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diff --git a/29743.txt b/29743.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..4b35197 --- /dev/null +++ b/29743.txt @@ -0,0 +1,9821 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Missionary, by George Griffith + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Missionary + +Author: George Griffith + +Release Date: August 21, 2009 [EBook #29743] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE MISSIONARY *** + + + + +Produced by David Clarke, Rose Acquavella and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team at https://www.pgdp.net + + + + + + + + + + _The Missionary_ + + BY + + George Griffith + + AUTHOR OF + + "_The Angel of the Revolution_," + "_The Rose of Judah_," + "_The Destined Maid_," + "_The Justice of Revenge_," + "_Brothers of the Chain_," + "_Captain Ishmael_," _etc., etc._ + + + _London_ + F. V. WHITE & CO., LTD. + 14, Bedford Street, Strand, W.C. + 1902 + + PRINTED BY KELLY'S DIRECTORIES LIMITED, + LONDON AND KINGSTON. + + + + +CONTENTS + + PAGE + + PROLOGUE 1 + + CHAPTER I. 4 + + CHAPTER II. 22 + + CHAPTER III. 31 + + CHAPTER IV. 48 + + CHAPTER V. 67 + + CHAPTER VI. 86 + + CHAPTER VII. 96 + + CHAPTER VIII. 106 + + CHAPTER IX. 115 + + CHAPTER X. 125 + + CHAPTER XI. 134 + + CHAPTER XII. 144 + + CHAPTER XIII. 156 + + CHAPTER XIV. 167 + + CHAPTER XV. 177 + + CHAPTER XVI. 188 + + CHAPTER XVII. 202 + + CHAPTER XVIII. 214 + + CHAPTER XIX. 222 + + CHAPTER XX. 230 + + CHAPTER XXI. 238 + + CHAPTER XXII. 249 + + CHAPTER XXIII. 260 + + CHAPTER XXIV. 276 + + CHAPTER XXV. 289 + + EPILOGUE. 302 + + + + +THE MISSIONARY. + + + + +PROLOGUE. + + +"Oh--Eny!" + +"Well, you needn't be angry, Vane. I kissed _you_ this morning, you +know." + +"That's no reason why you should kiss that chap, too! You're _my_ +sweetheart." + +"Is she? Well, she won't be much longer, because I'm going to have her." + +"Are you? Shut up, or I'll punch your head." + +"You can't--and, anyhow, you daren't." + +Smack! + +It was a good swinging blow with the open hand across the cheek, and it +left a vivid flush behind it on the somewhat sallow skin. + +"Oh, if you're going to fight I shall go away, and I shan't be friends +with either of you." + +But as the two lads closed, the blue-eyed, golden-haired little beauty +only shrank back a little nearer to the after-wheelhouse of the homeward +bound P. and O. liner whose deck was the scene of this first act of the +tragedy of three lives. A bright flush came into her cheeks, and a new +light began to dance in her eyes as the first look of fright died out of +them. The breath came and went more quickly between the half-opened +lips with a low sibilant sound. They were pretty, well-cut lips, the +upper short and exquisitely curved, and the lower full with the promise +of a sensuous maturity. + +She was only seven, but she was woman enough already to know that these +two lads were fighting for _her_--for the favour of her smiles and the +right to her kisses--and so she stayed. + +She had heard in India how the tigers fought for their mates, and, with +the precocity of the Anglo-Indian child, she recognised now the likeness +between tigers and men--and boys. She was being fought for. These two +lads, albeit they had neither of them seen their eleventh birthday, were +using all their strength against each other, hammering each other's +faces with their fists, wrestling and writhing, now upstanding and now +on the deck at her feet, were not unlike the tigers she had heard her +father tell her mother about. + +She saw the hatred in their eyes, red and swollen by the impact of +well-planted blows. She watched the gleam of their teeth between their +cut and bleeding lips. They hated each other because they loved her--or, +in their boyish way, most firmly believed they did. Their lips were cut +and bleeding because she had kissed them. + +The fascination of the fight grew upon her. The hot young blood began to +dance in her veins. She found herself encouraging now one and then the +other--always the one who was getting the worst of it for the time +being--and when at last the younger and slighter but more wiry and +active of them, the one who had caught the other kissing her, took +adroit advantage of a roll of the ship and pitched his antagonist +backwards so heavily against the wheelhouse that he dropped +half-stunned to the deck, she looked proudly at the panting, bleeding +victor, and gasped: + +"Oh, Vane, I'm so glad you've won. You haven't quite killed him, have +you? I suppose the captain would hang you if you did. I'm _so_ sorry it +was all about me. I'll never let any one else but you kiss me again. +Really I won't. You may kiss me now if you like. Take my handkerchief. +Oh, I don't mind the cuts. You did it for me. There! It was brave of +you, for he's bigger than you. Poor Reggie, let's help him up. I suppose +you'll both have to go to the doctor." + +"We shall both get a jolly good licking more likely. Still, I don't care +as long as you won't let him kiss you again." + +"No, Vane, indeed I won't, nor anyone else for ever and ever if you'll +only forgive me this time." + +And then, for the first time since the fight began, her big bright blue +eyes filled and grew dim with tears. + + + + +CHAPTER I. + + +It was the evening of Boat-race day, and as usual that province of +Vanity Fair whose centre is Piccadilly Circus was more or less +completely given over to joyously boisterous troops of undergraduates +and 'Varsity men of all academic ranks whom the great event of the year +had brought together from all parts of the kingdom, and even from lands +beyond the sea. + +The mild saturnalia which London annually permits in honour of the +historic struggle between the rival blues was at its height. The music +halls were crowded to their utmost capacity, and lusty-voiced +undergraduates joined enthusiastically, if not altogether tunefully, in +the choruses of the songs; but the enthusiasm was perhaps highest and +the crowd the greatest at the Palace, where start and race and the +magnificent finish with which the struggle had ended were being shown by +the American Biograph. + +As the series of pictures followed each other on the screen, the cries +which a few hours before had been roaring along the two banks of the +river from Putney to Mortlake burst out anew from pit and gallery, +circles and stalls and boxes. Cambridge had won for once after a long +series of defeats, but the Oxford boys and men were cheering just as +lustily and yelling themselves just as hoarse as the others, for they +were all Englishmen and therefore good sportsmen. + +The crush in the First Circle was terrific, but for the moment Vane +Maxwell was conscious neither of the heat nor the crowding. His whole +soul was in his eyes as he watched the weirdly silent and yet life-like +phantoms flitting across the screen. It was only when the finish had +faded into swift darkness and the thunders of applause had begun to die +down that he became aware of the fact that someone was standing on one +of his feet, and that just behind him someone else had got hold of his +arm and was holding it with a convulsive sort of clutch. + +Just then there was a lull in the applause, and he caught a faintly +murmured "Oh, dear" in a feminine voice. He wrenched his foot free, and +turned round just in time to slip his arm round the waist of a fainting +girl and save her from falling. + +The crush was loosening now, for the great attraction of the evening had +passed, and a general move was being made towards the bars. + +"If you please there, this young lady's fainting. Give her as much room +as you can, please," he said loudly enough to be heard for some little +distance round. + +A number of undergraduates of both Universities managed to immediately +clear a space about them, and one of his own college chums at Balliol +who had come in with him said, "Take her to the bar, Maxwell, and give +her a drop of brandy. Now, move up there, you fellows. Room for beauty +in distress--come along!" + +A couple of the stalwart attendants had also arrived on the scene by +this time, and so a lane was easily made to the nearest bar. The girl +opened her eyes again, looked about her for a moment, and then +murmured: + +"Oh, thank you so much, I think I can walk. I am getting all right now. +It was the crowd and the heat. Please don't trouble. It's very good of +you." + +"It's no trouble at all," said Maxwell. "Come and let me give you a drop +of brandy. That'll put you all right." + +As they went into the bar they were followed by not a few curious +glances. Men and lads looked at each other and smiled, and women looked +at them and each other, also smiling, but with plainer meaning, and one +or two expressed themselves openly as to the neatness with which the +whole affair had been managed. + +Crowded as the bar was, Maxwell had no difficulty in getting a couple of +brandies and a split soda for himself and his companion. Two men sitting +at one of the tables had got up to let her sit down. One of them held +out his hand to Maxwell and said: + +"Why, Vane, old man, is it you? In luck, as usual, I see." He said this +with a glance towards the girl which brought the blood to Maxwell's +cheeks. Still, he took the other's hand, and said good-humouredly: + +"Good evening, Garthorne. Up for the race, I suppose? Fine fight, wasn't +it? I'm glad you won, it was getting a bit monotonous. Thanks for +letting us have the table. This young lady is not very well, felt a bit +faint in the crowd." + +"I see," said Garthorne, with another look at her which Maxwell did not +altogether like. "Well, good night, old man. Be as good as you can." + +As the two moved away Maxwell's memory went back to a scene which had +occurred behind the wheelhouse of a P. and O. liner about ten years +before, and, without exactly knowing why, he felt as if it would give +him a certain amount of satisfaction to repeat it. Then he turned to the +girl and said: + +"I beg your pardon; I hope you haven't been waiting. You should have +taken a drink at once." + +"Oh, thanks, that's all right. I'm a lot better now," she said, taking +up the tumbler and smiling over it at him. "Well, here's luck! It was +awfully good of you to get me out of that crowd. I believe I should have +fallen down if it hadn't been for you." + +"Oh, please don't mention that," he said; "only too happy--I mean I was +very glad I was there to do it. Here's to your complete recovery." + +As he drank their eyes met over the glasses. Until now he had not really +looked at her; things had been happening rather too rapidly for that. +But now, as he put his glass down and began to scrutinize the +half-saucy, half-demure, and altogether charming face on the other side +of the table, it suddenly dawned upon him that it was exceedingly like +his own. + +The nut-brown hair was almost the same shade as his, but it had a gleam +of gold in it which his lacked. The dark hazel eyes were bigger and +softer, and were shaded by longer and darker lashes than his, but their +colour and expression were very similar. The rest of the face, too, was +very similar, only while his nose was almost perfectly straight, nearly +pure Greek in fact, hers was just the merest trifle _retrousse_. + +The mouths and chins were almost identical save for the fact that +firmness and strength in his were replaced by softness and sweetness in +hers. Not that hers were lacking in firmness, for a skilled +physiognomist would have put her down at the first glance as a young +lady of very decided character; but the outlines were softer, the lips +were more delicate and more mobile, and, young as he was, there was a +gravity in his smile which was replaced in hers by a suspicion of +defiant recklessness which was not without its mournful meaning for +those who had eyes to see. + +"That's done me a lot of good," she said, as she finished her brandy and +soda. "Now, I mustn't keep you from your friends any longer. I'm very +much obliged to you indeed. Good night!" + +He rose as she did, and took the neatly-gloved little hand that she held +out to him over the table. + +"I don't see why we should say good night just yet unless you +particularly wish it," he said. "I only came here with a lot of our +fellows to see the Biograph, and I shan't stop now that's over. I'm +getting jolly hungry, too. If you have no other engagement suppose we +were to go and have a bit of supper somewhere?" + +For some reason or other which she was quite unable to define, these +words, although they were spoken with perfect politeness, and although +she had heard them scores of times before without offence, now almost +offended her. And yet there was no real reason why they should. + +She had been out to supper with pretty nearly all sorts and conditions +of men. Why should she not go with this well-groomed, athletic-looking +young fellow who had already done her a considerable service, who was +obviously a gentleman, and whose face and expression had now begun to +strike her as so curiously like her own? + +She really had no other engagement for the evening, and to refuse would +be, to say the least of it, ungracious; so, after a moment's +hesitation, she took her hand away and said with a quick upward glance +of her eyes: + +"Very well, I was just beginning to think about supper myself when I +turned up out there in that absurd way, so we may as well have it +together. Where were you thinking of going? Suppose we were to try the +grill-room at the Troc. Of course everywhere will be pretty crowded +to-night, but we have as good a chance of getting a table there as +anywhere else. Besides, I know one or two of the waiters. I often go +there to lunch." + +"Very well," he said; "come along." And in a few minutes more they were +rolling along in a hansom down Shaftesbury Avenue. + +Vane Maxwell was in very good humour that night with himself and all the +world. He had taken a double first in Mods., in History and Classics, +after crowning a brilliant career at Eton with a Balliol Scholarship. He +was stroke of his college boat, and had worked her four places up the +river. In another year he might be in the 'Varsity Eight itself, and +help to avenge the defeat which the Dark Blues had just suffered. The +sweetheart he had won in that Homeric little battle behind the +wheelhouse had been faithful to him ever since. He had an abundance of +pocket money and the prospect of a fair fortune, and altogether the +world appeared to be a very pleasant place indeed to live in. + +When they got into the cab the girl half expected that he would slip his +arm round her as others were wont to do when they had the chance, but he +didn't, and she liked him all the better for it. He did, however, put +his hand through her arm and draw her just a little closer to him. Then +he leant back in the cab, and, as the light from a big gin palace lamp +flashed on to her face, he said: + +"Well, this _is_ jolly. I'm so glad you came. I feel just in the humour +for a good supper in pleasant society." + +"Thank you," she said, with a little toss of her head; "but how do you +know my society is going to be pleasant?" + +"Oh, it couldn't be anything else," he laughed. "You are far too pretty +not to be nice." + +"Thanks," she said gravely. "Are all the pretty girls you know nice? +Don't you find some of them horribly conceited and dull? Lots of fellows +I know say so." + +"Lots of fellows!" he echoed. "Then you have a pretty extensive +acquaintance----" + +"Why, of course I have," she interrupted, cutting him short almost +roughly. Then she went on with a swift change of tone, "Don't you see +that a--a girl like me has _got_ to know plenty of fellows? It's--well, +it's business, and that's the brutal truth of it." + +She turned her head away and looked out of the cab window as though she +didn't want him to see the expression that came over her face as she +said the last few words. + +But though he did not see the change in her face, the change in her +voice struck him like a jarring note in a harmony that he was beginning +to find very pleasant. He felt a sort of momentary resentment. He knew, +of course, that it was the "brutal truth," but just then he disliked +being reminded of it--especially by her. She seemed a great deal too +nice for _that_ to be true of her. There was a little pause, rather an +awkward one, during which he tried to think of the proper thing to say. +Of course he didn't succeed, so he just blurted out: + +"Oh, never mind about brutal truths just now, little girl." + +There was another pause, during which she still kept her head turned +away. Then he went on with a happy inconsequence: + +"By the way, has it struck you yet that we're rather like each other?" + +"Is that a compliment to me or to yourself?" she said, half gravely, and +yet with a belying gleam of mischief in her eyes. + +"Oh, a likeness like that could only be a compliment to me, of course," +he replied, and before the conversation could proceed any farther the +cab stopped at the entrance to the Trocadero. + +By great good luck they procured one of the little side tables in the +inner room just as another couple were leaving it. One of the waiters +had recognised her as she came in, and, with the astute alacrity of his +kind, had taken possession of them and pre-empted the table before +anyone else could get near it. There were, in fact, others waiting who +had a prior right, but the gentleman in the plum coat and gold buttons +made it impossible for the superintendent of the room to interfere by +saying to Maxwell in his blandest tone: + +"Good evening, sir; it's all right, sir. This is the table you engaged." + +"He's a smart youth, that Fritz," said the girl as they sat down. "These +fellows here know which side their bread's buttered on, and they look +after their own customers." + +"Yes, he seems to know his business," said Maxwell, "and now I suppose +the question is, what are we going to have?" + +Fritz had come back, and was swiftly and rapidly removing the debris +left behind by their predecessors. The girl looked up at him with an air +of familiarity which Maxwell didn't altogether like, and said: + +"What's good for supper, Fritz? I am hungry." + +"A few oysters, miss, grilled sole, and a nice little porterhouse steak +between two. How's that, miss?" + +She looked across at Maxwell and nodded, and he said, "Yes, I think that +will do very nicely. Let's have the oysters at once, and some brown +bread and butter." + +"Yes, sir, certainly. Any wine, sir?" + +The list was presented, opened, of course, at the champagne page. + +"You'll have something fizzy, won't you?" he said, looking up from the +list. + +"I suppose we may as well," she said, "only I don't want you to think me +too extravagant." + +"Nonsense," he laughed, and then he told the waiter to bring a bottle of +Kock Fils '89. + +When the man had gone on his errand Maxwell said somewhat diffidently: + +"By the way, we seem to be getting to know each other pretty well, but +we've not exactly been introduced. I mean we don't know each other's +names yet." + +"Oh, introductions are not much in fashion in the world that I live in," +she said with a little flush. "Of course you don't need telling which +half of the world that is." + +For the moment he felt an unreasonable resentment, either at the words +or the half defiant way in which she spoke them. He was quite old enough +both in years and the ways of the world to know exactly what she meant, +and he was perfectly well aware that she would not have accepted his +invitation to supper any more than she would have been in the promenade +of a music hall unescorted if she had been what is conventionally +termed respectable. Yet somehow he wanted to forget the fact and treat +her with the respect he would have paid to any ordinary acquaintance in +his own social sphere. + +This feeling was probably due both to an innate chivalry and to the fact +that one of his father's favourite precepts was, "My boy, whatever +company you're in, never forget that you're a gentleman." Mingled with +it there may also have been a dash of masculine vanity. The more he +looked at the girl the more striking did her likeness to himself appear. +Really, if he had had a sister she could not have been more like him, +but he knew that he was an only child, and, besides, that thought was +altogether unthinkable. + +After a little pause, during which their eyes met and their cheeks +flushed in a somewhat boy-and-girlish fashion, he laughed a trifle +awkwardly and said: + +"Well, then, we shall have to introduce ourselves, I suppose. My name is +Maxwell--Vane Maxwell." + +"Vane!" she echoed, "how funny! My name is Vane too--Carol Vane. It's +not a sham one either, such as a lot of girls like me take. It's my +own--at least, I have always been called Carol, and Vane was my mother's +name." + +"I see," said Maxwell, after another little pause, during which the +oysters came and the waiter opened the wine. When he had filled the two +glasses and vanished, Maxwell lifted his and said: + +"Well, Miss Carol, it is rather curious that we should both have the +same names, and also, if I may say so without flattering myself too much, +be so much like each other. At any rate I shall venture to hope that +your little accident at the Palace has enabled me to make a very +charming acquaintance." + +"That's very prettily put, Mr. Vane Maxwell," she said, nodding and +smiling at him over her glass. "And now that we've been introduced in a +sort of way, as we haven't got any more interesting subject to talk +about, suppose we talk about ourselves. Which are you, Oxford or +Cambridge?" + +The conversation thus started rattled merrily along for over an hour. +Without thinking any disloyalty to his own Enid, who was now a fair and +stately maiden of eighteen, he found it quite impossible to resist the +strange charm of Miss Carol's manner. She was obviously a lady by +instinct, and she had also been educated after a sort. She had read +widely if not altogether wisely, and she seemed just as familiar with +the literature, or, at any rate, with the fiction of France and Italy as +she was with that of England. + +This she explained was due to the fact that until she was about twelve, +that is to say some seven years ago, she had been constantly living and +wandering about in these two countries with her mother and sometimes +also with a gentleman who, as she put it, was pretty probably her +father. She explained further that at the mature age of thirteen she had +run away from a French school in which she had been placed by some +unknown agency and joined a wandering English circus-troop with which +she had travelled half over Europe, leading a more or less miserable +existence for some five years. She had then terminated her connection +with the Ring by going into housekeeping with an English art-student in +Paris. Meanwhile she had lost all trace of her mother, and had come to +the conclusion that she had by this time drunk herself to death. + +"I scarcely ever knew her to be quite sober," she said pathetically, +and then she changed the subject. + +It was not a very cheerful story, as story, but Miss Carol told it with +such a quaint humour and such a vivacity of expression and gesture that, +despite the under-note of tragedy, Maxwell thought it the most +interesting story he had ever heard in his life. + +As the courses disappeared and the empty bottle of wine was succeeded by +a half bottle "just for the last," as Maxwell said, the conversation +grew gayer and perhaps also a trifle freer, although Miss Carol never +permitted herself any of those freedoms of expression with which too +many of the so-called Daughters of Delight vulgarise themselves so +hopelessly. When the half bottle was finished Maxwell wanted another, +and to this Miss Carol promptly and firmly objected. + +"If you will excuse me saying so to a new acquaintance," she said, "I +wouldn't if I were you. We have both of us had enough of this stuff, +nice and all as it is--at least, I have, and I think I'm more used to it +than you. A coffee and liqueur if you like. That won't hurt us--in fact, +it'll do us good; but I can see something in your eyes that shouldn't be +there." + +"What do you mean?" said Maxwell, a trifle offended. "Surely you're not +going to accuse me of the unpardonable crime of getting drunk in the +company of a lady." + +"Thank you!" she said simply, and yet with a decided dignity. "No, I +don't mean that. It's a funny thing, you know," she went on, leaning her +elbows on the table and staring straight into his eyes, "but there's a +queer kind of light coming into your eyes, a sort of dancing, jumping +yellow flame that makes them look almost red. Well, your eyes are +almost exactly like mine, and mine are like my mother's, and whenever +she'd got so far on with drink that she couldn't stop I used to see that +light in her eyes. Of course I don't say that it means anything; still, +there it is. I used to call it the danger signal, and keep away from her +as much as I could till it was over, and I had to nurse her back to +something like life." + +"That's rather approaching the creepy," said Maxwell, with an almost +imperceptible shrug of his shoulders. He had no feeling of offence now. +She looked so pretty and she spoke so earnestly that it was impossible +to be offended with her. Moreover, although he was far from even getting +drunk, he felt a dreamy sensation stealing over him which seemed to be +sapping his self-restraint and making him utterly careless of what he +did or what happened to him so long as it was only pleasant. + +"Really, it is decidedly curious," he went on. "I hope I haven't got the +makings of a dipsomaniac in me. But I feel quite curiously happy, and I +believe I could just go on drinking and getting happier and happier +until I landed in Paradise with you standing just inside the gates to +welcome me." + +"Don't!" she said almost sharply. "For goodness sake don't begin to talk +like that. That's just how my mother used to feel, just how she used to +talk, and she did go on--of course, there was no one to stop her. You +should have seen her a couple of days after--a savage, an animal, a wild +beast, only wild beasts don't get drunk. It's not a nice thing to say of +your mother, even such a mother as mine was, but it's true, and I'm +telling you because I like you, and it may do you some good." + +"Thank you, Miss Carol! After that I shall certainly take your advice," +he said, pouring his cognac into his coffee. "This is the last drink +to-night, and that reminds me; it's getting rather late. How about going +home?" + +"I think it's about time," she said. "They close at twelve to-night, you +know. Which way do you go?" + +"Which way do _you_ go?" he said, as he beckoned to the waiter for the +bill. "By the way, I was going to ask you--I hope you have never seen +that light, that danger signal, in your own eyes?" + +She ignored his first question _in toto_, and replied: + +"Yes, I saw it once when I got home after a pretty wild supper. It +frightened me so that I went 'T.T.' for nearly a month, and just now I +wouldn't drink another glass of that champagne if you gave me a thousand +pounds to drink it." + +"Well, I'm sure I shan't ask you after what you've said," he laughed, as +he threw a couple of shillings on the plate which the waiter presented, +and took up his bill. Then he got up and helped her on with her cloak, +and as she shook her shapely shoulders into it he went on: + +"But you haven't answered my question yet." + +"Which question?" she said, turning sharply round. + +"Which way do you go--or do you intend to stop out a bit later?" he +replied rather haltingly. "I thought perhaps I might have the +pleasure----" + +"Of seeing me home?" she said, raising her eyes to his and flushing +hotly. "I'm afraid that's impossible. But go and get your coat and hat, +and let's go outside. It's horribly close in here." + +He paid his bill at the pay-box near the door, and when they got out +into the street he took her by the arm and said, as they turned down +towards the Circus: + +"And may I ask why it is impossible, Miss Carol. I thought just now you +said that you liked me a bit." + +"So I do," she replied, with a little thrill in her voice; "and that's +just why, or partly why--and besides, we're too much alike. Why, we +might be brother and sister----" + +"That is quite out of the question," he interrupted quickly; "I never +had a sister. I am an only child, and my mother died soon after I was +born. She died in India nearly twenty years ago." + +"I can't help it," she said, almost passionately. "Of course we can't +possibly be any relation, the idea's absurd; but still, it's no use--I +couldn't, I daren't. Besides, have you forgotten what you were telling +me about your fight on the steamer with that man we met at the Palace? +Aren't you in love with the girl still? I quite understood you were +engaged to her." + +"Yes," said Maxwell frankly, "I am, and perhaps I ought to be ashamed of +myself. That is two lessons you've taught me to-night, Miss Carol, and I +shan't forget either them or you. Still, I don't see why we shouldn't be +friends. Honestly, I like you very much, and you've said you like +me--why shouldn't we?" + +"Yes, that's true; I like you all right," she replied with almost +embarrassing frankness; "but for all that it's something very different +from love at first sight. It's funny, but do you know, Vane--I suppose +if we're going to be friends I may call you Vane--although I think I +could get to like you very much in one way, however different things +were, I don't believe I could ever fall in love with you. But if you +only mean friends, just real pals, as we say in my half of the world, I +am there, always supposing that the friendship of such an entirely +improper young person as I am doesn't do you any harm." + +"Harm, nonsense!" he said. "Why should it? Well, that's a bargain, and +now perhaps you won't object to tell me where you live." + +"Oh, no, not now," she said. "I live at 15, Melville Gardens, Brook +Green, with a very nice girl that you may also be friends with if you're +good." + +"Brook Green! Why, that's off the Hammersmith Road. We, that is to say +dad and myself, live in Warwick Gardens, a bit this side of Addison +Bridge, so if you really mean to go home we may as well get a hansom, +and you can drop me at Warwick Gardens and go on." + +"Of course I mean to go home, and I think that would be a very good +arrangement." + +They had crossed over to the pavement in front of the Criterion as she +said this. It was on the tip of Maxwell's tongue to ask her to come in +and have another drink. He certainly felt a greater craving for alcohol +than he had ever done in his life before, and if he had been alone he +might have yielded to it; but he was ashamed to do so after what he had +just said to her, so he hailed an empty cab that was just coming up to +the kerb. As he was handing his companion in, the door of the buffet +swung open, and Reginald Garthorne came out with two other Cambridge +men. They were all a trifle fresh, and as Garthorne recognised him he +called out: + +"By-by, Maxwell. Don't forget to say your prayers." + +Maxwell turned round angrily with his foot on the step. If he had had +that other drink that he wanted there would have been a row, but, as it +was, a word and a gesture from Miss Carol brought him into the cab. +There was an angry flush on her cheeks and a wicked light in her eyes, +but she said very quietly, "Do you know, I am glad you thrashed that +fellow once. He ought to be ashamed of himself shouting a thing like +that out here. I suppose he thinks himself a gentleman, too." + +"Oh, that's all right," said Vane. "Garthorne's a bit screwed, that's +all. Everyone is to-night. But he's not at all a bad fellow. His father +was a soldier in India, and did some very good service. He has a staff +appointment at home. He's a baronet too--one of the old ones. His mother +comes of a good stock as well. We've been very good chums since that +first row. Fellows who fight as boys generally are." + +"Oh, I daresay he's all right, but I didn't like it," said Miss Carol, +leaning back in the cab. "And now suppose you tell me something more +about yourself." + +When the cab pulled up at the corner of Warwick Gardens and he said +good-night, he asked her for a kiss. She blushed like a +fourteen-year-old school girl as she replied: + +"That's a great compliment, Vane, for I know how you mean it. But if you +don't mind I really think I'd rather not, at least not just yet. You +see, after all we've only known each other two or three hours. Wait +until you know me at least a little better before you ask again, and +then perhaps we'll see." + +"Well, I daresay you're right, Miss Modesty," he laughed, as he got out. +"In fact, you always seem to be right. Good-night, Carol." + +"Good-night, Vane." As he stepped backwards from the cab she leant +forward and smiled and waved her hand. A gentleman walking quickly from +the direction of the bridge looked up and saw her pretty laughing face +as the light of a lamp fell upon it. He stopped almost as suddenly as +though he had run up against some invisible obstacle, and passed his +hand across his eyes. Then the cab doors closed, the face vanished back +into the shadow of the interior, and, to his utter amazement, Maxwell +heard his father's voice say: + +"God bless my soul. What a marvellous likeness!" + + + + +CHAPTER II. + + +"Well, Vane!" + +"Well, dad!" + +"May I ask who that young lady in the cab with you was?" + +Vane saw at once that he was in for it, and even if he had wished for +any concealment, it was impossible under the circumstances. As a matter +of fact, however, he had already made up his mind to tell his father the +whole story of his little adventure, and so he said very gravely and +deliberately: + +"That, dad, is a young lady whose acquaintance I made to-night at the +Palace. She nearly fainted in the crush just after the Biograph was +over. She happened to be close behind me, and so of course she held on +to me. I took her into one of the bars and gave her a brandy and soda. +Then we noticed mutually how curiously like each other we were, and +then--well, then I asked her to supper and she came. We have just driven +here from the Trocadero. She has gone on to where she lives in Melville +Gardens, Brook Green. I can tell you a lot more about her afterwards, if +you like." + +Sir Arthur Maxwell, Bart., K.C.B., K.C.S.I., looked keenly into his +son's face while he was giving this rapid summary of his evening's +adventure. There was and always had been the most absolute confidence +between them. Ever since Vane had been old enough they had been +companions and chums, rather than father and son, and so Sir Arthur had +not the slightest doubt but that Vane was telling the absolute truth. He +was only looking to see whether the telling of the truth embarrassed him +or not, and he was well pleased to see that it did not. + +"Quite an interesting experience, I must say," he said, a little +gruffly. "Well, I'm glad to see, at any rate, that you didn't accompany +the young lady home. I presume you were invited." + +"On the contrary, dad," replied Vane, this time with a little hesitation +in his tone, "to tell you the honest truth----" + +"That was a needless opening, Vane. My son could not tell anything else. +Go on." + +"Well, the fact is, dad, it was the other way about. I suggested it, and +she refused point blank. I'm afraid I'd had rather too much fizz on top +of too many brandies and sodas before supper." + +"That will do, Vane," said his father, a little stiffly. "At any rate, +thank God you are not drunk or anything like it. But this is hardly the +sort of thing to discuss in the street. We'll go into the Den and have a +chat and a smoke before we go to bed. You know I'm not squeamish about +these things. I know that a lad of twenty is made of flesh and blood +just as a man of thirty or forty is, and although I consider what is +called sowing wild oats foolish as well as a most ungentlemanly pastime, +still, I equally don't believe in the innocence of ignorance, at least +not for a man." + +"You seem to forget, dad," replied Vane, answering him in something very +like his own tone, "just as I'm sorry to say I forgot for a minute or +two to-night that I am engaged to Enid." + +"Quite right, boy," said his father as they went in at the gate. "I +didn't forget it though, and I'm glad you remembered it." + +"Only I ought to have said that it was the girl who reminded me of it," +said Vane, as he put his latch-key into the door. + +When they got into the Den, which was a sort of combination room, partly +a library and partly study and smoking-room with a quaint suggestion of +Oriental fantasy about it, Sir Arthur, according to his wont at that +time of night, unlocked the spirit case, and mixed himself a whiskey and +soda. As he did so, Vane found his eyes fixed on one of the bright +cut-glass bottles which contained brandy. He would have given anything +to be able to mix a brandy and soda for himself and drink it without +believing, or at any rate fearing, that after all there might be +something in Miss Carol's warning. + +As Sir Arthur lit his cigar, he said in a rather forced tone: + +"I suppose after what you've said it's no use asking you to have a +nightcap, Vane?" + +There was a little pause, during which Vane looked hard at the +spirit-case. Then, with the gesture of one under strong emotion, he got +up from his chair and said in a voice whose tone made his father look +quickly towards him: + +"I don't think I've ever knowingly disobeyed you in my life, dad, but if +you were to order me to drink a drop of spirit to-night, I shouldn't do +it." + +"Why not, Vane?" + +"Just look into my eyes, dad, and tell me if you see anything strange +about them." + +"What on earth do you mean, boy--there's nothing the matter with your +eyes, is there?" said Sir Arthur, looking up with a visible start, "what +has put that idea into your head?" + +"I'll tell you afterwards, dad, meanwhile, just have a look," replied +Vane, coming and standing under the light. + +He felt his father's hands tremble as he laid them on his shoulder, and +as he looked into his eyes a tinge of greyness seemed to steal +underneath the sun-bronze of his skin. In the clear depths of the lad's +hazel eyes he saw a faint, nickering, wavering light, which gave a +yellow tinge to them. + +A reflection from the flames of hell itself could not have had a more +awful meaning for him than that faint little yellow glimmer, but Arthur +Maxwell was a strong man, a man who had fought plague and famine, storm +and flood, treachery and revolt in the service of his Queen, and after a +moment or two he was able to say quite quietly: + +"Well, what's the matter, Vane? They look, perhaps, a little brighter +than usual; but I don't suppose that's anything more than the excitement +of the evening." + +"Don't you see something like a little yellow flame in them?" + +"Well, yes, I do," said Sir Arthur, looking away, "a reflection from the +gaslight, probably. But come, Vane, what is all this about? Sit down and +tell me. And, by the way, I want to hear the story of this new +acquaintance of yours. Take a cigar; that won't hurt you." + +Vane took a cheroot and lit it and sat down in an easy chair opposite +his father, his eyes still wandering as though of their own accord +towards the spirit-case. Then he began somewhat inconsequentially: + +"Dad, what do you think that girl's name is?" + +"Naturally, I haven't the remotest notion," replied his father. "I only +know that she is exceedingly good looking, and I must say that from the +glimpse I had of her, she seems very like yourself." + +"Is that what you meant, dad, when you said, 'Bless my soul what a +likeness,' or something like that when the cab stopped?" + +Sir Arthur did not reply at once. His eyes were gazing vacantly up at a +wreath of blue smoke from his cigar, then he replied suddenly: + +"Eh? Oh, well, probably. You see, my boy, I was just a bit startled at +seeing you get out, and when I saw your two faces in the lamplight, I +confess that I was decidedly struck by the likeness." + +Vane did not find this reply entirely convincing, for he remembered that +as he got out of the cab his back was towards his father, and that +Carol's face was no longer visible when he turned round and faced him. +Still, he was far too well bred to put his father through anything like +a cross-examination, and so he went on. + +"Well, as I told you, I met this young lady--for although she is what +respectable Society in its mercy call 'an unfortunate'--I am certain she +_is_ a lady--at the Palace, and we went and had supper in the Grill Room +at the Trocadero, and there, as we had no one to introduce us, we +introduced ourselves." + +"The usual thing under such circumstances, I believe," said Sir Arthur, +taking a sip at his whiskey. "Well?" + +"I told her that my name was Vane Maxwell, and she said, 'Now that's +curious, my name's Vane, too.'" + +"What is that--her name!" said Sir Arthur with a start that nearly made +him drop his glass. "Vane is not a girl's name." + +"No, that's her surname. Her whole name is Carol Vane. Pretty, isn't it? +Vane, she says, was her mother's name, and a nice sort of person she +seems to have been. Poor Carol herself must have had a terrible time of +it. There was no possibility of doubting a word of her story, she told +it all so simply and so naturally, and yet it was tragedy all through. + +"Well, we'd had a large bottle of fizz and a small one between us, and +I'm afraid I was getting a bit on, for I wanted another. I wasn't drunk, +you know, or anything like it. It didn't seem as though I could get +drunk; only more and more gorgeously happy, and when I told Miss Carol, +she put her elbows on the table and stared into my eyes and told me that +they were just like her mother's, and that there was a light coming into +them which she always used to see in hers when she was starting on one +of her drinking bouts. + +"Then she told me point blank that I'd had enough and said that she +wouldn't drink another glass of fizz for a thousand pounds. We wound up +with a coffee and liqueur, and afterwards when we came out I felt an +almost irresistible craving for a brandy and soda, but I also felt +convinced that if I took one I should go on all night. + +"Still, somehow, what Miss Carol had been saying, although it hadn't +exactly frightened me, certainly stopped me going into the Criterion and +having one; besides, she was with me still, and I knew if I asked her +she'd say 'No,' and somehow I daren't leave her and go in by myself. So +as she lives out Brook Green way, we got into a cab and drove home. +And, would you believe it, she wouldn't even give me a kiss when we said +good-night. She is a most extraordinary girl, I can quite imagine any +fellow falling really and honestly in love with her." + +While Vane was telling his story, his father had sat motionless, staring +hard into the fireplace. He had apparently taken not the slightest +interest in what he was saying. He had never once looked up, but as the +story went on his face had grown greyer and greyer, and the lines in it +harder and deeper, and every now and then the hand on which his cheek +was leaning had trembled a little. + +When Vane stopped speaking he looked up with a start, like a man waking +out of an evil dream, and said in a husky, unsteady voice, which was +quite strange to Vane: + +"It is quite possible, my boy, that this girl, whatever else she may be, +was really your guardian angel to-night. At your age, a craving for +drink is a very terrible thing, and you must exert the whole strength of +your nature to conquer it. You must fight against it and pray against it +as you would against the worst of sins. You have a splendid career +before you, but drink would ruin it and you. Still, we won't talk any +more about this to-night. I am not feeling particularly well. I went +round to dine with Raleigh, in Addison Gardens, to-night--by the way, +Enid's coming back in a few days--and perhaps I caught a little chill +walking home. I think I'd better turn in." + +As he said this he took up the whiskey and soda and drained it, and Vane +heard his teeth clink against the edge of the glass. + +"And I think it's time I went, too," said Vane. "You certainly don't +look very fit to-night, dad. Hope I haven't made you uncomfortable by +what I've been saying. You needn't be afraid though. I don't think I +shall forget the lesson I've had to-night." + +"No, no, I don't think you will, Vane. Well, good-night. Put the spirits +and cigars away, will you?" + +"Good-night, dad! I hope you'll be all right in the morning." + +As the door closed behind his father, Vane went to the table on which +the open spirit-stand stood. His father had forgotten to replace the +stopper in the whiskey decanter, and the aroma of the ripe old spirit +rose to his nostrils. Instantly a subtle fire seemed to spread through +his veins and mount up to his brain. The mad craving that he had felt +outside the Criterion came back upon him with tenfold force. He raised +the decanter to his nostrils and inhaled a long breath of the subtle, +vaporous poison. He looked around the room with burning eyes. + +He was alone. There was no guardian angel near him now. Moved by some +impulse other than his own will, he took his father's glass and poured +out half a tumblerful of whiskey, filled it with soda water from the +syphon, and drank it down with quick feverish gulps. Then he set the +glass on the table and went and looked at himself in an Indian mirror +over the mantel-piece. The pupils of his eyes seemed twice their size, +and in each a yellow flame was leaping and dancing. + +His face seemed transfigured. It was rather that of a handsome satyr +than of an English lad of twenty. The lips were curled in a scornful +sneer, the nostrils were dilated and the eyebrows arched. He laughed at +himself--a laugh that startled him, even then. He went back to the +table and poured out more whiskey, smelt it and drank it down raw. + +His blood was liquid flame by this time. He was no longer in the room. +The walls and ceiling had vanished, and all round him vivid pictures +were flitting, pictures of things that he had seen during the day, +flickering and flashing like those of the Biograph; but Carol's face and +soft brown eyes seemed somehow to be in the middle of all of them. + +He dropped into a chair and felt about half blindly for the decanter. +When he got hold of it he emptied it partly into the glass and partly +over the table-cloth. He lifted the glass to his lips with both hands, +drained it half chokingly, and then the pictures stopped moving and grew +dim. A black pall of darkness seemed to come down and crush him to the +earth. He lurched out of the chair on to the hearth-rug, rolled on to +his back, and lay there motionless with arms outstretched. + +An hour later the door opened and Sir Arthur came in in his dressing +gown. A glance at the empty decanter and the prostrate figure on the +hearth-rug, showed him the calamity that had fallen upon his house. He +staggered forward and dropped on his knees beside Vane, crying in a +weak, broken voice: + +"My boy, my boy! Good God! what have I done? Why didn't I tell him at +once?" + + + + +CHAPTER III. + + +Vane was utterly insensible either to voice or touch. His father knelt +over him and loosened his tie and collar, for his breath was coming hard +and irregularly. Then he rose to his feet, looked down at him for a few +moments, and went away to summon Koda Bux, his old Pathan bearer, to +help him to take him up to bed. He knew that he could trust him not to +gossip, and he would not for worlds have had it said about the house the +next day that Master Vane had been carried to bed drunk. + +Koda Bux was awake the moment his master touched his shoulder. He rose +at once and followed him. When they reached the library Sir Arthur +pointed without a word to where Vane lay. He looked at him and then at +the decanters, and said, without moving a feature save his lips: + +"Truly, Huzur, the young sahib is exceeding drunk, and he must sleep. +To-morrow the fires of hell will be burning in his brain and in his +blood. It is a thing that no others should know of. He shall sleep in +his bed, and thy servant shall watch by him until he is well, and +neither man nor woman shall come near him." + +"That is my wish, Koda," said Sir Arthur. "Now I will help you to take +him upstairs." + +"There is no need that thou, O protector of the poor, shouldst trouble +thyself. This is but one man's work." + +With that he stooped down, got his arms under Vane's knees and +shoulders, and lifted him up as easily as if he had been a lad of ten. +Sir Arthur took up the candle which he had brought down with him, and +went in front to his son's room. + +Koda laid him on the bed, and at once went to work with the deft +rapidity of a practised hand to remove his clothes. He saw that he could +do no more good, so, after laying his hand for a moment on Vane's wet, +cold brow, he turned away towards the door with a deep sigh, which was +not lost on Koda. + +"Trust him to me and sleep in peace, Huzur," he said. "I know how to +fight the devil that is in him and throw him out. To-morrow Vane Sahib +shall be as well as ever." + +"Do your best for him, Koda. This is the first time, and I hope the +last. Good-night." + +"Good-night, friend of the friendless," replied the Pathan, standing up +and stretching out his hands palms downwards. "Fear nothing. May your +sleep be as the repose of Nirvana." + +But there was neither rest nor sleep for Sir Arthur Maxwell that night. +That vision of the girl's face looking out of the cab had been to him a +vision half of heaven and half of hell. It was the face of the girl he +had wooed and worked for and won nearly thirty years before--a girl +whose hands for a brief space had opened the gates of Paradise to him. +But it was also the face of a woman who had brought into his life +something worse than the bitterness of death. + +As he paced up and down his bedroom through the still, lonely hours of +the night, he asked himself again and again what inscrutable fate had +brought this girl, the fresh, bright, living image of the woman who was +worse than dead, and his son Vane, the idol of his heart, and the hope +of his life, together. + +Why had this girl, this outcast bearing the name which he both loved and +hated, been the first to see in his son's eyes that fatal sign which he +knew so well, a sign which he had himself seen in eyes into which he had +once looked as a lad of twenty-four with anxious adoration to read his +fate in them. For years that flickering, wavering light had been to him +like the reflected glare from the flames of hell, and now this girl had +seen it as he had seen it, mocking and devilish in the eyes of his only +son. + +It would have been better--he saw that now--to have braced himself to +the task of telling Vane the whole of the miserable, pitiful story at +once, as soon, indeed, as Vane's own story had convinced him that he had +not escaped the curse which some dead and gone ancestor of his mother's +had transmitted to his unborn posterity. + +But it was a hard thing for a father to tell his son of his mother's +shame. As hard, surely, as it had been for Jephtha to keep his rash vow +and drive the steel into his daughter's breast. He had hoped that the +resolves which Vane had taken, enforced by a serious and friendly talk +the next day, would have been enough to avert the danger. + +He did not know, as he knew now, that the demon of inherited alcoholism +laughs at such poor precautions as this. Measures infinitely more +drastic would be needed, and they must be employed at no matter what +cost either to himself or Vane. + +And yet it was an awful thing to do. Year after year he had shrunk from +it, hoping that it would never be necessary; but now the necessity had +come at last. There could be no doubt of that. He had left his son sane +and strong, with brave, wise words on his lips. An hour after he had +gone back and found him a senseless thing, human only in shape. There +could be no hesitation after that. It must be done. + +Like many men of his kind, men whose lives have been passed in wrestling +with the barbarisms, the ignorance and the superstitions of lower races, +as well as with the blind forces of nature and the scourges of +pestilence and famine in distant lands, Arthur Maxwell was a man of deep +though mostly silent religious convictions, and if ever there was a time +when such a man could find strength and guidance in prayer surely this +was such a time, and yet he had walked up and down his room, which since +he had entered it had been his Gethsemane, for hours before he knelt +down by his bedside and lifted up his heart, if not his voice, in +prayer. + +He rose from his knees with clearer sight and greater strength to see +and face the terrible task which lay before him. It was quite plain to +him now that the task must be faced and carried through, and he was more +strongly determined than ever that before the next day was over Vane +should know everything that he could tell him. Still, there was no rest +for him yet, and for hours longer he walked up and down the room +thinking of the past and the future; but most of the past. + +About seven sheer physical fatigue compelled him to lie down on his bed, +and in a few minutes he fell off into an uneasy sleep. Just about this +time Vane woke--his mouth parched, his brain burning and throbbing, and +every nerve in his body tingling. As soon as he opened his eyes he saw +Koda Bux standing by his bedside. + +"What on earth's the matter, Koda?" he said in a voice that was half a +groan. "Great Scott, what a head I've got! Ah, I remember now. It was +that infernal whiskey. What the devil made me drink it?" + +"You are right, Vane Sahib," said Koda sententiously; "it was the +whiskey, which surely is distilled from fruits that grow only on the +shores of the Sea of Sorrow. Now your head is wracked with the torments +of hell, and your mouth is like a cave in the desert; but you shall be +cured and sleep, and when you wake you shall be as though you had never +tasted the drink that is both fire and water." + +He went away to the dressing-table, shook some pink powder out of a +little bottle into a glass, and came back to the bedside with the glass +in one hand and the water-bottle in the other. Then he poured the water +on to the powder and said: + +"Drink, sahib, and sleep! When you wake you will be well." + +The water seemed to turn into something like pink champagne as the +powder dissolved. Vane seized the glass eagerly, and took a long, +delicious drink. He had scarcely time to hand the glass back to Koda and +thank him before his burning brain grew cool, his nerves ceased to +thrill, a delightful languor stole over him, and he sank back on the +pillow and was asleep in a moment. The Pathan looked at him half sternly +and half sorrowfully for a few moments, then he laid his brown hand upon +his brow. It was already moist and cool. + +He turned away, and set to work to put the room in order and get out +Vane's clothes and clean linen for the day. Then he went downstairs and +brewed Sir Arthur's morning coffee as usual. This was always the first +of his daily tasks. When he took it up he found Sir Arthur still fully +dressed, lying on the bed, moving uneasily in his sleep. + +"The follies of the young are the sorrows of the old!" he murmured. "He +has not slept all night; still, this is a sleep which rests not nor +refreshes. His coffee will do him more good, and then he can bathe and +rest." + +He laid his hand lightly on Sir Arthur's shoulder. He woke at once and +drank his coffee. Then he asked how Vane was, and when he knew that he +was sleeping again, and would not wake for some hours, he got up, +undressed, and had a bath and dressed again. + +Then, after a not very successful attempt at breakfast, he went out and +turned into the Hammersmith Road in the direction of Brook Green. He +remembered the address that Miss Carol had given Vane just as he +remembered every other word of the conversation. He had determined to +call upon her, and to make as sure as possible that his dreadful +suspicions were correct before he told Vane the truth. + +He found No. 15, Melville Gardens, one of a row of neat little detached +houses; not much more than cottages, but cosy and comfortable-looking, +each with a tiny little plot of ground in front and behind, and with a +row of trees down each side of the road which seemed to stand in +apologetic justification of the title of gardens. + +The door was opened by a neatly-dressed, motherly-looking woman of about +forty instead of by the dishevelled, smutty-faced maid-of-all-work that +he half expected to find. + +"Does Miss Carol Vane live here?" he asked, with a curious feeling of +nervousness. + +"Yes, sir, she and Miss Murray are just finishing breakfast. Will you +come in and sit down, sir? Miss Vane won't be long." + +"Thank you, yes," he said, going in. "I wish to see her rather +particularly." + +"What name shall I say, sir?" said the woman, as she showed him into a +prettily-furnished little sitting-room opening out into the back garden +with French windows. + +"Sir Arthur Maxwell," he replied. "If you will give my compliments to +Miss Vane, and tell her that she will do me a great service by giving me +about half-an-hour's conversation, I shall be much obliged to you." + +The housekeeper made something like a little curtsey as she left the +room. She was distinctly impressed by the stately presence and old-world +courtesy of this bronzed, white-haired gentleman. He was so very +different from the general run of visitors at No. 15; but she had half +guessed his errand before she knocked at the door of the front room in +which Miss Carol and her friend and house-mate, Dora Murray, were +finishing their last cup of tea. + +"Well, Mrs. Ford," said Miss Carol, looking up from the letter she was +reading, "who might that be? This is pretty early for a morning call." + +"The gentleman's name is Sir Arthur Maxwell, Miss." + +"What!" said Miss Carol, colouring up and rising quickly from her chair. +"Sir Arthur Maxwell. What on earth does _he_ want?" + +"He said, miss, that he'd be very much obliged to you if you could give +him the pleasure of half-an-hour's conversation." + +"Oh, dear, I suppose he was the gentleman who stopped at the corner last +night just when my new acquaintance got out. His father, of course. I +suppose he's come to row me about making friends with his son and heir +last night." + +"One of the penalties of your fascinations, dear," said Dora, with a +smile which parted a pair of eminently kissable lips and showed a very +pretty set of teeth behind them. + +Dora was nearly a couple of inches taller than Miss Carol, and some +three years older. She had soft, lightish-brown hair, brown eyebrows, a +trifle browner, perhaps, than nature had painted them, and dark blue +eyes, which made a very pretty contrast. + +"Well," she went on, "I suppose there's nothing for you but to go and +interview the irate papa. But whatever did young hopeful want to go and +tell him all about it for, and even give him your address!" + +"If you'll excuse me, Miss," said the housekeeper, "I don't think that's +it. The gentleman isn't at all angry. He was as polite and nice to me as +ever could be. Such a _nice_ gentleman." + +"Dear me, Mrs. Ford, you seem quite impressed," said Miss Carol, +gathering up her correspondence. "Well, I'd better go and have it over, +whatever it is. I don't suppose I shall be very long. Meanwhile, Dora, +you may as well make yourself useful and dust the bikes. The old +gentleman won't eat me, I suppose. In fact, if Master Vane told him +everything, he ought to be very much obliged to me for my virtuous +reserve." + +And then, with a saucy smile at her own reflection in the glass as she +passed the mantelpiece, she walked towards the door. + +Carol, being a young lady of many and various experiences, did not often +find herself in a situation, however awkward it might be, which gave her +much cause for embarrassment. There were not many circumstances under +which she did not feel capable of taking perfect care of herself. Still, +she confessed to Dora afterwards that when she went into the little +sitting-room and faced the stately old gentleman who was waiting for her +she felt distinctly nervous--in short, "in something very like a +tremble," as she put it later on. + +The moment she looked at his face she could see his likeness to Vane, +and therefore in a measure to herself. She had, of course, nothing to be +afraid of, and therefore there was no cause for fear, but for some +reason or other she felt less at ease than she had done in many more +difficult situations. + +The same was almost equally true of Sir Arthur. In fact, when the door +opened and Miss Carol, looking exquisitely neat and pretty in a dainty, +grey, tailor-made cycling costume, walked into the room, he was unable +to restrain a very visible start. It was, indeed, as much as he could do +to keep himself from uttering an exclamation of astonishment. + +As he looked at her, more than thirty years vanished in a second, and he +saw himself a lad of twenty-four with his brand new Oxford degree, and +his first place on the Indian Civil Service list only just published, +walking down a country lane by the side of a girl, who, but for the +difference in costume, might have been this very girl standing before +him. + +"Good morning! Our housekeeper tells me that you wish to speak to me." + +Yes, the voice was the same, too, and so were the expression, the +intonation, the attitude, everything. But the words brought him back to +the present, and to the recollection of all that had happened since that +walk in the country lane. + +"Yes, Miss Vane," he heard himself saying, "I have taken the liberty of +calling to ask you if you would have any objection to a little +conversation with me. I won't detain you more than half an hour." + +"With pleasure," she said; "but won't you sit down?" she went on, +seating herself on the sofa. "I suppose I am right in thinking that you +are Mr. Vane Maxwell's father, and I suppose, too, you are the gentleman +who was at the corner of Warwick Gardens when he got out of the cab? I'm +afraid you were a good bit shocked," she continued, smiling rather +faintly. + +"I was not by any means so much shocked as astonished," Sir Arthur +replied gravely, "and, to avoid any misunderstanding, I had better say +at once that, though I was naturally a little bit startled, I was +infinitely more astonished, by the marvellous likeness----" + +"What, to him!" said Miss Carol, interrupting him with a pretty little +gesture of deprecation. "Yes, of course, I can quite understand that a +gentleman like you would be a bit disgusted to find a likeness between +your son and a girl like me, for I suppose he told you all about me? I +mean, you know the sort of disreputable person that I am?" + +Miss Carol said this with a distinct note of defiance in her voice. A +note which seemed to say, "I know what I am, and so do you, and if you +don't want to talk to me any longer you needn't." But she was +considerably astonished when Sir Arthur, leaning forward in his chair +and speaking very gravely, said: + +"My dear child--you are younger than Vane, you know, and I may call you +that without offence--I do know what you are, or perhaps it would be +more just to say what circumstances have made you. I don't want you to +think that I have come here to preach at you. That is no business of +mine. Still, I am deeply grieved, though I daresay you have no notion +why--I mean no notion of the real reason. I am afraid I am expressing +myself very awkwardly, but just now I don't quite seem to be able to +keep my thoughts in order." + +There was something in the gentle gravity of his tone and manner which +inspired Miss Carol with an unaccountable desire to go away and cry. She +didn't exactly know why, but she was certainly experiencing a very +uncomfortable feeling which was more like apprehension than anything +else. She couldn't think of anything else to say at the moment, and so +she said simply: + +"I don't know why you should be grieved, I mean in particular about me. +There are plenty of others like me, you know, a good many thousands in +London alone, I believe, and I suppose you would feel sorry for any of +them. There are lots worse off than I am, I can tell you. But why should +you be sorry for me particularly?" + +As she said this she crossed her legs and folded her hands over her +knee, leaning forward slightly and looking keenly at him. + +"Because," he replied, with a little quaver in his voice, but looking +steadily into her eyes, "because you are the living image of the woman +who was once my wife. A little over thirty years ago--by the way, may I +ask how old you are?" + +"I was eighteen last September," she said, "that is to say, I am getting +on for nineteen." + +"And your birthday?" he said. "You will forgive me asking you so many +questions, I know, when I tell you why I ask them; but of course, you +needn't answer them unless you choose." + +"There is no reason why I shouldn't," she said, "as far as I know. I was +born on the twentieth of September. What were you going to say?" + +"I was going to say that if my wife, I mean I should rather say the +woman who was my wife, could be put beside you now as she was thirty +years ago, dressed as you are now, it would be almost impossible to tell +the difference between you. You told my son, I think, that you take your +name Vane from your mother." + +"Yes," replied Miss Carol, "she told me that that was her name. I don't +know whether I was ever really christened or not, but an English +musician in Dresden, one of my mother's friends, called me Carol when I +was quite a little mite of a thing because I was always singing, and as +that was as good a name as any other, I suppose it stuck to me." + +"Do you know whether your mother was ever married?" + +"She had been, because she used to talk about it and about all she had +lost and all that sort of thing, you know, when she was drunk," replied +Miss Carol with a simple directness which went straight to Sir Arthur's +heart. "Of course, that was when I was quite a little thing, about eight +or nine. Then I was sent to a sort of boarding-school, half a school and +half a convent, and I didn't like that, so I ran away from it, as I told +your son last night." + +"I went home and found the house shut up. The concierge told me that my +mother had gone away in a carriage with two gentlemen--he said one +looked like a police agent--nearly a month before. He didn't know where +she'd gone to, and from that day to this I've never heard anything more +of her. I told your son the rest of it and I daresay he has told you, +so there's no need for me to go over it again." + +"Yes," said Sir Arthur, nodding slowly, "Vane told me, so if you please +I will ask you one or two more questions, and then I won't detain you +any longer." + +"I am in no hurry," she replied. "Please ask me any number you like." + +Her manner was now one of deep interest, for a suspicion was already +forming in her mind that this bronzed, grave-faced man had once been her +own mother's husband. + +"Thank you," he said. "I should like to ask you first whether you happen +to have any photograph of your mother?" + +Miss Carol shook her head decisively, and said: + +"No. I had one once in a locket, but when I went home and found she'd +gone away and left me all alone in Paris--that's where we were then--I +was so angry that I took it out and tore it up. I daresay it was very +wrong of me, but I couldn't help it, and to tell you the honest truth, I +can't say that I ever was as fond of her as a daughter should have +been." + +"I don't wonder at it," said Sir Arthur, with a sigh. + +Miss Carol looked up wonderingly as he said this, but he took no notice +and said: + +"But I suppose you would recognise a photograph of her if you saw one?" + +"Yes, if it was taken anywhere about the time that I knew her." + +"Quite so," said Sir Arthur, taking a leather letter-case out of his +pocket. "This was taken quite twenty years ago, a year or two after we +were married, in short. It is, or was, my wife." + +As he took out the photograph he got up, crossed the room, and held it +out to her. Miss Carol got up too, and as she took it she saw that his +hand was trembling. She took the old-fashioned, faded photograph and +looked at it. He saw that her face flushed as she did so. She gave it +back to him and said simply: + +"Yes, that is my mother." + +As he took the photograph from her he looked at her with sad, grave eyes +across the gulf of sin and shame in which the one great love of his life +had been lost. She was the daughter of his wife, and yet she was not his +daughter--and she was an outcast. The sting of the old shame came back +very keenly. The old wound was already open and bleeding again. All the +pride and hope and love of his life were centred now on his brilliant +son. A few hours before he had learnt that his mother had transmitted to +him the terrible, perhaps the fatal taint of inherited alcoholism; and +now he had just proved beyond doubt that Vane's half-sister--for she was +that in blood if not in law--was what she had just so frankly, so +defiantly even, admitted herself to be. + +And yet, how sweet and dainty she looked as she stood there before him, +a bright flush on her cheeks and a soft, regretful expression in those +big hazel eyes which were so wonderfully like _hers_! No one seeing her +and Vane together could possibly take them for anything but brother and +sister--and but for this marvellous likeness; but for the subtle +instinct of kindred blood which had spoken in this outcast's heart the +night before, would not a still deeper depth have opened in the hell of +that old infamy? There was at least that to be thankful for. + +"I suppose you don't know where she is now--and don't care, most +likely?" Carol added, raising her eyes almost timidly to his. + +"I do," he replied, slowly, "To tell you the truth, I was one of the men +who took her away from the house in the Rue St. Jean----" + +"You were!" she exclaimed, recoiling a little from him. "Then it was +really you who turned me out homeless into the streets of Paris?" + +"Yes, it was, I regret to say," he replied, almost humbly, "but I need +hardly tell you that I did it in complete ignorance. My ---- your mother +was making my name, my son's name, a scandal throughout Europe. She was +a hopeless dipsomaniac. I had, believe me, I had suffered for years all +that an honourable man could endure rather than blast my son's prospects +in life by taking proceedings for divorce, and so proclaiming to the +world that he was the son of such a woman." + +"Yes," said Carol, quietly, with a little catch in her voice, "I +understand--such a woman as I suppose I shall be some day. Of course, it +was very hard on you and your son. And I don't suppose it made much +difference to me after all. She'd have sold me to someone as soon as I +was old enough; and instead of that I had to sell myself. When women +take to drink like that they don't care about anything. What did you do +with her?" + +"The man with me," replied Sir Arthur, "was an officer of the French +Courts. He had a warrant authorising her detention in a home for chronic +inebriates. She is there still, little better than an imbecile, I regret +to say, and with no hope of recovery. The physicians I consulted told me +that she must have had the germs of alcoholic insanity in her blood from +her very birth. She told us that she had a daughter, and we traced you +to the school, though she obstinately refused to tell us anything that +would help us to find you. But we were too late; you had run away. We +hunted all Paris over for you, but you were utterly lost." + +"Well," said Carol, gently, "I wish I'd stopped now, or that you'd found +me. Things might have been different; but, of course, it can't be helped +now." + +"It was a terrible pity," he began, "but still, even now perhaps, +something may be done----" + +"We won't talk about that now, if you please, sir," she interrupted, so +decisively that he saw at once that there was no discussion of the +subject possible. + +"Pardon me," he said, quickly, "I fear I have annoyed you. Nothing, I +assure you, could be farther from my intention. Now I have troubled you +enough, and more than enough, and I am afraid I have recalled some very +unpleasant memories----" + +"Not anything like as bad for me as for you, sir," she said, as he +paused for a moment. "If I have been of any service to you, I'm very +glad, though it's a miserable business altogether." + +"Yes, and worse than miserable," he replied, with a slow shake of his +head. Then, glancing through the French windows he saw Dora rubbing one +of two bicycles down with a cloth in the little back garden, and he went +on: "But I see you are getting ready to go for a ride. I must not keep +you any longer, I am deeply grateful to you, believe me, and I hope our +acquaintance may not end here. And now, good-morning." + +He held out his hand with the same grave courtesy with which he would +have offered it to the noblest dame of his acquaintance. She looked up +sharply as though to say, "Do you really mean to shake hands with _me_?" +Then her eyes dropped, and the next moment her hand was lying, trembling +a little, in his. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + + +When he left Melville Gardens, Sir Arthur did not go straight home. He +knew that Vane would not be awake for two or three hours yet, and after +a few moments' hesitation he decided to go and call on his old friend, +Godfrey Raleigh, with whom he had been dining the night before, and, if +he found him at home, put the whole case frankly before him and ask his +advice. + +He had just retired with a well-earned K.C.S.I. from the Bench of the +Supreme Court of Bengal, but he was one of those men on whom neither +years nor climate seem to take any effect, and at sixty-five his body +was as vigorous and his brain as active and clear as they had been at +thirty-five. He had married rather late, and Enid, the Helen of that +Iliad of the Wheelhouse, was his only child--and therefore naturally the +very apple of his eye and the idol of his heart. + +Her engagement to Vane had seemed to both the fathers and to her mother +the most natural and the most desirable arrangement that could have been +made. Vane would take a brilliant degree, he would enter the Diplomatic +Service under the best of auspices, and when Enid had completed her +education with a couple of years on the Continent they were to be +married on her twentieth birthday. That was the promise of these two +bright young lives. What would the fulfilment be? + +Sir Godfrey was, as he believed, the only one of his acquaintance in +England who knew the truth of the tragedy of his life. They had been +chums at Eton and Oxford. They had gone out to India together, Sir +Godfrey with a judicial appointment, and Sir Arthur as Political Agent +to one of the minor Independent States, both of them juniors with many +things to learn and many steps to climb before they took a really active +and responsible part in the propulsion of that huge and complicated +machine which is called the Indian Government. + +The Fates had thrown them a good deal together, and they had got to know +each other well, not quickly, because men who are men need a great deal +of knowing; but as the months had grown into years, and the years into a +decade or more, they had really learnt to know each other. They had gone +home together on the same ship to marry the girls who had been waiting +for them since their troths had been plighted during their university +days. They had come back with their brides on the same ship to India; +Godfrey Raleigh had been godfather to his friend's first-born son. Three +years later, after the shadow had fallen upon his own life, he had +performed the same office for his friend's daughter, the successor of a +baby girl who had died during the Rains. + +These two children were now the youth and maiden who, within the next +two or three years were to be man and wife. But after the events of the +last twelve hours or so, Sir Arthur felt that it would not be either +loyal to his old friend, or just to him and his daughter not to go and +tell him frankly what he had learnt, and to take, not only his opinion, +but also his advice on the subject. + +He found Sir Godfrey at home, and the judge quickly saw that he had not +called upon any ordinary concern, so he asked him to come and smoke a +pipe in his den, and there Sir Arthur, taking up the thread where it had +been dropped years before, told him in a few straight, short sentences +the rest of the story to the end of his interview with Miss Carol. + +"Of course, you will understand, Raleigh," he said, when he had +finished, "I have told you this because I thought it was only right to +do so. My boy is engaged to marry your girl. It is quite plain, I am +sorry to say, that this alcoholic taint is in him, and as I have told +you this Miss Carol Vane, charming and all as I must confess her to be +from what I have seen of her, is after all Vane's half-sister, and she +is also what I told you she was." + +"Well, my dear Maxwell, I must confess that that is a very difficult +problem indeed for us to decide. Very difficult indeed," Sir Godfrey had +replied. + +"You see, to put it quite plainly, and, if as an old lawyer I may say +so, from the judicial point of view, there are two courses open to us. +First, we may or, I would rather say, we _might_ adopt the strictly +scientific view of the matter and say that, since the unfortunate woman +who was once your wife has apparently transmitted the taint of +alcoholism to your son, it would therefore be improper for him to marry +Enid for fear that he should further transmit this taint to his own +offspring. + +"That, I suppose, is the way in which a coldblooded scientist would put +it; but on the other hand I think the matter should also be considered +from the purely human point of view, and here, I speak again as an old +judge. When you married your wife you had no notion that she had +inherited this taint of insanity, as we may well call it, from some +unknown ancestor. Now the same thing might have happened with my wife, +or in fact, with any other woman. + +"It is perfectly well known that this poison, as one is obliged to call +it, may lie latent for generations; may, in fact, die out altogether. On +the other hand, what might have been only a vice in the grandfather or +the father may develop as insanity in the grandson or the son. It is not +for us to decide these things, at least, that is my view. + +"You and I have more experience, more judgment; but I think that your +son and my daughter will have more accurate instincts and keener +intuitions. My own judgment I reserve entirely, and I advise you to do +the same. + +"Go home and tell Vane everything. Don't spare yourself or him, for in a +case like this truth, the whole truth, is, after all, the greatest +mercy. I will tell my wife the whole story this afternoon, and she will +tell Enid when she gets back from Paris. Then I think the best that we +can do will be to leave them to find a solution of the problem between +them. Depend upon it that, whatever solution they do arrive at, it will +be more accurate and will stand the test of time better than any +arbitrary action which you or I might take." + +And so ended the only false--utterly and hopelessly false--judgment +which Sir Godfrey Raleigh had ever delivered. + +Sir Arthur took it as gospel, it all seemed so clear and so logical, so +fair to everybody; just the sort of judgment, in fact, which might have +been expected from a man of such vast and varied experience. Both of +them had the best of intentions, for were not the happiness, the +earthly fates of their two only children bound up in it? + +Under such circumstances, though the advice might be mistaken, it was +absolutely impossible that it could be anything else but honest and +sincere. It was not for them to see into the future, nor yet to solve +those impossibly intricate problems of human passion, of human strength +and weakness, which, in defiance of all laws human and divine, break +through the traditions of ages, make a mockery of all commonplace laws, +and finally solve themselves with an accuracy as pitiless as it is +precise. + +Sir Arthur left his friend's house with the firm conviction that the +only thing to be done under the circumstances was to follow his advice. +When he got back to his house in Warwick Gardens, the door was opened by +Koda Bux, and the first thing he said to him was: + +"Is Mr. Vane awake?" + +"Sahib, he is, and well. He is even as though he had never drunk of the +liquor of fire. He is in the library awaiting your return." + +It was then getting on for one o'clock, the lunch-time of Sir Arthur's +household, and the table was already laid in what was called the +breakfast-room, that is to say a room looking out upon one of the long, +back gardens which are attached to the houses in Warwick Gardens. + +Vane was sitting in the library waiting, something in shame and +something in fear, for his father's return. He more than half-expected +that his father would come in and begin at once to haul him over the +coals on account of what had happened the night before. He did not feel +altogether satisfied about his adventure with Miss Carol, and he was +very much ashamed of himself, indeed, for what had happened afterwards. +But as yet, he had no suspicion of the terrible secret which in the +almost immediate future was to decide his destiny in life. The dreadful +fact of inherited alcoholism was yet to be revealed to him. He thought +that his father was simply going to rate him for having exceeded the +bounds of prudence during his night out, for coming home in a cab with +such a person as Miss Carol, and then, worse than all, to tell him that +he had made a beast of himself by beginning to drink whiskey when he was +alone after having refused to take anything while his father was in the +room. It was that that he was really afraid of. + +He had no idea of what had happened since the time that he had fallen +from his chair on to the hearth-rug, saving only the brief awakening in +his bed with Koda Bux standing beside him, the drinking of the +crimson-coloured effervescing liquid, and then the long, calm sleep +which had spread itself like a gulf between the agony of the one +awakening and the peace of the next. + +He was sitting in one of the big arm-chairs in the library when his +father came in. He got up and stood before him, something as a criminal +might do before his judge, expecting to hear something like a sentence +from his lips. He was very much ashamed of himself, and being so was +perfectly prepared to take his punishment which would probably come in +the shape of a few cold words of reproof, and a hard look in his +father's eyes which he had seen before. But, instead of that, when he +got up out of the arm-chair, and began somewhat falteringly: + +"Dad, I'm awfully sorry----" his father stopped him, and said with a +look at the clock on the mantel-piece: "I think it is about lunch time, +isn't it? Yes, there is the gong. How's your appetite?" + +"Well, better than I thought it would be," said Vane, "better, in fact, +than it deserves to be. That stuff that Koda gave me this morning has +worked wonders----" + +"Very well, then," said Sir Arthur, cutting him short, "I think we may +as well go and have some lunch." + +The meal was eaten in a somewhat awkward silence, broken by odds and +ends of talk which were obviously spoken and replied to, not for the +purpose of conversation, but to fill up time. Both father and son were +as unhappy as men could very well be, and yet the ancient custom which +forbids the Anglo-Saxon race to talk about unpleasant things at +meal-times, prevented Sir Arthur from saying what he had to say, and +Vane from asking what he wanted to ask. + +At last, when Koda came in and said that coffee was served in the Den +they got up, both of them feeling a certain sense of relief, although +both knew that the worst was yet to come. + +When they got into the Den, Sir Arthur said to Koda in Urdu: + +"The house is empty. There is no one here. The door is bolted. No one +must enter, till I say so." + +He opened the door, spread the palms of his hands outwards, inclined his +head, and said in the same language: "Thou art obeyed, Huzur. It is +already done." Then he backed out of the door and shut it. + +Sir Arthur got up out of his chair, turned the key in the lock, and said +to Vane in a tone whose calmness astonished him almost as much as the +words did: + +"Vane, why did you drink that whiskey last night? You know I asked you +to have some, and you said that although you had never disobeyed me +before, if I had ordered you to have some you would not have done it. +And yet, after I had left the room you emptied the decanter. Why was +that?" + +Vane had expected anything but this, for his father had spoken as +quietly as if he had been asking him about the most ordinary concern of +their daily life. He remembered dimly those few dreadful minutes after +the subtle aroma from the whiskey decanter had reached his nostrils, the +swift intoxication, the brilliant series of visions which had passed +before his eyes, and then the dead, black night which had fallen over +his senses, and after that nothing more until he had awakened with +parched mouth and burning brain, and Koda standing by his bedside. + +"I'm afraid, dad, I was very drunk last night, but why, I don't know. I +was sober enough when I came in, you know that yourself. But somehow, +just when you had gone out of the room and told me to put the spirit +case away, I took up the whiskey decanter and smelt it. There seemed to +be some infernal influence in it which made me simply long to drink. I +did not want to in the ordinary way, and as I had been having brandy and +soda and champagne before, of course, whiskey was the very worst thing I +could possibly have drunk. Yet it seemed somehow to get hold of me. I +felt as though I _had_ to drink. It didn't matter what it was so long as +it was alcohol. It was the smell of it that intoxicated me first, and +when I had once smelt it I went on, till I was dead drunk, and I suppose +that is the way that you found me. That is all that I know about it. I +am horribly ashamed of myself, and I can only promise you that, if I +can help it, it will never occur again." + +"Sit down, Vane, and let us talk this over," said Sir Arthur, seating +himself in the arm-chair on the other side of the fire-place. "I suppose +you thought when I came back that I was going to give you the usual sort +of lecture that a father would give his son under the circumstances. +Well, I am not going to do that. I am sorry to say that it is a great +deal more serious than that." + +"What do you mean, dad?" said Vane, getting up out of the arm-chair into +which he had thrown himself, as though resigned to receive his sentence. +"More serious than that? Surely it is bad enough for a fellow to come +home as I did last night, and then get drunk on whiskey and have to be +carried to bed. There can't be anything very much worse than that." + +"There might have been," said Sir Arthur, "if you had not stopped the +cab where you did. What would you say if I told you that that girl--you +remember what you said to me about her likeness to yourself--what would +you say if I were to tell you that that girl is your sister?" + +"Good God! Dad, you don't mean that, do you? It can't be. I never had a +sister. You have always told me that I am the only child. Mother died +twenty years ago, didn't she? And that girl was only about nineteen. No, +you can't mean it!" + +"Yes," said Sir Arthur, in a tone which seemed very strange to his son. +"I do mean it. When I told you that your mother had died a few months +after you were born, I did not tell you the truth. She died to me and to +you, but that was all. She is alive still. That girl that you drove up +in the cab with last night was her daughter, but not mine." + +No more terrible words than these could have Vane turned white to his +lips as he heard them, and for a moment he looked into his father's grey +stern face with a glance that had something of hate in it. His fists +even clenched and his shoulders squared as though the impulse was on him +to raise his hands against him. But there was such an infinite sadness +in Sir Arthur's eyes and such an expression of unspeakable suffering on +his hard-set features, that as he looked at him the anger died out of +Vane's eyes and his hands fell limp and open by his side. + +It was some time before he was able to command his voice sufficiently to +shape coherent words, but at length he managed to say in a hard, +half-choking tone: + +"Of course it is impossible that you could tell me anything but the +truth, dad. And so I am the son of a disgraced woman, am I? Poor Eny, +what will she think of me now? Of course it will be all over between +us?" + +His instinct had spoken, as Sir Godfrey Raleigh had said it would, and +spoken truly. But Sir Arthur said quickly: + +"No; my boy. It is bad enough, God knows, but it may not be as bad as +that. I have been to see Miss Vane this morning, and when I had +satisfied myself of the relationship between you, I went on to Raleigh +and told him the whole story, as I thought it was only right to do. He +said, very properly I think, that it was a matter for you and Enid to +decide between yourselves, for after all it is the happiness of your +lives which is in question, and therefore the decision ought to rest +with you." + +"I don't see how there can be any decision but one," said Vane, who had +sat down again, and, with his elbows on his knees and his face between +his hands, was staring with blank eyes down at the carpet. "And so I am +the son of that girl's mother, am I? Well, it couldn't be very much +worse than that, and yet, God help us, she is my mother after all." + +Then he threw himself back in his chair, let his hands fall limply over +the arms and stared up at the ceiling. + +"You may as well tell me the whole of the story, now dad," he went on, +in a broken, miserable voice. "You had better tell me, and then I shall +know where I am." + +His father looked at him for a moment or two in silence, and then he +said, with a note of reproof in his tone: + +"That is a hasty judgment, Vane, but a natural one, I admit. When I have +told you the story you will see what I mean. The mother who bore you was +as good and pure a woman as ever lived when she became your mother, and +this girl, from what I have seen of her this morning, I am perfectly +certain is thoroughly good and honest in herself. I am satisfied that it +is her fate that has made her what she is; not her fault." + +"Yes," said Vane, "I was wrong. After all I have no right to judge my +mother. I remember nothing about her, and as for Carol, she is a good +girl whatever else she may be. Can't something be done for her, dad? I +mean something to get her out of that horrible life. It is too awful to +think of, isn't it? We must do something." + +"That's just what I should have expected you to say, Vane," said his +father, "and anything that I can do shall be done. But I'm afraid it +won't be very easy. I did suggest something of the sort, of course, but +she cut me short very quickly. She simply said that she could not +discuss the subject then, and there was an end of it. I am quite certain +that anything which had even a suggestion of charity about it would be +quite out of the question." + +"Of course it would," said Vane, almost angrily. "After all, she is my +sister. However, that can wait. Now tell me what you were going to tell +me. How did all this begin? Do you know who the man was, because if so I +want to go and see him?" + +"No, I don't, Vane," his father replied, slowly. "To tell you the truth, +I never even attempted to find out. We were living at Simla at the time, +and Simla is, as perhaps you know, not the most moral of places. You +were nearly three years old, and for about a year your mother had shown +signs of what doctors call now Alcoholic Insanity. I shall never forget +the first time that I found her drunk----" + +"Never mind that, dad," Vane interrupted, with a sharp catch in his +voice, "I don't want to hear about it, it's bad enough already. Was +Carol right about that light which she used to see in her eyes and which +I suppose you saw in mine last night?" + +"Yes, perfectly," replied Sir Arthur. "I used to think it beautiful +once, before I knew what a dreadful meaning it had. When she had had a +glass or so of champagne, her eyes--and they were just like yours and +Carol's--used to light up marvellously. People used to speak of them as +the most beautiful eyes in the East; but afterwards, that light in them +began to burn brighter, and when at last she gave way completely, it +became something horrible, although, somehow, it was still +beautiful--damnably beautiful." + +"Well, one night," Sir Arthur went on, leaning back in his chair and +staring into vacancy, "she went out to spend the evening, as she told +me, with a friend; as a matter of fact it was Raleigh's sister. She had +been drinking a little during the afternoon, but I felt that she would +be safe there, for both Raleigh and his sister knew of this miserable +failing of hers. Unfortunately, I had a lot of work to do that evening, +and I was unable to go with her. I went about eleven o'clock to bring +her home. I found she had not been there at all. I went back and sat up +the whole night, I needn't tell you Vane what my thoughts were. She +didn't come. She never came. + +"A month afterwards I got a letter from her written from Bombay. She +confessed that for over a year she had been deceiving me; that another +man had stolen her love from me; that she could never face me or look +upon you again, and that was all. She gave no address, no sign that I +could trace her by. If she had done I would have forgiven her and asked +her to come back for your sake. But it was over ten years before I saw +her again, and then it was in a house in a wretched street in Paris. + +"Then she was a drunkard, a hopeless drunkard, lost to all sense and +shame. She had taken my name again and was making it infamous, and for +your sake I was forced to take some decided steps. I took proceedings in +the French Courts, and got authority to confine her in an asylum for +inebriates, and she is there now, almost an imbecile." + +"And what about Carol?" said Vane, in a hard, strained voice, "doesn't +she know who her father is, and couldn't you have got a divorce?" + +"Carol does not know for certain who her father is," said Sir Arthur. +"There was someone who went about the Continent a good deal with her +mother when she was very young, and she thinks that he was. It is quite +possible that he may have been the scoundrel, whoever he was, who took +her away from Simla. As for the divorce, of course I could have got one, +but I had no desire to marry again, and I preferred to let the thing +rest as it was, rather than drag our name through the cesspool of the +Divorce Court and the newspapers. Everybody was very good to me, and in +time I lived it down and it was forgotten. In fact, I suppose if it +hadn't been for that chance meeting of yours last night, it might never +have been heard of again." + +"Then that," said Vane, "is, I suppose, the secret of my drinking the +whiskey last night, and the explanation of the light which Carol saw in +my eyes when I had drunk too much champagne. My blood is poisoned, and +so, when I've drunk a certain amount, the smell of alcohol is +irresistible. There's one thing perfectly certain, I don't like whiskey +and I never have liked it, and I'm quite sure I never wanted it less +than I did last night; and yet when I smelt it, the smell somehow seemed +to get up into my brain and force me to drink it. + +"I tried my best to resist it. Honestly I did, dad, but it was no use. I +tasted it, and then I took a long drink of it, and then I took another. +I didn't seem to get drunk, I went mad. I saw some magnificent visions, +they seemed to be all round the room, nickering like the Biograph, then, +all of a sudden, they vanished, and I don't remember anything more +until I woke and found Koda standing beside me. Now was that the sort of +thing that used to happen to my mother?" + +"It was," replied his father, "exactly, and when she came to her senses +after one of her bouts, she used to implore me to keep the smell, even +the sight, of liquor away from her. Of course I did. I gave up drinking +myself, and what I had in the house for friends I kept constantly under +lock and key. It seemed to be successful for a time, and then she began +to get liquor from somewhere else. I never could find out how or where +she did it. I had her watched, but it was no use. Weeks would pass and +she would be perfectly sober. Then, without the slightest warning, she +would go out for a walk or to pay some calls and come back, not drunk, +but getting drunk. + +"We used to have some terrible scenes then, as you may believe. I +dismissed four butlers because she had either bribed or frightened them +into giving her the keys of the wine cellar. I had the best medical men +in India for her, and at last I got her to consent to go into a +Sanitorium. That, however, was merely a blind to keep my suspicions +quiet. It was only a few days before she was to have gone there that she +disappeared." + +"And you never had any suspicion about the scoundrel that she went away +with? I expect if the truth was known, she got the liquor secretly +through him after you had stopped it. I am beginning already to have a +presentiment that I shall meet that man some day, and if I do, may God +have mercy on him, for I won't!" + +"No, no, Vane, don't say that, my boy! Remember what is +written--'Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord.' Whoever he is his sin will +find him out, if it has not done so already." + +Sir Arthur spoke with the absolute conviction of a deeply religious man. +He believed his own words honestly; and yet, if he could have seen how +his own prophecy was to be fulfilled, he would have given his right +hand, nay, he would even have shaken hands with the man who had so +deeply wronged him, rather than that they should have had so terrible a +fulfilment. + +Indeed, even while he was speaking the wheels of Fate had already begun +to revolve. + +When Carol and Dora returned from their ride Dora found a letter waiting +for her. She opened it, glanced quickly over the page and then said: + +"Carol, how will this suit you for this evening? I think a night out +would do you good after your little shake-up this morning. Listen-- + + "DEAR DORA, + + "Yesterday I became a happy bachelor for a fortnight. Encumbrances + gone to Folkestone. If you have nothing better to do, meet me at + the 'West End' at 7.30 this evening, and, if possible, bring Miss + Vane, as I am bringing a friend, who, after my description of + her--don't be jealous!--is quite anxious to meet her. He is good + looking and very well off, and I think she will like him. + + "Hoping you will both be able to come, + + "Yours ever, + "BERNARD." + +"That sounds promising," said Miss Carol. "If he's that sort, and nice +as well, and has plenty of the necessary, I shouldn't mind if he took me +on as a sort of permanence. Somehow, after last night and this morning, +I've got sick of this general knocking-about. Besides, it's no class. +All right, I'll come. A bit of a kick-up will do me good, I think. That +talk with the old gentleman this morning gave me quite a number 25 hump, +though the ride has worked a good bit of it off. Now let's feed, I'm +hungry enough to dine off cold boiled block ornaments." + +Mr. Bernard Falcon, the writer of the letter to Dora, was principal +partner in the somewhat incongruously named firm of solicitors, Messrs. +Falcon and Lambe, of Mansion House Chambers, E.C. The firm did all sorts +of work, provided only that it paid; the highest class under their +style, and the other sorts--the money-lending and "speculative +business"--through their own "jackals," that is to say seedy and +broken-down solicitors who had made a failure of their own business, but +had managed to keep on the Rolls and were not above doing "commission +work" for more prosperous firms. + +Mr. Lambe, away from his business, was a most excellent person; a good +husband and father, a regular church-goer, and a generous supporter of +all good works in and about Denmark Hill, where he lived. He was one of +those strangely constituted men--of whom there are multitudes in the +world--who will earn money by the most questionable, if not absolutely +dishonest, methods, without a qualm of conscience, and give liberally of +that same money without recognising for a moment that what they honestly +believe they are giving to God, is a portion of the Wages of Sin--which, +as good Christians, they ought never to have earned. + +Mr. Bernard Falcon, on the other hand, in his private life, aimed at +nothing more than respectability in the worst sense of the word. His +wife and his two little girls went to church. He himself went on Sunday +mornings when he had no more pressing engagements. His name appeared +regularly on the subscription lists published in connection with St. +Michael's, Brondesbury, his parish church, and he also paid the rent of +No. 15, Melville Gardens, Brook Green, in addition to one hundred and +fifty pounds a year as what he would have called "a retainer" to Miss +Dora Russell--to say nothing of certain milliner's and jeweller's bills +which he liquidated, sometimes cheerfully and sometimes grudgingly, +according to his humour and their amount. + +When Carol and Dora got out of their cab at the door of the "West End" +and went into the little vestibule-bar to the left, they found two men +in evening dress waiting for them. One of them--a man of about forty, +bald on the temples, of medium height, well-fed and well-groomed, and +not by any means bad-looking, though of an entirely mediocre type--Carol +greeted with the easy familiarity of old acquaintance, for she had known +him for nearly a year as Dora's 'particular friend.' The other, tall, +well-built, handsome, and with that unmistakable stamp of breeding on +him which Mr. Bernard Falcon totally lacked, she instantly recognised as +Reginald Garthorne, her intended companion for the evening. + +The first thing he did when they had been introduced by Bernard Falcon, +was to apologise for what he had said in front of the Criterion the +night before. He did it with admirably calculated deference, and in such +perfectly chosen words, that it was quite impossible for her not to +accept his apology and "make friends." + +During the evening he became completely fascinated, not only by her +beauty, but far more so by the extraordinary charm of her manner. He +was a man who, apart from his physical qualities and good looks, could, +when he chose, make himself very pleasing to women, and, without showing +a trace of effort, he did his very best to please Miss Carol, and +succeeded so completely, that when, a few days later, he made a proposal +of a partly domestic nature to her, she, after a brief consultation with +Dora, accepted it. + +At the end of the month the house in Melville Gardens was to let, and +Carol and Dora were installed in a flat in Densmore Gardens, South +Kensington, for the rent of which Reginald Garthorne and Mr. Bernard +Falcon were jointly responsible--of course, under other names. The only +condition that Carol had made with Garthorne, was that, whatever +happened, he would not tell Vane of her change of address, and he, for +very good reasons of his own, had promised unconditionally. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + + +The next day Enid Raleigh came home. + +Almost the first thing she said to her mother, who had met her at the +station with the carriage, was: + +"Well, and where is Master Vane, please? He is in town, isn't he? Why +didn't he come to meet me? I shall have to make him do penance for +this." + +The words were lightly spoken, spoken in utter unconsciousness of the +deep meaning which Fate had put into them. So far as Enid herself was +concerned, and as, in fact, she was just thinking at the moment, all +they meant was that at their next meeting she would refuse Vane his +long-accustomed lover's kiss, and then, after an explanation occupying +some three or four minutes at most, surrender at discretion, after which +would come the luxury of playing at being offended and standing on her +dignity for a few minutes more, and then enjoying the further luxury of +making it up. + +"Yes, dear," said her mother, "Vane is in town still. I think he doesn't +go back to Oxford until the end of the week, but he hasn't been very +well lately----" + +"Not well!" exclaimed Enid, sitting up out of the corner of the carriage +into which she had leaned back with that easy abandon which comes so +naturally to people accustomed to comfort all their lives. "Ill! Why, +Vane's never been ill in his life. What's the matter? It isn't anything +serious, is it? You don't mean that he's really ill, mother, do you?" + +There was no mistaking the reality of the anxiety in her tone. Her +mother recognised it instantly, but she also saw that a brougham +rattling over the streets of London was not exactly the place to enter +upon such explanations as it was her destiny and her duty to make to +this brilliant, beautiful, spoilt darling of a daughter who was sitting +beside her. + +So far as she knew, every hope, every prospect of Enid's life, that +bright young life which, in the fuller acceptation of the term, was only +just going to begin, was connected more or less intimately with Vane +Maxwell. + +Ever since they had come home together from Bombay on that memorable +voyage, she and Vane had been sweethearts. They were very much in love +with each other, and so far their love had been a striking exception to +that old proverb which comes true only too often. Saving only those +lovers' quarrels which don't count because they end so much more +pleasantly than they begin, there had never been a cloud in that +morning-sky of life towards which they had so far walked hand in hand. +It seemed as though the Fates themselves had conspired to make +everything pleasant and easy for them; and of course it had never struck +either of them that when the Fates do this kind of thing, they always +have a more or less heavy account on the other side--to be presented in +due course. + +Lady Raleigh knew this, and her daughter did not. She knew that the +terrible explanation had to come, but she very naturally shrank from +the inevitable--and so, woman-like, she temporised. + +"Really, dear," she said, "I can't talk with all this jolting and +rattle. When we get home I will tell you all about it. Vane himself is +not ill at all. He is just as well as ever he was. It isn't that." + +"Then I suppose," said Miss Enid, looking round sharply, "my lord has +been getting himself into some scrape or other--something that has to be +explained or talked away before he likes to meet me. Is that it?" + +"No, Enid, that is not it," replied her mother gravely, "but really, +dear, I must ask you to say nothing more about it just now. When we get +home we'll have a cup of tea, and then I'll tell you all about it." + +"Oh, very well," said Enid, a trifle petulantly. "I suppose there's some +mystery about it. Of course there must be, or else he'd have come here +himself, so we may as well change the subject. How do you like the new +flat, and what's it like?" + +As she said this she threw herself back again into the corner and stared +out of the opposite window of the brougham with a look in her eyes which +seemed to say that for the time being she had no further interest in any +earthly affairs. + +Lady Raleigh, glad of the relief even for the moment, at once began a +voluble and minute description of the new flat in Addison Gardens into +which they had moved during her daughter's last sojourn in Paris, and +this, with certain interjections and questions from Enid, lasted until +the brougham turned into the courtyard and drew up in front of the +arched doorway out of which the tall, uniformed porter came with the +fingers of his left hand raised to the peak of his cap, to open the +carriage door. + +Sir Godfrey was out, and would not be back until dinner time; so, as +soon as they had taken their things off, Lady Raleigh ordered tea in her +own room, and there, as briefly as was consistent with the gravity of +the news she had to tell, she told Enid everything that her husband had +heard from Sir Arthur. + +Enid, although she flushed slightly at certain portions of the +narrative, listened to the story with a calmness which somewhat +surprised her mother. + +The little damsel for whose kisses those two boys had fought ten or +eleven years ago, had now grown into a fair and stately maiden of +eighteen, very dainty and desirable to look upon, and withal possessing +a dignity which only comes by birth and breeding and that larger +training and closer contact with the world which modern girls of her +class enjoy. Young as she was, hers was not the innocence of ignorance. +She had lived too late in the century, and had already been too far +afield in the world for that. + +"It comes to this, then," she said quietly, almost hardly, "instead of +being dead, as we have believed all along, Vane's mother is alive; an +imbecile who has become so through drink, and who seems to have +misbehaved herself very badly when Vane was a baby. She is in an asylum, +and will probably remain there till she dies. No one but ourselves and +this interesting young person, Miss Carol Vane, appears to know anything +about it, and I really don't see why Vane is to be held responsible for +his mother's insanity--for I suppose that's what it comes to. + +"And then there is Miss Carol herself. Of course she's not a +particularly desirable family connection; but I don't suppose Vane would +expect me to meet her, much less fall upon her neck and greet her as his +long-lost sister. I suppose, too, that between us we could manage to do +something for her, and put her in a more respectable way of living and +induce her to hold her tongue. + +"As for Vane getting drunk that night, of course it's very improper and +all that sort of thing from the Sunday School point of view; but I don't +suppose he was the only undergraduate who took too much to drink that +night. Probably several hundreds of them did, and I daresay a good many +of them were either engaged or going to be. Would they consider that a +reason why they should go and break off their engagements? I'm afraid +there wouldn't be many marriages nowadays if engagements were broken off +on that account. + +"Of course, mam, dear, what you've told me is not exactly pleasant to +hear, but still, after all, I really can't see anything so very dreadful +in it. Most families have a skeleton of some sort, I suppose, and this +is ours, or will be when Vane and I are married. We must simply keep the +cupboard door shut as closely as possible. It's only what lots of other +people have to do." + +"Well, my dear," said her mother, "I must say I'm very glad to see you +take it so reasonably. I'm afraid I could not have done so at your age, +but then girls are so different now, and, besides, you always had more +of your father's way of looking at things than mine. Then, I suppose, +Vane may come and see you. I think it was very nice of him not to come +until you had been told everything." + +"May come!" said Enid. "I should think so. If he doesn't I shall be +distinctly offended. I shall expect him to come round and make his +explanations in person before long, and when he does we will have a few +minutes chat _a deux_--and I don't think I shall have very much +difficulty in convincing him of the error of his ways, or, at any rate, +of his opinions." + +"What an extremely conceited speech to make, dear!" said her ladyship +mildly, and yet with a glance of motherly pride at the beauty which went +so far towards justifying it. "Well, perhaps you are right. Certainly, +if anyone can, you can, and I sincerely hope you will. It would be +dreadful if anything were to happen to break it off after all these +years." + +The colour went out of Enid's cheeks in an instant, and she said in +quite an altered voice: + +"Oh, for goodness sake, mamma, don't say anything about that! You know +how fond I am of Vane. I simply couldn't give him up, whatever sort of a +mother he had, and if he had a dozen half-sisters as disreputable as +this Miss Carol Vane--the very idea of her having the impudence to use +his name! No, I shan't think of that--I couldn't. If Vane did that it +would just break my heart--it really would. It would be like taking half +my life away, and it would simply kill me. I couldn't bear it." + +She honestly meant what she said, not knowing that she said it in utter +ignorance of the self that said it. + +It was in Enid's mind, as it also was in her mother's, to send a note +round to Warwick Gardens to ask both Vane and his father to come round +to an informal dinner, and to discuss the matter there and then; but +neither of them gave utterance to the thought. Lady Raleigh, knowing her +daughter's proud and somewhat impetuous temperament, instinctively +shrank from making a suggestion which she would have had very good +grounds for rejecting, more especially as she had already given such a +very decided opinion as to Vane's scruples. + +As for Enid herself, she honestly thought so little of these same +scruples that she felt inclined to accuse Vane of a Quixotism which, +from her point of view at least, was entirely unwarrantable. It was, +therefore, quite impossible for her to first suggest that they should +meet after a parting during which they might have unconsciously reached +what was to be the crisis of both their lives. + +The result was that the thought remained unspoken, and Enid, after +spending the evening in vexed and anxious uncertainty, went to bed; and +then, as soon as she felt that she was absolutely safe in her solitude, +discussed the whole matter over again with herself, and wound the +discussion up with a good hearty cry, after which she fell into the +dreamless slumber of the healthy and innocent. + +When she woke very early the next morning, or, rather, while she was on +that borderland between sleeping and waking where the mind works with +such strange rapidity, she reviewed the whole of the circumstances, and +came to the conclusion that she was being very badly treated. Vane knew +perfectly well that she was coming back yesterday afternoon, and +therefore he had no right to let these absurd scruples of his prevent +him from performing the duties of a lover and meeting her at the +station. But, even granted that something else had made it impossible +for him to do so, there was absolutely no excuse for his remaining away +the whole afternoon and evening when he must have known how welcome a +visit would have been. + +Meanwhile Vane had been doing the very last thing that she would have +imagined him doing. + +After his fateful conversation with his father he had left the house in +Warwick Gardens to wander he knew and cared not whither. His thoughts +were more than sufficient companionship for him, and, heeding neither +time nor distance, he walked as he might have walked in a dream, along +the main road through Hammersmith and Turnham Green and Kew, and so +through Richmond Hill till he had climbed the hill and stopped for a +brief moment of desperate debate before the door of the saloon bar of +the "Star and Garter." The better impulse conquered the worse, and he +entered the park, and, seating himself on one of the chairs under the +trees, he made an effort to calmly survey the question in all its +bearings. + +It was the most momentous of all human tasks--the choosing of his own +future life-path at the parting of the ways. One of them, +flower-bordered and green with the new-grown grass of life's +spring-time, and the other dry, rugged and rock-strewn--the paths of +inclination and duty: the one leading up to the golden gates of the +Paradise of wedded love, and the other slanting down to the wide +wilderness which he must cross alone, until he passed alone into the +shadows which lay beyond it. + +A few days before he had seen himself well on the way to everything that +can make a man's life full and bright and worthy to be lived. He was, +thanks to his father's industry, relieved from all care on the score of +money, and, better still, he had that within him which made him +independent of fortune, perfect health and great abilities, already +well-proved, although he had yet to wait nearly a year for his +twenty-first birthday. + +He had great ambitions and the high hopes which go with them. The path +to honour and distinction, even to fame itself, had lain plainly open +before him--and now everything was so different. The sun which he had +thought was only rising was already setting. He knew now that the fruit +which looked so sweet and luscious had the canker-worm feeding on the +core; that the flesh which seemed so healthy was really tainted and +leprous; and that, worse than all, the brightest and sweetest promise of +his life, a promise infinitely sweeter and dearer than even the +fulfilment of his highest material ambition, was now no longer a promise +but a denial, a life-sacrifice demanded, not only by his honour as a +man, but by his love as a lover. + +He sat thus thinking until the buzzing of a motor-car woke him from his +day-dream. He looked at his watch, and found that he had about time to +get across the park to Sheen Gate; but he fell to dreaming again on the +way, and when he reached the gate it was closed. + +He turned back with the idea of asking a keeper to unlock the gate and +let him out, but after a few strides he halted and sat down again on a +seat. After all, were he to go home, he could not sleep, and it better +suited his mood to keep vigil in the open air than within the four walls +of his room. + +And so he passed the night, walking half awake, and then sitting, half +asleep, dimly reviewing this sudden crisis of his fate again and again +from all possible aspects. And again and again the determination to +adhere to the decision which duty had marked out so clearly seemed to +beat itself deeper and deeper into his brain. + +The taint of alcoholism was in his blood, and matrimony and parentage +were not for him. In the morning he would go straight to Enid's father +and admit that, although ties reaching back into her childhood and his +had to be broken, yet it was impossible for the engagement between him +and Enid to be continued. + +The night passed, and the park gates were again opened, but still Vane +sat on, until, noticing the suspicious glances of some of the early +pedestrians, he decided to get home, have a tub, and pay his fateful +visit to Sir Godfrey Raleigh. + +As it happened, however, that visit was never to be paid. Enid had found +her waking thoughts unpleasant, if not almost intolerable, and, being +too perfectly healthy to indulge in anything of the nature of moping or +sulks, she came to the conclusion that a good sharp spin on her bicycle +would be the best mental tonic she could have; so she got a cup of +coffee and a biscuit, took out her machine, and started away to work +off, as she hoped, the presentiment of coming trouble which seemed to +have fastened itself upon her. + +Thus it happened that she entered Richmond Park by Sheen Gate just as +Vane, physically weary yet still mentally sleepless, was coming out of +it. + +During his night's vigil he had nerved himself, as he thought, to meet +every imaginable trial but this one--this vision of his well-beloved, +not waiting for him, but coming to him fresh and radiant in her young +beauty, delightful and desirable, tempting almost beyond the powers of +human resistance, and his, too, his own sweetheart, pledged to him ever +since that memorable afternoon when he had fought for her and won her +behind the wheelhouse in the midst of the Indian Ocean. + +When her wonder had given way to complete recognition Enid dismounted +and waited, naturally expecting that he would greet her; but he stood +silent, looking at her as though he were trying to find some words of +salutation. + +"Well, Vane," she said at last, "I suppose we may shake hands. I did not +expect to see you here. Cannot you look a little more cheerful? What is +the matter? You look as if you hadn't been home all night." + +He took her hand mechanically, and, as he held it and looked down into +the sweet upturned face with a bright flush on the cheeks and the +dawning of an angry light in the gentle eyes, he felt an almost +irresistible desire to take her in his arms just as he had done at their +last meeting and kiss into silence the tempting lips which had just +shaped those almost scornfully spoken words. + +It dawned upon her in the same moment that he was looking as she had +never seen him look before. His face was perfectly bloodless. The +features were hard-set and deep-lined. There were furrows in his +forehead and shadows under his eyes. When she had last seen his face it +was that of a boy of twenty, full of health and strength, and without a +care on his mind. Now it was the face of a man of thirty, a man who had +lived and sinned and sorrowed. + +In that instant her mood and her voice changed, and she said: + +"Vane, dear, what is it? Why don't you speak to me? Are you ill?" + +He took her bicycle from her, and, turning, walked with her back into +the park. After a few moments' silence he replied in a voice which +seemed horribly strange to her: + +"Yes, Enid, I am. I am ill, and I am afraid there is no cure for the +disease. I have not been home. In fact, I have been in the park all +night. I was shut in by accident, and I remained from choice, trying to +think out my duty to you." + +"Oh, nonsense!" she replied. "I know what you mean. It's about you +getting drunk the other night--and--and your unfortunate mother and this +newly-found half-sister of yours. Well, of course, I suppose it was +exceedingly wrong of you to get so very drunk. And the rest--I mean +about your mother--that is very sad and terrible. But, bad as it is, I +think you are taking it a great deal too seriously. I've talked it all +over with mamma, and she thinks just as I do about it." + +When she had said this Enid felt that she had gone quite as far as her +self-respect and maidenly pride would permit her to go. As she looked up +at him she saw the pallor of his face change almost to grey. His hand +was resting lightly on her arm, and she felt it tremble. Then he drew it +gently away and said: + +"I know what you mean, Enid, and it is altogether too good and generous +of you; but I don't think you quite understand--I mean, you don't seem +to realise how serious it all is." + +"Really, Vane, I must say that you are acting very strangely. What is +the good of going all over it again? You can't tell me anything more, I +suppose, than I have heard already from mamma. Surely you don't mean +that you intend that everything is to be over between us--that we are +only to be friends, as they say, in future?" + +"I quite see what _you_ mean," he said, his lips perceptibly tightening; +"and that, too, in a certain sense, is what I mean also." + +"What!" she exclaimed. "Do you really mean that I am not to be any more +what I have been to you, and that if we meet again it must only be as +ordinary acquaintances, just friends who have known each other a certain +number of years? Surely, Vane, you don't mean that--dear?" + +The last word escaped her lips almost involuntarily. She tried to keep +it back, but it got out in spite of herself. It was only the fact that +they were walking on the public highway that prevented her from giving +way altogether to the sense of despair that had come over her. As his +face had changed a few moments before so did hers now, and as she +looked at him he stopped momentarily in his walk. + +But the lessons which he had learnt during the last few days, and most +of all during this last night of lonely wandering and desperate +questioning with himself, had ground the moral into his soul so deeply +that not even the sight of her so anxiously longing for just one word +from him to bring them together again, and make them once more as they +had always been--almost since either of them could remember +anything--was strong enough to force him to speak it. + +He involuntarily wheeled the bicycle towards the middle of the road, as +though he was afraid to trust himself too near her, and said, speaking +as a man might speak when pronouncing his own death sentence: + +"Yes, Enid, that is what I do mean. I mean that there is a great deal +more, something infinitely more serious in what has happened during the +last few days, in what I have learnt and you have been told, than you +seem to have any idea of." + +Enid made a gesture as though she would interrupt him, but he went on +almost hotly: + +"Listen to me, Enid, and then judge me as you please--only listen to me. +Four days ago, after I had seen the Boat Race, I did as a good many +other fellows from the 'Varsity do--I went West. By sheer accident I met +a girl so like myself that--well, I didn't know then that I had a +sister. Yesterday I learnt, then, that I have one--not my father's +daughter, only my mother's--and you know what that means. We had supper +together at the Trocadero----" + +"Really, Vane, I do think you might spare me these little details," said +Enid, with a sort of weary impatience. "I have heard of this +half-sister of yours already. Suppose we leave her out for the present?" + +"Yes," he said, again stopping momentarily in his walk. "We _will_ leave +her out for the present. In fact, as far as you are concerned, Enid, she +may be left out for ever." + +"Why--what do you mean, Vane?" she exclaimed, stopping short. + +"I mean," he said, beginning quickly and then halting for a moment. "I +mean that, considering everything that has happened during the last few +days, I have no intention of asking you to become her half-sister--even +in law." + +The real meaning of his utterance forced itself swiftly enough upon her +now, and for a minute rendered her incapable of speech. She, however, +like others of her blood and breed, had learned how to seem most +careless when she cared most, and so she managed to reply not only +steadily but even stiffly: + +"Of course, after that there is very little to be said, Mr. Maxwell. I'm +afraid I have not properly understood what has happened. Perhaps, +though, it would have been better for you to have seen my father and +talked this over with him first." + +The "Mr. Maxwell" cut him to the quick. It was the first time he had +ever heard it from her lips. Yet it did not affect the decision which +was, as he had for the time being, at least, convinced himself, +inevitable, and so miserable was he that even her scornful indignation +was something like a help to him. + +He was even grateful that this interview, which he had looked forward to +with dread, had taken place in the open air rather than in the +drawing-room of Sir Godfrey Raleigh's house, for if she had simply sat +down and cried, as, perhaps, nine out of ten girls in her position would +have done, his task would have been infinitely more difficult, perhaps +even impossible of accomplishment. Her present attitude, however, seemed +to appeal to his masculine pride and stimulate it. He turned slightly +towards her, and said, with a sudden change in his voice which she felt +almost like a blow: + +"Yes, Miss Raleigh, you are quite right. I will spare you the details; +at least, those which are not essential. But there are some which are. +For instance," he went on, with a note of vehemence in his tone which +made it impossible for her to interrupt him, "four nights ago I was +lying on the floor of the Den at home, blind, dead drunk--drunk, mind +you, after this sister of mine had seen in my eyes the sign of +drunkenness which she had seen in her mother's--that was my mother, too, +an imbecile dipsomaniac, remember--who had sunk to unspeakable +degradation before she became what she is. I was as sober as I am now +when I told my father this--I mean what Carol had told me. I noticed +that there was something strange about him while I was telling him, but +I thought that was just a matter of circumstances, you know----" + +"Yes, I think I know, or at any rate I can guess," said Miss Enid, with +angry eyes and tightened lips. + +"Very well, then," he went on, "and after that--after my father had +asked me to have a glass of whiskey with him--after I had refused and he +had gone to bed and I was putting the spirit-case away without any idea +of drinking again, one smell of the whiskey seemed to paralyse my whole +mental force. It turned me from a sane man who had had a solemn warning +into a madman who had only one feeling--the craving for alcohol in some +shape. I smelt again, and the smell of it went like fire through my +veins. I tasted it, and then I drank. I drank again and again, until, as +I suppose your mother has told you, I fell on the rug, no longer a man, +but simply a helpless, intoxicated beast. I was utterly insensible to +everything about me, I didn't care whether I lived or died. When I woke +and thought about it I would a thousand times rather have been dead. + +"It wasn't that I wanted the liquor. I didn't get drunk because I wanted +to. I got drunk, Enid, because I _had_ to; because there was a lurking +devil in my blood which forced me to drink that whiskey just because it +was alcohol, because it was drink, because it was the element ready to +respond to that craving which I have inherited from this unhappy mother +of mine. + +"Do you know what that means, Enid? I don't think you do. It means that +my blood has been poisoned from my very birth. Of course, you don't know +this. Your parents don't know it, any more than they know that it is too +late to redeem the ruin which has fallen upon me. That, at least, I can +say with a clear conscience is no fault or sin of mine. Since then I +have thrashed this miserable thing out in every way that I can think of. +I have talked it over with my father, and he has talked it over with +yours. I have been wandering about the park all night trying to find out +what I ought to do--and I think I have found it." + +"From which I suppose I am to understand," she replied, in a voice which +was nothing like as firm as she intended it to be, "you mean, Vane--or +perhaps I ought to say Mr. Maxwell now--that henceforth--I mean that we +are not going to be married after all." + +"What I mean is this, Enid," he replied, "that dearly as I love you, and +just because I love you so dearly, because I would give all the world if +I had it to have you for my wife, I would _not_ make you the wife of a +man who could become the thing that was lying on the hearthrug of the +Den four nights ago--a man drunk against his own will, a slave to one of +the vilest of habits--no, something much worse than a habit, a disease +inherited with tainted, poisoned blood! + +"What would you think of your parents and my father if they allowed you +to marry a lunatic? Well, with that taint in my blood I am worse, a +thousand times worse, than a lunatic, and I should be a criminal as well +if I asked you or any other girl for whom I had the slightest feeling of +love or respect to marry me. + +"Think what the punishment of such a crime might be!" he went on even +more vehemently. "Every hour of our married life I should be haunted by +this horrible fear. Tempted by a devil lurking in every glass of wine or +spirits that I drank, or even looked at--the same devil which had me in +its grip the other night. Enid, if you could have seen me then, I think +you would have understood better; but if, which God forbid, you could +have gone through what I went through after I swallowed that first drink +of whiskey, you would as soon think of marrying a criminal out of jail +or a madman out of a lunatic asylum as you would of marrying me. I +daresay all this may seem unreasonable, perhaps even heartless, to you; +but, dear, if you only knew what it costs to say it----" + +He broke off abruptly, for as he said this a note of tenderness stole +for the first time into his voice, and found an instant echo in Enid's +heart. So far she had borne herself bravely through a bitterly trying +ordeal, but as she noticed a change in his tone a swift conviction came +to her that if she remained many more minutes in his company she would +certainly break down and there would be "a scene," which, under the +circumstances, was not to be thought of. So she stopped him by holding +out her hand and saying in a voice which cost her a terrible effort to +keep steady: + +"No, Vane, we have talked quite enough. I see your mind is made up, and +so there is, of course, nothing more to be said except 'good-bye.' I +think we had better not meet again until we both have had more time to +think about it all." + +This was as far as she could get. They had by this time reached Sheen +Gate again, and Enid took her bicycle from him. She did not look at him, +and, indeed, could not even trust herself to say "thank you." She +mounted and rode through the comparatively lonely roads in a sort of +dream until the traffic at Hammersmith Bridge and Broadway mercifully +compelled her to give her whole attention to the steering of her +machine. + +When she got home she gave her bicycle to the porter, went straight to +her own room, took off her hat and gloves and jacket, and then dropped +quietly on the bed and laid there, staring with tearless eyes up at the +ceiling, wondering vaguely what it all meant, and if it was really true. + +Vane stood and watched her until she swept round a bend in the road, and +then walked on with the one thought echoing and re-echoing in the +emptiness of his soul--the thought of the course which he was bound to +follow by the dictates of both love and duty. He had reached the Surrey +end of Hammersmith Bridge when the strong smell of alcoholic liquor +coming through the open door of a public-house caused him to stop for a +moment. Would a drink do him any harm after what had happened? He had +passed a sleepless night in the open air, and felt almost +fainting--surely a drop of brandy would do him no harm under the +circumstances? Then he remembered the hearthrug in the Den, and turned +towards the bridge with something between a sneer and a curse on his +lips. + +Was he always to be beset by temptation in this way--and would he always +have strength to successfully combat the evil influence? If Fate had +really marked him out for a dipsomaniac, was it any use his fighting +against what must inevitably be his destiny? His thoughts were +interrupted by the rumbling of a 'bus which was coming towards him, and, +seeing that it was one which went through Kensington, he jumped on it +and went home. + +He alighted at Warwick Gardens, and on reaching the house found that his +father had just come in for lunch. + +"It's all right, dad," he said, anticipating his inevitable question. "I +got shut in Richmond Park by accident, and did a night in the open. But +I'll tell you all about it at lunch. I'm going to have a tub now." + +Lunch was ready by the time Vane came downstairs, re-clothed and +refreshed, and when they were alone he repeated to his father almost +verbatim the conversation he had had with Enid. + +"Well, my boy," he said when he had concluded. "I cannot but think that +as far as you can see now you have acted rightly. It is terribly hard on +you, but I will help you all I can. And perhaps, after all, the future +may prove brighter than it looks now for all of us." + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + + +It was the end of Term, nearly two years after that interview in +Richmond Park which, as both Vane and Enid had then believed, was for +them the parting of the ways. Vane was sitting in a deep-seated, Russian +wicker-chair in his cosy study, and opposite him, in a similar chair, +was another man with whom he had been talking somewhat earnestly for +about an hour. + +To-morrow would be Commemoration Day--"Commem," to use the +undergraduate's abbreviation. There would be meetings from far and wide +of people gathered together, not only from all over the kingdom, but +from the ends of the earth as well; men and women glorying, for their +own sakes and their sons', in the long traditions of the grand old +University, the dearly-loved Alma Mater, nursing-mother of their fathers +and fathers' fathers. Here a man who had been a tutor and then a Fellow, +and was now one of His Majesty's judges; there another, who walked with +sober mien in the leggings and tunic of a Bishop, and who, in his time, +had dodged the Proctor and his bull-dogs as nimbly as the most +irresponsible undergraduate of the moment--and so on through the whole +hierarchy of the University. + +The Lists were just out. Vane had fulfilled the promise of his earlier +career and had taken a brilliant double-first. He had read for Classics +and History, but he had also taken up incidentally Mental Science and +Moral Philosophy, and he had scored a first in all. If it had then been +possible for him to have had a Treble-First, it would have been his. As +it was he had won the most brilliant degree of his year--and there he +was, sitting back in his chair, blowing cloud after cloud of smoke out +of his mouth, and every now and then taking a sip out of a big cup of +tea and looking with something more than admiration at the man opposite; +a man who had only achieved a first, and who, if he had been some other +kind of man, would have been very well contented with it. + +It would not, however, have needed a particularly keen student of human +nature to discover that this was not the kind of man who could rest +contented with anything like a formal success; and, after all, even a +double-first, to say nothing of a single, although a great achievement +as the final triumph of an educational course, is still only the end of +the beginning. That done, the student, armed _cap-a-pie_ in his +intellectual armour, goes forth to face something infinitely sterner and +more pitiless than tutors or proctors, ay, even than Masters and +Chancellors themselves--the presiding genius of that infinitely greater +University called the World, where taking your degree means anything +that human fortune can give you, and where being plucked may mean +anything from a clerkship in an office to selling matches in the gutter. + +"I _am_ sorry you missed your double, old man!" said Vane, continuing +the conversation after a pause that had lasted for two or three minutes. +"Still, at any rate, you've got your first, and, after all, a first in +Classics and a second in History is not to be sneezed at, and I don't +suppose it would have mattered a hang to you whether you had come out +anywhere or not." + +As he said this there was a sudden contraction of his companion's jaw, +which resulted in the clean biting through of the vulcanite mouthpiece +of his pipe. He spat the pieces out into the fireplace, and said in a +perfectly smooth voice: + +"I wonder what I did that for! I suppose that is one of the +circumstances in which people say that it does a man good to swear." + +"I should certainly have sworn under the circumstances," said Vane, "or +at least, I should have said something that one would not say in the +presence of one's maiden aunt, but then, of course, you Ernshaw--you're +above all that sort of thing. You have your feelings so well under +control that you don't even need to swear to relieve them. However, +that's not quite the subject. What am I to do? Am I to go back to her, +repenting of the evil of my ways, ask her to pardon a passing madness, +and lay my academic honours at her feet--as God knows I would be only +too glad to do----" + +"Wait a moment, Maxwell. Don't say anything more just now, and let me +think a bit. We have been over this subject a good many times already, +but now we have come to the crisis, to the cross-ways, in fact. You have +made me your confidant in this matter. The future of your life and hers +depends upon what you decide to do now, and, not only that, but there is +your father and her father and mother--the completion, that is to say, +of three other lives. It is very, very serious. It is more than serious, +it is solemn. Wait a moment, let me think." + +Vane leant back in his chair, dropped his pipe quietly on the floor, and +waited. He knew that Mark Ernshaw, his chum at Eton and his friend at +Balliol--this tall, sparely-built man, with dark hair, high, somewhat +narrow forehead, and big, deep-set, brown eyes, delicate features, and +the somewhat too finely-moulded chin which, taken together, showed him +to the eye that sees to be the enthusiast as well as the man of +intellect, perhaps of genius--was not thinking in the ordinary meaning +of the word. He was praying, and when he saw that this was so he folded +his hands over his eyes, and for nearly ten minutes there was absolute +silence, Vane was thinking and his friend was praying. Perhaps, in +another sense, Vane was praying too, for the strong religious bias which +he had inherited from his father had, since the great crisis of his life +had been passed, and during his close intimacy with Mark Ernshaw, grown +stronger than ever. + +He had told him everything. They had gone over the whole of the dismal +history again and again. They had thrashed out the problem in all its +bearings, now arguing with and now against each other, and here was the +last day. To-morrow in the Theatre they would receive the formal +acknowledgment which would crown their academic careers. Vane's +self-imposed probation would then be over, the crisis would be passed, +and his life's course fixed for good and all. + +"Well, old man," said Vane, at length, "have you settled it? Upon my +word I feel almost like a man under sentence of death waiting for a +reprieve. But, after all, why should I? I haven't touched a drop of +alcohol for over a year. I needn't say anything about the work I have +done, for you know as much about that as I do myself. I am as sane and +healthy as any man of my age need want to be. Of course, as I have told +you, it was mutually agreed between us, or rather, between her parents +and my father, that we should not meet or correspond until after I had +taken my degree. I've kept the bargain both ways. I haven't written to +her or had a word from her all the time. And now, what is the future to +be? Shall I take up the threads of the old life and marry and live +happily ever afterwards, as they say in the story-books--or shall I----? +No, I don't think I could do that. Don't you think I've shown strength +of mind enough to counteract the weakness of that one night? For the +sake of all you've ever loved, old man, don't look so serious. You're +not going to tell me that it really is all over, and that I shall have +to give her up after all?" + +"Yes, you must," said Ernshaw. "If you have any faith worthy of the name +in God or man, it is your duty, not only as a man but as a Christian, to +say good-bye to her as man to woman. It is your duty, and you must." + +"No, by God, I can't!" cried Maxwell, springing to his feet and facing +him with clenched teeth, set features, and hands gripped up into fists +as though he were facing an enemy rather than a friend. + +Ernshaw rose slowly from his seat. His face seemed to Vane to be +transfigured. He looked him straight in the eyes, and said, in a voice +only a little above a whisper, and yet thrilling with an intense +emotion: + +"Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain! You have +asked for my advice and my guidance, Maxwell. I have given them to you, +but not before I have sought for advice and counsel from an infinitely +higher Source. I believe I have had my answer. As I have had it so I +have given it to you. I have spent a good many hours thinking over this +problem of yours--and a harder problem few men have ever had to +solve--but my fixed and settled conviction is that during this last +conversation of yours with Miss Raleigh you bore yourself like a man; +you did your duty; you put your hand to the plough. You are not going to +look back now, are you?" + +Vane dropped back into his seat and folded his hands over his eyes +again, and said with a note of weariness in his voice: + +"Well, yes, old man, I suppose you're right, and yet, Ernshaw, it's very +hard, so hard that it seems almost impossible. They're coming up to +'Commem' to-morrow--I was obliged to ask them, you know. I should only +have to hold out my hand and feel hers in it and say that--well, that +I'd thought better of it, and everything would be just as it was before. +We could begin again just as if _that_ had never happened. + +"You know it's all I've thought about, all I've worked for, ever since +we came back from India together. Honestly, old man, she really is--of +course, with the exception of the Governor--everything there is in the +world for me now. If I have to give her up, what else is there? You know +what I was going to do. Now that I've got my degree I should have a +splendid opening in the Foreign Office. The way would be absolutely +clear before me--a mere matter of brains and interest--and I know I've +got the interest--and I should be an Ambassador, perhaps a Prime +Minister some day, and she would be my wife--and yet without her it +wouldn't be worth anything to me. Ernshaw, isn't it a bit too much to +ask a man on the threshold of his real life to give up all that for the +sake of an idea--well, a scientific conviction if you like." + +"Strait is the Gate, and Narrow is the Way!" exclaimed Ernshaw. He +seemed to tower above him as he stood over his chair; Vane looked up and +saw that his eyes were glowing and his features set. His lips and voice +trembled as he spoke. His whole being seemed irradiated by the light of +an almost divine enthusiasm. + +"Maxwell, will you be one of the few that find it, or one of the many +that miss it, and take the other way? As a good Christian, as the son of +a Christian man, you know where _that_ one leads to. + +"After all, Maxwell," he continued, more quietly, "the trials of life +are like lessons in school. You needed this experience or you would not +have got it. In every fight you must win or lose. In this one you can +and must be the victor. I think, nay, I know, that I am pointing out to +you the way to victory, the way to final triumph over all the evils that +have forced you to a choice between following your own most worthy +inclinations, and what you now think an intolerable misery and an +impossible sacrifice." + +He held out his hand as he spoke. Vane did not know it at the time, but +in reality it was a hand held out to save a drowning man. It was a +moment in which the fate of two lives was to be decided for right or +wrong, for good or ill, and for all time--perhaps, even for more than +Time. Vane gripped Ernshaw's hand, and, as the two grips closed, he +looked straight into the deep-brown eyes, and said: + +"Ernshaw, that will do. By some means you have made me feel to-night +just as I did that day when I was talking with her the last time. Yes, +you are right. You have shewn me the right way, and, God helping me, +I'll take it. I suppose if she doesn't marry me she'll marry Garthorne; +but still, I see she mustn't marry me. They are coming down for 'Commem' +to-morrow. I shall see her then, and I'll tell her that I have decided +that there must be an end of everything except friendship between us. +Yes, that is the only way after all--and, now, one other word, old man." + +"And that is?" said Ernshaw, smiling, almost laughing, in the sheer joy +of his great triumph, as he so honestly believed it to be, over the +Powers of Evil. + +"Well, it's this," said Vane, "my own life is settled now. I can't marry +Enid and, of course, I'll marry no one else. I shall do as you have +often advised me to do--take Orders and do the work that God puts +nearest to my hand. I know that the governor will agree with me when I +put it to him in that way. But then there's some one else." + +"Your sister, you mean," said Ernshaw. + +"My half----" + +"Your sister, I said," Ernshaw interrupted, quickly. "Well, what about +her?" + +"It's this way," continued Vane, somewhat awkwardly, "you see--of +course, as you say, she is my sister in a way, but she has absolutely +refused everything that the governor and I have offered her. We even +asked her to come and live with us, we offered, in short, to acknowledge +her as one of the family." + +"And what did she say to that?" + +"She simply refused. She said that she had not made her life, but that +she was ready to take it as it is. She said that she wasn't responsible +for the world as it's made, she'd never owed anyone a shilling since +she left her mother--and mine--and she never intended to. We tried +everything with her, really we did, and, of course, the governor did a +great deal more than I did, but it wasn't a bit of use. It's a horrible +business altogether, isn't it?" + +"On the contrary, it is anything but that," replied Ernshaw, slowly and +deliberately as though he were considering each word as he uttered it. +"Maxwell, you have just decided to take Orders. I made up my mind to do +that long ago. We are both of us fairly well off. I have eight or nine +hundred a year of my own, and I daresay you have more, so we can go and +do our work without troubling about the loaves and fishes." + +"Yes," replied Vane, "certainly, but that's not quite answering my +question, old fellow:--I mean about Carol." + +"Quite so," he replied, "because I am going to ask you another. Do you +think you know me and like me well enough to have me for a +brother-in-law?" + +"Good Heavens, you don't mean _that_, Ernshaw, do you?" + +"I do," he said, "that is if she likes me well enough. Of course, I +haven't seen her yet, and she might refuse me; but from all that you've +told me about her, I'm half in love with her already, and--well, we +needn't say anything more about that just now. Take me up to Town with +you after Commem., introduce me to her and leave the rest to me and her. +If ever a girl was made for the wife of such a man as I hope to be some +day, that girl, Maxwell, is your sister." + +"But, Ernshaw, that is impossible. It may be only your good nature that +prompted you to say this, or it may be that, without intention, I have +somehow led you to look upon her as part of my destiny; but you forget, +or perhaps, I have not told you that we have lost her utterly for the +time being at least, she disappeared quite suddenly. My father and I +have made every effort to trace her, but without the slightest success." + +"Then try again," replied Ernshaw, "and I will help in the search. At +any rate, when we do find her, as I am sure we shall some day, if she +will have me, I will ask her to be my wife." + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + + +It was the morning of Commemoration Day and Vane was dressing for the +great ceremony in the Sheldonian Theatre, the conferring of honours and +degrees, the placing of the Hall-mark of the University upon those who +had passed its tests and proved themselves to be worthy metal. Over the +end of the bed hung the brand-new bachelor's gown and silken hood, +which, to-day, for the first time, he would be entitled to wear. They +were the outward material symbols of the victory which he had won +against all competitors. + +He was looking far back into his school-boy days and recalling the +dreams he had dreamt of the time when, if the Fates were very kind to +him, he would have taken his degree and would be able to walk about in +all the glory of cap and gown and hood as the masters did on Sundays and +Saints' days. + +And now it had come to pass. He had taken as good a degree as the best +of them. In an hour or two he would appear capped and gowned and hooded +on the closing scene of his University career. On one side of him would +be the Chancellor and all the great dignitaries of the University; on +the other the great audience--the undergraduates in the upper galleries; +graduates, tutors and fellows, proud fathers and mothers, delighted +sisters and other feminine relatives, including cousins and others, +together with desperately envious younger brothers making the most +earnest resolves to henceforth eschew all youthful dissipations, to +foreswear idleness for ever, and to 'swat' day and night until they too +had achieved this glorious consummation--vows, alas! to be broken ere +the next school term was many days old, and yet, with not a few of them, +to be renewed later on and honestly kept. + +He knew that, to use a not altogether inappropriate theatrical simile, +he would be playing a principal part that day. The cheers and the +plaudits which would burst out from the throats of his fellow-students, +and, indeed, from the whole audience, when he came on to doff his cap +and kneel before the Chancellor to take from his hands the honours he +had won, would be given in recognition of the most brilliant degree of +the year. + +And _she_, too, would be there with her father and mother, and his +father, all sharing in his triumph, all glorying in his success, in this +splendid fruition of the labours, which, for so many years, they had +watched with such intensely sympathetic interest. + +Under any other circumstances this would have meant to him even more +than the mere formal triumph; for though he had worked honestly and +single-heartedly for the prizes of his academic career, he had also +worked for them as an athlete might have striven for his laurels in the +Olympian Games, or a knight of the Age of Chivalry might have fought for +his laurels to lay them at the feet of his lady-love. + +Now he had won them--and after all what were they worth? This was not +only to be a day of triumph for him. It was to be a day of hardest +trial and most bitter sacrifice as well; a trial which, as he knew even +now, would strain his moral fibre very nearly to the breaking point. It +was a struggle for which he had been bracing himself ever since that +last conversation which he had had with Enid. From that day to this he +had never clasped her hand or looked into her eyes. + +That had been the agreement between them, and also between his father +and her parents. They were not to meet again until he had finished his +university career and taken his degree. That, as they thought, would +give them both time enough to think--to remain faithful, or to think +better of it, as the case might be--and, most important of all for Vane, +to determine by the help of more deliberate thought and added +experience, and by converse with minds older and more deeply versed in +the laws of human nature than his own, whether or not that resolve, +which he had taken when he first discovered that there was a taint of +poison in his blood, should be kept or not. + +But now it was all over--although it ought only to have been just +beginning. This day, which ought to have been the brightest of his life, +was, in reality, to be the darkest. The golden gates of the Eden of Love +lay open before him, but, instead of entering them, he must pass by with +eyes averted, and enter instead the sombre portals of his life's +Gethsemane; there to take up his cross and to bear it until the time +came to lay it down by the side of the grave. + +He had thought it all out long and earnestly in solitary communion with +his own soul, and during many long and closely-reasoned conversations +with Ernshaw, and the one of the night before had decided him--or it +might be more correct to say that it had completed the sum of the +convictions which had been accumulating in his soul for the last two +years. + +The path of duty--duty to her, to himself and to Humanity--lay straight +and plain before him. He had nothing to do with the world now. He had +come to look upon that taint in his blood as a taint akin to that of +leprosy; an inherited curse which forbade him to mix with his kind as +other men did. He must stand aloof, crying "unclean" in his soul if not +with his voice. Henceforth he must be in the world and not of it--and +this, as he thought, he had already proved by his resolve to renounce +definitely and for ever the greatest treasure which the world could give +him, a treasure which had been his so long, that giving it up was like +tearing a part of his own being away with his own hands. + +Still, it was all very hard and very bitter. Despite his two years' +preparation, the stress of that last struggle all through the long hours +of the night which should have been filled with brightest dreams of the +morrow, had left him, not only mentally worn out, but even physically +sick. He felt as though the scene which would mark the culminating +triumph of his academic career, the end of his youth and the beginning +of his manhood, was really an ordeal too great, too agonising, to be +faced. + +His scout had brought up an ample breakfast, with, of course, many +congratulations on the coming honours of the day; but he had only drunk +some of the coffee and left the food untouched. As he stood in front of +the glass, putting on his collar, his face looked to him more like that +of a man going to execution, than to take the public reward of many a +silent hour of hard study. His hands trembled so that he could hardly +get his necktie into decent shape. + +His coffee on the dressing-table. Would a teaspoonful of brandy in it do +him any harm? For two years he had not tasted alcohol in any shape, +though he had kept it in his rooms for his friends. He and Ernshaw, who +was also a rigid teetotaler, had sat with them and seen them drink. He +had smelt the fumes of it in the atmosphere of the room, first with +temptation which he had fought against and overcome in the strength of +the memory of that terrible night in Warwick Gardens. Then the subtle +aroma had become merely a matter of interest to him, a thing to be +studied as a physician might study the symptoms of a disease for which +he has found the cure. + +He had seen his friends leave his rooms somewhat the worse for liquor, +and he had reasoned with them afterwards, not priggishly or +sanctimoniously, but just as a man who had had the same weakness and had +overcome it because he thought it necessary to do so, and they had taken +it all very good-humoredly and gone away and done the same thing again a +few nights afterwards, seeming none the worst for it. + +But surely now he had conquered the deadly craving. Surely two years of +hard mental study and healthy physical exercise--two years, during which +not a drop of alcohol had passed his lips--must have worked the poison +out of his blood. Henceforth he was entitled to look upon alcohol as a +servant, as a minister to his wants, and not as a master of his +weaknesses. + +His mental struggle had so exhausted him that his physical nature craved +for a stimulant, cried out for some support, some new life, new energy, +if even for an hour or so, so imperiously, that his enfeebled mental +stamina had not strength enough left to say "no." + +He had got his collar on and his tie tied, and his hands and fingers +were trembling as though he were just recovering from an attack of +malarial fever. + +"It can't possibly do me any harm now," he said, as he moved away from +the glass towards the door of his sitting-room. "I've conquered all +that. I haven't the slightest desire for it as drink--I haven't had for +over a year now--I only want it as medicine, as a patient has it from a +doctor. I can't go on without it, I must have something or I shall faint +in the Theatre or do something ridiculous of that sort, and as for +meeting Enid--good heavens, how am I to do that at all! Yes, I think a +couple of teaspoonsful in that coffee will do me far more good than +harm." + +He went towards the sideboard on which stood his spirit-case. He +unlocked it and took out the brandy decanter. As he did so the memory of +that other night came back to him, and he smiled. He had conquered now, +and he could afford to smile at those old fears. He took the stopper out +of the decanter and deliberately raised it to his nostrils. No, it was +powerless. The aroma had no more effect upon him than the scent of, say, +_eau de Cologne_ would have had. That night in Warwick Gardens, it had +been like the touch of some evil magician's wand. Then, in an instant, +it had transformed his whole nature; but now his brain remained cool and +calm, and his senses absolutely unmoved. Yes, he had conquered. He +needed a stimulant, merely as an invalid might need a tonic, and he +could take it with just as much safety. + +He took the decanter into his bedroom and poured a couple of +teaspoonsful into his coffee, stirred it, lifted the cup, and, after one +single priceless moment's hesitation, put it to his lips and drank it +off. + +"Ah, that's better!" he said, as he put the cup down and felt the subtle +glow run like lightning through his veins. "Hallo, who's that? Confound +it, I hope it isn't Ernshaw. I don't want to begin the day with a +lecture on backsliding." + +He put the stopper back, went into the sitting-room, and replaced the +decanter in the stand before he said in answer to a knock at his door: + +"Come in! Is that you Ernshaw?" + +The door opened, and Reginald Garthorne came in. + +"No, it's me. That's not quite grammatical, I believe, but it's usual. +Good-morning, Maxwell," he went on, holding out his hand. "I've come +round early for two reasons. In the first place I want to be the first +to congratulate you, and in the second place I want you to give me a +brandy and soda. I got here rather late last night with one or two other +Cambridge men, and one of them took us to a man's rooms in Brazenose, +and we had a rather wet night of it. Not the proper thing, of course, +but excusable just now." + +"As for the congratulations, old man," said Maxwell, "thanks for yours +and accept mine for what you've done in the Tripos, and as for the +brandy and soda, well, here you are. Open that cupboard, and you'll find +some soda and glasses." + +As he said this, he unlocked the spirit case again, and put the brandy +decanter on the table. + +"I've just been having a spoonful myself in my coffee," he went on, with +just a little flash of wonder why he should have said this. "The fact +is, I suppose, I've been overdoing it a bit lately, and that, and the +anxiety of the thing, has rather knocked me up. I felt as nervous as a +freshman going in for his first _viva voce_, when I got up this +morning." + +"I don't wonder at it," said Garthorne, helping himself. "You must have +been grinding infernally hard. So have I, for the matter of that, +although, I didn't aspire to a double first. You really do look quite +knocked up. By the way," he continued, looking at Vane with a smile +whose significance he might have seen had it not been for those two +spoonsful of brandy, "I suppose you've quite got over that--well, if +you'll excuse me saying so--that foolishness about inherited alcoholism +and that sort of stuff, and therefore you'll lay all your laurels at the +feet of the fair Enid without a scruple? Of course, you remember that +juvenile hiding you gave me on the "Orient"? Quite romantic, wasn't it? +Well, I must admit that you proved yourself the better boy then, and as +you've taken a double first and I have only got a single, you've proved +yourself the better man as well. Here's to you, Maxwell, won't you join +me? You know you have quite an ordeal to go through to-day, and just one +won't hurt you--do you good, in fact. You look as if you wanted a +bracer." + +Vane listened to the tempting words, so kindly and frankly spoken, as he +might have listened to words heard in a dream. All the high resolves +which had shaped themselves with such infinite labour during the past +two years, seemed already to have been made by someone else--a someone +else who was yet himself. He had made them and he was proud of them, +and, of course, he meant to hold to them; but he had conquered that +deadly fear which had held him in chains so long. He was a free man +now, and could do as he liked with his destiny. + +His long probation was over, and he had come through it triumphant. He +was to see Enid again that day for the first time for two years. He +would hear her voice offering him the sweetest of all congratulations, +and when it was all over, there would be a little family gathering in +his rooms, just their fathers and themselves, and he would tell them +everything frankly, and they should help him to choose--for after all, +it was only their right, and she, surely, had the best right of all to +be consulted. Meanwhile, now that he had fought and conquered that old +craving for alcohol, there would be no harm, especially on such a +morning as this, in joining Garthorne in just one brandy and soda. + +It never struck him how strangely inverted these thoughts were; what an +utter negation of his waking thoughts, as they flashed through his mind +while Garthorne was speaking. They seemed perfectly reasonable to him, +and--so subtle was the miracle wrought by those two spoonsful of +brandy--perfectly honest. + +"Well, really, I don't see why I shouldn't," he said, taking up the +decanter and pulling one of the two glasses which Garthorne had put on +the table towards him. "I think I have got over that little weakness +now. At any rate, for the last two years I haven't touched a drop of +anything stronger than coffee, and I've sat here and in other men's +rooms with fellows drinking in an atmosphere, as one might say, full of +drink and tobacco smoke; and except for the smoking--of course I haven't +dropped that--I've never felt the slightest inclination to join them, at +least, after the first month or so--so I think I'm pretty safe now." + +"Oh, of course you are!" said Garthorne. "As a matter of fact, you know, +I never thought that there was anything serious in that idea of yours +that you'd inherited the taint from some ancestor of yours. You got +screwed one night for the first time in your life, and it gave you a +fright. But the fact that you've been able to swear off absolutely for +two years, is perfectly clear proof that the craving really existed only +in your own imagination. If it had been real, you couldn't possibly have +done it. Well, here's to us, old man, and to someone else who shall be +nameless just now!" + +Vane, in the recklessness of his new confidence, had mixed himself a +pretty stiff dose. As he raised his glass with Garthorne's, something +seemed to drag upon his arm, and something in his soul rose in revolt; +but the old lurking poison was already aflame in his blood. He nodded to +Garthorne and said: + +"Thanks, old man. Here's to us and her!" + +A few minutes before the words would have seemed blasphemy to him, now +they sounded like an ordinary commonplace. He put the glass to his lips +and emptied it in quick, hungry gulps. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + + +"By Jove, that's good," he said, as he put the empty glass down and drew +a long, deep breath. "You only really appreciate that sort of thing +after a long abstinence like mine." + +"I should think so," laughed Garthorne, putting down his own empty +glass; "although good and all as a brandy and soda is, especially after +a rather hot night, I should hardly think it was worth while to be T.T. +for two years just to get the full flavour of it. If you don't mind I'll +have another." + +"Certainly, old fellow, help yourself," said Vane, pushing the decanter +towards him. "That's made a new man of me. When I got up this morning I +couldn't eat a scrap of breakfast, but that's made me absolutely hungry. +The bacon's cold, of course, but there's a nice bit of tongue and some +brawn, and there's some toast and brown bread and butter. Sit down and +have a bite. The coffee's cold, but I can soon get up some hot if you'd +like it." + +"Oh, never mind about that," said Garthorne. "I'm getting a bit peckish +myself, and I'll have a bite with you with pleasure; but I'm afraid hot +coffee on the top of brandy and soda at this time of the morning would +produce something of a conflict in the lower regions. I think another B. +and S. would go ever so much better with it." + +As he said this he helped himself and pushed the decanter back towards +Vane, saying, "and if you'll take my advice you'll do the same. It can't +hurt you, especially if you're eating." + +"Still, I think I'd better eat something first," said Vane, as he set +out the breakfast things and began to carve. "The hot plates are cold, +so there will be enough for both. By Jove, that stuff has given me an +appetite!" + +"Yes, I thought it would do you good," said Garthorne. "Get something +solid inside you and have another drink, and you'll be able to face your +most reverend Chancellor with as much confidence as though you were his +father-in-law. I'll mix you another if you'll allow me while you're +carving. Give me about half and half, please." + +"But don't give _me_ half and half," said Vane, with a laugh that +sounded rather strangely in his own ears, and then, without looking +round, he went on carving. + +Garthorne poured a much more liberal quantity of brandy into Vane's +glass than he had done into his own, and at once filled it up with +soda-water from the syphon. + +"I think you'll find that about right," he said, putting it down beside +him. + +"Thanks, old fellow," said Vane; "much obliged!" He put the knife and +fork down, lifted the glass and took a sip. "Yes, that's about right, I +think," he said, without even noticing the strength of the mixture. And +then, with the unnatural appetite which the unaccustomed spirit had +roused in him, he took up his knife and fork and began to eat +ravenously, taking a gulp of the brandy and soda almost between each +mouthful. + +They laughed and chatted merrily over the old days as they went on +eating and drinking; and as glass succeeded glass Vane became more and +more communicative and Garthorne more and more cordial. He quickly +learnt the truth of many things which so far he had only suspected, and +at last he managed to lead the conversation adroitly up to a point at +which Vane said in a somewhat thick, unsteady voice: + +"By the way, Garthorne, yes, that reminds me. You remember that night at +the Empire when we had a bit of a row, Boat-race night, you know--that +girl that I got out of the crowd--pretty girl, wasn't she?" + +"Yes," replied Garthorne, repressing a desire to laugh out openly. "I +remember her quite well; a very pretty girl, and, if I may say so +without paying you a compliment, very like your noble self. In fact, if +such a thing hadn't been utterly impossible, she might almost have +been----" + +"My sister!" said Vane, as he drank off the remains of his fourth brandy +and soda and put the glass down with a thump on the table. "Yes, that's +it, my sister, or at least not quite my sister, but--at least--well, +half-sister, you understand--my mother's daughter, but not my +father's--see?" + +"I see, I see," said Garthorne, and then, before he could get any +farther, there was a quick knock at the door. Vane looked dreamily +round, and said: + +"Come in." + +The door opened, and Ernshaw entered, followed by Sir Arthur Maxwell. + +"Good heavens, Maxwell! what on earth does this mean?" exclaimed +Ernshaw, with something like a gasp in his voice, as he saw Vane sitting +at the table in his shirt-sleeves--the friend with whom he had sat in +this same room the night before and had that long solemn talk--the +friend who had given him such solemn pledges. + +The table was littered and disordered, the coffee pot had got knocked +over; there was a cup lying on its side in the saucer; a dish of bacon +containing a couple of rashers and two eggs congealed in fat, and scraps +of meat and broken bits of bread and butter lay about on the cloth. + +This was like anything but one of the many orderly breakfasts which he +had shared with Maxwell at the same table; but what startled Ernshaw +more than anything else was the sight of the empty glass beside his +friend's plate, the brandy decanter with less than a wine-glassful in +it, and the two empty soda syphons on the table. + +"Good morning, Ernshaw! Morning, dad! Jolly glad to see you. Come in and +sit down and have a drink--I mean, a bit of breakfast. The coffee's +cold, but I can get you some more if you wouldn't rather have brandy and +soda--plenty more brandy in the cupboard, soda too. Get it out and help +yourselves. Dad, you know Garthorne, of course. Ernshaw, you don't; let +me introduce you--very good fellow--old rival of mine in love--you know +who with, the fellow I had a fight with on the steamer--both kids--first +man to come and congratulate me this morning. Admits that I licked him +then as a boy, and have licked him since as a man--took better degree +than he did. Still, nice of him to come, wasn't it? Come on, Ernshaw; +don't stand there staring. Come on and have a drink, too, and +congratulate, you old stick. Never mind about last night, I've got that +all under now; fought it for two years and beaten it. Can take a drink +now without fear of consequences. Taken lots this morning, and look at +me, sober as the Chancellor. Why, dad, what's the matter?" + +Sir Arthur Maxwell had come up to Oxford to see his own old academic +triumphs repeated with added brilliance by his son. He had fully +approved of all that Vane had done during the two years' probation which +he had set himself, and he had firmly believed that the end of it all +would be, as he had many a time said to Enid's father, that the hard +study, the strenuous mental discipline, and the stress of healthy +emulation, would utterly destroy the germs of that morbid feeling which, +for a time at least, had poisoned the promise of his son's youth. He had +only arrived from Town, bringing Enid and her father, that morning, as +they had found it impossible to get rooms in Oxford over night. He had +met Ernshaw in the High, and they had come together to Vane's rooms to +find _this_! + +Like a flash that other scene in Warwick Gardens came back to him. While +his son was speaking he had looked into his eyes and seen that mocking, +dancing flame which he had now a doubly terrible reason to remember, and +to see it there in his eyes now on the morning of the crowning day of +his youth, shining like a bale-fire of ruin through the morning sky of +his new life. It was like looking down into hell itself. + +As Vane came towards him he staggered back as though he hardly +recognised him. Then, for the first time for nearly thirty years since a +well-remembered night among the Indian Hills, the room swam round him +and the light grew dark. He made a couple of staggering steps towards +the sofa, tripped over the edge of a rug, and rolled over, half on and +half off the sofa. + +The sight sobered Vane instantaneously, though only for an instant. + +"Dad, what's the matter?" he cried again. "My God, Ernshaw, what is it? +Tell me, what is it--what have I done? Let me go and see what's wrong +with him." + +Then with stumbling steps he tried to get round the table. The corner of +it caught his thigh. He lurched sideways and dropped to the floor like a +man shot through the brain. + +Garthorne was already kneeling by the sofa on to which he had lifted Sir +Arthur's head and shoulders, and had loosened his tie and collar. + +"Poor Vane," he said, looking round. "I'm afraid the excitement of this +morning has been a bit too much for him. If we're going to get them +round in time, perhaps you'd better ring up his scout and send him for a +doctor." + +"Yes," said Ernshaw, looking up from where he was kneeling by Vane. "I +suppose that's about the best thing to do, since the crime which you +have committed is unfortunately not one which warrants me in sending for +a policeman as well." + +"Crime, sir, what the devil do you mean?" cried Garthorne, springing to +his feet. + +"I mean," said Ernshaw slowly and without moving, "exactly what I say. I +feel perfectly certain from what I know of Maxwell that this could not +possibly have occurred unless he had been deliberately tempted to drink. +Your motives, of course, are best known to yourself and to Him who will +judge them." + +"So that's it, is it?" said Garthorne, with a harsh laugh. "You think I +made him drunk for some purpose of my own, a man that I've been friends +with ever since we punched each other's heads as boys. Well, you've been +a good chum to Maxwell, so for his sake I'll pass over that idiotic +remark of yours, and tell you for your information that he had been +drinking before I came into the room at all." + +"It's a lie!" exclaimed Ernshaw, springing to his feet and going towards +the bell. "Nothing on earth could make me believe that." And then he +rang the bell. + +"I'm not accustomed to being called a liar," said Garthorne very +quietly, "without resenting it in practical form; but as you don't seem +to be quite yourself, and as there is so much physical difference in my +favour, I'll take the trouble to convince you that I am speaking the +truth." + +He went into the bedroom and brought out Vane's coffee-cup. + +"Smell that," he said. + +Ernshaw took the cup and raised it to his nose. The strong smell of +brandy rising from the dregs was unmistakable. Then there came a knock +at the door, and Vane's servant came in. + +"Oh, good Lord, gentlemen, whatever is the matter?" he exclaimed, +looking at Sir Arthur's prostrate form on the sofa and Vane's on the +floor. + +"Never mind about that just now," said Garthorne curtly; "help us to +carry Mr. Maxwell to his room. Then you'd better undress him and get him +to bed. I suppose you can see what's the matter, and I hope also that +you've learnt to hold your tongue." + +"Yes, sir," said the scout. "No man ever served a better master than Mr. +Maxwell, and I hope I know my duty to him." + +Then the three of them picked up Vane's limp, loose-jointed form from +the floor and carried him into his bedroom and laid him on the bed. + +"Now," Garthorne continued, "I want you to tell Mr. Ernshaw whether I +came here after or before Mr. Maxwell had his coffee." + +"A good half-hour after, I should say, sir," said the scout, looking a +little mystified. "You see, I brought it up about a quarter past eight, +and he was up then and half dressed. He must have drunk it soon after, +because he never will drink coffee unless it's hot. If it had got cold +he'd have had some more up, and you came a bit before nine, sir. He must +have drunk it before then." + +"Very well," said Garthorne. "Now, can you remember whether the +decanters in the spirit-case were filled up last night?" + +"No, sir," said the scout. "I filled them up the first thing this +morning myself, thinking that Mr. Maxwell would have some friends come +to see him on a day like this." + +"Thank you," said Garthorne; "that'll do, I think. Now you'd better get +Mr. Maxwell undressed." + +"Yes," said Ernshaw. "But what about Sir Arthur? Surely we ought to get +a doctor for him as soon as possible." + +"I am going for a doctor at once," said Garthorne, "if you will tell me +where I can find one. I have given him a spoonful of brandy, and I'm +going to give him another. Just come in here for a moment, please. You +can't do anything for Maxwell yet." + +Ernshaw followed him into the sitting-room, and as he took up the +decanter Garthorne went on, holding up the brandy decanter, which had +only a few spoonfuls left in it: + +"Look at that. You heard what his man said. Do you mean to tell me that +I could have drunk even half of that since nine o'clock and be as sober +as I certainly am? The idea is absurd." + +Then he poured out a little into a wine-glass, put his hand under Sir +Arthur's head, and let a few drops trickle between his lips. Sir Arthur, +who had been gradually regaining consciousness, drew a deep breath +which ended in a cough. Then he opened his eyes and said: + +"What's the matter? Where am I? Where's Vane?" + +"You have had a great shock, Sir Arthur," said Garthorne, in a tone so +gentle and kindly that Ernshaw started at it. "Vane has been taken ill, +too, and we are putting him to bed. I'm just going for a doctor." + +Then he laid Sir Arthur's head back on the cushion and said, rising to +his feet: + +"Now, Mr. Ernshaw, I think that's about all I can do for the present. If +you will tell me where I can find Maxwell's doctor I'll go and send him, +and then I'll go on and tell Sir Godfrey, not what has really taken +place, but that something has happened which may prevent Maxwell leaving +his rooms to-day." + +Ernshaw scribbled the name and address of the doctor on the back of an +envelope and gave it to Garthorne, saying, rather hesitatingly: + +"There it is, Mr. Garthorne. I'm afraid I've been too hasty in what I +said to you, and I must confess that you've taken it as very few men +would have done. But if you only knew all that Vane has been to me +during the last two years, and how awful this seems to me----" + +"My dear sir, don't say any more about it," Garthorne interrupted +good-humouredly. "I know enough of poor Vane's story to see exactly what +you mean. We'll consider it all unsaid, and now I must be off." + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + + +Ernshaw's first care, after Garthorne had left the room, was to see to +the comfort of Sir Arthur, who had now quite recovered consciousness, +but was still feeling faint and ill. He told him as much of the truth +about Vane as he knew, and while he was doing so, Jepson, the scout, +came in from the bedroom, and said with an air of deferential +confidence: + +"If you please, sir, I don't think there'll be any need for a doctor to +Mr. Maxwell. He's come round a bit, and I think I know what his +complaint is. Being excited, as he might well be on a morning like this, +he's taken a drop too much on an empty stomach, and that led him to +drink brandy and soda with his breakfast instead of sending for some +more coffee. I've often seen this sort of thing before, sir, you see, +and I've found the physic that will cure him on the mantelpiece. It's +this." + +He held up a little stoppered bottle full of strong ammonia, which Vane +had got for cleaning up the bindings of some old books. + +"Twenty drops of this," he went on, "in a wine-glassful of water, and +he'll be as sober as ever he was in half an hour. Then I'll make him +some strong coffee, and he'll be as right as a trivet. Only you mustn't +let him take any more drink afterwards, or he'll just bring his boots +up. I suppose I may try, sir? At any rate it won't do him any harm." + +"Certainly," said Ernshaw, "I've heard of it before. Do the best you can +for him, Jepson." + +Jepson shut the door with a "Thank you, sir," and proceeded to treat his +patient. + +Before the doctor arrived Sir Arthur had almost entirely recovered, and +Vane was sitting up in bed, supported by the faithful Jepson's arm, +gasping and coughing, but perfectly sober, and wondering dimly what had +happened during the last hour or two--or was it weeks, or months, or +what? He felt horribly sick and ill, and he was trembling in every limb, +but the clouds of intoxication had cleared away from his mind; memory +was returning to him, and he was asking Jepson disjointed questions as +to what had happened. + +"Never you mind about that, sir," said Jepson. "Everything's all right +now. Sir Arthur is coming round nicely, and now you've got that down, +you just lay back and keep quiet, and I'll go and make your coffee, and +before an hour's over you'll be ready and fit to go to the Sheldonian +and face the Chancellor as though you hadn't tasted a drop." + +Vane, still wondering at his apparently miraculous recovery, did as he +was told and lay back upon the pillows, and Jepson went off to brew him +an "extra special" pot of coffee. + +"It's very unfortunate for Mr. Maxwell," he said, when he got into his +own den, "very unfortunate, and on Degree Day too, but if I know +anything about him and Sir Arthur, and I can get him to the Theatre +dressed and _compos mentis_ and all that sort of thing--well, it's a +fiver at least in my pocket, so it's an ill wind that blows nobody +good." + +The doctor arrived while he was making the coffee. Ernshaw explained +quickly what had happened. He went in and looked at Vane, felt his +pulse, asked him in a kindly tone why he had made such a fool of himself +on such a day, then he said that he couldn't improve on Jepson's +treatment under the circumstances, and went in to look at Sir Arthur, +who now, thanks to Ernshaw's care, was almost himself again. + +"Curious business this," he said, after he had felt Sir Arthur's pulse +and found that he was practically all right. "Your son's case, I mean. +I've known him nearly all the time that he's been up, and I've always +considered that he was a teetotaller from principle. Of course it would +be simply absurd to attempt to conceal from you what has been the matter +with him this morning. He's been drunk, dead drunk, by about half-past +nine in the morning. At the same time we must remember that when a man +has been in hard training for a boat race, or anything of that sort, or +if he has been reading hard on tea, which is almost as vicious a habit +as alcoholism, he can get drunk on very little alcohol when the strain +is taken off. In fact, I have known a man get drunk on a pint of bitter +and a beef-steak; but there doesn't seem any reason of that sort for +what happened this morning. Still, fortunately, that man of his knew +what to do, and he's done it--a rather heroic remedy certainly, but one +can risk that with a good constitution. + +"Still, I can't quite understand it, I must confess. If there was any +taint of what we now call alcoholic insanity in his blood, it would, of +course, be perfectly plain. However, we needn't go into that now. There +can't be any idea of that, and I think when he's had his coffee, and +you've had a mild brandy and soda, Sir Arthur, and kept quiet for half +an hour or so, I think you will be able to go and see your son take the +honours which he has won, and won very well, too. I suppose no idea of +this has gone beyond these rooms?" + +"I'm afraid they have," said Ernshaw. "Garthorne, a Cambridge man, the +man, you know, Sir Arthur, who was here with Vane when you came in, the +same man who went for you, Doctor, said that he would go on and tell Sir +Godfrey that Vane had been taken ill and wouldn't be able to come out of +his rooms to-day. In short, that he would have to receive his degree by +proxy." + +"The devil he did," said Sir Arthur, getting up from the sofa with the +strength of a sudden access of anger and moving towards the bedroom +door. "Look here, doctor, you have just said that Vane is getting round. +Well, if he is, the old blood in him will tell, and he'll take his place +and play his part with the rest of them. Mr. Ernshaw, I know your +friendship for my son; I know what you have done for him, and how you +have helped him. Now, will you do me another favour and take my +compliments to Sir Godfrey Raleigh, and say that the matter is not +anything like as serious as we thought it was, and that both Vane and +myself will be ready to go through the day's programme as arranged. If +you will be good enough to do that, the doctor and I will be able to +arrange the rest, I think." + +"I shall be only too glad," said Ernshaw, taking up his hat. "I shall +just have about time to do it, and then get to my rooms and dress. _Au +revoir_, then, until after the ceremony," and with that, he opened the +door just as Jepson knocked at it, bringing in the coffee. + +Ernshaw found Garthorne already at Sir Godfrey's rooms in close +conversation with Enid. He had, of course, heard much about her from +Vane, but this was the first time he had seen her. She had more than +fulfilled the promise of two years before, and Ernshaw, ascetic as he +was, had still too strong an artistic vein in his temperament to be +insensible to her beauty. In fact, as she rose to greet the closest +friend of the man who had been her lover, and who, as she fondly hoped, +would be so once more after to-day, he started and coloured ever so +slightly. He had never seen anything like her before as she stood there +with outstretched hand, gently-smiling lips, and big, soft, deep eyes, +in all the pride and glory of her dawning womanhood. + +It was this, then, that Vane had to give up. This was the priceless +treasure which, if he kept his vow, he would have to surrender to +another man. As the thought crossed his mind, he looked at Garthorne, +and he saw the possibility that, after all, he might be the victor in +that struggle which had begun years ago on the deck of the steamer. + +Certainly, as far as physical conditions went, there could hardly be a +better match; but as he looked back to Enid, a darker thought stole into +his mind. Garthorne had, superficially at least, rebutted the charges he +had made against him in Vane's rooms; but though he had apologised for +what he had said, the conviction that he had deliberately tempted Vane +to drink came back to him, now that he saw how great a temptation +Garthorne had to commit such an infamy. + +No doubt he knew perfectly well that Enid herself would overlook Vane's +second lapse as she had done his first, and would be quite content to +marry him on the strength of his promise that he would never get drunk +again; but he also knew that, after what had happened that morning, +Vane's determination to give her up would be tenfold strengthened, and +that, when once he had definitely done so, the psychological moment +would have arrived for him to begin his own suit--at first, of course, +from a deferential distance, from which he might hope to approach her +heart through the avenue of her injured pride. + +"Good morning, Mrs. Ernshaw!" she said, "I am glad to meet such an old +and good friend of Vane's. I have heard a great deal about you, and, I +need hardly say, nothing but good. I hope you have come to tell me that +Vane is better and also that you will tell me what has really been the +matter with him. Mr. Garthorne, here, has been very rude; he has +absolutely refused to say anything about it, and I am quite offended +with him. I really can't see why there should be any mystery about it. +What is it?" + +Ralph Ernshaw was one of those men who can no more tell a direct lie, or +even prevaricate, than they can get outside their own skins. He held +even the white lies of conventionality to be unworthy of anyone who held +the truth as sacred, and yet for the life of him he could not look this +lovely girl in the face and tell her that the man whom she had loved +ever since she knew what love was, had been lying drunk on the floor of +his room less than an hour before, and that the sight of him had shocked +his father into a fainting fit. + +"I think, Miss Raleigh," he said, after a little hesitation, "that Vane +would rather tell you that himself. In fact, to be quite candid with +you, it is not a subject upon which I should care to touch even at your +request, simply because I think that it is a matter which could be very +much better discussed and explained between Vane and yourself; and I +think Mr. Garthorne will agree with me in that view." + +"Certainly I do," said Garthorne, "I think that is the most sensible way +of putting it. Enid, if you'll take my advice you'll take Ernshaw's, and +let Vane do his own explaining after Commem." + +"Really, I think it's very horrid of both of you," said Enid. "I +certainly can't see why there should be all this mystery. If it's +anything really serious, surely I have a right to know. However, I +suppose I must control my feminine impatience, at any rate it can't be +anything very bad if he'll be able to be at the Theatre and Sir Arthur +can come with him. I suppose I shall hear all about it at dinner +to-night." + +"I have no doubt that you will, Miss Raleigh," said Ernshaw, "and now, +if you will excuse me, I must be off to my rooms to get ready for my own +share of the proceedings. Good morning." + +"Good morning, Mr. Ernshaw," replied Enid, a trifle stiffly. "That +reminds me how rude I have been, I've not congratulated you yet." + +"Oh, I haven't done anything," said Ernshaw, "at least, not in +comparison with what Vane has done. You'll see the difference in the +Theatre. Good morning again. Good morning, Mr. Garthorne." + +"Good morning--we shall see you later, I suppose?" replied Garthorne, as +the door closed, and then he turned to Enid and went on: "He's a +thundering good fellow that Ernshaw. Quite a character, I believe, +enthusiast, and all that sort of thing, but everyone here seems to think +he'll be a shining light some day." + +"Yes, he seems very nice," said Enid, "but, as a matter of fact, I can't +say that I'm particularly fond of shining lights or people who are too +good, and from what papa tells me, this Mr. Ernshaw has been making or +trying to make Vane a great deal too good for me. I even hear that he +has been trying to make Vane become a parson. Fancy Vane, with all his +talents and prospects, a curate! The idea is absurd, even more absurd +than this two years' probation idea." + +"I quite agree with you," said Garthorne, "but still, think of the test +of constancy and the delight of knowing that you have both stood it so +well." + +At this moment the door opened, and Sir Godfrey came in, not altogether +to Garthorne's satisfaction, and so put an end to further developments +of the conversation. + +A couple of hours later Enid was sitting with her father, a unit of the +vast audience which filled the Sheldonian Theatre. After Ernshaw's +visit, neither she nor her father had received any message either from +Vane or Sir Arthur. She had expected that Vane, at least, would have +come to her before the beginning of the ceremonies, or that, at least, +Sir Arthur would have come and told her something about him, but no, not +a word; and there she sat between Garthorne and her father, angry and +yet expectant, waiting for the moment of his appearance. + +"Ah, here he is at last," whispered Garthorne, as his name and honours +were called out in Latin. + +Enid held her breath as the familiar figure, clad in the unfamiliar +academic garb, walked towards the Chancellor's throne. She could see +that he was deadly pale, and that his eyes were shining with an +unnatural brightness. He never even once looked towards her. The wild +outburst of cheering which greeted his appearance seemed as utterly +lost upon him as if he had been stone deaf and blind. He listened to the +Chancellor's address with as little emotion as though it concerned some +one else. Then he knelt down, the hood, the outward and visible sign of +his intellectual triumph, was put over his shoulders; the Chancellor +spoke the magic words without his hearing them. He never felt the three +taps given with the New Testament on his head, and he rose from his +knees and moved away from the scene of the crowning triumph of his youth +as mechanically as though the proceedings had no more interest for him +than if they had been taking place a thousand miles away. + +All through the afternoon Enid and her father waited for them to come, +but there was no sign from either of them until just before tea-time +Jepson presented himself with two letters, one addressed to Sir Godfrey +and one to Enid. Both were very short. Sir Godfrey's was from Sir +Arthur, and ran as follows: + + "MY DEAR RALEIGH, + + "I hope that you and your daughter will forgive the apparent + discourtesy of our absence from you this afternoon and evening. I + find it necessary to take Vane to London at once. His letter to + Enid will explain the reason. + + "Faithfully yours, + "ARTHUR MAXWELL." + +"There is evidently something very serious the matter," said Sir +Godfrey, as he handed the note to Enid. "Maxwell wouldn't write like +that without good reason. That's from Vane, I suppose. What does he +say?" + +"Say," exclaimed Enid, with a flash of anger through her fast gathering +tears. "That's what he says. It's too bad, too cruel--and after leaving +me alone for two years--it's miserable!" And with that, she made a swift +escape out of the room and shut the door behind her with an emphatic +bang. + +Sir Godfrey picked the note up from the table where she had flung it. +There was no form of address. It simply began: + + +"I was drunk this morning. Drunk without meaning to be so, after being +two years without touching alcohol and without experiencing the +slightest craving for it. Last night I had finally come to the +conclusion that it would be a sin to ask you to keep your promise to me. +Now I am convinced that it would be absolute infamy to do so. I dare not +even face you to tell you this, so utterly unworthy and contemptible am +I in my own sight. Whatever you hear to the contrary, remember that what +has happened this morning is no fault of anyone but myself. If ever we +meet again I hope I shall find you the wife of a man more worthy of you +than I am now, or, with this accursed taint in my blood, ever could be. +Perhaps in those days we may be friends again; but for the present we +must be strangers. + +"Vane." + + + + +CHAPTER X. + + +Yet another twelve months had passed since Vane had taken his degree; +since Enid had seen him vanish like a spectre out of her life, and had +waited vainly for his coming, only to receive instead that letter of +farewell which, the instant she had read it, she knew to be final and +irrevocable. + +In such a nature as hers the tenderest spot was her pride. She had been +his sweetheart since they were boy and girl together, and when the time +came they had become formally engaged. For nearly four years now she had +considered herself as half married to him. Other men attracted by her +physical beauty and her mental charm had approached her, as they had a +perfect right to do, in open and honest rivalry of Vane, but she had +given them one and all very clearly to understand that she had +definitely plighted her troth, and had no intention of breaking it. In +other words she had been absolutely faithful even in thought. + +She had never considered his feelings as to what he called his inherited +alcoholism as anything else than the somewhat fine-drawn scruples of a +highly-strung, and rather romantic nature. She had not troubled herself +about the deadly scientific aspect of the matter. She knew perfectly +well that men got drunk sometimes and still made excellent husbands, +and, more than all, she firmly believed that, once Vane's wife, she +would speedily acquire sufficient influence over him to make anything +like a recurrence of what had happened quite impossible. + +Even after his second and worst breakdown on the morning of +Commemoration Day she would still have received him as her lover and, +after a little friendly lecture which would, of course, have ended in +the usual way, she would have been perfect friends with him again on the +old footing. + +But that letter had ended everything between them. Moreover, it had been +followed by one from Sir Arthur to her father expressing great regret at +the turn which matters had taken, but saying that, after repeated +conversations with Vane, he had been forced to the conclusion that his +resolve to enter the Church and devote himself to a life of celibacy and +mission work at home was really fixed and unalterable. + +After that there was, of course, nothing more to be said or done. Enid, +being a natural, simple-hearted, healthy English girl, who enjoyed life +a great deal too well to worry about looking under the surface of +things, therefore came to the conclusion that she had been jilted for +the sake of a fine-drawn Quixotic idea. If she had been jilted for the +sake of another woman it would have been quite a different matter. Then +there would have been something tangible to hate bitterly for a season, +and then to get revenged on by making a much more brilliant marriage, as +she could easily have done. But it was infinitely worse, and more +humiliating to be thrown over like this by the man whom she had looked +upon as her future husband nearly all her life, whom she had played at +housekeeping with while they were children, and whom she had never +looked upon as anything else but a sweetheart or a lover--and yet it was +true, miserably true, and now, for the sake of a mere idea, she found +herself cast off, loverless and alone. + +Then, after a few weeks of secret, but exceeding bitterness, she did +what nineteen out of every twenty girls would have done under the +circumstances. The twentieth girl would probably have considered her +life blighted for ever, and vowed the remainder of it to +single-blessedness, charity and good works as a Sister of something or +other. But Enid belonged to the practical majority, and so when the +breaking off of the engagement became an actual social fact, and +Reginald Garthorne came just at the psychological moment to tell her +that never since he had earned that boyish licking on the steamer by +kissing her, had he been able to look with love into the eyes of any +other woman, she had told him with perfect frankness that, as it was +quite impossible for her to marry Vane, and as she certainly liked him +next best, and had not the slightest intention of remaining single, she +was perfectly content to marry him. If he chose to take her on those +terms he might go and talk the matter over with Sir Godfrey, and if he +and her mother said "yes," she would say "yes," too. + +It was a somewhat prosaic wooing, perhaps, but Reginald Garthorne had +been hungering for her in his heart for years. Outwardly he had been +friends with Vane, but in his soul he had hated him consistently as boy +and man ever since that scene behind the wheelhouse of the _Orient_. He +was, therefore, perfectly content. He had longed for her, and he didn't +care how he got her. The rest would come afterwards. + +He was rich, far richer than Vane ever would be. He had inherited a +fortune of nearly two hundred thousand pounds from his mother's side of +the family when he came of age. On his father's death he would succeed +to the title and a fine old country house in the Midlands, with a +rent-roll and mining royalties worth over thirty thousand a year. He +would be able to make her life a continuous dream of pleasure, amidst +which she would very soon forget the visionary who was throwing away his +manhood and all the best years of his life just because he had learnt +that he was the son of a drunken and abandoned woman, and had himself +got drunk twice in his life. + +The interview with Sir Godfrey and Lady Raleigh had been entirely +satisfactory. They both considered in their hearts that their daughter +had been very badly treated. From every social point of view this was a +match which left nothing to be desired, and so they said "yes," and +Garthorne went back to Enid, and said, triumphantly, as he kissed her +for the first time since that memorable kiss on the steamer: + +"And so, you see, darling, I've won, after all!" + +It was thus that it came about that, on the same day, as the Fates would +have it, two ceremonies were being performed at the same hour, one in +St. George's, Hanover Square, and one before the altar at Worcester +Cathedral. + +The Bishop, in full canonicals, surrounded by his attendant clergy, sat +inside the altar rails in front of the Communion Table, and on the +topmost step before the rails knelt two young men wearing surplices and +the hoods of Bachelors of Arts of Oxford. + +It was the Feast of St. James the Apostle, and in his exhortation the +Archdeacon, who was preacher for the day, had taken for his text the +collect: + + "Grant, O merciful God, that, as Thine holy Apostle St. James, + leaving his father and all that he had without delay, was obedient + unto the call of Thy Son Jesus Christ and followed Him, so we, + forsaking all worldly and carnal affections, may be evermore ready + to follow Thy holy commandments, through Jesus Christ our Lord!" + +One of the men kneeling at the altar rails was Mark Ernshaw, and the +other was Vane Maxwell. + +Among the somewhat scanty congregation which had remained after the +usual morning service, sat Sir Arthur Maxwell. A year ago he would have +been inclined to laugh at the idea of his son sacrificing all his +brilliant worldly prospects to enter the Church. He was, as has already +been said, a deeply religious man himself, but still, he was a man of +the world, a man who had made his own way through the world, and won by +sheer hard work some of the prizes which it has to give, and, like many +others of his class, he had come to look upon the clerical profession +somewhat as the refuge of the intellectually destitute. + +But as the time had gone on since that scene in his son's rooms at +Oxford, he had come to believe that with Vane it was not a mere +question, as it is with too many other men, of taking Orders to secure a +profession and a position. He was entering the Church as the men of more +earnest and more faithful ages had done; because he believed that he had +a duty to do, a mission to perform, a sacrifice to make, and, above all, +an enemy to fight which was God's enemy as well as his own. + +Therefore the words "leaving his father and all that he had," awakened +no bitter echoes in his soul. True it was a sacrifice for him as well as +for Vane; but for Vane's sake he had made it willingly and cheerfully, +and he was able now to look forward with perfect contentment to the +triumphs which, in his father's pride, he could not help believing his +son would win in that higher and holier sphere of life which he had +chosen. + +The presentation being made and the questions as to "crime or +impediment" being duly asked and answered, the Litany and Suffrages +began, and every note and word of the solemn intonation, ringing through +the silence of the great Cathedral, found an echo which rang true in +three souls at least among the congregation: + + "O God the Father of Heaven: have mercy upon us, miserable sinners. + + "O God the Son, Redeemer of the world: have mercy upon us, + miserable sinners. + + "O God the Holy Ghost, proceeding from the Father and the Son: have + mercy upon us, miserable sinners. + + "O Holy blessed and glorious Trinity, three Persons and one God: + have mercy upon us, miserable sinners. + + "Remember not, Lord, our offences, nor the offences of our + forefathers: neither take thou vengeance on our sins: spare us, + good Lord, spare thy people whom thou hast redeemed with Thy most + precious blood, and be not angry with us for ever. + + "From all evil and mischief: from sin, from the crafts and assaults + of the devil: from Thy wrath and from everlasting damnation. + + "From all blindness of heart: from pride, vain-glory and + hypocrisy: from envy, hatred and malice, and all uncharitableness. + + "From fornication, and all other deadly sin: and from all the + deceits of the world, the flesh and the devil. + + "Good Lord deliver us!" + +"Remember not, Lord, our offences, nor the offences of our forefathers: +neither take thou vengeance on our sins." + +These, of all the words which he heard spoken on that fateful day, the +day which marked for him the passing of the line which divides the World +of the Flesh from the World of the Spirit--the frontier of the kingdom +of this world separating it from that other Kingdom which, though +worldwide, yet owns but a single Lord--seemed to fall with greater +weight into Vane's soul than any others of the service. As he heard them +he raised his bent head, threw it back and, with wide open eyes, looked +up over the Bishop's head and the reredos behind the altar to the +central section of the great stained glass window containing the figure +of the Godhead crucified in the flesh, with the two Marys, Mary the +Mother and Mary Magdalene, kneeling at the foot of the Cross. + +Like a quiver of summer lightning across the horizon of an August sky, +there came to him the thought of that mother of his whom he had never +known, and of that girl who was almost his sister, long ago lost in the +great wilderness of London. They were not likenesses, only the faintest +of suggestions, and yet the mere recollection seemed to lend an added +solemnity to the vows which he was about to take. + + "I will do so, the Lord being my helper!" + +As he uttered the words there was not the faintest doubt in his soul +that for the rest of his life he would be able to keep both the letter +and the spirit of the oath unbroken to the end of his days. Many a man +and woman has rashly wished that it were possible to look into the +future. Such a thought had more than once crossed Vane Maxwell's mind, +but could he, in that solemn moment, have looked into the future and +seen what lay before him, he would have been well content with the high +destiny to which his great renunciation was to lead him. + + * * * * * + +And now the scene changes from Gloucester Cathedral, to St. George's, +Hanover Square. + +It was the smartest wedding of the year, and, apart from all its social +brilliance, even the most rigid critics admitted that London had not +seen a lovelier bride or a handsomer bridegroom than Enid Raleigh and +Reginald Garthorne. The church was thronged by an audience made up of +the friendly, the sympathetic, the sentimental, and the merely curious, +as is usual on such occasions. + +Carol Vane and Dora Russel, who had come provided with tickets +indirectly supplied by the bridegroom himself, occupied seats in the +left-hand gallery at the front. In consequence of the crowd, they only +got into their places just as the bridal procession was moving up the +central aisle. There was the bride with her attendant bridesmaids, six +little maidens dressed in pure white, the bridegroom with his pages, six +counterparts dressed in the style of Charles I. Then Sir Godfrey and +Lady Raleigh, and then a tall, grizzled, soldierly-looking man, and +beside him a white-haired old lady, who might have stepped straight out +of one of Gainsborough's pictures. + +As Carol caught sight of the man beside her, she leant half her body +over the front of the gallery, and stared with straining eyes down at +the slowly moving procession. Dora caught her by the arm and pulled her +back, saying, in a whisper: + +"Don't do that; you might fall over." + +Carol turned a white face and a pair of blankly staring eyes upon her, +caught her by the arm with one hand and pointing downwards with the +other, said in a whisper that seemed to rattle in her throat: + +"See that man, there--that tall one with the old lady on his arm? That's +the man who did all the ruin! That's my father--and my mother was Vane's +mother, and that's his son, going to marry Vane's sweetheart. No, by +God, he shan't! I'll tell the whole church full, first." + +She tore herself free from Dora's hold and struggled to her feet, her +lips were opened to utter words which would have instantly turned the +wedding into a tragedy; but the rush of thoughts which came surging into +her brain was too much for her. The swift revelation of an almost +unbelievable life-tragedy struck her like a lightning-stroke; she +uttered a few incoherent sounds, and then dropped back fainting into +Dora's arms. + +"Another of life's little tragedies, I suppose," whispered a +well-dressed matron just behind her, to a companion at her side, "a +_petite maitresse_, no doubt. It's a curious thing; they always come to +see their lovers married." + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + + +The fainting of Carol in the gallery of the church and her being carried +out just before the commencement of the ceremony, was looked upon by +some of the more superstitious of the immediate spectators as a sign of +evil omen to the happiness of those who, in the phrase which is so often +only the echo of devils' laughter, were about "to be joined together in +holy matrimony." + +Still, only a few had heard the broken words which the horror-stricken +girl had uttered before she fell down insensible, and those only thought +what the good lady behind her had said. To the rest of the congregation +it was merely an incident, due to the crowd and the heat. The little +flutter of excitement which it caused soon passed away, and the ceremony +began and went on without any of the bridal party even knowing what had +happened. + +She was carried to the gallery stairs, and there Dora sat her down, +supporting her with her arm, while one sympathetic young lady held a +bottle of salts to her nostrils, and an older lady emptied a +scent-bottle on to her handkerchief and held it to her forehead. + +In a very few minutes she came round. She looked about her, and, +recognising Dora, said: + +"Oh, dear, what's happened? Where am I? Yes, I remember--at a +wedding--and he----" + +Then she checked herself, and Dora said: + +"Do you think you're well enough to come down and get into a cab, and +then we'll get home? It was the heat and the crush that did it, I +suppose." + +"Yes, I think I can," said Carol. "I'm all right now. Thank you very +much for being so kind," she went on to the other two with a faint smile +of gratitude. + +"Oh, don't mention it," they said almost together, and then the younger +one put her hand under her arm and helped her up. "Let me help you +down," she said. "I daresay you'll be all right when you get into the +open air." + +Carol looked round at her and saw that, without being exactly pretty, +she had a very sweet and sympathetic expression, and big, soft brown +eyes which looked out very kindly under dark level brows. It was a face +which women perhaps admire more than men; but her voice was one which +would have gone just as quickly to a man's heart as to a woman's. At any +rate, it went straight to Carol's, and when they had got into the cab +and she leant back against the cushions she said to Dora: + +"I wonder who that girl was? Did you notice what a sweet face and what a +lovely voice she had? I'm not very loving towards my own sex, but as +soon as I got round I felt that I wanted to hug her--and I suppose if +she knew the sort of person I am she wouldn't have touched me. What a +difference clothes make, don't they? Now, if I'd been dressed as some of +the girls are----" + +"I think you're quite wrong there, Carol," said Dora, interrupting her. +"I don't believe she's that sort at all, she was much too nice, I'm +certain. She had the face of a really good woman, and you know good +women don't think that of us. It's only the goody-goody ones who do +that, and there's a lot of difference between good and goody-goody." + +"Well, yes," said Miss Carol, "I daresay you're right, after all. She +had a sweet face, hadn't she? But look here, Dora," she went on with a +sudden change of tone, "did you ever know anything so awful? No--I can't +talk about it yet. Tell him to pull up at the Monico, and we'll have a +brandy and soda. I never wanted a drink so badly in my life." + +The cab had meanwhile been rolling down Regent Street, and had almost +reached the Circus. Dora put her hand up through the trap and told the +cabman--whose opinion of his fares underwent an instantaneous change. He +nodded and said, "Yes, miss," and the next minute pulled up in front of +the square entrance to the cafe. Dora got out first and helped Carol +out; then she gave the cabman a shilling and they went in. + +"Goes to a wedding, does a faint, comes out, and stops 'ere when they +ought to have been driven 'ome. Not much class there!" the cabman +soliloquised as he flicked his whip over his horse's ears and turned +across towards Piccadilly. He was, perhaps, naturally disgusted at the +meagre results of a job for which he had expected three or four +shillings at the very least. + +The big cafe was almost deserted, as it usually is in the morning, and +the two girls found a secluded seat at one of the corner tables. + +"Dora, you must pay for these," said Carol when they had given their +order, "and what's more you'll have to lend me some money to go on with, +for if I was starving I wouldn't spend another shilling of that man's +money." + +"But, my dear child, I don't suppose he knew it," said Dora. "Of course +you can have anything I've got if you want it, and I quite understand +how you feel. It's very dreadful, horrible, in fact, but you couldn't +help it. You're not to blame, and I don't see that he is, after all's +said and done." + +"No, I don't say that he is," said Carol, "and of course I couldn't +know, for he isn't a bit like his father. He was dark once, so I suppose +the--the other one takes after his mother. At least, he would do if she +was a fair woman. But just fancy me having that feeling about Vane that +night--feeling that I couldn't--and yet this one is just as near. God +forgive me, Dora, isn't it awful?" + +"Well, never mind, dear," said Dora, as the waiter brought the drinks. +"I don't see that that matters one way or the other now. What's done +_is_ done, and there's an end of it. Well, here's fun, and better luck +next time!" + +"Hope so!" said Carol somewhat bitterly, as she took a rather long pull +at her brandy and soda. "Ah, that's better," she went on, as she put her +glass down. "At any rate, it couldn't be much worse luck, could it?" + +"But are you perfectly certain," said Dora, "that he really was the man? +You know, after all, you only saw him for quite a moment or so." + +"I'm as certain as I am that I'm sitting here," said Carol, "that that +was the man who lived with my mother in Paris and Vienna and Nice and a +lot of other places ever since I can remember. It isn't likely that I'm +going to forget when I have such good reason as I have for remembering. +He's the man, right enough, and if I was face to face with him for five +minutes I'd prove it. The question is whether I ought to prove it or +not." + +"That's a thing that wants thinking about," said Dora. "But how can you +prove it?" + +"Easy enough," replied Carol, "if he'd just take his coat off and turn +his shirt-sleeve up. He's got two marks just above his right elbow, two +white marks, and the one on the front is bigger than the one behind. +I've seen them many a time when he's been sculling or playing tennis. He +told me he got them from a spear thrust when he was fighting in the Zulu +war. The spear went right in in front and the point came out behind, and +if I had a thousand pounds I'd bet it that that man has got those marks +on his arm. + +"Besides, I know lots of other things about him. You know I'm not a bad +mimic, for one thing, and I could imitate his voice and his way of +talking before I heard him speak, and I know a photographer in Paris +where I could get his photograph--one taken while he was with us. We +went with him to have it taken; and, besides, I don't care whether that +unfortunate mother of mine's mad or not, she'd recognise him. I'd bet +any money he daren't go to the place where she is and face her. Well, +now I'm better. Let's go home to lunch and think it over. It certainly +isn't a thing to do anything hastily about." + +"That's just what I think, dear," said Dora, finishing her brandy and +soda. + +"All right; we won't take another cab just yet. Let's walk along the +'Dilly for a bit; it'll do me good, I think; and besides, I may as well +get familiar with the old place again," said Carol, rising from her +seat. + +"What nonsense!" said Dora. "The very idea of _you_ having to go in for +that sort of thing, when there are half a dozen fellows a good deal more +than ready to take this man Garthorne's place." + +"Well, well," said Carol, with a light laugh and a toss of her pretty +head, "I don't suppose the change would be for the worse. But there's +one thing certain, I shall have to snare the oof bird very shortly, for +the first thing I'm going to do when we get to the flat is to send back +every penny of the money that Reginald gave me when we said good-bye. Of +course I didn't know anything about it, but it seems worse a good deal +than if I had stolen it. Then to-night we'll go to the Empire, and you, +being rather more married than I am, can chaperone me." + +"All right," said Dora. "I'll send a wire to Bernard, and perhaps he'll +come too and escort us." + +Reginald Garthorne had behaved, as both the world and the half-world +would have said, very honourably to Carol when they had said the usual +good-bye before his marriage. He had paid his share of the rent of the +flat for her for six months ahead, and had given her a couple of hundred +pounds to go on with. Of this considerably over a hundred pounds +remained. She changed the gold into notes, and even the silver into +postal orders, and put the whole sum into a packet, which she registered +and posted to his town address. + +She gave no explanation or reason for what she was doing. In the first +place she could not bring herself to tell him the dreadful truth that +she had discovered; and then, again, it would only after all be a piece +of needless cruelty. During her connection with him he had always +treated her with kindness and courtesy, and often with generosity. She +had nothing whatever against him, so why should she wreck the happiness +of his honeymoon, and perhaps of his whole married life, by disclosing +the secret that had been so strangely revealed to her? So she simply +wrote: + + "DEAR MR. GARTHORNE, + + "You have been very kind to me, and I thoroughly appreciate your + kindness. But something has happened to-day--I daresay you can + guess what it is--which makes it unnecessary to me, and, as you + know I have rather curious ideas about money matters, I hope you + will understand my reasons, and not be offended by my returning it + to you with many thanks. + + "Yours very sincerely, + "CAROL VANE." + +Under the circumstances the white lie was one which the Recording Angel +might well have blotted out. Probably he did. But, as the Fates would +have it, the words proved prophetic. + +They went to the Empire that night under the escort of Mr. Bernard +Falcon, and while they were having a stroll round the promenade during +the interval he nodded and smiled a little awkwardly to a tall, +good-looking young fellow in evening dress, whose bronzed skin, square +shoulders and easy stride gave one the idea that he was a good deal more +accustomed to the free and easy costume of the Bush or the Veld or the +Mining Camp than to the swallow-tails and starched linen of after-dinner +Civilisation. + +"What a splendid-looking fellow!" said Dora, turning her head slightly +as he passed; "the sort of man, I should say, who really _is_ a man. Who +is he, Bernard? You seem to know him!" + +"That man?" said Mr. Falcon. "Well, come down into the lower bar, and +we'll have a drink, and I'll tell you." + +"That looks a little bit as if you didn't want to meet him again!" said +Dora, a trifle maliciously. "Does he happen to be one of your clients, +or someone who only knows you as a perfectly respectable person?" + +Mr. Falcon did not reply immediately, but he frowned a little, as if he +didn't find the remark very palatable. But when they reached the +seclusion of the bar and sat down at one of the tables he said: + +"Well, yes, it is something like that. The fact is we have done a little +business for him, and we hope to do more. Lucky beggar, he's one of +Fortune's darlings." + +"That sounds interesting," said Carol. "May I ask what the good lady has +done for him?" + +"Well," said Mr. Falcon, folding his hands on the table and dropping his +voice to a discreet monotone, "in the first place she made him the +younger son of a very good family. Nothing much to begin with, of +course, but then she also gave him a maiden aunt who left him five +thousand pounds just after he left Cambridge in disgust after failing +three times to get a pass degree. He had no special turn for anything in +particular except riding and shooting and athletics of all sorts. So, +like a sensible fellow, instead of stopping in England and fooling his +money away, as too many younger sons do, he put four thousand pounds +into my partner's hands--Lambe, I should tell you, was his aunt's +solicitor--to be invested in good securities, put the other thousand +into his pocket, and started out to seek his fortune. + +"That's a little over five years ago, which makes him about thirty now. +Of course, I suppose he went everywhere and did everything, as such +fellows do, but we heard very little of him, and he never drew a penny +of the four thousand pounds, and he turned up in London a week or two +ago something more than a millionaire. It seems that he was one of the +first to hear of the West Australian goldfields--he was out there +prospecting in the desert, and a few months later he was one of the +pioneers of Kalgoorlie, and pegged out a lot of the most valuable +claims. He put in nearly three years there, and now he's come back to +enjoy himself. He's a very fine fellow, but I must say I'd rather not +have met him here to-night." + +"Oh, nonsense," laughed Dora, "he'll understand. Being a man he knows +perfectly well that scarcely any of you respectable married men are half +as respectable as you'd like to be thought. However, why not compromise +him too? Go and fetch him and introduce him." + +Mr. Falcon knew Dora well enough to take this request as something like +an order. So he rose, saying: + +"Well, that's not a bad idea, after all, and I daresay he won't have the +slightest objection to make the acquaintance of two such entirely +charming young ladies." + +Mr. Falcon rather prided himself upon his way of turning a compliment, +albeit his action, as they say in stable parlance, was a trifle heavy. +When he had gone Dora nodded to Carol and said: + +"There, dear. If I'm not very much mistaken this is the reward of +virtue." + +"Which is its own reward, and generally doesn't get it," laughed Carol, +colouring slightly. "What do you mean?" + +"I mean," said Dora, "that only to-day you made yourself penniless from +the most laudable of motives, and here, this very night, comes Prince +Charming from the Fortunate Isles, with all his pockets and both hands +full of money, and a splendid-looking fellow as well. I think that's a +bit mixed, but still it's somewhere about the fact. Ah, here they come." + +"Mr. Cecil Rayburn, Miss Dora Murray; Mr. Rayburn, Miss Carol Vane. Now +we know each other," said Mr. Falcon. "Rayburn, what will you have?" + +Rayburn had a brandy and soda, and before it was finished the +conversation was running easily and even merrily. With the quick +perception of the travelled man he speedily discovered that Dora was +Falconer's particular friend; she always addressed him as "Bernie," +while Carol always said "Mr. Falcon" or "Mr. F." + +When they got up, all thoroughly well pleased with each other, Falcon +said: + +"Are you alone, Rayburn?" + +"Yes," he replied. "I hadn't anything particular to do to-night, and as +I was sick of playing billiards and swopping lies with the other fellows +at the Carlton, I just put on a hard-boiled shirt and the other things +and came over here to seek my fortune." + +As he said this he looked straight at Carol, their eyes met for a +moment, and then she coloured up swiftly and looked away. + +The four wound up the evening with a sumptuous supper at Prince's, at +which Rayburn played host to perfection, and within a week Carol and he +had left Charing Cross by the eleven o'clock boat-train on a trip which +had no particular objective, but which, as a matter of fact, extended +round the world before Carol again saw her beloved London. In addition +to her other rings she wore a new thick wedding ring, a compromise with +conventionality which the etiquette of hotels and steamer saloons had +rendered imperative, and thus it came to pass that Miss Carol, +travelling as Mrs. Charles Redfern, vanished utterly for more than a +year, and this, too, was why all the efforts of Vane and Ernshaw and Sir +Arthur to find her had proved for the present unavailing. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + + +Enid Garthorne came back from a somewhat extended honeymoon trip to the +Riviera and thence on through Northern Italy to Venice, whence she +returned via Vienna and Paris, a very different woman from the Enid +Raleigh who had cried so bitterly over that farewell letter of Vane's in +her bedroom at Oxford. + +She had already schooled herself to look upon her long love for Vane as, +after all, only the sustained infatuation of a romantic school-girl, and +upon him as a high-hearted, clean-souled but utterly impossible +visionary who had sacrificed the substance for the shadow, and who, +having chosen irrevocably, could only be left to work out his own +destiny as he had shaped it. + +Garthorne, in the first flush of his gratified love and triumph, had +proved an almost ideal combination of lover and husband, and of all the +brides who were honeymooning in the most luxurious resorts of the +Continent that Autumn and Winter, she, with her youth and beauty, her +handsome, devoted husband, and splendid fortunes, was accounted the most +to be envied. As week after week went by, and the intoxication of her +new life grew upon her, she gradually came to believe this herself. At +the same time, something very like true affection for this man, whose +love was very real and who seemed to find his only happiness in making +the world the most delightful of dreamlands for her, began to grow up in +her heart. + +Of course, she often thought of Vane; that was inevitable. It was +inevitable, too, that she should look back now and then to some of the +many tender scenes that had passed between them; but as time went on, +these memory-pictures grew more faint. The fast-succeeding events and +the new experiences of her married life crowded swiftly and thickly upon +her, until she began to look upon the past more as a dream than as a +reality. Vane's figure receded rapidly into the background of her life, +and, as it did so, it seemed in some way to become spiritualised, lifted +above and beyond the world-sphere in which it was now her destiny to +move. + +They got back to England a few weeks before the season began, and, after +a day or two in London for some necessary shopping, they went down to +Garthorne Abbey, one of the finest old seats in the Midland counties, +standing on a wooded slope in the green border which fringes the Black +Country, and facing the meadows and woodlands which stretch away down to +the banks of the Severn, beyond which rise the broken, picturesque +outlines of the Herefordshire Hills. + +Here Enid Garthorne spent an entirely delightful week exploring the +stately home and the splendid domain of which she would one day be +mistress. Day after day in the early clear Spring morning, she would go +up alone on to a sort of terrace-walk which had been made round the roof +behind the stone balustrade which ran all round the house, and look out +over the green, well-wooded, softly undulating country, her heart filled +with a delighted pride and the consciousness, or, at any rate, the +belief, that after all the cloud which had come between her and Vane had +had a silver, nay, a golden lining, and that, so far, at least, +everything had been for the best. + +As she looked to the eastward, she could see stretched along the horizon +a low, dun-coloured line which was not cloud. It was the smoke of the +Black Country, and underneath it hundreds and hundreds of men, aye, and +if she had known it, women, too, were toiling in forge and mine and +factory, earning the thousands which made life so easy and so pleasant +for her. To the westward were the low-lying meadows, the rolling +corn-lands, and the dark strips and patches of wood and coppice which +lay for miles on three sides of the Home Park, and beyond these she +caught bright gleams of the silver Severn rippling away to the distant +Bristol Channel; then, beyond this again, the rising uplands which +culminated in the irregular terraces of the Abberley Hills. + +She knew nothing of it at the time, but far away, perched up in a leafy +nook among them was a little cluster of old grey buildings; just a +chapel, a guest-house, a refectory, and half a dozen cells forming a +tiny quadrangle which was still called St. Mary's Chapel of Ease, but +which in the old days when all the lands that Enid could see from her +roof-walk had belonged to the ancient Abbey of Ganthony--of which her +husband's name was perhaps a corruption--had been known as the House of +Our Lady of Rest. + +Before the dissolution of the Monasteries it had been a place of rest +and retreat for servants of the Church who had exhausted themselves in +her service or had found reason to withdraw themselves a while from the +world and its temptations; and such, though creeds have changed, it has +practically remained until now. + +The little church was nominally St. Augustine's, the Parish Church of a +little scattered hamlet which was sprinkled over the hillside beneath +it. The living had been in the gift of the Garthorne family, but Sir +Reginald's father had sold the advowson to one of the earliest pioneers +of the High Church movement in England, and through this purchase it had +passed into the keeping of a small Anglican Order calling itself the +Fraternity of St. Augustine. + +This little Brotherhood had not only maintained the traditions of the +ancient Order of St. Augustine, Preacher, Saint and Martyr, but had done +all that was possible to revive them in their ancient purity. The little +monastery among the hills, though it had passed under another +ecclesiastical rule, was still a place where priests and deacons might +come either to rest from the labours which they had endured in the +service of their Master, or to separate themselves from the din and +turmoil of the world, and, amidst the peace and silence of nature, +wrestle with the doubts or temptations that had beset them. The Vicar of +the parish and Father Superior of the Retreat was an aged priest who had +welcomed three generations of his younger brothers in Christ as +temporary sojourners in this little sanctuary, and had sent them away +comforted and strengthened to take their place again in the ranks of the +army which wages that battle which began when the first prophecy was +uttered in Eden, and which will only end when the sound of the Last +Trump marshalls the hosts of men before the bar of the Last Tribunal. + +Vane had been the occupant of one of the tiny little rooms, which had +once been the monks' cells, for a little over three months when Enid +came to her future home. The rooms were on the side of the quadrangle +facing the valley, and from his little window he could distinctly see +the great white house, with its broad terraces standing out against the +dark background formed by the trees which crowned the ridge behind it. +He, of course, knew perfectly well to whom it belonged and who would one +day be mistress of it, and one day he saw from the _Times_, the only +secular newspaper admitted into St. Augustine's, that Mr. and Mrs. +Reginald Garthorne had returned from their wedding trip on the +Continent, and, after a day or two in London, would proceed for a few +weeks to Garthorne Abbey to recuperate before the fatigues of the +season, of which it was generally expected Mrs. Garthorne would be one +of the most brilliant ornaments. + +The sight of it, the knowledge of all the splendours that it contained, +of all the worldly wealth of which it was the material sign, had not +affected him in the least. He had already lifted himself beyond the +possibility of envying anyone the possession of such things as these. He +could see over and beyond them as a man on a mountain top might look +over a little spot on the plain beneath, which to those who dwelt in it +was a great and splendid city. + +Even the knowledge that Enid was coming to the Abbey as the wife of its +future master only drew just a single quiet sigh from his lips, only +caused him to give one swift look back into the world that he had left, +for after all this was only what he had expected, what he knew to be +almost inevitable when he had first made up his mind to sacrifice his +love to what he believed to be his duty. + +She had passed out of his existence and he had passed out of hers. +Henceforth their life-circles might touch, but they could never +intersect each other. Of course, they would meet again in the world, but +only as friends, with perhaps a warmer hand-clasp for the sake of the +days that were past and gone for ever, but that was all. He had but one +mistress now, the Church. He was hers body and soul to the end, for he +had sworn an allegiance which could not be broken save at the risk of +his own soul. + +One morning, about a week after he had read the paragraph in the +_Times_, he was out on the hillside, going from cottage to cottage of +the hundred or so sprinkled round the high road across the hills, for it +was his day to carry out the parochial duties of the fraternity. Every +day one of the Fathers, as the villagers called them, made his rounds, +starting soon after sunrise and sometimes not getting back till after +dark, for Father Philip had no belief in the efficacy of fasting and +meditation and prayer unless they were supplemented by a literal +obedience to the commands of Him who went about doing good. When priest +or deacon entered the Retreat, no matter what he was, rich or poor, +wedded or single, he had to take the vows of poverty, obedience and +chastity. When he left to go back into the world he was absolved from +them, and was free to do what seemed best to his own soul. + +Vane had just left a little farmhouse upon which a great shame and +sorrow had fallen. As too often happens in this district, the only +daughter of the house, discontented with the quiet monotony of the farm +life, had gone away to Kidderminster to work in a carpet factory. That +was nearly eighteen months ago, and the night before she had come back +ragged, hungry, and penniless, with a nameless baby in her arms. + +As he was walking along the road which led from this farmhouse to the +next hamlet thinking of that vanished sister of his and of the poor +imbecile in the French asylum, he turned a bend and saw a figure such as +was very seldom seen among the villages approaching him about two +hundred yards away. He stopped, almost as though he had received a blow +on the chest. It was impossible for his eyes to mistake it, and with a +swift sense, half of anger and half of disgust, he felt his heart begin +to beat harder and quicker. It was Enid, Enid in the flesh. + +He had read of her marriage, and of her return with her husband with +hardly an emotion. Day after day he had looked upon her future home, the +home in which she would live as the wife of another man and the mother +of his children, without a single pang of envy or regret--and now, at +the first sight of her, his heart was beating, his pulses throbbing, and +his nerves thrilling. + +True, every heart-beat, every pulse-throb, was a sin now, for she was a +wedded wife--and meanwhile she was still coming towards him. In a few +minutes more, since it was impossible for him to pass her as a stranger, +her hand would be clasped in his, and he would be once more looking into +those eyes which had so often looked up into his, hearing words of +greeting from those lips which he had so often kissed, and whose kisses +were now vowed to another man. + +There was a little lane, turning off to the left a few yards away. She +had never seen him in his clerical dress, so she could not have +recognised him yet. She would only take him for one of the clergy at +the Retreat, he had only to turn down the lane-- + +But no, his old manhood rose in revolt at the idea. That would be a +flight, a mean, unworthy flight, unworthy alike of himself and the high +resolves that he had taken. It was hard, almost impossible even to think +of _her_ as a temptation, as an enemy to his soul, and yet, even if she +were, as the leaping blood in his veins told him she might be, was it +for him, the young soldier of the Cross, just buckling on his armour, to +turn his back upon the first foe he met, even though that foe had once +been his best beloved? He set his teeth and clenched his hands, and +walked on past the entrance to the lane. + +A minute or two later their eyes met. A look of astonished recognition +instantly leapt into hers. She shifted the silver handled walking stick +into her left hand, and held out the other, daintily gauntleted in tan. + +"Why Vane!" she exclaimed, in a voice which was still as sweet and soft +as ever, but which seemed to him to have a strange and somewhat +discordant note in it, "you don't mean to say that it's you. I suppose, +as a matter of fact, I ought to say Mr. Maxwell now--I mean now that +you're a clergyman--but after all, those little things don't matter +between such very old friends as we are, and I'm sure Reggie won't mind, +in fact, I shan't let him if he does. Just fancy meeting you here! I +suppose you're one of the Fathers--is that it?--at the little monastery +up there. I've only been home a week, and last night I heard about this +place, so I drove over to see it. But you haven't told me how you are +yet, and how you like your--your new life." + +As a matter of fact, she had rattled all this off so quickly that Vane +had not had time to reply to her greeting. He had taken her hand and, +somewhat tremblingly, returned the frank, firm pressure. While she was +speaking, he looked into her face and saw that she had already assumed +the invisible but impenetrable mask in which the society woman plays her +part in the tragic comedy of Vanity Fair. It was the same face and yet +not the same, the same voice and yet a different one, and the sight and +sound acted upon him like a powerful tonic. This was not the Enid he had +loved, after all, at least, so it seemed to him. He had forgotten, or +had never known that every woman is a born actress, and that even the +brief training which Enid had already had was quite enough to enable her +to say one thing, while thinking and feeling something entirely +different. + +He smiled for the first time as their hands parted, and said, in a voice +whose calm frankness surprised himself: + +"Good morning, Mrs. Garthorne!"--he absolutely couldn't trust himself to +pronounce the word "Enid"--"Thanks, I'm very well, and, as you have +guessed, I am located for the present up in the Retreat yonder. I +confess I was a little startled to see you coming up the road, although +I saw from the _Times_ the other day that you had come back from the +Continent and were coming down here to the Abbey. Of course, you would +hear of the Retreat sooner or later, and as it's a bit of a show place +in its humble way, I had an idea that you would come over some time to +see it." + +"Oh, but I suppose you don't allow anything so unholy as a woman to +enter the sacred precincts, do you?" + +The artificial flippancy of her tone annoyed him perhaps even more than +it shocked him. There was a sort of scoff in it which rightly or wrongly +he took to himself. It seemed to say "You, of course, have done with +women now and for ever; henceforth, you must only look upon us as +temptations to sin, and so I can say what I like to you." + +"On the contrary," he replied, forcing a smile, "the Retreat is as open +for visiting purposes to women as it is to men. It is nothing at all +like a monastery, you know, although report says it is. It is simply a +place where clergymen who have need of it can go and rest and think and +pray in peace, and act as curates to the Superior who is also vicar of +the parish. In fact, it has been known for mothers and sisters of the +men to take rooms in the villages, and they are even invited to lunch." + +"Dear me," she said, "how very charming! Of course, you will come over +to the Abbey and have dinner some evening, and sleep, and the next +morning I shall expect you to let me drive you over here and invite me +to lunch." + +"Of course, I shall be delighted," he said, purposely using the most +conventional terms, "but I ought to tell you that there is a condition +attached to our hospitality." + +"Oh, indeed, and what is that?" she said, glancing up at him with one of +her old saucy looks. "I hope it isn't very stringent. Won't you turn and +walk a little way with me and tell me all about it? There is my pony +carriage coming up the hill after me. It will overtake us soon, and then +I won't take up your time any longer, for I daresay you are going on +some good work." + +Again the half-veiled flippancy of her tone jarred upon him and made him +clench his teeth for an instant. + +"With the greatest pleasure," he replied, turning and walking with long, +slow strides beside her. His blood was quite cool now, and a great +weight had been lifted from his shoulders. + +"It is this way," he went on, speaking as calmly as though he were +addressing an utter stranger. "You know, or perhaps you do not know yet, +that, beautiful and almost arcadian as this place is, there is, I regret +to say, a great deal of poverty and sorrow, and, I am afraid, sin too, +and it is part of our duty at the Retreat to seek this out and do what +we can to relieve it; but there is much of that kind of work which women +can do infinitely better than men, and therefore, when a woman enters +our gates as our guest, we ask her to do what she can to help us." + +"I see," she said, more softly and more naturally than she had spoken +before. "It is a very just and a very good condition, and I shall do my +best to fulfil it; indeed, as I suppose I shall some day be Lady of the +Manor here, it will be my duty to do it." + +"I am very glad to hear you say so," he said, with a touch of warmth in +his tone, "very glad. And if you like you can begin at once. You see +that little farmhouse up the road yonder. Well, there is not only +sorrow, but sin and shame as well in that house. The old people are most +respectable, and they were once fairly comfortably off before the +agricultural depression ruined them. They are wretchedly poor now, but +they struggle on somehow. About eighteen months ago their daughter went +off to Kidderminster to work in the mills. She said she would get good +wages and send some of them home every week. For some months she did +send them a few shillings, and then what is unfortunately only too +common about here happened. For a long time they lost sight of her, and +last night she came back, starving, with a baby and no husband." + +He said this in a perfectly passionless and impersonal tone, just as a +doctor might describe the symptoms of a disease. "If you care to, you +can do a great deal of good there," he went on. "I have just been there. +If you like I will take you in and introduce you." + +She stopped and hesitated for a moment. It struck her as such an utter +reversal of their former relationships, that it seemed almost to +obliterate the line which lies between the sublime and the ridiculous. +Then she moved forward again, saying, in her own old natural voice: + +"Thank you, Vane. I have often wondered since what sort of circumstances +we should meet under again, but I never thought of anything like this. +Yes, I will come, and if there is anything I can do I will do it." + +"I thought you would," he said quietly, as he strode along beside her +towards the farmhouse. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII. + + +After introducing Enid to the sorrow-stricken family, Vane took his +leave of her to go about his work. He met the pony-cart coming up the +hill, and told the footman to wait for his mistress outside the +farmhouse. Then he went on to the other hamlet, doing his work just as +well and conscientiously as ever, and yet all the while thinking many +thoughts which had very little connection with it. + +He got back to the Retreat just in time for supper, and when the meal +was over he asked Father Philip for the favour of half an hour's +conversation. The request was, of course, immediately granted, and as +soon as he was alone with the old man, who was wise alike in the things +of the world and in those of the spirit, he told him, not as penitent to +confessor, but rather as pupil to teacher, the whole story of his +meeting and conversation with Enid, not omitting the slightest detail +that his memory held, from the first thrill of emotion that he had +experienced on seeing her to the last word he had spoken to her on +leaving the farmhouse. + +Father Philip was silent for some time after he had finished his story, +then, leaning back in his deep armchair, he looked at Vane, who was +still walking slowly up and down the little room, and said in a quiet, +matter-of-fact voice: + +"I'm very glad, Maxwell, that you've told me this. As I have told you +before, I have listened to a good many life-histories in this room, but +I must admit that yours is one of the strangest and most difficult of +them. The fact of Miss Raleigh having married the son of the lord of the +manor here, and having come down while you are here, naturally makes it +more difficult still. But then, you know, my dear fellow, the greater +the difficulty and the danger of the strife the greater the honour and +the reward of victory. + +"For my own part I think that your meeting with her in the road down +yonder, if not ordered by Providence, may, with all reverence, be called +providential. Those emotions which you experienced on first seeing her, +and for which you were inclined to reproach yourself, were after all +perfectly human, and therefore natural and pardonable. I needn't tell +you now that I entirely disagree with those who consider that a man +should cease to be a man when he becomes a clergyman. You are young, and +you are made of flesh and blood. You were once very much in love with +this young lady"--there was a slight, almost imperceptible emphasis upon +the "once" which somehow made Vane wince--"you might have married her, +but you forewent that happiness in obedience to a conviction which would +have done honour to the best of us. You would have been either more or +less than human if your heart had not beaten a little harder and your +blood had not flowed a little faster when you met her unexpectedly like +that in a country road. + +"But," he went on, sitting up in his chair and speaking with a little +more emphasis, "the very fact that you so quickly discovered such a +decided change in her, and that that change, moreover, struck you as +being one for the worse, is to my mind a distinct proof that your paths +in life have already diverged very widely." + +"And yet, Father Philip," said Vane, as the old man paused and looked up +at him, "you can hardly say, surely, that it was a good thing for me to +discover that change. I can tell you honestly that it was a very sad one +for me." + +"Possibly," said Father Philip, "and, without intending the slightest +disrespect to Mrs. Garthorne, I still say that it was a good thing for +you to discover it." + +"But why, Father Philip? How can it be a good thing for a man to +discover a change for the worse in a woman whom he has grown up with +from boy and girl, whom he has loved, and who has been to him the ideal +of all that was good and lovable on earth?" + +"My dear Maxwell, what you have just said convinces me that you have +learnt or are in course of learning one of the most valuable lessons +that experience can teach you. Remember that a man can only see with his +own eyes, that he can only judge from his own perceptions. I do not +agree with you in thinking that the Mrs. Garthorne of the present +differs so greatly from the Miss Raleigh of the past. Different in a +certain degree, of course, she must be. She was a girl then, living +under the protection of her father's roof. She is a wife now, with a +home of her own, with new cares, new responsibilities, new prospects. In +fact, the whole world has changed for her, and therefore it would be +very strange if she had not changed too. But that was not the change you +saw. I would rather believe that that was in yourself, that you are a +different man, not that she is a different woman." + +"I think I see what you mean," said Vane, seating himself on the edge +of an old oak table in the middle of the room. "You mean that while she +has remained the same or nearly so my point of view has altered. I see +her in a different perspective, and through a different atmosphere." + +"Exactly," replied Father Philip. "It is both more reasonable and more +charitable to believe that you have changed for the better, and not she +for the worse." + +"God grant that it may be so," said Vane, slipping off the table and +beginning his walk again. "If it is so, then at least my work has not +been without some result, and some of my prayers have been granted. But +now, Father Philip, I want your advice. What shall I do? Shall I stay +here and meet her just as an old friend? Shall I accept her invitation +over to the Abbey? Shall I bring her here and introduce her to you, so +that you may tell her what she can do for our people? Shall I trust +myself to this sort of intercourse with her, or, as my time here is +nearly up, shall I go away?" + +"As for trusting yourself, Maxwell," said Father Philip slowly, "that is +a question I cannot answer. You must ask that of your own soul, and I +will pray and you must pray that it shall answer you with an honest +'Yes.' I don't believe that the answer will be anything else. But if it +is, then by all means go, go to the first work that your hand finds to +do. Go and join your friend Ernshaw in his mission under Southey. But if +it is 'Yes,' as I hope and believe it will be, then stop until it is +time for you to take your priest's orders. Visit the Abbey, bring Mrs. +Garthorne here, interest her in the good work that you have already, I +hope, made her begin by taking her to the Clellens. Prove to her and her +husband, and, most important of all, to yourself, that you did not take +that resolve of yours lightly or in vain, that, in short, you are one +of those who can, as Tennyson says, 'rise on stepping-stones of their +dead selves to higher things.' + +"That, Maxwell, is the best advice I can give you. When you go to your +room you will, of course, ask for guidance from the Source which cannot +err, and I will add my prayers to yours that it may be given you." + +The next day a mounted footman brought a note from Garthorne to Vane +saying that his wife had told him of her meeting with him, and also +expressing his pleasure at finding that he was in the neighbourhood, and +asking him to come over to dine and sleep at the Abbey the next evening. +If that evening would suit him he had only to tell the messenger, and a +dog-cart would be sent for him, as the distance by road over the Bewdley +Bridge was considerably over seven miles. + +He had been awake nearly all night. In fact, he had spent the greater +part of it on his knees questioning his own soul and seeking that advice +which Father Philip had advised him to seek, and when the early morning +service in the little chapel was over he honestly believed that he had +found it. He went back into his room, after telling the man to put his +horse in the stable, and go to what was stilled called the buttery and +get a glass of beer, and wrote a note thanking Garthorne for his +invitation, and accepting it for the following night. + +If Vane had been told a couple of years before that he would visit Enid +and her husband as an ordinary guest, that he would sit opposite to her +at table and hear her address another man as "dear" in the commonplace +of marital conversation, that he would see her exchange with another man +those little half-endearments which are not the least of the charms of +the first few married years, and that he would be able to look upon all +this at least with grave eyes and unmoved features, he would simply have +laughed at the idea as something too ridiculous ever to come within the +bounds of possibility. + +Yet, to the outward view, that was exactly what happened during his stay +at Garthorne Abbey. He seemed to see Enid through some impalpable and +yet impenetrable medium. He could see her as he always had seen her; but +to touch her, to put his hand upon her, even to dream of one of those +caresses which such a short time ago had been as common as hand-shakes +between them, was every whit as impossible as the present condition of +things would have seemed to him then. + +There were a few other people to dinner. None of them knew anything of +his previous relationship to Enid, and their presence naturally, and +perhaps fortunately, kept the conversation away from the things of the +past; but the Fates had put him in full view of Enid at the table, and, +do what he would, he could not keep his eyes from straying back again +and again to that perfect and once well-beloved face, any more than he +could keep his ears from listening to that voice which had once been the +sweetest of music for him, rather than to the general conversation in +which it was his social duty to take a part. + +It was a sore trial to the fortitude and self-control of a man who had +loved as long and as dearly as he had done, but the strength which his +long vigils away among the hills had given him did not desert him, and +he came through it outwardly calm and triumphant, however deeply the +iron was entering into his soul the while. It was one of those occasions +on which such a man as he would take refuge from spiritual torment in +intellectual activity, and neither Enid nor her husband had ever heard +him talk so brilliantly and withal so lightly and good-humouredly as he +did that night. + +One of the guests was the vicar of Bedminster; and a Canon of Worcester, +an old friend of Sir Reginald's, happened to be staying in the house. +They were both High Churchmen, the Canon perhaps a trifle "higher" than +the Vicar, and they were both delighted with him. The Canon remembered +his ordination at Worcester, and during the conversation, which had now +turned upon the relationship between the Church and the People, he said: + +"Well, Maxwell, I will say frankly if you can preach as well as you can +talk, and if your doctrine is as sound as your opinion on things in +general seems to be, the Church will be none the poorer when you are +priested. I think I shall ask the Bishop to let you preach the Sunday +after you take full orders. I suppose your Father Superior up there +would let you come, wouldn't he? + +"A grand man, that Father Philip, by the way," he went on, looking round +the table. "In his quiet, unostentatious way, in his little room up +there in the old house of Our Lady of Rest, as they used to call it, he +has done more real work for the Church than, I am afraid, a good many of +us have done with all our preaching in churches and cathedrals." + +"That," said Enid, "would be altogether delightful. Of course, we should +all come and hear your Reverence," she went on, with a half ironical nod +towards Vane. "You know, Canon, Mr. Maxwell and I are quite old friends. +In fact, we came home from India as children in the same ship, didn't +we, Reggie?" she added, with another laughing nod, this time at her +husband, "and I am sure your Reverence would have no more interested +listener than I should be." + +"It is quite possible, Mrs. Garthorne," Vane replied in something like +the same tone, "that you might be more interested than pleased." + +"Indeed," said Enid, "and may I ask why?" + +There was an immediate silence round the table, everybody wondering what +his answer would be. + +"Because," he replied, with a change of tone so swift as to be almost +startling, "as soon as I take full Orders, it is my purpose, with God's +help and under Father Philip's advice, to become a missionary, not a +missionary to the heathen, as we are pleased to call them, or to the +infinitely more degraded heathen of our own country, but to such people +as you, you who are really living in sin without knowing it. Has it ever +struck you, Canon, how great a work the Church has left undone in what +are called the upper ranks of Society? You know the vast majority of +them really and honestly believe themselves to be good Christians, and +yet, as far as practical obedience to the teaching of Christ goes, they +are no more Christians than an unconverted Hottentot is." + +"Oh--er--ah--yes," replied the Canon rather awkwardly, and in the midst +of a long silence. "Of course, I quite understand you and--er--by the +way, do you intend to apply for any preferment?" + +"I shall get a curacy with Ernshaw if I can in the East End to begin +with, or, perhaps, with Father Baldwin in Kensington," said Vane, +unable, like Enid and her husband and one or two others, to repress a +faint smile at the Canon's not very skilful change of subject. "But I +shall not attempt to get a living or anything of that sort. You see, I +have some private means, and so I shall be in the happy position of +being able to do my work without pay. Besides, while there is such an +amount of poverty in the lower ranks of the Church, I think it is little +less than sinful for a man who can live without it to take a stipend +which, at least, might be bread and butter to a man who has nothing." + +There was a rather awkward pause after this speech, as everyone at the +table save Vane knew perfectly well that both the Vicar and the Canon +had considerable private means in addition to the substantial stipends +they drew from their clerical offices. At length Enid looked across at +her husband with a wicked twinkle in her eye, and put an end to the +situation by rising. As soon as the ladies were gone, Garthorne sent the +wine round and adroitly turned the conversation back again to general +subjects. When they went into the drawing-room, a discussion on the +prospects of the season was in full swing, and from motives of prudence, +this, varied with a little music and singing, was kept up till the +ladies retired for the night. + +When Enid shook hands with Vane they happened to be out of earshot of +the others, and as she returned his clasp with the same old frank +pressure, she said in a low tone: + +"You were splendid to-night, Vane, and you will be more splendid still +in the pulpit, only they'll never let you preach in the Cathedral after +that. Well, good-night. After all, I was wrong and you were right. You +have chosen the better part. God bless you and be with you, Vane. +Good-night!" + +As their eyes met he fancied that he saw a faint mist in hers. Then her +long lashes fell; she turned her head away and the next moment she was +gone. + +When the good-nights had been said, Garthorne took his male guests into +the smoking-room for whisky and soda and cigars. Vane laughingly +declined, and asked permission to light a pipe. + +"No, thanks," he said, with perfect good temper, although the offer was +not in the best of taste. "I've not forgotten the last brandy and soda I +had with you at Oxford." + +When bed-time came, Garthorne took Vane up to his room. As his host said +"good-night," Vane followed him to the door and watched him as he went +along the panelled corridor and down the great staircase to next floor, +on which the Bride-chamber of the Abbey was situated. Then he went in +and locked his door. + +He sat down in an easy chair in the corner of the room and covered his +face with his hands. After all, had he done the right thing in accepting +Garthorne's invitation? Had he not over-estimated his strength? As he +sat there, he felt that he had thrown himself unnecessarily into a life +and death conflict. He encountered temptations every day of his life, +although to the ordinary individual it might seem that the life which he +and his companions led must be singularly devoid of temptation, yet here +he was confronted with a trial which he could have avoided. Ought he to +have avoided it? + +Then there came to his mind the remembrance of a passage in one of the +sermons which Father Philip had once preached to the little community in +the Retreat. The words seemed particularly appropriate to Vane at the +time, and he made a note of them in a little memorandum book which he +always carried with him for the purpose of writing down any sentences +which he heard or read which might strengthen him in the life which he +had chosen for himself. He took the book from his pocket and read: + +"The ideal life is never one of rigid asceticism any more than it is one +of voluptuous self-indulgence; it is an equilibrium of forces, a vital +harmony, a constant symphony, in the performance of which all +capabilities in all phases of expression are called into vital but never +into hysterical activity. The true peace is so heroic that it only +follows crucifixion of all that was once regarded as essential to human +happiness." + +He sat for a moment after he had read and re-read this passage. Then he +went to the mirror over the mantel-piece, and drew back shocked and +terrified at the sudden change which had come over his features. They +reminded him strongly of the features he had seen in the glass that +other night in Warwick Gardens. Then he turned away and threw himself on +his knees by the bed and groaned aloud in the bitterness of his soul: + +"Oh, God! it is too heavy for me! Not by my strength but by Thine alone +can I bear it." + +It was the only prayer he uttered. In fact, they were the only words he +could speak; but when he rose from the bedside he felt relieved, so far +relieved that he took from his pocket a well-worn copy of Thomas a +Kempis's "Imitation," and sat and read until almost daybreak. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV. + + +It was the morning of Trinity Sunday, and Worcester Cathedral was +crowded by a congregation which, if it had been an audience in an +unconsecrated building, could have been justly described as brilliant. + +Trinity Sunday is usually what may, without irreverence, be called more +or less of a show Sunday in all churches. To-day all the clerical light +and learning of the diocese was gathered together in the grand old +Cathedral. The various portions of the service were to be conducted by +clergy of high rank and notable social position. No one under the rank +of a Canon, at least, would take any part in the proceedings. + +The first lesson would be read by the Vicar of Bedminster, who was also +a Canon of the Cathedral, and the second by Canon Thornton-Moore, whose +acquaintance the reader has already made at Garthorne Abbey. Both of +them were men of dignified presence, and both possessed good voices and +a careful elocutionary training. + +The Epistle and Gospel would be read by the Archdeacon and the Dean. +Organ and choir were tuned to a perfection of harmony. And finally the +Bishop would preach. After that would come the administration of the +Sacrament to those who had not received it at the early service, for +Trinity Sunday is accredited one of those three days on which, at least, +the faithful member of the Anglican Church shall communicate. Then, the +communion over, the Bishop would hold an Ordination, in consideration of +which he had thoughtfully and thankfully curtailed his eloquence in the +pulpit. + +At this ordination Mark Ernshaw, who had already won fame both as an +earnest and utterly self-sacrificing missionary, in the moral and +spiritual wilds of East and South London, and also as a preacher who +could fill any West End Church to suffocation, was to be admitted to +full orders in company with his friend, Vane Maxwell, who was so far +unknown to fame save for the fact that he was locally known as one of +the dwellers in the Retreat among the hills, and, therefore, as one who +had sat at the feet of the far-famed Father Philip, who himself had +to-day made one of his rare appearances in the world, and was occupying +one of the Canons' stalls in the chancel. + +All the Clergy at the Retreat were popularly supposed to have "a past" +of some sort, and as Vane had come from there and was also credited with +being young and exceedingly good-looking--some of the lady visitors to +the Retreat had described him as possessing "an almost saintlike beauty, +my dear"--he also was a focus of interest. Moreover, he was known to +have taken a brilliant degree at Oxford, and to have had equally +brilliant worldly prospects which he had suddenly and unaccountably +relinquished to go into the Church. + +Thus it came to pass that a very different and much more numerous +congregation witnessed this ceremonial than the one which had taken +place at the same altar rails a little more than a twelvemonth before. + +Of course, all the party from the Abbey were present, including Sir +Reginald, who had come down for a few days from town. Enid and her +husband had communicated. It was their first communion since their +marriage. Then they had gone back to their places to await the +ordination. + +In one of the front rows of the transept seats there was a tall, +well-dressed girl, very pretty, with dark, deep, serious eyes which, in +the intervals of the service she had several times raised and turned on +Enid and her husband, who were sitting on the same side towards the +front, in the body of the Cathedral. She was the very last person in the +world, saving only, perhaps, Carol herself, whom Garthorne would have +wished to see just then and there, and as soon as he had made sure that +Dora Murray really was sitting within a few yards of him he began to be +haunted by ugly fears of blackmail and exposure--which showed how very +little he had learnt of Dora's character during the time that Carol had +shared the flat with her. + +But Dora's thoughts were very different, for they were all of fear, +mingled with something like horror. She looked at the sweet-faced girl +sitting beside Reginald Garthorne, and thought of the ruin and +desolation that would fall upon her young life, with all its brilliant +outward promise, if she only knew what she could have told her. She +looked at her husband and wondered what all these good people--most of +whom would have given almost anything for an invitation to his +home--what these grave-faced, decorous clergy, too, would think if they +could see him as she had seen him only a few months before. There was +Sir Arthur Maxwell, too, sitting a little farther on, and beside him Sir +Godfrey and Lady Raleigh, though, of course, she did not know them, but +she guessed who they were, and close to Sir Arthur sat Sir Reginald, his +host for the time being. + +The whole of the Abbey party had communicated together. What would +happen if she were to go to Sir Arthur after the service, and tell him +what Carol had told her, if he were to learn that he had been kneeling +at the altar rails beside the betrayer of his wife and the dishonourer +of his name? + +When she had seen Sir Reginald rise from his seat and go with the rest +of the party across the centre transept to the chancel, she needed all +her self-control to shut her teeth and clench her hands and prevent +herself from leaving her seat and accusing him of his infamy before +clergy and congregation. She thought thankfully how good a thing it was +that Carol, with her fierce impetuosity and sense of bitter wrong, was +not there too. There was no telling what disaster might have happened, +how many lives might have been wrecked by the words which she might have +flung out at him, red-hot from her angry heart. + +In her way Dora was a really religious girl, as many of her class are. +So religious, indeed, that she would not have dared to have approached +the altar herself; because she knew that for her, wedded as she was to +the pleasant careless life she led, repentance and reform were quite out +of the question. + +She saw no incongruity at all in this. She went to church regularly in +London, offered up as simple and as earnest prayers as anyone; lifted up +her beautiful voice in the hymns and psalms and responses in honest +forgetfulness of the things of yesterday and to-morrow, and, for the +time being at least, took the lessons of the sermon to heart with a +simple faith which many of her respectable sisters in the congregation +were far from feeling. + +In short, though the circumstances were different, she was very much in +the position of the average respectable, well-to-do church-going +Christian who will strive all the week, often by quite questionable +methods, to lay up for himself and his wife and family treasures upon +earth, and then on Sunday go to church and listen with the most perfect +honesty and the most undisturbed equanimity to the reading of the Sermon +on the Mount. + +But when she saw Sir Reginald go with his son and his daughter-in-law, +with her parents and Vane's father up through the chancel where Vane was +sitting, her heart turned sick in her breast. The sacrilege, the +blasphemy of it all seemed horrible beyond belief. Again and again the +words rose to her lips. Again and again an almost irresistible impulse +impelled her to get up, and she was only saved from doing what all that +was best in her nature urged her to do, by the knowledge that, after +all, she might only be expelled from the Cathedral by the Vergers, and +perhaps prosecuted afterwards for brawling. Then her real story would +come out. + +She was visiting her parents who lived in Worcester, and who believed +that she was conducting a little millinery business in London. She had +great natural skill in designing head-gear--her own hat, for instance, +had been gazed on by many an envious eye since the service began--and +she would have bitten her tongue through, rather than say a word which +would have undeceived them. And so for this reason as well she held her +peace. + +Then she had heard the sonorous voice of the officiating priest rolling +down the chancel: + + "Ye that do truly and earnestly repent you of your sins, and are in + love and charity with your neighbours and intend to lead a new + life, following the commandments of God and walking from henceforth + in His holy way, draw near with faith and take this Holy Sacrament + to your comfort." + +Then came the general confession, and as she followed it in her +prayer-book she thought of that unconfessed, though, perhaps, not +unrepented sin of which she alone, save Sir Reginald, in all that great +congregation knew. How could this man kneel there and say these solemn +words, before he had confessed his sin to the man he had wronged, to the +husband from whom he had stolen a wife, to the son he had deprived of a +mother? What horrible mockery and blasphemy it all was! Surely some day +some terrible retribution must fall on him for this. + +After the Eucharist followed, as usual on such occasions, the Ordination +Service. She had never seen Vane before, but when some of the +congregation had left after the Communion Service, she left her seat and +took a vacant one in front of the chancel, and then, even at some +distance, she recognised him immediately by his likeness to Carol. It +seemed to her that she had never seen anything so beautiful in human +shape when he rose in his surplice and stole and hood to take his place +before the Bishop at the altar-rail. And yet how different must her +thoughts have been from Enid's, as they both looked upon the kneeling +figure and listened to the words which were the actual fulfilment of the +vow that he had taken to take up his cross and follow Him who said: +"Whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot +be my disciple." + +Then, in due course, came the fateful words, more full of fate, so far +as they concerned Vane, than any who knew him in the congregation had +any idea of. + +"Receive the Holy Ghost for the office and work of a priest in the +Church of God, now committed unto thee by the Imposition of our hands +from God. Whose sins thou dost forgive they are forgiven, and whose sins +thou dost retain they are retained. And be thou a faithful dispenser of +the word of God and of his Holy Sacraments; in the name of the Father +and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen!" + +"Whose sins thou dost forgive they are forgiven, and whose sins thou +dost retain, they are retained!" + +Saving only Vane himself, these words had a deeper meaning for Dora, the +Magdalen, the sinner, and the outcast, than they had for anyone else in +the congregation, and in one sense they meant even more to her than they +could do to him. When he rose from his knees before the altar rails, he +would rise invested, as she believed, by the authority of God through +the Church, with a power infinitely greater than that of any earthly +judge. It was his to forgive or retain, his to pardon or to damn. That, +to her simple reasoning, was the absolute meaning of the words as the +Bishop had spoken them. + +Some day it might happen that Carol would be confronted with the man +whom she believed to be her father. What if she were to bring Vane face +to face with him and he knew him for what he was, what would he do, not +as man, but as priest--forgive or retain, absolve or damn? + +When the ordination service was over and the congregation was moving out +of the Cathedral, Sir Arthur caught sight of Dora for the first time. +They were only a few feet apart, and recognition was inevitable. She +looked at him as though she had never seen him before, although she had +been present at more than one interview between him and Carol at +Melville Gardens, but Sir Arthur at once edged his way towards her, +shook hands in that decorous fashion which is usual among departing +congregations, and said, in an equally decorous whisper: + +"Good morning, Miss Murray! I hope you have not come here by accident, +and that you will be able to give me some news of Carol. We have looked +for you everywhere." + +"Except perhaps in the right place," she murmured, putting her hand into +his, "and if you had found us I don't think it would have been of any +use. Carol's mind was quite made up. My address is 15, Stonebridge +Street, if you wish to write to me. Good morning." + +And then they parted, he to go his way and she to go hers, and each with +an infinite pity for the other, and yet with what different reasons? It +was only a chance meeting, the accidental crossing of two widely +diverging life-paths; only one of those instances in which romance +delights to mock the commonplace, and yet how much it meant--and how +much might it mean when the future had become the present. + +Fortunately, Garthorne and Enid had been pressing on in front, and so he +had not noticed the meeting between Sir Arthur and Dora, whereby the +second possible catastrophe of the day was averted. + +Sir Arthur was one of the house-party at the Abbey, for he and Sir +Reginald had been to a certain extent colleagues in India, and had kept +up their acquaintance, and now that Sir Reginald's son had married the +girl whom Sir Arthur had always looked upon as a prospective +daughter-in-law, the intimacy had become somewhat closer. Sir Arthur had +said frankly at the first that he thought Vane had done an exceedingly +foolish thing; but since he had done it and meant to stick to it, there +was an end of the matter, and if Vane couldn't or wouldn't marry Enid, +he would, after all, rather see her the wife of his old friend's son +than anybody else's. He had, therefore, willingly accepted Sir +Reginald's invitation to spend a few days at the Abbey and witness his +son's admission to the full orders of the priesthood. + +Vane and Ernshaw, after exchanging greetings and receiving +congratulations, declined Sir Reginald's invitation to dine and sleep at +the Abbey, and went straight back to the Retreat with Father Philip. + +It happened that, somewhat late that night after their guests had gone +to bed, Reginald Garthorne had a couple of rather important letters to +write, and sat up to get them finished. When he had sealed and stamped +them, he took them to the post-box in the hall. The postman's lock-up +bag was standing on the hall table, and, as he knew there wouldn't be +any more letters that night, he thought he might as well put what there +were there into the bag and lock it with his own key. He took them out +in a handful, but before he could put them into the bag they slipped and +scattered on to the table. He bent down to gather them up, and there, +right under his eyes, was an envelope addressed in Sir Arthur Maxwell's +handwriting to Miss Dora Murray, 15 Stonebridge Street, Worcester. He +would have given a thousand pounds to know what that thin paper cover +concealed. The thought half entered his mind to take it away and steam +it, read the letter, and then put it back again; but he was not without +his own notions of honour, and he dismissed the thought before it was +fully formed. He contented himself with taking out his pencil and +copying the address, and as he put the letters into the bag and locked +it he said to himself: + +"Well, I was wondering at service what in the name of all that's unlucky +brought that girl down here just now, and I suppose I shall have to find +out. But what the deuce does the old man want writing to her? A nice +thing if they were to discover the lost Miss Carol and present her to +the world as Vane's half-sister, and then the rest of the story came +out. What an almighty fool I was to do that. If I'd only known that Enid +really would have me--but it's no use grizzling over that. I shall have +to find out what that young woman wants down in this part of the world, +and why Sir Arthur should be writing to her, that's quite certain." + + + + +CHAPTER XV. + + +Among Garthorne's letters the next morning there chanced to be one from +his solicitor in Worcester, and so this made an excellent excuse for him +to get away for the day. Enid was going to drive Sir Arthur and Sir +Reginald over to the Retreat, so he ordered the dogcart to take him to +Kidderminster, whence he took train for Worcester. + +He knew enough of Dora's circumstances with regard to her parents to +recognise the imprudence of calling upon her without notice, and so he +lunched at the Mitre Hotel, and sent a messenger with a note asking her +to meet him at three o'clock on the River Walk. The messenger was +instructed to wait for an answer if Miss Murray was in. + +Miss Murray was in, and when she read the note her first notion was that +Garthorne had by some means got an inkling of the truth, or, at the +least, had discovered that she was in communication with Sir Arthur +Maxwell and wished to know the reason. She made up her mind at once to +hold her tongue on both subjects, but at the same time, she felt that it +would hardly be wise to refuse to meet him. It must also be admitted +that she also was possessed by a pardonable, because feminine, curiosity +as to what he wanted with her. She felt, however, that in such a place +as Worcester it would be most imprudent for her to meet a man so well +known in the County as Reginald Garthorne on one of the public +thoroughfares, and so she wrote her answer as follows:-- + + "DEAR MR. GARTHORNE, + + "I have no idea why you should wish to see me, and I do not think + that it would be prudent to meet you as you suggest. You know how I + am situated here, and so I think it would be best, if you really + must speak to me, as you say, for you to come and see me here, not + under your own name, of course, as that is much too well known. I + would therefore suggest that you should call yourself Mr. Johnson, + and I will say that you are a representative of one of the big + millinery houses in London, and that you have come to see me on + business. I shall wait in for you till three. + + "Yours sincerely, + "DORA MURRAY." + +Garthorne saw the wisdom of this suggestion, and "Mr. Johnson" announced +himself at half past two. Dora received him alone in a little back +sitting-room, but his reception was not altogether encouraging, for when +he held out his hand and said "Good afternoon, Dora!" she flushed a +little, and affecting not to see his hand, she said: + +"Miss Murray, if you please, Mr. Garthorne, now and for the future. You +seem to have forgotten that, for me, at least, Worcester is not London." + +He was so completely taken aback by this utterly unexpected speech, as +well as by the unwonted tone in which it was spoken, that his +outstretched hand dropped to his side somewhat limply, and he felt +himself straightening up and staring at her in blank astonishment. + +"I beg your pardon, Miss Murray," he said, in a tone which sounded a +great deal more awkward than he meant it to do. "Of course, I was quite +wrong; I ought not to have forgotten." + +"There is no necessity for an apology," she said, more distantly than +before. "Will you sit down? You want to see me about something, I +suppose?" + +"Yes," he said, sitting down and fingering the brim of his hat somewhat +nervously. "Yes, that is what I have come over to Worcester for. In +fact, I have been wanting to see you for some time. In the first place, +I had a rather extraordinary letter from Carol some time ago, sending +back some money which I, of course, can't accept, so I've brought it +with me to ask you to take it and use it in any way that you think fit." + +"You mean, of course, in charity?" said Dora, looking him straight in +the eyes. "You wouldn't insult me by meaning it in any other way." + +"Oh, no, certainly not," he said, more awkwardly than before, and +wondering what on earth had produced this extraordinary change in her +manner. "I hope you know me well enough to believe me quite incapable of +such a thing." + +"If you only knew how well I know you!" thought Dora, "I wonder what +you'd think?" + +But she said aloud, and rather more kindly than before: + +"You must forgive me, Mr. Garthorne, I spoke rather hastily then. I +quite see what you mean. It's very good of you, and I'm sure that if +Carol were here she would tell me to take the money and use it that +way--so I will." + +"Thank you very much, Miss Murray," he replied, taking an envelope out +of his pocket-book. "There are the notes and postal orders exactly as +she sent them to me. And now, may I ask where she is?" + +"I can't answer that, Mr. Garthorne, because I don't know. The night +that she sent you that money back she made the acquaintance of a very +nice fellow who is something more than a millionaire, and since then +they've been taking a sort of irregular honeymoon round the world. The +last letter I had from her was from Sydney. She seems very jolly and +enjoying herself immensely." + +"Glad to hear it," said Garthorne, speaking the thing which was not +altogether true. "She's a jolly girl, and deserves the best of +luck--which she seems to have got. And the millionaire----?" + +Dora shook her head, and said quietly but decisively. + +"No, Mr. Garthorne, I'm afraid I can't tell you anything about him. It +would be a breach of confidence if I did, and so I'm sure you won't ask +for it. Do you want to ask me about anything else?" + +"Yes," he said, hesitatingly, "I do." There was a little pause, during +which they looked at each other, he enquiringly and she absolutely +impassive. Then he went on: "Of course, you saw us in the Cathedral +yesterday, and I think you know Sir Arthur Maxwell personally. You met +him once or twice when he went to call on Carol at Melville Gardens." + +"Yes." + +Then there was another pause, and, as Garthorne didn't seem able to find +anything to say, Dora went on speaking very quietly, but with a curious +note of restraint in her voice which puzzled him considerably. + +"I do know Sir Arthur, and I tried hard to persuade Carol to do what he +wanted her to do, although, all the same, I think I should have done as +she did if I had been her. I don't know whether you saw Sir Arthur speak +to me in the Cathedral as we were coming out, but he did. I have had a +letter from him this morning, and he is coming to see me." + +"Of course, you are not going to say anything----" + +"No, sir, I am not," said Dora, rising from her chair white to the lips +and with an ominous glitter in her eyes. She took up the envelope which +Garthorne had laid on the table, and tossed it at him. "You know me for +what I am in London, and it seems that you only look upon me as an +animal to be hired for the amusement of people like you, not as a woman +who still has her notions of honour. That is an insult which I cannot +pardon. You behaved well, as things go, to Carol, but you have now shown +me that, whatever you are in name and family, you are in yourself an +unspeakable cad. You came here thinking that I was going to blackmail +you because I happened to know something about you which you would not +like your wife to know. If you only knew what I could tell you----" + +And then she checked herself, and after a little pause, she pointed to +the door and said: + +"You have got your money, Mr. Garthorne, and there is the door. You will +oblige me by leaving the house as soon as possible." + +"But really, Miss Murray----" he began, as he rose, not a little +bewildered, from his chair. + +"Stop!" she said. "In mercy to yourself and your wife, stop! There is +the door; go, and remember that from now we are strangers, and if ever +you meet Carol again--no, I won't say that. God grant that you never +may see her again, for if you do----" + +"Well, and suppose I do, Miss Murray, what then?" he interrupted, with +his hand on the handle of the door. He had never heard such words from +the lips of either man or woman before, and that personal vanity which +is a characteristic even of the worst of men was grievously outraged. + +"Never mind what I mean," she said, cutting him short again. "I have +said all that I am going to say except this--if ever you meet Carol +again, for her sake and yours, for your wife's and your children's when +they come, _don't see her_. Now go!" + +There was a something in her voice and in her manner which said even +more than her lips had done. Something which not only struck him dumb +for the time being, but which also drove home into his soul a conviction +that this girl, outcast and social pariah as she was, not only held his +fate in her hands, but that she possessed some unknown power over his +destiny, that she knew something which, if spoken, might blast the +bright promise of his life and overwhelm him in irretrievable ruin. + +She had called him a cad, and as his thoughts flew back to that morning +in Vane Maxwell's rooms at Oxford, a pang of self-conviction told him +that she had spoken justly. He felt, too, that he was hopelessly in the +wrong, that by his suggestion he had sorely insulted her, and that in +exchange for his insult she had given him mercy. He would have given +anything to know the real meaning of her words, and yet he dare not even +ask her. + +He looked round at her once and saw her, standing rigid and impassive +waiting to be relieved of his presence. His thoughts went back a few +months to the times when those little dinners of four had been so +pleasant, and when this girl, who was now looking at him like an +accusing angel, had matched even Carol herself in the gaiety of her +conversation and the careless use she made of her mother-wit, and he +tried hard to say something which should in some way cover his retreat, +but the words wouldn't come, and so he just opened the door and walked +out. + +Dora heard the street door bang behind him, and then her tensely-strung +nerves relaxed. She dropped into an easy chair, clasped her hands over +her temples, and whispered: + +"Oh dear, oh dear, how is all this going to end, and what would happen +if they only knew! And now I've got to see Sir Arthur. Shall I tell him +everything or not? No, I daren't, I daren't. It's too awful. Was there +ever anything like it in the world before?" + +And then her body swayed forward, her elbows dropped on to her knees, +her hands clasped her temples tighter, and the next moment she had burst +into a passion of tears. + +Tears are a torture to men and a relief to women, so in a few minutes +she lifted her head again, the storm was over and she began to look the +situation over calmly. The more she thought of it the more certain it +seemed that she could do nothing but irretrievable mischief by even +hinting to Sir Arthur anything of what she knew. At any rate she decided +that until Carol came back she would keep her knowledge absolutely to +herself. + +Then the train of her thoughts was suddenly broken by the postman's +knock at the door. There was a London letter addressed to herself in the +familiar handwriting of Mr. Bernard Falcon. As she opened it she +experienced a singular mixture of relief and vexation, tinged by a +suggestion of shame. + +The letter began with an inquiry as to when she was coming back to +Town, and ended with an invitation to spend a week end in the round trip +from London to Dover, Calais, Boulogne and Folkestone. + +She had been nearly a fortnight in Worcester, and, truth to tell, she +was getting a little tired of it. Falcon's letter offered her a double +relief. It would save her from the ordeal of meeting Sir Arthur, and, +combined with the visit of "Mr. Johnson," it would give her a good +excuse to her parents for going back to Town at once; so she sat down +and wrote two letters, one to Falcon telling him that he could meet her +at Paddington the next evening, and the other to Sir Arthur telling him +all she knew about Carol, saving only the name of her companion, and +regretting that she would not be able to meet him, as she was starting +for the Continent that day. For obvious reasons she, of course, said +nothing of Garthorne's visit to her. + +Sir Arthur was as much disappointed with his letter as Mr. Falcon was +pleased by his. Dora left Worcester the day that he received it, and +while she was dining with Mr. Falcon at the Globe Restaurant, Sir Arthur +was telling Vane and Mark Ernshaw, who had come over to dine and sleep +at the Abbey, all that he knew of Miss Carol's latest escapade. + +"I'm very, very sorry," said Ernshaw when he had finished. "We've never +told you before, Sir Arthur, but I may as well tell you now that, if +Miss Vane had not disappeared as mysteriously as she did, Vane was to +have introduced me to her, and I was going to marry her if she would +have me." + +Sir Arthur looked at him in silence for a few moments, and then he took +his hand and said: + +"I know that is true, Ernshaw, because you have said it; though I would +not have believed it from anyone else except Vane. I would willingly +give everything that I possess and go back to work to make such a thing +possible, but I'm afraid it isn't, and now, of course, it is more +impossible than ever. Frankly, I don't believe she'd have you. It sounds +a very curious thing to say, but from what I have seen of her, granted +even that she fell in love with you, the more she loved you the more +absolutely she would refuse to marry you. You know we offered her +everything we could. Vane and I both agreed to acknowledge her and have +her to live with us, but it was no use. She refused in such a way that +she made me long all the more to take her for my own daughter before the +world; but there was no mistaking the refusal, and the day after our +last interview she clinched it by vanishing, I suppose with this young +millionaire who is with her now. It's very terrible, of course, but +there it is. It's done, and I'm afraid there's no mending it. Perhaps, +after all, it is better for you that it should be so." + +"Yes, Ernshaw," said Vane. "It's not a nice thing to say under the +circumstances, but I think the governor's right." + +"Possibly, but I don't agree with you," he replied. "You know I am what +a good many people would call an enthusiast on the subject of this +so-called social evil, for which, as I believe, Society itself is almost +entirely to blame, and I am quite prepared to put my views into +practice." + +"Then," said Sir Arthur, smiling gravely, "I think when we get back to +Town I'd better introduce you to Miss Murray, who was living with Carol +in Melville Gardens, where I first saw her. She was in the Cathedral on +Sunday. Her parents live in Worcester, and they believe, poor people, +that she has a little millinery business in London. She says she's +going on the Continent, I suppose with this friend of hers. But she has +given me an address in London where she can be found. + +"Now there, Ernshaw," he went on, "there I believe you would find a far +better subject for your social experiment, if you are determined to make +it, than poor Carol could ever be. I don't know her history, but she is +evidently a lady born and educated. She is quite as good-looking as +Carol, only an entirely different type, taller, darker, and with deep, +mysterious brown eyes which evidently have a soul behind them. At any +rate, I'm quite convinced that she would make a much better social +missionary's wife than poor Carol would. + +"She, I sadly fear, is 'a daughter of delight,' as the French call them, +pure and simple. She told me point blank that she preferred her present +mode of life to respectability, and that she considered that taking even +my money or Vane's, when she had no real claim upon us, was more +degrading and would hurt her self-respect a great deal more than doing +what she is doing. In other respects she's as good a girl as ever +walked, and as honest as the daylight, but I'm afraid there is no hope +of social regeneration for her." + +"Hope was once found for one a thousand times worse than she!" said +Ernshaw quietly. "But as I have seen neither of them yet, no harm can be +done by my making the acquaintance of Miss Murray to begin with." + +"Very well," said Sir Arthur, not at all sorry to change the subject. +"And now, talking about social missionaries, Vane, have you quite made +up your mind to carry out this scheme of yours, this crusade against +money-making and the pomps and vanities of Society? Do you really mean +to show that your own father has been living in sin all these years; +that he is not, in fact, a Christian at all, because it is impossible +for anyone to be decently well off and a Christian at the same time? A +nice sort of thing that, Ernshaw, isn't it?" + +"If Vane honestly believes, as he does, that his is the only true +definition of a Christian, it is not only his right but his duty to +preach it," was the young priest's reply. + +"It is my belief," said Vane quietly, "and, God helping me, I will do +what I believe to be my duty." + +The party at the Abbey broke up a few days after this, and in another +week or so Enid and her husband were in the full swing of the great +merry-go-round which is called the London season. She was unquestionably +the most beautiful of the brides of the year, and she was the undisputed +belle of the Drawing Room at which she was presented. + +Garthorne was, of course, very proud of her, and received plenty of that +second-hand sort of admiration which is accorded alike to the owner of a +distinguished race-horse, a prize bull-dog, or a pretty wife. + +Under the circumstances, therefore, it was perfectly natural that they +should enjoy themselves very thoroughly, and though towards the end +Garthorne began to get a little bored, and to think rather longingly of +his yacht on the Solent and his grouse moor in Scotland, Enid, with her +youth and beauty and perfect constitution, enjoyed every hour and every +minute of her waking life. Society had no very distinguished lion to +fall down and worship that season, and so, towards the end, things were +getting a little slow, and people were thinking seriously of escaping +from the heat and dust of London, when the world of wealth and fashion +was suddenly thrilled into fresh life by an absolutely new sensation. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI. + + +One Sunday morning, about the middle of June, the large and fashionable +congregation which filled the church of St. Chrysostom, South +Kensington, a church which will be recognised as one of the very +"highest" in London, and which, to use a not altogether unsuitable term, +"draws" all the year round by reason of the splendour of its ritual, as +well as the simple earnest eloquence of its clergy, was startled by the +preaching of such a sermon as no member of it had ever heard before. + +The preacher for the morning was announced to be the Rev. Father Vane, a +name which meant nothing to more than about half a dozen members of the +congregation, but which every man and woman in the church had some cause +to remember by the time the service was over. + +Father Baldwin, as the vicar of St. Chrysostom's was familiarly known, +was a very old friend of Father Philip's, and Vane's appearance as +preacher that morning was the result of certain correspondence which had +taken place between them, and of several long and earnest conversations +which he had had with Vane himself. + +The moment that Vane appeared in the pulpit, that strange rustling sound +which always betokens an access of sensation in a church, became +distinctly audible from the side where the women sat. As he stood there +in cassock, cotta and white, gold-embroidered stole, he looked, as many +a maid, and matron too, said afterwards, almost too beautiful to be +human. Both as boy and man he had always been strikingly handsome, but +the long weeks and months of prayer and fasting, and the constant +struggle of the soul against the flesh, had refined and spiritualised +him. To speak of an everyday man of the world, however good-looking he +may be, as beautiful is rather to ridicule him than otherwise, but when +such a man as Vane passes through such an ordeal as his had been, the +word beauty may be justly used in the sense in which the feminine +portion of the congregation of St. Chrysostom's unanimously used it that +morning. + +There was a hush of expectation as he opened a small Bible lying on the +desk in front of him. Then he raised his right hand and made the sign of +the Cross. + + "In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost, + Amen!" + +The words were not hastily and inaudibly muttered as they too often are +by the clergy of the High Anglican persuasion. They rang out as clearly +as the notes of a bell through the silence of the crowded church, and +the congregation recognised instantly that he possessed, at least, the +first qualification of a great preacher. + +Then he took up his Bible, and said in a quite ordinary conversational +tone: + +"It will be well if those who wish to follow what I am about to say will +take their Bibles and turn to the fifth chapter of the Gospel according +to St. Matthew." + +The opening was as unpromising as it was unconventional, but more than +half the congregation obeyed, and when the rustling of leaves had +subsided, he began to read the Sermon on the Mount. + +When the first thrill of astonishment had passed, it was noticed that, +after the first few verses, he ceased to look at the Bible. Every member +of the congregation had heard the words over and over again, but they +had never heard them as they heard them now. It was nothing like the +formal reading of the lessons to which they had been accustomed, and as +the clear, pure tones of his voice rang through the church, and, as his +eyes and face lighted up with the radiance of an almost divine +enthusiasm, there were some in his audience who began to think that he +might well have been a re-incarnation of one of those disciples of the +Master who heard the words as they came from His lips that day on the +Judean hillside. + +He went on verse after verse, never missing a word, and unconsciously +emphasising each passage with gestures, slight in themselves, but +eloquent and forcible in their exact suitability to the words, and very +soon every man and woman in the church was listening to him, not only +with rapt attention, but with a growing feeling of uneasiness and +apprehension as to what was to follow. + +At length he came to the twenty-third verse of the seventh chapter: + + "And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you; depart from + me, ye that work iniquity." + +There was an emphasis upon the last few words which sent a thrill of +emotion, and, in many cases, one of angry expectation, through the +crowded congregation. It was one of the wealthiest, and most +fashionable in London, but, saving a comparatively few really earnest +souls, it was composed for the most part of idlers and loungers, who +came to St. Chrysostom's partly because it was one of the most +fashionable churches in the West End, partly because it was the proper +thing to attend Church on Sunday, and partly because the music, and +singing and preaching were all so good, and the elaborate ceremonial was +so perfectly performed, that it afforded the means of spending a few +hours on Sunday in a very pleasant way. + +The young preacher looked at the crowd of well-dressed men and women for +a few moments in silence, as though he would give them time to realise +the tremendous solemnity of the words they had just heard. There was +dead, breathless silence at first, and then came a rustling sound, +mingled with one of deep breathing. Then he began again in the same +direct, conversational tone in which he had asked them to take their +Bibles. + +"I am addressing," he said, in a low, clear tone which could be heard as +distinctly at the church doors as it could by those immediately under +the pulpit, "an audience which is composed of men and women who are, +nominally, at least, Christians, and now I am going to ask you, every +man and woman of you, to ask your own souls the simple question, whether +you really are Christians, or not. + +"A good many of you, I daresay, will be a little startled, perhaps some +of you may even be offended by the suggestion of such a question. With +every regard for your feelings as brother men and sister women, I +sincerely hope you will be. My reason for hoping that is very simple. +The vast majority of people in Christian countries are Christians +simply because they have been born of Christian parents, just as they +are Protestants or Catholics because their parents were such before +them, and their early training has strongly predisposed their minds to +the acceptance--too often the blind acceptance--of a certain set of +doctrines which, with all reverence, are by themselves of no more use +for the purpose of saving a human soul from eternal damnation than the +multiplication table would be. These doctrines, these creeds, are aids +to salvation, most potent aids, but they are not essentials, since of +themselves they cannot save. + +"It is far too often taken for granted that, because a man has been +brought up in a Christian family, has been baptised into the Church of +Christ, and has later on been admitted into the communion of that +Church, that, therefore, he is justified in believing himself to be a +Christian. He has, as we of the Church Catholic and Universal fervently +believe, been placed in the path which leads to salvation. His vision +has been cleared from the mists of error. The Church, in the fulfilment +of her holy mission, has caused the white light of heaven to shine upon +his eyes. His feet have been set in the strait gate and on the narrow +way which leads to eternal life, but not all the priests from Abraham +down to our own day, nor all the Churches that ever were founded can do +any more. The way must be travelled by the man himself, his own eyes +must see the light, his own feet must tread the way, no matter how steep +or difficult it may be--or that man has no more right to call himself a +Christian than any worshipper of any of the false gods whose reign has +vanished from the earth. + +"It was for the purpose of bringing this most solemn truth, this most +solemn and momentous of all truth home to you that I began by repeating +the words which the Greatest of all Preachers pronounced for the +guidance of those who should come after Him." + +He paused, and took up his Bible again. Meanwhile, a few people, both +men and women, whose dress and appearance bore unmistakable signs of +worldly wealth, got up and walked out of the church. + +Vane watched them go, and as he did so the rest saw a complete change of +expression come over his countenance. His eyes grew sombre and +sorrowful, his lips tightened, and something like a frown gathered upon +his brow. He not only waited in the midst of an almost unnatural silence +until they had gone, but he went on waiting for some moments longer as +though he would give anyone else an opportunity of leaving the church if +they desired to do so. No one stirred. The look which he turned upon +them from the pulpit seemed like a spell which held them to their seats. +Then his lips opened, and they heard his voice, tinged with an infinite +sadness, saying: + + "'The young man saith unto him: All these things have I kept from + my youth up. What lack I yet? + + "'Jesus saith unto him: If thou wouldst be perfect go and sell that + thou hast and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in + heaven, and come and follow me. + + "'But when the young man heard that saying he went away sorrowful, + for he had great possessions. + + "'Then said Jesus unto his disciples: Verily I say unto you that a + rich man shall hardly enter into the Kingdom of Heaven.'" + +Then there came another pause, during which his listeners seemed almost +afraid to breathe, so strong was the spell of apprehension and +expectancy which he had laid upon them, and he went on: + +"You have, everyone of you, heard those words read and spoken scores and +hundreds of times. Has it ever struck you that they are words which, if +you are a Christian man or woman, you must believe to be the words of +God himself, spoken by the lips of Infallible Wisdom, and inspired by +that Omniscience which sees you sitting here in this London church as +plainly as It saw that other congregation which was assembled that day +on the slope of the Mount of Olives, and which reads your hearts at this +moment as It read theirs then? If you do not believe that, then it +follows that you do not believe in the mission or the teaching of +Christ. You do not believe that He spoke the truth when He told the +young man that it was not only necessary to keep the commandments, as he +had done from his youth up; but that it was also necessary for him to +cease to be a rich man, and to distribute his wealth in relieving the +necessities of the poor. + +"If you believe that Christ is very God of very God, as you say every +Sunday of your lives, you cannot escape the obligation which those words +put upon you except at the peril of your immortal souls. Remember that +it is not by your faiths and beliefs, or by the doctrines you have held +that you will be judged when you stand before the Last Tribunal. These +are but instruments to be used well or ill, but the final appeal will +come to your works. The last question that will be asked of you will not +be 'What creed have you believed?' or 'What Church have you belonged +to?' but 'What have you done?' and on the answer to that, as recorded +in the books of God, will depend your fate for all eternity. + +"Remember the words, 'Not everyone that saith unto me Lord, Lord, shall +enter into the Kingdom of Heaven, but he that doeth the will of my +Father which is in Heaven.' + +"Remember, too, that when you join in the services of the Church, and +when you partake of her Sacraments, you are simply saying 'Lord, +Lord'--a very good and righteous thing to say; but of no more use or +benefit to your souls than an echo from a blank wall, unless you also do +the will of Him who is in Heaven. + +"I know that there are many specious sayings invented by those who have +reasons of their own for trying to prove that when the Son of God spoke +these words He didn't mean what He said; and those who have invented +these things are amongst the worst enemies of God and His Church on +earth, no matter whether they say these lying words in the drawing-room +or from the pulpit. They seek to comfort their consciences and the +consciences of such as you by saying that times have changed since these +words were uttered; that it would be quite impossible to put a literal +interpretation upon them now. + +"Now the man who tells his fellow men that, no matter what his position +in the world, is a liar and a hypocrite, and, what is worse, he is a +maker of hypocrites, for it is my duty to tell you that every man and +woman who professes Christianity before the world on Sunday and during +the week disobeys the command of Christ as set forth here in His own +words, is, consciously or unconsciously, a liar and a hypocrite also. + +"Let us see what these sayings look like when tested by ordinary logic, +by that faculty of distinguishing the right from the wrong, the true +from the false, which is perhaps the greatest of all God's gifts to men. + +"'Times have changed since the Son of God delivered the Sermon on the +Mount.' That is one of those half-truths which are infinitely worse than +a lie. Times _have_ changed. That is to say mortal men and mortal +manners have changed; but does that warrant us in believing that the +mind and will of the Immutable God have changed too; that what Christ +himself declared to be fatal to salvation two thousand years ago, is +compatible with salvation now? That what was unlawful then is lawful +now--in short, that the Omniscient God, in whose eyes a thousand years +are as one day and one day as a thousand years, who read the minds of +men then as He reads them now, has altered the decrees of Eternal +Justice and changed Eternal Truth into a lie? + +"If you believe these people, then you must believe that too. That +Christ himself foresaw, as He must have done, that such false teachers +as these would arise both in His Church and outside it is clearly proved +by His own words: + +"'Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in +Thy name and in Thy name have cast out devils, and in Thy name done many +wonderful works? + +"'And then I will profess unto them: I never knew you, depart from me ye +that work iniquity.' + +"Remember that in that day when these words will be spoken hypocrisy and +self-deceit will have become impossibilities. It will not be possible +then for you to persuade yourselves, as no doubt you do now, that you +are good Christians, or that you are Christians at all, because you +believe certain doctrines and carry out certain ecclesiastical +observances. You will see your own souls naked then, and the eye of +Eternal and Immutable Justice will see them too--and unless you have +proved that you have obedience as well as faith; that you have not only +believed but also obeyed, you will most assuredly hear those words 'I +never knew you; depart from me ye that work iniquity!' + +"But," he went on again, after another little pause during which some of +his audience began to look round at each other with something like fear +in their eyes, "do not forget that there is another course open to you. +It may be that the things of this world, the conventions of society, the +fear of poverty and the love of wealth, have taken such a hold upon you, +that, although you dare not even confess it to yourselves, you prefer +these things to obedience to the Divine command and all that it may +bring. + +"You have it in perfectly plain language and on the highest possible +authority that you cannot serve God and Mammon. Those are no empty +words, they are one of the most solemn pronouncements ever made, and +they affect you here and to all eternity. So long as you go on striving +to increase your wealth by those means which must nowadays be employed +to make money, you are not and you cannot be Christians. Those are harsh +words, and yet if they are not true, the words of Christ himself are +false. There is no escape from this dilemma, and if you think that +devoting one day a week to the nominal service of God and six to the +real, practical service of Mammon, you earn the right to call yourselves +Christians, that is to say, followers of Christ, you are merely +practising a pitiful piece of self-deception which would be ludicrous +were its consequences not so solemn. + +"But, as I have said, there is another course open to you, a course +which, terrible as it is, is better than the one that you are now +following, because it is more honest. Be honest with yourselves and each +other, and, what is of more consequence, be honest with God too. A +well-known agnostic lecturer once said that no god could afford to damn +an honest man, and I am not sure that he was not right; but if the words +of Christ were not the empty mouthings of a charlatan or a dreamer, +there cannot be the slightest doubt about the fate of the hypocrite. +Remember that on the only occasion on which the gentle nature of our +Lord was roused to anger he denounced in the most terrible language that +human ears have ever heard those whom He called hypocrites, and, +therefore, I say to you, at whatever cost, either to your pockets or to +your souls, for you can take your choice which, cease to be hypocrites. + +"Cease this pitiful pretence which, though it may deceive yourselves, +certainly does not deceive Him from whom no secrets are hid. If you +cannot forsake the service of Mammon, if you really are so tightly bound +by his golden chains to the things of this world that you cannot or will +not break loose from the entrancing bondage, then, in the name of +honesty, say so, say to yourselves and to your fellow men: 'I cannot do +this thing. If I must give up the service of Mammon before I can call +myself the servant of God, then I cannot become the servant of God, and +I will make a hypocrite and a liar of myself no longer.' Then at least +you would be honest and truthful, honest with yourselves and with your +brother men and with your sister women and with God. You would, as I +believe, and as you are now trying to make yourselves believe, have made +the wrong choice, a choice whose consequences must inevitably face you +on the other side of the grave, but you would, at least, be able to face +the tribunal of Eternal Justice without shame, and, with all reverence I +say it, I, as a Christian man, believe that for this reason the infinite +mercy of God would find a means of salvation for you. + +"Be honest. For God's sake and your own, be honest, even though in +becoming so, you cease to be what is commonly called respectable. If you +really cannot serve God with a whole soul and without reservation, give +up the attempt to serve Him and say so before all men. It would be a +terrible thing to do, and yet, awful as such a step would be, it might +be the first one towards your ultimate salvation. The angels might weep, +but I hardly think that the devils would laugh, for the worst enemy of +the Father of Lies is an honest man or woman. The gentle heart of Jesus +might bleed for you, but Eternal Justice would respect you and give you +your due. Once more, speaking not only as a priest of God, but as your +fellow man, let me as man implore you to be honest, and as priest, warn +you that the penalty of hypocrisy is eternal damnation. You have no +choice in the matter. One or the other you must be, and you cannot +possibly be both. Wherefore I tell you that whether you elect to be the +servant of God or the servant of Mammon, you must let all men know +plainly which you are. If you are reasonable beings you cannot believe +in yourselves or in each other, unless you do this. Remember that, +however fondly you may be deceiving yourselves, you cannot blind the +eyes of Omniscience. It is a hard thing to say, and yet it is only the +plain truth given to us by the lips of Christ himself, that you cannot +believe in God unless you do the things which He says. Living your +present lives you do not do them, and therefore you are not only +infidels and atheists living without God, but you are worse--you are +hypocrites, and woe unto you! + +"I tell you, speaking as solemnly as a priest of God can do in His house +and in His presence that I would rather see this and every church in +Christendom attended by a score of people--of real Christians whose +daily lives throughout the week were really guided and sanctified by +obedience to the teachings of the Master, than I would see them crowded +with throngs of men and women like you, whose acts from Monday morning +to Saturday night consistently belie every word that your lips utter +here in the house of God and in the presence of the Holy Trinity. + +"No doubt, there is already anger against me in many of your hearts on +account of what I have believed it my duty to say to you. I would not +willingly incur the hatred of any man or woman, and yet I shall not +altogether regret that anger, because it will be proof that my words +have reached, not only your ears, but your hearts. I have spoken plainly +and without regard to the conventionalities either of the world or of +the pulpit, and I have done so because I believe that conventionality is +the foe of truth, and therefore the enemy of religion. This, remember, +is a subject of such awful solemnity, laden as it is with the eternal +fate of every human soul that is baptised into the Church of God, that I +have found it my duty to make it plain to you at any cost. + +"When you leave this church, send your horses and your carriages away +and walk home, for you are deliberately breaking the law of God by using +them on the Sabbath, and, remember, that he who breaks one jot or +tittle of the law, shall be guilty of the whole, and, instead of going +to church parade in the park, you women, to excite the admiration of the +men and the envy of other women by the beauty of your dress, or the +splendour of your equipage, and you men, to begin the sordid work of +to-morrow before you have finished the holy task of to-day, go home and +take your bibles into the solitude of your own chamber. Spend the rest +of God's day with God Himself. And that you may do this good thing well +and truly, and find help to choose that way of life which leadeth to +eternal salvation, May the peace of God which passeth all understanding +be with you now henceforth and for ever, Amen." + +He raised his right hand in benediction, turned towards the altar and +made the sign of the Cross, and as he came down the pulpit steps and +walked up the chancel to his place, some of those who saw him, said +afterwards, that there was a light on his face which they had never seen +on a human face before. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII. + + +There was no communion after that service, and so the choir and priests +formed for the recessional hymn. Father Baldwin, as the procession +formed behind him, came to the front of the chancel and said: + +"Instead of the hymn appointed, it will be better if we end the service +with number 274." + + "Through the night of doubt and sorrow." + +The organ pealed out, the congregation rose, and the hymn began. It so +happened that as Vane was passing the chairs on which Enid and her +husband were sitting with several friends, the last verse but one was +reached. + + "Onward therefore, pilgrim brothers, + Onward, with the Cross our aid! + Bear its shame, and fight its battle, + Till we rest beneath its shade." + +At the words "Bear its shame and fight its battle," she looked up. Her +eyes met Vane's for a moment; but there was no look of recognition in +them. A sudden dart of pain seemed to shoot into her heart. This man, +this prophet-priest, as he seemed to her now, had once been hers, her +promised husband. How far away from her, how far above her was he now! + +She had listened to the sermon with a double interest, interest in the +man as well as in the wonderful words he had just spoken--words so +simple in themselves, and yet spoken with such terrible force, a force +so terrible that within the space of a few minutes it had shattered all +her worldly ideals and destroyed the faith that she had been brought up +in, changing her whole outlook upon the world. + +She had been educated on the ordinary lines of conventional +Christianity, and, until now, she had, like thousands of others, +honestly believed herself to be a good Christian woman, just as she +believed her mother to be. But, as it happened, there was that within +her soul which instantly responded to the truth which she had heard +to-day for the first time; and she saw that Vane was right, hopelessly, +piteously right. + +And then as the procession passed she looked at her husband. He had +already sat down, and was getting his hat from under the seat. The +procession streamed slowly out of sight into the vestry, and the +congregation moved out into the aisles with much soft rustling and +swishing of skirts and a subdued, buzzing hum of eager conversation. + +As the three streams of well-dressed men and women converged towards the +great doorway which led out into the street many began to ask themselves +and each other if any one would obey the preacher's exhortation and send +their carriages away. The carriages were lined up in the street just as +they would be outside a theatre. Some of their owners got in and drove +away, making very pointed remarks on the impropriety of bringing such +subjects as carriages and horses into sermons and the length that young +curates would go now-a-days to obtain notoriety. Others dismissed +theirs and went away trying to look unconcerned; while other people +stared after them, some smiling and others looking serious. + +The Garthornes' victoria, drawn by a pair of beautiful light bays, drew +up, and Garthorne put out his hand to help Enid in, but she drew back +and said: + +"No, thanks, I think I'll walk." + +"Oh, nonsense, Enid!" he said impatiently. "Time is getting on, and we +must have our turn in the Park. Everybody will be there, and this is +about the last Sunday in the season. We haven't over much time either." + +"I am not going into the Park, Reginald," she said decidedly. "I am +going to walk straight home. You can go and do Church Parade if you +like." + +"All right, Tomkins, you can go home," he said to the coachman. "Mrs. +Garthorne prefers to walk." + +The coachman and footman touched their hats, and the victoria drove +away. + +"Surely to goodness, Enid," said Garthorne almost angrily, as they +walked away together, "you are not doing this because Maxwell said it +was wrong to use carriages on a Sunday! Good heavens, if we were to +translate sermons into everyday life it would be rather a funny world to +live in." + +"Then what is the use of going to hear them, if they are not to be taken +seriously?" she said, looking up quickly at him. "Why should they be +preached, or why should we go to church at all?" + +"Because it is the proper thing to do, I suppose, and because Society, +whose slaves we are, makes it one of the social functions of the week," +replied Garthorne, who had as much real religion in his composition as +a South African Bushman. "We men go because you women do, and you women +go to show others how nicely you can dress, and to see what they have +got on." + +"My dear Reginald, that is about as true as it is original, and that is +not saying very much for it. If we don't go to church for any other +reasons than those it is merely mockery and wickedness to go at all. I +was very glad to see that a great many people did send their carriages +away. Next Sunday I hope they will have the decency to walk." + +"Especially if the British climate, as it probably will, ends up the +season with a pouring wet Sunday!" laughed Garthorne. "No, dear, those +godly precepts are all very well when you read them in Sunday School +books or hear them from the pulpit, and I am sure Vane put them most +admirably to-day, although I confess I was slightly surprised to hear a +really clever fellow like him preaching such hopelessly impossible +nonsense. Of course I don't mean any offence to him--far from it, but +really, you know, if theories like those could be put into practice they +would simply turn the world upside down." + +"I think you might have found a better word than nonsense," she replied +a trifle sharply; "but the world of to-day certainly would have to be +turned upside down or inside out to make it anything like Christian. +That, at least, Vane--I mean Mr. Maxwell--taught us this morning." + +"Christian according to the Reverend Vane Maxwell," he said, with the +suspicion of a sneer. "Fortunately the Churches have agreed that such a +violent operation is not necessary. By the way, though, won't Maxwell +get himself into a howling row with the ecclesiastical powers that be! +Just imagine the bench of Bishops standing anything like that!" + +"Yes," she said quietly, "the preaching of the Sermon on the Mount in a +fashionable London church! It does sound very terrible, doesn't it? And +yet, after all, I suppose they can't take his orders away from him even +for that. I wonder what would happen? It is sure to be in the papers +to-morrow, and of course everybody will be talking about it." + +"Yes," said Garthorne; "but if Master Vane thinks he is going to play +Savanarola to this generation he will find that he has taken on a pretty +large order. Are you quite sure you won't take a turn in the Park, even +on foot?" + +"No, I'd rather not, but don't let me keep you if you would like a +stroll. I can get home all right." + +"Well, if you don't mind, Enid, I think I will. There are one or two +fellows I want to see particularly about something, so bye-bye for the +present." + +He raised his hat and turned back, and she went on towards the house in +Queen's Gate with many strange thoughts in her heart. + +Enid and her husband were by no means the only members of the +congregation of St. Chrysostom who discussed Vane's sermon on their way +home. In fact, whether people walked or rode home, it was the universal +topic. Some discussed it with timorous sympathy; others, perhaps with +more worldly wisdom, talked of it quietly and cynically as the outburst +of a half-fledged clerical enthusiast who would very soon find out that +his superiors, on whom he depended for preferment, regarded the +doctrines of Christianity as one thing and the practises of the Church +as something entirely different. + +"He's a clever fellow, a very clever fellow and very earnest," said Lord +Canore, who was a patron of several fat livings, to her ladyship and his +two daughters as they drove home, "but he'll soon get those rough +corners knocked off him. If they are wise they will give him a good +living, and then make him a canon as soon as possible. There's nothing +like preferment to sober a man down in the Church." + +"Yes," sighed Lady Caroline Rosse, the elder daughter, who was getting +somewhat _passee_, and was deeply interested in Church work; "what a +beautiful voice he has, and such a wonderful face! Really, he looked +almost inspired at times. He would make quite an ideal bishop, and, you +know, some quite young men are being made bishops now-a-days." + +"Yes," chuckled his lordship, as he lay back against the cushions, "that +is the sort of thing I mean. You don't catch bishops preaching the +Sermon on the Mount and sub-editing it as they go on." + +"My dear Canore," said her ladyship frigidly, "I think we had better +change the subject; that last remark of yours was almost blasphemous." + +"Never heard such rubbish preached from a respectable pulpit in my +life," said Mr. Horace Faustmann, a member of the Stock Exchange, +director of several limited companies and a most liberal contributor to +the offertories, and all Church effort in the parish of St. Chrysostom, +to his wife as they rolled smoothly in their cee-spring, rubber-tyred +victoria towards Hyde Park Corner. + +"Why, if you can't make plenty of money and still be a Christian, where +are subscriptions coming from, and what price the Church endowments? It +seems absolutely absurd to me. I wonder what on earth Baldwin was +thinking about to let him preach a sermon like that in the smartest +church in the West End. If he goes on in that style he will just ruin +the show. Anyhow, he gets no more of my money if he is going to insult +rich people in the pulpit. Any more of that sort of thing, my dear, and +we'll go somewhere else, won't we?" + +"I should think so," said the beautiful Mrs. Faustmann. She was the +daughter of a poor aristocrat, and had made a very good social and +financial bargain. She was one of the smartest women and most successful +entertainers in London. There was another man eating his heart out on +her account in the Burmese jungle, and sometimes, in her tenderest +moment, she gave him a thought and a little sigh--about as much thought +and sigh as her engagements permitted. + +"Yes, Father Baldwin will really ruin the Church if he allows that sort +of thing. Of course all the good people will give it up. In fact, you +saw the Steinways, the Northwicks, the Athertons and several more leave +the church before he was half way through his harangue, for really you +could hardly call it a sermon. All the same, the church will be thronged +to-night and next Sunday, because people will go there just for the +sensation of the thing, and to see if anything else is going to happen; +but poor Father Baldwin will simply be inundated with letters from the +best of his people, and I don't think he'll find them very pleasant +reading. I am going to write, and, although I respect the dear man very +much, I shall tell him exactly what I think." + +"Quite right," said her husband, as they turned into the Park. "You give +it to him straight. If you don't, I shall drop him a line myself and +tell him that if he wants any more of my money, and he has had a good +bit, he will have to keep his half-broken clerical colts a bit better in +hand; I'm not going to support a church to be insulted in it." + +Many other similar conversations were going on just then in the Park, in +fact, Vane and his sermon were already being discussed by half +fashionable London, so fast does the news of so startling an event +travel from lip to lip when a crowd of somewhat _blase_ people, who have +nothing in particular to talk about, get together. Most of the comments +were quite similar to those just quoted, for Society felt generally by +dinner time that night that it had been deliberately insulted, outraged, +in fact, through its representatives in the congregation of St. +Chrysostom. + +Nevertheless the church was packed to its utmost capacity at evening +service. It was known that Father Baldwin was to preach, but it was +hoped that Vane would take some part in the service, and of course +everyone wanted to see him; still, the audience went away disappointed. +Vane was far away, helping Ernshaw at his mission in Bethnal Green, and +was telling his congregation truths just as uncompromising and perhaps +as unpalatable as those he had told to his wealthy and aristocratic +hearers in the morning. + +Father Baldwin preached, but his sermon was rather a homily on the +duties of the rich towards the poor, especially at a time when the rich +were about to migrate like gay-plumaged birds of passage to other lands +and climes in search of pleasure, leaving behind the millions of their +fellow mortals and fellow Christians, whose ceaseless life-struggle left +no leisure for the delights which they had come to look upon as the +commonplaces of their existence. + +He only made one brief allusion to Vane's sermon. He knew perfectly +well that these thronging hundreds of people had not come to hear him. +He felt, not without sorrow, that quite half of them had come to hear, +or at least see, the man whose name was already the talk of fashionable +London. + +"Some of you," he said, "who are present now heard this morning from +this pulpit words which must have sunk deep into the heart of every man +and woman who feels an earnest desire to follow in the footsteps of the +Master as closely as imperfect human nature will permit you. It is not +for me to tell you to what extent those words must be taken literally. +They were spoken earnestly and from the inmost depths of the preacher's +own soul--may they sink into the inmost depths of yours! They put the +most vital interest of human life plainly, nay, uncompromisingly before +you; how far you can or will follow them in your daily lives is a matter +which rests between yourselves and your Redeemer." + +The next morning nearly all the papers contained more or less lengthy +reports of a sermon of which half London was already talking. Ernest +Reed, a smart young reporter with strong freethought tendencies, who +made a Sunday speciality of reporting sermons of all sorts, especially +the extreme ones, and who wrote caustically impartial comments on them +in the rationalist papers, had instantly grasped the true significance +of such a sermon being preached to such a congregation, and, moreover, +he had himself been deeply affected by the solemn earnestness with which +the momentous words had been spoken. + +"A Daniel come to judgment! A parson who believes in his own creed at +last!" was his mental comment, as he closed his note-book. "That chap's +worth following. I wonder where he is going to preach to-night. I'll +find out." + +Of course he did find out and followed Vane to Bethnal Green, with the +result that he made what is professionally termed "a scoop," since he +was the only reporter who was able to give both sermons verbatim. The +_Daily Chronicle_ was the only morning paper smart enough to print them +word for word in parallel columns under the title: + + WEIGHTY WORDS TO RICH AND POOR. + The Rev. Vane Maxwell + Asks Mayfair and Bethnal Green + If they are Christian? + +The consequence was, that all London and a very considerable part of +England too, stared wonderingly over its breakfast table and asked +itself whether there was really anything in these plain, almost homely, +and yet terribly pregnant words. Certainly there was no getting away +from the pitiless logic of them. If Vane Maxwell was right, England was +_not_ a Christian country, save in name, and its citizens were +Christians only because they had been baptized into one or other of the +churches and so called themselves Christians by a sort of courtesy +title. For the moment at least, Christianity assumed a shape as tangible +and a meaning almost as serious as party politics. In other words Vane's +sermon, even when read in cold print, put the question: Are you really a +Christian? so plainly, so uncompromisingly, and so unavoidably to every +man or woman calling himself or herself a Christian, that hundreds of +thousands of people all over the country, to say nothing of a million +or two in London, felt a sudden, and, as it seemed to them, somewhat +unaccountable obligation to give an equally plain answer to it. What was +the answer to be? + +"Yes or no?" + +It certainly was a very serious matter to millions who had never thought +of asking the question for themselves, and whose pastors and spiritual +masters had mostly contented themselves with lecturing and teaching in +soul-soothing, instead of soul-searching, words. + +They, good folk, had really never troubled themselves very much about +the matter. They had their business affairs to attend to, their wives +and families to keep out of the workhouse or to maintain in comfort or +luxury, as the case might be, and a good many of them had certain social +duties to perform; and so they had got into the way of letting the +churches and chapels, the bishops, priests, deacons and so forth, look +after these things. + +They were paid to do so. That was rather an ugly thought. At least, it +seemed to be so, after reading the words of Jesus Christ, and His +servant Vane Maxwell; but still it _was_ a fact; and some of them were +very highly paid. They were living in charming houses and had very +comfortable investments in companies which made money anyhow, so long as +they made it. Others were wretchedly paid, it was true, mostly +half-starved and inevitably in debt; but still, neither of these facts +affected the main question, which, of course, was the personal one: Are +you--rich man or poor man--you who read these words, a Christian? Are +you, as the preacher had asked in those five terrible words, honest +before God and man? + +Then to the scores and hundreds of thousands of people who read this, +came, in a whispering terror, the further question: + +"Do you think you can cheat God, even if you are cheating yourself and +other people like you--the God Whom you have been taught to believe in +as knowing all things, the God to whom all secrets are known?" + +It was a distinctly ugly question to answer, and more Bibles were +searched throughout the United Kingdom than had been for many a long +year past; but no searcher found any answer that satisfied his own soul, +if he had one, save the one that was given from the Mount of Olives: + +"Ye cannot serve God and Mammon." + +As the young preacher had said, there was no compromise. There was +certainly the alternative of being honest one way or the other; but that +sort of honesty had a very appalling prospect to the respectable British +citizen, especially those, who, in any way, resembled the young man who +came to Christ and asked Him what he should do to be saved. It was, in +short, a case of becoming comparative paupers, and only having the bare +necessaries of life, or keeping what they had, and saying honestly to +themselves, the world, and God: + +"I can't be a Christian at that price, and so, instead of remaining a +Christian humbug, I will be an honest atheist." + +A very terrible dilemma, certainly, and yet, if the Gospels were true, +and if the Son of God had really preached the Sermon on the Mount, it +was one from which there was no escape but this. It was a plain matter +of belief or disbelief, honesty or dishonesty, and, if they believed in +God, dishonesty was impossible, save under the penalty of eternal +damnation. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII. + + +That day the clergy-house of St. Chrysostom was, of course, deluged with +newspapers and cuttings, and the flood continued for two or three days, +during which Vane, unconscious or careless of the fact that he was +already the clerical lion of London, and, perhaps, the most discussed +man for the time being in England and the sister kingdoms, was working +hard helping his friend, Ernshaw, to organize an entirely unsectarian +twentieth century crusade throughout the poorer districts of London. He +seldom read newspapers, for he preferred the living fact to the written +word, and, besides, such work as his left little time for reading. He +had seen his name on the placards of the morning and evening papers, and +he had bought some which he had not found time to do more than glance +over. + +He was, of course, glad that his sermon had attracted so much attention, +but he knew enough of newspapers and their readers not to hope for too +much on this account, and so he was not a little surprised when Father +Baldwin said to him on his return to the clergy-house on the Friday +evening: + +"Well, Maxwell! glad to see you back, although you have brought a nice +hornet's nest about our ears, and started something like a social and +religious earthquake in Kensington and the adjacent lands of Mayfair and +Belgravia, to say nothing of a distinct fluttering in what I may, +perhaps, without irreverence call the upper and more spacious dove-cotes +of the Church." + +"Have I really?" said Vane, quietly, "I didn't know I had, but if I have +done so, I am very glad. It was exactly what I intended to do, though I +confess I had little hope of doing so. What is the matter? I hope I +haven't got _you_ into any unpleasantness, Father Baldwin." + +"It doesn't very much matter if you have," replied the older priest, +leaning back in his chair and looking at him keenly from under his +thick, iron-grey eyebrows. "You only said what has been in the hearts +and souls of a good many of us for a long time, but it was given to you +to say it and, let us hope, also the inspiration to say it in the proper +way." + +"Please God!" said Vane. "And now what have I done; I mean as regards +yourself and St. Chrysostom?" + +"To begin with," replied Father Baldwin, "about half the wealthiest +members of the congregation, men and women, but mostly men, have written +to say that if they are to be publicly insulted from the pulpit, and +told that they are liars and hypocrites, and not Christians, save in +name, they will leave the church and withdraw all their +subscriptions--which, of course, from quite a worldly point of view, +would be somewhat a serious matter for the church." + +"That simply proves that they are not Christians," said Vane, "and the +church is better without their money. They practically confess that +they never have been giving their money honestly for the service of God, +but merely for self-advertisement or as a social obligation. It would be +no loss to us, and little gain to anybody else they gave it to." + +"Yes, I believe you are right," replied Father Baldwin. "It seems rather +a hard thing to say, but people who would leave a church because the +Sermon on the Mount was preached from its pulpit, must be a strange sort +of Christians." + +"They are not Christians at all!" exclaimed Vane, with a burst of +righteous wrath, "they are the bane and curse of Christianity, and have +been ever since Constantine made it official and fashionable. They are +responsible for every corruption that has crept into the Church, for +every blot that defiles the purity of the Creed. They are not +Christians, and they never have been, for they cannot be what they are +and followers of Christ at the same time. They and the wealthy clergy of +all the churches are responsible for the unfaith, tacit and avowed, of +what we are pleased to call the lower classes; the classes who compose +the majority of Christ's Congregation; and they are responsible for all +the cynicism of the open and active enemies of our faith. It is they who +make it possible for the infidel and the atheist to point the finger of +scorn at us and say, 'See how these Christians love to do the Will of +their Master.'" + +"I fully appreciate everything you say, Maxwell," replied Father +Baldwin, with some little hesitation in his tone; for, although he was +as good a Christian as ever gave up everything to serve his Master, and +as earnest a priest as ever stood before the altar, yet he was getting +on in years and found it hard to break away from the traditions amidst +which he had grown up, and which he had accepted as a young man with +little or no inquiry. "At the same time, I must candidly admit that I +was a trifle startled by your absolutely uncompromising rendering of our +Lord's words. Did you really intend that they should be taken +literally?" + +"It is not what I intended, Father Baldwin," replied Vane, rising from +his seat and beginning to walk up and down the plainly furnished, +book-lined common-room, "the question is what _He_ intended, and surely +no Christian in his senses could believe for a moment that our Lord +intended to quibble with words and to play with double meanings. If He +did not mean what He said, and intend those who followed Him to do what +He said, what becomes of our faith? If that is not so, surely there is +nothing left for us but to give up the doctrine of the Trinity +altogether, and go back to the old Hebrew creed--which certainly did not +forbid the accumulation of riches." + +"May I come in?" said Sir Arthur Maxwell's voice through the open door, +"they told me you were here, Vane. Good evening, Father Baldwin. Well, +this is a nice sort of commotion that this son of mine has been kicking +up. Do you know, Sir," he went on, turning to Vane, "that you have +suddenly made yourself one of the most famous, or, perhaps, I should say +notorious, persons in London by that sermon of yours? It was very fine I +admit, and most desperately to the point, but I suppose you know that +all the world and the newspapers are asking where does that point point +to?" + +"That is just what I was asking your son, Sir Arthur," said Father +Baldwin. "Granted that he is right in his contention that the Sermon on +the Mount is to be taken literally, it means nothing short of a +religious as well as a social revolution." + +"That is exactly what the papers and everybody are saying," said Sir +Arthur. "In fact, people are beginning to look at one another and ask +some very awkward questions. For instance, here am I, that boy's father, +I am not a rich man, but I have worked hard and my old age is +comfortably provided for, and when I die what I have would naturally go +to Vane, who, on his own showing, couldn't have it; in fact, as you +know, he has given up about a thousand a year as it is that he had from +my brother Alfred." + +"You will not get much sympathy from Father Baldwin on that score, +father," laughed Vane, "you know he gave up nearly twice as much." + +"There is nothing in that," said Father Baldwin, hastily, as though he +would stop them saying any more, "that is a point on which I entirely +agree with you. When a man has money of his own, and devotes himself to +the service of the Church, he should devote his money to it also. As a +Christian and a priest he can have no lawful use for it, save in the +work of the Church." + +"Unless he happens to be married and have a family," said Sir Arthur. +"What ought he to do then, Father Baldwin?" + +"In that case, Sir Arthur," he replied, "I think he would do better to +keep out of the ministry and devote himself honestly to the affairs of +his own household. You remember, of course, what the Apostle Paul tells +us, that the man who neglects those is worse than an infidel. Of course, +it is not a good translation, and it reads very badly now that infidel +has come to mean one who does not believe in creeds. It should, of +course, read unfaithful, I mean, unfaithful to the solemn +responsibilities he has taken upon himself; and, although I may be +wrong, I find it difficult to see how a man can faithfully discharge +those obligations and those of a priest of the Church, but that opens a +very wide question, and there is a very great deal to be said on both +sides of it." + +"There I quite agree with you," said Sir Arthur, "you know, of course, +better than I do, that there are hundreds of hard-worked parsons in this +country--especially in poor parishes--who can't afford curates, who +simply couldn't get on without their wives, and I know one or two myself +who say that their wives are worth a couple of curates. I'm fairly +certain that in most poor country parishes the parson's wife is the good +angel of the place." + +"There is not the slightest doubt about it," replied Father Baldwin, "I +have seen quite enough of church work to convince me of that, and this +is, of course, the very strongest argument, and a very convincing one, +too, in a certain degree, against the celibacy of the clergy. But, +still, Sir Arthur," he went on, with a change of tone, "I suppose you +didn't come here to discuss theology and church matters. Of course, you +want to see your son. My study is quite at your service, if you want to +have a talk." + +"Thanks, very much, Father," said Sir Arthur, "what I really came for +was to ask Vane to come round and have a bit of dinner with me. I have a +good many things to talk over with him, and I have a guest or two coming +whom I am anxious for him to meet. What do you say, Vane, can you come?" + +"Of course I can, dad," replied Vane. "I am taking a holiday till +Sunday, and I couldn't spend it much better than at the old place. On +Sunday I am going to deliver two lectures at the Hall of Science, Old +Street, the head-quarters of the National Secular Society." + +"The _what_, Maxwell?" exclaimed Father Baldwin, with a note of +something more than astonishment in his voice, "the Hall of +Science--why, that was Bradlaugh's place--the head-centre of London +infidelity." + +"Excuse me, Father," said Vane, gravely, "do you not think that is a +word we are accustomed to use too vaguely? Is it quite fair or logical +to call these people infidels? Are they not rather faithful to their +convictions, however wrong they may be? Surely we must, at least, give +them the credit of believing in their disbelief. Last night I heard an +informal confession--one of the strangest, perhaps, that a priest ever +heard--from a young fellow, of about twenty-two, who reported my sermon +here, and then followed me to Bethnal Green and sent in both accounts to +the papers. + +"He is well educated, very clever, and the son of a clergyman. He is +also what people call an infidel, and yet he made a confession of faith +to me that would have melted the soul of a financier, if he had one. +After that I shall never hear these people called infidels without a +protest. And, besides, is it not a good thing that a priest of God +should speak the truth that is in him in the temple of the unbelievers? +How many of our churches would permit one of their lecturers to speak +from the pulpit, or even from the platform of one of our schoolrooms." + +"You are quite right, Maxwell," said Father Baldwin, "I used the word +unthinkingly, therefore conventionally. I am very glad you are going, +but I am afraid if your friends advertise it at all, half Kensington +and Mayfair will be off to Old Street, and crowd them out of their own +place. As I tell you, they didn't like what you said, but for all that, +they are dying to hear what you are going to say next." + +"Exactly," said Sir Arthur, "that is the worst of becoming suddenly +notorious, Vane. You have made yourself, in a most righteous manner, the +talk of London, and London will follow you now wherever you go. However, +that can't be helped, it is one of the penalties of fame, and now if you +have nothing more to say to Father Baldwin, you might put on your hat, +and come, I have got a hansom at the door." + + + + +CHAPTER XIX. + + +On the way from the Clergy-House to Warwick Gardens Vane tried more than +once to get his father to tell him something about the evening's +entertainment which he had invited him for, but Sir Arthur only laughed, +albeit somewhat seriously, and said: + +"My dear boy, I am not going to let you spoil a pleasant little +surprise. I don't say that it will be altogether a pleasant one, yet I +know that it will not be an entirely unpleasant one. To a certain +extent, as you will find afterwards, it is one of the many results of +that precious sermon of yours, and, as certain things had to be done, I +thought they would be better done at home than elsewhere." + +And in reply to Vane's second attempt his father said simply: + +"No, Vane, this is a surprise party, as they say in the States, and I am +not going to give the names of my guests away. You really must possess +your soul in patience for the present. Meanwhile tell me what Father +Baldwin thinks of the position you have taken up?" + +"You mean, of course, about this new heresy of mine?" replied Vane with +a laugh--"a heresy, by the way, which is as old as Christianity. Well, +dad, to tell you the truth I think the dear old Father is a little bit +frightened, but he is too strong a man to go back from the position, and +too good a Christian to want to do so. He sees that I am right, or, I +should say of course, that this is after all the only possible doctrine +and belief for a Christian. He gave me permission to preach that sermon +from his pulpit, but I don't think he quite realised, as a matter of +fact I didn't myself, what an effect it would have, and perhaps the +consequences have worried him a little; but he is perfectly staunch, and +so are Moran and Webley." + +"And so, I suppose," replied Sir Arthur, "St. Chrysostom's will not be a +pleasant Sunday morning and evening resort for rich people any longer. +That is, perhaps, a somewhat flippant way of putting it, but of course +you know what I mean." + +"Yes, I quite see what you mean, dad," said Vane rather more seriously. +"I don't think it will be, but I do think that before very long we shall +have a better congregation of Christians than we have ever had before, +people who, I mean, will have lost their delusions about fashionable +Christianity--just as if there could be such a thing!--and who come to +hear the Word of God as it is, and not as most people would like it to +be. By the way, have you heard that the Canon, I mean Canon +Thornton-Moore, of Worcester, a man that I met at dinner at the Abbey, +has accepted the presentation of All Saints, Densmore Square? It is +supposed to be a little higher even than St. Chrysostom, and if possible +the congregation is even more disgustingly rich and fashionable and +everything that is not Christian." + +"I must say, Vane, that you have all the uncompromising severity of the +true enthusiast, and the way in which you include your old father with +these hopeless sinners is really almost unfilial. I think I can tell +you this much, that to-night you are going to meet a very much greater +sinner than I am, a sinner to the extent of millions, and yet, from what +I have learned of him on the best possible authority, as honest a man, +as good-hearted a fellow, as ever fought the world single-handed and +beat it." + +"Just as you did, dad," said Vane in a tone which reminded his father of +the old days. "I suppose there is nothing to be said of the other two +persons of the Infernal Trinity." + +"Not at present," said Sir Arthur, with a sudden change in his voice +which made Vane look round at him. His face had changed with his tone. +He was leaning with his arms on the door of the cab, staring up at the +sky over the roofs of the houses. Vane noticed a little twitching of the +lip under the long grey moustache, and thought it well to hold his +peace. + +Fortunately, perhaps, for both, the cab at that moment swung round out +of the main road into Warwick Gardens. Vane looked at the familiar +corner at which he had stopped that other hansom cab on that memorable +Boat Race night and got out, after Carol had denied him the kiss he +asked for, to meet his father on the pavement. Sir Arthur remembered it +too, and he had good reasons to, for he said as the cab swung round: + +"Vane, when my lease is up I am going to leave this place. I never can +pass that corner without thinking of what no man ought to be obliged to +think of." + +"I know what you mean, dad," cried Vane. "It was horrible enough, or at +least it might have been and yet it wasn't, and because it wasn't----" + +"Well, at any rate," interrupted Sir Arthur as the cab pulled up, "let +us thank God that it wasn't." + +As they got out another cab drove up just behind theirs, and somewhat to +his astonishment Vane saw Ernshaw get out. + +"My dear Ernshaw," he said, as they shook hands, "isn't this great +extravagance?" + +"Only a shilling's worth," laughed Ernshaw in reply, "and I think +justifiable; a little kiddy was knocked down in Addison Road there by a +butcher's cart, and I picked her up and took her to the hospital in +Hammersmith Road, and this good fellow won't charge me more than a +shilling for both journeys, although it is out of the radius." + +"Oh, he won't, won't he?" said Sir Arthur, putting his hand into his +pocket and pulling out a couple of half-crowns. + +"You take that, my man, not for yourself if you won't have it, but for +your wife and your children if you have got any; you can't say no for +them." + +"No, sir, thankee, I won't say no to them," said the cabby, taking the +half-crowns and touching his hat. "It's the best fare I've earned +to-day. Good-night, sir, and thank you, sir. Come up, old girl." + +The whip flicked, and the old mare went round to begin another of those +endless journeys through London streets which horses, if they reason at +all, must find so utterly incomprehensible and aimless. + +"Is this the beginning of the surprises, dad?" said Vane, as the two +cabs drove away. "This is certainly one of the last places in London +that I should have expected to meet Ernshaw in, after seeing him up to +his neck in work at Bethnal Green yesterday. It must have been a pretty +strong attraction, Ernshaw, that got you as far west as this." + +"My dear Maxwell," said Ernshaw, "surely the worst of us are entitled to +a holiday now and then. Why, even Father Philip goes to Norway for a +fortnight every year, to say nothing of an occasional run up to Town +now and then, and he confessed to me not very long ago that he enjoys no +earthly pleasure better than a good 'Varsity match at Lord's." + +"There is nothing better," said Sir Arthur, "except a good Indian polo +match. Well, come in. I have just got time for a wash and a change +before our other guests arrive. You clerics don't want a change, so you +can have a wash and a cigarette if you want one in the Den." + +As the door opened Koda Bux came along the hall and made his salaam; his +grave, deep eyes made no sign as he recognised Vane in his clerical +garb; he only salaamed again and welcomed Vane back to the house of his +father and his mother. That was Koda Bux's way of putting it in his +Indian fashion. He would have put it otherwise if he had known what such +a welcome meant to him. + +"This is the place of the _debacle_," said Vane to Ernshaw when they met +in the Den after they had had their wash; "there's the hearthrug--yes, +and there's the same spirit-case. It is a curious thing, Ernshaw, but +since then, or rather, since that other ghastly collapse at Oxford, I've +lectured in club rooms reeking with alcohol; I've gone with you as you +know where everyone was sodden with the gin and stank of it, and even +into bars where you could smell nothing but liquor and unwashed +humanity, and yet that intoxication has never come back to me." + +"Of course not," said Ernshaw; "you have prayed and fought since then, +and as you have won your battles your prayers have been answered." + +"Yes," said Vane, "I hope you are right; in fact, I am sure you are. I +don't suppose a sniff at that whiskey decanter would affect me any more +than a few drops of eau de cologne on my handkerchief." + +As he said this he went towards the spirit-case on the little old oak +sideboard and took out the whiskey decanter. + +"Take care, Vane!" said Ernshaw. "I hope you are not forgetting the old +doctrine of association. Remember what you were saying just now about +this room. There is a sense, you know, in which places are really +haunted." + +"My dear Ernshaw, I believe you are even more ideal than I am," laughed +Vane, as he took the stopper out and raised the decanter to his +nostrils. As he did so the front door bell tinkled, and the hand of a +practised footman played a brief fantasia on the knocker. In the middle +of an inhalation Vane stopped and put the bottle down; but even as he +did so the mysterious force of association against which Ernshaw had +warned him had begun to work upon his imagination. The familiar room, +with its pictures and furniture and simple ornaments, the feel of the +cut-glass decanter, which was the same one that he had held in his hand +that fatal night, the smell of the whiskey--all these elements were +rapidly combining in those few moments to produce an effect partly +mental and partly physical which might have more than justified +Ernshaw's sudden fear. + +"Ah, there are the mysterious guests, I suppose!" he said, putting the +decanter back into the case. "I suppose you don't happen to know who +they really are, Ernshaw?" + +"My dear fellow, if I did I shouldn't tell you," was the distinctly +non-committal reply. "I think it will be very much more interesting for +you to find out yourself." + +By this time Koda Bux, in his capacity of major-domo and general +factotum to Sir Arthur, had opened the door, and at the same moment Sir +Arthur himself came downstairs. Vane heard him say: + +"Good evening, ladies; I am sorry that I have no hostess to receive you, +but Mrs. Saunders, who helps Koda Bux to take care of me, will take you +upstairs." + +Then there was a low murmur of a woman's voice, a rustle of skirts up +the stairs, and Sir Arthur went on: + +"Now, Mr. Rayburn, if you will come with me I will show you where to put +your hat and coat and have a rinse if you like." + +"Thanks, Sir Arthur," replied a voice which was strange to Vane. + +"And who might Mr. Rayburn be?" he said to Ernshaw. "I didn't know the +governor knew anyone of that name. Still, from the sound of his voice he +is a gentleman, and, I should say, a man." + +"I think when you meet him you will find him both," said Ernshaw. + +"Ah," laughed Vane, "I think I caught you out there. So you are in this +conspiracy of mystery, are you? Now, look here, Ernshaw, what is it all +about?" + +"Guilty, but shan't tell," replied his friend. "Now here comes Sir +Arthur; perhaps he will tell." + +"Vane," said Sir Arthur as the door opened, "this is Mr. Cecil Rayburn, +and I want you to be very good friends; you will soon find out why." + +Vane looked up and saw a man apparently a year or two older than +himself, about the same height and build, but harder and stronger, and +possessing that peculiar erectness of carriage and alertness of movement +that is owned only by those who have worked or fought, or done both, in +the outlands of the earth. But a glance at his face confirmed Vane in +the opinion he had formed when he heard his voice; he was undeniably +both a gentleman and a man. He held out his hand and said: + +"Good evening, Mr. Rayburn. Of course a friend of my father's has to be +my friend also." + +To his astonishment Cecil Rayburn made no movement to take his hand; on +the contrary he drew back half a pace and said with a note of something +like nervousness in his voice--a note which sounded strangely in the +speech of a man who had never known what fear was: + +"Thank you, Mr. Maxwell; I hope we shall be friends, but I am afraid I +can't shake hands with you yet--I mean, I shouldn't like you to regret +it afterwards." + +Before Vane had found any words to shape a reply, Sir Arthur said: + +"Mr. Ernshaw, suppose we go into the drawing-room to receive the ladies, +and leave these two to have it out. We shan't have dinner for half an +hour, and I think they will manage to understand each other before +then." + + + + +CHAPTER XX. + + +"Well, Mr. Rayburn," said Vane, "this is a rather curious sort of +introduction, but I see that you are--I mean that I am quite satisfied +that you must have some very good reason for refusing to shake hands +with me. You are the first man who has ever done so, and as you have +come here as my father's guest, I may presume that it is not a personal +objection." + +Vane could not help speaking formally; there was a strangeness about the +situation which forced him to do so. + +"That would be impossible, Mr. Maxwell," replied the other, in a low, +hesitating tone. "I knew that I should meet you here when I accepted Sir +Arthur's invitation; in fact, we--I mean I came here on purpose to meet +you, and, to shorten matters, the reason why your father has left us +alone, is that I have a very serious and I am afraid a very difficult +confession to make to you." + +"A confession!" said Vane, drawing himself up and looking Rayburn +straight in the eyes. "Do you wish me to hear it as a man, or a priest, +because if I am to hear it as a priest, it would be better kept for a +more suitable time and place?" + +"I want you to hear it both as man and priest," replied Rayburn, +returning his look with perfect steadiness, "and I want you to hear +it--and, in fact, unless we are to go away at once, you must hear it +now." + +"Very well," said Vane, a dim suspicion of the truth beginning to steal +into his soul, "it is a little mysterious to me, but I daresay we shall +soon understand each other." + +He paused for a moment, and then, with a visible effort which made +Rayburn love and honour him from that moment forth, he went on: + +"And perhaps it would simplify matters for both of us if you began by +telling me who _we_ are?" + +"Your sister, or rather your half-sister," Rayburn began falteringly, +and then stopped. + +He saw Vane wince and heard his teeth come together with a snap, and he +saw his hands clench up into fists and his face pale, already turned +ashen grey white that denotes utter bloodlessness. It was the face of a +corpse with living eyes that looked at him with an expression which +could not be translated into human words. Rayburn had looked death in +the face many a time and laughed at it, but he didn't laugh now. As he +said afterwards, he would have given anything to be a couple of miles +away from Vane just then. He didn't speak because he had nothing to say, +his thoughts would not be translated into language, and so there was +nothing for it but to wait for Vane to speak. + +For a few moments more the two men faced each other in silence, yet each +reading the other's thoughts as accurately as though they had been +talking with perfect frankness. Then Vane spoke in a slow, hard, grating +voice which none of the congregation of St. Chrysostom would have +recognised as that of the eloquent preacher of the Sermon on the Mount, +to which Rayburn, who had heard that sermon, listened with a shock, +which, as he told Carol later, sent a shiver through him from head to +foot. + +"Yes, Mr. Rayburn, I think I understand more fully now. My sister +Carol--she has come here with you to-night, and I suppose I am right in +thinking that you were to some extent responsible, quite innocently no +doubt, for her disappearance about a year ago. Is that so?" + +"Yes," said Rayburn, "that's so, and that's why I wouldn't shake hands +with you. I did take her away. She has been round the world with me, +travelling with me as my wife, and she isn't my wife, and--well, that is +about all there is." + +"And why isn't she your wife?" exclaimed Vane, with an unreasoning burst +of anger. Then, after a little pause, he went on in a tone that was +almost humble. + +"I beg your pardon, Mr. Rayburn, that was a foolish thing to say, as +most things said in haste and anger are. You only did what any other man +with no ties and plenty of money would have done under the +circumstances. Forgive me! Only the hand of Providence itself saved me +from committing, without knowledge, an infinitely greater sin than +yours. I suppose Carol has told you how I met her and what happened, +and, of course, my father has told you about my getting out of the cab +that night at the top of the Gardens? No, no, I have nothing to forgive, +nothing to say except, as Carol's brother, to ask you why you have +brought her here? That, at least, I think I am entitled to ask." + +"Maxwell," replied Rayburn, pulling himself together as a man might do +after being badly beaten in a fight, "I have been in a good many bad +places in my lifetime, but this has been about the worst, and I'd a +damned sight sooner--I beg your pardon, you know what I mean--I would +very much rather been talking to a South American Dago with a pistol at +my head, than having this talk with you, but it's got to be done. + +"You know, I suppose, or at any rate your father knows, how I met Carol +and how we fixed it up to go away together. I admit, without any +reserve, that I did take her just as any man like myself, who had had a +pretty hard time for a few years and had come back with a ridiculous +superfluity of money, would have taken such a girl under such +circumstances; that is brutal, but at any rate, it is honest. Well, we +went round the world together, and it was only a fortnight ago--we've +been back three weeks now--that I found out who she was." + +"Not from her?" exclaimed Vane, with almost pitiful eagerness. + +"No," replied Rayburn, "she would have died first. Over and over again I +tried to get her to tell me who and what she was, because of course it +was perfectly easy to see--well, you know what I mean--but she wouldn't. +It was the one confidence that she never gave me; in fact, when I was +trying to insist upon it, she told me if I opened the subject again, she +would leave me there and then, whatever happened to her." + +"Then how did you find out?" asked Vane, in the same dry, hard voice. "I +more than believe you when you say she would never have told you." + +"Through the merest accident," replied Rayburn. "A day or two after we +landed, we went to dinner at Verrey's, and we had hardly sat down before +a friend of hers, Miss Russell, came in--well--with a friend, as they +say. She came and spoke to Carol, and the four of us dined together. +The next day Miss Russell came to see Carol, and you know, or perhaps +you don't know, that it was Miss Russell's friend who introduced me to +Carol. I got hold of Miss Russell afterwards--she's as clean-hearted a +girl as ever the Fates--however, you won't agree with me there perhaps, +you don't believe in Fate, I do. But that's neither here nor there. I +told her what I am going to tell you, and she told me Carol's story, and +that is why I am here to-night." + +There was a good deal of meaning in the words, but for Vane there was +infinitely more in Rayburn's voice and the half-shamed manner in which +he spoke. Vane felt that if this talk went on much longer, the strain +would be too much for him to bear, for it was his sister, or at least +the daughter of his own mother that this man was talking about. He put +out his hand again and said: + +"I think I know now, Mr. Rayburn, what you were going to say, and if I +am right, let me, her brother, say it for you and for her, you won't +refuse my hand this time, will you?" + +"No," said Rayburn, "I won't, and for the matter of that," he went on as +their hands met, "I don't think there is much more for either of us to +say, except just for me to ask you one question." + +"Yes," said Vane, "and what is that?" + +"You are her brother and a priest. Will you take me for your +brother-in-law and marry us?" + +Their hands were still clasped; each was looking straight into the +other's eyes, and the two faces, so different individually, and yet for +the moment so strangely alike, fronted each other in silence. Then Vane +dropped Rayburn's hand, put his hands on his shoulders, and said: + +"You cannot be lying, you haven't the mouth or the eyes of a man who +tells lies. You have sinned, sinned deeply, for you have bought with +your money what should have no other price than lawful love; but love +has come to you, and love has made lawful and right what was sinful +before. You told me at first that you wanted to confess to me both as +man and priest. Very well, as man, as Carol's brother I forgive you, if +you have done anything that I have to forgive, and as a priest of God I +will marry you, and when you have taken the Sacrament of Matrimony from +my hands, as a priest, I will absolve you from your sin. It is a +miracle----" + +"Yes," said Rayburn, "it is. I am not altogether of your way of +thinking, you know, but there, I am with you; it is a miracle in more +ways than one. I know I am expressing myself horribly badly, but, to put +it as shortly as I can, it is the sort of miracle that only a good, +clean-souled, pure-hearted girl like Carol, could have worked upon a +fellow like myself. I tell you, Maxwell, honestly, that if she wouldn't +have me now, I'm damned if I know what I should do. She is everything +that is good to me. I am worth nearly a couple of millions, and not a +cent of it would be worth anything to me if I lost her. And so you +really will marry us?" + +"I will," said Vane. "Thank God and you into whose heart He has put this +saving thought of righteousness." + +"Yes," said Rayburn, "I see what you mean, but really, the credit isn't +mine at all, it is all Carol's. Do you know, Maxwell, that I am going to +have one of the most delightful wives man ever won? If I could only tell +you just exactly how I fell in love with her--but of course a man could +never tell another man that, and after all it doesn't matter. I've got +the one girl in the world I want----" + +There was another little pause, and then Rayburn went on, speaking as +shyly and hesitatingly as a schoolboy confessing a peccadillo: + +"There's one other thing I should like to say, Maxwell, but I hardly +know how to say it." + +He stopped again, and Vane said, smiling for the first time during the +interview: + +"Then say it, as one man would say it to another. I think we understand +each other now. What is it?" + +"Well, it's this," replied Rayburn, flushing like a girl under the tan +of his skin, "you know Carol and I met quite by chance, and I took her +away just as what she seemed to be. Then, after a month or two--you'll +hardly believe me, but it is the Lord's own truth--I began to fall in +love with her, honestly I mean, and in quite a different way. One +evening, it was in Japan, and we were coming back from a trip to Fuji. I +couldn't stand it any longer, I felt such a hopeless sweep, and I told +her. It was a queer sort of courtship, and it took me about six weeks to +bring her round--and then at last--we were in the Rockies then--she gave +in and confessed that she loved me in the same way that I loved her. I +kissed her. I could never tell you how different that kiss was from all +the others." + +"Of course it was," said Vane, gently. "It was a pure one, a holy one, +and God was very near you, Rayburn, in that moment." + +"I believe He was," replied Rayburn, simply, "for from that moment, we +were both absolutely changed. Since that kiss, Carol has been as sacred +to me as my own sister would be if I had one. That is what I wanted to +tell you." + +"And God bless you for telling me!" said Vane, solemnly. "If I had any +doubts before, I have none now. After that, knowing all I do, I would +give you the blessed Sacrament to-morrow." + +"On Sunday I hope you will give it to us both," replied Rayburn. + +At that moment the door opened, and Sir Arthur came in. + +"Dinner is nearly ready," he said. "Are you about ready for it? Ah, yes, +I see, you understand each other, don't you?" + +"Yes, Sir Arthur," said Rayburn, swinging round with an almost military +precision of movement. "I've made my confession, and I am to receive +absolution when the happiest moment of my life comes, and you know when +that will be." + +"I think I do," said Sir Arthur, with a look at Vane, who was staring +vacantly down into the flower-filled fireplace. "Then you have settled +it all between you, is that so, Vane?" + +"Yes, with God's help, we have," he replied, and then, with a swift +change of tone and manner he went on: "and now as we have got our family +affairs settled to a certain extent, I suppose we can go and join the +ladies. I am longing to see Carol again." + +"And so am I," said Rayburn, "let us go." + + + + +CHAPTER XXI. + + +Rayburn went out first and Vane followed him, feeling, as he said to +himself afterwards, as though he was walking across the boundary between +one world and another. He knew that Carol and Dora were in the +drawing-room. Dora he had never seen before. Carol he had not seen since +the night of the University Boat Race. Ernshaw, with the memory of what +he had said in Vane's room at Oxford fresh in his mind, caught him by +the arm and said: + +"Maxwell, I believe I am going to meet my fate to-night as you met yours +in another way. Was there ever such a complication in the life-affairs +of little mortals like ourselves?" + +"I don't know," said Vane, "and I don't care," gripping his arm hard as +they crossed the hall. "Wait, it may be the Providence that shapes our +ends." + +"Rough-hew them as we will," said Rayburn, looking backward. + +"Ah, well, since we understand each other, as I think we do now, _Vogue +la galere!_ And, Mr. Ernshaw," he went on, "I have heard things and +things. I am not giving any confidences away, but by the same token you +and I will soon be sailing in the same boat or something very like +it----" + +"Oh, yes," said Ernshaw, "I see what you mean!" Then he gripped his arm +a little harder before they went into the drawing-room. Vane went on +with his father, and Ernshaw said: + +"Look here, Maxwell, you have passed your crisis, you and Rayburn, I'm +only getting near mine. What am I to do, what can I do?" + +"That I can't tell you. You see, to put it into the twentieth-century +language, the Eternal Feminine is here, and you have got to reckon with +her just as Rayburn has done. Come now, if you've made your mind up, go +and meet your fate." + +As he said this Vane pushed the door of the drawing-room open. Sir +Arthur and Rayburn had gone in just before him. + +"Carol!" + +"Vane! and is it really you--you?" + +"Yes," he said, taking a few swift strides towards her and for the first +time putting his arms round her. "Yes, dear, your brother." + +"Really brother, Vane? Do you truly mean it--will you really take me for +your sister now that you know everything--I mean all about Cecil and +myself?" + +"Yes, Carol, and because I do know, because he as a man has told me +everything. I am going to marry you soon, and no man, no priest could +marry his sister to his friend with more hope for happiness than I shall +marry you and Rayburn." + +He took hold of her left hand, and stretched out his hand to Rayburn and +said: + +"Come now, sister and brother, as you are going to be!" + +He took their two hands and joined them. Over the two hands he clasped +his own, and looking swiftly from one to the other he said: + +"Afterwards I will say the words that I cannot speak here." And then, +with a sudden change of tone and manner which came as a quick surprise +to both Carol and Rayburn, he went on: + +"Rayburn, this is my sister. Carol, Rayburn tells me that he wants to +marry you, and I suppose----" + +"You needn't suppose anything at all, Vane. I've said yes already. If +you and Sir Arthur will only say yes too----" + +Vane drew back from her, and looked round toward Sir Arthur and Dora. +Rayburn, having gone through the formalities of introduction which +Vane's tact had made necessary, held out his hand and they shook hands. + +"It is rather unceremonious, Miss Maxwell," he said, addressing her for +the first time by a name that was not her own, "but----" + +"But, my dear Carol, you are forgetting that you are hostess to-night," +said Sir Arthur, "and I think there are two of our guests who have not +been, as one would say in Society, properly introduced." + +"Oh, of course; I'm so sorry," said Carol. "Dora, forgive me. I know you +will. I was too happy just now to think of anything else. Mr. Ernshaw, +this is Dora. Dora, this is Mr. Ernshaw. I hope you will be very good +friends. That's a rather unconventional way of introduction, I must +say." + +As the last words left her laughing lips, and she was looking +exquisitely dainty and desirable in a quietly magnificent costume which +had cost as much as many much advertised wedding dresses, Dora and +Ernshaw faced each other for the first time. She had seen him with Vane +at the ordination service in Worcester Cathedral, but they had never met +before under the sanction of social acquaintance. + +She looked at him and he looked at her, and as their eyes met some +impulse in the soul of both made them hold out their hands as people do +not usually do when they are introduced in ordinary drawing-room style. +Ernshaw's went out straight. + +"Miss Russell," he said, even while her hand was moving slowly towards +his. + +"My dear Mr. Ernshaw, whatever you have to say, I'm afraid I will have +to ask you to keep it just for a little," said Sir Arthur, as the door +swung open. "Here is Koda Bux, and he does not allow me to be late for +dinner; he has many virtues, but that is the best of them. Mr. Rayburn, +you will take Carol in? Mr. Ernshaw, will you give your arm to Miss +Russell, and Vane and I will bring up the rear." + +"Dad," said Vane, as he gripped his father's arm, "you have helped to do +God's work to-night; look at them!" + +"You did more when you got out of the cab at the top of the gardens +here," he whispered in reply. + +"I didn't do that, dad; she did. She knew, and I didn't. God bless her." + +"Amen," said his father. "And now we will return to earth and go and +eat." + +There were not many more delightful dinners eaten in London that night +than what Cecil Rayburn called his betrothal feast. He and Carol now +understood each other thoroughly. Vane and his father also knew the +circumstances so far as they were concerned, and a little more. Ernshaw +and Dora, each knowing just a little more than the others did, began to +make friends fast, and therefore rapidly, but Dora was still +_declassee_. Carol had already been lifted beyond the confines of that +half-sphere which is inhabited by so many thousands of women who are +neither maiden, wife, nor widow. Dora was still a dweller in it, knowing +all its infamy and shame, and knowing, too, that awful necessity which +is so often at once the equivalent and the excuse for sin. + +Everyone took Sir Arthur's hint, and the conversation rattled on around +the table as lightly as it might have around any other dinner table in +London. Carol and Sir Arthur and Rayburn had it mostly to themselves at +first, but after a little the conversation grew more general. Dora and +Carol engaged in a really brilliant discussion on the subject of Mrs. +Lynn Linton's last book, with the result that Carol said that she +wouldn't live for ever at any price, to which Dora replied with just a +suspicion of a note of sadness in her voice. + +"Yes, Carol, I quite agree with you, or at least if I were you I should +do." + +"Which," said Ernshaw, "is, I think, as nearly as possible the same +thing. Surely if one cannot agree with one's self----" + +"No, Mr. Ernshaw," said Dora, putting her elbows on the table and her +chin between her hands. "No, I'm afraid I can hardly agree with you +there. After all, our worst enemies are those of our own household, by +which of course I mean our immediate surroundings. It is this awful +necessity to live, to eat and to have a place to sleep in. Of course you +are thinking of what Talleyrand said to the young aristocrat who wanted +to live for nothing." + +"Yes," said Ernshaw, "I know that. He said he didn't see the necessity, +and I am not altogether certain that he was wrong, but you----" + +"Yes, I," she replied in a tone that had a thrill of angry reproach +running through it, "I, as you know, am--well--a superfluous woman, one +who isn't wanted, a sort of waste product of the factory that we call +civilisation." + +"I am afraid you people are getting far too serious in your +conversation," said Carol from her end of the table opposite Sir Arthur. +"No, Dora, I really can't allow it; social problems are not in the menu +to-night, and you and Mr. Ernshaw will have to keep them for some other +time. Meanwhile, suppose we leave the rest for their smokes, and you +come with me and run through that song you are going to sing; we haven't +tried it together for quite a long time, as Mr. Rayburn said when we +were on the other side of the Atlantic. Come along." + +As she rose from her chair, Koda Bux, who had been standing immovable +behind his master, opened the door, and as Carol, daintily and yet most +plainly dressed, passed through, his sombre eyes lit up as though by an +inspiration of long past days, and his teeth came together and he said +in his soul: + +"It is the daughter of the Mem Sahib; what marvel is this! If there is +vengeance to be done, may mine be the hand. Inshallah! I should die +content, even if it was only a minute afterwards. He has his kismet, and +I have mine. Allah will give it to me; but they may be the same. Once +the roomal round his neck, and his breath would be already in his mouth. +Dog and son of a dog, he would be better dead!" + +It had been arranged that Carol and Dora should take up their abode with +Sir Arthur, so that Carol might be married from her father's house. +Under the circumstances it was only natural that the wedding was to be +absolutely private, and it was already decided that immediately after +the wedding Rayburn and Carol should leave for a month in Paris, and +then go on to Western Australia, where most of Rayburn's mining +properties were. He also owned one side of a street in Perth and a +country estate with a big bungalow-built house on the eastern hills +overlooking the Swan River. + +The only difficulty appeared ahead to Sir Arthur was some mysterious +connection with the Raleighs and the Garthornes. It was, of course, +impossible that the wedding could take place without their knowledge, if +Sir Arthur was to give Carol away as he intended to do, and yet the +moment that Garthorne's name was mentioned Carol had turned white to the +lips and a look of deadly fear had come into her eyes. + +"No, no," she said, "not them, I can't tell you why, and you mustn't ask +me. You have been very good to me, and you are going to do more for me +than ever was done to a girl like me before, but sooner than meet them I +would run away again as I did from Melville Gardens. I would, really, +but you must not ask me why; there are some things that cannot be told." + +After this Sir Arthur, finding it impossible to get any inkling of the +mystery from Carol, asked Dora if she could tell him the meaning of it, +and she too turned white. She did not reply for a few moments, and then +she said: + +"No, Sir Arthur, I cannot tell you. All I can say is that Carol is +perfectly right. It would be utterly impossible for her to meet either +Sir Reginald Garthorne or his son, and of course she could not meet Mrs. +Garthorne without meeting her husband. There is a reason, and a very +solemn one, too, for this, but I can assure you, Sir Arthur----" + +"That is enough, Miss Russell," said Sir Arthur gravely. "I am perfectly +satisfied, and I have no right to ask for an explanation. The wedding +shall be absolutely private; no one shall be asked except ourselves. +Vane shall marry them early in the morning, we will come back here for +lunch, and then they will go straight off to Paris. I will tell the +Garthornes about it afterwards." + +"Yes," said Dora, "I think that would be best." + +That night Carol and Dora had a talk in Carol's room. It was rather a +discussion perhaps than a conversation, and the question was whether Sir +Arthur and Vane should be told the dreadful secret which Carol had +discovered at Reginald Garthorne's wedding. Carol, clean-hearted and +straightforward as she was naturally, shrank in horror from such a +revelation as this; but Dora, whose nature was deeper, and who had a +stronger religious bias, felt that at all hazards the truth should be +told, horrible as it was. + +"That man Garthorne," she said, "is a brute. I am perfectly certain that +he deliberately made your brother drunk that day at Oxford--I mean that +he took advantage of the weakness that you discovered to tempt him to go +on drinking, so that he might get drunk on the most important morning of +his life. He knew very well what he was doing. He knew if he could only +make him drunk that morning, everything would be at an end between him +and Miss Raleigh." + +"But, my dear Dora, suppose that is so, and I hope it isn't," replied +Carol, "how on earth can you have found that out? Of course, if it +really is so, Vane and Sir Arthur ought to know of it, and, well, I +suppose of the other thing too, dreadful and all as it is, but----" + +"I see what you mean," said Dora, "and I will tell you why. In the first +place, when we were at the flat, Bernard--I mean Mr. Falcon--told me one +or two things Mr. Garthorne had said to him when they were getting +confidential over their whiskies, and I had a few minutes' talk with +Mr. Ernshaw this evening which--well, what Mr. Falcon told me and what +he said were the two and two that made four. I am afraid that is not +very grammatical, but it is true. Of course he wouldn't have told me if +I had not said something about it; but the moment he told me about your +brother's collapse that morning the truth came to me like a flash. +Reginald Garthorne is a scoundrel, and his father is worse, for he is a +hypocrite as well as a scoundrel. He pretends to be Sir Arthur's +friend--he has done so for years. He has allowed his son to steal Vane's +life-long love from him, knowing all that he himself did--and, well, +no--I can't say the rest." + +"You mean," said Carol quietly, and with a note of hardness in her +voice, "you mean that he is my father. It is very dreadful, isn't it?" + +"Yes, Dora, it is, but you are not to blame after all; you didn't know, +and of course we must admit that Mr. Garthorne didn't know so morally. +You are both quite innocent there, but there is someone else just now. +We've been friends and comrades now for a long time, tell me, dear, does +Mr. Rayburn know?" + +"I have told him everything," replied Carol, with an effort which she +could not conceal, even from Dora. + +"Yes, everything, even the very worst. You know when, as he says, he +fell in love with me and, as I told you, began to treat me altogether +differently, and then asked me to marry him, I said 'No.' I felt that I +couldn't say 'Yes' honestly unless he knew everything. I had got very +fond of him, and I suppose that was the reason why. I felt that I had to +tell him the truth, and so I told him. Of course it wouldn't have been +the straight thing to do anything else. If he had been like other +men----" + +"But he isn't," said Dora; "all men are not men, you know, and he's a +man, and you are just about as lucky a girl as ever got a real man for +her husband. Now I see what you mean. Yes, of course, it would be wicked +to tell the truth just now. In a week you will be married and away to +Australia to live a new life in a new world. Then no one will know Mrs. +Rayburn, the wife of the millionaire, except as Mrs. Rayburn, but after +that vengeance must be done." + +"But why, Dora--why not let things stop just as they are? What is the +use of bringing all these things up again and making misery for +everybody?" + +"Simply because the truth should be known, because a man who has done +another the greatest possible injury should not be allowed to remain his +friend even in appearance. The truth ought to be told, and it must be +told." + +"Very well," said Carol, "tell it, Dora, after I am gone. I have told +him all the truth, but you know I am like a girl coming out of hell into +heaven." + +"And do you think that I would spoil your heaven?" said Dora. "No, you +are too good for that." + +"I am not half so good as you," said Carol. "I have only had infinitely +more good fortune than I deserve." + +"I don't think that," replied Dora. "I have known you too long and too +well. I believe, after all, that everyone does get in this world just +about what they deserve if everything was understood, which of course it +isn't; but I am quite certain about you. Good-night, Carol, and pleasant +dreams--as of course they will be if you have any." + +"Good-night, Dora!" laughed Carol, with one of her swift changes of +manner. "By the way, I have quite forgotten to ask you how you like Mr. +Ernshaw?" + +Dora looked at her straight in the eyes for a moment, her cheeks flushed +ever so slightly, and she said almost stiffly: + +"I am afraid, Carol, you have begun to dream already." + +As the door closed Carol went and stood in front of the long mirror in +the wardrobe, and still smiling at herself, as well she might, she said: + +"Well, it is all very wonderful, and part of it very terrible, and I +certainly have got a great deal more than I deserve. If Dora only gets +what she deserves it will make things a little more equal. +Good-night--Mrs. Rayburn!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXII. + + +On the following Sunday evening London had another theological +sensation. The National Secular Society had advertised far and wide that +the preacher of the famous sermon at St. Chrysostom had consented to +deliver an address at the Hall of Science, and that the chair was to be +taken by the President of the Society, who was one of the most eloquent +and uncompromising exponents of free-thought and rationalism in the +world. + +Not only in the Anglican churches but also among Catholics and +Nonconformists a perfect tempest of indignation had burst forth during +the past few days. A hurriedly summoned but crowded meeting was held at +Exeter Hall on the same night that Vane had welcomed Carol and her lover +into the family circle. It was mainly expressive of evangelical opinion, +and was addressed with indignant eloquence by several of the principal +Low Church and Nonconformist divines in London. Their principal theme +was ritualism and atheism, with special reference to the connection that +appeared to exist between them in the person of the Rev. Vane Maxwell. + +To begin with, he had joined a confraternity of Anglican priests whose +practises were notoriously and admittedly illegal, and he had taken +advantage of his position in the pulpit to preach a sermon which had +sent a thrill of indignation through the hearts of all the most generous +supporters of Church and mission work throughout the United Kingdom and +abroad. + +He had taken upon himself to put a brutally literal construction on the +words of Christ which it would be absolutely impossible to carry out in +practice unless the whole of Christendom were pauperised--and what, +then, would become of the work of the churches, and, particularly, of +those vast missionary movements which had spread the light of +Christianity in so many dark places of the earth? How would they +continue to exist without the vast sums which Christians of wealth so +generously contributed? What was to happen, even to the churches of all +denominations in England itself, if they accepted the preposterous +doctrine that a man could not enjoy the fruit of his own labour, or +inherit that of his ancestors, and at the same time remain a Christian? +It was totally out of the question, far beyond the bounds of all +practical common sense, and therefore it could not be Christian, since, +if such a doctrine were true, Christianity would be impossible. + +And now, not content with preaching from a Christian pulpit a heresy +which, if accepted by Christians, would make Christianity a practical +impossibility, this headstrong, unthinking visionary, reckless of all +the best traditions of his Church and his cloth, was going to address an +assembly of infidels and atheists, and, as a minister of the Gospel, +make friends with those who blasphemed the name of God every time they +used it, and did their utmost to destroy the edifice of Christianity +and to uproot the foundations of the Christian faith. + +It was monstrous, it was horrible, and the general sense of the +speeches, and of the resolutions which were unanimously and +enthusiastically carried at the end of the meeting, was that the man who +could preach heresy in a Christian pulpit, then, the next Sunday, +associate himself deliberately with infidels and atheists, was not +worthy to remain within the fold of the Christian Ministry. + +Of course, the speeches were duly reported in the papers the next +morning with, in some cases, a considerable amount of editorial +embroidery, and nowhere were they read with greater interest than at the +breakfast-table of Sir Arthur's house in Warwick Gardens, especially as, +side by side with them, came the announcement that another meeting of +protest was to be held at St. James's Hall on the Saturday evening, +under the auspices of a committee of members of the English Church +Union. The chair was to be taken by Canon Thornton-Moore, and several of +the leading lights of High Anglicanism were to speak. + +"What a very wicked person you must be, Vane," said Carol, who had +swiftly skimmed through some of the speeches and the comments on them. +"The Low Church people seem to have excommunicated you altogether, and +now the High Church are going to do it. Why don't you go to this meeting +to-night and give them a bit of your mind? I believe they are all +frightened of you and your new doctrines, and that is why they are +making such a fuss about it." + +"My doctrines are not new, Carol," replied Vane, with a smile which +seemed to her very gentle and sweet. "They are just as old as +Christianity itself, and they are not mine, but the Master's. No, I +don't think I shall go to the meeting. I am afraid there will be quite +trouble enough without me, and, besides, personal controversy seldom +does any good at all. I only hope, indeed, that these good people will +keep away from the Hall of Science on Sunday night. It is the greatest +of pities that it was made public. I simply wanted to have a quiet talk +with the usual audience." + +"I am afraid you won't have many more quiet talks with any audiences +now, Vane," laughed Sir Arthur. "This sudden jump that you have made +into fame has made it impossible. You will have to pay the usual penalty +of greatness." + +"It appears," said Carol, "in this case, to be mostly abuse and +misunderstanding." + +"I don't think there is much misunderstanding, Carol," said Dora. "It +seems to me to be quite the other way about. These people understand Mr. +Maxwell only too well for their own comfort. They see quite plainly that +if he is right, as, of course, he is, wealth and real Christianity +cannot go together; therefore, equally, of course, fat livings and +bishoprics and archbishoprics at ten and fifteen thousand a year will +also be impossible. It may be very wicked to say so, but I think a lot +of these good people are worrying themselves much more about salaries +and endowments and that sort of thing than real Christianity." + +"Of course they are," said Carol. "I wonder how many of them will do +what Vane has done, give up everything he had----" + +"My dear Carol," interrupted Vane, gently, "that is not quite the point. +You must remember that these men have their opinions just as I have +mine, and they may not think it their duty to do that. I do not believe +that it is right for a man to be a priest of the Church and possess more +than the actual necessaries of life. They believe that it is right." + +"And a very convenient belief, too!" said Carol, with a look of +admiration. "Well, I am not as charitable as you are, and I don't +believe that they do believe it. Now, there's Cecil and the carriage. +Dear me! how very punctual he is." + +"There's not much to wonder at in that," said Sir Arthur. "Well, now, I +suppose you young ladies are going to have a morning in Paradise--the +one that is bounded by Oxford Street on the north and Piccadilly on the +south. Vane, we will go and have a cigar with Mr. Rayburn while they are +getting ready." + +The meeting at St. James's Hall was much less crowded, and, as some +thought, much more decorous than the one at Exeter Hall. Canon +Thornton-Moore, a man of stately presence, high social standing and very +considerable wealth--he had married the daughter of one of the most +successful operators in the Kaffir Circus--made an ideal chairman. He +was a High Churchman and the son of a Bishop. He was the incarnation of +the most aristocratic section of the Anglican Church. He was supported +by the presence of a Duke and two High Church peers on the platform, and +half a dozen vicars and curates, all eloquent preachers and fashionable +exponents of ritualistic doctrine, were announced to speak in advocacy +of the protest which the meeting had been called to make. + +The proceedings were very quiet and dignified--and very churchy. It was +the Church from beginning to end; it never seemed to strike either the +speakers or the audience that there was anything that might fairly be +called Christianity outside the Church. In fact, the words Christ and +Christianity were not used at all from the platform. + +The only approach to unseemliness occurred when, in response to a formal +intimation that "discussion within reasonable limits" would be +permitted, one of the Kilburn Sisters, a woman who had given up a +fortune and relinquished a title, got up and asked the chairman +point-blank what _his_ interpretation of the Sermon on the Mount was, +and further, if any of the noble and reverend gentlemen on the platform +could give a better exposition of it as a rule of Christian life than +Vane Maxwell had done? + +She had hardly uttered her question before murmurs of angry protest +began to run from lip to lip through the hall; but when she went on to +ask why the preacher of the now famous sermon should be denounced by his +fellow priests for giving an address to free-thinkers in a free-thought +hall, when Christ himself, for his own good purposes, associated himself +with publicans and sinners and thought none too low or too utterly lost +to take by the hand, her voice was at once drowned by a chorus of "Oh! +Oh's!" amidst which the chairman rose and said in his most dignified +manner: + +"I hope that I have the sense and feeling of the meeting with me when I +say that the questions asked by our most respected sister seem to have +been asked under a total misconception of the circumstances. It is +obvious that they raise issues which could not possibly be discussed in +such a place, and on such an occasion as this. I would remind our dear +friend that this edifice is not a church, and this platform not a +pulpit; and that, therefore, I do not feel myself justified, even if +time and other circumstances permitted, to enter upon a doctrinal +subject which involves so many far-reaching considerations as this one +does." + +The Canon sat down amidst a many-voiced murmur of approval, and the Duke +said audibly to him: + +"A very proper way, my dear Canon, of dealing with a most improper +question. The dear lady seems to think that we are not capable of +reading our Bibles for ourselves." + +After that the chairman put to the meeting the resolution of protest to +the effect that if the Reverend Vane Maxwell persisted in carrying out +his intention to proceed from a pulpit of the church to the platform of +an infidel lecture hall, he would make it the painful duty of his +canonical superiors to take his conduct into most serious consideration, +and, further, should he persist in this deplorable resolution, he would +arouse the gravest suspicions in the minds of all loyal churchmen as to +his fitness for dispensing the sacred functions of his office. + +The Kilburn Sister and a few others walked out amidst a chilling +silence, and under a silent fire of glances which ought to have made +them feel very uncomfortable. Perhaps it did. + +The resolution was put and passed without a dissentient voice, and when +the proceedings were over and Lady Canore, who had been one of the most +energetic organisers of the meeting, got back into her carriage, she +said to her husband: + +"I think the dear Canon's reply was most dignified and proper. That +woman ought to be ashamed of herself--and a Kilburn Sister, too! Donald, +I shall certainly go and hear what this Mr. Maxwell has to say to +these--ah--these people at, where is it? the Hall of what? Oh, yes! +Science, and you must manage to get a seat. I believe you pay for them +just as you do in a theatre. It is, of course, very shocking, but I +think it will be most interesting." + +A good many other members of the audience said practically the same +thing in other ways, and so it came about that the Hall in Old Street +was packed as it had not been since the most famous days of Charles +Bradlaugh, and packed, too, with a most strangely assorted audience of +democrats and aristocrats, socialists and landowners, freethinkers of +the deistic, the atheistic, and the agnostic persuasions, and Christians +of even more varying shades of opinion, from the most rigidly +Calvinistic evangelical, to the most artistically emotional of the High +Anglican cult. + +The President rose amidst the usual applause, but it hushed the moment +he began to speak, in clear incisive tones which sent every syllable +distinctly from end to end of the hall: + +"Friends, I intend to say very little, because we are going to hear +to-night what we very seldom hear in a secular lecture-hall. We are +going to hear an address which you are waiting for as eagerly as I am, +an address delivered by a man who, as a Priest of the Church of England, +last Sunday sent a thrill of astonishment, of amazement, I might almost +say of horror, through Christian England." + +A burst of applause, coming chiefly from the back of the hall, +interrupted the speaker, but he put his hand up, and went on: + +"No, please! I must ask you not to applaud. For one thing, there is not +time for it. Just let me get my say said, and then, when Mr. Maxwell +gives us the message he has brought us from what we are, perhaps, too +ready to believe the enemy's camp, applaud him as much as you like. What +I want to do now is to say as far as possible without offence, and +without hurting the feelings of the many members of Christian churches +who have come amongst us to-night, that it is to be our privilege to +listen here in what has been recently called the head-quarters of +infidelity--an insulting epithet which I, with you and all true +rationalists indignantly repudiate--a man, a Christian clergyman, a +priest of the Church of England who has, as you already know, raised a +hurricane of criticism throughout this Christian country by daring to +tell Christians just what Jesus of Nazareth meant--if plain words mean +anything--when he preached the Sermon on the Mount. He has dared to say +from a Christian pulpit what we have been saying from these platforms of +ours ever since we had them--that Christendom is not Christian, and that +it cannot be so until it is prepared to be honest with itself and its +God. + +"Mr. Maxwell has come amongst us to-night with other thoughts, other +faiths, other beliefs than ours, but from what I see of the audience he +will not speak to freethinkers only. I believe that there are more +professing Christians in this hall to-night than there ever have been +before. Let us remember that. It may be that Mr. Maxwell will teach us +some lessons as unpalatable as those which he taught from the pulpit of +St. Chrysostom; but do not let us forget this that we shall be listening +to a man who is a missionary in the best sense of the word, a man who +has justified his faith by the sacrifice of his worldly prospects, and +who has taken upon himself a task infinitely more difficult, infinitely +more thankless than that of the missionary who, as we believe, carries +at an immense expense of money which could be better spent in the +charity that begins at home, a message of salvation, as he no doubt +honestly believes it to be, to savages who cannot understand it, or to +the people who were civilized when we were savages, and who don't want +it and won't have it. + +"Mr. Maxwell has taken upon himself, if I may say so without offence, a +far nobler mission than this, a greater task, if possible, than that of +the noble men and women of all creeds, and no creed, who minister to the +wants of our own savages, by which I mean those who have been kept in a +state of savagery infinitely worse than that of the negro slave of +seventy years ago, by the necessities of the civilization which is no +more Christian than it is humane. + +"Mr. Maxwell, by preaching that one famous sermon of his, has +constituted himself a missionary to the rich, to those who profess and +call themselves Christians, and yet are content to live utterly and +hopelessly unchristian lives. Friends, the man beside me has begun to +make himself the Savonarola of the twentieth century. Whether his creed +is ours or not, we must all agree that that sermon of his is the +beginning of a great and noble work. He told his wealthy and fashionable +hearers last Sunday that they could not be Christians unless they were +honest with God and their fellow men. As regards the first part, some of +us have different beliefs to his, but as regards the second, we are with +him heart and soul. If he can teach us to be honest with ourselves and +each other, he will have done more to conquer sin and vice, more to make +earth that human paradise that the poets and dreamers and prophets of +all ages have longed for and foretold, than all the churches and all the +creeds have done for the last two thousand years. It is a godly because +it is a goodly work, and--if there is a God--that God will bless him and +help him in it." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII. + + +As the President sat down and Vane rose to his feet, quite a tumult of +mingled applause, "hear, hears," hissings and hootings rose up from the +strangely assorted audience. + +Vane faced the half-delighted, half-angry throng with the perfect +steadiness of a man who has decided upon a certain course and means to +pursue it at all hazards. Curiosity reduced one portion of the audience +to silence, and a respectful anticipation the other. In the sea of faces +before him, Vane recognised several that were familiar to him. His +father, Carol, Dora, Ernshaw and Rayburn were there as a matter of +course. Several clerics, high and low, Anglican and Nonconformist, were +dotted about the audience, some with folded arms and frowning brows as +though they were expecting the worst of heresies, others smiling in +bland and undisguised contempt, believing that they had come to see one +of their own cloth, who had already made himself an even more +disagreeable subject of reflection to them than even the infidels in +whose house the magic of Vane's sudden fame had brought them together, +do that which would make it impossible for him to again commit such an +offence in the pulpit of an English church. + +For a moment or two there was a hush of intense silence of mental +suspense and expectation as Vane faced his audience and looked steadily +about him before he began to speak, and when he did begin, the silence +changed to an almost inaudible murmur and movement which is always the +sign of relaxed tension among a large body of human beings. + +His first words were as unconventional as they were unexpected. + +"Brother men and sister women; some of you, like myself, believe in God, +in the existence of an all-wise, over-ruling Providence, which shapes +the destinies of mankind, and yet at the same time allows each man and +woman to work out his or her own earthly destinies for good or ill, as +he or she chooses--by reason or desire, by inclination or passion--and +we also believe in the efficacy of the sacrifice which was consummated +on Calvary. There are others listening to me now to whom these beliefs +are merely idle dreams, the inventions of enthusiasts, or the deliberate +frauds of those who brought them into being and imposed them by physical +force upon those who had no means of resistance, for their own personal +and political ends. + +"I have not come here to make any attempt to settle these differences +between us. As a priest of the Church, I wish, with all my soul, that I +could. As a man, I know that I can't. But there is one ground at least +upon which we can meet as friends, whatever our opinions may be as +regards religion and theology--two terms which, I think every one here +will agree with me, are very far from meaning the same thing." + +"As a priest of the Church, I cannot hear that without protest!" cried a +tall, high-browed, thin-featured, deep-eyed clergyman, springing to his +feet in the middle of the hall. "If theology, the Science of God, does +not mean the same thing as religion, the word religion has no meaning. +More dangerous, I had almost said more disgraceful, words never fell +from the lips of a man calling himself a priest of the Church of God." + +The last sentence was spoken in a high, shrill voice, which rose above +the angry murmurs which came from all parts of the hall, but these Vane +silenced in a moment, by holding up his hand and smiling as some of the +audience had never seen a man smile before. + +"I am glad," he went on, in slow, very distinct tones, "that such an +objection has been raised so early by a brother priest. It will help us +to understand each other more clearly, and so I will try to answer him +at once. The difference between religion and theology is the difference +between the whole and the part; but theology is not a science, for there +is no science of the Infinite. It is only the study of the many +different conceptions which men of all nations and races have formed as +to the nature of the over-ruling Power of the universes--of all the +attempts to solve the insoluble and to answer the unanswerable. + +"There are two sayings, one Arabian and one Italian, which I hope I may +quote without offence. One is, 'God gives us the outline of the picture, +we fill it in. We cannot change the outline, but we are responsible for +every stroke of the brush. In the end God judges the picture.' + +"The other was the saying of a famous Italian artist, 'Children and +fools should not see work half done.' + +"Now let us grant for the sake of argument that there is a Creator, and +therefore a scheme of creation. How much can we, dwellers upon a world +which is but as a grain of sand washed hither and thither by the +tide-flow of the ocean of Infinity, know about the workings of the Will +in obedience to which, as some of us believe, that tide ebbs and flows +through the uncounted ages of Eternity, and over the measureless expanse +of Infinity? Faced with such a colossal problem as this, must we not all +confess ourselves to be but as children and fools, since we do not and +cannot see even half of the work, but only an immeasurably tiny fragment +of it? For this reason I feel justified in saying that those who deny +the existence of the Divine Architect of the universe and those who +claim to know all about His plans, are, at least, equally mistaken. + +"But that, although I have been glad of the opportunity of saying it, is +not quite what I came here to say, and, therefore, we will drop that +part of the subject. Last Sunday I preached a sermon which--I say it +both with wonder and gladness--has produced a very much wider and deeper +effect than I could have hoped it would do. That was a sermon preached +in a Christian church to a congregation, which, at least, professed and +called itself Christian. To-night I am going to ask you to listen to a +secular sermon preached from the same text. It will be very brief, +because I know that you have a custom, and a very good one, of following +discourses with discussion, and as I am going to raise a few distinctly +controversial subjects, I want to leave plenty of our available time +over for the discussion. + +"The theme of my sermon last Sunday at St. Chrysostom's may be summed up +in one word--Honesty. The essence of the Sermon on the Mount is just +honesty. I suppose everyone here has read it, and therefore you will +remember that from beginning to end there is not a word of dogma in it. +In other words it is absolutely untheological. Perhaps this fact, a very +important one, has never struck some of you before. When the Master +preached that sermon, he, as I believe, deliberately left out every +reference to dogma or doctrine, creed or church, so that men, whatever +their belief, their nation or their race, could equally accept it as a +universal rule of life and conduct. + +"Some of us here believe in miracles, some do not. I do, and, so +believing, I think that the Sermon on the Mount is the greatest of all +miracles. It is a greater thing to preach a doctrine to which all honest +men, coming whithersoever they may from the ends of the earth, will and +must subscribe if they _are_ honest--a doctrine which is true for all +time and for all men, than to cleanse the leper or to raise the dead to +life. + +"I will ask you to let me put this point in another way, and in a +certainly more attractive form. Let me read you the expression of this +universal truth in the words of two English poets separated from each +other by more than two hundred years of time and many mountain ridges +and deep valleys of changing thought and opinion: + + "Father of all! in every age, + In every clime adored, + By saint, by savage, and by sage, + Jehovah, Jove, or Lord! + + "Thou great First Cause, least understood, + Who all my sense confined + To know but this, that Thou art good, + And that myself am blind. + + "Yet gave me, in this dark estate, + To see the good from ill; + And, binding nature fast in fate, + Left free the human will. + +"Those lines are from Pope's immortal poem 'The Universal Prayer'; these +are from Rudyard Kipling's 'Hymn Before Action.' + + "High lust and froward bearing, + Proud heart, rebellious brow-- + Deaf ear and soul uncaring, + We seek Thy mercy now! + The sinner that forswore Thee, + The fool that passed Thee by, + Our times are known before Thee-- + Lord, grant us strength to die! + + "For those who kneel beside us + At altars not Thine own, + Who lack the lights that guide us, + Lord, let their faith atone! + If wrong we did to call them, + By honour bound they came; + Let not Thy wrath befall them, + But deal to us the blame! + +"Those, perhaps, are the most solemn and deep-meaning words that have +been written or spoken since Jesus of Nazareth preached the Sermon on +the Mount, and the inner sense, as I read it, is the same. In life, in +death, be honest with yourself, with your brother-man and your +sister-woman, and with your God if you believe in one. + +"Last Sunday in the pulpit I quoted the words of Colonel Ingersoll, 'God +cannot afford to damn an honest man.' That phrase has always seemed to +me a marvellous mixture of blasphemy, ignorance, and sound common sense. +From my point of view it is blasphemous, because it is the utterance of +the atom trying to understand the universe. It is ignorant, because it +is impossible for that human atom who uttered it to form any adequate +conception of the infinitely great whole of which he was an infinitely +small part. And yet, humanly speaking, it is the soundest and hardest of +common sense. If God is honest He must respect honesty, no matter +whether it is the honesty of belief, or of disbelief, always supposing +that the belief and the disbelief _are_ honest. + +"The man who calls himself a Christian and does not conduct his daily +life in accordance with the precepts of the Sermon on the Mount, is one +of two things--a fool who cannot understand the meaning of plain words, +or a knave, who, for many reasons, which most of my hearers will +understand, pretends to be that which he is not. I may remind you here +that knavery is not by any means confined to the limits of what is +conventionally termed criminality. For every crime that puts a man or a +woman into prison, there are a hundred others committed in every-day +life with absolute impunity, and yet they are just as serious, and they +merit a similar if not a heavier punishment than those which the law +punishes with social degradation and the miseries of penal servitude. + +"I wonder whether it has occurred to any of you who are listening to me +now--whether you are Christians, professed or real, atheists or +agnostics--to ask yourselves if, under the present conditions of what we +are pleased to call civilization, an honest world would be possible, and +that, I may say, is just the same thing as asking whether Christians can +or cannot live their lives in accordance with the teachings of Him who +went about doing good? Of course we all call ourselves honest, and some +of us really believe that we are. At any rate, most of us would feel +very much insulted if any one else told us that we were not. But are +we? Let us put our pride in our pockets for a moment and try to answer +that pregnant question. Honesty, like many other terms, of which +immorality is one, has, through its conventional use, acquired a very +restricted and therefore a quite unreal meaning. We have, by some +vicious process of thought, got accustomed to call a man or a woman who +transgresses the social law in a certain direction immoral, and in the +same way we have come to apply the word dishonesty to practices which +mean stealing or the attempt to steal property of a concrete form. + +"But I think you will all agree with me that both these words have come +to be used in a sense which is so narrow, that it destroys their +original meaning. For every man or woman who transgresses the social law +and is therefore called immoral--of course after being found out--there +are a hundred or more who break the moral law every hour of their waking +lives. All of you, no doubt, possess bibles. Read the 27th and 28th +verses of the fifth chapter of the Gospel according to Matthew, and you +will understand what I mean. + +"But there is another immorality than this, and, as I believe, a greater +immorality, for this, so far as it concerns our sister women, is often +not immorality at all. It is the surrender of a feeble nature to a +pitiless necessity, the necessity to live, the only alternative, in too +many cases, to self-murder. There is another immorality infinitely worse +than this, which when, as we Christians believe, the hosts of men are +ranged before the Bar of Eternal Justice will spell damnation, hopeless +and irrevocable, and that is the immorality which means a dishonesty +that deliberately deceives--not always for the purpose of gain, for this +kind of dishonesty is generally practised by those whom, to put it +plainly, it would not pay to steal. + +"A French philosopher once said that there is that within the heart of +every man which, if known, would make his dearest friend hate him. That, +I am afraid, is true, not only of men but of women. It is not the fault +of the men or the women; it is due simply to artificial conditions of +life and to the individual ignorance and stupidity which make reform +impossible. Until what we call civilised and Christian Society can make +up its mind to conduct its personal, its national, and its international +affairs on the broad and simple lines laid down in the Sermon on the +Mount, no man can afford to be quite honest. In other words, if +Christendom would be really Christian, it would also be honest; honest +with itself and with its God, with the God whom it now only pretends to +worship, saying loudly, 'Lord, Lord,' and doing not the things which He +saith! + +"It would not matter--and this I say with all reverence and with a full +sense of my responsibilities as a Priest of the Church--it would not +matter whether Society called itself Christian or not, as long as it was +honest." + +"That is absolute atheism and blasphemy!" exclaimed a well-known +Nonconformist preacher, springing up and holding his hands out towards +the platform. "The man who could speak those words cannot be either a +Christian or a minister of the Gospel. I call upon the speaker to be +honest now, honest with himself and us, and confess that he is not a +Christian, and therefore unworthy to be a preacher of any Christian +creed." + +A storm of mingled expressions of approval and assent burst out from +every part of the crowded hall. Vane stood immovable and listened to it +with a smile hovering round his lips. The President rose at once and +said: + +"I must remind the reverend gentleman who has made this interruption--an +interruption which, if made in a church or a chapel, would render him +liable to imprisonment--is entirely out of order. We welcome discussion, +but it must come in its proper place. We cannot tolerate interruption, +and we won't." + +The rebuke was too just and too pointed not to be felt, even by the +bigot who had deserved it. He sat down, and when the thunder of applause +which greeted the President's brief but pregnant interlude had died +away, Vane went on without a trace of emotion in his voice: + +"I cannot say that I am sorry that that interruption was made, because +it makes it possible for me to ask whether there is really any +difference between Christianity and honesty?" + +Again he was interrupted, this time by half the audience getting on to +its feet and cheering. The other portion sat still, and the units of it +began to look at each other very seriously. Vane was, in fact, bringing +the matter down to a most uncomfortably fine point. He made a slight +motion with his hand, and his hearers, having already recognised the +true missionary, or bringer of messages to the souls of men, instantly +became silent and expectant. + +"If Christianity is not honest, or if honesty is not, for all practical +purposes, the same thing as Christianity, then so much the worse for +Christianity or for honesty as the case may be. A religion which is not +honest is not a religion. Honesty which is not a religion--that is to +say a tie between man and man--is not honest. That, I think, is a +dilemma from which there is no escape." + +There was another burst of applause, this time almost universal, which +the President did not attempt to check. A few members of the audience +looked even more uncomfortable than before, but by the time Vane was +able to make himself heard again it was quite plain that the great +majority of his audience, believers and unbelievers, were heart and soul +with him. + +"That," he went on, with a laughing note in his voice, "shows me that we +have got on to friendly territory at last, on to the ground of our +common humanity. I said just now, before my friend in the audience +diverted my attention to another and very important point, most of us +would feel very much insulted if anyone told us that we were not honest. +We should jump to the conclusion that such a statement was the same +thing as calling us thieves or swindlers; but that is not the question. +Honesty is not by any means confined to commercial dealings. It has a +social meaning and a very far reaching one too, for, as a matter of +fact, the man or woman who deceives another in the smallest detail of +life is not strictly honest, because it is impossible to be strictly +honest without at the same time being strictly truthful. + +"It has been said that half the truth is worse than a lie. It is, I +think, a greater sin to tell half the truth than a deliberate and +comprehensive lie, for it is possible to tell a lie with an honest, if +mistaken purpose; and yet the business of the modern world is mainly +conducted by half-truths. Everyone tries to deceive the person he is +doing business with to some extent. It is not altogether his fault, for +he knows that if he didn't do so, the other man would deceive him, and +so get the better of the bargain. That is the way of the world, as it is +called, and a very bad way, and, as we believe, a very unchristian way +it is. + +"Still, it is impossible to blame the trader and the man of commerce for +this. The real fault, the real sin, is not individual, it is +collective--the guilt properly belongs to Society. Men do not descend to +these mean subterfuges and these despicable trickeries merely to make +money, to pile on hundreds on hundreds and thousands on thousands. In +their hearts all the best of them despise the methods by which they are +forced to earn their incomes and make their fortunes; but the penalties +which the laws of Society place on honesty are so tremendous that a +really honest man will deliberately sacrifice his own honour rather than +incur them. That is a very serious thing to say, and yet it is the +literal truth, and the most pitiable part of the matter is that he +commits these sins of unscrupulousness and dishonesty chiefly for the +sake of his wife and children. The social penalties of honesty would +fall most heavily on them. Their houses and their luxurious furniture, +their carriages and their horses, their costly clothing and precious +jewels would be theirs no longer; in a word, they would become poor, and +Society has no place for people if they are poor, whatever else they may +be. + +"To put the question in another way, a tiger seeking for its prey and +slaying it ruthlessly when it has found it is not a pleasant subject for +contemplation, but before we blame the tiger we must remember that +somewhere at home in the jungle there is a Mrs. Tiger and some little +tigers who have to be fed somehow. The tiger's methods of killing for +food are merciful in comparison with the methods of many men who already +possess enough to give the ordinary comforts of decent life to those who +are depending upon them, and yet go on deceiving and swindling, for +deception in commerce is swindling, in order to obtain those +superfluities of life which are absolutely necessary to keep up what is +called position in Society. + +"I do not say that wealth and comfort would be impossible in an honest +world; there is no reason why they should be, but they would be gained +in greater moderation and by different methods. For instance, if Society +could and would change its standards of honesty and morality, the force +of public opinion would soon make crime impossible, save among the +mentally and morally diseased, who would, of course, be treated in the +same merciful but relentless fashion as we now treat what we call our +criminal lunatics. + +"It will of course be quite impossible for me to treat this vast subject +in anything like detail in a single address, and therefore I shall +content myself with having thrown out these few suggestions, and leave +the development of it to those who will, I hope, take part in the +discussion. + +"But one word more in conclusion. Your President has called me a +missionary, a missionary to the rich. That is the mission which I have +taken on myself, and therefore I gladly accept the title, all the more +gladly because it comes from one who, while he differs from me +absolutely on every theological point which I believe essential to +salvation, has proved his faith by giving me that title and by uttering +a prayer which has, I hope, already been heard by Him to whom all hearts +are open, and from whom no secrets are hid." + +When Vane sat down there burst out a storm of applause, through which +not a few hisses, mostly from clerical lips, pierced shrilly. Yet, few +and simple as his words had been, it was quite evident that they had +gone straight to the hearts of the majority of his audience. + +The President rose when the applause subsided, and, after a brief +speech, in which he frankly admitted that if all teachers of the +Christian faith were like Vane Maxwell, and if there were no other sort +of Christianity than his, there would be very little of what too many +Christians call infidelity in the world, gave the usual notice that the +meeting was now open for discussion. + +Then the storm burst over Vane's devoted head. By a sort of tacit +agreement the Secularists left the attack to the clergy. As a matter of +fact they had practically no cause for dispute with Vane. On the +contrary they delighted in the frankness of his expression of his +belief, and the uncompromising fashion in which he had denounced and +repudiated that unchristian form of Christianity which, as the President +had put it, was responsible through its hypocrisy and double-dealing +with God and man for all the honest unbelief, and all the scoffing and +scepticism, which it pretended to deplore. So the Secularists sat still +and silent, enjoying hugely the series of bitter attacks that were made +on Vane by cleric after cleric, Anglican and Nonconformist, for close on +a couple of hours. Vane took it all very quietly, now smiling and now +looking grave almost to sadness, and when the last speaker had exhausted +his passion and his eloquence, and the President asked him to reply, he +got up and said in slow but grave and very clear tones: + +"I have no reply to make to what I have heard, save to say that I have +heard with infinite sorrow from the lips of clergymen of every +denomination and shade of opinion a series of statements which not one +of them could justify from the teachings of Him who preached the Sermon +on the Mount. There is no other criterion of Christian faith and +doctrine than is to be found in the New Testament, and from the first +verse in the Gospel according to St. Matthew to the last in Revelations +there is not one word which contradicts what I have spoken, or which +supports what they have said. + +"That is a serious thing to say, but I say it with full knowledge and +with perfect faith. I mean no personal offence. That would of course be +impossible under the circumstances; but it is also quite impossible for +me, after saying what I have said here and elsewhere, to argue seriously +with those who are by profession teachers and preachers of the +revelation of Jesus Christ--of the message of God to man by God +incarnate in the flesh--and who are yet able to reconcile in their own +souls the sayings of Jesus of Nazareth and the doings of twentieth +century Christianity. We have heard the words infidel and infidelity +used many times to-night. There is no infidelity in honest unbelief; +and, sorrowfully as I say it, I still feel it my duty to say it, that +there is more real infidelity inside the churches than there is outside, +for the worst and most damnable of all infidelities is that which says +with its lips 'Lord, Lord,' and does not with its heart and its hands do +that which He saith." + +There was a little silence, a silence of astonishment on the one part of +the audience and of absolute stupefaction on the part of the other. Then +the storm of applause broke out once more, but there was no hissing +mingled with it this time. About a score of black-clad figures rose pale +and silent amidst the cheering throng and walked out. Their example was +followed by most of the West End Christians, including her ladyship of +Canore and her husband and daughters, whose curiosity had been more than +amply satisfied. The cheers changed from enthusiasm to irony as the +irregular procession moved towards the doors, and an irreverent +Secularist at the back of the hall jumped on his seat and shouted, with +an unmistakable Old Street accent: + +"Got a bit more than you came for, eh? Hope you've enjoyed your lordly +selves. Don't forget to say your prayers to-night. You want a lot of +converting before _you'll_ be Christians. I've 'alf a mind to put up one +for you to-night myself, blowed if I 'aven't." + +Then the applause changed to laughter, hearty and good-humoured, and +when the President had proposed the usual vote of thanks to the +lecturer, and Vane had accepted his invitation to give a series of +addresses at the halls of the Society throughout the country, the most +memorable meeting on record at the Hall of Science came to an end. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV. + + +The next Sunday, Vane, the Mayfair Missionary, as one of the evening +papers had called him, preached at St. Chrysostom, and took for his +text: + + "Art thou a master of Israel and knowest not these things." + +During the week, the storm of indignation against him had been growing +both in strength and violence, and a movement was already on foot to +arraign him before the Ecclesiastical Courts on charges of heresy and +unbelief, and of bringing the priesthood into contempt by publicly +associating himself as a priest with the avowed enemies of the Church. + +The church was, of course, crowded, but the congregation was composed of +very different elements from those which had made up his congregation a +fortnight before. There were many of its richest members there, but they +did not come in their carriages. Many others had come in trains or +'busses, or had walked from Mile End and Bethnal Green to hear the words +of the new prophet; and scores of these had not seen the inside of a +church for years, or ever dreamt of listening with anything like respect +to a sermon from a Christian pulpit, yet none were more respectful and +attentive than these infidels and heretics whose respectful attention +and new-awakened reverence were the first fruits of Vane's mission +harvest. + +His sermon was a direct and uncompromising reply to the challenge to +prove that he was worthy to wear the cloth of the priesthood, and when +it was over, his hearers, the believers and unbelievers alike, had been +driven to the conviction, unpleasant as it was to some of them, that if +the preacher had drawn his conclusions right from the words of Christ +and his Apostles, it was absolutely certain that neither churches or +churchmen, whatever their form of doctrine might be, could at the same +time be wealthy and powerful in the worldly sense, and remain anything +more than nominal Christians. + +After the sermon Vane assisted Father Baldwin in the administration of +the Sacrament, and Carol and Rayburn took the elements from his hands; +Carol for the first time in her life, and Rayburn for the first time +since he had reached manhood. It was for them the consecration of their +new love and the new life which was to begin next day. + +Dora, who had been present at the service and had remained through the +communion, had, greatly to the surprise of every one, and even to the +sorrow of Carol and Vane, refused steadily to partake. She would give no +reason, and therefore Carol quite correctly concluded that she had some +very sufficient one. + +At ten the next morning, Vane married Carol and Rayburn. The ceremony +was as simple as the forms of the Church allowed, and absolutely +private. Sir Arthur gave Carol away, and Ernshaw acted as Rayburn's +best man. The only others present were Father Baldwin and Dora, and a +few of the usual idlers to whom a wedding of any sort is an irresistible +attraction, and who had no notion of the strangeness of the wooing and +the winning, or of the depth of the life-tragedy which was being brought +to such a happy ending in such simple fashion. + +The only guests at the marriage-feast were Dora, Ernshaw, and Vane. It +was just a family party, as Sir Arthur called it, so the bride and +bridegroom were spared the giving and receiving of speeches. Never did a +greater change take place in a girl's life more simply and more quietly +than this tremendous, almost incredible change which took place in +Carol's, when, from being a nameless outcast beyond the pale of what is +more or less correctly termed respectable society, she became the wife +of a man who had wooed, and won her under such strange circumstances, +yet knowing everything, and the mistress of millions to boot. + +When the brougham that was to take them to the station drew up at the +door, Rayburn put his hand on Vane's arm, and led him to the study. + +"Maxwell," he said, as he shut the door, "I have done the best thing +to-day that a man can do. I have got a good wife, and----" + +"You have done a great deal more than that, Rayburn," said Vane, +"infinitely more. I needn't tell you what it is, but if ever God and his +holy Saints looked down with blessing on the union of man and woman, +they did upon your marriage to-day." + +"I see what you mean," said Rayburn, "and for Carol's sake, I hope so +with all my heart. Now, look here," he went on, in an altered tone, +taking an envelope out of his pocket, "you know that I don't find myself +able to believe with you on this question of the possession of wealth. +Perhaps I have got too much of it to be able to do so; but what I have, +I know Carol will help me to use better than I could use it myself. It +is the usual thing, I believe, for a man who has just taken a wife unto +himself, to make a thank-offering to the Church. Here is mine, and it is +not only mine, but hers, for we had a talk about it yesterday. Open it +when we have gone. And now, good-bye, brother Vane, and God speed you in +your good work!" + +When the last good-byes had been said, and the last kisses and +handshakes exchanged, and the carriage had driven away, Vane went alone +into the study, and opened the envelope. It contained a note in Carol's +writing, and a cheque. The note ran thus: + + "MY DEAREST BROTHER, + + "The enclosed is the result of a talk I had with Cecil last night, + he also had one with Mr. Ernshaw, and I had one with Dora. I should + like it to be used, under your direction, for the good of those who + are as I was, but have not been so blest with such good fortune as + I have been. + + "Ever your most loving and grateful sister, + "CAROL." + +The cheque was for twenty thousand pounds. + +Vane could scarcely believe his eyes when he looked at the five figures. +Then, when he had grasped the meaning of them, he murmured: + +"God bless them both; they have made a good beginning," and went back +to join the others in the dining-room. + +He had a long talk with Ernshaw that afternoon, and they decided to bank +the money in their joint name, Ernshaw absolutely refusing to have it in +his name alone, as the cheque had been given to Vane, and towards the +end of the talk Ernshaw said: + +"I am glad to say that I should not be very much surprised now if what +your father said a couple of years ago were to come true. In fact, I +have broached the subject already very gently and circumspectly, of +course, but she absolutely refuses even to consider the matter for at +least a year. Still, she did it so gently and so sweetly that I don't by +any means despair; and that girl, Maxwell, will make as good a wife as a +parson ever had, and a better one than a good many have. She has given +me my life-work, too. You are going to try and redeem the rich, or, at +least, to show them the way of redemption. I, with God's help, and hers, +am going to try and show a way of redemption to those who have lost +everything, and this money of Rayburn's will give us a magnificent +start, if you will agree with me that it will be devoted to it." + +"Of course, it must be," said Vane, "there can't be any doubt about +that. Miss Russell will naturally be at the head of the work, I suppose, +and the first thing we ought to do, I think, is to get an establishment +for her, and let her start as soon as may be. I suppose you have talked +it over with her already?" + +"Oh, yes," replied Ernshaw, "and she is more than delighted with the +idea." + +"I am glad to hear it," said Vane, "no one could possibly do the work +better. Ernshaw, old man," he went on, more gravely, "I'm afraid for +myself that with a helper, and, I hope, some day a help-meet like Miss +Russell, you will have a good deal more chance of success in your work +than I shall in mine." + +"That, my dear fellow," replied Ernshaw, "is in other hands than ours. +There lies the work to our hands, and all we have got to do is to do it. +By the way, as far as mine is concerned, I hope you will help me to +persuade your father to take a share in it." + +"I am perfectly certain he will," said Vane; "the fact that Carol +suggested it will be quite enough for that." + +"Then if he does, by the time you come back from your first crusade, I +think you will find things getting pretty well into order." + +"I'm sure I shall," said Vane. + +But it was already written that this crusade was not to begin until many +other things had happened. That evening at dinner Sir Arthur said: + +"Vane, I had a note from Sir Reginald this afternoon asking me to run +down to the Abbey for a few days, and then join them at Cowes. You are +included in the invitation, but, of course, you wouldn't go to Cowes, +and I don't think I shall, the work here will be very much more +interesting; but I thought perhaps you might like to run down to the +Abbey and see Father Philip before you start on your mission. Garthorne +and Enid are there, and her father and mother are going. It wouldn't be +a bad opportunity to tell the family party the good news about Carol." + +"Oh, yes," said Vane, "I should like that, immensely; in fact, I've been +thinking already that if Father Baldwin agrees with me that before I do +make a start on my mission to Midas, as my friend, Reed, called it the +other day, the best thing I could do would be to spend a day or two at +the Retreat, and go into the matter thoroughly with Father Philip." + +While he was speaking, Ernshaw noticed that Dora turned deadly pale. +When dinner was over Sir Arthur announced that he was going round for an +hour to see Sir Godfrey Raleigh on a little Indian business. Dora felt +now that her opportunity had come. It was a terrible thing to do, and +yet, all things considered, present, and to come, she felt that it was +her plain duty to do it, and not to permit this ghastly deception to go +on any longer. Her soul revolted at the thought of Sir Arthur and Vane, +Carol's half-brother, going to the Abbey and being received as friends +by Sir Reginald Garthorne. Knowing what she did, it seemed to her too +hideous to be thought of, and so when Vane asked jestingly what they +were going to do to amuse themselves, she got up, looking very white, +and said, in a voice that had a note almost of terror in it: + +"Mr. Maxwell, there is something I want to say to you; something that I +must say to you. I cannot say it to you and Mr. Ernshaw together; it is +bad enough to say it even to you, but when I have said it, you will be +able to talk it over and try what is best to be done. I want to tell it +to you first, because it concerns you most." + +"By all means," said Vane, looking at her with wonder in his eyes, "come +into the library. Ernshaw, I know, will excuse us; put on a pipe, and +get yourself some whiskey and soda. Now, Miss Russell," he said, as he +opened the door for her, "I'm at your service." + +They left the room, and Ernshaw lit his pipe and sat down to speculate +as to the cause of Dora's somewhat singular request, but fifteen minutes +had not passed before the door was thrown open, and she came in white to +the lips and shaking from head to foot, and said: + +"Mr. Ernshaw, come, please, quick. Mr. Maxwell is ill, in a fit, I +think. I have had to tell him something very dreadful, and it has been +too much for him." + +Ernshaw jumped up without a word and ran into the library. Vane was +lying in a low armchair and half on the floor, his body rigid, his hands +clenched, his eyes wide open and sightless, and a slight creamy froth +was streaked round his lips. + +"A fit!" said Ernshaw. "You must have given him some terrible shock. Run +and fetch Koda Bux and we will get him to bed; then tell a servant to go +for Doctor Allison; we will have him round all right before Sir Arthur +comes back." + +In a couple of minutes Vane was on his bed, and Koda Bux had opened his +teeth and was dropping drop by drop, a green, syrupy fluid into his +mouth, while Ernshaw was getting his boots off ready for the hot-water +bottle that the housekeeper was preparing. By the time the Doctor had +arrived, Koda Bux's elixir had already done its work. His eyes had +closed and opened again with a look of recognition in them, his jaws had +relaxed and his limbs were loosening. The Doctor listened to what +Ernshaw had said while he was feeling his almost imperceptible pulse and +Koda was wrapping his feet up in a blanket with a hot-water bottle. + +"Yes, I see," said the Doctor, "intensely nervous, high-strung +temperament, just what we should expect Mr. Vane Maxwell to be now. + +"A very great mental shock and a fit. No, not epileptic, epileptoid, +perhaps. Did you say that this man gave him something which brought him +round? One of those Indian remedies, I suppose--very wonderful. I wish +we knew how to make them. I suppose you won't tell us what it is, my +man?" + +Koda Bux's stiff moustache moved as though there were a smile under it, +and he bowed his head and said: + +"Sahib, it is not permitted; but by to-morrow the son of my master shall +be well, for he is my father and my mother, and my life is his." + +"I thought so," laughed the Doctor, who was an old friend of Sir +Arthur's. "I know you, Koda Bux, and I think I can trust you. I'll look +in again in a couple of hours, Mr. Ernshaw, just to see that everything +is right, but I don't think that I shall be wanted." + +When the Doctor left Koda Bux took charge of the patient as a right, and +when they got back into the dining-room, Dora said after a short and +somewhat awkward silence: + +"Mr. Ernshaw, after what has happened, I suppose it is only fair that I +should tell you what I told Mr. Maxwell, because when he gets better, of +course, he will talk it over with you, which is very dreadful, almost +incredible. I promised Carol that I should not say anything about it +until she was out of England. Of course, she told Mr. Rayburn; she +wouldn't marry him until he knew the whole story, and so I'm not +breaking any confidence in telling you." + +"Yes," he said, "I can fully understand that. And now, what is it? It is +just as well that we should all know before Sir Arthur comes back, if I +am to have any share in it." + +"Of course, you must have," she said, almost passionately. "You could +not remain Mr. Maxwell's friend and help him in the work you are going +to do if you did not know, and I had better tell you before Sir Arthur +comes back, so that you can think what is best to be done." + +"Very well; tell me, please." + +And she told him the whole miserable, pitiful, terrible story as she had +heard it from Carol from beginning to end. When she reached the part +about the flat in Densmore Gardens, his face whitened and his jaws came +together, and he muttered through his teeth: + +"Very awful; but, of course, they didn't know. The sins of the fathers! +I am afraid Sir Reginald will have a very terrible confession to make. +It is difficult to believe that a human being could be guilty of such +infamy." + +"Still I'm afraid there is no doubt about it," said Dora. "But what's to +be done? Mr. Maxwell will never let his father go to the Abbey now +without telling him what I have told you, and when he knows--no, I +daren't think about it. And poor Mrs. Garthorne, too; she married Mr. +Garthorne in all innocence, although I still believe she would rather +have married Mr. Maxwell. What would happen to her if she knew?" + +"She would go mad, I believe," said Ernshaw. "It would be the most +terrible thing that a woman in her position could learn. We can only +hope that she shall never learn. If she ever does, God help her!" + +"Yes," said Dora. "And yet, what is to happen? How can she help knowing +in the end? It must come out some time, you know." + +"Yes, I am afraid it must," said Ernshaw, "but still, sufficient unto +the day; we shall do no good by anticipating that. We may as well leave +it, as the old Greeks used to say, on the knees of the gods." + +And meanwhile the gods were working it out in their own way, using Koda +Bux as their instrument. Vane had gone to sleep after a second dose of +the drug which had brought him out of his fit, and, as the keen Oriental +intellect of Koda Bux had more than half expected, perhaps intended, he +soon began to talk quite reasonably and connectedly in his sleep, and so +it came to pass that a mystery which had puzzled Koda Bux for many a +long year was revealed to him. + +When the Doctor came Vane was sleeping quietly, and, while he was +examining him, Sir Arthur arrived, and was told that he had been taken +ill shortly after dinner, and this the Doctor explained was probably due +to the very severe mental strain to which he had subjected himself +during the last week or so. He went up to his room and found Koda Bux on +guard. Koda salaamed and said: + +"Protector of the poor, it is well! To-morrow Vane Sahib shall be well, +but now he must sleep." + +"Very well, Koda Bux," replied Sir Arthur. "I know he can have no better +nurse than you, and you will watch." + +"Yes, sahib, I will watch as long as it is necessary." + +Then Sir Arthur went downstairs to hear from Ernshaw and Dora the now +inevitable story of the sin of the man who had been his friend for more +than a lifetime. He heard it as a man who knew much of men and women +could and should hear such a story--in silence; and then, saying a quiet +good-night to them, he went up to his room to have it out with himself +just as he had done on that other terrible night when he had found Vane +drunk on the hearth-rug in the Den, and had recognised that he had +inherited from his mother the fatal taint of alcoholic insanity. + +When he awoke the next morning, after a few hours' sleep, Koda Bux was +not there to prepare his bath and lay out his clean linen. It was the +first time that it had happened for nearly twenty years, and it was not +until Sir Arthur came downstairs that he heard the reason. Koda Bux had +vanished. No one knew when or how he had gone, but he had gone, leaving +no sign or trace behind him. + +"Vane," said Sir Arthur, as soon as the truth dawned upon him, "we must +go down to Worcester at once. I know where Koda Bux has gone, and what +he has gone to do. Garthorne's crime was vile enough, God knows, but we +mustn't let murder be done if we can possibly help it. Ah, there's an +ABC, Vane, just see which train he can have got to Kidderminster. I know +the next one is 9.50, which we can just catch when we have had a +mouthful of breakfast; that's a fast one, too; at least, fairly fast; +gets there about half past one." + +"5.40, arriving 12.15, 6.30 arriving 12.20," said Vane, reading from the +time-table. + +"In any case, I am afraid he has more than an hour's start of us at +Kidderminster. We can reduce that by taking a carriage to the Abbey +because he would walk, and, of course, he may not, probably will not, be +able to see Garthorne immediately, so we may be in time after all. Vane, +do you feel strong enough to come?" + +"Of course I do, dad," he replied. "As long as I could stand I would +come." + +"And may I come, too, Sir Arthur?" said Dora. + +"You, Miss Russell!" he exclaimed, "but why? Surely there is no need +for us to ask you to witness such a painful scene as this, of course, +must be." + +"I am Carol's friend, Sir Arthur," said Dora, "and I think it only right +to do all that I can do to prove that her story is true. I have got the +photographs, and I know the marks by which Sir Reginald can be +identified. If we are not too late, such a man will, of course, answer +you with a flat denial, but if I am there I don't think he can." + +"Very well," said Sir Arthur. "It is very kind of you, and, of course, +you can help us a great deal if you will." + +"And, of course, I will," she said. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV. + + +Koda Bux, dressed in half-European costume, had taken the 5.40 newspaper +train from Paddington to Kidderminster. He had been several times at +Garthorne Abbey in attendance on Sir Arthur, and so he decided to carry +out his purpose in the boldest, and therefore, possibly, the easiest and +the safest way. He was, of course, well known to the servants as the +devoted and confidential henchman of his master, and so he would not +have the slightest difficulty in obtaining access to Sir Reginald. He +walked boldly up the drive, intending to say that he had a letter of +great importance which his master had ordered him to place in Sir +Reginald's hand. Sir Reginald would see him alone in one of the rooms, +and then a cast of the roomal over his head, a pull and a wrench--and +justice would be done. + +Koda Bux knew quite enough of English law to be well aware that it had +no adequate punishment for the terrible crime that Sir Reginald had +committed--a crime made a thousand times worse by deception of half a +lifetime. + +According to his simple Pathan code of religion and morals there was +only one proper penalty for the betrayal of a friend's honour and his, +Koda Bux's, was even more jealous of his master's honour than he was of +his own, for he had eaten his salt and had sheltered under his roof for +many a long year, and if the law would not punish his enemy, he would. +For his own life he cared nothing in comparison with the honour of his +master's house, and so how could he serve him better than by giving it +for that of his master's enemy? + +It was after lunch-time when he reached the Abbey. Sir Reginald had, in +fact, just finished lunch and had gone into the library to write some +letters for the afternoon post, when the footman came to tell him that +Sir Arthur Maxwell's servant had just come from London with an urgent +message from his master. + +"Dear me," said Sir Reginald, looking up, "that is very strange! Why +couldn't he have written or telegraphed? It must be something very +serious, I am afraid. Ah--yes, Ambrose, tell him to sit down in the +hall, I'll see him in a few minutes." + +The door closed, and, as it did so, out of the black, long, buried past +there came a pale flash of rising fear. + +Sir Reginald was one of those men who have practically no thought or +feeling outside the circle of their own desires and ambitions. He had +lived on good terms with his fellow men, not out of any respect for +them, but simply because it was more convenient and comfortable for +himself. He had committed the worst of crimes against his friend, Sir +Arthur Maxwell, in perfect callousness, simply because the woman Maxwell +had married and inspired him with the only passion, the only enthusiasm +of which he was capable. He had never felt a single pang of remorse for +it. The sinner who sins through absolute selfishness as he had done +never does. In fact, his only uncomfortable feeling in connection with +the whole affair had been the fear of discovery, and that, as the years +had gone on, had died away until it had become only an evil memory to +him. And yet, why did Koda Bux, the man who had so nearly discovered his +infamy twenty-two years ago, come here alone to the Abbey to-day? + +Ah, yes, to-day! A diary lay open on the writing-table before him. The +28th of June. The very day--but that of course was merely a coincidence. +Well, he would hear what Koda Bux had to say. He signed a letter, put it +into an envelope, and addressed it. Then he touched the bell. Ambrose +appeared, and he said: + +"You can show the man in now." + +"Very good, Sir Reginald," replied the man, and vanished. + +A few moments later the door opened again and Koda Bux came in, looked +at Sir Reginald for a few moments straight in the eyes, and then +salaamed with subtle oriental humility. + +"May my face be bright in your eyes, protector of the poor and husband +of the widow!" he said, as he raised himself erect again. "I have +brought a message from my master." + +"Well, Koda Bux," said Sir Reginald, a trifle uneasily, for he didn't +quite like the extreme gravity with which the Pathan spoke. + +"I suppose it must be something important and confidential, if he has +sent you here instead of writing or telegraphing. Of course, you have a +letter from him?" + +"No, Sahib," replied Koda Bux, fingering at a blue silk handkerchief +that was tucked into his waist-band. "The message was of too great +importance to be trusted to a letter which might be lost, and so my +master trusted it to the soul of his servant." + +"That's rather a strange way for one gentleman to send a message to +another in this country and in these days, Koda Bux," said Sir Reginald, +getting up from his chair at the writing-table and moving towards the +bell. + +Instantly, with a swift sinuous movement, Koda Bux had passed before the +fireplace and put himself between Sir Reginald and the bell. + +"The Sahib will not call his servants until he has heard the message," +he said, not in the cringing tone of the servant, but in the +straight-spoken words of the soldier. Meanwhile, the fingers of his left +hand were almost imperceptibly drawing the blue handkerchief out of his +girdle. + +Sir Reginald saw this, and a sudden fear streamed into his soul. His own +Indian experience told him that this man might be a Thug, and that if +so, a little roll of blue silk would be a swifter, deadlier, and more +untraceable weapon than knife or poison, and his thoughts went back to +the 28th of June, twenty-two years before. + +"I am not going to be spoken to like that in my own house and by a +nigger!" he exclaimed, seeking to cover his fear by a show of anger. "I +don't believe in you or your message. If you have a letter from your +master, give it to me, if you haven't, I shan't listen to you. What +right have you to come here into my library pretending to have a message +from your master, when you haven't even a letter, or his card, or one +written word from him?" + +"Illustrious," said Koda Bux, with a sudden change of manner, salaaming +low and moving backwards towards the door, "the slave of my master +forgot himself in the urgency of his message, which my lord, his friend, +has not yet heard." + +There was an almost imperceptible emphasis on the word "friend" which +sent a little shiver through such rudiments of soul as Sir Reginald +possessed. He said roughly: + +"Very well, then, if you have brought a message what is it? I can't +waste half the morning with you." + +"The message is short, Sahib," replied Koda Bux, salaaming again, and +moving a little nearer towards the door. "I am to ask you what you did +at Simla two-and-twenty years ago this night--what you have done with +the Mem Sahib who was faithful to my lord's honour when you, dog and son +of a dog, betrayed it--and what has become of her daughter and yours? +Oh, cursed of the gods, thou knowest these things as thou knowest the +two marks of the African spear on thy left arm--but thou dost not know +the depth of infamy which thy sin dug for thine own son to fall into." + +As he was saying this Koda Bux backed close to the door, locked it +behind him, and took the key out. + +Bad as he was, the last words of Koda Bux hit Sir Reginald harder even +than the others. His son, the heir to his name and fortune, what had he +to do with that old sin of his committed before he was born? + +"You must be mad or opium-drunk, Koda Bux," he whispered hoarsely, "to +talk like that. Yes, it is the 28th of June, and I have two spear marks +on my arm--but I am rich, I can make you a prince in your own land. +Come, you know something about me. That is why you came here; but what +has my son Reginald to do with it? If I have sinned, what is that to +him?" + +"In the book of the God of the Christians," said Koda Bux, very slowly, +and approaching him with an almost hypnotic stare in his eyes, "in that +book it is written that the chief God of the Christians will visit the +sins of the fathers upon the children. This woman bore you a daughter; +your lawful wife bore you a son. The woman who was once the wife of +Maxwell Sahib was a drunkard, and now she's a mad-woman. Your own wife +bore you a son, and in London your daughter and your son, not knowing +each other, came together. Your daughter was what the good English call +an outcast, and, knowing nothing of your sin, they lived--" + +"God in heaven! can that be true?" murmured Sir Reginald, sinking back +against the mantel-piece just as he was going-to pull the bell. + +"No, it can't be! Koda Bux, you are lying; no such horrible thing as +that could be." + +"My gods are not thine, if thou hast any, oh, unsainted one!" said Koda +Bux, "but, like the gods of the Christians, they can avenge when the cup +of sin is full. Yes, it is true. Your son and your daughter--your son, +who is now married to her who should have been the wife of Vane Sahib. +There is no doubt, and it can be proved. But that is only a part of your +punishment, destroyer of happiness and afflictor of many lives. That is +a thought which thou wilt take to Hell with thee, and it shall eat into +thy soul for ever and ever, and when I have sent thee to Hell I will +tell thy son and the woman he stole from Vane Sahib when he persuaded +him to take strong drink that morning at the college of Oxford. Yes, I +have heard it all. I, who am only a nigger! Dog and son of a dog, is not +thy soul blacker than my skin? And now the hour has struck. Thy breath +is already in thy mouth!" + +Koda Bux snatched the handkerchief from his waist-band and began to +creep towards him, his Beard and moustache bristling like the back of a +tiger, and his big, fierce eyes gleaming red. Sir Reginald knew that if +he once got within throwing distance of that fatal strip of silk he +would be dead in an instant without a sound. He made a despairing spring +for the bell-rope, grasped it, and dragged it from its connection. + +At the same moment there was a peal at the hall bell, followed by a +thunderous knocking. Enid, who was in the morning-room with her husband, +saw a two-horsed carriage come up the drive at a gallop, and the moment +it had stopped Vane jumped out and rang and knocked. Then out of the +carriage came Sir Arthur and a lady whom she had never seen before, but +whom Garthorne, looking over her shoulder out of the window, recognised +only too quickly. + +"What on earth can Sir Arthur and Vane have come for in such a hurry as +that!" she exclaimed. "Why, it might be a matter of life and death, and +only such a short time after dear old Koda Bux, too. What can be the +matter, Reginald?" + +But Garthorne had already left the room, his heart shaking with +apprehension. He ran up into the hall to open the door before one of the +servants could do it. + +"Ah, Sir Arthur, Vane--and Miss Russell--I believe it is----" + +"Yes, Mr. Garthorne," said Sir Arthur coldly but quickly, as they +entered the hall. "We have come to stop a murder if we can. I hope we +are in time. Where is your father, and has Koda Bux been here?" + +"Koda Bux has been in the library with my father for about half-an-hour, +I believe," said Reginald. "What is the matter?" + +"It is a matter of life or death," answered Vane, looking at him with +burning eyes and speaking with twitching lips. "Perhaps something worse +even than that. Where are they?--quick, or we shall be too late!" + +"They are in the library," said Garthorne, as Enid came running out of +the morning-room, saying: + +"Oh, Sir Arthur and Vane, good morning! How are you? What a very sudden +visit. I knew Sir Reginald asked you, but----" + +"Never mind about that now, Enid," said Garthorne almost roughly. "Come +along, Sir Arthur, this is the library." + +He crossed the great hall, and went down one of the corridors leading +from it, and the footman was already at one of the doors trying to open +it. It was locked. Garthorne hammered on it with his fists and shouted, +but there was no reply. + +"I heard the library bell ring, sir," said Ambrose, "just as the front +door bell went--after that Indian person had been with Sir Reginald some +time." + +"Never mind about that," said Garthorne; "run round to the windows, and +if any of them are open get in and unlock the door." + +But before he had reached the hall door the library door was thrown +open. Koda Bux salaamed, and, pointing to the lifeless shape of Sir +Reginald, lying on the hearth-rug, he said to Sir Arthur: + +"Protector of the poor, justice has been done. The enemy of thy house is +dead. Before he died he confessed his sin. Has not thy servant done +rightly?" + +"You have done murder, Koda Bux," said Sir Arthur sternly, pushing him +aside and going to where Sir Reginald lay. He tried to lift him, but it +was no use. There was the mark of the roomal round his neck, the staring +eyes and the half-protruding tongue. Justice, from Koda Bux's point of +view, had been done. There was nothing more to do but to have him +carried up to his room and send for the police. Garthorne gripped hold +of Koda Bux, and called to one of the servants for a rope to tie him up +until the police came, but the Pathan twisted himself free with scarcely +an effort. + +"There is no need for that, Sahib; I shall not run away," said Koda Bux, +drawing himself up and saluting Sir Arthur for the last time. "I came +here to give my life for the one I have taken, so that justice might be +done, and I have done it. In the next worlds and in the next lives we +may meet again, and then you will know that neither did I kill your +father nor die myself without good cause. Of the rest the gods will +judge." + +He made a movement with his jaws and crunched something between his +teeth. They saw a movement of swallowing in his throat. A swift spasm +passed over his features; his limbs stiffened into rigidity, and as he +stood before them so he fell, as a wooden image might have done. And so +died Koda Bux the Pathan, loyal avenger of his master's honour. + +For a few moments there was silence--every tongue chained, every eye +fixed by the sudden horror of the situation. Garthorne, roused by fear +and anger, for a swift instinct told him that Dora had not come to the +Abbey for nothing, was able to speak first. He was Sir Reginald now--but +why, and how? When a man of this nature is very frightened, he often +takes refuge in rage, and that is what Garthorne did. He turned on Sir +Arthur and Vane, his hands clenched, and his lips drawn back from his +teeth, and said, in a voice which Enid had never heard from him before: + +"What does all this mean, Sir Arthur? My father murdered in his own +house; his murderer tells you that he has 'done justice,' and avenged +your honour--then poisons himself. If any wrong has been done, how did +that nigger servant of yours get to know of it? Why should he have been +let loose to murder my father? If you had anything against him, why +didn't you charge him with it yourself, as a man and gentleman should? +You must have been in it the whole lot of you or you wouldn't have been +here! + +"But, perhaps," he went on, with a sudden change of tone, "you would +rather tell the police when they come; there must be some reason, I +suppose, for your bringing that woman, a common prostitute, into my +house, and into the presence of my wife." + +"Oh, you fool, you hypocrite, you have asked for the punishment of your +sin, and you shall have it!" + +Dora had taken a couple of strides towards him, and faced him--cheeks +blazing, and eyes flaming. + +"Prostitute! yes, I was; but how do _you_ know it? Because you lived in +the same house with me. Yes, up to the very week of your wedding, with +me and that man's daughter. You have asked why he was killed. He was +killed righteously, because he wasn't fit to live. No, you didn't know +that then, and so far you are innocent; but you are guilty of a crime +nearly as great. Your father stole Carol's mother from her husband; you +stole your wife from the man she loved and would have married but for +you. + +"It was _you_ who made Vane Maxwell drunk that morning at Oxford, in the +hope of wrecking his career. You didn't do that, but you gained your end +all the same, and your sin is just as great. How do I know this--how do +_we_ know it? I will tell you. Carol Vane, Mr. Maxwell's sister, _and +yours_, went to your wedding. Carol recognised him as her father. Look, +there is his photograph taken with her, when Carol was ten years old. If +you don't believe that, look at his left arm, and you will find two +spear stabs on it, and if that is not enough, I can bring police +evidence from France to prove that he committed the crime for which he +has died, and now, you--son of a seducer, libertine and thief of another +man's love--you have got your answer and your punishment!" + +Dora's words, spoken in a moment of rare, but ungovernable passion, had +leaped from her lips in such a fast and furious torrent of denunciation, +that before the first few moments of the horror she had caused were +passed, she had done. + +Enid heard her to the end, her voice sounding ever farther and farther +away, until at last it died out into a faint hum and then a silence. +Vane ran to her, and caught her just as she was swaying before she fell, +and carried her to a sofa. It was the first time he had held her in his +arms since he had had a lover's right to do so, and all the man-soul in +him rose in a desperate revolt of love and pity against the coldly +calculating villainy of the man who had used the vilest of means to rob +him of his love. + +The moment he had laid her on the sofa, Dora was at her side, loosening +the high collar of her dress and rubbing her hands. Garthorne, crushed +into silence by the terrible vehemence of Dora's accusation, had dropped +into an armchair close by his father's body. Sir Arthur, half-dazed with +the horror of it all, threw open the door with a vague idea of getting +into the fresh air out of that room of death. As he did so, the hall +door opened, and an Inspector of Police followed by two constables and a +gentleman in plain clothes entered. The sight of the uniformed +incarnation of the Law brought him back instantly to the realities of +the situation. The Inspector touched his cap, and said, briefly, and +with official precision: + +"Good morning, Sir Arthur. This is Dr. Saunders, the Coroner. I met him +on my way up from the village, and asked him to come with me. Very +dreadful case, Sir; but I hope the bodies have not been disturbed?" + +"Oh, no," said Sir Arthur, "they have not been touched, but Mrs. +Garthorne is lying in the same room in a faint. I suppose we may take +her out before you make your examination?" + +"Why, certainly, Sir Arthur," said the Coroner. "Of course, we will take +your word for that. But I believe Mr. Reginald Garthorne is at the +Abbey, is he not?" + +"Yes," replied Sir Arthur, in a changed tone, "he is there, in the +library, but of course--well, I mean--what has happened has affected him +terribly, and I don't think he will be able to give you very much +assistance at present. In fact, he is almost in a state of collapse +himself." + +"That is only natural, under the very painful circumstances," said the +Inspector, "please don't put him about at all, Sir Arthur. The last +thing we should wish would be to put the family to any inconvenience or +unpleasantness, and I am sure Dr. Saunders will arrange that the inquest +will be as private and quiet as possible." + +And so it was, but, somehow, the ghastly truth of it all leaked out, and +for a week after the inquest the horrible story of Sir Reginald's crime +and its consequences made sport of the daintiest kind for the readers +of the gutter rags, those microbes of journalism, which, like those of +cancer and consumption, can only live on the corruption or decay of the +body-corporate of Society. + +Only one name and one fact never came out, and that was due to Ernest +Reed's uncompromising declaration that he would shoot any man who said +anything in print about the identity of Carol Vane with the daughter of +Sir Reginald Garthorne's victim. He worked by telegraph and otherwise +for twenty-four hours on end, and the result was that his brother +pressmen all over the country, being mostly gentlemen, recognised the +chivalry of his attempt, and so chivalrously suppressed that part of the +truth. And so effectually was it suppressed, that it was not until about +a year afterwards that Mr. Ernest Reed found a rather difficult +matrimonial puzzle solved for him by the receipt of Mr. Cecil Rayburn's +cheque for a thousand pounds. + + + + +EPILOGUE. + + +A little more than a year had passed since the inquest on Sir Reginald +and Koda Bux. For Vane Maxwell, the Missionary to Midas, as every one +now called him, it had been a continued series of tribulations and +triumphs. From Land's End to John o' Groats, and from Cork Harbour to +Aberdeen he had preached the Gospel that he had found in the Sermon on +the Mount. He had, in truth, proved himself to be the Savonarola of the +twentieth century, not only in words, but also in the effects of his +teaching. + +He had asked tens and hundreds of thousands of professing Christians, +just as he had asked the congregation of St. Chrysostom, to choose +honestly between their creed and their wealth, to be honest, as he had +said then, with themselves or with God; to choose openly and in the face +of all men between the service of God and of Mammon. And his appeal had +been answered throughout the length and breadth of the land. + +Never since the days of John Wesley had there been such a re-awakening +of religious, really religious, feeling in the country. Just as the rich +Italians brought their treasures of gold and silver and jewels and +heaped them up under the pulpit of Savonarola in the market-places, so +hundreds of men and women of every social degree recognised the plain +fact that they could not be at the same time honestly rich and honestly +Christians, and so, instead of material treasure, they had sent their +cheques to Vane. + +Before the year was over he found himself nominally the richest man in +the United Kingdom. He had more than five millions sterling at his +absolute disposal, almost countless thousands of pounds given up for +conscience' sake because he had said that honest Christians could not +own them; and he and Father Philip, Father Baldwin and Ernshaw, having +given many hours and days of anxious consideration to the very pressing +question as to which was the best way of disposing of this suddenly, +and, as they all confessed, unexpectedly acquired wealth, decided to +devote it to the extirpation, so far as was possible in England, of that +Cancer in Christianity which Christians of the canting sort call the +Social Evil. + +As Jesus of Nazareth had said to the woman taken in adultery, "Go thou +and sin no more!" so the Missionary and his helpers said: + +"You have sinned more through necessity than choice, and the Society +which denies you redemption is a greater sinner than you, since it +drives you into deeper sin. There is no hope for you here. Civilization +has no place for you, save the streets or the 'homes,' which are, if +anything, more degrading than the streets. + +"Those who are willing to save themselves we will save so far as earthly +power can help you. We will give you homes where you will not be known, +where, perhaps, you may begin to lead a new life, where it may be that +you will become wives and mothers, as good as those who now, when they +pass you in the street, draw their skirts aside fearing lest they +should touch yours. And, if not that, at least we will save you from the +horrible necessity of keeping alive, by living a life of degradation." + +The foregoing paragraphs are, to all intents and purposes, a precis of a +charter of release to the inhabitants of the twentieth century Christian +Inferno which was drawn up by Dora Russell the day before she yielded to +Ernshaw's year-long wooing, and consented to be his helpmeet as well as +his helper. + +It was scattered broadcast in hundreds of thousands all over the +country. Storms of protest burst forth from all the citadels of +orthodoxy and respectability. It seemed monstrous that these women, who +had so far defied all the efforts of official Christianity to redeem +them, should be bribed--as many put it--bribed back into the way of +virtue, if that were possible, with the millions which had been coaxed +out of the pockets of sentimental Christians by this Mad Missionary of +Mayfair--as one of the smartest of Society journals had named him. + +But, for all that, the Mad Missionary said very quietly to Ernshaw a few +hours before he intended to marry him to Dora: + +"These good Christians, as they think themselves, are wofully wrong. It +seems absolutely impossible to get them to see this matter in its proper +perspective. They can't or won't see that in ninety-nine cases out of a +hundred it is one of absolute necessity--the choice between that and +misery and starvation. They don't see that this accursed commercial +system of ours condemns thousands of girls----" + +"Yes," interrupted Dora, "I know what you are going to say. I was a +shop-girl myself once, a slave, a machine that was not allowed to have +a will or even a soul of its own, and I----" + +Before she could go on, the door of the Den at Warwick Gardens--where +the conversation had taken place--opened, and Sir Arthur came in with +some letters in his hands. + +"I just met the postman on the doorstep," he said, "and he gave me +these. + +"Here's one for you, Vane. There's one for me, and one for Miss +Russell--almost the last time I shall call you that, Miss Dora, eh?" + +Vane tore his envelope open first. As he unfolded a sheet of note-paper, +a cheque dropped out. The letter was in Carol's handwriting. His eye ran +over the first few lines, and he said: + +"Good news! Rayburn and Carol are coming home next week and bringing a +fine boy with them--at least, that is what the fond mother +says--and--eh?--Rayburn has made another half million out there, and, +just look, Ernshaw--yes, it is--a cheque for a hundred thousand pounds, +to be used, as she says here in the postscript, 'as before.'" + +"Oh, I'm so glad," exclaimed Dora, as she was opening her own envelope. +"Fancy having Carol back again. Mark, I won't marry you till she comes. +You must put everything off. I won't hear of it and--oh--look!" she went +on, after a little pause, "Sir Arthur, read that, please. Isn't it +awful?" + +"The mills of God grind slowly but they grind exceeding small," said Sir +Arthur when he had looked over the sheet of note-paper. "Shall I read +it, Miss Russell?" + +Dora nodded, and he read aloud: + +"I have just heard that my husband, whom, as you know, I have not seen +since that terrible day at the Abbey, has died in a fit of delirium +tremens. The lawyers tell me that everything will be mine. If so, +Garthorne Abbey shall go back to the Church if Vane will take it, and if +you will let me come and help you in your work." + +"Thank God!" said Sir Arthur, as he gave the letter back, "not for his +death, for that was, after all that we have heard, inevitable; but for +what Enid has done. Vane, she is your latest and, perhaps, after all, +your worthiest convert. And now, what's this?" + +He tore open his own envelope, which was addressed in the handwriting of +one of his solicitor's clerks. The letter was very brief and formal, but +before he had read it through his face turned grey under the bronze of +his skin. He passed it over to Vane, and left the room without a word. + +Vane looked at the few formal lines, and, as he folded the letter up +with trembling fingers, he said almost in a whisper: + +"The tragedy is over. My mother is dead." + + + + +THE END. + + + + + List of Popular Novels + Published by F. V. White & Co. 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By LUCAS CLEEVE. + AN UNCONGENIAL MARRIAGE. By COSMO CLARKE. + DOL SHACKFIELD. By HEBER K. DANIELS. + THE MAJOR-GENERAL. A Story of Modern Florence. By MONTGOMERY CARMICHAEL. + THE KING'S SECRET. By RICHARD HENRY SAVAGE. + WAR--AND ARCADIA. By BERTRAM MITFORD. + THE WORLD'S BLACKMAIL. By LUCAS CLEEVE. + THE LOVE OF TWO WOMEN. By JOHN JONES. + THE FLICK OF FORTUNE. By THOMAS PARKES. + LOVE'S GUERDON. By CONRAD H. CARRODER. + MIRIAM ROZELLA. By B. L. FARJEON. + MERELY PLAYERS. By Mrs. AYLMER GOWING. + THE EVOLUTION OF DAPHNE. By Mrs. ALEC MCMILLAN. + MISTRESS BRIDGET. By E. YOLLAND. + THE ATTACK ON THE FARM. By ANDREW W. ARNOLD. (Illustrated.) + THE BRIDE OF GOD. By CONRAD H. CARRODER. + ROMANCE OF THE LADY ARBELL. By ALASTOR GRAEME (MRS. F. T. MARRYAT). + BELLING THE CAT. By PERRINGTON PRIMM. + THE GODS SAW OTHERWISE. By F. H. MELL. + SAROLTA'S VERDICT. By E. YOLLAND. + + + + + Novels at Three Shillings and Sixpence. + In 1 Vol., Cloth Gilt, price 3/6 each. + + THE MARRIED MISS BINKS. 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CROSS. + + + + + SIXPENNY NOVELS. + COPYRIGHT SERIES. + + A NAME TO CONJURE WITH. By JOHN STRANGE WINTER. + WHOSO FINDETH A WIFE. By WILLIAM LE QUEUX. + THE SECRET OF THE DEAD. By L. T. MEADE. + AUNT JOHNNIE. By JOHN STRANGE WINTER. + STREET DUST. By OUIDA. + THE MEMOIRS OF AN INSPECTOR. By GEORGE GRIFFITH. + TURF TALES. By NATHANIEL GUBBINS. + STORIES WEIRD AND WONDERFUL. By HUME NISBET. + A SWEET SINNER. By HUME NISBET. + A RISE IN THE WORLD. By ADELINE SERGEANT. + IF SINNERS ENTICE THEE. By WILLIAM LE QUEUX. + THE BLACK DROP. By HUME NISBET. + BROTHERS OF THE CHAIN. By GEORGE GRIFFITH. + THE OTHER MAN'S WIFE. By JOHN STRANGE WINTER. + JOHN AMES, Native Commissioner. By BERTRAM MITFORD. + A MAGNIFICENT YOUNG MAN. By JOHN STRANGE WINTER. + BROUGHT TO BAY. By R. H. SAVAGE. + LITTLE MISS PRIM. By FLORENCE WARDEN. + THE JUSTICE OF REVENGE. By GEORGE GRIFFITH. + QUEEN SWEETHEART. By Mrs. C. N. WILLIAMSON. + IN WHITE RAIMENT. By WILLIAM LE QUEUX. + A BORN SOLDIER. 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