousand soldiers killed at once, +crushed in blood and in the mud, blown apart, their arms and legs torn +off, their heads smashed by bullets, like eggs that fall on the ground. + +"'But this is not all. He has made men who eat each other. And then, as +men become better than He, He has made beasts, in order to see men hunt +them, kill them and eat them. That is not all. He has made tiny little +animals which live one day, flies who die by the millions in one hour, +ants which we are continually crushing under our feet, and so many, many +others that we cannot even imagine. And all these things are continually +killing each other and dying. And the good Lord looks on and is amused, +for He sees everything, the big ones as well as the little ones, those +who are in the drops of water and those in the other firmaments. He +watches them and is amused. Wretch! + +"'Then, monsieur, I began to kill children played a trick on Him. He did +not get those. It was not He, but I! And I would have killed many +others, but you caught me. There! + +"'I was to be executed. I! How He would have laughed! Then I asked for +a priest, and I lied. I confessed to him. I lied and I lived. + +"'Now, all is over. I can no longer escape from Him. I no longer fear +Him, monsieur; I despise Him too much.' + +"This poor wretch was frightful to see as he lay there gasping, opening +an enormous mouth in order to utter words which could scarcely be heard, +his breath rattling, picking at his bed and moving his thin legs under a +grimy sheet as though trying to escape. + +"Oh! The mere remembrance of it is frightful! + +"'You have nothing more to say?' I asked. + +"'No, monsieur.' + +"'Then, farewell.' + +"'Farewell, monsieur, till some day----' + +"I turned to the ashen-faced priest, whose dark outline stood out against +the wall, and asked: 'Are you going to stay here, Monsieur l'Abbe?' + +"'Yes.' + +"Then the dying man sneered: 'Yes, yes, He sends His vultures to the +corpses.' + +"I had had enough of this. I opened the door and ran away." + + + + + + +THE DISPENSER OF HOLY WATER + +We lived formerly in a little house beside the high road outside the +village. He had set up in business as a wheelwright, after marrying the +daughter of a farmer of the neighborhood, and as they were both +industrious, they managed to save up a nice little fortune. But they had +no children, and this caused them great sorrow. Finally a son was born, +whom they named Jean. They both loved and petted him, enfolding him with +their affection, and were unwilling to let him be out of their sight. + +When he was five years old some mountebanks passed through the country +and set up their tent in the town hall square. + +Jean, who had seen them pass by, made his escape from the house, and +after his father had made a long search for him, he found him among the +learned goats and trick dogs, uttering shouts of laughter and sitting on +the knees of an old clown. + +Three days later, just as they were sitting down to dinner, the +wheelwright and his wife noticed that their son was not in the house. +They looked for him in the garden, and as they did not find him, his +father went out into the road and shouted at the top of his voice, +"Jean!" + +Night came on. A brown vapor arose making distant objects look still +farther away and giving them a dismal, weird appearance. Three tall +pines, close at hand, seemed to be weeping. Still there was no reply, +but the air appeared to be full of indistinct sighing. The father +listened for some time, thinking he heard a sound first in one direction, +then in another, and, almost beside himself, he ran, out into the night, +calling incessantly "Jean! Jean!" + +He ran along thus until daybreak, filling the, darkness with his shouts, +terrifying stray animals, torn by a terrible anguish and fearing that he +was losing his mind. His wife, seated on the stone step of their home, +sobbed until morning. + +They did not find their son. They both aged rapidly in their +inconsolable sorrow. Finally they sold their house and set out to search +together. + +They inquired of the shepherds on the hillsides, of the tradesmen passing +by, of the peasants in the villages and of the authorities in the towns. +But their boy had been lost a long time and no one knew anything about +him. He had probably forgotten his own name by this time and also the +name of his village, and his parents wept in silence, having lost hope. + +Before long their money came to an end, and they worked out by the day in +the farms and inns, doing the most menial work, eating what was left from +the tables, sleeping on the ground and suffering from cold. Then as they +became enfeebled by hard work no one would employ them any longer, and +they were forced to beg along the high roads. They accosted passers-by +in an entreating voice and with sad, discouraged faces; they begged a +morsel of bread from the harvesters who were dining around a tree in the +fields at noon, and they ate in silence seated on the edge of a ditch. +An innkeeper to whom they told their story said to them one day: + +"I know some one who had lost their daughter, and they found her in +Paris." + +They at once set out for Paris. + +When they entered the great city they were bewildered by its size and by +the crowds that they saw. But they knew that Jean must be in the midst +of all these people, though they did not know how to set about looking +for him. Then they feared that they might not recognize him, for he was +only five years old when they last saw him. + +They visited every place, went through all the streets, stopping whenever +they saw a group of people, hoping for some providential meeting, some +extraordinary luck, some compassionate fate. + +They frequently walked at haphazard straight ahead, leaning one against +the other, looking so sad and poverty-stricken that people would give +them alms without their asking. + +They spent every Sunday at the doors of the churches, watching the crowds +entering and leaving, trying to distinguish among the faces one that +might be familiar. Several times they thought they recognized him, but +always found they had made a mistake. + +In the vestibule of one of the churches which they visited the most +frequently there was an old dispenser of holy Water who had become their +friend. He also had a very sad history, and their sympathy for him had +established a bond of close friendship between them. It ended by them +all three living together in a poor lodging on the top floor of a large +house situated at some distance, quite on the outskirts of the city, and +the wheelwright would sometimes take his new friend's place at the church +when the latter was ill. + +Winter came, a very severe winter. The poor holy water sprinkler died +and the parish priest appointed the wheelwright, whose misfortunes had +come to his knowledge, to replace him. He went every morning and sat in +the same place, on the same chair, wearing away the old stone pillar by +continually leaning against it. He would gaze steadily at every man who +entered the church and looked forward to Sunday with as much impatience +as a schoolboy, for on that day the church was filled with people from +morning till night. + +He became very old, growing weaker each day from the dampness of the +church, and his hope oozed away gradually. + +He now knew by sight all the people who came to the services; he knew +their hours, their manners, could distinguish their step on the stone +pavement. + +His interests had become so contracted that the entrance of a stranger in +the church was for him a great event. One day two ladies came in; one +was old, the other young--a mother and daughter probably. Behind them +came a man who was following them. He bowed to them as they came out, +and after offering them some holy water, he took the arm of the elder +lady. + +"That must be the fiance of the younger one," thought the wheelwright. +And until evening he kept trying to recall where he had formerly seen a +young man who resembled this one. But the one he was thinking of must be +an old man by this time, for it seemed as if he had known him down home +in his youth. + +The same man frequently came again to walk home with the ladies, and this +vague, distant, familiar resemblance which he could not place worried the +old man so much that he made his wife come with him to see if she could +help his impaired memory. + +One evening as it was growing dusk the three strangers entered together. +When they had passed the old man said: + +"Well, do you know him?" + +His wife anxiously tried to ransack her memory. Suddenly she said in a +low tone: + +"Yes--yes--but he is darker, taller, stouter and is dressed like a +gentleman, but, father, all the same, it is your face when you were +young!" + +The old man started violently. + +It was true. He looked like himself and also like his brother who was +dead, and like his father, whom he remembered while he was yet young. +The old couple were so affected that they could not speak. The three +persons came out and were about to leave the church. + +The man touched his finger to the holy water sprinkler. Then the old +man, whose hand was trembling so that he was fairly sprinkling the ground +with holy water, exclaimed: + +"Jean!" + +The young man stopped and looked at him. + +He repeated in a lower tone: + +"Jean!" + +The two women looked at them without understanding. + +He then said for the third time, sobbing as he did so: + +"Jean!" + +The man stooped down, with his face close to the old man's, and as a +memory of his childhood dawned on him he replied: + +"Papa Pierre, Mamma Jeanne!" + +He had forgotten everything, his father's surname and the name of his +native place, but he always remembered those two words that he had so +often repeated: "Papa Pierre, Mamma Jeanne." + +He sank to the floor, his face on the old man's knees, and he wept, +kissing now his father and then his mother, while they were almost +breathless from intense joy. + +The two ladies also wept, understanding as they did that some great +happiness had come to pass. + +Then they all went to the young man's house and he told them his history. +The circus people had carried him off. For three years he traveled with +them in various countries. Then the troupe disbanded, and one day an old +lady in a chateau had paid to have him stay with her because she liked +his appearance. As he was intelligent, he was sent to school, then to +college, and the old lady having no children, had left him all her money. +He, for his part, had tried to find his parents, but as he could remember +only the two names, "Papa Pierre, Mamma Jeanne," he had been unable to do +so. Now he was about to be married, and he introduced his fiancee, who +was very good and very pretty. + +When the two old people had told their story in their turn he kissed them +once more. They sat up very late that night, not daring to retire lest +the happiness they had so long sought should escape them again while they +were asleep. + +But misfortune had lost its hold on them and they were happy for the rest +of their lives. + + + + + + +A PARRICIDE + +The lawyer had presented a plea of insanity. How could anyone explain +this strange crime otherwise? + +One morning, in the grass near Chatou, two bodies had been found, a man +and a woman, well known, rich, no longer young and married since the +preceding year, the woman having been a widow for three years before. + +They were not known to have enemies; they had not been robbed. They +seemed to have been thrown from the roadside into the river, after having +been struck, one after the other, with a long iron spike. + +The investigation revealed nothing. The boatmen, who had been +questioned, knew nothing. The matter was about to be given up, when a +young carpenter from a neighboring village, Georges Louis, nicknamed "the +Bourgeois," gave himself up. + +To all questions he only answered this: + +"I had known the man for two years, the woman for six months. They often +had me repair old furniture for them, because I am a clever workman." + +And when he was asked: + +"Why did you kill them?" + +He would obstinately answer: + +"I killed them because I wanted to kill them." + +They could get nothing more out of him. + +This man was undoubtedly an illegitimate child, put out to nurse and then +abandoned. He had no other name than Georges Louis, but as on growing up +he became particularly intelligent, with the good taste and native +refinement which his acquaintances did not have, he was nicknamed "the +Bourgeois," and he was never called otherwise. He had become remarkably +clever in the trade of a carpenter, which he had taken up. He was also +said to be a socialist fanatic, a believer in communistic and nihilistic +doctrines, a great reader of bloodthirsty novels, an influential +political agitator and a clever orator in the public meetings of workmen +or of farmers. + +His lawyer had pleaded insanity. + +Indeed, how could one imagine that this workman should kill his best +customers, rich and generous (as he knew), who in two years had enabled +him to earn three thousand francs (his books showed it)? Only one +explanation could be offered: insanity, the fixed idea of the unclassed +individual who reeks vengeance on two bourgeois, on all ,the bourgeoisie, +and the lawyer made a clever allusion to this nickname of "The +Bourgeois," given throughout the neighborhood to this poor wretch. +He exclaimed: + +"Is this irony not enough to unbalance the mind of this poor wretch, who +has neither father nor mother? He is an ardent republican. What am I +saying? He even belongs to the same political party, the members of +which, formerly shot or exiled by the government, it now welcomes with +open arms this party to which arson is a principle and murder an ordinary +occurrence. + +"These gloomy doctrines, now applauded in public meetings, have ruined +this man. He has heard republicans--even women, yes, women---ask for the +blood of M. Gambetta, the blood of M. Grevy; his weakened mind gave way; +he wanted blood, the blood of a bourgeois! + +"It is not he whom you should condemn, gentlemen; it is the Commune!" + +Everywhere could be heard murmurs of assent. Everyone felt that the +lawyer had won his case. The prosecuting attorney did not oppose him. + +Then the presiding judge asked the accused the customary question: + +"Prisoner, is there anything that you wish to add to your defense?" + +The man stood up. + +He was a short, flaxen blond, with calm, clear, gray eyes. A strong, +frank, sonorous voice came from this frail-looking boy and, at the first +words, quickly changed the opinion which had been formed of him. + +He spoke loud in a declamatory manner, but so distinctly that every word +could be understood in the farthest corners of the big hall: + +"Your honor, as I do not wish to go to an insane asylum, and as I even +prefer death to that, I will tell everything. + +"I killed this man and this woman because they were my parents. + +"Now, listen, and judge me. + +"A woman, having given birth to a boy, sent him out, somewhere, to a +nurse. Did she even know where her accomplice carried this innocent +little being, condemned to eternal misery, to the shame of an +illegitimate birth; to more than that--to death, since he was abandoned +and the nurse, no longer receiving the monthly pension, might, as they +often do, let him die of hunger and neglect! + +"The woman who nursed me was honest, better, more noble, more of a mother +than my own mother. She brought me up. She did wrong in doing her duty. +It is more humane to let them die, these little wretches who are cast +away in suburban villages just as garbage is thrown away. + +"I grew up with the indistinct impression that I was carrying some burden +of shame. One day the other children called me a 'b-----'. They did not +know the meaning of this word, which one of them had heard at home. +I was also ignorant of its meaning, but I felt the sting all the same. + +"I was, I may say, one of the cleverest boys in the school. I would have +been a good man, your honor, perhaps a man of superior intellect, if my +parents had not committed the crime of abandoning me. + +"This crime was committed against me. I was the victim, they were the +guilty ones. I was defenseless, they were pitiless. Their duty was to +love me, they rejected me. + +"I owed them life--but is life a boon? To me, at any rate, it was a +misfortune. After their shameful desertion, I owed them only vengeance. +They committed against me the most inhuman, the most infamous, the most +monstrous crime which can be committed against a human creature. + +"A man who has been insulted, strikes; a man who has been robbed, takes +back his own by force. A man who has been deceived, played upon, +tortured, kills; a man who has been slapped, kills; a man who has been +dishonored, kills. I have been robbed, deceived, tortured, morally +slapped, dishonored, all this to a greater degree than those whose anger +you excuse. + +"I revenged myself, I killed. It was my legitimate right. I took their +happy life in exchange for the terrible one which they had forced on me. + +"You will call me parricide! Were these people my parents, for whom I +was an abominable burden, a terror, an infamous shame; for whom my birth +was a calamity and my life a threat of disgrace? They sought a selfish +pleasure; they got an unexpected child. They suppressed the child. My +turn came to do the same for them. + +"And yet, up to quite recently, I was ready to love them. + +"As I have said, this man, my father, came to me for the first time two +years ago. I suspected nothing. He ordered two pieces of furniture. +I found out, later on, that, under the seal of secrecy, naturally, he had +sought information from the priest. + +"He returned often. He gave me a lot of work and paid me well. +Sometimes he would even talk to me of one thing or another. I felt a +growing affection for him. + +"At the beginning of this year he brought with him his wife, my mother. +When she entered she was trembling so that I thought her to be suffering +from some nervous disease. Then she asked for a seat and a glass of +water. She said nothing; she looked around abstractedly at my work and +only answered 'yes' and 'no,' at random, to all the questions which he +asked her. When she had left I thought her a little unbalanced. + +"The following month they returned. She was calm, self-controlled. That +day they chattered for a long time, and they left me a rather large +order. I saw her three more times, without suspecting anything. But one +day she began to talk to me of my life, of my childhood, of my parents. +I answered: 'Madame, my parents were wretches who deserted me.' Then she +clutched at her heart and fell, unconscious. I immediately thought: 'She +is my mother!' but I took care not to let her notice anything. I wished +to observe her. + +"I, in turn, sought out information about them. I learned that they had +been married since last July, my mother having been a widow for only +three years. There had been rumors that they had loved each other during +the lifetime of the first husband, but there was no proof of it. I was +the proof--the proof which they had at first hidden and then hoped to +destroy. + +"I waited. She returned one evening, escorted as usual by my father. +That day she seemed deeply moved, I don't know why. Then, as she was +leaving, she said to me: 'I wish you success, because you seem to me to +be honest and a hard worker; some day you will undoubtedly think of +getting married. I have come to help you to choose freely the woman who +may suit you. I was married against my inclination once and I know what +suffering it causes. Now I am rich, childless, free, mistress of my +fortune. Here is your dowry.' + +"She held out to me a large, sealed envelope. + +"I looked her straight in the eyes and then said: 'Are you my mother?' + +"She drew back a few steps and hid her face in her hands so as not to see +me. He, the man, my father, supported her in his arms and cried out to +me: 'You must be crazy!' + +"I answered: 'Not in the least. I know that you are my parents. I +cannot be thus deceived. Admit it and I will keep the secret; I will +bear you no ill will; I will remain what I am, a carpenter.' + +"He retreated towards the door, still supporting his wife who was +beginning to sob. Quickly I locked the door, put the key in my pocket +and continued: 'Look at her and dare to deny that she is my mother.' + +"Then he flew into a passion, very pale, terrified at the thought that +the scandal, which had so far been avoided, might suddenly break out; +that their position, their good name, their honor might all at once be +lost. He stammered out: 'You are a rascal, you wish to get money from +us! That's the thanks we get for trying to help such common people!' + +"My mother, bewildered, kept repeating: 'Let's get out of here, let's get +out!' + +"Then, when he found the door locked, he exclaimed : 'If you do not open +this door immediately, I will have you thrown into prison for blackmail +and assault!' + +"I had remained calm; I opened the door and saw them disappear in the +darkness. + +"Then I seemed to have been suddenly orphaned, deserted, pushed to the +wall. I was seized with an overwhelming sadness, mingled with anger, +hatred, disgust; my whole being seemed to rise up in revolt against the +injustice, the meanness, the dishonor, the rejected love. I began to +run, in order to overtake them along the Seine, which they had to follow +in order to reach the station of Chaton. + +"I soon caught up with them. It was now pitch dark. I was creeping up +behind them softly, that they might not hear me. My mother was still +crying. My father was saying: 'It's all your own fault. Why did you +wish to see him? It was absurd in our position. We could have helped +him from afar, without showing ourselves. Of what use are these +dangerous visits, since we can't recognize him?' + +"Then I rushed up to them, beseeching. I cried: + +'You see! You are my parents. You have already rejected me once; would +you repulse me again?' + +"Then, your honor, he struck me. I swear it on my honor, before the law +and my country. He struck me, and as I seized him by the collar, he drew +from his pocket a revolver. + +"The blood rushed to my head, I no longer knew what I was doing, I had my +compass in my pocket; I struck him with it as often as I could. + +"Then she began to cry: 'Help! murder!' and to pull my beard. It seems +that I killed her also. How do I know what I did then? + +"Then, when I saw them both lying on the ground, without thinking, I +threw them into the Seine. + +"That's all. Now sentence me." + +The prisoner sat down. After this revelation the case was carried over +to the following session. It comes up very soon. If we were jurymen, +what would we do with this parricide? + + + + + + +BERTHA + +Dr. Bonnet, my old friend--one sometimes has friends older than one's +self--had often invited me to spend some time with him at Riom, and, as I +did not know Auvergne, I made up my mind to visit him in the summer of +1876. + +I arrived by the morning train, and the first person I saw on the +platform was the doctor. He was dressed in a gray suit, and wore a soft, +black, wide-brimmed, high-crowned felt hat, narrow at the top like a +chimney pot, a hat which hardly any one except an Auvergnat would wear, +and which reminded one of a charcoal burner. Dressed like that, the +doctor had the appearance of an old young man, with his spare body under +his thin coat, and his large head covered with white hair. + +He embraced me with that evident pleasure which country people feel when +they meet long-expected friends, and, stretching out his arm, he said +proudly: + +"This is Auvergne!" I saw nothing before me except a range of mountains, +whose summits, which resembled truncated cones, must have been extinct +volcanoes. + +Then, pointing to the name of the station, he said: + +"Riom, the fatherland of magistrates, the pride of the magistracy, and +which ought rather to be the fatherland of doctors." + +"Why?" I, asked. + +"Why?" he replied with a laugh. "If you transpose the letters, you have +the Latin word 'mori', to die. That is the reason why I settled here, my +young friend." + +And, delighted at his own joke, he carried me off, rubbing his hands. + +As soon as I had swallowed a cup of coffee, he made me go and see the +town. I admired the druggist's house, and the other noted houses, which +were all black, but as pretty as bric-a-brac, with their facades of +sculptured stone. I admired the statue of the Virgin, the patroness of +butchers, and he told me an amusing story about this, which I will relate +some other time, and then Dr. Bonnet said to me: + +"I must beg you to excuse me for a few minutes while I go and see a +patient, and then I will take you to Chatel-Guyon, so as to show you the +general aspect of the town, and all the mountain chain of the Puy-de-Dome +before lunch. You can wait for me outside; I shall only go upstairs and +come down immediately." + +He left me outside one of those old, gloomy, silent, melancholy houses, +which one sees in the provinces, and this one appeared to look +particularly sinister, and I soon discovered the reason. All the large +windows on the first floor were boarded half way up. The upper part of +them alone could be opened, as if one had wished to prevent the people +who were locked up in that huge stone box from looking into the street. + +When the doctor came down again, I told him how it struck me, and he +replied: + +"You are quite right; the poor creature who is living there must never +see what is going on outside. She is a madwoman, or rather an idiot, +what you Normans would call a Niente. It is a miserable story, but a +very singular pathological case at the same time. Shall I tell you?" + +I begged him to do so, and he continued: + +"Twenty years ago the owners of this house, who were my patients, had a +daughter who was like all other girls, but I soon discovered that while +her body became admirably developed, her intellect remained stationary. + +"She began to walk very early, but she could not talk. At first I +thought she was deaf, but I soon discovered that, although she heard +perfectly, she did not understand anything that was said to her. Violent +noises made her start and frightened her, without her understanding how +they were caused. + +"She grew up into a superb woman, but she was dumb, from an absolute want +of intellect. I tried all means to introduce a gleam of intelligence +into her brain, but nothing succeeded. I thought I noticed that she knew +her nurse, though as soon as she was weaned, she failed to recognize her +mother. She could never pronounce that word which is the first that +children utter and the last which soldiers murmur when they are dying on +the field of battle. She sometimes tried to talk, but she produced +nothing but incoherent sounds. + +"When the weather was fine, she laughed continually, and emitted low +cries which might be compared to the twittering of birds; when it rained +she cried and moaned in a mournful, terrifying manner, which sounded like +the howling of a dog before a death occurs in a house. + +"She was fond of rolling on the grass, as young animals do, and of +running about madly, and she would clap her hands every morning, when the +sun shone into her room, and would insist, by signs, on being dressed as +quickly as possible, so that she might get out. + +"She did not appear to distinguish between people, between her mother and +her nurse, or between her father and me, or between the coachman and the +cook. I particularly liked her parents, who were very unhappy on her +account, and went to see them nearly every day. I dined with them quite +frequently, which enabled me to remark that Bertha (they had called her +Bertha) seemed to recognize the various dishes, and to prefer some to +others. At that time she was twelve years old, but as fully formed in +figure as a girl of eighteen, and taller than I was. Then the idea +struck me of developing her greediness, and by this means of cultivating +some slight power of discrimination in her mind, and to force her, by the +diversity of flavors, if not to reason, at any rate to arrive at +instinctive distinctions, which would of themselves constitute a kind of +process that was necessary to thought. Later on, by appealing to her +passions, and by carefully making use of those which could serve our +purpose, we might hope to obtain a kind of reaction on her intellect, and +by degrees increase the unconscious action of her brain. + +"One day I put two plates before her, one of soup, and the other of very +sweet vanilla cream. I made her taste each of them successively, and +then I let her choose for herself, and she ate the plate of +cream. In a short time I made her very greedy, so greedy that it +appeared as if the only idea she had in her head was the desire for +eating. She perfectly recognized the various dishes, and stretched out +her hands toward those that she liked, and took hold of them eagerly, and +she used to cry when they were taken from her. Then I thought I would +try and teach her to come to the dining-room when the dinner bell rang. +It took a long time, but I succeeded in the end. In her vacant intellect +a vague correlation was established between sound and taste, a +correspondence between the two senses, an appeal from one to the other, +and consequently a sort of connection of ideas--if one can call that kind +of instinctive hyphen between two organic functions an idea--and so I +carried my experiments further, and taught her, with much difficulty, to +recognize meal times by the clock. + +"It was impossible for me for a long time to attract her attention to the +hands, but I succeeded in making her remark the clockwork and the +striking apparatus. The means I employed were very simple; I asked them +not to have the bell rung for lunch, and everybody got up and went into +the dining-room when the little brass hammer struck twelve o'clock, but I +found great difficulty in making her learn to count the strokes. She ran +to the door each time she heard the clock strike, but by degrees she +learned that all the strokes had not the same value as far as regarded +meals, and she frequently fixed her eyes, guided by her ears, on the dial +of the clock. + +"When I noticed that, I took care every day at twelve, and at six +o'clock, to place my fingers on the figures twelve and six, as soon as +the moment she was waiting for had arrived, and I soon noticed that she +attentively followed the motion of the small brass hands, which I had +often turned in her presence. + +"She had understood! Perhaps I ought rather to say that she had grasped +the idea. I had succeeded in getting the knowledge, or, rather, the +sensation, of the time into her, just as is the case with carp, who +certainly have no clocks, when they are fed every day exactly at the same +time. + +"When once I had obtained that result all the clocks and watches in the +house occupied her attention almost exclusively. She spent her time in +looking at them, listening to them, and in waiting for meal time, and +once something very funny happened. The striking apparatus of a pretty +little Louis XVI clock that hung at the head of her bed having got out of +order, she noticed it. She sat for twenty minutes with her eyes on the +hands, waiting for it to strike ten, but when the hands passed the figure +she was astonished at not hearing anything; so stupefied was she, indeed, +that she sat down, no doubt overwhelmed by a feeling of violent emotion +such as attacks us in the face of some terrible catastrophe. And she had +the wonderful patience to wait until eleven o'clock in order to see what +would happen, and as she naturally heard nothing, she was suddenly either +seized with a wild fit of rage at having been deceived and imposed upon +by appearances, or else overcome by that fear which some frightened +creature feels at some terrible mystery, and by the furious impatience of +a passionate individual who meets with some obstacle; she took up the +tongs from the fireplace and struck the clock so violently that she broke +it to pieces in a moment. + +"It was evident, therefore, that her, brain did act and calculate, +obscurely it is true, and within very restricted limits, for I could +never succeed in making her distinguish persons as she distinguished the +time; and to stir her intellect, it was necessary to appeal to her +passions, in the material sense of the word, and we soon had another, and +alas! a very terrible proof of this! + +"She had grown up into a splendid girl, a perfect type of a race, a sort +of lovely and stupid Venus. She was sixteen, and I have rarely seen such +perfection of form, such suppleness and such regular features. I said +she was a Venus; yes, a fair, stout, vigorous Venus, with large, bright, +vacant eyes, which were as blue as the flowers of the flax plant; she had +a large mouth with full lips, the mouth of a glutton, of a sensualist, a +mouth made for kisses. Well, one morning her father came into my +consulting room with a strange look on his face, and, sitting down +without even replying to my greeting, he said: + +"'I want to speak to you about a very serious matter. Would it be +possible--would it be possible for Bertha to marry?' + +"'Bertha to marry! Why, it is quite impossible!' + +"'Yes, I know, I know,' he replied. 'But reflect, doctor. Don't you +think--perhaps--we hoped--if she had children--it would be a great shock +to her, but a great happiness, and--who knows whether maternity might not +rouse her intellect?' + +"I was in a state of great perplexity. He was right, and it was possible +that such a new situation, and that wonderful instinct of maternity, +which beats in the hearts of the lower animals as it does in the heart of +a woman, which makes the hen fly at a dog's jaws to defend her chickens, +might bring about a revolution, an utter change in her vacant mind, and +set the motionless mechanism of her thoughts in motion. And then, +moreover, I immediately remembered a personal instance. Some years +previously I had owned a spaniel bitch who was so stupid that I could do +nothing with her, but when she had had puppies she became, if not exactly +intelligent, yet almost like many other dogs who had not been thoroughly +broken. + +"As soon as I foresaw the possibility of this, the wish to get Bertha +married grew in me, not so much out of friendship for her and her poor +parents as from scientific curiosity. What would happen? It was a +singular problem. I said in reply to her father: + +"'Perhaps you are right. You might make the attempt, but you will never +find a man to consent to marry her.' + +"'I have found somebody,' he said, in a low voice. + +"I was dumfounded, and said: 'Somebody really suitable? Some one of your +own rank and position in society?' + +"'Decidedly,' he replied. + +"'Oh! And may I ask his name?' + +"'I came on purpose to tell you, and to consult you. It is Monsieur +Gaston du Boys de Lucelles.' + +"I felt inclined to exclaim: 'The wretch!' but I held my tongue, and +after a few moments' silence I said: + +"'Oh! Very good. I see nothing against it.' + +"The poor man shook me heartily by the hand. + +"'She is to be married next month,' he said. + + +"Monsieur Gaston du Boys de Lucelles was a scapegrace of good family, +who, after having spent all that he had inherited from his father, and +having incurred debts in all kinds of doubtful ways, had been trying to +discover some other means of obtaining money, and he had discovered this +method. He was a good-looking young fellow, and in capital health, but +fast; one of that odious race of provincial fast men, and he appeared to +me to be as suitable as anyone, and could be got rid of later by making +him an allowance. He came to the house to pay his addresses and to strut +about before the idiot girl, who, however, seemed to please him. He +brought her flowers, kissed her hands, sat at her feet, and looked at her +with affectionate eyes; but she took no notice of any of his attentions, +and did not make any distinction between him and the other persons who +were about her. + +"However, the marriage took place, and you may guess how my curiosity was +aroused. I went to see Bertha the next day to try and discover from her +looks whether any feelings had been awakened in her, but I found her just +the same as she was every day, wholly taken up with the clock and dinner, +while he, on the contrary, appeared really in love, and tried to rouse +his wife's spirits and affection by little endearments and such caresses +as one bestows on a kitten. He could think of nothing better. + +"I called upon the married couple pretty frequently, and I soon perceived +that the young woman knew her husband, and gave him those eager looks +which she had hitherto only bestowed on sweet dishes. + +"She followed his movements, knew his step on the stairs or in the +neighboring rooms, clapped her hands when he came in, and her face was +changed and brightened by the flames of profound happiness and of desire. + +"She loved him with her whole body and with all her soul to the very +depths of her poor, weak soul, and with all her heart, that poor heart of +some grateful animal. It was really a delightful and innocent picture of +simple passion, of carnal and yet modest passion, such as nature had +implanted in mankind, before man had complicated and disfigured it by all +the various shades of sentiment. But he soon grew tired of this ardent, +beautiful, dumb creature, and did not spend more than an hour during the +day with her, thinking it sufficient if he came home at night, and she +began to suffer in consequence. She used to wait for him from morning +till night with her eyes on the clock; she did not even look after the +meals now, for he took all his away from home, Clermont, Chatel-Guyon, +Royat, no matter where, as long as he was not obliged to come home. + +"She began to grow thin; every other thought, every other wish, every +other expectation, and every confused hope disappeared from her mind, and +the hours during which she did not see him became hours of terrible +suffering to her. Soon he ceased to come home regularly of nights; he +spent them with women at the casino at Royat and did not come home until +daybreak. But she never went to bed before he returned. She remained +sitting motionless in an easy-chair, with her eyes fixed on the hands of +the clock, which turned so slowly and regularly round the china face on +which the hours were painted. + +"She heard the trot of his horse in the distance and sat up with a start, +and when he came into the room she got up with the movements of an +automaton and pointed to the clock, as if to say: 'Look how late it is!' + +"And he began to be afraid of this amorous and jealous, half-witted +woman, and flew into a rage, as brutes do; and one night he even went so +far as to strike her, so they sent for me. When I arrived she was +writhing and screaming in a terrible crisis of pain, anger, passion, how +do I know what? Can one tell what goes on in such undeveloped brains? + +"I calmed her by subcutaneous injections of morphine, and forbade her to +see that man again, for I saw clearly that marriage would infallibly kill +her by degrees. + +"Then she went mad! Yes, my dear friend, that idiot went mad. She is +always thinking of him and waiting for him; she waits for him all day and +night, awake or asleep, at this very moment, ceaselessly. When I saw her +getting thinner and thinner, and as she persisted in never taking her +eyes off the clocks, I had them removed from the house. I thus made it +impossible for her to count the hours, and to try to remember, from her +indistinct reminiscences, at what time he used to come home formerly. I +hope to destroy the recollection of it in time, and to extinguish that +ray of thought which I kindled with so much difficulty. + +"The other day I tried an experiment. I offered her my watch; she took +it and looked at it for some time; then she began to scream terribly, as +if the sight of that little object had suddenly awakened her memory, +which was beginning to grow indistinct. She is pitiably thin now, with +hollow and glittering eyes, and she walks up and down ceaselessly, like a +wild beast in its cage; I have had gratings put on the windows, boarded +them up half way, and have had the seats fixed to the floor so as to +prevent her from looking to see whether he is coming. + +"Oh! her poor parents! What a life they must lead!" + +We had got to the top of the hill, and the doctor turned round and said +to me: + +"Look at Riom from here." + +The gloomy town looked like some ancient city. Behind it a green, wooded +plain studded with towns and villages, and bathed in a soft blue haze, +extended until it was lost in the distance. Far away, on my right, there +was a range of lofty mountains with round summits, or else cut off flat, +as if with a sword, and the doctor began to enumerate the villages, towns +and hills, and to give me the history of all of them. But I did not +listen to him; I was thinking of nothing but the madwoman, and I only saw +her. She seemed to be hovering over that vast extent of country like a +mournful ghost, and I asked him abruptly: + +"What has become of the husband?" + +My friend seemed rather surprised, but after a few moments' hesitation, +he replied: + +"He is living at Royat, on an allowance that they made him, and is quite +happy; he leads a very fast life." + +As we were slowly going back, both of us silent and rather low-spirited, +an English dogcart, drawn by a thoroughbred horse, came up behind us and +passed us rapidly. The doctor took me by the arm. + +"There he is," he said. + +I saw nothing except a gray felt hat, cocked over one ear above a pair of +broad shoulders, driving off in a cloud of dust. + + + + + + +THE PATRON + +We never dreamed of such good fortune! The son of a provincial bailiff, +Jean Marin had come, as do so many others, to study law in the Quartier +Latin. In the various beer-houses that he had frequented he had made +friends with several talkative students who spouted politics as they +drank their beer. He had a great admiration for them and followed them +persistently from cafe to cafe, even paying for their drinks when he had +the money. + +He became a lawyer and pleaded causes, which he lost. However, one +morning he read in the papers that one of his former comrades of the +Quartier had just been appointed deputy. + +He again became his faithful hound, the friend who does the drudgery, the +unpleasant tasks, for whom one sends when one has need of him and with +whom one does not stand on ceremony. But it chanced through some +parliamentary incident that the deputy became a minister. Six months +later Jean Marin was appointed a state councillor. + +He was so elated with pride at first that he lost his head. He would +walk through the streets just to show himself off, as though one could +tell by his appearance what position he occupied. He managed to say to +the shopkeepers as soon as he entered a store, bringing it in somehow in +the course of the most insignificant remarks and even to the news vendors +and the cabmen: + +"I, who am a state councillor--" + +Then, in consequence of his position as well as for professional reasons +and as in duty bound through being an influential and generous man, he +felt an imperious need of patronizing others. He offered his support to +every one on all occasions and with unbounded generosity. + +When he met any one he recognized on the boulevards he would advance to +meet them with a charmed air, would take their hand, inquire after their +health, and, without waiting for any questions, remark: + +"You know I am state councillor, and I am entirely at your service. If I +can be of any use to you, do not hesitate to call on me. In my position +one has great influence." + +Then he would go into some cafe with the friend he had just met and ask +for a pen and ink and a sheet of paper. "Just one, waiter; it is to +write a letter of recommendation." + +And he wrote ten, twenty, fifty letters of recommendation a day. He +wrote them to the Cafe Americain, to Bignon's, to Tortoni's, to the +Maison Doree, to the Cafe Riche, to the Helder, to the Cafe Anglais, to +the Napolitain, everywhere, everywhere. He wrote them to all the +officials of the republican government, from the magistrates to the +ministers. And he was happy, perfectly happy. + +One morning as he was starting out to go to the council it began to rain. +He hesitated about taking a cab, but decided not to do so and set out on +foot. + +The rain came down in torrents, swamping the sidewalks and inundating the +streets. M. Marin was obliged to take shelter in a doorway. An old +priest was standing there--an old priest with white hair. Before he +became a councillor M. Marin did not like the clergy. Now he treated +them with consideration, ever since a cardinal had consulted him on an +important matter. The rain continued to pour down in floods and obliged +the two men to take shelter in the porter's lodge so as to avoid getting +wet. M. Marin, who was always itching to talk so as to let people know +who he was, remarked: + +"This is horrible weather, Monsieur l'Abbe." + +The old priest bowed: + +"Yes indeed, sir, it is very unpleasant when one comes to Paris for only +a few days." + +"Ah! You come from the provinces?" + +"Yes, monsieur. I am only passing through on my journey." + +"It certainly is very disagreeable to have rain during the few days one +spends in the capital. We officials who stay here the year round, we +think nothing of it." + +The priest did not reply. He was looking at the street where the rain +seemed to be falling less heavily. And with a sudden resolve he raised +his cassock just as women raise their skirts in stepping across water. + +M. Marin, seeing him start away, exclaimed: + +"You will get drenched, Monsieur l'Abbe. Wait a few moments longer; the +rain will be over." + +The good man stopped irresistibly and then said: + +"But I am in a great hurry. I have an important engagement." + +M. Marin seemed quite worried. + +"But you will be absolutely drenched. Might I ask in which direction you +are going?" + +The priest appeared to hesitate. Then he said: + +"I am going in the direction of the Palais Royal." + +"In that case, if you will allow me, Monsieur l'Abbe, I will offer you +the shelter of my umbrella: As for me, I am going to the council. I am a +councillor of state." + +The old priest raised his head and looked at his neighbor and then +exclaimed: + +"I thank you, monsieur. I shall be glad to accept your offer." + +M. Marin then took his arm and led him away. He directed him, watched +over him and advised him. + +"Be careful of that stream, Monsieur 1'Abbe. And be very careful about +the carriage wheels; they spatter you with mud sometimes from head to +foot. Look out for the umbrellas of the people passing by; there is +nothing more dangerous to the eyes than the tips of the ribs. Women +especially are unbearable; they pay no heed to where they are going and +always jab you in the face with the point of their parasols or umbrellas. +And they never move aside for anybody. One would suppose the town +belonged to them. They monopolize the pavement and the street. It is my +opinion that their education has been greatly neglected." + +And M. Marin laughed. + +The priest did not reply. He walked along, slightly bent over, picking +his steps carefully so as not to get mud on his boots or his cassock. + +M. Marin resumed: + +"I suppose you have come to Paris to divert your mind a little?" + +The good man replied: + +"No, I have some business to attend to." + +"Ali! Is it important business? Might I venture to ask what it is? If +I can be of any service to you, you may command me." + +The priest seemed embarrassed. He murmured: + +"Oh, it is a little personal matter; a little difficulty with--with my +bishop. It would not interest you. It is a matter of internal +regulation--an ecclesiastical affair." + +M. Marin was eager. + +"But it is precisely the state council that regulates all those things. +In that case, make use of me." + +"Yes, monsieur, it is to the council that I am going. You are a thousand +times too kind. I have to see M. Lerepere and M. Savon and also perhaps +M. Petitpas." + +M. Marin stopped short. + +"Why, those are my friends, Monsieur l'Abbe, my best friends, excellent +colleagues, charming men. I will speak to them about you, and very +highly. Count upon me." + +The cure thanked him, apologizing for troubling him, and stammered out a +thousand grateful promises. + +M. Marin was enchanted. + +"Ah, you may be proud of having made a stroke of luck, Monsieur l'Abbe. +You will see--you will see that, thanks to me, your affair will go along +swimmingly." + +They reached the council hall. M. Marin took the priest into his office, +offered him a chair in front of the fire and sat down himself at his desk +and began to write. + +"My dear colleague, allow me to recommend to you most highly a venerable +and particularly worthy and deserving priest, M. L'Abbe----" + +He stopped and asked: + +"Your name, if you please?" + +"L'Abbe Ceinture." + +"M. l'Abbe Ceinture, who needs your good office in a little matter which +he will communicate to you. + +"I am pleased at this incident which gives me an opportunity, my dear +colleague----" + +And he finished with the usual compliments. + +When he had written the three letters he handed them to his protege, who +took his departure with many protestations of gratitude. + +M. Marin attended to some business and then went home, passed the day +quietly, slept well, woke in a good humor and sent for his newspapers. + +The first he opened was a radical sheet. He read: + + "OUR CLERGY AND OUR GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS + +"We shall never make an end of enumerating the misdeeds of the clergy. +A certain priest, named Ceinture, convicted of conspiracy against the +present government, accused of base actions to which we will not even +allude, suspected besides of being a former Jesuit, metamorphosed into a +simple priest, suspended by a bishop for causes that are said to be +unmentionable and summoned to Paris to give an explanation of his +conduct, has found an ardent defender in the man named Marin, a +councillor of state, who was not afraid to give this frocked malefactor +the warmest letters of recommendation to all the republican officials, +his colleagues. + +"We call the, attention of the ministry to the unheard of attitude of +this councillor of state----" + +M. Marin bounded out of bed, dressed himself and hastened to his +colleague, Petitpas, who said to him: + +"How now? You were crazy to recommend to me that old conspirator!" + +M. Marin, bewildered, stammered out: + +"Why no--you see--I was deceived. He looked such an honest man. He +played me a trick--a disgraceful trick! I beg that you will sentence him +severely, very severely. I am going to write. Tell me to whom I should +write about having him punished. I will go and see the attorney-general +and the archbishop of Paris--yes, the archbishop." + +And seating himself abruptly at M. Petitpas' desk, he wrote: + +"Monseigneur, I have the honor to bring to your grace's notice the fact +that I have recently been made a victim of the intrigues and lies of a +certain Abbe Ceinture, who imposed on my kind-heartedness. + +"Deceived by the representations of this ecclesiastic, I was led----" + +Then, having signed and sealed his letter, he turned to his colleague and +exclaimed: + +"See here; my dear friend, let this be a warning to you never to +recommend any one again." + + + + + + +THE DOOR + +"Bah!" exclaimed Karl Massouligny, "the question of complaisant husbands +is a difficult one. I have seen many kinds, and yet I am unable to give +an opinion about any of them. I have often tried to determine whether +they are blind, weak or clairvoyant. I believe that there are some which +belong to each of these categories. + +"Let us quickly pass over the blind ones. They cannot rightly be called +complaisant, since they do not know, but they are good creatures who +cannot see farther than their nose. It is a curious and interesting +thing to notice the ease with which men and women can, be deceived. +We are taken in by the slightest trick of those who surround us, by our +children, our friends, our servants, our tradespeople. Humanity is +credulous, and in order to discover deceit in others, we do not display +one-tenth the shrewdness which we use when we, in turn, wish to deceive +some one else. + +"Clairvoyant husbands may be divided into three classes: Those who have +some interest, pecuniary, ambitious or otherwise, in their wife's having +love affairs. These ask only to safeguard appearances as much as +possible, and they are satisfied. + +"Next come those who get angry. What a beautiful novel one could write +about them! + +"Finally the weak ones! Those who are afraid of scandal. + +"There are also those who are powerless, or, rather, tired, who flee from +the duties of matrimony through fear of ataxia or apoplexy, who are +satisfied to see a friend run these risks. + +"But I once met a husband of a rare species, who guarded against the +common accident in a strange and witty manner. + +"In Paris I had made the acquaintance of an elegant, fashionable couple. +The woman, nervous, tall, slender, courted, was supposed to have had many +love adventures. She pleased me with her wit, and I believe that I +pleased her also. I courted her, a trial courting to which she answered +with evident provocations. Soon we got to tender glances, hand +pressures, all the little gallantries which precede the final attack. + +"Nevertheless, I hesitated. I consider that, as a rule, the majority of +society intrigues, however short they may be, are not worth the trouble +which they give us and the difficulties which may arise. I therefore +mentally compared the advantages and disadvantages which I might expect, +and I thought I noticed that the husband suspected me. + +"One evening, at a ball, as I was saying tender things to the young woman +in a little parlor leading from the big hall where the dancing was going +on, I noticed in a mirror the reflection of some one who was watching me. +It was he. Our looks met and then I saw him turn his head and walk away. + +"I murmured: 'Your husband is spying on us.' + +"She seemed dumbfounded and asked: 'My husband?' + +"'Yes, he has been watching us for some time: + +"'Nonsense! Are you sure?' + +"'Very sure.' + +"'How strange! He is usually extraordinarily pleasant to all my. +friends.' + +"'Perhaps he guessed that I love you!' + +"'Nonsense! You are not the first one to pay attention to me. Every +woman who is a little in view drags behind her a herd of admirers.' + +"'Yes. But I love you deeply.' + +"'Admitting that that is true, does a husband ever guess those things?' + +"'Then he is not jealous?' + +"'No-no!' + +"She thought for an instant and then continued: 'No. I do not think that +I ever noticed any jealousy on his part.' + +"'Has he never-watched you?' + +"'No. As I said, he is always agreeable to my friends.' + +"From that day my courting became much more assiduous. The woman did not +please me any more than before, but the probable jealousy of her husband +tempted me greatly. + +"As for her, I judged her coolly and clearly. She had a certain worldly +charm, due to a quick, gay, amiable and superficial mind, but no real, +deep attraction. She was, as I have already said, an excitable little +being, all on the surface, with rather a showy elegance. How can I +explain myself? She was an ornament, not a home. + +"One day, after taking dinner with her, her husband said to me, just as I +was leaving: 'My dear friend' (he now called me 'friend'), 'we soon leave +for the country. It is a great pleasure to my wife and myself to +entertain people whom we like. We would be very pleased to have you +spend a month with us. It would be very nice of you to do so.' + +"I was dumbfounded, but I accepted. + +"A month later I arrived at their estate of Vertcresson, in Touraine. +They were waiting for me at the station, five miles from the chateau. +There were three of them, she, the husband and a gentleman unknown to me, +the Comte de Morterade, to whom I was introduced. He appeared to be +delighted to make my acquaintance, and the strangest ideas passed through +my mind while we trotted along the beautiful road between two hedges. +I was saying to myself: 'Let's see, what can this mean? Here is a +husband who cannot doubt that his wife and I are on more than friendly +terms, and yet he invites me to his house, receives me like an old friend +and seems to say: "Go ahead, my friend, the road is clear!" + +"'Then I am introduced to a very pleasant gentleman, who seems already to +have settled down in the house, and--and who is perhaps trying to get out +of it, and who seems as pleased at my arrival as the husband himself. + +"'Is it some former admirer who wishes to retire? One might think so. +But, then, would these two men tacitly have come to one of these infamous +little agreements so common in society? And it is proposed to me that I +should quietly enter into the pact and carry it out. All hands and arms +are held out to me. All doors and hearts are open to me. + +"'And what about her? An enigma. She cannot be ignorant of everything. +However--however---- Well, I cannot understand it.' + +"The dinner was very gay and cordial. On leaving the table the husband +and his friend began to play cards, while I went out on the porch to look +at the moonlight with madame. She seemed to be greatly affected by +nature, and I judged that the moment for my happiness was near. That +evening she was really delightful. The country had seemed to make her +more tender. Her long, slender waist looked pretty on this stone porch +beside a great vase in which grew some flowers. I felt like dragging her +out under the trees, throwing myself at her feet and speaking to her +words of love. + +"Her husband's voice called 'Louise!' + +"'Yes, dear.' + +"'You are forgetting the tea.' + +"'I'll go and see about it, my friend.' + +"We returned to the house, and she gave us some tea. When the two men +had finished playing cards, they were visibly tired. I had to go to my +room. I did not get to sleep till late, and then I slept badly. + +"An excursion was decided upon for the following afternoon, and we went +in an open carriage to visit some ruins. She and I were in the back of +the vehicle and they were opposite us, riding backward. The conversation +was sympathetic and agreeable. I am an orphan, and it seemed to me as +though I had just found my family, I felt so at home with them. + +"Suddenly, as she had stretched out her foot between her husband's legs, +he murmured reproachfully: 'Louise, please don't wear out your old shoes +yourself. There is no reason for being neater in Paris than in the +country.' + +"I lowered my eyes. She was indeed wearing worn-out shoes, and I noticed +that her stockings were not pulled up tight. + +"She had blushed and hidden her foot under her dress. The friend was +looking out in the distance with an indifferent and unconcerned look. + +"The husband offered me a cigar, which I accepted. For a few days it was +impossible for me to be alone with her for two minutes; he was with us +everywhere. He was delightful to me, however. + +"One morning he came to get me to take a walk before breakfast, and the +conversation happened to turn on marriage. I spoke a little about +solitude and about how charming life can be made by the affection of a +woman. Suddenly he interrupted me, saying: 'My friend, don't talk about +things you know nothing about. A woman who has no other reason for +loving you will not love you long. All the little coquetries which make +them so exquisite when they do not definitely belong to us cease as soon +as they become ours. And then--the respectable women--that is to say our +wives--are--are not--in fact do not understand their profession of wife. +Do you understand?' + +"He said no more, and I could not guess his thoughts. + +"Two days after this conversation he called me to his room quite early, +in order to show me a collection of engravings. I sat in an easy chair +opposite the big door which separated his apartment from his wife's, and +behind this door I heard some one walking and moving, and I was thinking +very little of the engravings, although I kept exclaiming: 'Oh, charming! +delightful! exquisite!' + +"He suddenly said: 'Oh, I have a beautiful specimen in the next room. +I'll go and get it.' + +"He ran to the door quickly, and both sides opened as though for a +theatrical effect. + +"In a large room, all in disorder, in the midst of skirts, collars, +waists lying around on the floor, stood a tall, dried-up creature. The +lower part of her body was covered with an old, worn-out silk petticoat, +which was hanging limply on her shapeless form, and she was standing in +front of a mirror brushing some short, sparse blond hairs. Her arms +formed two acute angles, and as she turned around in astonishment I saw +under a common cotton chemise a regular cemetery of ribs, which were +hidden from the public gaze by well-arranged pads. + +"The husband uttered a natural exclamation and came back, closing the +doors, and said: 'Gracious! how stupid I am! Oh, how thoughtless! My +wife will never forgive me for that!' + +"I already felt like thanking him. I left three days later, after +cordially shaking hands with the two men and kissing the lady's fingers. +She bade me a cold good-by." + +Karl Massouligny was silent. Some one asked: "But what was the friend?" + +"I don't know--however--however he looked greatly distressed to see me +leaving so soon." + + + + + + +A SALE + +The defendants, Cesaire-Isidore Brument and Prosper-Napoleon Cornu, +appeared before the Court of Assizes of the Seine-Inferieure, on a charge +of attempted murder, by drowning, of Mme. Brument, lawful wife of the +first of the aforenamed. + +The two prisoners sat side by side on the traditional bench. They were +two peasants; the first was small and stout, with short arms, short legs, +and a round head with a red pimply face, planted directly on his trunk, +which was also round and short, and with apparently no neck. He was a +raiser of pigs and lived at Cacheville-la-Goupil, in the district of +Criquetot. + +Cornu (Prosper-Napoleon) was thin, of medium height, with enormously long +arms. His head was on crooked, his jaw awry, and he squinted. A blue +blouse, as long as a shirt, hung down to his knees, and his yellow hair, +which was scanty and plastered down on his head, gave his face a worn- +out, dirty look, a dilapidated look that was frightful. He had been +nicknamed "the cure" because he could imitate to perfection the chanting +in church, and even the sound of the serpent. This talent attracted to +his cafe--for he was a saloon keeper at Criquetot--a great many customers +who preferred the "mass at Cornu" to the mass in church. + +Mme. Brument, seated on the witness bench, was a thin peasant woman who +seemed to be always asleep. She sat there motionless, her hands crossed +on her knees, gazing fixedly before her with a stupid expression. + +The judge continued his interrogation. + +"Well, then, Mme. Brument, they came into your house and threw you into a +barrel full of water. Tell us the details. Stand up." + +She rose. She looked as tall as a flag pole with her cap which looked +like a white skull cap. She said in a drawling tone: + +"I was shelling beans. Just then they came in. I said to myself, 'What +is the matter with them? They do not seem natural, they seem up to some +mischief.' They watched me sideways, like this, especially Cornu, +because he squints. I do not like to see them together, for they are two +good-for-nothings when they are in company. I said: 'What do you want +with me?' They did not answer. I had a sort of mistrust----" + +The defendant Brument interrupted the witness hastily, saying: + +"I was full." + +Then Cornu, turning towards his accomplice said in the deep tones of an +organ: + +"Say that we were both full, and you will be telling no lie." + +The judge, severely: + +"You mean by that that you were both drunk?" + +Brument: "There can be no question about it." + +Cornu : "That might happen to anyone." + +The judge to the victim: "Continue your testimony, woman Brument." + +"Well, Brument said to me, 'Do you wish to earn a hundred sous?' 'Yes,' +I replied, seeing that a hundred sous are not picked up in a horse's +tracks. Then he said: 'Open your eyes and do as I do,' and he went to +fetch the large empty barrel which is under the rain pipe in the corner, +and he turned it over and brought it into my kitchen, and stuck it down +in the middle of the floor, and then he said to me: 'Go and fetch water +until it is full.' + +"So I went to the pond with two pails and carried water, and still more +water for an hour, seeing that the barrel was as large as a vat, saving +your presence, m'sieu le president. + +"All this time Brument and Cornu were drinking a glass, and then another +glass, and then another. They were finishing their drinks when I said to +them: 'You are full, fuller than this barrel.' And Brument answered me. +'Do not worry, go on with your work, your turn will come, each one has +his share.' I paid no attention to what he said as he was full. + +"When the barrel was full to the brim, I said: 'There, that's done.' + +"And then Cornu gave me a hundred sous, not Brument, Cornu; it was Cornu +gave them to me. And Brument said: 'Do you wish to earn a hundred sous +more?' 'Yes,' I said, for I am not accustomed to presents like that. +Then he said: 'Take off your clothes.! + +"'Take off my clothes?' + +"'Yes,' he said. + +"'How many shall I take off?' + +"'If it worries you at all, keep on your chemise, that won't bother us.' + +"A hundred sous is a hundred sous, and I have to undress myself; but I +did not fancy undressing before those two good-for-nothings. I took off +my cap, and then my jacket, and then my skirt, and then my sabots. +Brument said, 'Keep on your stockings, also; we are good fellows.' + +"And Cornu said, too, 'We are good fellows.' + +"So there I was, almost like mother Eve. And they got up from their +chairs, but could not stand straight, they were so full, saving your +presence, M'sieu le president. + +"I said to myself: 'What are they up to?' + +"And Brument said: 'Are you ready?' + +"And Cornu said: 'I'm ready!' + +"And then they took me, Brument by the head, and Cornu by the feet, as +one might take, for instance, a sheet that has been washed. Then I began +to bawl. + +"And Brument said: 'Keep still, wretched creature!' + +"And they lifted me up in the air and put me into the barrel, which was +full of water, so that I had a check of the circulation, a chill to my +very insides. + +"And Brument said: 'Is that all?' + +"Cornu said: 'That is all.' + +"Brument said: 'The head is not in, that will make a difference in the +measure.' + +"Cornu said: 'Put in her head.' + +"And then Brument pushed down my head as if to drown me, so that the +water ran into my nose, so that I could already see Paradise. And he +pushed it down, and I disappeared. + +"And then he must have been frightened. He pulled me out and said: 'Go +and get dry, carcass.' + +"As for me, I took to my heels and ran as far as M. le cure's. He lent +me a skirt belonging to his servant, for I was almost in a state of +nature, and he went to fetch Maitre Chicot, the country watchman who went +to Criquetot to fetch the police who came to my house with me. + +"Then we found Brument and Cornu fighting each other like two rams. + +"Brument was bawling: 'It isn't true, I tell you that there is at least a +cubic metre in it. It is the method that was no good.' + +"Cornu bawled: 'Four pails, that is almost half a cubic metre. You need +not reply, that's what it is.' + +"The police captain put them both under arrest. I have no more to tell." + +She sat down. The audience in the court room laughed. The jurors looked +at one another in astonishment. The judge said: + +"Defendant Cornu, you seem to have been the instigator of this infamous +plot. What have you to say?" + +And Cornu rose in his turn. + +"Judge," he replied, "I was full." + +The Judge answered gravely: + +"I know it. Proceed." + +"I will. Well, Brument came to my place about nine o'clock, and ordered +two drinks, and said: 'There's one for you, Cornu.' I sat down opposite +him and drank, and out of politeness, I offered him a glass. Then he +returned the compliment and so did I, and so it went on from glass to +glass until noon, when we were full. + +"Then Brument began to cry. That touched me. I asked him what was the +matter. He said: 'I must have a thousand francs by Thursday.' That +cooled me off a little, you understand. Then he said to me all at once: +'I will sell you my wife.' + +"I was full, and I was a widower. You understand, that stirred me up. +I did not know his wife, but she was a woman, wasn't she? I asked him: +'How much would you sell her for?' + +"He reflected, or pretended to reflect. When one is full one is not very +clear-headed, and he replied: 'I will sell her by the cubic metre.' + +"That did not surprise me, for I was as drunk as he was, and I knew what +a cubic metre is in my business. It is a thousand litres, that suited +me. + +"But the price remained to be settled. All depends on the quality. I +said: 'How much do you want a cubic metre?' + +"He answered: 'Two thousand francs.' + +"I gave a bound like a rabbit, and then I reflected that a woman ought +not to measure more than three hundred litres. So I said: 'That's too +dear.' + +"He answered: 'I cannot do it for less. I should lose by it.' + +"You understand, one is not a dealer in hogs for nothing. One +understands one's business. But, if he is smart, the seller of bacon, I +am smarter, seeing that I sell them also. Ha, Ha, Ha! So I said to him: +'If she were new, I would not say anything, but she has been married to +you for some time, so she is not as fresh as she was. I will give you +fifteen hundred francs a cubic metre, not a sou more. Will that suit +you?' + +"He answered: 'That will do. That's a bargain!' + +"I agreed, and we started out, arm in arm. We must help each other in +this world. + +"But a fear came to me: 'How can you measure her unless you put her into +the liquid?' + +"Then he explained his idea, not without difficulty for he was full. He +said to me: 'I take a barrel, and fill it with water to the brim. I put +her in it. All the water that comes out we will measure, that is the way +to fix it.' + +"I said: 'I see, I understand. But this water that overflows will run +away; how are you going to gather it up?' + +"Then he began stuffing me and explained to me that all we should have to +do would be to refill the barrel with the water his wife had displaced as +soon as she should have left. All the water we should pour in would be +the measure. I supposed about ten pails; that would be a cubic metre. +He isn't a fool, all the same, when he is drunk, that old horse. + +"To be brief, we reached his house and I took a look at its mistress. A +beautiful woman she certainly was not. Anyone can see her, for there she +is. I said to myself: 'I am disappointed, but never mind, she will be of +value; handsome or ugly, it is all the same, is it not, monsieur le +president?' And then I saw that she was as thin as a rail. I said to +myself: 'She will not measure four hundred litres.' I understand the +matter, it being in liquids. + +"She told you about the proceeding. I even let her keep on her chemise +and stockings, to my own disadvantage. + +"When that was done she ran away. I said: 'Look out, Brument! she is +escaping.' + +"He replied: 'Do not be afraid. I will catch her all right. She will +have to come back to sleep, I will measure the deficit.' + +"We measured. Not four pailfuls. Ha, Ha, Ha!" + +The witness began to laugh so persistently that a gendarme was obliged to +punch him in the back. Having quieted down, he resumed: + +"In short, Brument exclaimed: 'Nothing doing, that is not enough.' I +bawled and bawled, and bawled again, he punched me, I hit back. That +would have kept on till the Day of judgment, seeing we were both drunk. + +"Then came the gendarmes! They swore at us, they took us off to prison. +I want damages." + +He sat down. + +Brument confirmed in every particular the statements of his accomplice. +The jury, in consternation, retired to deliberate. + +At the end of an hour they returned a verdict of acquittal for the +defendants, with some severe strictures on the dignity of marriage, and +establishing the precise limitations of business transactions. + +Brument went home to the domestic roof accompanied by his wife. + +Cornu went back to his business. + + + + + + +THE IMPOLITE SEX + + Madame de X. to Madame de L. + + ETRETAT, Friday. +My Dear Aunt: + +I am coming to see you without anyone knowing it. I shall be at Les +Fresnes on the 2d of September, the day before the hunting season opens, +as I do not want to miss it, so that I may tease these gentlemen. You +are too good, aunt, and you will allow them, as you usually do when there +are no strange guests, to come to table, under pretext of fatigue, +without dressing or shaving for the occasion. + +They are delighted, of course, when I am not present. But I shall be +there and will hold a review, like a general, at dinner time; and, if I +find a single one of them at all careless in dress, no matter how little, +I mean to send them down to the kitchen with the servants. + +The men of to-day have so little consideration for others and so little +good manners that one must be always severe with them. We live indeed in +an age of vulgarity. When they quarrel, they insult each other in terms +worthy of longshoremen, and, in our presence, they do not conduct +themselves even as well as our servants. It is at the seaside that you +see this most clearly. They are to be found there in battalions, and you +can judge them in the lump. Oh! what coarse beings they are! + +Just imagine, in a train, a gentleman who looked well, as I thought at +first sight, thanks to his tailor, carefully took off his boots in order +to put on a pair of old shoes! Another, an old man who was probably some +wealthy upstart (these are the most ill-bred), while sitting opposite to +me, had the delicacy to place his two feet on the seat quite close to me. +This is a positive fact. + +At the watering-places the vulgarity is unrestrained. I must here make +one admission--that my indignation is perhaps due to the fact that I am +not accustomed to associate, as a rule, with the sort of people one comes +across here, for I should be less shocked by their manners if I had the +opportunity of observing them oftener. In the office of the hotel I was +nearly thrown down by a young man who snatched the key over my head. +Another knocked against me so violently without begging my pardon or +lifting his hat, coming away from a ball at the Casino, that it gave me a +pain in the chest. It is the same way with all of them. Watch them +addressing ladies on the terrace; they scarcely ever bow. They merely +raise their hands to their headgear. But, indeed, as they are all more +or less bald, it is the best plan. + +But what exasperates and disgusts me particularly is the liberty they +take of talking in public, without any kind of precaution, about the most +revolting adventures. When two men are together, they relate to each +other, in the broadest language and with the most abominable comments +really horrible stories, without caring in the slightest degree whether a +woman's ear is within reach of their voices. Yesterday, on the beach, I +was forced to leave the place where I was sitting in order not to be any +longer the involuntary confidante of an obscene anecdote, told in such +immodest language that I felt just as humiliated as indignant at having +heard it. Would not the most elementary good-breeding teach them to +speak in a lower tone about such matters when we are near at hand. +Etretat is, moreover, the country of gossip and scandal. From five to +seven o'clock you can see people wandering about in quest of scandal, +which they retail from group to group. As you remarked to me, my dear +aunt, tittle-tattle is the mark of petty individuals and petty minds. +It is also the consolation of women who are no longer loved or sought +after. It is enough for me to observe the women who are fondest of +gossiping to be persuaded that you are quite right. + +The other day I was present at a musical evening at the Casino, given by +a remarkable artist, Madame Masson, who sings in a truly delightful +manner. I took the opportunity of applauding the admirable Coquelin, as +well as two charming vaudeville performers, M---- and Meillet. I met, on +this occasion, all the bathers who were at the beach. It is no great +distinction this year. + +Next day I went to lunch at Yport. I noticed a tall man with a beard, +coming out of a large house like a castle. It was the painter, Jean Paul +Laurens. He is not satisfied apparently with imprisoning the subjects of +his pictures, he insists on imprisoning himself. + +Then I found myself seated on the shingle close to a man still young, of +gentle and refined appearance, who was reading poetry. But he read it +with such concentration, with such passion, I may say, that he did not +even raise his eyes towards me. I was somewhat astonished and asked the +proprietor of the baths, without appearing to be much concerned, the name +of this gentleman. I laughed to myself a little at this reader of +rhymes; he seemed behind the age, for a man. This person, I thought, +must be a simpleton. Well, aunt, I am now infatuated about this +stranger. Just fancy, his name is Sully Prudhomme! I went back and sat +down beside him again so as to get a good look at him. His face has an +expression of calmness and of penetration. Somebody came to look for +him, and I heard his voice, which is sweet and almost timid. He would +certainly not tell obscene stories aloud in public or knock up against +ladies without apologizing. He is assuredly a man of refinement, but his +refinement is of an almost morbid, sensitive character, I will try this +winter to get an introduction to him. + +I have no more news, my dear aunt, and I must finish this letter in +haste, as the mail will soon close. I kiss your hands and your cheeks. +Your devoted niece, + BERTHE DE X. + +P. S.--I should add, however, by way of justification of French +politeness, that our fellow-countrymen are, when travelling, models of +good manners in comparison with the abominable English, who seem to have +been brought up in a stable, so careful are they not to discommode +themselves in any way, while they always discommode their neighbors. + + + + Madame de L. to Madame de X. + + LES FRESNES, Saturday. +My Dear Child: + +Many of the things you have said to me are very sensible, but that does +not prevent you from being wrong. Like you, I used formerly to feel very +indignant at the impoliteness of men, who, as I supposed, constantly +treated me with neglect; but, as I grew older and reflected on +everything, putting aside coquetry, and observing things without taking +any part in them myself, I perceived this much--that if men are not +always polite, women are always indescribably rude. + +We imagine that we should be permitted to do anything, my darling, and at +the same time we consider that we have a right to the utmost respect, and +in the most flagrant manner we commit actions devoid of that elementary +good-breeding of which you speak so feelingly. + +I find, on the contrary, that men consider us much more than we consider +them. Besides, darling, men must needs be, and are, what we make them. +In a state of society, where women are all true gentlewomen, all men +would become gentlemen. + +Come now; just observe and reflect. + +Look at two women meeting in the street. What an attitude each assumes +towards the other! What disparaging looks! What contempt they throw +into each glance! How they toss their heads while they inspect each +other to find something to condemn! And, if the footpath is narrow, do +you think one woman would make room for another, or would beg pardon as +she sweeps by? Never! When two men jostle each other by accident in +some narrow lane, each of them bows and at the same time gets out of the +other's way, while we women press against each other stomach to stomach, +face to face, insolently staring each other out of countenance. + +Look at two women who are acquaintances meeting on a staircase outside +the door of a friend's drawing-room, one of them just leaving, the other +about to go in. They begin to talk to each other and block up all the +landing. If anyone happens to be coming up behind them, man or woman, do +you imagine that they will put themselves half an inch out of their way? +Never! never! + +I was waiting myself, with my watch in my hands, one day last winter at a +certain drawing-room door. And, behind me, two gentlemen were also +waiting without showing any readiness, as I did, to lose their temper. +The reason was that they had long grown accustomed to our unconscionable +insolence. + +The other day, before leaving Paris, I went to dine with no less a person +than your husband, in the Champs Elysees, in order to enjoy the fresh +air. Every table was occupied. The waiter asked us to wait and there +would soon be a vacant table. + +At that moment I noticed an elderly lady of noble figure, who, having +paid for her dinner, seemed on the point of going away. She saw me, +scanned me from head to foot, and did not budge. For more than a quarter +of an hour she sat there, immovable, putting on her gloves, and calmly +staring at those who were waiting like myself. Now, two young men who +were just finishing their dinner, having seen me in their turn, hastily +summoned the waiter, paid what they owed, and at once offered me their +seats, even insisting on standing while waiting for their change. And, +bear in mind, my fair niece, that I am no longer pretty, like you, but +old and white-haired. + +It is we, you see, who should be taught politeness, and the task would be +such a difficult one that Hercules himself would not be equal to it. You +speak to me about Etretat and about the people who indulged in "tittle- +tattle" along the beach of that delightful watering-place. It is a spot +now lost to me, a thing of the past, but I found much amusement therein +days gone by. + +There were only a few of us, people in good society, really good society, +and a few artists, and we all fraternized. We paid little attention to +gossip in those days. + +As we had no monotonous Casino, where people only gather for show, where +they whisper, where they dance stupidly, where they succeed in thoroughly +boring one another, we sought some other way of passing our evenings +pleasantly. Now, just guess what came into the head of one of our +husbands? Nothing less than to go and dance each night in one of the +farm-houses in the neighborhood. + +We started out in a group with a street-organ, generally played by Le +Poittevin, the painter, with a cotton nightcap on his head. Two men +carried lanterns. We followed in procession, laughing and chattering +like a pack of fools. + +We woke up the farmer and his servant-maids and farm hands. We got them +to make onion soup (horror!), and we danced under the apple trees, to the +sound of the barrel-organ. The cocks waking up began to crow in the +darkness of the out-houses; the horses began prancing on the straw of +their stables. The cool air of the country caressed our cheeks with the +smell of grass and of new-mown hay. + +How long ago it is! How long ago it is! It is thirty years since then! + +I do not want you, my darling, to come for the opening of the hunting +season. Why spoil the pleasure of our friends by inflicting on them +fashionable toilettes on this day of vigorous exercise in the country? +This is the way, child, that men are spoiled. I embrace you. Your old +aunt, + GENEVIEVE DE L. + + + + + + +A WEDDING GIFT + +For a long time Jacques Bourdillere had sworn that he would never marry, +but he suddenly changed his mind. It happened suddenly, one summer, at +the seashore. + +One morning as he lay stretched out on the sand, watching the women +coming out of the water, a little foot had struck him by its neatness and +daintiness. He raised his eyes and was delighted with the whole person, +although in fact he could see nothing but the ankles and the head +emerging from a flannel bathrobe carefully held closed. He was supposed +to be sensual and a fast liver. It was therefore by the mere grace of +the form that he was at first captured. Then he was held by the charm of +the young girl's sweet mind, so simple and good, as fresh as her cheeks +and lips. + +He was presented to the family and pleased them. He immediately fell +madly in love. When he saw Berthe Lannis in the distance, on the long +yellow stretch of sand, he would tingle to the roots of his hair. When +he was near her he would become silent, unable to speak or even to think, +with a kind of throbbing at his heart, and a buzzing in his ears, and a +bewilderment in his mind. Was that love? + +He did not know or understand, but he had fully decided to have this +child for his wife. + +Her parents hesitated for a long time, restrained by the young man's bad +reputation. It was said that he had an old sweetheart, one of these +binding attachments which one always believes to be broken off and yet +which always hold. + +Besides, for a shorter or longer period, he loved every woman who came +within reach of his lips. + +Then he settled down and refused, even once, to see the one with whom he +had lived for so long. A friend took care of this woman's pension and +assured her an income. Jacques paid, but he did not even wish to hear of +her, pretending even to ignore her name. She wrote him letters which he +never opened. Every week he would recognize the clumsy writing of the +abandoned woman, and every week a greater anger surged within him against +her, and he would quickly tear the envelope and the paper, without +opening it, without reading one single line, knowing in advance the +reproaches and complaints which it contained. + +As no one had much faith in his constancy, the test was prolonged through +the winter, and Berthe's hand was not granted him until the spring. The +wedding took place in Paris at the beginning of May. + +The young couple had decided not to take the conventional wedding trip, +but after a little dance for the younger cousins, which would not be +prolonged after eleven o'clock, in order that this day of lengthy +ceremonies might not be too tiresome, the young pair were to spend the +first night in the parental home and then, on the following morning, to +leave for the beach so dear to their hearts, where they had first known +and loved each other. + +Night had come, and the dance was going on in the large parlor. 'The two +had retired into a little Japanese boudoir hung with bright silks and +dimly lighted by the soft rays of a large colored lantern hanging from +the ceiling like a gigantic egg. Through the open window the fresh air +from outside passed over their faces like a caress, for the night was +warm and calm, full of the odor of spring. + +They were silent, holding each other's hands and from time to time +squeezing them with all their might. She sat there with a dreamy look, +feeling a little lost at this great change in her life, but smiling, +moved, ready to cry, often also almost ready to faint from joy, believing +the whole world to be changed by what had just happened to her, uneasy, +she knew not why, and feeling her whole body and soul filled with an +indefinable and delicious lassitude. + +He was looking at her persistently with a fixed smile. He wished to +speak, but found nothing to say, and so sat there, expressing all his +ardor by pressures of the hand. From time to time he would murmur: +"Berthe!" And each time she would raise her eyes to him with a look of +tenderness; they would look at each other for a second and then her look, +pierced and fascinated by his, would fall. + +They found no thoughts to exchange. They had been left alone, but +occasionally some of the dancers would cast a rapid glance at them, as +though they were the discreet and trusty witnesses of a mystery. + +A door opened and a servant entered, holding on a tray a letter which a +messenger had just brought. Jacques, trembling, took this paper, +overwhelmed by a vague and sudden fear, the mysterious terror of swift +misfortune. + +He looked for a longtime at the envelope, the writing on which he did not +know, not daring to open it, not wishing to read it, with a wild desire +to put it in his pocket and say to himself: "I'll leave that till to- +morrow, when I'm far away!" But on one corner two big words, underlined, +"Very urgent," filled him with terror. Saying, "Please excuse me, my +dear," he tore open the envelope. He read the paper, grew frightfully +pale, looked over it again, and, slowly, he seemed to spell it out word +for word. + +When he raised his head his whole expression showed how upset he was. He +stammered: "My dear, it's--it's from my best friend, who has had ,a very +great misfortune. He has need of me immediately--for a matter of life or +death. Will you excuse me if I leave you for half an hour? I'll be +right back." + +Trembling and dazed, she stammered: "Go, my dear!" not having been his +wife long enough to dare to question him, to demand to know. He +disappeared. She remained alone, listening to the dancing in the +neighboring parlor. + +He had seized the first hat and coat he came to and rushed downstairs +three steps at a time. As he was emerging into the street he stopped +under the gas-jet of the vestibule and reread the letter. This is what +it said: + + SIR: A girl by the name of Ravet, an old sweetheart of yours, it + seems, has just given birth to a child that she says is yours. The + mother is about to die and is begging for you. I take the liberty to + write and ask you if you can grant this last request to a woman who + seems to be very unhappy and worthy of pity. + Yours truly, DR. BONNARD. + +When he reached the sick-room the woman was already on the point of +death. He did not recognize her at first. The doctor and two nurses +were taking care of her. And everywhere on the floor were pails full of +ice and rags covered with blood. Water flooded the carpet; two candles +were burning on a bureau; behind the bed, in a little wicker crib, the +child was crying, and each time it would moan the mother, in torture, +would try to move, shivering under her ice bandages. + +She was mortally wounded, killed by this birth. Her life was flowing +from her, and, notwithstanding the ice and the care, the merciless +hemorrhage continued, hastening her last hour. + +She recognized Jacques and wished to raise her arms. They were so weak +that she could not do so, but tears coursed down her pallid cheeks. +He dropped to his knees beside the bed, seized one of her hands and +kissed it frantically. Then, little by little, he drew close to the thin +face, which started at the contact. One of the nurses was lighting them +with a candle, and the doctor was watching them from the back of the +room. + +Then she said in a voice which sounded as though it came from a distance: +"I am going to die, dear. Promise to stay to the end. Oh! don't leave +me now. Don't leave me in my last moments!" + +He kissed her face and her hair, and, weeping, he murmured: "Do not be +uneasy; I will stay." + +It was several minutes before she could speak again, she was so weak. +She continued: "The little one is yours. I swear it before God and on my +soul. I swear it as I am dying! I have never loved another man but you +--promise to take care of the child." + +He was trying to take this poor pain-racked body in his arms. Maddened +by remorse and sorrow, he stammered: "I swear to you that I will bring +him up and love him. He shall never leave me." + +Then she tried to kiss Jacques. Powerless to lift her head, she held out +her white lips in an appeal for a kiss. He approached his lips to +respond to this piteous entreaty. + +As soon as she felt a little calmer, she murmured: "Bring him here and +let me see if you love him." + +He went and got the child. He placed him gently on the bed between them, +and the little one stopped crying. She murmured: "Don't move any more!" +And he was quiet. And he stayed there, holding in his burning hand this +other hand shaking in the chill of death, just as, a while ago, he had +been holding a hand trembling with love. From time to time he would cast +a quick glance at the clock, which marked midnight, then one o'clock, +then two. + +The physician had returned. The two nurses, after noiselessly moving +about the room for a while, were now sleeping on chairs. The child was +asleep, and the mother, with eyes shut, appeared also to be resting. + +Suddenly, just as pale daylight was creeping in behind the curtains, she +stretched out her arms with such a quick and violent motion that she +almost threw her baby on the floor. A kind of rattle was heard in her +throat, then she lay on her back motionless, dead. + +The nurses sprang forward and declared: "All is over!" + +He looked once more at this woman whom he had so loved, then at the +clock, which pointed to four, and he ran away, forgetting his overcoat, +in the evening dress, with the child in his arms. + +After he had left her alone the young wife had waited, calmly enough at +first, in the little Japanese boudoir. Then, as she did not see him +return, she went back to the parlor with an indifferent and calm +appearance, but terribly anxious. When her mother saw her alone she +asked: "Where is your husband?" She answered: "In his room; he is coming +right back." + +After an hour, when everybody had questioned her, she told about the +letter, Jacques' upset appearance and her fears of an accident. + +Still they waited. The guests left; only the nearest relatives remained. +At midnight the bride was put to bed, sobbing bitterly. Her mother and +two aunts, sitting around the bed, listened to her crying, silent and in +despair. The father had gone to the commissary of police to see if he +could obtain some news. + +At five o'clock a slight noise was heard in the hall. A door was softly +opened and closed. Then suddenly a little cry like the mewing of a cat +was heard throughout the silent house. + +All the women started forward and Berthe sprang ahead of them all, +pushing her way past her aunts, wrapped in a bathrobe. + +Jacques stood in the middle of the room, pale and out of breath, holding +an infant in his arms. The four women looked at him, astonished; but +Berthe, who had suddenly become courageous, rushed forward with anguish +in her heart, exclaiming: "What is it? What's the matter?" + +He looked about him wildly and answered shortly: + +"I--I have a child and the mother has just died." + +And with his clumsy hands he held out the screaming infant. + +Without saying a word, Berthe seized the child, kissed it and hugged it +to her. Then she raised her tear-filled eyes to him, asking: "Did you +say that the mother was dead?" He answered: "Yes--just now--in my arms. +I had broken with her since summer. I knew nothing. The physician sent +for me." + +Then Berthe murmured: "Well, we will bring up the little one." + + + + + + +THE RELIC + +"To the Abbe Louis d'Ennemare, at Soissons. + +My Dear Abbe. + +"My marriage with your cousin is broken off in the most stupid way, all +on account of an idiotic trick which I almost involuntarily played my +intedded. In my perplexity I turn to you, my old school chum, for you +may be able to help me out of the difficulty. If you can, I shall be +grateful to you until I die. + +"You know Gilberte, or, rather, you think you know her, but do we ever +understand women? All their opinions, their ideas, their creeds, are a +surprise to us. They are all full of twists and turns, cf the +unforeseen, of unintelligible arguments, of defective logic and of +obstinate ideas, which seem final, but which they alter because a little +bird came and perched on the window ledge. + +"I need not tell you that your cousin is very religious, as she was +brought up by the White (or was it the Black?) Ladies at Nancy. You know +that better than I do, but what you perhaps do not know is, that she is +just as excitable about other matters as she is about religion. Her head +flies away, just as a leaf is whirled away by the wind; and she is a true +woman, or, rather, girl, for she is moved or made angry in a moment, +starting off at a gallop in affection, just as she does in hatred, and +returning in the same manner; and she is pretty--as you know, and more +charming than I can say--as you will never know. + +"Well, we became engaged, and I adored her, as I adore her still, and she +appeared to love me. + +"One evening, I received a telegram summoning me to Cologne for a +consultation, which might be followed by a serious and difficult +operation, and as I had to start the next morning, I went to wish +Gilberte good-by, and tell her why I could not dine with them on +Wednesday, but would do so on Friday, the day of my return. Ah! Beware +of Fridays, for I assure you they are unlucky! + +"When I told her that I had to go to Germany, I saw that her eyes filled +with tears, but when I said I should be back very soon, she clapped her +hands, and said: + +"'I am very glad you are going, then! You must bring me back something; +a mere trifle, just a souvenir, but a souvenir that you have chosen for +me. You must guess what I should like best, do you hear? And then I +shall see whether you have any imagination.' + +"She thought for a few moments, and then added: + +"'I forbid you to spend more than twenty francs on it. I want it for the +intention, and for a remembrance of your penetration, and not for its +intrinsic value: + +"And then, after another moment's silence, she said, in a low voice, and +with downcast eyes: + +"'If it costs you nothing in money, but is something very ingenious and +pretty, I will--I will kiss you.' + +"The next day I was in Cologne. It was a case of a terrible accident, +which had plunged a whole family into despair, and a difficult amputation +was necessary. They lodged me in the house; I might say, they almost +locked me up, and I saw nobody but people in tears, who almost deafened +me with their lamentations; I operated on a man who appeared to be in a +moribund state, and who nearly died under my hands, and with whom I +remained two nights; and then, when I saw that there was a chance of his +recovery, I drove to the station. I had, however, made a mistake in the +trains, and I had an hour to wait, and so I wandered about the streets, +still thinking of my poor patient, when a man accosted me. I do not know +German, and he was totally ignorant of French, but at last I made out +that he was offering me some relics. I thought of Gilberte, for I knew +her fanatical devotion, and here was my present ready to hand, so I +followed the man into a shop where religious objects were for sale, and I +bought a small piece of a bone of one of the Eleven Thousand Virgins. + +"The pretended relic was inclosed in a charming old silver box, and that +determined my choice, and, putting my purchase into my pocket, I went to +the railway station, and so on to Paris. + +"As soon as I got home, I wished to examine my purchase again, and on +taking hold of it, I found that the box was open, and the relic missing! +I searched in vain in my pocket, and turned it inside out; the small bit +of bone, which was no bigger than half a pin, had disappeared. + +"You know, my dear little Abbe, that my faith is not very fervent, but, +as my friend, you are magnanimous enough to put up with my lukewarmness, +and to leave me alone, and to wait for the future, so you say. But I +absolutely disbelieve in the relics of secondhand dealers in piety, and +you share my doubts in that respect. Therefore, the loss of that bit of +sheep's carcass did not grieve me, and I easily procured a similar +fragment, which I carefully fastened inside my jewel-box, and then I went +to see my intended. + +"As soon as she saw me, she ran up to me, smiling and eager, and, said to +me: + +"'What have you brought me?' + +"I pretended to have forgotten, but she did not believe me, and I made +her beg, and even beseech me. But when I saw that she was devoured by +curiosity, I gave her the sacred silver box. She appeared overjoyed. + +"'A relic! Oh! A relic!' + +"And she kissed the box passionately, so that I was ashamed of my +deception. She was not quite satisfied, however, and her uneasiness soon +turned to terrible fear, and looking straight into my eyes, she said: + +"'Are you sure-that it is genuine?' + +"'Absolutely certain.' + +"'How can you be so certain?' + +"I was trapped; for to say that I had bought it of a man in the streets +would be my destruction. What was I to say? A wild idea struck me, and +I said, in a low, mysterious voice: + +"'I stole it for you.' + +"She looked at me with astonishment and delight in her large eyes. + +"'Oh! You stole it? Where?' + +"'In the cathedral; in the very shrine of the Eleven Thousand Virgins.' + +"Her heart beat with pleasure, and she murmured: + +"'Oh! Did you really do that-for me? Tell me-all about it!' + +"That was the climax; I could not retract what I had said. I made up a +fanciful story; with precise details: I had given the custodian of the +building a hundred francs to be allowed to go about the building by +myself; the shrine was being repaired, but I happened to be there at the +breakfast hour of the workmen and clergy; by removing a small panel, I +had been enabled to seize a small piece of bone (oh! so small), among a +quantity of others (I said a quantity, as I thought of the amount that +the remains of the skeletons of eleven thousand virgins must produce). +Then I went to a goldsmith's and bought a casket worthy of the relic; and +I was not sorry to let her know that the silver box cost me five hundred +francs. + +"But she did not think of that; she listened to me, trembling, in an +ecstasy, and whispering: 'How I love you!' she threw herself into my +arms. + +"Just note this: I had committed sacrilege for her sake. I had committed +a theft; I had violated a church; I had violated a shrine; violated and +stolen holy relics, and for that she adored me, thought me perfect, +tender, divine. Such is woman, my dear Abbe, every woman. + +"For two months I was the most admirable of lovers. In her room, she had +made a kind of magnificent chapel in which to keep this bit of mutton +chop, which, as she thought, had made me commit that divine love-crime, +and she worked up her religious enthusiasm in front of it every morning +and evening. I had asked her to keep the matter secret, for fear, as I +said, that I might be arrested, condemned, and given over to Germany, and +she kept her promise. + +"Well, at the beginning of the summer, she was seized with an +irresistible desire to see the scene of my exploit, and she teased her +father so persistently (without telling him her secret reason), that he +took her to Cologne, but without telling me of their trip, according to +his daughter's wish. + +"I need not tell you that I had not seen the interior of the cathedral. +I do not know where the tomb (if there be a tomb) of the Eleven Thousand +Virgins is; and then, it appears, it is unapproachable, alas! + +"A week afterward, I received ten lines, breaking off our engagement, and +then an explanatory letter from her father, whom she had, somewhat late, +taken into her confidence. + +"At the sight of the shrine, she had suddenly seen through my trickery +and my lie, and at the same time discovered my real innocence of any +crime. Having asked the keeper of the relics whether any robbery had +been committed, the man began to laugh, and pointed out to them how +impossible such a crime was. But, from the moment that I had not plunged +my profane hand into venerable relics, I was no longer worthy of my fair- +haired, sensitive betrothed. + +"I was forbidden the house; I begged and prayed in vain; nothing could +move the fair devotee, and I became ill from grief. Well, last week, her +cousin, Madame d'Arville, who is your cousin also, sent me word that she +should like to see me, and when I called, she told me on what conditions +I might obtain my pardon, and here they are. I must bring her a relic, a +real, authentic relic of some virgin and martyr, certified to be such by +our Holy Father, the Pope, and I am going mad from embarrassment and +anxiety. + +"I will go to Rome, if needful, but I cannot call on the Pope +unexpectedly, to tell him my stupid misadventure; and, besides, I doubt +whether they allow private individuals to have relics. Could not you +give me an introduction to some cardinal, or even to some French prelate +who possesses some remains of a female saint? Or, perhaps, you may have +the precious object she wants in your collection? + +"Help me out of my difficulty, my dear Abbe, and I promise you that I +will be converted ten years sooner than I otherwise should be! + +"Madame d'Arville, who takes the matter seriously, said to me the other +day: + +"'Poor Gilberte will never marry.' + +"My dear old schoolmate, will you allow your cousin to die the victim of +a stupid piece of subterfuge on my part? Pray prevent her from being +virgin eleven thousand and one. + +"Pardon me, I am unworthy, but I embrace vou, and love you with all my +heart. + +"Your old friend, + "HENRI FONTAL." + + + + + + + VOLUME IV. + +THE MORIBUND +THE GAMEKEEPER +THE STORY OF A FARM GIRL +THE WRECK +THEODULE SABOT'S CONFESSION +THE WRONG HOUSE +THE DIAMOND NECKLACE +THE MARQUIS DE FUMEROL +THE TRIP OF THE HORLA +FAREWELL +THE WOLF +THE INN + + + + +THE MORIBUND + +The warm autumn sun was beating down on the farmyard. Under the grass, +which had been cropped close by the cows, the earth soaked by recent +rains, was soft and sank in under the feet with a soggy noise, and the +apple trees, loaded with apples, were dropping their pale green fruit in +the dark green grass. + +Four young heifers, tied in a line, were grazing and at times looking +toward the house and lowing. The fowls made a colored patch on the dung- +heap before the stable, scratching, moving about and cackling, while two +roosters crowed continually, digging worms for their hens, whom they were +calling with a loud clucking. + +The wooden gate opened and a man entered. He might have been forty years +old, but he looked at least sixty, wrinkled, bent, walking slowly, +impeded by the weight of heavy wooden shoes full of straw. His long arms +hung down on both sides of his body. When he got near the farm a yellow +cur, tied at the foot of an enormous pear tree, beside a barrel which +served as his kennel, began at first to wag his tail and then to bark for +joy. The man cried: + +"Down, Finot!" + +The dog was quiet. + +A peasant woman came out of the house. Her large, flat, bony body was +outlined under a long woollen jacket drawn in at the waist. A gray +skirt, too short, fell to the middle of her legs, which were encased in +blue stockings. She, too, wore wooden shoes, filled with straw. The +white cap, turned yellow, covered a few hairs which were plastered to the +scalp, and her brown, thin, ugly, toothless face had that wild, animal +expression which is often to be found on the faces of the peasants. + +The man asked: + +"How is he gettin' along?" + +The woman answered: + +"The priest said it's the end--that he will never live through the +night." + +Both of them went into the house. + +After passing through the kitchen, they entered a low, dark room, barely +lighted by one window, in front of which a piece of calico was hanging. +The big beams, turned brown with age and smoke, crossed the room from one +side to the other, supporting the thin floor of the garret, where an army +of rats ran about day and night. + +The moist, lumpy earthen floor looked greasy, and, at the back of the +room, the bed made an indistinct white spot. A harsh, regular noise, a +difficult, hoarse, wheezing breathing, like the gurgling of water from a +broken pump, came from the darkened couch where an old man, the father of +the peasant woman, was dying. + +The man and the woman approached the dying man and looked at him with +calm, resigned eyes. + +The son-in-law said: + +"I guess it's all up with him this time; he will not last the night." + +The woman answered: + +"He's been gurglin' like that ever since midday." They were silent. The +father's eyes were closed, his face was the color of the earth and so dry +that it looked like wood. Through his open mouth came his harsh, +rattling breath, and the gray linen sheet rose and fell with each +respiration. + +The son-in-law, after a long silence, said: + +"There's nothing more to do; I can't help him. It's a nuisance, just the +same, because the weather is good and we've got a lot of work to do." + +His wife seemed annoyed at this idea. She reflected a few moments and +then said: + +He won't be buried till Saturday, and that will give you all day +tomorrow." + +The peasant thought the matter over and answered: + +"Yes, but to-morrow I'll have to invite the people to the funeral. That +means five or six hours to go round to Tourville and Manetot, and to see +everybody." + +The woman, after meditating two or three minutes, declared: + +"It isn't three o'clock yet. You could begin this evening and go all +round the country to Tourville. You can just as well say that he's dead, +seem' as he's as good as that now." + +The man stood perplexed for a while, weighing the pros and cons of the +idea. At last he declared: + +"Well, I'll go!" + +He was leaving the room, but came back after a minute's hesitation: + +"As you haven't got anythin' to do you might shake down some apples to +bake and make four dozen dumplings for those who come to the funeral, for +one must have something to cheer them. You can light the fire with the +wood that's under the shed. It's dry." + +He left the room, went back into the kitchen, opened the cupboard, took +out a six-pound loaf of bread, cut off a slice, and carefully gathered +the crumbs in the palm of his hand and threw them into his mouth, so as +not to lose anything. Then, with the end of his knife, he scraped out a +little salt butter from the bottom of an earthen jar, spread it on his +bread and began to eat slowly, as he did everything. + +He recrossed the farmyard, quieted the dog, which had started barking +again, went out on the road bordering on his ditch, and disappeared in +the direction of Tourville. + +As soon as she was alone, the woman began to work. She uncovered the +meal-bin and made the dough for the dumplings. She kneaded it a long +time, turning it over and over again, punching, pressing, crushing it. +Finally she made a big, round, yellow-white ball, which she placed on the +corner of the table. + +Then she went to get her apples, and, in order not to injure the tree +with a pole, she climbed up into it by a ladder. She chose the fruit +with care, only taking the ripe ones, and gathering them in her apron. + +A voice called from the road: + +"Hey, Madame Chicot!" + +She turned round. It was a neighbor, Osime Favet, the mayor, on his way +to fertilize his fields, seated on the manure-wagon, with his feet +hanging over the side. She turned round and answered: + +"What can I do for you, Maitre Osime?" + +"And how is the father?" + +She cried: + +"He is as good as dead. The funeral is Saturday at seven, because +there's lots of work to be done." + +The neighbor answered: + +"So! Good luck to you! Take care of yourself." + +To his kind remarks she answered:" + +"Thanks; the same to you." + +And she continued picking apples. + +When she went back to the house, she went over to look at her father, +expecting to find him dead. But as soon as she reached the door she +heard his monotonous, noisy rattle, and, thinking it a waste of time to +go over to him, she began to prepare her dumplings. She wrapped up the +fruit, one by one, in a thin layer of paste, then she lined them up on +the edge of the table. When she had made forty-eight dumplings, arranged +in dozens, one in front of the other, she began to think of preparing +supper, and she hung her kettle over the fire to cook potatoes, for she +judged it useless to heat the oven that day, as she had all the next day +in which to finish the preparations. + +Her husband returned at about five. As soon as he had crossed the +threshold he asked: + +"Is it over?" + +She answered: + +"Not yet; he's still gurglin'." + +They went to look at him. The old man was in exactly the same condition. +His hoarse rattle, as regular as the ticking of a clock, was neither +quicker nor slower. It returned every second, the tone varying a little, +according as the air entered or left his chest. + +His son-in-law looked at him and then said: + +"He'll pass away without our noticin' it, just like a candle." + +They returned to the kitchen and started to eat without saying a word. +When they had swallowed their soup, they ate another piece of bread and +butter. Then, as soon as the dishes were washed, they returned to the +dying man. + +The woman, carrying a little lamp with a smoky wick, held it in front of +her father's face. If he had not been breathing, one would certainly +have thought him dead. + +The couple's bed was hidden in a little recess at the other end of the +room. Silently they retired, put out the light, closed their eyes, and +soon two unequal snores, one deep and the other shriller, accompanied the +uninterrupted rattle of the dying man. + +The rats ran about in the garret. + +The husband awoke at the first streaks of dawn. His father-in-law was +still alive. He shook his wife, worried by the tenacity of the old man. + +"Say, Phemie, he don't want to quit. What would you do?" + +He knew that she gave good advice. + +She answered: + +"You needn't be afraid; he can't live through the day. And the mayor +won't stop our burying him to-morrow, because he allowed it for Maitre +Renard's father, who died just during the planting season." + +He was convinced by this argument, and left for the fields. + +His wife baked the dumplings and then attended to her housework. + +At noon the old man was not dead. The people hired for the day's work +came by groups to look at him. Each one had his say. Then they left +again for the fields. + +At six o'clock, when the work was over, the father was still breathing. +At last his son-in-law was frightened. + +"What would you do now, Phemie?" + +She no longer knew how to solve the problem. They went to the mayor. He +promised that he would close his eyes and authorize the funeral for the +following day. They also went to the health officer, who likewise +promised, in order to oblige Maitre Chicot, to antedate the death +certificate. The man and the woman returned, feeling more at ease. + +They went to bed and to sleep, just as they did the preceding day, their +sonorous breathing blending with the feeble breathing of the old man. + +When they awoke, he was not yet dead. + +Then they began to be frightened. They stood by their father, watching +him with distrust, as though he had wished to play them a mean trick, to +deceive them, to annoy them on purpose, and they were vexed at him for +the time which he was making them lose. + +The son-in-law asked: + +"What am I goin' to do?" + +She did not know. She answered: + +"It certainly is annoying!" + +The guests who were expected could not be notified. They decided to wait +and explain the case to them. + +Toward a quarter to seven the first ones arrived. The women in black, +their heads covered with large veils, looking very sad. Then men, ill at +ease in their homespun coats, were coming forward more slowly, in +couples, talking business. + +Maitre Chicot and his wife, bewildered, received them sorrowfully, and +suddenly both of them together began to cry as they approached the first +group. They explained the matter, related their difficulty, offered +chairs, bustled about, tried to make excuses, attempting to prove that +everybody would have done as they did, talking continually and giving +nobody a chance to answer. + +They were going from one person to another: + +"I never would have thought it; it's incredible how he can last this +long!" + +The guests, taken aback, a little disappointed, as though they had missed +an expected entertainment, did not know what to do, some remaining +seated. others standing. Several wished to leave. Maitre Chicot held +them back: + +"You must take something, anyhow! We made some dumplings; might as well +make use of 'em." + +The faces brightened at this idea. The yard was filling little by +little; the early arrivals were telling the news to those who had arrived +later. Everybody was whispering. The idea of the dumplings seemed to +cheer everyone up. + +The women went in to take a look at the dying man. They crossed +themselves beside the bed, muttered a prayer and went out again. The +men, less anxious for this spectacle, cast a look through the window, +which had been opened. + +Madame Chicot explained her distress: + +"That's how he's been for two days, neither better nor worse. Doesn't he +sound like a pump that has gone dry?" + +When everybody had had a look at the dying man, they thought of the +refreshments; but as there were too many people for the kitchen to hold, +the table was moved out in front of the door. The four dozen golden +dumplings, tempting and appetizing, arranged in two big dishes, attracted +the eyes of all. Each one reached out to take his, fearing that there +would not be enough. But four remained over. + +Maitre Chicot, his mouth full, said: + +"Father would feel sad if he were to see this. He loved them so much +when he was alive." + +A big, jovial peasant declared: + +"He won't eat any more now. Each one in his turn." + +This remark, instead of making the guests sad, seemed to cheer them up. +It was their turn now to eat dumplings. + +Madame Chicot, distressed at the expense, kept running down to the cellar +continually for cider. The pitchers were emptied in quick succession. +The company was laughing and talking loud now. They were beginning to +shout as they do at feasts. + +Suddenly an old peasant woman who had stayed beside the dying man, held +there by a morbid fear of what would soon happen to herself, appeared at +the window and cried in a shrill voice: + +"He's dead! he's dead!" + +Everybody was silent. The women arose quickly to go and see. +He was indeed dead. The rattle had ceased. The men looked at each +other, looking down, ill at ease. They hadn't finished eating the +dumplings. Certainly the rascal had not chosen a propitious moment. +The Chicots were no longer weeping. It was over; they were relieved. + +They kept repeating: + +"I knew it couldn't 'last. If he could only have done it last night, it +would have saved us all this trouble." + +Well, anyhow, it was over. They would bury him on Monday, that was all, +and they would eat some more dumplings for the occasion. + +The guests went away, talking the matter over, pleased at having had the +chance to see him and of getting something to eat. + +And when the husband and wife were alone, face to face, she said, her +face distorted with grief: + +"We'll have to bake four dozen more dumplings! Why couldn't he have made +up his mind last night?" + +The husband, more resigned, answered: + +"Well, we'll not have to do this every day." + + + + + + +THE GAMEKEEPER + +It was after dinner, and we were talking about adventures and accidents +which happened while out shooting. + +An old friend, known to all of us, M. Boniface, a great sportsman and a +connoisseur of wine, a man of wonderful physique, witty and gay, and +endowed with an ironical and resigned philosophy, which manifested itself +in caustic humor, and never in melancholy, suddenly exclaimed: + +"I know a story, or rather a tragedy, which is somewhat peculiar. It is +not at all like those which one hears of usually, and I have never told +it, thinking that it would interest no one. + +"It is not at all sympathetic. I mean by that, that it does not arouse +the kind of interest which pleases or which moves one agreeably. + +"Here is the story: + +"I was then about thirty-five years of age, and a most enthusiastic +sportsman. + +"In those days I owned a lonely bit of property in the neighborhood of +Jumieges, surrounded by forests and abounding in hares and rabbits. +I was accustomed to spending four or five days alone there each year, +there not being room enough to allow of my bringing a friend with me. + +"I had placed there as gamekeeper, an old retired gendarme, a good man, +hot-tempered, a severe disciplinarian, a terror to poachers and fearing +nothing. He lived all alone, far from the village, in a little house, or +rather hut, consisting of two rooms downstairs, with kitchen and store- +room, and two upstairs. One of them, a kind of box just large enough to +accommodate a bed, a cupboard and a chair, was reserved for my use. + +"Old man Cavalier lived in the other one. When I said that he was alone +in this place, I was wrong. He had taken his nephew with him, a young +scamp about fourteen years old, who used to go to the village and run +errands for the old man. + +"This young scapegrace was long and lanky, with yellow hair, so light +that it resembled the fluff of a plucked chicken, so thin that he seemed +bald. Besides this, he had enormous feet and the hands of a giant. + +"He was cross-eyed, and never looked at anyone. He struck me as being in +the same relation to the human race as ill-smelling beasts are to the +animal race. He reminded me of a polecat. + +"He slept in a kind of hole at the top of the stairs which led to the two +rooms. + +"But during my short sojourns at the Pavilion--so I called the hut-- +Marius would give up his nook to an old woman from Ecorcheville, called +Celeste, who used to come and cook for me, as old man Cavalier's stews +were not sufficient for my healthy appetite. + +"You now know the characters and the locality. Here is the story: + +"It was on the fifteenth of October, 1854--I shall remember that date as +long as I live. + +"I left Rouen on horseback, followed by my dog Bock, a big Dalmatian +hound from Poitou, full-chested and with a heavy jaw, which could +retrieve among the bushes like a Pont-Andemer spaniel. + +"I was carrying my satchel slung across my back and my gun diagonally +across my chest. It was a cold, windy, gloomy day, with clouds scurrying +across the sky. + +"As I went up the hill at Canteleu, I looked over the broad valley of the +Seine, the river winding in and out along its course as far as the eye +could see. To the right the towers of Rouen stood out against the sky, +and to the left the landscape was bounded by the distant slopes covered +with trees. Then I crossed the forest of Roumare and, toward five +o'clock, reached the Pavilion, where Cavalier and Celeste were expecting +me. + +"For ten years I had appeared there at the same time, in the same manner; +and for ten years the same faces had greeted me with the same words: + +"'Welcome, master! We hope your health is good.' + +"Cavalier had hardly changed. He withstood time like an old tree; but +Celeste, especially in the past four years, had become unrecognizable. + +"She was bent almost double, and, although still active, when she walked +her body was almost at right angles to her legs. + +"The old woman, who was very devoted to me, always seemed affected at +seeing me again, and each time, as I left, she would say: + +"'This may be the last time, master.' + +"The sad, timid farewell of this old servant, this hopeless resignation +to the inevitable fate which was not far off for her, moved me strangely +each year. + +"I dismounted, and while Cavalier, whom I had greeted, was leading my +horse to the little shed which served as a stable, I entered the kitchen, +which also served as dining-room, followed by Celeste. + +"Here the gamekeeper joined us. I saw at first glance that something was +the matter. He seemed preoccupied, ill at ease, worried. + +"I said to him: + +"'Well, Cavalier, is everything all right?' + +"He muttered: + +"'Yes and no. There are things I don't like.' + +"I asked: + +"'What? Tell me about it.' + +"But he shook his head. + +"'No, not yet, monsieur. I do not wish to bother you with my little +troubles so soon after your arrival.' + +"I insisted, but he absolutely refused to give me any information before +dinner. From his expression, I could tell that it was something very +serious. + +"Not knowing what to say to him, I asked: + +"'How about game? Much of it this year?' + +"'Oh, yes! You'll find all you want. Thank heaven, I looked out for +that.' + +"He said this with so much seriousness, with such sad solemnity, that it +was really almost funny. His big gray mustache seemed almost ready ,to +drop from his lips. + +"Suddenly I remembered that I had not yet seen his nephew. + +"'Where is Marius? Why does he not show himself?' + +"The "The gamekeeper started, looking me suddenly in the face: + +" Well, monsieur, I had rather tell you the whole business right away; +it's on account of him that I am worrying.' + +"'Ah! Well, where is he?' + +"'Over in the stable, monsieur. I was waiting for the right time to +bring him out.' + +"'What has he done?' + +"'Well, monsieur----' + +"The gamekeeper, however, hesitated, his voice altered and shaky, his +face suddenly furrowed by the deep lines of an old man. + +"He continued slowly: + +"'Well, I found out, last winter, that someone was poaching in the woods +of Roseraies, but I couldn't seem to catch the man. I spent night after +night on the lookout for him. In vain. During that time they began +poaching over by Ecorcheville. I was growing thin from vexation. But as +for catching the trespasser, impossible! One might have thought that the +rascal was forewarned of my plans. + +"'But one day, while I was brushing Marius' Sunday trousers, I found +forty cents in his pocket. Where did he get it? + +"'I thought the matter over for about a week, and I noticed that he used +to go out; he would leave the house just as I was coming home to go to +bed--yes, monsieur. + +"'Then I started to watch him, without the slightest suspicion of the +real facts. One morning, just after I had gone to bed before him, I got +right up again, and followed him. For shadowing a man, there is nobody +like me, monsieur. + +"'And I caught him, Marius, poaching on your land, monsieur; he my +nephew, I your keeper! + +"'The blood rushed to my head, and I almost killed him on the spot, I hit +him so hard. Oh! yes, I thrashed him all right. And I promised him +that he would get another beating from my hand, in your presence, as an +example. + +"'There! I have grown thin from sorrow. You know how it is when one is +worried like that. But tell me, what would you have done? The boy has +no father or mother, and I am the last one of his blood; I kept him, I +couldn't drive him out, could I? + +"'I told him that if it happened again I would have no more pity for him, +all would be over. There! Did I do right, monsieur?' + +"I answered, holding out my hand: + +"'You did well, Cavalier; you are an honest man.' + +"He rose. + +"'Thank you, monsieur. Now I am going to fetch him. I must give him his +thrashing, as an example.' + +"I knew that it was hopeless to try and turn the old man from his idea. +I therefore let him have his own way. + +"He got the rascal and brought him back by the ear. + +"I was seated on a cane chair, with the solemn expression of a judge. + +"Marius seemed to have grown; he was homelier even than the year before, +with his evil, sneaking expression. + +"His big hands seemed gigantic. + +"His uncle pushed him up to me, and, in his soldierly voice, said: + +"'Beg the gentleman's pardon.' + +"The boy didn't say a word. + +"Then putting one arm round him, the former gendarme lifted him right off +the ground, and began to whack him with such force that I rose to stop +the blows. + +"The boy was now howling: 'Mercy! mercy! mercy! I promise----' + +"Cavalier put him back on the ground and forced him to his knees: + +"'Beg for pardon,' he said. + +"With eyes lowered, the scamp murmured: + +"'I ask for pardon!' + +"Then his uncle lifted him to his feet, and dismissed him with a cuff +which almost knocked him down again. + +"He made his escape, and I did not see him again that evening. + +"Cavalier appeared overwhelmed.' + +"'He is a bad egg,' he said. + +"And throughout the whole dinner, he kept repeating: + +"'Oh! that worries me, monsieur, that worries me.' + +"I tried to comfort him, but in vain. + +"I went to bed early, so that I might start out at daybreak. + +"My dog was already asleep on the floor, at the foot of my bed, when I +put out the light. + +"I was awakened toward midnight by the furious barking of my dog Bock. I +immediately noticed that my room was full of smoke. I jumped out of bed, +struck a light, ran to the door and opened it. A cloud of flames burst +in. The house was on fire. + +"I quickly closed the heavy oak door and, drawing on my trousers, I first +lowered the dog through the window, by means of a rope made of my sheets; +then, having thrown out the rest of my clothes, my game-bag and my gun, I +in turn escaped the same way. + +"I began to shout with all my might: 'Cavalier! Cavalier! Cavalier!' + +"But the gamekeeper did not wake up. He slept soundly like an old +gendarme. + +"However, I could see through the lower windows that the whole ground- +floor was nothing but a roaring furnace; I also noticed that it had been +filled with straw to make it burn readily. + +"Somebody must purposely have set fire to the place! + +"I continued shrieking wildly: 'Cavalier!' + +"Then the thought struck me that the smoke might be suffocating him. An +idea came to me. I slipped two cartridges into my gun, and shot straight +at his window. + +"The six panes of glass shattered into the room in a cloud of glass. +This time the old man had heard me, and he appeared, dazed, in his +nightshirt, bewildered by the glare which illumined the whole front of +his 'house. + +"I cried to him: + +"'Your house is on fire! Escape through the window! Quick! Quick!' + +"The flames were coming out through all the cracks downstairs, were +licking along the wall, were creeping toward him and going to surround +him. He jumped and landed on his feet, like a cat. + +"It was none too soon. The thatched roof cracked in the middle, right +over the staircase, which formed a kind of flue for the fire downstairs; +and an immense red jet jumped up into the air, spreading like a stream of +water and sprinkling a shower of sparks around the hut. In a few seconds +it was nothing but a pool of flames. + +"Cavalier, thunderstruck, asked: + +"'How did the fire start?' + +"I answered: + +"'Somebody lit it in the kitchen.' + +"He muttered: + +"'Who could have started the fire?' + +"And I, suddenly guessing, answered: + +"'Marius!' + +"The old man understood. He stammered: + +"'Good God! That is why he didn't return.' + +"A terrible thought flashed through my mind. I cried: + +"'And Celeste! Celeste!' + +"He did not answer. The house caved in before us, forming only an +enormous, bright, blinding brazier, an awe-inspiring funeral-pile, where +the poor woman could no longer be anything but a glowing ember, a glowing +ember of human flesh. + +"We had not heard a single cry. + +"As the fire crept toward the shed, I suddenly bethought me of my horse, +and Cavalier ran to free it. + +"Hardly had he opened the door of the stable, when a supple, nimble body +darted between his legs, and threw him on his face. It was Marius, +running for all he was worth. + +"The man was up in a second. He tried to run after the wretch, but, +seeing that he could not catch him, and maddened by an irresistible +anger, yielding to one of those thoughtless impulses which we cannot +foresee or prevent, he picked up my gun, which was lying on the ground. +near him, put it to his shoulder, and, before I could make a motion, he +pulled the trigger without even noticing whether or not the weapon was +loaded. + +"One of the cartridges which I had put in to announce the fire was still +intact, and the charge caught the fugitive right in the back,--throwing +him forward on the ground, bleeding profusely. He immediately began to +claw the earth with his hands and with his knees, as though trying to run +on all fours like a rabbit who has been mortally wounded, and sees the +hunter approaching. + +"I rushed forward to the boy, but I could already hear the death-rattle. +He passed away before the fire was extinguished, without having said a +word. + +"Cavalier, still in his shirt, his legs bare, was standing near us, +motionless, dazed. + +"When the people from the village arrived, my gamekeeper was taken away, +like an insane man. + +"I appeared at the trial as witness, and related the facts in detail, +without changing a thing. Cavalier was acquitted. He disappeared that +very day, leaving the country. + +"I have never seen him since. + +"There, gentlemen, that is my story." + + + + + + +THE STORY OF A FARM GIRL + + +PART I + +As the weather was very fine, the people on the farm had hurried through +their dinner and had returned to the fields. + +The servant, Rose, remained alone in the large kitchen, where the fire +was dying out on the hearth beneath the large boiler of hot water. From +time to time she dipped out some water and slowly washed her dishes, +stopping occasionally to look at the two streaks of light which the sun +threw across the long table through the window, and which showed the +defects in the glass. + +Three venturesome hens were picking up the crumbs under the chairs, while +the smell of the poultry yard and the warmth from the cow stall came in +through the half-open door, and a cock was heard crowing in the distance. + +When she had finished her work, wiped down the table, dusted the +mantelpiece and put the plates on the high dresser close to the wooden +clock with its loud tick-tock, she drew a long breath, as she felt rather +oppressed, without exactly knowing why. She looked at the black clay +walls, the rafters that were blackened with smoke and from which hung +spiders' webs, smoked herrings and strings of onions, and then she sat +down, rather overcome by the stale odor from the earthen floor, on which +so many things had been continually spilled and which the heat brought +out. With this there was mingled the sour smell of the pans of milk +which were set out to raise the cream in the adjoining dairy. + +She wanted to sew, as usual, but she did not feel strong enough, and so +she went to the door to get a mouthful of fresh air, which seemed to do +her good. + +The fowls were lying on the steaming dunghill; some of them were +scratching with one claw in search of worms, while the cock stood up +proudly in their midst. When he crowed, the cocks in all the neighboring +farmyards replied to him, as if they were uttering challenges from farm +to farm. + +The girl looked at them without thinking, and then she raised her eyes +and was almost dazzled at the sight of the apple trees in blossom. Just +then a colt, full of life and friskiness, jumped over the ditches and +then stopped suddenly, as if surprised at being alone. + +She also felt inclined to run; she felt inclined to move and to stretch +her limbs and to repose in the warm, breathless air. She took a few +undecided steps and closed her eyes, for she was seized with a feeling of +animal comfort, and then she went to look for eggs in the hen loft. +There were thirteen of them, which she took in and put into the +storeroom; but the smell from the kitchen annoyed her again, and she went +out to sit on the grass for a time. + +The farmyard, which was surrounded by trees, seemed to be asleep. The +tall grass, amid which the tall yellow dandelions rose up like streaks of +yellow light, was of a vivid, fresh spring green. The apple trees cast +their shade all round them, and the thatched roofs, on which grew blue +and yellow irises, with their sword-like leaves, steamed as if the +moisture of the stables and barns were coming through the straw. +The girl went to the shed, where the carts and buggies were kept. Close +to it, in a ditch, there was a large patch of violets, whose fragrance +was spread abroad, while beyond the slope the open country could be seen, +where grain was growing, with clumps of trees in places, and groups of +laborers here and there, who looked as small as dolls, and white horses +like toys, who were drawing a child's cart, driven by a man as tall as +one's finger. + +She took up a bundle of straw, threw it into the ditch and sat down upon +it. Then, not feeling comfortable, she undid it, spread it out and lay +down upon it at full length on her back, with both arms under her head +and her legs stretched out. + +Gradually her eyes closed, and she was falling into a state of delightful +languor. She was, in fact, almost asleep when she felt two hands on her +bosom, and she sprang up at a bound. It was Jacques, one of the farm +laborers, a tall fellow from Picardy, who had been making love to her for +a long time. He had been herding the sheep, and, seeing her lying down +in the shade, had come up stealthily and holding his breath, with +glistening eyes and bits of straw in his hair. + +He tried to kiss her, but she gave him a smack in the face, for she was +as strong as he, and he was shrewd enough to beg her pardon; so they sat +down side by side and talked amicably. They spoke about the favorable +weather, of their master, who was a good fellow, then of their neighbors, +of all the people in the country round, of themselves, of their village, +of their youthful days, of their recollections, of their relations, who +had left them for a long time, and it might be forever. She grew sad as +she thought of it, while he, with one fixed idea in his head, drew closer +to her. + +"I have not seen my mother for a long time," she said. "It is very hard +to be separated like that," and she directed her looks into the distance, +toward the village in the north which she had left. + +Suddenly, however, he seized her by the neck and kissed her again, but +she struck him so violently in the face with her clenched fist that his +nose began to bleed, and he got up and laid his head against the stem of +a tree. When she saw that, she was sorry, and going up to him, she said: +"Have I hurt you?" He, however, only laughed. "No, it was a mere +nothing; only she had hit him right on the middle of the nose. What a +devil!" he said, and he looked at her with admiration, for she had +inspired him with a feeling of respect and of a very different kind of +admiration which was the beginning of a real love for that tall, strong +wench. When the bleeding had stopped, he proposed a walk, as he was +afraid of his neighbor's heavy hand, if they remained side by side like +that much longer; but she took his arm of her own accord, in the avenue, +as if they had been out for an evening's walk, and said: "It is not nice +of you to despise me like that, Jacques." He protested, however. No, he +did not despise her. He was in love with her, that was all. + +"So you really want to marry me?" she asked. + +He hesitated and then looked at her sideways, while she looked straight +ahead of her. She had fat, red cheeks, a full bust beneath her cotton +jacket; thick, red lips; and her neck, which was almost bare, was covered +with small beads of perspiration. He felt a fresh access of desire, and, +putting his lips to her ear, he murmured: "Yes, of course I do." + +Then she threw her arms round his neck and kissed him till they were both +out of breath. From that moment the eternal story of love began between +them. They plagued one another in corners; they met in the moonlight +beside the haystack and gave each other bruises on the legs, under the +table, with their heavy nailed boots. By degrees, however, Jacques +seemed to grow tired of her; he avoided her, scarcely spoke to her, and +did not try any longer to meet her alone, which made her sad and anxious; +and soon she found that she was enceinte. + +At first she was in a state of consternation, but then she got angry, and +her rage increased every day because she could not meet him, as he +avoided her most carefully. At last, one night, when every one in the +farmhouse was asleep, she went out noiselessly in her petticoat, with +bare feet, crossed the yard and opened the door of the stable where +Jacques was lying in a large box of straw above his horses. He pretended +to snore when he heard her coming, but she knelt down by his side and +shook him until he sat up. + +"What do you want?" he then asked her. And with clenched teeth, and +trembling with anger, she replied: "I want--I want you to marry me, as +you promised." But he only laughed and replied: "Oh! if a man were to +marry all the girls with whom he has made a slip, he would have more than +enough to do." + +Then she seized him by the throat, threw him or his back, so that he +could not get away from her, and, half strangling him, she shouted into +his face: + +"I am enceinte, do you hear? I am enceinte!" + +He gasped for breath, as he was almost choked, and so they remained, both +of them, motionless and without speaking, in the dark silence, which was +only broken by the noise made by a horse as he, pulled the hay out of the +manger and then slowly munched it. + +When Jacques found that she was the stronger, he stammered out: "Very +well, I will marry you, as that is the case." But she did not believe +his promises. "It must be at once," she said. "You must have the banns +put up." "At once," he replied. "Swear solemnly that you will." He +hesitated for a few moments and then said: "I swear it, by Heaven!" + +Then she released her grasp and went away without another word. + +She had no chance of speaking to him for several days; and, as the stable +was now always locked at night, she was afraid to make any noise, for +fear of creating a scandal. One morning, however, she saw another man +come in at dinner time, and she said: "Has Jacques left?" "Yes;" the man +replied; "I have got his place." + +This made her tremble so violently that she could not take the saucepan +off the fire; and later, when they were all at work, she went up into her +room and cried, burying her head in the bolster, so that she might not be +heard. During the day, however, she tried to obtain some information +without exciting any suspicion, but she was so overwhelmed by the +thoughts of her misfortune that she fancied that all the people whom she +asked laughed maliciously. All she learned, however, was that he had +left the neighborhood altogether. + + + +PART II + +Then a cloud of constant misery began for her. She worked mechanically, +without thinking of what she was doing, with one fixed idea in her head: + +"Suppose people were to know." + +This continual feeling made her so incapable of reasoning that she did +not even try to think of any means of avoiding the disgrace that she knew +must ensue, which was irreparable and drawing nearer every day, and which +was as sure as death itself. She got up every morning long before the +others and persistently tried to look at her figure in a piece of broken +looking-glass, before which she did her hair, as she was very anxious to +know whether anybody would notice a change in her, and, during the day, +she stopped working every few minutes to look at herself from top to toe, +to see whether her apron did not look too short. + +The months went on, and she scarcely spoke now, and when she was asked a +question, did not appear to understand; but she had a frightened look, +haggard eyes and trembling hands, which made her master say to her +occasionally: "My poor girl, how stupid you have grown lately." + +In church she hid behind a pillar, and no longer ventured to go to +confession, as she feared to face the priest, to whom she attributed +superhuman powers, which enabled him to read people's consciences; and at +meal times the looks of her fellow servants almost made her faint with +mental agony; and she was always fancying that she had been found out by +the cowherd, a precocious and cunning little lad, whose bright eyes +seemed always to be watching her. + +One morning the postman brought her a letter, and as she had never +received one in her life before she was so upset by it that she was +obliged to sit down. Perhaps it was from him? But, as she could not +read, she sat anxious and trembling with that piece of paper, covered +with ink, in her hand. After a time, however, she put it into her +pocket, as she did not venture to confide her secret to any one. She +often stopped in her work to look at those lines written at regular +intervals, and which terminated in a signature, imagining vaguely that +she would suddenly discover their meaning, until at last, as she felt +half mad with impatience and anxiety, she went to the schoolmaster, who +told her to sit down and read to her as follows: + +"MY DEAR DAUGHTER: I write to tell you that I am very ill. Our neighbor, +Monsieur Dentu, begs you to come, if you can. + +"From your affectionate mother, + "CESAIRE DENTU, Deputy Mayor." + +She did not say a word and went away, but as soon as she was alone her +legs gave way under her, and she fell down by the roadside and remained +there till night. + +When she got back, she told the farmer her bad news, and he allowed her +to go home for as long as she liked, and promised to have her work done +by a charwoman and to take her back when she returned. + +Her mother died soon after she got there, and the next day Rose gave +birth to a seven-months child, a miserable little skeleton, thin enough +to make anybody shudder, and which seemed to be suffering continually, to +judge from the painful manner in which it moved its poor little hands, +which were as thin as a crab's legs; but it lived for all that. She said +she was married, but could not be burdened with the child, so she left it +with some neighbors, who promised to take great care of it, and she went +back to the farm. + +But now in her heart, which had been wounded so long, there arose +something like brightness, an unknown love for that frail little creature +which she had left behind her, though there was fresh suffering in that +very love, suffering which she felt every hour and every minute, because +she was parted from her child. What pained her most, however, was the +mad longing to kiss it, to press it in her arms, to feel the warmth of +its little body against her breast. She could not sleep at night; she +thought of it the whole day long, and in the evening, when her work was +done, she would sit in front of the fire and gaze at it intently, as +people do whose thoughts are far away. + +They began to talk about her and to tease-her about her lover. They +asked her whether he was tall, handsome and rich. When was the wedding +to be and the christening? And often she ran away to cry by herself, for +these questions seemed to hurt her like the prick of a pin; and, in order +to forget their jokes, she began to work still more energetically, and, +still thinking of her child, she sought some way of saving up money for +it, and determined to work so that her master would be obliged to raise +her wages. + +By degrees she almost monopolized the work and persuaded him to get rid +of one servant girl, who had become useless since she had taken to +working like two; she economized in the bread, oil and candles; in the +corn, which they gave to the chickens too extravagantly, and in the +fodder for the horses and cattle, which was rather wasted. She was as +miserly about her master's money as if it had been her own; and, by dint +of making good bargains, of getting high prices for all their produce, +and by baffling the peasants' tricks when they offered anything for sale, +he, at last, entrusted her with buying and selling everything, with the +direction of all the laborers, and with the purchase of provisions +necessary for the household; so that, in a short time, she became. +indispensable to him. She kept such a strict eye on everything about her +that, under her direction, the farm prospered wonderfully, and for five +miles around people talked of "Master Vallin's servant," and the farmer +himself said everywhere: "That girl is worth more than her weight in +gold." + +But time passed by, and her wages remained the same. Her hard work was +accepted as something that was due from every good servant, and as a mere +token of good will; and she began to think rather bitterly that if the +farmer could put fifty or a hundred crowns extra into the bank every +month, thanks to her, she was still only earning her two hundred francs a +year, neither more nor less; and so she made up her mind to ask for an +increase of wages. She went to see the schoolmaster three times about +it, but when she got there, she spoke about something else. She felt a +kind of modesty in asking for money, as if it were something disgraceful; +but, at last, one day, when the farmer was having breakfast by himself in +the kitchen, she said to him, with some embarrassment, that she wished to +speak to him particularly. He raised his head in surprise, with both his +hands on the table, holding his knife, with its point in the air, in one, +and a piece of bread in the other, and he looked fixedly at, the girl, +who felt uncomfortable under his gaze, but asked for a week's holiday, so +that she might get away, as she was not very well. He acceded to her +request immediately, and then added, in some embarrassment himself: + +"When you come back, I shall have something to say to you myself." + + +PART III + +The child was nearly eight months old, and she did not recognize it. It +had grown rosy and chubby all over, like a little roll of fat. She threw +herself on it, as if it had been some prey, and kissed it so violently +that it began to scream with terror; and then she began to cry herself, +because it did not know her, and stretched out its arms to its nurse as +soon as it saw her. But the next day it began to know her, and laughed +when it saw her, and she took it into the fields, and ran about excitedly +with it, and sat down under the shade of the trees; and then, for the +first time in her life, she opened her heart to somebody, although he +could not understand her, and told him her troubles; how hard her work +was, her anxieties and her hopes, and she quite tired the child with the +violence of her caresses. + +She took the greatest pleasure in handling it, in washing and dressing +it, for it seemed to her that all this was the confirmation of her +maternity; and she would look at it, almost feeling surprised 'that it +was hers, and would say to herself in a low voice as she danced it in her +arms: "It is my baby, it's my baby." + +She cried all the way home as she returned to the farm and had scarcely +got in before her master called her into his room; and she went, feeling +astonished and nervous, without knowing why. + +"Sit down there," he said. She sat down, and for some moments they +remained side by side, in some embarrassment, with their arms hanging at +their sides, as if they did not know what to do with them, and looking +each other in the face, after the manner of peasants. + +The farmer, a stout, jovial, obstinate man of forty-five, who had lost +two wives, evidently felt embarrassed, which was very unusual with him; +but, at last, he made. up his mind, and began to speak vaguely, +hesitating a little, and looking out of the window as he talked. "How is +it, Rose," he said, "that you have never thought of settling in life?" +She grew as pale as death, and, seeing that she gave him no answer, he +went on: "You are a good, steady, active and economical girl; and a wife +like you would make a man's fortune." + +She did not move, but looked frightened; she did not even try to +comprehend his meaning, for her thoughts were in a whirl, as if at the +approach of some great danger; so, after waiting for a few seconds, he +went on: "You see, a farm without a mistress can never succeed, even with +a servant like you." Then he stopped, for he did not know what else to +say, and Rose looked at him with the air of a person who thinks that he +is face to face with a murderer and ready to flee at the slightest +movement he may make; but, after waiting for about five minutes, he asked +her: "Well, will it suit you?" "Will what suit me, master?" And he said +quickly: "Why, to marry me, by Heaven!" + +She jumped up, but fell back on her chair, as if she had been struck, and +there she remained motionless, like a person who is overwhelmed by some +great misfortune. At last the farmer grew impatient and said: "Come, +what more do you want?" She looked at him, almost in terror, then +suddenly the tears came into her eves and she said twice in a choking +voice: "I cannot, I cannot!" "Why not?" he asked. "Come, don't be +silly; I will give you until tomorrow to think it over." + +And he hurried out of the room, very glad to have got through with the +matter, which had troubled him a good deal, for he had no doubt that she +would the next morning accept a proposal which she could never have +expected and which would be a capital bargain for him, as he thus bound a +woman to his interests who would certainly bring him more than if she had +the best dowry in the district. + +Neither could there be any scruples about an unequal match between them, +for in the country every one is very nearly equal; the farmer works with +his laborers, who frequently become masters in their turn, and the female +servants constantly become the mistresses of the establishments without +its making any change in their life or habits. + +Rose did not go to bed that night. She threw herself, dressed as she +was, on her bed, and she had not even the strength to cry left in her, +she was so thoroughly dumfounded. She remained quite inert, scarcely +knowing that she had a body, and without being at all able to collect her +thoughts, though, at moments, she remembered something of what had +happened, and then she was frightened at the idea of what might happen. +Her terror increased, and every time the great kitchen clock struck the +hour she broke out in a perspiration from grief. She became bewildered, +and had the nightmare; her candle went out, and then she began to imagine +that some one bad cast a spell over her, as country people so often +imagine, and she felt a mad inclination to run away, to escape and to +flee before her misfortune, like a ship scudding before the wind. +An owl hooted; she shivered, sat up, passed her hands over her face, her +hair, and all over her body, and then she went downstairs, as if she were +walking in her sleep. When she got into the yard she stooped down, so as +not to be seen by any prowling scamp, for the moon, which was setting, +shed a bright light over the fields. Instead of opening the gate she +scrambled over the fence, and as soon as she was outside she started off. +She went on straight before her, with a quick, springy trot, and from +time to time she unconsciously uttered a piercing cry. Her long shadow +accompanied her, and now and then some night bird flew over her head, +while the dogs in the farmyards barked as they heard her pass; one even +jumped over the ditch, and followed her and tried to bite her, but she +turned round and gave such a terrible yell that the frightened animal ran +back and cowered in silence in its kennel. + +The stars grew dim, and the birds began to twitter; day was breaking. +The girl was worn out and panting; and when the sun rose in the purple +sky, she stopped, for her swollen feet refused to go any farther; but she +saw a pond in the distance, a large pond whose stagnant water looked like +blood under the reflection of this new day, and she limped on slowly with +her hand on her heart, in order to dip both her feet in it. She sat down +on a tuft of grass, took off her heavy shoes, which were full of dust, +pulled off her stockings and plunged her legs into the still water, from +which bubbles were rising here and there. + +A feeling of delicious coolness pervaded her from head to foot, and +suddenly, while she was looking fixedly at the deep pool, she was seized +with dizziness, and with a mad longing to throw herself into it. All her +sufferings would be over in there, over forever. She no longer thought +of her child; she only wanted peace, complete rest, and to sleep forever, +and she got up with raised arms and took two steps forward. She was in +the water up to her thighs, and she was just about to throw her self in +when sharp, pricking pains in her ankles made her jump back, and she +uttered a cry of despair, for, from her knees to the tips of her feet, +long black leeches were sucking her lifeblood, and were swelling as they +adhered to her flesh. She did not dare to touch them, and screamed with +horror, so that her cries of despair attracted a peasant, who was driving +along at some distance, to the spot. He pulled off the leeches one by +one, applied herbs to the wounds, and drove the girl to her master's farm +in his gig. + +She was in bed for a fortnight, and as she was sitting outside the door +on the first morning that she got up, the farmer suddenly came and +planted himself before her. "Well," he said, "I suppose the affair is +settled isn't it?" She did not reply at first, and then, as he remained +standing and looking at her intently with his piercing eyes, she said +with difficulty: "No, master, I cannot." He immediately flew into a +rage. + +"You cannot, girl; you cannot? I should just like to know the reason +why?" She began to cry, and repeated: "I cannot." He looked at her, and +then exclaimed angrily: "Then I suppose you have a lover?" "Perhaps that +is it," she replied, trembling with shame. + +The man got as red as a poppy, and stammered out in a rage: "Ah! So you +confess it, you slut! And pray who is the fellow? Some penniless, half- +starved ragamuffin, without a roof to his head, I suppose? Who is it, I +say?" And as she gave him no answer, he continued: "Ah! So you will not +tell me. Then I will tell you; it is Jean Baudu?' "No, not he," she +exclaimed. "Then it is Pierre Martin?" "Oh! no, master." + +And he angrily mentioned all the young fellows in the neighborhood, while +she denied that he had hit upon the right one, and every moment wiped her +eyes with the corner of her blue apron. But he still tried to find it +out, with his brutish obstinacy, and, as it were, scratching at her heart +to discover her secret, just as a terrier scratches at a hole to try and +get at the animal which he scents inside it. Suddenly, however, the man +shouted: "By George! It is Jacques, the man who was here last year. +They used to say that you were always talking together, and that you +thought about getting married." + +Rose was choking, and she grew scarlet, while her tears suddenly stopped +and dried up on her cheeks, like drops of water on hot iron, and she +exclaimed: "No, it is not he, it is not he!" "Is that really a fact?" +asked the cunning peasant, who partly guessed the truth; and she replied, +hastily: "I will swear it; I will swear it to you--" She tried to think +of something by which to swear, as she did not venture to invoke sacred +things, but he interrupted her: "At any rate, he used to follow you into +every corner and devoured you with his eyes at meal times. Did you ever +give him your promise, eh?" + +This time she looked her master straight in the face. "No, never, never; +I will solemnly swear to you that if he were to come to-day and ask me to +marry him I would have nothing to do with him." She spoke with such an +air of sincerity that the farmer hesitated, and then he continued, as if +speaking to himself:. "What, then? You have not had a misfortune, as +they call it, or it would have been known, and as it has no consequences, +no girl would refuse her master on that account. There must be something +at the bottom of it, however." + +She could say nothing; she had not the strength to speak, and he asked +her again: "You will not?" "I cannot, master," she said, with a sigh, +and he turned on his heel. + +She thought she had got rid of him altogether and spent the rest of the +day almost tranquilly, but was as exhausted as if she had been turning +the thrashing machine all day in the place of the old white horse, and +she went to bed as soon as she could and fell asleep immediately. In the +middle of the night, however, two hands touching the bed woke her. She . +trembled with fear, but immediately recognized the farmer's voice, when +he said to her: "Don't be frightened, Rose; I have come to speak to you." +She was surprised at first, but when he tried to take liberties with her +she understood and began to tremble violently, as she felt quite alone in +the darkness, still heavy from sleep, and quite unprotected, with that +man standing near her. She certainly did not consent, but she resisted +carelessly struggling against that instinct which is always strong in +simple natures and very imperfectly protected by the undecided will of +inert and gentle races. She turned her head now to the wall, and now +toward the room, in order to avoid the attentions which the farmer tried +to press on her, but she was weakened by fatigue, while he became brutal, +intoxicated by desire. + +They lived together as man and wife, and one morning he said to her: "I +have put up our banns, and we will get married next month." + +She did not reply, for what could she say? She did not resist, for what +could she do? + + +PART IV + +She married him. She felt as if she were in a pit with inaccessible +sides from which she could never get out, and all kinds of misfortunes +were hanging over her head, like huge rocks, which would fall on the +first occasion. Her husband gave her the impression of a man whom she +had robbed, and who would find it out some day or other. And then she +thought of her child, who was the cause of her misfortunes, but who was +also the cause of all her happiness on earth, and whom she went to see +twice a year, though she came back more unhappy each time. + +But she gradually grew accustomed to her life, her fears were allayed, +her heart was at rest, and she lived with an easier mind, though still +with some vague fear floating in it. And so years went on, until the +child was six. She was almost happy now, when suddenly the farmer's +temper grew very bad. + +For two or three years he seemed to have been nursing some secret +anxiety, to be troubled by some care, some mental disturbance, which was +gradually increasing. He remained sitting at table after dinner, with +his head in his hands, sad and devoured by sorrow. He always spoke +hastily, sometimes even brutally, and it even seemed as if he had a +grudge against his wife, for at times he answered her roughly, almost +angrily. + +One day, when a neighbor's boy came for some eggs, and she spoke rather +crossly to him, as she was very busy, her husband suddenly came in and +said to her in his unpleasant voice: "If that were your own child you +would not treat him so." She was hurt and did not reply, and then she +went back into the house, with all her grief awakened afresh; and at +dinner the farmer neither spoke to her nor looked at her, and he seemed +to hate her, to despise her, to know something about the affair at last. +In consequence she lost her composure, and did not venture to remain +alone with him after the meal was over, but left the room and hastened to +the church. + +It was getting dusk; the narrow nave was in total darkness, but she heard +footsteps in the choir, for the sacristan was preparing the tabernacle +lamp for the night. That spot of trembling light, which was lost in the +darkness of the. arches, looked to Rose like her last hope, and with her +eyes fixed on it, she fell on her knees. The chain rattled as the little +lamp swung up into the air, and almost immediately the small bell rang +out the Angelus through the increasing mist. She went up to him, as he +was going out. + +"Is Monsieur le Cure at home?" she asked. "Of course he is; this is his +dinnertime." She trembled as she rang the bell of the parsonage. The +priest was just sitting down to dinner, and he made her sit down also. +"Yes, yes, I know all about it; your husband has mentioned the matter to +me that brings you here." The poor woman nearly fainted, and the priest +continued: "What do you want, my child?" And he hastily swallowed +several spoonfuls of soup, some of which dropped on to his greasy +cassock. But Rose did not venture to say anything more, and she got up +to go, but the priest said: "Courage." + +And she went out and returned to the farm without knowing what she was +doing. The farmer was waiting for her, as the laborers had gone away +during her absence, and she fell heavily at his feet, and, shedding a +flood of tears, she said to him: "What have you got against me?" + +He began to shout and to swear: "What have I got against you? That I +have no children, by ---. When a man takes a wife it is not that they +may live alone together to the end of their days. That is what I have +against you. When a cow has no calves she is not worth anything, and +when a woman has no children she is also not worth anything." + +She began to cry, and said: "It is not my fault! It is not my fault!" +He grew rather more gentle when he heard that, and added: "I do not say +that it is, but it is very provoking, all the same." + + + +PART V + +From that day forward she had only one thought: to have a child another +child; she confided her wish to everybody, and, in consequence of this, a +neighbor told her of an infallible method. This was, to make her husband +drink a glass of water with a pinch of ashes in it every evening. The +farmer consented to try it, but without success; so they said to each +other: "Perhaps there are some secret ways?" And they tried to find out. +They were told of a shepherd who lived ten leagues off, and so Vallin one +day drove off to consult him. The shepherd gave him a loaf on which he +had made some marks; it was kneaded up with herbs, and each of them was +to eat a piece of it, but they ate the whole loaf without obtaining any +results from it. + +Next, a schoolmaster unveiled mysteries and processes of love which were +unknown in the country, but infallible, so he declared; but none of them +had the desired effect. Then the priest advised them to make a +pilgrimage to the shrine at Fecamp. Rose went with the crowd and +prostrated herself in the abbey, and, mingling her prayers with the +coarse desires of the peasants around her, she prayed that she might be +fruitful a second time; but it was in vain, and then she thought that she +was being punished for her first fault, and she was seized by terrible +grief. She was wasting away with sorrow; her husband was also aging +prematurely, and was wearing himself out in useless hopes. + +Then war broke out between them; he called her names and beat her. They +quarrelled all day long, and when they were in their room together at +night he flung insults and obscenities at her, choking with rage, until +one night, not being able to think of any means of making her suffer more +he ordered her to get up and go and stand out of doors in the rain until +daylight. As she did not obey him, he seized her by the neck and began +to strike her in the face with his fists, but she said nothing and did +not move. In his exasperation he knelt on her stomach, and with clenched +teeth, and mad with rage, he began to beat her. Then in her despair she +rebelled, and flinging him against the wall with a furious gesture, she +sat up, and in an altered voice she hissed: "I have had a child, I have +had one! I had it by Jacques; you know Jacques. He promised to marry +me, but he left this neighborhood without keeping his word." + +The man was thunderstruck and could hardly speak, but at last he +stammered out: "What are you saying? What are you saying?" Then she +began to sob, and amid her tears she continued: "That was the reason why +I did not want to marry you. I could not tell you, for you would have +left me without any bread for my child. You have never had any children, +so you cannot understand, you cannot understand!" + +He said again, mechanically, with increasing surprise: "You have a child? +You have a child?" + +"You took me by force, as I suppose you know? I did not want to marry +you," she said, still sobbing. + +Then he got up, lit the candle, and began to walk up and down, with his +arms behind him. She was cowering on the bed and crying, and suddenly he +stopped in front of her, and said: "Then it is my fault that you have no +children?" She gave him no answer, and he began to walk up and down +again, and then, stopping again, he continued: "How old is your child?" +"Just six," she whispered. "Why did you not tell me about it?" he asked. +"How could I?" she replied, with a sigh. + +He remained standing, motionless. "Come, get up," he said. She got up +with some difficulty, and then, when she was standing on the floor, he +suddenly began to laugh with the hearty laugh of his good days, and, +seeing how surprised she was, he added: "Very well, we will go and fetch +the child, as you and I can have none together." + +She was so scared that if she had had the strength she would assuredly +have run away, but the farmer rubbed his hands and said: "I wanted to +adopt one, and now we have found one. I asked the cure about an orphan +some time ago." + +Then, still laughing, he kissed his weeping and agitated wife on both +cheeks, and shouted out, as though she could not hear him: "Come along, +mother, we will go and see whether there is any soup left; I should not +mind a plateful." + +She put on her petticoat and they went downstairs; and While she was +kneeling in front of the fireplace and lighting the fire under the +saucepan, he continued to walk up and down the kitchen with long strides, +repeating: + +"Well, I am really glad of this; I am not saying it for form's sake, but +I am glad, I am really very glad." + + + + + + +THE WRECK + +It was yesterday, the 31st of December. + +I had just finished breakfast with my old friend Georges Garin when the +servant handed him a letter covered with seals and foreign stamps. + +Georges said: + +"Will you excuse me?" + +"Certainly." + +And so he began to read the letter, which was written in a large English +handwriting, crossed and recrossed in every direction. He read them +slowly, with serious attention and the interest which we only pay to +things which touch our hearts. + +Then he put the letter on the mantelpiece and said: + +"That was a curious story! I've never told you about it, I think. Yet +it was a sentimental adventure, and it really happened to me. That was a +strange New Year's Day, indeed! It must have been twenty years ago, for +I was then thirty and am now fifty years old. + +"I was then an inspector in the Maritime Insurance Company, of which I am +now director. I had arranged to pass New Year's Day in Paris--since it +is customary to make that day a fete--when I received a letter from the +manager, asking me to proceed at once to the island of Re, where a three- +masted vessel from Saint-Nazaire, insured by us, had just been driven +ashore. It was then eight o'clock in the morning. I arrived at the +office at ten to get my advices, and that evening I took the express, +which put me down in La Rochelle the next day, the 31st of December. + +"I had two hours to wait before going aboard the boat for Re. So I made +a tour of the town. It is certainly a queer city, La Rochelle, with +strong characteristics of its own streets tangled like a labyrinth, +sidewalks running under endless arcaded galleries like those of the Rue +de Rivoli, but low, mysterious, built as if to form a suitable setting +for conspirators and making a striking background for those old-time +wars, the savage heroic wars of religion. It is indeed the typical old +Huguenot city, conservative, discreet, with no fine art to show, with no +wonderful monuments, such as make Rouen; but it is remarkable for its +severe, somewhat sullen look; it is a city of obstinate fighters, a city +where fanaticism might well blossom, where the faith of the Calvinists +became enthusiastic and which gave birth to the plot of the 'Four +Sergeants.' + +"After I had wandered for some time about these curious streets, I went +aboard the black, rotund little steamboat which was to take me to the +island of Re. It was called the Jean Guiton. It started with angry +puffings, passed between the two old towers which guard the harbor, +crossed the roadstead and issued from the mole built by Richelieu, the +great stones of which can be seen at the water's edge, enclosing the town +like a great necklace. Then the steamboat turned to the right. + +"It was one of those sad days which give one the blues, tighten the heart +and take away all strength and energy and force-a gray, cold day, with a +heavy mist which was as wet as rain, as cold as frost, as bad to breathe +as the steam of a wash-tub. + +"Under this low sky of dismal fog the shallow, yellow, sandy sea of all +practically level beaches lay without a wrinkle, without a movement, +without life, a sea of turbid water, of greasy water, of stagnant water. +The Jean Guiton passed over it, rolling a little from habit, dividing the +smooth, dark blue water and leaving behind a few waves, a little +splashing, a slight swell, which soon calmed down. + +"I began to talk to the captain, a little man with small feet, as round +as his boat and rolling in the same manner. I wanted some details of the +disaster on which I was to draw up a report. A great square-rigged +three-master, the Marie Joseph, of Saint-Nazaire, had gone ashore one +night in a hurricane on the sands of the island of Re. + +"The owner wrote us that the storm had thrown the ship so far ashore that +it was impossible to float her and that they had to remove everything +which could be detached with the utmost possible haste. Nevertheless I +must examine the situation of the wreck, estimate what must have been her +condition before the disaster and decide whether all efforts had been +used to get her afloat. I came as an agent of the company in order to +give contradictory testimony, if necessary, at the trial. + +"On receipt of my report, the manager would take what measures he might +think necessary to protect our interests. + +"The captain of the Jean Guiton knew all about the affair, having been +summoned with his boat to assist in the attempts at salvage. + +"He told me the story of the disaster. The Marie Joseph, driven by a +furious gale lost her bearings completely in the night, and steering by +chance over a heavy foaming sea--'a milk-soup sea,' said the captain--had +gone ashore on those immense sand banks which make the coasts of this +country look like limitless Saharas when the tide is low. + +"While talking I looked around and ahead. Between the ocean and the +lowering sky lay an open space where the eye could see into the distance. +We were following a coast. I asked: + +"'Is that the island of Re?' + +"'Yes, sir.' + +"And suddenly the captain stretched his right hand out before us, pointed +to something almost imperceptible in the open sea, and said: + +"'There's your ship!' + +"'The Marie Joseph!' + +"'Yes.' + +"I was amazed. This black, almost imperceptible speck, which looked to +me like a rock, seemed at least three miles from land. + +"I continued: + +"'But, captain, there must be a hundred fathoms of water in that place.' + +"He began to laugh. + +"'A hundred fathoms, my child! Well, I should say about two!' + +"He was from Bordeaux. He continued: + +"'It's now nine-forty, just high tide. Go down along the beach with your +hands in your pockets after you've had lunch at the Hotel du Dauphin, and +I'll wager that at ten minutes to three, or three o'clock, you'll reach +the wreck without wetting your feet, and have from an hour and three- +quarters to two hours aboard of her; but not more, or you'll be caught. +The faster the sea goes out the faster it comes back. This coast is as +flat as a turtle! But start away at ten minutes to five, as I tell you, +and at half-past seven you will be again aboard of the Jean Guiton, which +will put you down this same evening on the quay at La Rochelle.' + +"I thanked the captain and I went and sat down in the bow of the steamer +to get a good look at the little city of Saint-Martin, which we were now +rapidly approaching. + +"It was just like all small seaports which serve as capitals of the +barren islands scattered along the coast--a large fishing village, one +foot on sea and one on shore, subsisting on fish and wild fowl, +vegetables and shell-fish, radishes and mussels. The island is very low +and little cultivated, yet it seems to be thickly populated. However, I +did not penetrate into the interior. + +"After breakfast I climbed across a little promontory, and then, as the +tide was rapidly falling, I started out across the sands toward a kind of +black rock which I could just perceive above the surface of the water, +out a considerable distance. + +"I walked quickly over the yellow plain. It was elastic, like flesh and +seemed to sweat beneath my tread. The sea had been there very lately. +Now I perceived it at a distance, escaping out of sight, and I no longer +could distinguish the line which separated the sands from ocean. I felt +as though I were looking at a gigantic supernatural work of enchantment. +The Atlantic had just now been before me, then it had disappeared into +the sands, just as scenery disappears through a trap; and I was now +walking in the midst of a desert. Only the feeling, the breath of the +salt-water, remained in me. I perceived the smell of the wrack, the +smell of the sea, the good strong smell of sea coasts. I walked fast; I +was no longer cold. I looked at the stranded wreck, which grew in size +as I approached, and came now to resemble an enormous shipwrecked whale. + +"It seemed fairly to rise out of the ground, and on that great, flat, +yellow stretch of sand assumed wonderful proportions. After an hour's +walk I at last reached it. It lay upon its side, ruined and shattered, +its broken bones showing as though it were an animal, its bones of tarred +wood pierced with great bolts. The sand had already invaded it, entering +it by all the crannies, and held it and refused to let it go. It seemed +to have taken root in it. The bow had entered deep into this soft, +treacherous beach, while the stern, high in air, seemed to cast at +heaven, like a cry of despairing appeal, the two white words on the black +planking, Marie Joseph. + +"I climbed upon this carcass of a ship by the lowest side; then, having +reached the deck, I went below. The daylight, which entered by the +stove-in hatches and the cracks in the sides, showed me dimly long dark +cavities full of demolished woodwork. They contained nothing but sand, +which served as foot-soil in this cavern of planks. + +"I began to take some notes about the condition of the ship. I was +seated on a broken empty cask, writing by the light of a great crack, +through which I could perceive the boundless stretch of the strand. +A strange shivering of cold and loneliness ran over my skin from time to +time, and I would often stop writing for a moment to listen to the +mysterious noises in the derelict: the noise of crabs scratching the +planking with their crooked claws; the noise of a thousand little +creatures of the sea already crawling over this dead body or else boring +into the wood. + +"Suddenly, very near me, I heard human voices. I started as though I had +seen a ghost. For a second I really thought I was about to see drowned +men rise from the sinister depths of the hold, who would tell me about +their death. At any rate, it did not take me long to swing myself on +deck. There, standing by the bows, was a tall Englishman with three +young misses. Certainly they were a good deal more frightened at seeing +this sudden apparition on the abandoned three-master than I was at seeing +them. The youngest girl turned and ran, the two others threw their arms +round their father. As for him, he opened his mouth--that was the only +sign of emotion which he showed. + +"Then, after several seconds, he spoke: + +"'Mosieu, are you the owner of this ship.?' + +"'I am.' + +"'May I go over it?' + +"'You may.' + +"Then he uttered a long sentence in English, in which I only +distinguished the word 'gracious,' repeated several times. + +"As he was looking for a place to climb up I showed him the easiest way, +and gave him a hand. He climbed up. Then we helped up the three girls, +who had now quite recovered their composure. They were charming, +especially the oldest, a blonde of eighteen, fresh as a flower, and very +dainty and pretty! Ah, yes! the pretty Englishwomen have indeed the +look of tender sea fruit. One would have said of this one that she had +just risen out of the sands and that her hair had kept their tint. They +all, with their exquisite freshness, make you think of the delicate +colors of pink sea-shells and of shining pearls hidden in the unknown +depths of the ocean. + +"She spoke French a little better than her father and acted as +interpreter. I had to tell all about the shipwreck, and I romanced as +though I had been present at the catastrophe. Then the whole family +descended into the interior of the wreck. As soon as they had penetrated +into this sombre, dimly lit cavity they uttered cries of astonishment and +admiration. Suddenly the father and his three daughters were holding +sketch-books in their hands, which they had doubtless carried hidden +somewhere in their heavy weather-proof clothes, and were all beginning at +once to make pencil sketches of this melancholy and weird place. + +"They had seated themselves side by side on a projecting beam, and the +four sketch-books on the eight knees were being rapidly covered with +little black lines which were intended to represent the half-opened hulk +of the Marie Joseph. + +"I continued to inspect the skeleton of the ship, and the oldest girl +talked to me while she worked. + +"They had none of the usual English arrogance; they were simple honest +hearts of that class of continuous travellers with which England covers +the globe. The father was long and thin, with a red face framed in white +whiskers, and looking like a living sandwich, a piece of ham carved like +a face between two wads of hair. The daughters, who had long legs like +young storks, were also thin-except the oldest. All three were pretty, +especially the tallest. + +"She had such a droll way of speaking, of laughing, of understanding and +of not understanding, of raising her eyes to ask a question (eyes blue as +the deep ocean), of stopping her drawing a moment to make a guess at what +you meant, of returning once more to work, of saying 'yes' or 'no'--that +I could have listened and looked indefinitely. + +"Suddenly she murmured: + +"'I hear a little sound on this boat.' + +"I listened and I immediately distinguished a low, steady, curious sound. +I rose and looked out of the crack and gave a scream. The sea had come +up to us; it would soon surround us! + +"We were on deck in an instant. It was too late. The water circled us +about and was running toward the coast at tremendous speed. No, it did +not run, it glided, crept, spread like an immense, limitless blot. The +water was barely a few centimeters deep, but the rising flood had gone so +far that we no longer saw the vanishing line of the imperceptible tide. +"The Englishman wanted to jump. I held him back. Flight was impossible +because of the deep places which we had been obliged to go round on our +way out and into which we should fall on our return. + +"There was a minute of horrible anguish in our hearts. Then the little +English girl began to smile and murmured: + +"'It is we who are shipwrecked.' + +"I tried to laugh, but fear held me, a fear which was cowardly and horrid +and base and treacherous like the tide. All the danger which we ran +appeared to me at once. I wanted to shriek: 'Help!' But to whom? + +"The two younger girls were clinging to their father, who looked in +consternation at the measureless sea which hedged us round about. + +"The night fell as swiftly as the ocean rose--a lowering, wet, icy night. + +"I said: + +"'There's nothing to do but to stay on the ship: + +"The Englishman answered: + +"'Oh, yes!' + +"And we waited there a quarter of an hour, half an hour, indeed I don't +know how long, watching that creeping water growing deeper as it swirled +around us, as though it were playing on the beach, which it had regained. + +"One of the young girls was cold, and we went below to shelter ourselves +from the light but freezing wind that made our skins tingle. + +"I leaned over the hatchway. The ship was full of water. So we had to +cower against the stern planking, which shielded us a little. + +"Darkness was now coming on, and we remained huddled together. I felt +the shoulder of the little English girl trembling against mine, her teeth +chattering from time to time. But I also felt the gentle warmth of her +body through her ulster, and that warmth was as delicious to me as a +kiss. We no longer spoke; we sat motionless, mute, cowering down like +animals in a ditch when a hurricane is raging. And, nevertheless, +despite the night, despite the terrible and increasing danger, I began to +feel happy that I was there, glad of the cold and the peril, glad of the +long hours of darkness and anguish that I must pass on this plank so near +this dainty, pretty little girl. + +"I asked myself, 'Why this strange sensation of well-being and of joy?' +"Why! Does one know? Because she was there? Who? She, a little +unknown English girl? I did not love her, I did not even know her. And +for all that, I was touched and conquered. I wanted to save her, to +sacrifice myself for her, to commit a thousand follies! Strange thing! +How does it happen that the presence of a woman overwhelms us so? Is it +the power of her grace which enfolds us? Is it the seduction of her +beauty and youth, which intoxicates one like wine? + +"Is it not rather the touch of Love, of Love the Mysterious, who seeks +constantly to unite two beings, who tries his strength the instant he has +put a man and a woman face to face? + +"The silence of the darkness became terrible, the stillness of the sky +dreadful, because we could hear vaguely about us a slight, continuous +sound, the sound of the rising tide and the monotonous plashing of the +water against the ship. + +"Suddenly I heard the sound of sobs. The youngest of the girls was +crying. Her father tried to console her, and they began to talk in their +own tongue, which I did not understand. I guessed that he was reassuring +her and that she was still afraid. + +"I asked my neighbor: + +"'You are not too cold, are you, mademoiselle?' + +"'Oh, yes. I am very cold.' + +"I offered to give her my cloak; she refused it. + +But I had taken it off and I covered her with it against her will. In +the short struggle her hand touched mine. It made a delicious thrill run +through my body. + +"For some minutes the air had been growing brisker, the dashing of the +water stronger against the flanks of the ship. I raised myself; a great +gust of wind blew in my face. The wind was rising! + +"The Englishman perceived this at the same time that I did and said +simply: + +"'This is bad for us, this----' + +"Of course it was bad, it was certain death if any breakers, however +feeble, should attack and shake the wreck, which was already so shattered +and disconnected that the first big sea would carry it off. + +"So our anguish increased momentarily as the squalls grew stronger and +stronger. Now the sea broke a little, and I saw in the darkness white +lines appearing and disappearing, lines of foam, while each wave struck +the Marie Joseph and shook her with a short quiver which went to our +hearts. + +"The English girl was trembling. I felt her shiver against me. And I +had a wild desire to take her in my arms. + +"Down there, before and behind us, to the left and right, lighthouses +were shining along the shore--lighthouses white, yellow and red, +revolving like the enormous eyes of giants who were watching us, waiting +eagerly for us to disappear. One of them in especial irritated me. It +went out every thirty seconds and it lit up again immediately. It was +indeed an eye, that one, with its lid incessantly lowered over its fiery +glance. + +"From time to time the Englishman struck a match to see the hour; then he +put his watch back in his pocket. Suddenly he said to me, over the heads +of his daughters, with tremendous gravity: + +"'I wish you a happy New Year, Mosieu.' + +"It was midnight. I held out my hand, which he pressed. Then he said +something in English, and suddenly he and his daughters began to sing +'God Save the Queen,' which rose through the black and silent air and +vanished into space. + +"At first I felt a desire to laugh; then I was seized by a powerful, +strange emotion. + +"It was something sinister and superb, this chant of the shipwrecked, the +condemned, something like a prayer and also like something grander, +something comparable to the ancient 'Ave Caesar morituri te salutant.' + +"When they had finished I asked my neighbor to sing a ballad alone, +anything she liked, to make us forget our terrors. She consented, and +immediately her clear young voice rang out into the night. She sang +something which was doubtless sad, because the notes were long drawn out +and hovered, like wounded birds, above the waves. + +"The sea was rising now and beating upon our wreck. As for me, I thought +only of that voice. And I thought also of the sirens. If a ship had +passed near by us what would the sailors have said? My troubled spirit +lost itself in the dream! A siren! Was she not really a siren, this +daughter of the sea, who had kept me on this worm-eaten ship and who was +soon about to go down with me deep into the waters? + +"But suddenly we were all five rolling on the deck, because the Marie +Joseph had sunk on her right side. The English girl had fallen upon me, +and before I knew what I was doing, thinking that my last moment was +come, I had caught her in my arms and kissed her cheek, her temple and +her hair. + +"The ship did not move again, and we, we also, remained motionless. + +"The father said, 'Kate!' The one whom I was holding answered 'Yes' and +made a movement to free herself. And at that moment I should have wished +the ship to split in two and let me fall with her into the sea. + +"The Englishman continued: + +"'A little rocking; it's nothing. I have my three daughters safe.' + +"Not having seen the oldest, he had thought she was lost overboard! + +"I rose slowly, and suddenly I made out a light on the sea quite close to +us. I shouted; they answered. It was a boat sent out in search of us by +the hotelkeeper, who had guessed at our imprudence. + +"We were saved. I was in despair. They picked us up off our raft and +they brought us back to Saint-Martin. + +"The Englishman began to rub his hand and murmur: + +"'A good supper! A good supper!' + +"We did sup. I was not gay. I regretted the Marie Joseph. + +"We had to separate the next day after much handshaking and many promises +to write. They departed for Biarritz. I wanted to follow them. + +"I was hard hit. I wanted to ask this little girl to marry me. If we +had passed eight days together, I should have done so! How weak and +incomprehensible a man sometimes is! + +"Two years passed without my hearing a word from them. Then I received a +letter from New York. She was married and wrote to tell me. And since +then we write to each other every year, on New Year's Day. She tells me +about her life, talks of her children, her sisters, never of her husband! +Why? Ah! why? And as for me, I only talk of the Marie Joseph. That was +perhaps the only woman I have ever loved--no--that I ever should have +loved. Ah, well! who can tell? Circumstances rule one. And then--and +then--all passes. She must be old now; I should not know her. Ah! she +of the bygone time, she of the wreck! What a creature! Divine! She +writes me her hair is white. That caused me terrible pain. Ah! her +yellow hair. No, my English girl exists no longer. How sad it all is!" + + + + + + +THEODULE SABOT'S CONFESSION + +When Sabot entered the inn at Martinville it was a signal for laughter. +What a rogue he was, this Sabot! There was a man who did not like +priests, for instance! Oh, no, oh, no! He did not spare them, the +scamp. + +Sabot (Theodule), a master carpenter, represented liberal thought in +Martinville. He was a tall, thin, than, with gray, cunning eyes, and +thin lips, and wore his hair plastered down on his temples. When he +said: "Our holy father, the pope" in a certain manner, everyone laughed. +He made a point of working on Sunday during the hour of mass. He killed +his pig each year on Monday in Holy Week in order to have enough black +pudding to last till Easter, and when the priest passed by, he always +said by way of a joke: "There goes one who has just swallowed his God off +a salver." + +The priest, a stout man and also very tall, dreaded him on account of his +boastful talk which attracted followers. The Abbe Maritime was a politic +man, and believed in being diplomatic. There had been a rivalry between +them for ten years, a secret, intense, incessant rivalry. Sabot was +municipal councillor, and they thought he would become mayor, which would +inevitably mean the final overthrow of the church. + +The elections were about to take place. The church party was shaking in +its shoes in Martinville. + +One morning the cure set out for Rouen, telling his servant that he was +going to see the archbishop. He returned in two days with a joyous, +triumphant air. And everyone knew the following day that the chancel of +the church was going to be renovated. A sum of six hundred francs had +been contributed by the archbishop out of his private fund. All the old +pine pews were to be removed, and replaced by new pews made of oak. It +would be a big carpentering job, and they talked about it that very +evening in all the houses in the village. + +Theodule Sabot was not laughing. + +When he went through the village the following morning, the neighbors, +friends and enemies, all asked him, jokingly: + +"Are you going to do the work on the chancel of the church?" + +He could find nothing to say, but he was furious, he was good and angry. + +Ill-natured people added: + +"It is a good piece of work; and will bring in not less than two or three +per cent. profit." + +Two days later, they heard that the work of renovation had been entrusted +to Celestin Chambrelan, the carpenter from Percheville. Then this was +denied, and it was said that all the pews in the church were going to be +changed. That would be well worth the two thousand francs that had been +demanded of the church administration. + +Theodule Sabot could not sleep for thinking about it. Never, in all the +memory of man, had a country carpenter undertaken a similar piece of +work. Then a rumor spread abroad that the cure felt very grieved that he +had to give this work to a carpenter who was a stranger in the community, +but that Sabot's opinions were a barrier to his being entrusted with the +job. + +Sabot knew it well. He called at the parsonage just as it was growing +dark. The servant told him that the cure was at church. He went to the +church. + +Two attendants on the altar of the Virgin, two soar old maids, were +decorating the altar for the month of Mary, under the direction of the +priest, who stood in the middle of the chancel with his portly paunch, +directing the two women who, mounted on chairs, were placing flowers +around the tabernacle. + +Sabot felt ill at ease in there, as though he were in the house of his +greatest enemy, but the greed of gain was gnawing at his heart. He drew +nearer, holding his cap in his hand, and not paying any attention to the +"demoiselles de la Vierge," who remained standing startled, astonished, +motionless on their chairs. + +He faltered: + +"Good morning, monsieur le cure." + +The priest replied without looking at him, all occupied as he was with +the altar: + +"Good morning, Mr. Carpenter.' + +Sabot, nonplussed, knew not what to say next. But after a pause he +remarked: + +"You are making preparations?" + +Abbe Maritime replied: + +"Yes, we are near the month of Mary." + +"Why, why," remarked Sabot and then was silent. He would have liked to +retire now without saying anything, but a glance at the chancel held him +back. He saw sixteen seats that had to be remade, six to the right and +eight to the left, the door of the sacristy occupying the place of two. +Sixteen oak seats, that would be worth at most three hundred francs, and +by figuring carefully one might certainly make two hundred francs on the +work if one were not clumsy. + +Then he stammered out: + +"I have come about the work." + +The cure appeared surprised. He asked: + +"What work?" + +"The work to be done," murmured Sabot, in dismay. + +Then the priest turned round and looking him straight in the eyes, said: + +"Do you mean the repairs in the chancel of my church?" + +At the tone of the abbe, Theodule Sabot felt a chill run down his back +and he once more had a longing to take to his heels. However, he replied +humbly: + +"Why, yes, monsieur le cure." + +Then the abbe folded his arms across his large stomach and, as if filled +with amazement, said: + +"Is it you--you--you, Sabot--who have come to ask me for this . . . +You--the only irreligious man in my parish! Why, it would be a scandal, +a public scandal! The archbishop would give me a reprimand, perhaps +transfer me." + +He stopped a few seconds, for breath, and then resumed in a calmer tone: +"I can understand that it pains you to see a work of such importance +entrusted to a carpenter from a neighboring parish. But I cannot do +otherwise, unless--but no--it is impossible--you would not consent, and +unless you did, never." + +Sabot now looked at the row of benches in line as far as the entrance +door. Christopher, if they were going to change all those! + +And he asked: + +"What would you require of me? Tell me." + +The priest, in a firm tone replied: + +"I must have an extraordinary token of your good intentions." + +"I do not say--I do not say; perhaps we might come to an understanding," +faltered Sabot. + +"You will have to take communion publicly at high mass next Sunday," +declared the cure. + +The carpenter felt he was growing pale, and without replying, he asked: + +"And the benches, are they going to be renovated?" + +The abbe replied with confidence: + +"Yes, but later on." + +Sabot resumed: + +"I do not say, I do not say. I am not calling it off, I am consenting to +religion, for sure. But what rubs me the wrong way is, putting it in +practice; but in this case I will not be refractory." + +The attendants of the Virgin, having got off their chairs had concealed +themselves behind the altar; and they listened pale with emotion. + +The cure, seeing he had gained the victory, became all at once very +friendly, quite familiar. + +"That is good, that is good. That was wisely said, and not stupid, you +understand. You will see, you will see." + +Sabot smiled and asked with an awkward air: + +"Would it not be possible to put off this communion just a trifle?" + +But the priest replied, resuming his severe expression: + +"From the moment that the work is put into your hands, I want to be +assured of your conversion." + +Then he continued more gently: + +"You will come to confession to-morrow; for I must examine you at least +twice." + +"Twice?" repeated Sabot. + +"Yes." + +The priest smiled. + +"You understand perfectly that you must have a general cleaning up, +a thorough cleansing. So I will expect you to-morrow." + +The carpenter, much agitated, asked: + +"Where do you do that?" + +"Why--in the confessional." + +"In--that box, over there in the corner? The fact is--is--that it does +not suit me, your box." + +"How is that?" + +"Seeing that--seeing that I am not accustomed to that, and also I am +rather hard of hearing." + +The cure was very affable and said.: + +"Well, then! you shall come to my house and into my parlor. We will +have it just the two of us, tete-a-tete. Does that suit you?" + +"Yes, that is all right, that will suit me, but your box, no." + +"Well, then, to-morrow after the days work, at six o'clock." + +"That is understood, that is all right, that is agreed on. To-morrow, +monsieur le cure. Whoever draws back is a skunk!" + +And he held out his great rough hand which the priest grasped heartily +with a clap that resounded through the church. + +Theodule Sabot was not easy in his mind all the following day. He had a +feeling analogous to the apprehension one experiences when a tooth has to +be drawn. The thought recurred to him at every moment: "I must go to +confession this evening." And his troubled mind, the mind of an atheist +only half convinced, was bewildered with a confused and overwhelming +dread of the divine mystery. + +As soon as he had finished his work, he betook himself to the parsonage. +The cure was waiting for him in the garden, reading his breviary as he +walked along a little path. He appeared radiant and greeted him with a +good-natured laugh. + +"Well, here we are! Come in, come in, Monsieur Sabot, no one will eat +you." + +And Sabot preceded him into the house. He faltered: + +"If you do not mind I should like to get through with this little matter +at once." + +The cure replied: + +"I am at your service. I have my surplice here. One minute and I will +listen to you." + +The carpenter, so disturbed that he had not two ideas in his head, +watched him as he put on the white vestment with its pleated folds. +The priest beckoned to him and said: + +"Kneel down on this cushion." + +Sabot remained standing, ashamed of having to kneel. He stuttered: + +"Is it necessary?" + +But the abbe had become dignified. + +"You cannot approach the penitent bench except on your knees." + +And Sabot knelt down. + +"Repeat the confiteor," said the priest. + +"What is that?" asked Sabot. + +"The confiteor. If you do not remember it, repeat after me, one by one, +the words I am going to say." And the cure repeated the sacred prayer, +in a slow tone, emphasizing the words which the carpenter repeated after +him. Then he said: + +"Now make your confession." + +But Sabot was silent, not knowing where to begin. The abbe then came to +his aid. + +"My child, I will ask you questions, since you don't seem familiar with +these things. We will take, one by one, the commandments of God. Listen +to me and do not be disturbed. Speak very frankly and never fear that +you may say too much. + + "'One God alone, thou shalt adore, + And love him perfectly.' + +Have you ever loved anything, or anybody, as well as you loved God? Have +you loved him with all your soul, all your heart, all the strength of +your love?" + +Sabot was perspiring with the effort of thinking. He replied: + +"No. Oh, no, m'sieu le cure. I love God as much as I can. That is-- +yes--I love him very much. To say that I do not love my children, +no--I cannot say that. To say that if I had to choose between them and +God, I could not be sure. To say that if I had to lose a hundred francs +for the love of God, I could not say about that. But I love him well, +for sure, I love him all the same." The priest said gravely "You must +love Him more than all besides." And Sabot, meaning well, declared "I +will do what I possibly can, m'sieu le cure." The abbe resumed: + + "'God's name in vain thou shalt not take + Nor swear by any other thing.' + +Did you ever swear?" + +"No-oh, that, no! I never swear, never. Sometimes, in a moment of +anger, I may say sacre nom de Dieu! But then, I never swear." + +"That is swearing," cried the priest, and added seriously: + +"Do not do it again. + + 'Thy Sundays thou shalt keep + In serving God devoutly.' + +What do you do on Sunday?" + +This time Sabot scratched his ear. + +"Why, I serve God as best I can, m'sieu le cure. I serve him--at home. +I work on Sunday." + +The cure interrupted him, saying magnanimously: + +"I know, you will do better in future. I will pass over the following +commandments, certain that you have not transgressed the two first. We +will take from the sixth to the ninth. I will resume: + + "'Others' goods thou shalt not take + Nor keep what is not thine.' + +Have you ever taken in any way what belonged to another?" + +But Theodule Sabot became indignant. + +"Of course not, of course not! I am an honest man, m'sieu le cure, I +swear it, for sure. To say that I have not sometimes charged for a few +more hours of work to customers who had means, I could not say that. +To say that I never add a few centimes to bills, only a few, I would not +say that. But to steal, no! Oh, not that, no!" + +The priest resumed severely: + +"To take one single centime constitutes a theft. Do not do it again. + + 'False witness thou shalt not bear, + Nor lie in any way.' + +Have you ever told a lie?" + +"No, as to that, no. I am not a liar. That is my quality. To say that +I have never told a big story, I would not like to say that. To say that +I have never made people believe things that were not true when it was to +my own interest, I would not like to say that. But as for lying, I am +not a liar." + +The priest simply said: + +"Watch yourself more closely." Then he continued: + + "'The works of the flesh thou shalt not desire + Except in marriage only.' + +Did you ever desire, or live with, any other woman than your wife?" + +Sabot exclaimed with sincerity: + +"As to that, no; oh, as to that, no, m'sieu le Cure. My poor wife, +deceive her! No, no! Not so much as the tip of a finger, either in +thought or in act. That is the truth." + +They were silent a few seconds, then, in a lower tone, as though a doubt +had arisen in his mind, he resumed: + +"When I go to town, to say that I never go into a house, you know, one of +the licensed houses, just to laugh and talk and see something different, +I could not say that. But I always pay, monsieur le cure, I always pay. +From the moment you pay, without anyone seeing or knowing you, no one can +get you into trouble." + +The cure did not insist, and gave him absolution. + +Theodule Sabot did the work on the chancel, and goes to communion every +month. + + + + + + +THE WRONG HOUSE + +Quartermaster Varajou had obtained a week's leave to go and visit his +sister, Madame Padoie. Varajou, who was in garrison at Rennes and was +leading a pretty gay life, finding himself high and dry, wrote to his +sister saying that he would devote a week to her. It was not that he +cared particularly for Mme. Padoie, a little moralist, a devotee, and +always cross; but he needed money, needed it very badly, and he +remembered that, of all his relations, the Padoies were the only ones +whom he had never approached on the subject. + +Pere Varajou, formerly a horticulturist at Angers, but now retired from +business, had closed his purse strings to his scapegrace son and had +hardly seen him for two years. His daughter had married Padoie, a former +treasury clerk, who had just been appointed tax collector at Vannes. + +Varajou, on leaving the train, had some one direct him to the house of +his brother-in-law, whom he found in his office arguing with the Breton +peasants of the neighborhood. Padoie rose from his seat, held out his +hand across the table littered with papers, murmured, "Take a chair. I +will be at liberty in a moment," sat down again and resumed his +discussion. + +The peasants did not understand his explanations, the collector did not +understand their line of argument. He spoke French, they spoke Breton, +and the clerk who acted as interpreter appeared not to understand either. + +It lasted a long time, a very long lime. Varajou looked at his brother- +in-law and thought: "What a fool!" Padoie must have been almost fifty. +He was tall, thin, bony, slow, hairy, with heavy arched eyebrows. He +wore a velvet skull cap with a gold cord vandyke design round it. His +look was gentle, like his actions. His speech, his gestures, his +thoughts, all were soft. Varajou said to himself, "What a fool!" + +He, himself, was one of those noisy roysterers for whom the greatest +pleasures in life are the cafe and abandoned women. He understood +nothing outside of these conditions of existence. + +A boisterous braggart, filled with contempt for the rest of the world, he +despised the entire universe from the height of his ignorance. When he +said: "Nom d'un chien, what a spree!" he expressed the highest degree of +admiration of which his mind was capable. + +Having finally got rid of his peasants, Padoie inquired: + +"How are you?" + +"Pretty well, as you see. And how are you?" + +"Quite well, thank you. It is very kind of you to have thought of coming +to see us." + +"Oh, I have been thinking of it for some time; but, you know, in the +military profession one has not much freedom." + +"Oh, I know, I know. All the same, it is very kind of you." + +"And Josephine, is she well?" + +"Yes, yes, thank you; you will see her presently." "Where is she?" + +"She is making some calls. We have a great many friends here; it is a +very nice town." + +"I thought so." + +The door opened and Mme. Padoie appeared. She went over to her brother +without any eagerness, held her cheek for him to kiss, and asked: + +"Have you been here long?" + +"No, hardly half an hour." + +"Oh, I thought the train would be late. Will you come into the parlor?" + +They went into the adjoining room, leaving Padoie to his accounts and his +taxpayers. As soon as they were alone, she said: + +"I have heard nice things about you!" + +"What have you heard?" + +"It seems that you are behaving like a blackguard, getting drunk and +contracting debts." + +He appeared very much astonished. + +"I! never in the world!" + +"Oh, do not deny it, I know it." + +He attempted to defend himself, but she gave him such a lecture that he +could say nothing more. + +She then resumed: + +"We dine at six o'clock, and you can amuse yourself until then. I cannot +entertain you, as I have so many things to do." + +When he was alone he hesitated as to whether he should sleep or take a +walk. He looked first at the door leading to his room and then at the +hall door, and decided to go out. He sauntered slowly through the quiet +Breton town, so sleepy, so calm, so dead, on the shores of its inland bay +that is called "le Morbihan." He looked at the little gray houses, the +occasional pedestrians, the empty stores, and he murmured: + +"Vannes is certainly not gay, not lively. It was a sad idea, my coming +here." + +He reached the harbor, the desolate harbor, walked back along a lonely, +deserted boulevard, and got home before five o'clock. Then he threw +himself on his bed to sleep till dinner time. The maid woke him, +knocking at the door. + +"Dinner is ready, sir:" + +He went downstairs. In the damp dining-room with the paper peeling from +the walls near the floor, he saw a soup tureen on a round table without +any table cloth, on which were also three melancholy soup-plates. + +M. and Mme. Padoie entered the room at the same time as Varajou. They +all sat down to table, and the husband and wife crossed themselves over +the pit of their stomachs, after which Padoie helped the soup, a meat +soup. It was the day for pot-roast. + +After the soup, they had the beef, which was done to rags, melted, +greasy, like pap. The officer ate slowly, with disgust, weariness and +rage. + +Mme. Padoie said to her husband: + +"Are you going to the judge's house this evening?" + +"Yes, dear." + +"Do not stay late. You always get so tired when you go out. You are not +made for society, with your poor health." + +She then talked about society in Vannes, of the excellent social circle +in which the Padoies moved, thanks to their religious sentiments. + +A puree of potatoes and a dish of pork were next served, in honor of the +guest. Then some cheese, and that was all. No coffee. + +When Varajou saw that he would have to spend the evening tete-a-tete with +his sister, endure her reproaches, listen to her sermons, without even a +glass of liqueur to help him to swallow these remonstrances, he felt that +he could not stand the torture, and declared that he was obliged to go to +the police station to have something attended to regarding his leave of +absence. And he made his escape at seven o'clock. + +He had scarcely reached the street before he gave himself a shake like a +dog coming out of the water. He muttered: + +"Heavens, heavens, heavens, what a galley slave's life!" + +And he set out to look for a cafe, the best in the town. He found it on +a public square, behind two gas lamps. Inside the cafe, five or six men, +semi-gentlemen, and not noisy, were drinking and chatting quietly, +leaning their elbows on the small tables, while two billiard players +walked round the green baize, where the balls were hitting each other as +they rolled. + +One heard them counting: + +"Eighteen-nineteen. No luck. Oh, that's a good stroke! Well played! +Eleven. You should have played on the red. Twenty. Froze! Froze! +Twelve. Ha! Wasn't I right?" + +Varajou ordered: + +"A demi-tasse and a small decanter of brandy, the best." Then he sat +down and waited for it. + +He was accustomed to spending his evenings off duty with his companions, +amid noise and the smoke of pipes. This silence, this quiet, exasperated +him. He began to drink; first the coffee, then the brandy, and asked for +another decanter. He now wanted to laugh, to shout, to sing, to fight +some one. He said to himself: + +"Gee, I am half full. I must go and have a good time." + +And he thought he would go and look for some girls to amuse him. He +called the waiter: + +"Hey, waiter." + +"Yes, sir." + +"Tell me, where does one amuse oneself here?" + +The man looked stupid, and replied: + +"I do not know, sir. Here, I suppose!" + +"How do you mean here? What do you call amusing oneself, yourself?" + +"I do not know, sir, drinking good beer or good wine." + +"Ah, go away, dummy, how about the girls?" + +"The girls, ah! ah!" + +"Yes, the girls, where can one find any here?" + +"Girls?" + +"Why, yes, girls!" + +The boy approached and lowering his voice, said: "You want to know where +they live?" + +"Why, yes, the devil!" + +"You take the second street to the left and then the first to the right. +It is number fifteen." + +"Thank you, old man. There is something for you." + +"Thank you, sir." + +And Varajou went out of the cafe, repeating, "Second to the left, first +to the right, number 15." But at the end of a few seconds he thought, +"second to the left yes. But on leaving the cafe must I walk to the +right or the left? Bah, it cannot be helped, we shall see." + +And he walked on, turned down the second street to the left, then the +first to the right and looked for number 15. It was a nice looking +house, and one could see behind the closed blinds that the windows were +lighted up on the first floor. The hall door was left partly open, and a +lamp was burning in the vestibule. The non-commissioned officer thought +to himself: + +"This looks all right." + +He went in and, as no one appeared, he called out: + +"Hallo there, hallo!" + +A little maid appeared and looked astonished at seeing a soldier. He +said: + +"Good-morning, my child. Are the ladies upstairs?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"In the parlor?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"May I go up?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"The door opposite the stairs?" + +"Yes, sir." + +He ascended the stairs, opened a door and saw sitting in a room well +lighted up by two lamps, a chandelier, and two candelabras with candles +in them, four ladies in evening dress, apparently expecting some one. + +Three of them, the younger ones, remained seated, with rather a formal +air, on some crimson velvet chairs; while the fourth, who was about +forty-five, was arranging some flowers in a vase. She was very stout, +and wore a green silk dress with low neck and short sleeves, allowing her +red neck, covered with powder, to escape as a huge flower might from its +corolla. + +The officer saluted them, saying: + +"Good-day, ladies." + +The older woman turned round, appeared surprised, but bowed. + +"Good-morning, sir." + +He sat down. But seeing that they did not welcome him eagerly, he +thought that possibly only commissioned officers were admitted to the +house, and this made him uneasy. But he said: + +"Bah, if one comes in, we can soon tell." + +He then remarked: + +"Are you all well?" + +The large lady, no doubt the mistress of the house, replied: + +"Very well, thank you!" + +He could think of nothing else to say, and they were all silent. But at +last, being ashamed of his bashfulness, and with an awkward laugh, he +said: + +"Do not people have any amusement in this country? I will pay for a +bottle of wine." + +He had not finished his sentence when the door opened, and in walked +Padoie dressed in a black suit. + +Varajou gave a shout of joy, and rising from his seat, he rushed at his +brother-in-law, put his arms round him and waltzed him round the room, +shouting: + +"Here is Padoie! Here is Padoie! Here is Padoie!" + +Then letting go of the tax collector he exclaimed as he looked him in the +face: + +"Oh, oh, oh, you scamp, you scamp! You are out for a good time, too. +Oh, you scamp! And my sister! Are you tired of her, say?" + +As he thought of all that he might gain through this unexpected +situation, the forced loan, the inevitable blackmail, he flung himself on +the lounge and laughed so heartily that the piece of furniture creaked +all over. + +The three young ladies, rising simultaneously, made their escape, while +the older woman retreated to the door looking as though she were about to +faint. + +And then two gentlemen appeared in evening dress, and wearing the ribbon +of an order. Padoie rushed up to them. + +"Oh, judge--he is crazy, he is crazy. He was sent to us as a +convalescent. You can see that he is crazy." + +Varajou was sitting up now, and not being able to understand it all, he +guessed that he had committed some monstrous folly. Then he rose, and +turning to his brother-in-law, said: + +"What house is this?" + +But Padoie, becoming suddenly furious, stammered out: + +"What house--what--what house is this? Wretch--scoundrel--villain--what +house, indeed? The house of the judge--of the judge of the Supreme +Court-of the Supreme Court--of the Supreme Court--Oh, oh--rascal!-- +rascal!--rascal!" + + + + + + +THE DIAMOND NECKLACE + +The girl was one of those pretty and charming young creatures who +sometimes are born, as if by a slip of fate, into a family of clerks. +She had no dowry, no expectations, no way of being known, understood, +loved, married by any rich and distinguished man; so she let herself be +married to a little clerk of the Ministry of Public Instruction. + +She dressed plainly because she could not dress well, but she was unhappy +as if she had really fallen from a higher station; since with women there +is neither caste nor rank, for beauty, grace and charm take the place of +family and birth. Natural ingenuity, instinct for what is elegant, a +supple mind are their sole hierarchy, and often make of women of the +people the equals of the very greatest ladies. + +Mathilde suffered ceaselessly, feeling herself born to enjoy all +delicacies and all luxuries. She was distressed at the poverty of her +dwelling, at the bareness of the walls, at the shabby chairs, the +ugliness of the curtains. All those things, of which another woman of +her rank would never even have been conscious, tortured her and made her +angry. The sight of the little Breton peasant who did her humble +housework aroused in her despairing regrets and bewildering dreams. She +thought of silent antechambers hung with Oriental tapestry, illumined by +tall bronze candelabra, and of two great footmen in knee breeches who +sleep in the big armchairs, made drowsy by the oppressive heat of the +stove. She thought of long reception halls hung with ancient silk, of +the dainty cabinets containing priceless curiosities and of the little +coquettish perfumed reception rooms made for chatting at five o'clock +with intimate friends, with men famous and sought after, whom all women +envy and whose attention they all desire. + +When she sat down to dinner, before the round table covered with a +tablecloth in use three days, opposite her husband, who uncovered the +soup tureen and declared with a delighted air, "Ah, the good soup! +I don't know anything better than that," she thought of dainty dinners, +of shining silverware, of tapestry that peopled the walls with ancient +personages and with strange birds flying in the midst of a fairy forest; +and she thought of delicious dishes served on marvellous plates and of +the whispered gallantries to which you listen with a sphinxlike smile +while you are eating the pink meat of a trout or the wings of a quail. + +She had no gowns, no jewels, nothing. And she loved nothing but that. +She felt made for that. She would have liked so much to please, to be +envied, to be charming, to be sought after. + +She had a friend, a former schoolmate at the convent, who was rich, and +whom she did not like to go to see any more because she felt so sad when +she came home. + +But one evening her husband reached home with a triumphant air and +holding a large envelope in his hand. + +"There," said he, "there is something for you." + +She tore the paper quickly and drew out a printed card which bore these +words: + + The Minister of Public Instruction and Madame Georges Ramponneau + request the honor of M. and Madame Loisel's company at the palace of + the Ministry on Monday evening, January 18th. + +Instead of being delighted, as her husband had hoped, she threw the +invitation on the table crossly, muttering: + +"What do you wish me to do with that?" + +"Why, my dear, I thought you would be glad. You never go out, and this +is such a fine opportunity. I had great trouble to get it. Every one +wants to go; it is very select, and they are not giving many invitations +to clerks. The whole official world will be there." + +She looked at him with an irritated glance and said impatiently: + +"And what do you wish me to put on my back?" + +He had not thought of that. He stammered: + +"Why, the gown you go to the theatre in. It looks very well to me." + +He stopped, distracted, seeing that his wife was weeping. Two great +tears ran slowly from the corners of her eyes toward the corners of her +mouth. + +"What's the matter? What's the matter?" he answered. + +By a violent effort she conquered her grief and replied in a calm voice, +while she wiped her wet cheeks: + +"Nothing. Only I have no gown, and, therefore, I can't go to this ball. +Give your card to some colleague whose wife is better equipped than I +am." + +He was in despair. He resumed: + +"Come, let us see, Mathilde. How much would it cost, a suitable gown, +which you could use on other occasions--something very simple?" + +She reflected several seconds, making her calculations and wondering also +what sum she could ask without drawing on herself an immediate refusal +and a frightened exclamation from the economical clerk. + +Finally she replied hesitating: + +"I don't know exactly, but I think I could manage it with four hundred +francs." + +He grew a little pale, because he was laying aside just that amount to +buy a gun and treat himself to a little shooting next summer on the plain +of Nanterre, with several friends who went to shoot larks there of a +Sunday. + +But he said: + +"Very well. I will give you four hundred francs. And try to have a +pretty gown." + +The day of the ball drew near and Madame Loisel seemed sad, uneasy, +anxious. Her frock was ready, however. Her husband said to her one +evening: + +"What is the matter? Come, you have seemed very queer these last three +days." + +And she answered: + +"It annoys me not to have a single piece of jewelry, not a single +ornament, nothing to put on. I shall look poverty-stricken. I would +almost rather not go at all." + +"You might wear natural flowers," said her husband. "They're very +stylish at this time of year. For ten francs you can get two or three +magnificent roses." + +She was not convinced. + +"No; there's nothing more humiliating than to look poor among other women +who are rich." + +"How stupid you are!" her husband cried. "Go look up your friend, Madame +Forestier, and ask her to lend you some jewels. You're intimate enough +with her to do that." + +She uttered a cry of joy: + +"True! I never thought of it." + +The next day she went to her friend and told her of her distress. + +Madame Forestier went to a wardrobe with a mirror, took out a large jewel +box, brought it back, opened it and said to Madame Loisel: + +"Choose, my dear." + +She saw first some bracelets, then a pearl necklace, then a Venetian gold +cross set with precious stones, of admirable workmanship. She tried on +the ornaments before the mirror, hesitated and could not make up her mind +to part with them, to give them back. She kept asking: + +"Haven't you any more?" + +"Why, yes. Look further; I don't know what you like." + +Suddenly she discovered, in a black satin box, a superb diamond necklace, +and her heart throbbed with an immoderate desire. Her hands trembled as +she took it. She fastened it round her throat, outside her high-necked +waist, and was lost in ecstasy at her reflection in the mirror. + +Then she asked, hesitating, filled with anxious doubt: + +"Will you lend me this, only this?" + +"Why, yes, certainly." + +She threw her arms round her friend's neck, kissed her passionately, then +fled with her treasure. + +The night of the ball arrived. Madame Loisel was a great success. She +was prettier than any other woman present, elegant, graceful, smiling and +wild with joy. All the men looked at her, asked her name, sought to be +introduced. All the attaches of the Cabinet wished to waltz with her. +She was remarked by the minister himself. + +She danced with rapture, with passion, intoxicated by pleasure, +forgetting all in the triumph of her beauty, in the glory of her success, +in a sort of cloud of happiness comprised of all this homage, admiration, +these awakened desires and of that sense of triumph which is so sweet to +woman's heart. + +She left the ball about four o'clock in the morning. Her husband had +been sleeping since midnight in a little deserted anteroom with three +other gentlemen whose wives were enjoying the ball. + +He threw over her shoulders the wraps he had brought, the modest wraps of +common life, the poverty of which contrasted with the elegance of the +ball dress. She felt this and wished to escape so as not to be remarked +by the other women, who were enveloping themselves in costly furs. + +Loisel held her back, saying: "Wait a bit. You will catch cold outside. +I will call a cab." + +But she did not listen to him and rapidly descended the stairs. When +they reached the street they could not find a carriage and began to look +for one, shouting after the cabmen passing at a distance. + +They went toward the Seine in despair, shivering with cold. At last they +found on the quay one of those ancient night cabs which, as though they +were ashamed to show their shabbiness during the day, are never seen +round Paris until after dark. + +It took them to their dwelling in the Rue des Martyrs, and sadly they +mounted the stairs to their flat. All was ended for her. As to him, he +reflected that he must be at the ministry at ten o'clock that morning. + +She removed her wraps before the glass so as to see herself once more in +all her glory. But suddenly she uttered a cry. She no longer had the +necklace around her neck! + +"What is the matter with you?" demanded her husband, already half +undressed. + +She turned distractedly toward him. + +"I have--I have--I've lost Madame Forestier's necklace," she cried. + +He stood up, bewildered. + +"What!--how? Impossible!" + +They looked among the folds of her skirt, of her cloak, in her pockets, +everywhere, but did not find it. + +"You're sure you had it on when you left the ball?" he asked. + +"Yes, I felt it in the vestibule of the minister's house." + +"But if you had lost it in the street we should have heard it fall. It +must be in the cab." + +"Yes, probably. Did you take his number?" + +"No. And you--didn't you notice it?" + +"No." + +They looked, thunderstruck, at each other. At last Loisel put on his +clothes. + +"I shall go back on foot," said he, "over the whole route, to see whether +I can find it." + +He went out. She sat waiting on a chair in her ball dress, without +strength to go to bed, overwhelmed, without any fire, without a thought. + +Her husband returned about seven o'clock. He had found nothing. + +He went to police headquarters, to the newspaper offices to offer a +reward; he went to the cab companies--everywhere, in fact, whither he was +urged by the least spark of hope. + +She waited all day, in the same condition of mad fear before this +terrible calamity. + +Loisel returned at night with a hollow, pale face. He had discovered +nothing. + +"You must write to your friend," said he, "that you have broken the clasp +of her necklace and that you are having it mended. That will give us +time to turn round." + +She wrote at his dictation. + +At the end of a week they had lost all hope. Loisel, who had aged five +years, declared: + +"We must consider how to replace that ornament." + +The next day they took the box that had contained it and went to the +jeweler whose name was found within. He consulted his books. + +"It was not I, madame, who sold that necklace; I must simply have +furnished the case." + +Then they went from jeweler to jeweler, searching for a necklace like the +other, trying to recall it, both sick with chagrin and grief. + +They found, in a shop at the Palais Royal, a string of diamonds that +seemed to them exactly like the one they had lost. It was worth forty +thousand francs. They could have it for thirty-six. + +So they begged the jeweler not to sell it for three days yet. And they +made a bargain that he should buy it back for thirty-four thousand +francs, in case they should find the lost necklace before the end of +February. + +Loisel possessed eighteen thousand francs which his father had left him. +He would borrow the rest. + +He did borrow, asking a thousand francs of one, five hundred of another, +five louis here, three louis there. He gave notes, took up ruinous +obligations, dealt with usurers and all the race of lenders. He +compromised all the rest of his life, risked signing a note without even +knowing whether he could meet it; and, frightened by the trouble yet to +come, by the black misery that was about to fall upon him, by the +prospect of all the physical privations and moral tortures that he was to +suffer, he went to get the new necklace, laying upon the jeweler's +counter thirty-six thousand francs. + +When Madame Loisel took back the necklace Madame Forestier said to her +with a chilly manner: + +"You should have returned it sooner; I might have needed it." + +She did not open the case, as her friend had so much feared. If she had +detected the substitution, what would she have thought, what would she +have said? Would she not have taken Madame Loisel for a thief? + +Thereafter Madame Loisel knew the horrible existence of the needy. She +bore her part, however, with sudden heroism. That dreadful debt must be +paid. She would pay it. They dismissed their servant; they changed +their lodgings; they rented a garret under the roof. + +She came to know what heavy housework meant and the odious cares of the +kitchen. She washed the dishes, using her dainty fingers and rosy nails +on greasy pots and pans. She washed the soiled linen, the shirts and the +dishcloths, which she dried upon a line; she carried the slops down to +the street every morning and carried up the water, stopping for breath at +every landing. And dressed like a woman of the people, she went to the +fruiterer, the grocer, the butcher, a basket on her arm, bargaining, +meeting with impertinence, defending her miserable money, sou by sou. + +Every month they had to meet some notes, renew others, obtain more time. + +Her husband worked evenings, making up a tradesman's accounts, and late +at night he often copied manuscript for five sous a page. + +This life lasted ten years. + +At the end of ten years they had paid everything, everything, with the +rates of usury and the accumulations of the compound interest. + +Madame Loisel looked old now. She had become the woman of impoverished +households--strong and hard and rough. With frowsy hair, skirts askew +and red hands, she talked loud while washing the floor with great swishes +of water. But sometimes, when her husband was at the office, she sat +down near the window and she thought of that gay evening of long ago, of +that ball where she had been so beautiful and so admired. + +What would have happened if she had not lost that necklace? Who knows? +who knows? How strange and changeful is life! How small a thing is +needed to make or ruin us! + +But one Sunday, having gone to take a walk in the Champs Elysees to +refresh herself after the labors of the week, she suddenly perceived a +woman who was leading a child. It was Madame Forestier, still young, +still beautiful, still charming. + +Madame Loisel felt moved. Should she speak to her? Yes, certainly. And +now that she had paid, she would tell her all about it. Why not? + +She went up. + +"Good-day, Jeanne." + +The other, astonished to be familiarly addressed by this plain good-wife, +did not recognize her at all and stammered: + +"But--madame!--I do not know---- You must have mistaken." + +"No. I am Mathilde Loisel." + +Her friend uttered a cry. + +"Oh, my poor Mathilde! How you are changed!" + +"Yes, I have had a pretty hard life, since I last saw you, and great +poverty--and that because of you!" + +"Of me! How so?" + +"Do you remember that diamond necklace you lent me to wear at the +ministerial ball?" + +"Yes. Well?" + +"Well, I lost it." + +"What do you mean? You brought it back." + +"I brought you back another exactly like it. And it has taken us ten +years to pay for it. You can understand that it was not easy for us, for +us who had nothing. At last it is ended, and I am very glad." + +Madame Forestier had stopped. + +"You say that you bought a necklace of diamonds to replace mine?" + +"Yes. You never noticed it, then! They were very similar." + +And she smiled with a joy that was at once proud and ingenuous. + +Madame Forestier, deeply moved, took her hands. + +"Oh, my poor Mathilde! Why, my necklace was paste! It was worth at most +only five hundred francs!" + + + + + + +THE MARQUIS DE FUMEROL + +Roger de Tourneville was whiffing a cigar and blowing out small clouds of +smoke every now and then, as he sat astride a chair amid a party of +friends. He was talking. + +"We were at dinner when a letter was brought in which my father opened. +You know my father, who thinks that he is king of France ad interim. +I call him Don Quixote, because for twelve years he has been running a +tilt against the windmill of the Republic, without quite knowing whether +it was in the cause of the Bourbons or the Orleanists. At present he is +bearing the lance in the cause of the Orleanists alone, because there is +no one else left. In any case, he thinks himself the first gentleman of +France, the best known, the most influential, the head of the party; and +as he is an irremovable senator, he thinks that the thrones of the +neighboring kings are very insecure. + +"As for my mother, she is my father's soul, she is the soul of the +kingdom and of religion, and the scourge of all evil-thinkers. + +"Well, a letter was brought in while we were at dinner, and my father +opened and read it, and then he said to mother: 'Your brother is dying.' +She grew very pale. My uncle was scarcely ever mentioned in the house, +and I did not know him at all; all I knew from public talk was, that he +had led, and was still leading, a gay life. After having spent his +fortune in fast living, he was now in small apartments in the Rue des +Martyrs. + +"An ancient peer of France and former colonel of cavalry, it was said +that he believed in neither God nor devil. Not believing, therefore, in +a future life he had abused the present life in every way, and had become +a live wound in my mother's heart. + +"'Give me that letter, Paul,' she said, and when she read it, I asked for +it in my turn. Here it is: + + Monsieur le Comte, I think I ought to let you know that your + brother-in-law, the Comte Fumerol, is going to die. Perhaps you + would like to make some arrangements, and do not forget I told you. + Your servant, + MELANIE. + +"'We must take counsel,' papa murmured. 'In my position, I ought to +watch over your brother's last moments.' + +"Mamma continued: 'I will send for Abbe Poivron and ask his advice, and +then I will go to my brother with the abbe and Roger. Remain here, Paul, +for you must not compromise yourself; but a woman can, and ought to do +these things. For a politician in your position, it is another matter. +It would be a fine thing for one of your opponents to be able to bring +one of your most laudable actions up against you.' 'You are right,' my +father said. 'Do as you think best, my dear wife.' + +"A quarter of an hour, later, the Abbe Poivron came into the drawing- +room, and the situation was explained to him, analyzed and discussed in +all its bearings. If the Marquis de Fumerol, one of the greatest names +in France, were to die without the ministrations of religion, it would +assuredly be a terrible blow to the nobility in general, and to the Count +de Tourneville in particular, and the freethinkers would be triumphant. +The liberal newspapers would sing songs of victory for six months; my +mother's name would be dragged through the mire and brought into the +prose of Socialistic journals, and my father's name would be smirched. +It was impossible that such a thing should be. + +"A crusade was therefore immediately decided upon, which was to be led by +the Abbe Poivron, a little, fat, clean, priest with a faint perfume about +him, a true vicar of a large church in a noble and rich quarter. + +"The landau was ordered and we all three set out, my mother, the cure and +I, to administer the last sacraments to my uncle. + +"It had been decided first of all we should see Madame Melanie who had +written the letter, and who was most likely the porter's wife, or my +uncle's servant, and I dismounted, as an advance guard, in front of a +seven-story house and went into a dark passage, where I had great +difficulty in finding the porter's den. He looked at me distrustfully, +and I said: + +"'Madame Melanie, if you please.' 'Don't know her!' 'But I have received +a letter from her.' 'That may be, but I don't know her. Are you asking +for a lodger?' 'No, a servant probably. She wrote me about a place.' +'A servant?--a servant? Perhaps it is the marquis'. Go and see, the +fifth story on the left.' + +"As soon as he found I was not asking for a doubtful character he became +more friendly and came as far as the corridor with me. He was a tall, +thin man with white whiskers, the manners of a beadle and majestic +gestures. + +"I climbed up a long spiral staircase, the railing of which I did not +venture to touch, and I gave three discreet knocks at the left-hand door +on the fifth story. It opened immediately, and an enormous dirty woman +appeared before me. She barred the entrance with her extended arms which +she placed against the two doorposts, and growled: + +"'What do you want?' 'Are you Madame Melanie?' 'Yes.' 'I am the +Visconte de Tourneville.' 'Ah! All right! Come in.' 'Well, the fact +is, my mother is downstairs with a priest.' 'Oh! All right; go and +bring them up; but be careful of the porter.' + +"I went downstairs and came up again with my mother, who was followed by +the abbe, and I fancied that I heard other footsteps behind us. As soon +as we were in the kitchen, Melanie offered us chairs, and we all four sat +down to deliberate. + +"'Is he very ill?' my mother asked. 'Oh! yes, madame; he will not be +here long.' 'Does he seem disposed to receive a visit from a priest?' +'Oh! I do not think so.' 'Can I see him?' 'Well--yes madame--only-- +only--those young ladies are with him.' 'What young ladies?' 'Why--why +--his lady friends, of course.' 'Oh!' Mamma had grown scarlet, and the +Abbe Poivron had lowered his eyes. + +"The affair began to amuse me, and I said: 'Suppose I go in first? I +shall see how he receives me, and perhaps I shall be able to prepare him +to receive you.' + +"My mother, who did not suspect any trick, replied: 'Yes, go, my dear.' +But a woman's voice cried out: 'Melanie!' + +"The servant ran out and said: 'What do you want, Mademoiselle Claire?' +'The omelette; quickly.' 'In a minute, mademoiselle.' And coming back +to us, she explained this summons. + +"They had ordered a cheese omelette at two o'clock as a slight collation. +And she at once began to break the eggs into a salad bowl, and to whip +them vigorously, while I went out on the landing and pulled the bell, so +as to formally announce my arrival. Melanie opened the door to me, and +made me sit down in an ante-room, while she went to tell my uncle that I +had come; then she came back and asked me to go in, while the abbe hid +behind the door, so that he might appear at the first signal. + +"I was certainly very much surprised at the sight of my uncle, for he was +very handsome, very solemn and very elegant, the old rake. + +"Sitting, almost lying, in a large armchair, his legs wrapped in +blankets, his hands, his long, white hands, over the arms of the chair, +he was waiting for death with the dignity of a patriarch. His white +beard fell on his chest, and his hair, which was also white, mingled with +it on his cheeks. + +"Standing behind his armchair, as if to defend him against me, were two +young women, who looked at me with bold eyes. In their petticoats and +morning wrappers, with bare arms, with coal black hair twisted in a knot +on the nape of their neck, with embroidered, Oriental slippers, which +showed their ankles and silk stockings, they looked like the figures in +some symbolical painting, by the side of the dying man. Between the +easy-chair and the bed, there was a table covered with a white cloth, on +which two plates, two glasses, two forks and two knives, were waiting for +the cheese omelette which had been ordered some time before of Melanie. + +"My uncle said in a weak, almost breathless, but clear voice: + +'Good-morning, my child; it is rather late in the day to come and see me; +our acquaintanceship will not last long.' I stammered out, 'It was not +my fault, uncle:' 'No; I know that,' he replied. 'It is your father and +mother's fault more than yours. How are they?' 'Pretty well, thank you. +When they heard that you were ill, they sent me to ask after you.' +'Ah! Why did they not come themselves?' + +"I looked up at the two girls and said gently: 'It is not their fault if +they could not come, uncle. But it would be difficult for my father, and +impossible for my mother to come in here.' The old man did not reply, +but raised his hand toward mine, and I took the pale, cold hand and held +it in my own. + +"The door opened, Melanie came in with the omelette and put it on the +table, and the two girls immediately sat down at the table, and began to +eat without taking their eyes off me. Then I said: 'Uncle, it would give +great pleasure to my mother to embrace you.' 'I also,' he murmured, +'should like----' He said no more, and I could think of nothing to +propose to him, and there was silence except for the noise of the plates +and that vague sound of eating. + +"Now, the abbe, who was listening behind the door, seeing our +embarrassment, and thinking we had won the game, thought the time had +come to interpose, and showed himself. My uncle was so stupefied at +sight of him that at first he remained motionless; and then he opened his +mouth as if he meant to swallow up the priest, and shouted to him in a +strong, deep, furious voice: 'What are you doing here?' + +"The abbe, who was used to difficult situations, came forward into the +room, murmuring: 'I have come in your sister's name, Monsieur le Marquis; +she has sent me. She would be happy, monsieur--' + +"But the marquis was not listening. Raising one hand, he pointed to the +door with a proud, tragic gesture, and said angrily and breathing hard: +'Leave this room--go out--robber of souls. Go out from here, you +violator of consciences. Go out from here, you pick-lock of dying men's +doors!' + +"The abbe retreated, and I also went to the door, beating a retreat with +the priest; the two young women, who had the best of it, got up, leaving +their omelette only half eaten, and went and stood on either side of my +uncle's easy-chair, putting their hands on his arms to calm him, and to +protect him against the criminal enterprises of the Family, and of +Religion. + +"The abbe and I rejoined my mother in the kitchen, and Melanie again +offered us chairs. 'I knew quite well that this method would not work; +we must try some other means, otherwise he will escape us.' And they +began deliberating afresh, my mother being of one opinion and the abbe of +another, while I held a third. + +"We had been discussing the matter in a low voice for half an hour, +perhaps, when a great noise of furniture being moved and of cries uttered +by my uncle, more vehement and terrible even than the former had been, +made us all four jump up. + +"Through the doors and walls we could hear him shouting: 'Go out--out-- +rascals--humbugs, get out, scoundrels--get out--get out!' + +"Melanie rushed in, but came back immediately to call me to help her, and +I hastened in. Opposite to my uncle, who was terribly excited by anger, +almost standing up and vociferating, stood two men, one behind the other, +who seemed to be waiting till he should be dead with rage. + +"By his ridiculous long coat, his long English shoes, his manners of a +tutor out of a position, his high collar, white necktie and straight +hair, his humble face of a false priest of a bastard religion, I +immediately recognized the first as a Protestant minister. + +"The second was the porter of the house, who belonged to the reformed +religion and had followed us, and having seen our defeat, had gone to +fetch his own pastor, in hopes that he might meet a better reception. +My uncle seemed mad with rage! If the sight of the Catholic priest, of +the priest of his ancestors, had irritated the Marquis de Fumerol, who +had become a freethinker, the sight of his porter's minister made him +altogether beside himself. I therefore took the two men by the arm and +threw them out of the room so roughly that they bumped against each other +twice, between the two doors which led to the staircase; and then I +disappeared in my turn and returned to the kitchen, which was our +headquarters in order to take counsel with my mother and the abbe. + +"But Melanie came back in terror, sobbing out: + +'He is dying--he is dying--come immediately--he is dying.' + +"My mother rushed out. My uncle had fallen to the ground, and lay full +length along the floor, without moving. I fancy he was already dead. +My mother was superb at that moment! She went straight up to the two +girls who were kneeling by the body and trying to raise it up, and +pointing to the door with irresistible authority, dignity and majesty, +she said: 'Now it is time for you to leave the room.' + +"And they went out without a word of protest. I must add, that I was +getting ready to turn them out as unceremoniously as I had done the +parson and the porter. + +"Then the Abbe Poivron administered the last sacraments to my uncle with +all the customary prayers, and remitted all his sins, while my mother +sobbed as she knelt near her brother. Suddenly, however, she exclaimed: +'He recognized me; he pressed my hand; I am sure he recognized me!!!--and +that he thanked me! Oh, God, what happiness!' + +"Poor mamma! If she had known or guessed for whom those thanks were +intended! + +"They laid my uncle on his bed; he was certainly dead this time. + +"'Madame,' Melanie said, 'we have no sheets to bury him in; all the linen +belongs to these two young ladies,' and when I looked at the omelette +which they had not finished, I felt inclined to laugh and to cry at the +same time. There are some humorous moments and some humorous situations +in life, occasionally! + +"We gave my uncle a magnificent fungal, with five speeches at the grave. +Baron de Croiselles, the senator, showed in admirable terms that God +always returns victorious into well-born souls which have temporarily +been led into error. All the members of the Royalist and Catholic party +followed the funeral procession with the enthusiasm of victors, as they +spoke of that beautiful death after a somewhat troublous life." + +Viscount Roger ceased speaking; his audience was laughing. Then somebody +said: "Bah! That is the story of all conversions in extremis." + + + + + + +THE TRIP OF LE HORLA + +On the morning of July 8th I received the following telegram: "Fine day. +Always my predictions. Belgian frontier. Baggage and servants left at +noon at the social session. Beginning of manoeuvres at three. So I will +wait for you at the works from five o'clock on. Jovis." + +At five o'clock sharp I entered the gas works of La Villette. It might +have been mistaken for the colossal ruins of an old town inhabited by +Cyclops. There were immense dark avenues separating heavy gasometers +standing one behind another, like monstrous columns, unequally high and, +undoubtedly, in the past the supports of some tremendous, some fearful +iron edifice. + +The balloon was lying in the courtyard and had the appearance of a cake +made of yellow cloth, flattened on the ground under a rope. That is +called placing a balloon in a sweep-net, and, in fact, it appeared like +an enormous fish. + +Two or three hundred people were looking at it, sitting or standing, and +some were examining the basket, a nice little square basket for a human +cargo, bearing on its side in gold letters on a mahogany plate the words: +Le Horla. + +Suddenly the people began to stand back, for the gas was beginning to +enter into the balloon through a long tube of yellow cloth, which lay on +the soil, swelling and undulating like an enormous worm. But another +thought, another picture occurs to every mind. It is thus that nature +itself nourishes beings until their birth. The creature that will rise +soon begins to move, and the attendants of Captain Jovis, as Le Horla +grew larger, spread and put in place the net which covers it, so that the +pressure will be regular and equally distributed at every point. + +The operation is very delicate and very important, for the resistance of +the cotton cloth of which the balloon is made is figured not in +proportion to the contact surface of this cloth with the net, but in +proportion to the links of the basket. + +Le Horla, moreover, has been designed by M. Mallet, constructed under his +own eyes and made by himself. Everything had been made in the shops of +M. Jovis by his own working staff and nothing was made outside. + +We must add that everything was new in this balloon, from the varnish to +the valve, those two essential parts of a balloon. Both must render the +cloth gas-proof, as the sides of a ship are waterproof. The old +varnishes, made with a base of linseed oil, sometimes fermented and thus +burned the cloth, which in a short time would tear like a piece of paper. + +The valves were apt to close imperfectly after being opened and when the +covering called "cataplasme" was injured. The fall of M. L'Hoste in the +open sea during the night proved the imperfection of the old system. + +The two discoveries of Captain Jovis, the varnish principally, are of +inestimable value in the art of ballooning. + +The crowd has begun to talk, and some men, who appear to be specialists, +affirm with authority that we shall come down before reaching the +fortifications. Several other things have been criticized in this novel +type of balloon with which we are about to experiment with so much +pleasure and success. + +It is growing slowly but surely. Some small holes and scratches made in +transit have been discovered, and we cover them and plug them with a +little piece of paper applied on the cloth while wet. This method of +repairing alarms and mystifies the public. + +While Captain Jovis and his assistants are busy with the last details, +the travellers go to dine in the canteen of the gas-works, according to +the established custom. + +When we come out again the balloon is swaying, enormous and transparent, +a prodigious golden fruit, a fantastic pear which is still ripening, +covered by the last rays of the setting sun. Now the basket is attached, +the barometers are brought, the siren, which we will blow to our hearts' +content, is also brought, also the two trumpets, the eatables, the +overcoats and raincoats, all the small articles that can go with the men +in that flying basket. + +As the wind pushes the balloon against the gasometers, it is necessary to +steady it now and then, to avoid an accident at the start. + +Captain Jovis is now ready and calls all the passengers. + +Lieutenant Mallet jumps aboard, climbing first on the aerial net between +the basket and the balloon, from which he will watch during the night the +movements of Le Horla across the skies, as the officer on watch, standing +on starboard, watches the course of a ship. + +M. Etierine Beer gets in after him, then comes M. Paul Bessand, then M. +Patrice Eyries and I get in last. + +But the basket is too heavy for the balloon, considering the long trip to +be taken, and M. Eyries has to get out, not without great regret. + +M. Joliet, standing erect on the edge of the basket, begs the ladies, in +very gallant terms, to stand aside a little, for he is afraid he might +throw sand on their hats in rising. Then he commands: + +"Let it loose," and, cutting with one stroke of his knife the ropes that +hold the balloon to the ground, he gives Le Horla its liberty. + +In one second we fly skyward. Nothing can be heard; we float, we rise, +we fly, we glide. Our friends shout with glee and applaud, but we hardly +hear them, we hardly see them. We are already so far, so high! What? +Are we really leaving these people down there? Is it possible? Paris +spreads out beneath us, a dark bluish patch, cut by its streets, from +which rise, here and there, domes, towers, steeples, then around it the +plain, the country, traversed by long roads, thin and white, amidst green +fields of a tender or dark green, and woods almost black. + +The Seine appears like a coiled snake, asleep, of which we see neither +head nor tail; it crosses Paris, and the entire field resembles an +immense basin of prairies and forests dotted here and there by mountains, +hardly visible in the horizon. + +The sun, which we could no longer see down below, now reappears as though +it were about to rise again, and our balloon seems to be lighted; it must +appear like a star to the people who are looking up. M. Mallet every few +seconds throws a cigarette paper into-space and says quietly: "We are +rising, always rising," while Captain Jovis, radiant with joy, rubs his +hands together and repeats: "Eh? this varnish? Isn't it good?" + +In fact, we can see whether we are rising or sinking only by throwing a +cigarette paper out of the basket now and then. If this paper appears to +fall down like a stone, it means that the balloon is rising; if it +appears to shoot skyward the balloon is descending. + +The two barometers mark about five hundred meters, and we gaze with +enthusiastic admiration at the earth we are leaving and to which we are +not attached in any way; it looks like a colored map, an immense plan of +the country. All its noises, however, rise to our ears very distinctly, +easily recognizable. We hear the sound of the wheels rolling in the +streets, the snap of a whip, the cries of drivers, the rolling and +whistling of trains and the laughter of small boys running after one +another. Every time we pass over a village the noise of children's +voices is heard above the rest and with the greatest distinctness. Some +men are calling us; the locomotives whistle; we answer with the siren, +which emits plaintive, fearfully shrill wails like the voice of a weird +being wandering through the world. + +We perceive lights here and there, some isolated fire in the farms, and +lines of gas in the towns. We are going toward the northwest, after +roaming for some time over the little lake of Enghien. Now we see a +river; it is the Oise, and we begin to argue about the exact spot we are +passing. Is that town Creil or Pontoise--the one with so many lights? +But if we were over Pontoise we could see the junction of the Seine and +the Oise; and that enormous fire to the left, isn't it the blast furnaces +of Montataire? So then we are above Creil. The view is superb; it is +dark on the earth, but we are still in the light, and it is now past ten +o'clock. Now we begin to hear slight country noises, the double cry of +the quail in particular, then the mewing of cats and the barking of dogs. +Surely the dogs have scented the balloon; they have seen it and have +given the alarm. We can hear them barking all over the plain and making +the identical noise they make when baying at the moon. The cows also +seem to wake up in the barns, for we can hear them lowing; all the beasts +are scared and moved before the aerial monster that is passing. + +The delicious odors of the soil rise toward us, the smell of hay, of +flowers, of the moist, verdant earth, perfuming the air-a light air, in +fact, so light, so sweet, so delightful that I realize I never was so +fortunate as to breathe before. A profound sense of well-being, unknown +to me heretofore, pervades me, a well-being of body and spirit, composed +of supineness, of infinite rest, of forgetfulness, of indifference to +everything and of this novel sensation of traversing space without any of +the sensations that make motion unbearable, without noise, without shocks +and without fear. + +At times we rise and then descend. Every few minutes Lieutenant Mallet, +suspended in his cobweb of netting, says to Captain Jovis : "We are +descending; throw down half a handful." And the captain, who is talking +and laughing with us, with a bag of ballast between his legs, takes a +handful of sand out of the bag and throws it overboard. + +Nothing is more amusing, more delicate, more interesting than the +manoeuvring of a balloon. It is an enormous toy, free and docile, which +obeys with surprising sensitiveness, but it is also, and before all, the +slave of the wind, which we cannot control. A pinch of sand, half a +sheet of paper, one or two drops of water, the bones of a chicken which +we had just eaten, thrown overboard, makes it go up quickly. + +A breath of cool, damp air rising from the river or the wood we are +traversing makes the balloon descend two hundred metres. It does not +vary when passing over fields of ripe grain, and it rises when it passes +over towns. + +The earth sleeps now, or, rather, men sleep on the earth, for the beasts +awakened by the sight of our balloon announce our approach everywhere. +Now and then the rolling of a train or the whistling of a locomotive is +plainly distinguishable. We sound our siren as we pass over inhabited +places; and the peasants, terrified in their beds, must surely tremble +and ask themselves if the Angel Gabriel is not passing by. + +A strong and continuous odor of gas can be plainly observed. We must +have encountered a current of warm air, and the balloon expands, losing +its invisible blood by the escape-valve, which is called the appendix, +and which closes of itself as soon as the expansion ceases. + +We are rising. The earth no longer gives back the echo of our trumpets; +we have risen almost two thousand feet. It is not light enough for us to +consult the instruments; we only know that the rice paper falls from us +like dead butterflies, that we are rising, always rising. We can no +longer see the earth; a light mist separates us from it; and above our +head twinkles a world of stars. + +A silvery light appears before us and makes the sky turn pale, and +suddenly, as if it were rising from unknown depths behind the horizon +below us rises the moon on the edge of a cloud. It seems to be coming +from below, while we are looking down upon it from a great height, +leaning on the edge of our basket like an audience on a balcony. Clear +and round, it emerges from the clouds and slowly rises in the sky. + +The earth no longer seems to exist, it is buried in milky vapors that +resemble a sea. We are now alone in space with the moon, which looks +like another balloon travelling opposite us; and our balloon, which +shines in the air, appears like another, larger moon, a world wandering +in the sky amid the stars, through infinity. We no longer speak, think +nor live; we float along through space in delicious inertia. The air +which is bearing us up has made of us all beings which resemble itself, +silent, joyous, irresponsible beings, intoxicated by this stupendous +flight, peculiarly alert, although motionless. One is no longer +conscious of one's flesh or one's bones; one's heart seems to have ceased +beating; we have become something indescribable, birds who do not even +have to flap their wings. + +All memory has disappeared from our minds, all trouble from our thoughts; +we have no more regrets, plans nor hopes. We look, we feel, we wildly +enjoy this fantastic journey; nothing in the sky but the moon and +ourselves! We are a wandering, travelling world, like our sisters, the +planets; and this little world carries five men who have left the earth +and who have almost forgotten it. We can now see as plainly as in +daylight; we look at each other, surprised at this brightness, for we +have nothing to look at but ourselves and a few silvery clouds floating +below us. The barometers mark twelve hundred metres, then thirteen, +fourteen, fifteen hundred; and the little rice papers still fall about +us. + +Captain Jovis claims that the moon has often made balloons act thus, and +that the upward journey will continue. + +We are now at two thousand metres; we go up to two thousand three hundred +and fifty; then the balloon stops: We blow the siren and are surprised +that no one answers us from the stars. + +We are now going down rapidly. M. Mallet keeps crying: "Throw out more +ballast! throw out more ballast!" And the sand and stones that we throw +over come back into our faces, as if they were going up, thrown from +below toward the stars, so rapid is our descent. + +Here is the earth! Where are we? It is now past midnight, and we are +crossing a broad, dry, well-cultivated country, with many roads and well +populated. + +To the right is a large city and farther away to the left is another. +But suddenly from the earth appears a bright fairy light; it disappears, +reappears and once more disappears. Jovis, intoxicated by space, +exclaims: "Look, look at this phenomenon of the moon in the water. One +can see nothing more beautiful at night!" + +Nothing indeed can give one an idea of the wonderful brightness of these +spots of light which are not fire, which do not look like reflections, +which appear quickly here or there and immediately go out again. These +shining lights appear on the winding rivers at every turn, but one hardly +has time to see them as the balloon passes as quickly as the wind. + +We are now quite near the earth, and Beer exclaims:-- "Look at that! +What is that running over there in the fields? Isn't it a dog?" Indeed, +something is running along the ground with great speed, and this +something seems to jump over ditches, roads, trees with such ease that we +could not understand what it might be. The captain laughed: "It is the +shadow of our balloon. It will grow as we descend." + +I distinctly hear a great noise of foundries in the distance. And, +according to the polar star, which we have been observing all night, 'and +which I have so often watched and consulted from the bridge of my little +yacht on the Mediterranean, we are heading straight for Belgium. + +Our siren and our two horns are continually calling. A few cries from +some truck driver or belated reveler answer us. We bellow: "Where are +we?" But the balloon is going so rapidly that the bewildered man has not +even time to answer us. The growing shadow of Le Horla, as large as a +child's ball, is fleeing before us over the fields, roads and woods. It +goes along steadily, preceding us by about a quarter of a mile; and now I +am leaning out of the basket, listening to the roaring of the wind in the +trees and across the harvest fields. I say to Captain Jovis : "How the +wind blows!" + +He answers: "No, those are probably waterfalls." I insist, sure of my +ear that knows the sound of the wind, from hearing it so often whistle +through the rigging. Then Jovis nudges me; he fears to frighten his +happy, quiet passengers, for he knows full well that a storm is pursuing +us. + +At last a man manages to understand us; he answers: "Nord!" We get the +same reply from another. + +Suddenly the lights of a town, which seems to be of considerable size, +appear before us. Perhaps it is Lille. As we approach it, such a +wonderful flow of fire appears below us that I think myself transported +into some fairyland where precious stones are manufactured for giants. + +It seems that it is a brick factory. Here are others, two, three. The +fusing material bubbles, sparkles, throws out blue, red, yellow, green +sparks, reflections from giant diamonds, rubies, emeralds, turquoises, +sapphires, topazes. And near by are great foundries roaring like +apocalyptic lions; high chimneys belch forth their clouds of smoke and +flame, and we can hear the noise of metal striking against metal. + +"Where are we?" + +The voice of some joker or of a crazy person answers: "In a balloon!" + +"Where are we?" + +"At Lille!" + +We were not mistaken. We are already out of sight of the town, and we +see Roubaix to the right, then some well-cultivated, rectangular fields, +of different colors according to the crops, some yellow, some gray or +brown. But the clouds are gathering behind us, hiding the moon, whereas +toward the east the sky is growing lighter, becoming a clear blue tinged +with red. It is dawn. It grows rapidly, now showing us all the little +details of the earth, the trains, the brooks, the cows, the goats. And +all this passes beneath us with surprising speed. One hardly has time to +notice that other fields, other meadows, other houses have already +disappeared. Cocks are crowing, but the voice of ducks drowns +everything. One might think the world to be peopled, covered with them, +they make so much noise. + +The early rising peasants are waving their arms and crying to us: "Let +yourselves drop!" But we go along steadily, neither rising nor falling, +leaning over the edge of the basket and watching the world fleeing under +our feet. + +Jovis sights another city far off in the distance. It approaches; +everywhere are old church spires. They are delightful, seen thus from +above. Where are we? Is this Courtrai? Is it Ghent? + +We are already very near it, and we see that it is surrounded by water +and crossed in every direction by canals. One might think it a Venice of +the north. Just as we are passing so near to a church tower that our +long guy-rope almost touches it, the chimes begin to ring three o'clock. +The sweet, clear sounds rise to us from this frail roof which we have +almost touched in our wandering course. It is a charming greeting, a +friendly welcome from Holland. We answer with our siren, whose raucous +voice echoes throughout the streets. + +It was Bruges. But eve have hardly lost sight of it when my neighbor, +Paul Bessand, asks me: "Don't you see something over there, to the right, +in front of us? It looks like a river." + +And, indeed, far ahead of us stretches a bright highway, in the light of +the dawning day. Yes, it looks like a river, an immense river full of +islands. + +"Get ready for the descent," cried the captain. He makes M. Mallet leave +his net and return to the basket; then we pack the barometers and +everything that could be injured by possible shocks. M. Bessand +exclaims: "Look at the masts over there to the left! We are at the sea!" + +Fogs had hidden it from us until then. The sea was everywhere, to the +left and opposite us, while to our right the Scheldt, which had joined +the Moselle, extended as far as the sea, its mouths vaster than a lake. + +It was necessary to descend within a minute or two. The rope to the +escape-valve, which had been religiously enclosed in a little white bag +and placed in sight of all so that no one would touch it, is unrolled, +and M. Mallet holds it in his hand while Captain Jovis looks for a +favorable landing. + +Behind us the thunder was rumbling and not a single bird followed our mad +flight. + +"Pull!" cried Jovis. + +We were passing over a canal. The basket trembled and tipped over +slightly. The guy-rope touched the tall trees on both banks. But our +speed is so great that the long rope now trailing does not seem to slow +down, and we pass with frightful rapidity over a large farm, from which +the bewildered chickens, pigeons and ducks fly away, while the cows, cats +and dogs run, terrified, toward the house. + +Just one-half bag of ballast is left. Jovis throws it overboard, and Le +Horla flies lightly across the roof. + +The captain once more cries: "The escape-valve!" + +M. Mallet reaches for the rope and hangs to it, and we drop like an +arrow. With a slash of a knife the cord which retains the anchor is cut, +and we drag this grapple behind us, through a field of beets. Here are +the trees. + +"Take care! Hold fast! Look out for your heads!" + +We pass over them. Then a strong shock shakes us. The anchor has taken +hold. + +"Look out! Take a good hold! Raise yourselves by your wrists. We are +going to touch ground." + +The basket does indeed strike the earth. Then it flies up again. Once +more it falls and bounds upward again, and at last it settles on the +ground, while the balloon struggles madly, like a wounded beast. + +Peasants run toward us, but they do not dare approach. They were a long +time before they decided to come and deliver us, for one cannot set foot +on the ground until the bag is almost completely deflated. + +Then, almost at the same time as the bewildered men, some of whom showed +their astonishment by jumping, with the wild gestures of savages, all the +cows that were grazing along the coast came toward us, surrounding our +balloon with a strange and comical circle of horns, big eyes and blowing +nostrils. + +With the help of the accommodating and hospitable Belgian peasants, we +were able in a short time to pack up all our material and carry it to the +station at Heyst, where at twenty minutes past eight we took the train +for Paris. + +The descent occurred at three-fifteen in the morning, preceding by only a +few seconds the torrent of rain and the blinding lightning of the storm +which had been chasing us before it. + +Thanks to Captain Jovis, of whom I had heard much from my colleague, Paul +Ginisty--for both of them had fallen together and voluntarily into the +sea opposite Mentone--thanks to this brave man, we were able to see, in a +single night, from far up in the sky, the setting of the sun, the rising +of the moon and the dawn of day and to go from Paris to the mouth of the +Scheldt through the skies. + + [This story appeared in "Figaro" on July 16, 1887, under the title: + "From Paris to Heyst.] + + + + + + +FAREWELL! + +The two friends were getting near the end of their dinner. Through the +cafe windows they could see the Boulevard, crowded with people. They +could feel the gentle breezes which are wafted over Paris on warm summer +evenings and make you feel like going out somewhere, you care not where, +under the trees, and make you dream of moonlit rivers, of fireflies and +of larks. + +One of the two, Henri Simon, heaved a deep sigh and said: + +"Ah! I am growing old. It's sad. Formerly, on evenings like this, I +felt full of life. Now, I only feel regrets. Life is short!" + +He was perhaps forty-five years old, very bald and already growing stout. + +The other, Pierre Carnier, a trifle older, but thin and lively, answered: + +"Well, my boy, I have grown old without noticing it in the least. I have +always been merry, healthy, vigorous and all the rest. As one sees +oneself in the mirror every day, one does not realize the work of age, +for it is slow, regular, and it modifies the countenance so gently that +the changes are unnoticeable. It is for this reason alone that we do not +die of sorrow after two or three years of excitement. For we cannot +understand the alterations which time produces. In order to appreciate +them one would have to remain six months without seeing one's own face-- +then, oh, what a shock! + +"And the women, my friend, how I pity the poor beings! All their joy, +all their power, all their life, lies in their beauty, which lasts ten +years. + +"As I said, I aged without noticing it; I thought myself practically a +youth, when I was almost fifty years old. Not feeling the slightest +infirmity, I went about, happy and peaceful. + +"The revelation of my decline came to me in a simple and terrible manner, +which overwhelmed me for almost six months--then I became resigned. + +"Like all men, I have often been in love, but most especially once. + +"I met her at the seashore, at Etretat, about twelve years ago, shortly +after the war. There is nothing prettier than this beach during the +morning bathing hour. It is small, shaped like a horseshoe, framed by +high while cliffs, which are pierced by strange holes called the +'Portes,' one stretching out into the ocean like the leg of a giant, the +other short and dumpy. The women gather on the narrow strip of sand in +this frame of high rocks, which they make into a gorgeous garden of +beautiful gowns. The sun beats down on the shores, on the multicolored +parasols, on the blue-green sea; and all is gay, delightful, smiling. +You sit down at the edge of the water and you watch the bathers. The +women come down, wrapped in long bath robes, which they throw off +daintily when they reach the foamy edge of the rippling waves; and they +run into the water with a rapid little step, stopping from time to time +for a delightful little thrill from the cold water, a short gasp. + +"Very few stand the test of the bath. It is there that they can be +judged, from the ankle to the throat. Especially on leaving the water +are the defects revealed, although water is a powerful aid to flabby +skin. + +"The first time that I saw this young woman in the water, I was +delighted, entranced. She stood the test well. There are faces whose +charms appeal to you at first glance and delight you instantly. You seem +to have found the woman whom you were born to love. I had that feeling +and that shock. + +"I was introduced, and was soon smitten worse than I had ever been +before. My heart longed for her. It is a terrible yet delightful thing +thus to be dominated by a young woman. It is almost torture, and yet +infinite delight. Her look, her smile, her hair fluttering in the wind, +the little lines of her face, the slightest movement of her features, +delighted me, upset me, entranced me. She had captured me, body and +soul, by her gestures, her manners, even by her clothes, which seemed to +take on a peculiar charm as soon as she wore them. I grew tender at the +sight of her veil on some piece of furniture, her gloves thrown on a +chair. Her gowns seemed to me inimitable. Nobody had hats like hers. + +"She was married, but her husband came only on Saturday, and left on +Monday. I didn't cencern myself about him, anyhow. I wasn't jealous of +him, I don't know why; never did a creature seem to me to be of less +importance in life, to attract my attention less than this man. + +"But she! how I loved her! How beautiful, graceful and young she was! +She was youth, elegance, freshness itself! Never before had I felt so +strongly what a pretty, distinguished, delicate, charming, graceful being +woman is. Never before had I appreciated the seductive beauty to be +found in the curve of a cheek, the movement of a lip, the pinkness of an +ear, the shape of that foolish organ called the nose. + +"This lasted three months; then I left for America, overwhelmed with +sadness. But her memory remained in me, persistent, triumphant. From +far away I was as much hers as I had been when she was near me. Years +passed by, and I did not forget her. The charming image of her person +was ever before my eyes and in my heart. And my love remained true to +her, a quiet tenderness now, something like the beloved memory of the +most beautiful and the most enchanting thing I had ever met in my life. + +"Twelve years are not much in a lifetime! One does not feel them slip +by. The years follow each other gently and quickly, slowly yet rapidly, +each one is long and yet so soon over! They add up so rapidly, they +leave so few traces behind them, they disappear so completely, that, when +one turns round to look back over bygone years, one sees nothing and yet +one does not understand how one happens to be so old. It seemed to me, +really, that hardly a few months separated me from that charming season +on the sands of Etretat. + +"Last spring I went to dine with some friends at Maisons-Laffitte. + +"Just as the train was leaving, a big, fat lady, escorted by four little +girls, got into my car. I hardly looked at this mother hen, very big, +very round, with a face as full as the moon framed in an enormous, +beribboned hat. + +"She was puffing, out of breath from having been forced to walk quickly. +The children began to chatter. I unfolded my paper and began to read. + +"We had just passed Asnieres, when my neighbor suddenly turned to me and +said: + +"'Excuse me, sir, but are you not Monsieur Garnier?' + +"'Yes, madame.' + +"Then she began to laugh, the pleased laugh of a good woman; and yet it +was sad. + +"'You do not seem to recognize me.' + +"I hesitated. It seemed to me that I had seen that face somewhere; but +where? when? I answered: + +"'Yes--and no. I certainly know you, and yet I cannot recall your name.' + +"She blushed a little: + +"'Madame Julie Lefevre.' + +"Never had I received such a shock. In a second it seemed to me as +though it were all over with me! I felt that a veil had been torn from +my eyes and that I was going to make a horrible and heartrending +discovery. + +"So that was she! That big, fat, common woman, she! She had become the +mother of these four girls since I had last her. And these little beings +surprised me as much as their mother. They were part of her; they were +big girls, and already had a place in life. Whereas she no longer +counted, she, that marvel of dainty and charming gracefulness. It seemed +to me that I had seen her but yesterday, and this is how I found her +again! Was it possible? A poignant grief seized my heart; and also a +revolt against nature herself, an unreasoning indignation against this +brutal, infariious act of destruction. + +"I looked at her, bewildered. Then I took her hand in mine, and tears +came to my eyes. I wept for her lost youth. For I did not know this fat +lady. + +"She was also excited, and stammered: + +"'I am greatly changed, am I not? What can you expect--everything has +its time! You see, I have become a mother, nothing but a good mother. +Farewell to the rest, that is over. Oh! I never expected you to +recognize me if we met. You, too, have changed. It took me quite a +while to be sure that I was not mistaken. Your hair is all white. Just +think! Twelve years ago! Twelve years! My oldest girl is already ten.' + +"I looked at the child. And I recognized in her something of her +mother's old charm, but something as yet unformed, something which +promised for the future. And life seemed to me as swift as a passing +train. + +"We had reached. Maisons-Laffitte. I kissed my old friend's hand. I +had found nothing utter but the most commonplace remarks. I was too much +upset to talk. + +"At night, alone, at home, I stood in front of the mirror for a long +time, a very long time. And I finally remembered what I had been, +finally saw in my mind's eye my brown mustache, my black hair and the +youthful expression of my face. Now I was old. Farewell!" + + + + + + +THE WOLF + +This is what the old Marquis d'Arville told us after St. Hubert's dinner +at the house of the Baron des Ravels. + +We had killed a stag that day. The marquis was the only one of the +guests who had not taken part in this chase. He never hunted. + +During that long repast we had talked about hardly anything but the +slaughter of animals. The ladies themselves were interested in bloody +and exaggerated tales, and the orators imitated the attacks and the +combats of men against beasts, raised their arms, romanced in a +thundering voice. + +M. d Arville talked well, in a certain flowery, high-sounding, but +effective style. He must have told this story frequently, for he told it +fluently, never hesitating for words, choosing them with skill to make +his description vivid. + +Gentlemen, I have never hunted, neither did my father, nor my +grandfather, nor my great-grandfather. This last was the son of a man +who hunted more than all of you put together. He died in 1764. I will +tell you the story of his death. + +His name was Jean. He was married, father of that child who became my +great-grandfather, and he lived with his younger brother, Francois +d'Arville, in our castle in Lorraine, in the midst of the forest. + +Francois d'Arville had remained a bachelor for love of the chase. + +They both hunted from one end of the year to the other, without stopping +and seemingly without fatigue. They loved only hunting, understood +nothing else, talked only of that, lived only for that. + +They had at heart that one passion, which was terrible and inexorable. +It consumed them, had completely absorbed them, leaving room for no other +thought. + +They had given orders that they should not be interrupted in the chase +for any reason whatever. My great-grandfather was born while his father +was following a fox, and Jean d'Arville did not stop the chase, but +exclaimed: "The deuce! The rascal might have waited till after the view- +halloo!" + +His brother Franqois was still more infatuated. On rising he went to see +the dogs, then the horses, then he shot little birds about the castle +until the time came to hunt some large game. + +In the countryside they were called M. le Marquis and M. le Cadet, the +nobles then not being at all like the chance nobility of our time, which +wishes to establish an hereditary hierarchy in titles; for the son of a +marquis is no more a count, nor the son of a viscount a baron, than a son +of a general is a colonel by birth. But the contemptible vanity of today +finds profit in that arrangement. + +My ancestors were unusually tall, bony, hairy, violent and vigorous. +The younger, still taller than the older, had a voice so strong that, +according to a legend of which he was proud, all the leaves of the forest +shook when he shouted. + +When they were both mounted to set out hunting, it must have been a +superb sight to see those two giants straddling their huge horses. + +Now, toward the midwinter of that year, 1764, the frosts were excessive, +and the wolves became ferocious. + +They even attacked belated peasants, roamed at night outside the houses, +howled from sunset to sunrise, and robbed the stables. + +And soon a rumor began to circulate. People talked of a colossal wolf +with gray fur, almost white, who had eaten two children, gnawed off a +woman's arm, strangled all the watch dogs in the district, and even come +without fear into the farmyards. The people in the houses affirmed that +they had felt his breath, and that it made the flame of the lights +flicker. And soon a panic ran through all the province. No one dared go +out any more after nightfall. The darkness seemed haunted by the image +of the beast. + +The brothers d'Arville determined to find and kill him, and several times +they brought together all the gentlemen of the country to a great hunt. + +They beat the forests and searched the coverts in vain; they never met +him. They killed wolves, but not that one. And every night after a +battue the beast, as if to avenge himself, attacked some traveller or +killed some one's cattle, always far from the place where they had looked +for him. + +Finally, one night he stole into the pigpen of the Chateau d'Arville and +ate the two fattest pigs. + +The brothers were roused to anger, considering this attack as a direct +insult and a defiance. They took their strong bloodhounds, used to +pursue dangerous animals, and they set off to hunt, their hearts filled +with rage. + +From dawn until the hour when the empurpled sun descended behind the +great naked trees, they beat the woods without finding anything. + +At last, furious and disgusted, both were returning, walking their horses +along a lane bordered with hedges, and they marvelled that their skill as +huntsmen should be baffled by this wolf, and they were suddenly seized +with a mysterious fear. + +The elder said: + +"That beast is not an ordinary one. You would say it had a mind like a +man." + +The younger answered: + +"Perhaps we should have a bullet blessed by our cousin, the bishop, or +pray some priest to pronounce the words which are needed." + +Then they were silent. + +Jean continued: + +"Look how red the sun is. The great wolf will do some harm to-night." + +He had hardly finished speaking when his horse reared; that of Franqois +began to kick. A large thicket covered with dead leaves opened before +them, and a mammoth beast, entirely gray, jumped up and ran off through +the wood. + +Both uttered a kind of grunt of joy, and bending over the necks of their +heavy horses, they threw them forward with an impulse from all their +body, hurling them on at such a pace, urging them, hurrying them away, +exciting them so with voice and with gesture and with spur that the +experienced riders seemed to be carrying the heavy beasts between 4 +their thighs and to bear them off as if they were flying. + +Thus they went, plunging through the thickets, dashing across the beds of +streams, climbing the hillsides, descending the gorges, and blowing the +horn as loud as they could to attract their people and the dogs. + +And now, suddenly, in that mad race, my ancestor struck his forehead +against an enormous branch which split his skull; and he fell dead on the +ground, while his frightened horse took himself off, disappearing in the +gloom which enveloped the woods. + +The younger d'Arville stopped quick, leaped to the earth, seized his +brother in his arms, and saw that the brains were escaping from the wound +with the blood. + +Then he sat down beside the body, rested the head, disfigured and red, on +his knees, and waited, regarding the immobile face of his elder brother. +Little by little a fear possessed him, a strange fear which he had never +felt before, the fear of the dark, the fear of loneliness, the fear of +the deserted wood, and the fear also of the weird wolf who had just +killed his brother to avenge himself upon them both. + +The gloom thickened; the acute cold made the trees crack. Francois got +up, shivering, unable to remain there longer, feeling himself growing +faint. Nothing was to be heard, neither the voice of the dogs nor the +sound of the horns-all was silent along the invisible horizon; and this +mournful silence of the frozen night had something about it terrific and +strange. + +He seized in his immense hands the great body of Jean, straightened it, +and laid it across the saddle to carry it back to the chateau; then he +went on his way softly, his mind troubled as if he were in a stupor, +pursued by horrible and fear-giving images. + +And all at once, in the growing darkness a great shape crossed his path. +It was the beast. A shock of terror shook the hunter; something cold, +like a drop of water, seemed to glide down his back, and, like a monk +haunted of the devil, he made a great sign of the cross, dismayed at this +abrupt return of the horrible prowler. But his eyes fell again on the +inert body before him, and passing abruptly from fear to anger, he shook +with an indescribable rage. + +Then he spurred his horse and rushed after the wolf. + +He followed it through the copses, the ravines, and the tall trees, +traversing woods which he no longer recognized, his eyes fixed on the +white speck which fled before him through the night. + +His horse also seemed animated by a force and strength hitherto unknown. +It galloped straight ahead with outstretched neck, striking against +trees, and rocks, the head and the feet of the dead man thrown across the +saddle. The limbs tore out his hair; the brow, beating the huge trunks, +spattered them with blood; the spurs tore their ragged coats of bark. +Suddenly the beast and the horseman issued from the forest and rushed +into a valley, just as the moon appeared above the mountains. The valley +here was stony, inclosed by enormous rocks. + +Francois then uttered a yell of joy which the echoes repeated like a peal +of thunder, and he leaped from his horse, his cutlass in his hand. + +The beast, with bristling hair, the back arched, awaited him, its eyes +gleaming like two stars. But, before beginning battle, the strong +hunter, seizing his brother, seated him on a rock, and, placing stones +under his head, which was no more than a mass of blood, he shouted in the +ears as if he was talking to a deaf man: "Look, Jean; look at this!" + +Then he attacked the monster. He felt himself strong enough to overturn +a mountain, to bruise stones in his hands. The beast tried to bite him, +aiming for his stomach; but he had seized the fierce animal by the neck, +without even using his weapon, and he strangled it gently, listening to +the cessation of breathing in its throat and the beatings of its heart. +He laughed, wild with joy, pressing closer and closer his formidable +embrace, crying in a delirium of joy, "Look, Jean, look!" All resistance +ceased; the body of the wolf became limp. He was dead. + +Franqois took him up in his arms and carried him to the feet of the elder +brother, where he laid him, repeating, in a tender voice: "There, there, +there, my little Jean, see him!" + +Then he replaced on the saddle the two bodies, one upon the other, and +rode away. + +He returned to the chateau, laughing and crying, like Gargantua at the +birth of Pantagruel, uttering shouts of triumph, and boisterous with joy +as he related the death of the beast, and grieving and tearing his beard +in telling of that of his brother. + +And often, later, when he talked again of that day, he would say, with +tears in his eyes: "If only poor Jean could have seen me strangle the +beast, he would have died content, that I am sure!" + +The widow of my ancestor inspired her orphan son with that horror of the +chase which has transmitted itself from father to son as far down as +myself. + +The Marquis d'Arville was silent. Some one asked: + +"That story is a legend, isn't it?" + +And the story teller answered: + +"I swear to you that it is true from beginning to end." + +Then a lady declared, in a little, soft voice + +"All the same, it is fine to have passions like that." + + + + + + +THE INN + +Resembling in appearance all the wooden hostelries of the High Alps +situated at the foot of glaciers in the barren rocky gorges that +intersect the summits of the mountains, the Inn of Schwarenbach serves as +a resting place for travellers crossing the Gemini Pass. + +It remains open for six months in the year and is inhabited by the family +of Jean Hauser; then, as soon as the snow begins to fall and to fill the +valley so as to make the road down to Loeche impassable, the father and +his three sons go away and leave the house in charge of the old guide, +Gaspard Hari, with the young guide, Ulrich Kunsi, and Sam, the great +mountain dog. + +The two men and the dog remain till the spring in their snowy prison, +with nothing before their eyes except the immense white slopes of the +Balmhorn, surrounded by light, glistening summits, and are shut in, +blocked up and buried by the snow which rises around them and which +envelops, binds and crushes the little house, which lies piled on the +roof, covering the windows and blocking up the door. + +It was the day on which the Hauser family were going to return to Loeche, +as winter was approaching, and the descent was becoming dangerous. Three +mules started first, laden with baggage and led by the three sons. Then +the mother, Jeanne Hauser, and her daughter Louise mounted a fourth mule +and set off in their turn and the father followed them, accompanied by +the two men in charge, who were to escort the family as far as the brow +of the descent. First of all they passed round the small lake, which was +now frozen over, at the bottom of the mass of rocks which stretched in +front of the inn, and then they followed the valley, which was dominated +on all sides by the snow-covered summits. + +A ray of sunlight fell into that little white, glistening, frozen desert +and illuminated it with a cold and dazzling flame. No living thing +appeared among this ocean of mountains. There was no motion in this +immeasurable solitude and no noise disturbed the profound silence. + +By degrees the young guide, Ulrich Kunsi, a tall, long-legged Swiss, left +old man Hauser and old Gaspard behind, in order to catch up the mule +which bore the two women. The younger one looked at him as he approached +and appeared to be calling him with her sad eyes. She was a young, +fairhaired little peasant girl, whose milk-white cheeks and pale hair +looked as if they had lost their color by their long abode amid the ice. +When he had got up to the animal she was riding he put his hand on the +crupper and relaxed his speed. Mother Hauser began to talk to him, +enumerating with the minutest details all that he would have to attend to +during the winter. It was the first time that he was going to stay up +there, while old Hari had already spent fourteen winters amid the snow, +at the inn of Schwarenbach. + +Ulrich Kunsi listened, without appearing to understand and looked +incessantly at the girl. From time to time he replied: "Yes, Madame +Hauser," but his thoughts seemed far away and his calm features remained +unmoved. + +They reached Lake Daube, whose broad, frozen surface extended to the end +of the valley. On the right one saw the black, pointed, rocky summits of +the Daubenhorn beside the enormous moraines of the Lommern glacier, above +which rose the Wildstrubel. As they approached the Gemmi pass, where the +descent of Loeche begins, they suddenly beheld the immense horizon of the +Alps of the Valais, from which the broad, deep valley of the Rhone +separated them. + +In the distance there was a group of white, unequal, flat, or pointed +mountain summits, which glistened in the sun; the Mischabel with its two +peaks, the huge group of the Weisshorn, the heavy Brunegghorn, the lofty +and formidable pyramid of Mount Cervin, that slayer of men, and the Dent- +Blanche, that monstrous coquette. + +Then beneath them, in a tremendous hole, at the bottom of a terrific +abyss, they perceived Loeche, where houses looked as grains of sand which +had been thrown into that enormous crevice that is ended and closed by +the Gemmi and which opens, down below, on the Rhone. + +The mule stopped at the edge of the path, which winds and turns +continually, doubling backward, then, fantastically and strangely, along +the side of the mountain as far as the almost invisible little village at +its feet. The women jumped into the snow and the two old men joined +them. "Well," father Hauser said, "good-by, and keep up your spirits +till next year, my friends," and old Hari replied: "Till next year." + +They embraced each other and then Madame Hauser in her turn offered her +cheek, and the girl did the same. + +When Ulrich Kunsi's turn came, he whispered in Louise's ear, "Do not +forget those up yonder," and she replied, "No," in such a low voice that +he guessed what she had said without hearing it. "Well, adieu," Jean +Hauser repeated, "and don't fall ill." And going before the two women, +he commenced the descent, and soon all three disappeared at the first +turn in the road, while the two men returned to the inn at Schwarenbach. + +They walked slowly, side by side, without speaking. It was over, and +they would be alone together for four or five months. Then Gaspard Hari +began to relate his life last winter. He had remained with Michael +Canol, who was too old now to stand it, for an accident might happen +during that long solitude. They had not been dull, however; the only +thing was to make up one's mind to it from the first, and in the end one +would find plenty of distraction, games and other means of whiling away +the time. + +Ulrich Kunsi listened to him with his eyes on the ground, for in his +thoughts he was following those who were descending to the village. They +soon came in sight of the inn, which was, however, scarcely visible, so +small did it look, a black speck at the foot of that enormous billow of +snow, and when they opened the door Sam, the great curly dog, began to +romp round them. + +"Come, my boy," old Gaspard said, "we have no women now, so we must get +our own dinner ready. Go and peel the potatoes." And they both sat down +on wooden stools and began to prepare the soup. + +The next morning seemed very long to Kunsi. Old Hari smoked and spat on +the hearth, while the young man looked out of the window at the snow- +covered mountain opposite the house. + +In the afternoon he went out, and going over yesterday's ground again, he +looked for the traces of the mule that had carried the two women. Then +when he had reached the Gemmi Pass, he laid himself down on his stomach +and looked at Loeche. + +The village, in its rocky pit, was not yet buried under the snow, from +which it was sheltered by the pine woods which protected it on all sides. +Its low houses looked like paving stones in a large meadow from above. +Hauser's little daughter was there now in one of those gray-colored +houses. In which? Ulrich Kunsi was too far away to be able to make them +out separately. How he would have liked to go down while he was yet +able! + +But the sun had disappeared behind the lofty crest of the Wildstrubel and +the young man returned to the chalet. Daddy Hari was smoking, and when +he saw his mate come in he proposed a game of cards to him, and they sat +down opposite each other, on either side of the table. They played for a +long time a simple game called brisque and then they had supper and went +to bed. + +The following days were like the first, bright and cold, without any +fresh snow. Old Gaspard spent his afternoons in watching the eagles and +other rare birds which ventured on those frozen heights, while Ulrich +returned regularly to the Gemmi Pass to look at the village. Then they +played cards, dice or dominoes and lost and won a trifle, just to create +an interest in the game. + +One morning Hari, who was up first, called his companion. A moving, deep +and light cloud of white spray was falling on them noiselessly and was by +degrees burying them under a thick, heavy coverlet of foam. That lasted +four days and four nights. It was necessary to free the door and the +windows, to dig out a passage and to cut steps to get over this frozen +powder, which a twelve hours' frost had made as hard as the granite of +the moraines. + +They lived like prisoners and did not venture outside their abode. They +had divided their duties, which they performed regularly. Ulrich Kunsi +undertook the scouring, washing and everything that belonged to +cleanliness. He also chopped up the wood while Gaspard Hari did the +cooking and attended to the fire. Their regular and monotonous work was +interrupted by long games at cards or dice, and they never quarrelled, +but were always calm and placid. They were never seen impatient or ill- +humored, nor did they ever use hard words, for they had laid in a stock +of patience for their wintering on the top of the mountain. + +Sometimes old Gaspard took his rifle and went after chamois, and +occasionally he killed one. Then there was a feast in the inn at +Schwarenbach and they revelled in fresh meat. One morning he went out as +usual. The thermometer outside marked eighteen degrees of frost, and as +the sun had not yet risen, the hunter hoped to surprise the animals at +the approaches to the Wildstrubel, and Ulrich, being alone, remained in +bed until ten o'clock. He was of a sleepy nature, but he would not have +dared to give way like that to his inclination in the presence of the old +guide, who was ever an early riser. He breakfasted leisurely with Sam, +who also spent his days and nights in sleeping in front of the fire; then +he felt low-spirited and even frightened at the solitude, and was-seized +by a longing for his daily game of cards, as one is by the craving of a +confirmed habit, and so he went out to meet his companion, who was to +return at four o'clock. + +The snow had levelled the whole deep valley, filled up the crevasses, +obliterated all signs of the two lakes and covered the rocks, so that +between the high summits there was nothing but an immense, white, +regular, dazzling and frozen surface. For three weeks Ulrich had not +been to the edge of the precipice from which he had looked down on the +village, and he wanted to go there before climbing the slopes which led +to Wildstrubel. Loeche was now also covered by the snow and the houses +could scarcely be distinguished, covered as they were by that white +cloak. + +Then, turning to the right, he reached the Loemmern glacier. He went +along with a mountaineer's long strides, striking the snow, which was as +hard as a rock, with his ironpointed stick, and with his piercing eyes he +looked for the little black, moving speck in the distance, on that +enormous, white expanse. + +When he reached the end of the glacier he stopped and asked himself +whether the old man had taken that road, and then he began to walk along +the moraines with rapid and uneasy steps. The day was declining, the +snow was assuming a rosy tint, and a dry, frozen wind blew in rough gusts +over its crystal surface. Ulrich uttered a long, shrill, vibrating call. +His voice sped through the deathlike silence in which the mountains were +sleeping; it reached the distance, across profound and motionless waves +of glacial foam, like the cry of a bird across the waves of the sea. +Then it died away and nothing answered him. + +He began to walk again. The sun had sunk yonder behind the mountain +tops, which were still purple with the reflection from the sky, but the +depths of the valley were becoming gray, and suddenly the young man felt +frightened. It seemed to him as if the silence, the cold, the solitude, +the winter death of these mountains were taking possession of him, were +going to stop and to freeze his blood, to make his limbs grow stiff and +to turn him into a motionless and frozen object, and he set off running, +fleeing toward his dwelling. The old man, he thought, would have +returned during his absence. He had taken another road; he would, no +doubt, be sitting before the fire, with a dead chamois at his feet. +He soon came in sight of the inn, but no smoke rose from it. Ulrich +walked faster and opened the door. Sam ran up to him to greet him, but +Gaspard Hari had not returned. Kunsi, in his alarm, turned round +suddenly, as if he had expected to find his comrade hidden in a corner. +Then he relighted the fire and made the soup, hoping every moment to see +the old man come in. From time to time he went out to see if he were not +coming. It was quite night now, that wan, livid night of the mountains, +lighted by a thin, yellow crescent moon, just disappearing behind the +mountain tops. + +Then the young man went in and sat down to warm his hands and feet, while +he pictured to himself every possible accident. Gaspard might have +broken a leg, have fallen into a crevasse, taken a false step and +dislocated his ankle. And, perhaps, he was lying on the snow, overcome +and stiff with the cold, in agony of mind, lost and, perhaps, shouting +for help, calling with all his might in the silence of the night.. +But where? The mountain was so vast, so rugged, so dangerous in places, +especially at that time of the year, that it would have required ten or +twenty guides to walk for a week in all directions to find a man in that +immense space. Ulrich Kunsi, however, made up his mind to set out with +Sam if Gaspard did not return by one in the morning, and he made his +preparations. + +He put provisions for two days into a bag, took his steel climbing iron, +tied a long, thin, strong rope round his waist, and looked to see that +his ironshod stick and his axe, which served to cut steps in the ice, +were in order. Then he waited. The fire was burning on the hearth, the +great dog was snoring in front of it, and the clock was ticking, as +regularly as a heart beating, in its resounding wooden case. +He waited, with his ears on the alert for distant sounds, and he shivered +when the wind blew against the roof and the walls. It struck twelve and +he trembled: Then, frightened and shivering, he put some water on the +fire, so that he might have some hot coffee before starting, and when the +clock struck one he got up, woke Sam, opened the door and went off in the +direction of the Wildstrubel. For five hours he mounted, scaling the +rocks by means of his climbing irons, cutting into the ice, advancing +continually, and occasionally hauling up the dog, who remained below at +the foot of some slope that was too steep for him, by means of the rope. +It was about six o'clock when he reached one of the summits to which old +Gaspard often came after chamois, and he waited till it should be +daylight. + +The sky was growing pale overhead, and a strange light, springing nobody +could tell whence, suddenly illuminated the immense ocean of pale +mountain summits, which extended for a hundred leagues around him. One +might have said that this vague brightness arose from the snow itself and +spread abroad in space. By degrees the highest distant summits assumed a +delicate, pink flesh color, and the red sun appeared behind the ponderous +giants of the Bernese Alps. + +Ulrich Kunsi set off again, walking like a hunter, bent over, looking for +tracks, and saying to his dog: "Seek, old fellow, seek!" + +He was descending the mountain now, scanning the depths closely, and from +time to time shouting, uttering aloud, prolonged cry, which soon died +away in that silent vastness. Then he put his ear to the ground to +listen. He thought he could distinguish a voice, and he began to run and +shouted again, but he heard nothing more and sat down, exhausted and in +despair. Toward midday he breakfasted and gave Sam, who was as tired as +himself, something to eat also, and then he recommenced his search. + +When evening came he was still walking, and he had walked more than +thirty miles over the mountains. As he was too far away to return home +and too tired to drag himself along any further, he dug a hole in the +snow and crouched in it with his dog under a blanket which he had brought +with him. And the man and the dog lay side by side, trying to keep warm, +but frozen to the marrow nevertheless. Ulrich scarcely slept, his mind +haunted by visions and his limbs shaking with cold. + +Day was breaking when he got up. His legs were as stiff as iron bars and +his spirits so low that he was ready to cry with anguish, while his heart +was beating so that he almost fell over with agitation, when he thought +he heard a noise. + +Suddenly he imagined that he also was going to die of cold in the midst +of this vast solitude, and the terror of such a death roused his energies +and gave him renewed vigor. He was descending toward the inn, falling +down and getting up again, and followed at a distance by Sam, who was +limping on three legs, and they did not reach Schwarenbach until four +o'clock in the afternoon. The house was empty and the young man made a +fire, had something to eat and went to sleep, so worn out that he did not +think of anything more. + +He slept for a long time, for a very long time, an irresistible sleep. +But suddenly a voice, a cry, a name, "Ulrich!" aroused him from his +profound torpor and made him sit up in bed. Had he been dreaming? Was +it one of those strange appeals which cross the dreams of disquieted +minds? No, he heard it still, that reverberating cry-which had entered +his ears and remained in his flesh-to the tips of his sinewy fingers. +Certainly somebody had cried out and called "Ulrich!" There was somebody +there near the house, there could be no doubt of that, and he opened the +door and shouted, "Is it you, Gaspard?" with all the strength of his +lungs. But there was no reply, no murmur, no groan, nothing. It was +quite dark and the snow looked wan. + +The wind had risen, that icy wind that cracks the rocks and leaves +nothing alive on those deserted heights, and it came in sudden gusts, +which were more parching and more deadly than the burning wind of the +desert, and again Ulrich shouted: "Gaspard! Gaspard! Gaspard." And +then he waited again. Everything was silent on the mountain. + +Then he shook with terror and with a bound he was inside the inn, when he +shut and bolted the door, and then he fell into a chair trembling all +over, for he felt certain that his comrade had called him at the moment +he was expiring. + +He was sure of that, as sure as one is of being alive or of eating a +piece of bread. Old Gaspard Hari had been dying for two days and three +nights somewhere, in some hole, in one of those deep, untrodden ravines +whose whiteness is more sinister than subterranean darkness. He had been +dying for two days and three nights and be had just then died, thinking +of his comrade. His soul, almost before it was released, had taken its +flight to the inn where Ulrich was sleeping, and it had called him by +that terrible and mysterious power which the spirits of the dead have to +haunt the living. That voiceless soul had cried to the worn-out soul of +the sleeper; it had uttered its last farewell, or its reproach, or its +curse on the man who had not searched carefully enough. + +And Ulrich felt that it was there, quite close to him, behind the wall, +behind the door which be had just fastened. It was wandering about, like +a night bird which lightly touches a lighted window with his wings, and +the terrified young man was ready to scream with horror. He wanted to +run away, but did not dare to go out; he did not dare, and he should +never dare to do it in the future, for that phantom would remain there +day and night, round the inn, as long as the old man's body was not +recovered and had not been deposited in the consecrated earth of a +churchyard. + +When it was daylight Kunsi recovered some of his courage at the return of +the bright sun. He prepared his meal, gave his dog some food and then +remained motionless on a chair, tortured at heart as he thought of the +old man lying on the snow, and then, as soon as night once more covered +the mountains, new terrors assailed him. He now walked up and down the +dark kitchen, which was scarcely lighted by the flame of one candle, and +he walked from one end of it to the other with great strides, listening, +listening whether the terrible cry of the other night would again break +the dreary silence outside. He felt himself alone, unhappy man, as no +man had ever been alone before! He was alone in this immense desert of +Snow, alone five thousand feet above the inhabited earth, above human +habitation, above that stirring, noisy, palpitating life, alone under an +icy sky! A mad longing impelled him to run away, no matter where, to get +down to Loeche by flinging himself over the precipice; but he did not +even dare to open the door, as he felt sure that the other, the dead man, +would bar his road, so that he might not be obliged to remain up there +alone: + +Toward midnight, tired with walking, worn out by grief and fear, he at +last fell into a doze in his chair, for he was afraid of his bed as one +is of a haunted spot. But suddenly the strident cry of the other evening +pierced his ears, and it was so shrill that Ulrich stretched out his arms +to repulse the ghost, and he fell backward with his chair. + +Sam, who was awakened by the noise, began to howl as frightened dogs do +howl, and he walked all about the house trying to find out where the +danger came from. When he got to the door, he sniffed beneath it, +smelling vigorously, with his coat bristling and his tail stiff, while he +growled angrily. Kunsi, who was terrified, jumped up, and, holding his +chair by one leg, he cried: "Don't come in, don't come in, or I shall +kill you." And the dog, excited by this threat, barked angrily at that +invisible enemy who defied his master's voice. By degrees, however, he +quieted down and came back and stretched himself in front of the fire, +but he was uneasy and kept his head up and growled between his teeth. + +Ulrich, in turn, recovered his senses, but as he felt faint with terror, +he went and got a bottle of brandy out of the sideboard, and he drank off +several glasses, one after anther, at a gulp. His ideas became vague, +his courage revived and a feverish glow ran through his veins. + +He ate scarcely anything the next day and limited himself to alcohol, and +so he lived for several days, like a drunken brute. As soon as he +thought of Gaspard Hari, he began to drink again, and went on drinking +until he fell to the ground, overcome by intoxication. And there he +remained lying on his face, dead drunk, his limbs benumbed, and snoring +loudly. But scarcely had he digested the maddening and burning liquor +than the same cry, "Ulrich!" woke him like a bullet piercing his brain, +and he got up, still staggering, stretching out his hands to save himself +from falling, and calling to Sam to help him. And the dog, who appeared +to be going mad like his master, rushed to the door, scratched it with +his claws and gnawed it with his long white teeth, while the young man, +with his head thrown back drank the brandy in draughts, as if it had been +cold water, so that it might by and by send his thoughts, his frantic +terror, and his memory to sleep again. + +In three weeks he had consumed all his stock of ardent spirits. But his +continual drunkenness only lulled his terror, which awoke more furiously +than ever as soon as it was impossible for him to calm it. His fixed +idea then, which had been intensified by a month of drunkenness, and +which was continually increasing in his absolute solitude, penetrated him +like a gimlet. He now walked about the house like a wild beast in its +cage, putting his ear to the door to listen if the other were there and +defying him through the wall. Then, as soon as he dozed, overcome by +fatigue, he heard the voice which made him leap to his feet. + +At last one night, as cowards do when driven to extremities, he sprang to +the door and opened it, to see who was calling him and to force him to +keep quiet, but such a gust of cold wind blew into his face that it +chilled him to the bone, and he closed and bolted the door again +immediately, without noticing that Sam had rushed out. Then, as he was +shivering with cold, he threw some wood on the fire and sat down in front +of it to warm himself, but suddenly he started, for somebody was +scratching at the wall and crying. In desperation he called out: "Go +away!" but was answered by another long, sorrowful wail. + +Then all his remaining senses forsook him from sheer fright. He +repeated: "Go away!" and turned round to try to find some corner in which +to hide, while the other person went round the house still crying and +rubbing against the wall. Ulrich went to the oak sideboard, which was +full of plates and dishes and of provisions, and lifting it up with +superhuman strength, he dragged it to the door, so as to form a +barricade. Then piling up all the rest of the furniture, the mattresses, +palliasses and chairs, he stopped up the windows as one does when +assailed by an enemy. + +But the person outside now uttered long, plaintive, mournful groans, to +which the young man replied by similar groans, and thus days and nights +passed without their ceasing to howl at each other. The one was +continually walking round the house and scraped the walls with his nails +so vigorously that it seemed as if he wished to destroy them, while the +other, inside, followed all his movements, stooping down and holding his +ear to the walls and replying to all his appeals with terrible cries. +One evening, however, Ulrich heard nothing more, and he sat down, so +overcome by fatigue, that he went to sleep immediately and awoke in the +morning without a thought, without any recollection of what had happened, +just as if his head had been emptied during his heavy sleep, but he felt +hungry, and he ate. + +The winter was over and the Gemmi Pass was practicable again, so the +Hauser family started off to return to their inn. As soon as they had +reached the top of the ascent the women mounted their mule and spoke +about the two men whom they would meet again shortly. They were, indeed, +rather surprised that neither of them had come down a few days before, as +soon as the road was open, in order to tell them all about their long +winter sojourn. At last, however, they saw the inn, still covered with +snow, like a quilt. The door and the window were closed, but a little +smoke was coming out of the chimney, which reassured old Hauser. On +going up to the door, however, he saw the skeleton of an animal which had +been torn to pieces by the eagles, a large skeleton lying on its side. + +They all looked close at it and the mother said: + +"That must be Sam," and then she shouted: "Hi, Gaspard!" A cry from the +interior of the house answered her and a sharp cry that one might have +thought some animal had uttered it. Old Hauser repeated, "Hi, Gaspard!" +and they heard another cry similar to the first. + +Then the three men, the father and the two sons, tried to open the door, +but it resisted their efforts. From the empty cow-stall they took a beam +to serve as a battering-ram and hurled it against the door with all their +might. The wood gave way and the boards flew into splinters. Then the +house was shaken by a loud voice, and inside, behind the side board which +was overturned, they saw a man standing upright, with his hair falling on +his shoulders and a beard descending to his breast, with shining eyes, +and nothing but rags to cover him. They did not recognize him, but +Louise Hauser exclaimed: + +"It is Ulrich, mother." And her mother declared that it was Ulrich, +although his hair was white. + +He allowed them to go up to him and to touch him, but he did not reply to +any of their questions, and they were obliged to take him to Loeche, +where the doctors found that he was mad, and nobody ever found out what +had become of his companion. + +Little Louise Hauser nearly died that summer of decline, which the +physicians attributed to the cold air of the mountains. + + + + + + + VOLUME V. + +MONSIEUR PARENT +QUEEN HORTENSE +TIMBUCTOO +TOMBSTONES +MADEMOISELLE PEARL +THE THIEF +CLAIR DE LUNE +WAITER, A "BOCK" +AFTER +FORGIVENESS +IN THE SPRING +A QUEER NIGHT IN PARIS + + + + + +MONSIEUR PARENT + +George's father was sitting in an iron chair, watching his little son +with concentrated affection and attention, as little George piled up the +sand into heaps during one of their walks. He would take up the sand +with both hands, make a mound of it, and put a chestnut leaf on top. +His father saw no one but him in that public park full of people. + +The sun was just disappearing behind the roofs of the Rue Saint-Lazare, +but still shed its rays obliquely on that little, overdressed crowd. +The chestnut trees were lighted up by its yellow rays, and the three +fountains before the lofty porch of the church had the appearance of +liquid silver. + +Monsieur Parent, accidentally looking up at the church clock, saw that he +was five minutes late. He got up, took the child by the arm, shook his +dress, which was covered with sand, wiped his hands, and led him in the +direction of the Rue Blanche. He walked quickly, so as not to get in +after his wife, and the child could not keep up with him. He took him up +and carried him, though it made him pant when he had to walk up the steep +street. He was a man of forty, already turning gray, and rather stout. +At last he reached his house. An old servant who had brought him up, one +of those trusted servants who are the tyrants of families, opened the +door to him. + +"Has madame come in yet?" he asked anxiously. + +The servant shrugged her shoulders: + +"When have you ever known madame to come home at half-past six, +monsieur?" + +"Very well; all the better; it will give me time to change my things, for +I am very warm." + +The servant looked at him with angry and contemptuous pity. "Oh, I can +see that well enough," she grumbled. "You are covered with perspiration, +monsieur. I suppose you walked quickly and carried the child, and only +to have to wait until half-past seven, perhaps, for madame. I have made +up my mind not to have dinner ready on time. I shall get it for eight +o'clock, and if, you have to wait, I cannot help it; roast meat ought not +to be burnt!" + +Monsieur Parent pretended not to hear, but went into his own room, and as +soon as he got in, locked the door, so as to be alone, quite alone. He +was so used now to being abused and badly treated that he never thought +himself safe except when he was locked in. + +What could he do? To get rid of Julie seemed to him such a formidable +thing to do that he hardly ventured to think of it, but it was just as +impossible to uphold her against his wife, and before another month the +situation would become unbearable between the two. He remained sitting +there, with his arms hanging down, vaguely trying to discover some means +to set matters straight, but without success. He said to himself: "It is +lucky that I have George; without him I should-be very miserable." + +Just then the clock struck seven, and he started up. Seven o'clock, and +he had not even changed his clothes. Nervous and breathless, he +undressed, put on a clean shirt, hastily finished his toilet, as if he +had been expected in the next room for some event of extreme importance, +and went into the drawing-room, happy at having nothing to fear. He +glanced at the newspaper, went and looked out of the window, and then sat +down again, when the door opened, and the boy came in, washed, brushed, +and smiling. Parent took him up in his arms and kissed him passionately; +then he tossed him into the air, and held him up to the ceiling, but soon +sat down again, as he was tired with all his exertion. Then, taking +George on his knee, he made him ride a-cock-horse. The child laughed and +clapped his hands and shouted with pleasure, as did his father, who +laughed until his big stomach shook, for it amused him almost more than +it did the child. + +Parent loved him with all the heart of a weak, resigned, ill-used man. +He loved him with mad bursts of affection, with caresses and with all the +bashful tenderness which was hidden in him, and which had never found an +outlet, even at the early period of his married life, for his wife had +always shown herself cold and reserved. + +Just then Julie came to the door, with a pale face and glistening eyes, +and said in a voice which trembled with exasperation: "It is half-past +seven, monsieur." + +Parent gave an uneasy and resigned look at the clock and replied: "Yes, +it certainly is half-past seven." + +"Well, my dinner is quite ready now." + +Seeing the storm which was coming, he tried to turn it aside. "But did +you not tell me when I came in that it would not be ready before eight?" + +"Eight! what are you thinking about? You surely do not mean to let the +child dine at eight o'clock? It would ruin his stomach. Just suppose +that he only had his mother to look after him! She cares a great deal +about her child. Oh, yes, we will speak about her; she is a mother! +What a pity it is that there should be any mothers like her!" + +Parent thought it was time to cut short a threatened scene. "Julie," he +said, "I will not allow you to speak like that of your mistress. You +understand me, do you not? Do not forget it in the future." + +The old servant, who was nearly choked with surprise, turned and went +out, slamming the door so violently after her that the lustres on the +chandelier rattled, and for some seconds it sounded as if a number of +little invisible bells were ringing in the drawing-room. + +Eight o'clock struck, the door opened, and Julie came in again. She had +lost her look of exasperation, but now she put on an air of cold and +determined resolution, which was still more formidable. + +"Monsieur," she said, "I served your mother until the day of her death, +and I have attended to you from your birth until now, and I think it may +be said that I am devoted to the family." She waited for a reply, and +Parent stammered: + +"Why, yes, certainly, my good Julie." + +"You know quite well," she continued, "that I have never done anything +for the sake of money, but always for your sake; that I have never +deceived you nor lied to you, that you have never had to find fault with +me--" + +"Certainly, my good Julie." + +"Very well, then, monsieur; it cannot go on any longer like this. I have +said nothing, and left you in your ignorance, out of respect and liking +for you, but it is too much, and every one in the neighborhood is +laughing at you. Everybody knows about it, and so I must tell you also, +although I do not like to repeat it. The reason why madame comes in at +any time she chooses is that she is doing abominable things." + +He seemed stupefied and not to understand, and could only stammer out: + +"Hold your tongue; you know I have forbidden you----" + +But she interrupted him with irresistible resolution. "No, monsieur, I +must tell you everything now. For a long time madame has been carrying +on with Monsieur Limousin. I have seen them kiss scores of times behind +the door. Ah! you may be sure that if Monsieur Limousin had been rich, +madame would never have married Monsieur Parent. If you remember how the +marriage was brought about, you would understand the matter from +beginning to end." + +Parent had risen, and stammered out, his face livid: "Hold your tongue- +hold your tongue, or----" + +She went on, however: "No, I mean to tell you everything. She married +you from interest, and she deceived you from the very first day. It was +all settled between them beforehand. You need only reflect for a few +moments to understand it, and then, as she was not satisfied with having +married you, as she did not love you, she has made your life miserable, +so miserable that it has almost broken my heart when I have seen it." + +He walked up and down the room with hands clenched, repeating: "Hold your +tongue--hold your tongue----" For he could find nothing else to say. +The old servant, however, would not yield; she seemed resolved on +everything. + +George, who had been at first astonished and then frightened at those +angry voices, began to utter shrill screams, and remained behind his +father, with his face puckered up and his mouth open, roaring. + +His son's screams exasperated Parent, and filled him with rage and +courage. He rushed at Julie with both arms raised, ready to strike her, +exclaiming: "Ah! you wretch. You will drive the child out of his +senses." He already had his hand on her, when she screamed in his face: + +"Monsieur, you may beat me if you like, me who reared you, but that will +not prevent your wife from deceiving you, or alter the fact that your +child is not yours----" + +He stopped suddenly, let his arms fall, and remained standing opposite to +her, so overwhelmed that he could understand nothing more. + +"You need only to look at the child," she added, "to know who is its +father! He is the very image of Monsieur Limousin. You need only look +at his eyes and forehead. Why, a blind man could not be mistaken in +him." + +He had taken her by the shoulders, and was now shaking her with all his +might. "Viper, viper!" he said. "Go out the room, viper! Go out, or I +shall kill you! Go out! Go out!" + +And with a desperate effort he threw her into the next room. She fell +across the table, which was laid for dinner, breaking the glasses. Then, +rising to her feet, she put the table between her master and herself. +While he was pursuing her, in order to take hold of her again, she flung +terrible words at him. + +"You need only go out this evening after dinner, and come in again +immediately, and you will see! You will see whether I have been lying! +Just try it, and you will see." She had reached the kitchen door and +escaped, but he ran after her, up the back stairs to her bedroom, into +which she had locked herself, and knocking at the door, he said: + +"You will leave my house this very instant!" + +"You may be certain of that, monsieur," was her reply. "In an hour's +time I shall not be here any longer." + +He then went slowly downstairs again, holding on to the banister so as +not to fall, and went back to the drawing-room, where little George was +sitting on the floor, crying. He fell into a chair, and looked at the +child with dull eyes. He understood nothing, knew nothing more; he felt +dazed, stupefied, mad, as if he had just fallen on his head, and he +scarcely even remembered the dreadful things the servant had told him. +Then, by degrees, his mind, like muddy water, became calmer and clearer, +and the abominable revelations began to work in his heart. + +He was no longer thinking of George. The child was quiet now and sitting +on the carpet; but, seeing that no notice was being taken of him, he +began to cry. His father ran to him, took him in his arms, and covered +him with kisses. His child remained to him, at any rate! What did the +rest matter? He held him in his arms and pressed his lips to his light +hair, and, relieved and composed, he whispered: + +"George--my little George--my dear little George----" But he suddenly +remembered what Julie had said! Yes, she had said that he was Limousin's +child. Oh! it could not be possible, surely. He could not believe it, +could not doubt, even for a moment, that he was his own child. It was +one of those low scandals which spring from servants' brains! And he +repeated: "George--my dear little George." The youngster was quiet +again, now that his father was fondling him. + +Parent felt the warmth of the little chest penetrate through his clothes, +and it filled him with love, courage, and happiness; that gentle warmth +soothed him, fortified him and saved him. Then he put the small, curly +head away from him a little, and looked at it affectionately, still +repeating: "George! Oh, my little George!" But suddenly he thought: + +"Suppose he were to resemble Limousin, after all!" He looked at him with +haggard, troubled eyes, and tried to discover whether there was any +likeness in his forehead, in his nose, mouth, or cheeks. His thoughts +wandered as they do when a person is going mad, and his child's face +changed in his eyes, and assumed a strange look and improbable +resemblances. + +The hall bell rang. Parent gave a bound as if a bullet had gone through +him. "There she is," he said. "What shall I do?" And he ran and locked +himself up in his room, to have time to bathe his eyes. But in a few +moments another ring at the bell made him jump again, and then he +remembered that Julie had left, without the housemaid knowing it, and so +nobody would go to open the door. What was he to do? He went himself, +and suddenly he felt brave, resolute, ready for dissimulation and the +struggle. The terrible blow had matured him in a few moments. He wished +to know the truth, he desired it with the rage of a timid man, and with +the tenacity of an easy-going man who has been exasperated. + +Nevertheless, he trembled. Does one know how much excited cowardice +there often is in boldness? He went to the door with furtive steps, and +stopped to listen; his heart beat furiously. Suddenly, however, the +noise of the bell over his head startled him like an explosion. He +seized the lock, turned the key, and opening the door, saw his wife and +Limousin standing before him on the stairs. + +With an air of astonishment, which also betrayed a little irritation, she +said: + +"So you open the door now? Where is Julie?" + +His throat felt tight and his breathing was labored as he tried to. +reply, without being able to utter a word. + +"Are you dumb?" she continued. "I asked you where Julie is?" + +"She--she--has--gone----" he managed to stammer. + +His wife began to get angry. "What do you mean by gone? Where has she +gone? Why?" + +By degrees he regained his coolness. He felt an intense hatred rise up +in him for that insolent woman who was standing before him. + +"Yes, she has gone altogether. I sent her away." + +"You have sent away Julie? Why, you must be mad." + +"Yes, I sent her away because she was insolent, and because--because she +was ill-using the child." + +"Julie?" + +"Yes--Julie." + +"What was she insolent about?" + +"About you." + +"About me?" + +"Yes, because the dinner was burnt, and you did not come in." + +"And she said----" + +"She said--offensive things about you--which I ought not--which I could +not listen to----" + +"What did she, say?" + +"It is no good repeating them." + +"I want to hear them." + +"She said it was unfortunate for a man like me to be married to a woman +like you, unpunctual, careless, disorderly, a bad mother, and a bad +wife." + +The young woman had gone into the anteroom, followed by Limousin, who did +not say a word at this unexpected condition of things. She shut the door +quickly, threw her cloak on a chair, and going straight up to her +husband, she stammered out: + +"You say? You say? That I am----" + +Very pale and calm, he replied: "I say nothing, my dear. I am simply +repeating what Julie said to me, as you wanted to know what it was, and I +wish you to remark that I turned her off just on account of what she +said." + +She trembled with a violent longing to tear out his beard and scratch his +face. In his voice and manner she felt that he was asserting his +position as master. Although she had nothing to say by way of reply, she +tried to assume the offensive by saying something unpleasant. "I suppose +you have had dinner?" she asked. + +"No, I waited for you." + +She shrugged her shoulders impatiently. "It is very stupid of you to +wait after half-past seven," she said. "You might have guessed that I +was detained, that I had a good many things to do, visits and shopping," + +And then, suddenly, she felt that she wanted to explain how she had spent +her time, and told him in abrupt, haughty words that, having to buy some +furniture in a shop a long distance off, very far off, in the Rue de +Rennes, she had met Limousin at past seven o'clock on the Boulevard +Saint-Germain, and that then she had gone with him to have something to +eat in a restaurant, as she did not like to go to one by herself, +although she was faint with hunger. That was how she had dined with +Limousin, if it could be called dining, for they had only some soup and +half a chicken, as they were in a great hurry to get back. + +Parent replied simply: "Well, you were quite right. I am not finding +fault with you." + +Then Limousin, who, had not spoken till then, and who had been half +hidden behind Henriette, came forward and put out his hand, saying: "Are +you very well?" + +Parent took his hand, and shaking it gently, replied: "Yes, I am very +well." + +But the young woman had felt a reproach in her husband's last words. +"Finding fault! Why do you speak of finding fault? One might think that +you meant to imply something." + +"Not at all," he replied, by way of excuse. "I simply meant that I was +not at all anxious although you were late, and that I did not find fault +with you for it." + +She, however, took the high hand, and tried to find a pretext for a +quarrel. "Although I was late? One might really think that it was one +o'clock in the morning, and that I spent my nights away from home." + +"Certainly not, my dear. I said late because I could find no other word. +You said you should be back at half-past six, and you returned at half- +past eight. That was surely being late. I understand it perfectly well. +I am not at all surprised, even. But--but--I can hardly use any other +word." + +"But you pronounce them as if I had been out all night." + +"Oh, no-oh, no!" + +She saw that he would yield on every point, and she was going into her +own room, when at last she noticed that George was screaming, and then +she asked, with some feeling: "What is the matter with the child?" + +"I told you that Julie had been rather unkind to him." + +"What has the wretch been doing to him?" + +"Oh nothing much. She gave him a push, and he fell down." + +She wanted to see her child, and ran into the dining room, but stopped +short at the sight of the table covered with spilt wine, with broken +decanters and glasses and overturned saltcellars. "Who did all that +mischief?" she asked. + +"It was Julie, who----" But she interrupted him furiously: + +"That is too much, really! Julie speaks of me as if I were a shameless +woman, beats my child, breaks my plates and dishes, turns my house upside +down, and it appears that you think it all quite natural." + +"Certainly not, as I have got rid of her." + +"Really! You have got rid of her! But you ought to have given her in +charge. In such cases, one ought to call in the Commissary of Police!" + +"But--my dear--I really could not. There was no reason. It would have +been very difficult----" + +She shrugged her shoulders disdainfully. "There! you will never be +anything but a poor, wretched fellow, a man without a will, without any +firmness or energy. Ah! she must have said some nice things to you, your +Julie, to make you turn her off like that. I should like to have been +here for a minute, only for a minute." Then she opened the drawing-room +door and ran to George, took him into her arms and kissed him, and said: +"Georgie, what is it, my darling, my pretty one, my treasure?" + +Then, suddenly turning to another idea, she said: "But the child has had +no dinner? You have had nothing to eat, my pet?" + +"No, mamma." + +Then she again turned furiously upon her husband. "Why, you must be mad, +utterly mad! It is half-past eight, and George has had no dinner!" + +He excused himself as best he could, for he had nearly lost his wits +through the overwhelming scene and the explanation, and felt crushed by +this ruin of his life. "But, my dear, we were waiting for you, as I did +not wish to dine without you. As you come home late every day, I +expected you every moment." + +She threw her bonnet, which she had kept on till then, into an easy- +chair, and in an angry voice she said: "It is really intolerable to have +to do with people who can understand nothing, who can divine nothing and +do nothing by themselves. So, I suppose, if I were to come in at twelve +o'clock at night, the child would have had nothing to eat? Just as if +you could not have understood that, as it was after half-past seven, I +was prevented from coming home, that I had met with some hindrance!" + +Parent trembled, for he felt that his anger was getting the upper hand, +but Limousin interposed, and turning toward the young woman, said: + +"My dear friend, you, are altogether unjust. Parent could not guess that +you would come here so late, as you never do so, and then, how could you +expect him to get over the difficulty all by himself, after having sent +away Julie?" + +But Henriette was very angry, and replied: + +"Well, at any rate, he must get over the difficulty himself, for I will +not help him," she replied. "Let him settle it!" And she went into her +own room, quite forgetting that her child had not had anything to eat. + +Limousin immediately set to work to help his friend. He picked up the +broken glasses which strewed the table and took them out, replaced the +plates and knives and forks, and put the child into his high chair, while +Parent went to look for the chambermaid to wait at table. The girl came +in, in great astonishment, as she had heard nothing in George's room, +where she had been working. She soon, however, brought in the soup, a +burnt leg of mutton, and mashed potatoes. + +Parent sat by the side of the child, very much upset and distressed at +all that had happened. He gave the boy his dinner, and endeavored to eat +something himself, but he could only swallow with an effort, as his +throat felt paralyzed. By degrees he was seized with an insane desire to +look at Limousin, who was sitting opposite to him, making bread pellets, +to see whether George was like him, but he did not venture to raise his +eyes for some time. At last, however, he made up his mind to do so, and +gave a quick, sharp look at the face which he knew so well, although he +almost fancied that he had never examined it carefully. It looked so +different to what he had imagined. From time to time he looked at +Limousin, trying to recognize a likeness in the smallest lines of his +face, in the slightest features, and then he looked at his son, under the +pretext of feeding him. + +Two words were sounding in his ears: "His father! his father! his +father!" They buzzed in his temples at every beat of his heart. Yes, +that man, that tranquil man who was sitting on the other side of the +table, was, perhaps, the father of his son, of George, of his little +George. Parent left off eating; he could not swallow any more. A +terrible pain, one of those attacks of pain which make men scream, roll +on the ground, and bite the furniture, was tearing at his entrails, and +he felt inclined to take a knife and plunge it into his stomach. +He started when he heard the door open. His wife came in. "I am +hungry," she said; "are not you, Limousin?" + +He hesitated a little, and then said: "Yes, I am, upon my word." +She had the leg of mutton brought in again. Parent asked himself +"Have they had dinner? Or are they late because they have had a lovers' +meeting?" + +They both ate with a very good appetite. Henriette was very calm, but +laughed and joked. Her husband watched her furtively. She had on a pink +teagown trimmed with white lace, and her fair head, her white neck and +her plump hands stood out from that coquettish and perfumed dress as +though it were a sea shell edged with foam. + +What fun they must be making of him, if he had been their dupe since the +first day! Was it possible to make a fool of a man, of a worthy man, +because his father had left him a little money? Why could one not see +into people's souls? How was it that nothing revealed to upright hearts +the deceits of infamous hearts? How was it that voices had the same +sound for adoring as for lying? Why was a false, deceptive look the same +as a sincere one? And he watched them, waiting to catch a gesture, a +word, an intonation. Then suddenly he thought: "I will surprise them +this evening," and he said: + +"My dear, as I have dismissed Julie, I will see about getting another +girl this very day. I will go at once to procure one by to-morrow +morning, so I may not be in until late." + +"Very well," she replied; "go. I shall not stir from here. Limousin +will keep me company. We will wait for you." Then, turning to the maid, +she said: "You had better put George to bed, and then you can clear away +and go up to your room." + +Parent had got up; he was unsteady on his legs, dazed and bewildered, and +saying, "I shall see you again later on," he went out, holding on to the +wall, for the floor seemed to roll like a ship. George had been carried +out by his nurse, while Henriette and Limousin went into the drawing- +room. + +As soon as the door was shut, he said: "You must be mad, surely, to +torment your husband as you do?" + +She immediately turned on him: "Ah! Do you know that I think the habit +you have got into lately, of looking upon Parent as a martyr, is very +unpleasant?" + +Limousin threw himself into an easy-chair and crossed his legs. "I am +not setting him up as a martyr in the least, but I think that, situated +as we are, it is ridiculous to defy this man as you do, from morning till +night." + +She took a cigarette from the mantelpiece, lighted it, and replied: "But +I do not defy him; quite the contrary. Only he irritates me by his +stupidity, and I treat him as he deserves." + +Limousin continued impatiently: "What you are doing is very foolish! I +am only asking you to treat your husband gently, because we both of us +require him to trust us. I think that you ought to see that." + +They were close together: he, tall, dark, with long whiskers and the +rather vulgar manners of a good-looking man who is very well satisfied +with himself; she, small, fair, and pink, a little Parisian, born in the +back room of a shop, half cocotte and half bourgeoise, brought up to +entice customers to the store by her glances, and married, in +consequence, to a simple, unsophisticated man, who saw her outside the +door every morning when he went out and every evening when he came home. + +"But do you not understand; you great booby," she said, "that I hate him +just because he married me, because he bought me, in fact; because +everything that he says and does, everything that he thinks, acts on my +nerves? He exasperates me every moment by his stupidity, which you call +his kindness; by his dullness, which you call his confidence, and then, +above all, because he is my husband, instead of you. I feel him between +us, although he does not interfere with us much. And then---and then! +No, it is, after all, too idiotic of him not to guess anything! I wish +he would, at any rate, be a little jealous. There are moments when I +feel inclined to say to him: 'Do you not see, you stupid creature, that +Paul is my lover?' + +"It is quite incomprehensible that you cannot understand how hateful he +is to me, how he irritates me. You always seem to like him, and you +shake hands with him cordially. Men are very extraordinary at times." + +"One must know how to dissimulate, my dear." + +"It is no question of dissimulation, but of feeling. One might think +that, when you men deceive one another, you like each other better on +that account, while we women hate a man from the moment that we have +betrayed him." + +"I do not see why one should hate an excellent fellow because one is +friendly with his wife." + +"You do not see it? You do not see it? You all of you are wanting in +refinement of feeling. However, that is one of those things which one +feels and cannot express. And then, moreover, one ought not. No, you +would not understand; it is quite useless! You men have no delicacy of +feeling." + +And smiling, with the gentle contempt of an impure woman, she put both +her hands on his shoulders and held up her lips to him. He stooped down +and clasped her closely in his arms, and their lips met. And as they +stood in front of the mantel mirror, another couple exactly like them +embraced behind the clock. + +They had heard nothing, neither the noise of the key nor the creaking of +the door, but suddenly Henriette, with a loud cry, pushed Limousin away +with both her arms, and they saw Parent looking at them, livid with rage, +without his shoes on and his hat over his forehead. He looked at each, +one after the other, with a quick glance of his eyes and without moving +his head. He appeared beside himself. Then, without saying a word, he +threw himself on Limousin, seized him as if he were going to strangle +him, and flung him into the opposite corner of the room so violently that +the other lost his balance, and, beating the air with his hand, struck +his head violently against the wall. + +When Henriette saw that her husband was going to murder her lover, she +threw herself on Parent, seized him by the neck, and digging her ten +delicate, rosy fingers into his neck, she squeezed him so tightly, with +all the vigor of a desperate woman, that the blood spurted out under her +nails, and she bit his shoulder, as if she wished to tear it with her +teeth. Parent, half-strangled and choking, loosened his hold on +Limousin, in order to shake off his wife, who was hanging to his neck. +Putting his arms round her waist, he flung her also to the other end of +the drawing-room. + +Then, as his passion was short-lived, like that of most good-tempered +men, and his strength was soon exhausted, he remained standing between +the two, panting, worn out, not knowing what to do next. His brutal fury +had expended itself in that effort, like the froth of a bottle of +champagne, and his unwonted energy ended in a gasping for breath. As +soon as he could speak, however, he said: + +"Go away--both of you--immediately! Go away!" + +Limousin remained motionless in his corner, against the wall, too +startled to understand anything as yet, too frightened to move a finger; +while Henriette, with her hands resting on a small, round table, her head +bent forward, her hair hanging down, the bodice of her dress unfastened, +waited like a wild animal which is about to spring. Parent continued in +a stronger voice: "Go away immediately. Get out of the house!" + +His wife, however, seeing that he had got over his first exasperation +grew bolder, drew herself up, took two steps toward him, and, grown +almost insolent, she said: "Have you lost your head? What is the matter +with you? What is the meaning of this unjustifiable violence?" + +But he turned toward her, and raising his fist to strike her, he +stammered out: "Oh--oh--this is too much, too much! I heard everything! +Everything--do you understand? Everything! You wretch--you wretch! You +are two wretches! Get out of the house, both of you! Immediately, or I +shall kill you! Leave the house!" + +She saw that it was all over, and that he knew everything; that she could +not prove her innocence, and that she must comply. But all her impudence +had returned to her, and her hatred for the man, which was aggravated +now, drove her to audacity, made her feel the need of bravado, and of +defying him, and she said in a clear voice: "Come, Limousin; as he is +going to turn me out of doors, I will go to your lodgings with you." + +But Limousin did not move, and Parent, in a fresh access of rage, cried +out: "Go, will you? Go, you wretches! Or else--or else----" He seized a +chair and whirled it over his head. + +Henriette walked quickly across the room, took her lover by the arm, +dragged him from the wall, to which he appeared fixed, and led him toward +the door, saying: "Do come, my friend--you see that the man is mad. Do +come!" + +As she went out she turned round to her husband, trying to think of +something that she could do, something that she could invent to wound him +to the heart as she left the house, and an idea struck her, one of those +venomous, deadly ideas in which all a woman's perfidy shows itself, and +she said resolutely: "I am going to take my child with me." + +Parent was stupefied, and stammered: "Your--your--child? You dare to +talk of your child? You venture--you venture to ask for your child-- +after-after--Oh, oh, that is too much! Go, you vile creature! Go!" + +She went up to him again, almost smiling, almost avenged already, and +defying him, standing close to him, and face to face, she said: "I want +my child, and you have no right to keep him, because he is not yours--do +you understand? He is not yours! He is Limousin's!" + +And Parent cried out in bewilderment: "You lie--you lie--worthless +woman!" + +But she continued: "You fool! Everybody knows it except you. I tell +you, this is his father. You need only look at him to see it." + +Parent staggered backward, and then he suddenly turned round, took a +candle, and rushed into the next room; returning almost immediately, +carrying little George wrapped up in his bedclothes. The child, who had +been suddenly awakened, was crying from fright. Parent threw him into +his wife's arms, and then, without speaking, he pushed her roughly out +toward the stairs, where Limousin was waiting, from motives of prudence. + +Then he shut the door again, double-locked and bolted it, but had +scarcely got back into the drawing-room when he fell to the floor at full +length. + +Parent lived alone, quite alone. During the five weeks that followed +their separation, the feeling of surprise at his new life prevented him +from thinking much. He had resumed his bachelor life, his habits of +lounging, about, and took his meals at a restaurant, as he had done +formerly. As he wished to avoid any scandal, he made his wife an +allowance, which was arranged by their lawyers. By degrees, however, the +thought of the child began to haunt him. Often, when he was at home +alone at night, he suddenly thought he heard George calling out "Papa," +and his heart would begin to beat, and he would get up quickly and open +the door, to see whether, by chance, the child might have returned, as +dogs or pigeons do. Why should a child have less instinct than an +animal? On finding that he was mistaken, he would sit down in his +armchair again and think of the boy. He would think of him for hours and +whole days. It was not only a moral, but still more a physical +obsession, a nervous longing to kiss him, to hold and fondle him, to take +him on his knees and dance him. He felt the child's little arms around +his neck, his little mouth pressing a kiss on his beard, his soft hair +tickling his cheeks, and the remembrance of all those childish ways made +him suffer as a man might for some beloved woman who has left him. +Twenty or a hundred times a day he asked himself the question whether he +was or was not George's father, and almost before he was in bed every +night he recommenced the same series of despairing questionings. + +He especially dreaded the darkness of the evening, the melancholy feeling +of the twilight. Then a flood of sorrow invaded his heart, a torrent of +despair which seemed to overwhelm him and drive him mad. He was as +afraid of his own thoughts as men are of criminals, and he fled before +them as one does from wild beasts. Above all things, he feared his +empty, dark, horrible dwelling and the deserted streets, in which, here +and there, a gas lamp flickered, where the isolated foot passenger whom +one hears in the distance seems to be a night prowler, and makes one walk +faster or slower, according to whether he is coming toward you or +following you. + +And in spite of himself, and by instinct, Parent went in the direction of +the broad, well-lighted, populous streets. The light and the crowd +attracted him, occupied his mind and distracted his thoughts, and when he +was tired of walking aimlessly about among the moving crowd, when he saw +the foot passengers becoming more scarce and the pavements less crowded, +the fear of solitude and silence drove him into some large cafe full of +drinkers and of light. He went there as flies go to a candle, and he +would sit down at one of the little round tables and ask for a "bock," +which he would drink slowly, feeling uneasy every time a customer got up +to go. He would have liked to take him by the arm, hold him back, and +beg him to stay a little longer, so much did he dread the time when the +waiter should come up to him and say sharply: "Come, monsieur, it is +closing time!" + +He thus got into the habit of going to the beer houses, where the +continual elbowing of the drinkers brings you in contact with a familiar +and silent public, where the heavy clouds of tobacco smoke lull +disquietude, while the heavy beer dulls the mind and calms the heart. +He almost lived there. He was scarcely up before he went there to find +people to distract his glances and his thoughts, and soon, as he felt too +lazy to move, he took his meals there. + +After every meal, during more than an hour, he sipped three or four small +glasses of brandy, which stupefied him by degrees, and then his head +drooped on his chest, he shut his eyes, and went to sleep. Then, +awaking, he raised himself on the red velvet seat, straightened his +waistcoat, pulled down his cuffs, and took up the newspapers again, +though he had already seen them in the morning, and read them all through +again, from beginning to end. Between four and five o'clock he went for +a walk on the boulevards, to get a little fresh air, as he used to say, +and then came back to the seat which had been reserved for him, and asked +for his absinthe. He would talk to the regular customers whose +acquaintance he had made. They discussed the news of the day and +political events, and that carried him on till dinner time; and he spent +the evening as he had the afternoon, until it was time to close. That +was a terible moment for him when he was obliged to go out into the dark, +into his empty room full of dreadful recollections, of horrible thoughts, +and of mental agony. He no longer saw any of his old friends, none of +his relatives, nobody who might remind him of his past life. But as his +apartments were a hell to him, he took a room in a large hotel, a good +room on the ground floor, so as to see the passers-by. He was no longer +alone in that great building. He felt people swarming round him, he +heard voices in the adjoining rooms, and when his former sufferings +tormented him too much at the sight of his bed, which was turned down, +and of his solitary fireplace, he went out into the wide passages and +walked up and down them like a sentinel, before all the closed doors, and +looked sadly at the shoes standing in couples outside them, women's +little boots by the side of men's thick ones, and he thought that, no +doubt, all these people were happy, and were sleeping in their warm beds. +Five years passed thus; five miserable years. But one day, when he was +taking his usual walk between the Madeleine and the Rue Drouot, he +suddenly saw a lady whose bearing struck him. A tall gentleman and a +child were with her, and all three were walking in front of him. He +asked himself where he had seen them before, when suddenly he recognized +a movement of her hand; it was his wife, his wife with Limousin and his +child, his little George. + +His heart beat as if it would suffocate him, but he did not stop, for he +wished to see them, and he followed them. They looked like a family of +the better middle class. Henriette was leaning on Paul's arm, and +speaking to him in a low voice, and looking at him sideways occasionally. +Parent got a side view of her and recognized her pretty features, the +movements of her lips, her smile, and her coaxing glances. But the child +chiefly took up his attention. How tall and strong he was! Parent could +not see his face, but only his long, fair curls. That tall boy with bare +legs, who was walking by his mother's side like a little man, was George. +He saw them suddenly, all three, as they stopped in front of a shop. +Limousin had grown very gray, had aged and was thinner; his wife, on the +contrary, was as young looking as ever, and had grown stouter. George he +would not have recognized, he was so different from what he had been +formerly. + +They went on again and Parent followed them. He walked on quickly, +passed them, and then turned round, so as to meet them face to face. As +he passed the child he felt a mad longing to take him into his arms and +run off with him, and he knocked against him as if by accident. The boy +turned round and looked at the clumsy man angrily, and Parent hurried +away, shocked, hurt, and pursued by that look. He went off like a thief, +seized with a horrible fear lest he should have been seen and recognized +by his wife and her lover. He went to his cafe without stopping, and +fell breathless into his chair. That evening he drank three absinthes. +For four months he felt the pain of that meeting in his heart. Every +night he saw the three again, happy and tranquil, father, mother, and +child walking on the boulevard before going in to dinner, and that new. +vision effaced the old one. It was another matter, another hallucination +now, and also a fresh pain. Little George, his little George, the child +he had so much loved and so often kissed, disappeared in the far +distance, and he saw a new one, like a brother of the first, a little boy +with bare legs, who did not know him! He suffered terribly at that +thought. The child's love was dead; there was no bond between them; the +child would not have held out his arms when he saw him. He had even +looked at him angrily. + +Then, by degrees he grew calmer, his mental torture diminished, the image +that had appeared to his eyes and which haunted his nights became more +indistinct and less frequent. He began once more to live nearly like +everybody else, like all those idle people who drink beer off marble- +topped tables and wear out their clothes on the threadbare velvet of the +couches. + +He grew old amid the smoke from pipes, lost his hair under the gas +lights, looked upon his weekly bath, on his fortnightly visit to the +barber's to have his hair cut, and on the purchase of a new coat or hat +as an event. When he got to his cafe in a new hat he would look at +himself in the glass for a long time before sitting down, and take it off +and put it on again several times, and at last ask his friend, the lady +at the bar, who was watching him with interest, whether she thought it +suited him. + +Two or three times a year he went to the theatre, and in the summer he +sometimes spent his evenings at one of the open-air concerts in the +Champs Elysees. And so the years followed each other slow, monotonous, +and short, because they were quite uneventful. + +He very rarely now thought of the dreadful drama which had wrecked his +life; for twenty years had passed since that terrible evening. But the +life he had led since then had worn him out. The landlord of his cafe +would often say to him: "You ought to pull yourself together a little, +Monsieur Parent; you should get some fresh air and go into the country. +I assure you that you have changed very much within the last few months." +And when his customer had gone out be used to say to the barmaid: "That +poor Monsieur Parent is booked for another world; it is bad never to get +out of Paris. Advise him to go out of town for a day occasionally; he +has confidence in you. Summer will soon be here; that will put him +straight." + +And she, full of pity and kindness for such a regular customer, said to +Parent every day: "Come, monsieur, make up your mind to get a little +fresh air. It is so charming in the country when the weather is fine. +Oh, if I could, I would spend my life there!" + +By degrees he was seized with a vague desire to go just once and see +whether it was really as pleasant there as she said, outside the walls of +the great city. One morning he said to her: + +"Do you know where one can get a good luncheon in the neighborhood of +Paris?" + +"Go to the Terrace at Saint-Germain; it is delightful there!" + +He had been there formerly, just when he became engaged. He made up his +mind to go there again, and he chose a Sunday, for no special reason, but +merely because people generally do go out on Sundays, even when they have +nothing to do all the week; and so one Sunday morning he went to Saint- +Germain. He felt low-spirited and vexed at having yielded to that new +longing, and at having broken through his usual habits. He was thirsty; +he would have liked to get out at every station and sit down in the cafe +which he saw outside and drink a "bock" or two, and then take the first +train back to Paris. The journey seemed very long to him. He could +remain sitting for whole days, as long as he had the same motionless +objects before his eyes, but he found it very trying and fatiguing to +remain sitting while he was being whirled along, and to see the whole +country fly by, while he himself was motionless. + +However, he found the Seine interesting every time he crossed it. Under +the bridge at Chatou he saw some small boats going at great speed under +the vigorous strokes of the bare-armed oarsmen, and he thought: "There +are some fellows who are certainly enjoying themselves!" The train +entered the tunnel just before you get to the station at Saint-Germain, +and presently stopped at the platform. Parent got out, and walked +slowly, for he already felt tired, toward the Terrace, with his hands +behind his back, and when he got to the iron balustrade, stopped to look +at the distant horizon. The immense plain spread out before him vast as +the sea, green and studded with large villages, almost as populous as +towns. The sun bathed the whole landscape in its full, warm light. The +Seine wound like an endless serpent through the plain, flowed round the +villages and along the slopes. Parent inhaled the warm breeze, which +seemed to make his heart young again, to enliven his spirits, and to +vivify his blood, and said to himself: + +"Why, it is delightful here." + +Then he went on a few steps, and stopped again to look about him. The +utter misery of his existence seemed to be brought into full relief by +the intense light which inundated the landscape. He saw his twenty years +of cafe life--dull, monotonous, heartbreaking. He might have traveled as +others did, have gone among foreigners, to unknown countries beyond the +sea, have interested himself somewhat in everything which other men are +passionately devoted to, in arts and science; he might have enjoyed life +in a thousand forms, that mysterious life which is either charming or +painful, constantly changing, always inexplicable and strange. Now, +however, it was too late. He would go on drinking "bock" after "bock" +until he died, without any family, without friends, without hope, without +any curiosity about anything, and he was seized with a feeling of misery +and a wish to run away, to hide himself in Paris, in his cafe and his +lethargy! All the thoughts, all the dreams, all the desires which are +dormant in the slough of stagnating hearts had reawakened, brought to +life by those rays of sunlight on the plain. + +Parent felt that if he were to remain there any longer he should lose his +reason, and he made haste to get to the Pavilion Henri IV for lunch, to +try and forget his troubles under--the influence of wine and alcohol, and +at any rate to have some one to speak to. + +He took a small table in one of the arbors, from which one can see all +the surrounding country, ordered his lunch, and asked to be served at +once. Then some more people arrived and sat down at tables near him. He +felt more comfortable; he was no longer alone. Three persons were eating +luncheon near him. He looked at them two or three times without seeing +them clearly, as one looks at total strangers. Suddenly a woman's voice +sent a shiver through him which seemed to penetrate to his very marrow. +"George," it said, "will you carve the chicken?" + +And another voice replied: "Yes, mamma." + +Parent looked up, and he understood; he guessed immediately who those +people were! He should certainly not have known them again. His wife +had grown quite white and very stout, an elderly, serious, respectable +lady, and she held her head forward as she ate for fear of spotting her +dress, although she had a table napkin tucked under her chin. George had +become a man. He had a slight beard, that uneven and almost colorless +beard which adorns the cheeks of youths. He wore a high hat, a white +waistcoat, and a monocle, because it looked swell, no doubt. Parent +looked at him in astonishment. Was that George, his son? No, he did not +know that young man; there could be nothing in common between them. +Limousin had his back to him, and was eating; with his shoulders rather +bent. + +All three of them seemed happy and satisfied; they came and took luncheon +in the country at well-known restaurants. They had had a calm and +pleasant existence, a family existence in a warm and comfortable house, +filled with all those trifles which make life agreeable, with affection, +with all those tender words which people exchange continually when they +love each other. They had lived thus, thanks to him, Parent, on his +money, after having deceived him, robbed him, ruined him! They had +condemned him, the innocent, simple-minded, jovial man, to all the +miseries of solitude, to that abominable life which he had led, between +the pavement and a bar-room, to every mental torture and every physical +misery! They had made him a useless, aimless being, a waif in the world, +a poor old man without any pleasures, any prospects, expecting nothing +from anybody or anything. For him, the world was empty, because he loved +nothing in the world. He might go among other nations, or go about the +streets, go into all the houses in Paris, open every room, but he would +not find inside any door the beloved face, the face of wife or child +which smiles when it sees you. This idea worked upon him more than any +other, the idea of a door which one opens, to see and to embrace somebody +behind it. + +And that was the fault of those three wretches! The fault of that +worthless woman, of that infamous friend, and of that tall, light-haired +lad who put on insolent airs. Now he felt as angry with the child as he +did with the other two. Was he not Limousin's son? Would Limousin have +kept him and loved him otherwise? Would not Limousin very quickly have +got rid of the mother and of the child if he had not felt sure that it +was his, positively his? Does anybody bring up other people's children? +And now they were there, quite close to him, those three who had made him +suffer so much. + +Parent looked at them, irritated and excited at the recollection of all +his sufferings and of his despair, and was especially exasperated at +their placid and satisfied looks. He felt inclined to kill them, to +throw his siphon of Seltzer water at them, to split open Limousin's head +as he every moment bent it over his plate, raising it again immediately. + +He would have his revenge now, on the spot, as he had them under his +hand. But how? He tried to think of some means, he pictured such +dreadful things as one reads of in the newspapers occasionally, but could +not hit on anything practical. And he went on drinking to excite +himself, to give himself courage not to allow such an opportunity to +escape him, as he might never have another. + +Suddenly an idea struck him, a terrible idea; and he left off drinking to +mature it. He smiled as he murmured: "I have them, I have them! We will +see; we will see!" + +They finished their luncheon slowly, conversing with perfect unconcern. +Parent could not hear what they were saying, but he saw their quiet +gestures. His wife's face especially exasperated him. She had assumed a +haughty air, the air of a comfortable, devout woman, of an +unapproachable, devout woman, sheathed in principles, iron-clad in +virtue. They paid their bill and got up from table. Parent then noticed +Limousin. He might have been taken for a retired diplomat, for he looked +a man of great importance, with his soft white whiskers, the tips of +which touched his coat collar. + +They walked away. Parent rose and followed them. First they went up and +down the terrace, and calmly admired the landscape, and then they went. +into the forest. Parent followed them at a distance, hiding himself so +as not to excite their suspicion too soon. + +Parent came up to them by degrees, breathing hard with emotion and +fatigue, for he was unused to walking now. He soon came up to them, but +was seized with fear, an inexplicable fear, and he passed them, so as to +turn round and meet them face to face. He walked on, his heart beating, +feeling that they were just behind him now, and he said to himself: +"Come, now is the time. Courage! courage! Now is the moment!" + +He turned round. They were all three sitting on the grass, at the foot +of a huge tree, and were still chatting. He made up his mind, and walked +back rapidly; stopping in front of them in the middle of tile road, he +said abruptly, in a voice broken by emotion: + +"It is I! Here I am! I suppose you did not expect me?" + +They all three stared at this man, who seemed to be insane. +He continued: + +"One would suppose that you did not know me again. Just look at me! I +am Parent, Henri Parent. You thought it was all over, and that you would +never see me again. Ah! but here I am once more, you see, and now we +will have an explanation." + +Henriette, terrified, hid her face in her hands, murmuring: "Oh! Good +heavens!" + +Seeing this stranger, who seemed to be threatening his mother, George +sprang up, ready to seize him by the collar. Limousin, thunderstruck, +looked in horror at this apparition, who, after gasping for breath, +continued: + +"So now we will have an explanation; the proper moment has come! Ah! +you deceived me, you condemned me to the life of a convict, and you +thought that I should never catch you!" + +The young man took him by the shoulders and pushed him back. + +"Are you mad?" he asked. "What do you want? Go on your way immediately, +or I shall give you a thrashing!" + +"What do I want?" replied Parent. "I want to tell you who these people +are." + +George, however, was in a rage, and shook him; and was even going to +strike him. + +"Let me go," said Parent. "I am your father. There, see whether they +recognize me now, the wretches!" + +The young man, thunderstruck, unclenched his fists and turned toward his +mother. Parent, as soon as he was released, approached her. + +"Well," he said, "tell him yourself who I am! Tell him that my name is +Henri Parent, that I am his father because his name is George Parent, +because you are my wife, because you are all three living on my money, on +the allowance of ten thousand francs which I have made you since I drove +you out of my house. Will you tell him also why I drove you out? +Because I surprised you with this beggar, this wretch, your lover! Tell +him what I was, an honorable man, whom you married for money, and whom +you deceived from the very first day. Tell him who you are, and who I +am----" + +He stammered and gasped for breath in his rage. The woman exclaimed in a +heartrending voice: + +"Paul, Paul, stop him; make him be quiet! Do not let him say this before +my son!" + +Limousin had also risen to his feet. He said in a very low voice: +"Hold your tongue! Hold your tongue! Do you understand what you are +doing?" + +"I quite know what I am doing," resumed Parent, "and that is not all. +There is one thing that I will know, something that has tormented me for +twenty years." Then, turning to George, who was leaning against a tree +in consternation, he said: + +"Listen to me. When she left my house she thought it was not enough to +have deceived me, but she also wanted to drive me to despair. You were +my only consolation, and she took you with her, swearing that I was not +your father, but, that he was your father. Was she lying? I do not +know. I have been asking myself the question for the last twenty years." +He went close up to her, tragic and terrible, and, pulling away her +hands, with which she had covered her face, he continued: + +"Well, now! I call upon you to tell me which of us two is the father of +this young man; he or I, your husband or your lover. Come! Come! tell +us." + +Limousin rushed at him. Parent pushed him back, and, sneering in his +fury, he said: "Ah! you are brave now! You are braver than you were +that day when you ran downstairs because you thought I was going to +murder you. Very well! If she will not reply, tell me yourself. You +ought to know as well as she. Tell me, are you this young fellow's +father? Come! Come! Tell me!" + +He turned to his wife again. "If you will not tell me, at any rate tell +your son. He is a man, now, and he has the right to know who his father +is. I do not know, and I never did know, never, never! I cannot tell +you, my boy." + +He seemed to be losing his senses; his voice grew shrill and he worked +his arms about as if he had an epileptic 'fit. + +"Come! . . . Give me an answer. She does not know . . . I will +make a bet that she does not know . . . No . . . she does not know, +by Jove! Ha! ha! ha! Nobody knows . . . nobody . . . How can one +know such things? + +You will not know either, my boy, you will not know any more than I do +. . . never. . . . Look here . . . Ask her you will find that +she does not know . . . I do not know either . . . nor does he, nor +do you, nobody knows. You can choose . . . You can choose . . . +yes, you can choose him or me. . . Choose. + +Good evening . . . It is all over. If she makes up her mind to tell +you, you will come and let me know, will you not? I am living at the +Hotel des Continents . . . I should be glad to know . . . Good +evening . . . I hope you will enjoy yourselves very much . . ." + +And he went away gesticulating, talking to himself under the tall trees, +in the quiet, the cool air, which was full of the fragrance of growing +plants. He did not turn round to look at them, but went straight on, +walking under the stimulus of his rage, under a storm of passion, with +that one fixed idea in his mind. All at once he found himself outside +the station. A train was about to start and he got in. During the +journey his anger calmed down, he regained his senses and returned to +Paris, astonished at his own boldness, full of aches and pains as if he +had broken some bones. Nevertheless, he went to have a "bock" at his +brewery. + +When she saw him come in, Mademoiselle Zoe asked in surprise: "What! +back already? are you tired?" + +"Yes--yes, I am tired . . . very tired . . . You know, when one is +not used to going out. . . I've had enough of it. I shall not go into +the country again. It would have been better to have stayed here. For +the future, I shall not stir out." + +She could not persuade him to tell her about his little excursion, much +as she wished to. + +For the first time in his life he got thoroughly drunk that night, and +had to be carried home. + + + + + + +QUEEN HORTENSE + +In Argenteuil she was called Queen Hortense. No one knew why. Perhaps +it was because she had a commanding tone of voice; perhaps because she +was tall, bony, imperious; perhaps because she governed a kingdom of +servants, chickens, dogs, cats, canaries, parrots, all so dear to an old +maid's heart. But she did not spoil these familiar friends; she had for +them none of those endearing names, none of the foolish tenderness which +women seem to lavish on the soft fur of a purring cat. She governed +these beasts with authority; she reigned. + +She was indeed an old maid--one of those old maids with a harsh voice and +angular motions, whose very soul seems to be hard. She never would stand +contradiction, argument, hesitation, indifference, laziness nor fatigue. +She had never been heard to complain, to regret anything, to envy anyone. +She would say: "Everyone has his share," with the conviction of a +fatalist. She did not go to church, she had no use for priests, she +hardly believed in God, calling all religious things "weeper's wares." + +For thirty years she had lived in her little house, with its tiny garden +running along the street; she had never changed her habits, only changing +her servants pitilessly, as soon as they reached twenty-one years of age. + +When her dogs, cats and birds would die of old age, or from an accident, +she would replace them without tears and without regret; with a little +spade she would bury the dead animal in a strip of ground, throwing a few +shovelfuls of earth over it and stamping it down with her feet in an +indifferent manner. + +She had a few friends in town, families of clerks who went to Paris every +day. Once in a while she would be invited out, in the evening, to tea. +She would inevitably fall asleep, and she would have to be awakened, when +it was time for her to go home. She never allowed anyone to accompany +her, fearing neither light nor darkness. She did not appear to like +children. + +She kept herself busy doing countless masculine tasks--carpentering, +gardening, sawing or chopping wood, even laying bricks when it was +necessary. + +She had relatives who came to see her twice a year, the Cimmes and the +Colombels, her two sisters having married, one of them a florist and the +other a retired merchant. The Cimmes had no children; the Colombels had +three: Henri, Pauline and Joseph. Henri was twenty, Pauline seventeen +and Joseph only three. + +There was no love lost between the old maid and her relatives. + +In the spring of the year 1882 Queen Hortense suddenly fell sick. +The neighbors called in a physician, whom she immediately drove out. +A priest then having presented himself, she jumped out of bed, in order +to throw him out of the house. + +The young servant, in despair, was brewing her some tea. + +After lying in bed for three days the situation appeared so serious that +the barrel-maker, who lived next door, to the right, acting on advice +from the doctor, who had forcibly returned to the house, took it upon +himself to call together the two families. + +They arrived by the same train, towards ten in the morning, the Colombels +bringing little Joseph with them. + +When they got to the garden gate, they saw the servant seated in the +chair against the wall, crying. + +The dog was sleeping on the door mat in the broiling sun; two cats, which +looked as though they might be dead, were stretched out in front of the +two windows, their eyes closed, their paws and tails stretched out at +full length. + +A big clucking hen was parading through the garden with a whole regiment +of yellow, downy chicks, and a big cage hanging from the wall and covered +with pimpernel, contained a population of birds which were chirping away +in the warmth of this beautiful spring morning. + +In another cage, shaped like a chalet, two lovebirds sat motionless side +by side on their perch. + +M. Cimme, a fat, puffing person, who always entered first everywhere, +pushing aside everyone else, whether man or woman, when it was necessary, +asked: + +"Well, Celeste, aren't things going well?" + +The little servant moaned through her tears: + +"She doesn't even recognize me any more. The doctor says it's the end." + +Everybody looked around. + +Mme. Cimme and Mme. Colombel immediately embraced each other, without +saying a word. They locked very much alike, having always worn their +hair in Madonna bands, and loud red French cashmere shawls. + +Cimme turned to his brother-in-law, a pale, sal, low-complexioned, thin +man, wasted by stomach complaints, who limped badly, and said in a +serious tone of voice: + +"Gad! It was high time." + +But no one dared to enter the dying woman's room on the ground floor. +Even Cimme made way for the others. Colombel was the first to make up +his mind, and, swaying from side to side like the mast of a ship, the +iron ferule of his cane clattering on the paved hall, he entered. + +The two women were the next to venture, and M. Cimmes closed the +procession. + +Little Joseph had remained outside, pleased at the sight of the dog. + +A ray of sunlight seemed to cut the bed in two, shining just on the +hands, which were moving nervously, continually opening and closing. +The fingers were twitching as though moved by some thought, as though +trying to point out a meaning or idea, as though obeying the dictates of +a will. The rest of the body lay motionless under the sheets. The +angular frame showed not a single movement. The eyes remained closed. + +The family spread out in a semi-circle and, without a word, they began to +watch the contracted chest and the short, gasping breathing. The little +servant had followed them and was still crying. + +At last Cimme asked: + +"Exactly what did the doctor say?" + +The girl stammered: + +"He said to leave her alone, that nothing more could be done for her." + +But suddenly the old woman's lips began to move. She seemed to be +uttering silent words, words hidden in the brain of this dying being, and +her hands quickened their peculiar movements. + +Then she began to speak in a thin, high voice, which no one had ever +heard, a voice which seemed to come from the distance, perhaps from the +depths of this heart which had always been closed. + +Cimme, finding this scene painful, walked away on tiptoe. Colombel, +whose crippled leg was growing tired, sat down. + +The two women remained standing. + +Queen Hortense was now babbling away, and no one could understand a word. +She was pronouncing names, many names, tenderly calling imaginary people. + +"Come here, Philippe, kiss your mother. Tell me, child, do you love your +mamma? You, Rose, take care of your little sister while I am away. And +don't leave her alone. Don't play with matches!" + +She stopped for a while, then, in a louder voice, as though she were +calling someone: "Henriette!" then waited a moment and continued: + +"Tell your father that I wish to speak to him before he goes to +business." And suddenly: "I am not feeling very well to-day, darling; +promise not to come home late. Tell your employer that I am sick. +You know, it isn't safe to leave the children alone when I am in bed. +For dinner I will fix you up a nice dish of rice. The little ones like +that very much. Won't Claire be happy?" + +And she broke into a happy, joyous laugh, such as they had never heard: +"Look at Jean, how funny he looks! He has smeared jam all over his face, +the little pig! Look, sweetheart, look; isn't he funny?" + +Colombel, who was continually lifting his tired leg from place to place, +muttered: + +"She is dreaming that she has children and a husband; it is the beginning +of the death agony." + +The two sisters had not yet moved, surprised, astounded. + +The little maid exclaimed: + +"You must take off your shawls and your hits! Would you like to go into +the parlor?" + +They went out without having said a word. And Colombel followed them, +limping, once more leaving the dying woman alone. + +When they were relieved of their travelling garments, the women finally +sat down. Then one of the cats left its window, stretched, jumped into +the room and on to Mme. Cimme's knees. She began to pet it. + +In the next room could be heard the voice of the dying woman, living, in +this last hour, the life for which she had doubtless hoped, living her +dreams themselves just when all was over for her. + +Cimme, in the garden, was playing with little Joseph and the dog, +enjoying himself in the whole hearted manner of a countryman, having +completely forgotten the dying woman. + +But suddenly he entered the house and said to the girl: + +"I say, my girl, are we not going to have luncheon? What do you ladies +wish to eat?" + +They finally agreed on an omelet, a piece of steak with new potatoes, +cheese and coffee. + +As Mme. Colombel was fumbling in her pocket for her purse, Cimme stopped +her, and, turning to the maid: "Have you got any money?" + +She answered: + +"Yes, monsieur." + +"How much?" + +"Fifteen francs." + +"That's enough. Hustle, my girl, because I am beginning to get very +hungry:" + +Mme. Cimme, looking out over the climbing vines bathed in sunlight, and +at the two turtle-doves on the roof opposite, said in an annoyed tone of +voice: + +"What a pity to have had to come for such a sad occasion. It is so nice +in the country to-day." + +Her sister sighed without answering, and Colombel mumbled, thinking +perhaps of the walk ahead of him: + +"My leg certainly is bothering me to-day:" + +Little Joseph and the dog were making a terrible noise; one was shrieking +with pleasure, the other was barking wildly. They were playing hide-and- +seek around the three flower beds, running after each other like mad. + +The dying woman continued to call her children, talking with each one, +imagining that she was dressing them, fondling them, teaching them how to +read: "Come on! Simon repeat: A, B, C, D. You are not paying attention, +listen--D, D, D ; do you hear me? Now repeat--" + +Cimme exclaimed: "Funny what people say when in that condition." + +Mme. Colombel then asked: + +"Wouldn't it be better if we were to return to her?" + +But Cimme dissuaded her from the idea: + +"What's the use? You can't change anything. We are just as comfortable +here." + +Nobody insisted. Mme. Cimme observed the two green birds called love- +birds. In a few words she praised this singular faithfulness and blamed +the men for not imitating these animals. Cimme began to laugh, looked at +his wife and hummed in a teasing way: "Tra-la-la, tra-la-la" as though to +cast a good deal of doubt on his own, Cimme's, faithfulness: + +Colombel was suffering from cramps and was rapping the floor with his +cane. + +The other cat, its tail pointing upright to the sky, now came in. + +They sat down to luncheon at one o'clock. + +As soon as he had tasted the wine, Colombel, for whom only the best of +Bordeaux had been prescribed, called the servant back: + +"I say, my girl, is this the best stuff that you have in the cellar?" + +"No, monsieur; there is some better wine, which was only brought out when +you came." + +"Well, bring us three bottles of it." + +They tasted the wine and found it excellent, not because it was of a +remarkable vintage, but because it had been in the cellar fifteen years. +Cimme declared: + +"That is regular invalid's wine." + +Colombel, filled with an ardent desire to gain possession of this +Bordeaux, once more questioned the girl: + +"How much of it is left?" + +"Oh! Almost all, monsieur; mamz'elle never touched it. It's in the +bottom stack." + +Then he turned to his brother-in-law: + +"If you wish, Cimme, I would be willing to exchange something else for +this wine; it suits my stomach marvellously." + +The chicken had now appeared with its regiment of young ones. The two +women were enjoying themselves throwing crumbs to them. + +Joseph and the dog, who had eaten enough, were sent back to the garden. + +Queen Hortense was still talking, but in a low, hushed voice, so that the +words could no longer be distinguished. + +When they had finished their coffee all went in to observe the condition +of the sick woman. She seemed calm. + +They went outside again and seated themselves in a circle in the garden, +in order to complete their digestion. + +Suddenly the dog, who was carrying something in his mouth, began to run +around the chairs at full speed. The child was chasing him wildly. Both +disappeared into the house. + +Cimme fell asleep, his well-rounded paunch bathed in the glow of the +shining sun. + +The dying woman once more began to talk in a loud voice. Then suddenly +she shrieked. + +The two women and Colombel rushed in to see what was the matter. Cimme, +waking up, did not budge, because, he did not wish to witness such a +scene. + +She was sitting up, with haggard eyes. Her dog, in order to escape being +pursued by little Joseph, had jumped up on the bed, run over the sick +woman, and entrenched behind the pillow, was looking down at his playmate +with snapping eyes, ready to jump down and begin the game again. He was +holding in his mouth one of his mistress' slippers, which he had torn to +pieces and with which he had been playing for the last hour. + +The child, frightened by this woman who had suddenly risen in front of +him, stood motionless before the bed. + +The hen had also come in, and frightened by the noise, had jumped up on a +chair and was wildly calling her chicks, who were chirping distractedly +around the four legs of the chair. + +Queen Hortense was shrieking: + +"No, no, I don't want to die, I don't want to! I don't want to! Who +will bring up my children? Who will take care of them? Who will love +them? No, I don't want to!--I don't----" + +She fell back. All was over. + +The dog, wild with excitement, jumped about the room, barking. + +Colombel ran to the window, calling his brother-in-law: + +"Hurry up, hurry up! I think that she has just gone." + +Then Cimme, resigned, arose and entered the room, mumbling + +"It didn't take as long as I thought it would!" + + + + + + +TIMBUCTOO + +The boulevard, that river of humanity, was alive with people in the +golden light of the setting sun. The whole sky was red, blinding, and +behind the Madeleine an immense bank of flaming clouds cast a shower of +light the whole length of tile boulevard, vibrant as the heat from a +brazier. + +The gay, animated crowd went by in this golden mist and seemed to be +glorified. Their faces were gilded, their black hats and clothes took on +purple tints, the patent leather of their shoes cast bright reflections +on the asphalt of the sidewalk. + +Before the cafes a mass of men were drinking opalescent liquids that +looked like precious stones dissolved in the glasses. + +In the midst of the drinkers two officers in full uniform dazzled all +eyes with their glittering gold lace. They chatted, happy without asking +why, in this glory of life, in this radiant light of sunset, and they +looked at the crowd, the leisurely men and the hurrying women who left a +bewildering odor of perfume as they passed by. + +All at once an enormous negro, dressed in black, with a paunch beneath +his jean waistcoat, which was covered with charms, his face shining as if +it had been polished, passed before them with a triumphant air. He +laughed at the passers-by, at the news venders, at the dazzling sky, at +the whole of Paris. He was so tall that he overtopped everyone else, and +when he passed all the loungers turned round to look at his back. + +But he suddenly perceived the officers and darted towards them, jostling +the drinkers in his path. As soon as he reached their table he fixed his +gleaming and delighted eyes upon them and the corners of his mouth +expanded to his ears, showing his dazzling white teeth like a crescent +moon in a black sky. The two men looked in astonishment at this ebony +giant, unable to understand his delight. + +With a voice that made all the guests laugh, he said: + +"Good-day, my lieutenant." + +One of the officers was commander of a battalion, the other was a +colonel. The former said: + +"I do not know you, sir. I am at a loss to know what you want of me." + +"Me like you much, Lieutenant Vedie, siege of Bezi, much grapes, find +me." + +The officer, utterly bewildered, looked at the man intently, trying to +refresh his memory. Then he cried abruptly: + +"Timbuctoo?" + +The negro, radiant, slapped his thigh as he uttered a tremendous laugh +and roared: + +"Yes, yes, my lieutenant; you remember Timbuctoo, ya. How do you do?" + +The commandant held out his hand, laughing heartily as he did so. Then +Timbuctoo became serious. He seized the officer's hand and, before the +other could prevent it, he kissed it, according to negro and Arab custom. +The officer embarrassed, said in a severe tone: + +"Come now, Timbuctoo, we are not in Africa. Sit down there and tell me +how it is I find you here." + +Timbuctoo swelled himself out and, his words falling over one another, +replied hurriedly: + +"Make much money, much, big restaurant, good food; Prussians, me, much +steal, much, French cooking; Timbuctoo cook to the emperor; two thousand +francs mine. Ha, ha, ha, ha!" + +And he laughed, doubling himself up, roaring, with wild delight in his +glances. + +When the officer, who understood his strange manner of expressing +himself, had questioned him he said: + +"Well, au revoir, Timbuctoo. I will see you again." + +The negro rose, this time shaking the hand that was extended to him and, +smiling still, cried: + +"Good-day, good-day, my lieutenant!" + +He went off so happy that he gesticulated as he walked, and people +thought he was crazy. + +"Who is that brute?" asked the colonel. + +"A fine fellow and a brave soldier. I will tell you what I know about +him. It is funny enough. + +"You know that at the commencement of the war of 1870 I was shut up in +Bezieres, that this negro calls Bezi. We were not besieged, but +blockaded. The Prussian lines surrounded us on all sides, outside the +reach of cannon, not firing on us, but slowly starving us out. + +"I was then lieutenant. Our garrison consisted of soldier of all +descriptions, fragments of slaughtered regiments, some that had run away, +freebooters separated from the main army, etc. We had all kinds, in fact +even eleven Turcos [Algerian soldiers in the service of France], who +arrived one evening no one knew whence or how. They appeared at the +gates of the city, exhausted, in rags, starving and dirty. They were +handed over to me. + +"I saw very soon that they were absolutely undisciplined, always in the +street and always drunk. I tried putting them in the police station, +even in prison, but nothing was of any use. They would disappear, +sometimes for days at a time, as if they had been swallowed up by the +earth, and then come back staggering drunk. They had no money. Where +did they buy drink and how and with what? + +"This began to worry me greatly, all the more as these savages interested +me with their everlasting laugh and their characteristics of overgrown +frolicsome children. + +"I then noticed that they blindly obeyed the largest among them, the one +you have just seen. He made them do as he pleased, planned their +mysterious expeditions with the all-powerful and undisputed authority of +a leader. I sent for him and questioned him. Our conversation lasted +fully three hours, for it was hard for me to understand his remarkable +gibberish. As for him, poor devil, he made unheard-of efforts to make +himself intelligible, invented words, gesticulated, perspired in his +anxiety, mopping his forehead, puffing, stopping and abruptly beginning +again when he thought he had found a new method of explaining what he +wanted to say. + +"I gathered finally that he was the son of a big chief, a sort of negro +king of the region around Timbuctoo. I asked him his name. He repeated +something like 'Chavaharibouhalikranafotapolara.' It seemed simpler to me +to give him the name of his native place, 'Timbuctoo.' And a week later +he was known by no other name in the garrison. + +"But we were all wildly anxious to find out where this African ex-prince +procured his drinks. I discovered it in a singular manner. + +"I was on the ramparts one morning, watching the horizon, when I +perceived something moving about in a vineyard. It was near the time of +vintage, the grapes were ripe, but I was not thinking of that. I thought +that a spy was approaching the town, and I organized a complete +expedition to catch the prowler. I took command myself, after obtaining +permission from the general. + +"I sent out by three different gates three little companies, which were +to meet at the suspected vineyard and form a cordon round it. In order +to cut off the spy's retreat, one of these detachments had to make at +least an hour's march. A watch on the walls signalled to me that the +person I had seen had not left the place. We went along in profound +silence, creeping, almost crawling, along the ditches. At last we +reached the spot assigned. + +"I abruptly disbanded my soldiers, who darted into the vineyard and found +Timbuctoo on hands and knees travelling around among the vines and eating +grapes, or rather devouring them as a dog eats his sop, snatching them in +mouthfuls from the vine with his teeth. + +"I wanted him to get up, but he could not think of it. I then understood +why he was crawling on his hands and knees. As soon as we stood him on +his feet he began to wabble, then stretched out his arms and fell down on +his nose. He was more drunk than I have ever seen anyone. + +"They brought him home on two poles. He never stopped laughing all the +way back, gesticulating with his arms and legs. + +"This explained the mystery. My men also drank the juice of the grapes, +and when they were so intoxicated they could not stir they went to sleep +in the vineyard. As for Timbuctoo, his love of the vineyard was beyond +all belief and all bounds. He lived in it as did the thrushes, whom he +hated with the jealous hate of a rival. He repeated incessantly: 'The +thrushes eat all the grapes, captain!' + +"One evening I was sent for. Something had been seen on the plain coming +in our direction. I had not brought my field-glass and I could not +distinguish things clearly. It looked like a great serpent uncoiling +itself--a convoy. How could I tell? + +"I sent some men to meet this strange caravan, which presently made its +triumphal entry. Timbuctoo and nine of his comrades were carrying on a +sort of altar made of camp stools eight severed, grinning and bleeding +heads. The African was dragging along a horse to whose tail another head +was fastened, and six other animals followed, adorned in the same manner. + +"This is what I learned: Having started out to the vineyard, my Africans +had suddenly perceived a detachment of Prussians approaching a village. +Instead of taking to their heels, they hid themselves, and as soon as the +Prussian officers dismounted at an inn to refresh themselves, the eleven +rascals rushed on them, put to flight the lancers, who thought they were +being attacked by the main army, killed the two sentries, then the +colonel and the five officers of his escort. + +"That day I kissed Timbuctoo. I saw, however, that he walked with +difficulty and thought he was wounded. He laughed and said: + +"'Me provisions for my country.' + +"Timbuctoo was not fighting for glory, but for gain. Everything he found +that seemed to him to be of the slightest value, especially anything that +glistened, he put in his pocket. What a pocket! An abyss that began at +his hips and reached to his ankles. He had retained an old term used by +the troopers and called it his 'profonde,' and it was his 'profonde' in +fact. + +"He had taken the gold lace off the Prussian uniforms, the brass off +their helmets, detached their buttons, etc., and had thrown them all into +his 'profonde,' which was full to overflowing. + +"Each day he pocketed every glistening object that came beneath his +observation, pieces of tin or pieces of silver, and sometimes his contour +was very comical. + +"He intended to carry all that back to the land of ostriches, whose +brother he might have been, this son of a king, tormented with the +longing to gobble up all objects that glistened. If he had not had his +'profonde' what would he have done? He doubtless would have swallowed +them. + +"Each morning his pocket was empty. He had, then, some general store +where his riches were piled up. But where? I could not discover it. + +"The general, on being informed of Timbuctoo's mighty act of valor, had +the headless bodies that had been left in the neighboring village +interred at once, that it might not be discovered that they were +decapitated. The Prussians returned thither the following day. The +mayor and seven prominent inhabitants were shot on the spot, by way of +reprisal, as having denounced the Prussians. + +"Winter was here. We were exhausted and desperate. There were +skirmishes now every day. The famished men could no longer march. The +eight 'Turcos' alone (three had been killed) remained fat and shiny, +vigorous and always ready to fight. Timbuctoo was even getting fatter. +He said to me one day: + +"'You much hungry; me good meat.' + +"And he brought me an excellent filet. But of what? We had no more +cattle, nor sheep, nor goats, nor donkeys, nor pigs. It was impossible +to get a horse. I thought of all this after I had devoured my meat. +Then a horrible idea came to me. These negroes were born close to a +country where they eat human beings! And each day such a number of +soldiers were killed around the town! I questioned Timbuctoo. He would +not answer. I did not insist, but from that time on I declined his +presents. + +"He worshipped me. One night snow took us by surprise at the outposts. +We were seated, on the ground. I looked with pity at those poor negroes +shivering beneath this white frozen shower. I was very cold and began to +cough. At once I felt something fall on me like a large warm quilt. It +was Timbuctoo's cape that he had thrown on my shoulders. + +"I rose and returned his garment, saying: + +"'Keep it, my boy; you need it more than I do.' + +"'Non, my lieutenant, for you; me no need. Me hot, hot!' + +"And he looked at me entreatingly. + +"'Come, obey orders. Keep your cape; I insist,' I replied. + +"He then stood up, drew his sword, which he had sharpened to an edge like +a scythe, and holding in his other hand the large cape which I had +refused, said: + +"'If you not keep cape, me cut. No one cape.' + +"And he would have done it. So I yielded. + + +"Eight days later we capitulated. Some of us had been able to escape, +the rest were to march out of the town and give themselves up to the +conquerors. + +"I went towards the exercising ground, where we were all to meet, when I +was dumfounded at the sight of a gigantic negro dressed in white duck and +wearing a straw hat. It was Timbuctoo. He was beaming and was walking +with his hands in his pockets in front of a little shop where two plates +and two glasses were displayed. + +"'What are you doing?' I said. + +"'Me not go. Me good cook; me make food for Colonel Algeria. Me eat +Prussians; much steal, much.' + +"There were ten degrees of frost. I shivered at sight of this negro in +white duck. He took me by the arm and made me go inside. I noticed an +immense flag that he was going to place outside his door as soon as we +had left, for he had some shame. + +I read this sign, traced by the hand of some accomplice + + "'ARMY KITCHEN OF M. TIMBUCTOO, + "'Formerly Cook to H. M. the Emperor. + "'A Parisian Artist. Moderate Prices.' + +"In spite of the despair that was gnawing at my heart, I could not help +laughing, and I left my negro to his new enterprise. + +"Was not that better than taking him prisoner? + +"You have just seen that he made a success of it, the rascal. + +"Bezieres to-day belongs to the Germans. The 'Restaurant Timbuctoo' is +the beginning of a retaliation." + + + + + + +TOMBSTONES + +The five friends had finished dinner, five men of the world, mature, +rich, three married, the two others bachelors. They met like this every +month in memory of their youth, and after dinner they chatted until two +o'clock in the morning. Having remained intimate friends, and enjoying +each other's society, they probably considered these the pleasantest +evenings of their lives. They talked on every subject, especially of +what interested and amused Parisians. Their conversation was, as in the +majority of salons elsewhere, a verbal rehash of what they had read in +the morning papers. + +One of the most lively of them was Joseph de Bardon, a celibate living +the Parisian life in its fullest and most whimsical manner. He was not a +debauche nor depraved, but a singular, happy fellow, still young, for he +was scarcely forty. A man of the world in its widest and best sense, +gifted with a brilliant, but not profound, mind, with much varied +knowledge, but no true erudition, ready comprehension without true +understanding, he drew from his observations, his adventures, from +everything he saw, met with and found, anecdotes at once comical and +philosophical, and made humorous remarks that gave him a great reputation +for cleverness in society. + +He was the after dinner speaker and had his own story each time, upon +which they counted, and he talked without having to be coaxed. + +As he sat smoking, his elbows on the table, a petit verre half full +beside his plate, half torpid in an atmosphere of tobacco blended with +steaming coffee, he seemed to be perfectly at home. He said between two +whiffs: + +"A curious thing happened to me some time ago." + +"Tell it to us," they all exclaimed at once. + +"With pleasure. You know that I wander about Paris a great deal, like +book collectors who ransack book stalls. I just look at the sights, at +the people, at all that is passing by and all that is going on. + +"Toward the middle of September--it was beautiful weather--I went out one +afternoon, not knowing where I was going. One always has a vague wish to +call on some pretty woman or other. One chooses among them in one's +mental picture gallery, compares them in one's mind, weighs the interest +with which they inspire you, their comparative charms and finally decides +according to the influence of the day. But when the sun is very bright +and the air warm, it takes away from you all desire to make calls. + +"The sun was bright, the air warm. I lighted a cigar and sauntered +aimlessly along the outer boulevard. Then, as I strolled on, it occurred +to me to walk as far as Montmartre and go into the cemetery. + +"I am very fond of cemeteries. They rest me and give me a feeling of +sadness; I need it. And, besides, I have good friends in there, those +that one no longer goes to call on, and I go there from time to time. + +"It is in this cemetery of Montmartre that is buried a romance of my +life, a sweetheart who made a great impression on me, a very emotional, +charming little woman whose memory, although it causes me great sorrow, +also fills me with regrets--regrets of all kinds. And I go to dream +beside her grave. She has finished with life. + +"And then I like cemeteries because they are immense cities filled to +overflowing with inhabitants. Think how many dead people there are in +this small space, think of all the generations of Parisians who are +housed there forever, veritable troglodytes enclosed in their little +vaults, in their little graves covered with a stone or marked by a cross, +while living beings take up so much room and make so much noise-- +imbeciles that they are + +"Then, again, in cemeteries there are monuments almost as interesting as +in museums. The tomb of Cavaignac reminded me, I must confess without +making any comparison, of the chef d'oeuvre of Jean Goujon: the recumbent +statue of Louis de Breze in the subterranean chapel of the Cathedral of +Rouen. All modern and realistic art has originated there, messieurs. +This dead man, Louis de Breze, is more real, more terrible, more like +inanimate flesh still convulsed with the death agony than all the +tortured corpses that are distorted to-day in funeral monuments. + +"But in Montmartre one can yet admire Baudin's monument, which has a +degree of grandeur; that of Gautier, of Murger, on which I saw the other +day a simple, paltry wreath of immortelles, yellow immortelles, brought +thither by whom? Possibly by the last grisette, very old and now +janitress in the neighborhood. It is a pretty little statue by Millet, +but ruined by dirt and neglect. Sing of youth, O Murger! + +"Well, there I was in Montmartre Cemetery, and was all at once filled +with sadness, a sadness that is not all pain, a kind of sadness that +makes you think when you are in good health, 'This place is not amusing, +but my time has not come yet.' + +"The feeling of autumn, of the warm moisture which is redolent of the +death of the leaves, and the weakened, weary, anaemic sun increased, +while rendering it poetical, the sensation of solitude and of finality +that hovered over this spot which savors of human mortality. + +"I walked along slowly amid these streets of tombs, where the neighbors +do not visit each other, do not sleep together and do not read the +newspapers. And I began to read the epitaphs. That is the most amusing +thing in the world. Never did Labiche or Meilhac make me laugh as I have +laughed at the comical inscriptions on tombstones. Oh, how much superior +to the books of Paul de Kock for getting rid of the spleen are these +marble slabs and these crosses where the relatives of the deceased have +unburdened their sorrow, their desires for the happiness of the vanished +ones and their hope of rejoining them--humbugs! + +"But I love above all in this cemetery the deserted portion, solitary, +full of great yews and cypresses, the older portion, belonging to those +dead long since, and which will soon be taken into use again; the growing +trees nourished by the human corpses cut down in order to bury in rows +beneath little slabs of marble those who have died more recently. + +"When I had sauntered about long enough to refresh my mind I felt that I +would soon have had enough of it and that I must place the faithful +homage of my remembrance on my little friend's last resting place. I +felt a tightening of the heart as I reached her grave. Poor dear, she +was so dainty, so loving and so white and fresh--and now--if one should +open the grave---- + +"Leaning over the iron grating, I told her of my sorrow in a low tone, +which she doubtless did not hear, and was moving away when I saw a woman +in black, in deep mourning, kneeling on the next grave. Her crape veil +was turned back, uncovering a pretty fair head, the hair in Madonna bands +looking like rays of dawn beneath her sombre headdress. I stayed. + +"Surely she must be in profound grief. She had covered her face with her +hands and, standing there in meditation, rigid as a statue, given up to +her grief, telling the sad rosary of her remembrances within the shadow +of her concealed and closed eyes, she herself seemed like a dead person +mourning another who was dead. All at once a little motion of her back, +like a flutter of wind through a willow, led me to suppose that she was +going to cry. She wept softly at first, then louder, with quick motions +of her neck and shoulders. Suddenly she uncovered her eyes. They were +full of tears and charming, the eyes of a bewildered woman, with which +she glanced about her as if awaking from a nightmare. She looked at me, +seemed abashed and hid her face completely in her hands. Then she sobbed +convulsively, and her head slowly bent down toward the marble. She +leaned her forehead on it, and her veil spreading around her, covered the +white corners of the beloved tomb, like a fresh token of mourning. +I heard her sigh, then she sank down with her cheek on the marble slab +and remained motionless, unconscious. + +"I darted toward her, slapped her hands, blew on her eyelids, while I +read this simple epitaph: 'Here lies Louis-Theodore Carrel, Captain of +Marine Infantry, killed by the enemy at Tonquin. Pray for him.' + +"He had died some months before. I was affected to tears and redoubled +my attentions. They were successful. She regained consciousness. +I appeared very much moved. I am not bad looking, I am not forty. I saw +by her first glance that she would be polite and grateful. She was, and +amid more tears she told me her history in detached fragments as well as +her gasping breath would allow, how the officer was killed at Tonquin +when they had been married a year, how she had married him for love, and +being an orphan, she had only the usual dowry. + +"I consoled her, I comforted her, raised her and lifted her on her feet. +Then I said: + +"'Do not stay here. Come.' + +"'I am unable to walk,' she murmured. + +"'I will support you.' + +"'Thank you, sir; you are good. Did you also come to mourn for some +one?' + +"'Yes, madame.' + +"'A dead friend?' + +"'Yes, madame.' + +"'Your wife?' + +"'A friend.' + +"'One may love a friend as much as they love their wife. Love has no +law.' + +"'Yes, madame.' + +"And we set off together, she leaning on my arm, while I almost carried +her along the paths of the cemetery. When we got outside she faltered: + +"'I feel as if I were going to be ill.' + +"'Would you like to go in anywhere, to take something?' + +"'Yes, monsieur.' + +"I perceived a restaurant, one of those places where the mourners of the +dead go to celebrate the funeral. We went in. I made her drink a cup of +hot tea, which seemed to revive her. A faint smile came to her lips. +She began to talk about herself. It was sad, so sad to be always alone +in life, alone in one's home, night and day, to have no one on whom one +can bestow affection, confidence, intimacy. + +"That sounded sincere. It sounded pretty from her mouth. I was touched. +She was very young, perhaps twenty. I paid her compliments, which she +took in good part. Then, as time was passing, I suggested taking her +home in a carriage. She accepted, and in the cab we sat so close that +our shoulders touched. + +"When the cab stopped at her house she murmured: 'I do not feel equal to +going upstairs alone, for I live on the fourth floor. You have been so +good. Will you let me take your arm as far as my own door?' + +"I agreed with eagerness. She ascended the stairs slowly, breathing +hard. Then, as we stood at her door, she said: + +"'Come in a few moments so that I may thank you.' + +"And, by Jove, I went in. Everything was modest, even rather poor, but +simple and in good taste. + +"We sat down side by side on a little sofa and she began to talk again +about her loneliness. She rang for her maid, in order to offer me some +wine. The maid did not come. I was delighted, thinking that this maid +probably came in the morning only, what one calls a charwoman. + +"She had taken off her hat. She was really pretty, and she gazed at me +with her clear eyes, gazed so hard and her eyes were so clear that I was +terribly tempted. I caught her in my arms and rained kisses on her +eyelids, which she closed suddenly. + +"She freed herself and pushed me away, saying: + +"'Have done, have done.' + +"But I next kissed her on the mouth and she did not resist, and as our +glances met after thus outraging the memory of the captain killed in +Tonquin, I saw that she had a languid, resigned expression that set my +mind at rest. + +"I became very attentive and, after chatting for some time, I said: + +"'Where do you dine?' + +"'In a little restaurant in the neighborhood: + +"'All alone?' + +"'Why, yes.' + +"'Will you dine with me?' + +"'Where?' + +"'In a good restaurant on the Boulevard.' + +"She demurred a little. I insisted. She yielded, saying by way of +apology to herself: 'I am so lonely--so lonely.' Then she added: + +"'I must put on something less sombre, and went into her bedroom. When +she reappeared she was dressed in half-mourning, charming, dainty and +slender in a very simple gray dress. She evidently had a costume for the +cemetery and one for the town. + +"The dinner was very enjoyable. She drank some champagne, brightened up, +grew lively and I went home with her. + +"This friendship, begun amid the tombs, lasted about three weeks. But +one gets tired of everything, especially of women. I left her under +pretext of an imperative journey. She made me promise that I would come +and see her on my return. She seemed to be really rather attached to me. + +"Other things occupied my attention, and it was about a month before I +thought much about this little cemetery friend. However, I did not +forget her. The recollection of her haunted me like a mystery, like a +psychological problem, one of those inexplicable questions whose solution +baffles us. + +"I do not know why, but one day I thought I might possibly meet her in +the Montmartre Cemetery, and I went there. + +"I walked about a long time without meeting any but the ordinary visitors +to this spot, those who have not yet broken off all relations with their +dead. The grave of the captain killed at Tonquin had no mourner on its +marble slab, no flowers, no wreath. + +"But as I wandered in another direction of this great city of the dead I +perceived suddenly, at the end of a narrow avenue of crosses, a couple in +deep mourning walking toward me, a man and a woman. Oh, horrors! As +they approached I recognized her. It was she! + +"She saw me, blushed, and as I brushed past her she gave me a little +signal, a tiny little signal with her eye, which meant: 'Do not recognize +me!' and also seemed to say, 'Come back to see me again, my dear!' + +"The man was a gentleman, distingue, chic, an officer of the Legion of +Honor, about fifty years old. He was supporting her as I had supported +her myself when we were leaving the cemetery. + +"I went my way, filled with amazement, asking myself what this all meant, +to what race of beings belonged this huntress of the tombs? Was she just +a common girl, one who went to seek among the tombs for men who were in +sorrow, haunted by the recollection of some woman, a wife or a +sweetheart, and still troubled by the memory of vanished caresses? Was +she unique? Are there many such? Is it a profession? Do they parade +the cemetery as they parade the street? Or else was she only impressed +with the admirable, profoundly philosophical idea of exploiting love +recollections, which are revived in these funereal places? + +"And I would have liked to know whose widow she was on that special day." + + + + + + +MADEMOISELLE PEARL + + +I + +What a strange idea it was for me to choose Mademoiselle Pearl for queen +that evening! + +Every year I celebrate Twelfth Night with my old friend Chantal. My +father, who was his most intimate friend, used to take me round there +when I was a child. I continued the custom, and I doubtless shall +continue it as long as I live and as long as there is a Chantal in this +world. + +The Chantals lead a peculiar existence; they live in Paris as though they +were in Grasse, Evetot, or Pont-a-Mousson. + +They have a house with a little garden near the observatory. They live +there as though they were in the country. Of Paris, the real Paris, they +know nothing at all, they suspect nothing; they are so far, so far away! +However, from time to time, they take a trip into it. Mademoiselle +Chantal goes to lay in her provisions, as it is called in the family. +This is how they go to purchase their provisions: + +Mademoiselle Pearl, who has the keys to the kitchen closet (for the linen +closets are administered by the mistress herself), Mademoiselle Pearl +gives warning that the supply of sugar is low, that the preserves are +giving out, that there is not much left in the bottom of the coffee bag. +Thus warned against famine, Mademoiselle Chantal passes everything in +review, taking notes on a pad. Then she puts down a lot of figures and +goes through lengthy calculations and long discussions with Mademoiselle +Pearl. At last they manage to agree, and they decide upon the quantity +of each thing of which they will lay in a three months' provision; sugar, +rice, prunes, coffee, preserves, cans of peas, beans, lobster, salt or +smoked fish, etc., etc. After which the day for the purchasing is +determined on and they go in a cab with a railing round the top and drive +to a large grocery store on the other side of the river in the new +sections of the town. + +Madame Chantal and Mademoiselle Pearl make this trip together, +mysteriously, and only return at dinner time, tired out, although still +excited, and shaken up by the cab, the roof of which is covered with +bundles and bags, like an express wagon. + +For the Chantals all that part of Paris situated on the other side of the +Seine constitutes the new quarter, a section inhabited by a strange, +noisy population, which cares little for honor, spends its days in +dissipation, its nights in revelry, and which throws money out of the +windows. From time to time, however, the young girls are taken to the +Opera-Comique or the Theatre Francais, when the play is recommended by +the paper which is read by M. Chantal. + +At present the young ladies are respectively nineteen and seventeen. +They are two pretty girls, tall and fresh, very well brought up, in fact, +too well brought up, so much so that they pass by unperceived like two +pretty dolls. Never would the idea come to me to pay the slightest +attention or to pay court to one of the young Chantal ladies; they are so +immaculate that one hardly dares speak to them; one almost feels indecent +when bowing to them. + +As for the father, he is a charming man, well educated, frank, cordial, +but he likes calm and quiet above all else, and has thus contributed +greatly to the mummifying of his family in order to live as he pleased in +stagnant quiescence. He reads a lot, loves to talk and is readily +affected. Lack of contact and of elbowing with the world has made his +moral skin very tender and sensitive. The slightest thing moves him, +excites him, and makes him suffer. + +The Chantals have limited connections carefully chosen in the +neighborhood. They also exchange two or three yearly visits with +relatives who live in the distance. + +As for me, I take dinner with them on the fifteenth of August and on +Twelfth Night. That is as much one of my duties as Easter communion is +for a Catholic. + +On the fifteenth of August a few friends are invited, but on Twelfth +Night I am the only stranger. + +Well, this year, as every former year, I went to the Chantals' for my +Epiphany dinner. + +According to my usual custom, I kissed M. Chantal, Madame Chantal and +Mademoiselle Pearl, and I made a deep bow to the Misses Louise and +Pauline. I was questioned about a thousand and one things, about what +had happened on the boulevards, about politics, about how matters stood +in Tong-King, and about our representatives in Parliament. Madame +Chantal, a fat lady, whose ideas always gave me the impression of being +carved out square like building stones, was accustomed to exclaiming at +the end of every political discussion: "All that is seed which does not +promise much for the future!" Why have I always imagined that Madame +Chantal's ideas are square? I don't know; but everything that she says +takes that shape in my head: a big square, with four symmetrical angles. +There are other people whose ideas always strike me as being round and +rolling like a hoop. As soon as they begin a sentence on any subject it +rolls on and on, coming out in ten, twenty, fifty round ideas, large and +small, which I see rolling along, one behind the other, to the end of the +horizon. Other people have pointed ideas--but enough of this. + +We sat down as usual and finished our dinner without anything out of the +ordinary being said. At dessert the Twelfth Night cake was brought on. +Now, M. Chantal had been king every year. I don't know whether this was +the result of continued chance or a family convention, but he unfailingly +found the bean in his piece of cake, and he would proclaim Madame Chantal +to be queen. Therefore, I was greatly surprised to find something very +hard, which almost made me break a tooth, in a mouthful of cake. Gently +I took this thing from my mouth and I saw that it was a little porcelain +doll, no bigger than a bean. Surprise caused me to exclaim: + +"Ah!" All looked at me, and Chantal clapped his hands and cried: "It's +Gaston! It's Gaston! Long live the king! Long live the king!" + +All took up the chorus: "Long live the king!" And I blushed to the tip of +my ears, as one often does, without any reason at all, in situations +which are a little foolish. I sat there looking at my plate, with this +absurd little bit of pottery in my fingers, forcing myself to laugh and +not knowing what to do or say, when Chantal once more cried out: "Now, +you must choose a queen!" + +Then I was thunderstruck. In a second a thousand thoughts and +suppositions flashed through my mind. Did they expect me to pick out one +of the young Chantal ladies? Was that a trick to make me say which one I +prefer? Was it a gentle, light, direct hint of the parents toward a +possible marriage? The idea of marriage roams continually in houses with +grown-up girls, and takes every shape and disguise, and employs every +subterfuge. A dread of compromising myself took hold of me as well as an +extreme timidity before the obstinately correct and reserved attitude of +the Misses Louise and Pauline. To choose one of them in preference to +the other seemed to me as difficult as choosing between two drops of +water; and then the fear of launching myself into an affair which might, +in spite of me, lead me gently into matrimonial ties, by means as wary +and imperceptible and as calm as this insignificant royalty--the fear of +all this haunted me. + +Suddenly I had an inspiration, and I held out to Mademoiselle Pearl the +symbolical emblem. At first every one was surprised, then they doubtless +appreciated my delicacy and discretion, for they applauded furiously. +Everybody was crying: "Long live the queen! Long live the queen!" + +As for herself, poor old maid, she was so amazed that she completely lost +control of herself; she was trembling and stammering: "No--no--oh! no-- +not me--please--not me--I beg of you----" + +Then for the first time in my life I looked at Mademoiselle Pearl and +wondered what she was. + +I was accustomed to seeing her in this house, just as one sees old +upholstered armchairs on which one has been sitting since childhood +without ever noticing them. One day, with no reason at all, because a +ray of sunshine happens to strike the seat, you suddenly think: "Why, +that chair is very curious"; and then you discover that the wood has been +worked by a real artist and that the material is remarkable. I had never +taken any notice of Mademoiselle Pearl. + +She was a part of the Chantal family, that was all. But how? By what +right? She was a tall, thin person who tried to remain in the +background, but who was by no means insignificant. She was treated in a +friendly manner, better than a housekeeper, not so well as a relative. +I suddenly observed several shades of distinction which I had never +noticed before. Madame Chantal said: "Pearl." The young ladies: +"Mademoiselle Pearl," and Chantal only addressed her as "Mademoiselle," +with an air of greater respect, perhaps. + +I began to observe her. How old could she be? Forty? Yes, forty. She +was not old, she made herself old. I was suddenly struck by this fact. +She fixed her hair and dressed in a ridiculous manner, and, +notwithstanding all that, she was not in the least ridiculous, she had +such simple, natural gracefulness, veiled and hidden. Truly, what a +strange creature! How was it I had never observed her before? She +dressed her hair in a grotesque manner with little old maid curls, most +absurd; but beneath this one could see a large, calm brow, cut by two +deep lines, two wrinkles of long sadness, then two blue eyes, large and +tender, so timid, so bashful, so humble, two beautiful eyes which had +kept the expression of naive wonder of a young girl, of youthful +sensations, and also of sorrow, which had softened without spoiling them. + +Her whole face was refined and discreet, a face the expression of which +seemed to have gone out without being used up or faded by the fatigues +and great emotions of life. + +What a dainty mouth! and such pretty teeth! But one would have thought +that she did not dare smile. + +Suddenly I compared her to Madame Chantal! Undoubtedly Mademoiselle +Pearl was the better of the two, a hundred times better, daintier, +prouder, more noble. I was surprised at my observation. They were +pouring out champagne. I held my glass up to the queen and, with a well- +turned compliment, I drank to her health. I could see that she felt +inclined to hide her head in her napkin. Then, as she was dipping her +lips in the clear wine, everybody cried: "The queen drinks! the queen +drinks!" She almost turned purple and choked. Everybody was laughing; +but I could see that all loved her. + +As soon as dinner was over Chantal took me by the arm. It was time for +his cigar, a sacred hour. When alone he would smoke it out in the +street; when guests came to dinner he would take them to the billiard +room and smoke while playing. That evening they had built a fire to +celebrate Twelfth Night; my old friend took his cue, a very fine one, and +chalked it with great care; then he said: + +"You break, my boy!" + +He called me "my boy," although I was twenty-five, but he had known me as +a young child. + +I started the game and made a few carroms. I missed some others, but as +the thought of Mademoiselle Pearl kept returning to my mind, I suddenly +asked: + +"By the way, Monsieur Chantal, is Mademoiselle Pearl a relative of +yours?" + +Greatly surprised, he stopped playing and looked at me: + +"What! Don't you know? Haven't you heard about Mademoiselle Pearl?" + +"No." + +"Didn't your father ever tell you?" + +"No." + +"Well, well, that's funny! That certainly is funny! Why, it's a regular +romance!" + +He paused, and then continued: + +"And if you only knew how peculiar it is that you should ask me that to- +day, on Twelfth Night!" + +"Why?" + +"Why? Well, listen. Forty-one years ago to day, the day of the +Epiphany, the following events occurred: We were then living at Roiiy-le- +Tors, on the ramparts; but in order that you may understand, I must first +explain the house. Roily is built on a hill, or, rather, on a mound +which overlooks a great stretch of prairie. We had a house there with a +beautiful hanging garden supported by the old battlemented wall; so that +the house was in the town on the streets, while the garden overlooked the +plain. There was a door leading from the garden to the open country, at +the bottom of a secret stairway in the thick wall--the kind you read +about in novels. A road passed in front of this door, which was provided +with a big bell; for the peasants, in order to avoid the roundabout way, +would bring their provisions up this way. + +"You now understand the place, don't you? Well, this year, at Epiphany, +it had been snowing for a week. One might have thought that the world +was coming to an end. When we went to the ramparts to look over the +plain, this immense white, frozen country, which shone like varnish, +would chill our very souls. One might have thought that the Lord had +packed the world in cotton to put it away in the storeroom for old +worlds. I can assure you that it was dreary looking. + +"We were a very numerous family at that time my father, my mother, my +uncle and aunt, my two brothers and four cousins; they were pretty little +girls; I married the youngest. Of all that crowd, there are only three +of us left: my wife, I, and my sister-in-law, who lives in Marseilles. +Zounds! how quickly a family like that dwindles away! I tremble when I +think of it! I was fifteen years old then, since I am fifty-six now. + +"We were going to celebrate the Epiphany, and we were all happy, very +happy! Everybody was in the parlor, awaiting dinner, and my oldest +brother, Jacques, said: 'There has been a dog howling out in the plain +for about ten minutes; the poor beast must be lost.' + +"He had hardly stopped talking when the garden bell began to ring. It +had the deep sound of a church bell, which made one think of death. A +shiver ran through everybody. My father called the servant and told him +to go outside and look. We waited in complete silence; we were thinking +of the snow which covered the ground. When the man returned he declared +that he had seen nothing. The dog kept up its ceaseless howling, and +always from the same spot. + +"We sat down to dinner; but we were all uneasy, especially the young +people. Everything went well up to the roast, then the bell began to +ring again, three times in succession, three heavy, long strokes which +vibrated to the tips of our fingers and which stopped our conversation +short. We sat there looking at each other, fork in the air, still +listening, and shaken by a kind of supernatural fear. + +"At last my mother spoke: 'It's surprising that they should have waited +so long to come back. Do not go alone, Baptiste; one of these gentlemen +will accompany you.' + +"My Uncle Francois arose. He was a kind of Hercules, very proud of his +strength, and feared nothing in the world. My father said to him: 'Take +a gun. There is no telling what it might be.' + +"But my uncle only took a cane and went out with the servant. + +"We others remained there trembling with fear and apprehension, without +eating or speaking. My father tried to reassure us: 'Just wait and see,' +he said; 'it will be some beggar or some traveller lost in the snow. +After ringing once, seeing that the door was not immediately opened, he +attempted again to find his way, and being unable to, he has returned to +our door.' + +"Our uncle seemed to stay away an hour. At last he came back, furious, +swearing: 'Nothing at all; it's some practical joker! There is nothing +but that damned dog howling away at about a hundred yards from the walls. +If I had taken a gun I would have killed him to make him keep quiet.' + +"We sat down to dinner again, but every one was excited; we felt that all +was not over, that something was going to happen, that the bell would +soon ring again. + +"It rang just as the Twelfth Night cake was being cut. All the men +jumped up together. My Uncle, Francois, who had been drinking champagne, +swore so furiously that he would murder it, whatever it might be, that my +mother and my aunt threw themselves on him to prevent his going. My +father, although very calm and a little helpless (he limped ever since he +had broken his leg when thrown by a horse), declared, in turn, that he +wished to find out what was the matter and that he was going. My +brothers, aged eighteen and twenty, ran to get their guns; and as no one +was paying any attention to me I snatched up a little rifle that was used +in the garden and got ready to accompany the expedition. + +"It started out immediately. My father and uncle were walking ahead with +Baptiste, who was carrying a lantern. My brothers, Jacques and Paul, +followed, and I trailed on behind in spite of the prayers of my mother, +who stood in front of the house with her sister and my cousins. + +"It had been snowing again for the last hour, and the trees were weighted +down. The pines were bending under this heavy, white garment, and looked +like white pyramids or enormous sugar cones, and through the gray +curtains of small hurrying flakes could be seen the lighter bushes which +stood out pale in the shadow. The snow was falling so thick that we +could hardly see ten feet ahead of us. But the lantern threw a bright +light around us. When we began to go down the winding stairway in the +wall I really grew frightened. I felt as though some one were walking +behind me, were going to grab me by the shoulders and carry me away, and +I felt a strong desire to return; but, as I would have had to cross the +garden all alone, I did not dare. I heard some one opening the door +leading to the plain; my uncle began to swear again, exclaiming: 'By ---! +He has gone again! If I can catch sight of even his shadow, I'll take +care not to miss him, the swine!' + +"It was a discouraging thing to see this great expanse of plain, or, +rather, to feel it before us, for we could not see it; we could only see +a thick, endless veil of snow, above, below, opposite us, to the right, +to the left, everywhere. My uncle continued: + +'Listen! There is the dog howling again; I will teach him how I shoot. +That will be something gained, anyhow.' + +"But my father, who was kind-hearted, went on: + +'It will be much better to go on and get the poor animal, who is crying +for hunger. The poor fellow is barking for help; he is calling like a +man in distress. Let us go to him.' + +"So we started out through this mist, through this thick continuous fall +of snow, which filled the air, which moved, floated, fell, and chilled +the skin with a burning sensation like a sharp, rapid pain as each flake +melted. We were sinking in up to our knees in this soft, cold mass, and +we had to lift our feet very high in order to walk. As we advanced the +dog's voice became clearer and stronger. My uncle cried: 'Here he is!' +We stopped to observe him as one does when he meets an enemy at night. + +"I could see nothing, so I ran up to the others, and I caught sight of +him; he was frightful and weird-looking; he was a big black shepherd's +dog with long hair and a wolf's head, standing just within the gleam of +light cast by our lantern on the snow. He did not move; he was silently +watching us. + +"My uncle said: 'That's peculiar, he is neither advancing nor retreating. +I feel like taking a shot at him.' + +"My father answered in a firm voice: 'No, we must capture him.' + +"Then my brother Jacques added: 'But he is not alone. There is something +behind him." + +"There was indeed something behind him, something gray, impossible to +distinguish. We started out again cautiously. When he saw us +approaching the dog sat down. He did not look wicked. Instead, he +seemed pleased at having been able to attract the attention of some one. + +"My father went straight to him and petted him. The dog licked his +hands. We saw that he was tied to the wheel of a little carriage, a sort +of toy carriage entirely wrapped up in three or four woolen blankets. +We carefully took off these coverings, and as Baptiste approached his +lantern to the front of this little vehicle, which looked like a rolling +kennel, we saw in it a little baby sleeping peacefully. + +"We were so astonished that we couldn't speak. + +My father was the first to collect his wits, and as he had a warm heart +and a broad mind, he stretched his hand over the roof of the carriage and +said: 'Poor little waif, you shall be one of us!' And he ordered my +brother Jacques to roll the foundling ahead of us. Thinking out loud, my +father continued: + +"'Some child of love whose poor mother rang at my door on this night of +Epiphany in memory of the Child of God.' + +"He once more stopped and called at the top of his lungs through the +night to the four corners of the heavens: 'We have found it!' Then, +putting his hand on his brother's shoulder, he murmured: 'What if you had +shot the dog, Francois?' + +"My uncle did not answer, but in the darkness he crossed himself, for, +notwithstanding his blustering manner, he was very religious. + +"The dog, which had been untied, was following us. + +"Ah! But you should have seen us when we got to the house! At first we +had a lot of trouble in getting the carriage up through the winding +stairway; but we succeeded and even rolled it into the vestibule. + +"How funny mamma was! How happy and astonished! And my four little +cousins (the youngest was only six), they looked like four chickens +around a nest. At last we took the child from the carriage. It was +still sleeping. It was a girl about six weeks old. In its clothes we +found ten thousand francs in gold, yes, my boy, ten thousand francs!-- +which papa saved for her dowry. Therefore, it was not a child of poor +people, but, perhaps, the child of some nobleman and a little bourgeoise +of the town--or again--we made a thousand suppositions, but we never +found out anything-never the slightest clue. The dog himself was +recognized by no one. He was a stranger in the country. At any rate, +the person who rang three times at our door must have known my parents +well, to have chosen them thus. + +"That is how, at the age of six weeks, Mademoiselle Pearl entered the +Chantal household. + +"It was not until later that she was called Mademoiselle Pearl. She was +at first baptized 'Marie Simonne Claire,' Claire being intended, for her +family name. + +"I can assure you that our return to the diningroom was amusing, with +this baby now awake and looking round her at these people and these +lights with her vague blue questioning eyes. + +"We sat down to dinner again and the cake was cut. I was king, and for +queen I took Mademoiselle Pearl, just as you did to-day. On that day she +did not appreciate the honor that was being shown her. + +"Well, the child was adopted and brought up in the family. She grew, and +the years flew by. She was so gentle and loving and minded so well that +every one would have spoiled her abominably had not my mother prevented +it. + +"My mother was an orderly woman with a great respect for class +distinctions. She consented to treat little Claire as she did her own +sons, but, nevertheless, she wished the distance which separated us to be +well marked, and our positions well established. Therefore, as soon as +the child could understand, she acquainted her with her story and gently, +even tenderly, impressed on the little one's mind that, for the Chantals, +she was an adopted daughter, taken in, but, nevertheless, a stranger. +Claire understood the situation with peculiar intelligence and with +surprising instinct; she knew how to take the place which was allotted +her, and to keep it with so much tact, gracefulness and gentleness that +she often brought tears to my father's eyes. My mother herself was often +moved by the passionate gratitude and timid devotion of this dainty and +loving little creature that she began calling her: 'My daughter.' At +times, when the little one had done something kind and good, my mother +would raise her spectacles on her forehead, a thing which always +indicated emotion with her, and she would repeat: 'This child is a pearl, +a perfect pearl!' This name stuck to the little Claire, who became and +remained for us Mademoiselle Pearl." + + +II + +M. Chantal stopped. He was sitting on the edge of the billiard table, +his feet hanging, and was playing with a ball with his left hand, while +with his right he crumpled a rag which served to rub the chalk marks from +the slate. A little red in the face, his voice thick, he was talking +away to himself now, lost in his memories, gently drifting through the +old scenes and events which awoke in his mind, just as we walk through +old family gardens where we were brought up and where each tree, each +walk, each hedge reminds us of some occurrence. + +I stood opposite him leaning against the wall, my hands resting on my +idle cue. + +After a slight pause he continued: + +"By Jove! She was pretty at eighteen--and graceful--and perfect. Ah! +She was so sweet--and good and true--and charming! She had such eyes- +blue-transparent--clear--such eyes as I have never seen since!" + +He was once more silent. I asked: "Why did she never marry?" + +He answered, not to me, but to the word "marry" which had caught his ear: +"Why? why? She never would--she never would! She had a dowry of thirty +thousand francs, and she received several offers--but she never would! +She seemed sad at that time. That was when I married my cousin, little +Charlotte, my wife, to whom I had been engaged for six years." + +I looked at M. Chantal, and it seemed to me that I was looking into his +very soul, and I was suddenly witnessing one of those humble and cruel +tragedies of honest, straightforward, blameless hearts, one of those +secret tragedies known to no one, not even the silent and resigned +victims. A rash curiosity suddenly impelled me to exclaim: + +"You should have married her, Monsieur Chantal!" + +He started, looked at me, and said: + +"I? Marry whom?" + +"Mademoiselle Pearl." + +"Why?" + +"Because you loved her more than your cousin." + +He stared at me with strange, round, bewildered eyes and stammered: + +"I loved her--I? How? Who told you that?" + +"Why, anyone can see that--and it's even on account of her that you +delayed for so long your marriage to your cousin who had been waiting for +you for six years." + +He dropped the ball which he was holding in his left hand, and, seizing +the chalk rag in both hands, he buried his face in it and began to sob. +He was weeping with his eyes, nose and mouth in a heartbreaking yet +ridiculous manner, like a sponge which one squeezes. He was coughing, +spitting and blowing his nose in the chalk rag, wiping his eyes and +sneezing; then the tears would again begin to flow down the wrinkles on +his face and he would make a strange gurgling noise in his throat. +I felt bewildered, ashamed; I wanted to run away, and I no longer knew +what to say, do, or attempt. + +Suddenly Madame Chantal's voice sounded on the stairs. "Haven't you men +almost finished smoking your cigars?" + +I opened the door and cried: "Yes, madame, we are coming right down." + +Then I rushed to her husband, and, seizing him by the shoulders, I cried: +"Monsieur Chantal, my friend Chantal, listen to me; your wife is calling; +pull yourself together, we must go downstairs." + +He stammered: "Yes--yes--I am coming--poor girl! I am coming--tell her +that I am coming." + +He began conscientiously to wipe his face on the cloth which, for the +last two or three years, had been used for marking off the chalk from the +slate; then he appeared, half white and half red, his forehead, nose, +cheeks and chin covered with chalk, and his eyes swollen, still full of +tears. + +I caught him by the hands and dragged him into his bedroom, muttering: "I +beg your pardon, I beg your pardon, Monsieur Chantal, for having caused +you such sorrow--but--I did not know--you--you understand." + +He squeezed my hand, saying: "Yes--yes--there are difficult moments." + +Then he plunged his face into a bowl of water. When he emerged from it +he did not yet seem to me to be presentable; but I thought of a little +stratagem. As he was growing worried, looking at himself in the mirror, +I said to him: "All you have to do is to say that a little dust flew into +your eye and you can cry before everybody to your heart's content." + +He went downstairs rubbing his eyes with his handkerchief. All were +worried; each one wished to look for the speck, which could not be found; +and stories were told of similar cases where it had been necessary to +call in a physician. + +I went over to Mademoiselle Pearl and watched her, tormented by an ardent +curiosity, which was turning to positive suffering. She must indeed have +been pretty, with her gentle, calm eyes, so large that it looked as +though she never closed them like other mortals. Her gown was a little +ridiculous, a real old maid's gown, which was unbecoming without +appearing clumsy. + +It seemed to me as though I were looking into her soul, just as I had +into Monsieur Chantal's; that I was looking right from one end to the +other of this humble life, so simple and devoted. I felt an irresistible +longing to question her, to find out whether she, too, had loved him; +whether she also had suffered, as he had, from this long, secret, +poignant grief, which one cannot see, know, or guess, but which breaks +forth at night in the loneliness of the dark room. I was watching her, +and I could observe her heart beating under her waist, and I wondered +whether this sweet, candid face had wept on the soft pillow and she had +sobbed, her whole body shaken by the violence of her anguish. + +I said to her in a low voice, like a child who is breaking a toy to see +what is inside: "If you could have seen Monsieur Chantal crying a while +ago it would have moved you." + +She started, asking: "What? He was weeping?" + +"Ah, yes, he was indeed weeping!" + +"Why?" + +She seemed deeply moved. I answered: + +"On your account." + +"On my account?" + +"Yes. He was telling me how much he had loved you in the days gone by; +and what a pang it had given him to marry his cousin instead of you." + +Her pale face seemed to grow a little longer; her calm eyes, which always +remained open, suddenly closed so quickly that they seemed shut forever. +She slipped from her chair to the floor, and slowly, gently sank down as +would a fallen garment. + +I cried: "Help! help! Mademoiselle Pearl is ill." + +Madame Chantal and her daughters rushed forward, and while they were +looking for towels, water and vinegar, I grabbed my hat and ran away. + +I walked away with rapid strides, my heart heavy, my mind full of remorse +and regret. And yet sometimes I felt pleased; I felt as though I had +done a praiseworthy and necessary act. I was asking myself: "Did I do +wrong or right?" They had that shut up in their hearts, just as some +people carry a bullet in a closed wound. Will they not be happier now? +It was too late for their torture to begin over again and early enough +for them to remember it with tenderness. + +And perhaps some evening next spring, moved by a beam of moonlight +falling through the branches on the grass at their feet, they will join +and press their hands in memory of all this cruel and suppressed +suffering; and, perhaps, also this short embrace may infuse in their +veins a little of this thrill which they would not have known without it, +and will give to those two dead souls, brought to life in a second, the +rapid and divine sensation of this intoxication, of this madness which +gives to lovers more happiness in an instant than other men can gather +during a whole lifetime! + + + + + + +THE THIEF + +While apparently thinking of something else, Dr. Sorbier had been +listening quietly to those amazing accounts of burglaries and daring +deeds that might have been taken from the trial of Cartouche. +"Assuredly," he exclaimed, "assuredly, I know of no viler fault nor any +meaner action than to attack a girl's innocence, to corrupt her, to +profit by a moment of unconscious weakness and of madness, when her heart +is beating like that of a frightened fawn, and her pure lips seek those +of her tempter; when she abandons herself without thinking of the +irremediable stain, nor of her fall, nor of the morrow. + +"The man who has brought this about slowly, viciously, who can tell with +what science of evil, and who, in such a case, has not steadiness and +self-restraint enough to quench that flame by some icy words, who has not +sense enough for two, who cannot recover his self-possession and master +the runaway brute within him, and who loses his head on the edge of the +precipice over which she is going to fall, is as contemptible as any man +who breaks open a lock, or as any rascal on the lookout for a house left +defenceless and unprotected or for some easy and dishonest stroke of +business, or as that thief whose various exploits you have just related +to us. + +"I, for my part, utterly refuse to absolve him, even when extenuating +circumstances plead in his favor, even when he is carrying on a dangerous +flirtation, in which a man tries in vain to keep his balance, not to +exceed the limits of the game, any more than at lawn tennis; even when +the parts are inverted and a man's adversary is some precocious, curious, +seductive girl, who shows you immediately that she has nothing to learn +and nothing to experience, except the last chapter of love, one of those +girls from whom may fate always preserve our sons, and whom a +psychological novel writer has christened 'The Semi-Virgins.' + +"It is, of course, difficult and painful for that coarse and unfathomable +vanity which is characteristic of every man, and which might be called +'malism', not to stir such a charming fire, difficult to act the Joseph +and the fool, to turn away his eyes, and, as it were, to put wax into his +ears, like the companions of Ulysses when they were attracted by the +divine, seductive songs of the Sirens, difficult only to touch that +pretty table covered with a perfectly new cloth, at which you are invited +to take a seat before any one else, in such a suggestive voice, and are +requested to quench your thirst and to taste that new wine, whose fresh +and strange flavor you will never forget. But who would hesitate to +exercise such self-restraint if, when he rapidly examines his conscience, +in one of those instinctive returns to his sober self in which a man +thinks clearly and recovers his head, he were to measure the gravity of +his fault, consider it, think of its consequences, of the reprisals, of +the uneasiness which he would always feel in the future, and which would +destroy the repose and happiness of his life? + +"You may guess that behind all these moral reflections, such as a +graybeard like myself may indulge in, there is a story hidden, and, sad +as it is, I am sure it will interest you on account of the strange +heroism it shows." + +He was silent for a few moments, as if to classify his recollections, +and, with his elbows resting on the arms of his easy-chair and his eyes +looking into space, he continued in the slow voice of a hospital +professor who is explaining a case to his class of medical students, at a +bedside: + +"He was one of those men who, as our grandfathers used to say, never met +with a cruel woman, the type of the adventurous knight who was always +foraging, who had something of the scamp about him, but who despised +danger and was bold even to rashness. He was ardent in the pursuit of +pleasure, and had an irresistible charm about him, one of those men in +whom we excuse the greatest excesses as the most natural things in the +world. He had run through all his money at gambling and with pretty +girls, and so became, as it were, a soldier of fortune. He amused +himself whenever and however he could, and was at that time quartered at +Versailles. + +"I knew him to the very depths of his childlike heart, which was only too +easily seen through and sounded, and I loved him as some old bachelor +uncle loves a nephew who plays him tricks, but who knows how to coax him. +He had made me his confidant rather than his adviser, kept me informed of +his slightest pranks, though he always pretended to be speaking about one +of his friends, and not about himself; and I must confess that his +youthful impetuosity, his careless gaiety, and his amorous ardor +sometimes distracted my thoughts and made me envy the handsome, vigorous +young fellow who was so happy at being alive, that I had not the courage +to check him, to show him the right road, and to call out to him: 'Take +care!' as children do at blind man's buff. + +"And one day, after one of those interminable cotillons, where the +couples do not leave each other for hours, and can disappear together +without anybody thinking of noticing them, the poor fellow at last +discovered what love was, that real love which takes up its abode in the +very centre of the heart and in the brain, and is proud of being there, +and which rules like a sovereign and a tyrannous master, and he became +desperately enamored of a pretty but badly brought up girl, who was as +disquieting and wayward as she was pretty. + +"She loved him, however, or rather she idolized him despotically, madly, +with all her enraptured soul and all her being. Left to do as she +pleased by imprudent and frivolous parents, suffering from neurosis, in +consequence of the unwholesome friendships which she contracted at the +convent school, instructed by what she saw and heard and knew was going +on around her, in spite of her deceitful and artificial conduct, knowing +that neither her father nor her mother, who were very proud of their race +as well as avaricious, would ever agree to let her marry the man whom she +had taken a liking to, that handsome fellow who had little besides +vision, ideas and debts, and who belonged to the middle-class, she laid +aside all scruples, thought of nothing but of becoming his, no matter +what might be the cost. + +"By degrees, the unfortunate man's strength gave way, his heart softened, +and he allowed himself to be carried away by that current which buffeted +him, surrounded him, and left him on the shore like a waif and a stray. + +"They wrote letters full of madness to each other, and not a day passed +without their meeting, either accidentally, as it seemed, or at parties +and balls. She had yielded her lips to him in long, ardent caresses, +which had sealed their compact of mutual passion." + +The doctor stopped, and his eyes suddenly filled with tears, as these +former troubles came back to his mind; and then, in a hoarse voice, he +went on, full of the horror of what he was going to relate: + +"For months he scaled the garden wall, and, holding his breath and +listening for the slightest noise, like a burglar who is going to break +into a house, he went in by the servants' entrance, which she had left +open, slunk barefoot down a long passage and up the broad staircase, +which creaked occasionally, to the second story, where his sweetheart's +room was, and stayed there for hours. + +"One night, when it was darker than usual, and he was hurrying lest he +should be later than the time agreed on, he knocked up against a piece of +furniture in the anteroom and upset it. It so happened that the girl's +mother had not gone to sleep, either because she had a sick headache, or +else be cause she had sat up late over some novel, and, frightened at +that unusual noise which disturbed the silence of the house, she jumped +out of bed, opened the door, saw some one indistinctly running away and +keeping close to the wall, and, immediately thinking that there were +burglars in the house, she aroused her husband and the servants by her +frantic screams. The unfortunate man understood the situation; and, +seeing what a terrible fix he was in, and preferring to be taken for a +common thief to dishonoring his adored one's name, he ran into the +drawing-room, felt on the tables and what-nots, filled his pockets at +random with valuable bric-a-brac, and then cowered down behind the grand +piano, which barred the corner of a large room. + +"The servants, who had run in with lighted candles, found him, and, +overwhelming him with abuse, seized him by the collar and dragged him, +panting and apparently half dead with shame and terror, to the nearest +police station. He defended himself with intentional awkwardness when he +was brought up for trial, kept up his part with the most perfect self- +possession and without any signs of the despair and anguish that he felt +in his heart, and, condemned and degraded and made to suffer martyrdom in +his honor as a man and a soldier--he was an officer--he did not protest, +but went to prison as one of those criminals whom society gets rid of +like noxious vermin. + +"He died there of misery and of bitterness of spirit, with the name of +the fair-haired idol, for whom he had sacrificed himself, on his lips, as +if it had been an ecstatic prayer, and he intrusted his will 'to the +priest who administered extreme unction to him, and requested him to give +it to me. In it, without mentioning anybody, and without in the least +lifting the veil, he at last explained the enigma, and cleared himself of +those accusations the terrible burden of which he had borne until his +last breath. + +"I have always thought myself, though I do not know why, that the girl +married and had several charming children, whom she brought up with the +austere strictness and in the serious piety of former days!" + + + + + + +CLAIR DE LUNE + +Abbe Marignan's martial name suited him well. He was a tall, thin +priest, fanatic, excitable, yet upright. All his beliefs were fixed, +never varying. He believed sincerely that he knew his God, understood +His plans, desires and intentions. + +When he walked with long strides along the garden walk of his little +country parsonage, he would sometimes ask himself the question: "Why has +God done this?" And he would dwell on this continually, putting himself +in the place of God, and he almost invariably found an answer. He would +never have cried out in an outburst of pious humility: "Thy ways, O Lord, +are past finding out." + +He said to himself: "I am the servant of God; it is right for me to know +the reason of His deeds, or to guess it if I do not know it." + +Everything in nature seemed to him to have been created in accordance +with an admirable and absolute logic. The "whys" and "becauses" always +balanced. Dawn was given to make our awakening pleasant, the days to +ripen the harvest, the rains to moisten it, the evenings for preparation +for slumber, and the dark nights for sleep. + +The four seasons corresponded perfectly to the needs of agriculture, and +no suspicion had ever come to the priest of the fact that nature has no +intentions; that, on the contrary, everything which exists must conform +to the hard demands of seasons, climates and matter. + +But he hated woman--hated her unconsciously, and despised her by +instinct. He often repeated the words of Christ: "Woman, what have I to +do with thee?" and he would add: "It seems as though God, Himself, were +dissatisfied with this work of His." She was the tempter who led the +first man astray, and who since then had ever been busy with her work of +damnation, the feeble creature, dangerous and mysteriously affecting one. +And even more than their sinful bodies, he hated their loving hearts. + +He had often felt their tenderness directed toward himself, and though he +knew that he was invulnerable, he grew angry at this need of love that is +always vibrating in them. + +According to his belief, God had created woman for the sole purpose of +tempting and testing man. One must not approach her without defensive +precautions and fear of possible snares. She was, indeed, just like a +snare, with her lips open and her arms stretched out to man. + +He had no indulgence except for nuns, whom their vows had rendered +inoffensive; but he was stern with them, nevertheless, because he felt +that at the bottom of their fettered and humble hearts the everlasting +tenderness was burning brightly--that tenderness which was shown even to +him, a priest. + +He felt this cursed tenderness, even in their docility, in the low tones +of their voices when speaking to him, in their lowered eyes, and in their +resigned tears when he reproved them roughly. And he would shake his +cassock on leaving the convent doors, and walk off, lengthening his +stride as though flying from danger. + +He had a niece who lived with her mother in a little house near him. He +was bent upon making a sister of charity of her. + +She was a pretty, brainless madcap. When the abbe preached she laughed, +and when he was angry with her she would give him a hug, drawing him to +her heart, while he sought unconsciously to release himself from this +embrace which nevertheless filled him with a sweet pleasure, awakening in +his depths the sensation of paternity which slumbers in every man. + +Often, when walking by her side, along the country road, he would speak +to her of God, of his God. She never listened to him, but looked about +her at the sky, the grass and flowers, and one could see the joy of life +sparkling in her eyes. Sometimes she would dart forward to catch some +flying creature, crying out as she brought it back: "Look, uncle, how +pretty it is! I want to hug it!" And this desire to "hug" flies or +lilac blossoms disquieted, angered, and roused the priest, who saw, even +in this, the ineradicable tenderness that is always budding in women's +hearts. + +Then there came a day when the sexton's wife, who kept house for Abbe +Marignan, told him, with caution, that his niece had a lover. + +Almost suffocated by the fearful emotion this news roused in him, he +stood there, his face covered with soap, for he was in the act of +shaving. + +When he had sufficiently recovered to think and speak he cried: "It is +not true; you lie, Melanie!" + +But the peasant woman put her hand on her heart, saying: "May our Lord +judge me if I lie, Monsieur le Cure! I tell you, she goes there every +night when your sister has gone to bed. They meet by the river side; you +have only to go there and see, between ten o'clock and midnight." + +He ceased scraping his chin, and began to walk up and down impetuously, +as he always did when he was in deep thought. When he began shaving +again he cut himself three times from his nose to his ear. + +All day long he was silent, full of anger and indignation. To his +priestly hatred of this invincible love was added the exasperation of her +spiritual father, of her guardian and pastor, deceived and tricked by a +child, and the selfish emotion shown by parents when their daughter +announces that she has chosen a husband without them, and in spite of +them. + +After dinner he tried to read a little, but could not, growing more and, +more angry. When ten o'clock struck he seized his cane, a formidable oak +stick, which he was accustomed to carry in his nocturnal walks when +visiting the sick. And he smiled at the enormous club which he twirled +in a threatening manner in his strong, country fist. Then he raised it +suddenly and, gritting his teeth, brought it down on a chair, the broken +back of which fell over on the floor. + +He opened the door to go out, but stopped on the sill, surprised by the +splendid moonlight, of such brilliance as is seldom seen. + +And, as he was gifted with an emotional nature, one such as had all those +poetic dreamers, the Fathers of the Church, he felt suddenly distracted +and moved by all the grand and serene beauty of this pale night. + +In his little garden, all bathed in soft light, his fruit trees in a row +cast on the ground the shadow of their slender branches, scarcely in full +leaf, while the giant honeysuckle, clinging to the wall of his house, +exhaled a delicious sweetness, filling the warm moonlit atmosphere with a +kind of perfumed soul. + +He began to take long breaths, drinking in the air as drunkards drink +wine, and he walked along slowly, delighted, marveling, almost forgetting +his niece. + +As soon as he was outside of the garden, he stopped to gaze upon the +plain all flooded with the caressing light, bathed in that tender, +languishing charm of serene nights. At each moment was heard the short, +metallic note of the cricket, and distant nightingales shook out their +scattered notes--their light, vibrant music that sets one dreaming, +without thinking, a music made for kisses, for the seduction of +moonlight. + +The abbe walked on again, his heart failing, though he knew not why. He +seemed weakened, suddenly exhausted; he wanted to sit down, to rest +there, to think, to admire God in His works. + +Down yonder, following the undulations of the little river, a great line +of poplars wound in and out. A fine mist, a white haze through which the +moonbeams passed, silvering it and making it gleam, hung around and above +the mountains, covering all the tortuous course of the water with a kind +of light and transparent cotton. + +The priest stopped once again, his soul filled with a growing and +irresistible tenderness. + +And a doubt, a vague feeling of disquiet came over him; he was asking one +of those questions that he sometimes put to himself. + +"Why did God make this? Since the night is destined for sleep, +unconsciousness, repose, forgetfulness of everything, why make it more +charming than day, softer than dawn or evening? And does why this +seductive planet, more poetic than the sun, that seems destined, so +discreet is it, to illuminate things too delicate and mysterious for the +light of day, make the darkness so transparent? + +"Why does not the greatest of feathered songsters sleep like the others? +Why does it pour forth its voice in the mysterious night? + +"Why this half-veil cast over the world? Why these tremblings of the +heart, this emotion of the spirit, this enervation of the body? Why this +display of enchantments that human beings do not see, since they are +lying in their beds? For whom is destined this sublime spectacle, this +abundance of poetry cast from heaven to earth?" + +And the abbe could not understand. + +But see, out there, on the edge of the meadow, under the arch of trees +bathed in a shining mist, two figures are walking side by side. + +The man was the taller, and held his arm about his sweetheart's neck and +kissed her brow every little while. They imparted life, all at once, to +the placid landscape in which they were framed as by a heavenly hand. +The two seemed but a single being, the being for whom was destined this +calm and silent night, and they came toward the priest as a living +answer, the response his Master sent to his questionings. + +He stood still, his heart beating, all upset; and it seemed to him that +he saw before him some biblical scene, like the loves of Ruth and Boaz, +the accomplishment of the will of the Lord, in some of those glorious +stories of which the sacred books tell. The verses of the Song of Songs +began to ring in his ears, the appeal of passion, all the poetry of this +poem replete with tenderness. + +And he said unto himself: "Perhaps God has made such nights as these to +idealize the love of men." + +He shrank back from this couple that still advanced with arms +intertwined. Yet it was his niece. But he asked himself now if he would +not be disobeying God. And does not God permit love, since He surrounds +it with such visible splendor? + +And he went back musing, almost ashamed, as if he had intruded into a +temple where he had, no right to enter. + + + + + + +WAITER, A "BOCK" + + +Why did I go into that beer hall on that particular evening? I do not +know. It was cold; a fine rain, a flying mist, veiled the gas lamps with +a transparent fog, made the side walks reflect the light that streamed +from the shop windows--lighting up the soft slush and the muddy feet of +the passers-by. + +I was going nowhere in particular; was simply having a short walk after +dinner. I had passed the Credit Lyonnais, the Rue Vivienne, and several +other streets. I suddenly descried a large beer hall which was more than +half full. I walked inside, with no object in view. I was not the least +thirsty. + +I glanced round to find a place that was not too crowded, and went and +sat down by the side of a man who seemed to me to be old, and who was +smoking a two-sous clay pipe, which was as black as coal. From six to +eight glasses piled up on the table in front of him indicated the number +of "bocks" he had already absorbed. At a glance I recognized a +"regular," one of those frequenters of beer houses who come in the +morning when the place opens, and do not leave till evening when it is +about to close. He was dirty, bald on top of his head, with a fringe of +iron-gray hair falling on the collar of his frock coat. His clothes, +much too large for him, appeared to have been made for him at a time when +he was corpulent. One could guess that he did not wear suspenders, for +he could not take ten steps without having to stop to pull up his +trousers. Did he wear a vest? The mere thought of his boots and of that +which they covered filled me with horror. The frayed cuffs were +perfectly black at the edges, as were his nails. + +As soon as I had seated myself beside him, this individual said to me in +a quiet tone of voice: + +"How goes it?" + +I turned sharply round and closely scanned his features, whereupon he +continued: + +"I see you do not recognize me." + +"No, I do not." + +"Des Barrets." + +I was stupefied. It was Count Jean des Barrets, my old college chum. + +I seized him by the hand, and was so dumbfounded that I could find +nothing to say. At length I managed to stammer out: + +"And you, how goes it with you?" + +He responded placidly: + +"I get along as I can." + +"What are you doing now?" I asked. + +"You see what I am doing," he answered quit resignedly. + +I felt my face getting red. I insisted: + +"But every day?" + +"Every day it is the same thing," was his reply, accompanied with a thick +puff of tobacco smoke. + +He then tapped with a sou on the top of the marble table, to attract the +attention of the waiter, and called out: + +"Waiter, two 'bocks.'" + +A voice in the distance repeated: + +"Two bocks for the fourth table." + +Another voice, more distant still, shouted out: + +"Here they are!" + +Immediately a man with a white apron appeared, carrying two "bocks," +which he set down, foaming, on the table, spilling some of the yellow +liquid on the sandy floor in his haste. + +Des Barrets emptied his glass at a single draught and replaced it on the +table, while he sucked in the foam that had been left on his mustache. +He next asked: + +"What is there new?" + +I really had nothing new to tell him. I stammered: + +"Nothing, old man. I am a business man." + +In his monotonous tone of voice he said: + +"Indeed, does it amuse you?" + +"No, but what can I do? One must do something!" + +"Why should one?" + +"So as to have occupation." + +"What's the use of an occupation? For my part, I do nothing at all, as +you see, never anything. When one has not a sou I can understand why one +should work. But when one has enough to live on, what's the use? What +is the good of working? Do you work for yourself, or for others? If you +work for yourself, you do it for your own amusement, which is all right; +if you work for others, you are a fool." + +Then, laying his pipe on the marble table, he called out anew: + +"Waiter, a 'bock.'" And continued: "It makes me thirsty to keep calling +so. I am not accustomed to that sort of thing. Yes, yes, I do nothing. +I let things slide, and I am growing old. In dying I shall have nothing +to regret. My only remembrance will be this beer hall. No wife, no +children, no cares, no sorrows, nothing. That is best." + +He then emptied the glass which had been brought him, passed his tongue +over his lips, and resumed his pipe. + +I looked at him in astonishment, and said: + +"But you have not always been like that?" + +"Pardon me; ever since I left college." + +"That is not a proper life to lead, my dear fellow; it is simply +horrible. Come, you must have something to do, you must love something, +you must have friends." + +"No, I get up at noon, I come here, I have my breakfast, I drink my beer, +I remain until the evening, I have my dinner, I drink beer. Then about +half-past one in the morning, I go home to bed, because the place closes +up; that annoys me more than anything. In the last ten years I have +passed fully six years on this bench, in my corner; and the other four in +my bed, nowhere else. I sometimes chat with the regular customers." + +"But when you came to Paris what did you do at first?" + +"I paid my devoirs to the Cafe de Medicis." + +"What next?" + +"Next I crossed the water and came here." + +"Why did you take that trouble?" + +"What do you mean? One cannot remain all one's life in the Latin +Quarter. The students make too much noise. Now I shall not move again. +Waiter, a 'bock.'" + +I began to think that he was making fun of me, and I continued: + +"Come now, be frank. You have been the victim of some great sorrow; some +disappointment in love, no doubt! It is easy to see that you are a man +who has had some trouble. What age are you?" + +"I am thirty, but I look forty-five, at least." + +I looked him straight in the face. His wrinkled, ill-shaven face gave +one the impression that he was an old man. On the top of his head a few +long hairs waved over a skin of doubtful cleanliness. He had enormous +eyelashes, a heavy mustache, and a thick beard. Suddenly I had a kind of +vision, I know not why, of a basin filled with dirty water in which all +that hair had been washed. I said to him: + +"You certainly look older than your age. You surely must have +experienced some great sorrow." + +He replied: + +"I tell you that I have not. I am old because I never go out into the +air. Nothing makes a man deteriorate more than the life of a cafe." + +I still could not believe him. + +"You must surely also have been married? One could not get as bald- +headed as you are without having been in love." + +He shook his head, shaking dandruff down on his coat as he did so. + +"No, I have always been virtuous." + +And, raising his eyes toward the chandelier which heated our heads, he +said: + +"If I am bald, it is the fault of the gas. It destroys the hair. +Waiter, a 'bock.' Are you not thirsty?" + +"No, thank you. But you really interest me. Since when have you been so +morbid? Your life is not normal, it is not natural. There is something +beneath it all." + +"Yes, and it dates from my infancy. I received a great shock when I was +very young, and that turned my life into darkness which will last to the +end." + +"What was it?" + +"You wish to know about it? Well, then, listen. You recall, of course, +the castle in which I was brought up, for you used to spend five or six +months there during vacation. You remember that large gray building, in +the middle of a great park, and the long avenues of oaks which opened to +the four points of the compass. You remember my father and mother, both +of whom were ceremonious, solemn, and severe. + +"I worshipped my mother; I was afraid of my father; but I respected both, +accustomed always as I was to see every one bow before them. They were +Monsieur le Comte and Madame la Comtesse to all the country round, and +our neighbors, the Tannemares, the Ravelets, the Brennevilles, showed +them the utmost consideration. + +"I was then thirteen years old. I was happy, pleased with everything, as +one is at that age, full of the joy of life. + +"Well, toward the end of September, a few days before returning to +college, as I was playing about in the shrubbery of the park, among the +branches and leaves, as I was crossing a path, I saw my father and +mother, who were walking along. + +"I recall it as though it were yesterday. It was a very windy day. The +whole line of trees swayed beneath the gusts of wind, groaning, and +seeming to utter cries-those dull, deep cries that forests give out +during a tempest. + +"The falling leaves, turning yellow, flew away like birds, circling and +falling, and then running along the path like swift animals. + +"Evening came on. It was dark in the thickets. The motion of the wind +and of the branches excited me, made me tear about as if I were crazy, +and howl in imitation of the wolves. + +"As soon as I perceived my parents, I crept furtively toward them, under +the branches, in order to surprise them, as though I had been a veritable +prowler. But I stopped in fear a few paces from them. My father, who +was in a terrible passion, cried: + +"'Your mother is a fool; moreover, it is not a question of your mother. +It is you. I tell you that I need this money, and I want you to sign +this.' + +"My mother replied in a firm voice: + +"'I will not sign it. It is Jean's fortune. I shall guard it for him +and I will not allow you to squander it with strange women, as you have +your own heritage.' + +"Then my father, trembling with rage, wheeled round and, seizing his wife +by the throat, began to slap her with all his might full in the face with +his disengaged hand. + +"My mother's hat fell off, her hair became loosened and fell over her +shoulders; she tried to parry the blows, but she could not do so. And my +father, like a madman, kept on striking her. My mother rolled over on +the ground, covering her face with her hands. Then he turned her over on +her back in order to slap her still more, pulling away her hands, which +were covering her face. + +"As for me, my friend, it seemed as though the world was coming to an +end, that the eternal laws had changed. I experienced the overwhelming +dread that one has in presence of things supernatural, in presence of +irreparable disasters. My childish mind was bewildered, distracted. +I began to cry with all my might, without knowing why; a prey to a +fearful dread, sorrow, and astonishment. My father heard me, turned +round, and, on seeing me, started toward me. I believe that he wanted to +kill me, and I fled like a hunted animal, running straight ahead into the +thicket. + +"I ran perhaps for an hour, perhaps for two. I know not. Darkness set +in. I sank on the grass, exhausted, and lay there dismayed, frantic with +fear, and devoured by a sorrow capable of breaking forever the heart of a +poor child. I was cold, hungry, perhaps. At length day broke. I was +afraid to get up, to walk, to return home, to run farther, fearing to +encounter my father, whom I did not wish to see again. + +"I should probably have died of misery and of hunger at the foot of a +tree if the park guard had not discovered me and led me home by force. + +"I found my parents looking as usual. My mother alone spoke to me +"'How you frightened me, you naughty boy. I lay awake the whole night.' + +"I did not answer, but began to weep. My father did not utter a single +word. + +"Eight days later I returned to school. + +"Well, my friend, it was all over with me. I had witnessed the other +side of things, the bad side. I have not been able to perceive the good +side since that day. What has taken place in my mind, what strange +phenomenon has warped my ideas, I do not know. But I no longer had a +taste for anything, a wish for anything, a love for anybody, a desire for +anything whatever, any ambition, or any hope. And I always see my poor +mother on the ground, in the park, my father beating her. My mother died +some years later; my, father still lives. I have not seen him since. +Waiter, a 'bock.'" + +A waiter brought him his "bock," which he swallowed at a gulp. But, in +taking up his pipe again, trembling as he was, he broke it. "Confound +it!" he said, with a gesture of annoyance. "That is a real sorrow. It +will take me a month to color another!" + +And he called out across the vast hall, now reeking with smoke and full +of men drinking, his everlasting: "Garcon, un 'bock'--and a new pipe." + + + + + + +AFTER + +My darlings," said the comtesse, "you might go to bed." + +The three children, two girls and a boy, rose and kissed their +grandmother. Then they said good-night to M. le Cure, who had dined at +the chateau, as was his custom every Thursday. + +The Abbe Mauduit lifted two of the children on his knees, passing his +long arms clad in black round their necks, and kissing them tenderly on +the forehead as he drew their heads toward him as a father might. + +Then he set them down on the ground, and the little beings went off, the +boy ahead, and the girls following. + +"You are fond of children, M. le Cure," said the comtesse. + +"Very fond, madame." + +The old woman raised her bright eyes toward the priest. + +"And--has your solitude never weighed too heavily on you?" + +"Yes, sometimes." + +He became silent, hesitated, and then added: "But I was never made for +ordinary life." + +"What do you know about it?" + +"Oh! I know very well. I was made to be a priest; I followed my +vocation. + +The comtesse kept staring at him: + +"Come now, M. le Cure, tell me this--tell me how it was you resolved to +renounce forever all that makes the rest of us love life--all that +consoles and sustains us? What is it that drove you, impelled you, to +separate yourself from the great natural path of marriage and the family? +You are neither an enthusiast nor a fanatic, neither a gloomy person nor +a sad person. Was it some incident, some sorrow, that led you to take +life vows?" + +The Abbe Mauduit rose and approached the fire, then, holding toward the +flame his big shoes, such as country priests generally wear, he seemed +still hesitating as to what reply he should make. + +He was a tall old man with white hair, and for the last twenty years had +been pastor of the parish of Saint-Antoine-du-Rocher. The peasants said +of him: "There's a good man for you!" And indeed he was a good man, +benevolent, friendly to all, gentle, and, to crown all, generous. Like +Saint Martin, he would have cut his cloak in two. He laughed readily, +and wept also, on slight provocation, just like a woman--which prejudiced +him more or less in the hard minds of the country folk. + +The old Comtesse de Saville, living in retirement in her chateau of +Rocher, in order to bring up her grandchildren, after the successive +deaths of her son and her daughter-in-law, was very much attached to her +cure, and used to say of him: "What a heart he has!" + +He came every Thursday to spend the evening with the comtesse, and they +were close friends, with the frank and honest friendship of old people. + +She persisted: + +"Look here, M. le Cure! it is your turn now to make a confession!" + +He repeated: "I was not made for ordinary life. I saw it fortunately in +time, and I have had many proofs since that I made no mistake on the +point: + +"My parents, who were mercers in Verdiers, and were quite well to do, had +great ambitions for me. They sent me to a boarding school while I was +very young. No one knows what a boy may suffer at school through the +mere fact of separation, of isolation. This monotonous life without +affection is good for some, and detestable for others. Young people are +often more sensitive than one supposes, and by shutting them up thus too +soon, far from those they love, we may develop to an exaggerated extent a +sensitiveness which is overwrought and may become sickly and dangerous. + +"I scarcely ever played; I had no companions; I passed my hours in +homesickness; I spent the whole night weeping in my bed. I sought to +bring before my mind recollections of home, trifling memories of little +things, little events. I thought incessantly of all I had left behind +there. I became almost imperceptibly an over-sensitive youth to whom the +slightest annoyances were terrible griefs. + +"In this way I remained taciturn, self-absorbed, without expansion, +without confidants. This mental excitement was going on secretly and +surely. The nerves of children are quickly affected, and one should see +to it that they live a tranquil life until they are almost fully +developed. But who ever reflects that, for certain boys, an unjust +imposition may be as great a pang as the death of a friend in later +years? Who can explain why certain young temperaments are liable to +terrible emotions for the slightest cause, and may eventually become +morbid and incurable? + +"This was my case. This faculty of regret developed in me to such an +extent that my existence became a martyrdom. + +"I did not speak about it; I said nothing about it; but gradually I +became so sensitive that my soul resembled an open wound. Everything +that affected me gave me painful twitchings, frightful shocks, and +consequently impaired my health. Happy are the men whom nature has +buttressed with indifference and armed with stoicism. + +"I reached my sixteenth year. An excessive timidity had arisen from this +abnormal sensitiveness. Feeling myself unprotected from all the attacks +of chance or fate, I feared every contact, every approach, every current. +I lived as though I were threatened by an unknown and always expected +misfortune. I did not venture either to speak or do anything in public. +I had, indeed, the feeling that life, is a battle, a dreadful conflict in +which one receives terrible blows, grievous, mortal wounds. In place of +cherishing, like all men, a cheerful anticipation of the morrow, I had +only a confused fear of it, and felt in my own mind a desire to conceal +myself to avoid that combat in which I would be vanquished and slain. + +"As soon as my studies were finished, they gave me six months' time to +choose a career. A very simple occurrence showed me clearly, all of a +sudden, the diseased condition of my mind, made me understand the danger, +and determined me to flee from it. + +"Verdiers is a little town surrounded with plains and woods. In the +central street stands my parents' house. I now passed my days far from +this dwelling which I had so much regretted, so much desired. Dreams had +reawakened in me, and I walked alone in the fields in order to let them +escape and fly away. My father and mother, quite occupied with business, +and anxious about my future, talked to me only about their profits or +about my possible plans. They were fond of me after the manner of +hardheaded, practical people; they had more reason than heart in their +affection for me. I lived imprisoned in my thoughts, and vibrating with +my eternal sensitiveness. + +"Now, one evening, after a long walk, as I was making my way home with +great strides so as not to be late, I saw a dog trotting toward me. He +was a species of red spaniel, very lean, with long curly ears. + +"When he was ten paces away from me he stopped. I did the same. Then he +began wagging his tail, and came over to me with short steps and nervous +movements of his whole body, bending down on his paws as if appealing to +me, and softly shaking his head. I spoke to him. He then began to crawl +along in such a sad, humble, suppliant manner that I felt the tears +coming into my eyes. I approached him; he ran away, then he came back +again; and I bent down on one knee trying to coax him to approach me, +with soft words. At last, he was within reach of my hands, and I gently +and very carefully stroked him. + +"He gained courage, gradually rose and, placing his paws on my shoulders, +began to lick my face. He followed me to the house. + +"This was really the first being I had passionately loved, because he +returned my affection. My attachment to this animal was certainly +exaggerated and ridiculous. It seemed to me in a confused sort of way +that we were two brothers, lost on this earth, and therefore isolated and +without defense, one as well as the other. He never again quitted my +side. He slept at the foot of my bed, ate at the table in spite of the +objections of my parents, and followed me in my solitary walks. + +"I often stopped at the side of a ditch, and sat down in the grass. Sam +immediately rushed up, lay down at my feet, and lifted up my hand with +his muzzle that I might caress him. + +"One day toward the end of June, as we were on the road from Saint-Pierre +de Chavrol, I saw the diligence from Pavereau coming along. Its four +horses were going at a gallop, with its yellow body, and its imperial +with the black leather hood. The coachman cracked his whip; a cloud of +dust rose up under the wheels of the heavy vehicle, then floated behind, +just as a cloud would do. + +"Suddenly, as the vehicle came close to me, Sam, perhaps frightened by +the noise and wishing to join me, jumped in front of it. A horse's hoof +knocked him down. I saw him roll over, turn round, fall back again +beneath the horses' feet, then the coach gave two jolts, and behind it I +saw something quivering in the dust on the road. He was nearly cut in +two; all his intestines were hanging out and blood was spurting from the +wound. He tried to get up, to walk, but he could only move his two front +paws, and scratch the ground with them, as if to make a hole. The two +others were already dead. And he howled dreadfully, mad with pain. + +"He died in a few minutes. I cannot describe how much I felt and +suffered. I was confined to my room for a month. + +"One night, my father, enraged at seeing me so affected by such a +trifling occurrence, exclaimed: + +"'How will it be when you have real griefs--if you lose your wife or +children?' + +"His words haunted me and I began to see my condition clearly. I +understood why all the small miseries of each day assumed in my eyes the +importance of a catastrophe; I saw that I was organized in such a way +that I suffered dreadfully from everything, that every painful impression +was multiplied by my diseased sensibility, and an atrocious fear of life +took possession of me. I was without passions, without ambitions; I +resolved to sacrifice possible joys in order to avoid sure sorrows. +Existence is short, but I made up my mind to spend it in the service of +others, in relieving their troubles and enjoying their happiness. Having +no direct experience of either one or the other, I should only experience +a milder form of emotion. + +"And if you only knew how, in spite of this, misery tortures me, ravages +me! But what would formerly have been an intolerable affliction has +become commiseration, pity. + +"These sorrows which cross my path at every moment, I could not endure if +they affected me directly. I could not have seen one of my children die +without dying myself. And I have, in spite of everything, preserved such +a mysterious, overwhelming fear of events that the sight of the postman +entering my house makes a shiver pass every day through my veins, and yet +I have nothing to be afraid of now." + +The Abbe Mauduit ceased speaking. He stared into the fire in the huge +grate, as if he saw there mysterious things, all the unknown of the +existence he might have passed had he been more fearless in the face of +suffering. + +He added, then, in a subdued tone: + +"I was right. I was not made for this world." + +The comtesse said nothing at first; but at length, after a long silence, +she remarked: + +"For my part, if I had not my grandchildren, I believe I would not have +the courage to live." + +And the cure rose up without saying another word. + +As the servants were asleep in the kitchen, she accompanied him herself +to the door, which looked out on the garden, and she saw his tall shadow, +lit up by the reflection of the lamp, disappearing through the gloom of +night. + +Then she came back and sat down before the fire, and pondered over many +things we never think of when we are young. + + + + + + +FORGIVENESS + +She had been brought up in one of those families who live entirely to +themselves, apart from all the rest of the world. Such families know +nothing of political events, although they are discussed at table; for +changes in the Government take place at such a distance from them that +they are spoken of as one speaks of a historical event, such as the death +of Louis XVI or the landing of Napoleon. + +Customs are modified in course of time, fashions succeed one another, but +such variations are taken no account of in the placid family circle where +traditional usages prevail year after year. And if some scandalous +episode or other occurs in the neighborhood, the disreputable story dies +a natural death when it reaches the threshold of the house. The father +and mother may, perhaps, exchange a few words on the subject when alone +together some evening, but they speak in hushed tones--for even walls +have ears. The father says, with bated breath: + +"You've heard of that terrible affair in the Rivoil family?" + +And the mother answers: + +"Who would have dreamed of such a thing? It's dreadful." + +The children suspected nothing, and arrive in their turn at years of +discretion with eyes and mind blindfolded, ignorant of the real side of +life, not knowing that people do not think as they speak, and do not +speak as they act; or aware that they should live at war, or at all +events, in a state of armed peace, with the rest of mankind; not +suspecting the fact that the simple are always deceived, the sincere made +sport of, the good maltreated. + +Some go on till the day of their death in this blind probity and loyalty +and honor, so pure-minded that nothing can open their eyes. + +Others, undeceived, but without fully understanding, make mistakes, are +dismayed, and become desperate, believing themselves the playthings of a +cruel fate, the wretched victims of adverse circumstances, and +exceptionally wicked men. + +The Savignols married their daughter Bertha at the age of eighteen. She +wedded a young Parisian, George Baron by name, who had dealings on the +Stock Exchange. He was handsome, well-mannered, and apparently all that +could be desired. But in the depths of his heart he somewhat despised +his old-fashioned parents-in-law, whom he spoke of among his intimates as +"my dear old fossils." + +He belonged to a good family, and the girl was rich. They settled down +in Paris. + +She became one of those provincial Parisians whose name is legion. She +remained in complete ignorance of the great city, of its social side, its +pleasures and its customs--just as she remained ignorant also of life, +its perfidy and its mysteries. + +Devoted to her house, she knew scarcely anything beyond her own street; +and when she ventured into another part of Paris it seemed to her that +she had accomplished a long and arduous journey into some unknown, +unexplored city. She would then say to her husband in the evening: + +"I have been through the boulevards to-day." + +Two or three times a year her husband took her to the theatre. These +were events the remembrance of which never grew dim; they provided +subjects of conversation for long afterward. + +Sometimes three months afterward she would suddenly burst into laughter, +and exclaim: + +"Do you remember that actor dressed up as a general, who crowed like a +cock?" + +Her friends were limited to two families related to her own. She spoke +of them as "the Martinets" and "the Michelins." + +Her husband lived as he pleased, coming home when it suited him-- +sometimes not until dawn--alleging business, but not putting himself out +overmuch to account for his movements, well aware that no suspicion would +ever enter his wife's guileless soul. + +But one morning she received an anonymous letter. + +She was thunderstruck--too simple-minded to understand the infamy of +unsigned information and to despise the letter, the writer of which +declared himself inspired by interest in her happiness, hatred of evil, +and love of truth. + +This missive told her that her husband had had for two years past, a +sweetheart, a young widow named Madame Rosset, with whom he spent all his +evenings. + +Bertha knew neither how to dissemble her grief nor how to spy on her +husband. When he came in for lunch she threw the letter down before him, +burst into tears, and fled to her room. + +He had time to take in the situation and to prepare his reply. He +knocked at his wife's door. She opened it at once, but dared not look at +him. He smiled, sat down, drew her to his knee, and in a tone of light +raillery began: + +"My dear child, as a matter of fact, I have a friend named Madame Rosset, +whom I have known for the last ten years, and of whom I have a very high +opinion. I may add that I know scores of other people whose names I have +never mentioned to you, seeing that you do not care for society, or fresh +acquaintances, or functions of any sort. But, to make short work of such +vile accusations as this, I want you to put on your things after lunch, +and we'll go together and call on this lady, who will very soon become a +friend of yours, too, I am quite sure." + +She embraced her husband warmly, and, moved by that feminine spirit of +curiosity which will not be lulled once it is aroused, consented to go +and see this unknown widow, of whom she was, in spite of everything, just +the least bit jealous. She felt instinctively that to know a danger is +to be already armed against it. + +She entered a small, tastefully furnished flat on the fourth floor of an +attractive house. After waiting five minutes in a drawing-room rendered +somewhat dark by its many curtains and hangings, a door opened, and a +very dark, short, rather plump young woman appeared, surprised and +smiling. + +George introduced them: + +"My wife--Madame Julie Rosset." + +The young widow uttered a half-suppressed cry of astonishment and joy, +and ran forward with hands outstretched. She had not hoped, she said, to +have this pleasure, knowing that Madame Baron never saw any one, but she +was delighted to make her acquaintance. She was so fond of George (she +said "George" in a familiar, sisterly sort of way) that, she had been +most anxious to know his young wife and to make friends with her, too. + +By the end of a month the two new friends were inseparable. They saw +each other every day, sometimes twice a day, and dined together every +evening, sometimes at one house, sometimes at the other. George no +longer deserted his home, no longer talked of pressing business. He +adored his own fireside, he said. + +When, after a time, a flat in the house where Madame Rosset lived became +vacant Madame Baron hastened to take it, in order to be near her friend +and spend even more time with her than hitherto. + +And for two whole years their friendship was without a cloud, a +friendship of heart and mind--absolute, tender, devoted. Bertha could +hardly speak without bringing in Julie's name. To her Madame Rosset +represented perfection. + +She was utterly happy, calm and contented. + +But Madame Rosset fell ill. Bertha hardly left her side. She spent her +nights with her, distracted with grief; even her husband seemed +inconsolable. + +One morning the doctor, after leaving the invalid's bedside, took George +and his wife aside, and told them that he considered Julie's condition +very grave. + +As soon as he had gone the grief-stricken husband and wife sat down +opposite each other and gave way to tears. That night they both sat up +with the patient. Bertha tenderly kissed her friend from time to time, +while George stood at the foot of the bed, his eyes gazing steadfastly on +the invalid's face. + +The next day she was worse. + +But toward evening she declared she felt better, and insisted that her +friends should go back to their own apartment to dinner. + +They were sitting sadly in the dining-room, scarcely even attempting to +eat, when the maid gave George a note. He opened it, turned pale as +death, and, rising from the table, said to his wife in a constrained +voice: + +"Wait for me. I must leave you a moment. I shall be back in ten +minutes. Don't go away on any account." + +And he hurried to his room to get his hat. + +Bertha waited for him, a prey to fresh anxiety. But, docile in +everything, she would not go back to her friend till he returned. + +At length, as he did not reappear, it occurred to her to visit his room +and see if he had taken his gloves. This would show whether or not he +had had a call to make. + +She saw them at the first glance. Beside them lay a crumpled paper, +evidently thrown down in haste. + +She recognized it at once as the note George had received. + +And a burning temptation, the first that had ever assailed her urged her +to read it and discover the cause of her husband's abrupt departure. Her +rebellious conscience protester' but a devouring and fearful curiosity +prevailed. She seized the paper, smoothed it out, recognized the +tremulous, penciled writing as Julie's, and read: + +"Come alone and kiss me, my poor dear. I am dying." + +At first she did not understand, the idea of Julie's death being her +uppermost thought. But all at once the true meaning of what she read +burst in a flash upon her; this penciled note threw a lurid light upon +her whole existence, revealed the whole infamous truth, all the treachery +and perfidy of which she had been the victim. She understood the long +years of deceit, the way in which she had been made their puppet. She +saw them again, sitting side by side in the evening, reading by lamplight +out of the same book, glancing at each other at the end of each page. + +And her poor, indignant, suffering, bleeding heart was cast into the +depths of a despair which knew no bounds. + +Footsteps drew near; she fled, and shut herself in her own room. + +Presently her husband called her: + +"Come quickly! Madame Rosset is dying." + +Bertha appeared at her door, and with trembling lips replied: + +"Go back to her alone; she does not need me." + +He looked at her stupidly, dazed with grief, and repeated: + +"Come at once! She's dying, I tell you!" + +Bertha answered: + +"You would rather it were I." + +Then at last he understood, and returned alone to the dying woman's +bedside. + +He mourned her openly, shamelessly, indifferent to the sorrow of the wife +who no longer spoke to him, no longer looked at him; who passed her life +in solitude, hedged round with disgust, with indignant anger, and praying +night and day to God. + +They still lived in the same house, however, and sat opposite each other +at table, in silence and despair. + +Gradually his sorrow grew less acute; but she did not forgive him. + +And so their life went on, hard and bitter for them both. + +For a whole year they remained as complete strangers to each other as if +they had never met. Bertha nearly lost her reason. + +At last one morning she went out very early, and returned about eight +o'clock bearing in her hands an enormous bouquet of white roses. +And she sent word to her husband that she wanted to speak to him. +He came-anxious and uneasy. + +"We are going out together," she said. "Please carry these flowers; they +are too heavy for me." + +A carriage took them to the gate of the cemetery, where they alighted. +Then, her eyes filling with tears, she said to George: + +"Take me to her grave." + +He trembled, and could not understand her motive; but he led the way, +still carrying the flowers. At last he stopped before a white marble +slab, to which he pointed without a word. + +She took the bouquet from him, and, kneeling down, placed it on the +grave. Then she offered up a silent, heartfelt prayer. + +Behind her stood her husband, overcome by recollections of the past. + +She rose, and held out her hands to him. + +"If you wish it, we will be friends," she said. + + + + + + +IN THE SPRING + +With the first day of spring, when the awakening earth puts on its +garment of green, and the warm, fragrant air fans our faces and fills our +lungs and appears even to penetrate to our hearts, we experience a vague, +undefined longing for freedom, for happiness, a desire to run, to wander +aimlessly, to breathe in the spring. The previous winter having been +unusually severe, this spring feeling was like a form of intoxication in +May, as if there were an overabundant supply of sap. + +One morning on waking I saw from my window the blue sky glowing in the +sun above the neighboring houses. The canaries hanging in the windows +were singing loudly, and so were the servants on every floor; a cheerful +noise rose up from the streets, and I went out, my spirits as bright as +the day, to go--I did not exactly know where. Everybody I met seemed to +be smiling; an air of happiness appeared to pervade everything in the +warm light of returning spring. One might almost have said that a breeze +of love was blowing through the city, and the sight of the young women +whom I saw in the streets in their morning toilets, in the depths of +whose eyes there lurked a hidden tenderness, and who walked with languid +grace, filled my heart with agitation. + +Without knowing how or why, I found myself on the banks of the Seine. +Steamboats were starting for Suresnes, and suddenly I was seized by an +unconquerable desire to take a walk through the woods. The deck of the +Mouche was covered with passengers, for the sun in early spring draws one +out of the house, in spite of themselves, and everybody moves about, goes +and comes and talks to his neighbor. + +I had a girl neighbor; a little work-girl, no doubt, who possessed the +true Parisian charm: a little head, with light curly hair, which looked +like a shimmer of light as it danced in the wind, came down to her ears, +and descended to the nape of her neck, where it became such fine, light- +colored clown that one could scarcely see it, but felt an irresistible +desire to shower kisses on it. + +Under my persistent gaze, she turned her head toward me, and then +immediately looked down, while a slight crease at the side of her mouth, +that was ready to break out into a smile, also showed a fine, silky, pale +down which the sun was gilding a little. + +The calm river grew wider; the atmosphere was warm and perfectly still, +but a murmur of life seemed to fill all space. + +My neighbor raised her eyes again, and this time, as I was still looking +at her, she smiled decidedly. She was charming, and in her passing +glance I saw a thousand things, which I had hitherto been ignorant of, +for I perceived unknown depths, all the charm of tenderness, all the +poetry which we dream of, all the happiness which we are continually in +search of. I felt an insane longing to open my arms and to carry her off +somewhere, so as to whisper the sweet music of words of love into her +ears. + +I was just about to address her when somebody touched me on the shoulder, +and as I turned round in some surprise, I saw an ordinary-looking man, +who was neither young nor old, and who gazed at me sadly. + +"I should like to speak to you," he said. + +I made a grimace, which he no doubt saw, for he added: + +"It is a matter of importance." + +I got up, therefore, and followed him to the other end of the boat and +then he said: + +"Monsieur, when winter comes, with its cold, wet and snowy weather, your +doctor says to you constantly: 'Keep your feet warm, guard against +chills, colds, bronchitis, rheumatism and pleurisy.' + +"Then you are very careful, you wear flannel, a heavy greatcoat and thick +shoes, but all this does not prevent you from passing two months in bed. +But when spring returns, with its leaves and flowers, its warm, soft +breezes and its smell of the fields, all of which causes you vague +disquiet and causeless emotion, nobody says to you: + +"'Monsieur, beware of love! It is lying in ambush everywhere; it is +watching for you at every corner; all its snares are laid, all its +weapons are sharpened, all its guiles are prepared! Beware of love! +Beware of love! It is more dangerous than brandy, bronchitis or +pleurisy! It never forgives and makes everybody commit irreparable +follies.' + +"Yes, monsieur, I say that the French Government ought to put large +public notices on the walls, with these words: 'Return of spring. French +citizens, beware of love!' just as they put: 'Beware of paint: + +"However, as the government will not do this, I must supply its place, +and I say to you: 'Beware of love!' for it is just going to seize you, +and it is my duty to inform you of it, just as in Russia they inform any +one that his nose is frozen." + +I was much astonished at this individual, and assuming a dignified +manner, I said: + +"Really, monsieur, you appear to me to be interfering in a matter which +is no concern of yours." + +He made an abrupt movement and replied: + +"Ah! monsieur, monsieur! If I see that a man is in danger of being +drowned at a dangerous spot, ought I to let him perish? So just listen +to my story and you will see why I ventured to speak to you like this. + +"It was about this time last year that it occurred. But, first of all, +I must tell you that I am a clerk in the Admiralty, where our chiefs, the +commissioners, take their gold lace as quill-driving officials seriously, +and treat us like forecastle men on board a ship. Well, from my office +I could see a small bit of blue sky and the swallows, and I felt inclined +to dance among my portfolios. + +"My yearning for freedom grew so intense that, in spite of my repugnance, +I went to see my chief, a short, bad-tempered man, who was always in a +rage. When I told him that I was not well, he looked at me and said: +'I do not believe it, monsieur, but be off with you! Do you think that +any office can go on with clerks like you?' I started at once and went +down the Seine. It was a day like this, and I took the Mouche, to go as +far as Saint Cloud. Ah! what a good thing it would have been if my chief +had refused me permission to leave the office that day! + +"I seemed to myself to expand in the sun. I loved everything--the +steamer, the river, the trees, the houses and my fellow-passengers. +I felt inclined to kiss something, no matter what; it was love, laying +its snare. Presently, at the Trocadero, a girl, with a small parcel in +her hand, came on board and sat down opposite me. She was decidedly +pretty, but it is surprising, monsieur, how much prettier women seem to +us when the day is fine at the beginning of the spring. Then they have +an intoxicating charm, something quite peculiar about them. It is just +like drinking wine after cheese. + +"I looked at her and she also looked at me, but only occasionally, as +that girl did at you, just now; but at last, by dint of looking at each +other constantly, it seemed to me that we knew each other well enough to +enter into conversation, and I spoke to her and she replied. She was +decidedly pretty and nice and she intoxicated me, monsieur! + +"She got out at Saint-Cloud, and I followed her. She went and delivered +her parcel, and when she returned the boat had just started. I walked by +her side, and the warmth of the 'air made us both sigh. 'It would be +very nice in the woods,' I said. 'Indeed, it would!' she replied. +'Shall we go there for a walk, mademoiselie?' + +"She gave me a quick upward look, as if to see exactly what I was like, +and then, after a little hesitation, she accepted my proposal, and soon +we were there, walking side by side. Under the foliage, which was still +rather scanty, the tall, thick, bright green grass was inundated by the +sun, and the air was full of insects that were also making love to one +another, and birds were singing in all directions. My companion began to +jump and to run, intoxicated by the air and the smell of the country, and +I ran and jumped, following her example. How silly we are at times, +monsieur! + +"Then she sang unrestrainedly a thousand things, opera airs and the song +of Musette! The song of Musette! How poetical it seemed to me, then! +I almost cried over it. Ah! Those silly songs make us lose our heads; +and, believe me, never marry a woman who sings in the country, especially +if she sings the song of Musette! + +"She soon grew tired, and sat down on a grassy slope, and I sat at her +feet and took her hands, her little hands, that were so marked with the +needle, and that filled me with emotion. I said to myself: + +'These are the sacred marks of toil.' Oh! monsieur, do you know what +those sacred marks of toil mean? They mean all the gossip of the +workroom, the whispered scandal, the mind soiled by all the filth that is +talked; they mean lost chastity, foolish chatter, all the wretchedness of +their everyday life, all the narrowness of ideas which belongs to women +of the lower orders, combined to their fullest extent in the girl whose +fingers bear the sacred marks of toil. + +"Then we looked into each other's eyes for a long while. Oh! what power +a woman's eye has! How it agitates us, how it invades our very being, +takes possession of us, and dominates us! How profound it seems, how +full of infinite promises! People call that looking into each other's +souls! Oh! monsieur, what humbug! If we could see into each other's +souls, we should be more careful of what we did. However, I was +captivated and was crazy about her and tried to take her into my arms, +but she said: 'Paws off!'. Then I knelt down and opened my heart to her +and poured out all the affection that was suffocating me. She seemed +surprised at my change of manner and gave me a sidelong glance, as if to +say, 'Ah! so that is the way women make a fool of you, old fellow! Very +well, we will see.' + +"In love, monsieur, we are always novices, and women artful dealers. + +"No doubt I could have had her, and I saw my own stupidity later, but +what I wanted was not a woman's person, it was love, it was the ideal. +I was sentimental, when I ought to have been using my time to a better +purpose. + +"As soon as she had had enough of my declarations of affection, she got +up, and we returned to Saint-Cloud, and I did not leave her until we got +to Paris; but she had looked so sad as we were returning, that at last I +asked her what was the matter. 'I am thinking,' she replied, 'that this +has been one of those days of which we have but few in life.' My heart +beat so that it felt as if it would break my ribs. + +"I saw her on the following Sunday, and the next Sunday, and every +Sunday. I took her to Bougival, Saint-Germain, Maisons-Lafitte, Poissy; +to every suburban resort of lovers. + +"The little jade, in turn, pretended to love me, until, at last, +I altogether lost my head, and three months later I married her. + +"What can you expect, monsieur, when a man is a clerk, living alone, +without any relations, or any one to advise him? One says to one's self: +'How sweet life would be with a wife!' + +"And so one gets married and she calls you names from morning till night, +understands nothing, knows nothing, chatters continually, sings the song +of Musette at the, top of her voice (oh! that song of Musette, how tired +one gets of it!); quarrels with the charcoal dealer, tells the janitor +all her domestic details, confides all the secrets of her bedroom to the +neighbor's servant, discusses her husband with the tradespeople and has +her head so stuffed with stupid stories, with idiotic superstitions, with +extraordinary ideas and monstrous prejudices, that I--for what I have +said applies more particularly to myself--shed tears of discouragement +every time I talk to her." + +He stopped, as he was rather out of breath and very much moved, and I +looked at him, for I felt pity for this poor, artless devil, and I was +just going to give him some sort of answer, when the boat stopped. We +were at Saint-Cloud. + +The little woman who had so taken my fancy rose from her seat in order to +land. She passed close to me, and gave me a sidelong glance and a +furtive smile, one of those smiles that drive you wild. Then she jumped +on the landing-stage. I sprang forward to follow her, but my neighbor +laid hold of my arm. I shook myself loose, however, whereupon he seized +the skirt of my coat and pulled me back, exclaiming: "You shall not go! +you shall not go!" in such a loud voice that everybody turned round and +laughed, and I remained standing motionless and furious, but without +venturing to face scandal and ridicule, and the steamboat started. + +The little woman on the landing-stage looked at me as I went off with an +air of disappointment, while my persecutor rubbed his hands and whispered +to me: + +"You must acknowledge that I have done you a great service." + + + + + + +A QUEER NIGHT IN PARIS + +Mattre Saval, notary at Vernon, was passionately fond of music. Although +still young he was already bald; he was always carefully shaven, was +somewhat corpulent as was suitable, and wore a gold pince-nez instead of +spectacles. He was active, gallant and cheerful and was considered quite +an artist in Vernon. He played the piano and the violin, and gave +musicals where the new operas were interpreted. + +He had even what is called a bit of a voice; nothing but a bit, very +little bit of a voice; but he managed it with so much taste that cries of +"Bravo!" "Exquisite!" "Surprising!" "Adorable!" issued from every +throat as soon as he had murmured the last note. + +He subscribed to a music publishing house in Paris, and they sent him the +latest music, and from time to time he sent invitations after this +fashion to the elite of the town: + +"You are invited to be present on Monday evening at the house of M. +Saval, notary, Vernon, at the first rendering of 'Sais.'" + +A few officers, gifted with good voices, formed the chorus. Two or three +lady amateurs also sang. The notary filled the part of leader of the +orchestra with so much correctness that the bandmaster of the 190th +regiment of the line said of him, one day, at the Cafe de l'Europe + +"Oh! M. Saval is a master. It is a great pity that he did not adopt the +career of an artist." + +When his name was mentioned in a drawing-room, there was always somebody +found to declare: "He is not an amateur; he is an artist, a genuine +artist." + +And two or three persons repeated, in a tone of profound conviction: + +"Oh! yes, a genuine artist," laying particular stress on the word +"genuine." + +Every time that a new work was interpreted at a big Parisian theatre +M. Saval paid a visit to the capital. + +Now, last year, according to his custom, he went to hear Henri VIII. He +then took the express which arrives in Paris at 4:30 P.M., intending to +return by the 12:35 A.M. train, so as not to have to sleep at a hotel. +He had put on evening dress, a black coat and white tie, which he +concealed under his overcoat with the collar turned up. + +As soon as he set foot on the Rue d'Amsterdam, he felt himself in quite +jovial mood. He said to himself: + +"Decidedly, the air of Paris does not resemble any other air. It has in +it something indescribably stimulating, exciting, intoxicating, which +fills you with a strange longing to dance about and to do many other +things. As soon as I arrive here, it seems to me, all of a sudden, that +I have taken a bottle of champagne. What a life one can lead in this +city in the midst of artists! Happy are the elect, the great men who +make themselves a reputation in such a city! What an existence is +theirs!" + +And be made plans; he would have liked to know some of these celebrated +men, to talk about them in Vernon, and to spend an evening with them from +time to time in Paris. + +But suddenly an idea struck him. He had heard allusions to little cafes +in the outer boulevards at which well-known painters, men of letters, and +even musicians gathered, and he proceeded to go up to Montmartre at a +slow pace. + +He had two hours before him. He wanted to look about him. He passed in +front of taverns frequented by belated bohemians, gazing at the different +faces, seeking to discover the artists. Finally, he came to the sign of +"The Dead Rat," and, allured by the name, he entered. + +Five or six women, with their elbows resting on the marble tables, were +talking in low tones about their love affairs, the quarrels of Lucie and +Hortense, and the scoundrelism of Octave. They were no longer young, +were too fat or too thin, tired out, used up. You could see that they +were almost bald; and they drank beer like men. + +M. Saval sat down at some distance from them and waited, for the hour for +taking absinthe was at hand. + +A tall young man soon came in and took a seat beside him. The landlady +called him M. "Romantin." The notary quivered. Was this the Romantin +who had taken a medal at the last Salon? + +The young man made a sign to the waiter. + +"You will bring up my dinner at once, and then carry to my new studio, +15 Boulevard de Clichy, thirty bottles of beer, and the ham I ordered +this morning. We are going to have a housewarming." + +M. Saval immediately ordered dinner. Then, he took off his overcoat, so +that his dress suit and his white tie could be seen. His neighbor did +not seem to notice him. He had taken up a newspaper, and was reading it. +M. Saval glanced sideways at him, burning with the desire to speak to +him. + +Two young men entered, in red vests and with peaked beards, in the +fashion of Henry III. They sat down opposite Romantin. + +The first of the pair said: + +"Is it for this evening?" + +Romantin pressed his hand. + +"I believe you, old chap, and everyone will be there. I have Bonnat, +Guillemet, Gervex, Beraud, Hebert, Duez, Clairin, and Jean-Paul Laurens. +It will be a stunning affair! And women, too! Wait till you see! Every +actress without exception--of course I mean, you know, all those who have +nothing to do this evening." + +The landlord of the establishment came across. + +"Do you often have this housewarming?" + +The painter replied: + +"I believe you, every three months, each quarter." + +M. Saval could not restrain himself any longer, and in a hesitating voice +said: + +"I beg your pardon for intruding on you, monsieur, but I heard your name +mentioned, and I would be very glad to know if you really are +M. Romantin, whose work in the last Salon I have so much admired?" + +The painter answered: + +"I am the very person, monsieur." + +The notary then paid the artist a very well-turned compliment, showing +that he was a man of culture. + +The painter, gratified, thanked him politely in reply. + +Then they chattered. Romantin returned to the subject of his house- +warming, going into details as to the magnificence of the forthcoming +entertainment. + +M. Saval questioned him as to all the men he was going to receive, +adding: + +"It would be an extraordinary piece of good fortune for a stranger to +meet at one time so many celebrities assembled in the studio of an artist +of your rank." + +Romantin, vanquished, replied: + +"If it would be agreeable to you, come." + +M. Saval accepted the invitation with enthusiasm, reflecting: + +"I shall have time enough to see Henri VIII." + +Both of them had finished their meal. The notary insisted on paying the +two bills, wishing to repay his neighbor's civilities. He also paid for +the drinks of the young fellows in red velvet; then he left the +establishment with the painter. + +They stopped in front of a very long, low house, the first story having +the appearance of an interminable conservatory. Six studios stood in a +row with their fronts facing the boulevards. + +Romantin was the first to enter, and, ascending the stairs, he opened a +door, and lighted a match and then a candle. + +They found themselves in an immense apartment, the furniture of which +consisted of three chairs, two easels, and a few sketches standing on the +ground along the walls. M. Saval remained standing at the door somewhat +astonished. + +The painter remarked: + +"Here you are! we've got to the spot; but everything has yet to be done." + +Then, examining the high, bare apartment, its ceiling disappearing in the +darkness, he said: + +"We might make a great deal out of this studio." + +He walked round it, surveying it with the utmost attention, then went on: + +"I know someone who might easily give a helping hand. Women are +incomparable for hanging drapery. But I sent her to the country for +to-day in order to get her off my hands this evening. It is not that she +bores me, but she is too much lacking in the ways of good society. +It would be embarrassing to my guests." + +He reflected for a few seconds, and then added: + +"She is a good girl, but not easy to deal with. If she knew that I was +holding a reception, she would tear out my eyes." + +M. Saval had not even moved; he did not understand. + +The artist came over to him. + +"Since I have invited you, you will assist ma about something." + +The notary said emphatically: + +"Make any use of me you please. I am at your disposal." + +Romantin took off his jacket. + +"Well, citizen, to work!' We are first going to clean up." + +He went to the back of the easel, on which there was a canvas +representing a cat, and seized a very worn-out broom. + +"I say! Just brush up while I look after the lighting." + +M. Saval took the broom, inspected it, and then began to sweep the floor +very awkwardly, raising a whirlwind of dust. + +Romantin, disgusted, stopped him: "Deuce take it! you don't know how to +sweep the floor! Look at me!" + +And he began to roll before him a heap of grayish sweepings, as if he had +done nothing else all his life. Then, he gave bark the broom to the +notary, who imitated him. + +In five minutes, such a cloud of dust filled the studio that Rormantin +asked: + +"Where are you? I can't see you any longer." + +M. Saval, who was coughing, came near to him. The painter said: + +"How would you set about making a chandelier?" + +The other, surprised, asked: + +"What chandelier?" + +"Why, a chandelier to light the room--a chandelier with wax-candles." + +The notary did not understand. + +He answered: "I don't know." + +The painter began to jump about, cracking his fingers. + +"Well, monseigneur, I have found out a way." + +Then he went on more calmly: + +"Have you got five francs about you?" + +M. Saval replied: + +"Why, yes." + +The artist said: "Well! you'll go out and buy for me five francs' worth +of wax-candles while I go and see the cooper." + +And he pushed the notary in his evening coat into the street. At the end +of five minutes, they had returned, one of them with the wax-candles and +the other with the hoop of a cask. Then Romantin plunged his hand into a +cupboard, and drew forth twenty empty bottles, which he fixed in the form +of a crown around the hoop. + +He then went downstairs to borrow a ladder from the janitress, after +having explained that he had made interest with the old woman by painting +the portrait of her cat, exhibited on the easel. + +When he returned with the ladder, he said to M. Saval: + +"Are you active?" + +The other, without understanding, answered: + +"Why, yes." + +"Well, you just climb up there, and fasten this chandelier for me to the +ring of the ceiling. Then, you put a wax-candle in each bottle, and +light it. I tell you I have a genius for lighting up. But off with your +coat, damn it! You are just like a Jeames." + +The door was opened brusquely. A woman appeared, her eyes flashing, and +remained standing on the threshold. + +Romantin gazed at her with a look of terror. + +She waited some seconds, crossing her arms over her breast, and then in a +shrill, vibrating, exasperated voice said: + +"Ha! you dirty scoundrel, is this the way you leave me?" + +Romantin made no reply. She went on: + +"Ha! you scoundrel! You did a nice thing in parking me off to the +country. You'll soon see the way I'll settle your jollification. Yes, +I'm going to receive your friends." + +She grew warmer. + +"I'm going to slap their faces with the bottles and the wax-candles----" + +Romantin said in a soft tone: + +"Mathilde----" + +But she did not pay any attention to him; she went on: + +"Wait a little, my fine fellow! wait a little!" + +Romantin went over to her, and tried to take her by the hands. + +"Mathilde----" + +But she was now fairly under way; and on she went, emptying the vials of +her wrath with strong words and reproaches. They flowed out of her mouth +like, a stream sweeping a heap of filth along with it. The words pouring +forth seemed struggling for exit. She stuttered, stammered, yelled, +suddenly recovering her voice to cast forth an insult or a curse. + +He seized her hands without her having noticed it. She did not seem to +see anything, so taken up was she in scolding and relieving her feelings. +And suddenly she began to weep. The tears flowed from her eyes, but this +did not stop her complaints. But her words were uttered in a screaming +falsetto voice with tears in it and interrupted by sobs. She commenced +afresh twice or three times, till she stopped as if something were +choking her, and at last she ceased with a regular flood of tears. + +Then he clasped her in his arms and kissed her hair, affected himself. + +"Mathilde, my little Mathilde, listen. You must be reasonable. You +know, if I give a supper-party to my friends, it is to thank these +gentlemen for the medal I got at the Salon. I cannot receive women. You +ought to understand that. It is not the same with artists as with other +people." + +She stammered, in the midst of her tears: + +"Why didn't you tell me this?" + +He replied: + +"It was in order not to annoy you, not to give you pain. Listen, I'm +going to see you home. You will be very sensible, very nice; you will +remain quietly waiting for me in bed, and I'll come back as soon as it's +over." + +She murmured: + +"Yes, but you will not begin over again?" + +"No, I swear to you!" + +He turned towards M. Saval, who had at last hooked on the chandelier: + +"My dear friend, I am coming back in five minutes. If anyone arrives in +my absence, do the honors for me, will you not?" + +And he carried off Mathilde, who kept drying her eyes with her +handkerchief as she went along. + +Left to himself, M. Saval succeeded in putting everything around him in +order. Then he lighted the wax-candles, and waited. + +He waited for a quarter of an hour, half an hour, an hour. Romantin did +not return. Then, suddenly there was a dreadful noise on the stairs, a +song shouted out in chorus by twenty mouths and a regular march like that +of a Prussian regiment. The whole house was shaken by the steady tramp +of feet. The door flew open, and a motley throng appeared--men and women +in file, two and two holding each other by the arm and stamping their +heels on the ground to mark time, advanced into the studio like a snake +uncoiling itself. They howled: + + "Come, and let us all be merry, + Pretty maids and soldiers gay!" + +M. Saval, thunderstruck, remained standing in evening dress under the +chandelier. The procession of revellers caught sight of him, and uttered +a shout: + +"A Jeames! A Jeames!" + +And they began whirling round him, surrounding him with a circle of +vociferations. Then they took each other by the hand and went dancing +about madly. + +He attempted to explain: + +"Messieurs--messieurs--mesdames----" + +But they did not listen to him. They whirled about, they jumped, they +brawled. + +At last, the dancing ceased. M. Saval said: + +"Gentlemen----" + +A tall young fellow, fair-haired and bearded to the nose, interrupted +him: + +"What's your name, my friend?" + +The notary, quite scared, said: + +"I am M. Saval." + +A voice exclaimed: + +"You mean Baptiste." + +A woman said: + +"Let the poor waiter alone! You'll end by making him get angry. He's +paid to wait on us, and not to be laughed at by us." + +Then, M. Saval noticed that each guest had brought his own provisions. +One held a bottle of wine, and the other a pie. This one had a loaf of +bread, and one a ham. + +The tall, fair young fellow placed in his hands an enormous sausage, and +gave orders: + +"Here, go and arrange the sideboard in the corner over there. Put the +bottles at the left and the provisions at the right." + +Saval, getting quite distracted, exclaimed: "But, messieurs, I am a +notary!" + +There was a moment's silence and then a wild outburst of laughter. One +suspicious gentleman asked: + +"How came you to be here?" + +He explained, telling about his project of going to the opera, his +departure from Vernon, his arrival in Paris, and the way in which he had +spent the evening. + +They sat around him to listen to him; they greeted him with words of +applause, and called him Scheherazade. + +Romantin did not return. Other guests arrived. M. Saval was presented +to them so that he might begin his story over again. He declined; they +forced him to relate it. They seated and tied him on one of three chairs +between two women who kept constantly filling his glass. He drank; he +laughed; he talked; he sang, too. He tried to waltz with his chair, and +fell on the ground. + +From that moment, he forgot everything. It seemed to him, however, that +they undressed him, put him to bed, and that he was nauseated. + +When he awoke, it was broad daylight, and he lay stretched with his feet +against a cupboard, in a strange bed. + +An old woman with a broom in her hand was glaring angrily at him. At +last, she said: + +"Clear out, you blackguard! Clear out! What right has anyone to get +drunk like this?" + +He sat up in bed, feeling very ill at ease. He asked: + +"Where am I?" + +"Where are you, you dirty scamp? You are drunk. Take your rotten +carcass out of here as quick as you can--and lose no time about it!" + +He wanted to get up. He found that he was in no condition to do so. His +clothes had disappeared. He blurted out: + +"Madame, I---- Then he remembered. What was he to do? He asked: + +"Did Monsieur Romantin come back?" + +The doorkeeper shouted: + +"Will you take your dirty carcass out of this, so that he at any rate may +not catch you here?" + +M. Saval said, in a state of confusion: + +"I haven't got my clothes; they have been taken away from me." + +He had to wait, to explain his situation, give notice to his friends, and +borrow some money to buy clothes. He did not leave Paris till evening. +And when people talk about music to him in his beautiful drawing-room in +Vernon, he declares with an air of authority that painting is a very +inferior art. + + + + + + + VOLUME VI. + +THAT COSTLY RIDE +USELESS BEAUTY +THE FATHER +MY UNCLE SOSTHENES +THE BARONESS +MOTHER AND SON +THE HAND +A TRESS OF HAIR +ON THE RIVER +THE CRIPPLE +A STROLL +ALEXANDRE +THE LOG +JULIE ROMAINE +THE RONDOLI SISTERS + + + + +THAT COSTLY RIDE + +The household lived frugally on the meager income derived from the +husband's insignificant appointments. Two children had been born of the +marriage, and the earlier condition of the strictest economy had become +one of quiet, concealed, shamefaced misery, the poverty of a noble +family--which in spite of misfortune never forgets its rank. + +Hector de Gribelin had been educated in the provinces, under the paternal +roof, by an aged priest. His people were not rich, but they managed to +live and to keep up appearances. + +At twenty years of age they tried to find him a position, and he entered +the Ministry of Marine as a clerk at sixty pounds a year. He foundered +on the rock of life like all those who have not been early prepared for +its rude struggles, who look at life through a mist, who do not know how +to protect themselves, whose special aptitudes and faculties have not +been developed from childhood, whose early training has not developed the +rough energy needed for the battle of life or furnished them with tool or +weapon. + +His first three years of office work were a martyrdom. + +He had, however, renewed the acquaintance of a few friends of his family +--elderly people, far behind the times, and poor like himself, who lived +in aristocratic streets, the gloomy thoroughfares of the Faubourg Saint- +Germain ; and he had created a social circle for himself. + +Strangers to modern life, humble yet proud, these needy aristocrats lived +in the upper stories of sleepy, old-world houses. From top to bottom of +their dwellings the tenants were titled, but money seemed just as scarce +on the ground floor as in the attics. + +Their eternal prejudices, absorption in their rank, anxiety lest they +should lose caste, filled the minds and thoughts of these families once +so brilliant, now ruined by the idleness of the men of the family. +Hector de Gribelin met in this circle a young girl as well born and as +poor as himself and married her. + +They had two children in four years. + +For four years more the husband and wife, harassed by poverty, knew no +other distraction than the Sunday walk in the Champs-Elysees and a few +evenings at the theatre (amounting in all to one or two in the course of +the winter) which they owed to free passes presented by some comrade or +other. + +But in the spring of the following year some overtime work was entrusted +to Hector de Gribelin by his chief, for which he received the large sum +of three hundred francs. + +The day he brought the money home he said to his wife: + +"My dear Henrietta, we must indulge in some sort of festivity--say an +outing for the children." + +And after a long discussion it was decided that they should go and lunch +one day in the country. + +"Well," cried Hector, "once will not break us, so we'll hire a wagonette +for you, the children and the maid. And I'll have a saddle horse; the +exercise will do me good." + +The whole week long they talked of nothing but the projected excursion. + +Every evening, on his return from the office, Hector caught up his elder +son, put him astride his leg, and, making him bounce up and down as hard +as he could, said: + +"That's how daddy will gallop next Sunday." + +And the youngster amused himself all day long by bestriding chairs, +dragging them round the room and shouting: + +"This is daddy on horseback!" + +The servant herself gazed at her master with awestruck eyes as she +thought of him riding alongside the carriage, and at meal-times she +listened with all her ears while he spoke of riding and recounted the +exploits of his youth, when he lived at home with his father. Oh, he had +learned in a good school, and once he felt his steed between his legs he +feared nothing--nothing whatever! + +Rubbing his hands, he repeated gaily to his wife: + +"If only they would give me a restive animal I should be all the better +pleased. You'll see how well I can ride; and if you like we'll come back +by the Champs-Elysees just as all the people are returning from the Bois. +As we shall make a good appearance, I shouldn't at all object to meeting +some one from the ministry. That is all that is necessary to insure the +respect of one's chiefs." + +On the day appointed the carriage and the riding horse arrived at the +same moment before the door. Hector went down immediately to examine his +mount. He had had straps sewn to his trousers and flourished in his hand +a whip he had bought the evening before. + +He raised the horse's legs and felt them one after another, passed his +hand over the animal's neck, flank and hocks, opened his mouth, examined +his teeth, declared his age; and then, the whole household having +collected round him, he delivered a discourse on the horse in general and +the specimen before him in particular, pronouncing the latter excellent +in every respect. + +When the rest of the party had taken their seats in the carriage he +examined the saddle-girth; then, putting his foot in the stirrup, he +sprang to the saddle. The animal began to curvet and nearly threw his +rider. + +Hector, not altogether at his ease, tried to soothe him: + +"Come, come, good horse, gently now!" + +Then, when the horse had recovered his equanimity and the rider his +nerve, the latter asked: + +"Are you ready?" + +The occupants of the carriage replied with one voice: + +"Yes." + +"Forward!" he commanded. + +And the cavalcade set out. + +All looks were centered on him. He trotted in the English style, rising +unnecessarily high in the saddle; looking at times as if he were mounting +into space. Sometimes he seemed on the point of falling forward on the +horse's mane; his eyes were fixed, his face drawn, his cheeks pale. + +His wife, holding one of the children on her knees, and the servant, who +was carrying the other, continually cried out: + +"Look at papa! look at papa!" + +And the two boys, intoxicated by the motion of the carriage, by their +delight and by the keen air, uttered shrill cries. The horse, frightened +by the noise they made, started off at a gallop, and while Hector was +trying to control his steed his hat fell off, and the driver had to get +down and pick it up. When the equestrian had recovered it he called to +his wife from a distance: + +"Don't let the children shout like that! They'll make the horse bolt!" + +They lunched on the grass in the Vesinet woods, having brought provisions +with them in the carriage. + +Although the driver was looking after the three horses, Hector rose every +minute to see if his own lacked anything; he patted him on the neck and +fed him with bread, cakes and sugar. + +"He's an unequal trotter," he declared. "He certainly shook me up a +little at first, but, as you saw, I soon got used to it. He knows his +master now and won't give any more trouble." + +As had been decided, they returned by the Champs-Elysees. + +That spacious thoroughfare literally swarmed with vehicles of every kind, +and on the sidewalks the pedestrians were so numerous that they looked +like two indeterminate black ribbons unfurling their length from the Arc +de Triomphe to the Place de la Concorde. A flood of sunlight played on +this gay scene, making the varnish of the carriages, the steel of the +harness and the handles of the carriage doors shine with dazzling +brilliancy. + +An intoxication of life and motion seemed to have invaded this assemblage +of human beings, carriages and horses. In the distance the outlines of +the Obelisk could be discerned in a cloud of golden vapor. + +As soon as Hector's horse had passed the Arc de Triomphe he became +suddenly imbued with fresh energy, and, realizing that his stable was not +far off, began to trot rapidly through the maze of wheels, despite all +his rider's efforts to restrain him. + +The carriage was now far behind. When the horse arrived opposite the +Palais de l'Industrie he saw a clear field before him, and, turning to +the right, set off at a gallop. + +An old woman wearing an apron was crossing the road in leisurely fashion. +She happened to be just in Hector's way as he arrived on the scene riding +at full speed. Powerless to control his mount, he shouted at the top of +his voice: + +"Hi! Look out there! Hi!" + +She must have been deaf, for she continued peacefully on her way until +the awful moment when, struck by the horse's chest as by a locomotive +under full steam, she rolled ten paces off, turning three somersaults on +the way. + +Voices yelled: + +"Stop him!" + +Hector, frantic with terror, clung to the horse's mane and shouted: + +"Help! help!" + +A terrible jolt hurled him, as if shot from a gun, over his horse's ears +and cast him into the arms of a policeman who was running up to stop him. + +In the space of a second a furious, gesticulating, vociferating group had +gathered round him. An old gentleman with a white mustache, wearing a +large round decoration, seemed particularly exasperated. He repeated: + +"Confound it! When a man is as awkward as all that he should remain at +home and not come killing people in the streets, if he doesn't know how +to handle a horse." + +Four men arrived on the scene, carrying the old woman. She appeared to +be dead. Her skin was like parchment, her cap on one side and she was +covered with dust. + +"Take her to a druggist's," ordered the old gentleman, "and let us go to +the commissary of police." + +Hector started on his way with a policeman on either side of him, a third +was leading his horse. A crowd followed them--and suddenly the wagonette +appeared in sight. His wife alighted in consternation, the servant lost +her head, the children whimpered. He explained that he would soon be at +home, that he had knocked a woman down and that there was not much the +matter. And his family, distracted with anxiety, went on their way. + +When they arrived before the commissary the explanation took place in few +words. He gave his name--Hector de Gribelin, employed at the Ministry of +Marine; and then they awaited news of the injured woman. A policeman who +had been sent to obtain information returned, saying that she had +recovered consciousness, but was complaining of frightful internal pain. +She was a charwoman, sixty-five years of age, named Madame Simon. + +When he heard that she was not dead Hector regained hope and promised to +defray her doctor's bill. Then he hastened to the druggist's. The door +way was thronged; the injured woman, huddled in an armchair, was +groaning. Her arms hung at her sides, her face was drawn. Two doctors +were still engaged in examining her. No bones were broken, but they +feared some internal lesion. + +Hector addressed her: + +"Do you suffer much?" + +"Oh, yes!" + +"Where is the pain?" + +"I feel as if my stomach were on fire." + +A doctor approached. + +"Are you the gentleman who caused the accident?" + +"I am." + +"This woman ought to be sent to a home. I know one where they would take +her at six francs a day. Would you like me to send her there?" + +Hector was delighted at the idea, thanked him and returned home much +relieved. + +His wife, dissolved in tears, was awaiting him. He reassured her. + +"It's all right. This Madame Simon is better already and will be quite +well in two or three days. I have sent her to a home. It's all right." + +When he left his office the next day he went to inquire for Madame Simon. +He found her eating rich soup with an air of great satisfaction. + +"Well?" said he. + +"Oh, sir," she replied, "I'm just the same. I feel sort of crushed--not +a bit better." + +The doctor declared they must wait and see; some complication or other +might arise. + +Hector waited three days, then he returned. The old woman, fresh-faced +and clear-eyed, began to whine when she saw him: + +"I can't move, sir; I can't move a bit. I shall be like this for the +rest of my days." + +A shudder passed through Hector's frame. He asked for the doctor, who +merely shrugged his shoulders and said: + +"What can I do? I can't tell what's wrong with her. She shrieks when +they try to raise her. They can't even move her chair from one place to +another without her uttering the most distressing cries. I am bound to +believe what she tells me; I can't look into her inside. So long as I +have no chance of seeing her walk I am not justified in supposing her to +be telling lies about herself." + +The old woman listened, motionless, a malicious gleam in her eyes. + +A week passed, then a fortnight, then a month. Madame Simon did not +leave her armchair. She ate from morning to night, grew fat, chatted +gaily with the other patients and seemed to enjoy her immobility as if it +were the rest to which she was entitled after fifty years of going up and +down stairs, of turning mattresses, of carrying coal from one story to +another, of sweeping and dusting. + +Hector, at his wits' end, came to see her every day. Every day he found +her calm and serene, declaring: + +"I can't move, sir; I shall never be able to move again." + +Every evening Madame de Gribelin, devoured with anxiety, said: + +"How is Madame Simon?" + +And every time he replied with a resignation born of despair: + +"Just the same; no change whatever. + +They dismissed the servant, whose wages they could no longer afford. +They economized more rigidly than ever. The whole of the extra pay had +been swallowed up. + +Then Hector summoned four noted doctors, who met in consultation over the +old woman. She let them examine her, feel her, sound her, watching them +the while with a cunning eye. + +"We must make her walk," said one. + +"But, sirs, I can't!" she cried. "I can't move!" + +Then they took hold of her, raised her and dragged her a short distance, +but she slipped from their grasp and fell to the floor, groaning and +giving vent to such heartrending cries that they carried her back to her +seat with infinite care and precaution. + +They pronounced a guarded opinion--agreeing, however, that work was an +impossibility to her. + +And when Hector brought this news to his wife she sank on a chair, +murmuring: + +"It would be better to bring her here; it would cost us less." + +He started in amazement. + +"Here? In our own house? How can you think of such a thing?" + +But she, resigned now to anything, replied with tears in her eyes: + +"But what can we do, my love? It's not my fault!" + + + + + + +USELESS BEAUTY + +I + +About half-past five one afternoon at the end of June when the sun was +shining warm and bright into the large courtyard, a very elegant victoria +with two beautiful black horses drew up in front of the mansion. + +The Comtesse de Mascaret came down the steps just as her husband, who was +coming home, appeared in the carriage entrance. He stopped for a few +moments to look at his wife and turned rather pale. The countess was +very beautiful, graceful and distinguished looking, with her long oval +face, her complexion like yellow ivory, her large gray eyes and her black +hair; and she got into her carriage without looking at him, without even +seeming to have noticed him, with such a particularly high-bred air, that +the furious jealousy by which he had been devoured for so long again +gnawed at his heart. He went up to her and said: "You are going for a +drive?" + +She merely replied disdainfully: "You see I am!" + +"In the Bois de Boulogne?" + +"Most probably." + +"May I come with you?" + +"The carriage belongs to you." + +Without being surprised at the tone in which she answered him, he got in +and sat down by his wife's side and said: "Bois de Boulogne." The +footman jumped up beside the coachman, and the horses as usual pranced +and tossed their heads until they were in the street. Husband and wife +sat side by side without speaking. He was thinking how to begin a +conversation, but she maintained such an obstinately hard look that he +did not venture to make the attempt. At last, however, he cunningly, +accidentally as it were, touched the countess' gloved hand with his own, +but she drew her arm away with a movement which was so expressive of +disgust that he remained thoughtful, in spite of his usual authoritative +and despotic character, and he said: "Gabrielle!" + +"What do you want?" + +"I think you are looking adorable." + +She did not reply, but remained lying back in the carriage, looking like +an irritated queen. By that time they were driving up the Champs +Elysees, toward the Arc de Triomphe. That immense monument, at the end +of the long avenue, raised its colossal arch against the red sky and the +sun seemed to be descending on it, showering fiery dust on it from the +sky. + +The stream of carriages, with dashes of sunlight reflected in the silver +trappings of the harness and the glass of the lamps, flowed on in a +double current toward the town and toward the Bois, and the Comte de +Mascaret continued: "My dear Gabrielle!" + +Unable to control herself any longer, she replied in an exasperated +voice: "Oh! do leave me in peace, pray! I am not even allowed to have +my carriage to myself now." He pretended not to hear her and continued: +"You never have looked so pretty as you do to-day." + +Her patience had come to an end, and she replied with irrepressible +anger: "You are wrong to notice it, for I swear to you that I will never +have anything to do with you in that way again." + +The count was decidedly stupefied and upset, and, his violent nature +gaining the upper hand, he exclaimed: "What do you mean by that?" in a +tone that betrayed rather the brutal master than the lover. She replied +in a low voice, so that the servants might not hear amid the deafening +noise of the wheels: "Ah! What do I mean by that? What do I mean by +that? Now I recognize you again! Do you want me to tell everything?" + +"Yes." + +"Everything that has weighed on my heart since I have been the victim of +your terrible selfishness?" + +He had grown red with surprise and anger and he growled between his +closed teeth: "Yes, tell me everything." + +He was a tall, broad-shouldered man, with a big red beard, a handsome +man, a nobleman, a man of the world, who passed as a perfect husband and +an excellent father, and now, for the first time since they had started, +she turned toward him and looked him full in the face: "Ah! You will +hear some disagreeable things, but you must know that I am prepared for +everything, that I fear nothing, and you less than any one to-day." + +He also was looking into her eyes and was already shaking with rage as he +said in a low voice: "You are mad." + +"No, but I will no longer be the victim of the hateful penalty of +maternity, which you have inflicted on me for eleven years! I wish to +take my place in society as I have the right to do, as all women have the +right to do." + +He suddenly grew pale again and stammered: "I do not understand you." + +"Oh! yes; you understand me well enough. It is now three months since I +had my last child, and as I am still very beautiful, and as, in spite of +all your efforts you cannot spoil my figure, as you just now perceived, +when you saw me on the doorstep, you think it is time that I should think +of having another child." + +"But you are talking nonsense!" + +"No, I am not, I am thirty, and I have had seven children, and we have +been married eleven years, and you hope that this will go on for ten +years longer, after which you will leave off being jealous." + +He seized her arm and squeezed it, saying: "I will not allow you to talk +to me like that much longer." + +"And I shall talk to you till the end, until I have finished all I have +to say to you, and if you try to prevent me, I shall raise my voice so +that the two servants, who are on the box, may hear. I only allowed you +to come with me for that object, for I have these witnesses who will +oblige you to listen to me and to contain yourself, so now pay attention +to what I say. I have always felt an antipathy to you, and I have always +let you see it, for I have never lied, monsieur. You married me in spite +of myself; you forced my parents, who were in embarrassed circumstances, +to give me to you, because you were rich, and they obliged me to marry +you in spite of my tears. + +"So you bought me, and as soon as I was in your power, as soon as I had +become your companion, ready to attach myself to you, to forget your +coercive and threatening proceedings, in order that I might only remember +that I ought to be a devoted wife and to love you as much as it might be +possible for me to love you, you became jealous, you, as no man has ever +been before, with the base, ignoble jealousy of a spy, which was as +degrading to you as it was to me. I had not been married eight months +when you suspected me of every perfidiousness, and you even told me so. +What a disgrace! And as you could not prevent me from being beautiful +and from pleasing people, from being called in drawing-rooms and also in +the newspapers one of the most beautiful women in Paris, you tried +everything you could think of to keep admirers from me, and you hit upon +the abominable idea of making me spend my life in a constant state of +motherhood, until the time should come when I should disgust every man. +Oh, do not deny it. I did not understand it for some time, but then I +guessed it. You even boasted about it to your sister, who told me of it, +for she is fond of me and was disgusted at your boorish coarseness. + +"Ah! Remember how you have behaved in the past! How for eleven years +you have compelled me to give up all society and simply be a mother to +your children. And then you would grow disgusted with me and I was sent +into the country, the family chateau, among fields and meadows. And when +I reappeared, fresh, pretty and unspoiled, still seductive and constantly +surrounded by admirers, hoping that at last I should live a little more +like a rich young society woman, you were seized with jealousy again, and +you began once more to persecute me with that infamous and hateful desire +from which you are suffering at this moment by my side. And it is not +the desire of possessing me--for I should never have refused myself to +you, but it is the wish to make me unsightly. + +"And then that abominable and mysterious thing occurred which I was a +long time in understanding (but I grew sharp by dint of watching your +thoughts and actions): You attached yourself to your children with all +the security which they gave you while I bore them. You felt affection +for them, with all your aversion to me, and in spite of your ignoble +fears, which were momentarily allayed by your pleasure in seeing me lose +my symmetry. + +"Oh! how often have I noticed that joy in you! I have seen it in your +eyes and guessed it. You loved your children as victories, and not +because they were of your own blood. They were victories over me, over +my youth, over my beauty, over my charms, over the compliments which were +paid me and over those that were whispered around me without being paid +to me personally. And you are proud of them, you make a parade of them, +you take them out for drives in your break in the Bois de Boulogne and +you give them donkey rides at Montmorency. You take them to theatrical +matinees so that you may be seen in the midst of them, so that the people +may say: 'What a kind father' and that it may be repeated----" + +He had seized her wrist with savage brutality, and he squeezed it so +violently that she was quiet and nearly cried out with the pain and he +said to her in a whisper: + +"I love my children, do you hear? What you have just told me is +disgraceful in a mother. But you belong to me; I am master--your master +--I can exact from you what I like and when I like--and I have the law-on +my side." + +He was trying to crush her fingers in the strong grip of his large, +muscular hand, and she, livid with pain, tried in vain to free them from +that vise which was crushing them. The agony made her breathe hard and +the tears came into her eyes. "You see that I am the master and the +stronger," he said. When he somewhat loosened his grip, she asked him: +"Do you think that I am a religious woman?" + +He was surprised and stammered "Yes." + +"Do you think that I could lie if I swore to the truth of anything to you +before an altar on which Christ's body is?" + +"No." + +"Will you go with me to some church?" + +"What for?" + +"You shall see. Will you?" + +"If you absolutely wish it, yes." + +She raised her voice and said: "Philippe!" And the coachman, bending down +a little, without taking his eyes from his horses, seemed to turn his ear +alone toward his mistress, who continued: "Drive to St. Philippe-du- +Roule." And the-victoria, which had reached the entrance of the Bois de +Boulogne returned to Paris. + +Husband and wife (did riot exchange a word further during the drive, and +when the carriage stopped before the church Madame de Mascaret jumped out +and entered it, followed by the count, a few yards distant. She went, +without stopping, as far as the choir-screen, and falling on her knees at +a chair, she buried her face in her hands. She prayed for a long time, +and he, standing behind her could see that she was crying. She wept +noiselessly, as women weep when they are in great, poignant grief. There +was a kind of undulation in her body, which ended in a little sob, which +was hidden and stifled by her fingers. + +But the Comte de Mascaret thought that the situation was lasting too +long, and he touched her on the shoulder. That contact recalled her to +herself, as if she had been burned, and getting up, she looked straight +into his eyes. "This is what I have to say to you. I am afraid of +nothing, whatever you may do to me. You may kill me if you like. One of +your children is not yours, and one only; that I swear to you before God, +who hears me here. That was the only revenge that was possible for me in +return for all your abominable masculine tyrannies, in return for the +penal servitude of childbearing to which you have condemned me. Who was +my lover? That you never will know! You may suspect every one, but you +never will find out. I gave myself to him, without love and without +pleasure, only for the sake of betraying you, and he also made me a +mother. Which is the child? That also you never will know. I have +seven; try to find out! I intended to tell you this later, for one has +not avenged oneself on a man by deceiving him, unless he knows it. You +have driven me to confess it today. I have now finished." + +She hurried through the church toward the open door, expecting to hear +behind her the quick step: of her husband whom she had defied and to be +knocked to the ground by a blow of his fist, but she heard nothing and +reached her carriage. She jumped into it at a bound, overwhelmed with +anguish and breathless with fear. So she called out to the coachman: +"Home!" and the horses set off at a quick trot. + + +II + +The Comtesse de Mascaret was waiting in her room for dinner time as a +criminal sentenced to death awaits the hour of his execution. What was +her husband going to do? Had he come home? Despotic, passionate, ready +for any violence as he was, what was he meditating, what had he made up +his mind to do? There was no sound in the house, and every moment she +looked at the clock. Her lady's maid had come and dressed her for the +evening and had then left the room again. Eight o'clock struck and +almost at the same moment there were two knocks at the door, and the +butler came in and announced dinner. + +"Has the count come in?" + +"Yes, Madame la Comtesse. He is in the diningroom." + +For a little moment she felt inclined to arm herself with a small +revolver which she had bought some time before, foreseeing the tragedy +which was being rehearsed in her heart. But she remembered that all the +children would be there, and she took nothing except a bottle of smelling +salts. He rose somewhat ceremoniously from his chair. They exchanged a +slight bow and sat down. The three boys with their tutor, Abbe Martin, +were on her right and the three girls, with Miss Smith, their English +governess, were on her left. The youngest child, who was only three +months old, remained upstairs with his nurse. + +The abbe said grace as usual when there was no company, for the children +did not come down to dinner when guests were present. Then they began +dinner. The countess, suffering from emotion, which she had not +calculated upon, remained with her eyes cast down, while the count +scrutinized now the three boys and now the three girls. with an +uncertain, unhappy expression, which travelled from one to the other. +Suddenly pushing his wineglass from him, it broke, and the wine was spilt +on the tablecloth, and at the slight noise caused by this little accident +the countess started up from her chair; and for the first time they +looked at each other. Then, in spite of themselves, in spite of the +irritation of their nerves caused by every glance, they continued to +exchange looks, rapid as pistol shots. + +The abbe, who felt that there was some cause for embarrassment which he +could not divine, attempted to begin a conversation and tried various +subjects, but his useless efforts gave rise to no ideas and did not bring +out a word. The countess, with feminine tact and obeying her instincts +of a woman of the world, attempted to answer him two or three times, but +in vain. She could not find words, in the perplexity of her mind, and +her own voice almost frightened her in the silence of the large room, +where nothing was heard except the slight sound of plates and knives and +forks. + +Suddenly her husband said to her, bending forward: "Here, amid your +children, will you swear to me that what you told me just now is true?" + +The hatred which was fermenting in her veins suddenly roused her, and +replying to that question with the same firmness with which she had +replied to his looks, she raised both her hands, the right pointing +toward the boys and the left toward the girls, and said in a firm, +resolute voice and without any hesitation: "On the head of my children, +I swear that I have told you the truth." + +He got up and throwing his table napkin on the table with a movement of +exasperation, he turned round and flung his chair against the wall, and +then went out without another word, while she, uttering a deep sigh, as +if after a first victory, went on in a calm voice: "You must not pay any +attention to what your father has just said, my darlings; he was very +much upset a short time ago, but he will be all right again in a few +days." + +Then she talked with the abbe and Miss Smith and had tender, pretty words +for all her children, those sweet, tender mother's ways which unfold +little hearts. + +When dinner was over she went into the drawing-room, all her children +following her. She made the elder ones chatter, and when their bedtime +came she kissed them for a long time and then went alone into her room. + +She waited, for she had no doubt that the count would come, and she made +up her mind then, as her children were not with her, to protect herself +as a woman of the world as she would protect her life, and in the pocket +of her dress she put the little loaded revolver which she had bought a +few days previously. The hours went by, the hours struck, and every +sound was hushed in the house. Only the cabs, continued to rumble +through the streets, but their noise was only heard vaguely through the +shuttered and curtained windows. + +She waited, full of nervous energy, without any fear of him now, ready +for anything, and almost triumphant, for she had found means of torturing +him continually during every moment of his life. + +But the first gleam of dawn came in through the fringe at the bottom of +her curtain without his having come into her room, and then she awoke to +the fact, with much amazement, that he was not coming. Having locked and +bolted her door, for greater security, she went to bed at last and +remained there, with her eyes open, thinking and barely understanding it +all, without being able to guess what he was going to do. + +When her maid brought her tea she at the same time handed her a letter +from her husband. He told her that he was going to undertake a longish +journey and in a postscript added that his lawyer would provide her with +any sums of money she might require for all her expenses. + + +III + +It was at the opera, between two acts of "Robert the Devil." In the +stalls the men were standing up, with their hats on, their waistcoats cut +very low so as to show a large amount of white shirt front, in which gold +and jewelled studs glistened, and were looking at the boxes full of +ladies in low dresses covered with diamonds and pearls, who were +expanding like flowers in that illuminated hothouse, where the beauty of +their faces and the whiteness of their shoulders seemed to bloom in order +to be gazed at, amid the sound of the music and of human voices. + +Two friends, with their backs to the orchestra, were scanning those rows +of elegance, that exhibition of real or false charms, of jewels, of +luxury and of pretension which displayed itself in all parts of the Grand +Theatre, and one of them, Roger de Salnis, said to his companion, Bernard +Grandin: + +"Just look how beautiful the Comtesse de Mascaret still is." + +The older man in turn looked through his opera glasses at a tall lady in +a box opposite. She appeared to be still very young, and her striking +beauty seemed to attract all eyes in every corner of the house. Her pale +complexion, of an ivory tint, gave her the appearance of a statue, while +a small diamond coronet glistened on her black hair like a streak of +light. + +When he had looked at her for some time, Bernard Grandin replied with a +jocular accent of sincere conviction: "You may well call her beautiful!" + +"How old do you think she is?" + +"Wait a moment. I can tell you exactly, for I have known her since she +was a child and I saw her make her debut into society when she was quite +a girl. She is--she is--thirty--thirty-six." + +"Impossible!" + +"I am sure of it." + +"She looks twenty-five." + +"She has had seven children." + +"It is incredible." + +"And what is more, they are all seven alive, as she is a very good +mother. I occasionally go to the house, which is a very quiet and +pleasant one, where one may see the phenomenon of the family in the midst +of society." + +"How very strange! And have there never been any reports about her?" + +"Never." + +"But what about her husband? He is peculiar, is he not?" + +"Yes and no. Very likely there has been a little drama between them, one +of those little domestic dramas which one suspects, never finds out +exactly, but guesses at pretty closely." + +"What is it?" + +"I do not know anything about it. Mascaret leads a very fast life now, +after being a model husband. As long as he remained a good spouse he had +a shocking temper, was crabbed and easily took offence, but since he has +been leading his present wild life he has become quite different, But one +might surmise that he has some trouble, a worm gnawing somewhere, for he +has aged very much." + +Thereupon the two friends talked philosophically for some minutes about +the secret, unknowable troubles which differences of character or perhaps +physical antipathies, which were not perceived at first, give rise to in +families, and then Roger de Salnis, who was still looking at Madame de +Mascaret through his opera glasses, said: "It is almost incredible that +that woman can have had seven children!" + +"Yes, in eleven years; after which, when she was thirty, she refused to +have any more, in order to take her place in society, which she seems +likely to do for many years." + +"Poor women!" + +"Why do you pity them?" + +"Why? Ah! my dear fellow, just consider! Eleven years in a condition of +motherhood for such a woman! What a hell! All her youth, all her +beauty, every hope of success, every poetical ideal of a brilliant life +sacrificed to that abominable law of reproduction which turns the normal +woman into a mere machine for bringing children into the world." + +"What would you have? It is only Nature!" + +"Yes, but I say that Nature is our enemy, that we must always fight +against Nature, for she is continually bringing us back to an animal +state. You may be sure that God has not put anything on this earth that +is clean, pretty, elegant or accessory to our ideal; the human brain has +done it. It is man who has introduced a little grace, beauty, unknown +charm and mystery into creation by singing about it, interpreting it, by +admiring it as a poet, idealizing it as an artist and by explaining it +through science, doubtless making mistakes, but finding ingenious +reasons, hidden grace and beauty, unknown charm and mystery in the +various phenomena of Nature. God created only coarse beings, full of the +germs of disease, who, after a few years of bestial enjoyment, grow old +and infirm, with all the ugliness and all the want of power of human +decrepitude. He seems to have made them only in order that they may +reproduce their species in an ignoble manner and then die like ephemeral +insects. I said reproduce their species in an ignoble manner and I +adhere to that expression. What is there as a matter of fact more +ignoble and more repugnant than that act of reproduction of living +beings, against which all delicate minds always have revolted and always +will revolt? Since all the organs which have been invented by this +economical and malicious Creator serve two purposes, why did He not +choose another method of performing that sacred mission, which is the +noblest and the most exalted of all human functions? The mouth, which +nourishes the body by means of material food, also diffuses abroad speech +and thought. Our flesh renews itself of its own accord, while we are +thinking about it. The olfactory organs, through which the vital air +reaches the lungs, communicate all the perfumes of the world to the +brain: the smell of flowers, of woods, of trees, of the sea. The ear, +which enables us to communicate with our fellow men, has also allowed us +to invent music, to create dreams, happiness, infinite and even physical +pleasure by means of sound! But one might say that the cynical and +cunning Creator wished to prohibit man from ever ennobling and idealizing +his intercourse with women. Nevertheless man has found love, which is +not a bad reply to that sly Deity, and he has adorned it with so much +poetry that woman often forgets the sensual part of it. Those among us +who are unable to deceive themselves have invented vice and refined +debauchery, which is another way of laughing at God and paying homage, +immodest homage, to beauty. + +"But the normal man begets children just like an animal coupled with +another by law. + +"Look at that woman! Is it not abominable to think that such a jewel, +such a pearl, born to be beautiful, admired, feted and adored, has spent +eleven years of her life in providing heirs for the Comte de Mascaret?" + +Bernard Grandin replied with a laugh: "There is a great deal of truth in +all that, but very few people would understand you." + +Salnis became more and more animated. "Do you know how I picture God +myself?" he said. "As an enormous, creative organ beyond our ken, who +scatters millions of worlds into space, just as one single fish would +deposit its spawn in the sea. He creates because it is His function as +God to do so, but He does not know what He is doing and is stupidly +prolific in His work and is ignorant of the combinations of all kinds +which are produced by His scattered germs. The human mind is a lucky +little local, passing accident which was totally unforeseen, and +condemned to disappear with this earth and to recommence perhaps here or +elsewhere the same or different with fresh combinations of eternally new +beginnings. We owe it to this little lapse of intelligence on His part +that we are very uncomfortable in this world which was not made for us, +which had not been prepared to receive us, to lodge and feed us or to +satisfy reflecting beings, and we owe it to Him also that we have to +struggle without ceasing against what are still called the designs of +Providence, when we are really refined and civilized beings." + +Grandin, who was listening to him attentively as he had long known the +surprising outbursts of his imagination, asked him: "Then you believe +that human thought is the spontaneous product of blind divine +generation?" + +"Naturally! A fortuitous function of the nerve centres of our brain, +like the unforeseen chemical action due to new mixtures and similar also +to a charge of electricity, caused by friction or the unexpected +proximity of some substance, similar to all phenomena caused by the +infinite and fruitful fermentation of living matter. + +"But, my dear fellow, the truth of this must be evident to any one who +looks about him. If the human mind, ordained by an omniscient Creator, +had been intended to be what it has become, exacting, inquiring, +agitated, tormented--so different from mere animal thought and +resignation--would the world which was created to receive the beings +which we now are have been this unpleasant little park for small game, +this salad patch, this wooded, rocky and spherical kitchen garden where +your improvident Providence had destined us to live naked, in caves or +under trees, nourished on the flesh of slaughtered animals, our brethren, +or on raw vegetables nourished by the sun and the rain? + +"But it is sufficient to reflect for a moment, in order to understand +that this world was not made for such creatures as we are. Thought, +which is developed by a miracle in the nerves of the cells in our brain, +powerless, ignorant and confused as it is, and as it will always remain, +makes all of us who are intellectual beings eternal and wretched exiles +on earth. + +"Look at this earth, as God has given it to those who inhabit it. Is it +not visibly and solely made, planted and covered with forests for the +sake of animals? What is there for us? Nothing. And for them, +everything, and they have nothing to do but to eat or go hunting and eat +each other, according to their instincts, for God never foresaw +gentleness and peaceable manners; He only foresaw the death of creatures +which were bent on destroying and devouring each other. Are not the +quail, the pigeon and the partridge the natural prey of the hawk? the +sheep, the stag and the ox that of the great flesh-eating animals, rather +than meat to be fattened and served up to us with truffles, which have +been unearthed by pigs for our special benefit? + +"As to ourselves, the more civilized, intellectual and refined we are, +the more we ought to conquer and subdue that animal instinct, which +represents the will of God in us. And so, in order to mitigate our lot +as brutes, we have discovered and made everything, beginning with houses, +then exquisite food, sauces, sweetmeats, pastry, drink, stuffs, clothes, +ornaments, beds, mattresses, carriages, railways and innumerable +machines, besides arts and sciences, writing and poetry. Every ideal +comes from us as do all the amenities of life, in order to make our +existence as simple reproducers, for which divine Providence solely +intended us, less monotonous and less hard. + +"Look at this theatre. Is there not here a human world created by us, +unforeseen and unknown to eternal fate, intelligible to our minds alone, +a sensual and intellectual distraction, which has been invented solely by +and for that discontented and restless little animal, man? + +"Look at that woman, Madame de Mascaret. God intended her to live in a +cave, naked or wrapped up in the skins of wild animals. But is she not +better as she is? But, speaking of her, does any one know why and how +her brute of a husband, having such a companion by his side, and +especially after having been boorish enough to make her a mother seven +times, has suddenly left her, to run after bad women?" + +Grandin replied: "Oh! my dear fellow, this is probably the only reason. +He found that raising a family was becoming too expensive, and from +reasons of domestic economy he has arrived at the same principles which +you lay down as a philosopher." + +Just then the curtain rose for the third act, and they turned round, took +off their hats and sat down. + + +IV + +The Comte and Comtesse Mascaret were sitting side by side in the carriage +which was taking them home from the Opera, without speaking but suddenly +the husband said to his wife: "Gabrielle!" + +"What do you want?" + +"Don't you think that this has lasted long enough?" + +"What?" + +"The horrible punishment to which you have condemned me for the last six +years?" + +"What do you want? I cannot help it." + +"Then tell me which of them it is." + +"Never." + +"Think that I can no longer see my children or feel them round me, +without having my heart burdened with this doubt. Tell me which of them +it is, and I swear that I will forgive you and treat it like the others." + +"I have not the right to do so." + +"Do you not see that I can no longer endure this life, this thought which +is wearing me out, or this question which I am constantly asking myself, +this question which tortures me each time I look at them? It is driving +me mad." + +"Then you have suffered a great deal?" she said. + +"Terribly. Should I, without that, have accepted the horror of living by +your side, and the still greater horror of feeling and knowing that there +is one among them whom I cannot recognize and who prevents me from loving +the others?" + +"Then you have really suffered very much?" she repeated. + +And he replied in a constrained and sorrowful voice: + +"Yes, for do I not tell you every day that it is intolerable torture to +me? Should I have remained in that house, near you and them, if I did +not love them? Oh! You have behaved abominably toward me. All the +affection of my heart I have bestowed upon my children, and that you +know. I am for them a father of the olden time, as I was for you a +husband of one of the families of old, for by instinct I have remained a +natural man, a man of former days. Yes, I will confess it, you have made +me terribly jealous, because you are a woman of another race, of another +soul, with other requirements. Oh! I shall never forget the things you +said to me, but from that day I troubled myself no more about you. I did +not kill you, because then I should have had no means on earth of ever +discovering which of our--of your children is not mine. I have waited, +but I have suffered more than you would believe, for I can no longer +venture to love them, except, perhaps, the two eldest; I no longer +venture to look at them, to call them to me, to kiss them; I cannot take +them on my knee without asking myself, 'Can it be this one?' I have been +correct in my behavior toward you for six years, and even kind and +complaisant. Tell me the truth, and I swear that I will do nothing +unkind." + +He thought, in spite of the darkness of the carriage, that he could +perceive that she was moved, and feeling certain that she was going to +speak at last, he said: "I beg you, I beseech you to tell me" he said. + +"I have been more guilty than you think perhaps," she replied, "but I +could no longer endure that life of continual motherhood, and I had only +one means of driving you from me. I lied before God and I lied, with my +hand raised to my children's head, for I never have wronged you." + +He seized her arm in the darkness, and squeezing it as he had done on +that terrible day of their drive in the Bois de Boulogne, he stammered: + +"Is that true?" + +"It is true." + +But, wild with grief, he said with a groan: "I shall have fresh doubts +that will never end! When did you lie, the last time or now? How am I +to believe you at present? How can one believe a woman after that? I +shall never again know what I am to think. I would rather you had said +to me, 'It is Jacques or it is Jeanne.'" + +The carriage drove into the courtyard of the house and when it had drawn +up in front of the steps the count alighted first, as usual, and offered +his wife his arm to mount the stairs. As soon as they reached the first +floor he said: "May I speak to you for a few moments longer?" And she +replied, "I am quite willing." + +They went into a small drawing-room and a footman, in some surprise, +lighted the wax candles. As soon as he had left the room and they were +alone the count continued: "How am I to know the truth? I have begged you +a thousand times to speak, but you have remained dumb, impenetrable, +inflexible, inexorable, and now to-day you tell me that you have been +lying. For six years you have actually allowed me to believe such a +thing! No, you are lying now, I do not know why, but out of pity for me, +perhaps?" + +She replied in a sincere and convincing manner: "If I had not done so, I +should have had four more children in the last six years!" + +"Can a mother speak like that?" + +"Oh!" she replied, "I do not feel that I am the mother of children who +never have been born; it is enough for me to be the mother of those that +I have and to love them with all my heart. I am a woman of the civilized +world, monsieur--we all are--and we are no longer, and we refuse to be, +mere females to restock the earth." + +She got up, but he seized her hands. "Only one word, Gabrielle. Tell me +the truth!" + +"I have just told you. I never have dishonored you." + +He looked her full in the face, and how beautiful she was, with her gray +eyes, like the cold sky. In her dark hair sparkled the diamond coronet, +like a radiance. He suddenly felt, felt by a kind of intuition, that +this grand creature was not merely a being destined to perpetuate the +race, but the strange and mysterious product of all our complicated +desires which have been accumulating in us for centuries but which have +been turned aside from their primitive and divine object and have +wandered after a mystic, imperfectly perceived and intangible beauty. +There are some women like that, who blossom only for our dreams, adorned +with every poetical attribute of civilization, with that ideal luxury, +coquetry and esthetic charm which surround woman, a living statue that +brightens our life. + +Her husband remained standing before her, stupefied at his tardy and +obscure discovery, confusedly hitting on the cause of his former jealousy +and understanding it all very imperfectly, and at last lie said: "I +believe you, for I feel at this moment that you are not lying, and before +I really thought that you were." + +She put out her hand to him: "We are friends then?" + +He took her hand and kissed it and replied: "We are friends. Thank you, +Gabrielle." + +Then he went out, still looking at her, and surprised that she was still +so beautiful and feeling a strange emotion arising in him. + + + + + + +THE FATHER + +I + +He was a clerk in the Bureau of Public Education and lived at +Batignolles. He took the omnibus to Paris every morning and always sat +opposite a girl, with whom he fell in love. + +She was employed in a shop and went in at the same time every day. She +was a little brunette, one of those girls whose eyes are so dark that +they look like black spots, on a complexion like ivory. He always saw +her coming at the corner of the same street, and she generally had to run +to catch the heavy vehicle, and sprang upon the steps before the horses +had quite stopped. Then she got inside, out of breath, and, sitting +down, looked round her. + +The first time that he saw her, Francois Tessier liked the face. One +sometimes meets a woman whom one longs to clasp in one's arms without +even knowing her. That girl seemed to respond to some chord in his +being, to that sort of ideal of love which one cherishes in the depths of +the heart, without knowing it. + +He looked at her intently, not meaning to be rude, and she became +embarrassed and blushed. He noticed it, and tried to turn away his eyes; +but he involuntarily fixed them upon her again every moment, although he +tried to look in another direction; and, in a few days, they seemed to +know each other without having spoken. He gave up his place to her when +the omnibus was full, and got outside, though he was very sorry to do it. +By this time she had got so far as to greet him with a little smile; and, +although she always dropped her eyes under his looks, which she felt were +too ardent, yet she did not appear offended at being looked at in such a +manner. + +They ended by speaking. A kind of rapid friendship had become +established between them, a daily freemasonry of half an hour, and that +was certainly one of the most charming half hours in his life to him. +He thought of her all the rest of the day, saw her image continually +during the long office hours. He was haunted and bewitched by that +floating and yet tenacious recollection which the form of a beloved woman +leaves in us, and it seemed to him that if he could win that little +person it would be maddening happiness to him, almost above human +realization. + +Every morning she now shook hands with him, and he preserved the sense of +that touch and the recollection of the gentle pressure of her little +fingers until the next day, and he almost fancied that he preserved the +imprint on his palm. He anxiously waited for this short omnibus ride, +while Sundays seemed to him heartbreaking days. However, there was no +doubt that she loved him, for one Saturday, in spring, she promised to go +and lunch with him at Maisons-Laffitte the next day. + + +II + +She was at the railway station first, which surprised him, but she said: +"Before going, I want to speak to you. We have twenty minutes, and that +is more than I shall take for what I have to say." + +She trembled as she hung on his arm, and looked down, her cheeks pale, as +she continued: "I do not want you to be deceived in me, and I shall not +go there with you, unless you promise, unless you swear--not to do--not +to do anything--that is at all improper." + +She had suddenly become as red as a poppy, and said no more. He did not +know what to reply, for he was happy and disappointed at the same time. +He should love her less, certainly, if he knew that her conduct was +light, but then it would be so charming, so delicious to have a little +flirtation. + +As he did not say anything, she began to speak again in an agitated voice +and with tears in her eyes. "If you do not promise to respect me +altogether, I shall return home." And so he squeezed her arm tenderly +and replied: "I promise, you shall only do what you like." She appeared +relieved in mind, and asked, with a smile: "Do you really mean it?" And +he looked into her eyes and replied: "I swear it" "Now you may take the +tickets," she said. + +During the journey they could hardly speak, as the carriage was full, and +when they reached Maisons-Laffite they went toward the Seine. The sun, +which shone full on the river, on the leaves and the grass, seemed to be +reflected in their hearts, and they went, hand in hand, along the bank, +looking at the shoals of little fish swimming near the bank, and they +walked on, brimming over with happiness, as if they were walking on air. + +At last she said: "How foolish you must think me!" + +"Why?" he asked. "To come out like this, all alone with you." + +"Certainly not; it is quite natural." "No, no; it is not natural for me +--because I do not wish to commit a fault, and yet this is how girls +fall. But if you only knew how wretched it is, every day the same thing, +every day in the month and every month in the year. I live quite alone +with mamma, and as she has had a great deal of trouble, she is not very +cheerful. I do the best I can, and try to laugh in spite of everything, +but I do not always succeed. But, all the same, it was wrong in me to +come, though you, at any rate, will not be sorry." + +By way of an answer, he kissed her ardently on the ear that was nearest +him, but she moved from him with an abrupt movement, and, getting +suddenly angry, exclaimed: "Oh! Monsieur Francois, after what you swore +to me!" And they went back to Maisons-Laffitte. + +They had lunch at the Petit-Havre, a low house, buried under four +enormous poplar trees, by the side of the river. The air, the heat, the +weak white wine and the sensation of being so close together made them +silent; their faces were flushed and they had a feeling of oppression; +but, after the coffee, they regained their high spirits, and, having +crossed the Seine, started off along the bank, toward the village of La +Frette. Suddenly he asked: "What-is your name?" + +"Louise." + +"Louise," he repeated and said nothing more. + +The girl picked daisies and made them into a great bunch, while he sang +vigorously, as unrestrained as a colt that has been turned into a meadow. +On their left a vine-covered slope followed the river. Francois stopped +motionless with astonishment: "Oh, look there!" he said. + +The vines had come to an end, and the whole slope was covered with lilac +bushes in flower. It was a purple wood! A kind of great carpet of +flowers stretched over the earth, reaching as far as the village, more +than two miles off. She also stood, surprised and delighted, and +murmured: "Oh! how pretty!" And, crossing a meadow, they ran toward +that curious low hill, which, every year, furnishes all the lilac that is +drawn through Paris on the carts of the flower venders. + +There was a narrow path beneath the trees, so they took it, and when they +came to a small clearing, sat down. + +Swarms of flies were buzzing around them and making a continuous, gentle +sound, and the sun, the bright sun of a perfectly still day, shone over +the bright slopes and from that forest of blossoms a powerful fragrance +was borne toward them, a breath of perfume, the breath of the flowers. + +A church clock struck in the distance, and they embraced gently, then, +without the knowledge of anything but that kiss, lay down on the grass. +But she soon came to herself with the feeling of a great misfortune, and +began to cry and sob with grief, with her face buried in her hands. + +He tried to console her, but she wanted to start to return and to go home +immediately; and she kept saying, as she walked along quickly: "Good +heavens! good heavens!" + +He said to her: "Louise! Louise! Please let us stop here." But now her +cheeks were red and her eyes hollow, and, as soon as they got to the +railway station in Paris, she left him without even saying good-by. + + +III + +When he met her in the omnibus, next day, she appeared to him to be +changed and thinner, and she said to him: "I want to speak to you; we +will get down at the Boulevard." + +As soon as they were on the pavement, she said: + +"We must bid each other good-by; I cannot meet you again." "But why?" he +asked. "Because I cannot; I have been culpable, and I will not be so +again." + +Then he implored her, tortured by his love, but she replied firmly: "No, +I cannot, I cannot." He, however, only grew all the more excited and +promised to marry her, but she said again: "No," and left him. + +For a week he did not see her. He could not manage to meet her, and, as +he did not know her address, he thought that he had lost her altogether. +On the ninth day, however, there was a ring at his bell, and when he +opened the door, she was there. She threw herself into his arms and did +not resist any longer, and for three months they were close friends. +He was beginning to grow tired of her, when she whispered something to +him, and then he had one idea and wish: to break with her at any price. +As, however, he could not do that, not knowing how to begin, or what to +say, full of anxiety through fear of the consequences of his rash +indiscretion, he took a decisive step: one night he changed his lodgings +and disappeared. + +The blow was so heavy that she did not look, for the man who had +abandoned her, but threw herself at her mother's knees and confessed her +misfortune, and, some months after, gave birth to a boy. + + +IV + +Years passed, and Francois Tessier grew old, without there having been +any alteration in his life. He led the dull, monotonous life of an +office clerk, without hope and without expectation. Every day he got up +at the same time, went through the same streets, went through the same +door, past the same porter, went into the same office, sat in the same +chair, and did the same work. He was alone in the world, alone during +the day in the midst of his different colleagues, and alone at night in +his bachelor's lodgings, and he laid by a hundred francs a month against +old age. + +Every Sunday he went to the Champs-Elysees, to watch the elegant people, +the carriages and the pretty women, and the next day he used to say to +one of his colleagues: "The return of the carriages from the Bois du +Boulogne was very brilliant yesterday." One fine Sunday morning, +however, he went into the Parc Monceau, where the mothers and nurses, +sitting on the sides of the walks, watched the children playing, and +suddenly Francois Tessier started. A woman passed by, holding two +children by the hand, a little boy of about ten and a little girl of +four. It was she! + +He walked another hundred yards anti then fell into a chair, choking with +emotion. She had not recognized him, and so he came back, wishing to see +her again. She was sitting down now, and the boy was standing by her +side very quietly, while the little girl was making sand castles. It was +she, it was certainly she, but she had the reserved appearance of a lady, +was dressed simply, and looked self-possessed and dignified. He looked +at her from a distance, for he did not venture to go near; but the little +boy raised his head, and Francois Tessier felt himself tremble. It was +his own son, there could be no doubt of that. And, as he looked at him, +he thought he could recognize himself as he appeared in an old photograph +taken years ago. He remained hidden behind a tree, waiting for her to go +that he might follow her. + +He did not sleep that night. The idea of the child especially tormented +him. His son! Oh, if he could only have known, have been sure! But +what could he have done? However, he went to the house where she lived +and asked about her. He was told that a neighbor, an honorable man of +strict morals, had been touched by her distress and had married her; he +knew the fault she had committed and had married her, and had even +recognized the child, his, Francois Tessier's child, as his own. + +He returned to the Parc Monceau every Sunday, for then he always saw her, +and each time he was seized with a mad, an irresistible longing to take +his son into his arms, to cover him with kisses and to steal him, to +carry him off. + +He suffered horribly in his wretched isolation as an old bachelor, with +nobody to care for him, and he also suffered atrocious mental torture, +torn by paternal tenderness springing from remorse, longing and jealousy +and from that need of loving one's own children which nature has +implanted in all. At last he determined to make a despairing attempt, +and, going up to her, as she entered the park, he said, standing in the +middle of the path, pale and with trembling lips: "You do not recognize +me." She raised her eyes, looked at him, uttered an exclamation of +horror, of terror, and, taking the two children by the hand, she rushed +away, dragging them after her, while he went home and wept inconsolably. + +Months passed without his seeing her again, but he suffered, day and +night, for he was a prey to his paternal love. He would gladly have +died, if he could only have kissed his son; he would have committed +murder, performed any task, braved any danger, ventured anything. He +wrote to her, but she did not reply, and, after writing her some twenty +letters, he saw that there was no hope of altering her determination, and +then he formed the desperate resolution of writing to her husband, being +quite prepared to receive a bullet from a revolver, if need be. His +letter only consisted of a few lines, as follows: + +"Monsieur: You must have a perfect horror of my name, but I am so +wretched, so overcome by misery that my only hope is in you, and, +therefore, I venture to request you to grant me an interview of only five +minutes. + +"I have the honor, etc." + +The next day he received the reply: + +"Monsieur: I shall expect you to-morrow, Tuesday, at five o'clock." + +As he went up the staircase, Francois Tessier's heart beat so violently +that he had to stop several times. There was a dull and violent thumping +noise in his breast, as of some animal galloping; and he could breathe +only with difficulty, and had to hold on to the banisters, in order not +to fall. + +He rang the bell on the third floor, and when a maid servant had opened +the door, he asked: "Does Monsieur Flamel live here?" "Yes, monsieur. +Kindly come in." + +He was shown into the drawing-room; he was alone, and waited, feeling +bewildered, as in the midst of a catastrophe, until a door opened, and a +man came in. He was tall, serious and rather stout, and wore a black +frock coat, and pointed to a chair with his hand. Francois Tessier sat +down, and then said, with choking breath: "Monsieur--monsieur--I do not +know whether you know my name--whether you know----" + +Monsieur Flamel interrupted him. "You need not tell it me, monsieur, I +know it. My wife has spoken to me about you." He spoke in the dignified +tone of voice of a good man who wishes to be severe, and with the +commonplace stateliness of an honorable man, and Francois Tessier +continued: + +"Well, monsieur, I want to say this: I am dying of grief, of remorse, of +shame, and I would like once, only once to kiss the child." + +Monsieur Flamel got up and rang the bell, and when the servant came in, +he said: "Will you bring Louis here?" When she had gone out, they +remained face to face, without speaking, as they had nothing more to say +to one another, and waited. Then, suddenly, a little boy of ten rushed +into the room and ran up to the man whom he believed to be his father, +but he stopped when he saw the stranger, and Monsieur Flamel kissed him +and said: "Now, go and kiss that gentleman, my dear." And the child went +up to the stranger and looked at him. + +Francois Tessier had risen. He let his hat fall, and was ready to fall +himself as he looked at his son, while Monsieur Flamel had turned away, +from a feeling of delicacy, and was looking out of the window. + +The child waited in surprise; but he picked up the hat and gave it to the +stranger. Then Francois, taking the child up in his arms, began to kiss +him wildly all over his face; on his eyes, his cheeks, his mouth, his +hair; and the youngster, frightened at the shower of kisses, tried to +avoid them, turned away his head, and pushed away the man's face with his +little hands. But suddenly Francois Tessier put him down and cried: +"Good-by! good-by!" And he rushed out of the room as if he had been a +thief. + + + + + + +MY UNCLE SOSTHENES + +Some people are Freethinkers from sheer stupidity. My Uncle Sosthenes +was one of these. Some people are often religious for the same reason. +The very sight of a priest threw my uncle into a violent rage. He would +shake his fist and make grimaces at him, and would then touch a piece of +iron when the priest's back was turned, forgetting that the latter action +showed a belief after all, the belief in the evil eye. Now, when beliefs +are unreasonable, one should have all or none at all. I myself am a +Freethinker; I revolt at all dogmas, but feel no anger toward places of +worship, be they Catholic, Apostolic, Roman, Protestant, Greek, Russian, +Buddhist, Jewish, or Mohammedan. + +My uncle was a Freemason, and I used to declare that they are stupider +than old women devotees. That is my opinion, and I maintain it; if we +must have any religion at all, the old one is good enough for me. + +What is their object? Mutual help to be obtained by tickling the palms +of each other's hands. I see no harm in it, for they put into practice +the Christian precept: "Do unto others as ye would they should do unto +you." The only difference consists in the tickling, but it does not seem +worth while to make such a fuss about lending a poor devil half a crown. + +To all my arguments my uncle's reply used to be: + +"We are raising up a religion against a religion; Free Thought will kill +clericalism. Freemasonry is the stronghold, of those who are demolishing +all deities." + +"Very well, my dear uncle," I would reply--in my heart I felt inclined to +say, "You old idiot! it is just that which I am blaming you for. Instead +of destroying, you are organizing competition; it is only a case of +lowering prices. And then, if you admitted only Freethinkers among you, +I could understand it, but you admit anybody. You have a number of +Catholics among you, even the leaders of the party. Pius IX is said to +have been one of you before he became pope. If you call a society with +such an organization a bulwark against clericalism, I think it is an +extremely weak one." + +"My dear boy," my uncle would reply, with a wink, "we are most to be +dreaded in politics; slowly and surely we are everywhere undermining the +monarchical spirit." + +Then I broke out: "Yes, you are very clever! If you tell me that +Freemasonry is an election machine, I will grant it. I will never deny +that it is used as a machine to control candidates of all shades; if you +say that it is only used to hoodwink people, to drill them to go to the +polls as soldiers are sent under fire, I agree with you; if you declare +that it is indispensable to all political ambitions because it changes +all its members into electoral agents, I should say to you: 'That is as +clear as the sun.' But when you tell me that it serves to undermine the +monarchical spirit, I can only laugh in your face. + +"Just consider that gigantic and secret democratic association which had +Prince Napoleon for its grand master under the Empire; which has the +Crown Prince for its grand master in Germany, the Czar's brother in +Russia, and to which the Prince of Wales and King Humbert, and nearly all +the crowned heads of the globe belong." + +"You are quite right," my uncle said; "but all these persons are serving +our projects without guessing it." + +I felt inclined to tell him he was talking a pack of nonsense. + +It was, however, indeed a sight to see my uncle when he had a Freemason +to dinner. + +On meeting they shook hands in a manner that was irresistibly funny; one +could see that they were going through a series of secret, mysterious +signs. + +Then my uncle would take his friend into a corner to tell him something +important, and at dinner they had a peculiar way of looking at each +other, and of drinking to each other, in a manner as if to say: "We know +all about it, don't we?" + +And to think that there are millions on the face of the globe who are +amused at such monkey tricks! I would sooner be a Jesuit. + +Now, in our town there really was an old Jesuit who was my uncle's +detestation. Every time he met him, or if he only saw him at a distance, +he used to say: "Get away, you toad." And then, taking my arm, he would +whisper to me: + +"See here, that fellow will play me a trick some day or other, I feel +sure of it." + +My uncle spoke quite truly, and this was how it happened, and through my +fault. + +It was close on Holy Week, and my uncle made up his mind to give a dinner +on Good Friday, a real dinner, with his favorite chitterlings and black +puddings. I resisted as much as I could, and said: + +"I shall eat meat on that day, but at home, quite by myself. Your +manifestation, as you call it, is an idiotic idea. Why should you +manifest? What does it matter to you if people do not eat any meat?" + +But my uncle would not be persuaded. He asked three of his friends to +dine with him at one of the best restaurants in the town, and as he was +going to pay the bill I had certainly, after all, no scruples about +manifesting. + +At four o'clock we took a conspicuous place in the most frequented +restaurant in the town, and my uncle ordered dinner in a loud voice for +six o'clock. + +We sat down punctually, and at ten o'clock we had not yet finished. Five +of us had drunk eighteen bottles of choice, still wine and four of +champagne. Then my uncle proposed what he was in the habit of calling +"the archbishop's circuit." Each man put six small glasses in front of +him, each of them filled with a different liqueur, and they had all to be +emptied at one gulp, one after another, while one of the waiters counted +twenty. It was very stupid, but my uncle thought it was very suitable to +the occasion. + +At eleven o'clock he was as drunk as a fly. So we had to take him home +in a cab and put him to bed, and one could easily foresee that his anti- +clerical demonstration would end in a terrible fit of indigestion. + +As I was going back to my lodgings, being rather drunk myself, with a +cheerful drunkenness, a Machiavellian idea struck me which satisfied all +my sceptical instincts. + +I arranged my necktie, put on a look of great distress, and went and, +rang loudly at the old Jesuit's door. As he was deaf he made me wait a +longish while, but at length appeared at his window in a cotton nightcap +and asked what I wanted. + +I shouted out at the top of my voice: + +"Make haste, reverend sir, and open the door; a poor, despairing, sick +man is in need of your spiritual ministrations." + +The good, kind man put on his trousers as quickly as he could, and came +down without his cassock. I told him in a breathless voice that my +uncle, the Freethinker, had been taken suddenly ill, and fearing it was +going to be something serious, he had been seized with a sudden dread of +death, and wished to see the priest and talk to him; to have his advice +and comfort, to make his peace with the Church, and to confess, so as to +be able to cross the dreaded threshold at peace with himself; and I added +in a mocking tone: + +"At any rate, he wishes it, and if it does him no good it can do him no +harm." + +The old Jesuit, who was startled, delighted, and almost trembling, said +to me: + +"Wait a moment, my son; I will come with you." But I replied: "Pardon +me, reverend father, if I do not go with you; but my convictions will not +allow me to do so. I even refused to come and fetch you, so I beg you +not to say that you have seen me, but to declare that you had a +presentiment--a sort of revelation of his illness. + +The priest consented and went off quickly; knocked at my uncle's door, +and was soon let in; and I saw the black cassock disappear within that +stronghold of Free Thought. + +I hid under a neighboring gateway to wait results. Had he been well, my +uncle would have half-murdered the Jesuit, but I knew that he would +scarcely be able to move an arm, and I asked myself gleefully what sort +of a scene would take place between these antagonists, what disputes, +what arguments, what a hubbub, and what would be the issue of the +situation, which my uncle's indignation would render still more tragic? + +I laughed till my sides ached, and said half aloud: "Oh, what a joke, +what a joke!" + +Meanwhile it was getting very cold, and I noticed that the Jesuit stayed +a long time, and I thought: "They are having an argument, I suppose." + +One, two, three hours passed, and still the reverend father did not come +out. What had happened? Had my uncle died in a fit when he saw him, or +had he killed the cassocked gentleman? Perhaps they had mutually +devoured each other? This last supposition appeared very unlikely, for I +fancied that my uncle was quite incapable of swallowing a grain more +nourishment at that moment. + +At last the day broke. + +I was very uneasy, and, not venturing to go into the house myself, went +to one of my friends who lived opposite. I woke him up, explained +matters to him, much to his amusement and astonishment, and took +possession of his window. + +At nine o'clock he relieved me, and I got a little sleep. At two o'clock +I, in my turn, replaced him. We were utterly astonished. + +At six o'clock the Jesuit left, with a very happy and satisfied look on +his face, and we saw him go away with a quiet step. + +Then, timid and ashamed, I went and knocked at the door of my uncle's +house; and when the servant opened it I did not dare to ask her any +questions, but went upstairs without saying a word. + +My uncle was lying, pale and exhausted, with weary, sorrowful eyes and +heavy arms, on his bed. A little religious picture was fastened to one +of the bed curtains with a pin. + +"Why, uncle," I said, "in bed still? Are you not well?" + +He replied in a feeble voice: + +"Oh, my dear boy, I have been very ill, nearly dead." + +"How was that, uncle?" + +"I don't know; it was most surprising. But what is stranger still is +that the Jesuit priest who has just left--you know, that excellent man +whom I have made such fun of--had a divine revelation of my state, and +came to see me." + +I was seized with an almost uncontrollable desire to laugh, and with +difficulty said: "Oh, really!" + +"Yes, he came. He heard a voice telling him to get up and come to me, +because I was going to die. I was a revelation." + +I pretended to sneeze, so as not to burst out laughing; I felt inclined +to roll on the ground with amusement. + +In about a minute I managed to say indignantly: + +"And you received him, uncle? You, a Freethinker, a Freemason? You did +not have him thrown out of doors?" + +He seemed confused, and stammered: + +"Listen a moment, it is so astonishing--so astonishing and providential! +He also spoke to me about my father; it seems he knew him formerly." + +"Your father, uncle? But that is no reason for receiving a Jesuit." + +"I know that, but I was very ill, and he looked after me most devotedly +all night long. He was perfect; no doubt he saved my life; those men all +know a little of medicine." + +"Oh! he looked after you all night? But you said just now that he had +only been gone a very short time." + +"That is quite true; I kept him to breakfast after all his kindness. He +had it at a table by my bedside while I drank a cup of tea." + +"And he ate meat?" + +My uncle looked vexed, as if I had said something very uncalled for, and +then added: + +"Don't joke, Gaston; such things are out of place at times. He has shown +me more devotion than many a relation would have done, and I expect to +have his convictions respected." + +This rather upset me, but I answered, nevertheless: "Very well, uncle; +and what did you do after breakfast?" + +"We played a game of bezique, and then he repeated his breviary while I +read a little book which he happened to have in his pocket, and which was +not by any means badly written." + +"A religious book, uncle?" + +"Yes, and no, or, rather--no. It is the history of their missions in +Central Africa, and is rather a book of travels and adventures. What +these men have done is very grand." + +I began to feel that matters were going badly, so I got up. "Well, good- +by, uncle," I said, "I see you are going to give up Freemasonry for +religion; you are a renegade." + +He was still rather confused, and stammered: + +"Well, but religion is a sort of Freemasonry." + +"When is your Jesuit coming back?" I asked. + +"I don't--I don't know exactly; to-morrow, perhaps; but it is not +certain." + +I went out, altogether overwhelmed. + +My joke turned out very badly for me! My uncle became thoroughly +converted, and if that had been all I should not have cared so much. +Clerical or Freemason, to me it is all the same; six of one and half a +dozen of the other; but the worst of it is that he has just made his +will--yes, made his will--and he has disinherited me in favor of that +rascally Jesuit! + + + + + + +THE BARONESS + +"Come with me," said my friend Boisrene, "you will see some very +interesting bric-a-brac and works of art there." + +He conducted me to the first floor of an elegant house in one of the big +streets of Paris. We were welcomed by a very pleasing man, with +excellent manners, who led us from room to room, showing us rare things, +the price of which he mentioned carelessly. Large sums, ten, twenty, +thirty, fifty thousand francs, dropped from his lips with such grace and +ease that one could not doubt that this gentleman-merchant had millions +shut up in his safe. + +I had known him by reputation for a long time Very bright, clever, +intelligent, he acted as intermediary in all sorts of transactions. He +kept in touch with all the richest art amateurs in Paris, and even of +Europe and America, knowing their tastes and preferences; he apprised +them by letter, or by wire if they lived in a distant city, as soon as he +knew of some work of art which might suit them. + +Men of the best society had had recourse to him in times of difficulty, +either to find money for gambling, or to pay off a debt, or to sell a +picture, a family jewel, or a tapestry. + +It was said that he never refused his services when he saw a chance of +gain. + +Boisrene seemed very intimate with this strange merchant. They must have +worked together in many a deal. I observed the man with great interest. + +He was tall, thin, bald, and very elegant. His soft, insinuating voice +had a peculiar, tempting charm which seemed to give the objects a special +value. When he held anything in his hands, he turned it round and round, +looking at it with such skill, refinement, and sympathy that the object +seemed immediately to be beautiful and transformed by his look and touch. +And its value increased in one's estimation, after the object had passed +from the showcase into his hands. + +"And your Crucifix," said Boisrene, "that beautiful Renaissance Crucifix +which you showed me last year?" + +The man smiled and answered: + +"It has been sold, and in a very peculiar manner. There is a real +Parisian story for you! Would you like to hear it?" + +"With pleasure." + +"Do you know the Baroness Samoris?" + +"Yes and no. I have seen her once, but I know what she is!" + +"You know--everything?" + +"Yes." + +"Would you mind telling me, so that I can see whether you are not +mistaken?" + +"Certainly. Mme. Samoris is a woman of the world who has a daughter, +without anyone having known her husband. At any rate, she is received in +a certain tolerant, or blind society. She goes to church and devoutly +partakes of Communion, so that everyone may know it, and she never +compromises herself. She expects her daughter to marry well. Is that +correct?" + +"Yes, but I will complete your information. She is a woman who makes +herself respected by her admirers in spite of everything. That is a rare +quality, for in this manner she can get what she wishes from a man. The +man whom she has chosen without his suspecting it courts her for a long +time, longs for her timidly, wins her with astonishment and possesses her +with consideration. He does not notice that he is paying, she is so +tactful; and she maintains her relations on such a footing of reserve and +dignity that he would slap the first man who dared doubt her in the +least. And all this in the best of faith. + +"Several times I have been able to render little services to this woman. +She has no secrets from me. + +"Toward the beginning of January she came to me in order to borrow thirty +thousand francs. Naturally, I did not lend them to her; but, as I wished +to oblige her, I told her to explain her situation to me completely, so +that I might see whether there was not something I could do for her. + +"She told me her troubles in such cautious language that she could not +have spoken more delicately of her child's first communion. I finally +managed to understand that times were hard, and that she was penniless. + +"The commercial crisis, political unrest, rumors of war, had made money +scarce even in the hands of her clients. And then, of course, she was +very particular. + +"She would associate only with a man in the best of society, who could +strengthen her reputation as well as help her financially. A reveller, +no matter how rich, would have compromised her forever, and would have +made the marriage of her daughter quite doubtful. + +"She had to maintain her household expenses and continue to entertain, in +order not to lose the opportunity of finding, among her numerous +visitors, the discreet and distinguished friend for whom she was waiting, +and whom she would choose. + +"I showed her that my thirty thousand francs would have but little +likelihood of returning to me; for, after spending them all, she would +have to find at least sixty thousand more, in a lump, to pay me back. + +"She seemed very disheartened when she heard this. I did not know just +what to do, when an idea, a really fine idea, struck me. + +"I had just bought this Renaissance Crucifix which I showed you, an +admirable piece of workmanship, one of the finest of its land that I have +ever seen. + +"'My dear friend,' I said to her, 'I am going to send you that piece of +ivory. You will invent some ingenious, touching, poetic story, anything +that you wish, to explain your desire for parting with it. It is, of +course, a family heirloom left you by your father. + +"'I myself will send you amateurs, or will bring them to you. The rest +concerns you. Before they come I will drop you a line about their +position, both social and financial. This Crucifix is worth fifty +thousand francs; but I will let it go for thirty thousand. The +difference will belong to you.' + +"She considered the matter seriously for several minutes, and then +answered: 'Yes, it is, perhaps, a good idea. I thank you very-much.' + +"The next day I sent her my Crucifix, and the same evening the Baron de +Saint-Hospital. + +"For three months I sent her my best clients, from a business point of +view. But I heard nothing more from her. + +"One day I received a visit from a foreigner who spoke very little +French. I decided to introduce him personally to the baroness, in order +to see how she was getting along. + +"A footman in black livery received us and ushered us into a quiet little +parlor, furnished with taste, where we waited for several minutes. She +appeared, charming as usual, extended her hand to me and invited us to be +seated; and when I had explained the reason of my visit, she rang. + +"The footman appeared. + +"'See if Mlle. Isabelle can let us go into her oratory.' The young girl +herself brought the answer. She was about fifteen years of age, modest +and good to look upon in the sweet freshness of her youth. She wished to +conduct us herself to her chapel. + +"It was a kind of religious boudoir where a silver lamp was burning +before the Crucifix, my Crucifix, on a background of black velvet. The +setting was charming and very clever. The child crossed herself and then +said: + +"'Look, gentlemen. Isn't it beautiful?' + +"I took the object, examined it and declared it to be remarkable. The +foreigner also examined it, but he seemed much more interested in the two +women than in the crucifix. + +"A delicate odor of incense, flowers and perfume pervaded the whole +house. One felt at home there. This really was a comfortable home, +where one would have liked to linger. + +"When we had returned to the parlor I delicately broached the subject of +the price. Mme. Samoris, lowering her eyes, asked fifty thousand francs. + +"Then she added: 'If you wish to see it again, monsieur, I very seldom go +out before three o'clock; and I can be found at home every day.' + +"In the street the stranger asked me for some details about the baroness, +whom he had found charming. But I did not hear anything more from either +of them. + +"Three months passed by. + +"One morning, hardly two weeks ago, she came here at about lunch time, +and, placing a roll of bills in my hand, said: 'My dear, you are an +angel! Here are fifty thousand francs; I am buying your crucifix, and I +am paying twenty thousand francs more for it than the price agreed upon, +on condition that you always--always send your clients to me--for it is +sill for sale.'" + + + + + + +MOTHER AND SON + +A party of men were chatting in the smoking room after dinner. We were +talking of unexpected legacies, strange inheritances. Then M. le +Brument, who was sometimes called "the illustrious judge" and at other +times "the illustrious lawyer," went and stood with his back to the fire. + +"I have," said he, "to search for an heir who disappeared under +peculiarly distressing circumstances. It is one of those simple and +terrible dramas of ordinary life, a thing which possibly happens every +day, and which is nevertheless one of the most dreadful things I know. +Here are the facts: + +"Nearly six months ago I was called to the bedside of a dying woman. She +said to me: + +"'Monsieur, I want to intrust to you the most delicate, the most +difficult, and the most wearisome mission that can be conceived. Be good +enough to notice my will, which is there on the table. A sum of five +thousand francs is left to you as a fee if you do not succeed, and of a +hundred thousand francs if you do succeed. I want you to find my son +after my death.' + +"She asked me to assist her to sit up in bed, in order that she might +talk with greater ease, for her voice, broken and gasping, was whistling +in her throat. + +"It was a very wealthy establishment. The luxurious apartment, of an +elegant simplicity, was upholstered with materials as thick as walls, +with a soft inviting surface. + +"The dying woman continued: + +"'You are the first to hear my horrible story. I will try to have +strength ,enough to finish it. You must know all, in order that you, +whom I know to be a kind-hearted man as well as a man of the world, may +have a sincere desire to aid me with all your power. + +"'Listen to me: + +"'Before my marriage, I loved a young man, whose suit was rejected by my +family because he was not rich enough. Not long afterward, I married a +man of great wealth. I married him through ignorance, through obedience, +through indifference, as young girls do marry. + +"'I had a child, a boy. My husband died in the course of a few years. + +"'He whom I had loved had married, in his turn. When he saw that I was +a widow, he was crushed by grief at knowing he was not free. He came to +see me; he wept and sobbed so bitterly, that it was enough to break my +heart. He came to see me at first as a friend. Perhaps I ought not to +have received him. What could I do? I was alone, so sad, so solitary, +so hopeless! And I loved him still. What sufferings we women have +sometimes to endure! + +"'I had only him in the world, my parents being dead. He came +frequently; he spent whole evenings with me. I should not have let him +come so often, seeing that he was married. But I had not enough will- +power to prevent him from coming. + +"'How can I tell it?--he became my lover. How did this come about? Can +I explain it? Can any one explain such things? Do you think it could be +otherwise when two human beings are drawn to each other by the +irresistible force of mutual affection? Do you believe, monsieur, that +it is always in our power to resist, that we can keep up the struggle +forever, and refuse to yield to the prayers, the supplications, the +tears, the frenzied words, the appeals on bended knees, the transports of +passion, with which we are pursued by the man we adore, whom we want to +gratify even in his slightest wishes, whom we desire to crown with every +possible happiness, and whom, if we are to be guided by a worldly code of +honor, we must drive to despair? What strength would it not require? +What a renunciation of happiness? what self-denial? and even what +virtuous selfishness? + +"'In short, monsieur, I was his mistress; and I was happy. I became--and +this was my greatest weakness and my greatest piece of cowardice-I became +his wife's friend. + +"'We brought up my son together; we made a man of him, a thorough man, +intelligent, full of sense and resolution, of large and generous ideas. +The boy reached the age of seventeen. + +"'He, the young man, was fond of my--my lover, almost as fond of him as I +was myself, for he had been equally cherished and cared for by both of +us. He used to call him his 'dear friend,' and respected him immensely, +having never received from him anything but wise counsels and an example +of integrity, honor, and probity. He looked upon him as an old loyal and +devoted comrade of his mother, as a sort of moral father, guardian, +protector--how am I to describe it? + +"'Perhaps the reason why he never asked any questions was that he had +been accustomed from his earliest years to see this man in my house, at +my side, and at his side, always concerned about us both. + +"'One evening the three of us were to dine together--this was my chief +amusement--and I waited for the two men, asking myself which of them +would be the first to arrive. The door opened; it was my old friend. +I went toward him, with outstretched arms; and he pressed my lips in a +long, delicious kiss. + +"'All of a sudden, a slight sound, a faint rustling, that mysterious +sensation which indicates the presence of another person, made us start +and turn round abruptly. Jean, my son, stood there, livid, staring at +us. + +"'There was a moment of atrocious confusion. I drew back, holding out my +hand toward my son as if in supplication; but I could not see him. He +had gone. + +"'We remained facing each other--my lover and I--crushed, unable to utter +a word. I sank into an armchair, and I felt a desire, a vague, powerful +desire, to flee, to go out into the night, and to disappear forever. +Then convulsive sobs rose in my throat, and I wept, shaken with spasms, +my heart breaking, all my nerves writhing with the horrible sensation of +an irreparable, misfortune, and with that dreadful sense of shame which, +in such moments as this, fills a mother's heart. + +"'He looked at me in a terrified manner, not venturing to approach, to +speak to me, or to touch me, for fear of the boy's return. At last he +said: + +"'I am going to follow him-to talk to him--to explain matters to him. In +short, I must see him and let him know----" + +"'And he hurried away. + +"'I waited--waited in a distracted frame of mind, trembling at the least +sound, starting with fear and with some unutterably strange and +intolerable emotion at every slight crackling of the fire in the grate. + +"'I waited an hour, two hours, feeling my heart swell with a dread I had +never before experienced, such anguish that I would not wish the greatest +criminal to endure ten minutes of such misery. Where was my son? What +was he doing? + +"'About midnight, a messenger brought me a note from my lover. I still +know its contents by heart: + +"'Has your son returned? I did not find him. I am down here. I do not +want to go up at this hour." + +"'I wrote in pencil on the same slip of paper: + +"'Jean has not returned. You must find him." + +"'And I 'remained all night in the armchair, waiting for him. + +"'I felt as if I were going mad. I longed to run wildly about, to roll +on the ground. And yet I did not even stir, but kept waiting hour after +hour. What was going to happen? I tried to imagine, to guess. But I +could form no conception, in spite of my efforts, in spite of the +tortures of my soul! + +"'And now I feared that they might meet. What would they do in that +case? What would my son do? My mind was torn with fearful doubts, with +terrible suppositions. + +"'You can understand my feelings, can you not, monsieur? +"'My chambermaid, who knew nothing, who understood nothing, came into the +room every moment, believing, naturally, that I had lost my reason. I +sent her away with a word or a movement of the hand. She went for the +doctor, who found me in the throes of a nervous attack. + +"'I was put to bed. I had brain fever. + +"'When I regained consciousness, after a long illness, I saw beside my +bed my--lover--alone. + +"'I exclaimed: + +"'My son? Where is my son? + +"'He made no reply. I stammered: + +"'Dead-dead. Has he committed suicide? + +"'No, no, I swear it. But we have not found him in spite of all my +efforts. + +"'Then, becoming suddenly exasperated and even indignant--for women are +subject to such outbursts of unaccountable and unreasoning anger--I said: + +"'I forbid you to come near me or to see me again unless you find him. +Go away! + +"He did go away. + +"'I have never seen one or the other of them since, monsieur, and thus I +have lived for the last twenty years. + +"'Can you imagine what all this meant to me? Can you understand this +monstrous punishment, this slow, perpetual laceration of a mother's +heart, this abominable, endless waiting? Endless, did I say? No; it is +about to end, for I am dying. I am dying without ever again seeing +either of them--either one or the other! + +"'He--the man I loved--has written to me every day for the last twenty +years; and I--I have never consented to see him, even for one second; for +I had a strange feeling that, if he were to come back here, my son would +make his appearance at the same moment. Oh! my son! my son! Is he dead? +Is he living? Where is he hiding? Over there, perhaps, beyond the great +ocean, in some country so far away that even its very name is unknown to +me! Does he ever think of me? Ah! if he only knew! How cruel one's +children are! Did he understand to what frightful suffering he condemned +me, into what depths of despair, into what tortures, he cast me while I +was still in the prime of life, leaving me to suffer until this moment, +when I am about to die--me, his mother, who loved him with all the +intensity of a mother's love? Oh! isn't it cruel, cruel? + +"'You will tell him all this, monsieur--will you not? You will repeat to +him my last words: + +"'My child, my dear, dear child, be less harsh toward poor women! Life +is already brutal and savage enough in its dealings with them. My dear +son, think of what the existence of your poor mother has been ever since +the day you left her. My dear child, forgive her, and love her, now that +she is dead, for she has had to endure the most frightful penance ever +inflicted on a woman." + +"She gasped for breath, trembling, as if she had addressed the last words +to her son and as if he stood by her bedside. + +"Then she added: + +"'You will tell him also, monsieur, that I never again saw-the other.' + +"Once more she ceased speaking, then, in a broken voice, she said: + +"'Leave me now, I beg of you. I want to die all alone, since they are +not with me.'" + +Maitre Le Brument added: + +"And I left the house, monsieurs, crying like a fool, so bitterly, +indeed, that my coachman turned round to stare at me. + +"And to think that, every day, dramas like this are being enacted all +around us! + +"I have not found the son--that son--well, say what you like about him, +but I call him that criminal son!" + + + + + + +THE HAND + +All were crowding around M. Bermutier, the judge, who was giving his +opinion about the Saint-Cloud mystery. For a month this in explicable +crime had been the talk of Paris. Nobody could make head or tail of it. + +M. Bermutier, standing with his back to the fireplace, was talking, +citing the evidence, discussing the various theories, but arriving at no +conclusion. + +Some women had risen, in order to get nearer to him, and were standing +with their eyes fastened on the clean-shaven face of the judge, who was +saying such weighty things. They, were shaking and trembling, moved by +fear and curiosity, and by the eager and insatiable desire for the +horrible, which haunts the soul of every woman. One of them, paler than +the others, said during a pause: + +"It's terrible. It verges on the supernatural. The truth will never be +known." + +The judge turned to her: + +"True, madame, it is likely that the actual facts will never be +discovered. As for the word 'supernatural' which you have just used, it +has nothing to do with the matter. We are in the presence of a very +cleverly conceived and executed crime, so well enshrouded in mystery that +we cannot disentangle it from the involved circumstances which surround +it. But once I had to take charge of an affair in which the uncanny +seemed to play a part. In fact, the case became so confused that it had +to be given up." + +Several women exclaimed at once: + +"Oh! Tell us about it!" + +M. Bermutier smiled in a dignified manner, as a judge should, and went +on: + +"Do not think, however, that I, for one minute, ascribed anything in the +case to supernatural influences. I believe only in normal causes. But +if, instead of using the word 'supernatural' to express what we do not +understand, we were simply to make use of the word 'inexplicable,' it +would be much better. At any rate, in the affair of which I am about to +tell you, it is especially the surrounding, preliminary circumstances +which impressed me. Here are the facts: + +"I was, at that time, a judge at Ajaccio, a little white city on the edge +of a bay which is surrounded by high mountains. + +"The majority of the cases which came up before me concerned vendettas. +There are some that are superb, dramatic, ferocious, heroic. We find +there the most beautiful causes for revenge of which one could dream, +enmities hundreds of years old, quieted for a time but never +extinguished; abominable stratagems, murders becoming massacres and +almost deeds of glory. For two years I heard of nothing but the price of +blood, of this terrible Corsican prejudice which compels revenge for +insults meted out to the offending person and all his descendants and +relatives. I had seen old men, children, cousins murdered; my head was +full of these stories. + +"One day I learned that an Englishman had just hired a little villa at +the end of the bay for several years. He had brought with him a French +servant, whom he had engaged on the way at Marseilles. + +"Soon this peculiar person, living alone, only going out to hunt and +fish, aroused a widespread interest. He never spoke to any one, never +went to the town, and every morning he would practice for an hour or so +with his revolver and rifle. + +"Legends were built up around him. It was said that he was some high +personage, fleeing from his fatherland for political reasons; then it was +affirmed that he was in hiding after having committed some abominable +crime. Some particularly horrible circumstances were even mentioned. + +"In my judicial position I thought it necessary to get some information +about this man, but it was impossible to learn anything. He called +himself Sir John Rowell. + +"I therefore had to be satisfied with watching him as closely as I could, +but I could see nothing suspicious about his actions. + +"However, as rumors about him were growing and becoming more widespread, +I decided to try to see this stranger myself, and I began to hunt +regularly in the neighborhood of his grounds. + +"For a long time I watched without finding an opportunity. At last it +came to me in the shape of a partridge which I shot and killed right in +front of the Englishman. My dog fetched it for me, but, taking the bird, +I went at once to Sir John Rowell and, begging his pardon, asked him to +accept it. + +"He was a big man, with red hair and beard, very tall, very broad, a kind +of calm and polite Hercules. He had nothing of the so-called British +stiffness, and in a broad English accent he thanked me warmly for my +attention. At the end of a month we had had five or six conversations. + +"One night, at last, as I was passing before his door, I saw him in the +garden, seated astride a chair, smoking his pipe. I bowed and he invited +me to come in and have a glass of beer. I needed no urging. + +"He received me with the most punctilious English courtesy, sang the +praises of France and of Corsica, and declared that he was quite in love +with this country. + +"Then, with great caution and under the guise of a vivid interest, I +asked him a few questions about his life and his plans. He answered +without embarrassment, telling me that he had travelled a great deal in +Africa, in the Indies, in America. He added, laughing: + +"'I have had many adventures.' + +"Then I turned the conversation on hunting, and he gave me the most +curious details on hunting the hippopotamus, the tiger, the elephant and +even the gorilla. + +"I said: + +"'Are all these animals dangerous?' + +"He smiled: + +"'Oh, no! Man is the worst.' + +"And he laughed a good broad laugh, the wholesome laugh of a contented +Englishman. + +"'I have also frequently been man-hunting.' + +"Then he began to talk about weapons, and he invited me to come in and +see different makes of guns. + +"His parlor was draped in black, black silk embroidered in gold. Big +yellow flowers, as brilliant as fire, were worked on the dark material. + +"He said: + +"'It is a Japanese material.' + +"But in the middle of the widest panel a strange thing attracted my +attention. A black object stood out against a square of red velvet. I +went up to it; it was a hand, a human hand. Not the clean white hand of +a skeleton, but a dried black hand, with yellow nails, the muscles +exposed and traces of old blood on the bones, which were cut off as clean +as though it had been chopped off with an axe, near the middle of the +forearm. + +"Around the wrist, an enormous iron chain, riveted and soldered to this +unclean member, fastened it to the wall by a ring, strong enough to hold +an elephant in leash. + +"I asked: + +"'What is that?' + +"The Englishman answered quietly: + +"'That is my best enemy. It comes from America, too. The bones were +severed by a sword and the skin cut off with a sharp stone and dried in +the sun for a week.' + +"I touched these human remains, which must have belonged to a giant. The +uncommonly long fingers were attached by enormous tendons which still had +pieces of skin hanging to them in places. This hand was terrible to see; +it made one think of some savage vengeance. + +"I said: + +"'This man must have been very strong.' + +"The Englishman answered quietly: + +"'Yes, but I was stronger than he. I put on this chain to hold him.' + +"I thought that he was joking. I said: + +"'This chain is useless now, the hand won't run away.' + +"Sir John Rowell answered seriously: + +"'It always wants to go away. This chain is needed.' + +"I glanced at him quickly, questioning his face, and I asked myself: + +"'Is he an insane man or a practical joker?' + +"But his face remained inscrutable, calm and friendly. I turned to other +subjects, and admired his rifles. + +"However, I noticed that he kept three loaded revolvers in the room, as +though constantly in fear of some attack. + +"I paid him several calls. Then I did not go any more. People had +become used to his presence; everybody had lost interest in him. + +"A whole year rolled by. One morning, toward the end of November, my +servant awoke me and announced that Sir John Rowell had been murdered +during the night. + +"Half an hour later I entered the Englishman's house, together with the +police commissioner and the captain of the gendarmes. The servant, +bewildered and in despair, was crying before the door. At first I +suspected this man, but he was innocent. + +"The guilty party could never be found. + +"On entering Sir John's parlor, I noticed the body, stretched out on its +back, in the middle of the room. + +"His vest was torn, the sleeve of his jacket had been pulled off, +everything pointed to, a violent struggle. + +"The Englishman had been strangled! His face was black, swollen and +frightful, and seemed to express a terrible fear. He held something +between his teeth, and his neck, pierced by five or six holes which +looked as though they had been made by some iron instrument, was covered +with blood. + +"A physician joined us. He examined the finger marks on the neck for a +long time and then made this strange announcement: + +"'It looks as though he had been strangled by a skeleton.' + +"A cold chill seemed to run down my back, and I looked over to where I +had formerly seen the terrible hand. It was no longer there. The chain +was hanging down, broken. + +"I bent over the dead man and, in his contracted mouth, I found one of +the fingers of this vanished hand, cut--or rather sawed off by the teeth +down to the second knuckle. + +"Then the investigation began. Nothing could be discovered. No door, +window or piece of furniture had been forced. The two watch dogs had not +been aroused from their sleep. + +"Here, in a few words, is the testimony of the servant: + +"For a month his master had seemed excited. He had received many +letters, which he would immediately burn. + +"Often, in a fit of passion which approached madness, he had taken a +switch and struck wildly at this dried hand riveted to the wall, and +which had disappeared, no one knows how, at the very hour of the crime. + +"He would go to bed very late and carefully lock himself in. He always +kept weapons within reach. Often at night he would talk loudly, as +though he were quarrelling with some one. + +"That night, somehow, he had made no noise, and it was only on going to +open the windows that the servant had found Sir John murdered. He +suspected no one. + +"I communicated what I knew of the dead man to the judges and public +officials. Throughout the whole island a minute investigation was +carried on. Nothing could be found out. + +"One night, about three months after the crime, I had a terrible +nightmare. I seemed to see the horrible hand running over my curtains +and walls like an immense scorpion or spider. Three times I awoke, three +times I went to sleep again; three times I saw the hideous object +galloping round my room and moving its fingers like legs. + +"The following day the hand was brought me, found in the cemetery, on the +grave of Sir John Rowell, who had been buried there because we had been +unable to find his family. The first finger was missing. + +"Ladies, there is my story. I know nothing more." + +The women, deeply stirred, were pale and trembling. One of them +exclaimed: + +"But that is neither a climax nor an explanation! We will be unable to +sleep unless you give us your opinion of what had occurred." + +The judge smiled severely: + +"Oh! Ladies, I shall certainly spoil your terrible dreams. I simply +believe that the legitimate owner of the hand was not dead, that he came +to get it with his remaining one. But I don't know how. It was a kind +of vendetta." + +One of the women murmured: + +"No, it can't be that." + +And the judge, still smiling, said: + +"Didn't I tell you that my explanation would not satisfy you?" + + + + + + +A TRESS OF HAIR + +The walls of the cell were bare and white washed. A narrow grated +window, placed so high that one could not reach it, lighted this sinister +little room. The mad inmate, seated on a straw chair, looked at us with +a fixed, vacant and haunted expression. He was very thin, with hollow +cheeks and hair almost white, which one guessed might have turned gray in +a few months. His clothes appeared to be too large for his shrunken +limbs, his sunken chest and empty paunch. One felt that this man's mind +was destroyed, eaten by his thoughts, by one thought, just as a fruit is +eaten by a worm. His craze, his idea was there in his brain, insistent, +harassing, destructive. It wasted his frame little by little. It--the +invisible, impalpable, intangible, immaterial idea--was mining his +health, drinking his blood, snuffing out his life. + +What a mystery was this man, being killed by an ideal! He aroused +sorrow, fear and pity, this madman. What strange, tremendous and deadly +thoughts dwelt within this forehead which they creased with deep wrinkles +which were never still? + +"He has terrible attacks of rage," said the doctor to me. "His is one of +the most peculiar cases I have ever seen. He has seizures of erotic and +macaberesque madness. He is a sort of necrophile. He has kept a journal +in which he sets forth his disease with the utmost clearness. In it you +can, as it were, put your finger on it. If it would interest you, you +may go over this document." + +I followed the doctor into his office, where he handed me this wretched +man's diary, saying: "Read it and tell me what you think of it." +I read as follows: + +"Until the age of thirty-two I lived peacefully, without knowing love. +Life appeared very simple, very pleasant and very easy. I was rich. +I enjoyed so many things that I had no passion for anything in +particular. It was good to be alive! I awoke happy every morning and +did those things that pleased me during the day and went to bed at night +contented, in the expectation of a peaceful tomorrow and a future without +anxiety. + +"I had had a few flirtations without my heart being touched by any true +passion or wounded by any of the sensations of true love. It is good to +live like that. It is better to love, but it is terrible. And yet those +who love in the ordinary way must experience ardent happiness, though +less than mine possibly, for love came to me in a remarkable manner. + +"As I was wealthy, I bought all kinds of old furniture and old +curiosities, and I often thought of the unknown hands that had touched +these objects, of the eyes that had admired them, of the hearts that had +loved them; for one does love things! I sometimes remained hours and +hours looking at a little watch of the last century. It was so tiny, so +pretty with its enamel and gold chasing. And it kept time as on the day +when a woman first bought it, enraptured at owning this dainty trinket. +It had not ceased to vibrate, to live its mechanical life, and it had +kept up its regular tick-tock since the last century. Who had first worn +it on her bosom amid the warmth of her clothing, the heart of the watch +beating beside the heart of the woman? What hand had held it in its warm +fingers, had turned it over and then wiped the enamelled shepherds on the +case to remove ,the slight moisture from her fingers? What eyes had +watched the hands on its ornamental face for the expected, the beloved, +the sacred hour? + +"How I wished I had known her, seen her, the woman who had selected this +exquisite and rare object! She is dead! I am possessed with a longing +for women of former days. I love, from afar, all those who have loved. +The story of those dead and gone loves fills my heart with regrets. Oh, +the beauty, the smiles, the youthful caresses, the hopes! Should not all +that be eternal? + +"How I have wept whole nights-thinking of those poor women of former +days, so beautiful, so loving, so sweet, whose arms were extended in an +embrace, and who now are dead! A kiss is immortal! It goes from lips to +lips, from century to century, from age to age. Men receive them, give +them and die. + +"The past attracts me, the present terrifies me because the future means +death. I regret all that has gone by. I mourn all who have lived; I +should like to check time, to stop the clock. But time goes, it goes, it +passes, it takes from me each second a little of myself for the +annihilation of to-morrow. And I shall never live again. + +"Farewell, ye women of yesterday. I love you! + +"But I am not to be pitied. I found her, the one I was waiting for, and +through her I enjoyed inestimable pleasure. + +"I was sauntering in Paris on a bright, sunny morning, with a happy heart +and a high step, looking in at the shop windows with the vague interest +of an idler. All at once I noticed in the shop of a dealer in antiques a +piece of Italian furniture of the seventeenth century. It was very +handsome, very rare. I set it down as being the work of a Venetian +artist named Vitelli, who was celebrated in his day. + +"I went on my way. + +"Why did the remembrance of that piece of furniture haunt me with such +insistence that I retraced my steps? I again stopped before the shop, in +order to take another look at it, and I felt that it tempted me. + +"What a singular thing temptation is! One gazes at an object, and, +little by little, it charms you, it disturbs you, it fills your thoughts +as a woman's face might do. The enchantment of it penetrates your being, +a strange enchantment of form, color and appearance of an inanimate +object. And one loves it, one desires it, one wishes to have it. A +longing to own it takes possession of you, gently at first, as though it +were timid, but growing, becoming intense, irresistible. + +"And the dealers seem to guess, from your ardent gaze, your secret and +increasing longing. + +"I bought this piece of furniture and had it sent home at once. I placed +it in my room. + +"Oh, I am sorry for those who do not know the honeymoon of the collector +with the antique he has just purchased. One looks at it tenderly and +passes one's hand over it as if it were human flesh; one comes back to it +every moment, one is always thinking of it, wherever ore goes, whatever +one does. The dear recollection of it pursues you in the street, in +society, everywhere; and when you return home at night, before taking off +your gloves or your hat; you go and look at it with the tenderness of a +lover. + +"Truly, for eight days I worshipped this piece of furniture. I opened +its doors and pulled out the drawers every few moments. I handled it +with rapture, with all the intense joy of possession. + +"But one evening I surmised, while I was feeling the thickness of one of +the panels, that there must be a secret drawer in it: My heart began to +beat, and I spent the night trying to discover this secret cavity. + +"I succeeded on the following day by driving a knife into a slit in the +wood. A panel slid back and I saw, spread out on a piece of black +velvet, a magnificent tress of hair. + +"Yes, a woman's hair, an immense coil of fair hair, almost red, which +must have been cut off close to the head, tied with a golden cord. + +"I stood amazed, trembling, confused. An almost imperceptible perfume, +so ancient that it seemed to be the spirit of a perfume, issued from this +mysterious drawer and this remarkable relic. + +"I lifted it gently, almost reverently, and took it out of its hiding +place. It at once unwound in a golden shower that reached to the floor, +dense but light; soft and gleaming like the tail of a comet. + +"A strange emotion filled me. What was this? When, how, why had this +hair been shut up in this drawer? What adventure, what tragedy did this +souvenir conceal? Who had cut it off? A lover on a day of farewell, a +husband on a day of revenge, or the one whose head it had graced on the +day of despair? + +"Was it as she was about to take the veil that they had cast thither that +love dowry as a pledge to the world of the living? Was it when they were +going to nail down the coffin of the beautiful young corpse that the one +who had adored her had cut off her tresses, the only thing that he could +retain of her, the only living part of her body that would not suffer +decay, the only thing he could still love, and caress, and kiss in his +paroxysms of grief? + +"Was it not strange that this tress should have remained as it was in +life, when not an atom of the body on which it grew was in existence? + +"It fell over my fingers, tickled the skin with a singular caress, the +caress of a dead woman. It affected me so that I felt as though I should +weep. + +"I held it in my hands for a long time, then it seemed as if it disturbed +me, as though something of the soul had remained in it. And I put it +back on the velvet, rusty from age, and pushed in the drawer, closed the +doors of the antique cabinet and went out for a walk to meditate. + +"I walked along, filled with sadness and also with unrest, that unrest +that one feels when in love. I felt as though I must have lived before, +as though I must have known this woman. + +"And Villon's lines came to my mind like a sob: + + Tell me where, and in what place + Is Flora, the beautiful Roman, + Hipparchia and Thais + Who was her cousin-german? + + Echo answers in the breeze + O'er river and lake that blows, + Their beauty was above all praise, + But where are last year's snows? + + The queen, white as lilies, + Who sang as sing the birds, + Bertha Broadfoot, Beatrice, Alice, + Ermengarde, princess of Maine, + And Joan, the good Lorraine, + Burned by the English at Rouen, + Where are they, Virgin Queen? + And where are last year's snows? + +"When I got home again I felt an irresistible longing to see my singular +treasure, and I took it out and, as I touched it, I felt a shiver go all +through me. + +"For some days, however, I was in my ordinary condition, although the +thought of that tress of hair was always present to my mind. + +"Whenever I came into the house I had to see it and take it in my, hands. +I turned the key of the cabinet with the same hesitation that one opens +the door leading to one's beloved, for in my hands and my heart I felt a +confused, singular, constant sensual longing to plunge my hands in the +enchanting golden flood of those dead tresses. + +"Then, after I had finished caressing it and had locked the cabinet I +felt as if it were a living thing, shut up in there, imprisoned; and I +longed to see it again. I felt again the imperious desire to take it in +my hands, to touch it, to even feel uncomfortable at the cold, slippery, +irritating, bewildering contact. + +"I lived thus for a month or two, I forget how long. It obsessed me, +haunted me. I was happy and tormented by turns, as when one falls in +love, and after the first vows have been exchanged. + +"I shut myself in the room with it to feel it on my skin, to bury my lips +in it, to kiss it. I wound it round my face, covered my eyes with the +golden flood so as to see the day gleam through its gold. + +"I loved it! Yes, I loved it. I could not be without it nor pass an +hour without looking at it. + +"And I waited--I waited--for what? I do not know-- For her! + +"One night I woke up suddenly, feeling as though I were not alone in my +room. + +"I was alone, nevertheless, but I could not go to sleep again, and, as I +was tossing about feverishly, I got up to look at the golden tress. It +seemed softer than usual, more life-like. Do the dead come back? I +almost lost consciousness as I kissed it. I took it back with me to bed +and pressed it to my lips as if it were my sweetheart. + +"Do the dead come back? She came back. Yes, I saw her; I held her in my +arms, just as she was in life, tall, fair and round. She came back every +evening--the dead woman, the beautiful, adorable, mysterious unknown. + +"My happiness was so great that I could not conceal it. No lover ever +tasted such intense, terrible enjoyment. I loved her so well that I +could not be separated from her. I took her with me always and +everywhere. I walked about the town with her as if she were my wife, and +took her to the theatre, always to a private box. But they saw her--they +guessed--they arrested me. They put me in prison like a criminal. They +took her. Oh, misery!" + +Here the manuscript stopped. And as I suddenly raised my astonished eyes +to the doctor a terrific cry, a howl of impotent rage and of exasperated +longing resounded through the asylum. + +"Listen," said the doctor. "We have to douse the obscene madman with +water five times a day. Sergeant Bertrand was the only one who was in +love with the dead." + +Filled with astonishment, horror and pity, I stammered out: + +"But--that tress--did it really exist?" + +The doctor rose, opened a cabinet full of phials and instruments and +tossed over a long tress of fair hair which flew toward me like a golden +bird. + +I shivered at feeling its soft, light touch on my hands. And I sat +there, my heart beating with disgust and desire, disgust as at the +contact of anything accessory to a crime and desire as at the temptation +of some infamous and mysterious thing. + +The doctor said as he shrugged his shoulders: + +"The mind of man is capable of anything." + + + + + + +ON THE RIVER + +I rented a little country house last summer on the banks of the Seine, +several leagues from Paris, and went out there to sleep every evening. +After a few days I made the acquaintance of one of my neighbors, a man +between thirty and forty, who certainly was the most curious specimen I +ever met. He was an old boating man, and crazy about boating. He was +always beside the water, on the water, or in the water. He must have +been born in a boat, and he will certainly die in a boat at the last. + +One evening as we were walking along the banks of the Seine I asked him +to tell me some stories about his life on the water. The good man at +once became animated, his whole expression changed, he became eloquent, +almost poetical. There was in his heart one great passion, an absorbing, +irresistible passion-the river. + +Ah, he said to me, how many memories I have, connected with that river +that you see flowing beside us! You people who live in streets know +nothing about the river. But listen to a fisherman as he mentions the +word. To him it is a mysterious thing, profound, unknown, a land of +mirages and phantasmagoria, where one sees by night things that do not +exist, hears sounds that one does not recognize, trembles without knowing +why, as in passing through a cemetery--and it is, in fact, the most +sinister of cemeteries, one in which one has no tomb. + +The land seems limited to the river boatman, and on dark nights, when +there is no moon, the river seems limitless. A sailor has not the same +feeling for the sea. It is often remorseless and cruel, it is true; but +it shrieks, it roars, it is honest, the great sea; while the river is +silent and perfidious. It does not speak, it flows along without a +sound; and this eternal motion of flowing water is more terrible to me +than the high waves of the ocean. + +Dreamers maintain that the sea hides in its bosom vast tracts of blue +where those who are drowned roam among the big fishes, amid strange +forests and crystal grottoes. The river has only black depths where one +rots in the slime. It is beautiful, however, when it sparkles in the +light of the rising sun and gently laps its banks covered with whispering +reeds. + +The poet says, speaking of the ocean, + O waves, what mournful tragedies ye know-- + Deep waves, the dread of kneeling mothers' hearts! + Ye tell them to each other as ye roll + On flowing tide, and this it is that gives + The sad despairing tones unto your voice + As on ye roll at eve by mounting tide." + +Well, I think that the stories whispered by the slender reeds, with their +little soft voices, must be more sinister than the lugubrious tragedies +told by the roaring of the waves. + +But as you have asked for some of my recollections, I will tell you of a +singular adventure that happened to me ten years ago. + +I was living, as I am now, in Mother Lafon's house, and one of my closest +friends, Louis Bernet who has now given up boating, his low shoes and his +bare neck, to go into the Supreme Court, was living in the village of C., +two leagues further down the river. We dined together every day, +sometimes at his house, sometimes at mine. + +One evening as I was coming home along and was pretty tired, rowing with +difficulty my big boat, a twelve-footer, which I always took out at +night, I stopped a few moments to draw breath near the reed-covered point +yonder, about two hundred metres from the railway bridge. + +It was a magnificent night, the moon shone brightly, the river gleamed, +the air was calm and soft. This peacefulness tempted me. I thought to +myself that it would be pleasant to smoke a pipe in this spot. I took up +my anchor and cast it into the river. + +The boat floated downstream with the current, to the end of the chain, +and then stopped, and I seated myself in the stern on my sheepskin and +made myself as comfortable as possible. There was not a sound to be +heard, except that I occasionally thought I could perceive an almost +imperceptible lapping of the water against the bank, and I noticed taller +groups of reeds which assumed strange shapes and seemed, at times, to +move. + +The river was perfectly calm, but I felt myself affected by the unusual +silence that surrounded me. All the creatures, frogs and toads, those +nocturnal singers of the marsh, were silent. + +Suddenly a frog croaked to my right, and close beside me. I shuddered. +It ceased, and I heard nothing more, and resolved to smoke, to soothe my +mind. But, although I was a noted colorer of pipes, I could not smoke; +at the second draw I was nauseated, and gave up trying. I began to sing. +The sound of my voice was distressing to me. So I lay still, but +presently the slight motion of the boat disturbed me. It seemed to me as +if she were making huge lurches, from bank to bank of the river, touching +each bank alternately. Then I felt as though an invisible force, or +being, were drawing her to the surface of the water and lifting her out, +to let her fall again. I was tossed about as in a tempest. I heard +noises around me. I sprang to my feet with a single bound. The water +was glistening, all was calm. + +I saw that my nerves were somewhat shaky, and I resolved to leave the +spot. I pulled the anchor chain, the boat began to move; then I felt a +resistance. I pulled harder, the anchor did not come up; it had caught +on something at the bottom of the river and I could not raise it. I +began pulling again, but all in vain. Then, with my oars, I turned the +boat with its head up stream to change the position of the anchor. It +was no use, it was still caught. I flew into a rage and shook the chain +furiously. Nothing budged. I sat down, disheartened, and began to +reflect on my situation. I could not dream of breaking this chain, or +detaching it from the boat, for it was massive and was riveted at the +bows to a piece of wood as thick as my arm. However, as the weather was +so fine I thought that it probably would not be long before some +fisherman came to my aid. My ill-luck had quieted me. I sat down and +was able, at length, to smoke my pipe. I had a bottle of rum; I drank +two or three glasses, and was able to laugh at the situation. It was +very warm; so that, if need be, I could sleep out under the stars without +any great harm. + +All at once there was a little knock at the side of the boat. I gave a +start, and a cold sweat broke out all over me. The noise was, doubtless, +caused by some piece of wood borne along by the current, but that was +enough, and I again became a prey to a strange nervous agitation. I +seized the chain and tensed my muscles in a desperate effort. The anchor +held firm. I sat down again, exhausted. + +The river had slowly become enveloped in a thick white fog which lay +close to the water, so that when I stood up I could see neither the +river, nor my feet, nor my boat; but could perceive only the tops of the +reeds, and farther off in the distance the plain, lying white in the +moonlight, with big black patches rising up from it towards the sky, +which were formed by groups of Italian poplars. I was as if buried to +the waist in a cloud of cotton of singular whiteness, and all sorts of +strange fancies came into my mind. I thought that someone was trying to +climb into my boat which I could no longer distinguish, and that the +river, hidden by the thick fog, was full of strange creatures which were +swimming all around me. I felt horribly uncomfortable, my forehead felt +as if it had a tight band round it, my heart beat so that it almost +suffocated me, and, almost beside myself, I thought of swimming away from +the place. But then, again, the very idea made me tremble with fear. I +saw myself, lost, going by guesswork in this heavy fog, struggling about +amid the grasses and reeds which I could not escape, my breath rattling +with fear, neither seeing the bank, nor finding my boat; and it seemed as +if I would feel myself dragged down by the feet to the bottom of these +black waters. + +In fact, as I should have had to ascend the stream at least five hundred +metres before finding a spot free from grasses and rushes where I could +land, there were nine chances to one that I could not find my way in the +fog and that I should drown, no matter how well I could swim. + +I tried to reason with myself. My will made me resolve not to be afraid, +but there was something in me besides my will, and that other thing was +afraid. I asked myself what there was to be afraid of. My brave "ego" +ridiculed my coward "ego," and never did I realize, as on that day, the +existence in us of two rival personalities, one desiring a thing, the +other resisting, and each winning the day in turn. + +This stupid, inexplicable fear increased, and became terror. I remained +motionless, my eyes staring, my ears on the stretch with expectation. Of +what? I did not know, but it must be something terrible. I believe if +it had occurred to a fish to jump out of the water, as often happens, +nothing more would have been required to make me fall over, stiff and +unconscious. + +However, by a violent effort I succeeded in becoming almost rational +again. I took up my bottle of rum and took several pulls. Then an idea +came to me, and I began to shout with all my might towards all the points +of the compass in succession. When my throat was absolutely paralyzed I +listened. A dog was howling, at a great distance. + +I drank some more rum and stretched myself out at the bottom of the boat. +I remained there about an hour, perhaps two, not sleeping, my eyes wide +open, with nightmares all about me. I did not dare to rise, and yet I +intensely longed to do so. I delayed it from moment to moment. I said +to myself: "Come, get up!" and I was afraid to move. At last I raised +myself with infinite caution as though my life depended on the slightest +sound that I might make; and looked over the edge of the boat. +I was dazzled by the most marvellous, the most astonishing sight that it +is possible to see. It was one of those phantasmagoria of fairyland, one +of those sights described by travellers on their return from distant +lands, whom we listen to without believing. + +The fog which, two hours before, had floated on the water, had gradually +cleared off and massed on the banks, leaving the river absolutely clear; +while it formed on either bank an uninterrupted wall six or seven metres +high, which shone in the moonlight with the dazzling brilliance of snow. +One saw nothing but the river gleaming with light between these two white +mountains; and high above my head sailed the great full moon, in the +midst of a bluish, milky sky. + +All the creatures in the water were awake. The frogs croaked furiously, +while every few moments I heard, first to the right and then to the left, +the abrupt, monotonous and mournful metallic note of the bullfrogs. +Strange to say, I was no longer afraid. I was in the midst of such an +unusual landscape that the most remarkable things would not have +astonished me. + +How long this lasted I do not know, for I ended by falling asleep. When +I opened my eyes the moon had gone down and the sky was full of clouds. +The water lapped mournfully, the wind was blowing, it was pitch dark. +I drank the rest of the rum, then listened, while I trembled, to the +rustling of the reeds and the foreboding sound of the river. I tried to +see, but could not distinguish my boat, nor even my hands, which I held +up close to my eyes. + +Little by little, however, the blackness became less intense. All at +once I thought I noticed a shadow gliding past, quite near me. I +shouted, a voice replied; it was a fisherman. I called him; he came near +and I told him of my ill-luck. He rowed his boat alongside of mine and, +together, we pulled at the anchor chain. The anchor did not move. Day +came, gloomy gray, rainy and cold, one of those days that bring one +sorrows and misfortunes. I saw another boat. We hailed it. The man on +board of her joined his efforts to ours, and gradually the anchor +yielded. It rose, but slowly, slowly, loaded down by a considerable +weight. At length we perceived a black mass and we drew it on board. +It was the corpse of an old women with a big stone round her neck. + + + + + + +THE CRIPPLE + +The following adventure happened to me about 1882. I had just taken the +train and settled down in a corner, hoping that I should be left alone, +when the door suddenly opened again and I heard a voice say: "Take care, +monsieur, we are just at a crossing; the step is very high." + +Another voice answered: "That's all right, Laurent, I have a firm hold on +the handle." + +Then a head appeared, and two hands seized the leather straps hanging on +either side of the door and slowly pulled up an enormous body, whose feet +striking on the step, sounded like two canes. When the man had hoisted +his torso into the compartment I noticed, at the loose edge of his +trousers, the end of a wooden leg, which was soon followed by its mate. +A head appeared behind this traveller and asked; "Are you all right, +monsieur?" + +"Yes, my boy." + +"Then here are your packages and crutches." + +And a servant, who looked like an old soldier, climbed in, carrying in +his arms a stack of bundles wrapped in black and yellow papers and +carefully tied; he placed one after the other in the net over his +master's head. Then he said: "There, monsieur, that is all. There are +five of them--the candy, the doll the drum, the gun, and the pate de +foies gras." + +"Very well, my boy." + +"Thank you, Laurent; good health!" + +The man closed the door and walked away, and I looked at my neighbor. +He was about thirty-five, although his hair was almost white; he wore the +ribbon of the Legion of Honor; he had a heavy mustache and was quite +stout, with the stoutness of a strong and active man who is kept +motionless on account of some infirmity. He wiped his brow, sighed, and, +looking me full in the face, he asked: "Does smoking annoy you, +monsieur?" + +"No, monsieur." + +Surely I knew that eye, that voice, that face. But when and where had I +seen them? I had certainly met that man, spoken to him, shaken his hand. +That was a long, long time ago. It was lost in the haze wherein the mind +seems to feel around blindly for memories and pursues them like fleeing +phantoms without being able to seize them. He, too, was observing me, +staring me out of countenance, with the persistence of a man who +remembers slightly but not completely. Our eyes, embarrassed by this +persistent contact, turned away; then, after a few minutes, drawn +together again by the obscure and tenacious will of working memory, they +met once more, and I said: "Monsieur, instead of staring at each other +for an hour or so, would it not be better to try to discover where we +have known each other?" + +My neighbor answered graciously: "You are quite right, monsieur." + +I named myself: "I am Henri Bonclair, a magistrate." + +He hesitated for a few minutes; then, with the vague look and voice which +accompany great mental tension, he said: "Oh, I remember perfectly. +I met you twelve years ago, before the war, at the Poincels!" + +"Yes, monsieur. Ah! Ah! You are Lieutenant Revaliere?" + +"Yes. I was Captain Revaliere even up to the time when I lost my feet-- +both of them together from one cannon ball." + +Now that we knew each other's identity we looked at each other again. +I remembered perfectly the handsome, slender youth who led the cotillons +with such frenzied agility and gracefulness that he had been nicknamed +"the fury." Going back into the dim, distant past, I recalled a story +which I had heard and forgotten, one of those stories to which one +listens but forgets, and which leave but a faint impression upon the +memory. + +There was something about love in it. Little by little the shadows +cleared up, and the face of a young girl appeared before my eyes. Then +her name struck me with the force of an explosion: Mademoiselle de +Mandel. I remembered everything now. It was indeed a love story, but +quite commonplace. The young girl loved this young man, and when I had +met them there was already talk of the approaching wedding. The youth +seemed to be very much in love, very happy. + +I raised my eye to the net, where all the packages which had been brought +in by the servant were trembling from the motion of the train, and the +voice of the servant came back to me, as if he had just finished +speaking. He had said: "There, monsieur, that is all. There are five of +them: the candy, the doll, the drum, the gun, and the pate de foies +gras." + +Then, in a second, a whole romance unfolded itself in my head. It was +like all those which I had already read, where the young lady married +notwithstanding the catastrophe, whether physical or financial; +therefore, this officer who had been maimed in the war had returned, +after the campaign, to the young girl who had given him her promise, and +she had kept her word. + +I considered that very beautiful, but simple, just as one, considers +simple all devotions and climaxes in books or in plays. It always seems, +when one reads or listens to these stories of magnanimity, that one could +sacrifice one's self with enthusiastic pleasure and overwhelming joy. +But the following day, when an unfortunate friend comes to borrow some +money, there is a strange revulsion of feeling. + +But, suddenly, another supposition, less poetic and more realistic, +replaced the first one. Perhaps he had married before the war, before +this frightful accident, and she, in despair and resignation, had been +forced to receive, care for, cheer, and support this husband, who had +departed, a handsome man, and had returned without his feet, a frightful +wreck, forced into immobility, powerless anger, and fatal obesity. + +Was he happy or in torture? I was seized with an irresistible desire to +know his story, or, at least, the principal points, which would permit me +to guess that which he could not or would not tell me. Still thinking +the matter over, I began talking to him. We had exchanged a few +commonplace words; and I raised my eyes to the net, and thought: "He must +have three children: the bonbons are for his wife, the doll for his +little girl, the drum and the gun for his sons, and this pate de foies +gras for himself." + +Suddenly I asked him: "Are you a father, monsieur?" + +He answered: "No, monsieur." + +I suddenly felt confused, as if I had been guilty of some breach of +etiquette, and I continued: "I beg your pardon. I had thought that you +were when I heard your servant speaking about the toys. One listens and +draws conclusions unconsciously." + +He smiled and then murmured: "No, I am not even married. I am still at +the preliminary stage." + +I pretended suddenly to remember, and said: + +"Oh! that's true! When I knew you, you were engaged to Mademoiselle de +Mandel, I believe." + +"Yes, monsieur, your memory is excellent." + +I grew very bold and added: "I also seem to remember hearing that +Mademoiselle de Mandel married Monsieur--Monsieur--" + +He calmly mentioned the name: "Monsieur de Fleurel." + +"Yes, that's it! I remember it was on that occasion that I heard of your +wound." + +I looked him full in the face, and he blushed. His full face, which was +already red from the oversupply of blood, turned crimson. He answered +quickly, with a sudden ardor of a man who is pleading a cause which is +lost in his mind and in his heart, but which he does not wish to admit. + +"It is wrong, monsieur, to couple my name with that of Madame de Fleurel. +When I returned from the war-without my feet, alas! I never would have +permitted her to become my wife. Was it possible? When one marries, +monsieur, it is not in order to parade one's generosity; it is in order +to live every day, every hour, every minute, every second beside a man; +and if this man is disfigured, as I am, it is a death sentence to marry +him! Oh, I understand, I admire all sacrifices and devotions when they +have a limit, but I do not admit that a woman should give up her whole +life, all joy, all her dreams, in order to satisfy the admiration of the +gallery. When I hear, on the floor of my room, the tapping of my wooden +legs and of my crutches, I grow angry enough to strangle my servant. Do +you think that I would permit a woman to do what I myself am unable to +tolerate? And, then, do you think that my stumps are pretty?" + +He was silent. What could I say? He certainly was right. Could I blame +her, hold her in contempt, even say that she was wrong? No. However, +the end which conformed to the rule, to the truth, did not satisfy my +poetic appetite. These heroic deeds demand a beautiful sacrifice, which +seemed to be lacking, and I felt a certain disappointment. I suddenly. +asked: "Has Madame de Fleurel any children?" + +"Yes, one girl and two boys. It is for them that I am bringing these +toys. She and her husband are very kind to me." + +The train was going up the incline to Saint-Germain. It passed through +the tunnels, entered the station, and stopped. I was about to offer my +arm to the wounded officer, in order to help him descend, when two hands +were stretched up to him through the open door. + +"Hello! my dear Revaliere!" + +"Ah! Hello, Fleurel!" + +Standing behind the man, the woman, still beautiful, was smiling and +waving her hands to him. A little girl, standing beside her, was jumping +for joy, and two young boys were eagerly watching the drum and the gun, +which were passing from the car into their father's hands. + +When the cripple was on the ground, all the children kissed him. Then +they set off, the little girl holding in her hand the small varnished +rung of a crutch, just as she might walk beside her big friend and hold +his thumb. + + + + + + +A STROLL + +When Old Man Leras, bookkeeper for Messieurs Labuze and Company, left the +store, he stood for a minute bewildered at the glory of the setting sun. +He had worked all day in the yellow light of a small jet of gas, far in +the back of the store, on a narrow court, as deep as a well. The little +room where he had been spending his days for forty years was so dark that +even in the middle of summer one could hardly see without gaslight from +eleven until three. + +It was always damp and cold, and from this hole on which his window +opened came the musty odor of a sewer. + +For forty years Monsieur Leras had been arriving every morning in this +prison at eight o'clock, and he would remain there until seven at night, +bending over his books, writing with the industry of a good clerk. + +He was now making three thousand francs a year, having started at fifteen +hundred. He had remained a bachelor, as his means did not allow him the +luxury of a wife, and as he had never enjoyed anything, he desired +nothing. From time to time, however, tired of this continuous and +monotonous work, he formed a platonic wish: "Gad! If I only had an +income of fifteen thousand francs, I would take life easy." + +He had never taken life easy, as he had never had anything but his +monthly salary. His life had been uneventful, without emotions, without +hopes. The faculty of dreaming with which every one is blessed had never +developed in the mediocrity of his ambitions. + +When he was twenty-one he entered the employ of Messieurs Labuze and +Company. And he had never left them. + +In 1856 he had lost his father and then his mother in 1859. Since then +the only incident in his life was when he moved, in 1868, because his +landlord had tried to raise his rent. + +Every day his alarm clock, with a frightful noise of rattling chains, +made him spring out of bed at 6 o'clock precisely. + +Twice, however, this piece of mechanism had been out of order--once in +1866 and again in 1874; he had never been able to find out the reason +why. He would dress, make his bed, sweep his room, dust his chair and +the top of his bureau. All this took him an hour and a half. + +Then he would go out, buy a roll at the Lahure Bakery, in which he had +seen eleven different owners without the name ever changing, and he would +eat this roll on the way to the office. + +His entire existence had been spent in the narrow, dark office, which was +still decorated with the same wall paper. He had entered there as a +young man, as assistant to Monsieur Brument, and with the desire to +replace him. + +He had taken his place and wished for nothing more. + +The whole harvest of memories which other men reap in their span of +years, the unexpected events, sweet or tragic loves, adventurous +journeys, all the occurrences of a free existence, all these things had +remained unknown to him. + +Days, weeks, months, seasons, years, all were alike to him. He got up +every day at the same hour, started out, arrived at the office, ate +luncheon, went away, had dinner and went to bed without ever interrupting +the regular monotony of similar actions, deeds and thoughts. + +Formerly he used to look at his blond mustache and wavy hair in the +little round mirror left by his predecessor. Now, every evening before +leaving, he would look at his white mustache and bald head in the same +mirror. Forty years had rolled by, long and rapid, dreary as a day of +sadness and as similar as the hours of a sleepless night. Forty years of +which nothing remained, not even a memory, not even a misfortune, since +the death of his parents. Nothing. + +That day Monsieur Leras stood by the door, dazzled at the brilliancy of +the setting sun; and instead of returning home he decided to take a +little stroll before dinner, a thing which happened to him four or five +times a year. + +He reached the boulevards, where people were streaming along under the +green trees. It was a spring evening, one of those first warm and +pleasant evenings which fill the heart with the joy of life. + +Monsieur Leras went along with his mincing old man's step; he was going +along with joy in his heart, at peace with the world. He reached the +Champs-Elysees, and he continued to walk, enlivened by the sight of the +young people trotting along. + +The whole sky was aflame; the Arc de Triomphe stood out against the +brilliant background of the horizon, like a giant surrounded by fire. As +he approached the immense monument, the old bookkeeper noticed that he +was hungry, and he went into a wine dealer's for dinner. + +The meal was served in front of the store, on the sidewalk. It consisted +of some mutton, salad and asparagus. It was the best dinner that +Monsieur Leras had had in a long time. He washed down his cheese with a +small bottle of burgundy, had his after-dinner cup of coffee, a thing +which he rarely took, and finally a little pony of brandy. + +When he had paid he felt quite youthful, even a little moved. And he +said to himself: "What a fine evening! I will continue my stroll as far +as the entrance to the Bois de Boulogne. It will do me good." +He set out. An old tune which one of his neighbors used to sing kept +returning to his mind. He kept on humming it over and over again. A +hot, still night had fallen over Paris. Monsieur Leras walked along the +Avenue du Bois de Boulogne and watched the cabs drive by. They kept +coming with their shining lights, one behind the other, giving horn a +glimpse of the couples inside, the women in their light dresses and the +men dressed in black. + +It was one long procession of lovers, riding under the warm, starlit sky. +They kept on coming in rapid succession. They passed by in the +carriages, silent, side by side, lost in their dreams, in the emotion of +desire, in the anticipation of the approaching embrace. The warm shadows +seemed to be full of floating kisses. A sensation of tenderness filled +the air. All these carriages full of tender couples, all these people +intoxicated with the same idea, with the same thought, seemed to give out +a disturbing, subtle emanation. + +At last Monsieur Leras grew a little tired of walking, and he sat down on +a bench to watch these carriages pass by with their burdens of love. +Almost immediately a woman walked up to him and sat down beside him. +"Good-evening, papa," she said. + +He answered: "Madame, you are mistaken." + +She slipped her arm through his, saying: "Come along, now; don't be +foolish. Listen----" + +He arose and walked away, with sadness in his heart. A few yards away +another woman walked up to him and asked: "Won't you sit down beside me?" +He said: "What makes you take up this life?" + +She stood before him and in an altered, hoarse, angry voice exclaimed: + +"Well, it isn't for the fun of it, anyhow!" + +He insisted in a gentle voice: "Then what makes you?" + +She grumbled: "I've got to live! Foolish question!" And she walked away, +humming. + +Monsieur Leras stood there bewildered. Other women were passing near +him, speaking to him and calling to him. He felt as though he were +enveloped in darkness by something disagreeable. + +He sat down again on a bench. The carriages were still rolling by. He +thought: "I should have done better not to come here; I feel all upset." +He began to think of all this venal or passionate love, of all these +kisses, sold or given, which were passing by it front of him. Love! He +scarcely knew it. In his lifetime he had only known two or three women, +his means forcing him to live a quiet life, and he looked back at the +life which he had led, so different from everybody else, so dreary, so +mournful, so empty. + +Some people are really unfortunate. And suddenly, as though a veil had +been torn from his eyes, he perceived the infinite misery, the monotony +of his existence: the past, present and future misery; his last day +similar to his first one, with nothing before him, behind him or about +him, nothing in his heart or any place. + +The stream of carriages was still going by. In the rapid passage of the +open carriage he still saw the two silent, loving creatures. It seemed +to him that the whole of humanity was flowing on before him, intoxicated +with joy, pleasure and happiness. He alone was looking on. To-morrow he +would again be alone, always alone, more so than any one else. He stood +up, took a few steps, and suddenly he felt as tired as though he had +taken a long journey on foot, and he sat down on the next bench. + +What was he waiting for? What was he hoping for? Nothing. He was +thinking of how pleasant it must be in old age to return home and find +the little children. It is pleasant to grow old when one is surrounded +by those beings who owe their life to you, who love you, who caress you, +who tell you charming and foolish little things which warm your heart and +console you for everything. + +And, thinking of his empty room, clean and sad, where no one but himself +ever entered, a feeling of distress filled his soul; and the place seemed +to him more mournful even than his little office. Nobody ever came +there; no one ever spoke in it. It was dead, silent, without the echo of +a human voice. It seems as though walls retain something of the people +who live within them, something of their manner, face and voice. The +very houses inhabited by happy families are gayer than the dwellings of +the unhappy. His room was as barren of memories as his life. And the +thought of returning to this place, all alone, of getting into his bed, +of again repeating all the duties and actions of every evening, this +thought terrified him. As though to escape farther from this sinister +home, and from the time when he would have to return to it, he arose and +walked along a path to a wooded corner, where he sat down on the grass. + +About him, above him, everywhere, he heard a continuous, tremendous, +confused rumble, composed of countless and different noises, a vague and +throbbing pulsation of life: the life breath of Paris, breathing like a +giant. + +The sun was already high and shed a flood of light on the Bois de +Boulogne. A few carriages were beginning to drive about and people were +appearing on horseback. + +A couple was walking through a deserted alley. + +Suddenly the young woman raised her eyes and saw something brown in the +branches. Surprised and anxious, she raised her hand, exclaiming: "Look! +what is that?" + +Then she shrieked and fell into the arms of her companion, who was forced +to lay her on the ground. + +The policeman who had been called cut down an old man who had hung +himself with his suspenders. + +Examination showed that he had died the evening before. Papers found on +him showed that he was a bookkeeper for Messieurs Labuze and Company and +that his name was Leras. + +His death was attributed to suicide, the cause of which could not be +suspected. Perhaps a sudden access of madness! + + + + + + +ALEXANDRE + +At four o'clock that day, as on every other day, Alexandre rolled the +three-wheeled chair for cripples up to the door of the little house; +then, in obedience to the doctor's orders, he would push his old and +infirm mistress about until six o'clock. + +When he had placed the light vehicle against the step, just at the place +where the old lady could most easily enter it, he went into the house; +and soon a furious, hoarse old soldier's voice was heard cursing inside +the house: it issued from the master, the retired ex-captain of infantry, +Joseph Maramballe. + +Then could be heard the noise of doors being slammed, chairs being pushed +about, and hasty footsteps; then nothing more. After a few seconds, +Alexandre reappeared on the threshold, supporting with all his strength +Madame Maramballe, who was exhausted from the exertion of descending the +stairs. When she was at last settled in the rolling chair, Alexandre +passed behind it, grasped the handle, and set out toward the river. + +Thus they crossed the little town every day amid the respectful greeting, +of all. These bows were perhaps meant as much for the servant as for the +mistress, for if she was loved and esteemed by all, this old trooper, +with his long, white, patriarchal beard, was considered a model domestic. + +The July sun was beating down unmercifully on the street, bathing the low +houses in its crude and burning light. Dogs were sleeping on the +sidewalk in the shade of the houses, and Alexandre, a little out of +breath, hastened his footsteps in order sooner to arrive at the avenue +which leads to the water. + +Madame Maramballe was already slumbering under her white parasol, the +point of which sometimes grazed along the man's impassive face. As soon +as they had reached the Allee des Tilleuls, she awoke in the shade of the +trees, and she said in a kindly voice: "Go more slowly, my poor boy; you +will kill yourself in this heat." + +Along this path, completely covered by arched linden trees, the Mavettek +flowed in its winding bed bordered by willows. + +The gurgling of the eddies and the splashing of the little waves against +the rocks lent to the walk the charming music of babbling water and the +freshness of damp air. Madame Maramballe inhaled with deep delight the +humid charm of this spot and then murmured: "Ah! I feel better now! But +he wasn't in a good humor to-day." + +Alexandre answered: "No, madame." + +For thirty-five years he had been in the service of this couple, first as +officer's orderly, then as simple valet who did not wish to leave his +masters; and for the last six years, every afternoon, he had been +wheeling his mistress about through the narrow streets of the town. From +this long and devoted service, and then from this daily tete-a-tete, a +kind of familiarity arose between the old lady and the devoted servant, +affectionate on her part, deferential on his. + +They talked over the affairs of the house exactly as if they were equals. +Their principal subject of conversation and of worry was the bad +disposition of the captain, soured by a long career which had begun with +promise, run along without promotion, end ended without glory. + +Madame Maramballe continued: "He certainly was not in a good humor today. +This happens too often since he has left the service." + +And Alexandre, with a sigh, completed his mistress's thoughts, "Oh, +madame might say that it happens every day and that it also happened +before leaving the army." + +"That is true. But the poor man has been so unfortunate. He began with +a brave deed, which obtained for him the Legion of Honor at the age of +twenty; and then from twenty to fifty he was not able to rise higher than +captain, whereas at the beginning he expected to retire with at least the +rank of colonel." + +"Madame might also admit that it was his fault. If he had not always +been as cutting as a whip, his superiors would have loved and protected +him better. Harshness is of no use; one should try to please if one +wishes to advance. As far as his treatment of us is concerned, it is +also our fault, since we are willing to remain with him, but with others +it's different." + +Madame Maramballe was thinking. Oh, for how many years had she thus been +thinking of the brutality of her husband, whom she had married long ago +because he was a handsome officer, decorated quite young, and full of +promise, so they said! What mistakes one makes in life! + +She murmured: "Let us stop a while, my poor Alexandre, and you rest on +that bench: + +It was a little worm-eaten bench, placed at a turn in the alley. Every +time they came in this direction Alexandre was accustomed to making a +short pause on this seat. + +He sat down and with a proud and familiar gesture he took his beautiful +white beard in his hand, and, closing his, fingers over it, ran them down +to the point, which he held for a minute at the pit of his stomach, as if +once more to verify the length of this growth. + +Madame Maramballe continued: "I married him; it is only just and natural +that I should bear his injustice; but what I do not understand is why you +also should have supported it, my good Alexandre!" + +He merely shrugged his shoulders and answered: "Oh! I--madame." + +She added: "Really. I have often wondered. When I married him you were +his orderly and you could hardly do otherwise than endure him. But why +did you remain with us, who pay you so little and who treat you so badly, +when you could have done as every one else does, settle down, marry, have +a family?" + +He answered: "Oh, madame! with me it's different." + +Then he was silent; but he kept pulling his beard as if he were ringing a +bell within him, as if he were trying to pull it out, and he rolled his +eyes like a man who is greatly embarrassed. + +Madame Maramballe was following her own train of thought: "You are not a +peasant. You have an education--" + +He interrupted her proudly: "I studied surveying, madame." + +"Then why did you stay with us, and blast your prospects?" + +He stammered: "That's it! that's it! it's the fault of my dispositton." + +"How so, of your disposition?" + +"Yes, when I become attached to a person I become attached to him, that's +all." + +She began to laugh: "You are not going to try to tell me that +Maramballe's sweet disposition caused you to become attached to him for +life." + +He was fidgeting about on his bench visibly embarrassed, and he muttered +behind his long beard: + +"It was not he, it was you!" + +The old lady, who had a sweet face, with a snowy line of curly white hair +between her forehead and her bonnet, turned around in her chair and +observed her servant with a surprised look, exclaiming: "I, my poor +Alexandre! How so?" + +He began to look up in the air, then to one side, then toward the +distance, turning his head as do timid people when forced to admit +shameful secrets. At last he exclaimed, with the courage of a trooper +who is ordered to the line of fire: "You see, it's this way--the first +time I brought a letter to mademoiselle from the lieutenant, mademoiselle +gave me a franc and a smile, and that settled it." + +Not understanding well, she questioned him "Explain yourself." + +Then he cried out, like a malefactor who is admitting a fatal crime: +"I had a sentiment for madame! There!" + +She answered nothing, stopped looking at him, hung her head, and thought. +She was good, full of justice, gentleness, reason, and tenderness. In a +second she saw the immense devotion of this poor creature, who had given +up everything in order to live beside her, without saying anything. And +she felt as if she could cry. Then, with a sad but not angry expression, +she said: "Let us return home." + +He rose and began to push the wheeled chair. + +As they approached the village they saw Captain Maramballe coming toward +them. As soon as he joined them he asked his wife, with a visible desire +of getting angry: "What have we for dinner?" + +"Some chicken with flageolets." + +He lost his temper: "Chicken! chicken! always chicken! By all that's +holy, I've had enough chicken! Have you no ideas in your head, that you +make me eat chicken every day?" + +She answered, in a resigned tone: "But, my dear, you know that the doctor +has ordered it for you. It's the best thing for your stomach. If your +stomach were well, I could give you many things which I do not dare set +before you now." + +Then, exasperated, he planted himself in front of Alexandre, exclaiming: +"Well, if my stomach is out of order it's the fault of that brute. For +thirty-five years he has been poisoning me with his abominable cooking." + +Madame Maramballe suddenly turned about completely, in order to see the +old domestic. Their eyes met, and in this single glance they both said +"Thank you!" to each other. + + + + + + +THE LOG + +The drawing-room was small, full of heavy draperies and discreetly +fragrant. A large fire burned in the grate and a solitary lamp at one +end of the mantelpiece threw a soft light on the two persons who were +talking. + +She, the mistress of the house, was an old lady with white hair, but one +of those old ladies whose unwrinkled skin is as smooth as the finest +paper, and scented, impregnated with perfume, with the delicate essences +which she had used in her bath for so many years. + +He was a very old friend, who had never married, a constant friend, a +companion in the journey of life, but nothing more. + +They had not spoken for about a minute, and were both looking at the +fire, dreaming of no matter what, in one of those moments of friendly +silence between people who have no need to be constantly talking in order +to be happy together, when suddenly a large log, a stump covered with +burning roots, fell out. It fell over the firedogs into the drawing-room +and rolled on to the carpet, scattering great sparks around it. The old +lady, with a little scream, sprang to her feet to run away, while he +kicked the log back on to the hearth and stamped out all the burning +sparks with his boots. + +When the disaster was remedied, there was a strong smell of burning, and, +sitting down opposite to his friend, the man looked at her with a smile +and said, as he pointed to the log: + +"That is the reason why I never married." + +She looked at him in astonishment, with the inquisitive gaze of women who +wish to know everything, that eye which women have who are no longer very +young,--in which a complex, and often roguish, curiosity is reflected, +and she asked: + +"How so?" + +"Oh, it is a long story," he replied; "a rather sad and unpleasant story. + +"My old friends were often surprised at the coldness which suddenly +sprang up between one of my best friends whose Christian name was Julien, +and myself. They could not understand how two such intimate and +inseparable friends, as we had been, could suddenly become almost +strangers to one another, and I will tell you the reason of it. + +"He and I used to live together at one time. We were never apart, and +the friendship that united us seemed so strong that nothing could break +it. + +"One evening when he came home, he told me that he was going to get +married, and it gave me a shock as if he had robbed me or betrayed me. +When a man's friend marries, it is all over between them. The jealous +affection of a woman, that suspicious, uneasy and carnal affection, will +not tolerate the sturdy and frank attachment, that attachment of the +mind, of the heart, and that mutual confidence which exists between two +men. + +"You see, however great the love may be that unites them a man and a +woman are always strangers in mind and intellect; they remain +belligerents, they belong to different races. There must always be a +conqueror and a conquered, a master and a slave; now the one, now the +other--they are never two equals. They press each other's hands, those +hands trembling with amorous passion; but they never press them with a +long, strong, loyal pressure, with that pressure which seems to open +hearts and to lay them bare in a burst of sincere, strong, manly +affection. Philosophers of old, instead of marrying, and procreating as +a consolation for their old age children, who would abandon them, sought +for a good, reliable friend, and grew old with him in that communion of +thought which can only exist between men. + +"Well, my friend Julien married. His wife was pretty, charming, a +little, curly-haired blonde, plump and lively, who seemed to worship him. +At first I went but rarely to their house, feeling myself de trop. But, +somehow, they attracted me to their home; they were constantly inviting +me, and seemed very fond of me. Consequently, by degrees, I allowed +myself to be allured by the charm of their life. I often dined with +them, and frequently, when I returned home at night, thought that I would +do as he had done, and get married, as my empty house now seemed very +dull. + +"They appeared to be very much in love, and were never apart. + +"Well, one evening Julien wrote and asked me to go to dinner, and I +naturally went. + +"'My dear fellow,' he said, 'I must go out directly afterward on +business, and I shall not be back until eleven o'clock; but I shall be +back at eleven precisely, and I reckon on you to keep Bertha company.' + +"The young woman smiled. + +"'It was my idea,' she said, 'to send for you.' + +"I held out my hand to her. + +"'You are as nice as ever, I said, and I felt a long, friendly pressure +of my fingers, but I paid no attention to it; so we sat down to dinner, +and at eight o'clock Julien went out. + +"As soon as he had gone, a kind of strange embarrassment immediately +seemed to arise between his wife and me. We had never been alone +together yet, and in spite of our daily increasing intimacy, this tete +-a-tete placed us in a new position. At first I spoke vaguely of those +indifferent matters with which one fills up an embarrassing silence, but +she did not reply, and remained opposite to me with her head down in an +undecided manner, as if she were thinking over some difficult subject, +and as I was at a loss for small talk, I held my tongue. It is +surprising how hard it is at times to find anything to say. + +"And then also I felt something in the air, something I could not +express, one of those mysterious premonitions that warn one of another +person's secret intentions in regard to yourself, whether they be good or +evil. + +"That painful silence lasted some time, and then Bertha said to me: + +"'Will you kindly put a log on the fire for it is going out.' + +"So I opened the box where the wood was kept, which was placed just where +yours is, took out the largest log and put it on top of the others, which +were three parts burned, and then silence again reigned in the room. + +"In a few minutes the log was burning so brightly that it scorched our +faces, and the young woman raised her eyes to mine--eyes that had a +strange look to me. + +"'It is too hot now,' she said; 'let us go and sit on the sofa over +there.' + +"So we went and sat on the sofa, and then she said suddenly, looking me +full in the face: + +"'What would you do if a woman were to tell you that she was in love with +you?' + +"'Upon my word,' I replied, very much at a loss for an answer, 'I cannot +foresee such a case; but it would depend very much upon the woman.' + +"She gave a hard, nervous, vibrating laugh; one of those false laughs +which seem as if they must break thin glass, and then she added: 'Men are +never either venturesome or spiteful.' And, after a moment's silence, +she continued: 'Have you ever been in love, Monsieur Paul?' I was +obliged to acknowledge that I certainly had, and she asked me to tell her +all about it. Whereupon I made up some story or other. She listened to +me attentively, with frequent signs of disapproval and contempt, and then +suddenly she said: + +"'No, you understand nothing about the subject. It seems to me that real +love must unsettle the mind, upset the nerves and distract the head; that +it must--how shall I express it?--be dangerous, even terrible, almost +criminal and sacrilegious; that it must be a kind of treason; I mean to +say that it is bound to break laws, fraternal bonds, sacred obligations; +when love is tranquil, easy, lawful and without dangers, is it really +love?' + +"I did not know what answer to give her, and I made this philosophical +reflection to myself: 'Oh! female brain, here; indeed, you show +yourself!' + +"While speaking, she had assumed a demure saintly air; and, resting on +the cushions, she stretched herself out at full length, with her head on +my shoulder, and her dress pulled up a little so as to show her red +stockings, which the firelight made look still brighter. In a minute or +two she continued: + +"'I suppose I have frightened you?' I protested against such a notion, +and she leaned against my breast altogether, and without looking at me, +she said: 'If I were to tell you that I love you, what would you do?' + +"And before I could think of an answer, she had thrown her arms around my +neck, had quickly drawn my head down, and put her lips to mine. + +"Oh! My dear friend, I can tell you that I did not feel at all happy! +What! deceive Julien? become the lover of this little, silly, wrong- +headed, deceitful woman, who was, no doubt, terribly sensual, and whom +her husband no longer satisfied. + +To betray him continually, to deceive him, to play at being in love +merely because I was attracted by forbidden fruit, by the danger incurred +and the friendship betrayed! No, that did not suit me, but what was I to +do? To imitate Joseph would be acting a very stupid and, moreover, +difficult part, for this woman was enchanting in her perfidy, inflamed by +audacity, palpitating and excited. Let the man who has never felt on his +lips the warm kiss of a woman who is ready to give herself to him throw +the first stone at me. + +"Well, a minute more--you understand what I mean? A minute more, and--I +should have been--no, she would have been!--I beg your pardon, he would +have been--when a loud noise made us both jump up. The log had fallen +into the room, knocking over the fire irons and the fender, and on to the +carpet, which it had scorched, and had rolled under an armchair, which it +would certainly set alight. + +"I jumped up like a madman, and, as I was replacing on the fire that log +which had saved me, the door opened hastily, and Julien came in. + +"'I am free,' he said, with evident pleasure. 'The business was over two +hours sooner than I expected!' + +"Yes, my dear friend, without that log, I should have been caught in the +very act, and you know what the consequences would have been! + +"You may be sure that I took good care never to be found in a similar +situation again, never, never. Soon afterward I saw that Julien was +giving me the 'cold shoulder,' as they say. His wife was evidently +undermining our friendship. By degrees he got rid of me, and we have +altogether ceased to meet. + +"I never married, which ought not to surprise you, I think." + + + + + + +JULIE ROMAIN + +Two years ago this spring I was making a walking tour along the shore of +the Mediterranean. Is there anything more pleasant than to meditate +while walking at a good pace along a highway? One walks in the sunlight, +through the caressing breeze, at the foot of the mountains, along the +coast of the sea. And one dreams! What a flood of illusions, loves, +adventures pass through a pedestrian's mind during a two hours' march! +What a crowd of confused and joyous hopes enter into you with the mild, +light air! You drink them in with the breeze, and they awaken in your +heart a longing for happiness which increases with the hun ger induced by +walking. The fleeting, charming ideas fly and sing like birds. + +I was following that long road which goes from Saint Raphael to Italy, +or, rather, that long, splendid panoramic highway which seems made for +the representation of all the love-poems of earth. And I thought that +from Cannes, where one poses, to Monaco, where one gambles, people come +to this spot of the earth for hardly any other purpose than to get +embroiled or to throw away money on chance games, displaying under this +delicious sky and in this garden of roses and oranges all base vanities +and foolish pretensions and vile lusts, showing up the human mind such as +it is, servile, ignorant, arrogant and full of cupidity. + +Suddenly I saw some villas in one of those ravishing bays that one meets +at every turn of the mountain; there were only four or five fronting the +sea at the foot of the mountains, and behind them a wild fir wood slopes +into two great valleys, that were untraversed by roads. I stopped short +before one of these chalets, it was so pretty: a small white house with +brown trimmings, overrun with rambler roses up to the top. + +The garden was a mass of flowers, of all colors and all kinds, mixed in a +coquettish, well-planned disorder. The lawn was full of them, big pots +flanked each side of every step of the porch, pink or yellow clusters +framed each window, and the terrace with the stone balustrade, which +enclosed this pretty little dwelling, had a garland of enormous red +bells, like drops of blood. Behind the house I saw a long avenue of +orange trees in blossom, which went up to the foot of the mountain. + +Over the door appeared the name, "Villa d'Antan," in small gold letters. + +I asked myself what poet or what fairy was living there, what inspired, +solitary being had discovered this spot and created this dream house, +which seemed to nestle in a nosegay. + +A workman was breaking stones up the street, and I went to him to ask the +name of the proprietor of this jewel. + +"It is Madame Julie Romain," he replied. + +Julie Romain! In my childhood, long ago, I had heard them speak of this +great actress, the rival of Rachel. + +No woman ever was more applauded and more loved--especially more loved! +What duets and suicides on her account and what sensational adventures! +How old was this seductive woman now? Sixty, seventy, seventy-five! +Julie Romain here, in this house! The woman who had been adored by the +greatest musician and the most exquisite poet of our land! I still +remember the sensation (I was then twelve years of age) which her flight +to Sicily with the latter, after her rupture with the former, caused +throughout France. + +She had left one evening, after a premiere, where the audience had +applauded her for a whole half hour, and had recalled her eleven times in +succession. She had gone away with the poet, in a post-chaise, as was +the fashion then; they had crossed the sea, to love each other in that +antique island, the daughter of Greece, in that immense orange wood which +surrounds Palermo, and which is called the "Shell of Gold." + +People told of their ascension of Mount Etna and how they had leaned over +the immense crater, arm in arm, cheek to cheek, as if to throw themselves +into the very abyss. + +Now he was dead, that maker of verses so touching and so profound that +they turned, the heads of a whole generation, so subtle and so mysterious +that they opened a new world to the younger poets. + +The other one also was dead--the deserted one, who had attained through +her musical periods that are alive in the memories of all, periods of +triumph and of despair, intoxicating triumph and heartrending despair. + +And she was there, in that house veiled by flowers. + +I did not hesitate, but rang the bell. + +A small servant answered, a boy of eighteen with awkward mien and clumsy +hands. I wrote in pencil on my card a gallant compliment to the actress, +begging her to receive me. Perhaps, if she knew my name, she would open +her door to me. + +The little valet took it in, and then came back, asking me to follow him. +He led me to a neat and decorous salon, furnished in the Louis-Philippe +style, with stiff and heavy furniture, from which a little maid of +sixteen, slender but not pretty, took off the covers in my honor. + +Then I was left alone. + +On the walls hung three portraits, that of the actress in one of her +roles, that of the poet in his close-fitting greatcoat and the ruffled +shirt then in style, and that of the musician seated at a piano. + +She, blond, charming, but affected, according to the fashion of her day, +was smiling, with her pretty mouth and blue eyes; the painting was +careful, fine, elegant, but lifeless. + +Those faces seemed to be already looking upon posterity. + +The whole place had the air of a bygone time, of days that were done and +men who had vanished. + +A door opened and a little woman entered, old, very old, very small, with +white hair and white eyebrows, a veritable white mouse, and as quick and +furtive of movement. + +She held out her hand to me, saying in a voice still fresh, sonorous and +vibrant: + +"Thank you, monsieur. How kind it is of the men of to-day to remember +the women of yesterday! Sit down." + +I told her that her house had attracted me, that I had inquired for the +proprietor's name, and that, on learning it, I could not resist the +desire to ring her bell. + +"This gives me all the more pleasure, monsieur," she replied, "as it is +the first time that such a thing has happened. When I received your +card, with the gracious note, I trembled as if an old friend who had +disappeared for twenty years had been announced to me. I am like a dead +body, whom no one remembers, of whom no one will think until the day when +I shall actually die; then the newspapers will mention Julie Romain for +three days, relating anecdotes and details of my life, reviving memories, +and praising me greatly. Then all will be over with me." + +After a few moments of silence, she continued: + +"And this will not be so very long now. In a few months, in a few days, +nothing will remain but a little skeleton of this little woman who is now +alive." + +She raised her eyes toward her portrait, which smiled down upon this +caricature of herself; then she looked at those of the two men, the +disdainful poet and the inspired musician, who seemed to say: "What does +this ruin want of us?" + +An indefinable, poignant, irresistible sadness overwhelmed my heart, the +sadness of existences that have had their day, but who are still debating +with their memories, like a person drowning in deep water. + +From my seat I could see on the highroad the handsome carriages that were +whirling from Nice to Monaco; inside them I saw young, pretty, rich and +happy women and smiling, satisfied men. Following my eye, she understood +my thought and murmured with a smile of resignation: + +"One cannot both be and have been." + +"How beautiful life must have been for you!" I said. + +She heaved a great sigh. + +"Beautiful and sweet! And for that reason I regret it so much." + +I saw that she was disposed to talk of herself, so I began to question +her, gently and discreetly, as one might touch bruised flesh. + +She spoke of her successes, her intoxications and her friends, of her +whole triumphant existence. + +"Was it on the stage that you found your most intense joys, your true +happiness?" I asked. + +"Oh, no!" she replied quickly. + +I smiled; then, raising her eyes to the two portraits, she said, with a +sad glance: + +"It was with them." + +"Which one?" I could not help asking. + +"Both. I even confuse them up a little now in my old woman's memory, and +then I feel remorse." + +"Then, madame, your acknowledgment is not to them, but to Love itself. +They were merely its interpreters." + +"That is possible. But what interpreters!" + +"Are you sure that you have not been, or that you might not have been, +loved as well or better by a simple man, but not a great man, who would +have offered to you his whole life and heart, all his thoughts, all his +days, his whole being, while these gave you two redoubtable rivals, Music +and Poetry?" + +"No, monsieur, no!" she exclaimed emphatically, with that still youthful +voice, which caused the soul to vibrate. "Another one might perhaps have +loved me more, but he would not have loved me as these did. Ah! those +two sang to me of the music of love as no one else in the world could +have sung of it. How they intoxicated me! Could any other man express +what they knew so well how to express in tones and in words? Is it +enough merely to love if one cannot put all the poetry and all the music +of heaven and earth into love? And they knew how to make a woman +delirious with songs and with words. Yes, perhaps there was more of +illusion than of reality in our passion; but these illusions lift you +into the clouds, while realities always leave you trailing in the dust. +If others have loved me more, through these two I have understood, felt +and worshipped love." + +Suddenly she began to weep. + +She wept silently, shedding tears of despair. + +I pretended not to see, looking off into the distance. She resumed, +after a few minutes: + +"You see, monsieur, with nearly every one the heart ages with the body. +But this has not happened with me. My body is sixty-nine years old, +while my poor heart is only twenty. And that is the reason why I live +all alone, with my flowers and my dreams." + +There was a long silence between us. She grew calmer and continued, +smiling: + +"How you would laugh at me, if you knew, if you knew how I pass my +evenings, when the weather is fine. I am ashamed and I pity myself at +the same time." + +Beg as I might, she would not tell me what she did. Then I rose to +leave. + +"Already!" she exclaimed. + +And as I said that I wished to dine at Monte Carlo, she asked timidly: + +"Will you not dine with me? It would give me a great deal of pleasure." + +I accepted at once. She rang, delighted, and after giving some orders to +the little maid she took me over her house. + +A kind of glass-enclosed veranda, filled with shrubs, opened into the +dining-room, revealing at the farther end the long avenue of orange trees +extending to the foot of the mountain. A low seat, hidden by plants, +indicated that the old actress often came there to sit down. + +Then we went into the garden, to look at the flowers. Evening fell +softly, one of those calm, moist evenings when the earth breathes forth +all her perfumes. Daylight was almost gone when we sat down at table. +The dinner was good and it lasted a long time, and we became intimate +friends, she and I, when she understood what a profound sympathy she had +aroused in my heart. She had taken two thimblefuls of wine, as the +phrase goes, and had grown more confiding and expansive. + +"Come, let us look at the moon," she said. "I adore the good moon. She +has been the witness of my most intense joys. It seems to me that all my +memories are there, and that I need only look at her to bring them all +back to me. And even--some times--in the evening--I offer to myself a +pretty play--yes, pretty--if you only knew! But no, you would laugh at +me. I cannot--I dare not--no, no--really--no." + +I implored her to tell me what it was. + +"Come, now! come, tell me; I promise you that I will not laugh. I swear +it to you--come, now!" + +She hesitated. I took her hands--those poor little hands, so thin and so +cold!--and I kissed them one after the other, several times, as her +lovers had once kissed them. She was moved and hesitated. + +"You promise me not to laugh?" + +"Yes, I swear it to you." + +"Well, then, come." + +She rose, and as the little domestic, awkward in his green livery, +removed the chair behind her, she whispered quickly a few words into his +ear. + +"Yes, madame, at once," he replied. + +She took my arm and led me to the veranda. + +The avenue of oranges was really splendid to see. The full moon made a +narrow path of silver, a long bright line, which fell on the yellow sand, +between the round, opaque crowns of the dark trees. + +As these trees were in bloom, their strong, sweet perfume filled the +night, and swarming among their dark foliage I saw thousands of +fireflies, which looked like seeds fallen from the stars. + +"Oh, what a setting for a love scene!" I exclaimed. + +She smiled. + +"Is it not true? Is it not true? You will see!" + +And she made me sit down beside her. + +"This is what makes one long for more life. But you hardly think of +these things, you men of to-day. You are speculators, merchants and men +of affairs. + +You no longer even know how to talk to us. When I say 'you,' I mean +young men in general. Love has been turned into a liaison which very +often begins with an unpaid dressmaker's bill. If you think the bill is +dearer than the woman, you disappear; but if you hold the woman more +highly, you pay it. Nice morals--and a nice kind of love!" + +She took my hand. + +"Look!" + +I looked, astonished and delighted. Down there at the end of the avenue, +in the moonlight, were two young people, with their arms around each +other's waist. They were walking along, interlaced, charming, with +short, little steps, crossing the flakes of light; which illuminated them +momentarily, and then sinking back into the shadow. The youth was +dressed in a suit of white satin, such as men wore in the eighteenth +century, and had on a hat with an ostrich plume. The girl was arrayed in +a gown with panniers, and the high, powdered coiffure of the handsome +dames of the time of the Regency. + +They stopped a hundred paces from us, and standing in the middle of the +avenue, they kissed each other with graceful gestures. + +Suddenly I recognized the two little servants. Then one of those +dreadful fits of laughter that convulse you made me writhe in my chair. +But I did not laugh aloud. I resisted, convulsed and feeling almost ill, +as a man whose leg is cut off resists the impulse to cry out. + +As the young pair turned toward the farther end of the avenue they again +became delightful. They went farther and farther away, finally +disappearing as a dream disappears. I no longer saw them. The avenue +seemed a sad place. + +I took my leave at once, so as not to see them again, for I guessed that +this little play would last a long time, awakening, as it did, a whole +past of love and of stage scenery; the artificial past, deceitful and +seductive, false but charming, which still stirred the heart of this +amorous old comedienne. + + + + + + +THE RONDOLI SISTERS + +I + +I set out to see Italy thoroughly on two occasions, and each time I was +stopped at the frontier and could not get any further. So I do not know +Italy, said my friend, Charles Jouvent. And yet my two attempts gave me +a charming idea of the manners of that beautiful country. Some time, +however, I must visit its cities, as well as the museums and works of art +with which it abounds. I will make another attempt to penetrate into the +interior, which I have not yet succeeded in doing. + +You don't understand me, so I will explain: In the spring of 1874 I was +seized with an irresistible desire to see Venice, Florence, Rome and +Naples. I am, as you know, not a great traveller; it appears to me a +useless and fatiguing business. Nights spent in a train, the disturbed +slumbers of the railway carriage, with the attendant headache, and +stiffness in every limb, the sudden waking in that rolling box, the +unwashed feeling, with your eyes and hair full of dust, the smell of the +coal on which one's lungs feed, those bad dinners in the draughty +refreshment rooms are, according to my ideas, a horrible way of beginning +a pleasure trip. + +After this introduction, we have the miseries of the hotel; of some great +hotel full of people, and yet so empty; the strange room and the doubtful +bed! + +I am most particular about my bed; it is the sanctuary of life. We +entrust our almost naked and fatigued bodies to it so that they may be +reanimated by reposing between soft sheets and feathers. + +There we find the most delightful hours of our existence, the hours of +love and of sleep. The bed is sacred, and should be respected, venerated +and loved by us as the best and most delightful of our earthly +possessions. + +I cannot lift up the sheets of a hotel bed without a shudder of disgust. +Who has occupied it the night before? Perhaps dirty, revolting people +have slept in it. I begin, then, to think of all the horrible people +with whom one rubs shoulders every day, people with suspicious-looking +skin which makes one think of the feet and all the rest! I call to mind +those who carry about with them the sickening smell of garlic or of +humanity. I think of those who are deformed and unhealthy, of the +perspiration emanating from the sick, of everything that is ugly and +filthy in man. + +And all this, perhaps, in the bed in which I am about to sleep! The mere +idea of it makes me feel ill as I get into it. + +And then the hotel dinners--those dreary table d'hote dinners in the +midst of all sorts of extraordinary people, or else those terrible +solitary dinners at a small table in a restaurant, feebly lighted by a +wretched composite candle under a shade. + +Again, those terribly dull evenings in some un known town! Do you know +anything more wretched than the approach of. dusk on such an occasion? +One goes about as if almost in a dream, looking at faces that one never +has seen before and never will see again; listening to people talking +about matters which are quite indifferent to you in a language that +perhaps you do not understand. You have a terrible feeling, almost as if +you were lost, and you continue to walk on so as not to be obliged to +return to the hotel, where you would feel more lost still because you are +at home, in a home which belongs to anyone who can pay for it; and at +last you sink into a chair of some well-lighted cafe, whose gilding and +lights oppress you a thousand times more than the shadows in the streets. +Then you feel so abominably lonely sitting in front of the glass of flat +bock beer that a kind of madness seizes you, the longing to go somewhere +or other, no matter where, as long as you need not remain in front of +that marble table amid those dazzling lights. + +And then, suddenly, you are aware that you are really alone in the world, +always and everywhere, and that in places which we know, the familiar +jostlings give us the illusion only of human fraternity. At such moments +of self-abandonment and sombre isolation in distant cities one thinks +broadly, clearly and profoundly. Then one suddenly sees the whole of +life outside the vision of eternal hope, apart from the deceptions of our +innate habits, and of our expectations of happiness, which we indulge in +dreams never to be realized. + +It is only by going a long distance from home that we can fully +understand how short-lived and empty everything near at hand is; by +searching for the unknown, we perceive how commonplace and evanescent +everything is; only by wandering over the face of the earth can we +understand how small the world is, and how very much alike it is +everywhere. + +How well I know, and how I hate and almost fear, those haphazard walks +through unknown streets; and this was the reason why, as nothing would +induce me to undertake a tour in Italy by myself, I made up my mind to +accompany my friend Paul Pavilly. + +You know Paul, and how he idealizes women. To him the earth is habitable +only because they are there; the sun gives light and is warm because it +shines upon them; the air is soft and balmy because it blows upon their +skin and ruffles the soft hair on their temples; and the moon is charming +because it makes them dream and imparts a languorous charm to love. +Every act and action of Paul's has woman for its motive; all his +thoughts, all his efforts and hopes are centered in them. + +When I mentioned Italy to Paul he at first absolutely refused to leave +Paris. I, however, began to tell him of the adventures I had on my +travels. I assured him that all Italian women are charming, and I made +him hope for the most refined pleasures at Naples, thanks to certain +letters of introduction which I had; and so at last he allowed himself to +be persuaded. + + +II + +We took the express one Thursday evening, Paul and I. Hardly anyone goes +south at that time of the year, so that we had the carriages to +ourselves, and both of us were in a bad temper on leaving Paris, sorry +for having yielded to the temptation of this journey, and regretting +Marly, the Seine, and our lazy boating excursions, and all those +pleasures in and near Paris which are so dear to every true Parisian. + +As soon as the train started Paul stuck himself in his corner, and said, +"It is most idiotic to go all that distance," and as it was too late for +him to change his mind then, I said, "Well, you should not have come." + +He made no answer, and I felt very much inclined to laugh when I saw how +furious he looked. He is certainly always rather like a squirrel, but +then every one of us has retained the type of some animal or other as the +mark of his primitive origin. How many people have jaws like a bulldog, +or heads like goats, rabbits, foxes, horses, or oxen. Paul is a squirrel +turned into a man. He has its bright, quick eyes, its hair, its pointed +nose, its small, fine, supple, active body, and a certain mysterious +resemblance in his general bearing; in fact, a similarity of movement, of +gesture, and of bearing which might almost be taken for a recollection. + +At last we both went to sleep with that uncomfortable slumber of the +railway carriage, which is interrupted by horrible cramps in the arms and +neck, and by the sudden stoppages of the train. + +We woke up as we were passing along the Rhone. Soon the continued noise +of crickets came in through the windows, that cry which seems to be the +voice of the warm earth, the song of Provence; and seemed to instill into +our looks, our breasts, and our souls the light and happy feeling of the +south, that odor of the parched earth, of the stony and light soil of the +olive with its gray-green foliage. + +When the train stopped again a railway guard ran along the train calling +out "Valence" in a sonorous voice, with an accent that again gave us a +taste of that Provence which the shrill note of the crickets had already +imparted to us. + +Nothing fresh happened till we got to Marseilles, where we alighted for +breakfast, but when we returned to our carriage we found a woman +installed there. + +Paul, with a delighted glance at me, gave his short mustache a mechanical +twirl, and passed his fingers through his, hair, which. had become +slightly out of order with the night's journey. Then he sat down +opposite the newcomer. + +Whenever I happen to see a striking new face, either in travelling or in +society, I always have the strongest inclination to find out what +character, mind, and intellectual capacities are hidden beneath those +features. + +She was a young and pretty woman, certainly a native of the south of +France, with splendid eyes, beautiful wavy black hair, which was so thick +and long that it seemed almost too heavy for her head. She was dressed +with a certain southern bad taste which made her look a little vulgar. +Her regular features had none of the grace and finish of the refined +races, of that slight delicacy which members of the aristocracy inherit +from their birth, and which is the hereditary mark of thinner blood. + +Her bracelets were too big to be of gold; she wore earrings with large +white stones that were certainly not diamonds, and she belonged +unmistakably to the People. One surmised that she would talk too loud, +and shout on every occasion with exaggerated gestures. + +When the train started she remained motionless in her place, in the +attitude of a woman who was indignant, without even looking at us. + +Paul began to talk to me, evidently with an eye to effect, trying to +attract her attention, as shopkeepers expose their choice wares to catch +the notice of passersby. + +She, however, did not appear to be paying the least attention. + +"Toulon! Ten minutes to wait! Refreshment room!" the porters shouted. + +Paul motioned to me to get out, and as soon as we had done so, he said: + +"I wonder who on earth she can be?" + +I began to laugh. "I am sure I don't know, and I don't in the least +care." + +He was quite excited. + +"She is an uncommonly fresh and pretty girl. What eyes she has, and how +cross she looks. She must have been dreadfully worried, for she takes no +notice of anything." + +"You will have all your trouble for nothing," I growled. + +He began to lose his temper. + +"I am not taking any trouble, my dear fellow. I think her an extremely +pretty woman, that is all. If one could only speak to her! But I don't +know how to begin. Cannot you give me an idea? Can't you guess who she +is?" + +"Upon my word, I cannot. However, I should rather think she is some +strolling actress who is going to rejoin her company after a love +adventure." + +He seemed quite upset, as if I had said something insulting. + +"What makes you think that? On the contrary, I think she looks most +respectable." + +"Just look at her bracelets," I said, "her earrings and her whole dress. +I should not be the least surprised if she were a dancer or a circus +rider, but most likely a dancer. Her whole style smacks very much of the +theatre." + +He evidently did not like the idea. + +"She is much too young, I am sure; why, she is hardly twenty." + +"Well," I replied, "there are many things which one can do before one is +twenty; dancing and elocution are among them." + +"Take your seats for Nice, Vintimiglia," the guards and porters called. + +We got in; our fellow passenger was eating an orange, and certainly she +did not do it elegantly. She had spread her pocket-handkerchief on her +knees, and the way in which she tore off the peel and opened her mouth to +put in the pieces, and then spat the pips out of the window, showed that +her training had been decidedly vulgar. + +She seemed, also, more put out than ever, and swallowed the fruit with an +exceedingly comic air of rage. + +Paul devoured her with his eyes, and tried to attract her attention and +excite her curiosity; but in spite of his talk, and of the manner in +which he brought in well-known names, she did not pay the least attention +to him. + +After passing Frejus and St. Raphael, the train passed through a +veritable garden, a paradise of roses, and groves of oranges and lemons +covered with fruits and flowers at the same time. That delightful coast +from Marseilles to Genoa is a kingdom of perfumes in a home of flowers. + +June is the time to see it in all its beauty, when in every narrow valley +and on every slope, the most exquisite flowers are growing luxuriantly. +And the roses! fields, hedges, groves of roses. They climb up the walls, +blossom on the roofs, hang from the trees, peep out from among the +bushes; they are white, red, yellow, large and small, single, with a +simple self-colored dress, or full and heavy in brilliant toilettes. + +Their breath makes the air heavy and relaxing, and the still more +penetrating odor of the orange blossoms sweetens the atmosphere till it +might almost be called the refinement of odor. + +The shore, with its brown rocks, was bathed by the motionless +Mediterranean. The hot summer sun stretched like a fiery cloth over the +mountains, over the long expanses of sand, and over the motionless, +apparently solid blue sea. The train went on through the tunnels, along +the slopes, above the water, on straight, wall-like viaducts, and a soft, +vague, saltish smell, a smell of drying seaweed, mingled at times with +the strong, heavy perfume of the flowers. + +But Paul neither saw, looked at, nor smelled anything, for our fellow +traveller engrossed all his attention. + +When we reached Cannes, as he wished to speak to me he signed to me to +get out, and as soon as I did so, he took me by the arm. + +"Do you know, she is really charming. Just look at her eyes; and I never +saw anything like her hair." + +"Don't excite yourself," I replied, "or else address her, if you have any +intentions that way. She does not look unapproachable; I fancy, although +she appear to be a little bit grumpy." + +"Why don't you speak to her?" he said. + +"I don't know what to say, for I am always terribly stupid at first; I +can never make advances to a woman in the street. I follow them, go +round and round them, and quite close to them, but never know what to say +at first. I only once tried to enter into conversation with a woman in +that way. As I clearly saw that she was waiting for me to make +overtures, and as I felt bound to say something, I stammered out, 'I hope +you are quite well, madame?' She laughed in my face, and I made my +escape." + +I promised Paul to do all I could to bring about a conversation, and when +we had taken our places again, I politely asked our neighbor: + +"Have you any objection to the smell of tobacco, madame?" + +She merely replied, "Non capisco." + +So she was an Italian! I felt an absurd inclination to laugh. As Paul +did not understand a word of that language, I was obliged to act as his +interpreter, so I said in Italian: + +"I asked you, madame, whether you had any objection to tobacco smoke?" + +With an angry look she replied, "Che mi fa!" + +She had neither turned her head nor looked at me, and I really did not +know whether to take this "What do I care" for an authorization, a +refusal, a real sign of indifference, or for a mere "Let me alone." + +"Madame," I replied, "if you mind the smell of tobacco in the least--" + +She again said, "Mica," in a tone which seemed to mean, "I wish to +goodness you would leave me alone!" It was, however, a kind of +permission, so I said to Paul: + +"You may smoke." + +He looked at me in that curious sort of way that people have when they +try to understand others who are talking in a strange language before +them, and asked me: + +"What did you say to her?" + +"I asked whether we might smoke, and she said we might do whatever we +liked." + +Whereupon I lighted my cigar. + +"Did she say anything more?" + +"If you had counted her words you would have noticed that she used +exactly six, two of which gave me to understand that she knew no French, +so four remained, and much can be said in four words." + +Paul seemed quite unhappy, disappointed, and at sea, so to speak. + +But suddenly the Italian asked me, in that tone of discontent which +seemed habitual to her, "Do you know at what time we shall get to Genoa?" + +"At eleven o'clock," I replied. Then after a moment I went on: + +"My friend and I are also going to Genoa, and if we can be of any service +to you, we shall be very happy, as you are quite alone." But she +interrupted with such a "Mica!" that I did not venture on another word. + +"What did she say?" Paul asked. + +"She said she thought you were charming." + +But he was in no humor for joking, and begged me dryly not to make fun of +him; so I translated her question and my polite offer, which had been so +rudely rejected. + +Then he really became as restless as a caged squirrel. + +"If we only knew," he said, "what hotel she was going to, we would go to +the same. Try to find out so as to have another opportunity to make her +talk." + +It was not particularly easy, and I did not know what pretext to invent, +desirous as I was to make the acquaintance of this unapproachable person. + +We passed Nice, Monaco, Mentone, and the train stopped at the frontier +for the examination of luggage. + +Although I hate those ill-bred people who breakfast and dine in railway- +carriages, I went and bought a quantity of good things to make one last +attack on her by their means. I felt sure that this girl must, +ordinarily, be by no means inaccessible. Something had put her out and +made her irritable, but very little would suffice, a mere word or some +agreeable offer, to decide her and vanquish her. + +We started again, and we three were still alone. I spread my eatables on +the seat. I cut up the fowl, put the slices of ham neatly on a piece of +paper, and then carefully laid out our dessert, strawberries, plums, +cherries and cakes, close to the girl. + +When she saw that we were about to eat she took a piece of chocolate and +two little crisp cakes out of her pocket and began to munch them. + +"Ask her to have some of ours," Paul said in a whisper. + +"That is exactly what I wish to do, but it is rather a difficult matter." + +As she, however, glanced from time to time at our provisions, I felt sure +that she would still be hungry when she had finished what she had with +her; so, as soon as her frugal meal was over, I said to her: + +"It would be very kind of you if you would take some of this fruit." + +Again she said "Mica!" but less crossly than before. + +"Well, then," I said, "may I offer you a little wine? I see you have not +drunk anything. It is Italian wine, and as we are now in your own +country, we should be very pleased to see such a pretty Italian mouth +accept the offer of its French neighbors." + +She shook her head slightly, evidently wishing to refuse, but very +desirous of accepting, and her mica this time was almost polite. I took +the flask, which was covered with straw in the Italian fashion, and +filling the glass, I offered it to her. + +"Please drink it," I said, "to bid us welcome to your country." + +She took the glass with her usual look, and emptied it at a draught, like +a woman consumed with thirst, and then gave it back to me without even +saying "Thank you." + +I then offered her the cherries. "Please take some," I said; "we shall +be so glad if you will." + +Out of her corner she looked at all the fruit spread out beside her, and +said so rapidly that I could scarcely follow her: "A me non piacciono ne +le ciriegie ne le susine; amo soltano le fragole." + +"What does she say?" Paul asked. + +"That she does riot care for cherries or plums, but only for +strawberries." + +I put a newspaper full of wild strawberries on her lap, and she ate them +quickly, tossing them into her mouth from some distance in a coquettish +and charming manner. + +When she had finished the little red heap, which soon disappeared under +the rapid action of her hands, I asked her: + +"What may I offer you now?" + +"I will take a little chicken," she replied. + +She certainly devoured half of it, tearing it to pieces with the rapid +movements of her jaws like some carnivorous animal. Then she made up her +mind to have some cherries, which she "did not like," and then some +plums, then some little cakes. Then she said, "I have had enough," and +sat back in her corner. + +I was much amused, and tried to make her eat more, insisting, in fact, +till she suddenly flew into a rage, and flung such a furious mica at me, +that I would no longer run the risk of spoiling her digestion. + +I turned to my friend. "My poor Paul," I said, "I am afraid we have had +our trouble for nothing." + +The night came on, one of those hot summer nights which extend their warm +shade over the burning and exhausted earth. Here and there, in the +distance, by the sea, on capes and promontories, bright stars, which I +was, at times, almost inclined to confound with lighthouses, began to +shine on the dark horizon: + +The scent of the orange trees became more penetrating, and we breathed +with delight, distending our lungs to inhale it more deeply. The balmy +air was soft, delicious, almost divine. + +Suddenly I noticed something like a shower of stars under the dense shade +of the trees along the line, where it was quite dark. It might have been +taken for drops of light, leaping, flying, playing and running among the +leaves, or for small stars fallen from the skies in order to have an +excursion on the earth; but they were only fireflies dancing a strange +fiery ballet in the perfumed air. + +One of them happened to come into our carriage, and shed its intermittent +light, which seemed to be extinguished one moment and to be burning the +next. I covered the carriage-lamp with its blue shade and watched the +strange fly careering about in its fiery flight. Suddenly it settled on +the dark hair of our neighbor, who was half dozing after dinner. Paul +seemed delighted, with his eyes fixed on the bright, sparkling spot, +which looked like a living jewel on the forehead of the sleeping woman. + +The Italian woke up about eleven o'clock, with the bright insect still in +her hair. When I saw her move, I said: "We are just getting to Genoa, +madame," and she murmured, without answering me, as if possessed by some +obstinate and embarrassing thought: + +"What am I going to do, I wonder?" + +And then she suddenly asked: + +"Would you like me to come with you?" + +I was so taken aback that I really did not understand her. + +"With us? How do you mean?" + +She repeated, looking more and more furious: + +"Would you like me to be your guide now, as soon as we get out of the +train?" + +"I am quite willing; but where do you want to go. + +She shrugged her shoulders with an air of supreme indifference. + +"Wherever you like; what does it matter to me?" She repeated her "Che mi +fa" twice. + +"But we are going to the hotel." + +"Very well, let us all go to the hotel," she said, in a contemptuous +voice. + +I turned to Paul, and said: + +"She wishes to know whether we should like her to come with us." + +My friend's utter surprise restored my self-possession. He stammered: + +"With us? Where to? What for? How?" + +"I don't know, but she made this strange proposal to me in a most +irritated voice. I told her that we were going to the hotel, and she +said: 'Very well, let us all go there!' I suppose she is without a penny. +She certainly has a very strange way of making acquaintances." + +Paul, who 'was very much excited, exclaimed: + +"I am quite agreeable. Tell her that we will go wherever she likes." +Then, after a moment's hesitation, he said uneasily: + +"We must know, however, with whom she wishes to go--with you or with me?" + +I turned to the Italian, who did not even seem to be listening to us, and +said: + +"We shall be very happy to have you with us, but my friend wishes to know +whether you will take my arm or his?" + +She opened her black eyes wide with vague surprise, and said, "Che ni +fa?" + +I was obliged to explain myself. "In Italy, I believe, when a man looks +after a woman, fulfils all her wishes, and satisfies all her caprices, he +is called a patito. Which of us two will you take for your patito?" + +Without the slightest hesitation she replied: + +"You!" + +I turned to Paul. "You see, my friend, she chooses me; you have no +chance." + +"All the better for you," he replied in a rage. Then, after thinking for +a few moments, he went on: + +"Do you really care about taking this creature with you? She will spoil +our journey. What are we to do with this woman, who looks like I don't +know what? They will not take us in at any decent hotel." + +I, however, just began to find the Italian much nicer than I had thought +her at first, and I was now very desirous to take her with us. The idea +delighted me. + +I replied, "My dear fellow, we have accepted, and it is too late to +recede. You were the first to advise me to say 'Yes.'" + +"It is very stupid," he growled, "but do as you please." + +The train whistled, slackened speed, and we ran into the station. + +I got out of the carriage, and offered my new companion my hand. She +jumped out lightly, and I gave her my arm, which she took with an air of +seeming repugnance. As soon as we had claimed our luggage we set off +into the town, Paul walking in utter silence. + +"To what hotel shall we go?" I asked him. "It may be difficult to get +into the City of Paris with a woman, especially with this Italian." + +Paul interrupted me. "Yes, with an Italian who looks more like a dancer +than a duchess. However, that is no business of mine. Do just as you +please." + +I was in a state of perplexity. I had written to the City of Paris to +retain our rooms, and now I did not know what to do. + +Two commissionaires followed us with our luggage. I continued: "You +might as well go on first, and say that we are coming; and give the +landlord to understand that I have a--a friend with me and that we should +like rooms quite by themselves for us three, so as not to be brought in +contact with other travellers. He will understand, and we will decide +according to his answer." + +But Paul growled, "Thank you, such commissions and such parts do not suit +me, by any means. I did not come here to select your apartments or to +minister to your pleasures." + +But I was urgent: "Look here, don't be angry. It is surely far better to +go to a good hotel than to a bad one, and it is not difficult to ask the +landlord for three separate bedrooms and a dining-room." + +I put a stress on three, and that decided him. + +He went on first, and I saw him go into a large hotel while I remained on +the other side of the street, with my fair Italian, who did not say a +word, and followed the porters with the luggage. + +Paul came back at last, looking as dissatisfied as my companion. + +"That is settled," he said, "and they will take us in; but here are only +two bedrooms. You must settle it as you can." + +I followed him, rather ashamed of going in with such a strange companion. + +There were two bedrooms separated by a small sitting-room. I ordered a +cold supper, and then I turned to the Italian with a perplexed look. + +"We have only been able to get two rooms, so you must choose which you +like." + +She replied with her eternal "Che mi fa!" I thereupon took up her little +black wooden trunk, such as servants use, and took it into the room on +the right, which I had chosen for her. A bit of paper was fastened to +the box, on which was written, Mademoiselle Francesca Rondoli, Genoa. + +"Your name is Francesca?" I asked, and she nodded her head, without +replying. + +"We shall have supper directly," I continued. "Meanwhile, I dare say you +would like to arrange your toilette a little?" + +She answered with a 'mica', a word which she employed just as frequently +as 'Che me fa', but I went on: "It is always pleasant after a journey." + +Then I suddenly remembered that she had not, perhaps, the necessary +requisites, for she appeared to me in a very singular position, as if she +had just escaped from some disagreeable adventure, and I brought her my +dressing-case. + +I put out all the little instruments for cleanliness and comfort which it +contained: a nail-brush, a new toothbrush--I always carry a selection of +them about with me--my nail-scissors, a nail-file, and sponges. I +uncorked a bottle of eau de cologne, one of lavender-water, and a little +bottle of new-mown hay, so that she might have a choice. Then I opened +my powder-box, and put out the powder-puff, placed my fine towels over +the water-jug, and a piece of new soap near the basin. + +She watched my movements with a look of annoyance in her wide-open eyes, +without appearing either astonished or pleased at my forethought. + +"Here is all that you require," I then said; "I will tell you when supper +is ready." + +When I returned to the sitting-room I found that Paul had shut himself in +the other room, so I sat down to wait. + +A waiter went to and fro, bringing plates and glasses. He laid the table +slowly, then put a cold chicken on it, and told me that all was ready. + +I knocked gently at Mademoiselle Rondoli's door. "Come in," she said, +and when I did so I was struck by a strong, heavy smell of perfumes, as +if I were in a hairdresser's shop. + +The Italian was sitting on her trunk in an attitude either of thoughtful +discontent or absent-mindedness. The towel was still folded over the +waterjug that was full of water, and the soap, untouched and dry, was +lying beside the empty basin; but one would have thought that the young +woman had used half the contents of the bottles of perfume. The eau de +cologne, however, had been spared, as only about a third of it had gone; +but to make up for that she had used a surprising amount of lavender- +water and new-mown hay. A cloud of violet powder, a vague white mist, +seemed still to be floating in the air, from the effects of her over- +powdering her face and neck. It seemed to cover her eyelashes, eyebrows, +and the hair on her temples like snow, while her cheeks were plastered +with it, and layers of it covered her nostrils, the corners of her eyes, +and her chin. + +When she got up she exhaled such a strong odor of perfume that it almost +made me feel faint. + +When we sat down to supper, I found that Paul was in a most execrable +temper, and I could get nothing out of him but blame, irritable words, +and disagreeable remarks. + +Mademoiselle Francesca ate like an ogre, and as soon as she had finished +her meal she threw herself upon the sofa in the sitting-room. Sitting +down beside her, I said gallantly, kissing her hand: + +"Shall I have the bed prepared, or will you sleep on the couch?" + +"It is all the same to me. 'Che mi fa'!" + +Her indifference vexed me. + +"Should you like to retire at once?" + +"Yes; I am very sleepy." + +She got up, yawned, gave her hand to Paul, who took it with a furious +look, and I lighted her into the bedroom. A disquieting feeling haunted +me. "Here is all you want," I said again. + +The next morning she got up early, like a woman who is accustomed to +work. She woke me by doing so, and I watched her through my half-closed +eyelids. + +She came and went without hurrying herself, as if she were astonished at +having nothing to do. At length she went to the dressing-table, and in a +moment emptied all my bottles of perfume. She certainly also used some +water, but very little. + +When she was quite dressed, she sat down on her trunk again, and clasping +one knee between her hands, she seemed to be thinking. + +At that moment I pretended to first notice her, and said: + +"Good-morning, Francesca." + +Without seeming in at all a better temper than the previous night, she +murmured, "Good-morning!" + +When I asked her whether she had slept well, she nodded her head, and +jumping out of bed, I went and kissed her. + +She turned her face toward me like a child who is being kissed against +its will; but I took her tenderly in my arms, and gently pressed my lips +on her eyelids, which she closed with evident distaste under my kisses on +her fresh cheek and full lips, which she turned away. + +"You don't seem to like being kissed," I said to her. + +"Mica!" was her only answer. + +I sat down on the trunk by her side, and passing my arm through hers, I +said: "Mica! mica! mica! in reply to everything. I shall call you +Mademoiselle Mica, I think." + +For the first time I fancied that I saw the shadow of a smile on her +lips, but it passed by so quickly that I may have been mistaken. + +"But if you never say anything but Mica, I shall not know what to do to +please you. Let me see; what shall we do to-day?" + +She hesitated a moment, as if some fancy had flitted through her head, +and then she said carelessly: "It is all the same to me; whatever you +like." + +"Very well, Mademoiselle Mica, we will have a carriage and go for a +drive." + +"As you please," she said. + +Paul was waiting for us in the dining-room, looking as bored as third +parties usually do in love affairs. I assumed a delighted air, and shook +hands with him with triumphant energy. + +"What are you thinking of doing?" he asked. + +"First of all, we will go and see a little of the town, and then we might +get a carriage and take a drive in the neighborhood." + +We breakfasted almost in silence, and then set out. I dragged Francesca +from palace to palace, and she either looked at nothing or merely glanced +carelessly at the various masterpieces. Paul followed us, growling all +sorts of disagreeable things. Then we all three took a drive in silence +into the country and returned to dinner. + +The next day it was the same thing and the next day again; and on the +third Paul said to me: "Look here, I am going to leave you; I am not +going to stop here for three weeks watching you make love to this +creature." + +I was perplexed and annoyed, for to my great surprise I had become +singularly attached to Francesca. A man is but weak and foolish, carried +away by the merest trifle, and a coward every time that his senses are +excited or mastered. I clung to this unknown girl, silent and +dissatisfied as she always was. I liked her somewhat ill-tempered face, +the dissatisfied droop of her mouth, the weariness of her look; I liked +her fatigued movements, the contemptuous way in which she let me kiss +her, the very indifference of her caresses. A secret bond, that +mysterious bond of physical love, which does not satisfy, bound me to +her. I told Paul so, quite frankly. He treated me as if I were a fool, +and then said: + +"Very well, take her with you." + +But she obstinately refused to leave Genoa, without giving any reason. +I besought, I reasoned, I promised, but all was of no avail, and so I +stayed on. + +Paul declared that he would go by himself, and went so far as to pack up +his portmanteau; but he remained all the same. + +Thus a fortnight passed. Francesca was always silent and irritable, +lived beside me rather than with me, responded to all my requirements and +all my propositions with her perpetual Che mi fa, or with her no less +perpetual Mica. + +My friend became more and more furious, but my only answer was, "You can +go if you are tired of staying. I am not detaining you." + +Then he called me names, overwhelmed me with reproaches, and exclaimed: +"Where do you think I can go now? We had three weeks at our disposal, +and here is a fortnight gone! I cannot continue my journey now; and, in +any case, I am not going to Venice, Florence and Rome all by myself. But +you will pay for it, and more dearly than you think, most likely. You +are not going to bring a man all the way from Paris in order to shut him +up at a hotel in Genoa with an Italian adventuress." + +When I told him, very calmly, to return to Paris, he exclaimed that he +intended to do so the very next day; but the next day he was still there, +still in a rage and swearing. + +By this time we began to be known in the streets through which we +wandered from morning till night. Sometimes French people would turn +round astonished at meeting their fellow-countrymen in the company of +this girl with her striking costume, who looked singularly out of place, +not to say compromising, beside us. + +She used to walk along, leaning on my arm, without looking at anything. +Why did she remain with me, with us, who seemed to do so little to amuse +her? Who was she? Where did she come from? What was she doing? Had +she any plan or idea? Where did she live? As an adventuress, or by +chance meetings? I tried in vain to find out and to explain it. The +better I knew her the more enigmatical she became. She seemed to be a +girl of poor family who had been taken away, and then cast aside and +lost. What did she think would become of her, or whom was she waiting +for? She certainly did not appear to be trying to make a conquest of me, +or to make any real profit out of me. + +I tried to question her, to speak to her of her childhood and family; but +she never gave me an answer. I stayed with her, my heart unfettered and +my senses enchained, never wearied of holding her in my arms, that proud +and quarrelsome woman, captivated by my senses, or rather carried away, +overcome by a youthful, healthy, powerful charm, which emanated from her +fragrant person and from the well-molded lines of her body. + +Another week passed, and the term of my journey was drawing on, for I had +to be back in Paris by the eleventh of July. By this time Paul had come +to take his part in the adventure, though still grumbling at me, while I +invented pleasures, distractions and excursions to amuse Francesca and my +friend; and in order to do this I gave myself a great amount of trouble. + +One day I proposed an excursion to Sta Margarita, that charming little +town in the midst of gardens, hidden at the foot of a slope which +stretches far into the sea up to the village of Portofino. We three +walked along the excellent road which goes along the foot of the +mountain. Suddenly Francesca said to me: "I shall not be able to go with +you to-morrow; I must go and see some of my relatives." + +That was all; I did not ask her any questions, as I was quite sure she +would not answer me. + +The next morning she got up very early. When she spoke to me it was in a +constrained and hesitating voice: + +"If I do not come back again, shall you come and fetch me?" + +"Most certainly I shall," was my reply. "Where shall I go to find you?" + +Then she explained: "You must go into the Street Victor-Emmanuel, down +the Falcone road and the side street San-Rafael and into the furniture +shop in the building at the right at the end of a court, and there you +must ask for Madame Rondoli. That is the place." + +And so she went away, leaving me rather astonished. + +When Paul saw that I was alone, he stammered out: "Where; is Francesca?" +And when I told him what had happened, he exclaimed: + +"My dear fellow, let us make use of our opportunity, and bolt; as it is, +our time is up. Two days, more or less, make no difference. Let us go +at once; go and pack up your things. Off we go!" + +But I refused. I could not, as I told him, leave the girl in that manner +after such companionship for nearly three weeks. At any rate, I ought to +say good-by to her, and make her accept a present; I certainly had no +intention of behaving badly to her. + +But he would not listen; he pressed and worried me, but I would not give +way. + +I remained indoors for several hours, expecting Francesca's return, but +she did not come, and at last, at dinner, Paul said with a triumphant +air: + +"She has flown, my dear fellow; it is certainly very strange." + +I must acknowledge that I was surprised and rather vexed. He laughed in +my face, and made fun of me. + +"It is not exactly a bad way of getting rid of you, though rather +primitive. 'Just wait for me, I shall be back in a moment,' they often +say. How long are you going to wait? I should not wonder if you were +foolish enough to go and look for her at the address she gave you. 'Does +Madame Rondoli live here, please?' 'No, monsieur.' I'll bet that you are +longing to go there." + +"Not in the least," I protested, "and I assure you that if she does not +come back to-morrow morning I shall leave by the express at eight +o'clock. I shall have waited twenty-four hours, and that is enough; my +conscience will be quite clear." + +I spent an uneasy and unpleasant evening, for I really had at heart a +very tender feeling for her. I went to bed at twelve o'clock, and hardly +slept at all. I got up at six, called Paul, packed up my things, and two +hours later we set out for France together. + + +III + +The next year, at just about the same period, I was seized as one is with +a periodical fever, with a new desire to go to Italy, and I immediately +made up my mind to carry it into effect. There is no doubt that every +really well-educated man ought to see Florence, Venice and Rome. This +travel has, also, the additional advantage of providing many subjects of +conversation in society, and of giving one an opportunity for bringing +forward artistic generalities which appear profound. + +This time I went alone, and I arrived at Genoa at the same time as the +year before, but without any adventure on the road. I went to the same +hotel, and actually happened to have the same room. + +I was hardly in bed when the recollection of Francesca which, since the +evening before, had been floating vaguely through my mind, haunted me +with strange persistency. I thought of her nearly the whole night, and +by degrees the wish to see her again seized me, a confused desire at +first, which gradually grew stronger and more intense. At last I made up +my mind to spend the next day in Genoa to try to find her, and if I +should not succeed, to take the evening train. + +Early in the morning I set out on my search. I remembered the directions +she had given me when she left me, perfectly--Victor-Emmanuel Street, +house of the furniture-dealer, at the bottom of the yard on the right. + +I found it without the least difficulty, and I knocked at the door of a +somewhat dilapidated-looking dwelling. It was opened by a stout woman, +who must have been very handsome, but who actually was only very dirty. +Although she had too much embonpoint, she still bore the lines of +majestic beauty; her untidy hair fell over her forehead and shoulders, +and one fancied one could see her floating about in an enormous dressing- +gown covered with spots of dirt and grease. Round her neck she wore a +great gilt necklace, and on her wrists were splendid bracelets of Genoa +filigree work. + +In rather a hostile manner she asked me what I wanted, and I replied by +requesting her to tell me whether Francesca Rondoli lived there. + +"What do you want with her?" she asked. + +"I had the pleasure of meeting her last year, and I should like to see +her again." + +The old woman looked at me suspiciously. + +"Where did you meet her?" she asked. + +"Why, here in Genoa itself." + +"What is your name?" + +I hesitated a moment, and then I told her. I had hardly done so when the +Italian put out her arms as if to embrace me. "Oh! you are the +Frenchman how glad I am to see you! But what grief you caused the poor +child! She waited for you a month; yes, a whole month. At first she +thought you would come to fetch her. She wanted to see whether you loved +her. If you only knew how she cried when she saw that you were not +coming! She cried till she seemed to have no tears left. Then she went +to the hotel, but you had gone. She thought that most likely you were +travelling in Italy, and that you would return by Genoa to fetch her, as +she would not go with you. And she waited more than a month, monsieur; +and she was so unhappy; so unhappy. I am her mother." + +I really felt a little disconcerted, but I regained my self-possession, +and asked: + +"Where is she now?" + +"She has gone to Paris with a painter, a delightful man, who loves her +very much, and who gives her everything that she wants. Just look at +what she sent me; they are very pretty, are they not?" + +And she showed me, with quite southern animation, her heavy bracelets and +necklace. "I have also," she continued, "earrings with stones in them, a +silk dress, and some rings; but I only wear them on grand occasions. +Oh! she is very happy, monsieur, very happy. She will be so pleased +when I tell her you have been here. But pray come in and sit down. You +will take something or other, surely?" + +But I refused, as I now wished to get away by the first train; but she +took me by the arm and pulled me in, saying: + +"Please, come in; I must tell her that you have been in here." + +I found myself in a small, rather dark room, furnished with only a table +and a few chairs. + +She continued: "Oh, she is very happy now, very happy. When you met her +in the train she was very miserable; she had had an unfortunate love +affair in Marseilles, and she was coming home, poor child. But she liked +you at once, though she was still rather sad, you understand. Now she +has all she wants, and she writes and tells me everything that she does. +His name is Bellemin, and they say he is a great painter in your country. +He fell in love with her at first sight. But you will take a glass of +sirup?-it is very good. Are you quite alone, this year?" + +"Yes," I said, "quite alone." + +I felt an increasing inclination to laugh, as my first disappointment was +dispelled by what Mother Rondoli said. I was obliged; however, to drink +a glass of her sirup. + +"So you are quite alone?" she continued. "How sorry I am that Francesca +is not here now; she would have been company for you all the time you +stayed. It is not very amusing to go about all by oneself, and she will +be very sorry also." + +Then, as I was getting up to go, she exclaimed: + +"But would you not like Carlotta to go with you? She knows all the walks +very well. She is my second daughter, monsieur." + +No doubt she took my look of surprise for consent, for she opened the +inner door and called out up the dark stairs which I could not see: + +"Carlotta! Carlotta! make haste down, my dear child." + +I tried to protest, but she would not listen. + +"No; she will be very glad to go with you; she is very nice, and much +more cheerful than her sister, and she is a good girl, a very good girl, +whom I love very much." + +In a few moments a tall, slender, dark girl appeared, her hair hanging +down, and her youthful figure showing unmistakably beneath an old dress +of her mother's. + +The latter at once told her how matters stood. + +"This is Francesca's Frenchman, you know, the one whom she knew last +year. He is quite alone, and has come to look for her, poor fellow; so +I told him that you would go with him to keep him company." + +The girl looked at me with her handsome dark eyes, and said, smiling: + +"I have no objection, if he wishes it" + +I could not possibly refuse, and merely said: + +"Of course, I shall be very glad of your company." + +Her mother pushed her out. "Go and get dressed directly; put on your +blue dress and your hat with the flowers, and make haste." + +As soon as she had left the room the old woman explained herself: "I have +two others, but they are much younger. It costs a lot of money to bring +up four children. Luckily the eldest is off my hands at present." + +Then she told all about herself, about her husband, who had been an +employee on the railway, but who was dead, and she expatiated on the good +qualities of Carlotta, her second girl, who soon returned, dressed, as +her sister had been, in a striking, peculiar manner. + +Her mother examined her from head to foot, and, after finding everything +right, she said: + +"Now, my children, you can go." Then turning to the girl, she said: "Be +sure you are back by ten o'clock to-night; you know the door is locked +then." The answer was: + +"All right, mamma; don't alarm yourself." + +She took my arm and we went wandering about the streets, just as I had +wandered the previous year with her sister. + +We returned to the hotel for lunch, and then I took my new friend to +Santa Margarita, just as I had taken her sister the year previously. + +During the whole fortnight which I had at my disposal, I took Carlotta to +all the places of interest in and about Genoa. She gave me no cause to +regret her sister. + +She cried when I left her, and the morning of my departure I gave her +four bracelets for her mother, besides a substantial token of my +affection for herself. + +One of these days I intend to return to Italy, and I cannot help +remembering with a certain amount of uneasiness, mingled with hope, that +Madame Rondoli has two more daughters. + + + + + + + VOLUME VII. + +THE FALSE GEMS +FASCINATION +YVETTE SAMORIS +A VENDETTA +MY TWENTY-FIVE DAYS +"THE TERROR" +LEGEND OF MONT ST. MICHEL +A NEW YEAR'S GIFT +FRIEND PATIENCE +ABANDONED +THE MAISON TELLIER +DENNIS +MY WIFE +THE UNKNOWN +THE APPARITION + + + + + +THE FALSE GEMS + +Monsieur Lantin had met the young girl at a reception at the house of the +second head of his department, and had fallen head over heels in love +with her. + +She was the daughter of a provincial tax collector, who had been dead +several years. She and her mother came to live in Paris, where the +latter, who made the acquaintance of some of the families in her +neighborhood, hoped to find a husband for her daughter. + +They had very moderate means, and were honorable, gentle, and quiet. + +The young girl was a perfect type of the virtuous woman in whose hands +every sensible young man dreams of one day intrusting his happiness. +Her simple beauty had the charm of angelic modesty, and the imperceptible +smile which constantly hovered about the lips seemed to be the reflection +of a pure and lovely soul. Her praises resounded on every side. People +never tired of repeating: "Happy the man who wins her love! He could not +find a better wife." + +Monsieur Lantin, then chief clerk in the Department of the Interior, +enjoyed a snug little salary of three thousand five hundred francs, and +he proposed to this model young girl, and was accepted. + +He was unspeakably happy with her. She governed his household with such +clever economy that they seemed to live in luxury. She lavished the most +delicate attentions on her husband, coaxed and fondled him; and so great +was her charm that six years after their marriage, Monsieur Lantin +discovered that he loved his wife even more than during the first days of +their honeymoon. + +He found fault with only two of her tastes: Her love for the theatre, and +her taste for imitation jewelry. Her friends (the wives of some petty +officials) frequently procured for her a box at the theatre, often for +the first representations of the new plays; and her husband was obliged +to accompany her, whether he wished it or not, to these entertainments +which bored him excessively after his day's work at the office. + +After a time, Monsieur Lantin begged his wife to request some lady of her +acquaintance to accompany her, and to bring her home after the theatre. +She opposed this arrangement, at first; but, after much persuasion, +finally consented, to the infinite delight of her husband. + +Now, with her love for the theatre, came also the desire for ornaments. +Her costumes remained as before, simple, in good taste, and always +modest; but she soon began to adorn her ears with huge rhinestones, which +glittered and sparkled like real diamonds. Around her neck she wore +strings of false pearls, on her arms bracelets of imitation gold, and +combs set with glass jewels. + +Her husband frequently remonstrated with her, saying: + +"My dear, as you cannot afford to buy real jewelry, you ought to appear +adorned with your beauty and modesty alone, which are the rarest +ornaments of your sex." + +But she would smile sweetly, and say: + +"What can I do? I am so fond of jewelry. It is my only weakness. We +cannot change our nature." + +Then she would wind the pearl necklace round her fingers, make the facets +of the crystal gems sparkle, and say: + +"Look! are they not lovely? One would swear they were real." + +Monsieur Lantin would then answer, smilingly: + +"You have bohemian tastes, my dear." + +Sometimes, of an evening, when they were enjoying a tete-a-tote by the +fireside, she would place on the tea table the morocco leather box +containing the "trash," as Monsieur Lantin called it. She would examine +the false gems with a passionate attention, as though they imparted some +deep and secret joy; and she often persisted in passing a necklace around +her husband's neck, and, laughing heartily, would exclaim: "How droll you +look!" Then she would throw herself into his arms, and kiss him +affectionately. + +One evening, in winter, she had been to the opera, and returned home +chilled through and through. The next morning she coughed, and eight +days later she died of inflammation of the lungs. + +Monsieur Lantin's despair was so great that his hair became white in one +month. He wept unceasingly; his heart was broken as he remembered her +smile, her voice, every charm of his dead wife. + +Time did not assuage his grief. Often, during office hours, while his +colleagues were discussing the topics of the day, his eyes would suddenly +fill with tears, and he would give vent to his grief in heartrending +sobs. Everything in his wife's room remained as it was during her +lifetime; all her furniture, even her clothing, being left as it was on +the day of her death. Here he was wont to seclude himself daily and +think of her who had been his treasure-the joy of his existence. + +But life soon became a struggle. His income, which, in the hands of his +wife, covered all household expenses, was now no longer sufficient for +his own immediate wants; and he wondered how she could have managed to +buy such excellent wine and the rare delicacies which he could no longer +procure with his modest resources. + +He incurred some debts, and was soon reduced to absolute poverty. One +morning, finding himself without a cent in his pocket, he resolved to +sell something, and immediately the thought occurred to him of disposing +of his wife's paste jewels, for he cherished in his heart a sort of +rancor against these "deceptions," which had always irritated him in the +past. The very sight of them spoiled, somewhat, the memory of his lost +darling. + +To the last days of her life she had continued to make purchases, +bringing home new gems almost every evening, and he turned them over some +time before finally deciding to sell the heavy necklace, which she seemed +to prefer, and which, he thought, ought to be worth about six or seven +francs; for it was of very fine workmanship, though only imitation. + +He put it in his pocket, and started out in search of what seemed a +reliable jeweler's shop. At length he found one, and went in, feeling a +little ashamed to expose his misery, and also to offer such a worthless +article for sale. + +"Sir," said he to the merchant, "I would like to know what this is +worth." + +The man took the necklace, examined it, called his clerk, and made some +remarks in an undertone; he then put the ornament back on the counter, +and looked at it from a distance to judge of the effect. + +Monsieur Lantin, annoyed at all these ceremonies, was on the point of +saying: "Oh! I know well 'enough it is not worth anything," when the +jeweler said: "Sir, that necklace is worth from twelve to fifteen +thousand francs; but I could not buy it, unless you can tell me exactly +where it came from." + +The widower opened his eyes wide and remained gaping, not comprehending +the merchant's meaning. Finally he stammered: "You say--are you sure?' +The other replied, drily: "You can try elsewhere and see if any one will +offer you more. I consider it worth fifteen thousand at the most. Come +back; here, if you cannot do better." + +Monsieur Lantin, beside himself with astonishment, took up the necklace +and left the store. He wished time for reflection. + +Once outside, he felt inclined to laugh, and said to himself: "The fool! +Oh, the fool! Had I only taken him at his word! That jeweler cannot +distinguish real diamonds from the imitation article." + +A few minutes after, he entered another store, in the Rue de la Paix. As +soon as the proprietor glanced at the necklace, he cried out: + +"Ah, parbleu! I know it well; it was bought here." + +Monsieur Lantin, greatly disturbed, asked: + +"How much is it worth?" + +"Well, I sold it for twenty thousand francs. I am willing to take it +back for eighteen thousand, when you inform me, according to our legal +formality, how it came to be in your possession." + +This time, Monsieur Lantin was dumfounded. He replied: + +"But--but--examine it well. Until this moment I was under the impression +that it was imitation." + +The jeweler asked: + +"What is your name, sir?" + +"Lantin--I am in the employ of the Minister of the Interior. I live at +number sixteen Rue des Martyrs." + +The merchant looked through his books, found the entry, and said: "That +necklace was sent to Madame Lantin's address, sixteen Rue des Martyrs, +July 20, 1876." + +The two men looked into each other's eyes--the widower speechless with +astonishment; the jeweler scenting a thief. The latter broke the +silence. + +"Will you leave this necklace here for twenty-four hours?" said he; "I +will give you a receipt." + +Monsieur Lantin answered hastily: "Yes, certainly." Then, putting the +ticket in his pocket, he left the store. + +He wandered aimlessly through the streets, his mind in a state of +dreadful confusion. He tried to reason, to understand. His wife could +not afford to purchase such a costly ornament. Certainly not. + +But, then, it must have been a present!--a present!--a present, from +whom? Why was it given her? + +He stopped, and remained standing in the middle of the street. A +horrible doubt entered his mind--She? Then, all the other jewels must +have been presents, too! The earth seemed to tremble beneath him--the +tree before him to be falling; he threw up his arms, and fell to the +ground, unconscious. He recovered his senses in a pharmacy, into which +the passers-by had borne him. He asked to be taken home, and, when he +reached the house, he shut himself up in his room, and wept until +nightfall. Finally, overcome with fatigue, he went to bed and fell into +a heavy sleep. + +The sun awoke him next morning, and he began to dress slowly to go to the +office. It was hard to work after such shocks. He sent a letter to his +employer, requesting to be excused. Then he remembered that he had to +return to the jeweler's. He did not like the idea; but he could not +leave the necklace with that man. He dressed and went out. + +It was a lovely day; a clear, blue sky smiled on the busy city below. +Men of leisure were strolling about with their hands in their pockets. + +Monsieur Lantin, observing them, said to himself: "The rich, indeed, are +happy. With money it is possible to forget even the deepest sorrow. One +can go where one pleases, and in travel find that distraction which is +the surest cure for grief. Oh if I were only rich!" + +He perceived that he was hungry, but his pocket was empty. He again +remembered the necklace. Eighteen thousand francs! Eighteen thousand +francs! What a sum! + +He soon arrived in the Rue de la Paix, opposite the jeweler's. Eighteen +thousand francs! Twenty times he resolved to go in, but shame kept him +back. He was hungry, however--very hungry--and not a cent in his pocket. +He decided quickly, ran across the street, in order not to have time for +reflection, and rushed into the store. + +The proprietor immediately came forward, and politely offered him a +chair; the clerks glanced at him knowingly. + +"I have made inquiries, Monsieur Lantin," said the jeweler, "and if you +are still resolved to dispose of the gems, I am ready to pay you the +price I offered." + +"Certainly, sir," stammered Monsieur Lantin. + +Whereupon the proprietor took from a drawer eighteen large bills, +counted, and handed them to Monsieur Lantin, who signed a receipt; and, +with trembling hand, put the money into his pocket. + +As he was about to leave the store, he turned toward the merchant, who +still wore the same knowing smile, and lowering his eyes, said: + +"I have--I have other gems, which came from the same source. Will you +buy them, also?" + +The merchant bowed: "Certainly, sir." + +Monsieur Lantin said gravely: "I will bring them to you." An hour later, +he returned with the gems. + +The large diamond earrings were worth twenty thousand francs; the +bracelets, thirty-five thousand; the rings, sixteen thousand; a set of +emeralds and sapphires, fourteen thousand; a gold chain with solitaire +pendant, forty thousand--making the sum of one hundred and forty-three +thousand francs. + +The jeweler remarked, jokingly: + +"There was a person who invested all her savings in precious stones." + +Monsieur Lantin replied, seriously: + +"It is only another way of investing one's money." + +That day he lunched at Voisin's, and drank wine worth twenty francs a +bottle. Then he hired a carriage and made a tour of the Bois. He gazed +at the various turnouts with a kind of disdain, and could hardly refrain +from crying out to the occupants: + +"I, too, am rich!--I am worth two hundred thousand francs." + +Suddenly he thought of his employer. He drove up to the bureau, and +entered gaily, saying: + +"Sir, I have come to resign my position. I have just inherited three +hundred thousand francs." + +He shook hands with his former colleagues, and confided to them some of +his projects for the future; he then went off to dine at the Cafe +Anglais. + +He seated himself beside a gentleman of aristocratic bearing; and, during +the meal, informed the latter confidentially that he had just inherited a +fortune of four hundred thousand francs. + +For the first time in his life, he was not bored at the theatre, and +spent the remainder of the night in a gay frolic. + +Six months afterward, he married again. His second wife was a very +virtuous woman; but had a violent temper. She caused him much sorrow. + + + + + + + +FASCINATION + +I can tell you neither the name of the country, nor the name of the man. +It was a long, long way from here on a fertile and burning shore. We had +been walking since the morning along the coast, with the blue sea bathed +in sunlight on one side of us, and the shore covered with crops on the +other. Flowers were growing quite close to the waves, those light, +gentle, lulling waves. It was very warm, a soft warmth permeated with +the odor of the rich, damp, fertile soil. One fancied one was inhaling +germs. + +I had been told, that evening, that I should meet with hospitality at the +house of a Frenchman who lived in an orange grove at the end of a +promontory. Who was he? I did not know. He had come there one morning +ten years before, and had bought land which he planted with vines and +sowed with grain. He had worked, this man, with passionate energy, with +fury. Then as he went on from month to month, year to year, enlarging +his boundaries, cultivating incessantly the strong virgin soil, he +accumulated a fortune by his indefatigable labor. + +But he kept on working, they said. Rising at daybreak, he would remain +in the fields till evening, superintending everything without ceasing, +tormented by one fixed idea, the insatiable desire for money, which +nothing can quiet, nothing satisfy. He now appeared to be very rich. +The sun was setting as I reached his house. It was situated as +described, at the end of a promontory in the midst of a grove of orange +trees. It was a large square house, quite plain, and overlooked the sea. +As I approached, a man wearing a long beard appeared in the doorway. +Having greeted him, I asked if he would give me shelter for the night. +He held out his hand and said, smiling: + +"Come in, monsieur, consider yourself at home." + +He led me into a room, and put a man servant at my disposal with the +perfect ease and familiar graciousness of a man-of-the-world. Then he +left me saying: + +"We will dine as soon as you are ready to come downstairs." + +We took dinner, sitting opposite each other, on a terrace facing the sea. +I began to talk about this rich, distant, unknown land. He smiled, as he +replied carelessly: + +"Yes, this country is beautiful. But no country satisfies one when they +are far from the one they love." + +"You regret France?" + +"I regret Paris." + +"Why do you not go back?" + +"Oh, I will return there." + +And gradually we began to talk of French society, of the boulevards, and +things Parisian. He asked me questions that showed he knew all about +these things, mentioned names, all the familiar names in vaudeville known +on the sidewalks. + +"Whom does one see at Tortoni's now? + +"Always the same crowd, except those who died." I looked at him +attentively, haunted by a vague recollection. I certainly had seen that +head somewhere. But where? And when? He seemed tired, although he was +vigorous; and sad, although he was determined. His long, fair beard fell +on his chest. He was somewhat bald and had heavy eyebrows and a thick +mustache. + +The sun was sinking into the sea, turning the vapor from the earth into a +fiery mist. The orange blossoms exhaled their powerful, delicious +fragrance. He seemed to see nothing besides me, and gazing steadfastly +he appeared to discover in the depths of my mind the far-away, beloved +and well-known image of the wide, shady pavement leading from the +Madeleine to the Rue Drouot. + +"Do you know Boutrelle?" + +"Yes, indeed." + +"Has he changed much?" + +"Yes, his hair is quite white." + +"And La Ridamie?" + +"The same as ever." + +"And the women? Tell me about the women. Let's see. Do you know +Suzanne Verner?" + +"Yes, very much. But that is over." + +"Ah! And Sophie Astier?" + +"Dead." + +"Poor girl. Did you--did you know--" + +But he ceased abruptly: And then, in a changed voice, his face suddenly +turning pale, he continued: + +"No, it is best that I should not speak of that any more, it breaks my +heart." + +Then, as if to change the current of his thoughts he rose. + +"Would you like to go in?" he said. + +"Yes, I think so." + +And he preceded me into the house. The downstairs rooms were enormous, +bare and mournful, and had a deserted look. Plates and glasses were +scattered on the tables, left there by the dark-skinned servants who +wandered incessantly about this spacious dwelling. + +Two rifles were banging from two nails, on the wall; and in the corners +of the rooms were spades, fishing poles, dried palm leaves, every +imaginable thing set down at random when people came home in the evening +and ready to hand when they went out at any time, or went to work. + +My host smiled as he said: + +"This is the dwelling, or rather the kennel, of an exile, but my own room +is cleaner. Let us go there." + +As I entered I thought I was in a second-hand store, it was so full of +things of all descriptions, strange things of various kinds that one felt +must be souvenirs. On the walls were two pretty paintings by well-known +artists, draperies, weapons, swords and pistols, and exactly in the +middle, on the principal panel, a square of white satin in a gold frame. + +Somewhat surprised, I approached to look at it, and perceived a hairpin +fastened in the centre of the glossy satin. My host placed his hand on +my shoulder. + +"That," said he, "is the only ,thing that I look at here, and the only +thing that I have seen for ten years. M. Prudhomme said: 'This sword is +the most memorable day of my life.' I can say: 'This hairpin is all my +life.'" + +I sought for some commonplace remark, and ended by saying: + +"You have suffered on account of some woman?" + +He replied abruptly: + +"Say, rather, that I am suffering like a wretch. + +But come out on my balcony. A name rose to my lips just now which I +dared not utter; for if you had said 'Dead' as you did of Sophie Astier, +I should have fired a bullet into my brain, this very day." + +We had gone out on the wide balcony from whence we could see two gulfs, +one to the right and the other to the left, enclosed by high gray +mountains. It was just twilight and the reflection of the sunset still +lingered in the sky. + +He continued: + +"Is Jeanne de Limours still alive?" + +His eyes were fastened on mine and were full of a trembling anxiety. I +smiled. + +"Parbleu--she is prettier than ever." + +"Do you know her?" Yes." + +He hesitated and then said: + +"Very well?" + +"No." + +He took my hand. + +"Tell me about her," he said. + +"Why, I have nothing to tell. She is one of the most charming women, or, +rather, girls, and the most admired in Paris. She leads a delightful +existence and lives like a princess, that is all." + +"I love her," he murmured in a tone in which he might have said "I am +going to die." Then suddenly he continued: + +"Ah! For three years we lived in a state of terror and delight. I +almost killed her five or six times. She tried to pierce my eyes with +that hairpin that you saw just now. Look, do you see that little white +spot beneath my left eye? We loved each other. How can I explain that +infatuation? You would not understand it." + +"There must be a simple form of love, the result of the mutual impulse of +two hearts and two souls. But there is also assuredly an atrocious form, +that tortures one cruelly, the result of the occult blending of two +unlike personalities who detest each other at the same time that they +adore one another." + +"In three years this woman had ruined me. I had four million francs +which she squandered in her calm manner, quietly, eat them up with a +gentle smile that seemed to fall from her eyes on to her lips." + +"You know her? There is something irresistible about her. What is it? +I do not know. Is it those gray eyes whose glance penetrates you like a +gimlet and remains there like the point of an arrow? It is more likely +the gentle, indifferent and fascinating smile that she wears like a mask. +Her slow grace pervades you little by little; exhales from her like a +perfume, from her slim figure that scarcely sways as she passes you, for +she seems to glide rather than walk; from her pretty voice with its +slight drawl that would seem to be the music of her smile; from her +gestures, also, which are never exaggerated, but always appropriate, and +intoxicate your vision with their harmony. For three years she was the +only being that existed for me on the earth! How I suffered; for she +deceived me as she deceived everyone! Why? For no reason; just for the +pleasure of deceiving. And when I found it out, when I treated her as a +common girl and a beggar, she said quietly: 'Are we married?' + +"Since I have been here I have thought so much about her that at last I +understand her. She is Manon Lescaut come back to life. It is Manon, +who could not love without deceiving; Marion for whom love, amusement, +money, are all one." + +He was silent. After a few minutes he resumed: + +"When I had spent my last sou on her she said simply: + +"'You understand, my dear boy, that I cannot live on air and weather. +I love you very much, better than anyone, but I must live. Poverty and +I could not keep house together." + +"And if I should tell you what a horrible life I led with her! When I +looked at her I would just as soon have killed her as kissed her. When I +looked at her . . . I felt a furious desire to open my arms to embrace +and strangle her. She had, back of her eyes, something false and +intangible that made me execrate her; and that was, perhaps, the reason I +loved her so well. The eternal feminine, the odious and seductive +feminine, was stronger in her than in any other woman. She was full of +it, overcharged, as with a venomous and intoxicating fluid. She was a +woman to a greater extent than any one has ever been." + +"And when I went out with her she would look at all men in such a manner +that she seemed to offer herself to each in a single glance. This +exasperated me, and still it attached me to her all the more. This +creature in just walking along the street belonged to everyone, in spite +of me, in spite of herself, by the very fact of her nature, although she +had a modest, gentle carriage. Do you understand? + +"And what torture! At the theatre, at the restaurant she seemed to +belong to others under my very eyes. And as soon as I left her she did +belong to others. + +"It is now ten years since I saw her and I love her better than ever." + +Night spread over the earth. A strong perfume of orange blossoms +pervaded the air. I said: + +"Will you see her again?" + +"Parbleu! I now have here, in land and money, seven to eight thousand +francs. When I reach a million I shall sell out and go away. I shall +have enough to live on with her for a year--one whole year. And then, +good-bye, my life will be finished." + +"But after that?" I asked. + +"After that, I do not know. That will be all, I may possibly ask her to +take me as a valet de chambre." + + + + + + +YVETTE SAMORIS + +"The Comtesse Samoris." + +"That lady in black over there?" + +"The very one. She's wearing mourning for her daughter, whom she +killed." + +"You don't mean that seriously? How did she die?" + +"Oh! it is a very simple story, without any crime in it, any violence." + +"Then what really happened?" + +"Almost nothing. Many courtesans are born to be virtuous women, they +say; and many women called virtuous are born to be courtesans--is that +not so? Now, Madame Samoris, who was born a courtesan, had a daughter +born a virtuous woman, that's all." + +"I don't quite understand you." + +"I'll--explain what I mean. The comtesse is nothing but a common, +ordinary parvenue originating no one knows where. A Hungarian or +Wallachian countess or I know not what. She appeared one winter in +apartments she had taken in the Champs Elysees, that quarter for +adventurers and adventuresses, and opened her drawing-room to the first +comer or to any one that turned up. + +"I went there. Why? you will say. I really can't tell you. I went +there, as every one goes to such places because the women are facile and +the men are dishonest. You know that set composed of filibusters with +varied decorations, all noble, all titled, all unknown at the embassies, +with the exception of those who are spies. All talk of their honor +without the slightest occasion for doing so, boast of their ancestors, +tell you about their lives, braggarts, liars, sharpers, as dangerous as +the false cards they have up their sleeves, as delusive as their names-- +in short, the aristocracy of the bagnio. + +"I adore these people. They are interesting to study, interesting to +know, amusing to understand, often clever, never commonplace like public +functionaries. Their wives are always pretty, with a slight flavor of +foreign roguery, with the mystery of their existence, half of it perhaps +spent in a house of correction. They have, as a rule, magnificent eyes +and incredible hair. I adore them also. + +"Madame Samoris is the type of these adventuresses, elegant, mature and +still beautiful. Charming feline creatures, you feel that they are +vicious to the marrow of their bones. You find them very amusing when +you visit them; they give card parties; they have dances and suppers; in +short, they offer you all the pleasures of social life. + +"And she had a daughter--a tall, fine-looking girl, always ready for +amusement, always full of laughter and reckless gaiety--a true +adventuress' daughter--but, at the same time, an innocent, +unsophisticated, artless girl, who saw nothing, knew nothing, understood +nothing of all the things that happened in her father's house. + +"The girl was simply a puzzle to me. She was a mystery. She lived amid +those infamous surroundings with a quiet, tranquil ease that was either +terribly criminal or else the result of innocence. She sprang from the +filth of that class like a beautiful flower fed on corruption." + +"How do you know about them?" + +"How do I know? That's the funniest part of the business! One morning +there was a ring at my door, and my valet came up to tell me that +M. Joseph Bonenthal wanted to speak to me. I said directly: + +'And who is this gentleman?' My valet replied: 'I don't know, monsieur; +perhaps 'tis some one that wants employment.' And so it was. The man +wanted me to take him as a servant. I asked him where he had been last. +He answered: 'With the Comtesse Samoris.' 'Ah!' said I, 'but my house is +not a bit like hers.' 'I know that well, monsieur,' he said, 'and that's +the very reason I want to take service with monsieur. I've had enough of +these people: a man may stay a little while with them, but he won't +remain long with them.' I required an additional man servant at the time +and so I took him. + +"A month later Mademoiselle Yvette Samoris died mysteriously, and here +are all the details of her death I could gather from Joseph, who got them +from his sweetheart, the comtesse's chambermaid. + +"It was a ball night, and two newly arrived guests were chatting behind a +door. Mademoiselle Yvette, who had just been dancing, leaned against +this door to get a little air. + +"They did not see her approaching, but she heard what they were saying. +And this was what they said: + +"'But who is the father of the girl?' + +"'A Russian, it appears; Count Rouvaloff. He never comes near the mother +now.' + +"'And who is the reigning prince to-day?' + +"'That English prince standing near the window; Madame Samoris adores +him. But her adoration of any one never lasts longer than a month or six +weeks. Nevertheless, as you see, she has a large circle of admirers. +All are called--and nearly all are chosen. That kind of thing costs a +good deal, but--hang it, what can you expect?' + +"'And where did she get this name of Samoris?' + +"'From the only man perhaps that she ever loved--a Jewish banker from +Berlin who goes by the name of Samuel Morris.' + +"'Good. Thanks. Now that I know what kind of woman she is and have seen +her, I'm off!' + +"What a shock this was to the mind of a young girl endowed with all the +instincts of a virtuous woman! What despair overwhelmed that simple +soul! What mental tortures quenched her unbounded gaiety, her delightful +laughter, her exultant satisfaction with life! What a conflict took +place in that youthful heart up to the moment when the last guest had +left! Those were things that Joseph could not tell me. But, the same +night, Yvette abruptly entered her mother's room just as the comtesse was +getting into bed, sent out the lady's maid, who was close to the door, +and, standing erect and pale and with great staring eyes, she said: + +"'Mamma, listen to what I heard a little while ago during the ball.' + +"And she repeated word for word the conversation just as I told it to +you. + +"The comtesse was so stunned that she did not know what to say in reply +at first. When she recovered her self-possession she denied everything +and called God to witness that there was no truth in the story. + +"The young girl went away, distracted but not convinced. And she began +to watch her mother. + +"I remember distinctly the strange alteration that then took place in +her. She became grave and melancholy. She would fix on us her great +earnest eyes as if she wanted to read what was at the bottom of our +hearts. We did not know what to think of her and used to imagine that +she was looking out for a husband. + +"One evening she overheard her mother talking to her admirer and later +saw them together, and her doubts were confirmed. She was heartbroken, +and after telling her mother what she had seen, she said coldly, like a +man of business laying down the terms of an agreement: + +"'Here is what I have determined to do, mamma: We will both go away to +some little town, or rather into the country. We will live there quietly +as well as we can. Your jewelry alone may be called a fortune. If you +wish to marry some honest man, so much the better; still better will it +be if I can find one. If you don't consent to do this, I will kill +myself.' + +"This time the comtesse ordered her daughter to go to bed and never to +speak again in this manner, so unbecoming in the mouth of a child toward +her mother. + +"Yvette's answer to this was: 'I give you a month to reflect. If, at the +end of that month, we have not changed our way of living, I will kill +myself, since there is no other honorable issue left to my life.' + +"And she left the room. + +"At the end of a month the Comtesse Samoris had resumed her usual +entertainments, as though nothing had occurred. One day, under the +pretext that she had a bad toothache, Yvette purchased a few drops of +chloroform from a neighboring chemist. The next day she purchased more, +and every time she went out she managed to procure small doses of the +narcotic. She filled a bottle with it. + +"One morning she was found in bed, lifeless and already quite cold, with +a cotton mask soaked in chloroform over her face. + +"Her coffin was covered with flowers, the church was hung in white. +There was a large crowd at the funeral ceremony. + +"Ah! well, if I had known--but you never can know--I would have married +that girl, for she was infernally pretty." + +"And what became of the mother?" + +"Oh! she shed a lot of tears over it. She has only begun to receive +visits again for the past week." + +"And what explanation is given of the girl's death?" + +"Oh! they pretended that it was an accident caused by a new stove, the +mechanism of which got out of order. As a good many such accidents have +occurred, the thing seemed probable enough." + + + + + + +A VENDETTA + +The widow of Paolo Saverini lived alone with her son in a poor little +house on the outskirts of Bonifacio. The town, built on an outjutting +part of the mountain, in places even overhanging the sea, looks across +the straits, full of sandbanks, towards the southernmost coast of +Sardinia. Beneath it, on the other side and almost surrounding it, is a +cleft in the cliff like an immense corridor which serves as a harbor, and +along it the little Italian and Sardinian fishing boats come by a +circuitous route between precipitous cliffs as far as the first houses, +and every two weeks the old, wheezy steamer which makes the trip to +Ajaccio. + +On the white mountain the houses, massed together, makes an even whiter +spot. They look like the nests of wild birds, clinging to this peak, +overlooking this terrible passage, where vessels rarely venture. The +wind, which blows uninterruptedly, has swept bare the forbidding coast; +it drives through the narrow straits and lays waste both sides. The pale +streaks of foam, clinging to the black rocks, whose countless peaks rise +up out of the water, look like bits of rag floating and drifting on the +surface of the sea. + +The house of widow Saverini, clinging to the very edge of the precipice, +looks out, through its three windows, over this wild and desolate +picture. + +She lived there alone, with her son Antonia and their dog "Semillante," a +big, thin beast, with a long rough coat, of the sheep-dog breed. The +young man took her with him when out hunting. + +One night, after some kind of a quarrel, Antoine Saverini was +treacherously stabbed by Nicolas Ravolati, who escaped the same evening +to Sardinia. + +When the old mother received the body of her child, which the neighbors +had brought back to her, she did not cry, but she stayed there for a long +time motionless, watching him. Then, stretching her wrinkled hand over +the body, she promised him a vendetta. She did not wish anybody near +her, and she shut herself up beside the body with the dog, which howled +continuously, standing at the foot of the bed, her head stretched towards +her master and her tail between her legs. She did not move any more than +did the mother, who, now leaning over the body with a blank stare, was +weeping silently and watching it. + +The young man, lying on his back, dressed in his jacket of coarse cloth, +torn at the chest, seemed to be asleep. But he had blood all over him; +on his shirt, which had been torn off in order to administer the first +aid; on his vest, on his trousers, on his face, on his hands. Clots of +blood had hardened in his beard and in his hair. + +His old mother began to talk to him. At the sound of this voice the dog +quieted down. + +"Never fear, my boy, my little baby, you shall be avenged. Sleep, sleep; +you shall be avenged. Do you hear? It's your mother's promise! And she +always keeps her word, your mother does, you know she does." + +Slowly she leaned over him, pressing her cold lips to his dead ones. + +Then Semillante began to howl again with a long, monotonous, penetrating, +horrible howl. + +The two of them, the woman and the dog, remained there until morning. + +Antoine Saverini was buried the next day and soon his name ceased to be +mentioned in Bonifacio. + +He had neither brothers nor cousins. No man was there to carry on the +vendetta. His mother, the old woman, alone pondered over it. + +On the other side of the straits she saw, from morning until night, a +little white speck on the coast. It was the little Sardinian village +Longosardo, where Corsican criminals take refuge when they are too +closely pursued. They compose almost the entire population of this +hamlet, opposite their native island, awaiting the time to return, to go +back to the "maquis." She knew that Nicolas Ravolati had sought refuge +in this village. + +All alone, all day long, seated at her window, she was looking over there +and thinking of revenge. How could she do anything without help--she, an +invalid and so near death? But she had promised, she had sworn on the +body. She could not forget, she could not wait. What could she do? She +no longer slept at night; she had neither rest nor peace of mind; she +thought persistently. The dog, dozing at her feet, would sometimes lift +her head and howl. Since her master's death she often howled thus, as +though she were calling him, as though her beast's soul, inconsolable +too, had also retained a recollection that nothing could wipe out. + +One night, as Semillante began to howl, the mother suddenly got hold of +an idea, a savage, vindictive, fierce idea. She thought it over until +morning. Then, having arisen at daybreak she went to church. She +prayed, prostrate on the floor, begging the Lord to help her, to support +her, to give to her poor, broken-down body the strength which she needed +in order to avenge her son. + +She returned home. In her yard she had an old barrel, which acted as a +cistern. She turned it over, emptied it, made it fast to the ground with +sticks and stones. Then she chained Semillante to this improvised kennel +and went into the house. + +She walked ceaselessly now, her eyes always fixed on the distant coast of +Sardinia. He was over there, the murderer. + +All day and all night the dog howled. In the morning the old woman +brought her some water in a bowl, but nothing more; no soup, no bread. + +Another day went by. Semillante, exhausted, was sleeping. The following +day her eyes were shining, her hair on end and she was pulling wildly at +her chain. + +All this day the old woman gave her nothing to eat. The beast, furious, +was barking hoarsely. Another night went by. + +Then, at daybreak, Mother Saverini asked a neighbor for some straw. She +took the old rags which had formerly been worn by her husband and stuffed +them so as to make them look like a human body. + +Having planted a stick in the ground, in front of Semillante's kennel, +she tied to it this dummy, which seemed to be standing up. Then she made +a head out of some old rags. + +The dog, surprised, was watching this straw man, and was quiet, although +famished. Then the old woman went to the store and bought a piece of +black sausage. When she got home she started a fire in the yard, near +the kennel, and cooked the sausage. Semillante, frantic, was jumping +about, frothing at the mouth, her eyes fixed on the food, the odor of +which went right to her stomach. + +Then the mother made of the smoking sausage a necktie for the dummy. She +tied it very tight around the neck with string, and when she had finished +she untied the dog. + +With one leap the beast jumped at the dummy's throat, and with her paws +on its shoulders she began to tear at it. She would fall back with a +piece of food in her mouth, then would jump again, sinking her fangs into +the string, and snatching few pieces of meat she would fall back again +and once more spring forward. She was tearing up the face with her teeth +and the whole neck was in tatters. + +The old woman, motionless and silent, was watching eagerly. Then she +chained the beast up again, made her fast for two more days and began +this strange performance again. + +For three months she accustomed her to this battle, to this meal +conquered by a fight. She no longer chained her up, but just pointed to +the dummy. + +She had taught her to tear him up and to devour him without even leaving +any traces in her throat. + +Then, as a reward, she would give her a piece of sausage. + +As soon as she saw the man, Semillante would begin to tremble. Then she +would look up to her mistress, who, lifting her finger, would cry, "Go!" +in a shrill tone. + +When she thought that the proper time had come, the widow went to +confession and, one Sunday morning she partook of communion with an +ecstatic fervor. Then, putting on men's clothes and looking like an old +tramp, she struck a bargain with a Sardinian fisherman who carried her +and her dog to the other side of the straits. + +In a bag she had a large piece of sausage. Semillante had had nothing to +eat for two days. The old woman kept letting her smell the food and +whetting her appetite. + +They got to Longosardo. The Corsican woman walked with a limp. She went +to a baker's shop and asked for Nicolas Ravolati. He had taken up his +old trade, that of carpenter. He was working alone at the back of his +store. + +The old woman opened the door and called: + +"Hallo, Nicolas!" + +He turned around. Then releasing her dog, she cried: + +"Go, go! Eat him up! eat him up!" + +The maddened animal sprang for his throat. The man stretched out his +arms, clasped the dog and rolled to the ground. For a few seconds he +squirmed, beating the ground with his feet. Then he stopped moving, +while Semillante dug her fangs into his throat and tore it to ribbons. +Two neighbors, seated before their door, remembered perfectly having seen +an old beggar come out with a thin, black dog which was eating something +that its master was giving him. + +At nightfall the old woman was at home again. She slept well that night. + + + + + + +MY TWENTY-FIVE DAYS + +I had just taken possession of my room in the hotel, a narrow den between +two papered partitions, through which I could hear every sound made by my +neighbors; and I was beginning to arrange my clothes and linen in the +wardrobe with a long mirror, when I opened the drawer which is in this +piece of furniture. I immediately noticed a roll of paper. Having +opened it, I spread it out before me, and read this title: + + My Twenty-five Days. + +It was the diary of a guest at the watering place, of the last occupant +of my room, and had been forgotten at the moment of departure. + +These notes may be of some interest to sensible and healthy persons who +never leave their own homes. It is for their benefit that I transcribe +them without altering a letter. + + "CHATEL-GUYON, July 15th. + +"At the first glance it is not lively, this country. However, I am going +to spend twenty-five days here, to have my liver and stomach treated, and +to get thin. The twenty-five days of any one taking the baths are very +like the twenty-eight days of the reserves; they are all devoted to +fatigue duty, severe fatigue duty. To-day I have done nothing as yet; +I have been getting settled. I have made the acquaintance of the +locality and of the doctor. Chatel-Guyon consists of a stream in which +flows yellow water, in the midst of several hillocks on which are a +casino, some houses, and some stone crosses. On the bank of the stream, +at the end of the valley, may be seen a square building surrounded by a +little garden; this is the bathing establishment. Sad people wander +around this building--the invalids. A great silence reigns in the walks +shaded by trees, for this is not a pleasure resort, but a true health +resort; one takes care of one's health as a business, and one gets well, +so it seems. + +"Those who know affirm, even, that the mineral springs perform true +miracles here. However, no votive offering is hung around the cashier's +office. + +"From time to time a gentleman or a lady comes over to a kiosk with a +slate roof, which shelters a woman of smiling and gentle aspect, and a +spring boiling in a basin of cement: Not a word is exchanged between the +invalid and the female custodian of the healing water. She hands the +newcomer a little glass in which air bubbles sparkle in the transparent +liquid. The guest drinks and goes off with a grave step to resume his +interrupted walk beneath the trees. + +"No noise in the little park, no breath of air in the leaves; no voice +passes through this silence. One ought to write at the entrance to this +district: 'No one laughs here; they take care of their health.' + +"The people who chat resemble mutes who merely open their mouths to +simulate sounds, so afraid are they that their voices might escape. + +"In the hotel, the same silence. It is a big hotel, where you dine +solemnly with people of good position, who have nothing to say to each +other. Their manners bespeak good breeding, and their faces reflect the +conviction of a superiority of which it might be difficult for some to +give actual proofs. + +"At two o'clock I made my way up to the Casino, a little wooden but +perched on a hillock, which one reaches by a goat path. But the view +from that height is admirable. Chatel-Guyon is situated in a very narrow +valley, exactly between the, plain and the mountain. I perceive, at the +left, the first great billows of the mountains of Auvergne, covered with +woods, and here and there big gray patches, hard masses of lava, for we +are at the foot of the extinct volcanoes. At the right, through the +narrow cut of the valley, I discover a plain, infinite as the sea, +steeped in a bluish fog which lets one only dimly discern the villages, +the towns, the yellow fields of ripe grain, and the green squares of +meadowland shaded with apple trees. It is the Limagne, an immense level, +always enveloped in a light veil of vapor. + +"The night has come. And now, after having dined alone, I write these +lines beside my open window. I hear, over there, in front of me, the +little orchestra of the Casino, which plays airs just as a foolish bird +might sing all alone in the desert. + +"A dog barks at intervals. This great calm does one good. Goodnight. + +"July 16th.--Nothing new. I have taken a bath and then a shower bath. +I have swallowed three glasses of water, and I have walked along the +paths in the park, a quarter of an hour between each glass, then half an +hour after the last. I have begun my twenty-five days. + +"July 17th.--Remarked two mysterious, pretty women who are taking their +baths and their meals after every one else has finished. + +"July 18th.--Nothing new. + +"July 19th.--Saw the two pretty women again. They have style and a +little indescribable air which I like very much. + +"July 20th.--Long walk in a charming wooded valley, as far as the +Hermitage of Sans-Souci. This country is delightful, although sad; but +so calm; so sweet, so green. One meets along the mountain roads long +wagons loaded with hay, drawn by two cows at a slow pace or held back by +them in going down the slopes with a great effort of their heads, which +are yoked together. A man with a big black hat on his head is driving +them with a slender stick, tipping them on the side or on the forehead; +and often with a simple gesture, an energetic and serious gesture, he +suddenly halts them when the excessive load precipitates their journey +down the too rugged descents. + +"The air is good to inhale in these valleys. And, if it is very warm, +the dust bears with it a light odor of vanilla and of the stable, for so +many cows pass over these routes that they leave reminders everywhere. +And this odor is a perfume, when it would be a stench if it came from +other animals. + +"July 21st.--Excursion to the valley of the Enval. It is a narrow gorge +inclosed by superb rocks at the very foot of the mountain. A stream +flows amid the heaped-up boulders. + +"As I reached the bottom of this ravine I heard women's voices, and I +soon perceived the two mysterious ladies of my hotel, who were chatting, +seated on a stone. + +"The occasion appeared to me a good one, and I introduced myself without +hesitation. My overtures were received without embarrassment. We walked +back together to the hotel. And we talked about Paris. They knew, it +seemed, many people whom I knew, too. Who can they be? + +"I shall see them to-morrow. There is nothing more amusing than such +meetings as this. + +"July 22d.--Day passed almost entirely with the two unknown ladies. They +are very pretty, by Jove!--one a brunette and the other a blonde. They +say they are widows. H'm? + +"I offered to accompany them to Royat tomorrow, and they accepted my +offer. + +"Chatel-Guyon is less sad than I thought on my arrival. + +"July 23d.--Day spent at Royat. Royat is a little patch of hotels at the +bottom of a valley, at the gate of Clermont-Ferrand. A great many people +there. A large park full of life. Superb view of the Puyde-Dome, seen +at the end of a perspective of valleys. + +"My fair companions are very popular, which is flattering to me. The man +who escorts a pretty woman always believes himself crowned with an +aureole; with much more reason, the man who is accompanied by one on each +side of him. Nothing is so pleasant as to dine in a fashionable +restaurant with a female companion at whom everybody stares, and there is +nothing better calculated to exalt a man in the estimation of his +neighbors. + +"To go to the Bois, in a trap drawn by a sorry nag, or to go out into the +boulevard escorted by a plain woman, are the two most humiliating things +that could happen to a sensitive heart that values the opinion of others. +Of all luxuries, woman is the rarest and the most distinguished; she is +the one that costs most and which we desire most; she is, therefore the +one that we should seek by preference to exhibit to the jealous eyes of +the world. + +"To exhibit to the world a pretty woman leaning on your arm is to excite, +all at once, every kind of jealousy. It is as much as to say: 'Look +here! I am rich, since I possess this rare and costly object; I have +taste, since I have known how to discover this pearl; perhaps, even, I am +loved by her, unless I am deceived by her, which would still prove that +others also consider her charming. + +"But, what a disgrace it is to walk about town with an ugly woman! + +"And how many humiliating things this gives people to understand! + +"In the first place, they assume she must be your wife, for how could it +be supposed that you would have an unattractive sweetheart? A true woman +may be ungraceful; but then, her ugliness implies a thousand disagreeable +things for you. One supposes you must be a notary or a magistrate, as +these two professions have a monopoly of grotesque and well-dowered +spouses. Now, is this not distressing to a man? And then, it seems to +proclaim to the public that you have the odious courage, and are even +under a legal obligation, to caress that ridiculous face and that ill- +shaped body, and that you will, without doubt, be shameless enough to +make a mother of this by no means desirable being--which is the very +height of the ridiculous. + +"July 24th.--I never leave the side of the two unknown widows, whom I am +beginning to know quite well. This country is delightful and our hotel +is excellent. Good season. The treatment is doing me an immense amount +of good. + +"July 25th.--Drive in a landau to the lake of Tazenat. An exquisite and +unexpected jaunt decided on at luncheon. We started immediately on +rising from table. After a long journey through the mountains we +suddenly perceived an admirable little lake, quite round, very blue, +clear as glass, and situated at the bottom of an extinct crater. One +side of this immense basin is barren, the other is wooded. In the midst +of the trees is a small house where sleeps a good-natured, intellectual +man, a sage who passes his days in this Virgilian region. He opens his +dwelling for us. An idea comes into my head. I exclaim: + +"'Supposing we bathe?' + +"'Yes,' they said, 'but costumes.' + +"'Bah! we are in the wilderness.' + +"And we did bathe! "If I were a poet, how I would describe this +unforgettable vision of those lissome young forms in the transparency of +the water! The high, sloping sides shut in the lake, motionless, +gleaming and round, as a silver coin; the sun pours into it a flood of +warm light; and along the rocks the fair forms move in the almost +invisible water in which the swimmers seemed suspended. On the sand at +the bottom of the lake one could see their shadows as they moved along. + +"July 26th.--Some persons seem to look with shocked and disapproving eyes +at my rapid intimacy with the two fair widows. There are some people, +then, who imagine that life consists in being bored. Everything that +appears to be amusing becomes immediately a breach of good breeding or +morality. For them duty has inflexible and mortally tedious rules. + +"I would draw their attention, with all respect, to the fact that duty is +not the same for Mormons, Arabs Zulus, Turks, Englishmen, and Frenchmen, +and that there are very virtuous people among all these nations. + +"I will cite a single example. As regards women, duty begins in England +at nine years of age; in France at fifteen. As for me, I take a little +of each people's notion of duty, and of the whole I make a result +comparable to the morality of good King Solomon. + +"July 27th.--Good news. I have lost 620 grams in weight. Excellent, +this water of Chatel-Guyon! I am taking the widows to dine at Riom. A +sad town whose anagram constitutes it an objectionable neighbor to +healing springs: Riom, Mori. + +"July 28th.--Hello, how's this! My two widows have been visited by two +gentlemen who came to look for them. Two widowers, without doubt. They +are leaving this evening. They have written to me on fancy notepaper. + +"July 29th.--Alone! Long excursion on foot to the extinct crater of +Nachere. Splendid view. + +"July 30th.--Nothing. I am taking the treatment. + +"July 31st.--Ditto. Ditto. This pretty country is full of polluted +streams. I am drawing the notice of the municipality to the abominable +sewer which poisons the road in front of the hotel. All the kitchen +refuse of the establishment is thrown into it. This is a good way to +breed cholera. + +"August 1st.--Nothing. The treatment. + +"August 2d.--Admirable walk to Chateauneuf, a place of sojourn for +rheumatic patients, where everybody is lame. Nothing can be queerer than +this population of cripples! + +"August 3d.--Nothing. The treatment. + +"August 4th.--Ditto. Ditto. + +"August 5th.--Ditto. Ditto. + +"August 6th.--Despair! I have just weighed myself. I have gained 310 +grams. But then? + +"August 7th.--Drove sixty-six kilometres in a carriage on the mountain. +I will not mention the name of the country through respect for its women. + +"This excursion had been pointed out to me as a beautiful one, and one +that was rarely made. After four hours on the road, I arrived at a +rather pretty village on the banks of a river in the midst of an +admirable wood of walnut trees. I had not yet seen a forest of walnut +trees of such dimensions in Auvergne. It constitutes, moreover, all the +wealth of the district, for it is planted on the village common. This +common was formerly only a hillside covered with brushwood. The +authorities had tried in vain to get it cultivated. There was scarcely +enough pasture on it to feed a few sheep. + +"To-day it is a superb wood, thanks to the women, and it has a curious +name: it is called the Sins of the Cure. + +"Now I must say that the women of the mountain districts have the +reputation of being light, lighter than in the plain. A bachelor who +meets them owes them at least a kiss; and if he does not take more he is +only a blockhead. If we consider this fairly, this way of looking at the +matter is the only one that is logical and reasonable. As woman, whether +she be of the town or the country, has her natural mission to please man, +man should always show her that she pleases him. If he abstains from +every sort of demonstration, this means that he considers her ugly; it is +almost an insult to her. If I were a woman, I would not receive, a +second time, a man who failed to show me respect at our first meeting, +for I would consider that he had failed in appreciation of my beauty, my +charm, and my feminine qualities. + +"So the bachelors of the village X often proved to the women of the +district that they found them to their taste, and, as the cure was unable +to prevent these demonstrations, as gallant as they were natural, he +resolved to utilize them for the benefit of the general prosperity. So +he imposed as a penance on every woman who had gone wrong that she should +plant a walnut tree on the common. And every night lanterns were seen +moving about like will-o'-the-wisps on the hillock, for the erring ones +scarcely like to perform their penance in broad daylight. + +"In two years there was no longer any room on the lands belonging to the +village, and to-day they calculate that there are more than three +thousand trees around the belfry which rings out the services amid their +foliage. These are the Sins of the Cure. + +"Since we have been seeking for so many ways of rewooding France, the +Administration of Forests might surely enter into some arrangement with +the clergy to employ a method so simple as that employed by this humble +cure. + +"August 7th.--Treatment. + +"August 8th.--I am packing up my trunks and saying good-by to the +charming little district so calm and silent, to the green mountain, to +the quiet valleys, to the deserted Casino, from which you can see, almost +veiled by its light, bluish mist, the immense plain of the Limagne. + +"I shall leave to-morrow." + +Here the manuscript stopped. I will add nothing to it, my impressions of +the country not having been exactly the same as those of my predecessor. +For I did not find the two widows! + + + + + + +"THE TERROR" + +You say you cannot possibly understand it, and I believe you. You think +I am losing my mind? Perhaps I am, but for other reasons than those you +imagine, my dear friend. + +Yes, I am going to be married, and will tell you what has led me to take +that step. + +I may add that I know very little of the girl who is going to become my +wife to-morrow; I have only seen her four or five times. I know that +there is nothing unpleasing about her, and that is enough for my purpose. +She is small, fair, and stout; so, of course, the day after to-morrow I +shall ardently wish for a tall, dark, thin woman. + +She is not rich, and belongs to the middle classes. She is a girl such +as you may find by the gross, well adapted for matrimony, without any +apparent faults, and with no particularly striking qualities. People say +of her: + +"Mlle. Lajolle is a very nice girl," and tomorrow they will say: "What a +very nice woman Madame Raymon is." She belongs, in a word, to that +immense number of girls whom one is glad to have for one's wife, till the +moment comes when one discovers that one happens to prefer all other +women to that particular woman whom one has married. + +"Well," you will say to me, "what on earth did you get married for?" + +I hardly like to tell you the strange and seemingly improbable reason +that urged me on to this senseless act; the fact, however, is that I am +afraid of being alone. + +I don't know how to tell you or to make you understand me, but my state +of mind is so wretched that you will pity me and despise me. + +I do not want to be alone any longer at night. I want to feel that there +is some one close to me, touching me, a being who can speak and say +something, no matter what it be. + +I wish to be able to awaken somebody by my side, so that I may be able to +ask some sudden question, a stupid question even, if I feel inclined, so +that I may hear a human voice, and feel that there is some waking soul +close to me, some one whose reason is at work; so that when I hastily +light the candle I may see some human face by my side--because--because +--I am ashamed to confess it--because I am afraid of being alone. + +Oh, you don't understand me yet. + +I am not afraid of any danger; if a man were to come into the room, I +should kill him without trembling. I am not afraid of ghosts, nor do I +believe in the supernatural. I am not afraid of dead people, for I +believe in the total annihilation of every being that disappears from the +face of this earth. + +Well--yes, well, it must be told: I am afraid of myself, afraid of that +horrible sensation of incomprehensible fear. + +You may laugh, if you like. It is terrible, and I cannot get over it. +I am afraid of the walls, of the furniture, of the familiar objects; +which are animated, as far as I am concerned, by a kind of animal life. +Above all, I am afraid of my own dreadful thoughts, of my reason, which +seems as if it were about to leave me, driven away by a mysterious and +invisible agony. + +At first I feel a vague uneasiness in my mind, which causes a cold shiver +to run all over me. I look round, and of course nothing is to be seen, +and I wish that there were something there, no matter what, as long as it +were something tangible. I am frightened merely because I cannot +understand my own terror. + +If I speak, I am afraid of my own voice. If I walk, I am afraid of I +know not what, behind the door, behind the curtains, in the cupboard, or +under my bed, and yet all the time I know there is nothing anywhere, and +I turn round suddenly because I am afraid of what is behind me, although +there is nothing there, and I know it. + +I become agitated. I feel that my fear increases, and so I shut myself +up in my own room, get into bed, and hide under the clothes; and there, +cowering down, rolled into a ball, I close my eyes in despair, and remain +thus for an indefinite time, remembering that my candle is alight on the +table by my bedside, and that I ought to put it out, and yet--I dare not +do it. + +It is very terrible, is it not, to be like that? + +Formerly I felt nothing of all that. I came home quite calm, and went up +and down my apartment without anything disturbing my peace of mind. Had +any one told me that I should be attacked by a malady--for I can call it +nothing else--of most improbable fear, such a stupid and terrible malady +as it is, I should have laughed outright. I was certainly never afraid +of opening the door in the dark. I went to bed slowly, without locking +it, and never got up in the middle of the night to make sure that +everything was firmly closed. + +It began last year in a very strange manner on a damp autumn evening. +When my servant had left the room, after I had dined, I asked myself what +I was going to do. I walked up and down my room for some time, feeling +tired without any reason for it, unable to work, and even without energy +to read. A fine rain was falling, and I felt unhappy, a prey to one of +those fits of despondency, without any apparent cause, which make us feel +inclined to cry, or to talk, no matter to whom, so as to shake off our +depressing thoughts. + +I felt that I was alone, and my rooms seemed to me to be more empty than +they had ever been before. I was in the midst of infinite and +overwhelming solitude. What was I to do? I sat down, but a kind of +nervous impatience seemed to affect my legs, so I got up and began to +walk about again. I was, perhaps, rather feverish, for my hands, which I +had clasped behind me, as one often does when walking slowly, almost +seemed to burn one another. Then suddenly a cold shiver ran down my +back, and I thought the damp air might have penetrated into my rooms, so +I lit the fire for the first time that year, and sat down again and +looked at the flames. But soon I felt that I could not possibly remain +quiet, and so I got up again and determined to go out, to pull myself +together, and to find a friend to bear me company. + +I could not find anyone, so I walked to the boulevard ro try and meet +some acquaintance or other there. + +It was wretched everywhere, and the wet pavement glistened in the +gaslight, while the oppressive warmth of the almost impalpable rain lay +heavily over the streets and seemed to obscure the light of the lamps. + +I went on slowly, saying to myself: "I shall not find a soul to talk to." + +I glanced into several cafes, from the Madeleine as far as the Faubourg +Poissoniere, and saw many unhappy-looking individuals sitting at the +tables who did not seem even to have enough energy left to finish the +refreshments they had ordered. + +For a long time I wandered aimlessly up and down, and about midnight I +started for home. I was very calm and very tired. My janitor opened the +door at once, which was quite unusual for him, and I thought that another +lodger had probably just come in. + +When I go out I always double-lock the door of my room, and I found it +merely closed, which surprised me; but I supposed that some letters had +been brought up for me in the course of the evening. + +I went in, and found my fire still burning so that it lighted up the room +a little, and, while in the act of taking up a candle, I noticed somebody +sitting in my armchair by the fire, warming his feet, with his back +toward me. + +I was not in the slightest degree frightened. I thought, very naturally, +that some friend or other had come to see me. No doubt the porter, to +whom I had said I was going out, had lent him his own key. In a moment I +remembered all the circumstances of my return, how the street door had +been opened immediately, and that my own door was only latched and not +locked. + +I could see nothing of my friend but his head, and he had evidently gone +to sleep while waiting for me, so I went up to him to rouse him. I saw +him quite distinctly; his right arm was hanging down and his legs were +crossed; the position of his head, which was somewhat inclined to the +left of the armchair, seemed to indicate that he was asleep. "Who can it +be?" I asked myself. I could not see clearly, as the room was rather +dark, so I put out my hand to touch him on the shoulder, and it came in +contact with the back of the chair. There was nobody there; the seat was +empty. + +I fairly jumped with fright. For a moment I drew back as if confronted +by some terrible danger; then I turned round again, impelled by an +imperious standing upright, panting with fear, so upset that I could not +collect my thoughts, and ready to faint. + +But I am a cool man, and soon recovered myself. I thought: "It is a mere +hallucination, that is all," and I immediately began to reflect on this +phenomenon. Thoughts fly quickly at such moments. + +I had been suffering from an hallucination, that was an incontestable +fact. My mind had been perfectly lucid and had acted regularly and +logically, so there was nothing the matter with the brain. It was only +my eyes that had been deceived; they had had a vision, one of those +visions which lead simple folk to believe in miracles. It was a nervous +seizure of the optical apparatus, nothing more; the eyes were rather +congested, perhaps. + +I lit my candle, and when I stooped down to the fire in doing so I +noticed that I was trembling, and I raised myself up with a jump, as if +somebody had touched me from behind. + +I was certainly not by any means calm. + +I walked up and down a little, and hummed a tune or two. Then I double- +locked the door and felt rather reassured; now, at any rate, nobody could +come in. + +I sat down again and thought over my adventure for a long time; then I +went to bed and blew out my light. + +For some minutes all went well; I lay quietly on my back, but presently +an irresistible desire seized me to look round the room, and I turned +over on my side. + +My fire was nearly out, and the few glowing embers threw a faint light on +the floor by the chair, where I fancied I saw the man sitting again. + +I quickly struck a match, but I had been mistaken; there was nothing +there. I got up, however, and hid the chair behind my bed, and tried to +get to sleep, as the room was now dark; but I had not forgotten myself +for more than five minutes, when in my dream I saw all the scene which I +had previously witnessed as clearly as if it were reality. I woke up +with a start, and having lit the candle, sat up in bed, without venturing +even to try to go to sleep again. + +Twice, however, sleep overcame me for a few moments in spite of myself, +and twice I saw the same thing again, till I fancied I was going mad. +When day broke, however, I thought that I was cured, and slept peacefully +till noon. + +It was all past and over. I had been feverish, had had the nightmare. I +know not what. I had been ill, in fact, but yet thought I was a great +fool. + +I enjoyed myself thoroughly that evening. I dined at a restaurant and +afterward went to the theatre, and then started for home. But as I got +near the house I was once more seized by a strange feeling of uneasiness. +I was afraid of seeing him again. I was not afraid of him, not afraid of +his presence, in which I did not believe; but I was afraid of being +deceived again. I was afraid of some fresh hallucination, afraid lest +fear should take possession of me. + +For more than an hour I wandered up and down the pavement; then, feeling +that I was really too foolish, I returned home. I breathed so hard that +I could hardly get upstairs, and remained standing outside my door for +more than ten minutes; then suddenly I had a courageous impulse and my +will asserted itself. I inserted my key into the lock, and went into the +apartment with a candle in my hand. I kicked open my bedroom door, which +was partly open, and cast a frightened glance toward the fireplace. +There was nothing there. A-h! What a relief and what a delight! What a +deliverance! I walked up and down briskly and boldly, but I was not +altogether reassured, and kept turning round with a jump; the very +shadows in the corners disquieted me. + +I slept badly, and was constantly disturbed by imaginary noises, but did +not see him; no, that was all over. + +Since that time I have been afraid of being alone at night. I feel that +the spectre is there, close to me, around me; but it has not appeared to +me again. + +And supposing it did, what would it matter, since I do not believe in it, +and know that it is nothing? + +However, it still worries me, because I am constantly thinking of it. +His right arm hanging down and his head inclined to the left like a man +who was asleep--I don't want to think about it! + +Why, however, am I so persistently possessed with this idea? His feet +were close to the fire! + +He haunts me; it is very stupid, but who and what is he? I know that he +does not exist except in my cowardly imagination, in my fears, and in my +agony. There--enough of that! + +Yes, it is all very well for me to reason with myself, to stiffen my +backbone, so to say; but I cannot remain at home because I know he is +there. I know I shall not see him again; he will not show himself again; +that is all over. But he is there, all the same, in my thoughts. He +remains invisible, but that does not prevent his being there. He is +behind the doors, in the closed cupboard, in the wardrobe, under the bed, +in every dark corner. If I open the door or the cupboard, if I take the +candle to look under the bed and throw a light on the dark places he is +there no longer, but I feel that he is behind me. I turn round, certain +that I shall not see him, that I shall never see him again; but for all +that, he is behind me. + +It is very stupid, it is dreadful; but what am I to do? I cannot help +it. + +But if there were two of us in the place I feel certain that he would not +be there any longer, for he is there just because I am alone, simply and +solely because I am alone! + + + + + + +LEGEND OF MONT ST. MICHEL + +I had first seen it from Cancale, this fairy castle in the sea. I got an +indistinct impression of it as of a gray shadow outlined against the +misty sky. I saw it again from Avranches at sunset. The immense stretch +of sand was red, the horizon was red, the whole boundless bay was red. +The rocky castle rising out there in the distance like a weird, +seignorial residence, like a dream palace, strange and beautiful-this +alone remained black in the crimson light of the dying day. + +The following morning at dawn I went toward it across the sands, my eyes +fastened on this, gigantic jewel, as big as a mountain, cut like a cameo, +and as dainty as lace. The nearer I approached the greater my admiration +grew, for nothing in the world could be more wonderful or more perfect. + +As surprised as if I had discovered the habitation of a god, I wandered +through those halls supported by frail or massive columns, raising my +eyes in wonder to those spires which looked like rockets starting for the +sky, and to that marvellous assemblage of towers, of gargoyles, of +slender and charming ornaments, a regular fireworks of stone, granite +lace, a masterpiece of colossal and delicate architecture. + +As I was looking up in ecstasy a Lower Normandy peasant came up to me and +told me the story of the great quarrel between Saint Michael and the +devil. + +A sceptical genius has said: "God made man in his image and man has +returned the compliment." + +This saying is an eternal truth, and it would be very curious to write +the history of the local divinity of every continent as well as the +history of the patron saints in each one of our provinces. The negro has +his ferocious man-eating idols; the polygamous Mahometan fills his +paradise with women; the Greeks, like a practical people, deified all the +passions. + +Every village in France is under the influence of some protecting saint, +modelled according to the characteristics of the inhabitants. + +Saint Michael watches over Lower Normandy, Saint Michael, the radiant and +victorious angel, the sword-carrier, the hero of Heaven, the victorious, +the conqueror of Satan. + +But this is how the Lower Normandy peasant, cunning, deceitful and +tricky, understands and tells of the struggle between the great saint and +the devil. + +To escape from the malice of his neighbor, the devil, Saint Michael built +himself, in the open ocean, this habitation worthy of an archangel; and +only such a saint could build a residence of such magnificence. + +But as he still feared the approaches of the wicked one, he surrounded +his domains by quicksands, more treacherous even than the sea. + +The devil lived in a humble cottage on the hill, but he owned all the +salt marshes, the rich lands where grow the finest crops, the wooded +valleys and all the fertile hills of the country, while the saint a ruled +only over the sands. Therefore Satan was rich, whereas Saint Michael was +as poor as a church mouse. + +After a few years of fasting the saint grew tired of this state of +affairs and began to think of some compromise with the devil, but the +matter was by no means easy, as Satan kept a good hold on his crops. + +He thought the thing over for about six months; then one morning he +walked across to the shore. The demon was eating his soup in front of +his door when he saw the saint. He immediately rushed toward him, kissed +the hem of his sleeve, invited him in and offered him refreshments. + +Saint Michael drank a bowl of milk and then began: "I have come here to +propose to you a good bargain." + +The devil, candid and trustful, answered: "That will suit me." + +"Here it is. Give me all your lands." + +Satan, growing alarmed, wished to speak "But--" + +She saint continued: "Listen first. Give me all your lands. I will take +care of all the work, the ploughing, the sowing, the fertilizing, +everything, and we will share the crops equally. How does that suit +you?" + +The devil, who was naturally lazy, accepted. He only demanded in +addition a few of those delicious gray mullet which are caught around the +solitary mount. Saint Michael promised the fish. + +They grasped hands and spat on the ground to show that it was a bargain, +and the saint continued: "See here, so that you will have nothing to +complain of, choose that part of the crops which you prefer: the part +that grows above ground or the part that stays in the ground." Satan +cried out: "I will take all that will be above ground." + +"It's a bargain!" said the saint. And he went away. + +Six months later, all over the immense domain of the devil, one could see +nothing but carrots, turnips, onions, salsify, all the plants whose juicy +roots are good and savory and whose useless leaves are good for nothing +but for feeding animals. + +Satan wished to break the contract, calling Saint Michael a swindler. + +But the saint, who had developed quite a taste for agriculture, went back +to see the devil and said: + +"Really, I hadn't thought of that at all; it was just an accident, no +fault of mine. And to make things fair with you, this year I'll let you +take everything that is under the ground." + +"Very well," answered Satan. + +The following spring all the evil spirit's lands were covered with golden +wheat, oats as big as beans, flax, magnificent colza, red clover, peas, +cabbage, artichokes, everything that develops into grains or fruit in the +sunlight. + +Once more Satan received nothing, and this time he completely lost his +temper. He took back his fields and remained deaf to all the fresh +propositions of his neighbor. + +A whole year rolled by. From the top of his lonely manor Saint Michael +looked at the distant and fertile lands and watched the devil direct the +work, take in his crops and thresh the wheat. And he grew angry, +exasperated at his powerlessness. + +As he was no longer able to deceive Satan, he decided to wreak vengeance +on him, and he went out to invite him to dinner for the following Monday. + +"You have been very unfortunate in your dealings with me," he said; +"I know it, but I don't want any ill feeling between us, and I expect you +to dine with me. I'll give you some good things to eat." + +Satan, who was as greedy as he was lazy, accepted eagerly. On the day +appointed he donned his finest clothes and set out for the castle. + +Saint Michael sat him down to a magnificent meal. First there was a +'vol-au-vent', full of cocks' crests and kidneys, with meat-balls, then +two big gray mullet with cream sauce, a turkey stuffed with chestnuts +soaked in wine, some salt-marsh lamb as tender as cake, vegetables which +melted in the mouth and nice hot pancake which was brought on smoking and +spreading a delicious odor of butter. + +They drank new, sweet, sparkling cider and heady red wine, and after each +course they whetted their appetites with some old apple brandy. + +The devil drank and ate to his heart's content; in fact he took so much +that he was very uncomfortable, and began to retch. + +Then Saint Michael arose in anger and cried in a voice like thunder: +"What! before me, rascal! You dare--before me--" + +Satan, terrified, ran away, and the saint, seizing a stick, pursued him. +They ran through the halls, turning round the pillars, running up the +staircases, galloping along the cornices, jumping from gargoyle to +gargoyle. The poor devil, who was woefully ill, was running about madly +and trying hard to escape. At last he found himself at the top of the +last terrace, right at the top, from which could be seen the immense bay, +with its distant towns, sands and pastures. He could no longer escape, +and the saint came up behind him and gave him a furious kick, which shot +him through space like a cannonball. + +He shot through the air like a javelin and fell heavily before the town +of Mortain. His horns and claws stuck deep into the rock, which keeps +through eternity the traces of this fall of Satan. + +He stood up again, limping, crippled until the end of time, and as he +looked at this fatal castle in the distance, standing out against the +setting sun, he understood well that he would always be vanquished in +this unequal struggle, and he went away limping, heading for distant +countries, leaving to his enemy his fields, his hills, his valleys and +his marshes. + +And this is how Saint Michael, the patron saint of Normandy, vanquished +the devil. + +Another people would have dreamed of this battle in an entirely different +manner. + + + + + + +A NEW YEAR'S GIFT + +Jacques de Randal, having dined at home alone, told his valet he might go +out, and he sat down at his table to write some letters. + +He ended every year in this manner, writing and dreaming. He reviewed +the events of his life since last New Year's Day, things that were now +all over and dead; and, in proportion as the faces of his friends rose up +before his eyes, he wrote them a few lines, a cordial New Year's greeting +on the first of January. + +So he sat down, opened a drawer, took out of it a woman's photograph, +gazed at it a few moments, and kissed it. Then, having laid it beside a +sheet of notepaper, he began: + + MY DEAR IRENE: You must by this time have received the little + souvenir I sent, you addressed to the maid. I have shut myself up + this evening in order to tell you----" + +The pen here ceased to move. Jacques rose up and began walking up and +down the room. + +For the last ten months he had had a sweetheart, not like the others, a +woman with whom one engages in a passing intrigue, of the theatrical +world or the demi-monde, but a woman whom he loved and won. He was no +longer a young man, although he was still comparatively young for a man, +and he looked on life seriously in a positive and practical spirit. + +Accordingly, he drew up the balance sheet of his passion, as he drew up +every year the balance sheet of friendships that were ended or freshly +contracted, of circumstances and persons that had entered into his life. + +His first ardor of love having grown calmer, he asked himself with the +precision of a merchant making a calculation what was the state of his +heart with regard to her, and he tried to form an idea of what it would +be in the future. + +He found there a great and deep affection; made up of tenderness, +gratitude and the thousand subtleties which give birth to long and +powerful attachments. + +A ring at the bell made him start. He hesitated. Should he open the +door? But he said to himself that one must always open the door on New +Year's night, to admit the unknown who is passing by and knocks, no +matter who it may be. + +So he took a wax candle, passed through the antechamber, drew back the +bolts, turned the key, pulled the door back, and saw his sweetheart +standing pale as a corpse, leaning against the wall. + +He stammered: + +"What is the matter with you?" + +She replied: + +"Are you alone?" + +"Yes." + +"Without servants?" + +"Yes." + +"You are not going out?" + +"No." + +She entered with the air of a woman who knew the house. As soon as she +was in the drawing-room, she sank down on the sofa, and, covering her +face with her hands, began to weep bitterly. + +He knelt down at her feet, and tried to remove her hands from her eyes, +so that he might look at them, and exclaimed: + +"Irene, Irene, what is the matter with you? I implore you to tell me +what is the matter with you?" + +Then, amid her sobs, she murmured: + +"I can no longer live like this." + +"Live like this? What do you mean?" + +"Yes. I can no longer live like this. I have endured so much. He +struck me this afternoon." + +"Who? Your husband?" + +"Yes, my husband." + +"Ah!" + +He was astonished, having never suspected that her husband could be +brutal. He was a man of the world, of the better class, a clubman, a +lover of horses, a theatergoer and an expert swordsman; he was known, +talked about, appreciated everywhere, having very courteous manners, a +very mediocre intellect, an absence of education and of the real culture +needed in order to think like all well-bred people, and finally a respect +for conventionalities. + +He appeared to devote himself to his wife, as a man ought to do in the +case of wealthy and well-bred people. He displayed enough of anxiety +about her wishes, her health, her dresses, and, beyond that, left her +perfectly free. + +Randal, having become Irene's friend, had a right to the affectionate +hand-clasp which every husband endowed with good manners owes to his +wife's intimate acquaintance. Then, when Jacques, after having been for +some time the friend, became the lover, his relations with the husband +were more cordial, as is fitting. + +Jacques had never dreamed that there were storms in this household, and +he was bewildered at this unexpected revelation. + +He asked: + +"How did it happen? Tell me." + +Thereupon she related a long story, the entire history of her life since +the day of her marriage, the first disagreement arising out of a mere +nothing, then becoming accentuated at every new difference of opinion +between two dissimilar dispositions. + +Then came quarrels, a complete separation, not apparent, but real; next, +her husband showed himself aggressive, suspicious, violent. Now, he was +jealous, jealous of Jacques, and that very day, after a scene, he had +struck her. + +She added with decision: "I will not go back to him. Do with me what you +like." + +Jacques sat down opposite to her, their knees touching. He took her +hands: + +"My dear love, you are going to commit a gross, an irreparable folly. If +you want to leave your husband, put him in the wrong, so that your +position as a woman of the world may be saved." + +She asked, as she looked at him uneasily: + +"Then, what do you advise me?" + +"To go back home and to put up with your life there till the day when you +can obtain either a separation or a divorce, with the honors of war." + +"Is not this thing which you advise me to do a little cowardly?" + +"No; it is wise and sensible. You have a high position, a reputation to +protect, friends to preserve and relations to deal with. You must not +lose all these through a mere caprice." + +She rose up, and said with violence: + +"Well, no! I cannot stand it any longer! It is at an end! it is at an +end!" + +Then, placing her two hands on her lover's shoulders, and looking him +straight in the face, she asked: + +"Do you love me?" + +"Yes." + +"Really and truly?" + +"Yes." + +"Then take care of me." + +He exclaimed: + +"Take care of you? In my own house? Here? Why, you are mad. It would +mean losing you forever; losing you beyond hope of recall! You are mad!" + +She replied, slowly and seriously, like a woman who feels the weight of +her words: + +"Listen, Jacques. He has forbidden me to see you again, and I will not +play this comedy of coming secretly to your house. You must either lose +me or take me." + +"My dear Irene, in that case, obtain your divorce, and I will marry you." + +"Yes, you will marry me in--two years at the soonest. Yours is a patient +love." + +"Look here! Reflect! If you remain here he'll come to-morrow to take +you away, seeing that he is your husband, seeing that he has right and +law on his side." + +"I did not ask you to keep me in your own house, Jacques, but to take me +anywhere you like. I thought you loved me enough to do that. I have +made a mistake. Good-by!" + +She turned round and went toward the door so quickly that he was only +able to catch hold of her when she was outside the room: + +"Listen, Irene." + +She struggled, and would not listen to him. Her eyes were full of tears, +and she stammered: + +"Let me alone! let me alone! let me alone!" + +He made her sit down by force, and once more falling on his knees at her +feet, he now brought forward a number of arguments and counsels to make +her understand the folly and terrible risk of her project. He omitted +nothing which he deemed necessary to convince her, finding even in his +very affection for her incentives to persuasion. + +As she remained silent and cold as ice, he begged of her, implored of her +to listen to him, to trust him, to follow his advice. + +When he had finished speaking, she only replied: + +"Are you disposed to let me go away now? Take away your hands, so that I +may rise to my feet." + +"Look here, Irene." + +"Will you let me go?" + +"Irene--is your resolution irrevocable?" + +"Will you let me go." + +"Tell me only whether this resolution, this mad resolution of yours, +which you will bitterly regret, is irrevocable?" + +"Yes--let me go!" + +"Then stay. You know well that you are at home here. We shall go away +to-morrow morning." + +She rose to her feet in spite of him, and said in a hard tone: + +"No. It is too late. I do not want sacrifice; I do not want devotion." + +"Stay! I have done what I ought to do; I have said what I ought to say. +I have no further responsibility on your behalf. My conscience is at +peace. Tell me what you want me to do, and I will obey."' + +She resumed her seat, looked at him for a long time, and then asked, in a +very calm voice: + +"Well, then, explain." + +"Explain what? What do you wish me to explain?" + +"Everything--everything that you thought about before changing your mind. +Then I will see what I ought to do." + +"But I thought about nothing at all. I had to warn you that you were +going to commit an act of folly. You persist; then I ask to share in +this act of folly, and I even insist on it." + +"It is not natural to change one's mind so quickly." + +"Listen, my dear love. It is not a question here of sacrifice or +devotion. On the day when I realized that I loved you, I said to myself +what every lover ought to say to himself in the same case: 'The man who +loves a woman, who makes an effort to win her, who gets her, and who +takes her, enters into a sacred contract with himself and with her. That +is, of course, in dealing with a woman like you, not a woman with a +fickle heart and easily impressed.' + +"Marriage which has a great social value, a great legal value, possesses +in my eyes only a very slight moral value, taking into account the +conditions under which it generally takes place. + +"Therefore, when a woman, united by this lawful bond, but having no +attachment to her husband, whom she cannot love, a woman whose heart is +free, meets a man whom she cares for, and gives herself to him, when a +man who has no other tie, takes a woman in this way, I say that they +pledge themselves toward each other by this mutual and free agreement +much more than by the 'Yes' uttered in the presence of the mayor. + +"I say that, if they are both honorable persons, their union must be more +intimate, more real, more wholesome, than if all the sacraments had +consecrated it. + +"This woman risks everything. And it is exactly because she knows it, +because she gives everything, her heart, her body, her soul, her honor, +her life, because she has foreseen all miseries, all dangers all +catastrophes, because she dares to do a bold act, an intrepid act, +because she is prepared, determined to brave everything--her husband, who +might kill her, and society, which may cast her out. This is why she is +worthy of respect in the midst of her conjugal infidelity; this is why +her lover, in taking her, should also foresee everything, and prefer her +to every one else whatever may happen. I have nothing more to say. I +spoke in the beginning like a sensible man whose duty it was to warn you; +and now I am only a man--a man who loves you--Command, and I obey." + +Radiant, she closed his mouth with a kiss, and said in a low tone: + +"It is not true, darling! There is nothing the matter! My husband does +not suspect anything. But I wanted to see, I wanted to know, what you +would do I wished for a New Year's gift--the gift of your heart--another +gift besides the necklace you sent me. You have given it to me. Thanks! +thanks! God be thanked for the happiness you have given me!" + + + + + + +FRIEND PATIENCE + +What became of Leremy?" + +"He is captain in the Sixth Dragoons." + +"And Pinson?" + +"He's a subprefect." + +"And Racollet?" + +"Dead." + +We were searching for other names which would remind us of the youthful +faces of our younger days. Once in a while we had met some of these old +comrades, bearded, bald, married, fathers of several children, and the +realization of these changes had given us an unpleasant shudder, +reminding us how short life is, how everything passes away, how +everything changes. My friend asked me: + +"And Patience, fat Patience?" + +I almost, howled: + +"Oh! as for him, just listen to this. Four or five years ago I was in +Limoges, on a tour of inspection, and I was waiting for dinner time. +I was seated before the big cafe in the Place du Theatre, just bored to +death. The tradespeople were coming by twos, threes or fours, to take +their absinthe or vermouth, talking all the time of their own or other +people's business, laughing loudly, or lowering their voices in order to +impart some important or delicate piece of news. + +"I was saying to myself: 'What shall I do after dinner?' And I thought of +the long evening in this provincial town, of the slow, dreary walk +through unknown streets, of the impression of deadly gloom which these +provincial people produce on the lonely traveller, and of the whole +oppressive atmosphere of the place. + +"I was thinking of all these things as I watched the little jets of gas +flare up, feeling my loneliness increase with the falling shadows. + +"A big, fat man sat down at the next table and called in a stentorian +voice: + +"'Waiter, my bitters!' + +"The 'my' came out like the report of a cannon. I immediately understood +that everything was his in life, and not another's; that he had his +nature, by Jove, his appetite, his trousers, his everything, his, more +absolutely and more completely than anyone else's. Then he looked round +him with a satisfied air. His bitters were brought, and he ordered: + +"'My newspaper!' + +"I wondered: 'Which newspaper can his be?' The title would certainly +reveal to me his opinions, his theories, his principles, his hobbies, his +weaknesses. + +"The waiter brought the Temps. I was surprised. Why the Temps, +a serious, sombre, doctrinaire, impartial sheet? I thought: + +"'He must be a serious man with settled and regular habits; in short, +a good bourgeois.' + +"He put on his gold-rimmed spectacles, leaned back before beginning to +read, and once more glanced about him. He noticed me, and immediately +began to stare at me in an annoying manner. I was even going to ask the +reason for this attention, when he exclaimed from his seat: + +"'Well, by all that's holy, if this isn't Gontran Lardois.' + +"I answered: + +"'Yes, monsieur, you are not mistaken.' + +"Then he quickly rose and came toward me with hands outstretched: + +"'Well, old man, how are you?' + +"As I did not recognize him at all I was greatly embarrassed. +I stammered: + +"'Why-very well-and-you?' + +"He began to laugh +"'I bet you don't recognize me.' + +"'No, not exactly. It seems--however--' + +"He slapped me on the back: + +"'Come on, no joking! I am Patience, Robert Patience, your friend, your +chum.' + +"I recognized him. Yes, Robert Patience, my old college chum. It was +he. I took his outstretched hand: + +"'And how are you?' + +"'Fine!' + +"His smile was like a paean of victory. + +"He asked: + +"'What are you doing here?' + +"I explained that I was government inspector of taxes. + +"He continued, pointing to my red ribbon: + +"'Then you have-been a success?' + +"I answered: + +"'Fairly so. And you?' + +"'I am doing well!' + +"'What are you doing?' + +"'I'm in business.' + +"'Making money?' + +"'Heaps. I'm very rich. But come around to lunch, to-morrow noon, 17 +Rue du Coq-qui-Chante; you will see my place.' + +"He seemed to hesitate a second, then continued: + +"'Are you still the good sport that you used to be?' + +"'I--I hope so.' + +"'Not married?' + +"'No.' + +"'Good. And do you still love a good time and potatoes?' + +"I was beginning to find him hopelessly vulgar. Nevertheless, I answered +"'Yes.' + +"'And pretty girls?' + +"'Most assuredly.' + +"He began to laugh good-humoredly. + +"'Good, good! Do you remember our first escapade, in Bordeaux, after +that dinner at Routie's? What a spree!' + +"I did, indeed, remember that spree; and the recollection of it cheered +me up. This called to mind other pranks. He would say: + +"'Say, do you remember the time when we locked the proctor up in old man +Latoque's cellar?' + +"And he laughed and banged the table with his fist, and then he +continued: + +"'Yes-yes-yes-and do you remember the face of the geography teacher, +M. Marin, the day we set off a firecracker in the globe, just as he was +haranguing about the principal volcanoes of the earth?' + +"Then suddenly I asked him: + +"'And you, are you married?' + +"He exclaimed: + +"'Ten years, my boy, and I have four children, remarkable youngsters; but +you'll see them and their mother.' + +"We were talking rather loud; the people around us looked at us in +surprise. + +"Suddenly my friend looked at his watch, a chronometer the size of a +pumpkin, and he cried: + +"'Thunder! I'm sorry, but I'll have to leave you; I am never free at +night.' + +"He rose, took both my hands, shook them as though he were trying to +wrench my arms from their sockets, and exclaimed: + +"'So long, then; till to-morrow noon!' + +"'So long!' + +"I spent the morning working in the office of the collector-general of +the Department. The chief wished me to stay to luncheon, but I told him +that I had an engagement with a friend. As he had to go out, he +accompanied me. + +"I asked him: + +"'Can you tell me how I can find the Rue du Coq-qui-Chante?' + +"He answered: + +"'Yes, it's only five minutes' walk from here. As I have nothing special +to do, I will take you there.' + +"We started out and soon found ourselves there. It was a wide, fine- +looking street, on the outskirts of the town. I looked at the houses and +I noticed No. 17. It was a large house with a garden behind it. The +facade, decorated with frescoes, in the Italian style, appeared to me as +being in bad taste. There were goddesses holding vases, others swathed +in clouds. Two stone cupids supported the number of the house. + +"I said to the treasurer: + +"'Here is where I am going.' + +"I held my hand out to him. He made a quick, strange gesture, said +nothing and shook my hand. + +"I rang. A maid appeared. I asked: + +"'Monsieur Patience, if you please?' + +"She answered: + +"'Right here, sir. Is it to monsieur that you wish to speak?' + +"'Yes.' + +"The hall was decorated with paintings from the brush of some local +artist. Pauls and Virginias were kissing each other under palm trees +bathed in a pink light. A hideous Oriental lantern was ranging from the +ceiling. Several doors were concealed by bright hangings. + +"But what struck me especially was the odor. It was a sickening and +perfumed odor, reminding one of rice powder and the mouldy smell of a +cellar. An indefinable odor in a heavy atmosphere as oppressive as that +of public baths. I followed the maid up a marble stairway, covered with +a green, Oriental carpet, and was ushered into a sumptubus parlor. + +"Left alone, I looked about me. + +"The room was richly furnished, but in the pretentious taste of a +parvenu. Rather fine engravings of the last century represented women +with powdered hair dressed high surprised by gentlemen in interesting +positions. Another lady, lying in a large bed, was teasing with her foot +a little dog, lost in the sheets. One drawing showed four feet, bodies +concealed behind a curtain. The large room, surrounded by soft couches, +was entirely impregnated with that enervating and insipid odor which I +had already noticed. There seemed to be something suspicious about the +walls, the hangings, the exaggerated luxury, everything. + +"I approached the window to look into the garden. It was very big, +shady, beautiful. A wide path wound round a grass plot in the midst of +which was a fountain, entered a shrubbery and came out farther away. +And, suddenly, yonder, in the distance, between two clumps of bushes, +three women appeared. They were walking slowly, arm in arm, clad in +long, white tea-gowns covered with lace. Two were blondes and the other +was dark-haired. Almost immediately they disappeared again behind the +trees. I stood there entranced, delighted with this short and charming +apparition, which brought to my mind a whole world of poetry. They had +scarcely allowed themselves to be seen, in just the proper light, in that +frame of foliage, in the midst of that mysterious, delightful park. It +seemed to me that I had suddenly seen before me the great ladies of the +last century, who were depicted in the engravings on the wall. And I +began to think of the happy, joyous, witty and amorous times when manners +were so graceful and lips so approachable. + +"A deep voice male me jump. Patience had come in, beaming, and held out +his hands to me. + +"He looked into my eyes with the sly look which one takes when divulging +secrets of love, and, with a Napoleonic gesture, he showed me his +sumptuous parlor, his park, the three women, who had reappeared in the +back of it, then, in a triumphant voice, where the note of pride was +prominent, he said: + +"'And to think that I began with nothing--my wife and my sister-in-law!'" + + + + + + +ABANDONED + +"I really think you must be mad, my dear, to go for a country walk in +such weather as this. You have had some very strange notions for the +last two months. You drag me to the seaside in spite of myself, when you +have never once had such a whim during all the forty-four years that we +have been married. You chose Fecamp, which is a very dull town, without +consulting me in the matter, and now you are seized with such a rage for +walking, you who hardly ever stir out on foot, that you want to take a +country walk on the hottest day of the year. Ask d'Apreval to go with +you, as he is ready to gratify all your whims. As for me, I am going +back to have a nap." + +Madame de Cadour turned to her old friend and said: + +"Will you come with me, Monsieur d'Apreval?" + +He bowed with a smile, and with all the gallantry of former years: + +"I will go wherever you go," he replied. + +"Very well, then, go and get a sunstroke," Monsieur de Cadour said; and +he went back to the Hotel des Bains to lie down for an hour or two. + +As soon as they were alone, the old lady and her old companion set off, +and she said to him in a low voice, squeezing his hand: + +"At last! at last!" + +"You are mad," he said in a whisper. "I assure you that you are mad. +Think of the risk you are running. If that man--" + +She started. + +"Oh! Henri, do not say that man, when you are speaking of him." + +"Very well," he said abruptly, "if our son guesses anything, if he has +any suspicions, he will have you, he will have us both in his power. +You have got on without seeing him for the last forty years. What is the +matter with you to-day?" + +They had been going up the long street that leads from the sea to the +town, and now they turned to the right, to go to Etretat. The white road +stretched in front of him, then under a blaze of brilliant sunshine, so +they went on slowly in the burning heat. She had taken her old friend's +arm, and was looking straight in front of her, with a fixed and haunted +gaze, and at last she said: + +"And so you have not seen him again, either?" + +"No, never." + +"Is it possible?" + +"My dear friend, do not let us begin that discussion again. I have a +wife and children and you have a husband, so we both of us have much to +fear from other people's opinion." + +She did not reply; she was thinking of her long past youth and of many +sad things that had occurred. How well she recalled all the details of +their early friendship, his smiles, the way he used to linger, in order +to watch her until she was indoors. What happy days they were, the only +really delicious days she had ever enjoyed, and how quickly they were +over! + +And then--her discovery--of the penalty she paid! What anguish! + +Of that journey to the South, that long journey, her sufferings, her +constant terror, that secluded life in the small, solitary house on the +shores of the Mediterranean, at the bottom of a garden, which she did not +venture to leave. How well she remembered those long days which she +spent lying under an orange tree, looking up at the round, red fruit, +amid the green leaves. How she used to long to go out, as far as the +sea, whose fresh breezes came to her over the wall, and whose small waves +she could hear lapping on the beach. She dreamed of its immense blue +expanse sparkling under the sun, with the white sails of the small +vessels, and a mountain on the horizon. But she did not dare to go +outside the gate. Suppose anybody had recognized her! + +And those days of waiting, those last days of misery and expectation! +The impending suffering, and then that terrible night! What misery she +had endured, and what a night it was! How she had groaned and screamed! +She could still see the pale face of her lover, who kissed her hand every +moment, and the clean-shaven face of the doctor and the nurse's white +cap. + +And what she felt when she heard the child's feeble cries, that wail, +that first effort of a human's voice! + +And the next day! the next day! the only day of her life on which she had +seen and kissed her son; for, from that time, she had never even caught a +glimpse of him. + +And what a long, void existence hers had been since then, with the +thought of that child always, always floating before her. She had never +seen her son, that little creature that had been part of herself, even +once since then; they had taken him from her, carried him awav, and had +hidden him. All she knew was that he had been brought up by some +peasants in Normandy, that he had become a peasant himself, had married +well, and that his father, whose name he did not know, had settled a +handsome sum of money on him. + +How often during the last forty years had she wished to go and see him +and to embrace him! She could not imagine to herself that he had grown! +She always thought of that small human atom which she had held in her +arms and pressed to her bosom for a day. + +How often she had said to M. d'Apreval: "I cannot bear it any longer; +I must go and see him." + +But he had always stopped her and kept her from going. She would be +unable to restrain and to master herself; their son would guess it and +take advantage of her, blackmail her; she would be lost. + +"What is he like?" she said. + +"I do not know. I have not seen him again, either." + +"Is it possible? To have a son and not to know him; to be afraid of him +and to reject him as if he were a disgrace! It is horrible." + +They went along the dusty road, overcome by the scorching sun, and +continually ascending that interminable hill. + +"One might take it for a punishment," she continued; "I have never had +another child, and I could no longer resist the longing to see him, which +has possessed me for forty years. You men cannot understand that. You +must remember that I shall not live much longer, and suppose I should +never see him, never have seen him! . . . Is it possible? How could +I wait so long? I have thought about him every day since, and what a +terrible existence mine has been! I have never awakened, never, do you +understand, without my first thoughts being of him, of my child. How is +he? Oh, how guilty I feel toward him! Ought one to fear what the world +may say in a case like this? I ought to have left everything to go after +him, to bring him up and to show my love for him. I should certainly +have been much happier, but I did not dare, I was a coward. How I have +suffered! Oh, how those poor, abandoned children must hate their +mothers!" + +She stopped suddenly, for she was choked by her sobs. The whole valley +was deserted and silent in the dazzling light and the overwhelming heat, +and only the grasshoppers uttered their shrill, continuous chirp among +the sparse yellow grass on both sides of the road. + +"Sit down a little," he said. + +She allowed herself to be led to the side of the ditch and sank down with +her face in her hands. Her white hair, which hung in curls on both sides +of her face, had become tangled. She wept, overcome by profound grief, +while he stood facing her, uneasy and not knowing what to say, and he +merely murmured: "Come, take courage." + +She got up. + +"I will," she said, and wiping her eyes, she began to walk again with the +uncertain step of an elderly woman. + +A little farther on the road passed beneath a clump of trees, which hid a +few houses, and they could distinguish the vibrating and regular blows of +a blacksmith's hammer on the anvil; and presently they saw a wagon +standing on the right side of the road in front of a low cottage, and two +men shoeing a horse under a shed. + +Monsieur d' Apreval went up to them. + +"Where is Pierre Benedict's farm?" he asked. + +"Take the road to the left, close to the inn, and then go straight on; +it is the third house past Poret's. There is a small spruce fir close to +the gate; you cannot make a mistake." + +They turned to the left. She was walking very slowly now, her legs +threatened to give way, and her heart was beating so violently that she +felt as if she should suffocate, while at every step she murmured, as if +in prayer: + +"Oh! Heaven! Heaven!" + +Monsieur d'Apreval, who was also nervous and rather pale, said to her +somewhat gruffly: + +"If you cannot manage to control your feelings, you will betray yourself +at once. Do try and restrain yourself." + +"How can I?" she replied. "My child! When I think that I am going to +see my child." + +They were going along one of those narrow country lanes between +farmyards, that are concealed beneath a double row of beech trees at +either side of the ditches, and suddenly they found themselves in front +of a gate, beside which there was a young spruce fir. + +"This is it," he said. + +She stopped suddenly and looked about her. The courtyard, which was +planted with apple trees, was large and extended as far as the small +thatched dwelling house. On the opposite side were the stable, the barn, +the cow house and the poultry house, while the gig, the wagon and the +manure cart were under a slated outhouse. Four calves were grazing under +the shade of the trees and black hens were wandering all about the +enclosure. + +All was perfectly still; the house door was open, but nobody was to be +seen, and so they went in, when immediately a large black dog came out of +a barrel that was standing under a pear tree, and began to bark +furiously. + +There were four bee-hives on boards against the wall of the house. + +Monsieur d'Apreval stood outside and called out: + +"Is anybody at home?" + +Then a child appeared, a little girl of about ten, dressed in a chemise +and a linen, petticoat, with dirty, bare legs and a timid and cunning +look. She remained standing in the doorway, as if to prevent any one +going in. + +"What do you want?" she asked. + +"Is your father in?" + +"No." + +"Where is he?" + +"I don't know." + +"And your mother?" + +"Gone after the cows." + +"Will she be back soon?" + +"I don't know." + +Then suddenly the lady, as if she feared that her companion might force +her to return, said quickly: + +"I shall not go without having seen him." + +"We will wait for him, my dear friend." + +As they turned away, they saw a peasant woman coming toward the house, +carrying two tin pails, which appeared to be heavy and which glistened +brightly in the sunlight. + +She limped with her right leg, and in her brown knitted jacket, that was +faded by the sun and washed out by the rain, she looked like a poor, +wretched, dirty servant. + +"Here is mamma," the child said. + +When she got close to the house, she looked at the strangers angrily and +suspiciously, and then she went in, as if she had not seen them. She +looked old and had a hard, yellow, wrinkled face, one of those wooden +faces that country people so often have. + +Monsieur d'Apreval called her back. + +"I beg your pardon, madame, but we came in to know whether you could sell +us two glasses of milk." + +She was grumbling when she reappeared in the door, after putting down her +pails. + +"I don't sell milk," she replied. + +"We are very thirsty," he said, "and madame is very tired. Can we not +get something to drink?" + +The peasant woman gave them an uneasy and cunning glance and then she +made up her mind. + +"As you are here, I will give you some," she said, going into the house, +and almost immediately the child came out and brought two chairs, which +she placed under an apple tree, and then the mother, in turn, brought out +two bowls of foaming milk, which she gave to the visitors. She did not +return to the house, however, but remained standing near them, as if to +watch them and to find out for what purpose they had come there. + +"You have come from Fecamp?" she said. + +"Yes," Monsieur d'Apreval replied, "we are staying at Fecamp for the +summer." + +And then, after a short silence, he continued: + +"Have you any fowls you could sell us every week?" + +The woman hesitated for a moment and then replied: + +"Yes, I think I have. I suppose you want young ones?" + +"Yes, of course." + +"'What do you pay for them in the market?" + +D'Apreval, who had not the least idea, turned to his companion: + +"What are you paying for poultry in Fecamp, my dear lady?" + +"Four francs and four francs fifty centimes," she said, her eyes full of +tears, while the farmer's wife, who was looking at her askance, asked in +much surprise + +"Is the lady ill, as she is crying?" + +He did not know what to say, and replied with some hesitation: + +"No--no--but she lost her watch as we came along, a very handsome watch, +and that troubles her. If anybody should find it, please let us know." + +Mother Benedict did not reply, as she thought it a very equivocal sort of +answer, but suddenly she exclaimed: + +"Oh, here is my husband!" + +She was the only one who had seen him, as she was facing the gate. +D'Apreval started and Madame de Cadour nearly fell as she turned round +suddenly on her chair. + +A man bent nearly double, and out of breath, stood there, ten-yards from +them, dragging a cow at the end of a rope. Without taking any notice of +the visitors, he said: + +"Confound it! What a brute!" + +And he went past them and disappeared in the cow house. + +Her tears had dried quickly as she sat there startled, without a word and +with the one thought in her mind, that this was her son, and D'Apreval, +whom the same thought had struck very unpleasantly, said in an agitated +voice: + +"Is this Monsieur Benedict?" + +"Who told you his name?" the wife asked, still rather suspiciously. + +"The blacksmith at the corner of the highroad," he replied, and then they +were all silent, with their eyes fixed on the door of the cow house, +which formed a sort of black hole in the wall of the building. Nothing +could be seen inside, but they heard a vague noise, movements and +footsteps and the sound of hoofs, which were deadened by the straw on the +floor, and soon the man reappeared in the door, wiping his forehead, and +came toward the house with long, slow strides. He passed the strangers +without seeming to notice them and said to his wife: + +"Go and draw me a jug of cider; I am very thirsty." + +Then he went back into the house, while his wife went into the cellar and +left the two Parisians alone. + +"Let us go, let us go, Henri," Madame de Cadour said, nearly distracted +with grief, and so d'Apreval took her by the arm, helped her to rise, and +sustaining her with all his strength, for he felt that she was nearly +fainting, he led her out, after throwing five francs on one of the +chairs. + +As soon as they were outside the gate, she began to sob and said, shaking +with grief: + +"Oh! oh! is that what you have made of him?" + +He was very pale and replied coldly: + +"I did what I could. His farm is worth eighty thousand francs, and that +is more than most of the sons of the middle classes have." + +They returned slowly, without speaking a word. She was still crying; the +tears ran down her cheeks continually for a time, but by degrees they +stopped, and they went back to Fecamp, where they found Monsieur de +Cadour waiting dinner for them. As soon as he saw them, he began to +laugh and exclaimed: + +"So my wife has had a sunstroke, and I am very glad of it. I really +think she has lost her head for some time past!" + +Neither of them replied, and when the husband asked them, rubbing his +hands: + +"Well, I hope that, at least, you have had a pleasant walk?" + +Monsieur d'Apreval replied: + +"A delightful walk, I assure you; perfectly delightful." + + + + + + +THE MAISON TELLIER + +They went there every evening about eleven o'clock, just as they would go +to the club. Six or eight of them; always the same set, not fast men, +but respectable tradesmen, and young men in government or some other +employ, and they would drink their Chartreuse, and laugh with the girls, +or else talk seriously with Madame Tellier, whom everybody respected, and +then they would go home at twelve o'clock! The younger men would +sometimes stay later. + +It was a small, comfortable house painted yellow, at the corner of a +street behind Saint Etienne's Church, and from the windows one could see +the docks full of ships being unloaded, the big salt marsh, and, rising +beyond it, the Virgin's Hill with its old gray chapel. + +Madame Tellier, who came of a respectable family of peasant proprietors +in the Department of the Eure, had taken up her profession, just as she +would have become a milliner or dressmaker. The prejudice which is so +violent and deeply rooted in large towns, does not exist in the country +places in Normandy. The peasant says: + +"It is a paying-business," and he sends his daughter to keep an +establishment of this character just as he would send her to keep a +girls' school. + +She had inherited the house from an old uncle, to whom it had belonged. +Monsieur and Madame Tellier, who had formerly been innkeepers near +Yvetot, had immediately sold their house, as they thought that the +business at Fecamp was more profitable, and they arrived one fine morning +to assume the direction of the enterprise, which was declining on account +of the absence of the proprietors. They were good people enough in their +way, and soon made themselves liked by their staff and their neighbors. + +Monsieur died of apoplexy two years later, for as the new place kept him +in idleness and without any exercise, he had grown excessively stout, and +his health had suffered. Since she had been a widow, all the frequenters +of the establishment made much of her; but people said that, personally, +she was quite virtuous, and even the girls in the house could not +discover anything against her. She was tall, stout and affable, and her +complexion, which had become pale in the dimness of her house, the +shutters of which were scarcely ever opened, shone as if it had been +varnished. She had a fringe of curly false hair, which gave her a +juvenile look, that contrasted strongly with the ripeness of her figure. +She was always smiling and cheerful, and was fond of a joke, but there +was a shade of reserve about her, which her occupation had not quite made +her lose. Coarse words always shocked her, and when any young fellow who +had been badly brought up called her establishment a hard name, she was +angry and disgusted. + +In a word, she had a refined mind, and although she treated her women as +friends, yet she very frequently used to say that "she and they were not +made of the same stuff." + +Sometimes during the week she would hire a carriage and take some of her +girls into the country, where they used to enjoy themselves on the grass +by the side of the little river. They were like a lot of girls let out +from school, and would run races and play childish games. They had a +cold dinner on the grass, and drank cider, and went home at night with a +delicious feeling of fatigue, and in the carriage they kissed Madame' +Tellier as their kind mother, who was full of goodness and complaisance. + +The house had two entrances. At the corner there was a sort of tap-room, +which sailors and the lower orders frequented at night, and she had two +girls whose special duty it was to wait on them with the assistance of +Frederic, a short, light-haired, beardless fellow, as strong as a horse. +They set the half bottles of wine and the jugs of beer on the shaky +marble tables before the customers, and then urged the men to drink. + +The three other girls--there were only five of them--formed a kind of +aristocracy, and they remained with the company on the first floor, +unless they were wanted downstairs and there was nobody on the first +floor. The salon de Jupiter, where the tradesmen used to meet, was +papered in blue, and embellished with a large drawing representing Leda +and the swan. The room was reached by a winding staircase, through a +narrow door opening on the street, and above this door a lantern inclosed +in wire, such as one still sees in some towns, at the foot of the shrine +of some saint, burned all night long. + +The house, which was old and damp, smelled slightly of mildew. At times +there was an odor of eau de Cologne in the passages, or sometimes from a +half-open door downstairs the noisy mirth of the common men sitting and +drinking rose to the first floor, much to the disgust of the gentlemen +who were there. Madame Tellier, who was on friendly terms with her +customers, did not leave the room, and took much interest in what was +going on in the town, and they regularly told her all the news. Her +serious conversation was a change from the ceaseless chatter of the three +women; it was a rest from the obscene jokes of those stout individuals +who every evening indulged in the commonplace debauchery of drinking a +glass of liqueur in company with common women. + +The names of the girls on the first floor were Fernande, Raphaele, and +Rosa, the Jade. As the staff was limited, madame had endeavored that +each member of it should be a pattern, an epitome of the feminine type, +so that every customer might find as nearly as possible the realization +of his ideal. Fernande represented the handsome blonde; she was very +tall, rather fat, and lazy; a country girl, who could not get rid of her +freckles, and whose short, light, almost colorless, tow-like hair, like +combed-out hemp, barely covered her head. + +Raphaele, who came from Marseilles, played the indispensable part of the +handsome Jewess, and was thin, with high cheekbones, which were covered +with rouge, and black hair covered with pomatum, which curled on her +forehead. Her eyes would have been handsome, if the right one had not +had a speck in it. Her Roman nose came down over a square jaw, where two +false upper teeth contrasted strangely with the bad color of the rest. + +Rosa was a little roll of fat, nearly all body, with very short legs, and +from morning till night she sang songs, which were alternately risque or +sentimental, in a harsh voice; told silly, interminable tales, and only +stopped talking in order to eat, and left off eating in order to talk; +she was never still, and was active as a squirrel, in spite of her +embonpoint and her short legs; her laugh, which was a torrent of shrill +cries, resounded here and there, ceaselessly, in a bedroom, in the loft, +in the cafe, everywhere, and all about nothing. + +The two women on the ground floor, Lodise, who was nicknamed La Cocotte, +and Flora, whom they called Balancoise, because she limped a little, the +former always dressed as the Goddess of Liberty, with a tri-colored sash, +and the other as a Spanish woman, with a string of copper coins in her +carroty hair, which jingled at every uneven step, looked like cooks +dressed up for the carnival. They were like all other women of the lower +orders, neither uglier nor better looking than they usually are. + +They looked just like servants at an inn, and were generally called "the +two pumps." + +A jealous peace, which was, however, very rarely disturbed, reigned among +these five women, thanks to Madame Tellier's conciliatory wisdom, and to +her constant good humor, and the establishment, which was the only one of +the kind in the little town, was very much frequented. Madame Tellier +had succeeded in giving it such a respectable appearance, she was so +amiable and obliging to everybody, her good heart was so well known, that +she was treated with a certain amount of consideration. The regular +customers spent money on her, and were delighted when she was especially +friendly toward them, and when they met during the day, they would say: +"Until this evening, you know where," just as men say: "At the club, +after dinner." In a word, Madame Tellier's house was somewhere to go to, +and they very rarely missed their daily meetings there. + +One evening toward the end of May, the first arrival, Monsieur Poulin, +who was a timber merchant, and had been mayor, found the door shut. The +lantern behind the grating was not alight; there was not a sound in the +house; everything seemed dead. He knocked, gently at first, but then +more loudly, but nobody answered the door. Then he went slowly up the +street, and when he got to the market place he met Monsieur Duvert, the +gunmaker, who was going to the same place, so they went back together, +but did not meet with any better success. But suddenly they heard a loud +noise, close to them, and on going round the house, they saw a number of +English and French sailors, who were hammering at the closed shutters of +the taproom with their fists. + +The two tradesmen immediately made their escape, but a low "Pst!" stopped +them; it was Monsieur Tournevau, the fish curer, who had recognized them, +and was trying to attract their attention. They told him what had +happened, and he was all the more annoyed, as he was a married man and +father of a family, and only went on Saturdays. That was his regular +evening, and now he should be deprived of this dissipation for the whole +week. + +The three men went as far as the quay together, and on the way they met +young Monsieur Philippe, the banker's son, who frequented the place +regularly, and Monsieur Pinipesse, the collector, and they all returned +to the Rue aux Juifs together, to make a last attempt. But the +exasperated sailors were besieging the house, throwing stones at the +shutters, and shouting, and the five first-floor customers went away as +quickly as possible, and walked aimlessly about the streets. + +Presently they met Monsieur Dupuis, the insurance agent, and then +Monsieur Vasse, the Judge of the Tribunal of Commerce, and they took a +long walk, going to the pier first of all, where they sat down in a row +on the granite parapet and watched the rising tide, and when the +promenaders had sat there for some time, Monsieur Tournevau said: + +"This is not very amusing!" + +"Decidedly not," Monsieur Pinipesse replied, and they started off to walk +again. + +After going through the street alongside the hill, they returned over the +wooden bridge which crosses the Retenue, passed close to the railway, and +came out again on the market place, when, suddenly, a quarrel arose +between Monsieur Pinipesse, the collector, and Monsieur Tournevau about +an edible mushroom which one of them declared he had found in the +neighborhood. + +As they were out of temper already from having nothing to do, they would +very probably have come to blows, if the others had not interfered. +Monsieur Pinipesse went off furious, and soon another altercation arose +between the ex-mayor, Monsieur Poulin, and Monsieur Dupuis, the insurance +agent, on the subject of the tax collector's salary and the profits which +he might make. Insulting remarks were freely passing between them, when +a torrent of formidable cries was heard, and the body of sailors, who +were tired of waiting so long outside a closed house, came into the +square. They were walking arm in arm, two and two, and formed a long +procession, and were shouting furiously. The townsmen hid themselves in +a doorway, and the yelling crew disappeared in the direction of the +abbey. For a long time they still heard the noise, which diminished like +a storm in the distance, and then silence was restored. Monsieur Poulin +and Monsieur Dupuis, who were angry with each other, went in different +directions, without wishing each other good-by. + +The other four set off again, and instinctively went in the direction of +Madame Tellier's establishment, which was still closed, silent, +impenetrable. A quiet, but obstinate drunken man was knocking at the +door of the lower room, antd then stopped and called Frederic, in a low +voice, but finding that he got no answer, he sat down on the doorstep, +and waited the course of events. + +The others were just going to retire, when the noisy band of sailors +reappeared at the end of the street. The French sailors were shouting +the "Marseillaise," and the Englishmen "Rule Britannia." There was a +general lurching against the wall, and then the drunken fellows went on +their way toward the quay, where a fight broke out between the two +nations, in the course of which an Englishman had his arm broken and a +Frenchman his nose split. + +The drunken man who had waited outside the door, was crying by that time, +as drunken men and children cry when they are vexed, and the others went +away. By degrees, calm was restored in the noisy town; here and there, +at moments, the distant sound of voices could be heard, and then died +away in the distance. + +One man only was still wandering about, Monsieur Tournevau, the fish +curer, who was annoyed at having to wait until the following Saturday, +and he hoped something would turn up, he did not know what; but he was +exasperated at the police for thus allowing an establishment of such +public utility, which they had under their control, to be closed. + +He went back to it and examined the walls, trying to find out some +reason, and on the shutter he saw a notice stuck up. He struck a wax +match and read the following, in a large, uneven hand: "Closed on account +of the Confirmation." + +Then he went away, as he saw it was useless to remain, and left the +drunken man lying on the pavement fast asleep, outside that inhospitable +door. + +The next day, all the regular customers, one after the other, found some +reason for going through the street, with a bundle of papers under their +arm to keep them in countenance, and with a furtive glance they all read +that mysterious notice: + + "Closed on account of the Confirmation." + + +PART II + +Madame Tellier had a brother, who was a carpenter in their native place, +Virville, in the Department of Eure. When she still kept the inn at +Yvetot, she had stood godmother to that brother's daughter, who had +received the name of Constance--Constance Rivet; she herself being a +Rivet on her father's side. The carpenter, who knew that his sister was +in a good position, did not lose sight of her, although they did not meet +often, for they were both kept at home by their occupations, and lived a +long way from each other. But as the girl was twelve years old, and +going to be confirmed, he seized that opportunity to write to his sister, +asking her to come and be present at the ceremony. Their old parents +were dead, and as she could not well refuse her goddaughter, she accepted +the invitation. Her brother, whose name was Joseph, hoped that by dint +of showing his sister attention, she might be induced to make her will in +the girl's favor, as she had no children of her own. + +His sister's occupation did not trouble his scruples in the least, and, +besides, nobody knew anything about it at Virville. When they spoke of +her, they only said: "Madame Tellier is living at Fecamp," which might +mean that she was living on her own private income. It was quite twenty +leagues from Fecamp to Virville, and for a peasant, twenty leagues on +land is as long a journey as crossing the ocean would be to city people. +The people at Virville had never been further than Rouen, and nothing +attracted the people from Fecamp to a village of five hundred houses in +the middle of a plain, and situated in another department; at any rate, +nothing was known about her business. + +But the Confirmation was coming on, and Madame Tellier was in great +embarrassment. She had no substitute, and did not at all care to leave +her house, even for a day; for all the rivalries between the girls +upstairs and those downstairs would infallibly break out. No doubt +Frederic would get drunk, and when he was in that state, he would knock +anybody down for a mere word. At last, however, she made up her mind to +take them all with her, with the exception of the man, to whom she gave a +holiday until the next day but one. + +When she asked her brother, he made no objection, but undertook to put +them all up for a night, and so on Saturday morning the eight-o'clock +express carried off Madame Tellier and her companions in a second-class +carriage. As far as Beuzeville they were alone, and chattered like +magpies, but at that station a couple got in. The man, an old peasant, +dressed in a blue blouse with a turned-down collar, wide sleeves tight at +the wrist, ornamented with white embroidery, wearing an old high hat with +long nap, held an enormous green umbrella in one hand, and a large basket +in the other, from which the heads of three frightened ducks protruded. +The woman, who sat up stiffly in her rustic finery, had a face like a +fowl, with a nose that was as pointed as a bill. She sat down opposite +her husband and did not stir, as she was startled at finding herself in +such smart company. + +There was certainly an array of striking colors in the carriage. Madame +Tellier was dressed in blue silk from head to foot, and had on a dazzling +red imitation French cashmere shawl. Fernande was puffing in a Scotch +plaid dress, of which her companions had laced the bodice as tight as +they could, forcing up her full bust, that was continually heaving up and +down. Raphaele, with a bonnet covered with feathers, so that it looked +like a bird's nest, had on a lilac dress with gold spots on it, and there +was something Oriental about it that suited her Jewish face. Rosa had on +a pink skirt with largo flounces, and looked like a very fat child, an +obese dwarf; while the two Pumps looked as if they had cut their dresses +out of old flowered curtains dating from the Restoration. + +As soon as they were no longer alone in the compartment, the ladies put +on staid looks, and began to talk of subjects which might give others a +high opinion of them. But at Bolbeck a gentleman with light whiskers, a +gold chain, and wearing two or three rings, got in, and put several +parcels wrapped in oilcloth on the rack over his head. He looked +inclined for a joke, and seemed a good-hearted fellow. + +"Are you ladies changing your quarters?" he said, and that question +embarrassed them all considerably. Madame Tellier, however, quickly +regained her composure, and said sharply, to avenge the honor of her +corps: + +"I think you might try and be polite!" + +He excused himself, and said: "I beg your pardon, I ought to have said +your nunnery." + +She could not think of a retort, so, perhaps thinking she had said +enough, madame gave him a dignified bow and compressed her lips. + +Then the gentleman, who was sitting between Rosa and the old peasant, +began to wink knowingly at the ducks whose heads were sticking out of the +basket, and when he felt that he had fixed the attention of his public, +he began to tickle them under the bills and spoke funnily to them to make +the company smile. + +"We have left our little pond, quack! quack! to make the acquaintance +of the little spit, qu-ack! qu-ack!" + +The unfortunate creatures turned their necks away, to avoid his caresses, +and made desperate efforts to get out of their wicker prison, and then, +suddenly, all at once, uttered the most lamentable quacks of distress. +The women exploded with laughter. They leaned forward and pushed each +other, so as to see better; they were very much interested in the ducks, +and the gentleman redoubled his airs, his wit and his teasing. + +Rosa joined in, and leaning over her neighbor's legs, she kissed the +three animals on the head, and immediately all the girls wanted to kiss +them, in turn, and as they did so the gentleman took them on his knee, +jumped them up and down and pinched their arms. The two peasants, who +were even in greater consternation than their poultry, rolled their eyes +as if they were possessed, without venturing to move, and their old +wrinkled faces had not a smile, not a twitch. + +Then the gentleman, who was a commercial traveller, offered the ladies +suspenders by way of a joke, and taking up one of his packages, he opened +it. It was a joke, for the parcel contained garters. There were blue +silk, pink silk, red silk, violet silk, mauve silk garters, and the +buckles were made of two gilt metal cupids embracing each other. The +girls uttered exclamations of delight and looked at them with that +gravity natural to all women when they are considering an article of +dress. They consulted one another by their looks or in a whisper, and +replied in the same manner, and Madame Tellier was longingly handling a +pair of orange garters that were broader and more imposing looking than +the rest; really fit for the mistress of such an establishment. + +The gentleman waited, for he had an idea. + +"Come, my kittens," he said, "you must try them on." + +There was a torrent of exclamations, and they squeezed their petticoats +between their legs, but he quietly waited his time and said: "Well, if +you will not try them on I shall pack them up again." + +And he added cunningly:. "I offer any pair they like to those who will +try them on." + +But they would not, and sat up very straight and looked dignified. + +But the two Pumps looked so distressed that he renewed his offer to them, +and Flora, especially, visibly hesitated, and he insisted: "Come, my +dear, a little courage! Just look at that lilac pair; it will suit your +dress admirably." + +That decided her, and pulling up her dress she showed a thick leg fit for +a milkmaid, in a badly fitting, coarse stocking. The commercial +traveller stooped down and fastened the garter. When he had done this, +he gave her the lilac pair and asked: "Who next?" + +"I! I!" they all shouted at once, and he began on Rosa, who uncovered a +shapeless, round thing without any ankle, a regular "sausage of a leg," +as Raphaele used to say. + +Lastly, Madame Tellier herself put out her leg, a handsome, muscular +Norman leg, and in his surprise and pleasure, the commercial traveller +gallantly took off his hat to salute that master calf, like a true French +cavalier. + +The two peasants, who were speechless from surprise, glanced sideways out +of the corner of one eye, and they looked so exactly like fowls that the +man with the light whiskers, when he sat up, said: "Co--co--ri--co" under +their very noses, and that gave rise to another storm of amusement. + +The old people got out at Motteville with their basket, their ducks and +their umbrella, and they heard the woman say to her husband as they went +away: + +"They are no good and are off to that cursed place, Paris." + +The funny commercial traveller himself got out at Rouen, after behaving +so coarsely that Madame Tellier was obliged sharply to put him in his +right place, and she added, as a moral: "This will teach us not to talk +to the first comer." + +At Oissel they changed trains, and at a little station further on +Monsieur Joseph Rivet was waiting for them with a large cart with a +number of chairs in it, drawn by a white horse. + +The carpenter politely kissed all the ladies and then helped them into +his conveyance. + +Three of them sat on three chairs at the back, Raphaele, Madame Tellier +and her brother on the three chairs in front, while Rosa, who had no +seat, settled herself as comfortably as she could on tall Fernande's +knees, and then they set off. + +But the horse's jerky trot shook the cart so terribly that the chairs +began to dance and threw the travellers about, to the right and to the +left, as if they were dancing puppets, which made them scream and make +horrible grimaces. + +They clung on to the sides of the vehicle, their bonnets fell on their +backs, over their faces and on their shoulders, and the white horse went +on stretching out his head and holding out his little hairless tail like +a rat's, with which he whisked his buttocks from time to time. + +Joseph Rivet, with one leg on the shafts and the other doubled under him, +held the reins with his elbows very high, and kept uttering a kind of +clucking sound, which made the horse prick up its ears and go faster. + +The green country extended on either side of the road, and here and there +the colza in flower presented a waving expanse of yellow, from which +arose a strong, wholesome, sweet and penetrating odor, which the wind +carried to some distance. + +The cornflowers showed their little blue heads amid the rye, and the +women wanted to pick them, but Monsieur Rivet refused to stop. + +Then, sometimes, a whole field appeared to be covered with blood, so +thick were the poppies, and the cart, which looked as if it were filled +with flowers of more brilliant hue, jogged on through fields bright with +wild flowers, and disappeared behind the trees of a farm, only to +reappear and to go on again through the yellow or green standing crops, +which were studded with red or blue. + +One o'clock struck as they drove up to the carpenter's door. They were +tired out and pale with hunger, as they had eaten nothing since they left +home. Madame Rivet ran out and made them alight, one after another, and +kissed them as soon as they were on the ground, and she seemed as if she +would never tire of kissing her sister-in-law, whom she apparently wanted +to monopolize. They had lunch in the workshop, which had been cleared +out for the next day's dinner. + +The capital omelet, followed by boiled chitterlings and washed down with +good hard cider, made them all feel comfortable. + +Rivet had taken a glass so that he might drink with them, and his wife +cooked, waited on them, brought in the dishes, took them out and asked +each of them in a whisper whether they had everything they wanted. A +number of boards standing against the walls and heaps of shavings that +had been swept into the corners gave out a smell of planed wood, a smell +of a carpenter's shop, that resinous odor which penetrates to the lungs. + +They wanted to see the little girl, but she had gone to church and would +not be back again until evening, so they all went out for a stroll in the +country. + +It was a small village, through which the highroad passed. Ten or a +dozen houses on either side of the single street were inhabited by the +butcher, the grocer, the carpenter, the innkeeper, the shoemaker and the +baker. + +The church was at the end of the street and was surrounded by a small +churchyard, and four immense lime-trees, which stood just outside the +porch, shaded it completely. It was built of flint, in no particular +style, and had a slate-roofed steeple. When you got past it, you were +again in the open country, which was varied here and there by clumps of +trees which hid the homesteads. + +Rivet had given his arm to his sister, out of politeness, although he was +in his working clothes, and was walking with her in a dignified manner. +His wife, who was overwhelmed by Raphaele's gold-striped dress, walked +between her and Fernande, and roly-poly Rosa was trotting behind with +Louise and Flora, the Seesaw, who was limping along, quite tired out. + +The inhabitants came to their doors, the children left off playing, and a +window curtain would be raised, so as to show a muslin cap, while an old +woman with a crutch, who was almost blind, crossed herself as if it were +a religious procession, and they all gazed for a long time at those +handsome ladies from town, who had come so far to be present at the +confirmation of Joseph Rivet's little girl, and the carpenter rose very +much in the public estimation. + +As they passed the church they heard some children singing. Little +shrill voices were singing a hymn, but Madame Tellier would not let them +go in, for fear of disturbing the little cherubs. + +After the walk, during which Joseph Rivet enumerated the principal landed +proprietors, spoke about the yield of the land and the productiveness of +the cows and sheep, he took his tribe of women home and installed them in +his house, and as it was very small, they had to put them into the rooms, +two and two. + +Just for once Rivet would sleep in the workshop on the shavings; his wife +was to share her bed with her sister-in-law, and Fernande and Raphaele +were to sleep together in the next room. Louise and Flora were put into +the kitchen, where they had a mattress on the floor, and Rosa had a +little dark cupboard to herself at the top of the stairs, close to the +loft, where the candidate for confirmation was to sleep. + +When the little girl came in she was overwhelmed with kisses; all the +women wished to caress her with that need of tender expansion, that habit +of professional affection which had made them kiss the ducks in the +railway carriage. + +They each of them took her on their knees, stroked her soft, light hair +and pressed her in their arms with vehement and spontaneous outbursts of +affection, and the child, who was very good and religious, bore it all +patiently. + +As the day had been a fatiguing one for everybody, they all went to bed +soon after dinner. The whole village was wrapped in that perfect +stillness of the country, which is almost like a religious silence, and +the girls, who were accustomed to the noisy evenings of their +establishment, felt rather impressed by the perfect repose of the +sleeping village, and they shivered, not with cold, but with those little +shivers of loneliness which come over uneasy and troubled hearts. + +As soon as they were in bed, two and two together, they clasped each +other in their arms, as if to protect themselves against this feeling of +the calm and profound slumber of the earth. But Rosa, who was alone in +her little dark cupboard, felt a vague and painful emotion come over her. + +She was tossing about in bed, unable to get to sleep, when she heard the +faint sobs of a crying child close to her head, through the partition. +She was frightened, and called out, and was answered by a weak voice, +broken by sobs. It was the little girl, who was always used to sleeping +in her mother's room, and who was afraid in her small attic. + +Rosa was delighted, got up softly so as not to awaken any one, and went +and fetched the child. She took her into her warm bed, kissed her and +pressed her to her bosom, lavished exaggerated manifestations of +tenderness on her, and at last grew calmer herself and went to sleep. +And till morning the candidate for confirmation slept with her head on +Rosa's bosom. + +At five o'clock the little church bell, ringing the Angelus, woke the +women, who usually slept the whole morning long. + +The villagers were up already, and the women went busily from house to +house, carefully bringing short, starched muslin dresses or very long wax +tapers tied in the middle with a bow of silk fringed with gold, and with +dents in the wax for the fingers. + +The sun was already high in the blue sky, which still had a rosy tint +toward the horizon, like a faint remaining trace of dawn. Families of +fowls were walking about outside the houses, and here and there a black +cock, with a glistening breast, raised his head, which was crowned by his +red comb, flapped his wings and uttered his shrill crow, which the other +cocks repeated. + +Vehicles of all sorts came from neighboring parishes, stopping at the +different houses, and tall Norman women dismounted, wearing dark dresses, +with kerchiefs crossed over the bosom, fastened with silver brooches a +hundred years old. + +The men had put on their blue smocks over their new frock-coats or over +their old dress-coats of green-cloth, the two tails of which hung down +below their blouses. When the horses were in the stable there was a +double line of rustic conveyances along the road: carts, cabriolets, +tilburies, wagonettes, traps of every shape and age, tipping forward on +their shafts or else tipping backward with the shafts up in the air. + +The carpenter's house was as busy as a bee-hive. The women, in dressing- +jackets and petticoats, with their thin, short hair, which looked faded +and worn, hanging down their backs, were busy dressing the child, who was +standing quietly on a table, while Madame Tellier was directing the +movements of her battalion. They washed her, did her hair, dressed her, +and with the help of a number of pins, they arranged the folds of her +dress and took in the waist, which was too large. + +Then, when she was ready, she was told to sit down and not to move, and +the women hurried off to get ready themselves. + +The church bell began to ring again, and its tinkle was lost in the air, +like a feeble voice which is soon drowned in space. The candidates came +out. of the houses and went toward the parochial building, which +contained the two schools and the mansion house, and which stood quite at +one end of the village, while the church was situated at the other. + +The parents, in their very best clothes, followed their children, with +embarrassed looks, and those clumsy movements of a body bent by toil. + +The little girls disappeared in a cloud of muslin, which looked like +whipped cream, while the lads, who looked like embryo waiters in a cafe +and whose heads shone with pomatum, walked with their legs apart, so as +not to get any dust or dirt on their black trousers. + +It was something for a family, to be proud of, when a large number of +relatives, who had come from a distance, surrounded the child, and the +carpenter's triumph was complete. + +Madame Tellier's regiment, with its leader at its head, followed +Constance; her father gave his arm to his sister, her mother walked by +the side of Raphaele, Fernande with Rosa and Louise and Flora together, +and thus they proceeded majestically through the village, like a +general's staff in full uniform, while the effect on the village was +startling. + +At the school the girls ranged themselves under the Sister of Mercy and +the boys under the schoolmaster, and they started off, singing a hymn as +they went. The boys led the way, in two files, between the two rows of +vehicles, from which the horses had been taken out, and the girls +followed in the same order; and as all the people in the village had +given the town ladies the precedence out of politeness, they came +immediately behind the girls, and lengthened the double line of the +procession still more, three on the right and three on the left, while +their dresses were as striking as a display of fireworks. + +When they went into the church the congregation grew quite excited. They +pressed against each other, turned round and jostled one another in order +to see, and some of the devout ones spoke almost aloud, for they were so +astonished at the sight of those ladies whose dresses were more elaborate +than the priest's vestments. + +The mayor offered them his pew, the first one on the right, close to the +choir, and Madame Tellier sat there with her sister-in-law, Fernande and +Raphaele. Rosa, Louise and Flora occupied the second seat, in company +with the carpenter. + +The choir was full of kneeling children, the girls on one side and the +boys on the other, and the long wax tapers which they held looked like +lances pointing in all directions, and three men were standing in front +of the lectern, singing as loud as they could. + +They prolonged the syllables of the sonorous Latin indefinitely, holding +on to "Amens" with interminable "a-a's," which the reed stop of the organ +sustained in a monotonous, long-drawn-out tone. + +A child's shrill voice took up the reply, and from time to time a priest +sitting in a stall and wearing a biretta got up, muttered something and +sat down again, while the three singers continued, their eyes fixed on +the big book of plain chant lying open before them on the outstretched +wings of a wooden eagle. + +Then silence ensued and the service went on. Toward the close Rosa, with +her head in both hands, suddenly thought of her mother, her village +church and her first communion. She almost fancied that that day had +returned, when she was so small anti was almost hidden in her white +dress, and she began to cry. + +First of all she wept silently, and the tears dropped slowly from her +eyes, but her emotion in creased with her recollections, and she began to +sob. She took out her pocket handkerchief, wiped her eyes and held it to +her mouth, so as not to scream, but it was in vain. A sort of rattle +escaped her throat, and she was answered by two other profound, +heartbreaking sobs, for her two neighbors, Louise and Flora, who were +kneeling near her, overcome by similar recollections, were sobbing by her +side, amid a flood of tears; and as tears are contagious, Madame Tellier +soon in turn found that her eyes were wet, and on turning to her sister- +in-law, she saw that all the occupants of her seat were also crying. + +Soon, throughout the church, here and there, a wife, a mother, a sister, +seized by the strange sympathy of poignant emotion, and affected at the +sight of those handsome ladies on their knees, shaken with sobs was +moistening her cambric pocket handkerchief and pressing her beating heart +with her left hand. + +Just as the sparks from an engine will set fire to dry grass, so the +tears of Rosa and of her companions infected the whole congregation in a +moment. Men, women, old men and lads in new smocks were soon all +sobbing, and something superhuman seemed to be hovering over their heads +--a spirit, the powerful breath of an invisible and all powerful Being. + +Suddenly a species of madness seemed to pervade the church, the noise of +a crowd in a state of frenzy, a tempest of sobs and stifled cries. It +came like gusts of wind which blow the trees in a forest, and the priest, +paralyzed by emotion, stammered out incoherent prayers, without finding +words, ardent prayers of the soul soaring to heaven. + +The people behind him gradually grew calmer. The cantors, in all the +dignity of their white surplices, went on in somewhat uncertain voices, +and the reed stop itself seemed hoarse, as if the instrument had been +weeping; the priest, however, raised his hand to command silence and went +and stood on the chancel steps, when everybody was silent at once. + +After a few remarks on what had just taken place, and which he attributed +to a miracle, he continued, turning to the seats where the carpenter's +guests were sitting; "I especially thank you, my dear sisters, who have +come from such a distance, and whose presence among us, whose evident +faith and ardent piety have set such a salutary example to all. You have +edified my parish; your emotion has warmed all hearts; without you, this +great day would not, perhaps, have had this really divine character. It +is sufficient, at times, that there should be one chosen lamb, for the +Lord to descend on His flock." + +His voice failed him again, from emotion, and he said no more, but +concluded the service. + +They now left the church as quickly as possible; the children themselves +were restless and tired with such a prolonged tension of the mind. The +parents left the church by degrees to see about dinner. + +There was a crowd outside, a noisy crowd, a babel of loud voices, where +the shrill Norman accent was discernible. The villagers formed two +ranks, and when the children appeared, each family took possession of +their own. + +The whole houseful of women caught hold of Constance, surrounded her and +kissed her, and Rosa was especially demonstrative. At last she took hold +of one hand, while Madame Tellier took the other, and Raphaele and +Fernande held up her long muslin skirt, so that it might not drag in the +dust; Louise and Flora brought up the rear with Madame Rivet; and the +child, who was very silent and thoughtful, set off for home in the midst +of this guard of honor. + +Dinner was served in the workshop on long boards supported by trestles, +and through the open door they could see all the enjoyment that was going +on in the village. Everywhere they were feasting, and through every +window were to be seen tables surrounded by people in their Sunday best, +and a cheerful noise was heard in every house, while the men sat in their +shirt-sleeves, drinking glass after glass of cider. + +In the carpenter's house the gaiety maintained somewhat of an air of +reserve, the consequence of the emotion of the girls in the morning, and +Rivet was the only one who was in a jolly mood, and he was drinking to +excess. Madame Tellier looked at the clock every moment, for, in order +not to lose two days running, they must take the 3:55 train, which would +bring them to Fecamp by dark. + +The carpenter tried very hard to distract her attention, so as to keep +his guests until the next day, but he did not succeed, for she never +joked when there was business on hand, and as soon as they had had their +coffee she ordered her girls to make haste and get ready, and then, +turning to her brother, she said: + +"You must put in the horse immediately," and she herself went to finish +her last preparations. + +When she came down again, her sister-in-law was waiting to speak to her +about the child, and a long conversation took place, in which, however, +nothing was settled. The carpenter's wife was artful and pretended to be +very much affected, and Madame Tellier, who was holding the girl on her +knee, would not pledge herself to anything definite, but merely gave +vague promises--she would not forget her, there was plenty of time, and +besides, they would meet again. + +But the conveyance did not come to the door and the women did not come +downstairs. Upstairs they even heard loud laughter, romping, little +screams, and much clapping of hands, and so, while the carpenter's wife +went to the stable to see whether the cart was ready, madame went +upstairs. + +Rivet, who was very drunk, was plaguing Rosa, who was half choking with +laughter. Louise and Flora were holding him by the arms and trying to +calm him, as they were shocked at his levity after that morning's +ceremony; but Raphaele and Fernande were urging him on, writhing and +holding their sides with laughter, and they uttered shrill cries at every +rebuff the drunken fellow received. + +The man was furious, his face was red, and he was trying to shake off the +two women who were clinging to him, while he was pulling Rosa's skirt +with all his might and stammering incoherently. + +But Madame Tellier, who was very indignant, went up to her brother, +seized him by the shoulders, and threw him out of the room with such +violence that he fell against the wall in the passage, and a minute +afterward they heard him pumping water on his head in the yard, and when +he reappeared with the cart he was quite calm. + +They started off in the same way as they had come the day before, and the +little white horse started off with his quick, dancing trot. Under the +hot sun, their fun, which had been checked during dinner, broke out +again. The girls now were amused at the jolting of the cart, pushed +their neighbors' chairs, and burst out laughing every moment. + +There was a glare of light over the country, which dazzled their eyes, +and the wheels raised two trails of dust along the highroad. Presently, +Fernande, who was fond of music, asked Rosa to sing something, and she +boldly struck up the "Gros Cure de Meudon," but Madame Tellier made her +stop immediately, as she thought it a very unsuitable song for such a +day, and she added: + +"Sing us something of Beranger's." And so, after a moment's hesitation, +Rosa began Beranger's song "The Grandmother" in her worn-out voice, and +all the girls, and even Madame Tellier herself, joined in the chorus: + + "How I regret + My dimpled arms, + My nimble legs, + And vanished charms." + +"That is first rate," Rivet declared, carried away by the rhythm, and +they shouted the refrain to every verse, while Rivet beat time on the +shaft with his foot, and with the reins on the back of the horse, who, as +if he himself were carried away by the rhythm, broke into a wild gallop, +and threw all the women in a heap, one on top of the other, on the bottom +of the conveyance. + +They got up, laughing as if they were mad, and the Gong went on, shouted +at the top of their voices, beneath the burning sky, among the ripening +grain, to the rapid gallop of the little horse, who set off every time +the refrain was sung, and galloped a hundred yards, to their great +delight, while occasionally a stone-breaker by the roadside sat up and +looked at the load of shouting females through his wire spectacles. + +When they got out at the station, the carpenter said: + +"I am sorry you are going; we might have had some good times together." +But Madame Tellier replied very sensibly: "Everything has its right time, +and we cannot always be enjoying ourselves." And then he had a sudden +inspiration: + +"Look here, I will come and see you at Fecamp next month." And he gave +Rosa a roguish and knowing look. + +"Come," his sister replied, "you must be sensible; you may come if you +like, but you are not to be up to any of your tricks." + +He did not reply, and as they heard the whistle of the train, he +immediately began to kiss them all. When it came to Rosa's turn, he +tried to get to her mouth, which she, however, smiling with her lips +closed, turned away from him each time by a rapid movement of her head to +one side. He held her in his arms, but he could not attain his object, +as his large whip, which he was holding in his hand and waving behind the +girl's back in desperation, interfered with his movements. + +"Passengers for Rouen, take your seats!" a guard cried, and they got in. +There was a slight whistle, followed by a loud whistle from the engine, +which noisily puffed cut its first jet of steam, while the wheels began +to turn a little with a visible effort, and Rivet left the station and +ran along by the track to get another look at Rosa, and as the carriage +passed him, he began to crack his whip and to jump, while he sang at the +top of his voice: + + "How I regret + My dimpled arms, + My nimble legs, + And vanished charms." + +And then he watched a white pocket-handkerchief, which somebody was +waving, as it disappeared in the distance. + + +PART III + +They slept the peaceful sleep of a quiet conscience, until they got to +Rouen, and when they returned to the house, refreshed and rested, Madame +Tellier could not help saying: + +"It was all very well, but I was longing to get home." + +They hurried over their supper, and then, when they had put on their +usual evening costume, waited for their regular customers, and the little +colored lamp outside the door told the passers-by that Madame Tellier had +returned, and in a moment the news spread, nobody knew how or through +whom. + +Monsieur Philippe, the banker's son, even carried his friendliness so far +as to send a special messenger to Monsieur Tournevau, who was in the +bosom of his family. + +The fish curer had several cousins to dinner every Sunday, and they were +having coffee, when a man came in with a letter in his hand. Monsieur +Tournevau was much excited; he opened the envelope and grew pale; it +contained only these words in pencil: + +"The cargo of cod has been found; the ship has come into port; good +business for you. Come immediately." + +He felt in his pockets, gave the messenger two sons, and suddenly +blushing to his ears, he said: "I must go out." He handed his wife the +laconic and mysterious note, rang the bell, and when the servant came in, +he asked her to bring him has hat and overcoat immediately. As soon as +he was in the street, he began to hurry, and the way seemed to him to be +twice as long as usual, in consequence of his impatience. + +Madame Tellier's establishment had put on quite a holiday look. On the +ground floor, a number of sailors were making a deafening noise, and +Louise and Flora drank with one and the other, and were being called for +in every direction at once. + +The upstairs room was full by nine o'clock. Monsieur Vasse, the Judge of +the Tribunal of Commerce, Madame Tellier's regular but Platonic wooer, +was talking to her in a corner in a low voice, and they were both +smiling, as if they were about to come to an understanding. + +Monsieur Poulin, the ex-mayor, was talking to Rosa, and she was running +her hands through the old gentleman's white whiskers. + +Tall Fernande was on the sofa, her feet on the coat of Monsieur +Pinipesse, the tax collector, and leaning back against young Monsieur +Philippe, her right arm around his neck, while she held a cigarette in +her left hand. + +Raphaele appeared to be talking seriously with Monsieur Dupuis, the +insurance agent, and she finished by saying: "Yes, I will, yes." + +Just then, the door opened suddenly, and Monsieur Tournevau came in, and +was greeted with enthusiastic cries of "Long live Tournevau!" And +Raphaele, who was dancing alone up and down the room, went and threw +herself into his arms. He seized her in a vigorous embrace and, without +saying a word, lifted her up as if she had been a feather. + +Rosa was chatting to the ex-mayor, kissing him and puffing; both his +whiskers at the same time, in order to keep his head straight. + +Fernanae and Madame Tellier remained with the four men, and Monsieur +Philippe exclaimed: "I will pay for some champagne; get three bottles, +Madame Tellier." And Fernande gave him a hug, and whispered to him: +"Play us a waltz, will you?" So he rose and sat down at the old piano in +the corner, and managed to get a hoarse waltz out of the depths of the +instrument. + +The tall girl put her arms round the tax collector, Madame Tellier let +Monsieur Vasse take her round the waist, and the two couples turned +round, kissing as they danced. Monsieur Vasse, who had formerly danced +in good society, waltzed with such elegance that Madame Tellier was quite +captivated. + +Frederic brought the champagne; the first cork popped, and Monsieur +Philippe played the introduction to a quadrille, through which the four +dancers walked in society fashion, decorously, with propriety, +deportment, bows and curtsies, and then they began to drink. + +Monsieur Philippe next struck up a lively polka, and Monsieur Tournevau +started off with the handsome Jewess, whom he held without letting her +feet touch the ground. Monsieur Pinipesse and Monsieur Vasse had started +off with renewed vigor, and from time to time one or other couple would +stop to toss off a long draught of sparkling wine, and that dance was +threatening to become never-ending, when Rosa opened the door. + +"I want to dance," she exclaimed. And she caught hold of Monsieur +Dupuis, who was sitting idle on the couch, and the dance began again. + +But the bottles were empty. "I will pay for one," Monsieur Tournevau +said. "So will I," Monsieur Vasse declared. "And. I will do the same," +Monsieur Dupuis remarked. + +They all began to clap their hands, and it soon became a regular ball, +and from time to time Louise and Flora ran upstairs quickly and had a few +turns, while their customers downstairs grew impatient, and then they +returned regretfully to the tap-room. At midnight they were still +dancing. + +Madame Tellier let them amuse themselves while she had long private talks +in corners with Monsieur Vasse, as if to settle the last details of +something that had already been settled. + +At last, at one o'clock, the two married men, Monsieur Tournevau and +Monsieur Pinipesse, declared that they were going home, and wanted to +pay. Nothing was charged for except the champagne, and that cost only +six francs a bottle, instead of ten, which was the usual price, and when +they expressed their surprise at such generosity, Madame Tellier, who was +beaming, said to them: + +"We don't have a holiday every day." + + + + + + +DENIS + + To Leon Chapron. + +Marambot opened the letter which his servant Denis gave him and smiled. + +For twenty years Denis has been a servant in this house. He was a short, +stout, jovial man, who was known throughout the countryside as a model +servant. He asked: + +"Is monsieur pleased? Has monsieur received good news?" + +M. Marambot was not rich. He was an old village druggist, a bachelor, +who lived on an income acquired with difficulty by selling drugs to the +farmers. He answered: + +"Yes, my boy. Old man Malois is afraid of the law-suit with which I am +threatening him. I shall get my money to-morrow. Five thousand francs +are not liable to harm the account of an old bachelor." + +M. Marambot rubbed his hands with satisfaction. He was a man of quiet +temperament, more sad than gay, incapable of any prolonged effort, +careless in business. + +He could undoubtedly have amassed a greater income had he taken advantage +of the deaths of colleagues established in more important centers, by +taking their places and carrying on their business. But the trouble of +moving and the thought of all the preparations had always stopped him. +After thinking the matter over for a few days, he would be satisfied to +say: + +"Bah! I'll wait until the next time. I'll not lose anything by the +delay. I may even find something better." + +Denis, on the contrary, was always urging his master to new enterprises. +Of an energetic temperament, he would continually repeat: + +"Oh! If I had only had the capital to start out with, I could have made +a fortune! One thousand francs would do me." + +M. Marambot would smile without answering and would go out in his little +garden, where, his hands behind his back, he would walk about dreaming. + +All day long, Denis sang the joyful refrains of the folk-songs of the +district. He even showed an unusual activity, for he cleaned all the +windows of the house, energetically rubbing the glass, and singing at the +top of his voice. + +M. Marambot, surprised at his zeal, said to him several times, smiling: + +"My boy, if you work like that there will be nothing left for you to do +to-morrow." + +The following day, at about nine o'clock in the morning, the postman gave +Denis four letters for his master, one of them very heavy. M. Marambot +immediately shut himself up in his room until late in the afternoon. +He then handed his servant four letters for the mail. One of them was +addressed to M. Malois; it was undoubtedly a receipt for the money. + +Denis asked his master no questions; he appeared to be as sad and gloomy +that day as he had seemed joyful the day before. + +Night came. M. Marambot went to bed as usual and slept. + +He was awakened by a strange noise. He sat up in his bed and listened. +Suddenly the door opened, and Denis appeared, holding in one hand a +candle and in the other a carving knife, his eyes staring, his face +contracted as though moved by some deep emotion; he was as pale as a +ghost. + +M. Marambot, astonished, thought that he was sleep-walking, and he was +going to get out of bed and assist him when the servant blew out the +light and rushed for the bed. His master stretched out his hands to +receive the shock which knocked him over on his back; he was trying to +seize the hands of his servant, whom he now thought to be crazy, in order +to avoid the blows which the latter was aiming at him. + +He was struck by the knife; once in the shoulder, once in the forehead +and the third time in the chest. He fought wildly, waving his arms +around in the darkness, kicking and crying: + +"Denis! Denis! Are you mad? Listen, Denis!" + +But the latter, gasping for breath, kept up his furious attack always +striking, always repulsed, sometimes with a kick, sometimes with a punch, +and rushing forward again furiously. + +M. Marambot was wounded twice more, once in the leg and once in the +stomach. But, suddenly, a thought flashed across his mind, and he began +to shriek: + +"Stop, stop, Denis, I have not yet received my money!" + +The man immediately ceased, and his master could hear his labored +breathing in the darkness. + +M. Marambot then went on: + +"I have received nothing. M. Malois takes back what he said, the law- +suit will take place; that is why you carried the letters to the mail. +Just read those on my desk." + +With a final effort, he reached for his matches and lit the candle. + +He was covered with blood. His sheets, his curtains, and even the walls, +were spattered with red. Denis, standing in the middle of the room, was +also bloody from head to foot. + +When he saw the blood, M. Marambot thought himself dead, and fell +unconscious. + +At break of day he revived. It was some time, however, before he +regained his senses, and was able to understand or remember. But, +suddenly, the memory of the attack and of his wounds returned to him, +and he was filled with such terror that he closed his eyes in order not +to see anything. After a few minutes he grew calmer and began to think. +He had not died' immediately, therefore he might still recover. He felt +weak, very weak; but he had no real pain, although he noticed an +uncomfortable smarting sensation in several parts of his body. He also +felt icy cold, and all wet, and as though wrapped up in bandages. He +thought that this dampness came from the blood which he had lost; and he +shivered at the dreadful thought of this red liquid which had come from +his veins and covered his bed. The idea of seeing this terrible +spectacle again so upset him that he kept his eyes closed with all his +strength, as though they might open in spite of himself. + +What had become of Denis? He had probably escaped. + +But what could he, Marambot, do now? Get up? Call for help? But if he +should make the slightest motions, his wounds would undoubtedly open up +again and he would die from loss of blood. + +Suddenly he heard the door of his room open. His heart almost stopped. +It was certainly Denis who was coming to finish him up. He held his +breath in order to make the murderer think that he had been successful. + +He felt his sheet being lifted up, and then someone feeling his stomach. +A sharp pain near his hip made him start. He was being very gently +washed with cold water. Therefore, someone must have discovered the +misdeed and he was being cared for. A wild joy seized him; but +prudently, he did not wish to show that he was conscious. He opened one +eye, just one, with the greatest precaution. + +He recognized Denis standing beside him, Denis himself! Mercy! He +hastily closed his eye again. + +Denis! What could he be doing? What did he want? What awful scheme +could he now be carrying out? + +What was he doing? Well, he was washing him in order to hide the traces +of his crime! And he would now bury him in the garden, under ten feet of +earth, so that no one could discover him! Or perhaps under the wine +cellar! And M. Marambot began to tremble like a leaf. He kept saying to +himself: "I am lost, lost!" He closed his eyes so as not to see the knife +as it descended for the final stroke. It did not come. Denis was now +lifting him up and bandaging him. Then he began carefully to dress the +wound on his leg, as his master had taught him to do. + +There was no longer any doubt. His servant, after wishing to kill him, +was trying to save him. + +Then M. Marambot, in a dying voice, gave him the practical piece of +advice: + +"Wash the wounds in a dilute solution of carbolic acid!" + +Denis answered: + +"This is what I am doing, monsieur." + +M. Marambot opened both his eyes. There was no sign of blood either on +the bed, on the walls, or on the murderer. The wounded man was stretched +out on clean white sheets. + +The two men looked at each other. + +Finally M. Marambot said calmly: + +"You have been guilty of a great crime." + +Denis answered: + +"I am trying to make up for it, monsieur. If you will not tell on me, I +will serve you as faithfully as in the past." + +This was no time to anger his servant. M. Marambot murmured as he closed +his eyes: + +"I swear not to tell on you." + + +Denis saved his master. He spent days and nights without sleep, never +leaving the sick room, preparing drugs, broths, potions, feeling his +pulse, anxiously counting the beats, attending him with the skill of a +trained nurse and the devotion of a son. + +He continually asked: + +"Well, monsieur, how do you feel?" + +M. Marambot would answer in a weak voice: + +"A little better, my boy, thank you." + +And when the sick man would wake up at night, he would often see his +servant seated in an armchair, weeping silently. + +Never had the old druggist been so cared for, so fondled, so spoiled. +At first he had said to himself: + +"As soon as I am well I shall get rid of this rascal." + +He was now convalescing, and from day to day he would put off dismissing +his murderer. He thought that no one would ever show him such care and +attention, for he held this man through fear; and he warned him that he +had left a document with a lawyer denouncing him to the law if any new +accident should occur. + +This precaution seemed to guarantee him against any future attack; and he +then asked himself if it would not be wiser to keep this man near him, in +order to watch him closely. + +Just as formerly, when he would hesitate about taking some larger place +of business, he could not make up his mind to any decision. + +"There is always time," he would say to himself. + +Denis continued to show himself an admirable servant. M. Marambot was +well. He kept him. + +One morning, just as he was finishing breakfast, he suddenly heard a +great noise in the kitchen. He hastened in there. Denis was struggling +with two gendarmes. An officer was taking notes on his pad. + +As soon as he saw his master, the servant began to sob, exclaiming: + +"You told on me, monsieur, that's not right, after what you had promised +me. You have broken your word of honor, Monsieur Marambot; that is not +right, that's not right!" + +M. Marambot, bewildered and distressed at being suspected, lifted his +hand: + +"I swear to you before the Lord, my boy that I did not tell on you. I +haven't the slightest idea how the police could have found out about your +attack on me." + +The officer started: + +"You say that he attacked you, M. Marambot?" + +The bewildered druggist answered: + +"Yes--but I did not tell on him--I haven't said a word--I swear it--he +has served me excellently from that time on--" + +The officer pronounced severely: + +"I will take down your testimony. The law will take notice of this new +action, of which it was ignorant, Monsieur Marambot. I was commissioned +to arrest your servant for the theft of two ducks surreptitiously taken +by him from M. Duhamel of which act there are witnesses. I shall make a +note of your information." + +Then, turning toward his men, he ordered: + +"Come on, bring him along!" + +The two gendarmes dragged Denis out. + +The lawyer used a plea of insanity, contrasting the two misdeeds in order +to strengthen his argument. He had clearly proved that the theft of the +two ducks came from the same mental condition as the eight knife-wounds +in the body of Maramlot. He had cunningly analyzed all the phases of +this transitory condition of mental aberration, which could, doubtless, +be cured by a few months' treatment in a reputable sanatorium. He had +spoken in enthusiastic terms of the continued devotion of this faithful +servant, of the care with which he had surrounded his master, wounded by +him in a moment of alienation. + +Touched by this memory, M. Marambot felt the tears rising to his eyes. + +The lawyer noticed it, opened his arms with a broad gesture, spreading +out the long black sleeves of his robe like the wings of a bat, and +exclaimed: + +"Look, look, gentleman of the jury, look at those tears. What more can I +say for my client? What speech, what argument, what reasoning would be +worth these tears of his master? They, speak louder than I do, louder +than the law; they cry: 'Mercy, for the poor wandering mind of a while +ago! They implore, they pardon, they bless!" + +He was silent and sat down. + +Then the judge, turning to Marambot, whose testimony had been excellent +for his servant, asked him: + +"But, monsieur, even admitting that you consider this man insane, that +does not explain why you should have kept him. He was none the less +dangerous." + +Marambot, wiping his eyes, answered: + +"Well, your honor, what can you expect? Nowadays it's so hard to find +good servants--I could never have found a better one." + +Denis was acquitted and put in a sanatorium at his master's expense. + + + + + + +MY WIFE + +It had been a stag dinner. These men still came together once in a while +without their wives as they had done when they were bachelors. They +would eat for a long time, drink for a long time; they would talk of +everything, stir up those old and joyful memories which bring a smile to +the lip and a tremor to the heart. One of them was saying: "Georges, do +you remember our excursion to Saint-Germain with those two little girls +from Montmartre?" + +"I should say I do!" + +And a little detail here or there would be remembered, and all these +things brought joy to the hearts. + +The conversation turned on marriage, and each one said with a sincere +air: "Oh, if it were to do over again!" Georges Duportin added: "It's +strange how easily one falls into it. You have fully decided never to +marry; and then, in the springtime, you go to the country; the weather is +warm; the summer is beautiful; the fields are full of flowers; you meet a +young girl at some friend's house--crash! all is over. You return +married!" + +Pierre Letoile exclaimed: "Correct! that is exactly my case, only there +were some peculiar incidents--" + +His friend interrupted him: "As for you, you have no cause to complain. +You have the most charming wife in the world, pretty, amiable, perfect! +You are undoubtedly the happiest one of us all." + +The other one continued: "It's not my fault." + +"How so?" + +"It is true that I have a perfect wife, but I certainly married her much +against my will." + +"Nonsense!" + +"Yes--this is the adventure. I was thirty-five, and I had no more idea +of marrying than I had of hanging myself. Young girls seemed to me to be +inane, and I loved pleasure. + +"During the month of May I was invited to the wedding of my cousin, Simon +d'Erabel, in Normandy. It was a regular Normandy wedding. We sat down +at the table at five o'clock in the evening and at eleven o'clock we were +still eating. I had been paired off, for the occasion, with a +Mademoiselle Dumoulin, daughter of a retired colonel, a young, blond, +soldierly person, well formed, frank and talkative. She took complete +possession of me for the whole day, dragged me into the park, made me +dance willy-nilly, bored me to death. I said to myself: 'That's all very +well for to-day, but tomorrow I'll get out. That's all there is to it!' + +"Toward eleven o'clock at night the women retired to their rooms; the men +stayed, smoking while they drank or drinking while they smoked, whichever +you will. + +"Through the open window we could see the country folks dancing. Farmers +and peasant girls were jumping about in a circle yelling at the top of +their lungs a dance air which was feebly accompanied by two violins and a +clarinet. The wild song of the peasants often completely drowned the +sound of the instruments, and the weak music, interrupted by the +unrestrained voices, seemed to come to us in little fragments of +scattered notes. Two enormous casks, surrounded by flaming torches, +contained drinks for the crowd. Two men were kept busy rinsing the +glasses or bowls in a bucket and immediately holding them under the +spigots, from which flowed the red stream of wine or the golden stream of +pure cider; and the parched dancers, the old ones quietly, the girls +panting, came up, stretched out their arms and grasped some receptacle, +threw back their heads and poured down their throats the drink which they +preferred. On a table were bread, butter, cheese and sausages. Each one +would step up from time to time and swallow a mouthful, and under the +starlit sky this healthy and violent exercise was a pleasing sight, and +made one also feel like drinking from these enormous casks and eating the +crisp bread and butter with a raw onion. + +"A mad desire seized me to take part in this merrymaking, and I left my +companions. I must admit that I was probably a little tipsy, but I was +soon entirely so. + +"I grabbed the hand of a big, panting peasant woman and I jumped her +about until I was out of breath. + +"Then I drank some wine and reached for another girl. In order to +refresh myself afterward, I swallowed a bowlful of cider, and I began to +bounce around as if possessed. + +"I was very light on my feet. The boys, delighted, were watching me and +trying to imitate me; the girls all wished to dance with me, and jumped +about heavily with the grace of cows. + +"After each dance I drank a glass of wine or a glass of cider, and toward +two o'clock in the morning I was so drunk that I could hardly stand up. + +"I realized my condition and tried to reach my room. Everybody was +asleep and the house was silent and dark. + +"I had no matches and everybody was in bed. As soon as I reached the +vestibule I began to, feel dizzy. I had a lot of trouble to find the +banister. At last, by accident, my hand came in contact with it, and I +sat down on the first step of the stairs in order to try to gather my +scattered wits. + +"My room was on the second floor; it was the third door to the left. +Fortunately I had not forgotten that. Armed with this knowledge, I +arose, not without difficulty, and I began to ascend, step by step. In +my hands I firmly gripped the iron railing in order not to fall, and took +great pains to make no noise. + +"Only three or four times did my foot miss the steps, and I went down on +my knees; but thanks to the energy of my arms and the strength of my +will, I avoided falling completely. + +"At last I reached the second floor and I set out in my journey along the +hall, feeling my way by the walls. I felt one door; I counted: 'One'; +but a sudden dizziness made me lose my hold on the wall, make a strange +turn and fall up against the other wall. I wished to turn in a straight +line: The crossing was long and full of hardships. At last I reached the +shore, and, prudently, I began to travel along again until I met another +door. In order to be sure to make no mistake, I again counted out loud: +'Two.' I started out on my walk again. At last I found the third door. +I said: 'Three, that's my room,' and I turned the knob. The door opened. +Notwithstanding my befuddled state, I thought: 'Since the door opens, +this must be home.' After softly closing the door, I stepped out in the +darkness. I bumped against something soft: my easy-chair. I immediately +stretched myself out on it. + +"In my condition it would not have been wise to look for my bureau, my +candles, my matches. It would have taken me at least two hours. It +would probably have taken me that long also to undress; and even then I +might not have succeeded. I gave it up. + +"I only took my shoes off; I unbuttoned my waistcoat, which was choking +me, I loosened my trousers and went to sleep. + +"This undoubtedly lasted for a long time. I was suddenly awakened by a +deep voice which was saying: 'What, you lazy girl, still in bed? It's +ten o'clock!' + +"A woman's voice answered: 'Already! I was so tired yesterday.' + +"In bewilderment I wondered what this dialogue meant. Where was I? What +had I done? My mind was wandering, still surrounded by a heavy fog. The +first voice continued: 'I'm going to raise your curtains.' + +"I heard steps approaching me. Completely at a loss what to do, I sat +up. Then a hand was placed on my head. I started. The voice asked: +'Who is there?' I took good care not to answer. A furious grasp seized +me. I in turn seized him, and a terrific struggle ensued. We were +rolling around, knocking over the furniture and crashing against the +walls. A woman's voice was shrieking: 'Help! help!' + +"Servants, neighbors, frightened women crowded around us. The blinds +were open and the shades drawn. I was struggling with Colonel Dumoulin + +"I had slept beside his daughter's bed! + +"When we were separated, I escaped to my room, dumbfounded. I locked +myself in and sat down with my feet on a chair, for my shoes had been +left in the young girl's room. + +"I heard a great noise through the whole house, doors being opened and +closed, whisperings and rapid steps. + +"After half an hour some one knocked on my door. I cried: 'Who is +there?' It was my uncle, the bridegroom's father. I opened the door: + +"He was pale and furious, and he treated me harshly: 'You have behaved +like a scoundrel in my house, do you hear?' Then he added more gently +'But, you young fool, why 'the devil did you let yourself get caught at +ten o'clock in the morning? You go to sleep like a log in that room, +instead of leaving immediately-immediately after.' + +"I exclaimed: 'But, uncle, I assure you that nothing occurred. I was +drunk and got into the wrong room.' + +"He shrugged his shoulders! 'Don't talk nonsense.' I raised my hand, +exclaiming: 'I swear to you on my honor.' My uncle continued: 'Yes, +that's all right. It's your duty to say that.' + +"I in turn grew angry and told him the whole unfortunate occurrence. He +looked at me with a bewildered expression, not knowing what to believe. +Then he went out to confer with the colonel. + +"I heard that a kind of jury of the mothers had been formed, to which +were submitted the different phases of the situation. + +"He came back an hour later, sat down with the dignity of a judge and +began: 'No matter what may be the situation, I can see only one way out +of it for you; it is to marry Mademoiselle Dumoulin.' + +"I bounded out of the chair, crying: 'Never! never!' + +"Gravely he asked: 'Well, what do you expect to do?' + +"I answered simply: 'Why-leave as soon as my shoes are returned to me.' + +"My uncle continued: 'Please do not jest. The colonel has decided to +blow your brains out as soon as he sees you. And you may be sure that he +does not threaten idly. I spoke of a duel and he answered: "No, I tell +you that I will blow his brains out." + +"'Let us now examine the question from another point of view. Either you +have misbehaved yourself--and then so much the worse for you, my boy; one +should not go near a young girl--or else, being drunk, as you say, you +made a mistake in the room. In this case, it's even worse for you. You +shouldn't get yourself into such foolish situations. Whatever you may +say, the poor girl's reputation is lost, for a drunkard's excuses are +never believed. The only real victim in the matter is the girl. Think +it over.' + +"He went away, while I cried after him: 'Say what you will, I'll not +marry her!' + +"I stayed alone for another hour. Then my aunt came. She was crying. +She used every argument. No one believed my story. They could not +imagine that this young girl could have forgotten to lock her door in a +house full of company. The colonel had struck her. She had been crying +the whole morning. It was a terrible and unforgettable scandal. And my +good aunt added: 'Ask for her hand, anyhow. We may, perhaps, find some +way out of it when we are drawing up the papers.' + +"This prospect relieved me. And I agreed to write my proposal. An hour +later I left for Paris. The following day I was informed that I had been +accepted. + +"Then, in three weeks, before I had been able to find any excuse, the +banns were published, the announcement sent out, the contract signed, and +one Monday morning I found myself in a church, beside a weeping young +girl, after telling the magistrate that I consented to take her as my +companion--for better, for worse. + +"I had not seen her since my adventure, and I glanced at her out of the +corner of my eye with a certain malevolent surprise. However, she was +not ugly--far from it. I said to myself: 'There is some one who won't +laugh every day.' + +"She did not look at me once until, the evening, and she did not say a +single word. + +"Toward the middle of the night I entered the bridal chamber with the +full intention of letting her know my resolutions, for I was now master. +I found her sitting in an armchair, fully dressed, pale and with red +eyes. As soon as I entered she rose and came slowly toward me saying: +'Monsieur, I am ready to do whatever you may command. I will kill myself +if you so desire' + +"The colonel's daughter was as pretty as she could be in this heroic +role. I kissed her; it was my privilege. + +"I soon saw that I had not got a bad bargain. I have now been married +five years. I do not regret it in the least." + +Pierre Letoile was silent. His companions were laughing. One of them +said: "Marriage is indeed a lottery; you must never choose your numbers. +The haphazard ones are the best." + +Another added by way of conclusion: "Yes, but do not forget that the god +of drunkards chose for Pierre." + + + + + + +THE UNKNOWN + +We were speaking of adventures, and each one of us was relating his story +of delightful experiences, surprising meetings, on the train, in a hotel, +at the seashore. According to Roger des Annettes, the seashore was +particularly favorable to the little blind god. + +Gontran, who was keeping mum, was asked what he thought of it. + +"I guess Paris is about the best place for that," he said. "Woman is +like a precious trinket, we appreciate her all the more when we meet her +in the most unexpected places; but the rarest ones are only to be found +in Paris." + +He was silent for a moment, and then continued: + +"By Jove, it's great! Walk along the streets on some spring morning. +The little women, daintily tripping along, seem to blossom out like +flowers. What a delightful, charming sight! The dainty perfume of +violet is everywhere. The city is gay, and everybody notices the women. +By Jove, how tempting they are in their light, thin dresses, which +occasionally give one a glimpse of the delicate pink flesh beneath! + +"One saunters along, head up, mind alert, and eyes open. I tell you it's +great! You see her in the distance, while still a block away; you +already know that she is going to please you at closer quarters. You can +recognize her by the flower on her hat, the toss of her head, or her +gait. She approaches, and you say to yourself: 'Look out, here she is!' +You come closer to her and you devour her with your eyes. + +"Is it a young girl running errands for some store, a young woman +returning from church, or hastening to see her lover? What do you care? +Her well-rounded bosom shows through the thin waist. Oh, if you could +only take her in your arms and fondle and kiss her! Her glance may be +timid or bold, her hair light or dark. What difference does it make? +She brushes against you, and a cold shiver runs down your spine. Ah, how +you wish for her all day! How many of these dear creatures have I met +this way, and how wildly in love I would have been had I known them more +intimately. + +"Have you ever noticed that the ones we would love the most distractedly +are those whom we never meet to know? Curious, isn't it? From time to +time we barely catch a glimpse of some woman, the mere sight of whom +thrills our senses. But it goes no further. When I think of all the +adorable creatures that I have elbowed in the streets of Paris, I fairly +rave. Who are they! Where are they? Where can I find them again? +There is a proverb which says that happiness often passes our way; I am +sure that I have often passed alongside the one who could have caught me +like a linnet in the snare of her fresh beauty." + +Roger des Annettes had listened smilingly. He answered: "I know that as +well as you do. This is what happened to me: About five years ago, for +the first time I met, on the Pont de la Concorde, a young woman who made +a wonderful impression on me. She was dark, rather stout, with glossy +hair, and eyebrows which nearly met above two dark eyes. On her lip was +a scarcely perceptible down, which made one dream-dream as one dreams of +beloved woods, on seeing a bunch of wild violets. She had a small waist +and a well-developed bust, which seemed to present a challenge, offer a +temptation. Her eyes were like two black spots on white enamel. Her +glance was strange, vacant, unthinking, and yet wonderfully beautiful. +"I imagined that she might be a Jewess. I followed her, and then turned +round to look at her, as did many others. She walked with a swinging +gait that was not graceful, but somehow attracted one. At the Place de +la Concorde she took a carriage, and I stood there like a fool, moved by +the strongest desire that had ever assailed me. + +"For about three weeks I thought only of her; and then her memory passed +out of my mind. + +"Six months later I descried her in the Rue de la Paix again. On seeing +her I felt the same shock that one experiences on seeing a once dearly +loved woman. I stopped that I might better observe her. When she passed +close enough to touch me I felt as though I were standing before a red +hot furnace. Then, when she had passed by, I noticed a delicious +sensation, as of a cooling breeze blowing over my face. I did not follow +her. I was afraid of doing something foolish. I was afraid of myself. + +"She haunted all my dreams. + +"It was a year before I saw her again. But just as the sun was going +down on one beautiful evening in May I recognized her walking along the +Avenue des Champs-Elysees. The Arc de Triomphe stood out in bold relief +against the fiery glow of the sky. A golden haze filled the air; it was +one of those delightful spring evenings which are the glory of Paris. +"I followed her, tormented by a desire to address her, to kneel before +her, to pour forth the emotion which was choking me. Twice I passed by +her only to fall back, and each time as I passed by I felt this +sensation, as of scorching heat, which I had noticed in the Rue de la +Paix. + +"She glanced at me, and then I saw her enter a house on the Rue de +Presbourg. I waited for her two hours and she did not come out. Then I +decided to question the janitor. He seemed not to understand me. 'She +must be visiting some one,' he said. + +"The next time I was eight months without seeing her. But one freezing +morning in January, I was walking along the Boulevard Malesherbes at a +dog trot, so as to keep warm, when at the corner I bumped into a woman +and knocked a small package out of her hand. I tried to apologize. It +was she! + +"At first I stood stock still from the shock; then having returned to her +the package which she had dropped, I said abruptly: + +"'I am both grieved and delighted, madame, to have jostled you. For more +than two years I have known you, admired you, and had the most ardent +wish to be presented to you; nevertheless I have been unable to find out +who you are, or where you live. Please excuse these foolish words. +Attribute them to a passionate desire to be numbered among your +acquaintances. Such sentiments can surely offend you in no way! You do +not know me. My name is Baron Roger des Annettes. Make inquiries about +me, and you will find that I am a gentleman. Now, if you refuse my +request, you will throw me into abject misery. Please be good to me and +tell me how I can see you.' + +"She looked at me with her strange vacant stare, and answered smilingly: + +"'Give me your address. I will come and see you.' + +"I was so dumfounded that I must have shown my surprise. But I quickly +gathered my wits together and gave her a visiting card, which she slipped +into her pocket with a quick, deft movement. + +"Becoming bolder, I stammered: + +"'When shall I see you again?' + +"She hesitated, as though mentally running over her list of engagements, +and then murmured: + +"'Will Sunday morning suit you?' + +"'I should say it would!' + +"She went on, after having stared at me, judged, weighed and analyzed me +with this heavy and vacant gaze which seemed to leave a quieting and +deadening impression on the person towards whom it was directed. + +"Until Sunday my mind was occupied day and night trying to guess who she +might be and planning my course of conduct towards her. I finally +decided to buy her a jewel, a beautiful little jewel, which I placed in +its box on the mantelpiece, and left it there awaiting her arrival. + +"I spent a restless night waiting for her. + +"At ten o'clock she came, calm and quiet, and with her hand outstretched, +as though she had known me for years. Drawing up a chair, I took her hat +and coat and furs, and laid them aside. And then, timidly, I took her +hand in mine; after that all went on without a hitch. + +"Ah, my friends! what a bliss it is, to stand at a discreet distance and +watch the hidden pink and blue ribbons, partly concealed, to observe the +hazy lines of the beloved one's form, as they become visible through the +last of the filmy garments! What a delight it is to watch the ostrich- +like modesty of those who are in reality none too modest. And what is so +pretty as their motions! + +"Her back was turned towards me, and suddenly, my eyes were irresistibly +drawn to a large black spot right between her shoulders. What could it +be? Were my eyes deceiving me? But no, there it was, staring me in the +face! Then my mind reverted to the faint down on her lip, the heavy +eyebrows almost meeting over her coal-black eyes, her glossy black hair-- +I should have been prepared for some surprise. + +"Nevertheless I was dumfounded, and my mind was haunted by dim visions of +strange adventures. I seemed to see before me one of the evil genii of +the Thousand and One Nights, one of these dangerous and crafty creatures +whose mission it is to drag men down to unknown depths. I thought of +Solomon, who made the Queen of Sheba walk on a mirror that he might be +sure that her feet were not cloven. + +"And when the time came for me to sing of love to her, my voice forsook +me. At first she showed surprise, which soon turned to anger; and she +said, quickly putting on her wraps: + +"'It was hardly worth while for me to go out of my way to come here.' + +"I wanted her to accept the ring which I had bought for her, but she +replied haughtily: 'For whom do you take me, sir?' I blushed to the roots +of my hair. She left without saying another word. + +"There is my whole adventure. But the worst part of it is that I am now +madly in love with her. I can't see a woman without thinking of her. +All the others disgust me, unless they remind me of her. I cannot kiss a +woman without seeing her face before me, and without suffering the +torture of unsatisfied desire. She is always with me, always there, +dressed or nude, my true love. She is there, beside the other one, +visible but intangible. I am almost willing to believe that she was +bewitched, and carried a talisman between her shoulders. + +"Who is she? I don't know yet. I have met her once or twice since. I +bowed, but she pretended not to recognize me. Who is she? An Oriental? +Yes, doubtless an oriental Jewess! I believe that she must be a Jewess! +But why? Why? I don't know!" + + + + + + +THE APPARITION + +The subject of sequestration of the person came up in speaking of a +recent lawsuit, and each of us had a story to tell--a true story, he +said. We had been spending the evening together at an old family mansion +in the Rue de Grenelle, just a party of intimate friends. The old +Marquis de la Tour-Samuel, who was eighty-two, rose,and, leaning his +elbow on the mantelpiece, said in his somewhat shaky voice: + +"I also know of something strange, so strange that it has haunted me all +my life. It is now fifty-six years since the incident occurred, and yet +not a month passes that I do not see it again in a dream, so great is the +impression of fear it has left on my mind. For ten minutes I experienced +such horrible fright that ever since then a sort of constant terror has +remained with me. Sudden noises startle me violently, and objects +imperfectly distinguished at night inspire me with a mad desire to flee +from them. In short, I am afraid of the dark! + +"But I would not have acknowledged that before I reached my present age. +Now I can say anything. I have never receded before real danger, ladies. +It is, therefore, permissible, at eighty-two years of age, not to be +brave in presence of imaginary danger. + +"That affair so completely upset me, caused me such deep and mysterious +and terrible distress, that I never spoke of it to any one. I will now +tell it to you exactly as it happened, without any attempt at +explanation. + +"In July, 1827, I was stationed at Rouen. One day as I was walking along +the quay I met a man whom I thought I recognized without being able to +recall exactly who he was. Instinctively I made a movement to stop. The +stranger perceived it and at once extended his hand. + +"He was a friend to whom I had been deeply attached as a youth. For five +years I had not seen him; he seemed to have aged half a century. His +hair was quite white and he walked bent over as though completely +exhausted. He apparently understood my surprise, and he told me of the +misfortune which had shattered his life. + +"Having fallen madly in love with a young girl, he had married her, but +after a year of more than earthly happiness she died suddenly of an +affection of the heart. He left his country home on the very day of her +burial and came to his town house in Rouen, where he lived, alone and +unhappy, so sad and wretched that he thought constantly of suicide. + +"'Since I have found you again in this manner,' he said, 'I will ask you +to render me an important service. It is to go and get me out of the +desk in my bedroom--our bedroom--some papers of which I have urgent need. +I cannot send a servant or a business clerk, as discretion and absolute +silence are necessary. As for myself, nothing on earth would induce me +to reenter that house. I will give you the key of the room, which I +myself locked on leaving, and the key of my desk, also a few words for my +gardener, telling him to open the chateau for you. But come and +breakfast with me tomorrow and we will arrange all that.' + +"I promised to do him the slight favor he asked. It was, for that +matter, only a ride which I could make in an hour on horseback, his +property being but a few miles distant from Rouen. + +"At ten o'clock the following day I breakfasted, tete-a-tete, with my +friend, but he scarcely spoke. + +"He begged me to pardon him; the thought of the visit I was about to make +to that room, the scene of his dead happiness, overcame him, he said. +He, indeed, seemed singularly agitated and preoccupied, as though +undergoing some mysterious mental struggle. + +"At length he explained to me exactly what I had to do. It was very +simple. I must take two packages of letters and a roll of papers from +the first right-hand drawer of the desk, of which I had the key. He +added: + +"'I need not beg you to refrain from glancing at them.' + +"I was wounded at that remark and told him so somewhat sharply. He +stammered: + +"'Forgive me, I suffer so,' and tears came to his eyes. + +"At about one o'clock I took leave of him to accomplish my mission. + +"'The weather was glorious, and I trotted across the fields, listening to +the song of the larks and the rhythmical clang of my sword against my +boot. Then I entered the forest and walked my horse. Branches of trees +caressed my face as I passed, and now and then I caught a leaf with my +teeth and chewed it, from sheer gladness of heart at being alive and +vigorous on such a radiant day. + +"As I approached the chateau I took from my pocket the letter I had for +the gardener, and was astonished at finding it sealed. I was so +irritated that I was about to turn back without having fulfilled my +promise, but reflected that I should thereby display undue +susceptibility. My friend in his troubled condition might easily have +fastened the envelope without noticing that he did so. + +"The manor looked as if it had been abandoned for twenty years. The open +gate was falling from its hinges, the walks were overgrown with grass and +the flower beds were no longer distinguishable. + +"The noise I made by kicking at a shutter brought out an old man from a +side door. He seemed stunned with astonishment at seeing me. On +receiving my letter, he read it, reread it, turned it over and over, +looked me up and down, put the paper in his pocket and finally said: + +"'Well, what is it you wish?' + +"I replied shortly: + +"'You ought to know, since you have just read your master's orders. I +wish to enter the chateau.' + +"He seemed overcome. + +"'Then you are going in--into her room?' + +"I began to lose patience. + +"'Damn it! Are you presuming to question me?' + +"He stammered in confusion: + +"'No--sir--but--but it has not been opened since--since the-death. If +you will be kind enough to wait five minutes I will go and--and see if--' + +"I interrupted him angrily: + +"'See here, what do you mean by your tricks? + +"'You know very well you cannot enter the room, since here is the key!' + +"He no longer objected. + +"'Then, sir, I will show you the way.' + +"'Show me the staircase and leave me. I'll find my way without you.' + +"'But--sir--indeed--' + +"This time I lost patience, and pushing him aside, went into the house. + +"I first went through the kitchen, then two rooms occupied by this man +and his wife. I then crossed a large hall, mounted a staircase and +recognized the door described by my friend. + +"I easily opened it, and entered the apartment. It was so dark that at +first I could distinguish nothing. I stopped short, disagreeably +affected by that disagreeable, musty odor of closed, unoccupied rooms. +As my eyes slowly became accustomed to the darkness I saw plainly enough +a large and disordered bedroom, the bed without sheets but still +retaining its mattresses and pillows, on one of which was a deep +impression, as though an elbow or a head had recently rested there. + +"The chairs all seemed out of place. I noticed that a door, doubtless +that of a closet, had remained half open. + +"I first went to the window, which I opened to let in the light, but the +fastenings of the shutters had grown so rusty that I could not move them. +I even tried to break them with my sword, but without success. As I was +growing irritated over my useless efforts and could now see fairly well +in the semi-darkness, I gave up the hope of getting more light, and went +over to the writing desk. + +"I seated myself in an armchair and, letting down the lid of the desk, I +opened the drawer designated. It was full to the top. I needed but +three packages, which I knew how to recognize, and began searching for +them. + +"I was straining my eyes in the effort to read the superscriptions when I +seemed to hear, or, rather, feel, something rustle back of me. I paid no +attention, believing that a draught from the window was moving some +drapery. But in a minute or so another movement, almost imperceptible, +sent a strangely disagreeable little shiver over my skin. It was so +stupid to be affected, even slightly, that self-respect prevented my +turning around. I had just found the second package I needed and was +about to lay my hand on the third when a long and painful sigh, uttered +just at my shoulder, made me bound like a madman from my seat and land +several feet off. As I jumped I had turned round my hand on the hilt of +my sword, and, truly, if I had not felt it at my side I should have taken +to my heels like a coward. + +"A tall woman dressed in white, stood gazing at me from the back of the +chair where I had been sitting an instant before. + +"Such a shudder ran through all my limbs that I nearly fell backward. No +one who has not experienced it can understand that frightful, unreasoning +terror! The mind becomes vague, the heart ceases to beat, the entire +body grows as limp as a sponge. + +"I do not believe in ghosts, nevertheless I collapsed from a hideous +dread of the dead, and I suffered, oh! I suffered in a few moments more +than in all the rest of my life from the irresistible terror of the +supernatural. If she had not spoken I should have died perhaps. But she +spoke, she spoke in a sweet, sad voice that set my nerves vibrating. +I dare not say that I became master of myself and recovered my reason. +No! I was terrified and scarcely knew what I was doing. But a certain +innate pride, a remnant of soldierly instinct, made me, almost in spite +of myself, maintain a bold front. She said: + +"'Oh, sir, you can render me a great service.' + +"I wanted to reply, but it was impossible for me to pronounce a word. +Only a vague sound came from my throat. She continued: + +"'Will you? You can save me, cure me. I suffer frightfully. I suffer, +oh! how I suffer!' and she slowly seated herself in my armchair, still +looking at me. + +"'Will you?' she said. + +"I nodded in assent, my voice still being paralyzed. + +"Then she held out to me a tortoise-shell comb and murmured: + +"'Comb my hair, oh! comb my hair; that will cure me; it must be combed. +Look at my head--how I suffer; and my hair pulls so!' + +"Her hair, unbound, very long and very black, it seemed to me, hung over +the back of the armchair and touched the floor. + +"Why did I promise? Why did I take that comb with a shudder, and why did +I hold in my hands her long black hair that gave my skin a frightful cold +sensation, as though I were handling snakes? I cannot tell. + +"That sensation has remained in my fingers, and I still tremble in +recalling it. + +"I combed her hair. I handled, I know not how, those icy locks. I +twisted, knotted, and unknotted, and braided them. She sighed, bowed her +head, seemed happy. Suddenly she said, 'Thank you!' snatched the comb +from my hands and fled by the door that I had noticed ajar. + +"Left alone, I experienced for several seconds the horrible agitation of +one who awakens from a nightmare. At length I regained my senses. I ran +to the window and with a mighty effort burst open the shutters, letting a +flood of light into the room. Immediately I sprang to the door by which +that being had departed. I found it closed and immovable! + +"Then the mad desire to flee overcame me like a panic the panic which +soldiers know in battle. I seized the three packets of letters on the +open desk, ran from the room, dashed down the stairs four steps at a +time, found myself outside, I know not how, and, perceiving my horse a +few steps off, leaped into the saddle and galloped away. + +"I stopped only when I reached Rouen and alighted at my lodgings. +Throwing the reins to my orderly, I fled to my room and shut myself in to +reflect. For an hour I anxiously asked myself if I were not the victim +of a hallucination. Undoubtedly I had had one of those incomprehensible +nervous attacks those exaltations of mind that give rise to visions and +are the stronghold of the supernatural. And I was about to believe I had +seen a vision, had a hallucination, when, as I approached the window, my +eyes fell, by chance, upon my breast. My military cape was covered with +long black hairs! One by one, with trembling fingers, I plucked them off +and threw them away. + +"I then called my orderly. I was too disturbed, too upset to go and see +my friend that day, and I also wished to reflect more fully upon what I +ought to tell him. I sent him his letters, for which he gave the soldier +a receipt. He asked after me most particularly, and, on being told I was +ill--had had a sunstroke--appeared exceedingly anxious. Next morning I +went to him, determined to tell him the truth. He had gone out the +evening before and had not yet returned. I called again during the day; +my friend was still absent. After waiting a week longer without news of +him, I notified the authorities and a judicial search was instituted. +Not the slightest trace of his whereabouts or manner of disappearance was +discovered. + +"A minute inspection of the abandoned chateau revealed nothing of a +suspicious character. There was no indication that a woman had been +concealed there. + +"After fruitless researches all further efforts were abandoned, and for +fifty-six years I have heard nothing; I know no more than before." + + + + + + + VOLUME VIII. + +CLOCHETTE +THE KISS +THE LEGION OF HONOR +THE TEST +FOUND ON A DROWNED MAN +THE ORPHAN +THE BEGGAR +THE RABBIT +HIS AVENGER +MY UNCLE JULES +THE MODEL +A VAGABOND +THE FISHING HOLE +THE SPASM +IN THE WOOD +MARTINE +ALL OVER +THE PARROT +A PIECE OF STRING + + + + +CLOCHETTE + +How strange those old recollections are which haunt us, without our being +able to get rid of them. + +This one is so very old that I cannot understand how it has clung so +vividly and tenaciously to my memory. Since then I have seen so many +sinister things, which were either affecting or terrible, that I am +astonished at not being able to pass a single day without the face of +Mother Bellflower recurring to my mind's eye, just as I knew her +formerly, now so long ago, when I was ten or twelve years old. + +She was an old seamstress who came to my parents' house once a week, +every Thursday, to mend the linen. My parents lived in one of those +country houses called chateaux, which are merely old houses with gable +roofs, to which are attached three or four farms lying around them. + +The village, a large village, almost a market town, was a few hundred +yards away, closely circling the church, a red brick church, black with +age. + +Well, every Thursday Mother Clochette came between half-past six and +seven in the morning, and went immediately into the linen-room and began +to work. She was a tall, thin, bearded or rather hairy woman, for she +had a beard all over her face, a surprising, an unexpected beard, growing +in improbable tufts, in curly bunches which looked as if they had been +sown by a madman over that great face of a gendarme in petticoats. She +had them on her nose, under her nose, round her nose, on her chin, on her +cheeks; and her eyebrows, which were extraordinarily thick and long, and +quite gray, bushy and bristling, looked exactly like a pair of mustaches +stuck on there by mistake. + +She limped, not as lame people generally do, but like a ship at anchor. +When she planted her great, bony, swerving body on her sound leg, she +seemed to be preparing to mount some enormous wave, and then suddenly she +dipped as if to disappear in an abyss, and buried herself in the ground. +Her walk reminded one of a storm, as she swayed about, and her head, +which was always covered with an enormous white cap, whose ribbons +fluttered down her back, seemed to traverse the horizon from north to +south and from south to north, at each step. + +I adored Mother Clochette. As soon as I was up I went into the linen- +room where I found her installed at work, with a foot-warmer under her +feet. As soon as I arrived, she made me take the foot-warmer and sit +upon it, so that I might not catch cold in that large, chilly room under +the roof. + +"That draws the blood from your throat," she said to me. + +She told me stories, whilst mending the linen with her long crooked +nimble fingers; her eyes behind her magnifying spectacles, for age had +impaired her sight, appeared enormous to me, strangely profound, double. + +She had, as far as I can remember the things which she told me and by +which my childish heart was moved, the large heart of a poor woman. She +told me what had happened in the village, how a cow had escaped from the +cow-house and had been found the next morning in front of Prosper Malet's +windmill, looking at the sails turning, or about a hen's egg which had +been found in the church belfry without any one being able to understand +what creature had been there to lay it, or the story of Jean-Jean Pila's +dog, who had been ten leagues to bring back his master's breeches which a +tramp had stolen whilst they were hanging up to dry out of doors, after +he had been in the rain. She told me these simple adventures in such a +manner, that in my mind they assumed the proportions of never-to-be +-forgotten dramas, of grand and mysterious poems; and the ingenious +stories invented by the poets which my mother told me in the evening, had +none of the flavor, none of the breadth or vigor of the peasant woman's +narratives. + +Well, one Tuesday, when I had spent all the morning in listening to +Mother Clochette, I wanted to go upstairs to her again during the day +after picking hazelnuts with the manservant in the wood behind the farm. +I remember it all as clearly as what happened only yesterday. + +On opening the door of the linen-room, I saw the old seamstress lying on +the ground by the side of her chair, with her face to the ground and her +arms stretched out, but still holding her needle in one hand and one of +my shirts in the other. One of her legs in a blue stocking, the longer +one, no doubt, was extended under her chair, and her spectacles glistened +against the wall, as they had rolled away from her. + +I ran away uttering shrill cries. They all came running, and in a few +minutes I was told that Mother Clochette was dead. + +I cannot describe the profound, poignant, terrible emotion which stirred +my childish heart. I went slowly down into the drawing-room and hid +myself in a dark corner, in the depths of an immense old armchair, where +I knelt down and wept. I remained there a long time, no doubt, for night +came on. Suddenly somebody came in with a lamp, without seeing me, +however, and I heard my father and mother talking with the medical man, +whose voice I recognized. + +He had been sent for immediately, and he was explaining the causes of the +accident, of which I understood nothing, however. Then he sat down and +had a glass of liqueur and a biscuit. + +He went on talking, and what he then said will remain engraved on my mind +until I die! I think that I can give the exact words which he used. + +"Ah!" said he, "the poor woman! She broke her leg the day of my arrival +here, and I had not even had time to wash my hands after getting off the +diligence before I was sent for in all haste, for it was a bad case, very +bad. + +"She was seventeen, and a pretty girl, very pretty! Would any one +believe it? I have never told her story before, and nobody except myself +and one other person who is no longer living in this part of the country +ever knew it. Now that she is dead, I may be less discreet. + +"Just then a young assistant-teacher came to live in the village; he was +a handsome, well-made fellow, and looked like a non-commissioned officer. +All the girls ran after him, but he paid no attention to them, partly +because he was very much afraid of his superior, the schoolmaster, old +Grabu, who occasionally got out of bed the wrong foot first. + +"Old Grabu already employed pretty Hortense who has just died here, and +who was afterwards nicknamed Clochette. The assistant master singled out +the pretty young girl, who was, no doubt, flattered at being chosen by +this impregnable conqueror; at any rate, she fell in love with him, and +he succeeded in persuading her to give him a first meeting in the hay- +loft behind the school, at night, after she had done her day's sewing. + +"She pretended to go home, but instead of going downstairs when she left +the Grabus' she went upstairs and hid among the hay, to wait for her +lover. He soon joined her, and was beginning to say pretty things to +her, when the door of the hay-loft opened and the schoolmaster appeared, +and asked: 'What are you doing up there, Sigisbert?' Feeling sure that +he would be caught, the young schoolmaster lost his presence of mind and +replied stupidly: 'I came up here to rest a little amongst the bundles of +hay, Monsieur Grabu.' + +"The loft was very large and absolutely dark, and Sigisbert pushed the +frightened girl to the further end and said: 'Go over there and hide +yourself. I shall lose my position, so get away and hide yourself.' + +"When the schoolmaster heard the whispering, he continued: 'Why, you are +not by yourself?' 'Yes, I am, Monsieur Grabu!' 'But you are not, for you +are talking.' 'I swear I am, Monsieur Grabu.' 'I will soon find out,' the +old man replied, and double locking the door, he went down to get a +light. + +"Then the young man, who was a coward such as one frequently meets, lost +his head, and becoming furious all of a sudden, he repeated: 'Hide +yourself, so that he may not find you. You will keep me from making a +living for the rest of my life; you will ruin my whole career. Do hide +yourself!' They could hear the key turning in the lock again, and +Hortense ran to the window which looked out on the street, opened it +quickly, and then said in a low and determined voice: 'You will come and +pick me up when he is gone,' and she jumped out. + +"Old Grabu found nobody, and went down again in great surprise, and a +quarter of an hour later, Monsieur Sigisbert came to me and related his +adventure. The girl had remained at the foot of the wall unable to get +up, as she had fallen from the second story, and I went with him to fetch +her. It was raining in torrents, and I brought the unfortunate girl home +with me, for the right leg was broken in three places, and the bones had +come trough the flesh. She did not complain, and merely said, with +admirable resignation: 'I am punished, well punished!' + +"I sent for assistance and for the work-girl's relatives and told them a, +made-up story of a runaway carriage which had knocked her down and lamed +her outside my door. They believed me, and the gendarmes for a whole +month tried in vain to find the author of this accident. + +"That is all! And I say that this woman was a heroine and belonged to +the race of those who accomplish the grandest deeds of history. + +"That was her only love affair, and she died a virgin. She was a martyr, +a noble soul, a sublimely devoted woman! And if I did not absolutely +admire her, I should not have told you this story, which I would never +tell any one during her life; you understand why." + +The doctor ceased. Mamma cried and papa said some words which I did not +catch; then they left the room and I remained on my knees in the armchair +and sobbed, whilst I heard a strange noise of heavy footsteps and +something knocking against the side of the staircase. + +They were carrying away Clochette's body. + + + + + + +THE KISS + +My Little Darling: So you are crying from morning until night and from +night until morning, because your husband leaves you; you do not know +what to do and so you ask your old aunt for advice; you must consider her +quite an expert. I don't know as much as you think I do, and yet I am +not entirely ignorant of the art of loving, or, rather, of making one's +self loved, in which you are a little lacking. I can admit that at my +age. + +You say that you are all attention, love, kisses and caresses for him. +Perhaps that is the very trouble; I think you kiss him too much. + +My dear, we have in our hands the most terrible power in the world: LOVE. + +Man is gifted with physical strength, and he exercises force. Woman is +gifted with charm, and she rules with caresses. It is our weapon, +formidable and invincible, but we should know how to use it. + +Know well that we are the mistresses of the world! To tell the history +of Love from the beginning of the world would be to tell the history of +man himself: Everything springs from it, the arts, great events, customs, +wars, the overthrow of empires. + +In the Bible you find Delila, Judith; in fables we find Omphale, Helen; +in history the Sabines, Cleopatra and many others. + +Therefore we reign supreme, all-powerful. But, like kings, we must make +use of delicate diplomacy. + +Love, my dear, is made up of imperceptible sensations. We know that it +is as strong as death, but also as frail as glass. The slightest shock +breaks it, and our power crumbles, and we are never able to raise it +again. + +We have the power of making ourselves adored, but we lack one tiny thing, +the understanding of the various kinds of caresses. In embraces we lose +the sentiment of delicacy, while the man over whom we rule remains master +of himself, capable of judging the foolishness of certain words. Take +care, my dear; that is the defect in our armor. It is our Achilles' +heel. + +Do you know whence comes our real power? From the kiss, the kiss alone! +When we know how to hold out and give up our lips we can become queens. + +The kiss is only a preface, however, but a charming preface. More +charming than the realization itself. A preface which can always be read +over again, whereas one cannot always read over the book. + +Yes, the meeting of lips is the most perfect, the most divine sensation +given to human beings, the supreme limit of happiness: It is in the kiss +alone that one sometimes seems to feel this union of souls after which we +strive, the intermingling of hearts, as it were. + +Do you remember the verses of Sully-Prudhomme: + + Caresses are nothing but anxious bliss, + Vain attempts of love to unite souls through a kiss. + +One caress alone gives this deep sensation of two beings welded into one +--it is the kiss. No violent delirium of complete possession is worth +this trembling approach of the lips, this first moist and fresh contact, +and then the long, lingering, motionless rapture. + +Therefore, my dear, the kiss is our strongest weapon, but we must take +care not to dull it. Do not forget that its value is only relative, +purely conventional. It continually changes according to circumstances, +the state of expectancy and the ecstasy of the mind. I will call +attention to one example. + +Another poet, Francois Coppee, has written a line which we all remember, +a line which we find delightful, which moves our very hearts. + +After describing the expectancy of a lover, waiting in a room one +winter's evening, his anxiety, his nervous impatience, the terrible fear +of not seeing her, he describes the arrival of the beloved woman, who at +last enters hurriedly, out of breath, bringing with her part of the +winter breeze, and he exclaims: + + Oh! the taste of the kisses first snatched through the veil. + +Is that not a line of exquisite sentiment, a delicate and charming +observation, a perfect truth? All those who have hastened to a +clandestine meeting, whom passion has thrown into the arms of a man, well +do they know these first delicious kisses through the veil; and they +tremble at the memory of them. And yet their sole charm lies in the +circumstances, from being late, from the anxious expectancy, but from the +purely--or, rather, impurely, if you prefer--sensual point of view, they +are detestable. + +Think! Outside it is cold. The young woman has walked quickly; the veil +is moist from her cold breath. Little drops of water shine in the lace. +The lover seizes her and presses his burning lips to her liquid breath. +The moist veil, which discolors and carries the dreadful odor of chemical +dye, penetrates into the young man's mouth, moistens his mustache. He +does not taste the lips of his beloved, he tastes the dye of this lace +moistened with cold breath. And yet, like the poet, we would all +exclaim: + + Oh! the taste of the kisses first snatched through the veil. + +Therefore, the value of this caress being entirely a matter of +convention, we must be careful not to abuse it. + +Well, my dear, I have several times noticed that you are very clumsy. +However, you were not alone in that fault; the majority of women lose +their authority by abusing the kiss with untimely kisses. When they feel +that their husband or their lover is a little tired, at those times when +the heart as well as the body needs rest, instead of understanding what +is going on within him, they persist in giving inopportune caresses, tire +him by the obstinacy of begging lips and give caresses lavished with +neither rhyme nor reason. + +Trust in the advice of my experience. First, never kiss your husband in +public, in the train, at the restaurant. It is bad taste; do not give in +to your desires. He would feel ridiculous and would never forgive you. + +Beware of useless kisses lavished in intimacy. I am sure that you abuse +them. For instance, I remember one day that you did something quite +shocking. Probably you do not remember it. + +All three of us were together in the drawing-room, and, as you did not +stand on ceremony before me, your husband was holding you on his knees +and kissing you at great length on the neck, the lips and throat. +Suddenly you exclaimed: "Oh! the fire!" You had been paying no attention +to it, and it was almost out. A few lingering embers were glowing on the +hearth. Then he rose, ran to the woodbox, from which he dragged two +enormous logs with great difficulty, when you came to him with begging +lips, murmuring: + +"Kiss me!" He turned his head with difficulty and tried to hold up the +logs at the same time. Then you gently and slowly placed your mouth on +that of the poor fellow, who remained with his neck out of joint, his +sides twisted, his arms almost dropping off, trembling with fatigue and +tired from his desperate effort. And you kept drawing out this torturing +kiss, without seeing or understanding. Then when you freed him, you +began to grumble: "How badly you kiss!" No wonder! + +Oh, take care of that! We all have this foolish habit, this unconscious +need of choosing the most inconvenient moments. When he is carrying a +glass of water, when he is putting on his shoes, when he is tying his +scarf--in short, when he finds himself in any uncomfortable position-- +then is the time which we choose for a caress which makes him stop for a +whole minute in the middle of a gesture with the sole desire of getting +rid of us! + +Do not think that this criticism is insignificant. Love, my dear, is a +delicate thing. The least little thing offends it; know that everything +depends on the tact of our caresses. An ill-placed kiss may do any +amount of harm. + +Try following my advice. + + Your old aunt, + COLLETTE. + +This story appeared in the Gaulois in November, 1882, under the pseudonym +of "Maufrigneuse." + + + + + + +THE LEGION OF HONOR + + + HOW HE GOT THE LEGION OF HONOR + +From the time some people begin to talk they seem to have an +overmastering desire or vocation. + +Ever since he was a child, M. Caillard had only had one idea in his head- +to wear the ribbon of an order. When he was still quite a small boy he +used to wear a zinc cross of the Legion of Honor pinned on his tunic, +just as other children wear a soldier's cap, and he took his mother's +hand in the street with a proud air, sticking out his little chest with +its red ribbon and metal star so that it might show to advantage. + +His studies were not a success, and he failed in his examination for +Bachelor of Arts; so, not knowing what to do, he married a pretty girl, +as he had plenty of money of his own. + +They lived in Paris, as many rich middle-class people do, mixing with +their own particular set, and proud of knowing a deputy, who might +perhaps be a minister some day, and counting two heads of departments +among their friends. + +But M. Caillard could not get rid of his one absorbing idea, and he felt +constantly unhappy because he had not the right to wear a little bit of +colored ribbon in his buttonhole. + +When he met any men who were decorated on the boulevards, he looked at +them askance, with intense jealousy. Sometimes, when he had nothing to +do in the afternoon, he would count them, and say to himself: "Just let +me see how many I shall meet between the Madeleine and the Rue Drouot." + +Then he would walk slowly, looking at every coat with a practiced eye for +the little bit of red ribbon, and when he had got to the end of his walk +he always repeated the numbers aloud. + +"Eight officers and seventeen knights. As many as that! It is stupid to +sow the cross broadcast in that fashion. I wonder how many I shall meet +going back?" + +And he returned slowly, unhappy when the crowd of passers-by interfered +with his vision. + +He knew the places where most were to be found. They swarmed in the +Palais Royal. Fewer were seen in the Avenue de 1'Opera than in the Rue +de la Paix, while the right side of the boulevard was more frequented by +them than the left. + +They also seemed to prefer certain cafes and theatres. Whenever he saw a +group of white-haired old gentlemen standing together in the middle of +the pavement, interfering with the traffic, he used to say to himself: + +"They are officers of the Legion of Honor," and he felt inclined to take +off his hat to them. + +He had often remarked that the officers had a different bearing to the +mere knights. They carried their head differently, and one felt that +they enjoyed a higher official consideration and a more widely extended +importance. + +Sometimes, however, the worthy man would be seized with a furious hatred +for every one who was decorated; he felt like a Socialist toward them. + +Then, when he got home, excited at meeting so many crosses--just as a +poor, hungry wretch might be on passing some dainty provision shop--he +used to ask in a loud voice: + +"When shall we get rid of this wretched government?" + +And his wife would be surprised, and ask: + +"What is the matter with you to-day?" + +"I am indignant," he replied, "at the injustice I see going on around us. +Oh, the Communards were certainly right!" + +After dinner he would go out again and look at the shops where the +decorations were sold, and he examined all the emblems of various shapes +and colors. He would have liked to possess them all, and to have walked +gravely at the head of a procession, with his crush hat under his arm and +his breast covered with decorations, radiant as a star, amid a buzz of +admiring whispers and a hum of respect. + +But, alas! he had no right to wear any decoration whatever. + +He used to say to himself: "It is really too difficult for any man to +obtain the Legion of Honor unless he is some public functionary. Suppose +I try to be appointed an officer of the Academy!" + +But he did not know how to set about it, and spoke on the subject to his +wife, who was stupefied. + +"Officer of the Academy! What have you done to deserve it?" + +He got angry. "I know what I am talking about. I only want to know how +to set about it. You are quite stupid at times." + +She smiled. "You are quite right. I don't understand anything about +it." + +An idea struck him: "Suppose you were to speak to M. Rosselin, the +deputy; he might be able to advise me. You understand I cannot broach +the subject to him directly. It is rather difficult and delicate, but +coming from you it might seem quite natural." + +Mme. Caillard did what he asked her, and M. Rosselin promised to speak to +the minister about it; and then Caillard began to worry him, till the +deputy told him he must make a formal application and put forward his +claims. + +"What were his charms?" he said. "He was not even a Bachelor of Arts." +However, he set to work and produced a pamphlet, with the title, "The +People's Right to Instruction," but he could not finish it for want of +ideas. + +He sought for easier subjects, and began several in succession. The +first was, "The Instruction of Children by Means of the Eye." He wanted +gratuitous theatres to be established in every poor quarter of Paris for +little children. Their parents were to take them there when they were +quite young, and, by means of a magic lantern, all the notions of human +knowledge were to be imparted to them. There were to be regular courses. +The sight would educate the mind, while the pictures would remain +impressed on the brain, and thus science would, so to say, be made +visible. What could be more simple than to teach universal history, +natural history, geography, botany, zoology, anatomy, etc., etc., in this +manner? + +He had his ideas printed in pamphlets, and sent a copy to each deputy, +ten to each minister, fifty to the President of the Republic, ten to each +Parisian, and five to each provincial newspaper. + +Then he wrote on "Street Lending-Libraries." His idea was to have little +pushcarts full of books drawn about the streets. Everyone would have a +right to ten volumes a month in his home on payment of one sou. + +"The people," M. Caillard said, "will only disturb itself for the sake of +its pleasures, and since it will not go to instruction, instruction must +come to it," etc., etc. + +His essays attracted no attention, but he sent in his application, and he +got the usual formal official reply. He thought himself sure of success, +but nothing came of it. + +Then he made up his mind to apply personally. He begged for an interview +with the Minister of Public Instruction, and he was received by a young +subordinate, who was very grave and important, and kept touching the +knobs of electric bells to summon ushers, and footmen, and officials +inferior to himself. He declared to M. Caillard that his matter was +going on quite favorably, and advised him to continue his remarkable +labors, and M. Caillard set at it again. + +M. Rosselin, the deputy, seemed now to take a great interest in his +success, and gave him a lot of excellent, practical advice. He, himself, +was decorated, although nobody knew exactly what he had done to deserve +such a distinction. + +He told Caillard what new studies he ought to undertake; he introduced +him to learned societies which took up particularly obscure points of +science, in the hope of gaining credit and honors thereby; and he even +took him under his wing at the ministry. + +One day, when he came to lunch with his friend--for several months past +he had constantly taken his meals there--he said to him in a whisper as +he shook hands: "I have just obtained a great favor for you. The +Committee of Historical Works is going to intrust you with a commission. +There are some researches to be made in various libraries in France." + +Caillard was so delighted that he could scarcely eat or drink, and a week +later he set out. He went from town to town, studying catalogues, +rummaging in lofts full of dusty volumes, and was hated by all the +librarians. + +One day, happening to be at Rouen, he thought he should like to go and +visit his wife, whom he had not seen for more than a week, so he took the +nine o'clock train, which would land him at home by twelve at night. + +He had his latchkey, so he went in without making any noise, delighted at +the idea of the surprise he was going to give her. She had locked +herself in. How tiresome! However, he cried out through the door: + +"Jeanne, it is I!" + +She must have been very frightened, for he heard her jump out of her bed +and speak to herself, as if she were in a dream. Then she went to her +dressing room, opened and closed the door, and went quickly up and down +her room barefoot two or three times, shaking the furniture till the +vases and glasses sounded. Then at last she asked: + +"Is it you, Alexander?" + +"Yes, yes," he replied; "make haste and open the door." + +As soon as she had done so, she threw herself into his arms, exclaiming: + +"Oh, what a fright! What a surprise! What a pleasure!" + +He began to undress himself methodically, as he did everything, and took +from a chair his overcoat, which he was in the habit of hanging up in the +hall. But suddenly he remained motionless, struck dumb with +astonishment--there was a red ribbon in the buttonhole: + +"Why," he stammered, "this--this--this overcoat has got the ribbon in +it!" + +In a second, his wife threw herself on him, and, taking it from his +hands, she said: + +"No! you have made a mistake--give it to me." + +But he still held it by one of the sleeves, without letting it go, +repeating in a half-dazed manner: + +"Oh! Why? Just explain-- Whose overcoat is it? It is not mine, as it +has the Legion of Honor on it." + +She tried to take it from him, terrified and hardly able to say: + +"Listen--listen! Give it to me! I must not tell you! It is a secret. +Listen to me!" + +But he grew angry and turned pale. + +"I want to know how this overcoat comes to be here? It does not belong +to me." + +Then she almost screamed at him: + +"Yes, it does; listen! Swear to me--well--you are decorated!" + +She did not intend to joke at his expense. + +He was so overcome that he let the overcoat fall and dropped into an +armchair. + +"I am--you say I am--decorated?" + +"Yes, but it is a secret, a great secret." + +She had put the glorious garment into a cupboard, and came to her husband +pale and trembling. + +"Yes," she continued, "it is a new overcoat that I have had made for you. +But I swore that I would not tell you anything about it, as it will not +be officially announced for a month or six weeks, and you were not to +have known till your return from your business journey. M. Rosselin +managed it for you." + +"Rosselin!" he contrived to utter in his joy. "He has obtained the +decoration for me? He--Oh!" + +And he was obliged to drink a glass of water. + +A little piece of white paper fell to the floor out of the pocket of the +overcoat. Caillard picked it up; it was a visiting card, and he read +out: + +"Rosselin-Deputy." + +"You see how it is," said his wife. + +He almost cried with joy, and, a week later, it was announced in the +Journal Officiel that M. Caillard had been awarded the Legion of Honor on +account of his exceptional services. + + + + + + +THE TEST + +The Bondels were a happy family, and although they frequently quarrelled +about trifles, they soon became friends again. + +Bondel was a merchant who had retired from active business after saving +enough to allow him to live quietly; he had rented a little house at +Saint-Germain and lived there with his wife. He was a quiet man with +very decided opinions; he had a certain degree of education and read +serious newspapers; nevertheless, he appreciated the gaulois wit. +Endowed with a logical mind, and that practical common sense which is the +master quality of the industrial French bourgeois, he thought little, but +clearly, and reached a decision only after careful consideration of the +matter in hand. He was of medium size, with a distinguished look, and +was beginning to turn gray. + +His wife, who was full of serious qualities, had also several faults. +She had a quick temper and a frankness that bordered upon violence. She +bore a grudge a long time. She had once been pretty, but had now become +too stout and too red; but in her neighborhood at Saint-Germain she still +passed for a very beautiful woman, who exemplified health and an +uncertain temper. + +Their dissensions almost always began at breakfast, over some trivial +matter, and they often continued all day and even until the following +day. Their simple, common, limited life imparted seriousness to the most +unimportant matters, and every topic of conversation became a subject of +dispute. This had not been so in the days when business occupied their +minds, drew their hearts together, and gave them common interests and +occupation. + +But at Saint-Germain they saw fewer people. It had been necessary to +make new acquaintances, to create for themselves a new world among +strangers, a new existence devoid of occupations. Then the monotony of +loneliness had soured each of them a little; and the quiet happiness +which they had hoped and waited for with the coming of riches did not +appear. + +One June morning, just as they were sitting down to breakfast, Bondel +asked: + +"Do you know the people who live in the little red cottage at the end of +the Rue du Berceau?" + +Madame Bondel was out of sorts. She answered: + +"Yes and no; I am acquainted with them, but I do not care to know them." + +"Why not? They seem to be very nice." + +"Because--" + +"This morning I met the husband on the terrace and we took a little walk +together." + +Seeing that there was danger in the air, Bendel added: "It was he who +spoke to me first." + +His wife looked at him in a displeased manner. She continued: "You would +have done just as well to avoid him." + +"Why?" + +"Because there are rumors about them." + +"What kind?" + +"Oh! rumors such as one often hears!" + +M. Bondel was, unfortunately, a little hasty. He exclaimed: + +"My dear, you know that I abhor gossip. As for those people, I find them +very pleasant." + +She asked testily: "The wife also?" + +"Why, yes; although I have barely seen her." + +The discussion gradually grew more heated, always on the same subject for +lack of others. Madame Bondel obstinately refused to say what she had +heard about these neighbors, allowing things to be understood without +saying exactly what they were. Bendel would shrug his shoulders, grin, +and exasperate his wife. She finally cried out: "Well! that gentleman is +deceived by his wife, there!" + +The husband answered quietly: "I can't see how that affects the honor of +a man." + +She seemed dumfounded: "What! you don't see? --you don't see? --well, +that's too much! You don't see! --why, it's a public scandal! he is +disgraced!" + +He answered: "Ah! by no means! Should a man be considered disgraced +because he is deceived, because he is betrayed, robbed? No, indeed! +I'll grant you that that may be the case for the wife, but as for him--" + +She became furious, exclaiming: "For him as well as for her. They are +both in disgrace; it's a public shame." + +Bondel, very calm, asked: "First of all, is it true? Who can assert such +a thing as long as no one has been caught in the act?" + +Madame Bondel was growing uneasy; she snapped: "What? Who can assert it? +Why, everybody! everybody! it's as clear as the nose on your face. +Everybody knows it and is talking about it. There is not the slightest +doubt." + +He was grinning: "For a long time people thought that the sun revolved +around the earth. This man loves his wife and speaks of her tenderly and +reverently. This whole business is nothing but lies!" + +Stamping her foot, she stammered: "Do you think that that fool, that +idiot, knows anything about it?" + +Bondel did not grow angry; he was reasoning clearly: "Excuse me. This +gentleman is no fool. He seemed to me, on the contrary, to be very +intelligent and shrewd; and you can't make me believe that a man with +brains doesn't notice such a thing in his own house, when the neighbors, +who are not there, are ignorant of no detail of this liaison--for I'll +warrant that they know everything." + +Madame Bondel had a fit of angry mirth, which irritated her husband's +nerves. She laughed: "Ha! ha! ha! they're all the same! There's not a +man alive who could discover a thing like that unless his nose was stuck +into it!" + +The discussion was wandering to other topics now. She was exclaiming +over the blindness of deceived husbands, a thing which he doubted and +which she affirmed with such airs of personal contempt that he finally +grew angry. Then the discussion became an angry quarrel, where she took +the side of the women and he defended the men. He had the conceit to +declare: "Well, I swear that if I had ever been deceived, I should have +noticed it, and immediately, too. And I should have taken away your +desire for such things in such a manner that it would have taken more +than one doctor to set you on foot again!" + +Boiling with anger, she cried out to him: "You! you! why, you're as big a +fool as the others, do you hear!" + +He still maintained: "I can swear to you that I am not!" + +She laughed so impertinently that he felt his heart beat and a chill run +down his back. For the third time he said: + +"I should have seen it!" + +She rose, still laughing in the same manner. She slammed the door and +left the room, saying: "Well! if that isn't too much!" + +Bondel remained alone, ill at ease. That insolent, provoking laugh had +touched him to the quick. He went outside, walked, dreamed. The +realization of the loneliness of his new life made him sad and morbid. +The neighbor, whom he had met that morning, came to him with outstretched +hands. They continued their walk together. After touching on various +subjects they came to talk of their wives. Both seemed to have something +to confide, something inexpressible, vague, about these beings associated +with their lives; their wives. The neighbor was saying: + +"Really, at times, one might think that they bear some particular ill- +will toward their husband, just because he is a husband. I love my wife +--I love her very much; I appreciate and respect her; well! there are +times when she seems to have more confidence and faith in our friends +than in me." + +Bondel immediately thought: "There is no doubt; my wife was right!" + +When he left this man he began to think things over again. He felt in +his soul a strange confusion of contradictory ideas, a sort of interior +burning; that mocking, impertinent laugh kept ringing in his ears and +seemed to say: "Why; you are just the same as the others, you fool!" That +was indeed bravado, one of those pieces of impudence of which a woman +makes use when she dares everything, risks everything, to wound and +humiliate the man who has aroused her ire. This poor man must also be +one of those deceived husbands, like so many others. He had said sadly: +"There are times when she seems to have more confidence and faith in our +friends than in me." That is how a husband formulated his observations +on the particular attentions of his wife for another man. That was all. +He had seen nothing more. He was like the rest--all the rest! + +And how strangely Bondel's own wife had laughed as she said: "You, too-- +you, too." How wild and imprudent these creatures are who can arouse +such suspicions in the heart for the sole purpose of revenge! + +He ran over their whole life since their marriage, reviewed his mental +list of their acquaintances, to see whether she had ever appeared to show +more confidence in any one else than in himself. He never had suspected +any one, he was so calm, so sure of her, so confident. + +But, now he thought of it, she had had a friend, an intimate friend, who +for almost a year had dined with them three times a week. Tancret, good +old Tancret, whom he, Bendel, loved as a brother and whom he continued to +see on the sly, since his wife, he did not know why, had grown angry at +the charming fellow. + +He stopped to think, looking over the past with anxious eyes. Then he +grew angry at himself for harboring this shameful insinuation of the +defiant, jealous, bad ego which lives in all of us. He blamed and +accused himself when he remembered the visits and the demeanor of this +friend whom his wife had dismissed for no apparent reason. But, +suddenly, other memories returned to him, similar ruptures due to the +vindictive character of Madame Bondel, who never pardoned a slight. Then +he laughed frankly at himself for the doubts which he had nursed; and he +remembered the angry looks of his wife as he would tell her, when he +returned at night: "I saw good old Tancret, and he wished to be +remembered to you," and he reassured himself. + +She would invariably answer: "When you see that gentleman you can tell +him that I can very well dispense with his remembrances." With what an +irritated, angry look she would say these words! How well one could feel +that she did not and would not forgive--and he had suspected her even for +a second? Such foolishness! + +But why did she grow so angry? She never had given the exact reason for +this quarrel. She still bore him that grudge! Was it? --But no--no--and +Bondel declared that he was lowering himself by even thinking of such +things. + +Yes, he was undoubtedly lowering himself, but he could not help thinking +of it, and he asked himself with terror if this thought which had entered +into his mind had not come to stop, if he did not carry in his heart the +seed of fearful torment. He knew himself; he was a man to think over his +doubts, as formerly he would ruminate over his commercial operations, for +days and nights, endlessly weighing the pros and the cons. + +He was already becoming excited; he was walking fast and losing his +calmness. A thought cannot be downed. It is intangible, cannot be +caught, cannot be killed. + +Suddenly a plan occurred to him; it was bold, so bold that at first he +doubted whether he would carry it out. + +Each time that he met Tancret, his friend would ask for news of Madame +Bondel, and Bondel would answer: "She is still a little angry." Nothing +more. Good Lord! What a fool he had been! Perhaps! + +Well, he would take the train to Paris, go to Tancret, and bring him back +with him that very evening, assuring him that his wife's mysterious anger +had disappeared. But how would Madame Bondel act? What a scene there +would be! What anger! what scandal! What of it?--that would be +revenge! When she should come face to face with him, unexpectedly, he +certainly ought to be able to read the truth in their expressions. + +He immediately went to the station, bought his ticket, got into the car, +and as soon as he felt him self being carried away by the train, he felt +a fear, a kind of dizziness, at what he was going to do. In order not to +weaken, back down, and return alone, he tried not to think of the matter +any longer, to bring his mind to bear on other affairs, to do what he had +decided to do with a blind resolution; and he began to hum tunes from +operettas and music halls until he reached Paris. + +As soon as he found himself walking along the streets that led to +Tancret's, he felt like stopping, He paused in front of several shops, +noticed the prices of certain objects, was interested in new things, felt +like taking a glass of beer, which was not his usual custom; and as he +approached his friend's dwelling he ardently hoped not meet him. But +Tancret was at home, alone, reading. He jumped up in surprise, crying: +"Ah! Bondel! what luck!" + +Bondel, embarrassed, answered: "Yes, my dear fellow, I happened to be in +Paris, and I thought I'd drop in and shake hands with you." + +"That's very nice, very nice! The more so that for some time you have +not favored me with your presence very often." + +"Well, you see--even against one's will, one is often influenced by +surrounding conditions, and as my wife seemed to bear you some ill-will" + +"Jove! 'seemed'--she did better than that, since she showed me the door." + +"What was the reason? I never heard it." + +"Oh! nothing at all--a bit of foolishness--a discussion in which we did +not both agree." + +"But what was the subject of this discussion?" + +"A lady of my acquaintance, whom you may perhaps know by name, Madame +Boutin." + +"Ah! really. Well, I think that my wife has forgotten her grudge, for +this very morning she spoke to me of you in very pleasant terms." + +Tancret started and seemed so dumfounded that for a few minutes he could +find nothing to say. Then he asked: "She spoke of me--in pleasant +terms?" + +"Yes." + +"You are sure?" + +"Of course I am. I am not dreaming." + +"And then?" + +"And then--as I was coming to Paris I thought that I would please you by +coming to tell you the good news." + +"Why, yes--why, yes--" + +Bondel appeared to hesitate; then, after a short pause, he added: "I even +had an idea." + +"What is it?" + +"To take you back home with me to dinner." + +Tancret, who was naturally prudent, seemed a little worried by this +proposition, and he asked: "Oh! really--is it possible? Are we not +exposing ourselves to--to--a scene?" + +"No, no, indeed!" + +"Because, you know, Madame Bendel bears malice for a long time." + +"Yes, but I can assure you that she no longer bears you any ill--will. +I am even convinced that it will be a great pleasure for her to see you +thus, unexpectedly." + +"Really?" + +"Yes, really!" + +"Well, then! let us go along. I am delighted. You see, this +misunderstanding was very unpleasant for me." + +They set out together toward the Saint-Lazare station, arm in arm. They +made the trip in silence. Both seemed absorbed in deep meditation. +Seated in the car, one opposite the other, they looked at each other +without speaking, each observing that the other was pale. + +Then they left the train and once more linked arms as if to unite against +some common danger. After a walk of a few minutes they stopped, a little +out of breath, before Bondel's house. Bondel ushered his friend into the +parlor, called the servant, and asked: "Is madame at home?" + +"Yes, monsieur." + +"Please ask her to come down at once." + +They dropped into two armchairs and waited. Both were filled with the +same longing to escape before the appearance of the much-feared person. + +A well-known, heavy tread could be heard descending the stairs. A hand +moved the knob, and both men watched the brass handle turn. Then the +door opened wide, and Madame Bondel stopped and looked to see who was +there before she entered. She looked, blushed, trembled, retreated a +step, then stood motionless, her cheeks aflame and her hands resting +against the sides of the door frame. + +Tancret, as pale as if about to faint, had arisen, letting fall his hat, +which rolled along the floor. He stammered out: "Mon Dieu--madame--it is +I--I thought--I ventured--I was so sorry--" + +As she did not answer, he continued: "Will you forgive me?" + +Then, quickly, carried away by some impulse, she walked toward him with +her hands outstretched; and when he had taken, pressed, and held these +two hands, she said, in a trembling, weak little voice, which was new to +her husband: + +"Ah! my dear friend--how happy I am!" + +And Bondel, who was watching them, felt an icy chill run over him, as if +he had been dipped in a cold bath. + + + + + + +FOUND ON A DROWNED MAN + +Madame, you ask me whether I am laughing at you? You cannot believe that +a man has never been in love. Well, then, no, no, I have never loved, +never! + +Why is this? I really cannot tell. I have never experienced that +intoxication of the heart which we call love! Never have I lived in that +dream, in that exaltation, in that state of madness into which the image +of a woman casts us. I have never been pursued, haunted, roused to fever +heat, lifted up to Paradise by the thought of meeting, or by the +possession of, a being who had suddenly become for me more desirable than +any good fortune, more beautiful than any other creature, of more +consequence than the whole world! I have never wept, I have never +suffered on account of any of you. I have not passed my nights +sleepless, while thinking of her. I have no experience of waking +thoughts bright with thought and memories of her. I have never known the +wild rapture of hope before her arrival, or the divine sadness of regret +when she went from me, leaving behind her a delicate odor of violet +powder. + +I have never been in love. + +I have also often asked myself why this is. And truly I can scarcely +tell. Nevertheless I have found some reasons for it; but they are of a +metaphysical character, and perhaps you will not be able to appreciate +them. + +I suppose I am too critical of women to submit to their fascination. I +ask you to forgive me for this remark. I will explain what I mean. In +every creature there is a moral being and a physical being. In order to +love, it would be necessary for me to find a harmony between these two +beings which I have never found. One always predominates; sometimes the +moral, sometimes the physical. + +The intellect which we have a right to require in a woman, in order to +love her, is not the same as the virile intellect. It is more, and it is +less. A woman must be frank, delicate, sensitive, refined, +impressionable. She has no need of either power or initiative in +thought, but she must have kindness, elegance, tenderness, coquetry and +that faculty of assimilation which, in a little while, raises her to an +equality with him who shares her life. Her greatest quality must be +tact, that subtle sense which is to the mind what touch is to the body. +It reveals to her a thousand little things, contours, angles and forms on +the plane of the intellectual. + +Very frequently pretty women have not intellect to correspond with their +personal charms. Now, the slightest lack of harmony strikes me and pains +me at the first glance. In friendship this is not of importance. +Friendship is a compact in which one fairly shares defects and merits. +We may judge of friends, whether man or woman, giving them credit for +what is good, and overlooking what is bad in them, appreciating them at +their just value, while giving ourselves up to an intimate, intense and +charming sympathy. + +In order to love, one must be blind, surrender one's self absolutely, see +nothing, question nothing, understand nothing. One must adore the +weakness as well as the beauty of the beloved object, renounce all +judgment, all reflection, all perspicacity. + +I am incapable of such blindness and rebel at unreasoning subjugation. +This is not all. I have such a high and subtle idea of harmony that +nothing can ever fulfill my ideal. But you will call me a madman. +Listen to me. A woman, in my opinion, may have an exquisite soul and +charming body without that body and that soul being in perfect harmony +with one another. I mean that persons who have noses made in a certain +shape should not be expected to think in a certain fashion. The fat have +no right to make use of the same words and phrases as the thin. You, who +have blue eyes, madame, cannot look at life and judge of things and +events as if you had black eyes. The shade of your eyes should +correspond, by a sort of fatality, with the shade of your thought. In +perceiving these things, I have the scent of a bloodhound. Laugh if you +like, but it is so. + +And yet, once I imagined that I was in love for an hour, for a day. +I had foolishly yielded to the influence of surrounding circumstances. +I allowed myself to be beguiled by a mirage of Dawn. Would you like me +to tell you this short story? + +I met, one evening, a pretty, enthusiastic little woman who took a poetic +fancy to spend a night with me in a boat on a river. I would have +preferred a room and a bed; however, I consented to the river and the +boat. + +It was in the month of June. My fair companion chose a moonlight night +in order the better to stimulate her imagination. + +We had dined at a riverside inn and set out in the boat about ten +o'clock. I thought it a rather foolish kind of adventure, but as my +companion pleased me I did not worry about it. I sat down on the seat +facing her; I seized the oars, and off we starred. + +I could not deny that the scene was picturesque. We glided past a wooded +isle full of nightingales, and the current carried us rapidly over the +river covered with silvery ripples. The tree toads uttered their shrill, +monotonous cry; the frogs croaked in the grass by the river's bank, and +the lapping of the water as it flowed on made around us a kind of +confused murmur almost imperceptible, disquieting, and gave us a vague +sensation of mysterious fear. + +The sweet charm of warm nights and of streams glittering in the moonlight +penetrated us. It was delightful to be alive and to float along thus, +and to dream and to feel at one's side a sympathetic and beautiful young +woman. + +I was somewhat affected, somewhat agitated, somewhat intoxicated by the +pale brightness of the night and the consciousness of my proximity to a +lovely woman. + +"Come and sit beside me," she said. + +I obeyed. + +She went on: + +"Recite some poetry for me." + +This appeared to be rather too much. I declined; she persisted. She +certainly wanted to play the game, to have a whole orchestra of +sentiment, from the moon to the rhymes of poets. In the end I had to +yield, and, as if in mockery, I repeated to her a charming little poem by +Louis Bouilhet, of which the following are the last verses: + + "I hate the poet who with tearful eye + Murmurs some name while gazing tow'rds a star, + Who sees no magic in the earth or sky, + Unless Lizette or Ninon be not far. + + "The bard who in all Nature nothing sees + Divine, unless a petticoat he ties + Amorously to the branches of the trees + Or nightcap to the grass, is scarcely wise. + + "He has not heard the Eternal's thunder tone, + The voice of Nature in her various moods, + Who cannot tread the dim ravines alone, + And of no woman dream mid whispering woods." + +I expected some reproaches. Nothing of the sort. She murmured: + +"How true it is!" + +I was astonished. Had she understood? + +Our boat had gradually approached the bank and become entangled in the +branches of a willow which impeded its progress. I placed my arm round +my companion's waist, and very gently approached my lips towards her +neck. But she repulsed me with an abrupt, angry movement. + +"Have done, pray! How rude you are!" + +I tried to draw her toward me. She resisted, caught hold of the tree, +and was near flinging us both into the water. I deemed it prudent to +cease my importunities. + +She said: + +"I would rather capsize you. I feel so happy. I want to dream. This is +so delightful." Then, in a slightly malicious tone, she added: + +"Have you already forgotten the verses you repeated to me just now?" + +She was right. I became silent. + +She went on: + +"Come, now!" + +And I plied the oars once more. + +I began to think the night long and my position ridiculous. + +My companion said to me: + +"Will you make me a promise?" + +"Yes. What is it?" + +"To remain quiet, well-behaved and discreet, if I permit you--" + +"What? Say what you mean!" + +"Here is what I mean: I want to lie down on my back at the bottom of the +boat with you by my side. But I forbid you to touch me, to embrace me-- +in short--to caress me." + +I promised. She said warningly: + +"If you move, 'I'll capsize the boat." + +And then we lay down side by side, our eyes turned toward the sky, while +the boat glided slowly through the water. We were rocked by its gentle +motion. The slight sounds of the night came to us more distinctly in the +bottom of the boat, sometimes causing us to start. And I felt springing +up within me a strange, poignant emotion, an infinite tenderness, +something like an irresistible impulse to open my arms in order to +embrace, to open my heart in order to love, to give myself, to give my +thoughts, my body, my life, my entire being to some one. + +My companion murmured, like one in a dream: + +"Where are we; Where are we going? It seems to me that I am leaving the +earth. How sweet it is! Ah, if you loved me--a little!!!" + +My heart began to throb. I had no answer to give. It seemed to me that +I loved her. I had no longer any violent desire. I felt happy there by +her side, and that was enough for me. + +And thus we remained for a long, long time without stirring. We had +clasped each other's hands; some delightful force rendered us motionless, +an unknown force stronger than ourselves, an alliance, chaste, intimate, +absolute, of our beings lying there side by side, belonging to each other +without contact. What was this? How do I know? Love, perhaps? + +Little by little the dawn appeared. It was three o'clock in the morning. +Slowly a great brightness spread over the sky. The boat knocked up +against something. I rose up. We had come close to a tiny islet. + +But I remained enchanted, in an ecstasy. Before us stretched the +firmament, red, pink, violet, spotted with fiery clouds resembling golden +vapor. The river was glowing with purple and three houses on one side of +it seemed to be burning. + +I bent toward my companion. I was going to say, "Oh! look!" But I held +my tongue, quite dazed, and I could no longer see anything except her. +She, too, was rosy, with rosy flesh tints with a deeper tinge that was +partly a reflection of the hue of the sky. Her tresses were rosy; her +eyes were rosy; her teeth were rosy; her dress, her laces, her smile, all +were rosy. And in truth I believed, so overpowering was the illusion, +that the dawn was there in the flesh before me. + +She rose softly to her feet, holding out her lips to me; and I moved +toward her, trembling, delirious feeling indeed that I was going to kiss +Heaven, to kiss happiness, to kiss a dream that had become a woman, to +kiss the ideal which had descended into human flesh. + +She said to me: "You have a caterpillar in your hair." And, suddenly, I +felt as sad as if I had lost all hope in life. + +That is all, madame. It is puerile, silly, stupid. But I am sure that +since that day it would be impossible for me to love. And yet--who can +tell? + +[The young man upon whom this letter was found was yesterday taken out of +the Seine between Bougival and Marly. An obliging bargeman, who had +searched the pockets in order to ascertain the name of the deceased, +brought this paper to the author.] + + + + + + +THE ORPHAN + +Mademoiselle Source had adopted this boy under very sad circumstances. +She was at the time thirty-six years old. Being disfigured through +having as a child slipped off her nurse's lap into the fireplace and +burned her face shockingly, she had determined not to marry, for she did +not want any man to marry her for her money. + +A neighbor of hers, left a widow just before her child was born, died in +giving birth, without leaving a sou. Mademoiselle Source took the new- +born child, put him out to nurse, reared him, sent him to a boarding- +school, then brought him home in his fourteenth year, in order to have in +her empty house somebody who would love her, who would look after her, +and make her old age pleasant. + +She had a little country place four leagues from Rennes, and she now +dispensed with a servant; her expenses having increased to more than +double since this orphan's arrival, her income of three thousand francs +was no longer sufficient to support three persons. + +She attended to the housekeeping and cooking herself, and sent out the +boy on errands, letting him also occupy himself in cultivating the +garden. He was gentle, timid, silent, and affectionate. And she +experienced a deep happiness, a fresh happiness when he kissed her +without surprise or horror at her disfigurement. He called her "Aunt," +and treated her as a mother. + +In the evening they both sat down at the fireside, and she made nice +little dainties for him. She heated some wine and toasted a slice of +bread, and it made a charming little meal before going to bed. She often +took him on her knees and covered him with kisses, murmuring tender words +in his ear. She called him: "My little flower, my cherub, my adored +angel, my divine jewel." He softly accepted her caresses, hiding his +head on the old maid's shoulder. Although he was now nearly fifteen, he +had remained small and weak, and had a rather sickly appearance. + +Sometimes Mademoiselle Source took him to the city, to see two married +female relatives of hers, distant cousins, who were living in the +suburbs, and who were the only members of her family in existence. The +two women had always found fault with her, for having adopted this boy, +on account of the inheritance; but for all that, they gave her a cordial +welcome, having still hopes of getting a share for themselves, a third, +no doubt, if what she possessed were only equally divided. + +She was happy, very happy, always occupied with her adopted child. She +bought books for him to improve his mind, and he became passionately fond +of reading. + +He no longer climbed on her knee to pet her as he had formerly done; but, +instead, would go and sit down in his little chair in the chimney-corner +and open a volume. The lamp placed at the edge of the Tittle table above +his head shone on his curly hair, and on a portion of his forehead; he +did not move, he did not raise his eyes or make any gesture. He read on, +interested, entirely absorbed in the story he was reading. + +Seated opposite to him, she would gaze at him earnestly, astonished at +his studiousness, often on the point of bursting into tears. + +She said to him occasionally: "You will fatigue yourself, my treasure!" +hoping that he would raise his head, and come across to embrace her; but +he did not even answer her; he had not heard or understood what she was +saying; he paid no attention to anything save what he read in those +pages. + +For two years he devoured an incalculable number of volumes. His +character changed. + +After this, he asked Mademoiselle Source several times for money, which +she gave him. As he always wanted more, she ended by refusing, for she +was both methodical and decided, and knew how to act rationally when it +was necessary to do so. By dint of entreaties he obtained a large sum +from her one night; but when he begged her for more a few days later, she +showed herself inflexible, and did not give way to him further, in fact. + +He appeared to be satisfied with her decision. + +He again became quiet, as he had formerly been, remaining seated for +entire hours, without moving, plunged in deep reverie. He now did not +even talk to Madame Source, merely answering her remarks with short, +formal words. Nevertheless, he was agreeable and attentive in his manner +toward her; but he never embraced her now. + +She had by this time grown slightly afraid of him when they sat facing +one another at night on opposite sides of the fireplace. She wanted to +wake him up, to make him say something, no matter what, that would break +this dreadful silence, which was like the darkness of a wood. But he did +not appear to listen to her, and she shuddered with the terror of a poor +feeble woman when she had spoken to him five or six times successively +without being able to get a word out of him. + +What was the matter with him? What was going on in that closed-up head? +When she had remained thus two or three hours opposite him, she felt as +if she were going insane, and longed to rush away and to escape into the +open country in order to avoid that mute, eternal companionship and also +some vague danger, which she could not define, but of which she had a +presentiment. + +She frequently wept when she was alone. What was the matter with him? +When she expressed a wish, he unmurmuringly carried it into execution. +When she wanted anything brought from the city, he immediately went there +to procure it. She had no complaint to make of him; no, indeed! And +yet---- + +Another year flitted by, and it seemed to her that a fresh change had +taken place in the mind of the young man. She perceived it; she felt it; +she divined it. How? No matter! She was sure she was not mistaken; but +she could not have explained in what manner the unknown thoughts of this +strange youth had changed. + +It seemed to her that, until now, he had been like a person in a +hesitating frame of mind, who had suddenly arrived at a determination. +This idea came to her one evening as she met his glance, a fixed, +singular glance which she had not seen in his face before. + +Then he commenced to watch her incessantly, and she wished she could hide +herself in order to avoid that cold eye riveted on her. + +He kept staring at her, evening after evening, for hours together, only +averting his eyes when she said, utterly unnerved: + +"Do not look at me like that, my child!" + +Then he would lower his head. + +But the moment her back was turned she once more felt that his eyes were +upon her. Wherever she went, he pursued her with his persistent gaze. + +Sometimes, when she was walking in her little garden, she suddenly +noticed him hidden behind a bush, as if he were lying in wait for her; +and, again, when she sat in front of the house mending stockings while he +was digging some vegetable bed, he kept continually watching her in a +surreptitious manner, as he worked. + +It was in vain that she asked him: + +"What's the matter with you, my boy? For the last three years, you have +become very different. I don't recognize you. Do tell me what ails you, +and what you are thinking of." + +He invariably replied, in a quiet, weary tone: + +"Why, nothing ails me, aunt!" + +And when she persisted: + +"Ah! my child, answer me, answer me when I speak to you. If you knew +what grief you caused me, you would always answer, and you would not look +at me that way. Have you any trouble? Tell me! I'll comfort you!" + +He went away, with a tired air, murmuring: + +"But there is nothing the matter with me, I assure you." + +He had not grown much, having always a childish look, although his +features were those of a man. They were, however, hard and badly cut. +He seemed incomplete, abortive, only half finished, and disquieting as a +mystery. He was a self-contained, unapproachable being, in whom there +seemed always to be some active, dangerous mental labor going on. +Mademoiselle Source was quite conscious of all this, and she could not +sleep at night, so great was her anxiety. Frightful terrors, dreadful +nightmares assailed her. She shut herself up in her own room, and +barricaded the door, tortured by fear. + +What was she afraid of? She could not tell. + +She feared everything, the night, the walls, the shadows thrown by the +moon on the white curtains of the windows, and, above all, she feared +him. + +Why? + +What had she to fear? Did she know what it was? + +She could live this way no longer! She felt certain that a misfortune +threatened her, a frightful misfortune. + +She set forth secretly one morning, and went into the city to see her +relatives. She told them about the matter in a gasping voice. The two +women thought she was going mad and tried to reassure her. + +She said: + +"If you knew the way he looks at me from morning till night. He never +takes his eyes off me! At times, I feel a longing to cry for help, to +call in the neighbors, so much am I afraid. But what could I say to +them? He does nothing but look at me." + +The two female cousins asked: + +"Is he ever brutal to you? Does he give you sharp answers?" + +She replied: + +"No, never; he does everything I wish; he works hard: he is steady; but I +am so frightened that I care nothing for that. He is planning something, +I am certain of that--quite certain. I don't care to remain all alone +like that with him in the country." + +The relatives, astonished at her words, declared that people would be +amazed, would not understand; and they advised her to keep silent about +her fears and her plans, without, however, dissuading her from coming to +reside in the city, hoping in that way that the entire inheritance would +eventually fall into their hands. + +They even promised to assist her in selling her house, and in finding +another, near them. + +Mademoiselle Source returned home. But her mind was so much upset that +she trembled at the slightest noise, and her hands shook whenever any +trifling disturbance agitated her. + +Twice she went again to consult her relatives, quite determined now not +to remain any longer in this way in her lonely dwelling. At last, she +found a little cottage in the suburbs, which suited her, and she +privately bought it. + +The signature of the contract took place on a Tuesday morning, and +Mademoiselle Source devoted the rest of the day to the preparations for +her change of residence. + +At eight o'clock in the evening she got into the diligence which passed +within a few hundred yards of her house, and she told the conductor to +put her down in the place where she usually alighted. The man called out +to her as he whipped his horses: + +"Good evening, Mademoiselle Source--good night!" + +She replied as she walked on: + +"Good evening, Pere Joseph." Next morning, at half-past seven, the +postman who conveyed letters to the village noticed at the cross-road, +not far from the high road, a large splash of blood not yet dry. He said +to himself: "Hallo! some boozer must have had a nose bleed." + +But he perceived ten paces farther on a pocket handkerchief also stained +with blood. He picked it up. The linen was fine, and the postman, in +alarm, made his way over to the ditch, where he fancied he saw a strange +object. + +Mademoiselle Source was lying at the bottom on the grass, her throat cut +with a knife. + +An hour later, the gendarmes, the examining magistrate, and other +authorities made an inquiry as to the cause of death. + +The two female relatives, called as witnesses, told all about the old +maid's fears and her last plans. + +The orphan was arrested. After the death of the woman who had adopted +him, he wept from morning till night, plunged, at least to all +appearance, in the most violent grief. + +He proved that he had spent the evening up to eleven o'clock in a cafe. +Ten persons had seen him, having remained there till his departure. + +The driver of the diligence stated that he had set down the murdered +woman on the road between half-past nine and ten o'clock. + +The accused was acquitted. A will, drawn up a long time before, which +had been left in the hands of a notary in Rennes, made him sole heir. +So he inherited everything. + +For a long time, the people of the country boycotted him, as they still +suspected him. His house, that of the dead woman, was looked upon as +accursed. People avoided him in the street. + +But he showed himself so good-natured, so open, so familiar, that +gradually these horrible doubts were forgotten. He was generous, +obliging, ready to talk to the humblest about anything, as long as they +cared to talk to him. + +The notary, Maitre Rameau, was one of the first to take his part, +attracted by his smiling loquacity. He said at a dinner, at the tax +collector's house: + +"A man who speaks with such facility and who is always in good humor +could not have such a crime on his conscience." + +Touched by his argument, the others who were present reflected, and they +recalled to mind the long conversations with this man who would almost +compel them to stop at the road corners to listen to his ideas, who +insisted on their going into his house when they were passing by his +garden, who could crack a joke better than the lieutenant of the +gendarmes himself, and who possessed such contagious gaiety that, in +spite of the repugnance with which he inspired them, they could not keep +from always laughing in his company. + +All doors were opened to him after a time. + +He is to-day the mayor of his township. + + + + + + +THE BEGGAR + +He had seen better days, despite his present misery and infirmities. + +At the age of fifteen both his legs had been crushed by a carriage on the +Varville highway. From that time forth he begged, dragging himself along +the roads and through the farmyards, supported by crutches which forced +his shoulders up to his ears. His head looked as if it were squeezed in +between two mountains. + +A foundling, picked up out of a ditch by the priest of Les Billettes on +the eve of All Saints' Day and baptized, for that reason, Nicholas +Toussaint, reared by charity, utterly without education, crippled in +consequence of having drunk several glasses of brandy given him by the +baker (such a funny story!) and a vagabond all his life afterward--the +only thing he knew how to do was to hold out his hand for alms. + +At one time the Baroness d'Avary allowed him to sleep in a kind of recess +spread with straw, close to the poultry yard in the farm adjoining the +chateau, and if he was in great need he was sure of getting a glass of +cider and a crust of bread in the kitchen. Moreover, the old lady often +threw him a few pennies from her window. But she was dead now. + +In the villages people gave him scarcely anything--he was too well known. +Everybody had grown tired of seeing him, day after day for forty years, +dragging his deformed and tattered person from door to door on his wooden +crutches. But he could not make up his mind to go elsewhere, because he +knew no place on earth but this particular corner of the country, these +three or four villages where he had spent the whole of his miserable +existence. He had limited his begging operations and would not for +worlds have passed his accustomed bounds. + +He did not even know whether the world extended for any distance beyond +the trees which had always bounded his vision. He did not ask himself +the question. And when the peasants, tired of constantly meeting him in +their fields or along their lanes, exclaimed: "Why don't you go to other +villages instead of always limping about here?" he did not answer, but +slunk away, possessed with a vague dread of the unknown--the dread of a +poor wretch who fears confusedly a thousand things--new faces, taunts, +insults, the suspicious glances of people who do not know him and the +policemen walking in couples on the roads. These last he always +instinctively avoided, taking refuge in the bushes or behind heaps of +stones when he saw them coming. + +When he perceived them in the distance, 'With uniforms gleaming in the +sun, he was suddenly possessed with unwonted agility--the agility of a +wild animal seeking its lair. He threw aside his crutches, fell to the +ground like a limp rag, made himself as small as possible and crouched +like a bare under cover, his tattered vestments blending in hue with the +earth on which he cowered. + +He had never had any trouble with the police, but the instinct to avoid +them was in his blood. He seemed to have inherited it from the parents +he had never known. + +He had no refuge, no roof for his head, no shelter of any kind. In +summer he slept out of doors and in winter he showed remarkable skill in +slipping unperceived into barns and stables. He always decamped before +his presence could be discovered. He knew all the holes through which +one could creep into farm buildings, and the handling of his crutches +having made his arms surprisingly muscular he often hauled himself up +through sheer strength of wrist into hay-lofts, where he sometimes +remained for four or five days at a time, provided he had collected a +sufficient store of food beforehand. + +He lived like the beasts of the field. He was in the midst of men, yet +knew no one, loved no one, exciting in the breasts of the peasants only a +sort of careless contempt and smoldering hostility. They nicknamed him +"Bell," because he hung between his two crutches like a church bell +between its supports. + +For two days he had eaten nothing. No one gave him anything now. Every +one's patience was exhausted. Women shouted to him from their doorsteps +when they saw him coming: + +"Be off with you, you good-for-nothing vagabond! Why, I gave you a piece +of bread only three days ago! + +And he turned on his crutches to the next house, where he was received in +the same fashion. + +The women declared to one another as they stood at their doors: + +"We can't feed that lazy brute all the year round!" + +And yet the "lazy brute" needed food every day. + +He had exhausted Saint-Hilaire, Varville and Les Billettes without +getting a single copper or so much as a dry crust. His only hope was in +Tournolles, but to reach this place he would have to walk five miles +along the highroad, and he felt so weary that he could hardly drag +himself another yard. His stomach and his pocket were equally empty, but +he started on his way. + +It was December and a cold wind blew over the fields and whistled through +the bare branches of the trees; the clouds careered madly across the +black, threatening sky. The cripple dragged himself slowly along, +raising one crutch after the other with a painful effort, propping +himself on the one distorted leg which remained to him. + +Now and then he sat down beside a ditch for a few moments' rest. Hunger +was gnawing his vitals, and in his confused, slow-working mind he had +only one idea-to eat-but how this was to be accomplished he did not know. +For three hours he continued his painful journey. Then at last the sight +of the trees of the village inspired him with new energy. + +The first peasant he met, and of whom he asked alms, replied: + +"So it's you again, is it, you old scamp? Shall I never be rid of you?" + +And "Bell" went on his way. At every door he got nothing but hard words. +He made the round of the whole village, but received not a halfpenny for +his pains. + +Then he visited the neighboring farms, toiling through the muddy land, so +exhausted that he could hardly raise his crutches from the ground. He +met with the same reception everywhere. It was one of those cold, bleak +days, when the heart is frozen and the temper irritable, and hands do not +open either to give money or food. + +When he had visited all the houses he knew, "Bell" sank down in the +corner of a ditch running across Chiquet's farmyard. Letting his +crutches slip to the ground, he remained motionless, tortured by hunger, +but hardly intelligent enough to realize to the full his unutterable +misery. + +He awaited he knew not what, possessed with that vague hope which +persists in the human heart in spite of everything. He awaited in the +corner of the farmyard in the biting December wind, some mysterious aid +from Heaven or from men, without the least idea whence it was to arrive. +A number of black hens ran hither and thither, seeking their food in the +earth which supports all living things. Ever now and then they snapped +up in their beaks a grain of corn or a tiny insect; then they continued +their slow, sure search for nutriment. + +"Bell" watched them at first without thinking of anything. Then a +thought occurred rather to his stomach than to his mind--the thought that +one of those fowls would be good to eat if it were cooked over a fire of +dead wood. + +He did not reflect that he was going to commit a theft. He took up a +stone which lay within reach, and, being of skillful aim, killed at the +first shot the fowl nearest to him. The bird fell on its side, flapping +its wings. The others fled wildly hither and thither, and "Bell," +picking up his crutches, limped across to where his victim lay. + +Just as he reached the little black body with its crimsoned head he +received a violent blow in his back which made him let go his hold of his +crutches and sent him flying ten paces distant. And Farmer Chiquet, +beside himself with rage, cuffed and kicked the marauder with all the +fury of a plundered peasant as "Bell" lay defenceless before him. + +The farm hands came up also and joined their master in cuffing the lame +beggar. Then when they were tired of beating him they carried him off +and shut him up in the woodshed, while they went to fetch the police. + +"Bell," half dead, bleeding and perishing with hunger, lay on the floor. +Evening came--then night--then dawn. And still he had not eaten. + +About midday the police arrived. They opened the door of the woodshed +with the utmost precaution, fearing resistance on the beggar's part, for +Farmer Chiquet asserted that he had been attacked by him and had had +great, difficulty in defending himself. + +The sergeant cried: + +"Come, get up!" + +But "Bell" could not move. He did his best to raise himself on his +crutches, but without success. The police, thinking his weakness +feigned, pulled him up by main force and set him between the crutches. + +Fear seized him--his native fear of a uniform, the fear of the game in +presence of the sportsman, the fear of a mouse for a cat-and by the +exercise of almost superhuman effort he succeeded in remaining upright. + +"Forward!" said the sergeant. He walked. All the inmates of the farm +watched his departure. The women shook their fists at him the men +scoffed at and insulted him. He was taken at last! Good riddance! +He went off between his two guards. He mustered sufficient energy--the +energy of despair--to drag himself along until the evening, too dazed to +know what was happening to him, too frightened to understand. + +People whom he met on the road stopped to watch him go by and peasants +muttered: + +"It's some thief or other." + +Toward evening he reached the country town. He had never been so far +before. He did not realize in the least what he was there for or what +was to become of him. All the terrible and unexpected events of the last +two days, all these unfamiliar faces and houses struck dismay into his +heart. + +He said not a word, having nothing to say because he understood nothing. +Besides, he had spoken to no one for so many years past that he had +almost lost the use of his tongue, and his thoughts were too +indeterminate to be put into words. + +He was shut up in the town jail. It did not occur to the police that he +might need food, and he was left alone until the following day. +But when in the early morning they came to examine him he was found dead +on the floor. Such an astonishing thing! + + + + + + +THE RABBIT + +Old Lecacheur appeared at the door of his house between five and a +quarter past five in the morning, his usual hour, to watch his men going +to work. + +He was only half awake, his face was red, and with his right eye open and +the left nearly closed, he was buttoning his braces over his fat stomach +with some difficulty, at the same time looking into every corner of the +farmyard with a searching glance. The sun darted its oblique rays +through the beech trees by the side of the ditch and athwart the apple +trees outside, and was making the cocks crow on the dunghill, and the +pigeons coo on the roof. The smell of the cow stable came through the +open door, and blended in the fresh morning air with the pungent odor of +the stable, where the horses were neighing, with their heads turned +toward the light. + +As soon as his trousers were properly fastened, Lecacheur came out, and +went, first of all, toward the hen house to count the morning's eggs, for +he had been afraid of thefts for some time; but the servant girl ran up +to him with lifted arms and cried: + +"Master! master! they have stolen a rabbit during the night." + +"A rabbit?" + +"Yes, master, the big gray rabbit, from the hutch on the left"; whereupon +the farmer completely opened his left eye, and said, simply: + +"I must see about that." + +And off he went to inspect it. The hutch had been broken open and the +rabbit was gone. Then he became thoughtful, closed his right eye again, +and scratched his nose, and after a little consideration, he said to the +frightened girl, who was standing stupidly before her master: + +"Go and fetch the gendarmes; say I expect them as soon as possible." + +Lecacheur was mayor of the village, Pavigny-le-Gras, and ruled it like a +master, on account of his money and position, and as soon as the servant +had disappeared in the direction of the village, which was only about +five hundred yards off, he went into the house to have his morning coffee +and to discuss the matter with his wife, whom he found on her knees in +front of the fire, trying to make it burn quickly, and as soon as he got +to the door, he said: + +"Somebody has stolen the gray rabbit." + +She turned round so suddenly that she found herself sitting on the floor, +and looking at her husband with distressed eyes, she said: + +"What is it, Cacheux? Somebody has stolen a rabbit?" + +"The big gray one." + +She sighed. + +"What a shame! Who can have done it?" + +She was a little, thin, active, neat woman, who knew all about farming. +Lecacheur had his own ideas about the matter. + +"It must be that fellow, Polyte." + +His wife got up suddenly and said in a furious voice: + +"He did it! he did it! You need not look for any one else. He did it! +You have said it, Cacheux!" + +All her peasant's fury, all her avarice, all her rage of a saving woman +against the man of whom she had always been suspicious, and against the +girl whom she had always suspected, showed themselves in the contraction +of her mouth, and the wrinkles in the cheeks and forehead of her thin, +exasperated face. + +"And what have you done?" she asked. + +"I have sent for the gendarmes." + +This Polyte was a laborer, who had been employed on the farm for a few +days, and who had been dismissed by Lecacheur for an insolent answer. He +was an old soldier, and was supposed to have retained his habits of +marauding and debauchery front his campaigns in Africa. He did anything +for a livelihood, but whether he were a mason, a navvy, a reaper, whether +he broke stones or lopped trees, he was always lazy, and so he remained +nowhere for long, and had, at times, to change his neighborhood to obtain +work. + +From the first day that he came to the farm, Lecacheur's wife had +detested him, and now she was sure that he had committed the theft. + +In about half an hour the two gendarmes arrived. Brigadier Senateur was +very tall and thin, and Gendarme Lenient short and fat. Lecacheur made +them sit down, and told them the affair, and then they went and saw the +scene of the theft, in order to verify the fact that the hutch had been +broken open, and to collect all the proofs they could. When they got +back to the kitchen, the mistress brought in some wine, filled their +glasses, and asked with a distrustful look: + +"Shall you catch him?" + +The brigadier, who had his sword between his legs, appeared thoughtful. +Certainly, he was sure of taking him, if he was pointed out to him, but +if not, he could not answer for being able to discover him, himself, and +after reflecting for a long time, he put this simple question: + +"Do you know the thief?" + +And Lecacheur replied, with a look of Normandy slyness in his eyes: + +"As for knowing him, I do not, as I did not see him commit the theft. +If I had seen him, I should have made him eat it raw, skin and flesh, +without a drop of cider to wash it down. But as for saying who it is, +I cannot, although I believe it is that good-for-nothing Polyte." + +Then he related at length his troubles with Polyte, his leaving his +service, his bad reputation, things which had been told him, accumulating +insignificant and minute proofs, and then, the brigadier, who had been +listening very attentively while he emptied his glass and filled it again +with an indifferent air, turned to his gendarme and said: + +"We must go and look in the cottage of Severin's wife." At which the +gendarme smiled and nodded three times. + +Then Madame Lecacheur came to them, and very quietly, with all a +peasant's cunning, questioned the brigadier in her turn. That shepherd +Severin, a simpleton, a sort of brute who had been brought up and had +grown up among his bleating flocks, and who knew scarcely anything +besides them in the world, had nevertheless preserved the peasant's +instinct for saving, at the bottom of his heart. For years and years he +must have hidden in hollow trees and crevices in the rocks all that he +earned, either as a shepherd or by curing animals' sprains--for the +bonesetter's secret had been handed down to him by the old shepherd whose +place he took-by touch or word, and one day he bought a small property, +consisting of a cottage and a field, for three thousand francs. + +A few months later it became known that he was going to marry a servant, +notorious for her bad morals, the innkeeper's servant. The young fellows +said that the girl, knowing that he was pretty well off, had been to his +cottage every night, and had taken him, captured him, led him on to +matrimony, little by little night by night. + +And then, having been to the mayor's office and to church, she now lived +in the house which her man had bought, while he continued to tend his +flocks, day and night, on the plains. + +And the brigadier added: + +"Polyte has been sleeping there for three weeks, for the thief has no +place of his own to go to!" + +The gendarme made a little joke: + +"He takes the shepherd's blankets." + +Madame Lecacheur, who was seized by a fresh access of rage, of rage +increased by a married woman's anger against debauchery, exclaimed: + +"It is she, I am sure. Go there. Ah, the blackguard thieves! + +But the brigadier was quite unmoved. + +"One minute," he said. "Let us wait until twelve o'clock, as he goes and +dines there every day. I shall catch them with it under their noses." + +The gendarme smiled, pleased at his chief's idea, and Lecacheur also +smiled now, for the affair of the shepherd struck him as very funny; +deceived husbands are always a joke. + +Twelve o'clock had just struck when the brigadier, followed by his man, +knocked gently three times at the door of a little lonely house, situated +at the corner of a wood, five hundred yards from the village. + +They had been standing close against the wall, so as not to be seen from +within, and they waited. As nobody answered, the brigadier knocked again +in a minute or two. It was so quiet that the house seemed uninhabited; +but Lenient, the gendarme, who had very quick ears, said that he heard +somebody moving about inside, and then Senateur got angry. He would not +allow any one to resist the authority of the law for a moment, and, +knocking at the door with the hilt of his sword, he cried out: + +"Open the door, in the name of the law." + +As this order had no effect, he roared out: + +"If you do not obey, I shall smash the lock. I am the brigadier of the +gendarmerie, by G--! Here, Lenient." + +He had not finished speaking when the door opened and Senateur saw before +him a fat girl, with a very red, blowzy face, with drooping breasts, a +big stomach and broad hips, a sort of animal, the wife of the shepherd +Severin, and he went into the cottage. + +"I have come to pay you a visit, as I want to make a little search," he +said, and he looked about him. On the table there was a plate, a jug of +cider and a glass half full, which proved that a meal was in progress. +Two knives were lying side by side, and the shrewd gendarme winked at his +superior officer. + +"It smells good," the latter said. + +"One might swear that it was stewed rabbit," Lenient added, much amused. + +"Will you have a glass of brandy?" the peasant woman asked. + +"No, thank you; I only want the skin of the rabbit that you are eating." + +She pretended not to understand, but she was trembling. + +"What rabbit?" + +The brigadier had taken a seat, and was calmly wiping his forehead. + +"Come, come, you are not going to try and make us believe that you live +on couch grass. What were you eating there all by yourself for your +dinner?" + +"I? Nothing whatever, I swear to you. A mite of butter on my bread." + +"You are a novice, my good woman. A mite of butter on your bread. +You are mistaken; you ought to have said: a mite of butter on the rabbit. +By G--,your butter smells good! It is special butter, extra good butter, +butter fit for a wedding; certainly, not household butter!" + +The gendarme was shaking with laughter, and repeated: + +"Not household butter certainly." + +As Brigadier Senateur was a joker, all the gendarmes had grown facetious, +and the officer continued: + +"Where is your butter?" + +"My butter?" + +"Yes, your butter." + +"In the jar." + +"Then where is the butter jar?" + +"Here it is." + +She brought out an old cup, at the bottom of which there was a layer of +rancid salt butter, and the brigadier smelled of it, and said, with a +shake of his head: + +"It is not the same. I want the butter that smells of the rabbit. Come, +Lenient, open your eyes; look under the sideboard, my good fellow, and I +will look under the bed." + +Having shut the door, he went up to the bed and tried to move it; but it +was fixed to the wall, and had not been moved for more than half a +century, apparently. Then the brigadier stooped, and made his uniform +crack. A button had flown off. + +"Lenient," he said. + +"Yes, brigadier?" + +"Come here, my lad, and look under the bed; I am too tall. I will look +after the sideboard." + +He got up and waited while his man executed his orders. + +Lenient, who was short and stout, took off his kepi, laid himself on his +stomach, and, putting his face on the floor, looked at the black cavity +under the bed, and then, suddenly, he exclaimed: + +"All right, here we are!" + +"What have you got? The rabbit?" + +"No, the thief." + +"The thief! Pull him out, pull him out!" + +The gendarme had put his arms under the bed and laid hold of something, +and he was pulling with all his might, and at last a foot, shod in a +thick boot, appeared, which he was holding in his right hand. The +brigadier took it, crying: + +"Pull! Pull!" + +And Lenient, who was on his knees by that time, was pulling at the other +leg. But it was a hard job, for the prisoner kicked out hard, and arched +up his back under the bed. + +"Courage! courage! pull! pull!" Senateur cried, and they pulled him +with all their strength, so that the wooden slat gave way, and he came +out as far as his head; but at last they got that out also, and they saw +the terrified and furious face of Polyte, whose arms remained stretched +out under the bed. + +"Pull away!" the brigadier kept on exclaiming. Then they heard a strange +noise, and as the arms followed the shoulders, and the hands the arms, +they saw in the hands the handle of a saucepan, and at the end of the +handle the saucepan itself, which contained stewed rabbit. + +"Good Lord! good Lord!" the brigadier shouted in his delight, while +Lenient took charge of the man; the rabbit's skin, an overwhelming proof, +was discovered under the mattress, and then the gendarmes returned in +triumph to the village with their prisoner and their booty. + +A week later, as the affair had made much stir, Lecacheur, on going into +the mairie to consult the schoolmaster, was told that the shepherd +Severin had been waiting for him for more than an hour, and he found him +sitting on a chair in a corner, with his stick between his legs. When he +saw the mayor, he got up, took off his cap, and said: + +"Good-morning, Maitre Cacheux"; and then he remained standing, timid and +embarrassed. + +"What do you want?" the former said. + +"This is it, monsieur. Is it true that somebody stole one of your +rabbits last week?" + +"Yes, it is quite true, Severin." + +"Who stole the rabbit?" + +"Polyte Ancas, the laborer." + +"Right! right! And is it also true that it was found under my bed?" + +"What do you mean, the rabbit?" + +"The rabbit and then Polyte." + +"Yes, my poor Severin, quite true, but who told you?" + +"Pretty well everybody. I understand! And I suppose you know all about +marriages, as you marry people?" + +"What about marriage?" + +"With regard to one's rights." + +"What rights?" + +"The husband's rights and then the wife's rights." + +"Of course I do." + +"Oh! Then just tell me, M'sieu Cacheux, has my wife the right to go to +bed with Polyte?" + +"What, to go to bed with Polyte?" + +"Yes, has she any right before the law, and, seeing that she is my wife, +to go to bed with Polyte?" + +"Why, of course not, of course not." + +"If I catch him there again, shall I have the right to thrash him and her +also?" + +"Why--why--why, yes." + +"Very well, then; I will tell you why I want to know. One night last +week, as I had my suspicions, I came in suddenly, and they were not +behaving properly. I chucked Polyte out, to go and sleep somewhere else; +but that was all, as I did not know what my rights were. This time I did +not see them; I only heard of it from others. That is over, and we will +not say any more about it; but if I catch them again--by G--, if I catch +them again, I will make them lose all taste for such nonsense, Maitre +Cacheux, as sure as my name is Severin." + + + + + + +HIS AVENGER + +When M. Antoine Leuillet married the widow, Madame Mathilde Souris, he +had already been in love with her for ten years. + +M. Souris has been his friend, his old college chum. Leuillet was very +much attached to him, but thought he was somewhat of a simpleton. He +would often remark: "That poor Souris who will never set the world on +fire." + +When Souris married Miss Mathilde Duval, Leuillet was astonished and +somewhat annoyed, as he was slightly devoted to her, himself. She was +the daughter of a neighbor, a former proprietor of a draper's +establishment who had retired with quite a small fortune. She married +Souris for his money. + +Then Leuillet thought he would start a flirtation with his friend's wife. +He was a good-looking man, intelligent and also rich. He thought it +would be all plain sailing, but he was mistaken. Then he really began to +admire her with an admiration that his friendship for the husband obliged +him to keep within the bounds of discretion, making him timid and +embarrassed. Madame Souris believing that his presumptions had received +a wholesome check now treated him as a good friend. This went on for +nine years. + +One morning a messenger brought Leuillet a distracted note from the poor +woman. Souris had just died suddenly from the rupture of an aneurism. +He was dreadfully shocked, for they were just the same age. But almost +immediately a feeling of profound joy, of intense relief, of emancipation +filled his being. Madame Souris was free. + +He managed, however, to assume the sad, sympathetic expression that was +appropriate, waited the required time, observed all social appearances. +At the end of fifteen months he married the widow. + +This was considered to be a very natural, and even a generous action. It +was the act of a good friend of an upright man. + +He was happy at last, perfectly happy. + +They lived in the most cordial intimacy, having understood and +appreciated each other from the first. They had no secrets from one +another and even confided to each other their most secret thoughts. +Leuillet loved his wife now with a quiet and trustful affection; he loved +her as a tender, devoted companion who is an equal and a confidante. +But there lingered in his mind a strange and inexplicable bitterness +towards the defunct Souris, who had first been the husband of this woman, +who had had the flower of her youth and of her soul, and had even robbed +her of some of her poetry. The memory of the dead husband marred the +happiness of the living husband, and this posthumous jealousy tormented +his heart by day and by night. + +The consequence was he talked incessantly of Souris, asked about a +thousand personal and secret minutia, wanted to know all about his habits +and his person. And he sneered at him even in his grave, recalling with +self-satisfaction his whims, ridiculing his absurdities, dwelling on his +faults. + +He would call to his wife all over the house: + +"Hallo, Mathilde!" + +"Here I am, dear." + +"Come here a moment." + +She would come, always smiling, knowing well that he would say something +about Souris and ready to flatter her new husband's inoffensive mania. + +"Tell me, do you remember one day how Souris insisted on explaining to me +that little men always commanded more affection than big men?" + +And he made some remarks that were disparaging to the deceased, who was a +small man, and decidedly flattering to himself, Leuillet, who was a tall +man. + +Mme. Leuillet allowed him to think he was right, quite right, and she +laughed heartily, gently ridiculing her former husband for the sake of +pleasing the present one, who always ended by saying: + +"All the same, what a ninny that Souris was!" + +They were happy, quite happy, and Leuillet never ceased to show his +devotion to his wife. + +One night, however, as they lay awake, Leuillet said as he kissed his +wife: + +"See here, dearie." + +"Well?" + +"Was Souris--I don't exactly know how to say it--was Souris very loving?" + +She gave him a kiss for reply and murmured "Not as loving as you are, mon +chat." + +He was flattered in his self-love and continued: + +"He must have been--a ninny--was he not?" + +She did not reply. She only smiled slyly and hid her face in her +husband's neck. + +"He must have been a ninny and not--not--not smart?" + +She shook her head slightly to imply, "No--not at all smart." + +He continued: + +"He must have been an awful nuisance, eh?" + +This time she was frank and replied: + +"Oh yes!" + +He kissed her again for this avowal and said: + +"What a brute he was! You were not happy with him?" + +"No," she replied. "It was not always pleasant." + +Leuillet was delighted, forming in his mind a comparison, much in his own +favor, between his wife's former and present position. He was silent for +a time, and then with a burst of laughter he asked: + +"Tell me?" + +"What?" + +"Will you be frank, very frank with me?" + +"Why yes, my dear." + +"Well then, tell me truly did you never feel tempted to--to--to deceive +that imbecile Souris?" + +Mme. Leuillet said: "Oh!" pretending to be shocked and hid her face again +on her husband's shoulder. But he saw that she was laughing. + +"Come now, own up," he persisted. "He looked like a ninny, that +creature! It would be funny, so funny! Good old Souris! Come, come, +dearie, you do not mind telling me, me, of all people." + +He insisted on the "me" thinking that if she had wished to deceive Souris +she would have chosen him, and he was trembling in anticipation of her +avowal, sure that if she had not been a virtuous woman she would have +encouraged his own attentions. + +But she did not answer, laughing still, as at the recollection of +something exceedingly comical. + +Leuillet, in his turn began to laugh, thinking he might have been the +lucky man, and he muttered amid his mirth: "That poor Souris, that poor +Souris, oh, yes, he looked like a fool!" + +Mme. Leuillet was almost in spasms of laughter. + +"Come, confess, be frank. You know I will not mind." + +Then she stammered out, almost choking with laughter: "Yes, yes." + +"Yes, what?" insisted her husband. "Come, tell all." + +She was quieter now and putting her mouth to her husband's ear, she +whispered: "Yes, I did deceive him." + +He felt a chill run down his back and to his very bones, and he stammered +out, dumfounded: "You--you--deceived him--criminally?" + +She still thought he was amused and replied: "Yes--yes, absolutely." + +He was obliged to sit up to recover his breath, he was so shocked and +upset at what he had heard. + +She had become serious, understanding too late what she had done. + +"With whom?" said Leuillet at length. + +She was silent seeking some excuse. + +"A young man," she replied at length. + +He turned suddenly toward her and said drily: + +"I did not suppose it was the cook. I want to know what young man, do +you hear?" + +She did not answer. + +He snatched the covers from her face, repeating: + +"I want to know what young man, do you hear?" + +Then she said sorrowfully: "I was only in fun." But he was trembling +with rage. "What? How? You were only in fun? You were making fun of +me, then? But I am not satisfied, do you hear? I want the name of the +young man!" + +She did not reply, but lay there motionless. + +He took her by the arm and squeezed it, saying: "Do you understand me, +finally? I wish you to reply when I speak to you." + +"I think you are going crazy," she said nervously, "let me alone!" + +He was wild with rage, not knowing what to say, exasperated, and he shook +her with all his might, repeating: + +"Do you hear me, do you hear me?" + +She made an abrupt effort to disengage herself and the tips of her +fingers touched her husband's nose. He was furious, thinking she had +tried to hit him, and he sprang upon her holding her down; and boxing her +ears with all his might, he cried: "Take that, and that, there, there, +wretch!" + +When he was out of breath and exhausted, he rose and went toward the +dressing table to prepare a glass of eau sucree with orange flower, for +he felt as if he should faint. + +She was weeping in bed, sobbing bitterly, for she felt as if her +happiness was over, through her own fault. + +Then, amidst her tears, she stammered out: + +"Listen, Antoine, come here, I told you a lie, you will understand, +listen." + +And prepared to defend herself now, armed with excuses and artifice, she +raised her disheveled head with its nightcap all awry. + +Turning toward her, he approached, ashamed of having struck her, but +feeling in the bottom of his heart as a husband, a relentless hatred +toward this woman who had deceived the former husband, Souris. + + + + + + +MY UNCLE JULES + +A white-haired old man begged us for alms. My companion, Joseph +Davranche, gave him five francs. Noticing my surprised look, he said: + +"That poor unfortunate reminds me of a story which I shall tell you, the +memory of which continually pursues me. Here it is: + +"My family, which came originally from Havre, was not rich. We just +managed to make both ends meet. My father worked hard, came home late +from the office, and earned very little. I had two sisters. + +"My mother suffered a good deal from our reduced circumstances, and she +often had harsh words for her husband, veiled and sly reproaches. The +poor man then made a gesture which used to distress me. He would pass +his open hand over his forehead, as if to wipe away perspiration which +did not exist, and he would answer nothing. I felt his helpless +suffering. We economized on everything, and never would accept an +invitation to dinner, so as not to have to return the courtesy. All our +provisions were bought at bargain sales. My sisters made their own +gowns, and long discussions would arise on the price of a piece of braid +worth fifteen centimes a yard. Our meals usually consisted cf soup and +beef, prepared with every kind of sauce. + +They say it is wholesome and nourishing, but I should have preferred a +change. + +"I used to go through terrible scenes on account of lost buttons and torn +trousers. + +"Every Sunday, dressed in our best, we would take our walk along the +breakwater. My father, in a frock coat, high hat and kid gloves, would +offer his arm to my mother, decked out and beribboned like a ship on a +holiday. My sisters, who were always ready first, would await the signal +for leaving; but at the last minute some one always found a spot on my +father's frock coat, and it had to be wiped away quickly with a rag +moistened with benzine. + +"My father, in his shirt sleeves, his silk hat on his head, would await +the completion of the operation, while my mother, putting on her +spectacles, and taking off her gloves in order not to spoil them, would +make haste. + +"Then we set out ceremoniously. My sisters marched on ahead, arm in arm. +They were of marriageable age and had to be displayed. I walked on the +left of my mother and my father on her right. I remember the pompous air +of my poor parents in these Sunday walks, their stern expression, their +stiff walk. They moved slowly, with a serious expression, their bodies +straight, their legs stiff, as if something of extreme importance +depended upon their appearance. + +"Every Sunday, when the big steamers were returning from unknown and +distant countries, my father would invariably utter the same words: + +"'What a surprise it would be if Jules were on that one! Eh?' + +"My Uncle Jules, my father's brother, was the only hope of the family, +after being its only fear. I had heard about him since childhood, and it +seemed to me that I should recognize him immediately, knowing as much +about him as I did. I knew every detail of his life up to the day of his +departure for America, although this period of his life was spoken of +only in hushed tones. + +"It seems that he had led a bad life, that is to say, he had squandered a +little money, which action, in a poor family, is one of the greatest +crimes. With rich people a man who amuses himself only sows his wild +oats. He is what is generally called a sport. But among needy families +a boy who forces his parents to break into the capital becomes a good- +for-nothing, a rascal, a scamp. And this distinction is just, although +the action be the same, for consequences alone determine the seriousness +of the act. + +"Well, Uncle Jules had visibly diminished the inheritance on which my +father had counted, after he had swallowed his own to the last penny. +Then, according to the custom of the times, he had been shipped off to +America on a freighter going from Havre to New York. + +"Once there, my uncle began to sell something or other, and he soon wrote +that he was making a little money and that he soon hoped to be able to +indemnify my father for the harm he had done him. This letter caused a +profound emotion in the family. Jules, who up to that time had not been +worth his salt, suddenly became a good man, a kind-hearted fellow, true +and honest like all the Davranches. + +"One of the captains told us that he had rented a large shop and was +doing an important business. + +"Two years later a second letter came, saying: 'My dear Philippe, I am +writing to tell you not to worry about my health, which is excellent. +Business is good. I leave to-morrow for a long trip to South America. +I may be away for several years without sending you any news. If I +shouldn't write, don't worry. When my fortune is made I shall return to +Havre. I hope that it will not be too long and that we shall all live +happily together . . . .' + +"This letter became the gospel of the family. It was read on the +slightest provocation, and it was shown to everybody. + +"For ten years nothing was heard from Uncle Jules; but as time went on my +father's hope grew, and my mother, also, often said: + +"'When that good Jules is here, our position will be different. There is +one who knew how to get along!' + +"And every Sunday, while watching the big steamers approaching from the +horizon, pouring out a stream of smoke, my father would repeat his +eternal question: + +"'What a surprise it would be if Jules were on that one! Eh?' + +"We almost expected to see him waving his handkerchief and crying: + +"'Hey! Philippe!' + +"Thousands of schemes had been planned on the strength of this expected +return; we were even to buy a little house with my uncle's money +--a little place in the country near Ingouville. In fact, I wouldn't +swear that my father had not already begun negotiations. + +"The elder of my sisters was then twenty-eight, the other twenty-six. +They were not yet married, and that was a great grief to every one. + +"At last a suitor presented himself for the younger one. He was a clerk, +not rich, but honorable. I have always been morally certain that Uncle +Jules' letter, which was shown him one evening, had swept away the young +man's hesitation and definitely decided him. + +"He was accepted eagerly, and it was decided that after the wedding the +whole family should take a trip to Jersey. + +"Jersey is the ideal trip for poor people. It is not far; one crosses a +strip of sea in a steamer and lands on foreign soil, as this little +island belongs to England. Thus, a Frenchman, with a two hours' sail, +can observe a neighboring people at home and study their customs. + +"This trip to Jersey completely absorbed our ideas, was our sole +anticipation, the constant thought of our minds. + +"At last we left. I see it as plainly as if it had happened yesterday. +The boat was getting up steam against the quay at Granville; my father, +bewildered, was superintending the loading of our three pieces of +baggage; my mother, nervous, had taken the arm of my unmarried sister, +who seemed lost since the departure of the other one, like the last +chicken of a brood; behind us came the bride and groom, who always stayed +behind, a thing that often made me turn round. + +"The whistle sounded. We got on board, and the vessel, leaving the +breakwater, forged ahead through a sea as flat as a marble table. We +watched the coast disappear in the distance, happy and proud, like all +who do not travel much. + +"My father was swelling out his chest in the breeze, beneath his frock +coat, which had that morning been very carefully cleaned; and he spread +around him that odor of benzine which always made me recognize Sunday. +Suddenly he noticed two elegantly dressed ladies to whom two gentlemen +were offering oysters. An old, ragged sailor was opening them with his +knife and passing them to the gentlemen, who would then offer them to the +ladies. They ate them in a dainty manner, holding the shell on a fine +handkerchief and advancing their mouths a little in order not to spot +their dresses. Then they would drink the liquid with a rapid little +motion and throw the shell overboard. + +"My father was probably pleased with this delicate manner of eating +oysters on a moving ship. He considered it good form, refined, and, +going up to my mother and sisters, he asked: + +"'Would you like me to offer you some oysters?' + +"My mother hesitated on account of the expense, but my two sisters +immediately accepted. My mother said in a provoked manner: + +"'I am afraid that they will hurt my stomach. Offer the children some, +but not too much, it would make them sick.' Then, turning toward me, she +added: + +"'As for Joseph, he doesn't need any. Boys shouldn't be spoiled.' + +"However, I remained beside my mother, finding this discrimination +unjust. I watched my father as he pompously conducted my two sisters and +his son-in-law toward the ragged old sailor. + +"The two ladies had just left, and my father showed my sisters how to eat +them without spilling the liquor. He even tried to give them an example, +and seized an oyster. He attempted to imitate the ladies, and +immediately spilled all the liquid over his coat. I heard my mother +mutter: + +"'He would do far better to keep quiet.' + +"But, suddenly, my father appeared to be worried; he retreated a few +steps, stared at his family gathered around the old shell opener, and +quickly came toward us. He seemed very pale, with a peculiar look. In a +low voice he said to my mother: + +"'It's extraordinary how that man opening the oysters looks like Jules.' + +"Astonished, my mother asked: + +"'What Jules?' + +"My father continued: + +"'Why, my brother. If I did not know that he was well off in America, I +should think it was he.' + +"Bewildered, my mother stammered: + +"'You are crazy! As long as you know that it is not he, why do you say +such foolish things?' + +"But my father insisted: + +"'Go on over and see, Clarisse! I would rather have you see with your +own eyes.' + +"She arose and walked to her daughters. I, too, was watching the man. +He was old, dirty, wrinkled, and did not lift his eyes from his work. + +"My mother returned. I noticed that she was trembling. She exclaimed +quickly: + +"'I believe that it is he. Why don't you ask the captain? But be very +careful that we don't have this rogue on our hands again!' + +"My father walked away, but I followed him. I felt strangely moved. + +"The captain, a tall, thin man, with blond whiskers, was walking along +the bridge with an important air as if he were commanding the Indian mail +steamer. + +"My father addressed him ceremoniously, and questioned him about his +profession, adding many compliments: + +"'What might be the importance of Jersey? What did it produce? What was +the population? The customs? The nature of the soil?' etc., etc. + +"'You have there an old shell opener who seems quite interesting. Do you +know anything about him?' + +"The captain, whom this conversation began to weary, answered dryly: + +"'He is some old French tramp whom I found last year in America, and I +brought him back. It seems that he has some relatives in Havre, but that +he doesn't wish to return to them because he owes them money. His name +is Jules--Jules Darmanche or Darvanche or something like that. It seems +that he was once rich over there, but you can see what's left of him +now.' + +"My father turned ashy pale and muttered, his throat contracted, his eyes +haggard. + +"'Ah! ah! very well, very well. I'm not in the least surprised. Thank +you very much, captain.' + +"He went away, and the astonished sailor watched him disappear. He +returned to my mother so upset that she said to him: + +"'Sit down; some one will notice that something is the matter.' + +"He sank down on a bench and stammered: + +"'It's he! It's he!' + +"Then he asked: + +"'What are we going to do?' + +"She answered quickly: + +"'We must get the children out of the way. Since Joseph knows +everything, he can go and get them. We must take good care that our son- +in-law doesn't find out.' + +"My father seemed absolutely bewildered. He murmured: + +"'What a catastrophe!' + +"Suddenly growing furious, my mother exclaimed: + +"'I always thought that that thief never would do anything, and that he +would drop down on us again! As if one could expect anything from a +Davranche!' + +"My father passed his hand over his forehead, as he always did when his +wife reproached him. She added: + +"'Give Joseph some money so that he can pay for the oysters. All that it +needed to cap the climax would be to be recognized by that beggar. That +would be very pleasant! Let's get down to the other end of the boat, and +take care that that man doesn't come near us!' + +"They gave me five francs and walked away. + +"Astonished, my sisters were awaiting their father. I said that mamma +had felt a sudden attack of sea-sickness, and I asked the shell opener: + +"'How much do we owe you, monsieur?' + +"I felt like laughing: he was my uncle! He answered: + +"'Two francs fifty.' + +"I held out my five francs and he returned the change. I looked at his +hand; it was a poor, wrinkled, sailor's hand, and I looked at his face, +an unhappy old face. I said to myself: + +"'That is my uncle, the brother of my father, my uncle!' + +"I gave him a ten-cent tip. He thanked me: + +"'God bless you, my young sir!' + +"He spoke like a poor man receiving alms. I couldn't help thinking that +he must have begged over there! My sisters looked at me, surprised at my +generosity. When I returned the two francs to my father, my mother asked +me in surprise: + +"'Was there three francs' worth? That is impossible.' + +"I answered in a firm voice + +"'I gave ten cents as a tip.' + +"My mother started, and, staring at me, she exclaimed: + +"'You must be crazy! Give ten cents to that man, to that vagabond--' + +"She stopped at a look from my father, who was pointing at his son-in- +law. Then everybody was silent. + +"Before us, on the distant horizon, a purple shadow seemed to rise out of +the sea. It was Jersey. + +"As we approached the breakwater a violent desire seized me once more to +see my Uncle Jules, to be near him, to say to him something consoling, +something tender. But as no one was eating any more oysters, he had +disappeared, having probably gone below to the dirty hold which was the +home of the poor wretch." + + + + + + +THE MODEL + +Curving like a crescent moon, the little town of Etretat, with its white +cliffs, its white, shingly beach and its blue sea, lay in the sunlight at +high noon one July day. At either extremity of this crescent its two +"gates," the smaller to the right, the larger one at the left, stretched +forth--one a dwarf and the other a colossal limb--into the water, and the +bell tower, almost as tall as the cliff, wide below, narrowing at the +top, raised its pointed summit to the sky. + +On the sands beside the water a crowd was seated watching the bathers. +On the terrace of, the Casino another crowd, seated or walking, displayed +beneath the brilliant sky a perfect flower patch of bright costumes, with +red and blue parasols embroidered with large flowers in silk. + +On the walk at the end of the terrace, other persons, the restful, quiet +ones, were walking slowly, far from the dressy throng. + +A young man, well known and celebrated as a painter, Jean Sumner, was +walking with a dejected air beside a wheeled chair in which sat a young +woman, his wife. A manservant was gently pushing the chair, and the +crippled woman was gazing sadly at the brightness of the sky, the +gladness of the day, and the happiness of others. + +They did not speak. They did not look at each other. + +"Let us stop a while," said the young woman. + +They stopped, and the painter sat down on a camp stool that the servant +handed him. + +Those who were passing behind the silent and motionless couple looked at +them compassionately. A whole legend of devotion was attached to them. +He had married her in spite of her infirmity, touched by her affection +for him, it was said. + +Not far from there, two young men were chatting, seated on a bench and +looking out into the horizon. + +"No, it is not true; I tell you that I am well acquainted with Jean +Sumner." + +"But then, why did he marry her? For she was a cripple when she married, +was she not?" + +"Just so. He married her--he married her--just as every one marries, +parbleu! because he was an idiot!" + +"But why?" + +"But why--but why, my friend? There is no why. People do stupid things +just because they do stupid things. And, besides, you know very well +that painters make a specialty of foolish marriages. They almost always +marry models, former sweethearts, in fact, women of doubtful reputation, +frequently. Why do they do this? Who can say? One would suppose that +constant association with the general run of models would disgust them +forever with that class of women. Not at all. After having posed them +they marry them. Read that little book, so true, so cruel and so +beautiful, by Alphonse Daudet: 'Artists' Wives.' + +"In the case of the couple you see over there the accident occurred in a +special and terrible manner. The little woman played a frightful comedy, +or, rather, tragedy. She risked all to win all. Was she sincere? Did +she love Jean? Shall we ever know? Who is able to determine precisely +how much is put on and how much is real in the actions of a woman? They +are always sincere in an eternal mobility of impressions. They are +furious, criminal, devoted, admirable and base in obedience to intangible +emotions. They tell lies incessantly without intention, without knowing +or understanding why, and in spite of it all are absolutely frank in +their feelings and sentiments, which they display by violent, unexpected, +incomprehensible, foolish resolutions which overthrow our arguments, our +customary poise and all our selfish plans. The unforeseenness and +suddenness of their determinations will always render them undecipherable +enigmas as far as we are concerned. We continually ask ourselves: + +'Are they sincere? Are they pretending?' + +"But, my friend, they are sincere and insincere at one and the same time, +because it is their nature to be extremists in both and to be neither one +nor the other. + +"See the methods that even the best of them employ to get what they +desire. They are complex and simple, these methods. So complex that we +can never guess at them beforehand, and so simple that after having been +victimized we cannot help being astonished and exclaiming: 'What! Did +she make a fool of me so easily as that?' + +"And they always succeed, old man, especially when it is a question of +getting married. + +"But this is Sumner's story: + +"The little woman was a model, of course. She posed for him. She was +pretty, very stylish-looking, and had a divine figure, it seems. He +fancied that he loved her with his whole soul. That is another strange +thing. As soon as one likes a woman one sincerely believes that they +could not get along without her for the rest of their life. One knows +that one has felt the same way before and that disgust invariably +succeeded gratification; that in order to pass one's existence side by +side with another there must be not a brutal, physical passion which soon +dies out, but a sympathy of soul, temperament and temper. One should +know how to determine in the enchantment to which one is subjected +whether it proceeds from the physical, from a certain sensuous +intoxication, or from a deep spiritual charm. + +"Well, he believed himself in love; he made her no end of promises of +fidelity, and was devoted to her. + +"She was really attractive, gifted with that fashionable flippancy that +little Parisians so readily affect. She chattered, babbled, made foolish +remarks that sounded witty from the manner in which they were uttered. +She used graceful gesture's which were calculated to attract a painter's +eye. When she raised her arms, when she bent over, when she got into a +carriage, when she held out her hand to you, her gestures were perfect +and appropriate. + +"For three months Jean never noticed that, in reality, she was like all +other models. + +"He rented a little house for her for the summer at Andresy. + +"I was there one evening when for the first time doubts came into my +friend's mind. + +"As it was a beautiful evening we thought we would take a stroll along +the bank of the river. The moon poured a flood of light on the trembling +water, scattering yellow gleams along its ripples in the currents and all +along the course of the wide, slow river. + +"We strolled along the bank, a little enthused by that vague exaltation +that these dreamy evenings produce in us. We would have liked to +undertake some wonderful task, to love some unknown, deliciously poetic +being. We felt ourselves vibrating with raptures, longings, strange +aspirations. And we were silent, our beings pervaded by the serene and +living coolness of the beautiful night, the coolness of the moonlight, +which seemed to penetrate one's body, permeate it, soothe one's spirit, +fill it with fragrance and steep it in happiness. + +"Suddenly Josephine (that is her name) uttered an exclamation: + +"'Oh, did you see the big fish that jumped, over there?' + +"He replied without looking, without thinking: + +"'Yes, dear.' + +"She was angry. + +"'No, you did not see it, for your back was turned.' + +"He smiled. + +"'Yes, that's true. It is so delightful that I am not thinking of +anything.' + +"She was silent, but at the end of a minute she felt as if she must say +something and asked: + +"'Are you going to Paris to-morrow?' + +"'I do not know,' he replied. + +"She was annoyed again. + +"'Do you think it is very amusing to walk along without speaking? People +talk when they are not stupid.' + +"He did not reply. Then, feeling with her woman's instinct that she was +going to make him angry, she began to sing a popular air that had +harassed our ears and our minds for two years: + +"'Je regardais en fair.' + +"He murmured: + +"'Please keep quiet.' + +"She replied angrily: + +"'Why do you wish me to keep quiet?' + +"'You spoil the landscape for us!' he said. + +"Then followed a scene, a hateful, idiotic scene, with unexpected +reproaches, unsuitable recriminations, then tears. Nothing was left +unsaid. They went back to the house. He had allowed her to talk without +replying, enervated by the beauty of the scene and dumfounded by this +storm of abuse. + +"Three months later he strove wildly to free himself from those +invincible and invisible bonds with which such a friendship chains our +lives. She kept him under her influence, tyrannizing over him, making +his life a burden to him. They quarreled continually, vituperating and +finally fighting each other. + +"He wanted to break with her at any cost. He sold all his canvases, +borrowed money from his friends, realizing twenty thousand francs (he was +not well known then), and left them for her one morning with a note of +farewell. + +"He came and took refuge with me. + +"About three o'clock that afternoon there was a ring at the bell. I went +to the door. A woman sprang toward me, pushed me aside, came in and went +into my atelier. It was she! + +"He had risen when he saw her coming.' + +"She threw the envelope containing the banknotes at his feet with a truly +noble gesture and said in a quick tone: + +"'There's your money. I don't want it!' + +"She was very pale, trembling and ready undoubtedly to commit any folly. +As for him, I saw him grow pale also, pale with rage and exasperation, +ready also perhaps to commit any violence. + +"He asked: + +"'What do you want?' + +"She replied: + +"'I do not choose to be treated like a common woman. You implored me to +accept you. I asked you for nothing. Keep me with you!' + +"He stamped his foot. + +"'No, that's a little too much! If you think you are going--' + +"I had seized his arm. + +"'Keep still, Jean. . . Let me settle it.' + +"I went toward her and quietly, little by little, I began to reason with +her, exhausting all the arguments that are used under similar +circumstances. She listened to me, motionless, with a fixed gaze, +obstinate and silent. + +"Finally, not knowing what more to say, and seeing that there would be a +scene, I thought of a last resort and said: + +"'He loves you still, my dear, but his family want him to marry some one, +and you understand--' + +"She gave a start and exclaimed: + +"'Ah! Ah! Now I understand: + +"And turning toward him, she said: + +"'You are--you are going to get married?' + +"He replied decidedly" 'Yes.' + +"She took a step forward. + +"'If you marry, I will kill myself! Do you hear?' + +"He shrugged his shoulders and replied: + +"'Well, then kill yourself!' + +"She stammered out, almost choking with her violent emotion: + +"'What do you say? What do you say? What do you say? Say it again!' + +"He repeated: + +"'Well, then kill yourself if you like!' + +"With her face almost livid, she replied: + +"'Do not dare me! I will throw myself from the window!' + +"He began to laugh, walked toward the window, opened it, and bowing with +the gesture of one who desires to let some one else precede him, he said: + +"'This is the way. After you!' + +"She looked at him for a second with terrible, wild, staring eyes. Then, +taking a run as if she were going to jump a hedge in the country, she +rushed past me and past him, jumped over the sill and disappeared. + +"I shall never forget the impression made on me by that open window after +I had seen that body pass through it to fall to the ground. It appeared +to me in a second to be as large as the heavens and as hollow as space. +And I drew back instinctively, not daring to look at it, as though I +feared I might fall out myself. + +"Jean, dumfounded, stood motionless. + +"They brought the poor girl in with both legs broken. She will never +walk again. + +"Jean, wild with remorse and also possibly touched with gratitude, made +up his mind to marry her. + +"There you have it, old man." + +It was growing dusk. The young woman felt chilly and wanted to go home, +and the servant wheeled the invalid chair in the direction of the +village. The painter walked beside his wife, neither of them having +exchanged a word for an hour. + +This story appeared in Le Gaulois, December 17, 1883. + + + + + + +A VAGABOND + +He was a journeyman carpenter, a good workman and a steady fellow, +twenty-seven years old, but, although the eldest son, Jacques Randel had +been forced to live on his family for two months, owing to the general +lack of work. He had walked about seeking work for over a month and had +left his native town, Ville-Avary, in La Manche, because he could find +nothing to do and would no longer deprive his family of the bread they +needed themselves, when he was the strongest of them all. His two +sisters earned but little as charwomen. He went and inquired at the town +hall, and the mayor's secretary told him that he would find work at the +Labor Agency, and so he started, well provided with papers and +certificates, and carrying another pair of shoes, a pair of trousers and +a shirt in a blue handkerchief at the end of his stick. + +And he had walked almost without stopping, day and night, along +interminable roads, in sun and rain, without ever reaching that +mysterious country where workmen find work. At first he had the fixed +idea that he must only work as a carpenter, but at every carpenter's shop +where he applied he was told that they had just dismissed men on account +of work being so slack, and, finding himself at the end of his resources, +he made up his mind to undertake any job that he might come across on the +road. And so by turns he was a navvy, stableman, stonecutter; he split +wood, lopped the branches of trees, dug wells, mixed mortar, tied up +fagots, tended goats on a mountain, and all for a few pence, for he only +obtained two or three days' work occasionally by offering himself at a +shamefully low price, in order to tempt the avarice of employers and +peasants. + +And now for a week he had found nothing, and had no money left, and +nothing to eat but a piece of bread, thanks to the charity of some women +from whom he had begged at house doors on the road. It was getting dark, +and Jacques Randel, jaded, his legs failing him, his stomach empty, and +with despair in his heart, was walking barefoot on the grass by the side +of the road, for he was taking care of his last pair of shoes, as the +other pair had already ceased to exist for a long time. It was a +Saturday, toward the end of autumn. The heavy gray clouds were being +driven rapidly through the sky by the gusts of wind which whistled among +the trees, and one felt that it would rain soon. The country was +deserted at that hour on the eve of Sunday. Here and there in the fields +there rose up stacks of wheat straw, like huge yellow mushrooms, and the +fields looked bare, as they had already been sown for the next year. + +Randel was hungry, with the hunger of some wild animal, such a hunger as +drives wolves to attack men. Worn out and weakened with fatigue, he took +longer strides, so as not to take so many steps, and with heavy head, the +blood throbbing in his temples, with red eyes and dry mouth, he grasped +his stick tightly in his hand, with a longing to strike the first +passerby who might be going home to supper. + +He looked at the sides of the road, imagining he saw potatoes dug up and +lying on the ground before his eyes; if he had found any he would have +gathered some dead wood, made a fire in the ditch and have had a capital +supper off the warm, round vegetables with which he would first of all +have warmed his cold hands. But it was too late in the year, and he +would have to gnaw a raw beetroot which he might pick up in a field as he +had done the day before. + +For the last two days he had talked to himself as he quickened his steps +under the influence of his thoughts. He had never thought much hitherto, +as he had given all his mind, all his simple faculties to his mechanical +work. But now fatigue and this desperate search for work which he could +not get, refusals and rebuffs, nights spent in the open air lying on the +grass, long fasting, the contempt which he knew people with a settled +abode felt for a vagabond, and that question which he was continually +asked, "Why do you not remain at home?" distress at not being able to use +his strong arms which he felt so full of vigor, the recollection of the +relations he had left at home and who also had not a penny, filled him by +degrees with rage, which had been accumulating every day, every hour, +every minute, and which now escaped his lips in spite of himself in +short, growling sentences. + +As he stumbled over the stones which tripped his bare feet, he grumbled: +"How wretched! how miserable! A set of hogs--to let a man die of hunger +--a carpenter--a set of hogs--not two sous--not two sous--and now it is +raining--a set of hogs!" + +He was indignant at the injustice of fate, and cast the blame on men, on +all men, because nature, that great, blind mother, is unjust, cruel and +perfidious, and he repeated through his clenched teeth: + +"A set of hogs" as he looked at the thin gray smoke which rose from the +roofs, for it was the dinner hour. And, without considering that there +is another injustice which is human, and which is called robbery and +violence, he felt inclined to go into one of those houses to murder the +inhabitants and to sit down to table in their stead. + +He said to himself: "I have no right to live now, as they are letting me +die of hunger, and yet I only ask for work--a set of hogs!" And the pain +in his limbs, the gnawing in his heart rose to his head like terrible +intoxication, and gave rise to this simple thought in his brain: "I have +the right to live because I breathe and because the air is the common +property of everybody. So nobody has the right to leave me without +bread!" + +A fine, thick, icy cold rain was coming down, and he stopped and +murmured: "Oh, misery! Another month of walking before I get home." He +was indeed returning home then, for he saw that he should more easily +find work in his native town, where he was known--and he did not mind +what he did--than on the highroads, where everybody suspected him. As +the carpentering business was not prosperous, he would turn day laborer, +be a mason's hodman, a ditcher, break stones on the road. If he only +earned a franc a day, that would at any rate buy him something to eat. + +He tied the remains of his last pocket handkerchief round his neck to +prevent the cold rain from running down his back and chest, but he soon +found that it was penetrating the thin material of which his clothes were +made, and he glanced about him with the agonized look of a man who does +not know where to hide his body and to rest his head, and has no place of +shelter in the whole world. + +Night came on and wrapped the country in obscurity, and in the distance, +in a meadow, he saw a dark spot on the grass; it was a cow, and so he got +over the ditch by the roadside and went up to her without exactly knowing +what he was doing. When he got close to her she raised her great head to +him, and he thought: "If I only had a jug I could get a little milk." He +looked at the cow and the cow looked at him and then, suddenly giving her +a kick in the side, he said: "Get up!" + +The animal got up slowly, letting her heavy udders bang down. Then the +man lay down on his back between the animal's legs and drank for a long +time, squeezing her warm, swollen teats, which tasted of the cowstall, +with both hands, and he drank as long as she gave any milk. But the icy +rain began to fall more heavily, and he saw no place of shelter on the +whole of that bare plain. He was cold, and he looked at a light which +was shining among the trees in the window of a house. + +The cow had lain down again heavily, and he sat down by her side and +stroked her head, grateful for the nourishment she had given him. The +animal's strong, thick breath, which came out of her nostrils like two +jets of steam in the evening air, blew on the workman's face, and he +said: "You are not cold inside there!" He put his hands on her chest and +under her stomach to find some warmth there, and then the idea struck him +that he might pass the night beside that large, warm animal. So he found +a comfortable place and laid his head on her side, and then, as he was +worn out with fatigue, fell asleep immediately. + +He woke up, however, several times, with his back or his stomach half +frozen, according as he put one or the other against the animal's flank. +Then he turned over to warm and dry that part of his body which had +remained exposed to the night air, and soon went soundly to sleep again. +The crowing of a cock woke him; the day was breaking, it was no longer +raining, and the sky was bright. The cow was resting with her muzzle on +the ground, and he stooped down, resting on his hands, to kiss those +wide, moist nostrils, and said: "Good-by, my beauty, until next time. +You are a nice animal. Good-by." Then he put on his shoes and went off, +and for two hours walked straight before him, always following the same +road, and then he felt so tired that he sat down on the grass. It was +broad daylight by that time, and the church bells were ringing; men in +blue blouses, women in white caps, some on foot, some in carts, began to +pass along the road, going to the neighboring villages to spend Sunday +with friends or relations. + +A stout peasant came in sight, driving before him a score of frightened, +bleating sheep, with the help of an active dog. Randel got up, and +raising his cap, said: "You do not happen to have any work for a man who +is dying of hunger?" But the other, giving an angry look at the vagabond, +replied: "I have no work for fellows whom I meet on the road." + +And the carpenter went back and sat down by the side of the ditch again. +He waited there for a long time, watching the country people pass and +looking for a kind, compassionate face before he renewed his request, and +finally selected a man in an overcoat, whose stomach was adorned with a +gold chain. "I have been looking for work," he said, "for the last two +months and cannot find any, and I have not a sou in my pocket." But the +would-be gentleman replied: "You should have read the notice which is +stuck up at the entrance to the village: 'Begging is prohibited within +the boundaries of this parish.' Let me tell you that I am the mayor, and +if you do not get out of here pretty quickly I shall have you arrested." + +Randel, who was getting angry, replied: "Have me arrested if you like; I +should prefer it, for, at any rate, I should not die of hunger." And he +went back and sat down by the side of his ditch again, and in about a +quarter of an hour two gendarmes appeared on the road. They were walking +slowly side by side, glittering in the sun with their shining hats, their +yellow accoutrements and their metal buttons, as if to frighten +evildoers, and to put them to flight at a distance. He knew that they +were coming after him, but he did not move, for he was seized with a +sudden desire to defy them, to be arrested by them, and to have his +revenge later. + +They came on without appearing to have seen him, walking heavily, with +military step, and balancing themselves as if they were doing the goose +step; and then, suddenly, as they passed him, appearing to have noticed +him, they stopped and looked at him angrily and threateningly, and the +brigadier came up to him and asked: "What are you doing here?" "I am +resting," the man replied calmly. "Where do you come from?" "If I had +to tell you all the places I have been to it would take me more than an +hour." "Where are you going to?" "To Ville-Avary." "Where is that?" +"In La Manche." "Is that where you belong?" "It is." "Why did you +leave it?" "To look for work." + +The brigadier turned to his gendarme and said in the angry voice of a man +who is exasperated at last by an oft-repeated trick: "They all say that, +these scamps. I know all about it." And then he continued: "Have you +any papers?" "Yes, I have some." "Give them to me." + +Randel took his papers out of his pocket, his certificates, those poor, +worn-out, dirty papers which were falling to pieces, and gave them to the +soldier, who spelled them through, hemming and hawing, and then, having +seen that they were all in order, he gave them back to Randel with the +dissatisfied look of a man whom some one cleverer than himself has +tricked. + +After a few moments' further reflection, he asked him: "Have you any +money on you?" "No." "None whatever?" "None." "Not even a sou?" "Not +even a son!" "How do you live then?" "On what people give me." "Then you +beg?" And Randel answered resolutely: "Yes, when I can." + +Then the gendarme said: "I have caught you on the highroad in the act of +vagabondage and begging, without any resources or trade, and so I command +you to come with me." The carpenter got up and said: "Wherever you +please." And, placing himself between the two soldiers, even before he +had received the order to do so, he added: "Well, lock me up; that will +at any rate put a roof over my head when it rains." + +And they set off toward the village, the red tiles of which could be seen +through the leafless trees, a quarter of a league off. Service was about +to begin when they went through the village. The square was full of +people, who immediately formed two lines to see the criminal pass. +He was being followed by a crowd of excited children. Male and female +peasants looked at the prisoner between the two gendarmes, with hatred in +their eyes and a longing to throw stones at him, to tear his skin with +their nails, to trample him under their feet. They asked each other +whether he had committed murder or robbery. The butcher, who was an ex- +'spahi', declared that he was a deserter. The tobacconist thought that +he recognized him as the man who had that very morning passed a bad half- +franc piece off on him, and the ironmonger declared that he was the +murderer of Widow Malet, whom the police had been looking for for six +months. + +In the municipal court, into which his custodians took him, Randel saw +the mayor again, sitting on the magisterial bench, with the schoolmaster +by his side. "Aha! aha!" the magistrate exclaimed, "so here you are +again, my fine fellow. I told you I should have you locked up. Well, +brigadier, what is he charged with?" + +"He is a vagabond without house or home, Monsieur le Maire, without any +resources or money, so he says, who was arrested in the act of begging, +but he is provided with good testimonials, and his papers are all in +order." + +"Show me his papers," the mayor said. He took them, read them, reread, +returned them and then said: "Search him." So they searched him, but +found nothing, and the mayor seemed perplexed, and asked the workman: + +"What were you doing on the road this morning?" "I was looking for work." +"Work? On the highroad?" "How do you expect me to find any if I hide in +the woods?" + +They looked at each other with the hatred of two wild beasts which belong +to different hostile species, and the magistrate continued: "I am going +to have you set at liberty, but do not be brought up before me again." +To which the carpenter replied: "I would rather you locked me up; I have +had enough running about the country." But the magistrate replied +severely: "be silent." And then he said to the two gendarmes: "You will +conduct this man two hundred yards from the village and let him continue +his journey." + +"At any rate, give me something to eat," the workman said, but the other +grew indignant: "Have we nothing to do but to feed you? Ah! ah! ah! +that is rather too much!" But Randel went on firmly: "If you let me +nearly die of hunger again, you will force me to commit a crime, and +then, so much the worse for you other fat fellows." + +The mayor had risen and he repeated: "Take him away immediately or I +shall end by getting angry." + +The two gendarmes thereupon seized the carpenter by the arms and dragged +him out. He allowed them to do it without resistance, passed through the +village again and found himself on the highroad once more; and when the +men had accompanied him two hundred yards beyond the village, the +brigadier said: "Now off with you and do not let me catch you about here +again, for if I do, you will know it." + +Randel went off without replying or knowing where he was going. He +walked on for a quarter of an hour or twenty minutes, so stupefied that +he no longer thought of anything. But suddenly, as he was passing a +small house, where the window was half open, the smell of the soup and +boiled meat stopped him suddenly, and hunger, fierce, devouring, +maddening hunger, seized him and almost drove him against the walls of +the house like a wild beast. + +He said aloud in a grumbling voice: "In Heaven's name! they must give me +some this time!" And he began to knock at the door vigorously with his +stick, and as no one came he knocked louder and called out: "Hey! hey! +you people in there, open the door!" And then, as nothing stirred, he +went up to the window and pushed it wider open with his hand, and the +close warm air of the kitchen, full of the smell of hot soup, meat and +cabbage, escaped into the cold outer air, and with a bound the carpenter +was in the house. Two places were set at the table, and no doubt the +proprietors of the house, on going to church, had left their dinner on +the fire, their nice Sunday boiled beef and vegetable soup, while there +was a loaf of new bread on the chimney-piece, between two bottles which +seemed full. + +Randel seized the bread first of all and broke it with as much violence +as if he were strangling a man, and then he began to eat voraciously, +swallowing great mouthfuls quickly. But almost immediately the smell of +the meat attracted him to the fireplace, and, having taken off the lid of +the saucepan, he plunged a fork into it and brought out a large piece of +beef tied with a string. Then he took more cabbage, carrots and onions +until his plate was full, and, having put it on the table, he sat down +before it, cut the meat into four pieces, and dined as if he had been at +home. When he had eaten nearly all the meat, besides a quantity of +vegetables, he felt thirsty and took one of the bottles off the +mantelpiece. + +Scarcely had he poured the liquor into his glass when he saw it was +brandy. So much the better; it was warming and would instill some fire +into his veins, and that would be all right, after being so cold; and he +drank some. He certainly enjoyed it, for he had grown unaccustomed to +it, and he poured himself out another glassful, which he drank at two +gulps. And then almost immediately he felt quite merry and light-hearted +from the effects of the alcohol, just as if some great happiness filled +his heart. + +He continued to eat, but more slowly, and dipping his bread into the +soup. His skin had become burning, and especially his forehead, where +the veins were throbbing. But suddenly the church bells began to ring. +Mass was over, and instinct rather than fear, the instinct of prudence, +which guides all beings and makes them clear-sighted in danger, made the +carpenter get up. He put the remains of the loaf into one pocket and the +brandy bottle into the other, and he furtively went to the window and +looked out into the road. It was still deserted, so he jumped out and +set off walking again, but instead of following the highroad he ran +across the fields toward a wood he saw a little way off. + +He felt alert, strong, light-hearted, glad of what he had done, and so +nimble that he sprang over the enclosure of the fields at a single bound, +and as soon as he was under the trees he took the bottle out of his +pocket again and began to drink once more, swallowing it down as lie +walked, and then his ideas began to get confused, his eyes grew dim, and +his legs as elastic as springs, and he started singing the old popular +song: + + "Oh! what joy, what joy it is, + To pick the sweet, wild strawberries." + +He was now walking on thick, damp, cool moss, and that soft carpet under +his feet made him feel absurdly inclined to turn head over heels as he +used to do when a child, so he took a run, turned a somersault, got up +and began over again. And between each time he began to sing again: + + "Oh! what joy, what joy it is, + To pick the sweet, wild strawberries." + +Suddenly he found himself above a deep road, and in the road he saw a +tall girl, a servant, who was returning to the village with two pails of +milk. He watched, stooping down, and with his eyes as bright as those of +a dog who scents a quail, but she saw him raised her head and said: "Was +that you singing like that?" He did not reply, however, but jumped down +into the road, although it was a fall of at least six feet and when she +saw him suddenly standing in front of her, she exclaimed: "Oh! dear, how +you frightened me!" + +But he did not hear her, for he was drunk, he was mad, excited by another +requirement which was more imperative than hunger, more feverish than +alcohol; by the irresistible fury of the man who has been deprived of +everything for two months, and who is drunk; who is young, ardent and +inflamed by all the appetites which nature has implanted in the vigorous +flesh of men. + +The girl started back from him, frightened at his face, his eyes, his +half-open mouth, his outstretched hands, but he seized her by the +shoulders, and without a word, threw her down in the road. + +She let her two pails fall, and they rolled over noisily, and all the +milk was spilt, and then she screamed lustily, but it was of no avail in +that lonely spot. + +When she got up the thought of her overturned pails suddenly filled her +with fury, and, taking off one of her wooden sabots, she threw it at the +man to break his head if he did not pay her for her milk. + +But he, mistaking the reason of this sudden violent attack, somewhat +sobered, and frightened at what he had done, ran off as fast as he could, +while she threw stones at him, some of which hit him in the back. + +He ran for a long time, very long, until he felt more tired than he had +ever been before. His legs were so weak that they could scarcely carry +him; all his ideas were confused, he lost recollection of everything and +could no longer think about anything, and so he sat down at the foot of a +tree, and in five minutes was fast asleep. He was soon awakened, +however, by a rough shake, and, on opening his eyes, he saw two cocked +hats of shiny leather bending over him, and the two gendarmes of the +morning, who were holding him and binding his arms. + +"I knew I should catch you again," said the brigadier jeeringly. But +Randel got up without replying. The two men shook him, quite ready to +ill treat him if he made a movement, for he was their prey now. He had +become a jailbird, caught by those hunters of criminals who would not let +him go again. + +"Now, start!" the brigadier said, and they set off. It was late +afternoon, and the autumn twilight was setting in over the land, and in +half an hour they reached the village, where every door was open, for the +people had heard what had happened. Peasants and peasant women and +girls, excited with anger, as if every man had been robbed and every +woman attacked, wished to see the wretch brought back, so that they might +overwhelm him with abuse. They hooted him from the first house in the +village until they reached the Hotel de Ville, where the mayor was +waiting for him to be himself avenged on this vagabond, and as soon as he +saw him approaching he cried: + +"Ah! my fine fellow! here we are!" And he rubbed his hands, more +pleased than he usually was, and continued: "I said so. I said so, the +moment I saw him in the road." + +And then with increased satisfaction: + +"Oh, you blackguard! Oh, you dirty blackguard! You will get your twenty +years, my fine fellow!" + + + + + + +THE FISHING HOLE + +"Cuts and wounds which caused death." Such was the charge upon which +Leopold Renard, upholsterer, was summoned before the Court of Assizes. + +Round him were the principal witnesses, Madame Flameche, widow of the +victim, and Louis Ladureau, cabinetmaker, and Jean Durdent, plumber. + +Near the criminal was his wife, dressed in black, an ugly little woman, +who looked like a monkey dressed as a lady. + +This is how Renard (Leopold) recounted the drama. + +"Good heavens, it is a misfortune of which I was the prime victim all the +time, and with which my will has nothing to do. The facts are their own +commentary, Monsieur le President. I am an honest man, a hard-working +man, an upholsterer, living in the same street for the last sixteen +years, known, liked, respected and esteemed by all, as my neighbors can +testify, even the porter's wife, who is not amiable every day. I am fond +of work, I am fond of saving, I like honest men and respectable +amusements. That is what has ruined me, so much the worse for me; but as +my will had nothing to do with it, I continue to respect myself. + +"Every Sunday for the last five years my wife and I have spent the day at +Passy. We get fresh air, and, besides, we are fond of fishing. Oh! we +are as fond of it as we are of little onions. Melie inspired me with +that enthusiasm, the jade, and she is more enthusiastic than I am, the +scold, seeing that all the mischief in this business is her fault, as you +will see immediately. + +"I am strong and mild tempered, without a pennyworth of malice in me. +But she! oh! la! la! she looks like nothing; she is short and thin. +Very well, she does more mischief than a weasel. I do not deny that she +has some good qualities; she has some, and very important ones for a man +in business. But her character! Just ask about it in the neighborhood, +and even the porter's wife, who has just sent me about my business--she +will tell you something about it. + +"Every day she used to find fault with my mild temper: 'I would not put +up with this! I would not put up with that.' If I had listened to her, +Monsieur le President, I should have had at least three hand-to-hand +fights a month . . . ." + +Madame Renard interrupted him: "And for good reasons, too; they laugh +best who laugh last." + +He turned toward her frankly: "Well, I can't blame you, since you were +not the cause of it." + +Then, facing the President again, he said: + +"I will continue. We used to go to Passy every Saturday evening, so as +to begin fishing at daybreak the next morning. It is a habit which has +become second nature with us, as the saying is. Three years ago this +summer I discovered a place, oh! such a spot. Oh, dear, dear! In the +shade, eight feet of water at least and perhaps ten, a hole with cavities +under the bank, a regular nest for fish and a paradise for the fisherman. +I might look upon that fishing hole as my property, Monsieur le +President, as I was its Christopher Columbus. Everybody in the +neighborhood knew it, without making any opposition. They would say: +'That is Renard's place'; and nobody would have gone there, not even +Monsieur Plumeau, who is well known, be it said without any offense, for +poaching on other people's preserves. + +"Well, I returned to this place of which I felt certain, just as if I had +owned it. I had scarcely got there on Saturday, when I got into Delila, +with my wife. Delila is my Norwegian boat, which I had built by +Fournaire, and which is light and safe. Well, as I said, we got into the +boat and we were going to set bait, and for setting bait there is none to +be compared with me, and they all know it. You want to know with what I +bait? I cannot answer that question; it has nothing to do with the +accident. I cannot answer; that is my secret. There are more than three +hundred people who have asked me; I have been offered glasses of brandy +and liqueur, fried fish, matelotes, to make me tell. But just go and try +whether the chub will come. Ah! they have tempted my stomach to get at +my secret, my recipe. Only my wife knows, and she will not tell it any +more than I will. Is not that so, Melie?" + +The president of the court interrupted him. + +"Just get to the facts as soon as you can," and the accused continued: +"I am getting to them, I am getting to them. Well, on Saturday, July 8, +we left by the twenty-five past five train and before dinner we went to +set bait as usual. The weather promised to keep fine and I said to +Melie: 'All right for tomorrow.' And she replied: 'If looks like it,' +We never talk more than that together. + +"And then we returned to dinner. I was happy and thirsty, and that was +the cause of everything. I said to Melie: 'Look here, Melie, it is fine +weather, suppose I drink a bottle of 'Casque a meche'.' That is a weak +white wine which we have christened so, because if you drink too much of +it it prevents you from sleeping and takes the place of a nightcap. Do +you understand me? + +"She replied: 'You can do as you please, but you will be ill again and +will not be able to get up tomorrow.' That was true, sensible and +prudent, clearsighted, I must confess. Nevertheless I could not resist, +and I drank my bottle. It all came from that. + +"Well, I could not sleep. By Jove! it kept me awake till two o'clock in +the morning, and then I went to sleep so soundly that I should not have +heard the angel sounding his trump at the last judgment. + +"In short, my wife woke me at six o'clock and I jumped out of bed, +hastily put on my trousers and jersey, washed my face and jumped on board +Delila. But it was too late, for when I arrived at my hole it was +already occupied! Such a thing had never happened to me in three years, +and it made me feel as if I were being robbed under my own eyes. I said +to myself: 'Confound it all! confound it!' And then my wife began to nag +at me. 'Eh! what about your 'Casque a meche'? Get along, you drunkard! +Are you satisfied, you great fool?' I could say nothing, because it was +all true, but I landed all the same near the spot and tried to profit by +what was left. Perhaps after all the fellow might catch nothing and go +away. + +"He was a little thin man in white linen coat and waistcoat and a large +straw hat, and his wife, a fat woman, doing embroidery, sat behind him. + +"When she saw us take up our position close to them she murmured: 'Are +there no other places on the river?' My wife, who was furious, replied: +'People who have any manners make inquiries about the habits of the +neighborhood before occupying reserved spots.' + +"As I did not want a fuss, I said to her: 'Hold your tongue, Melie. Let +them alone, let them alone; we shall see.' + +"Well, we fastened Delila under the willows and had landed and were +fishing side by side, Melie and I, close to the two others. But here, +monsieur, I must enter into details. + +"We had only been there about five minutes when our neighbor's line began +to jerk twice, thrice; and then he pulled out a chub as thick as my +thigh; rather less, perhaps, but nearly as big! My heart beat, the +perspiration stood on my forehead and Melie said to me: 'Well, you sot, +did you see that?' + +"Just then Monsieur Bru, the grocer of Poissy, who is fond of gudgeon +fishing, passed in a boat and called out to me: 'So somebody has taken +your usual place, Monsieur Renard?' And I replied: 'Yes, Monsieur Bru, +there are some people in this world who do not know the rules of common +politeness.' + +"The little man in linen pretended not to hear, nor his fat lump of a +wife, either." + +Here the president interrupted him a second time: "Take care, you are +insulting the widow, Madame Flameche, who is present." + +Renard made his excuses: "I beg your pardon, I beg your pardon; my anger +carried me away. Well, not a quarter of an hour had passed when the +little man caught another chub, and another almost immediately, and +another five minutes later. + +"Tears were in my eyes, and I knew that Madame Renard was boiling with +rage, for she kept on nagging at me: 'Oh, how horrid! Don't you see that +he is robbing you of your fish? Do you think that you will catch +anything? Not even a frog, nothing whatever. Why, my hands are +tingling, just to think of it.' + +"But I said to myself: 'Let us wait until twelve o'clock. Then this +poacher will go to lunch and I shall get my place again. As for me, +Monsieur le President, I lunch on that spot every Sunday. We bring our +provisions in Delila. But there! At noon the wretch produced a chicken +in a newspaper, and while he was eating, he actually caught another chub! + +"Melie and I had a morsel also, just a bite, a mere nothing, for our +heart was not in it. + +"Then I took up my newspaper to aid my digestion. Every Sunday I read +the Gil Blas in the shade by the side of the water. It is Columbine's +day, you know; Columbine, who writes the articles in the Gil Blas. +I generally put Madame Renard into a rage by pretending to know this +Columbine. It is not true, for I do not know her and have never seen +her, but that does not matter. She writes very well, and then she says +things that are pretty plain for a woman. She suits me and there are not +many of her sort. + +"Well, I began to tease my wife, but she got angry immediately, and very +angry, so I held my tongue. At that moment our two witnesses who are +present here, Monsieur Ladureau and Monsieur Durdent, appeared on the +other side of the river. We knew each other by sight. The little man +began to fish again and he caught so many that I trembled with vexation +and his wife said: 'It is an uncommonly good spot, and we will come here +always, Desire.' As for me, a cold shiver ran down my back, and Madame +Renard kept repeating: 'You are not a man; you have the blood of a +chicken in your veins'; and suddenly I said to her: 'Look here, I would +rather go away or I shall be doing something foolish.' + +"And she whispered to me, as if she had put a red-hot iron under my nose: +'You are not a man. Now you are going to run away and surrender your +place! Go, then, Bazaine!' + +"I felt hurt, but yet I did not move, while the other fellow pulled out a +bream: Oh, I never saw such a large one before, never! And then my wife +began to talk aloud, as if she were thinking, and you can see her tricks. +She said: 'That is what one might call stolen fish, seeing that we set +the bait ourselves. At any rate, they ought to give us back the money we +have spent on bait.' + +"Then the fat woman in the cotton dress said in her turn: 'Do you mean to +call us thieves, madame?' Explanations followed and compliments began to +fly. Oh, Lord! those creatures know some good ones. They shouted so +loud that our two witnesses, who were on the other bank, began to call +out by way of a joke: 'Less noise over there; you will interfere with +your husbands' fishing.' + +"The fact is that neither the little man nor I moved any more than if we +had been two tree stumps. We remained there, with our eyes fixed on the +water, as if we had heard nothing; but, by Jove! we heard all the same. +'You are a thief! You are nothing better than a tramp! You are a +regular jade!' and so on and so on. A sailor could not have said more. + +"Suddenly I heard a noise behind me and turned round. It was the other +one, the fat woman, who had attacked my wife with her parasol. Whack, +whack! Melie got two of them. But she was furious, and she hits hard +when she is in a rage. She caught the fat woman by the hair and then +thump! thump! slaps in the face rained down like ripe plums. I should +have let them fight it out: women together, men together. It does not do +to mix the blows. But the little man in the linen jacket jumped up like +a devil and was going to rush at my wife. Ah! no, no, not that, my +friend! I caught the gentleman with the end of my fist, and crash! +crash! One on the nose, the other in the stomach. He threw up his arms +and legs and fell on his back into the river, just into the hole. + +"I should have fished him out most certainly, Monsieur le President, if I +had had time. But, to make matters worse, the fat woman had the upper +hand and was pounding Melie for all she was worth. I know I ought not to +have interfered while the man was in the water, but I never thought that +he would drown and said to myself: 'Bah, it will cool him.' + +"I therefore ran up to the women to separate them and all I received was +scratches and bites. Good Lord, what creatures! Well, it took me five +minutes, and perhaps ten, to separate those two viragos. When I turned +round there was nothing to be seen. + +The water was as smooth as a lake and the others yonder kept shouting: +'Fish him out! fish him out!' It was all very well to say that, but I +cannot swim and still less dive. + +"At last the man from the dam came and two gentlemen with boathooks, but +over a quarter of an hour had passed. He was found at the bottom of the +hole, in eight feet of water, as I have said. There he was, the poor +little man, in his linen suit! Those are the facts such as I have sworn +to. I am innocent, on my honor." + +The witnesses having given testimony to the same effect, the accused was +acquitted. + + + + + + + +THE SPASM + +The hotel guests slowly entered the dining-room and took their places. +The waiters did not hurry themselves, in order to give the late comers a +chance and thus avoid the trouble of bringing in the dishes a second +time. The old bathers, the habitues, whose season was almost over, +glanced, gazed toward the door whenever it opened, to see what new faces +might appear. + +This is the principal distraction of watering places. People look +forward to the dinner hour in order to inspect each day's new arrivals, +to find out who they are, what they do, and what they think. We always +have a vague desire to meet pleasant people, to make agreeable +acquaintances, perhaps to meet with a love adventure. In this life of +elbowings, unknown strangers assume an extreme importance. Curiosity is +aroused, sympathy is ready to exhibit itself, and sociability is the +order of the day. + +We cherish antipathies for a week and friendships for a month; we see +people with different eyes, when we view them through the medium of +acquaintanceship at watering places. We discover in men suddenly, after +an hour's chat, in the evening after dinner, under the trees in the park +where the healing spring bubbles up, a high intelligence and astonishing +merits, and a month afterward we have completely forgotten these new +friends, who were so fascinating when we first met them. + +Permanent and serious ties are also formed here sooner than anywhere +else. People see each other every day; they become acquainted very +quickly, and their affection is tinged with the sweetness and unrestraint +of long-standing intimacies. We cherish in after years the dear and +tender memories of those first hours of friendship, the memory of those +first conversations in which a soul was unveiled, of those first glances +which interrogate and respond to questions and secret thoughts which the +mouth has not as yet uttered, the memory of that first cordial +confidence, the memory of that delightful sensation of opening our hearts +to those who seem to open theirs to us in return. + +And the melancholy of watering places, the monotony of days that are all +alike, proves hourly an incentive to this heart expansion. + +Well, this evening, as on every other evening, we awaited the appearance +of strange faces. + +Only two appeared, but they were very remarkable, a man and a woman-- +father and daughter. They immediately reminded me of some of Edgar Poe's +characters; and yet there was about them a charm, the charm associated +with misfortune. I looked upon them as the victims of fate. The man was +very tall and thin, rather stooped, with perfectly white hair, too white +for his comparatively youthful physiognomy; and there was in his bearing +and in his person that austerity peculiar to Protestants. The daughter, +who was probably twenty-four or twenty-five, was small in stature, and +was also very thin, very pale, and she had the air of one who was worn +out with utter lassitude. We meet people like this from time to time, +who seem too weak for the tasks and the needs of daily life, too weak to +move about, to walk, to do all that we do every day. She was rather +pretty; with a transparent, spiritual beauty. And she ate with extreme +slowness, as if she were almost incapable of moving her arms. + +It must have been she, assuredly, who had come to take the waters. + +They sat facing me, on the opposite side of the table; and I at once +noticed that the father had a very singular, nervous twitching. + +Every time he wanted to reach an object, his hand described a sort of +zigzag before it succeeded in reaching what it was in search of, and +after a little while this movement annoyed me so that I turned aside my +head in order not to see it. + +I noticed, too, that the young girl, during meals, wore a glove on her +left hand. + +After dinner I went for a stroll in the park of the bathing +establishment. This led toward the little Auvergnese station of Chatel- +Guyon, hidden in a gorge at the foot of the high mountain, from which +flowed so many boiling springs, arising from the deep bed of extinct +volcanoes. Over yonder, above our heads, the domes of extinct craters +lifted their ragged peaks above the rest in the long mountain chain. For +Chatel-Guyon is situated at the entrance to the land of mountain domes. + +Beyond it stretches out the region of peaks, and, farther on again the +region of precipitous summits. + +The "Puy de Dome" is the highest of the domes, the Peak of Sancy is the +loftiest of the peaks, and Cantal is the most precipitous of these +mountain heights. + +It was a very warm evening, and I was walking up and down a shady path, +listening to the opening, strains of the Casino band, which was playing +on an elevation overlooking the park. + +And I saw the father and the daughter advancing slowly in my direction. +I bowed as one bows to one's hotel companions at a watering place; and +the man, coming to a sudden halt, said to me: + +"Could you not, monsieur, tell us of a nice walk to take, short, pretty, +and not steep; and pardon my troubling you?" + +I offered to show them the way toward the valley through which the little +river flowed, a deep valley forming a gorge between two tall, craggy, +wooded slopes. + +They gladly accepted my offer. + +And we talked, naturally, about the virtue of the waters. + +"Oh," he said, "my daughter has a strange malady, the seat of which is +unknown. She suffers from incomprehensible nervous attacks. At one time +the doctors think she has an attack of heart disease, at another time +they imagine it is some affection of the liver, and at another they +declare it to be a disease of the spine. To-day this protean malady, +that assumes a thousand forms and a thousand modes of attack, is +attributed to the stomach, which is the great caldron and regulator of +the body. This is why we have come here. For my part, I am rather +inclined to think it is the nerves. In any case it is very sad." + +Immediately the remembrance of the violent spasmodic movement of his hand +came back to my mind, and I asked him: + +"But is this not the result of heredity? Are not your own nerves +somewhat affected?" + +He replied calmly: + +"Mine? Oh, no-my nerves have always been very steady." + +Then, suddenly, after a pause, he went on: + +"Ah! You were alluding to the jerking movement of my hand every time I +try to reach for anything? This arises from a terrible experience which +I had. Just imagine, this daughter of mine was actually buried alive!" + +I could only utter, "Ah!" so great were my astonishment and emotion. + +He continued: + +"Here is the story. It is simple. Juliette had been subject for some +time to serious attacks of the heart. We believed that she had disease +of that organ, and were prepared for the worst. + +"One day she was carried into the house cold, lifeless, dead. She had +fallen down unconscious in the garden. The doctor certified that life +was extinct. I watched by her side for a day and two nights. I laid her +with my own hands in the coffin, which I accompanied to the cemetery, +where she was deposited in the family vault. It is situated in the very +heart of Lorraine. + +"I wished to have her interred with her jewels, bracelets, necklaces, +rings, all presents which she had received from me, and wearing her first +ball dress. + +"You may easily imagine my state of mind when I re-entered our home. +She was the only one I had, for my wife had been dead for many years. +I found my way to my own apartment in a half-distracted condition, +utterly exhausted, and sank into my easy-chair, without the capacity to +think or the strength to move. I was nothing better now than a +suffering, vibrating machine, a human being who had, as it were, been +flayed alive; my soul was like an open wound. + +"My old valet, Prosper, who had assisted me in placing Juliette in her +coffin, and aided me in preparing her for her last sleep, entered the +room noiselessly, and asked: + +"'Does monsieur want anything?' + +"I merely shook my head in reply. + +"'Monsieur is wrong,' he urged. 'He will injure his health. Would +monsieur like me to put him to bed?' + +"I answered: 'No, let me alone!' + +"And he left the room. + +"I know not how many hours slipped away. Oh, what a night, what a night! +It was cold. My fire had died out in the huge grate; and the wind, the +winter wind, an icy wind, a winter hurricane, blew with a regular, +sinister noise against the windows. + +"How many hours slipped away? There I was without sleeping, powerless, +crushed, my eyes wide open, my legs stretched out, my body limp, +inanimate, and my mind torpid with despair. Suddenly the great doorbell, +the great bell of the vestibule, rang out. + +"I started so that my chair cracked under me. The solemn, ponderous +sound vibrated through the empty country house as through a vault. +I turned round to see what the hour was by the clock. It was just two in +the morning. Who could be coming at such an hour? + +"And, abruptly, the bell again rang twice. The servants, without doubt, +were afraid to get up. I took a wax candle and descended the stairs. +I was on the point of asking: 'Who is there?' + +"Then I felt ashamed of my weakness, and I slowly drew back the heavy +bolts. My heart was throbbing wildly. I was frightened. I opened the +door brusquely, and in the darkness I distinguished a white figure, +standing erect, something that resembled an apparition. + +"I recoiled petrified with horror, faltering: + +"'Who-who-who are you?' + +"A voice replied: + +"'It is I, father.' + +"It was my daughter. + +"I really thought I must be mad, and I retreated backward before this +advancing spectre. I kept moving away, making a sign with my hand,' as +if to drive the phantom away, that gesture which you have noticed--that +gesture which has remained with me ever since. + +"'Do not be afraid, papa,' said the apparition. 'I was not dead. +Somebody tried to steal my rings and cut one of my fingers; the blood +began to flow, and that restored me to life.' + +"And, in fact, I could see that her hand was covered with blood. + +"I fell on my knees, choking with sobs and with a rattling in my throat. + +"Then, when I had somewhat collected my thoughts, though I was still so +bewildered that I scarcely realized the awesome happiness that had +befallen me, I made her go up to my room and sit dawn in my easy-chair; +then I rang excitedly for Prosper to get him to rekindle the fire and to +bring some wine, and to summon assistance. + +"The man entered, stared at my daughter, opened his mouth with a gasp of +alarm and stupefaction, and then fell back dead. + +"It was he who had opened the vault, who had mutilated and then abandoned +my daughter; for he could not efface the traces of the theft. He had not +even taken the trouble to put back the coffin into its place, feeling +sure, besides, that he would not be suspected by me, as I trusted him +absolutely. + +"You see, monsieur, that we are very unfortunate people." + +He was silent. + +The night had fallen, casting its shadows over the desolate, mournful +vale, and a sort of mysterious fear possessed me at finding myself by the +side of those strange beings, of this young girl who had come back from +the tomb, and this father with his uncanny spasm. + +I found it impossible to make any comment on this dreadful story. I only +murmured: + +"What a horrible thing!" + +Then, after a minute's silence, I added: + +"Let us go indoors. I think it is growing cool." + +And we made our way back to the hotel. + + + + + + +IN THE WOOD + +As the mayor was about to sit down to breakfast, word was brought to him +that the rural policeman, with two prisoners, was awaiting him at the +Hotel de Ville. He went there at once and found old Hochedur standing +guard before a middle-class couple whom he was regarding with a severe +expression on his face. + +The man, a fat old fellow with a red nose and white hair, seemed utterly +dejected; while the woman, a little roundabout individual with shining +cheeks, looked at the official who had arrested them, with defiant eyes. + +"What is it? What is it, Hochedur?" + +The rural policeman made his deposition: He had gone out that morning at +his usual time, in order to patrol his beat from the forest of Champioux +as far as the boundaries of Argenteuil. He had not noticed anything +unusual in the country except that it was a fine day, and that the wheat +was doing well, when the son of old Bredel, who was going over his vines, +called out to him: "Here, Daddy Hochedur, go and have a look at the +outskirts of the wood. In the first thicket you will find a pair of +pigeons who must be a hundred and thirty years old between them!" + +He went in the direction indicated, entered the thicket, and there he +heard words which made him suspect a flagrant breach of morality. +Advancing, therefore, on his hands and knees as if to surprise a poacher, +he had arrested the couple whom he found there. + +The mayor looked at the culprits in astonishment, for the man was +certainly sixty, and the woman fifty-five at least, and he began to +question them, beginning with the man, who replied in such a weak voice +that he could scarcely be heard. + +"What is your name?" + +"Nicholas Beaurain." + +"Your occupation?" + +"Haberdasher, in the Rue des Martyrs, in Paris." + +"What were you doing in the wood?" + +The haberdasher remained silent, with his eyes on his fat paunch, and his +hands hanging at his sides, and the mayor continued: + +"Do you deny what the officer of the municipal authorities states?" + +"No, monsieur." + +"So you confess it?" + +"Yes, monsieur." + +"What have you to say in your defence?" + +"Nothing, monsieur." + +"Where did you meet the partner in your misdemeanor?" + +"She is my wife, monsieur." + +"Your wife?" + +"Yes, monsieur." + +"Then--then--you do not live together-in Paris?" + +"I beg your pardon, monsieur, but we are living together!" + +"But in that case--you must be mad, altogether mad, my dear sir, to get +caught playing lovers in the country at ten o'clock in the morning." + +The haberdasher seemed ready to cry with shame, and he muttered: "It was +she who enticed me! I told her it was very stupid, but when a woman once +gets a thing into her head--you know--you cannot get it out." + +The mayor, who liked a joke, smiled and replied: "In your case, the +contrary ought to have happened. You would not be here, if she had had +the idea only in her head." + +Then Monsieur Beauain was seized with rage and turning to his wife, he +said: "Do you see to what you have brought us with your poetry? And now +we shall have to go before the courts at our age, for a breach of morals! +And we shall have to shut up the shop, sell our good will, and go to some +other neighborhood! That's what it has come to." + +Madame Beaurain got up, and without looking at her husband, she explained +herself without embarrassment, without useless modesty, and almost +without hesitation. + +"Of course, monsieur, I know that we have made ourselves ridiculous. +Will you allow me to plead my cause like an advocate, or rather like a +poor woman? And I hope that you will be kind enough to send us home, and +to spare us the disgrace of a prosecution. + +"Years ago, when I was young, I made Monsieur Beaurain's acquaintance one +Sunday in this neighborhood. He was employed in a draper's shop, and I +was a saleswoman in a ready-made clothing establishment. I remember it +as if it were yesterday. I used to come and spend Sundays here +occasionally with a friend of mine, Rose Leveque, with whom I lived in +the Rue Pigalle, and Rose had a sweetheart, while I had none. He used to +bring us here, and one Saturday he told me laughing that he should bring +a friend with him the next day. I quite understood what he meant, but I +replied that it would be no good; for I was virtuous, monsieur. + +"The next day we met Monsieur Beaurain at the railway station, and in +those days he was good-looking, but I had made up my mind not to +encourage him, and I did not. Well, we arrived at Bezons. It was a +lovely day, the sort of day that touches your heart. When it is fine +even now, just as it used to be formerly, I grow quite foolish, and when +I am in the country I utterly lose my head. The green grass, the +swallows flying so swiftly, the smell of the grass, the scarlet poppies, +the daisies, all that makes me crazy. It is like champagne when one is +not accustomed to it! + +"Well, it was lovely weather, warm and bright, and it seemed to penetrate +your body through your eyes when you looked and through your mouth when +you breathed. Rose and Simon hugged and kissed each other every minute, +and that gave me a queer feeling! Monsieur Beaurain and I walked behind +them, without speaking much, for when people do not know each other, they +do not find anything to talk about. He looked timid, and I liked to see +his embarrassment. At last we got to the little wood; it was as cool as +in a bath there, and we four sat down. Rose and her lover teased me +because I looked rather stern, but you will understand that I could not +be otherwise. And then they began to kiss and hug again, without putting +any more restraint upon themselves than if we had not been there; and +then they whispered together, and got up and went off among the trees, +without saying a word. You may fancy what I looked like, alone with this +young fellow whom I saw for the first time. I felt so confused at seeing +them go that it gave me courage, and I began to talk. I asked him what +his business was, and he said he was a linen draper's assistant, as I +told you just now. We talked for a few minutes, and that made him bold, +and he wanted to take liberties with me, but I told him sharply to keep +his place. Is not that true, Monsieur Beaurain?" + +Monsieur Beaurain, who was looking at his feet in confusion, did not +reply, and she continued: "Then he saw that I was virtuous, and he began +to make love to me nicely, like an honorable man, and from that time he +came every Sunday, for he was very much in love with me. I was very fond +of him also, very fond of him! He was a good-looking fellow, formerly, +and in short he married me the next September, and we started in business +in the Rue des Martyrs. + +"It was a hard struggle for some years, monsieur. Business did not +prosper, and we could not afford many country excursions, and, besides, +we had got out of the way of them. One has other things in one's head, +and thinks more of the cash box than of pretty speeches, when one is in +business. We were growing old by degrees without perceiving it, like +quiet people who do not think much about love. One does not regret +anything as long as one does not notice what one has lost. + +"And then, monsieur, business became better, and we were tranquil as to +the future! Then, you see, I do not exactly know what went on in my +mind, no, I really do not know, but I began to dream like a little +boarding-school girl. The sight of the little carts full of flowers +which are drawn about the streets made me cry; the smell of violets +sought me out in my easy-chair, behind my cash box, and made my heart +beat! Then I would get up and go out on the doorstep to look at the blue +sky between the roofs. When one looks up at the sky from the street, it +looks like a river which is descending on Paris, winding as it flows, and +the swallows pass to and fro in it like fish. These ideas are very +stupid at my age! But how can one help it, monsieur, when one has worked +all one's life? A moment comes in which one perceives that one could +have done something else, and that one regrets, oh! yes, one feels +intense regret! Just think, for twenty years I might have gone and had +kisses in the woods, like other women. I used to think how delightful it +would be to lie under the trees and be in love with some one! And I +thought of it every day and every night! I dreamed of the moonlight on +the water, until I felt inclined to drown myself. + +"I did not venture to speak to Monsieur Beaurain about this at first. +I knew that he would make fun of me, and send me back to sell my needles +and cotton! And then, to speak the truth, Monsieur Beaurain never said +much to me, but when I looked in the glass, I also understood quite well +that I no longer appealed to any one! + +"Well, I made up my mind, and I proposed to him an excursion into the +country, to the place where we had first become acquainted. He agreed +without mistrusting anything, and we arrived here this morning, about +nine o'clock. + +"I felt quite young again when I got among the wheat, for a woman's heart +never grows old! And really, I no longer saw my husband as he is at +present, but just as he was formerly! That I will swear to you, +monsieur. As true as I am standing here I was crazy. I began to kiss +him, and he was more surprised than if I had tried to murder him. +He kept saying to me: 'Why, you must be mad! You are mad this morning! +What is the matter with you?' I did not listen to him, I only listened to +my own heart, and I made him come into the wood with me. That is all. +I have spoken the truth, Monsieur le Maire, the whole truth." + +The mayor was a sensible man. He rose from his chair, smiled, and said: +"Go in peace, madame, and when you again visit our forests, be more +discreet." + + + + + + +MARTINE + +It came to him one Sunday after mass. He was walking home from church +along the by-road that led to his house when he saw ahead of him Martine, +who was also going home. + +Her father walked beside his daughter with the important gait of a rich +farmer. Discarding the smock, he wore a short coat of gray cloth and on +his head a round-topped hat with wide brim. + +She, laced up in a corset which she wore only once a week, walked along +erect, with her squeezed-in waist, her broad shoulders and prominent +hips, swinging herself a little. She wore a hat trimmed with flowers, +made by a milliner at Yvetot, and displayed the back of her full, round, +supple neck, reddened by the sun and air, on which fluttered little stray +locks of hair. + +Benoist saw only her back; but he knew well the face he loved, without, +however, having ever noticed it more closely than he did now. + +Suddenly he said: "Nom d'un nom, she is a fine girl, all the same, that +Martine." He watched her as she walked, admiring her hastily, feeling a +desire taking possession of him. He did not long to see her face again, +no. He kept gazing at her figure, repeating to himself: "Nom d'un nom, +she is a fine girl." + +Martine turned to the right to enter "La Martiniere," the farm of her +father, Jean Martin, and she cast a glance behind her as she turned +round. She saw Benoist, who looked to her very comical. She called out: +"Good-morning, Benoist." He replied: "Good-morning, Martine; good- +morning, mait Martin," and went on his way. + +When he reached home the soup was on the table. He sat down opposite his +mother beside the farm hand and the hired man, while the maid servant +went to draw some cider. + +He ate a few spoonfuls, then pushed away his plate. His mother said: + +"Don't you feel well?" + +"No. I feel as if I had some pap in my stomach and that takes away my +appetite." + +He watched the others eating, as he cut himself a piece of bread from +time to time and carried it lazily to his mouth, masticating it slowly. +He thought of Martine. "She is a fine girl, all the same." And to think +that he had not noticed it before, and that it came to him, just like +that, all at once, and with such force that he could not eat. + +He did not touch the stew. His mother said: + +"Come, Benoist, try and eat a little; it is loin of mutton, it will do +you good. When one has no appetite, they should force themselves to +eat." + +He swallowed a few morsels, then, pushing away his plate, said: + +"No. I can't go that, positively." + +When they rose from table he walked round the farm, telling the farm hand +he might go home and that he would drive up the animals as he passed by +them. + +The country was deserted, as it was the day of rest. Here and there in a +field of clover cows were moving along heavily, with full bellies, +chewing their cud under a blazing sun. Unharnessed plows were standing +at the end of a furrow; and the upturned earth ready for the seed showed +broad brown patches of stubble of wheat and oats that had lately been +harvested. + +A rather dry autumn wind blew across the plain, promising a cool evening +after the sun had set. Benoist sat down on a ditch, placed his hat on +his knees as if he needed to cool off his head, and said aloud in the +stillness of the country: "If you want a fine girl, she is a fine girl." + +He thought of it again at night, in his bed, and in the morning when he +awoke. + +He was not sad, he was not discontented, he could not have told what +ailed him. It was something that had hold of him, something fastened in +his mind, an idea that would not leave him and that produced a sort of +tickling sensation in his heart. + +Sometimes a big fly is shut up in a room. You hear it flying about, +buzzing, and the noise haunts you, irritates you. Suddenly it stops; you +forget it; but all at once it begins again, obliging you to look up. +You cannot catch it, nor drive it away, nor kill it, nor make it keep +still. As soon as it settles for a second, it starts off buzzing again. + +The recollection of Martine disturbed Benoist's mind like an imprisoned +fly. + +Then he longed to see her again and walked past the Martiniere several +times. He saw her, at last, hanging out some clothes on a line stretched +between two apple trees. + +It was a warm day. She had on only a short skirt and her chemise, +showing the curves of her figure as she hung up the towels. He remained +there, concealed by the hedge, for more than an hour, even after she had +left. He returned home more obsessed with her image than ever. + +For a month his mind was full of her, he trembled when her name was +mentioned in his presence. He could not eat, he had night sweats that +kept him from sleeping. + +On Sunday, at mass, he never took his eyes off her. She noticed it and +smiled at him, flattered at his appreciation. + +One evening, he suddenly met her in the road. She stopped short when she +saw him coming. Then he walked right up to her, choking with fear and +emotion, but determined to speak to her. He began falteringly: + +"See here, Martine, this cannot go on like this any longer." + +She replied as if she wanted to tease him: + +"What cannot go on any longer, Benoist?" + +"My thinking of you as many hours as there are in the day," he answered. + +She put her hands on her hips. + +"I do not oblige you to do so." + +"Yes, it is you," he stammered; "I cannot sleep, nor rest, nor eat, nor +anything." + +"What do you need to cure you of all that?" she asked. + +He stood there in dismay, his arms swinging, his eyes staring, his mouth +agape. + +She hit him a punch in the stomach and ran off. + +From that day they met each other along the roadside, in by-roads or else +at twilight on the edge of a field, when he was going home with his +horses and she was driving her cows home to the stable. + +He felt himself carried, cast toward her by a strong impulse of his heart +and body. He would have liked to squeeze her, strangle her, eat her, +make her part of himself. And he trembled with impotence, impatience, +rage, to think she did not belong to him entirely, as if they were one +being. + +People gossiped about it in the countryside. They said they were +engaged. He had, besides, asked her if she would be his wife, and she +had answered "Yes." + +They, were waiting for an opportunity to talk to their parents about it. + +But, all at once, she stopped coming to meet him at the usual hour. He +did not even see her as he wandered round the farm. He could only catch +a glimpse of her at mass on Sunday. And one Sunday, after the sermon, +the priest actually published the banns of marriage between Victoire- +Adelaide Martin and Josephin-Isidore Vallin. + +Benoist felt a sensation in his hands as if the blood had been drained +off. He had a buzzing in the ears; and could hear nothing; and presently +he perceived that his tears were falling on his prayer book. + +For a month he stayed in his room. Then he went back to his work. + +But he was not cured, and it was always in his mind. He avoided the +roads that led past her home, so that he might not even see the trees in +the yard, and this obliged him to make a great circuit morning and +evening. + +She was now married to Vallin, the richest farmer in the district. +Benoist and he did not speak now, though they had been comrades from +childhood. + +One evening, as Benoist was passing the town hall, he heard that she was +enceinte. Instead of experiencing a feeling of sorrow, he experienced, +on the contrary, a feeling of relief. It was over, now, all over. They +were more separated by that than by her marriage. He really preferred +that it should be so. + +Months passed, and more months. He caught sight of her, occasionally, +going to the village with a heavier step than usual. She blushed as she +saw him, lowered her head and quickened her pace. And he turned out of +his way so as not to pass her and meet her glance. + +He dreaded the thought that he might one morning meet her face to face, +and be obliged to speak to her. What could he say to her now, after all +he had said formerly, when he held her hands as he kissed her hair beside +her cheeks? He often thought of those meetings along the roadside. She +had acted horridly after all her promises. + +By degrees his grief diminished, leaving only sadness behind. And one +day he took the old road that led past the farm where she now lived. +He looked at the roof from a distance. It was there, in there, that she +lived with another! The apple trees were in bloom, the cocks crowed on +the dung hill. The whole dwelling seemed empty, the farm hands had gone +to the fields to their spring toil. He stopped near the gate and looked +into the yard. The dog was asleep outside his kennel, three calves were +walking slowly, one behind the other, towards the pond. A big turkey was +strutting before the door, parading before the turkey hens like a singer +at the opera. + +Benoist leaned against the gate post and was suddenly seized with a +desire to weep. But suddenly, he heard a cry, a loud cry for help coming +from the house. He was struck with dismay, his hands grasping the wooden +bars of the gate, and listened attentively. Another cry, a prolonged, +heartrending cry, reached his ears, his soul, his flesh. It was she who +was crying like that! He darted inside, crossed the grass patch, pushed +open the door, and saw her lying on the floor, her body drawn up, her +face livid, her eyes haggard, in the throes of childbirth. + +He stood there, trembling and paler than she was, and stammered: + +"Here I am, here I am, Martine!" + +She replied in gasps: + +"Oh, do not leave me, do not leave me, Benoist!" + +He looked at her, not knowing what to say, what to do. She began to cry +out again: + +"Oh, oh, it is killing me. Oh, Benoist!" + +She writhed frightfully. + +Benoist was suddenly seized with a frantic longing to help her, to quiet +her, to remove her pain. He leaned over, lifted her up and laid her on +her bed; and while she kept on moaning he began to take off her clothes, +her jacket, her skirt and her petticoat. She bit her fists to keep from +crying out. Then he did as he was accustomed to doing for cows, ewes, +and mares: he assisted in delivering her and found in his hands a large +infant who was moaning. + +He wiped it off and wrapped it up in a towel that was drying in front of +the fire, and laid it on a bundle of clothes ready for ironing that was +on the table. Then he went back to the mother. + +He took her up and placed her on the floor again, then he changed the +bedclothes and put her back into bed. She faltered: + +"Thank you, Benoist, you have a noble heart." And then she wept a little +as if she felt regretful. + +He did not love her any longer, not the least bit. It was all over. +Why? How? He could not have said. What had happened had cured him +better than ten years of absence. + +She asked, exhausted and trembling: + +"What is it?" + +He replied calmly: + +"It is a very fine girl." + +Then they were silent again. At the end of a few moments, the mother, in +a weak voice, said: + +"Show her to me, Benoist." + +He took up the little one and was showing it to her as if he were holding +the consecrated wafer, when the door opened, and Isidore Vallin appeared. + +He did not understand at first, then all at once he guessed. + +Benoist, in consternation, stammered out: + +"I was passing, I was just passing by when f heard her crying out, and I +came--there is your child, Vallin!" + +Then the husband, his eyes full of tears, stepped forward, took the +little mite of humanity that he held out to him, kissed it, unable to +speak from emotion for a few seconds; then placing the child on the bed, +he held out both hands to Benoist, saying: + +"Your hand upon it, Benoist. From now on we understand each other. If +you are willing, we will be a pair of friends, a pair of friends!" And +Benoist replied: "Indeed I will, certainly, indeed I will." + + + + + + +ALL OVER + +Compte de Lormerin had just finished dressing. He cast a parting glance +at the large mirror which occupied an entire panel in his dressing-room +and smiled. + +He was really a fine-looking man still, although quite gray. Tall, +slight, elegant, with no sign of a paunch, with a small mustache of +doubtful shade, which might be called fair, he had a walk, a nobility, a +"chic," in short, that indescribable something which establishes a +greater difference between two men than would millions of money. He +murmured: + +"Lormerin is still alive!" + +And he went into the drawing-room where his correspondence awaited him. + +On his table, where everything had its place, the work table of the +gentleman who never works, there were a dozen letters lying beside three +newspapers of different opinions. With a single touch he spread out all +these letters, like a gambler giving the choice of a card; and he scanned +the handwriting, a thing he did each morning before opening the +envelopes. + +It was for him a moment of delightful expectancy, of inquiry and vague +anxiety. What did these sealed mysterious letters bring him? What did +they contain of pleasure, of happiness, or of grief? He surveyed them +with a rapid sweep of the eye, recognizing the writing, selecting them, +making two or three lots, according to what he expected from them. Here, +friends; there, persons to whom he was indifferent; further on, +strangers. The last kind always gave him a little uneasiness. What did +they want from him? What hand had traced those curious characters full +of thoughts, promises, or threats? + +This day one letter in particular caught his eye. It was simple, +nevertheless, without seeming to reveal anything; but he looked at it +uneasily, with a sort of chill at his heart. He thought: "From whom can +it be? I certainly know this writing, and yet I can't identify it." + +He raised it to a level with his face, holding it delicately between two +fingers, striving to read through the envelope, without making up his +mind to open it. + +Then he smelled it, and snatched up from the table a little magnifying +glass which he used in studying all the niceties of handwriting. He +suddenly felt unnerved. "Whom is it from? This hand is familiar to me, +very familiar. I must have often read its tracings, yes, very often. +But this must have been a long, long time ago. Whom the deuce can it be +from? Pooh! it's only somebody asking for money." + +And he tore open the letter. Then he read: + + MY DEAR FRIEND: You have, without doubt, forgotten me, for it is now + twenty-five years since we saw each other. I was young; I am old. + When I bade you farewell, I left Paris in order to follow into the + provinces my husband, my old husband, whom you used to call "my + hospital." Do you remember him? He died five years ago, and now I + am returning to Paris to get my daughter married, for I have a + daughter, a beautiful girl of eighteen, whom you have never seen. + I informed you of her birth, but you certainly did not pay much + attention to so trifling an event. + + You are still the handsome Lormerin; so I have been told. Well, if + you still recollect little Lise, whom you used to call Lison, come + and dine with her this evening, with the elderly Baronne de Vance + your ever faithful friend, who, with some emotion, although happy, + reaches out to you a devoted hand, which you must c1asp, but no + longer kiss, my poor Jaquelet. + LISE DE VANCE. + +Lormerin's heart began to throb. He remained sunk in his armchair with +the letter on his knees, staring straight before him, overcome by a +poignant emotion that made the tears mount up to his eyes! + +If he had ever loved a woman in his life it was this one, little Lise, +Lise de Vance, whom he called "Ashflower," on account of the strange +color of her hair and the pale gray of her eyes. Oh! what a dainty, +pretty, charming creature she was, this frail baronne, the wife of that +gouty, pimply baron, who had abruptly carried her off to the provinces, +shut her up, kept her in seclusion through jealousy, jealousy of the +handsome Lormerin. + +Yes, he had loved her, and he believed that he too, had been truly loved. +She familiarly gave him, the name of Jaquelet, and would pronounce that +word in a delicious fashion. + +A thousand forgotten memories came back to him, far, off and sweet and +melancholy now. One evening she had called on him on her way home from a +ball, and they went for a stroll in the Bois de Boulogne, she in evening +dress, he in his dressing-jacket. It was springtime; the weather was +beautiful. The fragrance from her bodice embalmed the warm air-the odor +of her bodice, and perhaps, too, the fragrance of her skin. What a +divine night! When they reached the lake, as the moon's rays fell across +the branches into the water, she began to weep. A little surprised, he +asked her why. + +"I don't know. The moon and the water have affected me. Every time I +see poetic things I have a tightening at the heart, and I have to cry." + +He smiled, affected himself, considering her feminine emotion charming-- +the unaffected emotion of a poor little woman, whom every sensation +overwhelms. And he embraced her passionately, stammering: + +"My little Lise, you are exquisite." + +What a charming love affair, short-lived and dainty, it had been and over +all too quickly, cut short in the midst of its ardor by this old brute of +a baron, who had carried off his wife, and never let any one see her +afterward. + +Lormerin had forgotten, in fact, at the end of two or three months. One +woman drives out another so quickly in Paris, when one is a bachelor! No +matter; he had kept a little altar for her in his heart, for he had loved +her alone! He assured himself now that this was so. + +He rose, and said aloud : "Certainly, I will go and dine with her this +evening!" + +And instinctively he turned toward the mirror to inspect himself from +head to foot. He reflected: "She must look very old, older than I look." +And he felt gratified at the thought of showing himself to her still +handsome, still fresh, of astonishing her, perhaps of filling her with +emotion, and making her regret those bygone days so far, far distant! + +He turned his attention to the other letters. They were of no +importance. + +The whole day he kept thinking of this ghost of other days. What was she +like now? How strange it was to meet in this way after twenty-five +years! But would he recognize her? + +He made his toilet with feminine coquetry, put on a white waistcoat, +which suited him better with the coat than a black one, sent for the +hairdresser to give him a finishing touch With the curling iron, for he +had preserved his hair, and started very early in order to show his +eagerness to see her. + +The first thing he saw on entering a pretty drawing-room newly furnished +was his own portrait, an old faded photograph, dating from the days when +he was a beau, hanging on the wall in an antique silk frame. + +He sat down and waited. A door opened behind him. He rose up abruptly, +and, turning round, beheld an old woman with white hair who extended both +hands toward him. + +He seized them, kissed them one after the other several times; then, +lifting up his head, he gazed at the woman he had loved. + +Yes, it was an old lady, an old lady whom he did not recognize, and who, +while she smiled, seemed ready to weep. + +He could not abstain from murmuring: + +"Is it you, Lise?" + +She replied: + +"Yes, it is I; it is I, indeed. You would not have known me, would you? +I have had so much sorrow--so much sorrow. Sorrow has consumed my life. +Look at me now--or, rather, don't look at me! But how handsome you have +kept--and young! If I had by chance met you in the street I would have +exclaimed: 'Jaquelet!'. Now, sit down and let us, first of all, have a +chat. And then I will call my daughter, my grown-up daughter. You'll +see how she resembles me--or, rather, how I resembled her--no, it is not +quite that; she is just like the 'me' of former days--you shall see! But +I wanted to be alone with you first. I feared that there would be some +emotion on my side, at the first moment. Now it is all over; it is past. +Pray be seated, my friend." + +He sat down beside her, holding her hand; but he did not know what to +say; he did not know this woman--it seemed to him that he had never seen +her before. Why had he come to this house? What could he talk about? +Of the long ago? What was there in common between him and her? He could +no longer recall anything in presence of this grandmotherly face. He +could no longer recall all the nice, tender things, so sweet, so bitter, +that had come to his mind that morning when he thought of the other, of +little Lise, of the dainty Ashflower. What, then, had become of her, the +former one, the one he had loved? That woman of far-off dreams, the +blonde with gray eyes, the young girl who used to call him "Jaquelet" so +prettily? + +They remained side by side, motionless, both constrained, troubled, +profoundly ill at ease. + +As they talked only commonplaces, awkwardly and spasmodically and slowly, +she rose and pressed the button of the bell. + +"I am going to call Renee," she said. + +There was a tap at the door, then the rustle of a dress; then a young +voice exclaimed: + +"Here I am, mamma!" + +Lormerin remained bewildered as at the sight of an apparition. + +He stammered: + +"Good-day, mademoiselle" + +Then, turning toward the mother: + +"Oh! it is you! + +In fact, it was she, she whom he had known in bygone days, the Lise who +had vanished and come back! In her he found the woman he had won twenty- +five years before. This one was even younger, fresher, more childlike. + +He felt a wild desire to open his arms, to clasp her to his heart again, +murmuring in her ear: + +"Good-morning, Lison!" + +A man-servant announced: + +"Dinner is ready, madame." + +And they proceeded toward the dining-room. + +What passed at this dinner? What did they say to him, and what could he +say in reply? He found himself plunged in one of those strange dreams +which border on insanity. He gazed at the two women with a fixed idea in +his mind, a morbid, self-contradictory idea: + +"Which is the real one?" + +The mother smiled again repeating over and over: + +"Do you remember?" And it was in the bright eyes of the young girl that +he found again his memories of the past. Twenty times he opened his +mouth to say to her: "Do you remember, Lison?" forgetting this white- +haired lady who was looking at him tenderly. + +And yet, there were moments when, he no longer felt sure, when he lost +his head. He could see that the woman of to-day was not exactly the +woman of long ago. The other one, the former one, had in her voice, in +her glances, in her entire being, something which he did not find again. +And he made prodigious efforts of mind to recall his lady love, to seize +again what had escaped from her, what this resuscitated one did not +possess. + +The baronne said: + +"You have lost your old vivacity, my poor friend." + +He murmured: + +"There are many other things that I have lost!" + +But in his heart, touched with emotion, he felt his old love springing to +life once more, like an awakened wild beast ready to bite him. + +The young girl went on chattering, and every now and then some familiar +intonation, some expression of her mother's, a certain style of speaking +and thinking, that resemblance of mind and manner which people acquire by +living together, shook Lormerin from head to foot. All these things +penetrated him, making the reopened wound of his passion bleed anew. + +He got away early, and took a turn along the boulevard. But the image of +this young girl pursued him, haunted him, quickened his heart, inflamed +his blood. Apart from the two women, he now saw only one, a young one, +the old one come back out of the past, and he loved her as he had loved +her in bygone years. He loved her with greater ardor, after an interval +of twenty-five years. + +He went home to reflect on this strange and terrible thing, and to think +what he should do. + +But, as he was passing, with a wax candle in his hand, before the glass, +the large glass in which he had contemplated himself and admired himself +before he started, he saw reflected there an elderly, gray-haired man; +and suddenly he recollected what he had been in olden days, in the days +of little Lise. He saw himself charming and handsome, as he had been +when he was loved! Then, drawing the light nearer, he looked at himself +more closely, as one inspects a strange thing with a magnifying glass, +tracing the wrinkles, discovering those frightful ravages, which he had +not perceived till now. + +And he sat down, crushed at the sight of himself, at the sight of his +lamentable image, murmuring: + +"All over, Lormerin!" + + + + + + +THE PARROT + +Everybody in Fecamp knew Mother Patin's story. She had certainly been +unfortunate with her husband, for in his lifetime he used to beat her, +just as wheat is threshed in the barn. + +He was master of a fishing bark and had married her, formerly, because +she was pretty, although poor. + +Patin was a good sailor, but brutal. He used to frequent Father Auban's +inn, where he would usually drink four or five glasses of brandy, on +lucky days eight or ten glasses and even more, according to his mood. +The brandy was served to the customers by Father Auban's daughter, a +pleasing brunette, who attracted people to the house only by her pretty +face, for nothing had ever been gossiped about her. + +Patin, when he entered the inn, would be satisfied to look at her and to +compliment her politely and respectfully. After he had had his first +glass of brandy he would already find her much nicer; at the second he +would wink; at the third he would say. "If you were only willing, +Mam'zelle Desiree----" without ever finishing his sentence; at the fourth +he would try to hold her back by her skirt in order to kiss her; and when +he went as high as ten it was Father Auban who brought him the remaining +drinks. + +The old innkeeper, who knew all the tricks of the trade, made Desiree +walk about between the tables in order to increase the consumption of +drinks; and Desiree, who was a worthy daughter of Father Auban, flitted +around among the benches and joked with them, her lips smiling and her +eyes sparkling. + +Patin got so well accustomed to Desiree's face that he thought of it even +while at sea, when throwing out his nets, in storms or in calms, on +moonlit or dark evenings. He thought of her while holding the tiller in +the stern of his boat, while his four companions were slumbering with +their heads on their arms. He always saw her, smiling, pouring out the +yellow brandy with a peculiar shoulder movement and then exclaiming as +she turned away: "There, now; are you satisfied?" + +He saw her so much in his mind's eye that he was overcome by an +irresistible desire to marry her, and, not being able to hold out any +longer, he asked for her hand. + +He was rich, owned his own vessel, his nets and a little house at the +foot of the hill on the Retenue, whereas Father Auban had nothing. The +marriage was therefore eagerly agreed upon and the wedding took place as +soon as possible, as both parties were desirous for the affair to be +concluded as early as convenient. + +Three days after the wedding Patin could no longer understand how he had +ever imagined Desiree to be different from other women. What a fool he +had been to encumber himself with a penniless creature, who had +undoubtedly inveigled him with some drug which she had put in his brandy! + +He would curse all day lung, break his pipe with his teeth and maul his +crew. After he had sworn by every known term at everything that came his +way he would rid himself of his remaining anger on the fish and lobsters, +which he pulled from the nets and threw into the baskets amid oaths and +foul language. When he returned home he would find his wife, Father +Auban's daughter, within reach of his mouth and hand, and it was not long +before he treated her like the lowest creature in the world. As she +listened calmly, accustomed to paternal violence, he grew exasperated at +her quiet, and one evening he beat her. Then life at his home became +unbearable. + +For ten years the principal topic of conversation on the Retenue was +about the beatings that Patin gave his wife and his manner of cursing at +her for the least thing. He could, indeed, curse with a richness of +vocabulary in a roundness of tone unequalled by any other man in Fecamp. +As soon as his ship was sighted at the entrance of the harbor, returning +from the fishing expedition, every one awaited the first volley he would +hurl from the bridge as soon as he perceived his wife's white cap. + +Standing at the stern he would steer, his eye fixed on the bows and on +the sail, and, notwithstanding the difficulty of the narrow passage and +the height of the turbulent waves, he would search among the watching +women and try to recognize his wife, Father Auban's daughter, the wretch! + +Then, as soon as he saw her, notwithstanding the noise of the wind and +waves, he would let loose upon her with such power and volubility that +every one would laugh, although they pitied her greatly. When he arrived +at the dock he would relieve his mind, while unloading the fish, in such +an expressive manner that he attracted around him all the loafers of the +neighborhood. The words left his mouth sometimes like shots from a +cannon, short and terrible, sometimes like peals of thunder, which roll +and rumble for five minutes, such a hurricane of oaths that he seemed to +have in his lungs one of the storms of the Eternal Father. + +When he left his ship and found himself face to face with her, surrounded +by all the gossips of the neighborhood, he would bring up a new cargo of +insults and bring her back to their dwelling, she in front, he behind, +she weeping, he yelling at her. + +At last, when alone with her behind closed doors, he would thrash her on +the slightest pretext. The least thing was sufficient to make him raise +his hand, and when he had once begun he did not stop, but he would throw +into her face the true motive for his anger. At each blow he would roar: +"There, you beggar! There, you wretch! There, you pauper! What a +bright thing I did when I rinsed my mouth with your rascal of a father's +apology for brandy. + +The poor woman lived in continual fear, in a ceaseless trembling of body +and soul, in everlasting expectation of outrageous thrashings. + +This lasted ten years. She was so timorous that she would grow pale +whenever she spoke to any one, and she thought of nothing but the blows +with which she was threatened; and she became thinner, more yellow and +drier than a smoked fish. + + +II + +One night, when her husband was at sea, she was suddenly awakened by the +wild roaring of the wind! + +She sat up in her bed, trembling, but, as she hear nothing more, she lay +down again; almost immediately there was a roar in the chimney which +shook the entire house; it seemed to cross the heavens like a pack of +furious animals snorting and roaring. + +Then she arose and rushed to the harbor. Other women were arriving from +all sides, carrying lanterns. The men also were gathering, and all were +watching the foaming crests of the breaking wave. + +The storm lasted fifteen hours. Eleven sailors never returned; Patin was +among them. + +In the neighborhood of Dieppe the wreck of his bark, the Jeune-Amelie, +was found. The bodies of his sailors were found near Saint-Valery, but +his body was never recovered. As his vessel seemed to have been cut in +two, his wife expected and feared his return for a long time, for if +there had been a collision he alone might have been picked up and carried +afar off. + +Little by little she grew accustomed to the thought that she was rid of +him, although she would start every time that a neighbor, a beggar or a +peddler would enter suddenly. + +One afternoon, about four years after the disappearance of her husband, +while she was walking along the Rue aux Juifs, she stopped before the +house of an old sea captain who had recently died and whose furniture was +for sale. Just at that moment a parrot was at auction. He had green +feathers and a blue head and was watching everybody with a displeased +look. "Three francs!" cried the auctioneer. "A bird that can talk like +a lawyer, three francs!" + +A friend of the Patin woman nudged her and said: + +"You ought to buy that, you who are rich. It would be good company for +you. That bird is worth more than thirty francs. Anyhow, you can always +sell it for twenty or twenty-five!" + +Patin's widow added fifty centimes, and the bird was given her in a +little cage, which she carried away. She took it home, and, as she was +opening the wire door in order to give it something to drink, he bit her +finger and drew blood. + +"Oh, how naughty he is!" she said. + +Nevertheless she gave it some hemp-seed and corn and watched it pruning +its feathers as it glanced warily at its new home and its new mistress. +On the following morning, just as day was breaking, the Patin woman +distinctly heard a loud, deep, roaring voice calling: "Are you going to +get up, carrion?" + +Her fear was so great that she hid her head under the sheets, for when +Patin was with her as soon as he would open his eyes he would shout those +well-known words into her ears. + +Trembling, rolled into a ball, her back prepared for the thrashing which +she already expected, her face buried in the pillows, she murmured: "Good +Lord! he is here! Good Lord! he is here! Good Lord! he has come +back!" + +Minutes passed; no noise disturbed the quiet room. Then, trembling, she +stuck her head out of the bed, sure that he was there, watching, ready to +beat her. Except for a ray of sun shining through the window, she saw +nothing, and she said to her self: "He must be hidden." + +She waited a long time and then, gaining courage, she said to herself: "I +must have dreamed it, seeing there is nobody here." + +A little reassured, she closed. her eyes, when from quite near a furious +voice, the thunderous voice of the drowned man, could be heard crying: +"Say! when in the name of all that's holy are you going to get up, you +b----?" + +She jumped out of bed, moved by obedience, by the passive obedience of a +woman accustomed to blows and who still remembers and always will +remember that voice! She said: "Here I am, Patin; what do you want?" + +Put Patin did not answer. Then, at a complete loss, she looked around +her, then in the chimney and under the bed and finally sank into a chair, +wild with anxiety, convinced that Patin's soul alone was there, near her, +and that he had returned in order to torture her. + +Suddenly she remembered the loft, in order to reach which one had to take +a ladder. Surely he must have hidden there in order to surprise her. He +must have been held by savages on some distant shore, unable to escape +until now, and he had returned, worse that ever. There was no doubting +the quality of that voice. She raised her head and asked: "Are you up +there, Patin?" + +Patin did not answer. Then, with a terrible fear which made her heart +tremble, she climbed the ladder, opened the skylight, looked, saw +nothing, entered, looked about and found nothing. Sitting on some straw, +she began to cry, but while she was weeping, overcome by a poignant and +supernatural terror, she heard Patin talking in the room below. + +He seemed less angry and he was saying: "Nasty weather! Fierce wind! +Nasty weather! I haven't eaten, damn it!" + +She cried through the ceiling: "Here I am, Patin; I am getting your meal +ready. Don't get angry." + +She ran down again. There was no one in the room. She felt herself +growing weak, as if death were touching her, and she tried to run and get +help from the neighbors, when a voice near her cried out: "I haven't had +my breakfast, by G--!" + +And the parrot in his cage watched her with his round, knowing, wicked +eye. She, too, looked at him wildly, murmuring: "Ah! so it's you!" + +He shook his head and continued: "Just you wait! I'll teach you how to +loaf." + +What happened within her? She felt, she understood that it was he, the +dead man, who had come back, who had disguised himself in the feathers of +this bird in order to continue to torment her; that he would curse, as +formerly, all day long, and bite her, and swear at her, in order to +attract the neighbors and make them laugh. Then she rushed for the cage +and seized the bird, which scratched and tore her flesh with its claws +and beak. But she held it with all her strength between her hands. She +threw it on the ground and rolled over it with the frenzy of one +possessed. She crushed it and finally made of it nothing but a little +green, flabby lump which no longer moved or spoke. Then she wrapped it +in a cloth, as in a shroud, and she went out in her nightgown, barefoot; +she crossed the dock, against which the choppy waves of the sea were +beating, and she shook the cloth and let drop this little, dead thing, +which looked like so much grass. Then she returned, threw herself on her +knees before the empty cage, and, overcome by what she had done, kneeled +and prayed for forgiveness, as if she had committed some heinous crime. + + + + + + +THE PIECE OF STRING + +It was market-day, and from all the country round Goderville the peasants +and their wives were coming toward the town. The men walked slowly, +throwing the whole body forward at every step of their long, crooked +legs. They were deformed from pushing the plough which makes the left- +shoulder higher, and bends their figures side-ways; from reaping the +grain, when they have to spread their legs so as to keep on their feet. +Their starched blue blouses, glossy as though varnished, ornamented at +collar and cuffs with a little embroidered design and blown out around +their bony bodies, looked very much like balloons about to soar, whence +issued two arms and two feet. + +Some of these fellows dragged a cow or a calf at the end of a rope. And +just behind the animal followed their wives beating it over the back with +a leaf-covered branch to hasten its pace, and carrying large baskets out +of which protruded the heads of chickens or ducks. These women walked +more quickly and energetically than the men, with their erect, dried-up +figures, adorned with scanty little shawls pinned over their flat bosoms, +and their heads wrapped round with a white cloth, enclosing the hair and +surmounted by a cap. + +Now a char-a-banc passed by, jogging along behind a nag and shaking up +strangely the two men on the seat, and the woman at the bottom of the +cart who held fast to its sides to lessen the hard jolting. + +In the market-place at Goderville was a great crowd, a mingled multitude +of men and beasts. The horns of cattle, the high, long-napped hats of +wealthy peasants, the headdresses of the women came to the surface of +that sea. And the sharp, shrill, barking voices made a continuous, wild +din, while above it occasionally rose a huge burst of laughter from the +sturdy lungs of a merry peasant or a prolonged bellow from a cow tied +fast to the wall of a house. + +It all smelled of the stable, of milk, of hay and of perspiration, giving +off that half-human, half-animal odor which is peculiar to country folks. + +Maitre Hauchecorne, of Breaute, had just arrived at Goderville and was +making his way toward the square when he perceived on the ground a little +piece of string. Maitre Hauchecorne, economical as are all true Normans, +reflected that everything was worth picking up which could be of any use, +and he stooped down, but painfully, because he suffered from rheumatism. +He took the bit of thin string from the ground and was carefully +preparing to roll it up when he saw Maitre Malandain, the harness maker, +on his doorstep staring at him. They had once had a quarrel about a +halter, and they had borne each other malice ever since. Maitre +Hauchecorne was overcome with a sort of shame at being seen by his enemy +picking up a bit of string in the road. He quickly hid it beneath his +blouse and then slipped it into his breeches, pocket, then pretended to +be still looking for something on the ground which he did not discover +and finally went off toward the market-place, his head bent forward and +his body almost doubled in two by rheumatic pains. + +He was at once lost in the crowd, which kept moving about slowly and +noisily as it chaffered and bargained. The peasants examined the cows, +went off, came back, always in doubt for fear of being cheated, never +quite daring to decide, looking the seller square in the eye in the +effort to discover the tricks of the man and the defect in the beast. + +The women, having placed their great baskets at their feet, had taken out +the poultry, which lay upon the ground, their legs tied together, with +terrified eyes and scarlet combs. + +They listened to propositions, maintaining their prices in a decided +manner with an impassive face or perhaps deciding to accept the smaller +price offered, suddenly calling out to the customer who was starting to +go away: + +"All right, I'll let you have them, Mait' Anthime." + +Then, little by little, the square became empty, and when the Angelus +struck midday those who lived at a distance poured into the inns. + +At Jourdain's the great room was filled with eaters, just as the vast +court was filled with vehicles of every sort--wagons, gigs, chars-a- +bancs, tilburies, innumerable vehicles which have no name, yellow with +mud, misshapen, pieced together, raising their shafts to heaven like two +arms, or it may be with their nose on the ground and their rear in the +air. + +Just opposite to where the diners were at table the huge fireplace, with +its bright flame, gave out a burning heat on the backs of those who sat +at the right. Three spits were turning, loaded with chickens, with +pigeons and with joints of mutton, and a delectable odor of roast meat +and of gravy flowing over crisp brown skin arose from the hearth, kindled +merriment, caused mouths to water. + +All the aristocracy of the plough were eating there at Mait' Jourdain's, +the innkeeper's, a dealer in horses also and a sharp fellow who had made +a great deal of money in his day. + +The dishes were passed round, were emptied, as were the jugs of yellow +cider. Every one told of his affairs, of his purchases and his sales. +They exchanged news about the crops. The weather was good for greens, +but too wet for grain. + +Suddenly the drum began to beat in the courtyard before the house. Every +one, except some of the most indifferent, was on their feet at once and +ran to the door, to the windows, their mouths full and napkins in their +hand. + +When the public crier had finished his tattoo he called forth in a jerky +voice, pausing in the wrong places: + +"Be it known to the inhabitants of Goderville and in general to all +persons present at the market that there has been lost this morning on +the Beuzeville road, between nine and ten o'clock, a black leather +pocketbook containing five hundred francs and business papers. You are +requested to return it to the mayor's office at once or to Maitre Fortune +Houlbreque, of Manneville. There will be twenty francs reward." + +Then the man went away. They heard once more at a distance the dull +beating of the drum and the faint voice of the crier. Then they all +began to talk of this incident, reckoning up the chances which Maitre +Houlbreque had of finding or of not finding his pocketbook again. + +The meal went on. They were finishing their coffee when the corporal of +gendarmes appeared on the threshold. + +He asked: + +"Is Maitre Hauchecorne, of Breaute, here?" + +Maitre Hauchecorne, seated at the other end of the table answered: + +"Here I am, here I am." + +And he followed the corporal. + +The mayor was waiting for him, seated in an armchair. He was the notary +of the place, a tall, grave man of pompous speech. + +"Maitre Hauchecorne," said he, "this morning on the Beuzeville road, you +were seen to pick up the pocketbook lost by Maitre Houlbreque, of +Manneville." + +The countryman looked at the mayor in amazement frightened already at +this suspicion which rested on him, he knew not why. + +"I--I picked up that pocketbook?" + +"Yes, YOU." + +"I swear I don't even know anything about it." + +"You were seen." + +"I was seen--I? Who saw me?" + +"M. Malandain, the harness-maker." + +Then the old man remembered, understood, and, reddening with anger, said: + +"Ah! he saw me, did he, the rascal? He saw me picking up this string +here, M'sieu le Maire." + +And fumbling at the bottom of his pocket, he pulled out of it the little +end of string. + +But the mayor incredulously shook his head: + +"You will not make me believe, Maitre Hauchecorne, that M. Malandain, who +is a man whose word can be relied on, has mistaken this string for a +pocketbook." + +The peasant, furious, raised his hand and spat on the ground beside him +as if to attest his good faith, repeating: + +"For all that, it is God's truth, M'sieu le Maire. There! On my soul's +salvation, I repeat it." + +The mayor continued: + +"After you picked up the object in question, you even looked about for +some time in the mud to see if a piece of money had not dropped out of +it." + +The good man was choking with indignation and fear. + +"How can they tell--how can they tell such lies as that to slander an +honest man! How can they?" + +His protestations were in vain; he was not believed. + +He was confronted with M. Malandain, who repeated and sustained his +testimony. They railed at one another for an hour. At his own request +Maitre Hauchecorne was searched. Nothing was found on him. + +At last the mayor, much perplexed, sent him away, warning him that he +would inform the public prosecutor and ask for orders. + +The news had spread. When he left the mayor's office the old man was +surrounded, interrogated with a curiosity which was serious or mocking, +as the case might be, but into which no indignation entered. And he +began to tell the story of the string. They did not believe him. They +laughed. + +He passed on, buttonholed by every one, himself buttonholing his +acquaintances, beginning over and over again his tale and his +protestations, showing his pockets turned inside out to prove that he had +nothing in them. + +They said to him: + +"You old rogue!" + +He grew more and more angry, feverish, in despair at not being believed, +and kept on telling his story. + +The night came. It was time to go home. He left with three of his +neighbors, to whom he pointed out the place where he had picked up the +string, and all the way he talked of his adventure. + +That evening he made the round of the village of Breaute for the purpose +of telling every one. He met only unbelievers. + +He brooded over it all night long. + +The next day, about one in the afternoon, Marius Paumelle, a farm hand of +Maitre Breton, the market gardener at Ymauville, returned the pocketbook +and its contents to Maitre Holbreque, of Manneville. + +This man said, indeed, that he had found it on the road, but not knowing +how to read, he had carried it home and given it to his master. + +The news spread to the environs. Maitre Hauchecorne was informed. He +started off at once and began to relate his story with the denoument. He +was triumphant. + +"What grieved me," said he, "was not the thing itself, do you understand, +but it was being accused of lying. Nothing does you so much harm as +being in disgrace for lying." + +All day he talked of his adventure. He told it on the roads to the +people who passed, at the cabaret to the people who drank and next Sunday +when they came out of church. He even stopped strangers to tell them +about it. He was easy now, and yet something worried him without his +knowing exactly what it was. People had a joking manner while they +listened. They did not seem convinced. He seemed to feel their remarks +behind his back. + +On Tuesday of the following week he went to market at Goderville, +prompted solely by the need of telling his story. + +Malandain, standing on his doorstep, began to laugh as he saw him pass. +Why? + +He accosted a farmer of Criquetot, who did not let hire finish, and +giving him a punch in the pit of the stomach cried in his face: "Oh, you +great rogue!" Then he turned his heel upon him. + +Maitre Hauchecorne remained speechless and grew more and more uneasy. +Why had they called him "great rogue"? + +When seated at table in Jourdain's tavern he began again to explain the +whole affair. + +A horse dealer of Montivilliers shouted at him: + +"Get out, get out, you old scamp! I know all about your old string." + +Hauchecorne stammered: + +"But since they found it again, the pocketbook!" + +But the other continued: + +"Hold your tongue, daddy; there's one who finds it and there's another +who returns it. And no one the wiser." + +The farmer was speechless. He understood at last. They accused him of +having had the pocketbook brought back by an accomplice, by a +confederate. + +He tried to protest. The whole table began to laugh. + +He could not finish his dinner, and went away amid a chorus of jeers. + +He went home indignant, choking with rage, with confusion, the more cast +down since with his Norman craftiness he was, perhaps, capable of having +done what they accused him of and even of boasting of it as a good trick. +He was dimly conscious that it was impossible to prove his innocence, his +craftiness being so well known. He felt himself struck to the heart by +the injustice of the suspicion. + +He began anew to tell his tale, lengthening his recital every day, each +day adding new proofs, more energetic declarations and more sacred oaths, +which he thought of, which he prepared in his hours of solitude, for his +mind was entirely occupied with the story of the string. The more he +denied it, the more artful his arguments, the less he was believed. + +"Those are liars proofs," they said behind his back. + +He felt this. It preyed upon him and he exhausted himself in useless +efforts. + +He was visibly wasting away. + +Jokers would make him tell the story of "the piece of string" to amuse +them, just as you make a soldier who has been on a campaign tell his +story of the battle. His mind kept growing weaker and about the end of +December he took to his bed. + +He passed away early in January, and, in the ravings of death agony, he +protested his innocence, repeating: + +"A little bit of string--a little bit of string. See, here it is, M'sieu +le Maire." + + + + + + + VOLUME IX. + +TOINE +MADAME HUSSON'S ROSIER +THE ADOPTED SON +A COWARD +OLD MONGILET +MOONLIGHT +THE FIRST SNOWFALL +SUNDAYS OF A BOURGEOIS +A RECOLLECTION +OUR LETTERS +THE LOVE OF LONG AGO +FRIEND JOSEPH +THE EFFEMINATES +OLD AMABLE + + + + + + +TOINE + +He was known for thirty miles round was father Toine--fat Toine, Toine- +my-extra, Antoine Macheble, nicknamed Burnt-Brandy--the innkeeper of +Tournevent. + +It was he who had made famous this hamlet buried in a niche in the valley +that led down to the sea, a poor little peasants' hamlet consisting of +ten Norman cottages surrounded by ditches and trees. + +The houses were hidden behind a curve which had given the place the name +of Tournevent. It seemed to have sought shelter in this ravine overgrown +with grass and rushes, from the keen, salt sea wind--the ocean wind that +devours and burns like fire, that drys up and withers like the sharpest +frost of winter, just as birds seek shelter in the furrows of the fields +in time of storm. + +But the whole hamlet seemed to be the property of Antoine Macheble, +nicknamed Burnt-Brandy, who was called also Toine, or Toine-My-Extra- +Special, the latter in consequence of a phrase current in his mouth: + +"My Extra-Special is the best in France:" + +His "Extra-Special" was, of course, his cognac. + +For the last twenty years he had served the whole countryside with his +Extra-Special and his "Burnt-Brandy," for whenever he was asked: "What +shall I drink, Toine?" he invariably answered: "A burnt-brandy, my son- +in-law; that warms the inside and clears the head--there's nothing better +for your body." + +He called everyone his son-in-law, though he had no daughter, either +married or to be married. + +Well known indeed was Toine Burnt-Brandy, the stoutest man in all +Normandy. His little house seemed ridiculously small, far too small and +too low to hold him; and when people saw him standing at his door, as he +did all day long, they asked one another how he could possibly get +through the door. But he went in whenever a customer appeared, for it +was only right that Toine should be invited to take his thimbleful of +whatever was drunk in his wine shop. + +His inn bore the sign: "The Friends' Meeting-Place"--and old Toine was, +indeed, the friend of all. His customers came from Fecamp and +Montvilliers, just for the fun of seeing him and hearing him talk; for +fat Toine would have made a tombstone laugh. He had a way of chaffing +people without offending them, or of winking to express what he didn't +say, of slapping his thighs when he was merry in such a way as to make +you hold your sides, laughing. And then, merely to see him drink was a +curiosity. He drank everything that was offered him, his roguish eyes +twinkling, both with the enjoyment of drinking and at the thought of the +money he was taking in. His was a double pleasure: first, that of +drinking; and second, that of piling up the cash. + +You should have heard him quarrelling with his wife! It was worth paying +for to see them together. They had wrangled all the thirty years they +had been married; but Toine was good-humored, while his better-half grew +angry. She was a tall peasant woman, who walked with long steps like a +stork, and had a head resembling that of an angry screech-owl. She spent +her time rearing chickens in a little poultry-yard behind the inn, and +she was noted for her success in fattening them for the table. + +Whenever the gentry of Fecamp gave a dinner they always had at least one +of Madame Toine's chickens to be in the fashion. + +But she was born ill-tempered, and she went through life in a mood of +perpetual discontent. Annoyed at everyone, she seemed to be particularly +annoyed at her husband. She disliked his gaiety, his reputation, his +rude health, his embonpoint. She treated him as a good-for-nothing +creature because he earned his money without working, and as a glutton +because he ate and drank as much as ten ordinary men; and not a day went +by without her declaring spitefully: + +"You'd be better in the stye along with the pigs! You're so fat it makes +me sick to look at you!" + +And she would shout in his face: + +"Wait! Wait a bit! We'll see! You'll burst one of these fine days like +a sack of corn-you old bloat, you!" + +Toine would laugh heartily, patting his corpulent person, and replying: + +"Well, well, old hen, why don't you fatten up your chickens like that? +just try!" + +And, rolling his sleeves back from his enormous arm, he said: + +"That would make a fine wing now, wouldn't it?" + +And the customers, doubled up with laughter, would thump the table with +their fists and stamp their feet on the floor. + +The old woman, mad with rage, would repeat: + +"Wait a bit! Wait a bit! You'll see what'll happen. He'll burst like a +sack of grain!" + +And off she would go, amid the jeers and laughter of the drinkers. + +Toine was, in fact, an astonishing sight, he was so fat, so heavy, so +red. He was one of those enormous beings with whom Death seems to be +amusing himself--playing perfidious tricks and pranks, investing with an +irresistibly comic air his slow work of destruction. Instead of +manifesting his approach, as with others, in white hairs, in emaciation, +in wrinkles, in the gradual collapse which makes the onlookers say: "Gad! +how he has changed!" he took a malicious pleasure in fattening Toine, in +making him monstrous and absurd, in tingeing his face with a deep +crimson, in giving him the appearance of superhuman health, and the +changes he inflicts on all were in the case of Toine laughable, comic, +amusing, instead of being painful and distressing to witness. + +"Wait a bit! Wait a bit!" said his wife. "You'll see." + +At last Toine had an apoplectic fit, and was paralyzed in consequence. +The giant was put to bed in the little room behind the partition of the +drinking-room that he might hear what was said and talk to his friends, +for his head was quite clear although his enormous body was helplessly +inert. It was hoped at first that his immense legs would regain some +degree of power; but this hope soon disappeared, and Toine spent his days +and nights in the bed, which was only made up once a week, with the help +of four neighbors who lifted the innkeeper, each holding a limb, while +his mattress was turned. + +He kept his spirits, nevertheless; but his gaiety was of a different +kind--more timid, more humble; and he lived in a constant, childlike fear +of his wife, who grumbled from morning till night: + +"Look at him there--the great glutton! the good-for-nothing creature, the +old boozer! Serve him right, serve him right!" + +He no longer answered her. He contented himself with winking behind the +old woman's back, and turning over on his other side--the only movement +of which he was now capable. He called this exercise a "tack to the +north" or a "tack to the south." + +His great distraction nowadays was to listen to the conversations in the +bar, and to shout through the wall when he recognized a friend's voice: + +"Hallo, my son-in-law! Is that you, Celestin?" + +And Celestin Maloisel answered: + +"Yes, it's me, Toine. Are you getting about again yet, old fellow?" + +"Not exactly getting about," answered Toine. "But I haven't grown thin; +my carcass is still good." + +Soon he got into the way of asking his intimates into his room to keep +him company, although it grieved him to see that they had to drink +without him. It pained him to the quick that his customers should be +drinking without him. + +"That's what hurts worst of all," he would say: "that I cannot drink my +Extra-Special any more. I can put up with everything else, but going +without drink is the very deuce." + +Then his wife's screech-owl face would appear at the window, and she +would break in with the words: + +"Look at him! Look at him now, the good-for-nothing wretch! I've got to +feed him and wash him just as if he were a pig!" + +And when the old woman had gone, a cock with red feathers would sometimes +fly up to the window sill and looking into the room with his round +inquisitive eye, would begin to crow loudly. Occasionally, too, a few +hens would flutter as far as the foot of the bed, seeking crumbs on the +floor. Toine's friends soon deserted the drinking room to come and chat +every afternoon beside the invalid's bed. Helpless though he was, the +jovial Toine still provided them with amusement. He would have made the +devil himself laugh. Three men were regular in their attendance at the +bedside: Celestin Maloisel, a tall, thin fellow, somewhat gnarled, like +the trunk of an apple-tree; Prosper Horslaville, a withered little man +with a ferret nose, cunning as a fox; and Cesaire Paumelle, who never +spoke, but who enjoyed Toine's society all the same. + +They brought a plank from the yard, propped it upon the edge of the bed, +and played dominoes from two till six. + +But Toine's wife soon became insufferable. She could not endure that her +fat, lazy husband should amuse himself at games while lying in his bed; +and whenever she caught him beginning a game she pounced furiously on the +dominoes, overturned the plank, and carried all away into the bar, +declaring that it was quite enough to have to feed that fat, lazy pig +without seeing him amusing himself, as if to annoy poor people who had to +work hard all day long. + +Celestin Maloisel and Cesaire Paumelle bent their heads to the storm, but +Prosper Horslaville egged on the old woman, and was only amused at her +wrath. + +One day, when she was more angry than usual, he said: + +"Do you know what I'd do if I were you?" + +She fixed her owl's eyes on him, and waited for his next words. + +Prosper went on: + +"Your man is as hot as an oven, and he never leaves his bed--well, I'd +make him hatch some eggs." + +She was struck dumb at the suggestion, thinking that Prosper could not +possibly be in earnest. But he continued: + +"I'd put five under one arm, and five under the other, the same day that +I set a hen. They'd all come out at the same time; then I'd take your +husband's chickens to the hen to bring up with her own. You'd rear a +fine lot that way." + +"Could it be done?" asked the astonished old woman. + +"Could it be done?" echoed the man. "Why not? Since eggs can be hatched +in a warm box why shouldn't they be hatched in a warm bed?" + +She was struck by this reasoning, and went away soothed and reflective. + +A week later she entered Toine's room with her apron full of eggs, and +said: + +"I've just put the yellow hen on ten eggs. Here are ten for you; try not +to break them." + +"What do you want?" asked the amazed Toine. + +"I want you to hatch them, you lazy creature!" she answered. + +He laughed at first; then, finding she was serious, he got angry, and +refused absolutely to have the eggs put under his great arms, that the +warmth of his body might hatch them. + +But the old woman declared wrathfully: + +"You'll get no dinner as long as you won't have them. You'll see what'll +happen." + +Tome was uneasy, but answered nothing. + +When twelve o'clock struck, he called out: + +"Hullo, mother, is the soup ready?" + +"There's no soup for you, lazy-bones," cried the old woman from her +kitchen. + +He thought she must be joking, and waited a while. Then he begged, +implored, swore, "tacked to the north" and "tacked to the south," and +beat on the wall with his fists, but had to consent at last to five eggs +being placed against his left side; after which he had his soup. + +When his friends arrived that afternoon they thought he must be ill, he +seemed so constrained and queer. + +They started the daily game of dominoes. But Tome appeared to take no +pleasure in it, and reached forth his hand very slowly, and with great +precaution. + +"What's wrong with your arm?" asked Horslaville. + +"I have a sort of stiffness in the shoulder," answered Toine. + +Suddenly they heard people come into the inn. The players were silent. + +It was the mayor with the deputy. They ordered two glasses of Extra- +Special, and began to discuss local affairs. As they were talking in +somewhat low tones Toine wanted to put his ear to the wall, and, +forgetting all about his eggs, he made a sudden "tack to the north," +which had the effect of plunging him into the midst of an omelette. + +At the loud oath he swore his wife came hurrying into the room, and, +guessing what had happened, stripped the bedclothes from him with +lightning rapidity. She stood at first without moving or uttering a +syllable, speechless with indignation at sight of the yellow poultice +sticking to her husband's side. + +Then, trembling with fury, she threw herself on the paralytic, showering +on him blows such as those with which she cleaned her linen on the +seashore. Tome's three friends were choking with laughter, coughing, +spluttering and shouting, and the fat innkeeper himself warded his wife's +attacks with all the prudence of which he was capable, that he might not +also break the five eggs at his other side. + +Tome was conquered. He had to hatch eggs, he had to give up his games of +dominoes and renounce movement of any sort, for the old woman angrily +deprived him of food whenever he broke an egg. + +He lay on his back, with eyes fixed on the ceiling, motionless, his arms +raised like wings, warming against his body the rudimentary chickens +enclosed in their white shells. + +He spoke now only in hushed tones; as if he feared a noise as much as +motion, and he took a feverish interest in the yellow hen who was +accomplishing in the poultry-yard the same task as he. + +"Has the yellow hen eaten her food all right?" he would ask his wife. + +And the old woman went from her fowls to her husband and from her husband +to her fowls, devoured by anxiety as to the welfare of the little +chickens who were maturing in the bed and in the nest. + +The country people who knew the story came, agog with curiosity, to ask +news of Toine. They entered his room on tiptoe, as one enters a sick- +chamber, and asked: + +"Well! how goes it?" + +"All right," said Toine; "only it keeps me fearfully hot." + +One morning his wife entered in a state of great excitement, and +declared: + +"The yellow hen has seven chickens! Three of the eggs were addled." + +Toine's heart beat painfully. How many would he have? + +"Will it soon be over?" he asked, with the anguish of a woman who is +about to become a mother. + +"It's to be hoped so!" answered the old woman crossly, haunted by fear of +failure. + +They waited. Friends of Toine who had got wind that his time was drawing +near arrived, and filled the little room. + +Nothing else was talked about in the neighboring cottages. Inquirers +asked one another for news as they stood at their doors. + +About three o'clock Toine fell asleep. He slumbered half his time +nowadays. He was suddenly awakened by an unaccustomed tickling under his +right arm. He put his left hand on the spot, and seized a little +creature covered with yellow down, which fluttered in his hand. + +His emotion was so great that he cried out, and let go his hold of the +chicken, which ran over his chest. The bar was full of people at the +time. The customers rushed to Toine's room, and made a circle round him +as they would round a travelling showman; while Madame Toine picked up +the chicken, which had taken refuge under her husband's beard. + +No one spoke, so great was the tension. It was a warm April day. +Outside the window the yellow hen could be heard calling to her newly- +fledged brood. + +Toine, who was perspiring with emotion and anxiety, murmured: + +"I have another now--under the left arm." + +His' wife plunged her great bony hand into the bed, and pulled out a +second chicken with all the care of a midwife. + +The neighbors wanted to see it. It was passed from one to another, and +examined as if it were a phenomenon. + +For twenty minutes no more hatched out, then four emerged at the same +moment from their shells. + +There was a great commotion among the lookers-on. And Toine smiled with +satisfaction, beginning to take pride in this unusual sort of paternity. +There were not many like him! Truly, he was a remarkable specimen of +humanity! + +"That makes six!" he declared. "Great heavens, what a christening we'll +have!" + +And a loud laugh rose from all present. Newcomers filled the bar. They +asked one another: + +"How many are there?" + +"Six." + +Toine's wife took this new family to the hen, who clucked loudly, +bristled her feathers, and spread her wings wide to shelter her growing +brood of little ones. + +"There's one more!" cried Toine. + +He was mistaken. There were three! It was an unalloyed triumph! The +last chicken broke through its shell at seven o'clock in the evening. +All the eggs were good! And Toine, beside himself with joy, his brood +hatched out, exultant, kissed the tiny creature on the back, almost +suffocating it. He wanted to keep it in his bed until morning, moved by +a mother's tenderness toward the tiny being which he had brought to life, +but the old woman carried it away like the others, turning a deaf ear to +her husband's entreaties. + +The delighted spectators went off to spread the news of the event, and +Horslaville, who was the last to go, asked: + +"You'll invite me when the first is cooked, won't you, Toine?" + +At this idea a smile overspread the fat man's face, and he answered: + +"Certainly I'll invite you, my son-in-law." + + + + + + +MADAME HUSSON'S "ROSIER" + +We had just left Gisors, where I was awakened to hearing the name of the +town called out by the guards, and I was dozing off again when a terrific +shock threw me forward on top of a large lady who sat opposite me. + +One of the wheels of the engine had broken, and the engine itself lay +across the track. The tender and the baggage car were also derailed, and +lay beside this mutilated engine, which rattled, groaned, hissed, puffed, +sputtered, and resembled those horses that fall in the street with their +flanks heaving, their breast palpitating, their nostrils steaming and +their whole body trembling, but incapable of the slightest effort to rise +and start off again. + +There were no dead or wounded; only a few with bruises, for the train was +not going at full speed. And we looked with sorrow at the great crippled +iron creature that could not draw us along any more, and that blocked the +track, perhaps for some time, for no doubt they would have to send to +Paris for a special train to come to our aid. + +It was then ten o'clock in the morning, and I at once decided to go back +to Gisors for breakfast. + +As I was walking along I said to myself: + +"Gisors, Gisors--why, I know someone there! + +Who is it? Gisors? Let me see, I have a friend in this town." A name +suddenly came to my mind, "Albert Marambot." He was an old school friend +whom I had not seen for at least twelve years, and who was practicing +medicine in Gisors. He had often written, inviting me to come and see +him, and I had always promised to do so, without keeping my word. But at +last I would take advantage of this opportunity. + +I asked the first passer-by: + +"Do you know where Dr. Marambot lives?" + +He replied, without hesitation, and with the drawling accent of the +Normans: + +"Rue Dauphine." + +I presently saw, on the door of the house he pointed out, a large brass +plate on which was engraved the name of my old chum. I rang the bell, +but the servant, a yellow-haired girl who moved slowly, said with a +Stupid air: + +"He isn't here, he isn't here." + +I heard a sound of forks and of glasses and I cried: + +"Hallo, Marambot!" + +A door opened and a large man, with whiskers and a cross look on his +face, appeared, carrying a dinner napkin in his hand. + +I certainly should not have recognized him. One would have said he was +forty-five at least, and, in a second, all the provincial life which +makes one grow heavy, dull and old came before me. In a single flash of +thought, quicker than the act of extending my hand to him, I could see +his life, his manner of existence, his line of thought and his theories +of things in general. I guessed at the prolonged meals that had rounded +out his stomach, his after-dinner naps from the torpor of a slow +indigestion aided by cognac, and his vague glances cast on the patient +while he thought of the chicken that was roasting before the fire. His +conversations about cooking, about cider, brandy and wine, the way of +preparing certain dishes and of blending certain sauces were revealed to +me at sight of his puffy red cheeks, his heavy lips and his lustreless +eyes. + +"You do not recognize me. I am Raoul Aubertin," I said. + +He opened his arms and gave me such a hug that I thought he would choke +me. + +"You have not breakfasted, have you?" + +"No." + +"How fortunate! I was just sitting down to table and I have an excellent +trout." + +Five minutes later I was sitting opposite him at breakfast. I said: + +"Are you a bachelor?" + +"Yes, indeed." + +"And do you like it here?" + +"Time does not hang heavy; I am busy. I have patients and friends. +I eat well, have good health, enjoy laughing and shooting. I get along." + +"Is not life very monotonous in this little town?" + +"No, my dear boy, not when one knows how to fill in the time. A little +town, in fact, is like a large one. The incidents and amusements are +less varied, but one makes more of them; one has fewer acquaintances, but +one meets them more frequently. When you know all the windows in a +street, each one of them interests you and puzzles you more than a whole +street in Paris. + +"A little town is very amusing, you know, very amusing, very amusing. +Why, take Gisors. I know it at the tips of my fingers, from its +beginning up to the present time. You have no idea what queer history it +has." + +"Do you belong to Gisors?" + +"I? No. I come from Gournay, its neighbor and rival. Gournay is to +Gisors what Lucullus was to Cicero. Here, everything is for glory; they +say 'the proud people of Gisors.' At Gournay, everything is for the +stomach; they say 'the chewers of Gournay.' Gisors despises Gournay, but +Gournay laughs at Gisors. It is a very comical country, this." + +I perceived that I was eating something very delicious, hard-boiled eggs +wrapped in a covering of meat jelly flavored with herbs and put on ice +for a few moments. I said as I smacked my lips to compliment Marambot: + +"That is good." + +He smiled. + +"Two things are necessary, good jelly, which is hard to get, and good +eggs. Oh, how rare good eggs are, with the yolks slightly reddish, and +with a good flavor! I have two poultry yards, one for eggs and the other +for chickens. I feed my laying hens in a special manner. I have my own +ideas on the subject. In an egg, as in the meat of a chicken, in beef, +or in mutton, in milk, in everything, one perceives, and ought to taste, +the juice, the quintessence of all the food on which the animal has fed. +How much better food we could have if more attention were paid to this!" + +I laughed as I said: + +"You are a gourmand?" + +"Parbleu. It is only imbeciles who are not. One is a gourmand as one is +an artist, as one is learned, as one is a poet. The sense of taste, my +friend, is very delicate, capable of perfection, and quite as worthy of +respect as the eye and the ear. A person who lacks this sense is +deprived of an exquisite faculty, the faculty of discerning the quality +of food, just as one may lack the faculty of discerning the beauties of a +book or of a work of art; it means to be deprived of an essential organ, +of something that belongs to higher humanity; it means to belong to one +of those innumerable classes of the infirm, the unfortunate, and the +fools of which our race is composed; it means to have the mouth of an +animal, in a word, just like the mind of an animal. A man who cannot +distinguish one kind of lobster from another; a herring--that admirable +fish that has all the flavors, all the odors of the sea--from a mackerel +or a whiting; and a Cresane from a Duchess pear, may be compared to a man +who should mistake Balzac for Eugene Sue; a symphony of Beethoven for a +military march composed by the bandmaster of a regiment; and the Apollo +Belvidere for the statue of General de Blaumont. + +"Who is General de Blaumont?" + +"Oh, that's true, you do not know. It is easy to tell that you do not +belong to Gisors. I told you just now, my dear boy, that they called the +inhabitants of this town 'the proud people of Gisors,' and never was an +epithet better deserved. But let us finish breakfast first, and then I +will tell you about our town and take you to see it." + +He stopped talking every now and then while he slowly drank a glass of +wine which he gazed at affectionately as he replaced the glass on the +table. + +It was amusing to see him, with a napkin tied around his neck, his cheeks +flushed, his eyes eager, and his whiskers spreading round his mouth as it +kept working. + +He made me eat until I was almost choking. Then, as I was about to +return to the railway station, he seized me by the arm and took me +through the streets. The town, of a pretty, provincial type, commanded +by its citadel, the most curious monument of military architecture of the +seventh century to be found in France, overlooks, in its turn, a long, +green valley, where the large Norman cows graze and ruminate in the +pastures. + +The doctor quoted: + +"'Gisors, a town of 4,000 inhabitants in the department of Eure, +mentioned in Caesar's Commentaries: Caesaris ostium, then Caesartium, +Caesortium, Gisortium, Gisors.' I shall not take you to visit the old +Roman encampment, the remains of which are still in existence." + +I laughed and replied: + +"My dear friend, it seems to me that you are affected with a special +malady that, as a doctor, you ought to study; it is called the spirit of +provincialism." + +He stopped abruptly. + +"The spirit of provincialism, my friend, is nothing but natural +patriotism," he said. "I love my house, my town and my province because +I discover in them the customs of my own village; but if I love my +country, if I become angry when a neighbor sets foot in it, it is because +I feel that my home is in danger, because the frontier that I do not know +is the high road to my province. For instance, I am a Norman, a true +Norman; well, in spite of my hatred of the German and my desire for +revenge, I do not detest them, I do not hate them by instinct as I hate +the English, the real, hereditary natural enemy of the Normans; for the +English traversed this soil inhabited by my ancestors, plundered and +ravaged it twenty times, and my aversion to this perfidious people was +transmitted to me at birth by my father. See, here is the statue of the +general." + +"What general?" + +"General Blaumont! We had to have a statue. We are not 'the proud +people of Gisors' for nothing! So we discovered General de Blaumont. +Look in this bookseller's window." + +He drew me towards the bookstore, where about fifteen red, yellow and +blue volumes attracted the eye. As I read the titles, I began to laugh +idiotically. They read: + +Gisors, its origin, its future, by M. X. . . ., member of several +learned societies; History of Gisors, by the Abbe A . . . .; Gasors +from the time of Caesar to the present day, by M. B. . . ., Landowner; +Gisors and its environs, by Doctor C. D. . . ; The Glories of Gisors, +by a Discoverer. + +"My friend," resumed Marambot, "not a year, not a single year, you +understand, passes without a fresh history of Gisors being published +here; we now have twenty-three." + +"And the glories of Gisors?" I asked. + +"Oh, I will not mention them all, only the principal ones. We had first +General de Blaumont, then Baron Davillier, the celebrated ceramist who +explored Spain and the Balearic Isles, and brought to the notice of +collectors the wonderful Hispano-Arabic china. In literature we have a +very clever journalist, now dead, Charles Brainne, and among those who +are living, the very eminent editor of the Nouvelliste de Rouen, Charles +Lapierre . . . and many others, many others." + +We were traversing along street with a gentle incline, with a June sun +beating down on it and driving the residents into their houses. + +Suddenly there appeared at the farther end of the street a drunken man +who was staggering along, with his head forward his arms and legs limp. +He would walk forward rapidly three, six, or ten steps and then stop. +When these energetic movements landed him in the middle of the road he +stopped short and swayed on his feet, hesitating between falling and a +fresh start. Then he would dart off in any direction, sometimes falling +against the wall of a house, against which he seemed to be fastened, as +though he were trying to get in through the wall. Then he would suddenly +turn round and look ahead of him, his mouth open and his eyes blinking in +the sunlight, and getting away from the wall by a movement of the hips, +he started off once more. + +A little yellow dog, a half-starved cur, followed him, barking; stopping +when he stopped, and starting off when he started. + + +"Hallo," said Marambot, "there is Madame Husson's 'Rosier'. + +"Madame Husson's 'Rosier'," I exclaimed in astonishment. "What do you +mean?" + +The doctor began to laugh. + +"Oh, that is what we call drunkards round here. The name comes from an +old story which has now become a legend, although it is true in all +respects." + +"Is it an amusing story?" + +"Very amusing." + +"Well, then, tell it to me." + +"I will." + + +There lived formerly in this town a very upright old lady who was a great +guardian of morals and was called Mme. Husson. You know, I am telling +you the real names and not imaginary ones. Mme. Husson took a special +interest in good works, in helping the poor and encouraging the +deserving. She was a little woman with a quick walk and wore a black +wig. She was ceremonious, polite, on very good terms with the Almighty +in the person of Abby Malon, and had a profound horror, an inborn horror +of vice, and, in particular, of the vice the Church calls lasciviousness. +Any irregularity before marriage made her furious, exasperated her till +she was beside herself. + +Now, this was the period when they presented a prize as a reward of +virtue to any girl in the environs of Paris who was found to be chaste. +She was called a Rosiere, and Mme. Husson got the idea that she would +institute a similar ceremony at Gisors. She spoke about it to Abbe +Malon, who at once made out a list of candidates. + +However, Mme. Husson had a servant, an old woman called Francoise, as +upright as her mistress. As soon as the priest had left, madame called +the servant and said: + +"Here, Francoise, here are the girls whose names M. le cure has submitted +to me for the prize of virtue; try and find out what reputation they bear +in the district." + +And Francoise set out. She collected all the scandal, all the stories, +all the tattle, all the suspicions. That she might omit nothing, she +wrote it all down together with her memoranda in her housekeeping book, +and handed it each morning to Mme. Husson, who, after adjusting her +spectacles on her thin nose, read as follows: + + Bread...........................four sous + Milk............................two sous + Butter .........................eight sous +Malvina Levesque got into trouble last year with Mathurin Poilu. + Leg of mutton...................twenty-five sous + Salt............................one sou +Rosalie Vatinel was seen in the Riboudet woods with Cesaire Pienoir, by +Mme. Onesime, the ironer, on July the 20th about dusk. + Radishes........................one sou + Vinegar.........................two sous + Oxalic acid.....................two sous + +Josephine Durdent, who is not believed to have committed a fault, +although she corresponds with young Oportun, who is in service in Rouen, +and who sent her a present of a cap by diligence. + + +Not one came out unscathed in this rigorous inquisition. Francoise +inquired of everyone, neighbors, drapers, the principal, the teaching +sisters at school, and gathered the slightest details. + +As there is not a girl in the world about whom gossips have not found +something to say, there was not found in all the countryside one young +girl whose name was free from some scandal. + +But Mme. Husson desired that the "Rosiere" of Gisors, like Caesar's wife, +should be above suspicion, and she was horrified, saddened and in despair +at the record in her servant's housekeeping account-book. + +They then extended their circle of inquiries to the neighboring villages; +but with no satisfaction. + +They consulted the mayor. His candidates failed. Those of Dr. Barbesol +were equally unlucky, in spite of the exactness of his scientific +vouchers. + +But one morning Francoise, on returning from one of her expeditions, said +to her mistress: + +"You see, madame, that if you wish to give a prize to anyone, there is +only Isidore in all the country round." + +Mme. Husson remained thoughtful. She knew him well, this Isidore, the +son of Virginie the greengrocer. His proverbial virtue had been the +delight of Gisors for several years, and served as an entertaining theme +of conversation in the town, and of amusement to the young girls who +loved to tease him. He was past twenty-one, was tall, awkward, slow and +timid; helped his mother in the business, and spent his days picking over +fruit and vegetables, seated on a chair outside the door. + +He had an abnormal dread of a petticoat and cast down his eyes whenever a +female customer looked at him smilingly, and this well-known timidity +made him the butt of all the wags in the country. + +Bold words, coarse expressions, indecent allusions, brought the color to +his cheeks so quickly that Dr. Barbesol had nicknamed him "the +thermometer of modesty." Was he as innocent as he looked? ill-natured +people asked themselves. Was it the mere presentiment of unknown and +shameful mysteries or else indignation at the relations ordained as the +concomitant of love that so strongly affected the son of Virginie the +greengrocer? The urchins of the neighborhood as they ran past the shop +would fling disgusting remarks at him just to see him cast down his eyes. +The girls amused themselves by walking up and down before him, cracking +jokes that made him go into the store. The boldest among them teased him +to his face just to have a laugh, to amuse themselves, made appointments +with him and proposed all sorts of things. + +So Madame Husson had become thoughtful. + +Certainly, Isidore was an exceptional case of notorious, unassailable +virtue. No one, among the most sceptical, most incredulous, would have +been able, would have dared, to suspect Isidore of the slightest +infraction of any law of morality. He had never been seen in a cafe, +never been seen at night on the street. He went to bed at eight o'clock +and rose at four. He was a perfection, a pearl. + +But Mme. Husson still hesitated. The idea of substituting a boy for a +girl, a "rosier" for a rosiere," troubled her, worried her a little, and +she resolved to consult Abbe Malon. + +The abbe responded: + +"What do you desire to reward, madame? It is virtue, is it not, and +nothing but virtue? What does it matter to you, therefore, if it is +masculine or feminine? Virtue is eternal; it has neither sex nor +country; it is 'Virtue.'" + +Thus encouraged, Mme. Husson went to see the mayor. + +He approved heartily. + +"We will have a fine ceremony," he said. "And another year if we can +find a girl as worthy as Isidore we will give the reward to her. It will +even be a good example that we shall set to Nanterre. Let us not be +exclusive; let us welcome all merit." + +Isidore, who had been told about this, blushed deeply and seemed happy. + +The ceremony was fixed for the 15th of August, the festival of the Virgin +Mary and of the Emperor Napoleon. The municipality had decided to make +an imposing ceremony and had built the platform on the couronneaux, a +delightful extension of the ramparts of the old citadel where I will take +you presently. + +With the natural revulsion of public feeling, the virtue of Isidore, +ridiculed hitherto, had suddenly become respected and envied, as it would +bring him in five hundred francs besides a savings bank book, a mountain +of consideration, and glory enough and to spare. The girls now regretted +their frivolity, their ridicule, their bold manners; and Isidore, +although still modest and timid, had now a little contented air that +bespoke his internal satisfaction. + +The evening before the 15th of August the entire Rue Dauphine was +decorated with flags. Oh, I forgot to tell you why this street had been +called Rue Dauphine. + +It seems that the wife or mother of the dauphin, I do not remember which +one, while visiting Gisors had been feted so much by the authorities that +during a triumphal procession through the town she stopped before one of +the houses in this street, halting the procession, and exclaimed: + +"Oh, the pretty house! How I should like to go through it! To whom does +it belong?" + +They told her the name of the owner, who was sent for and brought, proud +and embarrassed, before the princess. She alighted from her carriage, +went into the house, wishing to go over it from top to bottom, and even +shut herself in one of the rooms alone for a few seconds. + +When she came out, the people, flattered at this honor paid to a citizen +of Gisors, shouted "Long live the dauphine!" But a rhymester wrote some +words to a refrain, and the street retained the title of her royal +highness, for + + "The princess, in a hurry, + Without bell, priest, or beadle, + But with some water only, + Had baptized it." + +But to come back to Isidore. + +They had scattered flowers all along the road as they do for processions +at the Fete-Dieu, and the National Guard was present, acting on the +orders of their chief, Commandant Desbarres, an old soldier of the Grand +Army, who pointed with pride to the beard of a Cossack cut with a single +sword stroke from the chin of its owner by the commandant during the +retreat in Russia, and which hung beside the frame containing the cross +of the Legion of Honor presented to him by the emperor himself. + +The regiment that he commanded was, besides, a picked regiment celebrated +all through the province, and the company of grenadiers of Gisors was +called on to attend all important ceremonies for a distance of fifteen to +twenty leagues. The story goes that Louis Philippe, while reviewing the +militia of Eure, stopped in astonishment before the company from Gisors, +exclaiming: + +"Oh, who are those splendid grenadiers?" + +"The grenadiers of Gisors,"replied the general. + +"I might have known it," murmured the king. + +So Commandant Desbarres came at the head of his men, preceded by the +band, to get Isidore in his mother's store. + +After a little air had been played by the band beneath the windows, the +"Rosier" himself appeared--on the threshold. He was dressed in white +duck from head to foot and wore a straw hat with a little bunch of orange +blossoms as a cockade. + +The question of his clothes had bothered Mme. Husson a good deal, and she +hesitated some time between the black coat of those who make their first +communion and an entire white suit. But Francoise, her counsellor, +induced her to decide on the white suit, pointing out that the Rosier +would look like a swan. + +Behind him came his guardian, his godmother, Mme. Husson, in triumph. +She took his arm to go out of the store, and the mayor placed himself on +the other side of the Rosier. The drums beat. Commandant Desbarres gave +the order "Present arms!" The procession resumed its march towards the +church amid an immense crowd of people who has gathered from the +neighboring districts. + +After a short mass and an affecting discourse by Abbe Malon, they +continued on their way to the couronneaux, where the banquet was served +in a tent. + +Before taking their seats at table, the mayor gave an address. This is +it, word for word. I learned it by heart: + +"Young man, a woman of means, beloved by the poor and respected by the +rich, Mme. Husson, whom the whole country is thanking here, through me, +had the idea, the happy and benevolent idea, of founding in this town a +prize for, virtue, which should serve as a valuable encouragement to the +inhabitants of this beautiful country. + +"You, young man, are the first to be rewarded in this dynasty of goodness +and chastity. Your name will remain at the head of this list of the most +deserving, and your life, understand me, your whole life, must correspond +to this happy commencement. To-day, in presence of this noble woman, of +these soldier-citizens who have taken up their arms in your honor, in +presence of this populace, affected, assembled to applaud you, or, +rather, to applaud virtue, in your person, you make a solemn contract +with the town, with all of us, to continue until your death the excellent +example of your youth. + +"Do not forget, young man, that you are the first seed cast into this +field of hope; give us the fruits that we expect of you." + +The mayor advanced three steps, opened his arms and pressed Isidore to +his heart. + +The "Rosier" was sobbing without knowing why, from a confused emotion, +from pride and a vague and happy feeling of tenderness. + +Then the mayor placed in one hand a silk purse in which gold tingled-- +five hundred francs in gold!--and in his other hand a savings bank book. +And he said in a solemn tone: + +"Homage, glory and riches to virtue." + +Commandant Desbarres shouted "Bravo!" the grenadiers vociferated, and the +crowd applauded. + +Mme. Husson wiped her eyes, in her turn. Then they all sat down at the +table where the banquet was served. + +The repast was magnificent and seemed interminable. One course followed +another; yellow cider and red wine in fraternal contact blended in the +stomach of the guests. The rattle of plates, the sound of voices, and of +music softly played, made an incessant deep hum, and was dispersed abroad +in the clear sky where the swallows were flying. Mme. Husson +occasionally readjusted her black wig, which would slip over on one side, +and chatted with Abbe Malon. The mayor, who was excited, talked politics +with Commandant Desbarres, and Isidore ate, drank, as if he had never +eaten or drunk before. He helped himself repeatedly to all the dishes, +becoming aware for the first time of the pleasure of having one's belly +full of good things which tickle the palate in the first place. He had +let out a reef in his belt and, without speaking, and although he was a +little uneasy at a wine stain on his white waistcoat, he ceased eating in +order to take up his glass and hold it to his mouth as long as possible, +to enjoy the taste slowly. + +It was time for the toasts. They were many and loudly applauded. +Evening was approaching and they had been at the table since noon. Fine, +milky vapors were already floating in the air in the valley, the light +night-robe of streams and meadows; the sun neared the horizon; the cows +were lowing in the distance amid the mists of the pasture. The feast was +over. They returned to Gisors. The procession, now disbanded, walked in +detachments. Mme. Husson had taken Isidore's arm and was giving him a +quantity of urgent, excellent advice. + +They stopped at the door of the fruit store, and the "Rosier" was left at +his mother's house. She had not come home yet. Having been invited by +her family to celebrate her son's triumph, she had taken luncheon with +her sister after having followed the procession as far as the banqueting +tent. + +So Isidore remained alone in the store, which was growing dark. He sat +down on a chair, excited by the wine and by pride, and looked about him. +Carrots, cabbages, and onions gave out their strong odor of vegetables in +the closed room, that coarse smell of the garden blended with the sweet, +penetrating odor of strawberries and the delicate, slight, evanescent +fragrance of a basket of peaches. + +The "Rosier" took one of these and ate it, although he was as full as an +egg. Then, all at once, wild with joy, he began to dance about the +store, and something rattled in his waistcoat. + +He was surprised, and put his hand in his pocket and brought out the +purse containing the five hundred francs, which he had forgotten in his +agitation. Five hundred francs! What a fortune! He poured the gold +pieces out on the counter and spread them out with his big hand with a +slow, caressing touch so as to see them all at the same time. There were +twenty-five, twenty-five round gold pieces, all gold! They glistened on +the wood in the dim light and he counted them over and over, one by one. +Then he put them back in the purse, which he replaced in his pocket. + +Who will ever know or who can tell what a terrible conflict took place in +the soul of the "Rosier" between good and evil, the tumultuous attack of +Satan, his artifices, the temptations which he offered to this timid +virgin heart? What suggestions, what imaginations, what desires were not +invented by the evil one to excite and destroy this chosen one? He +seized his hat, Mme. Husson's saint, his hat, which still bore the little +bunch of orange blossoms, and going out through the alley at the back of +the house, he disappeared in the darkness. + +Virginie, the fruiterer, on learning that her son had returned, went home +at once, and found the house empty. She waited, without thinking +anything about it at first; but at the end of a quarter of an hour she +made inquiries. The neighbors had seen Isidore come home and had not +seen him go out again. They began to look for him, but could not find +him. His mother, in alarm, went to the mayor. The mayor knew nothing, +except that he had left him at the door of his home. Mme. Husson had +just retired when they informed her that her protege had disappeared. +She immediately put on her wig, dressed herself and went to Virginie's +house. Virginie, whose plebeian soul was readily moved, was weeping +copiously amid her cabbages, carrots and onions. + +They feared some accident had befallen him. What could it be? +Commandant Desbarres notified the police, who made a circuit of the town, +and on the high road to Pontoise they found the little bunch of orange +blossoms. It was placed on a table around which the authorities were +deliberating. The "Rosier" must have been the victim of some stratagem, +some trick, some jealousy; but in what way? What means had been employed +to kidnap this innocent creature, and with what object? + +Weary of looking for him without any result, Virginie, alone, remained +watching and weeping. + +The following evening, when the coach passed by on its return from Paris, +Gisors learned with astonishment that its "Rosier" had stopped the +vehicle at a distance of about two hundred metres from the town, had +climbed up on it and paid his fare, handing over a gold piece and +receiving the change, and that he had quietly alighted in the centre of +the great city. + +There was great excitement all through the countryside. Letters passed +between the mayor and the chief of police in Paris, but brought no +result. + +The days followed one another, a week passed. + +Now, one morning, Dr. Barbesol, who had gone out early, perceived, +sitting on a doorstep, a man dressed in a grimy linen suit, who was +sleeping with his head leaning against the wall. He approached him and +recognized Isidore. He tried to rouse him, but did not succeed in doing +so. The ex-"Rosier" was in that profound, invincible sleep that is +alarming, and the doctor, in surprise, went to seek assistance to help +him in carrying the young man to Boncheval's drugstore. When they lifted +him up they found an empty bottle under him, and when the doctor sniffed +at it, he declared that it had contained brandy. That gave a suggestion +as to what treatment he would require. They succeeded in rousing him. + +Isidore was drunk, drunk and degraded by a week of guzzling, drunk and so +disgusting that a ragman would not have touched him. His beautiful white +duck suit was a gray rag, greasy, muddy, torn, and destroyed, and he +smelt of the gutter and of vice. + +He was washed, sermonized, shut up, and did not leave the house for four +days. He seemed ashamed and repentant. They could not find on him +either his purse, containing the five hundred francs, or the bankbook, or +even his silver watch, a sacred heirloom left by his father, the +fruiterer. + +On the fifth day he ventured into the Rue Dauphine, Curious glances +followed him and he walked along with a furtive expression in his eyes +and his head bent down. As he got outside the town towards the valley +they lost sight of him; but two hours later he returned laughing and +rolling against the walls. He was drunk, absolutely drunk. + +Nothing could cure him. + +Driven from home by his mother, he became a wagon driver, and drove the +charcoal wagons for the Pougrisel firm, which is still in existence. + +His reputation as a drunkard became so well known and spread so far that +even at Evreux they talked of Mme. Husson's "Rosier," and the sots of the +countryside have been given that nickname. + +A good deed is never lost. + + +Dr. Marambot rubbed his hands as he finished his story. I asked: + +"Did you know the 'Rosier'?" + +"Yes. I had the honor of closing his eyes." + +"What did he die of?" + +"An attack of delirium tremens, of course." + +We had arrived at the old citadel, a pile of ruined walls dominated by +the enormous tower of St. Thomas of Canterbury and the one called the +Prisoner's Tower. + +Marambot told me the story of this prisoner, who, with the aid of a nail, +covered the walls of his dungeon with sculptures, tracing the reflections +of the sun as it glanced through the narrow slit of a loophole. + +I also learned that Clothaire II had given the patrimony of Gisors to his +cousin, Saint Romain, bishop of Rouen; that Gisors ceased to be the +capital of the whole of Vexin after the treaty of Saint-Clair-sur-Epte; +that the town is the chief strategic centre of all that portion of +France, and that in consequence of this advantage she was taken and +retaken over and over again. At the command of William the Red, the +eminent engineer, Robert de Bellesme, constructed there a powerful +fortress that was attacked later by Louis le Gros, then by the Norman +barons, was defended by Robert de Candos, was finally ceded to Louis le +Gros by Geoffry Plantagenet, was retaken by the English in consequence of +the treachery of the Knights-Templars, was contested by Philippe-Augustus +and Richard the Lionhearted, was set on fire by Edward III of England, +who could not take the castle, was again taken by the English in 1419, +restored later to Charles VIII by Richard de Marbury, was taken by the +Duke of Calabria occupied by the League, inhabited by Henry IV, etc., +etc. + +And Marambot, eager and almost eloquent, continued: + +"What beggars, those English! And what sots, my boy; they are all +'Rosiers,' those hypocrites!" + +Then, after a silence, stretching out his arm towards the tiny river that +glistened in the meadows, he said: + +"Did you know that Henry Monnier was one of the most untiring fishermen +on the banks of the Epte?" + +"No, I did not know it." + +"And Bouffe, my boy, Bouffe was a painter on glass." + +"You are joking!" + +"No, indeed. How is it you do not know these things?" + + + + + + +THE ADOPTED SON + +The two cottages stood beside each other at the foot of a hill near a +little seashore resort. The two peasants labored hard on the +unproductive soil to rear their little ones, and each family had four. + +Before the adjoining doors a whole troop of urchins played and tumbled +about from morning till night. The two eldest were six years old, and +the youngest were about fifteen months; the marriages, and afterward the +births, having taken place nearly simultaneously in both families. + +The two mothers could hardly distinguish their own offspring among the +lot, and as for the fathers, they were altogether at sea. The eight +names danced in their heads; they were always getting them mixed up; and +when they wished to call one child, the men often called three names +before getting the right one. + +The first of the two cottages, as you came up from the bathing beach, +Rolleport, was occupied by the Tuvaches, who had three girls and one boy; +the other house sheltered the Vallins, who had one girl and three boys. + +They all subsisted frugally on soup, potatoes and fresh air. At seven +o'clock in the morning, then at noon, then at six o'clock in the evening, +the housewives got their broods together to give them their food, as the +gooseherds collect their charges. The children were seated, according to +age, before the wooden table, varnished by fifty years of use; the mouths +of the youngest hardly reaching the level of the table. Before them was +placed a bowl filled with bread, soaked in the water in which the +potatoes had been boiled, half a cabbage and three onions; and the whole +line ate until their hunger was appeased. The mother herself fed the +smallest. + +A small pot roast on Sunday was a feast for all; and the father on this +day sat longer over the meal, repeating: "I wish we could have this every +day." + +One afternoon, in the month of August, a phaeton stopped suddenly in +front of the cottages, and a young woman, who was driving the horses, +said to the gentleman sitting at her side: + +"Oh, look at all those children, Henri! How pretty they are, tumbling +about in the dust, like that!" + +The man did not answer, accustomed to these outbursts of admiration, +which were a pain and almost a reproach to him. The young woman +continued: + +"I must hug them! Oh, how I should like to have one of them--that one +there--the little tiny one!" + +Springing down from the carriage, she ran toward the children, took one +of the two youngest--a Tuvache child--and lifting it up in her arms, she +kissed him passionately on his dirty cheeks, on his tousled hair daubed +with earth, and on his little hands, with which he fought vigorously, to +get away from the caresses which displeased him. + +Then she got into the carriage again, and drove off at a lively trot. +But she returned the following week, and seating herself on the ground, +took the youngster in her arms, stuffed him with cakes; gave candies to +all the others, and played with them like a young girl, while the husband +waited patiently in the carriage. + +She returned again; made the acquaintance of the parents, and reappeared +every day with her pockets full of dainties and pennies. + +Her name was Madame Henri d'Hubieres. + +One morning, on arriving, her husband alighted with her, and without +stopping to talk to the children, who now knew her well, she entered the +farmer's cottage. + +They were busy chopping wood for the fire. They rose to their feet in +surprise, brought forward chairs, and waited expectantly. + +Then the woman, in a broken, trembling voice, began: + +"My good people, I have come to see you, because I should like--I should +like to take--your little boy with me--" + +The country people, too bewildered to think, did not answer. + +She recovered her breath, and continued: "We are alone, my husband and I. +We would keep it. Are you willing?" + +The peasant woman began to understand. She asked: + +"You want to take Charlot from us? Oh, no, indeed!" + +Then M. d'Hubieres intervened: + +"My wife has not made her meaning clear. We wish to adopt him, but he +will come back to see you. If he turns out well, as there is every +reason to expect, he will be our heir. If we, perchance, should have +children, he will share equally with them; but if he should not reward +our care, we should give him, when he comes of age, a sum of twenty +thousand francs, which shall be deposited immediately in his name, with +a lawyer. As we have thought also of you, we should pay you, until your +death, a pension of one hundred francs a month. Do you understand me?" + +The woman had arisen, furious. + +"You want me to sell you Charlot? Oh, no, that's not the sort of thing +to ask of a mother! Oh, no! That would be an abomination!" + +The man, grave and deliberate, said nothing; but approved of what his +wife said by a continued nodding of his head. + +Madame d'Hubieres, in dismay, began to weep; turning to her husband, with +a voice full of tears, the voice of a child used to having all its wishes +gratified, she stammered: + +"They will not do it, Henri, they will not do it." + +Then he made a last attempt: "But, my friends, think of the child's +future, of his happiness, of--" + +The peasant woman, however, exasperated, cut him short: + +"It's all considered! It's all understood! Get out of here, and don't +let me see you again--the idea of wanting to take away a child like +that!" + +Madame d'Hubieres remembered that there were two children, quite little, +and she asked, through her tears, with the tenacity of a wilful and +spoiled woman: + +"But is the other little one not yours?" + +Father Tuvache answered: "No, it is our neighbors'. You can go to them +if you wish." And he went back into his house, whence resounded the +indignant voice of his wife. + +The Vallins were at table, slowly eating slices of bread which they +parsimoniously spread with a little rancid butter on a plate between the +two. + +M. d'Hubieres recommenced his proposals, but with more insinuations, more +oratorical precautions, more shrewdness. + +The two country people shook their heads, in sign of refusal, but when +they learned that they were to have a hundred francs a month, they +considered the matter, consulting one another by glances, much disturbed. +They kept silent for a long time, tortured, hesitating. At last the +woman asked: "What do you say to it, man?" In a weighty tone he said: +"I say that it's not to be despised." + +Madame d'Hubieres, trembling with anguish, spoke of the future of their +child, of his happiness, and of the money which he could give them later. + +The peasant asked: "This pension of twelve hundred francs, will it be +promised before a lawyer?" + +M. d'Hubieres responded: "Why, certainly, beginning with to-morrow." + +The woman, who was thinking it over, continued: + +"A hundred francs a month is not enough to pay for depriving us of the +child. That child would be working in a few years; we must have a +hundred and twenty francs." + +Tapping her foot with impatience, Madame d'Hubieres granted it at once, +and, as she wished to carry off the child with her, she gave a hundred +francs extra, as a present, while her husband drew up a paper. And the +young woman, radiant, carried off the howling brat, as one carries away a +wished-for knick-knack from a shop. + +The Tuvaches, from their door, watched her departure, silent, serious, +perhaps regretting their refusal. + +Nothing more was heard of little Jean Vallin. The parents went to the +lawyer every month to collect their hundred and twenty francs. They had +quarrelled with their neighbors, because Mother Tuvache grossly insulted +them, continually, repeating from door to door that one must be unnatural +to sell one's child; that it was horrible, disgusting, bribery. +Sometimes she would take her Charlot in her arms, ostentatiously +exclaiming, as if he understood: + +"I didn't sell you, I didn't! I didn't sell you, my little one! I'm not +rich, but I don't sell my children!" + +The Vallins lived comfortably, thanks to the pension. That was the cause +of the unappeasable fury of the Tuvaches, who had remained miserably +poor. Their eldest went away to serve his time in the army; Charlot +alone remained to labor with his old father, to support the mother and +two younger sisters. + +He had reached twenty-one years when, one morning, a brilliant carriage +stopped before the two cottages. A young gentleman, with a gold watch- +chain, got out, giving his hand to an aged, white-haired lady. The old +lady said to him: "It is there, my child, at the second house." And he +entered the house of the Vallins as though at home. + +The old mother was washing her aprons; the infirm father slumbered at the +chimney-corner. Both raised their heads, and the young man said: + +"Good-morning, papa; good-morning, mamma!" + +They both stood up, frightened! In a flutter, the peasant woman dropped +her soap into the water, and stammered: + +"Is it you, my child? Is it you, my child?" + +He took her in his arms and hugged her, repeating: "Good-morning, mamma," +while the old man, all a-tremble, said, in his calm tone which he never +lost: "Here you are, back again, Jean," as if he had just seen him a +month ago. + +When they had got to know one another again, the parents wished to take +their boy out in the neighborhood, and show him. They took him to the +mayor, to the deputy, to the cure, and to the schoolmaster. + +Charlot, standing on the threshold of his cottage, watched him pass. +In the evening, at supper, he said to the old people: "You must have been +stupid to let the Vallins' boy be taken." + +The mother answered, obstinately: "I wouldn't sell my child." + +The father remained silent. The son continued: + +"It is unfortunate to be sacrificed like that." + +Then Father Tuvache, in an angry tone, said: + +"Are you going to reproach us for having kept you?" And the young man +said, brutally: + +"Yes, I reproach you for having been such fools. Parents like you make +the misfortune of their children. You deserve that I should leave you." +The old woman wept over her plate. She moaned, as she swallowed the +spoonfuls of soup, half of which she spilled: "One may kill one's self to +bring up children!" + +Then the boy said, roughly: "I'd rather not have been born than be what I +am. When I saw the other, my heart stood still. I said to myself: 'See +what I should have been now!'" He got up: "See here, I feel that I would +do better not to stay here, because I would throw it up to you from +morning till night, and I would make your life miserable. I'll never +forgive you for that!" + +The two old people were silent, downcast, in tears. + +He continued: "No, the thought of that would be too much. I'd rather +look for a living somewhere else." + +He opened the door. A sound of voices came in at the door. The Vallins +were celebrating the return of their child. + + + + + + +COWARD + +In society he was called "Handsome Signoles." His name was Vicomte +Gontran-Joseph de Signoles. + +An orphan, and possessed of an ample fortune, he cut quite a dash, as it +is called. He had an attractive appearance and manner, could talk well, +had a certain inborn elegance, an air of pride and nobility, a good +mustache, and a tender eye, that always finds favor with women. + +He was in great request at receptions, waltzed to perfection, and was +regarded by his own sex with that smiling hostility accorded to the +popular society man. He had been suspected of more than one love affair, +calculated to enhance the reputation of a bachelor. He lived a happy, +peaceful life--a life of physical and mental well-being. He had won +considerable fame as a swordsman, and still more as a marksman. + +"When the time comes for me to fight a duel," he said, "I shall choose +pistols. With such a weapon I am sure to kill my man." + +One evening, having accompanied two women friends of his with their +husbands to the theatre, he invited them to take some ice cream at +Tortoni's after the performance. They had been seated a few minutes in +the restaurant when Signoles noticed that a man was staring persistently +at one of the ladies. She seemed annoyed, and lowered her eyes. At last +she said to her husband: + +"There's a man over there looking at me. I don't know him; do you?" + +The husband, who had noticed nothing, glanced across at the offender, and +said: + +"No; not in the least." + +His wife continued, half smiling, half angry: + +"It's very tiresome! He quite spoils my ice cream." + +The husband shrugged his shoulders. + +"Nonsense! Don't take any notice of him. If we were to bother our heads +about all the ill-mannered people we should have no time for anything +else." + +But the vicomte abruptly left his seat. He could not allow this insolent +fellow to spoil an ice for a guest of his. It was for him to take +cognizance of the offence, since it was through him that his friends had +come to the restaurant. He went across to the man and said: + +"Sir, you are staring at those ladies in a manner I cannot permit. I +must ask you to desist from your rudeness." + +The other replied: + +"Let me alone, will you!" + +"Take care, sir," said the vicomte between his teeth, "or you will force +me to extreme measures." + +The man replied with a single word--a foul word, which could be heard +from one end of the restaurant to the other, and which startled every one +there. All those whose backs were toward the two disputants turned +round; all the others raised their heads; three waiters spun round on +their heels like tops; the two lady cashiers jumped, as if shot, then +turned their bodies simultaneously, like two automata worked by the same +spring. + +There was dead silence. Then suddenly a sharp, crisp sound. The vicomte +had slapped his adversary's face. Every one rose to interfere. Cards +were exchanged. + +When the vicomte reached home he walked rapidly up and down his room for +some minutes. He was in a state of too great agitation to think +connectedly. One idea alone possessed him: a duel. But this idea +aroused in him as yet no emotion of any kind. He had done what he was +bound to do; he had proved himself to be what he ought to be. He would +be talked about, approved, congratulated. He repeated aloud, speaking as +one does when under the stress of great mental disturbance: + +"What a brute of a man!" Then he sat down, and began to reflect. He +would have to find seconds as soon as morning came. Whom should he +choose? He bethought himself of the most influential and best-known men +of his acquaintance. His choice fell at last on the Marquis de la Tour- +Noire and Colonel Bourdin-a nobleman and a soldier. That would be just +the thing. Their names would carry weight in the newspapers. He was +thirsty, and drank three glasses of water, one after another; then he +walked up and down again. If he showed himself brave, deter mined, +prepared to face a duel in deadly earnest, his adversary would probably +draw back and proffer excuses. He picked up the card he had taken from +his pocket and thrown on a table. He read it again, as he had already +read it, first at a glance in the restaurant, and afterward on the way +home in the light of each gas lamp: "Georges Lamil, 51 Rue Moncey." That +was all. + +He examined closely this collection of letters, which seemed to him +mysterious, fraught with many meanings. Georges Lamil! Who was the man? +What was his profession? Why had he stared so at the woman? Was it not +monstrous that a stranger, an unknown, should thus all at once upset +one's whole life, simply because it had pleased him to stare rudely at a +woman? And the vicomte once more repeated aloud: + +"What a brute!" + +Then he stood motionless, thinking, his eyes still fixed on the card. +Anger rose in his heart against this scrap of paper--a resentful anger, +mingled with a strange sense of uneasiness. It was a stupid business +altogether! He took up a penknife which lay open within reach, and +deliberately stuck it into the middle of the printed name, as if he were +stabbing some one. + +So he would have to fight! Should he choose swords or pistols?--for he +considered himself as the insulted party. With the sword he would risk +less, but with the pistol there was some chance of his adversary backing +out. A duel with swords is rarely fatal, since mutual prudence prevents +the combatants from fighting close enough to each other for a point to +enter very deep. With pistols he would seriously risk his life; but, on +the other hand, he might come out of the affair with flying colors, and +without a duel, after all. + +"I must be firm," he said. "The fellow will be afraid." + +The sound of his own voice startled him, and he looked nervously round +the room. He felt unstrung. He drank another glass of water, and then +began undressing, preparatory to going to bed. + +As soon as he was in bed he blew out the light and shut his eyes. + +"I have all day to-morrow," he reflected, "for setting my affairs in +order. I must sleep now, in order to be calm when the time comes." + +He was very warm in bed, but he could not succeed in losing +consciousness. He tossed and turned, remained for five minutes lying on +his back, then changed to his left side, then rolled over to his right. +He was thirsty again, and rose to drink. Then a qualm seized him: + +"Can it be possible that I am afraid?" + +Why did his heart beat so uncontrollably at every well-known sound in his +room? When the clock was about to strike, the prefatory grating of its +spring made him start, and for several seconds he panted for breath, so +unnerved was he. + +He began to reason with himself on the possibility of such a thing: +"Could I by any chance be afraid?" + +No, indeed; he could not be afraid, since he was resolved to proceed to +the last extremity, since he was irrevocably determined to fight without +flinching. And yet he was so perturbed in mind and body that he asked +himself: + +"Is it possible to be afraid in spite of one's self?" + +And this doubt, this fearful question, took possession of him. If an +irresistible power, stronger than his own will, were to quell his +courage, what would happen? He would certainly go to the place +appointed; his will would force him that far. But supposing, when there, +he were to tremble or faint? And he thought of his social standing, his +reputation, his name. + +And he suddenly determined to get up and look at himself in the glass. +He lighted his candle. When he saw his face reflected in the mirror he +scarcely recognized it. He seemed to see before him a man whom he did +not know. His eyes looked disproportionately large, and he was very +pale. + +He remained standing before the mirror. He put out his tongue, as if to +examine the state of his health, and all at once the thought flashed into +his mind: + +"At this time the day after to-morrow I may be dead." + +And his heart throbbed painfully. + +"At this time the day after to-morrow I may be dead. This person in +front of me, this 'I' whom I see in the glass, will perhaps be no more. +What! Here I am, I look at myself, I feel myself to be alive--and yet in +twenty-four hours I may be lying on that bed, with closed eyes, dead, +cold, inanimate." + +He turned round, and could see himself distinctly lying on his back on +the couch he had just quitted. He had the hollow face and the limp hands +of death. + +Then he became afraid of his bed, and to avoid seeing it went to his +smoking-room. He mechanically took a cigar, lighted it, and began +walking back and forth. He was cold; he took a step toward the bell, to +wake his valet, but stopped with hand raised toward the bell rope. + +"He would see that I am afraid!" + +And, instead of ringing, he made a fire himself. His hands quivered +nervously as they touched various objects. His head grew dizzy, his +thoughts confused, disjointed, painful; a numbness seized his spirit, as +if he had been drinking. + +And all the time he kept on saying: + +"What shall I do? What will become of me?" + +His whole body trembled spasmodically; he rose, and, going to the window, +drew back the curtains. + +The day--a summer day-was breaking. The pink sky cast a glow on the +city, its roofs, and its walls. A flush of light enveloped the awakened +world, like a caress from the rising sun, and the glimmer of dawn kindled +new hope in the breast of the vicomte. What a fool he was to let himself +succumb to fear before anything was decided--before his seconds had +interviewed those of Georges Lamil, before he even knew whether he would +have to fight or not! + +He bathed, dressed, and left the house with a firm step. + +He repeated as he went: + +"I must be firm--very firm. I must show that I am not afraid." + +His seconds, the marquis and the colonel, placed themselves at his +disposal, and, having shaken him warmly by the hand, began to discuss +details. + +"You want a serious duel?" asked the colonel. + +"Yes--quite serious," replied the vicomte. + +"You insist on pistols?" put in the marquis. + +"Yes." + +"Do you leave all the other arrangements in our hands?" + +With a dry, jerky voice the vicomte answered: + +"Twenty paces--at a given signal--the arm to be raised, not lowered-- +shots to be exchanged until one or other is seriously wounded." + +"Excellent conditions," declared the colonel in a satisfied tone. "You +are a good shot; all the chances are in your favor." + +And they parted. The vicomte returned home to, wait for them. His +agitation, only temporarily allayed, now increased momentarily. He felt, +in arms, legs and chest, a sort of trembling--a continuous vibration; he +could not stay still, either sitting or standing. His mouth was parched, +and he made every now and then a clicking movement of the tongue, as if +to detach it from his palate. + +He attempted, to take luncheon, but could not eat. Then it occurred to +him to seek courage in drink, and he sent for a decanter of rum, of which +he swallowed, one after another, six small glasses. + +A burning warmth, followed by a deadening of the mental faculties, +ensued. He said to himself: + +"I know how to manage. Now it will be all right!" + +But at the end of an hour he had emptied the decanter, and his agitation +was worse than ever. A mad longing possessed him to throw himself on the +ground, to bite, to scream. Night fell. + +A ring at the bell so unnerved him that he had not the strength to rise +to receive his seconds. + +He dared not even to speak to them, wish them good-day, utter a single +word, lest his changed voice should betray him. + +"All is arranged as you wished," said the colonel. "Your adversary +claimed at first the privilege of the offended part; but he yielded +almost at once, and accepted your conditions. His seconds are two +military men." + +"Thank you," said the vicomte. + +The marquis added: + +"Please excuse us if we do not stay now, for we have a good deal to see +to yet. We shall want a reliable doctor, since the duel is not to end +until a serious wound has been inflicted; and you know that bullets are +not to be trifled with. We must select a spot near some house to which +the wounded party can be carried if necessary. In fact, the arrangements +will take us another two or three hours at least." + +The vicomte articulated for the second time: + +"Thank you." + +"You're all right?" asked the colonel. "Quite calm?" + +"Perfectly calm, thank you." + +The two men withdrew. + +When he was once more alone he felt as though he should go mad. His +servant having lighted the lamps, he sat down at his table to write some +letters. When he had traced at the top of a sheet of paper the words: +"This is my last will and testament," he started from his seat, feeling +himself incapable of connected thought, of decision in regard to +anything. + +So he was going to fight! He could no longer avoid it. What, then, +possessed him? He wished to fight, he was fully determined to fight, and +yet, in spite of all his mental effort, in spite of the exertion of all +his will power, he felt that he could not even preserve the strength +necessary to carry him through the ordeal. He tried to conjure up a +picture of the duel, his own attitude, and that of his enemy. + +Every now and then his teeth chattered audibly. He thought he would +read, and took down Chateauvillard's Rules of Dueling. Then he said: + +"Is the other man practiced in the use of the pistol? Is he well known? +How can I find out?" + +He remembered Baron de Vaux's book on marksmen, and searched it from end +to end. Georges Lamil was not mentioned. And yet, if he were not an +adept, would he have accepted without demur such a dangerous weapon and +such deadly conditions? + +He opened a case of Gastinne Renettes which stood on a small table, and +took from it a pistol. Next he stood in the correct attitude for firing, +and raised his arm. But he was trembling from head to foot, and the +weapon shook in his grasp. + +Then he said to himself: + +"It is impossible. I cannot fight like this." + +He looked at the little black, death-spitting hole at the end of the +pistol; he thought of dishonor, of the whispers at the clubs, the smiles +in his friends' drawing-rooms, the contempt of women, the veiled sneers +of the newspapers, the insults that would be hurled at him by cowards. + +He still looked at the weapon, and raising the hammer, saw the glitter of +the priming below it. The pistol had been left loaded by some chance, +some oversight. And the discovery rejoiced him, he knew not why. + +If he did not maintain, in presence of his opponent, the steadfast +bearing which was so necessary to his honor, he would be ruined forever. +He would be branded, stigmatized as a coward, hounded out of society! +And he felt, he knew, that he could not maintain that calm, unmoved +demeanor. And yet he was brave, since the thought that followed was not +even rounded to a finish in his mind; but, opening his mouth wide, he +suddenly plunged the barrel of the pistol as far back as his throat, and +pressed the trigger. + +When the valet, alarmed at the report, rushed into the room he found his +master lying dead upon his back. A spurt of blood had splashed the white +paper on the table, and had made a great crimson stain beneath the words: + +"This is my last will and testament." + + + + + + +OLD MONGILET + +In the office old Mongilet was considered a type. He was a good old +employee, who had never been outside Paris but once in his life. + +It was the end of July, and each of us, every Sunday, went to roll in the +grass, or soak in the water in the country near by. Asnieres, +Argenteuil, Chatou, Borgival, Maisons, Poissy, had their habitues and +their ardent admirers. We argued about the merits and advantages of all +these places, celebrated and delightful to all Parsian employees. + +Daddy Mongilet declared: + +"You are like a lot of sheep! It must be pretty, this country you talk +of!" + +"Well, how about you, Mongilet? Don't you ever go on an excursion?" + +"Yes, indeed. I go in an omnibus. When I have had a good luncheon, +without any hurry, at the wine shop down there, I look up my route with a +plan of Paris, and the time table of the lines and connections. And then +I climb up on the box, open my umbrella and off we go. Oh, I see lots of +things, more than you, I bet! I change my surroundings. It is as though +I were taking a journey across the world, the people are so different in +one street and another. I know my Paris better than anyone. And then, +there is nothing more amusing than the entresols. You would not believe +what one sees in there at a glance. One guesses at domestic scenes +simply at sight of the face of a man who is roaring; one is amused on +passing by a barber's shop, to see the barber leave his customer whose +face is covered with lather to look out in the street. One exchanges +heartfelt glances with the milliners just for fun, as one has no time to +alight. Ah, how many things one sees! + +"It is the drama, the real, the true, the drama of nature, seen as the +horses trot by. Heavens! I would not give my excursions in the omnibus +for all your stupid excursions in the woods." + +"Come and try it, Mongilet, come to the country once just to see." + +"I was there once," he replied, "twenty years ago, and you will never +catch me there again." + +"Tell us about it, Mongilet." + +"If you wish to hear it. This is how it was: + +You knew Boivin, the old editorial clerk, whom we called Boileau?" + +"Yes, perfectly." + +"He was my office chum. The rascal had a house at Colombes and always +invited me to spend Sunday with him. He would say: + +"'Come along, Maculotte [he called me Maculotte for fun]. You will see +what a nice excursion we will take.' + +"I let myself be entrapped like an animal, and set out, one morning by +the 8 o'clock train. I arrived at a kind of town, a country town where +there is nothing to see, and I at length found my way to an old wooden +door with an iron bell, at the end of an alley between two walls. + +"I rang, and waited a long time, and at last the door was opened. What +was it that opened it? I could not tell at the first glance. A woman or +an ape? The creature was old, ugly, covered with old clothes that looked +dirty and wicked. It had chicken's feathers in its hair and looked as +though it would devour me. + +"'What do you want?' she said. + +"'Mr. Boivin.' + +"'What do you want of him, of Mr. Boivin?' + +"I felt ill at ease on being questioned by this fury. I stammered: +'Why-he expects me.' + +"'Ah, it is you who have come to luncheon?' + +"'Yes,' I stammered, trembling. + +"Then, turning toward the house, she cried in an angry tone: + +"'Boivin, here is your man!' + +"It was my friend's wife. Little Boivin appeared immediately on the +threshold of a sort of barrack of plaster covered with zinc, that looked +like a foot stove. He wore white duck trousers covered with stains and a +dirty Panama hat. + +"After shaking my hands warmly, he took me into what he called his +garden. It was at the end of another alleyway enclosed by high walls and +was a little square the size of a pocket handkerchief, surrounded by +houses that were so high that the sun, could reach it only two or three +hours in the day. Pansies, pinks, wallflowers and a few rose bushes were +languishing in this well without air, and hot as an oven from the +refraction of heat from the roofs. + +"'I have no trees,' said Boivin, 'but the neighbors' walls take their +place. I have as much shade as in a wood.' + +"Then he took hold of a button of my coat and said in a low tone: + +"'You can do me a service. You saw the wife. She is not agreeable, eh? +To-day, as I had invited you, she gave me clean clothes; but if I spot +them all is lost. I counted on you to water my plants.' + +"I agreed. I took off my coat, rolled up my sleeves, and began to work +the handle of a kind of pump that wheezed, puffed and rattled like a +consumptive as it emitted a thread of water like a Wallace drinking +fountain. It took me ten minutes to water it and I was in a bath of +perspiration. Boivin directed me: + +"'Here--this plant--a little more; enough--now this one.' + +"The watering pot leaked and my feet got more water than the flowers. +The bottoms of my trousers were soaking and covered with mud. And twenty +times running I kept it up, soaking my feet afresh each time, and +perspiring anew as I worked the handle of the pump. And when I was tired +out and wanted to stop, Boivin, in a tone of entreaty, said as he put his +hand on my arm: + +"Just one more watering pot full--just one, and that will be all.' + +"To thank me he gave me a rose, a big rose, but hardly had it touched my +button-hole than it fell to pieces, leaving only a hard little green knot +as a decoration. I was surprised, but said nothing. + +"Mme. Boivin's voice was heard in the distance: + +'Are you ever coming? When you know that luncheon is ready!' + +"We went toward the foot stove. If the garden was in the shade, the +house, on the other hand, was in the blazing sun, and the sweating room +in the Turkish bath is not as hot as was my friend's dining room. + +"Three plates at the side of which were some half-washed forks, were +placed on a table of yellow wood in the middle of which stood an +earthenware dish containing boiled beef and potatoes. We began to eat. + +"A large water bottle full of water lightly colored with wine attracted +my attention. Boivin, embarrassed, said to his wife: + +"'See here, my dear, just on a special occasion, are you not going to +give us some plain wine?' + +"She looked at him furiously. + +"'So that you may both get tipsy, is that it, and stay here gabbing all +day? A fig for your special occasion!' + +"He said no more. After the stew she brought in another dish of potatoes +cooked with bacon. When this dish was finished, still in silence, she +announced: + +"'That is all! Now get out!' + +"Boivin looked at her in astonishment. + +"'But the pigeon--the pigeon you plucked this morning?' + +"She put her hands on her hips: + +"'Perhaps you have not had enough? Because you bring people here is no +reason why we should devour all that there is in the house. What is +there for me to eat this evening?' + +"We rose. Solvin whispered + +"'Wait for me a second, and we will skip.' + +"He went into the kitchen where his wife had gone, and I overheard him +say: + +"'Give me twenty sous, my dear.' + +"'What do you want with twenty sons?' + +"'Why, one does not know what may happen. It is always better to have +some money.' + +"She yelled so that I should hear: + +"'No, I will not give it to you! As the man has had luncheon here, the +least he can do is to pay your expenses for the day.' + +"Boivin came back to fetch me. As I wished to be polite I bowed to the +mistress of the house, stammering: + +"'Madame--many thanks--kind welcome.' + +"'That's all right,' she replied. 'But do not bring him back drunk, for +you will have to answer to me, you know!' + +"We set out. We had to cross a perfectly bare plain under the burning +sun. I attempted to gather a flower along the road and gave a cry of +pain. It had hurt my hand frightfully. They call these plants nettles. +And, everywhere, there was a smell of manure, enough to turn your +stomach. + +"Boivin said, 'Have a little patience and we will reach the river bank.' + +"We reached the river. Here there was an odor of mud and dirty water, +and the sun blazed down on the water so that it burned my eyes. I begged +Boivin to go under cover somewhere. He took me into a kind of shanty +filled with men, a river boatmen's tavern. + +"He said: + +"'This does not look very grand, but it is very comfortable.' + +"I was hungry. I ordered an omelet. But to and behold, at the second +glass of wine, that beggar, Boivin, lost his head, and I understand why +his wife gave him water diluted. + +"He got up, declaimed, wanted to show his strength, interfered in a +quarrel between two drunken men who were fighting, and, but for the +landlord, who came to the rescue, we should both have been killed. + +"I dragged him away, holding him up until we reached the first bush where +I deposited him. I lay down beside him and, it seems, I fell asleep. +We must certainly have slept a long time, for it was dark when I awoke. +Boivin was snoring at my side. I shook him; he rose but he was still +drunk, though a little less so. + +"We set out through the darkness across the plain. Boivin said he knew +the way. He made me turn to the left, then to the right, then to the +left. We could see neither sky nor earth, and found ourselves lost in +the midst of a kind of forest of wooden stakes, that came as high as our +noses. It was a vineyard and these were the supports. There was not a +single light on the horizon. We wandered about in this vineyard for +about an hour or two, hesitating, reaching out our arms without finding +any limit, for we kept retracing our steps. + +"At length Boivin fell against a stake that tore his cheek and he +remained in a sitting posture on the ground, uttering with all his might +long and resounding hallos, while I screamed 'Help! Help!' as loud as I +could, lighting candle-matches to show the way to our rescuers, and also +to keep up my courage. + +"At last a belated peasant heard us and put us on our right road. I took +Boivin to his home, but as I was leaving him on the threshold of his +garden, the door opened suddenly and his wife appeared, a candle in her +hand. She frightened me horribly. + +"As soon as she saw her husband, whom she must have been waiting for +since dark, she screamed, as she darted toward me: + +"'Ah, scoundrel, I knew you would bring him back drunk!' + +"My, how I made my escape, running all the way to the station, and as I +thought the fury was pursuing me I shut myself in an inner room as the +train was not due for half an hour. + +"That is why I never married, and why I never go out of Paris." + + + + + + +MOONLIGHT + +Madame Julie Roubere was expecting her elder sister, Madame Henriette +Letore, who had just returned from a trip to Switzerland. + +The Letore household had left nearly five weeks before. Madame Henriette +had allowed her husband to return alone to their estate in Calvados, +where some business required his attention, and had come to spend a few +days in Paris with her sister. Night came on. In the quiet parlor +Madame Roubere was reading in the twilight in an absent-minded way, +raising her, eyes whenever she heard a sound. + +At last, she heard a ring at the door, and her sister appeared, wrapped +in a travelling cloak. And without any formal greeting, they clasped +each other in an affectionate embrace, only desisting for a moment to +give each other another hug. Then they talked about their health, about +their respective families, and a thousand other things, gossiping, +jerking out hurried, broken sentences as they followed each other about, +while Madame Henriette was removing her hat and veil. + +It was now quite dark. Madame Roubere rang for a lamp, and as soon as it +was brought in, she scanned her sister's face, and was on the point of +embracing her once more. But she held back, scared and astonished at the +other's appearance. + +On her temples Madame Letore had two large locks of white hair. All the +rest of her hair was of a glossy, raven-black hue; but there alone, at +each side of her head, ran, as it were, two silvery streams which were +immediately lost in the black mass surrounding them. She was, +nevertheless, only twenty-four years old, and this change had come on +suddenly since her departure for Switzerland. + +Without moving, Madame Roubere gazed at her in amazement, tears rising to +her eyes, as she thought that some mysterious and terrible calamity must +have befallen her sister. She asked: + +"What is the matter with you, Henriette?" + +Smiling with a sad face, the smile of one who is heartsick, the other +replied: + +"Why, nothing, I assure you. Were you noticing my white hair?" + +But Madame Roubere impetuously seized her by the shoulders, and with a +searching glance at her, repeated: + +"What is the matter with you? Tell me what is the matter with you. And +if you tell me a falsehood, I'll soon find it out." + +They remained face to face, and Madame Henriette, who looked as if she +were about to faint, had two pearly tears in the corners of her drooping +eyes. + +Her sister continued: + +"What has happened to you? What is the matter with you? Answer me!" + +Then, in a subdued voice, the other murmured: + +"I have--I have a lover." + +And, hiding her forehead on the shoulder of her younger sister, she +sobbed. + +Then, when she had grown a little calmer, when the heaving of her breast +had subsided, she commenced to unbosom herself, as if to cast forth this +secret from herself, to empty this sorrow of hers into a sympathetic +heart. + +Thereupon, holding each other's hands tightly clasped, the two women went +over to a sofa in a dark corner of the room, into which they sank, and +the younger sister, passing her arm over the elder one's neck, and +drawing her close to her heart, listened. + + +"Oh! I know that there was no excuse for me; I do not understand myself, +and since that day I feel as if I were mad. Be careful, my child, about +yourself--be careful! If you only knew how weak we are, how quickly we +yield, and fall. It takes so little, so little, so little, a moment of +tenderness, one of those sudden fits of melancholy which come over you, +one of those longings to open, your arms, to love, to cherish something, +which we all have at certain moments. + +"You know my husband, and you know how fond I am of him; but he is mature +and sensible, and cannot even comprehend the tender vibrations of a +woman's heart. He is always the same, always good, always smiling, +always kind, always perfect. Oh! how I sometimes have wished that he +would clasp me roughly in his arms, that he would embrace me with those +slow, sweet kisses which make two beings intermingle, which are like mute +confidences! How I have wished that he were foolish, even weak, so that +he should have need of me, of my caresses, of my tears! + +"This all seems very silly; but we women are made like that. How can we +help it? + +"And yet the thought of deceiving him never entered my mind. Now it has +happened, without love, without reason, without anything, simply because +the moon shone one night on the Lake of Lucerne. + +"During the month when we were travelling together, my husband, with his +calm indifference, paralyzed my enthusiasm, extinguished my poetic ardor. +When we were descending the mountain paths at sunrise, when as the four +horses galloped along with the diligence, we saw, in the transparent +morning haze, valleys, woods, streams, and villages, I clasped my hands +with delight, and said to him: 'How beautiful it is, dear! Give me a +kiss! Kiss me now!' He only answered, with a smile of chilling +kindliness: 'There is no reason why we should kiss each other because you +like the landscape.' + +"And his words froze me to the heart. It seems to me that when people +love each other, they ought to feel more moved by love than ever, in the +presence of beautiful scenes. + +"In fact, I was brimming over with poetry which he kept me from +expressing. I was almost like a boiler filled with steam and +hermetically sealed. + +"One evening (we had for four days been staying in a hotel at Fluelen) +Robert, having one of his sick headaches, went to bed immediately after +dinner, and I went to take a walk all alone along the edge of the lake. + +"It was a night such as one reads of in fairy tales. The full moon +showed itself in the middle of the sky; the tall mountains, with their +snowy crests, seemed to wear silver crowns; the waters of the lake +glittered with tiny shining ripples. The air was mild, with that kind of +penetrating warmth which enervates us till we are ready to faint, to be +deeply affected without any apparent cause. But how sensitive, how +vibrating the heart is at such moments! how quickly it beats, and how +intense is its emotion! + +"I sat down on the grass, and gazed at that vast, melancholy, and +fascinating lake, and a strange feeling arose in me; I was seized with an +insatiable need of love, a revolt against the gloomy dullness of my life. +What! would it never be my fate to wander, arm in arm, with a man I +loved, along a moon-kissed bank like this? Was I never to feel on my +lips those kisses so deep, delicious, and intoxicating which lovers +exchange on nights that seem to have been made by God for tenderness? +Was I never to know ardent, feverish love in the moonlit shadows of a +summer's night? + +"And I burst out weeping like a crazy woman. I heard something stirring +behind me. A man stood there, gazing at me. When I turned my head +round, he recognized me, and, advancing, said: + +"'You are weeping, madame?' + +"It was a young barrister who was travelling with his mother, and whom we +had often met. His eyes had frequently followed me. + +"I was so confused that I did not know what answer to give or what to +think of the situation. I told him I felt ill. + +"He walked on by my side in a natural and respectful manner, and began +talking to me about what we had seen during our trip. All that I had +felt he translated into words; everything that made me thrill he +understood perfectly, better than I did myself. And all of a sudden he +repeated some verses of Alfred de Musset. I felt myself choking, seized +with indescribable emotion. It seemed to me that the mountains +themselves, the lake, the moonlight, were singing to me about things +ineffably sweet. + +"And it happened, I don't know how, I don't know why, in a sort of +hallucination. + +"As for him, I did not see him again till the morning of his departure. + +"He gave me his card!" + +And, sinking into her sister's arms, Madame Letore broke into groans-- +almost into shrieks. + +Then, Madame Roubere, with a self-contained and serious air, said very +gently: + +"You see, sister, very often it is not a man that we love, but love +itself. And your real lover that night was the moonlight." + + + + + + +THE FIRST SNOWFALL + +The long promenade of La Croisette winds in a curve along the edge of the +blue water. Yonder, to the right, Esterel juts out into the sea in the +distance, obstructing the view and shutting out the horizon with its +pretty southern outline of pointed summits, numerous and fantastic. + +To the left, the isles of Sainte Marguerite and Saint Honorat, almost +level with the water, display their surface, covered with pine trees. + +And all along the great gulf, all along the tall mountains that encircle +Cannes, the white villa residences seem to be sleeping in the sunlight. +You can see them from a distance, the white houses, scattered from the +top to the bottom of the mountains, dotting the dark greenery with specks +like snow. + +Those near the water have gates opening on the wide promenade which is +washed by the quiet waves. The air is soft and balmy. It is one of +those warm winter days when there is scarcely a breath of cool air. +Above the walls of the gardens may be seen orange trees and lemon trees +full of golden fruit. Ladies are walking slowly across the sand of the +avenue, followed by children rolling hoops, or chatting with gentlemen. + +A young woman has just passed out through the door of her coquettish +little house facing La Croisette. She stops for a moment to gaze at the +promenaders, smiles, and with an exhausted air makes her way toward an +empty bench facing the sea. Fatigued after having gone twenty paces, she +sits down out of breath. Her pale face seems that of a dead woman. She +coughs, and raises to her lips her transparent fingers as if to stop +those paroxysms that exhaust her. + +She gazes at the sky full of sunshine and swallows, at the zigzag summits +of the Esterel over yonder, and at the sea, the blue, calm, beautiful +sea, close beside her. + +She smiles again, and murmurs: + +"Oh! how happy I am!" + +She knows, however, that she is going to die, that she will never see the +springtime, that in a year, along the same promenade, these same people +who pass before her now will come again to breathe the warm air of this +charming spot, with their children a little bigger, with their hearts all +filled with hopes, with tenderness, with happiness, while at the bottom +of an oak coffin, the poor flesh which is still left to her to-day will +have decomposed, leaving only her bones lying in the silk robe which she +has selected for a shroud. + +She will be no more. Everything in life will go on as before for others. +For her, life will be over, over forever. She will be no more. She +smiles, and inhales as well as she can, with her diseased lungs, the +perfumed air of the gardens. + +And she sinks into a reverie. + +She recalls the past. She had been married, four years ago, to a Norman +gentleman. He was a strong young man, bearded, healthy-looking, with +wide shoulders, narrow mind, and joyous disposition. + +They had been united through financial motives which she knew nothing +about. She would willingly have said No. She said Yes, with a movement +of the head, in order not to thwart her father and mother. She was a +Parisian, gay, and full of the joy of living. + +Her husband brought her home to his Norman chateau. It was a huge stone +building surrounded by tall trees of great age. A high clump of pine +trees shut out the view in front. On the right, an opening in the trees +presented a view of the plain, which stretched out in an unbroken level +as far as the distant, farmsteads. A cross-road passed before the gate +and led to the high road three kilometres away. + +Oh! she recalls everything, her arrival, her first day in her new abode, +and her isolated life afterward. + +When she stepped out of the carriage, she glanced at the old building, +and laughingly exclaimed: + +"It does not look cheerful!" + +Her husband began to laugh in his turn, and replied: + +"Pooh! we get used to it! You'll see. I never feel bored in it, for my +part." + +That day they passed their time in embracing each other, and she did not +find it too long. This lasted fully a month. The days passed one after +the other in insignificant yet absorbing occupations. She learned the +value and the importance of the little things of life. She knew that +people can interest themselves in the price of eggs, which cost a few +centimes more or less according to the seasons. + +It was summer. She went to the fields to see the men harvesting. The +brightness of the sunshine found an echo in her heart. + +The autumn came. Her husband went out shooting. He started in the +morning with his two dogs Medor and Mirza. She remained alone, without +grieving, moreover, at Henry's absence. She was very fond of him, but +she did not miss him. When he returned home, her affection was +especially bestowed on the dogs. She took care of them every evening +with a mother's tenderness, caressed them incessantly, gave them a +thousand charming little names which she had no idea of applying to her +husband. + +He invariably told her all about his sport. He described the places +where he found partridges, expressed his astonishment at not having +caught any hares in Joseph Ledentu's clever, or else appeared indignant +at the conduct of M. Lechapelier, of Havre, who always went along the +edge of his property to shoot the game that he, Henry de Parville, had +started. + +She replied: "Yes, indeed! it is not right," thinking of something else +all the while. + +The winter came, the Norman winter, cold and rainy. The endless floods +of rain came down tin the slates of the great gabled roof, rising like a +knife blade toward the sky. The roads seemed like rivers of mud, the +country a plain of mud, and no sound could be heard save that of water +falling; no movement could be seen save the whirling flight of crows that +settled down like a cloud on a field and then hurried off again. + +About four o'clock, the army of dark, flying creatures came and perched +in the tall beeches at the left of the chateau, emitting deafening cries. +During nearly an hour, they flew from tree top to tree top, seemed to be +fighting, croaked, and made a black disturbance in the gray branches. +She gazed at them each evening with a weight at her heart, so deeply was +she impressed by the lugubrious melancholy of the darkness falling on the +deserted country. + +Then she rang for the lamp, and drew near the fire. She burned heaps of +wood without succeeding in warming the spacious apartments reeking with +humidity. She was cold all day long, everywhere, in the drawing-room, at +meals, in her own apartment. It seemed to her she was cold to the marrow +of her bones. Her husband only came in to dinner; he was always out +shooting, or else he was superintending sowing the seed, tilling the +soil, and all the work of the country. + +He would come back jovial, and covered with mud, rubbing his hands as he +exclaimed: + +"What wretched weather!" + +Or else: + +"A fire looks comfortable!" + +Or sometimes: + +"Well, how are you to-day? Are you in good spirits?" + +He was happy, in good health, without desires, thinking of nothing save +this simple, healthy, and quiet life. + +About December, when the snow had come, she suffered so much from the +icy-cold air of the chateau which seemed to have become chilled in +passing through the centuries just as human beings become chilled with +years, that she asked her husband one evening: + +"Look here, Henry! You ought to have a furnace put into the house; it +would dry the walls. I assure you that I cannot keep warm from morning +till night." + +At first he was stunned at this extravagant idea of introducing a furnace +into his manor-house. It would have seemed more natural to him to have +his dogs fed out of silver dishes. He gave a tremendous laugh from the +bottom of his chest as he exclaimed: + +"A furnace here! A furnace here! Ha! ha! ha! what a good joke!" + +She persisted: + +"I assure you, dear, I feel frozen; you don't feel it because you are +always moving about; but all the same, I feel frozen." + +He replied, still laughing: + +"Pooh! you'll get used to it, and besides it is excellent for the +health. You will only be all the better for it. We are not Parisians, +damn it! to live in hot-houses. And, besides, the spring is quite near." + +About the beginning of January, a great misfortune befell her. Her +father and mother died in a carriage accident. She came to Paris for the +funeral. And her sorrow took entire possession of her mind for about six +months. + +The mildness of the beautiful summer days finally roused her, and she +lived along in a state of sad languor until autumn. + +When the cold weather returned, she was brought face to face, for the +first time, with the gloomy future. What was she to do? Nothing. What +was going to happen to her henceforth? Nothing. What expectation, what +hope, could revive her heart? None. A doctor who was consulted declared +that she would never have children. + +Sharper, more penetrating still than the year before, the cold made her +suffer continually. + +She stretched out her shivering hands to the big flames. The glaring +fire burned her face; but icy whiffs seemed to glide down her back and to +penetrate between her skin and her underclothing. And she shivered from +head to foot. Innumerable draughts of air appeared to have taken up +their abode in the apartment, living, crafty currents of air as cruel as +enemies. She encountered them at every moment; they blew on her +incessantly their perfidious and frozen hatred, now on her face, now on +her hands, and now on her back. + +Once more she spoke of a furnace; but her husband listened to her request +as if she were asking for the moon. The introduction of such an +apparatus at Parville appeared to him as impossible as the discovery of +the Philosopher's Stone. + +Having been at Rouen on business one day, he brought back to his wife a +dainty foot warmer made of copper, which he laughingly called a "portable +furnace"; and he considered that this would prevent her henceforth from +ever being cold. + +Toward the end of December she understood that she could not always live +like this, and she said timidly one evening at dinner: + +"Listen, dear! Are we, not going to spend a week or two in Paris before +spring:" + +He was stupefied. + +"In Paris? In Paris? But what are we to do there? Ah! no by Jove! We +are better off here. What odd ideas come into your head sometimes." + +She faltered: + +"It might distract us a little." + +He did not understand. + +"What is it you want to distract you? Theatres, evening parties, dinners +in town? You knew, however, when you came here, that you ought not to +expect any distractions of this kind!" + +She saw a reproach in these words, and in the tone in which they were +uttered. She relapsed into silence. She was timid and gentle, without +resisting power and without strength of will. + +In January the cold weather returned with violence. Then the snow +covered the earth. + +One evening, as she watched the great black cloud of crows dispersing +among the trees, she began to weep, in spite of herself. + +Her husband came in. He asked in great surprise: + +"What is the matter with you?" + +He was happy, quite happy, never having dreamed of another life or other +pleasures. He had been born and had grown up in this melancholy +district. He felt contented in his own house, at ease in body and mind. + +He did not understand that one might desire incidents, have a longing for +changing pleasures; he did not understand that it does not seem natural +to certain beings to remain in the same place during the four seasons; he +seemed not to know that spring, summer, autumn, and winter have, for +multitudes of persons, fresh amusements in new places. + +She could say nothing in reply, and she quickly dried her eyes. At last +she murmured in a despairing tone: + +"I am--I--I am a little sad--I am a little bored." + +But she was terrified at having even said so much, and added very +quickly: + +"And, besides--I am--I am a little cold." + +This last plea made him angry. + +"Ah! yes, still your idea of the furnace. But look here, deuce take it! +you have not had one cold since you came here." + +Night came on. She went up to her room, for she had insisted on having a +separate apartment. She went to bed. Even in bed she felt cold. She +thought: + +"It will be always like this, always, until I die." + +And she thought of her husband. How could he have said: + +"You--have not had one cold since you came here"? + +She would have to be ill, to cough before he could understand what she +suffered! + +And she was filled with indignation, the angry indignation of a weak, +timid being. + +She must cough. Then, perhaps, he would take pity on her. Well, she +would cough; he should hear her coughing; the doctor should be called in; +he should see, her husband, he should see. + +She got out of bed, her legs and her feet bare, and a childish idea made +her smile: + +"I want a furnace, and I must have it. I shall cough so much that he'll +have to put one in the house." + +And she sat down in a chair in her nightdress. She waited an hour, two +hours. She shivered, but she did not catch cold. Then she resolved on a +bold expedient. + +She noiselessly left her room, descended the stairs, and opened the gate +into the garden. + +The earth, covered with snows seemed dead. She abruptly thrust forward +her bare foot, and plunged it into the icy, fleecy snow. A sensation of +cold, painful as a wound, mounted to her heart. However, she stretched +out the other leg, and began to descend the steps slowly. + +Then she advanced through the grass saying to herself: + +"I'll go as far as the pine trees." + +She walked with quick steps, out of breath, gasping every time she +plunged her foot into the snow. + +She touched the first pine tree with her hand, as if to assure herself +that she had carried out her plan to the end; then she went back into the +house. She thought two or three times that she was going to fall, so +numbed and weak did she feel. Before going in, however, she sat down in +that icy fleece, and even took up several handfuls to rub on her chest. + +Then she went in and got into bed. It seemed to her at the end of an +hour that she had a swarm of ants in her throat, and that other ants were +running all over her limbs. She slept, however. + +Next day she was coughing and could not get up. + +She had inflammation of the lungs. She became delirious, and in her +delirium she asked for a furnace. The doctor insisted on having one put +in. Henry yielded, but with visible annoyance. + +She was incurable. Her lungs were seriously affected, and those about +her feared for her life. + +"If she remains here, she will not last until the winter," said the +doctor. + +She was sent south. She came to Cannes, made the acquaintance of the +sun, loved the sea, and breathed the perfume of orange blossoms. + +Then, in the spring, she returned north. + +But she now lived with the fear of being cured, with the fear of the long +winters of Normandy; and as soon as she was better she opened her window +by night and recalled the sweet shores of the Mediterranean. + +And now she is going to die. She knows it and she is happy. + +She unfolds a newspaper which she has not already opened, and reads this +heading: + +"The first snow in Paris." + +She shivers and then smiles. She looks across at the Esterel, which is +becoming rosy in the rays of the setting sun. She looks at the vast blue +sky, so blue, so very blue, and the vast blue sea, so very blue also, and +she rises from her seat. + +And then she returned to the house with slow steps, only stopping to +cough, for she had remained out too long and she was cold, a little cold. + +She finds a letter from her husband. She opens it, still smiling, and +she reads: + + "MY DEAR LOVE: I hope you are well, and that you do not regret too + much our beautiful country. For some days last we have had a good + frost, which presages snow. For my part, I adore this weather, and + you my believe that I do not light your damned furnace." + +She ceases reading, quite happy at the thought that she had her furnace +put in. Her right hand, which holds the letter, falls slowly on her lap, +while she raises her left hand to her mouth, as if to calm the obstinate +cough which is racking her chest. + + + + + + +SUNDAYS OF A BOURGEOIS + + PREPARATIONS FOR THE EXCURSION + +M. Patissot, born in Paris, after having failed in his examinations at +the College Henri IV., like many others, had entered the government +service through the influence of one of his aunts, who kept a tobacco +store where the head of one of the departments bought his provisions. + +He advanced very slowly, and would, perhaps, have died a fourth-class +clerk without the aid of a kindly Providence, which sometimes watches +over our destiny. He is today fifty-two years old, and it is only at +this age that he is beginning to explore, as a tourist, all that part of +France which lies between the fortifications and the provinces. + +The story of his advance might be useful to many employees, just as the +tale of his excursions may be of value to many Parisians who will take +them as a model for their own outings, and will thus, through his +example, avoid certain mishaps which occurred to him. + +In 1854 he only enjoyed a salary of 1,800 francs. Through a peculiar +trait of his character he was unpopular with all his superiors, who let +him languish in the eternal and hopeless expectation of the clerk's +ideal, an increase of salary. Nevertheless he worked; but he did not +know how to make himself appreciated. He had too much self-respect, he +claimed. His self-respect consisted in never bowing to his superiors in +a low and servile manner, as did, according to him, certain of his +colleagues, whom he would not mention. He added that his frankness +embarrassed many people, for, like all the rest, he protested against +injustice and the favoritism shown to persons entirely foreign to the +bureaucracy. But his indignant voice never passed beyond the little cage +where he worked. + +First as a government clerk, then as a Frenchman and finally as a man who +believed in order he would adhere to whatever government was established, +having an unbounded reverence for authority, except for that of his +chiefs. + +Each time that he got the chance he would place himself where he could +see the emperor pass, in order to have the honor of taking his hat off to +him; and he would go away puffed up with pride at having bowed to the +head of the state. + +From his habit of observing the sovereign he did as many others do; he +imitated the way he trimmed his beard or arranged his hair, the cut of +his clothes, his walk, his mannerisms. Indeed, how many men in each +country seemed to be the living images of the head of the government! +Perhaps he vaguely resembled Napoleon III., but his hair was black; +therefore he dyed it, and then the likeness was complete; and when he met +another gentleman in the street also imitating the imperial countenance +he was jealous and looked at him disdainfully. This need of imitation +soon became his hobby, and, having heard an usher at the Tuilleries +imitate the voice of the emperor, he also acquired the same intonations +and studied slowness. + +He thus became so much like his model that they might easily have been +mistaken for each other, and certain high dignitaries were heard to +remark that they found it unseemly and even vulgar; the matter was +mentioned to the prime minister, who ordered that the employee should +appear before him. But at the sight of him he began to laugh and +repeated two or three times: "That's funny, really funny!" This was +repeated, and the following day Patissot's immediate superior recommended +that his subordinate receive an increase of salary of three hundred +francs. He received it immediately. + +From that time on his promotions came regularly, thanks to his ape-like +faculty of imitation. The presentiment that some high honor might come +to him some day caused his chiefs to speak to him with deference. + +When the Republic was proclaimed it was a disaster for him. He felt +lost, done for, and, losing his head, he stopped dyeing his hair, shaved +his face clean and had his hair cut short, thus acquiring a paternal and +benevolent expression which could not compromise him in any way. + +Then his chiefs took revenge for the long time during which he had +imposed upon them, and, having all turned Republican through an instinct +of self preservation, they cut down his salary and delayed his promotion. +He, too, changed his opinions. But the Republic not being a palpable and +living person whom one can resemble, and the presidents succeeding each +other with rapidity, he found himself plunged in the greatest +embarrassment, in terrible distress, and, after an unsuccessful imitation +of his last ideal, M. Thiers, he felt a check put on all his attempts at +imitation. He needed a new manifestation of his personality. He +searched for a long time; then, one morning, he arrived at the office +wearing a new hat which had on the side a small red, white and blue +rosette. His colleagues were astounded; they laughed all that day, the +next day, all the week, all the month. But the seriousness of his +demeanor at last disconcerted them, and once more his superiors became +anxious. What mystery could be hidden under this sign? Was it a simple +manifestation of patriotism, or an affirmation of his allegiance to the +Republic, or perhaps the badge of some powerful association? But to wear +it so persistently he must surely have some powerful and hidden +protection. It would be well to be on one's guard, especially as he +received all pleasantries with unruffled calmness. After that he was +treated with respect, and his sham courage saved him; he was appointed +head clerk on the first of January, 1880. His whole life had been spent +indoors. He hated noise and bustle, and because of this love of rest and +quiet he had remained a bachelor. He spent his Sundays reading tales of +adventure and ruling guide lines which he afterward offered to his +colleagues. In his whole existence he had only taken three vacations of +a week each, when he was changing his quarters. But sometimes, on a +holiday, he would leave by an excursion train for Dieppe or Havre in +order to elevate his mind by the inspiring sight of the sea. + +He was full of that common sense which borders on stupidity. For a long +time he had been living quietly, with economy, temperate through +prudence, chaste by temperament, when suddenly he was assailed by a +terrible apprehension. One evening in the street he suddenly felt an +attack of dizziness which made him fear a stroke of apoplexy. He +hastened to a physician and for five francs obtained the following +prescription: + + M. X-, fifty-five years old, bachelor, clerk. Full-blooded, + danger of apoplexy. Cold-water applications, moderate nourishment, + plenty of exercise. MONTELLIER, M.D. + +Patissot was greatly distressed, and for a whole month, in his office, he +kept a wet towel wrapped around his head like a turban while the water +continually dripped on his work, which he would have to do over again. +Every once in a while he would read the prescription over, probably in +the hope of finding some hidden meaning, of penetrating into the secret +thought of the physician, and also of discovering some forms of exercise +which, might perhaps make him immune from apoplexy. + +Then he consulted his friends, showing them the fateful paper. One +advised boxing. He immediately hunted up an instructor, and, on the +first day, he received a punch in the nose which immediately took away +all his ambition in this direction. Single-stick made him gasp for +breath, and he grew so stiff from fencing that for two days and two +nights he could not get sleep. Then a bright idea struck him. It was to +walk, every Sunday, to some suburb of Paris and even to certain places in +the capital which he did not know. + +For a whole week his mind was occupied with thoughts of the equipment +which you need for these excursions; and on Sunday, the 30th of May, he +began his preparations. After reading all the extraordinary +advertisements which poor, blind and halt beggars distribute on the +street corners, he began to visit the stores with the intention of +looking about him only and of buying later on. First of all, he visited +a so-called American shoe store, where heavy travelling shoes were shown +him. The clerk brought out a kind of ironclad contrivance, studded with +spikes like a harrow, which he claimed to be made from Rocky Mountain +bison skin. He was so carried away with them that he would willingly +have bought two pair, but one was sufficient. He carried them away under +his arm, which soon be came numb from the weight. He next invested in a +pair of corduroy trousers, such as carpenters wear, and a pair of oiled +canvas leggings. Then he needed a knapsack for his provisions, a +telescope so as to recognize villages perched on the slope of distant +hills, and finally, a government survey map to enable him to find his way +about without asking the peasants toiling in the fields. Lastly, in +order more comfortably to stand the heat, he decided to purchase a light +alpaca jacket offered by the famous firm of Raminau, according to their +advertisement, for the modest sum of six francs and fifty centimes. He +went to this store and was welcomed by a distinguished-looking young man +with a marvellous head of hair, nails as pink as those of a lady and a +pleasant smile. He showed him the garment. It did not correspond with +the glowing style of the advertisement. Then Patissot hesitatingly +asked, "Well, monsieur, will it wear well?" The young man turned his eyes +away in well-feigned embarrassment, like an honest man who does not wish +to deceive a customer, and, lowering his eyes, he said in a hesitating +manner: "Dear me, monsieur, you understand that for six francs fifty we +cannot turn out an article like this for instance." And he showed him a +much finer jacket than the first one. Patissot examined it and asked the +price. "Twelve francs fifty." It was very tempting, but before +deciding, he once more questioned the big young man, who was observing +him attentively. "And--is that good? Do you guarantee it?" "Oh! +certainly, monsieur, it is quite goad! But, of course, you must not get +it wet! Yes, it's really quite good, but you understand that there are +goods and goods. It's excellent for the price. Twelve francs fifty, +just think. Why, that's nothing at all. Naturally a twenty-five-franc +coat is much better. For twenty-five francs you get a superior quality, +as strong as linen, and which wears even better. If it gets wet a little +ironing will fix it right up. The color never fades, and it does not +turn red in the sunlight. It is the warmest and lightest material out." +He unfolded his wares, holding them up, shaking them, crumpling and +stretching them in order to show the excellent quality of the cloth. He +talked on convincingly, dispelling all hesitation by words and gesture. +Patissot was convinced; he bought the coat. The pleasant salesman, still +talking, tied up the bundle and continued praising the value of the +purchase. When it was paid for he was suddenly silent. He bowed with a +superior air, and, holding the door open, he watched his customer +disappear, both arms filled with bundles and vainly trying to reach his +hat to bow. + +M. Patissot returned home and carefully studied the map. He wished to +try on his shoes, which were more like skates than shoes, owing to the +spikes. He slipped and fell, promising himself to be more careful in the +future. Then he spread out all his purchases on a chair and looked at +them for a long time. He went to sleep with this thought: "Isn't it +strange that I didn't think before of taking an excursion to the +country?" + +During the whole week Patissot worked without ambition. He was dreaming +of the outing which he had planned for the following Sunday, and he was +seized by a sudden longing for the country, a desire of growing tender +over nature, this thirst for rustic scenes which overwhelms the Parisians +in spring time. + +Only one person gave him any attention; it was a silent old copying clerk +named Boivin, nicknamed Boileau. He himself lived in the country and had +a little garden which he cultivated carefully; his needs were small, and +he was perfectly happy, so they said. Patissot was now able to +understand his tastes and the similarity of their ideals made them +immediately fast friends. Old man Boivin said to him: + +"Do I like fishing, monsieur? Why, it's the delight of my life!" + +Then Patissot questioned him with deep interest. Boivin named all the +fish who frolicked under this dirty water--and Patissot thought he could +see them. Boivin told about the different hooks, baits, spots and times +suitable for each kind. And Patissot felt himself more like a fisherman +than Boivin himself. They decided that the following Sunday they would +meet for the opening of the season for the edification of Patissot, who +was delighted to have found such an experienced instructor. + + + + FISHING EXCURSION + +The day before the one when he was, for the first time in his life, to +throw a hook into a river, Monsieur Patissot bought, for eighty centimes, +"How to Become a Perfect Fisherman." In this work he learned many useful +things, but he was especially impressed by the style, and he retained the +following passage: + +"In a word, if you wish, without books, without rules, to fish +successfully, to the left or to the right, up or down stream, in the +masterly manner that halts at no difficulty, then fish before, during and +after a storm, when the clouds break and the sky is streaked with +lightning, when the earth shakes with the grumbling thunder; it is then +that, either through hunger or terror, all the fish forget their habits +in a turbulent flight. + +"In this confusion follow or neglect all favorable signs, and just go on +fishing; you will march to victory!" + +In order to catch fish of all sizes, he bought three well-perfected +poles, made to be used as a cane in the city, which, on the river, could +be transformed into a fishing rod by a simple jerk. He bought some +number fifteen hooks for gudgeon, number twelve for bream, and with his +number seven he expected to fill his basket with carp. He bought no +earth worms because he was sure of finding them everywhere; but he laid +in a provision of sand worms. He had a jar full of them, and in the +evening he watched them with interest. The hideous creatures swarmed in +their bath of bran as they do in putrid meat. Patissot wished to +practice baiting his hook. He took up one with disgust, but he had +hardly placed the curved steel point against it when it split open. +Twenty times he repeated this without success, and he might have +continued all night had he not feared to exhaust his supply of vermin. + +He left by the first train. The station was full of people equipped with +fishing lines. Some, like Patissot's, looked like simple bamboo canes; +others, in one piece, pointed their slender ends to the skies. They +looked like a forest of slender sticks, which mingled and clashed like +swords or swayed like masts over an ocean of broad-brimmed straw hats. + +When the train started fishing rods could be seen sticking out of all the +windows and doors, giving to the train the appearance of a huge, bristly +caterpillar winding through the fields. + +Everybody got off at Courbevoie and rushed for the stage for Bezons. A +crowd of fishermen crowded on top of the coach, holding their rods in +their hands, giving the vehicle the appearance of a porcupine. + +All along the road men were travelling in the same direction as though on +a pilgrimage to an unknown Jerusalem. They were carrying those long, +slender sticks resembling those carried by the faithful returning from +Palestine. A tin box on a strap was fastened to their backs. They were +in a hurry. + +At Bezons the river appeared. People were lined along bath banks, men in +frock coats, others in duck suits, others in blouses, women, children and +even young girls of marriageable age; all were fishing. + +Patissot started for the dam where his friend Boivin was waiting for him. +The latter greeted him rather coolly. He had just made the acquaintance +of a big, fat man of about fifty, who seemed very strong and whose skin +was tanned. All three hired a big boat and lay off almost under the fall +of the dam, where the fish are most plentiful. + +Boivin was immediately ready. He baited his line and threw it out, and +then sat motionless, watching the little float with extraordinary +concentration. From time to time he would jerk his line out of the water +and cast it farther out. The fat gentleman threw out his well-baited +hooks, put his line down beside him, filled his pipe, lit it, crossed his +arms, and, without another glance at the cork, he watched the water flow +by. Patissot once more began trying to stick sand worms on his hooks. +After about five minutes of this occupation he called to Boivin; +"Monsieur Boivin, would you be so kind as to help me put these creatures +on my hook? Try as I will, I can't seem to succeed." Boivin raised his +head: "Please don't disturb me, Monsieur Patissot; we are not here for +pleasure!" However, he baited the line, which Patissot then threw out, +carefully imitating all the motions of his friend. + +The boat was tossing wildly, shaken by the waves, and spun round like a +top by the current, although anchored at both ends. Patissot, absorbed +in the sport, felt a vague kind of uneasiness; he was uncomfortably heavy +and somewhat dizzy. + +They caught nothing. Little Boivin, very nervous, was gesticulating and +shaking his head in despair. Patissot was as sad as though some disaster +had overtaken him. The fat gentleman alone, still motionless, was +quietly smoking without paying any attention to his line. At last +Patissot, disgusted, turned toward him and said in a mournful voice: + +"they are not biting, are they?" + +He quietly replied: + +"Of course not!" + +Patissot surprised, looked at him. + +"Do you ever catch many?" + +"Never!" + +"What! Never?" + +The fat man, still smoking like a factory chimney, let out the following +words, which completely upset his neighbor: + +"It would bother me a lot if they did bite. I don't come here to fish; I +come because I'm very comfortable here; I get shaken up as though I were +at sea. If I take a line along, it's only to do as others do." + +Monsieur Patissot, on the other hand, did not feel at all well. His +discomfort, at first vague, kept increasing, and finally took on a +definite form. He felt, indeed, as though he were being tossed by the +sea, and he was suffering from seasickness. After the first attack had +calmed down, he proposed leaving, but Boivin grew so furious that they +almost came to blows. The fat man, moved by pity, rowed the boat back, +and, as soon as Patissot had recovered from his seasickness, they +bethought themselves of luncheon. + +Two restaurants presented themselves. One of them, very small, looked +like a beer garden, and was patronized by the poorer fishermen. The +other one, which bore the imposing name of "Linden Cottage," looked like +a middle-class residence and was frequented by the aristocracy of the +rod. The two owners, born enemies, watched each other with hatred across +a large field, which separated them, and where the white house of the dam +keeper and of the inspector of the life-saving department stood out +against the green grass. Moreover, these two officials disagreed, one of +them upholding the beer garden and the other one defending the Elms, and +the internal feuds which arose in these three houses reproduced the whole +history of mankind. + +Boivin, who knew the beer garden, wished to go there, exclaiming: "The +food is very good, and it isn't expensive; you'll see. Anyhow, Monsieur +Patissot, you needn't expect to get me tipsy the way you did last Sunday. +My wife was furious, you know; and she has sworn never to forgive you!" + +The fat gentleman declared that he would only eat at the Elms, because it +was an excellent place and the cooking was as good as in the best +restaurants in Paris. + +"Do as you wish," declared Boivin ; "I am going where I am accustomed to +go." He left. Patissot, displeased at his friend's actions, followed +the fat gentleman. + +They ate together, exchanged ideas, discussed opinions and found that +they were made for each other. + +After the meal everyone started to fish again, but the two new friends +left together. Following along the banks, they stopped near the railroad +bridge and, still talking, they threw their lines in the water. The fish +still refused to bite, but Patissot was now making the best of it. + +A family was approaching. The father, whose whiskers stamped him as a +judge, was holding an extraordinarily long rod; three boys of different +sizes were carrying poles of different lengths, according to age; and the +mother, who was very stout, gracefully manoeuvred a charming rod with a +ribbon tied to the handle. The father bowed and asked: + +"Is this spot good, gentlemen?" Patissot was going to speak, when his +friend answered: "Fine!" The whole family smiled and settled down beside +the fishermen. The Patissot was seized with a wild desire to catch a +fish, just one, any kind, any size, in order to win the consideration of +these people; so he began to handle his rod as he had seen Boivin do in +the morning. He would let the cork follow the current to the end of the +line, jerk the hooks out of the water, make them describe a large circle +in the air and throw them out again a little higher up. He had even, as +he thought, caught the knack of doing this movement gracefully. He had +just jerked his line out rapidly when he felt it caught in something +behind him. He tugged, and a scream burst from behind him. He +perceived, caught on one of his hooks, and describing in the air a curve +like a meteor, a magnificent hat which he placed right in the middle of +the river. + +He turned around, bewildered, dropping his pole, which followed the hat +down the stream, while the fat gentleman, his new friend, lay on his back +and roared with laughter. The lady, hatless and astounded, choked with +anger; her husband was outraged and demanded the price of the hat, and +Patissot paid about three times its value. + +Then the family departed in a very dignified manner. + +Patissot took another rod, and, until nightfall, he gave baths to sand +worms. His neighbor was sleeping peacefully on the grass. Toward seven +in the evening he awoke. + +"Let's go away from here!" he said. + +Then Patissot withdrew his line, gave a cry and sat down hard from +astonishment. At the end of the string was a tiny little fish. When +they looked at him more closely they found that he had been hooked +through the stomach; the hook had caught him as it was being drawn out of +the water. + +Patissot was filled with a boundless, triumphant joy; he wished to have +the fish fried for himself alone. + +During the dinner the friends grew still more intimate. He learned that +the fat gentleman lived at Argenteuil and had been sailing boats for +thirty years without losing interest in the sport. He accepted to take +luncheon with him the following Sunday and to take a sail in his friend's +clipper, Plongeon. He became so interested in the conversation that he +forgot all about his catch. He did not remember it until after the +coffee, and he demanded that it be brought him. It was alone in the +middle of a platter, and looked like a yellow, twisted match, But he ate +it with pride and relish, and at night, on the omnibus, he told his +neighbors that he had caught fourteen pounds of fish during the day. + + + TWO CELEBRITIES + +Monsieur Patissot had promised his friend, the boating man, that he would +spend the following Sunday with him. An unforeseen occurrence changed +his plan. One evening, on the boulevard, he met one of his cousins whom +he saw but very seldom. He was a pleasant journalist, well received in +all classes of society, who offered to show Patissot many interesting +things. + +"What are you going to do next Sunday?" + +"I'm going boating at Argenteuil." + +"Come on! Boating is an awful bore; there is no variety to it. Listen- +I'll take you along with me. I'll introduce you to two celebrities. We +will visit the homes of two artists." + +"But I have been ordered to go to the country!" + +"That's just where we'll go. On the way we'll call on Meissonier, at his +place in Poissy; then we'll walk over to Medan, where Zola lives. I have +been commissioned to obtain his next novel for our newspaper." + +Patissot, wild with joy, accepted the invitation. He even bought a new +frock coat, as his own was too much worn to make a good appearance. He +was terribly afraid of saying something foolish either to the artist or +to the man of letters, as do people who speak of an art which they have +never professed. + +He mentioned his fears to his cousin, who laughed and answered: "Pshaw! +Just pay them compliments, nothing but compliments, always compliments; +in that way, if you say anything foolish it will be overlooked. Do you +know Meissonier's paintings?" + +"I should say I do." + +"Have you read the Rougon-Macquart series?" + +"From first to last." + +"That's enough. Mention a painting from time to time, speak of a novel +here and there and add: + +'Superb! Extraordinary! Delightful technique! Wonderfully powerful!' +In that way you can always get along. I know that those two are very +blase about everything, but admiration always pleases an artist." + +Sunday morning they left for Poissy. + +Just a few steps from the station, at the end of the church square, they +found Meissonier's property. After passing through a low door, painted +red, which led into a beautiful alley of vines, the journalist stopped +and, turning toward his companion, asked: + +"What is your idea of Meissonier?" + +Patissot hesitated. At last he decided: "A little man, well groomed, +clean shaven, a soldierly appearance." The other smiled: "All right, +come along." A quaint building in the form of a chalet appeared to the +left; and to the right side, almost opposite, was the main house. It was +a strange-looking building, where there was a mixture of everything, a +mingling of Gothic fortress, manor, villa, hut, residence, cathedral, +mosque, pyramid, a, weird combination of Eastern and Western +architecture. The style was complicated enough to set a classical +architect crazy, and yet there was something whimsical and pretty about +it. It had been invented and built under the direction of the artist. + +They went in; a collection of trunks encumbered a little parlor. A +little man appeared, dressed in a jumper. The striking thing about him +was his beard. He bowed to the journalist, and said: "My dear sir, I +hope that you will excuse me; I only returned yesterday, and everything +is all upset here. Please be seated." The other refused, excusing +himself: "My dear master, I only dropped in to pay my respects while +passing by." Patissot, very much embarrassed, was bowing at every word +of his friend's, as though moving automatically, and he murmured, +stammering: "What a su--su--superb property!" The artist, flattered, +smiled, and suggested visiting it. + +He led them first to a little pavilion of feudal aspect, where his former +studio was. Then they crossed a parlor, a dining-room, a vestibule full +of beautiful works of art, of beautiful Beauvais, Gobelin and Flanders +tapestries. But the strange external luxury of ornamentation became, +inside, a revel of immense stairways. A magnificent grand stairway, a +secret stairway in one tower, a servants' stairway in another, stairways +everywhere! Patissot, by chance, opened a door and stepped back +astonished. It was a veritable temple, this place of which respectable +people only mention the name in English, an original and charming +sanctuary in exquisite taste, fitted up like a pagoda, and the decoration +of which must certainly have caused a great effort. + +They next visited the park, which was complex, varied, with winding paths +and full of old trees. But the journalist insisted on leaving; and, with +many thanks, he took leave of the master: As they left they met a +gardener; Patissot asked him: "Has Monsieur Meissonier owned this place +for a long time?" The man answered: "Oh, monsieur! that needs +explaining. I guess he bought the grounds in 1846. But, as for the +house! he has already torn down and rebuilt that five or six times. It +must have cost him at least two millions!" As Patissot left he was +seized with an immense respect for this man, not on account of his +success, glory or talent, but for putting so much money into a whim, +because the bourgeois deprive themselves of all pleasure in order to +hoard money. + +After crossing Poissy, they struck out on foot along the road to Medan. +The road first followed the Seine, which is dotted with charming islands +at this place. Then they went up a hill and crossed the pretty village +of Villaines, went down a little; and finally reached the neighborhood +inhabited by the author of the Rougon-Macquart series. + +A pretty old church with two towers appeared on the left. They walked +along a short distance, and a passing farmer directed them to the +writer's dwelling. + +Before entering, they examined the house. A large building, square and +new, very high, seemed, as in the fable of the mountain and the mouse, to +have given birth to a tiny little white house, which nestled near it. +This little house was the original dwelling, and had been built by the +former owner. The tower had been erected by Zola. + +They rang the bell. An enormous dog, a cross between a Saint Bernard and +a Newfoundland, began to howl so terribly that Patissot felt a vague +desire to retrace his steps. But a servant ran forward, calmed +"Bertrand," opened the door, and took the journalist's card in order to +carry it to his master. + +"I hope that he will receive us!" murmured Patissot. "It would be too +bad if we had come all this distance not to see him." + +His companion smiled and answered: "Never fear, I have a plan for getting +in." + +But the servant, who had returned, simply asked them to follow him. + +They entered the new building, and Patissot, who was quite enthusiastic, +was panting as he climbed a stairway of ancient style which led to the +second story. + +At the same time he was trying to picture to himself this man whose +glorious name echoes at present in all corners of the earth, amid the +exasperated hatred of some, the real or feigned indignation of society, +the envious scorn of several of his colleagues, the respect of a mass of +readers, and the frenzied admiration of a great number. He expected to +see a kind of bearded giant, of awe-inspiring aspect, with a thundering +voice and an appearance little prepossessing at first. + +The door opened on a room of uncommonly large dimensions, broad and high, +lighted by an enormous window looking out over the valley. Old +tapestries covered the walls; on the left, a monumental fireplace, +flanked by two stone men, could have burned a century-old oak in one day. +An immense table littered with books, papers and magazines stood in the +middle of this apartment so vast and grand that it first engrossed the +eye, and the attention was only afterward drawn to the man, stretched out +when they entered on an Oriental divan where twenty persons could have +slept. He took a few steps toward them, bowed, motioned to two seats, +and turned back to his divan, where he sat with one leg drawn under him. +A book lay open beside him, and in his right hand he held an ivory paper- +cutter, the end of which he observed from time to time with one eye, +closing the other with the persistency of a near-sighted person. + +While the journalist explained the purpose of the visit, and the writer +listened to him without yet answering, at times staring at him fixedly, +Patissot, more and more embarrassed, was observing this celebrity. + +Hardly forty, he was of medium height, fairly stout, and with a good- +natured look. His head (very similar to those found in many Italian +paintings of the sixteenth century), without being beautiful in the +plastic sense of the word, gave an impression of great strength of +character, power and intelligence. Short hair stood up straight on the +high, well-developed forehead. A straight nose stopped short, as if cut +off suddenly above the upper lip which was covered with a black mustache; +over the whole chin was a closely-cropped beard. The dark, often +ironical look was piercing, one felt that behind it there was a mind +always actively at work observing people, interpreting words, analyzing +gestures, uncovering the heart. This strong, round head was appropriate +to his name, quick and short, with the bounding resonance of the two +vowels. + +When the journalist had fully explained his proposition, the writer +answered him that he did not wish to make any definite arrangement, that +he would, however, think the matter over, that his plans were not yet +sufficiently defined. Then he stopped. It was a dismissal, and the two +men, a little confused, arose. A desire seized Patissot ; he wished this +well-known person to say something to him, anything, some word which he +could repeat to his colleagues; and, growing bold, he stammered: "Oh, +monsieur! If you knew how I appreciate your works!" The other bowed, +but answered nothing. Patissot became very bold and continued: "It is a +great honor for me to speak to you to-day." The writer once more bowed, +but with a stiff and impatient look. Patissot noticed it, and, +completely losing his head, he added as he retreated: "What a su--su +--superb property!" + +Then, in the heart of the man of letters, the landowner awoke, and, +smiling, he opened the window to show them the immense stretch of view. +An endless horizon broadened out on all sides, giving a view of Triel, +Pisse-Fontaine, Chanteloup, all the heights of Hautrie, and the Seine as +far as the eye could see. The two visitors, delighted, congratulated +him, and the house was opened to them. They saw everything, down to the +dainty kitchen, whose walls and even ceilings were covered with porcelain +tiles ornamented with blue designs, which excited the wonder of the +farmers. + +"How did you happen to buy this place?" asked the journalist. + +The novelist explained that, while looking for a cottage to hire for the +summer, he had found the little house, which was for sale for several +thousand francs, a song, almost nothing. He immediately bought it. + +"But everything that you have added must have cost you a good deal!" + +The writer smiled, and answered: "Yes, quite a little." + +The two men left. The journalist, taking Patissot by the arm, was +philosophizing in a low voice: + +"Every general has his Waterloo," he said; "every Balzac has his Jardies, +and every artist living in the country feels like a landed proprietor." + +They took the train at the station of Villaines, and, on the way home, +Patissot loudly mentioned the names of the famous painter and of the +great novelist as though they were his friends. He even allowed people +to think that he had taken luncheon with one and dinner with the other. + + + BEFORE THE CELEBRATION + +The celebration is approaching and preliminary quivers are already +running through the streets, just as the ripples disturb the water +preparatory to a storm. The shops, draped with flags, display a variety +of gay-colored bunting materials, and the dry-goods people deceive one +about the three colors as grocers do about the weight of candles. Little +by little, hearts warm up to the matter; people speak about it in the +street after dinner; ideas are exchanged: + +"What a celebration it will be, my friend; what a celebration!" + +"Have you heard the news? All the rulers are coming incognito, as +bourgeois, in order to see it." + +"I hear that the Emperor of Russia has arrived; he expects to go about +everywhere with the Prince of Wales." + +"It certainly will be a fine celebration!" + +It is going to a celebration; what Monsieur Patissot, Parisian bourgeois, +calls a celebration; one of these nameless tumults which, for fifteen +hours, roll from one end of the city to the other, every ugly specimen +togged out in its finest, a mob of perspiring bodies, where side by side +are tossed about the stout gossip bedecked in red, white and blue +ribbons, grown fat behind her counter and panting from lack of breath, +the rickety clerk with his wife and brat in tow, the laborer carrying his +youngster astride his neck, the bewildered provincial with his foolish, +dazed expression, the groom, barely shaved and still spreading the +perfume of the stable. And the foreigners dressed like monkeys, English +women like giraffes, the water-carrier, cleaned up for the occasion, and +the innumerable phalanx of little bourgeois, inoffensive little people, +amused at everything. All this crowding and pressing, the sweat and +dust, and the turmoil, all these eddies of human flesh, trampling of +corns beneath the feet of your neighbors, this city all topsy-turvy, +these vile odors, these frantic efforts toward nothing, the breath of +millions of people, all redolent of garlic, give to Monsieur Patissot all +the joy which it is possible for his heart to hold. + +After reading the proclamation of the mayor on the walls of his district +he had made his preparations. + +This bit of prose said: + + I wish to call your attention particularly to the part of + individuals in this celebration. Decorate your homes, illuminate + your windows. Get together, open up a subscription in order to give + to your houses and to your street a more brilliant and more artistic + appearance than the neighboring houses and streets. + +Then Monsieur Patissot tried to imagine how he could give to his home an +artistic appearance. + +One serious obstacle stood in the way. His only window looked out on a +courtyard, a narrow, dark shaft, where only the rats could have seen his +three Japanese lanterns. + +He needed a public opening. He found it. On the first floor of his +house lived a rich man, a nobleman and a royalist, whose coachman, also a +reactionary, occupied a garret-room on the sixth floor, facing the +street. Monsieur Patissot supposed that by paying (every conscience can +be bought) he could obtain the use of the room for the day. He proposed +five francs to this citizen of the whip for the use of his room from noon +till midnight. The offer was immediately accepted. + +Then he began to busy himself with the decorations. Three flags, four +lanterns, was that enough to give to this box an artistic appearance--to +express all the noble feelings of his soul? No; assuredly not! But, +notwithstanding diligent search and nightly meditation, Monsieur Patissot +could think of nothing else. He consulted his neighbors, who were +surprised at the question; he questioned his colleagues--every one had +bought lanterns and flags, some adding, for the occasion, red, white and +blue bunting. + +Then he began to rack his brains for some original idea. He frequented +the cafes, questioning the patrons; they lacked imagination. Then one +morning he went out on top of an omnibus. A respectable-looking +gentleman was smoking a cigar beside him, a little farther away a laborer +was smoking his pipe upside down, near the driver two rough fellows were +joking, and clerks of every description were going to business for three +cents. + +Before the stores stacks of flags were resplendent under the rising sun. +Patissot turned to his neighbor. + +"It is going to be a fine celebration," he said. The gentleman looked at +him sideways and answered in a haughty manner: + +"That makes no difference to me!" + +"You are not going to take part in it?" asked the surprised clerk. The +other shook his head disdainfully and declared: + +"They make me tired with their celebrations! Whose celebration is it? +The government's? I do not recognize this government, monsieur!" + +But Patissot, as government employee, took on his superior manner, and +answered in a stern voice: + +"Monsieur, the Republic is the government." + +His neighbor was not in the least disturbed, and, pushing his hands down +in his pockets, he exclaimed: + +"Well, and what then? It makes no difference to me. Whether it's for +the Republic or something else, I don't care! What I want, monsieur, is +to know my government. I saw Charles X. and adhered to him, monsieur; I +saw Louis-Philippe and adhered to him, monsieur; I saw Napoleon and +adhered to him; but I have never seen the Republic." + +Patissot, still serious, answered: + +"The Republic, monsieur, is represented by its president!" + +The other grumbled: + +"Well, them, show him to me!" + +Patissot shrugged his shoulders. + +"Every one can see him; he's not shut up in a closet!" + +Suddenly the fat man grew angry. + +"Excuse me, monsieur, he cannot be seen. I have personally tried more +than a hundred times, monsieur. I have posted myself near the Elysee; he +did not come out. A passer-by informed me that he was playing billiards +in the cafe opposite; I went to the cafe opposite; he was not there. +I had been promised that he would go to Melun for the convention; I went +to Melun, I did not see him. At last I became weary. I did not even see +Monsieur Gambetta, and I do not know a single deputy." + +He was, growing excited: + +"A government, monsieur, is made to be seen; that's what it's there for, +and for nothing else. One must be able to know that on such and such a +day at such an hour the government will pass through such and such a +street. Then one goes there and is satisfied." + +Patissot, now calm, was enjoying his arguments. + +"It is true," he said, "that it is agreeable to know the people by whom +one is governed." + +The gentleman continued more gently: + +"Do you know how I would manage the celebration? Well, monsieur, I would +have a procession of gilded cars, like the chariots used at the crowning +of kings; in them I would parade all the members of the government, from +the president to the deputies, throughout Paris all day long. In that +manner, at least, every one would know by sight the personnel of the +state." + +But one of the toughs near the coachman turned around, exclaiming: + +"And the fatted ox, where would you put him?" + +A laugh ran round the two benches. Patissot understood the objection, +and murmured: + +"It might not perhaps be very dignified." + +The gentleman thought the matter over and admitted it. + +"Then," he said, "I would place them in view some place, so that every +one could see them without going out of his way; on the Triumphal Arch at +the Place de l'Etoile, for instance; and I would have the whole +population pass before them. That would be very imposing." + +Once more the tough turned round and said: + +"You'd have to take telescopes to see their faces." + +The gentleman did not answer; he continued: + +"It's just like the presentation of the flags! There ought, to be some +pretext, a mimic war ought to be organized, and the banners would be +awarded to the troops as a reward. I had an idea about which I wrote to +the minister; but he has not deigned to answer me. As the taking of the +Bastille has been chosen for the date of the national celebration, a +reproduction of this event might be made; there would be a pasteboard +Bastille, fixed up by a scene-painter and concealing within its walls the +whole Column of July. Then, monsieur, the troop would attack. That +would be a magnificent spectacle as well as a lesson, to see the army +itself overthrow the ramparts of tyranny. Then this Bastille would be +set fire to and from the midst of the flames would appear the Column with +the genius of Liberty, symbol of a new order and of the freedom of the +people." + +This time every one was listening to him and finding his idea excellent. +An old gentleman exclaimed: + +"That is a great idea, monsieur, which does you honor. It is to be +regretted that the government did not adopt it." + +A young man declared that actors ought to recite the "Iambes" of Barbier +through the streets in order to teach the people art and liberty +simultaneously. + +These propositions excited general enthusiasm. Each one wished to have +his word; all were wrought up. From a passing hand-organ a few strains +of the Marseillaise were heard; the laborer started the song, and +everybody joined in, roaring the chorus. The exalted nature of the song +and its wild rhythm fired the driver, who lashed his horses to a gallop. +Monsieur Patissot was bawling at the top of his lungs, and the passengers +inside, frightened, were wondering what hurricane had struck them. + +At last they stopped, and Monsieur Patissot, judging his neighbor to be a +man of initiative, consulted him about the preparations which he expected +to make: + +"Lanterns and flags are all right,"' said Patissot ; "but I prefer +something better." + +The other thought for a long time, but found nothing. Then, in despair, +the clerk bought three flags and four lanterns. + + + AN EXPERIMENT IN LOVE + +Many poets think that nature is incomplete without women, and hence, +doubtless, come all the flowery comparisons which, in their songs, make +our natural companion in turn a rose, a violet, a tulip, or something of +that order. The need of tenderness which seizes us at dusk, when the +evening mist begins to roll in from the hills, and when all the perfumes +of the earth intoxicate us, is but imperfectly satisfied by lyric +invocations. Monsieur Patissot, like all others, was seized with a wild +desire for tenderness, for sweet kisses exchanged along a path where +sunshine steals in at times, for the pressure of a pair of small hands, +for a supple waist bending under his embrace. + +He began to look at love as an unbounded pleasure, and, in his hours of +reverie, he thanked the Great Unknown for having put so much charm into +the caresses of human beings. But he needed a companion, and he did not +know where to find one. On the advice of a friend, he went to the +Folies-Bergere. There he saw a complete assortment. He was greatly +perplexed to choose between them, for the desires of his heart were +chiefly composed of poetic impulses, and poetry did not seem to be the +strong point of these young ladies with penciled eyebrows who smiled at +him in such a disturbing manner, showing the enamel of their false teeth. +At last his choice fell on a young beginner who seemed poor and timid and +whose sad look seemed to announce a nature easily influenced-by poetry. + +He made an appointment with her for the following day at nine o'clock at +the Saint-Lazare station. She did not come, but she was kind enough to +send a friend in her stead. + +She was a tall, red-haired girl, patriotically dressed in three colors, +and covered by an immense tunnel hat, of which her head occupied the +centre. Monsieur Patissot, a little disappointed, nevertheless accepted +this substitute. They left for Maisons-Laffite, where regattas and a +grand Venetian festival had been announced. + +As soon as they were in the car, which was already occupied by two +gentlemen who wore the red ribbon and three ladies who must at least have +been duchesses, they were so dignified, the big red-haired girl, who +answered the name of Octavie, announced to Patissot, in a screeching +voice, that she was a fine girl fond of a good time and loving the +country because there she could pick flowers and eat fried fish. She +laughed with a shrillness which almost shattered the windows, familiarly +calling her companion "My big darling." + +Shame overwhelmed Patissot, who as a government employee, had to observe +a certain amount of decorum. But Octavie stopped talking, glancing at +her neighbors, seized with the overpowering desire which haunts all women +of a certain class to make the acquaintance of respectable women. After +about five minutes she thought she had found an opening, and, drawing +from her pocket a Gil-Blas, she politely offered it to one of the amazed +ladies, who declined, shaking her head. Then the big, red-haired girl +began saying things with a double meaning, speaking of women who are +stuck up without being any better than the others; sometimes she would +let out a vulgar word which acted like a bomb exploding amid the icy +dignity of the passengers. + +At last they arrived. Patissot immediately wished to gain the shady +nooks of the park, hoping that the melancholy of the forest would quiet +the ruffled temper of his companion. But an entirely different effect +resulted. As soon as she was amid the leaves and grass she began to sing +at the top of her lungs snatches from operas which had stuck in her +frivolous mind, warbling and trilling, passing from "Robert le Diable" to +the "Muette," lingering especially on a sentimental love-song, whose last +verses she sang in a voice as piercing as a gimlet. + +Then suddenly she grew hungry. Patissot, who was still awaiting the +hoped-for tenderness, tried in vain to retain her. Then she grew angry, +exclaiming: + +"I am not here for a dull time, am I?" + +He had to take her to the Petit-Havre restaurant, which was near the +place where the regatta was to be held. + +She ordered an endless luncheon, a succession of dishes substantial +enough to feed a regiment. Then, unable to wait, she called for +relishes. A box of sardines was brought; she started in on it as though +she intended to swallow the box itself. But when she had eaten two or +three of the little oily fish she declared that she was no longer hungry +and that she wished to see the preparations for the race. + +Patissot, in despair and in his turn seized with hunger, absolutely +refused to move. She started off alone, promising to return in time for +the dessert. He began to eat in lonely silence, not knowing how to lead +this rebellious nature to the realization of his dreams. + +As she did not return he set out in search of her. She had found some +friends, a troop of boatmen, in scanty garb, sunburned to the tips of +their ears, and gesticulating, who were loudly arranging the details of +the race in front of the house of Fourmaise, the builder. + +Two respectable-looking gentlemen, probably the judges, were listening +attentively. As soon as she saw Patissot, Octavie, who was leaning on +the tanned arm of a strapping fellow who probably had more muscle than +brains, whispered a few words in his ears. He answered: + +"That's an agreement." + +She returned to the clerk full of joy, her eyes sparkling, almost +caressing. + +"Let's go for a row," said she. + +Pleased to see her so charming, he gave in to this new whim and procured +a boat. But she obstinately refused to go to the races, notwithstanding +Patissot's wishes. + +"I had rather be alone with you, darling." + +His heart thrilled. At last! + +He took off his coat and began to row madly. + +An old dilapidated mill, whose worm-eaten wheels hung over the water, +stood with its two arches across a little arm of the river. Slowly they +passed beneath it, and, when they were on the other side, they noticed +before them a delightful little stretch of river, shaded by great trees +which formed an arch over their heads. The little stream flowed along, +winding first to the right and then to the left, continually revealing +new scenes, broad fields on one side and on the other side a hill covered +with cottages. They passed before a bathing establishment almost +entirely hidden by the foliage, a charming country spot where gentlemen +in clean gloves and beribboned ladies displayed all the ridiculous +awkwardness of elegant people in the country. She cried joyously: + +"Later on we will take a dip there." + +Farther on, in a kind of bay, she wished to stop, coaxing: + +"Come here, honey, right close to me." + +She put her arm around his neck and, leaning her head on his shoulder, +she murmured: + +"How nice it is! How delightful it is on the water!" + +Patissot was reveling in happiness. He was thinking of those foolish +boatmen who, without ever feeling the penetrating charm of the river +banks and the delicate grace of the reeds, row along out of breath, +perspiring and tired out, from the tavern where they take luncheon to the +tavern where they take dinner. + +He was so comfortable that he fell asleep. When he awoke, he was alone. +He called, but no one answered. Anxious, he climbed up on the side of +the river, fearing that some accident might have happened. + +Then, in the distance, coming in his direction, he saw a long, slender +gig which four oarsmen as black as negroes were driving through the water +like an arrow. It came nearer, skimming over the water; a woman was +holding the tiller. Heavens! It looked--it was she! In order to +regulate the rhythm of the stroke, she was singing in her shrill voice a +boating song, which she interrupted for a minute as she got in front of +Patissot. Then, throwing him a kiss, she cried: + +"You big goose!" + + + A DINNER AND SOME OPINIONS + +On the occasion of the national celebration Monsieur Antoine Perdrix, +chief of Monsieur Patissot's department, was made a knight of the Legion +of Honor. He had been in service for thirty years under preceding +governments, and for ten years under the present one. His employees, +although grumbling a little at being thus rewarded in the person of their +chief, thought it wise, nevertheless, to offer him a cross studded with +paste diamonds. The new knight, in turn, not wishing to be outdone, +invited them all to dinner for the following Sunday, at his place at +Asnieres. + +The house, decorated with Moorish ornaments, looked like a cafe concert, +but its location gave it value, as the railroad cut through the whole +garden, passing within a hundred and fifty feet of the porch. On the +regulation plot of grass stood a basin of Roman cement, containing +goldfish and a stream of water the size of that which comes from a +syringe, which occasionally made microscopic rainbows at which the guests +marvelled. + +The feeding of this irrigator was the constant preoccupation of Monsieur +Perdrix, who would sometimes get up at five o'clock in the morning in +order to fill the tank. Then, in his shirt sleeves, his big stomach +almost bursting from his trousers, he would pump wildly, so that on +returning from the office he could have the satisfaction of letting the +fountain play and of imagining that it was cooling off the garden. + +On the night of the official dinner all the guests, one after the other, +went into ecstasies over the surroundings, and each time they heard a +train in the distance, Monsieur Perdrix would announce to them its +destination: Saint-Germain, Le Havre, Cherbourg, or Dieppe, and they +would playfully wave to the passengers leaning from the windows. + +The whole office force was there. First came Monsieur Capitaine, the +assistant chief; Monsieur Patissot, chief clerk; then Messieurs de +Sombreterre and Vallin, elegant young employees who only came to the +office when they had to; lastly Monsieur Rade, known throughout the +ministry for the absurd doctrines which he upheld, and the copying clerk, +Monsieur Boivin. + +Monsieur Rade passed for a character. Some called him a dreamer or an +idealist, others a revolutionary; every one agreed that he was very +clumsy. Old, thin and small, with bright eyes and long, white hair, he +had all his life professed a profound contempt for administrative work. +A book rummager and a great reader, with a nature continually in revolt +against everything, a seeker of truth and a despiser of popular +prejudices, he had a clear and paradoxical manner of expressing his +opinions which closed the mouths of self-satisfied fools and of those +that were discontented without knowing why. People said: "That old fool +of a Rade," or else: "That harebrained Rade"; and the slowness, of his +promotion seemed to indicate the reason, according to commonplace minds. +His freedom of speech often made--his colleagues tremble; they asked +themselves with terror how he had been able to keep his place as long as +he had. As soon as they had seated themselves, Monsieur Perdrix thanked +his "collaborators" in a neat little speech, promising them his +protection, the more valuable as his power grew, and he ended with a +stirring peroration in which he thanked and glorified a government so +liberal and just that it knows how to seek out the worthy from among the +humble. + +Monsieur Capitaine, the assistant chief, answered in the name of the +office, congratulated, greeted, exalted, sang the praises of all; frantic +applause greeted these two bits of eloquence. After that they settled +down seriously to the business of eating. + +Everything went well up to the dessert; lack of conversation went +unnoticed. But after the coffee a discussion arose, and Monsieur Rade +let himself loose and soon began to overstep the bounds of discretion. + +They naturally discussed love, and a breath of chivalry intoxicated this +room full of bureaucrats; they praised and exalted the superior beauty of +woman, the delicacy of hex soul, her aptitude for exquisite things, the +correctness of her judgment, and the refinement of her sentiments. +Monsieur Rade began to protest, energetically refusing to credit the so- +called "fair" sex with all the qualities they ascribed to it; then, +amidst the general indignation, he quoted some authors: + +"Schopenhauer, gentlemen, Schopenhauer, the great philosopher, revered by +all Germany, says: 'Man's intelligence must have been terribly deadened +by love in order to call this sex with the small waist, narrow shoulders, +large hips and crooked legs, the fair sex. All its beauty lies in the +instinct of love. Instead of calling it the fair, it would have been +better to call it the unaesthetic sex. Women have neither the +appreciation nor the knowledge of music, any more than they have of +poetry or of the plastic arts; with them it is merely an apelike +imitation, pure pretence, affectation cultivated from their desire to +please.'" + +"The man who said that is an idiot," exclaimed Monsieur de Sombreterre. + +Monsieur Rade smilingly continued: + +"And how about Rousseau, gentlemen? Here is his opinion: 'Women, as a +rule, love no art, are skilled in none, and have no talent.'" + +Monsieur de Sombreterre disdainfully shrugged his shoulders: + +"Then Rousseau is as much of a fool as the other, that's all." + +Monsieur Rade, still smiling, went on: + +"And this is what Lord Byron said, who, nevertheless, loved women: 'They +should be well fed and well dressed, but not allowed to mingle with +society. They should also be taught religion, but they should ignore +poetry and politics, only being allowed to read religious works or cook- +books.'" + +Monsieur Rade continued: + +"You see, gentlemen, all of them study painting and music. But not a +single one of them has ever painted a remarkable picture or composed a +great opera! Why, gentlemen? Because they are the 'sexes sequior', the +secondary sex in every sense of the word, made to be kept apart, in the +background." + +Monsieur Patissot was growing angry, and exclaimed: + +"And how about Madame Sand, monsieur?" + +"She is the one exception, monsieur, the one exception. I will quote to +you another passage from another great philosopher, this one an +Englishman, Herbert Spencer. Here is what he says: 'Each sex is capable, +under the influence of abnormal stimulation, of manifesting faculties +ordinarily reserved for the other one. Thus, for instance, in extreme +cases a special excitement may cause the breasts of men to give milk; +children deprived of their mothers have often thus been saved in time of +famine. Nevertheless, we do not place this faculty of giving milk among +the male attributes. It is the same with female intelligence, which, in +certain cases, will give superior products, but which is not to be +considered in an estimate of the feminine nature as a social factor.'" + +All Monsieur Patissot's chivalric instincts were wounded and he declared: + +"You are not a Frenchman, monsieur. French gallantry is a form of +patriotism." + +Monsieur Rade retorted: + +"I have very little patriotism, monsieur, as little as I can get along +with." + +A coolness settled over the company, but he continued quietly: + +"Do you admit with me that war is a barbarous thing; that this custom of +killing off people constitutes a condition of savagery; that it is +odious, when life is the only real good, to see governments, whose duty +is to protect the lives of their subjects, persistently looking for means +of destruction? Am I not right? Well, if war is a terrible thing, what +about patriotism, which is the idea at the base of it? When a murderer +kills he has a fixed idea; it is to steal. When a good man sticks his +bayonet through another good man, father of a family, or, perhaps, a +great artist, what idea is he following out?" + +Everybody was shocked. + +"When one has such thoughts, one should not express them in public." + +M. Patissot continued: + +"There are, however, monsieur, principles which all good people +recognize." + +M. Rade asked: "Which ones?" + +Then very solemnly, M. Patissot pronounced: "Morality, monsieur." + +M. Rade was beaming; he exclaimed: + +"Just let me give you one example, gentlemen, one little example. What +is your opinion of the gentlemen with the silk caps who thrive along the +boulevard's on the delightful traffic which you know, and who make a +living out of it?" + +A look of disgust ran round the table: + +"Well, gentlemen! only a century ago, when an elegant gentleman, very +ticklish about his honor, had for--friend--a beautiful and rich lady, it +was considered perfectly proper to live at her expense and even to +squander her whole fortune. This game was considered delightful. This +only goes to show that the principles of morality are by no means +settled--and that--" + +M. Perdrix, visibly embarrassed, stopped him: + +"M. Rade, you are sapping the very foundations of society. One must +always have principles. Thus, in politics, here is M. de Sombreterre, +who is a Legitimist; M. Vallin, an Orleanist; M. Patissot and myself, +Republicans; we all have very different principles, and yet we agree very +well because we have them." + +But M. Rade exclaimed: + +"I also have principles, gentlemen, very distinct ones." + +M. Patissot raised his head and coldly asked: + +"It would please me greatly to know them, monsieur." + +M. Rade did not need to be coaxed. + +"Here they are, monsieur: + +"First principle--Government by one person is a monstrosity. + +"Second principle--Restricted suffrage is an injustice. + +"Third principle--Universal suffrage is idiotic. + +"To deliver up millions of men, superior minds, scientists, even +geniuses, to the caprice and will of a being who, in an instant of +gaiety, madness, intoxication or love, would not hesitate to sacrifice +everything for his exalted fancy, would spend the wealth of the country +amassed by others with difficulty, would have thousands of men +slaughtered on the battle-fields, all this appears to me--a simple +logician--a monstrous aberration. + +"But, admitting that a country must govern itself, to exclude, on some +always debatable pretext, a part of the citizens from the administration +of affairs is such an injustice that it seems to me unworthy of a further +discussion. + +"There remains universal suffrage. I suppose that you will agree with me +that geniuses are a rarity. Let us be liberal and say that there are at +present five in France. Now, let us add, perhaps, two hundred men with a +decided talent, one thousand others possessing various talents, and ten +thousand superior intellects. This is a staff of eleven thousand two +hundred and five minds. After that you have the army of mediocrities +followed by the multitude of fools. As the mediocrities and the fools +always form the immense majority, it is impossible for them to elect an +intelligent government. + +"In order to be fair I admit that logically universal suffrage seems to +me the only admissible principle, but it is impracticable. Here are the +reasons why: + +"To make all the living forces of the country cooperate in the +government, to represent all the interests, to take into account all the +rights, is an ideal dream, but hardly practicable, because the only force +which can be measured is that very one which should be neglected, the +stupid strength of numbers, According to your method, unintelligent +numbers equal genius, knowledge, learning, wealth and industry. When you +are able to give to a member of the Institute ten thousand votes to a +ragman's one, one hundred votes for a great land-owner as against his +farmer's ten, then you will have approached an equilibrium of forces and +obtained a national representation which will really represent the +strength of the nation. But I challenge you to do it. + +"Here are my conclusions: + +"Formerly, when a man was a failure at every other profession he turned +photographer; now he has himself elected a deputy. A government thus +composed will always be sadly lacking, incapable of evil as well as of +good. On the other hand, a despot, if he be stupid, can do a lot of +harm, and, if he be intelligent (a thing which is very scarce), he may do +good. + +"I cannot decide between these two forms of government; I declare myself +to be an anarchist, that is to say, a partisan of that power which is the +most unassuming, the least felt, the most liberal, in the broadest sense +of the word, and revolutionary at the same time; by that I mean the +everlasting enemy of this same power, which can in no way be anything but +defective. That's all!" + +Cries of indignation rose about the table, and all, whether Legitimist, +Orleanist or Republican through force of circumstances, grew red with +anger. M. Patissot especially was choking with rage, and, turning toward +M. Rade, he cried: + +"Then, monsieur, you believe in nothing?" + +The other answered quietly: + +"You're absolutely correct, monsieur." + +The anger felt by all the guests prevented M. Rade from continuing, and +M. Perdrix, as chief, closed the discussion. + +"Enough, gentlemen! We each have our opinion, and we have no intention +of changing it." + +All agreed with the wise words. But M. Rade, never satisfied, wished to +have the last word. + +"I have, however, one moral," said he. "It is simple and always +applicable. One sentence embraces the whole thought; here it is: 'Never +do unto another that which you would not have him do unto you.' I defy +you to pick any flaw in it, while I will undertake to demolish your most +sacred principles with three arguments." + +This time there was no answer. But as they were going home at night, by +couples, each one was saying to his companion: "Really, M. Rade goes much +too far. His mind must surely be unbalanced. He ought to be appointed +assistant chief at the Charenton Asylum." + + + + + + +A RECOLLECTION + +How many recollections of youth come to me in the soft sunlight of early +spring! It was an age when all was pleasant, cheerful, charming, +intoxicating. How exquisite are the remembrances of those old +springtimes! + +Do you recall, old friends and brothers, those happy years when life was +nothing but a triumph and an occasion for mirth? Do you recall the days +of wanderings around Paris, our jolly poverty, our walks in the fresh, +green woods, our drinks in the wine-shops on the banks of the Seine and +our commonplace and delightful little flirtations? + +I will tell you about one of these. It was twelve years ago and already +appears to me so old, so old that it seems now as if it belonged to the +other end of life, before middle age, this dreadful middle age from which +I suddenly perceived the end of the journey. + +I was then twenty-five. I had just come to Paris. I was in a government +office, and Sundays were to me like unusual festivals, full of exuberant +happiness, although nothing remarkable occurred. + +Now it is Sunday every day, but I regret the time when I had only one +Sunday in the week. How enjoyable it was! I had six francs to spend! + +On this particular morning I awoke with that sense of freedom that all +clerks know so well--the sense of emancipation, of rest, of quiet and of +independence. + +I opened my window. The weather was charming. A blue sky full of +sunlight and swallows spread above the town. + +I dressed quickly and set out, intending to spend the day in the woods +breathing the air of the green trees, for I am originally a rustic, +having been brought up amid the grass and the trees. + +Paris was astir and happy in the warmth and the light. The front of the +houses was bathed in sunlight, the janitress' canaries were singing in +their cages and there was an air of gaiety in the streets, in the faces +of the inhabitants, lighting them up with a smile as if all beings and +all things experienced a secret satisfaction at the rising of the +brilliant sun. + +I walked towards the Seine to take the Swallow, which would land me at +Saint-Cloud. + +How I loved waiting for the boat on the wharf: + +It seemed to me that I was about to set out for the ends of the world, +for new and wonderful lands. I saw the boat approaching yonder, yonder +under the second bridge, looking quite small with its plume of smoke, +then growing larger and ever larger, as it drew near, until it looked to +me like a mail steamer. + +It came up to the wharf and I went on board. People were there already +in their Sunday clothes, startling toilettes, gaudy ribbons and bright +scarlet designs. I took up a position in the bows, standing up and +looking at the quays, the trees, the houses and the bridges disappearing +behind us. And suddenly I perceived the great viaduct of Point du Jour +which blocked the river. It was the end of Paris, the beginning of the +country, and behind the double row of arches the Seine, suddenly +spreading out as though it had regained space and liberty, became all at +once the peaceful river which flows through the plains, alongside the +wooded hills, amid the meadows, along the edge of the forests. + +After passing between two islands the Swallow went round a curved verdant +slope dotted with white houses. A voice called out: "Bas Meudon" and a +little further on, "Sevres," and still further, "Saint-Cloud." + +I went on shore and walked hurriedly through the little town to the road +leading to the wood. + +I had brought with me a map of the environs of Paris, so that I might not +lose my way amid the paths which cross in every direction these little +forests where Parisians take their outings. + +As soon as I was unperceived I began to study my guide, which seemed to +be perfectly clear. I was to turn to the right, then to the left, then +again to the left and I should reach Versailles by evening in time for +dinner. + +I walked slowly beneath the young leaves, drinking in the air, fragrant +with the odor of young buds and sap. I sauntered along, forgetful of +musty papers, of the offices, of my chief, my colleagues, my documents, +and thinking of the good things that were sure to come to me, of all the +veiled unknown contained in the future. A thousand recollections of +childhood came over me, awakened by these country odors, and I walked +along, permeated with the fragrant, living enchantment, the emotional +enchantment of the woods warmed by the sun of June. + +At times I sat down to look at all sorts of little flowers growing on a +bank, with the names of which I was familiar. I recognized them all just +as if they were the ones I had seen long ago in the country. They were +yellow, red, violet, delicate, dainty, perched on long stems or close to +the ground. Insects of all colors and shapes, short, long, of peculiar +form, frightful, and microscopic monsters, climbed quietly up the stalks +of grass which bent beneath their weight. + +Then I went to sleep for some hours in a hollow and started off again, +refreshed by my doze. + +In front of me lay an enchanting pathway and through its somewhat scanty +foliage the sun poured down drops of light on the marguerites which grew +there. It stretched out interminably, quiet and deserted, save for an +occasional big wasp, who would stop buzzing now and then to sip from a +flower, and then continue his way. + +All at once I perceived at the end of the path two persons, a man and a +woman, coming towards me. Annoyed at being disturbed in my quiet walk, I +was about to dive into the thicket, when I thought I heard someone +calling me. The woman was, in fact, shaking her parasol, and the man, in +his shirt sleeves, his coat over one arm, was waving the other as a +signal of distress. + +I went towards them. They were walking hurriedly, their faces very red, +she with short, quick steps and he with long strides. They both looked +annoyed and fatigued. + +The woman asked: + +"Can you tell me, monsieur, where we are? My fool of a husband made us +lose our way, although he pretended he knew the country perfectly." + +I replied confidently: + +"Madame, you are going towards Saint-Cloud and turning your back on +Versailles." + +With a look of annoyed pity for her husband, she exclaimed: + +"What, we are turning our back on Versailles? Why, that is just where we +want to dine!" + +"I am going there also, madame." + +"Mon Dieu, mon Dieu, mon Dieu!" she repeated, shrugging her shoulders, +and in that tone of sovereign contempt assumed by women to express their +exasperation. + +She was quite young, pretty, a brunette with a slight shadow on her upper +lip. + +As for him, he was perspiring and wiping his forehead. It was assuredly +a little Parisian bourgeois couple. The man seemed cast down, exhausted +and distressed. + +"But, my dear friend, it was you--" he murmured. + +She did not allow him to finish his sentence. + +"It was I!, Ah, it is my fault now! Was it I who wanted to go out +without getting any information, pretending that I knew how to find my +way? Was it I who wanted to take the road to the right on top of the +hill, insisting that I recognized the road? Was it I who undertook to +take charge of Cachou--" + +She had not finished speaking when her husband, as if he had suddenly +gone crazy, gave a piercing scream, a long, wild cry that could not be +described in any language, but which sounded like 'tuituit'. + +The young woman did not appear to be surprised or moved and resumed: + +"No, really, some people are so stupid and they pretend they know +everything. Was it I who took the train to Dieppe last year instead of +the train to Havre--tell me, was it I? Was it I who bet that +M. Letourneur lived in Rue des Martyres? Was it I who would not believe +that Celeste was a thief?" + +She went on, furious, with a surprising flow of language, accumulating +the most varied, the most unexpected and the most overwhelming +accusations drawn from the intimate relations of their daily life, +reproaching her husband for all his actions, all his ideas, all his +habits, all his enterprises, all his efforts, for his life from the time +of their marriage up to the present time. + +He strove to check her, to calm her and stammered: + +"But, my dear, it is useless--before monsieur. We are making ourselves +ridiculous. This does not interest monsieur." + +And he cast mournful glances into the thicket as though he sought to +sound its peaceful and mysterious depths, in order to flee thither, to +escape and hide from all eyes, and from time to time he uttered a fresh +scream, a prolonged and shrill "tuituit." I took this to be a nervous +affection. + +The young woman, suddenly turning towards me: and changing her tone with +singular rapidity, said: + +"If monsieur will kindly allow us, we will accompany him on the road, so +as not to lose our way again, and be obliged, possibly, to sleep in the +wood." + +I bowed. She took my arm and began to talk about a thousand things-- +about herself, her life, her family, her business. They were glovers in +the Rue, Saint-Lazare. + +Her husband walked beside her, casting wild glances into the thick wood +and screaming "tuituit" every few moments. + +At last I inquired: + +"Why do you scream like that?" + +"I have lost my poor dog," he replied in a tone of discouragement and +despair. + +"How is that--you have lost your dog?" + +"Yes. He was just a year old. He had never been outside the shop. +I wanted to take him to have a run in the woods. He had never seen the +grass nor the leaves and he was almost wild. He began to run about and +bark and he disappeared in the wood. I must also add that he was greatly +afraid of the train. That may have driven him mad. I kept on calling +him, but he has not come back. He will die of hunger in there." + +Without turning towards her husband, the young woman said: + +"If you had left his chain on, it would not have happened. When people +are as stupid as you are they do not keep a dog." + +"But, my dear, it was you--" he murmured timidly. + +She stopped short, and looking into his eyes as if she were going to tear +them out, she began again to cast in his face innumerable reproaches. + +It was growing dark. The cloud of vapor that covers the country at dusk +was slowly rising and there was a poetry in the air, induced by the +peculiar and enchanting freshness of the atmosphere that one feels in the +woods at nightfall. + +Suddenly the young man stopped, and feeling his body feverishly, +exclaimed: + +"Oh, I think that I--" + +She looked at him. + +"Well, what?" + +"I did not notice that I had my coat on my arm." + +"Well--?" + +"I have lost my pocketbook--my money was in it." + +She shook with anger and choked with indignation. + +"That was all that was lacking. How stupid you are! how stupid you are! +Is it possible that I could have married such an idiot! Well, go and +look for it, and see that you find it. I am going on to Versailles with +monsieur. I do not want to sleep in the wood." + +"Yes, my dear," he replied gently. "Where shall I find you?" + +A restaurant had been recommended to me. I gave him the address. + +He turned back and, stooping down as he searched the ground with anxious +eyes, he moved away, screaming "tuituit" every few moments. + +We could see him for some time until the growing darkness concealed all +but his outline, but we heard his mournful "tuituit," shriller and +shriller as the night grew darker. + +As for me, I stepped along quickly and happily in the soft twilight, with +this little unknown woman leaning on my arm. I tried to say pretty +things to her, but could think of nothing. I remained silent, disturbed, +enchanted. + +Our path was suddenly crossed by a high road. To the right I perceived a +town lying in a valley. + +What was this place? A man was passing. I asked him. He replied: + +"Bougival." + +I was dumfounded. + +"What, Bougival? Are you sure?" + +"Parbleu, I belong there!" + +The little woman burst into an idiotic laugh. + +I proposed that we should take a carriage and drive to Versailles. She +replied: + +"No, indeed. This is very funny and I am very hungry. I am really quite +calm. My husband will find his way all right. It is a treat to me to be +rid of him for a few hours." + +We went into a restaurant beside the water and I ventured to ask for a +private compartment. We had some supper. She sang, drank champagne, +committed all sorts of follies. + +That was my first serious flirtation. + + + + + + +OUR LETTERS + +Eight hours of railway travel induce sleep for some persons and insomnia +for others with me, any journey prevents my sleeping on the following +night. + +At about five o'clock I arrived at the estate of Abelle, which belongs to +my friends, the Murets d'Artus, to spend three weeks there. It is a +pretty house, built by one of their grandfathers in the style of the +latter half of the last century. Therefore it has that intimate +character of dwellings that have always been inhabited, furnished and +enlivened by the same people. Nothing changes; nothing alters the soul +of the dwelling, from which the furniture has never been taken out, the +tapestries never unnailed, thus becoming worn out, faded, discolored, on +the same walls. None of the old furniture leaves the place; only from +time to time it is moved a little to make room for a new piece, which +enters there like a new-born infant in the midst of brothers and sisters. + +The house is on a hill in the center of a park which slopes down to the +river, where there is a little stone bridge. Beyond the water the fields +stretch out in the distance, and here one can see the cows wandering +around, pasturing on the moist grass; their eyes seem full of the dew, +mist and freshness of the pasture. I love this dwelling, just as one +loves a thing which one ardently desires to possess. I return here every +autumn with infinite delight; I leave with regret. + +After I had dined with this friendly family, by whom I was received like +a relative, I asked my friend, Paul Muret: "Which room did you give me +this year?" + +"Aunt Rose's room." + +An hour later, followed by her three children, two little girls and a +boy, Madame Muret d'Artus installed me in Aunt Rose's room, where I had +not yet slept. + +When I was alone I examined the walls, the furniture, the general aspect +of the room, in order to attune my mind to it. I knew it but little, as +I had entered it only once or twice, and I looked indifferently at a +pastel portrait of Aunt Rose, who gave her name to the room. + +This old Aunt Rose, with her curls, looking at me from behind the glass, +made very little impression on my mind. She looked to me like a woman of +former days, with principles and precepts as strong on the maxims of +morality as on cooking recipes, one of these old aunts who are the +bugbear of gaiety and the stern and wrinkled angel of provincial +families. + +I never had heard her spoken of; I knew nothing of her life or of her +death. Did she belong to this century or to the preceding one? Had she +left this earth after a calm or a stormy existence? Had she given up to +heaven the pure soul of an old maid, the calm soul of a spouse, the +tender one of a mother, or one moved by love? What difference did it +make? The name alone, "Aunt Rose," seemed ridiculous, common, ugly. + +I picked up a candle and looked at her severe face, hanging far up in an +old gilt frame. Then, as I found it insignificant, disagreeable, even +unsympathetic, I began to examine the furniture. It dated from the +period of Louis XVI, the Revolution and the Directorate. Not a chair, +not a curtain had entered this room since then, and it gave out the +subtle odor of memories, which is the combined odor of wood, cloth, +chairs, hangings, peculiar to places wherein have lived hearts that have +loved and suffered. + +I retired but did not sleep. After I had tossed about for an hour or +two, I decided to get up and write some letters. + +I opened a little mahogany desk with brass trimmings, which was placed +between the two windows, in hope of finding some ink and paper; but all I +found was a quill-pen, very much worn, and chewed at the end. I was +about to close this piece of furniture, when a shining spot attracted my +attention it looked like the yellow head of a nail. I scratched it with +my finger, and it seemed to move. I seized it between two finger-nails, +and pulled as hard as I could. It came toward me gently. It was a long +gold pin which had been slipped into a hole in the wood and remained +hidden there. + +Why? I immediately thought that it must have served to work some spring +which hid a secret, and I looked. It took a long time. After about two +hours of investigation, I discovered another hole opposite the first one, +but at the bottom of a groove. Into this I stuck my pin: a little shelf +sprang. toward my face, and I saw two packages of yellow letters, tied +with a blue ribbon. + +I read them. Here are two of them: + + So you wish me to return to you your letters, my dearest friend. + Here they are, but it pains me to obey. Of what are you afraid? + That I might lose them? But they are under lock and key. Do you + fear that they might be stolen? I guard against that, for they are + my dearest treasure. + + Yes, it pains me deeply. I wondered whether, perhaps you might not + be feeling some regret! Not regret at having loved me, for I know + that you still do, but the regret of having expressed on white paper + this living love in hours when your heart did not confide in me, but + in the pen that you held in your hand. When we love, we have need + of confession, need of talking or writing, and we either talk or + write. Words fly away, those sweet words made of music, air and + tenderness, warm and light, which escape as soon as they are + uttered, which remain in the memory alone, but which one can neither + see, touch nor kiss, as one can with the words written by your hand. + + Your letters? Yes, I am returning them to you! But with what + sorrow! + + Undoubtedly, you must have had an after thought of delicate shame at + expressions that are ineffaceable. In your sensitive and timid soul + you must have regretted having written to a man that you loved him. + You remembered sentences that called up recollections, and you said + to yourself: "I will make ashes of those words." + + Be satisfied, be calm. Here are your letters. I love you. + + + MY FRIEND: + + No, you have not understood me, you have not guessed. I do not + regret, and I never shall, that I told you of my affection. + + I will always write to you, but you must return my letters to me as + soon as you have read them. + + I shall shock you, my friend, when I tell you the reason for this + demand. It is not poetic, as you imagined, but practical. I am + afraid, not of you, but of some mischance. I am guilty. I do not + wish my fault to affect others than myself. + + Understand me well. You and I may both die. You might fall off + your horse, since you ride every day; you might die from a sudden + attack, from a duel, from heart disease, from a carriage accident, + in a thousand ways. For, if there is only one death, there are more + ways of its reaching us than there are days or us to live. + + Then your sisters, your brother, or your sister-in-law might find my + letters! Do you think that they love me? I doubt it. And then, + even if they adored me, is it possible for two women and one man to + know a secret--such a secret!--and not to tell of it? + + I seem to be saying very disagreeable things, speaking first of your + death, and then suspecting the discreetness of your relatives. + + But don't all of us die sooner or later? And it is almost certain + that one of us will precede the other under the ground. We must + therefore foresee all dangers, even that one. + + As for me, I will keep your letters beside mine, in the secret of my + little desk. I will show them to you there, sleeping side by side + in their silken hiding place, full of our love, like lovers in a + tomb. + + You will say to me: "But if you should die first, my dear, your + husband will find these letters." + + Oh! I fear nothing. First of all, he does not know the secret of my + desk, and then he will not look for it. And even if he finds it + after my death, I fear nothing. + + Did you ever stop to think of all the love letters that have been + found after death? I have been thinking of this for a long time, + and that is the reason I decided to ask you for my letters. + + Think that never, do you understand, never, does a woman burn, tear + or destroy the letters in which it is told her that she is loved. + That is our whole life, our whole hope, expectation and dream. + These little papers which bear our name in caressing terms are + relics which we adore; they are chapels in which we are the saints. + Our love letters are our titles to beauty, grace, seduction, the + intimate vanity of our womanhood; they are the treasures of our + heart. No, a woman does not destroy these secret and delicious + archives of her life. + + But, like everybody else, we die, and then--then these letters are + found! Who finds them? The husband. Then what does he do? + Nothing. He burns them. + + Oh, I have thought a great deal about that! Just think that every + day women are dying who have been loved; every day the traces and + proofs of their fault fall into the hands of their husbands, and + that there is never a scandal, never a duel. + + Think, my dear, of what a man's heart is. He avenges himself on a + living woman; he fights with the man who has dishonored her, kills + him while she lives, because, well, why? I do not know exactly why. + But, if, after her death, he finds similar proofs, he burns them and + no one is the wiser, and he continues to shake hands with the friend + of the dead woman, and feels quite at ease that these letters should + not have fallen into strange hands, and that they are destroyed. + + Oh, how many men I know among my friends who must have burned such + proofs, and who pretend to know nothing, and yet who would have + fought madly had they found them when she was still alive! But she + is dead. Honor has changed. The tomb is the boundary of conjugal + sinning. + + Therefore, I can safely keep our letters, which, in your hands, + would be a menace to both of us. Do you dare to say that I am not + right? + + I love you and kiss you. + + +I raised my eyes to the portrait of Aunt Rose, and as I looked at her +severe, wrinkled face, I thought of all those women's souls which we do +not know, and which we suppose to be so different from what they really +are, whose inborn and ingenuous craftiness we never can penetrate, their +quiet duplicity; and a verse of De Vigny returned to my memory: + + "Always this comrade whose heart is uncertain." + + + + + + +THE LOVE OF LONG AGO + +The old-fashioned chateau was built on a wooded knoll in the midst of +tall trees with dark-green foliage; the park extended to a great +distance, in one direction to the edge of the forest, in another to the +distant country. A few yards from the front of the house was a huge +stone basin with marble ladies taking a bath; other, basins were seen at +intervals down to the foot of the slope, and a stream of water fell in +cascades from one basin to another. + +From the manor house, which preserved the grace of a superannuated +coquette, down to the grottos incrusted with shell-work, where slumbered +the loves of a bygone age, everything in this antique demesne had +retained the physiognomy of former days. Everything seemed to speak +still of ancient customs, of the manners of long ago, of former +gallantries, and of the elegant trivialities so dear to our grandmothers. + +In a parlor in the style of Louis XV, whose walls were covered with +shepherds paying court to shepherdesses, beautiful ladies in hoop-skirts, +and gallant gentlemen in wigs, a very old woman, who seemed dead as soon +as she ceased to move, was almost lying down in a large easy-chair, at +each side of which hung a thin, mummy-like hand. + +Her dim eyes were gazing dreamily toward the distant horizon as if they +sought to follow through the park the visions of her youth. Through the +open window every now and then came a breath of air laden with the odor +of grass and the perfume of flowers. It made her white locks flutter +around her wrinkled forehead and old memories float through her brain. + +Beside her, on a tapestried stool, a young girl, with long fair hair +hanging in braids down her back, was embroidering an altar-cloth. There +was a pensive expression in her eyes, and it was easy to see that she was +dreaming, while her agile fingers flew over her work. + +But the old lady turned round her head, and said: + +"Berthe, read me something out of the newspapers, that I may still know +sometimes what is going on in the world." + +The young girl took up a newspaper, and cast a rapid glance over it. + +"There is a great deal about politics, grandmamma; shall I pass that +over?" + +"Yes, yes, darling. Are there no love stories? Is gallantry, then, dead +in France, that they no longer talk about abductions or adventures as +they did formerly?" + +The girl made a long search through the columns of the newspaper. + +"Here is one," she said. "It is entitled 'A Love Drama!'" + +The old woman smiled through her wrinkles. "Read that for me," she said. + +And Berthe commenced. It was a case of vitriol throwing. A wife, in +order to avenge herself on her husband's mistress, had burned her face +and eyes. She had left the Court of Assizes acquitted, declared to be +innocent, amid the applause of the crowd. + +The grandmother moved about excitedly in her chair, and exclaimed: + +"This is horrible--why, it is perfectly horrible! + +See whether you can find anything else to read to me, darling." + +Berthe again made a search; and farther down among the reports of +criminal cases, she read: + +"'Gloomy Drama. A shop girl, no longer young, allowed herself to be led +astray by a young man. Then, to avenge herself on her lover, whose heart +proved fickle, she shot him with a revolver. The unhappy man is maimed +for life. The jury, all men of moral character, condoning the illicit +love of the murderess, honorably acquitted her.'" + +This time the old grandmother appeared quite shocked, and, in a trembling +voice, she said: + +"Why, you people are mad nowadays. You are mad! The good God has given +you love, the only enchantment in life. Man has added to this gallantry +the only distraction of our dull hours, and here you are mixing up with +it vitriol and revolvers, as if one were to put mud into a flagon of +Spanish wine." + +Berthe did not seem to understand her grandmother's indignation. + +"But, grandmamma, this woman avenged herself. Remember she was married, +and her husband deceived her." + +The grandmother gave a start. + +"What ideas have they been filling your head with, you young girls of +today?" + +Berthe replied: + +"But marriage is sacred, grandmamma." + +The grandmother's heart, which had its birth in the great age of +gallantry, gave a sudden leap. + +"It is love that is sacred," she said. "Listen, child, to an old woman +who has seen three generations, and who has had a long, long experience +of men and women. Marriage and love have nothing in common. We marry to +found a family, and we form families in order to constitute society. +Society cannot dispense with marriage. If society is a chain, each +family is a link in that chain. In order to weld those links, we always +seek metals of the same order. When we marry, we must bring together +suitable conditions; we must combine fortunes, unite similar races and +aim at the common interest, which is riches and children. We marry only +once my child, because the world requires us to do so, but we may love +twenty times in one lifetime because nature has made us like this. +Marriage, you see, is law, and love is an instinct which impels us, +sometimes along a straight, and sometimes along a devious path. The +world has made laws to combat our instincts--it was necessary to make +them; but our instincts are always stronger, and we ought not to resist +them too much, because they come from God; while the laws only come from +men. If we did not perfume life with love, as much love as possible, +darling, as we put sugar into drugs for children, nobody would care to +take it just as it is." + +Berthe opened her eyes wide in astonishment. She murmured: + +"Oh! grandmamma, we can only love once." + +The grandmother raised her trembling hands toward Heaven, as if again to +invoke the defunct god of gallantries. She exclaimed indignantly: + +"You have become a race of serfs, a race of common people. Since the +Revolution, it is impossible any longer to recognize society. You have +attached big words to every action, and wearisome duties to every corner +of existence; you believe in equality and eternal passion. People have +written poetry telling you that people have died of love. In my time +poetry was written to teach men to love every woman. And we! when we +liked a gentleman, my child, we sent him a page. And when a fresh +caprice came into our hearts, we were not slow in getting rid of the last +Lover--unless we kept both of them." + +The old woman smiled a keen smile, and a gleam of roguery twinkled in her +gray eye, the intellectual, skeptical roguery of those people who did not +believe that they were made of the same clay as the rest, and who lived +as masters for whom common beliefs were not intended. + +The young girl, turning very pale, faltered out: + +"So, then, women have no honor?" + +The grandmother ceased to smile. If she had kept in her soul some of +Voltaire's irony, she had also a little of Jean Jacques's glowing +philosophy: "No honor! because we loved, and dared to say so, and even +boasted of it? But, my child, if one of us, among the greatest ladies in +France, had lived without a lover, she would have had the entire court +laughing at her. Those who wished to live differently had only to enter +a convent. And you imagine, perhaps, that your husbands will love but +you alone, all their lives. As if, indeed, this could be the case. +I tell you that marriage is a thing necessary in order that society +should exist, but it is not in the nature of our race, do you understand? +There is only one good thing in life, and that is love. And how you +misunderstand it! how you spoil it! You treat it as something solemn +like a sacrament, or something to be bought, like a dress." + +The young girl caught the old woman's trembling hands in her own. + +"Hold your tongue, I beg of you, grandmamma!" + +And, on her knees, with tears in her eyes, she prayed to Heaven to bestow +on her a great passion, one sole, eternal passion in accordance with the +dream of modern poets, while the grandmother, kissing her on the +forehead, quite imbued still with that charming, healthy reason with +which gallant philosophers tinctured the thought of the eighteenth +century, murmured: + +"Take care, my poor darling! If you believe in such folly as that, you +will be very unhappy." + + + + + + +FRIEND JOSEPH + +They had been great friends all winter in Paris. As is always the case, +they had lost sight of each other after leaving school, and had met again +when they were old and gray-haired. One of them had married, but the +other had remained in single blessedness. + +M. de Meroul lived for six months in Paris and for six months in his +little chateau at Tourbeville. Having married the daughter of a +neighboring, squire, he had lived a good and peaceful life in the +indolence of a man who has nothing to do. Of a calm and quiet +disposition, and not over-intelligent he used to spend his time quietly +regretting the past, grieving over the customs and institutions of the +day and continually repeating to his wife, who would lift her eyes, and +sometimes her hands, to heaven, as a sign of energetic assent: "Good +gracious! What a government!" + +Madame de Meroul resembled her husband intellectually as though she had +been his sister. She knew, by tradition, that one should above all +respect the Pope and the King! + +And she loved and respected them from the bottom of her heart, without +knowing them, with a poetic fervor, with an hereditary devotion, with the +tenderness of a wellborn woman. She was good to, the marrow of her +bones. She had had no children, and never ceased mourning the fact. + +On meeting his old friend, Joseph Mouradour, at a ball, M. de Meroul was +filled with a deep and simple joy, for in their youth they had been +intimate friends. + +After the first exclamations of surprise at the changes which time had +wrought in their bodies and countenances, they told each other about +their lives since they had last met. + +Joseph Mouradour, who was from the south of France, had become a +government official. His manner was frank; he spoke rapidly and without +restraint, giving his opinions without any tact. He was a Republican, +one of those good fellows who do not believe in standing on ceremony, and +who exercise an almost brutal freedom of speech. + +He came to his friend's house and was immediately liked for his easy +cordiality, in spite of his radical ideas. Madame de Meroul would +exclaim: + +"What a shame! Such a charming man!" + +Monsieur de Meroul would say to his friend in a serious and confidential +tone of voice; "You have no idea the harm that you are doing your +country." He loved him all the same, for nothing is stronger than the +ties of childhood taken up again at a riper age. Joseph Mouradour +bantered the wife and the husband, calling them "my amiable snails," and +sometimes he would solemnly declaim against people who were behind the +times, against old prejudices and traditions. + +When he was once started on his democratic eloquence, the couple, +somewhat ill at ease, would keep silent from politeness and good- +breeding; then the husband would try to turn the conversation into some +other channel in order to avoid a clash. Joseph Mouradour was only seen +in the intimacy of the family. + +Summer came. The Merouls had no greater pleasure than to receive their +friends at their country home at Tourbeville. It was a good, healthy +pleasure, the enjoyments of good people and of country proprietors. They +would meet their friends at the neighboring railroad station and would +bring them back in their carriage, always on the lookout for compliments +on the country, on its natural features, on the condition of the roads, +on the cleanliness of the farm-houses, on the size of the cattle grazing +in the fields, on everything within sight. + +They would call attention to the remarkable speed with which their horse +trotted, surprising for an animal that did heavy work part of the year +behind a plow; and they would anxiously await the opinion of the newcomer +on their family domain, sensitive to the least word, and thankful for the +slightest good intention. + +Joseph Mouradour was invited, and he accepted the invitation. + +Husband and wife had come to the train, delighted to welcome him to their +home. As soon as he saw them, Joseph Mouradour jumped from the train +with a briskness which increased their satisfaction. He shook their +hands, congratulated them, overwhelmed them with compliments. + +All the way home he was charming, remarking on the height of the trees, +the goodness of the crops and the speed of the horse. + +When he stepped on the porch of the house, Monsieur de Meroul said, with +a certain friendly solemnity: + +"Consider yourself at home now." + +Joseph Mouradour answered: + +"Thanks, my friend; I expected as much. Anyhow, I never stand on +ceremony with my friends. That's how I understand hospitality." + +Then he went upstairs to dress as a farmer, he said, and he came back all +togged out in blue linen, with a little straw hat and yellow shoes, a +regular Parisian dressed for an outing. He also seemed to become more +vulgar, more jovial, more familiar; having put on with his country +clothes a free and easy manner which he judged suitable to the +surroundings. His new manners shocked Monsieur and Madame de Meroul a +little, for they always remained serious and dignified, even in the +country, as though compelled by the two letters preceding their name to +keep up a certain formality even in the closest intimacy. + +After lunch they all went out to visit the farms, and the Parisian +astounded the respectful peasants by his tone of comradeship. + +In the evening the priest came to dinner, an old, fat priest, accustomed +to dining there on Sundays, but who had been especially invited this day +in honor of the new guest. + +Joseph, on seeing him, made a wry face. Then he observed him with +surprise, as though he were a creature of some peculiar race, which he +had never been able to observe at close quarters. During the meal he +told some rather free stories, allowable in the intimacy of the family, +but which seemed to the Merouls a little out of place in the presence of +a minister of the Church. He did not say, "Monsieur l'abbe," but simply, +"Monsieur." He embarrassed the priest greatly by philosophical +discussions about diverse superstitions current all over the world. +He said: "Your God, monsieur, is of those who should be respected, but +also one of those who should be discussed. Mine is called Reason; he has +always been the enemy of yours." + +The Merouls, distressed, tried to turn the trend of the conversation. +The priest left very early. + +Then the husband said, very quietly: + +"Perhaps you went a little bit too far with the priest." + +But Joseph immediately exclaimed: + +"Well, that's pretty good! As if I would be on my guard with a +shaveling! And say, do me the pleasure of not imposing him on me any +more at meals. You can both make use of him as much as you wish, but +don't serve him up to your friends, hang it!" + +"But, my friends, think of his holy--" + +Joseph Mouradour interrupted him: + +"Yes, I know; they have to be treated like 'rosieres.' But let them +respect my convictions, and I will respect theirs!" + +That was all for that day. + +As soon as Madame de Meroul entered the parlor, the next morning, she +noticed in the middle of the table three newspapers which made her start +the Voltaire, the Republique-Francaise and the Justice. Immediately +Joseph Mouradour, still in blue, appeared on the threshold, attentively +reading the Intransigeant. He cried: + +"There's a great article in this by Rochefort. That fellow is a wonder!" + +He read it aloud, emphasizing the parts which especially pleased him, so +carried away by enthusiasm that he did not notice his friend's entrance. +Monsieur de Meroul was holding in his hand the Gaulois for himself, the +Clarion for his wife. + +The fiery prose of the master writer who overthrew the empire, spouted +with violence, sung in the southern accent, rang throughout the peaceful +parsons seemed to spatter the walls and century-old furniture with a hail +of bold, ironical and destructive words. + +The man and the woman, one standing, the other sitting, were listening +with astonishment, so shocked that they could not move. + +In a burst of eloquence Mouradour finished the last paragraph, then +exclaimed triumphantly: + +"Well! that's pretty strong!" + +Then, suddenly, he noticed the two sheets which his friend was carrying, +and he, in turn, stood speechless from surprise. Quickly walking toward +him he demanded angrily: + +"What are you doing with those papers?" + +Monsieur de Meroul answered hesitatingly: + +"Why--those--those are my papers!" + +"Your papers! What are you doing--making fun of me? You will do me the +pleasure of reading mine; they will limber up your ideas, and as for +yours--there! that's what I do with them." + +And before his astonished host could stop him, he had seized the two +newspapers and thrown them out of the window. Then he solemnly handed +the Justice to Madame de Meroul, the Voltaire to her husband, while he +sank down into an arm-chair to finish reading the Intransigeant. + +The couple, through delicacy, made a pretense of reading a little, they +then handed him back the Republican sheets, which they handled gingerly, +as though they might be poisoned. + +He laughed and declared: + +"One week of this regime and I will have you converted to my ideas." + +In truth, at the end of a week he ruled the house. He had closed the +door against the priest, whom Madame de Meroul had to visit secretly; he +had forbidden the Gaulois and the Clarion to be brought into the house, +so that a servant had to go mysteriously to the post-office to get them, +and as soon as he entered they would be hidden under sofa cushions; he +arranged everything to suit himself--always charming, always good- +natured, a jovial and all-powerful tyrant. + +Other friends were expected, pious and conservative friends. The unhappy +couple saw the impossibility of having them there then, and, not knowing +what to do, one evening they announced to Joseph Mouradour that they +would be obliged to absent themselves for a few days, on business, and +they begged him to stay on alone. He did not appear disturbed, and +answered: + +"Very well, I don't mind! I will wait here as long as you wish. I have +already said that there should be no formality between friends. You are +perfectly right-go ahead and attend to your business. It will not offend +me in the least; quite the contrary, it will make me feel much more +completely one of the family. Go ahead, my friends, I will wait for +you!" + +Monsieur and Madame de Meroul left the following day. + +He is still waiting for them. + + + + + + +THE EFFEMINATES + +How often we hear people say, "He is charming, that man, but he is a +girl, a regular girl." They are alluding to the effeminates, the bane of +our land. + +For we are all girl-like men in France--that is, fickle, fanciful, +innocently treacherous, without consistency in our convictions or our +will, violent and weak as women are. + +But the most irritating of girl--men is assuredly the Parisian and the +boulevardier, in whom the appearance of intelligence is more marked and +who combines in himself all the attractions and all the faults of those +charming creatures in an exaggerated degree in virtue of his masculine +temperament. + +Our Chamber of Deputies is full of girl-men. They form the greater +number of the amiable opportunists whom one might call "The Charmers." +These are they who control by soft words and deceitful promises, who know +how to shake hands in such a manner as to win hearts, how to say "My dear +friend" in a certain tactful way to people he knows the least, to change +his mind without suspecting it, to be carried away by each new idea, to +be sincere in their weathercock convictions, to let themselves be +deceived as they deceive others, to forget the next morning what he +affirmed the day before. + +The newspapers are full of these effeminate men. That is probably where +one finds the most, but it is also where they are most needed. The +Journal des Debats and the Gazette de France are exceptions. + +Assuredly, every good journalist must be somewhat effeminate--that is, at +the command of the public, supple in following unconsciously the shades +of public opinion, wavering and varying, sceptical and credulous, wicked +and devout, a braggart and a true man, enthusiastic and ironical, and +always convinced while believing in nothing. + +Foreigners, our anti-types, as Mme. Abel called them, the stubborn +English and the heavy Germans, regard us with a certain amazement mingled +with contempt, and will continue to so regard us till the end of time. +They consider us frivolous. It is not that, it is that we are girls. +And that is why people love us in spite of our faults, why they come back +to us despite the evil spoken of us; these are lovers' quarrels! The +effeminate man, as one meets him in this world, is so charming that he +captivates you after five minutes' chat. His smile seems made for you; +one cannot believe that his voice does not assume specially tender +intonations on their account. When he leaves you it seems as if one had +known him for twenty years. One is quite ready to lend him money if he +asks for it. He has enchanted you, like a woman. + +If he commits any breach of manners towards you, you cannot bear any +malice, he is so pleasant when you next meet him. If he asks your pardon +you long to ask pardon of him. Does he tell lies? You cannot believe +it. Does he put you off indefinitely with promises that he does not +keep? One lays as much store by his promises as though he had moved +heaven and earth to render them a service. + +When he admires anything he goes into such raptures that he convinces +you. He once adored Victor Hugo, whom he now treats as a back number. +He would have fought for Zola, whom he has abandoned for Barbey and +d'Aurevilly. And when he admires, he permits no limitation, he would +slap your face for a word. But when he becomes scornful, his contempt is +unbounded and allows of no protest. + +In fact, he understands nothing. + +Listen to two girls talking. + +"Then you are angry with Julia?" "I slapped her face." "What had she +done?" "She told Pauline that I had no money thirteen months out of +twelve, and Pauline told Gontran--you understand." "You were living +together in the Rue Clanzel?" "We lived together four years in the Rue +Breda; we quarrelled about a pair of stockings that she said I had worn-- +it wasn't true--silk stockings that she had bought at Mother Martin's. +Then I gave her a pounding and she left me at once. I met her six months +ago and she asked me to come and live with her, as she has rented a flat +that is twice too large." + +One goes on one's way and hears no more. But on the following Sunday as +one is on the way to Saint Germain two young women get into the same +railway carriage. One recognizes one of them at once; it is Julia's +enemy. The other is Julia! + +And there are endearments, caresses, plans. "Say, Julia--listen, Julia," +etc. + +The girl-man has his friendships of this kind. For three months he +cannot bear to leave his old Jack, his dear Jack. There is no one but +Jack in the world. He is the only one who has any intelligence, any +sense, any talent. He alone amounts to anything in Paris. One meets +them everywhere together, they dine together, walk about in company, and +every evening walk home with each other back and forth without being able +to part with one another. + +Three months later, if Jack is mentioned: + +"There is a drinker, a sorry fellow, a scoundrel for you. I know him +well, you may be sure. And he is not even honest, and ill-bred," etc., +etc. + +Three months later, and they are living together. + +But one morning one hears that they have fought a duel, then embraced +each other, amid tears, on the duelling ground. + +Just now they are the dearest friends in the world, furious with each +other half the year, abusing and loving each other by turns, squeezing +each other's hands till they almost crush the bones, and ready to run +each other through the body for a misunderstanding. + +For the relations of these effeminate men are uncertain. Their temper is +by fits and starts, their delight unexpected, their affection turn-about- +face, their enthusiasm subject to eclipse. One day they love you, the +next day they will hardly look at you, for they have in fact a girl's +nature, a girl's charm, a girl's temperament, and all their sentiments +are like the affections of girls. + +They treat their friends as women treat their pet dogs. + +It is the dear little Toutou whom they hug, feed with sugar, allow to +sleep on the pillow, but whom they would be just as likely to throw out +of a window in a moment of impatience, whom they turn round like a sling, +holding it by the tail, squeeze in their arms till they almost strangle +it, and plunge, without any reason, in a pail of cold water. + +Then, what a strange thing it is when one of these beings falls in love +with a real girl! He beats her, she scratches him, they execrate each +other, cannot bear the sight of each other and yet cannot part, linked +together by no one knows what mysterious psychic bonds. She deceives +him, he knows it, sobs and forgives her. He despises and adores her +without seeing that she would be justified in despising him. They are +both atrociously unhappy and yet cannot separate. They cast invectives, +reproaches and abominable accusations at each other from morning till +night, and when they have reached the climax and are vibrating with rage +and hatred, they fall into each other's arms and kiss each other +ardently. + +The girl-man is brave and a coward at the same time. He has, more than +another, the exalted sentiment of honor, but is lacking in the sense of +simple honesty, and, circumstances favoring him, would defalcate and +commit infamies which do not trouble his conscience, for he obeys without +questioning the oscillations of his ideas, which are always impulsive. + +To him it seems permissible and almost right to cheat a haberdasher. He +considers it honorable not to pay his debts, unless they are gambling +debts--that is, somewhat shady. He dupes people whenever the laws of +society admit of his doing so. When he is short of money he borrows in +all ways, not always being scrupulous as to tricking the lenders, but he +would, with sincere indignation, run his sword through anyone who should +suspect him of only lacking in politeness. + + + + + + + +OLD AMABLE + + PART I + +The humid gray sky seemed to weigh down on the vast brown plain. The +odor of autumn, the sad odor of bare, moist lands, of fallen leaves, of +dead grass made the stagnant evening air more thick and heavy. The +peasants were still at work, scattered through the fields, waiting for +the stroke of the Angelus to call them back to the farmhouses, whose +thatched roofs were visible here and there through the branches of the +leafless trees which protected the apple-gardens against the wind. + +At the side of the road, on a heap of clothes, a very small boy seated +with his legs apart was playing with a potato, which he now and then let +fall on his dress, whilst five women were bending down planting slips of +colza in the adjoining plain. With a slow, continuous movement, all +along the mounds of earth which the plough had just turned up, they drove +in sharp wooden stakes and in the hole thus formed placed the plant, +already a little withered, which sank on one side; then they patted down +the earth and went on with their work. + +A man who was passing, with a whip in his hand, and wearing wooden shoes, +stopped near the child, took it up and kissed it. Then one of the women +rose up and came across to him. She was a big, red haired girl, with +large hips, waist and shoulders, a tall Norman woman, with yellow hair in +which there was a blood-red tint. + +She said in a resolute voice: + +"Why, here you are, Cesaire--well?" + +The man, a thin young fellow with a melancholy air, murmured: + +"Well, nothing at all--always the same thing." + +"He won't have it?" + +"He won't have it." + +"What are you going to do?" + +"What do you say I ought to do?" + +"Go see the cure." + +"I will." + +"Go at once!" + +"I will." + +And they stared at each other. He held the child in his arms all the +time. He kissed it once more and then put it down again on the woman's +clothes. + +In the distance, between two farm-houses, could be seen a plough drawn by +a horse and driven by a man. They moved on very gently, the horse, the +plough and the laborer, in the dim evening twilight. + +The woman went on: + +"What did your father say?" + +"He said he would not have it." + +"Why wouldn't he have it?" + +The young man pointed toward the child whom he had just put back on the +ground, then with a glance he drew her attention to the man drawing the +plough yonder there. + +And he said emphatically: + +"Because 'tis his--this child of yours." + +The girl shrugged her shoulders and in an angry tone said: + +"Faith, every one knows it well--that it is Victor's. And what about it +after all? I made a slip. Am I the only woman that did? My mother also +made a slip before me, and then yours did the same before she married +your dad! Who is it that hasn't made a slip in the country? I made a +slip with Victor because he took advantage of me while I was asleep in +the barn, it's true, and afterward it happened between us when I wasn't +asleep. I certainly would have married him if he weren't a servant man. +Am I a worse woman for that?" + +The man said simply: + +"As for me, I like you just as you are, with or without the child. It's +only my father that opposes me. All the same, I'll see about settling +the business." + +She answered: + +"Go to the cure at once." + +"I'm going to him." + +And he set forth with his heavy peasant's tread, while the girl, with her +hands on her hips, turned round to plant her colza. + +In fact, the man who thus went off, Cesaire Houlbreque, the son of deaf +old Amable Houlbreque, wanted to marry, in spite of his father, Celeste +Levesque, who had a child by Victor Lecoq, a mere laborer on her parents' +farm, who had been turned out of doors for this act. + +The hierarchy of caste, however, does not exist in the country, and if +the laborer is thrifty, he becomes, by taking a farm in his turn, the +equal of his former master. + +So Cesaire Houlbieque went off, his whip under his arm, brooding over his +own thoughts and lifting up one after the other his heavy wooden shoes +daubed with clay. Certainly he desired to marry Celeste Levesque. He +wanted her with her child because she was the wife he wanted. He could +not say why, but he knew it, he was sure of it. He had only to look at +her to be convinced of it, to feel quite queer, quite stirred up, simply +stupid with happiness. He even found a pleasure in kissing the little +boy, Victor's little boy, because he belonged to her. + +And he gazed, without hate, at the distant outline of the man who was +driving his plough along the horizon. + +But old Amable did not want this marriage. He opposed it with the +obstinacy of a deaf man, with a violent obstinacy. + +Cesaire in vain shouted in his ear, in that ear which still heard a few +sounds: + +"I'll take good care of you, daddy. I tell you she's a good girl and +strong, too, and also thrifty." + +The old man repeated: + +"As long as I live I won't see her your wife." + +And nothing could get the better of him, nothing could make him waver. +One hope only was left to Cesaire. Old Amable was afraid of the cure +through the apprehension of death which he felt drawing nigh; he had not +much fear of God, nor of the Devil, nor of Hell, nor of Purgatory, of +which he had no conception, but he dreaded the priest, who represented to +him burial, as one might fear the doctors through horror of diseases. +For the last tight days Celeste, who knew this weakness of the old man, +had been urging Cesaire to go and find the cure, but Cesaire always +hesitated, because he had not much liking for the black robe, which +represented to him hands always stretched out for collections or for +blessed bread. + +However, he had made up his mind, and he proceeded toward the presbytery, +thinking in what manner he would speak about his case. + +The Abbe Raffin, a lively little priest, thin and never shaved, was +awaiting his dinner-hour while warming his feet at his kitchen fire. + +As soon as he saw the peasant entering he asked, merely turning his head: + +"Well, Cesaire, what do you want?" + +"I'd like to have a talk with you, M. le Cure." + +The man remained standing, intimidated, holding his cap in one hand and +his whip in the other. + +"Well, talk." + +Cesaire looked at the housekeeper, an old woman who dragged her feet +while putting on the cover for her master's dinner at the corner of the +table in front of the window. + +He stammered: + +"'Tis--'tis a sort of confession." + +Thereupon the Abbe Raffin carefully surveyed his peasant. He saw his +confused countenance, his air of constraint, his wandering eyes, and he +gave orders to the housekeeper in these words: + +"Marie, go away for five minutes to your room, while I talk to Cesaire." + +The servant cast on the man an angry glance and went away grumbling. + +The clergyman went on: + +"Come, now, tell your story." + +The young fellow still hesitated, looked down at his wooden shoes, moved +about his cap, then, all of a sudden, he made up his mind: + +"Here it is: I want to marry Celeste Levesque." + +"Well, my boy, what's there to prevent you?" + +"The father won't have it." + +"Your father?" + +"Yes, my father." + +"What does your father say?" + +"He says she has a child." + +"She's not the first to whom that happened, since our Mother Eve." + +"A child by Victor Lecoq, Anthime Loisel's servant man." + +"Ha! ha! So he won't have it?" + +"He won't have it." + +"What! not at all?" + +"No, no more than an ass that won't budge an inch, saving your presence." + +"What do you say to him yourself in order to make him decide?" + +"I say to him that she's a good girl, and strong, too, and thrifty also." + +"And this does not make him agree to it. So you want me to speak to +him?" + +"Exactly. You speak to him." + +"And what am I to tell your father?" + +"Why, what you tell people in your sermons to make them give you sous." + +In the peasant's mind every effort of religion consisted in loosening the +purse strings, in emptying the pockets of men in order to fill the +heavenly coffer. It was a kind of huge commercial establishment, of +which the cures were the clerks; sly, crafty clerks, sharp as any one +must be who does business for the good God at the expense of the country +people. + +He knew full well that the priests rendered services, great services to +the poorest, to the sick and dying, that they assisted, consoled, +counselled, sustained, but all this by means of money, in exchange for +white pieces, for beautiful glittering coins, with which they paid for +sacraments and masses, advice and protection, pardon of sins and +indulgences, purgatory and paradise according to the yearly income and +the generosity of the sinner. + +The Abbe Raffin, who knew his man and who never lost his temper, burst +out laughing. + +"Well, yes, I'll tell your father my little story; but you, my lad, +you'll come to church." + +Houlbreque extended his hand in order to give a solemn assurance: + +"On the word of a poor man, if you do this for me, I promise that I +will." + +"Come, that's all right. When do you wish me to go and find your +father?" + +"Why, the sooner the better-to-night, if you can." + +"In half an hour, then, after supper." + +"In half an hour." + +"That's understood. So long, my lad." + +"Good-by till we meet again, Monsieur le Cure; many thanks." + +"Not at all, my lad." + +And Cesaire Houlbreque returned home, his heart relieved of a great +weight. + +He held on lease a little farm, quite small, for they were not rich, his +father and he. Alone with a female servant, a little girl of fifteen, +who made the soup, looked after the fowls, milked the cows and churned +the butter, they lived frugally, though Cesaire was a good cultivator. +But they did not possess either sufficient lands or sufficient cattle to +earn more than the indispensable. + +The old man no longer worked. Sad, like all deaf people, crippled with +pains, bent double, twisted, he went through the fields leaning on his +stick, watching the animals and the men with a hard, distrustful eye. +Sometimes he sat down on the side of the road and remained there without +moving for hours, vaguely pondering over the things that had engrossed +his whole life, the price of eggs, and corn, the sun and the rain which +spoil the crops or make them grow. And, worn out with rheumatism, his +old limbs still drank in the humidity of the soul, as they had drunk in +for the past sixty years, the moisture of the walls of his low house +thatched with damp straw. + +He came back at the close of the day, took his place at the end of the +table in the kitchen and when the earthen bowl containing the soup had +been placed before him he placed round it his crooked fingers, which +seemed to have kept the round form of the bowl and, winter and summer, he +warmed his hands, before commencing to eat, so as to lose nothing, not +even a particle of the heat that came from the fire, which costs a great +deal, neither one drop of soup into which fat and salt have to be put, +nor one morsel of bread, which comes from the wheat. + +Then he climbed up a ladder into a loft, where he had his straw-bed, +while his son slept below stairs at the end of a kind of niche near the +chimneypiece and the servant shut herself up in a kind of cellar, a black +hole which was formerly used to store the potatoes. + +Cesaire and his father scarcely ever talked to each other. From time to +time only, when there was a question of selling a crop or buying a calf, +the young man would ask his father's advice, and, making a speaking- +trumpet of his two hands, he would bawl out his views into his ear, and +old Amable either approved of them or opposed them in a slow, hollow +voice that came from the depths of his stomach. + +So one evening Cesaire, approaching him as if about to discuss the +purchase of a horse or a heifer, communicated to him at the top of his +voice his intention to marry Celeste Levesque. + +Then the father got angry. Why? On the score of morality? No, +certainly. The virtue of a girl is of slight importance in the country. +But his avarice, his deep, fierce instinct for saving, revolted at the +idea that his son should bring up a child which he had not begotten +himself. He had thought suddenly, in one second, of the soup the little +fellow would swallow before becoming useful on the farm. He had +calculated all the pounds of bread, all the pints of cider that this brat +would consume up to his fourteenth year, and a mad anger broke loose from +him against Cesaire, who had not bestowed a thought on all this. + +He replied in an unusually strong voice: + +"Have you lost your senses?" + +Thereupon Cesaire began to enumerate his reasons, to speak about +Celeste's good qualities, to prove that she would be worth a thousand +times what the child would cost. But the old man doubted these +advantages, while he could have no doubts as to the child's existence; +and he replied with emphatic repetition, without giving any further +explanation: + +"I will not have it! I will not have it! As long as I live, this won't +be done!" And at this point they had remained for the last three months +without one or the other giving in, resuming at least once a week the +same discussion, with the same arguments, the same words, the same +gestures and the same fruitlessness. + +It was then that Celeste had advised Cesaire to go and ask for the cure's +assistance. + +On arriving home the peasant found his father already seated at table, +for he came late through his visit to the presbytery. + +They dined in silence, face to face, ate a little bread and butter after +the soup and drank a glass of cider. Then they remained motionless in +their chairs, with scarcely a glimmer of light, the little servant girl +having carried off the candle in order to wash the spoons, wipe the +glasses and cut the crusts of bread to be ready for next morning's +breakfast. + +There was a knock, at the door, which was immediately opened, and the +priest appeared. The old man raised toward him an anxious eye full of +suspicion, and, foreseeing danger, he was getting ready to climb up his +ladder when the Abbe Raffin laid his hand on his shoulder and shouted +close to his temple: + +"I want to have a talk with you, Father Amable." + +Cesaire had disappeared, taking advantage of the door being open. He did +not want to listen, for he was afraid and did not want his hopes to +crumble slowly with each obstinate refusal of his father. He preferred +to learn the truth at once, good or bad, later on; and he went out into +the night. It was a moonless, starless night, one of those misty nights +when the air seems thick with humidity. A vague odor of apples floated +through the farmyard, for it was the season when the earliest applies +were gathered, the "early ripe," as they are called in the cider country. +As Cesaire passed along by the cattlesheds the warm smell of living +beasts asleep on manure was exhaled through the narrow windows, and he +heard the stamping of the horses, who were standing at the end of the +stable, and the sound of their jaws tearing and munching the hay on the +racks. + +He went straight ahead, thinking about Celeste. In this simple nature, +whose ideas were scarcely more than images generated directly by objects, +thoughts of love only formulated themselves by calling up before the mind +the picture of a big red-haired girl standing in a hollow road and +laughing, with her hands on her hips. + +It was thus he saw her on the day when he first took a fancy for her. He +had, however, known her from infancy, but never had he been so struck by +her as on that morning. They had stopped to talk for a few minutes and +then he went away, and as he walked along he kept repeating: + +"Faith, she's a fine girl, all the same. 'Tis a pity she made a slip +with Victor." + +Till evening he kept thinking of her and also on the following morning. + +When he saw her again he felt something tickling the end of his throat, +as if a cock's feather had been driven through his mouth into his chest, +and since then, every time he found himself near her, he was astonished +at this nervous tickling which always commenced again. + +In three months he made up his mind to marry her, so much did she please +him. He could not have said whence came this power over him, but he +explained it in these words: + +"I am possessed by her," as if the desire for this girl within him were +as dominating as one of the powers of hell. He scarcely bothered himself +about her transgression. It was a pity, but, after all, it did her no +harm, and he bore no grudge against Victor Lecoq. + +But if the cure should not succeed, what was he to do? He did not dare +to think of it, the anxiety was such a torture to him. + +He reached the presbytery and seated himself near the little gateway to +wait for the priest's return. + +He was there perhaps half an hour when he heard steps on the road, and +although the night was very dark, he presently distinguished the still +darker shadow of the cassock. + +He rose up, his legs giving way under him, not even venturing to speak, +not daring to ask a question. + +The clergyman perceived him and said gaily: + +"Well, my lad, it's all right." + +Cesaire stammered: + +"All right, 'tisn't possible." + +"Yes, my lad, but not without trouble. What an old ass your father is!" + +The peasant repeated: + +"'Tisn't possible!" + +"Why, yes. Come and look me up to-morrow at midday in order to settle +about the publication of the banns." + +The young man seized the cure's hand. He pressed it, shook it, bruised +it as he stammered: + +"True-true-true, Monsieur le Cure, on the word of an honest man, you'll +see me to-morrow-at your sermon." + + + PART II + +The wedding took place in the middle of December. It was simple, the +bridal pair not being rich. Cesaire, attired in new clothes, was ready +since eight o'clock in the morning to go and fetch his betrothed and +bring her to the mayor's office, but it was too early. He seated himself +before the kitchen table and waited for the members of the family and the +friends who were to accompany him. + +For the last eight days it had been snowing, and the brown earth, the +earth already fertilized by the autumn sowing, had become a dead white, +sleeping under a great sheet of ice. + +It was cold in the thatched houses adorned with white caps, and the round +apples in the trees of the enclosures seemed to be flowering, covered +with white as they had been in the pleasant month of their blossoming. + +This day the big clouds to the north, the big great snow clouds, had +disappeared and the blue sky showed itself above the white earth on which +the rising sun cast silvery reflections. + +Cesaire looked straight before him through the window, thinking of +nothing, quite happy. + +The door opened, two women entered, peasant women in their Sunday +clothes, the aunt and the cousin of the bridegroom; then three men, his +cousins; then a woman who was a neighbor. They sat down on chairs and +remained, motionless and silent, the women on one side of the kitchen, +the men on the other, suddenly seized with timidity, with that +embarrassed sadness which takes possession of people assembled for a +ceremony. One of the cousins soon asked: + +"Is it not the hour?" + +Cesaire replied: + +"I am much afraid it is." + +"Come on! Let us start," said another. + +Those rose up. Then Cesaire, whom a feeling of uneasiness had taken +possession of, climbed up the ladder of the loft to see whether his +father was ready. The old man, always as a rule an early riser, had not +yet made his appearance. His son found him on his bed of straw, wrapped +up in his blanket, with his eyes open and a malicious gleam in them. + +He bawled into his ear: "Come, daddy, get up. It's time for the +wedding." + +The deaf man murmured-in a doleful tone: + +"I can't get up. I have a sort of chill over me that freezes my back. +I can't stir." + +The young man, dumbfounded, stared at him, guessing that this was a +dodge. + +"Come, daddy; you must make an effort." + +"I can't do it." + +"Look here! I'll help you." + +And he stooped toward the old man, pulled off his blanket, caught him by +the arm and lifted him up. But old Amable began to whine, "Ooh! ooh! +ooh! What suffering! Ooh! I can't. My back is stiffened up. The cold +wind must have rushed in through this cursed roof." + +"Well, you'll get no dinner, as I'm having a spread at Polyte's inn. +This will teach you what comes of acting mulishly." + +And he hurried down the ladder and started out, accompanied by his +relatives and guests. + +The men had turned up the bottoms of their trousers so as not to get them +wet in the snow. The women held up their petticoats and showed their +lean ankles with gray woollen stockings and their bony shanks resembling +broomsticks. And they all moved forward with a swinging gait, one behind +the other, without uttering a word, moving cautiously, for fear of losing +the road which was-hidden beneath the flat, uniform, uninterrupted +stretch of snow. + +As they approached the farmhouses they saw one or two persons waiting to +join them, and the procession went on without stopping and wound its way +forward, following the invisible outlines of the road, so that it +resembled a living chaplet of black beads undulating through the white +countryside. + +In front of the bride's door a large group was stamping up and down the +open space awaiting the bridegroom. When he appeared they gave him a +loud greeting, and presently Celeste came forth from her room, clad in a +blue dress, her shoulders covered with a small red shawl and her head +adorned with orange flowers. + +But every one asked Cesaire: + +"Where's your father?" + +He replied with embarrassment: + +"He couldn't move on account of the pains." + +And the farmers tossed their heads with a sly, incredulous air. + +They directed their steps toward the mayor's office. Behind the pair +about to be wedded a peasant woman carried Victor's child, as if it were +going to be baptized; and the risen, in pairs now, with arms linked, +walked through the snow with the movements of a sloop at sea. + +After having been united by the mayor in the little municipal house the +pair were made one by the cure, in his turn, in the modest house of God. +He blessed their union by promising them fruitfulness, then he preached +to them on the matrimonial virtues, the simple and healthful virtues of +the country, work, concord and fidelity, while the child, who was cold, +began to fret behind the bride. + +As soon as the couple reappeared on the threshold of the church shots +were discharged from the ditch of the cemetery. Only the barrels of the +guns could be seen whence came forth rapid jets of smoke; then a head +could be seen gazing at the procession. It was Victor Lecoq celebrating +the marriage of his old sweetheart, wishing her happiness and sending her +his good wishes with explosions of powder. He had employed some friends +of his, five or six laboring men, for these salvos of musketry. It was +considered a nice attention. + +The repast was given in Polyte Cacheprune's inn. Twenty covers were laid +in the great hall where people dined on market days, and the big leg of +mutton turning before the spit, the fowls browned under their own gravy, +the chitterlings sputtering over the bright, clear fire filled the house +with a thick odor of live coal sprinkled with fat--the powerful, heavy +odor of rustic fare. + +They sat down to table at midday and the soup was poured at once into the +plates. All faces had already brightened up; mouths opened to utter loud +jokes and eyes were laughing with knowing winks. They were going to +amuse themselves and no mistake. + +The door opened, and old Amable appeared. He seemed in a bad humor and +his face wore a scowl as he dragged himself forward on his sticks, +whining at every step to indicate his suffering. As soon as they saw him +they stopped talking, but suddenly his neighbor, Daddy Malivoire, a big +joker, who knew all the little tricks and ways of people, began to yell, +just as Cesaire used to do, by making a speaking-trumpet of his hands. + +"Hallo, my cute old boy, you have a good nose on you to be able to smell +Polyte's cookery from your own house!" + +A roar of laughter burst forth from the throats of those present. +Malivoire, excited by his success, went on: + +"There's nothing for the rheumatics like a chitterling poultice! It +keeps your belly warm, along with a glass of three-six!" + +The men uttered shouts, banged the table with their fists, laughed, +bending on one side and raising up their bodies again as if they were +working a pump. The women clucked like hens, while the servants +wriggled, standing against the walls. Old Amable was the only one that +did not laugh, and, without making any reply, waited till they made room +for him. + +They found a place for him in the middle of the table, facing his +daughter-in-law, and, as soon as he was seated, he began to eat. It was +his son who was paying, after all; it was right he should take his share. +With each ladleful of soup that went into his stomach, with each mouthful +of bread or meat crushed between his gums, with each glass of cider or +wine that flowed through his gullet he thought he was regaining something +of his own property, getting back a little of his money which all those +gluttons were devouring, saving in fact a portion of his own means. And +he ate in silence with the obstinacy of a miser who hides his coppers, +with the same gloomy persistence with which he formerly performed his +daily labors. + +But all of a sudden he noticed at the end of the table Celeste's child on +a woman's lap, and his eye remained fixed on the little boy. He went on +eating, with his glance riveted on the youngster, into whose mouth the +woman who minded him every now and then put a little morsel which he +nibbled at. And the old man suffered more from the few mouthfuls sucked +by this little chap than from all that the others swallowed. + +The meal lasted till evening. Then every one went back home. + +Cesaire raised up old Amable. + +"Come, daddy, we must go home," said he. + +And he put the old man's two sticks in his hands. + +Celeste took her child in her arms, and they went on slowly through the +pale night whitened by the snow. The deaf old man, three-fourths tipsy, +and even more malicious under the influence of drink, refused to go +forward. Several times he even sat down with the object of making his +daughter-in-law catch cold, and he kept whining, without uttering a word, +giving vent to a sort of continuous groaning as if he were in pain. + +When they reached home he at once climbed up to his loft, while Cesaire +made a bed for the child near the deep niche where he was going to lie +down with his wife. But as the newly wedded pair could not sleep +immediately, they heard the old man for a long time moving about on his +bed of straw, and he even talked aloud several times, whether it was that +he was dreaming or that he let his thoughts escape through his mouth, in +spite of himself, not being able to keep them back, under the obsession +of a fixed idea. + +When he came down his ladder next morning he saw his daughter-in-law +looking after the housekeeping. + +She cried out to him: + +"Come, daddy, hurry on! Here's some good soup." + +And she placed at the end of the table the round black earthen bowl +filled with steaming liquid. He sat down without giving any answer, +seized the hot bowl, warmed his hands with it in his customary fashion, +and, as it was very cold, even pressed it against his breast to try to +make a little of the living heat of the boiling liquid enter into him, +into his old body stiffened by so many winters. + +Then he took his sticks and went out into the fields, covered with ice, +till it was time for dinner, for he had seen Celeste's youngster still +asleep in a big soap-box. + +He did not take his place in the household. He lived in the thatched +house, as in bygone days, but he seemed not to belong to it any longer, +to be no longer interested in anything, to look upon those people, his +son, the wife and the child as strangers whom he did not know, to whom he +never spoke. + +The winter glided by. It was long and severe. + +Then the early spring made the seeds sprout forth again, and the peasants +once more, like laborious ants, passed their days in the fields, toiling +from morning till night, under the wind and under the rain, along the +furrows of brown earth which brought forth the bread of men. + +The year promised well for the newly married pair. The crops grew thick +and strong. There were no late frosts, and the apples bursting into +bloom scattered on the grass their rosy white snow which promised a hail +of fruit for the autumn. + +Cesaire toiled hard, rose early and left off work late, in order to save +the expense of a hired man. + +His wife said to him sometimes: + +"You'll make yourself ill in the long run." + +He replied: + +"Certainly not. I'm a good judge." + +Nevertheless one evening he came home so fatigued that he had to get to +bed without supper. He rose up next morning at the usual hour, but he +could not eat, in spite of his fast on the previous night, and he had to +come back to the house in the middle of the afternoon in order to go to +bed again. In the course of the night he began to cough; he turned round +on his straw couch, feverish, with his forehead burning, his tongue dry +and his throat parched by a burning thirst. + +However, at daybreak he went toward his grounds, but next morning the +doctor had to be sent for and pronounced him very ill with inflammation +of the lungs. + +And he no longer left the dark recess in which he slept. He could be +heard coughing, gasping and tossing about in this hole. In order to see +him, to give his medicine and to apply cupping-glasses they had to-bring +a candle to the entrance. Then one could see his narrow head with his +long matted beard underneath a thick lacework of spiders' webs, which +hung and floated when stirred by the air. And the hands of the sick man +seemed dead under the dingy sheets. + +Celeste watched him with restless activity, made him take physic, applied +blisters to him, went back and forth in the house, while old Amable +remained at the edge of his loft, watching at a distance the gloomy +cavern where his son lay dying. He did not come near him, through hatred +of the wife, sulking like an ill-tempered dog. + +Six more days passed, then one morning, as Celeste, who now slept on the +ground on two loose bundles of straw, was going to see whether her man +was better, she no longer heard his rapid breathing from the interior of +his recess. Terror stricken, she asked: + +"Well Cesaire, what sort of a night had you?" + +He did not answer. She put out her hand to touch him, and the flesh on +his face felt cold as ice. She uttered a great cry, the long cry of a +woman overpowered with fright. He was dead. + +At this cry the deaf old man appeared at the top of his ladder, and when +he saw Celeste rushing to call for help, he quickly descended, placed his +hand on his son's face, and suddenly realizing what had happened, went to +shut the door from the inside, to prevent the wife from re-entering and +resuming possession of the dwelling, since his son was no longer living. + +Then he sat down on a chair by the dead man's side. + +Some of the neighbors arrived, called out and knocked. He did not hear +them. One of them broke the glass of the window and jumped into the +room. Others followed. The door was opened again and Celeste +reappeared, all in tears, with swollen face and bloodshot eyes. Then old +Amable, vanquished, without uttering a word, climbed back to his loft. + +The funeral took place next morning. Then, after the ceremony, the +father-in-law and the daughter-in-law found themselves alone in the +farmhouse with the child. + +It was the usual dinner hour. She lighted the fire, made some soup and +placed the plates on the table, while the old man sat on the chair +waiting without appearing to look at her. When the meal was ready she +bawled in his ear + +"Come, daddy, you must eat." He rose up, took his seat at the end of the +table, emptied his soup bowl, masticated his bread and butter, drank his +two glasses of cider and then took himself off. + +It was one of those warm days, one of those enjoyable days when life +ferments, pulsates, blooms all over the surface of the soil. + +Old Amable pursued a little path across the fields. He looked at the +young wheat and the young oats, thinking that his son was now under the +earth, his poor boy! He walked along wearily, dragging his legs after +him in a limping fashion. And, as he was all alone in the plain, all +alone under the blue sky, in the midst of the growing crops, all alone +with the larks which he saw hovering above his head, without hearing +their light song, he began to weep as he proceeded on his way. + +Then he sat down beside a pond and remained there till evening, gazing at +the little birds that came there to drink. Then, as the night was +falling, he returned to the house, supped without saying a word and +climbed up to his loft. And his life went on as in the past. Nothing +was changed, except that his son Cesaire slept in the cemetery. + +What could he, an old man, do? He could work no longer; he was now good +for nothing except to swallow the soup prepared by his daughter-in-law. +And he ate it in silence, morning and evening, watching with an eye of +rage the little boy also taking soup, right opposite him, at the other +side of the table. Then he would go out, prowl about the fields after +the fashion of a vagabond, hiding behind the barns where he would sleep +for an hour or two as if he were afraid of being seen and then come back +at the approach of night. + +But Celeste's mind began to be occupied by graver anxieties. The farm +needed a man to look after it and cultivate it. Somebody should be there +always to go through the fields, not a mere hired laborer, but a regular +farmer, a master who understood the business and would take an interest +in the farm. A lone woman could not manage the farming, watch the price +of corn and direct the sale and purchase of cattle. Then ideas came into +her head, simple practical ideas, which she had turned over in her head +at night. She could not marry again before the end of the year, and it +was necessary at once to take care of pressing interests, immediate +interests. + +Only one man could help her out of her difficulties, Victor Lecoq, the +father of her child. He was strong and understood farming; with a little +money in his pocket he would make an excellent cultivator. She was aware +of his skill, having known him while he was working on her parents' farm. + +So one morning, seeing him passing along the road with a cart of manure, +she went out to meet him. When he perceived her, he drew up his horses +and she said to him as if she had met him the night before: + +"Good-morrow, Victor--are you quite well, the same as ever?" + +He replied: + +"I'm quite well, the same as ever--and how are you?" + +"Oh, I'd be all right, only that I'm alone in the house, which bothers me +on account of the farm." + +Then they remained chatting for a long time, leaning against the wheel of +the heavy cart. The man every now and then lifted up his cap to scratch +his forehead and began thinking, while she, with flushed cheeks, went on +talking warmly, told him about her views, her plans; her projects for the +future. At last he said in a low tone: + +"Yes, it can be done." + +She opened her hand like a countryman clinching a bargain and asked: + +"Is it agreed?" + +He pressed her outstretched hand. + +"'Tis agreed." + +"It's settled, then, for next Sunday?" + +"It's settled for next Sunday" + +"Well, good-morning, Victor." + +"Good-morning, Madame Houlbreque." + + + PART III + +This particular Sunday was the day of the village festival, the annual +festival in honor of the patron saint, which in Normandy is called the +assembly. + +For the last eight days quaint-looking vehicles in which live the +families of strolling fair exhibitors, lottery managers, keepers of +shooting galleries and other forms of amusement or exhibitors of +curiosities whom the peasants call "wonder-makers" could be seen coming +along the roads drawn slowly by gray or sorrel horses. + +The dirty wagons with their floating curtains, accompanied by a +melancholy-looking dog, who trotted, with his head down, between the +wheels, drew up one after the other on the green in front of the town +hall. Then a tent was erected in front of each ambulant abode, and +inside this tent could be seen, through the holes in the canvas, +glittering things which excited the envy or the curiosity of the village +youngsters. + +As soon as the morning of the fete arrived all the booths were opened, +displaying their splendors of glass or porcelain, and the peasants on +their way to mass looked with genuine satisfaction at these modest shops +which they saw again, nevertheless, each succeeding year. + +Early in the afternoon there was a crowd on the green. From every +neighboring village the farmers arrived, shaken along with their wives +and children in the two-wheeled open chars-a-bancs, which rattled along, +swaying like cradles. They unharnessed at their friends' houses and the +farmyards were filled with strange-looking traps, gray, high, lean, +crooked, like long-clawed creatures from the depths of the sea. And each +family, with the youngsters in front and the grown-up ones behind, came +to the assembly with tranquil steps, smiling countenances and open hands, +big hands, red and bony, accustomed to work and apparently tired of their +temporary rest. + +A clown was blowing a trumpet. The barrel-organ accompanying the +carrousel sent through the air its shrill jerky notes. The lottery-wheel +made a whirring sound like that of cloth tearing, and every moment the +crack of the rifle could be heard. And the slow-moving throng passed on +quietly in front of the booths resembling paste in a fluid condition, +with the motions of a flock of sheep and the awkwardness of heavy animals +who had escaped by chance. + +The girls, holding one another's arms in groups of six or eight, were +singing; the youths followed them, making jokes, with their caps over +their ears and their blouses stiffened with starch, swollen out like blue +balloons. + +The whole countryside was there--masters, laboring men and women +servants. + +Old Amable himself, wearing his old-fashioned green frock coat, had +wished to see the assembly, for he never failed to attend on such an +occasion. + +He looked at the lotteries, stopped in front of the shooting galleries to +criticize the shots and interested himself specially in a very simple +game which consisted in throwing a big wooden ball into the open mouth of +a mannikin carved and painted on a board. + +Suddenly he felt a tap on his shoulder. It was Daddy Malivoire, who +exclaimed: + +"Ha, daddy! Come and have a glass of brandy." + +And they sat down at the table of an open-air restaurant. + +They drank one glass of brandy, then two, then three, and old Amable once +more began wandering through the assembly. His thoughts became slightly +confused, he smiled without knowing why, he smiled in front of the +lotteries, in front of the wooden horses and especially in front of the +killing game. He remained there a long time, filled with delight, when +he saw a holiday-maker knocking down the gendarme or the cure, two +authorities whom he instinctively distrusted. Then he went back to the +inn and drank a glass of cider to cool himself. It was late, night came +on. A neighbor came to warn him: + +"You'll get back home late for the stew, daddy." + +Then he set out on his way to the farmhouse. A soft shadow, the warm +shadow of a spring night, was slowly descending on the earth. + +When he reached the front door he thought he saw through the window which +was lighted up two persons in the house. He stopped, much surprised, +then he went in, and he saw Victor Lecoq seated at the table, with a +plate filled with potatoes before him, taking his supper in the very same +place where his son had sat. + +And he turned round suddenly as if he wanted to go away. The night was +very dark now. Celeste started up and shouted at him: + +"Come quick, daddy! Here's some good stew to finish off the assembly +with." + +He complied through inertia and sat down, watching in turn the man, the +woman and the child. Then he began to eat quietly as on ordinary days. + +Victor Lecoq seemed quite at home, talked from time to time to Celeste, +took up the child in his lap and kissed him. And Celeste again served +him with food, poured out drink for him and appeared happy while speaking +to him. Old Amable's eyes followed them attentively, though he could not +hear what they were saying. + +When he had finished supper (and he had scarcely eaten anything, there +was such a weight at his heart) he rose up, and instead of ascending to +his loft as he did every night he opened the gate of the yard and went +out into the open air. + +When he had gone, Celeste, a little uneasy, asked: + +"What is he going to do?" + +Victor replied in an indifferent tone: + +"Don't bother yourself. He'll come back when he's tired." + +Then she saw after the house, washed the plates and wiped the table, +while the man quietly took off his clothes. Then he slipped into the +dark and hollow bed in which she had slept with Cesaire. + +The yard gate opened and old Amable again appeared. As soon as he +entered the house he looked round on every side with the air of an old +dog on the scent. He was in search of Victor Lecoq. As he did not see +him, he took the candle off the table and approached the dark niche in +which his son had died. In the interior of it he perceived the man lying +under the bed clothes and already asleep. Then the deaf man noiselessly +turned round, put back the candle and went out into the yard. + +Celeste had finished her work. She put her son into his bed, arranged +everything and waited for her father-in-law's return before lying down +herself. + +She remained sitting on a chair, without moving her hands and with her +eyes fixed on vacancy. + +As he did not come back, she murmured in a tone of impatience and +annoyance: + +"This good-for-nothing old man will make us burn four sous' worth of +candles." + +Victor answered from under the bed clothes: + +"It's over an hour since he went out. We ought to see whether he fell +asleep on the bench outside the door." + +"I'll go and see," she said. + +She rose up, took the light and went out, shading the light with her hand +in order to see through the darkness. + +She saw nothing in front of the door, nothing on the bench, nothing on +the dung heap, where the old man used sometimes to sit in hot weather. + +But, just as she was on the point of going in again, she chanced to raise +her eyes toward the big apple tree, which sheltered the entrance to the +farmyard, and suddenly she saw two feet--two feet at the height of her +face belonging to a man who was hanging. + +She uttered terrible cries: + +"Victor! Victor! Victor!" + +He ran out in his shirt. She could not utter another word, and turning +aside her head so as not to see, she pointed toward the tree with her +outstretched arm. + +Not understanding what she meant, he took the candle in order to find +out, and in the midst of the foliage lit up from below he saw old Amable +hanging high up with a stable-halter round his neck. + +A ladder was leaning against the trunk of the apple tree. + +Victor ran to fetch a bill-hook, climbed up the tree and cut the halter. +But the old man was already cold and his tongue protruded horribly with a +frightful grimace. + + + + + + + VOLUME X. + +THE CHRISTENING +THE FARMER'S WIFE +THE DEVIL +THE SNIPE +THE WILL +WALTER SCHNAFF'S ADVENTURE +AT SEA +MINUET +THE SON +THAT PIG OF A MORIN +SAINT ANTHONY +LASTING LOVE +PIERROT +A NORMANDY JOKE +FATHER MATTHEW + + + + + + +THE CHRISTENING + +"Well doctor, a little brandy?" + +"With pleasure." + +The old ship's surgeon, holding out his glass, watched it as it slowly +filled with the golden liquid. Then, holding it in front of his eyes, he +let the light from the lamp stream through it, smelled it, tasted a few +drops and smacked his lips with relish. Then he said: + +"Ah! the charming poison! Or rather the seductive murderer, the +delightful destroyer of peoples! + +"You people do not know it the way I do. You may have read that +admirable book entitled L'Assommoir, but you have not, as I have, seen +alcohol exterminate a whole tribe of savages, a little kingdom of +negroes--alcohol calmly unloaded by the barrel by red-bearded English +seamen. + +"Right near here, in a little village in Brittany near Pont-l'Abbe, I +once witnessed a strange and terrible tragedy caused by alcohol. I was +spending my vacation in a little country house left me by my father. +You know this flat coast where the wind whistles day and night, where one +sees, standing or prone, these giant rocks which in the olden times were +regarded as guardians, and which still retain something majestic and +imposing about them. I always expect to see them come to life and start +to walk across the country with the slow and ponderous tread of giants, +or to unfold enormous granite wings and fly toward the paradise of the +Druids. + +"Everywhere is the sea, always ready on the slightest provocation to rise +in its anger and shake its foamy mane at those bold enough to brave its +wrath. + +"And the men who travel on this terrible sea, which, with one motion of +its green back, can overturn and swallow up their frail barks--they go +out in the little boats, day and night, hardy, weary and drunk. They are +often drunk. They have a saying which says: 'When the bottle is full you +see the reef, but when it is empty you see it no more.' + +"Go into one of their huts; you will never find the father there. If you +ask the woman what has become of her husband, she will stretch her arms +out over the dark ocean which rumbles and roars along the coast. +He remained, there one night, when he had had too much to drink; so did +her oldest son. She has four more big, strong, fair-haired boys. Soon +it will be their time. + +"As I said, I was living in a little house near Pont-l'Abbe. I was there +alone with my servant, an old sailor, and with a native family which took +care of the grounds in my absence. It consisted of three persons, two +sisters and a man, who had married one of them, and who attended to the +garden. + +"A short time before Christmas my gardener's wife presented him with a +boy. The husband asked me to stand as god-father. I could hardly deny +the request, and so he borrowed ten francs from me for the cost of the +christening, as he said. + +"The second day of January was chosen as the date of the ceremony. For a +week the earth had been covered by an enormous white carpet of snow, +which made this flat, low country seem vast and limitless. The ocean +appeared to be black in contrast with this white plain; one could see it +rolling, raging and tossing its waves as though wishing to annihilate its +pale neighbor, which appeared to be dead, it was so calm, quiet and cold. + +"At nine o'clock the father, Kerandec, came to my door with his sister- +in-law, the big Kermagan, and the nurse, who carried the infant wrapped +up in a blanket. We started for the church. The weather was so cold +that it seemed to dry up the skin and crack it open. I was thinking of +the poor little creature who was being carried on ahead of us, and I said +to myself that this Breton race must surely be of iron, if their children +were able, as soon as they were born, to stand such an outing. + +"We came to the church, but the door was closed; the priest was late. + +"Then the nurse sat down on one of the steps and began to undress the +child. At first I thought there must have been some slight accident, but +I saw that they were leaving the poor little fellow naked completely +naked, in the icy air. Furious at such imprudence, I protested: + +"'Why, you are crazy! You will kill the child!' + +"The woman answered quietly: 'Oh, no, sir; he must wait naked before the +Lord.' + +"The father and the aunt looked on undisturbed. It was the custom. If +it were not adhered to misfortune was sure to attend the little one. + +"I scolded, threatened and pleaded. I used force to try to cover the +frail creature. All was in vain. The nurse ran away from me through the +snow, and the body of the little one turned purple. I was about to leave +these brutes when I saw the priest coming across the country, followed. +by the sexton and a young boy. I ran towards him and gave vent to my +indignation. He showed no surprise nor did he quicken his pace in the +least. He answered: + +"'What can you expect, sir? It's the custom. They all do it, and it's +of no use trying to stop them.' + +"'But at least hurry up!' I cried. + +"He answered: 'But I can't go any faster.' + +"He entered the vestry, while we remained outside on the church steps. +I was suffering. But what about the poor little creature who was howling +from the effects of the biting cold. + +"At last the door opened. He went into the church. But the poor child +had to remain naked throughout the ceremony. It was interminable. The +priest stammered over the Latin words and mispronounced them horribly. +He walked slowly and with a ponderous tread. His white surplice chilled +my heart. It seemed as though, in the name of a pitiless and barbarous +god, he had wrapped himself in another kind of snow in order to torture +this little piece of humanity that suffered so from the cold. + +"Finally the christening was finished according to the rites and I saw +the nurse once more take the frozen, moaning child and wrap it up in the +blanket. + +"The priest said to me: 'Do you wish to sign the register?' + +"Turning to my gardener, I said: "Hurry up and get home quickly so that +you can warm that child.' I gave him some advice so as to ward off, if +not too late, a bad attack of pneumonia. He promised to follow my +instructions and left with his sister-in-law and the nurse. I followed +the priest into the vestry, and when I had signed he demanded five francs +for expenses. + +"As I had already given the father ten francs, I refused to pay twice. +The priest threatened to destroy the paper and to annul the ceremony. +I, in turn, threatened him with the district attorney. The dispute was +long, and I finally paid five francs. + +"As soon as I reached home I went down to Kerandec's to find out whether +everything was all right. Neither father, nor sister-in-law, nor nurse +had yet returned. The mother, who had remained alone, was in bed, +shivering with cold and starving, for she had had nothing to eat since +the day before. + +"'Where the deuce can they have gone?' I asked. She answered without +surprise or anger, 'They're going to drink something to celebrate: It was +the custom. Then I thought, of my ten francs which were to pay the +church and would doubtless pay for the alcohol. + +"I sent some broth to the mother and ordered a good fire to be built in +the room. I was uneasy and furious and promised myself to drive out +these brutes, wondering with terror what was going to happen to the poor +infant. + +"It was already six, and they had not yet returned. I told my servant to +wait for them and I went to bed. I soon fell asleep and slept like a +top. At daybreak I was awakened by my servant, who was bringing me my +hot water. + +"As soon as my eyes were open I asked: 'How about Kerandec?' + +"The man hesitated and then stammered: 'Oh! he came back, all right, +after midnight, and so drunk that he couldn't walk, and so were Kermagan +and the nurse. I guess they must have slept in a ditch, for the little +one died and they never even noticed it.' + +"I jumped up out of bed, crying: + +"'What! The child is dead?' + +"'Yes, sir. They brought it back to Mother Kerandec. When she saw it +she began to cry, and now they are making her drink to console her.' + +"'What's that? They are making her drink!' + +"'Yes, sir. I only found it out this morning. As Kerandec had no more +brandy or money, he took some wood alcohol, which monsieur gave him for +the lamp, and all four of them are now drinking that. The mother is +feeling pretty sick now.' + +"I had hastily put on some clothes, and seizing a stick, with the +intention of applying it to the backs of these human beasts, I hastened +towards the gardener's house. + +"The mother was raving drunk beside the blue body of her dead baby. +Kerandec, the nurse, and the Kermagan woman were snoring on the floor. +I had to take care of the mother, who died towards noon." + +The old doctor was silent. He took up the brandy-bottle and poured out +another glass. He held it up to the lamp, and the light streaming +through it imparted to the liquid the amber color of molten topaz. With +one gulp he swallowed the treacherous drink. + + + + + + +THE FARMER'S WIFE + +Said the Baron Rene du Treilles to me: + +"Will you come and open the hunting season with me at my farm at +Marinville? I shall be delighted if you will, my dear boy. In the first +place, I am all alone. It is rather a difficult ground to get at, and +the place I live in is so primitive that I can invite only my most +intimate friends." + +I accepted his invitation, and on Saturday we set off on the train going +to Normandy. We alighted at a station called Almivare, and Baron Rene, +pointing to a carryall drawn by a timid horse and driven by a big +countryman with white hair, said: + +"Here is our equipage, my dear boy." + +The driver extended his hand to his landlord, and the baron pressed it +warmly, asking: + +"Well, Maitre Lebrument, how are you?" + +"Always the same, M'sieu le Baron." + +We jumped into this swinging hencoop perched on two enormous wheels, and +the young horse, after a violent swerve, started into a gallop, pitching +us into the air like balls. Every fall backward on the wooden bench gave +me the most dreadful pain. + +The peasant kept repeating in his calm, monotonous voice: + +"There, there! All right all right, Moutard, all right!" + +But Moutard scarcely heard, and kept capering along like a goat. + +Our two dogs behind us, in the empty part of the hencoop, were standing +up and sniffing the air of the plains, where they scented game. + +The baron gazed with a sad eye into the distance at the vast Norman +landscape, undulating and melancholy, like an immense English park, where +the farmyards, surrounded by two or four rows of trees and full of +dwarfed apple trees which hid the houses, gave a vista as far as the eye +could see of forest trees, copses and shrubbery such as landscape +gardeners look for in laying out the boundaries of princely estates. + +And Rene du Treilles suddenly exclaimed: + +"I love this soil; I have my very roots in it." + +He was a pure Norman, tall and strong, with a slight paunch, and of the +old race of adventurers who went to found kingdoms on the shores of every +ocean. He was about fifty years of age, ten years less perhaps than the +farmer who was driving us. + +The latter was a lean peasant, all skin and bone, one of those men who +live a hundred years. + +After two hours' travelling over stony roads, across that green and +monotonous plain, the vehicle entered one of those orchard farmyards and +drew up before in old structure falling into decay, where an old maid- +servant stood waiting beside a young fellow, who took charge of the +horse. + +We entered the farmhouse. The smoky kitchen was high and spacious. The +copper utensils and the crockery shone in the reflection of the hearth. +A cat lay asleep on a chair, a dog under the table. One perceived an +odor of milk, apples, smoke, that indescribable smell peculiar to old +farmhouses; the odor of the earth, of the walls, of furniture, the odor +of spilled stale soup, of former wash-days and of former inhabitants, the +smell of animals and of human beings combined, of things and of persons, +the odor of time, and of things that have passed away. + +I went out to have a look at the farmyard. It was very large, full of +apple trees, dwarfed and crooked, and laden with fruit which fell on the +grass around them. In this farmyard the Norman smell of apples was as +strong as that of the bloom of orange trees on the shores of the south of +France. + +Four rows of beeches surrounded this inclosure. They were so tall that +they seemed to touch the clouds at this hour of nightfall, and their +summits, through which the night winds passed, swayed and sang a +mournful, interminable song. + +I reentered the house. + +The baron was warming his feet at the fire, and was listening to the +farmer's talk about country matters. He talked about marriages, births +and deaths, then about the fall in the price of grain and the latest news +about cattle. The "Veularde" (as he called a cow that had been bought at +the fair of Veules) had calved in the middle of June. The cider had not +been first-class last year. Apricots were almost disappearing from the +country. + +Then we had dinner. It was a good rustic meal, simple and abundant, long +and tranquil. And while we were dining I noticed the special kind of +friendly familiarity which had struck me from the start between the baron +and the peasant. + +Outside, the beeches continued sighing in the night wind, and our two +dogs, shut up in a shed, were whining and howling in an uncanny fashion. +The fire was dying out in the big fireplace. The maid-servant had gone +to bed. Maitre Lebrument said in his turn: + +"If you don't mind, M'sieu le Baron, I'm going to bed. I am not used to +staying up late." + +The baron extended his hand toward him and said: "Go, my friend," in so +cordial a tone that I said, as soon as the man had disappeared: + +"He is devoted to you, this farmer?" + +"Better than that, my dear fellow! It is a drama, an old drama, simple +and very sad, that attaches him to me. Here is the story: + +"You know that my father was colonel in a cavalry regiment. His orderly +was this young fellow, now an old man, the son of a farmer. When my +father retired from the army he took this former soldier, then about +forty; as his servant. I was at that time about thirty. We were living +in our old chateau of Valrenne, near Caudebec-en-Caux. + +"At this period my mother's chambermaid was one of the prettiest girls +you could see, fair-haired, slender and sprightly in manner, a genuine +soubrette of the old type that no longer exists. To-day these creatures +spring up into hussies before their time. Paris, with the aid of the +railways, attracts them, calls them, takes hold of them, as soon as they +are budding into womanhood, these little sluts who in old times remained +simple maid-servants. Every man passing by, as recruiting sergeants did +formerly, looking for recruits, with conscripts, entices and ruins them-- +these foolish lassies--and we have now only the scum of the female sex +for servant maids, all that is dull, nasty, common and ill-formed, too +ugly, even for gallantry. + +"Well, this girl was charming, and I often gave her a kiss in dark +corners; nothing more, I swear to you! She was virtuous, besides; and I +had some respect for my mother's house, which is more than can be said of +the blackguards of the present day. + +"Now, it happened that my man-servant, the ex-soldier, the old farmer you +have just seen, fell madly in love with this girl, perfectly daft. The +first thing we noticed was that he forgot everything, he paid no +attention to anything. + +"My father said incessantly: + +"'See here, Jean, what's the matter with you? Are you ill?' + +"He replied: + +"'No, no, M'sieu le Baron. There's nothing the matter with me.' + +"He grew thin; he broke glasses and let plates fall when waiting on the +table. We thought he must have been attacked by some nervous affection, +and sent for the doctor, who thought he could detect symptoms of spinal +disease. Then my father, full of anxiety about his faithful man-servant, +decided to place him in a private hospital. When the poor fellow heard +of my father's intentions he made a clean breast of it. + +"'M'sieu le Baron' + +"'Well, my boy?' + +"'You see, the thing I want is not physic.' + +"'Ha! what is it, then?' + +"'It's marriage!' + +"My father turned round and stared at him in astonishment. + +"'What's that you say, eh?' + +"'It's marriage." + +"'Marriage! So, then, you jackass, you're to love.' + +"'That's how it is, M'sieu le Baron.' + +"And my father began to laugh so immoderately that my mother called out +through the wall of the next room: + +"'What in the world is the matter with you, Gontran?' + +"He replied: + +"'Come here, Catherine.' + +"And when she came in he told her, with tears in his eyes from sheer +laughter, that his idiot of a servant-man was lovesick. + +"But my mother, instead of laughing, was deeply affected. + +"'Who is it that you have fallen in love with, my poor fellow?' she +asked. + +"He answered without hesitation: + +"'With Louise, Madame le Baronne.' + +"My mother said with the utmost gravity: 'We must try to arrange this +matter the best way we can.' + +"So Louise was sent for and questioned by my mother; and she said in +reply that she knew all about Jean's liking for her, that in fact Jean +had spoken to her about it several times, but that she did not want him. +She refused to say why. + +"And two months elapsed during which my father and mother never ceased to +urge this girl to marry Jean. As she declared she was not in love with +any other man, she could not give any serious reason for her refusal. My +father at last overcame her resistance by means of a big present of +money, and started the pair of them on a farm--this very farm. I did not +see them for three years, and then I learned that Louise had died of +consumption. But my father and mother died, too, in their turn, and it +was two years more before I found myself face to face with Jean. + +"At last one autumn day about the end of October the idea came into my +head to go hunting on this part of my estate, which my father had told me +was full of game. + +"So one evening, one wet evening, I arrived at this house. I was shocked +to find my father's old servant with perfectly white hair, though he was +not more than forty-five or forty-six years of age. I made him dine with +me, at the very table where we are now sitting. It was raining hard. +We could hear the rain battering at the roof, the walls, and the windows, +flowing in a perfect deluge into the farmyard; and my dog was howling in +the shed where the other dogs are howling to-night. + +"All of a sudden, when the servant-maid had gone to bed, the man said in +a timid voice: + +"'M'sieu le Baron.' + +"'What is it, my dear Jean?' + +"'I have something to tell you.' + +"'Tell it, my dear Jean.' + +"'You remember Louise, my wife.' + +"'Certainly, I remember her.' + +"'Well, she left me a message for you.' + +"'What was it?' + +"'A--a--well, it was what you might call a confession.' + +"'Ha--and what was it about?' + + +"'It was--it was--I'd rather, all the same, tell you nothing about it-- +but I must--I must. Well, it's this--it wasn't consumption she died of +at all. It was grief--well, that's the long and short of it. As soon as +she came to live here after we were married, she grew thin; she changed +so that you wouldn't know her, M'sieu le Baron. She was just as I was +before I married her, but it was just the opposite, just the opposite. + +"'I sent for the doctor. He said it was her liver that was affected--he +said it was what he called a "hepatic" complaint--I don't know these big +words, M'sieu le Baron. Then I bought medicine for her, heaps on heaps +of bottles that cost about three hundred francs. But she'd take none of +them; she wouldn't have them; she said: "It's no use, my poor Jean; it +wouldn't do me any good." I saw well that she had some hidden trouble; +and then I found her one time crying, and I didn't know what to do, no, +I didn't know what to do. I bought her caps, and dresses, and hair oil, +and earrings. Nothing did her any good. And I saw that she was going to +die. And so one night at the end of November, one snowy night, after she +had been in bed the whole day, she told me to send for the cure. So I +went for him. As soon as he came-- + +"Jean," she said, "I am going to make a confession to you. I owe it to +you, Jean. I have never been false to you, never! never, before or after +you married me. M'sieu le Cure is there, and can tell you so; he knows +my soul. Well, listen, Jean. If I am dying, it is because I was not +able to console myself for leaving the chateau, because I was too fond of +the young Baron Monsieur Rene, too fond of him, mind you, Jean, there was +no harm in it! This is the thing that's killing me. When I could see +him no more I felt that I should die. If I could only have seen him, I +might have lived, only seen him, nothing more. I wish you'd tell him +some day, by and by, when I am no longer here. You will tell him, swear +you, will, Jean--swear it--in the presence of M'sieu le Cure! It will +console me to know that he will know it one day, that this was the cause +of my death! Swear it!" + +'Well, I gave her my promise, M'sieu It Baron, and on the faith of an +honest man I have kept my word.' + +"And then he ceased speaking, his eyes filling with tears. + +"Good God! my dear boy, you can't form any idea of the emotion that +filled me when I heard this poor devil, whose wife I had killed without +suspecting it, telling me this story on that wet night in this very +kitchen. + +"I exclaimed: 'Ah! my poor Jean! my poor Jean!' + +"He murmured: 'Well, that's all, M'sieu le Baron. I could not help it, +one way or the other--and now it's all over!' + +"I caught his hand across the table, and I began to weep. + +"He asked, 'Will you come and see her grave?' I nodded assent, for I +couldn't speak. He rose, lighted a lantern, and we walked through the +blinding rain by the light of the lantern. + +"He opened a gate, and I saw some crosses of black wood. + +"Suddenly he stopped before a marble slab and said: 'There it is,' and he +flashed the lantern close to it so that I could read the inscription: + + "'TO LOUISE HORTENSE MARINET, + "'Wife of Jean-Francois Lebrument, Farmer, + "'SHE WAS A FAITHFUL WIFE. GOD REST HER SOUL.' + +"We fell on our knees in the damp grass, he and I, with the lantern +between us, and I saw the rain beating on the white marble slab. And I +thought of the heart of her sleeping there in her grave. Ah! poor heart! +poor heart! "Since then I come here every year. And I don't know why, +but I feel as if I were guilty of some crime in the presence of this man +who always looks as if he forgave me." + + + + + + +THE DEVIL + +The peasant and the doctor stood on opposite sides of the bed, beside the +old, dying woman. She was calm and resigned and her mind quite clear as +she looked at them and listened to their conversation. She was going to +die, and she did not rebel at it, for her time was come, as she was +ninety-two. + +The July sun streamed in at the window and the open door and cast its hot +flames on the uneven brown clay floor, which had been stamped down by +four generations of clodhoppers. The smell of the fields came in also, +driven by the sharp wind and parched by the noontide heat. The grass- +hoppers chirped themselves hoarse, and filled the country with their +shrill noise, which was like that of the wooden toys which are sold to +children at fair time. + +The doctor raised his voice and said: "Honore, you cannot leave your +mother in this state; she may die at any moment." And the peasant, in +great distress, replied: "But I must get in my wheat, for it has been +lying on the ground a long time, and the weather is just right for it; +what do you say about it, mother?" And the dying old woman, still +tormented by her Norman avariciousness, replied yes with her eyes and her +forehead, and thus urged her son to get in his wheat, and to leave her to +die alone. + +But the doctor got angry, and, stamping his foot, he said: "You are no +better than a brute, do you hear, and I will not allow you to do it, do +you understand? And if you must get in your wheat today, go and fetch +Rapet's wife and make her look after your mother; I will have it, do you +understand me? And if you do not obey me, I will let you die like a dog, +when you are ill in your turn; do you hear?" + +The peasant, a tall, thin fellow with slow movements, who was tormented +by indecision, by his fear of the doctor and his fierce love of saving, +hesitated, calculated, and stammered out: "How much does La Rapet charge +for attending sick people?" "How should I know?" the doctor cried. +"That depends upon how long she is needed. Settle it with her, by +Heaven! But I want her to be here within an hour, do you hear?" + +So the man decided. "I will go for her," he replied; "don't get angry, +doctor." And the latter left, calling out as he went: "Be careful, be +very careful, you know, for I do not joke when I am angry!" As soon as +they were alone the peasant turned to his mother and said in a resigned +voice: "I will go and fetch La Rapet, as the man will have it. Don't +worry till I get back." + +And he went out in his turn. + +La Rapet, old was an old washerwoman, watched the dead and the dying of +the neighborhood, and then, as soon as she had sewn her customers into +that linen cloth from which they would emerge no more, she went and took +up her iron to smooth out the linen of the living. Wrinkled like a last +year's apple, spiteful, envious, avaricious with a phenomenal avarice, +bent double, as if she had been broken in half across the loins by the +constant motion of passing the iron over the linen, one might have said +that she had a kind of abnormal and cynical love of a death struggle. +She never spoke of anything but of the people she had seen die, of the +various kinds of deaths at which she had been present, and she related +with the greatest minuteness details which were always similar, just as a +sportsman recounts his luck. + +When Honore Bontemps entered her cottage, he found her preparing the +starch for the collars of the women villagers, and he said: "Good- +evening; I hope you are pretty well, Mother Rapet?" + +She turned her head round to look at him, and said: "As usual, as usual, +and you?" "Oh! as for me, I am as well as I could wish, but my mother is +not well." "Your mother?" "Yes, my mother!" "What is the matter with +her?" "She is going to turn up her toes, that's what's the matter with +her!" + +The old woman took her hands out of the water and asked with sudden +sympathy: "Is she as bad as all that?" "The doctor says she will not +last till morning." "Then she certainly is very bad!" Honore hesitated, +for he wanted to make a few preparatory remarks before coming to his +proposition; but as he could hit upon nothing, he made up his mind +suddenly. + +"How much will you ask to stay with her till the end? You know that I am +not rich, and I can not even afford to keep a servant girl. It is just +that which has brought my poor mother to this state--too much worry and +fatigue! She did the work of ten, in spite of her ninety-two years. You +don't find any made of that stuff nowadays!" + +La Rapet answered gravely: "There are two prices: Forty sous by day and +three francs by night for the rich, and twenty sous by day and forty by +night for the others. You shall pay me the twenty and forty." But the, +peasant reflected, for he knew his mother well. He knew how tenacious of +life, how vigorous and unyielding she was, and she might last another +week, in spite of the doctor's opinion; and so he said resolutely: "No, I +would rather you would fix a price for the whole time until the end. +I will take my chance, one way or the other. The doctor says she will +die very soon. If that happens, so much the better for you, and so much +the worse for her, but if she holds out till to-morrow or longer, so much +the better for her and so much the worse for you!" + +The nurse looked at the man in astonishment, for she had never treated a +death as a speculation, and she hesitated, tempted by the idea of the +possible gain, but she suspected that he wanted to play her a trick. +"I can say nothing until I have seen your mother," she replied. + +"Then come with me and see her." + +She washed her hands, and went with him immediately. + +They did not speak on the road; she walked with short, hasty steps, while +he strode on with his long legs, as if he were crossing a brook at every +step. + +The cows lying down in the fields, overcome by the heat, raised their +heads heavily and lowed feebly at the two passers-by, as if to ask them +for some green grass. + +When they got near the house, Honore Bontemps murmured: "Suppose it is +all over?" And his unconscious wish that it might be so showed itself in +the sound of his voice. + +But the old woman was not dead. She was lying on her back, on her +wretched bed, her hands covered with a purple cotton counterpane, +horribly thin, knotty hands, like the claws of strange animals, like +crabs, half closed by rheumatism, fatigue and the work of nearly a +century which she had accomplished. + +La Rapet went up to the bed and looked at the dying woman, felt her +pulse, tapped her on the chest, listened to her breathing, and asked her +questions, so as to hear her speak; and then, having looked at her for +some time, she went out of the room, followed by Honore. Her decided +opinion was that the old woman would not last till night. He asked: +"Well?" And the sick-nurse replied: "Well, she may last two days, perhaps +three. You will have to give me six francs, everything included." + +"Six francs! six francs!" he shouted. "Are you out of your mind? I tell +you she cannot last more than five or six hours!" And they disputed +angrily for some time, but as the nurse said she must go home, as the +time was going by, and as his wheat would not come to the farmyard of its +own accord, he finally agreed to her terms. + +"Very well, then, that is settled; six francs, including everything, +until the corpse is taken out." + +And he went away, with long strides, to his wheat which was lying on the +ground under the hot sun which ripens the grain, while the sick-nurse +went in again to the house. + +She had brought some work with her, for she worked without ceasing by the +side of the dead and dying, sometimes for herself, sometimes for the +family which employed her as seamstress and paid her rather more in that +capacity. Suddenly, she asked: "Have you received the last sacraments, +Mother Bontemps?" + +The old peasant woman shook her head, and La Rapet, who was very devout, +got up quickly: + +"Good heavens, is it possible? I will go and fetch the cure"; and she +rushed off to the parsonage so quickly that the urchins in the street +thought some accident had happened, when they saw her running. + +The priest came immediately in his surplice, preceded by a choir boy who +rang a bell to announce the passage of the Host through the parched and +quiet country. Some men who were working at a distance took off their +large hats and remained motionless until the white vestment had +disappeared behind some farm buildings; the women who were making up the +sheaves stood up to make the sign of the cross; the frightened black hens +ran away along the ditch until they reached a well-known hole, through +which they suddenly disappeared, while a foal which was tied in a meadow +took fright at the sight of the surplice and began to gallop round and +round, kicking cut every now and then. The acolyte, in his red cassock, +walked quickly, and the priest, with his head inclined toward one +shoulder and his square biretta on his head, followed him, muttering some +prayers; while last of all came La Rapet, bent almost double as if she +wished to prostrate herself, as she walked with folded hands as they do +in church. + +Honore saw them pass in the distance, and he asked: "Where is our priest +going?" His man, who was more intelligent, replied: "He is taking the +sacrament to your mother, of course!" + +The peasant was not surprised, and said: "That may be," and went on with +his work. + +Mother Bontemps confessed, received absolution and communion, and the +priest took his departure, leaving the two women alone in the suffocating +room, while La Rapet began to look at the dying woman, and to ask herself +whether it could last much longer. + +The day was on the wane, and gusts of cooler air began to blow, causing a +view of Epinal, which was fastened to the wall by two pins, to flap up +and down; the scanty window curtains, which had formerly been white, but +were now yellow and covered with fly-specks, looked as if they were going +to fly off, as if they were struggling to get away, like the old woman's +soul. + +Lying motionless, with her eyes open, she seemed to await with +indifference that death which was so near and which yet delayed its +coming. Her short breathing whistled in her constricted throat. It +would stop altogether soon, and there would be one woman less in the +world; no one would regret her. + +At nightfall Honore returned, and when he went up to the bed and saw that +his mother was still alive, he asked: "How is she?" just as he had done +formerly when she had been ailing, and then he sent La Rapet away, saying +to her: "To-morrow morning at five o'clock, without fail." And she +replied: "To-morrow, at five o'clock." + +She came at daybreak, and found Honore eating his soup, which he had made +himself before going to work, and the sick-nurse asked him: "Well, is +your mother dead?" "She is rather better, on the contrary," he replied, +with a sly look out of the corner of his eyes. And he went out. + +La Rapet, seized with anxiety, went up to the dying woman, who remained +in the same state, lethargic and impassive, with her eyes open and her +hands clutching the counterpane. The nurse perceived that this might go +on thus for two days, four days, eight days, and her avaricious mind was +seized with fear, while she was furious at the sly fellow who had tricked +her, and at the woman who would not die. + +Nevertheless, she began to work, and waited, looking intently at the +wrinkled face of Mother Bontemps. When Honore returned to breakfast he +seemed quite satisfied and even in a bantering humor. He was decidedly +getting in his wheat under very favorable circumstances. + +La Rapet was becoming exasperated; every minute now seemed to her so much +time and money stolen from her. She felt a mad inclination to take this +old woman, this, headstrong old fool, this obstinate old wretch, and to +stop that short, rapid breath, which was robbing her of her time and +money, by squeezing her throat a little. But then she reflected on the +danger of doing so, and other thoughts came into her head; so she went up +to the bed and said: "Have you ever seen the Devil?" Mother Bontemps +murmured: "No." + +Then the sick-nurse began to talk and to tell her tales which were likely +to terrify the weak mind of the dying woman. Some minutes before one +dies the Devil appears, she said, to all who are in the death throes. +He has a broom in his hand, a saucepan on his head, and he utters loud +cries. When anybody sees him, all is over, and that person has only a +few moments longer to live. She then enumerated all those to whom the +Devil had appeared that year: Josephine Loisel, Eulalie Ratier, Sophie +Padaknau, Seraphine Grospied. + +Mother Bontemps, who had at last become disturbed in mind, moved about, +wrung her hands, and tried to turn her head to look toward the end of the +room. Suddenly La Rapet disappeared at the foot of the bed. She took a +sheet out of the cupboard and wrapped herself up in it; she put the iron +saucepan on her head, so that its three short bent feet rose up like +horns, and she took a broom in her right hand and a tin pail in her left, +which she threw up suddenly, so that it might fall to the ground noisily. + +When it came down, it certainly made a terrible noise. Then, climbing +upon a chair, the nurse lifted up the curtain which hung at the bottom of +the bed, and showed herself, gesticulating and uttering shrill cries into +the iron saucepan which covered her face, while she menaced the old +peasant woman, who was nearly dead, with her broom. + +Terrified, with an insane expression on her face, the dying woman made a +superhuman effort to get up and escape; she even got her shoulders and +chest out of bed; then she fell back with a deep sigh. All was over, and +La Rapet calmly put everything back into its place; the broom into the +corner by the cupboard the sheet inside it, the saucepan on the hearth, +the pail on the floor, and the chair against the wall. Then, with +professional movements, she closed the dead woman's large eyes, put a +plate on the bed and poured some holy water into it, placing in it the +twig of boxwood that had been nailed to the chest of drawers, and +kneeling down, she fervently repeated the prayers for the dead, which she +knew by heart, as a matter of business. + +And when Honore returned in the evening he found her praying, and he +calculated immediately that she had made twenty sows out of him, for she +had only spent three days and one night there, which made five francs +altogether, instead of the six which he owed her. + + + + + + +THE SNIPE + +Old Baron des Ravots had for forty years been the champion sportsman of +his province. But a stroke of paralysis had kept him in his chair for +the last five or six years. He could now only shoot pigeons from the +window of his drawing-room or from the top of his high doorsteps. + +He spent his time in reading. + +He was a good-natured business man, who had much of the literary spirit +of a former century. He worshipped anecdotes, those little risque +anecdotes, and also true stories of events that happened in his +neighborhood. As soon as a friend came to see him he asked: + +"Well, anything new?" + +And he knew how to worm out information like an examining lawyer. + +On sunny days he had his large reclining chair, similar to a bed, wheeled +to the hall door. A man servant behind him held his guns, loaded them +and handed them to his master. Another valet, hidden in the bushes, let +fly a pigeon from time to time at irregular intervals, so that the baron +should be unprepared and be always on the watch. + +And from morning till night he fired at the birds, much annoyed if he +were taken by surprise and laughing till he cried when the animal fell +straight to the earth or, turned over in some comical and unexpected +manner. He would turn to the man who was loading the gun and say, almost +choking with laughter: + +"Did that get him, Joseph? Did you see how he fell?" Joseph invariably +replied: + +"Oh, monsieur le baron never misses them." + +In autumn, when the shooting season opened, he invited his friends as he +had done formerly, and loved to hear them firing in the distance. He +counted the shots and was pleased when they followed each other rapidly. +And in the evening he made each guest give a faithful account of his day. +They remained three hours at table telling about their sport. + +They were strange and improbable adventures in which the romancing spirit +of the sportsmen delighted. Some of them were memorable stories and were +repeated regularly. The story of a rabbit that little Vicomte de Bourril +had missed in his vestibule convulsed them with laughter each year anew. +Every five minutes a fresh speaker would say: + +"I heard 'birr! birr!' and a magnificent covey rose at ten paces from +me. I aimed. Pif! paf! and I saw a shower, a veritable shower of +birds. There were seven of them!" + +And they all went into raptures, amazed, but reciprocally credulous. + +But there was an old custom in the house called "The Story of the Snipe." + +Whenever this queen of birds was in season the same ceremony took place +at each dinner. As they worshipped this incomparable bird, each guest +ate one every evening, but the heads were all left in the dish. + +Then the baron, acting the part of a bishop, had a plate brought to him +containing a little fat, and he carefully anointed the precious heads, +holding them by the tip of their slender, needle-like beak. A lighted +candle was placed beside him and everyone was silent in an anxiety of +expectation. + +Then he took one of the heads thus prepared, stuck a pin through it and +stuck the pin on a cork, keeping the whole contrivance steady by means of +little crossed sticks, and carefully placed this object on the neck of a +bottle in the manner of a tourniquet. + +All the guests counted simultaneously in a loud tone-- + +"One-two-three." + +And the baron with a fillip of the finger made this toy whirl round. + +The guest to whom the long beak pointed when the head stopped became the +possessor of all the heads, a feast fit for a king, which made his +neighbors look askance. + +He took them one by one and toasted them over the candle. The grease +sputtered, the roasting flesh smoked and the lucky winner ate the head, +holding it by the beak and uttering exclamations of enjoyment. + +And at each head the diners, raising their glasses, drank to his health. + +When he had finished the last head he was obliged, at the baron's orders, +to tell an anecdote to compensate the disappointed ones. + +Here are some of the stories. + + + + + + +THE WILL + +I knew that tall young fellow, Rene de Bourneval. He was an agreeable +man, though rather melancholy and seemed prejudiced against everything, +was very skeptical, and he could with a word tear down social hypocrisy. +He would often say: + +"There are no honorable men, or, at least, they are only relatively so +when compared with those lower than themselves." + +He had two brothers, whom he never saw, the Messieurs de Courcils. I +always supposed they were by another father, on account of the difference +in the name. I had frequently heard that the family had a strange +history, but did not know the details. As I took a great liking to Rene +we soon became intimate friends, and one evening, when I had been dining +with him alone, I asked him, by chance: "Are you a son of the first or +second marriage?" He grew rather pale, and then flushed, and did not +speak for a few moments; he was visibly embarrassed. Then he smiled in +the melancholy, gentle manner, which was peculiar to him, and said: + +"My dear friend, if it will not weary you, I can give you some very +strange particulars about my life. I know that you are a sensible man, +so I do not fear that our friendship will suffer by my I revelations; and +should it suffer, I should not care about having you for my friend any +longer. + +"My mother, Madame de Courcils, was a poor little, timid woman, whom her +husband had married for the sake of her fortune, and her whole life was +one of martyrdom. Of a loving, timid, sensitive disposition, she was +constantly being ill-treated by the man who ought to have been my father, +one of those boors called country gentlemen. A month after their +marriage he was living a licentious life and carrying on liaisons with +the wives and daughters of his tenants. This did not prevent him from +having three children by his wife, that is, if you count me in. My +mother said nothing, and lived in that noisy house like a little mouse. +Set aside, unnoticed, nervous, she looked at people with her bright, +uneasy, restless eyes, the eyes of some terrified creature which can +never shake off its fear. And yet she was pretty, very pretty and fair, +a pale blonde, as if her hair had lost its color through her constant +fear. + +"Among the friends of Monsieur de Courcils who constantly came to her +chateau, there was an ex-cavalry officer, a widower, a man who was +feared, who was at the same time tender and violent, capable of the most +determined resolves, Monsieur de Bourneval, whose name I bear. He was a +tall, thin man, with a heavy black mustache. I am very like him. He was +a man who had read a great deal, and his ideas were not like those of +most of his class. His great-grandmother had been a friend of +J. J. Rousseau's, and one might have said that he had inherited something +of this ancestral connection. He knew the Contrat Social, and the +Nouvelle Heloise by heart, and all those philosophical books which +prepared in advance the overthrow of our old usages, prejudices, +superannuated laws and imbecile morality. + +"It seems that he loved my mother, and she loved him, but their liaison +was carried on so secretly that no one guessed at its existence. The +poor, neglected, unhappy woman must have clung to him in despair, and in +her intimacy with him must have imbibed all his ways of thinking, +theories of free thought, audacious ideas of independent love; but being +so timid she never ventured to speak out, and it was all driven back, +condensed, shut up in her heart. + +"My two brothers were very hard towards her, like their father, and never +gave her a caress, and, accustomed to seeing her count for nothing in the +house, they treated her rather like a servant. I was the only one of her +sons who really loved her and whom she loved. + +"When she died I was seventeen, and I must add, in order that you may +understand what follows, that a lawsuit between my father and mother had +been decided in my mother's favor, giving her the bulk of the property, +and, thanks to the tricks of the law, and the intelligent devotion of a +lawyer to her interests, the right to make her will in favor of whom she +pleased. + +"We were told that there was a will at the lawyer's office and were +invited to be present at the reading of it. I can remember it, as if it +were yesterday. It was an imposing scene, dramatic, burlesque and +surprising, occasioned by the posthumous revolt of that dead woman, by +the cry for liberty, by the demands of that martyred one who had been +crushed by our oppression during her lifetime and who, from her closed +tomb, uttered a despairing appeal for independence. + +"The man who believed he was my father, a stout, ruddy-faced man, who +looked like a butcher, and my brothers, two great fellows of twenty and +twenty-two, were waiting quietly in their chairs. Monsieur de Bourneval, +who had been invited to be present, came in and stood behind me. He was +very pale and bit his mustache, which was turning gray. No doubt he was +prepared for what was going to happen. The lawyer double-locked the door +and began to read the will, after having opened, in our presence, the +envelope, sealed with red wax, of the contents of which he was ignorant." + +My friend stopped talking abruptly, and rising, took from his writing- +table an old paper, unfolded it, kissed it and then continued: "This is +the will of my beloved mother: + + "'I, the undersigned, Anne Catherine-Genevieve-Mathilde de + Croixluce, the legitimate wife of Leopold-Joseph Gontran de Councils + sound in body and mind, here express my last wishes. + + I first of all ask God, and then my dear son Rene to pardon me for + the act I am about to commit. I believe that my child's heart is + great enough to understand me, and to forgive me. I have suffered + my whole life long. I was married out of calculation, then + despised, misunderstood, oppressed and constantly deceived by my + husband. + + "'I forgive him, but I owe him nothing. + + "'My elder sons never loved me, never petted me, scarcely treated me + as a mother, but during my whole life I did my duty towards them, + and I owe them nothing more after my death. The ties of blood + cannot exist without daily and constant affection. An ungrateful + son is less than, a stranger; he is a culprit, for he has no right + to be indifferent towards his mother. + + "'I have always trembled before men, before their unjust laws, their + inhuman customs, their shameful prejudices. Before God, I have no + longer any fear. Dead, I fling aside disgraceful hypocrisy; I dare + to speak my thoughts, and to avow and to sign the secret of my + heart. + + "'I therefore leave that part of my fortune of which the law allows + me to dispose, in trust to my dear lover, Pierre-Germer-Simon de + Bourneval, to revert afterwards to our dear son Rene. + + "'(This bequest is specified more precisely in a deed drawn + up by a notary.) + + "'And I declare before the Supreme Judge who hears me, that I should + have cursed heaven and my own existence, if I had not found the + deep, devoted, tender, unshaken affection of my lover; if I had not + felt in his arms that the Creator made His creatures to love, + sustain and console each other, and to weep together in the hours of + sadness. + + "'Monsieur de Courcils is the father of my two eldest sons; Rene, + alone, owes his life to Monsieur de Bourneval. I pray the Master of + men and of their destinies, to place father and son above social + prejudices, to make them love each other until they die, and to love + me also in my coffin. + + "'These are my last thoughts, and my last wish. + + "'MATHILDE DE CROIXLUCE.' + + +"Monsieur de Courcils had risen and he cried: + +"'It is the will of a madwoman.' + +"Then Monsieur de Bourneval stepped forward and said in a loud, +penetrating voice: 'I, Simon de Bourneval, solemnly declare that this +writing contains nothing but the strict truth, and I am ready to prove it +by letters which I possess.' + +"On hearing that, Monsieur de Courcils went up to him, and I 'thought +that they were going to attack each other. There they stood, both of +them tall, one stout and the other thin, both trembling. My mother's +husband stammered out: 'You are a worthless wretch!' And the other +replied in a loud, dry voice: 'We will meet elsewhere, monsieur. +I should have already slapped your ugly face and challenged you long +since if I had not, before everything else, thought of the peace of mind +during her lifetime of that poor woman whom you caused to suffer so +greatly.' + +"Then, turning to me, he said: 'You are my son; will you come with me? +I have no right to take you away, but I shall assume it, if you are +willing to come with me: I shook his hand without replying, and we went +out together. I was certainly three parts mad. + +"Two days later Monsieur de Bourneval killed Monsieur de Courcils in a +duel. My brothers, to avoid a terrible scandal, held their tongues. +I offered them and they accepted half the fortune which my mother had +left me. I took my real father's name, renouncing that which the law +gave me, but which was not really mine. Monsieur de Bourneval died three +years later and I am still inconsolable." + +He rose from his chair, walked up and down the room, and, standing in +front of me, said: + +"Well, I say that my mother's will was one of the most beautiful, the +most loyal, as well as one of the grandest acts that a woman could +perform. Do you not think so?" + +I held out both hands to him, saying: + +"I most certainly do, my friend." + + + + + + +WALTER SCHNAFFS' ADVENTURE + +Ever since he entered France with the invading army Walter Schnaffs had +considered himself the most unfortunate of men. He was large, had +difficulty in walking, was short of breath and suffered frightfully with +his feet, which were very flat and very fat. But he was a peaceful, +benevolent man, not warlike or sanguinary, the father of four children +whom he adored, and married to a little blonde whose little tendernesses, +attentions and kisses he recalled with despair every evening. He liked +to rise late and retire early, to eat good things in a leisurely manner +and to drink beer in the saloon. He reflected, besides, that all that is +sweet in existence vanishes with life, and he maintained in his heart a +fearful hatred, instinctive as well as logical, for cannon, rifles, +revolvers and swords, but especially for bayonets, feeling that he was +unable to dodge this dangerous weapon rapidly enough to protect his big +paunch. + +And when night fell and he lay on the ground, wrapped in his cape beside +his comrades who were snoring, he thought long and deeply about those he +had left behind and of the dangers in his path. "If he were killed what +would become of the little ones? Who would provide for them and bring +them up?" Just at present they were not rich, although he had borrowed +when he left so as to leave them some money. And Walter Schnaffs wept +when he thought of all this. + +At the beginning of a battle his legs became so weak that he would have +fallen if he had not reflected that the entire army would pass over his +body. The whistling of the bullets gave him gooseflesh. + +For months he had lived thus in terror and anguish. + +His company was marching on Normandy, and one day he was sent to +reconnoitre with a small detachment, simply to explore a portion of the +territory and to return at once. All seemed quiet in the country; +nothing indicated an armed resistance. + +But as the Prussians were quietly descending into a little valley +traversed by deep ravines a sharp fusillade made them halt suddenly, +killing twenty of their men, and a company of sharpshooters, suddenly +emerging from a little wood as large as your hand, darted forward with +bayonets at the end of their rifles. + +Walter Schnaffs remained motionless at first, so surprised and bewildered +that he did not even think of making his escape. Then he was seized with +a wild desire to run away, but he remembered at once that he ran like a +tortoise compared with those thin Frenchmen, who came bounding along like +a lot of goats. Perceiving a large ditch full of brushwood covered with +dead leaves about six paces in front of him, he sprang into it with both +feet together, without stopping to think of its depth, just as one jumps +from a bridge into the river. + +He fell like an arrow through a thick layer of vines and thorny brambles +that tore his face and hands and landed heavily in a sitting posture on a +bed of stones. Raising his eyes, he saw the sky through the hole he had +made in falling through. This aperture might betray him, and he crawled +along carefully on hands and knees at the bottom of this ditch beneath +the covering of interlacing branches, going as fast as he could and +getting away from the scene of the skirmish. Presently he stopped and +sat down, crouched like a hare amid the tall dry grass. + +He heard firing and cries and groans going on for some time. Then the +noise of fighting grew fainter and ceased. All was quiet and silent. + +Suddenly something stirred, beside him. He was frightfully startled. It +was a little bird which had perched on a branch and was moving the dead +leaves. For almost an hour Walter Schnaffs' heart beat loud and rapidly. + +Night fell, filling the ravine with its shadows. The soldier began to +think. What was he to do? What was to become of him? Should he rejoin +the army? But how? By what road? And he began over again the horrible +life of anguish, of terror, of fatigue and suffering that he had led +since the commencement of the war. No! He no longer had the courage! +He would not have the energy necessary to endure long marches and to face +the dangers to which one was exposed at every moment. + +But what should he do? He could not stay in this ravine in concealment +until the end of hostilities. No, indeed! If it were not for having to +eat, this prospect would not have daunted him greatly. But he had to +eat, to eat every day. + +And here he was, alone, armed and in uniform, on the enemy's territory, +far from those who would protect him. A shiver ran over him. + +All at once he thought: "If I were only a prisoner!" And his heart +quivered with a longing, an intense desire to be taken prisoner by the +French. A prisoner, he would be saved, fed, housed, sheltered from +bullets and swords, without any apprehension whatever, in a good, well- +kept prison. A prisoner! What a dream: + +His resolution was formed at once. + +"I will constitute myself a prisoner." + +He rose, determined to put this plan into execution without a moment's +delay. But he stood motionless, suddenly a prey to disturbing +reflections and fresh terrors. + +Where would he make himself a prisoner and how? In What direction? And +frightful pictures, pictures of death came into his mind. + +He would run terrible danger in venturing alone through the country with +his pointed helmet. + +Supposing he should meet some peasants. These peasants seeing a Prussian +who had lost his way, an unprotected Prussian, would kill him as if he +were a stray dog! They would murder him with their forks, their picks, +their scythes and their shovels. They would make a stew of him, a pie, +with the frenzy of exasperated, conquered enemies. + +If he should meet the sharpshooters! These sharpshooters, madmen without +law or discipline, would shoot him just for amusement to pass an hour; it +would make them laugh to see his head. And he fancied he was already +leaning against a wall in-front of four rifles whose little black +apertures seemed to be gazing at him. + +Supposing he should meet the French army itself. The vanguard would take +him for a scout, for some bold and sly trooper who had set off alone to +reconnoitre, and they would fire at him. And he could already hear, in +imagination, the irregular shots of soldiers lying in the brush, while he +himself, standing in the middle of the field, was sinking to the earth, +riddled like a sieve with bullets which he felt piercing his flesh. + +He sat down again in despair. His situation seemed hopeless. + +It was quite a dark, black and silent night. He no longer budged, +trembling at all the slight and unfamiliar sounds that occur at night. +The sound of a rabbit crouching at the edge of his burrow almost made him +run. The cry of an owl caused him positive anguish, giving him a nervous +shock that pained like a wound. He opened his big eyes as wide as +possible to try and see through the darkness, and he imagined every +moment that he heard someone walking close beside him. + +After interminable hours in which he suffered the tortures of the damned, +he noticed through his leafy cover that the sky was becoming bright. He +at once felt an intense relief. His limbs stretched out, suddenly +relaxed, his heart quieted down, his eyes closed; he fell asleep. + +When he awoke the sun appeared to be almost at the meridian. It must be +noon. No sound disturbed the gloomy silence. Walter Schnaffs noticed +that he was exceedingly hungry. + +He yawned, his mouth watering at the thought of sausage, the good sausage +the soldiers have, and he felt a gnawing at his stomach. + +He rose from the ground, walked a few steps, found that his legs were +weak and sat down to reflect. For two or three hours he again considered +the pros and cons, changing his mind every moment, baffled, unhappy, torn +by the most conflicting motives. + +Finally he had an idea that seemed logical and practical. It was to +watch for a villager passing by alone, unarmed and with no dangerous +tools of his trade, and to run to him and give himself up, making him +understand that he was surrendering. + +He took off his helmet, the point of which might betray him, and put his +head out of his hiding place with the utmost caution. + +No solitary pedestrian could be perceived on the horizon. Yonder, to the +right, smoke rose from the chimney of a little village, smoke from +kitchen fires! And yonder, to the left, he saw at the end of an avenue +of trees a large turreted chateau. He waited till evening, suffering +frightfully from hunger, seeing nothing but flights of crows, hearing +nothing but the silent expostulation of his empty stomach. + +And darkness once more fell on him. + +He stretched himself out in his retreat and slept a feverish sleep, +haunted by nightmares, the sleep of a starving man. + +Dawn again broke above his head and he began to make his observations. +But the landscape was deserted as on the previous day, and a new fear +came into Walter Schnaffs' mind--the fear of death by hunger! He +pictured himself lying at full length on his back at the bottom of his +hiding place, with his two eyes closed, and animals, little creatures of +all kinds, approached and began to feed on his dead body, attacking it +all over at once, gliding beneath his clothing to bite his cold flesh, +and a big crow pecked out his eyes with its sharp beak. + +He almost became crazy, thinking he was going to faint and would not be +able to walk. And he was just preparing to rush off to the village, +determined to dare anything, to brave everything, when he perceived three +peasants walking to the fields with their forks across their shoulders, +and he dived back into his hiding place. + +But as soon as it grew dark he slowly emerged from the ditch and started +off, stooping and fearful, with beating heart, towards the distant +chateau, preferring to go there rather than to the village, which seemed +to him as formidable as a den of tigers. + +The lower windows were brilliantly lighted. One of them was open and +from it escaped a strong odor of roast meat, an odor which suddenly +penetrated to the olfactories and to the stomach of Walter Schnaffs, +tickling his nerves, making him breathe quickly, attracting him +irresistibly and inspiring his heart with the boldness of desperation. + +And abruptly, without reflection, he placed himself, helmet on head, in +front of the window. + +Eight servants were at dinner around a large table. But suddenly one of +the maids sat there, her mouth agape, her eyes fixed and letting fall her +glass. They all followed the direction of her gaze. + +They saw the enemy! + +Good God! The Prussians were attacking the chateau! + +There was a shriek, only one shriek made up of eight shrieks uttered in +eight different keys, a terrific screaming of terror, then a tumultuous +rising from their seats, a jostling, a scrimmage and a wild rush to the +door at the farther end. Chairs fell over, the men knocked the women +down and walked over them. In two seconds the room was empty, deserted, +and the table, covered with eatables, stood in front of Walter Schnaffs, +lost in amazement and still standing at the window. + +After some moments of hesitation he climbed in at the window and +approached the table. His fierce hunger caused him to tremble as if he +were in a fever, but fear still held him back, numbed him. He listened. +The entire house seemed to shudder. Doors closed, quick steps ran along +the floor above. The uneasy Prussian listened eagerly to these confused +sounds. Then he heard dull sounds, as though bodies were falling to the +ground at the foot of the walls, human beings jumping from the first +floor. + +Then all motion, all disturbance ceased, and the great chateau became as +silent as the grave. + +Walter Schnaffs sat down before a clean plate and began to eat. He took +great mouthfuls, as if he feared he might be interrupted before he had +swallowed enough. He shovelled the food into his mouth, open like a +trap, with both hands, and chunks of food went into his stomach, swelling +out his throat as it passed down. Now and then he stopped, almost ready +to burst like a stopped-up pipe. Then he would take the cider jug and +wash down his esophagus as one washes out a clogged rain pipe. + +He emptied all the plates, all the dishes and all the bottles. Then, +intoxicated with drink and food, besotted, red in the face, shaken by +hiccoughs, his mind clouded and his speech thick, he unbuttoned his +uniform in order to breathe or he could not have taken a step. His eyes +closed, his mind became torpid; he leaned his heavy forehead on his +folded arms on the table and gradually lost all consciousness of things +and events. + +The last quarter of the moon above the trees in the park shed a faint +light on the landscape. It was the chill hour that precedes the dawn. + +Numerous silent shadows glided among the trees and occasionally a blade +of steel gleamed in the shadow as a ray of moonlight struck it. + +The quiet chateau stood there in dark outline. Only two windows were +still lighted up on the ground floor. + +Suddenly a voice thundered: + +"Forward! nom d'un nom! To the breach, my lads!" + +And in an instant the doors, shutters and window panes fell in beneath a +wave of men who rushed in, breaking, destroying everything, and took the +house by storm. In a moment fifty soldiers, armed to the teeth, bounded +into the kitchen, where Walter Schnaffs was peacefully sleeping, and +placing to his breast fifty loaded rifles, they overturned him, rolled +him on the floor, seized him and tied his head and feet together. + +He gasped in amazement, too besotted to understand, perplexed, bruised +and wild with fear. + +Suddenly a big soldier, covered with gold lace, put his foot on his +stomach, shouting: + +"You are my prisoner. Surrender!" + +The Prussian heard only the one word "prisoner" and he sighed, "Ya, ya, +ya." + +He was raised from the floor, tied in a chair and examined with lively +curiosity by his victors, who were blowing like whales. Several of them +sat down, done up with excitement and fatigue. + +He smiled, actually smiled, secure now that he was at last a prisoner. + +Another officer came into the room and said: + +"Colonel, the enemy has escaped; several seem to have been wounded. We +are in possession." + +The big officer, who was wiping his forehead, exclaimed: "Victory!" + +And he wrote in a little business memorandum book which he took from his +pocket: + +"After a desperate encounter the Prussians were obliged to beat a +retreat, carrying with them their dead and wounded, the number of whom is +estimated at fifty men. Several were taken prisoners." + +The young officer inquired: + +"What steps shall I take, colonel?" + +"We will retire in good order," replied the colonel, "to avoid having to +return and make another attack with artillery and a larger force of men." + +And he gave the command to set out. + +The column drew up in line in the darkness beneath the walls of the +chateau and filed out, a guard of six soldiers with revolvers in their +hands surrounding Walter Schnaffs, who was firmly bound. + +Scouts were sent ahead to reconnoitre. They advanced cautiously, halting +from time to time. + +At daybreak they arrived at the district of La Roche-Oysel, whose +national guard had accomplished this feat of arms. + +The uneasy and excited inhabitants were expecting them. When they saw +the prisoner's helmet tremendous shouts arose. The women raised their 10 +arms in wonder, the old people wept. An old grandfather threw his crutch +at the Prussian and struck the nose of one of their own defenders. + +The colonel roared: + +"See that the prisoner is secure!" + +At length they reached the town hall. The prison was opened and Walter +Schnaffs, freed from his bonds, cast into it. Two hundred armed men +mounted guard outside the building. + +Then, in spite of the indigestion that had been troubling him for some +time, the Prussian, wild with joy, began to dance about, to dance +frantically, throwing out his arms and legs and uttering wild shouts +until he fell down exhausted beside the wall. + +He was a prisoner-saved! + +That was how the Chateau de Charnpignet was taken from the enemy after +only six hours of occupation. + +Colonel Ratier, a cloth merchant, who had led the assault at the head of +a body of the national guard of La Roche-Oysel, was decorated with an +order. + + + + + + +AT SEA + +The following paragraphs recently appeared in the papers: + +"Boulogne-Sur-Mer, January 22.--Our correspondent writes: + +"A fearful accident has thrown our sea-faring population, which has +suffered so much in the last two years, into the greatest consternation. +The fishing smack commanded by Captain Javel, on entering the harbor was +wrecked on the rocks of the harbor breakwater. + +"In spite of the efforts of the life boat and the shooting of life lines +from the shore four sailors and the cabin boy were lost. + +"The rough weather continues. Fresh disasters are anticipated." + +Who is this Captain Javel? Is he the brother of the one-armed man? + +If the poor man tossed about in the waves and dead, perhaps, beneath his +wrecked boat, is the one I am thinking of, he took part, just eighteen +years ago, in another tragedy, terrible and simple as are all these +fearful tragedies of the sea. + +Javel, senior, was then master of a trawling smack. + +The trawling smack is the ideal fishing boat. So solidly built that it +fears no weather, with a round bottom, tossed about unceasingly on the +waves like a cork, always on top, always thrashed by the harsh salt winds +of the English Channel, it ploughs the sea unweariedly with bellying +sail, dragging along at its side a huge trawling net, which scours the +depths of the ocean, and detaches and gathers in all the animals asleep +in the rocks, the flat fish glued to the sand, the heavy crabs with their +curved claws, and the lobsters with their pointed mustaches. + +When the breeze is fresh and the sea choppy, the boat starts in to trawl. +The net is fastened all along a big log of wood clamped with iron and is +let down by two ropes on pulleys at either end of the boat. And the +boat, driven by the wind and the tide, draws along this apparatus which +ransacks and plunders the depths of the sea. + +Javel had on board his younger brother, four sailors and a cabin boy. He +had set sail from Boulogne on a beautiful day to go trawling. + +But presently a wind sprang up, and a hurricane obliged the smack to run +to shore. She gained the English coast, but the high sea broke against +the rocks and dashed on the beach, making it impossible to go into port, +filling all the harbor entrances with foam and noise and danger. + +The smack started off again, riding on the waves, tossed, shaken, +dripping, buffeted by masses of water, but game in spite of everything; +accustomed to this boisterous weather, which sometimes kept it roving +between the two neighboring countries without its being able to make port +in either. + +At length the hurricane calmed down just as they were in the open, and +although the sea was still high the captain gave orders to cast the net. + +So it was lifted overboard, and two men in the bows and two in the stern +began to unwind the ropes that held it. It suddenly touched bottom, but +a big wave made the boat heel, and Javel, junior, who was in the bows +directing the lowering of the net, staggered, and his arm was caught in +the rope which the shock had slipped from the pulley for an instant. He +made a desperate effort to raise the rope with the other hand, but the +net was down and the taut rope did not give. + +The man cried out in agony. They all ran to his aid. His brother left +the rudder. They all seized the rope, trying to free the arm it was +bruising. But in vain. "We must cut it," said a sailor, and he took +from his pocket a big knife, which, with two strokes, could save young +Javel's arm. + +But if the rope were cut the trawling net would be lost, and this net was +worth money, a great deal of money, fifteen hundred francs. And it +belonged to Javel, senior, who was tenacious of his property. + +"No, do not cut, wait, I will luff," he cried, in great distress. And he +ran to the helm and turned the rudder. But the boat scarcely obeyed it, +being impeded by the net which kept it from going forward, and prevented +also by the force of the tide and the wind. + +Javel, junior, had sunk on his knees, his teeth clenched, his eyes +haggard. He did not utter a word. His brother came back to him, in +dread of the sailor's knife. + +"Wait, wait," he said. "We will let down the anchor." + +They cast anchor, and then began to turn the capstan to loosen the +moorings of the net. They loosened them at length and disengaged the +imprisoned arm, in its bloody woolen sleeve. + +Young Javel seemed like an idiot. They took off his jersey and saw a +horrible sight, a mass of flesh from which the blood spurted as if from a +pump. Then the young man looked at his arm and murmured: "Foutu" (done +for). + +Then, as the blood was making a pool on the deck of the boat, one of the +sailors cried: "He will bleed to death, we must bind the vein." + +So they took a cord, a thick, brown, tarry cord, and twisting it around +the arm above the wound, tightened it with all their might. The blood +ceased to spurt by slow degrees, and, presently, stopped altogether. + +Young Javel rose, his arm hanging at his side. He took hold of it with +the other hand, raised it, turned it over, shook it. It was all mashed, +the bones broken, the muscles alone holding it together. He looked at it +sadly, reflectively. Then he sat down on a folded sail and his comrades +advised him to keep wetting the arm constantly to prevent it from +mortifying. + +They placed a pail of water beside him, and every few minutes he dipped a +glass into it and bathed the frightful wound, letting the clear water +trickle on to it. + +"You would be better in the cabin," said his brother. He went down, but +came up again in an hour, not caring to be alone. And, besides, he +preferred the fresh air. He sat down again on his sail and began to +bathe his arm. + +They made a good haul. The broad fish with their white bellies lay +beside him, quivering in the throes of death; he looked at them as he +continued to bathe his crushed flesh. + +As they were about to return to Boulogne the wind sprang up anew, and the +little boat resumed its mad course, bounding and tumbling about, shaking +up the poor wounded man. + +Night came on. The sea ran high until dawn. As the sun rose the English +coast was again visible, but, as the weather had abated a little, they +turned back towards the French coast, tacking as they went. + +Towards evening Javel, junior, called his comrades and showed them some +black spots, all the horrible tokens of mortification in the portion of +the arm below the broken bones. + +The sailors examined it, giving their opinion. + +"That might be the 'Black,'" thought one. + +"He should put salt water on it," said another. + +They brought some salt water and poured it on the wound. The injured man +became livid, ground his teeth and writhed a little, but did not exclaim. + +Then, as soon as the smarting had abated, he said to his brother: + +"Give me your knife." + +The brother handed it to him. + +"Hold my arm up, quite straight, and pull it." + +They did as he asked them. + +Then he began to cut off his arm. He cut gently, carefully, severing al +the tendons with this blade that was sharp as a razor. And, presently, +there was only a stump left. He gave a deep sigh and said: + +"It had to be done. It was done for." + +He seemed relieved and breathed loud. He then began again to pour water +on the stump of arm that remained. + +The sea was still rough and they could not make the shore. + +When the day broke, Javel, junior, took the severed portion of his arm +and examined it for a long time. Gangrene had set in. His comrades also +examined it and handed it from one to the other, feeling it, turning it +over, and sniffing at it. + +"You must throw that into the sea at once," said his brother. + +But Javel, junior, got angry. + +"Oh, no! Oh, no! I don't want to. It belongs to me, does it not, as it +is my arm?" + +And he took and placed it between his feet. + +"It will putrefy, just the same," said the older brother. Then an idea +came to the injured man. In order to preserve the fish when the boat was +long at sea, they packed it in salt, in barrels. He asked: + +"Why can I not put it in pickle?" + +"Why, that's a fact," exclaimed the others. + +Then they emptied one of the barrels, which was full from the haul of the +last few days; and right at the bottom of the barrel they laid the +detached arm. They covered it with salt, and then put back the fish one +by one. + +One of the sailors said by way of joke: + +"I hope we do not sell it at auction." + +And everyone laughed, except the two Javels. + +The wind was still boisterous. They tacked within sight of Boulogne +until the following morning at ten o'clock. Young Javel continued to +bathe his wound. From time to time he rose and walked from one end to +the other of the boat. + +His brother, who was at the tiller, followed him with glances, and shook +his head. + +At last they ran into harbor. + +The doctor examined the wound and pronounced it to be in good condition. +He dressed it properly and ordered the patient to rest. But Javel would +not go to bed until he got back his severed arm, and he returned at once +to the dock to look for the barrel which he had marked with a cross. + +It was emptied before him and he seized the arm, which was well preserved +in the pickle, had shrunk and was freshened. He wrapped it up in a towel +he had brought for the purpose and took it home. + +His wife and children looked for a long time at this fragment of their +father, feeling the fingers, and removing the grains of salt that were +under the nails. Then they sent for a carpenter to make a little coffin. + +The next day the entire crew of the trawling smack followed the funeral +of the detached arm. The two brothers, side by side, led the procession; +the parish beadle carried the corpse under his arm. + +Javel, junior, gave up the sea. He obtained a small position on the +dock, and when he subsequently talked about his accident, he would say +confidentially to his auditors: + +"If my brother had been willing to cut away the net, I should still have +my arm, that is sure. But he was thinking only of his property." + + + + + + +MINUET + +Great misfortunes do not affect me very much, said John Bridelle, an old +bachelor who passed for a sceptic. I have seen war at quite close +quarters; I walked across corpses without any feeling of pity. The great +brutal facts of nature, or of humanity, may call forth cries of horror or +indignation, but do not cause us that tightening of the heart, that +shudder that goes down your spine at sight of certain little heartrending +episodes. + +The greatest sorrow that anyone can experience is certainly the loss of a +child, to a mother; and the loss of his mother, to a man. It is intense, +terrible, it rends your heart and upsets your mind; but one is healed of +these shocks, just as large bleeding wounds become healed. Certain +meetings, certain things half perceived, or surmised, certain secret +sorrows, certain tricks of fate which awake in us a whole world of +painful thoughts, which suddenly unclose to us the mysterious door of +moral suffering, complicated, incurable; all the deeper because they +appear benign, all the more bitter because they are intangible, all the +more tenacious because they appear almost factitious, leave in our souls +a sort of trail of sadness, a taste of bitterness, a feeling of +disenchantment, from which it takes a long time to free ourselves. + +I have always present to my mind two or three things that others would +surely not have noticed, but which penetrated my being like fine, sharp +incurable stings. + +You might not perhaps understand the emotion that I retained from these +hasty impressions. I will tell you one of them. She was very old, but +as lively as a young girl. It may be that my imagination alone is +responsible for my emotion. + +I am fifty. I was young then and studying law. I was rather sad, +somewhat of a dreamer, full of a pessimistic philosophy and did not care +much for noisy cafes, boisterous companions, or stupid girls. I rose +early and one of my chief enjoyments was to walk alone about eight +o'clock in the morning in the nursery garden of the Luxembourg. + +You people never knew that nursery garden. It was like a forgotten +garden of the last century, as pretty as the gentle smile of an old lady. +Thick hedges divided the narrow regular paths,--peaceful paths between +two walls of carefully trimmed foliage. The gardener's great shears were +pruning unceasingly these leafy partitions, and here and there one came +across beds of flowers, lines of little trees looking like schoolboys out +for a walk, companies of magnificent rose bushes, or regiments of fruit +trees. + +An entire corner of this charming spot was in habited by bees. Their +straw hives skillfully arranged at distances on boards had their +entrances--as large as the opening of a thimble--turned towards the sun, +and all along the paths one encountered these humming and gilded flies, +the true masters of this peaceful spot, the real promenaders of these +quiet paths. + +I came there almost every morning. I sat down on a bench and read. +Sometimes I let my book fall on my knees, to dream, to listen to the life +of Paris around me, and to enjoy the infinite repose of these old- +fashioned hedges. + +But I soon perceived that I was not the only one to frequent this spot as +soon as the gates were opened, and I occasionally met face to face, at a +turn in the path, a strange little old man. + +He wore shoes with silver buckles, knee-breeches, a snuff-colored frock +coat, a lace jabot, and an outlandish gray hat with wide brim and long- +haired surface that might have come out of the ark. + +He was thin, very thin, angular, grimacing and smiling. His bright eyes +were restless beneath his eyelids which blinked continuously. He always +carried in his hand a superb cane with a gold knob, which must have been +for him some glorious souvenir. + +This good man astonished me at first, then caused me the intensest +interest. I watched him through the leafy walls, I followed him at a +distance, stopping at a turn in the hedge so as not to be seen. + +And one morning when he thought he was quite alone, he began to make the +most remarkable motions. First he would give some little springs, then +make a bow; then, with his slim legs, he would give a lively spring in +the air, clapping his feet as he did so, and then turn round cleverly, +skipping and frisking about in a comical manner, smiling as if he had an +audience, twisting his poor little puppet-like body, bowing pathetic and +ridiculous little greetings into the empty air. He was dancing. + +I stood petrified with amazement, asking myself which of us was crazy, he +or I. + +He stopped suddenly, advanced as actors do on the stage, then bowed and +retreated with gracious smiles, and kissing his hand as actors do, his +trembling hand, to the two rows of trimmed bushes. + +Then he continued his walk with a solemn demeanor. + +After that I never lost sight of him, and each morning he began anew his +outlandish exercises. + +I was wildly anxious to speak to him. I decided to risk it, and one day, +after greeting him, I said: + +"It is a beautiful day, monsieur." + +He bowed. + +"Yes, sir, the weather is just as it used to be." + +A week later we were friends and I knew his history. He had been a +dancing master at the opera, in the time of Louis XV. His beautiful cane +was a present from the Comte de Clermont. And when we spoke about +dancing he never stopping talking. + +One day he said to me: + +"I married La Castris, monsieur. I will introduce you to her if you wish +it, but she does not get here till later. This garden, you see, is our +delight and our life. It is all that remains of former days. It seems +as though we could not exist if we did not have it. It is old and +distingue, is it not? I seem to breathe an air here that has not changed +since I was young. My wife and I pass all our afternoons here, but I +come in the morning because I get up early." + +As soon as I had finished luncheon I returned to the Luxembourg, and +presently perceived my friend offering his arm ceremoniously to a very +old little lady dressed in black, to whom he introduced me. It was La +Castris, the great dancer, beloved by princes, beloved by the king, +beloved by all that century of gallantry that seems to have left behind +it in the world an atmosphere of love. + +We sat down on a bench. It was the month of May. An odor of flowers +floated in the neat paths; a hot sun glided its rays between the branches +and covered us with patches of light. The black dress of La Castris +seemed to be saturated with sunlight. + +The garden was empty. We heard the rattling of vehicles in the distance. + +"Tell me," I said to the old dancer, "what was the minuet?" + +He gave a start. + +"The minuet, monsieur, is the queen of dances, and the dance of queens, +do you understand? Since there is no longer any royalty, there is no +longer any minuet." + +And he began in a pompous manner a long dithyrambic eulogy which I could +not understand. I wanted to have the steps, the movements, the +positions, explained to me. He became confused, was amazed at his +inability to make me understand, became nervous and worried. + +Then suddenly, turning to his old companion who had remained silent and +serious, he said: + +"Elise, would you like--say--would you like, it would be very nice of +you, would you like to show this gentleman what it was?" + +She turned eyes uneasily in all directions, then rose without saying a +word and took her position opposite him. + +Then I witnessed an unheard-of thing. + +They advanced and retreated with childlike grimaces, smiling, swinging +each other, bowing, skipping about like two automaton dolls moved by some +old mechanical contrivance, somewhat damaged, but made by a clever +workman according to the fashion of his time. + +And I looked at them, my heart filled with extraordinary emotions, my +soul touched with an indescribable melancholy. I seemed to see before me +a pathetic and comical apparition, the out-of-date ghost of a former +century. + +They suddenly stopped. They had finished all the figures of the dance. +For some seconds they stood opposite each other, smiling in an +astonishing manner. Then they fell on each other's necks sobbing. + +I left for the provinces three days later. I never saw them again. +When I returned to Paris, two years later, the nursery had been +destroyed. What became of them, deprived of the dear garden of former +days, with its mazes, its odor of the past, and the graceful windings of +its hedges? + +Are they dead? Are they wandering among modern streets like hopeless +exiles? Are they dancing--grotesque spectres--a fantastic minuet in the +moonlight, amid the cypresses of a cemetery, along the pathways bordered +by graves? + +Their memory haunts me, obsesses me, torments me, remains with me like a +wound. Why? I do not know. + +No doubt you think that very absurd? + + + + + + +THE SON + +The two old friends were walking in the garden in bloom, where spring was +bringing everything to life. + +One was a senator, the other a member of the French Academy, both serious +men, full of very logical but solemn arguments, men of note and +reputation. + +They talked first of politics, exchanging opinions; not on ideas, but on +men, personalities in this regard taking the predominance over ability. +Then they recalled some memories. Then they walked along in silence, +enervated by the warmth of the air. + +A large bed of wallflowers breathed out a delicate sweetness. A mass of +flowers of all species and color flung their fragrance to the breeze, +while a cytisus covered with yellow clusters scattered its fine pollen +abroad, a golden cloud, with an odor of honey that bore its balmy seed +across space, similar to the sachet-powders of perfumers. + +The senator stopped, breathed in the cloud of floating pollen, looked at +the fertile shrub, yellow as the sun, whose seed was floating in the air, +and said: + +"When one considers that these imperceptible fragrant atoms will create +existences at a hundred leagues from here, will send a thrill through the +fibres and sap of female trees and produce beings with roots, growing +from a germ, just as we do, mortal like ourselves, and who will be +replaced by other beings of the same order, like ourselves again!" + +And, standing in front of the brilliant cytisus, whose live pollen was +shaken off by each breath of air, the senator added: + +"Ah, old fellow, if you had to keep count of all your children you would +be mightily embarrassed. Here is one who generates freely, and then lets +them go without a pang and troubles himself no more about them." + +"We do the same, my friend," said the academician. + +"Yes, I do not deny it; we let them go sometimes," resumed the senator, +"but we are aware that we do, and that constitutes our superiority." + +"No, that is not what I mean," said the other, shaking his head. +"You see, my friend, that there is scarcely a man who has not some +children that he does not know, children--'father unknown'--whom he has +generated almost unconsciously, just as this tree reproduces. + +"If we had to keep account of our amours, we should be just as +embarrassed as this cytisus which you apostrophized would be in counting +up his descendants, should we not? + +"From eighteen to forty years, in fact, counting in every chance cursory +acquaintanceship, we may well say that we have been intimate with two or +three hundred women. + +"Well, then, my friend, among this number can you be sure that you have +not had children by at least one of them, and that you have not in the +streets, or in the bagnio, some blackguard of a son who steals from and +murders decent people, i.e., ourselves; or else a daughter in some +disreputable place, or, if she has the good fortune to be deserted by her +mother, as cook in some family? + +"Consider, also, that almost all those whom we call 'prostitutes' have +one or two children of whose paternal parentage they are ignorant, +generated by chance at the price of ten or twenty francs. In every +business there is profit and loss. These wildings constitute the 'loss' +in their profession. Who generated them? You--I--we all did, the men +called 'gentlemen'! They are the consequences of our jovial little +dinners, of our gay evenings, of those hours when our comfortable +physical being impels us to chance liaisons. + +"Thieves, marauders, all these wretches, in fact, are our children. +And that is better for us than if we were their children, for those +scoundrels generate also! + +"I have in my mind a very horrible story that I will relate to you. It +has caused me incessant remorse, and, further than that, a continual +doubt, a disquieting uncertainty, that, at times, torments me +frightfully. + +"When I was twenty-five I undertook a walking tour through Brittany with +one of my friends, now a member of the cabinet. + +"After walking steadily for fifteen or twenty days and visiting the +Cotes-du-Nord and part of Finistere we reached Douarnenez. From there we +went without halting to the wild promontory of Raz by the bay of Les +Trepaases, and passed the night in a village whose name ends in 'of.' +The next morning a strange lassitude kept my friend in bed; I say bed +from habit, for our couch consisted simply of two bundles of straw. + +"It would never do to be ill in this place. So I made him get up, and we +reached Andierne about four or five o'clock in the evening. + +"The following day he felt a little better, and we set out again. But on +the road he was seized with intolerable pain, and we could scarcely get +as far as Pont Labbe. + +"Here, at least, there was an inn. My friend went to bed, and the +doctor, who had been sent for from Quimper, announced that he had a high +fever, without being able to determine its nature. + +"Do you know Pont Labbe? No? Well, then, it is the most Breton of all +this Breton Brittany, which extends from the promontory of Raz to the +Morbihan, of this land which contains the essence of the Breton manners, +legends and customs. Even to-day this corner of the country has scarcely +changed. I say 'even to-day,' for I now go there every year, alas! + +"An old chateau laves the walls of its towers in a great melancholy pond, +melancholy and frequented by flights of wild birds. It has an outlet in +a river on which boats can navigate as far as the town. In the narrow +streets with their old-time houses the men wear big hats, embroidered +waistcoats and four coats, one on top of the other; the inside one, as +large as your hand, barely covering the shoulder-blades, and the outside +one coming to just above the seat of the trousers. + +"The girls, tall, handsome and fresh have their bosoms crushed in a cloth +bodice which makes an armor, compresses them, not allowing one even to +guess at their robust and tortured neck. They also wear a strange +headdress. On their temples two bands embroidered in colors frame their +face, inclosing the hair, which falls in a shower at the back of their +heads, and is then turned up and gathered on top of the head under a +singular cap, often woven with gold or silver thread. + +"The servant at our inn was eighteen at most, with very blue eyes, a pale +blue with two tiny black pupils, short teeth close together, which she +showed continually when she laughed, and which seemed strong enough to +grind granite. + +"She did not know a word of French, speaking only Breton, as did most of +her companions. + +"As my friend did not improve much, and although he had no definite +malady, the doctor forbade him to continue his journey yet, ordering +complete rest. I spent my days with him, and the little maid would come +in incessantly, bringing either my dinner or some herb tea. + +"I teased her a little, which seemed to amuse her, but we did not chat, +of course, as we could not understand each other. + +"But one night, after I had stayed quite late with my friend and was +going back to my room, I passed the girl, who was going to her room. +It was just opposite my open door, and, without reflection, and more for +fun than anything else, I abruptly seized her round the waist, and before +she recovered from her astonishment I had thrown her down and locked her +in my room. She looked at me, amazed, excited, terrified, not daring to +cry out for fear of a scandal and of being probably driven out, first by +her employers and then, perhaps, by her father. + +"I did it as a joke at first. She defended herself bravely, and at the +first chance she ran to the door, drew back the bolt and fled. + +"I scarcely saw her for several days. She would not let me come near +her. But when my friend was cured and we were to get out on our travels +again I saw her coming into my room about midnight the night before our +departure, just after I had retired. + +"She threw herself into my arms and embraced me passionately, giving me +all the assurances of tenderness and despair that a woman can give when +she does not know a word of our language. + +"A week later I had forgotten this adventure, so common and frequent when +one is travelling, the inn servants being generally destined to amuse +travellers in this way. + +"I was thirty before I thought of it again, or returned to Pont Labbe. + +"But in 1876 I revisited it by chance during a trip into Brittany, which +I made in order to look up some data for a book and to become permeated +with the atmosphere of the different places. + +"Nothing seemed changed. The chateau still laved its gray wall in the +pond outside the little town; the inn was the same, though it had been +repaired, renovated and looked more modern. As I entered it I was +received by two young Breton girls of eighteen, fresh and pretty, bound +up in their tight cloth bodices, with their silver caps and wide +embroidered bands on their ears. + +"It was about six o'clock in the evening. I sat down to dinner, and as +the host was assiduous in waiting on me himself, fate, no doubt, impelled +me to say: + +"'Did you know the former proprietors of this house? I spent about ten +days here thirty years ago. I am talking old times.' + +"'Those were my parents, monsieur,' he replied. + +"Then I told him why we had stayed over at that time, how my comrade had +been delayed by illness. He did not let me finish. + +"'Oh, I recollect perfectly. I was about fifteen or sixteen. You slept +in the room at the end and your friend in the one I have taken for +myself, overlooking the street.' + +"It was only then that the recollection of the little maid came vividly +to my mind. I asked : 'Do you remember a pretty little servant who was +then in your father's employ, and who had, if my memory does not deceive +me, pretty eyes and freshlooking teeth?' + +"'Yes, monsieur; she died in childbirth some time after.' + +"And, pointing to the courtyard where a thin, lame man was stirring up +the manure, he added: + +"'That is her son.' + +"I began to laugh: + +"'He is not handsome and does not look much like his mother. No doubt he +looks like his father.' + +"'That is very possible,' replied the innkeeper; 'but we never knew whose +child it was. She died without telling any one, and no one here knew of +her having a beau. Every one was hugely astonished when they heard she +was enceinte, and no one would believe it.' + +"A sort of unpleasant chill came over me, one of those painful surface +wounds that affect us like the shadow of an impending sorrow. And I +looked at the man in the yard. He had just drawn water for the horses +and was carrying two buckets, limping as he walked, with a painful effort +of his shorter leg. His clothes were ragged, he was hideously dirty, +with long yellow hair, so tangled that it looked like strands of rope +falling down at either side of his face. + +"'He is not worth much,' continued the innkeeper; 'we have kept him for +charity's sake. Perhaps he would have turned out better if he had been +brought up like other folks. But what could one do, monsieur? No +father, no mother, no money! My parents took pity on him, but he was not +their child, you understand.' + +"I said nothing. + +"I slept in my old room, and all night long I thought of this frightful +stableman, saying to myself: 'Supposing it is my own son? Could I have +caused that girl's death and procreated this being? It was quite +possible!' + +"I resolved to speak to this man and to find out the exact date of his +birth. A variation of two months would set my doubts at rest. + +"I sent for him the next day. But he could not speak French. He looked +as if he could not understand anything, being absolutely ignorant of his +age, which I had inquired of him through one of the maids. He stood +before me like an idiot, twirling his hat in 'his knotted, disgusting +hands, laughing stupidly, with something of his mother's laugh in the +corners of his mouth and of his eyes. + +"The landlord, appearing on the scene, went to look for the birth +certificate of this wretched being. He was born eight months and twenty- +six days after my stay at Pont Labbe, for I recollect perfectly that we +reached Lorient on the fifteenth of August. The certificate contained +this description: 'Father unknown.' The mother called herself Jeanne +Kerradec. + +"Then my heart began to beat rapidly. I could not utter a word, for I +felt as if I were choking. I looked at this animal whose long yellow +hair reminded me of a straw heap, and the beggar, embarrassed by my gaze, +stopped laughing, turned his head aside, and wanted to get away. + +"All day long I wandered beside the little river, giving way to painful +reflections. But what was the use of reflection? I could be sure of +nothing. For hours and hours I weighed all the pros and cons in favor of +or against the probability of my being the father, growing nervous over +inexplicable suppositions, only to return incessantly to the same +horrible uncertainty, then to the still more atrocious conviction that +this man was my son. + +"I could eat no dinner, and went to my room. + +I lay awake for a long time, and when I finally fell asleep I was haunted +by horrible visions. I saw this laborer laughing in my face and calling +me 'papa.' Then he changed into a dog and bit the calves of my legs, and +no matter how fast I ran he still followed me, and instead of barking, +talked and reviled me. Then he appeared before my colleagues at the +Academy, who had assembled to decide whether I was really his father; and +one of them cried out: 'There can be no doubt about it! See how he +resembles him.' And, indeed, I could see that this monster looked like +me. And I awoke with this idea fixed in my mind and with an insane +desire to see the man again and assure myself whether or not we had +similar features. + +"I joined him as he was going to mass (it was Sunday) and I gave him five +francs as I gazed at him anxiously. He began to laugh in an idiotic +manner, took the money, and then, embarrassed afresh at my gaze, he ran +off, after stammering an almost inarticulate word that, no doubt, meant +'thank you.' + +"My day passed in the same distress of mind as on the previous night. +I sent for the landlord, and, with the greatest caution, skill and tact, +I told him that I was interested in this poor creature, so abandoned by +every one and deprived of everything, and I wished to do something for +him. + +"But the man replied: 'Oh, do not think of it, monsieur; he is of no +account; you will only cause yourself annoyance. I employ him to clean +out the stable, and that is all he can do. I give him his board and let +him sleep with the horses. He needs nothing more. If you have an old +pair of trousers, you might give them to him, but they will be in rags in +a week.' + +"I did not insist, intending to think it over. + +"The poor wretch came home that evening frightfully drunk, came near +setting fire to the house, killed a horse by hitting it with a pickaxe, +and ended up by lying down to sleep in the mud in the midst of the +pouring rain, thanks to my donation. + +"They begged me next day not to give him any more money. Brandy drove +him crazy, and as soon as he had two sous in his pocket he would spend +it in drink. The landlord added: 'Giving him money is like trying to +kill him.' The man had never, never in his life had more than a few +centimes, thrown to him by travellers, and he knew of no destination for +this metal but the wine shop. + +"I spent several hours in my room with an open book before me which I +pretended to read, but in reality looking at this animal, my son! my son! +trying to discover if he looked anything like me. After careful scrutiny +I seemed to recognize a similarity in the lines of the forehead and the +root of the nose, and I was soon convinced that there was a resemblance, +concealed by the difference in garb and the man's hideous head of hair. + +"I could not stay here any longer without arousing suspicion, and I went +away, my heart crushed, leaving with the innkeeper some money to soften +the existence of his servant. + +"For six years now I have lived with this idea in my mind, this horrible +uncertainty, this abominable suspicion. And each year an irresistible +force takes me back to Pont Labbe. Every year I condemn myself to the +torture of seeing this animal raking the manure, imagining that he +resembles me, and endeavoring, always vainly, to render him some +assistance. And each year I return more uncertain, more tormented, more +worried. + +"I tried to have him taught, but he is a hopeless idiot. I tried to make +his life less hard. He is an irreclaimable drunkard, and spends in drink +all the money one gives him, and knows enough to sell his new clothes in +order to get brandy. + +"I tried to awaken his master's sympathy, so that he should look after +him, offering to pay him for doing so. The innkeeper, finally surprised, +said, very wisely: 'All that you do for him, monsieur, will only help to +destroy him. He must be kept like a prisoner. As soon as he has any +spare time, or any comfort, he becomes wicked. If you wish to do good, +there is no lack of abandoned children, but select one who will +appreciate your attention.' + +"What could I say? + +"If I allowed the slightest suspicion of the doubts that tortured me to +escape, this idiot would assuredly become cunning, in order to blackmail +me, to compromise me and ruin me. He would call out 'papa,' as in my +dream. + +"And I said to myself that I had killed the mother and lost this +atrophied creature, this larva of the stable, born and raised amid the +manure, this man who, if brought up like others, would have been like +others. + +"And you cannot imagine what a strange, embarrassed and intolerable +feeling comes over me when he stands before me and I reflect that he came +from myself, that he belongs to me through the intimate bond that links +father and son, that, thanks to the terrible law of heredity, he is my +own self in a thousand ways, in his blood and his flesh, and that he has +even the same germs of disease, the same leaven of emotions. + +"I have an incessant restless, distressing longing to see him, and the +sight of him causes me intense suffering, as I look down from my window +and watch him for hours removing and carting the horse manure, saying to +myself: 'That is my son.' + +"And I sometimes feel an irresistible longing to embrace him. I have +never even touched his dirty hand." + +The academician was silent. His companion, a tactful man, murmured: +"Yes, indeed, we ought to take a closer interest in children who have no +father." + +A gust of wind passing through the tree shook its yellow clusters, +enveloping in a fragrant and delicate mist the two old men, who inhaled +in the fragrance with deep breaths. + +The senator added: "It is good to be twenty-five and even to have +children like that." + + + + + + +THAT PIG OF A MORIN + +"Here, my friend," I said to Labarbe, "you have just repeated those five +words, that pig of a Morin. Why on earth do I never hear Morin's name +mentioned without his being called a pig?" + +Labarbe, who is a deputy, looked at me with his owl-like eyes and said: +"Do you mean to say that you do not know Morin's story and you come from +La Rochelle?" I was obliged to declare that I did not know Morin's story, +so Labarbe rubbed his hands and began his recital. + +"You knew Morin, did you not, and you remember his large linen-draper's +shop on the Quai de la Rochelle?" + +"Yes, perfectly." + +"Well, then. You must know that in 1862 or '63 Morin went to spend a +fortnight in Paris for pleasure; or for his pleasures, but under the +pretext of renewing his stock, and you also know what a fortnight in +Paris means to a country shopkeeper; it fires his blood. The theatre +every evening, women's dresses rustling up against you and continual +excitement; one goes almost mad with it. One sees nothing but dancers in +tights, actresses in very low dresses, round legs, fat shoulders, all +nearly within reach of one's hands, without daring, or being able, to +touch them, and one scarcely tastes food. When one leaves the city one's +heart is still all in a flutter and one's mind still exhilarated by a +sort of longing for kisses which tickles one's lips. + +"Morin was in that condition when he took his ticket for La Rochelle by +the eight-forty night express. As he was walking up and down the +waiting-room at the station he stopped suddenly in front of a young lady +who was kissing an old one. She had her veil up, and Morin murmured with +delight: 'By Jove what a pretty woman!' + +"When she had said 'good-by' to the old lady she went into the waiting- +room, and Morin followed her; then she went on the platform and Morin +still followed her; then she got into an empty carriage, and he again +followed her. There were very few travellers on the express. The engine +whistled and the train started. They were alone. Morin devoured her +with his eyes. She appeared to be about nineteen or twenty and was fair, +tall, with a bold look. She wrapped a railway rug round her and +stretched herself on the seat to sleep. + +"Morin asked himself: 'I wonder who she is?' And a thousand conjectures, +a thousand projects went through his head. He said to himself: 'So many +adventures are told as happening on railway journeys that this may be one +that is going to present itself to me. Who knows? A piece of good luck +like that happens very suddenly, and perhaps I need only be a little +venturesome. Was it not Danton who said: "Audacity, more audacity and +always audacity"? If it was not Danton it was Mirabeau, but that does +not matter. But then I have no audacity, and that is the difficulty. +Oh! If one only knew, if one could only read people's minds! I will bet +that every day one passes by magnificent opportunities without knowing +it, though a gesture would be enough to let me know her mind.' + +"Then he imagined to himself combinations which conducted him to triumph. +He pictured some chivalrous deed or merely some slight service which he +rendered her, a lively, gallant conversation which ended in a +declaration. + +"But he could find no opening, had no pretext, and he waited for some +fortunate circumstance, with his heart beating and his mind topsy-turvy. +The night passed and the pretty girl still slept, while Morin was +meditating his own fall. The day broke and soon the first ray of +sunlight appeared in the sky, a long, clear ray which shone on the face +of the sleeping girl and woke her. She sat up, looked at the country, +then at Morin and smiled. She smiled like a happy woman, with an +engaging and bright look, and Morin trembled. Certainly that smile was +intended for him; it was discreet invitation, the signal which he was +waiting for. That smile meant to say: 'How stupid, what a ninny, what a +dolt, what a donkey you are, to have sat there on your seat like a post +all night! + +"'Just look at me, am I not charming? And you have sat like that for the +whole night, when you have been alone with a pretty woman, you great +simpleton!' + +"She was still smiling as she looked at him; she even began to laugh; and +he lost his head trying to find something suitable to say, no matter +what. But he could think of nothing, nothing, and then, seized with a +coward's courage, he said to himself: + +'So much the worse, I will risk everything,' and suddenly, without the +slightest warning, he went toward her, his arms extended, his lips +protruding, and, seizing her in his arms, he kissed her. + +"She sprang up immediately with a bound, crying out: 'Help! help!' and +screaming with terror; and then she opened the carriage door and waved +her arm out, mad with terror and trying to jump out, while Morin, who was +almost distracted and feeling sure that she would throw herself out, held +her by the skirt and stammered: 'Oh, madame! oh, madame!' + +"The train slackened speed and then stopped. Two guards rushed up at the +young woman's frantic signals. She threw herself into their arms, +stammering: 'That man wanted--wanted--to--to--' And then she fainted. + +"They were at Mauze station, and the gendarme on duty arrested Morin. +When the victim of his indiscreet admiration had regained her +consciousness, she made her charge against him, and the police drew it +up. The poor linen draper did not reach home till night, with a +prosecution hanging over him for an outrage to morals in a public place. + + +II + +"At that time I was editor of the Fanal des Charentes, and I used to meet +Morin every day at the Cafe du Commerce, and the day after his adventure. +he came to see me, as he did not know what to do. I did not hide my +opinion from him, but said to him: 'You are no better than a pig. No +decent man behaves like that.' + +"He cried. His wife had given him a beating, and he foresaw his trade +ruined, his name dragged through the mire and dishonored, his friends +scandalized and taking no notice of him. In the end he excited my pity, +and I sent for my colleague, Rivet, a jocular but very sensible little +man, to give us his advice. + +"He advised me to see the public prosecutor, who was a friend of mine, +and so I sent Morin home and went to call on the magistrate. He told me +that the woman who had been insulted was a young lady, Mademoiselle +Henriette Bonnel, who had just received her certificate as governess in +Paris and spent her holidays with her uncle and aunt, who were very +respectable tradespeople in Mauze. What made Morin's case all the more +serious was that the uncle had lodged a complaint, but the public +official had consented to let the matter drop if this complaint were +withdrawn, so we must try and get him to do this. + +"I went back to Morin's and found him in bed, ill with excitement and +distress. His wife, a tall raw-boned woman with a beard, was abusing him +continually, and she showed me into the room, shouting at me: 'So you +have come to see that pig of a Morin. Well, there he is, the darling!' +And she planted herself in front of the bed, with her hands on her hips. +I told him how matters stood, and he begged me to go and see the girl's +uncle and aunt. It was a delicate mission, but I undertook it, and the +poor devil never ceased repeating: 'I assure you I did not even kiss her; +no, not even that. I will take my oath to it!' + +"I replied: 'It is all the same; you are nothing but a pig.' And I took a +thousand francs which he gave me to employ as I thought best, but as I +did not care to venture to her uncle's house alone, I begged Rivet to go +with me, which he agreed to do on condition that we went immediately, for +he had some urgent business at La Rochelle that afternoon. So two hours +later we rang at the door of a pretty country house. An attractive girl +came and opened the door to us assuredly the young lady in question, and +I said to Rivet in a low voice: 'Confound it! I begin to understand +Morin!' + +"The uncle, Monsieur Tonnelet, subscribed to the Fanal, and was a fervent +political coreligionist of ours. He received us with open arms and +congratulated us and wished us joy; he was delighted at having the two +editors in his house, and Rivet whispered to me: 'I think we shall be +able to arrange the matter of that pig of a Morin for him.' + +"The niece had left the room and I introduced the delicate subject. +I waved the spectre of scandal before his eyes; I accentuated the +inevitable depreciation which the young lady would suffer if such an +affair became known, for nobody would believe in a simple kiss, and the +good man seemed undecided, but he could not make up his mind about +anything without his wife, who would not be in until late that evening. +But suddenly he uttered an exclamation of triumph: 'Look here, I have an +excellent idea; I will keep you here to dine and sleep, and when my wife +comes home I hope we shall be able to arrange matters: + +"Rivet resisted at first, but the wish to extricate that pig of a Morin +decided him, and we accepted the invitation, and the uncle got up +radiant, called his niece and proposed that we should take a stroll in +his grounds, saying: 'We will leave serious matters until the morning.' +Rivet and he began to talk politics, while I soon found myself lagging a +little behind with 'the girl who was really charming--charming--and with +the greatest precaution I began to speak to her about her adventure and +try to make her my ally. She did not, however, appear the least +confused, and listened to me like a person who was enjoying the whole +thing very much. + +"I said to her: 'Just think, mademoiselle, how unpleasant it will be for +you. You will have to appear in court, to encounter malicious looks, to +speak before everybody and to recount that unfortunate occurrence in the +railway carriage in public. Do you not think, between ourselves, that it +would have been much better for you to have put that dirty scoundrel back +in his place without calling for assistance, and merely to change your +carriage?' She began to laugh and replied: 'What you say is quite true, +but what could I do? I was frightened, and when one is frightened one +does not stop to reason with one's self. As soon as I realized the +situation I was very sorry, that I had called out, but then it was too +late. You must also remember that the idiot threw himself upon me like a +madman, without saying a word and looking like a lunatic. I did not even +know what he wanted of me.' + +"She looked me full in the face without being nervous or intimidated and +I said to myself: 'She is a queer sort of girl, that: I can quite see how +that pig Morin came to make a mistake,' and I went on jokingly: 'Come, +mademoiselle, confess that he was excusable, for, after all, a man cannot +find himself opposite such a pretty girl as you are without feeling a +natural desire to kiss her.' + +"She laughed more than ever and showed her teeth and said: 'Between the +desire and the act, monsieur, there is room for respect.' It was an odd +expression to use, although it was not very clear, and I asked abruptly: +'Well, now, suppose I were to kiss you, what would you do?' She stopped +to look at me from head to foot and then said calmly: 'Oh, you? That is +quite another matter.' + +"I knew perfectly well, by Jove, that it was not the same thing at all, +as everybody in the neighborhood called me 'Handsome Labarbe'--I was +thirty years old in those days--but I asked her: 'And why, pray?' She +shrugged her shoulders and replied: 'Well! because you are not so stupid +as he is.' And then she added, looking at me slyly: 'Nor so ugly, +either: And before she could make a movement to avoid me I had implanted +a hearty kiss on her cheek. She sprang aside, but it was too late, and +then she said: 'Well, you are not very bashful, either! But don't do +that sort of thing again.' + +"I put on a humble look and said in a low voice: 'Oh, mademoiselle! as +for me, if I long for one thing more than another it is to be summoned +before a magistrate for the same reason as Morin.' + +"'Why?' she asked. And, looking steadily at her, I replied: 'Because you +are one of the most beautiful creatures living; because it would be an +honor and a glory for me to have wished to offer you violence, and +because people would have said, after seeing you: "Well, Labarbe has +richly deserved what he has got, but he is a lucky fellow, all the +same.'" + +"She began to laugh heartily again and said: 'How funny you are!' And +she had not finished the word 'funny' before I had her in my arms and was +kissing her ardently wherever I could find a place, on her forehead, on +her eyes, on her lips occasionally, on her cheeks, all over her head, +some part of which she was obliged to leave exposed, in spite of herself, +to defend the others; but at last she managed to release herself, +blushing and angry. 'You are very unmannerly, monsieur,' she said, 'and +I am sorry I listened to you.' + +"I took her hand in some confusion and stammered out: 'I beg your pardon. +I beg your pardon, mademoiselle. I have offended you; I have acted like +a brute! Do not be angry with me for what I have done. If you knew--' +I vainly sought for some excuse, and in a few moments she said: 'There is +nothing for me to know, monsieur.' But I had found something to say, and +I cried: 'Mademoiselle, I love you!' + +"She was really surprised and raised her eyes to look at me, and I went +on: 'Yes, mademoiselle, and pray listen to me. I do not know Morin, and +I do not care anything about him. It does not matter to me the least if +he is committed for trial and locked up meanwhile. I saw you here last +year, and I was so taken with you that the thought of you has never left +me since, and it does not matter to me whether you believe me or not. +I thought you adorable, and the remembrance of you took such a hold on me +that I longed to see you again, and so I made use of that fool Morin as a +pretext, and here I am. Circumstances have made me exceed the due limits +of respect, and I can only beg you to pardon me.' + +"She looked at me to see if I was in earnest and was ready to smile +again. Then she murmured: 'You humbug!' But I raised my hand and said +in a sincere voice (and I really believe that I was sincere): 'I swear to +you that I am speaking the truth,' and she replied quite simply: 'Don't +talk nonsense!' + +"We were alone, quite alone, as Rivet and her uncle had disappeared down +a sidewalk, and I made her a real declaration of love, while I squeezed +and kissed her hands, and she listened to it as to something new and +agreeable, without exactly knowing how much of it she was to believe, +while in the end I felt agitated, and at last really myself believed what +I said. I was pale, anxious and trembling, and I gently put my arm round +her waist and spoke to her softly, whispering into the little curls over +her ears. She seemed in a trance, so absorbed in thought was she. + +"Then her hand touched mine, and she pressed it, and I gently squeezed +her waist with a trembling, and gradually firmer, grasp. She did not +move now, and I touched her cheek with my lips, and suddenly without +seeking them my lips met hers. It was a long, long kiss, and it would +have lasted longer still if I had not heard a hm! hm! just behind me, at +which she made her escape through the bushes, and turning round I saw +Rivet coming toward me, and, standing in the middle of the path, he said +without even smiling: 'So that is the way you settle the affair of that +pig of a Morin.' And I replied conceitedly: 'One does what one can, my +dear fellow. But what about the uncle? How have you got on with him? +I will answer for the niece.' 'I have not been so fortunate with him,' +he replied. + +"Whereupon I took his arm and we went indoors, + + +III + +"Dinner made me lose my head altogether. I sat beside her, and my hand +continually met hers under the tablecloth, my foot touched hers and our +glances met. + +"After dinner we took a walk by moonlight, and I whispered all the tender +things I could think of to her. I held her close to me, kissed her every +moment, while her uncle and Rivet were arguing as they walked in front of +us. They went in, and soon a messenger brought a telegram from her aunt, +saying that she would not return until the next morning at seven o'clock +by the first train. + +"'Very well, Henriette,' her uncle said, 'go and show the gentlemen their +rooms.' She showed Rivet his first, and he whispered to me: 'There was no +danger of her taking us into yours first.' Then she took me to my room, +and as soon as she was alone with me I took her in my arms again and +tried to arouse her emotion, but when she saw the danger she escaped out +of the room, and I retired very much put out and excited and feeling +rather foolish, for I knew that I should not sleep much, and I was +wondering how I could have committed such a mistake, when there was a +gentle knock at my door, and on my asking who was there a low voice +replied: 'I' + +"I dressed myself quickly and opened the door, and she came in. +'I forgot to ask you what you take in the morning,' she said; 'chocolate, +tea or coffee?' I put my arms round her impetuously and said, devouring +her with kisses: 'I will take--I will take--' + +"But she freed herself from my arms, blew out my candle and disappeared +and left me alone in the dark, furious, trying to find some matches, and +not able to do so. At last I got some and I went into the passage, +feeling half mad, with my candlestick in my hand. + +"What was I about to do? I did not stop to reason, I only wanted to find +her, and I would. I went a few steps without reflecting, but then I +suddenly thought: 'Suppose I should walk into the uncle's room what +should I say?' And I stood still, with my head a void and my heart +beating. But in a few moments I thought of an answer: 'Of course, I +shall say that I was looking for Rivet's room to speak to him about an +important matter,' and I began to inspect all the doors, trying to find +hers, and at last I took hold of a handle at a venture, turned it and +went in. There was Henriette, sitting on her bed and looking at me in +tears. So I gently turned the key, and going up to her on tiptoe I said: +'I forgot to ask you for something to read, mademoiselle.' + +"I was stealthily returning to my room when a rough hand seized me and a +voice--it was Rivet's -whispered in my ear: 'So you have not yet quite +settled that affair of Morin's?' + +"At seven o'clock the next morning Henriette herself brought me a cup of +chocolate. I never have drunk anything like it, soft, velvety, perfumed, +delicious. I could hardly take away my lips from the cup, and she had +hardly left the room when Rivet came in. He seemed nervous and +irritable, like a man who had not slept, and he said to me crossly: + +'If you go on like this you will end by spoiling the affair of that pig +of a Morin!' + +"At eight o'clock the aunt arrived. Our discussion was very short, for +they withdrew their complaint, and I left five hundred francs for the +poor of the town. They wanted to keep us for the day, and they arranged +an excursion to go and see some ruins. Henriette made signs to me to +stay, behind her parents' back, and I accepted, but Rivet was determined +to go, and though I took him aside and begged and prayed him to do this +for me, he appeared quite exasperated and kept saying to me: 'I have had +enough of that pig of a Morin's affair, do you hear?' + +"Of course I was obliged to leave also, and it was one of the hardest +moments of my life. I could have gone on arranging that business as long +as I lived, and when we were in the railway carriage, after shaking hands +with her in silence, I said to Rivet: 'You are a mere brute!' And he +replied: 'My dear fellow, you were beginning to annoy me confoundedly.' + +"On getting to the Fanal office, I saw a crowd waiting for us, and as +soon as they saw us they all exclaimed: 'Well, have you settled the +affair of that pig of a Morin?' All La Rochelle was excited about it, +and Rivet, who had got over his ill-humor on the journey, had great +difficulty in keeping himself from laughing as he said: 'Yes, we have +managed it, thanks to Labarbe: And we went to Morin's. + +"He was sitting in an easy-chair with mustard plasters on his legs and +cold bandages on his head, nearly dead with misery. He was coughing with +the short cough of a dying man, without any one knowing how he had caught +it, and his wife looked at him like a tigress ready to eat him, and as +soon as he saw us he trembled so violently as to make his hands and knees +shake, so I said to him immediately: 'It is all settled, you dirty scamp, +but don't do such a thing again.' + +"He got up, choking, took my hands and kissed them as if they had +belonged to a prince, cried, nearly fainted, embraced Rivet and even +kissed Madame Morin, who gave him such a push as to send him staggering +back into his chair; but he never got over the blow; his mind had been +too much upset. In all the country round, moreover, he was called +nothing but 'that pig of a Morin,' and that epithet went through him like +a sword-thrust every time he heard it. When a street boy called after +him 'Pig!' he turned his head instinctively. His friends also +overwhelmed him with horrible jokes and used to ask him, whenever they +were eating ham, 'Is it a bit of yourself?' He died two years later. + +"As for myself, when I was a candidate for the Chamber of Deputies in +1875, I called on the new notary at Fousserre, Monsieur Belloncle, to +solicit his vote, and a tall, handsome and evidently wealthy lady +received me. 'You do not know me again?' she said. And I stammered out: +'Why--no--madame.' 'Henriette Bonnel.' 'Ah!' And I felt myself turning +pale, while she seemed perfectly at her ease and looked at me with a +smile. + +"As soon as she had left me alone with her husband he took both my hands, +and, squeezing them as if he meant to crush them, he said: 'I have been +intending to go and see you for a long time, my dear sir, for my wife has +very often talked to me about you. I know--yes, I know under what +painful circumstances you made her acquaintance, and I know also how +perfectly you behaved, how full of delicacy, tact and devotion you showed +yourself in the affair--' He hesitated and then said in a lower tone, as +if he had been saying something low and coarse, 'in the affair of that +pig of a Morin.'" + + + + + + +SAINT ANTHONY + +They called him Saint Anthony, because his name was Anthony, and also, +perhaps, because he was a good fellow, jovial, a lover of practical +jokes, a tremendous eater and a heavy drinker and a gay fellow, although +he was sixty years old. + +He was a big peasant of the district of Caux, with a red face, large +chest and stomach, and perched on two legs that seemed too slight for the +bulk of his body. + +He was a widower and lived alone with his two men servants and a maid on +his farm, which he conducted with shrewd economy. He was careful of his +own interests, understood business and the raising of cattle, and +farming. His two sons and his three daughters, who had married well, +were living in the neighborhood and came to dine with their father once a +month. His vigor of body was famous in all the countryside. "He is as +strong as Saint Anthony," had become a kind of proverb. + +At the time of the Prussian invasion Saint Anthony, at the wine shop, +promised to eat an army, for he was a braggart, like a true Norman, a bit +of a, coward and a blusterer. He banged his fist on the wooden table, +making the cups and the brandy glasses dance, and cried with the assumed +wrath of a good fellow, with a flushed face and a sly look in his eye: +"I shall have to eat some of them, nom de Dieu!" He reckoned that the +Prussians would not come as far as Tanneville, but when he heard they +were at Rautot he never went out of the house, and constantly watched the +road from the little window of his kitchen, expecting at any moment to +see the bayonets go by. + +One morning as he was eating his luncheon with the servants the door +opened and the mayor of the commune, Maitre Chicot, appeared, followed by +a soldier wearing a black copper-pointed helmet. Saint Anthony bounded +to his feet and his servants all looked at him, expecting to see him +slash the Prussian. But he merely shook hands with the mayor, who said: + +"Here is one for you, Saint Anthony. They came last night. Don't do +anything foolish, above all things, for they talked of shooting and +burning everything if there is the slightest unpleasantness, I have given +you warning. Give him something to eat; he looks like a good fellow. +Good-day. I am going to call on the rest. There are enough for all." +And he went out. + +Father Anthony, who had turned pale, looked at the Prussian. He was a +big, young fellow with plump, white skin, blue eyes, fair hair, unshaven +to his cheek bones, who looked stupid, timid and good. The shrewd Norman +read him at once, and, reassured, he made him a sign to sit down. Then +he said: "Will you take some soup?" + +The stranger did not understand. Anthony then became bolder, and pushing +a plateful of soup right under his nose, he said: "Here, swallow that, +big pig! + +The soldier ,answered "Ya," and began to eat greedily, while the farmer, +triumphant, feeling he had regained his reputation, winked his eye at the +servants, who were making strange grimaces, what with their terror and +their desire to laugh. + +When the Prussian had devoured his soup, Saint Anthony gave him another +plateful, which disappeared in like manner; but he flinched at the third +which the farmer tried to insist on his eating, saying: "Come, put that +into your stomach; 'twill fatten you or it is your own fault, eh, pig!" + +The soldier, understanding only that they wanted to make him eat all his +soup, laughed in a contented manner, making a sign to show that he could +not hold any more. + +Then Saint Anthony, become quite familiar, tapped him on the stomach, +saying: "My, there is plenty in my pig's belly!" But suddenly he began +to writhe with laughter, unable to speak. An idea had struck him which +made him choke with mirth. "That's it, that's it, Saint Anthony and his +pig. There's my pig!" And the three servants burst out laughing in +their turn. + +The old fellow was so pleased that he had the brandy brought in, good +stuff, 'fil en dix', and treated every one. They clinked glasses with +the Prussian, who clacked his tongue by way of flattery to show that he +enjoyed it. And Saint Anthony exclaimed in his face: "Eh, is not that +superfine? You don't get anything like that in your home, pig!" + +From that time Father Anthony never went out without his Prussian. He +had got what he wanted. This was his vengeance, the vengeance of an old +rogue. And the whole countryside, which was in terror, laughed to split +its sides at Saint Anthony's joke. Truly, there was no one like him when +it came to humor. No one but he would have thought of a thing like that. +He was a born joker! + +He went to see his neighbors every day, arm in arm with his German, whom +he introduced in a jovial manner, tapping him on the shoulder: "See, here +is my pig; look and see if he is not growing fat, the animal!" + +And the peasants would beam with smiles. "He is so comical, that +reckless fellow, Antoine!" + +"I will sell him to you, Cesaire, for three pistoles" (thirty francs). + +"I will take him, Antoine, and I invite you to eat some black pudding." + +"What I want is his feet." + +"Feel his belly; you will see that it is all fat." + +And they all winked at each other, but dared not laugh too loud, for fear +the Prussian might finally suspect they were laughing at him. Anthony, +alone growing bolder every day, pinched his thighs, exclaiming, "Nothing +but fat"; tapped him on the back, shouting, "That is all bacon"; lifted +him up in his arms as an old Colossus that could have lifted an anvil, +declaring, "He weighs six hundred and no waste." + +He had got into the habit of making people offer his "pig" something to +eat wherever they went together. This was the chief pleasure, the great +diversion every day. "Give him whatever you please, he will swallow +everything." And they offered the man bread and butter, potatoes, cold +meat, chitterlings, which caused the remark, "Some of your own, and +choice ones." + +The soldier, stupid and gentle, ate from politeness, charmed at these +attentions, making himself ill rather than refuse, and he was actually +growing fat and his uniform becoming tight for him. This delighted Saint +Anthony, who said: "You know, my pig, that we shall have to have another +cage made for you." + +They had, however, become the best friends in the world, and when the old +fellow went to attend to his business in the neighborhood the Prussian +accompanied him for the simple pleasure of being with him. + +The weather was severe; it was freezing hard. The terrible winter of +1870 seemed to bring all the scourges on France at one time. + +Father Antoine, who made provision beforehand, and took advantage of +every opportunity, foreseeing that manure would be scarce for the spring +farming, bought from a neighbor who happened to be in need of money all +that he had, and it was agreed that he should go every evening with his +cart to get a load. + +So every day at twilight he set out for the farm of Haules, half a league +distant, always accompanied by his "pig." And each time it was a +festival, feeding the animal. All the neighbors ran over there as they +would go to high mass on Sunday. + +But the soldier began to suspect something, be mistrustful, and when they +laughed too loud he would roll his eyes uneasily, and sometimes they +lighted up with anger. + +One evening when he had eaten his fill he refused to swallow another +morsel, and attempted to rise to leave the table. But Saint Anthony +stopped him by a turn of the wrist and, placing his two powerful hands on +his shoulders, he sat him down again so roughly that the chair smashed +under him. + +A wild burst of laughter broke forth, and Anthony, beaming, picked up his +pig, acted as though he were dressing his wounds, and exclaimed: "Since +you will not eat, you shall drink, nom de Dieu!" And they went to the +wine shop to get some brandy. + +The soldier rolled his eyes, which had a wicked expression, but he drank, +nevertheless; he drank as long as they wanted him, and Saint Anthony held +his head to the great delight of his companions. + +The Norman, red as a tomato, his eyes ablaze, filled up the glasses and +clinked, saying: "Here's to you!". And the Prussian, without speaking a +word, poured down one after another glassfuls of cognac. + +It was a contest, a battle, a revenge! Who would drink the most, nom +d'un nom! They could neither of them stand any more when the liter was +emptied. But neither was conquered. They were tied, that was all. They +would have to begin again the next day. + +They went out staggering and started for home, walking beside the dung +cart which was drawn along slowly by two horses. + +Snow began to fall and the moonless night was sadly lighted by this dead +whiteness on the plain. The men began to feel the cold, and this +aggravated their intoxication. Saint Anthony, annoyed at not being the +victor, amused himself by shoving his companion so as to make him fall +over into the ditch. The other would dodge backwards, and each time he +did he uttered some German expression in an angry tone, which made the +peasant roar with laughter. Finally the Prussian lost his temper, and +just as Anthony was rolling towards him he responded with such a terrific +blow with his fist that the Colossus staggered. + +Then, excited by the brandy, the old man seized the pugilist round the +waist, shook him for a few moments as he would have done with a little +child, and pitched him at random to the other side of the road. Then, +satisfied with this piece of work, he crossed his arms and began to laugh +afresh. + +But the soldier picked himself up in a hurry, his head bare, his helmet +having rolled off, and drawing his sword he rushed over to Father +Anthony. + +When he saw him coming the peasant seized his whip by the top of the +handle, his big holly wood whip, straight, strong and supple as the sinew +of an ox. + +The Prussian approached, his head down, making a lunge with his sword, +sure of killing his adversary. But the old fellow, squarely hitting the +blade, the point of which would have pierced his stomach, turned it +aside, and with the butt end of the whip struck the soldier a sharp blow +on the temple and he fell to the ground. + +Then he, gazed aghast, stupefied with amazement, at the body, twitching +convulsively at first and then lying prone and motionless. He bent over +it, turned it on its back, and gazed at it for some time. The man's eyes +were closed, and blood trickled from a wound at the side of his forehead. +Although it was dark, Father Anthony could distinguish the bloodstain on +the white snow. + +He remained there, at his wit's end, while his cart continued slowly on +its way. + +What was he to do? He would be shot! They would burn his farm, ruin his +district! What should he do? What should he do? How could he hide the +body, conceal the fact of his death, deceive the Prussians? He heard +voices in the distance, amid the utter stillness of the snow. All at +once he roused himself, and picking up the helmet he placed it on his +victim's head. Then, seizing him round the body, he lifted him up in his +arms, and thus running with him, he overtook his team, and threw the body +on top of the manure. Once in his own house he would think up some plan. + +He walked slowly, racking his brain, but without result. He saw, he +felt, that he was lost. He entered his courtyard. A light was shining +in one of the attic windows; his maid was not asleep. He hastily backed +his wagon to the edge of the manure hollow. He thought that by +overturning the manure the body lying on top of it would fall into the +ditch and be buried beneath it, and he dumped the cart. + +As he had foreseen, the man was buried beneath the manure. Anthony +evened it down with his fork, which he stuck in the ground beside it. +He called his stableman, told him to put up the horses, and went to his +room. + +He went to bed, still thinking of what he had best do, but no ideas came +to him. His apprehension increased in the quiet of his room. They would +shoot him! He was bathed in perspiration from fear, his teeth chattered, +he rose shivering, not being able to stay in bed. + +He went downstairs to the kitchen, took the bottle of brandy from the +sideboard and carried it upstairs. He drank two large glasses, one after +another, adding a fresh intoxication to the late one, without quieting +his mental anguish. He had done a pretty stroke of work, nom de Dieu, +idiot! + +He paced up and down, trying to think of some stratagem, some +explanations, some cunning trick, and from time to time he rinsed his +mouth with a swallow of "fil en dix" to give him courage. + +But no ideas came to him, not one. + +Towards midnight his watch dog, a kind of cross wolf called "Devorant," +began to howl frantically. Father Anthony shuddered to the marrow of his +bones, and each time the beast began his long and lugubrious wail the old +man's skin turned to goose flesh. + +He had sunk into a chair, his legs weak, stupefied, done up, waiting +anxiously for "Devorant" to set up another howl, and starting +convulsively from nervousness caused by terror. + +The clock downstairs struck five. The dog was still howling. The +peasant was almost insane. He rose to go and let the dog loose, so that +he should not hear him. He went downstairs, opened the hall door, and +stepped out into the darkness. The snow was still falling. The earth +was all white, the farm buildings standing out like black patches. He +approached the kennel. The dog was dragging at his chain. He unfastened +it. "Devorant" gave a bound, then stopped short, his hair bristling, his +legs rigid, his muzzle in the air, his nose pointed towards the manure +heap. + +Saint Anthony, trembling from head to foot, faltered: + +"What's the matter with you, you dirty hound?" and he walked a few steps +forward, gazing at the indistinct outlines, the sombre shadow of the +courtyard. + +Then he saw a form, the form of a man sitting on the manure heap! + +He gazed at it, paralyzed by fear, and breathing hard. But all at once +he saw, close by, the handle of the manure fork which was sticking in the +ground. He snatched it up and in one of those transports of fear that +will make the greatest coward brave he rushed forward to see what it was. + +It was he, his Prussian, come to life, covered with filth from his bed of +manure which had kept him warm. He had sat down mechanically, and +remained there in the snow which sprinkled down, all covered with dirt +and blood as he was, and still stupid from drinking, dazed by the blow +and exhausted from his wound. + +He perceived Anthony, and too sodden to understand anything, he made an +attempt to rise. But the moment the old man recognized him, he foamed +with rage like a wild animal. + +"Ah, pig! pig!" he sputtered. "You are not dead! You are going to +denounce me now--wait--wait!" + +And rushing on the German with all the strength of leis arms he flung the +raised fork like a lance and buried the four prongs full length in his +breast. + +The soldier fell over on his back, uttering a long death moan, while the +old peasant, drawing the fork out of his breast, plunged it over and over +again into his abdomen, his stomach, his throat, like a madman, piercing +the body from head to foot, as it still quivered, and the blood gushed +out in streams. + +Finally he stopped, exhausted by his arduous work, swallowing great +mouthfuls of air, calmed down at the completion of the murder. + +As the cocks were beginning to crow in the poultry yard and it was near +daybreak, he set to work to bury the man. + +He dug a hole in the manure till he reached the earth, dug down further, +working wildly, in a frenzy of strength with frantic motions of his arms +and body. + +When the pit was deep enough he rolled the corpse into it with the fork, +covered it with earth, which he stamped down for some time, and then put +back the manure, and he smiled as he saw the thick snow finishing his +work and covering up its traces with a white sheet. + +He then stuck the fork in the manure and went into the house. His +bottle, still half full of brandy stood on the table. He emptied it at a +draught, threw himself on his bed and slept heavily. + +He woke up sober, his mind calm and clear, capable of judgment and +thought. + +At the end of an hour he was going about the country making inquiries +everywhere for his soldier. He went to see the Prussian officer to find +out why they had taken away his man. + +As everyone knew what good friends they were, no one suspected him. He +even directed the research, declaring that the Prussian went to see the +girls every evening. + +An old retired gendarme who had an inn in the next village, and a pretty +daughter, was arrested and shot. + + + + + + + +LASTING LOVE + +It was the end of the dinner that opened the shooting season. The +Marquis de Bertrans with his guests sat around a brightly lighted table, +covered with fruit and flowers. The conversation drifted to love. +Immediately there arose an animated discussion, the same eternal +discussion as to whether it were possible to love more than once. +Examples were given of persons who had loved once; these were offset by +those who had loved violently many times. The men agreed that passion, +like sickness, may attack the same person several times, unless it +strikes to kill. This conclusion seemed quite incontestable. The women, +however, who based their opinion on poetry rather than on practical +observation, maintained that love, the great passion, may come only once +to mortals. It resembles lightning, they said, this love. A heart once +touched by it becomes forever such a waste, so ruined, so consumed, that +no other strong sentiment can take root there, not even a dream. The +marquis, who had indulged in many love affairs, disputed this belief. + +"I tell you it is possible to love several times with all one's heart and +soul. You quote examples of persons who have killed themselves for love, +to prove the impossibility of a second passion. I wager that if they +had not foolishly committed suicide, and so destroyed the possibility of +a second experience, they would have found a new love, and still another, +and so on till death. It is with love as with drink. He who has once +indulged is forever a slave. It is a thing of temperament." + +They chose the old doctor as umpire. He thought it was as the marquis +had said, a thing of temperament. + +"As for me," he said, "I once knew of a love which lasted fifty-five +years without one day's respite, and which ended only with death." The +wife of the marquis clasped her hands. + +"That is beautiful! Ah, what a dream to be loved in such a way! What +bliss to live for fifty-five years enveloped in an intense, unwavering +affection! How this happy being must have blessed his life to be so +adored!" + +The doctor smiled. + +"You are not mistaken, madame, on this point the loved one was a man. +You even know him; it is Monsieur Chouquet, the chemist. As to the +woman, you also know her, the old chair-mender, who came every year to +the chateau." The enthusiasm of the women fell. Some expressed their +contempt with "Pouah!" for the loves of common people did not interest +them. The doctor continued: "Three months ago I was called to the +deathbed of the old chair-mender. The priest had preceded me. She +wished to make us the executors of her will. In order that we might +understand her conduct, she told us the story of her life. It is most +singular and touching: Her father and mother were both chair-menders. +She had never lived in a house. As a little child she wandered about +with them, dirty, unkempt, hungry. They visited many towns, leaving +their horse, wagon and dog just outside the limits, where the child +played in the grass alone until her parents had repaired all the broken +chairs in the place. They seldom spoke, except to cry, 'Chairs! Chairs! +Chair-mender!' + +"When the little one strayed too far away, she would be called back by +the harsh, angry voice of her father. She never heard a word of +affection. When she grew older, she fetched and carried the broken +chairs. Then it was she made friends with the children in the street, +but their parents always called them away and scolded them for speaking +to the barefooted child. Often the boys threw stones at her. Once a +kind woman gave her a few pennies. She saved them most carefully. +"One day--she was then eleven years old--as she was walking through a +country town she met, behind the cemetery, little Chouquet, weeping +bitterly, because one of his playmates had stolen two precious liards +(mills). The tears of the small bourgeois, one of those much-envied +mortals, who, she imagined, never knew trouble, completely upset her. +She approached him and, as soon as she learned the cause of his grief, +she put into his hands all her savings. He took them without hesitation +and dried his eyes. Wild with joy, she kissed him. He was busy counting +his money, and did not object. Seeing that she was not repulsed, she +threw her arms round him and gave him a hug--then she ran away. + +"What was going on in her poor little head? Was it because she had +sacrificed all her fortune that she became madly fond of this youngster, +or was it because she had given him the first tender kiss? The mystery +is alike for children and for those of riper years. For months she +dreamed of that corner near the cemetery and of the little chap. +She stole a sou here and, there from her parents on the chair money or +groceries she was sent to buy. When she returned to the spot near the +cemetery she had two francs in her pocket, but he was not there. Passing +his father's drug store, she caught sight of him behind the counter. +He was sitting between a large red globe and a blue one. She only loved +him the more, quite carried away at the sight of the brilliant-colored +globes. She cherished the recollection of it forever in her heart. +The following year she met him near the school. playing marbles. +She rushed up to him, threw her arms round him, and kissed him so +passionately that he screamed, in fear. To quiet him, she gave him all +her money. Three francs and twenty centimes! A real gold mine, at which +he gazed with staring eyes. + +"After this he allowed her to kiss him as much as she wished. During the +next four years she put into his hands all her savings, which he pocketed +conscientiously in exchange for kisses. At one time it was thirty sons, +at another two francs. Again, she only had twelve sous. She wept with +grief and shame, explaining brokenly that it had been a poor year. The +next time she brought five francs, in one whole piece, which made her +laugh with joy. She no longer thought of any one but the boy, and he +watched for her with impatience; sometimes he would run to meet her. +This made her heart thump with joy. Suddenly he disappeared. He had +gone to boarding school. She found this out by careful investigation. +Then she used great diplomacy to persuade her parents to change their +route and pass by this way again during vacation. After a year of +scheming she succeeded. She had not seen him for two years, and scarcely +recognized him, he was so changed, had grown taller, better looking and +was imposing in his uniform, with its brass buttons. He pretended not to +see her, and passed by without a glance. She wept for two days and from +that time loved and suffered unceasingly. + +"Every year he came home and she passed him, not daring to lift her eyes. +He never condescended to turn his head toward her. She loved him madly, +hopelessly. She said to me: + +"'He is the only man whom I have ever seen. I don't even know if another +exists.' Her parents died. She continued their work. + +"One day, on entering the village, where her heart always remained, she +saw Chouquet coming out of his pharmacy with a young lady leaning on his +arm. She was his wife. That night the chairmender threw herself into +the river. A drunkard passing the spot pulled her out and took her to +the drug store. Young Chouquet came down in his dressing gown to revive +her. Without seeming to know who she was he undressed her and rubbed +her; then he said to her, in a harsh voice: + +"'You are mad! People must not do stupid things like that.' His voice +brought her to life again. He had spoken to her! She was happy for a +long time. He refused remuneration for his trouble, although she +insisted. + +"All her life passed in this way. She worked, thinking always of him. +She began to buy medicines at his pharmacy; this gave her a chance to +talk to him and to see him closely. In this way, she was still able to +give him money. + +"As I said before, she died this spring. When she had closed her +pathetic story she entreated me to take her earnings to the man she +loved. She had worked only that she might leave him something to remind +him of her after her death. I gave the priest fifty francs for her +funeral expenses. The next morning I went to see the Chouquets. They +were finishing breakfast, sitting opposite each other, fat and red, +important and self-satisfied. They welcomed me and offered me some +coffee, which I accepted. Then I began my story in a trembling voice, +sure that they would be softened, even to tears. As soon as Chouquet +understood that he had been loved by 'that vagabond! that chair-mender! +that wanderer!' he swore with indignation as though his reputation had +been sullied, the respect of decent people lost, his personal honor, +something precious and dearer to him than life, gone. His exasperated +wife kept repeating: 'That beggar! That beggar!' + +"Seeming unable to find words suitable to the enormity, he stood up and +began striding about. He muttered : 'Can you understand anything so +horrible, doctor? Oh, if I had only known it while she was alive, I +should have had her thrown into prison. I promise you she would not have +escaped.' + +"I was dumfounded; I hardly knew what to think or say, but I had to +finish my mission. 'She commissioned me,' I said, 'to give you her +savings, which amount to three thousand five hundred francs. As what I +have just told you seems to be very disagreeable, perhaps you would +prefer to give this money to the poor.' + +"They looked at me, that man and woman,' speechless with amazement. +I took the few thousand francs from out of my pocket. Wretched-looking +money from every country. Pennies and gold pieces all mixed together. +Then I asked: + +"'What is your decision?' + +"Madame Chouquet spoke first. 'Well, since it is the dying woman's wish, +it seems to me impossible to refuse it.' + +"Her husband said, in a shamefaced manner: 'We could buy something for +our children with it.' + +"I answered dryly: 'As you wish.' + +"He replied: 'Well, give it to us anyhow, since she commissioned you to +do so; we will find a way to put it to some good purpose.' + +"I gave them the money, bowed and left. + +"The next day Chouquet came to me and said brusquely: + +"'That woman left her wagon here--what have you done with it?' + +"'Nothing; take it if you wish.' + +"'It's just what I wanted,' he added, and walked off. I called him back +and said: + +"'She also left her old horse and two dogs. Don't you need them?' + +"He stared at me surprised: 'Well, no! Really, what would I do with +them?' + +"'Dispose of them as you like.' + +"He laughed and held out his hand to me. I shook it. What could I do? +The doctor and the druggist in a country village must not be at enmity. +I have kept the dogs. The priest took the old horse. The wagon is +useful to Chouquet, and with the money he has bought railroad stock. +That is the only deep, sincere love that I have ever known in all my +life." + +The doctor looked up. The marquise, whose eyes were full of tears, +sighed and said: + +"There is no denying the fact, only women know how to love." + + + + + + +PIERROT + +Mme. Lefevre was a country dame, a widow, one of these half peasants, +with ribbons and bonnets with trimming on them, one of those persons who +clipped her words and put on great airs in public, concealing the soul of +a pretentious animal beneath a comical and bedizened exterior, just as +the country-folks hide their coarse red hands in ecru silk gloves. + +She had a servant, a good simple peasant, called Rose. + +The two women lived in a little house with green shutters by the side of +the high road in Normandy, in the centre of the country of Caux. As they +had a narrow strip of garden in front of the house, they grew some +vegetables. + +One night someone stole twelve onions. As soon as Rose became aware of +the theft, she ran to tell madame, who came downstairs in her woolen +petticoat. It was a shame and a disgrace! They had robbed her, Mme. +Lefevre! As there were thieves in the country, they might come back. + +And the two frightened women examined the foot tracks, talking, and +supposing all sorts of things. + +"See, they went that way! They stepped on the wall, they jumped into the +garden!" + +And they became apprehensive for the future. How could they sleep in +peace now! + +The news of the theft spread. The neighbor came, making examinations and +discussing the matter in their turn, while the two women explained to +each newcomer what they had observed and their opinion. + +A farmer who lived near said to them: + +"You ought to have a dog." + +That is true, they ought to have a dog, if it were only to give the +alarm. Not a big dog. Heavens! what would they do with a big dog? He +would eat their heads off. But a little dog (in Normandy they say +"quin"), a little puppy who would bark. + +As soon as everyone had left, Mme. Lefevre discussed this idea of a dog +for some time. On reflection she made a thousand objections, terrified +at the idea of a bowl full of soup, for she belonged to that race of +parsimonious country women who always carry centimes in their pocket to +give alms in public to beggars on the road and to put in the Sunday +collection plate. + +Rose, who loved animals, gave her opinion and defended it shrewdly. So +it was decided that they should have a dog, a very small dog. + +They began to look for one, but could find nothing but big dogs, who +would devour enough soup to make one shudder. The grocer of Rolleville +had one, a tiny one, but he demanded two francs to cover the cost of +sending it. Mme. Lefevre declared that she would feed a "quin," but +would not buy one. + +The baker, who knew all that occurred, brought in his wagon one morning a +strange little yellow animal, almost without paws, with the body of a +crocodile, the head of a fox, and a curly tail--a true cockade, as big as +all the rest of him. Mme. Lefevre thought this common cur that cost +nothing was very handsome. Rose hugged it and asked what its name was. + +"Pierrot," replied the baker. + +The dog was installed in an old soap box and they gave it some water +which it drank. They then offered it a piece of bread. He ate it. Mme. +Lefevre, uneasy, had an idea. + +"When he is thoroughly accustomed to the house we can let him run. He +can find something to eat, roaming about the country." + +They let him run, in fact, which did not prevent him from being famished. +Also he never barked except to beg for food, and then he barked +furiously. + +Anyone might come into the garden, and Pierrot would run up and fawn on +each one in turn and not utter a bark. + +Mme. Lefevre, however, had become accustomed to the animal. She even +went so far as to like it and to give it from time to time pieces of +bread soaked in the gravy on her plate. + +But she had not once thought of the dog tax, and when they came to +collect eight francs--eight francs, madame--for this puppy who never even +barked, she almost fainted from the shock. + +It was immediately decided that they must get rid of Pierrot. No one +wanted him. Every one declined to take him for ten leagues around. Then +they resolved, not knowing what else to do, to make him "piquer du mas." + +"Piquer du mas" means to eat chalk. When one wants to get rid of a dog +they make him "Piquer du mas." + +In the midst of an immense plain one sees a kind of hut, or rather a very +small roof standing above the ground. This is the entrance to the clay +pit. A big perpendicular hole is sunk for twenty metres underground and +ends in a series of long subterranean tunnels. + +Once a year they go down into the quarry at the time they fertilize the +ground. The rest of the year it serves as a cemetery for condemned dogs, +and as one passed by this hole plaintive howls, furious or despairing +barks and lamentable appeals reach one's ear. + +Sportsmen's dogs and sheep dogs flee in terror from this mournful place, +and when one leans over it one perceives a disgusting odor of +putrefaction. + +Frightful dramas are enacted in the darkness. + +When an animal has suffered down there for ten or twelve days, nourished +on the foul remains of his predecessors, another animal, larger and more +vigorous, is thrown into the hole. There they are, alone, starving, with +glittering eyes. They watch each other, follow each other, hesitate in +doubt. But hunger impels them; they attack each other, fight desperately +for some time, and the stronger eats the weaker, devours him alive. + +When it was decided to make Pierrot "piquer du mas" they looked round for +an executioner. The laborer who mended the road demanded six sous to +take the dog there. That seemed wildly exorbitant to Mme. Lefevre. The +neighbor's hired boy wanted five sous; that was still too much. So Rose +having observed that they had better carry it there themselves, as in +that way it would not be brutally treated on the way and made to suspect +its fate, they resolved to go together at twilight. + +They offered the dog that evening a good dish of soup with a piece of +butter in it. He swallowed every morsel of it, and as he wagged his tail +with delight Rose put him in her apron. + +They walked quickly, like thieves, across the plain. They soon perceived +the chalk pit and walked up to it. Mme. Lefevre leaned over to hear if +any animal was moaning. No, there were none there; Pierrot would be +alone. Then Rose, who was crying, kissed the dog and threw him into the +chalk pit, and they both leaned over, listening. + +First they heard a dull sound, then the sharp, bitter, distracting cry of +an animal in pain, then a succession of little mournful cries, then +despairing appeals, the cries of a dog who is entreating, his head raised +toward the opening of the pit. + +He yelped, oh, how he yelped! + +They were filled with remorse, with terror, with a wild inexplicable +fear, and ran away from the spot. As Rose went faster Mme. Lefevre +cried: "Wait for me, Rose, wait for me!" + +At night they were haunted by frightful nightmares. + +Mme. Lefevre dreamed she was sitting down at table to eat her soup, but +when she uncovered the tureen Pierrot was in it. He jumped out and bit +her nose. + +She awoke and thought she heard him yelping still. She listened, but she +was mistaken. + +She fell asleep again and found herself on a high road, an endless road, +which she followed. Suddenly in the middle of the road she perceived a +basket, a large farmer's basket, lying there, and this basket frightened +her. + +She ended by opening it, and Pierrot, concealed in it, seized her hand +and would not let go. She ran away in terror with the dog hanging to the +end of her arm, which he held between his teeth. + +At daybreak she arose, almost beside herself, and ran to the chalk pit. + +He was yelping, yelping still; he had yelped all night. She began to sob +and called him by all sorts of endearing names. He answered her with all +the tender inflections of his dog's voice. + + +Then she wanted to see him again, promising herself that she would give +him a good home till he died. + +She ran to the chalk digger, whose business it was to excavate for chalk, +and told him the situation. The man listened, but said nothing. When +she had finished he said: + +"You want your dog? That will cost four francs." She gave a jump. All +her grief was at an end at once. + +"Four francs!" she said. "You would die of it! Four francs!" + +"Do you suppose I am going to bring my ropes, my windlass, and set it up, +and go down there with my boy and let myself be bitten, perhaps, by your +cursed dog for the pleasure of giving it back to you? You should not +have thrown it down there." + +She walked away, indignant. Four francs! + +As soon as she entered the house she called Rose and told her of the +quarryman's charges. Rose, always resigned, repeated: + +"Four francs! That is a good deal of money, madame." Then she added: +"If we could throw him something to eat, the poor dog, so he will not die +of hunger." + +Mme. Lefevre approved of this and was quite delighted. So they set out +again with a big piece of bread and butter. + +They cut it in mouthfuls, which they threw down one after the other, +speaking by turns to Pierrot. As soon as the dog finished one piece he +yelped for the next. + +They returned that evening and the next day and every day. But they made +only one trip. + +One morning as they were just letting fall the first mouthful they +suddenly heard a tremendous barking in the pit. There were two dogs +there. Another had been thrown in, a large dog. + +"Pierrot!" cried Rose. And Pierrot yelped and yelped. Then they began +to throw down some food. But each time they noticed distinctly a +terrible struggle going on, then plaintive cries from Pierrot, who had +been bitten by his companion, who ate up everything as he was the +stronger. + +It was in vain that they specified, saying: + +"That is for you, Pierrot." Pierrot evidently got nothing. + +The two women, dumfounded, looked at each other and Mme. Lefevre said in +a sour tone: + +"I could not feed all the dogs they throw in there! We must give it up." + +And, suffocating at the thought of all the dogs living at her expense, +she went away, even carrying back what remained of the bread, which she +ate as she walked along. + +Rose followed her, wiping her eyes on the corner of her blue apron. + + + + + + +A NORMANDY JOKE + +It was a wedding procession that was coming along the road between the +tall trees that bounded the farms and cast their shadow on the road. +At the head were the bride and groom, then the family, then the invited +guests, and last of all the poor of the neighborhood. The village +urchins who hovered about the narrow road like flies ran in and out of +the ranks or climbed up the trees to see it better. + +The bridegroom was a good-looking young fellow, Jean Patu, the richest +farmer in the neighborhood, but he was above all things, an ardent +sportsman who seemed to take leave of his senses in order to satisfy that +passion, and who spent large sums on his dogs, his keepers, his ferrets +and his guns. The bride, Rosalie Roussel, had been courted by all the +likely young fellows in the district, for they all thought her handsome +and they knew that she would have a good dowry. But she had chosen Patu; +partly, perhaps, because she liked him better than she did the others, +but still more, like a careful Normandy girl, because he had more crown +pieces. + +As they entered the white gateway of the husband's farm, forty shots +resounded without their seeing those who fired, as they were hidden in +the ditches. The noise seemed to please the men, who were slouching +along heavily in their best clothes, and Patu left his wife, and running +up to a farm servant whom he perceived behind a tree, took his gun and +fired a shot himself, as frisky as a young colt. Then they went on, +beneath the apple trees which were heavy with fruit, through the high +grass and through the midst of the calves, who looked at them with their +great eyes, got up slowly and remained standing, with their muzzles +turned toward the wedding party. + +The men became serious when they came within measurable distance of the +wedding dinner. Some of them, the rich ones, had on tall, shining silk +hats, which seemed altogether out of place there; others had old head- +coverings with a long nap, which might have been taken for moleskin, +while the humblest among them wore caps. All the women had on shawls, +which they wore loosely on their back, holding the tips ceremoniously +under their arms. They were red, parti-colored, flaming shawls, and +their brightness seemed to astonish the black fowls on the dung-heap, the +ducks on the side of the pond and the pigeons on the thatched roofs. + +The extensive farm buildings seemed to be waiting there at the end of +that archway of apple trees, and a sort of vapor came out of open door +and windows and an almost overpowering odor of eatables was exhaled from +the vast building, from all its openings and from its very walls. The +string of guests extended through the yard; but when the foremost of them +reached the house, they broke the chain and dispersed, while those behind +were still coming in at the open gate. The ditches were now lined with +urchins and curious poor people, and the firing did not cease, but came +from every side at once, and a cloud of smoke, and that odor which has +the same intoxicating effect as absinthe, blended with the atmosphere. +The women were shaking their dresses outside the door, to get rid of the +dust, were undoing their cap-strings and pulling their shawls over their +arms, and then they went into the house to lay them aside altogether for +the time. The table was laid in the great kitchen that would hold a +hundred persons; they sat down to dinner at two o'clock; and at eight +o'clock they were still eating, and the men, in their shirt-sleeves, with +their waistcoats unbuttoned and with red faces, were swallowing down the +food and drink as if they had been whirlpools. The cider sparkled +merrily, clear and golden in the large glasses, by the side of the dark, +blood-colored wine, and between every dish they made a "hole," the +Normandy hole, with a glass of brandy which inflamed the body and put +foolish notions into the head. Low jokes were exchanged across the table +until the whole arsenal of peasant wit was exhausted. For the last +hundred years the same broad stories had served for similar occasions, +and, although every one knew them, they still hit the mark and made both +rows of guests roar with laughter. + +At one end of the table four young fellows, who were neighbors, were +preparing some practical jokes for the newly married couple, and they +seemed to have got hold of a good one by the way they whispered and +laughed, and suddenly one of them, profiting by a moment of silence, +exclaimed: "The poachers will have a good time to-night, with this moon! +I say, Jean, you will not be looking at the moon, will you?" The +bridegroom turned to him quickly and replied: "Only let them come, that's +all!" But the other young fellow began to laugh, and said: "I do not +think you will pay much attention to them!" + +The whole table was convulsed with laughter, so that the glasses shook, +but the bridegroom became furious at the thought that anybody would +profit by his wedding to come and poach on his land, and repeated: +"I only say-just let them come!" + +Then there was a flood of talk with a double meaning which made the bride +blush somewhat, although she was trembling with expectation; and when +they had emptied the kegs of brandy they all went to bed. The young +couple went into their own room, which was on the ground floor, as most +rooms in farmhouses are. As it was very warm, they opened the window and +closed the shutters. A small lamp in bad taste, a present from the +bride's father, was burning on the chest of drawers, and the bed stood +ready to receive the young people. + +The young woman had already taken off her wreath and her dress, and she +was in her petticoat, unlacing her boots, while Jean was finishing his +cigar and looking at her out of the corners of his eyes. Suddenly, with +a brusque movement, like a man who is about to set to work, he took off +his coat. She had already taken off her boots, and was now pulling off +her stockings, and then she said to him: "Go and hide yourself behind the +curtains while I get into bed." + +He seemed as if he were about to refuse; but at last he did as she asked +him, and in a moment she unfastened her petticoat, which slipped down, +fell at her feet and lay on the ground. She left it there, stepped over +it in her loose chemise and slipped into the bed, whose springs creaked +beneath her weight. He immediately went up to the bed, and, stooping +over his wife, he sought her lips, which she hid beneath the pillow, when +a shot was heard in the distance, in the direction of the forest of +Rapees, as he thought. + +He raised himself anxiously, with his heart beating, and running to the +window, he opened the shutters. The full moon flooded the yard with +yellow light, and the reflection of the apple trees made black shadows at +their feet, while in the distance the fields gleamed, covered with the +ripe corn. But as he was leaning out, listening to every sound in the +still night, two bare arms were put round his neck, and his wife +whispered, trying to pull him back: "Do leave them alone; it has nothing +to do with you. Come to bed." + +He turned round, put his arms round her, and drew her toward him, but +just as he was laying her on the 'bed, which yielded beneath her weight, +they heard another report, considerably nearer this time, and Jean, +giving way to his tumultuous rage, swore aloud: "Damn it! They will +think I do not go out and see what it is because of you! Wait, wait a +few minutes!" He put on his shoes again, took down his gun, which was +always hanging within reach against the wall, and, as his wife threw +herself on her knees in her terror, imploring him not to go, he hastily +freed himself, ran to the window and jumped into the yard. + +She waited one hour, two hours, until daybreak, but her husband did not +return. Then she lost her head, aroused the house, related how angry +Jean was, and said that he had gone after the poachers, and immediately +all the male farm-servants, even the boys, went in search of their +master. They found him two leagues from the farm, tied hand and foot, +half dead with rage, his gun broken, his trousers turned inside out, and +with three dead hares hanging round his neck, and a placard on his chest +with these words: "Who goes on the chase loses his place." + +In later years, when he used to tell this story of his wedding night, +he usually added: "Ah! as far as a joke went it was a good joke. They +caught me in a snare, as if I had been a rabbit, the dirty brutes, and +they shoved my head into a bag. But if I can only catch them some day +they had better look out for themselves!" + +That is how they amuse themselves in Normandy on a wedding day. + + + + + + +FATHER MATTHEW + +We had just left Rouen and were galloping along the road to Jumieges. +The light carriage flew along across the level country. Presently the +horse slackened his pace to walk up the hill of Cantelen. + +One sees there one of the most magnificent views in the world. Behind us +lay Rouen, the city of churches, with its Gothic belfries, sculptured +like ivory trinkets; before us Saint Sever, the manufacturing suburb, +whose thousands of smoking chimneys rise amid the expanse of sky, +opposite the thousand sacred steeples of the old city. + +On the one hand the spire of the cathedral, the highest of human +monuments, on the other the engine of the power-house, its rival, and +almost as high, and a metre higher than the tallest pyramid in Egypt. + +Before us wound the Seine, with its scattered islands and bordered by +white banks, covered with a forest on the right and on the left immense +meadows, bounded by another forest yonder in the distance. + +Here and there large ships lay at anchor along the banks of the wide +river. Three enormous steam boats were starting out, one behind the +other, for Havre, and a chain of boats, a bark, two schooners and a brig, +were going upstream to Rouen, drawn by a little tug that emitted a cloud +of black smoke. + +My companion, a native of the country, did not glance at this wonderful +landscape, but he smiled continually; he seemed to be amused at his +thoughts. Suddenly he cried: + +"Ah, you will soon see something comical--Father Matthew's chapel. That +is a sweet morsel, my boy." + +I looked at him in surprise. He continued: + +"I will give you a whiff of Normandy that will stay by you. Father +Matthew is the handsomest Norman in the province and his chapel is one of +the wonders of the world, nothing more nor less. But I will first give +you a few words of explanation. + +"Father Matthew, who is also called Father 'La Boisson,' is an old +sergeant-major who has come back to his native land. He combines in +admirable proportions, making a perfect whole, the humbug of the old +soldier and the sly roguery of the Norman. On his return to Normandy, +thanks to influence and incredible cleverness, he was made doorkeeper of +a votive chapel, a chapel dedicated to the Virgin and frequented chiefly +by young women who have gone astray . . . . He composed and had +painted a special prayer to his 'Good Virgin.' This prayer is a +masterpiece of unintentional irony, of Norman wit, in which jest is +blended with fear of the saint and with the superstitious fear of the +secret influence of something. He has not much faith in his protectress, +but he believes in her a little through prudence, and he is considerate +of her through policy. + +"This is how this wonderful prayer begins: + +"'Our good Madame Virgin Mary, natural protectress of girl mothers in +this land and all over the world, protect your servant who erred in a +moment of forgetfulness . . .' + +"It ends thus: + +"'Do not forget me, especially when you are with your holy spouse, and +intercede with God the Father that he may grant me a good husband, like +your own.' + +"This prayer, which was suppressed by the clergy of the district, is sold +by him privately, and is said to be very efficacious for those who recite +it with unction. + +"In fact he talks of the good Virgin as the valet de chambre of a +redoubted prince might talk of his master who confided in him all his +little private secrets. He knows a number of amusing anecdotes at his +expense which he tells confidentially among friends as they sit over +their glasses. + +"But you will see for yourself. + +"As the fees coming from the Virgin did not appear sufficient to him, he +added to the main figure a little business in saints. He has them all, +or nearly all. There was not room enough in the chapel, so he stored +them in the wood-shed and brings them forth as soon as the faithful ask +for them. He carved these little wooden statues himself--they are +comical in the extreme--and painted them all bright green one year when +they were painting his house. You know that saints cure diseases, but +each saint has his specialty, and you must not confound them or make any +blunders. They are as jealous of each other as mountebanks. + +"In order that they may make no mistake, the old women come and consult +Matthew. + +"'For diseases of the ear which saint is the best?' + +"'Why, Saint Osyme is good and Saint Pamphilius is not bad.' But that is +not all. + +"As Matthew has some time to spare, he drinks; but he drinks like a +professional, with conviction, so much so that he is intoxicated +regularly every evening. He is drunk, but he is aware of it. He is so +well aware of it that he notices each day his exact degree of +intoxication. That is his chief occupation; the chapel is a secondary +matter. + +"And he has invented--listen and catch on--he has invented the +'Saoulometre.' + +"There is no such instrument, but Matthew's observations are as precise +as those of a mathematician. You may hear him repeating incessantly: +'Since Monday I have had more than forty-five,' or else 'I was between +fifty-two and fifty-eight,' or else 'I had at least sixty-six to +seventy,' or 'Hullo, cheat, I thought I was in the fifties and here I +find I had had seventy-five!' + +"He never makes a mistake. + +"He declares that he never reached his limit, but as he acknowledges that +his observations cease to be exact when he has passed ninety, one cannot +depend absolutely on the truth of that statement. + +"When Matthew acknowledges that he has passed ninety, you may rest +assured that he is blind drunk. + +"On these occasions his wife, Melie, another marvel, flies into a fury. +She waits for him at the door of the house, and as he enters she roars at +him: + +"'So there you are, slut, hog, giggling sot!' + +"Then Matthew, who is not laughing any longer, plants himself opposite +her and says in a severe tone: + +"'Be still, Melie; this is no time to talk; wait till to-morrow.' + +"If she keeps on shouting at him, he goes up to her and says in a shaky +voice: + +"'Don't bawl any more. I have had about ninety; I am not counting any +more. Look out, I am going to hit you!' + +"Then Melie beats a retreat. + +"If, on the following day, she reverts to the subject, he laughs in her +face and says: + +"'Come, come! We have said enough. It is past. As long as I have not +reached my limit there is no harm done. But if I go, past that I will +allow you to correct me, my word on it!'" + +We had reached the top of the hill. The road entered the delightful +forest of Roumare. + +Autumn, marvellous autumn, blended its gold and purple with the remaining +traces of verdure. We passed through Duclair. Then, instead of going on +to Jumieges, my friend turned to the left and, taking a crosscut, drove +in among the trees. + +And presently from the top of a high hill we saw again the magnificent +valley of the Seine and the winding river beneath us. + +At our right a very small slate-covered building, with a bell tower as +large as a sunshade, adjoined a pretty house with green Venetian blinds, +and all covered with honeysuckle and roses. + +"Here are some friends!" cried a big voice, and Matthew appeared on the +threshold. He was a man about sixty, thin and with a goatee and long, +white mustache. + +My friend shook him by the hand and introduced me, and Matthew took us +into a clean kitchen, which served also as a dining-room. He said: + +"I have no elegant apartment, monsieur. I do not like to get too far +away from the food. The saucepans, you see, keep me company." Then, +turning to my friend: + +"Why did you come on Thursday? You know quite well that this is the day +I consult my Guardian Saint. I cannot go out this afternoon." + +And running to the door, he uttered a terrific roar: "Melie!" which must +have startled the sailors in the ships along the stream in the valley +below. + +Melie did not reply. + +Then Matthew winked his eye knowingly. + +"She is not pleased with me, you see, because yesterday I was in the +nineties." + +My friend began to laugh. "In the nineties, Matthew! How did you manage +it?" + +"I will tell you," said Matthew. "Last year I found only twenty rasieres +(an old dry measure) of apricots. There are no more, but those are the +only things to make cider of. So I made some, and yesterday I tapped the +barrel. Talk of nectar! That was nectar. You shall tell me what you +think of it. Polyte was here, and we sat down and drank a glass and +another without being satisfied (one could go on drinking it until to- +morrow), and at last, with glass after glass, I felt a chill at my +stomach. I said to Polyte: 'Supposing we drink a glass of cognac to warm +ourselves?' He agreed. But this cognac, it sets you on fire, so that we +had to go back to the cider. But by going from chills to heat and heat +to chills, I saw that I was in the nineties. Polyte was not far from his +limit." + +The door opened and Melie appeared. At once, before bidding us good-day, +she cried: + +"Great hog, you have both of you reached your limit!" + +"Don't say that, Melie; don't say that," said Matthew, getting angry. +"I have never reached my limit." + +They gave us a delicious luncheon outside beneath two lime trees, beside +the little chapel and overlooking the vast landscape. And Matthew told +us, with a mixture of humor and unexpected credulity, incredible stories +of miracles. + +We had drunk a good deal of delicious cider, sparkling and sweet, fresh +and intoxicating, which he preferred to all other drinks, and were +smoking our pipes astride our chairs when two women appeared. + +They were old, dried up and bent. After greeting us they asked for Saint +Blanc. Matthew winked at us as he replied: + +"I will get him for you." And he disappeared in his wood shed. He +remained there fully five minutes. Then he came back with an expression +of consternation. He raised his hands. + +"I don't know where he is. I cannot find him. I am quite sure that I +had him." Then making a speaking trumpet of his hands, he roared once +more: + +"Meli-e-a!" + +"What's the matter?" replied his wife from the end of the garden. + +"Where's Saint Blanc? I cannot find him in the wood shed." + +Then Melie explained it this way: + +"Was not that the one you took last week to stop up a hole in the rabbit +hutch?" + +Matthew gave a start. + +"By thunder, that may be!" Then turning to the women, he said: + +"Follow me." + +They followed him. We did the same, almost choking with suppressed +laughter. + +Saint Blanc was indeed stuck into the earth like an ordinary stake, +covered with mud and dirt, and forming a corner for the rabbit hutch. + +As soon as they perceived him, the two women fell on their knees, crossed +themselves and began to murmur an "Oremus." But Matthew darted toward +them. + +"Wait," he said, "you are in the mud; I will get you a bundle of straw." + +He went to fetch the straw and made them a priedieu. Then, looking at +his muddy saint and doubtless afraid of bringing discredit on his +business, he added: + +"I will clean him off a little for you." + +He took a pail of water and a brush and began to scrub the wooden image +vigorously, while the two old women kept on praying. + +When he had finished he said: + +"Now he is all right." And he took us back to the house to drink another +glass. + +As he was carrying the glass to his lips he stopped and said in a rather +confused manner: + +"All the same, when I put Saint Blanc out with the rabbits I thought he +would not make any more money. For two years no one had asked for him. +But the saints, you see, they are never out of date." + + + + + + + VOLUME XI. + +THE UMBRELLA +BELHOMME'S BEAST +DISCOVERY +THE ACCURSED BREAD +THE DOWRY +THE DIARY OF A MAD MAN +THE MASK +THE PENGUINS ROCK +A FAMILY +SUICIDES +AN ARTIFICE +DREAMS +SIMON'S PAPA + + + + + + +THE UMBRELLA + +Mme. Oreille was a very economical woman; she knew the value of a +centime, and possessed a whole storehouse of strict principles with +regard to the multiplication of money, so that her cook found the +greatest difficulty in making what the servants call their market-penny, +and her husband was hardly allowed any pocket money at all. They were, +however, very comfortably off, and had no children; but it really pained +Mme. Oreille to see any money spent; it was like tearing at her +heartstrings when she had to take any of those nice crown-pieces out of +her pocket; and whenever she had to spend anything, no matter how +necessary it might be, she slept badly the next night. + +Oreille was continually saying to his wife: + +"You really might be more liberal, as we have no children, and never +spend our income." + +"You don't know what may happen," she used to reply. "It is better to +have too much than too little." + +She was a little woman of about forty, very active, rather hasty, +wrinkled, very neat and tidy, and with a very short temper. + +Her husband frequently complained of all the privations she made him +endure; some of them were particularly painful to him, as they touched +his vanity. + +He was one of the head clerks in the War Office, and only stayed on there +in obedience to his wife's wish, to increase their income which they did +not nearly spend. + +For two years he had always come to the office with the same old patched +umbrella, to the great amusement of his fellow clerks. At last he got +tired of their jokes, and insisted upon his wife buying him a new one. +She bought one for eight francs and a half, one of those cheap articles +which large houses sell as an advertisement. When the men in the office +saw the article, which was being sold in Paris by the thousand, they +began their jokes again, and Oreille had a dreadful time of it. They +even made a song about it, which he heard from morning till night all +over the immense building. + +Oreille was very angry, and peremptorily told his wife to get him a new +one, a good silk one, for twenty francs, and to bring him the bill, so +that he might see that it was all right. + +She bought him one for eighteen francs, and said, getting red with anger +as she gave it to her husband: + +"This will last you for five years at least." + +Oreille felt quite triumphant, and received a small ovation at the office +with his new acquisition. + +When he went home in the evening his wife said to him, looking at the +umbrella uneasily: + +"You should not leave it fastened up with the elastic; it will very +likely cut the silk. You must take care of it, for I shall not buy you a +new one in a hurry." + +She took it, unfastened it, and remained dumfounded with astonishment and +rage; in the middle of the silk there was a hole as big as a six-penny- +piece; it had been made with the end of a cigar. + +"What is that?" she screamed. + +Her husband replied quietly, without looking at it: + +"What is it? What do you mean?" + +She was choking with rage, and could hardly get out a word. + +"You--you--have--burned--your umbrella! Why--you must be--mad! Do you +wish to ruin us outright?" + +He turned round, and felt that he was growing pale. + +"What are you talking about?" + +"I say that you have burned your umbrella. Just look here." + +And rushing at him, as if she were going to beat him, she violently +thrust the little circular burned hole under his nose. + +He was so utterly struck dumb at the sight of it that he could only +stammer out: + +"What-what is it? How should I know? I have done nothing, I will swear. +I don't know what is the matter with the umbrella." + +"You have been playing tricks with it at the office; you have been +playing the fool and opening it, to show it off!" she screamed. + +"I only opened it once, to let them see what a nice one it was, that is +all, I swear." + +But she shook with rage, and got up one of those conjugal scenes which +make a peaceable man dread the domestic hearth more than a battlefield +where bullets are raining. + +She mended it with a piece of silk cut out of the old umbrella, which was +of a different color, and the next day Oreille went off very humbly with +the mended article in his hand. He put it into a cupboard, and thought +no more of it than of some unpleasant recollection. + +But he had scarcely got home that evening when his wife took the umbrella +from him, opened it, and nearly had a fit when she saw what had befallen +it, for the disaster was irreparable. It was covered with small holes, +which evidently proceeded from burns, just as if some one had emptied the +ashes from a lighted pipe on to it. It was done for utterly, +irreparably. + +She looked at it without a word, in too great a passion to be able to say +anything. He, also, when he saw the damage, remained almost dumfounded, +in a state of frightened consternation. + +They looked at each other, then he looked at the floor; and the next +moment she threw the useless article at his head, screaming out in a +transport of the most violent rage, for she had recovered her voice by +that time: + +"Oh! you brute! you brute! You did it on purpose, but I will pay you out +for it. You shall not have another." + +And then the scene began again, and after the storm had raged for an +hour, he at last was able to explain himself. He declared that he could +not understand it at all, and that it could only proceed from malice or +from vengeance. + +A ring at the bell saved him; it was a friend whom they were expecting to +dinner. + +Mme. Oreille submitted the case to him. As for buying a new umbrella, +that was out of the question; her husband should not have another. +The friend very sensibly said that in that case his clothes would be +spoiled, and they were certainly worth more than the umbrella. But the +little woman, who was still in a rage, replied: + +"Very well, then, when it rains he may have the kitchen umbrella, for I +will not give him a new silk one." + +Oreille utterly rebelled at such an idea. + +"All right," he said; "then I shall resign my post. I am not going to +the office with the kitchen umbrella." + +The friend interposed. + +"Have this one re-covered; it will not cost much." + +But Mme. Oreille, being in the temper that she was, said: + +"It will cost at least eight francs to re-cover it. Eight and eighteen +are twenty-six. Just fancy, twenty-six francs for an umbrella! It is +utter madness!" + +The friend, who was only a poor man of the middle classes, had an +inspiration: + +"Make your fire assurance pay for it. The companies pay for all articles +that are burned, as long as the damage has been done in your own house." + +On hearing this advice the little woman calmed down immediately, and +then, after a moment's reflection, she said to her husband: + +"To-morrow, before going to your office, you will go to the Maternelle +Assurance Company, show them the state your umbrella is in, and make them +pay for the damage." + +M. Oreille fairly jumped, he was so startled at the proposal. + +"I would not do it for my life! It is eighteen francs lost, that is all. +It will not ruin us." + +The next morning he took a walking-stick when he went out, and, luckily, +it was a fine day. + +Left at home alone, Mme. Oreille could not get over the loss of her +eighteen francs by any means. She had put the umbrella on the dining- +room table, and she looked at it without being able to come to any +determination. + +Every moment she thought of the assurance company, but she did not dare +to encounter the quizzical looks of the gentlemen who might receive her, +for she was very timid before people, and blushed at a mere nothing, and +was embarrassed when she had to speak to strangers. + +But the regret at the loss of the eighteen francs pained her as if she +had been wounded. She tried not to think of it any more, and yet every +moment the recollection of the loss struck her painfully. What was she +to do, however? Time went on, and she could not decide; but suddenly, +like all cowards, on making a resolve, she became determined. + +"I will go, and we will see what will happen." + +But first of all she was obliged to prepare the umbrella so that the +disaster might be complete, and the reason of it quite evident. She took +a match from the mantelpiece, and between the ribs she burned a hole as +big as the palm of her hand; then she delicately rolled it up, fastened +it with the elastic band, put on her bonnet and shawl, and went quickly +toward the Rue de Rivoli, where the assurance office was. + +But the nearer she got, the slower she walked. What was she going to +say, and what reply would she get? + +She looked at the numbers of the houses; there were still twenty-eight. +That was all right, so she had time to consider, and she walked slower +and slower. Suddenly she saw a door on which was a large brass plate +with "La Maternelle Fire Assurance Office" engraved on it. Already! She +waited a moment, for she felt nervous and almost ashamed; then she walked +past, came back, walked past again, and came back again. + +At last she said to herself: + +"I must go in, however, so I may as well do it sooner as later." + +She could not help noticing, however, how her heart beat as she entered. +She went into an enormous room with grated doors all round it, and above +them little openings at which a man's head appeared, and as a gentleman +carrying a number of papers passed her, she stopped him and said timidly: +"I beg your pardon, monsieur, but can you tell me where I must apply for +payment for anything that has been accidentally burned?" + +He replied in a sonorous voice: + +"The first door on the left; that is the department you want." + +This frightened her still more, and she felt inclined to run away, to put +in no claim, to sacrifice her eighteen francs. But the idea of that sum +revived her courage, and she went upstairs, out of breath, stopping at +almost every other step. + +She knocked at a door which she saw on the first landing, and a clear +voice said, in answer: + +"Come in!" + +She obeyed mechanically, and found herself in a large room where three +solemn gentlemen, all with a decoration in their buttonholes, were +standing talking. + +One of them asked her: "What do you want, madame?" + +She could hardly get out her words, but stammered: "I have come--I have +come on account of an accident, something--". + +He very politely pointed out a seat to her, + +"If you will kindly sit down I will attend to you in a moment." + +And, returning to the other two, he went on with the conversation. + +"The company, gentlemen, does not consider that it is under any +obligation to you for more than four hundred thousand francs, and we can +pay no attention to your claim to the further sum of a hundred thousand, +which you wish to make us pay. Besides that, the surveyor's valuation--" + +One of the others interrupted him: + +"That is quite enough, monsieur; the law courts will decide between us, +and we have nothing further to do than to take our leave." And they went +out after mutual ceremonious bows. + +Oh! if she could only have gone away with them, how gladly she would have +done it; she would have run away and given up everything. But it was too +late, for the gentleman came back, and said, bowing: + +"What can I do for you, madame?" + +She could scarcely speak, but at last she managed to say: + +"I have come-for this." + +The manager looked at the object which she held out to him in mute +astonishment. + +With trembling fingers she tried to undo the elastic, and succeeding, +after several attempts, she hastily opened the damaged remains of the +umbrella. + +"It looks to me to be in a very bad state of health," he said +compassionately. + +"It cost me twenty francs," she said, with some hesitation. + +He seemed astonished. "Really! As much as that?" + +"Yes, it was a capital article, and I wanted you to see the condition it +is in." + +"Yes, yes, I see; very well. But I really do not understand what it can +have to do with me." + +She began to feel uncomfortable; perhaps this company did not pay for +such small articles, and she said: + +"But--it is burned." + +He could not deny it. + +"I see that very well," he replied. + +She remained open-mouthed, not knowing what to say next; then, suddenly +recollecting that she had left out the main thing, she said hastily: + +"I am Mme. Oreille; we are assured in La Maternelle, and I have come to +claim the value of this damage." + +"I only want you to have it re-covered," she added quickly, fearing a +positive refusal. + +The manager was rather embarrassed, and said: "But, really, madame, we do +not sell umbrellas; we cannot undertake such kinds of repairs." + +The little woman felt her courage reviving; she was not going to give up +without a struggle; she was not even afraid any more, and said: + +"I only want you to pay me the cost of repairing it; I can quite well get +it done myself." + +The gentleman seemed rather confused. + +"Really, madame, it is such a very small matter! We are never asked to +give compensation for such trivial losses. You must allow that we cannot +make good pocket-handkerchiefs, gloves, brooms, slippers, all the small +articles which are every day exposed to the chances of being burned." + +She got red in the face, and felt inclined to fly into a rage. + +"But, monsieur, last December one of our chimneys caught fire, and caused +at least five hundred francs' damage; M. Oreille made no claim on the +company, and so it is only just that it should pay for my umbrella now." + +The manager, guessing that she was telling a lie, said, with a smile: + +"You must acknowledge, madame, that it is very surprising that M. Oreille +should have asked no compensation for damages amounting to five hundred +francs, and should now claim five or six francs for mending an umbrella." + +She was not the least put out, and replied: + +"I beg your pardon, monsieur, the five hundred francs affected M. +Oreille's pocket, whereas this damage, amounting to eighteen francs, +concerns Mme. Oreille's pocket only, which is a totally different +matter." + +As he saw that he had no chance of getting rid of her, and that he would +only be wasting his time, he said resignedly: + +"Will you kindly tell me how the damage was done?" + +She felt that she had won the victory, and said: + +"This is how it happened, monsieur: In our hall there is a bronze stick +and umbrella stand, and the other day, when I came in, I put my umbrella +into it. I must tell you that just above there is a shelf for the +candlesticks and matches. I put out my hand, took three or four matches, +and struck one, but it missed fire, so I struck another, which ignited, +but went out immediately, and a third did the same." + +The manager interrupted her to make a joke. + +"I suppose they were government matches, then?" + +She did not understand him, and went on: + +"Very likely. At any rate, the fourth caught fire, and I lit my candle, +and went into my room to go to bed; but in a quarter of an hour I fancied +that I smelt something burning, and I have always been terribly afraid of +fire. If ever we have an accident it will not be my fault, I assure you. +I am terribly nervous since our chimney was on fire, as I told you; so I +got up, and hunted about everywhere, sniffing like a dog after game, and +at last I noticed that my umbrella was burning. Most likely a match had +fallen between the folds and burned it. You can see how it has damaged +it." + +The manager had taken his cue, and asked her: "What do you estimate the +damage at?" + +She did not know what to say, as she was not certain what value to put on +it, but at last she replied: + +"Perhaps you had better get it done yourself. I will leave it to you." + +He, however, naturally refused. + +"No, madame, I cannot do that. Tell me the amount of your claim, that is +all I want to know." + +"Well, I think that-- Look here, monsieur, I do not want to make any +money out of you, so I will tell you what we will do. I will take my +umbrella to the maker, who will re-cover it in good, durable silk, and I +will bring the bill to you. Will that suit you, monsieur?" + +"Perfectly, madame; we will settle it so. Here is a note for the +cashier, who will repay you whatever it costs you." + +He gave Mme. Oreille a slip of paper, who took it, got up and went out, +thanking him, for she was in a hurry to escape lest he should change his +mind. + +She went briskly through the streets, looking out for a really good +umbrella maker, and when she found a shop which appeared to be a first- +class one, she went in, and said, confidently: + +"I want this umbrella re-covered in silk, good silk. Use the very best +and strongest you have; I don't mind what it costs." + + + + + + +BELHOMME'S BEAST + +The coach for Havre was ready to leave Criquetot, and all the passengers +were waiting for their names to be called out, in the courtyard of the +Commercial Hotel kept by Monsieur Malandain, Jr. + +It was a yellow wagon, mounted on wheels which had once been yellow, but +were now almost gray through the accumulation of mud. The front wheels +were very small, the back ones, high and fragile, carried the large body +of the vehicle, which was swollen like the belly of an animal. Three +white horses, with enormous heads and great round knees, were the first +things one noticed. They were harnessed ready to draw this coach, which +had something of the appearance of a monster in its massive structure. +The horses seemed already asleep in front of the strange vehicle. + +The driver, Cesaire Horlaville, a little man with a big paunch, supple +nevertheless, through his constant habit of climbing over the wheels to +the top of the wagon, his face all aglow from exposure to the brisk air +of the plains, to rain and storms, and also from the use of brandy, his +eyes twitching from the effect of constant contact with wind and hail, +appeared in the doorway of the hotel, wiping his mouth on the back of his +hand. Large round baskets, full of frightened poultry, were standing in +front of the peasant women. Cesaire Horlaville took them one after the +other and packed them on the top of his coach; then more gently, he +loaded on those containing eggs; finally he tossed up from below several +little bags of grain, small packages wrapped in handkerchiefs, pieces of +cloth, or paper. Then he opened the back door, and drawing a list from +his pocket he called: + +"Monsieur le cure de Gorgeville." + +The priest advanced. He was a large, powerful, robust man with a red +face and a genial expression. He hitched up his cassock to lift his +foot, just as the women hold up their skirts, and climbed into the coach. + +"The schoolmaster of Rollebose-les-Grinets." + +The man hastened forward, tall, timid, wearing a long frock coat which +fell to his knees, and he in turn disappeared through the open door. + +"Maitre Poiret, two seats." + +Poiret approached, a tall, round-shouldered man, bent by the plow, +emaciated through abstinence, bony, with a skin dried by a sparing use of +water. His wife followed him, small and thin, like a tired animal, +carrying a large green umbrella in her hands. + +"Maitre Rabot, two seats." + +Rabot hesitated, being of an undecided nature. He asked: + +"You mean me?" + +The driver was going to answer with a jest, when Rabot dived head first +towards the door, pushed forward by a vigorous shove from his wife, a +tall, square woman with a large, round stomach like a barrel, and hands +as large as hams. + +Rabot slipped into the wagon like a rat entering a hole. + +"Maitre Caniveau." + +A large peasant, heavier than an ox, made the springs bend, and was in +turn engulfed in the interior of the yellow chest. + +"Maitre Belhomme." + +Belhomme, tall and thin, came forward, his neck bent, his head hanging, a +handkerchief held to his ear as if he were suffering from a terrible +toothache. + +All these people wore the blue blouse over quaint and antique coats of a +black or greenish cloth, Sunday clothes which they would only uncover in +the streets of Havre. Their heads were covered by silk caps at high as +towers, the emblem of supreme elegance in the small villages of Normandy. + +Cesaire Horlaville closed the door, climbed up on his box and snapped his +whip. + +The three horses awoke and, tossing their heads, shook their bells. + +The driver then yelling "Get up!" as loud as he could, whipped up his +horses. They shook themselves, and, with an effort, started off at a +slow, halting gait. And behind them came the coach, rattling its shaky +windows and iron springs, making a terrible clatter of hardware and +glass, while the passengers were tossed hither and thither like so many +rubber balls. + +At first all kept silent out of respect for the priest, that they might +not shock him. Being of a loquacious and genial disposition, he started +the conversation. + +"Well, Maitre Caniveau," said he, "how are you getting along?" + +The enormous farmer who, on account of his size, girth and stomach, felt +a bond of sympathy for the representative of the Church, answered with a +smile: + +"Pretty well, Monsieur le cure, pretty well. And how are you?" + +"Oh! I'm always well and healthy." + +"And you, Maitre Poiret?" asked the abbe. + +"Oh! I'd be all right only the colzas ain't a-goin' to give much this +year, and times are so hard that they are the only things worth while +raisin'." + +"Well, what can you expect? Times are hard." + +"Hub! I should say they were hard," sounded the rather virile voice of +Rabot's big consort. + +As she was from a neighboring village, the priest only knew her by name. + +"Is that you, Blondel?" he said. + +"Yes, I'm the one that married Rabot." + +Rabot, slender, timid, and self-satisfied, bowed smilingly, bending his +head forward as though to say: "Yes, I'm the Rabot whom Blondel married." + +Suddenly Maitre Belhomme, still holding his handkerchief to his ear, +began groaning in a pitiful fashion. He was going "Oh-oh-oh!" and +stamping his foot in order to show his terrible suffering. + +"You must have an awful toothache," said the priest. + +The peasant stopped moaning for a minute and answered: + +"No, Monsieur le cure, it is not the teeth. It's my ear-away down at the +bottom of my ear." + +"Well, what have you got in your ear? A lump of wax?" + +"I don't know whether it's wax; but I know that it is a bug, a big bug, +that crawled in while I was asleep in the haystack." + +"A bug! Are you sure?" + +"Am I sure? As sure as I am of heaven, Monsieur le cure! I can feel it +gnawing at the bottom of my ear! It's eating my head for sure! It's +eating my head! Oh-oh-oh!" And he began to stamp his foot again. + +Great interest had been aroused among the spectators. Each one gave his +bit of advice. Poiret claimed that it was a spider, the teacher, thought +it might be a caterpillar. He had already seen such a thing once, at +Campemuret, in Orne, where he had been for six years. In this case the +caterpillar had gone through the head and out at the nose. But the man +remained deaf in that ear ever after, the drum having been pierced. + +"It's more likely to be a worm," said the priest. + +Maitre Belhomme, his head resting against the door, for he had been the +last one to enter, was still moaning. + +"Oh--oh--oh! I think it must be an ant, a big ant--there it is biting +again. Oh, Monsieur le cure, how it hurts! how it hurts!" + +"Have you seen the doctor?" asked Caniveau. + +"I should say not!" + +"Why?" + +The fear of the doctor seemed to cure Belhomme. He straightened up +without, however, dropping his handkerchief. + +"What! You have money for them, for those loafers? He would have come +once, twice, three times, four times, five times! That means two five- +franc pieces, two five-franc pieces, for sure. And what would he have +done, the loafer, tell me, what would he have done? Can you tell me?" + +Caniveau was laughing. + +"No, I don't know. Where are you going?" + +"I am going to Havre, to see Chambrelan." + +"Who is Chambrelan?" + +"The healer, of course." + +"What healer?" + +"The healer who cured my father." + +"Your father?" + +"Yes, the healer who cured my father years ago." + +"What was the matter with your father?" + +"A draught caught him in the back, so that he couldn't move hand or +foot." + +"Well, what did your friend Chambrelan do to him?" + +"He kneaded his back with both hands as though he were making bread! +And he was all right in a couple of hours!" + +Belhomme thought that Chambrelan must also have used some charm, but he +did not dare say so before the priest. Caniveau replied, laughing: + +"Are you sure it isn't a rabbit that you have in your ear? He might have +taken that hole for his home. Wait, I'll make him run away." + +Whereupon Caniveau, making a megaphone of his hands, began to mimic the +barking of hounds. He snapped, howled, growled, barked. And everybody +in the carriage began to roar, even the schoolmaster, who, as a rule, +never ever smiled. + +However, as Belhomme seemed angry at their making fun of him, the priest +changed the conversation and turning to Rabot's big wife, said: + +"You have a large family, haven't you?" + +"Oh, yes, Monsieur le cure--and it's a pretty hard matter to bring them +up!" + +Rabot agreed, nodding his head as though to say: "Oh, yes, it's a hard +thing to bring up!" + +"How many children?" + +She replied authoritatively in a strong, clear voice: + +"Sixteen children, Monsieur le cure, fifteen of them by my husband!" + +And Rabot smiled broadly, nodding his head. He was responsible for +fifteen, he alone, Rabot! His wife said so! Therefore there could be no +doubt about it. And he was proud! + +And whose was the sixteenth? She didn't tell. It was doubtless the +first. Perhaps everybody knew, for no one was surprised. Even Caniveau +kept mum. + +But Belhomme began to moan again: + +"Oh-oh-oh! It's scratching about in the bottom of my ear! Oh, dear, oh, +dear!" + +The coach just then stopped at the Cafe Polyto. The priest said: + +"If someone were to pour a little water into your ear, it might perhaps +drive it out. Do you want to try?" + +"Sure! I am willing." + +And everybody got out in order to witness the operation. The priest +asked for a bowl, a napkin and a glass of water, then he told the teacher +to hold the patient's head over on one side, and, as soon as the liquid +should have entered the ear, to turn his head over suddenly on the other +side. + +But Caniveau, who was already peering into Belhomme's ear to see if he +couldn't discover the beast, shouted: + +"Gosh! What a mess! You'll have to clear that out, old man. Your +rabbit could never get through that; his feet would stick." + +The priest in turn examined the passage and saw that it was too narrow +and too congested for him to attempt to expel the animal. It was the +teacher who cleared out this passage by means of a match and a bit of +cloth. Then, in the midst of the general excitement, the priest poured +into the passage half a glass of water, which trickled over the face +through the hair and down the neck of the patient. Then the schoolmaster +quickly twisted the head round over the bowl, as though he were trying to +unscrew it. A couple of drops dripped into the white bowl. All the +passengers rushed forward. No insect had come out. + +However, Belhomme exclaimed: "I don't feel anything any more." The +priest triumphantly exclaimed: "Certainly it has been drowned." +Everybody was happy and got back into the coach. + +But hardly had they started when Belhomme began to cry out again. The +bug had aroused itself and had become furious. He even declared that it +had now entered his head and was eating his brain. He was howling with +such contortions that Poirat's wife, thinking him possessed by the devil, +began to cry and to cross herself. Then, the pain abating a little, the +sick man began to tell how it was running round in his ear. With his +finger he imitated the movements of the body, seeming to see it, to +follow it with his eyes: "There is goes up again! Oh--oh--oh--what +torture!" + +Caniveau was getting impatient. "It's the water that is making the bug +angry. It is probably more accustomed to wine." + +Everybody laughed, and he continued: "When we get to the Cafe Bourbeux, +give it some brandy, and it won't bother you any more, I wager." + +But Belhomme could contain himself no longer; he began howling as though +his soul were being torn from his body. The priest was obliged to hold +his head for him. They asked Cesaire Horlaville to stop at the nearest +house. It was a farmhouse at the side of the road. Belhomme was carried +into it and laid on the kitchen table in order to repeat the operation. +Caniveau advised mixing brandy and water in order to benumb and perhaps +kill the insect. But the priest preferred vinegar. + +They poured the liquid in drop by drop this time, that it might penetrate +down to the bottom, and they left it several minutes in the organ that +the beast had chosen for its home. + +A bowl had once more been brought; Belhomme was turned over bodily by the +priest and Caniveau, while the schoolmaster was tapping on the healthy +ear in order to empty the other. + +Cesaire Horlaville himself, whip in hand, had come in to observe the +proceedings. + +Suddenly, at the bottom of the bowl appeared a little brown spot, no +bigger than a tiny seed. However, it was moving. It was a flea! First +there were cries of astonishment and then shouts of laughter. A flea! +Well, that was a good joke, a mighty good one! Caniveau was slapping his +thigh, Cesaire Horlaville snapped his whip, the priest laughed like a +braying donkey, the teacher cackled as though he were sneezing, and the +two women were giving little screams of joy, like the clucking of hens. + +Belhomme had seated himself on the table and had taken the bowl between +his knees; he was observing, with serious attention and a vengeful anger +in his eye, the conquered insect which was twisting round in the water. +He grunted, "You rotten little beast!" and he spat on it. + +The driver, wild with joy, kept repeating: "A flea, a flea, ah! there you +are, damned little flea, damned little flea, damned little flea!" Then +having calmed down a little, he cried: "Well, back to the coach! We've +lost enough time." + + + + + + +DISCOVERY + +The steamer was crowded with people and the crossing promised to be good. +I was going from Havre to Trouville. + +The ropes were thrown off, the whistle blew for the last time, the whole +boat started to tremble, and the great wheels began to revolve, slowly at +first, and then with ever-increasing rapidity. + +We were gliding along the pier, black with people. Those on board were +waving their handkerchiefs, as though they were leaving for America, and +their friends on shore were answering in the same manner. + +The big July sun was shining down on the red parasols, the light dresses, +the joyous faces and on the ocean, barely stirred by a ripple. When we +were out of the harbor, the little vessel swung round the big curve and +pointed her nose toward the distant shore which was barely visible +through the early morning mist. On our left was the broad estuary of the +Seine, her muddy water, which never mingles with that of the ocean, +making large yellow streaks clearly outlined against the immense sheet of +the pure green sea. + +As soon as I am on a boat I feel the need of walking to and fro, like a +sailor on watch. Why? I do not know. Therefore I began to thread my +way along the deck through the crowd of travellers. Suddenly I heard my +name called. I turned around. I beheld one of my old friends, Henri +Sidoine, whom I had not seen for ten years. + +We shook hands and continued our walk together, talking of one thing or +another. Suddenly Sidoine, who had been observing the crowd of +passengers, cried out angrily: + +"It's disgusting, the boat is full of English people!" + +It was indeed full of them. The men were standing about, looking over +the ocean with an all-important air, as though to say: "We are the +English, the lords of the sea! Here we are!" + +The young girls, formless, with shoes which reminded one of the naval +constructions of their fatherland, wrapped in multi-colored shawls, were +smiling vacantly at the magnificent scenery. Their small heads, planted +at the top of their long bodies, wore English hats of the strangest +build. + +And the old maids, thinner yet, opening their characteristic jaws to the +wind, seemed to threaten one with their long, yellow teeth. On passing +them, one could notice the smell of rubber and of tooth wash. + +Sidoine repeated, with growing anger: + +"Disgusting! Can we never stop their coming to France?" + +I asked, smiling: + +"What have you got against them? As far as I am concerned, they don't +worry me." + +He snapped out: + +"Of course they don't worry you! But I married one of them." + +I stopped and laughed at him. + +"Go ahead and tell me about it. Does she make you very unhappy?" + +He shrugged his shoulders. + +"No, not exactly." + +"Then she--is not true to you?" + +"Unfortunately, she is. That would be cause for a divorce, and I could +get rid of her." + +"Then I'm afraid I don't understand!" + +"You don't understand? I'm not surprised. Well, she simply learned how +to speak French--that's all! Listen. + +"I didn't have the least desire of getting married when I went to spend +the summer at Etretat two years ago. There is nothing more dangerous +than watering-places. You have no idea how it suits young girls. Paris +is the place for women and the country for young girls. + +"Donkey rides, surf-bathing, breakfast on the grass, all these things are +traps set for the marriageable man. And, really, there is nothing +prettier than a child about eighteen, running through a field or picking +flowers along the road. + +"I made the acquaintance of an English family who were stopping at the +same hotel where I was. The father looked like those men you see over +there, and the mother was like all other Englishwomen. + +"They had two sons, the kind of boys who play rough games with balls, +bats or rackets from morning till night; then came two daughters, the +elder a dry, shrivelled-up Englishwoman, the younger a dream of beauty, +a heavenly blonde. When those chits make up their minds to be pretty, +they are divine. This one had blue eyes, the kind of blue which seems to +contain all the poetry, all the dreams, all the hopes and happiness of +the world! + +"What an infinity of dreams is caused by two such eyes! How well they +answer the dim, eternal question of our heart! + +"It must not be forgotten either that we Frenchmen adore foreign women. +As soon as we meet a Russian, an Italian, a Swede, a Spaniard, or an +Englishwoman with a pretty face, we immediately fall in love with her. +We enthuse over everything which comes from outside--clothes, hats, +gloves, guns and--women. But what a blunder! + +"I believe that that which pleases us in foreign women is their accent. +As soon as a woman speaks our language badly we think she is charming, +if she uses the wrong word she is exquisite and if she jabbers in an +entirely unintelligible jargon, she becomes irresistible. + +"My little English girl, Kate, spoke a language to be marvelled at. +At the beginning I could understand nothing, she invented so many new +words; then I fell absolutely in love with this queer, amusing dialect. +All maimed, strange, ridiculous terms became delightful in her mouth. +Every evening, on the terrace of the Casino, we had long conversations +which resembled spoken enigmas. + +"I married her! I loved her wildly, as one can only love in a dream. +For true lovers only love a dream which has taken the form of a woman. + +"Well, my dear fellow, the most foolish thing I ever did was to give my +wife a French teacher. As long as she slaughtered the dictionary and +tortured the grammar I adored her. Our conversations were simple. They +revealed to me her surprising gracefulness and matchless elegance; they +showed her to me as a wonderful speaking jewel, a living doll made to be +kissed, knowing, after a fashion, how to express what she loved. She +reminded me of the pretty little toys which say 'papa' and 'mamma' when +you pull a string. + +"Now she talks--badly--very badly. She makes as many mistakes as ever-- +but I can understand her. + +"I have opened my doll to look inside--and I have seen. And now I have +to talk to her! + +"Ah! you don't know, as I do, the opinions, the ideas, the theories of a +well-educated young English girl, whom I can blame in nothing, and who +repeats to me from morning till night sentences from a French reader +prepared in England for the use of young ladies' schools. + +"You have seen those cotillon favors, those pretty gilt papers, which +enclose candies with an abominable taste. I have one of them. I tore it +open. I wished to eat what was inside and it disgusted me so that I feel +nauseated at seeing her compatriots. + +"I have married a parrot to whom some old English governess might have +taught French. Do you understand?" + +The harbor of Trouville was now showing its wooden piers covered with +people. + +I said: + +"Where is your wife?" + +He answered: + +"I took her back to Etretat." + +"And you, where are you going?" + +"I? Oh, I am going to rest up here at Trouville." + +Then, after a pause, he added: + +"You have no idea what a fool a woman can be at times!" + + + + + + +THE ACCURSED BREAD + +Daddy Taille had three daughters: Anna, the eldest, who was scarcely ever +mentioned in the family; Rose, the second girl, who was eighteen, and +Clara, the youngest, who was a girl of fifteen. + +Old Taille was a widower and a foreman in M. Lebrument's button +manufactory. He was a very upright man, very well thought of, +abstemious; in fact, a sort of model workman. He lived at Havre, in the +Rue d'Angouleme. + +When Anna ran away from home the old man flew into a fearful rage. +He threatened to kill the head clerk in a large draper's establishment in +that town, whom he suspected. After a time, when he was told by various +people that she was very steady and investing money in government +securities, that she was no gadabout, but was a great friend of Monsieur +Dubois, who was a judge of the Tribunal of Commerce, the father was +appeased. + +He even showed some anxiety as to how she was getting on, and asked some +of her old friends who had been to see her, and when told that she had +her own furniture, and that her mantelpiece was covered with vases and +the walls with pictures, that there were clocks and carpets everywhere, +he gave a broad contented smile. He had been working for thirty years to +get together a wretched five or six thousand francs. This girl was +evidently no fool. + +One fine morning the son of Touchard, the cooper, at the other end of the +street, came and asked him for the hand of Rose, the second girl. The +old man's heart began to beat, for the Touchards were rich and in a good +position. He was decidedly lucky with his girls. + +The marriage was agreed upon, and it was settled that it should be a +grand affair, and the wedding dinner was to be held at Sainte-Adresse, at +Mother Jusa's restaurant. It would cost a lot certainly, but never mind, +it did not matter just for once in a way. + +But one morning, just as the old man was going home to luncheon with his +two daughters, the door opened suddenly, and Anna appeared. She was well +dressed and looked undeniably pretty and nice. She threw her arms round +her father's neck before he could say a word, then fell into her sisters' +arms with many tears and then asked for a plate, so that she might share +the family soup. Taille was moved to tears in his turn and said several +times: + +"That is right, dear, that is right." + +Then she told them about herself. She did not wish Rose's wedding to +take place at Sainte-Adresse--certainly not. It should take place at her +house and would cost her father nothing. She had settled everything and +arranged everything, so it was "no good to say any more about it--there!" + +"Very well, my dear! very well!" the old man said; "we will leave it +so." But then he felt some doubt. Would the Touchards consent? But +Rose, the bride-elect, was surprised and asked: "Why should they object, +I should like to know? Just leave that to me; I will talk to Philip +about it." + +She mentioned it to her lover the very same day, and he declared it would +suit him exactly. Father and Mother Touchard were naturally delighted at +the idea of a good dinner which would cost them nothing and said: + +"You may be quite sure that everything will be in first-rate style." + +They asked to be allowed to bring a friend, Madame Florence, the cook on +the first floor, and Anna agreed to everything. + +The wedding was fixed for the last Tuesday of the month. + +After the civil formalities and the religious ceremony the wedding party +went to Anna's house. Among those whom the Tailles had brought was a +cousin of a certain age, a Monsieur Sauvetanin, a man given to +philosophical reflections, serious, and always very self-possessed, and +Madame Lamondois, an old aunt. + +Monsieur Sautevanin had been told off to give Anna his arm, as they were +looked upon as the two most important persons in the company. + +As soon as they had arrived at the door of Anna's house she let go her +companion's arm, and ran on ahead, saying: "I will show you the way," and +ran upstairs while the invited guests followed more slowly; and, when +they got upstairs, she stood on one side to let them pass, and they +rolled their eyes and turned their heads in all directions to admire this +mysterious and luxurious dwelling. + +The table was laid in the drawing-room, as the dining-room had been +thought too small. Extra knives, forks and spoons had been hired from a +neighboring restaurant, and decanters stood full of wine under the rays +of the sun which shone in through the window. + +The ladies went into the bedroom to take off their shawls and bonnets, +and Father Touchard, who was standing at the door, made funny and +suggestive signs to the men, with many a wink and nod. Daddy Taille, who +thought a great deal of himself, looked with fatherly pride at his +child's well-furnished rooms and went from one to the other, holding his +hat in his hand, making a mental inventory of everything, and walking +like a verger in a church. + +Anna went backward and forward, ran about giving orders and hurrying on +the wedding feast. Soon she appeared at the door of the dining-room and +cried: "Come here, all of you, for a moment," and as the twelve guests +entered the room they saw twelve glasses of Madeira on a small table. + +Rose and her husband had their arms round each other's waists and were +kissing each other in every corner. Monsieur Sauvetanin never took his +eyes off Anna. + +They sat down, and the wedding breakfast began, the relations sitting at +one end of the table and the young people at the other. Madame Touchard, +the mother, presided on the right and the bride on the left. Anna looked +after everybody, saw that the glasses were kept filled and the plates +well supplied. The guests evidently felt a certain respectful +embarrassment at the sight of all the sumptuousness of the rooms and at +the lavish manner in which they were treated. They all ate heartily of +the good things provided, but there were no jokes such as are prevalent. +at weddings of that sort; it was all too grand, and it made them feel +uncomfortable. Old Madame Touchard, who was fond of a bit of fun, tried +to enliven matters a little, and at the beginning of the dessert she +exclaimed: "I say, Philip, do sing us something." The neighbors in their +street considered that he had the finest voice in all Havre. + +The bridegroom got up, smiled, and, turning to his sister-in-law, from +politeness and gallantry, tried to think of something suitable for the +occasion, something serious and correct, to harmonize with the +seriousness of the repast. + +Anna had a satisfied look on her face, and leaned back in her chair to +listen, and all assumed looks of attention, though prepared to smile +should smiles he called for. + +The singer announced "The Accursed Bread," and, extending his right arm, +which made his coat ruck up into his neck, he began. + +It was decidedly long, three verses of eight lines each, with the last +line and the last but one repeated twice. + +All went well for the first two verses; they were the usual commonplaces +about bread gained by honest labor and by dishonesty. The aunt and the +bride wept outright. The cook, who was present, at the end of the first +verse looked at a roll which she held in her hand, with streaming eyes, +as if it applied to her, while all applauded vigorously. At the end of +the second verse the two servants, who were standing with their backs to +the wall, joined loudly in the chorus, and the aunt and the bride wept +outright. + +Daddy Taille blew his nose with the noise of a trombone, and old Touchard +brandished a whole loaf half over the table, and the cook shed silent +tears on the crust which she was still holding. + +Amid the general emotion Monsieur Sauvetanin said: + +"That is the right sort of song; very different from the nasty, risky +things one generally hears at weddings." + +Anna, who was visibly affected, kissed her hand to her sister and pointed +to her husband with an affectionate nod, as if to congratulate her. + +Intoxicated by his success, the young man continued, and unfortunately +the last verse contained words about the "bread of dishonor" gained by +young girls who had been led astray. No one took up the refrain about +this bread, supposed to be eaten with tears, except old Touchard and the +two servants. Anna had grown deadly pale and cast down her eyes, while +the bridegroom looked from one to the other without understanding the +reason for this sudden coldness, and the cook hastily dropped the crust +as if it were poisoned. + +Monsieur Sauvetanin said solemnly, in order to save the situation: "That +last couplet is not at all necessary"; and Daddy Taille, who had got red +up to his ears, looked round the table fiercely. + +Then Anna, her eyes swimming in tears, told the servants in the faltering +voice of a woman trying to stifle her sobs, to bring the champagne. + +All the guests were suddenly seized with exuberant joy, and all their +faces became radiant again. And when old Touchard, who had seen, felt +and understood nothing of what was going on, and pointing to the guests +so as to emphasize his words, sang the last words of the refrain: + +"Children, I warn you all to eat not of that bread," the whole company, +when they saw the champagne bottles, with their necks covered with gold +foil, appear, burst out singing, as if electrified by the sight: + +"Children, I warn you all to eat not of that bread." + + + + + + +THE DOWRY + +The marriage of Maitre Simon Lebrument with Mademoiselle Jeanne Cordier +was a surprise to no one. Maitre Lebrument had bought out the practice +of Maitre Papillon; naturally, he had to have money to pay for it; and +Mademoiselle Jeanne Cordier had three hundred thousand francs clear in +currency, and in bonds payable to bearer. + +Maitre Lebrument was a handsome man. He was stylish, although in a +provincial way; but, nevertheless, he was stylish--a rare thing at +Boutigny-le-Rebours. + +Mademoiselle Cordier was graceful and fresh-looking, although a trifle +awkward; nevertheless, she was a handsome girl, and one to be desired. + +The marriage ceremony turned all Boutigny topsy-turvy. Everybody admired +the young couple, who quickly returned home to domestic felicity, having +decided simply to take a short trip to Paris, after a few days of +retirement. + +This tete-a-tete was delightful, Maitre Lebrument having shown just the +proper amount of delicacy. He had taken as his motto: "Everything comes +to him who waits." He knew how to be at the same time patient and +energetic. His success was rapid and complete. + +After four days, Madame Lebrument adored her husband. She could not get +along without him. She would sit on his knees, and taking him by the +ears she would say: "Open your mouth and shut your eyes." He would open +his mouth wide and partly close his eyes, and he would try to nip her +fingers as she slipped some dainty between his teeth. Then she would +give him a kiss, sweet and long, which would make chills run up and down +his spine. And then, in his turn, he would not have enough caresses to +please his wife from morning to night and from night to morning. + +When the first week was over, he said to his young companion: + +"If you wish, we will leave for Paris next Tuesday. We will be like two +lovers, we will go to the restaurants, the theatres, the concert halls, +everywhere, everywhere!" + +She was ready to dance for joy. + +"Oh! yes, yes. Let us go as soon as possible." + +He continued: + +"And then, as we must forget nothing, ask your father to have your dowry +ready; I shall pay Maitre Papillon on this trip." + +She answered: + +"All right: I will tell him to-morrow morning." + +And he took her in his arms once more, to renew those sweet games of love +which she had so enjoyed for the past week. + +The following Tuesday, father-in-law and mother-in-law went to the +station with their daughter and their son-in-law who were leaving for the +capital. + +The father-in-law said: + +"I tell you it is very imprudent to carry so much money about in a +pocketbook." And the young lawyer smiled. + +"Don't worry; I am accustomed to such things. You understand that, in my +profession, I sometimes have as much as a million about me. In this +manner, at least we avoid a great amount of red tape and delay. You +needn't worry." + +The conductor was crying: + +"All aboard for Paris!" + +They scrambled into a car, where two old ladies were already seated. + +Lebrument whispered into his wife's ear: + +"What a bother! I won't be able to smoke." + +She answered in a low voice + +"It annoys me too, but not an account of your cigar." + +The whistle blew and the train started. The trip lasted about an hour, +during which time they did not say very much to each other, as the two +old ladies did not go to sleep. + +As soon as they were in front of the Saint-Lazare Station, Maitre +Lebrument said to his wife: + +"Dearie, let us first go over to the Boulevard and get something to eat; +then we can quietly return and get our trunk and bring it to the hotel." + +She immediately assented. + +"Oh! yes. Let's eat at the restaurant. Is it far?" + +He answered: + +"Yes, it's quite a distance, but we will take the omnibus." + +She was surprised: + +"Why don't we take a cab?" + +He began to scold her smilingly: + +"Is that the way you save money? A cab for a five minutes' ride at six +cents a minute! You would deprive yourself of nothing." + +"That's so," she said, a little embarrassed. + +A big omnibus was passing by, drawn by three big horses, which were +trotting along. Lebrument called out: + +"Conductor! Conductor!" + +The heavy carriage stopped. And the young lawyer, pushing his wife, said +to her quickly: + +"Go inside; I'm going up on top, so that I may smoke at least one +cigarette before lunch." + +She had no time to answer. The conductor, who had seized her by the arm +to help her up the step, pushed her inside, and she fell into a seat, +bewildered, looking through the back window at the feet of her husband as +he climbed up to the top of the vehicle. + +And she sat there motionless, between a fat man who smelled of cheap +tobacco and an old woman who smelled of garlic. + +All the other passengers were lined up in silence--a grocer's boy, a +young girl, a soldier, a gentleman with gold-rimmed spectacles and a big +silk hat, two ladies with a self-satisfied and crabbed look, which seemed +to say: "We are riding in this thing, but we don't have to," two sisters +of charity and an undertaker. They looked like a collection of +caricatures. + +The jolting of the wagon made them wag their heads and the shaking of the +wheels seemed to stupefy them--they all looked as though they were +asleep. + +The young woman remained motionless. + +"Why didn't he come inside with me?" she was saying to herself. An +unaccountable sadness seemed to be hanging over her. He really need not +have acted so. + +The sisters motioned to the conductor to stop, and they got off one after +the other, leaving in their wake the pungent smell of camphor. The bus +started tip and soon stopped again. And in got a cook, red-faced and out +of breath. She sat down and placed her basket of provisions on her +knees. A strong odor of dish-water filled the vehicle. + +"It's further than I imagined," thought Jeanne. + +The undertaker went out, and was replaced by a coachman who seemed to +bring the atmosphere of the stable with him. The young girl had as a +successor a messenger, the odor of whose feet showed that he was +continually walking. + +The lawyer's wife began to feel ill at ease, nauseated, ready to cry +without knowing why. + +Other persons left and others entered. The stage went on through +interminable streets, stopping at stations and starting again. + +"How far it is!" thought Jeanne. "I hope he hasn't gone to sleep! He +has been so tired the last few days." + +Little by little all the passengers left. She was left alone, all alone. +The conductor cried: + +"Vaugirard!" + +Seeing that she did not move, he repeated: + +"Vaugirard!" + +She looked at him, understanding that he was speaking to her, as there +was no one else there. For the third time the man said: + +"Vaugirard!" + +Then she asked: + +"Where are we?" + +He answered gruffly: + +"We're at Vaugirard, of course! I have been yelling it for the last half +hour!" + +"Is it far from the Boulevard?" she said. + +"Which boulevard?" + +"The Boulevard des Italiens." + +"We passed that a long time ago!" + +"Would you mind telling my husband?" + +"Your husband! Where is he?" + +"On the top of the bus." + +"On the top! There hasn't been anybody there for a long time." + +She started, terrified. + +"What? That's impossible! He got on with me. Look well! He must be +there." + +The conductor was becoming uncivil: + +"Come on, little one, you've talked enough! You can find ten men for +every one that you lose. Now run along. You'll find another one +somewhere." + +Tears were coming to her eyes. She insisted: + +"But, monsieur, you are mistaken; I assure you that you must be mistaken. +He had a big portfolio under his arm." + +The man began to laugh: + +"A big portfolio! Oh, yes! He got off at the Madeleine. He got rid of +you, all right! Ha! ha! ha!" + +The stage had stopped. She got out and, in spite of herself, she looked +up instinctively to the roof of the bus. It was absolutely deserted. + +Then she began to cry, and, without thinking that anybody was listening +or watching her, she said out loud: + +"What is going to become of me?" + +An inspector approached: + +"What's the matter?" + +The conductor answered, in a bantering tone of voice: + +"It's a lady who got left by her husband during the trip." + +The other continued: + +"Oh! that's nothing. You go about your business." + +Then he turned on his heels and walked away. + +She began to walk straight ahead, too bewildered, too crazed even to +understand what had happened to her. Where was she to go? What could +she do? What could have happened to him? How could he have made such a +mistake? How could he have been so forgetful? + +She had two francs in her pocket. To whom could she go? Suddenly she +remembered her cousin Barral, one of the assistants in the offices of the +Ministry of the Navy. + +She had just enough to pay for a cab. She drove to his house. He met +her just as he was leaving for his office. He was carrying a large +portfolio under his arm, just like Lebrument. + +She jumped out of the carriage. + +"Henry!" she cried. + +He stopped, astonished: + +"Jeanne! Here--all alone! What are you doing? Where have you come +from?" + +Her eyes full of tears, she stammered: + +"My husband has just got lost!" + +"Lost! Where?" + +"On an omnibus." + +"On an omnibus?" + +Weeping, she told him her whole adventure. + +He listened, thought, and then asked: + +"Was his mind clear this morning?" + +"Yes." + +"Good. Did he have much money with him?" + +"Yes, he was carrying my dowry." + +"Your dowry! The whole of it?" + +"The whole of it--in order to pay for the practice which he bought." + +"Well, my dear cousin, by this time your husband must be well on his way +to Belgium." + +She could not understand. She kept repeating: + +"My husband--you say--" + +"I say that he has disappeared with your--your capital--that's all!" + +She stood there, a prey to conflicting emotions, sobbing. + +"Then he is--he is--he is a villain!" + +And, faint from excitement, she leaned her head on her cousin's shoulder +and wept. + +As people were stopping to look at them, he pushed her gently into the +vestibule of his house, and, supporting her with his arm around her +waist, he led her up the stairs, and as his astonished servant opened the +door, he ordered: + +"Sophie, run to the restaurant and get a luncheon for two. I am not +going to the office to-day." + + + + + + +THE DIARY OF A MADMAN + +He was dead--the head of a high tribunal, the upright magistrate whose +irreproachable life was a proverb in all the courts of France. +Advocates, young counsellors, judges had greeted him at sight of his +large, thin, pale face lighted up by two sparkling deep-set eyes, bowing +low in token of respect. + +He had passed his life in pursuing crime and in protecting the weak. +Swindlers and murderers had no more redoubtable enemy, for he seemed to +read the most secret thoughts of their minds. + +He was dead, now, at the age of eighty-two, honored by the homage and +followed by the regrets of a whole people. Soldiers in red trousers had +escorted him to the tomb and men in white cravats had spoken words and +shed tears that seemed to be sincere beside his grave. + +But here is the strange paper found by the dismayed notary in the desk +where he had kept the records of great criminals! It was entitled: + +WHY? + +20th June, 1851. I have just left court. I have condemned Blondel to +death! Now, why did this man kill his five children? Frequently one +meets with people to whom the destruction of life is a pleasure. Yes, +yes, it should be a pleasure, the greatest of all, perhaps, for is not +killing the next thing to creating? To make and to destroy! These two +words contain the history of the universe, all the history of worlds, all +that is, all! Why is it not intoxicating to kill? + +25th June. To think that a being is there who lives, who walks, who +runs. A being? What is a being? That animated thing, that bears in it +the principle of motion and a will ruling that motion. It is attached to +nothing, this thing. Its feet do not belong to the ground. It is a +grain of life that moves on the earth, and this grain of life, coming I +know not whence, one can destroy at one's will. Then nothing--nothing +more. It perishes, it is finished. + +26th June. Why then is it a crime to kill? Yes, why? On the contrary, +it is the law of nature. The mission of every being is to kill; he kills +to live, and he kills to kill. The beast kills without ceasing, all day, +every instant of his existence. Man kills without ceasing, to nourish +himself; but since he needs, besides, to kill for pleasure, he has +invented hunting! The child kills the insects he finds, the little +birds, all the little animals that come in his way. But this does not +suffice for the irresistible need to massacre that is in us. It is not +enough to kill beasts; we must kill man too. Long ago this need was +satisfied by human sacrifices. Now the requirements of social life have +made murder a crime. We condemn and punish the assassin! But as we +cannot live without yielding to this natural and imperious instinct of +death, we relieve ourselves, from time to time, by wars. Then a whole +nation slaughters another nation. It is a feast of blood, a feast that +maddens armies and that intoxicates civilians, women and children, who +read, by lamplight at night, the feverish story of massacre. + +One might suppose that those destined to accomplish these butcheries of +men would be despised! No, they are loaded with honors. They are clad +in gold and in resplendent garments; they wear plumes on their heads and +ornaments on their breasts, and they are given crosses, rewards, titles +of every kind. They are proud, respected, loved by women, cheered by the +crowd, solely because their mission is to shed human blood; They drag +through the streets their instruments of death, that the passer-by, clad +in black, looks on with envy. For to kill is the great law set by nature +in the heart of existence! There is nothing more beautiful and honorable +than killing! + +30th June. To kill is the law, because nature loves eternal youth. She +seems to cry in all her unconscious acts: "Quick! quick! quick!" The more +she destroys, the more she renews herself. + +2d July. A human being--what is a human being? Through thought it is a +reflection of all that is; through memory and science it is an abridged +edition of the universe whose history it represents, a mirror of things +and of nations, each human being becomes a microcosm in the macrocosm. + +3d July. It must be a pleasure, unique and full of zest, to kill; to +have there before one the living, thinking being; to make therein a +little hole, nothing but a little hole, to see that red thing flow which +is the blood, which makes life; and to have before one only a heap of +limp flesh, cold, inert, void of thought! + +5th August. I, who have passed my life in judging, condemning, killing +by the spoken word, killing by the guillotine those who had killed by the +knife, I, I, if I should do as all the assassins have done whom I have +smitten, I--I--who would know it? + +l0th August. Who would ever know? Who would ever suspect me, me, me, +especially if I should choose a being I had no interest in doing away +with? + +15th August. The temptation has come to me. It pervades my whole being; +my hands tremble with the desire to kill. + +22d August. I could resist no longer. I killed a little creature as an +experiment, for a beginning. Jean, my servant, had a goldfinch in a cage +hung in the office window. I sent him on an errand, and I took the +little bird in my hand, in my hand where I felt its heart beat. It was +warm. I went up to my room. From time to time I squeezed it tighter; +its heart beat faster; this was atrocious and delicious. I was near +choking it. But I could not see the blood. + +Then I took scissors, short-nail scissors, and I cut its throat with +three slits, quite gently. It opened its bill, it struggled to escape +me, but I held it, oh! I held it--I could have held a mad dog--and I saw +the blood trickle. + +And then I did as assassins do--real ones. I washed the scissors, I +washed my hands. I sprinkled water and took the body, the corpse, to the +garden to hide it. I buried it under a strawberry-plant. It will never +be found. Every day I shall eat a strawberry from that plant. How one +can enjoy life when one knows how! + +My servant cried; he thought his bird flown. How could he suspect me? +Ah! ah! + +25th August. I must kill a man! I must---- + +30th August. It is done. But what a little thing! I had gone for a +walk in the forest of Vernes. I was thinking of nothing, literally +nothing. A child was in the road, a little child eating a slice of bread +and butter. + +He stops to see me pass and says, "Good-day, Mr. President." + +And the thought enters my head, "Shall I kill him?" + +I answer: "You are alone, my boy?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"All alone in the wood?" + +"Yes, sir." + +The wish to kill him intoxicated me like wine. I approached him quite +softly, persuaded that he was going to run away. And, suddenly, I seized +him by the throat. He looked at me with terror in his eyes--such eyes! +He held my wrists in his little hands and his body writhed like a feather +over the fire. Then he moved no more. I threw the body in the ditch, +and some weeds on top of it. I returned home, and dined well. What a +little thing it was! In the evening I was very gay, light, rejuvenated; +I passed the evening at the Prefect's. They found me witty. But I have +not seen blood! I am tranquil. + +31st August. The body has been discovered. They are hunting for the +assassin. Ah! ah! + +1st September. Two tramps have been arrested. Proofs are lacking. + +2d September. The parents have been to see me. They wept! Ah! ah! + +6th October. Nothing has been discovered. Some strolling vagabond must +have done the deed. Ah! ah! If I had seen the blood flow, it seems to +me I should be tranquil now! The desire to kill is in my blood; it is +like the passion of youth at twenty. + +20th October. Yet another. I was walking by the river, after breakfast. +And I saw, under a willow, a fisherman asleep. It was noon. A spade was +standing in a potato-field near by, as if expressly, for me. + +I took it. I returned; I raised it like a club, and with one blow of the +edge I cleft the fisherman's head. Oh! he bled, this one! Rose-colored +blood. It flowed into the water, quite gently. And I went away with a +grave step. If I had been seen! Ah! ah! I should have made an +excellent assassin. + +25th October. The affair of the fisherman makes a great stir. His +nephew, who fished with him, is charged with the murder. + +26th October. The examining magistrate affirms that the nephew is +guilty. Everybody in town believes it. Ah! ah! + +27th October. The nephew makes a very poor witness. He had gone to the +village to buy bread and cheese, he declared. He swore that his uncle +had been killed in his absence! Who would believe him? + +28th October. The nephew has all but confessed, they have badgered him +so. Ah! ah! justice! + +15th November. There are overwhelming proofs against the nephew, who was +his uncle's heir. I shall preside at the sessions. + +25th January. To death! to death! to death! I have had him condemned to +death! Ah! ah! The advocate-general spoke like an angel! Ah! ah! Yet +another! I shall go to see him executed! + +10th March. It is done. They guillotined him this morning. He died +very well! very well! That gave me pleasure! How fine it is to see a +man's head cut off + +Now, I shall wait, I can wait. It would take such a little thing to let +myself be caught. + + +The manuscript contained yet other pages, but without relating any new +crime. + +Alienist physicians to whom the awful story has been submitted declare +that there are in the world many undiscovered madmen as adroit and as +much to be feared as this monstrous lunatic. + + + + + + +THE MASK + +There was a masquerade ball at the Elysee-Montmartre that evening. It +was the 'Mi-Careme', and the crowds were pouring into the brightly +lighted passage which leads to the dance ball, like water flowing through +the open lock of a canal. The loud call of the orchestra, bursting like +a storm of sound, shook the rafters, swelled through the whole +neighborhood and awoke, in the streets and in the depths of the houses, +an irresistible desire to jump, to get warm, to have fun, which slumbers +within each human animal. + +The patrons came from every quarter of Paris; there were people of all +classes who love noisy pleasures, a little low and tinged with debauch. +There were clerks and girls--girls of every description, some wearing +common cotton, some the finest batiste; rich girls, old and covered with +diamonds, and poor girls of sixteen, full of the desire to revel, to +belong to men, to spend money. Elegant black evening suits, in search of +fresh or faded but appetizing novelty, wandering through the excited +crowds, looking, searching, while the masqueraders seemed moved above all +by the desire for amusement. Already the far-famed quadrilles had +attracted around them a curious crowd. The moving hedge which encircled +the four dancers swayed in and out like a snake, sometimes nearer and +sometimes farther away, according to the motions of the performers. The +two women, whose lower limbs seemed to be attached to their bodies by +rubber springs, were making wonderful and surprising motions with their +legs. Their partners hopped and skipped about, waving their arms about. +One could imagine their panting breath beneath their masks. + +One of them, who had taken his place in the most famous quadrille, as +substitute for an absent celebrity, the handsome "Songe-au-Gosse," was +trying to keep up with the tireless "Arete-de-Veau" and was making +strange fancy steps which aroused the joy and sarcasm of the audience. + +He was thin, dressed like a dandy, with a pretty varnished mask on his +face. It had a curly blond mustache and a wavy wig. He looked like a +wax figure from the Musee Grevin, like a strange and fantastic caricature +of the charming young man of fashion plates, and he danced with visible +effort, clumsily, with a comical impetuosity. He appeared rusty beside +the others when he tried to imitate their gambols: he seemed overcome by +rheumatism, as heavy as a great Dane playing with greyhounds. Mocking +bravos encouraged him. And he, carried away with enthusiasm, jigged +about with such frenzy that suddenly, carried away by a wild spurt, he +pitched head foremost into the living wall formed by the audience, which +opened up before him to allow him to pass, then closed around the +inanimate body of the dancer, stretched out on his face. + +Some men picked him up and carried him away, calling for a doctor. A +gentleman stepped forward, young and elegant, in well-fitting evening +clothes, with large pearl studs. "I am a professor of the Faculty of +Medicine," he said in a modest voice. He was allowed to pass, and he +entered a small room full of little cardboard boxes, where the still +lifeless dancer had been stretched cut on some chairs. The doctor at +first wished to take off the mask, and he noticed that it was attached in +a complicated manner, with a perfect network of small metal wires which +cleverly bound it to his wig and covered the whole head. Even the neck +was imprisoned in a false skin which continued the chin and was painted +the color of flesh, being attached to the collar of the shirt. + +All this had to be cut with strong scissors. When the physician had slit +open this surprising arrangement, from the shoulder to the temple, he +opened this armor and found the face of an old man, worn out, thin and +wrinkled. The surprise among those who had brought in this seemingly +young dancer was so great that no one laughed, no one said a word. + +All were watching this sad face as he lay on the straw chairs, his eyes +closed, his face covered with white hair, some long, falling from the +forehead over the face, others short, growing around the face and the +chin, and beside this poor head, that pretty little, neat varnished, +smiling mask. + +The man regained consciousness after being inanimate for a long time, but +he still seemed to be so weak and sick that the physician feared some +dangerous complication. He asked: "Where do you live?" + +The old dancer seemed to be making an effort to remember, and then he +mentioned the name of the street, which no one knew. He was asked for +more definite information about the neighborhood. He answered with a +great slowness, indecision and difficulty, which revealed his upset state +of mind. The physician continued: + +"I will take you home myself." + +Curiosity had overcome him to find out who this strange dancer, this +phenomenal jumper might be. Soon the two rolled away in a cab to the +other side of Montmartre. + +They stopped before a high building of poor appearance. They went up a +winding staircase. The doctor held to the banister, which was so grimy +that the hand stuck to it, and he supported the dizzy old man, whose +forces were beginning to return. They stopped at the fourth floor. + +The door at which they had knocked was opened by an old woman, neat +looking, with a white nightcap enclosing a thin face with sharp features, +one of those good, rough faces of a hard-working and faithful woman. She +cried out: + +"For goodness sake! What's the matter?" + +He told her the whole affair in a few words. She became reassured and +even calmed the physician himself by telling him that the same thing had +happened many times. She said: "He must be put to bed, monsieur, that is +all. Let him sleep and tomorrow he will be all right." + +The doctor continued: "But he can hardly speak." + +"Oh! that's just a little drink, nothing more; he has eaten no dinner, +in order to be nimble, and then he took a few absinthes in order to work +himself up to the proper pitch. You see, drink gives strength to his +legs, but it stops his thoughts and words. He is too old to dance as he +does. Really, his lack of common sense is enough to drive one mad!" + +The doctor, surprised, insisted: + +"But why does he dance like that at his age?" + +She shrugged her shoulders and turned red from the anger which was slowly +rising within her and she cried out: + +"Ah! yes, why? So that the people will think him young under his mask; +so that the women will still take him for a young dandy and whisper nasty +things into his ears; so that he can rub up against all their dirty +skins, with their perfumes and powders and cosmetics. Ah! it's a fine +business! What a life I have had for the last forty years! But we must +first get him to bed, so that he may have no ill effects. Would you mind +helping me? When he is like that I can't do anything with him alone." + +The old man was sitting on his bed, with a tipsy look, his long white +hair falling over his face. His companion looked at him with tender yet +indignant eyes. She continued: + +"Just see the fine head he has for his age, and yet he has to go and +disguise himself in order to make people think that he is young. It's a +perfect shame! Really, he has a fine head, monsieur! Wait, I'll show it +to you before putting him to bed." + +She went to a table on which stood the washbasin a pitcher of water, soap +and a comb and brush. She took the brush, returned to the bed and pushed +back the drunkard's tangled hair. In a few seconds she made him look +like a model fit for a great painter, with his long white locks flowing +on his neck. Then she stepped back in order to observe him, saying: +"There! Isn't he fine for his age?" + +"Very," agreed the doctor, who was beginning to be highly amused. + +She added: "And if you had known him when he was twenty-five! But we +must get him to bed, otherwise the drink will make him sick. Do you mind +drawing off that sleeve? Higher-like that-that's right. Now the +trousers. Wait, I will take his shoes off--that's right. Now, hold him +upright while I open the bed. There--let us put him in. If you think +that he is going to disturb himself when it is time for me to get in you +are mistaken. I have to find a little corner any place I can. That +doesn't bother him! Bah! You old pleasure seeker!" + +As soon as he felt himself stretched out in his sheets the old man closed +his eyes, opened them closed them again, and over his whole face appeared +an energetic resolve to sleep. The doctor examined him with an ever- +increasing interest and asked: "Does he go to all the fancy balls and try +to be a young man?" "To all of them, monsieur, and he comes back to me in +the morning in a deplorable condition. You see, it's regret that leads +him on and that makes him put a pasteboard face over his own. Yes, the +regret of no longer being what he was and of no longer making any +conquests!" + +He was sleeping now and beginning to snore. She looked at him with a +pitying expression and continued: "Oh! how many conquests that man has +made! More than one could believe, monsieur, more than the finest +gentlemen of the world, than all the tenors and all the generals." + +"Really? What did he do?" + +"Oh! it will surprise you at first, as you did not know him in his palmy +days. When I met him it was also at a ball, for he has always frequented +them. As soon as I saw him I was caught--caught like a fish on a hook. +Ah! how pretty he was, monsieur, with his curly raven locks and black +eyes as large as saucers! Indeed, he was good looking! He took me away +that evening and I never have left him since, never, not even for a day, +no matter what he did to me! Oh! he has often made it hard for me!" + +The doctor asked: "Are you married?" + +She answered simply: "Yes, monsieur, otherwise he would have dropped me +as he did the others. I have been his wife and his servant, everything, +everything that he wished. How he has made me cry--tears which I did not +show him; for he would tell all his adventures to me--to me, monsieur-- +without understanding how it hurt me to listen." + +"But what was his business?" + +"That's so. I forgot to tell you. He was the foreman at Martel's--a +foreman such as they never had had--an artist who averaged ten francs an +hour." + +"Martel?--who is Martel?" + +"The hairdresser, monsieur, the great hairdresser of the Opera, who had +all the actresses for customers. Yes, sir, all the smartest actresses +had their hair dressed by Ambrose and they would give him tips that made +a fortune for him. Ah! monsieur, all the women are alike, yes, all of +them. When a man pleases their fancy they offer themselves to him. It +is so easy--and it hurt me so to hear about it. For he would tell me +everything--he simply could not hold his tongue--it was impossible. +Those things please the men so much! They seem to get even more +enjoyment out of telling than doing. + +"When I would see him coming in the evening, a little pale, with a +pleased look and a bright eye, would say to myself: 'One more. I am sure +that he has caught one more.' Then I felt a wild desire to question him +and then, again, not to know, to stop his talking if he should begin. +And we would look at each other. + +"I knew that he would not keep still, that he would come to the point. +I could feel that from his manner, which seemed to laugh and say: 'I had +a fine adventure to-day, Madeleine.' I would pretend to notice nothing, +to guess nothing; I would set the table, bring on the soup and sit down +opposite him. + +"At those times, monsieur, it was as if my friendship for him had been +crushed in my body as with a stone. It hurt. But he did not understand; +he did not know; he felt a need to tell all those things to some one, to +boast, to show how much he was loved, and I was the only one he had to +whom he could talk-the only one. And I would have to listen and drink it +in, like poison. + +"He would begin to take his soup and then he would say: 'One more, +Madeleine.' + +"And I would think: 'Here it comes! Goodness! what a man! Why did I +ever meet him?' + +"Then he would begin: 'One more! And a beauty, too.' And it would be +some little one from the Vaudeville or else from the Varietes, and some +of the big ones, too, some of the most famous. He would tell me their +names, how their apartments were furnished, everything, everything, +monsieur. Heartbreaking details. And he would go over them and tell his +story over again from beginning to end, so pleased with himself that I +would pretend to laugh so that he would not get angry with me. + +"Everything may not have been true! He liked to glorify himself and was +quite capable of inventing such things! They may perhaps also have been +true! On those evenings he would pretend to be tired and wish to go to +bed after supper. We would take supper at eleven, monsieur, for he could +never get back from work earlier. + +"When he had finished telling about his adventure he would walk round the +room and smoke cigarettes, and he was so handsome, with his mustache and +curly hair, that I would think: 'It's true, just the same, what he is +telling. Since I myself am crazy about that man, why should not others +be the same?' Then I would feel like crying, shrieking, running away and +jumping out of the window while I was clearing the table and he was +smoking. He would yawn in order to show how tired he was, and he would +say two or three times before going to bed: 'Ah! how well I shall sleep +this evening!' + +"I bear him no ill will, because he did not know how he was hurting me. +No, he could not know! He loved to boast about the women just as a +peacock loves to show his feathers. He got to the point where he thought +that all of them looked at him and desired him. + +"It was hard when he grew old. Oh, monsieur, when I saw his first white +hair I felt a terrible shock and then a great joy--a wicked joy--but so +great, so great! I said to myself: 'It's the end-it's the end.' +It seemed as if I were about to be released from prison. At last I could +have him to myself, all to myself, when the others would no longer want +him. + +"It was one morning in bed. He was still sleeping and I leaned over him +to wake him up with a kiss, when I noticed in his curls, over his temple, +a little thread which shone like silver. What a surprise! I should not +have thought it possible! At first I thought of tearing it out so that +he would not see it, but as I looked carefully I noticed another farther +up. White hair! He was going to have white hair! My heart began to +thump and perspiration stood out all over me, but away down at the bottom +I was happy. + +"It was mean to feel thus, but I did my housework with a light heart that +morning, without waking him up, and, as soon as he opened his eyes of his +own accord, I said to him: 'Do you know what I discovered while you were +asleep?' + +"'No.' + +"'I found white hairs.' + +"He started up as if I had tickled him and said angrily: 'It's not true!' + +"'Yes, it is. There are four of them over your left temple.' + +"He jumped out of bed and ran over to the mirror. He could not find +them. Then I showed him the first one, the lowest, the little curly one, +and I said: 'It's no wonder, after the life that you have been leading. +In two years all will be over for you.' + +"Well, monsieur, I had spoken true; two years later one could not +recognize him. How quickly a man changes! He was still handsome, but he +had lost his freshness, and the women no longer ran after him. Ah! what +a life I led at that time! How he treated me! Nothing suited him. He +left his trade to go into the hat business, in which he ate up all his +money. Then he unsuccessfully tried to be an actor, and finally he began +to frequent public balls. Fortunately, he had had common sense enough to +save a little something on which we now live. It is sufficient, but it +is not enormous. And to think that at one time he had almost a fortune. + +"Now you see what he does. This habit holds him like a frenzy. He has +to be young; he has to dance with women who smell of perfume and +cosmetics. You poor old darling!" + +She was looking at her old snoring husband fondty, ready to cry. Then, +gently tiptoeing up to him, she kissed his hair. The physician had risen +and was getting ready to leave, finding nothing to say to this strange +couple. Just as he was leaving she asked: + +"Would you mind giving me your address? If he should grow worse, I could +go and get you." + + + + + + +THE PENGUINS' ROCK + +This is the season for penguins. + +From April to the end of May, before the Parisian visitors arrive, one +sees, all at once, on the little beach at Etretat several old gentlemen, +booted and belted in shooting costume. They spend four or five days at +the Hotel Hauville, disappear, and return again three weeks later. Then, +after a fresh sojourn, they go away altogether. + +One sees them again the following spring. + +These are the last penguin hunters, what remain of the old set. There +were about twenty enthusiasts thirty or forty years ago; now there are +only a few of the enthusiastic sportsmen. + +The penguin is a very rare bird of passage, with peculiar habits. It +lives the greater part of the year in the latitude of Newfoundland and +the islands of St. Pierre and Miquelon. But in the breeding season a +flight of emigrants crosses the ocean and comes every year to the same +spot to lay their eggs, to the Penguins' Rock near Etretat. They are +found nowhere else, only there. They have always come there, have always +been chased away, but return again, and will always return. As soon as +the young birds are grown they all fly away, and disappear for a year. + +Why do they not go elsewhere? Why not choose some other spot on the long +white, unending cliff that extends from the Pas-de-Calais to Havre? What +force, what invincible instinct, what custom of centuries impels these +birds to come back to this place? What first migration, what tempest, +possibly, once cast their ancestors on this rock? And why do the +children, the grandchildren, all the descendants of the first parents +always return here? + +There are not many of them, a hundred at most, as if one single family, +maintaining the tradition, made this annual pilgrimage. + +And each spring, as soon as the little wandering tribe has taken up its +abode an the rock, the same sportsmen also reappear in the village. One +knew them formerly when they were young; now they are old, but constant +to the regular appointment which they have kept for thirty or forty +years. They would not miss it for anything in the world. + +It was an April evening in one of the later years. Three of the old +sportsmen had arrived; one was missing--M. d'Arnelles. + +He had written to no one, given no account of himself. But he was not +dead, like so many of the rest; they would have heard of it. At length, +tired of waiting for him, the other three sat down to table. Dinner was +almost over when a carriage drove into the yard of the hotel, and the +late corner presently entered the dining room. + +He sat down, in a good humor, rubbing his hands, and ate with zest. When +one of his comrades remarked with surprise at his being in a frock-coat, +he replied quietly: + +"Yes, I had no time to change my clothes." + +They retired on leaving the table, for they had to set out before +daybreak in order to take the birds unawares. + +There is nothing so pretty as this sport, this early morning expedition. + +At three o'clock in the morning the sailors awoke the sportsmen by +throwing sand against the windows. They were ready in a few minutes and +went down to the beach. Although it was still dark, the stars had paled +a little. The sea ground the shingle on the beach. There was such a +fresh breeze that it made one shiver slightly in spite of one's heavy +clothing. + +Presently two boats were pushed down the beach, by the sailors, with a +sound as of tearing cloth, and were floated on the nearest waves. The +brown sail was hoisted, swelled a little, fluttered, hesitated and +swelling out again as round as a paunch, carried the boats towards the +large arched entrance that could be faintly distinguished in the +darkness. + +The sky became clearer, the shadows seemed to melt away. The coast still +seemed veiled, the great white coast, perpendicular as a wall. + +They passed through the Manne-Porte, an enormous arch beneath which a +ship could sail; they doubled the promontory of La Courtine, passed the +little valley of Antifer and the cape of the same name; and suddenly +caught sight of a beach on which some hundreds of seagulls were perched. + +That was the Penguins' Rock. It was just a little protuberance of the +cliff, and on the narrow ledges of rock the birds' heads might be seen +watching the boats. + +They remained there, motionless, not venturing to fly off as yet. Some +of them perched on the edges, seated upright, looked almost like bottles, +for their little legs are so short that when they walk they glide along +as if they were on rollers. When they start to fly they cannot make a +spring and let themselves fall like stones almost down to the very men +who are watching them. + +They know their limitation and the danger to which it subjects them, and +cannot make up their minds to fly away. + +But the boatmen begin to shout, beating the sides of the boat with the +wooden boat pins, and the birds, in affright, fly one by one into space +until they reach the level of the waves. Then, moving their wings +rapidly, they scud, scud along until they reach the open sea; if a shower +of lead does not knock them into the water. + +For an hour the firing is kept up, obliging them to give up, one after +another. Sometimes the mother birds will not leave their nests, and are +riddled with shot, causing drops of blood to spurt out on the white +cliff, and the animal dies without having deserted her eggs. + +The first day M. d'Arnelles fired at the birds with his habitual zeal; +but when the party returned toward ten o'clock, beneath a brilliant sun, +which cast great triangles of light on the white cliffs along the coast +he appeared a little worried, and absentminded, contrary to his +accustomed manner. + +As soon as they got on shore a kind of servant dressed in black came up +to him and said something in a low tone. He seemed to reflect, hesitate, +and then replied: + +"No, to-morrow." + +The following day they set out again. This time M, d'ArneUes frequently +missed his aim, although the birds were close by. His friends teased +him, asked him if he were in love, if some secret sorrow was troubling +his mind and heart. At length he confessed. + +"Yes, indeed, I have to leave soon, and that annoys me." + +"What, you must leave? And why?" + +"Oh, I have some business that calls me back. I cannot stay any longer." + +They then talked of other matters. + +As soon as breakfast was over the valet in black appeared. M. d'Arnelles +ordered his carriage, arid the man was leaving the room when the three +sportsmen interfered, insisting, begging, and praying their friend to +stay. One of them at last said: + +"Come now, this cannot be a matter o£ such importance, for you have +already waited two days." + +M. d'Arnelles, altogether perplexed, began to think, evidently baffled, +divided between pleasure and duty, unhappy and disturbed. + +After reflecting for some time he stammered: + +"The fact is--the fact is--I am not alone here. I have my son-in-law." + +There were exclamations and shouts of "Your son-in-law! Where is he?" + +He suddenly appeared confused and his face grew red. + +"What! do you not know? Why--why--he is in the coach house. He is +dead." + +They were all silent in amazement. + +M. d'Arnelles continued, more and more disturbed: + +"I had the misfortune to lose him; and as I was taking the body to my +house, in Briseville, I came round this way so as not to miss our +appointment. But you can see that I cannot wait any longer." + +Then one of the sportsmen, bolder than the rest said: + +"Well, but--since he is dead--it seems to me that he can wait a day +longer." + +The others chimed in: + +"That cannot be denied." + +M. d'Arnelles appeared to be relieved of a great weight, but a little +uneasy, nevertheless, he asked: + +"But, frankly--do you think--" + +The three others, as one man, replied: + +"Parbleu! my dear boy, two days more or less can make no difference in +his present condition." + +And, perfectly calmly, the father-in-law turned to the undertaker's +assistant, and said: + +"Well, then, my friend, it will be the day after tomorrow." + + + + + + +A FAMILY + +I was to see my old friend, Simon Radevin, of whom I had lost sight for +fifteen years. At one time he was my most intimate friend, the friend +who knows one's thoughts, with whom one passes long, quiet, happy +evenings, to whom one tells one's secret love affairs, and who seems to +draw out those rare, ingenious, delicate thoughts born of that sympathy +that gives a sense of repose. + +For years we had scarcely been separated; we had lived, travelled, +thought and dreamed together; had liked the same things, had admired the +same books, understood the same authors, trembled with the same +sensations, and very often laughed at the same individuals, whom we +understood completely by merely exchanging a glance. + +Then he married. He married, quite suddenly, a little girl from the +provinces, who had come to Paris in search of a husband. How in the +world could that little thin, insipidly fair girl, with her weak hands, +her light, vacant eyes, and her clear, silly voice, who was exactly like +a hundred thousand marriageable dolls, have picked up that intelligent, +clever young fellow? Can any one understand these things? No doubt he +had hoped for happiness, simple, quiet and long-enduring happiness, in +the arms of a good, tender and faithful woman; he had seen all that in +the transparent looks of that schoolgirl with light hair. + +He had not dreamed of the fact that an active, living and vibrating man +grows weary of everything as soon as he understands the stupid reality, +unless, indeed, he becomes so brutalized that he understands nothing +whatever. + +What would he be like when I met him again? Still lively, witty, light- +hearted and enthusiastic, or in a state of mental torpor induced by +provincial life? A man may change greatly in the course of fifteen +years! + +The train stopped at a small station, and as I got out of the carriage, a +stout, a very stout man with red cheeks and a big stomach rushed up to me +with open arms, exclaiming: "George!" I embraced him, but I had not +recognized him, and then I said, in astonishment: "By Jove! You have not +grown thin!" And he replied with a laugh: + +"What did you expect? Good living, a good table and good nights! Eating +and sleeping, that is my existence!" + +I looked at him closely, trying to discover in that broad face the +features I held so dear. His eyes alone had not changed, but I no longer +saw the same expression in them, and I said to myself: "If the expression +be the reflection of the mind, the thoughts in that head are not what +they used to be formerly; those thoughts which I knew so well." + +Yet his eyes were bright, full of happiness and friendship, but they had +not that clear, intelligent expression which shows as much as words the +brightness of the intellect. Suddenly he said: + +"Here are my two eldest children." A girl of fourteen, who was almost a +woman, and a boy of thirteen, in the dress of a boy from a Lycee, came +forward in a hesitating and awkward manner, and I said in a low voice: +"Are they yours?" "Of course they are," he replied, laughing. "How many +have you?" "Five! There are three more at home." + +He said this in a proud, self-satisfied, almost triumphant manner, and I +felt profound pity, mingled with a feeling of vague contempt, for this +vainglorious and simple reproducer of his species. + +I got into a carriage which he drove himself, and we set off through the +town, a dull, sleepy, gloomy town where nothing was moving in the streets +except a few dogs and two or three maidservants. Here and there a +shopkeeper, standing at his door, took off his hat, and Simon returned +his salute and told me the man's name; no doubt to show me that he knew +all the inhabitants personally, and the thought struck me that he was +thinking of becoming a candidate for the Chamber of Deputies, that dream +of all those who bury themselves in the provinces. + +We were soon out of the town, and the carriage turned into a garden that +was an imitation of a park, and stopped in front of a turreted house, +which tried to look like a chateau. + +"That is my den," said Simon, so that I might compliment him on it. "It +is charming," I replied. + +A lady appeared on the steps, dressed for company, and with company +phrases all ready prepared. She was no longer the light-haired, insipid +girl I had seen in church fifteen years previously, but a stout lady in +curls and flounces, one of those ladies of uncertain age, without +intellect, without any of those things that go to make a woman. In +short, she was a mother, a stout, commonplace mother, a human breeding +machine which procreates without any other preoccupation but her children +and her cook-book. + +She welcomed me, and I went into the hall, where three children, ranged +according to their height, seemed set out for review, like firemen before +a mayor, and I said: "Ah! ah! so there are the others?" Simon, radiant +with pleasure, introduced them: "Jean, Sophie and Gontran." + +The door of the drawing-room was open. I went in, and in the depths of +an easy-chair, I saw something trembling, a man, an old, paralyzed man. +Madame Radevin came forward and said: "This is my grandfather, monsieur; +he is eighty-seven." And then she shouted into the shaking old man's +ears: "This is a friend of Simon's, papa." The old gentleman tried to +say "good-day" to me, and he muttered: "Oua, oua, oua," and waved his +hand, and I took a seat saying: "You are very kind, monsieur." + +Simon had just come in, and he said with a laugh: "So! You have made +grandpapa's acquaintance. He is a treasure, that old man; he is the +delight of the children. But he is so greedy that he almost kills +himself at every meal; you have no idea what he would eat if he were +allowed to do as he pleased. But you will see, you will see. He looks +at all the sweets as if they were so many girls. You never saw anything +so funny; you will see presently." + +I was then shown to my room, to change my dress for dinner, and hearing a +great clatter behind me on the stairs, I turned round and saw that all +the children were following me behind their father; to do me honor, no +doubt. + +My windows looked out across a dreary, interminable plain, an ocean of +grass, of wheat and of oats, without a clump of trees or any rising +ground, a striking and melancholy picture of the life which they must be +leading in that house. + +A bell rang; it was for dinner, and I went downstairs. Madame Radevin +took my arm in a ceremonious manner, and we passed into the dining-room. +A footman wheeled in the old man in his armchair. He gave a greedy and +curious look at the dessert, as he turned his shaking head with +difficulty from one dish to the other. + +Simon rubbed his hands: "You will be amused," he said; and all the +children understanding that I was going to be indulged with the sight of +their greedy grandfather, began to laugh, while their mother merely +smiled and shrugged her shoulders, and Simon, making a speaking trumpet +of his hands, shouted at the old man: "This evening there is sweet +creamed rice!" The wrinkled face of the grandfather brightened, and he +trembled more violently, from head to foot, showing that he had +understood and was very pleased. The dinner began. + +"Just look!" Simon whispered. The old man did not like the soup, and +refused to eat it; but he was obliged to do it for the good of his +health, and the footman forced the spoon into his mouth, while the old +man blew so energetically, so as not to swallow the soup, that it was +scattered like a spray all over the table and over his neighbors. The +children writhed with laughter at the spectacle, while their father, who +was also amused, said: "Is not the old man comical?" + +During the whole meal they were taken up solely with him. He devoured +the dishes on the table with his eyes, and tried to seize them and pull +them over to him with his trembling hands. They put them almost within +his reach, to see his useless efforts, his trembling clutches at them, +the piteous appeal of his whole nature, of his eyes, of his mouth and of +his nose as he smelt them, and he slobbered on his table napkin with +eagerness, while uttering inarticulate grunts. And the whole family was +highly amused at this horrible and grotesque scene. + +Then they put a tiny morsel on his plate, and he ate with feverish +gluttony, in order to get something more as soon as possible, and when +the sweetened rice was brought in, he nearly had a fit, and groaned with +greediness, and Gontran called out to him: + +"You have eaten too much already; you can have no more." And they +pretended not to give him any. Then he began to cry; he cried and +trembled more violently than ever, while all the children laughed. +At last, however, they gave him his helping, a very small piece; and as +he ate the first mouthful, he made a comical noise in his throat, and a +movement with his neck as ducks do when they swallow too large a morsel, +and when he had swallowed it, he began to stamp his feet, so as to get +more. + +I was seized with pity for this saddening and ridiculous Tantalus, and +interposed on his behalf: + +"Come, give him a little more rice!" But Simon replied: "Oh! no, my +dear fellow, if he were to eat too much, it would harm him, at his age." + +I held my tongue, and thought over those words. Oh, ethics! Oh, logic! +Oh, wisdom! At his age! So they deprived him of his only remaining +pleasure out of regard for his health! His health! What would he do +with it, inert and trembling wreck that he was? They were taking care of +his life, so they said. His life? How many days? Ten, twenty, fifty, +or a hundred? Why? For his own sake? Or to preserve for some time +longer the spectacle of his impotent greediness in the family. + +There was nothing left for him to do in this life, nothing whatever. +He had one single wish left, one sole pleasure; why not grant him that +last solace until he died? + +After we had played cards for a long time, I went up to my room and to +bed; I was low-spirited and sad, sad, sad! and I sat at my window. Not a +sound could be heard outside but the beautiful warbling of a bird in a +tree, somewhere in the distance. No doubt the bird was singing in a low +voice during the night, to lull his mate, who was asleep on her eggs. +And I thought of my poor friend's five children, and pictured him to +myself, snoring by the side of his ugly wife. + + + + + + +SUICIDES + +To Georges Legrand. + +Hardly a day goes by without our reading a news item like the following +in some newspaper: + +"On Wednesday night the people living in No. 40 Rue de-----, were +awakened by two successive shots. The explosions seemed to come from the +apartment occupied by M. X----. The door was broken in and the man was +found bathed in his blood, still holding in one hand the revolver with +which he had taken his life. + +"M. X---- was fifty-seven years of age, enjoying a comfortable income, +and had everything necessary to make him happy. No cause can be found +for his action." + +What terrible grief, what unknown suffering, hidden despair, secret +wounds drive these presumably happy persons to suicide? We search, we +imagine tragedies of love, we suspect financial troubles, and, as we +never find anything definite, we apply to these deaths the word +"mystery." + +A letter found on the desk of one of these "suicides without cause," and +written during his last night, beside his loaded revolver, has come into +our hands. We deem it rather interesting. It reveals none of those +great catastrophes which we always expect to find behind these acts of +despair; but it shows us the slow succession of the little vexations of +life, the disintegration of a lonely existence, whose dreams have +disappeared; it gives the reason for these tragic ends, which only +nervous and highstrung people can understand. + +Here it is: + +"It is midnight. When I have finished this letter I shall kill myself. +Why? I shall attempt to give the reasons, not for those who may read +these lines, but for myself, to kindle my waning courage, to impress upon +myself the fatal necessity of this act which can, at best, be only +deferred. + +"I was brought up by simple-minded parents who were unquestioning +believers. And I believed as they did. + +"My dream lasted a long time. The last veil has just been torn from my +eyes. + +"During the last few years a strange change has been taking place within +me. All the events of Life, which formerly had to me the glow of a +beautiful sunset, are now fading away. The true meaning of things has +appeared to me in its brutal reality; and the true reason for love has +bred in me disgust even for this poetic sentiment: 'We are the eternal +toys of foolish and charming illusions, which are always being renewed.' + +"On growing older, I had become partly reconciled to the awful mystery of +life, to the uselessness of effort; when the emptiness of everything +appeared to me in a new light, this evening, after dinner. + +"Formerly, I was happy! Everything pleased me: the passing women, the +appearance of the streets, the place where I lived; and I even took an +interest in the cut of my clothes. But the repetition of the same sights +has had the result of filling my heart with weariness and disgust, just +as one would feel were one to go every night to the same theatre. + +"For the last thirty years I have been rising at the same hour; and, at +the same restaurant, for thirty years, I have been eating at the same +hours the same dishes brought me by different waiters. + +"I have tried travel. The loneliness which one feels in strange places +terrified me. I felt so alone, so small on the earth that I quickly +started on my homeward journey. + +"But here the unchanging expression of my furniture, which has stood for +thirty years in the same place, the smell of my apartments (for, with +time, each dwelling takes on a particular odor) each night, these and +other things disgust me and make me sick of living thus. + +"Everything repeats itself endlessly. The way in which I put my key in +the lock, the place where I always find my matches, the first object +which meets my eye when I enter the room, make me feel like jumping out +of the window and putting an end to those monotonous events from which we +can never escape. + +"Each day, when I shave, I feel an inordinate desire to cut my throat; +and my face, which I see in the little mirror, always the same, with soap +on my cheeks, has several times made me weak from sadness. + +"Now I even hate to be with people whom I used to meet with pleasure; I +know them so well, I can tell just what they are going to say and what I +am going to answer. Each brain is like a circus, where the same horse +keeps circling around eternally. We must circle round always, around the +same ideas, the same joys, the same pleasures, the same habits, the same +beliefs, the same sensations of disgust. + +"The fog was terrible this evening. It enfolded the boulevard, where the +street lights were dimmed and looked like smoking candles. A heavier +weight than usual oppressed me. Perhaps my digestion was bad. + +"For good digestion is everything in life. It gives the inspiration to +the artist, amorous desires to young people, clear ideas to thinkers, the +joy of life to everybody, and it also allows one to eat heartily (which +is one of the greatest pleasures). A sick stomach induces scepticism +unbelief, nightmares and the desire for death. I have often noticed this +fact. Perhaps I would not kill myself, if my digestion had been good +this evening. + +"When I sat down in the arm-chair where I have been sitting every day for +thirty years, I glanced around me, and just then I was seized by such a +terrible distress that I thought I must go mad. + +"I tried to think of what I could do to run away from myself. Every +occupation struck me as being worse even than inaction. Then I bethought +me of putting my papers in order. + +"For a long time I have been thinking of clearing out my drawers; for, +for the last thirty years, I have been throwing my letters and bills +pell-mell into the same desk, and this confusion has often caused me +considerable trouble. But I feel such moral and physical laziness at the +sole idea of putting anything in order that I have never had the courage +to begin this tedious business. + +"I therefore opened my desk, intending to choose among my old papers and +destroy the majority of them. + +"At first I was bewildered by this array of documents, yellowed by age, +then I chose one. + +"Oh! if you cherish life, never disturb the burial place of old letters! + +"And if, perchance, you should, take the contents by the handful, close +your eyes that you may not read a word, so that you may not recognize +some forgotten handwriting which may plunge you suddenly into a sea of +memories; carry these papers to the fire; and when they are in ashes, +crush them to an invisible powder, or otherwise you are lost--just as I +have been lost for an hour. + +"The first letters which I read did not interest me greatly. They were +recent, and came from living men whom I still meet quite often, and whose +presence does not move me to any great extent. But all at once one +envelope made me start. My name was traced on it in a large, bold +handwriting; and suddenly tears came to my eyes. That letter was from my +dearest friend, the companion of my youth, the confidant of my hopes; and +he appeared before me so clearly, with his pleasant smile and his hand +outstretched, that a cold shiver ran down my back. Yes, yes, the dead +come back, for I saw him! Our memory is a more perfect world than the +universe: it gives back life to those who no longer exist. + +"With trembling hand and dimmed eyes I reread everything that he told me, +and in my poor sobbing heart I felt a wound so painful that I began to +groan as a man whose bones are slowly being crushed. + +"Then I travelled over my whole life, just as one travels along a river. +I recognized people, so long forgotten that I no longer knew their names. +Their faces alone lived in me. In my mother's letters I saw again the +old servants, the shape of our house and the little insignificant odds +and ends which cling to our minds. + +"Yes, I suddenly saw again all my mother's old gowns, the different +styles which she adopted and the several ways in which she dressed her +hair. She haunted me especially in a silk dress, trimmed with old lace; +and I remembered something she said one day when she was wearing this +dress. She said: 'Robert, my child, if you do not stand up straight you +will be round-shouldered all your life.' + +"Then, opening another drawer, I found myself face to face with memories +of tender passions: a dancing-pump, a torn handkerchief, even a garter, +locks of hair and dried flowers. Then the sweet romances of my life, +whose living heroines are now white-haired, plunged me into the deep +melancholy of things. Oh, the young brows where blond locks curl, the +caress of the hands, the glance which speaks, the hearts which beat, that +smile which promises the lips, those lips which promise the embrace! +And the first kiss-that endless kiss which makes you close your eyes, +which drowns all thought in the immeasurable joy of approaching +possession! + +"Taking these old pledges of former love in both my hands, I covered them +with furious caresses, and in my soul, torn by these memories, I saw them +each again at the hour of surrender; and I suffered a torture more cruel +than all the tortures invented in all the fables about hell. + +"One last letter remained. It was written by me and dictated fifty years +ago by my writing teacher. Here it is: + + "'MY DEAR LITTLE MAMMA: + + "'I am seven years old to-day. It is the age of reason. I take + advantage of it to thank you for having brought me into this world. + + "'Your little son, who loves you + + "'ROBERT.' + +"It is all over. I had gone back to the beginning, and suddenly I turned +my glance on what remained to me of life. I saw hideous and lonely old +age, and approaching infirmities, and everything over and gone. And +nobody near me! + +"My revolver is here, on the table. I am loading it . . . . Never +reread your old letters!" + + +And that is how many men come to kill themselves; and we search in vain +to discover some great sorrow in their lives. + + + + + + +AN ARTIFICE + +The old doctor sat by the fireside, talking to his fair patient who was +lying on the lounge. There was nothing much the matter with her, except +that she had one of those little feminine ailments from which pretty +women frequently suffer--slight anaemia, a nervous attack, etc. + +"No, doctor," she said; "I shall never be able to understand a woman +deceiving her husband. Even allowing that she does not love him, that +she pays no heed to her vows and promises, how can she give herself to +another man? How can she conceal the intrigue from other people's eyes? +How can it be possible to love amid lies and treason?" + +The doctor smiled, and replied: "It is perfectly easy, and I can assure +you that a woman does not think of all those little subtle details when +she has made up her mind to go astray. + +"As for dissimulation, all women have plenty of it on hand for such +occasions, and the simplest of them are wonderful, and extricate +themselves from the greatest dilemmas in a remarkable manner." + +The young woman, however, seemed incredulous. + +"No, doctor," she said; "one never thinks until after it has happened of +what one ought to have done in a critical situation, and women are +certainly more liable than men to lose their head on such occasions:" + +The doctor raised his hands. "After it has happened, you say! Now I +will tell you something that happened to one of my female patients, whom +I always considered an immaculate woman. + +"It happened in a provincial town, and one night when I was asleep, in +that deep first sleep from which it is so difficult to rouse us, it +seemed to me, in my dreams, as if the bells in the town were sounding a +fire alarm, and I woke up with a start. It was my own bell, which was +ringing wildly, and as my footman did not seem to be answering the door, +I, in turn, pulled the bell at the head of my bed, and soon I heard a +banging, and steps in the silent house, and Jean came into my room, and +handed me a letter which said: 'Madame Lelievre begs Dr. Simeon to come +to her immediately.' + +"I thought for a few moments, and then I said to myself: 'A nervous +attack, vapors; nonsense, I am too tired.' And so I replied: 'As Dr. +Simeon is not at all well, he must beg Madame Lelievre to be kind enough +to call in his colleague, Monsieur Bonnet.' I put the note into an +envelope and went to sleep again, but about half an hour later the street +bell rang again, and Jean came to me and said: 'There is somebody +downstairs; I do not quite know whether it is a man or a woman, as the +individual is so wrapped up, but they wish to speak to you immediately. +They say it is a matter of life and death for two people.' Whereupon I +sat up in bed and told him to show the person in. + +"A kind of black phantom appeared and raised her veil as soon as Jean had +left the room. It was Madame Berthe Lelievre, quite a young woman, who +had been married for three years to a large a merchant in the town, who +was said to have married the prettiest girl in the neighborhood. + +"She was terribly pale, her face was contracted as the faces of insane +people are, occasionally, and her hands trembled violently. Twice she +tried to speak without being able to utter a sound, but at last she +stammered out: 'Come--quick--quick, doctor. Come--my--friend has just +died in my bedroom.' She stopped, half suffocated with emotion, and then +went on: 'My husband will be coming home from the club very soon.' + +"I jumped out of bed without even considering that I was only in my +nightshirt, and dressed myself in a few moments, and then I said: 'Did +you come a short time ago?' 'No,' she said, standing like a statue +petrified with horror. 'It was my servant--she knows.' And then, after +a short silence, she went on: 'I was there--by his side.' And she +uttered a sort of cry of horror, and after a fit of choking, which made +her gasp, she wept violently, and shook with spasmodic sobs for a minute: +or two. Then her tears suddenly ceased, as if by an internal fire, and +with an air of tragic calmness, she said: 'Let us make haste.' + +"I was ready, but exclaimed: 'I quite forgot to order my carriage.' +'I have one,' she said; 'it is his, which was waiting for him!' She +wrapped herself up, so as to completely conceal her face, and we started. + +"When she was by my side in the carriage she suddenly seized my hand, and +crushing it in her delicate fingers, she said, with a shaking voice, that +proceeded from a distracted heart: 'Oh! if you only knew, if you only +knew what I am suffering! I loved him, I have loved him distractedly, +like a madwoman, for the last six months.' 'Is anyone up in your house?' +I asked. 'No, nobody except those, who knows everything.' + +"We stopped at the door, and evidently everybody was asleep. We went in +without making any noise, by means of her latch-key, and walked upstairs +on tiptoe. The frightened servant was sitting on the top of the stairs +with a lighted candle by her side, as she was afraid to remain with the +dead man, and I went into the room, which was in great disorder. Wet +towels, with which they had bathed the young man's temples, were lying on +the floor, by the side of a washbasin and a glass, while a strong smell +of vinegar pervaded the room. + +"The dead man's body was lying at full length in the middle of the room, +and I went up to it, looked at it, and touched it. I opened the eyes and +felt the hands, and then, turning to the two women, who were shaking as +if they were freezing, I said to them: 'Help me to lift him on to the +bed.' When we had laid him gently on it, I listened to his heart and put +a looking-glass to his lips, and then said: 'It is all over.' It was a +terrible sight! + +"I looked at the man, and said: 'You ought to arrange his hair a little.' +The girl went and brought her mistress' comb and brush, but as she was +trembling, and pulling out his long, matted hair in doing it, Madame +Lelievre took the comb out of her hand, and arranged his hair as if she +were caressing him. She parted it, brushed his beard, rolled his +mustaches gently round her fingers, then, suddenly, letting go of his +hair, she took the dead man's inert head in her hands and looked for a +long time in despair at the dead face, which no longer could smile at +her, and then, throwing herself on him, she clasped him in her arms and +kissed him ardently. Her kisses fell like blows on his closed mouth and +eyes, his forehead and temples; and then, putting her lips to his ear, as +if he could still hear her, and as if she were about to whisper something +to him, she said several times, in a heartrending voice: + +'Good-by, my darling!' + +"Just then the clock struck twelve, and I started up. 'Twelve o'clock!' +I exclaimed. 'That is the time when the club closes. Come, madame, we +have not a moment to lose!' She started up, and I said: + +'We must carry him into the drawing-room.' And when we had done this, +I placed him on a sofa, and lit the chandeliers, and just then the front +door was opened and shut noisily. 'Rose, bring me the basin and the +towels, and make the room look tidy. Make haste, for Heaven's sake! +Monsieur Lelievre is coming in.' + +"I heard his steps on the stairs, and then his hands feeling along the +walls. 'Come here, my dear fellow,' I said; 'we have had an accident.' + +"And the astonished husband appeared in the door with a cigar in his +mouth, and said: 'What is the matter? What is the meaning of this?' +'My dear friend,' I said, going up to him, 'you find us in great +embarrassment. I had remained late, chatting with your wife and our +friend, who had brought me in his carriage, when he suddenly fainted, and +in spite of all we have done, he has remained unconscious for two hours. +I did not like to call in strangers, and if you will now help me +downstairs with him, I shall be able to attend to him better at his own +house.' + +"The husband, who was surprised, but quite unsuspicious, took off his +hat, and then he took his rival, who would be quite inoffensive for the +future, under the arms. I got between his two legs, as if I had been a +horse between the shafts, and we went downstairs, while his wife held a +light for us. When we got outside I stood the body up, so as to deceive +the coachman, and said: 'Come, my friend; it is nothing; you feel better +already I expect. Pluck up your courage, and make an effort. It will +soon be over.' But as I felt that he was slipping out of my hands, I +gave him a slap on the shoulder, which sent him forward and made him fall +into the carriage, and then I got in after him. Monsieur Lelievre, who +was rather alarmed, said to me: 'Do you think it is anything serious?' +To which I replied: 'No,' with a smile, as I looked at his wife, who had +put her arm into that of her husband, and was trying to see into the +carriage. + +"I shook hands with them and told my coachman to start, and during the +whole drive the dead man kept falling against me. When we got to his +house I said that he had become unconscious on the way home, and helped +to carry him upstairs, where I certified that he was dead, and acted +another comedy to his distracted family, and at last I got back to bed, +not without swearing at lovers." + +The doctor ceased, though he was still smiling, and the young woman, who +was in a very nervous state, said: "Why have you told me that terrible +story?" + +He gave her a gallant bow, and replied: + +"So that I may offer you my services if they should be needed." + + + + + + +DREAMS + +They had just dined together, five old friends, a writer, a doctor and +three rich bachelors without any profession. + +They had talked about everything, and a feeling of lassitude came over +them, that feeling which precedes and leads to the departure of guests +after festive gatherings. One of those present, who had for the last +five minutes been gazing silently at the surging boulevard dotted with +gas-lamps, with its rattling vehicles, said suddenly: + +"When you've nothing to do from morning till night, the days are long." + +"And the nights too," assented the guest who sat next to him. "I sleep +very little; pleasures fatigue me; conversation is monotonous. Never do +I come across a new idea, and I feel, before talking to any one, a +violent longing to say nothing and to listen to nothing. I don't know +what to do with my evenings." + +The third idler remarked: + +"I would pay a great deal for anything that would help me to pass just +two pleasant hours every day." + +The writer, who had just thrown his overcoat across his arm, turned round +to them, and said: + +"The man who could discover a new vice and introduce it among his fellow +creatures, even if it were to shorten their lives, would render a greater +service to humanity than the man who found the means of securing to them +eternal salvation and eternal youth." + +The doctor burst out laughing, and, while he chewed his cigar, he said: + +"Yes, but it is not so easy to discover it. Men have however crudely, +been seeking for--and working for the object you refer to since the +beginning of the world. The men who came first reached perfection at +once in this way. We are hardly equal to them." + +One of the three idlers murmured: + +"What a pity!" + +Then, after a minute's pause, he added: + +"If we could only sleep, sleep well, without feeling hot or cold, sleep +with that perfect unconsciousness we experience on nights when we are +thoroughly fatigued, sleep without dreams." + +"Why without dreams?" asked the guest sitting next to him. + +The other replied: + +"Because dreams are not always pleasant; they are always fantastic, +improbable, disconnected; and because when we are asleep we cannot have +the sort of dreams we like. We ought to dream waking." + +"And what's to prevent you?" asked the writer. + +The doctor flung away the end of his cigar. + +"My dear fellow, in order to dream when you are awake, you need great +power and great exercise of will, and when you try to do it, great +weariness is the result. Now, real dreaming, that journey of our +thoughts through delightful visions, is assuredly the sweetest experience +in the world; but it must come naturally, it must not be provoked in a +painful, manner, and must be accompanied by absolute bodily comfort. +This power of dreaming I can give you, provided you promise that you will +not abuse it." + +The writer shrugged his shoulders: + +"Ah! yes, I know--hasheesh, opium, green tea--artificial paradises. +I have read Baudelaire, and I even tasted the famous drug, which made me +very sick." + +But the doctor, without stirring from his seat, said: + +"No; ether, nothing but ether; and I would suggest that you literary men +should use it sometimes." + +The three rich bachelors drew closer to the doctor. + +One of them said: + +"Explain to us the effects of it." + +And the doctor replied: + +"Let us put aside big words, shall we not? I am not talking of medicine +or morality; I am talking of pleasure. You give yourselves up every day +to excesses which consume your lives. I want to indicate to you a new +sensation, possible only to intelligent men--let us say even very +intelligent men--dangerous, like everything else that overexcites our +organs, but exquisite. I might add that you would require a certain +preparation, that is to say, practice, to feel in all their completeness +the singular effects of ether. + +"They are different from the effects of hasheesh, of opium, or morphia, +and they cease as soon as the absorption of the drug is interrupted, +while the other generators of day dreams continue their action for hours. + +"I am now going to try to analyze these feelings as clearly as possible. +But the thing is not easy, so facile, so delicate, so almost +imperceptible, are these sensations. + +"It was when I was attacked by violent neuralgia that I made use of this +remedy, which since then I have, perhaps, slightly abused. + +"I had acute pains in my head and neck, and an intolerable heat of the +skin, a feverish restlessness. I took up a large bottle of ether, and, +lying down, I began to inhale it slowly. + +"At the end of some minutes I thought I heard a vague murmur, which ere +long became a sort of humming, and it seemed to me that all the interior +of my body had become light, light as air, that it was dissolving into +vapor. + +"Then came a sort of torpor, a sleepy sensation of comfort, in spite of +the pains which still continued, but which had ceased to make themselves +felt. It was one of those sensations which we are willing to endure and +not any of those frightful wrenches against which our tortured body +protests. + +"Soon the strange and delightful sense of emptiness which I felt in my +chest extended to my limbs, which, in their turn, became light, as light +as if the flesh and the bones had been melted and the skin only were +left, the skin necessary to enable me to realize the sweetness of living, +of bathing in this sensation of well-being. Then I perceived that I was +no longer suffering. The pain had gone, melted away, evaporated. And I +heard voices, four voices, two dialogues, without understanding what was +said. At one time there were only indistinct sounds, at another time a +word reached my ear. But I recognized that this was only the humming I +had heard before, but emphasized. I was not asleep; I was not awake; I +comprehended, I felt, I reasoned with the utmost clearness and depth, +with extraordinary energy and intellectual pleasure, with a singular +intoxication arising from this separation of my mental faculties. + +"It was not like the dreams caused by hasheesh or the somewhat sickly +visions that come from opium; it was an amazing acuteness of reasoning, a +new way of seeing, judging and appreciating the things of life, and with +the certainty, the absolute consciousness that this was the true way. + +"And the old image of the Scriptures suddenly came back to my mind. +It seemed to me that I had tasted of the Tree of Knowledge, that all the +mysteries were unveiled, so much did I find myself under the sway of a +new, strange and irrefutable logic. And arguments, reasonings, proofs +rose up in a heap before my brain only to be immediately displaced by +some stronger proof, reasoning, argument. My head had, in fact, become a +battleground of ideas. I was a superior being, armed with invincible +intelligence, and I experienced a huge delight at the manifestation of my +power. + +"It lasted a long, long time. I still kept inhaling the ether from my +flagon. Suddenly I perceived that it was empty." + +The four men exclaimed at the same time: + +"Doctor, a prescription at once for a liter of ether!" + +But the doctor, putting on his hat, replied: + +"As to that, certainly not; go and let some one else poison you!" + +And he left them. + +Ladies and gentlemen, what is your opinion on the subject? + + + + + + +SIMON'S PAPA + +Noon had just struck. The school door opened and the youngsters darted +out, jostling each other in their haste to get out quickly. But instead +of promptly dispersing and going home to dinner as usual, they stopped a +few paces off, broke up into knots, and began whispering. + +The fact was that, that morning, Simon, the son of La Blanchotte, had, +for the first time, attended school. + +They had all of them in their families heard talk of La Blanchotte; and, +although in public she was welcome enough, the mothers among themselves +treated her with a somewhat disdainful compassion, which the children had +imitated without in the least knowing why. + +As for Simon himself, they did not know him, for he never went out, and +did not run about with them in the streets of the village, or along the +banks of the river. And they did not care for him; so it was with a +certain delight, mingled with considerable astonishment, that they met +and repeated to each other what had been said by a lad of fourteen or +fifteen who appeared to know all about it, so sagaciously did he wink. +"You know--Simon--well, he has no papa." + +Just then La Blanchotte's son appeared in the doorway of the school. + +He was seven or eight years old, rather pale, very neat, with a timid and +almost awkward manner. + +He was starting home to his mother's house when the groups of his +schoolmates, whispering and watching him with the mischievous and +heartless eyes of children bent upon playing a nasty trick, gradually +closed in around him and ended by surrounding him altogether. There he +stood in their midst, surprised and embarrassed, not understanding what +they were going to do with him. But the lad who had brought the news, +puffed up with the success he had met with already, demanded: + +"What is your name, you?" + +He answered: "Simon." + +"Simon what?" retorted the other. + +The child, altogether bewildered, repeated: "Simon." + +The lad shouted at him: "One is named Simon something--that is not a +name--Simon indeed." + +The child, on the brink of tears, replied for the third time: + +"My name is Simon." + +The urchins began to laugh. The triumphant tormentor cried: "You can see +plainly that he has no papa." + +A deep silence ensued. The children were dumfounded by this +extraordinary, impossible, monstrous thing--a boy who had not a papa; +they looked upon him as a phenomenon, an unnatural being, and they felt +that hitherto inexplicable contempt of their mothers for La Blanchotte +growing upon them. As for Simon, he had leaned against a tree to avoid +falling, and he remained as if prostrated by an irreparable disaster. +He sought to explain, but could think of nothing-to say to refute this +horrible charge that he had no papa. At last he shouted at them quite +recklessly: "Yes, I have one." + +"Where is he?" demanded the boy. + +Simon was silent, he did not know. The children roared, tremendously +excited; and those country boys, little more than animals, experienced +that cruel craving which prompts the fowls of a farmyard to destroy one +of their number as soon as it is wounded. Simon suddenly espied a little +neighbor, the son of a widow, whom he had seen, as he himself was to be +seen, always alone with his mother. + +"And no more have you," he said; "no more have you a papa." + +"Yes," replied the other, "I have one." + +"Where is he?" rejoined Simon. + +"He is dead," declared the brat, with superb dignity; "he is in the +cemetery, is my papa." + +A murmur of approval rose among the little wretches as if this fact of +possessing a papa dead in a cemetery had caused their comrade to grow big +enough to crush the other one who had no papa at all. And these boys, +whose fathers were for the most part bad men, drunkards, thieves, and who +beat their wives, jostled each other to press closer and closer, +as though they, the legitimate ones, would smother by their pressure one +who was illegitimate. + +The boy who chanced to be next Simon suddenly put his tongue out at him +with a mocking air and shouted at him: + +"No papa! No papa!" + +Simon seized him by the hair with both hands and set to work to disable +his legs with kicks, while he bit his cheek ferociously. A tremendous +struggle ensued between the two combatants, and Simon found himself +beaten, torn, bruised, rolled on the ground in the midst of the ring of +applauding schoolboys. As he arose, mechanically brushing with his hand +his little blouse all covered with dust, some one shouted at him: + +"Go and tell your papa." + +Then he felt a great sinking at his heart. They were stronger than he +was, they had beaten him, and he had no answer to give them, for he knew +well that it was true that he had no papa. Full of pride, he attempted +for some moments to struggle against the tears which were choking him. +He had a feeling of suffocation, and then without any sound he commenced +to weep, with great shaking sobs. A ferocious joy broke out among his +enemies, and, with one accord, just like savages in their fearful +festivals, they took each other by the hand and danced round him in a +circle, repeating as a refrain: + +"No papa! No papa!" + +But suddenly Simon ceased sobbing. He became ferocious. There were +stones under his feet; he picked them up and with all his strength hurled +them at his tormentors. Two or three were struck and rushed off yelling, +and so formidable did he appear that the rest became panic-stricken. +Cowards, as the mob always is in presence of an exasperated man, they +broke up and fled. Left alone, the little fellow without a father set +off running toward the fields, for a recollection had been awakened in +him which determined his soul to a great resolve. He made up his mind to +drown himself in the river. + +He remembered, in fact, that eight days before, a poor devil who begged +for his livelihood had thrown himself into the water because he had no +more money. Simon had been there when they fished him out again; and the +wretched man, who usually seemed to him so miserable, and ugly, had then +struck him as being so peaceful with his pale cheeks, his long drenched +beard, and his open eyes full of calm. The bystanders had said: + +"He is dead." + +And some one had said: + +"He is quite happy now." + +And Simon wished to drown himself also, because he had no father, just +like the wretched being who had no money. + +He reached the water and watched it flowing. Some fish were sporting +briskly in the clear stream and occasionally made a little bound and +caught the flies flying on the surface. He stopped crying in order to +watch them, for their maneuvers interested him greatly. But, at +intervals, as in a tempest intervals of calm alternate suddenly with +tremendous gusts of wind, which snap off the trees and then lose +themselves in the horizon, this thought would return to him with intense +pain: + +"I am going to drown myself because I have no papa." + +It was very warm, fine weather. The pleasant sunshine warmed the grass. +The water shone like a mirror. And Simon enjoyed some minutes of +happiness, of that languor which follows weeping, and felt inclined to +fall asleep there upon the grass in the warm sunshine. + +A little green frog leaped from under his feet. He endeavored to catch +it. It escaped him. He followed it and lost it three times in +succession. At last he caught it by one of its hind legs and began to +laugh as he saw the efforts the creature made to escape. It gathered +itself up on its hind legs and then with a violent spring suddenly +stretched them out as stiff as two bars; while it beat the air with its +front legs as though they were hands, its round eyes staring in their +circle of yellow. It reminded him of a toy made of straight slips of +wood nailed zigzag one on the other; which by a similar movement +regulated the movements of the little soldiers fastened thereon. Then he +thought of his home, and then of his mother, and, overcome by sorrow, he +again began to weep. A shiver passed over him. He knelt down and said +his prayers as before going to bed. But he was unable to finish them, +for tumultuous, violent sobs shook his whole frame. He no longer +thought, he no longer saw anything around him, and was wholly absorbed in +crying. + +Suddenly a heavy hand was placed upon his shoulder, and a rough voice +asked him: + +"What is it that causes you so much grief, my little man?" + +Simon turned round. A tall workman with a beard and black curly hair was +staring at him good-naturedly. He answered with his eyes and throat full +of tears: + +"They beat me--because--I--I have no--papa--no papa." + +"What!" said the man, smiling; "why, everybody has one." + +The child answered painfully amid his spasms of grief: + +"But I--I--I have none." + +Then the workman became serious. He had recognized La Blanchotte's son, +and, although himself a new arrival in the neighborhood, he had a vague +idea of her history. + +"Well," said he, "console yourself, my boy, and come with me home to your +mother. They will give you--a papa." + +And so they started on the way, the big fellow holding the little fellow +by the hand, and the man smiled, for he was not sorry to see this +Blanchotte, who was, it was said, one of the prettiest girls of the +countryside, and, perhaps, he was saying to himself, at the bottom of his +heart, that a lass who had erred might very well err again. + +They arrived in front of a very neat little white house. + +"There it is," exclaimed the child, and he cried, "Mamma!" + +A woman appeared, and the workman instantly left off smiling, for he saw +at once that there was no fooling to be done with the tall pale girl who +stood austerely at her door as though to defend from one man the +threshold of that house where she had already been betrayed by another. +Intimidated, his cap in his hand, he stammered out: + +"See, madame, I have brought you back your little boy who had lost +himself near the river." + +But Simon flung his arms about his mother's neck and told her, as he +again began to cry: + +"No, mamma, I wished to drown myself, because the others had beaten me-- +had beaten me--because I have no papa." + +A burning redness covered the young woman's cheeks; and, hurt to the +quick, she embraced her child passionately, while the tears coursed down +her face. The man, much moved, stood there, not knowing how to get away. + +But Simon suddenly ran to him and said: + +"Will you be my papa?" + +A deep silence ensued. La Blanchotte, dumb and tortured with shame, +leaned herself against the wall, both her hands upon her heart. The +child, seeing that no answer was made him, replied: + +"If you will not, I shall go back and drown myself." + +The workman took the matter as a jest and answered, laughing: + +"Why, yes, certainly I will." + +"What is your name," went on the child, "so that I may tell the others +when they wish to know your name?" + +"Philip," answered the man: + +Simon was silent a moment so that he might get the name well into his +head; then he stretched out his arms, quite consoled, as he said: + +"Well, then, Philip, you are my papa." + +The workman, lifting him from the ground, kissed him hastily on both +cheeks, and then walked away very quickly with great strides. +When the child returned to school next day he was received with a +spiteful laugh, and at the end of school, when the lads were on the point +of recommencing, Simon threw these words at their heads as he would have +done a stone: "He is named Philip, my papa." + +Yells of delight burst out from all sides. + +"Philip who? Philip what? What on earth is Philip? Where did you pick +up your Philip?" + +Simon answered nothing; and, immovable in his faith, he defied them with +his eye, ready to be martyred rather than fly before them. The school +master came to his rescue and he returned home to his mother. + +During three months, the tall workman, Philip, frequently passed by La +Blanchotte's house, and sometimes he made bold to speak to her when he +saw her sewing near the window. She answered him civilly, always +sedately, never joking with him, nor permitting him to enter her house. +Notwithstanding, being, like all men, a bit of a coxcomb, he imagined +that she was often rosier than usual when she chatted with him. + +But a lost reputation is so difficult to regain and always remains so +fragile that, in spite of the shy reserve of La Blanchotte, they already +gossiped in the neighborhood. + +As for Simon he loved his new papa very much, and walked with him nearly +every evening when the day's work was done. He went regularly to school, +and mixed with great dignity with his schoolfellows without ever +answering them back. + +One day, however, the lad who had first attacked him said to him: + +"You have lied. You have not a papa named Philip." + +"Why do you say that?" demanded Simon, much disturbed. + +The youth rubbed his hands. He replied: + +"Because if you had one he would be your mamma's husband." + +Simon was confused by the truth of this reasoning; nevertheless, he +retorted: + +"He is my papa, all the same." + +"That can very well be," exclaimed the urchin with a sneer, "but that is +not being your papa altogether." + +La Blanchotte's little one bowed his head and went off dreaming in the +direction of the forge belonging to old Loizon, where Philip worked. +This forge was as though buried beneath trees. It was very dark there; +the red glare of a formidable furnace alone lit up with great flashes +five blacksmiths; who hammered upon their anvils with a terrible din. +They were standing enveloped in flame, like demons, their eyes fixed on +the red-hot iron they were pounding; and their dull ideas rose and fell +with their hammers. + +Simon entered without being noticed, and went quietly to pluck his friend +by the sleeve. The latter turned round. All at once the work came to a +standstill, and all the men looked on, very attentive. Then, in the +midst of this unaccustomed silence, rose the slender pipe of Simon: + +"Say, Philip, the Michaude boy told me just now that you were not +altogether my papa." + +"Why not?" asked the blacksmith, + +The child replied with all innocence: + +"Because you are not my mamma's husband." + +No one laughed. Philip remained standing, leaning his forehead upon the +back of his great hands, which supported the handle of his hammer +standing upright upon the anvil. He mused. His four companions watched +him, and Simon, a tiny mite among these giants, anxiously waited. +Suddenly, one of the smiths, answering to the sentiment of all, said to +Philip: + +"La Blanchotte is a good, honest girl, and upright and steady in spite of +her misfortune, and would make a worthy wife for an honest man." + +"That is true," remarked the three others. + +The smith continued: + +"Is it the girl's fault if she went wrong? She had been promised +marriage; and I know more than one who is much respected to-day, and who +sinned every bit as much." + +"That is true," responded the three men in chorus. + +He resumed: + +"How hard she has toiled, poor thing, to bring up her child all alone, +and how she has wept all these years she has never gone out except to +church, God only knows." + +"This is also true," said the others. + +Then nothing was heard but the bellows which fanned the fire of the +furnace. Philip hastily bent himself down to Simon: + +"Go and tell your mother that I am coming to speak to her this evening." +Then he pushed the child out by the shoulders. He returned to his work, +and with a single blow the five hammers again fell upon their anvils. +Thus they wrought the iron until nightfall, strong, powerful, happy, like +contented hammers. But just as the great bell of a cathedral resounds +upon feast days above the jingling of the other bells, so Philip's +hammer, sounding above the rest, clanged second after second with a +deafening uproar. And he stood amid the flying sparks plying his trade +vigorously. + +The sky was full of stars as he knocked at La Blanchotte's door. He had +on his Sunday blouse, a clean shirt, and his beard was trimmed. The +young woman showed herself upon the threshold, and said in a grieved +tone: + +"It is ill to come thus when night has fallen, Mr. Philip." + +He wished to answer, but stammered and stood confused before her. + +She resumed: + +"You understand, do you not, that it will not do for me to be talked +about again." + +"What does that matter to me, if you will be my wife!" + +No voice replied to him, but he believed that he heard in the shadow of +the room the sound of a falling body. He entered quickly; and Simon, who +had gone to bed, distinguished the sound of a kiss and some words that +his mother murmured softly. Then, all at once, he found himself lifted +up by the hands of his friend, who, holding him at the length of his +herculean arms, exclaimed: + +"You will tell them, your schoolmates, that your papa is Philip Remy, the +blacksmith, and that he will pull the ears of all who do you any harm." + +On the morrow, when the school was full and lessons were about to begin, +little Simon stood up, quite pale with trembling lips: + +"My papa," said he in a clear voice, "is Philip Remy, the blacksmith, and +he has promised to pull the ears of all who does me any harm." + +This time no one laughed, for he was very well known, was Philip Remy, +the blacksmith, and was a papa of whom any one in the world would have +been proud. + + + + + + + VOLUME XII. + +THE CHILD +A COUNTRY EXCURSION +ROSE +ROSALIE PRUDENT +REGRET +A SISTER'S CONFESSION +COCO +A DEAD WOMAN'S SECRET +A HUMBLE DRAMA +MADEMOISELLE COCOTTE +THE CORSICAN BANDIT +THE GRAVE + + + + + +THE CHILD + +Lemonnier had remained a widower with one child. He had loved his wife +devotedly, with a tender and exalted love, without a slip, during their +entire married life. He was a good, honest man, perfectly simple, +sincere, without suspicion or malice. + +He fell in love with a poor neighbor, proposed and was accepted. He was +making a very comfortable living out of the wholesale cloth business, and +he did not for a minute suspect that the young girl might have accepted +him for anything else but himself. + +She made him happy. She was everything to him; he only thought of her, +looked at her continually, with worshiping eyes. During meals he would +make any number of blunders, in order not to have to take his eyes from +the beloved face; he would pour the wine in his plate and the water in +the salt-cellar, then he would laugh like a child, repeating: + +"You see, I love you too much; that makes me crazy." + +She would smile with a calm and resigned look; then she would look away, +as though embarrassed by the adoration of her husband, and try to make +him talk about something else; but he would take her hand under the table +and he would hold it in his, whispering: + +"My little Jeanne, my darling little Jeanne!" + +She sometimes lost patience and said: + +"Come, come, be reasonable; eat and let me eat." + +He would sigh and break off a mouthful of bread, which he would then chew +slowly. + +For five years they had no children. Then suddenly she announced to him +that this state of affairs would soon cease. He was wild with joy. He +no longer left her for a minute, until his old nurse, who had brought him +up and who often ruled the house, would push him out and close the door +behind him, in order to compel him to go out in the fresh air. + +He had grown very intimate with a young man who had known his wife since +childhood, and who was one of the prefect's secretaries. M. Duretour +would dine three times a week with the Lemonniers, bringing flowers to +madame, and sometimes a box at the theater; and often, at the end of the +dinner, Lemonnier, growing tender, turning towards his wife, would +explain: "With a companion like you and a friend like him, a man is +completely happy on earth." + +She died in childbirth. The shock almost killed him. But the sight of +the child, a poor, moaning little creature, gave him courage. + +He loved it with a passionate and sorrowful love, with a morbid love in +which stuck the memory of death, but in which lived something of his +worship for the dead mother. It was the flesh of his wife, her being +continued, a sort of quintessence of herself. This child was her very +life transferred to another body; she had disappeared that it might +exist, and the father would smother it in with kisses. But also, this +child had killed her; he had stolen this beloved creature, his life was +at the cost of hers. And M. Lemonnier would place his son in the cradle +and would sit down and watch him. He would sit this way by the hour, +looking at him, dreaming of thousands of things, sweet or sad. Then, +when the little one was asleep, he would bend over him and sob. + +The child grew. The father could no longer spend an hour away from him; +he would stay near him, take him out for walks, and himself dress him, +wash him, make him eat. His friend, M. Duretour, also seemed to love the +boy; he would kiss him wildly, in those frenzies of tenderness which are +characteristic of parents. He would toss him in his arms, he would trot +him on his knees, by the hour, and M. Lemonnier, delighted, would mutter: + +"Isn't he a darling? Isn't he a darling?" + +And M. Duretour would hug the child in his arms and tickle his neck with +his mustache. + +Celeste, the old nurse, alone, seemed to have no tenderness for the +little one. She would grow angry at his pranks, and seemed impatient at +the caresses of the two men. She would exclaim: + +"How can you expect to bring a child up like that? You'll make a perfect +monkey out of him." + +Years went by, and Jean was nine years old. He hardly knew how to read; +he had been so spoiled, and only did as he saw fit. He was willful, +stubborn and quick-tempered. The father always gave in to him and let +him have his own way. M. Duretour would always buy him all the toys he +wished, and he fed him on cake and candies. Then Celeste would grow +angry and exclaim: + +"It's a shame, monsieur, a shame. You are spoiling this child. But it +will have to stop; yes, sir, I tell you it will have to stop, and before +long, too." + +M. Lemonnier would answer, smiling: + +"What can you expect? I love him too much, I can't resist him; you must +get used to it." + +Jean was delicate, rather. The doctor said that he was anaemic, +prescribed iron, rare meat and broth. + +But the little fellow loved only cake and refused all other nourishment; +and the father, in despair, stuffed him with cream-puffs and chocolate +eclairs. + +One evening, as they were sitting down to supper, Celeste brought on the +soup with an air of authority and an assurance which she did not usually +have. She took off the cover and, dipping the ladle into the dish, she +declared: + +"Here is some broth such as I have never made; the young one will have to +take some this time." + +M. Lemonnier, frightened, bent his head. He saw a storm brewing. + +Celeste took his plate, filled it herself and placed it in front of him. + +He tasted the soup and said: + +"It is, indeed, excellent." + +The servant took the boy's plate and poured a spoonful of soup in it. +Then she retreated a few steps and waited. + +Jean smelled the food and pushed his plate away with an expression of +disgust. Celeste, suddenly pale, quickly stepped forward and forcibly +poured a spoonful down the child's open mouth. + +He choked, coughed, sneezed, spat; howling, he seized his glass and threw +it at his nurse. She received it full in the stomach. Then, +exasperated, she took the young shaver's head under her arm and began +pouring spoonful after spoonful of soup down his throat. He grew as red +as a beet, and he would cough it up, stamping, twisting, choking, beating +the air with his hands. + +At first the father was so surprised that he could not move. Then, +suddenly, he rushed forward, wild with rage, seized the servant by the +throat and threw her up against the wall stammering: + +"Out! Out! Out! you brute!" + +But she shook him off, and, her hair streaming down her back, her eyes +snapping, she cried out: + +"What's gettin' hold of you? You're trying to thrash me because I am +making this child eat soup when you are filling him with sweet stuff!" + +He kept repeating, trembling from head to foot: + +"Out! Get out-get out, you brute!" + +Then, wild, she turned to him and, pushing her face up against his, her +voice trembling: + +"Ah!--you think-you think that you can treat me like that? Oh! no. And +for whom?--for that brat who is not even yours. No, not yours! No, not +yours--not yours! Everybody knows it, except yourself! Ask the grocer, +the butcher, the baker, all of them, any one of them!" + +She was growling and mumbling, choked with passion; then she stopped and +looked at him. + +He was motionless livid, his arms hanging by his sides. After a short +pause, he murmured in a faint, shaky voice, instinct with deep feeling: + +"You say? you say? What do you say?" + +She remained silent, frightened by his appearance. Once more he stepped +forward, repeating: + +"You say--what do you say?" + +Then in a calm voice, she answered: + +"I say what I know, what everybody knows." + +He seized her and, with the fury of a beast, he tried to throw her down. +But, although old, she was strong and nimble. She slipped under his arm, +and running around the table once more furious, she screamed: + +"Look at him, just look at him, fool that you are! Isn't he the living +image of M. Durefour? just look at his nose and his eyes! Are yours like +that? And his hair! Is it like his mother's? I tell you that everyone +knows it, everyone except yourself! It's the joke of the town! Look at +him!" + +She went to the door, opened it, and disappeared. + +Jean, frightened, sat motionless before his plate of soup. + +At the end of an hour, she returned gently, to see how matters stood. +The child, after doing away with all the cakes and a pitcher full of +cream and one of syrup, was now emptying the jam-pot with his soup-spoon. + +The father had gone out. + +Celeste took the child, kissed him, and gently carried him to his room +and put him to bed. She came back to the dining-room, cleared the table, +put everything in place, feeling very uneasy all the time. + +Not a single sound could be heard throughout the house. She put her ear +against's her master's door. He seemed to be perfectly still. She put +her eye to the keyhole. He was writing, and seemed very calm. + +Then she returned to the kitchen and sat down, ready for any emergency. +She slept on a chair and awoke at daylight. + +She did the rooms as she had been accustomed to every morning; she swept +and dusted, and, towards eight o'clock, prepared M. Lemonnier's +breakfast. + +But she did not dare bring it to her master, knowing too well how she +would be received; she waited for him to ring. But he did not ring. +Nine o'clock, then ten o'clock went by. + +Celeste, not knowing what to think, prepared her tray and started up with +it, her heart beating fast. + +She stopped before the door and listened. Everything was still. She +knocked; no answer. Then, gathering up all her courage, she opened the +door and entered. With a wild shriek, she dropped the breakfast tray +which she had been holding in her hand. + +In the middle of the room, M. Lemonnier was hanging by a rope from a ring +in the ceiling. His tongue was sticking out horribly. His right slipper +was lying on the ground, his left one still on his foot. An upturned +chair had rolled over to the bed. + +Celeste, dazed, ran away shrieking. All the neighbors crowded together. +The physician declared that he had died at about midnight. + +A letter addressed to M. Duretdur was found on the table of the suicide. +It contained these words: + +"I leave and entrust the child to you!" + + + + + + +A COUNTRY EXCURSION + +For five months they had been talking of going to take luncheon in one of +the country suburbs of Paris on Madame Dufour's birthday, and as they +were looking forward very impatiently to the outing, they rose very early +that morning. Monsieur Dufour had borrowed the milkman's wagon and drove +himself. It was a very tidy, two-wheeled conveyance, with a cover +supported by four iron rods, with curtains that had been drawn up, except +the one at the back, which floated out like a sail. Madame Dufour, +resplendent in a wonderful, cherry colored silk dress, sat by the side of +her husband. + +The old grandmother and a girl sat behind them on two chairs, and a boy +with yellow hair was lying at the bottom of the wagon, with nothing to be +seen of him except his head. + +When they reached the bridge of Neuilly, Monsieur Dufour said: "Here we +are in the country at last!" and at that signal his wife grew sentimental +about the beauties of nature. When they got to the crossroads at +Courbevoie they were seized with admiration for the distant landscape. +On the right was Argenteuil with its bell tower, and above it rose the +hills of Sannois and the mill of Orgemont, while on the left the aqueduct +of Marly stood out against the clear morning sky, and in the distance +they could see the terrace of Saint-Germain; and opposite them, at the +end of a low chain of hills, the new fort of Cormeilles. Quite in the +distance; a very long way off, beyond the plains and village, one could +see the sombre green of the forests. + +The sun was beginning to burn their faces, the dust got into their eyes, +and on either side of the road there stretched an interminable tract of +bare, ugly country with an unpleasant odor. One might have thought that +it had been ravaged by a pestilence, which had even attacked the +buildings, for skeletons of dilapidated and deserted houses, or small +cottages, which were left in an unfinished state, because the contractors +had not been paid, reared their four roofless walls on each side. + +Here and there tall factory chimneys rose up from the barren soil. The +only vegetation on that putrid land, where the spring breezes wafted an +odor of petroleum and slate, blended with another odor that was even less +agreeable. At last, however, they crossed the Seine a second time, and +the bridge was a delight. The river sparkled in the sun, and they had a +feeling of quiet enjoyment, felt refreshed as they drank in the purer air +that was not impregnated by the black smoke of factories nor by the +miasma from the deposits of night soil. A man whom they met told them +that the name of the place was Bezons. Monsieur Dufour pulled up and +read the attractive announcement outside an eating house: Restaurant +Poulin, matelottes and fried fish, private rooms, arbors, and swings. + +"Well, Madame Dufour, will this suit you? Will you make up your mind at +last?" + +She read the announcement in her turn and then looked at the house for +some time. + +It was a white country inn, built by the roadside, and through the open +door she could see the bright zinc of the counter, at which sat two +workmen in their Sunday clothes. At last she made up her mind and said: + +"Yes, this will do; and, besides, there is a view." + +They drove into a large field behind the inn, separated from the river by +the towing path, and dismounted. The husband sprang out first and then +held out his arms for his wife, and as the step was very high Madame +Dufour, in order to reach him, had to show the lower part of her limbs, +whose former slenderness had disappeared in fat, and Monsieur Dufour, who +was already getting excited by the country air, pinched her calf, and +then, taking her in his arms, he set her on the ground, as if she had +been some enormous bundle. She shook the dust out of the silk dress and +then looked round to see in what sort of a place she was. + +She was a stout woman, of about thirty-six, full-blown, and delightful to +look at. She could hardly breathe, as her corsets were laced too +tightly, and their pressure forced her superabundant bosom up to her +double chin. Next the girl placed her hand on her father's shoulder and +jumped down lightly. The boy with the yellow hair had got down by +stepping on the wheel, and he helped Monsieur Dufour to lift his +grandmother out. Then they unharnessed the horse, which they had tied to +a tree, and the carriage fell back, with both shafts in the air. The men +took off their coats and washed their hands in a pail of water and then +went and joined the ladies, who had already taken possession of the +swings. + +Mademoiselle Dufour was trying to swing herself standing up, but she +could not succeed in getting a start. She was a pretty girl of about +eighteen, one of those women who suddenly excite your desire when you +meet them in the street and who leave you with a vague feeling of +uneasiness and of excited senses. She was tall, had a small waist and +large hips, with a dark skin, very large eyes and very black hair. Her +dress clearly marked the outlines of her firm, full figure, which was +accentuated by the motion of her hips as she tried to swing herself +higher. Her arms were stretched upward to hold the rope, so that her +bosom rose at every movement she made. Her hat, which a gust of wind had +blown off, was hanging behind her, and as the swing gradually rose higher +and higher, she showed her delicate limbs up to the knees each time, and +the breeze from her flying skirts, which was more heady than the fumes of +wine, blew into the faces of the two men, who were looking at her and +smiling. + +Sitting in the other swing, Madame Dufour kept saying in a monotonous +voice: + +"Cyprian, come and swing me; do come and swing me, Cyprian!" + +At last he went, and turning up his shirt sleeves, as if undertaking a +hard piece of work, with much difficulty he set his wife in motion. She +clutched the two ropes and held her legs out straight, so as not to touch +the ground. She enjoyed feeling dizzy at the motion of the swing, and +her whole figure shook like a jelly on a dish, but as she went higher and +higher; she became too giddy and was frightened. Each time the swing +came down she uttered a piercing scream, which made all the little +urchins in the neighborhood come round, and down below, beneath the +garden hedge, she vaguely saw a row of mischievous heads making various +grimaces as they laughed. + +When a servant girl came out they ordered luncheon. + +"Some fried fish, a rabbit saute, salad and dessert," Madame Dufour said, +with an important air. + +"Bring two quarts of beer and a bottle of claret," her husband said. + +"We will have lunch on the grass," the girl added. + +The grandmother, who had an affection for cats, had been running after +one that belonged to the house, trying to coax it to come to her for the +last ten minutes. The animal, who was no doubt secretly flattered by her +attentions, kept close to the good woman, but just out of reach of her +hand, and quietly walked round the trees, against which she rubbed +herself, with her tail up, purring with pleasure. + +"Hello!" suddenly exclaimed the young man with the yellow hair, who was +wandering about. "Here are two swell boats!" They all went to look at +them and saw two beautiful canoes in a wooden shed; they were as +beautifully finished as if they had been ornamental furniture. They hung +side by side, like two tall, slender girls, in their narrow shining +length, and made one wish to float in them on warm summer mornings and +evenings along the flower-covered banks of the river, where the trees dip +their branches into the water, where the rushes are continually rustling +in the breeze and where the swift kingfishers dart about like flashes of +blue lightning. + +The whole family looked at them with great respect. + +"Oh, they are indeed swell boats!" Monsieur Dufour repeated gravely, as +he examined them like a connoiseur. He had been in the habit of rowing +in his younger days, he said, and when he had spat in his hands--and he +went through the action of pulling the oars--he did not care a fig for +anybody. He had beaten more than one Englishman formerly at the +Joinville regattas. He grew quite excited at last and offered to make a +bet that in a boat like that he could row six leagues an hour without +exerting himself. + +"Luncheon is ready," the waitress said, appearing at the entrance to the +boathouse, and they all hurried off. But two young men had taken the +very seats that Madame Dufour had selected and were eating their +luncheon. No doubt they were the owners of the sculls, for they were in +boating costume. They were stretched out, almost lying on the chairs; +they were sun-browned and their thin cotton jerseys, with short sleeves, +showed their bare arms, which were as strong as a blacksmith's. They +were two strong, athletic fellows, who showed in all their movements that +elasticity and grace of limb which can only be acquired by exercise and +which is so different to the deformity with which monotonous heavy work +stamps the mechanic. + +They exchanged a rapid smile when they saw the mother and then a glance +on seeing the daughter. + +"Let us give up our place," one of them said; "it will make us acquainted +with them." + +The other got up immediately, and holding his black and red boating cap +in his hand, he politely offered the ladies the only shady place in the +garden. With many excuses they accepted, and that it might be more +rural, they sat on the grass, without either tables or chairs. + +The two young men took their plates, knives, forks, etc., to a table a +little way off and began to eat again, and their bare arms, which they +showed continually, rather embarrassed the girl. She even pretended to +turn her head aside and not to see them, while Madame Dufour, who was +rather bolder, tempted by feminine curiosity, looked at them every +moment, and, no doubt, compared them with the secret unsightliness of her +husband. She had squatted herself on ground, with her legs tucked under +her, after the manner of tailors, and she kept moving about restlessly, +saying that ants were crawling about her somewhere. Monsieur Dufour, +annoyed at the presence of the polite strangers, was trying to find a +comfortable position which he did not, however, succeed in doing, and the +young man with the yellow hair was eating as silently as an ogre. + +"It is lovely weather, monsieur," the stout lady said to one of the +boating men. She wished to be friendly because they had given up their +place. + +"It is, indeed, madame," he replied. "Do you often go into the country?" + +"Oh, only once or twice a year to get a little fresh air. And you, +monsieur?" + +"I come and sleep here every night." + +"Oh, that must be very nice!" + +"Certainly it is, madame." And he gave them such a practical account of +his daily life that it awakened afresh in the hearts of these shopkeepers +who were deprived of the meadows and who longed for country walks, to +that foolish love of nature which they all feel so strongly the whole +year round behind the counter in their shop. + +The girl raised her eyes and looked at the oarsman with emotion and +Monsieur Dufour spoke for the first time. + +"It is indeed a happy life," he said. And then he added: "A little more +rabbit, my dear?" + +"No, thank you," she replied, and turning to the young men again, and +pointing to their arms, asked: "Do you never feel cold like that?" + +They both began to laugh, and they astonished the family with an account +of the enormous fatigue they could endure, of their bathing while in a +state of tremendous perspiration, of their rowing in the fog at night; +and they struck their chests violently to show how hollow they sounded. + +"Ah! You look very strong," said the husband, who did not talk any more +of the time when he used to beat the English. The girl was looking at +them sideways now, and the young fellow with the yellow hair, who had +swallowed some wine the wrong way, was coughing violently and +bespattering Madame Dufour's cherry-colored silk dress. She got angry +and sent for some water to wash the spots. + +Meanwhile it had grown unbearably hot, the sparkling river looked like a +blaze of fire and the fumes of the wine were getting into their heads. +Monsieur Dufour, who had a violent hiccough, had unbuttoned his waistcoat +and the top button of his trousers, while his wife, who felt choking, was +gradually unfastening her dress. The apprentice was shaking his yellow +wig in a happy frame of mind, and kept helping himself to wine, and the +old grandmother, feeling the effects of the wine, was very stiff and +dignified. As for the girl, one noticed only a peculiar brightness in +her eyes, while the brown cheeks became more rosy. + +The coffee finished, they suggested singing, and each of them sang or +repeated a couplet, which the others applauded frantically. Then they +got up with some difficulty, and while the two women, who were rather +dizzy, were trying to get a breath of air, the two men, who were +altogether drunk, were attempting gymnastics. Heavy, limp and with +scarlet faces they hung or, awkwardly to the iron rings, without being +able to raise themselves. + +Meanwhile the two boating men had got their boats into the water, and +they came back and politely asked the ladies whether they would like a +row. + +"Would you like one, Monsieur Dufour?" his wife exclaimed. "Please +come!" + +He merely gave her a drunken nod, without understanding what she said. +Then one of the rowers came up with two fishing rods in his hands, and +the hope of catching a gudgeon, that great vision of the Parisian +shopkeeper, made Dufour's dull eyes gleam, and he politely allowed them +to do whatever they liked, while he sat in the shade under the bridge, +with his feet dangling over the river, by the side of the young man with +the yellow hair, who was sleeping soundly. + +One of the boating men made a martyr of himself and took the mother. + +"Let us go to the little wood on the Ile aux Anglais!" he called out as +he rowed off. The other boat went more slowly, for the rower was looking +at his companion so intently that by thought of nothing else, and his +emotion seemed to paralyze his strength, while the girl, who was sitting +in the bow, gave herself up to the enjoyment of being on the water. She +felt a disinclination to think, a lassitude in her limbs and a total +enervation, as if she were intoxicated, and her face was flushed and her +breathing quickened. The effects of the wine, which were increased by +the extreme heat, made all the trees on the bank seem to bow as she +passed. A vague wish for enjoyment and a fermentation of her blood +seemed to pervade her whole body, which was excited by the heat of the +day, and she was also disturbed at this tete-a-tete on the water, in a +place which seemed depopulated by the heat, with this young man who +thought her pretty, whose ardent looks seemed to caress her skin and were +as penetrating and pervading as the sun's rays. + +Their inability to speak increased their emotion, and they looked about +them. At last, however, he made an effort and asked her name. + +"Henriette," she said. + +"Why, my name is Henri," he replied. The sound of their voices had +calmed them, and they looked at the banks. The other boat had passed +them and seemed to be waiting for them, and the rower called out: + +"We will meet you in the wood; we are going as far as Robinson's, because +Madame Dufour is thirsty." Then he bent over his oars again and rowed +off so quickly that he was soon out of sight. + +Meanwhile a continual roar, which they had heard for some time, came +nearer, and the river itself seemed to shiver, as if the dull noise were +rising from its depths. + +"What is that noise?" she asked. It was the noise of the weir which cut +the river in two at the island, and he was explaining it to her, when, +above the noise of the waterfall, they heard the song of a bird, which +seemed a long way off. + +"Listen!" he said; "the nightingales are singing during the day, so the +female birds must be sitting." + +A nightingale! She had never heard one before, and the idea of listening +to one roused visions of poetic tenderness in her heart. A nightingale! +That is to say, the invisible witness of her love trysts which Juliet +invoked on her balcony; that celestial music which it attuned to human +kisses, that eternal inspirer of all those languorous romances which open +an ideal sky to all the poor little tender hearts of sensitive girls! + +She was going to hear a nightingale. + +"We must not make a noise," her companion said, "and then we can go into +the wood, and sit down close beside it." + +The boat seemed to glide. They saw the trees on the island, the banks of +which were so low that they could look into the depths of the thickets. +They stopped, he made the boat fast, Henriette took hold of Henri's arm, +and they went beneath the trees. + +"Stoop," he said, so she stooped down, and they went into an inextricable +thicket of creepers, leaves and reed grass, which formed an +undiscoverable retreat, and which the young man laughingly called "his +private room." + +Just above their heads, perched in one of the trees which hid them, the +bird was still singing. He uttered trills and roulades, and then loud, +vibrating notes that filled the air and seemed to lose themselves on the +horizon, across the level country, through that burning silence which +weighed upon the whole landscape. They did not speak for fear of +frightening it away. They were sitting close together, and, slowly, +Henri's arm stole round the girl's waist and squeezed it gently. She +took that daring hand without any anger, and kept removing it whenever he +put it round her; without, however, feeling at all embarrassed by this +caress, just as if it had been something quite natural, which she was +resisting just as naturally. + +She was listening to the bird in ecstasy. She felt an infinite longing +for happiness, for some sudden demonstration of tenderness, for the +revelation of superhuman poetry, and she felt such a softening at her +heart, and relaxation of her nerves, that she began to cry, without +knowing why. The young man was now straining her close to him, yet she +did not remove his arm; she did not think of it. Suddenly the +nightingale stopped, and a voice called out in the distance: + +"Henriette!" + +"Do not reply," he said in a low voice; "you will drive the bird away." + +But she had no idea of doing so, and they remained in the same position +for some time. Madame Dufour had sat down somewhere or other, for from +time to time they heard the stout lady break out into little bursts of +laughter. + +The girl was still crying; she was filled with strange sensations. +Henri's head was on her shoulder, and suddenly he kissed her on the lips. +She was surprised and angry, and, to avoid him, she stood up. + +They were both very pale when they left their grassy retreat. The blue +sky appeared to them clouded and the ardent sun darkened; and they felt +tile solitude and the silence. They walked rapidly, side by side, +without speaking or touching each other, for they seemed to have become +irreconcilable enemies, as if disgust and hatred had arisen between them, +and from time to time Henriette called out: "Mamma!" + +By and by they heard a noise behind a bush, and the stout lady appeared, +looking rather confused, and her companion's face was wrinkled with +smiles which he could not check. + +Madame Dufour took his arm, and they returned to the boats, and Henri, +who was ahead, walked in silence beside the young girl. At last they got +back to Bezons. Monsieur Dufour, who was now sober, was waiting for them +very impatiently, while the young man with the yellow hair was having a +mouthful of something to eat before leaving the inn. The carriage was +waiting in the yard, and the grandmother, who had already got in, was +very frightened at the thought of being overtaken by night before they +reached Paris, as the outskirts were not safe. + +They all shook bands, and the Dufour family drove off. + +"Good-by, until we meet again!" the oarsmen cried, and the answer they +got was a sigh and a tear. + + +Two months later, as Henri was going along the Rue des Martyrs, he saw +Dufour, Ironmonger, over a door, and so he went in, and saw the stout +lady sitting at the counter. They recognized each other immediately, and +after an interchange of polite greetings, he asked after them all. + +"And how is Mademoiselle Henriette?" he inquired specially. + +"Very well, thank you; she is married." + +"Ah!" He felt a certain emotion, but said: "Whom did she marry?" + +"That young man who accompanied us, you know; he has joined us in +business." + +"I remember him perfectly." + +He was going out, feeling very unhappy, though scarcely knowing why, when +madame called him back. + +"And how is your friend?" she asked rather shyly. + +"He is very well, thank you." + +"Please give him our compliments, and beg him to come and call, when he +is in the neighborhood." + +She then added: "Tell him it will give me great pleasure." + +"I will be sure to do so. Adieu!" + +"Do not say that; come again very soon." + +The next year, one very hot Sunday, all the details of that adventure, +which Henri had never forgotten, suddenly came back to him so clearly +that he returned alone to their room in the wood, and was overwhelmed +with astonishment when he went in. She was sitting on the grass, looking +very sad, while by her side, still in his shirt sleeves, the young man +with the yellow hair was sleeping soundly, like some animal. + +She grew so pale when she saw Henri that at first he thought she was +going to faint; then, however, they began to talk quite naturally. +But when he told her that he was very fond of that spot, and went there +frequently on Sundays to indulge in memories, she looked into his eyes +for a long time. + +"I too, think of it," she replied. + +"Come, my dear," her husband said, with a yawn. "I think it is time for +us to be going." + + + + + + +ROSE + +The two young women appear to be buried under a blanket of flowers. They +are alone in the immense landau, which is filled with flowers like a +giant basket. On the front seat are two small hampers of white satin +filled with violets, and on the bearskin by which their knees are covered +there is a mass of roses, mimosas, pinks, daisies, tuberoses and orange +blossoms, interwoven with silk ribbons; the two frail bodies seem buried +under this beautiful perfumed bed, which hides everything but the +shoulders and arms and a little of the dainty waists. + +The coachman's whip is wound with a garland of anemones, the horses' +traces are dotted with carnations, the spokes of the wheels are clothed +in mignonette, and where the lanterns ought to be are two enormous round +bouquets which look as though they were the eyes of this strange, +rolling, flower-bedecked creature. + +The landau drives rapidly along the road, through the Rue d'Antibes, +preceded, followed, accompanied, by a crowd of other carriages covered +with flowers, full of women almost hidden by a sea of violets. It is the +flower carnival at Cannes. + +The carriage reaches the Boulevard de la Fonciere, where the battle is +waged. All along the immense avenue a double row of flower-bedecked +vehicles are going and coming like an endless ribbon. Flowers are thrown +from one to the other. They pass through the air like balls, striking +fresh faces, bouncing and falling into the dust, where an army of +youngsters pick them up. + +A thick crowd is standing on the sidewalks looking on and held in check +by the mounted police, who pass brutally along pushing back the curious +pedestrians as though to prevent the common people from mingling with the +rich. + +In the carriages, people call to each other, recognize each other and +bombard each other with roses. A chariot full of pretty women, dressed +in red, like devils, attracts the eyes of all. A gentleman, who looks +like the portraits of Henry IV., is throwing an immense bouquet which is +held back by an elastic. Fearing the shock, the women hide their eyes +and the men lower their heads, but the graceful, rapid and obedient +missile describes a curve and returns to its master, who immediately +throws it at some new face. + +The two young women begin to throw their stock of flowers by handfuls, +and receive a perfect hail of bouquets; then, after an hour of warfare, +a little tired, they tell the coachman to drive along the road which +follows the seashore. + +The sun disappears behind Esterel, outlining the dark, rugged mountain +against the sunset sky. The clear blue sea, as calm as a mill-pond, +stretches out as far as the horizon, where it blends with the sky; and +the fleet, anchored in the middle of the bay, looks like a herd of +enormous beasts, motionless on the water, apocalyptic animals, armored +and hump-backed, their frail masts looking like feathers, and with eyes +which light up when evening approaches. + +The two young women, leaning back under the heavy robes, look out lazily +over the blue expanse of water. At last one of them says: + +"How delightful the evenings are! How good everything seems! Don't you +think so, Margot?" + +"Yes, it is good. But there is always something lacking." + +"What is lacking? I feel perfectly happy. I don't need anything else." + +"Yes, you do. You are not thinking of it. No matter how contented we +may be, physically, we always long for something more--for the heart." + +The other asked with a smile: + +"A little love?" + +"Yes." + +They stopped talking, their eyes fastened on the distant horizon, then +the one called Marguerite murmured: "Life without that seems to me +unbearable. I need to be loved, if only by a dog. But we are all alike, +no matter what you may say, Simone." + +"Not at all, my dear. I had rather not be loved at all than to be loved +by the first comer. Do you think, for instance, that it would be +pleasant to be loved by--by--" + +She was thinking by whom she might possibly be loved, glancing across the +wide landscape. Her eyes, after traveling around the horizon, fell on +the two bright buttons which were shining on the back of the coachman's +livery, and she continued, laughing: "by my coachman?" + +Madame Margot barely smiled, and said in a low tone of voice: + +"I assure you that it is very amusing to be loved by a servant. It has +happened to me two or three times. They roll their eyes in such a funny +manner--it's enough to make you die laughing! Naturally, the more in +love they are, the more severe one must be with them, and then, some day, +for some reason, you dismiss them, because, if anyone should notice it, +you would appear so ridiculous." + +Madame Simone was listening, staring straight ahead of her, then she +remarked: + +"No, I'm afraid that my footman's heart would not satisfy me. Tell me +how you noticed that they loved you." + +"I noticed it the same way that I do with other men--when they get +stupid." + +"The others don't seem stupid to me, when they love me." + +"They are idiots, my dear, unable to talk, to answer, to understand +anything." + +"But how did you feel when you were loved by a servant? Were you--moved +--flattered?" + +"Moved? no, flattered--yes a little. One is always flattered to be +loved by a man, no matter who he may be." + +"Oh, Margot!" + +"Yes, indeed, my dear! For instance, I will tell you of a peculiar +incident which happened to me. You will see how curious and complex our +emotions are, in such cases. + +"About four years ago I happened to be without a maid. I had tried five +or six, one right after the other, and I was about ready to give up in +despair, when I saw an advertisement in a newspaper of a young girl +knowing how to cook, embroider, dress hair, who was looking for a +position and who could furnish the best of references. Besides all these +accomplishments, she could speak English. + +"I wrote to the given address, and the next day the person in question +presented herself. She was tall, slender, pale, shy-looking. She had +beautiful black eyes and a charming complexion; she pleased me +immediately. I asked for her certificates; she gave me one in English, +for she came, as she said, from Lady Rymwell's, where she had been for +ten years. + +"The certificate showed that the young girl had left of her own free +will, in order to return to France, and the only thing which they had had +to find fault in her during her long period of service was a little +French coquettishness. + +"This prudish English phrase even made me smile, and I immediately +engaged this maid. + +"She came to me the same day. Her name was Rose. + +"At the end of a month I would have been helpless without her. She was a +treasure, a pearl, a phenomenon. + +"She could dress my hair with infinite taste; she could trim a hat better +than most milliners, and she could even make my dresses. + +"I was astonished at her accomplishments. I had never before been waited +on in such a manner. + +"She dressed me rapidly and with a surprisingly light touch. I never +felt her fingers on my skin, and nothing is so disagreeable to me as +contact with a servant's hand. I soon became excessively lazy; it was so +pleasant to be dressed from head to foot, and from lingerie to gloves, by +this tall, timid girl, always blushing a little, and never saying a word. +After my bath she would rub and massage me while I dozed a little on my +couch; I almost considered her more of a friend than a servant. + +"One morning the janitor asked, mysteriously, to speak to me. I was +surprised, and told him to come in. He was a good, faithful man, an old +soldier, one of my husband's former orderlies. + +"He seemed to be embarrassed by what he had to say to me. At last he +managed to mumble: + +"'Madame, the superintendent of police is downstairs.' + +"I asked quickly: + +"'What does he wish?' + +"'He wishes to search the house.' + +"Of course the police are useful, but I hate them. I do not think that +it is a noble profession. I answered, angered and hurt: + +"'Why this search? For what reason? He shall not come in.' + +"The janitor continued: + +"'He says that there is a criminal hidden in the house.' + +"This time I was frightened and I told him to bring the inspector to me, +so that I might get some explanation. He was a man with good manners and +decorated with the Legion of Honor. He begged my pardon for disturbing +me, and then informed me that I had, among my domestics, a convict. + +"I was shocked; and I answered that I could guarantee every servant in +the house, and I began to enumerate them. + +"'The janitor, Pierre Courtin, an old soldier.' + +"'It's not he.' + +"'A stable-boy, son of farmers whom I know, and a groom whom you have +just seen.' + +"'It's not he.' + +"'Then, monsieur, you see that you must be mistaken.' + +"'Excuse me, madame, but I am positive that I am not making a mistake. + +As the conviction of a notable criminal is at stake, would you be so kind +as to send for all your servants?" + +"At first I refused, but I finally gave in, and sent downstairs for +everybody, men and women. + +"The inspector glanced at them and then declared: + +"'This isn't all.' + +"'Excuse me, monsieur, there is no one left but my maid, a young girl +whom you could not possibly mistake for a convict.' + +"He asked: + +"'May I also see her?' + +"'Certainly.' + +"I rang for Rose, who immediately appeared. She had hardly entered the +room, when the inspector made a motion, and two men whom I had not seen, +hidden behind the door, sprang forward, seized her and tied her hands +behind her back. + +"I cried out in anger and tried to rush forward to defend her. The +inspector stopped me: + +"'This girl, madame, is a man whose name is Jean Nicolas Lecapet, +condemned to death in 1879 for assaulting a woman and injuring her so +that death resulted. His sentence was commuted to imprisonment for life. +He escaped four months ago. We have been looking for him ever since.' + +"I was terrified, bewildered. I did not believe him. The commissioner +continued, laughing: + +"'I can prove it to you. His right arm is tattooed.' + +"'The sleeve was rolled up. It was true. The inspector added, with bad +taste: + +"'You can trust us for the other proofs.' + +"And they led my maid away! + +"Well, would you believe me, the thing that moved me most was not anger +at having thus been played upon, deceived and made ridiculous, it was not +the shame of having thus been dressed and undressed, handled and touched +by this man--but a deep humiliation--a woman's humiliation. Do you +understand?" + +"I am afraid I don't." + +"Just think--this man had been condemned for--for assaulting a woman. +Well! I thought of the one whom he had assaulted--and--and I felt +humiliated--There! Do you understand now?" + +Madame Margot did not answer. She was looking straight ahead, her eyes +fastened on the two shining buttons of the livery, with that sphinx-like +smile which women sometimes have. + + + + + + +ROSALIE PRUDENT + +There was a real mystery in this affair which neither the jury, nor the +president, nor the public prosecutor himself could understand. + +The girl Prudent (Rosalie), servant at the Varambots', of Nantes, having +become enceinte without the knowledge of her masters, had, during the +night, killed and buried her child in the garden. + +It was the usual story of the infanticides committed by servant girls. +But there was one inexplicable circumstance about this one. When the +police searched the girl Prudent's room they discovered a complete +infant's outfit, made by Rosalie herself, who had spent her nights for +the last three months in cutting and sewing it. The grocer from whom she +had bought her candles, out of her own wages, for this long piece of work +had come to testify. It came out, moreover, that the sage-femme of the +district, informed by Rosalie of her condition, had given her all +necessary instructions and counsel in case the event should happen at a +time when it might not be possible to get help. She had also procured a +place at Poissy for the girl Prudent, who foresaw that her present +employers would discharge her, for the Varambot couple did not trifle +with morality. + +There were present at the trial both the man and the woman, a middle- +class pair from the provinces, living on their income. They were so +exasperated against this girl, who had sullied their house, that they +would have liked to see her guillotined on the spot without a trial. +The spiteful depositions they made against her became accusations in +their mouths. + +The defendant, a large, handsome girl of Lower Normandy, well educated +for her station in life, wept continuously and would not answer to +anything. + +The court and the spectators were forced to the opinion that she had +committed this barbarous act in a moment of despair and madness, since +there was every indication that she had expected to keep and bring up her +child. + +The president tried for the last time to make her speak, to get some +confession, and, having urged her with much gentleness, he finally made +her understand that all these men gathered here to pass judgment upon her +were not anxious for her death and might even have pity on her. + +Then she made up her mind to speak. + +"Come, now, tell us, first, who is the father of this child?" he asked. + +Until then she had obstinately refused to give his name. + +But she replied suddenly, looking at her masters who had so cruelly +calumniated her: + +"It is Monsieur Joseph, Monsieur Varambot's nephew." + +The couple started in their seats and cried with one voice-- "That's not +true! She lies! This is infamous!" + +The president had them silenced and continued "Go on, please, and tell us +how it all happened." + +Then she suddenly began to talk freely, relieving her pent-up heart, that +poor, solitary, crushed heart--laying bare her sorrow, her whole sorrow, +before those severe men whom she had until now taken for enemies and +inflexible judges. + +"Yes, it was Monsieur Joseph Varambot, when he came on leave last year." + +"What does Mr. Joseph Varambot do?" + +"He is a non-commissioned officer in the artillery, monsieur. Well, he +stayed two months at the house, two months of the summer. I thought +nothing about it when he began to look at me, and then flatter me, and +make love to me all day long. And I let myself be taken in, monsieur. +He kept saying to me that I was a handsome girl, that I was good company, +that I just suited him--and I, I liked him well enough. What could I do? +One listens to these things when one is alone--all alone--as I was. I am +alone in the world, monsieur. I have no one to talk to--no one to tell +my troubles to. I have no father, no mother, no brother, no sister, +nobody. And when he began to talk to me it was as if I had a brother who +had come back. And then he asked me to go with him to the river one +evening, so that we might talk without disturbing any one. I went--I +don't know--I don't know how it happened. He had his arm around me. +Really I didn't want to--no--no-- I could not--I felt like crying, the +air was so soft--the moon was shining. No, I swear to you--I could not-- +he did what he wanted. That went on three weeks, as long as he stayed. +I could have followed him to the ends of the world. He went away. I did +not know that I was enceinte. I did not know it until the month after--" + +She began to cry so bitterly that they had to give her time to collect +herself. + +Then the president resumed with the tone of a priest at the confessional: +"Come, now, go on." + +She began to talk again: "When I realized my condition I went to see +Madame Boudin, who is there to tell you, and I asked her how it would be, +in case it should come if she were not there. Then I made the outfit, +sewing night after night, every evening until one o'clock in the morning; +and then I looked for another place, for I knew very well that I should +be sent away, but I wanted to stay in the house until the very last, so +as to save my pennies, for I have not got very much and I should need my +money for the little one." + +"Then you did not intend to kill him?" + +"Oh, certainly not, monsieur!" + +"Why did you kill him, then?" + +"It happened this way. It came sooner than I expected. It came upon me +in the kitchen, while I was doing the dishes. Monsieur and Madame +Varambot were already asleep, so I went up, not without difficulty, +dragging myself up by the banister, and I lay down on the bare floor. +It lasted perhaps one hour, or two, or three; I don't know, I had such +pain; and then I pushed him out with all my strength. I felt that he +came out and I picked him up. + +"Ah! but I was glad, I assure you! I did all that Madame Boudin told me +to do. And then I laid him on my bed. And then such a pain griped me +again that I thought I should die. If you knew what it meant, you there, +you would not do so much of this. I fell on my knees, and then toppled +over backward on the floor; and it griped me again, perhaps one hour, +perhaps two. I lay there all alone--and then another one comes--another +little one--two, yes, two, like this. I took him up as I did the first +one, and then I put him on the bed, the two side by side. Is it +possible, tell me, two children, and I who get only twenty francs a +month? Say, is it possible? One, yes, that can be managed by going +without things, but not two. That turned my head. What do I know about +it? Had I any choice, tell me? + +"What could I do? I felt as if my last hour had come. I put the pillow +over them, without knowing why. I could not keep them both; and then I +threw myself down, and I lay there, rolling over and over and crying +until I saw the daylight come into the window. Both of them were quite +dead under the pillow. Then I took them under my arms and went down the +stairs out in the vegetable garden. I took the gardener's spade and I +buried them under the earth, digging as deep a hole as I could, one here +and the other one there, not together, so that they might not talk of +their mother if these little dead bodies can talk. What do I know about +it? + +"And then, back in my bed, I felt so sick that I could not get up. They +sent for the doctor and he understood it all. I'm telling you the truth, +Your Honor. Do what you like with me; I'm ready." + +Half of the jury were blowing their noses violently to keep from crying. +The women in the courtroom were sobbing. + +The president asked her: + +"Where did you bury the other one?" + +"The one that you have?" she asked. + +"Why, this one--this one was in the artichokes." + +"Oh, then the other one is among the strawberries, by the well." + +And she began to sob so piteously that no one could hear her unmoved. + +The girl Rosalie Prudent was acquitted. + + + + + + +REGRET + +Monsieur Saval, who was called in Mantes "Father Saval," had just risen +from bed. He was weeping. It was a dull autumn day; the leaves were +falling. They fell slowly in the rain, like a heavier and slower rain. +M. Saval was not in good spirits. He walked from the fireplace to the +window, and from the window to the fireplace. Life has its sombre days. +It would no longer have any but sombre days for him, for he had reached +the age of sixty-two. He is alone, an old bachelor, with nobody about +him. How sad it is to die alone, all alone, without any one who is +devoted to you! + +He pondered over his life, so barren, so empty. He recalled former days, +the days of his childhood, the home, the house of his parents; his +college days, his follies; the time he studied law in Paris, his father's +illness, his death. He then returned to live with his mother. They +lived together very quietly, and desired nothing more. At last the +mother died. How sad life is! He lived alone since then, and now, in +his turn, he, too, will soon be dead. He will disappear, and that will +be the end. There will be no more of Paul Saval upon the earth. What a +frightful thing! Other people will love, will laugh. Yes, people will +go on amusing themselves, and he will no longer exist! Is it not strange +that people can laugh, amuse themselves, be joyful under that eternal +certainty of death? If this death were only probable, one could then +have hope; but no, it is inevitable, as inevitable as that night follows +the day. + +If, however, his life had been full! If he had done something; if he had +had adventures, great pleasures, success, satisfaction of some kind or +another. But no, nothing. He had done nothing, nothing but rise from +bed, eat, at the same hours, and go to bed again. And he had gone on +like that to the age of sixty-two years. He had not even taken unto +himself a wife, as other men do. Why? Yes, why was it that he had not +married? He might have done so, for he possessed considerable means. +Had he lacked an opportunity? Perhaps! But one can create +opportunities. He was indifferent; that was all. Indifference had been +his greatest drawback, his defect, his vice. How many men wreck their +lives through indifference! It is so difficult for some natures to get +out of bed, to move about, to take long walks, to speak, to study any +question. + +He had not even been loved. No woman had reposed on his bosom, in a +complete abandon of love. He knew nothing of the delicious anguish of +expectation, the divine vibration of a hand in yours, of the ecstasy of +triumphant passion. + +What superhuman happiness must overflow your heart, when lips encounter +lips for the first time, when the grasp of four arms makes one being of +you, a being unutterably happy, two beings infatuated with one another. + +M. Saval was sitting before the fire, his feet on the fender, in his +dressing gown. Assuredly his life had been spoiled, completely spoiled. +He had, however, loved. He had loved secretly, sadly, and indifferently, +in a manner characteristic of him in everything. Yes, he had loved his +old friend, Madame Sandres, the wife of his old companion, Sandres. +Ah! if he had known her as a young girl! But he had met her too late; +she was already married. Unquestionably, he would have asked her hand! +How he had loved her, nevertheless, without respite, since the first day +he set eyes on her! + +He recalled his emotion every time he saw her, his grief on leaving her, +the many nights that he could not sleep, because he was thinking of her. + +On rising in the morning he was somewhat more rational than on the +previous evening. + +Why? + +How pretty she was formerly, so dainty, with fair curly hair, and always +laughing. Sandres was not the man she should have chosen. She was now +fifty-two years of age. She seemed happy. Ah! if she had only loved him +in days gone by; yes, if she had only loved him! And why should she not +have loved him, he, Saval, seeing that he loved her so much, yes, she, +Madame Sandres! + +If only she could have guessed. Had she not guessed anything, seen +anything, comprehended anything? What would she have thought? If he had +spoken, what would she have answered? + +And Saval asked himself a thousand other things. He reviewed his whole +life, seeking to recall a multitude of details. + +He recalled all the long evenings spent at the house of Sandres, when the +latter's wife was young, and so charming. + +He recalled many things that she had said to him, the intonations of her +voice, the little significant smiles that meant so much. + +He recalled their walks, the three of them together, along the banks of +the Seine, their luncheon on the grass on Sundays, for Sandres was +employed at the sub-prefecture. And all at once the distinct +recollection came to him of an afternoon spent with her in a little wood +on the banks of the river. + +They had set out in the morning, carrying their provisions in baskets. +It was a bright spring morning, one of those days which intoxicate one. +Everything smells fresh, everything seems happy. The voices of the birds +sound more joyous, and-they fly more swiftly. They had luncheon on the +grass, under the willow trees, quite close to the water, which glittered +in the sun's rays. The air was balmy, charged with the odors of fresh +vegetation; they drank it in with delight. How pleasant everything was +on that day! + +After lunch, Sandres went to sleep on the broad of his back. "The best +nap he had in his life," said he, when he woke up. + +Madame Sandres had taken the arm of Saval, and they started to walk along +the river bank. + +She leaned tenderly on his arm. She laughed and said to him: "I am +intoxicated, my friend, I am quite intoxicated." He looked at her, his +heart going pit-a-pat. He felt himself grow pale, fearful that he might +have looked too boldly at her, and that the trembling of his hand had +revealed his passion. + +She had made a wreath of wild flowers and water-lilies, and she asked +him: "Do I look pretty like that?" + +As he did not answer--for he could find nothing to say, he would have +liked to go down on his knees--she burst out laughing, a sort of annoyed, +displeased laugh, as she said: "Great goose, what ails you? You might at +least say something." + +He felt like crying, but could not even yet find a word to say. + +All these things came back to him now, as vividly as on the day when they +took place. Why had she said this to him, "Great goose, what ails you? +You might at least say something!" + +And he recalled how tenderly she had leaned on his arm. And in passing +under a shady tree he had felt her ear brushing his cheek, and he had +moved his head abruptly, lest she should suppose he was too familiar. + +When he had said to her: "Is it not time to return?" she darted a +singular look at him. "Certainly," she said, "certainly," regarding him +at the same time in a curious manner. He had not thought of it at the +time, but now the whole thing appeared to him quite plain. + +"Just as you like, my friend. If you are tired let us go back." + +And he had answered: "I am not fatigued; but Sandres may be awake now." + +And she had said: "If you are afraid of my husband's being awake, that is +another thing. Let us return." + +On their way back she remained silent, and leaned no longer on his arm. +Why? + +At that time it had never occurred to him, to ask himself "why." Now he +seemed to apprehend something that he had not then understood. + +Could it? + +M. Saval felt himself blush, and he got up at a bound, as if he were +thirty years younger and had heard Madame Sandres say, "I love you." + +Was it possible? That idea which had just entered his mind tortured him. +Was it possible that he had not seen, had not guessed? + +Oh! if that were true, if he had let this opportunity of happiness pass +without taking advantage of it! + +He said to himself : "I must know. I cannot remain in this state of +doubt. I must know!" He thought: "I am sixty-two years of age, she is +fifty-eight; I may ask her that now without giving offense." + +He started out. + +The Sandres' house was situated on the other side of the street, almost +directly opposite his own. He went across and knocked at the door, and a +little servant opened it. + +"You here at this hour, Saval! Has some accident happened to you?" + +"No, my girl," he replied; "but go and tell your mistress that I want to +speak to her at once." + +"The fact is madame is preserving pears for the winter, and she is in the +preserving room. She is not dressed, you understand." + +"Yes, but go and tell her that I wish to see her on a very important +matter." + +The little servant went away, and Saval began to walk, with long, nervous +strides, up and down the drawing-room. He did not feel in the least +embarrassed, however. Oh! he was merely going to ask her something, as +he would have asked her about some cooking recipe. He was sixty-two +years of age! + +The door opened and madame appeared. She was now a large woman, fat and +round, with full cheeks and a sonorous laugh. She walked with her arms +away from her sides and her sleeves tucked up, her bare arms all covered +with fruit juice. She asked anxiously: + +"What is the matter with you, my friend? You are not ill, are you?" + +"No, my dear friend; but I wish to ask you one thing, which to me is of +the first importance, something which is torturing my heart, and I want +you to promise that you will answer me frankly." + +She laughed, "I am always frank. Say on." + +"Well, then. I have loved you from the first day I ever saw you. Can +you have any doubt of this?" + +She responded, laughing, with something of her former tone of voice. + +"Great goose! what ails you? I knew it from the very first day!" + + +Saval began to tremble. He stammered out: "You knew it? Then . . ." + +He stopped. + +She asked: + +"Then? + +He answered: + +"Then--what did you think? What--what--what would you have answered?" + +She broke into a peal of laughter. Some of the juice ran off the tips of +her fingers on to the carpet. + +"What?" + +"I? Why, you did not ask me anything. It was not for me to declare +myself!" + +He then advanced a step toward her. + +"Tell me--tell me . . . . You remember the day when Sandres went to +sleep on the grass after lunch . . . when we had walked together as +far as the bend of the river, below . . ." + +He waited, expectantly. She had ceased to laugh, and looked at him, +straight in the eyes. + +"Yes, certainly, I remember it." + +He answered, trembling all over: + +"Well--that day--if I had been--if I had been--venturesome--what would +you have done?" + +She began to laugh as only a happy woman can laugh, who has nothing to +regret, and responded frankly, in a clear voice tinged with irony: + +"I would have yielded, my friend." + +She then turned on her heels and went back to her jam-making. + +Saval rushed into the street, cast down, as though he had met with some +disaster. He walked with giant strides through the rain, straight on, +until he reached the river bank, without thinking where he was going. +He then turned to the right and followed the river. He walked a long +time, as if urged on by some instinct. His clothes were running with +water, his hat was out of shape, as soft as a rag, and dripping like a +roof. He walked on, straight in front of him. At last, he came to the +place where they had lunched on that day so long ago, the recollection of +which tortured his heart. He sat down under the leafless trees, and +wept. + + + + + + +A SISTER'S CONFESSION + +Marguerite de Therelles was dying. Although she was-only fifty-six years +old she looked at least seventy-five. She gasped for breath, her face +whiter than the sheets, and had spasms of violent shivering, with her +face convulsed and her eyes haggard as though she saw a frightful vision. + +Her elder sister, Suzanne, six years older than herself, was sobbing on +her knees beside the bed. A small table close to the dying woman's couch +bore, on a white cloth, two lighted candles, for the priest was expected +at any moment to administer extreme unction and the last communion. + +The apartment wore that melancholy aspect common to death chambers; a +look of despairing farewell. Medicine bottles littered the furniture; +linen lay in the corners into which it had been kicked or swept. The +very chairs looked, in their disarray, as if they were terrified and had +run in all directions. Death--terrible Death--was in the room, hidden, +awaiting his prey. + +This history of the two sisters was an affecting one. It was spoken of +far and wide; it had drawn tears from many eyes. + +Suzanne, the elder, had once been passionately loved by a young man, +whose affection she returned. They were engaged to be married, and the +wedding day was at hand, when Henry de Sampierre suddenly died. + +The young girl's despair was terrible, and she took an oath never to +marry. She faithfully kept her vow and adopted widow's weeds for the +remainder of her life. + +But one morning her sister, her little sister Marguerite, then only +twelve years old, threw herself into Suzanne's arms, sobbing: "Sister, I +don't want you to be unhappy. I don't want you to mourn all your life. +I'll never leave you--never, never, never! I shall never marry, either. +I'll stay with you always--always!" + +Suzanne kissed her, touched by the child's devotion, though not putting +any faith in her promise. + +But the little one kept her word, and, despite her parents' +remonstrances, despite her elder sister's prayers, never married. +She was remarkably pretty and refused many offers. She never left her +sister. + +They spent their whole life together, without a single day's separation. +They went everywhere together and were inseparable. But Marguerite was +pensive, melancholy, sadder than her sister, as if her sublime sacrifice +had undermined her spirits. She grew older more quickly; her hair was +white at thirty; and she was often ill, apparently stricken with some +unknown, wasting malady. + +And now she would be the first to die. + +She had not spoken for twenty-four hours, except to whisper at daybreak: + +"Send at once for the priest." + +And she had since remained lying on her back, convulsed with agony, her +lips moving as if unable to utter the dreadful words that rose in her +heart, her face expressive of a terror distressing to witness. + +Suzanne, distracted with grief, her brow pressed against the bed, wept +bitterly, repeating over and over again the words: + +"Margot, my poor Margot, my little one!" + +She had always called her "my little one," while Marguerite's name for +the elder was invariably "sister." + +A footstep sounded on the stairs. The door opened. An acolyte appeared, +followed by the aged priest in his surplice. As soon as she saw him the +dying woman sat up suddenly in bed, opened her lips, stammered a few +words and began to scratch the bed-clothes, as if she would have made +hole in them. + +Father Simon approached, took her hand, kissed her on the forehead and +said in a gentle voice: + +"May God pardon your sins, my daughter. Be of good courage. Now is the +moment to confess them--speak!" + +Then Marguerite, shuddering from head to foot, so that the very bed shook +with her nervous movements, gasped: + +"Sit down, sister, and listen." + +The priest stooped toward the prostrate Suzanne, raised her to her feet, +placed her in a chair, and, taking a hand of each of the sisters, +pronounced: + +"Lord God! Send them strength! Shed Thy mercy upon them." + +And Marguerite began to speak. The words issued from her lips one by +one--hoarse, jerky, tremulous. + +"Pardon, pardon, sister! pardon me! Oh, if only you knew how I have +dreaded this moment all my life!" + +Suzanne faltered through her tears: + +"But what have I to pardon, little one? You have given me everything, +sacrificed all to me. You are an angel." + +But Marguerite interrupted her: + +"Be silent, be silent! Let me speak! Don't stop me! It is terrible. +Let me tell all, to the very end, without interruption. Listen. You +remember--you remember--Henry--" + +Suzanne trembled and looked at her sister. The younger one went on: + +"In order to understand you must hear everything. I was twelve years +old--only twelve--you remember, don't you? And I was spoilt; I did just +as I pleased. You remember how everybody spoilt me? Listen. The first +time he came he had on his riding boots; he dismounted, saying that he +had a message for father. You remember, don't you? Don't speak. +Listen. When I saw him I was struck with admiration. I thought him so +handsome, and I stayed in a corner of the drawing-room all the time he +was talking. Children are strange--and terrible. Yes, indeed, I dreamt +of him. + +"He came again--many times. I looked at him with all my eyes, all my +heart. I was large for my age and much more precocious than--any one +suspected. He came often. I thought only of him. I often whispered to +myself: + +"'Henry-Henry de Sampierre!' + +"Then I was told that he was going to marry you. That was a blow! Oh, +sister, a terrible blow--terrible! I wept all through three sleepless +nights. + +He came every afternoon after lunch. You remember, don't you? Don't +answer. Listen. You used to make cakes that he was very fond of--with +flour, butter and milk. Oh, I know how to make them. I could make them +still, if necessary. He would swallow them at one mouthful and wash them +down with a glass of wine, saying: 'Delicious!' Do you remember the way +he said it? + +"I was jealous--jealous! Your wedding day was drawing near. It was only +a fortnight distant. I was distracted. I said to myself: 'He shall not +marry Suzanne--no, he shall not! He shall marry me when I am old enough! +I shall never love any one half so much.' But one evening, ten days +before the wedding, you went for a stroll with him in the moonlight +before the house--and yonder--under the pine tree, the big pine tree--he +kissed you--kissed you--and held you in his arms so long--so long! You +remember, don't you? It was probably the first time. You were so pale +when you carne back to the drawing-room! + +"I saw you. I was there in the shrubbery. I was mad with rage! I would +have killed you both if I could! + +"I said to myself: 'He shall never marry Suzanne--never! He shall marry +no one! I could not bear it.' And all at once I began to hate him +intensely. + +"Then do you know what I did? Listen. I had seen the gardener prepare +pellets for killing stray dogs. He would crush a bottle into small +pieces with a stone and put the ground glass into a ball of meat. + +"I stole a small medicine bottle from mother's room. I ground it fine +with a hammer and hid the glass in my pocket. It was a glistening +powder. The next day, when you had made your little cakes; I opened them +with a knife and inserted the glass. He ate three. I ate one myself. I +threw the six others into the pond. The two swans died three days later. +You remember? Oh, don't speak! Listen, listen. I, I alone did not die. +But I have always been ill. Listen--he died--you know--listen--that was +not the worst. It was afterward, later--always--the most terrible-- +listen. + +"My life, all my life--such torture! I said to myself: 'I will never +leave my sister. And on my deathbed I will tell her all.' And now I +have told. And I have always thought of this moment--the moment when all +would be told. Now it has come. It is terrible--oh!--sister-- + +"I have always thought, morning and evening, day and night: 'I shall have +to tell her some day!' I waited. The horror of it! It is done. Say +nothing. Now I am afraid--I am afraid! Oh! Supposing I should see him +again, by and by, when I am dead! See him again! Only to think of it! +I dare not--yet I must. I am going to die. I want you to forgive me. +I insist on it. I cannot meet him without your forgiveness. Oh, tell +her to forgive me, Father! Tell her. I implore you! I cannot die +without it." + +She was silent and lay back, gasping for breath, still plucking at the +sheets with her fingers. + +Suzanne had hidden her face in her hands and did not move. She was +thinking of him whom she had loved so long. What a life of happiness +they might have had together! She saw him again in the dim and distant +past-that past forever lost. Beloved dead! how the thought of them +rends the heart! Oh! that kiss, his only kiss! She had retained the +memory of it in her soul. And, after that, nothing, nothing more +throughout her whole existence! + +The priest rose suddenly and in a firm, compelling voice said: + +"Mademoiselle Suzanne, your sister is dying!" + +Then Suzanne, raising her tear-stained face, put her arms round her +sister, and kissing her fervently, exclaimed: + +"I forgive you, I forgive you, little one!" + + + + + + +COCO + +Throughout the whole countryside the Lucas farn, was known as "the +Manor." No one knew why. The peasants doubtless attached to this word, +"Manor," a meaning of wealth and of splendor, for this farm was +undoubtedly the largest, richest and the best managed in the whole +neighborhood. + +The immense court, surrounded by five rows of magnificent trees, which +sheltered the delicate apple trees from the harsh wind of the plain, +inclosed in its confines long brick buildings used for storing fodder and +grain, beautiful stables built of hard stone and made to accommodate +thirty horses, and a red brick residence which looked like a little +chateau. + +Thanks for the good care taken, the manure heaps were as little offensive +as such things can be; the watch-dogs lived in kennels, and countless +poultry paraded through the tall grass. + +Every day, at noon, fifteen persons, masters, farmhands and the women +folks, seated themselves around the long kitchen table where the soup was +brought in steaming in a large, blue-flowered bowl. + +The beasts-horses, cows, pigs and sheep-were fat, well fed and clean. +Maitre Lucas, a tall man who was getting stout, would go round three +times a day, overseeing everything and thinking of everything. + +A very old white horse, which the mistress wished to keep until its +natural death, because she had brought it up and had always used it, and +also because it recalled many happy memories, was housed, through sheer +kindness of heart, at the end of the stable. + +A young scamp about fifteen years old, Isidore Duval by name, and called, +for convenience, Zidore, took care of this pensioner, gave him his +measure of oats and fodder in winter, and in summer was supposed to +change his pasturing place four times a day, so that he might have plenty +of fresh grass. + +The animal, almost crippled, lifted with difficulty his legs, large at +the knees and swollen above the hoofs. His coat, which was no longer +curried, looked like white hair, and his long eyelashes gave to his eyes +a sad expression. + +When Zidore took the animal to pasture, he had to pull on the rope with +all his might, because it walked so slowly; and the youth, bent over and +out of breath, would swear at it, exasperated at having to care for this +old nag. + +The farmhands, noticing the young rascal's anger against Coco, were +amused and would continually talk of the horse to Zidore, in order to +exasperate him. His comrades would make sport with him. In the village +he was called Coco-Zidore. + +The boy would fume, feeling an unholy desire to revenge himself on the +horse. He was a thin, long-legged, dirty child, with thick, coarse, +bristly red hair. He seemed only half-witted, and stuttered as though +ideas were unable to form in his thick, brute-like mind. + +For a long time he had been unable to understand why Coco should be kept, +indignant at seeing things wasted on this useless beast. Since the horse +could no longer work, it seemed to him unjust that he should be fed; +he revolted at the idea of wasting oats, oats which were so expensive, +on this paralyzed old plug. And often, in spite of the orders of Maitre +Lucas, he would economize on the nag's food, only giving him half +measure. Hatred grew in his confused, childlike mind, the hatred of a +stingy, mean, fierce, brutal and cowardly peasant. + +When summer came he had to move the animal about in the pasture. It was +some distance away. The rascal, angrier every morning, would start, with +his dragging step, across the wheat fields. The men working in the +fields would shout to him, jokingly: + +"Hey, Zidore, remember me to Coco." + +He would not answer; but on the way he would break off a switch, and, as +soon as he had moved the old horse, he would let it begin grazing; then, +treacherously sneaking up behind it, he would slash its legs. The animal +would try to escape, to kick, to get away from the blows, and run around +in a circle about its rope, as though it had been inclosed in a circus +ring. And the boy would slash away furiously, running along behind, his +teeth clenched in anger. + +Then he would go away slowly, without turning round, while the horse +watched him disappear, his ribs sticking out, panting as a result of his +unusual exertions. Not until the blue blouse of the young peasant was +out of sight would he lower his thin white head to the grass. + +As the nights were now warm, Coco was allowed to sleep out of doors, in +the field behind the little wood. Zidore alone went to see him. +The boy threw stones at him to amuse himself. He would sit down on an +embankment about ten feet away and would stay there about half an hour, +from time to time throwing a sharp stone at the old horse, which remained +standing tied before his enemy, watching him continually and not daring +to eat before he was gone. + +This one thought persisted in the mind of the young scamp: "Why feed this +horse, which is no longer good for anything?" It seemed to him that this +old nag was stealing the food of the others, the goods of man and God, +that he was even robbing him, Zidore, who was working. + +Then, little by little, each day, the boy began to shorten the length of +rope which allowed the horse to graze. + +The hungry animal was growing thinner, and starving. Too feeble to break +his bonds, he would stretch his head out toward the tall, green, tempting +grass, so near that he could smell, and yet so far that he could not +touch it. + +But one morning Zidore had an idea: it was, not to move Coco any more. +He was tired of walking so far for that old skeleton. He came, however, +in order to enjoy his vengeance. The beast watched him anxiously. He +did not beat him that day. He walked around him with his hands in his +pockets. He even pretended to change his place, but he sank the stake in +exactly the same hole, and went away overjoyed with his invention. + +The horse, seeing him leave, neighed to call him back; but the rascal +began to run, leaving him alone, entirely alone in his field, well tied +down and without a blade of grass within reach. + +Starving, he tried to reach the grass which he could touch with the end +of his nose. He got on his knees, stretching out his neck and his long, +drooling lips. All in vain. The old animal spent the whole day in +useless, terrible efforts. The sight of all that green food, which +stretched out on all sides of him, served to increase the gnawing pangs +of hunger. + +The scamp did not return that day. He wandered through the woods in +search of nests. + +The next day he appeared upon the scene again. Coco, exhausted, had lain +down. When he saw the boy, he got up, expecting at last to have his +place changed. + +But the little peasant did not even touch the mallet, which was lying on +the ground. He came nearer, looked at the animal, threw at his head a +clump of earth which flattened out against the white hair, and he started +off again, whistling. + +The horse remained standing as long as he could see him; then, knowing +that his attempts to reach the near-by grass would be hopeless, he once +more lay down on his side and closed his eyes. + +The following day Zidore did not come. + +When he did come at last, he found Coco still stretched out; he saw that +he was dead. + +Then he remained standing, looking at him, pleased with what he had done, +surprised that it should already be all over. He touched him with his +foot, lifted one of his legs and then let it drop, sat on him and +remained there, his eyes fixed on the grass, thinking of nothing. He +returned to the farm, but did not mention the accident, because he wished +to wander about at the hours when he used to change the horse's pasture. +He went to see him the next day. At his approach some crows flew away. +Countless flies were walking over the body and were buzzing around it. +When he returned home, he announced the event. The animal was so old +that nobody was surprised. The master said to two of the men: + +"Take your shovels and dig a hole right where he is." + +The men buried the horse at the place where he had died of hunger. +And the grass grew thick, green and vigorous, fed by the poor body. + + + + + + +DEAD WOMAN'S SECRET + +The woman had died without pain, quietly, as a woman should whose life +had been blameless. Now she was resting in her bed, lying on her back, +her eyes closed, her features calm, her long white hair carefully +arranged as though she had done it up ten minutes before dying. The +whole pale countenance of the dead woman was so collected, so calm, so +resigned that one could feel what a sweet soul had lived in that body, +what a quiet existence this old soul had led, how easy and pure the death +of this parent had been. + +Kneeling beside the bed, her son, a magistrate with inflexible +principles, and her daughter, Marguerite, known as Sister Eulalie, were +weeping as though their hearts would break. She had, from childhood up, +armed them with a strict moral code, teaching them religion, without +weakness, and duty, without compromise. He, the man, had become a judge +and handled the law as a weapon with which he smote the weak ones without +pity. She, the girl, influenced by the virtue which had bathed her in +this austere family, had become the bride of the Church through her +loathing for man. + +They had hardly known their father, knowing only that he had made their +mother most unhappy, without being told any other details. + +The nun was wildly-kissing the dead woman's hand, an ivory hand as white +as the large crucifix lying across the bed. On the other side of the +long body the other hand seemed still to be holding the sheet in the +death grasp; and the sheet had preserved the little creases as a memory +of those last movements which precede eternal immobility. + +A few light taps on the door caused the two sobbing heads to look up, and +the priest, who had just come from dinner, returned. He was red and out +of breath from his interrupted digestion, for he had made himself a +strong mixture of coffee and brandy in order to combat the fatigue of the +last few nights and of the wake which was beginning. + +He looked sad, with that assumed sadness of the priest for whom death is +a bread winner. He crossed himself and approaching with his professional +gesture: "Well, my poor children! I have come to help you pass these +last sad hours." But Sister Eulalie suddenly arose. "Thank you, +"father, but my brother and I prefer to remain alone with her. This is +our last chance to see her, and we wish to be together, all three of us, +as we--we--used to be when we were small and our poor mo--mother----" + +Grief and tears stopped her; she could not continue. + +Once more serene, the priest bowed, thinking of his bed. "As you wish, +my children." He kneeled, crossed himself, prayed, arose and went out +quietly, murmuring: "She was a saint!" + +They remained alone, the dead woman and her children. The ticking of the +clock, hidden in the shadow, could be heard distinctly, and through the +open window drifted in the sweet smell of hay and of woods, together with +the soft moonlight. No other noise could be heard over the land except +the occasional croaking of the frog or the chirping of some belated +insect. An infinite peace, a divine melancholy, a silent serenity +surrounded this dead woman, seemed to be breathed out from her and to +appease nature itself. + +Then the judge, still kneeling, his head buried in the bed clothes, cried +in a voice altered by grief and deadened by the sheets and blankets: +"Mamma, mamma, mamma!" And his sister, frantically striking her forehead +against the woodwork, convulsed, twitching and trembling as in an +epileptic fit, moaned: "Jesus, Jesus, mamma, Jesus!" And both of them, +shaken by a storm of grief, gasped and choked. + +The crisis slowly calmed down and they began to weep quietly, just as on +the sea when a calm follows a squall. + +A rather long time passed and they arose and looked at their dead. +And the memories, those distant memories, yesterday so dear, to-day so +torturing, came to their minds with all the little forgotten details, +those little intimate familiar details which bring back to life the one +who has left. They recalled to each other circumstances, words, smiles, +intonations of the mother who was no longer to speak to them. They saw +her again happy and calm. They remembered things which she had said, and +a little motion of the hand, like beating time, which she often used when +emphasizing something important. + +And they loved her as they never had loved her before. They measured the +depth of their grief, and thus they discovered how lonely they would find +themselves. + +It was their prop, their guide, their whole youth, all the best part of +their lives which was disappearing. It was their bond with life, their +mother, their mamma, the connecting link with their forefathers which +they would thenceforth miss. They now became solitary, lonely beings; +they could no longer look back. + +The nun said to her brother: "You remember how mamma used always to read +her old letters; they are all there in that drawer. Let us, in turn, +read them; let us live her whole life through tonight beside her! It +would be like a road to the cross, like making the acquaintance of her +mother, of our grandparents, whom we never knew, but whose letters are +there and of whom she so often spoke, do you remember?" + +Out of the drawer they took about ten little packages of yellow paper, +tied with care and arranged one beside the other. They threw these +relics on the bed and chose one of them on which the word "Father" was +written. They opened and read it. + +It was one of those old-fashioned letters which one finds in old family +desk drawers, those epistles which smell of another century. The first +one started: "My dear," another one: "My beautiful little girl," others: +"My dear child," or: "My dear (laughter." And suddenly the nun began to +read aloud, to read over to the dead woman her whole history, all her +tender memories. The judge, resting his elbow on the bed, was listening +with his eyes fastened on his mother. The motionless body seemed happy. + +Sister Eulalie, interrupting herself, said suddenly: + +"These ought to be put in the grave with her; they ought to be used as a +shroud and she ought to be buried in it." She took another package, on +which no name was written. She began to read in a firm voice: "My adored +one, I love you wildly. Since yesterday I have been suffering the +tortures of the damned, haunted by our memory. I feel your lips against +mine, your eyes in mine, your breast against mine. I love you, I love +you! You have driven me mad. My arms open, I gasp, moved by a wild +desire to hold you again. My whole soul and body cries out for you, +wants you. I have kept in my mouth the taste of your kisses--" + +The judge had straightened himself up. The nun stopped reading. He +snatched the letter from her and looked for the signature. There was +none, but only under the words, "The man who adores you," the name +"Henry." Their father's name was Rene. Therefore this was not from him. +The son then quickly rummaged through the package of letters, took one +out and read: "I can no longer live without your caresses." Standing +erect, severe as when sitting on the bench, he looked unmoved at the dead +woman. The nun, straight as a statue, tears trembling in the corners of +her eyes, was watching her brother, waiting. Then he crossed the room +slowly, went to the window and stood there, gazing out into the dark +night. + +When he turned around again Sister Eulalie, her eyes dry now, was still +standing near the bed, her head bent down. + +He stepped forward, quickly picked up the letters and threw them pell- +mell back into the drawer. Then he closed the curtains of the bed. + +When daylight made the candles on the table turn pale the son slowly left +his armchair, and without looking again at the mother upon whom he had +passed sentence, severing the tie that united her to son and daughter, he +said slowly: "Let us now retire, sister." + + + + + + +A HUMBLE DRAMA + +Meetings that are unexpected constitute the charm of traveling. Who has +not experienced the joy of suddenly coming across a Parisian, a college +friend, or a neighbor, five hundred miles from home? Who has not passed +a night awake in one of those small, rattling country stagecoaches, in +regions where steam is still a thing unknown, beside a strange young +woman, of whom one has caught only a glimpse in the dim light of the +lantern, as she entered the carriage in front of a white house in some +small country town? + +And the next morning, when one's head and ears feel numb with the +continuous tinkling of the bells and the loud rattling of the windows, +what a charming sensation it is to see your pretty neighbor open her +eyes, startled, glance around her, arrange her rebellious hair with her +slender fingers, adjust her hat, feel with sure hand whether her corset +is still in place, her waist straight, and her skirt not too wrinkled. + +She glances at you coldly and curiously. Then she leans back and no +longer seems interested in anything but the country. + +In spite of yourself, you watch her; and in spite of yourself you keep on +thinking of her. Who is she? Whence does she come? Where is she going? +In spite of yourself you spin a little romance around her. She is +pretty; she seems charming! Happy he who . . . Life might be +delightful with her. Who knows? She is perhaps the woman of our dreams, +the one suited to our disposition, the one for whom our heart calls. + +And how delicious even the disappointment at seeing her get out at the +gate of a country house! A man stands there, who is awaiting her, with +two children and two maids. He takes her in his arms and kisses as he +lifts her out. Then she stoops over the little ones, who hold up their +hands to her; she kisses them tenderly; and then they all go away +together, down a path, while the maids catch the packages which the +driver throws down to them from the coach. + +Adieu! It is all over. You never will see her again! Adieu to the +young woman who has passed the night by your side. You know her no more, +you have not spoken to her; all the same, you feel a little sad to see +her go. Adieu! + +I have had many of these souvenirs of travel, some joyous and some sad. + +Once I was in Auvergne, tramping through those delightful French +mountains, that are not too high, not too steep, but friendly and +familiar. I had climbed the Sancy, and entered a little inn, near a +pilgrim's chapel called Notre-Dame de Vassiviere, when I saw a queer, +ridiculous-looking old woman breakfasting alone at the end table. + +She was at least seventy years old, tall, skinny, and angular, and her +white hair was puffed around her temples in the old-fashioned style. +She was dressed like a traveling Englishwoman, in awkward, queer +clothing, like a person who is indifferent to dress. She was eating an +omelet and drinking water. + +Her face was peculiar, with restless eyes and the expression of one with +whom fate has dealt unkindly. I watched her, in spite of myself, +thinking: "Who is she? What is the life of this woman? Why is she +wandering alone through these mountains?" + +She paid and rose to leave, drawing up over her shoulders an astonishing +little shawl, the two ends of which hung over her arms. From a corner of +the room she took an alpenstock, which was covered with names traced with +a hot iron; then she went out, straight, erect, with the long steps of a +letter-carrier who is setting out on his route. + +A guide was waiting for her at the door, and both went away. I watched +them go down the valley, along the road marked by a line of high wooden +crosses. She was taller than her companion, and seemed to walk faster +than he. + +Two hours later I was climbing the edge of the deep funnel that incloses +Lake Pavin in a marvelous and enormous basin of verdure, full of trees, +bushes, rocks, and flowers. This lake is so round that it seems as if +the outline had been drawn with a pair of compasses, so clear and blue +that one might deem it a flood of azure come down from the sky, so +charming that one would like to live in a but on the wooded slope which +dominates this crater, where the cold, still water is sleeping. +The Englishwoman was standing there like a statue, gazing upon the +transparent sheet down in the dead volcano. She was straining her eyes +to penetrate below the surface down to the unknown depths, where +monstrous trout which have devoured all the other fish are said to live. +As I was passing close by her, it seemed to me that two big tears were +brimming her eyes. But she departed at a great pace, to rejoin her +guide, who had stayed behind in an inn at the foot of the path leading to +the lake. + +I did not see her again that day. + +The next day, at nightfall, I came to the chateau of Murol. The old +fortress, an enormous tower standing on a peak in the midst of a large +valley, where three valleys intersect, rears its brown, uneven, cracked +surface into the sky; it is round, from its large circular base to the +crumbling turrets on its pinnacles. + +It astonishes the eye more than any other ruin by its simple mass, its +majesty, its grave and imposing air of antiquity. It stands there, +alone, high as a mountain, a dead queen, but still the queen of the +valleys stretched out beneath it. You go up by a slope planted with +firs, then you enter a narrow gate, and stop at the foot of the walls, in +the first inclosure, in full view of the entire country. + +Inside there are ruined halls, crumbling stairways, unknown cavities, +dungeons, walls cut through in the middle, vaulted roofs held up one +knows not how, and a mass of stones and crevices, overgrown with grass, +where animals glide in and out. + +I was exploring this ruin alone. + +Suddenly I perceived behind a bit of wall a being, a kind of phantom, +like the spirit of this ancient and crumbling habitation. + +I was taken aback with surprise, almost with fear, when I recognized the +old lady whom I had seen twice. + +She was weeping, with big tears in her eyes, and held her handkerchief in +her hand. + +I turned around to go away, when she spoke to me, apparently ashamed to +have been surprised in her grief. + +"Yes, monsieur, I am crying. That does not happen often to me." + +"Pardon me, madame, for having disturbed you," I stammered, confused, not +knowing what to say. "Some misfortune has doubtless come to you." + +"Yes. No--I am like a lost dog," she murmured, and began to sob, with +her handkerchief over her eyes. + +Moved by these contagious tears, I took her hand, trying to calm her. +Then brusquely she told me her history, as if no longer ably to bear her +grief alone. + +"Oh! Oh! Monsieur--if you knew--the sorrow in which I live--in what +sorrow. + +"Once I was happy. I have a house down there--a home. I cannot go back +to it any more; I shall never go back to it again, it is too hard to +bear. + +"I have a son. It is he! it is he! Children don't know. Oh, one has +such a short time to live! If I should see him now I should perhaps not +recognize him. How I loved him? How I loved him! Even before he was +born, when I felt him move. And after that! How I have kissed and +caressed and cherished him! If you knew how many nights I have passed in +watching him sleep, and how many in thinking of him. I was crazy about +him. When he was eight years old his father sent him to boarding-school. +That was the end. He no longer belonged to me. Oh, heavens! He came to +see me every Sunday. That was all! + +"He went to college in Paris. Then he came only four times a year, and +every time I was astonished to see how he had changed, to find him taller +without having seen him grow. They stole his childhood from me, his +confidence, and his love which otherwise would not have gone away from +me; they stole my joy in seeing him grow, in seeing him become a little +man. + +"I saw him four times a year. Think of it! And at every one of his +visits his body, his eye, his movements, his voice his laugh, were no +longer the same, were no longer mine. All these things change so quickly +in a child; and it is so sad if one is not there to see them change; one +no longer recognizes him. + +"One year he came with down on his cheek! He! my son! I was dumfounded +--would you believe it? I hardly dared to kiss him. Was it really he, +my little, little curly head of old, my dear; dear child, whom I had held +in his diapers or my knee, and who had nursed at my breast with his +little greedy lips--was it he, this tall, brown boy, who no longer knew +how to kiss me, who seemed to love me as a matter of duty, who called me +'mother' for the sake of politeness, and who kissed me on the forehead, +when I felt like crushing him in my arms? + +"My husband died. Then my parents, and then my two sisters. When Death +enters a house it seems as if he were hurrying to do his utmost, so as +not to have to return for a long time after that. He spares only one or +two to mourn the others. + +"I remained alone. My tall son was then studying law. I was hoping to +live and die near him, and I went to him so that we could live together. +But he had fallen into the ways of young men, and he gave me to +understand that I was in his way. So I left. I was wrong in doing so, +but I suffered too much in feeling myself in his way, I, his mother! And +I came back home. + +"I hardly ever saw him again. + +'He married. What a joy! At last we should be together for good. +I should have grandchildren. His wife was an Englishwoman, who took a +dislike to me. Why? Perhaps she thought that I loved him too much. + +"Again I was obliged to go away. And I was alone. Yes, monsieur. + +"Then he went to England, to live with them, with his wife's parents. +Do you understand? They have him--they have my son for themselves. +They have stolen him from me. He writes to me once a month. At first he +came to see me. But now he no longer comes. + +"It is now four years since I saw him last. His face then was wrinkled +and his hair white. Was that possible? This man, my son, almost an old +man? My little rosy child of old? No doubt I shall never see him again. + +"And so I travel about all the year. I go east and west, as you see, +with no companion. + +"I am like a lost dog. Adieu, monsieur! don't stay here with me for it +hurts me to have told you all this." + +I went down the hill, and on turning round to glance back, I saw the old +woman standing on a broken wall, looking out upon the mountains, the long +valley and Lake Chambon in the distance. + +And her skirt and the queer little shawl which she wore around her thin +shoulders were fluttering tike a flag in the wind. + + + + + + +MADEMOISELLE COCOTTE + +We were just leaving the asylum when I saw a tall, thin man in a corner +of the court who kept on calling an imaginary dog. He was crying in a +soft, tender voice: "Cocotte! Come here, Cocotte, my beauty!" and +slapping his thigh as one does when calling an animal. I asked the +physician, "Who is that man?" He answered: "Oh! he is not at all +interesting. He is a coachman named Francois, who became insane after +drowning his dog." + +I insisted: "Tell me his story. The most simple and humble things are +sometimes those which touch our hearts most deeply." + +Here is this man's adventure, which was obtained from a friend of his, a +groom: + +There was a family of rich bourgeois who lived in a suburb of Paris. +They had a villa in the middle of a park, at the edge of the Seine. +Their coachman was this Francois, a country fellow, somewhat dull, kind- +hearted, simple and easy to deceive. + +One evening, as he was returning home, a dog began to follow him. At +first he paid no attention to it, but the creature's obstinacy at last +made him turn round. He looked to see if he knew this dog. No, he had +never seen it. It was a female dog and frightfully thin. She was +trotting behind him with a mournful and famished look, her tail between +her legs, her ears flattened against her head and stopping and starting +whenever he did. + +He tried to chase this skeleton away and cried: + +"Run along! Get out! Kss! kss!" She retreated a few steps, then sat +down and waited. And when the coachman started to walk again she +followed along behind him. + +He pretended to pick up some stones. The animal ran a little farther +away, but came back again as soon as the man's back was turned. + +Then the coachman Francois took pity on the beast and called her. The +dog approached timidly. The man patted her protruding ribs, moved by the +beast's misery, and he cried: "Come! come here!" Immediately she began +to wag her tail, and, feeling herself taken in, adopted, she began to run +along ahead of her new master. + +He made her a bed on the straw in the stable, then he ran to the kitchen +for some bread. When she had eaten all she could she curled up and went +to sleep. + +When his employers heard of this the next day they allowed the coachman +to keep the animal. It was a good beast, caressing and faithful, +intelligent and gentle. + +Nevertheless Francois adored Cocotte, and he kept repeating: "That beast +is human. She only lacks speech." + +He had a magnificent red leather collar made for her which bore these +words engraved on a copper plate: "Mademoiselle Cocotte, belonging to the +coachman Francois." + +She was remarkably prolific and four times a year would give birth to a +batch of little animals belonging to every variety of the canine race. +Francois would pick out one which he would leave her and then he would +unmercifully throw the others into the river. But soon the cook joined +her complaints to those of the gardener. She would find dogs under the +stove, in the ice box, in the coal bin, and they would steal everything +they came across. + +Finally the master, tired of complaints, impatiently ordered Francois to +get rid of Cocotte. In despair the man tried to give her away. Nobody +wanted her. Then he decided to lose her, and he gave her to a teamster, +who was to drop her on the other side of Paris, near Joinville-le-Pont. + +Cocotte returned the same day. Some decision had to be taken. Five +francs was given to a train conductor to take her to Havre. He was to +drop her there. + +Three days later she returned to the stable, thin, footsore and tired +out. + +The master took pity on her and let her stay. But other dogs were +attracted as before, and one evening, when a big dinner party was on, +a stuffed turkey was carried away by one of them right under the cook's +nose, and she did not dare to stop him. + +This time the master completely lost his temper and said angrily to +Francois: "If you don't throw this beast into the water before--to-morrow +morning, I'll put you out, do you hear?" + +The man was dumbfounded, and he returned to his room to pack his trunk, +preferring to leave the place. Then he bethought himself that he could +find no other situation as long as he dragged this animal about with him. +He thought of his good position, where he was well paid and well fed, and +he decided that a dog was really not worth all that. At last he decided +to rid himself of Cocotte at daybreak. + +He slept badly. He rose at dawn, and taking a strong rope, went to get +the dog. She stood up slowly, shook herself, stretched and came to +welcome her master. + +Then his courage forsook him, and he began to pet her affectionately, +stroking her long ears, kissing her muzzle and calling her tender names. + +But a neighboring clock struck six. He could no longer hesitate. +He opened the door, calling: "Come!" The beast wagged her tail, +understanding that she was to be taken out. + +They reached the beach, and he chose a place where the water seemed deep. +Then he knotted the rope round the leather collar and tied a heavy stone +to the other end. He seized Cocotte in his arms and kissed her madly, as +though he were taking leave of some human being. He held her to his +breast, rocked her and called her "my dear little Cocotte, my sweet +little Cocotte," and she grunted with pleasure. + +Ten times he tried to throw her into the water and each time he lost +courage. + +But suddenly he made up his mind and threw her as far from him as he +could. At first she tried to swim, as she did when he gave her a bath, +but her head, dragged down by the stone, kept going under, and she looked +at her master with wild, human glances as she struggled like a drowning +person. Then the front part of her body sank, while her hind legs waved +wildly out of the water. Finally those also disappeared. + +Then, for five minutes, bubbles rose to the surface as though the river +were boiling, and Francois, haggard, his heart beating, thought that he +saw Cocotte struggling in the mud, and, with the simplicity of a peasant, +he kept saying to himself: "What does the poor beast think of me now?" + +He almost lost his mind. He was ill for a month and every night he +dreamed of his dog. He could feel her licking his hands and hear her +barking. It was necessary to call in a physician. At last he recovered, +and toward the 2nd of June his employers took him to their estate at +Biesard, near Rouen. + +There again he was near the Seine. He began to take baths. Each morning +he would go down with the groom and they would swim across the river. + +One day, as they were disporting themselves in the water, Francois +suddenly cried to his companion: "Look what's coming! I'm going to give +you a chop!" + +It was an enormous, swollen corpse that was floating down with its feet +sticking straight up in the air. + +Francois swam up to it, still joking: "Whew! it's not fresh. What a +catch, old man! It isn't thin, either!" He kept swimming about at a +distance from the animal that was in a state of decomposition. Then, +suddenly, he was silent and looked at it: attentively. This time he came +near enough to touch, it. He looked fixedly at the collar, then he +stretched out his arm, seized the neck, swung the corpse round and drew +it up close to him and read on the copper which had turned green and +which still stuck to the discolored leather: "Mademoiselle Cocotte, +belonging to the coachman Francois." + +The dead dog had come more than a hundred miles to find its master. + +He let out a frightful shriek and began to swim for the beach with all +his might, still howling; and as soon as he touched land he ran away +wildly, stark naked, through the country. He was insane! + + + + + + +THE CORSICAN BANDIT + +The road ascended gently through the forest of Aitone. The large pines +formed a solemn dome above our heads, and that mysterious sound made by +the wind in the trees sounded like the notes of an organ. + +After walking for three hours, there was a clearing, and then at +intervals an enormous pine umbrella, and then we suddenly came to the +edge of the forest, some hundred meters below, the pass leading to the +wild valley of Niolo. + +On the two projecting heights which commanded a view of this pass, some +old trees, grotesquely twisted, seemed to have mounted with painful +efforts, like scouts sent in advance of the multitude in the rear. When +we turned round, we saw the entire forest stretched beneath our feet, +like a gigantic basin of verdure, inclosed by bare rocks whose summits +seemed to reach the sky. + +We resumed our walk, and, ten minutes later, found ourselves in the pass. + +Then I beheld a remarkable landscape. Beyond another forest stretched a +valley, but a valley such as I had never seen before; a solitude of +stone, ten leagues long, hollowed out between two high mountains, without +a field or a tree to be seen. This was the Niolo valley, the fatherland +of Corsican liberty, the inaccessible citadel, from which the invaders +had never been able to drive out the mountaineers. + +My companion said to me: "This is where all our bandits have taken +refuge?" + +Ere long we were at the further end of this gorge, so wild, so +inconceivably beautiful. + +Not a blade of grass, not a plant-nothing but granite. As far as our +eyes could reach, we saw in front of us a desert of glittering stone, +heated like an oven by a burning sun, which seemed to hang for that very +purpose right above the gorge. When we raised our eyes towards the +crests, we stood dazzled and stupefied by what we saw. They looked like +a festoon of coral; all the summits are of porphyry; and the sky overhead +was violet, purple, tinged with the coloring of these strange mountains. +Lower down, the granite was of scintillating gray, and seemed ground to +powder beneath our feet. At our right, along a long and irregular +course, roared a tumultuous torrent. And we staggered along under this +heat, in this light, in this burning, arid, desolate valley cut by this +torrent of turbulent water which seemed to be ever hurrying onward, +without fertilizing the rocks, lost in this furnace which greedily drank +it up without being saturated or refreshed by it. + +But, suddenly, there was visible at our right a little wooden cross sunk +in a little heap of stones. A man had been killed there; and I said to +my companion. + +"Tell me about your bandits." + +He replied: + +"I knew the most celebrated of them, the terrible St. Lucia. I will tell +you his history. + +"His father was killed in a quarrel by a young man of the district, it is +said; and St. Lucia was left alone with his sister. He was a weak, timid +youth, small, often ill, without any energy. He did not proclaim +vengeance against the assassin of his father. All his relatives came to +see him, and implored of him to avenge his death; he remained deaf to +their menaces and their supplications. + +"Then, following the old Corsican custom, his sister, in her indignation +carried away his black clothes, in order that he might not wear mourning +for a dead man who had not been avenged. He was insensible to even this +affront, and rather than take down from the rack his father's gun, which +was still loaded, he shut himself up, not daring to brave the looks of +the young men of the district. + +"He seemed to have even forgotten the crime, and lived with his sister in +the seclusion of their dwelling. + +But, one day, the man who was suspected of having committed the murder, +was about to get married. St. Lucia did not appear to be moved by this +news, but, out of sheer bravado, doubtless, the bridegroom, on his way to +the church, passed before the house of the two orphans. + +"The brother and the sister, at their window, were eating frijoles, when +the young man saw the bridal procession going by. Suddenly he began to +tremble, rose to his feet without uttering a word, made the sign of the +cross, took the gun which was hanging over the fireplace, and went out. + +"When he spoke of this later on, he said: 'I don't know what was the +matter with me; it was like fire in my blood; I felt that I must do it, +that, in spite of everything, I could not resist, and I concealed the gun +in a cave on the road to Corte. + +"An hour later, he came back, with nothing in his hand, and with his +habitual air of sad weariness. His sister believed that there was +nothing further in his thoughts. + +But when night fell he disappeared. + +"His enemy had, the same evening, to repair to Corte on foot, accompanied +by his two groomsmen. + +"He was walking along, singing as he went, when St. Lucia stood before +him, and looking straight in the murderer's face, exclaimed: 'Now is the +time!' and shot him point-blank in the chest. + +"One of the men fled; the other stared at, the young man, saying: + +"'What have you done, St. Lucia?' and he was about to hasten to Corte for +help, when St. Lucia said in a stern tone: + +"'If you move another step, I'll shoot you in the leg.' + +"The other, aware of his timidity hitherto, replied: 'You would not dare +to do it!' and was hurrying off when he fell instantaneously, his thigh +shattered by a bullet. + +"And St. Lucia, coming over to where he lay, said: + +"'I am going to look at your wound; if it is not serious, I'll leave you +there; if it is mortal I'll finish you off." + +"He inspected the wound, considered it mortal, and slowly reloading his +gun, told the wounded man to say a prayer, and shot him through the head. + +"Next day he was in the mountains. + +"And do you know what this St. Lucia did after this? + +"All his family were arrested by the gendarmes. His uncle, the cure, who +was suspected of having incited him to this deed of vengeance, was +himself put in prison, and accused by the dead man's relatives. But he +escaped, took a gun in his turn, and went to join his nephew in the +brush. + +"Next, St. Lucia killed, one after the other, his uncle's accusers, and +tore out their eyes to teach the others never to state what they had seen +with their eyes. + +"He killed all the relatives, all the connections of his enemy's family. +He slew during his life fourteen gendarmes, burned down the houses of his +adversaries, and was, up to the day of his death, the most terrible of +all the bandits whose memory we have preserved." + +The sun disappeared behind Monte Cinto and the tall shadow of the granite +mountain went to sleep on the granite of the valley. We quickened our +pace in order to reach before night the little village of Albertaccio, +nothing but a pile of stones welded into the stone flanks of a wild +gorge. And I said as I thought of the bandit: + +"What a terrible custom your vendetta is!" + +My companion answered with an air of resignation: + +"What would you have? A man must do his duty!" + + + + + + +THE GRAVE + +The seventeenth of July, one thousand eight hundred and eighty-three, at +half-past two in the morning, the watchman in the cemetery of Besiers, +who lived in a small cottage on the edge of this field of the dead, was +awakened by the barking of his dog, which was shut up in the kitchen. + +Going down quickly, he saw the animal sniffing at the crack of the door +and barking furiously, as if some tramp had been sneaking about the +house. The keeper, Vincent, therefore took his gun and went out. + +His dog, preceding him, at once ran in the direction of the Avenue +General Bonnet, stopping short at the monument of Madame Tomoiseau. + +The keeper, advancing cautiously, soon saw a faint light on the side of +the Avenue Malenvers, and stealing in among the graves, he came upon a +horrible act of profanation. + +A man had dug up the coffin of a young woman who had been buried the +evening before and was dragging the corpse out of it. + +A small dark lantern, standing on a pile of earth, lighted up this +hideous scene. + +Vincent sprang upon the wretch, threw him to the ground, bound his hands +and took him to the police station. + +It was a young, wealthy and respected lawyer in town, named Courbataille. + +He was brought into court. The public prosecutor opened the case by +referring to the monstrous deeds of the Sergeant Bertrand. + +A wave of indignation swept over the courtroom. When the magistrate sat +down the crowd assembled cried: "Death! death!" With difficulty the +presiding judge established silence. + +Then he said gravely: + +"Defendant, what have you to say in your defense?" + +Courbataille, who had refused counsel, rose. He was a handsome fellow, +tall, brown, with a frank face, energetic manner and a fearless eye. + +Paying no attention to the whistlings in the room, he began to speak in a +voice that was low and veiled at first, but that grew more firm as he +proceeded. + +"Monsieur le President, gentlemen of the jury: I have very little to say. +The woman whose grave I violated was my sweetheart. I loved her. + +"I loved her, not with a sensual love and not with mere tenderness of +heart and soul, but with an absolute, complete love, with an overpowering +passion. + +"Hear me: + +"When I met her for the first time I felt a strange sensation. It was +not astonishment nor admiration, nor yet that which is called love at +first sight, but a feeling of delicious well-being, as if I had been +plunged into a warm bath. Her gestures seduced me, her voice enchanted +me, and it was with infinite pleasure that I looked upon her person. +It seemed to me as if I had seen her before and as if I had known her a +long time. She had within her something of my spirit. + +"She seemed to me like an answer to a cry uttered by my soul, to that +vague and unceasing cry with which we call upon Hope during our whole +life. + +"When I knew her a little better, the mere thought of seeing her again +filled me with exquisite and profound uneasiness; the touch of her hand +in mine was more delightful to me than anything that I had imagined; her +smile filled me with a mad joy, with the desire to run, to dance, to +fling myself upon the ground. + +"So we became lovers. + +"Yes, more than that: she was my very life. I looked for nothing further +on earth, and had no further desires. I longed for nothing further. + +"One evening, when we had gone on a somewhat long walk by the river, we +were overtaken by the rain, and she caught cold. It developed into +pneumonia the next day, and a week later she was dead. + +"During the hours of her suffering astonishment and consternation +prevented my understanding and reflecting upon it, but when she was dead +I was so overwhelmed by blank despair that I had no thoughts left. +I wept. + +"During all the horrible details of the interment my keen and wild grief +was like a madness, a kind of sensual, physical grief. + +"Then when she was gone, when she was under the earth, my mind at once +found itself again, and I passed through a series of moral sufferings so +terrible that even the love she had vouchsafed to me was dear at that +price. + +"Then the fixed idea came to me: I shall not see her again. + +"When one dwells on this thought for a whole day one feels as if he were +going mad. Just think of it! There is a woman whom you adore, a unique +woman, for in the whole universe there is not a second one like her. +This woman has given herself to you and has created with you the +mysterious union that is called Love. Her eye seems to you more vast +than space, more charming than the world, that clear eye smiling with her +tenderness. This woman loves you. When she speaks to you her voice +floods you with joy. + +"And suddenly she disappears! Think of it! She disappears, not only for +you, but forever. She is dead. Do you understand what that means? +Never, never, never, not anywhere will she exist any more. Nevermore +will that eye look upon anything again; nevermore will that voice, nor +any voice like it, utter a word in the same way as she uttered it. + +"Nevermore will a face be born that is like hers. Never, never! The +molds of statues are kept; casts are kept by which one can make objects +with the same outlines and forms. But that one body and that one face +will never more be born again upon the earth. And yet millions and +millions of creatures will be born, and more than that, and this one +woman will not reappear among all the women of the future. Is it +possible? It drives one mad to think of it. + +"She lived for twenty-years, not more, and she has disappeared forever, +forever, forever! She thought, she smiled, she loved me. And now +nothing! The flies that die in the autumn are as much as we are in this +world. And now nothing! And I thought that her body, her fresh body, so +warm, so sweet, so white, so lovely, would rot down there in that box +under the earth. And her soul, her thought, her love--where is it? + +"Not to see her again! The idea of this decomposing body, that I might +yet recognize, haunted me. I wanted to look at it once more. + +"I went out with a spade, a lantern and a hammer; I jumped over the +cemetery wall and I found the grave, which had not yet been closed +entirely; I uncovered the coffin and took up a board. An abominable +odor, the stench of putrefaction, greeted my nostrils. Oh, her bed +perfumed with orris! + +"Yet I opened the coffin, and, holding my lighted lantern down into it I +saw her. Her face was blue, swollen, frightful. A black liquid had +oozed out of her mouth. + +"She! That was she! Horror seized me. But I stretched out my arm to +draw this monstrous face toward me. And then I was caught. + +"All night I have retained the foul odor of this putrid body, the odor of +my well beloved, as one retains the perfume of a woman after a love +embrace. + +"Do with me what you will." + +A strange silence seemed to oppress the room. They seemed to be waiting +for something more. The jury retired to deliberate. + +When they came back a few minutes later the accused showed no fear and +did not even seem to think. + +The president announced with the usual formalities that his judges +declared him to be not guilty. + +He did not move and the room applauded. + + The Grave appeared in Gil Blas, July 29, 1883, under the signature + of "Maufrigneuse." + + + + + + + VOLUME XIII. + +OLD JUDAS +THE LITTLE CASK +BOITELLE +A WIDOW +THE ENGLISHMEN OF ETRETAT +MAGNETISM +A FATHERS CONFESSION +A MOTHER OF MONSTERS +AN UNCOMFORTABLE BED +A PORTRAIT +THE DRUNKARD +THE WARDROBE +THE MOUNTAIN POOL +A CREMATION +MISTI +MADAME HERMET +THE MAGIC COUCH + + + + +OLD JUDAS + +This entire stretch of country was amazing; it was characterized by a +grandeur that was almost religious, and yet it had an air of sinister +desolation. + +A great, wild lake, filled with stagnant, black water, in which thousands +of reeds were waving to and fro, lay in the midst of a vast circle of +naked hills, where nothing grew but broom, or here and there an oak +curiously twisted by the wind. + +Just one house stood on the banks of that dark lake, a small, low house +inhabited by Uncle Joseph, an old boatman, who lived on what he could +make by his fishing. Once a week he carried the fish he caught into the +surrounding villages, returning with the few provisions that he needed +for his sustenance. + +I went to see this old hermit, who offered to take me with him to his +nets, and I accepted. + +His boat was old, worm-eaten and clumsy, and the skinny old man rowed +with a gentle and monotonous stroke that was soothing to the soul, +already oppressed by the sadness of the land round about. + +It seemed to me as if I were transported to olden times, in the midst of +that ancient country, in that primitive boat, which was propelled by a +man of another age. + +He took up his nets and threw the fish into the bottom of the boat, as +the fishermen of the Bible might have done. Then he took me down to the +end of the lake, where I suddenly perceived a ruin on the other side of +the bank a dilapidated hut, with an enormous red cross on the wall that +looked as if it might have been traced with blood, as it gleamed in the +last rays of the setting sun. + +"What is that?" I asked. + +"That is where Judas died," the man replied, crossing himself. + +I was not surprised, being almost prepared for this strange answer. + +Still I asked: + +"Judas? What Judas?" + +"The Wandering Jew, monsieur," he added. + +I asked him to tell me this legend. + +But it was better than a legend, being a true story, and quite a recent +one, since Uncle Joseph had known the man. + +This hut had formerly been occupied by a large woman, a kind of beggar, +who lived on public charity. + +Uncle Joseph did not remember from whom she had this hut. One evening an +old man with a white beard, who seemed to be at least two hundred years +old, and who could hardly drag himself along, asked alms of this forlorn +woman, as he passed her dwelling. + +"Sit down, father," she replied; "everything here belongs to all the +world, since it comes from all the world." + +He sat down on a stone before the door. He shared the woman's bread, her +bed of leaves, and her house. + +He did not leave her again, for he had come to the end of his travels. + +"It was Our Lady the Virgin who permitted this, monsieur," Joseph added, +"it being a woman who had opened her door to a Judas, for this old +vagabond was the Wandering Jew. It was not known at first in the +country, but the people suspected it very soon, because he was always +walking; it had become a sort of second nature to him." + +And suspicion had been aroused by still another thing. This woman, who +kept that stranger with her, was thought to be a Jewess, for no one had +ever seen her at church. For ten miles around no one ever called her +anything else but the Jewess. + +When the little country children saw her come to beg they cried out: +"Mamma, mamma, here is the Jewess!" + +The old man and she began to go out together into the neighboring +districts, holding out their hands at all the doors, stammering +supplications into the ears of all the passers. They could be seen at +all hours of the day, on by-paths, in the villages, or again eating +bread, sitting in the noon heat under the shadow of some solitary tree. +And the country people began to call the beggar Old Judas. + +One day he brought home in his sack two little live pigs, which a farmer +had given him after he had cured the farmer of some sickness. + +Soon he stopped begging, and devoted himself entirely to his pigs. +He took them out to feed by the lake, or under isolated oaks, or in the +near-by valleys. The woman, however, went about all day begging, but she +always came back to him in the evening. + +He also did not go to church, and no one ever had seen him cross himself +before the wayside crucifixes. All this gave rise to much gossip: + +One night his companion was attacked by a fever and began to tremble like +a leaf in the wind. He went to the nearest town to get some medicine, +and then he shut himself up with her, and was not seen for six days. + +The priest, having heard that the "Jewess" was about to die, came to +offer the consolation of his religion and administer the last sacrament. +Was she a Jewess? He did not know. But in any case, he wished to try to +save her soul. + +Hardly had he knocked at the door when old Judas appeared on the +threshold, breathing hard, his eyes aflame, his long beard agitated, +like rippling water, and he hurled blasphemies in an unknown language, +extending his skinny arms in order to prevent the priest from entering. + +The priest attempted to speak, offered his purse and his aid, but the old +man kept on abusing him, making gestures with his hands as if throwing; +stones at him. + +Then the priest retired, followed by the curses of the beggar. + +The companion of old Judas died the following day. He buried her +himself, in front of her door. They were people of so little account +that no one took any interest in them. + +Then they saw the man take his pigs out again to the lake and up the +hillsides. And he also began begging again to get food. But the people +gave him hardly anything, as there was so much gossip about him. Every +one knew, moreover, how he had treated the priest. + +Then he disappeared. That was during Holy Week, but no one paid any +attention to him. + +But on Easter Sunday the boys and girls who had gone walking out to the +lake heard a great noise in the hut. The door was locked; but the boys +broke it in, and the two pigs ran out, jumping like gnats. No one ever +saw them again. + +The whole crowd went in; they saw some old rags on the floor, the +beggar's hat, some bones, clots of dried blood and bits of flesh in the +hollows of the skull. + +His pigs had devoured him. + +"This happened on Good Friday, monsieur." Joseph concluded his story, +"three hours after noon." + +"How do you know that?" I asked him. + +"There is no doubt about that," he replied. + +I did not attempt to make him understand that it could easily happen that +the famished animals had eaten their master, after he had died suddenly +in his hut. + +As for the cross on the wall, it had appeared one morning, and no one +knew what hand traced it in that strange color. + +Since then no one doubted any longer that the Wandering Jew had died on +this spot. + +I myself believed it for one hour. + + + + + + +THE LITTLE CASK + +He was a tall man of forty or thereabout, this Jules Chicot, the +innkeeper of Spreville, with a red face and a round stomach, and said by +those who knew him to be a smart business man. He stopped his buggy in +front of Mother Magloire's farmhouse, and, hitching the horse to the +gatepost, went in at the gate. + +Chicot owned some land adjoining that of the old woman, which he had been +coveting for a long while, and had tried in vain to buy a score of times, +but she had always obstinately refused to part with it. + +"I was born here, and here I mean to die," was all she said. + +He found her peeling potatoes outside the farmhouse door. She was a +woman of about seventy-two, very thin, shriveled and wrinkled, almost +dried up in fact and much bent but as active and untiring as a girl. +Chicot patted her on the back in a friendly fashion and then sat down by +her on a stool. + +"Well mother, you are always pretty well and hearty, I am glad to see." + +"Nothing to complain of, considering, thank you. And how are you, +Monsieur Chicot?" + +"Oh, pretty well, thank you, except a few rheumatic pains occasionally; +otherwise I have nothing to complain of." + +"So much the better." + +And she said no more, while Chicot watched her going on with her work. +Her crooked, knotted fingers, hard as a lobster's claws, seized the +tubers, which were lying in a pail, as if they had been a pair of +pincers, and she peeled them rapidly, cutting off long strips of skin +with an old knife which she held in the other hand, throwing the potatoes +into the water as they were done. Three daring fowls jumped one after +the other into her lap, seized a bit of peel and then ran away as fast as +their legs would carry them with it in their beak. + +Chicot seemed embarrassed, anxious, with something on the tip of his +tongue which he could not say. At last he said hurriedly: + +"Listen, Mother Magloire--" + +"Well, what is it?" + +"You are quite sure that you do not want to sell your land?" + +"Certainly not; you may make up your mind to that. What I have said I +have said, so don't refer to it again." + +"Very well; only I think I know of an arrangement that might suit us both +very well." + +"What is it?" + +"Just this. You shall sell it to me and keep it all the same. You don't +understand? Very well, then follow me in what I am going to say." + +The old woman left off peeling potatoes and looked at the innkeeper +attentively from under her heavy eyebrows, and he went on: + +"Let me explain myself. Every month I will give you a hundred and fifty +francs. You understand me! suppose! Every month I will come and bring +you thirty crowns, and it will not make the slightest difference in your +life--not the very slightest. You will have your own home just as you +have now, need not trouble yourself about me, and will owe me nothing; +all you will have to do will be to take my money. Will that arrangement +suit you?" + +He looked at her good-humoredly, one might almost have said benevolently, +and the old woman returned his looks distrustfully, as if she suspected a +trap, and said: + +"It seems all right as far as I am concerned, but it will not give you +the farm." + +"Never mind about that," he said; "you may remain here as long as it +pleases God Almighty to let you live; it will be your home. Only you +will sign a deed before a lawyer making it over to me; after your death. +You have no children, only nephews and nieces for whom you don't care a +straw. Will that suit you? You will keep everything during your life, +and I will give you the thirty crowns a month. It is pure gain as far as +you are concerned." + +The old woman was surprised, rather uneasy, but, nevertheless, very much +tempted to agree, and answered: + +"I don't say that I will not agree to it, but I must think about it. +Come back in a week, and we will talk it over again, and I will then give +you my definite answer." + +And Chicot went off as happy as a king who had conquered an empire. + +Mother Magloire was thoughtful, and did not sleep at all that night; in +fact, for four days she was in a fever of hesitation. She suspected that +there was something underneath the offer which was not to her advantage; +but then the thought of thirty crowns a month, of all those coins +clinking in her apron, falling to her, as it were, from the skies, +without her doing anything for it, aroused her covetousness. + +She went to the notary and told him about it. He advised her to accept +Chicot's offer, but said she ought to ask for an annuity of fifty instead +of thirty, as her farm was worth sixty thousand francs at the lowest +calculation. + +"If you live for fifteen years longer," he said, "even then he will only +have paid forty-five thousand francs for it." + +The old woman trembled with joy at this prospect of getting fifty crowns +a month, but she was still suspicious, fearing some trick, and she +remained a long time with the lawyer asking questions without being able +to make up her mind to go. At last she gave him instructions to draw up +the deed and returned home with her head in a whirl, just as if she had +drunk four jugs of new cider. + +When Chicot came again to receive her answer she declared, after a lot of +persuading, that she could not make up her mind to agree to his proposal, +though she was all the time trembling lest he should not consent to give +the fifty crowns, but at last, when he grew urgent, she told him what she +expected for her farm. + +He looked surprised and disappointed and refused. + +Then, in order to convince him, she began to talk about the probable +duration of her life. + +"I am certainly not likely to live more than five or six years longer. +I am nearly seventy-three, and far from strong, even considering my age. +The other evening I thought I was going to die, and could hardly manage +to crawl into bed." + +But Chicot was not going to be taken in. + +"Come, come, old lady, you are as strong as the church tower, and will +live till you are a hundred at least; you will no doubt see me put under +ground first." + +The whole day was spent in discussing the money, and as the old woman +would not give in, the innkeeper consented to give the fifty crowns, and +she insisted upon having ten crowns over and above to strike the bargain. + +Three years passed and the old dame did not seem to have grown a day +older. Chicot was in despair, and it seemed to him as if he had been +paying that annuity for fifty years, that he had been taken in, done, +ruined. From time to time he went to see the old lady, just as one goes +in July to see when the harvest is likely to begin. She always met him +with a cunning look, and one might have supposed that she was +congratulating herself on the trick she had played him. Seeing how well +and hearty she seemed he very soon got into his buggy again, growling to +himself: + +"Will you never die, you old hag?" + +He did not know what to do, and he felt inclined to strangle her when he +saw her. He hated her with a ferocious, cunning hatred, the hatred of a +peasant who has been robbed, and began to cast about for some means of +getting rid of her. + +One day he came to see her again, rubbing his hands as he did the first +time he proposed the bargain, and, after having chatted for a few +minutes, he said: + +"Why do you never come and have a bit of dinner at my place when you are +in Spreville? The people are talking about it, and saying we are not on +friendly terms, and that pains me. You know it will cost you nothing if +you come, for I don't look at the price of a dinner. Come whenever you +feel inclined; I shall be very glad to see you." + +Old Mother Magloire did not need to be asked twice, and the next day but +one, as she had to go to the town in any case, it being market day, she +let her man drive her to Chicot's place, where the buggy was put in the +barn while she went into the house to get her dinner. + +The innkeeper was delighted and treated her like a lady, giving her roast +fowl, black pudding, leg of mutton and bacon and cabbage. But she ate +next to nothing. She had always been a small eater, and had generally +lived on a little soup and a crust of bread and butter. + +Chicot was disappointed and pressed her to eat more, but she refused, and +she would drink little, and declined coffee, so he asked her: + +"But surely you will take a little drop of brandy or liqueur?" + +"Well, as to that, I don't know that I will refuse." Whereupon he +shouted out: + +"Rosalie, bring the superfine brandy--the special--you know." + +The servant appeared, carrying a long bottle ornamented with a paper +vine-leaf, and he filled two liqueur glasses. + +"Just try that; you will find it first rate." + +The good woman drank it slowly in sips, so as to make the pleasure last +all the longer, and when she had finished her glass, she said: + +"Yes, that is first rate!" + +Almost before she had said it Chicot had poured her out another glassful. +She wished to refuse, but it was too late, and she drank it very slowly, +as she had done the first, and he asked her to have a third. She +objected, but he persisted. + +"It is as mild as milk, you know; I can drink ten or a dozen glasses +without any ill effects; it goes down like sugar and does not go to the +head; one would think that it evaporated on the tongue: It is the most +wholesome thing you can drink." + +She took it, for she really enjoyed it, but she left half the glass. + +Then Chicot, in an excess of generosity, said: + +"Look here, as it is so much to your taste, I will give you a small keg +of it, just to show that you and I are still excellent friends." So she +took one away with her, feeling slightly overcome by the effects of what +she had drunk. + +The next day the innkeeper drove into her yard and took a little iron- +hooped keg out of his gig. He insisted on her tasting the contents, to +make sure it was the same delicious article, and, when they had each of +them drunk three more glasses, he said as he was going away: + +"Well, you know when it is all gone there is more left; don't be modest, +for I shall not mind. The sooner it is finished the better pleased I +shall be." + +Four days later he came again. The old woman was outside her door +cutting up the bread for her soup. + +He went up to her and put his face close to hers, so that he might smell +her breath; and when he smelt the alcohol he felt pleased. + +"I suppose you will give me a glass of the Special?" he said. And they +had three glasses each. + +Soon, however, it began to be whispered abroad that Mother Magloire was +in the habit of getting drunk all by herself. She was picked up in her +kitchen, then in her yard, then in the roads in the neighborhood, and she +was often brought home like a log. + +The innkeeper did not go near her any more, and, when people spoke to him +about her, he used to say, putting on a distressed look: + +"It is a great pity that she should have taken to drink at her age, but +when people get old there is no remedy. It will be the death of her in +the long run." + +And it certainly was the death of her. She died the next winter. About +Christmas time she fell down, unconscious, in the snow, and was found +dead the next morning. + +And when Chicot came in for the farm, he said: + +"It was very stupid of her; if she had not taken to drink she would +probably have lived ten years longer." + + + + + + +BOITELLE + +Father Boitelle (Antoine) made a specialty of undertaking dirty jobs all +through the countryside. Whenever there was a ditch or a cesspool to be +cleaned out, a dunghill removed, a sewer cleansed, or any dirt hole +whatever, he way always employed to do it. + +He would come with the instruments of his trade, his sabots covered with +dirt, and set to work, complaining incessantly about his occupation. +When people asked him then why he did this loathsome work, he would reply +resignedly: + +"Faith, 'tis for my children, whom I must support. This brings me in +more than anything else:' + +He had, indeed, fourteen children. If any one asked him what had become +of them, he would say with an air of indifference: + +"There are only eight of them left in the house. One is out at service +and five are married." + +When the questioner wanted to know whether they were well married, he +replied vivaciously: + +"I did not oppose them. I opposed them in nothing. They married just as +they pleased. We shouldn't go against people's likings, it turns out +badly. I am a night scavenger because my parents went against my +likings. But for that I would have become a workman like the others." + +Here is the way his parents had thwarted him in his likings: + +He was at the time a soldier stationed at Havre, not more stupid than +another, or sharper either, a rather simple fellow, however. When he was +not on duty, his greatest pleasure was to walk along the quay, where the +bird dealers congregate. Sometimes alone, sometimes with a soldier from +his own part of the country, he would slowly saunter along by cages +containing parrots with green backs and yellow heads from the banks of +the Amazon, or parrots with gray backs and red heads from Senegal, or +enormous macaws, which look like birds reared in hot-houses, with their +flower-like feathers, their plumes and their tufts. Parrots of every +size, who seem painted with minute care by the miniaturist, God Almighty, +and the little birds, all the smaller birds hopped about, yellow, blue +and variegated, mingling their cries with the noise of the quay; and +adding to the din caused by unloading the vessels, as well as by +passengers and vehicles, a violent clamor, loud, shrill and deafening, as +if from some distant forest of monsters. + +Boitelle would pause, with wondering eyes, wide-open mouth, laughing and +enraptured, showing his teeth to the captive cockatoos, who kept nodding +their white or yellow topknots toward the glaring red of his breeches and +the copper buckle of his belt. When he found a bird that could talk he +put questions to it, and if it happened at the time to be disposed to +reply and to hold a conversation with him he would carry away enough +amusement to last him till evening. He also found heaps of amusement in +looking at the monkeys, and could conceive no greater luxury for a rich +man than to own these animals as one owns cats and dogs. This kind of +taste for the exotic he had in his blood, as people have a taste for the +chase, or for medicine, or for the priesthood. He could not help +returning to the quay every time the gates of the barracks opened, drawn +toward it by an irresistible longing. + +On one occasion, having stopped almost in ecstasy before an enormous +macaw, which was swelling out its plumes, bending forward and bridling up +again as if making the court curtseys of parrot-land, he saw the door of +a little cafe adjoining the bird dealer's shop open, and a young negress +appeared, wearing on her head a red silk handkerchief. She was sweeping +into the street the corks and sand of the establishment. + +Boitelle's attention was soon divided between the bird and the woman, and +he really could not tell which of these two beings he contemplated with +the greater astonishment and delight. + +The negress, having swept the rubbish into the street, raised her eyes, +and, in her turn, was dazzled by the soldier's uniform. There she stood +facing him with her broom in her hands as if she were bringing him a +rifle, while the macaw continued bowing. But at the end of a few seconds +the soldier began to feel embarrassed at this attention, and he walked +away quietly so as not to look as if he were beating a retreat. + +But he came back. Almost every day he passed before the Cafe des +Colonies, and often he could distinguish through the window the figure of +the little black-skinned maid serving "bocks" or glasses of brandy to the +sailors of the port. Frequently, too, she would come out to the door on +seeing him; soon, without even having exchanged a word, they smiled at +one another like acquaintances; and Boitelle felt his heart touched when +he suddenly saw, glittering between the dark lips of the girl, a shining +row of white teeth. At length, one day he ventured to enter, and was +quite surprised to find that she could speak French like every one else. +The bottle of lemonade, of which she was good enough to accept a +glassful, remained in the soldier's recollection memorably delicious, and +it became a custom with him to come and absorb in this little tavern on +the quay all the agreeable drinks which he could afford. + +For him it was a treat, a happiness, on which his thoughts dwelt +constantly, to watch the black hand of the little maid pouring something +into his glass while her teeth laughed more than her eyes. At the end of +two months they became fast friends, and Boitelle, after his first +astonishment at discovering that this negress had as good principles as +honest French girls, that she exhibited a regard for economy, industry, +religion and good conduct, loved her more on that account, and was so +charmed with her that he wanted to marry her. + +He told her his intentions, which made her dance with joy. She had also +a little money, left her by, a female oyster dealer, who had picked her +up when she had been left on the quay at Havre by an American captain. +This captain had found her, when she was only about six years old, lying +on bales of cotton in the hold of his ship, some hours after his +departure from New York. On his arrival in Havre he abandoned to the +care of this compassionate oyster dealer the little black creature, who +had been hidden on board his vessel, he knew not why or by whom. + +The oyster woman having died, the young negress became a servant at the +Colonial Tavern. + +Antoine Boitelle added: "This will be all right if my parents don't +oppose it. I will never go against them, you understand, never! I'm +going to say a word or two to them the first time I go back to the +country." + +On the following week, in fact, having obtained twenty-four hours' leave, +he went to see his family, who cultivated a little farm at Tourteville, +near Yvetot. + +He waited till the meal was finished, the hour when the coffee baptized +with brandy makes people more open-hearted, before informing his parents +that he had found a girl who satisfied his tastes, all his tastes, so +completely that there could not exist any other in all the world so +perfectly suited to him. + +The old people, on hearing this, immediately assumed a cautious manner +and wanted explanations. He had concealed nothing from them except the +color of her skin. + +She was a servant, without much means, but strong, thrifty, clean, well- +conducted and sensible. All these things were better than money would be +in the hands of a bad housewife. Moreover, she had a few sous, left her +by a woman who had reared her, a good number of sous, almost a little +dowry, fifteen hundred francs in the savings bank. The old people, +persuaded by his talk, and relying also on their own judgment, were +gradually weakening, when he came to the delicate point. Laughing in +rather a constrained fashion, he said: + +"There's only one thing you may not like. She is not a white slip." + +They did not understand, and he had to explain at some length and very +cautiously, to avoid shocking them, that she belonged to the dusky race +of which they had only seen samples in pictures at Epinal. Then they +became restless, perplexed, alarmed, as if he had proposed a union with +the devil. + +The mother said: "Black? How much of her is black? Is the whole of +her?" + +He replied: "Certainly. Everywhere, just as you are white everywhere." + +The father interposed: "Black? Is it as black as the pot?" + +The son answered: "Perhaps a little less than that. She is black, but +not disgustingly black. The cure's cassock is black, but it is not +uglier than a surplice which is white." + +The father said: "Are there more black people besides her in her +country?" + +And the son, with an air of conviction, exclaimed: "Certainly!" + +But the old man shook his head. + +"That must be unpleasant." + +And the son: + +"It isn't more disagreeable than anything else when you get accustomed to +it." + +The mother asked: + +"It doesn't soil the underwear more than other skins, this black skin?" + +"Not more than your own, as it is her proper color." + +Then, after many other questions, it was agreed that the parents should +see this girl before coming; to any decision, and that the young fellow, +whose, term of military service would be over in a month, should bring +her to the house in order that they might examine her and decide by +talking the matter over whether or not she was too dark to enter the +Boitelle family. + +Antoine accordingly announced that on Sunday, the 22d of May, the day of +his discharge, he would start for Tourteville with his sweetheart. + +She had put on, for this journey to the house of her lover's parents, her +most beautiful and most gaudy clothes, in which yellow, red and blue were +the prevailing colors, so that she looked as if she were adorned for a +national festival. + +At the terminus, as they were leaving Havre, people stared at her, and +Boitelle was proud of giving his arm to a person who commanded so much +attention. Then, in the third-class carriage, in which she took a seat +by his side, she aroused so much astonishment among the country folks +that the people in the adjoining compartments stood up on their benches +to look at her over the wooden partition which divides the compartments. +A child, at sight of her, began to cry with terror, another concealed his +face in his mother's apron. Everything went off well, however, up to +their arrival at their destination. But when the train slackened its +rate of motion as they drew near Yvetot, Antoine felt: ill at ease, as he +would have done at a review when; he did not know his drill practice. +Then, as he; leaned his head out, he recognized in the distance: his +father, holding the bridle of the horse harnessed to a carryall, and his +mother, who had come forward to the grating, behind which stood those who +were expecting friends. + +He alighted first, gave his hand to his sweetheart, and holding himself +erect, as if he were escorting a general, he went to meet his family. + +The mother, on seeing this black lady in variegated costume in her son's +company, remained so stupefied that she could not open her mouth; and the +father found it hard to hold the horse, which the engine or the negress +caused to rear continuously. But Antoine, suddenly filled with unmixed +joy at seeing once more the old people, rushed forward with open arms, +embraced his mother, embraced his father, in spite of the nag's fright, +and then turning toward his companion, at whom the passengers on the +platform stopped to stare with amazement, he proceeded to explain: + +"Here she is! I told you that, at first sight, she is not attractive; +but as soon as you know her, I can assure you there's not a better sort +in the whole world. Say good-morning to her so that she may not feel +badly." + +Thereupon Mere Boitelle, almost frightened out of her wits, made a sort +of curtsy, while the father took off his cap, murmuring: + +"I wish you good luck!" + +Then, without further delay, they climbed into the carryall, the two +women at the back, on seats which made them jump up and down as the +vehicle went jolting along the road, and the two men in front on the +front seat. + +Nobody spoke. Antoine, ill at ease, whistled a barrack-room air; his +father whipped the nag; and his mother, from where she sat in the corner, +kept casting sly glances at the negress, whose forehead and cheekbones +shone in the sunlight like well-polished shoes. + +Wishing to break the ice, Antoine turned round. + +"Well," said he, "we don't seem inclined to talk." + +"We must have time," replied the old woman. + +He went on: + +"Come! Tell us the little story about that hen of yours that laid eight +eggs." + +It was a funny anecdote of long standing in the family. But, as his +mother still remained silent, paralyzed by her emotion, he undertook +himself to tell the story, laughing as he did so at the memorable +incident. The father, who knew it by heart brightened at the opening +words of the narrative; his wife soon followed his example; and the +negress herself, when he reached the drollest part of it, suddenly gave +vent to a laugh, such a loud, rolling torrent of laughter that the horse, +becoming excited, broke into a gallop for a while. + +This served to cement their acquaintance. They all began to chat. + +They had scarcely reached the house and had all alighted, when Antoine +conducted his sweetheart to a room, so that she might take off her dress, +to avoid staining it, as she was going to prepare a nice dish, intended +to win the old people's affections through their stomachs. He drew his +parents outside the house, and, with beating heart, asked: + +"Well, what do you say now?" + +The father said nothing. The mother, less timid, exclaimed: + +"She is too black. No, indeed, this is too much for me. It turns my +blood." + +"You will get used to it," said Antoine. + +"Perhaps so, but not at first." + +They went into the house, where the good woman was somewhat affected at +the spectacle of the negress engaged in cooking. She at once proceeded +to assist her, with petticoats tucked up, active in spite of her age. + +The meal was an excellent one, very long, very enjoyable. When they were +taking a turn after dinner, Antoine took his father aside. + +"Well, dad, what do you say about it?" + +The peasant took care never to compromise himself. + +"I have no opinion about it. Ask your mother." + +So Antoine went back to his mother, and, detaining her behind the rest, +said: + +"Well, mother, what do you think of her?" + +"My poor lad, she is really too black. If she were only a little less +black, I would not go against you, but this is too much. One would think +it was Satan!" + +He did not press her, knowing how obstinate the old woman had always +been, but he felt a tempest of disappointment sweeping over his heart. +He was turning over in his mind what he ought to do, what plan he could +devise, surprised, moreover, that she had not conquered them already as +she had captivated himself. And they, all four, walked along through the +wheat fields, having gradually relapsed into silence. Whenever they +passed a fence they saw a countryman sitting on the stile, and a group of +brats climbed up to stare at them, and every one rushed out into the road +to see the "black" whore young Boitelle had brought home with him. At a +distance they noticed people scampering across the fields just as when +the drum beats to draw public attention to some living phenomenon. Pere +and Mere Boitelle, alarmed at this curiosity, which was exhibited +everywhere through the country at their approach, quickened their pace, +walking side by side, and leaving their son far behind. His dark +companion asked what his parents thought of her. + +He hesitatingly replied that they had not yet made up their minds. + +But on the village green people rushed out of all the houses in a flutter +of excitement; and, at the sight of the gathering crowd, old Boitelle +took to his heels, and regained his abode, while Antoine; swelling with +rage, his sweetheart on his arm, advanced majestically under the staring +eyes, which opened wide in amazement. + +He understood that it was at an end, and there was no hope for him, that +he could not marry his negress. She also understood it; and as they drew +near the farmhouse they both began to weep. As soon as they had got back +to the house, she once more took off her dress to aid the mother in the +household duties, and followed her everywhere, to the dairy, to the +stable, to the hen house, taking on herself the hardest part of the work, +repeating always: "Let me do it, Madame Boitelle," so that, when night +came on, the old woman, touched but inexorable, said to her son: "She is +a good girl, all the same. It's a pity she is so black; but indeed she +is too black. I could not get used to it. She must go back again. She +is too, too black!" + +And young Boitelle said to his sweetheart: + +"She will not consent. She thinks you are too black. You must go back +again. I will go with you to the train. No matter--don't fret. I am +going to talk to them after you have started." + +He then took her to the railway station, still cheering her with hope, +and, when he had kissed her, he put her into the train, which he watched +as it passed out of sight, his eyes swollen with tears. + +In vain did he appeal to the old people. They would never give their +consent. + +And when he had told this story, which was known all over the country, +Antoine Boitelle would always add: + +"From that time forward I have had no heart for anything--for anything at +all. No trade suited me any longer, and so I became what I am--a night +scavenger." + +People would say to him: + +"Yet you got married." + +"Yes, and I can't say that my wife didn't please me, seeing that I have +fourteen children; but she is not the other one, oh, no--certainly not! +The other one, mark you, my negress, she had only to give me one glance, +and I felt as if I were in Heaven." + + + + + + +A WIDOW + +This story was told during the hunting season at the Chateau Baneville. +The autumn had been rainy and sad. The red leaves, instead of rustling +under the feet, were rotting under the heavy downfalls. + +The forest was as damp as it could be. From it came an odor of must, of +rain, of soaked grass and wet earth; and the sportsmen, their backs +hunched under the downpour, mournful dogs, with tails between their legs +and hairs sticking to their sides, and the young women, with their +clothes drenched, returned every evening, tired in body and in mind. + +After dinner, in the large drawing-room, everybody played lotto, without +enjoyment, while the wind whistled madly around the house. Then they +tried telling stories like those they read in books, but no one was able +to invent anything amusing. The hunters told tales of wonderful shots +and of the butchery of rabbits; and the women racked their brains for +ideas without revealing the imagination of Scheherezade. They were about +to give up this diversion when a young woman, who was idly caressing the +hand of an old maiden aunt, noticed a little ring made of blond hair, +which she had often seen, without paying any attention to it. + +She fingered it gently and asked, "Auntie, what is this ring? It looks +as if it were made from the hair of a child." + +The old lady blushed, grew pale, then answered in a trembling voice: "It +is sad, so sad that I never wish to speak of it. All the unhappiness of +my life comes from that. I was very young then, and the memory has +remained so painful that I weep every time I think of it." + +Immediately everybody wished to know the story, but the old lady refused +to tell it. Finally, after they had coaxed her for a long time, she +yielded. Here is the story: + +"You have often heard me speak of the Santeze family, now extinct. I +knew the last three male members of this family. They all died in the +same manner; this hair belongs to the last one. He was thirteen when he +killed himself for me. That seems strange to you, doesn't it? + +"Oh! it was a strange family--mad, if you will, but a charming madness, +the madness of love. From father to son, all had violent passions which +filled their whole being, which impelled them to do wild things, drove +them to frantic enthusiasm, even to crime. This was born in them, just +as burning devotion is in certain souls. Trappers have not the same +nature as minions of the drawing-room. There was a saying: 'As +passionate as a Santeze.' This could be noticed by looking at them. +They all had wavy hair, falling over their brows, curly beards and large +eyes whose glance pierced and moved one, though one could not say why. + +"The grandfather of the owner of this hair, of whom it is the last +souvenir, after many adventures, duels and elopements, at about sixty- +five fell madly in love with his farmer's daughter. I knew them both. +She was blond, pale, distinguished-looking, with a slow manner of +talking, a quiet voice and a look so gentle that one might have taken her +for a Madonna. The old nobleman took her to his home and was soon so +captivated with her that he could not live without her for a minute. +His daughter and daughter-in-law, who lived in the chateau, found this +perfectly natural, love was such a tradition in the family. Nothing in +regard to a passion surprised them, and if one spoke before them of +parted lovers, even of vengeance after treachery, both said in the same +sad tone: 'Oh, how he must have suffered to come to that point!' That was +all. They grew sad over tragedies of love, but never indignant, even +when they were criminal. + +"Now, one day a young man named Monsieur de Gradelle, who had been +invited for the shooting, eloped with the young girl. + +"Monsieur de Santeze remained calm as if nothing had happened, but one +morning he was found hanging in the kennels, among his dogs. + +"His son died in the same manner in a hotel in Paris during a journey +which he made there in 1841, after being deceived by a singer from the +opera. + +"He left a twelve-year-old child and a widow, my mother's sister. She +came to my father's house with the boy, while we were living at +Bertillon. I was then seventeen. + +"You have no idea how wonderful and precocious this Santeze child was. +One might have thought that all the tenderness and exaltation of the +whole race had been stored up in this last one. He was always dreaming +and walking about alone in a great alley of elms leading from the chateau +to the forest. I watched from my window this sentimental boy, who walked +with thoughtful steps, his hands behind his back, his head bent, and at +times stopping to raise his eyes as if he could see and understand things +that were not comprehensible at his age. + +"Often, after dinner on clear evenings, he would say to me: 'Let us go +outside and dream, cousin.' And we would go outside together in the +park. He would stop quickly before a clearing where the white vapor of +the moon lights the woods, and he would press my hand, saying: 'Look! +look! but you don't understand me; I feel it. If you understood me, we +should be happy. One must love to know! I would laugh and then kiss +this child, who loved me madly. + +"Often, after dinner, he would sit on my mother's knees. 'Come, auntie,' +he would say, 'tell me some love-stories.' And my mother, as a joke, +would tell him all the old legends of the family, all the passionate +adventures of his forefathers, for thousands of them were current, some +true and some false. It was their reputation for love and gallantry +which was the ruin of every one of these-men; they gloried in it and then +thought that they had to live up to the renown of their house. + +"The little fellow became exalted by these tender or terrible stories, +and at times he would clap his hands, crying: 'I, too, I, too, know how +to love, better than all of them!' + +"Then, he began to court me in a timid and tender manner, at which every +one laughed, it was, so amusing. Every morning I had some flowers picked +by him, and every evening before going to his room he would kiss my hand +and murmur: 'I love you!' + +"I was guilty, very guilty, and I grieved continually about it, and I +have been doing penance all my life; I have remained an old maid--or, +rather, I have lived as a widowed fiancee, his widow. + +"I was amused at this childish tenderness, and I even encouraged him. +I was coquettish, as charming as with a man, alternately caressing and +severe. I maddened this child. It was a game for me and a joyous +diversion for his mother and mine. He was twelve! think of it! Who +would have taken this atom's passion seriously? I kissed him as often as +he wished; I even wrote him little notes, which were read by our +respective mothers; and he answered me by passionate letters, which I +have kept. Judging himself as a man, he thought that our loving intimacy +was secret. We had forgotten that he was a Santeze. + +"This lasted for about a year. One evening in the park he fell at my +feet and, as he madly kissed the hem of my dress, he kept repeating: 'I +love you! I love you! I love you! If ever you deceive me, if ever you +leave me for another, I'll do as my father did.' And he added in a +hoarse voice, which gave me a shiver: 'You know what he did!' + +"I stood there astonished. He arose, and standing on the tips of his +toes in order to reach my ear, for I was taller than he, he pronounced my +first name: 'Genevieve!' in such a gentle, sweet, tender tone that I +trembled all over. I stammered: 'Let us return! let us return!' He said +no more and followed me; but as we were going up the steps of the porch, +he stopped me, saying: 'You know, if ever you leave me, I'll kill +myself.' + +"This time I understood that I had gone too far, and I became quite +reserved. One day, as he was reproaching me for this, I answered: 'You +are now too old for jesting and too young for serious love. I'll wait.' + +"I thought that this would end the matter. In the autumn he was sent to +a boarding-school. When he returned the following summer I was engaged +to be married. He understood immediately, and for a week he became so +pensive that I was quite anxious. + +"On the morning of the ninth day I saw a little paper under my door as I +got up. I seized it, opened it and read: 'You have deserted me and you +know what I said. It is death to which you have condemned me. As I do +not wish to be found by another than you, come to the park just where I +told you last year that I loved you and look in the air.' + +"I thought that I should go mad. I dressed as quickly as I could and ran +wildly to the place that he had mentioned. His little cap was on the +ground in the mud. It had been raining all night. I raised my eyes and +saw something swinging among the leaves, for the wind was blowing a gale. + +"I don't know what I did after that. I must have screamed at first, then +fainted and fallen, and finally have run to the chateau. The next thing +that I remember I was in bed, with my mother sitting beside me. + +"I thought that I had dreamed all this in a frightful nightmare. +I stammered: 'And what of him, what of him, Gontran?' There was no +answer. It was true! + +"I did not dare see him again, but I asked for a lock of his blond hair. +Here--here it is!" + +And the old maid stretched out her trembling hand in a despairing +gesture. Then she blew her nose several times, wiped her eyes and +continued: + +"I broke off my marriage--without saying why. And I--I always have +remained the--the widow of this thirteen-year-old boy." Then her head +fell on her breast and she wept for a long time. + +As the guests were retiring for the night a large man, whose quiet she +had disturbed, whispered in his neighbor's ear: "Isn't it unfortunate to, +be so sentimental?" + + + + + + +THE ENGLISHMAN OF ETRETAT + +A great English poet has just crossed over to France in order to greet +Victor Hugo. All the newspapers are full of his name and he is the great +topic of conversation in all drawing-rooms. Fifteen years ago I had +occasion several times to meet Algernon Charles Swinburne. I will +attempt to show him just as I saw him and to give an idea of the strange +impression he made on me, which will remain with me throughout time. + +I believe it was in 1867 or in 1868 that an unknown young Englishman came +to Etretat and bought a little but hidden under great trees. It was said +that he lived there, always alone, in a strange manner; and he aroused +the inimical surprise of the natives, for the inhabitants were sullen and +foolishly malicious, as they always are in little towns. + +They declared that this whimsical Englishman ate nothing but boiled. +roasted or stewed monkey; that he would see no one; that he talked to +himself hours at a time and many other surprising things that made people +think that he was different from other men. They were surprised that he +should live alone with a monkey. Had it been a cat or a dog they would +have said nothing. But a monkey! Was that not frightful? What savage +tastes the man must have! + +I knew this young man only from seeing him in the streets. He was short, +plump, without being fat, mild-looking, and he wore a little blond +mustache, which was almost invisible. + +Chance brought us together. This savage had amiable and pleasing +manners, but he was one of those strange Englishmen that one meets here +and there throughout the world. + +Endowed with remarkable intelligence, he seemed to live in a fantastic +dream, as Edgar Poe must have lived. He had translated into English a +volume of strange Icelandic legends, which I ardently desired to see +translated into French. He loved the supernatural, the dismal and +grewsome, but he spoke of the most marvellous things with a calmness that +was typically English, to which his gentle and quiet voice gave a +semblance of reality that was maddening. + +Full of a haughty disdain for the world, with its conventions, prejudices +and code of morality, he had nailed to his house a name that was boldly +impudent. The keeper of a lonely inn who should write on his door: +"Travellers murdered here!" could not make a more sinister jest. I never +had entered his dwelling, when one day I received an invitation to +luncheon, following an accident that had occurred to one of his friends, +who had been almost drowned and whom I had attempted to rescue. + +Although I was unable to reach the man until he had already been rescued, +I received the hearty thanks of the two Englishmen, and the following day +I called upon them. + +The friend was a man about thirty years old. He bore an enormous head on +a child's body--a body without chest or shoulders. An immense forehead, +which seemed to have engulfed the rest of the man, expanded like a dome +above a thin face which ended in a little pointed beard. Two sharp eyes +and a peculiar mouth gave one the impression of the head of a reptile, +while the magnificent brow suggested a genius. + +A nervous twitching shook this peculiar being, who walked, moved, acted +by jerks like a broken spring. + +This was Algernon Charles Swinburne, son of an English admiral and +grandson, on the maternal side, of the Earl of Ashburnham. + +He strange countenance was transfigured when he spoke. I have seldom +seen a man more impressive, more eloquent, incisive or charming in +conversation. His rapid, clear, piercing and fantastic imagination +seemed to creep into his voice and to lend life to his words. His +brusque gestures enlivened his speech, which penetrated one like a +dagger, and he had bursts of thought, just as lighthouses throw out +flashes of fire, great, genial lights that seemed to illuminate a whole +world of ideas. + +The home of the two friends was pretty and by no means commonplace. +Everywhere were paintings, some superb, some strange, representing +different conceptions of insanity. Unless I am mistaken, there was a +water-color which represented the head of a dead man floating in a rose- +colored shell on a boundless ocean, under a moon with a human face. + +Here and there I came across bones. I clearly remember a flayed hand on +which was hanging some dried skin and black muscles, and on the snow- +white bones could be seen the traces of dried blood. + +The food was a riddle which I could not solve. Was it good? Was it bad? +I could not say. Some roast monkey took away all desire to make a steady +diet of this animal, and the great monkey who roamed about among us at +large and playfully pushed his head into my glass when I wished to drink +cured me of any desire I might have to take one of his brothers as a +companion for the rest of my days. + +As for the two men, they gave me the impression of two strange, original, +remarkable minds, belonging to that peculiar race of talented madmen from +among whom have arisen Poe, Hoffmann and many others. + +If genius is, as is commonly believed, a sort of aberration of great +minds, then Algernon Charles Swinburne is undoubtedly a genius. + +Great minds that are healthy are never considered geniuses, while this +sublime qualification is lavished on brains that are often inferior but +are slightly touched by madness. + +At any rate, this poet remains one of the first of his time, through his +originality and polished form. He is an exalted lyrical singer who +seldom bothers about the good and humble truth, which French poets are +now seeking so persistently and patiently. He strives to set down +dreams, subtle thoughts, sometimes great, sometimes visibly forced, but +sometimes magnificent. + + +Two years later I found the house closed and its tenants gone. The +furniture was being sold. In memory of them I bought the hideous flayed +hand. On the grass an enormous square block of granite bore this simple +word: "Nip." Above this a hollow stone offered water to the birds. It +was the grave of the monkey, who had been hanged by a young, vindictive +negro servant. It was said that this violent domestic had been forced to +flee at the point of his exasperated master's revolver. After wandering +about without home or food for several days, he returned and began to +peddle barley-sugar in the streets. He was expelled from the country +after he had almost strangled a displeased customer. + +The world would be gayer if one could often meet homes like that. + + This story appeared in the "Gaulois," November 29, 1882. It was the + original sketch for the introductory study of Swinburne, written by + Maupassant for the French translation by Gabriel Mourey of "Poems + and Ballads." + + + + + + +MAGNETISM + +It was a men's dinner party, and they were sitting over their cigars and +brandy and discussing magnetism. Donato's tricks and Charcot's +experiments. Presently, the sceptical, easy-going men, who cared nothing +for religion of any sort, began telling stories of strange occurrences, +incredible things which, nevertheless, had really occurred, so they said, +falling back into superstitious beliefs, clinging to these last remnants +of the marvellous, becoming devotees of this mystery of magnetism, +defending it in the name of science. There was only one person who +smiled, a vigorous young fellow, a great ladies' man who was so +incredulous that he would not even enter upon a discussion of such +matters. + +He repeated with a sneer: + +"Humbug! humbug! humbug! We need not discuss Donato, who is merely a +very smart juggler. As for M. Charcot, who is said to be a remarkable +man of science, he produces on me the effect of those story-tellers of +the school of Edgar Poe, who end by going mad through constantly +reflecting on queer cases of insanity. He has authenticated some cases +of unexplained and inexplicable nervous phenomena; he makes his way into +that unknown region which men are exploring every day, and unable always +to understand what he sees, he recalls, perhaps, the ecclesiastical +interpretation of these mysteries. I should like to hear what he says +himself." + +The words of the unbeliever were listened to with a kind of pity, as if +he had blasphemed in an assembly of monks. + +One of these gentlemen exclaimed: + +"And yet miracles were performed in olden times." + +"I deny it," replied the other: "Why cannot they be performed now?" + +Then, each mentioned some fact, some fantastic presentiment some instance +of souls communicating with each other across space, or some case of the +secret influence of one being over another. They asserted and maintained +that these things had actually occurred, while the sceptic angrily +repeated: + +"Humbug! humbug! humbug!" + +At last he rose, threw away his cigar, and with his hands in his pockets, +said: "Well, I also have two stories to tell you, which I will afterwards +explain. Here they are: + +"In the little village of Etretat, the men, who are all seafaring folk, +go every year to Newfoundland to fish for cod. One night the little son +of one of these fishermen woke up with a start, crying out that his +father was dead. The child was quieted, and again he woke up exclaiming +that his father was drowned. A month later the news came that his father +had, in fact, been swept off the deck of his smack by a billow. The +widow then remembered how her son had woke up and spoken of his father's +death. Everyone said it was a miracle, and the affair caused a great +sensation. The dates were compared, and it was found that the accident +and the dream were almost coincident, whence they concluded that they had +happened on the same night and at the same hour. And there is a mystery +of magnetism." + +The story-teller stopped suddenly. + +Thereupon, one of those who had heard him, much affected by the +narrative, asked: + +"And can you explain this?" + +"Perfectly, monsieur. I have discovered the secret. The circumstance +surprised me and even perplexed me very much; but you see, I do not +believe on principle. Just as others begin by believing, I begin by +doubting; and when I cannot understand, I continue to deny that there can +be any telepathic communication between souls; certain that my own +intelligence will be able to explain it. Well, I kept on inquiring into +the matter, and by dint of questioning all the wives of the absent +seamen, I was convinced that not a week passed without one of them, or +one of their children dreaming and declaring when they woke up that the +father was drowned. The horrible and continual fear of this accident +makes them always talk about it. Now, if one of these frequent +predictions coincides, by a very simple chance, with the death of the +person referred to, people at once declare it to be a miracle; for they +suddenly lose sight of all the other predictions of misfortune that have +remained unfulfilled. I have myself known fifty cases where the persons +who made the prediction forgot all about it a week after wards. But, if, +then one happens to die, then the recollection of the thing is +immediately revived, and people are ready to believe in the intervention +of God, according to some, and magnetism, according to others." + +One of the smokers remarked: + +"What you say is right enough; but what about your second story?" + +"Oh! my second story is a very delicate matter to relate. It happened +to myself, and so I don't place any great value on my own view of the +matter. An interested party can never give an impartial opinion. +However, here it is: + +"Among my acquaintances was a young woman on whom I had never bestowed a +thought, whom I had never even looked at attentively, never taken any +notice of. + +"I classed her among the women of no importance, though she was not bad- +looking; she appeared, in fact, to possess eyes, a nose, a mouth, some +sort of hair--just a colorless type of countenance. She was one of those +beings who awaken only a chance, passing thought, but no special +interest, no desire. + +"Well, one night, as I was writing some letters by my fireside before +going to bed, I was conscious, in the midst of that train of sensuous +visions that sometimes pass through one's brain in moments of idle +reverie, of a kind of slight influence, passing over me, a little flutter +of the heart, and immediately, without any cause, without any logical +connection of thought, I saw distinctly, as if I were touching her, saw +from head to foot, and disrobed, this young woman to whom I had never +given more that three seconds' thought at a time. I suddenly discovered +in her a number of qualities which I had never before observed, a sweet +charm, a languorous fascination; she awakened in me that sort of restless +emotion that causes one to pursue a woman. But I did not think of her +long. I went to bed and was soon asleep. And I dreamed. + +"You have all had these strange dreams which make you overcome the +impossible, which open to you double-locked doors, unexpected joys, +tightly folded arms? + +"Which of us in these troubled, excising, breathless slumbers, has not +held, clasped, embraced with rapture, the woman who occupied his +thoughts? And have you ever noticed what superhuman delight these happy +dreams give us? Into what mad intoxication they cast you! with what +passionate spasms they shake you! and with what infinite, caressing, +penetrating tenderness they fill your heart for her whom you hold clasped +in your arms in that adorable illusion that is so like reality! + +"All this I felt with unforgettable violence. This woman was mine, so +much mine that the pleasant warmth of her skin remained in my fingers, +the odor of her skin, in my brain, the taste of her kisses, on my lips, +the sound of her voice lingered in my ears, the touch of her clasp still +clung to me, and the burning charm of her tenderness still gratified my +senses long after the delight but disillusion of my awakening. + +"And three times that night I had the same dream. + +"When the day dawned she haunted me, possessed me, filled my senses to +such an extent that I was not one second without thinking of her. + +"At last, not knowing what to do, I dressed myself and went to call on +her. As I went upstairs to her apartment, I was so overcome by emotion +that I trembled, and my heart beat rapidly. + +"I entered the apartment. She rose the moment she heard my name +mentioned; and suddenly our eyes met in a peculiar fixed gaze. + +"I sat down. I stammered out some commonplaces which she seemed not to +hear. I did not know what to say or do. Then, abruptly, clasping my +arms round her, my dream was realized so suddenly that I began to doubt +whether I was really awake. We were friends after this for two years." + +"What conclusion do you draw from it?" said a voice. + +The story-teller seemed to hesitate. + +"The conclusion I draw from it--well, by Jove, the conclusion is that it +was just a coincidence! And then--who can tell? Perhaps it was some +glance of hers which I had not noticed and which came back that night to +me through one of those mysterious and unconscious--recollections that +often bring before us things ignored by our own consciousness, +unperceived by our minds!" + +"Call it whatever you like," said one of his table companions, when the +story was finished; "but if you don't believe in magnetism after that, my +dear boy, you are an ungrateful fellow!" + + + + + + +A FATHER'S CONFESSION + +All Veziers-le-Rethel had followed the funeral procession of M. Badon- +Leremince to the grave, and the last words of the funeral oration +pronounced by the delegate of the district remained in the minds of all: +"He was an honest man, at least!" + +An honest man he had been in all the known acts of his life, in his +words, in his examples, his attitude, his behavior, his enterprises, in +the cut of his beard and the shape of his hats. He never had said a word +that did not set an example, never had given an alms without adding a +word of advice, never had extended his hand without appearing to bestow a +benediction. + +He left two children, a boy and a girl. His son was counselor general, +and his daughter, having married a lawyer, M. Poirel de la Voulte, moved +in the best society of Veziers. + +They were inconsolable at the death of their father, for they loved him +sincerely. + +As soon as the ceremony was over, the son, daughter and son-in-law +returned to the house of mourning, and, shutting themselves in the +library, they opened the will, the seals of which were to be broken by +them alone and only after the coffin had been placed in the ground. +This wish was expressed by a notice on the envelope. + +M. Poirel de la Voulte tore open the envelope, in his character of a +lawyer used to such operations, and having adjusted his spectacles, he +read in a monotonous voice, made for reading the details of contracts: + + My children, my dear children, I could not sleep the eternal sleep + in peace if I did not make to you from the tomb a confession, the + confession of a crime, remorse for which has ruined my life. Yes, + I committed a crime, a frightful, abominable crime. + + I was twenty-six years old, and I had just been called to the bar in + Paris, and was living the life off young men from the provinces who + are stranded in this town without acquaintances, relatives, or + friends. + + I took a sweetheart. There are beings who cannot live alone. I was + one of those. Solitude fills me with horrible anguish, the solitude + of my room beside my fire in the evening. I feel then as if I were + alone on earth, alone, but surrounded by vague dangers, unknown and + terrible things; and the partition that separates me from my + neighbor, my neighbor whom I do not know, keeps me at as great a + distance from him as the stars that I see through my window. A sort + of fever pervades me, a fever of impatience and of fear, and the + silence of the walls terrifies me. The silence of a room where one + lives alone is so intense and so melancholy It is not only a silence + of the mind; when a piece of furniture cracks a shudder goes through + you for you expect no noise in this melancholy abode. + + How many times, nervous and timid from this motionless silence, I + have begun to talk, to repeat words without rhyme or reason, only to + make some sound. My voice at those times sounds so strange that I + am afraid of that, too. Is there anything more dreadful than + talking to one's self in an empty house? One's voice sounds like + that of another, an unknown voice talking aimlessly, to no one, into + the empty air, with no ear to listen to it, for one knows before + they escape into the solitude of the room exactly what words will be + uttered. And when they resound lugubriously in the silence, they + seem no more than an echo, the peculiar echo of words whispered by + ones thought. + + My sweetheart was a young girl like other young girls who live in + Paris on wages that are insufficient to keep them. She was gentle, + good, simple. Her parents lived at Poissy. She went to spend + several days with them from time to time. + + For a year I lived quietly with her, fully decided to leave her when + I should find some one whom I liked well enough to marry. I would + make a little provision for this one, for it is an understood thing + in our social set that a woman's love should be paid for, in money + if she is poor, in presents if she is rich. + + But one day she told me she was enceinte. I was thunderstruck, and + saw in a second that my life would be ruined. I saw the fetter that + I should wear until my death, everywhere, in my future family life, + in my old age, forever; the fetter of a woman bound to my life + through a child; the fetter of the child whom I must bring up, watch + over, protect, while keeping myself unknown to him, and keeping him + hidden from the world. + + I was greatly disturbed at this news, and a confused longing, a + criminal desire, surged through my mind; I did not formulate it, but + I felt it in my heart, ready to come to the surface, as if some one + hidden behind a portiere should await the signal to come out. If + some accident might only happen! So many of these little beings die + before they are born! + + Oh! I did not wish my sweetheart to die! The poor girl, I loved + her very much! But I wished, possibly, that the child might die + before I saw it. + + He was born. I set up housekeeping in my little bachelor apartment, + an imitation home, with a horrible child. He looked like all + children; I did not care for him. Fathers, you see, do not show + affection until later. They have not the instinctive and passionate + tenderness of mothers; their affection has to be awakened gradually, + their mind must become attached by bonds formed each day between + beings that live in each other's society. + + A year passed. I now avoided my home, which was too small, where + soiled linen, baby-clothes and stockings the size of gloves were + lying round, where a thousand articles of all descriptions lay on + the furniture, on the arm of an easy-chair, everywhere. I went out + chiefly that I might not hear the child cry, for he cried on the + slightest pretext, when he was bathed, when he was touched, when he + was put to bed, when he was taken up in the morning, incessantly. + + I had made a few acquaintances, and I met at a reception the woman + who was to be your mother. I fell in love with her and became + desirous to marry her. I courted her; I asked her parents' consent + to our marriage and it was granted. + + I found myself in this dilemma: I must either marry this young girl + whom I adored, having a child already, or else tell the truth and + renounce her, and happiness, my future, everything; for her parents, + who were people of rigid principles, would not give her to me if + they knew. + + I passed a month of horrible anguish, of mortal torture, a month + haunted by a thousand frightful thoughts; and I felt developing in + me a hatred toward my son, toward that little morsel of living, + screaming flesh, who blocked my path, interrupted my life, condemned + me to an existence without hope, without all those vague + expectations that make the charm of youth. + + But just then my companion's mother became ill, and I was left alone + with the child. + + It was in December, and the weather was terribly cold. What a + night! + + My companion had just left. I had dined alone in my little dining- + room and I went gently into the room where the little one was + asleep. + + I sat down in an armchair before the fire. The wind was blowing, + making the windows rattle, a dry, frosty wind; and I saw trough the + window the stars shining with that piercing brightness that they + have on frosty nights. + + Then the idea that had obsessed me for a month rose again to the + surface. As soon as I was quiet it came to me and harassed me. It + ate into my mind like a fixed idea, just as cancers must eat into + the flesh. It was there, in my head, in my heart, in my whole body, + it seemed to me; and it swallowed me up as a wild beast might have. + I endeavored to drive it away, to repulse it, to open my mind to + other thoughts, as one opens a window to the fresh morning breeze to + drive out the vitiated air; but I could not drive it from my brain, + not even for a second. I do not know how to express this torture. + It gnawed at my soul, and I felt a frightful pain, a real physical + and moral pain. + + My life was ruined! How could I escape from this situation? How + could I draw back, and how could I confess? + + And I loved the one who was to become your mother with a mad + passion, which this insurmountable obstacle only aggravated. + + A terrible rage was taking possession of me, choking me, a rage that + verged on madness! Surely I was crazy that evening! + + The child was sleeping. I got up and looked at it as it slept. It + was he, this abortion, this spawn, this nothing, that condemned me + to irremediable unhappiness! + + He was asleep, his mouth open, wrapped in his bed-clothes in a crib + beside my bed, where I could not sleep. + + How did I ever do what I did? How do I know? What force urged me + on? What malevolent power took possession of me? Oh! the + temptation to crime came to me without any forewarning. All I + recall is that my heart beat tumultuously. It beat so hard that I + could hear it, as one hears the strokes of a hammer behind a + partition. That is all I can recall--the beating of my heart! + In my head there was a strange confusion, a tumult, a senseless + disorder, a lack of presence of mind. It was one of those hours of + bewilderment and hallucination when a man is neither conscious of + his actions nor able to guide his will. + + I gently raised the coverings from the body of the child; I turned + them down to the foot of the crib, and he lay there uncovered and + naked. + + He did not wake. Then I went toward the window, softly, quite + softly, and I opened it. + + A breath of icy air glided in like an assassin; it was so cold that + I drew aside, and the two candles flickered. I remained standing + near the window, not daring to turn round, as if for fear of seeing + what was doing on behind me, and feeling the icy air continually + across my forehead, my cheeks, my hands, the deadly air which kept + streaming in. I stood there a long time. + + I was not thinking, I was not reflecting. All at once a little + cough caused me to shudder frightfully from head to foot, a shudder + that I feel still to the roots of my hair. And with a frantic + movement I abruptly closed both sides of the window and, turning + round, ran over to the crib. + + He was still asleep, his mouth open, quite naked. I touched his + legs; they were icy cold and I covered them up. + + My heart was suddenly touched, grieved, filled with pity, + tenderness, love for this poor innocent being that I had wished to + kill. I kissed his fine, soft hair long and tenderly; then I went + and sat down before the fire. + + I reflected with amazement with horror on what I had done, asking + myself whence come those tempests of the soul in which a man loses + all perspective of things, all command over himself and acts as in a + condition of mad intoxication, not knowing whither he is going--like + a vessel in a hurricane. + + The child coughed again, and it gave my heart a wrench. Suppose it + should die! O God! O God! What would become of me? + + I rose from my chair to go and look at him, and with a candle in my + hand I leaned over him. Seeing him breathing quietly I felt + reassured, when he coughed a third time. It gave me such a shock + tat I started backward, just as one does at sight of something + horrible, and let my candle fall. + + As I stood erect after picking it up, I noticed that my temples were + bathed in perspiration, that cold sweat which is the result of + anguish of soul. And I remained until daylight bending over my son, + becoming calm when he remained quiet for some time, and filled with + atrocious pain when a weak cough came from his mouth. + + He awoke with his eyes red, his throat choked, and with an air of + suffering. + + When the woman came in to arrange my room I sent her at once for a + doctor. He came at the end of an hour, and said, after examining + the child: + + "Did he not catch cold?" + + I began to tremble like a person with palsy, and I faltered: + + "No, I do not think so." + + And then I said: + + "What is the matter? Is it serious?" + + "I do not know yet," he replied. "I will come again this evening." + + He came that evening. My son had remained almost all day in a + condition of drowsiness, coughing from time to time. During the + night inflammation of the lungs set in. + + That lasted ten days. I cannot express what I suffered in those + interminable hours that divide morning from night, right from + morning. + + He died. + + And since--since that moment, I have not passed one hour, not a + single hour, without the frightful burning recollection, a gnawing + recollection, a memory that seems to wring my heart, awaking in me + like a savage beast imprisoned in the depth of my soul. + + Oh! if I could have gone mad! + + +M. Poirel de la Voulte raised his spectacles with a motion that was +peculiar to him whenever he finished reading a contract; and the three +heirs of the defunct looked at one another without speaking, pale and +motionless. + +At the end of a minute the lawyer resumed: + +"That must be destroyed." + +The other two bent their heads in sign of assent. He lighted a candle, +carefully separated the pages containing the damaging confession from +those relating to the disposition of money, then he held them over the +candle and threw them into the fireplace. + +And they watched the white sheets as they burned, till they were +presently reduced to little crumbling black heaps. And as some words +were still visible in white tracing, the daughter, with little strokes of +the toe of her shoe, crushed the burning paper, mixing it with the old +ashes in the fireplace. + +Then all three stood there watching it for some time, as if they feared +that the destroyed secret might escape from the fireplace. + + + + + + +A MOTHER OF MONSTERS + +I recalled this horrible story, the events of which occurred long ago, +and this horrible woman, the other day at a fashionable seaside resort, +where I saw on the beach a well-known young, elegant and charming +Parisienne, adored and respected by everyone. + +I had been invited by a friend to pay him a visit in a little provincial +town. He took me about in all directions to do the honors of the place, +showed me noted scenes, chateaux, industries, ruins. He pointed out +monuments, churches, old carved doorways, enormous or distorted trees, +the oak of St. Andrew, and the yew tree of Roqueboise. + +When I had exhausted my admiration and enthusiasm over all the sights, +my friend said with a distressed expression on his face, that there was +nothing left to look at. I breathed freely. I would now be able to rest +under the shade of the trees. But, all at once, he uttered an +exclamation: + +"Oh, yes! We have the 'Mother of Monsters'; I must take you to see her." + +"Who is that, the 'Mother of Monsters'?" I asked. + +"She is an abominable woman," he replied, "a regular demon, a being who +voluntarily brings into the world deformed, hideous, frightful children, +monstrosities, in fact, and then sells them to showmen who exhibit such +things. + +"These exploiters of freaks come from time to time to find out if she has +any fresh monstrosity, and if it meets with their approval they carry it +away with them, paying the mother a compensation. + +"She has eleven of this description. She is rich. + +"You think I am joking, romancing, exaggerating. No, my friend; I am +telling you the truth, the exact truth. + +"Let us go and see this woman. Then I will tell you her history." + +He took me into one of the suburbs. The woman lived in a pretty little +house by the side of the road. It was attractive and well kept. The +garden was filled with fragrant flowers. One might have supposed it to +be the residence of a retired lawyer. + +A maid ushered us into a sort of little country parlor, and the wretch +appeared. She was about forty. She was a tall, big woman with hard +features, but well formed, vigorous and healthy, the true type of a +robust peasant woman, half animal, and half woman. + +She was aware of her reputation and received everyone with a humility +that smacked of hatred. + +"What do the gentlemen wish?" she asked. + +"They tell me that your last child is just like an ordinary child, that +he does not resemble his brothers at all," replied my friend. "I wanted +to be sure of that. Is it true?" + +She cast on us a malicious and furious look as she said: + +"Oh, no, oh, no, my poor sir! He is perhaps even uglier than the rest. +I have no luck, no luck! + +They are all like that, it is heartbreaking! How can the good God be so +hard on a poor woman who is all alone in the world, how can He?" +She spoke hurriedly, her eyes cast down, with a deprecating air as of a +wild beast who is afraid. Her harsh voice became soft, and it seemed +strange to hear those tearful falsetto tones issuing from that big, bony +frame, of unusual strength and with coarse outlines, which seemed fitted +for violent action, and made to utter howls like a wolf. + +"We should like to see your little one," said my friend. + +I fancied she colored up. I may have been deceived. After a few moments +of silence, she said in a louder tone: + +"What good will that do you?" + +"Why do you not wish to show it to us?" replied my friend. "There are +many people to whom you will show it; you know whom I mean." + +She gave a start, and resuming her natural voice, and giving free play to +her anger, she screamed: + +"Was that why you came here? To insult me? Because my children are like +animals, tell me? You shall not see him, no, no, you shall not see him! +Go away, go away! I do not know why you all try to torment me like +that." + +She walked over toward us, her hands on her hips. At the brutal tone of +her voice, a sort of moaning, or rather a mewing, the lamentable cry of +an idiot, came from the adjoining room. I shivered to the marrow of my +bones. We retreated before her. + +"Take care, Devil" (they called her the Devil); said my friend, "take +care; some day you will get yourself into trouble through this." + +She began to tremble, beside herself with fury, shaking her fist and +roaring: + +"Be off with you! What will get me into trouble? Be off with you, +miscreants!" + +She was about to attack us, but we fled, saddened at what we had seen. +When we got outside, my friend said: + +"Well, you have seen her, what do you think of her?" + +"Tell me the story of this brute," I replied. + +And this is what he told me as we walked along the white high road, with +ripe crops on either side of it which rippled like the sea in the light +breeze that passed over them. + +"This woman was one a servant on a farm. She was an honest girl, steady +and economical. She was never known to have an admirer, and never +suspected of any frailty. But she went astray, as so many do. + +"She soon found herself in trouble, and was tortured with fear and shame. +Wishing to conceal her misfortune, she bound her body tightly with a +corset of her own invention, made of boards and cord. The more she +developed, the more she bound herself with this instrument of torture, +suffering martyrdom, but brave in her sorrow, not allowing anyone to see, +or suspect, anything. She maimed the little unborn being, cramping it +with that frightful corset, and made a monster of it. Its head was +squeezed and elongated to a point, and its large eyes seemed popping out +of its head. Its limbs, exaggeratedly long, and twisted like the stalk +of a vine, terminated in fingers like the claws of a spider. Its trunk +was tiny, and round as a nut. + +"The child was born in an open field, and when the weeders saw it, they +fled away, screaming, and the report spread that she had given birth to a +demon. From that time on, she was called 'the Devil.' + +"She was driven from the farm, and lived on charity, under a cloud. She +brought up the monster, whom she hated with a savage hatred, and would +have strangled, perhaps, if the priest had not threatened her with +arrest. + +"One day some travelling showmen heard about the frightful creature, and +asked to see it, so that if it pleased them they might take it away. +They were pleased, and counted out five hundred francs to the mother. +At first, she had refused to let them see the little animal, as she was +ashamed; but when she discovered it had a money value, and that these +people were anxious to get it, she began to haggle with them, raising her +price with all a peasant's persistence. + +"She made them draw up a paper, in which they promised to pay her four +hundred francs a year besides, as though they had taken this deformity +into their employ. + +"Incited by the greed of gain, she continued to produce these phenomena, +so as to have an assured income like a bourgeoise. + +"Some of them were long, some short, some like crabs-all bodies-others +like lizards. Several died, and she was heartbroken. + +"The law tried to interfere, but as they had no proof they let her +continue to produce her freaks. + +She has at this moment eleven alive, and they bring in, on an average, +counting good and bad years, from five to six thousand francs a year. +One, alone, is not placed, the one she was unwilling to show us. But she +will not keep it long, for she is known to all the showmen in the world, +who come from time to time to see if she has anything new. + +"She even gets bids from them when the monster is valuable." + +My friend was silent. A profound disgust stirred my heart, and a feeling +of rage, of regret, to think that I had not strangled this brute when I +had the opportunity. + +I had forgotten this story, when I saw on the beach of a fashionable +resort the other day, an elegant, charming, dainty woman, surrounded by +men who paid her respect as well as admiration. + +I was walking along the beach, arm in arm with a friend, the resident +physician. Ten minutes later, I saw a nursemaid with three children, who +were rolling in the sand. A pair of little crutches lay on the ground, +and touched my sympathy. I then noticed that these three children were +all deformed, humpbacked, or crooked; and hideous. + +"Those are the offspring of that charming woman you saw just now," said +the doctor. + +I was filled with pity for her, as well as for them, and exclaimed: +"Oh, the poor mother! How can she ever laugh!" + +"Do not pity her, my friend. Pity the poor children," replied the +doctor. "This is the consequence of preserving a slender figure up to +the last. These little deformities were made by the corset. She knows +very well that she is risking her life at this game. But what does she +care, as long as lie can be beautiful and have admirers!" + +And then I recalled that other woman, the peasant, the "Devil," who sold +her children, her monsters. + + + + + + +AN UNCOMFORTABLE BED + +One autumn I went to spend the hunting season with some friends in a +chateau in Picardy. + +My friends were fond of practical jokes. I do not care to know people +who are not. + +When I arrived, they gave me a princely reception, which at once awakened +suspicion in my mind. They fired off rifles, embraced me, made much of +me, as if they expected to have great fun at my expense. + +I said to myself: + +"Look out, old ferret! They have something in store for you." + +During the dinner the mirth was excessive, exaggerated, in fact. +I thought: "Here are people who have more than their share of amusement, +and apparently without reason. They must have planned some good joke. +Assuredly I am to be the victim of the joke. Attention!" + +During the entire evening every one laughed in an exaggerated fashion. +I scented a practical joke in the air, as a dog scents game. But what +was it? I was watchful, restless. I did not let a word, or a meaning, +or a gesture escape me. Every one seemed to me an object of suspicion, +and I even looked distrustfully at the faces of the servants. + +The hour struck for retiring; and the whole household came to escort me +to my room. Why? + +They called to me: "Good-night." I entered the apartment, shut the door, +and remained standing, without moving a single step, holding the wax +candle in my hand. + +I heard laughter and whispering in the corridor. Without doubt they were +spying on me. I cast a glance round the walls, the furniture, the +ceiling, the hangings, the floor. I saw nothing to justify suspicion. +I heard persons moving about outside my door. I had no doubt they were +looking through the keyhole. + +An idea came into my head: "My candle may suddenly go out and leave me in +darkness." + +Then I went across to the mantelpiece and lighted all the wax candles +that were on it. After that I cast another glance around me without +discovering anything. I advanced with short steps, carefully examining +the apartment. Nothing. I inspected every article, one after the other. +Still nothing. I went over to the window. The shutters, large wooden +shutters, were open. I shut them with great care, and then drew the +curtains, enormous velvet curtains, and placed a chair in front of them, +so as to have nothing to fear from outside. + +Then I cautiously sat down. The armchair was solid. I did not venture +to get into the bed. However, the night was advancing; and I ended by +coming to the conclusion that I was foolish. If they were spying on me, +as I supposed, they must, while waiting for the success of the joke they +had been preparing for me, have been laughing immoderately at my terror. +So I made up my mind to go to bed. But the bed was particularly +suspicious-looking. I pulled at the curtains. They seemed to be secure. + +All the same, there was danger. I was going perhaps to receive a cold +shower both from overhead, or perhaps, the moment I stretched myself out, +to find myself sinking to the floor with my mattress. I searched in my +memory for all the practical jokes of which I ever had experience. And I +did not want to be caught. Ah! certainly not! certainly not! Then I +suddenly bethought myself of a precaution which I considered insured +safety. I caught hold of the side of the mattress gingerly, and very +slowly drew it toward me. It came away, followed by the sheet and the +rest of the bedclothes. I dragged all these objects into the very middle +of the room, facing the entrance door. I made my bed over again as best +I could at some distance from the suspected bedstead and the corner which +had filled me with such anxiety. Then I extinguished all the candles, +and, groping my way, I slipped under the bed clothes. + +For at least another hour I remained awake, starting at the slightest +sound. Everything seemed quiet in the chateau. I fell asleep. + +I must have been in a deep sleep for a long time, but all of a sudden I +was awakened with a start by the fall of a heavy body tumbling right on +top of my own, and, at the same time, I received on my face, on my neck, +and on my chest a burning liquid which made me utter a howl of pain. And +a dreadful noise, as if a sideboard laden with plates and dishes had +fallen down, almost deafened me. + +I was smothering beneath the weight that was crushing me and preventing +me from moving. I stretched out my hand to find out what was the nature +of this object. I felt a face, a nose, and whiskers. Then, with all my +strength, I launched out a blow at this face. But I immediately received +a hail of cuffings which made me jump straight out of the soaked sheets, +and rush in my nightshirt into the corridor, the door of which I found +open. + +Oh, heavens! it was broad daylight. The noise brought my friends +hurrying into my apartment, and we found, sprawling over my improvised +bed, the dismayed valet, who, while bringing me my morning cup of tea, +had tripped over this obstacle in the middle of the floor and fallen on +his stomach, spilling my breakfast over my face in spite of himself. + +The precautions I had taken in closing the shutters and going to sleep in +the middle of the room had only brought about the practical joke I had +been trying to avoid. + +Oh, how they all laughed that day! + + + + + + +A PORTRAIT + +Hello! there's Milial!" said somebody near me. I looked at the man who +had been pointed out as I had been wishing for a long time to meet this +Don Juan. + +He was no longer young. His gray hair looked a little like those fur +bonnets worn by certain Northern peoples, and his long beard, which fell +down over his chest, had also somewhat the appearance of fur. He was +talking to a lady, leaning toward her, speaking in a low voice and +looking at her with an expression full of respect and tenderness. + +I knew his life, or at least as much as was known of it. He had loved +madly several times, and there had been certain tragedies with which his +name had been connected. When I spoke to women who were the loudest in +his praise, and asked them whence came this power, they always answered, +after thinking for a while: "I don't know--he has a certain charm about +him." + +He was certainly not handsome. He had none of the elegance that we +ascribe to conquerors of feminine hearts. I wondered what might be his +hid den charm. Was it mental? I never had heard of a clever saying of +his. In his glance? Perhaps. Or in his voice? The voices of some +beings have a certain irresistible attraction, almost suggesting the +flavor of things good to eat. One is hungry for them, and the sound of +their words penetrates us like a dainty morsel. A friend was passing. +I asked him: "Do you know Monsieur Milial?" + +"Yes." + +"Introduce us." + +A minute later we were shaking hands and talking in the doorway. What he +said was correct, agreeable to hear; it contained no irritable thought. +The voice was sweet, soft, caressing, musical; but I had heard others +much more attractive, much more moving. One listened to him with +pleasure, just as one would look at a pretty little brook. No tension of +the mind was necessary in order to follow him, no hidden meaning aroused +curiosity, no expectation awoke interest. His conversation was rather +restful, but it did not awaken in one either a desire to answer, to +contradict or to approve, and it was as easy to answer him as it was to +listen to him. The response came to the lips of its own accord, as soon +as he had finished talking, and phrases turned toward him as if he had +naturally aroused them. + +One thought soon struck me. I had known him for a quarter of an hour, +and it seemed as if he were already one of my old friends, that I had +known all about him for a long time; his face, his gestures, his voice, +his ideas. Suddenly, after a few minutes of conversation, he seemed +already to be installed in my intimacy. All constraint disappeared +between us, and, had he so desired, I might have confided in him as one +confides only in old friends. + +Certainly there was some mystery about him. Those barriers that are +closed between most people and that are lowered with time when sympathy, +similar tastes, equal intellectual culture and constant intercourse +remove constraint--those barriers seemed not to exist between him and me, +and no doubt this was the case between him and all people, both men and +women, whom fate threw in his path. + +After half an hour we parted, promising to see each other often, and he +gave me his address after inviting me to take luncheon with him in two +days. + +I forgot what hour he had stated, and I arrived too soon; he was not yet +home. A correct and silent domestic showed me into a beautiful, quiet, +softly lighted parlor. I felt comfortable there, at home. How often I +have noticed the influence of apartments on the character and on the +mind! There are some which make one feel foolish; in others, on the +contrary, one always feels lively. Some make us sad, although well +lighted and decorated in light-colored furniture; others cheer us up, +although hung with sombre material. Our eye, like our heart, has its +likes and dislikes, of which it does not inform us, and which it secretly +imposes on our temperament. The harmony of furniture, walls, the style +of an ensemble, act immediately on our mental state, just as the air from +the woods, the sea or the mountains modifies our physical natures. + +I sat down on a cushion-covered divan and felt myself suddenly carried +and supported by these little silk bags of feathers, as if the outline of +my body had been marked out beforehand on this couch. + +Then I looked about. There was nothing striking about the room; every- +where were beautiful and modest things, simple and rare furniture, +Oriental curtains which did not seem to come from a department store but +from the interior of a harem; and exactly opposite me hung the portrait +of a woman. It was a portrait of medium size, showing the head and the +upper part of the body, and the hands, which were holding a book. She +was young, bareheaded; ribbons were woven in her hair; she was smiling +sadly. Was it because she was bareheaded, was it merely her natural +expression? I never have seen a portrait of a lady which seemed so much +in its place as that one in that dwelling. Of all those I knew I have +seen nothing like that one. All those that I know are on exhibition, +whether the lady be dressed in her gaudiest gown, with an attractive +headdress and a look which shows that she is posing first of all before +the artist and then before those who will look at her or whether they +have taken a comfortable attitude in an ordinary gown. Some are standing +majestically in all their beauty, which is not at all natural to them in +life. All of them have something, a flower or, a jewel, a crease in the +dress or a curve of the lip, which one feels to have been placed there +for effect by the artist. Whether they wear a hat or merely their hair +one can immediately notice that they are not entirely natural. Why? +One cannot say without knowing them, but the effect is there. They seem +to be calling somewhere, on people whom they wish to please and to whom +they wish to appear at their best advantage; and they have studied their +attitudes, sometimes modest, Sometimes haughty. + +What could one say about this one? She was at home and alone. Yes, she +was alone, for she was smiling as one smiles when thinking in solitude of +something sad or sweet, and not as one smiles when one is being watched. +She seemed so much alone and so much at home that she made the whole +large apartment seem absolutely empty. She alone lived in it, filled it, +gave it life. Many people might come in and converse, laugh, even sing; +she would still be alone with a solitary smile, and she alone would give +it life with her pictured gaze. + +That look also was unique. It fell directly on me, fixed and caressing, +without seeing me. All portraits know that they are being watched, and +they answer with their eyes, which see, think, follow us without leaving +us, from the very moment we enter the apartment they inhabit. This one +did not see me; it saw nothing, although its look was fixed directly on +me. I remembered the surprising verse of Baudelaire: + +And your eyes, attractive as those of a portrait. + +They did indeed attract me in an irresistible manner; those painted eyes +which had lived, or which were perhaps still living, threw over me a +strange, powerful spell. Oh, what an infinite and tender charm, like a +passing breeze, like a dying sunset of lilac rose and blue, a little sad +like the approaching night, which comes behind the sombre frame and out +of those impenetrable eyes! Those eyes, created by a few strokes from a +brush, hide behind them the mystery of that which seems to be and which +does not exist, which can appear in the eyes of a woman, which can make +love blossom within us. + +The door opened and M. Milial entered. He excused himself for being +late. I excused myself for being ahead of time. Then I said: "Might I +ask you who is this lady?" + +He answered: "That is my mother. She died very young." + +Then I understood whence came the inexplicable attraction of this man. + + + + + + +THE DRUNKARD + +The north wind was blowing a hurricane, driving through the sky big, +black, heavy clouds from which the rain poured down on the earth with +terrific violence. + +A high sea was raging and dashing its huge, slow, foamy waves along the +coast with the rumbling sound of thunder. The waves followed each other +close, rolling in as high as mountains, scattering the foam as they +broke. + +The storm engulfed itself in the little valley of Yport, whistling and +moaning, tearing the shingles from the roofs, smashing the shutters, +knocking down the chimneys, rushing through the narrow streets in such +gusts that one could walk only by holding on to the walls, and children +would have been lifted up like leaves and carried over the houses into +the fields. + +The fishing smacks had been hauled high up on land, because at high tide +the sea would sweep the beach. Several sailors, sheltered behind the +curved bottoms of their boats, were watching this battle of the sky and +the sea. + +Then, one by one, they went away, for night was falling on the storm, +wrapping in shadows the raging ocean and all the battling elements. + +Just two men remained, their hands plunged deep into their pockets, +bending their backs beneath the squall, their woolen caps pulled down +over their ears; two big Normandy fishermen, bearded, their skin tanned +through exposure, with the piercing black eyes of the sailor who looks +over the horizon like a bird of prey. + +One of them was saying: + +"Come on, Jeremie, let's go play dominoes. It's my treat." + +The other hesitated a while, tempted on one hand by the game and the +thought of brandy, knowing well that, if he went to Paumelle's, he would +return home drunk; held back, on the other hand, by the idea of his wife +remaining alone in the house. + +He asked: + +"Any one might think that you had made a bet to get me drunk every night. +Say, what good is it doing you, since it's always you that's treating?" + +Nevertheless he was smiling at the idea of all this brandy drunk at the +expense of another. He was smiling the contented smirk of an avaricious +Norman. + +Mathurin, his friend, kept pulling him by the sleeve. + +"Come on, Jeremie. This isn't the kind of a night to go home without +anything to warm you up. What are you afraid of? Isn't your wife going +to warm your bed for you?" + +Jeremie answered: + +"The other night I couldn't find the door--I had to be fished out of the +ditch in front of the house!" + +He was still laughing at this drunkard's recollection, and he was +unconsciously going toward Paumelle's Cafe, where a light was shining in +the window; he was going, pulled by Mathurin and pushed by the wind, +unable to resist these combined forces. + +The low room was full of sailors, smoke and noise. All these men, clad +in woolens, their elbows on the tables, were shouting to make themselves +heard. The more people came in, the more one had to shout in order to +overcome the noise of voices and the rattling of dominoes on the marble +tables. + +Jeremie and Mathurin sat down in a corner and began a game, and the +glasses were emptied in rapid succession into their thirsty throats. + +Then they played more games and drank more glasses. Mathurin kept +pouring and winking to the saloon keeper, a big, red-faced man, who +chuckled as though at the thought of some fine joke; and Jeremie kept +absorbing alcohol and wagging his head, giving vent to a roar of laughter +and looking at his comrade with a stupid and contented expression. + +All the customers were going away. Every time that one of them would +open the door to leave a gust of wind would blow into the cafe, making +the tobacco smoke swirl around, swinging the lamps at the end of their +chains and making their flames flicker, and suddenly one could hear the +deep booming of a breaking wave and the moaning of the wind. + +Jeremie, his collar unbuttoned, was taking drunkard's poses, one leg +outstretched, one arm hanging down and in the other hand holding a +domino. + +They were alone now with the owner, who had come up to them, interested. + +He asked: + +"Well, Jeremie, how goes it inside? Feel less thirsty after wetting your +throat?" + +Jeremie muttered: + +"The more I wet it, the drier it gets inside." + +The innkeeper cast a sly glance at Mathurin. He said: + +"And your brother, Mathurin, where's he now?" + +The sailor laughed silently: + +"Don't worry; he's warm, all right." + +And both of them looked toward Jeremie, who was triumphantly putting down +the double six and announcing: + +"Game!" + +Then the owner declared: + +"Well, boys, I'm goin' to bed. I will leave you the lamp and the bottle; +there's twenty cents' worth in it. Lock the door when you go, Mathurin, +and slip the key under the mat the way you did the other night." + +Mathurin answered: + +"Don't worry; it'll be all right." + +Paumelle shook hands with his two customers and slowly went up the wooden +stairs. For several minutes his heavy step echoed through the little +house. Then a loud creaking announced that he had got into bed. + +The two men continued to play. From time to time a more violent gust of +wind would shake the whole house, and the two drinkers would look up, as +though some one were about to enter. Then Mathurin would take the bottle +and fill Jeremie's glass. But suddenly the clock over the bar struck +twelve. Its hoarse clang sounded like the rattling of saucepans. Then +Mathurin got up like a sailor whose watch is over. + +"Come on, Jeremie, we've got to get out." + +The other man rose to his feet with difficulty, got his balance by +leaning on the table, reached the door and opened it while his companion +was putting out the light. + +As soon as they were in the street Mathurin locked the door and then +said: + +"Well, so long. See you to-morrow night!" + +And he disappeared in the darkness. + +Jeremie took a few steps, staggered, stretched out his hands, met a wall +which supported him and began to stumble along. From time to time a gust +of wind would sweep through the street, pushing him forward, making him +run for a few steps; then, when the wind would die down, he would stop +short, having lost his impetus, and once more he would begin to stagger +on his unsteady drunkard's legs. + +He went instinctively toward his home, just as birds go to their nests. +Finally he recognized his door, and began to feel about for the keyhole +and tried to put the key in it. Not finding the hole, he began to swear. +Then he began to beat on the door with his fists, calling for his wife to +come and help him: + +"Melina! Oh, Melina!" + +As he leaned against the door for support, it gave way and opened, and +Jeremie, losing his prop, fell inside, rolling on his face into the +middle of his room, and he felt something heavy pass over him and escape +in the night. + +He was no longer moving, dazed by fright, bewildered, fearing the devil, +ghosts, all the mysterious beings of darkness, and he waited a long time +without daring to move. But when he found out that nothing else was +moving, a little reason returned to him, the reason of a drunkard. + +Gently he sat up. Again he waited a long time, and at last, growing +bolder, he called: + +"Melina!" + +His wife did not answer. + +Then, suddenly, a suspicion crossed his darkened mind, an indistinct, +vague suspicion. He was not moving; he was sitting there in the dark, +trying to gather together his scattered wits, his mind stumbling over +incomplete ideas, just as his feet stumbled along. + +Once more he asked: + +"Who was it, Melina? Tell me who it was. I won't hurt you!" + +He waited, no voice was raised in the darkness. He was now reasoning +with himself out loud. + +"I'm drunk, all right! I'm drunk! And he filled me up, the dog; he did +it, to stop my goin' home. I'm drunk!" + +And he would continue: + +"Tell me who it was, Melina, or somethin'll happen to you." + +After having waited again, he went on with the slow and obstinate logic +of a drunkard: + +"He's been keeping me at that loafer Paumelle's place every night, so as +to stop my going home. It's some trick. Oh, you damned carrion!" + +Slowly he got on his knees. A blind fury was gaining possession of him, +mingling with the fumes of alcohol. + +He continued: + +"Tell me who it was, Melina, or you'll get a licking--I warn you!" + +He was now standing, trembling with a wild fury, as though the alcohol +had set his blood on fire. He took a step, knocked against a chair, +seized it, went on, reached the bed, ran his hands over it and felt the +warm body of his wife. + +Then, maddened, he roared: + +"So! You were there, you piece of dirt, and you wouldn't answer!" + +And, lifting the chair, which he was holding in his strong sailor's grip, +he swung it down before him with an exasperated fury. A cry burst from +the bed, an agonizing, piercing cry. Then he began to thrash around like +a thresher in a barn. And soon nothing more moved. The chair was broken +to pieces, but he still held one leg and beat away with it, panting. + +At last he stopped to ask: + +"Well, are you ready to tell me who it was?" + +Melina did not answer. + +Then tired out, stupefied from his exertion, he stretched himself out on +the ground and slept. + +When day came a neighbor, seeing the door open, entered. He saw Jeremie +snoring on the floor, amid the broken pieces of a chair, and on the bed a +pulp of flesh and blood. + + + + + + +THE WARDROBE + +As we sat chatting after dinner, a party of men, the conversation turned +on women, for lack of something else. + +One of us said: + +"Here's a funny thing that happened to me on, that very subject." And he +told us the following story: + +One evening last winter I suddenly felt overcome by that overpowering +sense of misery and languor that takes possession of one from time to +time. I was in my own apartment, all alone, and I was convinced that if +I gave in to my feelings I should have a terrible attack of melancholia, +one of those attacks that lead to suicide when they recur too often. + +I put on my overcoat and went out without the slightest idea of what I +was going to do. Having gone as far as the boulevards, I began to wander +along by the almost empty cafes. It was raining, a fine rain that +affects your mind as it does your clothing, not one of those good +downpours which come down in torrents, driving breathless passers-by into +doorways, but a rain without drops that deposits on your clothing an +imperceptible spray and soon covers you with a sort of iced foam that +chills you through. + +What should I do? I walked in one direction and then came back, looking +for some place where I could spend two hours, and discovering for the +first time that there is no place of amusement in Paris in the evening. +At last I decided to go to the Folies-Bergere, that entertaining resort +for gay women. + +There were very few people in the main hall. In the long horseshoe curve +there were only a few ordinary looking people, whose plebeian origin was +apparent in their manners, their clothes, the cut of their hair and +beard, their hats, their complexion. It was rarely that one saw from +time to time a man whom you suspected of having washed himself +thoroughly, and his whole make-up seemed to match. As for the women, +they were always the same, those frightful women you all know, ugly, +tired looking, drooping, and walking along in their lackadaisical manner, +with that air of foolish superciliousness which they assume, I do not +know why. + +I thought to myself that, in truth, not one of those languid creatures, +greasy rather than fat, puffed out here and thin there, with the contour +of a monk and the lower extremities of a bow-legged snipe, was worth the +louis that they would get with great difficulty after asking five. + +But all at once I saw a little creature whom I thought attractive, not in +her first youth, but fresh, comical and tantalizing. I stopped her, and +stupidly, without thinking, I made an appointment with her for that +night. I did not want to go back to my own home alone, all alone; +I preferred the company and the caresses of this hussy. + +And I followed her. She lived in a great big house in the Rue des +Martyrs. The gas was already extinguished on the stairway. I ascended +the steps slowly, lighting a candle match every few seconds, stubbing my +foot against the steps, stumbling and angry as I followed the rustle of +the skirt ahead of me. + +She stopped on the fourth floor, and having closed the outer door she +said: + +"Then you will stay till to-morrow?" + +"Why, yes. You know that that was the agreement." + +"All right, my dear, I just wanted to know. Wait for me here a minute, I +will be right back." + +And she left me in the darkness. I heard her shutting two doors and then +I thought I heard her talking. I was surprised and uneasy. The thought +that she had a protector staggered me. But I have good fists and a solid +back. "We shall see," I said to myself. + +I listened attentively with ear and mind. Some one was stirring about, +walking quietly and very carefully. Then another door was opened and I +thought I again heard some one talking, but in a very low tone. + +She came back carrying a lighted candle. + +"You may come in," she said. + +She said "thou" in speaking to me, which was an indication of possession. +I went in and after passing through a dining room in which it was very +evident that no one ever ate, I entered a typical room of all these +women, a furnished room with red curtains and a soiled eiderdown bed +covering. + +"Make yourself at home, 'mon chat'," she said. + +I gave a suspicious glance at the room, but there seemed no reason for +uneasiness. + +As she took off her wraps she began to laugh. + +"Well, what ails you? Are you changed into a pillar of salt? Come, +hurry up." + +I did as she suggested. + +Five minutes later I longed to put on my things and get away. But this +terrible languor that had overcome me at home took possession of me +again, and deprived me of energy enough to move and I stayed in spite of +the disgust that I felt for this association. The unusual attractiveness +that I supposed I had discovered in this creature over there under the +chandeliers of the theater had altogether vanished on closer +acquaintance, and she was nothing more to me now than a common woman, +like all the others, whose indifferent and complaisant kiss smacked of +garlic. + +I thought I would say something. + +"Have you lived here long?" I asked. + +"Over six months on the fifteenth of January." + +"Where were you before that?" + +"In the Rue Clauzel. But the janitor made me very uncomfortable and I +left." + +And she began to tell me an interminable story of a janitor who had +talked scandal about her. + +But, suddenly, I heard something moving quite close to us. First there +was a sigh, then a slight, but distinct, sound as if some one had turned +round on a chair. + +I sat up abruptly and asked. + +"What was that noise?" + +She answered quietly and confidently: + +"Do not be uneasy, my dear boy, it is my neighbor. The partition is so +thin that one can hear everything as if it were in the room. These are +wretched rooms, just like pasteboard." + +I felt so lazy that I paid no further attention to it. We resumed our +conversation. Driven by the stupid curiosity that prompts all men to +question these creatures about their first experiences, to attempt to +lift the veil of their first folly, as though to find in them a trace of +pristine innocence, to love them, possibly, in a fleeting memory of their +candor and modesty of former days, evoked by a word, I insistently asked +her about her earlier lovers. + +I knew she was telling me lies. What did it matter? Among all these +lies I might, perhaps, discover something sincere and pathetic. + +"Come," said I, "tell me who he was." + +"He was a boating man, my dear." + +"Ah! Tell me about it. Where were you?" + +"I was at Argenteuil." + +"What were you doing?" + +"I was waitress in a restaurant." + +"What restaurant?" + +"'The Freshwater Sailor.' Do you know it?" + +"I should say so, kept by Bonanfan." + +"Yes, that's it." + +"And how did he make love to you, this boating man?" + +"While I was doing his room. He took advantage of me." + +But I suddenly recalled the theory of a friend of mine, an observant and +philosophical physician whom constant attendance in hospitals has brought +into daily contact with girl-mothers and prostitutes, with all the shame +and all the misery of women, of those poor women who have become the +frightful prey of the wandering male with money in his pocket. + +"A woman," he said, "is always debauched by a man of her own class and +position. I have volumes of statistics on that subject. We accuse the +rich of plucking the flower of innocence among the girls of the people. +This is not correct. The rich pay for what they want. They may gather +some, but never for the first time." + +Then, turning to my companion, I began to laugh. + +"You know that I am aware of your history. The boating man was not the +first." + +"Oh, yes, my dear, I swear it:" + +"You are lying, my dear." + +"Oh, no, I assure you." + +"You are lying; come, tell me all." + +She seemed to hesitate in astonishment. I continued: + +"I am a sorcerer, my dear girl, I am a clairvoyant. If you do not tell +me the truth, I will go into a trance sleep and then I can find out." + +She was afraid, being as stupid as all her kind. She faltered: + +"How did you guess?" + +"Come, go on telling me," I said. + +"Oh, the first time didn't amount to anything. + +There was a festival in the country. They had sent for a special chef, +M. Alexandre. As soon as he came he did just as he pleased in the house. +He bossed every one, even the proprietor and his wife, as if he had been +a king. He was a big handsome man, who did not seem fitted to stand +beside a kitchen range. He was always calling out, 'Come, some butter- +some eggs--some Madeira!' And it had to be brought to him at once in a +hurry, or he would get cross and say things that would make us blush all +over. + +"When the day was over he would smoke a pipe outside the door. And as I +was passing by him with a pile of plates he said to me, like that: 'Come, +girlie, come down to the water with me and show me the country.' I went +with him like a fool, and we had hardly got down to the bank of the river +when he took advantage of me so suddenly that I did not even know what he +was doing. And then he went away on the nine o'clock train. I never saw +him again." + +"Is that all?" I asked. + +She hesitated. + +"Oh, I think Florentin belongs to him." + +"Who is Florentin?" + +"My little boy." + +"Oh! Well, then, you made the boating man believe that he was the +father, did you not?" + +"You bet!" + +"Did he have any money, this boating man?" + +"Yes, he left me an income of three hundred francs, settled on +Florentin." + +I was beginning to be amused and resumed: + +"All right, my girl, all right. You are all of you less stupid than one +would imagine, all the same. And how old is he now, Florentin?" + +She replied: + +"He is now twelve. He will make his first communion in the spring." + +"That is splendid. And since then you have carried on your business +conscientiously?" + +She sighed in a resigned manner. + +"I must do what I can." + +But a loud noise just then coming from the room itself made me start up +with a bound. It sounded like some one falling and picking themselves up +again by feeling along the wall with their hands. + +I had seized the candle and was looking about me, terrified and furious. +She had risen also and was trying to hold me back to stop me, murmuring: + +"That's nothing, my dear, I assure you it's nothing." + +But I had discovered what direction the strange noise came from. I +walked straight towards a door hidden at the head of the bed and I opened +it abruptly and saw before me, trembling, his bright, terrified eyes +opened wide at sight of me, a little pale, thin boy seated beside a large +wicker chair off which he had fallen. + +As soon as he saw me he began to cry. Stretching out his arms to his +mother, he cried: + +"It was not my fault, mamma, it was not my fault. I was asleep, and I +fell off. Do not scold me, it was not my fault." + +I turned to the woman and said: + +"What does this mean?" + +She seemed confused and worried, and said in a broken voice: + +"What do you want me to do? I do not earn enough to put him to school! +I have to keep him with me, and I cannot afford to pay for another room, +by heavens! He sleeps with me when I am alone. If any one comes for one +hour or two he can stay in the wardrobe; he keeps quiet, he understands +it. But when people stay all night, as you have done, it tires the poor +child to sleep on a chair. + +It is not his fault. I should like to see you sleep all night on a +chair--you would have something to say." + +She was getting angry and excited and was talking loud. + +The child was still crying. A poor delicate timid little fellow, a +veritable child of the wardrobe, of the cold, dark closet, a child who +from time to time was allowed to get a little warmth in the bed if it +chanced to be unoccupied. + +I also felt inclined to cry. + +And I went home to my own bed. + + + + + + +THE MOUNTAIN POOL + + Saint Agnes, May 6. +MY DEAR FRIEND: +You asked me to write to you often and to tell you in particular about +the things I might see. You also begged me to rummage among my +recollections of travels for some of those little anecdotes gathered from +a chance peasant, from an innkeeper, from some strange traveling +acquaintance, which remain as landmarks in the memory. With a landscape +depicted in a few lines, and a little story told in a few sentences you +think one can give the true characteristics of a country, make it living, +visible, dramatic. I will try to do as you wish. I will, therefore, +send you from time to time letters in which I will mention neither you +nor myself, but only the landscape and the people who move about in it. +And now I will begin. + +Spring is a season in which one ought, it seems to me, to drink and eat +the landscape. It is the season of chills, just as autumn is the season +of reflection. In spring the country rouses the physical senses, in +autumn it enters into the soul. + +I desired this year to breathe the odor of orange blossoms and I set out +for the South of France just at the time that every one else was +returning home. I visited Monaco, the shrine of pilgrims, rival of Mecca +and Jerusalem, without leaving any gold in any one else's pockets, and I +climbed the high mountain beneath a covering of lemon, orange and olive +branches. + +Have you ever slept, my friend, in a grove of orange trees in flower? +The air that one inhales with delight is a quintessence of perfumes. The +strong yet sweet odor, delicious as some dainty, seems to blend with our +being, to saturate us, to intoxicate us, to enervate us, to plunge us +into a sleepy, dreamy torpor. As though it were an opium prepared by the +hands of fairies and not by those of druggists. + +This is a country of ravines. The surface of the mountains is cleft, +hollowed out in all directions, and in these sinuous crevices grow +veritable forests of lemon trees. Here and there where the steep gorge +is interrupted by a sort of step, a kind of reservoir has been built +which holds the water of the rain storms. + +They are large holes with slippery walls with nothing for any one to +grasp hold of should they fall in. + +I was walking slowly in one of these ascending valleys or gorges, +glancing through the foliage at the vivid-hued fruit that remained on the +branches. The narrow gorge made the heavy odor of the flowers still more +penetrating; the air seemed to be dense with it. A feeling of lassitude +came over me and I looked for a place to sit down. A few drops of water +glistened in the grass. I thought that there was a spring near by and I +climbed a little further to look for it. But I only reached the edge of +one of these large, deep reservoirs. + +I sat down tailor fashion, with my legs crossed under me, and remained +there in a reverie before this hole, which looked as if it were filled +with ink, so black and stagnant was the liquid it contained. Down +yonder, through the branches, I saw, like patches, bits of the +Mediterranean gleaming so that they fairly dazzled my eyes. But my +glance always returned to the immense somber well that appeared to be +inhabited by no aquatic animals, so motionless was its surface. +Suddenly a voice made me tremble. An old gentleman who was picking +flowers--this country is the richest in Europe for herbalists--asked me: + +"Are you a relation of those poor children, monsieur?" + +I looked at him in astonishment. + +"What children, monsieur?" + +He seemed embarrassed and answered with a bow: + +"I beg your pardon. On seeing you sitting thus absorbed in front of this +reservoir I thought you were recalling the frightful tragedy that +occurred here." + +Now I wanted to know about it, and I begged him to tell me the story. + +It is very dismal and very heart-rending, my dear friend, and very +trivial at the same time. It is a simple news item. I do not know +whether to attribute my emotion to the dramatic manner in which the story +was told to me, to the setting of the mountains, to the contrast between +the joy of the sunlight and the flowers and this black, murderous hole, +but my heart was wrung, all my nerves unstrung by this tale which, +perhaps, may not appear so terribly harrowing to you as you read it in +your room without having the scene of the tragedy before your eyes. + +It was one spring in recent years. Two little boys frequently came to +play on the edge of this cistern while their tutor lay under a tree +reading a book. One warm afternoon a piercing cry awoke the tutor who +was dozing and the sound of splashing caused by something falling into +the water made him jump to his feet abruptly. The younger of the +children, eight years of age, was shouting, as he stood beside the +reservoir, the surface of which was stirred and eddying at the spot where +the older boy had fallen in as he ran along the stone coping. + +Distracted, without waiting or stopping to think what was best to do, the +tutor jumped into the black water and did not rise again, having struck +his head at the bottom of the cistern. + +At the same moment the young boy who had risen to the surface was waving +his stretched-out arms toward his brother. The little fellow on land lay +down full length, while the other tried to swim, to approach the wall, +and presently the four little hands clasped each other, tightened in each +other's grasp, contracted as though they were fastened together. They +both felt the intense joy of an escape from death, a shudder at the +danger past. + +The older boy tried to climb up to the edge, but could not manage it, as +the wall was perpendicular, and his brother, who was too weak, was +sliding slowly towards the hole. + +Then they remained motionless, filled anew with terror. And they waited. + +The little fellow squeezed his brother's hands with all his might and +wept from nervousness as he repeated: "I cannot drag you out, I cannot +drag you out." And all at once he began to shout, "Help! Help!" But his +light voice scarcely penetrated beyond the dome of foliage above their +heads. + +They remained thus a long time, hours and hours, facing each other, these +two children, with one thought, one anguish of heart and the horrible +dread that one of them, exhausted, might let go the hands of the other. +And they kept on calling, but all in vain. + +At length the older boy, who was shivering with cold, said to the little +one: "I cannot hold out any longer. I am going to fall. Good-by, little +brother." And the other, gasping, replied: "Not yet, not yet, wait." + +Evening came on, the still evening with its stars mirrored in the water. +The older lad, his endurance giving out, said: "Let go my hand, I am +going to give you my watch." He had received it as a present a few days +before, and ever since it had been his chief amusement. He was able to +get hold of it, and held it out to the little fellow who was sobbing and +who laid it down on the grass beside him. + +It was night now. The two unhappy beings, exhausted, had almost loosened +their grasp. The elder, at last, feeling that he was lost, murmured once +more: "Good-by, little brother, kiss mamma and papa." And his numbed +fingers relaxed their hold. He sank and did not rise again . . . . +The little fellow, left alone, began to shout wildly: "Paul! Paul!" But +the other did not come to the surface. + +Then he darted across the mountain, falling among the stones, overcome by +the most frightful anguish that can wring a child's heart, and with a +face like death reached the sitting-room, where his parents were waiting. +He became bewildered again as he led them to the gloomy reservoir. He +could not find his way. At last he reached the spot. "It is there; yes, +it is there!" + +But the cistern had to be emptied, and the proprietor would not permit it +as he needed the water for his lemon trees. + +The two bodies were found, however, but not until the next day. + +You see, my dear friend, that this is a simple news item. But if you had +seen the hole itself your heart would have been wrung, as mine was, at +the thought of the agony of that child hanging to his brother's hands, of +the long suspense of those little chaps who were accustomed only to laugh +and to play, and at the simple incident of the giving of the watch. + +I said to myself: "May Fate preserve me from ever receiving a similar +relic!" I know of nothing more terrible than such a recollection +connected with a familiar object that one cannot dispose of. Only think +of it; each time that he handles this sacred watch the survivor will +picture once more the horrible scene; the pool, the wall, the still +water, and the distracted face of his brother-alive, and yet as lost as +though he were already dead. And all through his life, at any moment, +the vision will be there, awakened the instant even the tip of his finger +touches his watch pocket. + +And I was sad until evening. I left the spot and kept on climbing, +leaving the region of orange trees for the region of olive trees, and the +region of olive trees for the region of pines; then I came to a valley of +stones, and finally reached the ruins of an ancient castle, built, they +say, in the tenth century by a Saracen chief, a good man, who was +baptized a Christian through love for a young girl. Everywhere around me +were mountains, and before me the sea, the sea with an almost +imperceptible patch on it: Corsica, or, rather, the shadow of Corsica. +But on the mountain summits, blood-red in the glow of the sunset, in the +boundless sky and on the sea, in all this superb landscape that I had +come here to admire I saw only two poor children, one lying prone on the +edge of a hole filled with black water, the other submerged to his neck, +their hands intertwined, weeping opposite each other, in despair. +And it seemed as though I continually heard a weak, exhausted voice +saying: "Good-by, little brother, I am going to give you my watch." + +This letter may seem rather melancholy, dear friend. I will try to be +more cheerful some other day. + + + + + + +A CREMATION + +Last Monday an Indian prince died at Etretat, Bapu Sahib Khanderao +Ghatay, a relation of His Highness, the Maharajah Gaikwar, prince of +Baroda, in the province of Guzerat, Presidency of Bombay. + +For about three weeks there had been seen walking in the streets about +ten young East Indians, small, lithe, with dark skins, dressed all in +gray and wearing on their heads caps such as English grooms wear. They +were men of high rank who had come to Europe to study the military +institutions of the principal Western nations. The little band consisted +of three princes, a nobleman, an interpreter and three servants. + +The head of the commission had just died, an old man of forty-two and +father-in-law of Sampatro Kashivao Gaikwar, brother of His Highness, the +Gaikwar of Baroda. + +The son-in-law accompanied his father-in-law. + +The other East Indians were called Ganpatrao Shravanrao Gaikwar, cousin +of His Highness Khasherao Gadhav; Vasudev Madhav Samarth, interpreter and +secretary; the slaves: Ramchandra Bajaji, Ganu bin Pukiram Kokate, +Rhambhaji bin Fabji. + +On leaving his native land the one who died recently was overcome with +terrible grief, and feeling convinced that he would never return he +wished to give up the journey, but he had to obey the wishes of his noble +relative, the Prince of Baroda, and he set out. + +They came to spend the latter part of the summer at Etretat, and people +would go out of curiosity every morning to see them taking their bath at +the Etablissment des Roches-Blanches. + +Five or six days ago Bapu Sahib Khanderao Ghatay was taken with pains in +his gums; then the inflammation spread to the throat and became +ulceration. Gangrene set in and, on Monday, the doctors told his young +friends that their relative was dying. The final struggle was already +beginning, and the breath had almost left the unfortunate man's body when +his friends seized him, snatched him from his bed and laid him on the +stone floor of the room, so that, stretched out on the earth, our mother, +he should yield up his soul, according to the command of Brahma. + +They then sent to ask the mayor, M. Boissaye, for a permit to burn the +body that very day so as to fulfill the prescribed ceremonial of the +Hindoo religion. The mayor hesitated, telegraphed to the prefecture to +demand instructions, at the same time sending word that a failure to +reply would be considered by him tantamount to a consent. As he had +received no reply at 9 o'clock that evening, he decided, in view of the +infectious character of the disease of which the East Indian had died, +that the cremation of the body should take place that very night, beneath +the cliff, on the beach, at ebb tide. + +The mayor is being criticized now for this decision, though he acted as +an intelligent, liberal and determined man, and was upheld and advised by +the three physicians who had watched the case and reported the death. + +They were dancing at the Casino that evening. It was an early autumn +evening, rather chilly. A pretty strong wind was blowing from the ocean, +although as yet there was no sea on, and swift, light, ragged clouds were +driving across the sky. They came from the edge of the horizon, looking +dark against the background of the sky, but as they approached the moon +they grew whiter and passed hurriedly across her face, veiling it for a +few seconds without completely hiding it. + +The tall,, straight cliffs that inclose the rounded beach of Etretat and +terminate in two celebrated arches, called "the Gates," lay in shadow, +and made two great black patches in the softly lighted landscape. + +It had rained all day. + +The Casino orchestra was playing waltzes, polkas and quadrilles. A rumor +was presently circulated among the groups of dancers. It was said that +an East Indian prince had just died at the Hotel des Bains and that the +ministry had been approached for permission to burn the body. No one +believed it, or at least no one supposed that such a thing could occur so +foreign was the custom as yet to our customs, and as the night was far +advanced every one went home. + +At midnight, the lamplighter, running from street to street, +extinguished, one after another, the yellow jets of flame that lighted up +the sleeping houses, the mud and the puddles of water. We waited, +watching for the hour when the little town should be quiet and deserted. + +Ever since noon a carpenter had been cutting up wood and asking himself +with amazement what was going to be done with all these planks sawn up +into little bits, and why one should destroy so much good merchandise. +This wood was piled up in a cart which went along through side streets as +far as the beach, without arousing the suspicion of belated persons who +might meet it. It went along on the shingle at the foot of the cliff, +and having dumped its contents on the beach the three Indian servants +began to build a funeral pile, a little longer than it was wide. They +worked alone, for no profane hand must aid in this solemn duty. + +It was one o'clock in the morning when the relations of the deceased were +informed that they might accomplish their part of the work. + +The door of the little house they occupied was open, and we perceived, +lying on a stretcher in the small, dimly lighted vestibule the corpse +covered with white silk. We could see him plainly as he lay stretched +out on his back, his outline clearly defined beneath this white veil. + +The East Indians, standing at his feet, remained motionless, while one of +them performed the prescribed rites, murmuring unfamiliar words in a low, +monotonous tone. He walked round and round the corpse; touching it +occasionally, then, taking an urn suspended from three slender chains, he +sprinkled it for some time with the sacred water of the Ganges, that East +Indians must always carry with them wherever they go. + +Then the stretcher was lifted by four of them who started off at a slow +march. The moon had gone down, leaving the muddy, deserted streets in +darkness, but the body on the stretcher appeared to be luminous, so +dazzlingly white was the silk, and it was a weird sight to see, passing +along through the night, the semi-luminous form of this corpse, borne by +those men, the dusky skin of whose faces and hands could scarcely be +distinguished from their clothing in the darkness. + +Behind the corpse came three Indians, and then, a full head taller than +themselves and wrapped in an ample traveling coat of a soft gray color, +appeared the outline of an Englishman, a kind and superior man, a friend +of theirs, who was their guide and counselor in their European travels. + +Beneath the cold, misty sky of this little northern beach I felt as if I +were taking part in a sort of symbolical drama. It seemed to me that +they were carrying there, before me, the conquered genius of India, +followed, as in a funeral procession, by the victorious genius of England +robed in a gray ulster. + +On the shingly beach the four bearers halted a few moments to take +breath, and then proceeded on their way. They now walked quickly, +bending beneath the weight of their burden. At length they reached the +funeral pile. It was erected in an indentation, at the very foot of the +cliff, which rose above it perpendicularly a hundred meters high, +perfectly white but looking gray in the night. + +The funeral pile was about three and a half feet high. The corpse was +placed on it and then one of the Indians asked to have the pole star +pointed out to him. This was done, and the dead Rajah was laid with his +feet turned towards his native country. Then twelve bottles of kerosene +were poured over him and he was covered completely with thin slabs of +pine wood. For almost another hour the relations and servants kept +piling up the funeral pyre which looked like one of those piles of wood +that carpenters keep in their yards. Then on top of this was poured the +contents of twenty bottles of oil, and on top of all they emptied a bag +of fine shavings. A few steps further on, a flame was glimmering in a +little bronze brazier, which had remained lighted since the arrival of +the corpse. + +The moment had arrived. The relations went to fetch the fire. As it was +barely alight, some oil was poured on it, and suddenly a flame arose +lighting up the great wall of rock from summit to base. An Indian who +was leaning over the brazier rose upright, his two hands in the air, his +elbows bent, and all at once we saw arising, all black on the immense +white cliff, a colossal shadow, the shadow of Buddha in his hieratic +posture. And the little pointed toque that the man wore on his head even +looked like the head-dress of the god. + +The effect was so striking and unexpected that I felt my heart beat as +though some supernatural apparition had risen up before me. + +That was just what it was--the ancient and sacred image, come from the +heart of the East to the ends of Europe, and watching over its son whom +they were going to cremate there. + +It vanished. They brought fire. The shavings on top of the pyre were +lighted and then the wood caught fire and a brilliant light illumined the +cliff, the shingle and the foam of the waves as they broke on the beach. + +It grew brighter from second to second, lighting up on the sea in the +distance the dancing crest of the waves. + +The breeze from the ocean blew in gusts, increasing the heat of the flame +which flattened down, twisted, then shot up again, throwing out millions +of sparks. They mounted with wild rapidity along the cliff and were lost +in the sky, mingling with the stars, increasing their number. Some sea +birds who had awakened uttered their plaintive cry, and, describing long +curves, flew, with their white wings extended, through the gleam from the +funeral pyre and then disappeared in the night. + +Before long the pile of wood was nothing but a mass of flame, not red but +yellow, a blinding yellow, a furnace lashed by the wind. And, suddenly, +beneath a stronger gust, it tottered, partially crumbling as it leaned +towards the sea, and the corpse came to view, full length, blackened on +his couch of flame and burning with long blue flames: + +The pile of wood having crumbled further on the right the corpse turned +over as a man does in bed. They immediately covered him with fresh wood +and the fire started up again more furiously than ever. + +The East Indians, seated in a semi-circle on the shingle, looked out with +sad, serious faces. And the rest of us, as it was very cold, had drawn +nearer to the fire until the smoke and sparks came in our faces. There +was no odor save that of burning pine and petroleum. + +Hours passed; day began to break. Toward five o'clock in the morning +nothing remained but a heap of ashes. The relations gathered them up, +cast some of them to the winds, some in the sea, and kept some in a brass +vase that they had brought from India. They then retired to their home +to give utterance to lamentations. + +These young princes and their servants, by the employment of the most +inadequate appliances succeeded in carrying out the cremation of their +relation in the most perfect manner, with singular skill and remarkable +dignity. Everything was done according to ritual, according to the rigid +ordinances of their religion. Their dead one rests in peace. + +The following morning at daybreak there was an indescribable commotion in +Etretat. Some insisted that they had burned a man alive, others that +they were trying to hide a crime, some that the mayor would be put in +jail, others that the Indian prince had succumbed to an attack of +cholera. + +The men were amazed, the women indignant. A crowd of people spent the +day on the site of the funeral pile, looking for fragments of bone in the +shingle that was still warm. They found enough bones to reconstruct ten +skeletons, for the farmers on shore frequently throw their dead sheep +into the sea. The finders carefully placed these various fragments in +their pocketbooks. But not one of them possesses a true particle of the +Indian prince. + +That very night a deputy sent by the government came to hold an inquest. +He, however, formed an estimate of this singular case like a man of +intelligence and good sense. But what should he say in his report? + +The East Indians declared that if they had been prevented in France from +cremating their dead they would have taken him to a freer country where +they could have carried out their customs. + +Thus, I have seen a man cremated on a funeral pile, and it has given me a +wish to disappear in the same manner. + +In this way everything ends at once. Man expedites the slow work of +nature, instead of delaying it by the hideous coffin in which one +decomposes for months. The flesh is dead, the spirit has fled. Fire +which purifies disperses in a few hours all that was a human being; it +casts it to the winds, converting it into air and ashes, and not into +ignominious corruption. + +This is clean and hygienic. Putrefaction beneath the ground in a closed +box where the body becomes like pap, a blackened, stinking pap, has about +it something repugnant and disgusting. The sight of the coffin as it +descends into this muddy hole wrings one's heart with anguish. But the +funeral pyre which flames up beneath the sky has about it something +grand, beautiful and solemn. + + + + + + +MISTI + +I was very much interested at that time in a droll little woman. She was +married, of course, as I have a horror of unmarried flirts. What +enjoyment is there in making love to a woman who belongs to nobody and +yet belongs to any one? And, besides, morality aside, I do not +understand love as a trade. That disgusts me somewhat. + +The especial attraction in a married woman to a bachelor is that she +gives him a home, a sweet, pleasant home where every one takes care of +you and spoils you, from the husband to the servants. One finds +everything combined there, love, friendship, even fatherly interest, bed +and board, all, in fact, that constitutes the happiness of life, with +this incalculable advantage, that one can change one's family from time +to time, take up one's abode in all kinds of society in turn: in summer, +in the country with the workman who rents you a room in his house; in +winter with the townsfolk, or even with the nobility, if one is +ambitious. + +I have another weakness; it is that I become attached to the husband as +well as the wife. I acknowledge even that some husbands, ordinary or +coarse as they may be, give me a feeling of disgust for their wives, +however charming they may be. But when the husband is intellectual or +charming I invariably become very much attached to him. I am careful if +I quarrel with the wife not to quarrel with the husband. In this way I +have made some of my best friends, and have also proved in many cases the +incontestable superiority of the male over the female in the human +species. The latter makes all sorts of trouble-scenes, reproaches, etc.; +while the former, who has just as good a right to complain, treats you, +on the contrary, as though you were the special Providence of his hearth. + +Well, my friend was a quaint little woman, a brunette, fanciful, +capricious, pious, superstitious, credulous as a monk, but charming. +She had a way of kissing one that I never saw in any one else--but that +was not the attraction--and such a soft skin! It gave me intense delight +merely to hold her hands. And an eye--her glance was like a slow caress, +delicious and unending. Sometimes I would lean my head on her knee and +we would remain motionless, she leaning over me with that subtle, +enigmatic, disturbing smile that women have, while my eyes would be +raised to hers, drinking sweetly and deliciously into my heart, like a +form of intoxication, the glance of her limpid blue eyes, limpid as +though they were full of thoughts of love, and blue as though they were a +heaven of delights. + +Her husband, inspector of some large public works, was frequently away +from home and left us our evenings free. Sometimes I spent them with her +lounging on the divan with my forehead on one of her knees; while on the +other lay an enormous black cat called "Misti," whom she adored. Our +fingers would meet on the cat's back and would intertwine in her soft +silky fur. I felt its warm body against my cheek, trembling with its +eternal purring, and occasionally a paw would reach out and place on my +mouth, or my eyelid, five unsheathed claws which would prick my eyelids, +and then be immediately withdrawn. + +Sometimes we would go out on what we called our escapades. They were +very innocent, however. They consisted in taking supper at some inn in +the suburbs, or else, after dining at her house or at mine, in making the +round of the cheap cafes, like students out for a lark. + +We would go into the common drinking places and take our seats at the end +of the smoky den on two rickety chairs, at an old wooden table. A cloud +of pungent smoke, with which blended an odor of fried fish from dinner, +filled the room. Men in smocks were talking in loud tones as they drank +their petits verres, and the astonished waiter placed before us two +cherry brandies. + +She, trembling, charmingly afraid, would raise her double black veil as +far as her nose, and then take up her glass with the enjoyment that one +feels at doing something delightfully naughty. Each cherry she swallowed +made her feel as if she had done something wrong, each swallow of the +burning liquor had on her the affect of a delicate and forbidden +enjoyment. + +Then she would say to me in a low tone: "Let us go." And we would leave, +she walking quickly with lowered head between the drinkers who watched +her going by with a look of displeasure. And as soon as we got into the +street she would give a great sigh of relief, as if we had escaped some +terrible danger. + +Sometimes she would ask me with a shudder: + +"Suppose they, should say something rude to me in those places, what +would you do?" "Why, I would defend you, parbleu!" I would reply in a +resolute manner. And she would squeeze my arm for happiness, perhaps +with a vague wish that she might be insulted and protected, that she +might see men fight on her account, even those men, with me! + +One evening as we sat at a table in a tavern at Montmartre, we saw an old +woman in tattered garments come in, holding in her hand a pack of dirty +cards. Perceiving a lady, the old woman at once approached us and +offered to tell my friend's fortune. Emma, who in her heart believed in +everything, was trembling with longing and anxiety, and she made a place +beside her for the old woman. + +The latter, old, wrinkled, her eyes with red inflamed rings round them, +and her mouth without a single tooth in it, began to deal her dirty cards +on the table. She dealt them in piles, then gathered them up, and then +dealt them out again, murmuring indistinguishable words. Emma, turning +pale, listened with bated breath, gasping with anxiety and curiosity. + +The fortune-teller broke silence. She predicted vague happenings: +happiness and children, a fair young man, a voyage, money, a lawsuit, a +dark man, the return of some one, success, a death. The mention of this +death attracted the younger woman's attention. "Whose death? When? In +what manner?" + +The old woman replied: "Oh, as to that, these cards are not certain +enough. You must come to my place to-morrow; I will tell you about it +with coffee grounds which never make a mistake." + +Emma turned anxiously to me: + +"Say, let us go there to-morrow. Oh, please say yes. If not, you cannot +imagine how worried I shall be." + +I began to laugh. + +"We will go if you wish it, dearie." + +The old woman gave us her address. She lived on the sixth floor, in a +wretched house behind the Buttes-Chaumont. We went there the following +day. + +Her room, an attic containing two chairs and a bed, was filled with +strange objects, bunches of herbs hanging from nails, skins of animals, +flasks and phials containing liquids of various colors. On the table a +stuffed black cat looked out of eyes of glass. He seemed like the demon +of this sinister dwelling. + +Emma, almost fainting with emotion, sat down on a chair and exclaimed: + +"Oh, dear, look at that cat; how like it is to Misti." + +And she explained to the old woman that she had a cat "exactly like that, +exactly like that!" + +The old woman replied gravely: + +"If you are in love with a man, you must not keep it." + +Emma, suddenly filled with fear, asked: + +"Why not?" + +The old woman sat down familiarly beside her and took her hand. + +"It was the undoing of my life," she said. + +My friend wanted to hear about it. She leaned against the old woman, +questioned her, begged her to tell. At length the woman agreed to do so. + +"I loved that cat," she said, "as one would love a brother. I was young +then and all alone, a seamstress. I had only him, Mouton. One of the +tenants had given it to me. He was as intelligent as a child, and gentle +as well, and he worshiped me, my dear lady, he worshiped me more than one +does a fetish. All day long he would sit on my lap purring, and all +night long on my pillow; I could feel his heart beating, in fact. + +"Well, I happened to make an acquaintance, a fine young man who was +working in a white-goods house. That went on for about three months on a +footing of mere friendship. But you know one is liable to weaken, it may +happen to any one, and, besides, I had really begun to love him. He was +so nice, so nice, and so good. He wanted us to live together, for +economy's sake. I finally allowed him to come and see me one evening. I +had not made up my mind to anything definite; oh, no! But I was pleased +at the idea that we should spend an hour together. + +"At first he behaved very well, said nice things to me that made my heart +go pit-a-pat. And then he kissed me, madame, kissed me as one does when +they love. I remained motionless, my eyes closed, in a paroxysm of +happiness. But, suddenly, I felt him start violently and he gave a +scream, a scream that I shall never forget. I opened my eyes and saw +that Mouton had sprung at his face and was tearing the skin with his +claws as if it had been a linen rag. And the blood was streaming down +like rain, madame. + +"I tried to take the cat away, but he held on tight, scratching all the +time; and he bit me, he was so crazy. I finally got him and threw him +out of the window, which was open, for it was summer. + +"When I began to bathe my poor friend's face, I noticed that his eyes +were destroyed, both his eyes! + +"He had to go to the hospital. He died of grief at the end of a year. +I wanted to keep him with me and provide for him, but he would not agree +to it. One would have supposed that he hated me after the occurrence. + +"As for Mouton, his back was broken by the fall, The janitor picked up +his body. I had him stuffed, for in spite of all I was fond of him. +If he acted as he did it was because he loved me, was it not?" + +The old woman was silent and began to stroke the lifeless animal whose +body trembled on its iron framework. + +Emma, with sorrowful heart, had forgotten about the predicted death--or, +at least, she did not allude to it again, and she left, giving the woman +five francs. + +As her husband was to return the following day, I did not go to the house +for several days. When I did go I was surprised at not seeing Misti. +I asked where he was. + +She blushed and replied: + +"I gave him away. I was uneasy." + +I was astonished. + +"Uneasy? Uneasy? What about?" + +She gave me a long kiss and said in a low tone: + +"I was uneasy about your eyes, my dear." + + Misti appeared in. Gil Blas of January 22, 1884, over the signature + of "MAUFRIGNEUSE." + + + + + + +MADAME HERMET + +Crazy people attract me. They live in a mysterious land of weird dreams, +in that impenetrable cloud of dementia where all that they have witnessed +in their previous life, all they have loved, is reproduced for them in an +imaginary existence, outside of all laws that govern the things of this +life and control human thought. + +For them there is no such thing as the impossible, nothing is improbable; +fairyland is a constant quantity and the supernatural quite familiar. +The old rampart, logic; the old wall, reason; the old main stay of +thought, good sense, break down, fall and crumble before their +imagination, set free and escaped into the limitless realm of fancy, and +advancing with fabulous bounds, and nothing can check it. For them +everything happens, and anything may happen. They make no effort to +conquer events, to overcome resistance, to overturn obstacles. By a +sudden caprice of their flighty imagination they become princes, +emperors, or gods, are possessed of all the wealth of the world, all the +delightful things of life, enjoy all pleasures, are always strong, always +beautiful, always young, always beloved! They, alone, can be happy in +this world; for, as far as they are concerned, reality does not exist. +I love to look into their wandering intelligence as one leans over an +abyss at the bottom of which seethes a foaming torrent whose source and +destination are both unknown. + +But it is in vain that we lean over these abysses, for we shall never +discover the source nor the destination of this water. After all, it is +only water, just like what is flowing in the sunlight, and we shall learn +nothing by looking at it. + +It is likewise of no use to ponder over the intelligence of crazy people, +for their most weird notions are, in fact, only ideas that are already +known, which appear strange simply because they are no longer under the +restraint of reason. Their whimsical source surprises us because we do +not see it bubbling up. Doubtless the dropping of a little stone into +the current was sufficient to cause these ebullitions. Nevertheless +crazy people attract me and I always return to them, drawn in spite of +myself by this trivial mystery of dementia. + +One day as I was visiting one of the asylums the physician who was my +guide said: + +"Come, I will show you an interesting case." + +And he opened the door of a cell where a woman of about forty, still +handsome, was seated in a large armchair, looking persistently at her +face in a little hand mirror. + +As soon as she saw us she rose to her feet, ran to the other end of the +room, picked up a veil that lay on a chair, wrapped it carefully round +her face, then came back, nodding her head in reply to our greeting. + +"Well," said the doctor, "how are you this morning?" + +She gave a deep sigh. + +"Oh, ill, monsieur, very ill. The marks are increasing every day." + +He replied in a tone of conviction: + +"Oh, no; oh, no; I assure you that you are mistaken." + +She drew near to him and murmured: + +"No. I am certain of it. I counted ten pittings more this morning, +three on the right cheek, four on the left cheek, and three on the +forehead. It is frightful, frightful! I shall never dare to let any one +see me, not even my son; no, not even him! I am lost, I am disfigured +forever." + +She fell back in her armchair and began to sob. + +The doctor took a chair, sat down beside her, and said soothingly in a +gentle tone: + +"Come, let me see; I assure you it is nothing. With a slight +cauterization I will make it all disappear." + +She shook her head in denial, without speaking. He tried to touch her +veil, but she seized it with both hands so violently that her fingers +went through it. + +He continued to reason with her and reassure her. + +"Come, you know very well that I remove those horrid pits every time and +that there is no trace of them after I have treated them. If you do not +let me see them I cannot cure you." + +"I do not mind your seeing them," she murmured, "but I do not know that +gentleman who is with you." + +"He is a doctor also, who can give you better care than I can." + +She then allowed her face to be uncovered, but her dread, her emotion, +her shame at being seen brought a rosy flush to her face and her neck, +down to the collar of her dress. She cast down her eyes, turned her face +aside, first to the right; then to the left, to avoid our gaze and +stammered out: + +"Oh, it is torture to me to let myself be seen like this! It is +horrible, is it not? Is it not horrible?" + +I looked at her in much surprise, for there was nothing on her face, not +a mark, not a spot, not a sign of one, nor a scar. + +She turned towards me, her eyes still lowered, and said: + +"It was while taking care of my son that I caught this fearful disease, +monsieur. I saved him, but I am disfigured. I sacrificed my beauty to +him, to my poor child. However, I did my duty, my conscience is at rest. +If I suffer it is known only to God." + +The doctor had drawn from his coat pocket a fine water-color paint brush. + +"Let me attend to it," he said, "I will put it all right." + +She held out her right cheek, and he began by touching it lightly with +the brush here and there, as though he were putting little points of +paint on it. He did the same with the left cheek, then with the chin, +and the forehead, and then exclaimed: + +"See, there is nothing there now, nothing at all!" + +She took up the mirror, gazed at her reflection with profound, eager +attention, with a strong mental effort to discover something, then she +sighed: + +"No. It hardly shows at all. I am infinitely obliged to you." + +The doctor had risen. He bowed to her, ushered me out and followed me, +and, as soon as he had locked the door, said: + +"Here is the history of this unhappy woman." + +Her name is Mme. Hermet. She was once very beautiful, a great coquette, +very much beloved and very much in-love with life. + +She was one of those women who have nothing but their beauty and their +love of admiration to sustain, guide or comfort them in this life. The +constant anxiety to retain her freshness, the care of her complexion, of +her hands, her teeth, of every portion of body that was visible, occupied +all her time and all her attention. + +She became a widow, with one son. The boy was brought up as are all +children of society beauties. She was, however, very fond of him. + +He grew up, and she grew older. Whether she saw the fatal crisis +approaching, I cannot say. Did she, like so many others, gaze for hours +and hours at her skin, once so fine, so transparent and free from +blemish, now beginning to shrivel slightly, to be crossed with a thousand +little lines, as yet imperceptible, that will grow deeper day by day, +month by month? Did she also see slowly, but surely, increasing traces +of those long wrinkles on the forehead, those slender serpents that +nothing can check? Did she suffer the torture, the abominable torture of +the mirror, the little mirror with the silver handle which one cannot +make up one's mind to lay down on the table, but then throws down in +disgust only to take it up again in order to look more closely, and still +more closely at the hateful and insidious approaches of old age? Did she +shut herself up ten times, twenty times a day, leaving her friends +chatting in the drawing-room, and go up to her room where, under the +protection of bolts and bars, she would again contemplate the work of +time on her ripe beauty, now beginning to wither, and recognize with +despair the gradual progress of the process which no one else had as yet +seemed to perceive, but of which she, herself, was well aware. She knows +where to seek the most serious, the gravest traces of age. And the +mirror, the little round hand-glass in its carved silver frame, tells her +horrible things; for it speaks, it seems to laugh, it jeers and tells her +all that is going to occur, all the physical discomforts and the +atrocious mental anguish she will suffer until the day of her death, +which will be the day of her deliverance. + +Did she weep, distractedly, on her knees, her forehead to the ground, and +pray, pray, pray to Him who thus slays his creatures and gives them youth +only that he may render old age more unendurable, and lends them beauty +only that he may withdraw it almost immediately? Did she pray to Him, +imploring Him to do for her what He has never yet done for any one, to +let her retain until her last day her charm, her freshness and her +gracefulness? Then, finding that she was imploring in vain an inflexible +Unknown who drives on the years, one after another, did she roll on the +carpet in her room, knocking her head against the furniture and stifling +in her throat shrieks of despair? + +Doubtless she suffered these tortures, for this is what occurred: + +One day (she was then thirty-five) her son aged fifteen, fell ill. + +He took to his bed without any one being able to determine the cause or +nature of his illness. + +His tutor, a priest, watched beside him and hardly ever left him, while +Mme. Hermet came morning and evening to inquire how he was. + +She would come into the room in the morning in her night wrapper, +smiling, all powdered and perfumed, and would ask as she entered the +door: + +"Well, George, are you better?" + +The big boy, his face red, swollen and showing the ravages of fever, +would reply: + +"Yes, little mother, a little better." + +She would stay in the room a few seconds, look at the bottles of +medicine, and purse her lips as if she were saying "phew," and then would +suddenly exclaim: "Oh, I forgot something very important," and would run +out of the room leaving behind her a fragrance of choice toilet perfumes. + +In the evening she would appear in a decollete dress, in a still greater +hurry, for she was always late, and she had just time to inquire: + +"Well, what does the doctor say?" + +The priest would reply: + +"He has not yet given an opinion, madame." + +But one evening the abbe replied: "Madame, your son has got the small- +pox." + +She uttered a scream of terror and fled from the room. + +When her maid came to her room the following morning she noticed at once +a strong odor of burnt sugar, and she found her mistress, with wide-open +eyes, her face pale from lack of sleep, and shivering with terror in her +bed. + +As soon as the shutters were opened Mme. Herrnet asked: + +"How is George?" + +"Oh, not at all well to-day, madame." + +She did not rise until noon, when she ate two eggs with a cup of tea, as +if she herself had been ill, and then she went out to a druggist's to +inquire about prophylactic measures against the contagion of small-pox. + +She did not come home until dinner time, laden with medicine bottles, and +shut herself up at once in her room, where she saturated herself with +disinfectants. + +The priest was waiting for her in the dining-room. As soon as she saw +him she exclaimed in a voice full of emotion: + +"Well?" + +"No improvement. The doctor is very anxious:" + +She began to cry and could eat nothing, she was so worried. + +The next day, as soon as it was light, she sent to inquire for her son, +but there was no improvement and she spent the whole day in her room, +where little braziers were giving out pungent odors. Her maid said also +that you could hear her sighing all the evening. + +She spent a whole week in this manner, only going out for an hour or two +during the afternoon to breathe the air. + +She now sent to make inquiries every hour, and would sob when the reports +were unfavorable. + +On the morning of the eleventh day the priest, having been announced, +entered her room, his face grave and pale, and said, without taking the +chair she offered him: + +"Madame, your son is very ill and wishes to see you." + +She fell on her knees, exclaiming: + +"Oh, my God! Oh, my God! I would never dare! My God! My God! Help +me!" + +The priest continued: + +"The doctor holds out little hope, madame, and George is expecting you!" + +And he left the room. + +Two hours later as the young lad, feeling himself dying, again asked for +his mother, the abbe went to her again and found her still on her knees, +still weeping and repeating: + +"I will not . . . . I will not. . . . I am too much afraid . . +. . I will not. . . ." + +He tried to persuade her, to strengthen her, to lead her. He only +succeeded in bringing on an attack of "nerves" that lasted some time and +caused her to shriek. + +The doctor when he came in the evening was told of this cowardice and +declared that he would bring her in himself, of her own volition, or by +force. But after trying all manner of argument and just as he seized her +round the waist to carry her into her son's room, she caught hold of the +door and clung to it so firmly that they could not drag her away. Then +when they let go of her she fell at the feet of the doctor, begging his +forgiveness and acknowledging that she was a wretched creature. And then +she exclaimed: "Oh, he is not going to die; tell me that he is not going +to die, I beg of you; tell him that I love him, that I worship him. . ." + +The young lad was dying. Feeling that he had only a few moments more to +live, he entreated that his mother be persuaded to come and bid him a +last farewell. With that sort of presentiment that the dying sometimes +have, he had understood, had guessed all, and he said: "If she is afraid +to come into the room, beg her just to come on the balcony as far as my +window so that I may see her, at least, so that I may take a farewell +look at her, as I cannot kiss her." + +The doctor and the abbe, once more, went together to this woman and +assured her: "You will run no risk, for there will be a pane of glass +between you and him." + +She consented, covered up her head, and took with her a bottle of +smelling salts. She took three steps on the balcony; then, all at once, +hiding her face in her hands, she moaned: "No . . . no . . . I +would never dare to look at him . . . never. . . . I am too much +ashamed . . . too much afraid . . . . No . . . I cannot." + +They endeavored to drag her along, but she held on with both hands to the +railings and uttered such plaints that the passers-by in the street +raised their heads. And the dying boy waited, his eyes turned towards +that window, waited to die until he could see for the last time the +sweet, beloved face, the worshiped face of his mother. + +He waited long, and night came on. Then he turned over with his face to +the wall and was silent. + +When day broke he was dead. The day following she was crazy. + + + + + + +THE MAGIC COUCH + +The Seine flowed past my house, without a ripple on its surface, and +gleaming in the bright morning sunlight. It was a beautiful, broad, +indolent silver stream, with crimson lights here and there; and on the +opposite side of the river were rows of tall trees that covered all the +bank with an immense wall of verdure. + +The sensation of life which is renewed each day, of fresh, happy, loving +life trembled in the leaves, palpitated in the air, was mirrored in the +water. + +The postman had just brought my papers, which were handed to me, and I +walked slowly to the river bank in order to read them. + +In the first paper I opened I noticed this headline, "Statistics of +Suicides," and I read that more than 8,500 persons had killed themselves +in that year. + +In a moment I seemed to see them! I saw this voluntary and hideous +massacre of the despairing who were weary of life. I saw men bleeding, +their jaws fractured, their skulls cloven, their breasts pierced by a +bullet, slowly dying, alone in a little room in a hotel, giving no +thought to their wound, but thinking only of their misfortunes. + +I saw others seated before a tumbler in which some matches were soaking, +or before a little bottle with a red label. + +They would look at it fixedly without moving; then they would drink and +await the result; then a spasm would convulse their cheeks and draw their +lips together; their eyes would grow wild with terror, for they did not +know that the end would be preceded by so much suffering. + +They rose to their feet, paused, fell over and with their hands pressed +to their stomachs they felt their internal organs on fire, their entrails +devoured by the fiery liquid, before their minds began to grow dim. + +I saw others hanging from a nail in the wall, from the fastening of the +window, from a hook in the ceiling, from a beam in the garret, from a +branch of a tree amid the evening rain. And I surmised all that had +happened before they hung there motionless, their tongues hanging out of +their mouths. I imagined the anguish of their heart, their final +hesitation, their attempts to fasten the rope, to determine that it was +secure, then to pass the noose round their neck and to let themselves +fall. + +I saw others lying on wretched beds, mothers with their little children, +old men dying of hunger, young girls dying for love, all rigid, +suffocated, asphyxiated, while in the center of the room the brasier +still gave forth the fumes of charcoal. + +And I saw others walking at night along the deserted bridges. These were +the most sinister. The water flowed under the arches with a low sound. +They did not see it . . . they guessed at it from its cool breath! +They longed for it and they feared it. They dared not do it! And yet, +they must. A distant clock sounded the hour and, suddenly, in the vast +silence of the night, there was heard the splash of a body falling into +the river, a scream or two, the sound of hands beating the water, and all +was still. Sometimes, even, there was only the sound of the falling body +when they had tied their arms down or fastened a stone to their feet. +Oh, the poor things, the poor things, the poor things, how I felt their +anguish, how I died in their death! I went through all their +wretchedness; I endured in one hour all their tortures. I knew all the +sorrows that had led them to this, for I know the deceitful infamy of +life, and no one has felt it more than I have. + +How I understood them, these who weak, harassed by misfortune, having +lost those they loved, awakened from the dream of a tardy compensation, +from the illusion of another existence where God will finally be just, +after having been ferocious, and their minds disabused of the mirages of +happiness, have given up the fight and desire to put an end to this +ceaseless tragedy, or this shameful comedy. + +Suicide! Why, it is the strength of those whose strength is exhausted, +the hope of those who no longer believe, the sublime courage of the +conquered! Yes, there is at least one door to this life we can always +open and pass through to the other side. Nature had an impulse of pity; +she did not shut us up in prison. Mercy for the despairing! + +As for those who are simply disillusioned, let them march ahead with free +soul and quiet heart. They have nothing to fear since they may take +their leave; for behind them there is always this door that the gods of +our illusions cannot even lock. + +I thought of this crowd of suicides: more than eight thousand five +hundred in one year. And it seemed to me that they had combined to send +to the world a prayer, to utter a cry of appeal, to demand something that +should come into effect later when we understood things better. It +seemed to me that all these victims, their throats cut, poisoned, hung, +asphyxiated, or drowned, all came together, a frightful horde, like +citizens to the polls, to say to society: + +"Grant us, at least, a gentle death! Help us to die, you who will not +help us to live! See, we are numerous, we have the right to speak in +these days of freedom, of philosophic independence and of popular +suffrage. Give to those who renounce life the charity of a death that +will not be repugnant nor terrible." + +I began to dream, allowing my fancy to roam at will in weird and +mysterious fashion on this subject. + +I seemed to be all at once in a beautiful city. It was Paris; but at +what period? I walked about the streets, looking at the houses, the +theaters, the public buildings, and presently found myself in a square +where I remarked a large building; very handsome, dainty and attractive. +I was surprised on reading on the facade this inscription in letters of +gold, "Suicide Bureau." + +Oh, the weirdness of waking dreams where the spirit soars into a world of +unrealities and possibilities! Nothing astonishes one, nothing shocks +one; and the unbridled fancy makes no distinction between the comic and +the tragic. + +I approached the building where footmen in knee-breeches were seated in +the vestibule in front of a cloak-room as they do at the entrance of a +club. + +I entered out of curiosity. One of the men rose and said: + +"What does monsieur wish?" + +"I wish to know what building this is." + +"Nothing more?" + +"Why, no." + +"Then would monsieur like me to take him to the Secretary of the Bureau?" + +I hesitated, and asked: + +"But will not that disturb him?" + +"Oh, no, monsieur, he is here to receive those who desire information." + +"Well, lead the way." + +He took me through corridors where old gentlemen were chatting, and +finally led me into a beautiful office, somewhat somber, furnished +throughout in black wood. A stout young man with a corporation was +writing a letter as he smoked a cigar, the fragrance of which gave +evidence of its quality. + +He rose. We bowed to each other, and as soon as the footman had retired +he asked: + +"What can I do for you?" + +"Monsieur," I replied, "pardon my curiosity. I had never seen this +establishment. The few words inscribed on the facade filled me with +astonishment, and I wanted to know what was going on here." + +He smiled before replying, then said in a low tone with a complacent air: + +"Mon Dieu, monsieur, we put to death in a cleanly and gentle--I do not +venture to say agreeable manner those persons who desire to die." + +I did not feel very shocked, for it really seemed to me natural and +right. What particularly surprised me was that on this planet, with its +low, utilitarian, humanitarian ideals, selfish and coercive of all true +freedom, any one should venture on a similar enterprise, worthy of an +emancipated humanity. + +"How did you get the idea?" I asked. + +"Monsieur," he replied, "the number of suicides increased so enormously +during the five years succeeding the world exposition of 1889 that some +measures were urgently needed. People killed themselves in the streets, +at fetes, in restaurants, at the theater, in railway carriages, at the +receptions held by the President of the Republic, everywhere. It was not +only a horrid sight for those who love life, as I do, but also a bad +example for children. Hence it became necessary to centralize suicides." + +"What caused this suicidal epidemic?" + +"I do not know. The fact is, I believe, the world is growing old. +People begin to see things clearly and they are getting disgruntled. +It is the same to-day with destiny as with the government, we have found +out what it is; people find that they are swindled in every direction, +and they just get out of it all. When one discovers that Providence +lies, cheats, robs, deceives human beings just as a plain Deputy deceives +his constituents, one gets angry, and as one cannot nominate a fresh +Providence every three months as we do with our privileged +representatives, one just gets out of the whole thing, which is decidedly +bad." + +"Really!" + +"Oh, as for me, I am not complaining." + +"Will you inform me how you carry on this establishment?" + +"With pleasure. You may become a member when you please. It is a club." + +"A club!" + +"Yes, monsieur, founded by the most eminent men in the country, by men of +the highest intellect and brightest intelligence. And," he added, +laughing heartily, "I swear to you that every one gets a great deal of +enjoyment out of it." + +"In this place?" + +"Yes, in this place." + +"You surprise me." + +"Mon Dieu, they enjoy themselves because they have not that fear of death +which is the great killjoy in all our earthly pleasures." + +"But why should they be members of this club if they do not kill +themselves?" + +"One may be a member of the club without being obliged for that reason to +commit suicide." + +"But then?" + +"I will explain. In view of the enormous increase in suicides, and of +the hideous spectacle they presented, a purely benevolent society was +formed for the protection of those in despair, which placed at their +disposal the facilities for a peaceful, painless, if not unforeseen +death." + +"Who can have authorized such an institution?" + +"General Boulanger during his brief tenure of power. He could never +refuse anything. However, that was the only good thing he did. Hence, a +society was formed of clear-sighted, disillusioned skeptics who desired +to erect in the heart of Paris a kind of temple dedicated to the contempt +for death. This place was formerly a dreaded spot that no one ventured +to approach. Then its founders, who met together here, gave a grand +inaugural entertainment with Mmes. Sarah Bernhardt, Judic, Theo, Granier, +and twenty others, and Mme. de Reske, Coquelin, Mounet-Sully, Paulus, +etc., present, followed by concerts, the comedies of Dumas, of Meilhac, +Halevy and Sardon. We had only one thing to mar it, one drama by Becque +which seemed sad, but which subsequently had a great success at the +Comedie-Francaise. In fact all Paris came. The enterprise was +launched." + +"In the midst of the festivities! What a funereal joke!" + +"Not at all. Death need not be sad, it should be a matter of +indifference. We made death cheerful, crowned it with flowers, covered +it with perfume, made it easy. One learns to aid others through example; +one can see that it is nothing." + +"I can well understand that they should come to the entertainments; but +did they come to . . . Death?" + +"Not at first; they were afraid." + +"And later?" + +"They came." + +"Many of them?" + +"In crowds. We have had more than forty in a day. One finds hardly any +more drowned bodies in the Seine." + +"Who was the first?" + +"A club member." + +"As a sacrifice to the cause?" + +"I don't think so. A man who was sick of everything, a 'down and out' +who had lost heavily at baccarat for three months." + +"Indeed?" + +"The second was an Englishman, an eccentric. We then advertised in the +papers, we gave an account of our methods, we invented some attractive +instances. But the great impetus was given by poor people." + +"How do you go to work?" + +"Would you like to see? I can explain at the same time." + +"Yes, indeed." + +He took his hat, opened the door, allowed me to precede him, and we +entered a card room, where men sat playing as they, play in all gambling +places. They were chatting cheerfully, eagerly. I have seldom seen such +a jolly, lively, mirthful club. + +As I seemed surprised, the secretary said: + +"Oh, the establishment has an unheard of prestige. All the smart people +all over the world belong to it so as to appear as though they held death +in scorn. Then, once they get here, they feel obliged to be cheerful +that they may not appear to be afraid. So they joke and laugh and talk +flippantly, they are witty and they become so. At present it is +certainly the most frequented and the most entertaining place in Paris. +The women are even thinking of building an annex for themselves." + +"And, in spite of all this, you have many suicides in the house?" + +"As I said, about forty or fifty a day. Society people are rare, but +poor devils abound. The middle class has also a large contingent. + +"And how . . . do they do?" + +"They are asphyxiated . . . very slowly." + +"In what manner?" + +"A gas of our own invention. We have the patent. On the other side of +the building are the public entrances--three little doors opening on +small streets. When a man or a woman present themselves they are +interrogated. Then they are offered assistance, aid, protection. If a +client accepts, inquiries are made; and sometimes we have saved their +lives." + +"Where do you get your money?" + +"We have a great deal. There are a large number of shareholders. +Besides it is fashionable to contribute to the establishment. The names +of the donors are published in Figaro. Then the suicide of every rich +man costs a thousand francs. And they look as if they were lying in +state. It costs the poor nothing." + +"How can you tell who is poor?" + +"Oh, oh, monsieur, we can guess! And, besides, they must bring a +certificate of indigency from the commissary of police of their district. +If you knew how distressing it is to see them come in! I visited their +part of our building once only, and I will never go again. The place +itself is almost as good as this part, almost as luxurious and +comfortable; but they themselves . . . they themselves!!! If you +could see them arriving, the old men in rags coming to die; persons who +have been dying of misery for months, picking up their food at the edges +of the curbstone like dogs in the street; women in rags, emaciated, sick, +paralyzed, incapable of making a living, who say to us after they have +told us their story: 'You see that things cannot go on like that, as I +cannot work any longer or earn anything.' I saw one woman of eighty- +seven who had lost all her children and grandchildren, and who for the +last six weeks had been sleeping out of doors. It made me ill to hear of +it. Then we have so many different cases, without counting those who say +nothing, but simply ask: 'Where is it?' These are admitted at once and +it is all over in a minute." + +With a pang at my heart I repeated: + +"And . . . where is it?" + +"Here," and he opened a door, adding: + +"Go in; this is the part specially reserved for club members, and the one +least used. We have so far had only eleven annihilations here." + +"Ah! You call that an . . . annihilation!" + +"Yes, monsieur. Go in." + +I hesitated. At length I went in. It was a wide corridor, a sort of +greenhouse in which panes of glass of pale blue, tender pink and delicate +green gave the poetic charm of landscapes to the inclosing walls. +In this pretty salon there were divans, magnificent palms, flowers, +especially roses of balmy fragrance, books on the tables, the Revue des +Deuxmondes, cigars in government boxes, and, what surprised me, Vichy +pastilles in a bonbonniere. + +As I expressed my surprise, my guide said: + +"Oh, they often come here to chat." He continued: "The public corridors +are similar, but more simply furnished." + +In reply to a question of mine, he pointed to a couch covered with creamy +crepe de Chine with white embroidery, beneath a large shrub of unknown +variety at the foot of which was a circular bed of mignonette. + +The secretary added in a lower tone: + +"We change the flower and the perfume at will, for our gas, which is +quite imperceptible, gives death the fragrance of the suicide's favorite +flower. It is volatilized with essences. Would you like to inhale it +for a second?" + +"'No, thank you," I said hastily, "not yet . . . ." + +He began to laugh. + +"Oh, monsieur, there is no danger. I have tried it myself several +times." + +I was afraid he would think me a coward, and I said: + +"Well, I'll try it." + +"Stretch yourself out on the 'endormeuse."' + +A little uneasy I seated myself on the low couch covered with crepe de +Chine and stretched myself full length, and was at once bathed in a +delicious odor of mignonette. I opened my mouth in order to breathe it +in, for my mind had already become stupefied and forgetful of the past +and was a prey, in the first stages of asphyxia, to the enchanting +intoxication of a destroying and magic opium. + +Some one shook me by the arm. + +"Oh, oh, monsieur," said the secretary, laughing, "it looks to me as if +you were almost caught." + +But a voice, a real voice, and no longer a dream voice, greeted me with +the peasant intonation: + +"Good morning, m'sieu. How goes it?" + +My dream was over. I saw the Seine distinctly in the sunlight, and, +coming along a path, the garde champetre of the district, who with his +right hand touched his kepi braided in silver. I replied: + +"Good morning, Marinel. Where are you going?" + +"I am going to look at a drowned man whom they fished up near the +Morillons. Another who has thrown himself into the soup. He even took +off his trousers in order to tie his legs together with them." + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's Entire Original Maupassant Short Stories + |
