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ARCHER + + + + +THE GREAT HUNGER + + +Book I + + +Chapter I + + +For sheer havoc, there is no gale like a good northwester, when it +roars in, through the long winter evenings, driving the spindrift +before it between the rocky walls of the fjord. It churns the +water to a froth of rushing wave crests, while the boats along the +beach are flung in somersaults up to the doors of the grey fisher +huts, and solid old barn gangways are lifted and sent flying like +unwieldy birds over the fields. "Mercy on us!" cry the maids, for +it is milking-time, and they have to fight their way on hands and +knees across the yard to the cowshed, dragging a lantern that WILL +go out and a milk-pail that WON'T be held. And "Lord preserve us!" +mutter the old wives seated round the stove within doors--and their +thoughts are far away in the north with the Lofoten fishermen, out +at sea, maybe, this very night. + +But on a calm spring day, the fjord just steals in smooth and +shining by ness and bay. And at low water there is a whole +wonderland of strange little islands, sand-banks, and weed-fringed +rocks left high and dry, with clear pools between, where bare- +legged urchins splash about, and tiny flat-fish as big as a +halfpenny dart away to every side. The air is filled with a smell +of salt sea-water and warm, wet beach-waste, and the sea-pie, see- +sawing about on a big stone in the water, lifts his red beak +cheerily sunwards and pipes: "Kluip, kluip! the spring has come!" + +On just such a day, two boys of fourteen or thereabouts came +hurrying out from one of the fishermen's huts down towards the +beach. Boys are never so busy as when they are up to some piece of +mischief, and evidently the pair had business of this sort in hand. +Peer Troen, fair-haired and sallow-faced, was pushing a wheelbarrow; +his companion, Martin Bruvold, a dark youth with freckles, carried +a tub. And both talked mysteriously in whispers, casting anxious +glances out over the water. + +Peer Troen was, of course, the ringleader. That he always was: the +forest fire of last year was laid at his door. And now he had made +it clear to some of his friends that boys had just as much right to +lay out deep-sea lines as men. All through the winter they had +been kept at grown-up work, cutting peat and carrying wood; why +should they be left now to fool about with the inshore fishing, and +bring home nothing better than flounders and coal-fish and silly +codlings? The big deep-sea line they were forbidden to touch--that +was so--but the Lofoten fishery was at its height, and none of the +men would be back till it was over. So the boys had baited up the +line on the sly down at the boathouse the day before, and laid it +out across the deepest part of the fjord. + +Now the thing about a deep-sea line is that it may bring to the +surface fish so big and so fearsome that the like has never been +seen before. Yesterday, however, there had been trouble of a +different sort. To their dismay, the boys had found that they had +not sinkers enough to weight the shore end of the line; and it +looked as if they might have to give up the whole thing. But Peer, +ever ready, had hit on the novel idea of making one end fast to the +trunk of a small fir growing at the outermost point of the ness, +and carrying the line from there out over the open fjord. Then a +stone at the farther end, and with the magic words, "Fie, fish!" it +was paid out overboard, vanishing into the green depths. The deed +was done. True, there were a couple of hooks dangling in mid-air +at the shore end, between the tree and the water, and, while they +might serve to catch an eider duck, or a guillemot, if any one +should chance to come rowing past in the dark and get hung up--why, +the boys might find they had made a human catch. No wonder, then, +that they whispered eagerly and hurried down to the boat. + +"Here comes Peter Ronningen," cried Martin suddenly. + +This was the third member of the crew, a lanky youth with whitish +eyebrows and a foolish face. He stammered, and made a queer noise +when he laughed: "Chee-hee-hee." Twice he had been turned down in +the confirmation classes; after all, what was the use of learning +lessons out of a book when nobody ever had patience to wait while +he said them? + +Together they ran the boat down to the water's edge, got it afloat, +and scrambled in, with much waving of patched trouser legs. "Hi!" +cried a voice up on the beach, "let me come too!" + +"There's Klaus," said Martin. "Shall we take him along?" + +"No," said Peter Ronningen. + +"Oh yes, let's," said Peer. + +Klaus Brock, the son of the district doctor, was a blue-eyed +youngster in knickerbockers and a sailor blouse. He was playing +truant, no doubt--Klaus had his lessons at home with a private +tutor--and would certainly get a thrashing from his father when he +got home. + +"Hurry up," called Peer, getting out an oar. Klaus clambered in, +and the white-straked four-oar surged across the bay, rocking a +little as the boys pulled out of stroke. Martin was rowing at the +bow, his eyes fixed on Peer, who sat in the stern in command with +his eyes dancing, full of great things to be done. Martin, poor +fellow, was half afraid already; he never could understand why +Peer, who was to be a parson when he grew up, was always hitting +upon things to do that were evidently sinful in the sight of the +Lord. + +Peer was a town boy, who had been put out to board with a fisherman +in the village. His mother had been no better than she should be, +so people said, but she was dead now, and the father at any rate +must be a rich gentleman, for he sent the boy a present of ten +whole crowns every Christmas, so that Peer always had money in his +pocket. Naturally, then, he was looked up to by the other boys, +and took the lead in all things as a chieftain by right. + +The boat moved on past the grey rocks, the beach and the huts above +it growing blue and faint in the distance. Up among the distant +hills a red wooden farm-house on its white foundation wall stood +out clear. + +Here was the ness at last, and there stood the fir. Peer climbed +up and loosed the end of the line, while the others leaned over the +side, watching the cord where it vanished in the depths. What +would it bring to light when it came up? + +"Row!" ordered Peer, and began hauling in. + +The boat was headed straight out across the fjord, and the long +line with its trailing hooks hauled in and coiled up neatly in the +bottom of a shallow tub. Peer's heart was beating. There came a +tug--the first--and the faint shimmer of a fish deep down in the +water. Pooh! only a big cod. Peer heaved it in with a careless +swing over the gunwale. Next came a ling--a deep water fish at any +rate this time. Then a tusk, and another, and another; these would +please the women, being good eating, and perhaps make them hold +their tongues when the men came home. Now the line jerks heavily; +what is coming? A grey shadow comes in sight. "Here with the +gaff!" cries Peer, and Peter throws it across to him. "What is it, +what is it?" shriek the other three. "Steady! don't upset the +boat; a catfish." A stroke of the gaff over the side, and a clumsy +grey body is heaved into the boat, where it rolls about, hissing +and biting at the bottom-boards and baler, the splinters crackling +under its teeth. "Mind, mind!" cries Klaus--he was always nervous +in a boat. + +But Peer was hauling in again. They were nearly half-way across +the fjord by now, and the line came up from mysterious depths, +which no fisherman had ever sounded. The strain on Peer began to +show in his looks; the others sat watching his face. "Is the line +heavy?" asked Klaus. "Keep still, can't you?" put in Martin, +glancing along the slanting line to where it vanished far below. +Peer was still hauling. A sense of something uncanny seemed to be +thrilling up into his hands from the deep sea. The feel of the +line was strange. There was no great weight, not even the clean +tug-tug of an ordinary fish; it was as if a giant hand were pulling +gently, very gently, to draw him overboard and down into the +depths. Then suddenly a violent jerk almost dragged him over the +side. + +"Look out! What is it?" cried the three together. + +"Sit down in the boat," shouted Peer. And with the true fisherman's +sense of discipline they obeyed. + +Peer was gripping the line firmly with one hand, the other +clutching one of the thwarts. "Have we another gaff?" he jerked +out breathlessly. + +"Here's one." Peter Ronningen pulled out a second iron-hooked +cudgel. + +"You take it, Martin, and stand by." + +"But what--what is it?" + +"Don't know what it is. But it's something big." + +"Cut the line, and row for your lives!" wailed the doctor's son. +Strange he should be such a coward at sea, a fellow who'd tackle a +man twice his size on dry land. + +Once more Peer was jerked almost overboard. He thought of the +forest fire the year before--it would never do to have another such +mishap on his shoulders. Suppose the great monster did come up and +capsize them--they were ever so far from land. What a to do there +would be if they were all drowned, and it came out that it was his +fault. Involuntarily he felt for his knife to cut the line--then +thrust it back again, and went on hauling. + +Here it comes--a great shadow heaving up through the water. The +huge beast flings itself round, sending a flurry of bubbles to the +surface. And there!--a gleam of white; a row of great white teeth +on the underside. Aha! now he knows what it is! The Greenland +shark is the fiercest monster of the northern seas, quite able to +make short work of a few boys or so. + +"Steady now, Martin--ready with the gaff." + +The brute was wallowing on the surface now, the water boiling +around him. His tail lashed the sea to foam, a big, pointed head +showed up, squirming under the hook. "Now!" cried Peer, and two +gaffs struck at the same moment, the boat heeled over, letting in a +rush of water, and Klaus, dropping his oars, sprang into the bow, +with a cry of "Jesus, save us!" + +Next second a heavy body, big as a grown man, was heaved in over +the gunwale, and two boys were all but shot out the other way. And +now the fun began. The boys loosed their hold of the gaffs, and +sprang apart to give the creature room. There it lay raging, the +great black beast of prey, with its sharp threatening snout and +wicked red eyes ablaze. The strong tail lashed out, hurling oars +and balers overboard, the long teeth snapped at the bottom-boards +and thwarts. Now and again it would leap high up in the air, only +to fall back again, writhing furiously, hissing and spitting and +frothing at the mouth, its red eyes glaring from one to another of +the terrified captors, as if saying: "Come on--just a little +nearer!" + +Meanwhile, Martin Bruvold was in terror that the shark would smash +the boat to pieces. He drew his knife and took a step forward--a +flash in the air, and the steel went in deep between the back fins, +sending up a spurt of blood. "Look out!" cried the others, but +Martin had already sprung back out of reach of the black tail. And +now the dance of death began anew. The knife was fixed to the grip +in the creature's back; one gaff had buried its hook between the +eyes, and another hung on the flank--the wooden shafts were flung +this way and that at every bound, and the boat's frame shook and +groaned under the blows. + +"She'll smash the boat and we'll go to the bottom," cried Peer. + +And now HIS knife flashed out and sent a stream of blood spouting +from between the shoulders, but the blow cost him his foothold--and +in a moment the two bodies were rolling over and over together in +the bottom of the boat. + +"Oh, Lord Jesus!" shrieked Klaus, clinging to the stempost. +"She'll kill him! She'll kill him!" + +Peer was half up now, on his knees, but as he reached out a hand to +grasp the side, the brute's jaws seized on his arm. The boy's face +was contorted with pain--another moment and the sharp teeth would +have bitten through, when, swift as thought, Peter Ronningen +dropped his oars and sent his knife straight in between the beast's +eyes. The blade pierced through to the brain, and the grip of the +teeth relaxed. + +"C-c-cursed d-d-devil!" stammered Peter, as he scrambled back to +his oars. Another moment, and Peer had dragged himself clear and +was kneeling by the forward thwart, holding the ragged sleeve of +his wounded arm, while the blood trickled through his fingers. + +When at last they were pulling homeward, the little boat overloaded +with the weight of the great carcase, all at once they stopped +rowing. + +"Where is Klaus?" asked Peer--for the doctor's son was gone from +where he had sat, clinging to the stem. + +"Why--there he is--in the bottom!" + +There lay the big lout of fifteen, who already boasted of his love- +affairs, learned German, and was to be a gentleman like his father-- +there he lay on the bottom-boards in the bow in a dead faint. + +The others were frightened at first, but Peer, who was sitting +washing his wounded arm, took a dipper full of water and flung it +in the unconscious one's face. The next instant Klaus had started +up sitting, caught wildly at the gunwale, and shrieked out: + +"Cut the line, and row for your lives!" + +A roar of laughter went up from the rest; they dropped their oars +and sat doubled up and gasping. But on the beach, before going +home, they agreed to say nothing about Klaus's fainting fit. And +for weeks afterwards the four scamps' exploit was the talk of the +village, so that they felt there was not much fear of their getting +the thrashing they deserved when the men came home. + + + +Chapter II + + +When Peer, as quite a little fellow, had been sent to live with the +old couple at Troen, he had already passed several times from one +adopted home to another, though this he did not remember. He was +one of the madcaps of the village now, but it was not long since he +had been a solitary child, moping apart from the rest. Why did +people always say "Poor child!" whenever they were speaking about +his real mother? Why did they do it? Why, even Peter Ronningen, +when he was angry, would stammer out: "You ba-ba-bastard!" But +Peer called the pock-marked good-wife at Troen "mother" and her +bandy-legged husband "father," and lent the old man a hand wherever +he was wanted--in the smithy or in the boats at the fishing. + +His childhood was passed among folk who counted it sinful to smile, +and whose minds were gloomy as the grey sea-fog with poverty, +psalm-singing, and the fear of hell. + +One day, coming home from his work at the peat bog, he found the +elders snuffling and sighing over their afternoon meal. Peer wiped +the sweat from his forehead, and asked what was the matter. + +The eldest son shoved a spoonful of porridge into his mouth, wiped his +eyes, swallowed, and said: "Poor Peer!" + +"Aye, poor little chap," sighed the old man, thrusting his horn +spoon into a crack in the wall that served as a rack. + +"Neither father nor mother now," whimpered the eldest daughter, +looking over to the window. + +"Mother? Is she--" + +"Ay, dearie, yes," sighed the old woman. "She's gone for sure-- +gone to meet her Judge." + +Later, as the day went on, Peer tried to cry too. The worst thing +of all was that every one in the house seemed so perfectly certain +where his mother had gone to. And to heaven it certainly was not. +But how could they be so sure about it? + +Peer had seen her only once, one summer's day when she had come out +to see the place. She wore a light dress and a big straw hat, and +he thought he had never seen anything so beautiful before. She +made no secret of it among the neighbours that Peer was not her +only child; there was a little girl, too, named Louise, who was +with some folks away up in the inland parishes. She was in high +spirits, and told risky stories and sang songs by no means sacred. +The old people shook their heads over her--the younger ones watched +her with sidelong glances. And when she left, she kissed Peer, and +turned round more than once to look back at him, flushed under her +big hat, and smiling; and it seemed to Peer that she must surely be +the loveliest creature in all the world. + +But now--now she had gone to a place where the ungodly dwell in +such frightful torment, and no hope of salvation for her through +all eternity--and Peer all the while could only think of her in a +light dress and a big straw hat, all song and happy laughter. + +Then came the question: Who was to pay for the boy now? True, his +baptismal certificate said that he had a father--his name was Holm, +and he lived in Christiania--but, from what the mother had said, it +was understood that he had disappeared long ago. What was to be +done with the boy? + +Never till now had Peer rightly understood that he was a stranger +here, for all that he called the old couple father and mother. + +He lay awake night after night up in the loft, listening to the +talk about him going on in the room below--the good-wife crying and +saying: "No, no!", the others saying how hard the times were, and +that Peer was quite old enough now to be put to service as a goat- +herd on some up-country farm. + +Then Peer would draw the skin-rug up over his head. But often, +when one of the elders chanced to be awake at night, he could hear +some one in the loft sobbing in his sleep. In the daytime he took +up as little room as he could at the table, and ate as little as +humanly possible; but every morning he woke up in fear that to-day-- +to-day he would have to bid the old foster-mother farewell and go +out among strangers. + +Then something new and unheard of plumped down into the little +cottage by the fjord. + +There came a registered letter with great dabs of sealing-wax all +over it, and a handwriting so gentlemanly as to be almost +unreadable. Every one crowded round the eldest son to see it +opened--and out fell five ten-crown notes. "Mercy on us!" they +cried in amazement, and "Can it be for us?" The next thing was to +puzzle out what was written in the letter. And who should that +turn out to be from but--no other than Peer's father, though he did +not say it in so many words. "Be good to the boy," the letter +said. "You will receive fifty crowns from me every half-year. See +that he gets plenty to eat and goes dry and well shod. Faithfully +your, P. Holm, Captain." + +"Why, Peer--he's--he's-- Your father's a captain, an officer," +stammered the eldest girl, and fell back a step to stare at the +boy. + +"And we're to get twice as much for him as before," said the son, +holding the notes fast and gazing up at the ceiling, as if he were +informing Heaven of the fact. + +But the old wife was thinking of something else as she folded her +hands in thankfulness--now she needn't lose the boy. + +"Properly fed!" No need to fear for that. Peer had treacle with +his porridge that very day, though it was only a week-day. And the +eldest son gave him a pair of stockings, and made him sit down and +put them on then and there; and the same night, when he went to +bed, the eldest girl came and tucked him up in a new skin-rug, not +quite so hairless as the old one. His father a captain! It seemed +too wonderful to be true. + +From that day times were changed for Peer. People looked at him +with very different eyes. No one said "Poor boy" of him now. The +other boys left off calling him bad names; the grown-ups said he +had a future before him. "You'll see," they would say, "that +father of yours will get you on; you'll be a parson yet, ay, maybe +a bishop, too." At Christmas, there came a ten-crown note all for +himself, to do just as he liked with. Peer changed it into silver, +so that his purse was near bursting with prosperity. No wonder he +began to go about with his nose in the air, and play the little +prince and chieftain among the boys. Even Klaus Brock, the +doctor's son, made up to him, and taught him to play cards. But-- +"You surely don't mean to go and be a parson," he would say. + +For all this, no one could say that Peer was too proud to help with +the fishing, or make himself useful in the smithy. But when the +sparks flew showering from the glowing iron, he could not help +seeing visions of his own--visions that flew out into the future. +Aye, he WOULD be a priest. He might be a sinner now, and a wild +young scamp; he certainly did curse and swear like a trooper at +times, if only to show the other boys that it was all nonsense +about the earth opening and swallowing you up. But a priest he +would be, all the same. None of your parsons with spectacles and a +pot belly: no, but a sort of heavenly messenger with snowy white +robes and a face of glory. Perhaps some day he might even come so +far that he could go down into that place of torment where his +mother lay, and bring her up again, up to salvation. And when, in +autumn evenings, he stood outside his palace, a white-haired +bishop, he would lift up his finger, and all the stars should break +into song. + +Clang, clang, sang the anvil under the hammer's beat. + +In the still summer evenings a troop of boys go climbing up the +naked slopes towards the high wooded ranges to fetch home the cows +for the milking. The higher they climb, the farther and farther +their sight can travel out over the sea. And an hour or two later, +as the sun goes down, here comes a long string of red-flanked +cattle trailing down, with a faint jangle of bells, over the far- +off ridges. The boys halloo them on--"Ohoo-oo-oo!"--and swing +their ringed rowan staves, and spit red juice of the alder bark +that they are chewing as men chew tobacco. Far below them they see +the farm lands, grey in shadow, and, beyond, the waters of the +fjord, yellow in the evening light, a mirror where red clouds and +white sails and hills of liquid blue are shining. And away out on +the farthest headland, the lonely star of the coast light over the +grey sea. + +On such an evening Peer came down from the hills just in time to +see a gentleman in a carriole turn off from the highway and take +the by-road down towards Troen. The horse balked suddenly at a +small bridge, and when the driver reined him in and gave him a cut +with his whip, the beast reared, swung about, and sent the cart +fairly dancing round on its high wheels. "Oh, well, then, I'll +have to walk," cried the gentleman angrily, and, flinging the reins +to the lad behind him, he jumped down. Just at this moment Peer +came up. + +"Here, boy," began the traveller, "just take this bag, will you? +And--" He broke off suddenly, took a step backward, and looked +hard at the boy. "What--surely it can't be-- Is it you, Peer?" + +"Ye-es," said Peer, gaping a little, and took off his cap. + +"Well, now, that's funny. My name is Holm. Well, well--well, +well!" + +The lad in the cart had driven off, and the gentleman from the city +and the pale country boy with the patched trousers stood looking at +each other. + +The newcomer was a man of fifty or so, but still straight and +active, though his hair and close-trimmed beard were sprinkled with +grey. His eyes twinkled gaily under the brim of his black felt +hat; his long overcoat was open, showing a gold chain across his +waistcoat. With a pair of gloves and an umbrella in one hand, a +light travelling bag in the other, and his beautifully polished +shoes--a grand gentleman, thought Peer, if ever there was one. And +this was his father! + +"So that's how you look, my boy? Not very big for your age--nearly +sixteen now, aren't you? Do they give you enough to eat?" + +"Yes," said Peer, with conviction. + +The pair walked down together, towards the grey cottage by the +fjord. Suddenly the man stopped, and looked at it through half- +shut eyes. + +"Is that where you've been living all these years?" + +"Yes." + +"In that little hut there?" + +"Yes. That's the place--Troen they call it." + +"Why, that wall there bulges so, I should think the whole affair +would collapse soon." + +Peer tried to laugh at this, but felt something like a lump in his +throat. It hurt to hear fine folks talk like that of father and +mother's little house. + +There was a great flurry when the strange gentleman appeared in the +doorway. The old wife was kneading away at the dough for a cake, +the front of her all white with flour; the old man sat with his +spectacles on, patching a shoe, and the two girls sprang up from +their spinning wheels. "Well, here I am. My name's Holm," said +the traveller, looking round and smiling. "Mercy on us! the +Captain his own self," murmured the old woman, wiping her hands on +her skirt. + +He was an affable gentleman, and soon set them all at their ease. +He sat down in the seat of honour, drumming with his fingers on the +table, and talking easily as if quite at home. One of the girls +had been in service for a while in a Consul's family in the town, +and knew the ways of gentlefolk, and she fetched a bowl of milk and +offered it with a curtsy and a: "Will the Captain please to take +some milk?" "Thanks, thanks," said the visitor. "And what is your +name, my dear? Come, there's nothing to blush about. Nicoline? +First-rate! And you? Lusiana? That's right." He looked at the +red-rimmed basin, and, taking it up, all but emptied it at a +draught, then, wiping his beard, took breath. "Phu!--that was +good. Well, so here I am." And he looked around the room and at +each of them in turn, and smiled, and drummed with his fingers, and +said, "Well, well--well, well," and seemed much amused with +everything in general. "By the way, Nicoline," he said suddenly, +"since you're so well up in titles, I'm not 'Captain' any more now; +they've sent me up this way as Lieutenant-Colonel, and my wife has +just had a house left her in your town here, so we may be coming to +settle down in these parts. And perhaps you'd better send letters +to me through a friend in future. But we can talk about all that +by and by. Well, well--well, well." And all the time he was +drumming with his fingers on the table and smiling. Peer noticed +that he wore gold sleeve-links and a fine gold stud in his broad +white shirt-front. + +And then a little packet was produced. "Hi, Peer, come and look; +here's something for you." And the "something" was nothing less +than a real silver watch--and Peer was quite unhappy for the moment +because he couldn't dash off at once and show it to all the other +boys. "There's a father for you," said the old wife, clapping her +hands, and almost in tears. But the visitor patted her on the +shoulder. "Father? father? H'm--that's not a thing any one can be +so sure about. Hahaha!" And "hahaha" echoed the old man, still +sitting with the awl in his hand. This was the sort of joke he +could appreciate. + +Then the visitor went out and strolled about the place, with his +hands under his coat tails, and looked at the sky, and the fjord, +and murmured, "Well, well--well, well," and Peer followed him about +all the while, and gazed at him as he might have gazed at a star. +He was to sleep in a neighbour's house, where there was a room that +had a bed with sheets on it, and Peer went across with him and +carried his bag. It was Martin Bruvold's parents who were to house +the traveller, and people stood round staring at the place. Martin +himself was waiting outside. "This a friend of yours, Peer? Here, +then, my boy, here's something to buy a big farm with." This time +it was a five-crown note, and Martin stood fingering it, hardly +able to believe his eyes. Peer's father was something like a +father. + +It was a fine thing, too, to see a grand gentleman undress. "I'll +have things like that some day," thought Peer, watching each new +wonder that came out of the bag. There was a silver-backed brush, +that he brushed his hair and beard with, walking up and down in his +underclothes and humming to himself. And then there was another +shirt, with red stripes round the collar, just to wear in bed. +Peer nodded to himself, taking it all in. And when the stranger +was in bed he took out a flask with a silver cork, that screwed off +and turned into a cup, and had a dram for a nightcap; and then he +reached for a long pipe with a beaded cord, and when it was drawing +well he stretched himself out comfortably and smiled at Peer. + +"Well, now, my boy--are you getting on well at school?" + +Peer put his hands behind him and set one foot forward. "Yes--he +says so--teacher does." + +"How much is twelve times twelve?" + +That was a stumper! Peer hadn't got beyond ten times ten. + +"Do they teach you gymnastics at the school?" + +"Gym--? What's that?" + +"Jumping and vaulting and climbing ropes and drilling in squads-- +what?" + +"But isn't it--isn't that wicked?" + +"Wicked! Hahaha! Wicked, did you say? So that's the way they +look at things here, is it? Well, well--well, well! Hahaha! Hand +me that matchbox, my boy. H'm!" He puffed away for a while in +silence. Then, suddenly: + +"See here, boy. Did you know you'd a little sister?" + +"Yes, I know." + +"Half-sister, that is to say. I didn't quite know how it was +myself. But I may as well tell you, my boy, that I paid the same +for you all along, the same as now. Only I sent the money by your +mother, and she--well, she, poor girl, had another one to look +after, and no father to pay for it. So she made my money do for +both. Hahaha! Well, poor girl, we can't blame her for that. +Anyhow, we'll have to look after that little half-sister of yours +now, I suppose, till she grows up. Don't you think so yourself?" + +Peer felt the tears coming. Think so!--indeed he did. + +Next day Peer's father went away. He stood there, ready to start, +in the living-room at Troen, stiff felt hat and overcoat and all, +and said, in a tone like the sheriff's when he gives out a public +notice at the church door: + +"And, by the way, you're to have the boy confirmed this year." + +"Yes, to be sure we will," the old mother hastened to say. + +"Then I wish him to be properly dressed, like the best of the other +youngsters. And there's fifty crowns for him to give the school- +teacher and the parson as a parting gift." He handed over some +more notes. + +"Afterwards," he went on, "I mean, of course, to look after him +until he can make his own way in a respectable position. But first +we must see what he has a turn for, and what he'd like to be +himself. He'd better come to town and talk it over with me--but +I'll write and arrange all that after he's confirmed. Then in case +anything unexpected should happen to me, there's some money laid by +for him in a savings bank account; he can apply to a friend of +mine, who knows all about it. Well, good-bye, and very many +thanks!" + +And the great man smiled to right and left, and shook them all by +the hand, and waved his hat and was gone. + +For the next few days Peer walked on air, and found it hard to keep +his footing at all on the common earth. People were for ever +filling his head with talk about that savings bank account--it +might be only a few thousands of crowns--but then again, it might +run up to a million. A million! and here he was, eating herrings +for dinner, and talking to Tom, Dick, and Harry just like any one +else. A million crowns! + +Late in the autumn came the confirmation, and the old wooden +church, with its tarred walls, nestled among its mighty tree-tops, +sent its chimes ringing and ringing out into the blue autumn air. +It seemed to Peer like some kindly old grandmother, calling so +lovingly: "Come, come--old and young--old and young--from fjord +and valley--northways and southways; come, come--this day of all +days--this day of all days--come, come, come!" So it had stood, +ringing out the chimes for one generation after another through +hundreds of years, and now it is calling to us. And the young +folks are there, looking at one another in their new clothes, and +blowing their noses on clean white handkerchiefs, so carefully +folded. There comes Peter Ronningen, passed by good luck this +year, but forced to turn out in a jacket borrowed from Peer, as the +tailor wasn't ready with his own new things. The boys say "how-do- +you-do" and try to smile like grown-up folks. One or two of them +may have some little account dating from old school-fights waiting +to be settled--but, never mind--just as well to forget old scores +now. Peer caught sight of Johan Koja, who stole a pencil from him +last summer, but, after all, even that didn't seem worth making a +fuss about. "Well, how've you been getting on since last summer?" +they ask each other, as they move together up the stone steps to +the big church door, through which the peal of the organ comes +rolling out to meet them. + +How good it seems, and how kind, the little church, where all you +see bids you welcome! Through the stained-glass windows with their +tiny leaded panes falls a light so soft that even poor ugly faces +seem beautiful. The organ tones are the very light itself turned +into sweet sound. On one side of the nave you can see all the +boys' heads, sleek with water; on the other the little mothers to +be, in grown-up dress to-day for the first time, kerchief on head +and hymn-book in hand, and with careful faces. And now they all +sing. The elder folks have taken their places farther back to-day, +but they join in, looking up now and again from the book to those +young heads in front, and wondering how they will fare in life. +And the young folk themselves are thinking as they sing, "To-day is +the beginning of new things. Play and frolic are over and done +with; from today we're grown-up." But the church and all in it +seemed to say: "If ever you are in heavy trouble, come hither to +me." Just look at that altar-piece there--the wood-carvings are a +whole Bible in themselves--but Moses with the Tables of the Law is +gentle of face to-day; you can see he means no harm after all. St. +Peter, with the keys, pointing upwards, looks like a kind old +uncle, bringing something good home from market. And then the +angels on the walls, pictured or carved in wood, have borrowed the +voice of the organ and the tones of the hymn, and they widen out +the vaulted roof into the dome of heaven; while light and song and +worshippers melt together and soar upwards toward the infinite +spaces. + +Peer was thinking all the time: I don't care if I'm rich as rich, I +WILL be a priest. And then perhaps with all my money I can build a +church that no one ever saw the like of. And the first couple I'll +marry there shall be Martin Bruvold and little sister Louise--if +only he'll have her. Just wait and see! + +A few days later he wrote to his father, asking if he might come +into town now and go to school. A long time passed, and then at +last a letter came in a strange hand-writing, and all the grown +folks at Troen came together again to read it. But what was their +amazement when they read: + +"You will possibly have learned by now from the newspapers that +your benefactor, Colonel Holm, has met his death by a fall from a +horse. I must therefore request you to call on me personally at +your earliest convenience, as I have several matters to settle with +you. Yours faithfully, J. Grundt, Senior Master." + +They stood and looked at one another. + +Peer was crying--chiefly, it must be admitted, at the thought of +having to bid good-bye to all the Troen folks and the two cows, and +the calf, and the grey cat. He might have to go right on to +Christiania, no later than to-morrow--to go to school there; and +when he came back--why, very likely the old mother might not be +there any more. + +So all three of them were heavy-hearted, when the pock-marked good- +wife, and the bow-legged old man, came down with him to the pier. +And soon he was standing on the deck of the fjord steamer, gazing +at the two figures growing smaller and smaller on the shore. And +then one hut after another in the little hamlet disappeared behind +the ness--Troen itself was gone now--and the hills and the woods +where he had cut ring staves and searched for stray cattle--swiftly +all known things drew away and vanished, until at last the whole +parish was gone, and his childhood over. + + + +Chapter III + + +As evening fell, he saw a multitude of lights spread out on every +side far ahead in the darkness. And next, with his little wooden +chest on his shoulder, he was finding his way up through the +streets by the quay to a lodging-house for country folk, which he +knew from former visits, when he had come to the town with the +Lofoten boats. + +Next morning, clad in his country homespun, he marched up along +River Street, over the bridge, and up the hill to the villa +quarter, where he had to ask the way. At last he arrived outside a +white-painted wooden house standing back in a garden. Here was the +place--the place where his fate was to be decided. After the +country fashion he walked in at the kitchen door. + +A stout servant maid in a big white apron was rattling the rings of +the kitchen range into place; there was a pleasing smell of coffee +and good things to eat. Suddenly a door opened, and a figure in a +dressing-gown appeared--a tall red-haired man with gold spectacles +astride on a long red nose, his thick hair and scrubby little +moustaches touched with grey. He gasped once or twice and then +started sneezing--hoc-hoc-put-putsch!--wiped his nose with a large +pocket-handkerchief, and grumbled out: "Ugh!--this wretched cold-- +can't get rid of it. How about my socks, Bertha, my good girl; do +you think they are quite dry now?" + +"I've had them hung up ever since I lit the fire this morning," +said the girl, tossing her head. + +"But who is this young gentleman, may I ask?" The gold spectacles +were turned full on Peer, who rose and bowed. + +"Said he wanted to speak to you, sir," put in the maid. + +"Ah. From the country, I see. Have you anything to sell, my lad?" + +"No," said Peer. He had had a letter. . . . + +The red head seemed positively frightened at this--and the +dressing-gown faltered backwards, as if to find support. He cast a +hurried glance at the girl, and then beckoned with a long fore- +finger to Peer. "Yes, yes, perfectly so. Be so good as to come +this way, my lad." + +Peer found himself in a room with rows of books all round the +walls, and a big writing-table in the centre. "Sit down, my boy." +The schoolmaster went and picked out a long pipe, and filled it, +clearing his throat nervously, with an occasional glance at the +boy. "H'm--so this is you. This is Peer--h'm." He lit his pipe +and puffed a little, found himself again obliged to sneeze--but at +last settled down in a chair at the writing-table, stretched out +his long legs, and puffed away again. + +"So that's what you look like?" With a quick movement he reached +for a photograph in a frame. Peer caught a glimpse of his father +in uniform. The schoolmaster lifted his spectacles, stared at the +picture, then let down his spectacles again and fell to +scrutinising Peer's face. There was a silence for a while, and +then he said: "Ah, indeed--I see--h'm." Then turning to Peer: + +"Well, my lad, it was very sudden--your benefactor's end--most +unexpected. He is to be buried to-day." + +"Benefactor?" thought Peer. "Why doesn't he say 'your father'?" + +The schoolmaster was gazing at the window. "He informed me some +time ago of--h'm--of all the--all the benefits he had conferred on +you--h'm! And he begged me to keep an eye on you myself in case +anything happened to him. And now"--the spectacles swung round +towards Peer--"now you are starting out in life by yourself, hey?" + +"Yes," said Peer, shifting a little in his seat. + +"You will have to decide now what walk in life you are to--er-- +devote yourself to." + +"Yes," said Peer again, sitting up straighter. + +"You would perhaps like to be a fisherman--like the good people +you've been brought up among?" + +"No." Peer shook his head disdainfully. Was this man trying to +make a fool of him? + +"Some trade, then, perhaps?" + +"No!" + +"Oh, then I suppose it's to be America. Well, you will easily find +company to go with. Such numbers are going nowadays--I am sorry to +say. . . ." + +Peer pulled himself together. "Oh, no, not that at all." Better +get it out at once. "I wish to be a priest," he said, speaking +with a careful town accent. + +The schoolmaster rose from his seat, holding his long pipe up in +the air in one hand, and pressing his ear forward with the other, +as though to hear better. "What?--what did you say?" + +"A priest," repeated Peer, but he moved behind his chair as he +spoke, for it looked as if the schoolmaster might fling the pipe at +his head. + +But suddenly the red face broke into a smile, exposing such an +array of greenish teeth as Peer had never seen before. Then he +said in a sort of singsong, nodding: "A priest? Oh, indeed! +Quite a small matter!" He rose and wandered once or twice up and +down the room, then stopped, nodded, and said in a fatherly tone-- +to one of the bookshelves: "H'm--really--really--we're a little +ambitious, are we not?" + +He turned on Peer suddenly. "Look here, my young friend--don't you +think your benefactor has been quite generous enough to you +already?" + +"Yes, indeed he has," said Peer, his voice beginning to tremble a +little. + +"There are thousands of boys in your position who are thrown out in +the world after confirmation and left to shift for themselves, +without a soul to lend them a helping hand." + +"Yes," gasped Peer, looking round involuntarily towards the door. + +"I can't understand--who can have put these wild ideas into your +head?" + +With an effort Peer managed to get out: "It's always been what I +wanted. And he--father--" + +"Who? Father--? Do you mean your benefactor?" + +"Well, he was my father, wasn't he?" burst out Peer. + +The schoolmaster tottered back and sank into a chair, staring at +Peer as if he thought him a quite hopeless subject. At last he +recovered so far as to say: "Look here, my lad, don't you think +you might be content to call him--now and for the future--just your +benefactor? Don't you think he deserves it?" + +"Oh, yes," whispered Peer, almost in tears. + +"You are thinking, of course--you and those who have put all this +nonsense into your head--of the money which he--h'm--" + +"Yes--isn't there a savings bank account--?" + +"Aha! There we are! Yes, indeed. There is a savings bank +account--in my care." He rose, and hunted out from a drawer a +small green-covered book. Peer could not take his eyes from it. +"Here it is. The sum entered here to your account amounts to +eighteen hundred crowns." + +Crash! Peer felt as if he had fallen through the floor into the +cellarage. All his dreams vanished into thin air--the million +crowns--priest and bishop--Christiania--and all the rest. + +"On the day when you are in a fair way to set up independently as +an artisan, a farmer, or a fisherman--and when you seem to me, to +the best of my judgment, to deserve such help--then and not till +then I place this book at your disposal. Do you understand what I +say?" + +"Yes." + +"I am perfectly sure that I am in full agreement with the wishes of +the donor in deciding that the money must remain untouched in my +safe keeping until then." + +"Yes," whispered Peer. + +"What?--are you crying?" + +"N-no. Good-morning--" + +"No, pray don't go yet. Sit down. There are one or two things we +must get settled at once. First of all--you must trust me, my good +boy. Do you believe that I wish you well, or do you not?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"Then it is agreed that all these fancies about going to college +and so forth must be driven out of your head once for all?" + +"Y-yes, sir." + +"You can see yourself that, even supposing you had the mental +qualifications, such a sum, generous as it is in itself, would not +suffice to carry you far." + +"No-no, sir." + +"On the other hand, if you wish it, I will gladly arrange to get +you an apprentice's place with a good handicraftsman here. You +would have free board there, and--well, if you should want clothes +the first year or so, I dare say we could manage that. You will be +better without pocket-money to fling about until you can earn it +for yourself." + +Peer sighed, and drooped as he stood. When he saw the green-backed +book locked into its drawer again, and heard the keys rattle as +they went back into a pocket under the dressing-gown, he felt as if +some one were pointing a jeering finger at him, and saying, "Yah!" + +"Then there's another thing. About your name. What name have you +thought of taking, my lad--surname, I mean?" + +"My name is Peer Holm!" said the boy, instinctively drawing himself +up as he had done when the bishop had patted his head at the +confirmation and asked his name. + +The schoolmaster pursed up his lips, took off his spectacles and +wiped them, put them on again, and turned to the bookshelves with a +sigh. "Ah, indeed!--yes--yes--I almost thought as much." + +Then he came forward and laid a hand kindly on Peer's shoulder. + +"My dear boy--that is out of the question." + +A shiver went through Peer. Had he done something wrong again? + +"See here, my boy--have you considered that there may be others of +that name in this same place?" + +"Yes--but--" + +"Wait a minute--and that you would occasion these--others--the +deepest pain and distress if it should become known that--well, how +matters stand. You see, I am treating you as a grown-up man--a +gentleman. And I feel sure you would not wish to inflict a great +sorrow--a crushing blow--upon a widow and her innocent children. +There, there, my boy, there's nothing to cry about. Life, my young +friend, life has troubles that must be faced. What is the name of +the farm, or house, where you have lived up to now?" + +"T--Troen." + +"Troen--a very good name indeed. Then from to-day on you will call +yourself Peer Troen." + +"Y-yes, sir." + +"And if any one should ask about your father, remember that you are +bound in honour and conscience not to mention your benefactor's +name." + +"Y-yes." + +"Well, then, as soon as you have made up your mind, come at once +and let me know. We shall be great friends yet, you will see. +You're sure you wouldn't like to try America? Well, well, come +along out to the kitchen and see if we can find you some +breakfast." + +Peer found himself a moment after sitting on a chair in the +kitchen, where there was such a good smell of coffee. "Bertha," +said the schoolmaster coaxingly, "you'll find something good for +breakfast for my young friend here, won't you?" He waved a +farewell with his hand, took down his socks from a string above the +stove, and disappeared through the door again. + + + +Chapter IV + + +When a country boy in blue homespun, with a peaked cap on his blond +head, goes wandering at random through the streets of a town, it is +no particular concern of any one else. He moves along, gazing in +at shop windows, hands deep in his pockets, whistling, looking at +everything around him--or at nothing at all. And yet--perhaps in +the head under that peaked cap it seems as if a whole little world +had suddenly collapsed, and he may be whistling hard to keep from +crying in the streets for people to see. He steps aside to avoid +a cart, and runs into a man, who drops his cigar in the gutter. +"Confounded country lout!" says the man angrily, but passes on and +has forgotten boy and all the next moment. But a little farther on +a big dog comes dashing out of a yard and unluckily upsets a fat +old woman on the pavement, and the boy with the peaked cap, for all +his troubles, cannot help doubling up and roaring with laughter. + +That afternoon, Peer sat on one of the ramparts below the fortress, +biting at a stalk of grass, and twirling the end in his fingers. +Below him lay town and fjord in the mild October sunlight; the +rumble of traffic, the noises from workshops and harbour, came up +to him through the rust-brown luminous haze. There he sat, while +the sentry on the wall above marched back and forth, with his rifle +on his shoulder, left--right--left. + +You may climb very high up indeed, and fall down very deep, and no +such terrible harm done after all, as long as you don't absolutely +break your neck. And gradually Peer began to realise that he was +still alive, after all. It is a bad business when the world goes +against you, even though you may have some one to turn to for +advice and sympathy. But when all the people round you are utter +strangers, there is nothing to be done but sit down and twirl a +straw, and think things out a bit for yourself. Peer's thoughts +were of a thing in a long dressing-gown that had taken his bank +book and locked it up and rattled the keys at him and said "Yah!" +and deposed him from his bishopric and tried to sneeze and squeeze +him into a trade, where he'd have to carry a pressing-iron all his +life and be Peer Troen, Tailor. But he wouldn't have that. He sat +there bracing himself up, and trying to gather together from +somewhere a thing he had never had much need of before--to wit, a +will of his own, something to set up against the whole wide world. +What was he to do now? He felt he would like to go back to Troen +first of all, and talk things over with the old father and mother; +they would be sorry for him there, and say "Poor boy," and pray for +him--but after a day or two, he knew, they would begin to glance at +him at meals, and remember that there was no one to pay for him +now, and that times were hard. No, that was no refuge for him now. +But what could he do, then? Clearly it was not such a simple +matter to be all alone in the world. + +A little later he found himself on a hillside by the Cathedral +churchyard, sitting under the yellowing trees, and wondering +dreamily where his father was to be buried. What a difference +between him and that schoolmaster man! No preaching with him; no +whining about what his boy might call himself or might not. Why +must he go and die? + +It was strange to think of that fine strong man, who had brushed +his hair and beard so carefully with his silver-backed brush--to +think that he was lying still in a coffin now, and would soon be +covered up with earth. + +People were coming up the hill now, and passing in to the +churchyard. The men wore black clothes and tall shiny hats--but +there were some officers too, with plumes and sashes. And then a +regimental band--with its brass instruments. Peer slipped into the +churchyard with the crowd, but kept apart from the rest, and took +up his stand a little way off, beside a big monument. "It must be +father's funeral," he thought to himself, and was broad awake at +once. + +This, he guessed, must be the Cadet School, that came marching in, +and formed up in two lines from the mortuary chapel to the open +grave. The place was nearly full of people now; there were women +holding handkerchiefs to their eyes, and an elderly lady in black +went into the chapel, on the arm of a tall man in uniform. "That +must be father's wife," thought Peer, "and the young ladies there +in black are--my half-sisters, and that young lieutenant--my half- +brother." How strange it all was! A sound of singing came from +the chapel. And a little later six sergeants came out, carrying a +coffin all heaped with flowers. "Present arms!" And the soldiers +presented, and the band played a slow march and moved off in front +of the coffin, between the two lines of soldiers. And then came a +great following of mourners. The lady in black came out again, +sobbing behind her handkerchief, and hardly able to follow, though +she clung to the tall officer's arm. But in front of the pair, +just behind the coffin itself, walked a tall man in splendid +uniform, with gold epaulettes, plumed hat, and sword, bearing a +cushion with two jewelled stars. And the long, long train of +mourners moved slowly, gently on, and there--there by the grave, +stood the priest, holding a spade. + +Peer was anxious to hear what the priest would have to say about +his father. Involuntarily he stole a little nearer, though he felt +somehow that it would not do to come too close. + +A hymn was sung at the graveside, the band accompanying. Peer +took off his cap. He was too taken up to notice that one of the +mourners was watching him intently, and presently left the group +and came towards him. The man wore spectacles, and a shiny tall +hat, and it was not until he began to sneeze that Peer recognised +him. It was the schoolmaster, glaring at him now with a face so +full of horror and fury that the spectacles almost seemed to be +spitting fire. + +"You--you-- Are you mad?" he whispered in Peer's face, clenching +his black gloved hands. "What are you doing here? Do you want to +cause a catastrophe to-day of all days? Go--get away at once, do +you hear me? Go! For heaven's sake, get away from here before any +one sees." Peer turned and fled, hearing behind him as he went a +threatening "If ever you dare--again--," while the voices and the +band, swelling higher in the hymn, seemed to strike him in the back +and drive him on. + +He was far down in the town before he could stop and pull himself +together. One thing was clear--after this he could never face that +schoolmaster again. All was lost. Could he even be sure that what +he had done wasn't so frightfully wrong that he would have to go to +prison for it? + +Next day the Troen folk were sitting at their dinner when the +eldest son looked out of the window and said: "There's Peer +coming." + +"Mercy on us!" cried the good-wife, as he came in. "What is the +matter, Peer? Are you ill?" + +Ah, it was good that night to creep in under the old familiar skin- +rug once more. And the old mother sat on the bedside and talked to +him of the Lord, by way of comfort. Peer clenched his hands under +the clothes--somehow he thought now of the Lord as a sort of +schoolmaster in a dressing-gown. Yet it was some comfort all the +same to have the old soul sit there and talk to him. + +Peer had much to put up with in the days that followed--much +tittering and whispers of "Look! there goes the priest," as he went +by. At table, he felt ashamed of every mouthful he took; he hunted +for jobs as day-labourer on distant farms so as to earn a little to +help pay for his keep. And when the winter came he would have to +do as the others did--hire himself out, young and small as he was, +for the Lofoten fishing. + +But one day after church Klaus Brock drew him aside and got him to +talk things over at length. First, Klaus told him that he himself +was going away--he was to begin in one of the mechanical workshops +in town, and go from there to the Technical College, to qualify for +an engineer. And next he wanted to hear the whole truth about what +had happened to Peer that day in town. For when people went +slapping their thighs and sniggering about the young would-be +priest that had turned out a beggar, Klaus felt he would like to +give the lot of them a darned good hammering. + +So the two sixteen-year-old boys wandered up and down talking, and +in the days to come Peer never forgot how his old accomplice in the +shark-fishing had stood by him now. "Do like me," urged Klaus. +"You're a bit of a smith already, man; go to the workshops, and +read up in your spare time for the entrance exam to the Technical. +Then three years at the College--the eighteen hundred crowns will +cover that--and there you are, an engineer--and needn't even owe +any one a halfpenny." + +Peer shook his head; he was sure he would never dare to show his +face before that schoolmaster again, much less ask for the money in +the bank. No; the whole thing was over and done with for him. + +"But devil take it, man, surely you can see that this ape of a +schoolmaster dare not keep you out of your money. Let me come with +you; we'll go up and tackle him together, and then--then you'll +see." And Klaus clenched his fists and thrust out one shoulder +fiercely. + +But when January came, there was Peer in oil-skins, in the foc's'le +of a Lofoten fishing-smack, ploughing the long sea-road north to +the fishing-grounds, in frost and snow-storms. All through that +winter he lived the fisherman's life: on land, in one of the tiny +fisher-booths where a five-man crew is packed like sardines in an +air so thick you can cut it with a knife; at sea, where in a fair +wind you stand half the day doing nothing and freezing stiff the +while--and a foul wind means out oars, and row, row, row, over an +endless plain of rolling icy combers; row, row, till one's hands +are lumps of bleeding flesh. Peer lived through it all, thinking +now and then, when he could think at all, how the grand gentlefolk +had driven him out to this life because he was impertinent enough +to exist. And when the fourteen weeks were past, and the Lofoten +boats stood into the fjord again on a mild spring day, it was easy +for Peer to reckon out his earnings, which were just nothing at +all. He had had to borrow money for his outfit and food, and he +would be lucky if his boy's share was enough to cover what he owed. + +A few weeks later a boy stood by the yard gate of an engineering +works in the town just as the bell was ringing and the men came +streaming out, and asked for Klaus Brock. + +"Hullo, Peer--that you? Been to Lofoten and made your fortune?" + +The two boys stood a moment taking stock of one another: Klaus +grimy-faced and in working-clothes--Peer weather-beaten and tanned +by storm and spray. + +The manager of the factory was Klaus's uncle, and the same +afternoon his nephew came into the office with a new hand wanting +to be taken on as apprentice. He had done some smithy work before, +he said; and he was taken on forthwith, at a wage of twopence an +hour. + +"And what's your name?" + +"Peer--er"--the rest stuck in his throat. + +"Holm," put in Klaus. + +"Peer Holm? Very well, that'll do." + +The two boys went out with a feeling of having done something +rather daring. And anyway, if trouble should come along, there +would be two of them now to tackle it. + + + +Chapter V + + +In a narrow alley off Sea Street lived Gorseth the job-master, with +a household consisting of a lean and skinny wife, two half-starved +horses, and a few ramshackle flies and sledges. The job-master +himself was a hulking toper with red nose and beery-yellow eyes, +who spent his nights in drinking and got home in the small hours of +the morning when his wife was just about getting up. All through +the morning she went about the place scolding and storming at him +for a drunken ne'er-do-well, while Gorseth himself lay comfortably +snoring. + +When Peer arrived on the scene with his box on his shoulder, +Gorseth was on his knees in the yard, greasing a pair of leather +carriage-aprons, while his wife, sunken-lipped and fierce-eyed, +stood in the kitchen doorway, abusing him for a profligate, a +swine, and the scum of the earth. Gorseth lay there on all-fours, +with the sun shining on his bald head, smearing on the grease; but +every now and then he would lift his head and snarl out, "Hold your +jaw, you damned old jade!" + +"Haven't you a room to let?" Peer asked. + +A beery nose was turned towards him, and the man dragged himself up +and wiped his hands on his trousers. "Right you are," said he, and +led the way across the yard, up some stairs, and into a little room +with two panes of glass looking on to the street and a half-window +on the yard. The room had a bed with sheets, a couple of chairs, +and a table in front of the half-window. Six and six a month. +Agreed. Peer took it on the spot, paid down the first month's +rent, and having got rid of the man sat down on his chest and +looked about him. Many people have never a roof to their heads, +but here was he, Peer, with a home of his own. Outside in the yard +the woman had begun yelping her abuse again, the horses in the +stable beneath were stamping and whinnying, but Peer had lodged in +fisher-booths and peasants' quarters and was not too particular. +Here he was for the first time in a place of his own, and within +its walls was master of the house and his own master. + +Food was the next thing. He went out and bought in supplies, +stocking his chest with plain country fare. At dinner time he sat +on the lid, as fishermen do, and made a good solid meal of flat +bannocks and cold bacon. + +And now he fell-to at his new work. There was no question of +whether it was what he wanted or not; here was a chance of getting +up in the world, and that without having to beg any one's leave. +He meant to get on. And it was not long before his dreams began to +take a new shape from his new life. He stood at the bottom of a +ladder, a blacksmith's boy--but up at the top sat a mighty Chief +Engineer, with gold spectacles and white waistcoat. That was where +he would be one day. And if any schoolmaster came along and tried +to keep him back this time--well, just let him try it. They had +turned him out of a churchyard once--he would have his revenge for +that some day. It might take him years and years to do it, but one +fine day he would be as good as the best of them, and would pay +them back in full. + +In the misty mornings, as he tramped in to his work, dinner-pail in +hand, his footsteps on the plank bridge seemed hammering out with +concentrated will: "To-day I shall learn something new--new--new!" + +The great works down at the harbour--shipyard, foundry, and machine +shops--were a whole city in themselves. And into this world of +fire and smoke and glowing iron, steam-hammers, racing wheels, and +bustle and noise, he was thrusting his way, intent upon one thing, +to learn and learn and ever learn. There were plenty of those by +him who were content to know their way about the little corner +where they stood--but they would never get any farther. They would +end their days broken-down workmen--HE would carve his way through +till he stood among the masters. He had first to put in some +months' work in the smithy, then he would be passed on to the +machine shops, then to work with the carpenters and painters, and +finally in the shipyard. The whole thing would take a couple of +years. But the works and all therein were already a kind of new +Bible to him; a book of books, which he must learn by heart. Only +wait! + +And what a place it was for new adventures! Many times a day he +would find himself gazing at some new wonder; sheer miracle and +revelation--yet withal no creation of God's grace, but an invention +of men. Press a button, and behold, a miracle springs to life. He +would stare at the things, and the strain of understanding them +would sometimes keep him awake at night. There was something +behind this, something that must be--spirit, even though it did not +come from God. These engineers were priests of a sort, albeit they +did not preach nor pray. It was a new world. + +One day he was put to riveting work on an enormous boiler, and for +the first time found himself working with a power that was not the +power of his own hands. It was a tube, full of compressed air, +that drove home the rivets in quick succession with a clashing wail +from the boiler that sounded all over the town. Peer's head and +ears ached with the noise, but he smiled all the same. He was used +to toil himself, in weariness of body; now he stood here master, +was mind and soul and directing will. He felt it now for the first +time, and it sent a thrill of triumph through every nerve of his +body. + +But all through the long evenings he sat alone, reading, reading, +and heard the horses stamping in the stable below. And when he +crept into bed, well after midnight, there was only one thing that +troubled him--his utter loneliness. Klaus Brock lived with his +uncle, in a fine house, and went to parties. And he lay here all +by himself. If he were to die that very night, there would be +hardly a soul to care. So utterly alone he was--in a strange and +indifferent world. + +Sometimes it helped him a little to think of the old mother at +Troen, or of the church at home, where the vaulted roof had soared +so high over the swelling organ-notes, and all the faces had looked +so beautiful. But the evening prayer was no longer what it had +been for him. There was no grey-haired bishop any more sitting at +the top of the ladder he was to climb. The Chief Engineer that was +there now had nothing to do with Our Lord, or with life in the +world to come. He would never come so far now that he could go +down into the place of torment where his mother lay, and bring her +up with him, up to salvation. And whatever power and might he +gained, he could never stand in autumn evenings and lift up his +finger and make all the stars break into song. + +Something was past and gone for Peer. It was as if he were rowing +away from a coast where red clouds hung in the sky and dream- +visions filled the air--rowing farther and farther away, towards +something quite new. A power stronger than himself had willed it +so. + +One Sunday, as he sat reading, the door opened, and Klaus Brock +entered whistling, with his cap on the back of his head. + +"Hullo, old boy! So this is where you live?" + +"Yes, it is--and that's a chair over there." + +But Klaus remained standing, with his hands in his pockets and his +cap on, staring about the room. "Well, I'm blest!" he said at +last. "If he hasn't stuck up a photograph of himself on his +table!" + +"Well, did you never see one before? Don't you know everybody has +them?" + +"Not their own photos, you ass! If anybody sees that, you'll never +hear the last of it." + +Peer took up the photograph and flung it under the bed. "Well, it +was a rubbishy thing," he muttered. Evidently he had made a +mistake. "But what about this?"--pointing to a coloured picture he +had nailed up on the wall. + +Klaus put on his most manly air and bit off a piece of tobacco +plug. "Ah! that!" he said, trying not to laugh too soon. + +"Yes; it's a fine painting, isn't it? I got it for fourpence." + +"Painting! Ha-ha! that's good! Why, you silly cow, can't you see +it's only an oleograph?" + +"Oh, of course you know all about it. You always do." + +"I'll take you along one day to the Art Gallery," said Klaus. +"Then you can see what a real painting looks like. What's that +you've got there--English reader?" + +"Yes," put in Peer eagerly; "hear me say a poem." And before Klaus +could protest, he had begun to recite. + +When he had finished, Klaus sat for a while in silence, chewing his +quid. "H'm!" he said at last, "if our last teacher, Froken +Zebbelin, could have heard that English of yours, we'd have had to +send for a nurse for her, hanged if we wouldn't!" + +This was too much. Peer flung the book against the wall and told +the other to clear out to the devil. When Klaus at last managed to +get a word in, he said: + +"If you are to pass your entrance at the Technical you'll have to +have lessons--surely you can see that. You must get hold of a +teacher." + +"Easy for you to talk about teachers! Let me tell you my pay is +twopence an hour." + +"I'll find you one who can take you twice a week or so in languages +and history and mathematics. I daresay some broken-down sot of a +student would take you on for sevenpence a lesson. You could run +to that, surely?" + +Peer was quiet now and a little pensive. "Well, if I give up +butter, and drink water instead of coffee--" + +Klaus laughed, but his eyes were moist. Hard luck that he couldn't +offer to lend his comrade a few shillings--but it wouldn't do. + +So the summer passed. On Sundays Peer would watch the young folks +setting out in the morning for the country, to spend the whole day +wandering in the fields and woods, while he sat indoors over his +books. And in the evening he would stick his head out of his two- +paned window that looked on to the street, and would see the lads +and girls coming back, flushed and noisy, with flowers and green +boughs in their hats, crazy with sunshine and fresh air. And still +he must sit and read on. But in the autumn, when the long nights +set in, he would go for a walk through the streets before going to +bed, as often as not up to the white wooden house where the manager +lived. This was Klaus's home. Lights in the windows, and often +music; the happy people that lived here knew and could do all sorts +of things that could never be learned from books. No mistake: he +had a goodish way to go--a long, long way. But get there he would. + +One day Klaus happened to mention, quite casually, where Colonel +Holm's widow lived, and late one evening Peer made his way out +there, and cautiously approached the house. It was in River +Street, almost hidden in a cluster of great trees, and Peer stood +there, leaning against the garden fence, trembling with some +obscure emotion. The long rows of windows on both floors were +lighted up; he could hear youthful laughter within, and then a +young girl's voice singing--doubtless they were having a party. +Peer turned up his collar against the wind, and tramped back +through the town to his lodging above the carter's stable. + +For the lonely working boy Saturday evening is a sort of festival. +He treats himself to an extra wash, gets out his clean underclothes +from his chest, and changes. And the smell of the newly-washed +underclothing calls up keenly the thought of a pock-marked old +woman who sewed and patched it all, and laid it away so neatly +folded. He puts it on carefully, feeling almost as if it were +Sunday already. + +Now and again, when a Sunday seemed too long, Peer would drift into +the nearest church. What the parson said was all very good, no +doubt, but Peer did not listen; for him there were only the hymns, +the organ, the lofty vaulted roof, the coloured windows. Here, +too, the faces of the people looked otherwise than in the street +without; touched, as it were, by some reflection from all that +their thoughts aspired to reach. And it was so homelike here. +Peer even felt a sort of kinship with them all, though every soul +there was a total stranger. + +But at last one day, to his surprise, in the middle of a hymn, a +voice within him whispered suddenly: "You should write to your +sister. She's as much alone in the world as you are." + +And one evening Peer sat down and wrote. He took quite a lordly +tone, saying that if she wanted help in any way, she need only let +him know. And if she would care to move in to town, she could come +and live with him. After which he remained, her affectionate +brother, Peer Holm, engineer apprentice. + +A few days later there came a letter addressed in a fine slanting +hand. Louise had just been confirmed. The farmer she was with +wished to keep her on as dairymaid through the winter, but she was +afraid the work would be too heavy for her. So she was coming in +to town by the boat arriving on Sunday evening. With kind regards, +his sister, Louise Hagen. + +Peer was rather startled. He seemed to have taken a good deal on +his shoulders. + +On Sunday evening he put on his blue suit and stiff felt hat, and +walked down to the quay. For the first time in his life he had +some one else to look after--he was to be a father and benefactor +from now on to some one worse off than himself. This was something +new. The thought came back to him of the jolly gentleman who had +come driving down one day to Troen to look after his little son. +Yes, that was the way to do things; that was the sort of man he +would be. And involuntarily he fell into something of his father's +look and step, his smile, his lavish, careless air. "Well, well-- +well, well--well, well," he seemed saying to himself. He might +almost, in his fancy, have had a neat iron-grey beard on his chin. + +The little green steamboat rounded the point and lay in to the +quay, the gangways were run out, porters jumped aboard, and all the +passengers came bundling ashore. Peer wondered how he was to know +her, this sister whom he had never seen. + +The crowd on deck soon thinned, and people began moving off from +the quay into the town. + +Then Peer was aware of a young peasant-girl, with a box in one hand +and a violin-case in the other. She wore a grey dress, with a +black kerchief over her fair hair; her face was pale, and finely +cut. It was his mother's face; his mother as a girl of sixteen. +Now she was looking about her, and now her eyes rested on him, half +afraid, half inquiring. + +"Is it you, Louise?" + +"Is that you, Peer?" + +They stood for a moment, smiling and measuring each other with +their eyes, and then shook hands. + +Together they carried the box up through the town, and Peer was so +much of a townsman already that he felt a little ashamed to find +himself walking through the streets, holding one end of a trunk, +with a peasant-girl at the other. And what a clatter her thick +shoes made on the pavement! But all the time he was ashamed to +feel ashamed. Those blue arch eyes of hers, constantly glancing up +at him, what were they saying? "Yes, I have come," they said--"and +I've no one but you in all the world--and here I am," they kept on +saying. + +"Can you play that?" he asked, with a glance at her violin-case. + +"Oh well; my playing's only nonsense," she laughed. And she told +how the old sexton she had been living with last had not been able +to afford a new dress for her confirmation, and had given her the +violin instead. + +"Then didn't you have a new dress to be confirmed in?" + +"No." + +"But wasn't it--didn't you feel horrible, with the other girls +standing by you all dressed up fine?" + +She shut her eyes for a moment. "Oh, yes--it WAS horrid," she +said. + +A little farther on she asked: "Were you boarded out at a lot of +places?" + +"Five, I think." + +"Pooh--why, that's nothing. I was at nine, I was." The girl was +smiling again. + +When they came up to his room she stood for a moment looking round +the place. It was hardly what she had expected to find. And she +had not been in town lodgings before, and her nose wrinkled up a +little as she smelt the close air. It seemed so stuffy, and so +dark. + +"We'll light the lamp," he said. + +Presently she laughed a little shyly, and asked where she was to +sleep. + +"Lord bless us, you may well ask!" Peer scratched his head. +"There's only one bed, you see." At that they both burst out +laughing. + +"The one of us'll have to sleep on the floor," suggested the girl. + +"Right. The very thing," said he, delighted. "I've two pillows; +you can have one. And two rugs--anyway, you won't be cold." + +"And then I can put on my other dress over," she said. "And maybe +you'll have an old overcoat--" + +"Splendid! So we needn't bother any more about that." + +"But where do you get your food from?" She evidently meant to have +everything cleared up at once. + +Peer felt rather ashamed that he hadn't money enough to invite her +to a meal at an eating-house then and there. But he had to pay his +teacher's fees the next day; and his store-box wanted refilling +too. + +"I boil the coffee on the stove there overnight," he said, "so that +it's all ready in the morning. And the dry food I keep in that box +there. We'll see about some supper now." He opened the box, +fished out a loaf and some butter, and put the kettle on the stove. +She helped him to clear the papers off the table, and spread the +feast on it. There was only one knife, but it was really much +better fun that way than if he had had two. And soon they were +seated on their chairs--they had a chair each--having their first +meal in their own home, he and she together. + +It was settled that Louise should sleep on the floor, and they both +laughed a great deal as he tucked her in carefully so that she +shouldn't feel cold. It was not till afterwards, when the lamp was +out, that they noticed that the autumn gales had set in, and there +was a loud north-wester howling over the housetops. And there they +lay, chatting to each other in the dark, before falling asleep. + +It seemed a strange and new thing to Peer, this really having a +relation of his own--and a girl, too--a young woman. There she lay +on the floor near by him, and from now on he was responsible for +what was to become of her in the world. How should he put that job +through? + +He could hear her turning over. The floor was hard, very likely. + +"Louise?" + +"Yes." + +"Did you ever see mother?" + +"No." + +"Or your father?" + +"My father?" She gave a little laugh. + +"Yes, haven't you ever seen him either?" + +"Why, how should I, silly? Who says that mother knew herself who +it was?" + +There was a pause. Then Peer brought out, rather awkwardly: +"We're all alone, then--you and I." + +"Yes--we are that." + +"Louise! What are you thinking of taking to now?" + +"What are you?" + +So Peer told her all his plans. She said nothing for a little +while--no doubt she was lying thinking of the grand things he had +before him. + +At last she spoke. "Do you think--does it cost very much to learn +to be a midwife?" + +"A midwife--is that what you want to be, girl?" Peer couldn't help +laughing. So this was what she had been planning in these days-- +since he had offered to help her on in the world. + +"Do you think my hands are too big?" she ventured presently--he +could just hear the whisper. + +Peer felt a pang of pity. He had noticed already how ill the red +swollen hands matched her pale clear-cut face, and he knew that in +the country, when any one has small, fine hands, people call them +"midwife's hands." + +"We'll manage it somehow, I daresay," said Peer, turning round to +the wall. He had heard that it cost several hundred crowns to go +through the course at the midwifery school. It would be years +before he could get together anything like that sum. Poor girl, +it looked as if she would have a long time to wait. + +After that they fell silent. The north-wester roared over the +housetops, and presently brother and sister were asleep. + +When Peer awoke the next morning, Louise was about already, making +coffee over the little stove. Then she opened her box, took out a +yellow petticoat and hung it on a nail, placed a pair of new shoes +against the wall, lifted out some under-linen and woollen +stockings, looked at them, and put them back again. The little +box held all her worldly goods. + +As Peer was getting up: "Gracious mercy!" she cried suddenly, +"what is that awful noise down in the yard?" + +"Oh, that's nothing to worry about," said Peer. "It's only the +job-master and his wife. They carry on like that every blessed +morning; you'll soon get used to it." + +Soon they were seated once more at the little table, drinking +coffee and laughing and looking at each other. Louise had found +time to do her hair--the two fair plaits hung down over her +shoulders. + +It was time for Peer to be off, and, warning the girl not to go too +far from home and get lost, he ran down the stairs. + +At the works he met Klaus Brock, and told him that his sister had +come to town. + +"But what are you going to do with her?" asked Klaus. + +"Oh, she'll stay with me for the present." + +"Stay with you? But you've only got one room and one bed, man!" + +"Well--she can sleep on the floor." + +"She? Your sister? She's to sleep on the floor--and you in the +bed!" gasped Klaus. + +Peer saw he had made a mistake again. "Of course I was only +fooling," he hastened to say. "Of course it's Louise that's to +have the bed." + +When he came home he found she had borrowed a frying-pan from the +carter's wife, and had fried some bacon and boiled potatoes; so +that they sat down to a dinner fit for a prince. + +But when the girl's eyes fell on the coloured print on the wall, +and she asked if it was a painting, Peer became very grand at once. +"That--a painting? Why, that's only an oleograph, silly! No, I'll +take you along to the Art Gallery one day, and show you what real +paintings are like." And he sat drumming with his fingers on the +table, and saying: "Well, well--well, well, well!" + +They agreed that Louise had better look out at once for some work +to help things along. And at the first eating-house they tried, +she was taken on at once in the kitchen to wash the floor and peel +potatoes. + +When bedtime came he insisted on Louise taking the bed. "Of course +all that was only a joke last night," he explained. "Here in town +women always have the best of everything--that's what's called +manners." As he stretched himself on the hard floor, he had a +strange new feeling. The narrow little garret seemed to have +widened out now that he had to find room in it for a guest. There +was something not unpleasant even in lying on the hard floor, since +he had chosen to do it for some one else's sake. + +After the lamp was out he lay for a while, listening to her +breathing. Then at last: + +"Louise." + +"Yes?" + +"Is your father--was his name Hagen?" + +"Yes. It says so on the certificate." + +"Then you're Froken Hagen. Sounds quite fine, doesn't it?" + +"Uf! Now you're making fun of me." + +"And when you're a midwife, Froken Hagen might quite well marry a +doctor, you know." + +"Silly! There's no chance--with hands like mine." + +"Do you think your hands are too big for you to marry a doctor?" + +"Uf! you ARE a crazy thing. Ha-ha-ha!" + +"Ha-ha-ha!" + +They both snuggled down under the clothes, with the sense of ease +and peace that comes from sharing a room with a good friend in a +happy humour. + +"Well, good-night, Louise." + +"Good-night, Peer." + + + +Chapter VI + + +So things went on till winter was far spent. Now that Louise, too, +was a wage-earner, and could help with the expenses, they could +dine luxuriously at an eating-house every day, if they pleased, on +meat-cakes at fourpence a portion. They managed to get a bed for +Peer that could be folded up during the day, and soon learned, too, +that good manners required they should hang up Louise's big woollen +shawl between them as a modest screen while they were dressing and +undressing. And Louise began to drop her country speech and talk +city-fashion like her brother. + +One thought often came to Peer as he lay awake. "The girl is the +very image of mother, that's certain--what if she were to go the +same way? Well, no, that she shall not. You're surely man enough +to see to that. Nothing of that sort shall happen, my dear Froken +Hagen." + +They saw but little of each other during the day, though, for they +were apart from early in the morning till he came home in the +evening. And when he lectured her, and warned her to be careful +and take no notice of men who tried to speak to her, Louise only +laughed. When Klaus Brock came up one day to visit them, and made +great play with his eyes while he talked to her, Peer felt much +inclined to take him by the scruff of the neck and throw him +downstairs. + +When Christmas-time was near they would wander in the long evenings +through the streets and look in at the dazzlingly lit shop-windows, +with their tempting, glittering show of gold and finery. Louise +kept asking continually how much he thought this thing or that +cost--that lace, or the cloak, or the stockings, or those gold +brooches. "Wait till you marry that doctor," Peer would say, "then +you can buy all those things." So far neither of them had an +overcoat, but Peer turned up his coat-collar when he felt cold, and +Louise made the most of her thick woollen dress and a pair of good +country gloves that kept her quite warm. And she had adventured on +a hat now, in place of her kerchief, and couldn't help glancing +round, thinking people must notice how fine she was. + +On Christmas Eve he carried up buckets of water from the yard, and +she had a great scrubbing-out of the whole room. And then they in +their turn had a good wash, helping each other in country fashion +to scrub shoulders and back. + +Peer was enough of a townsman now to have laid in a few little +presents to give his sister; but the girl, who had not been used to +such doings, had nothing for him, and wept a good deal when she +realised it. They ate cakes from the confectioner's with syrup +over them, and drank chocolate, and then Louise played a hymn-tune, +in her best style, on her violin, and Peer read the Christmas +lessons from the prayer-book--it was all just like what they used +to do at Troen on Christmas Eve. And that night, after the lamp +was put out, they lay awake talking over plans for the future. +They promised each other that when they had got well on in the +world, he in his line and she in hers, they would manage to live +near each other, so that their children could play together and +grow up good friends. Didn't she think that was a good idea? Yes, +indeed she did. And did he really mean it? Yes, of course he +meant it, really. + +But later on in the winter, when she sat at home in the evenings +waiting for him--he often worked overtime--she was sometimes almost +afraid. There was his step on the stairs! If it was hurried and +eager she would tremble a little. For the moment he was inside the +door he would burst out: "Hurrah, my girl! I've learnt something +new to-day, I tell you!" "Have you, Peer?" And then out would +pour a torrent of talk about motors and power and pressures and +cylinders and cranes and screws, and such-like. She would sit and +listen and smile, but of course understood not a word of it all, +and as soon as Peer discovered this he would get perfectly furious, +and call her a little blockhead. + +Then there were the long evenings when he sat at home reading, by +himself or with his teacher and she had to sit so desperately still +that she hardly dared take a stitch with her needle. But one day +he took it into his head that his sister ought to be studying too; +so he set her a piece of history to learn by the next evening. But +time to learn it--where was that to come from? And then he started +her writing to his dictation, to improve her spelling--and all the +time she kept dropping off to sleep. She had washed so many floors +and peeled so many potatoes in the daytime that now her body felt +like lead. + +"Look here, my fine girl!" he would storm at her, raging up and +down the room, "if you think you can get on in the world without +education, you're most infernally mistaken." He succeeded in +reducing her to tears--but it wasn't long before her head had +fallen forward on the table again and she was fast asleep. So he +realised there was nothing for it but to help her to bed--as +quietly as possible, so as not to wake her up. + +Some way on in the spring Peer fell sick. When the doctor came, he +looked round the room, sniffed, and frowned. "Do you call this a +place for human beings to live in?" he asked Louise, who had taken +the day off. "How can you expect to keep well?" + +He examined Peer, who lay coughing, his face a burning red. "Yes, +yes--just as I expected. Inflammation of the lungs." He glanced +round the room once more. "Better get him off to the hospital at +once," he said. + +Louise sat there in terror at the idea that Peer was to be taken +away. And then, as the doctor was going, he looked at her more +closely, and said: "You'd do well to be a bit careful yourself, my +good girl. You look as if you wanted a change to a decent room, +with a little more light and air, pretty badly. Good-morning." + +Soon after he was gone the hospital ambulance arrived. Peer was +carried down the stairs on a stretcher, and the green-painted box +on wheels opened its door and swallowed him up; and they would not +even let her go with him. All through the evening she sat in their +room alone, sobbing. + +The hospital was one of the good old-fashioned kind that people +don't come near if they can help it, because the walls seem to reek +of the discomfort and wretchedness that reign inside. The general +wards--where the poor folks went--were always so overcrowded that +patients with all sorts of different diseases had to be packed into +the same rooms, and often infected each other. When an operation +was to be performed, things were managed in the most cheerfully +casual way: the patient was laid on a stretcher and carried across +the open yard, often in the depth of winter, and as he was always +covered up with a rug, the others usually thought he was being +taken off to the dead-house. + +When Peer opened his eyes, he was aware of a man in a white blouse +standing by the foot of his bed. "Why, I believe he's coming-to," +said the man, who seemed to be a doctor. Peer found out afterwards +from a nurse that he had been unconscious for more than twenty-four +hours. + +He lay there, day after day, conscious of nothing but the stabbing +of a red-hot iron boring through his chest and cutting off his +breathing. Some one would come every now and then and pour port +wine and naphtha into his mouth; and morning and evening he was +washed carefully with warm water by gentle hands. But little by +little the room grew lighter, and his gruel began to have some +taste. And at last he began to distinguish the people in the beds +near by, and to chat with them. + +On his right lay a black-haired, yellow-faced dock labourer with a +broken nose. His disease, whatever it might be, was clearly +different from Peer's. He plagued the nurse with foul-mouthed +complaints of the food, swearing he would report about it. On the +other side lay an emaciated cobbler with a soft brown beard like +the Christ pictures, and cheeks glowing with fever. He was dying +of cancer. At right angles with him lay a man with the face and +figure of a prophet--a Moses--all bushy white hair and beard; he +was in the last stage of consumption, and his cough was like a +riveting machine. "Huh!" he would groan, "if only I could get +across to Germany there'd be a chance for me yet." Beside him was +a fellow with short beard and piercing eyes, who was a little off +his head, and imagined himself a corporal of the Guards. Often at +night the others would be wakened by his springing upright in bed +and calling out: "Attention!" + +One man lay moaning and groaning all the time, turning from side to +side of a body covered with sores. But one day he managed to +swallow some of the alcohol they used as lotion, and after that lay +singing and weeping alternately. And there was a red-bearded man +with glasses, a commercial traveller; he had put a bullet into his +head, but the doctors had managed to get it out again, and now he +lay and praised the Lord for his miraculous deliverance. + +It was strange to Peer to lie awake at night in this great room in +the dim light of the night-lamp; it seemed as if beings from the +land of the dead were stirring in those beds round about him. But +in the daytime, when friends and relations of the patients came a- +visiting, Peer could hardly keep from crying. The cobbler had a +wife and a little girl who came and sat beside him, gazing at him +as if they could never let him go. The prophet, too, had a wife, +who wept inconsolably--and all the rest seemed to have some one or +other to care for them. But where was Louise--why did Louise never +come? + +The man on the right had a sister, who came sweeping in, gorgeous +in her trailing soiled silk dress. Her shoes were down at heel, +but her hat was a wonder, with enormous plumes. "Hallo, Ugly! how +goes it?" she said; and sat down and crossed her legs. Then the +pair would talk mysteriously of people with strange names: "The +Flea," "Cockroach," "The Galliot," "King Ring," and the like, +evidently friends of theirs. One day she managed to bring in a +small bottle of brandy, a present from "The Hedgehog," and smuggle +it under the bedclothes. As soon as she had gone, and the coast +was clear, Peer's neighbour drew out the bottle, managed to work +the cork out, and offered him a drink. "Here's luck, sonny; do you +good." No--Peer would rather not. Then followed a gurgling sound +from the docker's bed, and soon he too was lying singing at the top +of his voice. + +At last one day Louise came. She was wearing her neat hat, and had +a little bundle in her hand, and as she came in, looking round the +room, the close air of the sick-ward seemed to turn her a little +faint. But then she caught sight of Peer, and smiled, and came +cautiously to him, holding out her hand. She was astonished to +find him so changed. But as she sat down by his pillow she was +still smiling, though her eyes were full of tears. + +"So you've come at last, then?" said Peer. + +"They wouldn't let me in before," she said with a sob. And then +Peer learned that she had come there every single day, but only to +be told that he was too ill to see visitors. + +The man with the broken nose craned his head forward to get a +better view of the modest young girl. And meanwhile she was +pulling out of the bundle the offering she had brought--a bottle of +lemonade and some oranges. + +But it was a day or two later that something happened which Peer +was often to remember in the days to come. + +He had been dozing through the afternoon, and when he woke the lamp +was lit, and a dull yellow half-light lay over the ward. The +others seemed to be sleeping; all was very quiet, only the man with +the sores was whimpering softly. Then the door opened, and Peer +saw Louise glide in, softly and cautiously, with her violin-case +under her arm. She did not come over to where her brother lay, but +stood in the middle of the ward, and, taking out her violin, began +to play the Easter hymn: "The mighty host in white array."* + + +* "Den store hvide Flok vi se." + + +The man with the sores ceased whimpering; the patients in the beds +round about opened their eyes. The docker with the broken nose sat +up in bed, and the cobbler, roused from his feverish dream, lifted +himself on his elbow and whispered: "It is the Redeemer. I knew +Thou wouldst come." Then there was silence. Louise stood there +with eyes fixed on her violin, playing her simple best. The +consumptive raised his head and forgot to cough; the corporal +slowly stiffened his body to attention; the commercial traveller +folded his hands and stared before him. The simple tones of the +hymn seemed to be giving new life to all these unfortunates; the +light of it was in their faces. But to Peer, watching his sister +as she stood there in the half-light, it seemed as if she grew to +be one with the hymn itself, and that wings to soar were given her. + +When she had finished, she came softly over to his bed, stroked his +forehead with her swollen hand, then glided out and disappeared as +silently as she had come. + +For a long time all was silent in the dismal ward, until at last +the dying cobbler murmured: "I thank Thee. I knew--I knew Thou +wert not far away." + +When Peer left the hospital, the doctor said he had better not +begin work again at once; he should take a holiday in the country +and pick up his strength. "Easy enough for you to talk," thought +Peer, and a couple of days later he was at the workshop again. + +But his ways with his sister were more considerate than before, and +he searched about until he had found her a place as seamstress, and +saved her from her heavy floor-scrubbing. + +And soon Louise began to notice with delight that her hands were +much less red and swollen than they had been; they were actually +getting soft and pretty by degrees. + +Next winter she sat at home in the evenings while he read, and made +herself a dress and cloak and trimmed a new hat, so that Peer soon +had quite an elegant young lady to walk out with. But when men +turned round to look at her as she passed, he would scowl and +clench his fists. At last one day this was too much for Louise, +and she rebelled. "Now, Peer, I tell you plainly I won't go out +with you if you go on like that." + +"All right, my girl," he growled. "I'll look after you, though, +never fear. We're not going to have mother's story over again with +you." + +"Well, but, after all, I'm a grown-up-girl, and you can't prevent +people looking at me, idiot!" + +Klaus Brock had been entered at the Technical College that autumn, +and went about now with the College badge in his cap, and sported a +walking-stick and a cigarette. He had grown into a big, broad- +shouldered fellow, and walked with a little swing in his step; a +thick shock of black hair fell over his forehead, and he had a way +of looking about him as if to say: "Anything the matter? All +right, I'm ready!" + +One evening he came in and asked Louise to go with him to the +theatre. The young girl blushed red with joy, and Peer could not +refuse; but he was waiting for them outside the yard gate when they +came back. On a Sunday soon after Klaus was there again, asking +her to come out for a drive. This time she did not even look to +Peer for leave, but said "yes" at once. "Just you wait," said Peer +to himself. And when she came back that evening he read her a +terrific lecture. + +Soon he could not help seeing that the girl was going about with +half-shut eyes, dreaming dreams of which she would never speak to +him. And as the days went on her hands grew whiter, and she moved +more lightly, as if to the rhythm of unheard music. Always as she +went about the room on her household tasks she was crooning some +song; it seemed that there was some joy in her soul that must find +an outlet. + +One Saturday in the late spring she had just come home, and was +getting the supper, when Peer came tramping in, dressed in his best +and carrying a parcel. + +"Hi, girl! Here you are! We're going to have a rare old feast to- +night." + +"Why--what is it all about?" + +"I've passed my entrance exam for the Technical--hurrah! Next +autumn--next autumn--I'll be a student!" + +"Oh, splendid! I AM so glad!" And she dried her hand and grasped +his. + +"Here you are--sausages, anchovies--and here's a bottle of brandy-- +the first I ever bought in my life. Klaus is coming up later on to +have a glass of toddy. And here's cheese. We'll make things hum +to-night." + +Klaus came, and the two youths drank toddy and smoked and made +speeches, and Louise played patriotic songs on her violin, and +Klaus gazed at her and asked for "more--more." + +When he left, Peer went with him, and as the two walked down the +street, Klaus took his friend's arm, and pointed to the pale moon +riding high above the fjord, and vowed never to give him up, till +he stood at the very top of the tree--never, never! Besides, he +was a Socialist now, he said, and meant to raise a revolt against +all class distinctions. And Louise--Louise was the most glorious +girl in all the world--and now--and now--Peer might just as well +know it sooner as later--they were as good as engaged to be +married, he and Louise. + +Peer pushed him away, and stood staring at him. "Go home now, and +go to bed," he said. + +"Ha! You think I'm not man enough to defy my people--to defy the +whole world!" + +"Good-night," said Peer. + +Next morning, as Louise lay in bed--she had asked to have her +breakfast there for once in a way--she suddenly began to laugh. +"What ARE you about now?" she asked teasingly. + +"Shaving," said Peer, beginning operations. + +"Shaving! Are you so desperate to be grand to-day that you must +scrape all your skin off? You know there's nothing else to shave." + +"You hold your tongue. Little do you know what I've got in front +of me to-day." + +"What can it be? You're not going courting an old widow with +twelve children, are you?" + +"If you want to know, I'm going to that schoolmaster fellow, and +going to wring my savings-bank book out of him." + +Louise sat up at this. "My great goodness!" she said. + +Yes; he had been working himself up to this for a year or more, and +now he was going to do it. To-day he would show what he was made +of--whether he was a snivelling child, or a man that could stand up +to any dressing-gown in the world. He was shaving for the first +time--quite true. And the reason was that it was no ordinary day, +but a great occasion. + +His toilet over, he put on his best hat with a flourish, and set +out. + +Louise stayed at home all the morning, waiting for his return. And +at last she heard him on the stairs. + +"Puh!" he said, and stood still in the middle of the room. + +"Well? Did you get it?" + +He laughed, wiped his forehead, and drew a green-covered book from +his coat-pocket. "Here we are, my girl--there's fifty crowns a +month for three years. It's going to be a bit of a pinch, with +fees and books, and living and clothes into the bargain. But we'll +do it. Father was one of the right sort, I don't care what they +say." + +"But how did you manage it? What did the schoolmaster say?" + +"'Do you suppose that you--you with your antecedents--could ever +pass into the Technical College?' he said. And I told him I HAD +passed. 'Good heavens! How could you possibly qualify?' and he +shifted his glasses down his nose. And then: 'Oh, no! it's no +good coming here with tales of that sort, my lad.' Well, then I +showed him the certificate, and he got much meeker. 'Really!' he +said, and 'Dear me!' and all that. But I say, Louise--there's +another Holm entered for the autumn term." + +"Peer, you don't mean--your half-brother?" + +"And old Dressing-gown said it would never do--never! But I said +it seemed to me there must be room in the world for me as well, and +I'd like that bank book now, I said. 'You seem to fancy you have +some legal right to it,' he said, and got perfectly furious. Then +I hinted that I'd rather ask a lawyer about it and make sure, and +at that he regularly boiled with rage and waved his arms all about. +But he gave in pretty soon all the same--said he washed his hands +of the whole thing. 'And besides,' he said, 'your name's Troen, +you know--Peer Troen.' Ho-ho-ho--Peer Troen! Wouldn't he like it! +Tra-la-la-la!--I say, let's go out and get a little fresh air." + +Peer said nothing then or after about Klaus Brock, and Klaus +himself was going off home for the summer holidays. As the summer +wore on the town lay baking in the heat, reeking of drains, and the +air from the stable came up to the couple in the garret so heavy +and foul that they were sometimes nearly stifled. + +"I'll tell you what," said Peer one day, "we really must spend a +few shillings more on house rent and get a decent place to live +in." + +And Louise agreed. For till the time came for him to join the +College in the autumn, Peer was obliged to stick to the workshops; +he could not afford a holiday just now. + +One morning he was just starting with a working gang down to +Stenkjaer to repair some damage in the engine-room of a big Russian +grain boat, when Louise came and asked him to look at her throat. +"It hurts so here," she said. + +Peer took a spoon and pressed down her tongue, but could not see +anything wrong. "Better go and see the doctor, and make sure," he +said. + +But the girl made light of it. "Oh, nonsense!" she said; "it's not +worth troubling about." + +Peer was away for over a week, sleeping on board with the rest. +When he came back, he hurried home, suddenly thinking of Louise and +her sore throat. He found the job-master greasing the wheels of a +carriage, while his wife leaned out of a window scolding at him. +"Your sister," repeated the carter, turning round his face with its +great red lump of nose--"she's gone to hospital--diphtheria +hospital--she has. Doctor was here over a week ago and took her +off. They've been here since poking round and asking who she was +and where she belonged--well, we didn't know. And asking where you +were, too--and we didn't know either. She was real bad, if you ask +me--" + +Peer hastened off. It was a hot day, and the air was close and +heavy. On he went--all down the whole length of Sea Street, +through the fishermen's quarter, and a good way further out round +the bay. And then he saw a cart coming towards him, an ordinary +work-cart, with a coffin on it. The driver sat on the cart, and +another man walked behind, hat in hand. Peer ran on, and at last +came in sight of the long yellow building at the far end of the +bay. He remembered all the horrible stories he had heard about the +treatment of diphtheria patients--how their throats had to be cut +open to give them air, or something burned out of them with red-hot +irons--oh! When at last he had reached the high fence and rung the +bell, he stood breathless and dripping with sweat, leaning against +the gate. + +There was a sound of steps within, a key was turned, and a porter +with a red moustache and freckles about his hard blue eyes thrust +out his head. + +"What d'you want to go ringing like that for?" + +"Froken Hagen--Louise Hagen--is she better? How--how is she?" + +"Lou--Louise Hagen? A girl called Louise Hagen? Is it her you've +come to ask about?" + +"Yes. She's my sister. Tell me--or--let me in to see her." + +"Wait a bit. You don't mean a girl that was brought in here about +a week ago?" + +"Yes, yes--but let me in." + +"We've had no end of bother and trouble about that girl, trying to +find out where she came from, and if she had people here. But, of +course, this weather, we couldn't possibly keep her any longer. +Didn't you meet a coffin on a cart as you came along?" + +"What--what--you don't mean--?" + +"Well, you should have come before, you know. She did ask a lot +for some one called Peer. And she got the matron to write +somewhere--wasn't it to Levanger? Were you the fellow she was +asking for? So you came at last! Oh, well--she died four or five +days ago. And they're just gone now to bury her, in St. Mary's +Churchyard." + +Peer turned round and looked out over the bay at the town, that lay +sunlit and smoke-wreathed beyond. Towards the town he began to +walk, but his step grew quicker and quicker, and at last he took +off his cap and ran, panting and sobbing as he went. Have I been +drinking? was the thought that whirled through his brain, or why +can't I wake? What is it? What is it? And still he ran. There +was no cart in sight as yet; the little streets of the fisher- +quarter were all twists and turns. At last he reached Sea Street +once more, and there--there far ahead was the slow-moving cart. +Almost at once it turned off to the right and disappeared, and when +Peer reached the turning, it was not to be seen. Still he ran on +at haphazard. There seemed to be other people in the streets-- +children flying red balloons, women with baskets, men with straw +hats and walking-sticks. But Peer marked his line, and ran +forward, thrusting people aside, upsetting those in his way, and +dashing on again. In King Street he came in sight of the cart once +more, nearer this time. The man walking behind it with his hat in +his hand had red curling hair, and walked with a curtsying gait, +giving at the knees and turning out his toes. No doubt he made his +living as mourner at funerals to which no other mourners came. As +the cart turned into the churchyard Peer came up with it, and tried +to follow at a walk, but stumbled and could hardly keep his feet. +The man behind the cart looked at him. "What's the matter with +you?" he asked. The driver looked round, but drove on again at +once. + +The cart stopped, and Peer stood by, leaning against a tree for +support. A third man came up--he seemed to be the gravedigger--and +he heard the three discussing how long they might have to wait for +the parson. "The time's just about up, isn't it?" said the driver, +taking out his watch. "Ay, the clerk said he'd be here by now," +agreed the gravedigger, and blew his nose. + +Soon the priest came in sight, wearing his black robe and white +ruff; there were doubtless to be other funerals that day. Peer +sank down on a bench and looked stupidly on while the coffin was +lifted from the cart, carried to the grave, and lowered down. A +man with spectacles and a red nose came up with a hymn-book, and +sang something over the grave. The priest lifted the spade--and at +the sound of the first spadeful of earth falling on Louise's +coffin, Peer started as if struck, and all but fell from his seat. + +When he looked up again, the place was deserted. The bell was +ringing, and a crowd was collecting in another part of the +churchyard. Peer sat where he was, quite still. + +In the evening, when the gravedigger came to lock the gates, he had +to take the young man by the shoulder and shake him to his senses. +"Locking-up time," he said. "You must go now." + +Peer rose and tried to walk, and by and by he was stumbling blindly +out through the gate and down the street. And after a time he +found himself climbing a flight of stairs above a stable-yard. +Once in his room, he flung himself down on the bed as he was, and +lay there still. + +The close heat of the day had broken in a downpour of rain, which +drummed upon the roof above his head, and poured in torrents +through the gutters. Instinctively Peer started up: Louise was out +in the rain--she would need her cloak. He was on his feet in a +moment, as if to find it--then he stopped short, and sank slowly +back upon the bed. + +He drew up his feet under him, and buried his head in his arms. +His brain was full of changing, hurrying visions, of storm and +death, of human beings helpless in a universe coldly and +indifferently ruled by a will that knows no pity. + +Then for the first time it was as if he lifted up his head against +Heaven itself and cried: "There is no sense in all this. I will +not bear it." + +Later in the night, when he found himself mechanically folding his +hands for the evening prayer he had learnt to say as a child, he +suddenly burst out laughing, and clenched his fists, and cried +aloud: "No, no, no--never--never again." + +Once more it came to him that there was something in God like the +schoolmaster--He took the side of those who were well off already. +"Yes, they who have parents and home and brothers and sisters and +worldly goods--them I protect and care for. But here's a boy alone +in the world, struggling and fighting his way on as best he can-- +from him I will take the only thing he has. That boy is nothing to +any one. Let him be punished because he is poor, and cast down to +the earth, for there is none to care for him. That boy is nothing +to any one--nothing." Oh, oh, oh!--he clenched his fists and beat +them against the wall. + +His whole little world was broken to pieces. Either God did not +exist at all, or He was cold and pitiless--one way of it was as bad +as the other. The heavenly country dissolved into cloud and melted +away, and above was nothing but empty space. No more folding of +your hands, like a fool! Walk on the earth, and lift up your head, +and defy Heaven and fate, as you defied the schoolmaster. Your +mother has no need of you to save her--she is not anywhere any +more. She is dead--dead and turned to clay; and more than that +there is not, for her or for you or any other being in this world. + +Still he lay there. He would fain have slept, but seemed instead +to sink into a vague far-away twilight that rocked him--rocked him +on its dark and golden waves. And now he heard a sound--what was +it? A violin. "The mighty host in white array." Louise--is it +you--and playing? He could see her now, out there in the twilight. +How pale she was! But still she played. And now he understood +what that twilight was. + +It was a world beyond the consciousness of daily life--and that +world belonged to him. "Peer, let me stay here." And something in +him answered: "Yes, you shall stay, Louise. Even though there is +no God and no immortality, you shall stay here." And then she +smiled. And still she played. And it was as though he were +building a little vaulted chapel for her in defiance of Heaven and +of God--as though he were ringing out with his own hands a great +eternal chime for her sake. What was happening to him? There was +none to comfort him, yet it ended, as he lay there, with his +pouring out something of his innermost being, as an offering to all +that lives, to the earth and the stars, until all seemed rocking, +rocking with him on the stately waves of the psalm. He lay there +with fast-closed eyes, stretching out his hands as though afraid to +wake, and find it all nothing but a beautiful dream. + + + +Chapter VII + + +The two-o'clock bell at the Technical College had just begun to +ring, and a stream of students appeared out of the long straggling +buildings and poured through the gate, breaking up then into little +knots and groups that went their several ways into the town. + +It was a motley crowd of young men of all ages from seventeen to +thirty or more. Students of the everlasting type, sent here by +their parents as a last resource, for--"he can always be an +engineer"; young sparks who paid more attention to their toilet +than their books, and hoped to "get through somehow" without +troubling to work; and stiff youths of soldierly bearing, who had +been ploughed for the Army, but who likewise could "always be +engineers." There were peasant-lads who had crammed themselves +through their Intermediate at a spurt, and now wore the College cap +above their rough grey homespun, and dreamed of getting through in +no time, and turning into great men with starched cuffs and pince- +nez. There were pale young enthusiasts, too, who would probably +end as actors; and there were also quondam actors, killed by the +critics, but still sufficiently alive, it seemed, "to be +engineers." And as the young fellows hurried on their gay and +careless way through the town, an older man here and there might +look round after them with a smile of some sadness. It was easy to +say what fate awaited most of them. College ended, they would be +scattered like birds of passage throughout the wide world, some to +fall by sunstroke in Africa, or be murdered by natives in China, +others to become mining kings in the mountains of Peru, or heads of +great factories in Siberia, thousands of miles from home and +friends. The whole planet was their home. Only a few of them--not +always the shining lights--would stay at home, with a post on the +State railways, to sit in an office and watch their salaries mount +by increments of L12 every fifth year. + +"That's a devil of a fellow, that brother of yours that's here," +said Klaus Brock to Peer one day, as they were walking into town +together with their books under their arms. + +"Now, look here, Klaus, once for all, be good enough to stop +calling him my brother. And another thing--you're never to say a +word to any one about my father having been anything but a farmer. +My name's Holm, and I'm called so after my father's farm. Just +remember that, will you?" + +"Oh, all right. Don't excite yourself." + +"Do you suppose I'd give that coxcomb the triumph of thinking I +want to make up to him?" + +"No, no, of course not." Klaus shrugged his shoulders and walked +on, whistling. + +"Or that I want to make trouble for that fine family of his? No, I +may find a way to take it out of him some day, but it won't be that +way." + +"Well, but, damn it, man! you can surely stand hearing what people +say about him." And Klaus went on to tell his story. Ferdinand +Holm, it seemed, was the despair of his family. He had thrown up +his studies at the Military Academy, because he thought soldiers +and soldiering ridiculous. Then he had made a short experiment +with theology, but found that worse still; and finally, having +discovered that engineering was at any rate an honest trade, he had +come to anchor at the Technical College. "What do you say to +that?" asked Klaus. + +"I don't see anything so remarkable about it." + +"Wait a bit, the cream of the story's to come. A few weeks ago he +thrashed a policeman in the street--said he'd insulted a child, or +something. There was a fearful scandal--arrest, the police-court, +fine, and so forth. And last winter what must he do but get +engaged, formally and publicly engaged, to one of his mother's +maids. And when his mother sent the girl off behind his back, he +raised the standard of revolt and left home altogether. And now he +does nothing but breathe fire and slaughter against the upper +classes and all their works. What do you say to that?" + +"My good man, what the deuce has all this got to do with me?" + +"Well, I think it's confoundedly plucky of him, anyhow," said +Klaus. "And for my part I shall get to know him if I can. He's +read an awful lot, they say, and has a damned clever head on his +shoulders." + +On his very first day at the College, Peer had learned who +Ferdinand Holm was, and had studied him with interest. He was a +tall, straight-built fellow with reddish-blond hair and freckled +face, and wore a dark tortoiseshell pince-nez. He did not wear the +usual College cap, but a stiff grey felt hat, and he looked about +four or five and twenty. + +"Wait!" thought Peer to himself--"wait, my fine fellow! Yes, you +were there, no doubt, when they turned me out of the churchyard +that day. But all that won't help you here. You may have got the +start of me at first, and learned this, that, and the other, but-- +you just wait." + +But one morning, out in the quadrangle, he noticed that Ferdinand +Holm in his turn was looking at him, in fact was putting his +glasses straight to get a better view of him--and Peer turned round +at once and walked away. + +Ferdinand, however, had been put into a higher class almost at +once, on the strength of his matriculation. Also he was going in +for a different branch of the work--roads and railway construction-- +so that it was only in the quadrangle and the passages that the +two ever met. + +But one afternoon, soon after Christmas, Peer was standing at work +in the big designing-room, when he heard steps behind him, and, +turning round, saw Klaus Brock and--Ferdinand Holm. + +"I wanted to make your acquaintance," said Holm, and when Klaus had +introduced them, he held out a large white hand with a red seal- +ring on the first finger. "We're namesakes, I understand, and +Brock here tells me you take your name from a country place called +Holm." + +"Yes. My father was a plain country farmer," said Peer, and at +once felt annoyed with himself for the ring of humility the words +seemed to have. + +"Well, the best is good enough," said the other with a smile. "I +say, though, has the first-term class gone as far as this in +projection drawing? Excuse my asking. You see, we had a good deal +of this sort of thing at the Military Academy, so that I know a +little about it." + +Thought Peer: "Oh, you'd like to give me a little good advice, +would you, if you dared?" Aloud he said: "No, the drawing was on +the blackboard--the senior class left it there--and I thought I'd +like to see what I could make out of it." + +The other sent him a sidelong glance. Then he nodded, said, "Good- +bye--hope we shall meet again," and walked off, his boots creaking +slightly as he went. His easy manners, his gait, the tone of his +voice, all seemed to irritate and humiliate Peer. Never mind--just +let him wait! + +Days passed, and weeks. Peer soon found another object to work for +than getting the better of Ferdinand Holm. Louise's dresses hung +still untouched in his room, her shoes stood under the bed; it +still seemed to him that some day she must open the door and walk +in. And when he lay there alone at night, the riddle was always +with him: Where is she now?--why should she have died?--would he +never meet her again? He saw her always as she had stood that day +playing to the sick folks in the hospital ward. But now she was +dressed in white. And it seemed quite natural now that she had +wings. He heard her music too--it cradled and rocked him. And all +this came to be a little world apart, where he could take refuge +for Sunday peace and devotion. It had nothing to do with faith or +religion, but it was there. And sometimes in the midst of his work +in the daytime he would divine, as in a quite separate consciousness, +the tones of a fiddle-bow drawn across the strings, like reddish +waves coming to him from far off, filling him with harmony, till he +smiled without knowing it. + +Often, though, a sort of hunger would come upon him to let his +being unfold in a great wide wave of organ music in the church. +But to church he never went any more. He would stride by a church +door with a kind of defiance. It might indeed be an Almighty Will +that had taken Louise from him, but if so he did not mean to give +thanks to such a Will or bow down before it. It was as though he +had in view a coming reckoning--his reckoning with something far +out in eternity--and he must see to it that when that time came he +could feel free--free. + +On Sunday mornings, when the church bells began to ring, he would +turn hastily to his books, as if to find peace in them. Knowledge-- +knowledge--could it stay his hunger for the music of the hymn? +When he had first started work at the shops, he had often and often +stood wide-eyed before some miracle--now he was gathering the power +to work miracles himself. And so he read and read, and drank in +all that he could draw from teacher or book, and thought and +thought things out for himself. Fixed lessons and set tasks were +all well enough, but Peer was for ever looking farther; for him +there were questions and more questions, riddles and new riddles-- +always new, always farther and farther on, towards the unknown. He +had made as yet but one step forward in physics, mathematics, +chemistry; he divined that there were worlds still before him, and +he must hasten on, on, on. Would the day ever come when he should +reach the end? What is knowledge? What use do men make of all +that they have learned? Look at the teachers, who knew so much-- +were they greater, richer, brighter beings than the rest? Could +much study bring a man so far that some night he could lift up a +finger and make the stars themselves break into song? Best drive +ahead, at any rate. But, again, could knowledge lead on to that +ecstasy of the Sunday psalm, that makes all riddles clear, that +bears a man upwards in nameless happiness, in which his soul +expands till it can enfold the infinite spaces? Well, at any rate +the best thing was to drive ahead, drive ahead both early and late. + +One day that spring, when the trees in the city avenues were +beginning to bud, Klaus Brock and Ferdinand Holm were sitting in a +cafe in North Street. "There goes your friend," said Ferdinand; +and looking from the window they saw Peer Holm passing the post- +office on the other side of the road. His clothes were shabby, his +shoes had not been cleaned, he walked slowly, his fair head with +its College cap bent forward, but seemed nevertheless to notice all +that was going on in the street. + +"Wonder what he's going pondering over now," said Klaus. + +"Look there--I suppose that's a type of carriage he's never seen +before. Why, he has got the driver to stop--" + +"I wouldn't mind betting he'll crawl in between the wheels to find +out whatever he's after," laughed Klaus, drawing back from the +window so as not to be seen. + +"He looks pale and fagged out," said Ferdinand, shifting his +glasses. "I suppose his people aren't very well off?" + +Klaus opened his eyes and looked at the other. "He's not +overburdened with cash, I fancy." + +They drank off their beer, and sat smoking and talking of other +things, until Ferdinand remarked casually: "By the way--about your +friend--are his parents still alive?" + +Klaus was by no means anxious to go into Peer's family affairs, and +answered briefly--No, he thought not. + +"I'm afraid I'm boring you with questions, but the fact is the +fellow interests me rather. There is something in his face, +something--arresting. Even the way he walks--where is it I've seen +some one walk like that before? And he works like a steam-engine, +I hear?" + +"Works!" repeated Klaus. "He'll ruin his health before long, the +way he goes on grinding. I believe he's got an idea that by much +learning he can learn at last to-- Ha-ha-ha!" + +"To do what?" + +"Why--to understand God!" + +Ferdinand was staring out of the window. "Funny enough," he said. + +"I ran across him last Sunday, up among the hills. He was out +studying geology, if you please. And if there's a lecture anywhere +about anything--whether it's astronomy or a French poet--you can +safely swear he'll be sitting there, taking notes. You can't +compete with a fellow like that! He'll run across a new name +somewhere--Aristotle, for instance. It's something new, and off he +must go to the library to look it up. And then he'll lie awake for +nights after, stuffing his head with translations from the Greek. +How the deuce can any one keep up with a man who goes at things +that way? There's one thing, though, that he knows nothing about." + +"And that is?" + +"Well, wine and women, we'll say--and fun in general. One thing he +isn't, by Jove!--and that's YOUNG." + +"Perhaps he's not been able to afford that sort of thing," said +Ferdinand, with something like a sigh. + +The two sat on for some time, and every now and then, when Klaus +was off his guard, Ferdinand would slip in another little question +about Peer. And by the time they had finished their second glass, +Klaus had admitted that people said Peer's mother had been a--well-- +no better than she should be. + +"And what about his father?" Ferdinand let fall casually. + +Klaus flushed uncomfortably at this. "Nobody--no--nobody knows +much about him," he stammered. "I'd tell you if I knew, hanged if +I wouldn't. No one has an idea who it was. He--he's very likely +in America." + +"You're always mighty mysterious when you get on the subject of his +family, I've noticed," said Ferdinand with a laugh. But Klaus +thought his companion looked a little pale. + +A few days later Peer was sitting alone in his room above the +stables, when he heard a step on the stairs, the door opened, and +Ferdinand Holm walked in. + +Peer rose involuntarily and grasped at the back of his chair as if +to steady himself. If this young coxcomb had come--from the +schoolmaster, for instance--or to take away his name--why, he'd +just throw him downstairs, that was all. + +"I thought I'd like to look you up, and see where you lived," began +the visitor, laying down his hat and taking a seat. "I've taken +you unawares, I see. Sorry to disturb you. But the fact is +there's something I wanted to speak to you about." + +"Oh, is there?" and Peer sat down as far as conveniently possible +from the other. + +"I've noticed, even in the few times we've happened to meet, that +you don't like me. Well, you know, that's a thing I'm not going to +put up with." + +"What do you mean?" asked Peer, hardly knowing whether to laugh or +not. + +"I want to be friends with you, that's all. You probably know a +good deal more about me than I do about you, but that need not +matter. Hullo--do you always drum with your fingers on the table +like that? Ha-ha-ha! Why, that was a habit of my father's, too." + +Peer stared at the other in silence. But his fingers stopped +drumming. + +"I rather envy you, you know, living as you do. When you come to +be a millionaire, you'll have an effective background for your +millions. And then, you must know a great deal more about life +than we do; and the knowledge that comes out of books must have +quite another spiritual value for you than for the rest of us, +who've been stuffed mechanically with 'lessons' and 'education' and +so forth since we were kids. And now you're going in for +engineering?" + +"Yes," said Peer. His face added pretty clearly, "And what concern +is it of yours?" + +"Well, it does seem to me that the modern technician is a priest in +his way--or no, perhaps I should rather call him a descendant of +old Prometheus. Quite a respectable ancestry, too, don't you +think? But has it ever struck you that with every victory over +nature won by the human spirit, a fragment of their omnipotence is +wrested from the hands of the gods? I always feel as if we were +using fire and steel, mechanical energy and human thought, as +weapons of revolt against the Heavenly tyranny. The day will come +when we shall no longer need to pray. The hour will strike when +the Heavenly potentates will be forced to capitulate, and in their +turn bend the knee to us. What do you think yourself? Jehovah +doesn't like engineers--that's MY opinion." + +"Sounds very well," said Peer briefly. But he had to admit to +himself that the other had put into words something that had been +struggling for expression in his own mind. + +"Of course for the present we two must be content with smaller +things," Ferdinand went on. "And I don't mind admitting that +laying out a bit of road, or a bit of railway, or bridging a ditch +or so, isn't work that appeals to me tremendously. But if a man +can get out into the wide world, there are things enough to be done +that give him plenty of chance to develop what's in him--if there +happens to be anything. I used to envy the great soldiers, who +went about to the ends of the earth, conquering wild tribes and +founding empires, organising and civilising where they went. But +in our day an engineer can find big jobs too, once he gets out in +the world--draining thousands of square miles of swamp, or +regulating the Nile, or linking two oceans together. That's the +sort of thing I'm going to take a hand in some day. As soon as +I've finished here, I'm off. And we'll leave it to the engineers +to come, say in a couple of hundred years or so, to start in +arranging tourist routes between the stars. Do you mind my +smoking?" + +"No, please do," said Peer. "But I'm sorry I haven't--" + +"I have--thanks all the same." Ferdinand took out his cigar-case, +and when Peer had declined the offered cigar, lit one himself. + +"Look here," he said, "won't you come out and have dinner with me +somewhere?" + +Peer started at his visitor. What did all this mean? + +"I'm a regular Spartan, as a rule, but they've just finished +dividing up my father's estate, so I'm in funds for the moment, and +why shouldn't we have a little dinner to celebrate? If you want to +change, I can wait outside--but come just as you are, of course, if +you prefer." + +Peer was more and more perplexed. Was there something behind all +this? Or was the fellow simply an astonishingly good sort? Giving +it up at last, he changed his collar and put on his best suit and +went. + +For the first time in his life he found himself in a first-class +restaurant, with small tables covered with snow-white tablecloths, +flowers in vases, napkins folded sugar-loaf shape, cut-glass bowls, +and coloured wine-glasses. Ferdinand seemed thoroughly at home, +and treated his companion with a friendly politeness. And during +the meal he managed to make the talk turn most of the time on +Peer's childhood and early days. + +When they had come to the coffee and cigars, Ferdinand leaned +across the table towards him, and said: "Look here, don't you +think we two ought to say thee and thou* to each other?" + + +* "Tutoyer," the mode of address of intimate friendship or +relationship. + + +"Oh, yes!" said Peer, really touched now. + +"We're both Holms, you know." + +"Yes. So we are." + +"And, after all, who knows that there mayn't be some sort of +connection? Come, now, don't look like that! I only want you to +look on me as your good friend, and to come to me if ever there's +anything I can do. We needn't live in each other's pockets, of +course, when other people are by--but we must take in Klaus Brock +along with us, don't you think?" + +Peer felt a strong impulse to run away. Did the other know +everything? If so, why didn't he speak straight out? + +As the two walked home in the clear light of the spring evening, +Ferdinand took his companion's arm, and said: "I don't know if +you've heard that I'm not on good terms with my people at home. +But the very first time I saw you, I had a sort of feeling that we +two belonged together. Somehow you seemed to remind me so of-- +well, to tell the truth, of my father. And he, let me tell you, +was a gallant gentleman--" + +Peer did not answer, and the matter went no farther then. + +But the next few days were an exciting time for Peer. He could not +quite make out how much Ferdinand knew, and nothing on earth would +have induced him to say anything more himself. And the other asked +no questions, but was just a first-rate comrade, behaving as if +they had been friends for years. He did not even ask Peer any more +about his childhood, and never again referred to his own family. +Peer was always reminding himself to be on his guard, but could not +help feeling glad all the same whenever they were to meet. + +He was invited one evening, with Klaus, to a wine-party at +Ferdinand's lodging, and found himself in a handsomely furnished +room, with pictures on the walls, and photographs of his host's +parents. There was one of his father as a young man, in uniform; +another of his grandfather, who had been a Judge of the Supreme +Court. "It's very good of you to be so interested in my people," +said Ferdinand with a smile. Klaus Brock looked from one to the +other, wondering to himself how things really stood between the +two. + +The summer vacation came round, and the students prepared to break +up and go their various ways. Klaus was to go home. And one day +Ferdinand came to Peer and said: "Look here, old man. I want you +to do me a great favour. I'd arranged to go to the seaside this +summer, but I've a chance of going up to the hills, too. Well, I +can't be in two places at once--couldn't you take on one of them +for me? Of course I'd pay all expenses." "No, thank you!" said +Peer, with a laugh. But when Klaus Brock came just before leaving +and said: "See here, Peer. Don't you think you and I might club +together and put a marble slab over--Louise's grave?", Peer was +touched, and clapped him on the shoulder. "What a good old fellow +you are, Klaus," he said. + +Later in the summer Peer set out alone on a tramp through the +country, and whenever he saw a chance, he would go up to one of the +farms and say: "Would you like to have a good map of the farm? +It'll cost ten crowns and my lodging while I'm at it." It made a +very pleasant holiday for him, and he came home with a little money +in his pocket to boot. + +His second year at the school was much like the first. He plodded +along at his work. And now and then his two friends would come and +drag him off for an evening's jollification. But after he had been +racketing about with the others, singing and shouting through the +sleeping town--and at last was alone and in his bed in the +darkness, another and a very different life began for him, face to +face with his innermost self. Where are you heading for, Peer? +What are you aiming at in all your labours? And he would try to +answer devoutly, as at evening prayers: Where? Why, of course, I +am going to be a great engineer. And then? I will be one of the +Sons of Prometheus, that head the revolt against the tyranny of +Heaven. And then? I will help to raise the great ladder on which +men can climb aloft--higher and higher, up towards the light, and +the spirit, and mastery over nature. And then? Live happily, +marry and have children, and a rich and beautiful home. And then? +Oh, well, one fine day, of course, one must grow old and die. And +then? And then? Aye, what then? + +At these times he found a shadowy comfort in taking refuge in the +world where Louise stood--playing, as he always saw her--and +cradling himself on the smooth red billows of her music. But why +was it that here most of all he felt that hunger for--for something +more? + +Ferdinand finished his College course, and went out, as he had +said, into the great world, and Klaus went with him. And so +throughout his third year Peer was mostly to be seen alone, always +with books under his arm, and head bent forward. + +Just as he was getting ready to go up for his final examination, a +letter from Ferdinand arrived, written from Egypt. "Come over +here, young fellow," he wrote. "We have got good billets at last +with a big British firm--Brown Bros., of London--a firm that's +building railways in Canada, bridges in India, harbour works in +Argentina, and canals and barrages here in Egypt. We can get you a +nice little post as draughtsman to begin with, and I enclose funds +for the passage out. So come along." + +But Peer did not go at once. He stayed on another year at the +College, as assistant to the lecturer on mechanics, while himself +going through the road and railway construction course, as his +half-brother had done. Some secret instinct urged him not to be +left behind even in this. + +As the year went on the letters from his two comrades became more +and more pressing and tempting. "Out here," wrote Klaus, "the +engineer is a missionary, proclaimer, not Jehovah, but the power +and culture of Europe. You're bound to take a hand in that, my +boy. There's work worthy of a great general waiting for you here." + +At last, one autumn day, when the woods stood yellow all around the +town, Peer drove away from his home with a big new travelling-trunk +strapped to the driver's seat. He had been up to the churchyard +before starting, with a little bunch of flowers for Louise's grave. +Who could say if he would ever see it again? + +At the station he stood for a moment looking back over the old city +with its cathedral, and the ancient fortress, where the sentry was +pacing back and forth against the skyline. Was this the end of his +youth? Louise--the room above the stables--the hospital, the +lazarette, the College. . . . And there lay the fjord, and far out +somewhere on the coast there stood no doubt a little grey fisher- +hut, where a pock-marked goodwife and her bow-legged goodman had +perhaps even now received the parcel of coffee and tobacco sent +them as a parting gift. + +And so Peer journeyed to the capital, and from there out into the +wide world. + + + +BOOK II + + +Chapter I + + +Some years had passed--a good many years--and once more summer +had come, and June. A passenger steamer, bound from Antwerp to +Christiania, was ploughing her way one evening over a sea so +motionlessly calm that it seemed a single vast mirror filled with a +sky of grey and pink-tinged clouds. There were plenty of passengers +on board, and no one felt inclined for bed; it was so warm, so +beautiful on deck. Some artists, on their way home from Paris or +Munich, cast about for amusements to pass the time; some ordered +wine, others had unearthed a concertina, and very soon, no one knew +how, a dance was in full swing. "No, my dear," said one or two +cautious mothers to their girls, "certainly not." But before long +the mothers were dancing themselves. Then there was a doctor in +spectacles, who stood up on a barrel and made a speech; and +presently two of the artists caught hold of the grey-bearded captain +and chaired him round the deck. The night was so clear, the skies +so ruddily beautiful, the air so soft, and out here on the open sea +all hearts were light and happy. + +"Who's that wooden-faced beggar over there that's too high and +mighty for a little fun?" asked Storaker the painter, of his friend +the sculptor Praas. + +"That fellow? Oh, he's the one that was so infernally instructive +at dinner, when we were talking about Egyptian vases." + +"So it is, by Jove! Schoolmaster abroad, I should think. When we +got on to Athens and Greek sculpture he condescended to set us +right about that, too." + +"I heard him this morning holding forth to the doctor on +Assyriology. No wonder he doesn't dance!" + +The passenger they were speaking of was a man of middle height, +between thirty and forty apparently, who lay stretched in a deck- +chair a little way off. He was dressed in grey throughout, from +his travelling-cap to the spats above his brown shoes. His face +was sallow, and the short brown beard was flecked with grey. But +his eyes had gay little gleams in them as they followed the +dancers. It was Peer Holm. + +As he sat there watching, it annoyed him to feel that he could not +let himself go like the others. But it was so long since he had +mixed with his own countrymen, that he felt insecure of his footing +and almost like a foreigner among them. Besides, in a few hours +now they should sight the skerries on the Norwegian coast; and the +thought awoke in him a strange excitement--it was a moment he had +dreamed of many and many a time out there in the wide world. + +After a while stillness fell on the decks around him, and he too +went below, but lay down in his cabin without undressing. He +thought of the time when he had passed that way on the outward +voyage, poor and unknown, and had watched the last island of his +native land sink below the sea-rim. Much had happened since then-- +and now that he had at last come home, what life awaited him there? + +A little after two in the morning he came on deck again, but stood +still in astonishment at finding that the vessel was now boring her +way through a thick woolly fog. The devil! thought he, beginning +to tramp up and down the deck impatiently. It seemed that his +great moment was to be lost--spoiled for him! But suddenly he +stopped by the railing, and stood gazing out into the east. + +What was that? Far out in the depths of the woolly fog a glowing +spot appeared; the grey mass around grew alive, began to move, to +redden, to thin out as if it were streaming up in flames. Ah! now +he knew! It was the globe of the sun, rising out of the sea. On +board, every point where the night's moisture had lodged began to +shine in gold. Each moment it grew clearer and lighter, and the +eye reached farther. And before he could take in what was +happening, the grey darkness had rolled itself up into mounds, into +mountains, that grew buoyant and floated aloft and melted away. +And there, all revealed, lay the fresh bright morning, with a clear +sun-filled sky over the blue sea. + +It was time now to get out his field-glasses. For a long time he +stood motionless, gazing intently through them. + +There! Was it his fancy? No, there far ahead he can see clearly +now a darker strip between sky and sea. It's the first skerry. It +is Norway, at last! + +Peer felt a sudden catch in his breath; he could hardly stand +still, but he stopped again and again in his walk to look once more +at the far-off strip of grey. And now there were seabirds too, +with long necks and swiftly-beating wings. Welcome home! + +And now the steamer is ploughing in among the skerries, and a world +of rocks and islets unfolds on every side. There is the first red +fisher-hut. And then the entrance to Christiansand, between wooded +hills and islands, where white cottages shine out, each with its +patch of green grassland and its flagstaff before it. + +Peer watched it all, drinking it in like nourishment. How good it +all tasted--he felt it would be long before he had drunk his fill. + +Then came the voyage up along the coast, all through a day of +brilliant sunshine and a luminous night. He saw the blue sounds +with swarms of white gulls hovering above them, the little coast- +towns with their long white-painted wooden houses, and flowers in +the windows. He had never passed this way before, and yet +something in him seemed to nod and say: "I know myself again +here." All the way up the Christiania Fjord there was the scent of +leaves and meadows; big farms stood by the shore shining in the +sun. This was what a great farm looked like. He nodded again. So +warm and fruitful it all seemed, and dear to him as home--though he +knew that, after all, he would be little better than a tourist in +his own country. There was no one waiting for him, no one to take +him in. Still, some day things might be very different. + +As the ship drew alongside the quay at Christiania, the other +passengers lined the rail, friends and relations came aboard, there +were tears and laughter and kisses and embraces. Peer lifted his +hat as he passed down the gangway, but no one had time to notice +him just now. And when he had found a hotel porter to look after +his luggage, he walked up alone through the town, as if he were a +stranger. + +The light nights made it difficult to sleep--he had actually +forgotten that it was light all night long. And this was a capital +city--yet so touchingly small, it seemed but a few steps wherever +he went. These were his countrymen, but he knew no one among them; +there was no one to greet him. Still, he thought again, some day +all this might be very different. + +At last, one day as he stood looking at the window of a +bookseller's shop, he heard a voice behind him: "Why, bless me! +surely it's Peer Holm!" It was one of his fellow-students at the +Technical College, Reidar Langberg, pale and thin now as ever. He +had been a shining light at the College, but now--now he looked +shabby, worn and aged. + +"I hardly knew you again," said Peer, grasping the other's hand. + +"And you're a millionaire, so they say--and famous, out in the big +world?" + +"Not quite so bad as that, old fellow. But what about you?" + +"I? Oh, don't talk about me." And as they walked down the street +together, Langberg poured out his tale, of how times were +desperately bad, and conditions at home here simply strangled a +man. He had started ten or twelve years ago as a draughtsman in +the offices of the State Railways, and was still there, with a +growing family--and "such pay--such pay, my dear fellow!" He threw +up his eyes and clasped his hands despairingly. + +"Look here," said Peer, interrupting him. "Where is the best place +in Christiania to go and have a good time in the evening?" + +"Well, St. Hans Hill, for instance. There's music there." + +"Right--will you come and dine with me there, to-night--shall we +say eight o'clock?" + +"Thanks. I should think I would!" + +Peer arrived in good time, and engaged a table on a verandah. +Langberg made his appearance shortly after, dressed in his well- +saved Sunday best--faded frock-coat, light trousers bagged at the +knees, and a straw hat yellow with age. + +"It's a pleasure to have someone to talk to again," said Peer. +"For the last year or so I've been knocking about pretty much by +myself." + +"Is it as long as that since you left Egypt?" + +"Yes; longer. I've been in Abyssinia since then." + +"Oh, of course, I remember now. It was in the papers. Building a +railway for King Menelik, weren't you?" + +"Oh, yes. But the last eighteen months or so I've been idling-- +running about to theatres and museums and so forth. I began at +Athens and finished up with London. I remember one day sitting on +the steps of the Parthenon declaiming the Antigone--and a moment +with some meaning in it seemed to have come at last." + +"But, dash it, man, you're surely not comparing such trifles with a +thing like the great Nile Barrage? You were on that for some +years, weren't you? Do let's hear something about that. Up by the +first cataract, wasn't it? And hadn't you enormous quarries there +on the spot? You see, even sitting at home here, I haven't quite +lost touch. But you--good Lord! what things you must have seen! +Fancy living at--what was the name of the town again?" + +"Assuan," answered Peer indifferently, looking out over the +gardens, where more and more visitors kept arriving. + +"They say the barrage is as great a miracle as the Pyramids. How +many sluice-gates are there again--a hundred and . . . ?" + +"Two hundred and sixteen," said Peer. "Look!" he broke off. "Do +you know those girls over there?" He nodded towards a party of +girls in light dresses who were sitting down at a table close by. + +Langberg shook his head. He was greedy for news from the great +world without, which he had never had the luck to see. + +"I've often wondered," he went on, "how you managed to come to the +front so in that sort of work--railways and barrages, and so forth-- +when, your original line was mechanical engineering. Of course +you did do an extra year on the roads and railway side; but . . ." + +Oh, this shining light of the schools! + +"What do you say to a glass of champagne?" said Peer. "How do you +like it? Sweet or dry?" + +"Why, is there any difference? I really didn't know. But when +one's a millionaire, of course . . ." + +"I'm not a millionaire," said Peer with a smile, and beckoned to a +waiter. + +"Oh! I heard you were. Didn't you invent a new motor-pump that +drove all the other types out of the field? And besides--that +Abyssinian railway. Oh well, well!" he sighed, "it's a good thing +somebody's lucky. The rest of us shouldn't complain. But how +about the other two--Klaus Brock and Ferdinand Holm? What are they +doing now?" + +"Klaus is looking after the Khedive's estates at Edfina. +Agriculture by steam power; his own railway lines to bring in the +produce, and so on. Yes, Klaus has ended up in a nice little place +of his own. His district's bigger than the kingdom of Denmark." + +"Good heavens!" Langberg nearly fell off his chair. "And +Ferdinand Holm; what about him?" + +"Oh, he's got bigger things on hand. Went nosing about the Libyan +desert, and found that considerable tracts of it have water-veins +only a few yards beneath the surface. If so, of course, it's only +a question of proper plant to turn an enormous area into a paradise +for corn-growing." + +"Good gracious! What a discovery!" gasped the other, almost +breathless now. + +Peer looked out over the fjord, and went on: "Last year he managed +at last to get the Khedive interested, and they've started a joint- +stock company now, with a capital of some millions. Ferdinand is +chief engineer." + +"And what's his salary? As much as fifty thousand crowns?" + +"His pay is two hundred thousand francs a year," said Peer, not +without some fear that his companion might faint. "Yes, he's an +able fellow, is Ferdinand." + +It took Langberg some time to get his breath again. At last he +asked, with a sidelong glance: + +"And you and Klaus Brock--I suppose you've put your millions in his +company?" + +Peer smiled as he sat looking out over the garden. Lifting his +glass, "Your good health," he said, for all answer. + +"Have you been in America, too?" went on the other. "No, I suppose +not!" + +"America? Yes, a few years back, when I was with Brown Bros., they +sent me over one time to buy plant. Nothing so surprising in that, +is there?" + +"No, no, of course not. I was only thinking--you went about there, +I daresay, and saw all the wonderful things--the miracles of +science they're always producing." + +"My dear fellow, if you only knew how deadly sick I am of miracles +of science! What I'm longing for is a country watermill that takes +twenty-four hours to grind a sack of corn." + +"What? What do you say?" Langberg bounced in his chair. "Ha-ha- +ha! You're the same old man, I can see." + +"I'm perfectly serious," said Peer, lifting his glass towards the +other. "Come. Here's to our old days together!" + +"Aye--thanks, a thousand thanks--to our old days together!--Ah, +delicious! Well, then, I suppose you've fallen in love away down +there in the land of the barbarians? Haven't you? Ha-ha-ha!" + +"Do you call Egypt a land of barbarians?" + +"Well, don't the fellahs still yoke their wives to their ploughs?" + +"A fellah will sit all night long outside his hut and gaze up at +the stars and give himself time to dream. And a merchant prince in +Vienna will dictate business letters in his automobile as he's +driving to the theatre, and write telegrams as he sits in the +stalls. One fine day he'll be sitting in his private box with a +telephone at one ear and listening to the opera with the other. +That's what the miracles of science are doing for us. Awe- +inspiring, isn't it?" + +"And you talk like that--a man that's helped to harness the Nile, +and has built railways through the desert?" + +Peer shrugged his shoulders, and offered the other a cigar from his +case. A waiter appeared with coffee. + +"To help mankind to make quicker progress--is that nothing?" + +"Lord! What I'd like to know is, where mankind are making for, +that they're in such a hurry." + +"That the Nile Barrage has doubled the production of corn in Egypt-- +created the possibilities of life for millions of human beings--is +that nothing?" + +"My good fellow, do you really think there aren't enough fools on +this earth already? Have we too little wailing and misery and +discontent and class-hatred as it is? Why must we go about to +double it?" + +"But hang it all, man--what about European culture? Surely you +felt yourself a sort of missionary of civilisation, where you have +been." + +"The spread of European civilisation in the East simply means that +half a dozen big financiers in London or Paris take a fancy to a +certain strip of Africa or Asia. They press a button, and out come +all the ministers and generals and missionaries and engineers with +a bow: At your service, gentlemen! + +"Culture! One wheel begets ten new ones. Brr-rrr! And the ten +again another hundred. Brr-rr-rrr--more speed, more competition-- +and all for what? For culture? No, my friend, for money. +Missionary! I tell you, as long as Western Europe with all its +wonders of modern science and its Christianity and its political +reforms hasn't turned out a better type of humanity than the mean +ruck of men we have now--we'd do best to stay at home and hold our +counfounded jaw. Here's ourselves!" and Peer emptied his glass. + +This was a sad hearing for poor Langberg. For he had been used to +comfort himself in his daily round with the thought that even he, +in his modest sphere, was doing his share in the great work of +civilising the world. + +At last he leaned back, watching the smoke from his cigar, and +smiling a little. + +"I remember a young fellow at the College," he said, "who used to +talk a good deal about Prometheus, and the grand work of liberating +humanity, by stealing new and ever new fire from Olympus." + +"That was me--yes," said Peer with a laugh. "As a matter of fact, +I was only quoting Ferdinand Holm." + +"You don't believe in all that now?" + +"It strikes me that fire and steel are rapidly turning men into +beasts. Machinery is killing more and more of what we call the +godlike in us." + +"But, good heavens, man! Surely a man can be a Christian even +if . . ." + +"Christian as much as you like. But don't you think it might soon +be time we found something better to worship than an ascetic on a +cross? Are we to keep on for ever singing Hallelujah because we've +saved our own skins and yet can haggle ourselves into heaven? Is +that religion?" + +"No, no, perhaps not. But I don't know . . ." + +"Neither do I. But it's all the same; for anyhow no such thing as +religious feeling exists any longer. Machinery is killing our +longings for eternity, too. Ask the good people in the great +cities. They spend Christmas Eve playing tunes from The Dollar +Princess on the gramophone." + +Langberg sat for a while watching the other attentively. Peer sat +smoking slowly; his face was flushed with the wine, but from time +to time his eyes half-closed, and his thoughts seemed to be +wandering in other fields than these. + +"And what do you think of doing now you are home again?" asked his +companion at last. + +Peer opened his eyes. "Doing? Oh, I don't know. Look about me +first of all. Then perhaps I may find a cottar's croft somewhere +and settle down and marry a dairymaid. Here's luck!" + +The gardens were full now of people in light summer dress, and in +the luminous evening a constant ripple of laughter and gay voices +came up to them. Peer looked curiously at the crowd, all strangers +to him, and asked his companion the names of some of the people. +Langberg pointed out one or two celebrities--a Cabinet Minister +sitting near by, a famous explorer a little farther off. "But I +don't know them personally," he added. "Can't afford society on +that scale, of course." + +"How beautiful it is here!" said Peer, looking out once more at the +yellow shimmer of light above the fjord. "And how good it is to be +home again!" + + + +Chapter II + + +He sat in the train on his way up-country, and from the carriage +window watched farms and meadows and tree-lined roads slide past. +Where was he going? He did not know himself. Why should not a man +start off at haphazard, and get out when the mood takes him? At +last he was able to travel through his own country without having +to think of half-pennies. He could let the days pass over his head +without care or trouble, and give himself good leisure to enjoy any +beauty that came in his way. + +There is Mjosen, the broad lake with the rich farmlands and long +wooded ridges on either side. He had never been here before, yet +it seemed as if something in him nodded a recognition to it all. +Once more he sat drinking in the rich, fruitful landscape--the +wooded hills, the fields and meadows seemed to spread themselves +out over empty places in his mind. + +But later in the day the landscape narrowed and they were in +Gudbrandsdalen, where the sunburned farms are set on green slopes +between the river and the mountains. Peer's head was full of +pictures from abroad, from the desert sands with their scorched +palm-trees to the canals of Venice. But here--he nodded again. +Here he was at home, though he had never seen the place before; +just this it was which had been calling to him all through his long +years of exile. + +At last on a sudden he gathered up his traps and got out, without +the least idea even of the name of the station. A meal at the +hotel, a knapsack on his back, and hey!--there before him lies the +road, up into the hills. + +Alone? What matter, when there are endless things that greet him +from every side with "Welcome home!" The road is steep, the air +grows lighter, the homesteads smaller. At last the huts look like +little matchboxes--from the valley, no doubt, it must seem as if +the people up here were living among the clouds. But many and many +a youth must have followed this road in the evenings, going up to +court his Mari or his Kari at the saeter-hut, the same road and the +same errand one generation after another. To Peer it seemed as if +all those lads now bore him company--aye, as if he discovered in +himself something of wanton youth that had managed to get free at +last. + +Puh! His coat must come off and his cap go into the knapsack. +Now, as the valley sinks and sinks farther beneath him, the view +across it widens farther and farther out over the uplands beyond. +Brown hills and blue, ridges livid or mossy-grey in the setting +sun, rising and falling wave behind wave, and beyond all a great +snowfield, like a sea of white breakers foaming against the sky. +But surely he had seen all this before? + +Ah! now he knew; it was the Lofoten Sea over again--with its white +foam-crested combers and long-drawn, heavy-breathing swell--a +rolling ocean turned to rock. Peer halted a moment leaning on his +stick, and his eyes half-closed. Could he not feel that same +ocean-swell rising and sinking in his own being? Did not the same +waves surge through the centuries, carrying the generations away +with them upon great wanderings? And in daily life the wave rolls +us along in the old familiar rhythm, and not one in ten thousand +lifts his head above it to ask: whither and why! Even now just +such a little wave has hold of him, taking him--whither and why? +Well, the coming days might show; meanwhile, there beyond was the +sea of stone rolling its eternal cadence under the endless sky. + +He wiped his forehead and turned and went his way. + +But what is that far off in the north-east? three sisters in white +shawls, lifting their heads to heaven--that must be Rondane. And +see how the evening sun is kindling the white peaks to purple and +gold. + +Puh!--only one more hill now, and here is the top at last. And +there ahead lie the great uplands, with marsh and mound and +gleaming tarns. Ah, what a relief! What wonder that his step +grows lighter and quicker? Before he knows it he is singing aloud +in mere gaiety of heart. Ah, dear God, what if after all it were +not too late to be young! + +A saeter. A little hut, standing on a patch of green, with split- +stick fence and a long cow-house of rough planks--it must be a +saeter! And listen--isn't that a girl singing? Peer slipped +softly through the gate and stood listening against the wall of the +byre. "Shap, shap, shap," went the streams of milk against the +pail. It must be a fairy sitting milking in there. Then came the +voice: + + + Oh, Sunday eve, oh, Sunday eve, + Ever wast thou my dearest eve! + + +"Shap, shap, shap!" went the milk once more in the pail--and +suddenly Peer joined in: + + + Oh bright, oh gentle Sunday eve-- + Wilt ever be my dearest eve! + + +The milking stopped, a cowbell tinkled as the cow turned her +inquiring face, and a girl's light-brown head of hair was thrust +out of the doorway--soon followed by the girl herself, slender, +eighteen, red-cheeked, fresh and smiling. + +"Good evening," said Peer, stretching out his hand. + +The girl looked at him for a moment, then cast a glance at her own +clothes--as women will when they see a man who takes their fancy. + +"An' who may you be?" she asked. + +"Can you cook me some cream-porridge?" + +"A' must finish milking first, then." + +Here was a job that Peer could help with. He took off his +knapsack, washed his hands, and was soon seated on a stool in the +close sweet air of the shed, milking busily. Then he fetched +water, and chopped some wood for the fire, the girl gazing at him +all the time, no doubt wondering who this crazy person could be. +When the porridge stood ready on the table, he insisted on her +sitting down close to him and sharing the meal. They ate a little, +and then laughed a little, and then chatted, and then ate and then +laughed again. When he asked what he had to pay, the girl said: +"Whatever you like"--and he gave her two crowns and then bent her +head back and kissed her lips. "What's the man up to?" he heard +her gasp behind him as he passed out; when he had gone a good way +and turned to look back, there she was in the doorway, shading her +eyes and watching him. + +Whither away now? Well, he was pretty sure to reach some other +inhabited place before night. This, he felt, was not his abiding- +place. No, it was not here. + +It was nearly midnight when he stood by the shore of a broad +mountain lake, beneath a snow-flecked hill-side. Here were a +couple of saeters, and across the lake, on a wooded island, stood a +small frame house that looked like some city people's summer +cottage. And see--over the lake, that still mirrored the evening +red, a boat appeared moving towards the island, and two white- +sleeved girls sat at the oars, singing as they rowed. A strange +feeling came over him. Here--here he would stay. + +In the saeter-hut stood an enormously fat woman, with a rope round +her middle, evidently ready to go to bed. Could she put him up for +the night? Why, yes, she supposed so--and she rolled off into +another room. And soon he was lying in a tiny chamber, in a bed +with a mountainous mattress and a quilt. There was a fresh smell +from the juniper twigs strewed about the newly-washed floor, and +the cheeses, which stood in rows all round the shelf-lined walls. +Ah! he had slept in many places and fashions--at sea in a Lofoten +boat; on the swaying back of a camel; in tents out in the moonlit +desert; and in palaces of the Arabian Nights, where dwarfs fanned +him with palm-leaves to drive away the heat, and called him pasha. +But here, at last, he had found a place where it was good to be. +And he closed his eyes, and lay listening to the murmur of a little +stream outside in the light summer night, till he fell asleep. + +Late in the forenoon of the next day he was awakened by the entry +of the old woman with coffee. Then a plunge into the blue-green +water of the mountain lake, a short swim, and back to find grilled +trout and new-baked waffles and thick cream for lunch. + +Yes, said the old woman, if he could get along with the sort of +victuals she could cook, he might stay here a few days and welcome. +The bed was standing there empty, anyway. + + + +Chapter III + + +So Peer stays on and goes fishing. He catches little; but time +goes leisurely here, and the summer lies soft and warm over the +brown and blue hillsides. He has soon learned that a merchant +named Uthoug, from Ringeby, is living in the house on the island, +with his wife and daughter. And what of it? + +Often he would lie in his boat, smoking his pipe, and giving +himself up to quiet dreams that came and passed. A young girl in a +white boat, moving over red waters in the evening--a secret meeting +on an island--no one must know just yet. . . . Would it ever +happen to him? Ah, no. + +The sun goes down, there come sounds of cow-bells nearing the +saeters, the musical cries and calls of the saeter-girls, the +lowing of the cattle. The mountains stand silent in the distance, +their snow-clad tops grown golden; the stream slides rippling by, +murmuring on through the luminous nights. + +Then at last came the day of all days. + +He had gone out for a long tramp at random over the hills, making +his way by compass, and noting landmarks to guide him back. Here +was a marsh covered with cloud-berries--the taste brought back his +own childhood. He wandered on up a pale-brown ridge flecked with +red heather--and what was that ahead? Smoke? He made towards it. +Yes, it was smoke. A ptarmigan fluttered out in front of him, with +a brood of tiny youngsters at her heels--Lord, what a shave!--he +stopped short to avoid treading on them. The smoke meant someone +near--possibly a camp of Lapps. Let's go and see. + +He topped the last mound, and there was the fire just below. Two +girls jumped to their feet; there was a bright coffee-kettle on the +fire, and on the moss-covered ground close by bread and butter and +sandwiches laid out on a paper tablecloth. + +Peer stopped short in surprise. The girls gazed at him for a +moment, and he at them, all three with a hesitating smile. + +At last Peer lifted his hat and asked the way to Rustad saeter. It +took them some time to explain this, and then they asked him the +time. He told them exactly to the minute, and then showed them his +watch so that they might see for themselves. All this took more +time. Meanwhile, they had inspected each other, and found no +reason to part company just yet. One of the girls was tall, +slender of figure, with a warm-coloured oval face and dark brown +hair. Her eyebrows were thick and met above the nose, delightful +to look at. She wore a blue serge dress, with the skirt kilted up +a little, leaving her ankles visible. The other was a blonde, +smaller of stature, and with a melancholy face, though she smiled +constantly. "Oh," she said suddenly, "have you a pocket-knife by +any chance?" + +"Oh yes!" Peer was just moving off, but gladly seized the +opportunity to stay a while. + +"We've a tin of sardines here, and nothing to open it with," said +the dark one. + +"Let me try," said Peer. As luck would have it, he managed to cut +himself a little, and the two girls tumbled over each other to tie +up the wound. It ended, of course, with their asking him to join +their coffee-party. + +"My name is Merle Uthoug," said the dark one, with a curtsy. + +"Oh, then, it's your father who has the place on the island in the +lake?" + +"My name's only Mork--Thea Mork. My father is a lawyer, and we +have a little cottage farther up the lake," said the blonde. + +Peer was about to introduce himself, when the dark girl interrupted: +"Oh, we know you already," she said. "We've seen you out rowing +on the lake so often. And we had to find out who you were. +We have a good pair of glasses . . ." + +"Merle!" broke in her companion warningly. + +". . . and then, yesterday, we sent one of the maids over +reconnoitring, to make inquiries and bring us a full report." + +"Merle! How can you say such things?" + +It was a cheery little feast. Ah! how young they were, these two +girls, and how they laughed at a joke, and what quantities of bread +and butter and coffee they all three disposed of! Merle now and +again would give their companion a sidelong glance, while Thea +laughed at all the wild things her friend said, and scolded her, +and looked anxiously at Peer. + +And now the sun was nearing the shoulder of a hill far in the west, +and evening was falling. They packed up their things, and Peer was +loaded up with a big bag of cloud-berries on his back, and a tin +pail to carry in his hand. "Give him some more," said Merle. +"It'll do him good to work for a change." + +"Merle, you really are too bad!" + +"Here you are," said the girl, and slid the handle of a basket into +his other hand. + +Then they set out down the hill. Merle sang and yodelled as they +went; then Peer sang, and then they all three sang together. And +when they came to a heather-tussock or a puddle, they did not +trouble to go round, but just jumped over it, and then gave another +jump for the fun of the thing. + +They passed the saeter and went on down to the water's edge, and +Peer proposed to row them home. And so they rowed across. And the +whole time they sat talking and laughing together as if they had +known each other for years. + +The boat touched land just below the cottage, and a broad- +shouldered man with a grey beard and a straw hat came down to meet +them. "Oh, father, are you back again?" cried Merle, and, +springing ashore, she flung her arms round his neck. The two +exchanged some whispered words, and the father glanced at Peer. +Then, taking off his hat, he came towards him and said politely, +"It was very kind of you to help the girls down." + +"This is Herr Holm, engineer and Egyptian," said Merle, "and this +is father." + +"I hear we are neighbours," said Uthoug. "We're just going to have +tea, so if you have nothing better to do, perhaps you will join +us." + +Outside the cottage stood a grey-haired lady with a pale face, +wearing spectacles. She had a thick white woollen shawl over her +shoulders, but even so she seemed to feel cold. "Welcome," she +said, and Peer thought there was a tremor in her voice. + +There were two small low rooms with an open fireplace in the one, +and in it there stood a table ready laid. But from the moment +Merle entered the house, she took command of everything, and +whisked in and out. Soon there was the sound of fish cooking in +the kitchen, and a moment later she came in with a plate full of +lettuce, and said: "Mr. Egyptian--you can make us an Arabian +salad, can't you?" + +Peer was delighted. "I should think so," he said. + +"You'll find salt and pepper and vinegar and oil on the table +there, and that's all we possess in the way of condiments. But it +must be a real Arabian salad all the same, if you please!" And out +she went again, while Peer busied himself with the salad. + +"I hope you will excuse my daughter," said Fru Uthoug, turning her +pale face towards him and looking through her spectacles. "She is +not really so wild as she seems." + +Uthoug himself walked up and down the room, chatting to Peer and +asking a great many questions about conditions in Egypt. He knew +something about the Mahdi, and General Gordon, and Khartoum, and +the strained relations between the Khedive and the Sultan. He was +evidently a diligent reader of the newspapers, and Peer gathered +that he was a Radical, and a man of some weight in his party. And +he looked as if there was plenty of fire smouldering under his +reddish eyelids: "A bad man to fall out with," thought Peer. + +They sat down to supper, and Peer noticed that Fru Uthoug grew less +pale and anxious as her daughter laughed and joked and chattered. +There even came a slight glow at last into the faded cheeks; the +eyes behind the spectacles seemed to shine with a light borrowed +from her daughter's. But her husband seemed not to notice +anything, and tried all the time to go on talking about the Mahdi +and the Khedive and the Sultan. + +So for the first time for many years Peer sat down to table in a +Norwegian home--and how good it was! Would he ever have a home of +his own, he wondered. + +After the meal, a mandolin was brought out, and they sat round the +fire in the great fireplace and had some music. Until at last +Merle rose and said: "Now, mother, it's time you went to bed." + +"Yes, dear," came the answer submissively, and Fru Uthoug said +good-night, and Merle led her off. + +Peer had risen to take leave, when Merle came in again. "Why," she +said, "you're surely not going off before you've rowed Thea home?" + +"Oh, Merle, please . . ." put in the other. + +But when the two had taken their places in the boat and were just +about to start up the lake, Merle came running down and said she +might just as well come too. + +Half an hour later, having seen the young girl safely ashore at her +father's place, Merle and Peer were alone, rowing back through the +still night over the waters of the lake, golden in the light and +dark blue in the shadows. Merle leaned back in the stern, silent, +trailing a small branch along the surface of the water behind. +After a while Peer laid in his oars and let the boat drift. + +"How beautiful it is!" he said. + +The girl lifted her head and looked round. "Yes," she answered, +and Peer fancied her voice had taken a new tone. + +It was past midnight. Heights and woods and saeters lay lifeless +in the soft suffused reddish light. The lake-trout were not rising +any more, but now and again the screech of a cock-ptarmigan could +be heard among the withies. + +"What made you come just here for your holiday, I wonder," she +asked suddenly. + +"I leave everything to chance, Froken Uthoug. It just happened so. +It's all so homelike here, wherever one goes. And it is so +wonderful to be home in Norway again." + +"But haven't you been to see your people--your father and mother-- +since you came home?" + +"I--! Do you suppose I have a father and mother?" + +"But near relations--surely you must have a brother or sister +somewhere in the world?" + +"Ah, if one only had! Though, after all, one can get on without." + +She looked at him searchingly, as if trying to see whether he spoke +in earnest. Then she said: + +"Do you know that mother dreamed of you before you came?" + +"Of me?" Peer's eyes opened wide. "What did she dream about me?" + +A sudden flush came to the girl's face, and she shook her head. +"It's foolish of me to sit here and tell you all this. But you see +that was why we wanted so much to find out about you when you came. +And it gives me a sort of feeling of our having known each other a +long time." + +"You appear to have a very constant flow of high spirits, Froken +Uthoug!" + +"I? Why do you think--? Oh, well, yes. One can come by most +things, you know, if one has to have them." + +"Even high spirits?" + +She turned her head and looked towards the shore. "Some day +perhaps--if we should come to be friends--I'll tell you more about +it." + +Peer bent to his oars and rowed on. The stillness of the night +drew them nearer and nearer together, and made them silent; only +now and then they would look at each other and smile. + +"What mysterious creature is this I have come upon?" thought Peer. +She might be about one-or two-and-twenty. She sat there with bowed +head, and in this soft glow the oval face had a strange light of +dreams upon it. But suddenly her glance came back and rested on +him again, and then she smiled, and he saw that her mouth was large +and her lips full and red. + +"I wish I had been all over the world, like you," she said. + +"Have you never been abroad, Froken Uthoug?" he asked. + +"I spent a winter in Berlin, once, and a few months in South +Germany. I played the violin a little, you see; and I hoped to +take it up seriously abroad and make something of it--but--" + +"Well, why shouldn't you?" + +She was silent for a little, then at last she said: "I suppose you +are sure to know about it some day, so I may just as well tell you +now. Mother has been out of her mind." + +"My dear Froken--" + +"And when she's at home my--high spirits are needed to help her to +be more or less herself." + +He felt an impulse to rise and go to the girl, and take her head +between his hands. But she looked up, with a melancholy smile; +their eyes met in a long look, and she forgot to withdraw her +glance. + +"I must go ashore now," she said at last. + +"Oh, so soon! Why, we have hardly begun our talk!" + +"I must go ashore now," she repeated; and her voice, though still +gentle, was not to be gainsaid. + +At last Peer was alone, rowing back to his saeter. As he rowed he +watched the girl going slowly up towards the cottage. When she +reached the door she turned for the first time and waved to him. +Then she stood for a moment looking after him, and then opened the +door and disappeared. He gazed at the door some time longer, as if +expecting to see it open again, but no sign of life was to be seen. + +The sun's rim was showing now above the distant ranges in the east, +and the white peaks in the north and west kindled in the morning +glow. Peer laid in his oars again, and rested, with his elbows on +his knees and his head in his hands. What could this thing be that +had befallen him today? + +How could those peaks stand round so aloof and indifferent, and +leave him here disconsolate and alone? + +What was it, this new rushing in his ears; this new rhythm of his +pulse? He lay back at last in the bottom of the boat, with hands +clasped behind his head, and let boat and all things drift. + +And when the glare of the rising sun came slanting into the boat +and beat dazzlingly in his face, he only turned his head a little +and let it shine full upon him. + +Now she is lying asleep over there, the morning streaming red +through her window--of whom is she dreaming as she sleeps? + +Have you ever seen such eyebrows before? To press one's lips to +them--to take her head between one's hand . . . and so it is to +save your mother that you give up your own dreams, and to warm her +soul that you keep that flame of gladness burning in you? Is that +the sort you are? + +Merle--was ever such a name? Are you called Merle? + +Day spreads over the heavens, kindling all the night-clouds, great +and small, to gold and scarlet. And here he lies, rocking, +rocking, on no lake, but on a red stately-heaving ocean swell. + +Ah! till now your mind has been so filled with cold mechanics, with +calculations, with steel and fire. More and more knowledge, ever +more striving to understand all things, to know all, to master all. +But meanwhile, the tones of the hymn died within you, and the +hunger for that which lies beyond all things grew ever fiercer and +fiercer. You thought it was Norway that you needed--and now you +are here. But is it enough? + +Merle--is your name Merle? + +There is nothing that can be likened to the first day of love. All +your learning, your travel, and deeds and dreams--all has been +nothing but dry firewood that you have dragged and heaped together. +And now has come a spark, and the whole heap blazes up, casting its +red glow over earth and heaven, and you stretch out your cold +hands, and warm them, and shiver with joy that a new bliss has come +upon the earth. + +And all that you could not understand--the relation between the +spark of eternity in your soul and the Power above, and the whole +of endless space--has all of a sudden become so clear that you lie +here trembling with joy at seeing to the very bottom of the +infinite enigma. + +You have but to take her by the hand, and "Here are we two," you +say to the powers of life and death. "Here is she and here am I-- +we two"--and you send the anthem rolling aloft--a strain from +little Louise's fiddle-bow mingling with it--not to the vaultings +of any church, but into endless space itself. And Thou, Power +above, now I understand Thee. How could I ever take seriously a +Power that sat on high playing with Sin and Grace--but now I see +Thee, not the bloodthirsty Jehovah, but a golden-haired youth, the +Light itself. We two worship Thee; not with a wail of prayer, but +with a great anthem, that has the World-All in it. All our powers, +our knowledge, our dreams--all are there. And each has its own +instrument, its own voice in the mighty chorus. The dawn reddening +over the hills is with us. The goat grazing on that northern +hillside, dazzled with sun-gold when it turns its head to the east-- +it is with us, too. The waking birds are with us. A frog, +crawling up out of a puddle and stopping to wonder at the morning-- +it is there. Even the little insect with diamonds on its wings-- +and the grass-blade with its pearl of dew, trying to mirror as much +of the sky as it can--it is there, it is there, it is there. We +are standing amid Love's first day, and there is no more talk of +grace or doubt or faith or need of aid; only a rushing sound of +music rising to heaven from all the golden rivers in our hearts. + +The saeters were beginning to wake. Musical cries came echoing as +the saeter-girls chid on the cattle, that moved slowly up to the +northern heights, with lowings and tinkling of bells. But Peer lay +still where he was--and presently the dairy-maid at the saeter +caught sight of what seemed an empty boat drifting on the lake, and +was afraid some accident had happened. + +"Merle," thought Peer, still lying motionless. "Is your name +Merle?" + +The dairy-maid was down by the waterside now, calling across toward +the boat. And at last she saw a man sit up, rubbing his eyes. + +"Mercy on us!" she cried. "Lord be thanked that you're there. And +you haven't been in the whole blessed night!" + +A goat with a broken leg, set in splints, had been left to stray at +will about the cattle-pens and in and out of the house, while its +leg-bones were setting. Peer must needs pick up the creature and +carry it round for a while in his arms, though it at once began +chewing at his beard. When he sat down to the breakfast-table, he +found something so touching in the look of the cream and butter, +the bread and the coffee, that it seemed a man would need a heart +of stone to be willing to eat such things. And when the old woman +said he really ought to get some food into him, he sprang up and +embraced her, as far as his arms would go round. "Nice carryings +on!" she cried, struggling to free herself. But when he went so +far as to imprint a sounding kiss on her forehead, she fetched him +a mighty push. "Lord!" she said, "if the gomeril hasn't gone clean +out of his wits this last night!" + + + +Chapter IV + + +Ringeby lay on the shore of a great lake; and was one of those busy +commercial towns which have sprung up in the last fifty years from +a nucleus consisting of a saw-mill and a flour-mill by the side of +a waterfall. Now quite a number of modern factories had spread +upwards along the river, and the place was a town with some four +thousand inhabitants, with a church of its own, a monster of a +school building, and numbers of yellow workmen's dwellings +scattered about at random in every direction. Otherwise Ringeby +was much like any other little town. There were two lawyers, who +fought for scraps of legal business, and the editors of two local +papers, who were constantly at loggerheads before the Conciliation +Board. There was a temperance lodge and Workers' Union and a +chapel and a picture palace. And every Sunday afternoon the good +citizens of Ringeby walked out along the fjord, with their wives on +their arms. On these occasions most of the men wore frock coats +and grey felt hats; but Enebak, the tanner, being hunchbacked, +preferred a tall silk hat, as better suited to eke out his height. + +On Saturday evenings, when twilight began to fall, the younger men +would meet at the corner outside Hammer's store, to discuss the +events of the week. + +"Have you heard the latest news?" asked Lovli, the bank cashier, of +his friend the telegraphist, who came up. + +"News? Do you tell me that there's ever any news in this accursed +hole?" + +"Merle Uthoug has come back from the mountains--engaged to be +married." + +"The devil she is! What does the old man say to that?" + +"Oh, well, the old man will want an engineer if he's to get the new +timber-mills into his clutches." + +"Is the man an engineer?" + +"From Egypt. A Muhammadan, I daresay. Brown as a coffee-berry, +and rolling in money." + +"Do you hear that, Froken Bull? Stop a minute, here's some news +for you." + +The girl addressed turned aside and joined them. "Oh, the same +piece of news that's all over the town, I suppose. Well, I can +tell you, he's most tremendously nice." + +"Sh!" whispered the telegraphist. Peer Holm was just coming out of +the Grand Hotel, dressed in a grey suit, and with a dark coat over +his arm. He was trying to get a newly-lit cigar to draw, as he +walked with a light elastic step past the group at the corner. A +little farther up the street he encountered Merle, and took her +arm, and the two walked off together, the young people at the +corner watching them as they went. + +"And when is it to be?" asked the telegraphist. + +"He wanted to be married immediately, I believe," said Froken Bull, +"but I suppose they'll have to wait till the banns are called, like +other people." + +Lorentz D. Uthoug's long, yellow-painted wooden house stood facing +the market square; the office and the big ironmonger's shop were on +the ground floor, and the family lived in the upper storeys. +"That's where he lives," people would say. Or "There he goes," as +the broad, grey-bearded man passed down the street. Was he such a +big man, then? He could hardly be called really rich, though he +had a saw-mill and a machine-shop and a flour-mill, and owned a +country place some way out of the town. But there was something of +the chieftain, something of the prophet, about him. He hated +priests. He read deep philosophical works, forbade his family to +go to church, and had been visited by Bjornson himself. It was +good to have him on your side; to have him against you was fatal-- +you might just as well clear out of the town altogether. He had a +finger in everything that went on; it was as if he owned the whole +town. He had been known to meet a youth he had never spoken to +before in the street and accost him with a peremptory "Understand +me, young man; you will marry that girl." Yet for all this, +Lorentz Uthoug was not altogether content. True, he was head and +shoulders above all the Ringeby folks, but what he really wanted +was to be the biggest man in a place a hundred times as large. + +And now that he had found a son-in-law, he seemed as it were to be +walking quietly round this stranger from the great world, taking +his measure, and asking in his thoughts: "Who are you at bottom? +What have you seen? What have you read? Are you progressive or +reactionary? Have you any proper respect for what I have +accomplished here, or are you going about laughing in your sleeve +and calling me a whale among the minnows?" + +Every morning when Peer woke in his room at the hotel he rubbed his +eyes. On the table beside his bed stood a photograph of a young +girl. What? Is it really you, Peer, that have found someone to +stand close to you at last? Someone in the world who cares about +you. When you have a cold, there'll be people to come round and be +anxious about you, and ask how you are getting on. And this to +happen to you! + +He dined at the Uthougs' every day, and there were always flowers +beside his plate. Often there would be some little surprise--a +silver spoon or fork, or a napkin-ring with his initials on. It +was like gathering the first straws to make his new nest. And the +pale woman with the spectacles looked kindly at him, as if to say: +"You are taking her from me, but I forgive you." + +One day he was sitting in the hotel, reading, when Merle came in. + +"Will you come for a walk?" she asked. + +"Good idea. Where shall we go to-day?" + +"Well, we haven't been to see Aunt Marit at Bruseth yet. We really +ought to go, you know. I'll take you there to-day." + +Peer found these ceremonial visits to his new relatives quite +amusing; he went round, as it were, collecting uncles and aunts. +And to-day there was a new one. Well, why not? + +"But--my dear girl, have you been crying?" he asked suddenly, +taking her head in his hands. + +"Oh, it's nothing. Come--let's go now." And she thrust him gently +away as he tried to kiss her. But the next moment she dropped into +a chair, and sat looking thoughtfully at him through half-closed +eyes, nodding her head very slightly. She seemed to be asking +herself: "Who is this man? What is this I am taking on me? A +fortnight ago he was an utter stranger--" + +She passed her hand across her brow. "It's mother--you know," she +said. + +"Is anything special wrong to-day?" + +"She's so afraid you're going to carry me off into the wide world +at a moment's notice." + +"But I've told her we're going to live here for the present." + +The girl drew up one side of her mouth in a smile, and her eyelids +almost closed. "And what about me, then? After living here all +these years crazy to get out into the world?" + +"And I, who am crazy to stay at home!" said Peer with a laugh. +"How delicious it will be to have a house and a family at last--and +peace and quiet!" + +"But what about me?" + +"You'll be there, too. I'll let you live with me." + +"Oh! how stupid you are to-day. If you only knew what it means, to +throw away the best years of one's youth in a hole like this! And +besides--I could have done something worth while in music--" + +"Why, then, let's go abroad, by all means," said Peer, wrinkling up +his forehead as if to laugh. + +"Oh, nonsense! you know it's quite impossible to go off and leave +mother now. But you certainly came at a very critical time. For +anyway I was longing and longing just then for someone to come and +carry me off." + +"Aha! so I was only a sort of ticket for the tour." He stepped +over and pinched her nose. + +"Oh! you'd better be careful. I haven't really promised yet to +have you, you know." + +"Haven't promised? When you practically asked me yourself." + +She clapped her hands together. "Why, what shameless impudence! +After my saying No, No, No, for days together. I won't, I won't, I +won't--I said it ever so many times. And you said it didn't +matter--for YOU WOULD. Yes, you took me most unfairly off my +guard; but now look out for yourself." + +The next moment she flung her arms round his neck. But when he +tried to kiss her, she pushed him away again. "No," she said, "you +mustn't think I did it for that!" + +Soon they were walking arm-in-arm along the country road, on their +way to Aunt Marit at Bruseth. It was September, and all about the +wooded hills stood yellow, and the cornfields were golden and the +rowan berries blood-red. But there was still summer in the air. + +"Ugh! how impossibly fast you walk," exclaimed Merle, stopping out +of breath. + +And when they came to a gate they sat down in the grass by the +wayside. Below them was the town, with its many roofs and chimneys +standing out against the shining lake, that lay framed in broad +stretches of farm and field. + +"Do you know how it came about that mother is--as she is?" asked +Merle suddenly. + +"No. I didn't like to ask you about it." + +She drew a stalk of grass between her lips. + +"Well, you see--mother's father was a clergyman. And when--when +father forbade her to go to church, she obeyed him. But she +couldn't sleep after that. She felt--as if she had sold her soul." + +"And what did your father say to that?" + +"Said it was hysteria. But, hysteria or not, mother couldn't +sleep. And at last they had to take her away to a home." + +"Poor soul!" said Peer, taking the girl's hand. + +"And when she came back from there she was so changed, one would +hardly have known her. And father gave way a little--more than he +ever used to do--and said: 'Well, well, I suppose you must go to +church if you wish, but you mustn't mind if I don't go with you.' +And so one Sunday she took my hand and we went together, but as we +reached the church door, and heard the organ playing inside, she +turned back. 'No--it's too late now,' she said. 'It's too late, +Merle.' And she has never been since." + +"And she has always been--strange--since then?" + +Merle sighed. "The worst of it is she sees so many evil things +compassing her about. She says the only thing to do is to laugh +them away. But she can't laugh herself. And so I have to. But +when I go away from her--oh! I can't bear to think of it." + +She hid her face against his shoulder, and he began stroking her +hair. + +"Tell me, Peer"--she looked up with her one-sided smile--"who is +right--mother or father?" + +"Have you been trying to puzzle that out?" + +"Yes. But it's so hopeless--so impossible to come to any sort of +certainty. What do you think? Tell me what you think, Peer." + +They sat there alone in the golden autumn day, her head pressed +against his shoulder. Why should he play the superior person and +try to put her off with vague phrases? + +"Dear Merle, I know, of course, no more than you do. There was a +time when I saw God standing with a rod in one hand and a sugar- +cake in the other--just punishment and rewards to all eternity. +Then I thrust Him from me, because He seemed to me so unjust--and +at last He vanished, melting into the solar systems on high, and +all the infinitesimal growths here on the earth below. What was my +life, what were my dreams, my joy or sorrow, to these? Where was I +making for? Ever and always there was something in me saying: He +IS! But where? Somewhere beyond and behind the things you know-- +it is there He is. And so I determined to know more things, more +and more and more--and what wiser was I? A steam-hammer crushes my +skull one day--and what has become of my part in progress and +culture and science? Am I as much of an accident as a fly on an +ant? Do I mean no more? Do I vanish and leave as little trace? +Answer me that, little Merle--what do YOU think?" + +The girl sat motionless, breathing softly, with closed eyes. Then +she began to smile--and her lips were full and red, and at last +they shaped themselves to a kiss. + + +Bruseth was a large farm lying high above the town, with its garden +and avenues and long verandahs round the white dwelling-house. And +what a view out over the lake and the country far around! The two +stood for a moment at the gate, looking back. + +Merle's aunt--her father's sister--was a widow, rich and a notable +manager, but capricious to a degree, capable of being generous one +day and grasping the next. It was the sorrow of her life that she +had no children of her own, but she had not yet decided who was to +be her heir. + +She came sailing into the room where the two young people were +waiting, and Peer saw her coming towards them, a tall, full-bosomed +woman with grey hair and florid colour. Oho! here's an aunt for +you with a vengeance, he thought. She pulled off a blue apron she +was wearing and appeared dressed in a black woollen gown, with a +gold chain about her neck and long gold earrings. + +"So you thought you'd come over at last," she said. "Actually +remembered my existence, after all, did you, Merle?" She turned +towards Peer, and stood examining him, with her hands on her hips. +"So that's what you look like, is it, Peer? And you're the man +that was to catch Merle? Well, you see I call you Peer at once, +even though you HAVE come all the way from--Arabia, is it? Sit +down, sit down." + +Wine was brought in, and Aunt Marit of Bruseth lifted a +congratulatory glass toward the pair with the following words: + +"You'll fight, of course. But don't overdo it, that's all. And +mark my words, Peer Holm, if you aren't good to her, I'll come +round one fine day and warm your ears for you. Your healths, +children!" + +The two went homewards arm-in-arm, dancing down the hillsides, and +singing gaily as they went. But suddenly, when they were still +some way from the town, Merle stopped and pointed. "There," she +whispered--"there's mother!" + +A solitary woman was walking slowly in the twilight over a wide +field of stubble, looking around her. It was as if she were +lingering here to search out the meaning of something--of many +things. From time to time she would glance up at the sky, or at +the town below, or at people passing on the road, and then she +would nod her head. How infinitely far off she seemed, how utterly +a stranger to all the noisy doings of men! What was she seeing +now? What were her thoughts? + +"Let us go on," whispered Merle, drawing him with her. And the +young girl suddenly began to sing, loudly, as if in an overflow of +spirits; and Peer guessed that it was for her mother's sake. +Perhaps the lonely woman stood there now in the twilight smiling +after them. + + +One Sunday morning Merle drove up to the hotel in a light cart with +a big brown horse; Peer came out and climbed in, leaving the reins +to her. They were going out along the fjord to look at her +father's big estate which in olden days had been the County +Governors' official residence. + +It is the end of September. The sun is still warm, but the waters +of the lake are grey and all the fields are reaped. Here and there +a strip of yellowing potato-stalks lies waiting to be dug up. Up +on the hillsides horses tethered for grazing stand nodding their +heads slowly, as if they knew that it was Sunday. And a faint mist +left by the damps of the night floats about here and there over the +broad landscape. + +They passed through a wood, and came on the other side to an avenue +of old ash trees, that turned up from the road and ran uphill to a +big house where a flag was flying. The great white dwelling-house +stood high, as if to look out far over the world; the red farm- +buildings enclosed the wide courtyard on three sides, and below +were gardens and broad lands, sloping down towards the lake. +Something like an estate! + +"What's the name of that place?" cried Peer, gazing at it. + +"Loreng." + +"And who owns it?" + +"Don't know," answered the girl, cracking her whip. + +Next moment the horse turned in to the avenue, and Peer caught +involuntarily at the reins. "Hei! Brownie--where are you going?" +he cried. + +"Why not go up and have a look?" said Merle. + +"But we were going out to look at your father's place." + +"Well, that is father's place." + +Peer stared at her face and let go the reins. "What? What? You +don't mean to say your father owns that place there?" + +A few minutes later they were strolling through the great, low- +ceiled rooms. The whole house was empty now, the farm-bailiff +living in the servants' quarters. Peer grew more and more +enthusiastic. Here, in these great rooms, there had been festive +gatherings enough in the days of the old Governors, where cavaliers +in uniform or with elegant shirt-frills and golden spurs had kissed +the hands of ladies in sweeping silk robes. Old mahogany, pot- +pourri, convivial song, wit, grace--Peer saw it all in his mind's +eye, and again and again he had to give vent to his feelings by +seizing Merle and embracing her. + +"Oh, but look here, Merle--you know, this is a fairy-tale." + +They passed out into the old neglected garden with its grass-grown +paths and well-filled carp-ponds and tumble-down pavilions. Peer +rushed about it in all directions. Here, too, there had been +fetes, with coloured lamps festooned around, and couples whispering +in the shade of every bush. "Merle, did you say your father was +going to sell all this to the State?" + +"Yes, that's what it will come to, I expect," she answered. "The +place doesn't pay, he says, when he can't live here himself to look +after it." + +"But what use can the State make of it?" + +"Oh, a Home for Imbeciles, I believe." + +"Good Lord! I might have guessed it! An idiot asylum--to be +sure." He tramped about, fairly jumping with excitement. "Merle, +look here--will you come and live here?" + +She threw back her head and looked at him. "I ask you, Merle. +Will you come and live here?" + +"Do you want me to answer this moment, on the spot?" + +"Yes. For I want to buy it this moment, on the spot." + +"Well, aren't you--" + +"Look, Merle, just look at it all. That long balcony there, with +the doric columns--nothing shoddy about that--it's the real thing. +Empire. I know something about it." + +"But it'll cost a great deal, Peer." There was some reluctance in +her voice. Was she thinking of her violin? Was she loth to take +root too firmly? + +"A great deal?" he said. "What did your father give for it?" + +"The place was sold by auction, and he got it cheap. Fifty +thousand crowns, I think it was." + +Peer strode off towards the house again. "We'll buy it. It's the +very place to make into a home. . . . Horses, cattle, sheep, +goats, cottars--ah! it'll be grand." + +Merle followed him more slowly. "But, Peer, remember you've just +taken over father's machine-shops in town." + +"Pooh!" said Peer scornfully. "Do you think I can't manage to run +that village smithy and live here too! Come along, Merle." And he +took her hand and drew her into the house again. + +It was useless to try to resist. He dragged her from room to room, +furnishing as he went along. "This room here is the dining-room-- +and that's the big reception-room; this will be the study--that's a +boudoir for you. . . . Come now; to-morrow we'll go into +Christiania and buy the furniture." + +Merle gasped for breath. He had got so far by this time that the +furnishing was complete and they were installed. They had a +governess already, and he was giving parties too. Here was the +ballroom. He slipped an arm round her waist and danced round the +room with her, till she was carried away by his enthusiasm, and +stood flushed and beaming, while all she had dreamed of finding +some day out in the wide world seemed suddenly to unfold around her +here in these empty rooms. Was this really to be her home? She +stopped to take breath and to look around her. + +Late that evening Peer sat at the hotel with a note-book, working +the thing out. He had bought Loreng; his father-in-law had been +reasonable, and had let him have the place, lands and woods and +all, for the ridiculous price he had paid himself. There was a +mortgage of thirty thousand crowns on the estate. Well, that might +stand as it was, for the bulk of Peer's money was tied up in +Ferdinand Holm's company. + +A few days after he carried Merle off to the capital, leaving the +carpenters and painters hard at work at Loreng. + +One day he was sitting alone at the hotel in Christiania--Merle was +out shopping--when there was a very discreet knock at the door. + +"Come in," called Peer. And in walked a middle-sized man, of +thirty or more, dressed in a black frock-coat with a large- +patterned vest, and his dark hair carefully combed over a bald +patch on the crown. He had a red, cheery face; his eyes were of +the brightest blue, and the whole man breathed and shone with good +humour. + +"I am Uthoug junior," said the new-comer, with a bow and a laugh. + +"Oh--that's capital." + +"Just come across from Manchester--beastly voyage. Thanks, thanks-- +I'll find a seat." He sat down, and flung one striped trouser-leg +over the other. + +Peer sent for some wine, and in half an hour the two were firm +allies. Uthoug junior's life-story to date was quickly told. He +had run away from home because his father had refused to let him go +on the stage--had found on trial that in these days there weren't +enough theatres to go round--then had set up in business for +himself, and now had a general agency for the sale of English +tweeds. "Freedom, freedom," was his idea; "lots of elbow-room-- +room to turn about in--without with your leave or by your leave to +father or anyone! Your health!" + + +A week later the street outside Lorentz D. Uthoug's house in +Ringeby was densely crowded with people, all gazing up at the long +rows of lighted windows. There was feasting to-night in the great +man's house. About midnight a carriage drove up to the door. +"That's the bridegroom's," whispered a bystander. "He got those +horses from Denmark!" + +The street door opened, and a white figure, thickly cloaked, +appeared on the steps. "The bride!" whispered the crowd. Then a +slender man in a dark overcoat and silk hat. "The bridegroom!" +And as the pair passed out, "Hip-hip-hip--" went the voice of the +general agent for English tweeds, and the hurrahs came with a will. + +The carriage moved off, and Peer sat, with his arm round his bride, +driving his horses at a sharp trot out along the fjord. Out +towards his home, towards his palace, towards a new and untried +future. + + + +Chapter V + + +A little shaggy, grey-bearded old man stood chopping and sawing in +the wood-shed at Loreng. He had been there longer than anyone +could remember. One master left, another took his place--what was +that to the little man? Didn't the one need firewood--and didn't +the other need firewood just the same? In the evening he crept up +to his den in the loft of the servants' wing; at meal-times he sat +himself down in the last seat at the kitchen-table, and it seemed +to him that there was always food to be had. Nowadays the master's +name was Holm--an engineer he was--and the little man blinked at +him with his eyes, and went on chopping in the shed. If they came +and told him he was not wanted and must go--why, thank heaven, he +was stone deaf, as everyone knew. Thud, thud, went his axe in the +shed; and the others about the place were so used to it that they +heeded it no more than the ticking of a clock upon the wall. + +In the kitchen of the big house two girls stood by the window +peeping out into the garden and giggling. + +"There he is again," said Laura. "Sh! don't laugh so loud. There! +now he's stopping again!" + +"He's whistling to a bird," said Oliana. "Or talking to himself +perhaps. Do you think he's quite right in his head?" + +"Sh! The mistress'll hear." + +It was no less a person than the master of Loreng himself whose +proceedings struck them as so comic. + +Peer it was, wandering about in the great neglected garden, with +his hands in the pockets of his knickerbockers and his cap on the +back of his head, stopping here and there, and moving on again as +the fancy took him. Sometimes he would hum a snatch of a song, and +again fall to whistling; here he would pick up a twig and look at +it, or again it might be a bird, or perhaps an old neglected apple- +tree that seemed worth stopping to talk to. The best of it was +that these were his own lands and his own woods that lay there in +the rusty October sunshine. Was all that nothing? And the hill +over on the farther shore, standing on its head in the dark lake- +mirror, clothed in a whole world of colour--yellow leaves and green +leaves, and light red and dark red, and golden and blood-red +patches, with the dark green of the pines between. His eyes had +all this to rest on. Did he really live here? What abundant +fruitfulness all around him! What a sky, so wide, so golden that +it seemed to ring again. The potato-stalks lay uprooted, scattered +on the fields; the corn was safely housed. And here he stood. He +seemed again to be drawing in nourishment from all he saw, drinking +it greedily. The empty places in his mind were filled; the sight +of the rich soft landscape worked on his being, giving it something +of its own abundant fruitfulness, its own wide repose. + +And--what next? + +"What next?" he mimicked in his thoughts, and started again +tramping up and down the garden paths. What next--what next? +Could he not afford now to take his time--to rest a little? Every +man must have an end in view--must strive to reach this goal or +that. And what was his object now? What was it he had so toiled +for, from those hard years in the loft above the stable even until +now? What was it? Often it seemed as if everything were going +smoothly, going of itself; as if one day, surely, he would find his +part in a great, happy world-harmony. But had he not already found +it? What more would he have? Of course he had found it. + +But is this all, then? What is there behind and beyond? Hush! +have done with questioning. Look at the beauty around you. Here +is peace, peace and rest. + +He hurried up to the house, and in--it might help matters if he +could take his wife in his arms; perhaps get her to come out with +him a while. + +Merle was in the pantry, with a big apron on, ranging jars of +preserves on the shelves. + +"Here, dearest little wife," cried Peer, throwing his arms about +her, "what do you say to a little run?" + +"Now? Do you suppose a housewife has nothing better to do than gad +about? Uf! my hair! you'll make it come down." + +Peer took her arm and led her over to a window looking out on the +lake. "There, dearest! Isn't it lovely here?" + +"Peer, you've asked me that twenty times a day ever since we came." + +"Yes, and you never answer. And you've never once yet run and +thrown your arms round my neck and said how happy you were. And +it's never yet come to pass that you've given me a single kiss of +your own accord." + +"I should think not, when you steal such a lot." And she pushed +him aside, and slipped under his arm, and ran out of the room. "I +must go in and see mother again to-day," she said as she went. + +"Huit! Of course!" He paced up and down the room, his step +growing more and more impatient. "In to mother--in to mother! +Always and everlastingly mother and mother and nothing else. +Huit!" and he began to whistle. + +Merle put her head in at the door. "Peer--have you such a terrible +lot of spare time?" + +"Well, yes and no. I'm busy enough looking about in every corner +here for something or another. But I can't find it, and I don't +even know exactly what it is. Oh well, yes--I have plenty of time +to spare." + +"But what about the farm?" + +"Well, there's the dairy-woman in the cow-house, and the groom in +the stables, and the bailiff to worry the tenants and workpeople. +What am I to do--poke around making improvements?" + +"But what about the machine-shop?" + +"Don't I go in twice a day--cycle over to see how things are going? +But with Rode for manager--that excellent and high-principled +engineer--" + +"Surely you could help him in some way?" + +"He's got to go on running along the line of rails he's used to-- +nothing else for it, my darling. And four or five thousand crowns +a year, net profit--why, it's magnificent!" + +"But couldn't you extend the business?" + +He raised his eyebrows, and his mouth pursed itself up. + +"Extend--did you say extend? Extend a--a doll's house!" + +"Oh, Peer, you shouldn't laugh at it--a thing that father took so +much pains to set going!" + +"And YOU shouldn't go worrying me to get to work again in earnest, +Merle. You shouldn't really. One of these days I might discover +that there's no way to be happy in the world but to drag a plough +and look straight ahead and forget that there's anything else in +existence. It may come to that one day--but give me a little +breathing-space first, and you love me. Well, good-bye for a +while." + +Merle, busying herself again in her pantry, glanced out of the +window and saw him disappear into the stables. At first she had +gone with him when he wandered about like this, touching and +feeling all his possessions. In the cattle-stalls, it might be, +stroking and patting, getting himself covered with hairs, and +chattering away in childish glee. "Look, Merle--this cow is mine, +child! Dagros her name is--and she's mine. We have forty of them-- +and they're all mine. And that nag there--what a sight he is! We +have eight of them. They're mine. Yours too, of course. But you +don't care a bit about it. You haven't even hugged any of them +yet. But when a man's been as poor as I've been--and suddenly +wakened up one day and found he owned all this-- No, wait a +minute, Merle--come and kiss old Brownie." She knew the ritual +now--he could go over it all again and again, and each time with +the same happy wonder. Was it odious of her that she was beginning +to find it a little comic? And how did it come about that often, +when she might be filled with the deepest longing for him, and he +burst in upon her boisterously, hungry for her caresses, she would +grow suddenly cold, and put him aside? What was the matter? Why +did she behave like this? + +Perhaps it was because he was so much the stronger, so overwhelming +in his effect on her that she had to keep a tight hold on herself +to avoid being swept clean away and losing her identity. At one +moment they might be sitting in the lamplight, chatting easily +together, and so near in heart and mind; and the next it would be +over--he would suddenly have started up and be pacing up and down +the room, delivering a sort of lecture. Merle--isn't it marvellous, +the spiritual life of plants? And then would come a torrent of talk +about strange plant-growths in the north and in the south, plants +whose names she had never even heard--their struggle for existence, +their loves and longings, their heroism in disease, the divine +marvel of their death. Their inventions, their wisdom, aye, their +religious sense--is it not marvellous, Merle? From this it was only +a step to the earth's strata, fossils, crystals--a fresh lecture. +And finally he would sum up the whole into one great harmony of +development, from the primary cell-life to the laws of gravitation +that rule the courses of the stars. Was it not marvellous? One +common rhythm beating through the universe--a symphony of worlds!-- +And then he must have a kiss! + +But she could only draw back and put him gently aside. It was as +if he came with all his stored-up knowledge--his lore of plants and +fossils, crystals and stars--and poured it all out in a caress. +She could almost have cried out for help. And after hurrying her +through the wonders of the universe in this fashion, he would +suddenly catch her up in his arms, and whirl her off in a +passionate intoxication of the senses till she woke at last like a +castaway on an island, hardly knowing where or what she was. She +laughed, but she could have found it in her heart to weep. Could +this be love? In this strong man, whose life till now had been all +study and work, the stored-up feeling burst vehemently forth, now +that it had found an outlet. But why did it leave her so cold? + +When Peer came in from the stables, humming a tune, he found her in +the sitting-room, dressed in a dark woollen dress with a red ribbon +round her throat. + +He stopped short: "By Jove--how that suits you, Merle!" + +She let her eyes linger on him for a moment, and then came up and +threw her arms round his neck. + +"Did he have to go to the stables all alone today?" + +"Yes; I've been having a chat with the young colt." + +"Am I unkind to you, Peer?" + +"You?--you!" + +"Not even if I ask you to drive me in to see mother?" + +"Why, that's the very thing. The new horse I bought yesterday from +Captain Myhre should be here any minute--I'm just waiting for it." + +"A new horse--to ride?" + +"Yes. Hang it--I must get some riding. I had to handle Arab +horses for years. But we'll try this one in the gig first." + +Merle was still standing with her arms round his neck, and now she +pressed her warm rich lips to his, close and closer. It was at +such moments that she loved him--when he stood trembling with a joy +unexpected, that took him unawares. She too trembled, with a +blissful thrill through soul and body; for once and at last it was +she who gave. + +"Ah!" he breathed at last, pale with emotion. "I--I'd be glad to +die like that." + +A little later they stood on the balcony looking over the courtyard, +when a bearded farm-hand came up with a big light-maned chestnut +horse prancing in a halter. The beast stood still in the middle of +the yard, flung up its head, and neighed, and the horses in the +stable neighed in answer. + +"Oh, what a beauty!" exclaimed Merle, clapping her hands. + +"Put him into the gig," called Peer to the stable-boy who had come +out to take the horse. + +The man touched his cap. "Horse has never been driven before, sir, +I was to say." + +"Everything must have a beginning," said Peer. + +Merle glanced at him. But they were both dressed to go out when +the chestnut came dancing up before the door with the gig. The +white hoofs pawed impatiently, the head was high in the air, and +the eyes flashed fire--he wasn't used to having shafts pressing on +his sides and wheels rumbling just behind him. Peer lit a cigar. + +"You're not going to smoke?" Merle burst out. + +"Just to show him I'm not excited," said Peer. No sooner had they +taken their seats in the gig than the beast began to snort and +rear, but the long lash flicked out over its neck, and a minute +later they were tearing off in a cloud of dust towards the town. + + +Winter came--and a real winter it was. Peer moved about from one +window to another, calling all the time to Merle to come and look. +He had been away so long--the winter of Eastern Norway was all +new to him. Look--look! A world of white--a frozen white +tranquillity--woods, plains, lakes all in white, a fairy-tale in +sunlight, a dreamland at night under the great bright moon. There +was a ringing of sleigh-bells out on the lake, and up in the snow- +powdered forest; the frost stood thick on the horses' manes and the +men's beards were hung with icicles. And in the middle of the +night loud reports of splitting ice would come from the lake-- +sounds to make one sit up in bed with a start. + +Driving's worth while in weather like this--come, Merle. The new +stallion from Gudbrandsdal wants breaking in--we'll take him. +Hallo! and away they go in their furs, swinging out over the frozen +lake, whirling on to the bare glassy ice, where they skid and come +near capsizing, and Merle screams--but they get on to snow, and +hoofs and runners grip again. None of your galloping--trot now, +trot! And Peer cracks his whip. The black, long-maned +Gudbrandsdaler lifts his head and trots out. And the evening +comes, and under the wide and starry sky they dash up again to +Loreng--Loreng that lies there lighting them home with its long +rows of glowing windows. A glorious day, wife! + +Or they would go out on ski over the hills to the woodmen's huts in +the forest, and make a blazing fire in the big chimney and drink +steaming coffee. Then home again through one of those pale winter +evenings with a violet twilight over woods and fields and lake, +over white snow and blue. Far away on the brown hillside in the +west stands a farmhouse, with all its windows flaming with the +reflection from a golden cloud. Here they come rushing, the wind +of their passing shaking the snow from the pines; on, on, over +deep-rutted woodcutters' roads, over stumps and stones--falling, +bruising themselves, burying their faces deep in the snow, but +dragging themselves up again, smiling to each other and rushing on +again. Then, reaching home red and dripping, they lean the ski up +against the wall, and stamp the snow off their boots. + +"Merle," said Peer, picking the ice from his beard, "we must have a +bottle of Burgundy at dinner to-night." + +"Yes--and shall we ring up and ask someone to come over?" + +"Someone--from outside? Can't we two have a little jollification +all to ourselves?" + +"Yes, yes, of course, if you like." + +A shower-bath--a change of underclothes--how delicious! And--an +idea! He'll appear at dinner in evening dress, just for a +surprise. But as he entered the room he stopped short. For there +stood Merle herself in evening dress--a dress of dark red velvet, +with his locket round her neck and the big plaits of hair rolled +into a generous knot low on her neck. Flowers on the table--the +wine set to warm--the finest glass, the best silver--ptarmigan--how +splendid! They lift their glasses filled with the red wine and +drink to each other. + +The frozen winter landscape still lingered in their thoughts, but +the sun had warmed their souls; they laughed and jested, held each +other's hands long, and sat smiling at each other in long silences. + +"A glorious day to-day, Merle. And to-morrow we die." + +"What do you say!--to-morrow!" + +"Or fifty years hence. It comes to the same thing." He pressed +her hand and his eyes half closed. + +"But this evening we're together--and what could we want more?" + +Then he fell to talking of his Egyptian experiences. He had once +spent a month's holiday in visiting ruined cities with Maspero, the +great Maspero himself, going with him to Luxor, to Karnak, with its +great avenues of sphinxes, to El Amarna and Shubra. They had +looked on ancient cities of temples and king's mausoleums, where +men thousands of years dead lay as if lost in thought, with eyes +wide open, ready at any moment to rise and call out: Slave, is the +bath ready? There in the middle of a cornfield rises an obelisk. +You ask what it is--it is all that is left of a royal city. There, +too, a hundred thousand years ago maybe, young couples have sat +together, drinking to each other in wine, revelling in all the +delights of love--and where are they now? Aye, where are they, can +you tell me? + +"When that journey was over, Merle, I began to think that it was +not mere slime of the Nile that fertilised the fields; it was the +mouldered bodies of the dead. I rode over dust that had been human +fingers, lips that had clung in kisses. Millions and millions of +men and women have lived on those river-banks, and what has become +of them now? Geology. And I thought of the millions of prayers +wailed out there to the sun and stars, to stone idols in the +temples, to crocodiles and snakes and the river itself, the sacred +river. And the air, Merle--the air received them, and vibrated for +a second--and that was all. And even so our prayers go up, to this +very day. We press our warm lips to a cold stone, and think to +leave an impression. Skaal!" + +But Merle did not touch her glass; she sat still, with her eyes on +the yellow lampshade. She had not yet given up all her dreams of +going forth and conquering the world with her music--and he sat +there rolling out eternity itself before her, while he and she +herself, her parents, all, all became as chaff blown before the +wind and vanished. + +"What, won't you drink with me? Well, well--then I must pledge you +by myself. Skaal!" + +And being well started on his travellers' tales he went on with +them, but now in a more cheerful vein, so that she found it +possible to smile. He told of the great lake-swamps, with their +legions of birds, ibis, pelicans, swans, flamingos, herons, and +storks--a world of long beaks and curved breasts and stilt-like +legs and shrieking and beating of wings. Most wonderful of all it +was to stand and watch and be left behind when the birds of passage +flew northward in their thousands in the spring. My love to +Norway, he would say, as they passed. And in the autumn to see +them return, grey goose, starling, wagtail, and all the rest. "How +goes it now at home?" he would think--and "Next time I'll go with +you," he would promise himself year after year. + +"And here I am at last! Skaal!" + +"Welcome home," said Merle, lifting her glass with a smile. + +He rang the bell. "What do you want?" her eyes asked. + +"Champagne," said Peer to the maid, who appeared and vanished +again. + +"Are you crazy, Peer?" + +He leaned back, flushed and in happy mood, lit a cigarette and told +of his greatest triumph out there; it was after he had finished his +work at the cataracts, and had started again with a branch of the +English firm in Alexandria. One morning in walked the Chief and +said: "Now, gentlemen, here's a chance for a man that has the +stuff in him to win his spurs--who's ready?" And half a score of +voices answered "I." "Well, here's the King of Abyssinia suddenly +finds he must be in the fashion and have a railway--couple of +hundred miles of it--what do you say to that?" "Splendid," we +cried in chorus. "Well, but we've got to compete with Germans, and +Swiss, and Americans--and we've got to win." "Of course"--a louder +chorus still. "Now, I'm going to take two men and give them a free +hand. They'll go up there and survey and lay out lines, and work +out the whole project thoroughly, both from the technical and the +financial side--and a project that's better and cheaper than the +opposition ones. Eight months' work for a good man, but I must +have it done in four. Take along assistants and equipment--all you +need--and a thousand pounds premium to the man who puts it through +so that we get the job." + +"Peer--were you sent?" Merle half rose from her seat in her +excitement. + +"I--and one other." + +"Who was that?" + +"His name was Ferdinand Holm." + +Merle smiled her one-sided smile, and looked at him through her +long lashes. She knew it had been the dream of his life to beat +that half-brother of his in fair fight. And now! + +"And what came of it?" she asked, with a seeming careless glance at +the lamp. + +Peer flung away his cigarette. "First an expedition up the Nile, +then a caravan journey, camels and mules and assistants and +provisions and instruments and tents and quinine--heaps of quinine. +Have you any idea, I wonder, what a job like that means? The line +was to run through forests and tunnels, over swamps and torrents +and chasms, and everything had to be planned and estimated at top +speed--material, labour, time, cost and all. It was all very well +to provide for the proper spans and girders for a viaduct, and +estimate for thoroughly sound work in casting and erecting--but +even then it would be no good if the Germans could come along and +say their bridge looked handsomer than ours. It was a job that +would take a good man eight months, and I had to get it done in +four. There are just twelve hours in a day, it's true--but then +there are twelve more hours in the night. Fever? Well, yes. And +sunstroke--yes, both men and beasts went down with that. Maps got +washed out by the rain. I lost my best assistant by snakebite. +But such things didn't count as hindrances, they couldn't be +allowed to delay the work. If I lost a man, it simply meant so +much more work for me. After a couple of months a blacksmith's +hammer started thumping in the back of my head, and when I closed +my eyes for a couple of hours at night, little fiery snakes went +wriggling about in my brain. Tired out? When I looked in the +glass, my eyes were just two red balls in my head. But when the +four months were up, I was back in the Chief's office." + +"And--and Ferdinand Holm?" + +"Had got in the day before." + +Merle shifted a little in her seat. "And so--he won?" + +Peer lit another cigarette. "No," he said--the cigarette seemed to +draw rather badly--"I won. And that's how I came to be building +railways in Abyssinia." + +"Here's the champagne," said Merle. And as the wine foamed in the +glasses, she rose and drank to him. She said nothing, only looked +at him with eyes half veiled, and smiled. But a wave of fire went +through him from head to foot. + +"I feel like playing to-night," she said. + +It was rarely that she played, though he had often begged her to. +Since they had been married she had seemed loth to touch her +violin, feeling perhaps some vague fear that it would disturb her +peace and awaken old longings. + +Peer sat on the sofa, leaning forward with his head in his hands, +listening. And there she stood, at the music-stand, in her red +dress, flushed and warm, and shining in the yellow lamplight, +playing. + +Then suddenly the thought of her mother came to her, and she went +to the telephone. "Mother--are you there, mother? Oh, we've had +such a glorious day." And the girl ran on, as if trying to light +up her mother's heart with some rays of the happiness her own happy +day had brought her. + +A little later Peer lay in bed, while Merle flitted about the room, +lingering over her toilet. + +He watched her as she stood in her long white gown before the +toilet-table with the little green-shaded lamps, doing her hair for +the night in a long plait. Neither of them spoke. He could see +her face in the glass, and saw that her eyes were watching him, +with a soft, mysterious glance--the scent of her hair seemed to +fill the place with youth. + +She turned round towards him and smiled. And he lay still, +beckoning her towards him with shining eyes. All that had passed +that evening--their outing, and the homeward journey in the violet +dusk, their little feast, and his story, the wine--all had turned +to love in their hearts, and shone out now in their smile. + +It may be that some touch of the cold breath of the eternities was +still in their minds, the remembrance of the millions on millions +that die, the flight of the aeons towards endless darkness; yet in +spite of all, the minutes now to come, their warm embrace, held a +whole world of bliss, that out-weighed all, and made Peer, as he +lay there, long to send out a hymn of praise into the universe, +because it was so wonderful to live. + +He began to understand why she lingered and took so long. It was a +sign that she wanted to surprise him, that her heart was kind. And +her light breathing seemed even now to fill the room with love. + +Outside in the night the lake-ice, splitting into new crevices, +sent up loud reports; and the winter sky above the roof that +sheltered them was lit with all its stars. + + + +Chapter VI + + +For the next few years Peer managed his estate and his workshop, +without giving too much of his time to either. He had his bailiff +and his works-manager, and the work went on well enough in its +accustomed grooves. If anyone had asked him what he actually did +himself all the time, he would have found it hard to answer. He +seemed to be going round gathering up something not clearly +defined. There was something wanting--something missed that now +had to be made good. It was not knowledge now, but life--life in +his native land, the life of youth, that he reached out to grasp. +The youth in him, that had never had free play in the years of +early manhood, lay still dammed up, and had to find an outlet. + +There were festive gatherings at Loreng. Long rows of sleighs +drove in the winter evenings up from the town and back again. +Tables were spread and decked with glass and flowers, the rooms +were brightly lit, and the wine was good. And sometimes in the +long moonlit nights respectable citizens would be awakened by noisy +mirth in the streets of the little town, and, going to the window +in their night-shirts, would see sleighs come galloping down, with +a jangle of bells, full of laughing, singing young people, +returning from some excursion far up in the hills, where there had +been feasting and dancing. Here a young lawyer--newly married and +something of a privileged buffoon--was sitting on the lap of +somebody else's wife, playing a concertina, and singing at the top +of his voice. "Some of that Loreng man's doings again," people +would say. "The place has never been the same since he came here." +And they would get back to bed again, shaking their heads and +wondering what things were coming to. + +Peer drove out, too, on occasion, to parties at the big country +houses round, where they would play cards all night and have +champagne sent up to their rooms next morning, the hosts being men +who knew how to do things in style. This was glorious. Not +mathematics or religion any more--what he needed now was to +assimilate something of the country life of his native land. He +was not going to be a stranger in his own country. He wanted to +take firm root and be able to feel, like others, that he had a spot +in the world where he was at home. + +Then came the sunny day in June when he stood by Merle's bed, and +she lay there smiling faintly her one-sided smile, with a newborn +girl on her arm. + +"What are we to call her, Peer?" + +"Why, we settled that long ago. After your mother, of course." + +"Of course her name's to be Louise," said Merle, turning the tiny +red face towards her breast. + +This came as a fresh surprise. She had been planning it for weeks +perhaps, and now it took him unawares like one of her spontaneous +caresses, but this time a caress to his inmost soul. + +He made a faint attempt at a joke. "Oh well, I never have any say +in my own house. I suppose you must have it your own way." He +stroked her forehead; and when she saw how deeply moved he was, she +smiled up at him with her most radiant smile. + +On one of the first days of the hay-harvest, Peer lay out on a +sunny hillside with his head resting on a haycock, watching his +people at work. The mowing machine was buzzing down by the lake, +the spreader at work on the hill-slopes, the horses straining in +front, the men sitting behind driving. The whole landscape lay +around him breathing summer and fruitfulness. And he himself lay +there sunk in his own restful quiet. + +A woman in a light dress and a yellow straw hat came down the field +road, pushing a child's cart before her. It was Merle, and Merle +was looking round her, and humming as she came. Since the birth of +her child her mind was at peace; it was clear that she was scarcely +dreaming now of conquering the world with her music--there was a +tiny being in the little cart that claimed all her dreams. Never +before had her skin been so dazzling, her smile so red; it was as +if her youth now first blossomed out in all its fullness; her eyes +seemed opened wide in a dear surprise. + +After a while Peer went down and drove the mowing machine himself. +He felt as if he must get to work somehow or other to provide for +his wife and child. + +But suddenly he stopped, got down, and began to walk round the +machine and examine it closely. His face was all alert now, his +eyes keen and piercing. He stared at the mechanism of the blades, +and stood awhile thinking. + +What was this? A happy idea was beginning to work in his mind. +Vague only as yet--there was still time to thrust it aside. +Should he? + + +Warm mild days and luminous nights. Sometimes he could not sleep +for thinking how delicious it was to lie awake and see the sun come +up. + +On one such night he got up and dressed. A few minutes later there +was a trampling of hoofs in the stable-yard and the chestnut +stallion appeared, with Peer leading him. He swung himself into +the saddle, and trotted off down the road, a white figure in his +drill suit and cork helmet. + +Where was he going? Nowhere. It was a change, to be up at an +unusual hour and see the day break on a July morning. + +He trotted along at an easy pace, rising lightly in the stirrups, +and enjoying the pleasant warmth the rider feels. All was quiet +around him, the homesteads still asleep. The sky was a pearly +white, with here and there a few golden clouds, reflected in the +lake below. And the broad meadows still spread their many-coloured +flower-carpet abroad; there was a scent in the air of leaf and +meadow-grass and pine, he drew in deep breaths of it and could have +sung aloud. + +He turned into the by-road up the hill, dismounting now and again +to open a gate; past farms and little cottages, ever higher and +higher, till at last he reached the topmost ridge, and halted in a +clearing. The chestnut threw up his head and sniffed the air; +horse and rider were wet with the dew-drip from the trees, that +were now just flushing in the first glow of the coming sun. Far +below was the lake, reflecting sky and hills and farmsteads, all +asleep. And there in the east were the red flames--the sun--the +day. + +The horse pawed impatiently at the ground, eager to go on, but Peer +held him back. He sat there gazing under the brim of his helmet at +the sunrise, and felt a wave of strange feeling passing through his +mind. + +It seemed to him impossible that he should ever reach a higher +pitch of sheer delight in life. He was still young and strong; all +the organs of his body worked together in happy harmony. No cares +to weigh upon his mind, no crushing responsibilities; the future +lying calm and clear in the light of day, free from dizzy dreams. +His hunger after knowledge was appeased; he felt that what he had +learned and seen and gathered was beginning to take living organic +form in his mind. + +But then--what then? + +The great human type of which you dreamed--have you succeeded in +giving it life in yourself? + +You know what is common knowledge about the progress of humanity; +its struggle towards higher forms, its gropings up by many ways +toward the infinite which it calls God. + +You know something of the life of plants; the nest of a bird is a +mystery before which you could kneel in worship. A rock shows you +the marks of a glacier that scraped over it thousands of years ago, +and looking on it you have a glimpse of the gigantic workings of +the solar system. And on autumn evenings you look up at the stars, +and the light and the death and the dizzy abysses of space above +you send a solemn thrill through your soul. + +And this has become a part of yourself. The joy of life for you is +to grasp all you can compass of the universe, and let it permeate +your thought and sense on every side. + +But what then? Is this enough? Is it enough to rest thus in +yourself? + +Have you as yet raised one stepping-stone upon which other men can +climb and say: Now we can see farther than before? + +What is your inner being worth, unless it be mirrored in action? + +If the world one day came to be peopled with none but supermen-- +what profit in that, as long as they must die? + +What is your faith? + +Ah, this sense of exile, of religious homelessness! How many times +have you and Merle lain clasping each other's hands, your thoughts +wandering together hand in hand, seeking over earth or among the +stars for some being to whom you might send up a prayer; no slavish +begging cry for grace and favour, but a jubilant thanksgiving for +the gift of life. + +But where was He? + +He is not. And yet--He is. + +But the ascetic on the cross is a God for the sick and aged. What +of us others? When shall the modern man, strong, scientifically +schooled, find a temple for the sacred music, the anthem of +eternity in his soul? + +The sun rose up from behind a distant hill-crest, scattering gold +over the million spires of the pine-forest. Peer bent forward, +with red-gleaming dewdrops on his hand and his white sleeve, and +patted the neck of his restless beast. + +It was two o'clock. The fires of morning were lit in the clouds +and in all the waters over the earth. The dew in the meadows and +the pearls on the wings of butterflies began to glisten. + +"Now then, Bijou!--now for home!" + +And he dashed off down the grass-grown forest paths, the chestnut +snorting as he galloped. + + + +Chapter VII + + +"Hei, Merle; We're going to have distinguished visitors--where in +the world have you got to!" Peer hurried through the rooms with an +open telegram in his hand, and at last came upon his wife in the +nursery. "Oh, is it here you are?" + +"Yes--but you shout so, I could hear you all through the house. +Who is it that's coming?" + +"Ferdinand Holm and Klaus Brock. Coming to the christening after +all. Great Caesar!--what do you say to that, Merle?" + +Merle was pale, and her cheeks a little sunken. Two years more had +passed, and she had her second child now on her knee--a little boy +with big wondering eyes. + +"How fine for you, Peer!" she said, and went on undressing the +child. + +"Yes; but isn't it splendid of them to set off and come all that +way, just because I asked them? By Jove, we must look sharp and +get the place smartened up a bit." + +And sure enough the whole place was soon turned upside-down-- +cartloads of sand coming in for the garden walks and the courtyard, +and painters hard at work repainting the houses. And poor Merle +knew very well that there would be serious trouble if anything +should be amiss with the entertainment indoors. + +At last came the hot August day when the flags were hoisted in +honour of the expected guests. Once more the hum of mowing +machines and hay-rakes came from the hill-slopes, and the air was +so still that the columns of smoke from the chimneys of the town +rose straight into the air. Peer had risen early, to have a last +look round, inspecting everything critically, from the summer dress +Merle was to wear down to the horses in the stable, groomed till +their coats shone again. Merle understood. He had been a fisher- +boy beside the well-dressed son of the doctor, and something meaner +yet in relation to the distinguished Holm family. And there was +still so much of the boy in him that he wanted to show now at his +very best. + +A crowd of inquisitive idlers had gathered down on the steamboat +landing when the boat swung in and lay by the pier. The pair of +bays in the Loreng carriage stood tossing their heads and twitching +and stamping as the flies tormented them; but at last they got +their passengers and were given their heads, setting off with a +wild bound or two that scattered those who had pressed too near. +But in the carriage they could see the two strangers and the +engineer, all three laughing and gesticulating, and talking all at +once. And in a few moments they vanished in a cloud of dust, +whirling away beside the calm waters of the fjord. + +Some way behind them a cart followed, driven by one of the stable- +boys from Loreng, and loaded with big brass-bound leather trunks +and a huge chest, apparently of wood, but evidently containing +something frightfully heavy. + +Merle had finished dressing, and stood looking at herself in the +glass. The light summer dress was pretty, she thought, and the red +bows at neck and waist sat to her satisfaction. Then came the roll +of wheels outside, and she went out to receive her guests. + +"Here they are," cried Peer, jumping down. "This is Ferdinand +Pasha, Governor-General of the new Kingdom of Sahara--and this is +His Highness the Khedive's chief pipe-cleaner and body-eunuch." + +A tall, stooping man with white hair and a clean-shaven, dried-up +face advanced towards Merle. It was Ferdinand Holm. "How do you +do, Madam?" he said, giving her a dry, bony hand. + +"Why, this is quite a baronial seat you have here," he added, +looking round and settling his pince-nez. + +His companion was a round, plump gentleman, with a little black +goatee beard and dark eyes that blinked continually. But his smile +was full of mirth, and the grip of his hand felt true. So this was +Klaus Brock. + +Peer led his two friends in through the rooms, showing them the +view from the various windows. Klaus broke into a laugh at last, +and turned to Merle: "He's just the same as ever," he said--"a +little stouter, to be sure--it's clear you've been treating him +well, madam." And he bowed and kissed her hand. + +There was hock and seltzer ready for them--this was Merle's idea, +as suitable for a hot day--and when the two visitors had each drunk +off a couple of glasses, with an: "Ah! delicious!", Peer came +behind her, stroked her hand lightly and whispered, "Thanks, Merle-- +first-rate idea of yours." + +"By the way," exclaimed Ferdinand Holm suddenly, "I must send off a +telegram. May I use the telephone a moment?" + +"There he goes--can't contain himself any longer!" burst out Klaus +Brock with a laugh. "He's had the telegraph wires going hard all +the way across Europe--but you might let us get inside and sit down +before you begin again here." + +"Come along," said Peer. "Here's the telephone." + +When the two had left the room, Klaus turned to Merle with a smile. +"Well, well--so I'm really in the presence of Peer's wife--his wife +in flesh and blood. And this is what she looks like! That fellow +always had all the luck." And he took her hand again and kissed +it. Merle drew it away and blushed. + +"You are not married, then, Mr. Brock?" + +"I? Well, yes and no. I did marry a Greek girl once, but she ran +away. Just my luck." And he blinked his eyes and sighed with an +expression so comically sad that Merle burst out laughing. + +"And your friend, Ferdinand Holm?" she asked. + +"He, dear lady--he--why, saving your presence, I have an idea +there's a select little harem attached to that palace of his." + +Merle turned towards the window and shook her head with a smile. + +An hour later the visitors came down from their rooms after a wash +and a change of clothes, and after a light luncheon Peer carried +them off to show them round the place. He had added a number of +new buildings, and had broken new land. The farm had forty cows +when he came, now he had over sixty. "Of course, all this is a +mere nothing for fellows like you, who bring your harvest home in +railway trains," he said. "But, you see, I have my home here." +And he waved his hand towards the house and the farmstead round. + +Later they drove over in the light trap to look at the workshop, +and here he made no excuses for its being small. He showed off the +little foundry as if it had been a world-famous seat of industry, +and maintained his serious air while his companions glanced +sideways at him, trying hard not to smile. + +The workmen touched their caps respectfully, and sent curious +glances at the strangers. + +"Quite a treat to see things on the Norwegian scale again," +Ferdinand Holm couldn't resist saying at last. + +"Yes, isn't it charming!" cried Peer, putting on an air of +ingenuous delight. "This is just the size a foundry should be, if +its owner is to have a good time and possess his soul in peace." + +Ferdinand Holm and Brock exchanged glances. But next moment Peer +led them through into a side-room, with tools and machinery +evidently having no connection with the rest. + +"Now look out," said Klaus. "This is the holy of holies, you'll +see. He's hard at it working out some new devilry here, or I'm a +Dutchman." + +Peer drew aside a couple of tarpaulins, and showed them a mowing +machine of the ordinary type, and beside it another, the model of a +new type he had himself devised. + +"It's not quite finished yet," he said. "But I've solved the main +problem. The old single knife-blade principle was clumsy; dragged, +you know. But with two blades--a pair of shears, so to speak-- +it'll work much quicker." And he gave them a little lecture, +showing how much simpler his mechanism was, and how much lighter +the machine would be. + +"And there you are," said Klaus. "It's Columbus's egg over again." + +"The patent ought to be worth a million," said Ferdinand Holm, +slowly, looking out of the window. + +"Of course the main thing is, to make the work easier and cheaper +for the farmers," said Peer, with a rather sly glance at Ferdinand. + +Dinner that evening was a festive meal. When the liqueur brandy +went round, Klaus greeted it with enthusiasm. "Why, here's an old +friend, as I live! Real Lysholmer!--well, well; and so you're +still in the land of the living? You remember the days when we +were boys together?" He lifted the little glass and watched the +light play in the pale spirit. And the three old friends drank +together, singing "The first full glass," and then "The second +little nip," with the proper ceremonial observances, just as they +had done in the old days, at their student wine-parties. + +The talk went merrily, one good story calling up another. But +Merle could not help noticing the steely gleam of Ferdinand Holm's +eyes, even when he laughed. + +The talk fell on new doings in Egypt, and as Peer heard more and +more of these, it seemed to her that his look changed. His glance, +too, seemed to have that glint of steel, there was something +strange and absent in his face; was he feeling, perhaps, that wife +and children were but a drag on a man, after all? He seemed like +an old war-horse waking suddenly at the sound of trumpets. + +"There's a nice little job waiting for you, by the way," said +Ferdinand Holm, lifting his glass to Peer. + +"Very kind of you, I'm sure. A sub-directorship under you?" + +"You're no good under any one. You belong on top." Ferdinand +illustrated his words with a downward and an upward pointing of the +finger. "The harnessing of the Tigris and Euphrates will have to +be taken in hand. It's only a question of time." + +"Thanks very much!" said Peer, his eyes wide open now. + +"The plan's simply lying waiting for the right man. It will be +carried out, it may be next year, it may be in ten years--whenever +the man comes along. I would think about it, if I were you." + +All looked at Peer; Merle fastened her eyes on him, too. But he +laughed. "Now, what on earth would be the satisfaction to me of +binding in bands those two ancient and honourable rivers?" + +"Well, in the first place, it would mean an increase of many +millions of bushels in the corn production of the world. Wouldn't +you have any satisfaction in that?" + +"No," said Peer, with a touch of scorn. + +"Or regular lines of communication over hundreds of thousands of +square miles of the most fertile country on the globe?" + +"Don't interest me," said Peer. + +"Ah!" Ferdinand Holm lifted his glass to Merle. "Tell me, dear +lady, how does it feel to be married to an anachronism?" + +"To--to what?" stammered Merle. + +"Yes, your husband's an anachronism. He might, if he chose, be one +of the kings, the prophets, who lead the van in the fight for +civilisation. But he will not; he despises his own powers, and one +day he will start a revolution against himself. Mark my words. +Your health, dear lady!" + +Merle laughed, and lifted her glass, but hesitatingly, and with a +side-glance towards Peer. + +"Yes, your husband is no better now than an egoist, a collector of +happy days." + +"Well, and is that so very wicked?" + +"He sits ravelling out his life into a multitude of golden +threads," went on Ferdinand with a bow, his steely eyes trying to +look gentle. + +"But what is wrong in that?" said the young wife stoutly. + +"It is wrong. It is wasting his immortal soul. A man has no right +to ravel out his life, even though the threads are of gold. A +man's days of personal happiness are forgotten--his work endures. +And your husband in particular--why the deuce should HE be so +happy? The world-evolution uses us inexorably, either for light or +for fuel. And Peer--your husband, dear lady--is too good for +fuel." + +Merle glanced again at her husband. Peer laughed, but then +suddenly compressed his lips and looked down at his plate. + +Then the nurse came in with little Louise, to say good-night, and +the child was handed round from one to the other. But when the +little fair-haired girl came to Ferdinand Holm, he seemed loth to +touch her, and Merle read his glance at Peer as meaning: "Here is +another of the bonds you've tied yourself up with." + +"Excuse me," he said suddenly, looking at his watch, "I'm afraid I +must ask for the use of the telephone again. Pardon me, Fru Holm." +And he rose and left the room. Klaus looked at the others and +shook his head. "That man would simply expire if he couldn't send +a telegram once an hour," he said with a laugh. + +Coffee was served out on the balcony, and the men sat and smoked. +It was a dusky twilight of early autumn; the hills were dark blue +now and distant; there was a scent of hay and garden flowers. +After a while Merle rose and said good-night. And in her thoughts, +when she found herself alone in her bedroom, she hardly knew +whether to be displeased or not. These strange men were drawing +Peer far away from all that had been his chief delight since she +had known him. But it was interesting to see how different his +manner was towards the two friends. Klaus Brock he could jest and +laugh with, but with Ferdinand Holm he seemed always on his guard, +ready to assert himself, and whenever he contradicted him it was +always with a certain deference. + +The great yellow disc of the moon came up over the hills in the +east, drawing a broad pillar of gold across the dark water. And +the three comrades on the balcony sat watching it for a while in +silence. + +"So you're really going to go on idling here?" asked Ferdinand at +last, sipping his liqueur. + +"Is it me you mean?" asked Peer, bending slightly forward. + +"Well, I gather you're going round here simply being happy from +morning to night. I call that idling." + +"Thanks." + +"Of course, you're very unhappy in reality. Everyone is, as long +as he's neglecting his powers and aptitudes." + +"Very many thanks," said Peer, with a laugh. Klaus sat up in his +chair, a little anxious as to what was coming. + +Ferdinand was still looking out over the lake. "You seem to +despise your own trade--as engineer?" + +"Yes," said Peer. + +"And why?" + +"Why, I feel the lack of some touch of beauty in our ceaseless +craving to create something new, something new, always something +new. More gold, more speed, more food--are these things not all we +are driving at?" + +"My dear fellow, gold means freedom. And food means life. And +speed carries us over the dead moments. Double the possibilities +of life for men, and you double their numbers." + +"And what good will it do to double their numbers? Two thousand +million machine-made souls--is that what you want?" + +"But hang it all, man," put in Klaus Brock eagerly, "think of our +dear Norway at least. Surely you don't think it would be a +misfortune if our population increased so far that the world could +recognise our existence." + +"I do," said Peer, looking away over the lake. + +"Ah, you're a fanatic for the small in size and in numbers." + +"I am loth to see all Norway polluted with factories and +proletariat armies. Why the devil can't we be left in peace?" + +"The steel will not have it," said Ferdinand Holm, as if speaking +to the pillar of moonlight on the water. + +"What? Who did you say?" Peer looked at him with wide eyes. + +Ferdinand went on undisturbed: "The steel will not have peace. +And the fire will not. And Prometheus will not. The human spirit +has still too many steps to climb before it reaches the top. +Peace? No, my friend--there are powers outside you and me that +determine these things." + +Peer smiled, and lit a new cigar. Ferdinand Holm leaned back in +his chair and went on, addressing himself apparently to the moon. +"Tigris and Euphrates--Indus and Ganges--and all the rest of this +planet--regulate and cultivate the whole, and what is it after all? +It's only a question of a few years. It is only a humble +beginning. In a couple of centuries or so there will be nothing +left to occupy us any more on this little globe of ours. And then +we'll have to set about colonising other worlds." + +There was silence for a moment. Then Peer spoke. + +"And what do we gain by it all?" he asked. + +"Gain? Do you imagine there will ever be any 'thus far and no +farther' for the spirit of man? Half a million years hence, all +the solar systems we know of now will be regulated and ordered by +the human spirit. There will be difficulties, of course. +Interplanetary wars will arise, planetary patriotism, groups of +planetary powers in alliances and coalitions against other groups. +Little worlds will be subjugated by the bigger ones, and so on. Is +there anything in all this to grow dizzy over? Great heavens--can +anyone doubt that man must go on conquering and to conquer for +millions of years to come? The world-will goes its way. We cannot +resist. Nobody asks whether we are happy. The will that works +towards the infinite asks only whom it can use for its ends, and +who is useless. Viola tout." + +"And when I die," asked Peer--"what then?" + +"You! Are you still going about feeling your own pulse and wanting +to live for ever? My dear fellow, YOU don't exist. There is just +one person on our side--the world-will. And that includes us all. +That's what I mean by 'we.' And we are working towards the day +when we can make God respect us in good earnest. The spirit of man +will hold a Day of Judgment, and settle accounts with Olympus-- +with the riddle, the almighty power beyond. It will be a great +reckoning. And mark my words--that is the one single religious +idea that lives and works in each and every one of us--the thing +that makes us hold up our heads and walk upright, forgetting that +we are slaves and things that die." + +Suddenly he looked at his watch. "Excuse me a moment. If the +telegraph office is open . . ." and he rose and went in. + +When he returned, Klaus and Peer were talking of the home of their +boyhood and their early days together. + +"Remember that time we went shark-fishing?" asked Klaus. + +"Oh yes--that shark. Let me see--you were a hero, weren't you, and +beat it to death with your bare fists--wasn't that it?" And then +"Cut the line, cut the line, and row for your lives," he mimicked, +and burst out laughing. + +"Oh, shut up now and don't be so witty," said Klaus. "But tell me, +have you ever been back there since you came home?" + +Peer told him that he had been to the village last year. His old +foster-parents were dead, and Peter Ronningen too; but Martin +Bruvold was there still, living in a tiny cottage with eight +children. + +"Poor devil!" said Klaus. + +Ferdinand Holm had sat down again, and now he nodded towards the +moon. "An old chum of yours? Well, why don't we send him a +thousand crowns?" + +There was a little pause. "I hope you'll let me join you," went on +Ferdinand, taking a note for five hundred crowns from his waistcoat +pocket. "You don't mind, do you?" + +Peer glanced at him and took the note. "I'm delighted for poor old +Martin's sake," he said, putting the note in his waistcoat pocket. +"That'll make fifteen hundred for him." + +Klaus Brock looked from one to the other and smiled a little. The +talk turned on other things for a while, and then he asked: + +"By the way, Peer, have you seen that advertisement of the British +Carbide Company's?" + +"No, what about?" + +"They want tenders for the damming and harnessing of the Besna +River, with its lake system and falls. That should be something in +your line." + +"No," said Ferdinand sharply. "I told you before--that job's too +small for him. Peer's going to the Euphrates." + +"What would it amount to, roughly?" said Peer, addressing no one in +particular. + +"As far as I could make out, it should be a matter of a couple of +million crowns or thereabout," said Klaus. + +"That's not a thing for Peer," said Ferdinand, rising and lifting +his hand to hide a yawn. "Leave trifles like that to the trifling +souls. Good-night, gentlemen." + +A couple of hours later, when all was silent throughout the house, +Peer was still up, wandering to and fro in soft felt slippers in +the great hall. Now and again he would stop, and look out of the +window. Why could he not sleep? The moon was paling, the day +beginning to dawn. + + + +Chapter VIII + + +The next morning Merle was alone in the pantry when she heard steps +behind her, and turned her head. It was Klaus Brock. + +"Good-morning, madam--ah! so this is what you look like in morning +dress. Why, morning neglige might have been invented for you, if I +may say so. You might be a Ghirlandajo. Or no, better still, +Aspasia herself." + +"You are up early," said Merle drily. + +"Am I? What about Ferdinand Holm then? He has been up since +sunrise, sitting over his letters and accounts. Anything I can +help you with? May I move that cheese for you?--Well, well! you +are strong. But there, I'm always de trop where women are +concerned." + +"Always de trop?" repeated Merle, watching him through her long +lashes. + +"Yes--my first and only love--do you know who she was?" + +"No, indeed. How should I?" + +"Well, it was Louise--Peer's little sister. I wish you could have +known her." + +"And since then?" Merle let her eyes rest on this flourishing +gentleman, who looked as if he could never have had a trouble in +the world. + +"Since then, dear lady?--since then? Let me see. Why, at this +moment I really can't remember ever having met any other woman +except . . ." + +"Except . . . ?" + +"Except yourself, madam." And he bowed. + +"You are TOO kind!" + +"And, that being so, don't you think it's your plain duty, as a +hospitable hostess, to grant me . . ." + +"Grant you--what? A piece of cheese?" + +"Why, no, thanks. Something better. Something much better than +that." + +"What, then?" + +"A kiss. I might as well have it now." As he took a step nearer, +she looked laughingly round for a way of escape, but he was between +her and the door. + +"Well," said Merle, "but you must do something to make yourself +useful first. Suppose you ran up that step-ladder for me." + +"Delighted. Why, this is great fun!" The slight wooden ladder +creaked under the weight of his solid form as he climbed. "How +high am I to go?" + +"To reach the top shelf--that's it. Now, you see that big brown +jar? Careful--it's cranberries." + +"Splendid--I do believe we're to have cranberry preserve at +dinner." By standing on tiptoe he managed to reach and lift the +heavy jar, and stood holding it, his face flushed with his +exertions. + +"And now, little lady?" + +"Just stay there a moment and hold it carefully; I have to fetch +something." And she hurried out. + +Klaus stood at the top of the ladder, holding the heavy jar. He +looked round. What was he to do with it? He waited for Merle to +return--but she did not appear. Someone was playing the piano in +the next room. Should he call for help? He waited on, getting +redder and redder in the face. And still no Merle came. + +With another mighty effort he set the jar back in its place, and +then climbed down the ladder and walked into the drawing-room, very +red and out of breath. In the doorway he stopped short and stared. + +"What--well, I'll-- And she's sitting here playing the piano!" + +"Yes. Aren't you fond of music, Herr Brock?" + +"I'll pay you out for this," he said, shaking a finger at her. +"Just you wait and see, little lady, if I don't pay you out, with +interest!" And he turned and went upstairs, chuckling as he went. + +Peer was sitting at the writing-table in his study when Klaus came +in. "I'm just sealing up the letter with the money for Martin +Bruvold," he said, setting the taper to a stick of sealing wax. +"I've signed it: 'From the shark fishers.'" + +"Yes, it was a capital idea of Ferdinand's. What d'you think the +poor old fellow'll say when he opens it and the big notes tumble +out?" + +"I'd like to see his face," said Peer, as he wrote the address on +the envelope. + +Klaus dropped into a leather armchair and leaned back comfortably. +"I've been downstairs flirting a little with your wife," he said. +"Your wife's a wonder, Peer." + +Peer looked at him, and thought of the old days when the heavy- +built, clumsy doctor's son had run about after the servant-girls in +the town. He had still something of his old lurching walk, but +intercourse with the ladies of many lands had polished him and +given lightness and ease to his manner. + +"What was I going to say?" Klaus went on. "Oh yes--our friend +Ferdinand's a fine fellow, isn't he?" + +"Yes, indeed." + +"I felt yesterday exactly as I used to feel when we three were +together in the old days. When I listen to his talk I can't help +agreeing with him--and then you begin to speak, and what you say, +too, seems to be just what I've been thinking in my inmost soul. +Do you think I've become shallow, Peer?" + +"Well, your steam ploughs look after themselves, I suppose, and the +ladies of your harem don't trouble you overmuch. Do you read at +all?" + +"Best not say too much about that," said Klaus with a sigh, and it +suddenly struck Peer that his friend's face had grown older and +more worn. + +"No," said Klaus again. "Better not say much about that. But tell +me, old fellow--you mustn't mind my asking--has Ferdinand ever +spoken to you as his brother . . . or . . ." + +Peer flushed hotly. "No," he said after a pause. + +"No?" + +"I owe more to him than to anybody in the world. But whether he +regards me as a kinsman or simply as an object for his kindness to +wreak itself on is a matter he's always left quite vague." + +"It's just like him. He's a queer fellow. But there's another +thing. . . ." + +"Well?" said Peer, looking up. + +"It's--er--again it's rather a delicate matter to touch on. I +know, of course, that you're in the enviable position of having +your fortune invested in the best joint-stock company in the +world--" + +"Yes; and so are you." + +"Oh, mine's a trifle compared with yours. Have you still the whole +of your money in Ferdinand's company?" + +"Yes. I've been thinking of selling a few shares, by the way. As +you may suppose, I've been spending a good deal just lately--more +than my income." + +"You mustn't sell just now, Peer. They're--I daresay you've seen +that they're down--below par, in fact." + +"What--below par! No, I had no idea of that." + +"Oh, only for the time being, of course. Just a temporary drop. +There's sure to be another run on them soon, and they'll go up +again. But the Khedive has the controlling interest, you know, and +he's rather a ticklish customer. Ferdinand is all for extension-- +wants to keep on buying up new land--new desert, that is. +Irrigation there's just a question of power--that's how he looks at +it. And of course the bigger the scale of the work the cheaper the +power will work out. But the Khedive's holding back. It may be +just a temporary whim--may be all right again to-morrow. But you +never know. And if you think Ferdinand's the man to give in to a +cranky Khedive, you're much mistaken. His idea now is to raise all +the capital he can lay hands on, and buy him out! What do you say +to that? Buy the Khedive clean out of the company. It's a large +order. And if I were you, old man, as soon as the shares go up +again a bit, I'd sell out some of my holding, and put the money +into something at home here. After all, there must be plenty of +quite useful things to be had here." + +Peer frowned, and sat for a while looking straight before him. +"No," he said at last. "As things stand between Ferdinand Holm and +me--well, if either of us goes back on the other, it's not going to +be me." + +"Ah, in that case--I beg your pardon," said Klaus, and he rose and +departed. + +The christening was a great occasion, with a houseful of guests, +and a great deal of speechmaking. The host was the youngest and +gayest of the party. The birth of his son should be celebrated in +true Ethiopian fashion, he declared--with bonfires and boating +parties. + +The moon was hidden that evening behind thick dark clouds, but the +boats full of guests glided over the black water to the accompaniment +of music and laughter. The young madcap of a lawyer was there, +again sitting on the lap of someone else's wife, and playing a +concertina, till people in the farms on shore opened their windows +and put their heads out to listen. + +Later on the bonfires blazed up all along the lake shore and shone +like great flaming suns in the water below. The guests lay on the +grass in little groups round picnic suppers, and here and there a +couple wandered by themselves, talking in whispers. + +Merle and Peer stood together for a moment beside one of the +bonfires. Their faces and figures were lit by the red glow; they +looked at each other and exchanged a smile. He took her hand and +led her outside the circle of light from the fire, and pointed over +to their home, with all its windows glowing against the dark. + +"Suppose this should be the last party we give, Merle." + +"Peer, what makes you say that?" + +"Oh, nothing--only I have a sort of feeling, as if something had +just ended and something new was to begin. I feel like it, +somehow. But I wanted to thank you, too, for all the happy times +we've had." + +"But Peer--what--" She got no farther, for Peer had already left +her and joined a group of guests, where he was soon as gay as the +rest. + +Then came the day when the two visitors were to leave. Their +birthday gift to the young gentleman so lately christened Lorentz +Uthoug stood in the drawing-room; it was a bust in red granite, the +height of a man, of the Sun-god Re Hormachis, brought with them by +the godfathers from Alexandria. And now it sat in the drawing-room +between palms in pots, pressing its elbows against its sides and +gazing with great dead eyes out into endless space. + +Peer stood on the quay waving farewell to his old comrades as the +steamer ploughed through the water, drawing after it a fan-shaped +trail of little waves. + +And when he came home, he walked about the place, looking at farms +and woods, at Merle and the children, with eyes that seemed to her +strange and new. + +Next night he stayed up once more alone, pacing to and fro in the +great hall, and looking out of the windows into the dark. + +Was he ravelling out his life into golden threads that vanished and +were forgotten? + +Was he content to be fuel instead of light? + +What was he seeking? Happiness? And beyond it? As a boy he had +called it the anthem, the universal hymn. What was it now? God? +But he would hardly find Him in idleness. + +You have drawn such nourishment as you could from joy in your home, +from your marriage, your fatherhood, nature, and the fellowmen +around you here. There are unused faculties in you that hunger for +exercise; that long to be set free to work, to strive, to act. + +You should take up the barrage on the Besna, Peer. But could you +get the contract? If you once buckle-to in earnest, no one is +likely to beat you--you'll get it, sure enough. But do you really +want it? + +Are you not working away at a mowing-machine as it is? Better own +up that you can't get on without your old craft, after all--that +you must for ever be messing and meddling with steel and fire. You +can't help yourself. + +All the things your eyes have been fixed on in these last years +have been only golden visions in a mist. The steel has its own +will. The steel is beginning to wake in you--singing--singing-- +bent on pressing onward. You have no choice. + +The world-will goes on its way. Go with it or be cast overboard as +useless. + +And still Peer walked up and down, up and down. + +Next morning he set off for the capital. Merle watched the +carriage as it drove away, and thought to herself: "He was right. +Something new is beginning." + + + +Chapter IX + + +There came a card from Peer, with a brief message: "Off to inspect +the ground." A fortnight later he came home, loaded with maps and +plans. "Of course I'm late for the fair, as usual," he said. "But +wait a bit." + +He locked himself into his room. At last Merle knew what it was +like to have him at work. She could hear him in the mornings, +walking up and down and whistling. Then silence--he would be +standing over his table, busy with notes and figures. Then steps +again. Now he was singing--and this was a novelty to himself. It +was as if he carried in him a store of happiness, a treasure laid +by of love, and the beauty of nature, and happy hours, and now it +found its way out in song. Why should he not sing over the plans +for a great barrage? Mathematics are dry work enough, but at times +they can be as living visions, soaring up into the light. Peer +sang louder. Then silence again. Merle never knew now when he +stopped work and came to bed. She would fall asleep to the sound +of his singing in his own room, and when she woke he would already +be tramping up and down again in there; and to her his steps seemed +like the imperious tread of a great commander. He was alight with +new visions, new themes, and his voice had a lordly ring. Merle +looked at him through half-closed eyes with a lingering glance. +Once more he was new to her: she had never seen him like this. + +At last the work was finished, and he sent in his tender. And now +he was more restless than ever. For a week he waited for an +answer, tramping in and out of the place, going off for rides on +Bijou, and coming back with his horse dripping with sweat. An +impatient man cannot possibly ride at any pace but a gallop. The +days passed; Peer was sleepless, and ate nothing. More days +passed. At last he came bursting into the nursery one morning: +"Trunk call, Merle; summons to a meeting of the Company Directors. +Quick's the word. Come and help me pack--sharp." And in no time +he was off again to the city. + +Now it was Merle's turn to walk up and down in suspense. It +mattered little to her in itself whether he got the work or not, +but she was keenly anxious that he should win. + +A couple of days later a telegram came: "Hurrah, wife!" And Merle +danced round the room, waving the telegram above her head. + +The next day he was back home again and tramping up and down the +room. "What do you think your father will say to it, Merle--ha!" + +"Father? Say to what?" + +"When I ask him to be my surety for a couple of hundred thousand +crowns?" + +"Is father to be in it, too?" Merle looked at him open-eyed. + +"Oh, if he doesn't want to, we'll let him off. But at any rate +I'll ask him first. Goodbye." And Peer drove off into town. + +In Lorentz Uthoug's big house you had to pass through the hardware +shop to get to his office, which lay behind. Peer knocked at the +door, with a portfolio under his arm. Herr Uthoug had just lit the +gas, and was on the point of sitting down at his American roll-top +desk, when Peer entered. The grey-bearded head with the close +thick hair turned towards him, darkened by the shadow from the +green shade of the burner. + +"You, is it?" said he. "Sit down. You've been to Christiania, I +hear. And what are you busy with now?" + +They sat down opposite each other. Peer explained, calmly and with +confidence. + +"And what does the thing amount to?" asked Uthoug, his face coming +out of the shadow and looking at Peer in the full light. + +"Two million four hundred thousand." + +The old man laid his hairy hands on the desk and rose to his feet, +staring at the other and breathing deeply. The sum half-stunned +him. Beside it he himself and his work seemed like dust in the +balance. Where were all his plans and achievements now, his +greatness, his position, his authority in the town? Compared with +amounts like this, what were the paltry sums he had been used to +handle? + +"I--I didn't quite catch--" he stammered. "Did you say two +millions?" + +"Yes. I daresay it seems a trifle to you," said Peer. "Indeed, +I've handled contracts myself that ran to fifty million francs." + +"What? How much did you say?" Uthoug began to move restlessly +about the room. He clutched his hair, and gazed at Peer as if +doubting whether he was quite sober. + +At the same time he felt it would never do to let himself be so +easily thrown off his balance. He tried to pull himself together. + +"And what do you make out of it?" he asked. + +"A couple of hundred thousand, I hope." + +"Oh!" A profit on this scale again rather startled the old man. +No, he was nothing; he never had been anything in this world! + +"How do you know that you will make so much?" + +"I've calculated it all out." + +"But if--but how can you be sure of it? Suppose you've got your +figures wrong?" His head was thrust forward again into the full +light. + +"I'm in the habit of getting my figures right," said Peer. + +When he broached the question of security, the old man was in the +act of moving away from him across the room. But he stopped short, +and looked back over his shoulder. + +"What? Security? You want me to stand security for two million +crowns?" + +"No; the Company asks for a guarantee for four hundred thousand." + +After a pause the old man said: "I see. Yes, I see. But--but I'm +not worth as much as that altogether." + +"I can put in three hundred thousand of the four myself, in shares. +And then, of course, I have the Loreng property, and the works. +But put it at a round figure--will you guarantee a hundred +thousand?" + +There was another pause, and then the reply came from the far end +of the room to which Uthoug had drifted: "Even that's a big sum." + +"Of course if you would rather not, I could make other arrangements. +My two friends, who have just been here--" He rose and began to +gather up his papers. + +"No, no; you mustn't be in such a hurry. Why, you come down on a +man like an avalanche. You must give me time to think it over-- +till to-morrow at least. And the papers--at any rate, I must have +a look at them." + +Uthoug passed a restless and troubled night. The solid ground +seemed to have failed him; his mind could find no firm foothold. +His son-in-law must be a great man--he should be the last to doubt +it. But a hundred thousand--to be ventured, not in landed +property, or a big trade deal, but on the success of a piece of +construction work. This was something new. It seemed fantastic-- +suited to the great world outside perhaps, or the future. Had he +courage enough to stand in? Who could tell what accidents, what +disasters might not happen? No! He shook his head. He could not. +He dared not. But--the thing tempted him. He had always wanted to +be something more than a whale among the minnows. Should he risk +it? Should he not? It meant staking his whole fortune, his +position, everything, upon the outcome of a piece of engineering +that he understood nothing whatever about. It was sheer +speculation; it was gambling. No, he must say: No. Then he was +only a whale among the minnows, after all. No, he must say: Yes. +Good God! He clenched his hands together; they were clammy with +sweat, and his brain was in a whirl. It was a trial, a temptation. +He felt an impulse to pray. But what good could that do--since he +had himself abolished God. + +Next day Merle and Peer were rung up by telephone and asked to come +in to dinner with the old folks. + +But when they were all sitting at table, they found it impossible +to keep the conversation going. Everyone seemed shy of beginning +on the subject they were all thinking about. The old man's face +was grey with want of sleep; his wife looked from one to the other +through her spectacles. Peer was calm and smiling. + +At last, when the claret came round, Fru Uthoug lifted her glass +and drank to Peer. "Good fortune!" she said. "We won't be the +ones to stand in your way. Since you think it is all right, of +course it is. And we all hope it will turn out well for you, +Peer." + +Merle looked at her parents; she had sat through the meal anxious +and troubled, and now the tears rose into her eyes. + +"Thanks," said Peer, lifting his glass and drinking to his host and +hostess. "Thanks," he repeated, bowing to old Uthoug. The matter +was arranged. Evidently the two old folks had talked it over +together and come to an agreement. + +It was settled, but all four felt as if the solid ground were +rocking a little under their feet. All their future, their fate, +seemed staked upon a throw. + +A couple of days later, a day of mild October sunshine, Peer +happened to go into the town, and, catching sight of his mother-in- +law at the window, he went off and bought some flowers, and took +them up to her. + +She was sitting looking out at the yellow sky in the west, and she +hardly turned her head as she took the flowers. "Thanks, Peer," +she said, and continued gazing out at the sky. + +"What are you thinking of, dear mother?" asked Peer. + +"Ah! it isn't a good thing always to tell our thoughts," she said, +and she turned her spectacled eyes so as to look out over the lake. + +"I hope it was something pleasant?" + +"I was thinking of you, Peer. Of you and Merle." + +"It is good of you to think of us." + +"You see, Peer, there is trouble coming for you. A great deal of +trouble." She nodded her head towards the yellow sky in the west. + +"Trouble? Why? Why should trouble come to us?" + +"Because you are happy, Peer." + +"What? Because I am--?" + +"Because all things blossom and flourish about you. Be sure that +there are unseen powers enough that grudge you your happiness." + +Peer smiled. "You think so?" he asked. + +"I know it," she answered with a sigh, gazing out into the +distance. "You have made enemies of late amongst all those envious +shadows that none can see. But they are all around us. I see them +every day; I have learned to know them, in all these years. I have +fought with them. And it is well for Merle that she has learned to +sing in a house so full of shadows. God grant she may be able to +sing them away from you too." + +When Peer left the house he felt as if little shudders of cold were +passing down his back. "Pooh!" he exclaimed as he reached the +street. "She is not right in her head." And he hurried to his +carriole and drove off home. + +"Old Rode will be pleased, anyhow," he thought. "He'll be his own +master in the workshop now--the dream of his life. Well, everyone +for himself. And the bailiff will have things all his own way at +Loreng for a year or two. Well, well! Come up, Brownie!" + + + +Chapter X + + +"Peer, you're surely not going away just now? Oh, Peer, you +mustn't. You won't leave me alone, Peer!" + +"Merle, dear, now do be sensible. No, no--do let go, dear." He +tried to disengage her hands that were clasped behind his neck. + +"Peer, you have never been like this before. Don't you care for me +any more--or the children?" + +"Merle, dearest, you don't imagine that I like going. But you +surely don't want me to have another big breach this year. It +would be sheer ruin, I do assure you. Come, come now; let me go." + +But she held him fast. "And what happens to those dams up there is +more to you now than what becomes of me!" + +"You will be all right, dear. The doctor and the nurse have +promised to be on the spot the moment you send word. And you +managed so well before. . . . I simply cannot stay now, Merle. +There's too much at stake. There, there, goodbye! Be sure you +telegraph--" He kissed her over the eyes, put her gently down into +a chair, and hurried out of the room, feeling her terrified glance +follow him as he went. + +The April sun had cleared away the snow from the lowlands, but when +Peer stepped out of the train up in Espedal he found himself back +in winter--farms and fields still covered, and ridges and peaks +deep in white dazzling snow. And soon he was sitting wrapped in +his furs, driving a miserable dun pony up a side-valley that led +out on to the uplands. + +The road was a narrow track through the snow, yellow with horse- +dung, and a mass of holes and ruts, worn by his own teams that had +hauled their heavy loads of cement this way all through that winter +and the last, up to the plateau and across the frozen lakes to +Besna. + +The steel will on. The steel cares nothing for human beings. +Merle must come through it alone. + +When a healthy, happy man is hampered and thwarted in a great work +by annoyances and disasters, he behaves like an Arab horse on a +heavy march. At first it moves at a brisk trot, uphill and +downhill, and it goes faster and faster as its strength begins to +flag. And when at last it is thoroughly out of breath and ready to +drop, it breaks into an easy gallop. + +This was not the work he had once dreamed of finding. Now, as +before, his hunger for eternal things seemed ever at the side of +his accomplishment, asking continually: Whither? Why? and What +then? + +But by degrees the difficulties had multiplied and mounted, till at +last his whole mind was taken up by the one thought--to put it +through. Good or bad in itself--he must make a success of it. He +had undertaken it, and he must see it through. He must not be +beaten. + +And so he fought on. It was merely a trial of strength; a fight +with material difficulties. Aye, but was that all it was? Were +there not times when he felt himself struggling with something +greater, something worse? A new motive force seemed to have come +into his life--misfortune. A power outside his own will had begun +to play tricks with him. + +Your calculations may be sound, correct in every detail, and yet +things may go altogether wrong. + +Who could include in his calculations the chance that a perfectly +sober engineer will get drunk one day and give orders so crazy that +it costs tens of thousands to repair the damage? Who could foresee +that against all probability a big vein of water would be tapped in +tunnelling, and would burst out, flooding the workings and +overwhelming the workmen--so that the next day a train of unpainted +deal coffins goes winding out over the frozen lakes? + +More than once there had been remarks and questions in the +newspapers: "Another disaster at the Besna Falls. Who is to +blame?" + +It was because he himself was away on a business journey and +Falkman had neglected to take elementary precautions that the big +rock-fall occurred in the tunnel, killing four men, and destroying +the new Belgian rock-drill, that had cost a good hundred thousand, +before it had begun to work. This sort of thing was not faulty +calculation--it was malicious fate. + +"Come up, boy! We must get there to-night. The flood mustn't have +a chance this year to lay the blame on me because I wasn't on the +spot." + +And then, to cap the other misfortunes, his chief contractor for +material had gone bankrupt, and now prices had risen far above the +rates he had allowed for--adding fresh thousands to the extra +expenditure. + +But he would put the thing through, even if he lost money by it. +His envious rivals who had lately begun to run down his projects in +the technical papers--he would make them look foolish yet. + +And then? + +Well, it may be that the Promethean spirit is preparing a settling +day for the universe somewhere out in infinity. But what concern +is that of mine? What about my own immortal soul? + +Silence--push on, push on. There may be a snowstorm any minute. +Come up--get along, you scarecrow. + +The dun struggles on to the end of a twelve-mile stage, and then +the valley ends and the full blast from the plateau meets them. +Here lies the posting station, the last farm in the valley. He +swings into the yard and is soon sitting in the room over a cup of +coffee and a pipe. + +Merle? How are things with Merle now? + +Ah! here comes his own horse, the big black stallion from +Gudbrandsdal. This beast's trot is a different thing from the poor +dun's--the sleigh flies up to the door. And in a moment Peer is +sitting in it again in his furs. + +Ah! what a relief to have a fresh horse, and one that makes light +of the load behind him. Away he goes at a brisk trot, with lifted +head and bells jingling, over the frozen lakes. Here and there on +the hillslopes a grey hut or two show out--saeters, which have lain +there unchanged for perhaps a couple of thousand years. But a new +time is coming. The saeter-horns will be heard no longer, and the +song of the turbines will rise in their place. + +An icy wind is blowing; the horse throws up its head and snorts. +Big snowflakes come driving on the wind, and soon a regular +snowstorm is raging, lashing the traveller's face till he gasps. +First the horse's mane and tail grow white with snow, then its +whole body. The drifts grow bigger, the black has to make great +bounds to clear them. Bravo, old boy! we must get there before +dark. There are brushwood brooms set out across the ice to mark +the way, but who could keep them in sight in a driving smother like +this? Peer's own face is plastered white now, and he feels stunned +and dazed under the lash of the snow. + +He has worked under the burning suns of Egypt--and now here. But +the steel will on. The wave rolls on its way over all the world. + +If this snow should turn to rain now, it will mean a flood. And +then the men will have to turn out to-night and work to save the +dams. + +One more disaster, and he would hardly be able to finish within the +contract time. And that once exceeded, each day's delay means a +penalty of a thousand crowns. + +It is getting darker. + +At last there is nothing to be seen on the way but a shapeless mass +of snow struggling with bowed head against the storm, wading deep +in the loose drifts, wading seemingly at haphazard--and trailing +after it an indefinable bundle of white--dead white. Behind, a +human being drags along, holding on for dear life to the rings on +the sleigh. It is the post-boy from the last stage. + +At last they were groping their way in the darkness towards the +shore, where the electric lights of the station showed faintly +through the snow-fog. And hardly had Peer got out of the sleigh +before the snow stopped suddenly, and the dazzling electric suns +shone over the place, with the workmen's barracks, the assistants' +quarters, the offices, and his own little plank-built house. Two +of the engineers came out to meet him, and saluted respectfully. + +"Well, how is everything getting on?" + +The greybeard answered: "The men have struck work to-day." + +"Struck? What for?" + +"They want us to take back the machinist that was dismissed the +other day for drunkenness." + +Peer shook the snow from his fur coat, took his bag, and walked +over to the building, the others following. "Then we'll have to +take him back," he said. "We can't afford a strike now." + + +A couple of days later Peer was lying in bed, when the post-bag was +brought in. He shook the letters out over the coverlet, and caught +sight of one from Klaus Brook. + +What was this? Why did his hand tremble as he took it up? Of +course it was only one of Klaus's ordinary friendly letters. + + +DEAR FRIEND,--This is a hard letter to write. But I do hope you +have taken my advice and got some of your money at any rate over to +Norway. Well, to be as brief as possible! Ferdinand Holm has +decamped, or is in prison, or possibly worse--you know well enough +it's no good asking questions in a country like this when a big man +suddenly disappears. He had made enemies in the highest places; he +was playing a dangerous game--and this is the end of it. + +You know what it means when a business goes into liquidation out +here, and no strong man on the spot to look after things. We +Europeans can whistle for our share. + +You'll take it coolly, I know. I've lost every penny I had--but +you've still got your place over there and the workshops. And +you're the sort of fellow to make twice as much next time, or I +don't know you. I hope the Besna barrage is to be a success. + +Yours ever, + +KLAUS BROCK. + +P.S.--Of course you'll understand that now my friend has been +thrown overboard it will very likely be my turn next. But I can't +leave now--to try would rouse suspicion at once. We foreigners +have some difficult balancing to do, to escape a fall. Well, if by +chance you don't hear from me again, you'll know something has +happened! + + +Outside, the water was streaming down the channels into the fall. +Peer lay still for a while, only one knee moving up and down +beneath the clothes. He thought of his two friends. And he +thought that he was now a poor man--and that the greater part of +the burden of the security would fall now on old Lorentz D. Uthoug. + +Clearly, Fate has other business on hand than making things easy +for you, Peer. You must fight your fight out single-handed. + + + +Chapter XI + + +One evening in the late autumn Merle was sitting at home waiting +for her husband. He had been away for several weeks, so it was +only natural that she should make a little festivity of his return. +The lamps were lit in all the rooms, wood fires were crackling in +all the stoves, the cook was busy with his favourite dishes, and +little Louise, now five years old, had on her blue velvet frock. +She was sitting on the floor, nursing two dolls, and chattering to +them. "Mind you're a good girl now, Josephine. Your grandpa will +be here directly." Merle looked in through the kitchen door: +"Have you brought up the claret, Bertha? That's right. You'd +better put it near the stove to warm." Then she went round all the +rooms again. The two youngest children were in bed--was there +anything more to be done? + +It would be an hour at least before he could be here, yet she could +not help listening all the time for the sound of wheels. But she +had not finished yet. She hurried up to the bathroom, turned on +the hot water, undressed, and put on an oilskin cap to keep her +hair dry, and soon she was splashing about with soap and sponge. +Why not make herself as attractive as she could, even if things did +look dark for them just now? + +A little stream of talk went on in her brain. Strange that one's +body could be so great a pleasure to another. Here he kissed you-- +and here--and here--and often he seemed beside himself with joy. +And do you remember--that time? You held back and were cold often-- +perhaps too often--is it too late now? Ah! he has other things to +think of now. The time is gone by when you could be comfort enough +to him in all troubles. But is it quite gone by? Oh yes; last +time he came home, he hardly seemed to notice that we had a new +little girl, that he had never seen before. Well, no doubt it must +be so. He did not complain, and he was calm and quiet, but his +mind was full of a whole world of serious things, a world where +there was no room for wife and children. Will it be the same this +evening again? Will he notice that you have dressed so carefully +to please him? Will it be a joy to him any more to feel his arms +around you? + +She stood in front of the big, white-framed mirror, and looked +critically at herself. No, she was no longer young as she had +been. The red in her cheeks had faded a little these last few +years, and there were one or two wrinkles that could not be hidden. +But her eyebrows--he had loved to kiss them once--they were surely +much as before. And involuntarily she bent towards the glass, and +stroked the dark growth above her eyes as if it were his hand +caressing her. + +She came down at last, dressed in a loose blue dress with a broad +lace collar and blond lace in the wide sleeves. And not to seem +too much dressed, she had put on a red-flowered apron to give +herself a housewifely look. + +It was past seven now. Louise came whimpering to her, and Merle +sank down in a chair by the window, and took the child on her lap, +and waited. + +The sound of wheels in the night may mean the approach of fate +itself. Some decision, some final word that casts us down in a +moment from wealth to ruin--who knows? Peer had been to England +now, trying to come to some arrangement with the Company. Sh!--was +that not wheels? She rose, trembling, and listened. + +No, it had passed on. + +It was eight o'clock now, time for Louise to go to bed; and Merle +began undressing her. Soon the child was lying in her little white +bed, with a doll on either side. "Give Papa a tiss," she babbled, +"and give him my love. And Mama, do you think he'll let me come +into his bed for a bit tomorrow morning?" + +"Oh yes, I'm sure he will. And now lie down and go to sleep, +there's a good girl." + +Merle sat down again in the room and waited. But at last she rose, +put on a cloak and went out. + +The town lay down there in the autumn darkness under a milk-white +mist of light. And over the black hills all around rose a world of +stars. Somewhere out there was Peer, far out maybe upon some +country road, the horse plodding on through the dark at its own +will, its master sitting with bowed head, brooding. + +"Help us, Thou above--and help him most, he has had so much +adversity in these last days." + +But the starry vault seems icy cold--it has heard the prayers of +millions and millions before--the hearts of men are nothing to the +universe. + +Merle drooped her head and went in again to the house. + +It was midnight when Peer drove up the hill towards his home. The +sight of the great house with its brilliantly lighted windows +jarred so cruelly on his wearied mind that he involuntarily gave +the horse a cut with his whip. + +He flung the reins to the stable-boy who had come out with a +lantern, and walked up the steps, moving almost with a feeling of +awe in this great house, as if it already belonged to someone else. + +He opened the door of the drawing-room--no one there, but light, +light and comfort. He passed through into the next room, and there +sat Merle, alone, in an armchair, with her head resting on the arm, +asleep. + +Had she been waiting so long? + +A wave of warmth passed through him; he stood still, looking at +her; and presently her bowed figure slowly straightened; her pale +face relaxed into a smile. Without waking her, he went on into the +nursery, where the lights were still burning. But here the lights +shone only on three little ones, lying in their clean night- +clothes, asleep. + +He went back to the dining-room; more lights, and a table laid for +two, a snowy cloth and flowers, and a single carnation stuck into +his napkin--that must be from Louise--little Louise. + +At last Merle was awakened by the touch of his hand on her +shoulder. + +"Oh, are you there?" + +"Good-evening, Merle!" They embraced, and he kissed her forehead. +But she could see that his mind was busy with other things. + +They sat down to table, and began their meal. She could read the +expression of his face, his voice, his calm air--she knew they +meant bad news. + +But she would not question him. She would only try to show him +that all things else could be endured, if only they two loved each +other. + +But the time had passed when an unexpected caress from her was +enough to send him wild with joy. She sat there now trembling +inwardly with suspense, wondering if he would notice her--if he +could find any comfort in having her with him, still young and with +something of her beauty left. + +He looked over to her with a far-away smile. "Merle," he asked, +"what do you think your father is worth altogether?" The words +came like a quiet order from a captain standing on the bridge, +while his ship goes down. + +"Oh, Peer, don't think about all that to-night. Welcome home!" +And she smiled and took his hand. + +"Thanks," he said, and pressed her fingers; but his thoughts were +still far off. And he went on eating without knowing what he ate. + +"And what do you think? Louise has begun the violin. You've no +idea how the little thing takes to it." + +"Oh?" + +"And Asta's got another tooth--she had a wretched time, poor thing, +while it was coming through." + +It was as if she were drawing the children up to him, to show him +that at least he still had them. + +He looked at her for a moment. "Merle, you ought never to have +married me. It would have been better for you and for your people +too." + +"Oh, nonsense, Peer--you know you'll be able to make it all right +again." + +They went up to bed, and undressed slowly. "He hasn't noticed me +yet," thought Merle. + +And she laughed a little, and said, "I was sitting thinking this +evening of the first day we met. I suppose you never think of it +now?" + +He turned round, half undressed, and looked at her. Her lively +tone fell strangely on his ears. "She does not ask how I have got +on, or how things are going," he thought. But as he went on +looking at her he began at last to see through her smile to the +anxious heart beneath. + +Ah, yes; he remembered well that far-off summer when life had been +a holiday in the hills, and a girl making coffee over a fire had +smiled at him for the first time. And he remembered the first sun- +red night of his love on the shining lake-mirror, when his heart +was filled with the rush of a great anthem to heaven and earth. + +She stood there still. He had her yet. But for the first time in +their lives she came to him now humbly, begging him to make the +best of her as she was. + +An unspeakable warmth began to flow through his heavy heart. But +he did not rush to embrace her and whirl her off in a storm of +passionate delight. He stood still, staring before him, and, +drawing himself up, swore to himself with fast-closed lips that he +would, he WOULD trample a way through, and save things for them +both, even yet. + +The lights were put out, and soon they lay in their separate beds, +breathing heavily in the dark. Peer stretched himself out, with +his face up, thinking, with closed eyes. He was hunting in the +dark for some way to save his dear ones. And Merle lay so long +waiting for one caress from him that at last she had to draw out +her handkerchief and press it over her eyes, while her body shook +with a noiseless sobbing. + + + +Chapter XII + + +Old Lorentz D. Uthoug rarely visited his rich sister at Bruseth, +but to-day he had taken his weary way up there, and the two +masterful old folks sat now facing each other. + +"So you've managed to find your way up here?" said Aunt Marit, +throwing out her ample bosom and rubbing her knees like a man. + +"Why, yes--I thought I'd like to see how you were getting on," said +Uthoug, squaring his broad shoulders. + +"Quite well, thanks. Having no son-in-law, I'm not likely to go +bankrupt, I daresay." + +"I'm not bankrupt, either," said old Uthoug, fixing his red eyes on +her face. + +"Perhaps not. But what about him?" + +"Neither is he. He'll be a rich man before very long." + +"He!--rich! Did you say rich?" + +"Before a year's out," answered the old man calmly. "But you'll +have to help." + +"I!" Aunt Marit shifted her chair backwards, gaping. "I, did you +say? Ha-ha-ha! Just tell me, how many hundreds of thousands did +he lose over that ditch or drain or whatever it was?" + +"He was six months behind time in finishing it, I know. But the +Company agreed to halve the forfeit for delay when they'd seen what +a masterpiece the work was." + +"Ah, yes--and what about the contractors, whom he couldn't pay, I +hear?" + +"He's paid them all in full now. The Bank arranged things." + +"I see. After you and he had mortaged every stick and rag you had +in the world. Yes, indeed--you deserve a good whipping, the pair +of you!" + +Uthoug stroked his beard. "From a financial point of view the +thing wasn't a success for him, I'll admit. But I can show you +here what the engineering people say about it in the technical +papers. Here's an article with pictures of him and of the +barrage." + +"Well! he'd better keep his family on pictures in the papers then," +said the widow, paying no attention to the paper he offered. + +"He'll soon be on top again," said her brother, putting the papers +back in his pocket. He sat there in front of her quite unruffled. +He would let people see that he was not the man to be crushed by a +reverse; that there were other things he valued more than money. + +"Soon be on top?" repeated Aunt Marit. "Has he got round you again +with some nonsense?" + +"He's invented a new mowing machine. It's nearly finished. And +the experts say it will be worth a million." + +"Ho! and you want to come over me with a tale like that?" The +widow shifted her chair a little farther back. + +"You must help us to carry on through this year--both of us. If +you will stand security for thirty thousand, the bank . . ." + +Aunt Marit of Bruseth slapped her knees emphatically. "I'll do +nothing of the sort!" + +"For twenty thousand, then?" + +"Not for twenty pence!" + +Lorentz Uthoug fixed his gaze on his sister's face; his red eyes +began to glow. + +"You'll have to do it, Marit," he said calmly. He took a pipe from +his pocket and set to work to fill and light it. + +The two sat for a while looking at each other, each on the alert +for fear the other's will should prove the stronger. They looked +at each other so long that at last both smiled involuntarily. + +"I suppose you've taken to going to church with your wife now?" +asked the widow at last, her eyes blinking derision. + +"If I put my trust in the Lord," he said, "I might just sit down +and pray and let things go to ruin. As it is, I've more faith in +human works, and that's why I'm here now." + +The answer pleased her. The widow at Bruseth was no churchgoer +herself. She thought the Lord had made a bad mistake in not giving +her any children. + +"Will you have some coffee?" she asked, rising from her seat. + +"Now you're talking sense," said her brother, and his eyes +twinkled. He knew his sister and her ways. And now he lit his +pipe and leaned back comfortably in his chair. + + + +Chapter XIII + + +Once more Peer stood in his workroom down at the foundry, wrestling +with fire and steel. + +A working drawing is a useful thing; an idea in one's head is all +very well. But the men he employed to turn his plans into tangible +models worked slowly; why not use his own hands for what had to be +done? + +When the workmen arrived at the foundry in the morning there was +hammering going on already in the little room. And when they left +in the evening, the master had not stopped working yet. When the +good citizens of Ringeby went to bed, they would look out of their +windows and see his light still burning. + +Peer had had plenty to tire him out even before he began work here. +But in the old days no one had ever asked if he felt strong enough +to do this or that. And he never asked himself. Now, as before, +it was a question of getting something done, at any cost. And +never before had there been so much at stake. + +The wooden model of the new machine is finished already, and the +castings put together. The whole thing looks simple enough, and +yet--what a distance from the first rough implement to this thing, +which seems almost to live--a thing with a brain of metal at least. +Have not these wheels and axles had their parents and ancestors-- +their pedigree stretching back into the past? The steel has +brought forth, and its descendants again in turn, advancing always +toward something finer, stronger, more efficient. And here is the +last stage reached by human invention in this particular work up to +now--yet, after all, is it good enough? An invention successful +enough to bring money in to the inventor--that is not all. It must +be more; it must be a world-success, a thing to make its way across +the prairies, across the enormous plains of India and Egypt--that +is what is needed. Sleep? rest? food? What are such things when +so much is at stake! + +There was no longer that questioning in his ear: Why? Whither? +What then? Useless to ponder on these things. His horizon was +narrowed down to include nothing beyond this one problem. Once he +had dreamed of a work allied to his dreams of eternity. This, +certainly, was not it. What does the gain amount to, after all, +when humanity has one more machine added to it? Does it kindle a +single ray of dawn the more in a human soul? + +Yet this work, such as it was, had now become his all. It must and +should be all. He was fast bound to it. + +When he looked up at the window, there seemed to be faces at each +pane staring in. "What? Not finished yet?" they seemed to say. +"Think what it means if you fail!" Merle's face, and the +children's: "Must we be driven from Loreng, out into the cold?" +The faces of old Uthoug and his wife: "Was it for this you came +into an honourable family? To bring it to ruin?" And behind them, +swarming, all the town. All knew what was at stake, and why he was +toiling so. All stared at him, waiting. The Bank Manager was +there too--waiting, like the rest. + +One can seize one's neck in iron pincers, and say: You shall! +Tired? difficulties? time too short?--all that doesn't exist. You +shall! Is this thing or that impossible? Well, make it possible. +It is your business to make it possible. + +He spent but little time at home now; a sofa in the workshop was +his bed. Often Merle would come in with food for him, and seeing +how pale and grey and worn out he was, she did not dare to question +him. She tried to jest instead. She had trained herself long ago +to be gay in a house where shadows had to be driven off with +laughter. + +But one day, as she was leaving, he held her back, and looked at +her with a strange smile. + +"Well, dear?" she said, with a questioning look. + +He stood looking at her as before, with the same far-off smile. He +was looking through her into the little world she stood for. This +home, this family that he, a homeless man, had won through her, was +it all to go down in shipwreck? + +Then he kissed her eyes and let her go. + +And as her footsteps died away, he stood a moment, moved by a +sudden desire to turn to some Power above him with a prayer that he +might succeed in this work. But there was no such Power. And in +the end his eyes turned once more to the iron, the fire, his tools, +and his own hands, and it was as though he sighed out a prayer to +these: "Help me--help me, that I may save my wife and children's +happiness." + +Sleep? rest? weariness? He had only a year's grace. The bank +would only wait a year. + +Winter and spring passed, and one day in July he came home and +rushed in upon Merle crying, "To-morrow, Merle! They will be here +to-morrow!" + +"Who?" + +"The people to look at the machine. We're going to try it +to-morrow." + +"Oh, Peer!" she said breathlessly, gazing at him. + +"It's a good thing that I had connections abroad," he went on. +"There's one man coming from an English firm, and another from +America. It ought to be a big business." + +The morrow came. Merle stood looking after her husband as he drove +off, his hat on the back of his head, through the haze that +followed the night's rain. But there was no time to stand +trembling; they were to have the strangers to dinner, and she must +see to it. + +Out in the field the machine stood ready, a slender, newly painted +thing. A boy was harnessing the horses. + +Two men in soft hats and light overcoats came up; it was old +Uthoug, and the Bank Manager. They stopped and looked round, +leaning on their sticks; the results of the day were not a matter +of entire indifference to these two gentlemen. Ah! here was the +big carriage from Loreng, with the two strangers and Peer himself, +who had been down to fetch them from the hotel. + +He was a little pale as he took the reins and climbed to his seat +on the machine, to drive it himself through the meadow of high, +thick timothy-grass. + +The horses pricked up their ears and tried to break into a gallop, +the noise of the machine behind them startling them as usual at +first, but they soon settled down to a steady pace, and the steel +arm bearing the shears swept a broad swath through the meadow, +where the grass stood shining after the rain. + +The two strangers walked slowly in the rear, bending down now and +again to look at the stubble, and see if the shears cut clean. The +tall man with the heavy beard and pince-nez was the agent for John +Fowler of Leeds; the little clean-shaven one with the Jewish nose +represented Harrow & Co. of Philadelphia. + +Now and again they called to Peer to stop, while they investigated +some part of the machine. + +They asked him then to try it on different ground; on an uneven +slope, over little tussocks; and at last the agent for Fowler's +would have it that it should be tried on a patch of stony ground. +But that would spoil the shears? Very likely, but Fowler's would +like to know exactly how the shears were affected by stones on the +ground. + +At last the trials were over, and the visitors nodded thoughtfully +to each other. Evidently they had come on something new here. +There were possibilities in the thing that might drive most other +types out of the field, even in the intense competition that rages +all round the world in agricultural machinery. + +Peer read the expression in their eyes--these cold-blooded +specialists had seen the vision; they had seen gold. + +But all the same there was a hitch--a little hitch. + +Dinner was over, the visitors had left, and Merle and Peer were +alone. She lifted her eyes to his inquiringly. + +"It went off well then?" she asked. + +"Yes. But there is just one little thing to put right." + +"Still something to put right--after you have worked so hard all +these months?" She sat down, and her hands dropped into her lap. + +"It's only a small detail," he said eagerly, pacing up and down. +"When the grass is wet, it sticks between the steel fingers above +the shears and accumulates there and gets in the way. It's the +devil and all that I never thought of testing it myself in wet +weather. But once I've got that right, my girl, the thing will be +a world-success." + +Once more the machine was set up in his workshop, and he walked +around it, watching, spying, thinking, racking his brain to find +the little device that should make all well. All else was +finished, all was right, but he still lacked the single happy +thought, the flash of inspiration--that given, a moment's work +would be enough to give this thing of steel life, and wings with +which to fly out over the wide world. + +It might come at any moment, that happy thought. And he tramped +round and round his machine, clenching his fists in desperation +because it was so slow in coming. + +The last touch only, the dot upon an i, was wanting. A slight +change in the shape or position of the fingers, or the length of +the shears--what was it he wanted? How could he sleep that night? + +He felt that he stood face to face with a difficulty that could +have been easily solved had he come fresh to the work, but that his +tortured brain was too worn out to overcome. + +But when an Arab horse is ready to drop with fatigue, then is the +time when it breaks into a gallop. + +He could not wait. There were the faces at the window again, +staring and asking: "Not finished yet?" Merle, the children, +Uthoug and his wife, the Bank Manager. And there were his +competitors the world over. To-day he was a length ahead of them, +but by to-morrow he might be left behind. Wait? Rest? No! + +It was autumn now, and sleepless nights drove him to a doctor, who +prescribed cold baths, perfect quiet, sleeping draughts, iron and +arsenic. Ah, yes. Peer could swallow all the prescriptions--the +one thing he could not do was rest or sleep. + +He would sit late into the night, prostrate with exhaustion, +watching the dying embers of the forge, the steel, the tools. And +innumerable sparks would begin to fly before his eyes, and masses +of molten iron to creep about like living things over walls and +floor.--And over by the forge was something more defined, a misty +shape, that grew in size and clearness and stood at last a bearded, +naked demigod, with fire in one hand and sledgehammer in the other. + +"What? Who is that?" + +"Man, do you not know me?" + +"Who are you, I ask?" + +"I have a thing to tell you: it is vain for you to seek for any +other faith than faith in the evolution of the universe. It will +do no good to pray. You may dream yourself away from the steel and +the fire, but you must offer yourself up to them at last. You are +bound fast to these things. Outside them your soul is nothing. +God? happiness? yourself? eternal life for you? All these are +nothing. The will of the world rolls on towards its eternal goal, +and the individual is but fuel for the fire." + +Peer would spring up, believing for a moment that someone was +really there. But there was nothing, only the empty air. + +Now and again he would go home to Loreng, but everything there +seemed to pass in a mist. He could see that Merle's eyes were red, +though she sang cheerily as she went about the house. It seemed to +him that she had begged him to go to bed and rest, and he had gone +to bed. It would be delicious to sleep. But in the middle of the +night it was borne in upon him that the fault lay in the shape of +the shears after all, and then there was no stopping him from +getting up and hurrying in to the workshop. Winter has come round +again, and he fights his way in through a snow-storm. And in the +quiet night he lights his lamp, kindles the forge fire, screws off +the blades of the shears once more. But when he has altered them +and fixed them in place again, he knows at once that the defect was +not in them after all. + +Coffee is a good thing for keeping the brain clear. He took to +making it in the workshop for himself--and at night especially a +few cups did him good. They were so satisfying too, that he felt +no desire for food. And when he came to the conclusion that the +best thing would be to make each separate part of the machine over +again anew, coffee was great help, keeping him awake through many a +long night. + +It began to dawn upon him that Merle and his father-in-law and the +Bank Manager had taken to lurking about the place night and day, +watching and spying to see if the work were not nearly done. Why +in the devil's name could they not leave him in peace--just one +week more? In any case, the machine could not be tried before next +summer. At times the workers at the foundry would be startled by +their master suddenly rushing out from his inner room and crying +fiercely: "No one is to come in here. I WILL be left in peace!" + +And when he had gone in again, they would look at each other and +shake their heads. + +One morning Merle came down and walked through the outer shops, and +knocked at the door of her husband's room. There was no answer; +and she opened the door and went in. + +A moment after, the workmen heard a woman's shriek, and when they +ran in she was bending over her husband, who was seated on the +floor, staring up at her with blank, uncomprehending eyes. + +"Peer," she cried, shaking his shoulder--"Peer, do you hear? Oh, +for God's sake--what is it, my darling--" + + . . . . . . + +One April day there was a stir in the little town of Ringeby, and a +stream of people, all in their best clothes (though it was only +Wednesday), was moving out along the fjord road to Loreng. There +were the two editors, who had just settled one of their everlasting +disputes, and the two lawyers, each still intent on snatching any +scraps of business that offered; there were tradesmen and artisans; +and nearly everyone was wearing a long overcoat and a grey felt +hat. But the tanner had put on a high silk hat, so as to look a +little taller. + +Where the road left the wood most of them stopped for a moment to +look up at Loreng. The great white house seemed to have set itself +high on its hill to look out far and wide over the lake and the +country round. And men talked of the great doings, the feasting +and magnificence, the great house had seen in days gone by, from +the time when the place had been a Governor's residence until a few +years back, when Engineer Holm was in his glory. + +But to-day the place was up to auction, with stock and furniture, +and people had walked or driven over from far around. For the bank +management felt they would not be justified in giving any longer +grace, now that Peer Holm was lying sick in hospital, and no doctor +would undertake to say whether he would ever be fit to work again. + +The courtyard was soon crowded. Inside, in the great hall, the +auctioneer was beginning to put up the lots already, but most +people hung back a little, as if they felt a reluctance to go in. +For the air in there seemed charged with lingering memories of +splendour and hospitality, from the days when cavaliers with +ruffles and golden spurs had done homage there to ladies in +sweeping silk robes--down to the last gay banquets to which the +famous engineer from Egypt had loved to gather all the gentry round +in the days of his prosperity. + +Most of the people stood on the steps and in the entrance-hall. +And now and again they would catch a glimpse of a pale woman, +dressed in black, with thick dark eyebrows, crossing the courtyard +to a servant's house or a storehouse to give some order for moving +the things. It was Merle, now mistress here no longer. + +Old Lorentz D. Uthoug met his sister, the mighty lady of Bruseth, +on the steps. She looked at him, and there was a gleam of derision +in her narrowed eyes. But he drew himself up, and said as he +passed her, "You've nothing to be afraid of. I've settled things +so that I'm not bankrupt yet. And you shall have your share--in +full." + +And he strode in, a broad-shouldered, upright figure, looking +calmly at all men, that all might see he was not the man to be +crushed by a reverse. + +Late in the day the chestnut, Bijou, was put up for sale. He was +led across the courtyard in a halter, and as he came he stopped for +a moment, and threw up his head, and neighed, and from the stables +the other horses neighed in answer. Was it a farewell? Did he +remember the day, years ago, when he had come there first, dancing +on his white-stockinged feet, full of youth and strength? + +But by the woodshed there stood as usual a little grey old man, +busy sawing and chopping, as if nothing at all was the matter. One +master left, another took his place; one needed firewood, it seemed +to him, as much as the other. And if they came and gave him +notice--why, thank the Lord, he was stone deaf. Thud, thud, the +sound of the axe went on. + +A young man came driving up the hill, a florid-faced young man, +with very blue eyes. He took off his overcoat in the passage, +revealing a long black frock coat beneath and a large-patterned +waistcoat. It was Uthoug junior, general agent for English tweeds. +He had taken no part in his brother-in-law's business affairs, and +so he was able to help his father in this crisis. + +But the auction at Loreng went on for several days. + + + +Book III + + +Chapter I + + +Once more a deep valley, with sun-steeped farms on the hillsides +between the river and the mountain-range behind. + +One day about midsummer it was old Raastad himself that came down +to meet the train, driving a spring-cart, with a waggon following +behind. Was he expecting visitors? the people at the station asked +him. "Maybe I am," said old Raastad, stroking his heavy beard, and +he limped about looking to his horses. Was it the folk who had +taken the Court-house? "Ay, it's likely them," said the old man. + +The train came in, and a pale man, with grey hair and beard, and +blue spectacles, stepped out, and he had a wife and three children +with him. "Paul Raastad?" inquired the stranger. "Ay, that's me," +said the old man. The stranger looked up at the great mountains to +the north, rising dizzily into the sky. "The air ought to be good +here," said he. "Ay, the air's good enough, by all accounts," said +Raastad, and began loading up the carts. + +They drove off up the hill road. The man and his wife sat in the +spring-cart, the woman with a child in her lap, but a boy and a +girl were seated on the load in the baggage-waggon behind Raastad. +"Can we see the farm from here?" asked the woman, turning her head. +"There," said the old man, pointing. And looking, they saw a big +farmstead high up on a sunny hill-slope, close under the crest, +and near by a long low house with a steep slate roof, the sort of +place where the district officers used to live in old days. "Is +that the house we are to live in?" she asked again. "Ay, that's +it, right enough," said old Raastad, and chirruped to his horses. + +The woman looked long at the farm and sighed. So this was to be +their new home. They were to live here, far from all their +friends. And would it give him back his health, after all the +doctors' medicines had failed? + +A Lapland dog met them at the gate and barked at them; a couple of +pigs came down the road, stopped and studied the new arrivals with +profound attention, then wheeled suddenly and galloped off among +the houses. + +The farmer's wife herself was waiting outside the Court-house, a +tall wrinkled woman with a black cap on her head. "Welcome," she +said, offering a rough and bony hand. + +The house was one of large low-ceiled rooms, with big stoves that +would need a deal of firewood in winter. The furniture was a +mixture of every possible sort and style: a mahogany sofa, +cupboards with painted roses on the panels, chairs covered with +"Old Norse" carving, and on the walls appalling pictures of foreign +royal families and of the Crucifixion. "Good Heavens!" said Merle, +as they went round the rooms alone: "how shall we ever get used to +all this?" + +But just then Louise came rushing in, breathless with news. +"Mother--father--there are goats here!" And little Lorentz came +toddling in after her: "Goats, mother," he cried, stumbling over +the doorstep. + +The old house had stood empty and dead for years. Now it seemed to +have wakened up again. Footsteps went in and out, and the stairs +creaked once more under the tread of feet, small, pattering, +exploring feet, and big feet going about on grown-up errands. +There was movement in every corner: a rattle of pots and pans in +the kitchen; fires blazed up, and smoke began to rise from the +chimney; people passing by outside looked up at it and saw that the +dead old house had come to life again. + +Peer was weak still after his illness, but he could help a little +with the unpacking. It took very little, though, to make him out +of breath and giddy, and there was a sledge-hammer continually +thumping somewhere in the back of his head. Suppose--suppose, +after all, the change here does you no good? You are at the last +stage. You've managed to borrow the money to keep you all here for +a year. And then? Your wife and children? Hush!--better not +think of that. Not that; think of anything else, only not that. + +Clothes to be carried upstairs. Yes, yes--and to think it was all +to end in your living on other people's charity. Even that can't +go on long. If you should be no better next summer--or two years +hence?--what then? For yourself--yes, there's always one way out +for you. But Merle and the children? Hush, don't think of it! +Once it was your whole duty to finish a certain piece of work in a +certain time. Now it is your duty to get well again, to be as +strong as a horse by next year. It is your duty. If only the +sledge-hammer would stop, that cursed sledge-hammer in the back of +your head. + +Merle, as she went out and in, was thinking perhaps of the same +thing, but her head was full of so much else--getting things in +order and the household set going. Food had to be bought from the +local shop; and how many litres of milk would she require in the +morning? Where could she get eggs? She must go across at once to +the Raastads' and ask. So the pale woman in the dark dress walked +slowly with bowed head across the courtyard. But when she stopped +to speak to people about the place, they would forget their manners +and stare at her, she smiled so strangely. + +"Father, there's a box of starlings on the wall here," said Louise +as she lay in bed with her arms round Peer's neck saying good- +night. "And there's a swallow's nest under the eaves too." + +"Oh, yes, we'll have great fun at Raastad--just you wait and see." + +Soon Merle and Peer too lay in their strange beds, looking out at +the luminous summer night. + +They were shipwrecked people washed ashore here. But it was not so +clear that they were saved. + +Peer turned restlessly from side to side. He was so worn to skin +and bone that his nerves seemed laid bare, and he could not rest in +any position. Also there were three hundred wheels whirring in his +head, and striking out sparks that flew up and turned to visions. + +Rest? why had he never been content to rest in the days when all +went well? + +He had made his mark at the First Cataract, yes, and had made big +sums of money out of his new pump; but all the time there were the +gnawing questions: Why? and whither? and what then? He had been +Chief Engineer and had built a railway, and could have had +commissions to build more railways--but again the questions: Why? +and what then? Home, then, home and strike root in his native +land--well, and had that brought him rest? What was it that drove +him away again? The steel, the steel and the fire. + +Ah! that day when he had stepped down from the mowing machine and +had been ensnared by the idea of improving it. Why had he ever +taken it up? Did he need money? No. Or was the work at a +standstill? No. But the steel would on; it had need of a man; +it had taken him by the throat and said, "You shall!" + +Happiness? Rest? Ah no! For, you see, a stored-up mass of +knowledge and experience turns one fine day into an army of evil +powers, that lash you on and on, unceasingly. You may stumble, you +may fall--what does it matter? The steel squeezes one man dry, and +then grips the next. The flame of the world has need of fuel--bow +thy head, Man, and leap into the fire. + +To-day you prosper--to-morrow you are cast down into a hell on +earth. What matter? You are fuel for the fire. + +But I will not, I will not be swallowed up in the flame of the +world, even though it be the only godhead in the universe. I will +tear myself loose, be something in and for myself. I will have an +immortal soul. The world-transformation that progress may have +wrought a thousand years hence--what is it to me? + +Your soul? Just think of all your noble feelings towards that +true-born half-brother of yours--ha-ha-ha! Shakespeare was wrong. +It's the bastard that gets cheated. + +"Dearest Peer, do, for God's sake, try to get to sleep." + +"Oh yes. I'll get to sleep all right. But it's so hot." He threw +off the clothes and lay breathing heavily. + +"I'm sure you're lying thinking and brooding over things. Can't +you do what the Swedish doctor told you--just try to think that +everything is dark all round you." + +Peer turns round, and everything around him is dark. But in the +heart of that darkness waves arise, waves of melody, rolling +nearer, nearer. It is the sound of a hymn--it is Louise standing +playing, his sister Louise. And what peace--O God, what peace and +rest! + +But soon Louise fades away, she fades away, and vanishes like a +flame blown out. And there comes a roaring noise, nearer and +nearer, grinding, crashing, rattling--and he knows now what it is +only too well: it is the song of the steel. + +The roar of steel from ships and from railway-trains, with their +pairs of yellow evil eyes, rushing on, full of human captives, +whither? Faster, faster--driven by competition, by the steel demon +that hunts men on without rest or respite--that hurries on the +pulse of the world to fever, to hallucination, to madness. + +Crashing of steel girders falling, the hum of wheels, the clash of +cranes and winches and chains, the clang of steam-hammers at work-- +all are in that roar. The fire flares up with hellish eyes in +every dark corner, and men swarm around in the red glow like evil +angels. They are the slaves of steel and fire, lashed onwards, +never resting. + +Is this the spirit of Prometheus? Look, the will of steel is +flinging men up into the air now. It is conquering the heavens. +Why? That it may rush the faster. It craves for yet more speed, +quicker, quicker, dizzier yet, hurrying--wherefore?--whither? +Alas! it knows not itself. + +Are the children of the earth grown so homeless? Do they fear to +take a moment's rest? Do they dread to look inward and see their +own emptiness? Are they longing for something they have lost--some +hymn, some harmony, some God? + +God? They find a bloodthirsty Jehovah, and an ascetic on the +cross. What gods are these for modern men? Religious history, not +religion. + +"Peer," says Merle again, "for God's sake try to sleep." + +"Merle, do you think I shall get well here?" + +"Why, don't you feel already how splendid the air is? Of course +you'll get well." + +He twined his fingers into hers, and at last the sound of Louise's +hymn came to him once more, lifting and rocking him gently till his +eyes closed. + + + +Chapter II + + +A little road winds in among the woods, two wheel-tracks only, with +a carpet of brown pine-needles between; but there are trees and the +sky, quiet and peace, so that it's a real blessing to walk there. +It rises and falls so gently, that no one need get out of breath; +indeed, it seems to go along with one all the time, in mere +friendliness, whispering: "Take it easy. Take your time. Have a +good rest here." And so on it goes, winding in among the tree- +trunks, slender and supple as a young girl. + +Peer walked here every day. He would stop and look up into the +tops of the fir trees, and walk on again; then sit down for a +moment on a mossy stone; but only for a moment--always he was up +again soon and moving on, though he had nowhere to go. But at +least there was peace here. He would linger watching an insect as +it crept along a fir branch, or listening to the murmur of the +river in the valley far below, or breathing in the health-giving +scent of the resin, thick in the warm air. + +This present life of his was one way of living. As he lay, after a +sleepless night, watching the window grow lighter with the dawn, he +would think: Yet another new day--and nothing that I can do in it. + +And yet he had to get up, and dress, and go down and eat. His +bread had a slightly bitter taste to him--it tasted of charity and +dependence, of the rich widow at Bruseth and the agent for English +tweeds. And he must remember to eat slowly, to masticate each +mouthful carefully, to rest after meals, and above all not to +think--not to think of anything in the wide world. Afterwards, he +could go out and in like other people, only that all his movements +and actions were useless and meaningless in themselves; they were +done only for the sake of health, or to keep thoughts away, or to +make the time go by. + +How had this come to pass? He found it still impossible to grasp +how such senseless things can happen and no Providence interfere to +set them right. Why should he have been so suddenly doomed to +destruction? Days, weeks and months of his best manhood oozing +away into empty nothingness--why? Sleeplessness and tortured +nerves drove him to do things that his will disowned; he would +storm at his wife and children if a heel so much as scraped on the +floor, and the remorse that followed, sometimes ending in childish +tears, did no good, for the next time the same thing, or worse, +would happen again. This was the burden of his days. This was the +life he was doomed to live. + +But up here on the little forest track he harms no one; and no +racking noises come thrusting sharp knives into his spine. Here is +a great peace; a peace that does a man good. Down on the grassy +slope below stands a tumble-down grey barn; it reminds him of an +old worn-out horse, lifting its head from grazing to gaze at you-- +a lonely forsaken creature it seems--to-morrow it will sink to the +ground and rise no more--yet IT takes its lot calmly and patiently. + +Ugh! how far he has got from Raastad. A cold sweat breaks out over +his body for fear he may not have strength to walk back again +uphill. Well, pull yourself together. Rest a little. And he lies +down on his back in a field of clover, and stares up at the sky. + +A stream of clean air, fresh from the snow, flows all day long down +the valley; as if Jotunheim itself, where it lies in there beneath +the sky, were breathing in easy well-being. Peer fills his lungs +again and again with long deep draughts, drinking in the air like a +saving potion. "Help me then, oh air, light, solitude! help me +that I may be whole once more and fit to work, for this is the one +and only religion left me to cling to." + +High above, over the two mountain ranges, a blue flood stands +immovable, and in its depths eternal rest is brooding. But is +there a will there too, that is concerned with men on earth? You +do not believe in it, and yet a little prayer mounts up to it as +well! Help me--thou too. Who? Thou that hearest. If Thou care +at all for the miserable things called men that crawl upon the +earth--help me! If I once prayed for a great work that could stay +my hunger for things eternal, I repent me now and confess that it +was pride and vanity. Make me a slave, toiling at servile tasks +for food, so that Merle and the children be not taken from me. +Hearest Thou? + +Does anyone in heaven find comfort in seeing men tortured by blind +fortune? Are my wife and my children slaves of an unmeaning +chance--and yet can smile and laugh? Answer me, if Thou hearest-- +Thou of the many names. + +A grasshopper is shrilling in the grass about him. Suddenly he +starts up sitting. A railway-train goes screaming past below. + +And so the days go on. + +Each morning Merle would steal a glance at her husband's face, to +see if he had slept; if his eyes were dull, or inflamed, or calm. +Surely he must be better soon! Surely their stay here must do him +good. She too had lost faith in medicines, but this air, the +country life, the solitude--rest, rest--surely there must soon be +some sign that these were helping him. + +Many a time she rose in the morning without having closed her eyes +all night. But there were the children to look after, the house to +see to, and she had made up her mind to get on without a maid if +she possibly could. + +"What has taken you over to the farm so much lately?" she asked one +day. "You have been sitting over there with old Raastad for hours +together." + +"I--I go over to amuse myself and pass the time," he said. + +"Do you talk politics?" + +"No--we play cards. Why do you look at me like that?" + +"You never cared for cards before." + +"No; but what the devil am I to do? I can't read, because of these +cursed eyes of mine--and the hammering in my head. . . . And I've +counted all the farms up and down the valley now. There are fifty +in all. And on the farm here there are just twenty-one houses, big +and little. What the devil am I to take to next?" + +Merle sighed. "It is hard," she said. "But couldn't you wait till +the evening to play cards--till the children are in bed--then I +could play with you. That would be better." + +"Thank you very much. But what about the rest of the day? Do you +know what it's like to go about from dawn to dark feeling that +every minute is wasted, and wasted for nothing? No, you can't know +it. What am I to do with myself all through one of these endless, +deadly days? Drink myself drunk?" + +"Couldn't you try cutting firewood for a little?" + +"Firewood?" He whistled softly. "Well, that's an idea. Ye--yes. +Let's try chopping firewood for a change." + +Thud, thud, thud! + +But as he straightened his back for a breathing-space, the whirr, +whirr of Raastad's mowing machine came to him from the hill-slope +near by where it was working, and he clenched his teeth as if they +ached. He was driving a mowing machine of his own invention, and +it was raining continually, and the grass kept sticking, sticking-- +and how to put it right--put it right? It was as if blows were +falling on festering wounds in his head, making him dance with +pain. Thud, thud, thud!--anything to drown the whirr of that +machine. + +But a man may use an axe with his hands, and yet have idiotic +fancies all the time bubbling and seething in his head. The power +to hold in check the vagaries of imagination may be gone. From all +sides they come creeping out in swarms, they swoop down on him like +birds of prey--as if in revenge for having been driven away so +often before--they cry: here we are! He stood once more as an +apprentice in the mechanical works, riveting the plates of a +gigantic boiler with a compressed-air tube--cling, clang! The +wailing clang of the boiler went out over the whole town. And now +that same boiler is set up inside his head--cling-clang--ugh! A +cold sweat breaks out upon his body; he throws down the axe; he +must go--must fly, escape somewhere--where, he cannot tell. Faces +that he hates to think of peer out at him from every corner, +yapping out: "Heh!--what did we say? To-day a beggar--to-morrow a +madman in a cell." + +But it may happen, too, that help comes in the night. Things come +back to a man that it is good to remember. That time--and that +other. . . . A woman there--and the one you met in such a place. +There is a picture in the Louvre, by Veronese: a young Venetian +woman steps out upon the marble stairway of a palace holding a +golden-haired boy by the hand; she is dressed in black velvet, she +glows with youth and happiness. A lovers' meeting in her garden? +The first kiss! Moonlight and mandolins! + +A shudder of pleasure passes through his weary body. Bright +recollections and impressions flock towards him like spirits of +light--he can hear the rushing sound of their wings--he calls to +them for aid, and they encircle him round; they struggle with the +spirits of darkness for his soul. He has known much brightness, +much beauty in his life--surely the bright angels are the stronger +and must conquer. Ah! why had he not lived royally, amidst women +and flowers and wine? + +One morning as he was getting up, he said: "Merle, I must and will +hit upon something that'll send me to bed thoroughly tired out." + +"Yes dear," she answered. "Do try." + +"I'll try wheeling stones to begin with," he said. "The devil's in +it if a day at that doesn't make a man sleep." + +So that day and for many days he wheeled stones from some newly +broken land on the hillside down to a dyke that ran along the road. + +Calm, golden autumn days; one farm above another rising up towards +the crest of the range, all set in ripe yellow fields. One little +cottage stands right on the crest against the sky itself, and it, +too, has its tiny patch of yellow corn. And an eagle sails slowly +across the deep valley from peak to peak. + +People passing by stared at Peer as he went about bare-headed, in +his shirt-sleeves, wheeling stones. "Aye, gentlefolks have queer +notions," they would say, shaking their heads. + +"That's it--keep at it," a dry, hacking voice kept going in Peer's +head. "It is idiocy, but you are doomed to it. Shove hard with +those skinny legs of yours; many a jade before you has had to do +the same. You've got to get some sleep tonight. Only ten months +left now; and then we shall have Lucifer turning up at the cross- +roads once more. Poor Merle--she's beginning to grow grey. And +the poor little children--dreaming of father beating them, maybe, +they cry out so often in their sleep. Off now, trundle away. Now +over with that load; and back for another. + +"You, that once looked down on the soulless toil for bread, you +have sunk now to something far more miserable. You are dragging at +a load of sheer stupidity. You are a galley-slave, with calamity +for your task-master. As you move the chains rattle. And that is +your day." + +He straightens himself up, wipes the sweat from his forehead, and +begins heaving up stones into his barrow again. + +How long must it last, this life in manacles? Do you remember Job? +Job? Aye, doubtless Jehovah was sitting at some jovial feast when +he conceived that fantasy of a drunken brain, to let Satan loose +upon a happy man. Job? His seven sons and daughters, and his +cattle, and his calves were restored unto him, but we read nothing +of any compensation made him for the jest itself. He was made to +play court fool, with his boils and his tortures and his misery, +and the gods had their bit of sport gratis. Job had his actual +outlay in cattle and offspring refunded, and that was all. Ha-ha! + +Prometheus! Is it you after all that are the friend of man among +the gods? Have you indeed the power to free us all some day? When +will you come, then, to raise the great revolt? + +Come, come--up with the barrow again--you see it is full. + +"Father, it's dinner-time. Come along home," cries little Louise, +racing down the hill with her yellow plaits flying about her ears. +But she stops cautiously a little distance off--there is no knowing +what sort of temper father may be in. + +"Thanks, little monkey. Got anything good for dinner to-day?" + +"Aha! that's a secret," said the girl in a teasing voice; she was +beaming now, with delight at finding him approachable. "Catch me, +father! I can run quicker than you can!" + +"I'm afraid I'm too tired just now, my little girl." + +"Oh, poor papa! are you tired?" And she came up and took him by +the hand. Then she slipped her arm into his--it was just as good +fun to walk up the hill on her father's arm like a grown-up young +lady. + +Then came the frosts. And one morning the hilltops were turned +into leaden grey clouds from which the snow came sweeping down. +Merle stood at the window, her face grey in the clammy light. She +looked down the valley to where the mountains closed it in; it +seemed still narrower than before; one's breath came heavily, and +one's mind seemed stifled under cold damp wrappings. + +Ugh! Better go out into the kitchen and set to work again--work-- +work and forget. + +Then one day there came a letter telling her that her mother was +dead. + + + +Chapter III + + +DEAR KLAUS BROCK,-- + +Legendary being! Cast down from Khedivial heights one day and up +again on high with Kitchener the next. But, in Heaven's name, what +has taken you to the Soudan? What made you go and risk your life +at Omdurman? The same old desperation, I suppose, that you're +always complaining about. And why, of all things, plant yourself +away in an outpost on the edge of the wilderness, to lie awake at +nights nursing suicidal thoughts over Schopenhauer? You have lived +without principles, you say. And wasted your youth. And are +homeless now all round, with no morals, no country, no religion. +But will you make all this better by making things much worse? + +You've no reason to envy me my country life, by the way, and +there's no sense in your going about longing for the little church +of your childhood, with its Moses and hymns and God. Well, longing +does no harm, perhaps, but don't ever try to find it. The fact is, +old fellow, that such things are not to be found any more. + +I take it that religion had the same power on you in your childhood +as it had with me. We were wild young scamps, both of us, but we +liked going to church, not for the sake of the sermons, but to bow +our heads when the hymn arose and join in singing it. When the +waves of the organ-music rolled through the church, it seemed--to +me at least--as if something were set swelling in my own soul, +bearing me away to lands and kingdoms where all at last was as it +should be. And when we went out into the world we went with some +echo of the hymn in our hearts, and we might curse Jehovah, but in +a corner of our minds the hymn lived on as a craving, a hunger for +some world-harmony. All through the busy day we might bear our +part in the roaring song of the steel, but in the evenings, on our +lonely couch, another power would come forth in our minds, the +hunger for the infinite, the longing to be cradled and borne up on +the waves of eternity, whose way is past all finding out. + +Never believe, though, that you'll find the church of your +childhood now in any of our country places. We have electric light +now everywhere, telephones, separators, labour unions and political +meetings, but the church stands empty. I have been there. The +organ wails as if it had the toothache, the precentor sneezes out a +hymn, the congregation does not lift the roof off with its voice, +for the very good reason that there is no congregation there. And +the priest, poor devil, stands up in his pulpit with his black +moustache and pince-nez; he is an officer in the army reserve, and +he reads out his highly rational remarks from a manuscript. But +his face says all the time--"You two paupers down there that make +up my congregation, you don't believe a word I am saying; but never +mind, I don't believe it either." It's a tragic business when +people have outgrown their own conception of the divine. And we-- +we are certainly better than Jehovah. The dogma of the atonement, +based on original sin and the bloodthirstiness of God, is revolting +to us; we shrug our shoulders, and turn away with a smile, or in +disgust. We are not angels yet, but we are too good to worship +such a God as that. + +There is some excuse for the priest, of course. He must preach of +some God. And he has no other. + +Altogether, it's hardly surprising that even ignorant peasants +shake their heads and give the church a wide berth. What do they +do on Sundays, then? My dear fellow, they have no Sunday. They +sit nodding their heads over a long table, waiting for the day to +pass. They remind one of plough horses, that have filled their +bellies, and stand snoring softly, because there's no work today. + +The great evolutionary scheme, with its wonders of steel and +miracles of science, goes marching on victoriously, I grant you, +changing the face of the world, hurrying its pulse to a more and +more feverish beat. But what good will it do the peasant to be +able to fly through the air on his wheelbarrow, while no temple, no +holy day, is left him any more on earth? What errand can he have +up among the clouds, while yet no heaven arches above his soul? + +This is the burning question with all of us, with you in the desert +as with us up here under the Pole. To me it seems that we need One +who will make our religion new--not merely a new prophet, but a new +God. + +You ask about my health--well, I fancy it's too early yet to speak +about it. But so much I will say: If you should ever be in pain +and suffering, take it out on yourself--not on others. + +Greetings from us all. + +Yours, + +PEER DALESMAN. + + + +Chapter IV + + +Christmas was near, the days were all grey twilight, and there was +a frost that set the wall-timbers cracking. The children went +about blue with cold. When Merle scrubbed the floors, they turned +into small skating-rinks, though there might be a big fire in the +stove. Peer waded and waded through deep snow to the well for +water, and his beard hung like a wreath of icicles about his face. + +Aye, this was a winter. + +Old Raastad's two daughters were in the dairy making whey-cheese. +The door was flung open, there was a rush of frosty air, and Peer +stood there blinking his eyes. + +"Huh! what smokers you two are!" + +"Are we now?" And the red-haired one and the fair-haired one both +giggled, and they looked at each other and nodded. This queer +townsman-lodger of theirs never came near them that he didn't crack +jokes. + +"By the way, Else, I dreamed last night that we were going to be +married." + +Both the girls shrieked with delight at this. + +"And Mari, you were married to the bailiff." + +"Oh my! That old creature down at Moen?" + +"He was much older. Ninety years old he was." + +"Uf!--you're always at your nonsense," said the red-haired girl, +stirring away at her huge, steaming cauldron. + +Peer went out again. The girls were hardly out of their teens, and +yet their faces seemed set already and stiff with earnestness. And +whenever Peer had managed to set them laughing unawares, they +seemed frightened the next minute at having been betrayed into +doing something there was no profit in. + +Peer strode about in the crackling snow with his fur cap drawn down +over his ears. Jotunheim itself lay there up north, breathing an +icy-blue cold out over the world. + +And he? Was he to go on like this, growing hunchbacked under a +burden that weighed and bowed him down continually? Why the devil +could he not shake it off, break away from it, and kick out bravely +at his evil fate? + +"Peer," asked Merle, standing in the kitchen, "what did you think +of giving the children for a Christmas present?" + +"Oh, a palace each, and a horse to ride, of course. When you've +more money than you know what to do with, the devil take economy. +And what about you, my girl? Any objection to a couple of thousand +crowns' worth of furs?" + +"No, but seriously. The children haven't any ski--nor a hand- +sleigh." + +"Well, have you the money to buy them? I haven't." + +"Suppose you tried making them yourself?" + +"Ski?" Peer turned over the notion, whistling. "Well, why not? +And a sleigh? We might manage that. But what about little Asta?-- +she's too little for that sort of thing." + +"She hasn't any bed for her doll." + +Peer whistled again. "There's something in that. That's an idea. +I'm not so handless yet that I couldn't--" + +He was soon hard at it. There were tools and a joiner's bench in +an outhouse, and there he worked. He grew easily tired; his feet +tried constantly to take him to the door, but he forced himself to +go on. Is there anything in the notion that a man can get well by +simply willing it? I will, will, will. The thought of others +besides himself began to get the upper hand of those birds of prey +ravening in his head. Presents for the children, presents that +father had made himself--the picture made light and warmth in his +mind. Drive ahead then. + +When it came to making the iron ribbons for the sleigh runners he +had to go across to the smithy; and there stood a cottar at work +roughing horseshoes. Red glowing iron once more, and steel. The +clang of hammer on anvil seemed to tear his ears; yet it drew him +on too. It was long since last he heard that sound. And there +were memories. + +"Want this welded, Jens? Where's the borax? Look here, this is +the way of it." + +"Might ha' been born and bred a smith," said Jens, as he watched +the deft and easy hammer-strokes. + +Christmas Eve came, and the grey farm-pony dragged up a big wooden +case to the door. Peer opened it and carried in the things--a +whole heap of good things for Christmas from the Ringeby relations. + +He bit his lips when he saw all the bags piled up on the kitchen +table. There had been a time not long ago when Merle and he had +loaded up a sledge at the Loreng storehouse and driven off with +Christmas gifts to all the poor folk round. It was part of the +season's fun for them. And now--now they must even be glad to +receive presents themselves. + +"Merle--have WE nothing we can give away this year?" + +"I don't know. What do you think?" + +"A poor man's Christmas it'll be with a vengeance--if we're only to +take presents, and haven't the least little thing to give away." + +Merle sighed. "We must hope it won't happen to us again," she +said. + +"I won't have it happen to us now," he said, pacing up and down. +"There's that poor devil of a joiner down at Moen, with +consumption. I'm going down there with a bit of a parcel to chuck +in at his door, if I have to take your shift and the shirt off my +back. You know yourself it won't be any Christmas at all, if we +don't do something." + +"Well--if you like. I'll see if we can't find something among the +children's clothes that they can do without." + +The end of it was that Merle levied toll on all the parcels from +home, both rice and raisins and cakes, and made up little packets +of them to send round by him. That was Merle's way; let her alone +and she would hit upon something. + +The snow creaked and crackled underfoot as Peer went off on his +errand. A starry sky and a biting wind, and light upon light from +the windows of the farms scattered over the dark hillsides. High +above all, against the sky, there was one little gleam that might +be a cottage window, or might be a star. + +Peer was flushed and freshened up when he came back into the warmth +of the room. And a chorus of joyful shouts was raised when Merle +announced to the children: "Father's going to bath you all to- +night." + +The sawed-off end of a barrel was the bathing-tub, and Peer stood +in the kitchen with his sleeves rolled up, holding the naked little +bodies as they sprawled about in the steaming water. + +Mother was busy with something or other in the sitting-room. But +it was a great secret, and the children were very mysterious about +it. "No, no, you mustn't go in," they said to little Asta, who +went whimpering for her mother to the door. + +And later in the evening, when the Christmas-tree was lit up, and +the windows shone white with frost, there were great doings all +about the sitting room floor. Louise got her ski on and +immediately fell on her face; Lorentz, astride of the new sleigh, +was shouting "Hi, hi!--clear the course there!", and over in a +corner sat little Asta, busy putting her baby to bed and singing it +to sleep. + +Husband and wife looked at each other and smiled. + +"What did I tell you?" said Merle. + + +Slowly, with torturing slowness, the leaden-grey winter days creep +by. For two hours in the middle of the day there is pale twilight-- +for two hours--then darkness again. Through the long nights the +north wind howls funeral dirges--hu-u-u-u--and piles up the snow +into great drifts across the road, deep enough, almost, to smother +a sleigh and its driver. The days and nights come and go, +monotonous, unchanged; the same icy grey daylight, and never a +human soul to speak to. Across the valley a great solid mountain +wall hems you in, and you gaze at it till it nearly drives you mad. +If only one could bore a hole through it, and steal a glimpse of +the world beyond, or could climb up to the topmost ridge and for a +moment look far round to a wide horizon, and breathe freely once +more. + +At last one day the grey veil lifts a little. A strip of blue sky +appears--and hearts grow lighter at the sight. The snow peaks to +the south turn golden. What? Is it actually the sun? And day by +day now a belt of gold grows broader, comes lower and lower on the +hillside, till the highest-lying farms are steeped in it and glow +red. And at last one day the red flame reaches the Courthouse, and +shines in across the floor of the room where Merle is sitting by +the window patching the seat of a tiny pair of trousers. + +What life and cheer it brings with it! + +"Mother--here's the sun," cries Louise joyfully from the doorway. + +"Yes, child, I see it." + +But Louise has only looked in for a moment to beg some cake for +Lorentz and herself, and be off again on her ski to the hill- +slopes. "Thank you, mother--you're a darling!" And with a slice +in each hand she dashes out, glowing with health and the cold air. + +If only Peer could glow with health again! But though one day they +might persuade themselves that now--now at last he had turned the +corner--the next he would be lying tossing about in misery, and it +all seemed more hopeless than ever. He had taken to the doctors' +medicines again--arsenic and iron and so forth--and the quiet and +fresh air they had prescribed were here in plenty; would nothing do +him any good? There were not so many months of their year left +now. + +And then? Another winter here? And living on charity--ah me! +Merle shook her head and sighed. + +The time had come, too, when Louise should go to school. + +"Send the children over to me--all three of them, if you like," +wrote Aunt Marit from Bruseth. No, thanks; Merle knew what that +meant. Aunt Marit wanted to keep them for good. + +Lose her children--give away her children to others? Was the day +to come when that burden, too, would be laid upon them? + +But schooling they must have; they must learn enough at least to +fit them to make a living when they grew up. And if their own +parents could not afford them schooling, why--why then perhaps they +had no right to keep them? + +Merle sewed and sewed on, lifting her head now and again, so that +the sunlight fell on her face. + +How the snow shone--like purple under the red flood of sunlight. +After all, their troubles seemed a little easier to bear to-day. +It was as if something frozen in her heart were beginning to thaw. + +Louise was getting on well with her violin. Perhaps one day the +child might go out into the world, and win the triumphs that her +mother had dreamed of in vain. + +There was a sound of hurried steps in the passage, and she started +and sat in suspense. Would he come in raging, or in despair, or +had the pains in his head come back? The door opened. + +"Merle! I have it now. By all the gods, little woman, something's +happened at last!" + +Merle half rose from her seat, but sank back again, gazing at his +face. + +"I've got it this time, Merle," he said again. "And how on earth I +never hit on it before--when it's as simple as shelling peas!" + +He was stalking about the room now, with his hands in his pockets, +whistling. + +"But what is it, Peer?" + +"Why, you see, I was standing there chopping wood. And all the +time swarms of mowing machines--nine million of them--were going in +my head, all with the grass sticking fast to the shears and +clogging them up. I was in a cold sweat--I felt myself going +straight to hell--and then, in a flash--a flash of steel--it came +to me. It means salvation for us, Merle, salvation." + +"Oh, do talk so that I can understand a little of what you're +saying." + +"Why, don't you see--all that's wanted is a small movable steel +brush above the shears, to flick away the grass and keep them +clear. Hang it all, a child could see it. By Jove, little woman, +it'll soon be changed times with us now." + +Merle laid her work down in her lap and let her hands fall. If +this were true! + +"I'll have the machine up here, Merle. Making the brushes and +fixing them on will be no trouble at all--I can do it in a day in +the smithy here." + +"What--you had better try! You're just beginning to get a little +better, and you want to spoil it all again!" + +"I shall never get well, Merle, as long as I have that infernal +machine in my head balancing between world-success and fiasco. It +presses on my brain like a leaden weight, I shall never have a +decent night's sleep till I get rid of it. Oh, my great God--if +times were to change some day--even for us! Well! Do you think I +wouldn't get well when that day came!" + +This time she let him take her in his arms. But when he had gone, +she sat still, watching the sun sink behind the snow-ranges, till +her eyes grew dim and her breath came heavily. + +A week later, when the sun was flaming on the white roofs, the grey +pony dragged a huge packing-case up to Raastad. And the same day a +noise of hammer and file at work was heard in the smithy. + +What do a few sleepless nights matter now? And they are sleepless +not so much from anxiety--for this time things go well--as because +of dreams. And both of them dream. They have bought back Loreng, +and they wander about through the great light rooms once more, and +all is peace and happiness. All the evil days before are as a +nightmare that is past. Once more they will be young, go out on +ski together, and dine together after, and drink champagne, and +look at each other with love in their eyes. Once more--and many +times again. + +"Good-night, Merle." + +"Good-night, Peer, and sleep well." + +Day after day the hammering went on in the smithy. + +A few years back he could have finished the whole business in a +couple of days. But now, half an hour's work was enough to tire +him out. It is exhausting work to concentrate your thoughts upon a +single point, when your brain has long been used to play idly with +stray fancies as they came. He found, too, that there were defects +to be put right in the parts he thought were complete before, and +he had no assistants now, no foundry to get castings from, he must +forge out each piece with his own hands, and with sorry tools. + +What did it matter? + +He began to discipline his brain, denying himself every superfluous +thought. He drew dark curtains across every window in his +consciousness, save one--the machine. After half an hour's work he +would go back to bed and rest--just close his eyes, and rest. This +too was discipline. Again he flooded all his mind with darkness, +darkness, to save his strength for the half-hour of work next day. + +Was Merle fearful and anxious? At all events she said no word +about the work that so absorbed him. He was excited enough as it +was. And now when he was irritable and angry with the children, +she did not even look at him reproachfully. They must bear it, +both she and the children--it would soon be all over now. + +In the clear moonlight nights, when the children were in bed, the +two would sometimes be seen wandering about together. They went +with their arms about each other's waists, talking loudly, laughing +a great deal, and sometimes singing. People going by on the road +would hear the laughter and singing, and think to themselves: It's +either someone that's been drinking, or else that couple from the +Court-house. + +The spring drew on and the days grew lighter. + + +But at the Hamar Agricultural Exhibition, where the machine was +tried, an American competitor was found to be just a little better. +Everyone thought it a queer business; for even if the idea hadn't +been directly stolen from Peer, there could be no doubt that his +machine had suggested it. The principles adopted were the same in +both cases, but in the American machine there was just enough +improvement in carrying them out to make it doubtful whether it +would be any use going to law over the patent rights. And besides-- +it's no light matter for a man with no money at his back to go to +law with a rich American firm. + +In the mighty race, with competitors the wide world over, to +produce the best machine, Peer had been on the very point of +winning. Another man had climbed upon his chariot, and then, at +the last moment, jumped a few feet ahead, and had thereby won the +prize. + +So that the achievement in itself be good, the world does not +inquire too curiously whether it was honestly achieved. + +And there is no use starting a joint-stock company to exploit a new +machine when there is a better machine in the field. + +The steel had seized on Peer, and used him as a springboard. But +the reward was destined for another. + + + +Chapter V + + +Herr Uthoug Junior, Agent for English tweeds, stepped out of the +train one warm day in July, and stood for a moment on the station +platform looking about him. Magnificent scenery, certainly. And +this beautiful valley was where his sister had been living for more +than a year. Splendid air--and yet somehow it didn't seem to have +done his brother-in-law much good. Well, well! And the neatly +dressed young gentleman set off on foot towards Raastad, asking his +way from time to time. He wanted to take them by surprise. There +had been a family council at Ringeby, and they had agreed that some +definite arrangement must be made for the future of the sister and +her husband, with whom things had gone so hopelessly wrong. + +As he turned up the by-road that led to the farm, he was aware of a +man in his shirt-sleeves, wheeling a barrow full of stones. What? +He thought--could he be mistaken? No--sure enough it was Peer +Holm--Peer Holm, loading up stones and wheeling them down the hill +as zealously as if he were paid for every step. + +The Agent was not the man for lamentations or condolences. +"Hullo!" he cried. "Hard at it, aren't you? You've taken to +farming, I see." + +Peer stood up straight, wiped his hands on his trousers, and came +towards him. "Good heavens! how old he has grown!" thought Uthoug +to himself. But aloud he said, "Well, you do look fit. I'd hardly +have known you again." + +Merle caught sight of the pair from the kitchen window. "Why, I do +believe--" she exclaimed, and came running out. It was so long +since she had seen any of her people, that she forgot her dignity +and in a moment had her arms round her brother's neck, hugging him. + +No, certainly Uthoug junior had not come with lamentations and +condolences. He had a bottle of good wine in his bag, and at +supper he filled the glasses and drank with them both, and talked +about theatres and variety shows, and gave imitations of well-known +actors, till he had set the two poor harassed creatures laughing. +They must need a little joy and laughter--ah! well he knew how they +must need it. + +But he knew, too, that Merle and Peer were on tenterhooks waiting +to know what the family had decided about their future. The days +of their life here had been evil and sad, but they only hoped now +that they might be able to stay on. If the help they had received +up to now were taken from them, they could neither afford to stay +here nor to go elsewhere. What then could they do? No wonder they +were anxious as they sat there. + +After supper he went out for a stroll with Peer, while Merle waited +at home in suspense. She understood that their fate was being +settled as she waited. + +At last they returned--and to her astonishment they came in +laughing. + +Her brother said good-night, and kissed her on the forehead, and +patted her arm and was kindness itself. She took him up to his +room, and would have liked to sit there a while and talk to him; +but she knew Peer had waited till they were alone to tell her the +news that concerned them so nearly. "Good-night, then, Carsten," +she said to her brother, and went downstairs. + +And then at last she and Peer were sitting alone together, at her +work-table by the window. + +"Well?" said Merle. + +"The thing is this, Merle. If we have courage to live at all, we +must look facts in the face as they are." + +"Yes, dear, but tell me . . ." + +"And the facts are that with my health as it now is I cannot +possibly get any employment. It is certain that I cannot. And as +that is the case, we may as well be here as anywhere else." + +"But can we stay on here, Peer?" + +"If you can bear to stay with a miserable bungler like me--that, of +course, is a question." + +"Answer me--can we stay here?" + +"Yes. But it may be years, Merle, before I'm fit to work again-- +we've got to reckon with that. And to live on charity year after +year is what I cannot and will not endure." + +"But what are we to do, then, Peer? There seems to be no possible +way for me to earn any money." + +"I can try, at any rate," he answered, looking out of the window. + +"You? Oh no, Peer. Even if you could get work as a draughtsman, +you know quite well that your eyes would never stand . . ." + +"I can do blacksmith's work," he said. + +There was a pause. Merle glanced at him involuntarily, as if she +could hardly believe her ears. Could he be in earnest? Was the +engineer of the Nile Barrage to sink into a country blacksmith? + +She sighed. But she felt she must not dishearten him. And at last +she said with an effort: "It would help to pass the time, I +daresay. And perhaps you would get into the way of sleeping +better." She looked out of the window with tightly compressed +lips. + +"And if I do that, Merle, we can't stay on in this house. In fact +a great box of a place like this is too big for us in any case-- +when you haven't even a maid to help you." + +"But do you know of any smaller house we could take?" + +"Yes, there's a little place for sale, with a rood or two of +ground. If we had a cow and a pig, Merle--and a few fowls--and +could raise a bushel or two of corn--and if I could earn a few +shillings a week in the smithy--we wouldn't come on the parish, at +any rate. I could manage the little jobs that I'd get--in fact, +pottering about at them would do me good. What do you say?" + +Merle did not answer; her eyes were turned away, gazing fixedly out +of the window. + +"But there's another question--about you, Merle. Are you willing +to sink along with me into a life like that? I shall be all right. +I lived in just such a place when I was a boy. But you! Honestly, +Merle, I don't think I should ask it of you." His voice began to +tremble; he pressed his lips together and his eyes avoided her +face. + +There was a pause. "How about the money?" she said, at last. "How +will you buy the place?" + +"Your brother has promised to arrange about a loan. But I say +again, Merle--I shall not blame you in the least if you would +rather go and live with your aunt at Bruseth. I fancy she'd be +glad to have you, and the children too." + +Again there was silence for a while. Then she said: "If there are +two decent rooms in the cottage, we could be comfortable enough. +And as you say, it would be easier to look after." + +Peer waited a little. There was something in his throat that +prevented speech. He understood now that it was to be taken for +granted, without words, that they should not part company. And it +took him a little time to get over the discovery. + +Merle sat facing him, but her eyes were turned to the window as +before. She had still the same beautiful dark eyebrows, but her +face was faded and worn, and there were streaks of grey in her +hair. + +At last he spoke again. "And about the children, Merle." + +She started. "The children--what about them?" Had it come at +last, the thing she had gone in fear of so long? + +"Aunt Marit has sent word to ask if we will let your brother take +Louise over to stay with her." + +"No!" Merle flung out. "No, Peer. Surely you said no at once. +Surely you wouldn't let her go. You know what it means, their +wanting to have her over there." + +"I know," he nodded. "But there's another question: in Louise's +own interest, have we any right to say no?" + +"Peer," she cried, springing up and wringing her hands, "you +mustn't ask it of me. You don't want to do it yourself. Surely we +have not come to that--to begin sending--giving away--no, no, no!" +she moaned. "Do you hear me, Peer? I cannot do it." + +"As you please, Merle," he said, rising, and forcing himself to +speak calmly. "We can think it over, at any rate, till your +brother leaves tomorrow. There are two sides to the thing: one way +of it may hurt us now; the other way may be a very serious matter +for Louise, poor thing." + +Next morning, when it was time to wake the children, Peer and Merle +went into the nursery together. They stopped by Louise's bed, and +stood looking down at her. The child had grown a great deal since +they came to Raastad; she lay now with her nose buried in the +pillow and the fair hair hiding her cheek. She slept so soundly +and securely. This was home to her still; she was safer with +father and mother than anywhere else in the world. + +"Louise," said Merle, shaking her. "Time to get up, dear." + +The child sat up, still half asleep, and looked wonderingly at the +two faces. What was it? + +"Make haste and get dressed," said Peer. "Fancy! You're going off +with Uncle Carsten today, to see Aunt Marit at Bruseth. What do +you say to that?" + +The little girl was wide awake in a moment, and hopped out of bed +at once to begin dressing. But there was something in her parents' +faces which a little subdued her joy. + +That morning there was much whispering among the children. The two +youngest looked with wondering eyes at their elder sister, who was +going away. Little Lorentz gave her his horse as a keepsake, and +Asta gave her youngest doll. And Merle went about trying to make +believe that Louise was only going on a short visit, and would soon +be coming back. + +By dinner-time they had packed a little trunk, and Louise, in her +best dress, was rushing about saying goodbye all round the farm, +the harvesters, whom she had helped to drive in the hay, coming in +for a specially affectionate farewell. Her last visit was to +Musin, the grey horse, that was grazing tethered behind the smithy. +Musin was busy cropping the turf, but he just lifted his head and +looked at her--she plucked a handful of grass, and offered it, and +when he had disposed of that, she patted his muzzle, and he let her +cling round his neck for a moment. + +"I'll be sure to write," she cried out to no one in particular, as +she went back over the courtyard again. + +The train moved out of the station, taking with it Uthoug junior +and Louise, each waving from one of the windows of the compartment. + +And Peer and Merle were left on the platform, holding their two +youngest children by the hand. They could still see a small hand +with a white handkerchief waving from the carriage window. Then +the last carriage disappeared into the cutting, and the smoke and +the rumble of the train were all that was left. + +The four that were left behind stood still for a little while, but +they seemed to have moved unconsciously closer together than +before. + + + +Chapter VI + + +Some way up from the high-road there stands a little one-storeyed +house with three small windows in a row, a cowshed on one side of +it and a smithy on the other. When smoke rises from the smithy, +the neighbours say: "The engineer must be a bit better to-day, +since he's at it in the smithy again. If there's anything you want +done, you'd better take it to him. He doesn't charge any more than +Jens up at Lia." + +Merle and Peer had been living here a couple of years. Their lives +had gone on together, but there had come to be this difference +between them: Merle still looked constantly at her husband's face, +always hoping that he would get better, while he himself had no +longer any hope. Even when the thump, thumping in his head was +quiet for a time, there was generally some trouble somewhere to +keep him on the rack, only he did not talk about it any more. He +looked at his wife's face, and thought to himself: "She is +changing more and more; and it is you that are to blame. You have +poured out your own misery on her day and night. It is time now +you tried to make some amends." So had begun a struggle to keep +silence, to endure, if possible to laugh, even when he could have +found it in his heart to weep. It was difficult enough, especially +at first, but each victory gained brought with it a certain +satisfaction which strengthened him to take up the struggle again. + +In this way, too, he learned to look on his fate more calmly. His +humour grew lighter; it was as if he drew himself up and looked +misfortune in the eyes, saying: "Yes, I know I am defenceless, and +you can plunge me deeper and deeper yet; but for all that, if I +choose to laugh you cannot hinder me." + +How much easier all things seemed, now that he looked no longer for +any good to come to him, and urged no claims against anyone either +in heaven or on earth. But when he was tired out with his work at +the forge, there was a satisfaction in saying to his wife: "No, +Merle, didn't I tell you I wouldn't have you carrying the water up? +Give me the bucket." "You?--you look fit for it, don't you?" +"Hang it all, am I a man, or am I not? Get back to your kitchen-- +that's the place for a woman." So he carried water, and his mood +was the brighter for it, though he might feel at times as if his +back were breaking. And sometimes, "I'm feeling lazy, to-day, +Merle," he would say. "If you don't mind I'll stay in bed a bit +longer." And she understood. She knew from experience that these +were the days when his nightmare headache was upon him, and that it +was to spare her he called it laziness. + +They had a cow now, and a pig and some fowls. It was not exactly +on the same scale as at Loreng, but it had the advantage that he +could manage it all himself. Last year they had raised so many +potatoes that they had been able to sell a few bushels. They did +not buy eggs any more--they sold them. Peer carried them down +himself to the local dealer, sold them at market price, and bought +things they might need with the money. Why not? Merle did not +think it beneath her to wash and scrub and do the cooking. True +enough, things had been different with them once, but it was only +Merle now who ever had moments of dreaming that the old days might +come back. Otherwise, for both him and her it was as if they had +been washed ashore on a barren coast, and must try to live through +the grey days as best they could. + +It would happen once in a while that a mowing machine of the new +American type would be sent in by some farmer to the smithy for +repairs. When this happened, Peer would shut his lips close, with +a queer expression, look at the machine for a moment, and swallow +something in his throat. The man who had stolen this thing from +him and bettered it by a hairsbreadth was doubtless a millionaire +by now on the strength of it. + +It cost him something of an effort to take these repairs in hand, +but he bowed his head and set to. Merle, poor girl, needed a pair +of shoes. + +At times, too, he would turn from the anvil and the darkness within +and come out into the doorway for a breath of air; and here he +would look out upon the day--the great broad empty day. + +A man with a sledge-hammer in his hands instinctively looks up at +the heavens. He has inherited that instinct from his great +ancestor, who brought down fire and thought to men, and taught them +to rebel against God. + +Peer looked at the sky, and at the clouds, sweeping across it in a +meaningless turmoil. Rebellion against someone up there? But +heaven is empty. There is no one to rebel against. + +But then all the injustice, the manifold iniquity! Who is to sit +in judgment on it at the great day? + +Who? No one. + +What? Think of the millions of all kinds of martyrs, who died +under the bloodiest torments, yet innocent as babes at the breast-- +is there to be no day of reparation for them? + +None. + +But there must be a whole world-full of victims of injustice, whose +souls flit restlessly around, because they died under a weight of +undeserved shame--because they lost a battle in which the right was +theirs--because they suffered and strove for truth, but went down +because falsehood was the stronger. Truth? Right? Is there no +one, then, who will one day give peace to the dead in their graves +and set things in their right places? Is there no one? + +No one. + +The world rolls on its way. Fate is blind, and God smiles while +Satan works his will upon Job. + +Hold your peace and grip your sledge-hammer, idiot. If ever your +conscience should embrace the universe, that day the horror of it +would strike you dead. Remember that you are a vertebrate animal, +and it is by mistake that you have developed a soul. + +Cling, clang. The red sparks fly from the anvil. Live out your +life as it is. + +But there began to dawn in him a strange longing to be united to +all those unfortunates whom fate had blindly crushed; to gather +them together, not to a common lamentation, but to a common +victory. Not for vengeance, but for a song of praise. Behold, +Thou eternal Omnipotence, how we requite Thy cruelty--we praise +life: see how much more godlike we are than Thou. + +A temple, a temple for the modern spirit of man, hungry for +eternity--not for the babbling of prayers, but for a hymn from +man's munificent heart sent pealing up to heaven. Will it come-- +will it one day be built? + + +One evening Peer came home from the post-office apparently in high +spirits. "Hi, Merle, I've got a letter from the Bruseth lady." + +Merle glanced at Lorentz, who had instinctively come close to her, +and was looking at his father. + +"From Bruseth? How is Louise getting on?" she asked. + +"You can see for yourself. Here's the letter," said he. + +Merle read it through hurriedly, and glanced at Lorentz once more. + +That evening, after the children had gone to bed, the father and +mother sat up talking together in a low voice. + +And Merle had to admit that her husband was right. It would be +selfish of them to keep the boy here, when he might be heir to +Bruseth some day if they let him go. + +Suppose he stayed and worked here under his father and learned to +be a smith? The blacksmith's day is over--factories do all the +work now. + +And what schooling could he get away here in the country? Aunt +Marit offered to send him to a good school.--And so the die was +cast for him too. + +But when they went with the boy to see him off at the station, the +mother's handkerchief was at her eyes all the time, do what she +would. + +And when they came home she had to lie down in bed, while Peer went +about the place, humming to himself, while he got ready a little +supper and brought it to her bedside. + +"I can't understand how you can take it so easily," she burst out. + +"No--no," he laughed a little oddly. "The less said about that the +better, perhaps." + +But the next day it was Peer who said he felt lazy again and would +lie still a bit. Merle looked at him and stroked his forehead. + +And the time went on. They worked hard and constantly to make both +ends meet without help, and they were content to take things as +they came. When the big dairy was started close by, he made a good +deal of money setting up the plant, but he was not above sharpening +a drill for the road-gangs either. He was often to be seen going +down to the country store in a sleeved waistcoat with a knapsack on +his back. He carried his head high, the close-trimmed beard was +shading over into white, his face often had the strained look that +comes from sleeplessness, but his step was light, and he still had +a joke for the girls whom he met. + +In summer, the neighbours would often see them shutting up the +house and starting off up the hill with knapsack and coffee-kettle +and with little Asta trotting between them. They were gone, it +might be, to try and recapture some memory of old days, with coffee +in the open air by a picnic fire. + +In the autumn, when the great fields yellowed all the hillsides, +Peer and Merle had a little plot of their own that showed golden +too. The dimensions of things had shrunk not a little for these +two. A bushel of corn was much to them now. It hit them hard if +their potato-patch yielded a couple of measures less than they had +reckoned on. But the housewives from the farms near by would often +look in on Merle to see how bright and clean she kept her little +house; and now that she had no one to help her, she found time +herself to teach the peasant girls something of cooking and sewing. + +But one habit had grown upon her. She would stand long and long by +the window looking down the valley to where the hills closed it in. +It was as if she were looking constantly for something to come in +sight, something that should bring them better days. It was a kind +of Sunday for her to stand there and look and wait. + +And the time went on. + + + +Chapter VII + + +DEAR KLAUS BROCK, + +I write to tell you of what has lately happened to us here, chiefly +in the hope that it may be some comfort to yourself. For I have +discovered, dear friend, that this world-sorrow of ours is +something a man can get over, if only he will learn to see with +his own eyes and not with those of others. + +Most men would say things have steadily gone from bad to worse +with me, and certainly I shall not pretend to feel any love for +suffering in itself. On the contrary, it hurts. It does not +ennoble. It rather brutalises, unless it becomes so great that it +embraces all things. I was once Engineer in charge at the First +Cataract--now I am a blacksmith in a country parish. And that +hurts. I am cut off from reading because of my eyes, and from +intercourse with people whose society would be a pleasure because +there are no such people here. All this hurts, even when you've +grown used to it--a good thing in itself it is not. Many times I +have thought that we must have reached the very bottom of the +inclined plane of adversity, but always it proved to be only a +break. The deepest deep was still to come. You work on even when +your head feels like to split; you save up every pin, every match; +and yet the bread you eat often tastes of charity. That hurts. +You give up hoping that things may be better some day; you give up +all hope, all dreams, all faith, all illusions--surely you have +come to the end of all things. But no; the very roots of one's +being are still left; the most precious thing of all is still left. +What can that be, you ask? + +That is what I was going to tell you. + +The thing that happened came just when things were beginning to +look a little brighter for us. For some time past my head had been +less troublesome, and I had got to work on a new harrow--steel +again; it never lets one rest--and you know what endless +possibilities a man sees in a thing like that. Merle was working +with fresh courage. What do you think of a wife like that? taking +up the cross of her own free will, to go on sharing the life of a +ruined man? I hope you may meet a woman of her sort one day. +True, her hair is growing grey, and her face lined. Her figure is +not so straight as once it was; her hands are red and broken. And +yet all this has a soul of its own, a beauty of its own, in my +eyes, because I know that each wrinkle is a mark left by the time +when some new trouble came upon us, and found us together. Then +one day she smiles, and her smile has grown strained and full of +sadness, but again it brings back to me times when both heaven and +earth breathed cold upon us and we drew closer to each other for +warmth. Our happiness and our sufferings have moulded her into +what she now is. The world may think perhaps that she is growing +old; to me she is only more beautiful than before. + +And now I am coming to what I was going to tell you. You will +understand that it was not easy to send away the two children, and +it doesn't make things better to get letters from them constantly +begging us to let them come home again. But we had still one +little girl left, little Asta, who was just five. I wish you could +have seen her. If you were a father and your tortured nerves had +often made you harsh and unreasonable with the two elder ones, you +would try--would you not?--to make it up in loving-kindness to the +one that was left. Asta--isn't it pretty? Imagine a sunburnt +little being with black hair, and her mother's beautiful eyebrows, +always busy with her dolls, or fetching in wood, or baking little +cakes of her own for father when mother's baking bread for us all, +chattering to the birds on the roof, or singing now and then, just +because some stray note of music has come into her head. When +mother is busy scrubbing the floor, little Asta must needs get hold +of a wet rag behind her back and slop away at a chair, until she +has got herself in a terrible mess, and then she gets smacked, and +screams for a moment, but soon runs out and sings herself happy +again. When you're at work in the smithy, there comes a sound of +little feet, and "Father, come to dinner"; and a little hand takes +hold of you and leads you to the door. "Are you going to bath me +to-night, father?" Or "Here's your napkin, father." And though +there might be only potatoes and milk for dinner, she would eat as +if she were seated at the grandest banquet. "Aren't potatoes and +milk your favourite dish, father?" And she makes faces at you in +the eagerness of her questionings. At night she slept in a box at +the foot of our bed, and when I was lying sleepless, it would often +happen that her light, peaceful breathing filled me too with peace; +and it was as if her little hand took mine and led me on to sleep +itself, to beautiful, divine sleep. + +And now, as I come to the thing that happened, I find it a little +hard to write--my hand begins to tremble. But my hope is that +there may be some comfort in it for you too, as there has proved to +be for Merle and me in the end. + +Our next neighbours here were a brazier and his wife--poor folks, +like ourselves. Soon after we first came I went over to have a +talk with him. I found him a poor wizened little creature, +pottering about with his acids, and making a living as best as he +could, soldering and tinning kettles and pans. "What do you want?" +he asked, looking askance at me; and as I went out, I heard him +bolt the door behind me. Alas! he was afraid--afraid that I was +come to snatch his daily bread from him. His wife was a big-boned +fleshy lump of a woman, insolent enough in her ways, though she had +just been in prison for criminal abetment in the case of a girl +that had got into trouble. + +One Sunday morning I was standing looking at some apple trees in +bloom in his garden. One of them grew so close to the fence that +the branches hung over on my side, and I bent one down to smell the +blossom. Then suddenly I heard a cry: "Hi, Tiger! catch him!" and +the brazier's great wolf-dog came bounding down, ready to fly at my +throat. I was lucky enough to get hold of its collar before it +could do me any harm, and I dragged it up to its owner, and told +him that if anything of the sort happened again I'd have the +sheriff's officer after him. Then the music began. He fairly let +himself go and told me what he thought of me. "You hold your jaw, +you cursed pauper, coming here taking the bread out of honest +working people's mouths," and so on. He hissed it out, flourishing +his arms about, and at last it seemed to me he was fumbling about +for a knife or something to throw at my head. I couldn't help +laughing. It was a scene in the grand style between two Great +Powers in the world-competition. + +A couple of days later I was standing at the forge, when I heard a +shriek from my wife. I rushed out--what could be the matter? +Merle was down by the fence already, and all at once I saw what it +was--there was Asta, lying on the ground under the body of a great +beast. + +And then-- Well, Merle tells me it was I that tore the thing away +from the little bundle of clothes beneath it, and carried our +little girl home. + +A doctor is often a good refuge in trouble, but though he may sew +up a ragged tear in a child's throat ever so neatly, it doesn't +necessarily follow that it will help much. + +There was a mother, though, that would not let him go--that cried +and prayed and clung about him, begging him to try once more if +nothing could be done. And when at last he was gone, she was +always for going after him again, and grovelled on the floor and +tore her hair--could not, would not, believe what she knew was +true. + +And that night a father and mother sat up together, staring +strangely in front of them. The mother was quiet now. The child +was laid out, decked and ready. The father sat by the window, +looking out. It was in May, and the night was grey. + +Now it was that I began to realise how every great sorrow leads us +farther and farther out on the promontory of existence. I had come +to the outermost point now--there was no more. + +And I discovered too, dear friend, that these many years of +adversity had shaped me not in one but in various moulds, for I had +in me the stuff for several quite distinct persons, and now the +work was done, and they could break free from my being and go their +several ways. + +I saw a man rush out into the night, shaking his fist at heaven and +earth; a madman who refused to play his part in the farce any more, +and so rushed down towards the river. + +But I myself sat there still. + +And I saw another, a puny creature, let loose; a humble, ashen-grey +ascetic, that bent his head and bowed under the lash, and said: +"Thy will be done. The Lord gave, the Lord hath taken away--" A +pitiful being this, that stole out into the night and disappeared. + +But I myself sat there still. + +I sat alone on the promontory of existence, with the sun and the +stars gone out, and ice-cold emptiness above me, about me, and in +me, on every side. + +But then, my friend, by degrees it dawned on me that there was +still something left. There was one little indomitable spark in +me, that began to glow all by itself--it was as if I were lifted +back to the first day of existence, and an eternal will rose up in +me, and said: Let there be light! + +This will it was that by and by grew and grew in me, and made me +strong. + +I began to feel an unspeakable compassion for all men upon earth, +and yet in the last resort I was proud that I was one of them. + +I understood how blind fate can strip and plunder us of all, and +yet something will remain in us at the last, that nothing in heaven +or earth can vanquish. Our bodies are doomed to die, and our +spirit to be extinguished, yet still we bear within us the spark, +the germ of an eternity of harmony and light both for the world and +for God. + +And I knew now that what I had hungered after in my best years was +neither knowledge, nor honour, nor riches; nor to be a priest or a +great creator in steel; no, friend, but to build temples; not +chapels for prayers or churches for wailing penitent sinners, but a +temple for the human spirit in its grandeur, where we could lift up +our souls in an anthem as a gift to heaven. + +I could never do this now. Perhaps there was nothing that I could +do any more. And yet it seemed to me as I sat there that I had +conquered. + +What happened then? Well, there had been a terrible drought all +that spring--it is often so in this valley. The eternal north wind +sent the dry mould sweeping in clouds over the whole countryside, +and we were threatened with one of our worst years of scarcity if +the rain didn't come. + +At last people ventured to sow their corn, but then the frosts set +in, and snow and sleet, and the seed froze in the earth. My +neighbour the brazier had his patch of ground sown with barley--but +now he would have to sow it again, and where was he to get the +seed? He went from farm to farm begging for some, but people hated +the sight of him after what had happened about Asta--no one would +lend him any, and he had no money to buy. The boys on the roads +hooted after him, and some of the neighbours talked of driving him +out of the parish. + +I wasn't able to sleep much the next night either, and when the +clock struck two I got up. "Where are you going?" asked Merle. "I +want to see if we haven't a half-bushel of barley left," I said. +"Barley--what do you want with barley in the middle of the night?" +"I want to sow the brazier's plot with it," I said, "and it's best +to do it now, so that nobody will know it was me." + +She sat up and stared at me. "What? His--the--the brazier's?" + +"Yes," said I. "It won't do us any good, you know, to see his bit +of field lying bare all summer." + +"Peer--where are you going?" + +"I've told you," said I, and went out. But I knew that she was +dressing and meant to come too. + +It had rained during the night, and as I came out the air was soft +and easy to breathe. The morning still lay in a grey half-light +with yellow gleams from the wind-clouds to the north. The scent of +the budding birches was in the air, the magpies and starlings were +up and about, but not a human soul was to be seen; the farms were +asleep, the whole countryside was asleep. + +I took the grain in a basket, climbed over the neighbour's fence +and began to sow. No sign of life in the house; the sheriff's +officer had come over and shot the dog the day before; no doubt the +brazier and his wife were lying sleeping, dreaming maybe of enemies +all around, trying their best to do them harm. + +Dear friend, is there any need to tell the rest? Just think, +though, how one man may give away a kingdom, and it costs him +nothing, and another may give up a few handfuls of corn, and it +means to him not only all that he has, but a world of struggle and +passion before he can bring his soul to make that gift. Do you +think that is nothing? As for me--I did not do this for Christ's +sake, or because I loved my enemy; but because, standing upon the +ruins of my life, I felt a vast responsibility. Mankind must +arise, and be better than the blind powers that order its ways; in +the midst of its sorrows it must take heed that the god-like does +not die. The spark of eternity was once more aglow in me, and +said: Let there be light. + +And more and more it came home to me that it is man himself that +must create the divine in heaven and on earth--that that is his +triumph over the dead omnipotence of the universe. Therefore I +went out and sowed the corn in my enemy's field, that God might +exist. + +Ah, if you had known that moment! It was as if the air about me +grew alive with voices. It was as though all the unfortunates I +had seen and known were bearing me company; more and more they +came; the dead too were joined to us, an army from times past and +long ago. Sister Louise was there, she played her hymn, and drew +the voices all together into a choir, the choir of the living and +the dead, the choir of all mankind. See, here are we all, your +sisters and brothers. Your fate is ours. We are flung by the +indifferent law of the universe into a life that we cannot order as +we would; we are ravaged by injustice, by sickness and sorrow, by +fire and blood. Even the happiest must die. In his own home he is +but on a visit. He never knows but that he may be gone tomorrow. +And yet man smiles and laughs in the face of his tragic fate. In +the midst of his thraldom he has created the beautiful on earth; in +the midst of his torments he has had so much surplus energy of soul +that he has sent it radiating forth into the cold deeps of space +and warmed them with God. + +So marvellous art thou, O spirit of man! So godlike in thy very +nature! Thou dost reap death, and in return thou sowest the dream +of everlasting life. In revenge for thine evil fate thou dost fill +the universe with an all-loving God. + +We bore our part in his creation, all we who now are dust; we who +sank down into the dark like flames gone out;--we wept, we exulted, +we felt the ecstasy and the agony, but each of us brought our ray +to the mighty sea of light, each of us, from the negro setting up +the first mark above the grave of his dead to the genius raising +the pillars of a temple towards heaven. We bore our part, from the +poor mother praying beside a cradle, to the hosts that lifted their +songs of praise high up into boundless space. + +Honour to thee, O spirit of man. Thou givest a soul to the world, +thou settest it a goal, thou art the hymn that lifts it into +harmony; therefore turn back into thyself, lift high thy head and +meet proudly the evil that comes to thee. Adversity can crush +thee, death can blot thee out, yet art thou still unconquerable and +eternal. + +Dear friend, it was thus I felt. And when the corn was sown, and I +went back, the sun was glancing over the shoulder of the hill. +There by the fence stood Merle, looking at me. She had drawn a +kerchief forward over her brow, after the fashion of the peasant +women, so that her face was in shadow; but she smiled to me--as if +she, too, the stricken mother, had risen up from the ocean of her +suffering that here, in the daybreak, she might take her share in +the creating of God. . . . + + + +TRANSLATOR'S NOTE + + +PRONUNCIATION OF PROPER NAMES + + +For the convenience of readers a few points in which Norwegian +pronunciation differs from English are noted below: + +The vowels a, e, and i in the middle of words are pronounced much +as in Italian. + +aa = long o, as in "post" or "pole." + +e final is sounded, as in German; thus Louise, Merle, etc. + +d final is nearly always elided; thus Raastad = Rosta'. + +g before e or i is hard; thus Ringeby, not Rinjeby. + +j = the English y; thus Bojer = Boyer, Jens = Yens. + +l before another consonant is sounded; thus Holm, not Home. + + +CURRENCY + + +The unit of currency in Norway is the crown (krone), which in +normal conditions is worth something over thirteen pence, so that +about eighteen crowns go to the pound sterling. Thus Peer Holm's +fortune in the Savings Bank represented about L100 in English +money, and a million crowns is equivalent to about $260,000 in +American money. + +To avoid encumbering the reader unnecessarily with the details of +Norwegian currency, small amounts have been represented in this +translation by their equivalents in English money. + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg Etext of The Great Hunger, by Johan Bojer + |
